To the person who read this,

It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in
the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose
ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the
way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss
the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out
about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure
because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s
painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but,
stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for
you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the
end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to
see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do
make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole
world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re
passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you
lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by
reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you
to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and
feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second
alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of
being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it
happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once
and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how
you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please
forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your
beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but
you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you
can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your
heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you
feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a
hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of
love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You
deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good
and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the
things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening
to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care
about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you
to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let
you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself
because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were
a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t
give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on
yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s
tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look
back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t
let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I
won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :).
Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about
you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back,
maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s
enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting.
You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth
even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when
you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in
it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your
heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had,
you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is
beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars
you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in
there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a
star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful
from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by
reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me
feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope
you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by
yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope”
because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in
you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the
world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse
of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is
yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my
words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t
enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you.
If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you
don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with
them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone
broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so
beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t
know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in
general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you
shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human
being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you
have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to
anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not
being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know
it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man,
don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am
sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or
even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of
you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re
here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know
it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have
nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it
by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but
take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so
on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re
probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you
feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean
who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do
a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease
and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for
breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want
for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of
unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you
here.

I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it
anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel
alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.

You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you
want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving
up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your
friend.
“Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think
of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.
In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am
so happy you’re here.

I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let
go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?

Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is,
love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.

If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)

have a good day and great years.

I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words-
becho, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :) <3