LET US SHOW YOU WHAT LOVE IS

Posted originally on the Archive of Our Own at http://archiveofourown.org/works/50022739.

Rating: Mature
Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Category: M/M, Multi
Fandom: ENHYPEN (Band)
Relationship: Kim Sunoo (ENHYPEN)/Everyone, Everyone/Everyone, Kim
Sunoo/Nishimura Riki | Ni-ki, Kim Sunoo/Yang Jungwon (ENHYPEN),
Kim Sunoo/Park Sunghoon (ENHYPEN), Kim Sunoo/Sim Jaeyun |
Jake, Kim Sunoo/Lee Heeseung, ENHYPEN Ensemble/Everyone, Kim
Sunoo/Park Jongseong | Jay
Character: Kim Sunoo (ENHYPEN), Lee Heeseung, Park Jongseong | Jay, Sim
Jaeyun | Jake, Park Sunghoon (ENHYPEN), Yang Jungwon
(ENHYPEN), Nishimura Riki | Ni-ki
Additional Tags: Canon Compliant, Polyamory, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con,
Domestic Fluff, Fluff and Smut, Explicit Sexual Content, Boys Kissing,
Boys In Love, Kim Sunoo-centric (ENHYPEN), Past Abuse, Everyone
Loves Kim Sunoo (ENHYPEN), Friends to Lovers
Language: English
Stats: Published: 2023-09-11 Completed: 2023-09-28 Words: 31,193
Chapters: 17/17

LET US SHOW YOU WHAT LOVE IS

by fateSunandRain24

Summary

Enhypen, like a lot of groups of idols who spend 24/7 of their time together, appreciate
when they can give comfort and energy to each others through skinship gestures. But one of
them always were different on that point. Sunoo, the sunshine of the group who always
bright up every room he enters, is a mystery when it comes to skinships.

Or, Sunoo reveal his past to his members. They promised him love and protections and also
a disturbing proposal... Sunoo will learn what is truly love in the arms of his beloved
bandmates.

Notes

(Hey Engene <3 english is not my language, I'm not fluent but I hope your read will still be
enjoyable ^^)

See the end of the work for more notes

 Hard revelation

(TW: for this chapter: mention of past abuse/rape.)

Enhypen, like a lot of groups of idols who spend 24/7 of their time together, appreciate when they
can give comfort and energy to each others through skinship gestures.

Individually not all of them was born really touchy, but as a group they definitely learned how
much these types of bondings can help in their hard journey of idols.

Their love and care for each others is pretty obvious, and even if they do not express it all the time
they always know when one of them need a little more affections and do not hesitate to act for
them to feel better.

But one of them always were different on that point. Sunoo, the sunshine of the group who always
bright up every room he enters, is a mystery when it comes to skinships. At first, the members just
supposed the boy was just not a fan of touches. That can happen even if it didn't really fit his
bubbly personality.

Then, he came out as gay to his group, even if nobody were surprised, they had waited patiently
that the boy felt comfortable enough to confirm it himself. Everybody gave him word of support
and love. A few days later, during one of their movie night, they came to talk a little more about
that.

"Is this the reason why you don't really do skinships with us? Were you afraid it will make us
uncomfortable?" Jake asked cautiously.

"Aah... n-no it's not that..." Sunoo was taken aback by the question and didn't know how to
respond.

"If it is, know that it's really okay Sunny, we will never be uncomfortable with you or your
touches!" Jay said with very serious eyes, that made giggle a bit Sunoo.

"Really guys, I know you all are not like that... I'm just... not ... into that I guess..." He explained
with a lot of hesitation in his voice, eyes avoiding all of his members.
They noticed his uneasiness so they let the subject go but that conversation definitely left more
questions in their mind.

Saying that Sunoo despises being close to his members would be a lie. Occasionally, he initiate
some contact with them, leaning into Jay or Jake shoulder when he laughs. He love to do his
bandmates hair and makeup. He will sometime hold Jungwon's arm when they have to walk
through a crowd. He even allowed the maknae to sleep in his bed after their debut.

But it's the reactions he give when he's not the one who initiates the moves that interrogate the
others. Every time someone will try to lean on him, hold his hands or hug him without thinking,
Sunoo will instantly flinch, distress on his face, and a forced smile when he pull away awkwardly.

The first few times the reject hurt them a little, but talking about it between them they start to
wonder if Sunoo was not hiding anything.

His hyungs were a little bit worried, they didn't want to assume anything but his comportment
makes them think that their precious member had probably trauma he kept to himself...

*****

The occasion for Sunoo to reveal this part of his life appeared one night, when they were drinking
in their living room all together, after their last promotions ended. As usual, these kind of nights
always lent to them opening up to each others, sharing stories, talk about their hard times and
feelings.

They don't remember how the conversations ended up to Heesung talking about his first time he
had with a girl just before I-land and everyone starting to share anecdotes about their dating and
sexual experiences.

Everyone but one, Sunoo staying silent and tense the whole time. When he tried to get up and leave
the room, Ni-ki grabbed his wrist to retain him which made Sunoo escape a little scream of
surprise that made the room fall silent, everybody turning to him with wide eyes.

"I'm sorry hyung! I didn't think... I- I'm sorry I have surprised you like that" The maknae
apologized, panic in his voice.
After a few breathing to calm himself, Sunoo answered lowering his head.

"It's not your fault Riki don't worry, you did nothing bad, I'm sorry I react that way..." The room
stayed silent for a long minute.

"Were you trying to leave Sun? I'm sorry if the conversation disturbed you, that was dumb of us to
not pay attention." Heesung broked the silence.

Sunoo frozed on his spot on the floor, not knowing what to say.

"Hey Sunshine..." Jay started with his softest voice. " You don't have to if you don't want but know
that you always can talk to us, we will never judge you baby."

"We feel like you're hiding something that really hurts you... Knowing you let yourself deal with
that alone concerned us a lot... We're here to listen and to protect you, you know that right??"
Sunghoon affirmed.

"I know hyung, it's just... it's something I wished I could get over alone and never think about it
again. But it's not that simple obviously... I couldn't bring myself to tell you guys about it because I
was afraid you'll see me differently"

"We'll never do that hyung, we're a team and a family. We want you to feel comfortable with us
and we're willing to help you because we love you." The leader declared.

A silence filled the room, the members letting Sunoo thought about what he wanted to do. But the
maknae, who had his fist clamped, blured out with a enraged voice:

"Did someone hurt you?! Who's that fucker?!"

"Riki don't say it lik-" Tried to scold the oldest.

"No hyung let him..." Sunoo cut him.

"He's right... and if you all are ready to heard about that story then I'm gonna told you because I
can't hold back anymore."

Everybody adjusted himself, shifting closer to each other, ready to listen even if they were already
scared and already teary, knowing they will not like what they will hear.

Sunoo took a big breath and grabbed a pillow to hold closely to his chest.

"It was when I was in high school... I was pretty popular and would have a lot of girls asking me
out that would make me uncomfortable, and people were getting suspicious to why I rejected
everyone. Rumors rapidly spread while I was absolutely not ready to come out...But one day a
senior of the school, who was also pretty popular, come to talk to me. He started with nice
conversations, light teasings, and we hanged out often at school. Then he starts to compliment me,
flirt with me and finally take me on dates.

On the first date he came out to me, said he liked me and ask me out. I was so happy to have
attention from someone like that, I immediately agreed to be his boyfriend even if I didn't love
him. I thought the feeling would come later.

The first weeks went pretty good, but after a month he showed me a lot of red flags. He started to
say comments about my friends, my hobbies, my style, how I act...

One day, he learned that I was a virgin...He had this terrible smirk I could never forget... He was
getting more tactile, touching me without asking, not letting me go when I was trying to break off a
kiss... Till the day he abused me... But at that moment, I was so lost that I didn't realised I had been
raped...

He immediately put in my head the idea that I asked for this or that it was normal... So he
continued, being a little more violent each time and he went more aggressive in his words too,
insulting me, saying horrible things about my body, destroying all confidence I had in me... It went
like that for five months before I got accepted as a trainee and I had to leave for Seoul.

When I announced to him that, he went so mad, but it was the first time I had the courage to fight
back. I escaped without turning back and never heard of him again after that...

Trainee days were hard, but it helped me getting my head out of this relation and regaining a bit of
confidence. I still had to deal with eating disorder like you all know...but I neglected my trauma.

But meeting you guys was really the best things that could happen in my life. I just wish I could
stop being triggered when you try to do skinships with me... I swear guys, I always feel so bad
when I reject you while I would like to hold you like you do with each others... I'm sorry..."

"Don't you dare apologized! Nothing, absolutly nothing is your fault in this alright?!" Jay
exclaimed.
Sunoo finally look up to watch his members one by one. They were all either teary, crying or biting
their lips out of anger... Finally, he let himself broke down in tears.

"Hyung... is it okay if one of us hug you?" Jungwon asked cautiosly.

"Y-yes please... I want all of you." Sunoo sobbed.

Nobody thought about how the formulation was weird, they understood what he needs. They
approached very slowly, Ni-ki was the first to wrap an arm around his shoulders and lean his head
on his shoulder.

Seeing that Sunoo let a sigh of relieved and slowly end his hiccup, Jungwon went on the other side
to do the same. Jay and Heesung grabbed each of his hands, holding and caressing it softly.

Jake went behind, and when he put his hands on his waist he murmured " Is this okay?" Sunoo nod
and he wrapped his arms slowly around his middle to hug him from behind with a loose arm so the
younger won't feel imprisoned.

Sunghoon was the last to approach him, he sat in front of Sunoo, locking his eyes with his and
giving him a warm smile even if his hands was still trembling from anger and sadness.

They stay like that during long minutes, murmuring soft words to each others. Sunoo was so glad
to have them, he felt warm and safe. They finally decided to all bring the mattress in the living
room to sleep all together. Ni-ki didn't want to let go of Sunoo, even if he keeps on asking if this
was okay for the latter, so they fall asleep hugging each other.
 The proposition

Since his revelation, the members have been all caring with Sunoo and even if he was embarrassed
sometimes to be treated like a princess, he secretly enjoyed it a lot.

They were so considerate, asking for his consent before initiating skinships but not holding back to
request for some or encouraging Sunoo to do some too. He was truly trusting them with all his
heart.

Just a few days after, Jay and Heesung came to him with serious faces and asked Sunoo if anybody
knew of the story, if he went to the police. The youngest answer no to both questions, head low.

He quickly explained that he didn't need that, that he had them now and it was all he wanted. He
added that he really didn't want to deal with the justice because of his position as an idol. He knew
his story could be leaked to the public if he did report it and he didn't want his private life exposed
like that.

His hyungs understood his arguments but asked him if he would agree to talk about it to at least
one of their managers, giving them the name of his aggressor just in case he try to come to him, so
the staff and the security could protect him. Sunoo was reluctant at first, but with the reassurance
of his hyungs he agreed.

Jay finished by saying he did some researches on therapy that could be useful for him. He
explained them all to Sunoo who listened silently, wondering if he was ready to talk to a
professional. But Jay, knowing what's going on in the younger's head comfort him.

"I have found someone with a great reputation, a nice woman who will for sure keep the secret and
would never judge you for the beautiful person you are. You could start with a trial? And I
promise I or one of us would go with you, waiting for you each time." Jay said giving him a soft
smile. That convinced him and he accepted.

*****

The week after, he was coming back to the dorm after his first seance with his psy. As promised,
Jay was with him, holding his hands while heading back to the dorm because Sunoo asked for a
night walk to breath a little fresh air.
"It was a really good talk I had with the psy, she's so sweet! She explained to me how we could try
some hypnotherapy and EMDR to deal with my trauma, it's really interesting! Thank you Jay
hyung." Sunoo said with a bright smile.

"I'm glad Sunshine, don't need to thank me. I'm proud of you to take this step."

They were silent for a while, appreciating each others presence and the calm night.

"You know... I think I could never have any relationship in my life..." stated Sunoo breaking the
silence.

"What? Why? I'm sure you will fall in love with someone nice and caring, you deserve it." Jay
affirmed.

"I don't know... maybe... I just don't see myself encounter someone new. As friends yes of course,
I'm friendly and extrovert. But not as more... I do not see myself having any kind of intimate
relations with someone I can 100% trust. And in my life the only one who can fulfill that trust are
my family... and you guys..." He said the last words almost whispering.

Jay didn't say anything, he just tightened his hold on Sunoo's hand and let his own thoughts
working hard.

When they get back to the dorm, Jay called a hyung line meeting in Heesung room.

***

(Two days later)

"Sunoo can we talk to you?" All his hyungs were standing in front of his bed.

"Yeah of course, what's wrong?" Sunoo frowned, confused but still inviting them to gather near
him.

All of them sat on the bed, Jay and Jake went to each side of Sunoo while Heesung and Sunghoon
sat in front of him.

"So... We discussed about this with the guys..." Heesung started carefully.

"We know this conversation might be a little out of the blue and embarrassing but mostly if it gets
you triggered you have to tell us right away so we will stop okay Sun?"

Sunoo nod even more perplexed. Heesung took a breath and continued.

"The other days you talked about how your past abused got you really stressed out about
experimenting real things even if you would still like to try...We kinda talked about how you doing
these experiences with the peoples you trust will be easier and safer... So we're willing to do that
for you."

"WHAT????" Sunoo shouted.

"Listen first... we love and care for you very much and our proposition doesn't mean you have to
accept it. Just know that even if you say no now but change your minds in 2 months, 1 year or 5
years, the proposition will still be there. You just have to ask us if you want to and we'll do
everything to give you a safe and comfortable time, to give you the attention and affection you
need." Jay explained calmy even if his cheek was getting pink.

"No matter what you want to do, cuddles, kisses or more... You can go to us or just one of us if it's
making you more comfortable. We promise to never question your choices. We talked about this
with Jungwon too... well not the "more" part as we felt awkward to talk about that with the
youngest but he's willing to help you too..." Jake continued.

"We want you to feel safe with all of these Sunshine." Heesung added smiling, reaching his hand.
Sunoo took it after a big gulp.

"But you guys are not..." He started, hesitating.

"Not gay? Well...We never affirmed we were straight either babe. And if it was the case it doesn't
matter, as your member and friends, we love you more than anything. Plus, anybody who would
not be happy to be near you is a walking red flag." Stated Jake with a big grin, winking at him.

Sunoo just nodded lightly, his thoughts going fast in his head. Before he turned to one of them.

"Sunghoon hyung? You're silent, what do you think about all of this?"

"Uhm... You know I'm not the best with words and feelings but I would not be there if I didn't
100% agreed with everything they said. I'm here if you need me." Sunghoon affirmed looking him
straight in the eyes.

"Ok...That's kinda... unexpected but I want to thank you anyway about this proposition... I still
have to process all of that..."

"Of course Honey. Take all your time, don't pressure yourself with it. Just now you know." Jay said
patting his hair softly.
 Softs moments

Sunoo was really perturbed by his hyungs propositions. They still act as usual after that as if they
did not just offered themselves to him anytime he wanted. They even promised to him that they
will never allow themselves to think about him in a sexual way if he didn't make a move or say
anything to allow them.

But he couldn't stop thinking about it... Every time he looked at one of them, he just couldn't resist
the urge to check them out for real, their face, the details, their bodies...

After he gets away with his abused, it took a lot to think about his sexual life and desires without
having flashbacks of his trauma. But as he felt safety within his group, he also felt more safe with
his thoughts and own pleasure.

His libido came back slowly but with the work and his idol life, he didn't let himself be distracted
even when he received some interesting demands by people in the industry. He just shoves them
away politely, not having time and because his PTSD didn't let him fully trust anybody outside his
circle.

Now, with this new ideas implants in his head, Sunoo couldn't help but feeling weird enjoyment to
every gestures, his hyungs made on him. They were still the innocent brotherlike skinships but he
felt something more growing inside of him.

"Sunny, are you okay? You were spacing out there." said Jake half worried, half amused by the
face the youngest was making. They were in the practice room, taking a break and Sunoo seemed
to have zoned out for a while.

"Uh?! Ah hyung! Yeah yes I'm fine, totally... good." He answered not without his eyes falling
along his hyung's veiny forearms and hands.

He gulped before forcing himself to look back to Jake's eyes, bad idea... His eyes were widely
opened, sparkling, his mouth was half open as he was still breathing loudly and his hair was
sticking to his forehead because of the sweat that causes their energetic dance. His hyung was too
mezmerizing and Sunoo had trouble to stay focus on what he was saying to him.

"Manager-nim just called us, our next schedule is canceled we can go home." His hyung informed.

"Oh nice..." He said still avoiding eye contact.

"What do you think about getting ice cream with me and Ni-ki? He craved for it and I thought
about asking you too." Jake proposed giving his best smile to Sunoo. The offer caught his
attention.

"Waaa yes hyung of course I want ice cream, it's been so long! But you pay for it." Sunoo
responded while standing up pouting.

"Of course baby anything you want. " He answered giggling and sending a wink before heading
first outside.

*****

The trio went outside near their dorm to buy ice cream and sat in a park to enjoy the good weather.

"Thank you for the ice cream hyung you're the best!!" said Riki.

"Really ? Better than the others?" grinned Jake.

"Hmm... but don't tell them about it." The comment made Jake laugh.

"What about you Sunoo? Who's the best hyung for you these days ?"

"What? Uh I can't choose... Really, all of you are so good to me. I would never dare choose one of
you more than the other..."

"That's a good answer too... Come here, you've got ice cream all over your cheek."

Sunoo didn't even have time to process because Jake was leaning and his thumbs caressed his
cheek before licking the ice cream he had just whipped. Sunoo immediately flushed at the moves.

"Wow hyung!! you got really bold moves here! Look at how you got Sunoo hyung all flustered!!"
"Really Sunshine? Did I make you shy?" Jake asked with his perfect flirty tone and a little smirk.

"What uuh no?? Not at all!!" Making Ni-ki laugh at his reaction.

When they start to head back to the dorm, Jake leaned onto Sunoo to ask delicately.

"For earlier...I'm really sorry if it made you uncomfortable... I should've thought a bit more-"

"No no hyung!! It's not that at all I swear !! I was not triggered or anyhting I was actually
flustered!!"

"Yeah?" Jake asked amused.

Sunno nodded shyly, avoiding Jake's eyes. The latter is still giggling when he goes carefully to
hold Sunoo's hands, waiting for him to take the initiative to interviewed their fingers, which he did
and he squeezed his hand before taking a step forward. He leaned and gave a kiss on Jake's cheeks
leaving the older shook.

Seeing the scene, Riki tugs lightly on Sunoo's sleeves to have his attention. Sunoo turned, still
holding Jake, he saw the maknae pouting, not saying anything but he still understood his demand.
He grabbed his hand too and tug on it so the tall boy leaned and Sunoo's lips can reach his soft
cheek.

He now have made another boy flushing hard, smiling shyly. He chuckles before diriging them to
walk home, balancing theirs arms cheerfully, being in the middle. The warmth that brings that pure
moment made him smile for the rest of the day.

*****

The next day, he woke up by a soft voice calling his name. He opened his eyes with difficulty but
immediatly smile when he saw his Sunghoon hyung face.

"Hyuuung...I want to sleep more please." He whined with a pout.

"Come on sleepyhead, we have a lot of work to do today." Sunghoon messing the younger's hair,
chuckling.

"A good reasons to sleep more then, I have to be fully rested." mumbled Sunoo, closing his eyes
and reinstalling himself to sleep.

"I wish I could let you sleep Sun but we're gonna be late, I don't want you to get scolded." But
seeing that Sunoo didn't respond he thought of a more convincing idea.

"What if I made you pancakes for breakfast? You love that no?"

Sunoo open his eyes and with a mocking tone he asked, "You're sure you know how to cook
pancakes?"

"Yaah Kim Sunoo, don't disrespect me like that! Of course I know if I offer!" Sunghoon fake
scolding the sleepy boy.

"Ok ok let see that then." Sunoo said, he sat up on his bed and made grabby hands towards his
hyung. The latter looked at him with confusion.

"Can you carry me to the kitchen hyung? Please?" He asked with shiny eyes and his irresistible
pout.

Who was Sunghoon to say no to his pretty dongseang. He lifted Sunoo and put him on his front,
the boy put his legs around his waist and arms around his neck, he let a satisfied sight when he
snuggled his head in the older's neck. The position made Sunghoon flushed, but he tried to not
think of it. He brought Sunoo to the kitchen, sitting him on a chair and said "Wait here" before
quickly going to the dress room and comeback in 10 seconds.

"You seem to be cold, wear this." He handed Sunoo one of his sweatshirt, the younger immediately
put it and smiled brightly at him.

"Thank you Hoonie hyung, that's my favorite sweat of yours!"

Sunghoon nod before turning his back to start cooking, trying to control his heart beating because
of the boy cuteness.

Sunoo kept the sweatshirt on him for the day. Sunghoon couldn't help but staring at how the boy
played with the sweater paws, how he boasted about it to the others and especially how he kept
scenting into the collar, closing his eyes like he was soothed by his hyung's natural smell. The ice
prince felt his heart melt more and more as long as the day passed.
 Soft moments (pt.2)

This day had been really hard and everybody was tired. All of the members were on the couch
cuddling around Jungwon when Sunoo came back of his shower. Their leader had been
reprimanded for silly reasons today, but it really upset him so everybody tried to comfort and
distract him.

"Ki, the bathroom is free " Sunoo said.

The maknae pat the leader head one more time before leaving to shower. Jungwon look up to meet
Sunoo's eyes with his teary eyes and taped the now available sit next to him. So Sunoo took place
next to his best friend and gave him his hand, knowing that the other liked to fidget with his
fingers. At that moment, Jay and Jake leaved to prepare the dinner.

"Hyungs... Can you sing me something?" He asked, watching at Heesung who was sitting on the
ground infront of him and Sunoo and Sunghoon in each of his side.

They immediately start to sing one of Jungwon current favorite song (Never Not by Lauv), and
Sunoo put his head on the younger shoulder. During the song, Jungwon brings Sunoo's hands to his
lips and kissed his knuckles tenderly, closing his eyes and appreciating the voices of his hyungs.

"Thank you guys, I feel better now thanks to you" He said and when he turned to smile at Sunoo,
the latter couldn't help but flush and hide in the other neck.

He wondered how his members always managed to make him all flustered so easily.

*****

After a few minutes of discuting with them, Jungwon had to go shower so Sunoo stood up and
headed to the kitchen seeing Jay left alone to cook. He was facing his back and took a moment to
observe all of his features.

"Do you need something Sunshine?" Jay softly asked without turning.

"Huh? How did you now it was me ?"

"Hmm...I guess I can sense and recognize the presence of all the members." He turned just his
head, because his hands were busy cutting some meat, to look at Sunoo smiling.

"Plus your bodywash mixing to your natural smell is probably my favorite scent in the whole
world." And there he goes, Sunoo getting his face all red again.

He observed his hyung cooking for another minute, biting his lips of hesitation before slowly
approaching and sliding his arms around his hyungs waist and putting his face on his neck.

Jay froze a moment, surprise by the move but melt in the embrace when Sunoo said, lips against
his skin:

"I like your smell too hyung, it makes me feel safe." Jay was getting teary by the words so he let go
of his cooking, quickly cleaned his hands before turning his body to face Sunoo.

The boy was now looking at him with his sleepy eyes but still bubbly and a soft smile he wanted so
badly to kiss. But he restrained himself and instead he cupped the boy's cheeks before kissing his
forehead tenderly. When he heard a sigh of satisfaction from the younger, he moved to hug him
tightly putting his chin on top of the other's head.

"I promise I will always be there to keep you safe angel."

Sunoo whispered "I know hyung thank you" and they stayed like that for a couple minutes before
the others start to come in the kitchen reclaiming for food.

*****

After dinner Sunoo head to bed, scrolling on his phone for a while. He greeted the members, who
were going to bed one by one a good night, but when the maknae entered the shared room of four
he stood a few seconds in the middle of the room.

"What's wrong Kiki?" Sunoo whispered to not disturbed Sunghoon and Jungwon. The Japanese
hesitated a little and finally approached Sunoo's bed.
"Can I...sleep with you?" Ni-ki asked shyly.

"Of course baby, come here!" Sunoo said, posing his phone on the night table and making space
for the younger. Riki climbed under the cover and face his hyung, biting his lips, it seems he
wanted to say somethings but didn't dare to.

"Hey, you can tell me anything that bother your pretty head... I don't want you to hesitate with me
Riki, you never did before..." The Korean said, his eyes becoming a little sad at the end.

"I- I'm just afraid to hurt you hyung. I will never forgive me if I do... and I kinda think a lot about
how at our debut I was really clingy with you, inviting myself in your bed, holding you tight all
night and day without even asking..." Ni-ki eyes was filling with tears because of the guiltiness he
had hold in him since his hyung revealed his trauma.

"Oh no baby no, your behavior towards me as nothing to do with his!!" Sunoo said cupping the
younger's cheeks.

"You are the very first one who helped me without knowing it actually. You were this innocent kid
who saw in me comfort from his homesickness and knowing I was helping you was so satisfying.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you that sooner, please never compare yourself to that monster again, you're
nothing like him, nothing but the sweetest boy I love so much." He said getting closer to Riki face,
rubbing their noses together delicately.

"Thank you hyung, thank you for loving me, I promise I will give you and show you my love
everyday." The maknae said eyes closed, relieved by his hyung's words.

"I know you will baby, let's sleep now. Cuddle with me, I missed your koala hug" Sunoo said
giggling a bit. Ni-ki didn't have to be told twice, he happily put one arm and one leg around his
hyungs, putting him closer to his chest. They fall asleep with the satisfaction of found again they're
old sleeping routine.
 Unexcepected

(a few weeks later)

Sunoo couldn't sleep well these past days, his mind was always showing him an image of his
members, them being all gentle to him, touching him sweetly, he saw them dancing all sweaty and
sexy... he couldn't help but feeling hot when he remember all of the practice he passed observing
them.

But he was terribly conflicted by his feelings... How could he go ask service to each of them
without feeling guilty. And why was he feeling so guilty? Why was getting ride of his trauma
feeling more easy that it should be when he was in their arms?

More and more questions were going into his head, he decided to go out of his room to drink water.
It was around 1 am, everyone in his room was sleeping, he headed to the kitchen and immediately
froze at the scene he caught.

Heesung and Jake were making out, Jake sits on the counter while Heesung was between his legs.
Sunoo couldn't move or think about anything, he was just observing them, feeling hotter than
before.

At one moment, Heesung detached himself from Jake's mouth to go down on his neck, Jake opened
his eyes mildly and let out a big gasp of surprise, pushing the oldest a little.

"Su-Sunoo??" Jake said descending the counter, making Heesung turned.

"Oh my... Sunoo what- uhh do you need something?"

"I – I.... I'm sorry for ...umm... interrupting? I was thirsty." Sunoo said with difficulty as he was
terribly embarrassed but also weirdly dizzy.

"Oh! Here, come, i'll get you a glass" said Jake.

"And it's okay Sun, umm... I'm sorry you witness that like that... Do you feel ok...? Not triggered?"

"No... I'm okay, just surprised... but not really I guess..." He answered while sitting on the bench of
their table.

"Really? What do you mean?" Jake asked while giving him his water.

He took a moment to drink his water, his hyungs sitting at each side of him.

"Well I couldn't imagine I would walk on you two making out in the kitchen at this hour but it
doesn't surprise me that you two are... a thing?"

"We're sorry really, umm to explain to you it's been not really long since we start to umm.. hooked
up." Jake started.

"We didn't really officialised anything, it's not just physical and we definitely like each other but
we both had really long discussions where we discussed about how they were some... pieces that
were missing in the puzzle..." Heesung stated.

"Pieces?" Sunoo frowned, not sure to understand.

"Peoples... peoples, we also both like... but we don't want to pressure anyone so we didn't say
anything for the moment..." Heesung said looking down.

"Do... do I know those persons?" Sunoo asked, unsure if he really wanted to know the answers but
he wanted to be supportive for his hyungs no matter what.

None of them answered, both avoiding his look. He grabbed one hand of each of them.

"I will never judge you, please know that I will always be by your side and all I want is for you to
be happy. If you need help, an ear to listen, you can count on me like I know I can count on you."

Jake and Heesung looked at him and then at each others, it seems like they were communicating
through their eyes.

"Will you be uncomfortable if we ask you to kiss us? " Jake asked shyly.
"What? Me ? Uuh why ??"

"Well..." Heesung said before stopping himself bitting his lips.

"Oh..." Sunoo breathed out, looking in the void for a few seconds.

"You don't have to do or say anything Sunny, sorry if it's-" Jake was cut out by lips on his own and
hands cupping his jaws. He gasped loudly but immediately pressed further into the kiss, letting one
of his hands go on the younger's nape.

They both detached when they heard a little cough, Sunoo turned around, meeting his oldest hyung
sweet smirk. He put both of his arms around his hyung's neck and lean to kiss him too with a smile
on his face. It starts all softly and slowly, but when Sunoo tried to put his tongue, Heesung put his
hands on his waist and pushed him a little making the younger whined.

"Is this okay if we go to my room to be more comfortable?" Heesung asked but seeing Sunoo
blinking with hesitation he hurried to add.

"We'll not do anything more than that baby, I just want us to cuddle to sleep. But only if you want
you."

Sunoo nodded, and as Heesung pulled him by the hand, he grabbed Jake's one.

The trio goes to the oldest solo bedroom and immediately lay on the bed, Sunoo in the middle. He
immediately grabbed Jake's jaws to pull him in a seductive kiss.

Maybe it was the tiredness who was making Sunoo bold, but he enjoyed the effect he had on his
hyung as he bites Jake's pulpy bottom lips and he heard him moan against him.

Heesung who had his lips pressed against is temple murmured "You're so breath-taking, it drives
me crazy."

Jake pulled away to breath so Heesung grabbed Sunoo's chin to turn him and directly put the
tongue to explore the younger's mouth, it was slow and warm and absolutely delightful if you
asked them.

Sunoo pulled away with a big gasp to breath, making his hyungs laugh lightly. Both of them adjust
to kiss right in front of Sunoo' eyes.

"You guys are so stunning..." He muttered.

They detached and placed themself to cuddle Sunoo, Jake's nuzzling in his neck, arms around his
chest and Heesung arms around his waist, his nose on his cheek, all their legs entangled.

"You're the one who's perfect sunshine, absolutly wonderful." Jake reciprocated.

"Agree... Good nights loves and Sun don't hesitate to wake us or push us if you feel too much
weight on you okay? " Heesung said.

" I promise hyung but right now all I need is your warmth, sleep well hyungs"

The trio falls asleep immediately, Sunoo's thoughts all gone thanks to his hyungs presences.
 Feelings

When he woke up Sunoo knew he still had to continue the talk with his hyungs because some
things were left unsaid and he was craving to know the answers.

Now, he was alone in Heesung's room, feeling cold without the embrace of his hyungs but quickly
after that thought Riki enters the room and jumped on the bed, careful to not touch his hyung
without asking first, but wanting to annoy him a little.

"Hyung you've overslept, quick let's eat breakfast we have to leave in 20!"

"Mmmm, nooo I don't want too, I slept too well," he whines while grabbing the maknae's arms and
pulling him so he falls into him and hug him.

"Stay in hyung's arms, let's sleep a little more my baby" He whispered in his ear and who was Niki
to say no to his hyung's request.

"Your arms are my favorite place in the world Sunoo hyung." He whispered back making Sunoo
smiled with pride.

Unfortunately, they stay like that only 2 minutes before Jay and Jungwon enter the bedroom.

"Yah Riki!! You had one job, to wake up Sunoo and you fall into his trap." Jungwon scolded.

Both of the sleepy boys hold each others tighter and fake whines, restraining their laugh. Jay
caught Niki around his waist and lifted him with all his strength before putting him on the floor
and attacked him with tickles making the maknae cry of laughing.

Jungwon and Sunoo observed the scene for a few seconds with a fond smile. Then, the leader goes
to Sunoo, to take his hand.

"Let's go hyung we have to prepare."

Sunoo nodded and followed Jungwon to the kitchen, the two others following them while
bickering. He ate and prepared rapidly before they all went to the van to go to their practice.

He was sitting in the back with Heesung next to him. Sunoo was feeling a little shy, thinking about
the intimate touches he shared with his hyung during the night. He timidly extended his hand to
interviewed it with Heesung's one, looking at his hyung with expectation. The oldest, lightly
jumped from the contact but gave him a smile before bringing Sunoo's hand to his lips. The
younger boy reddened but pulled their hands on his own laps. They didn't let go of each others until
they entered the practice room.

****

The practice went well, they were working hard and most of them were exhausted but the mood
was great. During a break, Sunoo sat on the floor, leaning on the wall and observing all of his
members.

He saw Jay giving a massage to Sunghoon's shoulders. Jake was caressing Ni-ki's hair, the maknae
having his head on the Australian laps, looking at him fondly while he listened to him speaking to
whatever new games he tried. Jungwon were sitting between Heesung legs, both on the floor, the
head of the older nuzzling into the leader's neck who was fighting to not fall asleep.

That's when he understood what were the missing pieces Jake and Heesung were talking about.

Sunoo was so fond of the scenes he was witnessing, he smiled so hardly that he let some tears falls.

"Sunoo you're crying?? Are you okay?" Sunghoon exclaimed when he saw the younger face. He
and Jay immediately rushed by his side, full of worry. Making everybody else turned to him with
concerned frowns.

"Are you hurt? Do you feel not good?" Jay asked while patting on his knee.

"No- no I'm good hyungs I promise... it's tears of joy!!" Everybody got even more confused.

"I just love you all so much and seeing you all together, like that, so comfortable... It gave me the
warmest sensations in my heart." He explained with some hiccups and the brightest smile he ever
did, melting all of their heart.
All of them gathered together and dive into their best group hug with all of them saying sweet
words of love.

*****

Later that day, back at the dorm, Sunoo went to Heesung's room, meeting him and Jake sitting on
the bed, back on the wall, watching some videos on youtube. They both smiled at his arrival,
pausing the videos. Sunoo goes to sit in front of them and said.

"I understood who were the missing pieces you guys talked about yesterday... It's us right? It's all
of us, our group?"

The duo looked at each others, communicating through their eyes, a habit of them that Sunoo found
fascinating.

"You're right Sunny." Jake said grabbing his hand and giving him a little smile.

"And what do you think about it?" Heesung asked carefully.

Sunoo took his time to think truly and realized something major.

"I think that I feel the same."

 Falling in the temptation
Chapter Notes

(There some mature content in this chapter but if you want to skip it I indicate the
begenning with a TW in bold letter and also the end of it. I do not write really graphic
scene but you don't miss anything important if you are uncomfortable reading it ^^)

The trio agreed to take things slow, to take the time to observe the things going on between
everyone. Sunoo thought he should observe more the behavior of his members between them,
before engaging in any type of relation. He does not want ambiguity or misunderstanding to
happen because of the unusual situations he was, having sentiments for all of them.

But Oh... Sunoo didn't think it would be that hard to resist the temptation...

On a random evening, he found himself staring at Jay bare torso because he bumped him when he
tried to leave the dressing room.

"Oh sorry Sun, didn't know you were in there. You're okay?" Jay asked.

Sunoo didn't move for a few seconds, but Jay's hand on his shoulder to have some reaction made
him jump of surprise and he runs away from the room with a red face to go hide in the bathroom.

Jay panicked, immediately worried he had triggered Sunoo. He put the first t-shirt he could catch
and went in front of the bathroom door, he knocked on it with hesitation.

"It's o-occupied, I-I'm in there," said Sunoo with a shaky voice which made his hyung even more
concerned.

"It's Jay Sunshine, are you okay? You ran away quickly... I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable."

Hearing that, Sunoo widened his eyes, feeling guilty. He opened the door shyly looking down.

"I'm okay hyung, I'm sorry I made you worried."

"You don't have to be sorry, are you sure you're okay? You can tell me I won't be mad Sun."

"I promise hyung, I was surprised but not ...in a bad way i guess." He said hesitant still avoiding
Jay's eyes.

"Uh...In what way then?" asked Jay in a confused tone.

Sunoo look at his hyung face, all lost and confused, his eyebrows frowned and lips pouting. He
was so cute... He lost it.

"God hyung... how can you so smart and so naive at the same time?" Sunoo said before grabbing
his the older's t-shirt with fists and pulling him quite aggressively into a kiss. Jay froze at the action
his eyes big opened. Sunoo pulled away at the lack of reaction, hands in front of his mouth.

"Oh my..S-sorry..." He gasped, eyes starting to get watery.

"NO! No please don't apologize ! I was surprised but I'm okay with it!! I swear Sunshine, don't cry
please."

Jay approached and extended a hand carefully waiting for the younger to take it. Sunoo did, and
Jay squeezed it. He gave him a reassuring smile and pulled him into a hug. Making them both
entered the bathroom, the door closing on his own behind them.

The hug was simple at first, a warm embrace. Then Sunno grabbed Jay's collar to tug on it a little,
tracing his collarbone with a finger making Jay shivers.

"Do you understand in what way now hyung?" He asked with an innocent tone making Jay
chuckles.

"Yeah I think I got the message now... You know you can Sun, we've talked about it."

"Can I... for real?" He asked, his lips tentatively brushing his Hyung's neck skin, making Jay tilted
his head to give more access.

"Yes... please..."

(TW: mature content)

Sunoo started to kiss Jay's neck, then he put his open mouth, tongue first and when he heard Jay
gasp he suck on his skin, marking him. He pulled away when he felt Jay's hesitant arms around
him.

"You can touch me hyung, I know I'm safe with you."

Jay grabbed his waist with a hand and the other start to go under Sunoo's t-shirt to caress his skin.

"Promise me you'll tell me or push me If it get too much for you."

Sunoo just mumbled a "umm" onto his skin but Jay pulled him away to meet his eyes. "I'm serious.
Promise me Sunoo, with words." He said with a firm tone.

"I promise you hyung." He confirmed before pulling him by the neck in a heated kiss. Jay lead him
until Sunoo's back hit the wall. When he part away to breath, he tugged the hem of Jay's shirt,
"Take it off." He commanded and Jay obeyed.

"Like what you see?" teased Jay. Sunoo's hands caress his hyung's abs.

"Yeah a lot, you're handsome." He breathed out before going back to his lips.

They pulled themselves more closer, their lower body beginning to friction each other's intimate
part. They continued until Sunoo could feel their erections. His hands went down to palm his
hyung's but Jay pulled away with a surprise gasp.

"You don't want to?" Sunoo asked with a pout.

"Of course I want to!! But are you sure? Don't feel obliged!" Jay hurried to precise.

Sunoo growled and switched their body positions so Jay is trapped against the wall. He replaced
his hands and say with assurance.

"I want it to hyung. Please don't be so careful unless I asked you too."

He returned to suck on his hyung's skin, his hand going under his underwear and grabbed his penis
full hand to stroke it. Jay's breath accelerated and he let out some low moan, while he grabbed the
younger's hair and his hand going to palm Sunoo's cock too. Sunoo pulled away a brief second so
Jay could helped him removed his t-shirt.

"Fuck Sun... you're so pretty." He breathed out. Sunoo pushed his forehead against the other's
looking at him right in the eyes. His hands going faster and tighter, Jay was going crazy.

"I- I'm close... Ah baby keep going.. I'm comming!" He warned.

And then he released himself in Sunoo's hand with a long low growl near his ear. The sound of it
made Sunoo come a few seconds after, ruining his sweatpants because Jay's hands was still
stroking him through it. Sunoo's moan was like a melody to Jay's ear and he gave him a tender kiss.

(End of mature content)

"We should take a shower and go to bed, I see your eyes have trouble staying open."

"Mmmh, m' tired.." mumbled Sunoo hugging Jay's torso.

"Let me take care of you baby, I'll do it for you."

The younger keeping his eyes closed, agreed with littles "hum" at Jay demands of authorisations
("Can I undress you love?", "Can I bring you to the shower", "Can I wash you?"...)
His hyung making sure he had his consent for every move he was making on him, even after they
literally jerked each others off, made his heart flustered. But he was so tired, he just let him do
everything.

"Hum...Do you perhaps wanna sleep in my bed... so we can cuddle?" Jay asked shyly.

Sunoo opened his eyes to see his hyung's timid expression and red cheeks, it made him laugh a
little.

"You're so cute hyung, of course I want to." He answered, giving him a sweet peck.

Jay lifted him so he could bring him to his bedroom. They entered quietly, Jay sees that Jake was
sleeping in their shared bedroom tonight.

He pulled Sunoo carefully on the bed before laying next to him putting his arms around the
younger's waist. Sunoo fall asleep immediately, it made Jay smile fondly. He kissed his forehead
and went to sleep too.

*****

Later in the night, Jay woke up because of the noises and movements Sunoo was making in his
sleep. He seemed so afraid, he immediately tried to wake up the younger.

"Sun, baby woke up, you're doing a nightmare, baby hey!" It took some time to make Sunoo woke
up, Jake stired of his sleep too by Jay's calls.

Sunoo finally woke up but was having a panic attack. And immediatly Jay felt guilty.

"Oh my god.. Sun I'm so sorry!!! I shouldn't hav- I ... Jake please help me !!"

Jake ran into the bed to calm Sunoo by whispering him to breath and caressing his back.

"It's okay Sunny, It's your hyungs, you're safe...What's going on Jay? Why are you apologizing?"
He whispered the questions.

"I... Sunoo k-kissed me earlier and it leads us to do...more... Oh my god Jake! I should've stopped
it, insist when he told me it was ok!! Because seeing him right now it was clearly not!!" Jay said,
hiding his face in his palms and crying.

"Dude stop! I'm sure you did everything alright. You're so gentle with him, don't blame you. He
don't need that right now."

At the same time Sunoo breath stabilized a little and he learned to embrace Jay's shoulder and sniff
his scent profoundly to ground into reality.

"Hyung... You did nothing wrong... My nightmare...I was searching for you, you were nowhere to
be found and He... he came to me, told me that I was alone and that you guys didn't exist... You
woke me up on time hyung... thank you."

"We're here babe, we're real and we're holding thight on you, never letting you go you know that
right?" Jake affirmed.

"But- but... what we did... it still triggered you into this nightmare..."

"Hyung, it's a normal traumatic response... You gave me something amazing, an intimate moment
filled with care and love and my trauma just panicked at the idea it could go away from me... I
knew this could happen I talked about this with my psy. I know that I'm with you all but my trauma
just need to integrate the idea that the past is in the past and that I'm safe now."

"I think I understand... thank you for explaining to me sweetheart. I promise we will be careful to
get you off those kind of nightmares if it happens again. Let's talk about this more tomorrow, you
should still sleep, you look exhausted." Jay said drying Sunoo's tears before drying his own.

Sunoo agreed, but when he felt Jake go off the bed he grabbed his wrist looking at him with puppy
eyes.

"Sleep with us? Please?" Jake turned his head to watch Jay reaction.
The latter gave him a soft smile and nodded. They squeezed together on the little bed, good things
it was winter, it made them warmer. Sunoo got back to sleep immediately.

Jake could hear that Jay was still perturbed and agitated, so he grabbed his hand that was on
Sunoo's waist and caressed it.

"It's okay Jay... He's okay, you did nothing wrong honey."

Jay just squeezed his hand to thank him, his face flushing furiously. It was the first time Jake ever
called him by a pet name or was so gentle with him. Why was he feeling so confused?

He finally fell asleep telling himself, "Well...It was definitely a day filled with a lot of emotions."
 Jay's thoughts

(Jay's POV)

The next morning, Jay woke up with Sunoo body all over him, sleeping like a baby. He stared at
the boy for long minutes, recounting all things that happen the night before. At some point, he
heard somebody else moving on the bed, that's when he remembered Jake was there too.

The Australian sat up on the bed yawning, and turned to Jay.

" 'Morning, do you feel better?" Jay didn't answered right away, mesmerized by the wake up look
of his friend. Jake had his hair all messed up, eyes half open and dry lips but he still looked
absolutly gorgeous.

"Aah yeah... I'm okay... and you ? Did you sleep well?" Jay stuttered.

"I always have a wonderful night when I sleep with one of you. Two is even better." He said with a
playful grin.

Jay was feeling hot and baffled by Jake's choice of wording, but he didn't dare to move to hide his
red face as Sunoo was having a good sleep.

"Do you wanna come take breakfast?" Jake suggested.

"Not yet, I don't want to woke up Sunoo by moving... I'm gonna wait for him I think."

Jake nodded, and stood up to pull a sweatshirt, letting appeared his tiny waist as he lift his arms.
Jay looked away, blushing, wondering what as wrong with him. Jake came back to the bed and
leaned to lightly kiss sleepy Sunoo on his temple. He caught Jay widening his eyes at the action
and smiled before leaning further to reach Jay's forehead and giving it a kiss too. Jay just gulped
and didn't detached his eyes from Jake as he leaves the room.

He finally let out a big breath, making Sunoo moves in his sleep, holding his hyung tighter and
putting his head on his chest. Jay thought he might as well just combust here.
Once again, he let his thoughts go... The moment he shared with Sunoo last night made him really
happy, it was awesome. Taking care of him after that made him even more happier. He truly
wanted to be there for him, comfort him, make him feel good, please him, he could do everything
to see again the beautiful sincere smiles Sunoo gave him when they were touching each others.

Then he thought about the younger's nightmare, the guilt resurfaced in his chest but Sunoo told
him it was not his fault and he didn't want to not trust the other's words so he tries to push is
intrusive thoughts away.

Alongside, Jake really calmed him. His presence made him feel appeased, he was grateful but also
confused by his recents actions. Gradually, he could feel his body reacting to Jake's image in his
brain, his beautiful smile and soft voice... The images suddenly changed to Ni-ki's tall figure but
still innocent look, then Sunghoon and his handsome perfect face, Heesung's beautiful smirk and
his nice body and Jungwon... Jungwon's eyes he was falling into everytime he look at him and...

"You're heart is beating really fast hyung." Sunoo mumbled against his chest, surprising Jay.

"You're awake? How are you feeling Sun?" He hurried to ask, ignoring the comment.

"I'm fine hyung...perfectly fine, thanks to you." He said, looking up and smiling at him.

At the moment, Jungwon opened the door to do his morning routines to wake up all the members.

He paused when he saw the duo cuddling in bed, and had a brief frowned before he suppressed it
and said cheerfully.

"Come on guys!! We have to prepared, we have a shooting this afternoon!"

*****

Enhypen were gathered in a green room, getting ready for a magazine photoshoot. Jay had just
finished dressing up and was checking his look in the mirror. The stylist gave him a baggy jeans
with some sleeveless croptop and it was the first time he wore a t-shirt this short, he felt a bit
embarrassed not sure if it fits him well.

Then he caught the stare of his only hyung, Heesung, in the mirror. The matthyung was standing
behind him and get closer to his ear, making Jay shivers.

"You look really good in that fit, don't hide Jay-ya, let us see how stunning you are."

He put his hands on his biceps and slowly turns him around, not hiding the fact that he was
checking him out.

"Hey guys, look here! What do you think of our Jay? This unexpected look really suits him right?"
He asked in a mischievous tone.

Jake starts by letting a big "Wooaa" out, mouth falling open, Jungwon said "Really hyung you're
handsome" with wide eyes and Sunoo applause and gave him his signature smile "Marvellous" he
said, making Jay all shy.

He was surprised by the maknae who just finished his makeup and suddenly backed hug him,
putting his arms around his bare waist and his chin on his shoulder. The warmth soaked up Jay's
body.

"You're really beautiful hyung... I kinda feel jealous we can't be the only one to see you like that."
Jay had to fight the urge to whine when he felt the hot breath against his skin. Why were they like
that? And why was he like that? Why everybody had so much effect on him? Then Heesung called
Sunghoon, who just reenters the room to look at Jay.

Sunghoon whole face became redder than a tomato, he stared longly at his arms and then his waist,
he gulped, looking away and said "looking good" before getting out once again. This weird
reaction made Jay even more overwhelmed by his feelings.

"Are you ready guys? We can go now, let's start with the duo Jungwon and Sunoo." A staff
informed them.

They all followed her to the studio and the others watch the two best friends posing while they stay
in the back.

The pocketz duo was posing for their session, both sitting, Jungwon laying on his back against the
older who embraced him with his arms. Jay found them really amazing and couldn't help but think
about what he was feelings for them.
His love every of his members, but he always had a little bigger soft spot for the bestie duo, having
the urge to protect them and to spoil them. The two have always been by his side, the fact that they
went to the same school and Sunoo being his classmates for three years, really brought them
together.

Obviously, Sunoo didn't let himself be trained more than that before his revelation, so he had
always been considerate, leaving the boy come to him. Their presence always mutually satisfied
them anyway, but they're recent physical closeness bring him an immense feeling of
complementary in their relationship.

With Jungwon, things were different because they've always been clingy to each others. Since I-
land he had been attracted like a magnet to the young leader and it seems like it was a mutual
feeling because Jungwon never missed an occasion to mention Jay if they were not together for
longer than 5 minutes.

They were always all over each others, peoples teasing them about it but none of them talk about
the meaning it could have. Until recently, were Jungwon touches and stares felt more intimate. It
seems like the cat-like eyes of Jungwon were trying to say a million things to him but Jay was a
little scared to understand.

His feeling had been really confused lately, and he was feeling guilty about his thoughts on the
others guys while everybody and himself expected him to engage something with the leader only.

He shook his head, trying to chase away his thoughts for the hundred times this day and focus on
the duo working in front of him. They were seriously following the instructions and at one point,
they had to look at each other in the eye. That's when Jay caught Jungwon's stare, full of love and
desire, on Sunoo and his lips moving while smirking.

"Pretty" The young leader murmured, while Sunoo's eyes filled with stars at the compliments, a
shy smile and pink cheeks appeared on his face.

Jay didn't expect that, but he had a firework exploding in his stomach just by watching his two
precious dongseangs lovely chemistry. "What is wrong with me??" He thought once again and he
left the room feeling too much dizzy, he needed air.

*****

Jay went to the nearest bathroom and splashed some water on his face, not preoccupied by the
makeup artist he'll have to confront later. He also learned to drink in the sink. That's when he heard
the door opened, someone entering. He knew who it was without looking, he always recognized
them, and Jungwon stare on him was the most familiar.

"What's wrong hyung?"

"Nothing Wonie, don't worry...it was just too hot in the studio." He tried to sound convincing but
Jungwon scoffed.

"Wasn't it our photoshoot who make you feel too hot hyung?" He asked with a mocking tone. Jay
turned with wide eyes and stuttered not knowing how he was supposed to respond.

"I know hyung. I know that some things happened between you and Sunoo hyung. I guessed just
by looking at you this morning, to me you're so readable sometimes hyung." Jungwon said
giggling.

"Fuck Won- I-I'm sorry I should've... I don't know... I'm sorry I've not been honest with you,
because I'm so lost in my feelings and-and I don't know how to talk about them especially with you
because you mean so much to me... I'm sorry." He kept apologized, feeling shameful because it
was like he played with their feelings, tears were falling down while he was looking at the ground.

"Hyung, you don't have to apologize for anything, I knew about the deal you had with the guys and
Sunoo, I knew it could happen and always thought it was good for him to have you... to have us to
help him." He paused and get closer, lifting Jay's chin with his hand.

"Don't say sorry when you just listened to your heart and helped our sunshine feel better... I just
have one thing that could be bothering me..." Jay frowned, worried, tears continuing to fall along
his cheeks.

Then Jungwon pulled him by the collar and put their lips together. The unexpected moves make
Jay stumbled backward and he caught himself by gripping the younger waist, making the latter
moan against his mouth.

Jay felt a million things in his body, and dive into the kiss who taste salty with his tears but also
spicy by the boldness of the younger. When they detached to breath, Jungwon's hands descending
to the older's bare abs to caress them softly while he pressed their foreheads.

"Don't think so much hyung. Sunoo's my best friend, basically my soulmate... We share food,
clothes, beauty products, literally everything...Why not our hyungs?" He said with a playful tone.
"What he feel I want to feel it too. What I feel I want him to feel it too." He added with a very
serious tone. "Your words, your touches, your kisses... your love. I want us to experience it
together...all of us together."

He finished by kissing him once again, sweetly this time. He didn't give him time to react because
he left the bathroom after, leaving Jay speechless.

"Jay, are you okay??" questioned Jake who just enters the bathroom, followed by Heesung. Jay let
himself fall on the ground, putting his head in his palms.

"Hey, hey honey you're okay... breath with me please." Heesung said, sitting in front of him.

Jay took his time to calm down, and took a sip of the soda Jake handed him. Sugar always helps
him to relieve stress. Heesung was holding his hand while Jake was caressing his back.

"I... I feel so confused about my feelings but also the feelings of others." He started, then he
explained everything to the duo, what he did with Sunoo, his feeling of guilt, the butterflies in his
chest when the members compliment him, the kiss and Jungwon's weird confession.

"I don't understand a single thing about all of that! I think I'm going crazy." He finished.

"So Jungwon know..." Jake said looking at Heesung.

"I'm not really surprised he guessed, he always had a good sense of observation. What surprise me
is that he hints at the fact he's like us too... It kinda makes me hopeful... Maybe we should talk to
him soon, what do you think Jakey?" Heesung continued making Jay even more confused.

"Umm guys, I'm still here and I don't understand a fucking things of what you're talking about." He
said a little bit annoyed.

"Yes sorry baby, umm... you have a lot to know. Please don't freak out, we'll explained
everything." said Jake patting his head.
 Protective mode

(TW: abuse)

Jay has told Heesung and Jake he still had to process all of their revelations and see if he truly feel
the same about everyone. Actually, he never had to force himself, he loved them all, it was
evident. But he still had to think about the others feelings and how all of that could work.

Today, they were on their way to film a tv show, it's been a long time since they last do
entertainment so Sunoo decided to de-stress everyone in the van while singing some energetic and
happy songs, encouraging his members to follow him. His bubbly behavior truly helped the group
and they all thanks to him when they arrived.

Once they were ready and headed to the TV studio, the host greeted them and immediately the
joyful atmosphere Sunoo had bring broke because of the man attitude. As soon as they started
filming and the host presented the group he placed behind, on the middle of Sunoo and Jungwon,
he pulled them both into a weird hug placing his hand on their waist.

"Waaa this group is spoiled in terms of visuals, look at these delicate figures here, so pretty." He
said squeezing their waist and making them jump and very uneasy.

On the side, Jake had taken Sunghoon hands discreetly and Heesung hold Jay by the shoulder
while putting a hand on Ni-ki's back. All of them were fuming, but they were on the workplace and
in front of the camera they knew it was too risky to say something.

During the rest of the 1st part, the MC continues to make some remarks to the pockets duo like
"Sunoo-shi, you really look like a girl with that pure feature." The boy faked a laugh while he
wanted to scream.

They continue with a 2nd part where they would play games in teams, they had to choose by
drawing a ball of colors, putting them in duo. Jungwon was the only one who didn't have a partner.

"Amazing, I'm gonna be our pretty Jungwon's partner for the games!" Exclaimed the host, putting
his two hands on the leader's shoulders while laughing alone while Jungwon was clearly tense.
Once again Heesung had to restrain Ni-ki who was about to jump on the man.

They proceeded to the different games, the members very aware of every move the MC did on
Won, ready to fight him if he's going too far. Sunoo was really triggered by this behavior and it
hurt him to see his best friend so uncomfortable, he was holding back his tears by forcing his smile
to stay pro on camera.

When the producer screamed 'cut', Heesung immediately grabbed Jungwon arms to pull him in the
center of their groups, hearing he exhaled with a shaky breath. The maknae grabbed his hands to
squeeze it and Sunghoon put an arm around his shoulder whispering to ask if he was ok. Jungwon
nodded before quickly lead them to thanks the staff and production and head back to the green
room.

*****

"I swear I'm gonna talk two words to that motherfucker, who do you he think he is??!"

The members never heard Jay insulting someone that much, especially someone from work, but
they didn't scold him because every word he said was right.

"Let's all calmed down, gather your things quickly and get to the van. I'll go search for manager-
nim to tell him we want to leave early. I'll make sure he report to the company we don't want to
work with this host ever again." Jungwon said with his leader's voice who was strict but somewhat
comforting for the members who were grateful someone managed to think with responsibilities.
They all nodded and prepared to leave, the leader leaving the room to find their manager.

A few minutes later, Sunoo told everyone he needed to go the bathroom before leaving and also
left the room. He turned to the corridor that leads to the bathroom, he heard some weird noises so
he turned around and saw a scene that terrorized him.

The hostile MC were caging Jungwon on the wall, wandering his dirty hands on the boy's body
and trying to kiss him while Jungwon was debating with all his force, tears falling down is cheeks.

Sunoo saw red and without thinking, he screamed and run onto the man to push him with all his
strength. He didn't even watch where the man landed, he pulled Jungwon into an embrace, holding
him tight, acting like a shield.

"What's your problem you bitch-" started the man trying to separate the duo in vain as Sunoo hold
on, continuing to scream to attract attention. And he knew that it worked when he heard a violent
punch and Jay screaming "Don't you dare touch them!! Get out of here before I destroy your face
entirely!!!"

Sunoo turned slightly, not letting go of his precious friend that was still hiding in his neck. He saw
Sunghoon and Jake hold Jay's back, all of them with deadly stare and jaw tighten. Heesung was
moving to placed himself in front of the duo, positioning like a dam.

Ni-ki were the last one to arrive followed by their manager, he probably went to get him for help.
When he saw the scene, he runs to the duo and enveloped them with his long arms, burying his
face against Jungwon's and murmuring reassuring words. "You're okay hyungs, we're here, you're
safe..." but Sunoo could heard his voice shaking.

Their manager took control of the situations, calling the bodyguards, affirming he would reports
the host and make sure he never worked in this industry again. After he took care of it, he turned to
see the members, all hugging each others to calm down. He called them to lead them to the van and
bring them back to their dorms. Nobody really spoke, they just hold each other in silence,
processing what just happened.

*****

When they arrived at the dorm, they all gathered in the living room, except for Sunghoon who
head to the kitchen and came back with a bag of food that was in the freezer. He kneeled to sit next
to Jay, took his hand and put the cold bag on his injured hand.

"Your punch was really hard, you got all bruised and haven't even said a thing..." He said sighting.
"Keep that on it for a few minutes, I'll apply some cream later." He continued, gently.

"Thanks Hoonie..." He said, the ice prince nodded and start to get up to sit further but Jay grabbed
his wrist and asked him to stay close with his eyes. Sunghoon lightly blushed and sat next to Jay,
holding properly his non injured hand.

Heesung turned and asked Jungwon how he was feeling, sorting him out of his thoughts.

"Mm... I'm fine guys, don't worry." He answered without emotions.

At that, Sunoo broke down in tears making everybody worried. Jungwon jumped of his place to go
near his best friend, putting his hand on his shoulder he asked "Can I hug you please?" And Sunoo
immediately wrapped himself around the younger, crying on his shoulder as he gripped his t-shirt
fiercely.
"I was so s-scared when I saw what he was about to d-do... I-I was so hurt and wanted to vomit by
every move he made on you during the shoot. I feel sick about the possibility it could have been
worse. P-please tell us the truth, don't hide your feeling, don't repeat my mistakes.I know you, you
want to be in control of your emotions, you-you don't let things got to you but right now, trust me
you need to let it go. We're here to listen, to comfort you... please Wonie... I love you, I love you so
much... Talk to me. " Sunoo rambled while crying.

Jungwon had started crying too, hiding his face on the older's neck. He took the time to breathe a
little and spoke up.

"You're right hyung, I feel terrible... I know it will pass, but right now I just want to scrape all the
skin he touches... I feel so dirty. I wanted so badly to scream all my hatred at his face but just
couldn't because of fear...But I am so glad you guys were there and are still and always by my side.
Thank you to remind me babe, I feel very sick but now that I said it I know you all gonna take care
of me instead of letting myself drowned alone. " The leader finished talking and watched at his
members who were all teary.

"Of course we'll take care of you love, always... Today has been tiring for everyone, how about we
go showered while we wait for food. I'm gonna pass a command." Heesung proposed.

Everybody agreed, getting up, except for Jungwon who was still holding Sunoo. The others came
one by one to gave them a little kiss on the head before going to their respectives bedrooms.

Jungwon started to balance lightly to soothe Sunoo in his arms and calm his crying. He was
humming some songs too. After a moment Sunoo spoke up.

"I'm gonna fall asleep if you continue Wonie." Sunoo whispered.

"And so? You're tired baby you might as well sleep right now."

Sunoo detached himself to look at him. He put one hand on Jungwon's cheek and caressing it while
looking straight in his eyes.

"No way, you need me tonight." He assured.

"Hyung... You got badly triggered today, you too-"

"I don't care, I just want to take care of you, let me do it please, it's all I need right now."

Jungwon finally gave up after a long staring battle between them, he sighted and nodded.

"Nice... Now tell me what you need love." Sunoo demanded so kindly.

"Could you... help me shower later? I don't feel like dealing with my body alone right now, I'm a
little scared I'll just rip all my skin apart right now." Jungwon asked a little bit ashamed, head low.

"Of course Won, I'll help you, don't worry." Sunoo said taking his chin to made him look at him
and smiled at him.

*****

A little later, Jake left the bathroom and informed them that they could go in it, as everybody else
had finished shower. Sunoo, rapidly went to the dressing room to get their pyjama and held his
hand to Jungwon to lead him to the bathroom.

"What do you think about taking a warm bath? It will help you relax a bit more." Sunoo suggested.

Jungwon nodded and asked for his favorite bath bomb, one who was not scenting too much,
because he will get dizzy otherwise, but still made nice bubbles. Sunoo took it and put it in the
water as he filled the bath at the perfect temperature. Then he helped Jungwon undress, slowly and
carefully, making sure to talk to the boy to keep him grounded with him and gave him smile to
reassure him.

He helped him to enter the water but when Jungwon was sitting in the bath, he felt the lack of
contact unbearable, feeling too much the memories of the dirty hands that were on him earlier, he
got teary again and look at his hyung.

"I'm sorry to ask you that, and of course you can say no but... do you mind coming in the bath with
me?" He asked with his bubba eyes all shiny because of the tears.
"No, don't worry, love! I don't mind... I'm coming, wait" He quickly undressed himself and entered
the water sitting behind Jungwon. He couldn't control his red face but tried to not think about it as
he heard a soft "Thank you hyung."

"Do you want me to help you rubbing the soap for you?" He saw the younger nod, so he took the
product in his hands and put it on a wash cloth. "You tell me if you want me to stop okay?" He
waited for another nod before starting.

He went slowly and singing softly to keep the other mind occupy, caressing delicately Won's skin
with the gloves. He took care of his back, his neck, shoulders and arms and land him the gloves
whispering near his ear.

"Can you do the rest while I'm washing your hair baby?" Jungwon let a "hum" to agree. He quickly
finished to rub his skin and then took the time to enjoy the scalp massage his hyung was doing.
After that he heard Sunoo quickly washing himself too.

"Are you doing your hair too?" he asked.

"No it's okay, I'll do it tommorow. Do you want to get out?"

Jungwon leaned hesitantly so his back pressed the older's chest. "If that's okay for you, can we stay
like that a little?" Jungwon whispered.

"Yes, of course, everything you need." Sunoo answered, putting an arm around his shoulder and his
fingers going to caress his hair making Jungwon sight with satisfaction. They stayed like that for a
while in a comfortable silence.

"It makes me so sad to know that you were alone to deal with your trauma... I don't know how I'll
do if you guys weren't there for me." Jungwon murmured in a hurt tone.

Sunoo heart hurts a bit at the memories of this time. He leaned to plant a kiss on Jungwon's
shoulder and murmured against his skin.

"It's true it was a hard time but I'm more than happy that it leads me to be with all of you... I'm not
alone anymore."
"And I'll make sure you'll never be, I've got you for life hyung." Jungwon said before lifting his
head and kissed Sunoo's cheek.

The two boys were now staring at each others, cheeks red but as Jungwon started to lean near
Sunoo's face, they were stopped by a knock on the door.

"Foods arrived hyungs!" They heard the maknae informed outside.

"Thanks Ki, we're coming." Shouted back Sunoo.

They quickly get out of the bath and put their pyjama before they joined the others. The duo didn't
let go of each other all night and finished by sleeping cuddled together.
 Sweet touches

Sunoo woke up with his phone ring, when he moved to end it the door opened and Heesung went
to the bed Jungwon and him where laying.

"Hi babies, I received a call from manager-nim, he cancelled work for today. He have to deal with
what happened yesterday. He will send Jungwon the reschedule later in the day. He also told us to
rest well and take care."

"Nice thank you hyung" murmured Jungwon, eyes still closed and head still in Sunoo's neck.

"Sunghoon is taking Ni-ki to cinema and arcade, Jay is visiting his mom and Jake and I will chill in
my room. Come find us if you need anything. Well... knock before maybe, just in case." He added
with a smirk making chuckled the duo.

Heesung leaned to kiss them on the cheek and left the room but not without reminding them to rest
well and that they were leftover in the fridge.

They stayed unmoving for about half an hour, holding each other, eyes closes but not sleeping.
Until Sunoo's felt soft peckering against his skin on his neck and jaw. He exhaled loudly still not
opening his eyes and just hummed when he heard a soft "is this okay?"

After a few more, Sunoo whined, "Jungwonnie... please kiss me" and so the younger did. The kiss
felt so natural and evident, it was soft even when their lips started to move faster. Jungwon was
over Sunoo pressed against his body and Sunoo had his hand gripping the back of his t-shirt.

(TW: mature content)

At one point Jungwon started to move his hips so their crotch was touching, both immediately
reacting to it. Sunoo started panting severely, and Jungwon take this as a cue to detached. He lifts
Sunoo t-shirt so he could kiss and lick his hyung's porcelain skin on his chest and stomach. Sunoo
let noises out of his mouth as he buried his fingers in Jungwon's hair.

When Jungwon started to play with his waistband, he started to panic a little, stopping the
youngest, who immediately stopped and returned to face him.
"Sorry sorry hyung,!! I didn't mean to scare you!" Jungwon apologized feeling guilty.

"No it's not that! I just don't want you to do something you would regret after. And I know you
know about the hyungs propositions, don't feel obliged to take part of it like that-"

Jungwon kissed him shut and when he detached he said directly in his eyes.

"I want to... I want you hyung... And I don't do that to cope or forget about yesterday. I do it
because I want to since a long time and because I love you like I love the others and like I know
you do too. And I will never regret anything about you. I just want you to promise me that
whatever happened between us, between all of us. If things don't go well... promise me you'll never
be less than my bestfriend." He finished eyes getting teary.

"I promise love... I'll never leave you." Sunoo said leading him in a new kiss. Once the heat
between them got back, Jungwon talked on his mouth "We can stop here if you don't want me to
continue." But Sunoo answered "No please, continue, I want you to."

So Jungwon retraced his precedent way down with his lips and paused a moment, looking up at
Sunoo's approval one more time and when he saw him frankly nod, he pulled off the older's short
and boxer.

He gently took his cock in his mouth and suck on it making Sunoo moaned and grabbed harder his
hair. He couldn't believe that such intimate moment could be so full of love and that made him ever
more on edge.

At one point he came, arching his back and moaning loudly. When he realized he didn't have the
time to warn the other, his eyes widened and he looked at Jungwon who were swallowing and
cleaning his chin and mouth with the back of his hand.

The observative leader, understood the panic on his hyung's face. He laid next to him, making
them face each others and pecked him.

"Don't worry hyung, It's okay... I wanted to taste you anyway." He said with an intense stare.

"Fuck Won! You can't just say things like that!!" Sunoo said, hiding his face in his palms.
Jungwon giggled and pushed his hands away to kiss him again.

"Wonie... don't you want to..." Sunoo's started when he realised he was the only one who's been
taking care of.
"No I'm okay, don't worry. I'm fully satisfied just with what I did to you and I'm sure we'll have
other occasions. I hope so, It's up to you love." Jungwon said and Sunoo nodded with a smile.

(end of mature content)

"We should clean up and go to eat something. All of this kinda starved me." He started making
Jungwon laughed but he still agreed with him.

Just before they left the room Sunoo grabbed Jungwon's wrist and said "I also do... love you I
mean. I love you Won and I love all our members." Jungwon smiled and peck his cheek,
whispering

"I know."

*****

(Sunghoon and Ni-ki's POV)

"Are you okay Riki-ya? You seemed a bit off the whole day." Sunghoon asked the Japanese when
they were in the car, heading back to their dorm after passing the afternoon together.

"Yeah... just a little out of it because of the event of yesterday." Ni-ki responded, his hyung
immediately grabbing his hand.

"I'm sorry you had to witness all of that, you must have been really shocked."

"I'm okay hyung don't worry, I'm just very concerned for Jungwon hyung and Sunoo hyung... It
hurt me so bad to see them in that state." The boy getting a little teary as the images replayed in his
head.
"Hey, hey... I know it was hard and everybody was on the nerves after that but they are safe now.
They're with us and we'll always protect them...We'll always protect each others. Okay baby?"

Ni-ki nodded, flustered because Sunghoon were not the type to show his affection like that.

After a few minutes, the Japanese spoke again.

"Hyung? Did you noticed how the others act around each others these days? Especially how they
act around Sunoo hyung? I mean... obviously we all want to give him attention and affection, he
deserves it but... I feel that they're more..."

Sunghoon was taken aback by the question. He didn't know anyone had prevented the maknae
about the deal they made with Sunoo.

Of course, he had observed from far away, how the affection of the members had been more more
intimate as days past. A few days ago, he had caught a conversation between Jake and Jay, hinting
that the latter had shared a moment with their sunshine.

When he heard that, Sunghoon had felt a weird sensation. Was it jealousy? It doesn't seem so. He
was not mad at Jay, but yes he would be lying if he hadn't thought about being in one of the two
place. Or simply with them... Those thoughts were too weird for Sunghoon do deal with, he was
never good to express his feelings, so he just tries to push them away.

He kept taking care of Sunoo nonchalantly, and even if he craves to do more for him, he wasn't as
comfortable as the others to be more enterprising while being careful and delicate to not rush him.

"I think I should tell you about the proposition we made to Sunoo. Don't be mad at the others to
not tell you because they all were uncomfortable about getting you involved with it..." Riki just
waits for Sunghoon to continue with a frown on his face.

"We told him that he was allowed to come to us when he wanted to. To do anything he wants...
anything he wants to do with someone he feels safe with, peoples who love him and that we'll
make sure to treat him perfectly..."

"Do you mean...sexual things?"

"I mean everything Riki. Whatever he ask for. He confide to Jay a few weeks ago that he was
scared to not be able to have any kind of relation because he don't trust anyone outside his family
and us...And he seems sad to have as he one and only sexual experience, the horrible abuses he had
been victim in the past. We proposed because we love him and we want him to receive the love he
deserves." Sunghoon explained but not without being a bit embarrassed.

"Oh..." The maknae took time to integrate everything "and did you-?"

"No! No... I didn't, he's the one who decide and I don't want to make a move that could trigger him
so I wait. If he wants me, he'll ask. If not..."

Ni-ki was a little dumbfounded by all of this, but he knew it was understandable. He just felt very
upset they did not include him in it. Ok maybe they were uncomfortable about him being a minor
but he was 17 and it isn't just about sex. He also could take care of his precious hyung, give him all
his love and smooth touches.

*****

When they arrived at the dorms, Sunghoon and Ni-ki heard some voices in the kitchen so they
headed for it. In there, Jake and Jungwon were laughing happily while Sunoo were sulking in
Heesung's laps.

"Sun, they will continue to tease you if you sulk like that. You're so cute when you're upset." cooed
Heesung.

"Oh hi guys! How was the movie?" Asked Jungwon when he saw the two others were standing up,
observing them. But they never answered the question as their eyes were attracted by some marks
on Sunoo's neck.

"Hyung?! Is that hickeys??! Who did it?!" Riki shouted, making Sunoo all red and looking briefly
at Jungwon before lowing his head.

"Jungwon hyung?? Is this a joke? We're just one year apart! You all keep only me away from your
little deal!? Do you not trust me??" He continued, frustration taking control.
His hyungs were taking aback by the fact that Ni-ki was aware of the deal but understood, when
looking at Sunghoon guilty face, that he might have told him.

"It's not that Ki... They were uncomfortable to talk about it with you because you're still a minor
but also because we didn't want to put pressure on you... I saw how it disturbed you to hear my
story..." Sunoo explained, standing up to get closer to the youngest.

"Of course I was disturbed hyung! I was so mad at your aggressor and mad at myself to not have
understood and helped you earlier! But that doesn't mean you all have the right to exclude me from
helping you!!! Hyung, I want to be there for you, to give all my love too!... Fuck, Sunoo...You're
my first love!!!"

At those words, everybody gasped and Riki widened his eyes in horror at the confession who just
escaped his mouth. He ran away from the kitchen and locked himself in the dressing room.
 First love

Riki sat in a ball in a corner of the room. He was feeling so ashamed of his outburst, he acted like
he was an adolescent in crisis, everything he didn't want his hyungs to saw in him.

And his confession in front of everyone... It was certain that if he wanted to confess to Sunoo one
day it was certainly not like that. He ruined everything, and he wanted to bury himself 6 feet
underground. To top all of that, he couldn't stop himself from crying like a big baby while his
hyungs were knocking repeatedly on the door for him to open.

At one point he heard sounds of protestations and then nothing. He thought for a moment that
everybody left until he heard a firm but not aggressive knock followed by the leader type of voice
Jungwon will always adopt in urgencies to manage a situation with a member.

"Riki open the door please, we'll talk calmly." He demanded.

Ni-ki thought he shouldn't have promised the leader that he will always cooperate with him to
make his role easier because now he'll have to confront something he wasn't ready to. But his feet
obeyed before his heart as he stands up and went to unlock the door.

Jungwon opened the door, entered and closed it behind him. He made a movement with his head to
indicate to the maknae that they could sit against the dressing's door on the floor. When they were
installed, Riki was still head low, avoiding any eye contact.

"You know, I found it really sincere... your declaration I mean. I know it was probably not how
you wanted to do it but it was a scream of your heart so it was beautiful and I'm sure Sunoo felt it."
Jungwon said dropping his leader's voice for his comforting one.

Ni-ki looked at him in the side of his eyes, flushing a bit and eyes getting teary again.

"Really?You think so?"

"I saw it Riki, he was really surprised but deeply touched by it but the fact that you ran away right
after kinda worried him. I had a hard time out there to convince him you probably need some time
to think."
The Japanese kept silence for a moment, many things going throught his head.

"Did you know about the arrangement hyung? Or did you just happen to do things with Sunoo
hyung?" The youngest asked unsure.

"Jay had briefed me vaguely on it, saying that Sunoo would come to me if he felt the need to
include me more. But then... others things happened, that went upon just a friendly help for our
lovely member. I'm sure you noticed it too right? How the dynamic between everyone had started
to evolve into something more... deep and intimate."

"Yeah... I noticed and I'm not gonna lie I had to try my best to tell myself you guys were not hiding
things from me. That you will include me and share all of that when it's the right time...but it's been
weeks and I'm still a stupid impatient kid. I got really frustrated these past days and especially
today I guess..." He explained, breaking down again.

"Oh baby, I'm sorry you felt like that..." Jungwon took him in his arms and kissed his hair.

"For us you were always a part of that but it's a difficult topic even between the first initiators. We
know we should talk about it all together, but I guess we're still a little anxious to do it. And we all
knew for your evident fat crush on Sunoo but we didn't want you to feel pressured if you didn't feel
the same for the others... Same for Sunghoon by the way, he's even more secretive, it's hard to tell
any of his feelings... What I'm saying is for the moment we're just in a phase of observation of each
others to truly understand where these could lead. But I don't want you to feel obliged in anything."

"I knew I loved Sunoo the moment I saw him, but I love all of you too. I just didn't authorized
myself to think about another things that brotherly love because I felt the need to be loyal towards
Sunoo even if he didn't knew. But I would be lying to say that I never went totally flustered over
some of you..." He confessed, hiding in Jungwon chest.

"Oh really? I'm curious now tell me who, I want to know!!"

Riki took a moment to think about the times he went to the gym with his hyungs and had really
hard time to not check out their body. Or when Sunghoon would help him with a machine by
placing himself behind, his muscular arms enveloping him, making his skin burn more from the
contact than the effort of the exercise.

When Jake would play with him until it transformed in some obvious flirt with sometimes a wink
and a little peck on the cheek.
Heesung, who would stay with him in the studio when he get too obssesive about working on
dance so he could check on him and take care of stopping him before it get too much for his health.
Softly wipping his sweat with a towel and getting him back to the car by carrying him on his back,
never forgetting to praise him.

Jay has always been the first to catch up when Niki was feeling homesick and he would cook for
him some Japanese dish, encourage him to call his mom but also staying to talk with her. He often
talks some sentences in Japanese to Niki and always hugged him when he doesn't even realised
himself he needed it.

Sunoo has always be an evidence. He was totally in love with him since day one and he was the
prettiest human on earth in his eyes and his softness got him melting each time he talk to him,
touch him or sleep with him.

Jungwon was the one he was the most comfortable with in terms of skinships, always adorable and
cute, but sometimes his eyes were turning into something indescribable he lost himself into, like
right now...

"All of you... I like you all... Of course I just realized that now so I can't really tell if I love you as I
love Sunoo but thinking about it, I kinda feel it would be so easy to fall for you all..."

Jungwon giggled "Well, know that I like you Riki. I can't speak for the others' feelings but you're
precious for all of us. I like you a lot baby, let's wait for you to be ready to say the others words,
okay?"

"Sounds good, thank you hyung... Can I kiss you?" He asked positioning his face near Jungwon's.

Jungwon widened his eyes promptly but turned it into a soft look. He cupped his cheeks and
caressed the now dry tears with his thumbs. Ni-ki closed his eyes when he saw him approaching
but opened them again when he felt a kiss on his nose instead.

"I want your first kiss to be with your first love, like I did because a first love cannot be replaced
even if we start to love more than one person... I would gladly be your second if you want me to."

"I don't know if Sunoo hyung will kiss me, he sees me as a kid... especially after my tantrum."
pouted Riki.

"You can't know if you don't speak to him. He's comprehensive and he cares for you more than
anyone. I'm sure everything will be ok, don't worry too much."
They started to leave the room but Ni-ki stopped in his track asking "Wait hyung! Your first love?
Isn't it Jay??" Jungwon smiled grew wild and his cheeks got pinker, he nodded and exiled the room
leaving Niki wondering how much he missed on his members relationship's evolution. Who the
hell did what with whom at this point??

*****

The rest of the evening passed and Ni-ki took his time to shower and think, but when he opened the
bathroom's door he almost screamed of surprise because Sunoo was standing there, waiting for him
with an indescribable look.

He was smiling but also seemed serious and kinda nervous... It was hard to tell what was going on
in his hyung head and Ni-ki thought about stepping back to lock himself in the bathroom and avoid
him a little longer. But Jungwon was right, they had to talk and he knew that Sunoo would never
judge or be mean to him in any cases. So he asked timidly, avoiding eye contact.

"Should we go talk in our room?"

Sunoo answered a soft "Yes please" and pulled him by the arm until they both were sitting face to
face on his bed.

"Umm... I wanted to tell sorry for my outburst earlier... It was really unfair of me to scream at you
instead of talking about what was upsetting me, it isn't even your fault really I was just being
stupid..."

"Don't say that Ki... You're not stupid, never was and never would be when it's your feelings who
are speaking. Of course I like it better if you could trust me enough to directly tell me when you
feel bad instead of keeping it to yourself until you can't anymore but I'm not mad either..." He said
softly, taking the youngest's hands between his and caressing them with his thumbs. Ni-ki could
feel his heart beating fast, he didn't know what to say more so he kept silence.

"Is it true?" Sunoo asked suddenly.

"Huh? What?" Riki responded, lifting his head and meeting his hyung's intense stare.

"When you said I'm your first love... Am I really?" He specified.

Riki could feel his face getting redder, but he couldn't detach his eyes from Sunoo's one. He bitten
his lips and only nodded shyly. At that, Sunoo looks soften, his face getting a little closer.

"And now? What are your feelings?" He asked in a whisper making the maknae gulped.

"I... I still love you... more than ever." He whispered back.

Sunoo smile widened and his eyes got all shiny. He leaned a little more and Ni-ki hold back his
breath thinking he was going to kiss him but instead he felt a soft peck on his cheek. He couldn't
help but letting a little whine of frustration but immediately bite his lips ashamed. He opened his
eyes when he heard Sunoo soft laugh near his face. He was looking at him so lovely and lift his
hands to cup his cheeks.

"You don't know how honored and pleased I am to know that I was your first love. I always cared
for you the most and my love for you grew into a something romantic from watching you grow
too... I love you, I love you so much my precious Ki..."

The Japanese had his eyes and mouth wide opened by the confession. He knew he was precious for
his hyung but didn't know at this point. He felt his heart pounding near the explosion right now, he
gripped Sunoo's t-shirt and was about to ask for permission to kiss him when Sunoo cut him,
backing up a little.

"Before anything more happened I have to talk to you about something... I don't want to not be
fully honest with you... I am also in love with the others members... and like you had guessed some
things already happened with some of them. And we decided to gradually see how this kinds of
relationship could work... But it's important for me to know how you feel about that." He explained
very seriously.

"I talked about it with Jungwon hyung earlier... I think I don't mind... I mean I like them all a lot
and I definitely found them really attractive! It's difficult to know if I love them right now but like I
said to Won, I would like to try if they want me to because I don't think it will be difficult to grow
my love for them. I just never let me saw them more than brothers until now, but if I'm allowed to
then..." He was fidgeting with Sunoo's t-shirt, embarrassed to talk about his attraction for others
persons in front of the one he loved since many years, but it doesn't seem to be weird for his
hyung.

"That's amazing Ki and I'll gladly help you opening up to them too if you want... Look at you,
you're so wise and open-minded, I'm proud of you!" Sunoo said, ruffling his hair and laughing
causing Ni-ki to grumble a little. Then, the older got closer to his face again, and he asked so
kindly, batting his eyelashes.

"As your first love... Would you let me the honnor to stole your fisrt kiss?"

"Yes! Yes please hyung... I've waited for so long." Riki whispered making Sunoo giggled
beautifully.

So Sunoo leaned fully and pressed his lips against the maknae's one and put his arms around his
neck. Ni-ki pressed further but wait for his hyung to start moving so he could follow. At one point
they felt too distant, so Sunoo climbed on Riki's laps without detaching from his lips. He slowly
put his tongue, making Ni-ki whined of satisfaction, letting him know he was totally okay with it.
They made out sweetly during some long minutes. Both of them feeling butterflies in their chest
and stomach, making them so comfortable into the kiss.

Until they were interrupted by a sudden flash that made them both jump.

"Oh shit sorry! I didn't think the flash was on haha! I just wanted to capture this long awaited
moment." The leader said, walking towards them.

"Ya! Yang Jungwon aren't you ashamed to do voyeurism like that?? Look you made our maknae
all shy." Sunoo scolded, hugging Ni-ki who was hiding in his neck.

"Oh no, darling, I think our baby is hiding because he got the first kiss of his dream and now I'm
here to reclaim his second kiss he promised me earlier." Jungwon laughed while sitting on the bed
near the duo.

"Oh really ?" Sunoo joined in the teasing making Ni-ki even more shy.

Jungwon suddenly took the maknae face into his hands and asked him sweetly.

"So? How was the kiss love?"

"More than wonderful" Riki answered, not daring to look at Sunoo who was still on his laps. But
his eyes went to the leader's lips and that made him gulp.

"I was kidding by the way, you don't have to kiss me now if you don't feel like it honey." Said
Jungwon with a soft smile while he started to back away.

"No!" shouted Ni-ki, gripping his hyung t-shirt. "I-I would like to..."

Jungwon gave a side glance at Sunoo who approved by a nod, so he leaned and kissed Ni-ki. The
latter having already caught on by his previous kiss, took a little more the lead and gently entered
his tongue to explore his hyung's mouth making him whined softly. At one point, he also felt
Sunoo's lips on his neck, pecking and licking innocently, making the youngest moaned loudly into
the kiss.

*****

The trio was kinda exhausted after their make out session so they lay down in the small bed,
putting Ni-ki in the middle. They were enjoying each other's warmth and sweet caress while
talking.

"By the way, earlier wonnie-hyung you kinda confirmed to me that your first love was Jay. Does
he know about it?" The maknae asked.

"I didn't tell him directly, but we've always turned around each other so I hope he guessed it alone.
I kissed him thought, not so long ago... Telling him that I wanted to experience the same things
than Sunoo." He finished by giggled.

"You said that??! Oh my god Wonnie... Hyung can be so dense sometimes are you sure he
understood that you truly love him?" Sunoo said.

"Well, I told him I wanted things for all of us to work but then I left because I was also too
overwhelmed. Jake hyung told me later that Hee and he had a convo with him to explain what was
going on better..."
"Jungwonnie... You should tell him, confirming our feelings can do more that doing physical
things... Look how I was happy this morning when you told me you love me and how good I feel
to know that I'm Ni-ki's first love and that I can return my love to him and all of you."

"Yeah, yeah you're right... It's just harder for me to confess to him because he was the first to make
me feel what love his... I don't know, I feel shy to expose my feelings to him..." Jungwon paused
thinking a little. "By the way hyung, who is your first love?"

The question took aback Sunoo who was hesitant and watched the maknae who was in his arms.

"You can tell us hyung, I know it's not me and it's ok. I was still a child when I fall in love with
you." Ni-ki said to reassure his hyung.

"Well that's true but like I already said to you, you were the first one I felt 100% secured with and
safe to love. But my first love... it's Sunghoon hyung."

"I KNEW IT !!" half screamed Jungwon.

"Shhhh hyung! You're not special, it was kinda obvious hyung had a crush on him since I-land!"
said Ni-ki.

"Yeah... I totally fall for him. I'm not gonna lie it was his look that appealed me first. His cold and
cool figure, his stupidly handsome face... But then I got to know him and fall harder. Hoonie
hyung is so warm despite being the ice prince, he's always been nice to me even if he's shy or even
if he's teasing me I can feel the sweetness in him..."

"He's also fucking hot"

"Ni-ki!!!" scolded his hyungs for the injure but laughing just after, surprised to hear such comment
from the maknae.

"Did I lie thought? You guys were not there all the time I had to restrain myself from checking him
out during gym or just jumped on him just because seeing him all sweaty, working out his muscles
made me turn on."
The duo laughed even more and agreed with the maknae.

"Must have been hard. It's hard to know what hyung feel... That's why I never dared to ask for more
or to speak about my feelings with him... I don't even know if he's interested in guy, he never said
anything about his love life." Sunoo stated.

"Don't worry. We'll find a way so you, and we, could talk to him about all of that..." Ni-ki said,
kissing Sunoo's temple.

They all agreed to sleep after that, it has been another long day filled with emotions and they were
exhausted.
 Sunghoon's thoughts

(Sunghoon's pov)

Sunghoon was about to enter his shared room with the maknaez when he heard Jungwon ask
Sunoo about his first love. He froze behind the half open door and didn't dare to move, he just
stood there and listen to them. When he heard Sunoo confess about his crush on him, he felt his
heart jumped and his eyes widened in shock.

He? Park Sunghoon? Was the first love of Kim Sunoo?

He couldn't believe it because even if he always had a good relationship with Sunoo, they never
were as close as the others members who don't hesitate to show their love. They were not best
friends sharing everything like Sunoo and Jungwon, he was not his cuddle buddy like with Ni-ki
and neither the source of safety Sunoo's others hyungs provide him.

He finally heard them preparing to sleep so he moved to the balcony to get fresh air and take time
to think. He was really wondering what, a perfect ball of sunshine loved by everyone like Sunoo,
could have found in someone like him? The ice prince with cold expression and even cold skin.
The man who didn't know how to speak about his feelings even when he's around peoples who talk
about them easily.

Really how was he supposed to deal with the information that the boy he'd always loved was also
feeling more for him?

And he's not dumb, he might not speak a lot but he observes well. He knows how everybody in the
group evolved their relationships to something more romantic and intimate... With everyone but
him...

It's not that he's rejected, it's more him who sets unspoken boundaries because he never knows how
to act... but he loves them, of course he loves them, how could he not? It was just too scary to
confront feelings for real...

"Hoonie? What are you doing in there at this hour?" Sunghoon jumped when he heard Heesung's
voice.

"Oh... Nothing, I just needed some fresh air...I guess."

"Well, we're in middle of winter so I think you got more freezing air than anything else. Come
inside please?" The hyung offered his hand so he could lead him into the living room.

He hesitated a bit and took it, Heesung's hand was so warm, it was really pleasing. He let him
guide him to the sofa and put a blanket around his cold body.

"I want to give you a hug, can I?" Heesung sat next to him and asked delicately.

Sunghoon looked at him with surprise, but he only meets the comforting eyes of his hyung. He
nodded shyly and melt into the embrace the oldest gave him. He closed his eyes and let out a big
sight he didn't even know he was holding.

"Hoon... I hope you know you can talk to us anytime and about anythings. We'll never judge, we
just want to make sure you're okay and not keeping everything for you to manage alone...Talk to
us, talk to me love."

Sunghoon flushed at the love name, Heesung made his heart warm and he was starting to feel he
could let himself be more vulnerable.

"Thank you hyung. I'm sorry I'm not really open with my emotions.I'll try to do better." He started
to lower his head but Heesung caught his chin to make him look up.

"Don't say sorry, it's okay to have a hard time with feelings. It's even harder to express them when
they're overwhelming, but we're here to help you understand them and speak them out okay?"
Sunghoon nodded and thanked him again.

"But maybe it's better for tonight to go sleep right now because you seem very tired." He
continued. They stood up but before Sunghoon entered his room, Hee stopped him.

"I would like to do a little hang out soon just the two of us so we can discuss casually, what do you
think?" Heesung asked.

"I- I'll be happy yes." Sunghoon agreed with a little smile.

"Ok perfect... That's a date then!" Heesung said with a smirk before giving him a kiss on the cheek
and leaving for his room, letting Sunghoon a little shock.

He finally entered the shared bedroom and paused to look fondly at the maknaez trio cuddling
together. The sight of it soothes his heart and he promised to himself that no matter what happen in
the future, he will always protect them.

He leaned to put Riki's t-shirt correctly because his belly was uncovered. He knows the maknae
feel always a little too hot when sleeping, but he didn't want him to catch a cold. He was also
tugging their covers to their chins when he saw Sunoo opening his eyes.

"Hyung? You're still awake?" He asked with a small voice and half opened eyes.

"Returned to sleep Sun, I'm just tucking your cover." He whispered and when he saw that Sunoo
was still looking at him with questioning eyes, Sunghoon smiled at him sweetly and caressed his
hair a little.

"Everything's okay. Sleep well darling, good night."

"Night night Hoonie hyung." Sunoo mumbled cutely, replacing his face onto Ni-ki's neck, making
Sunghoon melt more.

*****

"Alright babies! Time to wake up!" Jake shouted entering the bedroom the next morning.

The trio whined in unison, covering their eyes because Jay was opening the curtains.

"Come on guys, I made pancakes to boost our energy before this long day of practice." Jay said
turning to them and ruffling Ni-ki's hair.

"Hyuuuung" whined Jungwon sitting up and making grabby hands toward Jay. The hyung
immediately reacted, taking him into his arms to carry him to the kitchen, Jungwon hugging him
like a koala on his branch.
Heesung entered when the duo left the room and went to Sunghoon's bed, seeing that the latter still
hadn't moved while Jake was teasing Sunoo and Riki.

"Hey Hoonie, do you feel ok? We have to prepare for practice." He tried to help Sunghoon woke
up and he could see it was hard for him.

"M'okay... I'm just a little tired." When he saw the four pairs of eyes looking at him not convinced,
he added "Really I'm fine, I'll get better after eating a bit." He left the room with slow and dizzy
steps, Heesung following close.

Jake helped Sunoo stands up the bed and leaded, by taking their hands, the two sleepyhead left, to
the kitchen. They all proceeded to prepare, keeping a discreet eye on Sunghoon.

After 2h of intense practice, Sunghoon was visibly ill but didn't say anything and refused to take a
longer break for the fourth time Jungwon had offered him.

"Hyung stop being so stubborn! You can't stand properly, you sweat like crazy and I can feel you
have a fever just by getting close to your body who's heating' up!! For fuck's sake, please take a
rest!!"

Everybody was surprised to hear Sunoo snapped, but he was right and they knew he was the only
capable to convince Sunghoon. He didn't let the boy answered and turned to the leader.

"Won, do you think he and I could go back to the dorm for today? He seriously needs medicine
and to sleep."

"Yes of course, I'm gonna call for a car and I'll deal with managers-nim. You take care of him and
call a doctor if his fever doesn't go down in like 4 hours, okay?" Jungwon organized with his
leader mode activated.

"Hmm guys I did not agree... I could also sit in the back to follow the practice." Sunghoon
attempted but Sunoo just went to grab their bags, then his wrist and pulled him to the parking lot.

They kept silent the whole ride, and when they entered the dorms, Sunoo let go of all their stuff
and leaded Sunghoon to his own bed. He practically forced him to lay down and tucked him under
the covers. Then he put a hand on his forehead gently taking his temperature, it seemed still high.

He caressed his cheeks with his thumbs and he whispered with worried eyes.

"Heesung hyung said you stayed a while alone on the balcony yesterday night... I bet you didn't
even thought about the fact we're in winter... Silly you..."

"I'm sorry I made you worried Sun, I didn't want to be a bother..."

"I know that but you're never a bother, please understand it and let yourself be more vulnerable
with us... We care so much about you hyung. Right now you have a bad cold but it could've been
worse and I don't want you to hide things to us..."

"I know, I should've... and you're right I can be stubborn. I'm sorry, I'll not do it again please don't
be mad at me."

"Shhh... I'm not mad I promise. Let me bring you a medicine and let's rest a little okay?"

Sunghoon nodded and let Sunoo prepared what he needed. He took the pill Sunoo gave him and
was surprised when Sunoo climbed under the covers next to him.

"Sunoo you're gonna catch my cold..."

"I don't care, if I'm sick you'll take care of me right?" Sunoo said getting closer to his hyung and
wrapping his arms around his torso, his nose finding the perfect place in the older's neck.

"Of course," answered Sunghoon, putting with hesitation his arms around Sunoo's waist. "I'll
always take care of you as long as you want me near you." He said putting his face in the boy's
fluffy hair.

"That mean forever then." Sunoo said holding him tighter, making Sunghoon smiled before they
fall asleep.
About 3h later, Sunghoon woke up to the sight of Sunoo watching at him fondly. He blushed
furiously under the lovely stare and hidden behind his cover. He heard to Sunoo melodious laugh
and didn't resist when he pulled the cover down.

"You're so cute sometimes hyung. Why are you shy?"

"For how long were you staring at me?"

"Don't know, I just got lost in my thought while admiring your pretty face." Sunoo said sincerely
and Sunghoon was surprised, it was not the kind of word people used for him.

"P-pretty?"

"Yeah... You're really pretty and even more when you sleep because you let the mask down and I
can finally see how warm you are. I wish you could be comfortable enough to let it down more
when you're with us."

"Warm...for real? Am I?"

"Of course you are, you might have the beautiful title of Ice prince but you're one of the six people
who gave me the warmest feeling just by being near me. I know you don't feel like you are, but we
truly know that your true nature is to be soft and sweet. We love you for that... I love you for that."

Sunghoon felt an electric shock in his body, and he did something he never knew he had the
courage to do.

"Can I kiss you?" He blurred out. Sunoo eyes opened wide, his smile following and he nodded
frankly, while giggling.

Sunghoon kissed him without any more hesitations. He holds him by his waist while Sunoo put his
hands on his nape and hair. They kept trying to press closer to each others, their mouths were
getting numb but they didn't want to detach. Sunoo started to smile into the kiss, and Sunghoon
taste one of his tears. He pulled away gently, but still close.
"Are you okay? Why are you crying love?"

"Tears of joy... I've dreamed about this moment forever and I'm so happy, you don't realise how
happy you make me Park Sunghoon."

"I love you Kim Sunoo." He said before kissing him again softly, a beautiful whine escaping
Sunoo's mouth.

After sharing a sweet kissing moment, they stayed cuddling to eachothers.

"I'm more likely to catch your fever now." laughed Sunoo.

"Oh my... I'm sorry I totally forgot, I'm such an idiot."

"Stop hyung! You're not, I wanted to kiss you anyway. How are you feeling by the way? Do you
still feel dizzy?"

"I 'm still feel hot but I think it's not so much about the fever now." Sunghoon said half joking.

"You're so silly! I love you so much... but I still gonna give you another pill just in case and let's
eat a little."

They headed in the kitchen and Sunghoon could feel that even if he was better he still felt really
drained. Sunoo cooked for him and when they ate, they start talking about the members.

"I know that the members care for me, I just wish I could tell them how much I love them. I wish I
could show you more how much I love you. But a part of me wonder if I could really be a part of
that... Do they love me like that? It took so much time for me to understand my feelings."

"It's not for me to tell of course but don't worry too much. Plus, didn't Heesung proposed a date to
you? He told me this morning, a date is a romantic invitation you know."
"How I'm supposed to know? I never experienced anything, I'm so bad at social cues and I never
thought about my sexuality before I met you in I-land."

"Wait... Am I your gay awaken??? No wait... I'm your first kiss???!!"

"Well...Yes for both."

"I feel so lucky, so happy..." Sunoo tried to kiss him again but Sunghoon pulled his hand in front of
his mouth to stop him.

"Sorry darling, I love you but no more kisses until I'm fully cured. I really don't want you to get
sick... You know how it gets worse when you do." Sunoo pouted but he knew he couldn't change
his mind.

"Ok! So you have to be healed by tomorrow because I don't want to wait any longer. Return to bed,
and rest a bit more while I do the dishes. The members should come home soon."

When they arrived, they all visited Sunghoon to see how he was feeling. He was still in bed, so Ni-
ki joined him, putting him in a big koala hug. Sunghoon appreciated that, he didn't know the last
time they hugged and he truly enjoyed the tenderness of the moment. Jake gave him a peck on his
head before leaving the room, letting the two sleep. Content to see how things were developing.
 Boyfriends

By the end of the week, Sunghoon was feeling way better thanks to his members care and good
rest. They were all in the living room for a movie night. This kind of night was not new, but things
were definitely different now.They were in the middle of the movie, but nobody seems to really
follow it.

Jay and Jungwon were making out at the end of the couch, Heesung was giving a shoulder massage
to Ni-ki who were sitting between his legs giving him some pecks on his hair and neck here and
there. Jake was lying all along the couch, his legs on his members's laps while his head was on
Sunghoon's. Sunoo was softly caressing his hair while cuddling against Sunghoon, nuzzling into
his neck because he is obsessed with his scent.

Being at the other end of the couch was more easy for him to look at everyone and Sunoo couldn't
help but feel overwhelmed once again by the love that were among them. Of course, they always
were loved in their group but not like that, not so meaningful... He couldn't hold it back anymore.
He took the remote and pause the movie.

"Guys, I think we need to have a talk... about us..." He said captivating everybody's attention.

He suddenly feels shy at all the eyes looking at him patiently.

"I think I'm the only one who shared an... intimate moment with all of you... And I know we
agreed to wait for everyone to grow even closer but I can't hold back anymore..." He paused, taking
the time to look at each of them one by one.

"I love you!!! Truly! Sincerely! and romantically! I love every single one of you so much and I'm
so thankful to have you in my life!" He said, bursting out in tears of joys.

Everybody gathered near him to do big group hug, an intense, loving and soothing energy
enveloping them.

"I'm glad you had the courage to speak about it Sun. I was a bit afraid to speak about it but I think
it's the moment we were waiting for. Let's talk about it." Heesung said in a heartwarming tone.

"Well first of all, let's totally be honest with each other, no secrets, okay?" The leader provided and
everybody acquiesced.

"Ok so... I wanted to tell you all that I also do love you. I know I hadn't spent time with everybody
yet but that doesn't mean I don't love you, just that we hadn't had the occasion yet. But I-I really
would love to." The leader continued giving a shy look to Sunghoon, Heesung and Jake.

"Same for me" Jay added "and I'm better to talk with people individually so if you want to, know
that you can come to me whenever you can. Even if they're more feeling involves, I'm still the
same Jay." He explained, scratching is neck, embarrassed. Everybody looking at him with stupid
smiled for how cute he was.

"Do... Do you guys really include me in this?" Ni-ki asked out of the blue and shyly

"I already talk about it with Sunno hyung and Jungwon hyung, we're still closer in age so they
understood why I could feel a little bit confused towards you guys.... I always received well your
love but as your maknae, your little bro not like something else... I don't want to say I felt reject
because I never was neglect by you all but I want you to be honest with me if you don't want me
like a lover because I don't want to be delusion-"

He got cut by lips on his staying a few seconds and the maknae blushed at the warmth he felt in his
body. Jake backed away and smiled at him. "Does that answer your concerns?"

Riki has hidden his face with his palms but Heesung quickly take them to kiss it and affirmed "I
love you Riki, of course it's hard to not see you as our baby because of you will always be the
youngest but that doesn't mean we love you less and I'm sure you will surprise us and be a superb
boyfriend."

"Boyfriends? Is this what we are then?" Jungwon asked with a big smile and shiny eyes.

"I mean if everybody agrees with it? I know it's a little bit confusing to start a polyamory
relationship, especially with many peoples but I think we could make that work as well as our
teamwork. In a sense we just have to add our love." Heesung portrayed.

"Maybe some of us will put more time to go to others and it's okay, there no rush. And like we
already know, there maybe duo or trio already establish because of some past stories and all of
that, like me and Heesung for example but that doesn't mean I love you less, I want you all to be
free to come to me anytime." Jake clarified.
"I agree with everything and of course, things will maybe take place to adjust but the most
important is communication and trust. If someone feels any type of unease let's promise to share it,
talk about it." said Jungwon, making them all nod once again.

"Sunghoon hyung... what do you think?" Sunoo asked because he knew the man will not dare to
intervene, everybody waiting for his answer.

"I... I want it... I want this to work but I have to say sorry in advance because of how awkward I can
be with my feelings. But I will do my best to show you that... I'm in." He attested while fidgeting a
bit.

"Don't apologize for that, it's your charm Hoon and we'll make sure to help you feel at ease in this,
with us." Jay comforted, patting his head.

"Before anything else, I'm sorry but I have to take my role of leader for a minute." Jungwon
started, all serious.

"It's already hard enough for a couple in the same group to date, so for us, let's keep it just between
us for the moment. Nobody should know at work, even our manager. Let's keep our usual PDA but
nothing too much. Let's enjoy our time together when we're here or in private. I think it would be
for the better for the moment."

Everybody nodded, knowing it will probably be a bit difficult but they had to for their own sake.

"So... Boyfriends?" Sunoo asked timidly and said back, "Yes, boyfriends." with wide smiles and
even some tears. They spend the night on mattresses in the living room, cuddling tightly with each
others.

*****

"By the way guys, we never talked about our sexuality all together, except for Sunoo who came
out to us about a year ago" Jake said the next day at breakfast while everybody was gathered at the
table. It was rare for them to eat all together, so it's been more than an hour they were there talking
cheerily.
"I'm bi" said Jay casually, Jake replied by a "Really? Same for me bro!!" and giving a tap on his
shoulder.

"Jakey he's not really your bro anymore." Heesung said jokingly.

"Ah right! I meant, same for me babe!" Before pecking Jay's cheek, making him cough a little in
his coffee and making everybody else laugh.

"I'm too by the way," continued Heesung. "Or pan, I don't really care about the appellation to be
honest."

"Well I'm definitely gay" said Jungwon, winking at Sunoo to say they were on the same team as
always. "And you Sunghoon hyung?"

"Umm... I didn't know about my sexuality before meeting Sunoo. It's in I-land I understood I was
attracted to men but I only confirmed I was 100% gay when I start to grow feelings for you all..."

"That's so cute" Jake said with a pat on his thigh to praise him for his effort to be more open.

"Ni-ki?" Sunoo asked.

The maknae rubbed his neck a bit before explaining a little embarrassed.

"Actually; I never thought about it... Like hyung, I never thought about it before Sunoo hyung and
then you all but I never had others crushes outside the group, not even just attraction or I didn't
really pay attention to it. So I don't know... I'm like... Enhypensexual." He said with a weird laugh.

Everyone burst into a laugh and Heesung went to hug him.

"It's okay to not know baby. If one day you have a revelation feel free to tell us, but if you don't
care about knowing it's also very fine! We love you for who you are, no matter what!" He finished
by giving him a small peck on his lips, making the maknae grow pink on his cheeks.
"Well guys sorry to ruin this happy moment but we have some recording today! Let's clean all this
and prepare to leave! Hop hop hop" the leader said, trying to motivate by clapping in his hands.

*****

From an outsider look, things haven't changed. They still were bandmates really close, bickering
and cuddling with each others. But inside their fresh relationship, they saw the things that changed.
They felt more confident to whisper flirty remarks in each other's ears, to be a little more soft and
romantic on their touches and even escaping to hide in the toilets or a random closet during their
break, sharing a sweet make out sessions at two or three.

It was the end of the day, and Sunghoon just finished his recording session with Heesung who was
monitoring him with the producer. Everybody else had already left, the oldest came to the booth
Sunghoon where, finishing to gather his things.

"Hoonie, would you like to go to a coffee with me before heading back to the dorm? You know,
for our little date." He asked trying to sound the more casual even if he was a little nervous.

"I would love to." Sunghoon said blushing a bit but became redder when Heesung whispered into
his ear in a seductive way.

"Perfect because I already reserved a private room for us."

At the dorm, Sunoo was happily chatting with Jay in the kitchen, sitting on the counter. Out of
nowhere, Ni-ki entered with Jake following him.

"Come on Kiki, you love kisses just admit it! It's not teasing, it's a fact!!"

"What happened?" asked Sunoo, amused.

"Ni-ki just came to me when I was sitting on my bed, scrolling on my phone and asked for a kiss.
But I made the big error to laugh because I found him so cute and it was really random to come in
my room for that. But now he thinks I'm making fun of him! The baby is sulking and I haven't even
had my kiss..." Jake said pouting and crossing his arms.
"You don't deserve it hyung" The maknae said also pouting.

"Do you want to take revenge Ki ?" Asked Jay, cleaning his hand and getting closer to the maknae.

"Uh yes? Why?" The Japanese didn't have time to process that his hyung already took him by the
waist and pressed his lips on Ni-ki's.

By surprise, he didn't respond, so Jay part away to apologized but Ni-ki immediately grabbed on
his t-shirt so he doesn't leave and pulled them back into a mutual kiss this time.

Sunoo applauding and laughing at the scene while Jake continued his fake sulking.

When they part away, Ni-ki hidden in Jay's shoulder and acknowledged "Okay Jake hyung, you
were right... maybe I really really like kissing."

Everybody cooed at this. Sunoo and Jake getting closer to him to give him soft kisses while Jay
went back to cooking with red cheeks.

Jungwon left the bathroom at the same time Heesung and Sunghoon came back from their date.

"Hyungs! How was it? Did you pass a good time together?" He asked.

"Yes more than good, Isn't it Hoonie?" Heesung answered with a smirk making Sunghoon shy
before joining the others in the kitchen.

"I'm really glad you're opening up to us hyung! It feel good to see you happy like this." Jungwon
said, smiling at him fondly.

Sunghoon get closer to him and leaned to kiss him gently on the cheek.

"I may be more reserved, but I really want this to work so I hope you'll see that I really love you all
even if I make more time to show it. Thank you for always caring about me Wonie."
He ruffled the leader's hair and leaving the entrance too. Jungwon, a little dumbfound by the first
act of affection his hyung was giving him, zone out a moment before happily following him.
 First time

It's been a week since their polyamory relationship had started and everything was going really
well. Except that Sunoo felt very horny after Jungwon told him in details how he had his first time
with Jay a few days before. He explained to him how the hyung had been so sweet and careful but
also how he listened to all his demands. Jungwon said he hadn't dreamt a better first time than this.

Hearing all that, while the two were lying down on the same bed, obviously turned on Sunoo who
started to kiss Jungwon but he got stopped when he had tried to go further.

"Love, we both know who you want your first time to be with. I can't wait to share this with you
too but we talked about it, it has to be with your first love... like me with Jay."

"Arrgh yes I know!! I want it so bad... but hyung is treating me like I'm in porcelain and like I
could break with a simple touch. I know he just care a lot and want to be gentle but he doesn't
seems to understand that I want him fully. That I trust him and that he'll never hurt me like that...
He barely kiss me for fuck sake Wonie I'm frustrated!!" He said in a desperate whisper-shout.

"Yeah, I can see that." Jungwon laughed before getting closer and starting to caress his boyfriend
under his pyjama.

"Don't worry, you will find the right time to talk to him and to make him understand. You'll have
the amazing real first time you deserve with one of the man you love. It will be magical honey, I'm
sure of it... But for now let me help you with that." He said while gently starting to pump on the
other's cock who were now covering his mouth to not woke up the others.

The day after, Sunoo was still terribly horny. He couldn't help himself but devouring Sunghoon
with his eyes. In the green room where they were preparing for a new shoot, he was sitting on Jay's
laps.

"Sunshine you're gonna scare him if you keep staring at him like you want to eat him alive." He
said near his ear. Sunoo whined and try to look away, but it was really hard.

"Jungwon explained your little problem to me. What do you think if I manage to let your room for
just the two of you tonight? I'll take Jungwon and Ni-ki in my room."
"Really?? Oh my god thank you hyung you're the best!" Sunoo exclaimed, watching around before
giving him a discreet peck.

"You're welcome, but hey love... I don't want you to force yourself to do something you're not
comfortable with, okay? You have all the time in the world." Jay said with a little concerned.

"I know hyung but don't worry... I know what I want. I know I'm ready since I have you all by my
side. I want him so bad hyung..." He whispered watching over Sunghoon once again, their eyes
meeting in the mirror and the older giving him a small smile.

"I know baby and you will. He loves you, he wants you too but he will not initiate anything first so
you have to be brave and go for it. But I know you can, right? You already did." He smirked,
Sunoo hitting Jay's chest playfully.

*****

Everybody was heading to their bed but Jay grabbed Ni-ki by the wrist when he tried to enter his
room.

"What? I wanted to sleep with Sunoo hyung!!" He whined.

"You always do baby, don't be so biased I want your koala hug to sleep too." Jay responded and the
maknae felt a little bit guilty so he pulled his hyung in a hug.

"I'm sorry hyung, I'm not biased... It's just that I'm used to sleep with Sunoo and I know he doesn't
mind my sleeping habits. But I love you so of course I'll be happy to sleep with you if you're ready
to stand me." He joked at the end.

At the same time, Jungwon passed in the room to take his charger.

"Sleeping with these two tonight... Have fun!" He declared nonchalantly, winking at Sunoo before
closing the door and leaving Sunoo and Sunghoon alone.
Sunghoon was sitting on his bed, really confused, but he didn't have the time to ask Sunoo what all
that was about because the latter was already sitting on his laps, arms wrapping his neck.

"I want you Park Sunghoon." He said with the most intense stare Sunghoon had ever seen.

"W-WHAT???" He choked not sure to fully understand.

"Don't you want to? I want you and only you to take my real first time... to erase the one from the
past who shouldn't have been, who were not made of love. Because I love you Sunghoon, so much,
since the first time I saw you. And in a way I always knew I wanted to start it all again with you.
Please let's do it... together... and let me considerate it like I'm losing my virginity with you."
Sunoo said getting closer and closer, a single tear falling in the process.

"I'll do everything for you Sunoo, because I love you so much and I also want you...like crazy...
Sorry if I didn't show it, I didn't want you to be uncomfortable but of course I want you." Sunghoon
said genuinely.

"Stop saying sorry hyung" Sunoo said before kissing him passionately.

(TW: mature content)

They make out longly, leaving marks on eachothers and rolling on the bed. They don't even know
when they took off their t-shirt.

The younger leaded Sunghoon's hand to his crotch, leaving him the permission to touch it. But
Sunoo was really impatient so he whispered in the kiss "Hyung... finger me please..." making
Sunghoon growl before he undressed Sunoo's short and boxer.

"Uh, I don't have..." He started but Sunoo was already searching in the drawers near the bed. He
gave his hyung the lub. "I put it in there," he explained. Sunghoon would have teased him to have
prepared this in advance, but they were kinda in the middle of something so he just took it.

He started with one finger slowly, giving kisses on Sunoo's skin at the same time. "More" whined
Sunoo, so he put two and then three.

He was so gentle, Sunoo was combusting under his touches. At one point he grabbed the oldest's
jaws to pull him back into a kiss, and he said with a dazzled look.
"I want you, all of you... I want to come with you inside me."

Sunghoon was already hard, but the words made an undescribtibale effect on him. He looks at his
lover under him, he was so small like that, so vulnerable and as much as he loved the sight he
wanted Sunoo to be in full control this time.

So he turned them, laying on his back with now Sunoo on top of him and the view was heaven for
Sunghoon. Sunoo, surprised by the sudden changed, looked at him with a questioning look. The
older put him a long sweet kiss before tracing his lips along his skin until it reaches his ear and he
whispered right into it "Please ride me my angel" making Sunoo moaned just with the words.

The younger still impatient quickly undressed his hyung and pumped his cock a few times but
Sunghoon stopped him, "I'm already close Sun...please."

So Sunoo adjusted himself, the penetration was a little hurtful for the both of them but they went
slowly, reassuring eachothers with soft words of love.

When he was perfectly adapted, Sunoo start moving faster, panting loudly making Sunghoon close
his eyes and throwing his head back. But when he watched at his lover again he saw tears falling
along his flushed cheeks. He quickly put himself in a sitting position cupping Sunoo's cheeks but
making him gasp loudly at the sudden movement.

"Why are you crying love?? Does it hurt? Do you feel bad? We can stop if you want!!"

"NO!! No please don't! I'm perfectly fine hyung I'm crying because of how good it is and how
perfect is this moment!!" He said crying louder, but also smiling.

"I love you forever Kim Sunoo" Said Sunghoon pulling him back into a kiss.

Sunoo moves on him became faster and faster while they were kissing and he started to also move
his hips to intensify the sensation. "Baby I'm close" Sunghoon warned.

"Am too hyung, do it... In me" he whined. So Sunghoon did come, moaning in Sunoo mouth and
Sunoo followed almost immediately, cum on their stomachs.

They didn't move for a while, catching their breath together. Sunoo finally put them on a hug
falling back onto the mattress.

(end of the mature content)

"That was absolutly wonderful hyung! Thank you." Sunoo sighting loudly onto Sunghoon's neck.

"You are wonderful Sunoo, I hope you realize that. You're perfect and so beautiful I could turned
blind just by looking at you"

"Didn't know you were the cheesy type hyung." He giggled "but yeah I do realize it. Thanks to you
and the members I know who I am."

They cuddle a bit longer before they started to feel a bit too sticky and decided to shower. They did
it quickly because of exhaustion but they happily returned to sleep, embracing each others like they
were no tommorow.

*****

"Heard you had your beautiful time." Jungwon whispered to Sunoo during the early dance practice
the next day. They were on break and the duo were speaking, sitting on the floor, in one corner of
the room.

"You heard us?" Sunoo asked embarrassed.

"Yeah, and not just a little! But don't worry everybody seemed to appreciate it. And we were happy
you finally had your magical moment with Sunghoon."

"Wait, wait, what do you mean everybody appreciate it???"

"Well you know... our Riki got really shy when we heard the first noises and seemed really
uncomfortable so Jay asked him if he was okay. The poor kitten was turned on just by hearing your
moans."
"What???" Shouted Sunoo.

"I mean, I understand, it got me turned on too. But don't worry we asked him what he wanted to do.
If he wanted intimacy or a little help and guess what? He ask for help in such a cute way! That
made Jay go crazy, he was melting on spot literally." Jungwon told.

"So you three...?"

"No, we didn't want to overwhelmed him. We just took turns to gently stroke him above his pyj
while the other was kissing him. It was really cute hyung for real!! He seemed so happy after it,
immediately falling asleep after he come with a smile on his face. Jay and I were so pleased, I
swear I even saw a little tears on Jay's eyes corner by how delighted we felt at this moment."

"He's really grown up... I'm happy to see the handsome man he's becoming." Sunoo said with a soft
smile.

At this moment, Ni-ki jumped on Sunoo, back hugging him on the floor.

"What are you two talking about?"

"You sweetheart... We're talking about how amazing you are." Sunoo said simply, making Riki
flushed and leaning into a kiss knowing the choreographers were outside the room taking a coffee
with their manager.
 Sunghoon and his boyfriends

(Sunghoon's POV)

Sunghoon and Sunoo were cuddling on the couch, watching a drama, after a big day of work. The
others were in the rooms probably doing the same things. The ice prince was attached to Sunoo's
hips since their first time together. They truly appreciated their time as boyfriends, but Sunghoon
was feeling a little bit guilty towards the others. He decided to share his worries with the one he
was the most comfortable to talk about this.

"Sunshine... I feel a little bad about the others... Do you think they think I'm rejecting them by
passing my time with you?" Sunghoon asked uncertain.

"Oh no honey! They're not thinking that! I'm sure they realize we're just enjoying our time together
and they probably give you the time you need to come to them when you will feel comfortable."

"I love our time together you know that right? I love you. But I think I should try to be more bold
with them... I just don't know how to do... Arghhh I'm so afraid to be ridiculous!!" He was really
struggling with his stupid thoughts.

"Don't say that babe! They'll never find you ridiculous, they're your boyfriends!!! Just try by
passing some time with them like before! But adding the romanticism and the flirting you know.
Do it individually, if you're more comfortable at first!" Sunoo encouraged.

So Sunghoon tried to follow his boyfriend's advices to grow closer to his other boyfriends. He tried
to reassure himself, he just had to be like before and just followed their moves and flirts, he had to
go with the flow.

He went to Jake first, the two were best friends before boyfriends so they should be able to be
comfortable with each others.

He went to him during a break at work, asking if he wanted to grab a coffee with him. Jake
accepted and bounced joining him happily. Jake opened the conversation.

"So... how are you doing Hoon? I was waiting for you to come tell me about your time with
Sunny."
"Oh! I'm sorry... I know I have been all over him these past days..." Sunghoon replied embarrassed.

"Hey no baby! I don't blame you at all! I'm seriously curious about how things went for you!
Sunoo told me he had a really wonderful time but I wanted your version because I knew how
special this moment was for you too." He said winking at him.

"Ooh...well...It was magical Jake. I feel so happy since then for real. He was the first to make me
understand what love is and that help me to know that I was also falling for... all of you." He said
smiling shyly.

Jake smiled back at him and discreetly hold his hand, watching all over to see if people could see
them. They were just a few people who were minding their own business, but it was still a bit risky
to do PDA here. Thus, the Australian grabbed Sunghoon's hand and guided him to a small studio,
locking the door behind.

Sunghoon looked at him with questioning eyes, nervously biting his lips. Jake got closer to him and
passed a thumb on his lips to make him stop.

"Hi boyfriend..." He whispered and watched Sunghoon gulping.

"It's still weird isn't it? To finally be boyfriends after years of being the bestest of friends..." He
waited for a reaction, Sunghoon only nodded but he also slid his hands around his waist.

"I don't want you to feel uncomfortable to come talk to me like before Hoon but... I love you, and I
want more... more of you." Jake continued, getting closer and closer.

His stare is really intense, but Sunghoon resented comfort looking in his eyes, it was a safe place
for him. He weirdly felt at ease and leaned to kiss Jake pretty ardently.

The Australian reciprocated and pushed Sunghoon for him to sit on the small sofa in the room. He
climbed on one his lap, pressing further into his lips, slowly integrating tongue in it. When they
part away to breath a first time, Jake whispered into his ear in the most seductive way.

(TW: mature content)

"Your thights are fucking hot babe... Can I grind on it?" Sunghoon agreed instantly, putting him
back into a kiss. He helped Jake's body to move on his leg by malaxing his hips, causing the
Australien to moan.

Sunghoon could feel Jake's bulge rubbing on his upper leg, his boyfriend was panting severely. He
gets down his lips to kiss and lick along his neck's skin, careful to not leave marks even if he was
craving to do some.

He sensed Jake was close to come so he holds him tighter, kissed him more slowly but firmly.
Eventually, he went to his ears, biting it a little before murmuring very seriously "I love you Jake."

Those words were enough for Jake to make him come. He released himself, throwing his head
backwards, his boyfriend maintaining him so he doesn't fall. In the end, he let all of his body falls
into Sunghoon's arms, face in his neck, giggling non stop, still feeling the hight of the moment.

(end of mature content)

"It was perfect Hoonie, I love you so much."

"You were so beautiful like that Jakey, you always are of course but like that..." Sunghoon's said,
still mesmerized.

"You are so hot love... but I didn't think enough before doing it, I think I have a problem here..."

"What?" asked Sunghoon before looking down were Jake were watching, his sweatpants
completely ruined.

"Oh shit... I don't have a change for you, do you?" asked Sunghoon.

"No... fuck... I guess I'm gonna have to text Jongseang for help. Jungwon is gonna kill us..." He
said with a half apologetic smile, half amused.

When Jay knocked at the door, Sunghoon asked if he needed help to clean and change but Jake
refused politely sending him outside with Jay and grabbing the spare sweatpants and the towel he
brought him.
So here they were, Jay and Sunghoon alone in the corridor waiting for Jake in a embarrassing
silence. Sunghoon was avoiding eye contact, but Jay suddenly takes off his sweat and lend him to
him. Sunghoon finally look at him, interrogating.

"It seems like you didn't deal with your own problem before coming out of there." Jay said, quite
nonchalantly but still flushing.

Sunghoon understood that his erection was still visible, so he swiftly took the large sweat to wear
it. Jay got suddenly closer, zipping it for him and pulling at the end to make sure it was well
hidden. "Sorr-" He started but Jay cut him by a peck.

"Stop saying sorry for everything Hoon. It's normal to do things with your boyfriends, don't
apologize for that. I don't want you to apologize after we will spend some moment together, okay?"

Sunghoon tried his best to maintain eye contact with him, but he always had a hard time doing it
since he knows him, his stare is intimidating. He just managed to nod to answered his boyfriend.
Jay whispered "Good boy" smirking and pulled him in a new kiss by grabbing his jaws with one
hand.

Jake chose this time to leave the studio, coughing a little to attracted their attention. He went
between them and took them by the arms to go back to the practice room.

"You should be more careful Jay. You were in a corridor, people could have seen you both."

"Say the man who just came on his friend's tights probably moaning like crazy." Jay responded,
chuckling.

"Boyfriend!!! And I specifically choose a soundproof studio!!" Jake replied back.

"Aww so preventing for someone who forgot he had clothes on during sex." Jay mocked before
kissing Jake's sulking pout.

Sunghoon was laughing at the scene, relieved to see that nothing had changed. They just evolved
into something more incredible.
 *****

About three days later, they were all taking their breakfast together. It became a habit for them to
share more meal all together. It was really pleasing for them to talk about everything, to organize
their days together and shared some good laughing moment.

"I'm going to the gym this afternoon" declared Sunghoon. "Someone want to join?" he asked.

Most of them declined politely. Jay, his usual gym partner said "Sorry Hoonie I promised a
shopping day to these two" making a head movement to Sunoo and Jungwon who were leaning on
each others laughing about something on Jungwon's phone. But Sunoo heard, so he lifts his head
and put an arm around Ni-ki who was on his other side.

"Ki you should go with Sunghoon hyung! The other day you told me that you like when-" but he
never got to finish his sentence as the maknae covered Sunoo's mouth with his hand, pinching his
arm with the other to warn him to shut up.

"Yeah hyung, I could come... If you want?" He said timidly not letting go of Sunoo afraid he'll
speak too much.

Sunghoon chuckled a bit at the scene, not understanding it but smiled and answered.

"Of course Riki, I would love to!!"

An hour after, the duo were in the gym. They didn't talk much during the ride, just some banality
and Sunghoon wanted to slap himself in the face for how awkward he was acting. He was the
hyung, he should be the one making the atmosphere comfortable.

"What do you want to work on Riki-ya?" asked Sunghoon trying to act nonchalant.

The maknae winced at the way he called him, it's definitely not how he wants his boyfriends to call
him, it was too formal, too impersonate. But he said nothing about it and just answered he wanted
to work on his arms. They warmed up their body and went to it.

Sunghoon proposed to help him and he gladly accepts. They went to the dumbbells, Ni-ki lying
down on the machine and Sunghoon placed behind to supervise him. He guided him through the
exercise, trying his best to concentrate because Riki's veiny arms and hands were quite distracting.
He wondered when did the maknae grow up so much and how has he missed he definitely finished
puberty to become a handsome man.

"Hyung? Hoonie hyung? Can you pass me the water please?" Riki sorted him out of his zoning out
state.

"Oh uh yeah sorry...here." He passed him the bottle and observed him drink the water, some
flowing along his neck.

"Fuck..." He whispered and immediately turned away, acting like he hadn't said anything. But the
maknae heard him well and he was not stupid, he started to understand he had effect on his hyung.

They headed to another machine, for Sunghoon this time. Ni-ki took a good pleasure teasing him a
little, feeling bold. He was casually putting his hands on his hyung's biceps to help him in his
exercises, touches being softer than usual. He couldn't help but wonder if his hyung's red face were
due to him or the exercises. Suddenly, Sunghoon stood up to go drink, sitting on a windowsill.

Riki grabbed a towel and placed himself in front of Sunghoon who look at him with questioning
eyes. He started to wipe his hyung's sweetness on his face, neck, collarbone and arms. Sunghoon
watched him do it silently. Riki swears he could hear his heart beating loud and fast. When he
finished, the maknae looked around quickly to confirm they were alone in the room. He locked his
eyes with Sunghoon's, tension between them, and he finally spoke.

"Do you consider me as your boyfriend hyung?" He asked seriously but with a little sad tone under
it.

Sunghoon was really surprised by the question, he really expected everything but that. Riki saw
panic in his eyes.

"What?! Of course I see you as my boyfriend! We all agreed to it right? You are my boyfriend Riki
at the same level than the others. I'm sorry if I didn't act like it..." Sunghoon said, grabbing gently,
his hands.
"It's okay, I just wanted to hear you confirm it. I know you are still a little reserved with this but I
was also afraid you were having a hard time seeing me in another way than a little brother. I know
you always took at heart you're hyung role towards me." Ni-ki explained.

"I'll always take my hyung role seriously. Even if you're my boyfriend I want to take care of you, to
protect you, to spoil you. Are you okay with it?" The older asked.

"I'm okay with it but only if you do it in a boyfriend way... I'm grown up now, don't hold back from
flirting with me, for touching me... If you want to..." Riki said, putting his hyungs arms around his
waist and his own hand going on his hyung's torso.

"I want to absolutely... I was just waiting for consent...without asking for it because I'm too shy for
that but I want it Riki." He said starting to caress the younger waist, a hand slowly going under the
younger t-shirt, making him shivers.

"Well you have it at 100% hyung and please don't call me like that, I-I like pet names." The
youngest said, getting closer to his hyung's neck, scenting him because even after sport his smell
was driving him crazy.

Sunghoon smiled at the information, a lot more comfortable now, he diriged Ni-ki's head to face
him to only 2cm of his own.

"You do princess?" He murmured, making the maknae whined of approbation before he kissed
him, pressing their body further.

They were hot, literally, the temperature of their body was really heating and they were sweating
like crazy but they didn't care. Sunghoon loved the touches of his boyfriend who passed his hands
under his t-shirt and traced his abs with his long fingers.

At one point, he brushed his thumbs on Sunghoon's nipples making him moan loudly in the kiss.
Riki chuckled at the reaction.

"Sensitive babe?" He asked with a big grinned.

"Shut up and continue that please." Sunghoon required and Riki obeyed gladly.

Suddenly, they heard loud voices outside and jumped apart, scared to be caught, but fortunately
nobody entered the room. They still decided to leave the gym, happily walking hand in hand when
they were sure to not be seen on their way home.
When they entered the room, they were welcome by Sunoo. Riki pecked him cheerfully and went
to Heesung's room to play video games. Sunghoon got closer to Sunoo when he asked him how it
went.

"It went perfectly." He said before kissing him softly. "Thank you for having encouraged me to be
more bold with them. I'm so much at ease knowing they truly accept me as their boyfriend."

"Yes they do, they love you. I love you"

"Love you too Sun."

 Comfronting the past

It's been one month now that the group was officially together. Sunoo couldn't believe it, he has 6
lovely boyfriends and he couldn't feel happier. He had planned to spend time with his sister this
afternoon, for their day off. He wanted to go shopping and find presents for his boyfriends and also
take this opportunity to announce her his relationship with his members.

"What time are you gonna meet your sister Sun? And when are you coming back?" Heesung said,
entering the dressing room where Sunoo was doing his makeup. He came behind him and back
hugged him, smelling his neck because Sunoo scent is always amazing.

"We're meeting at 3pm, leaving in like 10min. We're gonna do some shopping, walking and then
chilling in a coffee to catch up on life. So I'm not sure exactly when I'm going back but I'll be there
before 8pm, I'm taking dinner here so wait for me please." Sunoo said smilling at his hyung
through the mirror.

"Sounds good, it's gonna be nice for you to spend time with her."

"Yeah, I miss her a lot, she's like my best friend. Hyung... I decided I was gonna tell her about us. I
know we agreed to keep it between us, but she's not gonna tell everyone I promise, even my
parent."

"Whaa... That's okay baby, she's really important for you and if you trust her, we trust her."

"Thanks hyung, it means a lot. I'm gonna put my shoes on now, see you for dinner!" Sunoo turned
around to face him, smiling brightly.

"Do you want me to take you back home? I have my car now." The oldest suggested.

"Hmm maybe yes!! I like to flex in your car haha! I'll text you when i'm about to leave my sister."

"Ok, good for me pup." He said before pressing his lips on the younger's one.
"Hyungie! You ruined my lip gloss!" sulked Sunoo.

"What? It looked so tasty, I wanted to test it." Smirked Heesung before letting go his boyfriend.

Sunoo had a great day with his sister, it boosts his energy to see her and when he told her for his
lovers she took it so well, being really supportive. He did everything he wanted to do with her so he
was really pleased. He just said goodbye to her, letting her go home in a cab and reassuring her
telling he will call Heesung.

He was about to do that when he saw someone that had leaved his minds these past months. It was
him, his nightmare.

He immediately felt nauseous and his body tensed. He was frozen in the middle of the street, but
when he saw the figure approaching, he ran away as fast as possible not minding the direction. He
couldn't even see well anyway because of his blurry eyes.

When he finally stopped, he turned around and he was all alone. But the problem is, as he had run
in all directions to make sure to lose him, he lost himself in the process. He couldn't breath
properly, a panic attack invading him.

*****

(TW: panic attacks)

It was 7.30 pm and Sunoo still haven't called Heesung. He didn't want to panic right away, maybe
he was just passing a good time with his sister and he couldn't answer his phone because he mutes
it. Yeah, that's must be that...

8pm. and he was having a hard time keeping his calm. He was sitting on the couch, leg bouncing
while continually calling Sunoo. Jake entered the living room and grew concerned when he saw
his boyfriend in this state.
"What's going on baby?" Heesung hesitated, not wanting to make the others worry for nothing...

"It's uh...Sunoo... He should've called me for me to pick him up before 8pm but he still hadn't and
he's not answering, seems like his phone run of battery...I should've asked where he was going...
fuck I'm so dumb!"

"Hey shhh, it's ok we're gonna find a solution okay? Let's go ask Jungownnie if he has his sister's
number." Jake suggested.

They went to the bedroom where they find the leader on Sunghoon's laps, literally sucking on his
neck's skin.

"Hum guys, sorry to interrupt your moment but we have an emergency. Sunoo's missing..."

"WHAT?!" They shouted, alerting Jay and Ni-ki who were resting in the other room.

"Wonnie do you his sister number?" Heesung asked, pressanted him.

"Yeah, yeah I must have it wait!!"

He searched in his contact list until he find her and pressed the green phone to call.

"Hi noona, it's Jungwon. Are you still with Sunoo?...No??... No he didn't contact us, Hee hyung
said it seems like his phone his off... Hey don't worry, we're gonna search for him I'm sure he's
okay! Can you give us the last place you've been with him? Thank you noona, don't worry yeah I'm
staying in touch with you." The others listened to the conversations, growing concerned even more.

"Ok guys let's go! Take your mask and beanies and let's go search for him. Maybe some of us
should stay at the dorm just in case?" Jay pointed out.

"I'll stay with Ni-ki." said Jungwon but the maknae immediately protested.

"No way I'm going too!!"

"Ok ok we have no time for discuting here, I'll stay with wonnie. Someone stay on the phone with
me while Jungwon will keep in touch with his noona." said Jake.

The rest rushed in Heesung's car. They didn't know where to searched first, so he drove to places
they know Sunoo's like to shops near the adores his sister gave them. They were all in a panic
state, Jay is the most agitated and that didn't help the others to relax because he was usually the one
who can keep his self control the most.

In the dorm, Jake was still on the phone with Sunghoon, guided them into new ideas of where they
could search. After about half an hour, Sunoo's sister calls back Jungwon.

"Do you have news Noona?!"

"Yes! I just had my parents, they said that Sunoo called them with a stranger's phone who helped
him. His phone is out of battery and he only remembered our family house number's. So they called
me to give the address, saying to give it to you and to be quick because he doesn't seem good... Are
you guys in town? Do you want me to go?" She explained, sounding stress and worry.

"No Noona just send me the address, I'm at the dorm with Jake but the others are in the car
searching for him, I'll send them to find him. Don't worry! Everything's gonna be okay. Don't leave
your apart, it's too late for you to go alone."

Jake, still on the phone with the guys immediately gave them the address. Apparently it was a
bakery, and Ni-ki recognized that he had already been there with Sunoo.

When they arrived, he was barely parked but the boys were jumping of the guys and running of the
shop. Lights were still on, but they were no clients anymore, just a woman about 40yo who makes
them sign to enter.

When they did, they saw Sunoo on the floor curled up on himself, crying loudly, but when he
sensed his boyfriends he jumped into them. Jay was the one who caught the shaking boy and
immediately hold him tight, soothing him and saying comforting words right in his ears.

The shop owner approached Heesung who were the last to entered and was catching his breath,
relieved to have found his boyfriend.
"I saw him on the street in the middle of a panic attack. I recognized him because he already came
here a few times and I my daughter had told me he was an idol. I was about to close and leave but I
couldn't let him like that so I went to him and he seemed to recognize me too so he followed me in
there. I had a hard time trying to calm him and making him speak but when I head him my phone
he compose his parent's number and I talk to them, they said that his group members will come."
She explained in a nice tone and Heesung thanked her.

"And don't worry, nobody else had seemed to recognize him and I'll keep my mouth close to this
event." She said sincerely, so they all thanked her a thousand times and even more when she gave
them the leftover of the day before they left.

Once in the car, Sunoo was calmer but seemed really dissociate. Jay and Ni-ki where with him in
the back seat, trying his best to ground him by sweetly talking to him without questioning him for
the moment, scared it will make him worse.

By the time they arrived at the dorm he was sleeping so Sunghoon carried him in bridal style to his
bed. Once he tucked him in bed, he looked at him for a long minute before kissing his forehead and
going back to the kitchen where everybody else were talking about what just happen.

"Any idea of what caused him a panic attack and to run from the place he where?" asked Jake.

"No... He wasn't able to say anything. He just cried until he falls asleep." explained Jay.

About 15min later, they heard a scream from Sunoo so they all ran into the bedroom in a hurry.
They found him on the floor, crying and scratching his arms violently while shouting.

"Why did you leave me alone?? I'm all alone!! You don't love me!! I- you hate me!!" He shouted
continually.

The members were shocked by the words, it was heartbreaking to see their boyfriend like that.
Jungwon immediately went near him.

"I love you Sunoo! we love you, you're in the dorm, with us!! You're safe!!!" He tried to say with a
comforting tone but he was also shaking, hurt to see him like that.
"Why don't you touch me? Why are you not holding me then??!! You don't love me!!" Sunoo
shouted and when Jungwon made a move to hug him and continue his reassurance, Sunoo jumped
on him suddenly, kissing him.

But it was nothing like him. It was not the sweet kisses, they're used to receiving from him. It was
rough, almost violent and Jungwon was too shocked to respond, but the others immediately catch it
was not normal.

Jungwon was feeling uneasy but did not push him away afraid to hurt him more, so Ni-ki quickly
come behind Sunoo and pushed him from the leader, holding him tightly in a back hug. Sunoo
immediately screamed and cry from the separation and they all saw he was having trouble
breathing.

"Shh love, everything is ok, I'll hold you... forever... I love you but please breath for me baby." Ni-
ki said in his ear. Visibly his word and his hold had effects on the older who stopped screaming
and tried his best to breathe. His others boyfriends gathered around, Heesung hold one of his hands
tight.

"That's it sweetheart, you're doing good, follow Riki's breath you feel it right? Feel his chest on
your back, follow it love, take your time." Heesung said while the maknae was exaggerating his
breathing patterns for Sunoo to feel.

Seeing their touches also calmed him, they put their hands all over him gently. Jungwon put his
hands on Sunoo's cheeks, caressing it and feeling Sunoo melting into it.

"Woonie I'm sorry, p-please don't hate me, I'm sorry I scared you." Sunoo cried now that he started
to recover his state and realized what he had just done.

"I'll never, NEVER hate you love." He said before kissing him softly to prove he was not scared of
him. He felt Sunoo sight on the kiss and that his breath was stabilized now. So he pulled away but
not too far and started drying Sunoo's tears.

"Do you want to talk about it Sunny." Jay asked carefully.

Sunoo nodded his head but paused. His boyfriends let him the time he needed, still holding him
seeing that Sunoo seems to recover from their touches.

"I saw him." He started out of the blue. They all tensed hearing that, knowing perfectly who he
was referring to.
"I-...my nightmare, I saw my nightmare, my biggest trauma... right in front of me in the crowd...
and he saw me too. I- I think I saw him walked towards me so I run away in the opposite way, not
looking where I was going... I'm sorry I'm worried you and I'm sorry I acted like that, I feel like I
got crazy."

"You don't have anything to apologize for Sunshine. Your reactions are traumatic and I'm glad you
managed to run from him and let yourself be helped by that nice woman. We love you more than
anything and we'll always protect you I promise." said Heesung, kissing his temple.

They all stayed like that for a while, and Sunoo finally fall asleep again, still pressed on Ni-ki's
torso. The maknae carefully carried him on his bed and lie down next to him, still holding tightly
like he would disappear if he let him go.

"Wonnie, are you ok?" asked Sunghoon concerned.

"Yeah I'm okay, I just hope he will not blame himself for what he did... Should I stay with them? I
want to but I'm scared to make him uncomfortable."

"No definitely not, he needs you. Be near him when he woke up so he knows you're okay." Jay
replied.

They all said goodnight to each others, all exhausted from the night and Jungwon joined the duo,
nuzzling into Sunoo's soft hair.
 You make it better

Sunoo woke up the next morning when Ni-ki left the bed, kissing his head and whispering
something to Jungwon about preparing the breakfast. Sunoo opened his eyes to immediately meet
Jungwon's one who were smiling at him.

"Good morning angel, did you get to sleep well?"

"Morning Wonnie.... yes I did, I totally passed out from exhaustion. Thanks you for staying with
me... I'm so-" He got cut by lips on his.

"I don't need you to say sorry hyung. I love you, I've got you for life... in your good and down
moments."

Sunoo smiled thankfully at him and brought him in a big hug, breathing his scent. Riki entered just
after that with a breakfast plate, Sunghoon and Jake following.

"Breakfast in bed for the princesses" He said, passing the plate to them.

"Aren't you the one who like to be called princess Ki?" laughed Jake, Ni-ki turns red and
immediately turning to Sunghoon with accusing eyes.

"Yeah Hoon totally told me how you become all shy and pleased when you call him that. Don't
sulk princess, it's cute!!" Jake continued to mock gently the maknae.

"Shut up hyung, I'm not allowing you to call me that!!" He said wincing.

"And I? Am I not allowed to call you princess? I found it adorable." Sunoo said.

Ni-ki jumped on the bed and put his head on the older's neck, kissing it softly.

"Of course love! You can call me whatever you want to and I would love it." He declared.
"You're so biased, that's not fair." Pouted Jake.

"Jakey, stop teasing the maknaes..." Heesung said entering the room with Jay.

"Hi Sunshine, how do you feel?" asked Jay getting closer to the bed and giving a peck to both
Jungwon and Sunoo.

"I'm way much better... really guys, thank you so much for having acted wonderfully despite my
state yesterday..."

"It's normal baby, we'll always be there for you. I hope you will always come find us if you sense
something like that coming again okay? And for now on, I will drive you whenever you want to
spend stop time outside." Heesung declared.

"Thank you Hyungie, I love you, sorry for having made you so worry... By the way are you going
somewhere?" Sunoo said while seeing his boyfriend dressed up to go outside.

"Your sister messaged Jungwon this morning because she wanted to know how you were. So
Wonie asked me to come take her at her apart and brought her to the dorm so she'll eat with us and
spend some time with you. You are okay with this right?"

"Of course, thank you hyung! It's really nice of you to do that. By the way... I told her about us.
She was really happy but expect some big sister's protective comments. And I think I would take
the opportunity to tell her about my past abused...with the yesterday's event, I probably worried her
a lot, she deserves explanations but I would need all your support."

"No worries, we will be there, just know that you can stop if you don't want to continue and tell us
what you need if you feel triggered." said Sunghoon.

"I'm going guys, please help Jay with the cooking but don't set the kitchen on fire! And Sunoo baby
you should also call your parents if you feel capable, if not one of us can do I to reassure them."
Heesung said.

"It's okay I'll do it, be safe hyungie."

 *****

The day passed really smoothly. Sunoo's noona was really relieved to see her little brother
surrounding by his boyfriends and will take care of. Everybody is treating him like the princess he
his, and she was also pleased to see how Sunoo was also really comfortable around them. The
looks and touches he shared with them were really genuine and she never saw her brother so
happy.

Heesung brought her back home before dinner and when he came back the food order they made
was already there. They all eat in a cozy mood, talking about this and that and acting all lovely with
each others.

Sunoo love this kind of moment where he could just observe them all in one frame. They were his
boyfriends, they all loved each others, they promised to always be united to make things work.

That's when he remembered.

"Oh shoot! I almost forgot !!!" He exclaimed running to the entrance where Jay had left his
shopping bag yesterday when they came back. Surprising everybody by the sudden exclamation.

"Are you okay Sunny?" shouted Jake, starting to stand up to go check on him but Sunoo had been
already back to them with his bag.

"Yes I'm good, I just forgot that... Yesterday was our 1st month anniversary since we officially
established our relation so I wanted to give you a little something." He said a little shyly.

Everybody was perplexed but also really happy of the attention. He distributed them each a little
box with their name flocked to it. "You can open it" Sunoo said.

They did and saw beautiful silver rings with their birth stones embed in the middle. They were all
too stunned to speak, admiring the gifts.

(Heesung- opal / Jay- ruby / Jake- citrine / Sunghoon- turquoise / Ni-ki- sapphire / Jungwon-
amethyst / Sunoo- moonstone.)
"Look inside the rings" Sunoo added.

They did and all of them started to tear up when they saw the gravure inside the metal.

' 'Till the end of time, the story of you and I.'

Jake gasped and immediately jumped on Sunoo to kiss him tenderly when he read the lyrics he
wrote for their song "Shout out". Sunghoon joined just after, back hugging him because he
recognized his part of the song. It felt really meaningful for them.

They all quickly joined them, laughing and crying together. They were overwhelmed by love and
even more when Sunoo talked.

"I love you all... This ring is the symbol of my love and my trust towards you. I promise I would
always come to you if something is wrong as much as I promise I would be there to help you with
your problems and take care of you until the end of time like the song say."

"Oh my god Sun!! That's... fuck I love you" Heesung said kissing him.

"Hyungie, it really look like a proposal here..." Jungwon said, half laughing but also half
anticipating with wide eyes.

"I... it kinda is yes... I love you and I really want to spend my life with you, I can't imagine it
otherwise. So this ring is a promise yes...If you accept it" Sunoo explained shy but confident about
his feelings.

Everybody answered with approvals and "I love you", tears falling in the process.

Ni-ki grabs his jaw and put him in a long kiss, and after that he said against his lips, " I would
marry you right away if I could hyung." making Sunoo flushed furiously, speechless of the maknae
words.

"Ok waa, geez Ki... We all want that but with that confident tone in your voice, I'm afraid you will
kidnap him to do a secret wedding without us." Jay said jokingly.
"Nooo don't worry hyung, when I'll marry him I'll marry you all too." Ni-ki said, turning to Jay and
also putting him in a kiss, enjoying the effect he had on his boyfriends when he act bold.

"Fuck... you guys are making me crazy, and I think my heart is about to explode." said Sunghoon,
putting his face in his palms.

"No please hyung don't expose your too pretty for this" Jungwon said cutely, hugging him
sideways. It made Sunghoon growled of flustered, and everybody laughed.

"Loves? Can I put the rings on your fingers myself?" Sunoo demanded.

"Oh my god yes yes yes!!! I love you all for real and I'm really really considering this like an
engagement!" Jake said really overwhelmed, flapping his hands and jumping with excitation.

"Ok ok honey! Calm yourself a little because Sunny can't pass you the rings if you move like that",
said Heesung, wrapping his arms around Jake to contain him gently.

Sunoo giggled at the reaction and took Jake's ring out of his box. He passed him on his finger and
kissed him softly, "I love you" he whispered, looking at him right in his eyes. That made Jake froze
on the spot, almost fainting from the overdose of emotions.

Sunoo make sure to do the same things to the others, tears in his eyes but a wide smile hurting his
cheeks while he received all of their reactions.

Jay and Heesung putting him in warm embraces, Jungwon kissing him passionately and looking at
him with his shiny boba eyes. Sunghoon couldn't stop crying so Sunoo gently rubbed their noses
together, whispering how much he loves him. After he kissed Ni-ki, the maknae looked at him
with the most serious look he ever did and murmured.

"I want to thank you Sunoo hyung. For being who you are, the wonderful person you allow us to
see and love everyday. I want to thank you for learning to me what love his, for making me
realized I loved the hyungs too. Thank you for being my first kiss, my first love... I also want you
to be my first time if you want to." He whispered the last sentence.

Sunoo said "I would be honored love." through his tears. Ni-ki took the remaining boxes on the
table, he looked at his hyung watching behind them. They all nod, encouraging him with the
 softest stare. He took the ring and pass it on Sunoo's finger while saying.

"Representing all of us, Because the world is beautiful when we're together. I put to you this ring
Kim Sunoo, promising that we'll always be there for you, to protect you, to take care of you and to
love you. Until the end of time."

*****

With my real voice, I'll tell you my true feelings.

The world is beautiful lwhen we're together.

Spread out, sperad out far away

Now shout, shout, shout out loud.

Til the end of time

The story of you and I

We got shout, shout, shout

When we're together

Stay, stay, stay

You make it better

My life without you is a misery

My heart is racing like it'll explode

Shout, shout, shout like you and me

The worlds shakes,louder

Shout out my heart for you,

My burning heart.

End Notes

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