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Jesse A. Hope
Ms. Kennedy
“I, ______, take you, ______, to be my loved one, to have and to hold from this day
forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to
cherish, until death do us part”. These are words most of us are familiar with. Whether you’ve
been married yourself, or perhaps you’ve heard them at the wedding of a loved one. In this essay,
I’m going to write about marriage. I’m going to discuss the marriages of my parents and my
grandparents. I’m also going to write about some of my own experiences in romantic
relationships. I’m then going to discuss how these experiences helped shape my personal views
regarding marriage. I will then at the end answer these two questions; am I married, or have I
been married, and, whether I look forward to marriage or if I intend to avoid marriage. Let’s get
My parents met in their twenties, after mom graduated from Oklahoma State University
and moved back home to Heavener Oklahoma. They would be married soon after. In 1993, they
had me, their firstborn. My parents divorced in the early 2000s. I have very few memories from
before the divorce, most of them are of my parents arguing. Then I have the very distinct
memory of when my mother decided to divorce my father. She had just picked my sister and me
up from after-school programs and we were arriving home. I remember my mother pulling into
the driveway and throwing the gear selector of the truck into park saying “that’s it! We’re getting
divorced! He knew I wanted to go to Walmart without the kids after work and he isn’t here!”
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Now obviously she wasn’t talking to me. I’m sure she probably didn’t even think I was listening.
But I was, and it stuck with me. A few months later they had divorced, and dad had moved out.
We only saw him every other weekend or spent a few months with him during the summer from
then on out. Now, there were obviously other things at play that I would not have been privy to,
this was just the cherry on top for my mother. Next, I will discuss my grandparents, from both
My mother’s parents, MeeMee and Papa John, had been divorced for as long as I can
remember. MeeMee is from Illinois and Papa John was from Heavener Oklahoma. I’m not sure
how they met but I think Papa John being in the air force had something to do with it. They
married and had three children together and adopted one other. Thinking back, I cannot think of
a single time I saw MeeMee, and Papa John interact with each other, not even once. But when
Papa John died in 2010, I do very vividly remember sitting next to MeeMee in the third row at
his funeral. She still went, even though they had been divorced for more than a decade, even
though Papa John had remarried to a horrendous woman who, along with her grown children,
made the entire funeral process a nightmare for several of my family members, she still went.
Next, I will tell you a little about my father’s parents and their marriage.
Granny Shirley and Papa Delbert married at a very young age, had three children
together, one of which, a baby girl, died during infancy, and adopted one other child. Granny
Shirley and Papa Delbert never divorced. I remember spending a lot of time with Granny Shirley
and Papa Delbert in the early days. I never saw them argue, granny was a pro at picking her
battles. They were as sweet as could be with each other. Granny Shirley unfortunately passed in
2014. It was hard on everyone, but it was hardest on Papa Delbert. I remember, at the funeral,
you could see the devastation on his face, his entire world had just vanished, and he was so lost. I
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honestly did not think he would live much longer. Papa Delbert is still very much alive, and he is
doing better than ever. Although, I can’t help but wonder just how he does it. Now we will get
My first serious relationship, I was a senior in high school and I met a girl that fascinated
me. We very quickly fell in love and hit it off. We even went as far as to get engaged, much to
the disapproval of her parents. Things moved very fast and got serious, quick! She had gotten
pregnant and had a miscarriage. We were so young, and we just couldn’t handle something of
that magnitude. We started arguing all the time and I started feeling unhappy and trapped. Our
breakup was not a pretty one, hard feelings developed, and we stopped talking. A couple of years
ago we talked, and all hard feelings are now gone. I will always hold a special place in my heart
for that person and for my child that never made it into this world, a child that would’ve been ten
My second and most impactful romantic relationship started in 2015, after my cousin
introduced me to a guy named Daniel. We fell madly in love and started a life together. After a
few months, he started throwing around the idea of getting engaged. I was apprehensive about
the entire relationship from the beginning, so I just deflected the suggestion. A little after our
one-year mark he began to become more persistent, saying that he would leave me if I didn’t
propose to him. I once again deflected, and our relationship quickly became very toxic. We
argued daily. He was an alcoholic, a manipulator, and mentally abusive. He alienated me from
all my friends. I began to feel unhappy and trapped, but I feared what might happen if I tried to
leave. We were together for a total of four and a half years before I finally had enough. By this
time, I had bought a house so I couldn’t just leave, I had to kick him out. On December 3rd, 2019,
after an argument and brief altercation, I told him to pack his things and go. It was a very long
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and drawn-out break-up, very toxic, and felt like it would never end. Next, I will discuss my
After breaking up with Daniel I had decided that I was going to stay single for a few
years. But when I moved to Stillwater in April of 2020, I met Jacob and, once again, fell quickly
in love. I had never felt love from another person like I did from Jacob, it was truly hypnotizing.
We had an absolute blast for a while and then things started to get rocky. After a little over a
year, we broke up. Our breakup was not easy for me. I say this was a serious relationship
because Jacob is now my best friend. While we are not together anymore as a couple, our
relationship is growing every day. Now I will try to explain how all these experiences helped
Over the past several years my desire to get married has diminished quite a bit. What I
learned from my parents and grandparents is that nothing last forever, people change, and your
entire life can turn upside-down in an instant. What I learned from my personal relationships is
that I fall in love way too fast, and I ignore red flags while doing it. I don’t want to go through a
divorce. I don’t want to put any children through a divorce. I don’t want to sacrifice any dreams
or ambitions. I especially don’t want to experience the pain that comes with losing a spouse.
Maybe I’m just selfish. Maybe these experiences have nothing to do with my views, or maybe
they have everything to do with them. Alright let’s wrap it up, conclusion is next.
I’ve told you about the marriages of my parents, grandparents, and told you a little about
my own experiences. I also explained the best I can how these affected my views on marriage.
No, I am not married, and I have never been married. Now, do I intend to get married, or avoid it
all together? Honestly, I can’t answer that with certainty. Which, to me is a good thing because