Gonzales, Chantel Marie G.

BTLED IA 1-1
UTS ACTIVITY 1

Me as I see me

Maybe if my 2 years ago self only saw me now, she would be surprised. because in those 2
years, a lot happened and it felt like 10 years ago. I can't even single out one but I know that
I have grown as a person, my 2021 self is different from now. before, it was easy for me to
judge people right away, but now I look at them first because I know that you can only
recognize the true behavior of people if you have been with them in joy, in sadness, in
everything but I think what hasn't changed is that I don't pay attention to what people say to
me or what people say, my appearance, my movements, everything about me, I don't pay
attention to it because I know myself better than how they see me. Until now, I don't care
what my appearance should be but there is a slight change. I learned to invest in myself like
in skincare, makeups, because I want to take care of myself more, so I learned to do that.
Right now, I am happy with what I have. I have a family, I have good friends and there is one
person that I value a lot because he is one of the most important people to me because he
helps me with everything, especially mentally. I am thankful for the things I have now, and I
will be even more thankful if they will be given more. I honestly don't know or I'm not aware
of the behavior I have but I notice that the behavior I use depends on the person, an
example is if the person I've been with is an extrovert or noisy, good at socializing with
people, it's noticeable I'm quiet and a bit shy and if the person I'm with is introverted or just
quiet, that's when I get out my talkativeness as if I'm not being shy and I think that's the real
me and that I express who I really am. I see myself as an imperfect person and I know that
there is no perfect person, I am often right and I also often do wrong. Another thing I see in
myself is being worried about the future because we are not that rich, my future is not
secured so I just have to worry about the future. In the future, I want to be financially stable
and help my family and repay my parents. I also want to do what I want to do and I want to
fulfill my dream. Honestly, I don't have any dreams of having a high status job, unlike before I
wanted to be a pilot or a psychologist, for now, I just want to find a good job in the future and
if I have a chance, I want to fulfill my dream of being a pilot. Those are just a few of the
qualities that I see in myself, but I know that how other people see me is more than that.
How other people see me

I found out what my loved ones thought of me. Sincerely, I didn't hold high hopes for them to
notice my positive traits, such kindness, sweetness, and care, but instead, I got more from
them than that. They said that I can be relied upon whenever they ask for help, I didn't
expect that's what they said because honestly, I don't realize that I am helping them and
maybe I do that because they are really important to me and I don't want them to disappear
from my life. Some of them say that I'm rude and grumpy and I'm aware of that and I'm
slowly changing that. They also said that I'm quick to notice even the smallest things about
them, maybe I'm just really sensitive to people and I really want to get to know them. They
also said that I am kind when people are kind to me and I know that I am doing the right
thing and that bad people do not deserve my kindness. When we practice kindness either to
other people or towards ourselves we can experience positive mental and physical changes
through lowering stress levels and increasing the body's production of feel-good hormones
such as dopamine, oxytocin and serotonin. Giving and receiving respect from others is
important because it helps us to feel safe and to express ourselves. Being respected by
important people in our lives growing up teaches us how to be respectful toward others. I
believed that “How others see you isn't important, How you see yourself means everything.”
but somehow, it is important to know how others view you because if you know how others
perceive you, you are more likely to be able to control the situation. You will start to see
people reacting to you in the way you want them to. It's amazing how this can boost your
confidence levels too.
How I would like other people to see me

“Be proud of who you are, and not ashamed of how someone else sees you.” I went through
a number of really trying experiences in my life before I finally understood that lesson many
years ago. Years had passed as I tried to live up to the expectations of others by striving to
be polite enough, clever enough, pretty enough, and all the other "enoughs." However, no
matter how hard I tried, someone would always tell me that I wasn't good enough, and my
self-perception would utterly collapse. I would have terrible self-esteem. I would not look in
the mirror and realize who that girl was who was staring back at me; instead, I would feel
down and disappointed and let myself think that someone else's opinion of me was accurate.
I'm probably among the majority of people who want other people to see their best sides. I
want everyone to only see my positive side, but that shouldn't be the case because everyone
has flaws; some individuals struggle with anger management, while others are critical of
others. We can't let people see only our positive sides. I want people to think of myself as a
laid-back, kind, compassionate person who doesn't give an inch about what other people
think. However, I also want others to see my flaws so that I may be comfortable with my
actions and behavior and truly show who I am. I want people to see me for who I am, not for
what they think they should or for what other people think of me. I would prefer that people
view me holistically rather than judging me solely on the basis of a single occurrence, deed,
or statement. I want other people to understand that I'm flexible and that my preferences
and interests now may differ from those in the past. I want people to see me for who I am
these days and not for what I did in the past. I want people to cease doubting my words and
realize that I am reliable. I want people to see me or even people who hate me that I've
grown and people to see that I'm constantly working on ways to make myself better. But
nowadays, I don't care how other people see me because they don't really know me and that
won't help my life, no one can help me but myself but there are really good people who will
help you change yourself, they tell you what they really see about you. That's what I want, I
want other people to help me become the best version of myself. You have no control over
who will support you, who will spread lies about you, who will be your biggest fan, who will
love you, who will judge you, who will condemn you, who will speak well of you, who will love
you, and who will treat you unfairly. It is truly beyond our control to dictate how others will
feel, think, or behave toward us. Once we acknowledge it as a reality, we can shift our
attention to the one thing in this life that we can truly control: our self-perception.