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rangedMar
ri
age:
Anel
e
Season2
I
nser
t01

Anel
e
.
Ipickedmysel fupandsl owl
ywentt ot he
kit
chen, i dr
inkedwat ermyabdomi nal wasin
paini tr
iedi gnoringitbutheyitswasn' tdoing
anyj ustice, il
ookedar oundthel oungel ooki
ng
formyphonet hanitshitmymi ndt hatZwel i
brokei si ghast hepai nwasget ti
ngmor eand
mor ei climbedt hest air
swalkingslowly
headi ngt other oom wher eNtandoandZwel i
wer e, iknockedi heard'comei n!'iwalkedin
l
imbi ng
.
.
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryf
orcausi
nganyt
roubl
e,Zwel
i
canipl
easeborrowmey ourphone,ineedt
o
gettot
hedoctori'
m hav
ingseri
ouspainsonmy
abdominal
"
Hi
m: "Si
ncewhendoy ouaddr
essmeasZwel
i
i
nfr
ontofourguest"hel
ookatme
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryMagebabutcany
oupl
easehel
p
me"
Hi
m:"Babeshoul
dwehel
pher?"
Ntando:"idon'
tknowbabe, whati
fsherepor
ts
t
hisont hepoli
ceandtheyarr
estyou,j
ust
i
magi nehowy ourki
ngdom wil
lbe"
Him:"You'renotj
ustbeaut
if
ulbutyoual
so
smart,i
'm sorr
yMaNdlovubutican'
thel
pYou,
Maybeifyouhav eheal
edenough,wewillgot
o
thehospi
tal"
Me:"pl
easei
'
m beggi
ngy
a'l
l,Nt
andopl
ease
hav
esomemer cy"
Nt
ando:
"iwi
shi
canhel
pbuti
can'
t,myhands
aretied"i nodandsl owlylef
t, headingtomy
room ,iwassobbi nghowcoul dt heydomel ike
thi
s, ican'tbeli
evei oncelovedthosepeopl e
buttheytur nouttohur tmet hi
smuch, isaton
thebedcr yingaf t
erfewmi nutescr yi
ngi
deci
dedt ot akeabat htosoakmysel fmaybe
thepainwi lleaseupal il
.Afterbat hi
ngiwent
tosleepi hopet omor r
owi willwakeupbet t
er
.
.
.
WeeksLat
er
.
.
.
Iwasfeel
i
ngmuchbettert
houghthescars
weret
herebuti
havetoaccepti
ts,ihav
ethis
pl
antoescapet
hishel
lwhole,i
tri
edseveral
ti
mest oescapeorev enaski ngf orhel pbut
Zwel istri
ctlytoldtheguar dst onotl etmeout,
healway slockst hedoor swhenev erhel eav es
ohi forgott otellyout hatNt andonowl iveswi t
h
us, isuspectt hatshe' sPr egnant, she' sbeen
gainingal otofwei ght, hav i
ngwei rdcr avings,
buti didn'twantt ot ellher, i'
vebecomeher
slave, i'
m hermai dnow, allidoiswash, cl
ean
andcookf orthem whi l
et heyl i
vel i
keKi ngand
Queen, iknewsoont heywi llbe, it
shar dlivi
ng
myl i
f enow, everythingi sgoi ngont her ough
path, i'
m ev enshockedt hatMyDadnev ertried
tov i
sitmeorhewantt ocomemay beZwel i
alway smakeexcusesev enhi smom shoul d
comeandcheckonme, i'
m herdaught erinl aw
forgoodnesssake.Zwel i hast urnedt ot his
devil, t
rustmehemadesur et hati don't
contactany oneheev enmadesur et hatt he
l
andl i
nesar enotwor king, heoncef oundout
thati stol
ehi sphonet ocal lmydad, ididn'teat
forthewhol ethreeday, iwasn' tabl etomov e
andy
eshest
il
lscomeandr
apeme.
.
Istoodupmybr eastwer estarti
ngtobesor e
andbi gger, iknowi wasnotbl essedtohave
boobsbutnowt heyar ebigger, i
'
m get
ting
l
ightert hanev er, i
'
m gainingsomuchwei ght,i
don'tknowwhymybodyi sreacti
ngthi
sway, i
heardt hattheLobol anegotiati
onwasgoi ng
prett
ywel l
,thedooropenedj ugdingbythe
voicei knewshebr oughtherf r
iendsover,i
wentt oconf i
rmi t,Yesi wasr i
ght
.
Ntando:"Whuuuuhy ouhavegainedweighti
guesswear etreatingyougood, Ladi
esthi
sis
mysisterwifea.k.amymai d"theylaughed"
Cany oupleaseprepareussomet hingni
ceto
eatwhileatit,
bringussomeone"
Me:"Yey
yWenai'
m noty
ourmai
d,remember
whenwewer
efri
ends??Yousai
di'
mtheonl
y
fr
iendyouhavenowall
ofthesuddeny
ouhav
e
fr
iends,peopl
ereal
l
ychange"mywords
angeredher
Ntando:
"iwil
ltel
lZwel
iaboutt
his!"shesai
d
t
hattaki
ngherphoneout,shecal
ledhim
.
.
'
PhoneConv
o'sheputhi
m onl
oudspeaker
.
.
Nt
ando:
"BabeI
'
m hav
ingapr
obl
em "
Zwel
i:
"Whati
sitbabe?
?"
Nt
ando:"I'
m hungr
yAneledoesn'
twantto
makefoodforme, andshej
ustdi
srespect
ed
meinf
rontofmyf r
iends"
Zwel
i:"Don'tcr
ybabeassoonasi
'
m doneher
e,
Uzoy
ikhothaimbengeey
omile,
Lovey
ou"
Nt
ando:
"il
ovey
out
oobabe"t
hecal
lended
Nt
ando:
"Lalel
akeyoubet
terpr
epar
eyour
sel
f,
mymaniscoming!"
.
.
Theyheadedt othebacky ard, shel efther
phoneont hekitchencount er,i knewt hisi
smy
chancet otryandgethel p,iwentt ocheckt he
coastbef orerushingtot hephoneandt ookedi t
andr antomyr oom , il
ockedmyr oom and
sighed, openi
ngt hephonewasami ssion, buti
fi
nal l
ydid,ifi
rstlytri
edmydadi tswentst raight
tov oicemail,
i knewmymom won' tansweri t,
shedoesn' tansweranycal l
sf r
om t henumber
shedoesn' tknow, myonl yhopewasNat hani
tr
iedhi m aswel lbut'thenumbery ouhav e
dialedisnotav ail
able' y
eaht hatwhati got, i
l
ef tav oi
cemessage
"
"Nat
hani
tsmeAnel
epl
easecomeandHel
p
me, i
knowimadeamistakebybreaki
ngup
he'
sgonnaki
l
lmenilov-"theknockdi
sdur
bed
me
Zwel
i:
"Opent
hisdoor
!"OhGod
.
.
Tast
eofS2
.
.
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n
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Anel
e
.
.
Thedoorwasr oughlyopenedbyZweli,
thelook
onhisfaceyoucant ellt
hathewasangry,
i
pushedthephoneundert hepil
l
ow,andquickly
stoodup,i'
m afrai
dofhi m,hewaswith
Ntandoiknewt hattodayismydyi
ngday
.
Zwel
i:
"Whywer
eyout
roubl
i
ngmywi
fe?
?"
Me:"I
'm sor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
oo,iwasj
ustt
ir
ed
,shecameanddemandedforf
ood"
Zwel
i:
"Ai
n'
ti
tyourj
obt
omakesur
esheeat
s
wel
l?"
Me: "Nextti
mei wi
lldobet ter"hecli
ckedhis
tongueandleft,
whuuuhi thoughthewas
gonnahitme, assoonast heylef
tirantothe
bathroom t
opukeashi scolognesmel l
edbadi
decidedtotakeashoweraswel l,t
hephone
ranganditswaswr i
tten"Aunt"i didn'
tanswer
i
ti waswaiti
ngforNat hanorDad, aftermy
bat
h,t
hephoner
angiqui
ckl
ytooki
tsandi
ts
wasNat
hanwhowascall
i
ngismil
ed
.
Hi
m:"Hel
l
o"hesai
dsof
tl
y
??:
"Openthi
sdoor,iwantmyphone!
!"shi
tit
s
wasNtando,ist
art
edshaki
ng
Me:"NathanitsMeAnel
epleasecom-"i
acci
dent
lydroppedt
hephoneandboom!The
phonewasinthebatht
ub,Godi'm dead
Me:
"I'
m coming!
!"iwrappedmyselfwi
tha
t
owelandsl
owlyopenedthedoor,
shepushed
mei
n
Her:
"Wher
eismyphone,
ihear
ditr
ingher
e"
Me:
"idon'
tknowwhaty
out
alki
ngabout"
Her:
"Don'
tmakemecal
lZwel
i"
Me: "Cal
lhi
m andi'
mr epeatingagain,idon'
t
knowwher eyourphoneis, askoneofy our
fr
iendsmaybetheyknowi t"sheclickedher
tongueandl ef
t, iquicklytookoutt hephone
andwi pedi twithmyt owel , quicklywentdr ess,
whichwasmyl eggi ngsandabaggyt -
shirt,i
hadbl acklinegoingdownmyst omach, peopl
e
whousual lyhast hiski ndofl i
near epr egnant
ri
ght ?
?Theni remember ed, fir
stni ghtwith
Zwel iwedi dn'
tusepr otecti
on, fucki couldbe
pregnant!Wai ti nev erskippedamont honmy
periodmay bei'
mj usti magi ningt hingsandi fi
ts
happenst obeZwel i
'schi l
dwhi chmeazni 'm
stuckedwi thhimf or ever!, isighedandl eft
headingdownst airsandqui cklyhi dethephone
i
nt hekitchen, andwentt osi tdown.Af tera
whiletheycamedownst airshol dinghandsi
chuckledf ewmont hsagoi tswasmenowi ts
her
.
Zweli
:"Umm Anel
ewe'r
egoi
ngt
ohav
edi
nner,
wannajoi
nus"ismil
ed
Me:
"Noi
'
mfi
ne,
enj
oy!"
Nt
ando:
"Don'
tyouwantany
thi
ng?
?"
Me:
"Justbr
ingmehotwi
ngs,
i'
m cr
avi
ngf
or
t
hem "
Zweli:
"Okay,let
sgobabe"t heyl ef
t,i
relaxed
abitandwenttotakeNt ando'sphone, it
ook
outthebatt
eryandwentt otaket hehai
rdryer
anddryedthephonef or10mi nutes,it
henput
thebatt
eryback,thephoneswi tchedon, Yes!I
saidtomyselfibuzzedNat hanandhecal led
me
.
.
Him:"List
enhere,i'
m notyourfr
iend,and
whateverbul
lshi
tyouupt oo,y
oubet t
erquiti
t
becausei'
m notyourfr
iendandisweari'
m
gonnafindyouandkil
ly ounx,whoarey ou??"
igi
ggled
Me:"Nat
hani
tsmeAnel
e"hekeptqui
etf
ora
whi
l
e
Me:
"ar
eyoust
il
lher
e!"
Him:
"Yes,
Aneleisi
treal
l
yyou?
?Li
key
out
he
youy
ou!"il
aughed
Me:
"yesi
tsr
eal
l
yme!"
Him:
"Wow, wher
ehav
eyoubeen?"i
mel
ted,
hest
il
lcar
es<3
Me:
"I'
m Good,
ineedy
ourhel
p"
Hi
m:"Any
thi
ngbeaut
if
ul:
*"i
giggl
ed
Me:
"iwan'
tyout
ohel
pmeescapet
hishel
l"
Him:"Okayi
'
ml i
sterni
ng"i t
oldhimthewhole
st
oryonhowZweli abusesmeandbyt heway
hewasbreat
hingyoucant el
lthathewasangry
Hi
m: "Hedi
dwhat
!Isweari
'
m gonnaki
l
lhi
m,
f
uck!"
Me:
"Rel
ax,
justt
ell
Dad,
hewi
l
lhel
pyou"
Hi
m:"Okay"
Me:
"youknowi
sti
l
llov
eyou"
Him:"Mmmhbutyoulef
tmef
orhim andlook
athowhe'
str
eat
ingy
ounow!"ikeptqui
et
Hi
m:"I
'
m sor
ryi
tsj
us-"
Me: "It
sokayi under
stand,ihavetogoplease
don'tcall
thi
snumber, iwil
lbuzzorcall
you"i
hungupatl eastiseetheli
ghtattheendofthe
tunnel
.
.
.
Nat
han^
_^
.
.
Hel
loguys,YesI '
m back, andfreshasnew! !,
welli
knowy a'
llkeepwonder i
nghowi 'm sti
ll
al
ive,Anel
e'sdaddi dn'
tkil
lme, actuall
yi '
m
worki
ngunderhi m now, i
'vej
oinedhi sgang
af
teralotofconvincingthou,isti
llremember
howhet ookoutmyt wofrontteethl
ike
nobody '
sbusi ness,ihaveneverexperi
enced
suchpai nbef ore,worseofall
whenhet i
edmy
dicktogetherwi thmyballsandstrongl
ypull
ed
theropet hebl oodgushedoutofmydi ck
samet i
me!Buthemanagedt of or
giveandwe
waypastt hat.Iwonderwhatwi ll
hesaywhen
hehear sthatherPr eci
oussoni nlawisabusi
ng
herdaught er.Ishouldhavekil
ledhim
.
Ihavestoppedst udyingbecauseKi ngsaidits
taki
ngmyat tentionifir
stdidn'tagree,hesaid
hewon'thesitatetokillme, soi hadtochoose
whichobviouslyismyl if
eandy esi'
m sti
ll
fri
endswithKy l
e, Tyson, Xav i
er,Bul
letand
mor esomei gott hem fr
om t hi
sgang, I'
m back
forgoodnow!^ _^
.
.
.
Notedi
ted
.
.
.
Admi
n
.
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I
nser
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.
.
Nat
han;
)
.
.
.
Iwokeupwit
hmyphoner
ingi
ngnonst
op,
i
si
ghasianswer
ed
Me:
"Whatdoy
ouwant"
Her:"Thebabycameear
ly!Shewasnot
supposetocomethi
smont h!"i
qui
ckl
ystood
up
Me:
"Okaycal
m down,
wher
ear
eyouknow"
Her:
"I'
m aahhh,
onmywayt
otheh.
.hospi
tal
"
Me:"Shi t
!I'
m comi ngnownow!"i hungupasi
gotinsidetheshower, atwomi nutesshower
aft
erthatiwor emybl ackjeansandav est,i
wasi nhurryaftert
hatigotdownst ai
rstookan
appleandt racedherphoneandr ushedtothe
hospital
.
Aft
erhours,thereshewashol di
ngacut e
col
ouredgir
l,there'snodoubtsheismine,i
si
ghiknowt heybr okeupwithTy,becausehe
f
oundoutthatsheispregnanthewassosure
t
hatt
hebabywasn' thi
swhi chmeansthebaby
i
smine,iopenedthedoorandquietl
ywalkedto
t
hem ,
shewashol dingher
Me:
"Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng"
Her:
"Al
ltheangeri
hadv
ani
shed"
Me:
"She'
sbeaut
if
ul"
Her:
"ThankYou,sohav
eyout
houghtofa
name?"istr
achedmyhead
Me:
"Noi
thoughty
ouwi
l
l"
Her:
"Si
samkel
e"i
nod
Me:
"Jor
danSi
samkel
eMi
l
ler"
Her:
"Gr
eat
!"
Me: "Thankyouf orgi
vingmet hi
spreciousgi
ft,
iknowshewasunpl annedbutt hatdoesn't
meani loveherlessori don'
tloveheratall"i
slowlytookJordan,shel ooksmuchbi gger
thanapr ematurebaby
Me: "HelloPumki n,Daddylov
esyousomuch
andDaddyi shappythatyoufi
nal
lyhere,iwi
ll
protectyou, l
ovey ouandmostofallnoboys
will
ev erbreakyourheartnott
hatiwil
lal
low
yout odate"i chuckl
ed
Me:"Youwill
onlystar
tdat
ingwhenyouturn21
"iki
ssedherl
itt
lepout
edli
ps,igav
eSiphokazi
thebaby
Me:"ineedtogosomewher
e,wheny
ouneed
any
thi
ngjustcal
lme"
Her:
"beforey
ougo, iwantustot
alkabouta
pl
acetostay,youknowtheywon'
tall
owmet o
st
aywithababyattheRes"
Me: "Theny ouwi l
lcomeandl i
vewi thme"she
nods, iwalkedoutt her
oom andr eleaseda
breathethatididn'
tknowi washol ding,i
sighedast hi
nkwhatwi l
lmyf ri
endssay, when
theknowt het r
uthaboutthebaby'sf at
her,i
knowi betrayedTybut:(Thingsturnedoutthis
way,i
wal
kedt
omycar,
irecei
vedacal
lfr
om
Ki
ng
.
Me:
"Boss!"
Hi
m:"War
ehouseNow!"i
drov
ether
e
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Iwokeupt henextday, di
dmynor malrout
inei
noti
cedmyst omachwasn' tf
latanymore,coul
d
ibepregnant??Iwalkeddownst ai
rsf
ound
thosetwofoolsgi
ggling,iwonderwhatthe
case
.
Me:
"Goodmor
ning"
Nt
ando:"Morni
ng,
yourbr
eakf
asti
sint
he
mi
crowave"
Me:"Okaythanks"iwal
kedther
eandMan! !
Ther
ewasmyHotWi ngs,l
ordknowswhatthey
dotome, i
smi l
edandret
urnedtot
helounge
Me:
"Thanky
ouguy
sfort
his"
Zweli
:"i'
m sor
ryaboutt
hewaywet
reat
edy
ou"
okaythat
sthefir
st
Me:
"it
sokayi
'
m waypastt
hat"
Nt
ando:
"Guesswhat?
?^_
^"i
rol
l
edmyey
es
Me:
"Youwonl
ott
o"
Ntando:
"Nodummy, look"shegavemea
pr
egnancyt
est,soshewasalsosuspect
ing,
i
l
ookatthet
est3monthand2weeks
Me:
"Congr
atul
ati
ons!"
Zwel
i:
"Thanks,
youknowt
heywon'
ttal
kabout
usnowt
heyt
houghti
'
minf
ert
il
e"
Me:
"Hawuh!Magebawher
edi
dyougett
hat"
Zwel
i:
"Peopl
egossi
pout
side"
Me:
"Am i
all
owedt
ogooutnow?"
Nt
ando:
"Wi
thaf
acel
i
key
our
sHel
lNo"
Me:
"Cel
l
phone?
?"
Bot
h:"No"
Me:
"OkayFi
ne!"i
sul
ked
Zweli:
"Trustmei
tswon'
twork"hel
aughed
andstoodupheadi
ngupst
air
s,il
ookedat
Ntando
Me: "I
'm sohappyfory
ou"iwasreal
l
yhappy
forher,theydeser
veeachot
her,
both
backstabbers
Ntando:
"Met oo,i
feel
li
kei'
m car
ryi
ngason
j
ustimaginehei
snexti
nli
neEbukhosini
"
cheekyisee
Me: "Lastt
imei checked,
ithoughttheonl
y
chi
ldrennextinl
ineareminesincei'
mt hef
ir
st
wif
e"shel aughed
Ntando:"l
ookhere,Zweli
soonwi l
ltakethe
thr
oneandt hi
sbabyherewil
ltakeafterhi
m"
shesaidhol
dingherl
it
tl
ebabypump
Me:"Wewil
lseeaboutthat"shecli
ckedher
t
ongueandr
anupstair
s, ichuckl
ed
Me:"ser
vesherr i
ght,whatel
seisinher
e"i
l
ookedattheplasti
cbagandf oundanew
pr
egnancytest,il
ookedaroundbefor
etaki
ngi
t
.
.
Irant omyr oom andl ockedit,isatonthebed
andr eadtheinstructi
ons, t
hewaymyhear t
wasbeat i
ngsof astit
swasl ikeiwasi nsome
marrat honorsomet hing,Ngihefuzel
a, ipeed
onthecont ainerandputt hetestont he
containerandwentt oputi tonthebat hr
oom
andwentt ol ayont hebed, theysaidi t
stakes
10to12mi nutesijusthopei tscomesback
negativ
e, i
wai ted,wai tedandwai tedthiswas
thelongest10mi nut esofmyl i
fe,icouldn'
t
waitanyl ongeri mar chedt othebat hr
oom and
tookedthet estifi
rstlydidalitt
leprayer,
prayi
ngt hatt heresultar enegativ
e, isl
owly
openmyey es
"8weekspr
egnant"OhGodNo!
!
.
.
Wel
cometot
hewor
ldbaby"Si
samkel
eJor
dan
Mi
ll
er<3^
_^"
.
.
Notedi
ted
.
.
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Nt
ando
.
.
Iwassoangr ythati waspregnant, iwishi can
dot heaborti
onbutt hechancesofmedy ingare
high!Ihear
dwheny oumakeanabor tionont he
l
at estageyoumi ghtdie,iknewt hebaby
wasn'tZwelisjudgingbythemont hsbutsi nce
wear egett
ingmar riedimightaswel lspi
nt he
pregnancyandmakei t
shis.Zwel icamet ot he
room itswast henextmor ning
.
Zweli
:"Morni
ngMamakhe"i f
akedasmile,he
seemsverymuchhappyaboutthi
spr
egnancy
Me:"Baby
!Uhhi
shouldal
waysgetpregnanti
fi
wi
l
lgetthi
ski
ndoft
reatment"hechuckl
ed
Zweli:
"Aslongasyoukeepem babycoming,i
wil
ltr
eatyouli
kethi
s"it
ookthebreakf
astand
pl
aceditasi
de
Me:"Letmegoandfi
xedmyself"istoodup
andwalkedt
othebat
hroom ,
Afteri
wasdone
cl
eani
ngmyselfiwal
kedbacktothebed
Zwel
i:Yout
ooky
ourpr
eci
oust
ime"
Me:"yourbabymakesmet i
red"i
satont
he
bedst
artedeati
ngmybreakf
ast
.
Heslowl
ybrushedmyexposedt high,smi
l
edas
il
ookedathi
m, hetracedhishandstomyinner
t
highs,mybreathechanged,hepushedmy
panti
esasideherubbedmycl itwhichmademe
rel
easeasof tmoan,hecont i
nuedr ubbing
them ,heshovedafi
ngerinside, i
moaned
l
oudlyhest ar
tedmovingthem slowlyilost
contr
ol andmoanedfreel
y, headdanot her
fi
ngermi ndyouhe'
squiet
lylookingatme
Hi
m:"Whenwast
hel
astt
imewemadel
ove"
Me:"I
tsb.
..
beenahhh!Awhil
eeee"hemov
ed
hi
sfi
nger,
hewasf i
ngerf
ucki
ngme
Hi
m:"iwanty
ou"i
nodwit
hmyey esclosed,
t
hepl
easur
edownther
ewasamazing
.
.
Si
phokazi
.
.
I
'm amom tot
hemostbeaut
if
ulbabyinthe
worl
d,iknowpeopl
ehat
esmef orcheat
ingon
Tywi thhisfri
end, butisawhi mfirst,iwanted
himf i
rstjustthatTher esacamet ot hepict
ure,
het ookhi m awayf rom mebutl ookatmenow: )
he'sher ewi t
hmeandwewi l
lbetoget her
forev er,ohthanksl or
df oransweringmy
pray ers.There'snodoubtt hatJordani s
Nat han'sbaby, theyprettyl
ookalike, ismil
ed
asi wasbr eastfeedingheri sl
owlywi pedthe
sweatt hatshehas
Me:"Youar
emyJoy,
Happi
ness!Il
ovey
ouso
much"
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Lorddoyouhat
emethatmuch?
?Herei
'
m
tr
yingt
obeawayfr
om thi
smanasf
aras
possiblebuthownowbecauset hereisababy
i
nv ol
vednow, howwi l
li notbepar tofhislif
e
now? ?Icriedasi wast hinkingofalltheabuse
i
'vebeent hrough, icri
edmor easiwashav i
ng
fl
ashbacksonhowZwel i repeatedl
ykickedmy
stomach, kickinghisbaby !Ohpoorbabyi '
m
sorrybaby, irushedtot hebat hr
oom tov ommit
,i t
houghti waswaypastt he"Mor ni
ng
Sickness"i tookashower, woremybl ueti
ght
dress,tummywasv i
siblei lookatthemi rr
or
andsmi led
Me: "Iwi
l
lloveyouandprotectyouunti
lmy
dyi
ngdaysbaby"i wasslowlybrushi
ngit
s, i
walkedpastthei
rroom j
ugdingbythesounds,
i
tswasgoi ngdown!
.
??
?:"Baphiabant
ubal
ay'
khaya"icl
osedmy
eyesastear
swerest
reamingdownmyf ace
?
?:"Zi
yanda!"
Me:"Ki
tchen!"Shi
tidi
dn'
tappl
yanymakeup
>_
<
Mama:"AyUkhonaawusangi
vakashel
i(y
ou
nol
ongerv
isi
t)"
Me:
"SawubonaMaKhumal
o"
Mama: "Manyumal
omyf oot!,
Ngikwenzeni
ngobaungi
zondakangaka(Whatdididoto
haveyouhati
ngme)"mybackwasf aci
ngher
Me:
"Not
hingMama"
Mama: "Nohugs!?"i
snif
fediwasgett
ing
emoti
onal,i
tspr
obabl
ythebaby,it
urnedtoher
di
rect
ion
Mama:
"JesusChri
st!Whathappened??"She
sai
dwi
thavoi
cethatisaboutt
obreak
Me:
"Hehappened"sheshookherhead
Mama:"MySonwil
lnev
erdot
his,
he.
..Hewi
l
l
nev
er"wewerebot
hcryi
ng
Me:
"Whywoul
dil
i
eMma?
?Whatwi
l
ligai
n??
Ialsofoundi t
shardthathehur tedmel i
kethi
s,
wewer esoi nloveMma, unseperatabl
e,we
shareduncondi t
ionall
ovebutt hishowthings
turnedout, shebroughtanotherwomani nour
l
ife, mar
riage"
Mama:
"ihear
daboutt
hesecondwi
fe"
Me: "hebr oughtherMma, theyt urnedmei nto
aslave, t
heymadet heirmai dMma, whenev eri
tr
yt oescape, hewi llbeatmeup, rapemeand
l
ockedmei nsi
def orthewhol et hreeday s
withouteat i
ng"i couldn'tcont i
nueast hescars
arestil
lfr
esh, theyar est i
l
lnewst i
llbleedi
ng, i
sl
idedownsobbi ngandi l
eti tallout, Mama
waskneel ingnextt ome, slowl ybr ushingmy
back, ievenhadhi ccups
Mama: "Nowonderyouwer ethi
sscarce,itold
Magebahebrusheditoff,WhereisZweli
now? ?
"ipoi
ntedonthest
aircaseastheywereholding
handswithNt
ando,herpregnancypumpwas
vi
sibl
e
Mama:"Nt
ando!
!"shewaswear
ingZwel
i
's
shi
rt
Ntando:
"SawubonaMma"shemar
chedt
o
t
hem andgavethem hotsl
aps
Mama:
"Zwel
ihowcoul
dyou?
?"
Zweli:
"i f
elli
nloveMmaandwenawhyar en'
t
youhidi
ngt hosebrui
ses??,youweretheone
cal
ledMamar ight
??"anot
herslapl
andedto
him,islowlyshookmyhead
Me:
"idi
dn'
tcal
lhershecameher
enowandi
-"
Mama:
"SHUTUP!ALLOFYOU!"
.
.
GOODMORNI
NG!O:
)
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t05
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Mama:"Gopacky
ourbagsbaby!Wear
egoi
ng
home"
Zwel
i:
"Shei
snotgoi
ngany
way!"
Mama: "wewill
seeaboutthat!,goquickl
y
babe"iranupst
air
stopackatleastthere'
s
hopethatiwi
lll
eavethi
shellwhole,
wheni was
packi
ngthedoorswingopenedbyZwel i
Zweli
:"Isai
dyou'
renotgoi
nganyway
!"we
hear
dsomet hi
ngbreaki
ng,wer
ushedtosee
whatwashappeni
ng,Mamawasl ayi
ngthere
wit
hbloodgushi
ngoutofherhead,
ibroke
down,howcouldshedothi
s!
Zwel
i:
"Nt
andoar
eyoucr
azy
!?"
Ntando:
"ihadtodosomet
hing!"shesai
dwi
th
t
hepanicki
ngvoice
Zwel
i:
"Dosomet hi
ng??That'
smymot her!,
shewasn'
tgonnatakeherwhil
ei'
m her
e!,l
ook
whatyoudi
dnow!"
Me:"TAKEHERTOTHEHOSPI TAL!
"they
l
ookedbackatme,Zwel
irant
omysideand
dr
aggedmet omyr
oom
Zweli:
"Youst ayherewhil
ei t
akeMom t othe
hospit
al,don'tt
rytoescapetrustigoteyesand
earseverywhere,nx"helockedthedoorand
ther
ei wasbackt osquareone, it
houghtiwas
safebutiguessi waslyi
ng:'
(
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Iwasv eryshockedonwhatNtandodid,iwas
cl
oset olosi
ngmysani t
ybutbecauseshe'
s
pregnant,iwil
lleti
tsl
i
de
Me:"Cal
ltheAmbul
ance!"shest
oodt
her
e
f
rozen
Me:
"Nt
ando!"
Ntando:"ican'ti
'm sorry"sheranupstai
rsand
l
ockedt hedoor, whatthefuckiswrongwith
her,il
ookatt hev asethatwasinpi
ecesont he
fl
oor,thesamev asethatMom gaveusasa
weddingpresent, Anel
el ov
edit.Ir
ushedto
cal
ltheguardst ocomeandhel pmewi th
Mama
.
Ont
hecarMom sl
i
ght
lyopenedherey
es
Me:
"hangi
nther
eMama!
"
Mama: "s..
sh.
.ew..i
l
ln..
everfi
ndh. .
hapiness!"
aftert
hatshepassedout, Godpleasebewi th
her.Thecarst oppedonthehospi t
alent r
ace,
therewer enur
sescomi ngoutwi t
hast recher,
theytookMom i r
anwiththem unti
lwear riv
ed
i
nherwar d,whichtheydidn'
tletmei n
Nur se:"Sorr
yNkosanabutwecan' tl
ety ouin"
afterthosewor dst heyclosedtheirmassi ve
door s,isatont hebenches, ididn'teven
broughtmyphone, isi
ghedandwentt of i
lli
n
thei nf
ormationont herecept
ionistaft
ert hati
wal kedouttothedr i
verandaskedhi sphone, i
want edtocallDad, iwonderwhatam i goingto
sayt ohim, idi
al edhisnumberandhe
answer ed
.
Dad:
"Hel
l
o"
Me:
"Dadi t
smeZwel
icany
oupl
easecomet
o
t
hehospi
tal"
Dad:
"Whathappened?
?"
Me:"It
saboutMom "hehungup,isi
ghedhow
am i
gonnaexpl
aint
his???Godthi
sisfucked
up
.
.
.
Nt
ando
.
.
Myhear tl
i
teral
l
ystoppedwhenisawblood
comingoutofherhead,Lordwhathaveidone,
idi
dn'tmeananyhar m,it
hought
..Iwasonly
tr
yingtohelpnothi
ngmore.Wheni sawthe
carsrushingoutthegate, iwenttocl
eant he
bloodthatwasont heflooralsothepiecesof
thegrass, it
hrewtheglasspiecestothebi n
andwi pedthebloodwithamopandl eftitther
e
, iwenttotakeabathandr ushedbackhome,
Mom waswi thAunt,asi gotinMom clicked
hertongueandl ef
t,ihatethisbadblood
betweenMom andi, ithrewmysel ftoAunt '
s
arms
.
Me:"ididn'
tmeant
oki
l
lher,
i
tswasan
acci
dent"icri
ed
Aunt:"Shushhbabycalm downthenwewi
llt
alk
camly"isobbedafterawhilei
wascalm,i
nar
ratedthewholestoryt
oAunt
Me:
"isweari
didn'
tmeant
o"
Aunt:
"Youwer
eonl
ytr
yingt
ohel
pyourman
baby"
Me:
"wi
l
lsheev
eracceptmeaf
tert
his?
?"
Aunt:"i
fshedoesn'
t,wewi
l
lmakeher"i
broke
toherembrace
Me:
"HowAunt?
?"
Aunt:
"iknowagr
eatsangomat
hatcanhel
p
you"
Me:
"What
!!Idon'
tbel
i
eveont
hose!"
Aunt: "itsy ourchoicebaby, i
fshewakesup
andr attedy ouout,youwillgetki
ll
edor
banishedev ensentstr
aighttojai
l"shestood
upheadi ngt othefrontdoor,may beshe'
sright
ishoul dt akeheradv i
ce
Me:
"AuntWai
t!
!,i
wil
ltakey
ouradv
ice"i
sigh
Aunt:"gr
eatchoicebaby, comelet
sgo"we
stoodupandwal kedout si
deaft
erwhatfel
tli
ke
hourswearri
vedatt hisbushhouse,i
tshad
weirdsmell
s,alsohumanboneheads(skul ls)
werelayi
ngaroung, inearl
yvommitedbuti
contai
nedmysel f
.
Aunt:
"Makhosi
!Weneedy
ourhel
p"
Makhosi
:"l
etherspeakonherown"
Aunt:
"kneel
Ntando!"i
did
Me:"Ma..
khosi
"icoughedasthesmokewas
toomuch,howdopeopl esur
viv
ethi
s,how
doesshel
ivesherwi
thsomuchsmokeand
weir
dsmell
s? ?
Makhosi
:"Tal
ktomewhatdoy
ouwant?
?"
Me:"ineedyourhel
p,Auntshoul
dit
ell
her
whathappened??"
Makhosi
:"isawev
ery
thi
ng,
justt
ell
mewhat
doyouwant?"
Me: "iwanty
out ogivemeaher bthatwi
l
l
makemyMot herinl
awt olov
emeandal so
erasehermemor y,idon'
twantherto
remembereverythi
ngthathappened"she
groaned
Makhosi:
"Iwi
l
lgi
veyousomeher
bsbut
Unkany
ambawantssomebl
ood"
Me:
"Whose'
sNkany
amba?"
Makhosi:
"Heneedstobefedahumanbl
ood,
Nkanyamba!"abi
gsnakeappear
ed
.
.
Li
kei
promi
sed
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t06
.
.
.
Nt
ando
.
.
.
Sangoma:
"i'
m sor
ryi
can'
thel
pwi
thher,
shei
s
st
rong"
Aunt:
"How?
?"
Sangoma:
"Ther
oyal
Godsar
epr
otect
ingher"
Aunt:"Excuseus"inodandst
oodup,iwalked
outnotfariwantedt
ohearwhatt
heywere
sayi
ng
Aunt:
"Dontt
ell
meaboutr
oyal
gods!
!"
Sangoma: "Thereasonwhythepotionwor ked
onthatboy, i
sbecauseheonceat ethose
muffinswi
t huMut hi
.Soitswaseasyt oget
accessonhi m "i
gasbed,didthosemuf f
ins
hadmut hi
ont hem ,iwal
kedinasi hear
dAunt
cal
li
ngmyname
Me:
"hav
eya'
l
lfi
ndasol
uti
on?"
Sangoma:
"unf
ort
unat
elyNo"
Me: "Auntl etgo, iknewt hatthi
swi tchwont
helpus!"i rushedouti wasangr y,sonowi wil
l
bebani shedorwor sejai
l!!,i
sighedast ears
werebur ningmyey esi l
etthem freely,i
'm
pregnantandi wontbeabl etosurviveinthat
horri
bleplace!, Auntpulledmei ntoahug, we
walkedoutoft hebush, wheni ar
rivedathome
,iwentt omyr oom andsl eptievenf or
gotthat
wehav eapr isoner..
.
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Iwaspaci
ngupanddownwi
thmyhandsi
nmy
pocket
s, iwasstruggli
ngtocomeupwi t
ha
perf
ectli
e, asiwasbusyDadcamewi thZwane
ourroy
alhealer,everyonebowedasDadwasat
theent
rance, hewalkedquickl
ytoast
ressed
meohshi t!
Dad:
"Zul
u"
Me:"Mageba..Mangethe!"t
heynoddediwas
scar
ed,iknewthatev
eni fil
ie,Zwaneknows
thet
rut
h
Dad:
"Uphi
Umkami
(Wher
esmywi
fe?
)"
Me:"Sal
indei
zimpendulokuDokot
ela(st
il
l
wai
ti
ngfortheDoc)"henodsnsatdown,
Zwanewaslookingst
raightt
omyey es,t
he
gui
l
tyihadmademedr opmyey es
Zwane:"af
terthisyoumustcometomyhouse
"inodagai
ni knewsomethingwasup,
isi
t
aboutmom oranele??Ei
shh..
.
Af
terawhi
l
etheDoccamet
ous
Doc:
"Goodev
eni
ngi
'
m sor
ryt
-"
Dad:
"Justgett
othepoi
nt!"
Doc: "Ndabezit
hayourwif
eisokay,justal
itt
le
disdurbance,shewil
lhaveamemor ylossfora
weekorso, butshewil
lbebacktohernormal
self"
Dad:
"Cani
seeher"henodsandl
edt
heway
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
Iknowi t
swr ongtonotacti
mmediatelyaf ter
Anelehasr eport
edortol
dmeherpr oblem , i
wassocaughtupi nmyworkthatididn'tev en
tol
dherf at
heraboutwhatwashapping, YesS
came, theyliv
ewi t
hmenowandAyi don'tget
tosleepatnightasthebabyi
srest
lessJor dan
i
shell
ofatr
oubl
esomebaby,
shecr
iesand
cr
ies,Al
way
s!
Isi
ghedasiwalkedouttodayi waspl
anningon
goi
ngtoKwaNongomat okil
lthi
smotherfucker,
howcouldhedot hatt
oAnele??Asweet
i
nnocentgi
rll
ikeher??Ifi
xedmybedaf teri
wasdonedressingup,iwalkeddownstair
sand
shewaspacingupandt r
yingtocalmthebaby
.
Me:
"I'
m goi
ngout,
iwi
l
lbebackwi
thsomeone
"
S:
"Soy
ougonnal
eav
emewi
thSi
sacr
ying"
Me:"idon'
tknownot
hingaboutbabi
es,
some
st
ayi
ngherewithy
ouwon'tmakeanydif
fer
ent"
S:"May bei
fyoucanbewithherf
orli
l,soican
getarestcausei
'mti
redandthebabycan
sensethis,t
hatwhyshe'
ssorest
less"
Me:
"iwi
l
lgety
ouanannyt
hen"
S:"idon'
twantsomeonewhowi
l
llookaf
termy
babywhil
ei'
m here"
Me: "Sui
tyour
sel
f"i walkedout, i
remeberedi
didn'
twearmybullet
proofv est,whatifwhi
lei
tri
estohelpAnel
eandt heguar dsshootme? ?I
rushedinandworeandr ushedbackt omycar,
idrovetoKwaNongomal i
steni
ngtoNast yC-
Stri
ngsandBli
ngsonmywayi r
eceiv
edacal l
from Kl
ein
.
Me:
"Bi
gBr
other
!!"
Klein:
"Heyhey, i
wantedtonoti
fyyouthat,t
he
folkst
hinki
ngofcomingtothatsi
de,actual
l
y
theyontheirwayther
e"isi
ghed
Kl
ein:
"What
'dupnow?
?"
Me:"Thingsaremessedupt
hissi
de,
i'
ma
f
athernow.."hel
aughed
Kl
ein:
"Yoohmany
ouhav
eachi
l
d!!I
'
m goi
ng
tobeanUncl
e,f
inal
l
yyouhav
epoppedt
he
cher
ry!
!"
Me:
"No!
!"i
nar
rat
edt
hest
oryt
ohi
m
Kl
ein:
"Sayy
oul
yi
ng!
!"
Me:
"Sadl
yi'
m not"
Klei
n:"i'
m alsocomingthatsi
de,igot
tasee
myniece"wet al
kedali
landhungup, idr
ove
ther
ei packedmycarthreehousesaway, i
got
outandwentt otheguards
.
Guar
d:"Whatdoy
ouwant?
?"
Me:
"isAnel
eher
e"
Guar
d:"ThePr
incesai
dwemustnotl
etany
one
i
n"
Me:"Fuckthati
'
m goingi
n!"it
ri
edopenni
ng
thegat
ebutheheldmet i
ght,i
backsl
apped
him,other
sguardscamerushi
ngtous
Me:
"Leav
emet
hef
uckal
one!
!"
Guard:"Comebackwhent hepr i
nceisback"i
walkedbackt omycar, thewindowswer e
ti
nted, iplacedmyAK47andl oadedthebul l
ets,
islowlyrolledmywi ndowandshott hem ,as
theywer egat her edtogethersurelytalki
ng
aboutme, theyal lf
ellandi t
ookmypocketgun
, whatifther e'smor einside??Igotoutofmy
carstil
lriskingf orher, whatcani say? ?Il
ov e
hersomuch. .Irushedinchecki ngthecoast
wheni kickedt hedoori almostf el
lithoughtthe
doorwasl ocked, istart
edscreami ng"Anel e!
!"
nothingthehousewasempt yi r
ushedupst air
s
andcheckedev eryroom
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t07
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
'
Anele!!'ishout edasi wasst il
l searchingt he
rooms, onlythingthatwasgoi ngt hroughmy
mindwast hat,thepol iceareont heirwayher e,
icameacr osst hiscl
oseddoori t
riedopeni ngit
butitswasl ocked, i
ki ckedt hedoori tsfell
done, Anel ewasi nthecor nercr yi
ngwhi le
huggingherknees, t
hev iewwasn' tgood, if
elt
myt earsbui ldupasi sawhowhor ri
bleshe
l
ooks, withoutwast i
nganyt i
mei wal kedtoher
andpi ckedherupbr idal styl
e, sheul ttered"
Pleasedon' thur tme"i sighedasi car r
iedon
walkingwi t
hher, shewasshaki ngwi thfear,
herlipswer epale, tj
oomyhear twasachi ng, i
rushedt omycarandpl acedheratt he
backseatandqui cklydrov eof f,i l
ookedather
i
nt herev i
ewmi r
rorshewasl ooki ngout side
andt hetearswer escr eami ngdownhercheeks
uncont r
olable,isighedagai nthi nkingaboutmy
currentli
fe,looki hav eSi nsidemyhousewi t
h
babyJor danandmyf ami lyiscomi ngt hisside,
nowAnel eishere, everythingi sf uckedup.I
wantAnel et ostaywi thmewhi lesheheal s..
Am i sel
fish? ?Icontinueddr iving, ev entual
ly
shef el
lasleep, iquicklytookmyphoneand
call
edherDad
.
Boss:
"Mi
l
ler"
Me:
"Boss.
.Er
..
rwher
ear
eyou?"
Boss:
"Ar
eyoudone?
?"
Me:
"Looki
'
m comi
ngt
oyourhouser
ightnow"
Boss:
"idon'
tdi
scussbusi
nessi
nmyhouse!"
Me:
"It
saboutsomet
hingel
se"
Boss: "iwil
lbewaiti
ng!"af terthathehungup,
henev ersaysby e,i
car r
iedonwi t
hmyj ourney
afteranhourwear ri
vedatDur bani dr
ove
strai
ghttoUmhl angaherhouse, istoppedby
thegat eandbreathinandout, iopenedmy
door, herMom waswat eri
ngt heplantswitha
beaut i
fulsmil
eonherf ace, iwonderhowwi l
l
shef eelwhensheseesherdaught erl
ikethi
s,i
slowlyopenedt hebackseatdoorandshook
Aneleshescr eamed. .Fuck!Hedi danumber
onher
Me: "It
smeNat han"herbigey
eswer eallout,
sheslowlyshi f
tedt omysideandi pi
ckedher
upandcl osedt hedoorwi t
hmyl eg,icar
ri
ed
herinsi
de, shewashol di
ngonmesot i
ght,her
mom st oppedwat er
ingandcamet omewi tha
rat
herconf usedf aceassoonasshesawi t
s
wasAnel e, sheex cl
aimed"AhhJesuWami !!"
shewai
led,Bosscameout,
hel
ookedatme
wit
hquesti
oni
ngeyes
Boss'
Lady:
"Bamenzeni
Umnt
anami
!(whatdi
d
theydotomychi
l
d)"
Boss:"Pr
incess!
?"Anel eslowlymov edher
head,HerMom faintedi coul
dn'tcontr
olmy
tear
sasisawhowt heywer ebreakingdowni
meanwhowoul dn'
t??, Thebruisesweretoo
much
.
Herfat
herrushedt oherMom andpi ckedherup
,iwentinsidefi
rstandcheckedf oraroom ,i
sawthi
spur pli
shpaintedroom ,soiassumed
i
tswasher s,islowlyplaceheronthebed, she
hel
dmyt -shir
tti
ght
Her:"pl
easedon'
tleaveme!"inodandtookoff
myshoeswegoti nsidet
hecov er
s,sheputt
he
pi
ll
owbet weenusbutshewashol di
ngmyhand
,isi
ghedandcarri
edonsl eepi
ng
.
Thenextmor ningiwaswokenupbyt hesobs, i
l
ookedar ounditswashermom , shewas
seatednextt oAnelewhowassl eeping
peacefull
y, isl
owlygotof fthebedandgr eeted
herMom andwor emyshoes, iwalkedoutand
isti
l
l can'tbeli
evethatislepther
eandi leftmy
phonei nsidemycar, surelySwaswor r
iedsick
.
.
.
Ki
ng(Anel
e'
sDad)
.
.
Ihear dmyinsi
detur
nedasi l
ookatmy
vulnarabl
edaught
erwhowashel pl
ess,t
he
bruisesonherbodyandfacewasenought o
makemeangr y,myhear
tywasbeat i
ngrapi
dly
againstmychest. .Whathappenedt oheri
askedmysel f, l
astt i
mei spoketohershewas
fi
ne, happyev er
ythingwasokay. .Waitwhen
wast hel astti
mei call
edher? ?Threeday s
backr i
ght ??Yesi'mr i
ght, herhusbandal ways
saysshe' sbusy, washel y i
ngtomeorwhat? ?
Whatr eallyhappenedt omyangel :
'(??.Isatat
thebarst oolandgul peddownt hef ourt
hglass
ofwhi skey, iwasst il
lthi
nki ngabouti '
m going
totorturehim/ herfordoi ngt hi
stomydaught er,
thedon' tknowmeatal l!!.TheMi l
l
erboycame
downst airsisignaledhi mt ocome, heslowly
camet ome
.
Mi
l
ler:
"Boss"
Me:"iwantyoutof
indwhoev
erdi
dthi
stomy
daught
erandbri
ngthem t
omeunhar
med"
Mi
l
ler:
"it
sZwel
iwho'
sbehi
ndt
his"i
laughed
Me:
"don'
tactl
i
keabi
tt
erex,
thatcheeseboy
can'
thi
tmyangel
li
ket
hat,
sur
elyi
toneofmy
ener
mies"
Mil
ler:"BossAneleoncecall
edmean-..."he
nar
ratedthestor
yt ome, whenhewasdown
myglassbot t
lewasont hefl
oorshat
ter
ed, t
he
pi
eceswer eeverywhere
Me:"ANDYOUDI DN'TTELLME!!HECOULD
HAVEKI LLEDHER,YOUSUPPOSETOTELLME
ASSOONASSHEENDEDTHECALL! !"Iroughly
punchedhim,hest
umbledbackiwalkedcloser
tohim
Me:"YOUWANTEDMYBABYTODI E"I
punchedhi
sst
omachhegr
oaned
Mil
l
er:"Bossi
..
.Iwant
ed*
cough*t
obet
heone
t
ohelpher*cough*"
Me:"DON'
TTELLMENONSESE, THATBOY
FOOLEDME,HEMADETHABANEKI NG
NDLOVUAFOOL!!"ichucked
Me:
"Wowt
hisi
sunbel
i
evabl
e"i
wal
kedupst
air
,
ineedanap
.
.
.
Admi
n
Somet
hingNy
ana!
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Iwokeupwi t
hmypar entsstar
ingatme, wait
am iathome??Whobr oughtmeher e??Cause
idon'
trememberanything!
?May bei
'm
dreamingil
ookedaroundtheroom ,iknowthis
room ,i
tsmyroom!!Iremovedmycov ersisaw
bloodont hesheet salsoonmypi j
amas,
everythingst artedhappeninginsl owmot ion,i
hear dmyMom scr eami ngmynamebuti twas
l
ikeshe' sf arfrom me, myv isi
onst art
edget ti
ng
blurry, isawmom r ushingoutsi
deandt ears
gushi nguponherf ace, i
waswonder ingwhyi s
shecr yi
ng? ?Itsjustbloodri
ght? ?Butwhyi ts
allovermyl owerbody? ?Notev enoncei had
per i
odandl eftastainonmysheet sbutthis
happensnow? ?..
.Dadcameandpi ckedmeup
bridal st
y l
ethatwhenmyey escol l
ided
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
Wheni
arr
ive,
iwaswel
comedbybabyJor
dan'
s
screamsi knewshewast aki
ngabat h,she
hatebat hingbutaf terbathi
ngheri twil
lsti
llbe
ami ssiont ogetheroutofwat er,i r
ushedto
thebat hroom t ot akeabat h..
.Afteriwasdone
Swassi ttingonmybedhushi ngt henow
sleepi
ngJor dan, thewaterdrainsher, iwal
ked
tomywal k-inclosetchoseasui tablaoutfi
ti
knewmypar entswi llcal
lanyt
imesoont hey
shouldhav el andednow, wheni wasdone
dressingup, iwalkedbackt othem
.
Me:
"Hey"
S:"Notevenatexttell
i
ngmey ou'
renotcomi ng
back!Youdon'
trespectme!I'm nottheonly
parentf
orSi
say oushouldplayyourroleasher
fat
her!Notj
ustbuyingever
ythingsheneed, you
mustshowherlove!Andstophoer ingaround"
Me:"Areyoudone??"iwasangry,i
'v
e
di
scover
edthatihaveangeri
ssuesever
ysi
nce
ibrokeupwithAneleandi
havenev erat
tended
therapy,
iwon'tt
alktoast
rangeraboutmy
problems,never
!
S:
"Whydon'
tyour
espectmehuhh?
?"
Me: "Itsnotmyf aultthaty ouf el
lpregnantandi
thi
nky oudi dthatonpur posesoy oucant rap
mewi thababy, i willneverev erwanty ou!You
notev enmyt ype!, younotmywoman!So
bett
erknowy ourposi ti
oni letyoust ayhere
becauseofJor dannotbecausei l
ov e,carefor
youi seri
ouslydon' tgiveadamnabouty ounx"
iwalkedoutt hebedr oom leav i
ngherhangi ng,
Ucathi uy
inivese? ?Imademysel fbr eakfast
wentt owat cht.vshecameandsatdown
watchingt het.vwithme, AuntBel l
acal l
edme,
sheisLuann' sgrandma
.
Me:
"Aunt
yyy
!!"
Bel
l
a:"Yeeehy
oubr
at,
whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me
t
hatmybr
otheri
scomi
ngt
hissi
de?
?"
Me:"hawuhh!Newst
rav
elsf
ast,
whot
oldy
ou
t
hat??"
Bell
a:"i
tsdoesn'
tmatt
er,i
'
m al
socomi
ngwi
th
Luann,shemissesyou"
Me:
"imi
sshert
oo"
Bel
l
a:"Younol
ongerv
isi
t!"
Me:
"Somet
hingwashel
dingmeup"
Bel
l
a:"Li
es!"
Me:
"OkayFi
ne!I
'
m sor
ry"
Bel
l
a:"i
wannapi
ncht
hosebi
gear
sofy
our
s"
Me:"Ha..
aAuntyyyouknowyouar
elef
thanded
,andyourhandissopainf
ul,
howcanyoueven
t
hingofthat
!"isul
ked
Bel
l
a:"Fucky
ou!I
'
m gonnagety
ou"i
laughed
Bel
l
a:"by
eboy,
ineedt
ost
artpacki
ng"
Me:
"il
ovey
ou"Sl
ookedatme,
l
ikeser
iousl
y??
Whati
swr
ongwi
thher
Bell
a:"Lov
ey outooson"hehungup,i
chuckl
edthinki
ngaboutt
hedramathatisabout
tohappen,AuntandMom inoneroof??I
bett
ergetready,asiwasst
andi
ngupmy
phonerangagainitwasMom
.
Me:
"Mom"
Mom :
"Boyboywehav
ear
ri
vedpl
easecome
andf
etchus"
Me:
"Okayi
'
m comi
ng!"
Mom :
"Chao!"shehungupi
lookedatS
Me:"I'
m goi
ngtot
heAir
por
ttofetchmypar
ent,
pl
easeprepar
eaguestr
oom f
ortheandmy
br
other"
S:
"Nat
hani
'
m noty
ourmai
d!"
Me:"i
wasn'tgonnabegyou,youshoul
dhave
sai
d'youdon'
twantto'
notthi
snonsense,
bett
erfixy ourat
tit
udeorelsei'
m sendi
ngy ou
outandl eavemydaughterbehind"she
swall
owedabi glumpandst oodupheadingto
theguestr oom ,doial
wayshav etotal
krudely
toher,soshecanunder stand??Nxt ownship
gir
ls-_
-
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Aft
erchecki
ngMom f
rom herwardir
eceiv
eda
cal
lfr
om oneoft
heheadsecuri
ty,Mnqobi
.
Me:
"Mnqobi
??"
Mnqobi
:"Nkosanay
ouhav
etocomeher
e
quickly!
"hewasbr
eat
hingf
astl
i
kehewas
running
Me:
"Whati
shappeni
ng?
?"
Mnqobi
:"Wecan'
tfi
ndt
hePr
incess"
Me:
"Ihav
etwopr
incesses,
whi
chone"
Mnqobi
:"Yourwi
fe"af
tert
hathedr
oppedt
he
cal
l
Me: "MagebanaweZwanei
havetor
ushback
tomyhouse, seemsl
i
kesomeonewastr
ying
breakin"
Dad:"t
hat
sbad,wewil
lcomewi t
hyou"i
nod,
i
wonderwhatt
hef
uckhappened
.
.
It
ri
edhey
!!Tomakei
tlonger
Admi
n:*
Season2
I
nser
t08
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Iwasr eall
ypanicki
ng, whywoul dtheywantt o
gowi t
hme? ?Whatiftheguardsdoesn'tf i
nd
Anele? ?Howam i goingtoexplainthat? ?I
knewi treat
edherbadl y>_<,itr
iedstoppingmy
sel
fbutt heresthi
smor alorthi
ngyt hatkeeps
onpushi ngmet odosoandi can'tcontroli
t,
worseofal lAnelepr
essesmywr ongbut tons
wit
hherat t
it
ude..
Wewereinourwaybackhome, iwasdeepin
t
hought,
ionlyreal
isedthatthecarwasn'
t
movi
ng,ilookedatthedriv
erconfused,iwas
wit
hDadatt hebackseatandZwanein
passenger
sseat,theyall
lookedatme
.
Dad:
"we'v
ebeencalli
ngyournamesever
al
t
imesbutyou'
renotanswer
ing,what
swrong?
?
"
Me: "i
'mjustthinkingaboutmywi fe,ilef
ther
heretheniheart hatsomeonewast ryi
ngto
breakin"isighedi wasmor ewor r
iedatthef act
that,t
heywi l
lseeal lthebrui
sesi nAnele'
sface
oncetheyfindherori wil
lspinthisandsayt he
peoplewhower etryingtobreaktheyar ethe
one'swhohur therl i
kethis,greatidea!
Dad: "Weknowsonl etsj
usthopeshe'sfi
ne"
theenginestar
ted,wedrov etomyhouseand
ther
ewasanambul ancealsopoli
ce,f
ew
bodieswerecov er
edinwhitesheet
sisighed
whodi dthi
s??IwalkedoutwhileDadand
Zwanewashav i
ngaconv ersat
ionwi
ththe
poli
ce, i gotinsi
det hehouse, ev er
y thing
seemst obei nplace, nodamagedf ur nitur
e,
thewasMnqobi wasexagger ati
ngy ou' dswear
everythingwasmessed/ damagedi wal kedt o
theguest r
oom wer ewekeepmyWi fe, it
sev en
feel
swei rdtoaddr essherasmywi fe, iusedto
callNtandol ikethat, mybeaut ifulblackpear l,
fi
rstthingt hatcaughtmyey es, wast hedoor
thatwayl ayi
ngf l
attot hef l
oor,theni tsr egist
ed
tomymi ndthatsheescaped, howdi dshe
managedt oescape? ?Iroughlybr ushedmy
headandcur sed"Fuck! "isaidthatloudl ynot
real
isingt hattheDet ectivewasf ollowi ngme,
heclear edhert hroat, yesitsawoman
.
Detect
ive:
"Sirwewi
l
lli
ket
oasky
ousome
questi
ons"inod
Detect
ive:
"wher
ewer
eyouwhent
his
happened"
Me:"howcanyouaskmethatst
upi
dquest
ion?
?
Ij
ustgother
enowandyouhaveanerv
etoask
methat"
Det
ecti
ve:
"Weknowy
ou'
reaapr
incebutwe
j
ustdoi
ngourj
ob"
Me: "Youruselessjob, y
oushouldbeoutt
her
e
searchi
ngforthecul pr
itwhodidthi
s,nx"i
walkedoutsidei wasfrustr
ated
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Iwokeuptothi
sbri
ghtl
i
ghtshinni
ngthr
ough
myli
fe,it
ri
edopenni
ngmyey esbutt
helight
wast oobri
ghticlosedthem agai
naft
erf ew
minutesitr
iedopenningthem andibl
inkeda
fewtimebef or
eadjusti
ngtotheli
ght,ilooked
besi
desmeMom wast herewithswol
leney es,
assoonasi l
ookedathershescreamed"
Doctor!
",sherantomysi de
.
Mom :
"I'
m sogl
adt
haty
ouawakebabe"
Me:
"howl
onghav
eibeenout?
?"
Mom :"Fewhour
s,babey
ouscar
edme!"t
he
Doct
ogotin
Doc:
"Howar
eyoudoi
ngMr
sZul
u"
Me:
"Pl
easedon'
tcal
lmel
i
ket
hat"
Doc:"Ohi'
m sor
ry,l
etmejustt
ell
youwhatis
wrongwit
hy ou,unf
ort
unat
elyy
oulostone
babyan-
"
Mom :
"Shewaspr
egnant
??"
Doc:
"Yesandshe'
sst
il
lpr
egnant,
justt
hatshe
wascarryi
ngt wins,sadl
ytheot
heronedied??
"il
etmyt earsloose,howdoesa17y earol
d
gi
rlsur
viv
et his??
Doc: "i
'm sosorry,iwantyoutor educeon
havingsexbecausey ourinsi
dear ebleeding
whichhadani mpactofyoumi scarryi
ngthe
baby, iknowitsnormalforapr egnantladyto
behor nyitspartoft
hehor mones"i nod
Doc:
"Thatwi
l
lbeal
l"hel
eft
Mom :"Whydidn'
tyoutell
mey oupr
egnant??
Waitwhathappenedtoyourf
acebaby, whodid
t
histoyou??Tellmebaby"shewasl oudl
y
whil
eiwascryingsi
lent
ly
Mom :"i
tsokayify
oudon'
twantt
ot al
kabouti
t,
iunder
standbabe"sheki
ssedmyforehead
whil
ebrushi
ngmyback
.
Ial
mostl
ostmybabi
esbecauseofZweli,
ihate
him,i
wishhecangotohel
lwit
hhisbi
tch!,i
stayedwithMom bymysi de, i
r ecapon
everythi
ng,nowi rememberwhohel pedmei ts
wasNat hani'
m sogr at
efulforthat, t
heDoc
cameanddi schargedmebuti hav etogoback
forcheckupt wi
ceaweek, iwal kedoutt he
wardwal ki
ngslowDadwashol dingmywai st
forbalance,wegotinsidethecar. .Whenwe
arri
vedMom madeLunchandweat e, af
terthat
itookmymedsandwentt osleep, whereis
God? ?Howcoul dheletthi
shappenst ome? ?
I'
mj ustachil
diknownot hingaboutt hi
s
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
Igoti
ntheAi
rpor
tandt
her
etheywer
elooki
ng
l
ostlikefools,Dadwasl ookingaroungwhi l
e
Mom wasseat ednextt oKleinwhowasbusy
wit
hhi sphone, il
aughedthel ookont hei
rface
hheey oushouldhaveseent hem ,igotout,
Mom wast heonewhosawmef i
rstshe
screamedandr antome, iwelcomedheri nmy
arms
.
Mom :
"Ohmysony
ouhav
egr
ownup"
Dad:
"whatt
ooky
ousol
ong?
?"he'
sal
way
s
gr
umpy
Kl
ein:
"Sur
e!"wef
istbumped
Mom :
"Don'
twor
rybabe,
justt
akeushome"
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t09
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
Onourway, iwantedt ointroducemysi tuation
befor
esot heywon' tbeshockedorwhat soev er
,
Dadhatesur pr
isesexpectwhenMom i st he
onesurpri
singhim, i
clearedmyt hr
oatt ocat ch
thei
ratt
ention,iwasner v i
ousashel lbuti knew
withKl
einbymysi denothi ngcangowr ong, he
knowsabestwayt omani pulateorconv i
nce
them t
oagr eewithhim.
Me:"Mom andDadpl
easedon'
tov
err
eact,
i
l
iv
ewithsomeone"
Dad:
"Shebet
tergocrawl
backt
othewhol
e
wher
eshecamefrom "
Kl
ein:
"comeonDad"
Me: "Thereasonbehi
ndusst ayi
ngtoget
heris
becauseshei st
hemot herofmynewbor nbaby
"theylookedatmesurprised,t
helookonmy
Dadi knewitsaboutt
ogodown: (
Me:"I'
m sor
ryDadididn'
tplani
tbutt
her
es
not
hingicandotooverchanget
hesit
uat
ion"
Dad:
"Doy ouknowathi
ngcall
ed'
Condom'
!?"
heemphasedthewor
d'condom
Me: "YesDadwediduseditbut
..,
itswei
rd
tal
ki
ngi nf
rontofMom aboutmysexli
fe"Mom
eyedme
Dad:"Wewill
haveourpr
ivatetal
k"iknew!
!
Pri
vatet
alkmeanski
cki
ng, punchi
ngme!Lord
pl
easebewithme
Me:
"OhMom bef
orei
for
gotAuntBel
l
aisal
so
comi
ng"
Mom :
"Whot
oldhert
hatwear
ecomi
ng?"
Me:
"idon'
tknowasky
ourhusband"
Mom :
"St
eff
ano!
!"
Dad:"rel
axbabewewi l
ltal
k"wecar r
iedon
dri
vi
ng, wearr
ivedatmycribwel
l i
tsbig
enoughtoaccomodateallofus,soyeah, we
gotinf
oundSwasseat edwi t
hJordan,they
werewatchi
ngt.v
Theyheadedt
oloungeal
readySwasonher
feet,
shesmil
edandgreet
ed
S:"Goodeveni
ng!"Mom andKlei
ngr eeted
backbutDadsi
lent
lyl
ookedather,iclearedmy
thr
oatagai
n,bytheendofthei
rvi
sitsurelymy
thr
oatwil
lbesosore
Me:"Mom ,
DadandKlei
nthi
sisSi
phokazi
,
Jor
dan'
sMom ,
Sthesearemyparent
sandmy
bi
gbrot
her"
S:
"Ni
cet
omeety
ou"t
heynod
Me:"Kleincomehel pmeupwi tht
hesebags, i
wil
lalsoshowy out heroom ,y
ou'l
lbeusing"he
nodandwentupst air
swithme, wenicel
y
pl
acedt hebagsandt heroomswereclean,she
di
dagr eatjobhey, iwalkeddownMom was
hol
dingbabyJor dan
Mom :
"MyGodZacshelooksj
ustl
i
key
ouand
al
soyourf
ather
snose"
Me:"Yeahi'
venot
icedthat"shecarr
iedon
pl
ayingwit
hbabyJordan,Dadstoodupand
si
gnaledmetofol
lowhim, iknewthatDamni
ts
abouttogodown!
!
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Iwishi coul dtradel i
fes, cani getsomebody
whowi lgladlytakemyl i
feandi willtakehi s/her
l
ife, i
can' tdot his, f
ir
stlyi waski dnappedand
beatenupt oabul p, ihadt odumpt heonl yguy
iloveact uall
yi sarcrif
isedmyhappi ness
becauseoft hisst upiddeal ,
i hadt ost op
furt
heringmyst udiesbecauseoft hedut iesi
wasf acedwi th, iwasf orcedt ol ov east range
guy, iwasf orcedt osleepwi t
hhi m, ilostmy
fri
endsbecauseofDad! !Ihadt oadj ustt oa
changet omyl i
fe, adjustt othatnowi 'ml ivi
ng
i
nav i
ll
age, iwassur roundedbyst r
anger si
knewnoonet here, ihadt obui ldar elationship
withthesepeopl e, butt hisiswhati get? ?This
i
smypay mentf orallthesacr i
fisesi made? ?
Thiswhati geti nreturn? ?Wor separ tt heonly
personi openedupt oowast hef irstonet o
betrayme, thisist hewor setesti nmyl ife,
may beifi wasmor ecommi t
tedt oGodnonof
thi
swoul dhav ehappened? ?Maybei wi
llbe
doingmySecondy earri
ght??Prepari
ngmy
futur
e, myf uturewasbr ightuntil
Zwelicame
i
ntomyl i
fe, ihadagr eat,healthrel
ati
onship
withmyf riendsbutnow: (nowi gotnoone, i
feell
ikeim alonei nthiswor l
d,nowDadactl ike
aconcer nedf ather,buthenev ercamet ocheck
uponme, henev erdid:'(,hebroughtmea
miserablelifeifit
swasn' tf
orhisnaughtnessi
wouldn'tbei nthismess
icalmedmysel fasi f
eltmytearsbui l
dingup,
thedoct oradvicedmet ogoandseeashr i
nk
buti don'twantt otalktosomeonest r
anger s
aboutmyl if
e, myl i
fewi l
lnev
erbet hesame
,Zwel ibrokemehebr okemebuti forgivehimi
don'twantt odwel loverthepast,y esi hat
ehim
, t
hinkingabouthi m makesmeangr ybuti have
tothinkaboutmybabynow, ican'taffordto
havest ress,iwi l
ll
ett hi
ngssli
de, yesi won't
tel
lmypar entsaboutwhatZwel i
didt ome, i
knowsomeofy a'
llthi
nki'm st
upidbutnoi 'm
not, ij
ustwantt omov eonwi thmyl i
fe, al
li
wanti sadi vorceqha!Iwon' teventellhi
mi '
m
pregnantandi '
m planni
ngt ohidethis
pregnancyatanycoastbutpr oblem withroyal
babiest heresalway saritualt
hatneedst obe
perfomedt ointr
oducet hebabyt ohis/her
ancestor sorelsethebabywi l
lbesick, soi
can'thidethepr egnancyf orever,isi
ghedas
stoodupi wascr avingforsomechi ll
ieswith
breadandmay onnase,i woremygownandmy
sl
eeper s, walkeddownst airs.
.
Asi wasbusystuf
fi
ngmysel
fwi
thmy
sandwhich,Dadcame
Dad:
"Pr
incess"
Me:"Leavemealoneplease,idon'
twantto
t
alktoyoueveragai
n!!"i
rusheduptomyr oom ,
whywouldheruinmymoment, nxiev
enleft
mysandwhich:(
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t10
.
.
2MONTHSLATER
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Thi
ngswerest
il
lawkwardwi
thmeandpar
ent
s,
iwasreal
l
yref
usi
ngtotal
k,t
heyof
fer
ed
everyt
hingi meanev er
ythingjustt ogetaname
oftheper sonwhodi dthi
s, iknewi fiwoul dto
tal
kDadmi ghtkillZweliandmybabywon' t
evengetachancet oknowhi s/herDad, guys
i
tshar d,veryhar diwasdeepl yi nlovewit hthi
s
guythisoney earwe'vespentt oget her,he
showedmeanot hersideofhi m, agl ori
ousone
beforehet urnedtot hi
sani mal hei snow,
shouldi f
orgotaboutal lthesweetl ovewe
made? ?Al lt
hegi f
tsheusedt ogi veme? ?Hi s
tenderness? ?Allofthati mustj ustthrowi tin
thebin, j
ustlikethat??
.
Iwalkeddownst ai
rsonmybl ackout f
it,t
he
pastday sidecidedtomour nf ormychild,
Mom t houghtiwascr azybuti knowshewi ll
neverunderstand, Copycame, doyoustil
l
rememberhi m? ?May beyouknowhi m as
NjabuloYeshi m mybr ot
her,het ri
edtotalkto
mebutayi 'vemadeupmymi nd, Mom has
takenmet osomeshoppi ngisawt hi
scute
babyromperi wasinlovewi t
hitandi bought
twoi meani'
m carryi
ngt winsri
ght??Theone
thatdi
ed, t
hedoctorwasl yi
ngright
??Icanst i
l
l
feeli
ti'
m sti
l
lcarry
ingtwi ns,sowhenev erisee
cutebabyclothesorbottlesial
way sbuytwo
formyboy sicanfeel i
tinmybl oodtheyare
bothboys
.
Me:
"Mom i
'
m goi
ngout
!"
Mom :
"don'
tyouwantmet
ogowi
thy
ou?
?"
Me:
"Mom wet
alkedaboutt
his"
Mom :
"iwantt
osuppor
tyou"
Me: "i
tsenoughthatyoumademeagr eet
othis
soplease"shenodsandhandedmehercar
keys,y esMom managedt ochangedmymi nd
i
'm goingtoseeashrink,maybeiwill
gethel
p,
ist
eppedi nsi
dethecaranddroveoffonmy
wayi waslist
eni
ngtoJoyousCelebrati
on-
Uyal
alel
a,i
wastry
ingtoboostmymood,
i
hopethi
swil
lwor
k, hopef
ull
yit
swi
l
l
Iknocked
"comei
n"i
wal
kedi
n,andsatdown
Me:
"Goodmor
ning!
"
Her:"Morni
ngi'
m Ki
araFi
eldi
wil
lbey
our
t
herapist".
..
Aft
eri wasdone, i dr
ov etoBalit
oMal liwanted
toclearmyhead, al l
thetalkingbr oughtupt he
painandmemor i
esbestwayt ofor gotsincei
can'tdrink,ideci
dedt ostuffmysel fwithfood
mycur r
entbae, iparkedi naparki ngl otandgot
i
nsidet hemal l,i
wentt othenear estr estaurant
boughtf oodandwal kedout, iwasbusy
walkingwhi l
esear chingforthecarkey si
bumpedi nt
osomeoneasi wasf alling,he
quicklycaughtmebef or
ei evenlandedont he
fl
oor, mybabypumpwasmuchv i
si bl
e, iwas
now4mont hspregnant, i'
vegainedwei ght,big
nose,
biggerbr
eastandmyAsswashuge,i
hol
dontohisarms,hiscol
ognesmel
l
edbad
.
Him: "I'
m sorryMiss"hehel pedmest and,
l
uckilymyf oodwasn' tdamaged, ifel
tmy
babiesmov i
ng, t
heywer ekicki
ngsohar diwas
evenshocked, it
ouchmyt ummyf eel
ingthei
r
mov es, wheni l
ookedupi almostpeedonmy
self,JesusNat han!helooksogr ownhewas
surpri
sedt oo
Nat
han:
"Anel
e!"
Me:
"Nat
han!"wesai
dsamet
ime
Nathan:
"Youpr egnant!
?"i
fixedmyblouse
hi
dingmypump, heremovedmyhandal somy
bl
ousescanningmyt ummy, hepl
acedhis
handsandslowlyclosedhi
sey es,t
hebabies
ki
ckedrapi
dly
Me:"i
'
m sor
ry"irushedoutl
eav
inghim cal
l
ing
myname,itr
iedopeningt
hedoorbutiwas
shaking,i
fel
thi
spr
esenti
knewhewas
fol
lowingme
Nat
han:
"Soy
ousl
eptwi
thhi
m"
Me:"NotnowNat
han"hehel
dmywri
stsso
t
ight,
hurt
ingmeidr
oppedmykey
s
Me:
"You'
rehur
ti
ngme"
Nat
han:
"iaskedy
ouaquest
ion!
"
Me: "YesNathan!Andi
'm al
socar r
yinghi
s
babies"hepunchedthecarandi screamedi
thoughthewasabouttopunchme, he
mumbl ed"Fuck!
"mytearswererunningwidl
y
Nathan:"Ho.
.whowcoul
dyoudot
hist
ome?
?
Hhuh? ?"
Me:"i
'
m sorr
-"hepunchedt
hecaragai
nand
scr
eamed,hecornedtomycar
Nat
han:"Fuckyoursorr
ies!Fuckt
hem!"he
r
ouglyki
ssedme, idi
dn'trepl
yiwascr
y i
nghe
wasalsocry
ingtoo
"Daddywhatar
eyoudoi
ng?
?"hemov
edback
"
Mommy??
"it
swasLuann,
shescr
eamedand
r
ant
ohugme
.
.
Nar
rat
or
.
.
Ntandowentbackt othehouse2mont hsback,
shewassur prisedasshesoonsawt hepolice
thenithithermi ndthatmay bethepol i
cear e
heref orher, theywer egoi
ngt oarrestherf or
attemptmur der, sheranbackgoi nghome, she
can'tdot his'No! '
shecall
edherAunt, shewas
quickenought oreadthewor r
inessonNt andos
voiceont hephone, Meanwhil
eZwel i was
stressed, hedi dwentt oZwane'shouse,
Zwaneper fomedsomer it
ualtoremov eorki l
l
thedarkmagi ct hatZwel ihad, hi
sMom was
outofhospi t
al buthermemor ywasn' tful
ly
back.Zwel ikeptonwonder i
ngwhathappened
tohim, howdi dhemanagedt ogett hatblack
magic(l ovepot ion),
heaskedhi m sel f
numberousquest i
onbutst i
llwithnoanswer s,
wherewi ll
hegetsomeanswer s, bab'Zwane
saidhewon' thel phim, hemustf igureitout
himsel
f, Zwel i
r emember sev erythinghedi dto
Anelehe'sfil
ledwi thregretbuthi sday sare
numbered, Kingi scoming!
.
.
.
admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t11
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
.
Thenextday,Klei
nandIwereplanni
ngt ogo
anddotheshopping,Mom deci
dedtot ag
al
ong,wewal kedtomycarandwedr ov eoff
..
Whenwegett othemallwepassedthisjewelr
y
shop,Mom draggedusinandsheboughtt hi
s
beaut
if
uldiamondring.
Me:
"Mom whyar
eyoubuy
ingt
hatr
ing?
"
Mom :
"I'
m hel
pingy
ou"
Me:
"hel
pin-Nomom don'
tev
ent
hinkofi
t"
Mom :
"boyshe'
sforkeeps,
Idon'
tknowwhy
youtakingsolong,shegav
ey ouadaught
er
notjustanydaught
erbutabeauti
ful
onefor
thatmat t
er"
Me:
"Mom!
!Idon'
tl
oveher"
Mom :"youwil
ll
earntoloveher,comel etgo"
wewalkedouttheshop, Kl
einshruggedI
si
ghedIknowIcan'tchangehermi ndnowbut
I'
m def
ini
tel
ynotmarryi
ngher,wedi dour
shoppi
ngwellMom didforusanddamnshe
gotagreatt
estoffashi
on,it
sdidn'ttooklong
andwedr ov
ebackhome
Mom :"l
ist
en,yougonnatakeherandbaby
Jordant
otheparkwhi
leIsetupadinnerdat
e
foryou"
Me:
"Mom!
!"
Kl
ein:
"youcan'
tfor
cehi
m Mom "
Mom :"ShutupKlei
n!!Youdon'
tevenhav
ea
gi
rl
fr
iendnx, YouNathanyouwil
ldoasIsay"
Me:"Iwi
shAuntBel
l
awasst
il
lher
e"I
mumbled
Mom :
"excuseme?
?"
Me: "Not hing"wegoti
nsidet hehouse, Itook
mycl othes, di
dImenti
ont hatweshar i
nga
room wi t
hS, i
tsall
Mom'sf ault,Ir
anupst ai
rs
andni celypackedmynewcl othesIwalked
downst airsandDadwassi l
ent lywatchi
ng
soccer, Isatwithhim,
Iclear edmyt hroatas
myphonewasr i
ngi
ng'
King' wascalli
ngme
Me:
"Boss"
Hi
m:"Boycomet
omyhousenow"
Me:"Ican-"t
it
it
isounds,
fuckhedr
oppedt
he
phone,ty
pical
lyhi
m
Me:
"DadI
'
m comi
ngbacknownow"
Dad:"Iwonderwhyyouworki
ngforhim,It
old
youtojoi
nmygang"Ifroze,Inev
ertol
dhim
I
'm worki
ngforKi
ng
Dad:"Nothi
ngstayshiddenfor
ever,
soI
suggesty
out el
lhi
mt ofuckoff
!"
Me:"Dadyouwon'tunderstand,Idi
d
somethi
ngter
ri
bletohi
m, hegavemeachoi
ce
i
tsei
therIwor
kforhim orhekill
sme"
Dad:
"Heoncecal
l
edme"
Me: "l
ookDadwewi l
ltalkaboutt
hiswhenI'
m
back"Itookmycarkey sandrantomycar
beforeMom canseeme, shi
tIwastool
ate
Mom :
"Wher
edoy
out
hinky
ou'
regoi
ng?
"
Me:
"Mom Iwi
l
lbebacknownow!"
Mom :"Youar
enotgoingany
way!!"shewentt
o
standbehi
ndt
hecar,Iwasgonnareverset
he
car
Me:
"Mom mov
eawayf
rom t
hecar"
Mom : "Iwi
llmoveonceIseebabyJor danand
Siphokazii
nsideyourcarorf
orgeti
t"Isighed
andgotoutt hecar,wentstr
aightt
othelounge
Me:"Dadcany
out
alkt
oMom ,
Iser
iousl
y
wannago"
Dad:
"pr
omi
sey
ouwon'
tdancet
othatDog'
s
t
une"
Me:
"DadIpr
omi
se,
cany
oupl
easehel
pme"
Dad: "Don'tbr
eakyourpr
omiseorel
se
consequenceswi l
lfol
l
ow"Iswall
owedhar
d
andnod, wewal kedout,Mom wasst
il
l
standingthere
Dad:
"Just
ineComebaby"
Mom :
"St
eff
anoNo!"
Dad:"Idon'
tl
ikerepeati
ngmysel fandyou
knowthat"Mom slowlymov edandwalkedto
us,myphoner angitwas' King'
Irantomycar
andansweredwhiledri
vingout
Me:
"Boss"
Hi
m: "Youl
eftwi
th5mi nut
est
ogethere"he
dr
oppedthecal
l,f
uck!Iwasdr
ivi
ngl
ikea
l
unat i
chonest
lyspeakingI'm afraidofKing,hi
s
voiceonlyi
sveryinti
midating, aft
erhalfan
hourIarri
vedandhewasst andingoutsi
de
smoki nghi
scigar
s, thelookonhi sfaceIknew
I'
m screwed,thegateslowl yopensandIdr ove
i
n, Ididafewbreathingexer ci
sebeforegetti
ng
outthecar
.
Me:
"BossI
'
m sor
ryI
'
mlat
e"
Him:"Don'
tmakemekil
lyourpr
eci
ousangel
Jor
dan"Iswal
lowedhar
d
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryBoss"
Him:"Iwanty
outol
ookaft
ermydaught
er"hi
s
daught
erAnel
eri
ght
??Shi
t!
Me:
"Whi
chdaught
erBoss"hegl
aredatme
Him:"Mypr i
ncess,
whi
l
ewepl
anni
ngonki
l
li
ng
herhusband"
Me:
"Idon'
tfol
l
ow"
Him: "Iwantustoplanonkil
l
ingZwel
iandYou
wil
llookaftermydaughtermakesur
eshe
doesn'tsuspectany
thi
ng"
Me:
"Icandot
hat"
Hi
m:"y
ourj
obst
art
stodayasnow"ohGod!
Me:
"can'
tIst
artt
omor
row?
"
Hi
m:"Noyouwill
star
ttoday,y
ouwil
lsl
eepi
n
t
heguestr
oom ,
Meandmywi f
earet
aki
nga
t
ri
ptoKwaNongoma, 3daysMaxi
mum "
Me:"ButBossIneedt
ogoandf
etchmy
cl
othes"
Him:"Rel
axther
e'senoughclothesinther
oom
you'
l
lbeusing"inod, wegotinsi
deandher
Mom wastherewiththebags, Igreet
edher
Boss:
"BabyNathanv
olunt
eer
edt
olookaf
ter
ourpr
incess"
B'
lady:"ohthankyouNathany ou'
reali
fesav
er
"IeyedKing,Ididn'
tvol
unteerhefor
cedme! !
B'l
ady:"Herealistofthingsshedoesn'tli
ke,
don'tworr
yitsherhor monesandpl easedon't
applyanycolognes,theymakehersi ck"she
gavemeal ist,theytookt hei
rbagsanddr ov
e
off,Isi
ghedasIsatdownIl ookedaroundand
thewerecamer asshit!!
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Iwokeupt othesmellofeggs,Isni
ff
edwal ki
ng
totheki
tchen,theysmell
edsogoodIev en
for
gottobrushmyt eet
h, t
omysur pr
isethere
wassomeonet hereanditsguy
Me:
"Hel
l
o"hewast
opl
ess,
het
urned
Me:
"Nat
hanwhatt
hef
uckar
eyoudoi
ngher
e!!
MyDadisgoi
ngt
oki
l
lyou!
!":
Owhati
she
doi
ngher
e??
Nat
han:
"Heknowst
hatI
'
m her
e"
Me:
"Heknows?
?"
Nat
han:
"I'
m cur
rent
lyy
ourbody
guar
d"
Me:
"butIdon'
tneedabody
guar
d"
Nathan:"welly
oumusttel
lyourf
atherthat"I
wal
kedcl osert
ohi
m, GodIwaswetj ust
dr
oolingoverhim,
Lordwhatishappeningto
me!!
Me:
"CanIhav
ethose"Ipoi
ntedt
heeggs
Nathan:
"Sure"heplacedthem onacl
eanpl at
e
andgaveitt
ome, ev
eryt
hingwashappeningin
sl
owmot i
on, Il
ookeddownhisabslordtake
menow
Nat
han:
"api
ctur
elastl
ongery
ouknow"
Me:"Fuckoff"ImoanedasIf
eltmysel
f
get
ti
ngwetterthanbef
ore
Nathan:"areyouokay?"Ipl
acedtheplateon
thecounterandrushedt
omyr oom ,Ir
eleasea
breat
heIdidn'tknowIwasholdi
ng
Me: "Godwhati
shedoingtome"Iwentt o
takeashowerandworemyf l
oraldr
ess,and
uggsshoes,Iwal
keddownstair
safterIwas
donewi t
hmyhygienepr
ocess
Me:
"pl
easewearsomet
hingont
op"
Nat
han:
"I'
mfeel
i
nghot"
Me:"Idon'
tl
ikeseei
ngy
ourhal
fnakedbody"
hechuckl
edandworeavest
Me:"Muchbett
er"Mycli
twer
evi
brat
ing,
Itook
al
andli
nephoneandcal
l
edTee
Tee:
"Hel
l
o"
Me:
"it
smeAnel
epl
easehearmeout"
Tee:
"sur
e"manhe'
ssocol
d
Me:"LookTeeI'
m sor
ryfr
iendIreal
l
ycan'
t
expl
ainmyact
ions,pl
easeforgi
veme"Icri
ed
st
upi
dhor
mones:
/
Tee:"Noneedt
ocr
y,bi
tchI
'
vemi
ssedy
ou"I
sni
ff
ed
Tee:
"Godwer
eyoucr
yingf
orr
eal
??"
Me:
"Yeah"
Tee:
"Okayt
hat
'sunl
i
key
ou"
Me:"whenar
eyoucomi
ngt
ovi
sitme,
Igot
newsfory
ou"
Tee:
"ev
ennowIcancome"
Me:
"ai
n'
tyouat
tendi
ngt
omor
row"
Tee:"Iwi
ll
ski
pthoselect
ures,y
ouaremore
i
mpor t
antt
hanthem "Icr
iedmore,
Nathan
chuckl
ed
Me:
"okaybabyIl
ovey
ou"
Tee:"Il
oveyoutoo,
Iwil
lcal
lwhenI'
m at
Gatewayandyouwil
lcomeandfet
chme"Inod
asifheseesme
Me: "By
e"Idroppedthecall
andIwasst i
l
l
cr
ying,Iwenttomakemysandwi ch,yeah
Mom scoldmef oreat
ingchi
ll
iesnowI'
mi n
av
ocadoandMay o,Ididmyusualandwentto
si
tdown, helookedatmeasIwascr yi
ng
Nat
han:
"Andnow?Whyar
eyoucr
ying?
?"
Me: "becauseImissTeeandthi
ssandwi
ch
tast
esoni ce"Iwail
ed,hecameandgavemea
hug, guysit
'snotmeit
smybabies..
.
Wewentt ofetchTeeIwassohappy, Iused
Nathan'
sphonet oaskhi
m, ukut
hiwhereishe?
, hewasatNandoswewentt hereassoonasI
sawhim Iscreamed"Tee!"well
withmyt ear
s
fall
i
ngdownmyf ace
Tee:
"Ar
eyou?
?"Inod
Tee:
"MyGodI '
m goi
ngtobeanAunt!!"I
l
aughedt
hroughmytear
s,hesti
l
lcrazy
Tee:"Nowondery
ouarecr
yingli
kethi
sandon
thephonet
oo"wewalkedt
ot hecar,Nat
han
di
dn'
tcomeout, wegotinthebackthey
gr
eet
edeachot herandwestar
tedcatchi
ngup.
Wewer einsi
dethehousei
nmyr oom whil
eI
washavingMyjuiceandTeewit
hwine, Nathan
wasaroundthehouse
Tee:"Whathappenedt
oyourf
ace"Isi
ghedI
hat
et hi
stopi
c
Me:
"Zwel
ihappened!"
Tee:"youl
ie!!"
Inar
rat
edt
hest
oryt
ohi
m,ev
en
themiscar
ri
age
Tee:
"fi
l
thmot
her
fucker!
!Ihat
ehi
m "hewas
angr
y
Tee:
"howi
sthel
i
ttl
eonedoi
ng?
?"
Me:
"he'
sfi
neandhi
sbr
othert
oo"
Tee:"babydon'
tdothatt
oyoursel
f,youmust
acceptthat,
theot
herbabydi
ed,youcarr
ying
onechil
dnow"
Me:
"Teei
t'
shar
d,v
eryhar
d"Icr
ied
Tee:"don'
twor
ryy
ou'
l
lbeokayt
akeonest
epat
ati
me"Inod
Me:"enoughaboutmysor
rows,whatabout
you??Howisvarsi
tyl
i
fetr
eati
ngyou??"
Tee:"ecst
ati
c!!Wepart
yeveryFri
day,Meand
Kyl
iearenomor e,
Igotanewdi ckhunnyand
hi
ssexgame Topnot ch"Il
aughed
Me:
"whathi
sname?
"
Tee:
"Bongani
,he'
sar
apper"
Me:"Youl
ieTheeMi
ght
yBongs"henod,
I
scr
eamed
Me:
"hewasoncemycr
ush!
!"If
rowned
Tee:
"he'
sint
oguy
ssor
rybaby"
Me:
"any
thi
ngaboutS?"
Tee:
"Ihear
dshegav
ebi
rt
htoagi
rl,
few
mont
hsback"
Me:
"Isawshepost
edababy
'shandonI
G"
Tee:"Appar
ent
lyTywasn'
tthef
ather"myj
aws
dropped
Tee:
"YesI
'
mtel
l
ingy
ou"
Me:"Iwonderwhoi
sthef
ather,
thebabyi
s
col
oredr
ight?"
Tee:
"Yeah"t
hewasaknockont
hedoor
Me:"Comei n"Nat
hanappearwear
inghi
s
boxer
sonly,myeyesl
andedtohisd**
k,I
ts
wasvisi
ble
Nathan:
"YourDadwantt
otal
ktoy
ou"Inod
andtookt
hephone
*
Phonecal
l
*
Me:
"Dad"
Dad:
"Howar
eyoubaby
??"
Me:
"I'
m goodDadhowi
sMom "
Mom :
"Mom I
'
m goodbaby"
Dad:
"Iwant
edt
otel
lyout
hatwear
ri
vedsaf
e,
we'
l
lbeheadi
ngt
other
oyal
houset
omor
row"
Mom t
oldDad
Me:
"OkayGoodni
ght"
Dad:
"Don'
ttr
oubl
ehi
m Pr
incess"
Me: "Iwon'
tDad"wesai
dourgoodby
esand
gaveNathanbackhi
sphone,
ourhands
touchedLord>_
<!!
Nat
han:
"Goodni
ght!
"
Us:
"Goodni
ght"hecl
osedt
hedoor
Me:
"Ineedt
obuyadi
l
do"
Tee:
"real
l
y??
"Hel
aughed
Me:
"orel
seIwi
l
ldi
einhunger"wel
aughed
.
.
.
Zwel
i:
(
.
.
.
Iwassti
lldi
ff
icul
ttr
yingt
of i
gur
eoutonwher e
di
dIgetthelovepoti
on,Irecei
vedacall
from
Mom ,hermemor ywasmuchbet tert
han
bef
ore
Mom :
"Myson"
Me:
"Mom "
Mom :
"Ican'
tbeli
evet
hatyou'
ret
hisgr
own,
Amer
icawastreat
ingyougood"
Me:
"YesMom "
Mom :
"Weshoul
dgety
ouawi
fe,
soy
oucan
t
aket
hethr
one"
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t12
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Me:
"Youshoul
dMom "
Mom :
"Youwil
lchooseint
heReedDance"I
hav
etoconst
antl
yremindhert
hatshe'
smy
Mom
Me:"per
fecti
deaMom ,wher
e'sDad?
?"That
wayinever
ysent
enceIhavet
osayMom
Mom :
"He'
sher
e..
.Mageba!"t
hatwasDad
Me:
"Weshoul
dtakeMom f
oracheckup"
Dad:
"wewill
butt
omorr
owyoushoul
dcome
down,wehavi
ngameet
ingwi
tht
heNdlov
us"
Me:"Dadwhatar
ewegoingt
osay,
wedon'
t
ev
enknowwhereAnel
eis"
Dad:
"wewi
l
ldi
scusst
hatmat
terwi
tht
hem"
Me:"OkayIwil
lcome"Ihungup, It
hrewmy
sel
fonmybed" Anel
ewher eareyou??Iwonder
i
fyougoodbaby..Ihopeyousafewher eever
youar
eandIloveyou"IsaidthatasIclosed
myeyesprepar
ingtopraybefor
eIsleep..
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
Ideci
dedt
oputmyphoneonaer
opl
anemode,
causeMom wasbusycal li
ngme, Iwas
fr
ustratedbecauseIdon' tknowhowt oexplain
mysi t
uation, Idon'twanttodoubl ecrossKi
ng
orelsemyangel wi l
ldie,Ican'taf
fordthat,
I
hateignoringMom t ooeish!!Iwalkedtothe
ki
tchensl owlyIhear dnoise, Ipul
l
edoutmy
gunandpoi nt
edt hatpersoni tswasdarkbutI
couldseet heper son
Me:
"Don'
tmov
e!!"Ishout
ed
Her:
"Nat
han!
!"Iwentt
oswit
chonthel
ightI
knewwhoshei
s,andhidemygun,
itswas
Anel
e
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
eatni
ght?
"
Anel
e:"I
'
m hungr
yIcamet
oeat"
Me:
"FuckIt
houghti
tsomeonewhobr
okei
n"
Anele:"No..
.Itme"shewasdr ooli
ng,Iwal
ked
toherandherbr eat
hingchanged,Ihol
dher
waistbrushi
ngit,bri
nginghercl
oser
Me:"Iwantyoutoo,butIneedy
ourassur
ance
"Iwhi
speredonherears
Anele:"Iwantyou"shewhisperedback,
wit
houtawast eoft i
meIsmashedmyl i
psto
hers,shequickl
yheldmyneck, Ipickedherup
andplacedheront hecounterourli
psst i
l
l
l
ockedt hi
ngswer eheat
ingup, Ibrushedher
thi
ghsgoingup, shemoanedIchuckl edIwas
sohorny, Ipull
outasIwast hinki
ngaboutt he
cameras
Anele:"Mmmhhh"Ipull
edherdown,wentt
o
takeawaterbot
tl
e,fi
ll
editwi
thwat
erand
walkedtomyroom .
.Shit
!!
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Heleftmet herewant i
ngformor e, howcoul d
hedot hi
smybabi e-ImeanmyBaby, he'sthe
oneneedingt hisright!It
snotmebutmybaby. .
Iconti
nuedeat ingaf t
erthatIwentt osleepTee
andIwereshar i
ngar oom , Igotinsideand
foundhim ont hephonecal l ,Isl
owlygotinside
thecoversthensl ept,dreami ngaboutNat han
:P...
Thenextmor ningIwasthefi
rstonet owakeup
becauseofthef amous'morningsickness'I
wast hr
owingupaf t
erthatIt
ookashowerand
walkedoutTeewasawakewhi leIwasappl yi
ng
bodyloti
ononmybody, Ihadthisurgetof ar
t
andIdid,pleasedon'tj
udgeme, Teel ookedat
meannoy ed
Me:
"I'
m sor
rymyf
ri
endi
tswasn'
tmyi
ntent
ion
"
Tee:"Thi
sisgoingt
obeal ong5months,you
l
eftwith5monthsri
ght?"Inod,hewentto
takeashowertoo,whi
leIwasgoingt
ot he
kit
chen, Nathanwasther
eandbreakf
astwas
ready,Iclearedmythr
oat,hel
ookedatme
Nat
han:
"ohhey"
Me:
"hey"Iwasav
oidi
ngey
econt
act
Tee:
"LordI
'm sohungr
y!!"hesai
dwal
ki
ng
downthest
air
s
Nat
han:
"lucki
l
yI'
vepr
epar
edbr
eakf
ast"
Tee:
"You'
ref
orkeeps"
Nat
han:"I
'
m st
rai
ght!"wel
aughedatt
het
one
heused
Tee:
"Icant
urnast
rai
ghtguy"
Nathan:"don'
teventhi
nkofi
t,Iwi
l
lrearr
ange
yourface"welaughedandat
eourbreakf
ast.
.
Teesuggest edthatwemustgoanddoa3D
scan, hewillpayhejustwanttoseehis
niece/nephew, Nathanalsosai
dhehasplaces
tobesowhynot ??Ifixedmyself,Iwas
wear i
ngmybl ackjeansthoutheyweretoot
ight
Iforcedthem andmybaggyT- shi
rtwhichwas
writ
ten"Goingt obeanewMom : )"Mom
boughtitforme- _
-Teesaidit
scut e,hewore
hisshortandSkhothaneshir
t..Nathandroveus
tothehospital,UMhl
angaHospi t
alandleftus
ther
e, wewal kedi
nwithTee
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
AssoonasIdr oppedt hem offIwentstrai
ght
home, Mom wasout sidewi t
hbabyJor danand
SIgreetedbuttheydidn'tanswerIwalked
i
nsi
det omyr oom Kleinwasl ayi
ngont hebed
Kl
ein:
"Wher
eyoucomi
ngf
rom "
Me:
"MyJobi
sdemandi
ng,
youknowt
hat"
Kl
ein:
"Cool
butt
odayIwantust
ohi
tthemost
cool
estcl
ub"
Me:"Idon'
tknowaboutt
hatbutcany
oudome
af
avour"henod
Me:"Iwantyout
ogoandfetchsomepeopl
eat
UMhlangaHospi
tal
forme"
Kl
ein:
"Idon'
tev
enknowwher
eist
hat"
Nat
han:
"TheGPSwi
l
ldi
recty
ou"
Klei
n:"Okay"Iwal
kedoutandt
ookmyot
her
car,Iwal
kedtowhereMom andSwer
e
Me:"Cany oufi
xJordan'
sbag,wegoi
ngtothe
par
k,actuall
yI'
mtakingya'
l
ltoourmi
nipi
cni
c"
shesqueal
ed
Mom :
"Thebagisal
readypacked"shest
ood
upandwentt
otakei
t, wewaivedgoodbyeasI
wasdri
vi
ngoff:
/
>>>
Whenwegottothepark,sheplacedever
ythi
ng
downandIwascarr
yingJordanIdon'
tknow
howthispicni
cthi
ngwor
kaf
tershewasdoneI
satnextt
oher
Me:"LookSI '
m sorr
yforbei
ngaj
erkt
oward
you,Ishoul
dn'thav
et r
eat
edyoul
i
keapieceof
shi
t"
S:
"I'
m al
sosor
ryf
orbei
nganui
sance"
Me:
"let
'sst
artont
hecl
eansl
ate"
S:"Iagr
ee"wecarri
edontalki
ngaboutrandom
thi
ngs,sheaskedmetotakeapictur
eofher
andbabyJordanIdi
d,af
terourpicni
cIdrove
tothemall,j
ustwi
ndowshoppingwithbaby
Jordanwit
hmeandSbymysi de
"Si
phokazi
?"Ohshi
t!I
'
m deadI
'
ver
uined
ever
thi
ng>_<
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Whenwegoti nsidet hewar d, DoctorGraham
Yeshe' smyDoct or, hesaidImustr emov emy
topandl ayont hebedIdi d, heappl i
edt hi
scold
gelonmyst omachaf t
erthatwehear dast rong
heartbeat myt ear sfel
l Iwashappyguy s,
Teewasv i
deot appi ngever yt
hing, weaskeda
3Dscanal sopict ures, t
hegender. .Guyst he
gender: Mybabyi saGi rl
!!Her eIam thinking
I
'm carryi
ngaboy, shitaf
tert hattheDoct or
gavememyv i
tami nsandwewal kedout
honestlyspeaki ngi t
houghtmay besomehowI
wil
lbecar r
yingt winsbuthey: '(herbrotherdied
..Ireceivedat extmessagef r
om Nat han
Nathan~I'
m sorryIcan'
tbeablet
ofetchy
'al
l
butI'
vesentsomeonehisnamei sKl
ein~I
si
ghedandwal kedtotheparki
nglot
.
.
Kl
ein
.
.
Hi I'
m KleinMat thewMi l
lerI'm 27y earsol d, t
he
fi
rstbor nofJust ineChar mai neMi llerand
SteffanoDi mi triMi ll
er, wellmyl ifeIdon' thave
agi rl
fri
endt heyal lfuckbuddi esnost r
ing
attachedt ype, Idon' twor kIal way sr eceivea
mont hlyallowancef rom mypar ent sitsenough
forme, Ihav emyDegr eei nChemi cal
Engineer i
ngbutIj ustdon' twannawor ksoy eah
, Iacceptedt ogof etcht hosemy sterious
peopl ebecauseIwasbor edIt houghtcomi ng
toS. Awi l
lbef unbutnowI '
m doubt ingt hator
may bebecauseIhav en'tgetenought i
met o
knowpl aces? ?Isi ghedasIwal kedoutt ohis
car, ItypedUMhl angaHospi t
al andt heGPS
directedme, Idrov et herescar edIar riveandI
sawNat han'sexgi rl
fri
end, Shel ooksev en
mor ebeaut iful l
ivewai t
!?I sshepr egnant? ?
GoshIsil
entl
ylaughed,theywal
kedt
omy
di
rect
ionIrol
ledthewindowdown
Her:"ar
eyouKl
ein?"Inod,
theygoti
nsi
det
he
car
Me:
"mayIask,
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Her:
"Nat
hansai
dyou'
ret
hatonewho'
sgonna
f
etchus"
Me:
"ohIt
houghti
twassomepeopl
e"
Her:
"youknowme?"
Me: "Nathan'
sexAnel e,yesbabygi r
lIknow
you"wedr ov
ei ntot
alsi
lence,theyaskedtogo
t
heMal l,
welltheydir
ectedme, theyareso
f
riendlyOhweendedupt al
king,aswewer e
walkingoutMcDonal d'
sIsawNat hanandhe
waswi thS
Anel
e:"Si
phokazi
!!
?"
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t13
Cr
opTop
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Thenextmor
ningIwokeupandkneel
eddown,
pray
ing
"HeavenlyFat
herIcomebyy ouasasi nner,I
knowIhav ewr ongedmywifecountl
esstime
butpleaseFatherGod,hel
phert oeaseupt he
painIputherthroughandmayy oupleaseguide
herwher ev
ershe. .
.Amen"I'
m notaheav y
prayer, Istoodupandwal kedtothebathroom I
tookashoweri tswasqui t
esunnyout si
de , I
wor emyAf ricanprintshi
rtandmybl ackpants
,Iwal keddownst ai
rstoprepareali
ghtmeal for
breakf ast,Idon'twantany onetocookfor
exceptf ormywi fe'
sormymom t hemai donce
offeredt ocookf ormebutIgl adlyref
usedwhat
i
fsomeoneIeatf oodunderaspel l NoWay !
..Ifi
xedmysel fandwalkedout
headi ngtot hecarandwedr oveoff
Iar
ri
vedatt
her oy
alhouseIwaswel
comedwi
th
mom warm ar
ms
Mom :
"Thi
niKaMama"
Me:"Uy
aphi
laMaKhumal
o(Howar
eyou
MaKhumal
o)"
Mom :"I
'
m goodI
'
vepreparedbreakfastforyou
..Come"shehol
dmebymyhandl eadingthe
way,wesatdowneat
ingintheeatingroom
wit
hMom andDad,TheNdl ov
uswer ecoming
dur
ingl
uncht
ime.
..
AtLunch
Dad:"Wear
edoi
ngev
ery
thi
ngi
nourpowert
o
fi
ndher"
Me:
"Yesandwewi
l
lli
key
ourhel
ptoo"
Ki
ng:"WhatKi
ndofManar
eyou?
?Wher
eis
mydaught
er!
!"
Phum( Anel e'
sMom ): "Enough!!I'mtir
edsitt
ing
herehear i
ngy oual lar
guingaboutmydaught er,
She'sFineshe' swi t
husi nDurbanshecame
badlybr ui
sednotev enabletowal kbecauseof
youZwel i
Ihat eyouIwi shthi
sst upi
d
deal/promi seneverhappenedy ou'veputmy
daughtert hroughal otshe'
sfedupnow. .Sadly
enoughshecan' tcuty ouoffbecauseshe's
alr
eadypr egnant! "Myf aceli
ghtenupatt he
word" Pregnant"
Me:
"she'
spr
egnant?
?"
Ki
ng:
"shedi
dn'
tst
utt
er"
Dad:
"Whatdi
dy oumeanwheny ousai
dshe
wasbadl
ybr
uisedbecauseofmyson?"
Me:
"er
..
.DadIdi
dn'
ttel
lyout
hewhol
etr
uth"
Dad:
"whol
etr
uth?"
Me: "f
ir
stl
yIwoul dli
ketoapologi
zetothe
Ndlovusforwrongingyourdaughter,
Iwasfed
alovepotion"theroom wentsil
ent
Dad:
"lov
epot
ion!
!Howcome?
"
Me: "YouknowDadIhav en'
tbeenv i
sit
ing
Zwane, sowhoevercastaspellonmewor ked
becauseit
stur
nedmet oamonst er"
Dad:"Didn'
tIt
ellyouthei
mportanceofgoing
tobab'
Zwane?. .Nonofthiswouldn'
thav
e
happened!Damni tZweli
"
Me:"I
'm sor
ryDadIt
houghtt
hist
hingsno
l
ongerworks"
Phum :
"Sowhatt
hesol
uti
on,
what
'
stheway
f
orwar
d?"
Me:
"Wewi
l
ldot
hingsmyWi
fe'
sway"
Ki
ng:"Shel
osttheot
hertwinbecauseofyou
Il
ostmygrandsonbecauseofyou!!"
Me: "there'
snoamountofapol ogiesthatcan
undowhatIdi dbutI'
mr eall
ysorry..
"Afterour
tal
kwewal kedthem out,well
Iwasexpect ing
thathewi ll
beatmeupt oabul bbutno!He's
wayt oofarmf ormyliki
ngs..I
'm goi
ngt obea
fatherthethoughtmadeMYhear tski
ppeda
beat
.
.
.
Nt
ando ‍♀
.
.
.
I
'm adeadwal kingwomanIwi shInev
er
l
istenedtomyAunt, shewast heonewho
persuademet omaket hi
sdecisi
onandIt
s
didn'
twor k.
.Ilostmybabyboybecauseofher
I'
m ashellli
kethisbecauseofher.
.I
wouldn'tbehereifit
swasn'tforhim
Isawamanwal
ki
ngbyme
Me:"Bhut
icanyoupleasegiv
eme50cIwanna
addonandbuybreadpleaseI'
mver
yhungr
y
"
Man:
"Sor
ryIdon'
thav
eanymoneywi
thme"
Me:'pl
easeBhuti
Ihav
ebeenstarvi
ngfordays,
i
tsbeenthr
eedayswit
heati
ngplease"hetook
outaR20noteandgavei
ttome
Me:"MayGodbl essy ou"Icont
inuedt
hanking
hi
m endlessl
y,Iwalkedbacktoourcave,Yes
weleaveunderthebridgewit
hmyAunt. .Dad
threwusoutwhenhef ounduswewer e
practi
cingwitchcraf
tItri
edexplai
ningbutNohe
didn'
tev enwanttohearasi nglet
hinghesai d
oncewesatf ootonhishousehewi l
ltel
lthe
wholecommuni tyaboutusev enAunt'
sfriend
didn'
twantt ohelpus
.
..
Me:
"AuntIboughtbr
ead"
Aunt:
"wheredi
dyougett
hemoney?
"Shesat
upstr
aight
Me: "Goti
tont heroad"weswapplaces
somet i
messhegoesupi nthemorningand
seatnextt
ot heroadandbegformoneyont he
carspassi
ngadaywemakeaboutR50when
i
t'
sendoft hemont hwereachR200butsome
daysaredarkerwesomet i
mesdon'tgetany
money.
Aunt:
"Pl
easepassmywat
ert
her
e"Idi
d
Me:
"I'
mthi
nki
ngi
ngoi
ngt
otownt
omor
row"
Aunt:"Looki
ngf orMami li
cious?"Thewell
knownpr ost
it
uteshousecal l
ed"The
Mami l
ici
ous"thebestwayoutoft hiswast o
sell
mysoul tothedev ilI
'
veal r
eadydidbutI
havetoplacemyl itt
lesoulont hesl
iverpl
ate
forustogetabet terli
fe
.
.
ThisstartedwhenIr anbackhomeaf terIsaw
thepoliceatZwel ishouseIhav enev ersetf oot
thereI'
m scar edaftertwomont hsIwasf or
ced
tohandoutmybabyf orNkanyambaIwas
forcedtogi vebirt
ht oapremat urekid, hecame
outalivebutdi edinstant
lywhenNkany ama
crunchedhi sbones Iwasf orcedtol ookat
thi
ssnakeasi t
swashav i
nghismeal wi t
hmy
son, hisresembl ewasSmi sosIthankGod
Smi sodidn'tknowIwaspr egnant.Isi ghedasI
fi
xedmysel fIdon'tusuallybathbuttodayI
hav etoI'
m goi ngtotownphel aIgotl ookapar t
.
.
.
Someoneaskedmetouseemoj
i
'sIdon'
tknow
i
fit
sappropr
iat
e??Ornot
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t13
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Me:
"Hawuhwhenwast
hel
astt
im-.
.Nat
han
"
Nathan:"Heyguys"hescr
atchedhi
shead,he
usual
lydoesthatwhenhe'
sabouttol
ieI
'v
e
noti
cedhim
Tee:
"Who'
sthi
scut
iepi
e "
S:"Mydaughter.
.Youpr
egnant
?"Inodwhy
wouldsheaskanobvi
ousquest
ion
Kl
ein:
"It
hinki
tst
imef
orust
ogo"
Me:
"Kahl
ewena!
!Who'
sthef
ath-
"
Nat
han:
"Let
'sgo"
Tee:"Ai
bohwestil
ll
ooki
ngatt
hebabyanday
thi
sbabyresembl
eyouNATHANareyou??"
Kl
ein:
"Ihav
epl
acest
obe,
canwego"
Me:
"Don'
twor
rygoIwi
l
lcat
chacab"Il
ooked
atNat
hannotbel
i
evi
ngwhatIwasseei
ng
Me:
"Soy
oupl
ayi
nghappyf
ami
l
y?"
Nat
han:
"It
snotwhaty
out
hink"
Me:
"whati
sitt
hatIt
hink?
"
Nathan:
"Icanexplai
n"myt earswereal
ready
screami
ngdownmyf acefort
hewhyIdon't
knowbutIfel
tli
kecrying,Heshout
edatmef or
bei
ngpregnantbut..
.ButhehasababyAbaby
wit
hS
Me:
"Howcoul
dyou?
?"
Nat
han:
"Babel
ook"
S:
"Youguysarebackt
oget
her?
"Sheasked
wi
thani
rr
it
atedface
Nat
han:
"StakeJordanandgeti
nsi
dethecar"I
l
ookatt
hem ,Jesushowcanhedothi
stome
S:
"Wear
enotdon-
"
Nat
han:
"Isai
d!!Go!"shet
ookJor
danf
rom Tee
,
Klei
nwasal
readyi
nthecar
Nathan:
"CanIhav
esomepr
ivat
eti
mewi
th
her
? "
Me:"Saywhat
everyouwanttosay"suddenl
yI
wasfumingwi
thanger.
.Hormones
Nat
han:
"Shecamet
omebepr
egnant"
Me:
"let
'sst
artf
rom t
hebeggi
ng"hesi
ghed
Nat
han:
"lookIsl
eptwi
thheran-
"
Me:
"When?
?"heav
oidedey
econt
act
Me:
"Don'
tFuckwi
thme!
!Isai
dwhen?"
Nat
han:"WhenYougotmarri
ed"Il
aughedl
i
ke
r
eal
lyhardbutmyf
acechangedt
o -
Me:
"SoIwasbusyfi
ghti
ngwit
hZwel
-that
mor
onwhi
leyoubusyscr
ewingmyf
ri
end!?"
Nathan:
"I'
m sorr
yitsjusthappened"Islapped
hi
m sohardandqui ckl
ywenttot hei
rcarlucki
l
y
Swasoutside,Igrabbedherweav epull
i
ngher
downIdi
dn'
tev
encar
eifIwaspr
egnantornot,
THEYbet
ray
edme
Me:"YouBi tchhowcoul dyou!
! "Icar r
ied
onpunchingherunt i
lIwasgentl
yremovedby
Klei
n,Iscreamed" LeaveMeAlone!!Kl
einy ou
sonofthebitch!!NkosiyamiLomlungu!
!Yer r
r"
hewashol di
ngmet i
ght
Me:
"Kl
einputmedown!
!"
Kl
ein:
"Pr
omi
semey
ouwi
l
lbehav
e"
Me:"Don'tfuckwit
hme! !Kl
einleav
emeal one
IswearI'
m gonnastabyoutodeath!!Klein!!"I
wantedtopunchhim butmyhandscoul dr each
hisf
ace,Islowlydi
dmybr eat
hingexercises
unti
lIwascalm
Me: "Kl
einletgoI'
m cal
m now"Iwasstandi
ng
barefoot Idon' tevenknowwhenItook
them off,Teecamewi thmyhandbagandmy
shoesIwor ethem andfi
xedmyT-shi
rt
Klei
n: "Let'
sgo"heopenedthedoorf
ormeI
gotinal sowithTeeandwedrov
eoffonthe
wayt hedr i
vewassil
ent,wel
ookedateach
otherandl aughed
Kl
ein:
"Isweary
ou'
recar
ryi
ngaNi
njat
her
e"
Tee:
"Idi
dn'
tknowyoust
il
lgoti
tiny
ou,
bit
ch!
!
Youdi
dthem good"
Me:"i
fit
swasn'
tforthi
smoroncal
l
ed'
Klei
n'I
woul
ddoneworsethatwhatIdi
d"
Kl
ein:
"Ican'
tl
ety
ouhi
tmybr
other"
Me:
"Fucky
ourbr
other!
!Fuckhi
m"
Tee:
"ayIknewthatSwant
edNat
han butI
di
dn'
tthi
nkshewil
lgohi
ghasget
ti
ng
i
mpregnat
edbyhim"
Me:
"I'
m st
il
lnotdonewi
tht
hem "
Klein:
"Peopleweretaki
ngavi
deosurel
ythe
ti
tlewi
llbe'TheMotherofaNi
njashowed
them f
lames' I
'
m scarednow"
Me:
"Ist
il
lwannapunchy
ourf
acef
orhol
ding
me"
Tee:
"Yeahhedeser
veonet
oo"
Klei
n:"Nextti
meIwon'thol
dyouback"we
reachedourdest
inyandwegotof
f
Kl
ein:
"takecar
e..Nat
hanwi
l
lcome"
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
oseehi
m"
Kl
ein:
"Meani
ng"
Me:
"canIhav
eyouasmybody
guar
d"
Kl
ein:
"eh.
..Okayf
inebutI
'
m notgoi
ngi
n"
Me:
"Why?"
Klei
n:"rememberyousai
dyougonnast
ab
them "Ilaughed
Me:"Iwasj
ustangr
yhawuh!Come"hegotoff
t
hecarandwewalkedi
nsi
deitswasst
il
lday
l
ight
.
..
Weweresit
ti
ngwatchi
ngT.vwi
thKl
einandTee
t
hel
andli
nerang,
Iquickl
ywentt
oanswerit
Me:
"Ndl
ovur
esi
dencehel
l
o"
.
..
Me:
"Hel
l
o??"
Him:
"Anele"i tswashim!!Hi
svoi
cesol
dhi
m
out,Ihadflashbacksonwhathedi
dtome,
howhef or
cedhi msel
f
Zweli:
"AneleI'm sorrybaby"Isobloudl
yy ou'
d
swearIjustheardsomeonedi edorsomethingI
st
art
edshaki ngwi t
hf ear,whatdoeshewant s
fr
om me? ?,IsawKl einappr
oachingmyway,
Teetookthephone
Tee:
"Hel
l
o??"
.
..
Tee:
"I'
m sor
ryshecan'
tanswery
ounow"
.
..
Tee: "LookhereIknowwhatyoudi
dtomy
fr
iendIhatey ousomuchIwishyoucanr
oti
n
hell"heswitchedofft
hephone
Tee:"I
'
m sor
rybaby"Kl
einpi
ckedmeupand
pl
acedmenicel
yonmybedandl ef
t.
Iwasl
eftwi
thTee
Me:
"whatdoeshewant
sfr
om me? "
Tee:"Don'
twor
rybabyhe'
sjustaj
erkt
hat
deserv
etobesentt
ojai
l"
Me:
"No!
!Ican'
tl
ethi
mroti
njai
lwhatwi
l
lIsay
t
omychi
ld??"
Tee:"Justsl
eepmaybeyouwil
lwakeupcal
m"
InodheleftmeandIdrownbackt
omy
sorr
ows
.
Iwokeuplatet heli
ghtwereoffIwentt
oswitch
them of
f,thi
spr egnancyismakingmebrav
eI
tel
lyou,Iwalkeddownst ai
rst
herewasKlei
n
sl
eepingonthecouchwit
hafl
eeblanketwhil
e
watchingT.
v,someonewasbusyonthe
ki
tchencauseIhear
dplat
eshi
tt
ingeachother
makinganoise
Kl
ein:
"youawake?"Inod
Klein:
"Letmejust.
..
ehhIwill
goupstai
rs"
he
quickl
yranupst
air
s,Ilookedathi
m wei
rd
"
AneleI'
m sor
rybabe!"Isl
owlyt
urneday
Ngi
yali
ngwa(I'
m bei
ngtested)
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Nat
han:
"I'
m sor
rybab-
"
Me:"don'
tbabymeI
'
m noty
ourbabybut
Jor
danis"
Nat
han:
"canIpl
easeexpl
ainmysel
f!
!"
Me:"y
ouhaveanerv
etoevenshoutatme!
!
Whenyou'
ret
heonewho'
swrong"
Nathan:
"howcanIexpl
ainmyselfwhenyou
don'
twanttoogi
vemeachance?!"Il
ookedat
hi
m, Iwi
shIst
il
lgotthatenergyIhadi
ntheMal
l
Iwouldhav
eslappedhim again
Nathan:"Iwasangry,fr
ust
rat
edthethoughtof
youmar r
inganothermanbesi
desmehur t
sme
t
ocor e,Icoul
dn'tsl
eepyouwereal
lIwas
t
hinkingabout"hekeptqui
et
Nathan:
"shewasther
eavai
labl
eAndwill
ingl
yI
wantedt
otakeoutmyangerbutshegot
pr
egnant"
Me:"coul
dn'
tyousear
chf
oranot
hergi
rl?
?Why
her"
Nat
han:"Iwoul
dbel
yi
ngifIcoul
dsayIknow
why"Isni
ff
edIwascr
ying
Nathan:"I'
m sorryf
orshouti
ngatt hatday
whenIgott hatyoupregnant"Ilookedathi
m
asheslowlyt ookhi
shandswi thmi ne,my
heartf
eltatease
Nathan:"Justt
het
houghtofthatGoonwit
h
youinbedmakesmecr azybutI'
m wil
l
ingt
o
askt
hebabyt
reather
/hi
mli
kemi
ne"
Me:
"it
sagi
rl"
Nat
han:"anot
herdaught
erforme"hebrought
meclosert
ohim,Icoul
dfeelmycl
itt
wit
ches
Me:
"Nat
hanI
'
m notr
eadyf
orar
elat
ionshi
p"
Nathan:
"don'
tworryIwil
lwai
tforyoubabe"he
huggedmeandkissedmyf or
eheadwest ay
ed
i
nthatposi
ti
onunti
lIheardKl
ein'
svoice
Kl
ein:"i
sitsaf
et ocomeoutnow?Nobroken
pl
atesnonothing??Comeonguys"hesai
das
hegotinsi
dethekit
chen
Kl
ein:
"NayMan? ?Shefor
giv
ey ouj
ustli
ket
hat
??Nobrokenbonesthi
soneiscarr
yingaNi
nja
"
Me:
"leav
emeal
oneKl
ein"
Kl
ein:
"How'smyNinjadoi
ng?
?Di
dshef
eltl
i
ke
ki
cki
ngNathansbut
t??"
Me:
"No!"
Nat
han:
"Kl
einl
eav
emybabyal
one"
Kl
ein:
"Onedayandy
a'l
lal
readycal
l
ingeach
ot
herbaby"
Me:"I
'm sogoi
ngt
ocuty
ourt
hroatwheny
ou'
re
sl
eepi
ng"
Kl
ein:
"don'
tworr
yIwon'
tcl
osemyot
herey
e"I
l
aughedandwenttomyr
oom .
.
.
.
Si
phokazi
.
.
Myheadwassor e,Idon'
twannament
ionthe
ter
ri
bleheadache Iwaspur pl
eonmyface
forapregnantwomanshethr
owsamean
punch,Iwasangryal
lthewaytohi
scr
iband
Jor
danwasbusymaki
ngbabysounds
Me:
"howcoul
dyoul
etherdomel
i
ket
his?
?"
Nat
han:
"ist
her
eaneedt
oscr
eam andshout?
?
"
Me:
"Don'
tfuckwi
thme!
"
Nat
han:
"Ican'
tdot
hiswi
thy
ounow"hespeed
t
ohiscr
ib
Me: "j
ustdon'
tkillus!"Heclickedhistongue
andsloweddown, whenwear ri
vedhrtook
babyJordaninsideIlookedatt hegardenthe
wasabeaut i
fulsetupwi throsepedalsleading
theway, Ismil
edmay bethi
si sforusandI
highl
ydoubtthathewi llagr
eet othi
s,Iwalked
i
nside
Just
ine:
"OhGodwhat
'
shappenedt
oyourf
ace
"Nathaney
edme
Me:"i
tsal
ongstoryIneedt
osl
eep"Igav
eher
Jor
danandwenttosleep
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t14
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Iwokeupwi
thNat
hanbymysi
de,
Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"St
ari
ngi
srudey
ouknow"
Nat
han:
"notwhenI
'
mlooki
ngatmywoman"I
bl
ushed hepl
ant
edasmal
lki
ss
Me:
"Yousmel
lsogood"
Nathan:"Yeahwakeupsoy oucaneat"that
whenIlookedbesidemeandsawaf ull
Engli
sh
br
eakfast,myproblem i
sthatthewasno
avocado,Ifrown
Nathan:
"Youdon'
tl
ikei
t?Icanchangei
tify
ou
want"
Me:
"Noj
ustt
hatt
her
e'snoav
ocado"
Nat han:"Iwil
lgoandaddsomewhi l
eyou
refreshenup"Inodandwal kedt ot
he
bathroom Istri
ppednakedandt ookashower
i
tswaski ndachil
l
edoutsi
de, Iworemy
tracksuit
sandwet osi
twit
hhi m
Nat
han:
"Let
'sshar
e"
Me:"Letpr
ayfi
rst"wehol
dourhandsandsai
d
asi
l
entprayer
.
Kl
ein:"Oht
hefor
everf
ight
ingl
ovebi
rdshas
bl
esseduswit
hthei
rpr
esent"
Tee:
"Youcansayt
hatagai
n"
Kl
ein:
"Howdoy
oudoi
tmyman?
?"
Nat
han:"Fuckof
fman"thel
andl
i
ner
ang,
I
qui
ckl
ywenttoansweri
t
Me:
"Hel
l
o?"
Dad:"Pr
incesswhatar
ethosemandoi
ngi
nmy
house??"
Me:
"er
..
.Dadi
tsj
ustTeeandNat
han"
Dad:
"Thewhi
teone?
"
Me:
"OhKl
ein.
.He'
sNat
hansbr
other"
Dad:
"Whatishedoi
ngt
her
e,t
heysl
eepi
ngi
n
myhousenow!!"
Me:
"Dadcal
m down.
.Howwast
hemeet
ing?
"
Dad:"I
tswentwell
butI'
m st
il
lnotpl
easedwi
th
hi
sreasonIwanthi
m dead"
Me: "IknowDadnopar ent
swil
ll
iket
owatch
thei
rdaughterbei
ngabusedbutDadi
fyoukil
l
him mychi l
dwon'
thaveaDadIknowmy
reasonislamebutlookati
tinmyper
spect
ive"
Dad:"Fi
nebutmay
beabr
okenl
egny
ana"I
l
aughed
Me:
"Rear
rangeoff
aceny
ana"wel
aughed
Dad:"I'
m gonnatakehimt ojail
makesurehe
getinacellwher
et her
e'sdangerouspeopl
eso
theycanrapehimlikehedidt oyou"
Me:
"Hawuh!
!Dadakubuy
isel
waokubi
ngokubi
"
Dad:
"Buthedi
-"
Icuthi
m shor
t
Me:"Iknowthatbutpl
easeIdon'
twanthi
mto
bet
raumati
zed"
Dad:
"Any
waywhywer
eyouf
ight
ingi
nthemal
l
"
Me:
"er
..Someonepi
ssedmeof
fDad"
Dad:"Youdidthem goodbaby"IheardMom
onthebackgroundcomplaining"
DidThem
GoodWasi mbadon'tencouragehert
ofight
she'
spregnantforgoodnesssake!!
"
Dad:"Igot
tago.
.We'
l
lbear
ri
vi
ngt
omor
row
morning"
Me:
"Okayby
eDad"
Dad:
"Takecar
epr
incess"Iwal
kedbackt
o
t
hem
Tee:
"Sowhatwashesay
ing"
Me:"It
hinkheinst
all
edcamer
asher
e,cause
hewasaskingaboutwhoaret
hesemans"
Kl
ein:
"Aywhydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me?"
Me:
"Iwoul
dhav
etol
dyoui
fIknew"
Tee:
"Soar
eandNat
han?
?Youknow?"I
l
aughed
Me:
"Teewe-
"
Kl
ein:
"yest
heyar
ebackt
oget
her"
Nat
han:
"Ibet
tergowi
thy
ouBr
otherorel
se
Ki
ngwil
lfl
i
p"
Me:
"Dadi
sonl
ycomi
ngbackt
omor
row"
Klei
n:"Iwi
l
lst
aybutIwon'
tsl
eepher
e"I
squeal
Kl
ein:
"Howi
stheni
njat
her
e?"
Me:
"she'
ssl
eepi
ng"
Klei
n:"You'
rel
yi
ng,shet
aki
nghermor
ning
exerci
ses"wel
aughed
.
..
I
tswascl oseto8pm whenKleindecidedhe
wasl eavingnow, Teewasgoingtoleave
tomor r
owmor ni
ngbeforemyparentscomes, I
don'tknowwhyhe' sst
il
laf
rai
dofthem , af
teral
l
thesey ears
Kl
ein:
"ByeAnel
ewi
l
lseey
ouar
ound"YesessI
wascr
ying
Me:
"Doy
ouhav
etol
eav
e?"
Kl
ein:
"Idon'
twanty
ourDadt
oki
l
lme"
Me:
"hedoesn'
tgoar
oundki
l
li
ngpeopl
e"
Nathan:
"Babeitsgett
inglat
e,Ihatedri
vi
ngat
ni
ght"IhuggedKlei
ntightIwastooatt
achedI
don'
tknowwhy? may bei
tsbecausehe
makesmel augh
Kl
ein:
"Don'
tbr
eakmybones!
"Il
aughed
Me:
"By
e"
Kl
ein:
"St
opbei
ngacr
ybaby"
Me:
"it
sbabyNi
njanotme"
Klei
n:"Tell
hernott
oworryIwi
llbr
ingher
sweetsnextti
meIcome"Ismiled,Iwishmy
SisAndiswawashere,
may beherandKlei
n
would'
ve..Youknow t heywouldlookgood
toget
her
Nathan:
"Iwi
l
lbebackbaby"hecameand
ki
ssedmyfor
ehead,t
heylef
tIwal
kedbackt
o
t
hel
oungeTeewasr
elaxi
ngont
hecouch
Tee:"Isweari
fIwasn'
taf
aithf
ulpart
nert
o
BonganiIwoul
d'v
ehadapieceofKlei
n"I
l
aughed
Me: "Tj
ohe'
shot ev enNat
handoesn'
tseea
t
hinginhim "wecarr
iedonwat
chi
ngtheMov i
e
I
'm sohappythatI
'
m backtomyol
dhappyself
.
.
Nt
ando
.
.
.
Iwalkedtot heinsi
detheclubwr i
tt
en
"Mami l
i
cious"Iwasner vousashel lbutIhadto
orel
seIwi lldi
eofhunger, Isatonthecor ner
l
ookingatt heseclassypeopleIfel
tleftout,t
he
guysherear ealli
nformalclothesIdon'teven
wannamentiont
hegir
ls ‍♀ t hel
ooked
sogoodwithmark-
uponpoint,thewaythey
dr
essedit
swasscreaming"Prosti
tut
es"Isat
onthecor
nerandtwogirl
scamet ome
"
Hi"I
'
m Mi
hlal
iandt
hisi
smyf
ri
endRose
Me:
"I'
m Ntando,I
'
ml ooki
ngf
orMami
l
ici
ous
t
heownerofthi
splace"
Mihl
ali
:"Youwantt
ojoi
n?"Isl
owl
ynodI
'
m
embarrassed
Rose:
"Don'
twor
rybabewewi
l
lhel
pyou"
Mihlali
:"Let'
sgoIwi l
lshowy ouwher e
Mami li
ciousis"Istoodupandf ollowedt hem
wepassedmanyr oomssomewer efil
l
edwi t
h
groansandmoansont heotherside, t
hewer e
mansl inedupt hewassomewomen' st i
edup
butonlyherlegswer eout,herlegswi dely
openedandherl egswereti
edupshowi ngafull
vi
ewofherv aginaIswall
owedhar dt hewer e
di
fferentposit
ionsofthewoman' sont hewalls
wewal
kedt
osomeof
fi
ce,
theyl
eftmet
her
e
Mami
l
ici
ous:
"Youwantt
ojoi
n?"
Me:
"yes"
Mamili
cious:"it
sokayi
fit
'
syourf
ir
stt
ime,
are
youscar
ed? "Inod
Mami l
ici
ous:"Youwil
lonl
yhandl
enewcl ient
s
si
ncey ou'
renewIneedyourbankaccountand
Mihlal
iwil
lshowy ouy
ourhouseal
soy ourcar"
Ir
aisedmyey ebrows
Me:
'HouseandCar
??"
Mamil
i
cious:
"Yest
hatal
lwepr
ovi
deal
soy
ou
wi
ll
earnsomemoney"Inod
Mami
l
ici
ous:
"her
e'si
syourcarkey
s"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"ThankYouBoss"shel
aughed
Mami li
cious:"Don'
tworr
ysweety"Ist
oodup, I
couldn'
twai tt
otell
AuntthegoodnewsImean
wewi ll
hav eourownhouse!!That
'
sahuge
thi
ngIdon' tevenwantt
oment i
onthecarIdon'
t
ev
enhav
eal
i
cencehowwi
l
lIdr
ivei
t??
.
.
.

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n
Season2
I
nser
t15
.
.
Thr
eeMont
hsl
ater
.
.
Zwel
i
thi
ni
.
.
Ast hef ami lyhel dthemeet i
ngandAnel ewell
shet oldust hatshedoesn' twantany thingtodo
withmyf ami lyandme, al
lshewant edt o
divorcemebutwel l wecoul dn'tl
ethermakea
decisionbecauseherhor moneswer eal so
takingat ollofher, I'
v ebeeni nDurbanacoupl e
oftimesj ustt oseehershewoul dalway schase
meoutbutshegotusedt oitcauseIwasn' t
givi
ngupwor seofal l t
hatboy waspl aying
thecar dsgr eatcauseourr elati
onshipbet ween
meandAnel eunt il
her emindedherwhatI '
ve
doneont hepastwhi chissomet hingI'
m not
proudof, afterthatshecutmeof fon
everythingbutshest illcal
lsmewhenshe' s
hav i
ngcr avingswei rdIknow. .NowIwasi nthe
hotel muchcl osertoherhouseIwoul dgot here
i
nt heev eningandl eav eatnight,Icamei n
Durbanwi thaguar dandamai dwhowi l
lcook
formeal sonur sesme.Iwokeandhel pedmy
selfoutt hebedIhol dont ighttomycr unches
andl i
mbedt ot hebat hroom doorIdi dmy
busi
nessslowl
yandcar
efulsothatIwon'
thur
t
myselfIcan'
taf
for
dtodothatagain
Me:"Noma!!Ar
gg"Igr
oanedImi
stakenl
yhur
t
mybrokenl
eg
Noma:
"Nkosana"shebowed
Me:"Hel
pme. .Pl
easet
akemetobed"we
l
impedunt
ilIl
andedonmybed
Noma:"butIt
oldy
out
ocal
lmewhenev
ery
ou
wanthel
p"
Me:"I'
mf i
neokay!"shenodsandlef
tItookmy
phoneandcall
edAneleit
srangafewt i
mes
unti
lsheansweredi
t
Me:
"Mor
ning!
"
Her:
"Doyouhaveapaperandapennextt
o
you?
"Isi
ghedthat
'sherwayt
otel
lmeshe
want
ssomethi
ng
Me:
"YeahIdo"
Her:
"Wr
it
ethi
sdown.
.RoccoMamast
wo
burger
s,apizzaandhotwi ngsandicecr
eam
andchocolat
ecakesohhIal sowantdunked
wingsandmar shmallows"Isi
ghedshe
changesfoodev er
yday
Me:
"that
'sal
l"
Her:
"yeahf
ornow"
Me:"well
letmegoandgety
out
heset
hings
youwant"
Her:"Yousuchadar l
ing"shehungup, I
wonderifshewaswai ti
ngf ormycallorwhat?I
slowl
ystoodupandl i
mbedt othedoorwalking
downt hestai
rswasami ssi
onbutImanaged,
theguarddrov eoffst
raightgoingtothemal l,
I
boughteverythingsheaskedf oraft
erthatwe
droveheadi
ngbackt oherhome, Igotoutthe
carwithpl
asticbagandl i
mpedt othedoor, I
rangthebellandshecamewi t
hhergownon
Her:
"heycomei
n"Igoti
n
Me:
"her
eist
hef
oody
ouaskedf
or"she
squeal
s
Her:
"you'
reagodsent "
Me:"howfararey
ou? "Shewasal
ready
st
uff
inghersel
fwit
hfood
Her:
"umm 7monthsandtwoweeks"Ismi
l
ed
she'
saboutt
ogi
vebir
thanyt
imenow
Her:
"Andwhyar
eyousmi
l
ing?
"
Me:"Ij
ustcan'
twai
ttomeetmypr
incess"she
r
oll
edhereyes
Me:"af
tergi
vi
ngbi
rt
hwhat
syourpl
ans?
"I
wascur
ious
Her:
"WellIwi
l
ldi
vor
ceyourassandmovet o
anot
herci
tywi
thmybaby,st
artanewl
ife
somewher
eoutofKZNandconti
nuest
udying"
Me:
"youwi
l
lser
iousl
ydi
vor
ceme?
"
Her:
"Zweliy
ou'
vehurtmei
nthemostpai
nful
wayIcan'
tj
ustf
orgi
veyouj
ustl
iket
hat"
Me:"I
'm wi
l
li
ngt
odoany
thi
ngsot
haty
oucan
f
orgi
veme"
Her:"onlyi
fyouwi
l
lacceptmyr
elat
ionshi
p
wit
hNat han"
Me:
"ayIcan'
tdot
hat"
Her:
"thenf
orgeti
t"shest
oodup
Me:
"wher
ear
egoi
ngnow?"
Her:
"Ithi
nkit
sti
meforyoutoleavenow"she
put
sherhandsar
oundherwaist,Ismil
edshe
l
ookedsocutewi
thherbi
gtummy
Me:"y
oulooksocut
ewheny
ou'
reangr
y"she
gav
eablankface
Me: "okayI'
m gone"Il i
mpedtothedoorand
l
eft..Herfat
herdi dmegood Iwasin
hospital
forl
iket woweeksormor ewel l
menot
beabletowal kwasj ustatemporalt
hing,Iwas
usingawheel chairbutnowI '
m onmycr unches
Iknewhewoul dnev erletmegolikethateasi
ly,
wedrovebacktothehotelIhadnothi
ngt
odo
butj
ustl
azyaroundIcan'tdoanyt
hingwi
thmy
l
egli
kethi
s
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Thepastt hreemont hshey, theyhavebeen
bli
ssful I 'veneverhadt hi
smuchf uni nmy
l
ifeit
swasI '
mi nanewwor ldandNat han
he'sbeent r
eat i
ngmegood, thesex
guysdon'tblamemei tsbabyNi nj
ashebeen
cravi
ngforsomeawhi l
eIknowsomeofy ou
thi
nkI'm hoeringorIdon'trespectmyselfbut
beingpregnantany t
hinghappensal otandas
forZwel i wel l he'sbeengoodIwi llj
ustsay
he'si nmygoodsi de, hegi vesmeev er y
thingI
wantandneed, heboughtev eryt
hingwhenI
meanev er
ythingImeaner r
thi ngthatt hebaby
mi ghtneed, t
henur seryisupandr eadyal li
n
whi teandpi nk. .OhandDadmygr eatestki ng
all
owedmet odat eNat hani sn' tt
hatgood? ?
ThouIhadt odoal otofbl ackmai li
ngand
hoooohwhathedi dt oZwel iwasepi c cal l
mecr azybutIenj oy sseei nghi mliket hi
s
somet hi
ngi t
st ur nsmeon butheywhenev er
I'
mf eeli
ngliket hatIdon' tev enhesi tatet ocall
Nat han. .
.AfterZwel ihaslef tIdeci dedt ocall
Nat hanasIwasf eelinganunbear abl epai non
myabdomi nal Ithoughti twasj ustBr axton
hicksasI '
m usedt oititsrangunanswer edI
pacedar oundt her oom ast hatal way scal ms
medownandt hepai nusual lyeaseup
Mybabybagi
sal
way
sreadyIcal
l
edMom
Me:
"Mom wher
ear
eyou?
"
Mom :"I
'
m sorrybabyI'minami ddl
eof
somethi
ngIwillcal
lyoulaterChao!
!"IsighedI
gott
acal
lDadIt ri
edbutitsentmest r
aightto
voi
cemailIst
art
edcryingIhadnochoi ceIhave
tocal
lZweli,
heanswer ed
Me:"Ithi
nkshe'
scomi
ng!!"Ihungupaftera
hourorsoZweli
cameIwasont hef
loorcryi
ng
Zwel
i:"babear
eyouokay?
?Ohy
ouj
ustpeed
onyoursel
f"
Me:
" mywat
erbr
oke"
Zwel
i:
"Shi
t!!"hest
oodt
her
est
il
l
Me:"ZWELI
THINIMORGANZULUWHYARE
YOUSTANDINGTHERE??YOUSHOULDBE
FUCKI
NGHELPINGMEBUTNO? !"
Zweli:"I'
m sorr
ybabyj
ustthatIwasn'
t
expectinghertocomethi
ssoon"hepi ckedme
upbridalstyl
e
Me:
"IswearIy
ouhav
etodr
opmeIwi
l
lki
l
lyou
"
Zwel i
:"Iwon't!Justt rustme"hel impedwi t
h
meandsl owlyplacedmei nabackseatandhal f
raninsidetogett hebabybagandt heguar d
droveof fIwaspr essingmyt eethtogether
avoidingtoscream asIwasf eeli
ngt hi
s
undescr i
bablepain..Thi smustbet helongest
dri
vei nmyl i
fewef i
nallygoti
nthehospi tal
the
nursescamehol dingawheel chairandIwas
tol
dt ositthereandIdi dIwasr ushedtot he
l
abourwar d/r
oom Il aidnthebedandt heDoc
came
Me:
"pl
easet
akeherout!
!"
Doc:"You'
resti
l
lfarIwi l
lcomebackafteran
hourortwo"sheleft..OkayIl
ookedather
l
eavingasiwasstil
lrecall
ingwhatshesaidI
'm
sti
l
lfar?
?Far??Shegot tabeki
ll
ingme, Zwel
i
gotinsl
owly
Me:
"Youmot
herf
ucker
!! y
ourbi
gheadbaby
doesn'twantcomeout!!NowIhavetosuf
fer!!
ZweliIhateyouwit
hthatanacondaofy
ours!!
Thi
sisal l
yourfaul
t!
!"Iwascryi
ng
Zwel
i
:"I
'
m sor
rybabyj
ustbepat
ient"
Me:"pati
ent?? youtell
ingaboutpati
ent??
Letmeshowy ouhowpat ientIam !
!"Imarched
tohi
m andtri
edtokickhisinjur
edlegbuthe
hel
dmesot ightasIwascr yi
ngnhi schest
Me:"Justgoandcallt
heDocZwel iIswearIwi
l
l
f
orgiveyouzIjustwantherout
!!"
Zweli:
"I '
m sor
rylove, j
ustwaitali
ttl
elonger"
hekissedmyf orehead. .TheDocgotinto
checkonmebutst i
l
l t
hisfucki
nbabywasst i
l
l
far Iwaswear ingthehospit
algownZwel i
wasout sideIj
ustlaidont hecol
dtil
esnakedI
tookoffthatuselessgownIopenedmyl egs
widel
yf acingt
hedooraf t
erfewminutesZweli
gotinhest opsassoonasheseesme
Zwel
i:
"babywakeupy
oucan'
tsl
eepont
hose
col
dti
lespl
usyourum.
..I
sal
lout"Iwasqui
etI
di
dn'
twanttot
alk
Zwel
i:
"I'
vecal
l
edt
hef
ami
l
ytheyont
hei
rway"
.
.
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n
Season2
I
nser
t16
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwal
kedt
oher,
myGodshewasal
ready
pushi
ngt
hebaby
Me:
"Don'
tpushbabe!"
Her:"Zwel
iIwantherout
-"asshewas
speaki
ngthedoct
orcamei nwit
hotherdoct
or
i
t'
swasamal edoctor
Doc1:"Ma'am pl
easecli
mbthest
air
sgeti
nbed
i
tsti
mef oryoutodel
ivernow"
Me:
"Whyi
sthi
sDocher
enow?
"
Doc1:
"hewi
l
lbehel
pingme"
Me:
"nomanwi
l
llookatmywi
fe'
scast
le!
!"
Her:
"Shutt
hef
uckupZwel
i
!!"
Me:
"NobabyIcan'
tl
ethi
m..No!
!"
Doc1:"Canyouchangetothese"thenurse
camewi t
hthosedoct
orsdeli
veryuni
form,I
quickl
ywenttothet
oil
ett
owearem . .Iwant
ed
tolookatmybabyasshe'sabouttocomeout..
IcamebackandAnele'
slegswer ewidel
y
openedli
keonthefl
oorIswearshe'smore
dr
amat
ict
hanIt
hought
Doc1:
"Youwi
l
lcutt
heumbi
l
ical
cor
d"Inod
Doc2:"Youcanst ar
tPushingIwi l
lcounti nto
thr
ee..1..
2..3Push! !"shestart
edscr eami ng
whilepushing, t
heDoccont inuedsayingt he
samet hi
ngov erAndov eragainuntil
Isawa
head Iwast akingav i
deothewer enur ses
nexttome, Itoldoneoft hem toholdt he
cameraIcan' ttakeithowdoesonedot his? ?
Canaheadr eallycomeoutt here??WasIbor n
l
ikethis??..Anel estar
tedscreamingl oudI
l
ookedbackGod ‍♂ t heheadwasout
thebodywasr emai ni
ng..Thent hi
ngsst arted
goinginslowmot henit
'swasl i
ghtoutf orme
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
IfIknewthatgiv
ingbirthi
sthi
shardIwould
haveabortedthebaby ‍♀ I'
m neverever
getti
ngpregnant..Idon'
twanttogothr
ough
thatagai
n orel seIwill
getasurr
ogatefi
nish
andklaar
.
Doc2:
"Justonepushandy
ouwi
l
lbef
ine"
Me:
"wai
t.
..Wh.
.er
eisZwel
i
??"
Doc1:"Hef ai
ntedandwer ushedhimtothe
otherr
oom he'sfi
nedon' tworryabouthi
mj ust
push!!"Idi
dasr equestedunt i
lIhear
dafaint
cryanditsbecamel ouderohGodshe' sal
iv
e. .I
cl
osedmyey eswithasmi l
e
.
..
Af
tert
wohour
s
Iwaswakenbypeopl emakingnoise,Islowly
openedmyear sandthewasMom andDad. .
Howdi dhegethere??Ilookednexttothem
thewasZwel i
'
sFam (HisMom andDadand
Mthunzi)thewasnosignofZwel iwher
ei she??
Mom wast hefir
stonetoseethatIwasawake
sherushestome
Mom :"I'
m sogl
ady
ou'
reawakeIwaswor
ri
ed
aboutyou"
Me:"I'
mfi
neMom Ij
ustwantt
oseemy
daught
er"
Mom : "Iwillcallanursetohelpy ouout"she
walkedoutl eavingmewi ththesepeopl ebusy
congr atulat
ingme Yer rIdon'thavetimefor
that..Mom camebackwi t
hawheel chai
randa
nurset heyhel pedmet othewheel chairandwe
wentt ot henur seryIwasnervous, excit
ed,
scaredIgotal lthesemixedemot ions
Me:
"canIf
ir
stl
ygoal
one?"t
heynod,
the
nursewheel
edmeinthewer
elotofbabi
es
there,
shedir
ect
edtomybaby
Me:"Cany
oucal
lZwel
iforme"shenodand
l
eft
Zweli:
"I'
m here"hewheeledmet
oourbaby,
I
tookheroutandcarri
edher myGod
she'
sbeautif
ul,Ist
art
edcryi
ng
Zwel
i:"she'
sbeaut
if
ul"Isni
ff
edIwasgetti
ng
emot
ionalbutwhowouldn'
tbe??Yourf
ir
stbaby
?
Me:
"yeahshei
s"herey
eswasst
il
lcl
osed
Zweli:"seemsl ikeshegotsomebi geyeslike
mommy"Ismi l
edatleastshehassomet hing
l
ikemi ne, shelookssomuchl i
keZwel i I '
m
alr
eadyj ealousmay bemynextbabywi lll
ook
l
ikeme. .Wai t!
!Nextbaby??I
'm nevergett
ing
pregnantev erAGAIN!!
Zwel
i:
"Whatar
eyout
hinki
ng?
"
Me: "Whydoesshehav
etol
ookl
i
key
ou?
"He
chuckl
ed
Me: "i
tsunfair"shestar
tedcryi
ngGosh!
‍♀ herv oicei
ssosweet, It
ookoutmy
breastandbr east
feedherassoonasmynippl
e
touchedhermout hshestart
edsucki
ngaarhmy
babywashungr y
Me:
"Nonkazi
mul
o"
Zwel
i:
"par
don?
"
Me:
"She'
sNonkazi
mul
o"
Zwel
i:
"Nonkazi
mul
oNt
ombi
zamazul
uZul
u"
Me:
"Per
fect "
Zweli
:"I
'
m sor
ryf
orwhatI
'
vedonet
oyoui
nthe
past"
Me:
"canwenott
alkaboutt
hisnow"
Zwel
i:
"I'
m sor
ry "Isi
ghed
Me:
"I'
vel
ongf
orgi
veny
ouZwel
iIdon'
tl
ike
hol
dinggr
udges"
Zweli:
"ThankYou"hekissedmycheek"And
thanksf
ormypr eci
ousli
ttl
eAngel"heki
ssed
hersweatyfor
ehead,shewasstil
lsucki
ngmy
nippl
eaymyNi njal
ovesfood !
!
.
.
.
Nt
ando
.
.
.
Igott
oAuntIwasbey
ondtheword"exci
ted"I
coul
dn'
tbel
i
eveweaboutt
ogetournewhouse,
newhomeandnewcars ‍♀
Me:
"Aunt
!!"shewasasl
eep
Aunt:
"youdon'
thav
etomakesomuchof
noi
se"
Me:"let
'sgo.
.Mami
l
ici
ousf
oundusapr
oper
house"
Aunt:
"youwokemeupf
orj
okes?
?"
Me:"I'
m ser
iousAunt..Lookattheseman"I
poi
ntedtwobodyguardthatweredriv
ingmycar
Aunt:
"whatar
etheydoi
ngher
e?"
Body
guar
d1:
"Ma'
am wewoul
dli
ket
ogo"
Me: "Auntl et'
sgo"shel ookedatmeamazed,
wet ookall ouri mportantdocument sandl ef
t
everyt
hingt here, wegoti nsidethecarIf el
t
dir
tyasIwasl ookingattheseat s, howcl eani s
thecar, whi l
eAunthast urneddar kbecauseof
notbathingev er yday..wedrov el
ike45mi nutes
wef oundt his6r oom housei tswasn' tfancybut
Iwasgr atefulf oritanditsmuchbet terthant he
bri
dge
Body
guar
d1:
"Wewi
l
lleav
ethecarher
e
,every
thingyouneedisinsi
dethereFood,
clot
hesev er
ythi
ngisthere"Theylef
tusing
anothercar,wegotinsidethehouseandJesus
i
tswasl i
keheaventhecoucheswer eleather
white,ki
tchendarkbrown t heceil
ing we
wenttocheckont heroom Auntwast hefir
st
onetochoosear oom butIletherbe
.
Thenextmorni
ngIr
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om
Mamili
cious
Me:
"Hel
l
o"
Her:"hopey ousett
li
ngi
nGood.
.Butt
odayI
haveaclientforyou"
Me:
"atwhatt
ime?
"
Her:
"around12andhewi
l
lbooky
ouf
ort
he
ni
ght"Isi
ghed
Me:
"okay"
Her:
"youbet
terdon'
tdi
sappoi
ntme.
.Thi
sisa
goodf
ri
endofmi
ne"
Me:
"Iwi
l
ltr
ynott
o"
Her:
"youbett
eratt
endthestri
pgroup,Idon'
t
wantmycli
enttohaveastuckful
lchi
cken..
Youmustl
earnhowt omov e"
Me:
"Iwi
l
lcome"
Her:
"bye!"wehungup..NowIhav
etofacemy
f
ears . .Lor
dwalkwi
thmeasI'mtaki
nga
r
oughpath
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t17
2y
ear
slat
er
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Me:
"Wozal
aNkazi
!!(comeher
eNkazi
)"
Nkazi:
"Amfuni(No)"IswearI
'
m goi
ngt
oki
l
l
t
hischi
ldofmine
Zwel
i:
"MaZul
ucomet
odaddy"sher
ant
o
Zwel
i
'ssi
de
Me:"I'm st
il
lgoingtohi
tyou!!Youcan'
tmess
upwi t
hmyl oti
onliket
his!
!"WhenIgottoour
bedroom ,Nkaziwastheremessingwithmy
stuf
f,mybodyl otionwasalli
nherfaceand
hands
.
.
Wel lal lIcan'tsayi sthepastt woy ear shas
beengood, Idi dbr okeupwi thNat han I
want edt ofocusonmeandmyNkazi well al
il
i
nci denthappenedandNaycaughtmewi th
Zwel i maki ngout(Ki ssing) thatwher e
ourf ightst artedandIendedupendi ngt hingsI
coul dn'tjustbewi t hhim bef orethei ncidenthe
wasget ti
ngsocl i
ngyandmor ei nsecur e. .He
usedt ocal lmeev erytimeImeanev eryt i
me
andi twast i
ri
ngenoughabouthi m ..Zweli
boughtmeanewhouseasasi gnofaski ngfor
forgiv enessandt wocar s andIdi df orgive
him butI '
m notget t
ingbackwi thhi m andIgot
mydegr ee Igr aduat edlasty earIwasdoi ng
myBcom Account ingy eahIwentt oacol lege
sinceIcoul dn'tgot ouni versit
yandNkazi was
hereIcoul dn'tl eavehernotmybaby y ou
knowhowcol legewor ksmydegr eewasf our
year sandi neacht ri
mest ercov esay ear '
swork
meani
ngasuni
ver
sit
iesusual
l
yadegreei
ts
f
ouryear
sbuti
ncoll
egeit
soneyear
.
.
Me:
"Zwel
iyoubet
terl
ethergo"
Zwel i:"
Nocomebabel et'sgo"t heywal kedout
ofmybedr oom ,yeahZwel iusual l
ycomest o
seeNkazi maybestayf oraweekendt hat'sall
heusedt heguestroom whi l
eI'
m usi ngmi ne
shar i
ngwi t
hNkaz ibutshe'soldenoughnow, I
cleanedt hemessIcansayI '
m ahappymom at
theageof20Icont inuedcleaningandIwal ked
downst ai
rswhileIwaswal kingt heloungewas
fi
lledwi t
hlaughterandNkazi '
sbol dv oicewas
thehi ghestIshowedmyheadandt heykept
qui et
Me:
"Ni
thul
elani
?(Whyar
eyouqui
et)"
Nkazi:
"Ani
thi
wenaMamanaufunaukuni
shay
a
(becausey
ouMom youwantt
ohitme)"
Me: "Iwon'thi
tyou,
comehel
pmemake
breakfast"shej
umpedof
fZweli
andr
antome,
shehol dsmyhandandwewal
kedtot
he
ki
tchen
Me:
"Sodl
ani
?(whatwi
l
lweeat
?)"
Nkazi:
"Minanizodl
aamaKhof esi
andMamana
nodaddynidl
aiphal
ishi
(Iwi
lleatcor
nflakes
andyouanddadwi l
leatpor
ri
dge)"Ilaughed
Me:"Butwenay oudon'twantt
oeatpor
ri
dge
youwantustoeatit"shenods
.
Icarr
iedonmakingbreakfastwhil
elist
eningto
Nkaziblabbi
ngaboutwhattheywer etalki
ng
withherdad af t
erthatIwenttosett hetabl
e
outsi
dei t
swasasunnydayonNov emberonon
5Sept emberwehadNkazi's2year
sbi r
thday
..
.
Me:"Comelet
'sgoit
sti
metosleep!"Zweli
wasleav
ingt
odayandNkazi
alwaysthrowsa
tant
rum whenev
eri
tst
imef
orherdadt
oleav
e,
sheshookherhead
Zweli
:"Iwi
ll
wakeupinthemorni
ngandleav
e"
Inodandsatdownonthecouch,
healsoset
s
down
Zweli
:"i
tswasgr
eatspendi
ngaweekendwi
th
youandZama"Hecall
sherZama
Me:"itswasgreatindeed"sil
entcloudedus,I
car
riedonwatchingthet.v,
Nkazi wassleepi
ng
onZwel i
'
schest,Iusedtosleeptheretoo
butnotanymore
.
.
.
Nt
ando
.
.
.
Twoy ear sneh! !I'
vebeenwor kingf or
Mami li
ciousf ort wof ul
ly ears, Ican'tbel i
ev eit
butiti swhati tis,thefirsttimewashor ri
bleas
i
t'
shasn' tregisteredi nmymi ndt hatI '
m selli
ng
mybodyandsoul j
ustbecauseofmoney
‍♀ butwhatchoi cedoIhav e? ?Idon' thav e
oneIcoul dn'tliveundert hebr i
dgemywhol el i
fe
...NowI 'ml eavingt hedr eam t heluxur ylif
e,
sippingcockt ail
s, weav es, nailsIl ookl i
kea
mi l
l
iondol l
ar peoplecal l
smeasl ayqueen
andbabeIdosl ay I '
vebeenwi thMrMdl uli
myBl essert heoneIgoti nt hehouse
(Mami lici
ous'scl ub)he' st heonl ycl i
entI '
ve
beensl eepingwi t
h, he'
smar r
iedbutdoIcar e??
No .Notr eal l
y, Auntgothersel faman I
didint r
oducedhert oMami andt heyt urnedout
tobegoodf ri
endszt hey'vebeengoi ngout,
hiki
ng, vacat i
onsy ounamedt hem
.
Igotacall
from Mdl
uli
he'
snott
hatol
d
probabl
yAunt'
sageofmore
Me:
"Babe"
Hi
m:"Wher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:"I
'
mi nmyhouse"I
'
veupgr
adednol
onger
l
iv
ingi
nthatl
amehouse
Him: "I
'm comi ngbabe"hehungup, nowIgot
preparemysel f,
I'
vebeenwanti
nghimy earni
ng
forhim andf uckmesideswayhissexgame
I'm att
achedtohi
sdickeveryti
mehe
comeswi thnewpositi
ons,GuysIthinkI
'v
e
caughtfeelings ‍♀ andi t
snotpartofthe
fucki
npl an...
Ihear daknowonmydoorIwaswear i
ngmy
blackcoatthewasnothi
ngunderneat
hit,I
stoodupandwentt oopenit,i
t'
swashi m
l
ooki ngravi
shi
nginhi
ssuit
she'snotyour
typicalBl
esserwi
thabigbel
lynaar
hmi ne
wor ksoutheknowsIli
ketouchi
nghisabs
Him:"CanIcomein"hi
scolognebl
owmy
nost
ri
lsIf
eltmykneesget
ti
ngweak
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"Il
ethi
min
Me:
"canIgety
ousomet
hingt
odr
ink?
"
Him:"NoIwanty ou"hecamecl oserandhe
sl
owlymov edhiscoldhandsonmyneckIget
goosebumps, hepl
acedhi sl
ipsonmi ne
wit
houtmov i
ngthem helikesdoingthatwhich
meansIshouldbet hefi
rstonetokisshi mI
wonderifhedoesthistohiswifeoritsjustme
??
Ist
art
edkissi
nghim, hi
sotherhandtr
avel
edto
mycoatandslowlyunti
esmycoatbelt,he
sl
owlypusheditwi
thoutbr
eakingtheki
ssand
i
tsfel
ldownexposingmynakedbody
Hi
m:"Il
ikehowyourmindwor
ks"hesenti
tto
mybut
tcheekandspanksme
Hi
m: "Lettakest
hist
ot hebedroom "Iwr
apped
mylegsaroundhiswaistIknewitaboutt
ogo
down,
roughsexonl
y
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
Her:"Shecan'
tkeepqui
etbabe"shewas
cr
yingtoo
Me:"giv
ehert
ome"shegav
emebaby
Dani
ell
e
Me:"Whyar
eyoucryi
ngmybeaut
if
ulangel
?"
She'
sonl
y4months
Jor
dan:"Whataboutmedaddy?Am Ino
l
ongery
ourangel?"
Me:
"Youar
ebabyy
oubot
har
emyAngel
s"
Jor
dan:
"Il
ovey
oudaddy"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oobaby"
Jor
dan:
"canwegoandv
isi
tgr
andma"
Me: "Wewi l
lgo"Dani ell
ewasnowqui et,and
sleepi
ngIwentt oputherdownandcar r
ied
Jordanwentdownst ai
rs,wewat chedher
favori
tecartoons" Sophiathefi
rst".Theset wo
yearshasn'tbeeneasyIwasst il
lgett
ingov er
thefactthatAnel ebrokeupwi t
hmeandIsent
myf ocust oJordanandmom di dmanagedt o
setmeupwi t
hSIf i
nal
lygaveinnowwear e
engagedandshehasgi vi
ngbi
rthtomysecond
daughterDani el
leIcan'tsayI'
m happy but
I'
m war mingupt ot heideaofbeingwithS,
she'sacool girl
butnotcool enoughf ormebut
Ihopeast i
mesgomay beIwil
llearntoloveher
j
ustl i
kewhatMom sai d
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Aft
erputti
ngdownZamaIwentt othel
ounge
whereherMom wasseated,I'
mtir
edofhidi
ng
thi
s,Iknowwearesti
ll
mar r
iedbutIwantusto
workonourmarri
age
Me:
"Youst
il
lher
e"
Her:"YeahI
'
m waiti
ngfort
hisSophi
etoendso
Icangoandsleep"Inodandsetnextt
oher
watchi
ngher"Sophi
e"
Me:"canItal
ktoy
ou?"Shewasst
andi
ngupas
herSophi
ewasover
Her:
"can'
ti
twai
tti
l
lmor
ning?
"
Me:
"noi
tscan'
t"shesatdown
Me:
"LookAnel
eIwantust
ofi
xourmar
ri
age
I'
mt i
redofpr
etendi
ngl i
keIdon'
twantyoubabe
causeIdoeveryfr
eakenday, pl
easet
akeme
backandIcanseet hatyou'
reheal
ednow
..
pleasebaby"
Her:
"CanIt
hinkaboutt
his?
"Inod
Her:"Goodnight"shest
oodupandleft,
I
fol
lowedher, Zamawassleepi
nginmyroom ,I
heardtheshowergoingIwenttosi
tonherbed
waiti
ng,whenshegotoutshewasshockedt o
seeme
Her:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e!!
"
Me: "um..
.IthinkIhavegiv
eny out oomuch
ti
menow"Ist oodupandwal kedt ooher, GodI
wasdy i
ngwi thdroughtTwofuckiny ear
s
‍♀ , Iplacedmyhandst oherhi psand
pull
edhertome, Iwasshockedt hatshedi dn'
t
askanyquest i
onsbutgowi thaflow, Istarted
ki
ssinghersheki ssedmeback I
pi
ckedherupandpl acedhertothebed
Me:
"MayI?
"Shenods
I
tsaboutt
ogodown!
!
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t18
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Iwokeupwi t
hZwel i
'slegwr appedar oundme, I
l
ookedar oundIcameacr ossmy
under gar mentst heni t
sr egisteredi nmymi nd
thatyeahwedi dsl eept ogether, itswasj ust
sexI '
m notget ti
ngbackwi thhi m hehasn' t
sufferedenough, andi tswi l
l neverbeenough
causeIst il
lgotthatscari nmysoul asa
reminderofpai n, thev erysamepai nhecaused
, Ihatet osayt hatI '
mv ulnerablear oundhi m,
hemakesmef eelweakl ikeI'm underaspel l
, I
mov edhi slegandwentt obat h,washi ngal lthe
dirt
yI'v ebeenupt ocal lmeahoebutIdon' t
care, Ireallyneededt hismay beIwi l
lfunction
wel l
nott hatIwasn' tfunct i
oni ngbutt hewas
somet hingMi ssingt hef ucken2y ear sIwasn' t
getti
ngl aid any wayenoughaboutt hatasI
wasbat hingIf el
thi spresentIt houghthewas
sleeping
.
Hi
m:"Youl
eftmeal
one,
theBedwascol
d
wi
thouty
ou"
Me:"Ineededt
obat
h,pl
usNkazi
wil
lbeawake
any
timenow"
Hi
m:"Abouty
est
erdayi
-"Ist
oppedhi
m
Me:
"Let
'
snott
alkabouti
t"
Hi
m:"Iwantust
ofi
xourmar
ri
age"hebr
ushed
myback
Me: "Justbecausewehadsexdoesn'
tmean
I
'm agreei
ngtot hatnonsense"
Hi
m:"Don'
ttal
kli
ket
hat"
Me:
"Don'
ttel
lhowt
otal
k!Thi
sismyhouse"
Hi
m:"i
sther
eaneedf
ory
out
oshout?
"
Me:"Ican'
tdothis!I
tsst
il
learl
yinthemorni
ng
andal
readyI'
mfighti
ngwithyou..Justl
eave
bef
oreNkazicanwakeup"hesi ghed
Hi
m:"YouknowIhavebeenpati
entwi
thyou!
I
'mti
redofy
ourst
inki
ngatt
it
udeift
hathowyou
wanti
tthensobei
t!
"Hel
eftt
hebat
hroom
Me:"Youhavenor i
ghttoshoutatmeinmy
ownHouse!!Justbecauseyouboughti
t,i
t
doesn'
tmeany ouhavear i
ghtt
odowhatever
shi
tyouwant"hechuckl ed
Him:"whatexact
lyi
swrongwi
thyou?Arey
ou
havi
ngregr
etsonwhatwedidl
astni
ght?
"
Me: "Yes!Nowgetout"hesl ammedt hedoor
walkingout, Isighedandsatonbed,whatis
happeni ngtome?What '
swrongwit
hme?Why
am Ibl aminghimi ncaseofme?Iwast heone
whol ethimi n..IwalkedtowhereNkaziwas
sl
eepi ngandt ot el
lyoushewasplayi
ngwith
herdol ls
.
Me:"HawuhIt houghty
ouwer
esl
eepi
ng"she
shocksherhead
Me:"Comel
et'
sgoandeatbr
eakf
astandwe
wi
l
lgoandVisi
tGr
andma"
Nkazi
:"uu.
.uMaKhumal
okaZul
u?"
Me:
"Yes"
Nkazi:"Amf uni
Minani
funaukuyobona
umkhul uobumv u(NoIwanttogoandseet
he
l
ightskingrandpa)"Il
aughed
Me:
"Bakudenze(t
heyf
araway)"
Nkazi
:"Sogi
bel
aimot
ov r
oom v
room si
sheshe
si
fi
ke(wewil
luseacarandwewil
lar
riv
eearly)
"
Me:"Okaylet'
smecallUmkhuluobomvuseei
f
he'
sav ai
l
able"Iwal
kedout,it
samazemehow
Nkazihasgrownup, sheknockedonmydoor
bef
oregetti
ngin
Me:
"ButIdi
dn'
tsaygetI
n"
Nkazi
:"HawuhMamanabutwenabut
hul
e(But
Mom youwerequi
et)
"Il
aughed
Me:"Comesi
tnextt
ome,sowecanvi
deocall
Mkhul
u"shest
ruggl
edcl
i
mbingt
hebed,she
f
rownasshewasdef
eat
ed
Nkazi:
"MamanaSiza!
!(Mom hel
p)"Ipi
cked
herup,
andwecal
ledDad
Vi
deoCal
l
Me:
"HeyDad!
!"
Nkazi
:"HawuhuMkhul
uuv el
akuT.
v(Gr
andpa
i
sappeari
nginT.
v)"Il
aughed
Dad:
"Hel
l
oNkazi
"
Nkazi
:"Mkhul
uMinani
funaukuzakuwena(I
wantt
ocomet oy
ou)"
Me:"Nkaziwhydon'
tyougr
eetMkhul
ufi
rst
bef
oresayi
ngwhatevery
ouwantedt
osay"
Nkazi
:"Mkhul
u?"
Dad:"Comev
isi
tme"shecl
appedhert
iny
hands
Nkazi:"Uy
aphi
lauNkazi
Mkhul
u(I
'
mfi
ne
Grandpa)"Il
aughed
Dad:
"Uy
aphi
l
auMkhul
ukaNkazi
(I'
m al
sof
ine)
"
Nkazi
:"MamanaUNkazi
ulambi
l
e(I
'
m hungr
y)"
Me: "Igott
agoDadby e"wewav edgoodby e
andIclosedmyLapt opwentdownst ai
rsto
makebr eakfastforus..Livi
ngwithherit'
sain'
t
muchofapr oblem she'sdoingf
ine,those
somet i
messheact scrazybutIl
ov eher
regardl
ess
.
..
Wear ri
vedi nDur banatnightIwasdr i
vi
ngslow,
havingar oadtripwithmybabyandl ooki
ng
backatthel if
eIwasl ivi
ngbef or
et hemonst er
zwelicamei ntomyl i
febutnow. .Now
there'
sNkazi myWor l
d, Myev ery
thingIcan't
i
magi nelifewithouther Iwi ll
takeabul let
from her
Nkazi
:"Mamana"
Me:
"Yes"
Nkazi
:"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"Iloveyoutoobabe"Icar r
iedherinsi
de
butbecauseshe'sadivashewant edt
owal kby
herown, peopleweresleepi
ngbutNkazi being
Nkazishestar
tedscreamingcalli
ngeveryone's
name
.
Nkazi
:"Mkhul
u!!Gogo!
!"
Me:"Nkazi
!Peopl
earesleepi
ng,l
etgoand
sl
eepyouwil
lseethem t
omorrow"
Nkazi:
"Nizol
alanoGogoMi
na(Iwi
l
lsl
eepwi
th
Grandma)"
Me:
"AyIgotenoughspacef
orbot
hofus"
Nkazi
:"Amf
uni
"shef
rowns
Dad:"What
'supwit
hthenoi
se?"shescr
eamed
,shewasfr
ight
enbyDad,Il
aughed
Nkazi
:"Mkhul
u!!I
..
..
inhl
i
ziy
oyaNkazi
ibuhungu
(Myhearti
ssore)"
Dad:
"I'
m sor
rypr
incess"
Nkazi:
"WenaMkhul
uCi
shewani
bul
ala"I
l
aughed
Dad:"LikeGrandma,LikeMother,
li
ke
Daughter"welaughedcausi
ngNkazitol
ookat
usli
kewegr ewsomehor ns
Me: "I'
m goi
ngt osleepDad. .
.Ohbytheway
she'
ssl eepi
ngwi t
hy ou"Irantomyroom .
.
Nothinghaschangedmuch, Ical
l
edTeeasI
wasdonehav i
ngmyni ghtbath
Tee:"Ineverthoughtbeingamom i
sthishar
d!!
I
'm neveradopti
ngev eragai
n"Il
aughedIcan
hearbabyNjabuloscreaming
Me: "i
tsonl
yabegi
nni
ngmyFr
iend,
Whyi
she
cr
ying?"
Tee:"Idon'
tknowchommi
e,he'
sbeencr
ying
thewholeday"
Me:
"Takehi
mtot
hedoct
or"
Tee:"Idi
dwentt
othedoctorhesawnothi
ng
wrong..I
'
vet
ri
edever
ythi
ngnothingwor
ks"
Me:"Don'
tworr
ybabehe'
sst
il
ladj
ust
ingt
oa
newenvi
ronment"
Tee:"Njabulo!?..Iwi
ll
cal
lyouback"Ilaughed
he'spani
ckingt oomuch,babiescr
iedeveryday
Right?Nkazi hadabadhabit,sheusedto
sl
eepi mtheev eningandbeawakeduring
11pm andabov e
.
.
Tee
.
.
.
Firstt
imehavi
ngaP. o.
v butaf
terI
receiv
edacallf
rom Therese,
Nj abulostar
ted
throwingupmypoorbabyhel ookedsowear,
Bongzgoti
nsi
det
henur
ser
yaf
terIwasdone
cl
eani
nghim
Bongz:
"What
'swr
ongbaby?
"
Me:"Ihav
edoneev er
ythi
ngi
nmypowerto
makehim cal
m downbutnot
hingi
swor
king
"
Bongz:"Givehimtome. "hetakesthebaby
andplaywithhim,It
swashi sideat
oAdopt
yeahIdroppedoutofschoolbutconti
nuedin
Ethekwi
niCol l
eget
oavoidfeesnowI '
m done
withmydegr ee
Bongz:"What'
swr
ongboyboy?
"Hekept
hushi
ngNjabul
oasti
megoeshi
scr
iesst
art
ed
totur
ndown, t
hedev
ilson!
!
Bongz:
"Iguessheneededmymagi
chandst
o
makehi
m calm"
Me:
"Don'
tfl
att
ery
our
sel
f"
Bongz:
"I'
m ser
ious!
!Whywoul
dhekeepcal
m
andqui
etwhenIhol
dhi
m?"
Me:
"soy
ousay
ingI
'
m abadDad?
"
Bongz:
"NobabeIwasjustki
ddi
ng"Ilooked
awayIcan'
tbel
i
evehe'
ssuggest
ingt
hatI'
ma
badfat
her
Bongz:
"don'
ttel
lmey
out
ookt
hist
oyourhear
t
"
Me:"youcan'
tjokeli
kethi
s!"HeputNjabul
oon
hi
scotanddraggedmeoutoft heroom ,went
st
rai
ghttoours..
.Yesheboughtusahouse, as
wegotinhelockedthedoorandcamet osi
t
wi
thmeont hebed
.
Bongz:"BabelookI
'm sor
ryforwhatIsaid
earl
ier,
youtheBestDadev erj
ustbecause
todayhe'
swasov er
boarddoesn'tmeany ou'
re
bad"
Me:
"doy
ouhav
etosayov
erboar
d?"we
l
aughed
Bongz:
"Isawi
tfi
ttousei
t"
Me:
"Nev
erusei
tagai
nthatmyson!
"Hesmi
l
ed
Bongz:
"Idon'
tregr
etchoosi
ngy
ouamong
ot
hers"Ibl
ushed
Me:
"Okaywe'
reol
dfort
his"
Bongz:"Okayifyousayso"hekissedmycheek
andwentbackt othest
udio,Il
aidonthebed
thi
nkingaboutmylif
e,thepastt
woy ear
swere
adisaster
.
Mom knewIwasgaybutDadhadapr oblem
withitwhenBongzf ami
lycamet opayi Lobolo
Idi
dt r
iedtost ophim butnohegoahead,
yohhht hewayDadwassodev astatedwhen
theystart
edpr aisingourclansnamepl usI'm
theonlychildi
nt hefamil
ysoj usti
magi nehow
hef el
t,Dadcur sedt hem evencastedont hem ,
buttheynev ergaveupt hecameagai nthenext
mor ning,Dadsawi tfi
ttodisownmesoIwi l
l
notbr i
ngshamet ohim, sowedecidedt hat
l
et'sjustgettocourtandgetmar ri
edt here,hi
s
fr
iendswer ethewitnessIhadnooneonmy
si
deev enTheresasti
lldoesn'
tknowt hatI'
m
mar ri
ednow, i
nmyt houghtIfel
lasleep
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
.
Theonl yal
armthatwakesmeupi sDaniel
le
thatchil
dcancrythewholeni
ghtandstartover
againinmorning,Ist
oodupwalki
ngtoher
room thewasnoonet her
eItookherst
ar t
ed
wal
ki
ngupanddownt
okeephercal
m,Sgoti
n
wi
thherbot
tl
e
.
Me:"Iwi
l
lfeedher"sheki
ssedmycheekand
wal
kedout,IsatdownandgaveDani
ell
eher
mil
k
Me:"Whydoyouli
kescreamingbaby
?Like
someonei
shurt
ingyou?"shewasquietnow
anddonewi
thhermil
k
Dani
ell
e:"ghdrfhgnl
m"Ilaughed,
shel
aughed
showi
nghert oothl
essgums
Me: "Iloveyoubabe"Ist oodupwi t
hherasI
wasf i
xinghertopGUNSHOTS! !Iquicklywent
toli
edownwi t
hDani ell
ewhowasqui etnow, I
putDani el
leothecouchandwentt osear chfor
mygunIpeakedt hroughthewindowt hewer e
BlackSUVssur roundingourhouse, shitIknew
I
'm screwed
.
Me:
"Ki
ngIneedy
ourhel
p"
Ki
ng:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Me:"It
hinkJacksonknowsIst
olehi
s
di
amondsandnowhe' satt
acki
ng"
King:
"Shi
t!
!Myboy
sar
ecomi
ng"Jor
dancame
tomecryi
ng
Jor
dan:
"DadI
'
m scar
ed!
"
Me:"TakeyourMom andgotoy ourpani
c
r
oom"sheleft,Il
ookonthecouchandDaniel
l
e
wascover
edinblood
Me:"No!I tscan'tbe"Irushedtoherchecked
herpul
sebutshewasdead, t
heykilledmy
daughter!IturnedheraroundandIsawbul l
ets
3fucki
nbul let,Ipickedherli
fel
essbodyasI
heardthedoorbr eakingdownst ai
rsIrushedto
thepanicroom , soonasIgoti nSr ushedtome
.
S:
"ThankGodIwaswor
ri
edt
hatIl
eftmybaby
behi
nd,gi
vehertome"Ishookmyheadit
s
washardr
eal
lyhardhol
dingy
ourbabywhi
l
e
she'
sdead
S:"She'
sasl
eepr
ight
?"Inod,
myphoner
angi
t
wasKing
Me:
"Hel
l
o"
Ki
ng:
"Myboy
sar
ether
e"
Me:
"Okay"
Ki
ng:
"ar
eyouokay?
"
Me:
"Igot
tago"Ihungup
Jor
dan:
"Daddy"
Me:
"Yesbaby"
Jordan:
"Cany ouhol
dmeI'
m scar
ed"att
his
ti
meIdon'tknowwhattodo
Me:
"Babygot
oyourMom "
Jordan:"butdadIwantyou!"Isi
ghedt
hisi
s
tougherthanIthought
Me:"SIgot
tat
ell
yousomet
hing"herey
es
wer
ered
Me:"Dani
ell
eisdead"shestoodupand
wal
kedtome, hetookDani
ell
eshesawthe
bl
oodandstart
edcryi
ng
S:"Nobabyy oucan'
tdienow,pleasebaby"
shekeptonkissi
ngherli
ps"Nathanshe' snot
moving!They
..t
heyki
ll
edmybabyy ourfucki
n
peopleki
ll
edmybaby !
!Ihatey
ouNat hann"she
waswai l
i
ngwhi l
ehol
dingbabyDaniell
e, my
phonerangagain
Me:
"Yes"
Jackson:
"theymanagedtoki
l
lmyboy
sbutwi
l
l
theymanagedthewholear
my? "
Me:"l
eav
emet hefuckaloneJacksonIdon'
t
knowwhofucki
ntookyourdiamonds"
Jackson:"Youwil
lknowsoon"hehunguphow
di
dheget smynumber, Ir
ecei
vedacall
agai
n
fr
om Kingthist
ime
.
King:
"Thecoastiscl
ear"Ihungup,Il
ooked
backatmyli
tt
lefamil
y,Ineverpl
anedanyof
thi
s
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwast i
redondancingt ohertune,ifshe
doesn'twantmebacki tsokayIwon' tbegher,I
walkedtomyol dhousey esIliveal
onebutI
haveawi feandadaught erIquickl
ywentto
takeabathIwasr unninglateIhadameet ing
withapotenti
ali
nvestorsIhadst ar
tupa
business,myP.acalledme
.
Kwanel
e:"MrZul
uyourcl
i
ent
shav
ear
ri
ved"
Me: "I
'm comi
ngNownow"Icar r
iedon
dressi
ng, mybl
acksui
tandrusheddownstai
rs,
gotinsi
demycaranddroveofftowork..
Igoti
nsi
det
heboar
droom ,
theyl
ookedangr
y
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryf
orbei
ngunpr
ofessi
onal
"
Cli
ent1:"Goodl
ethopey ouwon'twaistour
ti
mef ur
ther"t
heothersaid"
Yeah"Ist ar
tedmy
present
ati
on,Iwasusingfewvisualaids,Ican
saytheyseemedimpressed
Cl
i
ent
1:"I
'
minv
est
ing"Ismi
l
ed
Cl
ient2:"I
'mintoo,l
et'
shopenextti
meyou
won'tkeepuswaiti
ng"theyl
aughed,atl
eastI
madet hem comeonboard
Cl
i
ent
1:"Cal
lmeMrMdl
uli
"Inod
Cl
i
ent
2:"MrJackson"Inodagai
n
Me:"I
'mlooki
ngf or
wardtousworki
ngt
oget
her
"Iwal
kedthem out,sai
dourgoodby
esnowI'
m
l
essstr
essed
Kwanel
e:"Thi
sneedsacel
ebr
ati
on"
Me:
"indeed"
Kwanel
e:"l
et'
sgoonat
ri
pwi
tht
het
eam "
Me:"soundsgreat,
emailmeev
ery
thi
ngwhen
youdone,eventhecost
s"
Kwanele: "Willdo"shewalkedoutIsatinmy
offi
cethinkingaboutmyni ghtwit
hAnele
thatwif
eofmydr i
vesmenut s!
!Wait Idi dn'
t
useprotectionbutshe'sprobabl
yonpill
right?
Ormay bet here'
sanotherZweli ohLor d
makeherpr egnant , MthunzigotinasIwas
daydreami ngaboutmyupcomi ngfamil
y
Mt
hunzi
:"penyofy
ourt
hought"
Me:"Nobrot
her,l
et'
sjustsayI
'
m happy"he
l
aughedandsatdown
Mthunzi:
"youhappybecausey
ougotnew
i
nvestor
s?"
Me:
"Thatt
oo"
Mt
hunzi
:"l
et'
sgoandhav
esomedr
inks"
Me:
"yeahsur
e!"
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t19
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Iwokeupandst ret
chedout, whenwast hel ast
ti
meIhadt hispeacef ulsl
eep?I 'm alwayswi th
Nkazi and ‍♀ Thewasshesl eep's my
babysl eepssobad! !EverytimewhenIwakeup
Iwillfi
ndherl egsnexttomyf aceandherf ace
onmyknees , Iwalkedt omybat hroom and
didmyhy gi
enepr ocessandwal keddownst air
s
...DidItell
y'allt
hatIappliedforaj obsui t
abl e
forme?Ican' tstayathomeandgui deNkazi
she'soldenoughnow, sheneedst oat t
end
crècheandI '
m wai ti
ngfort hei
rrecept i
onistto
comebackatme
.
Me:
"GoodMor
ningFami
l
y!"
Nkazi:
"Ki
sskiss"Ikneel
edt
oherl
evel
and
ki
ssedherpoutedl
ips
Mom :
"Mor
ning"Dadnods
Me:
"What
'sf
orbr
eakf
ast?
"
Nkazi
:"Grannysai
dwegoingtoeatpancakes!
Ani
thiMkhulu"shecl
appedhert
inyhands
Dad:
"Pancakei
tit"
Mom :
"Mom pl
easehel
pmewi t
hbr
eakf
ast"
shest
oodupandwewalkedinsi
det
hekit
chen
andst
art
edmaki
ngbreakf
astu
Mom :
"Noonehasgot
tenbackaty
ou?
"I
si
ghed
Me:"NobutI'
m st
il
lwai
ti
ngsomecompany
waspromi
sing"
Mom :
"asl
ongasy
ougotaj
obIwi
l
lbehappy"
Me: "Whenwasthelastyouheardf
rom my
si
stersi
tsl
iket
hedisappearedfr
om thefaceof
ear
th"
Mom :"Al
lIknowi
stheyst
il
lal
i
vet
hat
sal
l"I
l
aughed
Me:
"don'
twor
ryt
heywi
l
lcomear
ound"
Mom :
"Ihopesot
oo"
.
Wecarriedonmaki
ngbreakfastunti
lwewere
doneiservedmybabywhil
eMom ser vedDad,
weblessedthef
oodbefor
ewest ar
tedeat
ing.
..
.
Her eIwaswear ingmyshor tjumpsui tandmy
sandal si
tswaski ndahot ,Iwasheadi ngt othe
mal ltobuyf ewt hingsMom wast heonewho
sentme, may bei tsbecauseIwasst ressingas
noneoft hecompani eswer eget t
ingbackatme
soshedeci dedt ol etmej ustgot okeepmysel f
busy, Iwalkedi nsi detheMal l goi
ngst r
aightto
Pick'n'
Paythatwher eweusual lybuygr ocer i
es,
asIwast akingt het rol
leyIdidn'tnot i
cei t
shas
fewgr oceri
esi temsoni t Iunpackedt hem
andt ookthet rolleyIwasl aughingunt ilIheard
someonesay i
ng"Wher e'smyt r
olleynow? "I
turnedbackt olookatt hatperson, i
tswasa
guyIl
aughedIai
n'
ttaki
ngi
tback
.
Guy:
"Excuseme!
"Ist
oppedandl
ookedback
Guy:
"Gi
vemebackmyt
rol
l
ey"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"Yout
alki
ngt
ome?
?"henods
Me:
"whywoul
dIt
akey
ourt
rol
l
ey?
"
Guy:
"Buty
oudi
d,peopl
esawy
ou"
Me: "Idon'thav etimef orthis"Ipushedmy
trol
leywhi l
esilentl
ylaughi ngYer rrt
hisisfun. ..
Af t
erItookt henecessar yt hingsIwentt ot he
payt i
ll
topay, thatguyhadanewt roll
ey
l
or dIwillburninhel l
,Icont i
nuedpay ingafterI
wasdoneIt ookmypl asticsandpushedt he
trol
leynexttot heent r
anceandl i
ter
allyrant o
mycar Iopenedt hebootl oadedt he
groceri
esandj oggedt omysi de,asIstarted
theenginet hewasacarbl ocki ngmeIsi ghed
shit!
!Whydi dt hispersonhadt oparkbehindmy
car?Howshoul dIl eavenow?FuckIhat ethis!
NowIhav etowai tf orhis/herret ur
n, Il
ower ed
mycarseatasIwasf r
ust r
atedasev er. .How
couldt heydot hist ome? Af t
erwai t
ingf or
l
iket wof ull
hour st hatguygotoutt heent rance
Ilower edmysel fhiding i sti
l
l can'tbel i
eveI
didthat, hewal kedpastmycarandwentt o
thisti
nt edwi ndowcart hat'sjammedmeup, so
i
tshi scarneh?Idi dn'twantt ogo, Ilooked
backathi m, hewast alkingt othisguywho
wasi nsi dethecar ‍♀ ho. .wcome?Af t
er
theirtalkhewal kedawayassoonasIcoul dn't
seehi m any moreIgotoutofmycarandwent
toknockont hewi ndow, thewi ndowsl owly
roll
eddown
.
Me:"SirIwoul
dli
ket
ogohomebutIcan'
tdo
t
hatsinceyou'
rej
ammingmycar"
Dude:
"Iwasi
nst
ruct
edt
odot
his,
ify
ouhav
ing
pr
obl
emsy
oucangoandt
alkt
otheboss"
Me:
"wher
eisy
ourboss"
Dude: "InablackRanger"Il ookthr
oughoutthe
parkinglotandsawt hi
sbeautif
ulblackmatte
col
ourRanger, IwalkedtoitthoughIwas
nervousashel l,t
hiscariswayt ootallIj
ust
knockedont hedoor, t
hewindowr oll
eddown
Shit!
!Itswasthet r
olleyguy ‍♀
.
Guy:
"wemetagai
n"
Me:
"underdi
ff
erentci
rcumst
ances"
Guy:
"howcanIhel
pyou?
"
Me:"Ineedy
out
otel
lyourgoonst
omov
eI
wannagohome"
Guy:
"Idon'
thav
egoons"
Me:
"whatevertheyare,j
ustt
ell
them t
o
r
emovet
heirstupidcar"
Guy:
"Idon'
twantt
otel
lthem "hesmi
rked
Me:"Idon'
thav
eti
met
obegy
ou,
youknow
t
hatri
ght?"
Guy:"y
oubet
terstar
tcreat
ingt
hatt
ime,
you
knowwecandot hi
sthewholeday"
Me:"Fi
ne!Pl
easet
ell
yourf
ri
endst
omov
eI
wannago"
Guy:"i
tsfeel
sli
keademandsostartov
eragai
n
"hesmirkedagai
nwithahugegr
inonhisf
ace,
hecl
earlyenj
oysthi
s
Me:"ifIwasDEMANDI
NG!
!youwoul
dhav
e
not
iced!!
"
Guy:"I
'
m addi
ngmorehour
s"Ichuckl
edand
t
ookoutmyphone,Dadneedst
oknowabout
t
his
.
Me:"Daddyt
her
e'ssomecart
hat
'
sgi
vi
ngme
t
roubl
e"
Dad:
"wher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:
"int
heMal
l"
Dad:
"I'
m comi
ng!
"Hehungup
Me: "Thanksfornothi
ng"Itur
nedandwal ked
tomycar, Ididn'
twanttogeti
nsideIsatont he
pavementbusychecki ngmyemai l
sonthi
sf r
ee
Wi-Fi25+mi nutesIspott
edDad'scar,
Iwav ed
myhandhehoot edandgotoffthecar,hedid
hischarmerwal k
.
Dad:
"Thi
sist
hecar
?"Inod
Me:"butt
heownerisi
nthatbl
ackRanger"he
wal
kedtothecart
hatwasjammingme
Dude:
"Wear esorr
yTai
mawedi
dn'
tknowshe
wasyourdaught
er"
Dad:
"Nowthat'
syouknow,l
eav
eheralone"
t
hecarmovedIgoti
nsi
deanddr
oveoffwith
Dadf
oll
owi
ngme. .
.
Igoti
nsideandNkazirant ome,Ikneel
ed
downtoherl ev
elandpickedherup,ki
ssedher
al
loverherfaceshewasgi ggl
i
ngnonstop
Nkazi
:"Wewer
eeat
ingI
cecr
eam wi
th
gr
andma"
Me:
"Ohhr
eal
l
y?Wher
e'smi
ne?
"
Nkazi:
"Uphel
i
le(i
t'
sfi
nished)
"Shehi
desher
sel
finmyneck
Me:
"Younol
ongershar
ewi
thmenow?
"
Nkazi
:"Ani
thi
bungekho"
Me:
"OkayFi
ne!
"If
akedcr
ying
Nkazi
:"Sol
iMamana"
Me:
"Youwi
l
lshar
ewi
thme?
"Shenods
Me:"Let
'
sgoandeatsomesweet
s"she
cl
appedherhands
.
Iwal
kedtomybedroom wi
thasleepyNkazi,I
pl
acedherni
cel
yonthebed,tookmylaptop
andwentdownst
air
stocheckonmyemai ls,I
si
ghedbefor
eopeni
ngit
"DearCandi dat
eWesawy ourr equestandwe
werepleasedwi t
hyourqualif
ications, wewil
l
l
iketohav eaninter
viewwithy out omorrowat
12h:00..Formor ei
nfocontactsour
recepti
onistMrMartins031..
."Iscr eamed
j
umpi ngupanddowndoi ngtheThusophal a
dance ,
Mom cameanddancedwi thme
until
Iwast ir
ed
.
Mom :
"Okaywhyar
ewedanci
ng?
"
Me:
"JJcompanycamebackt
ome"
Mom :
"that
'sgr
eatnews"
Me:
"Ibet
tergoandpr
epar
eformyi
nter
view
t
omorr
ow"
Mom :
"Iwil
lhelpyoupicksui
tabl
eclot
hes"we
wal
kedupst
airs..Lor
dpleasewalkwit
hme
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Afterhavi
ngdr
inkswi
thMt
hunzi
Iwasabi
t
ti
psy, wewal
kedtomycar
Mt
hunzi
:"Yousur
eyouwi
l
lbeokay?
"
Me:
"I'
m nott
hatdr
unk"
Mt
hunzi
:"Idon'
twantAnel
etogocr
azyonme"
Me:"t
alki
ngabouther.
.Youknowthatwif
eof
mi
neisgivi
ngmemi xedemoti
ons"helaughed
Mt
hunzi
:"whatdi
dshedonow?"
Me:"Wewer egoi
ngontheri
ghtpat
hthen
suddenl
yshedoesn'
twantme"
Mt
hunzi
:"Whatdi
dyoudo?"
Me:
"Not
hing!
!"
Mthunzi
:"l
et'
shercool
down"Inodandgot
i
nsidemycar
Mthunzi:
"pl
easebesafe"Ihoot
edanddrov
e
of
f,whenIgottomyhouseIcall
edMthunzi
i
nforminghi
mthat'
sI'
m al
ri
ght
.
Iwasinmypyjamapants,l
ayi
ngonmybedI
deci
dedtocal
lAnel
eIwantedtospeakt
omy
babybef
oresl
eepi
ng,it
srang
Her:
"Hel
l
o"
Me:
"Hey,
canIspeakt
oZama"
Her:
"she'
ssl
eepi
ng"
Me:
"okayt
hanks"
Her:
"Sure"shehungup,Isi
ghedanddeci
ded
t
ocallKwanelemaybeshewil
lcheermeup
Me:
"Kwanza"shel
aughed
Her:
"Heyy
ou"
Me:
"Howar
ethepr
epar
ati
ons?
"
Her:
"Goinggood,Idecidedthatweshould
t
akeatri
ptoDurbanifthat'
sokaywit
hy ou"
Me:
"Car
ryonI
'
mli
steni
ng"
Her:
"Wellwewi l
lgoonFr
idayandcomeback
onSunday,peopl
eshoul
dbringthei
rpar
tner
s"
Il
aughed
Me:"Idon'thav
eapar
tnerDoy
ouhav
eone?
"
Letmefli
rtabit
Her:
"IdohaveonebutIcangowit
hyouify
ou
don'
tmind" ohnobabyIdon'
tmind
Me:
"Nopr
obl
emo"wel
aughed
Her:"Wegonnafi
nal
i
zet hi
ngst
omor
rowwi
th
ever
yonesi
nceit
sThursday"
Me:
"okaygoodni
ght"
Her:
"Ni
ght
y!"
Me:
"Don'
tfor
gett
odr
eam aboutme"
Her:
"whywoul
dIdr
eamsabouty
ou?
"
Me:
"becauseI
'
m handsome"
Her:
"don'
tfl
att
ery
our
sel
f"
Me:"hav
ey ouev
ert
ookacl
ear
lyl
ookonme
babeI
'mflames "
Her:"JesusGoodni
ght"shehungupatl
eastI
wil
lsleephappy
.
ThenextmorningIwokeupandfixedmyselfI
wasgoingtotheroyal
houseohbyt heway
Mom isbacktohersenseandwel ookedf
orthe
wit
chesbutwecouldn'tf
indone,
Idr ovei
nsi
de
asal
waysMom waswater
inghergar
den,Igot
of
fthecarandwal
kedt
oher,shewelcomed
metoherwarm ar
mswehugged
.
Me:
"SawubonaMaKhumal
o"
Mom :
"yousoundsl
i
keZamanow"wel
aughed
Mom :
"howar
eyoumyson"
Me:
"I'
m goodMom ,
wher
e'sDad"
Mom :
"I'
m nothi
sonl
ywi
fe"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryMom "
Mom :
"Don'
tbe,Ichosehim knowi
ngl
y
Ut
handaI
sit
hembu"Ilookeddown
Mom :
"don'
tputAnel
ethr
ought
hat"
Me:"Idon'
tseemysel
fwi
tht
wowomen'
sit
s
unheal
thyt
ome"
Mom :
"let
'
sgoi
nsi
de,
ain'
tyousupposet
obe
i
nwork"
Me:
"I'
mt hebossMmaIwi
l
lgocheckupon
t
hem l
ater"
Mom :
"whydi
dyouchoosel
ogi
sti
cs"
Me:
"br
ingsal
otofmoney"
Mom :
"youl
ovemoney"Il
aughed
Me:"I
'
m creati
ngalegacyf
ormyf
utur
eKi
dd
andgr
andchil
dren"
Mom :
"Wher
e'sZamaImi
sshernow"
Me:
"She'
sinDur
banwi
thherMom "
Mom :
"Shel
eftwi
thouti
nfor
mingme"Isi
ghed
Me:"Ididn'
tknowthatshedidn'
ttel
lyou, l
ook
Mom I'
mt hi
nkingofgi
vingZamaasi sterora
br
other"shelookedatme
Mom : "Hauthat'
sgr
eatnews,more
grandchil
drenforme,bett
erbenotsome
bastardchil
doutofwedlock"
Me:
"No butuMakaZamawi
l
lcar
ryt
hem "
Mom :
"Andy
oubl
ushi
ng"
Me:
"Men'
sdon'
tbl
ushMma"
Mom :
"Ai
suka!
"Wel
aughed
Mom :
"I'
m gl
ady
oucame,
you'
vel
i
ght
enupmy
mood"
Me:
"Icanseethatther
e'ssomethingwr
ong
Mom buty
oudon'twantmet ohelpyou"
Mom :
"youwi
l
lnev
erunder
stand"Isi
ghed
Me:
"Justpr
ayGodwi
l
lgui
dey
ou"
Mom :
"Okayl
et'
sst
opt
alki
ngaboutme
.
TodaywasFr i
dayt hevacati
onday I
wassohappyt hatIwillgettor
elaxmymi nd,
chi
ll
ingwithpeopleIknowmay bej ustalit
maybeAnel ewon'tbeonmymi nd. . Me
andKwanel et
hingswer erunni
ngsmoot h,I
wasf l
i
rti
ngwithherandshe' sf
all
ingf ori
t
 ‍♂ . .Sowedeci dedtohi reaquantum that
wewilluset ot r
avelwi t
hit, Iwaswi t
hKwanele,
Mthunzi&Yoliswahi sgirl
fri
end, Zanda&Cherone
,Calvi
n&Zet huandot herfewwor kcoll
eagues,
wegotinsi dethetaxi andthemusi cwas
bl
asti
ngwewer eplay i
ngSoni nibySun-el .
Thegir
lswer eseatedt ogetherwhileusasboy s
wewer et ogethertoo, Durbanherewecome
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t20
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Wear r
ivedinDurbanandbookedahotel,
everyonewasshar ingaroom wi
ththei
r
partners,Ididn'
thaveaprobl
em wit
hKwanel
eI
meanmay beshecanhelpmef l
ashAnele
outsidemyhead
.
Me:"Arey
oucomf
ort
abl
ewi
thmeshar
inga
bedwit
hyou?
"
Kwanele:
"Noitsfi
ne,
ifonl
ywegonnause
separ
atebl
ankets"
Me:"Butt
hehot
elgotonebl
anketandI'
m not
pl
anni
ngtosl
eeponacouchorfloor"
Kwanel
e:"wewill
share"Inodandgoti
nsi
de
thecov
ers,IsawthatKwanel
ewasnot
comfortabl
ewi t
hshari
ngabedwit
hmebuthey
sheagreedt ogowit
hme, shebet
tersucki
tup,
weslept...
.
ThenextmorningIwast hefir
stonet owakeup
,Kwanelewassl eepi
ngpeacefull
y,Ichecked
herout cal lmeamonst erbutIdon'tcar
e,
she'
sonebeaut i
fulwomanIwoul dn'tmind
havi
ngapieceofher, Iwenttoshowerandsat
onthebed,tookoutmyphonet ocal l
my
daught
erIpraythatshe'
sawakei tsalmostpast
8now
.
Her:
"Mor
ning"
Me:
"HeyCanIt
alkt
oZama"
Her:
"Okay"Ihear
dshuf
fl
ingar
ound
Zama:
"Daddy?
"
Me:
"Pr
incessHowar
eyou?
"
Zama:
"Naphi
l
aWena?
"
Me:
"I'
mfi
net
oo"
Zama:
"Whenar
eyoucomi
ngt
ovi
sitme"
Me:"WhenyoucomebackIwi
l
lcomev
isi
tyou
i
nyourmother
shouse"
Zama:
"UMamanaShe'
sgoi
ngt
owor
k"
Me:
"Wor
k?"
Zama:"Shet
oldmet
hatshe'
sgoi
ngt
owor
k
today"
Me:
"OkayDaddyl
ovesy
ou"
Zama:
"Lov
eyout
oo"
Me:
"Gi
vey
ourMom herphoneback"
Her:
"Whatdoy
ouwant?
"
Me:
"Youwor
know?
"
Her:
"OhmyGodNkazi
andherbi
gmout
h..
AndNoI'
m goi
ngt
oanint
erv
iew"
Me:
"younev
ert
oldmet
haty
oul
ooki
ngf
ora
j
ob"
Her:
"andwhyshoul
dIt
ell
you?
"
Me:
"It
hinki
tswasar
ightt
hingt
odo"
Her:
"ri
ghtf
orwhom ?
"
Me:"Youknowwhat?Goodby e"Iremovedt
he
phonefr
om myearbeforeIhungup,Icl
i
cked
mytongueasIf
eltangerconsuming
Kwanele:
"earl
yinthemor ni
ngandy
ou'
re
al
readycl
i
ckingyourtongue"
Me:"j
ustgotofft
hephonewi
thsomeonewho
wasbl
atant
lyrude"
Kwanel
e:"I'
vebeent
her
eandi
tsl
i
ket
heyt
ryna
rui
nyourday"
Me:
"Your
ight.
.Howdi
dyousl
eep?
"
Kwanel
e:"Isl
eptf
iney
ou?
"
Me:
"Iwasgood.
.Fr
eshenupsowecangoand
eatbreakfastbeforeperfor
mingtoday
's
acti
vi
ties"shenodsandst oodupandwentto
thebathroom ,Istart
edfixi
ngthebed,she
camebackdr essedinjeansandatanktop
.
Kwanel
e:"f
ir
stt
imeseei
ngamanf
ixi
nghi
sbed
"
Me:
"IknowI
'
mforkeeps"wel
aughed
Kwanele:"y
ousurel
yare"wewalkedoutt
he
room ,ot
herswealr
eadyseat
edonwhere
breakf
astwasset
Cal
vi
n:"Wet
houghty
'al
lwher
enotcomi
ng"
Me:
"ButI
'
m her
enow"
Cherone:"Whi
chact
ivi
tyar
eweper
for
ming
today?"
Zethu:
"I'
mt hi
nki
ngofgoi
ngt
oUShakaIdon'
t
knowifpeoplear
eokaywi
tht
hat"
Zanda:
"YesI
'
m wi
thy
ou"
Mthunzi :"Thencountusi n"t hewai terser v
ed
usbr eakfast, puref ul
lEngli
shbr eakf ast. .After
wewer edone, fewwentt ochangei n
appropr i
atecl ot
hesandwehi tther oad, Iwas
i
nmyshor ts, Adidassandal sandmywhi t evest
showi ngmyski nnyar ms, wear r
ivedatUShaka
andwepai dt hef eeatt heentrance, someone
l
edusi nmor eli
keourt ourguide, heshowed
usat ankfullofshar ks, wewer eamazedI
wonderwher edidt heycatchthem , wewent
aboutf oodt asti
ngweboughtseaf oodandwe
i
ndul gein, t
hef oodwas nol ie, after
spendi ngli
ke3+hour stherethegi rlswant edt o
goust otheseaandweswam thout he
wav eswer et oohi gh, wedidn'tstayi nt he
waterweheadedbackt othehot el room , Iwent
totakeashowert ocleanthesal tyseawat er,
asIgotoutKwanel ewast herewai ting
.
Me:
"Youbat
hingt
oo?
"
Kwanele: "Ihaveonesensi ti
vebodysoIbet ter
washof fthesalt"Inodandshi ft
edont her i
ght
toletherpassonlytoseet hatsheal soshift
ed
thatway ,
Imov edtot heleftandwemetagai n,
weengagedt oastaringconcer tImov edmy
handst otouchherhipsandIdi dshedi dnot
stopmeIpul l
edhercl osershedidn'tprotest
‍♂ , ourlipsmetwest art
edki ssi
ngf ora
fewmi nutesshepulledout
Kwanel
e:"I
'
m sor
ry"
Me: "Kwanel
e-"shepushedmeandgotinsi
de
thebathr
oom ,Isi
ghed,Iworemycomfort
able
clot
hesandwentt osi
twithot
her
s
Me:
"tj
oGuysIacci
dental
l
yki
ssedKwanel
e"
t
hemadenoi
se"ohhh"
Mthunzi:
"tel
lmeyou'
rej
oki
ng"Il
ookeddown,
t
hegirl
slaughed
Zanda:"I
'
m notsur
pri
sed.
.Youbackt
obei
ng
Bhuti
'
Madlisa"
Me:
"Il
eftt
hatl
i
fei
nUSA"
Calvi
n:"Youki
ssi
ngKwanel
eiti
sthesameas
cheati
ng"
Mt
hunzi
:"I
'
m wi
thy
out
her
eSbal
i"
Cherone:"ther
e'snot
hingwr
ongwit
hkissi
ng
otherpeople"Il
aughedasZandawasgivi
ng
herabadl ook
Yoli
swa:
"Iwouldn'
tbehappyifMthunzi
woul
d
toki
ssanygi
rlwhil
einarel
ati
onshipwit
hme"
Zethu:"I
'm al
sonotsurpr
isedyouchoset
otake
herincaseoftal
ki
ngy ourpart
ner"
Me:"Okayl
et'
sstopt
alki
ngaboutme"Kwanel
e
goti
nsi
detheroom
Khwezi:
"Let
'spl
ayt
rut
hordar e"t
hecheer
ed
,Khwezi
isoneofmycoll
eagues
Me:
"Iwi
l
lst
artMt
hunzi
trut
hordar
e"
Mthunzi
:"whydi
dyoust
artwi
thme?
"We
l
aughed
Mt
hunzi
:"Tr
uth"
Me:"Howmanygi
rl
shav
eyousl
eptwi
th?
"He
l
ookedatYol
i
swa
Yol
i
swa:
"Don'
tyout
hinkofl
yi
ng☹ "
Mt
hunzi
:"Er
rrr
..May
be10ormor
e"
Yol
iswa:
"Butyousai
dtome5.
.wer
eyoul
yi
ng
tomeMthunzi
?"
Cher
one:
"Tr
uthorDar
eZwel
i
?"
Me:
"Dar
e"
Cherone:"Idarey out
okissKwaneleforfi
ve
minutes"theladiesgi
ggled Ilookedatthe
guys,Thegav emedi ff
erentl
ookbutIgott
ado
i
t ‍♂ itsjustagameany way,Iholdher
hands
Zet
hu:
"Iwi
l
lti
mey
'al
l"
Zanda:"Iwon'
tstandhereandwatchtheset
oo
ki
ssing"theguy
ssaid"Yeah!"Theyl
eft
‍♂ Hor nymotherfuckers
.
Ipul
ledherneckcloserandwest art
edki
ssing,
shekissedmeback. .Wesharedoursali
vaf or
5ful
l minut
esthekisswasniceandIenjoyedit,
wecar r
iedonplayi
nguntil
theguy swer
efedup,
wewentt oourrooms, Isl
eptcuddli
ngwit
h
Kwanele
.
Nextmor ningwasaSunday, thelastday,andI
can'tbeli
ev eIdon'tevenwentt oseemybaby, I
wokeupal onei nbed, Kwanelewasnowher e
tobeseenIst oodupandwentt oshower, we
gatheredi ntheroom discussingourlastacti
vit
y
beforeheadi nghome, weagreedongoi ngt o
Isi
bay a Gosht hatplace wesatdown
fortheent ert
ainmentaf t
erthatwewentt oa
Mall apparentl
ygirlswantedsomet hingnewt o
wear gi r
lswittheirendl
essshoppi ng
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Mor ningIwokeupf irstthanmyal arm t he
wayIwasner v ous ‍♀ y ou'dsweart hat
theinterviewwasear lyinthemor ningIcleaned
mysel fandwentdownst ai
rstomakebr eakfast
i
tsaSat urdayandDadi snotaround, Zwel i
call
edwant i
ngt otalkt oMissDi v
a Thatchi l
d
cant alk,Iwassur prisedwhenshet ol
dZwel i
aboutWor k, whatdoessheknowaboutwor k?
Imadebr eakf astandweat eIkeptonchecki ng
thetime, andi tswascl oset o10am Ibet t
er
prepar emysel fIdon'twantt obel ateonmy
fi
rstinterview, Icleanedar oundt hehouse
beforetaki
ngabat hagain,Iwor emyf ormal
cl
othesmor eli
keasui tsuit
ablef orwomen, I
ti
edmyweav eint
oaneatbun, tookmy
bri
efcasewhereitshasmyl aptopand
necessarydocumentst hattheymi ghtneed
.
Me:
"BabyhowdoIl
ook?
"
Nkazi
:"Muhl
e!!
"
Me:
"ThankYoubaby"
Nkazi:"Ki
sski
ss"Ibendedandki
ssedher,
I
walkeddownst
air
swithher
Me:
"Mom I
'
mleav
ing"
Mom :"Dr
ivesaf
e"Ihuggedherbef
orewal
ki
ng
out,
Nkazirantome
Nkazi:
"youl
eav
ingmeagai
n?"Shest
art
ed
pant
ing
Me:
"Iwi
l
lcomeback"shewai
l
ed
Nkazi
:"Njal
onj
euy
ani
shi
ya(y
oual
way
slef
t
mebehind)"
Me:"Ipr
omiseyouIwi
l
lcomebackwi
thy
our
f
avori
tet
eddy"
Nkazi
:"Ani
wuf
ini
(Idon'
twanti
t)"
Me:
"Mmapl
easet
akeher"
Mom :
"Nkazi
comet
oGr
anny"
Nkazi:
"No!NihambanoAnele"Il
aughed
whenevershe'
sangryshecall
smebymyname
Mom :
"Comelet'
sgoandf
etcht
hati
cecr
eam
sowecanshar
eitwi
thMamana"
Nkazi:
"Nawukhouphel
ishi
wuqedil
eizholo(it
s
f
ini
shedweateall
ofityest
erday)
"Ilaughed
Me:"Goandt akemybagsowewil
ll
eav
e"she
rani
nside,Iqui
ckl
ywentt
ogeti
nsi
demycar
anddroveoff
.
Iparkednexttothebui
ldi
ngwr it
ten"JJ"inbol d
l
etters,Ibr
eathedeepl
ybeforegettingof fthe
caritswascloseto12h,Iwal kedinsideI
l
ookedar oundamazedbyt hi
sbui l
dingitsso
beautif
ul Iwal
kedtosomeonewhowas
behindthedeskIassumedi t
sar eceptionist
Me:
"Hi
"
Her:
"GoodMor
ningMa'
am howcanwehel
p
you?
"
Me:
"I'
m her
eformyi
nter
view"
Her:
"YourNameMa'
am "
Me:
"Anel
eNdl
ovu"shet
ypedont
hecomput
er
Her:
"MrJacksonhasbeenwai
ti
ngforyou,On
t
hesixt
hfl
ooryourt
hir
ddooronyourr
ight"
Me: "Thanks"Iner vouslywalkedtot hel
i
f tand
pressed6f l
oor, t
hel i
ftstart
edmov ingIfeltmy
chestri
sing,thisismyf irsti
nter
viewIhav ea
ri
ghttobescar edlikethis..Igotoffthel
iftand
walked,knockedtothedoorli
meIwas
i
nstruct
edbyt herecept
ioni
st.Abol
dv oi
cesai
d
"Comei n!"If
eltmykneesshakingbutI
managedt owalkin
.
Mr
J:"Ohwel
come"hel
edmet
ohi
sdesk
Mr
J:"I
'
m MrJackson"
Me:
"Ni
cet
omeety
ou"
MrJ:"I
'm supposetobeint
erv
iewi
ngy
oubutI
t
hinkyou'
resuitabl
efort
hisj
ob"
Me:
"ButSi
rIdon'
thav
eanywor
kexper
ience"
MrJ:"Ther
e'safi
rstt
imeforevery
thi
ngbutI
wi
llputyouunderasuper
visorhewil
lgui
deyou
"
Me:
"Thanky
ou"
MrJ:"Letmecall
him "Inod,
het
ookhi
sof
fi
ce
phoneandcal
ledsomeone
MrJ:"Soncomet
omyof
fi
cer
ightnow!"he
hungup
MrJ:"hewil
lbeher
enow,
woul
dyoul
i
ket
o
st
artworki
ngnow?"
Me:
"ift
hat
'sokaywi
thy
ou"
.
..:
"Dad?YouknowIwasbusywher
eIwas"
MrJ:"si
tdownIwantt oi
ntr
oduceyout oour
newaccountant"assoonashesatdownI
l
ookedathim, hi
stheguyfr
om yester
day
‍♀ t heRangerdude,TheFuck??Hewi l
lbe
mysupervi
sor??
MrJ:"MissNdlovut
hisi
smysonJason,
hewi
l
l
beyoursuper
visor"
Me:
"Ni
cet
omeety
ouJason"
Jason:"DadIdon'
twanther,
getsomeonet
o
guideher"
MrJ:"Iwasn'
taski
ngy
ou, y
ouwi l
ldoasIsay"
hefr
owns"alsoshowsher,herof
ficeshe
camepr
epar
ed"hest
oodupandwal
kedout
MrJ:
"I'
m sor
ryforthat,
hedoesn'
tusual
l
ydoes
t
hist
onewwor kers"
Me:
"Iunder
stand"
Mr J:
"Hisoffi
cei sthe6thdoorony ourl
eft"I
stoodupandwal kedoutaft
erthankinghi
sfor
thi
sjob..IknockedonJason' soff
ice he
shouted"Comei n!"Igoti
nassoonashesees
mehesmi r
ked
Jason:
"OhMr
str
oll
eyst
eal
er"
Me:"Idon'
thav
eti
mef
ory
ourbul
l
shi
t"i
sat
down
Jason:
"Idi
dn'
tsaysi
t"
Me:
"Iwasn'
tgonnaask"
Jason:"Iguessj
ammi
ngy
ourcarwasn'
t
enough"
Me:"Idar
eyout
oev erdot
hatagai
nIswearI
wi
l
lkil
lyou"hel
aughed
Jason:"It
hinkI
'
m goi
ngt
oenjoyworki
ngwi
th
you,comeletmeshowyouyourof
fi
ce"
Me:"i
tswasaboutthedamnt i
me"Ist oodup
andwalkedbehi
ndhimlikealostpuppy,he
openedthedooropposi
tetohisoff
ice
Jason:"Thiswil
lbeyourof
fi
ce"Iwalkedi
nand
l
ookedar oundIfel
li
nlovei
nstant
ly itswas
beaut
if
ul ,t
heview
Me:"Okayyoucanl
eavenow"hechuckledand
l
eft,
Isatonmychairf
eel
ingl
i
keboss, Ical
l
ed
Mom
.
Me:
"Guesswhat?
"
Mom :
"Yougott
hej
ob"
Me:
"Yes-
"shest
art
edscr
eami
ng
Me:
"Mom!
"
Mom :
"I'
m sor
rybabyI'
mjusthappyf
ory
ou
whenar
ey oucomingback?"
Me:
"whenIknockof
f"
Mom :
"you'
real
readywor
king?Theyshoul
d
payy
ouforover
time"Il
aughed
Me:
"how'
smyDi
vat
her
e"
Mom :"Ical
ledyourfat
her,she'
scal
m now"
Jasongotinwit
hpileoffi
les
Me:"Iwil
lcal
lyoulat
erl
ovey
ou"Iwai
tedf
or
herr
esponsebefor
eIhungup
Me:
"Whati
sthi
s?"
Jason:"whosai
dyouwi
l
lsi
ther
eandr
elax?
"I
rol
ledmyeyes
Jason:"Iwantt
hesef
ull
ybal
ancedbyt
heend
oftoday"
Me:"Iwon'
tbey
oursl
aveJasonIknowmy
wor
kr i
ght
s"
Jason:
"I'
myourbossy
ouwi
l
ldoasIsay"I
huff
ed
Me:"Fi
ne!"Istar
tedlooki
ngatthesefi
l
es,Iput
onmyglassesandst art
edworking.
.Idon'
t
haveaprobl
em wi t
hmyey esIj
ustli
keweari
ng
gl
asses Igetonwi t
hworkby3pm Iwas
hal
fwaydonewi thmywor k
.
MrJgoti
nandl
ookedatmeasIwasbusywi
th
work
Mr
J:"It
hinki
tsenoughf
ort
oday"
Me:
"I'
m sot
ir
ed"wel
aughed
MrJ:
"Packy ourt
hingsandl
eaveIdon'
twant
yout
othinkweareslavi
ngyou"yeahri
ghtyour
sonj
ustdid
Me: "Notatall
"Istart
edgat
her
ingmystuff
s
andstoodup, walkedoutwi
thMrJhol
dinga
l
ightconversat
ion
MrJ:
"Seey
ouonMonday"Inodandwal
kedt
o
t
heli
ft
"PleaseHoldtheli
ft
!"Hesaidrushi ngtot he
glasselev
atorit
swasj ason,Ididn'tIwat ched
him ashewasl ooki
ngatmeangr yiwav ed
whi l
eIwaslaughingmyassout. .Idrovehome
andMyDi vawasseat edonthegar denwi th
Mom assoonassheseesme, sher aisedher
arms, Ipi
ckedherup
Me:
"Nkazi
mul
oYami
"
Nkazi
:"MinaNikhal
i
lewenaunekho(Icri
ed
whenIgetbackandy ouwer
en'
tther
e)"
Me:"Comel et'
sgoinside,myankl esarekil
l
ing
me"Iwalkedi nsi
destrai
ghttomyr oom I
pl
acedNkazi downandchangedt omyf l
oral
dr
essIwalkeddownst air
swithNkazi bymy
si
de,weatesupper, Iwast oti
redtowat cht.
vI
j
ustwenttosleepwithNkazi ofcourse
.
Nextmor
ning t hesunwasonful
lbase
‍♀ itswashot andi
tsaSunday..
Chur chtime i f
ixedNkazi f
irstbef ore
fi
x i
ngmysel f,shewaswear i
ngapur plish
dresswi thwhi tepumpswhi l
eIwasal li
nbl ack
evenmyheel s, wewal keddownst air
s, wehad
ourbr eakfastandwentt ochurch>>>Af terthe
serviceIdeci dedt otalkNkazi out, wewal ked
toMc' Donal ds, that
'sherf avor
ite, afterthatI
decidedt ost artshoppingf orclothesIwi ll
wear
atwor k, wegoti nsi
det heshopandi twasf i
ll
ed
withpeopl e, therewer efewguy sseat edont he
chairslookingl iketheyar eti
redwi thhandbags
IlaughedIassumet hatthei
rgi r
lfri
endar e
somewher ear ound, Istartedchecki ngoutt he
clothesbef orebumpi ngintosomewomen
.
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Her:
"it
sokay.
.Youl
ookfami
l
iar"Ismi
l
edI
l
ookaroundmeandNkazi
wasnowheretobe
f
ound
Me:"Nkazi
!!
"Ihear
dhergi
ggl
i
ng,If
oll
owedher
voi
ceshewasbehindsomeol
dwoman
Me:
"Whatar
eyoudoi
ngt
her
e?"
Nkanzi
:"Ni
cashel
awena"
Me:
"Comel
et'
sgo"
Ol
dWoman:
"she'
syour
s?"Inod
Ol
dWoman: "she'
sbeaut
if
ul"It
hankedherand
dr
aggedNkazi
Nkanzi:
"Mamanal
ook.
..Daddy"sher
ant
o
hi
m, Zwel
ii
sher
e?Hedidn'
ttel
lme
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t21
.
.
.
Nt
ando
.
.
Ireceivedacallf
rom bae he'sbeendi st
ant
l
atelylastti
meIsawhi m waswhenhecame
here, hedidn'
tevenspendt henightbecauseof
hi
ssocal l
edwifecall
edhim whining Imean
he'smymant ooI'v
etriedtoconv i
ncehimt o
di
v orcehiswifebutit
sf el
ltodeafears
Me:
"I'
m angr
yaty
ou"
Hi
m:"Whatdi
dIdo?
"
Me:"howcany
ougof
orf
ull
thr
eeday
swi
thout
cont
acti
ngme"
Hi
m:"Ihadabusi
nessmeet
ingt
hatIneededt
o
att
end, I
'minv
est
ingt
onewbusi
ness,
Logist
ics"
Me:
"Si
ncewhendoy
oudoLogi
sti
cs"
Him:
"I'
mt r
yingsomethingnew,soonthey
'l
lbe
anev
entther
e, Ineedyoutobeprepar
ed"I
st
oodup
Me:
"youwi
l
ltakeme?
"Ismi
l
ed
Hi
m:"Yesandy
oumustdr
esst
oimpr
ess"
Me:
"whataboutt
hej
our
nal
i
st?
"
Him:"t
heywil
ltal
kIknowbutonethi
nggood
abouti
t,ev
eniftheywer
etobadmouthusbut
youwereakil
l
ababe"Ilaughedt
hat'
sunl
i
ke
him
Me:"Okayy
oushoul
dpassbyt
oday,
Igot
somethi
ngf
ory
ou"
Hi
m:"doesi
sinv
olv
elace?
"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"Yes"
Hi
m:"ThenI
'
m comi
ng"
Me:
"okayby
enow"
Hi
m:"By
e"Ihungup
.
Tobet ruthfulIthinkI'm gett
ingt oattachedto
him, may bei t
'sbecauseoft hepr omiseshe
alwaysmakeori sitbecausehet reatsmegood
‍♀ ei therwayI 'm notleavinghi m andit
s
aboutdamnt i
met hatwecomeoutasacoupl e
I'
vebeenwi thhimf orfull2y ear
s i deser
ve
tobeknownact uallyIdemandt obeknownt hat
I'
m hisbyt hewhol eworldIdon' tcareabouthi s
familybutwhatIknowi sthatI '
m her etostay
eventuall
yhewi l
lputar ingoni t, Iwil
l make
surehedoes, hecan'tresistthi
sbeaut y I
knowI '
mf l
ames Iwal keddownst airshalf
nakeditshotandwhyshoul dIwearsomet hi
ng?
Iwasi nmyspor tbr aandmyl acet hongIwent
strai
ghttot hekitchent omakesomet hi
ngto
eatItookoutev erythi
ngthatIwi l
l needtomake
aper f
ectsandwi chbeforegoingt ot hemal l,I
ateaftert hatIdr essedtomyshor tbluedress,
blueheel sl etmyweav eloseputonmyhat ,
putem sungl asses Iwal kedt omycar, its
stil
lamazesmewhenIt hinkaboutmyl i
feback
thenImay behor ri
blebysleepingar oundbut
withthatmoneyIusei ttoeaset hepai ninmy
heart,ev eryweekIgoundert hebr i
dgetogi ve
homel esspeopl efoodt hatwil
l l
astt henfora
mont hort wo, it
sf eel
sgoodt ohel pthem ,they
remindmet hatI
'm sti
llahumanbei ngI'
m not
j
ustav ulturebutI '
m someone, someone' s
daught er, someone' smot her t houmychi l
d
i
snomor e
.
Idr
ovetot hemall
andy esIli
veindurbannow
i
tswasaMondaywhenIgott her
eIwentto
Woolworthtobuysomegr oceri
esfewofthen
si
nceIleaveal
one, Igotnofri
ends , I
pushedmyt
rol
l
eyandi
tshi
tsomeone
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Hi
m:"Wat
chwer
eyougoi
ng!
!"
OtherDude:
"Babecal
m done"Gay
s Such
Hotgays ‍♀ ♀
Ot
herDude:
"I'
m Bongz"
Me:"Ntando,
I'
m sor
ryf
orhur
ti
ngy
ourf
ri
end"
hechuckl
ed
Bongz:
"we'
reengaged"
Me:
"ohhsor
ry"
Bongz:
"Hi
sThabanebutknownasTee"
Me:
"I'
mreal
l
ysor
ryTee"
Tee:"I
tsokay,babelet'
sgo"hel eft,Bongz
wavedbeforel
eavingrunni
ngaf t
erTee, t
hey
l
ookedsoamazi ngwiththatcutechubbylit
tl
e
boy,I'
m sur
etheyhav eadoptedit,Icar
ri
edon
shoppi
ngbutmymi ndwasoccupi edbyHow
Bongz&Teel i
vest heirli
fe,theynotashamed
ofthemsel ves, theylivi
ngthedr eam ,may beifI
cangetpr egnantMdl uliwil
lputar ingonit
whydi dn'tIt hi
nkoft hisallalong ‍♀ I
meanwecanpr oducebeaut ifulbabies,I
boughtev erythi
ngIneededandl eftheaded
backt omyhousemay beIshoul dget
somet hingl i
keaj obIcan'tjuststayherebor ed
wai t
ingforMdl ulisphonecal l,Itookmyl aptop
andsear chedf oronlinecour sethatIcoulddo
may bef or6mont hsthenIcanst artlooki
ngf or
ajob, Itookof fmyheel sandst artedsearching
Ijustprayt oGodt hathemusthel pmeget
throught his,guidemesoIcanal sobe
successf ul, i
ndependent
.
.
.
Tee
.
.
.
Wedeci dedtogoshoppi ngwithNjabuloforthe
fi
rsttimeandal sot obuyapresentforAneleI
meanshehasj ustst ar
tedworkingforwhatshe
st
udi edfor,I'
m proudofher.Aswewer ein
Wool worthwewer edonebuyingclothesfor
Njabulosoweagr eedonbuyingsomesweet s
st
uf fbef
or eheadingbackhome
Me:
"Auch!
!"Iscr
eamed,di
dshej
ustknocked
mewit
hatrol
ley?Ohhel
lno!!
Her:
'I
'm sor
ry"Bongzhel
dme
Bongz:"babecalm down"Iwasf umi
ngI
wantedtobeattheshitoutofher
Bongz:"I
'
m Bongz"whyi
sheint
roduci
ng
hi
mselfnow??Hehasnervei
nfr
ontofme?
Her:
"Nt
ando,
I
'm sor
ryf
orhur
ti
ngy
ourf
ri
end"
Bi
tch!
!He'
smymancan'
tshesee
Bongz:
we'
reengaged"
Her:
"ohhsor
ry"Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Bongz:
"hi
sThabanebutknownasTee"
Her:
"I'
mreal
l
ysor
ryTee"
Me: "I
tsokay,babel et'
sgo"Imadesur eI
emphasizedthewor k'babe"shecanknowhe's
taken,Ii
ncreasedmypacewhi l
epushing
Njabul
owi t
hat rol
leymybabywasenj oyingi
t,
Bongzcamer unningt ous
.
Me:
"youent
ert
ainwomen'
snow"
Bongz:
"shemeantnohar
m"
Me:
"don'
tbor
emeBongz"
Bongz:
"Shedi
dn'
thi
tyouwi
that
rol
l
ey
pur
posel
y"
Me:
"youar
eherspokesper
sonnow?"
Bongz:
"No"
Me: "Ify oudon'tknowwhatt osayj ustkeep
quiet"henodswecar ri
edonshoppi ng, thi
sgir
l
whatev erhernamei sruinedmyday , now
I'
m gr umpybecauseofher, wewal kedtot he
parkingl otaft
erwewer edonepay inganddoi ng
everything, weloadedt heshoppingbackson
thebootandgoti nsi
det hecar,Njabulowas
seatedal oneint hebackseatinhiscarseat.
Bongz:
"ar
eyoust
il
langr
yatme?
"
Me:"I'
m notangr
yI'
mj ustwonder
ingwhyar
e
youspeaki
ngonbehalfofher"
Bongz:
"ComeonBabeIdon'
tev
enknowher"
Me:
"yety
oudef
endi
ngher"
Bongz:"Soy
ouwant
edmet
olety
ouf
ighti
n
fr
ontofme"
Me:
"youshoul
dn'
thav
ehol
dmeback"
Bongz:
"Vi
olencenev
ersol
vesany
thi
ng"
Me:
"itwor
ksf
orme"
Bongz:"youbeingchil
dishnow"Ikeptqui etI
don'twanttocarr
yonar gui
ngwi t
hhi m, we
arri
vedathomeIwast hef i
rstonetocomeoutI
tookNjabulo,hewil
lcomewi ththebags, Igot
i
nsideplacedNjabul
oonhi sbabywal kerand
wenttotakeashowerIneedt ocooloff,af t
erI
wasdonewi t
hmyshoweri wor ediff
erent
clot
hesandt ookmyphonet ocall"Besti
e❣ "i t
rang
Me:
"Congr
atul
ati
ons!
!"
Her:
"Thanksbabe"
Me:"I
'
m comingtoyourworkpl
acel
i
kenow
nowIhopeyou'
renotbusy
"
Her:
"Icannev
erbet
obusyf
ory
ou"
Me:
"I'
m br
ingi
ngNj
abul
owi
th"
Her:
"Themor
ethemer
ri
er"
Me:
"Chao"wegi
ggl
edandhungup,
Iwal
ked
downstai
rsandNj
abul
owasbusybl
abbi
ng
ai
n'
tthatsocute,
Ipi
ckedhi
m up
Me:"Ai
n'
ty oucutebabe?,
MyTeddy"he
l
aughed,Ialsol
aughed
Me:
"Bongz!"
Heshout
ed"St
udi
o!"Iwal
ked
t
her
e
Me:"I
'
m goi
ngoutIwi
l
lbebackl
ater"Iwal
ked
out
Bongz:
"wer
en'
tyousupposet
obeaski
ngf
or
per
missi
on"
Me:"Idon'
thaveti
mef ort
his"Icli
ckedmy
t
ongueandwal edt
omycar, bowi shouldrepor
t
t
ohim ?Clearl
yhe'
snott aki
nghismed, Ifi
xed
Nj
abuloscarseatplacinghim ni
celythereand
j
oggedtomysi de,Idroveoff
.
Ist
oppedatt
hebuil
dingwri
tten"JJ"Ist
epped
i
nwalki
ngstr
aightt
otherecepti
oni
sts
Me:
"excuseme"
Hi
m:"Af
ter
noonSi
r"
Me:
"I'
mlooki
ngf
orAnel
e,t
henewaccount
ant
"
Hi
m:"6t
hfl
ooron,
6thdoorony
ourr
ight"
Me: "thankYou"Iwalkedtotheelevatorgoti
n,
pressed6thfloorandi
tstart
edmov ingwhich
fr
ightenmyson hel ookedsocute, I
knockedont he6thdoorli
kethereceptioni
st
said
Her:
"Comei
n!"Ibar
gei
n
Me:
"nextt
imeI
'
m notknocki
ng"
Her:"Ithoughtyouwil
lj
ustbar
gei
nli
ket
he
usuall
y"wel aughed
Me:"Ineedtobesur
etsy
ourof
fi
cebef
ore
bar
gingin"
Her:"Wel
lsi
nceyouknownow, y
ouwon'
thav
e
aprobl
em .
.Hel
loNjebs"shet
ookNj
abul
oand
st
art
edpl
ayi
ngwi
thhi
m
Her:
"What
'supwi
thy
ou,
whyar
equi
et?
"
Me:
"Tr
oubl
einpar
adi
se"wel
aughed
Her:
"Whatdi
dBongzdo?
"
Me:
"hewasf
li
rt
ingwi
thsomegi
rlI
nfr
ontof
me"
Her:"That'
sunli
keBongzar
eyousur
ehewas
f
li
rt
ing? "Inod
Her:
"May
bei
t'
soneofhi
sfan"
Me:"Thatgir
lfi
rstl
yknockedmewi
that
rol
l
eyI
al
mostfell
"shel aughs
Me:
"it
snotf
unny,
Imeanwhodoest
hat?
"
Her:"I
'
m sor
rymyfri
endIdi
dn'tmeantol
augh
atyoubutI
'mthi
nki
ngaboutsomethi
ng"
Me:
"somet
hing?
"
Her:
"soIwenttoPi
ck'
n'
PaytoshopandIst
ole
someone'
str
oll
eyIwasti
redt
ogoandlookfor
one,Iunpackedall
hisgrocer
iesandranaway
wit
hthetrol
leybuthecaughtme"Ilaughed

Her:
"Wor
separ
the'
smysuper
visor"
Me:
"Idon'
twi
sht
obey
our
ightnow"
Her:
"It
sal
lmessedup"
Me:"l
etmegoi
tsget
ti
ngl
ate"shegav
eme
Nj
abul
o
Me:
"whenar
eknocki
ngof
f"
Her:
"at6pm "
Me:
"tj
ookaybye"wehuggedandshewal
ked
meoutherof
fi
cet
ookthel
if
twaiv
edgoodbye
t
oher
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
.
I'
vebeenl i
vingi nfearsincethatcall from
Jackson, IregretwhatI 'v
edonei t
scostmemy
daught er'
slife, myl i
fehasbeenmi ser abl e,we
hav ebur i
edBabyDani el
le i t
shur tsmet o
coret oseemygi rlbeingplacedint hesmal l
coffin⚰ i tsnotoneofmywi shestobur ryone
ofmyki dsIwantt hem tobur rymenott heway
around. .Siphokazi isawal kingzombi e, she
l
ostwei ghtandi t'
dal soaffecti
ngbabyJor dan
sinceweasherpar entswebusynur singour
sorehear tsf orgett
ingher, weshoul dn'tignore
her, soIdeci dedtocheerherupbyt alkingher
tooneoft her estaurants,butshechosef ish
andchi ps ‍♂ wewer eal r
eadyr eadyt oer
gotinsidemycaranddr oveof ftothemal l
.
Wegoti
nsidethemal
lsher
antof
ishandchi
ps
i
tswasnear,wegoti
nsi
deandor
dered
Jor
dan:"Dad,
Mom i
ssad"IlookedatS
moti
onedhert
osaysomet
hing
S:
"I'
m notsadbabyI
'
mjustt
ir
ed"shef
rowns
Jor
dan:"Buty
oualwayst
ir
ed,younol
onger
pl
aywit
hmeev ersi
nceDani
ell
ewentt
oheaven
"
S:
"I'
m sor
rybayfornegl
ect
ingy
ou,
Ipr
omi
seI
wi
l
lneverdoitagai
n"
Jor
dan:
"Pi
nkypr
omi
se"
S:"Pinkypr
omise"Thef
oodcameandwe
st
artedeati
ng
Jor
dan:
"Dadi
sthist
heOr
angef
rui
t"Il
aughed
myGodit
swaslemon
Me:
"Youwantt
otast
eit?
"Shenods
S:"don'
teati
tnowIwantt
otakeapi
ctur
eof
youeati
ngit"
Jor
dan:
"it
'ssmel
l
sni
ce"
S:
"Youcaneati
tnow"shest
art
edeati
ngi
t
wi
thi
nasecondshespi
tt
edi
t,Il
aughed
Jor
dan:
"Daddywhyi
sthi
sOr
angesour?
"
Me:"Becausebabyi
tsaLemonnotaOr
ange
f
rui
t"Ilaughed
Jor
dan:
"Iwi
l
lnev
ereatLemonev
eragai
n"
S:
"Howwi
l
lyouknowi
tsl
emon?
"
Jor
dan:
"Iwi
l
ltast
eit"
.
Wecarri
edoneati
ngt
henwedi
dal
i
ttl
e
shoppi
ng,Ir
ecei
vedatext
"Niceti
mewi thyourfami
ly,soonIwil
lteari
t
apart.
.J"Ilookedaroundtr
yingtof
indif
ther
e'ssomeonelookingatus
Me:"Guysl
et'
sgohome, i
tsnolongersaf
e
her
e"theydi
dn'
tcauseanytr
oublewewalked
totheparki
nglotandgoti
nsi
det
hecarand
droveoff
,Ihat
emysel ff
orst
eal
i
ngthose
diamonds
.
.
.
Admi
n

Bonus!
!
Cont
inuat
ion
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Me: "Nkazi!
!"Ilookedtoherdi recti
onasshe
wasbusyscr eamingDaddyDaddy !!Jumping
oneoft heguy sIsawwhenIgoti n, pickedher
upandswi ngherar ound, It
ookacl oselook
andsawi tswasZwel i
It houghtmychi l
dwas
crazyorsomet hi
ng,Iwal kedt othem .Thel ook
hegav emewaspr i
cel
ess"Ubeswel eumgodi
wokucasha"y ouknowt hatl ooktheygi ve
whenev eryoucaughtsomeonedoi ng
somet hi
ngwr ongorstealing?Exact lyhegav e
met hatone
Me:
"Hel
l
oguy
s"
Mt
hunzi
:"Zi
yanda"
Zanda:
"MakaZama"
Cal
vi
n:"Anel
e"IlaughedZwel
iwast
heonl
y
onewhokeptqui
et
Me:"I
'm goodandwhywasn'
tIt
oldthaty
ou'
re
her
eindurban-
"somegi
rl
scamet ous
Mthunzi
:"Yol
i
swat hi
sisAnel
e,Anel
ethi
sis
Yol
iswaMyGirl
fr
iend"Ismil
edIwonderwho
camewithuZwel
i
Zanda:"asy
ouknowhername,
Anel
eThi
sis
Cherone"
Calvi
n: "Vi
seversa,Zethuishername"Inod,
theladieswerebeauti
ful,theonl
yper
sonlef
t
wasZwel i
,whywasn'theintr
oduci
nghis
gir
lf
riend
Gi
rl:
"Hi
I'
m Kwanel
e"
Me:"Anele,ni
cetomeetya'
l
l"youguy
slook
gr
eats"theyal
lsai
d"Thanks"
Me:
"OkayI
'
mleav
ingnow,
Nkazi
comel
et'
sgo
"
Yol
i
swa:
"She'
syourchi
l
d?"Inod
Yol
i
swa: "Ioncehadafi
ghtwit
hMthunziabout
api
ctureofZamaIthoughthewascheat
ingon
me"Ilaughed
Me:
"Theydon'
tev
enl
ookal
i
ke"
Yol
i
swa:
"he'
scapabl
eofcheat
ingphel
a"
Me:
"Nkazi
let
'sgo"
Nkazi
:"Iwi
l
lgowi
thDad"
Me:
"Iser
iousl
ydon'
thav
eti
mef
or-
"
Calvi
n:"Howaboutwegr
abluncht
ogether?
Beforeyougo,weal
soheadi
ngbackhome
today"
Zethu:
"No!!Wearesti
l
lshoppingmaybesome
othert
ime"Ichuckl
edbit
ch!Idon'
twanty
our
man
Me:
"don'twor
rysweet
iepi
eI'm st
il
lshoppi
ng
t
oo"Iknowhowt omanagefakebit
chez
Yol
iswa:
"May bewecanhel
pyou"weleft
goi
ngtocheckonsomethi
ngfor
malenought
o
wear
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwishtheworldcanswal l
owmenow why ??
Why ??Whydidthishappen,howam Isuppose
topersuadehertobemi neagai
n?I
'v
er ui
ned
every
thing
.
Zama:
"Daddy
!!
"That
'st
hef
ir
stt
hingshesai
d
Me:
"Whatar
edoi
ngher
e!? "
Zama:
"Hau"
Me:
"I'
m sor
rybaby,
wher
e'sy
ourgr
anny?
"
Zama:
"I'
m wi
thMom "
Me:"YourMom i
shere?OhGod"Ist ar
ted
sweati
ng , shecametous,IthoughtZama
wasjoki
ng,
shewasn't!
!Shewasn'tj
oki
ng
‍♂ mybabywasn' tj
oki
ng
.
Aft
ert
heyl
eftwi
thYol
iswaandCher
oneIwas
l
eftwi
tht
heguys,Zet
huandKwanel
e
Mt
hunzi
:"Youi
ndeepshi
t!"
Me:
"tel
lmeabouti
t "
Calvi
n:"It
houghtyouguysarenomorethat
whyy oubr
oughtKwanele"Il
ookedatKwanele
shefrownsbefor
eleavi
ng,howcanIexplai
n
thi
s?
Zet
hu:"Don'
ttel
lmeyouwereusi
ngKwanel
e
asarebound"Il
ookeddown
Zet
hu:
"Thef
uck!Zwel
i"
Cal
vi
n:"Zet
hucanyougoandjoint
heother
l
adi
es"shecli
ckedhert
ongueandl
eft,
assoon
asshedi
sappear
edt
heguy
slaughed
Me:
"it
snotf
unnyguy
s"
Zanda:
"whatwer
eyout
hinki
ng?
"
Me:
"Kwanelewastheonewhosuggest
edt
hat
wemustcomehere"
Mthunzi:
"Maybesheknewt
haty
ourbaby
mamai sher
e"
Zanda:"Maybe"t
heynodagr
eei
ngt
owhat
Mthunzisai
d
Cal
vi
n:"t
joZwel
iyouj
ustwentmut
e"
Zwel
i:
"Ialmosthadahear
tat
tackwor
seofal
l
Cal
vi
ninvi
tedher"
Zanda:
"I'
mlooki
ngf
orwar
dtoi
t"
Me:
"Don'
tsel
lmeout"
Mt
hunzi
:"Wewi
l
ltr
ynott
o"
Yol
iswa:"Wear
edonel
et'
sgo"Ist
oodupwith
Zamaplayi
ngwi
thmybeardi
tswasgr
owing
hey
.
Thegirl
sgotinsi
det hetaxbutYol
iswawas
wit
hAnel esi
nceZamadi dn'
twanttol
etgoof
me, soIwasr i
dingwithher,wedrovetoour
hot
el wherewewi l
lhavefoodtoaccommodate
al
lofus
Calvi
n: "Braceyourselfni
gga"hepat t
edmy
shoulderaswewer egetti
ngoffthecar,her
l
aughf i
ll
edmyheadIst i
ll
loveher,shewas
l
aughi ngwi t
hYoli
swaIwi shthatwasme, we
gotinsidethehotel ,
theyshownust heroom
andt heproblem wast hechai
rsonly
accommodat eus, aswewer esit
ti
ngdown,
shereal i
zedthewasnospacef orher
Anel
e:"Seemsl
i
keIdon'
thav
espace"
Yol
i
swa:
"Youcant
akemi
ne,
Mthunzi
wil
lcar
ry
me"
Mt
hunzi
:"Youal
way
sactl
i
key
ou'
rel
i
ght
wei
ghed"
Yol
i
swa:
"youcompl
aini
ng?
"
Mthunzi
:"Nobbe"Yoli
swasatonMt
hunzi
'
slap
,westar
tedeat
ingIbr
okethei
ce
Anel
e:"soy
ouguy
scamewi
thpar
tner
s?"
Cher
one:
"Yes"
Anel
e:"Howwasy
ourt
ri
pthen"
Zet
hu:
"it
swasamazi
ng"
Yol
i
swa:
"Sot
ell
usabouty
ou"Ichuckl
ed
Anel
e:"t
her
e'snot
hingt
osaybutI
'
m ahappy
mom "
Cher
one:
"Wher
eisNkazi
'
sDad?
"
Anel
e:"ohthatonehedied"sheeyedmeasi
wascoughi
ngnonst opaft
ersherel
easi
ngher
st
atement
Zet
hu:"Throughoutt
hist
ri
pourbestcoupl
e
wasZweliandKwanele"shelaughed
Kwanel
e:"YesandIl
ovehi
m
Anel
e:"Real
l
y?Congr
ats andy
ouguy
s
ar
esocute"
Cal
vi
n:"Zet
hukeepqui
etpl
ease"
Nkazi
:"MananaI
'
mti
red"
Anel
e:"t
hat'
smycuet ogo,comebaby"Iwas
j
ustqui
etthr
oughoutt
hismoment,wordsr
an
outi
fmymout hIcoul
dn'
tev
enalt
eranyword
Me:"Iwi
l
lwalky
ouout"theyal
ll
ookedatme,
t
hoseweret
hefi
rstwor
dsImanagedtosay
Anel
e:"Okayl
et'
sgo"Ist
oodupwi
thasl
eepy
Nkazi
Anel
e:"By
eguy
s!!"
Them :
"By
e!!
"
Yol
iswa:"Iwi
llt
extyou"shenodsandwalked
outIfol
l
owedbehindher,wegettothepar
king
l
ot,sheopensthebackseatdoorf
orNkazi,she
outheronherseatandcl
osedthedoor
.
Anel
e:"Oht
hanks!She'
sget
ti
ngheav
ier"
Me:
"Yeah"
Anel
e:"Iassumey ouenj
oyedyourweekend,
youdi
dn'tevencheckonyourchi
ld"Il
ooked
down
Me: "WhydidyousayIdi
edwhentheyasked
aboutNkazi'
sDad"thatt
houghtmakesme
crazy,ImeanZamaisafemalever
sionofme
Anele:"youwerealreadypal
e,soidi
dn'twant
tocauset r
oubleal
readyyourGI
RLFRIENDwas
giv
ingmeev i
ll
ooks,shemustbewonder i
ng
now"shemadesur esheemphasisthewor d
Gir
lfr
iend
Me:
"She'
snotmygi
rl
fr
iend-
"
"Babe!
!"ThatwasKwanel
est
andi
ngi
nthe
entr
ance
Anel
e:"Youbet
tergoandIhopeshet
reat
syou
ri
ghtohhdon' thurtherl
i
keyoudi dtome, she
seemsf ragi
l
e"shegoti nsi
det hecarandI
steppedback, shehootedbeforeleavi
ng,I
si
ghedKwanel eISNOTMYFUCKEN
GIRLFRIEND!!Iwalkedpastherangry,whendid
shestartedcall
ingmebabe? ?Babewokunuka!!
IthoughtIwasgonnahol dthatassmay beeven
getakissbutKwanel ecame andr ui
ned
everyt
hing
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t22
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Iwoket henextmor ning, Nkazi wasnotnextt o
meandi t
swas5am Iwonderwher eshei s
causey est
erdaywhenIcamet osl eepshewas
herebutnow? ?May beshe' ssl eepingwi th
Mom Ist oodupt oswi tchof fmyal ar mt hat
wasi rri
tati
ngmenow, ialway snowwakeup
earli
ert hanmyal arm wei rdr ight?Iwal kedt o
mybat hroom totakeashowerIdon' tfeel l
ike
usingabat htubIshower edandgetdr essedI
decidedt owearmyt wo-pi eceout fitwhi chwas
red, Ihopei t
sappropr iatet oweari tatwor kits
wasmyr edblouseandi tst rouserIgotdr essed
aft
erI '
veappl i
edmybodyl otionIwal ked
downst airsit
'swasal ready6: 30am andI 'm
l
eav i
ngat7am Igotst artedwi thmybr eakfast
whichiscer
ealsaft
erIwasdoneIrinsedmy
mout handalsomydish,t
ookmycarkey sand
walkedoutthefamil
ywassti
l
lsleeping,t
hey
usuall
ywakeupat7or7:30
.
Idroveof
fandarri
vedatwor k,peopl
ewere
al
readyarr
ivi
ngtherecept
ioni
stwasther
e,I
walkedpasshim
Hi
m:"Hauy
ouj
ustpassl
i
ket
hat?
"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryI
'
mrushi
ng.
.Howar
eyou?
"
Hi
m:"I
'
m goodYou?
"
Me: "I
'm al
sogood..Ireall
yneedt ogowi l
ltal
k
l
ater"Iwalkedtotheelevator,Idon'
twantt o
makef ri
endsinmywor kplace,theelevator
openedont hemyf l
oorIgotof fandwal ked
str
aighttomyoffi
ce, Isl
owl yopenedthedoorI
foundJasonseatedonmychai r
Me:
"Whatar
edoi
ngonmyof
fi
ce?
"
Jason:
"Iwaschecki
ngi
fyoudoi
ngy
ourwor
k"
Me:"Thatdoesn'
tmeany oushoul
djustget
i
nsi
demyof fi
cewithoutmypermissi
on"
Jason:"Ial
sohavear
ightt
ogeti
nbecauseI
'
m
yoursuperv
isor"
Me:
"anannoy
ingonet
oo"
Jason:
"Whyar
eyouear
ly?
"Ipushedhi
m of
f
mychai
r
Me:
"Idon'
tanswert
oyou"
Jason:
"Il
oveyourat
ti
tude,
itsent
ert
ainsme"
hesatonmytabl
e
Me:
"Mov
eyourf
il
thysmal
lassf
rom myt
abl
e"
Jason:
"youknowIusedt
ohav
esexi
nthi
s
off
ice"
Me:
"Okay,
youcanl
eav
enow"
Jason:
"Makeme"hesmi
rked
Me:
"Idon'
thav
eti
mef
ort
his"Ipushedhi
m of
f
t
het
abl
eagai
n heseemsl
i
keheenj
oyst
his
Jason:
"Tryhar
derthanthat"It
ri
edt
opush
hi
m buthewassti
ffasfuck!!
Me:
"youcanbeanui
sancesomet
imes"
Jason:"Il
i
key ourout
fi
t,youlooksosexy"I
rol
ledmyey es,hegotof
ffrom mytabl
e
Me:
"ThankGod!Cany
oul
eav
enow?
"
Jason:"Iwi
l
lcomeback"Icl
i
ckedmyt
ongue
andstart
edworki
ng.
.
.
It
swasal r
eadyLuncht imeIwant edt odr i
veto
KwaNongomat ogetf ewt hingsofmi neandf or
Nkazi,sheneedst ostartattendi
ngcr èchenow,
Igather
edallmyt hi
ngsandwal kedt oJason'
s
offi
ce,nowIwillhavet obeghi m, Iknockedon
hisdoorbutnooner epliedsoIbar gedin
Jason:"youshoul
dhavewait
edformy
response"Il
ookaroundhewashalfnakedwi
th
t
wocompl et
elynakedgi
rl
s,wer
etheydoi
nga
t
hreesum ‍♀
Me:"Ineedyourhelp"hestoodupandwore
hi
spants,hewast opl
ess camet ostandi
n
fr
ontofme,hewaswayt ooclosef
ormyli
ki
ng
Jason:"Tal
ktome"heblowhisbr
eat
heonmy
faceIl
ostmysel
fforasecond,
mykneesgot
wobbly
Me: "CanIknockoffearl
ytoday?Ir
eall
yneed
tobesomewher eanditsurgent"
Imovedfr
om
him
Jason:"OhhIwil
ll
etyougoify
ouhavedoneal
l
yourworkfort
oday"hecl
osedthedoor
Me:
"youcan'
tbeser
ious"hechuckl
ed
Jason:
"unl
essi
fyouwantt
ojoi
nus"
Gi
rl
1:"Themor
ethemer
ri
er"
Me:"I
'
m someone'
swi
fedar
li
ngIcan'
tgo
ar
oundsl
eepi
ngwit
hboys"
Jason:
"Ni
cet
ry"Il
aughed
Me:
"Youshoul
ddoy
ourr
esear
ch"
Jason:
"Al
readydonet
hat"
Me:"Yougotoneweaksour
ce,
hedi
dn'
ttel
lyou
I
'm mar
ri
ed?Orwaitwhywerey
ou-
"hecutme
of
fshort
Jason:
"Thel
eftf
ingeri
sempt
y"
Me:"YeahjustbecauseIdi
dn'
thav
eawhi
te
weddi
ng..Anyway sI
'mleav
ing"
Jason:
"Idi
dn'
tsayy
oucango"
Me:
"butI
'
m goi
ng"
Jason:
"Iwi
l
ltel
lDad"
Me: "Bemyguest"Iopenedt hedoorandleft
headingtot
heelevator,gotinside..
.Gotoff
str
aighttot
heparkinglot,gotinsidemycar
anddr ov
eoffheadi
ngt oKwaNongoma. ..
Igoti
nsi
demyhouseandi
tswasempt
y,Ican'
t
beli
eveIwi llnol ongerli
vehere, I
'vestart
eda
newchapt eri nDur ban, whereIbelong, I
packedhal fofmycl othesthatImi ghtneed,
Nkazi'
sI mpor tantdocument safterthatIdrove
totheRoy al house, justtoseeMma. .The
guardsopenedt hegatesandIgoti nIgot
nervousal soangr ywhenIsawZwel i'
scar,is
thi
sacoi ncidentorwhat ??Idroveher ebecause
Iwasav oidinghi m nowhe' shere , Igotoff
thecarMt hunzi '
sdaught ersweret heonet osee
mef ir
st, theyr ant omeandwebr iefl
yhugged,
Iwalkedwi tht hem towher eeveryonewasat,
i
nt hegar dent heywer echil
li
nghav inganice
colddrink.
.
Me:"Sani
bona"(
hel
lo)Isai
dasIwassi
tt
ing
downonthematwit
hMma
Mma:
"Hel
l
omychi
l
dhowar
eyou?
"
Me:
"I'
m goodMma,
Ninj
ani
Bhut
'
Mthunzi
and
Zwel
i?"Theybot
hsai
d"Wear
efi
ne"
Mma:
"Whatbr
ingsy
ouher
e"
Me:
"hauMmaIcamet
ovi
sity
ou"
Mma:"Whenwast
hel
astt
imey
ouv
isi
tedme?
Wher
e'sZama?
"
Me:
"Il
eftherbehi
nd"
Zwel
i:"Wher
eyoucomi
ngf
rom dr
essedni
cel
y
l
iket
his?"
Me:
"Thi
siswhatIwasgoi
ngt
osay.
.Ideci
ded
t
omovebacki
nDurban"
Mma:
"Hauy
oucan'
tl
iv
efarf
rom y
ourhusband
"
Me:"Zwel
iandIwi
l
lnev
erbet
oget
herMma,
her
uinedme"
Mma: "ev
ery
onei
nli
fedeser
veasecond
chance"
Me:
"I'
m af
rai
dtol
oveev
eragai
n,Il
ovedZwel
i
MmaIsweartoGodIsti
ll
lov
ehi
m butIj
ust
can'
tbewi
thhi
m..I
'm sor
ry"
Mt
hunzi
:"her
eal
l
ydamagedy
ou"Inod
Zwel
i:
"I'
m sorr
y,whatshoul
dIdoorsayt
o
makeyouforgi
veme?"
Me:"Idi
dfor
giv
eyouZwel
ij
ustt
hatIcan'
t
f
orget"
Mma:"Sowhenarewegoi
ngt
oseeour
gr
anddaught
er?
"
Me:
"Shewi
l
lcomeandv
isi
tMma"
Zwel
i:
"Ar
eyoumov
ingper
manent
ly?
"Inod
Mt
hunzi
:"Thehouse?"
Me:
"Iwon'
tsel
li
t"
Mma:
"Let
'sgoi
nsi
desowecaneat"
Me: "I
'mful
l MmaIjustcameheret
otel
lyou
that,I
'veal
readywenttomyhouseandt
ook
everyt
hingt
hat'si
smineandNkazi"
Zwel
i:
"Wow"
Me:"Ibett
ergetont
her
oadMma.
.Ni
sal
e
kahl
e"(goodbye)
Mma:"Goodby
eBaby"Inodandst
oodup,
Zwel
ifol
l
owedme
Me:
"Whyar
eyouf
oll
owi
ngme?
"
Zweli
:"Iwanttohav
eawordwithyou"we
car
ri
edonwal ki
ngunti
lwer
eachedmycar
Zweli
:"I
'm sor
ryAnele..I
'
m notgoodinwords
butwhaticansayisthatpleasef
indi
tinyour
hear
ttoforgi
veme, Isti
ll
wantust oworkon
ourmarr
iagebut-
"
Me:
"you'
veal
readymov
edonZwel
i"
Zwel
i:
"She'
snotmygi
rl
fr
iend"
Me:
"ther
e'snoneedf
ory
out
odenyher"
Zwel
i:
"it
swasaonceof
fthi
ng"Isi
ghed
Me:
'Li
stenZwel
iIl
ovey
ou,
Ilov
eyousomuch
,myhear
tonlybeatforyoubutIj
ustcan'
tbe
wi
thyou,
loveisneverenough"
Zwel
i:
"Butwecanwor
ksomet
hingout"
Me:
"No.
.Thi
sisi
tIwi
l
lsenddi
vor
cepaper
s"
Zweli:"Idon'
twantustogetdi
vorced,we
didn'
tevenhadawhi t
eweddingsoi don'
tknow
whyy outalki
ngaboutdiv
orcepapers?"I
chuckled
Me:
"youbei
ngcheekynow"
Zweli:
"let
'sj
ustfindourselv
esfi
rstseehowits
worksoutwithotherpartner
sify
ourhappythen
wewilldiv
orce"Ilaughedbutheonlychuckl
ed
Me:
"OkayIguesst
hisi
s..
.goodby
e"
Zweli:
"Yeah"Iopenedmyar
msf
orhi
m,we
huggedatighthug
Zwel
i:
"Canyoudr
ivemetoyourhouse?Ineed
somet
hingt
her
e"InodhegotinIj
oggedtomy
si
de
Me:
"Whycan'
tyouuse-
"
.
Heattachedmewi thakiss aki ssf ullof
passi
on, desi
reevery
thi
ng, Ir
espondedt ot
he
ki
ss,Icouldn'
tholdmysel fwesharedonehel l
ofakiss,Ipull
edoutast ocatchmybr eathe,I
can'
tbeli
eveheleavesmet hi
sbreathless
Zwel
i:
"Goodbyethen"heki
ssedmyl i
psone
moreti
mebeforeheopenedthecarand
wal
kedinsi
dethehouse ‍♀
.
Istartedtheengi
neanddrovegoingbackhome
, al
lthewayIwast hi
nkingaboutZwel
i? he
caughtmebysur pri
se,Ireal
lywasn'
texpect
ing
this,IpassedbyMcDf orNkazi
'sBur
gerbefore
headingbackhome
.
.
.
I
'
m sor
ryf
ort
hisshor
tinser
t
Youwi
l
lgetacont
inuat
iononFr
idayni
ght
.
.
.
Admi
n
Cont
inuat
ion
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwalkedinsidethehousefeel
ingdefeat
ed,I
waspower lessIjustl
ethergowi t
houtafi
ght
butwher ewillIgett
hatstr
ength?Shetook
ever
y t
hingwi t
hherev enmyhearttel
lmehow
am Igoingtosur vi
ve? ?
.
Mom :
"Don'
twor
rybabyshewi
l
lcomeback"
Me:
"Iwasn'
tgoodMmaIwasunderaspel
l"
Mom :
"gi
vehert
imet
ocool
down"
Mthunzi
:"Thatgi
rll
ovesy
ou,
shewi
l
lcome
back"
Me:"Whati
ftheylovehermoret
hatIwoul
d?
Whati
fshedecidesnottogi
veusachance?
Whati
f-
"
Mom :
"St
op!Wi
thy
ourwhati
fs"
Me:
"Ican'
thel
pitMma"
Mthunzi:
"Maybegoi
ngt
oahol
i
daywi
l
lhel
p
youeasyyourmi
nd"
Me:"Ican'
tj
ustgo..Igotnewgreat
est
i
nvest
orsIwanthandlethem mysel
f"
Mom :"Okaydealwi
ththem t
henyouwi
l
lleav
e,
Ican'
tlety
oudiebecauseofstr
ess"
Me:
"Okayl
etmegoandsl
eep"Iranupst
air
s
t
omyroom Iwant
edt
ohav
eapieceofmind
.
Thenextmor ning It ol
dmysel fIwil
lstop
acti
ngl
ikeasi ssycryi
ngoverawomenbut
she'
snotjustanywomenbutshe' smywomenI
l
oveherendless,Ilookmyselfi
nt hemirr
or
Me:"I
tsti
mef orBhut
'Madli
satotakecharge"I
f
ixedmyblazerandwalkeddownstai
rsMom
wasal
readyawakeandupmaki ngbreakfast
Mom :
"Ihat
ethatgr
in"
Me:
"Goodmor
ningNdl
ovukazi
"
Mom :"Morni
ng.
..Youmuchbet
tert
han
yest
erday"
Me:
"Thi
sisanewv
ersi
onofZwel
i"
Mom :
"Idon'
tl
iket
hesoundoft
hat"
Me:
"don'
twor
ryIwon'
tdosomet
hingst
upi
d"
Mom :
"It
rusty
ou"
.
Icarr
iedoneatingIwasrushingtotheoffi
ce,I
ri
nsedmydi shandlit
eral
lyr
ant omycarIhada
meetingthatwasabouttostartandIwasl at
e,
Ispeedtowor kandlucki
lyt
hecl i
entsweren'
t
ther
ey et,
Iwalkedtotheboardroom Kwanele
wasal r
eadyprepar
ingformymeet i
ng
Me:
"Mor
ning"
Kwanele:"ohhey"wenev
ert
alkedaboutwhat
happenedtothetr
ip
Me:
"Ihopey
ou'
rer
eady"
Kwanel
e:"I
'
m al
way
sready,
Iboughty
oua
cof
fee"
Me:
"Whatwi
l
lIbewi
thouty
ou?
"
Kwanel
e:"l
et'
ssee .
.Pr
obabl
ynot
hing"
Me:
"AyIshoul
dputar
ingnoi
t"
Kwanel
e:"Idon'
tthi
nky
ouqual
i
fy"
Me:"OhhsoIdon'tqual
i
fy?
"Imov
escl
osert
o
her,
shelookeduptome
Kwanel
e:"Yesdoy
ouhav
eapr
obl
em wi
tht
hat?
"Ismi
rked
Me:
"Pr
obl
em i
smysecondname"
Kwanele:"Idon'
twanttobepartofit"t
he
boardr
oom dooropened, MrJacksonbargi
ng
i
n, heshouldhaveknocked
Me:
"OhMor
ningMrJ"
Mr
J:"Mor
ningSon"Inod
Me:"Let
'
sgeti
ntobusi
ness"ot
her
scl
i
ent
shas
ar
ri
ved..
.
Af
terwhatf
eltl
i
kef
orev
er,
themeet
ingwas
adj
ournedIwal
kedtomyoffi
ceandt
hrewmy
sel
fonthecouch,t
ookoffmyti
eandlai
dther
e
..Aknockcamethr
ough
Me:
"Comei
n!"Isai
dst
andi
ngup,
Kwanel
egot
i
n
Me:
"Mr
sIdon'
tqual
i
fyhowcanIhel
pyou"
Kwanele:"I
'm her
etodropoffthesefi
les.
.Why
di
dy outakeoffyourt
ie?"Shesaidfi
xi
ngmy
but
tons
Kwanel
e:"y
oul
ookr
idi
cul
ous"
Me:
"whydoy
oucar
eaboutmyl
ook?
"
Kwanel
e:"Iwi
l
lleav
eyouke"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tsayl
eav
eIwasj
ustaski
ng"
Kwanel
e:"Ineedt
omakeaphonecal
lby
e"
Me:
"youl
eav
ingwi
thaki
ssorhug?
"
Kwanel
e:"I
'
m noty
ourgi
rl
fr
iend"
Me:
"buty
ouhadaner
vet
ocal
lmebabyon
t
hatt
ri
p"
Kwanel
e:"j
ustwant
edt
ospi
tey
ou"
Me: "MmhIsee"sher ol
ledhereyesbef
ore
walkingout,Il
ookedatherasshewaswal ki
ng
away, may be may beshecanbemyr ebound
ri
ght??Iknowshewant smesowhyshoul dn'
tI
makeamov e?It
ookmyphonet ocal
lAnele
butIdecidedagai
nstit,Idon'
twanttoseem
l
ikeanuisance
.
.
.
Nt
ando
.
.
.
Me:
"Youcan'
tdomel
i
ket
hatMdl
uli
"
Mdlul
i:
"Iwanty
outoweart
his"Il
ookatt
his
ugl
ydresst
hatmat
chedwit
hhissui
t
Me:"Iwil
lchooseadr
essofmychoiceI
'
m not
l
ikeyourwi
fewhodoesn'
thav
estyl
e"
Mdl
uli:
"Idaret
oment
ionmywi
feagai
n,y
ou
wi
ll
regreti
t"
Me:"Regr
etit
??Youactli
keyoudon'tknow
whatI
'mtal
ki
ngabout..Shedoesn'
thaveStyl
e!"
Mdluli
:"OkayI
'
m cutti
ngoffyoural
lowance"he
pushedmeandwal kedoutthestor
e, Isi
ghed
andfoll
owedhim
Me: "What'
swrongwit
hy ou?Areyoutenseor
sexual
lyfr
ustr
ated?
"Ilaughedonl
ytoget
chokedbythismanl
yhand
Mdlul
i:"Li
stentomegi r
ly!Fr
om nowonIdon't
wantanythi
ngtodowi thyou,doyouhearme? "
Inodrepeat
edlyasIwasgoi ngoutifbreat
he
,hecli
ckedhistonguebeforedr
ivi
nglike
nothi
nghappened, Il
ookedoutthewi ndow
cryi
ng,howcanhecutmeof flikethis?Ihat e
thatnowIhavetogobacktoMami l
icious'
s
house Igotfi
ndmyselfar ealBlessernot
j
ustonebutthreeormore,Icl
ickedmyt ongue
ashewasdr oppingmeoff
Mdl
uli
:"Don'
twor
ryaboutt
hehouseIwon'
t
t
akei
t"
Me:
"Whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
hist
omebabe"
Mdluli:
"I'
mt eachingyouhowtorespectme"I
nodandwal kedinsidemyhouse,Isi
ghedasI
thr
ewmysel fcryi
ngIhatemysti
cki
ngat t
it
ude
towardsMdluliIlovehim andIdon'twant
tolosehim
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Thenextmor ningIdrovetowor kasIwasl at
e,
yesterdayIcriedmysel ftosl
eept hi
nki
ngabout
thedecisionImade, IswearIlovehim butIj
ust
can'tforgetI
'
v ealr
eadyf or
givenhim, t
he
problem iswithforgett
ing..
.
.
Igoti
nsi
dethebuil
dingrushing,Iwaswear
ing
mywhiteski
rtandmybl acklongsleev
eshi
rt
al
somymi nibl
ackheels, Ir
ushedtothe
el
evat
or
Me:"pl
easehol
dtheel
evat
or!
"Isai
drushi
ng,
I
goti
nsi
de
Me:
"ThankYou"
Jason:
"Pl
easur
eandI
'
mthi
nkangr
yaty
ou"
Me:
"Isai
dI'
m sor
ry"
Jason:
"ki
ssmeandIwi
l
laccepty
ourapol
ogy"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"whatify
ourl
i
pst
ast
esobadorbad
br
eathe?"
Jason:"onewaytoprovethati
st okissme"I
smil
edhet hi
nkshe'scool
neh?, Iwrappedmy
armsaroundhisneckIfel
thishandgoi ngdown
tomyass , he'
ssti
ll
tal
levenwhenI '
m
weari
ngheels
Me:
"Idon'
ttr
usty
ou"
Jason:
"youwanttosmel
lmymout hf
ir
st,
you
candothatIdon'
thav
eaprobl
em "
Me:"No"Ipul
l
edhisheadcloser,
hepickedme
upi
tswashardwrappi
nglegsaroundhiswaist
asmyskir
twasti
ght,buthepusheditup
Me:
"Thel
i
fti
saboutt
oopennow"
Jason:Idon'tcar
e"Istar
tedgri
ndi
nghim
slowl
ypaint
ingkissesonhisf
acegoingdown
tohisneck,hegrabbedmyassashewas
cursi
ngIgetof fhi
shold, If
ixedmyskirtashe
wasbalancingwi t
hwallsofthel i
ft
s,br
eathi
ng
heavi
lyIsmiledasmymi ssi
onhas
accompli
shed, Ididn'
tki
sshi m Ij
ustwanttol
et
hi
m seet hatIcanmakeaguysweatj ustbuy
l
itt
ledoi
ngs
.
Iwasthef
ir
stonetowal koutift
heli
ft,
Igot
i
nsidemyoffi
ceandlockedit,st
art
eddoingmy
workfewminutesl
aterIhear
daknock
Me:"whoisi
t?"Whoev ert
hatper
sont
ri
edt
o
openbuti
twaslocked
Me:
"whoi
sit?
"
Jason:"i
tsmeJason"Ismil
edmynaughti
est
smil
e,Iunbutt
onedmyshi
rtt
wobuttonsdown,
showingali
lviewofmycl
eavage,
Iopenedthe
door,hebargedin
Me:
"howcanIhel
pyou"Iwal
kedt
ohi
m
Jason:"Arey
ouafi
reorsomet
hing?Cause
babeyou'r
efl
ames"
Me:
"lamestpi
ckupl
i
ne"Il
aughed
Jason:"t
her
e'ssomet
hingabouty
ou"It
wir
led
around
Me:"somet
hingspeci
alanduni
queIknowI
'
m
r
are"
Jason:
"DamnthatAss y our
eal
l
yar
erar
e..
Somemotherf
uckeri
slucky"
Me:
"Yeshe'
slucky,
youwannadance?
"
Jason:" "Il aughedandtookoutmyphone
start
edplayi
ngLev elup-Ci
ara,Ipul
ledhim
cl
oserandst art
edmov ingmyassonhi scock
Iwonderwhati swrongwit
hmet oday,he
cursed
"l
evel
up!
!Lev
elup!
!"
Thesongst
art
edpl
ayi
ng,
Ist
art
edmov
ingmy
hi
ps
 "54321!
!lev
elup!
!"
Ibentandstart
edtweaking, heholdsmywai st
ashiseyeswereclosed, hekeptonbr ushi
ngit,
Il
aughednst oppedthemusi c,helookedatme
Il
ookedbackathi m oureyesconnected,
sl
owlyourfacemetashi slipslandedonmi ne,
myphoner ang,Imov edandwentt oatt
endit
.
Me:
"Mom "
Mom :
"Wher
ear
eyou?Nkazi
isbusyv
omi
ti
ng
her
e"
Me:
"Hauwhendi
dshest
art
ed?
"
Mom :
"Notsol
ongago"
Me:"Takehertot
heDoct
orMom , Iwi
l
ltr
yto
l
eaveearl
y"Jasoney
edme, hecamecloseand
cuppedmyboobs,hest
art
edli
ckingmyneck
Mom :
"Okaybaby"
Me:
"B.
.by
eMom "Iwai
tedf
orherr
esponse
bef
oreIhungup,
IpushedJasonof
f
Jason:
"what
'swr
ongnow?
"
Me:
"don'
tfuckwi
thme!
!Leav
e"
Jason:"don'
tfuckwithyou??Youwerehot
ri
ghtnowandaf tert
hatcal
lyou'
reTur
ingme
down"
Me:
"justl
eav
emeal
one"henodsandl
eft
.
What
'shappeni
ngt
oNkazi
?? what
swr
ong
wi
thmybaby? ?
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t23
.
.
.
Nat
han
.
.
.
Iwokeuptomyr i
ngingphone, Il
ookedbesides
meJordanandSwer estil
lsl
eeping,Itookmy
phoneasi
t'
shasst oppedri
nging,Icheckedthe
ti
meitswas02:07am Isi
ghedandcal l
edKing
asIsawhismissedcall
.
Me:
"hel
l
o"
King:"Igotthet
icket
s, passpor
tevery
thing,
myboy sarecomi ngt
of etchya'
l
l"Ismil
edasI
couldn'
tbeli
evet
hatthiswashappening
Me:
"Thanky
ouv
erymuch"
King:"Youbet
terbequi
ckwedon'
thav
e
enoughtimeby3am youshoul
dbeonyourway
toIt
aly"
Me:"okay"hehungup, Ij
umpedof
fthebed
andwenttoSiphokazi
'
sside,
Isl
owl
ytouched
hershoul
der,
shewokeup
Me: "Packev ery t
hingthingy ouneedwear e
l
eavingint henext15mi n"shenodsandst ood
upIhelpedherwi t
hpacki ngt heimportant
document s, Iheardt hehootout si
deIqui ckl
y
tookthesleepyJor danandr ushedout,Igav e
hertoSasshewasal r
eadyseat edinsi
det he
car,Itookaqui cklookatmyhousebef ore
gett
inginsidet hecar, Ican'tbeli
eveI'mleaving
Durbanf orgood , wear r
ivedattheai r
port,
Dideverythingwegoti nsidet hepl
ane✈ of fwe
gotoI t
aly
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Ireceiv
edacal
lfr
om MthunziasIwasbusyi
n
theoffi
ce,i
tswasthenextdayIhadsomuch
wor k
Me:
"Baf
o"
Mthunzi
:"Fozahowaboutwehi
tthecl
ubt
oday
"Ibr
ushedmyhair
Me:
"ei
sh!Idon'
tknow"
Mt
hunzi
:"comeon"
Me:
"okayatwhatt
ime?
"
Mt
hunzi
:"7pm "
Me:
"Okay"
.
Icarr
iedonwor ki
ng,Idon'
twanttoli
eImi ssmy
babynow, Iwonderifshe'
sokay,Iknowi fI
weretocallAneleshewill
thi
nkI'
m beggingher
butnoIjustwantZamabutl etmejustleave
her . .AfterIwasdonewor ki
ngItookmy
thi
nksandwal kedout,ImetKwanele
.
Kwanel
e:"l
eav
ingal
ready?
"
Me:
"I'
m amar
ri
edman"
Kwanele:"Poorwi
fei
fonl
ysheknowshow
naughtherhubbyi
s"
Me:
"Sheunder
standkant
i"
Kwanel
e:"Igot
taseeher"
Me:"wi
thti
mey ouwi
ll.
.May
bey
ou'
l
lbej
oini
ng
usi
ntheZuluf
amily"
Kwanele:
"Iwi
l
lnev
erbei
napol
ygamy
marr
iage"
Me: "y ouwil
l,Iwi
llt
akey ouasmysecondwi fe
"shel aughedandwal kedaway, Isi
ghedasI
waswal ki
ngtomycar, everythinginmyhouse
remindsmeofAnel eandIt hi
nkI 'm goi
ngcrazy
ialwayshearherv oice , Igotinsidet
he
caranddr oveoff,IthoughtI '
vet ookheroutof
mymi ndbutIguessIwasdecei vingmyself,I
j
ustdon' twanttoacceptr eali
ty. .Iarri
vedand
changedt omycasual clothesandwai t
edfor
Mt hunzitocomeandgetme, hecameandwe
droveof f
Mt
hunzi
:"Don'
twor
ryi
tswi
l
lhel
peaseupy
our
mi
nd"
Me:"Arethegir
lsgoi
ngt
obet
her
e?"Imeant
hi
sgir
lf
riendYol
i
swa
Mthunzi
:"No!Iwoul
dn'
tenj
oymysel
fif
Yol
iswawe'r
etocome"Ilaughed
Me:
"youguy
sar
eal
way
sfi
ght
ing"
Mthunzi:
"butIst
il
ll
oveher,
event
hou
someti
messheactcrazy"
Me:
"Il
ovehowy
ouguy
slov
eeachot
her"
Mt
hunzi
:"y
eahCal
vi
nischeat
ing"
Me:
"Zet
hu?
?"
Mthunzi:"It
houghtyouwar
nedy
ourf
ri
end
aboutthatbi
tchZethu"
Me:
"tr
ustmeIdi
d"
Mthunzi
:"Shefr
ustr
atedthehel
loutofme"we
ar
ri
vedatthispl
acelookedl
ikeaShisany
ama
Me:"Let
'sHopet
her
ear
ehotgi
rl
sher
e"we
l
aughed
Mt
hunzi
:"Nogi
rl
sfory
ou"
Wegotinsi
deanditwasful
l,wesawCalvi
n,
Zandaseat
edint
hecorner,wewalkedt
othem
.
Me:
"Ma'
Aut
hi"
Them :
"Sur
e"
Calv
in:
"befor
ewestartget
ti
ngdr
unkIneedt
o
fi
ndachick"wel
aughed
Me:
"Met
oo"
Zanda:
"youdef
ini
tel
yneedone"
Mthunzi
:"don'
tencouragehim "west
oodupas
wesawsomebeaut if
ul chi
cksseat
ednextt
o
t
hebar
Cal
vi
n:"Asikhal
ephakat
hi"wef
istbumpedand
wal
kedtothem
Me:
"Ladi
es"t
heyl
ookedatus
Cal
vi
n:"I
'
m Cal
vi
n,t
hisi
smyf
ri
endMor
gan"
Lady:"I
'm Kuhl
eandThi
sisLi
hlemyt
win
si
ster"
Me:
"howabouty
ouguy
sjoi
nusf
ordr
inks"
Kuhl
e:"Cool
"theyst
oodupandf
oll
owedus
Me:"Maji
that
hisi
sKuhl
eandLihl
e"t
heynod,
wesatdownIwasnextt
oLihl
e
Me:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Li
hle:
"thanks"
Me:
"youseem l
i
keashyper
son"
Li
hle:
"Kuhl
efor
cedmet
ocomeher
e"
Me:"I
'm sorr
yforthat,
buti
fshedi
dn'
tforce
youIwouldn'
thavemetthi
sbeaut
if
ulangel"
shebl
ushed
Me:
"I'
m ser
ious,
what
'
syoursur
name?
"
Li
hle:
"Magwaza"
Me:"awNj
i
nji
,Nj
omanekamgabhi
"she
bl
ushed
Me:
"shoul
dIcont
inue?
"
Li
hle:
"you'
vesai
denough"
Me:
"whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
ohav
e?"
Li
hle:
"pi
net
wist"
Me: "l
etmegetitthen"Ist oodupandwalked
tothebartogetherthatpinetwist,
someguy
whisperedsomethi
ngtot heDJandt heyst
art
ed
playi
ngslowjams, Iwal
kedbackt oLihl
e
Li
hle:
"ThankYou"
Me:
"sohowol
dar
eyou?
"
Li
hle:
"24"
Me:"owwwowbuty
oudon'tlookli
key
ou'
re24
It
houghty
ouwer
e30+"shelaughed
Li
hle:
"Ai
boh Idon'
tl
ookol
d"
Me:"I
'mjustpul
li
ngyourleg"Iwashav
ingmy
Hei
neken,Iwasal
readygett
ingTi
psy
Li
hle:
"youwannadance?
"IshookmyheadNo
Li
hle:"comeIwillshowy ou"shedr
aggedme
andwest ar
teddancingast heDJwasplay
ing
HukubySho_ Majozi,Li
hlewasdanci
ngandI
j
uststoodthereonthedancef l
oorl
ooki
ngat
her,shedancedcomi ngtome
Li
hle:
"Whyain'
tyoudanci
ng!
"Shewas
shout
ingast
hemusicwasloud
Me:
"Ican'
tdance!
"
Li
hle:
"fol
lowmylead"west
art
eddanci
ngt
hou
Iwashorr
ibl
eitwasf
un
Li
hle:
"your
eal
l
yhav
etwol
eftf
eet"
Me:"Itol
dyou"DJst
art
edpl
ayi
ngMat
ri
mony
byUsherandWale
Li
hle:"MayIhavet hi
sdance"Inodandwe
st
artedmov ing,
myhandsonherwai standher
ar
mswr appedaroundmyneck
"i
fther
e'saquest
ionofmyhear
t
Yougoti
t
I
tdon'
tbel
ongt
oany
one
Buty
ou
I
fther
e'saquest
ionofmyl
ove
Yougoti
t
Babydon'
twor
ryIgotpl
ansf
ory
ou
Yeah
BabyI
'
vebeenmaki
ngpl
ans
Ohl
ove
BabyI
'
vebeenmaki
ngpl
ansf
ory
ou
Yeah
BabyI
'
vebeenmaki
ngpl
ans
Yeah
BabyI '
vebeenmakingplansforyou" we
werebusydancingasIcar r
iedonli
steni
ngto
thel
y ri
cs,Ican'
tdothi
s ‍♂ thi
ssong
remindsmeofmywi fe cal
lmeasi ssybut
Idon'tcar
e
.
Me:"I'
m sorr
yLihl
ebutIcan'
tdothi
s"Iwal
ked
toMthunzi
'scarIsatt
her
esti
lll
i
steni
ngtot
he
song
.
"Wal
e

I
'
lladmi
tit
Letmebehy
pergeni
e
ThedayIf
indawomen
I
'
llpr
obabl
ybescar
edt
oshar
eit
Thei
deaofmef
indi
ngl
ove
Wi
l
lrunsomebodyof
f..
."
.
Hecont i
nuesinging,Ican'
thelpitashesaid"
Thisishardtrynafi
ndsomet imet omov eon,
cozwhenwel ostourbabyIgotshady* ***andI
thankyoubabyy oust rong"howcanasi mple
songmakemer ecal
loneverythingthathas
happened? ?Irememberhowbr okenshewas
whenwel ostNkazi '
stwin andi tswasall
becauseofme, shesufferedbecauseofme!
andIexpecthertowelcomemewi thher
l
ovingarms?I '
m stupi
d!rightnowI 'mtryi
ngt o
getoverhertel
li
ngmysel fthatsheleftme,
whatwasshesupposet odo?Car r
yonst aying
wit
hsomeonewhoabusedy oubrutall
y?Iheard
aknockfrom thewindowandi l
ookedupi t
s
wasMt hunziwit
hLihle,Iwipedmyt earsbefor
e
rol
li
ngdownt hewindow
.
Mt
hunzi
:"ar
eyoual
ri
ghtman?
"
Me:
"Ineedt
ogobackhome"
Mt
hunzi
:"Okayl
etmet
ell
theguy
s"Inod
Li
hle:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Me:
"whyar
eyouapol
ogi
zi
ng?
"
Li
hle:
"Iwast
heonewhof
orcedy
out
ocome
anddance"
Me:
"Noy
oudi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ngwr
ong"
Li
hle:"t
akecare"shelef
t,Isighedt
hisshiti
s
hardandit
salsohurt
ingme. .Whycan'tj
ustl
et
hergo?
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Imanagedtoconv i
nceJasontoletmego
homeearlybecausemybabyi ssick, hewas
shockedt
oheart hatIhaveababy, Ijustdidn't
paymuchat t
enti
ont ohimthi
sisconcer ning
mybaby hegav emet hewholeweekandI 'm
thankf
ul,
Irushedtomycarandspeedst raight
home, maybeit
sbecauseofal l
thej unkfood
shealwayseat,
assoonasIpackedIj umped
offt
hecarandt
her
eshewasl
ayi
ngi
nthecol
d
ti
l
es
.
Nkazi
:"Mamana"mytear
sjustdr
opped,she
l
ookedpal
e,Kanti
what'
shappeni
ngtoher?
Me:
"Baby ar
eyouokay?
"
Nkazi
:"I
'
m Si
ckMamana"Il
ookedatMom
Mom :
"Thedoct
orsai
dther
e'snot
hingwr
ong
wi
thher"
Me:
"ButMom shehot,
checkhert
emper"
Mom :
"Idi
dbutt
heDocdi
dn'
tfi
ndany
thi
ng"
Me:
"whatcanpossi
blymakehersi
ckMom ?
"
Mom :"Idon'
tknowbaby"Iwal
kedwi
thhert
o
myroom
Me:
"Youwantt
oeat?
"Shenods
Me:"Iwil
lbeback"Ipl
acedheronthebed,
I
don'
tevenhaveti
metochange,Ir
ushed
downst ai
rstomakeherasof tporri
dge,Idon'
t
evenknowi fshewilleatit,IaskedMom to
makei tformewhi l
eIchange, Iwal
kedbackto
myr oom andNkazi wasv omi t
ingonthefl
oor,I
quickl
ywentt oher,Ipickedherupandr ushed
tomybat hr
oom shecont i
nuedv omiti
ngunti
l
shewasdone
Nkazi
:"i
tshur
tMamana"shesai
dcr
ying,
I
l
ookedather
Me:"I
'm sor
rybaby"Ichangedhercl
othesand
dr
essedhertowarm cl
othes
Nkazi
:"I
'
mfeel
i
nghot"
Me:"butyougot
tawearthi
ssoyoucanbe
bet
ter"shenodandIdr
essedherup
Mom :"Anele!Sel
i
lungi
l
eiPhar
ishi
"(t
hesof
t
por
ri
dgeisready)
Me:
"i'
m comi
ng!
"
Me:
"Sl
eepherIwi
l
lbackwi
thy
ourf
ood"I
cover
edherwit
hablanketandwalked
downstai
rst
ogetherfood,whenIcameback
Nkaziwaswet wi thsweat
Me:
"Baby "
Nkazi:"I
'
mfeel
i
nghotMamana"Iundr
essed
her,shewasl
eftwi
thhernappi
e
Me: "let'
stryeati
ng"Iputheronmyl apand
startedfeedingherassoonasshewasdone
shest artedvomit
ing,Irushedtomythe
bathroom Iwasal socry
ing, howtoovercome
thissituati
on?Ican'tgi
veheranymedi ci
ne
whi l
eherst omachisempt y,shegotdoneI
carri
edherwal kedbackt omyr oom
Nkazi
:"ni
l
ambi
l
e"(I
'
m hungr
y)
Me:"Idon'
tknowwhattodonowbaby,
wheneveryoutr
iest
oeat,youendupvomiting"
shestar
tedcry
ingevenhercri
eswer
en'tsharp
asal
way s
.
Ideci dedt omakeherdr i
nkPanadoIhadno
choi ce, sheneedst osl eep, Ikeptonr ocking
herbackandf orth, slowlyandsl owl yshef i
nall
y
slept. .Nextmor ningIr eceiv edacal lfr
om
Jason, Itoldhimt hatNkaz i i
sst il
lthesame, I
j
umpedof fthebedandst ret chedbef ore
checki ngNkazi shewassl eepi ngandshewas
sweat y, Iwipedherandwentt akeabat h,
cryingIst il
lrememberhowNkazi feltsickwhen
shewasy oung, Zweli wasbyme, helpingme
butnowI '
m allalone ev enMom i sf ail
ing
tohel pme, Isomi ssZwel i now, hewoul dhav e
knownonwhatt odo, hewoul dhav ehel pedme
..Af terbat hingIwor emyl eggi ngsandmy
baggyT- shir
t, Ikneeleddownpr ayi
ng, Iwas
askingGodt ohel pmybaby, she'stooy oungt o
besuf feringliket his,may bei fIdon' tcutt hings
offwi thZwel i, Nkazi woul dn' tbet hissi ckright?
May beIshoul djustf orgetabouthepastand
focusonmydaught er!But. .Ican' tlethi min,
hedamagedmeI 'mlikethi
sbecauseofhis
acti
onsNo!!Thi
shasnot hi
ngtodowi t
h
Zweli! mybabyissi ckbecauseofnat
ure,
allt
hebabi
esgetsickright
??May beNkazi
ison
thatst
age
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t24
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Nkazi
:"Mamana"Ir
aisedmyheadupand
l
ookedather
Me:"You'
regonnagetbett
erbaby,Mom hav
e
agr
eatidea"Ipi
ckedherandbathedher,
I
wal
keddownstair
scarr
yingher
Mom :
"issheget
ti
ngbet
ter"
Me:
"she'
sget
ti
ngwor
sebutIgotagr
eati
dea"
Mom :
"whatar
eyougoi
ngdo?
"
Me:"Iwil
lheadbackKwamashuandl
ookf
or
t
radi
ti
onalheal
er"
Mom :
"What
!?Whycan'
tyout
akeherback
home"
Me:
"Idon'
twantany
thi
ngt
odowi
tht
heZul
us"
Mom :
"butNkaziist
hei
rpr
incess,
youcan'
tdo
any
thi
ngaboutthat"
Me: "she'
sal
somydaughtermom andIwi
l
l
takehertoanot
hert
radi
ti
onal
heal
er!"I
shouted
Mom :
"Okay"
.
Iwentt omakebr eakf astformeandmy
daught er,thouitswasast r
uggleeat i
ngbutshe
managedt oeat,Idr essedherint owar m
clothesout si
dewaschi l
l
edandal sowor emy
blackj eans, blackv ansol dskool andmyy el
low
redbatt op, t
ookmycarkey sanddr ovest rai
ght
toKwamashuIhopeI '
m maki ngagood
deci sion, Idrovepassi ngthePi ck'n'Payi nL-
sect ionKwamashu, Igotinsi
deandboughtf ew
thingsheadedst r
aightt othetradi ti
onal healer,
he'sst rongandsur elypredicttruet hings. .I
tookofmyshoesasIwasget ti
ngi nsidet he
hunt, IplacedNkazi nexttome, shewas
cli
ngi ngonmyt opshewasscar edt hisplace
sur elylooksscar y.
.
Me:
"Thokozamakhosi
"
Hi
m:"WhatcanIdof
ory
ou?
"
Me: "I
'm hav
ingaprobl
em here,mybabyi s
sickandthedoct
orscan'tf
indanyt
hingsoI
thoughtmaybeyoucanhelpme"hegr oaned
Hi
m:"Sot
hisi
syourchi
l
d"
Me:"YeboMkhul
u"hetouchedNkazi
'
shand
andscr
eamedshaki
ng
Hi
m:"I
'
m sor
ryIcan'
thel
pyou"
Me:
"youcan'
thel
pme?
?"
Hi
m: "i
fIwer
et oconsul
therancestor
sIwi
l
l
pr
obabl
ydie,she'
sroyal
tyri
ght?"Inod
Him:"yougot t
abecarefulyoucan'tgo
consult
ingothert
radi
ti
onal heal
erconcerni
ng
yourbaby, t
heymighttakeherbloodtoperfor
m
evi
ldoings,youneedtot akehertothefamil
y
tr
adit
ionalheal
erandalsof i
xthi
ngswithher
f
atherorel
seshewi
ll
die"theworddiemade
megetgoosebumps,Icantl
etherdi
e
Me:"t
hankyouMkhul
u"Icl
appedmyhands
ov
erandoveragai
n
Him: "goanddon'tlookback"Ist oodupand
tookNkazi wewalkedt omycar, Ican'
tbeli
eve
thi
si shappening,Igotinsi
deanddr ov
e
strai
ghttoKwaNongoma, Igotnochoicebutt
o
got her
e, whenMkhul ument i
ondy i
ngthatgot
scared,Ican'tgamblewi t
hmydaught er'
sli
fe,I
j
ustcan't
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Aftermybr eakdown, theguysandIwentback
home, Iwentstraighttobedandsl eptIdi
dn'
t
eventakemuchunt i
lIhear
daknock, Igotup
fr
ustrat
ed Iwant edtosleepbutwhoev er
waswant edt odisturbmysl eep,Iopenedthe
doorcli
ckingmyt ongue,Iwasshockedt osee
Bab'Zwaneonmydoor
Me:
"Baba"hegoti
nsi
de
Me:
"canIgety
ousomet
hingt
oeatordr
ink?
"
Bab'Zwane:
"I'
m nother
etochi
tchatwi
thyou,
tel
lmewhat'
swr ongwit
hyouandyourwif
e??"
heseemedangry
Me:
"ourr
elat
ionshi
piscompl
i
cat
edBaba"
Bab'
Zwane:"Compl
icat
ed??Doyouknowthat
compli
cat
edcankil
lsomeonei
tscanki
ll
your
daught
er!
!"
Me:
"I'
m notsur
eifI
'
mfol
l
owi
ngBaba"
Bab'
Zwane:
"Shewi
l
ldi
eifhermomscar
ryon
doingwhatshe'sabouttodo, youandhermom
wil
l beresponsi
blef
orit"hewal kedout,
Ireal
ly
can'tunderst
andcausehe'sspeakinginr
iddl
es
Me: "themustbesomet hi
ngwr ong,
Bab'Zwanewi l
lnevercomet omyhouse
himsel f,i
tsmustbei mpor tant"Ispoketomy
selfasIwasgoi ngupstair
s, Icheckedmy
pocketsear chi
ngf ormyphonet henshit
!Il
efti
t
i
nMt hunzi
'scar, ohwellIwillgetiti
nthe
mor ning
.
HereIwasseat edquiet
lywat chi
ngsoccer, I
wouldcommenther eandther eabouthowbad
theseguysareplayi
ngBay aboza!,Iwaswai ti
ng
forMthunzit
obr i
ngbackmyphone, Ididcall
ed
him wi
ththelandli
neheassur edmet hathe's
onhisway, i
tswasi ntheafternoon.Soccer!I
wasusingittokeepmymi ndsane, Icouldn'
t
evenhaveapeacef ulsl
eepasIwaswor r
ied
aboutZama
.
Aknockcamethr
ough,Ist
oodupaftercl
ear
ing
t
hetabl
ethatwasfi
l
ledwit
hdi
rt
ydishes
Me:"Coming!
"Isai
dasthatper
sonkepton
knocki
ng,
butdidthatst
oppedwhoev
erwasNo!
Me:"Isai
dI'
m comingwhatt
hehel
l
!"Ir
ushed
t
othedoorandroughl
yopenedi
t
Mai
d:"GoodMor
ningNkosana"
Me:"whatdoyouwant?
"Iwasi
rr
it
atedbyher
knocki
ngnonstop
Mai
d:"Iwassentt
ocomeandf
etchy
ou"
Me:
"whosai
dthat?
"
Mai
d:"TheKi
ng"shebowed
Me:
"Iwi
l
lfol
l
owy
ou"
Maid:"Iwastol
dtot
elly
outhat,y
oumustbe
qui
ckast hi
sisemer
gencyandyoudr
ivewi
th
us"shebowedagain
Me: "okayfi
ne.let
'sgo"Icl
osedmydoorand
walkedfoll
owinghertot
hecar,wegoti
nsi
de
andof f
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Myhear twasbeat i
ngrapi dlyhardonmychest,
hereIwasst andingi
nf rontoft hesel ongwalls,
Iwasscaredt ogetinsideIknow, Iwaswr ong
fortaki
ngNkazi toothertraditi
onal healer,I
shouldhavecalledZwel ibutmypr idewouldn't
l
etmebe, Ihootedbef oret heguar dsopened
thegate,Nkazi wassleepi ngonhercarseat, I
droveinandpar kedmycarandgotof f,
I
walkedtoNkazi
'ssi
de, t
ookherandcar
ri
edher
i
nside,IwasscaredIknowtheywil
lj
udgeme
andtheywon'tl
ookthi
ngsinmyperspect
ive.
.
Mma:
"lookswho'
sher
e,wear
ingpant
s!"
Me: "I'
m sorryMmabutIdidn'
tplancomi
ng
here..Sanibona"i
nthel
ounget hewas
Bab'Zwane, theKi
ng,MthunziandMma, t
hey
greetedback
Mma: "come, youcan'
tcomei
nwear
ingt
his,
you'
redisr
especti
ngus"
Mthunzi:
"Iwi
l
l t
akeher"shet
ookNkaziwho
wassleepi
ng,herwei
ghtwasget
ti
ngli
ghter
Mma: "fol
l
owme"Idr
oppedmyheadand
foll
owedher,
shel
edmetoaroom f
ull
of
clot
hes
Mma:"areyoucrazy
!?Doyouknowhowmuch
damagedyou'
vecaused!
?"Idr
oppedmyhead
Me:"I'
m sor
ryMmaIwast
ryi
ngt
ohel
pmy
daught
er"
Mma: "her
et akethi
sdresscoveryourheadand
shoulders"Inod,shegotoutIchangedtothe
dressIwasgi venwhilecry
ingIhatebei
ng
shoutedon, IwasdoingwhatIthoughtitwas
ri
ght!Igotdoneandwentbackt othelounge
Zweliwasal sothere
.
Zwel
i:
"Anel
e!?
"
Iwentt
osi
tont
hematnextt
oZwel
iandl
ooked
down
Mma:
"I'
mver
ydi
sappoi
ntedi
nbot
hofy
ou"
Dada: "AsMywi fewassay i
ngwear ev ery
di
sappoi nt
edespeciall
yyouZiyanda, y
ouknow
howimpor tantt
oi nf
orm usabouteverythi
ng
happeningtoourbaby, she'
sour snotyours
onl
y, caretovoi
ceouty ourexplanat
ionforthi
s
"
Me:"Iwasdoi
ngwhatIt
houghti
twasbestf
or
mychil
d"
Mma:
"Best
??Best
??"shechuckl
ed
Zwel
i:
"Seemsli
keev
eryoneknowswhat
'
s
goi
ngI'
mtheonl
yoneinthedar
k"
Mma:
"Yourpr
eci
ouswi
fe-
"
Dada:"shewi l
ltellhi
m herself.
.Wewill
leav
e
youandy oubettersortthi
ngsoutBab'Zwane
wil
lhelpZama"t heystoodupl eav
ingmewith
thedevil
,hiseyeswer ealreadyred Iknow
thi
slook!!Itt
hesamel ookIgotwheneverhe'
s
abouttohitme
.
Zwel
i:
"whathappenedt
omydaught
er!
?"I
st
oodupfr
ight
enedbyhisv
oice
Me:
"I.
.I
."
Zwel
i:
"Iwi
llaskyouagainWHATHAPPENED
TOZAMA!"Istar
tedcry
ingtj
oot
hewayIwas
scar
edIwasev
enshi
ver
ing
Me:"I.
.Iwasatwor
kwhenIr ecei
vedacall
fr
om Mom tel
l
ingmethatNkazii
svomit
ingnon
st
opand-"
Zwel
i:
"Makei
tshor
t!
"
Me:"Thedoctor
scouldn'
tfi
ndanyt
hingwrong
wit
hhersoIwent..Iwentt
oconsul
tanother
t
radit
ional
heal
er-
"
Zwel
i:
"What
!!"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry "hewal
kedcl
oset
ome
Zwel
i:"why?Whythef
uckwouldy
oudothat?
"
Hesaidpressi
ngmehardont
hewall
andhe
st
art
edchockingme
Zweli
:"your
iskedmychi
l
dli
febecauseofy
our
sel
fi
shness!
?"
Me:"I'
m sor
ry!
!"i
managedt osay,hel
ift
edme
upsti
l
lchocki
ngme,Ifeltmybreat
heleavi
ng
memyey eswasaboutroll
backwhenhe
st
oppedanddr
oppedmet
othef
loor
Zwel
i:
"howcouldyou??Youhat
emet hat
muchyouevenwanttoki
llmydaught
er??
"I
wascoughi
ngnonstop
Me:
"No!
!Iwi
l
lnev
eri
ntent
ional
l
yki
l
lmybaby"
Zwel
i:"youlethersuf
ferbecauseofy
ourpr
ide
andself
ishness!
!"hemarchedt ome
Me:"Zwel
iI'
m sor
ry"hepi
ckedmeup,
Iwas
scr
eaming
Me:"I
'm sor
ry!
!Pl
easefor
giv
eme!
!"Heni
cel
y
pl
acedmeont hecouch
Zwel
i:
"I'
m sor
ryf
orchocki
ngy
ou"hel
ooked
down
Zwel
i:"Ishoul
dn'
tletmeangertoovercomeme
,Vi
olenceneversolv
esanyt
hing,I
'm sorr
y
MakaZama"
Me:
"I'
m al
sosor
ry "
Zwel
i:
"Ishoul
dbet
heoneapol
ogi
zi
ngnoty
ou,
Icr
eat
edthi
sfearinsi
deofy
ou,
Iwast
otal
l
ya
monst
er"hesigned
Zweli:
"I'
m sorr
ybabeforhur
ti
ngyou,
IswearI
wil
ldowhat ev
eritt
akestomakeyouf
orgi
ve
me, Iwil
lgoandseeshri
nkand-"
Me:"ther
e'snoneed,Iwasal
soinfaul
tI
shoul
dhavecall
edyou"hechuckl
ed
Zweli
:"youwoul
dn'thavereachedme,
Ilef
tmy
phoneinsi
deMthunzi
'scar"
Me:
"let
'sst
artonacl
eansl
ate"hesmi
l
ed
Zwel
i:
"Cl
eansl
atei
tis"
Me:
"Iwantustoworkonourmarr
iage"I
smi
l
edlooki
ngathi
m, hesl
owlysmil
ed
Zwel
i:
"Iwouldl
oveto,Iwon'
tfor
cey
out
odo
somet
hingy
oudon'tl
ike"
Me:
"I'
vebeenmiser
abl
ewi
thouty
ou"hepul
l
ed
mei
ntoati
ghthug
.
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.
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n
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I
nser
t25
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Me:
"Ij
usthopeIwon'
tregr
etmydeci
sion"
Zwel
i:
"youwon'
t"
Me:
"weneedt
oseeamar
ri
agecounsel
or"
Zwel
i:
"Iknowonear
oundDur
ban"
Me:"okaywewi
l
lgot
oget
hert
oher
..
.Itaher
r
ight?
"
Zwel
i:
"yes"Inod
Me:"Ial
soknowsomeshri
nkyouwill
helpy
ou
wi
thyourangeri
ssue.
.Myneckst
il
lhurt
s"he
l
ookeddown
Zwel
i:
"I'
m sorr
y..Iwil
lcont
actt
hatshr
inkor
youwi
ll
doitinbehalfofme"
Me:"wewi
lldoi
ttoget
her"henodsagai
nand
hol
dsmyhands
.
Theeldersgetinsi
detheroom ,ZweliandI
wereseatedont hesamecouch, Mmal ooked
atmemor el
ikeanaly
sisme, shehadNkazi on
herarmsIstoodupt otakeherbutshewalked
toanotherdi
recti
onIsighedandlookedbackat
Zwelihesawwhatwashappeni ng
.
Bab'Zwane:
"Wemanagedt
ocal
m downt
he
ancestor
s"
Dada:
"Andy
ouZi
yandawi
l
lhav
etocl
eanse
uZama"
Me:
"Iwi
l
ldoso"
Dada:"youwon'tbeabletoleavewit
huntily
ou
havecleansemygranddaughter"hecli
ckedhis
tongueandlef
t,Bab'
Zwaneal solef
t
Mthunzi
:"Iwi
llgot
omyhouse.
.Herei
sy our
phone"hethr
ewaphonet
oZweliandl
eft,I
l
ookatZweli
Me:"IneedtogobacktoworkZwel
iandIcan'
t
l
eav
ewi thoutmydaught
er"
Zwel
i:
"Ihavenosayi
nthis"Isi
ghedt
his
meansIshoul
dst
ayhere
.
Mma:"Thedi
nnerwon'tcooki
tsel
f"shesai
d
wal
ki
ngdownthestai
rs,welookedather
Mma: "y ouhear dt hatright, thedinnerwon' t
cookitsel f"Isighedbef orest andingupwal ki
ng
strai
ghtt ot heki t
chen, Istartedprepari
ngwhat
wasont helist..Hour slaterIwasdone, Iwent
tosett het ableandt heyall camet oeat, Ihada
bigbowl sot heycanwasht heirhands, Ifi
rstl
y
wentt okneel beforeDadahewashedhi shands
andIwentt oZwel i ,Mmasai dshewasf i
neI
wentbackt otheki tchent odi sposethewat er
andwal kedbackIdi shedupf orZweliandMma
hasalreadydi shedupf orthemsel ves,Ididn't
staywi ththem Iwentt ocheckonNkazi
.
Me:"heybaby"sher
aisedherhands,
Ipi
cked
herup
Nkazi
:"Ni
kephi
?"
Me:"wear
eheret
ovi
sitdaddy"herl
i
ps
f
ormedasmil
e
Nkazi
:"Uphi
pho?
"
Me:"letmebat
hyouandwewi
l
lgoandsee
daddy"
Nkazi
:"NoMkhul
uomny
ama?
"Il
aughed
Me:
"Yes"shesqueal
ed
Nkazi
:"Nekenigeze!Asambeni
nif
una
uMkhulu"(Iwon'
tbath,
let
'
sgoandsee
gr
andpa)
Me:
"okay,
arey
ouhungr
y?"
Nkazi:"Nizodl
anoMkhulu"Ilaughedand
walkeddownst ai
rswi
thher,Iwashappythat
she'
sget t
ingbett
er
Mma:"AwuhhZamay ou'
reawake"wi
ggl
edout
ofmyar
msandr ant
oDada
Nkazi:
"Mkhul
uni
that
he!
"(t
akeme)sher
aised
herar
ms
Dada:
"MaZul
u"hepi
ckedherup
Nkazi
:"Ni
zodl
anaweani
thi
Mkhul
u"(Iwi
l
leat
wit
hyouMkhulu)
Dada:
"Mymeati
sof
fli
mit"shesul
ked
Nkazi
:"UMamanauzoyi
cephul
a, mesethins
si
benenyamaewu2"(Mom willcuti
tint
otwo
pi
ecesbothofuswi
ll
getit)Il
aughed
Mma:
"HaaMaZul
u"wel
aughed
.
ThedinnerwasoverandIwast ir
edofNkazi
andhergrandpa'
sjokesandst ori
es, Icansee
thatshewasenjoyi
ngher sel
f,shewassl owly
getti
ngbacktoherbubblyselfandIwashappy.
Thenwehav eami ssi
onwhenwear eaboutto
sleep Nkazi wassleepless,shewoul drun
aroundthehousegetti
ngi nt
omyr oom andr un
outagaingoi
ngtohergr andparentsroom busy
screaming ‍♀
.
.
.
Zol
i
swa Uy
angi
hluphamos
.
.
Cr
opt
op
Admi
n

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rangedMar
ri
age:
Anel
e

25

Cont
inuat
ion
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Thenextmor ningIwokeupt oprepare
breakfastf
orev er
yone,Idi
dn'twanttowai t
unti
lMmawakemeup, Ifi
xedbreakfastfor
everyoneIthenwenttotakeabat h,Ihaveto
goandbuyal lthenecessar
ythingstocleanse
Nkazi
.
Iwalkedi
nsidethebedroom aft
erIwasdone
taki
ngabath, di
dItel
lyouthatIshar
edar oom
withZweli
? Damny eahbabewedid, an
nothi
nghappenedhewant edtocuddlebutI
stoppedai
n'ti
ttooearl
yforthat?
Me:
"You'
reawake?
"Hewasseat
edont
opof
t
hebed
Zweli
:"y
eahwher
ear
egoi
ngear
lyi
nthe
morni
ng?"
Me:
"Ineedt
ocl
eanseNkazi
today"
Zweli
:"ohokay..Excuseme!
"Heranout
headi
ngtothetoil
etaft
erawhil
ehecameback
Me:"ar
eyouokay?
"Iaskedappl
yi
ngl
oti
onon
mybody
Zwel
i:
"may
bei
tssomet
hingIat
e"Inod
Me:"canyoudr
ivemet
omyhouseIneednew
cl
othes"
Zwel
i:
"Dur
ban?
"
Me:
"Noher
e"
Zwel
i:
"It
hought
-"
Me:"Yeahy
outhoughtwr
ong,getupIwanna
go.
.Ohbythewaybreakf
asti
sready"
Zwel
i:
"Ohhletmefreshenupthen"Isatonthe
bedwait
ingf
orhim,f
ewmi nut
eshecameback
wewalkeddownst
air
swi t
hhim,hewasacting
ki
ndaweirdt
oday ‍♀
Nkazi
:"Mamana!
!"Ipi
ckedherup
Me:
"Heybaby"
Nkazi:
"Ni
sut
hi"sheshowedmehert
ummy,
I
l
aughed
Me:
"whof
edy
ou?
"
Nkazi
:"uGogo!
"Inod
Me:"I'
m goi
ngsomewhere, y
ouwil
lst
ayhere
wit
hUGogo"Iwast aki
ngchances,
shedoesn'
t
l
iketobelef
tbehi
nd
Nkazi
:"Cha!
!Nihambanawe"shecr
ossedher
l
it
tl
earmspoutedli
ps,Ismil
ed
Nkazi:
"Cha!Anele Nihambanawe!
"She
st
aredatme, Iknewshewasaboutt
ocry
Nkazi
:"Daddyt
akeme!
"
Me:
"Ngi
hambanay
enj
e"shest
art
edcr
ying
Nkazi:
"Nami ini
hambanani..Mkhul
u!!
"Sher
an
tohergrandpacryi
ng,
Ilaughedthi
soneis
dramati
c
Dadapi
ckedherup,
shewascr
yingf
orr
eal
Zweli
:"wewi
llgowit
hyouke"sheraisedher
headasshewascry
ingonDada'sneck
Nkazi:
"Namini
yahamba?
"Inod,
shewi
ggl
e
outandrant
ome
Nkazi:
"Cel
aukugeza!"Il
aughedandwentt
o
bat
hher,dressesheri
nthesameclot
hes,and
wentdownstai
rs
.
Mma:
"Wher
ear
eya'
l
lgoi
ngwi
thZama?
"
Zwel
i:
"Wewill
bebackMma"sheevi
ley
edme
shehasaprobl
em wi
thmet
uuh
Mma: "YouknowthatuMakaZamaisnot
al
lowedtogooutsi
dethesepremi
seswit
h
Zama"
Zweli:
"Zamaiswit
hme"Iwasl ookingdown
l
isteni
ngtot
hem t
alki
ngaboutmelikeI'
m not
evenhere
Zweli:
"let
'sgo"Iwast hefi
rstonet
owalkout,
thefol
lowedafterme,ItookNkazi'
scarseatt
o
Zweli'
scarbeforegoi
ngin,wegotinsi
dethe
houseanddr oveoff
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwokeupt odayhav i
ngthisurget ovomit ,
Irant othebathr
oom af terIwasdoneIr i
nsed
mymout handwentt ositont hebed,washead
waski ll
i
ngme i hadthishugeheadache
,blooddr ai
ned,ti
redev eryt
hingfeltheav
yinmy
l
egs, IhavetoconsultaDoct ormaybeI'
m
comi ngdownwi thflue
.
Wedrovet
oherhouse,I'
vebeensendi
nga
cl
eani
ngcompanyther
e,tomakesureit
scl
ean
Zama:
"Hau!
!"
Me:
"what
'swr
ongbabe?
"
Anel
e:"Thi
shousei
scl
ean!
!ZZwel
i
?"
Me:"I'
vebeensendi
ngacleani
ngcompanyt
o
comeandclean"shenodsandrantoher
bedr
oom
Zama:
"Daddy?
"Ipi
ckedherup
Zama:"Umkhulusai
dImustgetabrot
hernow
"Il
aughedt
rustDadtot
alkshi
ttobabi
es
Me:
"Doy
ouwantabr
other?
"Shenods
Me:
"wewi
l
ltel
lyourMom t
hen"
Anel
e:"Tel
lmewhat
?"Il
ookedup
‍♂ HolyShit
!
Anel
e:"Zwel
i
!!"Shi
tIwasdr
ool
i
ng,
ayyguy
s
mywi
fei
shot
Me:
"umm .
.Zamat
ell
herbaby"
Zama:"Mkhul
usai
dIshouldgetabrot
herand
Dadsai
dIshoul
daskyouforone"shelaughed
Anele:"y
ouwillgetabr
otherwheny ou'
re5
yearsnotnow"shewalkedaway, headi
ngto
kit
chen,shecamebackwi thwaterandheaded
meagl ass,Ir
aisedmyoneey ebrow
Anel
e:"y
oul
ookpal
e"shel
aughed
Me:
"NoI
'
m not"
Anel
e:"Ibett
ergetgoi
ng,
youwi
l
lheadbackt
o
ther
oyalhouse?"
Me: "NoI'
m goi
ngt
omyhouse"herf
aces
changed
Anel
e:"whenyou'
regoi
ngdon'
tfor
gett
odr
op
Nkazii
ntheroy
alhouse"
Me:
"it
shi
ght
ime,
sheknowswher
eIl
i
ve"
Anele:
"nochi
ldofminewi
l
lev
ensethercut
e
footi
nsi
deyourhouse"
Me:
"but
-"
Anel
e:"I
'
m nomoodt
ofi
ghtwi
thy
ou"Isi
ghed
Me:
"okay"
Anel
e:"Byebaby!
"Shekissedt
hegi
ggli
ng
Zama,shethenwalkedt
omeandgav emea
hug
Anel
e:"I'
m showingaf
fect
ion,
takecar
e"she
l
eftusi
nganothercar
Me:
"it
sjusty
ouandmebaby"
Zama:
"DaddycanIhav
eicecr
eam ?
"
Me:"let'
sgoandbuysome"Itookmycarkey
s
andpickedherup,wal
kedoutst
rai
ghtt
omy
carandofftothemal
l
.
Me:
"youshoul
dchooseone"shehadt
wo
Bar
biedol
lhouse
Zama:
"But
-"
Me:"No!
"Shegav
emeonehel lofalookbusy
mumbli
ngthi
ngs,Ichuckl
edt
hisoneactl
ike
hermom
"
Zwel
i!
!"Iknewi
twasKwanel
e,It
urnedand
DamnshewaswithZet
hu
Me:
"ladi
es"wehugged
Kwanele:
"youdon'
tevencall
tosayyou'
renot
comingtoworkandwhatareyoudoi
nghere?"
Me:
"umm-
"
Zama: "Daddy
!!Look"shewashol
dingt
hisbi
g
teddy
Me:"Wowbabe,goandtakeonef
ormommy"
shel
aughedandr
anback
Zet
hu:
"isn'
tthatAnel
e'
sbaby?
"
Kwanel
e:"i
tssur
eiti
s"shecamebackwi
th
t
wof
luf
fyt
eddi
es
Zama:
"lookDaddy
!"shegi
ggl
ed,
Ipi
ckedher
up
Me:
"guy
sthi
sismydaught
erZama"
Zet
hu:"Iknewshewasyour
sther
esembl
ewas
waytoohight
oignor
e"
Me:
"Yesshei
smi
ne,
mybaby,
mywor
ld"
Zama:
"Icecr
eam!
!"
Me:"byeguy
s"wewentt opayandwalkedout
headi
ngtoMc'Dboughtherabur
gerand
McFlur
ry
.
Doc:
"Idon'
tseeany
thi
ng"
Me:"youcan'tseeanyt
hing?ButDocI'vebeen
feel
i
ngdizzy,blur
ryvi
sion,headache,
heavy
body??Allbutyoudon'
tseeany t
hing"
Doc:
"Nkosanay
oushoul
dcomebackagai
n,I
wil
ldoanothert
est,
bri
ngy
ourpar
tneraswel
l"
Inodandtookmybabywal
kedout
.
Whatcoul
dbeapr
obl
em t
hen?
.
.
.
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n
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I
nser
t26
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
AfterIwasdonebuy i
ngallthenecessarythings
iwentbacktomyhouset ocheckifZwel i
is
thereornot,j
udgingbyhiscarparkedint he
dri
v ewayhe'
sher ebutwhydidhepar kedi nthe
dri
v eway??Howam Isupposet ogetinnow? ?
Icli
ckedmyt ongueasIgotof ft
hecar, how
canhebesost upi
dli
kethis
.
Me:"Zwel
i??"Isai
dget
ti
nginsi
det
hehouse
headi
ngst
raightt
othel
ounge
Me:"Zwel-
"Ist
oppedasIsawhim sl
eepi
ngon
fl
oorwit
hNkazionhi
schest,howlonghaveI
beenout?
Me: "nowthaty
ousleepi
nghowam Igoi
ngto
shoutatyouNx"Isai
dmumbl i
ng,It
ookhiscar
keysandwentbacktomov ehi
scarbef
ore
taki
ngmi nei
n
.
Igotinsidethehousewenttochangemydress,
woresweatpantandav estaf
tert
hatIwent
downst air
stomakef ewyesIboughtf
ew
groceri
es
OnceIwasdonewi t
hlunch,Iwenttositonthe
couchwatchedsomet.vunt
ilNkaziwokeup,
sherai
sedherarmsIroll
edmyey esbefore
taki
ngher
Me:
"Hel
l
obaby"
Nkazi
:"Mamana"sherubbedherey
esl
ooki
ng
socut
e,Iki
ssedherl
ips
Me: "ul
ambile?"Shenods,Istoodupwi thher
onmyar ms, Iwalkedtothekitchenwithher,
I
sl
owl yputheronthekit
chencount erandfi
xed
herfoodaswel lasZweli
'
s, If
edherbut
becauseshe'sadiveshewant edt of
edhersel
f
sowhynot ? ‍♀ Iwentt owakeZwel i
.
Me:
"Zwel
i
?"Isl
owl
ytouchedhi
sfacezhe
mumbl
edsomet
hing
Me:
"Zwel
i
!!"
Zwel
i:
"What
??"
Me:
"Ai
bohwakeup!
"
Zwel
i:
"cany
ouj
ustl
etmesl
eeppeacef
ull
y"
Me:"y
oubeensleepi
ngsi
nceIcameher
eit
s
al
mosttwohour
snow"
Zwel
i:
"don'
tbeanui
sancepl
ease"
Me:"okaygoandsl
eepi
nyourhousesi
nceI
'
m
anui
sance?"
Zwel
i:"Nx"hest
oodupandwentupst
air
s,I
l
aughed
Me:"Nkazi
babywhat
'swr
ongwi
thy
ourf
ather
?"
Nkazi:
"Anazi
nami,si
hambi
lekaDokot
ela"
(I
don'
tknow,wewenttoseeadoctor
)
Me:
"youwentt
othedoct
or?
"
Nkazi
:"ehhe"
Me:"Iwi
llbebackokay"Iki
ssedherf
orehead
andwentupst
air
s
Me:"Zwel
i
"hewassleepingont
opofmybed
andhewascompl
etel
yflat
Me:"ayIgi
veup"Iwentbackdownst
air
stobe
wi
thmydaughter
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwokeupatni ghtandIswearthere'
s
somethi
ngwr ongwi t
hme, I
'
m notaheav
y
sl
eeperbutnoway y, Iwenttocl
eanmyselfi
n
t
hebathr
oom andwentdownst
air
sthel
ounge
wasf
il
ledwi
thlaught
er
Me:
"Sawubona"Isai
dtoAnel
ewhol
ookedat
mel
i
keI'
vegrownhorns
Zama:"DaddyMom saidyousl
eepl
ikeababy"
shel
aughedandwenttostandf
arfr
om her
Mom asshewascall
ingher
Me:
"Isl
eepl
i
keababy
?"
Anel
e:"Idi
dn'
tsayt
hat"
Zama:
"ushi
l
o!"Shel
aughed
Anel
e:"I'
m nev
ert
ell
i
ngy
ouasecr
etev
eragai
n
Nkazi"
Zama:"Naxol
i
sa"Il
aughedandwentt
othe
ki
tchen,
damnIwassohungry
Me:
"ist
her
eanyf
oodher
e?"Ishout
ed
Anele:
"int
hemicrowave!
!"sheshout
edback,
whenIopenedt
hemi cr
owaveJesus
MinceandMacaroni Iwentbacktot
he
l
oungeandsatdownst
art
edeat
ing,
they
l
ookedmeatweirdl
y
.
Me:
"What
??"Isai
dwi
thamout
hful
loff
ood
Anel
e:"y
ou'
redi
sgust
ingy
azi
"
Nkazi:
"Wedon'
ttal
kwhi
l
ehav
efoodonour
mouth!
"
Anel
e:"t
ell
herbabe"
Me:
"leav
emeal
one"Anel
e'
sphoner
ang
phonecal
l
Her:
"Jason"
.
..:
"..
..
."
Her:
"It
houghty
ouhav
egi
venmeaweek"
.
..:
"..
..
"
Her:
"okayf
ine!Iwi
l
lmakeapl
an"
.
..:
"..
..
"
Her:"Geez !!Isai
dIwill
makeaplan"she
droppedthecal
landsatdownangr
y,it
srang
again
Her
:"
What
!?"
.
..:
".
..
"
Her:"MmaI
'
m sor
ry "Il
aughed,
sheev
il
eyedme
.
..:
"..
..
"
Her:"wewil
lcomenow"sher
emovedher
phoneshockedt
hatMmahasj
ustdr
oppedthe
cal
l
.
Anel
e:"what
'swr
ongwi
thy
ouMom ?
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknow"
Anel
e:"seemsl
i
keshehassomepr
obl
em wi
th
me"
Me:
"whatdi
dshesay?
"
Anel
e:"wemustcomebacksowecancl
eanse
Nkazi"
Me:
"Thenl
et'
sgo"
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Wef
ixedoursel
vesandwal
kedt
oourcar
Hourslat
erev eryt
hingwasdone,Nkaziwasnot
al
lowedtoeatt hemeatt j
o t hewayshecr i
ed
butyouknowDadasof tenherupsaying
weareeatingar ottenmeat Ial mostfor
got
Zweli ‍♂ hewasbei ngdramaticorwei r
d
henowcan' tstandblood hecan' tst
andt he
smellofI
mphephosi ncewhen??He
i
mmedi atel
ythrewupwhenDadawas
slaughteri
ngthegoat Iwonderwhati s
wr ongwithhim shameandJase onepai nin
theasst hatone, he'
sbeencalli
ngsending
messagesnumer oustimesIdon'tknowwhatt o
donow, hewant smebackt owor kbutIknow
forsureaf t
erthi
stomor r
owmor ningI'
m going
home, Ican'tstandthesepeopl
eespeciall
y
Mma, hzeratti
tudeisaturnoff ‍♂
.
.
.
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n

Season2
I
nser
t27
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
I'
m happynowev ery
thi
ngisokay,I'
vecl
eansed
Nkazi nowI '
mf r
eeIwil
ltakemybabyandgo
backhomebutIneedt odiscussthiswi
thZweli
Ididpr omisehimthatwewi l
lworkonour
mar r
iagef i
rstst
episcommuni cat
ion,
communi cati
onisal
wayst hekey
Iwasinsi
detheki
tchenwithMma, shewas
l
ookingatmeweirdl
y,todayenoughusenough!
I'
m goi
ngtoaskwhatherproblem wi thme,I
wil
lunder
standi
tit
swassomet hingf ort
hat
daywhenIcamewi thasickNkazi andalso
weari
ngapantsbutIdidapologizewhatdoes
shewant
sfr
om menow?Can'
tshej
ustf
orgi
ve
me?
.
Me:
"MmacanIt al
ktoyoupri
vat
e"t
hewere
mai
dsi
ntheki
tchen,shenodswewal
kedt
o
t
hel
ounge
Me:"whateverIdidt
oyou, I
'
m sorr
yplease
for
giv
emeMmay ou'
vebeengiv
ingmeev i
l
eyeseversi
nceIcamehere,whatdidIdoto
you?"
Mma: "y
ouli
kemaki
ngmysony oupuppet,
you
l
ikepl
ayi
ngwithmyson,y
ouwanthi
mt henext
minut
esyoudon'
twanthi
m"
Me: "IwishIcouldtel
lyoumyr easonsbutI
don'tl
ikediscussi
ngmymar r
iagewithyou,I
knowi t'
swillbeli
keI'
m di
srespecti
ngyoubut
pleasebarewi t
hme, Ican'
ttelly
oumyr eason
I'
m sorry"
Mma:
"noneed,
I'
veseeny
ourt
ruecol
ors,
you
knowatfir
stIt
houghtyouwer
ethi
sinnocent
l
itt
legi
rl,
whowouldmakeawonderfulwi
fein
thi
shousebutIwaslyi
ngtomysel
f"
Me:"don'
tpushmeMma, don'
ttakemeback
t
othatli
feIr
eall
ywantt
ofor
get"Istoodup
Me: "Ital
kedt oy ouint her i
ghtmannerbutnow
IseeImadeami st
ake"Iwal kedupst airsto
takemyt hings, andal soNkazi '
si wasf umi ng
withanger, howcoul dshebesounr easonable
,thatexcuseorwhat ev eritwasitspur elame!, I
gotinsidetheroom wher eNkazi wasat, she
waspl ayi
ngwi thherDad' sphonewhi l
eot hers
wer eplayi
ngwi t
ht oys, thelookonherf ace
mademel tmyhear t,alltheangr i
nessIhad
waswashedaway, Iwonderi fsheknowswhat
she'sdoingthere
.
Me:"Sani
bona!
"Thel
ookatmestoodup
qui
ckl
yandcametohugme,the"
Diva"di
dn'
t
evenlookatme,
shewaswaysof
ocusedon
thephone
Me:
"sawubonaNkazi
"
Nkazi
:"YeboMamana,
YeboMamana"
Me:
"comel
et'
sgo,
wear
egoi
ngbackhome"
Nkazi
:"okayNi
yeza"Istoodonthedoor,she
wasn'
tmov i
ngbutshesaidshe'
scoming
Me:
"Nkazi
!!
"
Nkazi
:"Ha.
aAnel
e"
Me:
"Iwi
l
lhi
tyousobad"
Zwel
i:
"Nev
er!
!"Hesai
dbehi
ndme
Me:
"Iwi
l
lhi
ther"
Zwel
i:
"keepondreaming"Ir
oll
edmyey
esand
wal
kedout,
andthehusbandwasfol
l
owi
ngme
Me:
"Uy
aphi
?"
Zwel
i:
"Iwantt
otal
ktoyouaboutsomet
hing"
hel
edmetoourroom ,
Isatont
heedgeofthe
bed,hetookasmallchai
randcamet
osi
tin
fr
ontofme, hehol
dsmyhand
Zwel
i:
"Idon'
twantt
ofi
ghtwi
thy
ou"
Me:
"fi
ghtwi
thmeaboutwhat
?"
Zweli:
"Ihadat
alkwi
thMom "Ir
emov
edhi
s
handsonmy
Me:
"ohsosher
ant
oyou!
?"
Zwel
i:"I
'
m speaki
ngt
oy oui
napolit
emanner
buty
ou'r
ebusyshout
ing"Il
ookeddown
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Zweli:
"Nowletmehol
dthoseli
tt
lehandsof
your
s"Ismil
edandgavehim myhands
Zweli
:"Mom yesshedidrant
ome, she
complai
nedaboutyournewat
tit
ude,shesai
d
youdisr
espect
edher"
Me:
"but
-"
Zwel
i:
"I'
m notdone,
lookI
'
m nott
aki
ngany
si
descauseIknowMom wi l
lwantmet oher
si
debecauseshe'smymom andy oualsowill
wantmet otakeyoursi
debecausey ou'r
emy
wif
e,Iwi l
ldonosuch,whateverissuesyou
havewithMom pleasesol
veit,Idon'twantt
o
bepartofitbutIwoul
dli
ketoseey ouwi t
h
Mom getti
ngalongli
kebefore"
Me:
"Iheary
ouandIwi
l
ltr
ytot
alkt
oher"
Zwel
i:
"thanky
out
hat
'sal
li
naski
ng"
Me:"Okayf
ine"heki
ssedmyhandsonebyone
,Igi
ggl
ed
Zwel
i:
"whati
sitt
hatIhear
"
Me:
"Uzweni
?"
Zweli
:"t
hat'
syouareleavi
ngtoday,
whywasn't
It
oldaboutthi
s?Idon'
trememberyoutel
l
ing
meaboutleavi
ngtoday"
Me:"howwi
ll
Itel
lyoucausey
ou'r
eal
ways
sl
eepi
ngnow,what'
swrongwit
hyou"he
si
ghed
Zweli:
"Idon'
tknowmywi f
e, Iwenttothe
Doctort
heotherdaybutthebl oodt
estcame
backnegati
vetheycoul
dn'tfi
ndanything"
Me:
"may
bey
oushoul
dtel
lBab'
Zwane"
Zwel
i:"May
behemighthel
pme"sil
ent
cl
oudedus,wel
ookedateachot
her
Zwel
i:
"youar
ebeaut
if
ulmyl
ady"Ibl
ushed
Me:
"youal
sohandsomemyman"hechuckl
ed
Zwel
i:
"let
'stal
kaboutwhat
'sgoi
ngt
ohappen
nowbecauseyou'
rel
eavi
ng"
Me:"youwil
lsendmey ourschedul
e,Iwillal
so
sendmine,af
terthatwewi l
lseewhichdayi s
sui
tabl
eforustovisi
tthemar ri
agecounsel
or
andIontheotherhandIwi l
lfi
ndyouashr i
nk"
hechuckl
ed
Zwel
i:
"doIr
eal
l
yneedashr
ink?
"
Me:
"Don'
tbest
upi
dnow"wel
aughed
Zwel
i:
"Il
i
ket
hishappysi
dei
fus"
Me:
"Ial
sol
i
keitt
oo"ourf
oreheadmet,
Iwas
f
eel
i
ngsomechemist
ry
Zwel
i:
"CanI?
"
Me:"youdon'tneedtoevenask,it
'sal
lyours"
heputshishandsonmywai st,t
hebutter
fli
es
asourli
psmet, Nkazigoti
nsi
detheroom
Zwel
i:
"Badt
imi
ngZama!
!"
Nkazi:
"Ani
thi
ici
mil
e"(t
hephonei
sof
f)I
l
aughed
Me: "l
et'
smeseebaby"shegav emet hephone
,shemusthav epr essedhardtheonbutton
anditsswit
chedi tsel
foff,Idi
dn'tswi
tchitof
f
becauseitwil
ltakelongbeforewego, Ineedto
go
Me:
"Thebat
ter
ydi
edbabe"
Nkazi
:"Mamanacelaey
akho"shesmil
ed
r
eveal
ingherdeepdi
mpl
es,Idi
dn'
tevenknow
shehaddi
mpl
es
Me:"Nowy
ou'
regonnat
akeabat
handwewi
l
l
go"
Zweli
:"Nowgoandt
ell
oneoft
hemai
dst
o
bat
hy ou"
Nkazi
:"Cha!
!Ni
zogezanoMamana"Il
aughed
Zweli
:"Nomeandy
ourmom wear
ecur
rent
ly
busy"
Me:"Noman!Zweli,
comelet
'sbat
hbaby"
Nkazi
sti
ckhert
ongueoutf
orherdad,
Zweli
f
rowned
Zwel
i:
"Iwi
l
lgety
ouf
ort
hat"
Nkazi
:"Neke!
!"Sher
ani
nsi
det
hebat
hroom
.
Iwasbusysayi
nggoodbyestothemaids,
Nkaziwaswit
hZweli,
afterIwasdoneIwentto
hugDadaandwenttoMmat hel
ookshegave
meIjustl
aughedandhuggedhersti
l
lthough
shedidn'
treturnit,
Idon' tcare af terIwas
donewi t
hamoodymot herinl
awIwal kedto
mycarandgav eZwel iatighthugevenNkaz i
j
oinedit Ut handaizintolomntwana
wheni pull
outZwel ihadt ears
Me:
"ar
eyoubei
ngf
orr
eal
now?
"
Zwel
i:
"Nosomet
hinggoti
nsi
demyey
e"
Me:
"mmmhIsee"Iwasn'
tconv
incedatal
l
Me:
"Seey
out
hen"
Zwel
i:
"Docal
lpl
ease"Inodandgoti
nsi
de
dr
oveoff
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwassadt oseemywi feanddaught erl
eaving,
ImeanIwasget ti
ngusedtot hem butnow I
quickl
ywentinsideIdidn'
twantMom t oseeme
l
ikethistear
swer efal
l
inglikeawat erf
allwhich
wasr eal
l
ywei r
d Iwalkedstraighttomy
room andslept
.
Thenextmor ningIwoker unningstr
aightt
othe
bathroom tov omit myt hroatwassosore,
I'
m getti
ngt i
redofthis,Ican'ttakei
tanymore,
Ifi
xedmysel fanddressedt oi mpr
essas
alwaysIwal keddownst ai
rs, theMaidswas
makingbr eakfast,t
hesmel lmaderushtothe
toi
letimmedi atel
y,Lordhel pme
.
Me: "Whyar
ey oucooki
ngr
ott
enf
ood?
"I
askedoneofthemaids
Mai
d:"Nkosana,
Icookedy
ourf
avor
it
e"
Me:
"fav
ori
te?
?"
Mai
d:"eggsandbacon?
"
Me:"No!
!Iwon'teati
t,i
tssmell
ssobad"I
t
ookmybrief
casesandrushedoutheadi
ngt
o
mycardr
ovestrai
ghtt
owor k,Kwanel
egot
i
nsi
demyof f
icewit
hacupofcof f
ee
.
Kwanel
e:"Goodmor
ning"
Me:
"Hey"
Kwanel
e:"goty
ourhotcof
fee"
Me:"Idon'
tfeel
li
kehav
ingcof
fee,
cany
ou
r
atherbuymeanapplej
uice"
Kwanel
e:"appl
ejui
ce?
"
Me:"y
esandpl easebequi
ck"shenodsand
l
eftwi
thhercoffeeaf
terawhi
l
eshecameback
wi
thanapplejui
ce
Me:"ThankYou,CanyoubuymeaburgerI
'
m
sor
ryfort
roubl
i
ngyoubutI'
mreal
l
ycr
av i
ngfor
i
t"
Kwanel
e:"i
tsunl
i
key
out
oeati
nsi
det
heof
fi
ce
"
Me:
"ther
e'saf
ir
stt
imef
orev
ery
thi
ng"
Kwanel
e:"r
ight"shewal
kedoutl
ooki
ngatme
wei
rdl
y , Ismi l
edasIr
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om my
wi
fe
Phonecal
l
Me:
"Bambol
ami
"
Her:
"Hey,
howar
eyou?
"
Me:"Igr
eet
edyouverynicel
yandwenay
ou'
l
l
bel
i
kehey"shelaughed
Her:
"Si
thi
l
'si
kaNdaba,Magebawami
omuhl
e"
t
hewayIwasblushi
ng
Me:
"nowy
ou'
ret
alki
ng"
Her:"Iwant
edt
oremi
ndy
ouaboutt
he
schedul
es"
Me:
"ei
shIwi
l
laskmyp.
atosendi
ttoy
ou"
Her:
"okay,
howar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:"I'
m goodj
ustt
hatt
hev
omi
ti
nghasst
art
ed
agai
n"
Her:
"Ai
bohdi
dn'
tIt
ell
yout
ovi
sitBab'
Zwane"
Me:
"If
orgoty
azi
i"
Her:"t
hat'
stheconsequencesoffor
get
ti
ng
somethi
ngv er
yimportant"Kwanegoti
nsi
de
thesmell
Me:
"BabeIgot
tagonowmyf
oodi
sher
e"
Her:
"okayby
e"shehungup
Me: "Kwaneleyou'
reagodsent"Iki
ssedher
cheeksandwentt osi
tdown,star
tedeati
ngthe
meltingcheese Jesust akemenow
thi
sf oodisdel
ici
ous
.
.
.

Season2
I
nser
t28
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Aft
ereati
ngmyy ummydeliciousf
ood,Ifi
xed
myselfandcarr
iedonworking,Kwanel
e
bar
gedinsidef
umingwit
hAnger
.
Me:
"Andt
hen?
"
Kwanel
e:"Howcany oupl
aymel i
ket
his, you
mademecatchfeel
ingswhil
eyouknowt hat
yougotawif
eandthingsar
egoinggreat"
Me:"Youactli
keIoncef
uckedy
ou,
theway
you'
resoat
tached"
Kwanel
e:"You'
reunbel
i
evabl
e"
Me:"IneversaidIwant
edy
ouf
orreal,
can'
ta
ni
ggafli
rtnow?ImeanwhywouldIdat
ean
i
nsecur
el adyl
ikeyou?"
Kwanel
e:"Zwel
i
"shesai
dinasmal
ltone"
Me:"l
iker
eal
l
ywhyImeanIgotabeaut
if
ulwi
fe
,cut
ebabywhywoul
dIwantyou?"
Kwanel
e:"Sowhat
everhappenedi
nthet
ri
p
wasall
afli
ng?"
Me:"youcancal
li
tli
kethati
fyouwant,butI
don'
tcar
e"Iwentt
ostandnexttot
hewindow
Me: "ohbythewayyousmell
sobad"she
rushedoutcry
ing,Imeant
heper
fumesmell
ed
sobadwasIwr ong?
?
.
.
.
Nt
ando
.
.
"Af
ewst
olenmoment
s
I
sal
lthatweshar
e
You'
vegoty
ourf
ami
l
yandt
heyneedy
out
her
e
ThouIt
ryt
oresi
st
Bei
ngl
astony
ourl
i
st
Butnoot
hermani
sgonnado
SoI
'
m sav
ingal
lmyl
ovef
ory
ou
I
t'
snotv
eryeasyl
i
vingal
lal
one
Myf
ri
endst
ri
edandt
ell
me
f
indamanonmyown
Buteacht
imeIt
ry
Ij
ustbr
eakdownandcr
y
CauseI
'
drat
herbehomef
eel
i
ngbl
ue
SoI
'
m sav
ingal
lmyl
ovef
ory
ou
Youusedt
otel
lme
We'
drunawayt
oget
her
Lov
egi
vesy
out
her
ightt
obef
ree
Yousai
dbepat
ient
Justwai
tal
i
ttl
elonger
Butt
hatj
ustanol
dfant
asy
Igott
ogetr
eadyj
ustaf
ewmi
nut
esmor
e
Gonnagett
hatonl
yfeel
i
ng
Wheny
ouwal
kthr
ought
hedoor"
.
Iswitchedoffthesongast hewasaknockon
thedoor, Ican'
tbelieveMdlulihasn'
tcontacted
meaf tert
hatincident,I'
vebeencookedupi n
myhouse, havi
ngf ewclientstopaythebi l
l
s, I
don'twanttolieImi sshi
m, Iwanthim, Isti
ll
l
ov ehim
Iwasbusysi ppi
ngmywi ne,smoki
ngsome
weed, t
ryingt ogetmymi ndoffhim, Istoodup
Iwaswal kingbar enaked, Idon'
thavet i
mef or
clot
hes,Iev enboughtadi l
dojustsoIcan
reachanor gasi m, Il
azil
yopenedt hedoorI
washighasf uck,Igotsobbersamet imeasI
sawwhowasont hedoormyoneandonl yBae
,l
ooki nghotasev er
.
Mdlul
i:"won'
tyoul
etmein"Shi
t!
!I'
m naked,
butheyImovedandlethi
min
Me:
"Ihopey
oudon'
tmi
nd"hel
ookedatme
shocked
Mdl
uli
:"I
tsokay"hesatdown
Mdl
uli
:"y
ousmokenow?
"
Me:
"whenev
erI
'
m st
ressed"
Me:
"whatcanIdof
ory
ou?
"
Mdl
uli
:"Iwaswonderi
ngi
fyoucoul
dgowi
th
meonthatdi
nner?"
Me:
"whydon'ty
out
akey
ourpr
eci
ouswi
fe?
"
Hel
ookedatme
Mdlul
i :
"okayfi
ne"hestoodupr eadyt ol
eav
e,
No!Ican'tl
ethim dot
hisagai
nIr ushedtohi
m
andkissedthefuckoutofhi
m, heki ssedme
backandpulledout
Me: "I
'm sor
rybaby, Ididn'tmeani tli
kethatI
sti
l
lwanty ouandIwoul dreallyappreci
ateiti
f
youtakemet ot hatdinner, I
'
m sorryfor
ment i
oni
ngy ourwifeagain, IswearIwi l
lnever
doitagain"Irepeatedlykissedhislips"Iwant
youonl
yyou,
you'
ret
heonet
hatsat
isf
ymei
n
ever
yway"
Mdlul
i:
"I'
m gl
adt
oheart
hat,nowgoandsleep
Iwil
lcl
eanupher
e,t
hedi
nnerisonFr
iday"
TodaywasaMonday
Me:"weshoul
dcont
inueshoppi
ngf
orourout
fi
t
t
hen"
Mdlul
i:
"Okaybabe"Iki
ssedhim onelastt
ime
andwalkedt
omyr oom andsl
eptthouitswas
har
dcausethebedwasr ot
ati
on,weed
‍♀
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Iwaswokenupbyt hegiggl
esandki ssedall
overmyf ace,Iknewit
swasNkazi andThabile,
Copycamebackwi t
hhisdaught ert
hatIdidn'
t
knowof f,appar
entl
yhedidn'tknowabouther
unti
lshe's6andGodwear r
ivedthedaybef or
e
yest
erdayandherandNkazi myGodt he
naughti
nesshasaccelerat
ed, thenoise
Il
ookupandt
heyhi
det
hei
rfaces
Me:
"Mor
ningbabes"
Them :
"Morni
ngMamana"y
esNkazi
inf
luenced
her,
shecal
l
smeMamana
Me:"CanIgoandfreshenupnow?"Theygot
of
fme, Iwentt
obathIwaschecki
nglateat
workaf
termybathIwentbacktot
heladies
j
umpingonmybed
Me:
"Iwi
l
lki
l
lyou,
youl
i
ttl
erat
s"
Thabi
l
e:"HauAmaGundane"t
heyl
aughedI
endedupsmi ling,tookmysuit(femaleoutfi
t)
start
edwearingit, t
hepantwerequitetooti
ght
Am Igaini
ngwai t?Thecleavagebaba i
wasev enshockedmysel fbut"Ungibona
ngicebi
leungiphethekahl
euDali"Icarr
iedon
getti
ngdressed, appli
edmymakeupwi t
hthe
helpoftheDivas, wewalkeddownst ai
rswith
them
.
Mom :
"You'
reget
ti
ngbi
gger"
Copy:
"thatPanti
swayt
oot
ight"
Dad:
"Yesi
tis"
Me:
"Nogoodmor
ning?,
howar
eyou?"
Mom :
"Ay
ysuka"wel
aughed
Copy:"honest
lyspeaki
ngy
oushoul
dn'
twear
thatpant
severagain"
Me:
"thanksf
ort
hel
ect
ure,
ear
lyi
nthemor
ning
"
.
I
'v
efi
nishedeat
ingmybreakf
ast,
rinsedmy
mout
handof ft
owork,Jasonwast her
eal
way
s
Me:"Youl
ovethi
sof
fi
ceneh?"Isai
dwal
ki
ng
i
nsi
demyoffi
ceandJasonwasinsi
de
Jase:
"itgotabestv
iew"
Me:
"Iwoul
dswapwi
thy
oubutNo"
Jase:
"Thati
sonehel
lofat
ightpant"
Me:
"ur
ggev
ery
onei
stal
ki
ngaboutmypant
s"
Jase:"I
'
m notcompl
aini
ngt
hou"hel
i
ckshi
s
bott
om li
p
Me:
"you'
veal
way
sbeenaper
vet"
Jase:"backtowork,ther
e'sadi
nnerdat
ethat
I
'm at
tendingandIwouldl
iket
otakeyouwit
h"
Me:
"thatsosweetofy
ou"
Jase:
"soy
ou'
rei
n?"
Me:
"sur
e,whynot?
"
Jase:"okayIwill
seey outhen"Inodhewal ked
out,andIgetstartedwit
hmywor k,thewayI
wassosl eepy,evenboughtsomet hi
ngt hatwil
l
boastmyener gywaskaakt ir
ed,theknock
di
sturbmef rom mysleep, j
asegotinside
Jase:
"si
ncewhendoy
ousl
eepatwor
k?"
Me:"Idon'
tknowwhat'
swrongwi
thmet
oday,
butI
'
mf eel
ingabi
tti
red"
Jase:
"wi
shIcangi
veadayof
fbuti
can'
t"
Me:
"yeah,
sowhyar
eyouher
e?"
Jase:"I
'mtaki
ngy
ouout,
comebacky
our
thi
ngslet
'sgo"
Me:
"Ican'
tsaynot
ofr
eel
unch"Ist
oodupand
t
hemessImadeonmyoff
icet
abl
e
Me:
"Iser
iousl
yneedap.
a"
Jase:
"Icanhel
pyougetone"
Me:"Iwouldr
eal
l
yappreci
atet
hat"Itookmy
bagandoffwegoGuesswhat?Hetookmeto
Pick'
n'
Pay t
het
rol
l
eyepi
sodecameback
fl
ooding
Me:
"ar
eyoubei
ngf
orr
elnow?
"
Jase:
"Yesthi
siswher
eit
sal
lst
art
ed,
steal
i
ng
peopl
etr
oll
ey"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tst
eal
your
s"
Jase:
"fi
nel
et'
sbuyf
oodsowecango"
Me:"youarever
ystingyJason, y
oushould
havetakenmetofancyrestaur
antsbutnoyou
hadtopickPi
ck'
n'
Pay"hel aughed
Jase:"don'
tbecr
azy,
wher
ewi
l
lIaf
for
dfancy
rest
aurant
s?"
Me:"y
ouearnmor et
hanmebuty
ou'
reast
il
l
compl
aini
ng,spoi
lbr
at"
Jase:
"Igotsomethi
ngforyou"hewenttotake
abigt
rol
ley,pi
ckedmeupl i
keIwasnothing
andni
cel
yplacedmeinsidethetrol
l
ey,
theway
Iwasl
aughinghestar
tedpushingmearound
unt
ilt
hesecur
it
yst
oppedus
.
Me:
"looknowmypant
sar
etor
nup"
Jase:
"notmyf
aul
t"
Me:"it
salwaysnotyourfaul
t"wewentt opay
andheadedtothepark,gotthefl
eeblanket,
ni
celypl
aceddown, wesattherewatchi
nghow
peacef
uli
twas, i
tswasdur i
ngtheday, i
tswas
ni
cebusylaughi
ngohhgodl if
eisgood
.
.
.
Kwanel
e
.
.
.
Iwasv
eryhur
tanddi
sappoi
ntedaboutZwel
i
's
wor dst owardsme, nowIsmel l badImeadon
hi
sf acei twaslikei
tsabadodour, si
nceI '
m
crazyi nlovewithZweliI'
vedecidedt ohur t
wher eIknewhewi l
lsurelynoti
cewhi chi s"
Anel e!"GuysIhatethatWomenwi t
hal lofme,
shet ookmyman shelef
thi m brokenI
hadt opi ckupthepiecesandnowhe' sgood
andf r
eshshewantt otakehi m back?Ov ermy
deadbody, i
fIdon'
tgetZwel i
'
sweaknessesI
willdef i
nit
elyki
llmyselfbutno Iknowone
i
tsei therhiswifeorkid
.
Me:
"Geor
gehowi
sitgoi
ng?
"
Him:"I
'v
ebeenfol
l
owingherar
oundnowand
sheoutwit
hsomedude"
Me:
"takepi
ctur
esoft
hem ,
Iwantt
osee"
Hi
m:"goti
t"
Me:
"okaycar
ryonkeepi
ngt
absonher"
Hi
m:"sur
e"
.
Ihungup, Lordwill
havetofor
givemeIlove
hi
m, Iwantonlyhim Iwoul
dusedblackmagic
butnosi ncehe'sbeenthr
oughthatsur
elyhe'
s
protectednow, butwit
hAnelei
tsanother
di
fferentstor
y
.
.
.
MaKhumal
o
.
.
.
Iknowy ouprobablyhat
ef orhavi
ngthi
satt
it
ude
, butwhatI
'
mf acingismor ethanwhatmeets
theeye,Iwenttoadoct ortodomydai l
ycheck
upsandtheresultreal
l
ykill
edmeshutmy
wholeworl
d, I
'
m HI Vpositi
ve,Iknowmy
husbandgoti
tfrom oneifhisot herwi
fe'
sbut
howcanthatwifebesocr uel?Shedoesn' t
thi
nkofus??Ihat emyl i
feri
ghtnow
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Atni
ghtmyphonerani
twasAnel
e,Iwonder
whatdoesshewant
s
.
Me:"bet
terbeimpor
tantbecauseyou'
ve
di
stur
bthenextKi
ngoftheZuluKingdom on
hi
ssl
eep"
Her:"YouknowIhav
ethi
sur
get
oheary
our
voi
ce"
Me:"soy
oucall
edjustbecausey
ouwantt
o
hearmyv
oice,
real
l
y? "
Her:"don'tbel
i
kethat,It
ri
edsl
eepi
ngbutI
coul
dn't,somethi
nginsi
deofmeisyear
ningf
or
yourvoice"
Me:"Nowthaty
ou'
vehear
dit,
canIsl
eep?
"
Shegi
ggl
ed
Her:
"sayt
hatagai
n"
Me:
"Nowt
haty
ou'
vehear
titcanIsl
eep?
"
Her:
"itt
ickl
esmyst
omach"
Me:
"that
'swei
rd"
Her:"mywhol
ebodyv
ibr
atest
othesoundof
yourvoi
ce"
Me:
"Mmmh"
Her:
"Goodni
ght"shehungupj
ustl
i
ket
hat
.
.
.
Admi
n
I
nser
t29
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Mom :
"Ain'ty
ougoi ngt
owor k?"Thatwasmy
Mom'
sv oice,Isatupstr
aightandrubbedmy
ey
es
Me:"YesI
'
m goi
ngt
owor
k,whyar
eyouaski
ng
?"
Mom :
"it
scl
oset
ohal
fpast10now"
Me:"What!?"It
ookmyphoneandi t
sr eal
ly
cl
osetohalfpast10, Iqui
ckl
ygotoffthebed
andrantothebathroom ,di
devery
thi
ngand
wenttogetdressed,Iwalkeddownstair
s
Mom : "OhhTodayy a'l
larewear i
ngcasual
clot
hes? "Casualclothes? ?Il
ookedatmysel fI
wasi naj eanandat ankt op,Irushedback
upstairscrying,
OMG!I '
m sol at
e, what
happenedt ome?Idi dsetmyal arm cl
ockbut
now, I'mt hi
slat
e, Iworemybl acklong
j
umpsui tandredheel s,letmeweav el
ooseohh
yesterdayIwentt oasal oonwi t
hJason, gota
newweav e
Mom :"Nowy out
hatyougoodcomeandeat"
thewerescr
ambledeggsjusthowIli
ket
hem ,
I
carr
iedoneat
ingIevenaskedforsomemor
e
Mom :"y
ouwer
ereal
l
yhungr
ybabe"Ist
op
eat
ing
Me:
"whyar
eyousay
ingt
hat?
"
Mom :"i
t'
sunl
ikeyout
oeatthi
smuchona
morni
ng"Icli
ckedmytongueandst
opped
eat
ing
Me:"si
nceyou'
recompl
aini
ngabouty
ourf
oodI
wi
l
lstopeat
ingit"
Mom :
"Don'
tberude,
Iwil
l cl
apyousohar
d"I
t
ookmycarkeys,mybri
efcaseandl
eft
.
Iwal kedinsi
det hebui l
dingrushing, people
werel ookingatmel ikeI '
m crazyorsomet hi
ng,
butIdi dn'
tmindt hem , gett
inggi nsidethe
elevatorIsawt hereasonwhy, myt wof ront
buttonswer eunbut t
onedcl earlyshowsmy
breastast heare, Ididn'twearanybr a,soonas
thedooropensIr ant omyof fi
ce, gotinside
andl ockedmydoor
Jase:"y
ouar everyl
ate"Igotf
ri
ghtenedIdi
dn'
t
evencheckedifthewasanyoneinsi
de
Me:"Jasewhatareyoudoingher
e"Iwasst
il
l
hol
dingthedoor
shandle,mybackfaci
nghi
mI
don'
twanthimtoseemel i
kethi
s
Jase:
"y ouseemst
ofor
got,
thaty
ouundermy
super
vision"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryf
orbei
ngl
ate"
Jase: "I'
m notuglyy ouknow"Ihear dhis
footstepswal ki
ngt owardsme, Ist
arted
breathingheav i
l
y, hishandslandedonmy
waisthesnakedt hem aroundmywai stwhich
wasv eryuncomf or
t abl
easIdidn'
tfeelany
ti
cklingf eel
i
ng
Jase:"Tel
lmet hereasonbeingthis"hebite
myear l
obe,t
otall
yturni
ngmeon, It
urnedand
l
ookedathim, hiseyeswentst r
aighttomy
vi
sibl
ebreast
s, heslowlydroppedhishandI
cl
osedmyey esIf el
tHistongueonmybr east,
hewasl icki
ngmewhi chgotmef eel
i
nghothe
broughtuphi sfaceagainhisgazemademe
wanthi m more, Iat
tachedhim wi
thakiss,a
ki
ssf ul
l ofl
usthedidn'thesi
tat
ehekissedme
back, weshar edonehotkissbutIpull
outas
hestartedtouchingmyass
Me:
"whatar
ewedoi
ng!
"
Jase:"IknowyouwantmeasmuchasIdo"I
mov edawayfr
om hi
m andwentst
andbyt
he
window
Me: "I
'
m amarr
iedwomanJase,Il
ovemy
husbandsopl
easest
opconf
usingme"he
chuckl
es
Jase:
"I'
m abachel
or,wel
lIdon'
twantt
o
conf
useyou,Iwantyou"
Me:
"St
op!
!JustSt
op!
"Hecamecl
osert
ome
Me:
"Idar
eyout
otakeanot
herst
ep"
Jase:
"whaty
ougonnado?
"Hedi
dtook
anotherstep,Itookofmyheelquickl
yand
thr
owi ttohisface,heduckedandstepped
back
Jase:
".Geez"heunl
ockedt
hedoorandlef
t,I
wentt
ositonmychairandst
art
edcryi
ng
Me:"ohmyGodt here'
ssomethingwrongwith
me* snif
f*whyam Icr yi
ngnow"Icriedmor e
havi
ngt hethoughtthathaveIgonecrazyor
what?, Ishoul
dcal lZwel
i,maybehewi l
lhel
p
me, Itookmyphoneanddi al
edhisnumber, i
ts
rang
.
Hi
m:"Mybeaut
if
ulwi
fe"Isni
ff
ed
Hi
m:"what
'swr
ongnow"
Me:"ImissyouandI
'
veal
somi
ssedy
ourv
oice
"hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"ar
eyoucr
ying?
"Inod
Hi
m:"Okaywhatshoul
dIdosot
haty
oucan
st
opcr
ying?
"
Me:
"comeandv
isi
tme"sni
ff
Hi
m: "Iwi
llcometomor
rowf
oroursessi
onwi
th
marr
iagecounsel
i
ng"
Me:
"butt
omor
rowi
ssof
ar"hesi
ghed
Him:"aft
erworkI
'
m comi
ng,Iwon'
tsl
eepi
n
yourhouset
hough"Ismi
l
ed
Him:"Iknowyou'
rearesmili
ngnow,
yougood
canIgetbackt
owor k?"Inod
Hi
m:"Babe?
"
Me:
"yesy
oucan"
Hi
m:"By
eMakaZama"Igi
ggl
ed
Hi
m:"doesi
tti
ckl
esy
ourst
omach?
"
Me:
"Yes!
"
Hi
m:"andy
oul
ovei
t"
Me:
"Yes!
!"Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"okayby
e"
Me: "by
e"Idroppedt
hecallandsmil
ed,Zwel
i
i
scomi ngthi
sside andI'm sohappy,
I
star
tedworki
ngsoIcanfi
nishupandgowait
forZweli
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwokeupmuchbet terthanyest
erday, nomore
vomiti
ngIguessitwasjustpassi
ng, Istoodup
walkedtomybathroom tobath,Iwasi na
happymood, Imeantomor r
owI '
m goingto
Durbantomeetmydaught er andmywi f
e
howcool i
sthat!
?Wal ki
ngdownt hestairsI
wasdanci
ngandsi
ngi
ng,Mom j
oinedi
nand
dancedwi
thmewekeptonl
aughi
ngunti
lIwas
ti
red
.
Me:
"youst
il
lgoti
tint
oyoumom "shel
aughed
Mom :
"I'
m nott
hatol
d"shesmi
l
edaf
ake
smi
l
e
Me:"I
'myourson,Mom Iknowt her
e's
somet
hingwrongwithyouIwon'tpr
essurize
yout
otellmebutIhopey oudosomeot her
ti
me,Ihateseei
ngyoulikethi
s"
Mom :"t
here'
snothi
ngwrongwi
thme"she
l
aughed,InodIknewshewashidi
ng
somethi
ng
Me:
"I'
m goi
ngt
oseemywi
feTomor
row"
Mom :
"okay"Ishr
uggedandeatmybr
eakf
ast
.
Iwasatwor
kwhenIr
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om my
wi
fe,t
hemustbesomet
hingwr
ongwi
thher
t
heseday
s
Kwanele:
"Don'
tfor
getaboutt
hedi
nnerwe
host
ingonFri
day"
Me:
"Di
nner?
"
Kwanel
e:"Don'
ttel
lmey
ouhav
efor
got
ten"
Me:
"cany
oupl
easet
ell
meabouti
t"
Kwanel
e:"t
hewelcomi
ngofnewcli
entsand
taki
ngt
hebusi
nesstot
henextl
evel"
Me:
"ohhi
tsont
hisFr
iday?
"Shenods
Me: "okay..LookI'm goi
ngtoDurbannow,
cancelall
mymeet ingsIwil
lcomeback
tomorrowni ght"Istoodupgather
ingal
lmy
thi
ngs
Kwanel
e:"sowhenev
ery
ouwi
fecal
l
scr
ying,
youmustjump?
"
Me:"she'
smywi
fe,andIdon'
tknowwhywere
youl
ist
eni
ngt
oourconver
sati
on?"Shef
rowns
Me:"stayoutofmypersonal
li
fe,pl
easeIbeg
you"Iwalkedoutheadi
ngbackhome
.
Ipackedmyovernightbag,
packedall
my
comf or
tabl
ecl
othesandmytomor r
owsout
fi
t,I
walkeddownst
airsMom wasseatedal
one
Me:
"I'
m goi
ngnowMom "
Mom :
"hav
easaf
edr
ive"Iki
ssedhercheeks
Me:
"don'
tmi
ssmet
oomuch"wel
aughed
Mom :
"May beNkazishoul
dcomeandli
vewit
h
me,Ican'
tstayherebei
ngboredwhi
l
eIhavea
sonwhohasawi fe"Il
aughed
Me:
"onehel
lofacr
azywi
fe"wel
aughed
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouMom "
Mom :"Il
oveyout
ooBaby"Inodandwal
ked
out,
strai
ghtt
omycarandofftoDur
ban
.
Duringmyj ourneytoDurbanIwast hinking
aboutMom she' sevenlosingwei ght, Ihat
eit,I
hateitsomuch, whateverthatisstressingmy
Mom , Godpl easehel
pher, hel
phert oheal .I
arr
ivedinDur ban,bookedmysel fi
nt he
nearesthotelandcall
edmycr ybaby, Iwas
outsideherhouse
.
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Her:
"Zwel
iI'
m sl
eepi
ng,
Iwai
tedandwai
ted
f
oryou,I
'
mt i
rednow"
Me:
"I'
m out
sidey
ourhouse"
Her:
"What
?"Youcant
ell
shewasexci
ted
Me:"hur
ryup,
Idon'
tl
ikedr
ivi
ngatni
ght"she
scr
eamed
Her:"I
'
m goingcomi
ngnownowdon'
tdr
opt
he
cal
l"Ihear
dsomeshuff
li
ngar
ound
Her:
"I'
m packi
ngmyov
erni
ghtbagnow!
"She
l
aughed,
Ismi
l
edshaki
ngmyhead
Her:
"Mom Iwil
lbebacktomorr
owmor ni
ng"
herMom r
espondedbutIdi
dn'
thearher
Her:"okayIloveyou!
!"Thesoundofthedoor
opening,Igotoffmycarandstoodthere
wait
ingforher,shedroppedthecal
lassoonas
sheseesme
Her:
"OhmyGod"sherantome,Ismi
l
edand
pi
ckedherupspi
nni
ngherar
ound
Her:"Ireal
lycan'tbeli
eveyou'r
ehere"she
huggedmeagai nourforeheadcolli
ded,Imet
hereyes, f
ulli
fexcitementthenwest art
ed
ki
ssing, whenwast helastti
meIki ssedher?
Weonl ypullouttocatchourbr eat
hs
Me:"let'
sgetgoing"shegi
ggled,Iopenedt
he
doorforherandjoggedtomyside,shewas
smit
ten, Igoti
nsideandof
ftohotelr
oom
.
Wegoti
nsi
deandwentt
ocuddl
eint
hebed
Her:"Ican'
tbel
iev
eIdi
dn'
tcheckuponNkaz
i
I
'm abadmot her"
Me: "Nobabyy ou'
renotabadmom "Ibrushed
herbackslowly,wewer ebot
hnakedfeel
sso
greatsl
eepingnexttoher,wekeptontal
ki
ng
unti
lwefellasl
eep
I
nthemi
ddl
eofni
ghtshewokeup
Me:"what
'swrongnow?
"Isai
dwaki
ngupand
shewasmoving
Her:
"Ican'
tsl
eep"Il
ookedather
Me:
"whatseemst
obeapr
obl
em "
Her:"I
'
m horny"shewaslooki
ngst
raightt
omy
eyes,t
heli
ghtswerest
il
lon,Ij
ustf
roze
Her:
"di
dyouhearme?Zwel
iI'
m hor
nyl
i
ke
r
eall
yhor
ny!
"
Me:
"Iheary
ou"
Her:
"andwhaty
ougonnadowi
tht
hat,
Ican'
t
st
arv
ewhil
eyou'
reher
e"
Me:"ButI'mti
redi
tsbeenal
ongday",
she
movedf r
om mychestandsl
eptgi
vi
ngmeher
back,Isi
ghedGosh!!
.
Idr oppedt hecov ersandsl owlydr aggedherleg
, pul li
nghercl oser, shesni ff
ed, Ifl
ippedher
ov ershel ooksatmet ear
swer eal luponher
facet hisisunbel ievabl emywi fecr yi
ngforsex!
!
Ist artedki ssingherandsheki ssedmeback
wi thmuchhunger, Iwassl owlybr ushingher
thighsIst oppedki ssingheandwentdownt o
herneck, plant edkissest hereIwentdownt o
herbr eastsInot i
cedsomet hingl i
keal ovebi
te
ont heleftboobbutIkeptqui et, st
ar t
ed
squeezi ngt hem , butshest oppedme"Theyar e
hur ting!"Inod l ovebi t
e, hurtingboobs I
wentdownt ohert ummy, Ili
ckedi t, she
giggl edIshookmyheadandwentdownt oher
i
nnert hi
ghsst art
edcreatinglovebi testhereher
punani wasni ceandshav ed,Ismi ledast he
smel l
ofaf reshpunani hitsmynost ri
l
s, Iran
myt ongueoni t,shemoanedshewasal ready
wetIchuckl edImuf f
edherunt i
l sher eachedan
orgasim Itheni nsert
edmyNdabeandst arted
thrust
inginsl owlyIwast ired,i
magi neint he
middleofni ghty ourwif
ewakesy ouupandask
forsex,Iuppedmypaceandhi therG-spot,
shemoanedl oudl y,herbodyst artedshaki ng
againIknewshewascl oseIwenti nfaster, she
screamedr eachi ngherclimax, itdidn'ttake
l
ongunt ilIreachedmycl i
maxt oo
.
Her:
"Thanksbabe"shesl
eptonmychest,
I
wasdonecleani
ngus
Me:"nowsleep"Ibrushedherback,shewas
al
readysl
eepysoit
seasyt osheslept.Thank
God
.
.
.
Admi
n

Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t30
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
WhenIwokeupIreal
izedthatI
'm alone
wher
eisZwel
i??OrIwasjustdr eaming?Isat
upandl
ookedaround,Igotrel
ievedwhenIsaw
hi
m wal
ki
nginwithatrayoffood, Ismil
ed
.
Hi
m:"GoodMor
ning"
Me:
"Hey"
Hi
m:"Ibr
oughtbr
eakf
ast"
Me:"ThankYou"wesatont
hebedandst
art
ed
eat
ing
Me:"Howisthev
omi
ti
ng?,
Didy
ouwentt
o
Bab'
Zwane?
"
Him:"OhhNoIwokeupbett
erthenextdayso
Isai
dtomysel
fnahhitmustbesomething
passi
ng"
Me:
"KodwaZwel
i"
Hi
m:"don'
tbl
ameme"
Me:
"Okayf
ine!
"
Hi
m: "l
et'
sgetr
eady,
wehav
eanappoi
ntment
on12"
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
ogo"
Him:"comest andup!"Ist
opandpreparedmy
sel
fgotdressesinmyboyf r
iendsj
eans,avest
andmybabyheel sZweliwasalsoi
ncasual
cl
othesandoffwegot oseet hemarr
iage
counsel
or
.
.
Wecall
edinsi
deandIwasner
vous,y
ouknow
howcrazyZweli
iswewer
edebati
ngabout
who'
sgonnagof i
rst
Me:
"Yougo"
Him:"Nowy ougofi
rst"Ir
oll
edmyey esand
openedthedoort
omysur pr
isethe"Marri
age
Counsel
or"wasShanice,doy ousti
l
lremember
her?Yesmyf
ri
endbackt
hen
.
Me:
"Noi
tscan'
tbey
ou!
"
Shani
ce: "i
tsismebaby"wehuggedIwasev en
cr
yingxwhenwast hel
asttimeIsawher? ?She
wasmyf ri
endwejustl
ostcontactj
ustl
ikethat,
Zwelicl
earedhist
hroatai
n'thejeal
ousnow?,
wepul l
edout
Shani
ce:"si
ncewhenar
eyouacr
ybaby?
"I
l
aughed
Me:
"thi
ngschanged"
Shanice:
"Iseey
ouev engotmar
ri
edt
othi
s
handsomeguy"Ilaughed
Me:
"Ican'
tbel
i
evey
ouar
ethi
sgr
own"
Shani
ce:
"YeahIev
engott
wobabi
esnow"
Me:
"What
??"
Shani
ce:
"Iknowi
t'
shar
dtobel
i
evebuti
n
univ
ersi
tyIf
oundmyman,
wewi
l
lst
il
lseei
ng
eachother"
Me:
"I'
m sohappyf
ory
ou"Ihuggedheragai
n
Me:
"Ial
sohav
eachi
l
d"
Shani
ce:"weshoul
dcat
chupseemsl
i
kewe'
ve
l
ostalot"
Me:
"Yeswebet
terdo"weexchangednumber
s
Shani
ce:"Soyouguyshav
ingpr
obl
emsi
nyour
marri
age"Il
aughed
Me:"Ican'
tdot
his!Ican'
tbet
hisser
iouswi
th
you"
Zwel
i:
"meani
ng?
"
Me: "Canyoutransf
erust
oanot
hercounsel
or
causeIcan'tdothi
s"
Shanice:"Youwereal
wayssosecret
ivei
nhi
gh
school,Iguesst
hatwil
lnev
erchange"
Me:
"Yes"
Shani
ce:"Wel
lI'
mf r
eenow, howaboutwegot
out"Ismil
edandlookedatZwel
i
Zwel
i:"f
iney
oucango"Iki
sseshi
scheekhe
fr
ownedohhmelodr
amat
ic
Shani
ce:
"let
'smeetat1,
ist
hatokaywi
thy
ou
?"
Me:"per
fect,
byewi
l
lseey
out
hen"shenods
andweleft
.
Zwel
i:
"soIcameher
efornot
hing?
"
Me:
"yest
erdaywasn'
tnot
hing"
Zwel
i:
"Yeahr
ight"
Me:"don'
tactl
i
key oudidn'
tenj
oyi
t"wewer
e
dr
ivi
ngbacktothehotel
Zwel
i:
"Idi
dbut
-"
Me:
"Nobut
s"
Zwel
i:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngonFr
iday?
"
Me:
"goi
ngoutwi
thaf
ri
end"
Zwel
i:
"ohhokayf
ine"
Me:
"Icancancel
youknow"
Zweli:
"it
sf i
ne"Inod,i
fhedoesn'
twantmet
o
bether
et henfuckhi
m ‍♀
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Dur
ban
Isweari gotonecr
azywif
e , j
ustbecause
she'
sf r
iendswitht
hecounsel
orwemustcancel
now, IdrovebacktoKwaNongomaIdidn'
teven
checkuponmyki d she'sprobabl
ythi
nkI
hateher
.
Iwalkedinsidetheof f
ice,Icouldn'
tstayat
homebor edIneedt obearoundpeopl eand
star
tpreparationsforthedinner,Ihaven'
teven
boughtasui tablesuit , Isatonmychai r,I
don'
tevenhav eapar t
nertobring,ahhh
Kwanelegoti n, Jesushavemer cyonme
.
Kwanel
e:"Fr
idayiscl
oseandy
ou'
rej
ustseat
ed
ther
edoi
ngnothing"
Me:"Ihaveap.ayoushoul
dbet
heone
or
ganizi
ngthat"
Kwanel
e:"Iwi
l
lgetr
ightt
oit,
yoursui
t?"
Me:
"Mar
ooni
ncol
ourpl
ease"
Kwanele:
"Not
ed"shel
eft,
can'
ti
tbeFr
iday
al
ready??
.
.
.
Nt
ando
.
.
Me:
"Br
ownwi
l
llookgoodony
ou"
Mdl
uli
:"y
out
hinkso?
"
Me: "babeIknowso"het ookitandwewentto
pay, Ihadmygoldwithgl
itt
erdressand
beautiful
goldheel
s,IswearIwill
berocki
ngi
n
thatdinner
Me:
"thespot
li
ghtwi
l
lbeour
sbaby"
Mdl
uli
:"Idon'
tneednospot
li
ght"
Me:
"yeahr
ight"
.
Wedr ovebackt
omyhousej ustt
ochi
ll,
our
rel
ati
onshi
pisnotal
laboutsex,webond
sometimes
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Iwokeupt i
red, Igotoffthebedbusyclicking
myt ongueImeanI '
m sotir
ed Idon' tev en
wantt ogot herebutIgot t
agor i
ght??Itook
outmyski rt, whit
elongsleeveshir
tandmy
pumps, aftert hatIwenttotakeashowerIwas
ki
ndaf eel
inghot, Igotdoneandwentt owear
myst ocki
ngs, mypumpst hemissionstarted
whenIneedt owearmyski rt,It
ri
edpulli
ngi tup
butsathino! am Ithatthi
ck??Itri
edpul li
ng
i
tbutst i
ll
,If eltmyselfgetti
ngmor eemot i
onal ,
Irandownst airs
Me:
"Mama!
!"
Mom :
"Yes"
Me:
"am If
at?
?"
Mom :
"whyar
eyousay
ingt
hat?
"
Me:"mycl
othesai
n'
tfi
tt
ingmeany
mor
e"I
cr
ied
Mom :
"ohhbaby"shehuggedme
Me:"Idon'
twanttobefatMom ,Ican'
tbef
atI
meanlookatme!!Fatwon'
tsui
tsme"
Mom :"justgotwiderhi
psandawi derassbaby
,you'r
enotf atnowgoandchangedt o
somethingelsesoy ouwil
lgott
owor k"I
noddedandwal kedbacktomyr oom blood
drai
ned
Me:"whatam Isupposet
owearnow?
"Isai
d
l
ooki
ngovermycl oset
Me:"per
fect!
"It
ookmyflor
aldr
essandwor
eit,
gotr
eadyforworkandof
fIgo
.
Me:
"AymanJason!
"
Jase:
"Yourchai
riski
ndacomf
ort
abl
e"
Me:"Yeahri
ghtgetup"Iwalkedtohi
m, he
st
oodupandmetmehal fway, wegotl
ostas
wewerelooki
ngateachother
Me:
"abouty
est
erday"
Jase:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Me: "JaselookIdon'
twantustorui
nour
fr
iendship,whatev
erhappenedyest
erday
shouldstop"
Jase:
"okayIwi
l
lbackof
f"
Me:
"thanky
ouf
ri
end"
Jase:
"soy
ougotanout
fi
tforFr
iday?
"
Me:"dudeI'
mfaci
ngacr
isi
sal
lmycl
othesno
l
ongerfi
tsme"
Jase:
"you'
reget
ti
ngbi
gger"
Me:"UndibonaNdi
cebi
l
eUndi
phet
hekahl
e
uDal
i"Il
aughedashewasl
ooki
ngatme
conf
used
Jase:
"andy
ouwer
esay
ing?
"
Me:
"don'
twor
ryIwasj
ustsi
ngi
ng"
Jase:
"Youneedt
oteachmeZul
u"
Me:
"Nev
er!
"
Jase:
"Whynot?
"
Me:
"becauseIdon'twantyoutounder
stand
mewheneverI
'
m disrespect
ingyoui
nisi
Zulu"
Jase:
"ifdon'
twantt
oteachmethenIwi
ll
get
someone,youknowIwasgoingt
opayyou"
Me:
"Ihav
eenoughmoney"Il
aughed
.
Lunchti
me,wewentshoppingwit
hJaseoutf
it
shoppi
ngIwasgladwe'
vecl
earedtheai
r,I
meanitwoul
dbeawkwarddoingshoppi
ngwith
someonewho'sangr
yatyou
Jase:
"Thi
smar
oonwoul
dsui
tyou"
Me:
"mar
oon?
"
Jase:
"yourski
ntonewi
l
ldogood"
Me:
"Damny
eahI
'
mtaki
ngi
t!
"
Jase:
"don'
tyouwantt
otr
yiton?
"
Me:"Iwantt
osur pri
seyouonFri
day"we
l
aughedandwentt oshopforhi
ssui
t,he
obt
ainedf
orblack,fi
newithme!
.
Afterthatwewenttoeatanddrov
ebacktothe
wor kpl
aceandconti
nuedworki
ng,Ij
ustpr
ay
thatFridayIwon'
tbeti
redasIam t
oday
.
.
.
Nexti
nser
twillbeaboutTheeDi
nner
br
aceyoursel
ves
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t31
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Mom :"whenwast helasttimeyougoton
peri
od"whenwast hel
astt i
meforreal??I
neverwenttogetaninjecti
on??Ionceslept
wit
hZwel ibutt
hatdoesn'tmeanI'
m pregnant
ri
ght??Ican'
tbepregnant!Notsosoonand
surel
ynotnow
Me:"lastmont
h"Il
i
ed,
Iknowsheseesr
ight
t
hroughme
Mom : "ohokay,getr
eady"shekissedmy
foreheadandlef
tassoonasshecl osedthe
doorIr el
easedf
reshtear
sIcan'
tbeliev
eI'm
pregnant!!
Me:"okayI
'
m notpregnantright??"Isighedas
mymakeupwasal lmessyf rom thecrying,I
washedmyfaceandstartedov eragainthis
t
imeIwasmor ebeauti
fulthanbef or
e
Me: "i
tstimef ormet ogeti nt hi
sdress"Isai d
tomysel fasIwaswear ingi tanditshugged
meper fectl
ybutIwasseei ngorIwasj ustcrazy
, y
ouknowwheny ouheardsomet hingyoujust
seeit,Ithi
nkIsawsomet hingl i
keababypump
anditswascut e If eel i
nl ovewithitbutI
knowI '
m notpr egnant,Nkazi iswayt ooyoung
tohaveasi bli
ngr i
ght??Ihear dMom shout ing
mynameIknewJasewasher e, hecameear l
yI
tookmyheel swi thmysl i
pper sandof fIgo
.
Mom :
"youl
ookgor
geousbaby"
Nkazi
:"Nempel
a!"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"Thanky
ouguy
s,Il
ovey
ou"
Nkazi
:"Lov
eyout
oo"
Mom : "Hav eagr eatnight"Inodandhugged
them onemor etime, Iwassurpri
sedt hatNkazi
didn'
tcr yjustbecauseshewast oleav ewit
h
me, IguessThabi lebeinghere,madeher
forgetaboutme, whenwast helastt i
meI
spentaqual i
tyti
mewi thher?
?Allshedoesi st
o
compl imentmeandsay"Il oveyou"t hat'
sall
shesay sIguesst hat'
shernewlyfoundwor ds
,walkingoutJasewasoutwai ti
ngf orme
l
ooki ngdapperhotwi thaslimfi
tsui t,he'
s
kindaski nnyandt hose( )I
'
mt el
l
ingy ou
.
Me:
"youl
ookGood"hebowed
Jase:"Youlookbeaut i
ful
too,actual
l
yyoul
ook
dapperhot i fIknewNdlovuclannamesI
wouldprai
sey ourightnow"Ismi l
ed
Me:
"let
'sgetgoi
ng"
Jase:
"Nongomaherewecome"Il
ookathi
m
ashestar
tedt
heengi
ne
Jase:
"don'
ttel
lmey
ouf
orgotsomet
hing"
Me:
"We'
regoi
ngt
oKwaNongoma?
"Isi
ghed
Jase:
"Ist
her
esomet
hingwr
ongwi
tht
hat?
?"
Me:
"Noi
tsf
ine"Of
fwego
.
.
West
oppedi
nadr
ivert
hruIwashungr
yashel
l
Jase:
"youshoul
dhav
ebr
oughtal
unchbox"
Me:"don'tmockmejase"weboughtourf
ood
andoffconti
nuedwi
thourj
our
ney
Jase:
"youknowIwon'
ttakey
ourf
ood"
Me:
"leav
emeal
one"
Jase:"y
oueatli
keyou'
rerushi
ngsomewhere,
you'
regonnachockandIwon'thel
pyou"I
star
edathim
Jase:"Don'
tsayIdi
dn'
twar
nyou"Icont
inued
eati
ng
Jase:
"st
opf
art
ing!
!"Il
aughed
Me:
"Ican'
thel
pit"
Jase:"Noman! !"Heopenedt heWi ndows,can
hebel essdramatic??I'
vealreadygot3
dramat i
cpeopleinmylifeoncei sTee,Zweli
andthedr amaqueenhersel fNkazi .
Wear r
ived,Iwast ir
ed2hour sseatedinthecar
i
snoj oke iwalkedoutandst ret
chedmy
self
Jase:"yougotqui
teabi
gtummy,
arey
ou
pregnant?"
Me:
"don'
trui
nmyni
ghtpl
ease"
Jase:"i
justwanttoknowi
sthatwhyy
ouwer
e
far
ti
ng??Eatingl
ikeapig?
?"
Me:"i
will
kil
lyoubef
oreweevengoi
nsi
deand
t
hrowyourdeadbodytot
heri
ver"
Jase:
"Yeahr
ight"
Me: "Jason! !"Ichasedhi m andher anof f, As
west eppedont her edcar petthej ournal i
sts
startedt akingpi ct
uresImeanwedi dkiller
posest here t hewayJasewassoser ious
,wewal kedi nsideandshi twewer elat e,as
myheel swer emaki ngnoi sepeopl ekept
turningwhi chwasdr awingmuchat tentiont ous
, butdi dIcar e? ?Hel l
no, wewentt osi tont he
frontt ablewher eIsawt hathi sfatherisal so
here, Il
ookedar oundmyey esmetwi thZwel i'
s,
hewasshockedanddef init
elyangr ythatIwas
wi t
hanot herguy, Imumbl ed' I
'm sor r
y'he
shookhi sheadl ookingdown, Ican'tdisappoi nt
him Iwi llexplai
ni ttohim tj
oIwant edt ocr y
butheyJasesawmehebrushedmyback
makingmatter
swor
seohhGodherestar
tst
he
drama
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwasgetti
ngDr essedwhenKwanel egotinside
wearingt
hesamecol ourasmi ne , whycan't
sheseethatIwasn' ti
ntoher??LordwhyI
al
way satt
ract
sl unati
cs??Icarri
edonignor
ing
her,shecameandt ri
edtofixmyt i
ebutI
stoppedher,wenzani??
Me:
"Whatdoy
ouwant?
"
Kwanel
e:"Icamet
ocheckupony
ou"
Me:
"wel
lI'
mfi
ney
oucangonow"
Kwanel
e:"Peopl
ear
est
art
ingt
oar
ri
ve"
Me:
"Theywer
einv
ited"shekeptqui
et
Kwanel
e:"y
oul
ookhandsome"
Me:"Iknowbutt hankyouhey"Iwalkedout
l
eavi
nghert here,wenttotheGentsroom ,Idi
d
mybusinessandwal kedbacktomyr oom
act
uall
yther oom I
'
m current
lyusi
ng, wewere
i
nahot elYesthatwherethedinneri
shosted,I
goti
nsideandshel ef
tgoodr i
dden
.
Mymout hfeeldr
ywhenIsawNt andowal king
i
nsidethehall
withhersugardaddy, Iwantedto
j
ustgoandbeatherunt i
lshelandsincoma, al
l
thememor i
esthatIthoughtIflashedthem
awaycamebackf loodingbutshewaswi thMr
Mdlul
ioneofmybi ggestclientbutI'
m saying
"I
z i
ntabaazi hlangani kodwabonaabant u
bay ahlangana"onedayi sonedayIwi l
lavenge
mysel f, t
heywentt osi twithMrJacksonwho
broughthi swonder ful wife, t
hatladyi sdownt o
ear t
handv eryshy, she' sjustgr eat ,well
Mt hunzi wast heMci chosehi m causehe
i
nt eractwi thpeopl egood, heknowshowt o
keept heaudi encei nt hej ol
lymood, hefir
st
openedwi t
hapr ay
er, justaf terwe'v esaid
Ament henshegoti nl ooki ngf l
ami nghot ,
themakeupwasonpoi nt, everyt
hingwas
herheel sdr aggedot herpeopl esat tenti
onas
theywer emaki ngnoi sebutmycr azywifewas
wi t
hsomeguy, aguy? ?Fi rstit
swasal ovebi t
e
, shet urnedmedownbutshowsupwi t
hsome
dude, shebet terbeupf ort hetruth, hereyes
wer ewonder i
ngunt ilourey esmetshesmi led
butIdi dn'tr eturnit
sImeanhowcan? ?
.
MC:
"Iwoul
dli
keMrZul
utocomeandshar
ea
fewwordswi t
hus"peoplestar
tedclappi
ngI
didn'
tpr
epareanythi
ng!!HowcanMt hunzido
mel i
kethi
s,Igotupandwalkedtothestage
Me: "Idon'
tknowwhyt heMCcal l
edmecauseI
didn'
tprepareanyt
hing"theylaughedonl
yif
theyknewt hatI
'm deadseri
ous
Me: "Wel lIwoul dliketot hankev eryonewho
camet oj oinusaswear ecelebr ati
ngt he
successofexpandi ngthebusi nessandal so
welcomi ngournewcl ientsMrJacksonandMr
Mdluli"theycl appedhands"Ther easonoft hi
s
newbusi nessi st odecr easet hel evelof
unempl oymentr ateinourcommuni ty,our
businessdon' tneedqual ifi
edpeopl enotthat
wedon' thav ethem wedobutsi ncewecome
fr
om adi fferentbackgr oundwedeci dedtotrai
n
newempl oy eesthatwaymor epeopl ewillbe
skil
l
edaswel laswor kingbef or eIgoIwoul d
l
iketot hankmywi feforsuppor tingme,
star
tingthisbusi nessf rom thescr atch,bythe
wayy oualllookgood, l
adiesyoulook
breathtakingandgent lemanwel ly
a'l
ll
ookthe
same"t heyl aughedwhi l
eclappingthei
rhands,
therewer el otofpeopleher e,peoplegotup
andmadespeechest hewayIwassobor ed
want edtol eavebutIcan' t,
theykeptgoingon
aboutt hesameshi t,Iwasev enhungr y
.
Ilookedaround, IsawAnel estandingseems
l
ikesheneededt ouset hetoil
et,Ialsostood
upandf oll
owedher, Icheckedthecoastbefore
enteri
ngtheladiesr oom ,
Isupportedthedoor
withabroom sopeopl ewon'topeneasilyand
waitedforher,assoonasshegotout, she
screamedandr ealizeditme
.
Her:"Don'
teverdothattomeagai
n?"Il
ooked
ather,hernotsofl
attummycaughtmyeyes
Me:
"ar
eyoupr
egnant?"Iwal
kedcl
oser
Her:
"Don'
tst
artwi
thme"shecl
i
ckedher
t
ongue
Me:"whyar
eget
ti
ngsoupsetcauseIasked
youni
cel
y?Arey
ouorar
ey ounotpregnant
?"
Her:"Idon'
thaveti
mef ort
his!
"Shewashedher
handsasshewasaboutt ogo, Icar
eful
l
y
grabbedherarm maki
ngsureIdon'thur
ther
Her:
"leav
emeal
one"
Me:"who'
sthatguy
?"Shest
oppedmov
ingand
l
ookedatme
Her:
"it
snotwhaty
out
hink,
he'
sjustaguy
f
rom work"
Me:
"Aguyf
rom wor
k?"
Her:
"he'
sjustmyf
ri
endnot
hingmor
e"
Me:"fri
endthatgivesyoulovebites?You
t
urnedmedownf orhim ai
n'tIyourhusband??
Howwi l
lmycolleaguesthi
nk? ?Youcomewi t
h
aguyinsteadofme, howdoy outhinkI
'dfeel
??
Oryoudi
dn'
tconsi
dermyf
eel
i
ngs?
?"She
l
ookeddown
Her:"Zweli
I'
m sorr
y,Ididn'
tl
ookedatitl
i
ke
that??Ionl
yknewwer ecominghere
kwaNongomat oday,Idi
dn'tt
hinky
ou'l
lbeher
e
"
Me: "soIwasn'
tsupposet
oseet
his,
wow"I
chuckled
Her:"I
'
m sor
ry"shetouchedmyf
aceand
ki
ssedmedidIrepl
yno
Her:
"ohGodI
'
m sor
ryIswearIwon'
tev
erdoi
t
agai
n"
Me:"youjustdon'
trespectme,IknowwhatI
didi
nthepastwaswr ongbutthatdoesn'
tmean
youshoul
dn'tr
espectme"
Her:
"I'
m sor
ry,
Iwi
l
ldoany
thi
ngt
omakeupt
o
you"
Me:
"Noi
tsf
ine,
doasy
ouwi
sh"shest
art
ed
cr
yingandscr
eami
ng
Her:
"Zwel
iI'
m sor
ry!
!Pleasefor
giveme!"She
hel
dontomyhandsbutIgav eheradi
sapprov
al
l
ook,shewasabeauti
fulmess
Me:"okayf
ine!
"Shehuggedmemor eli
ke
t
hrowingherbodyonme, Iki
ssedherl
ips
Me:
"pr
omi
semey
ouwon'
tev
erdoi
tagai
n"
Her:
"Ipr
omi
se"herv
oicewasev
enshaki
ng
.
West artedki ssi
ng Igr abbedhernowhuge
ass, shehol dont omyneck, wecarri
edon
ki
ssingandi tswasget t
inghotIcarri
edherand
walkedi nsidethetoil
et,thespacewast oo
small butheyweaboutt ohavesex, Iplaced
herinsidet hetoi
letseat,undi
dmybel tj
ust
l
ower edmypant sandGodDamnhest oodf i
rm,
weswappl acesIsatont heseatandshewas
standing, Ipushedupherdr esstorethel ace
thongandshewasr eadingformedr i
ppingwet
Ipull
edherbyherhipandmadehersi ton
me, sheposit
ionedmyc* *kandslowlysat
down, shemoanedasshewast akingNdabe
full
yi n,Ihel
dherwaisttohelphermov e,I
startedmov i
ngunderneathher,shethrewher
headbackandst ar
tedmov ingt
oowemov edat
thesamepacewhi chwassl owIuppedmy
paceshemoanedl oudlyshetri
edtomat chup
withmebutIwast oofast
Her:
"I'
m close!
!"Imov
edherinci
rcul
armot
ion,
si
detosideDamnIwasi ncl
oud9
Her:"Ican'
ttakeitany more!
!"Shereachedher
cl
imax, If
uckedhert hroughherorgasm befor
e
shooti
ngmysol di
ersinsi
deofher, shelai
don
mychesthuggi ngme, st
il
lgotNdabeonher
Her:"Thatwasgreat
!"Shelookedupand
ki
ssedme, shewasal lsweat
y,wecleanedour
sel
f,sheappli
edhermakeupandwegotout,
l
adieswerestandi
ngout si
dewait
ingtogeti
n,
thewayshewassoembarrassedsurel
ythey
hear
dus, shehol
dmyhandf orsuppor
tasshe
coul
dn'
twalkproper
ly,
Ismil
ed
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
Season2
I
nser
t32
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Heaccompaniedmet omytable,hekissedmy
for
eheadbefor
eleav
ing,hedidn'
tevengreet
Jase,Il
ookeddownkindaembarrassed
Jase:
"Andwhyar
eyoubl
ushi
ng?
?Who'
sthat
guy?"
Me:"I
'
m not,
he'
smyhusband,
rememberI
oncet
oldy
ouI'
m mar
ri
ed"
Jase:
"ohhheseemsl
i
keani
ceguy"
Me:
"hei
s"
Jase:
"Whatt
ooky
ousol
ong?
"
Me:
"Ihadapr
obl
em"
Jase:
"youneededt
orel
ease?
"
Me:
"Jason!
"
Jase:
"What??Yousmel
ll
ikesex!
!Ev
eny
our
walkashowsthaty
ouhave-
"
Me:
"okayf
ine!
!Yeswedi
dhav
esex"
Jase:
"li
tt
lehoe!
!"
Me:"don'
tbl
ameme,
youknowhesawt
hat
l
ovebit
e"
Jase:
"whatexact
lyhappenedt
her
e"
Me: "you'
resonoi
sy"helaughedthewasabi
g
vaseinthemiddl
eofatableIcouldn'
tsee
otherswhowereseat
edopposi t
eme
Jase:"hecan'
tkeephiseyesoffy
ou"he
whisperedIl
aughedandlookupreal
l
yhewas
star
ingatmemaki ngmebl ush
Me: "He'smi neaf teral
l"wecar ri
edont al
king
anditswasameetandgr eet,otherpeoplewho
wereinterestedi nsomebusi nesswoul dtal
kto
thatowner, Zwel iwassur roundedbyal otof
people,Iguesst heywant edt oknowmor e
abouthisbusi nessourbusi ness , wait
ers
haddrinkssoIt oldmysel fthatI'm havi
ngt he
ti
meofmyl i
fe, Itookaspar klingwineasIwas
abouttodr i
nki tMt hunzicamet omeand
huggedme
.
Mt
hunzi
:"y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"Thanky
ou,
isYol
i
swaher
e?"
Mt
hunzi
:"No"het
ookmygl
assawayf
rom me
Me:
"andnow?
?"
Mthunzi:
"youain'
tsupposetobedri
nki
ng,you
wil
lki
llmyniecesornephewsther
e"hepoi
nted
atmytummy
Me:
"I'
m notpr
egnant"
Mthunzi:
"Yeahr
ight!Iwi
l
lbebackjustdon'
t
dr
inkAlcohol
"Il
ookedathim wal
ki
ngaway
Zweli
:"asIwassayingt
hisi
smywife,
baby"I
tur
nedandlookedatsomemiddl
eagecoupl
e
Zweli
:"Babethisi
sMr
&Mr
sMl
ambof
rom t
he
MlamboShipping"
Me:
"Ni
cet
omeet
sya'
l
l"Ihuggedt
hewoman
andhandshakeherman
Woman:
"Iseeyou'
reexpect
ing,
itsexpl
ains
t
hegl
ow"Ismil
ed,insi
deIwasli
vid
Zweli
:"Iwi
l
ltel
lmyp.
atosetupameet
ing"
theyl
eft
Zwel
i:
"Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng"het
ouchedmy
tummy
Me:"you'
remaki
ngmehorny,stopbr
ushi
ngi
t
al
soit
st i
ckl
esme"hechucked
Zwel
i:
"yourmi
ndi
sfi
l
ledwi
thdi
rt
yst
uff
s"
Me:"Youknowpeopl
ekeepsayi
ngI'
m
pr
egnant,
Ican'
tbepr
egnantZwel
i!
!"
Zweli
:"t
omor
rowwewi
l
lgoandseet
hedoct
or
"Inod
Zwel
i:
"you'
resobeauti
ful
"Ibl
ushedandl
aid
myheadtohischest
Me:
"ThankYou,
youl
ookgoodt
oo"
Jour
nal
i
st:
"canIt
akeapi
ctur
eofy
out
oo?
"
Us:"ofcourse"weposed ,wel ookedat
eachothercaughtuponourworl
d, Isowant ed
tokisshi
m butnotinf
rontofal
lthesepeople,I
sawJasoncomi ngonmydi r
ect
ionletmej ust
i
ntroducethem
Me:
"Jason!
!"Hesi
ghedbef
orecomi
ngt
ous
Me:"Jasont
hisi
sZwel imyhusbandandZweli
t
hisi
sJasonmyf r
iendalsomycolleague"t
hey
j
ustl
ookedateachother,nowordsexchanged
j
uststar
es
Me:
"Hell
o!!I
'm st
il
lher
e"y
oucant
ell
thatt
his
t
oowil
lnevergetal
ong
MrJackson:
"ohhMrZuluy
ou'v
ealr
eadymet
myson"hecameoutifnowhere
Zwel
i:"he'
syourson? ,
wow"hef akedasmi
le
andhandshakesJason,theybot
hfakedt
hei
r
smil
esIwantedtolaughhard
MrJackson:"Great,
comeJasonletmeshow
youother
s"theywalkedawayassoonasthey
l
eft,Il
aughedatZweli
Zwel
i:
"Idon'
tl
ikehi
m atal
l"
Me:"Don'
tbeli
kethatnow"Il
ookedaround
sear
chi
ngforsomeoneImightknow,Isaw
Tee'
sDad
Me:"BabeIwi
llbeback"heki
ssedmy
f
oreheadandl
etmego
Me:"MrMdlul
i
?"Het
urned,
hewasshockedt
o
seemeher
e
MrMdluli
:"Lookaty
oual
lgr
ownup"we
hugged
Me:"i
tsbeenl
ongt
imesi
nceIl
astv
isi
tedy
a'l
l,
how'
sMma? "
MrMdluli
:"She'
ssi
ck,
thatwhyIdi
dn'
tbr
ing
herher
e"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryt
oheart
hat,
Ihopesheget
s
bet
tersoon"
MrMdl
uli
:"ThankYou"
Me:"Whenwast
hel
astt
imey
ouspoket
o
Thembel
ane?
"
MrMdlul
i:"Idon'
twantt
otal
kabouthi
m,he'
s
j
ustanabomi nat
ion"
Me:"Youhav
etoacceptt
hathe'
shomosexual
Baba"
MrMdl ul
i:"Hi
smothermadehiml i
ket hat,
excusemeIhav et
ogo"hel ef
tmet her e,I
knewtalki
ngaboutTeewi
llupsethi
m buti t
s
worthatryassoonasheacceptTeet henmy
besti
ewilll
eaveast
ressf
reeli
fe
.
Theheelswereki
ll
i
ngme Idecidedt ojust
si
tdown, myankl
ewaspaini
ngtjotheywer e
evenswoll
en,Il
ookedar
oundbutIdon' tsee
anyoneIknowIsendmyeyesbacktot het abl
e,
t
hewer
epeopl
eseat
edt
her
e
Me:
"Hel
l
o"t
heygr
eet
edback
Me:"youl
ookfami
li
ar"Isai
dtothegi
rlt
hat
wasnextt
ome, wear
ingthesamecol
ourdr
ess
asminebuthey ‍♀
Me:"Ai
n'
tyou??Shi
tIf
orgott
hisnamebuti
ts
st
art
swithK?
?"
Kwanel
e:"Kwanel
e"shesai
dwi
tht
hatmuch
at
ti
tude
Me:
"ohh,
howar
eyou?
"
Kwanel
e:"I'
m notokay,you'
reweari
ngmy
col
ourdr
ess"IlaughedasIthoughti
twasa
j
okebutthegir
lwasn'tev
ensmi l
i
ng
Me:
"Wel
l
"
Kwanele:
"youweretryi
ngt
ocopyf
rom my
man!?"Iwasshockedme??Copyi
ngherman?
?
Who'
shermanKant i?
Me:
"par
don?
"
Kwanele:"Iknowy ouwantZweliback,
stand
backhe'smi nenowbitch!
"Haveyoueverlaugh
l
ikereal
lylaugh??Ievenhadtear
stjo
Me:"NomanKwaneley
oushouldbea
comedi
an,
you'
regoodatt
his"
Kwanel
e:"youthi
nkI
'
mjoki
ng,
you'
vest
art
eda
war"Igr
inned
Me:
"br
ingi
ton "shechuckl
ed
Kwanel
e:"Don'tsayIdi
dn'
twar
nyou"she
st
oodup, Ial
sostoodup
Me: "babygi rl,
you'reaboutt oswim wi t
h
danger oussharksmi ndy ou,youjustalit
tle
goldenf i
shsowat chy ourback!"Iwalkedaway
from her,Ay yIcan'tbel i
evethis,l
ikereall
y?
anotherNt andosagaIj ustcan'
tdeal,Iwentto
thekitchentoaskf orfoodIwasdeadhungr y
theystarteddishingf orme, Il
ookedatt he
foodt heygav eme t hisisnotevenfood, I
'm
sohungr yandt heyar egi vi
ngmesushi ??A
sushi?
?Iwantsomet
hingmore, Iaskedoneof
thechefst
ogivemereal
lyf
oodnott hisand
Godhecamebackwi t
htwof r
iedfish,hotchi
ps
Isatdownther
eandstar
tedeati
ng, some
chefswerel
aughi
ngatmebutIdi dn'
tcareI
waskaakhungry
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iwassot i
redfr
om wal ki
ngupanddown,
meetingnewpeopl ewhowant edtoi
nvestit
wasgr eatbutnowI '
mt ir
ed,canthenightend
al
ready, Iwasseatedwi tht
heguy swhenIwas
cal
ledbyanot herpotenti
ali
nvestor,
hewas
wi
thMrMdl
uli
Me:
"Gent
lemen'
s"t
heynodded
MrMdlul
i:
"wewer
edi
scussi
ngaboutt
heway
f
orwar
d"Inod
MrNai doo:
"I'
mreallyimpressedhowy our
businessworks,
you'reonei nt
ell
i
gentguyso
youngbuthasagr eat,sharpmind"
Me:"I
'
m alsohelpi
ng,
Ican'
tletmyi
ntel
l
igence
beunr
ecognized"wel
aughed
MrMdl ul
i :
"Herei
fy ou'
refeel
ingcoldgoand
getinsi
dethecar"It ur
nedtoseemywor se
ni
ght mareclose,
itswasNt ando, shewasalso
shockedtoseemeher, shest ar
edatme
MrMdl
uli
:"Nt
ando!Babe?
?"Babe?
?
Nt
ando:
"Noi
'
m okay"shel
eft
MrMdl
uli
:"Sor
ryaboutt
hat,
backt
obusi
ness"
.
Wet al
kedandtalkedandt al
kedIwast ir
ed,
hungry,t
hatsushiwasr eall
ydel
iciousbutno
I'
m sti
l
lhungry,Iwalkedtotheki
t chenoyto
seemywi feseatedl
aughingwithchef s,what
i
sshedoi nghere?
.
Me:
"Goodt
imi
ng,
I'
m hungr
y"t
heyl
aughed
Anel
e:"It
oldy
a'l
lhewi
l
lcome"
Me:
"we'
rey
'al
ltal
ki
ngaboutme?
"
Anele:
"nobabeIwasj
ustt
ell
i
ngt
hem t
hat
sushii
sn'
tenough"
Me:
"youcanher
etoeatt
oo?
"
Anel
e:"NoI
'
m done"
Me: "Okayl
etmeeatt hen"thechefsbr
ought
thefoodandstar
tedfeedingmyforever
growli
ngstomach,Igotdonequickly,f
ixedmy
self
Me:
"babel
et'
sgo"
Anel
e:"by
eguy
s!"Wewal
kedout
Anel
e:Myf
eet'
sar
eki
l
li
ngme"Jasoncame
wit
hmysli
pper
s
Anele:"ohhJasony ou'
reGodsent!
"Shetookof
theheelsandgav ethem t
omebef oreweari
ng
hercutefluf
fysl
ippersthedr
essislongenough
tohidethem
Me:"it
'ski
ndachil
l
ed,areyoufeel
ingcol
d?"
shenodsItookofmyblazerandcover
edher
shoul
ders,shesmil
edmelti
ngmyhear t
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"shesmi
l
ed
Anel
e:"I
..
Iknowy
oudo"shel
aughed
Me:
"Comeon!
!"
Anel
e:"Zwel
il
eav
emeal
one!
"
.
Peopl
ewer
ealreadyleav
ing,
Iwasalsoonmy
wayoutwi
thAnele,shesawNtando
Anel
e:"Zwel
iIai
n'
tcr
azyr
ight?"
Me:
"Nobabey
ou'
renot"
Anel
e:"Cany
oubor
rowmemyshoes"Igav
e
her
Me:"arey ougoingtowearthem again?"She
l
eftmest andingther
eandthrewt heheelit
s
l
andedonNt ando'sf
ace,shejumpedi nt
oher
andstar
tedbeat i
ngherup, Ir
anandbr okethe
fi
ght,Ntando'snosewasdr i
ppingwithblood,
evenherot hereyewascl
osedandswol l
en
Anel
e:"Leav
emealone!
!Zwel
i!
!"Iwasqui
et
asshetri
edtowi
ggl
eoutofmyhold
Me: "Noy ou'renotgoinganywhere"people
wherehelpi ngNtandoup, herdresswastorn
upal i
tt
le, unexpectedl
yshegotoutofmyhol d
andmar chedt oNtandomindy oushe'sst
il
l
holdi
ngherheel astheotheronewasont he
fl
oorshehi theronherheadshef ai
nted
completel
y, shewasbusyscr eamingand
shouti
ngIrantoherandpi ckedherup, opened
mycarandni cel
yplacedherinsideIlockedthe
doorsandwentt ot
akeherheel s,pencilheel
s
f
orthatmatter,
Igotinsidemycaranddr i
ve
str
aightherhouse,throughthedrive,shewas
cry
ingnonstop,whatani ght
.
.
Admi
n

I
nser
t33
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Wegoti
nsi
det
hehouse
Anel
e:"Il
eftmypur
sei
nsi
deJason'
scar"
Me:"st
ayher
eIwi
l
lrushbackt
othev
enueand
l
ookforhi
m"
Anele:
"okaydon'
ttaketol
ong"Ikissesher
for
eheadandrushedbacktothevenuelucki
ly
Jasonwassti
llt
herebuthi
sfatherhadlong
gone
Jase:
"haveyouseeAnel
e?I
'
mlooki
ngf
orher,
weneedtoheadbackhome"
Me:"she'
swi
thme,
I'
vecomet
ofet
chher
pur
se"
Jase:
"ohIheardt
hewasaf ight"Ichuckl
edas
Iwashav
ingthefl
ashbacks
Me:"Idon'
tevenknowwher
eshegotener
gy
fr
om "wewalkedtohi
scar,
het
ookthepurse
handedtome
Jase:
"okayt
ell
her,
I'
m goi
ngguessy
ouwi
l
l
dr
iveherback"Inodandwal
kedt
omycar
dr
ovebackt ot
hehouse
.
Get
ti
nginsi
dethet.
vwaspl
ayi
ngbutt
he
Madam wasn'
tther
e
Me:
"Anel
e!?
"Iwast
ryi
ngt
olocat
eher
Anele:"Coming!
"Shewalkeddownthest
air
s
withhernightwear,
Ithoughtshet
ook
every
thing
Anel
e:"Thanky
ouandwher
e'smyf
ood?
"
Me:
"Food?"
Ilookedatherconf
used
Anele:
"don'
ttel
lmey ouf
orgotcauseI
'
m
gonnasendyouback!"
Me:"sendmeback??Whatf
oody
ou'
ret
alki
ng
about?"Shej
ustwai
l
ed
Me:
"Whyar
eyoucr
yingnow?
"
Anel
e:"Howcany
ouf
orgot
??It
oldy
out
obr
ing
mehotwi
ngs!
!"Hotwi
ngs?
?Idon'
tremember
t
hat
Me:"OhhIleftt
hem i
nthecar"shesmi
l
ed
t
hroughhertear
yface
Me: "l
etmegoandgetthem "Iki
ssedher
cheekandwalkedout,
Ididn'
thaveanywi
ngs
wit
hme ‍♂ Idon'tr
ememberhertel
li
ng
met obri
ngt
hem
Me:"Letmej ustgoandbuyt hem "Idroveoff
tobuythosewingslikelyt
hestor
ewasopen, I
drov
ebackhomeget tingi
nsi
deIwassweat i
ng,
Imeanshet houghtIwasgoingtot hecarthenI
drov
eof f??
Me:
"Anel
e??
"Not
hing!
Me:
"Babe?
"Not
hing!
Iwal
kedupst
air
stoourbedr
oom andshewas
seat
edonthebedcr
ying
Me:
"Igoty
ourwi
ngs!
"Iner
vousl
ysai
d,she
j
ustl
ookedatmeandcont
inuedcr
ying
Me:
"whyar
eyoucr
yingnow?
"
Anel
e:"becausey
oul
i
edt
ome!
!Inol
onger
wantthem "
Me:
"What
??"
Anele:
"Ididn'tstutt
erIdon'twantthem
anymore!"shesl eptgiv
ingmeherback, I
si
ghedandwentt oputthem onthemi cr
owav e
andcamebackt osleep, tookof
fmysui tsandI
waslef
twi t
hav estandaboxerIgoti nsi
dethe
cover,
tri
edt ohol dherbutshekeptonpushi ng
myhands idecidedletmejustsleep
.
Thenextmorni
ng, Iwokeupandshewasn'
t
nextt
ome, Iwenttofreshenupbefor
ewal
ki
ng
downthest
airs,sheinsi
detheki
tchen
hummingsomesong
Me:
"Mor
ning"
Her:"Goodmor
ning,
Ireal
l
yneedt
ogobackt
o
Durban"
Me:
"af
terourappoi
ntmentt
heny
oucango"
Her:
"Dower
eal
l
yhav
etogo?
"
Me:"scr
ewt
heappoi
ntment,
wear
egoi
ng
now!
"
Her:
"I'
m st
il
lonmypy
jamas"
Me:"Idon'tcar
elet'
sgo"shet ookherphone
andfol
lowedme, Ilockedthedoorandwent
backtothecar,drovestr
aightt
othedoctor
.
Dr:
"Youf
inal
l
ycame"
Me:
"Yes,
I'
vebr
oughtmypar
tnerwi
th"
Dr:"OkayMam Iwoul dlikey outopeeint his
cup"shest oodupmumbl ingsomet hi
ng, going
str
aightt
ot hebathr
oom , shecamebackwi t
hit
, t
heDrsticksthepregnancyt estst
ickinside
thecupandst art
edaskingr andom questions
af
terl
i
ke5Mi
nhel
ookedatusandsmi
l
e
Dr:"Congrat
ulat
ionsyouguysarepr
egnant"I
tookthesti
ckjusttobesur
e, damni
tsr
eall
y
hadtwolines
Anel
e:"Ican'
tbepr
egnant
!!"
Dr:
"wewoul
dliket
odoanultr
asoundtobe
sur
eagai
n"shehuf
fedbef
orecli
mbingthebed
Dr:"Becaref
ulthi
smightr
eall
ybe
uncomfort
able,
theGeli
scold"
Anele:
"it
sokay"wehear dtheheartbeatDamn
i
tswaspumpi nghard,God t hisi
sthebest
feel
i
ngever,Ijustcan'
texpl
ainit.
Doctor:"seemsli
ket
her
e'st
wo,
yeahy
ou'
re
car
ryingtwins"
Anel
e:"notAgai
n!!
"Welaughedexceptf
or
Anel
e,shewasangr y
.
TheDoct
orgav
eust
hev
itami
nsandwel
eft,
shewasawf ul
lyquieti
nthecar,Itr
iedhavi
nga
conversati
onwi t
hherbutNo, shewasqui et.
Assoonaswear r
ivedshechangedmi ndyou
shedidn'tevenbath andaskedmet odri
ve
herbackwi t
houthesitat
ionwest ar
tedwithour
j
ourney
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Me:
"Canwepassbyt
hedr
ivet
hru"
Zweli
:"Youwantfood?"Inodwhatelsewould
Iwant??Iwashungry,weboughtourfoodand
car
ri
edonwi t
hourdriv
e
Zwel
i:
"sot
hef
ight?
"
Me:"I'
m notdonewi
thherandIdon'
twantt
o
t
alkaboutit"
Zwel
i:
"Okay"
Me:"Isawherwi
thBab'
Mdl
uli
,ar
etheydat
ing
?"
Zwel
i:
"It
hinkso"
Me:
"whyam Ipr
egnant?
"Hechuckl
ed
Me: "I
'm ser
ious,youknowIwaspl
anningto
getanotherbabywhenNkazii
s5butNo! !You
damnmonst erhadtomakemepregnant,
fuckenpregnant!
!"
Zwel
i:
"I'
m sor
ryi
-"
Me:"JustShutup!
!"Her
aisedhi
shands
sur
render
ing
Me:"YouknowI
'
m notev
enawar
eofhowf
arI
am "
Zwel
i:
"canIspeaknow?
"Iey
edhi
m
Zwel
i:
"Okayt
heDoct
orsai
dyou'
re3mont
hs
andt
woweeks"
.
Wer eachedourdesti
ny,
Ididn'
tev
ensay
goodbyejustgotofft
hecarandwentst
rai
ght
i
nsidethehouse
Nkazi:
"Mommy
!!
"Si
ncewhenshestar
ted
cal
li
ngmeMommy??I'
m nol
ongerMamana?
?
Me:
"Baby"Ipi
ckedherup
Nkazi
:"wesawy
ouonT.
Vfi
ght
ing"shegi
gged
Me:
"it
swasn'
tmebaby,
yourdadi
sher
e"
Nkazi
:"muphi
?"
Me:
"inhi
scar"
Nkazi:"Nehli
ke"Il
aughedandputhim down,
sherant oherdadIroll
edmyeyesandwentt o
bat
haf terIwasdoneIwenttowatchthet .
v,
Zweliwasalsohere, whyai
n'
the'
sleaving??
.
Me:
"You'
rest
il
lher
e?"
Zwel
i:
"Yes"
Me:
"Whenar
eyoul
eav
ing?
"
Mom :
"don'
tber
ude"
Me: "NoMom hi
spr
esentsuf
focat
esme"he
chuckled
Zwel
i:
"Iwi
l
lgot
hen,
Mmani
sal
ekahl
e"he
st
oodup
Nkazi
:"Nami
iNi
hambanawe"shesul
ked
Me:
"Uy
aphi
wena?
"
Nkazi
:"Nj
alonj
ewenaMamanaawuf
uni
!
"
Zwel
i:
"Comel
et'
sgo"
het
ookNkazi
andl
eft
Mom :
"that
'swasr
eal
l
ynotnecessar
yandal
so
r
ude"
Me:"hemademepr egnant"If
oldmyar
ms"
andI
'm nothappy"
Mom :
"Iknewy
ouwer
epr
egnant,
howf
arar
e
you?
"
Me:"3monthsandtwoweeks,Ican'
tbel
i
eve
i
tsTwinsagai
n"shelaughed
Mom :
"Ohhmor
egr
andchi
l
drenf
orme"
Me:"Mom pl
ease"Nkazi
camegi ggl
i
ngand
rant
owhereiwasseat
ed, shecl
i
mbedontop
ofme
Me:
"Uf
unani
?"
Nkazi:
"Dadsai
dhewil
lbuyanot
herbabyandi
t
wil
lbeaboy"mom l
aughed
Me:
"hi
sly
ing!
"
Nkazi:
"Hesaidhewil
lbuyitli
kehedidwit
hme
,Nami cel
aukut
hengaingane"sheki
ssedmy
cheeks
Me:"Nobabyhedidn'
tbuyyou,y
ouwere
br
oughtbyanAngelandshegav
emey ou"
Nkazi
:"ButDadsai
d-"
Me: "AsIsai
dhisl
yi
ng,If
oundy oui
nmyroom
cry
ingsosoftl
yandIi
nst
antl
yfeeli
nlov
ewit
h
you"
Nkazi:
"Dadsai
dhewi
l
lbuyt
woboy
s"ohh
Zweli
withhi
sbi
gmout
h"
Me:"Idon'
tknow,
youwantt
woboy
s?"She
nods"Why?"
Nkazi
:"Becauseagi
rlwi
l
lpl
aywi
thmyBar
bie
dol
l"
Me:
"youdon'
twantt
oshar
ethem?
"
Nkazi:
"Cha!
"Shegotof
fthecouchandr
an
upst
air
s
Mom :"l
et'
spr
ayt
heyr
esembl
esy
ou"we
l
aughed
Me:
"Theybet
ter"
.
Iwasnowonmyni ghtwear,Ideci
dedtocal
l
TeeIneedt
oventIcan'
tholdthi
sanylonger
Tee:
"HeySt
ranger"
Me:
"Howar
eyou?
"
Tee:"I
'
m goodev
ery
thi
ngi
srunni
ngsmoot
hly
,
yoursi
de?
"
Me:
"I'
m pr
egnant
!"Hescr
eamed
Tee:
"Wt
f!
!"
Me:
"Yeshedi
ditagai
n!"
Tee:
"isi
tZwel
i
?"
Me:
"Whoel
secoul
ditbe?
?"Hescr
eamed
Tee:
"Bi
tch!
!"
Me:
"Isawy
ourDadont
hatdi
nner"
Tee:
"Iwonderwhathewasdoi
ngt
her
e,was
Mom t
heretoo?"
Me:
"hewaswi
thhi
smi
str
ess"hekeptqui
et
Me:"Hewaswi
thNtando,
theSameNt
ando
t
hatwaswit
hZwel
i"
Tee:
"You'
rej
oki
ngr
ight"Ikeptqui
et
Tee:
"Tel
lmey
ou'
rej
oki
ng,
Ineedt
oheari
t"
Me:
"sadl
yI'
m not"
Tee:
"I'
m goi
ngt
ofuckenki
l
lhi
m!!
"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Tee:"i
t'
sokay,
thanksforl
etti
ngmeknow"we
sai
dourgoodbyesbef
oresleepi
ng
ButIcoul
dn'
tIneededmyf
ix,
Ical
l
edhi
m
Zweli
:"Ufunani
"Igi
ggl
edasIwasget
ti
ng
but
terf
li
es
Zwel
i:
"Don'
tIsuf
focat
eyounow?
"
Me:
"Yourv
oicedoesn'
tsuf
focat
esme"
Zweli:
"whatdoy
ouwant"Igi
ggl
ed,
lor
d?!Thi
s
feel
ssogood
Zwel
i:
"what
??"
Me:
"keepont
alki
ng"Igi
ggl
ed
Zwel
i:
"Ir
athersi
ng"
Me: "Don'
tbor
emewi t
hyoubori
ngvoi
ce"be
chuckedadeepchuckl
esendi
ngshi
ver
sdown
myspi ne
Zwel
i:
"Iwast
hinki
ngofy
ou!
Iwast
hinki
ngofy
ou!
AndwhatIwannado!
Wi
thy
ou×2
Idon'
tknowwhatt
odo!
I
'
m goi
ngcr
azybaby
!
Wi
thouty
ou!
×2
Lonel
yni
ght
s!
Can'
tdescr
ibe!
Thef
eel
i
ng,
nosl
eepi
ng!
!
Bymysel
f!
!
Lonel
yni
ght
s!
Can'
tdescr
ibe!
!
Thef
eel
i
ng,
nosl
eepi
ng!
Bymysel
f!
!
Lonel
ynight
s!!Lonel
yni
ght
!!"Lonel
yNi
ght
s-
TheSoil
.
Myf acewasfil
ledwi thtear
sashecar r
iedon
singi
ngthesongt i
lltheend, andDamnmyman
wassogood, Ididn'tknowhecansi ngthi
s
good!! ‍♀ , whenhesangSi st
erBett
ina
thedudewashor riblebutnow? ?
Me:
"Wow"hechuckl
ed
Zwel
i:
"Goodni
ght"
Me:
"Wai
t!
!I'
m sor
ryaboutear
li
er"
Zwel
i:
"it
sfi
ne"
Me:
"Zwel
i
"
Zwel
i:
"Mamabo"Ibl
ushed
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Zweli
:"Il
ovey
oumor
e,nowsl
eep"Inodasi
f
heseesme
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
WhenIar ri
vedKwaNongoma, Iwentst
rai
ghtt
o
Mom Ineededt otel
lherthegoodnewsIcan't
bel
ieveIwasgi v
enachancet obeaf at
her
again,Igotofft
hecarbusywhi st
li
ngsoft
lyI
washappy, Mom wasseat edonthecouchand
she'
slosingweightIhat
et hi
s
.
Me:
"HeyMom"
Mom :
"Heybaby"Isatnextt
oher
Me: Mom whatishappeni
ng??Lookaty
ou,
you'
vel
ostweightwhat'
seati
ngyouMom ?"
Mom :
"it
snot
hing,
don'
twor
ryaboutmeIwi
l
l
bef
ine"
Me:
"Igotgoodnews"shesmi
l
ed
Me:
"Anel
eispr
egnant
"shedi
dn'
trej
oice
Me:
"Mom di
dyouhearme?
"
Mom :
"YesIdi
d"
Me:
"Buty
oudon'
tseem happy"
Mom :
"Iam happy"
Me:"Mom what'
sreal
l
ywr ongwi
thyou??You
hat
emywife,you'
rehi
dingthi
ngsfr
om me"
Mom :
"Idon'
thatey
ourwif
e"Ist
oodupand
wentt
osleepIwaswokenupt
hecal
l,
yeahI
'm
usedt
oit
.
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t34
.
Twoy
ear
slat
er
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Thepastf
ewmont
hshav
ebeengoodandal
so
bad,Idon'
tknowifI
'm bei
ngt
estedbutIhav
e
sur
vivedalot,
Ist
il
lrememberthi
sdayli
keit
s
wasy est
erday
"Itswaski ndacol dandwi ndyout sideandst i
l
l
pregnantwi thmyni njas Iwasr eal l
ycr aving
formyusual sandwi chbutt hepr obl em wast he
aref ewmi ssi ngingr edient
ssoIhadt ogoand
buyt hem , Zwel iwasatwor kandNkazi started
attendingpr eschool ,wemov edback
KwaNongomaaccor dingtoZwel i,hewant edt o
takecar eofmyhor monesandot herneeds, I
tookmycarnotev eryonewasoutbecauseof
theweat her, onmywaybackt woguy sst opped
mewhol ookedl ikecopsbutl it
tl
edi dIknow
theywer eki dnapper s, t
heytookmeandl oaded
met ot hebootl i
keasackofpot atoes, If el
t
uselesssi nceIcoul dn'tfi
ghtback, Iwasheav i
ly
pregnant, Luckyt hewasar oadbl ockt hatday
andt heylef tmycart herewithmei nsidet he
bootbutIsur v i
veIt houghtt heyplanedt oki ll
myboy s, YesIgotboy s butnot heysurvi
ved
andcameoutheal thy,Aft
ermyki dnappings
Zweliuppedt hesecurit
ysystem Ievenhav e
twobody guardandI '
m off
ici
all
yahousewi f
e
somethingIdi dn'
tplanit,
Zwelioncef ucked
mesensel esst el
l
ingmet oquitmyj ob,andI
did"
.
Iwaswokenupbyt henoiseofbr eaki
ngst uf
fs
andcryi
ng, t
hetwinsaresohandf ul , they
arecr
awlingaroundandGodt heydrag
ever
ythi
ngwhenImeanev er
ything,Istoodup
fr
ustr
atedIwonderwher eistheirnanny
.
Me:"Whatar
ey oudoing!
?"Behi
ndhi
m wasa
br
okenpl
ate,Ipickedhi
m up
Me: "Zet
hembe?
?Whatwereyoudoinginmy
ki
tchen??Ar
eyouachefnow??"Hegiggl
ed
,y
ouknowmyboyi ssuchasweetheart but
tr
oublesomeunl
ikeBanzithatonealways
accusesZet
hembet houtheyain'
tablet
otal
k
butyoucantel
labouttheverbalact
ionhedoes
Me: "Wher e'sBanzi
??"Iwalkedar oundthe
housel ookingforhi
m kantiIlefthiminthe
ki
tchenhe' sinsi
dethekitchencupboar ds,he
evendozeof fIl
efthi
mt hereandst art
ed
bathingZet hembebeforewaki ngthatratand
bathinghim, Iwonderhowl onghav etheybeen
awake
.
Ipickedthem upandwalkeddownst airst
o
preparethei
rfood,Iputthem ontheireat
ing
chairsbuckledt
hem upandst ar
tfeedingthem
withBanzi i
tsal
wayseasycausehe' salways
rushingonedayhewi l
lchokeI'mtell
ingyou
Me:"nowit
sti
meforyoutofi
nishyourf
ood,
Banzi
isl
ongdone"heshookhishead,I
l
aughed
Me:"it
snotupforadeci
sion"Il
etgoofBanzi
andfedthi
sbaby,
onceIwasdonewithhi
m, I
l
ethi
m got oo
.
Iwasgoingoutwi t
hTeej ustcatchingupand
ohhoTeeandIgotar rest
edf orassaulti
ng
NtandobutDadwor kedhismagi candt hecase
wasthrownawayandaf t
erherdeat hIwast he
pri
mesuspectbecauseoft hatf i
ghtanyway s,I
wasimpati
entlywaiti
ngforZwel itocomeback
causehepromisedhewoul dlookaf t
erthekids
asI'
m out,
Ireall
ydon'ttr
usttheirnanny
Me:"Wher
eisyourf
atherguy
s?"t
heywer
e
cr
awli
ngar
oundthelounge
Zwel
i:"I
'
m her
e"hesai
dget
ti
ngi
n,Iwal
kedt
o
hi
m andwesharedaki
ss
Me:
"It
houghty
ouwer
en'
tcomi
ngany
mor
e"
Zwel
i:
"you'
vebeenlooki
ngforwar
dtot
his
l
unch,
imagi
nemer uini
ngit"
Me:"you'
rer
ight"Banziwast
hef
ir
stt
osee
Zwel
iandhecrawledfastt
oZwel
i
Zwel
i:
"Heyy
ou"hepi
ckedhi
m up
Me:"I
'
m goingoutnow!Iwrot
eev
ery
thi
ng
downthatt
heymightneed"
Zwel
i:
"Iknowhowt
otakecar
eofmybabi
es"
Me:"Ij
ustcan'
thelpit,wi
l
lyoumanage?I
meanIcanstil
lcancel"
Zwel i:
"Justgowewill
bef i
nedon'
tworry"I
tookmybagandki ssedthem al
lonthei
r
foreheads
Zwel
i:
"I'
m notbaby
"Ir
oll
edmyey
esIwas
wai
ti
ngforhi
scomments
Me:"Lov
eyouguysby e!
!Anddon'
tforgett
o
pi
ckupNkazi
!!"Ir
ushedout,mydri
v erwas
wai
ti
ngformeandoff
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Thesepastmont hshasbeengoodaswel las
bad, af t
erthatdinnerAnel eandTeegangedup
onNt andoandt heyl andedhert ocommaIwas
shockedwhent hepol icecamet oarrestmy
wife, Ididn'
tknowwhathappenedunt ilIsawa
video, shedi dn'
tevencar eaboutpeopl et alki
ng
picturesandv i
deos, theyjustdidthei rthing
andl eft,otherbadthi ngwasHerbei ng
kidnappedIwasdev ast at
edwhenIwas
wat chingthenewst alkingaboutacarl eftinthe
bushwi thaheav i
lypr egnantwomeni nside, I
j
umpedof fthecouchandr ushedtot hescene
anddamni twasherIt hankedt helordwhen
theyt oldmeshe' sokayf i
neaswel last he
babi
es
.
Me: "Let'
sgoandchangewear egoingout!
"I
pickedZet hembeandwal kedt omyr oom wit
h
them touchingmyhai r,pl
ay i
ngwi t
hnose, I
changedt oasi mpleoutfi
tanddr essedthem
i
nt oblackpantsandwhi tejackets,theyl
ooked
dope t heyresemblesme t hewasAnel e
wassoangr y Igotstr
onggenesIcan' t
helpit
.
Me:"we'r
egoingtovi
sitgr
andma,youhear
d
t
hatboys??"Theyr
ambledasusual
Wedrov
etotheroyalhouseandThewhole
f
amil
ywasther
e, Dad, Mthunzi
,Thando,
Mom
Me:
"let
'sgoandrockt
hem "Ipi
ckedupon
t
hei
rcarseat
sandwentinsi
de
Me:
"Hel
l
oEv
ery
one"
Zandi
l
e:"Uncl
eZwel
i
!"
Yoli
swa:"Zandi
l
ewhatdi
dIsayabout
runni
ng!
?"
Zandi
l
e:"Naxol
i
sa"shewal
kedsl
owl
ytome
Mom :
"Letmetaket
heseboy
s,who'
scauses
t
roubl
emore?"
Me:
"Thebi
gey
esone"Ipi
ckedZandi
l
eup
Zandi
l
e:"Wher
eisNkazi
?"
Me:
"she'
sinschool
"
Yol
iswa:"Hel
loIdi
dn'
tknowy
ouwer
eher
e,
where'
syourwif
e?"
Me:
"Pamper
ingsessi
on"
Yoli
swa:"Mustbeni
ce"sheey
edMt
hunzi
,
theset
wowillnev
erchange
Yol
i
swa:
"AndThepr
incess?
"
Me:
"inschool
"
Mt
hunzi
:"Mancav
e?"Inodandwewentt
ohi
s
r
oom
Mt
hunzi
:"It
hinkshe'
spr
egnant
"
Me:
"That
'sgr
eatnewsmos"
Mthunzi
:"Ican'tdeal
wit
hherext
reme
hor
mones"Il aughed
Me:"Don'
tbedr
amaticj
ustal
i
ttl
escarandi
ts
wasbyanacci
dent"
Mthunzi:
"Shemeanti
t,howcany oufir
eagun
point
ingatme??Andshout,y
ell
ingaboutme
cheati
ng??Shemakesupstor
ies"Ilaughed
Mt
hunzi
:"sheget
ssoi
nsecur
e"
Me:
"Hor
monesBhut
i!
"
Mom :
"Zwel
i
!!"
Me: "I
'
m coming!
!"Ir
ushedoutandBanzi
was
cr
yingthatsounl
ikehi
m
Me:
"Whati
sgoi
ngon?
"It
ookhi
mfr
om mom
Mom :
"hecr
awl
stoomuchandst
artpul
l
ing
st
uff
sri
ght?
"Inod
Mom :"heat
euPelepel
e "Il
aughedathi
m
st
icki
nghist
ongueout
Me:
"Mom hel
phi
m"
Mom :
"How?
?Angi
thi
uyahhal
a"
Me: "Let
'
sgoanddr
inkmil
k"Iwal
kedt
othe
ki
tchenandmadehi
m dr
inkcol
dmil
k
Me:
"Youl
ovi
ngeat
ingany
thi
ng!
"

.
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t35
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Igoti
nsi
detherestaur
ant,
andlookedf
orTee
l
uckil
yIsawhim andwenttosi
tdownwithhi
m
Me:
"you'
regl
owi
ng!
"
Tee:
"there'
sabuni
ntheov
en"wel
aughedat
hi
ssi
ll
iness
Me:"ThankGody
oumadeusmeet,
thet
wins
ar
ekil
li
ngme"
Tee:
"ohmysweetZet
hembe"
Me: "ThatoneisagoodboybutBanzi y
ou
knowt hi
smor ni
ngIfoundhim sl
eepi
ngint
he
ki
tchencupboards"wel aughed
Tee:
"Thatonei
sver
ynaught
y"
Me:
"Ican'
tbel
i
evet
heyhav
en'
tst
art
edwal
ki
ng
"
Tee:
"Howol
dar
ethey?
"
Me:
"9mont
hs"
Tee:
"Theyar
est
il
lyouy
oung"
Me:"sohow'
sNj
abul
obei
ngabi
gbr
other?
"He
l
aughed
Tee:"heact
ual
l
yconf
essedt
hathehat
eshi
s
si
ster"
Me:
"why
??"
Tee:"she'
staki
ngal
lofourat
tent
ion,
his
wordsnotmine"Il
aughed
Me: "Hi
m andNkaziareact
ingstr
angel
y y ou
knowshe'salway
swi t
hherphonenowdoing
what??OnlyGodknowssheev enhasa
password"
Tee:
"I'
m nev
erbuy
ingaphonef
orNj
abul
o"
Me:"She'snotyourty
pical
ly4y earol
d"we
carr
iedoncatchi
ngupandy eshedidadopt
anotherbabyandit
sagi r
l she' ssocut
eand
chubby
.
Ir
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om Nkazi
'
scl
asst
eacher
Me:
"Hel
l
o"
Her:"HeyI
'm cal
l
ingconcerni
ngNkazi,we
abouttocl
oseandshe'stheonlyki
dlef
t"
Me:
"theydi
dn'
tfet
chher?
"
Her:
"Yes"
Me:
"I'
m sor
rybutI
'
m onmywaynow"
Me:
"Igot
tago"
Tee:"by
e!!
"WehuggedandIl
eft,
wher
ethe
fucki
sZweli
??
Iaskedt
hedr
ivert
odr
ivest
rai
ghtt
oherschool
andIpi
ckedherupshe'
sgr
umpyohl
ord
Me:
"I'
m sor
rybaby"shef
oldherar
ms
Nkazi
:"Dani
elbr
okemyphone"
Me:
"who'
sDani
el"
Nkazi
:"aboyf
rom school
"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"Iwil
ltal
ktohi
mtomorr
ow"shesmi
l
edwe
ar
ri
vedthehousewasqui
et
Me: "Iwonderwheretheyare"sheranupst
air
s
to"Charge"herphone,Ideci
dedtocall
Zweli
butitsrangunansweredasIwasabouttotr
y
againhegotinwi t
htheboyssleepi
ngmyheart
melted
Me:
"Gi
vemeZet
hembe"It
ookhi
m
Me:
"Theyar
edi
rt
y!"
Zweli:
"Theybeencrawl
i
ngallov
erthey ar
d,I
'm
ti
red"Iwentupst
air
stochangethem t
heycan'
t
sl
eepliket
his!
!
.
Af
terIwasdoneIwentt
omyr
oom
Me:
"youf
orgott
ofet
chNkazi
"
Zwel
i:
"I'
m sor
rybabe"
Me:
"ha.
aZwel
i,wher
ewer
eyou?"
Zwel
i:
"wasatt
her
oyal
house"
Me:"youcomplet
elyforgotaboutmychi
ld?
?
Don'
tnegl
ectherbecauseofthetwins"
Zwel
i:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Me:
"Aysuka"
.
.
.
Kwanel
e
.
.
.
Ifi
twasn'
tfort
hatr
oadblock,mymi ssi
on
wouldhav
esucceededbutno! t hesestupi
d
copshadtodothi
sonthisdayrui
ningmy
missi
on
.
Geor
ge:
"it
snoteasyt
ogett
hem "
Me:
"Ipayyouagoodmoney,don'
tfuckent
ell
meaboutpr
obl
emsIneedsol
uti
ons"
Geor
ge:"Iwi
llt
ryt
ogeti
nsi
det
hehouseand
t
akeoneofthetwi
ns"
Me:
"Takebot
hoft
hem "
Geor
ge:
"Thatwi
l
lbehar
d!"
Me: "makei thappenIwantthem ,
thi
sbi
tch
thi
nksshesucceeded, theydon'
tcall
me
Khaliphafornothi
ngI'
m gonnashowher,her
ancestors"
Geor
ge:
"Iwi
l
ltr
y"hel
eft,
Isatdownt
hing
aboutwaystotor
tur
eherbabiest
heycuteand
al
lbutIfIki
l
ltwoofthem ,
thatwi
llpushZwel
i
awayandhewi l
lcomecrawli
ngtome
.
Myboy
fri
endgoti
n,y
esI
'
m wi
thSmi
sonow
Smi
so:
"heybabe"
Me:
"Heyl
ove"weshar
edaki
ss
Smiso:"workwassobusyandI'
m hungry,
how'smylit
tl
eangeldoi
ng?"Hebrushedmy
bel
lycausethebabytoki
ck
Me:
"we'
regood,
Iwi
l
lmakef
oodf
ory
ouokay"
Smiso:"Don'tworr
y,si
tyourpregnantass
down, Iwi
lldoitmysel
f"Ismi l
edhe'ssucha
gentl
emanwi thagoodheart,butIdon'
tlov
e
hi
m IwantZwel i,
I'
minlovewithhim!!
Smi
so:
"her
eyougo"
Me:"t
hankyouthoughIwasn'
thungr
ybutt
his
onewi
llwantt
oeatit"hesmil
ed
Smiso:
"pregnancysui
tsy
ou"Ismi
l
edmor
e
l
ikebl
ushi
ng
Me:"y
outryi
ngt oboostmyconf
idence,
Iknow
Il
ookl
ikeanelephant"
Smi
so:
"Il
ovey
oul
i
ket
hat"
Me:
"yeahr
ight
!"
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
I'
veaskedmywi fetogoandcheckour
companybooksIknowshe'sgoodatt his
ther
e'snoneedt ohi
resomeonethen, wegot
fourbranchesnow,onehere,Johannesbur
g,
CapeTownandLi
mpopoandt
hebusi
nessi
s
doi
nggood
.
Anel
e:"Inol
ongert
rusty
ou"
Me:"justami
normist
ake"sher
oll
edherey
es,
sheknowsIhat
ethat
Me:
"don'
tst
artwi
thme"
Anele:"LookI'm goi
ngandpleasekeepaclose
eyetoBanzi "shekissedmebeforegoingout,I
tookabat handwentt ocheckonthetwinsas
alwaysBanzi wasbeingnaughty
Me: "Banziwhot aughtyoutobet hisnaughty?
?
Iwasnev erl
ikeyou"Di dhemi ndmeNo!It ook
him andbathedhi m,lookforhisclothesand
dressedhimi nt
osomet hingchil
ledIalsodid
thatwit
hZet hembe
Me:
"let
'sgoandwat
chsoccer"t
heywer
e
r
ambl
ing
Me:"yessoccer"Ichuckl
edandwal
ked
downstai
rs
Me:"Didyouguyseat?"Theyl
ookedatme
busyt
alki
ngbabylanguage
Me:
"Iguessy
a'l
lar
eful
l"
Me:"l
et'
sgett
oourmant
alki
ng"Ichuckl
ed
t
hisi
sfun
Me:"Yourf
ir
stwor
dshouldbe"Dada"causeI
meanweareboysI
'm goi
ngtotakeyoutothe
mancaveadhowtogethotgi
rl
sl i
keyourmom
"
Zet
hembe:
"gr
rxgy
rrj
kds"Il
aughed
Me:
"You'
reget
ti
ngther
e"Banzi
wasl ooki
ngat
me,
Iknewhewantedtogoandplay
Me:"pr
omiseme, youwil
lsayDadafi
rst"I
hol
dtheli
tt
lehandsfor
medthem afi
standfi
st
bumped..
.
I
t'
snowt
heaf
ter
noonIwashungr
yandIknow
t
heyar
ehungr
ytoo
Me: "let
'sgomakesomef ood"Ipl
acedthem
down, t
hecrawledfoll
owingme,goodboy s,
I
star
tedwi ththei
rfoodbefor
emineBanziwas
nexttot hefr
idgeonhisfeett
heycanstandor
walkingsuppor t
ingbysomethi
ng
Me: "whatdoyouwant??"Iopenedt
hefri
dgeto
takeVienna'
s,buthest
oodt her
esoIcoul
dn't
closeit
Me:"Whenyou'
redonecl
osei
t"Icar
ri
edon
f
ryi
ngitandgav
eZethembeasmall
erpi
ece
Me:
"Banzi
!!"
Banzi
:
"mmhhh"Iwentt ocheckonhim and
damnhewasinsi
det hefr
idgetheywayI
l
aughedIr
ushedtotakemyphoneandt ook
pi
ctur
esal
soav i
deo
Me:"Nomany ouwi
llf
reezet
odeat
handy our
mom woul
dkil
l me,
come"hegotoffand
cl
osedt
hefri
dgedoor
Me:"i
t'
sti
mef ory
out oeat"If
edthem t
hei
r
i
nst
antpor
ridgeaf
terIwasdoneIaremine
Me:"letmesendt hi
stoyourmom "Isenthera
WhatsApptextmessagewithapi
cturecapti
on
was"Lookaty ournaught
yson "sher eadit
andcall
edme
Me:
"Hel
l
o"
Anel
e:"whatwashedoi
ngi
nthef
ri
dge!
!"
Me:
"wewer
emaki
ngf
ood"
Anel
e:"whyi
shewear
ingNkazi
'
sol
dtop?
"
Me:
"It
houghti
tswast
hei
rs"
Anel
e:"Zwel
ii
tsPi
nk"
Me:
"boy
sdowearpi
nkt
oo"
Anel
e:"I
'
m busyher
e!"Shedr
oppedt
hecal
l
.
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t36
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Whil
eIwasbusywor ki
ngmyassoutYol
i
swa
goti
nlookingfr
ustr
ated,Ist
oodupandwentt
o
hugher,shejustcr
ied ‍
Me:
"Don'
tcr
ybabe"
Yol
i
swa:
"Ican'
tbepr
egnant
!!,
thet
estcame
backposi
ti
ve!
!"
Me:
"shoul
dn'
tyouber
ejoi
ci
ng?
"
Yol
i
swa: "Mthunziwon'
tseeaneedofmarry
ing
me,ifIkeepgivi
nghim ki
dsweevencohabi
ti
ng
"
Me:"y ou'
reri
ght,youneedabreakmaybehe
wil
lreali
zedthatheneedstoputari
ngonit"
shepulledout,Wewentt osi
tdown
Me:
"Sohowf
ar?
"
Yol
i
swa:
"Twomont
hs"
Me:
"congr
atul
ati
ons"
Yoli
swa:"Thanksl
etmegot
hen"wehugged
agai
n,sheleft
Me: "ohhYoli
swa"Isatdownandcont inued
withmywor k,wel
lIwantedtoleavewhenI '
m
done, Ir
eceiv
edacallf
rom Zweli,Il
aughed
remember i
ngBanzi
'
spicturethatchi
l
dis
naughtylor
dhelpmeIwi l
lkil
lhim
Me:
"Yes"
Zwel
i:
"Comebackhome,wemi ssyout
he
boy
smissesy
ouandourpr
incesstoo"
Me:"y
ouactlikeI
'
mfaraway,
Iwi
l
lcomeback
whenI
'm done"
Zweli
:"Iknowy
oul
ovewor
kingy
ouwi
l
lfi
nish
tomorr
ow"
Nkazi
:"pl
easeMamana"Isi
ghed
Me: "IguessIwassocaughtupinmywor k,
I
'm comingnow"wesai dourgoodbyes,I
gat
her edmythingsandwalkedtotheparki
ng
l
ot, i
tswaskindadarkoutsi
de
Me: "Ohhwhatt i
meisit "Icheckedmywr ist
watch, Damnitswascl oset o8pm ,Igoti
nside,
l
ockedt hecaranddidabr eathi
ngexerci
se,I
thi
nkIhav egonecrazy, everywher
eIgoIsee
shadowsIev enfeell
iket here'
ssomeone
fol
lowingme
Me:"Ineedtotel
lDadaboutt
his"Ist
art
edt
he
engi
neanddrovebackhome, onmywayI
deci
dedtocall
Dad
Me:
"Dad"
Dad:
"Pr
incess"
Me:
"Someonei
sfol
l
owi
ngme"
Dad:"Don'
tpani
c!Wher
ear
eyou?
?Ar
eyou
dr
ivi
ng?"
Me: "I'
m goi
ngbackhome, IwasatZweli
'
s
companycheckingther
ecordsandIlostt
rack
ofti
menowI '
m goi
ngback"myv oi
cewas
shakingastwocarswerebehindme
Dad:"I'
mtrackingyourcarnow!Rememberto
notpanic,
there'sagununderthepassenger
s
seat"
Me:
"Ihav
eaguni
nmycar
!?Dad?
!"
Dad:
"forsaf
etyr
easons!!
"Itookthatgunout
andi
tswasheavyIhaveneveruseditbef
ore
Me:"i
gotit
-Dad!
!Theyov
ert
akenme!
!,i
ts
st
oppi
ng!!"
Dad:"Yourwindowsar
ebul
l
etproof
sdon'
t
worr
y"Istoppedmycarast
hiscarwas
j
ammi ngme
Dad:
"What
'shappeni
ngnow?
"
Me:"someonegotof
fthecar,
he'
scomi
ngmy
car"
Dad:"Whenhe' scl
osej ustdri
veoff,it
sdoesn'
t
matteri
fy ouknockhimj ustdoit!
"Inodasifhe
seesme, assoonast hatguywascl ose,I
star
tedmyengi nefastar anoverhim i
conti
nueddr i
vi
ngwhi l
ecr yi
ng,
Dad:
"Ar
etheyst
il
lther
e?"
Me:
"Yes,
butonecar
"
Dad: "carr
yondr ivi
ng!!,myboysareri
ght
behindy ou!"Thatcarstar
tedshoot
ingI
screamedandst oppeddri
ving
Me:
"Dad!
!"
Dad: "car
ryondrivi
ng!!"Ir
aisedmyheadt o
l
ookatt hatcarbutitwasdark, Icont
inued
dri
vinguntilIwasaroundmyar eathatwhen
thatcarstopped.
Dad:
"Ar
eyouokayPr
incess?
"
Me:
"I'
mfi
neDad"
Dad:
"I'
m comi
ng,
prepar
ear
oom f
orme"
Me:"okaybye,I'
m homenow"Idr oveinsi
de
theyar
d,gotoffNkaziwasstandi
ngatthedoor
assoonasIgotoffsherantome, Iputonmy
smil
ethoughinsi
deIwasdying
Me:
"Heybaby
!!
"
Nkazi
:"Mamana!
!"
Me:
"Yougood??"Shenodsandt
ookmybag,
wef
oll
owedeachother
Me:"I
'm home!
"Banziwasnexttothecouch
andZet
hembewascr awl
inggoingupstai
rsbut
assoonastheyhearmyvoice,
Banzi
crawl
ed
fastt
omebutZet hembewasamissi
onashe
wasonthestai
rcase
Me:
"Bhut
iMaFr
idge"Ipi
ckedhi
m up
Me:"Whatwer ey
oudoingi
nsi
demyfr
idge?
?
Wer
ey oufeeli
nghot
??"Hest
art
edl
i
cki
ngmy
f
ace,Ilaughed
Me:"St
opdoi
ngt
hat,
yoursal
i
vai
sal
lupi
nmy
f
acenow"
Nkazi
:"Mom canIbor
rowy
ourphone?
"
Me:
"it
sinsi
demybag"
Nkazi
:"Ican'
tfi
ndi
t"
Me:"gocheckinthecart
henandmakesur
e
youl
ockit!
"Shejumpedofft
hecouchandr
an
out,
final
l
yhereachedme
Me:
"Zambanel
ami
"Ipi
ckedhi
m upt
oo
Me:"Wher
ewereyouwhenBhutiMaFr
idgewas
i
nsi
demyfri
dge?
?"hejustcl
appedhi
shandsI
smi
l
ed
Me:"wher
eusyourdad??"IaskNkazi
whohad
myphoneonherhands
Nkazi:
"Taki
ngabat h"Inodandcli
mbedthe
st
air
swithmyt woratsassoonasIputt
hem
onmybedt heyst
artedpul
li
ngthi
ngs
Me:"That
'ssounli
keyouZet
hembe!
"It
ookof
f
myheelsandrubbedmyankl
eit
swasachi
ng
Me:"l
et'
shopethist
ime,yourf
irstwordwi
ll
be
mecauseI'
my ourmom ,
Icarri
edy a'
l
l8months
f
ull
"
Zweli
:"Whataboutme? ?Icr
eatedthem "he
sai
dcomingoutoftheshowerdrippi
ngwet
hehadatowelcover
inghislowerbody
Me:"ohi
fit
swasn'
tforme,
theywoul
dn'
tbe
her
e,sot
heyshoul
dsayMom"
Zwel
i:
"Nowehadamant
alk"Il
aughed
st
andi
ngup,
Iwal
kedt
ohi
m
Me: "Mant
alk,theyaresti
l
lboysyouknow
that
!"Wesharedakiss,alongpassi
onat
ekissI
pull
outastheboyswer enowquiet
Me:"Whyar
eyoul
ooki
ngatus?
?"Zet
hembe
f
rowns
Zweli
:"checkZet
hembei
sjeal
ous"welaughed
causi
nghimt ocr
yohhmyprot
ect
ivebaby
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryIwon'
tdoi
tev
eragai
n"
Zweli:
"Zethembeman!
!It
houghtwet
alked
aboutthi
s"
Me:
"leav
emybabi
esal
one"
Zweli
:"IknowBanzi
won'
tfor
sakenme"he
cr
iedtoo
Zwel
i:
"Al
lthatmant
alkdownt
hedr
ain"
Me:"ast
heyar
eget
ti
ngsocl
i
ngyIguesst
hey
mi
ssedme"
Zweli:
"it
str
ue, y
ou'vebeengoi
ngoutl
atel
yI'
m
notcomplai
ningthough"
Me:"t
heybett
ersayMom ast
hei
rfi
rstwor
d"I
t
ookthescr
eamingBanzi
Zwel
i:
"heli
kesat
tent
iont
hatone,Bi
gey
es!
"
Hesai
dapply
ingl
oti
ontohi
mself
Me:
"Shush!BabiesI
'
m sor
ryIwil
lnev
erdot
hat
i
nfr
ontofya'
l
lthatsotr
aumati
zi
ng"
Zwel
i:
"soont
hey
'l
lbeki
ssi
nggi
rl
s"
Me:
"AymanZwel
i
!!"
Zwel
i:"Theyar
ecr
yingl
i
ket
hisbecauset
hey
seey
ou"
Me:
"I'
mthei
rmot
hermos"
Nkazi
:
"Daddy
!!
"Sheknockedont
hedoor
Zwel
i:
"Comei
n!"
Nkazi
:"I
'
m hungr
y!"Iey
edZwel
i
Me:
"whatdi
dyougut
seat
?"
Nkazi:
"Not
hing!
!ButBanzi
andZet
hembe
badl
il
ebona"
Me:
"HauZwel
i?"
Zwel
i:
"Iwaswai
ti
ngf
ory
ou,
I
'vecookeddi
nner
"
Me: "Takethi
stwowit
hyouIwanttobath
beforeeati
ng"Zwel
igotdr
essedandl
eftwit
h
thecryi
ngtwins
.
Itookmyrelaxi
ngbat
hthoughi
twasshort,
becauseIhadtogoandeat,wor
emypy j
amas
andwalkeddownstai
rs
Nkazi
:"Sheshaphel
aAnel
e!"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"Blesst
hef
oodNkazi
"Isatdownnextt
o
t
het
wins
Nkazi:
"Babawet
huosezulwi busi
sal okudla
esi
zokudl
amanje,kusi
suthiseukuzesi zol
ala
kahl
eAmen"(HeavenlyFatherblessourf ood
asweabouttoeat,andmayi tfullourstomach
sowecansleeppeaceful
l
yAmen)Il aughed
Zwel
i:
"Whot
aughty
out
hatpr
ayer?
"
Nkazi:
"Noone"Ishookmyheadandst
art
ed
eat
ing
Zet
hembe:
"Z.
.zama"weal
lkeptqui
et
Me:
"sayt
hatagai
nbaby!
!"Hej
ustl
ookedatus
Nkazi
:"hesai
dZama"
Zet
hembe:"Zama!
"Shescr
eamedandwentt
o
ki
sshi
sface
Nkazi
:"tol
dyoudad,
theyaremybr
other
sso
t
heywill
saymynamef i
rst"
Zwel
i:"Yeahri
ght,
IknowBanzi
won'
t
di
sappointme"
Me:
"SayMommy,
Zet
hembe"
Zet
hembe:
"Zama"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"hewon'
tst
op"
Zwel
i:
"whatabouty
ouBanzi
??"
Banzi
:"Gogo"Il
aughed
Me:
"outofal
lpeopl
eyouchooset
osayGogo,
noman"
Banzi
:"Gogo!
!"
Zweli
:"You'r
enolongerZwel
iyou,youcan'tbe
Zweli
banzianddon'
tsayDadasy ourfi
rstword
"Il
aughed
.
Wewerenowlayi
ngonourbedf
aci
ngup,
the
ki
dsweresl
eepi
ng
Me:
"I'
m sodi
sappoi
nted"
Zweli
:"Met
ooIthoughtt
heywoul
dsayDada
notGOGOandZama"
Me:
"Iguesst
heyar
espendi
ngmor
eti
mewi
th
t
hem "
Zwel i
:"Yeah,sowhat'
seati
ngy ou??Icantel
l
thatyou'r
enotokayyouwerejustsmil
ingfor
thesakeoft heki
dsnowtheyarenothere
there'
snoneedt opr
etend"Isi
ghed
Me:"somet
hingt
err
ibl
ehappenedonmyway
backher
e"
Zwel
i:
"What
'shappened?
"
Me:"Iwasinthepar
kingl
otandstar
tedseei
ng
shadows,Ir
antomycarandlockedthedoor,
I'
vebeenf
eeli
ngli
kesomeoneiswatchi
ngme"
Zwel
i:
"buty
ounev
ert
oldmeabouti
t"
Me: "soIdroveoffonmywayInot i
cedtwo
carsfol
lowingme, Ipanickedandcall
edDad,
oneoft hecarsover
takesmeandst oppedin
fr
ontofmi ne..
"Inar
ratedthewholestoryt
ohim
,hewasqui et
lyl
ooki
ngatme
Me:"Iwasscar
ed"thatwhenIr
eleasedal
lmy
emoti
onsIhadi
nside
Zwel
i:
"Don'twor
rythi
ngswillbeokay,Iwi
l
l
makesur
ethat,t
hiswil
lneverhappenagai
n"I
nodheki
ssedmyf or
ehead
Zwel
i:
"I'
m sogl
ady
ou'
resaf
e,Idon'
tknow
whyIsai
dyoushoul
dleav
eyourbody
guar
dsi
t'
s
al
lmyfaul
t"
Me:"Don'
tbl
amey oursel
fwedi
dn'
tev
enknow
t
hatthi
smighthappen"
Zwel
i:
"Ial
mostl
osty
oubabe"
Me:
"ByGodsgr
aceI
'
m st
il
lher
eal
i
ve"
Zweli
:"weshoul
dpraythanki
ngt
hel
ord"we
kneel
edandstar
tedpr
aying
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
I
tsbeenamonthaft
erthatinci
dent,Ihaven'
t
hadenoughsl
eepasIcouldn'
tsleepthi
nking
whomi ghtwanttokill
mywi f
e??IknowKi ng
hashi sownenemi esbutmygut saretel
li
ngme
thatthisgotever
ythingtodowi thme?Idon't
rememberhav inganenemy ??Istoodinsi
demy
offi
ce,looki
ngoutsidet r
yingtofi
gureoutwho
mightbe?Aknockdi sturbedmyt hought
Zama:
"Daddy
!!
"It
urned
Me:
"Hey
!!"Ipi
ckedherup
Me:
"ar
eyoual
one?
?Baphi
abany
e?"
Zama:
"Mom i
scomi
ng!
"
Me:"Ohhwhatdi
dIdot
odeser
vet
hisgl
ori
ous
pr
esent"
Anel
e:"webr
oughty
oul
unch"
Banzi:
"Dada!"Hetri
edrunni
ngbutf
ell
,they
can'
twalkproper
lybutt
heydo
Me:"Comet
oDadaboy!
!"Ipickedhim upt
oo"
Zet
hembewasqui
etl
yst
andingwi t
hhismom
Me:
"Boydon'
tyouwannacome?
"Heshook
hi
shead
Anel
e:"he'
sbeenmoodysi
ncet
hismor
ning"
Me:"comeher
eboy"Iputot
her
sdownandhe
wal
kedsul
ki
ngtome
Me:
"What
'swr
ongboy,
ain'
tyouhappyt
osee
me?
"
Anele:
"Ihopey
ou'
rehungr
y,Iboughtal
lyour
fav
orit
es"
Me:"YeahIam ,
Zet
hembe?
?"Hej
ustl
aidhi
s
headonmychest
Me:
"may
bey
oushoul
dtakehi
mtot
hedoct
or"
Anel
e:"Iwi
l
lgor
ightaway"wesatdownand
at
e
.
Me:"Thanksf
orpassi
ngby"Isai
dki
ssi
ngal
l
oft
hem
Anel
e:"I
'
m notababyy
ouknowt
hat
?"I
chuckl
ed
Me:"wheni
tsy
oudoi
ngi
tit
sokaybutMi
na
l
utho"
Anel
e:"l
et'
snoar
gueaboutt
his"shef
orcedl
y
ki
ssedme
Me:
"youknowIl
i
kei
twheny
ou'
rei
ncont
rol
"
Anel
e:"Ki
dsl
et'
sgo"Il
aughedast
heyl
eft
Icarr
iedonst uff
ingmyselfwi
thwork,
Ineedt o
getat emporaryp.asi
nceKwanel
eispregnant
andonl eave,Ineedtotal
ktomywifeabout
thi
s.
.
.
.
Kwanel
e
.
.
.
Idi
dlaylowf orabi
tbutnowi
tsti
metostri
ke,
I
can'
tletthem l
iv
ehappi
lymar
ri
ednotundermy
watch!!
Me:"George!
!"Imoanedl
ouderIl
ovehowhe
sat
isf
iesmyneeds
George:
"Shi
t!
!Kwanel
e?!
"Hewenti
ndeeper
hi
tt
ingmyG-spot
Me:"OhhGEORGE!!OHHYES!
!"Wecar
ri
edon
t
aki
ngcareofourneeds.
..
Me:
"Thatwasepi
c!"Isai
dcat
chi
ngmybr
eat
he
Geor
ge:
"Youwer
esodamnsexy"heki
ssed
me
Me:
"Noman!Geor
ge"
Geor
ge:
"But
?"
Me:
"wehadsext
hat
'sal
lnot
hingel
se"he
cl
ickedhistongueandstoodupheadingtothe
bathroom ,
Iwatchedhim goi
ngi
nsidehis
skinnybodyiswellbui
l
t,hecamebackdressed
Me:"wheny ou'r
edonebeingMrgr umpy, cal
l
met husmissionneedtotakepl
acet oday"he
walkedoutIroll
edmyey es,hebetternotpul
l
outinthepl
anorel seI
'
m alsoki
ll
inghim
.
Geor
ge:
"Wewi
l
lhi
j
ackt
hecarandt
akeone
t
winonl
y!
"
Hi
tman'
s:"Yessur
e!"
George:
"Takethatboyt
oawar
ehouse,
you
wil
lfi
ndusther
e"
Hi
tman:
"whati
f-
"
Me:
"St
opbei
ngacowar
d"
Hi
tman:
"Buti
-"Ishoothst
rai
ghtt
ohi
shead
Me:"anyoneelsewant
stoj
oinhi
m??"t
hey
shookthei
rsheads
Me:"nowcl eanupthismess!
"Theyst
arttaki
ng
thebody,otherswerewipi
ngthebl
oodthat
wasalloverIevenhadonemycl ot
hesbutI
don'
tcare.
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Me:
"Youdon'
tfi
ndany
thi
ng?
"
Doct
or:
"heseemsf
inet
ome,
may
bei
tsj
ustof
t
hosemoremoment
s"
Me:"Thankyou"Ist
oodupandtookZet
hembe
andl
eft,
other
swereinsi
det
hecar
Me:
"theycan'
tfi
ndany
thi
ngwr
ongwi
thhi
m"
Nkazi
:"May
bet
her
e'ssomet
hingbadt
hati
s
goi
ngt
ohappen"
Me:
"whot
oldy
out
hat
?"
Nkazi :"Atschool Missoncesai dthatsome
thingst winssharetheiremot i
onswhichmeans
theot hertwinmi ghtfeelsomet hi
ngwhen
his/herbr ot
herisfeelingpainorsomet hi
ngbad
i
tgoi ngt ohappent ohi m "Ichuckl
edthere'
sno
sucht hingast hat
Me:"mmhokay"Icar
ri
edi
nwi
thdr
iveunt
ilwe
gethome
.
Me:"whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
oeatf
ordi
nnert
oday
?"
Nkazi
:"Macar
oni
!!
"
Banzi
:"Nananoni
s!"Il
aughed
Me:"Yesbaby!"Theynowcanpr
onounce"
Dada,
Mamami ,Zama,GogoandMkhulu"
Ist
art
edcomi
ngwhi
l
ehav
ingaconv
ersat
ion
wi
thNkazi
,shekeepstel
li
ngmeabouther
f
ri
endsi
nschool,Ihear
dmyphoneri
ngingi
ts
wasMama
Me:
"Hel
l
oMama"shecoughed
Mma: "I
'm sor
ryf
orever
ythingZi
yanda,Ihope
youknowthatIdon'
that
ey ou,Iwasjust
l
ookingoutformyson"
Me:"i
t'
dokayMmaIunder
standImeanIwoul
d
ki
l
lanygir
ltomesswi
thmyboys"
Mma:"thatwhatIal
sof
elt,
butIhopet
her
e's
nobadbloodbet
weenus"
Me:
"NoMmawe'
regood"
Mma:"wher
earemygr
andchi
l
dren,Imiss
t
hem y
oushoul
dcomevi
sitmetomorr
ow"
Me: "l
etmeputy ouonspeakerphonecause
theywil
lar
gueaboutwho'sgonnaholdthe
phone"shelaughed
Me:
"Guy
sComeher
e,Gogowant
stot
alkt
o
y
ou"
Banzi
&Zet
hembe:
"Gogo!
!"
Me:"Yescome"Ir
eal
l
ycan'
tbel
i
evet
hatt
hey
ar
ewalki
ngnow
Banzi
:"Gogo!
!"
Mma:
"it
sBanzi
right
??"
Me:
"Yes"
Mma:
"hel
l
oboyboy"
Banzi
:"gehv
fiuf
sdj
"
Mma:
"I'
mfi
neandy
ou"
Banzi
:"hgl
i
dst
ubsacz"i
laughed
Mma:
"wher
eisZet
hembe"
Me:
"he'
sher
eal
so"
Mma:
"Zet
hembe!
"
Zet
hembe:
"Gogo!
"
Mma:
"howar
eyou?
"
Zet
hembe:
"Gogo!
"
Mma:
"I'
mfi
net
oowena?
"
Zet
hembe:
"Gogo!
!"Il
aughed
Mma:
"wher
e'st
hepr
incess?
?"
Me:
"Nkazi
!!
"
Nkazi
:"I
'
m comi
ng!
!"
Nkazi
:"Gogo!
"
Mma:
"Nkosazana"
Nkazi
:"Whenar
eyoucomi
ngt
ovi
situs"
Mma:
"Tomor
rowI
'
m comi
ng"
Nkazi
:"Iwi
l
ltel
lMom t
ocookspeci
alf
oodf
or
you"
Mma: "ifonlyIwi
llshar
eitwit
hyounott
he
naughtytwins"Nkazigi
ggled
Nkazi
:"wewi
l
lhi
def
rom t
hem "
Mma:
"OkayGoodni
ghtgr
annyl
ovesy
ou"
Nkazi
:"Lov
eyout
oo"
Me:
"SayIl
ovey
ouGogo"Isai
dtot
het
wins
Zet
hembe:
"Gogo!
!"
Banzi
:"Nf
ivdsukof
awon"
Mma:
"Ai
sukauBanzi
"wel
aughed
Mma:"whenZwel
iusbackt
ell
himt
ocal
lme
i
tsur
gent
!"
Me:"wil
ldoMma,
Ulal
ekahl
e"wesai
dour
goodby
es
Me:
"Okayokay,
gobackt
oyourpl
aces"
.
Me:"It
houghty
ou'
renev
ercomi
ngback"he
goti
n
Zweli:"I'm sor
ry"hewenttotakeabathand
wepr ay edbeforeeat
ingonthemiddl
eofthe
di
iner, hereceivedacall
Zwel
i:
"Oneoft
heguar
dsar
ecal
l
ingme"I
shr
ugged
Me:
"puti
tonaspeaker
phone"henod
Zwel
i:
"Hel
l
o"
Guar
d:"Pl
easecomet
othepal
acenow!
!"He
st
oodup
Zwel
i:
"what
'si
shappeni
ng?
"
Guard:"unf
ort
unatel
ythequeenhaslef
tus"
si
lentcl
oudedus, t
hiscan'
tbehappeni
ng,he
l
ookedatmeIl ookedbackathi
m
Zwel
i:
"I'
m comi
ng!
"Ist
oodup
Me:"I'
m goi
ngwi
thy
ou"hej
ustl
eftnot
answeri
ngme
Me:
"Comel
et'
sgo,
we'
regoi
ngt
oseeMkhul
u"
Twi
ns:"Mkhul
u!!
"Inodandr
ushedout,
Zwel
i
wasl
onggone
Me:
"Mel
usi
!!
"Oneoft
heguar
ds
Mel
usi
:"Nkosazana"hebowed
Me: "dri
v ewiththekids, we'regoi
ngtothe
royalhouse, Iwil
l f
oll
owy ou"henodsandt ook
thekidswi t
hhi m, helef
tIwal kedbackupstai
rs
topackt hei
rbagsandev erythingt
hatwemi ght
needandwentdowngoti nsidemycaroneof
theguar dsdrovemet oroyalhousecauseI
didn'
ttrustmy selfwit
hdr i
ving
.
Wear ri
vedi
nther oyalhouse,
theweremany
carsintheyar
d, Iguesstheki
dshaslong
arr
ived,Iwentinsi
deandZwel iwasbusy
shouti
ngatthemai ds
Me:
"Zwel
i
!!"Hecl
i
ckedhi
stongueandl
eft
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryaboutt
his"t
heynod
Ical
ledallt
her el
ati
vesever
yonei
nfor
ming
them aboutthepassingoft
hequeen
It
swasnowcl osert
o10pm Ineedt
ocheckon
mykids,Ist
oody oandaskedonei
fthemai
ds,
shesai
dthekidshasneverar
ri
vedhere,
wher
e'sMel
usi
!?
.
.
.
Nar
rat
or
.
.
.
Meanwhi leMel usiwasbusyhav ingagood
conversationwi t
ht heki dsunt i
l hesawpeopl e
point
inggunsatt hei rcar,het r
iedt ospeedthe
carbutitswast ool ateast heyst artedfi
ri
ngthe
guns, t
hebul l
etslandedt ohi sf oreheadashe
waspr otectingNonkazi mulo, hedi edsame
ti
mel eavingt hekidsal lalone,oneoft he
hit
manopenedt hecarandsawt wobabyboy s
withthei
rsi stercrying, heinjectedoneoft he
twinsandt heirsistertheyf eelasl eepalmost
i
mmedi
atel
y,het
ookZwel
i
banzi
andl
eftwi
th
hi
m
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t37
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Iwasget
ti
ngmor
ewor
ri
edasIcoul
dn'
tfi
nd
Melusi,wher
eishe? ?Iwantmychi
ldr
en!I
shoul
dhav enotl
etthem l
eavewit
houtme,
whattypeofamot herIam??
IwasbusypacingupanddowninZweli'
s
bedroom Idon'
tev
enknowwher ehei
soreven
thechil
dren'
s,t
heknockdi
stur
bedmef r
om my
thought
Me:
"Comei
n!"Themai
dgoti
n
Maid:
"Nkosazane"shebowed"Thembahas
ar
ri
vedwit
hthekids"
Me:
"fi
nal
l
y!!
"Iwal
keddownst
air
swi
thher
Me:
"Mybabi
es"t
jot
hewayt
hecr
ied
Me:
"ShushhMamanai
sher
enow"Ihugged
t
hem t
ight
Me:
"wher
eisBanzi
?"
Nkazi
:"Bamt
hat
hil
e!!
"
Me:
"whot
ookhi
m?"
Nkazi
:"Idon'
tknow"Itookt
hecr
ying
Zet
hembewal kedoutwi
thhi
m
Me:
"Themba!
"Hecamer
unni
ng
Themba:
"Nkosazane"hebowed
Me:
"wher
eisMel
usi
?"
Themba:"wefoundhi
mint
hecardead,
we
rushedt
heki
dshere"
Me:
"What
!?"
Themba:
"hewasshot"
Me: "Nono!Thiscan'
tbehappeningt
heytook
uBanzii
!!Theyt
ookmyboy "Icr
iednotbel
i
eving
thi
s
Themba: "we'veor gani
zedmen'swhowi l
lgo
andsear chf orthelit
tl
eprince"Inodand
walkedbacki nside,thi
sisabsurd!Mymother
i
nlawdi es! !Mybabyi sbeenkidnappedIcan'
t
dealIreallycan't!
Me:
"cany
ouhol
dhi
mforme"Igav
eoneof
themaidsZethembeandcl
i
mbedupstair
sI
needtobealoneIcan'
tdot
his,
Ican'
t!
!Lord
thi
sistomuch!!
.
Igotinsidethebedroom andZwel iwasseat ed
thereassoonasIopenedt hedoorhet urnedto
seewhowasatt hedoor, Istoodtherefrozen
helookedl i
keadiff
er entpersonhest oodup
andwal kedtomydi recti
onIsi ghedknowi ng
he'sleavi
ngIwenttosi tont hebedl i
tt
ledidI
knewt hathewenttol ockt hedoor, dr
opped
thekey sonhispocket, what'shappening!!
Zwel
i:
"Why
?"Iwasconf
used
Me:
"Why
?"
Zwel
i:
"Iwon'
trepeatmysel
f!
!"
Me:
"whatar
eyouonabout
?"
Zweli:
"Iwasli
steni
ngt
othev oi
cemessage
thatmom l
eftbefor
edy
ing,shesai
dshetal
ked
toyoushet ol
dyoutotel
lmetocal
lherback
urgent
ly!
!Butyoudi
dn'
t!
!,youdi
dn'
t!
!Tel
lme!!"
Me:
"itsl
i
ppedmymi
nd!
!"
Zweli:
"lookathowy ourf
ooli
shminddid!
!Iwil
l
neverhearnorseemymom agai n!
!Just
becauseofy ou!
!Ify
ouhadtoldmeearlymaybe
!!Maybet hi
swasn'tgoi
ngtohappen!!
"
Me: "I
'
m sor
ry"Iwasnowcryi
ng!Howcanhe
saythatt
ome? ?Idi
dn'
tknowthatt
hingswi
l
l
tur
noutli
kethi
s!!
Zwel
i:
"wil
lyoursor
rybr
ingmymom back?
?
Wil
li
t!
!"
Me:
"N.
.no!
"Hechuckl
ed
Zweli
:"Thenwhyareyousayi
ngsorr
y!?Why!!
"I
j
ustcri
ed, hewasdev
astat
edevenhi
sey es
werebloodshotr
ed
Zweli
:"Ibet
ternotf
indy
ouher
e,whenIcome
back"
Me:
"howcany
ousayt
hat
?"
Zweli
:"Idon'
tev
enwanty
out
osety
ourf
ooti
n
thi
splace"
Me:
"Ngekengi
zwengawe!
!"
Zwel
i:
"ut
hini
!?
"Ikeptmymout
hshut
Zwel
i:
"thoughtso"hewal
kedt
othedoor
Me:
"Mel
usi
wasshotand-
"
Zwel
i:
"Idon'
tev
encareaboutMelusiIj
ustl
ost
mymom andyoubusytel
l
ingaboutserv
ants!
!"
Me:"he'
sDeadokay!
!Hewaswiththeki
ds
whenall
ofthi
shappened"hest
oppedand
t
urnedback
Me:
"TheyshotMel
usi
andt
ookBanzi
"Icr
ied
Zwel
i:
"whywer
eyounotdr
ivi
ngwi
tht
heki
ds?
"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tknowt
hatt
hismi
ghthappen"
Zweli
:"you'
reunbel
i
evabl
e!!Youknewyouhad
peopl
efoll
owingyoubuty
ouputourchi
l
dren'
s
l
i
fei
ndanger
!!
"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tknow!
!Don'
tputt
hebl
ameonme"
Zweli:"i
tsyourf
aulteverythi
ngthatis
happeningit
sallyourfault!
!"Hecli
ckedhis
tonguebeforeunl
ockingt hedoorandleft
l
eav i
ngmecr yi
ngsensel ess,Ican'
tbeli
evethat
heblamesme
.
.
.
Kwanel
e
.
.
.
Iwasint
hewar
ehouseswithGeorgewai
ti
ngfor
hi
smantocomeback!!Iwasfeel
i
ngallmixed
emoti
ons
.
Geor
ge:
"theyar
eher
e"
Me:"i
tsaboutt
ime!!
"Thehi
tmangoti
nhol
ding
ababy,asmil
edcrepedi
n
Me:"ohmyGodhe'
ssocutej
ustl
i
kehi
sdad"I
sai
dtaki
ngt
hesl
eepi
ngbaby
Geor
ge:"t
hanksman!"Theyshookhands,
I
wasbusyl
ookingatt
hispreci
ouscar
go
Geor
ge:
"whatt
henextst
epnow"
Me:"Iwast
hinkingofki
l
li
ngthebabyandsend
hi
sheadtohisfamil
ybutdamnhelooksso
cut
etodie"
Geor
ge:
"soy
ou'
rekeepi
ngt
hebaby?
"
Me:
"yes!Iwi
l
lhav
etwobabi
es"
Geor
ge:
"ohokayI
'
mleav
ingnow!
"
Me:
"Iwi
l
lsl
eepher
e"henodsandl
eft
Me:
"youl
ooksobeaut
if
ulbabyIswearIwant
t
okilly
oubutno, you'r
esocute!
!Iactuall
y
wantedyourmom "Ikissedhi
ssmal lpouted
l
ipsandstart
edhummi ngasongf orhim,
t
houghhewassl eeping
.
Thenextmor ni
ngIwaswokenupbyt
heshar
p
cr
yandt hatwasthebabycr
ying
Me:"you'
retoocut
etocr
yli
keamadman"I
pi
ckedhim up
Me:"youmustbever
yhungryhey"Idi
dn't
br
inganyf
oodheresoIhavetocal
lGeorge
Me:"George!!Pl
easebri
ngusf ood"Idi
dn'
twai
t
f
orhisrespondIdroppedthecall
Me:"St
opcry
ing!!You'
redri
vi
ngmemad!!"I
dr
oppedhi
mt othefloor,
hecri
edl
ouder
Me:"I
'
m sorrybaby !
!"Ipi
ckedhim up"Mommy
i
ssorr
yitswon'thappeneveragain"Iwal
ked
ar
oundinci
rclejusttocal
m him down,t
houit
s
wasn'
tworki
ngbutast
imegoesonhewas
sl
owlycal
ming
Me:
"That
'smyboy"Iki
ssedhi
scheek
Me:"thewayyou'
resocut
eit
sli
keyou'r
eagi
rl
orsomethi
ng!"Geor
gebar
gedinhol
ding
pl
asti
cs
Geor
ge:
"Ihopehewi
l
leatt
hef
oodIbought"
Me:
"whatdi
dyoubuy
?"
Geor
ge:
"inst
antpor
ri
dge"
Me:"hewi
l
leatitbyfor
ce"Il
aidhi
m downand
st
art
edmakinghisf
ood
Me:"boyboy
!!I
tsti
mef orbr
eakfast"Ipi
cked
hi
m upandstar
tedfeedi
nghim andhedidn'
t
ev
engivemeanyproblems
George:
"maybehe'
susedt
oit"Inodand
car
ri
edfeedi
nghi
m
Me: "i
fIcanki
l
lyourmom andget
scl
oset
o
yourdad,wewill
li
veahappyli
fe"
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
I'
m sopr oudofmysel f, I
'
m pr oudbecauseI
didn'tr
eflexmyangeri naphy sicalwayIguess
thetherapydi dhelpedtosayIwashur ti
ngI
woul dbel yi
ng!Ican'texplainthismywhol e
wor l
dhasbeenshat t
ered don' tevenknow
whatwaswr ongwi t
hmom t hatcausehert odie
andnow myboyi smi ssing, cananormal
humanbei nghandl ethi
s? ?Ican'thandleitI'
m
fail
i
ngt odosoandwhatanger smemor eis
thatwhatdi dmywi fedidn'ttel
lmeaboutMom
call
ing??May besheneededt ober ushedtothe
hospi
tal
butmywif
est
oppedmef r
om hel
ping
mymom witht
hatIwi
l
lneverf
orgi
veher,
ev er
.
Iwalkeddownstai
rs,passedthel
oungel
ikethe
wasnoonet here,Iwasheadingt
oThembawe
needtogoandst artl
ooki
ngformysonthouwe
hadnol i
nkbutwehav etotr
yorel
seIwil
ldie
becauseofstr
ess
Me:
"Themba!
!Themba!
!"Hecamer
ushi
ng
Themba:
"Nkosana!
"
Me:"Takemet owher
eyoufoundt
hekids"he
nodsandledthewaymaybewecangetsome
ki
ndofclue..
.
Themba:
"shoul
dwecont
actt
hepol
i
ce?
"
King:"No!!Ihavesomepeoplelooki
ngformy
grandsonsopol i
cewoul
ddisturbthem!"Iwas
quiet
lyseatedonthecouchwatchingthem
di
scussway stosear
chforBanzi,ever
yone
wasshockedwhent
heyl
ear
ntt
hatoneoft
he
t
winwasmi ssi
ng
AuntPorti
a:"Ayi
hmanwemustst ar
tpr
epari
ng
fort
hefuneral,
youmencanf ocusonfi
nding
thepri
nce"theyagr
eedt owhatshewassayi
ng
Iwaslostinmyownt hought
.
Mywi fecamedownst ai
rswithswoll
eney esit
s
beenadaysi nceBanziwaskidnappedandi t
beenhellahard,she'
salwayscryi
ngIhavet o
bestrongforherandmyki dsbutdeepdown
i
nsideIalsowantt ocr
ybutthat'
snotformen' s
ri
ght?
?ButI '
m alsoahumanIhav efeel
ingstoo
Anele:
"GoodMorni
ng"t
heygreetedherback
butIdi
dn'
tIwassti
l
lmadathershedepri
ved
meav oi
ceofmyMom
Anel
e:"Zweli
canIhaveatal
kwit
hyou"Istood
upandwalkedtoher,
weheadedt
otheki
tchen
Anel
e:"Ican'
ttakei
tany
mor
e,Iknowy
ou'
re
madatmeandI
'
m sor
ryIt
hinkI
'
m goi
ngcr
azy
!"Shecr
ied
Me:"I'
m alsosorr
yforputt
ingtheblameiny
ou
Iwaswrongi t
snotyourfaultev
ery
thing
happensforareason"shehuggedmeI
huggedherbacksot i
ght
Anel
e:"anyl
eadaboutmyson?
"
Me:
"wear
est
il
ll
ooki
ng"Ibr
ushedherback.
..
Anel
e:"hav
eyoueat
enany
thi
ng?
"
Me:
"I'
m nothungr
y"sheey
edme
Me:
"Iwi
l
leatonl
yify
oucaneataswel
l"
Anel
e:"howcanIeatnotknowi
ngi
fmyson
haseat
enornot?
"
Me:"wewill
findhi
m don'
twor
ry,j
ustfocuson
hel
pingar
ound"shenodsIki
ssedherhead
Me:
"lov
eyouokay"
Anel
e:"l
ovey
out
oo"
.
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t38
.
.
.
Aweekl
ater
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.

Todaywast hev i
gil
day, andIthasn'
tregi
stered
i
nmymi ndthatmymom hasl eftme,worse
partwecan'tf
indanyl i
nk/ l
eadaboutwhere
Banziis,
theplacewasf i
lledwi t
hpeoplef
rom
thevil
l
age.Iwasdi stur
bedbyKi ng(Anel
e's
Father
)touchi
ngmyshoul der
.
Ki
ng:
"itwi
l
lpass,
Son"It
ight
enedup
King:"ever
ythi
nghappensf
orar
easonand
don'tquest
ionGod'
sdoing"
Me:"can'
thej
ustspar
eheraf
ewday
sorev
en
hour
ssoIcansaygoodby
e"
Ki
ng:
"itwashert
ime,
Son"
Me:
"IguessIhav
etoaccepti
t"
King:
"IswearIwantt
oshout,hityouoreven
shoot
ingyouforal
waysat
tract
ingpsychos"
Me:
"Meani
ng?
"
King:"Ihavefoundwheretheper
sonwhostol
e
mygr andsonisandit
'sawoman"Ilight
enupa
bi
tthoui nsi
deIwasfeel
ingli
keafai
lur
eI
couldn'
tprotectmyownfamily
Me:
"Whocoul
ditbe?
"
Ki
ng:
"YourP.
A,Kwanel
e"Isi
ghed
King:"wehavemadear escuepl
anandi
twi
l
l
takeplacet
odaymidni
ght"
Me:
"canIcomewi
th?
"
Ki
ng:
"sur
e"
"I
'
mj oini
ngyou"wet ur
nedandsawmywi
fe
st
andingther
elooki
ngshatt
ered
Ki
ng:
"Idon'
tthi
nki
tsaf
efory
ou"
Anel
e:"Iwasn'
taski
ngDadbutIwast
ell
i
ngy
ou
"
Me:
"wecan'
ttaket
hatr
isk"
Anele:"sowenayou'
reabl
et ot
akethatr
isk?I
can'tl
oseyoutoo..I
fyou'
regoi
ngthenI'
m also
going"
Me:
"whataboutt
heki
ds?
"
Anel
e:"t
heyhav
ethei
rAunt
ies,
sot
heywi
l
lst
ay
wit
hthem "
King:"whywereyoul
ist
eni
ngt
oour
conversat
ionasMen?
"
Anel
e:"notnowDad"
Anel
e:"Theywer
elooki
ngf
ory
ou"
Me:"Itol
dthem Iwon'
ttal
kcan'
ttheygett
hat
t
hroughthei
rthi
ckskul
ls?"
Anel
e:"Iwasjustpassi
ngt
hemessage.
.Dad
woul
dy oul
ikesomescones?"
Ki
ng:
"NoI
'
mfi
nebaby"shenodsandl
eft
Ki
ng:
"shewasn'
tsupposet
ohearaboutt
his"
Me:"Iknow,
Iwill
findawayt
ochangeher
mi
ndaboutgoingwithus"
Ki
ng:
"it
syourj
obasherhusband"Ichuckl
ed
Me: "Ibetitmine"Istoodupandfol
l
owedt he
samedi recti
onwhereAneleheaded,gett
ing
i
nsidethehouseIwaswel comedbytrouble,
thehardlycryi
ngZethembe
.
Me:"what'
swrongboy?
"Hekeptholdi
nghi
s
headonthebackandcr
yingshar
ply
Anel
e:"ni
menzeni?"Shet
ookhim awayfr
om
me,busybrushi
nghisbackhewasn'thav
ingi
t,
hekeptholdi
nghisheadcry
ing
Me:"Iwil
lbeback"IwalkedoutIcan'
thandl
e
seei
ngthecryi
ngZethembeitr
emindsmeof
mynaughtyboy,Ij
usthopelordhe'
ssafe
whereeverhei
sandIpraythatwefindhi
m sti
ll
thesamenothi
nghar
med, Iwal
kedt
o
Bab'
Zwane'
shuntmypurposewastofi
nd
somethi
ngthatwi
l
lmakeZethembecal
m down
.
Me:"ThokozozaMkhul
u"Isai
dsi
tt
ingdown,
hej
ustnoddedhedoesn'
ttal
kmuchhardl
yev
en
smi
le
Me: "IneedsomeSt rongherbt hatmighthelp
mysont obeabletofall
asleep, he'sbeen
cry
ingnonst op"inmyheadt hoseher bsI
'm
goingtouset hem t
omywi fet oo, soshecan
sl
eepandwe' llgorescuemyson
Zwane: "Ther
e'snot
hingwr
ongwit
hyoursi
de,
he'sjustr
efl
exi
ngthesamepai
nthathi
stwi
nis
feeli
ng"
Me:
"ist
hatev
enr
eal
?"
Zwane:"I
tsdoesn'
tal
wayshappensbutmost
casest
winsdosharefeel
i
ngs"
Me:"sothi
smeansmysonisfeel
i
ngpai
n
wher
everheis?"It
ight
enmyj
aws
Zwane:"Yesandyoumustgot her
eur
gent
ly
bef
oresomethingbadhappens"
Me:
"wewi
l
lgoaf
tert
hef
uner
al"
Zwane:
"itwi
l
lbet
ool
ate"
Me:"wewi
l
lgoassoonaspossi
ble"henods
andgav
emetheher
bs
Me:"ThokozaMkhul
u"Istoodup,woremy
shoesonmywayout, Ipr
aythatt
hiswor
ks
.
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryf
ort
aki
ngsol
ongt
ocomeback"
Anele:"hekeepstouchi
nghi
shead, Zwel
i
ther
e'ssomethingwrongwit
hit"shewas
cryi
ngtoo
Me:"letmemi
xtheseher
bs,
hewi
l
lbegood"
shenods
Iwenttotheki
tchenandboi
ledwat
ermixed
them wi
ththeherbs,wal
kedbackt
othelounge
Me:"Bab'Zwanesaid,heshoul
ddri
nkt
his,
he
wi
llbeabletosl
eep"Itookhim whi
l
ehi
smom
wasfi
xingtheherbssohecanbeablet
odri
nk
i
t
.
Iwasnowwear i
ngmyal lblackclothes, Ihave
contactedKingaboutwhatBab' Zwanesai dand
hegotnopr oblem perfor
mi ngt hemi ssi
on
todaythoughi t
'stoori
sky, Itookallthe
necessarythingsthatImightneed, goingoutI
metmywi f
ewear i
ngablackcoat, bl ackthigh
highboots, f
ishnetstockingsshel ookeddamn
sexy
Me: "Wow!"Shesl
owlyopenedhercoat,Iwas
shockedtoseeall
thoseguns,pist
ols,
grenadesyounamethem ,evenpocketkni
fes
underneat
hitwi
thabl
ackspor
tbr
aandbl
ack
ti
ghts
Anel
e:"I
'
mready"
Me:
"It
houghtwet
alkedaboutt
his"
Anel
e:"wedidn'
tagree,youv
oicedoutyour
opi
nion"Isi
ghed,ther
e'snot
urningbacknow
Me:"Ihatethi
s, l
et'
sgo"Iheldherhandwe
wal
keddownst ai
rs,other
sweresleepi
ngit
s
wascloseto01:34am per
fectt
ime
Me:"hopey
ouhaveeat
en,
Idon'
twanty
out
o
f
aintonmether
e"
Anele:"Iwon'tf
aint
!"Ishookmyheadandwe
conti
nuedwal ki
ng,therewasablackH1
standi
ngout si
dethegat es,
wehoppedi
nand
offwego, Iwassoner vous
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Theweekf ul
lyendedwit
houtanyl eadaboutmy
son, I
'mthankfulformyfat
her,ifitwasn'
tfor
him, wherewi l
lwebe?Ihardl
ysleepatnight
thi
nkingaboutmyson, hasheeat en??Dothey
hurt
inghim? ?Isheevenbathedtoday ?
?Where
doeshesl eeps?Thoughtwererunningwildon
mymi nd.
.
Zweli
:"I
'
m sur
pri
sedy
ouhav
eal
lthese
weapons"
Me:"myfatheri
sagangst
er,
soIgotal
lthe
weapons"
Zwel
i:
"Ioncesuspect
edt
hat"
Me:
"nowy
ouknow"
.
Thecarstoppedthatwhent her
eal
it
ycr
epedin,
I
'mreall
ydoingthis!Butitformyson,t
hey
gaveusbull
etproofv estsandwetookour
posi
ti
ontheyquitebriefedusonourway,the
pl
acewasatRi chardsBay
.
Bul
lets:
"Youwillgowi
thme"hesaidl
ooki
ngat
me,itwasn'
tawkwardonourwaytoRi
char
ds
BaybecauseIknowthem
Me:
"Fi
ne!
"
Kyle:
"Wewi l
lgowit
hthepr
ince!Remember
youshootaimi
ngthehead,
nomi stakeorel
se
theywil
lki
l
lyou"
Bul
let
s:"t
hispl
aceisful
lwit
hguar
dsinsi
de"I
swall
owedhard,maybeIshoul
dhavenotcome
her
e
Bul
lets:
"Go!Go!"t
hewer
eot
hermenar
med
andready
Bull
ets:
"fol
l
owme! "Wecr
awledontherough
fl
oor,ki
ndatear
edupmystocki
ngsbutIdon'
t
care
Bull
ets:"wil
lyoubeabl
etocl
i
mbt
hiswal
l
?"15
feet
'slong
Me:
"Icant
ry!
"
Bul
l
ets:
"225!
!How'
sthecoast
?"
.
..
Bull
ets:"okaywehave5minut
esbefor
eother
guardscome, nowCli
mb!!
"Iwasshaki
ngbutI
tr
iedcli
mbi ngbutmyboot
swon'tl
etme
Me:
"Ican'
t!
"
Bull
ets:"takeof fy
ourshoes!!Andbequi ckwe
don'thaveenought i
me!
!"Iquickl
ytookthem
offandtri
edcl imbingwit
hBul l
etshel
pingmeI
fi
nallydi
d, thoughlandi
ngdidhur t
smyankl e
butfuckit!
.
Wer anandstandsupport
edbythewal
l,he
countedto3andwebar gedi
nsi
dethehouse,
twoguardscamer ushi
ngBul
let
stookt
hem of
f
wit
houtaspli
tofasecond
Me:
"Wow!
"
Bul
l
ets:
"bef
ast
!"
Me: "Imayhavebeenf orwar
daboutbei nga
daughterofagangsterbutI'
m shi
tscared"he
chuckled,wewalkedthroughthehall
way
Me: "t
here'
ssomeonecoming!
"Iwhisper
ed, as
soonasheshowedhi sf
ace,bul
let
sshothi m
str
aighttohi
sfor
ehead,Iwant
edtopuket here
butIheldmyself
Bul
lets:"t
hir
dfloorr
oom 7ony
ourr
ight
!!
Sharp!
!"Helookedatme
Bull
ets:"y
ouheardthat?"Inod,wer antothe
stai
rs,Iwasshaki
ngshame.Secondf loorwas
fi
ll
edwithguar
ds, alotofthem ,
luckil
yZwel i
andthecrewwererightbehindus,sot heytook
offtheguards, wentonwi t
ht hethir
dfloor,all
wasl eftwasust ogetinsi
det heroom ,Kyle
ki
ckedt hedoorandbul let
sstar t
edflyi
ngIjust
l
aiddowncov eri
ngmyear s, Ky l
eandZwel igot
shotont hei
rrightar
msandt hereIwascr yi
ngI
want edtoruntohim butifIwer etostoodupI
will
getshott oo,Icrawledinsidetheroom
fi
ll
edwi thbloodbutIdidn'
tcar e,bul
letsgot
shott ooonhisleg
.
Bullet
s:"shetookt heli
ft
!!
"Ilookedaroundand
sawal iftandthestair
s,rushedtothem going
downi tswasget t
ingdarker,iwasnervousas
hellbutIconti
nuedandsawmybabyni cel
y
placedtot het
able, t
herewasnooneher e
.
Me:"ohhbaby"Irushedtohim onl
ytofi
ndout
i
twasat r
ap,Ifel
lonthefloorandcri
edasIf
elt
someonehol
dingmyl egsandtiedt
hem up,
Boom!Thel
i
ghtst
urnedon,
wor
seni
ght
mar
e
i
tswasKwanel
e!
.
Kwanel
e:"Well
well
,lookwhatt
hecatdr
agged
i
n"Iwastiedupint
hechair
Me:
"gi
vemebackmyson!
"
Kwanele:"youknowatt hefi
rstpl
aceIwant ed
youbutthingsdidn'
tworkoutsoIt ookyour
preci
ouscar go"shechuckl
ed"Itol
dy outhat
thegamei sonIguessy outhoughtIwas
bluff
ing"
Me:"I
'
m notscaredofyou!Letmel
ooseIwi
l
l
showyou!Fuckenpsy
cho!!"
Kwanele:"I
'
m notapsy chojustthati
nsecur
e
typeofwoman, Ir
emov eanyt hreat
sthat
threat
ensmyhappiness!I'
m beinggenerous
withyou"
Me:
"Gener
ous?
?"Il
aughed
Kwanele:
"Iwil
lgi
vey
oubacky
ourbabyonone
condi
ti
onthough"
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Kwanel
e:"st
ayawayf
rom myman!
"Il
aughed
Me: "cometothi
nkofit,
hewasmi nefrom the
beginni
ng,sowhenhet r
iedhit
tingony ou
probablywant
edtomakey ouar ebound!Oh
howst upi
dareyou?"SheslappedmeIl aughed
l
ouder
Me:
"youwi
l
lnev
ergethi
m!!"
Kwanele:
"I'
l
lbecar
efulifIwer
eyou,ever
y
wordyousaycancontr
ibuteonki
l
li
ngyourson"
Me:
"fucky
ou!
"
Kwanele:"Badmove!
"Shetookof
fBanzi
'
s
cl
othes,hewaslef
tnaked
Kwanel
e:"seenowbaby, yourmom i
smaking
meabadper son,shewantsmetohurtyou"
shet
ookamet al
piecet
hathasanal
phabetK,
shepl
acedi
tont
hev
olcanof
ir
ethatwasnext
tous
Me:
"pl
easedon'
thur
thi
m!!
"
Kwanele:"toolat
e!!"t
hemet al
wasget t
ingr ed
asitwashot, sheworeglovesandtookt hat
met al
itsl
andedtoBanzi'
sleftt
high , he
screamed, Iwasalsocry
ingbegginghert o
stop
Kwanel e:
"Ididsai
dearl
i
erthatIwi
llbe
generouswithyou"shetooksomeinject
ion
andinject
edBanziwit
hit,heslowl
ytoned
downt hecryi
ngevent
uall
ysleptwi
thabur ni
ng
thi
gh
Kwanele:"whatdoy
out
hinkaboutmy
request
?"
Me: "y
oucanhav
ehi
m!!He'
sal
lyour
s!!
"Isai
d
cr
ying
Kwanel
e:"wasthathard?Lookwhatyoumade
medo!"ShetouchedBanzi
'slef
tthi
gh
Kwanele:"poorli
tt
lebaby,let
'scheckf
orsome
i
ceforyou"Ilookedar oundandherguardshas
l
eft,Isl
owlymov edmyhandr eachingmycoat,
Iwasusingmyl efthandanditwasshakingas
hel
l
Me: "l
ordpl
easehelp,
Ihopeitwon'
tfal
l"I
whispered,
Islowl
ycutst
herope,sheturned
andlookedatme
Kwanele:"youl
ookgoodev enwhenyou'r
e
desperat
e"shechuckledandconti
nuedtodo
whatevershewasdoing,Istoodupslowl
y
pull
i
ngmygun, assoonasshet ur
nedIshot
herri
ghtarm al
lthei
cefel
ldown
Kwanele:
"youbi
tch!
!"Idi
dn'
twast
eti
meIshot
herot
herarm,shefel
ldown
"Anel
e!!Pr
incess!!
"Thatwasmydad'
svoi
cehe
goti
naccompani edbymanyofhi
sboys,Iran
tohughim
Me:
"Pl
easet
akeBanzi
,thatpsy
chobur
nthi
s
t
highandi
njectedherwi
thsomet
hing!
"They
t
ookmysleepingBanzi
Dad:
"Fi
nishhersowecango!
"
Me:
"No!
!,
Iwantt
otor
tur
eher"
Dad:
"whatshoul
dIbr
ing?"
Me:
"ev
ery
thi
ng!
"Hesi
gnal
edoneofhi
sboy
s
Dad:
"Iwi
l
lbeupst
air
s"Inod,
hel
eft
.
Me:
"it'
smeandy
ounow"Ihav
eti
edherupon
t
hechai
r
Kwanel
e:"y
ouwi
l
lpaybi
tch!
!"Isl
appedher,
shel
aughed
Kwanel
e:"y
oucal
lthatasl
ap?Pat
het
ic!
!"
Me:"wel
lyoucansayt hat,I'
m notgoodwi t
h
sl
apsbutI
'm aprofessorindeal
ingwithtool
s
andnumbers,
youcancal lmeamechani cmix
wit
hanaccountant..Let
'sfi
ndasuitablename
 Mechaccount
ant
!Soundsgoodandfancy"
someboycamewi t
hthetoolbox,Ismi
leda
devi
lsmil
e
Kwanel
e:"whataregoi
ngt
odowi
tht
hose?
"
Shehadapanicfaceon
Me:"Il
ikehowcuri
ousy ouare.
.Foryourown
i
nfor
mat i
onIwil
l
-No!!Iwouldn'
twanttorui
n
t
hesurpri
se"shespi
ttedonmyf ace
Me: "helpmeaddt hi
s"Isai
dtotheguy
standingther
e,t
herewerepl
anksthere,Iadded
them onherchairsoshecanrestherar
ms
there
Me:"wewi l
lti
ethem"weunt
iedherhandsand
t
iedthem onthesepl
anks
Me:
"nowy
oul
ookl
i
kear
eal
queen"
Kwanel
e:"Fucky
ou!
"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"Iwon'
tsaybadmoveasy
oubutr
edl
i
ght
!"
It
ookoutthenail
sandt
hehammer
Kwanel
e:"nopl
ease!
!Ibegy
ou"Il
aughed
Me:"hayy
ou'
rescar
ednow!
"It
ookherpi
nki
e
f
inger
Me: "asIslam t
hehammery ouwi l
lcount"I
tookanailandplacedittoherf inger,I
slammedt hehammerhar d, shescreamedas
thenailwasgetti
ngi ncontactedwi t
hherski
n,I
didthatagainunti
lthenailreachedtheplank
Me:"wellthatdi
dn'tgowell,whatdidIsay
aboutcounti
ng?"Iplacedanotherf
ingeranddi
d
thesame,bloodwasoozi ngoutofhertwo
fi
ngers
Me:"redl
ight
!"Itookt
hemiddl
efi
nger,
and
st
art
edslammi ngthehammer
Kwanel
e:"2!
!!
..
.2!
!!
"
Me:"goodgirl
!"Idi
dinal
lofherfi
nger
sbot
h
handsexceptf
orbothherthumps
Me:
"wel
lyouwer
egood,
itst
imef
ort
hegr
eat
par
t!
!Thosewerej
ustt
hest
art
ers"It
ookout
mypocketshar
pkni
fe
Me: "i
fIwereacr eat
ureorav ul
tureIwoul
d
haveeatenthisbutno,Igotabetterpl
an"I
choppedhert humpsshecriedinagonyand
placedthem onthefi
re
Me:"br
eakf
astisget
tingready
!"Icheckedand
t
heyseemsful
lycookedtome
Me:
"let
'seatnow,
Ibett
heyt
astesdel
ici
ous"I
f
edher,hert
humpshewascr
yingwhil
eeati
ng!
Me:
"theymustbeni
cey
ouev
encr
yingbeggi
ng
f
ormore"
Kwanel
e:"pl
..
.ease!I
'
m sor
ry!
"
Me:"onemor eandy ouwil
lbegood"If
edher
agai
n,Iwantedtomakeherswal l
owherbones
butNaahshemi ghtchokeanddi
e
Me:"you'
vebeenagoodgi
rl
,soIwon'
tbea
sur
geonIwouldhav
etookoutt
hatbabyof
y
our
s..Boy
s!!
"Twoguy
sgeti
n
Me:"she'sall
yours"Ismil
edandwentt osi
ton
thetabl
e,theyraped,r
apedherunt
ilIhad
enough
Me:"mustbenice,changi
ngmen,
theyqui
te
gi
ft
edtoo"Il
aughed
Me: "I
'
mt i
redIwantt
ogohomeandsleep"I
tookmyknifesandst
abbedbot
hhert
highs,
shescreamed
Me:"thi
sisformysonandmymot heri
nlaw"I
shotherr
ightey
eshewasunconsci
ous
Me:
"br
ingmeanAxe!
"Theybr
oughti
t
Kwanel
e:"pl
e..
.asedon'
tki
l
lme"
Me: "andthisi
sformyhusbandandI,send
regardstothedevi
l!
"Isl
i
cedherheadi
tsfel
l
down
Me:"Done!
"Bloodwasal
lovermyface,Dad
goti
nandthatwhenever
ythi
ngst
artedt
o
regist
erIj
ustki
ll
edsomeonewi
thouteven
beingmercif
ul,ohmygod!
!Theroom st
art
ed
spinni
ngaroundandboom l
i
ghtsout
!
.
.
.
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n

Season2
I
nser
t39
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Isawdadr
ushi
ngt
ome
Dad:
"pr
incessar
eyouokay
!!
"
Me:
"dadIj
ustki
l
ledsomeone"
Dad: "itsokaybaby, wewi llt
alkaboutt hi
s
someot hertimer ightnow, wehav et ogo
beforet hepolicecomespl usy ouhavet o
preparef orthef uneralthatist aki
ngplacet oday
"Ihav et ot
all
yf orgottenthatt odayisthefinal
goodby et oMma wemi ghthadour
di
f f
erencesbutshewasmymot herinlaw, I
stoodupandsawKwanel e'sdeadbodyst il
l t
ied
upont hechair
Dad:
"Idi
dn'
tknowy
ouhadi
tiny
ou.
.Imust
sayI
'
m pr
oud"
Me:
"don'
tbedad!
!Ihat
ewhatIdi
d"
Dad:
"anymot
heri
nyourposi
ti
onwoul
dhav
e
donet
hat"wecl
i
mbedt
hest
air
s
Me:
"howi
sZwel
iandt
heguy
s?"
Dad:"ourpersonaldoctori
st aki
ngcar
eof
them "Inod,unti
lwer eachtheroom ,
all
of
Kwanele'smenwasdeadl yi
ngont hef
loor,
we
walkedpastthem
.
Dad:
"Nowt
hatgr
enadeandt
hrowi
tinsi
de"
Zweli:
"Iwi
ll
doi
t!
"Wet ur
nedback,
hecame
hol
dinghi
sarm,
Irushedtohi
m
Me:"ar
eyouokay?"It
ouchedhi
sface"i
was
soscar
edi
nthere"Ij
ustcr
ied
Zweli:
"it
sokaybaby,it
sallovernow"he
huggedmeandIr et
urnedit,westay
edinthat
posi
ti
onunti
ldadwasi r
ri
tated
Dad:"okayI
'
m st
il
lher
e!"Il
aughedandpul
l
ed
out
Zwel
i:
"gi
vemet
hegr
enades"Ihandedt
woof
them tohi
m, heslowl
yopenedoneofitand
threwiti
nsidethehouseBoom t hehouse
wasonf ir
e, Icl
osedmyeyes,hepul
ledme
closerIl
aidonhischest
Zweli:
"Wewi l
lthrowthisonetogether"Inod
aswesl owl
ytookoutthatthi
ngy(Idon' tknow
whattheycal
lit )andhethrewi ti
nside
thenBoom agai
n
Dad:
"Nowthati
tal
lov
er,l
etgo!
"Wegeti
nsi
de
t
hecar,
thi
sti
mewewer ewi
thdad
Dad:
"howisy ourarm?Youf
eel
i
nganypai
n?"
Hesai
dlookingstr
aightt
ohi
sey
es,
Iwasnext
t
ohim hol
dingontight
Zwel
i:"I
'
minsomuchpai
n!ButIwi
l
lbef
ine"
henods
Dad:
"af
tert
hef
uner
alwewi
l
lcont
inuewi
thour
t
alk"
Zwel
i:
"okay"
Me:
"whatt
alk?
"
Zweli
:"don'
tworr
yyourbeaut
if
ulself"he
ki
ssedmyf or
ehead,Iey
edDadhej ustlooked
atmewi t
haplai
nface
.
.
HereIwasi nmybl ackbelowt hekneedr ess,
myheadwr apwasal soblack, r
edl i
pstickt he
choirwasaccompany i
ngust othehear se,
Zwel i
wassoqui et, whichpai nsmehewas
al
sowear ingal lblackclothes, t
heypl acedt he
coffi
ninthehear seitswasaf tertheser vice
nowwewer egoi ngtot heherf inalplace, the
choirstar
tedl eadingt hesong"Amagugu
al
elizweay osal'
emat huneni!Ngi yolal
a
ngingedwaet huneni lami ,ngiyolalangingedwa
ethunenil
ami "theykeptgoi ngonandonwhi ch
wassoemot i
onal ,mymakeupwasal lmessed
upitreall
yhasn' tkickedint hatshe' snomor e,I
wonderhowi sZwel ifeeli
ngi fIherdaught erin
l
awi sf eelingliket his, Ilookedbackathi mI
coul dn'tfeel myl egsany mor eher ushedt ome
andcar riedmebr idal styl
e, t
hewasat entf or
fami lymember s, hepl acedmet hereandsend
tost andf arfrom us. ..Afteraf ewv erse
preached, wewer easkedt ocomesi t
hele
i
nhl abat hi ,west oodupanddi dast ol
dbut
Zwel i didn'tcome, Ipleadedhi m withmyey es
hef inallycame, hisey eswer ebl oodshotr ed,
hewascr ying ☹ af terthatsl owlyand
caref ull
yt hest artedl ower ingt hecof f
inunt ili
ts
l
andeddown, t
heyl oadedt hesoi l
Iev enhad
hiccups, Zwelicamet ohugme, whyi sn'the
crying? ?It sunder standabl e, wewon' tjudge
him he' sahumanaf terall, hedoeshav e
feelingst oo
.
.
Wewentbackt
othepal
ace,
butZwel
iwasn'
t
withus,hesaidhewillgoandcheckupon
Banzi,IwasherebecauseI'
m hel
pingot
her
thanthatIwoul
dhavegonet oseemybaby
Thando:
"I'
m sorr
y"shetouchedmyshoul
der,
I
tur
nedandlookedather
Me:"Thando"wesmil
edateachot
herbef
ore
huggi
ngeachother
Thando:
"howar
eyou"
Me:"I
'
m copi
ngI
'
mjustgl
adthatIhavef
ound
mysonandal
sowehadadigni
tyburi
al"
Thando:
"shewaslovedbymany"Inod,
tal
ki
ngaboutt
hismakesmegetsoemoti
onal
Thando:"hav
eyoutal
kedt
omybr
other?
?He
doesn'
thandl
ethepai
nwel
l"
Me: "Idi
dtri
ed,buthedidn'
topenup"she
nods, Iwasi
nsi
det heki
tchenprepar
ingt
he
sconesandtea
Thando:
"canIhel
p?"Inodshest
art
edt
o
maketea,
hol
dingaconv
ersat
ionher
eand
t
here
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Mthunzi
:"hewi
llbef
ine"Iwasstandi
ngnextt
o
t
hecot,whereBanzi
was, i
nthehospi
tal
Me:
"Ijustwantt
oknowhowl
ongwi
l
litt
aket
o
r
emovethisK"
Doc:
"it
sbytime,hi
sski
nisst
il
lsof
t,hewi
l
l
al
sor
ecoversoon"
Me:
"canIt
akehi
m wi
thme"
Doc:
"sur
e,j
ustbecausewi
thhi
m,hemust
n't
cr
awlbecausehemightinj
ureshi
sthigh"Inod
asIwashappythatI
'
mt aki
nghim backwithme
,I
'
m sur
eZet hembewil
lbehappy
Mt
hunzi
:"t
hanky
oudoc"henodsandl
eft
Me:
"I'
mjustgl
adt
hathe'
sher
esaf
e"
Mthunzi:
"Ihear
dhi
smom br
utal
l
ymur
der
ed
Kwanele"
Me: "Isawev er
ything"Ichuckl
ed"seemslike
ther
ewasabeefgoi ngonwithbot
hofthem ,
causet hevi
deoshowst hatt
heywerehavi
nga
conversati
onarguingtoo"
Mt
hunzi
:"Iwantt
oseet
hev
ideo"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"i
ts.
..Idon'
tknowbutdon'
tsayIdi
dn'
t
war
nyou"
Mthunzi
:"I
'm gl
adt
oseet
hatsmi
l
eony
our
f
ace"Istoppedsmi
li
ng
Mthunzi
:"I'
m gl
adonhowyouhandl
ey ourpai
n,
t
heolderyouwouldhav
edr
owny ourselfon
al
cohol
buty
oudi
dn'
tI'
m sopr
oudofy
ou"Inod
Me:"I
'm al
sopr
oudofmysel
f",thedoctor
cameandwesignedt
hedi
schar
gingformsand
welef
t
.
Zama:
"Bab'
omdala!
!"Shescr
eamedasshe
sawMt
hunzi,hepi
ckedherup
Me:"sawubona"Iappear
ed,
shet
ri
edwi
ggl
i
ng
outofhi
shold,Ichuckl
ed
Me:"Iwon'
tbeabl
etocar
ryy
ou,
I'
m car
ryi
nga
baby"
Zama:"hawuht
heangel
gav
eyouanot
herbaby
?"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"Yes,
wher
eisy
ourmom ?
"
Zama:"she'
seati
ng"wewal kedwit
hher
gi
ggli
ngnonstop,wegotinsidet
helounge
ever
yfamil
ymemberwast here,theyal
lgave
mequesti
oningeyesIj
ustsi
gnali
zedmywi f
eto
f
oll
owmeaf
tergr
eet
ing
.
.
Anel
e:"who'
sthat?
"
Me:
"he'
ssl
eepi
ngi
tsBanz
i"Ipl
acedhi
m on
t
hebed
Anele:"theyhavealreadydischargedhim,
Zweliain'
tittooear
lyforthat??Hewasaway
foraweek, maybethatpsy chowasf eedi
ng
him somet hi
ng,whatar etheresult
s? "
Me:"cal
m down,
he'
sfi
nej
usthi
sthi
ghhasn'
t
heal
ed"
Anele:
"it
swasn'
tgonnahealbyf
ewhour
s"I
chuckl
edandtur
nedbacktoher
Me:"Thanksf
orput
ti
ngupwi
thmymoods"
shesmil
ed
Anel
e:"i
tsnotl
i
keIhav
eachoi
ce"shel
aughed
andhuggedme
Me:
"aahh y
ou'
rehur
ti
ngme"
Anel
e:"I
'
m sor
ry "Igr
oanedi
tswasr
eal
l
y
sor
e
Me:
"it
sokay"
Anel
e:"canImakey
ousomet
hingt
oeat"
Me:"Iwoul
dbegl
adi
fIwer
etoeaty
ou"she
f
rowns
Anele:"i
tshasn'
tbeenaday, si
ncewebur i
ed
Mom andt heretur
nofoursonalsoy ou
thi
nkingaboutsex,ay ymanZweli
!"Shewalked
outleavi
ngmel aughingal
one,Iknewthiswas
theonlywaytogetr i
dofher,Ki
nggotinaftera
fewmi nut
es
.
Ki
ng:
"So?
?"
Me:
"I'
min"
Ki
ng:"gooddeci
sion"weshookhandsIhopeI
won'
tregr
etdoi
ngt hi
s
.
.
.
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n

Season2
I
nser
t40
.
.
.
I
tsbeent hreeweeksnowsinceeveryt
hinghas
beenhappeni ng,
onthesideZwelihasagreed
i
nj oini
ngthegangwit
hKi ng,whi
chwasv ery
dif
ficul
tasnowhewon' tbeafull
timewor keri
n
hiscompanybutapar tti
meashewasnewi n
thegangt her
ewerealotofstuf
fneededt obe
i
ntroducedtohim andal
sot hewasabig
missionthatneededtot
akepl ace,t
hemissi
on
i
stot akeJacksondownsot hatNathancan
comet oItal
yashewasKi ng'ssecondi
n
command
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
We' vemov edbackt oourpl
aceafterthe
cleaningcer emonyhasbeenperformedand
thingswer egetti
ngbacktonormal ,myboy s
hasst art
edpr eschoolasIwantedtowor kful
l
ti
me, Idon'twanttobeahousewi f
ebutIwi l
l
makesur ethatIful
fi
ll
mydut i
esasamot her
andawi f
e
.
Wal kingupt oanempt ybedwassomet hing
thatIwasget t
ingusedt o, Idon'tknowwhat
wr ongwi t
hZwel i,he'sbeendi stantlately, I
stoodupandwentt ot akeashower, onceI
wasdoneIputonar obeIwasn' tplanningon
goingany wayt oday, Iwentdownst air
st o
prepar ebr eakfastforev eryone,afterIwasdone
Iwentt owakeupt heki ds, Nkazibeingt hedi va
, shewasn' thav i
ngi t,shelikest osleepal otI
wal kedoutherr oom andt oldthenannyt o
checki fsheup, sheneedst ogot oschool ,yes
Zwel ihiredanannyt ohel pmewi ththeki dsnot
thatI'm compl ainingbutIl i
ketor aisemyki ds
onmyown, t
houghshewashel pingal ot,I
wal kedt omyboy sroom andt heywer eal ready
wake, outsidet heircot, Ismiledshaki ngmy
head
.
Me:"Banzi
howdidyougetoutofyourcot,
whati
fyoufel
landhur
tsyoursel
f?"Hejust
l
ookedatmeandcarr
ieddoi
ngwhathewas
best,
bei
ngnaught
y
.
Itookbot hoft hem andf i
rstl
ygaveZet hembea
bathbef oret hetroublesome, whichwasr at
her
ami ssionhedi dn'
twantt ogetoutbutt he
wat erwasst artingtogetcol dIhadt otakehim
out, thewayhescr eamed butIdi dn'tpay
attent i
ont ohi m, dressedt hem i
nmat ching
clothesasusual ,
Zwel icamei nsmelli
ngl i
kea
Tar ven, Ididn'tturntolookathi m, whoi nthei
r
ri
ght istmindwoul dcomehomesmel li
ngl i
ke
thisandexpectt obear oundchi l
dren? ?Itook
bothmychi ldrenandl eftbutheblockedme
.
Zwel
i:
"canIhav
eawor
dwi
thy
ou"
Me:
"I'
m busy"It
ri
edgoi
ngbuthebl
ockedme
Zwel
i:
"it
swon'
ttaket
ool
ong"
Me:
"No"
Zweli:
"canyoustopbei
ngst
ubbor
nandl
i
sten
foronce"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"I'
m notdoi
ngthi
swi
thy
ou,
especi
all
yin
f
rontofmykids,nowmove"
Zwel
i:
"MaZungu!
"Hecal
l
edt
henanny
MaZungu:
"Nkosana"
Zweli:"pl
easet
aket
hekids"shetookthekids
from meandwentdownstai
rs,Zweli
lokcked
thedoor,Iwasfumi
ngwithangerbutIkeepit
cool
.
Zwel
i:"Nowsi
nceIhav
eyourat
tent
ioncanI
st
art
?"
Me:
"**
Sil
ence*
**"
Zwel
i:"soIhavet
hisbusi
nessproposal,asy
ou
knowitsal
waysbeenmydr eam t
ohav emy
busi
nesslocat
edever
ywhereacrosstheworl
d,
I
'v
egot t
ensponsor stohelpmecr eat
eabranch
i
nItaly,
I'v
eboughtapr iv
atejetandIwil
lbe
l
eavingtonight"okaytosayIwasshockedwill
beanunder standi
ngIwasbey ondshocked
Me:
"youdidn'
tev
enacour
aget
ofi
rstr
uni
tto
measyourwif
e"
Zwel
i:
"I'
vebeensobusy"
Me:
"sobusy
??Busywi
thwhat
??"
Zwel
i:
"canyounotshoutpl
ease,
I'
m hav
inga
massi
veheadache"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tsendy
out
ogoanddr
inkal
cohol
"
Zweli:
"wecanyoupleasestopbei
ngchil
dish,
thi
sismylastni
ghthereandIdon'
tknowwhen
Iwil
lbeback"
Me:"Iguessi
tsdeci
dedt
heny
ouwi
l
lnotgo"I
st
oodup
Zweli
:"Iwasn'taski
ngyoubutIt
houghtasmy
wif
eIshouldletyouknow"hestoodupand
wenttounlockthedoorbeforegoi
ngout,Isi
gh
asIsatdown, whatishappeningt
ous?I
sl
owlywipedmyt earsandwentdownstai
rs
.
Nkazi:
"Mamanawher
eyoucr
ying?Whyar
e
yourey
esred?
"
Me:"iwasn'tcr
ying,somethi
nggotinsi
demy
eyes"shenodsandcar r
iedoneati
ng, t
heboys
wereeati
ngtoo,Iwenttotheki
tchentodishup
formyselfandsatwithmybabies
.
WhenIgotbackf r
om droppi ngtheki dsto
school ,Zweliwasinthel oungeeat ing,I
walkedpasthi m wentupst airstopreparef or
wor k,Idon'twanttobel ate, Iknowi tsour
companybutIhav etosetagoodexampl e, asI
wasaboutt oclosethedoor, Zweliwast here,I
didn'tknowhewasf ol
lowi ngme, Ididn'
tclose
thedoorIj ustwenttoshowercomi ngouthe
wasseat edont hebed, Iwalkedthroughour
closetIdidn'
tpaymuchat t
entiontohim, how
canhedot hi
stome, he'sbeenconst ant
ly
comi nghomel atewhenIwakehe' snothere
,andnowhet ell
smebul lshi
taboutgoi ngto
It
alyIdon'tgiv
eaf uck,he'snotgoi ngthereend
ofdiscussion
.
Zwel
i:
"I'
m wai
ti
ngf
ory
ou"
Me:
"I'
m busy"
Zweli
:"CanIspendt
hef
ewhour
swi
thy
ou
bef
oreIgo"
Me:
"Isai
dyou'
renotgoi
ngnj
e"
Zweli:
"canyoul
etmebet
hemani
nthi
s
rel
ati
onshi
p"
Me:"seemsli
keyoucan'thandl
ebei
ngt
heman
"hestoodupandmarchedtome
Me:
"youdon'
tscar
emeany
mor
e,l
ayy
our
f
il
thyhandonmeandIwi
l
ltel
lDad"hest
opped
Zwel
i:
"Iwasn'
tgonnahi
tyou"
Me:
"Idon'
tcar
e"
.
Iwal kedoutofmyr oom , readyt ogot owor k,I
needt odistractmy sel
fwi thwor k, hopef ul
lyhe
willcomebackt ohissense, whenIgott owor k
Istartedwor ki
ngmyassoutunt ili
tr eachedt he
l
uncht i
me, tookmycarkey sanddr ov eto
DurbanIneedsomef r
eshai r, Ineedt otalkto
someone, Ican'tdealwi ththis, i
tstoomuch. .
Ishebehav ingl i
kethisbecausehel osthi s
mom?Orwhat ??Whati swr ongwi th..Iarri
ved
i
nDur banafteranhour, Iwasdr i
vingl i
ke
there'saemer gencybutnoj ustwant edt obe
awayf r
om her e,Idecidedt ocal l
Jason
.
Me:
"Jase"
Jase:
"Owhhel
l
o"
Me:
"wher
ear
eyouI
'
minDur
ban"
Jase:
"int
heof
fi
ce,
arey
ouokay?
"
Me:"wewi
ll
tal
kwhenIgett
her
e"Iswit
ched
of
fmyphoneanddr
ovetowher
eJasonwas
Me:"I
'
dl i
ket
oseeJason"Isai
dtot
he
r
ecept
ioni
st
Her:"I
'
m sor r
yMam he'
skindabusy"asIwas
abouttoanswerJasoncame, Idon'
twhybutI
rantohim andbr
okedown
Jase:
"shuushhi
twi
l
lbeokay"
Me:
"how?Howcanhel
eav
ewi
thoutt
alki
ngt
o
me?
"
Jase:
"let
'sgot
omyof f
ice,
peoplearel
ooki
ng
atus"Inod,wegott
otheelev
atorandupto
hi
soffi
ce
.
Jase:"nowtel
lmewhat
'swr
ong"Ij
ustst
ared
atthewall
s
Jase:
"yout
alkedaboutsomeonel
eav
ingy
ou"
Me:
"Ishoul
dn'
thav
esai
dthat"
Jase:
"bot
tl
ingupy
ouremot
ionswon'
thel
p"
Me:
"Ishoul
dn'
thav
ecal
l
edy
ou"
Jase:"webothknow, i
twasn'tamistake,ar
e
youhav i
ngproblemswi
thyourhusband"I
thoughtabouttell
i
nghi
m butno,theyalr
eady
hateeachother
Me:"goodby
ejaseandt
hanksf
ort
hel
unch"I
wal
kedout,headi
ngtomycar
.
Idrov
ebackt okwaNongomaandpassedby
thepreschool
totakemyboysandheadedt
oa
Nkazi'
sschooltofet
chhert
oo
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
It
sbeent hehardestt hreeweeksi nmyl ife,a
par tofmehasn' taccept edt hatMom hasl eft
meal onei nthiscruel wor l
dandont heot her
sideDadhasbeennaggi ngmeabout
reconsi derbeingt henewKi ng, I
'
m notr eady
fort heresponsi bi
lit
yIknowf orsur ethatmy
wif eisn'treadytoopl uswher ewi llIgetthetime
tor ulewhi leI'
vejustent eredanewchapt erof
j
oi ningthegangst eri
sm , Iknowsomet hinkthat
i
tt hef oolishdecisionev erbutIhat ethatev ery
ti
met hingshappenedKi nghast obet heonet o
rescueusasamani tski ndabr uisedmyego
.
Inthosepastt hreeweeksIhav en'tbeen
sleeping, Iwentt omyt rai
ningi twasn' tenough
Iknowbutt her easonI '
m goi ngt oItalyistogo
andgett hebestt rainingev er, pr obabl ywill
takeay earormor e, IknowIl iedt omywi f
e
aboutt hebusi nesspr oposal whileIknowt he
exactt r
ut h,Ijustcoul dn'ttellherIcan' tit
swi l
l
breakmyhear talsoIdon' twantany thing
comi ngbet weenmeandmyt rainingIwantt o
protectmyf ami l
yonmyown, thet rainingwith
KingwasHei sts,BankRobber y, Shopl i
ft
ing,
Cardscammi ng, younamei tev enhuman
traff
ickingIknowi tswr ongbutheyi tsal l
for
connect ion,I'vekil
ledl ike20+i nt heset hree
weeksandIsweart heyar ehunt ingcause
whenev erIsl eepIst il
l hearst heircr i
esbeggi ng
butnoIhav et ober ut hlesswhi chi t
snotmehut
Ihav eto, Iwasal sogi venaname"Ki ll
er"King
gav eittomecausehesay shesawt hatIdon't
hesitateIjustki l
lyouwi thoutbei ngmer ci
ful,
Godonl yknowst hatIhat eitbutf orthesakeof
myf
ami
l
yandt
hef
utur
e,Ihav
etopr
otectt
hem
.
.
Ir
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om Ki
ng
Ki
ng:
"Ki
l
ler"
Me:
"Sur
e"
Ki
ng:
"Thej
eti
sready,
itwi
l
lbet
her
esoon"
Me:"I'
mready"heputt
hephonedown,
Isi
ghI
wasinmyoffi
ce
.
Igotoutandsawmyfamilybusyeati
ng, when
Anelesawmecomingdownst ai
rsshejust
l
ookedandcarri
edontal
ki
ngt otheki
ds, I
swearIdon'
twantt
ogobutIhav eto
Me:"MamabocanIhaveawordwi
thyou"she
j
ustl
ookedatmeli
keIhav
egrownhor
ns
Me:
"pl
ease"shest
oodupandwentupst
air
s,I
f
oll
owedbehi
ndher
Me:
"I'
mleav
ingi
nthenextmi
nut
es"
Anel
e:"domeaf
avourdon'
tcomeback"
Me:
"butbabyt
hisi
sfort
hebot
hofus"
Anel
e:"how?
?"Isi
gh
Me:
"Ican'
ttel
lyounow"
Anel
e:"t
henIgotnot
hingt
otal
ktoy
ouabout"I
si
gh
.
Iwal
kedtoheranddamnshewascr
ying,
I
sl
owlyki
ssedhershoul
der
Anel
e:"sexwon'
tfi
xany
thi
ng"shemov
ed
Me:
"Idon'
tmakesexwi
thy
oubutImakel
ove"
Anel
e:"t
hatdoesn'
tchangeanyt
hing"Icar
ri
ed
onki
ssedhershoul
dergoinguptoherneck
Me:"butbabyI
'vemi
ssedyou,thr
eef
ull
weeks
Ihav
ebeendy i
ngwit
hdrought
s"
Anel
e:"ifyoualway
scomebackhomeear l
y
andstopleavi
ngearl
yintheweehourswe
woul
dn'tbehavingt
hisconver
sat
ion"Iknew
shewantedmeasmuchasIwant edher
Me:"Idon'
tknowwhenIwi
l
lcomebacksocan
I?
"
Anel
e:"No"
Me:
"I'
l
ltaket
hatasay
es"It
urnedherar
ound
Anele:"Zwe-"Iki
ssedhersouthi
ngl
ips,she
didn'
trespondforawhil
ebutendedup
respondingIknewshecantsresi
stmyli
ps
.
Wewerebot
hlay
ingont
hebedcat
chingour
br
eat
handphonewasri
ngi
ngnonst
op, Iknew
i
twasKing.
Anele:
"Doesn'twhoeveri
tisknowt
haty
ou
haveawif
e? "Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"Ibet
tergetgoi
ng"shef
rowns
Anel
e:"It
hought-
"
Me:
"Nobaby,
Ineedt
ogo"
Anel
e:"i
fyoudon'tcomebackwit
houtt
wo
weeksyou'
reget
ti
ngadivorce"
Me:
"tel
lmey
ou'
rej
oki
ng"
Anel
e:"I
'
m not"Isighandstooduptotakea
shower,
gotdressesandtoomythings
Me:"I
'
m goi
nggoodbye"shedi
dn'
tsay
any
thi
ngIfi
gur
edshe'
ssti
llmad
.
Iwal
kedoutl
uckil
ytheki
dswer
eal
ready
sl
eepi
ng,Idi
aledKing
Me:
"Ki
ng!
"
Hi
m: "don'tf
uckwithmeKil
l
er!!We'
vebeen
wai
ti
ngf oryouformoret
hanthreehour
snow"
Me:"Ineededtonursemywi fef
eel
ings,you
knowhowy ourdaughterget
s"Isai
dstepping
i
nsi
det
hecarwi
thXav
ier,
Igr
eet
edhi
m
King:"y
ougot10minutest
ogether
enow"he
putthephonedown,Isi
gh
Xav
ier:
"mustbehar
dleav
ingy
ourwi
fe"
Me: "youhav enoi dea"Ilaidmyheadbackand
continuedwi thourj ourney,wegottothe
scarredpl ace,thehel i
copterwasther
e,wegot
i
nandi ttookof f,afterfewhourswewere
alr
eadyi nUshakaai rport,Ki
ngsignal
edmeto
haveat al
kwi thhi
m
.
King:"Iknowt hatt
hisi
stoomuchbuty
ouhav
e
toleavey ourphone"
Me:"Ican'
tdot
hat,
howwi
l
lIcont
actmywi
fe
?"
King:"i
fyougotherewi
thaphone,
theywon'
t
takeyouseri
ousrememberI
'
m noti
ncharged
ther
e"Isighed
Me: "Ineedt
ocallmywifef
ir
st"Itr
iedcal
l
ing
herbutnoshedidn'
tansweri
tifonl
yshecan
stopbeingst
ubborn
King:
"ti
meisti
cki
ngaway"Ihandedhi
m my
phone,goti
nsi
dethej
etandof
ftoIt
aly
RomehereIcome
.
.
I
'
vemi
ssedy
ouguy
sbutI
'
m backnow
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t41
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Fortheful
l12hour sinthej etwastir
ingbutI
hadnocont r
olov eri
t, Ihav etodoitbecauseof
myf amil
y,Ihadt osacr i
fi
ceorel seallt
hatI'
ve
workedfor,wil
l godownt hedr ai
n,Icarri
edon
withguysIknowt hatI '
mt heoldestinthem but
they'
vewelcomedmewi thwar m armsandal so
respectmeast heirolderbr ot
her,whatmor e
couldIaskfor?
?Igotbr othersnow
.
It
sbeenadaysi nceI '
vear r
ivedinRomet he
placewasoutstanding, beauti
fulI'
m outof
wor dsIt
houghtIwilll
iveinacomf or
table
apar t
mentbuthell
not hiswasj ustacov erup,I
wasshownt heunder ground, wherealmost
100+peoplewer ethere, i
tslookedmor el i
kea
pri
sonIshookmyheadnotbel
iev
ingt
his,
Iwas
withf
ewboy swit
hme,newasIam ,wewere
escor
tedtothecommander
'soff
ice,wegoti
n
andsatdown
.
Commander:
"wel
come,
wel
come"hi
saccent
wasdi
ff
erent
Commander:"I
'
vebeental
ki
ngt oKi
ng,
het
old
meaboutyou"hepoi
ntedat,Inod
Commander:"wel
lwhenIt
ell
yousomet
hing
youmustanswerme"
Me:
"yescommander"
Commander:
"Good"wewer eshownour
roomsandIj
ustsi
ghlooki
ngatthisbedIleft
mykingsi
zebedfort
hisnonsenseIjusthopeit
worthi
t
.
AsIwasenj
oyi
ngmysl
eepno!
!asi
renst
art
edI
want edtocr y,Icheckedmywat chit
swas
03:00am Iknowl atel
yI'
vebeenwaki ngupear l
y
butnott hisearl
y Ist oodup, wewer eshown
ashowerl ucki
lywedon' tshareshowersorelse
Iwoul dhav egonebackhomet hesameday, by
03:15t hewaswasst oppedIwasst il
lhaving
mybat h, t
hecommandercameshout ing"Out!!
Out!!
"Isi ghandwentbackt omyr oom and
therewasauni formlaidneatlyonmybed, i
ts
wasdar kgreenandhadasy mbolonmyl eft
handsi de, by03: 30everyonewaspushed
outsideint hefi
eld.
Commander:"Fi
rst350pushups"Iwidened
myeyes,hecan'
tbeserious350,Il
ookedby
mysi
deothershavealr
eadystar
ted
Commander: "y
oubetterstar
torel
seIwi l
l
i
ncreasethenumber"Igotdownandst art
ed
doi
ngmypushups, by200Iwaskaakt ir
ed, I
wantedtostop,myarmswer et
rembli
ng
al
ready,wheneverIt
ri
edt aki
ngabreaktj
ot he
commanderwouldlookatmewithawarning
eyesIknewnottomesswithhi
m, Icar
ri
edon
unti
lIr
eached350godIwasgratef
ul,t
here
wasaboyt her
e
.
Him:"don'
twor
ryi
tsonl
ythest
art
s"Isi
gh,
shi
t!
!
Me:
"howl
onghav
eyoubeenher
e?"
Hi
m:"al
most6y
ear
snow"Iwi
denedmyey
es
Me:
"don'
tyouhav
eaf
ami
l
ybackt
her
e??
"
Him:"Idobutt
hecommandersai
dIwasn'
tfi
t
enough"
Me:
"soi
tsupt
ohi
m "henods
Me:
"whati
sthemaxi
mum y
ear
?"
Hi
m:"12"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"youknowItol
dmywi feIwi
ll
heback
wi
thi
nt woweeks"hechuckl
edtoo
Hi
m: "Themini
mum i
s6monthsorayear,
so
t
here'
snowayy ouwi
l
lbegoi
ngbackbytwo
weeks"lor
dhel
pme!
Me:
"youmustbej
oki
ng"
Him:"I'
m notcomelet'
sgo!"Wecar ri
edon
j
oggingbyt heti
meit
sreached8am Iwast ir
ed
ashell
,allIneedwastosleep,Ijusthope
whenIcomebackt hi
ngswi l
lst
ill
bet hesame
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Wakingupinthemorni
ngIsawZweli
'
smissed
cal
lbutIdeci
dednotgetbackt
ohi
m, Iwasst
il
l
mad, Igotof
fthebedandwenttot
akea
shower,fi
xedmyselfworemyrobeontopj
ust
i
ncaset heki
dsgetssomessy,Iwal
kedto
Nkazi
'sroom shewasup
.
Her:
"Mamana"
Me:
"yesbaby"
Her:
"Imissdad,
hehasn'
tbeenpl
ayi
ngwi
th
melat
ely"
Me:"hewil
lbebacksoonbaby"Itookhert
o
maZungusoshecanbath,Igotinsi
dethe
t
winsroom whi
chwasfil
l
edwithsomuchnoi se
Me:
"babi
es!
!Whatupwi
thsomuchnoi
se?
"
Banzi
:"Mama!
"Ismi
l
ed,
her
ant
ome
Me:
"whot
aughty
out
ogetoutofy
ourcot?"
Banzi
:"Mama!
!"
Me:
"ayman!Av
euhl
upha"It
ookZet
hembe
tooandwentt obat ht hem butt hist i
mei twas
fi
ll
edwi t
hl aughter,thewayZet hembel aughs
hislaughisunusual It elly
oui tactual
ly
theonest hatsurprisesy ouanddamnwi thhis
deepv oi
ce"i ndl
elaabhesangay o "onceI
wasdonewi ththem , Iwal keddownst air
swith
them andwewer esingi ng"Ngi thandawena
wedwa, ngit
handawenawedwa"andt hetwins
wer el
ike"nilal
alananawena, ni
lalal
anana
wena! "ThewayIwasl aughi ngIhav eev en
forgot
tenaboutmymi ser ylife,myst omach
evenhur ts
.
Me:
"Tj
oyouguy
snear
lyki
l
ledMamana"
Zee:
"Mamana!
!"Il
aughed
Me: "l
et'
sfeedthesepotbel
li
esofyours"put
them onthei
rfeedi
ngchair
sandmaZunguwas
alr
eadydonewi t
hthei
rbreakf
ast,Nkaziwal
ked
downstair
sready,shesatdownandwest art
ed
eat
ing
.
Aft
erdr
oppingofft
heki
ds,Iwentt
otheoffi
ce,
asIwasabouttosi
tdownonmychairMthunzi
goti
n
Me:
"hau"
Mt
hunzi
:"Makot
i"
Me:
"howar
eyou"
Mt
hunzi
:"I
'
mfi
neandy
ou"
Me:"I
'
m goodI'
mjustsurpr
ised,
ify
ou'
reher
e
t
henwholeftwi
thZweli
?"
Mthunzi
:"l
eftwithZwel
i
??ThereasonwhyI
camehereistoaskyouwhereisZweli?The
cl
ient
swantshim andwecouldlosethem i
f
he'
snother
e, theyar
edemandingforhim"
Me:"heleftandwenttoIt
aly,hesai
d
somethi
ngaboutbusinessproposal
,doy
ou
knowanythingaboutt
hat?"
Mt hunzi:
"No, may bethereisitsj
ustthathe
didn'tdi
scusst hi
swithus, eventheboard
member swanthim "Itookoutmyphone, he
gottabekill
ingme, Itr
iedcalli
nghim buti
t '
s
sentmest raighttovoi
cemai l
Me:
"he'
sphonei
sof
f"
Mthunzi
:"I
'v
ebeent
ryi
ngt
ocal
lhi
mtoobut
not
hing"Isi
gh
Mthunzi:"Ibettergo"Inodandsatdown, so
Zweliwasl yi
ng, heliedtome!If el
tmyeyes
wateri
ngwi thinsecondst ear
sstartedt
ofall,
whatifhel eftforanotherwoman?Zwel ii
sa
ski
rtchaser, Itri
edtakinghim outofmymi nd
anditwor ked.
.
It
sbeenaweeknowsi nceheleftandI'
m outof
excusestotheki
dsandt hi
ssi
dehisfat
heris
call
i
ngnonst op,Idon'tknowwhattodonow,
evenifIgoandtelldadwhatishegoingtodo??
It
'snothehassomesortofconnect
iont
her
e,I
si
ghasmyal armrang,
Igotoffthebedand
l
ookedathiscoldempt
yside
Me: "Idon'tdeservethi
s!"Isaidt omysel fas
getti
nginsidetheshower, Istartedshowering
butitwashar d, whil
eappl yi
ngt heshowergel
al
lIcouldf eelwashist ouch, howweusedt o
makel oveintheshowernowhe' snother e,he's
acr
osst hewor lddoingonl ygodknowswhat, I
hurri
edupandwentt ogetdr esst odaywasa
SaturdayIwast akingmybabi est oDurban,
somehowwhenI 'minDur banIf eelsomesense
ofpeace, Ipackedanov ernightbagand
walkeddownst airs,everyonewaswai ti
ngfor
me.
Me:
"ev
ery
oner
eady
!?"
Them :"Yes!
"Eventhetwinssaid,Il
ookedat
them i
ntherevi
ewmi rr
or, seat
edontheircar
seat,andmissdivaherewasi nthe
passenger'
sseatal
sowi t
hhercarseat,she's
y
oungbat
hong
Me:"Dur
banher
ewego"Ist
art
edt
hecarof
f
wego
.
Aftert
wohour swegoti nsideDur banandt he
seabreeze wasonpoi nt, Idrovestr
aight
homeandmypar ent
swer ehappyt oseeus,
andallthepicni
cplanwasr uinedbecausenow
theydon'twanttogoIjustlaughedandt hought
aboutTee, l
etmej ustcal
lhi m, we'v
etalking
thesepastweeks
.
Tee:
"Takal
ani
"Il
aughed
Me:
"Mboqwana"wel
aughed
Tee:
"okayIwi
l
lst
op"
Me:
"youst
art
edi
t"
Tee:
"backt
henwewer
est
ressf
ree"
Me:
"wehadnowor
ri
esbutl
ookatusnow"
Tee:
"okay
!Enoughaboutt
hepast"
Me:"I'
m aroundIt
houghmay
bewecanmeet
andcatchup"
Tee:
"wher
eisMrhusband?
"
Me:
"Ican'
tsayt
hisov
eraphone"
Tee:
"don'
ttel
lmey
ouguy
sar
esepar
ated"
Me:
"it
scompl
i
cat
ed"
Tee:
"gi
vemeahourandl
etmeet
sinRocco
Mamas"
Me:
"anhour!
"
Tee:
"Ineedsomel
ovi
ng"wel
aughed
Me:"okayfi
ne!
"Iputdownmyphoneandl ai
d
onthecouchwait
ingfort
hathour,
I'
m cl
oserto
themallsoi
tsa15mindriv
e,Dadcameandsat
opposi
teme.
.
Dad:
"howar
eyou?
"
Me:
"I'
m gooddadandy
ou?
"
Dad:"I
'mfinebutIknowyou'
renotgood,
tel
l
mewhat '
swrong,Icanseethatt
here'
s
somethi
ngup"
Me:"I
'm agr
ownwomanIcant
akecar
eofmy
sel
f"
Dad:"IknowbutIdon'
twantyoutosuf
ferwhi
le
I
'm her
e,maybeIcanhelp"maybehecanhelp
whoknows ‍♀
Me:"Doy
ousomehowhav
econnect
ioni
nIt
aly
?"
Dad:
"wow!I
tal
y??No!I
'
venev
erwentt
her
e"
Me:"theny oucan'
thel
pme"Ist oodupand
wenttodrinksomewat er,Isweartogodis
Zwel
i i
sn'
tbacknextweekIwi l
lshowhim
anot
hersideofme, Iwalkedupst ai
rst
osay
byetothekidsandtheydidn'tevenhavea
probl
em ofmeleav
ingthem ,
Mom sawhow
sadIwasandshelaughedatme,Ishookmy
headandtookmyclutchbagandof
ftoRocco
Mamas
.
Tee:"sorr
yI'
mlate"Il
ookedathersippi
ngmy
redwine,it
sbeenover30minwait
ingforhi
m
soIdecidedtobuyawine
Me:
"whyar
eyoul
atemos"
Tee:"Afr
icanti
me"Il
aughed"andwhyare
dri
nking,si
ncewhendoyoudri
nkli
keafi
sh"
Me:"sinceMrHusbandl
eftandwentt
oIt
aly"
hedroppedhi
sjaws
Me:"exact
lymyreact
ionwor
seofal
lnoone
knowswhyhe'st
here"
Tee:
"tel
lmey
ou'
rej
oki
ng,
howar
eyouhol
ding
up"
Me:
"Isowi
shIcansaygoodbuti
tsbeena
weeknowsincehelef
t,beforehelefthetol
d
meaboutopeninganewbr anchi
nI t
alybl
ah
bl
ahandhesaidhedon'tknowwhenwi l
lhe
comeback"
Tee:
"thi
sisunbel
i
evabl
e"
Me:"butIgavehimtwoweekstocomeback,
soI
'
mi mpatient
lywai
ti
ngfort
hisweekt
oend"
Tee:
"tj
oMen "
Me:"Menaredogs"wel aughed,hegas
al
readypour
edaglassofwineforhi
mself
Tee:
"cheerst
othat "wecar
ri
edontal
ki
ng
weevenorder
edthef
amousburger
s
Tee:"somehot t
iejustgotin,don'
tlooknow"I
l
aughedwet houghwear ecommi t
tedtoour
par
tnersthatdoesn'tmeanweshoul dbe
upt
ightandnotfli
rt, It
urnedt
olookbackand
i
tswasJason
Tee:
"he'
scomi
ng"Ij
ustl
aughed
Jase:"Ladi
es-orsorr
y"hesai
dlooki
ngatTee,
Ibrokedownwi t
hlaught
er
Me:"Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e, ai
n'
tyou
supposet
obeinaof
fi
ce"hesatdown
Jase:
"notonSat
urday
s"Il
aughed
Me:
"tot
all
yfor
got
ten"
Tee:
"wai
t!Youguy
sknoweachot
her?
"
Me:"Teet
hisi
sJason,
Jasont
hisi
smyf
ri
end
Tee"
Jase:
"it
sni
cet
omeety
ou"
Tee:
"li
kewi
se"
Jase:
"andwhywasn'
tIt
oldt
haty
ou'
reher
e"
Me:
"becauseI
'
m nother
etoseey
ou"
Jase:
"ouch!
"Het
ouchhi
schest,
wel
aughed
Tee:"Chal
oml
unguuphaphi
l
e"(t
hisguyi
s
for
ward)
Me:
"unj
alov
ese"
(he'
sli
ket
his)
Jase:
"youknowt
hatIdon'
tunder
standy
our
l
anguage"t
jowel
aughed
Me:"it
shightimeyoulear
nit,
wecan'
tkeepon
t
alki
ngyourlanguage"
Jase:
"Iwi
l
lgoandhav
elessons"wecar
ri
ed
ontal
ki
ng,i
tswasf
unImustsay
.
Igoti
nsi det
hehouse ev er
yonet urnedtolook
atme, Iwasabi tti
psyfrom allthewi ne,we
endedupdr i
nking3bot t
les,thet winsstoodup
andrant ome, Iwentdownt ot heirlevel
and
pi
ckedt hem up,lucki
l
yIwasn' twear ingany
heel
s
.
Them :
"Mamana!
"
Me: "I
'm backmyboy
s"theystart
edtalki
ng
thei
rlanguage,y
oucantel
lthatt
heywer e
seri
ousbutaymanIlaughedIcouldn'
teven
hearat
hing
Mom :
"theyl
i
ket
otal
ktoomuch"wel
aughed
Me:"I
'
m goingt
otakeabath"Ipl
acedt
hem
downbutt
heystar
tedcr
ying
Mom :"t
aket
hem wi
thy
ou,
youknowhowt
hey
get"Isi
gh
Me:
"Iwon'tcarr
yyour
llet
'sgo"t
heyclimbed
t
hestai
rswalki
ngsl
owlyunti
lwereachedmy
r
oom
Mom :"Iwanttobath,canyoustayherefora
whil
e"Iplacedthem onmybedandt ookmy
tabl
etsIknewitwil
lcatcht
heirat
tent
ion,put
onsomev ideosandrantotakeaquickshower,
whenIwasdoneIchangedt omypaj amas, and
wentdownst ai
rswi
ththem
.
Me: "t
ell
me,whyain'
tyousl
eepi
ng,chi
l
dren
youragearef
astsl
eepi
ngnow"hejustl
ooked
atme
Me:
"Zet
hembeIwantt
osl
eep"
Zee:
"No!
"Il
aughed
Me:"butI
'
mt i
redmos"hej
ustl
ookedatme
wi
thhisChi
neseeyes
Me:"comemyChi nalet
'ssleep"Ipull
edhim
cl
osertomeandslowlyhewasget ti
ngsleepy
ev
entuall
ysl
epti
tdidn'
ttakelongwithmet oo.
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Aweekhaspastandthi
ngsweregett
ing
toughert
hant
heusual,
itswashar
dIwant edt
o
gobackhomebutIdeci
dedtomanup, I'
vegot
af
ri
endher
e,hi
snamei
sJoshua
.
Hi
m:"hereandpl
easebequi
ck"hehandedme
abur
nerphone
Me:
"Thanky
ou"
Him:"Iwil
lcheckthecoast"Inod,If
irst
lydid
ali
tt
lepray
erIjusthopesheanswersit,Idial
ed
hernumberandit'
srangunanswered,Itri
ed
agai
n
.
Her:
"hel
l
o"
Me:
"**
Sil
ence*
*"
Her:
"I'
m gonnahangup,I'
mtryi
ngtosleepso
whoeveryouareyougot10seconds"
Me:
"it
sme"
Her:
"**
Sil
ence*
*"
Me:
"Imi
ssy
oubaby"
Her:
"**
sil
ence*
*"
Me:
"pl
easesaysomet
hing"
Her:
"whydi
dyoul
i
e?"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tl
ie"
Her:
"Zwel iev
er y
oneisaskingmeaboutyour
whereabouts,theydon'
tevenknowthaty
ou
wenttoItal
y,li
key ousai
dtome"
Me:
"Icanexpl
ain"
Her:
"expl
ainwhat
??Thaty
oul
i
edt
ome!Ihope
she'
swort
hit"
Me:"i
tsnotwhaty
out
hink"shedr
oppedt
he
cal
l
Me:
"fuck!
!"
Joshua:
"Sor
ryman!Thi
ngswi
l
lgetbet
ter"
Me:
"shet
hinksI
'
m wi
thawoman"
Joshua:
"thatbad"Isi
gh
Me:
"ifonl
yshegav
emeachancet
oexpl
ain"
Joshua:"j
ustprayt
hatyouonl
ywi
ll
beher
efor
6mont hs"Isi
ghandlai
dinmybedwit
hmy
back
Me:
"let
'sgetsomesl
eep"
.
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t42
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Thenextmor ni
ngIwokeandpr epar edf or
chur ch, Ineedt ogomay bet hel ordcan
somehowhel ptonedownt hisangerIhav e,how
canhel eav eme, ourchil
drenhel ldamnour
mar riagef oranot herwoman? ?Am It hatbad? ?
May beInol ongersat isf
yhim, Igoti nsidethe
bat ht ub,Ineedt or el
axabi t, asIwasst ill
relaxingZet hembegoti ncryingMar a
l
omnt wana , Iquickenupandgotoutwi th
himf oll
owi ngmear ound,Iwor emypi tchdress
whi chwast ightandhadasl itonmyl eftthi
gh,I
pickedupmysul kingbabyandwentt obat h
him bef orewal ki
ngdownst airs, Iplacedhi m on
thef loorwher ethewasaf leebl anket, he
startedeat ing.
.
Mom :
"Iwaswonder
ingwher
edi
dhego"
Me:"he'
sbei
ngababy,
Idon'
tknowwhat
'
s
wr
ongwithhi
m"
Mom :"heneedsy
ourat
tent
ion,
he'
sst
il
lyoung
phel
a"
Me:"IknowbutIgotot
herki
dst
hatneedmy
at
tent
iontoo"shel
aughed
Mom :"whichki
ds?CauseIknowforsur
ethat
Banzii
salwaysuptosomethi
ngandNkaziwit
h
hersmart
phone"Il
aughed
Me:"hemustj ustfol
lowhi sbrother,ahlukane
nami"wepr ayedbeforeindulgi
ngt he
scr
umptiousbreakfast,onethingIl i
keabout
bei
nghome, istaki
ngabr eakf r
om cooki ng ,
aft
erwewer edone, everyonereadyIpacked
ourbagsinthecarcauseIwon' tbeablet o
comebackher esoaf t
erchurchI '
m drivi
ngback
home
Mom :
"Haveasaf
etr
ip"Ihuggedherandgot
i
nsi
dethecar.
.
Aft
ertheser vi
cewhi chwasv erybeaut if
ul I
somehowgotpeace, dri
vi
ngbackhomeIwas
boredthekidswer esleepi
ngt heser vi
cet ook
l
ongerthatIpredicted,butheyi tdidupl if
tmy
mood.Igoti nsidethehouse, openedt he
doorsforfr
eshai rbeforecarr
y i
ngmyheav y
babies,st
artedwi t
hNkazi andsl owlypl aced
herinhereSofiabed(shechosei therself),
whenIwasdone, Iwenttotaket hetwi nsheav y
astheyareIdidmanagedt ocar rybothoft hem
i
tswasonl yfair
.
Afterputti
ngthem tot hei
rcotsIwenttotakea
napt oo,Iwast ir
edandal sobored.Aftermy
napIwoket ocookdi nnerMaZunguhasl eft
everythi
ngready, Nkazi'
sschoolunif
orm nicel
y
i
roned, thetwinsclothesandalsomycl othes,I
di
dn'tcookany thingheavyjustasimplething,
ri
ceandbeefst ew, f
ewsal adsaft
erIwasdone,
Iwenttowaketheki
dsIknewtheywi
llhav
e
probl
em sl
eepi
nginni
ghtbutheyt
heygotto
eat
Nkazi
:"Mom "
Ilookedather
Me:
"yesmybaby"
Nkazi
:"wheni
sDadcomi
ngback?
"Isi
gh
Me:
"Idon'
tknowmybaby,
Ireal
l
ydon'
tknow"
Nkazi
:"butmom "☹
Me:
"eaty
ourf
oodNkazisoyoucansleep,
t
omorr
owandyou'
regoi
ngtoschool
"
Nkazi:
"okay"shenods,theboy
swer equiet
ly
eat
ingaft
erthatIwenttobat
hthem andthey
sl
eptaft
erbathi
ng,Ialsowentt
osleep
.
.
TWOMONTHSLATER
.
.
Ihavegiv enup, i
tsbeentwomont hsnowand
hehasn'tbeenback, t
helastti
mehecal ledme
waswheni wenthomeandIwasangr yatmy
selfi
fmay beIl ethim expl
ainmay bewe
wouldn'tinthissi tuati
on,may beIwoul dn'tbe
i
nt hi
sal one, lastweekIf oundoutIwas
pregnantt here'snodoubti tZweli'
sbaby, he
wast helastmanIsl eptnotthattherewas
someoneel se, IhatethatI'
veturnedt othis
babymaki ngmachi ne ,buttheonl yway
outofthisi sthr oughaborti
on, Idon'tcareif
youjudgemeorwhatbutwhatIknowi sthat
I'
mt erminatingt hisbaby
.
Iwokeupandf ixedmyselfIwasget t
ingready
forwork,it
swasget t
ingdif
ficul
tasZwelididn'
t
l
eftanyoneincharged,we'velostacoupleof
cli
ent
s, onthesidehi
sfatherkeepsaskingme
abouthim, howam Isupposet oknow?Igot
undressedandgoti nsi
dethebat ht ub, i
tswas
ki
ndaear l
y,Itouchedmyi nvisibl
ebabypump"
Iwouldl ovetokeepy oubut.."Istartedtocryas
Iwast hinki
ngt hatIhavetoraiset hisbaby
al
one. .WhenIwasdone, Igotdr essedi nmy
bl
ackl ongsleev eshir
tandmywhi teti
ghtskir
t,
bl
ackheel sIlookedsophisticated, going
downst air
sIknewev er
yonewasawakej udgi
ng
bythenoi selevel
Me:
"Mor
ning!
"Theygr
eet
edmeback
Me:"Iwon'
tbef
etchi
ngyoutoday"Isai
d
l
ooki
ngatNkazi
,shelookedup
Nkazi
:"why
?"
Me:
"becauseIgott
osor
toutsomebusi
ness"
MaZungu:
"howi
sthesi
ckness?
"
Me:"I'
m get
ti
ngbett
er"wecarri
edoneat i
ng
whil
eholdi
ngaconversat
ion,
themorning
si
cknessusedtoat
tackmebutnotregular
ly
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
It
'sbeenadamn, f
uckedupt womonths,
thingswer etoughatf ir
stbutIwar medmyway
outt othecommander, I
'm actual
l
yhissecond
i
ncommandnow, I'
vemov edt omynewr oom ,
l
uxur i
ousr oom ,Iwonderwhyt heCommander
treatsusasl i
ker ubbish,whilehegetsthi
snice
place,itsbeent woweekssi nceImovedtomy
newr oom , muchbi ggerbedandIwast hankful
alsosadt hatIlefttheonlyguyIknew
.
Commander:
"Becausey
ou'
vebeenagood
man, I
'
llgi
veyoutheWeekendbutbyMonday
youshouldbehere,y
oubett
ernotrui
nmy
r
eputati
on"Ismil
ed,thi
sistheegoodnews,
I
wil
lbeabletoseemywife
Me:
"Iwi
l
lreal
l
yappr
eci
atet
hat"
Commander: "Don'
tthankme,it
sKingwho
pul
ledthesestr
ings,hetal
kedabouthi
s
daught
er"
Me:
"she'
smywi
fe"
Commander: 'it
sokay, I
'
v egotev ery
thingready
fory oubutsincetoday,isTuesday, y ouwill
onlyl eav
eonThur sday"Inod, Iwentbackt o
myr oom ,andI'
m notall
owedt ohav ef ri
ends,I
seriouslywanttotalktoCommanderabout
l
et t
ingJoshuagoImeani t
sli
terally6y ear
sand
Ionlygother efewmont hsback, I'm surehe's
fi
tenough, butIgott
abesur ewhent opushhi s
ri
ghtbut tonsbutnowIshoul drejoiceaboutthis
, oh Joshuawascaughtwi thacel lphone,
whichwegotabeatingofourli
ves,soI
couldn'
tcont
actmywifenotthatIdi
dn'
twantt
o
butitwasthesi
tuat
ion
.
.
It
swasnowThur sday, andIwassoexci ted,by
Iwasgiv enstr
ictinstr
uctions,Ishouldn'
tbe
seeninpublicnott hatmydi sappearancewas
announcedi npublicbuthey, Ijustnodagreeing
tothis,butIgotthef i
nestslapt hatgotme
seeingstart
s
Commander:
"Youmustr
espond,
notj
ustnod"
Me:"I'
m sor
ryCommanderi
tswon'
thappen
agai
n"
Commander: "bett
er"Icarri
edonfi
xi
ngmyself
, Itookev
erynecessarydocument
sthatwi
ll
helpmef l
youtfrom I
talyt
oAmer i
caandfr
om
theretoSouthAfri
ca,Ican'
twaitt
oseemy
wi f
e
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Thisweekendedupsof ast, I
'vebookedmy
appoint
mentforSatur
day, Itwasat ough
decisi
onbutIhadto,ratherthanmiscarry
becauseofstr
ess,TodaywasFr i
day, Iwasn'
t
pl
anningtogotowor k,everyonelef
tforschool,
Iwasaloneinthehouse
.
Me:
"I'
m pr
egnant
!"
Tee:
"youwhat
!!
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowhowt
hishappenedbutIam "
Tee:
"howf
ar?
"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tbuyacl
earbl
uepr
egnancyt
est"
Tee:"r
ememberwhenwewenttoaclubwi
th
Jason,
didy
ouguys-.
.YouknowwhatImean"
Me:"wedidthedeedsbuthepul
l
edoutwhen
hewasrel
easing"
Tee:
"howsur
ear
eyou?
"
Me:
"nothundr
edper
centt
hough"
Tee:
"I'
dadv
iceyoutogoandcheckhowfarar
e
you,
ifi
ts3weeksthan,
that
'sJason'
schi
l
d"
Me:
"I'
mter
minat
ingi
t"
Tee:
"Godhel
pme!
!Si
ncewhenar
eyouaki
l
ler
?"
Me:"I'
m scar
ed,whenZwel
il
eftwehad
unprot
ect
edsexandIsl
eptwit
hJase3weeks
back"
Tee:
"justf
acey
ourf
ear
s,got
otheDoct
oror
bett
ery
etbuyaclearbl
uepregnancyt
est,
itwi
l
l
showhowfarar
ey ou"Inodasifheseesme
Me:"Ij
ustcheat
edonmyhusband,buti
twas
aoneofft
hing,wewer
ebothdrunk"
Tee:
"you'
rei
ndeepshi
t!"Isi
gh
Me:"Bye!
"Iwai
tedf
orhi
mtosayby
ebef
ore,
hangi
ngup.
.
Coul dthisber eal
lyhappeningt ome, Imean
I'
vejustcheat edonmyhusbandandl ordknows
i
tsf eelssogoodbutal sobad, i
fmay beZwel i
didn'tleaveIwoul dn'
tbei nthi
ssi tuati
on, I
knowhehasf uckedmor ethan10gi rl
s
wher ev erheis,it
sallhisfault!
!..Istoodupt o
makesomet hingtoeat,Iobtainf orat oastand
mi l
k, Iwentt oseatdown, openedchannel 135
TLC, SayYesToTheDr ess: UKwaspl ayi
ng
comet ot hi
nkofit!ZweliandInev erwentt o
cour tandsignedt hemar ri
agepaper s,soI
won'tbeabl etodi v
orcehim, sinceweare
marriedtradit
ionall
y , Isighandcarri
edon
watching, Iwaswokenupbysof tki
ssesanda
l
otofgi ggli
ng, Iknewt hetwinswereback,I
satupst r
aight, andpickedthem up
.
Me:
"Sani
bonani
!BoZul
uabahl
e"
Banzi
:"Zul
uomkhul
u"
Zet
hembe:
"Zul
uonamandl
a"Il
aughed
Me:
"youguy
sar
ehungr
y?"
Them :
"Yes!
"
Me: "comel et
'sbakesomecake"west oodup
andwal kedtothekit
chen,t
ookmyapr onwore
i
t,thet winswanteditt
obutsadl
yIdon'thav
e
smal l
ones, westart
edbaki
ng
.
Nkazi
:"ButMom y
ousai
dwewi
l
lgov
isi
tGogo
t
oday"
Me:"ohhI'
m sor
ryIhav
efor
got
tenaboutt
hat
,y
ouwillgotomorr
ow"
Nkazi
:"ButMamana,canyouaskUncl
e
Thembatodri
veustoDurban"
Me:"okay,goandtel
lhi
m "shegotof
ftoher
chai
randranoutsi
de
Me:"youguy
sar
egoi
ngt
oseeGogo,
arey
ou
happy
?"
Them :
"Yes!
"Il
aughed
Nkazi
:"hesai
dnopr
obl
em "
Me: "maybeIdoneedsomespace"Ipacked
thei
rbagsandofftheylef
tit
swasabout5pm ,
IaskedMaZungutocleanupt hemessi
nthe
kit
chen,Iwenttomyr oom
.
Iwaslooki
ngattheseopti
onshere,it
seitherI
dotheabort
ionorkeepthebabyforadoption,
I
don'
twantokeept hebaby,Ical
l
edDrDl amini
Me:
"Hel
l
o"
Recepti
oni
st:
"Goodaft
ernoon,wel
cometo
Abort
ionorAdopt
ionCl
ini
c,howcanIhel
pyou
"
Me:
"Iwantt
ospeakt
oDrDl
ami
ni"
Recept
ioni
st:
"Doy
ouhav
eanappoi
ntment?
"
Me:"i
t'
sschedul
efort
omor
row,
Ineedt
o
cl
ari
fysomethi
ng"
Recept
ioni
st:
"hol
don"
Dr:
"DrDl
ami
nihel
l
o"
Me:
"Hey,
itsMsNdl
ovu"
Dr:
"Howar
eyou?
"
Me:
"I'
m goodDoc-
"
Dr:"sor
rytocuty ouof
f,Iwasmeaningtotell
youthatI'
vereschedul
edyourappoi
ntmentfor
3pm I'
m sorr
y"
Me:
"it
'sokay,
seey
ouon3pm t
hen"
Dr:
"okay,
sowhati
sit,
arey
ouhav
ingdoubt
s
?"
Me:
"No,
byeDoc"
Dr:
"by
e"
.
Ihungup , whyisittalkingsolong??Maybe
i
tsasi gnthatIshoulddot hisbut!Idon'
twant
toraisemybabyal one, Iroll
overthebedand
slowlytookofmyt op,showi ngmybar eski
n,I
touchedmyf latst
omach
Me:"may bethi
sisasign,maybeIwaswr ong
aboutyou"Ibrushedi
tslowly,
fort
hefi
rstti
me
Ismil
edaftergett
ingt
hatI'
m pr
egnant,
Iwent
tosl
eep
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Onmywayt oSA, Ireceiv
ednewst hatmywi f
e
wentt ovisitanabor t
ionclinic,whatt hehell
wasshedoi ngt here? ?Whati fIlefther
pregnantsoshewant stoki l
l mybaby ??Iswear
I
'm gonnaki l
lher, Isettl
efine, i
nDur baninthe
nearesthot el,Igott heDoct orsnumber, t
old
hi
mt oreschedul ehi sappoi ntmentwi thmywi f
e
,Iwantt ocomet here, bedi dn'
tgivemeany
problemssoi tswasgoodt omor rowmor ning,
I
'm goingt othatCl inic.
.
Icouldn'
tsl
eepIkeptt ossi
ngandturni
ngI
coul
dn'tbel
ievethatmywi fecandothi
s,kil
lan
i
nnocentsoul becauseifwhat??Imaynotknow
herreasonbutthatdoesn'tmeansheshouldki
ll
mybaby, Itookacol dshowertocal
m my
nervescauseIwasdy i
ngfr
om anger,Igot
dressedandwentt ot
hecli
nic,Ist
ayedinthe
parkinglotwai
ti
ngforher,
around2:30pm ,she
arri
ved, Iwant
edtostr
angl
eherbutIkeptmy
cool, whyMara??
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
There'
snoturningbacknow,itshastobedone
, t
houghIwil
lalwaysbeguil
tyofthisbuti
t
whatIwant!,Igotofft
hecar,didfewbreathi
ng
exerci
sesbef
oregoinginsi
de, t
hePAl edmet o
theoffi
ce,myheartwasbeatingfastagai
nst
mychest
.
Dr:
"MsNdl
ovu"weshookhands
Dr:
"hav
easeat"
Me:
"Thanky
ou"Isatopposi
tehi
m
Dr:"youknowthere'
sanot
heropt
ionbesi
des
abort
ionri
ght"Inod
Dr
:"But
-"
Me:"canwegetov ert
his,Iwantt
ohav e
abor
ti
on,ther
e'snothi
ngthatcanchangemy
mind"
Dr:
"okay,pl
easepeeinthi
sgl
ass"Istoodup
andwentt
othetoi
letdi
dmybusinessand
cameback
Dr:"youknowhowt heprocedur
e"Inod,
he
t
ookt hepregnancyt
estandaskedmeabout
random questi
ons
Dr:
"it
sindeed,
you'
repr
egnantandy
ou'
re-"
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
oknowhowf
arIam"
Dr:
"okay,
noul
tr
asounds"
Me:
"No"
Dr:"l
et'
smegogett henursesthatwill
helpme
,meanwhiley oucanchanget othis"hehanded
meahospi talgown, Ichangedandsatt hereon
thebedwaiting, IwasscaredIdon'twannal i
e
,thedooropenedsl owlyIdidn'
tturntoseewho
wasIassumei t
st hedoctor,Iheardthedoor
l
ocking,Istoodup, whenIturned,Ialmost
diedofheartattack
.
Zwel
i:
"soy
ouwantt
oki
l
lmybaby"
.
.
.
Admi
n
Season2
I
nser
t43
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Istoodther
eshocked,howcome??Ican'
teven
recogni
zehim??Hehaschanged? ?Il
ookin
hiseyesIsawhatemixedwi
thanger,hetooka
stepfor
ward,It
ooktwostepsbackwards
.
Zwel
i:
"I'
m goi
ngt
oasky
ouagai
n"
Me:"I
'm sor
ry!"hemarchedt
owar
dsmeand
pr
essedmeont hebed
Zweli:
"Why ?Iwanttoknowwhy ?
"Myback
wasagainstthebed,hekeptpushi
ngmeandI
canfeelt
hemet alpi
eceget
ti
ngcontactwi
thmy
ski
n
Me:"becausey
oul ef
twi
thoutanexpl
anat
ion!
!"
hemovedawayf r
om me!
Zweli:
"takeyourthings,
wear egoi
ng!"It
ri
ed
tohesit
atebutthelookonhisfacet
oldmenot
to,he'
snotthesameZwel i
Iknew,hehas
changedalot,Itookmybag, t
heDocgotin
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Doc:
"it
sokay"hesmi
led,Il
eftwiththi
s
monst
erpul
li
ngmyhandli
keat oddler
Me:"you'
rehur
ti
ngmywr i
sts"hedidn'
teven
answerme,hedraggedmeoutofthiscl
ini
c.
.
Zwel
i:
"geti
n!"
Me:
"Iwon'
t!!Iwi
l
lusemycar"
Zwel
i:
"cany
ouf
oroneobey"
Me:"No!"Idi
dn'
tseethi
scomi ng,hepi
cked
meupandopenedt hedoor,henicel
ypl
aced
meandjoggedtohi
sside,Iwasfumingwit
h
anger
.
Me:
"Youcan'
tj
ustcomeher
eandt
ell
mewhat
t
odo"wewereinsi
dehi
shot
elr
oom
Zwel
i:
"justl
i
stent
ome!
!"
Me:"whywouldI
??Youlef
twi
thoutan
expl
anat
iony
ouexpectmetobefi
newithi
t!
!"
Zweli
:"Soy
ousl
eepwi
thJasonnow"Ikept
qui
et
Zwel
i:
"Catcaughty
ourt
ongue"
Me: "i
tshappenedonce!"Imov edback,ashe
wasmar chingtowar
dsme, whil
emov i
ngbackI
reachedtheendoftheroad, It
ri
edrunni
ng
awaybutt j
owithmuchf or
cedhepushedmeI
fel
ll
uckil
yIf el
li
nabed,hecametome,Itr
ied
gett
ingoffthebedt
oanothersi
dehehol
dmy
l
eganddr aggedmeclosert
ohim
Me:"I'
m sor
ry!
!Idi
dn'tmeani
ttohappen"I
wasnowcr y
ingcauseIwasscar
ed, hi
seyes
hastur
nedblack
Zweli:
"I'
vebeengonel i
ketwomonthsalr
eady
you'
recheati
ng??Oht hatwhyyouwanttokil
l
thi
sbabyitshisr
ight?
? "Tear
swereblocki
ng
myv i
sion
Zwel
i:
"I'
mtal
ki
ngt
oyou!
!"
Me:"Idon'
tknow!!Ir
eall
ydon'
tknow"he
cl
i
ckedhistongueandleftme,
Me:"wher eyougoing!?"Hejustlookedatme
andleftl
ockingthedoor,Ihopehewon' tdo
somet hi
ngstupid,Isi
ghIcanseehe' sbeen
workingout!Thosemusclesexplainsever
ythi
ng
ormay behewast ryi
ngtoimpresshi swoman?
..It
ookashowerandwor ethesamecl ot
hesI
camewi th,
satonthebedwai ti
ng.Ideci dedto
tur
nmycel l
phoneonanddamn! !Igotal otof
messagesfrom work,Mom , Dad, Jasonand
thi
snumberIdon'tknowbutr eadingitIassume
i
tsZwel i
'
s,Ireadt
hroughthem ..But
somethingt
hatcaughtmyey esf r
om Jason' s
message"Ababyi sapreciousgiftfrom God"
howdi dheknowIwaspr egnant??Thi sgotTee
wri
ttenonit
.
Me:
"It
rust
edy
ou"
Tee:
"Ihadt
obef
orey
our
egr
eti
tint
hef
utur
e"
Me:
"AndZwel
iknows"
Tee:
"youl
i
e"
Me:"I
'
mt el
li
ngyou,he'
sher
enowIdon'teven
knowhowhegothereorwhatbuthedr
agged
meoutofthatcl
i
nic"
Tee:
"tj
o!Wher
eishenow?
"
Me:"hel
ockedmei
nsi
dehi
shot
elr
oom and
l
eft"
Tee:
"getoutoft
her
eI'
m sur
ether
e'saspar
e
key,
befor
ehekil
lsy
ou
Me:"hehaschangedal
ot,
I'
m scar
edt
hati
fI
makehim mor
eangryhewi
llki
l
lme"
Tee:
"okayputmynumberonspeeddi
alt
hen"
Me:
"okayby
e"
.
Wesai dourgoodbyeandIlai
dtherethinki
ng
aboutJasonwhatifZweliwenttohim Imean
wear eal
readyi
nDur bansoiti
sforhimt o
reachJason.
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Iwasbeyondthewordangry,Icouldn'
tbeli
eve
thatmywif
ewoulddosomet hingl
iket hi
s,
worseofal
lshedoesn'
tknowwhoi st hefat
her
ofthi
sbaby,
.
Il
ockedheri nsidemyhot el r
oom andl eft,Igot
i
nsidemycaranddr ov etoherhome, Iknew
shel ef
tthekidst heresoIneedt oseet hem ,
may beIwi l
lbecal m causer i
ghtnowI 'm
cravingforbloodandIknowIwhatJason' s
bloodonmyhands, Iarr
iv edthere,tookout
somecandy, sweetst uff
sf orthem ,Iknocked
ont hedoorwai tedtobei ngat tended, bythe
noisey oucant ellt
heywer eplay i
ngandt hat
somehowmel t
edmyhear t, Ismiled
.
Anel
e'
sMom:
"ohhcomei
nsi
de"Igoti
n
Anel
e'sMom :
"Guyscomeandseewho'satt
he
door"Ismi
l
ed, wehear
dthef
ootst
eps
Zama:"Daddy!
!"Idr
oppedt
hepl
ast
icsand
pi
ckedherup
Me:"heybaby"t
joshest
art
edcr
ying,
her
ewe
go,
thedramastart
s
Me:
"I'
m her
enowbaby"
Zama:
"DaddyImi
ssedy
ou,
youl
eftus"
Me:"I'
m sor
rybutIpr
omiseIwon'
tl
eav
eev
er
agai
n"shewipedhertear
s
Anele'
sMom :"getdown,
other
swantt
ohug
thei
rfat
hert
oo"
Zama:"No"shewassul king,GodZet hembe
wastheonewhoappear edf i
rst,Imissedouta
l
ot,Imissedthei
rfi
rststep butIhopei ts
worthi
t,thi
ssidemywi feispregnantandGod!
,
Ipi
ckedhim uptoo, youcant el
lhewas
happyt
oseeme, Iwashappyt oo
Zee:
"Baba!"
Me:
"Yesboy"
Zee:
"Mamanaut
hesoZul
uabakhul
u"I
l
aughed
Me:
"yesboyNoZul
uNi
na"hesmi
l
ed
Mom inlaw:"He'scomi ng!"Bythenoi
seIknew
hewascl ose , hecamer unni
ngMarawhy
uBanzieso?IputZethembedownandpi cked
mycrazycopyup, wel ookal i
kealot,
thisside
thepri
ncesswasquietlysleeping,Iwalkedto
thel
oungewi t
hthem talkingbutIcoul
dn'thear
athi
ng
.
Isatdownwi t
hthem , west ar
tedplayi
ngIj ust
wantedtospendtimewi t
hmyki dsbef ore
deal
ingwithmywi fe,itswasal most6pm when
Iputthekidsdownt osleepafterthatIlef
t
headingbacktomyhot elr
oom ,thethoughtof
mywi fewitht
hatthingcalledJasonmakesmy
stomachtur
nIdrov
einsi
det hepar
kingl
ot,I
knowcommandersaidIshouldbeseenin
publi
cbutIcan'
twi
tht
histypeofsi
tuati
on.
.
Iopenedthedoorshest
oodup,
Ikeptqui
et
andclosethedoor
Anel
e:"Iwasworri
edsi
ck,wher
ewereyouand
whyweren'
tyouanswer
ingmycall
s"It
ookoff
myclot
hesIwasprepar
ingf
orhavi
ngabath
Anele:"I
'mtal
ki
ngtoyou"Itookouta
pregnancyt
estcl
earbl
uepregnancyt
estand
threwitont
hebed
Me: "Iwasseet heresul
twhenI'
m done
bathing"Il
eftherthereandwenttotakeabat
h
ItooklongbecauseIwasgi v
inghertimeaf
ter
about14minIgotof fandgotdressed.
.
Me:
"What
'sar
ether
esul
tsay
ing?
"
Anel
e:"8weeks"
Me:
"theni
tsdef
ini
tel
ymi
ne"
Anel
e:"af
tert
hisI
'
mty
ingmyt
ubes"
Me:
"unl
essi
fyou'
regi
vi
ngbi
rt
htosext
upl
ets"
Anel
e:"evenifIwascar
ryi
ngsextuples,t
hey
woul
dn'tknowthei
rfat
hercausehe'sbusyonl
y
godknowswher eanddoi
ngwhat"
Me:"wit
htimeIwil
ltel
lyouever
ythingbutnow
al
lyouneedtoknowisthatI
'minItalyt
hat'
sal
l
"
Anele:"that'
sbull
shit!Youleft,
thecompany
needsy ou,yourDadneedsy ou,theki
ds
neededy ou, Ial
somysel fneedsy ouandyou
tel
lmewi t
htimey ouwi l
ltel
lmeev er
ythi
ng,ar
e
youhidingsomet hing??"
Me:
"I'
m doi
ngal
loft
hisf
ory
ou,
forus"
Anel
e:"Howthef
uck!
!Hasthi
sgotanythi
ngto
dowit
hme? ?I
tsf
oryourownsel
fi
shreasons
andy
ouknowt
hat
!!
"
Me: "don'
trai
sey
ourv
oiceonme"she
chuckled
Anel
e:"ohwhat ??You'
regoi
ngtohi
tme, Idare
youtodoit"Iwasabouttoanswerher,
whenI
gotacal
lfrom commander,Ist
oodupandl ef
t
Anele:"ohWowsowhenev ershecall
swhil
e
we'r
ei nami ddl
eofaconv
ersati
onyouanswer
hercall"Ishookmyheadandwalkedoutof
thi
sr oom ,Igoti
nsi
det
heelevat
orandcal
led
him back
.
Com :
"It
houghtmay
bey
ouhav
edoubl
e
cr
ossedme"
Me:"Iwoul
dn'
tdot
hat,
Ijusthadsomet
hingt
o
do"
Com :
"Iwasl
ett
ingyouknowthatt
het
icket
s
ar
ereadyf
ort
omor r
ow"Isigh
Me:
"onceagai
nthanky
ouf
ort
hisoppor
tuni
ty"
Com :
"It
spleasur
e,seeyoutomorrow"he
hangup,Iwenttomycaranddrovestr
aightto
themal
l,Iwasmeetingwit
hmyt eam t
hisside.
.
Bull
ets:"Wecan'
tki
l
lhi
m,Jacksonwi
l
lbe
suspi
cious"
Me:"tomor
rowI'
m goi
ngbacktoI
tal
y,andt
hat
f
uckerhasbeenget
ti
ngtocl
osetomywife"
Xavi
er:
"wewi
l
lfuckhi
m upbutwewon'
tki
l
l
hi
m"
Me:
"that
'sal
lI'
m aski
ng"
Wecar r
iedont al
kingaboutt heplanthatneeds
tohappent oday,afterthatIdrovebacktomy
room ,whenIgoti nshewassl eepi
ngThanks
l
ordonet hingIdon'twantt odoi st
ofightwit
h
her,Igotinsidet
hebedandt r
iedtoholdher
butshemov edandt urntolookatmeIt hought
shewassl
eepi
ng
Me:
"It
houghty
ouwer
esl
eepi
ng"
Anel
e:"Iwantt
oknowever
ythi
ng,i
sshet
hat
goodthaty
ouwouldl
eav
eyourfami
lyf
orher"
Me: "I
'
m notcheati
ngonyou,unl
ikeyouwho
goesaroundsleepi
ngwi
ththei
rsupposed
fr
iend"
Anel
e:"i
tshappenedonce"
Me:"i
tsfucki
ngi
rri
tati
ngthaty
oudi
dn'
tev
en
t
hinkofusi
ngaprotecti
on"
Anel
e:"wewer
edr
unkokay
!"
Me:"sowhenev
ery
ou'
redr
unky
ouwi
l
lsl
eep
ar
ound?"
Anel
e:"I
'm donet
alki
ng"shef
acedanot
her
si
degivi
ngmeherback
Me:
"I'
m goi
ngbackt
oIt
alyt
omor
row"
Anel
e:"Idon'
tcar
ejustgo"
Me:
"Iwentt
oseet
heki
dst
oday"
Anel
e:"t
heymustbeshockedIt
oldt
hem y
ou
di
ed"
Me:
"don'
tfuckenpl
ayl
i
ket
his"
Anel
e:"sadl
yI'
m not"Isatupst
rai
ght
Me:
"don'
tfuckwi
thme!
"
Anel
e:"Iwanttosl
eepbet
teryett
akemeback
tomyplace"shesai
dupstrai
ghttoo
Me:"IknowIwaswr ongf
orl
eav
ingl
i
ket
hat
buty
oucan'tbeser
ious"
Anele:
"whatdidyouexpectedmetodo?You
l
eftwit
houtevengiv
ingmeav al
i
dreason,
Iwas
ti
redofcomingupwithexcuses"
Me:"it
sfi
ne"Igotof
fthebedandsendt
oa
bal
conyIneedt
ofeelf
reshai
rorel
seIwi
llki
l
l
her.
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
IwashappythatZwelididn'tphysi
calhur
tsme
butyoucantel
l t
hatIdidhur thi
sfeel
i
ngsby
sl
eepingwit
hJasonhi sfrenemy, worseofal
lI
wantedtoaborthisbaby.
.
Iwantedtofoll
owhi m andtell
hi m Iwasjoki
ng
butthepri
deandangerwoul dletme, Imeanhe
hasgivenmear easonwhyhel eftandnowhe
camebackf r
om what evercavehecr awled
fr
om andtellmeshit!Imightbescar edofhim
butIdon'
twon'tlethi
m knoworsee, It
ookmy
phoneasthewasamessageal er
titwasf r
om
Jasonitsreads"Teehast oldmeev ery
thing, I
wenttochecky ouiny ourhousebutt heguar ds
tol
dmey ou'reweren'tther
e, Itr
iedcall
ingy ou
butit
'ssendsmest raighttovoicemail,butifit
s
mybabypl easedon'tabortit,Iwanttobepar t
ofinhis/herlif
e..Callme"Isi ghI'
m gladi t
s
Zweli
'sbabyIl aidbackandcl osemyey es.
AsIwasbusyhavi
ngapi eceofmind, Zwel
i
cameback,Idi
dn'
tmoveorany t
hing,hegot
i
nsidet
hebedandtookmyphone, hereadthe
messageandsmasheditonthewal l
Me:
"Whatt
hef
uck!
!"
Hi
m: "whatthefuck!
?Arebei
ngseri
ousnow!I
wantyoutodeleteev
ery
thi
ngthatgott
odo
wi
ththisboy"
Me:"Iwon'
tli
stent
oy ouandcertai
nlywon'
tl
et
youcont
rol
me"Ist ooduplucki
lytheonl
ythi
ng
t
hatwasdamagedwast hescr
een
Hi
m:"gi
vemebacky
ourphone"
Me:
"soy
oucansmashedi
tagai
n"
Hi
m:"Idon'
twantt
ofi
ghty
ou"
Me:"no!Isaidno!
"Hecametome,
Itr
ied
f
ight
inghim buti
twaspoi
ntl
ess
Him:
"I'
m goi
ngtocallhi
m andyou'
l
ltel
lhi
mt o
st
opwithhi
snonsense"Inod,hecall
edJason
hepi
ckedupalmosti
mmedi at
ely
.
Jase:
"Anel
ehey"
Me:
"Jasont
hebabyi
snoty
our
s"
Jase:
"but
!"
Me:
"I'
m 8weekspr
egnant"
Jase:
"hav
eyout
ermi
nat
edi
t?"
Zwel
i:"Whatthefuckman!Theonlyreasonshe
want
edtokillt
hisbast
ardbecauseshethought
i
tswasy our
s"
Jase:
"whot
hef
uckar
eyou?
?Anel
ewho'
sthat
??AreyouokayIcant
ell
thatsomethi
ngus
wrong,
doyouwantmet ocomet her
e?"
Me:
"it
sfi
ne,
I'
m wi
thZwel
i"
Jase:
"Thepr
odi
gal
husband"
Zweli
:"y
out
oldhi
m "hesai
dlooki
ngatme,
I
nod
Jase:"Listenhere, IloveAneleI'
m sureashell
shelovesmet oo,she'swi t
hy ouforthesakeof
thechil
dr enotherthant hatshewouldhav el
eft
yourpatheticass, didshet el
lyouthatshesaid
I'
mt hebesti nbed, I'
m muchbet tert
hany ou"
Zwelidroppedt hecall,hehadv ei
nspoppingout
, ey
esbl oodshotr ed
Me:
"he'
sly
ingZwel
i,he'
str
yingt
opr
ovokey
ou
"
Hi
m:"l
et'
sseei
fyoust
il
lthi
nksoaf
tert
his"
.
Her
oughl
ydr
aggedmecl
osert
ohi
m and
kissedme, wi thsomuchhunger, i
tswasn' t
thoseseduci ngki ssitswasdi ff
erent, he
pushedmet ot hebedandst ar t
edt oripmy
clothesof fme, It
ri
edf i
ghti
nghi m butno!He
wasst ronger, wewer ecompl etenaked, t
he
sitedefinit
elymademewet, hewasr oughand
wildIfoundt hatat tr
activeandsexy, he
squeezedmyboobssohar dthatIcr i
edi npain
mi xedwi t
hpl easure, howi sthisapuni shment
whenI 'm gettingmor ewetandwet,
unex pectedlyhegoti nf ul
ly,Icriedinpai n!
Me: "you'
rehurti
ngme! !
"Hemov edfaster, I
tri
edmat chi
ngwi t
hhispacemay beav oi
ding
thepainandfocusesonpl easur
ebutdamnhe
wast oofast,Iwascloseandhepul ledout ,I
openedmyey es!Hegot t
abekiddingme, he
waitedabitbeforegoingintoo,judgingbyhi s
pacehewascl oseIontheside,Iwascl oset oo
buthepul l
edoutagain,frust
rat
ingme
Me:
"youcan'
tbeser
iousss.
.Shi
t!
"Hegoti
n
agai
n
Zwel
i:
"tel
lme,
doeshedoi
tli
keme?
"Icl
osed
myeyes
Me:
"mmh!No!I
tsonl
yyouuuui
tsy
ou"
Zwel
i:
"that
'smorel
ikeit
!"Imoanedl
ouder,
I
wascl
osehesensedthatandpull
edout
Me:
"Babypl
ease!"
Zweli:
"let
'ssleep!"hestoodupandwentt
o
wipehimselfandslepthol
dingme,howcanhe
dothi
st ome
.
.
.
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n

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I
nser
t44
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
WhenIwokeup, thewasanot eont hebedsi
de
andIassumedt hatZwel ihasleft,maybegoi
ng
tothemal lorsomet hi
ng, Istoodupandwent
totakeashower, decidedtowearagownIhad
nocl ot
heshere, Iorderedbreakfastandsat
downst art
edeat i
ng. .
.Around2pm Zwel iwas
sti
l
l notback,soIdeci dedt oreadthisnot
es,
i
tsreads
.
.
"
DearMyWi
fe
I'
m sor
ryf
orleav
ingl
i
ket hi
s,Ihur
ttoleav
ebut
Ihavetot
hissowewill
bothbenefi
ts
Iwi
l
lbebackbef
orey
ouknowi
t
Ihav
egonebackt
oIt
aly

Zwel
i♡"
.
.
Ireadthr
oughthisl
etteragain,
sohelef
twit
h
sayinggoodbye,yethesay shelov
esme,I
stoodandlookedaroundandsawIanother
note
.
.
"
Ifi
guredthataf
terreadi
ngthefi
rstlet
teryou
wi
llbeangryandreadytoleav
e,y ourcarkey
s
arei
nsi
det hewhi
teboxundert
hebedandy
our
cari
sparkeddownstai
rs"
.
.
Ikneel
edandl ookedforawhi tebox,andfound
oneItookmykey sandleft,Iwasnolonger
angry,Iwasjustsad, sadthathelef
tmeagai n,
butIhopeitworthit..
.
Arr
ivingi nmyhouseIwentt ochangei nto
comf ortableclothesandl azedar oundt he
l
ounge, Iwasbor edandIknewt heki dswer e
comingbackt omorrow, Iturnont het .
vf i
rst
thi
ngt hatwaspl ayi
ng, wasthenewsasIwas
aboutt ochanget hechannel ,somet hing
caughtmyey e, t
hereporterstartedrepor t
ing"
Ay oungwhi t
eman, wasf oundi nthebush,
unconsci ousandbadl ybeaten, wecan' treal
ly
i
dentifyhi m, sincehisfaceisswol len, hasa
redMer cedesBenz, thepoli
cear esti
ll
i
nvestigati
ng. .
."Itookacl oseey etothiscar
andthenumberpl atewas"JJ"sameas
Jason's..No!!Waitithiscar,Istart
edt oget
worri
edandt r
iedcal l
i
nghi m butitsentme
str
aighttov oi
cemai l,OmgIwonderwhat
happenedt ohim, whowoul dwantt okillthe
sweetJason? ?Iclosedmyey es, j
usttocalm
mysel fbutIcouldf eelthetears,No!I'
m not
abouttocr y,Ishouldn'tbefeeli
ngsor r
yf orhim
ri
ght?Heal mostbr okemymar r
iagebutt he
i
nnermef eelssorryforhim, he'smyf ri
end
aft
erall..
.
.
TuesdayMor ni
ngIdecidedthatI'
m goingback
towork, Iwant edtoaskMthunzithatdoeshe
knowst hatZwel iwashereormay beI'
mt he
onlyonewhoknowsi t.
.Comet othi
nkofi t,
Zwelineverleftmysidebesidesthatti
mewhen
helef
t..If
ixedmycollarofmyshirt,t
uckedin
i
nsidemyski rt
sandreadyforwork,Idi
dn'tf
eel
l
ikeeati
ngsomet hi
ngheavysoImadeaf r
uit
sal
adanday oghur
taft
erthatiwenttowork
.
I
twasl uncht
imewhenIr
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om an
unknownnumber
Me:
"Hel
l
o"
Hi
m:"Heyi
tsme"
Me:
"Ihat
ehowy
oul
eft"
Him: "I
'
m sorr
ybabe,
IknewifIhadtowake
youup, youwoul
dsomehowmakemegui lt
yof
l
eavingandendedupnotl
eav
ing, put
ti
ngour
l
ivesindanger"
Me:
"Itf
ineIunder
stand"*
sni
ff
*
Him:"babei
tsov
ermycont
rol
,Ican'
tdo
anyt
hing"
Me:
"sowhenar
eyoucomi
ngback,
theki
ds
mi
ssesy
ou"
Hi
m:"I
'
mlooki
ngataboutf
ourmont
hs"
Me:
"I'
l
lbe24weeksbyt
hen"
Him:"atl
easty
ouwon'tbe30+somet
hing,
but
Ipr
omisewheny ougi
vebi
rt
hIwil
lbet
herewit
h
you"
Me:"butwhati
fIgetst
ressedandgi
vebi
rt
hto
apr
emat ur
ebaby"
Him:"Igott
agobabybutt rynottostress..
Loveyou"hedroppedthecall,Isi
ghand
car
ri
edonwor king,Mthunzibargesin,Ilook
uptohim andgavehimt he"andt hen?"Face
Mthunzi
:"y
oucan'
tbel
i
evewhatj
usthappened
"
Me:"I
'
m notgoodi
nguessi
ng,
mightaswel
l
t
ell
me"
Mthunzi
:"al
ltheboar
dmembersar
ebackon
boar
dandwi l
li
ngtoworkwi
thuswi
thoutZwel
i
"
Me:
"atl
eastwe'
remaki
ngsomepr
ogr
ess"
Mthunzi:
"hashecont
actedy ou?Ineedtotal
k
t
ohi mit
saboutDad"Idon'tknowifIshoul
d
t
ellhi
m orjustl
i
e
Me:
"ist
her
e'ssomet
hingwr
ongwi
thhi
m?"
Mthunzi:
"Nobutitaboutthet
hrone,Idon'
t
wanttotaket
hethrone,andDadisvery
per
sist
enceaboutit"
Me:"hehasn'tcontact
edmebutassoonasI
hearsomethi
ngf r
om him,Iwi
l
ltel
lhi
m andget
backtoyou"
Mt
hunzi
:"y
ou'
rel
i
fesav
er"
Me:
"Iknow"wel
aughed
Mthunzi
:"Keepmyniecesornephewssaf
e,
by
e"hest oodupandleft
Me:
"whatni
ecesornephew!
?"Iaskedshout
ing
Mthunzi:
"theonesy ou'
recar
ing"hel
eft,I
l
augheditfunnyhowheeasi l
yseeme
wheneverI
'm pregnant,
Itookmycell
phoneto
cal
lYoli
swa
.
Me:
"Yol
l
y"
Yol
i:
"Pr
odi
gal
fri
endhasr
etur
ned"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryf
orbei
ngabadf
ri
end"
Yol
i:
"youowemel
unch"
Me:"okaywewi
l
lgot
omor
row,
howaboutt
hat
?"
Yol
i:"soundsper
fect,
youwi
l
lsendal
lthe
det
ailske"
Me:
"how'
sthel
i
ttl
eone"shehasgi
venbi
rt
h
Yoli
:"he'
str
ouble!
!I'
mthinki
ngofdr
oppi
nghi
m
offt
oanyorphanage"Ilaughed
Me:
"thatbad?
"
Yol
i:
"youdon'
twannaknowandy ourbr
otheri
n
l
awdecidest
oputari
ngonit"Iscreamed!!
Me:"what!
!OmgImissedoutal
ot,
whendi
d
t
hathappen?"Shel
aughed
Yol
i:
"wewi
l
ltal
kov
erl
unch"
Me:
"what
'shi
sname"
Yol
i:
"Sandi
l
e"
Me:
"Br
inghi
m ov
er,
Iwannaseehi
m"
Yol
i:
"ay
oungerv
ersi
onofMt
hunzi
"Il
aughed
Me:"hegotsomest r
onggenescauseev
en
Zandi
l
elooksjustl
i
kehim"
Yol
i:
"okay,
byenow"Il
aughed
Me:
"goodby
e"
Yol
i:
"ai
n'
tyousupposet
obewor
king?
"
Me:"notwheny
ou'
remar
ri
edt
otheboss"I
l
aughed
Yol
i:
"Chi
sa!Wena!,
Ishoul
dbeamai
dof
honourony
ourweddi
ng,
whenar
eyouhav
inga
whit
ewedding?
"
Me:
"whenI
'
mreadynotnow"
Yoli:"y
ouwanttogetmarri
edwhenbot h
ZethembeandZwelibanzi
are30, y
ouwi llbe
tr
aumat izi
ngy
ourgr
andchil
dren,i
magi ne
seeingbothgr
andmaandgr andpakissi
ng"I
l
aughed
Me:"itwon'
tbesomet
hingnew"Il
aughed
agai
n
Yol
i:"don'
tactl
i
keyou'
rewhit
e!!Youknow
bl
ackpeoplewil
lnev
erdothatever,
itagai
nst
ourcult
ure"
Me:"Ibet
tergetbackt
owor
k!Mf
azi
Iwi
l
lsee
yousoon"
Yoli:
"By e"Idroppedthecal
l,smil
ingi
fhaving
thesetypesofpeopl einmyli
fethenIwil
lhave
ahealthpr egnancy
.
Iwr apupinwor kandl eftearly, arri
vingat
home, Idecidedt ocooksomet hingt hatIknow
thekidswi ll
behappy, Ichangedandst artedto
mixf l
ourwi thyeast, Iwasmaki ngast eam
bread, onceIwasdoneandputi ti
nt hewonder
bagandst artedpr epar i
ngbeans, afterwashi ng
i
t, putitont hest oveandl efttochange,
MaZunguwast akingal eavesoI '
m allal one, I
changedi ntoal eggi ngandbaggygr eyT- shi
rt,
putonmysl ippersandwentt ocheckonmy
pots, whil
eati t,t hekidsar riv
ed, theboy sgot
i
nr unningasal way s, whilemsdi vaisbusywi t
h
hercellphone
.
Boys:
"Mamana! !
"Iwentt
othei
rlev
eland
pi
ckedthem up
Me:
"bekunj
ani
esi
kol
eni
"
Banzi
:"Si
cul
i
le"
Me:
"ni
zongi
cul
elanami
"theynod
Me: "l
et '
sfirsthaveabathandt heny ouwil
l
singforme"It ookthem tothei
rroom and
start
edbat hingthem ,butIwouldgoandcheck
uponpot sandal sogottothem ..Nowt hat
theywer efulli
ngdressed,ni
ceandf resh,Iwent
downst air
swi ththem andturnonthecar t
oonsI
knewi twillcatchthei
ratt
ention
.
Wehav efinishedeat i
ngdinner,theki dswer e
happyandt hatwasgoodenoughf orme.
Mor ni
ngIwasn' tgoingtowor kasIwas
meet i
ngupwi thYoliswa, Icl
eanedar oundthe
houseandwoul dstopandsmi l
er ecalli
ngon
howmuchofanui sanceZwel iwaswhenIwas
pregnantwitht hetwi ns,hedidn'
tev enwantme
totouchany thingappar entl
yI'
m si ckwhenI 'm
pregnant , Iconti
nuedunt il
IfeltlikeI'mtir
ed,
thenwentt ot akeanap, Iwantedt owakeup
fresh..
.Iwokeupar ound1pm andourl unchis
at2pm soIst il
lgotanhourt opr eparemysel f,
Iobtai
nedf orasimplelook, Deni m dressand
vansoldschool ,itsmorelikeacasual l
unch
notsomet hingfancy,Itookallthenecessar y
thi
ngsthatImi ghtneedbef oreleav i
ngt he
house,tookmycarandof ftothemal l,ther
e's
anewr estaurantthere,sowewi llgoandt ry
thei
rfood, Iwast hefi
rsttoarri
veear lyand
wait
edf orher
.
Shecamedashi nghotwit
hdeni
m shortanda
whiteT-shi
rtwr
itt
en"I'
m amom ",car
ryi
ng
Sandil
ewi t
hacarseat,Ist
ooduptohugher
beforesit
ti
ngdown
Me:
"howar
eyou?
"
Yoli:
"Fi
neandwena? ?Youevenglowingis
ther
eanewman, causelastt
imeIchecked
yourhusbandwentAWOL"shegotnof i
lt
erI
tel
lyou
Me:"t
her
e'snonewman,I'
mjusthappy,
so
t
ell
meaboutthepr
oposal
?"
Yol
i:
"YouknowIli
ketobeadvent
urousandal
l,
sowewerehavi
ngasteamysex,whenheask
metomarryhi
m "Il
aughed
Me:
"that
'ssoi
ntense"
Yoli:
"Icouldn'tev
ensayNo, notthatIwant
ed
tobutIdidn'tgetachancetor eact,soIwas
sayi
ngy estot hepleasur
ethatwascomi ng
downt her
e, heassumedIwassay i
ngyesto
him "Il
aughed
Me:
"I'
m sohappyf
ory
ou"
Yoli:
"itwasaboutdamnti
me!"Welaughedand
order
ed, dur
ingourmeal
,shestar
ted
Yoli
:"al
mostf
orgot,
Zekhet
hel
o'
sMom
contact
edme"
Me:
"whatdoesshewant
s?"
Yol
i:
"shewasbusyswear
ingatme,
shesai
d
Mthunzi
isonl
ymarr
yingmebecauseIkeep
gi
vinghi
m ki
ds,hewi
lll
eav
emel i
kehedidto
her"
Me:
"she'
sjustbi
tt
er"
.
Wesaidourgoodby esandtookoursepar at
e
ways,IguessIneedt owar
m uptot hisnewl i
fe
wit
houtgett
ingcontactt
oJason, Ifeelbadfor
notgoi
ngtocheckuponhi m buti
t'stheonly
ri
ghtwaytodothings
.
.
.
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n

Season2
I
nser
t45
.
.
.
SI
XMONTHSLATER
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Iwasheav i
lypr egnantwi thquadruplet,and
l
ordknowsIdon' tknowhowIdi ditbutIwas
abletocarrythem f ullter
m whichwasr ar
e,
most l
ywithquadr upletyougi
vebi r
thwhen
you'r
eabout6t o7butmeI '
m almosti nmy8t h
mont hnow, Ilookl ikeahugey ell
owel ephant,
thr
oughmypr egnancywehadt het wins
bir
thdayandi t
swasni ce,Zwelihasn't
contactedme, lasttimehedid, waswhenI
wasi ntheoffi
ce, l
i
fehasbeenwonder fuland
Mom nowl i
veswithusf ull
time, t
otakecareof
meandt hebabiesI'
veal somov edtoa
downst ai
rsbedroom causecl i
mbi ngt
hest ai
rs
i
sr eal
lyami ssi
on, Idocl i
mbt hem whenI
exerci
singDoctorsor der,tohaveahealthy
pregnancy
.
Me:
"Mom cany oupassmethesal
t"weinsi
de
t
hehouseeat
ingroom ,
itwasar
oundmidday
Mom :
"wheni
syourduet
hat"
Me:"nextweekThur
sday"andTodaywasa
Monday
Mom :
"I'
m sur
eyou'
resoexci
tedt
oseet
hem ,
f
ourbabi
es"
Me:"I
'm mor
estr
essedthatbei
ngexci
ted,
how
wi
l
lItakecar
eof7kidsalone"
Mom :
"I'
m wi
thy
oual
lthewaybabe"
Me:"Ij
usthopeZweli
wil
lcomebacksoon,
he
sai
dhewillbebackwi
thi
n4monthsandnow
i
ts6"
Mom :"hewi l
lbeback"Inodandwecar r
iedon
eati
ng, t
hekidswereintheroy
alhouse, and
Godtheyar ei
nlovewithmyhuget ummy ,
thequadsalwayskicki
ngI'
m notsureofthe
genderbutIwishitwasgir
ls,i
magi nehave
cuteli
tt
lefourbabi
es .
.
Mom :
"Don'
tyouwantt
otakeawal
k?"
Me:"I'dli
ket o"shehelpedmeup, mybell
y
al
mostt ouchedt hetabl
ethathowhugeiti
s,
wewal kedar oundthegardensl
owlyand
enj
oyingeachot her
scompany..Itwasget
ti
ng
l
ateandwi ndysowewentbacki nsidet
he
house, Idecidedtotakeanap
.
.
.
Jason
.
.
Inthepast6mont hsIwasabl etoheal and
thankgod, thescarsarenotv i
sibleIwas
surprisedwhenAneledi dn'tcomet ov i
sitmeat
all,Iwasinacomaf or2mont hsbutnowI '
m
fi
ne. .Dadhasbeenhel pingmef indt hose
culpritwhodidthi
stome, Iknowmydadi s
partofsomeshadybusi nessbuti tneverever
hasaf f
ect
edus,Ihopet hisisn'
thappeni ng
becauseofhi m
.
Ist
oodupandt ookmycrunchesandsl
owly
wentdownstai
rs,Mom st
oodupandsoonas
sheseesmeappearintheli
vi
ngroom ,
itswas
i
nthemorning
.
Me:
"Mor
ning"
Mom :"youshouldhavecal
l
edme,
Idon'
twant
youhurt
ingyoursel
f"
Me:
"Mom I
'
mfi
ne"shehel
pedmesi
tdown
Mom :
"Iwil
lgoandprepar
esomet
hingt
haty
ou
wi
ll
eat"Inod,shest
oodupandl
eft
Dad:"Ihavef
oundt
hepeopl
ewhoputy
oui
na
hospi
talbed"
Me:"t
hatgr
eatnews,
atl
eastIwi
l
lav
engemy
sel
f"
Dad:
"I'
vebeentr
yingtotr
ackt
hem butt
he
l
ocat
ionsendsmestrai
ghttoI
tal
y"
Me:
"that
'sst
range.
.Comet
othi
nkofi
t.
.I.
."
Dad:
"what?
"
Me:"Nonothing"Iknewi
thaddowithZwel
i,
st
upidhusbandofAnele,
Ipr
ayitnothi
m,
Anel
eoncet
oldmeabouthi
m di
sappear
ingi
n
I
tal
y
Dad:
"doy
ouhav
esomeonei
nmi
nd?
"
Me:
"No"
.

Thisgothim wri
ttenofit, heshoul dstopbeing
acowar dandcomef aceme, facet oface,
Mom camewi t
ht hefood, Istartedeat i
ngafter
Iwasdone, hadmymedi cati
onatl eastnowI
knowwhatt odoandAnel eist heonl yone
who'sgoingtohel pmet hroughhi m, letmejust
cal
l her,
itsr
angunanswer edIt hinkthisZweli
guyhassomet hingtodowi thit,it'
stimeIput
himt ohi
splace, hemessedwi thawr ongdude
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Icoul
dn'tbel
iev
eIwasreall
yleav
ing,
even
Joshuawaswi thmeandIwassohappy, t
he
commanderwassadt oletmegobuthehad
too,IknowitswasmorethansixmonthbutI
'
m
gladthatIwasabl
etogobackhome, tomy
normal l
i
fe
.
Joshua:
"may
besomeot
hert
ime"
Me:"I
'm sur
eyourf
ami
l
ywi
l
lbehappyt
osee
you"
Joshua:
"Ihopeso,
orel
set
hist
rai
ningwasf
or
nothi
ng"
Me:"Iwil
lcomev
isi
tyoui
nGer
many"he
l
aughed
Joshua:
"Iwi
l
lal
socomev
isi
tyoui
nSout
h
Afr
ica"
Me: "we'l
lkeepincontact"wehuggedf orthe
l
astt i
meandIt ookmypl antoAmerica, which
tool
sl i
ke2hour sandthentookonefrom SA. .I
wasr eal
lyexci
tedtogohomebutIwi l
lfi
rstsee
Kingbeforeheadinghome
.
Af t
er8f ullhoursIlandedinSA,theseabr eeze
wast odiefor, Ii
nhaledshar
ply,feel
i
ngt he
freshai rhi
tti
ngmynost r
il
sImustsayi tsfeels
goodt obackandbackhome. .TheGent swer e
alreadywai ti
ngf ormeandIwasi mpr essedby
thewayt heyhandl ethi
ngswithJasonIhopehe
hasl earnthislessonnott omesswi t
hmar r
ied
woman, wewentt omeetwithKinginthe
war ehouse
.
Ki
ng:
"let
'shopey
ou'
rer
eadynowki
l
ler"
Me:
"iam "
King:
"Iseey
ouhav
edecl
aredwarwi
thmy
enemy"
Me:
"Jacksoni
syourenemy?
"Henods
King:
"tr
ustme,he'
spl
anni
ngsomet
hingbi
gso
youbett
erbepr
epar
ed"
Me:"Iwasbornready"hegavemeal lt
he
t
hingshetookwhil
eIwasgoing, mycell
phone
wasful
lychar
gedIsmiledIwantedtocall
my
wi
feandletherknowthatI
'm backandthi
s
t
imeforgood
Ki
ng:"j
ustknowthatmybabygi
rli
snotababy
maki
ngmachine"Ilaughed
Me:
"I'
m bui
l
dinganempi
re"
Ki
ng:
"Iwi
l
lfuckenki
l
lyouki
l
ler!
!"
Me: "okayokay
!Ihopet
hisi
sourl
astbaby,
for
yoursake"
Ki
ng:
"I'
m wayt
oyoungt
obecal
l
edgr
andpaf
or
at
housandst
imes"
Me:
"Ij
ustcan'
thel
pitImeany
ourdaught
eri
s-"
King:
"I'
m outofher
e"hel ef
tusthegent
s
l
aughingli
kecrazy,Iwenttochecki
nthehotel
andsleptassoonasthemyheadhi tt
hepil
low
.
Thenextmor ningIt
oabat handfixedmysel f,
shavedandt ri
mmedmybear diwasanewman
,Iwentt oasal oontogetmyhai rcutgoodI
obtai
nf orabr ushcutIlookedli
kear esponsibl
e
man, Ipassedbythemal landboughtt wobig
humansi zeteddybear,oneformypr i
ncess
andonef ormywi f
e, asIwaswal kingaroundI
cameacr ossaboutiquethatsel
lsbabycl ot
hes
Ismiledandgoti nside,Iaskedtheassistance
tohelpmechoosecl ot
hesforanewbor n,she
wasf l
irti
ngwi t
hmebutIwoul dlaughed
Her:
"shemustbespeci
al"shesai
dlooki
ngat
t
heteddybear
s
Me:
"Yes!"
Her:
"whi
chcol
ourar
eyoul
ooki
ngf
or"
Me: "I'
m notsur eofthegendersoIt hink
may bewhi t
e, greenory el
lowwi llbegood"she
nodsanddi sappear edsomewher e, Ilooked
aroundandsawacarseatandboughti ttoo,
theassistancecamewi thev erythingI '
veasked
forandIleftaf t
erpurchasingi t, Ihopeshe
l
ikesev er
y t
hi ngIboughtandal sof orgivemef or
notbeingav ail
abletimeswer et oughIdi dafew
breathi
ngexer cisesbeforeget tingoft hecarI
wasbot hner vousandexci tedIcar ri
edt he
plasti
candgoti nsi
dethey ard, t
heguar ds
greetedmeIgr eetedback
Guard:"i
tsgoodtohaveyouback"Inodand
car
riedonwalki
ng,Iopenedt
hedoorandgot
i
nside,Isawmymot heri
nlaw
.
Me:
"SawubonaMah"
Anele'
sMom :
"Soni
nlaw,
howar
eyou?
"We
hugged
Me:
"I'
m goodnowt
hatI
'
m back"
Her:"t
hemadam wasst r
essedthatshewil
l
giv
ebirt
hsoonandy ouhaven'
tcontact
edher,
she'
spregnantbat
hong"
Me:"I
'
m sor
rymom ,t
hingswer
etoughonmy
si
debutI
'
m backf
orgood"
Her:
"youl
ooki
nggood"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"Thanky
ou,
wher
eisshe?
"
Her:
"int
heguestr
oom ,
it'
shasbeenast
ruggl
e
cl
imbi
ngthest
air
ssoshemov eddownst
air
s"
Anel
e:"Mom!
!Who'
sthat
?"
Her:
"Youwi
l
lseesoon"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"letmegoandcheckuponher"shenods
Her:
"bythewayIthi
nktheit
emsy oubought
ar
enotenough"shelef
theadingt
othekit
chen,
Ibreat
hinandoutbef or
eopeni ngthethedoor,
Ididn'
tknockIjustgotinandshewasl ayi
ngin
thebedfacingup, eyesclosedandhadher
handsaroundherbi gtummybusyhummi nga
song, Iputdownt heplasti
csandt ookofmy
shoesandgoti nthebed, Iplacedmyhandson
hertummyandf el
tthebabyki cki
ngbutitwas
mor el
ikebabies
.
Me:"heybaby, daddyisher enow, I'
m sorryf
or
notbeinghereal l
thesemont hs"Iki ssedthe
tummy, t
heystartedkickinglikecrazyIlaughed
whenIt urnedAnelehadt ears,Idon'tknowif
shewashappyorwhat, pregnantwomenar e
unpredict
able,Islowlyplantedki ssesonher
face
.
Me:"I
'
m sosor
rybaby,buti
tsal
lovernow,we
wi
l
lgobacktoournor
mal l
if
e"Isai
dkissi
ng
herl
i
psmul
ti
plet
imes
Anel
e:"I
'
mjustgl
ad,
you'
reher
enowandsaf
e"
Me:"Iseey
ou'vebeengood,If
eltt
hem kicki
ng
,andIcantel
li
tsnotonebaby"shelaughed
Anel
e:"t
her
e'sact
ual
l
yfour"Igasped
Me:
"tel
lmey
ou'
rel
yi
ng"
Anel
e:"sadl
yI'
m not,
Iwasshockedasy
ou
whenIfoundout"
Me:"Ionl
yboughtf
ewt
hingsf
oronebaby"she
l
aughed
Anel
e:"youbett
erbuyanot
hert
hree I
'
m
havi
ngquadrupl
ets"
Me:
"butI
'
m gl
adi
tmor
ethant
wo"
Anel
e:"i
ntheweehour
s, y
ouwil
lbetheone
waki
ngupandtaki
ngcareoft
hem "
Me:
"Don'
twor
ryIgott
his"shel
aughed
Anel
e:"y
oul
ookhandsome,
Ilov
ethi
snewcut,
i
tssui
tsy
ou"
Me:
"don'
tmakemebl
ush,
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
t
oo"
Anele:"don'
tsugarcoatthet
ruth,I
'
mt hi
sugly
becauseofyourfourninj
ashere"shepoi
nted
hertummy
Me:
"canIki
ssy
ou"
Anel
e:"No.
.I'
m al
esbi
annow"wel
aughed
Me:"Idon'
tcar
e"shel
aughed"Iwi
l
lti
ckl
eyou
t
hen"
Anel
e:"y
ouwoul
dn'
tdar
e"Ist
art
edt
ickl
i
ng
her
e
Anele:"Okay!!Fi
neyouwin,comeher e"Iwent
closetoherandwest art
edkissi
ng,Imissed
this,Imissedthefeel
ofhertonguesweeping
mymout h,Iheardasoftmoanescapedf r
om
hermout h,Iknewitwasallgood
Anel
e:"Imi
ssedy
oul
i
kecr
azy"
Me:
"Ihopey
ou'
vebeeni
nyourbestbehav
ior"
Anel
e:"ohno!I
'
vebeengood"i
tfeel
sgoodt
hat
shel
ist
enedtome,Ismil
ed
Me:"i
nthatcase,IBoughty
ousomet hi
ng"I
gotof
fthebedandtookherteddybear,
she
l
aughed
Anel
e:"you'
rel
ate,
youshouldhavedonethat
l
ongtimeagowheny oul
eftbutIappr
eci
atei
t"
Me:
"butatl
eastIdi
d"
Anel
e:"t
hanksbabe"
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Me:
"Igotaf
ewscans"
Hi
m:"Iwoul
dli
ket
oseet
hem "
Me: "fi
rstdrawer,
Ican'
tact
ual
lymoveand
pleasepassmemyl apt
op"hestoodupand
tookeverything
Hi
m:"sot
hesel
ett
ersi
ndi
cat
est
hebabi
es?
"
Me:
"yest
her
e'sbabyA,
B,CandD"
Him:"itst
il
lhasr
egi
ster
edt
hatweaboutt
o
havefournewborn"
Me:"youbetterbel
ievei
t,Ihopethi
stimethey
l
ookli
keme, Ican'
thavemybabieslooki
ngli
ke
you"helaughed
Hi
m: "t
here'
snothingwr
ongwi
tht
hat,
butt
hey
dohaveyourfeat
ures"
Me:
"that
'snotenough"
Mom :
"Di
nneri
sready
!!
"
Me:
"we'
recomi
ng!
!"
Zweli:
"wher
ear
etheki
ds?,
Ihav
en'
tseen
them "
Me:
"theywentt
ovi
sity
ourf
ather"
Zweli
:"atl
eastt
heywi
ll
giv
emet
imet
obond
wit
hyouandmybabies"
Me:
"let
'sgoandeat"
.
Hehelpedmest andupandwewal kedint
othe
l
ounge, weweren'treal
l
yusingtheeati
ngroom
si
nceitwasapr oblem wit
hme, myt ummywas
huge,hesatnexttome, weprayedbefor
e
star
ti
ngtoeatafterthedinnerwewenttosleep
..
I
nthemidnightIst
artedtofeelsomepai
nson
myabdominalbutIthoughtitwasoneofthe
br
axt
onhits,soIbrusheditoff
Zwel
i:
"Babyl
et'
schanget
hesheet
syoupeed
oni
t"Il
ookeddownonmyselfdamn!Mywater
j
ustbr
oke
Me:
"Zwel
ical
lmom "
Zwel
i:
"butbaby"Ist
art
edhav
ingcont
ract
ion
Me:"pleasecal lmom It hinkweneedt ogoto
thehospital"Itr
iedignor i
ngt hepainbuyitwas
cominghar d,Iscreamedt hatwhent hi
sfoolof
ahusbandwentoutt ocal l mom , wetook
ever
ythingthatthebabi esmi ghtneed,and
Zwelihelpedmegeti nsidet hecar
.
Wear ri
vedinahospi talandIwasi npain,
unbearablepain!Iwast akentoan
Emergency /
labourroom wher eIwillgi
vebir
th,
thedoctorsaskedmeal ltheinf
ormat i
onabout
howf arIam theywer equiteshockedwhenI
tol
dthem almost8mont h,theyaskedmei fI
wantanat uralbir
thorI'l
ldoaCSect i
on,I
obtai
nf oranaturalbirt
hIhopeIwi ll
bestrong
enought opushf ourbigheadsoutofmyNana.
Doc: "Don'
tworry,thebabiesaresti
ll
far,I
'
d
advicetoyoutowal kar
oundi ncir
cleorany
thatyou'r
ecomfortabl
ewi t
hitwillmakethe
babiestobecloser"
Zwel
i:
"ThanksDoc"hel
ookedatme
Zwel
i:
"youhear
dthatbaby"
Me:"Iwantt
obealoneandIdon'
twantt
otal
k"
henodsandstepoutoft
heroom
Mom :
"shoul
dIl
eav
etoo?
"
Me:"don'
t!Pl
easehel
pmeoffthi
sbed"she
hel
pedmeandwestart
edwal
kingaroundi
n
ci
rcl
e
.
.
Ihopei
tsal
lwor
thi
t
.
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t46
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
Iwasoutsidet heroom ,seatedont hebenches
wai
ti
ng,Icoul dhearheri nsi
decryinginperson,
womengot hroughal ot,I
'm gl
adthatmywi f
e
won'
tgot hrought hatagainIwasser i
ouswhen
Iwastel
l
ingKi ngt hatthi
sisourlattimehaving
ababyplusi t
sf ourofthem soit
senoughno
morebabiesbuti
fonecomesi
nfut
urewewi
l
l
accepti
ts
.
Af
tert
wohour
sthedoctor
scall
mei
nandgav
e
meoneoft
hehospi
talgowns
Doc:"okayAnel
eyoucanpushi
n3,
2,
1push!
!"
Shescreamedwhil
epushi
ng
Doc:
"Youdoinggood"Ihel
dherhandhergr
ip
wast
ightbutIdi
dn'
tcar
e
Doc:"Icanseeaheadkeeponpushi
ng!"She
scr
eamedagain!Icant
ellt
hatshewasonalot
ofpai
nandmyhear tbr
oke
Doc:
"BabyAisoutandit
saboy!
"Ismi
l
edas
t
heyt
ookhim andst
art
edtocl
eanhi
m
Doc:"BabyBoutandit
saboy!!Agai
n"Ismi
l
ed
maybeI'
m hav
ingtheboysonl
y
Anele:
"Ican'
tpushany
mor
e,I
'
mti
red"she
sayshel
pless
Me:"youcandot
hisbabe,
doi
tfort
het
wo
babi
eslef
t"
Doc:"BabyCanditsagi
rl"Il
aughedher
eIam
t
hinki
ngittheboy
sonly
Doc:
"andl
ast
lyBabyDandi
tsagi
rlt
oo"
Me: "youdi dagr eatjobbabe, I'
m sopr oudof
you"shesmi led, t
heyst art
edf i
xingherand
shewasdeadsl eepingIwentt oseet hebabi es
forthef i
rstt i
mei nal ongt imeIcr y, tearsofj oy
, t
heywer ebeaut i
fulandI '
m gladt hattheyar e
okayi nsomecasest helastbor nusual ly
doesn'thav ef ul
l developedl ungsorsome
thi
ngsbutmi near egoodandbouncyheal thy, I
walkedar oundBabyA, he'sbeaut i
f ul,t
heyal l
arelightskinned, hadbl ackhair,Il aughedasI
reachedBabyDt heyallhav ebigey esj ustlike
thei
rmom , Ialr
eadygot3copi esIpr ayt hat
somehowt heylookl iket hei
rmom orel seshe
willkil
lme, Ilef
tt henurser y
.
Me:
"howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
"Shesmi
l
ed
Her:
"I'
m muchbet
ternow,
sohowdi
dIdo"I
smil
ed
Me:"youdi
dgr
eatbabe,
thanky
ouandIl
ove
you"
Her:
"Iwannaseemybabi
es"
Me:"soy
oudon'
tlov
eme"Isai
dwal
ki
ngt
o
t
akeawheel
chai
r
Her:
"youknowIl
ovey
oubutIj
ustwantt
osee
mybabies"
Me:
"theylookl
i
key
ou"
Isai
dpushi
nghert
o
t
henurser
y
Her:"Ihopeyout
ell
i
ngmet
het
rut
horel
seI
wil
lkil
lyou"
Me:
"theyhav
eyourey
es"Il
aughed
Her:
"Thatdoesn'
tmeant
heyl
ookl
i
keme"
Me:"okay,butt
heydon'
tlookl
i
kemeei
ther"
wegotinsi
dethenur
sery
Me:
"her
eisbabyA"shel
aughed
Her:
"sohei
sthef
ir
stbor
n"Inod
Her:
"Nkany
ezi
"
Me:
"Nkany
ezi
Samkel
oZul
u"
Her:
"Ilov
eit,he'
sbeauti
ful
"shewi
pedt
he
sweathehadonhisfor
ehead
Me:
"thi
sisbabyB"
Her:
"Nkany
iso"
Me:
"Nkany
isoBanel
eZul
u"
Her:
"Il
ovet
hecombi
nat
ion"
Me:
"her
ear
ethegi
rl
s"
Her:
"soi
ttwoboy
sandt
wogi
rl
s"Inod
Me:
"babyCEmi
hle"
Her:
"Emi
hleSamant
haZul
u"Il
aughed
Me:
"whyhav
ingaEngl
i
shname"
Her:
"If
eel
itssui
tst
hem "Inod
Me:
"andBabyD,
thel
astbor
nisEsi
hle"
Her:
"Esi
hleShant
elZul
u"
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Onceagai nI
'mthankfull
ordforgivi
ngmet his
opport
unitytobeamot herofquads, thankyou
forbl
essingmewi thbeauti
fulquads..It
sbeen
aweeksi nceIgavebirt
handwewer estil
li
na
hospi
tal,Thequadswer egrowingupf astanda
l
otoftrouble,Idon'
tthi
nkIwoul dhave
managedi ft
henur sesweren'tt
here,comet o
thi
nkofi tIneedfewext ranannieswhowi l
lhel
p
met akecar eofmybabi es, t
heyhavebeenv er
y
hel
pful,Iwasn'tbreastf
eedingsoZwel ibought
ami l
kfor mulaforthem
.
Doc:
"Myf
avor
it
epat
ient"shecamet
omysi
de
Me:
"mor
ningDoc"
Doc:
"Ihav
egoodnewsy
ouguy
sar
eleav
ing
t
oday"
Me:
"it
saboutDamnt
ime!
!"wel
aughed
Me:"Thanky
oufortaki
ngcar
eofmy
t
roubl
esomequadsandalsome"
Doc:"noneedtot
hankme,it
smyjob"Inod
,shecheckedme,t
emper
atur
e,hi
ghbl
ood,
ever
ythi
ng
Doc:
"Ever
ythi
ngseemsfine,
shoul
dIcal
lyour
fami
l
ytocomegety ou"
Me:"don'
tworr
yyoursel
f,Mom wi
l
lcomesoon
"i
tswasinthemorni
ng
Doc:"yourquadsaresobeauti
ful
,theyl
ookl
i
ke
t
heirfat
herthough"welaughed
Me:
"allmychi
l
drenl
ooksl
i
kehi
m,Igi
veup"
wel
aughed
Doc:
"I'
llt
alktoyoul
ater,
needt
ocheckupon
myotherpati
ent
's"
Me: "okay"sheleftsavingbor
edashel l,Il
eft
myphoneathomei tbeenaweekwi thoutit,as
Iwast hi
nkingaboutit,Dadgotinsi
decar ryi
ng
bal
loons, Ismil
edandt urnedmyattenti
ont o
hi
m
.
Dad:"I'
m sogoi
ngtoki
lly
ou,I'
mt i
redofbei
ng
agrandpaatayoungage"Il
aughed
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryDadIswearI
'
mty
ingmyt
ubes"
Dad:
"youl
ovesex?
"Ibl
ushed
Me:
"whatt
ypeofquest
ioni
sthatDad"
Dad:
"si
mpl
equest
ion,
youl
ovesex?
"
Me:
"No"
Dad:"t
henhowdoy
ougetpr
egnant?
"I
l
aughed
Me:"Dadareyouher
et oseemeandmybabi
es
oryouheret
oaskmer atherawkwar
d
quest
ions"
Dad:
"I'
m her
eforbot
h"Il
aughed
Me:
"youknowImi
ssedy
ousomuch"
Dad:"Imissedy
out
oopr
incess,
wher
ear
e
yourpuppi
es"
Me:
"Dad!
!"
Dad:"okaywhereareyourmousesorli
ttl
e
pi
glet
smay berabbi
tsevenbet
teryett
igercubs
"
Me:
"Igi
veup"Ist
oodupandwal
kedt
ogi
ve
Dadahugbef
orewel
eftf
ort
henur
ser
y
.
Dad:
"whywasn'
tIgi
venachanget
oname
t
hem "
Me:
"becauset
heyar
emybabi
es"Il
aughed
Dad:
"thenI
'
m nott
hei
rgr
andpa"
Me:
"youwi
sh"
Dad:"t
heyarebeaut
if
ulli
keyou"Ismi
led"But
yougotal
lthi
sbeaut
yfrom me"Iknewit
swas
coming
Me:
"ai
n'
tIgott
hisbeaut
yfr
om mom ?
"
Dad:"havetakenagoodl
ookatme,
dar
li
ngI
'
m
hot"welaughed
Dad:"I'
m gl
adthatyouhadasafedel
iver
y"I
l
aidmyheadi nhischest,
thequadswere
sl
eepingonthei
rcots
Me:
"I'
m gl
adt
hatImadey
ougr
andpaagai
n"I
gi
ggl
ed
Dad:
"andI
'
m sohappy"wehugged
.
Doc:
"her
ear
eyourdi
schar
gingf
orms"Isi
gned
t
hem
Me: "Thanky ouonceagai n"t hequadswer eal
l
buckledupi ntheircarseatslookingsocute,
Mom , DadandZwel iwasher etof et
chmeand
ZweliboughtaH1Hy undai(car )forthequads
,Icouldn'
tbemor ehappier, i
tswil
l
accommodat eallmysev enkids, andoffwe
l
eft,Ijustpr
ayt hatthetwinsbehav es
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
It
sbeenabli
ssfulweek,I
'vebeenvisi
tthe
hospi
tal
almostevery
daysomet i
mes,Iwillj
ust
vi
sitt
hequadsonlybutothert
hanthatisall
wonderf
ul ,
I'
vebeenonaf ewmi ssi
on
si
nceIgotback,Kinghasbeengoodgi vi
ngme
amateur
smissionsoitwil
lbeeasyformet o
checkuponmywi feandkids.
.
I'
vebeenkeepi ngtabsonJason, Icansayhim
andhi sfatherareamateurs,wellsi
nceKing
haswar nedmeaboutJacksonwhoi salsomy
biggestcli
ent, Iwasshockedwhenhet oldme
thatJacksonwasonceagangst eractuall
yhe'
s
anunder covergangster,soishouldtr
ead
careful
ly.
.
.
Me:
"Ihopet
heyal
lar
esl
eepi
ngnow"
Anel
e:"
yest
heyf
inal
l
ysl
ept"
.
.
.
.
Cr
opt
op

Season2
I
nser
t46
Cont
inuat
ion
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Thenextmor ningwaski ndaast r
uggl
e, having
fournewbor ni snojoke,theykeptusupal l
night,butotherthanal l
I'm enj
oyingt
his,Ilove
beingaf at
herhopefullyIwi l
lbeabletohave
fewmor ebabiesandt henI'm done I '
m not
reall
yreadytost opmaki ngbabiesIknowi t
unfairbutIl
ov ehavi
ngabi gfamily.
Ihavebeenv i
sit
ingDad, talkingabout
every
thi
ngthatconcer nsthet hr one,andsince
I'
mf i
tenoughforitIthinkitti
meIt akewhat '
s
ri
ghtf
ull
ymi ne,Idon'
tknowi fi tagoodi deaof
surpr
isi
ngmywi fewithasur pr i
semar ri
ageor
shewouldliketoplanitbyher self
.
Igotofft
hebedIwasaloneIwonderwhereis
mywi f
eshehasn'
tgotenoughsleepand
al
readyshe'
sup,Iwenttothebathr
oom to
fr
eshenupassoonasIwasdoneIwentt o
checkonthenurser
ywherethebabi
eswhere
anddamn!Ifoundmywifelooki
ngli
kea
zombieholdi
ngababy
Me:
"nobabey
ouneedt
osl
eepnow"
Her:
"shedoesn'
twantt
osl
eep"
Me:
"who?
"
Her:
"Esi
hle"
Me:"I
'
llt
akecareofthem whi
l
eyougoand
sl
eepokay?"Shenods
Her:"ev
eryt
hingishere,all
thebot
tl
ear
ewar
m
,I
'vechangesall
theirnappi
es"
Me:"okayj
ustgoandsl
eep,Iwil
lask
maZungutocheckuponBanzi
andZethembe"
shenodsandcametoki
ssmycheek
Me:
"lov
eyou"
Her:
"lobey
out
oo,I
fthi
ngsgetoutofcont
rol
pl
easewakeme"
Me:
"justgo"shehandedmeEsi
hleandl
eft
Me:"babygirlwhyarey outr
oubl
ingy ourmom
huh?Shewant stosleepli
keyourli
ttl
ebrot hers
andsist
er"Ikeptwal ki
nginacir
cularmot ion
unti
lshefi
nall
ysleptwhuhhhsheseemsl ike
shewill
betrouble,Iwalkeddownstairsandt he
boyswereupandr unning
Banzi
:"Baba!
"
Me:"Zul
uomkhulu!
"Helaughed,t
heyl
i
kei
t
whenwecal
lthem Zul
uomkhulu
Zee:
"Si
l
ambi
l
euphi
uMamana"
Me:
"she'
sasl
eepdon'
twakeherup"
Banzi
:"amagundwanewona?
"Il
aughed
Me:
"myl
i
ttl
ebabi
esar
enotr
ats"
Zama:"butmom usedt
ocal
lthem r
atsandwe
wil
lcal
lthem r
atst
oo"
Me:
"comel
et'
smakesomet
hingt
oeat"
.
Wealll
eftforthekitchenwherewest artedto
makebreakfastinthemi ddl
eofi
t, t
hemoni tor
wentonseemsl iketwobabiesareup, Itol
dt he
ki
dsthatIwill
bebackandwentt ocheckont he
quads,t
heboy swer eupdemandi ngfort hei
r
mil
kasIwasst i
l
l batt
li
ngonwhot ost artwit
h
Mazungugotin
Me:"thankgod!Cany
ouhel
pmewi
thonebaby
"shesmiled
M'Zungu:"youcancar
ryonwi
thy
ourbr
eakf
ast
Iwil
ltakecareoft
hem "
Me:"y
oudon'
tknowhowmuchgr
atef
uli
am t
o
hav
eyou"
M'Zungu:"don'
tworrynkosana"Ileftherand
carr
iedonmakingbr eakfastf
orever
yonewhi l
e
wewer eeati
ngIreceivedacallf
rom Xavier,
I
gotoutandansweredi t
.
Me:
"sur
e!"
Xavi
er:"t
here'
sanemer
gencyi
nthewar
ehouse
,you'
reneeded"
Me:
"ei
shIcan'
tmakei
tther
e"
Xavier:
"Iknowitfart
hatwhyKi
nghav
eal
ready
sentaheli
coptert
ocomet akey
ou"
Me: "Ican'tl
eavemywifeal
one,shehasj
ust
giv
enbi rt
h, t
here'
ssomethi
ngshecan'
tdoand
Ineedt ohelpher"
Xav
ier:
"Iwi
l
ltr
ytomanagewi
thaf
ewboy
s"
Me:
"Thanksbr
oIowey
ou"hel
aughed
Xav
ier:
"hel
lyeah!
!Weal
lgoti
mpor
tantl
adi
es"
Me:
"Iknow"
Xavi
er:
"howarethequads?Igot
tagi
vei
tto
youman"welaughed
Me:
"I'
m hangi
ngout,
youar
edi
stur
bingme"
Xav
ier:
"you'
l
lar
eal
readyf
ucki
nggeezman!
"
Me:"I
'
llki
l
ly ouseemsl
i
key
ouf
orgett
hatI
'
m
ol
dert
hany ou"
Xav
ier:
"I'
m sor
rybi
gbr
o"
Me:
"fucky
ou!
"Ihungupandwentbacki
nsi
de
.
Me:"y
ou'r
eawake"Iaskedherasshewal
ked
downthest
air
s,i
t'
swast heaft
ernoon
Her:
"YesIneedsomef
oodI
'
m hungr
y"I
l
aughed
Me:
"ther
e'sf
oodi
nthemi
crowav
e"
Her:
"ai
n'ty
out
hebesthubbyi
nthewor
ld"I
l
aughed
Me:
"si
ncewhen?
"Shel
aughed
Her:
"si
ncey
ou'
vebeengoodt
ome"we
l
aughed
Me:"SoI'
vebeent
alki
ngt
oDadandI'
m
t
hinki
ngofushavi
ngawhit
eweddi
ng"
Her:"wel
lyouhav
etowaitf
orabout4mont
hsI
needtogetbacki
nshapefi
rst"
Me:"butIt
hinky
ou'
rebeaut
if
ull
i
ket
his"she
l
aughed
Her:
"buti
hav
en'
tl
ostanybabyf
ats"
Me:
"butIl
i
key
out
hist
hick"
Her:
"Idon'
tl
ikemysel
f"shewentt
otakeher
f
oodandcamebacktositnextt
ome
Me:"hav
eyouevert
houghtofushav
inga
whi
teweddi
ng"
Her:
"No!Wewillhav
ethistopi
cinthenextf
our
months.
.Thequadsaresleepi
ngpeacef
ull
y"
Me:"theydi
dwakeupi
nthemorni
ngbut
Mazunguhelpedmewi
tht
hem "
Her:
"shepr
obabl
ydi
dev
ery
thi
ngbyher
sel
f"
Me:
"wel
l"shel
aughed
Her:
"Iknewi
t"
Me: "Idon'
tknowany
thi
ngaboutbabi
es
especial
lyf
ouroft
hem "
Her:
"okay,
howwasy
ourday"
Me:"i
t'
swasgood,
Ispental
lmydaywi
tht
he
t
hreer
ascal
s"
Her:"si
nceever
ythi
ngisfi
neandall,
Ithi
nki
t
t
imef oryout
otellmethereal
reasonwhyyou
l
eftandwenttoIt
aly"Isi
gh
Me:
"Idowantt
otel
lyoubutIdon'
tthi
nkt
hisi
s
t
her
ightt
ime"
Her:"sowheni
sther
ightt
ime"sher
aisedher
voi
ce
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
ofi
ghtwi
thy
ou"
Her:
"I'
m aski
ngpol
i
tel
y"
Me:"andI'
m answeri
ngyouinagoodmanner,
Iwi
llt
ell
youwhent heri
ghtt
imearr
ives"she
st
oodupandl ef
t
Me:
"wher
ear
eyougoi
ngnow?
"
Her:
"Ineedtocheckuponmybabies"she
di
sappear
edupstai
rsassoonshel
eftIgeta
messagefr
om anunknownnumber
"Ihopey ougotenoughsecur it
yplusIl
ov e
tortur
inginnocentsoul ,ain'ttheylookcuteI'm
meanal lfourofthem "aftert hatt
hewasan
attachmenti tswasapi ctureofmyquads
sleepingint hei
rroom ,Ilookedar ound, shit
!!
Theybuggedmyhouseandhow? ?Whot hehel l
helpedt hem? ?Iguessther e'ssomeunf aithf
ul
empl oyeesher e
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t47
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
AssoonasIseet hi
smessage, Igotupqui
ckl
y
andwenttocheckthequads, theywerewit
h
mywi f
e,Isi
ghhowcanIt el
lherthatsomeone
buggedourhouse,Ilookedathershewas
pi
ssed
Me:
"baby"
Her:
"NoZwel
ino!
"
Me:"I'
m sor
rybabeI
'
m sor
ryIdi
dn'
tmeant
o
upsety
ou"
Her:
"canwenotf
ighther
enoti
nfr
ontofmy
babi
es"
Me:"okayi
tfi
ne"Il
ookedar
oundtryi
ngtofi
nd
t
hatbugtheypl
ant
edbutdol
oloIcoul
dn'
tfi
ndit
Her:
"whatar
elooki
ngf
or"
Me:
"ther
e'ssomet
hingI
'
mlooki
ngf
or"
Her:
"andI
'
m aski
ngy
ou,
whatar
eyoul
ooki
ng
f
or"
Me:
"Ican'
ttel
lyou"
Her:
"Zwelij
ustgetoutofher
ebef
oreIdo
somethi
ngIwil
lregr
et"
Me: "okayIwil
ll
eave"Iwalkedclosetoherbut
shemov edback,Isighandlef
theadingtothe
basement, It
hencal
ledCaleb,he'sourI
Tguy
.
Me:"Someonebuggedmyhouse,
Ineedy
out
o
deact
ivat
ethosebugs"
Cal
eb:
"okayIwi
l
lber
ightoni
t"
Me:
"okayt
hanks"
Cal
eb:
"ist
her
eany
thi
ng?
"
Me: "Iwantyoutot
racet helastnumberthat
sentmeamessageandal sogettheguys
together,
Iwill
bemeetingt hem todayl
ater,
I
needt odi
scusssomethingwi t
hthem "
Caleb:
"doyouhav eanyi
deawhomi
ghthav
e
buggedyourhouse?"
Me: "notr
eal
l
ybutt
her
e'ssomeoneI
'
m
suspecti
ng"
Cal
eb:
"It
hinki
tJason"
Me:
"it
hinksot
oo"
Cal
eb:
"okayIwi
l
lgetbackt
oyousoon"
Me:
"sur
e"
.
Ihungupandwentupst air
s,Ipassedmywi fe
i
nt hel
ounge, seat
edwithamoni t
orbutI
conti
nuedtotakeashowerIneedt oprepar
e
myselffort
hisupcomingwar, Idon'
twantmy
famil
ytogethur
tsomehow,
soIgot
taputa
plannow.
.
Me:
"whenar
ether
ascal
scomi
ngback?
"
Her:
"**
*si
l
ence*
**"
Me:"l
ookbabyI
'
m goingoutanddon'
twai
tup,
t
hewill
befewguyscomingovert
owatchover
you"
Her:
"Idon'
tneedt
hem her
einmyhouse"
Me:
"itf
ory
oursaf
ety"
Her:
"whatsaf
ety?"
Me:"al
lIcansayisthatther
e'sanupcomi
ng
war,soIneedtokeepy ouguyssafe"
Her:
"whatwar
?"
Me:
"Ij
ustcan'
tex
plai
n"
Her:
"andwherear
eyougoing?Andwhyar
e
youwear
ingbl
ackcl
othes,
Zweliar
esomesor
t
ofagangst
ernow?
"Il
aughed
Me:
"megangst
er,
no!"
Her:"bef
orey oulef
tforI
tal
y,Inot
iceabl
ood
st
ainony ourclot
hes"
Me:
"ar
eyousur
eitwasmi
ne?
"
Her:
"IknowI
'
m notcr
azy"
Me:"I
'l
lexplai
never
ythi
ngwhenI'
m backand
pl
easedon'tgi
veanyofthoseguy
stroubl
e"
Her:
"justgoandgetmyki
dsbackbef
orey
ou
go"
Me:
"canIki
ssy
ounow?
"
Her:
"No"
Me:
"okayIwi
l
lbebackwi
tht
heki
ds"
.
Il
eftherheadi
ngtothepal
ace,IknowI'
m
goi
ngt obelat
ebutIneedtomakesuremy
ki
dsaresaf e,ar
ri
vi
ngatthepal
aceIgotthe
kidsandl eft,t
heyallwerehappywhenIt old
them thatthequadswer en'
tasleep,theylove
playi
ngwi ththem eventhosetheyarestil
lnew
born,Anel elookedatmewi ththosedagger
eyesbutIneedt ohaveaplan, Il
eftheadi
ngto
thewar ehouseinDur ban
.
Me:"IsuspectJason,soweneedt
ost
ri
ke
whentheyleastexpect
edi
t"
Xavier:
"Thatreallyagoodideabutdon'
tyou
thi
nkhe'sexpectingus,Imeanhejustmade
youawar ewit
ht hismessage"
Me: "t
hatf
uckedup!,t
hismeanshehas
accesstomykids"Iwalkedar
oundpaci
ng,
I
knowhe'sexpect
ingus
Caleb:"Ihavedeacti
vat
edthebugandthere'
sa
footageIwanttoshowy ou"wefol
lowedhimt o
hiscomput er,
itcl
earl
yshowsaguyplanti
ng
thebugsoMaZungui snotapr
imesuspect,all
Iwantt
oknowi
showdi
dtheygeti
nsi
demy
house?
Me:
"Whendi
dthi
shappen?
"
Caleb:"Wheny
ourwi
fespentt
heweeki
n
hospit
al"
Me:
"Fuck!
"
Xav
ier:
"myadv
icei
sjustwai
tandt
rackhi
s
move"
Me:
"weneedt
owr
apt
hisupi
naweekort
wo"
Cal
eb:
"sadl
yitwi
llnot,
he'sadanger
ousguy"
aswewerebusyt
alki
ngIrecei
vedacal
l
.
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Cal
l
er:
"Ihear
dtheycal
lyouKi
l
lernow"
Me:
"ohi
tyou"
Jason:"yes!Ij
ustwant
edtotel
lyouthatthose
l
it
tleextr
aguardsarenothi
ngIcantakethem
offi
nonesecond"Iwhi
sper
edt
oCal
ebt
otr
ack
thi
scal
l
Me:"ohreall
y,i
tfunnyhowyousayy
oudo
t
hingsyetIdoneseeanyact
ion"
Jason:
"thi
sisonl
ythebeggi
ng"
Me:
"Iseey
ou'
vepl
ant
edbugsi
nmyhouset
oo
"
Jason:
"notbady
ourI
Tguyi
ski
ndasmar
t"
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Jason:
"sweetr
evenge,
thatal
landt
akewhat
bel
ongstome"
Me:
"andwhati
sitt
hatbel
ongst
oyou?
"
Jason:
"Anel
e,shewasmeantt
obemi
ne"I
l
aughed
Me:"areyousuret
hatyou'
rement
all
yst
abl
e?I
t
hinkyourdadneedtosubmity
outoament
al
i
nsti
tut
ion"theguy
slaughed
Jason:
"I'
m comi
ngformyr
evenge"hehung
up,Icl
i
ckedmytongue
.
Me:
"and?
"
Cal
eb:
"he'
sher
einDur
ban"
Me:
"sohesenthi
sgoons"
Xav
ier:
"pr
obabl
y"
Me:"Ineedt
oheadbackhome,
thanksf
or
meeti
ngupwithme"
Cal
eb:
"it
sapl
easur
e"
Xavi
er:
"il
eftmywomanal
onei
nmy
apar
tment
"
Me:"I'
m ev
enscaredofgoi
ngback,
wehada
f
ight"t
heylaughed
Me:
"youguy
sar
est
upi
d"
Cal
eb:"j
ustgoandfixthi
ngswit
hy ourwif
e"I
nod,wesaidourgoodbyes,
Il
eftheadingback
home
.
Me:"haveyouthoughtofwhattypeofweddi
ng
youwant"wewer enowlayingonourbackin
ourbed,watchi
ngtheceil
i
ng
Anel
e:"Gar
denweddi
ng"
Me:
"andt
hewhol
enat
ionwi
l
lbet
her
e"I
smi
l
ed
Anel
e:"Idon'
tcar
e,butIl
ovet
hegar
den
weddi
ngorabeachwedding"
Me:"weneedtohaveonesoon,maybei
nthr
ee
comingweeks"shewi
denedhereyes
Anel
e:"ar
eyousure,y
ou'r
eokay?Who
pr
eparesaweddi
ngforthr
eeweeks?
"
Me: "y
ou'
ll
hir
eaweddi
ngpl
annert
oeaseup
yourwork"
Anel
e:"whatt
her
ush??Youhav
en'
tev
en
pr
oposedme"welaughed
Me:
"thatal
ongpr
ocessl
etj
ustgetmar
ri
ed"
Anel
e:"okayIwi
l
ltal
ktomymom "
Me:
"thanky
oubabe"
Anel
e:"so"
Me:"Ineedt
otel
lyousomet
hingbutpl
ease
don'
tpani
c"
Anele:"Ihopei
tnotanot
herwomanorel
seI
'
m
done!"
Me:
"no,
itsomet
hing"
Anel
e:"spi
l
lthebeanal
ready"
Me:"I'
vej
oinedyourdadsgroup,
I'
vebecomea
gangst
er"shesatupstrai
ght
Me:"ther
easonwhyIl
eftf
orI
tal
ywast
ogof
or
at
raini
ng"*Sl
ap!
*
Anel
e:"t
hat'
sbul
lshi
tyou'
ret
ell
i
ngme!
!,y
ou
can'
tbeser
ious"
Me:
"Iwasdoi
ngt
hisf
ory
ouandmyki
ds"
Anele:
"howdoest
hisgottodowit
hme? "She
tr
iedsl
appi
ngmeagainbutIhel
dherhand
Me:"I'
mt i
redofyoualwayscal
li
ngyourdadfor
hel
p,Iwanttoprotectyouasyourhusband,I
havebeensoftbutnowI '
mfi
tenoughtotake
car
eofy ou"
Anel
e:"youknowhowhardi
tisbei
ngrai
sedby
agangst
er?Idon'
twantmyki
dstohav
et hat
l
if
etoo"
Me:
"theywi
l
lli
veasaf
etyl
i
fe"
Anel
e:"saf
etyl
if
e??Howwil
ltheygotopubl
i
c
pl
aceswhil
etheyar
ethet
arget??How??"
Me:
"wewi
l
lwor
kitout
"
Anel
e:"sowhatdoy
oubasi
cal
l
ydo?
"
Me:
"It
hinkIhav
esai
dal
ot,
letj
ustsl
eep"
Anel
e:"Don'
ttestme,
Zwel
i"
Me:"Babepl
easeIneedt
osleep,
socanwe
sl
eepwewill
conti
nuewit
hthi
sconver
sat
ion
t
omorr
ow"shecli
ckedhertongueandsl
ept
f
aci
nganot
herdi
rect
ionIhadherback
Me:
"Goodni
ght"
Anel
e:"*
**sil
ence***"If
igur
edshemustbe
angr
y,soIlefther
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Iwasov erwhelmedbywhatZwelisai
d,Iwasn't
angryorwhat, j
usthadadif
fer
entemotion
towardsthis,howcanhechoosegangsterism
? ?Outofallt
hings,It
houghtmaybemar ryi
ng
him wasmehav i
ngtonotal
waysbeat arget
t
owardsmydad'senemi es, It
hinki
sgottodo
wi
thdad!Ital
lhi
sf aul
t,Zweliwouldnev
erwant
t
ojoi
nthisdangerousthing
.
Iwaswokenupbyt hemonitor,Igotofft
he
bedandwentt ocleanmysaf ebeforegoi
ngto
seemybabi es,whenIgottot hei
rnurser
y,
Banzi,Zet
hembeandNkaz i
wer ethere,Iknew
theyhavewakenupt hequads
.
Me:"Zonakal
i
!"Theyt
urnedbackandl
ookat
me
Banzi
:"Bav
uki
l
eMamana!
"
Me:
"Ni
bav
usel
eni
?"
Nkazi:"Si
funaukudlal
anabo"Isigh,
why!God
why!?Onlyiftheyknewhowmuchofwor kar
e
t
hequads, andwakingthem nowmeans
t
here'snoaf t
ernoonsl
eep,Iwenttocheckwho
wascr
yingandi
twasNkany
iso
.
Me:"whyismybabycr
ying?
"Theyal
lpoi
nted
atBanzi
Me:
"Wenzeni
Banzi
?"
Banzi
:"Lut
ho"
Nkazi
:"Namanga!
!Umuv
aleamaKhal
a"Icl
osed
myeyes
Me:
"Banzi
,whydi
dyoudot
hat
?"
Banzi
:"Sor
ry!
"
Me:
"getout
!!Al
lofy
ou"
Zee:
"Mamana!
"
Me:"Phumani!
"Theylef
tlooki
ngallsadbutI
don'
tcar
e,ital
lbecauseofthi
sratcall
edBanzi
,
mybabyalmostdie
.
Iwasseat
edi
nthel
onguewi
tht
hesegr
umpy
kids,t
heyar
egrumpybecauseIshoutedat
them t
hismorni
ng,andIdon'
tcar
e,thedoor
opensandZweligoti
n
.
Zwel
i:
"Hey"heki
ssedmef
orehead,
Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"hey,
howwasy
ourday"
Zwel
i:
"Nor
mal
,Ibr
oughty
ousomet
hing"
Me:
"okay",
het
ookoutsomet
hingonhi
sbag
Zwel i:
"yousai dyouwantedt olosebabyfat
?,
someoner ecommendedt his, t
heysaidi
tfast
andi twil
lkil
lallt
hebabyf atevenhavethe
perfectwaistsomet hi
nglikethat"hegavemea
productwr it
ten"Herbal
if
e"heknowsI '
m not
goodwi thdietandt hegymt ooisalongperi
odI
hopet hi
swor ks,Il
aughed
Me:
"youwantt
hisweddi
ngsobadneh?
"
Zwel
i:
"YesandDadneedst
ost
epdownt
oo"
Me:
"okaywewi
l
lgetmar
ri
edi
ntwomont
hs
nott
hreeweeks"
Zwel
i:
"butbabe"
Me:
"No!I
tsnotr
eal
l
yupt
oyou"
Zwel
i:
"Fi
ne.
.Whyar
etheygr
umpy?
"
Me:"becauseIshout
edatthem t
hismor
ning
whi
l
ey ouweredeadsleepi
ng"
Zweli:
"andwhydi
dyoudothat
?Comehere
boys"theyst
oodupsul
ki
ng,Ij
ustr
oll
edmy
eyes
Me:"Banziwasblocki
ngNkanyiso'
snose,my
babycoul
dn'tbr
eathbecauseofthi
sratt
hat
whyhewascr yi
ng"helaughed
Zweli
:"Banziboy
!Comeletv
isi
tthemancav
e"
theyl
eftheadi
ngtohi
sst
udy
Me:
"Nonkazi
mul
o"shel
ookatme
Me:"comeher
ebaby"shest
oodupwi
tht
ear
s,
dr
amaqueen
Me:"I
'
m sor
rybaby"shewail
ed , Ikept
br
ushi
ngherbackunt
ilshef
ell
asl
eep
.
.
.
Not
e:"Thenextchapt
ersIwi
llbefast
f
orwar
dingalot,don'
tbesur
prisedtuh
"
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t48
.
.
Thr
eemont
hlat
er
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
Todaywasabr i
dal shower, Ihadal lt
hegi r
ls,
Yoli
swaandhersquadandobv iousTeewi l
lbe
heret oo,
Iwasbey ondt hewor dexci t
edIwas
happywi thever
ythi
ng.Mom t ookal lthekids
j
ustbecauseshewant edmet oenj oythis,all
mysi bli
ngshavecamet osuppor tmei nthi
s
day, Iknowthatatf i
rsttheywer eagainstthis
wholear r
angedmar r
iagebutnowi t sbychoice,
Il
ov emyhusbandsomuch
.
Tee:
"St
andupIwantt
oseet
hatout
fi
tand
maket
hat360t
urn"Igi
ggl
edandt
urnedf
or
hi
m
Tee:
"what
everyouwereeat
ingIneedt
oeati
t
too.
.Damnthatass"
Me:"youknowt
hatmymangoti
tforme"we
gi
ggl
ed
Tee:
"let
'sgoIbett
hosest
ri
pper
sar
ewai
ti
ng"
Me:
"butZwel
isai
dnost
ri
pper
s!"
Tee:"ityourl
astdayasasingl
ewoman, so
bi
tch!!Youbett
erfuckenenj
oyit
!!I
tsal
lmy
workweshoul dembr acemyworkandall
my
eff
ort"
Me: "okaylet'
sgo"wewal kedoutoft
hehotel
room headingtoanotherr
oom wherethepar
ty
will
takeplace, j
udgi
ngbythesoundit
shas
alr
eadystarted
Tee:"TheQueenhasarri
ved!
"hescreamed,I
snuggl
edhim, he'
sbr
ingallt
heat
tentiont
ous
Tee:
"letgety
oui
nthezone"
Me:
"Yes!
"
West art
edbyhav i
ngshot s, t
het hemewas
blackandwhi t
e, soIwasi nawhi tehi ghwai st
j
eanandabl ackof fshoul dercropt opwear i
ng
ahi ghli
ghtpinkt iarathathadf l
ur r
yf eat her
s,
west ar
tedpar ti
nghar d!Ar oundMi dni ghtthe
stri
pper scamet hatwhatIwast old, theyhad
bli
ndf ol
dedmesoIcoul dn'tseeany t hing,but
j
udgi ngbyt hesi l
encef rom otherpeopl eIhad
tot akeoffthebl indfoldtomysur priseZwel i
washer e,IlaughedI '
m surehecameassoon
ashehear dt hatthewi ll
best ri
pper s, hewal ked
straighttome.
.
Zwel
i:
"soy
ouwer
eexpect
ingst
ri
pper
s?"
Me:
"Your
uini
ngourpar
tydoy
ouknowt
hat"
Zwel
i:"Idon'
tcar
ebutIdon'
twantmal
e
st
ri
ppershere"
Me:"
Finecany
ougonow,peopl
eai
n'
t
comf
ortabl
ewi
thy
oubei
nghere"
Zwel
i:"Iwi
l
lleav
esomeonetolookaft
eryou,
I
knowyouli
ketodisobeymesoleav
ing
someonewhowi l
lbemyeyesandears"
Me:
"her
eyougobei
ngacont
rol
freak"
Zweli:"walkmeout"af t
erthatheleft,
Ist
ood
upandf ol
lowedhi m,TeelookedatmeandI
si
gnalledhimt hatI
'
m comingback, henods
bef
or eIwalkedoutofthatroom ,assoonasI
walkedout, Zwelil
edmet otheroom where
TeeandIwer e,wegotinsi
deandIwonder
whatar ewedoi ngher
e
.
Me:
"andwhyam Iher
e?"
Zweli:
"Ialsoneedsomel oving,y
ou'r
ehereto
sati
sfyyourman"IlaughedIknowi tbeenf
or
l
ikefourmonthssincewel astdi
dthedeeds
Me:
"Idon'
tthi
nkIcanbeabl
etodot
hat"
Zwel
i:
"whynot
?"
Me:"Ican'
tl
eav
emypar
tyandcomeat
tend
you"
Zwel
i:
"sot
hepar
tyi
smor
eimpor
tantt
hanme
"
Me:
"Fornowy
es"Igi
ggl
ed
Zwel
i:
"Youcan'
tbeser
ious,
Ndabeneeds
somelov
ing"
Me:"ai
n'
tyousupposet
obecel
ebr
ati
ony
our
l
astdayasasi
ngleguy"
Zwel
i:"howcanwhenI
'
m hor
nyl
i
ket
his?"I
l
aughed
Me:"I'
m sor
rybutIthi
nkyouhav
etohelpyour
sel
fcauseIwon'tbehel
pingy
outoni
ght"
Zweli
:"Iwi
l
lnev
ermast
urbat
ewhi
l
eIhav
ea
wif
e"
Me:
"I'
m noty
ety
ourwi
fe"
Zwel
i:
"you'
remywi
fet
radi
ti
onal
l
y"
Me: "I
'
m goingnow, justgobewithyourfr
iend
anddosomet hingf
unandnost r
ipper
s!"I
walkedoutofthatr
oom , hefol
l
owedmehe
grabmebymyar m careful
l
ynothurti
ngme
andpressedmeont hewall
Zwel
i:"y
out
hinki
wil
ll
ety
ougoeasi
l
y?"I
smil
ed
Me:
"Iknowso"hehadahugegr
inonhi
sface
Zweli:
"Ili
kehowyouchal
l
engeme,
Ifi
ndt
hat
at
tract
ive"hebi
tshi
sli
ps
Me: "wel
lidon'
tl
ikey
oucontrol
l
ingme"he
pressedhi
sbodyagainstmi
neIcanfeel
his
hardd**k
Zweli
:"i
tsbeenaful
ltwoweekswithoutseei
ng
you,l
etmebe"hesai dsmashi
nghisl i
pson
mine,Imissedhi
mitsbeenalongstressf
ul
twoweekswi thouthim, t
hathowcultureiti
s,
thehusbandi snotal l
owedtoseehiswi fefora
weekbef oretheirwedding,theki
sswasf ul
lof
l
ust, passion,Ifel
tmykneesget t
ingweak, I
couldn'tholdi
tasIr el
easedadeepmoandown
myt hroatonlyhecandot hi
stome, hisbroad
armswehel pi
ngmet oregainmybalanceor
elseIwoul dhavecol l
apsed,hepull
edout
.
Zwel
i:
"Icanwaitf
ortomor
row"I
'
m al
so
l
ooki
ngforwar
dtoit
Me:"can'
twaitt
oo"weki
ssedf
ort
hel
astt
ime
bef
oreheletme
Zweli:
"remembernostri
pper
sorelseI'
m kil
l
ing
thoseguys"Il
aughedandgotinsi
detheroom
wherethepart
ytookpl
ace.
Tee:
"It
houghty
ouwer
enev
ercomi
ngback"
Me:"Itol
dyouthathesai
dnost
ri
ppersbutyou
wentaheadandhir
edthem ,
hewasangrybut
he'
scoolnow, heev
enl
eftsomeonet
oguar
d
us"helaughed
Tee:"wewi
llseducehi
m andmakehi
m dr
unk
oncehe'
sout,we'r
ecal
li
ngthest
ri
pper
s"
Me: "I
'm sodead"wel aughedandwentt ojoin
theot hers, wechangedt oourl i
ngeriesand
damnwel ookedhot !Ididtooksomepi ct
ures
andsendt hem toZwel i,her epli
edwi themojis
" "Il aughedandswi t
chof fmyphone
befor ehecal ls,Teemanagedt oconv i
nceother
girl
st oseducet hebody guardanddamn!He
wasaeasyt ar
get, hestart
eddr i
nkingwedi d
spikehi sdr i
nkassoonashewasout, Iwent
backt omychai randi tstartedallov eragain,
byt hescr eamsIknewt hest ri
pperswer ehere,
Ifeltmyhandsbei nghandcuf f
ed, t
hi sisfun.
.
Thest
ri
pper
shaveleftIwasabi
tti
psyandi
t
wascl
oseto3am andmyweddingstar
tsat
9am wegotl
i
kesi
xhour
s
Yol
i:
"weneedtosl
eeporel
sewewill
be
wal
kingdownt
heai
slel
ooki
ngl
ikezombi
es"
Me:"you'
vegotapoi ntther
e"west oopupand
wenttoourseparat
edr ooms,Iwassharingt
he
bedwithTee,IhopeZwel iwon'
tfi
ndoutorelse
I
'm adeadwoman
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
AfterIhavemanagedtocalm down,
Iwentto
thewar ehousewher
eevery
onewasXavier,
Mthunzi ,Cal
vin,
Zanda,Cal
ebandTonyIknew
Caleb,Xav
ierwasst
il
lyoungbutI
'
m moni
tor
ing
them .
Zanda:
"Ihopey
ou'
ref
inenow"
Me:"t
heyhi
redstri
ppersi
magi
nemywife
scr
eamingf
orthosefucki
nmen"t
heyl
aughed
Xavier:
"Kil
lery
ouneedt oletherbe"Ihavetol
d
allmyfri
endsaboutjoi
ningthegang, atf
ir
st
theywereangrywithmebutassoonasI
reasonedthem ,t
heyunderstoodaft
eralotof
arguments
Me:"Idon'
twantany
onecl
osert
omywi
fe
she'
sminealone"
Cal
eb:
"howaboutwehi
rest
ri
pper
stoo"
Guy
s:"Yeah!
"Exceptf
orMt
hunzi
Me:"Ipromi
sedmywi
fet
hatwewon'
thav
e
st
ri
ppers"
Mthunzi
:"Yol
iwoul
dki
l
lme,
thatgi
rli
scr
azy"I
l
aughed
Cal
:"whowi
l
ltel
lthem?"
Xav
ier:
"notme"
Zanda:
"met
oo"Il
aughed
Me:
"okaybutby3am t
heyshoul
dleav
e"
Cal
eb:
"won'
tyoubef
ucki
nany
?"
Me:"andri
skl
osingmywife,hellno!"Cal
eb
wastheonewhomadethecal landtosayt he
t
rut
hIwasexcit
ed, I
'
mlookingf orwardtothi
s..
.
Xav
ier:
"theyar
eher
e"Il
aughed
Me:
"Iact
ual
l
ycan'
tbel
i
evet
his"
Mthunzi :
"I'
m sodead! "Hesaidasoneoft he
gir
lswentstraighttohim, thegir
lswere
basical
l
ynakedal lt
hislacetheyhad,didn'
t
coveranythi
ng, ever
ythingwasbar e,twoofthe
str
ipperscamet omeappar entl
ybecauseIwas
theoneget t
ingmar ri
edt odayactual
l
y
.
Str
ipper1:
"weshouldtaket
hist
oanotherl
evel
"IwashornyasfuckbutIhadasobermindifI
weretofuckt
hem Ineedtohavealotof
condoms
Me:"seconddoorony ourr
ight,Iwantt
ofi
nd
bot
hofy ouready"theygi
ggledbefor
ecat
wal
kingtothebedroom
Mt hunzi:"justknowt hatby9am weshoul dbe
atthatgar denorwemi ghtaswel lseat
preparingf orourf uneral
s"Il aughedandl eft
them ,get ti
nginsidet heroom Isawt hemost
sexiestthingev er, I
'm notreal
lyafanofa
threesomebutt hisisev erymen'sdr eam ,t
he
gir
lswer ebusypl ayingwitheachot herIsat
downont hechairandwat chedast heyplayed
witheachot herthemor eIpayat t
entiontoitt
he
mor eIgetsot urnedon
Me: "It
hinkIhav
ehadenough"Itookofmy
clot
hesandIwasl ef
tnaked,Ior
deredoneof
thestri
pperst
osuckmyor gananddamn!Thi
s
bitchi sgood!Iwasbusypl ayingwi tht heot her
onesbr eastsucki ngherni pplet hemor e
pleasur eIr ecei v ethemor eIbi tharderher
nippl eandshewoul dmoansof ty, whenIwas
fi
nal lysat i
sf i
ed, theyswappedpl acesandIl ai
d
thesecondst ripperont hebedandst ar t
ed
fucki nghersensel essl y,whi l
eshewasbusy
muf fi
ngt heot herst r
ippert hatshi tdrov eme
throught hehi llsIponder i
ngherhar dand
i
nt ense, Icoul df eel bot hladiesmoani ng
enj oyingt heirsel fIt oowasenj oyingt his,we
swappedposi tionasIwast heonel ayingonmy
back, thesecondst r
ipperst artedr i
dingmenot
forget tingt hecondom Idon' twantanybabi es
from st ranger s, asshewasbusyIt ookadi l
do
ont hedr awerandcal ledt hef i
rststrippert o
comeandsi tonmyf aceImuf fedherunt i
lshe
coul dn'thol dheror gasi m andasshewasbusy
releasi nganor gasi m It ur
nont hev ibrating
dildoandf uckedhert hroughhercum , she
moaned, theot heronemoanedt oo, Iwasal so
gr
oani
ngt
hisi
sgr
eat.
.
"Hey!Beaut
if
ul ×3angel
"Iknewthatthi
swas
thesoundofmyr i
ngi
ngphone"Bazzi
-
Beauti
ful
"Iquickl
ystoopupandcheckedthe
ti
mei t
swascl oseto7h:
30andweneedt obein
thevenueby8am Iwoket hesest
ri
ppersup
Stri
pper2:"Ihadagr eatnight,call
me
whenev eryouneedme, I'
m alwaysavai
labl
e"
shebitesherlipsbeforeleavingherbusi
ness
card,Ishookmyhead, Idon'twantnohookup,
Irushedtot heother
sandt heywerebusy
yawning, myphoner angagai nanditwasDad
.
Me:
"Mageba"
Dad:
"Ihopey
ou'
reony
ourwayher
enow"
Me:
"we'
rest
il
lget
ti
ngdr
essed"
Dad:
"beher
eby8shar
p!"
Me:
"wewi
l
lbet
her
e"hehungup
Mt
hunzi
:"Ihav
ethemot
heri
ftheheadaches"
Me:"don'
tment
ioni
t,If
eel
li
keI
'
m goi
ngt
o
vomi
t"
Cal
:"weneedt
ost
artget
ti
ngr
eady"
Us:"yeah"Iwenttotakeacoldshowermaybe
towashov ert
hishangover,
afterIwasdone
ever
yonewasget t
ingready,t
het hemewas
maroon,
Caleb:
"heret hi
swil
lhel
py ouwi
thyour
hangover"Itookaglassofraweggand
downeditasbadt ast
ingi
tisbutIdoneedi
t,I
tookanotherone
Tony:
"whathappenedbet
weeny
ouandt
he
st
ri
pper
s"
Me:
"wehadat
hreesome"Il
aughed
Cal
eb:
"Ibety
ouenj
oyedi
t"
Me:
"it
swashel
l
ahot
!Int
hatr
oom "we
l
aughed
Cal:
"youcanst
il
ltur
nbackandl
i
veabachel
or
l
if
eli
keus"
Me:"IknowwhatIwantandwhathappened
her
eshouldnev
erleav
ethisr
oom "
Mthunzi:
"itshoul
dnotescapethesewal
lsby
anymeanssomeofusar eengagedtol
unati
cs"
welaughed
Mt
hunzi
:"y
out
hinkI
'
mjoki
ngbutI
'
m not"
Zanda:
"she'
snott
hatbad"
Mt
hunzi
:"y
oudon'
tknowher".
.
By8wewer edrivingtothev enue,al
ltheguys
werewear i
ngmar oonsuit
swhi leIwaswearing
ablacksuit,Il
ookedgoodi fIsaysomysel f..
Wear ri
vedinthev enueandt hewholenati
on
washer e,Iwalkedwi t
hmygr oomsmenbusy
gr
eetingpeople, Iwasnervousashel l
.
.
.
Ther
e'sacont
inuat
ion
.
.
.
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n
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nser
t48
Cont
inuat
ion
Theweddi
ng
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Istoodbyt hemi rr
ornotreal
l
yr ecogni
zing
my self,
allthi
smakeupmakesmel ook
dif
ferent,diff
erentinabeauti
fulway, It
urned
l
ookingatt hedoorasi t
'swassl owl
yopening,
Dadgoti nlookinghandsomeasev er
.
Dad:"youlooksobeauti
ful
mybaby, Ican'
t
bel
ieveyouhavegrownuptothisbeaut
iful
,
str
ongwoman, I
'
m proudofyoubabyandIlov
e
yousomuch"
Me: "DadIdon'
twanttorui
nmymakeup"he
handedmeawi per,Isl
owlywi
pedt
hetear
s
thatwerethr
eat
eni
ngt ofal
l
Dad:"Ihavesomet
hingf
oryou"hetookouta
bl
ackmat t
ebox"Iboughtt
hiswhi
leIwasin
Europe"Itooki
tandi
twasabeaut
if
ulgol
d
necklace
Me:"ohmygod!Thi
sisbeaut
if
ult
hanky
oudad
"Ihuggedhi
m,hehel
pedmeputiton
Dad:
"it
smat
cheswi
thy
ourdr
ess"Il
aughed
Me:
"Icansee"
Dad: "finishup, weneedt ogetgoi ng"It ooka
l
ookatmysel fagainbef oret akingDad' shand
andwewal kedout, Iwasst andingbyf ar,Iwas
l
iterall
yshockedwhenIl ookedar oundpeopl e
camei nnumber sIwonderi ft hecat er
ing
companywi l
l cope,onebyonet hebr i
desmai ds
werewal kingdownt heai sl
e, al l
withMar oon
dressest heyal ll
ookedbeaut i
f ulevenTee'sSuit
wasbeaut i
ful hewasmymai dofhonour, aft
er
thebr i
desmai dslef
t, Isawmybabi escomi ng
towar dsmel ookingbeaut i
fulwi thblacksuits,
holdingabasketf ullofrosepedal s
Banzi
:"Mama!
"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"Youl
ookbeaut
if
ulbabi
es"
Nkazi
:"Wow!MamanaIl
ovey
ourdr
ess,
you
l
ookli
keapri
ncess"
Me: "y oualsol ookli
keapr i
ncessbaby" she
hadcor nr
ows, shelookedbeaut if
ul shewas
thef i
rsttowal keddownt heaisl
easshehad
ther i
ngsshewaswear i
ngapur pledr ess, then
thet winswer enextinsteadoft hem t akingout
pedal stheyranal lunti
ltheyreachedt heirfather
, all
peopl ewer elaughingandwhenev eryt
hi ng
wasdone, Dadwal kedmedownt heai sl
e,
ev er
yonewasupont heirfeet,t
her ehewas
l
ooki nghandsomeasev er,wer eachedhi m
Dad:"i
fshegetspregnantagai
nthenmyboy
you'
redead"ever
yonelaughed,hehandedme
t
oZwel iandwewalkedtowardsthepast
or
Zwel
i:"y
oul
ooksobeaut
if
ul"hewhi
sper
ed,
I
bl
ushed
Me:
"youl
ookhandsomet
oo"wesmi
l
edat
eachot
her
s
Past
or:
"youmaysitdown"al
lpeopl
esatdown
andwai
tedfort
hepastor
Past
or:"Befor
ewestartthi
sweddingIsuggest
wepray,let
'scl
oseoureyes"ever
yonedid,
whil
ethepastorwasbusypray
ingZwelikept
st
eali
ngglancesatme,andIwouldblushand
l
ookaway
Pastor:"wearegat heredher etowitnesst he
mar r
iageofPrinceZwel it
hiniZuluandAnel e
Ndlovuast heyti
eaknob, i
fanyofy ouhav ea
reasonwhyt hesetooshal lnotgetmar r
ied
pleaseshowy ourselforforeverholdy ourpeace
"wel ookedaroundnoonehadanobj ection
untilt
wopeopl ecamet ojoinustomysur pr
ise
i
twasNat hanandSi phokazi andtheirbabygi r
l,
Zweli'
slookchangei nstantlywhenhesaw
Nathan, t
heysatdown
Past
or:
"wel
lIguesst
her
e'snooneher
e,we
wil
lcont
inue..
..Youknowt heyal
wayssay
l
adiesfi
rstsoIwill
star
twithyoudoyou
per
hapshav eyourownv ows?"Inod,hegav
e
met hemic
Me: "iwon' tbel ong, Gr owi ngupIhav enev er
thoughtt hatIwoul dst andher eandconf ess
everything,Iwasnev erint omar r
iagebuther eI
am nowi nfrontofal lthenat i
onagr eeingt o
mar r
yt hisman, atf i
r stwewer ear r
anged, it
s
wasal laar rangedmar riage, t
ot ellthetruthI
hatedev er
ythingt hathast odowi thy ou' t
he
crowdl aughed' Ihat edy out othepoi ntwher eI
wouldwi shthatt henextmor ningIwi l
lbet ol
d
thatyoudi ed, wehadourf ightli
keev ery
normal coupl ebutourbat t
lewaswor seaswe
hadot herpeopl ei nter f
eringi n, t
hewasbl ack
magi ctoo( thecr owdgasped) , ont hatmat ter
Ilostmyunbor nbabybutIdi dn'tlosehope' I
wasnowcr yingasIhadt hesef lashbacks' t
hat
causeourf i
rstbr eakup, Iwant ednot hingtodo
wit
hy oubutast i
megoesony oushowedme
l
ove,y ouhelpedmeheal andthankyouforthat
,Iknowsomet i
mesy ou'
retr
oubleandal
l butI
l
oveyouandwi l
lalwaysl
ovey outi
l
ldeat
hdous
apar
t, thankyou"Ihandedthemi ctoZweli
Zweli:
"Ihardl
ycrybutmywi
femademecr
y
today"welaughed
Zweli:
"thr oughi tall Ihavenev ermeta
wonderful soul l
ikey ouasy ousaidatf irstit
wasallarranged, Iunder stoodev ery
thi ngsi nce
I'
mf r
om r oy alt
ytheset hi
ngsusual l
yhappens
buttoyoui twashar dasy oust il
lhavet obe
wildasat eenageranddoal lthestuffthat
peopleyouagedoes, butyouwer efor cedt o
growup, youwer ef orcedtot akecarei fmet o
notfurt
herst udycausenowy ouhadme, Ihav e
neverseenast r
ingwomenl ikeyou, your eal l
y
arethetruemeani ngof" I
mbokodo"y oust ood
withmet hr ought hickandt hin,walkedapat h
ful
lwiththor nswi thme, I'
vedamaged, broke
yourheartcount l
esstimesbuty oustil
lstayed
withmef orthatIwillalway sbegratefulIlove
youmaNdl ovuIhav enev erlovedanywoman
l
ikeIdowi thy ou,Ican'tpromisey ouear t
hbut
whatIknowf orsurethaty ou'
rethequeenof
myhear tyout ur
nedmyhousei ntoawar m
home, Ilovey ouIhavet hesebeaut i
fulrascal
s
becauseofy ou, Il
ovey oubabe"heki ssedme
andIresponded
Past
or:
"Noty
et!
"Wel
aughed"sayt
hisaf
ter
me"
Pastor:
"IAneleNdlovugiv
esyouthisri
ngasa
symbolofmyl ov
eandt hatIwil
lst
aywithyou
thr
oughthickandthinandthr
oughsickness
andhealt
h"Itookther i
ng
Me: "IAneleNdlovugivesy
out husri
ngasa
symbol ofmyl ove,Ipromi
setoloveand
honoury ouasmyhusbandt orespectyou,
thr
ought hickandthinandi
nsicknessonlyif
youwer enotcheatingandinhealt
h"thecrowd
l
aughed
Past
or:
"Zwel
irepeatt
hesamewor
ds"
Zweli:
"IPrinceZwel i
thi
niZulutakeyouasmy
weddedwi fe, Ipromisedtoloveandhonour
you,withthisr i
ngitsasy mbolofmyl ovefor
youandnev erev ertakeitoffnomat t
erwhat, I
promisedtor especty outhr
ought hi
ckandt hi
n,
aswellasinsi cknessandheal t
h"t hebeautif
ul
rubyri
ngonmyl efthandfel
theav yI'
m sur
ei t
costsfor
tunes
Pastor:
"Iknowannouncedy ouasHusband
andWi f
e, t
hemomentwewer eall
waiti
ngf
or,
Pri
ncey oumaykissyourbr
ide"Igiggl
edas
Zweligavemethatdapperl
ook, hehol
dsmy
waistpull
i
ngmecl oser
Zwel
i:
"Il
ovey
ousomuch"
Me:"Ilov
eyoutoo"hesmashedhi sli
pson
mine,peopl
estart
edul
ulat
ing,Icanfeelt
hat
Zweli
wantedtotaket
husfar,Itr
iedpull
i
ngout
butdamn!
Dad:"v
oet
sekthat'
smydaught
er!
"Wepul
l
ed
out,
Iwasblushi
ngashel
l
.
Nowwewer einther ecepti
onIhavechangedto
mymer maiddressi t
shugsmybodyper fect
ly,
wewer eabouttotaket hefir
stdanceas
husbandandwi f
e, theDJst art
edplay
ing"The
DancebyBebeWi nansf tDavecoz"
Zweli
:"canI?"Inodashetookmyhandand
wewentt ot
hedancefloor,
westar
tedsl
owl
y
danci
ngtothemusic
Me:"youlookabi
tti
red,
youdi
dn'
tsl
eep
yest
erday"
Zwel
i:
"theguy
skeptmeup"
Me:
"Ihopey
ouenj
oyedi
t"
Zwel
i:
"Idi
d, hopeyouhaveagreatt
imetoo,
youmust
n'tweresuchcl
otheswit
hyourf
riends
,
Idon'
ttr
ustTee"Il
aughed
Me:
"itwasonl
yfory
est
erday"
Zwel
i:
"itbet
ter"
Me:
"IhopeNat
hanbei
ngher
ewon'
t-
"hecut
s
meof
f
Zwel i:
"Idon' twanttot al
kaboutt his"Inodand
l
aidi nhischest, unexpectedlyIheargunshot sI
wasst il
l aski ngGodf orthisnottohappenI
knowt hatsi nceZwel ihasjoi
nedt hegangI 'm
surehemadeenemi esandal l,Ilookeddown
onmy selfIhadbl oodcomi ngout, Ilookedup
toZwel i, Icanheart hathewast alkingbutI
couldn'tev enhearawor devery
thingwas
happeni ngi nslowmot ion,Iheardpeopl es
screamsandsomebusyr unni
ngawayand
mor egunshot sweref i
red,whenIl ookedatt he
entrancet herehest oodproudlypoi nti
ngthe
gunatusi tswashi mt hatshotme, hefi
redit
againitwasf orZwel i
Ipushedhi m andi t
l
andedonmyot hersi
deofmyst
omacht hat
whenIf
elldowntothefl
oort
heli
ghtwas
get
ti
ngtoobri
ghtsoIshutmyey
esatleastI
'm
i
npeacenow
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Iregretl
eavi
ngmygun, Iknewmywi f
ewould
havebeendisrespect
edi
fIcamewithonebut
nowl ookatthi
s,Iwascryi
ngIcoul
dn'
thol
dmy
tears
Me:
"Ican'
tl
osey
oubabenotnow"
Me:
"wakeup!Somebodycal
ltheambul
ance!
!"
Isai
dasIwasbusyshaki
ngher
Me: "babywakeup, wakeup! "IwasIwas
holdi
ngherwai stIf el
tt hebloodoozi ngout ,I
guesst hebull
etgotof ffr
om theback, Isaw
herfathershoot ingJason, Ihadtookoutmyt ie
andpr esseditont hewoundst ost opthebl ood
,thepar amedict ookherandl ef
t, assoonas
theambul ancel eftIdr aggedJasonouti fthe
hall,Iwill
alsoki ll
thesebl oodystupidguar ds
howcant heylethi mi n?Igav ethem strictrul
es
butst i
l
l
.
Dad:
"St
op!
"
Me:
"heshotmywi
fe!"
Dad:
"lett
hel
awt
akecar
eoft
his"
Me: "Dadplease!
"Theguy scameandhel ped
megetJasoni nsidethebootandlef
theading
tothewarehouse, Iwasbreathi
ngfi
re,how
couldherui
nt hi
sf orus?Iwipedmytears, I
hopemybabi esar esafeIwasspeedingli
ke
hellI
'
m suret hatthepoliceareontheway,
whenwegott heretheytiedhimtothechai
r, i
tol
dtheguy st oroughenuphi m Ineedtogot o
thehospi
talfast !,Idi
dn'tchangeIdri
vestr
aight
tothehospital
.
"Whereisshe!?"Iscr
eamedar oundthe
corr
idor
s, Ipassedther
ecept i
on,Ithi
nkI
'
m
l
osingmymi nd,whenIgott her
eIsawherdad
seatedont hebenches,Isatnextt
ohim
Ki
ng: "Ihopey
ouhav
etakent
hatboyt
othe
warehouse"Inod
Ki
ng:
"thi
swi
l
lpass,
shewi
l
lsur
viv
e"
Me:"Idon'
treal
l
yunderst
andt
his,i
twasall
goodandwewer ehappynowt
hishappens"
Ki
ng:
"shewi
l
lbef
ine"
Me:
"shegot
tabef
ine,
shecan'
tl
eav
eme
alonewi
tht
hebabies,howwi l
lIexplainto
them?HowwillIt
ell
thequadswhent heyare
older
?Whataboutmeandt heothers?"
Ki
ng:
"youhav
etobest
rongf
orher
"
.
Af
teral
ongsi
xhourst
heDoccamet
ous,
I
st
oodupassoonassheappear
s
Me:
"howi
sshe?
"
Doc:"wemanaget ot
akethebull
etout,
she
l
ostalotofbl
oodandinherstat
eshemi ght
needablooddonor"
Ki
ng:"I
'
m herfat
hercany
outakemi
nemay
be
wehavethesamebloodt
ype"
Doc:
"Iwi
l
ldomor
etest"
Me:
"issheoutofdanger
?"
Doc:
"thesur
ger
ywentsuccessf
ul,
she'
sina
comanowhopef
ull
yshewil
lwakeup"
Me:
"atl
eastt
her
e'shope"Isatdown
Doc: "Iwouldalsoli
ketotesty
ourbloodt
oo
may beyouhav ethesamebloodty
pe"we
foll
owedt heDoct oherof
fi
ceshetookour
blood
Me:
"canweseeher?
"
Doc:"nobutcomebacktomorrowbytheI
wouldbedonewithobser
vati
ons"Inodandsat
onthebenchesI'
m wai
ti
ngfortomorr
owIwil
l
nev
erleavehersi
de
.
.
.
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n

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nser
t49
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
It
sbeenaweeksi ncet hisacci denthappened, I
havenev erwenttot hewar ehouse, Idon'twant
tokil
lhimy et,al
l Iwanti smywi fe, sheneeds
towakeup, Iwalkedi nsidet hehospi t
al l
ooki
ng
l
ikeazombi eIhav en'teat ensi ncet hethe
wedding, Itr
iestopushdownt hefoodbutIj ust
can'
t,If ai
ltodoso, Igoti nsideherwar d,and
ther
eshewasst il
l thesame, nothinghas
changed, shewasst i
llinthecoma, Ihate
Jasonf orrui
ningthi s, asIwasbusyt alki
ngto
myhal fdeadwi f
e, Dadgoti n
.
Dad:
"youneedt
oeat"
Me:
"Ican'
tl
oseanot
heri
mpor
tantwomani
n
myl
i
fe"
Dad:
"youwon'
tl
oseher,
I'
m sur
eshewant
s
yout
obestr
ong"
Me: "i
tshar
d,thedoct
orshasn'
tfi
ndt
hemat
ch
yetandthi
sisstr
essi
ngme"
Dad:"notev
enoneofhersi
bli
ngsmat
ches?
"I
shookmyhead
Me:
"Nonoft
hem butherf
athersai
dhel
ltr
yhi
s
f
ami
ly"
Dad:
"hav
ehopeshewi
l
lwakeup"Inod
Dad:"Icameherewit
hfood,
youbett
ereatand
whenwast hel
astt
imeyouvi
sit
edyourki
ds?"
Me:
"Iknowi tssel
fi
shofmebutIj
ustcan'tgo
t
her
e, al
lIt
hinkismywife,howwi
llIanswer
t
hem whentheywantthei
rmom?Especiall
ythe
quads,theyarefuckenfourmonthstheyst
il
l
needtheirmom andIcan'tdoanythi
ngtohelp
them ,
itssucks,it
sfuckensucksDad"
Dad:"i
fyourmom wasst
il
lal
i
ve,
shewoul
d
hav
eadv i
sedyout
oprayi
tsal
lupinGodnow"
Me:"Iwi
l
ltr
yDad"hegav
emet
hef
oodandI
at
e..
.
Dad:"I
'
llcomecheckuponherlat
er,
youbet
ter
goandchangethosecl
othes,
takeabat
htoo
yousmell"Ismi
led
Me:
"Iwi
l
lDad"hel
eft
Me: "babeI'
m goingoutnowbutIwil
lbeback
there'
ssomethingIneedtosor
t,hangi
nthere"
Ikissesherpal
eforeheadandl
eft..
.
Iwasheadi
ngt
othewarehousewhenIsaw
Jason'
sMom ,
Ismi
ledandgotofft
hecari
t'
s
t
imef
ormysweetr
evenge
Me:
"af
ter
noon"
Mr
s:"MrZul
u"
Me:
"howar
eyou?
"Iof
fer
edherahandshake
Mrs:"Iwoul
dbelyi
ngi
fIwer
etosaygood,
my
sonhasbeenmissi
ngf
oraweeknow"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryt
oheart
hat"
Mrs:
"it
sokay,
myhusbandhasbeensear
chi
ng
f
orhi
m"
Me:
"Icanal
sohel
psear
chi
ngf
orhi
m"
Mr
s:"Iwoul
dlov
ethat,
thanky
ou"
Me:"sodoy
ouhav
eanyi
deaswher
ehemi
ght
be?
"
Mr
s:"Noi
deamyson"
Me:
"wecanstar
tlooki
ngf
orhi
m may
bei
nthe
mor
tuar
ies"
Mr
s:"No!Hecan'
tbedead,
he'
smyonl
yson"
Me:
"youhav
eot
herki
ds?
"
Mrs:
"theyl
i
vei
nAmer
ica,
Canada,
JoyandJi
l
l
"
Me:
"letst
artl
ooki
ngf
orhi
m"
Mr
s:"I
'
llf
oll
owy
ouwi
thmycar"
Me:"Idon'
twanttoputyourl
i
fei
nrisk,may be
theki
dnapper
saretar
geti
ngyou,soI'
dadvise
weusethesamev ehi
cle,whi
chi
smi ne"she
smil
ed
Mrs:"Iagreewithyouitnolongersafe"I
smil
ed, t
hedev i
lsmile,Iknew"Kil
ler
"wason
modeandev enI,Ican'
tcontr
olhim, Il
edher
tomycarandof fwedr oveheadingtothe
warehouse
Mrs:"I
'v
eneverseenthi
spl
acebefor
e, ar
eyou
sur
eitssaf
etoinvadeot
herpeopl
e'
splace,i
ts
wri
tt
en"Not r
espassi
ng""
Me:
"itwor
that
ry"wegotof
f
Mrs:
"wedon'tevenhav
eanyweapons,
whati
f
somet
hinghappens"
Me: "Igotbodyguar
dssoi tsafes"Isai
d
pointi
ngotherguyswhower emycrew, we
walkedinsi
dethewar ehouse, It
ookhertot
he
basement,whereallshithappens
Mrs:
"OhmygodJason!"sher
ant
ohi
m,he
wasbadl
ybeat
en
Mrs:
"howdi
dyouknowhewi
ll
beher
e?,
oh
t
hanksGod,
hel
pmeunti
ehim"
Me:
"sadl
ythatcan'
thappen"
Mrs:"whynot
?Weneedtot
akehi
mtot
he
hospi
tal
befor
ehedi
es"
Me:"I
'
mtheonewhoti
edhi
m up"Isawshock
wr
it
tenov
erherf
ace
Mr
s:"pl
easel
ethi
m go"
Me:"whydon'ty
ouwai
tfort
hecake?Thepar
ty
onl
ystar
tednow"
Me:"Boy stieheruptoo,
notcl
oset ohimthou"
shetri
edfighti
ngbutmyboy soverpoweredher
,shewascr yi
ng,scr
eamingbutIcouldn'
t
car
eless,hissonshootmywi f
eandI '
mt aki
ng
outallhi
sf amily
Mr
s:"pl
easel
ethi
m go,
takemei
nst
ead"
Me:
"he'
stheoneIwantnoty
ou"
Mr
s:"sowhydi
dyouki
dnapme,
why
!"
Me:"doyouwatchthenews?, l
astweekitwas
myweddingandyoursonshotmywi fe,she'
s
fi
ght
ingf
orherl
ifeinhospi
tal
tellme,shouldI
l
ethi
m go?Heruinedevery
thi
ngwesupposet o
beonourhoney
moonnow"
Mr
s:"l
etmepayf
orhi
ssi
ns"
Me:"don'
twor
ryy
ouwi
l
lpayandhewi
l
lal
so
pay"
Jason:
"p.
.l
ea.
.sel
etmy.
.m.
.om go"
Me:
"I'
l
lbeback,
Ineedt
obuyt
icket
s,I
'
m
goi
ngt
oCanada"shewai
l
ed
Mrs:
"pl
easedon'
ttouchmydaught
ers,
please
"
Me:
"Iwon'
tI'
mjusti
nvi
ti
ngt
hem t
othi
spar
ty"
Jason:
"Zwel
imanpl
ease!"
Me: "Ihearyourcompl ai
ns"Ist oodup, Iwil
l
comeseey outomor r
ow, Iwalkedout, t
oldone
oft heboy stotellCal
ebt odeactivat
ethecars
tracker, Idon'
twantJacksonf i
ndingoutthatI
tookhi swi f
e,Iknowt hebestopt iontoburnit
butno, I
'llt
akeittoourpanelbeat er,
change
thecol ourandev eryt
hing..
.
Iwalkedt
oherwar d,
IhadhighhopesthatIwi
l
l
fi
ndherawakeorsomet hi
ng,Isatnextt
oher,
brushi
ngherr
ighthand
Me:"I
'm backbabyandhowarey
oudoi
ng-
"the
Doct
orgotin,wegreet
edeachot
her
Me:
"howi
sshe?Anychanges?
"
Doc:"she'
ssti
ll
thesameandwerunni
ngoutof
ti
me, i
fthi
sweekendandwehaven'
tfoundt
he
donorI'
m af
rai
dbutwemightl
oseher"
Me:"y
ouknowt hatt
odayisThur
sday,
soy
ou
meanbySundayshe..Youknow"
Doc:"ifSundaycomesandwehav en'
tfi
ndany
donor,wemi ghtaswell
swit
choffthe
machinescauseherbrai
nandheartisnot
funct
ioni
ngwel l
,it
sneedbl
ood"Isigh
Me:
"okayt
hanky
ouDoc"shesmi
l
edandl
eft
Me: "Iwil
lev
er ythi
nginmypowert omakesur e
thatyoufi
ndthatdonor.Toni ghtI'
m goi
ngt o
CanadaIknowi tswr ongbutIcan'thel
pit, he
mademeexper iencethemostcr uci
alpain, I
can'tl
ett
hatgo,knowt hey'
rei
nnocent"I
stoodupandki ssedherl i
psthi
st i
me, i
fshe
wasawakeshewoul dhaveholdmeandl augh
aboutit,
Ismiled
Me: "Il
ovey ou"Istar
eatherf orthelastti
me
beforeheadingout,whenev erI'
m wit
hheral l
the"Kill
er"modev ani
shesbutassoonasI
walkoutofherwar d,allt
hesebody guards
takesmebackt omyweddi ngnightand" Ki
ll
er"
willaut
omat i
cal
lycomeback, Igoti
nsidemy
carandcal l
edKing
.
Me:
"Ineedt
ouset
hej
et"
Ki
ng:
"forwhatr
easons"
Me:"IneedtoflytoCanadaandpl
easedon'
t
askf
urtherquesti
ons"
Ki
ng:
"I'
l
lletKev
inknow"Kev
ini
sourpi
l
ot
Me:
"thankyou"Idroppedthecal
l,andheaded
t
omyhot el
room ,
andsleptther
e
By3am Iwasawake,Itookabat
handgot
dr
essedinafor
mal way,Iwasonagreysui
ts
onanot
heroccasi
onIwouldhavesai
dIlook
goodbutnowallIseeis"Kil
l
er",
onceIwas
donewit
hevery
thing,Iwenttothewarehouse,
Il
eftast
ri
ctrol
enottot ouchJason'
smom
Me:"Goodmorni
ng"Isai
dtoJason'
smom
whowaster
ri
fi
ed
Mr
s:"Ibegy
ou,
pleasel
etusgo"
Me:"noty
et,Ineedtoknowtheaddr
esswher
e
t
heyli
ve"shestar
tedcry
ing
Mrs:
"pl
easedon'
tdoany
thi
ngt
omydaught
ers
"
Me:"okaylet
'smakeadeal,Iwi
l
lkil
lyourson
andyourhusband,spar
eyouandyour
daught
ers,how'st
hat?"
Mrs:"Rat
hert
akemeandmyhusbandand
l
eavemykidsalone"
Me:"Ican'
tri
skthat,
whati
fheseekf
or
r
evengeinfut
ure?"
Mr
s:"hewon'
t!Jasony
ouwon'
tri
ght?
"
Jason:
"Iwon'
t!"
Me:"wehav
eadeal
thenbuti
sti
l
lneedt
he
addr
ess"
Mr
s:"f
orwhatnow?
"
Me: "I
'm makingt
hingseasi
erforyou,sogive
met husfuckenaddressorI
'
llf
orceitoutof
yourmout h"
Mr s:"okay"shegavemet headdr
ess,I
thankedherandleftheadi
ngtotheai
rpor
t,
Kev i
nwasal r
eadywaiti
ngformesoIleft
.
5hour
slat
er
.
IlandedinCanada, Igotnoconnect i
onthi
s
sideandIr eall
yneedt hen,Ibookedintoahot
el
tomor r
owIwi l
lvi
sitthegir
ls.Mor ni
ngcame,I
tookabat h, ever
ythingandleftheadingt
o
wher etheyli
v e,t
heyar eyoungerthanJason,
I
shookmyheadasIhadal ltheinf
ormati
onI
needtoknowt hem ,Ir
angthebellagai
nandI
heard"
Comi ng!
",Iwait
edunt i
labeaut
if
ulwhi
te
l
adywithblacklonghairopenedthedoor
.
Her:
"mor
ning,
howcanIhel
pyou"
Me:
"I'
l
lassumey
ou'
reJi
l
l"
Her:
"I'
m act
ual
l
yJoy"
Me:
"Mybad"
Her:
"whoar
eyou?
"
Me:"ai
n'
tyougonnainv
itemein?
"Shelooked
atmeweir
dlybef
oreopeningt
hedoorf
ull
y
Joy:
"woul
dyoul
i
kesomet
hingt
odr
ink"
Me:"noI'm good"Isatdowni
nonei
fthe
couches
"whowasatt
hedoor
!?"
Joy:
"comewehav
evi
sit
ors"
Joy:
"sowhoar
eyou?
"
Me: "I
'
llexpl
ainwhenJilli
shere"shenods,
a
gir
lwit
hr edhaircamedownstair
slooki
ng
ravi
shi
ngasev er, shel
ooksalotl
ikeJoy
Me:
"ar
eguy
stwi
nsor
?"Theyl
aughed
Joy:
"she'
sol
dert
hanmebyoney
ear"
Ji
ll:
"butI
'
m st
il
lol
dert
hany
ou"t
heysat
opposi
teme
Me:"I'
m MorganMey
ersf
rom S.
A,I
'
m an
under
covercop"
Jil
l:
"youlooksocutetobeacop,Ithoughty
ou
wereint
obusinessorsomet
hing"Ismil
ed,
fakesmil
e
Me: "thanksf orthecompl i
mentbutI'
m her
e
becauset here'ssomet hi
ngthatneedsyour
attenti
on"Itookoutmyl aptop,Cal
ebhaslong
recordedthisv i
deo, Iaskedtheboysto
roughenupt hei rmom soi twoul
dlookli
kea
realt
hing,
theywerebot
hcryi
ngwhenIwas
dineshowi
ngt hem t
hevi
deo
Joy:"whocandosomet
hingsocr
uel
,toour
mother?"
Me: "Iwassentheretomakesureyou'
resafe
asy ousawtheyrel
easedastatementabout
goingtoCanada, Iassumeyou'r
ethenext
tar
gets"theystar
tpanicki
ng
Jil
l:
"whydi
dn'ttheyt
akeDad?Thishappened
toourmom becauseofhi
sdoings"
Joy:
"thanksMor
ganf
orbei
ngat
rust
wor
thy
cop"Inod
Me:"soyoucanstar
tpacki
ngyourbags, were
goi
ngdownt oSAwherewewil
lyoukeepy ouin
asafehouse"t
heynodwhil
esheddingtears
Me:"I
'm sorr
yforal
loft
his"t
heynodagai
n
andl
eftgoingupst
air
stopack,Ical
l
edCal
eb
Me:
"Mi
ssi
onaccompl
i
shed,
tel
lKev
int
oget
r
eady"Iswi
tchedof
fmyphoneandwai
tedf
or
t
hem
Aft
ertwohour stheycamebackwithbi
g
sui
tcases,Iknowwomenar ealotbutIdi
dn'
t
thi
nkli
kethis!Theyall
gott
wosuitcase
Me:"Idon'
tthi
nky
ouwi
l
lneedt
hismuch
cl
othes"
Ji
l
l:"dowehav
etol
eav
etoday
?"
Me: "i
tsnolongersaf
e"theynodandwe
headedtothecarwer ent
ed,andof
ftothe
air
port
sKev i
nwasher eandready,
offt
oSA,
thi
swaseasy
.
5hour
sdown
.
Welandedt
oSA, wedi
dn'
twast
emucht
ime,
weheadedstr
aightt
othehot
el
Joy:
"ai
n'
tyousupposet
otakeust
othesaf
e
house"
Me: "don'
ty ouwantt osl eep?Jetl eg?Wewi ll
got omor r
ow"t heynod, Iwonderwhyt hey
trustmet hismuch, Iguess" Ki l
ler"got
ev eryt
hing,Ichangedmycl othesandwentt o
thehospi tal,gett
ingi nsideherwar dfel
t
strange, i
tswasmor el i
keamor tuary,t
heroom
feltcold,Iaskedoneoft henur sest oputona
heat er,evenmywi fe'slipswer ebale, maybe
i
tsbecauseshe' sf eelingcol d, sheneedsan
ext r
ablanket snott hisfl
eebl anket s
Me: "Heybabe,I'
m backandeverythi
ngis
goingaccor
dingtomypl an,al
lIneednowi s
Jacksonanditsal
ldone, t
heywill
payt owhat
theydidtoyou"Iki
ssedherhand
Me: "babepleasewakeup, Ineedyou,our
babiesneedy ou,
ican'tdothi
sallal
one,pl
ease
wakeupbaby"Ist ay
edwi t
hheruntil
itwast he
mor ni
ng, Ineedt
oheadbackf asttothehotel
beforetheysuspectanythi
ng
Me: "Iwil
lseeyoulat
ertoday,
Ilov
ey oubabe
andpleasefightandcomeback"Iwalkedout,
she'
sst i
l
lthesameandt odayi
tSatur
daybutI
haven'tl
ostanyhope
.
Me:
"Mor
ning"t
heygr
eet
edback
Me: "Ihopeyougood, y
ouneedtostar
t
prepari
ng, weheadingtothesaf
ehouseby10"
theynod, Il
eftthei
rroom andwentt
omi ne,
decidedtocallXavi
er
.
Me:
"Axe"
Xav
ier:
"Ki
l
ler"
Me:
"Ineedext
raequi
pment"
Xav
ier:
"doy
ouhav
eany
thi
ngspeci
fi
c?"
Me:
"Ineedev
ery
thi
ngwehav
ebutt
inesf
ive"
Xav
ier:
"okay
"
Me:"I'
m br
ingi
ngtwonewguest,
how'
sthe
sear
chforJackson?
"
Xavi
er:
"wearest
il
ltr
yingt
otr
acehi
m down,
he'
sadif
fi
cul
tman"
Me:
"Ineedhi
m bef
oret
hesunset
s"
Xavi
er:"okayKi l
ler"Ihungupandt ookanother
bat
h, Igotdressedt omyf akepoli
ceuni
form
j
usttomaket hem trustme, onceIwasdoneI
wal
kedt otheirroom
Me:
"Ihopey
ou'
rer
eadyweneedt
ogo"
Ji
l
l:"whowi
l
ltakeourbags?
"
Me:"don'tworr
y,myteam wi
llcomef et
ch
t
hem ,l
et'
sgo!"Theyst
oodupandf oll
owedme,
wegotinsidemycaranddrov
est r
aightt
othe
war
ehouse, int
hecar
Ji
l
l:"sohowdi
dyouf
indus?
"
Me:
"yourmom t
oldusy
ouraddr
ess"
Joy:
"theuni
for
m sui
tsy
ou"Il
aughed
Me:
"butIl
ookri
dicul
ous"Iwast
ryi
ngt
omake
t
hem comf
ort
abl
e
Ji
l
l:"howol
dar
eyou?
"
Me:
"I'
m 34andy
out
oo?
"
Ji
l
l:"I
'
m 29andshe'
s28"
Me:
"howol
disy
ourbr
other?
"
Joy:
"32"Inod,
andcar
ri
edondr
ivi
ng
Joy:
"thi
spl
acel
ooksshady"
Me:"Iknowbuti
teasyt
hiswaybecauseno
onecanthi
nkoft
hispl
ace"
Ji
ll:
"Copst hi
ssidearesmart,noonewi l
lthi
nk
ofthispl
ace"Inod, t
hedevi
l i
nmecan' twaitt
o
ki
ll
t hem ,
wegoti nsi
deandItookthem to
wher eweusuall
ychil
lwhenwe'rebored
Joy:
"Thanky
ouf
ort
his"Inod
Me:
"makey
our
sel
vesf
eel
athome"
Ji
l
l:"howl
ongwi
l
lwebeher
e?"
Me:
"I'
m notsur
e"shenods
Me:"Ineedtotal
kwit
htheguys"Ileftt
hem
headi
ngtothebasement
,it
ssoundproofed
Me:
"Hel
l
o,y
ourdaught
ersar
eupst
air
s"
Mr
s:"p.
.l
easedon'
tki
l
lthem "
Me: "r
elax,
Idi
dsayearli
eronthatI
'minvit
ing
them t
oourparty"myequipmenthasalready
arri
ve,soItol
dtheguystogofetchthegirl
s
theymustn'
tbegentl
e
"Letmego!!
"."Iwi
llt
ell
Morgan!
!"ThatwhatI
heard,
theygoti
nsi
deandimmedi
atelyfr
oze
Me:
"wel
comet
oourpar
ty"
.
.
.
Notedi
ted,
sor
ryf
orer
ror
s
.
.
Admi
n

Season2
I
nser
t49
Cont
inuat
ion
.
.
.
Zwel
i
.
.
.
Theyf
rozei
mmedi
atel
y
Ji
ll
:"Morganwhat
'
sgoi
ngon?,
Whyi
smyand
j
asonti
eduphere"
Me: "boystiet
hem uptoo,notclosetoeach
otherthou"theytr
iedfr
ight
ingagainbuymy
boysov erpoweredthem
Mrs:"It
houghty
ousai
dyouwer
en'
tgoi
ngt
o
hur
tthem "
Me: "IknowwemadeadealbutIhada
changedofmind"shewai
l
ed
Joy:
"Mor
ganhowcoul
dyou?Wet
rust
edy
ou"
Me:"i
tsall
Jason'
sfault"Itookatakeandsat
downgiv
ingthem myfullat
tenti
on
Ji
l
l:"Whatdi
dJasondo?
"
Me:
"heki
l
ledmywi
fe"
Joy:"Jasonwouldn'
tnev
erdosuch"hercame
outasawhi sper
Jason:
"shedi
ed?
"
Me:"Idon'
tknowy etbutthi
ngsareheadi
ng
ther
eandit'
sal
lyourfault
!"Imar
chedtohim
andpunchedhim unt
ilIf
eltmysel
fcalming
down,thel
adieswer
escreami
ngandcr
ying
tel
l
ingmetoletgoofJason
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryf
ort
hat,
thi
swast
otal
l
yuncal
l
ed
"
Mr
s:"
pleasel
eav
emygi
rl
soutt
his,
Ibegy
ou"
Me: "sadlyIcan' t,
yourJasonher eshotmywi fe
knowi ngly,heneedt hatshej ustgav ebir
thto
quadsbuthewentahead, l
etsayy ouwer ein
shoes, myquadsar eonl yfourmont hs,what
wi l
lyoudo? "Theyst artedcr yi
ng, Istoodupand
saidgoodby e, Ineedt ov isi
tmywi fe,may beI
canbehumanagai nIcan' tcont r
ol"Kil
ler
"butI
knowonceIseemywi fe, Iwillbebackt oZweli
, Idroveinsidethehospi talstillt
hesame,
peopl ewerebusypassi ngbyt heylookatme
onlyt henIreali
zedt hatIhadbl oodonmyshi r
t
,probablyJason' sbutIdon' tcar eI'
llki
llt
hem
forev enlookingatme, whenIar r
ivetoher
war d,thebody guardswher enott herewhich
waswei rd, Iwentinsidewi thsomuchanger
whatIsawnear
lycausedmeahear
tat
tack,t
he
nur
seshadawhitesheetcov
eri
ngt
hepati
ent
Me:"Nothiscan'
tber
eal
"Iwal
kedcl
oserbut
t
heydidn'
tall
owme"
Me:"thati
smyfuckenwi
fe!I
'
m demandingt
o
seeherorIwi
l
lburndownthi
shospi
tal
"
Nur
se:"I'
m sorr
ysi
rbuty
ouhav etowai
tonce
t
hedoctorisdoney
ouwillbeabl
etoseeher"
Me: "issher eall
ydead? "Theynod, Isatdown
buttflatont hefloor,t
earsstart
edf alli
ng,I
stoodupl ookingashorri
bleasev er, Iwentto
seatont hewai t
ingbenchesoutsidet heward,
whatconf usesmei sthatwhyIwasn' ttol
d?
Andwher earethefli
ppi
nbody guardsIswearI
willki
llthem too, Iwassti
lll
ookingdown
fi
ght i
ngt earswhenIhear daf amil
iaf oi
ce, i
t
wast heDoc, Istoodup
.
Doc:
"Af
ter
noon"
Me:"ButIt
houghtthi
sshoul
dmay bebe
happeni
ngt
omor r
ow,I'
m st
il
ltr
yingdohardt
o
fi
ndsomeonewhomi ghtbethedonor"
Doc:"y
ourwifei
sfi
ne,herdadcamewi
tha
donori
tal
lfi
ne,al
lsheneedsi
snowtowake
up"
Me:
"butt
heper
soni
nsi
dei
s-"
Doc: "wemov edhertoanotherward, she'
ssti
ll
i
ncomat houghbutitnotl
if
et hreat
ening,we
sti
ll
wai t
ingforhert
oseehowi ssher eact
iont
o
thi
snewbl ood"Ismi l
edanddi dasilence
prayer
Me:"t
hankyouIwassowor
riedmyphoner
ang
i
twasAxe(Xavi
er)t
heDocl
eft
.
Me:
"Axe"
Axe:
"Youneedt
ocomeher
enow!"
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngon,
I'
m onmyway"
Axe: "wehavefoundJacksont
hepr
oblem i
s
that,he'
swalki
ngwithanarmy,wecan'
tdo
anythingtohi
m"
Me:
"Fuck!Wher
ear
eyou?
"
Axe:
"I'
m byhi
scompany"
Me:
"okaybr
ingpet
rol
too"
Axe:"sure"IhungupanddrovetowhereAxe
was, Iwasinajol
lymoodatleastshegott
he
donor
.
Iarr
ivedatthe"
J&Jcompany"Ispot
tedAxei
n
hiscar,andwentt
ohim
Me:
"he'
sinsi
de?
"Henods
Me:"yousai
dhe'
swal
ki
ngwi
thanar
my,
count
ed?"
Axe:
"Pl
us10"
Me:
"okayweneedext
rahel
p"
Axe:"Idon'
tknowift
hisisappropr
iat
ebut
Nathancanhelpyouwit
ht hi
ngsli
kethi
s"I
l
ookedathim
Me:
"ar
eyoubei
ngf
orr
eal
now?
"
Axe:
"hegothi
sownwi
fe"
Me:
"I'
l
lfuckenki
l
lyouAxe"hel
aughed
Axe:
"butonaser
iousnot
e,he'
sgood"
Me: "youwil
lmeetwithhi
m anddiscussthat
shi
t, Idon'
twantt
obei nv
olved,
allIwanti
s
JacksonandI'mrui
ningoutofpati
ence"
Axe:"Iwi lldoso"It ookt hepet rolandst ar
ted
pouringitnextt othebui l
ding, Imanaget oget
i
nsideandpour edalit
tlein, Istoodbyf ar
beforelightingitup, oncei tstartedburningI
gotinsidemycarandl eft,Idon' tcareabout
peoplewor kingther
e, butall Iwant edwas
Jackson, Iheadedbackt othehospi t
al,Iwas
smitten
.
Me: "I'
m sohappybabyt hatyouhav
emadea
progress"Ikissedherli
ps,theDoctol
dme
she'srespondingwell
totheblood
Me:"al
lyouneednowi stowakeupandal
lwi
l
l
begood"Ikissedherhandt
histi
meand
st
art
edtalki
ngtoher,Ihear
ditshel
ps
Me: "Iwi
llgovi
sitt
hekidst oday"Ikissesher
onelastti
me, i
tssucksthatsheai n'
t
respondi
ngbutIneedt obepat i
ent,Ileft
headingtoherhome, Ihaven'twentbackt o
KwaNongomaandI '
m notwi l
li
ngt ogothere
anyti
mesoon, Iknockedont heirdoorit
swas
closeto10pm
.
A'
Mom :"ohmyson"shehuggedmesot
ight,I
huggedherbackmaki
ngmemissmymother
A'
Mom :
"ev
ery
thi
ngwill
beokay,youneedto
pr
ayhar
dmyson,thi
sisal
latestt
otestyour
f
ait
h"Inod
Me:
"I'
m her
etoseet
heki
ds"
A'Mom :"Theyareallsleepi
ngbuty oucangoto
them "Iwalkedupstair
saf t
ergreeti
ngthee
uncl
est hatwereseatedandhav i
nga
conversati
oninthelounger oom ,Ist
art
edwith
thequads, theyl
ookgr ownI '
m gl
adtheyare
okay
Me:"Daddylovesyou"Iki
ssedallt
hei
r
for
eheadsandwenttothetroubl
esometwins,I
l
aughedathowBanzi wassleepi
ng,If
ixedhi
m
he'
ssuffocat
ingZet
hembenow
Me: "Iloveyoutoomyninj
as"Ikissedthei
r
foreheadtoo,Iclosedt
hedoorandheadedt o
Zama' sroom ,y
esshehasherownr oom ,I
slowlyopenedthedoorandsenttositonher
bed
Me:"I'
m sor
ryfornegl
ect
ingyoumypr
incess
butIpr
omiseyouthatIwi
llcomeev
ery
dayt o
seey
ou"IKi
sseeherf
orehead,
shewokeup
al
mosti
mmediat
ely
Zama:"Dad"Ihuggedherasshewascr
ying,I
wastry
ingsohardtofi
ghtmytear
stooandit
worked
Zama:
"Dadwher
e'sMom?Ineedherback"
Me:
"shewi
l
lbebacksoonbaby"
Zama:"Iwantherback,
Iwantherback!Daddy
makehercomeback"
Me: "Iwi
llt
rymybestbaby, butshewill
come
back"shekeepscryi
ngev enhadt hehi
ccups, I
brushedherbackunt
ilshewassl eepi
ngflat,
I
ki
ssedheragainandwal kedout.
A'
Mom :
"It
houghty
ouwer
egoi
ngt
osl
eepher
e
"
Me:"I
'
dl i
ket
obutIneedt
otakecar
eof
somet
hing"
A'
Mom :
"woul
dyoul
i
kesomet
hingt
oeat"
Me:
"yes"whenwast
hel
astt
imeIat
e?Ineed
f
ood
Me:"Thankyou"shenodsandlef
tmealone,
I
wasbusyputt
ingupaplanwhi
leeati
ng,
aaler
t
messagecamein
Axe~wehav
efoundJackson~
Me~I
'
m comi
ng~
Af
terthatIfi
nishedupmyfood,t
hankedmy
motherinlawanddr ov
est
rai
ghtt
othe
warehouse
.
Me:"Themi
ght
yhasfal
l
en"hewasbadl
y
beat
enuppl
usf
rom t
hefi
re,
helookawf
ul
Jackson:
"Yousonofabi
tch!"
Me:"Youtal
ktomuchforamanwho'
sneart
o
deat
h,Icanki
ll
younow"
Jackson:
"goaheaddoi
t!
"Il
aughed
Me: "andspoil
thefunnev er,sinceallt
he
entert
ainmenti
shere, t
hepar t
ywillst
art
tomor r
ow"Isaidbeforeleavingthem ,Iwentt
o
whereweusual l
ychil
landIf oundt hi
sNathan
guy,theyimmediat
elystoplaughingasI
steppedinsi
detheroom
.
Me:
"whyar
eyoust
oppi
ngonmyaccount?
"
Axe:
"itwasn'
tfunnyany
mor
e"Inod
Me:"wakemeupafter3"henods,Ilef
t
headedt
oanybedr
oom insi
deandslept
.
Thenextmorni
ngIwokeupandi
twascl
oset
o
9am ,
I
'm goi
ngtoki
l
lAxe
Me: "Axe!
!Axe!
!"Nothing,
Ist
oodupandwent
totakeashower, onceIwasf
eeli
ngfreshand
all
Iwalkeddownst ai
rstot
hebasement
Me:
"Mor
ningmor
ning"t
heywer
eal
ready
awakeandwet,
Ji
l
l:"I
'
mfeel
i
ngcol
d"shewasshi
ver
ing
Me: "andwhi
choneshoul
dIstartwit
h? "They
al
llookedatme,ohhowIlov
e" Kil
l
er"some
ti
mes
Me:
"I'
l
lst
artwi
thwomen"t
heycr
ied
Jackson:"dar
elayy ourf
uckenheadt
omywi
fe
,Iwillki
l
lyou"Ilaughed
Me:"ther
e'snot
hingyoucan'tdo,youknowifI
wasapervetIwouldhavelongrapedherbutno
Ir
espectwomensoIwon' tdoany t
hinghar
sh"
Jason:"j
ustki
l
lme!I
'
mtheoney
ouwantj
ust
fuckenki
l
lme!"
Me: "Okay"ItookoutmygunandshotJoy
str
aighttoherhead,hermom st
art
edcry
ing
andJillt
oo
Jackson:
"Fucky
ou!"
Me:
"don'
ti
nter
ruptme,
I'
mthehosther
e"
Mr
s:"pl
easel
etusgo"
Me:"becausey
ou'
resweet,
Iwi
l
llety
ougo
onl
yyou"
Ji
l
l:"whataboutme?"
Me:
"whatabouty
ou?
"Shecr
ied
Me:"l
etmebri
ngmor
ear
ti
st"Il
aughedasf
our
mengoti
nsi
de
Me: "chooseumazikhet
hela"Istoodbythe
doorast hestar
tedri
ppi
ngtheirclot
hesoff,
all
ofthem Ilef
theadedupstai
rs
.
Aftert
wohour
sIwentdownt
ocheckupon
them
Me:"Ihopeyouenj
oyedi
t"t
heywer
eti
edback
t
otheirchai
rs
Me:"howdoest
hedi
ckf
eel
sJackson?
"I
l
aughed
Ji
l
l:"y
ou'
repossessed"
Me:"Notr
eal
l
ybuty
oucansaysomet
hingl
i
ke
t
hat"
Mr
s:"Sonpl
ease"shewasshi
ver
ing
Jason:
"havemer
cyonmymom ,
she'
s
i
nnocent
!"
Me:
"mywi
fewasi
nnocentt
oo!
"
Ji
l
l :
"youknowwhatgot
ohel
l
!Youhear
tl
ess
bi
tch!Ihat
eyou"
Me:"Ihateyoutoo"Ist
oodupandshother
ar
ms, shescreamedi
nagony
Jason:
"Fucky
ouKi
l
ler
!"
Me:
"soy
ouwer
esay
ingwhat
?Ji
l
lbabel
ookat
me"
Jackson:
"whatdoyouwant
?YouwantMoney?
Diamonds? Pl
easel
etmywif
ego"
Me:
"si
ncey
ou'
rement
ionedi
t,Iwantal
lyour
di
amonds"
Jackson:
"nowy
ou'
ref
uckencr
azy"
Me:
"I'
l
lshoother"
Jason:
"Wai
t!Dadgi
vehi
mit
swor
thmymom'
s
l
ife"
Jackson:"t
heyinsidemybedr oom ,i
nsi
det he
l
ockerpasswordis" JJ8764"andpleaseafter
thatl
etmywi f
eandJi l
lgo"Inodandcalled
Calebupdat
edhi m abouteveryt
hing,
sentthe
boystogoandf etchit
Me:"inthemeant i
me, I
'l
ltakeherbody,my
dogsarehungry"Iunt
ieJoyandf edmydogs
andImadet henwatchthev i
deo,itwas
di
sgusti
ngshame
.
Iwai
tedandwai
tedt
il
ltheycamebackwi
tht
he
di
amondsIwassohappy
Me:
"okay,
Ineedabut
cher!
"
Jackson:
"wai
tawhat
?"
Me:"don'
twor
ryyouwi
llf
oundoutsoon"Kyl
ie
cameweari
ngclot
hesl
i
keasurgeon,Il
aughed
Kyl
i
e: "Ihear
dther
e'sapat
ientwai
ti
ngf
orme"I
poi
ntedatJackson
Me: "t
hat'
stheoney ou'r
elooki
ngf or"t
heboys
camewi t
hawheel chair,Il
aughedandtookhim
tothebutcherr
oom , hestar
teddoinghist
hing,
hekeptonaskingforknives,kniv
esandknives
l
ikeatruesurgeon
Kyl
i
e: "doyouknowwhati
sthi
s?"Heasked
hol
dinghisint
est
ines,
hewassti
l
lal
iv
e
Kyl
ie:"thatl
eadtoy ourwhi
teanus"IlaughedI
madesur ethatJasonandotherswere
watching,aft
erhewasdoneandJacksonwas
dead, wedecidedwewi l
ldonatehi
sinsidest
o
anyhospitalt
hattheymightneedit
Me:
"who'
snext?
"
Jason:
"buty
ousai
dyouwi
l
lletMom go"
Me:"okay,I'
llunt
ieyoudon'
ttr
yany
thi
ng
st
upid"theynodIhelpedJil
lsi
tont
he
wheel
chair,andhelpedt
hem out
Me: "Nev erlookback"Isaidtheywer eboth
cry
ing, shepushedherdaught erf
astbutmy
bull
etisfastenoughIshotherst r
aighttoher
headleav ingJil
lscr
eami ngli
kehell,Iknewshe
couldn'
tdoany t
hingsincebothherar msare
underal otofpain
Ji
l
l:"Fucky
ou!Mor
gan"
Me: "t
akethatwheelchai
rback,andrunover
herunti
lshedies"Itoldoneofmyboy sandlef
t
,IsatwithJasonwat chi
nghersi
sterbei
ngrun
overbyacarcountlessti
mes
Me:
"nowI
'
mlef
twi
thy
ou"
Jason:
"justki
l
lmeal
ready"
Me:
"Onl
yify
out
ransf
eral
lyourmoneyand
yourfat
hersmoneytot hi
sbackaccountor
bett
eryetcal
lyouraccountant"
Jason:
"031-
"
Me:"ohwaitshe'
sdead,
Ibur
neddownt
he
whol
ebuil
ding"
Jason:"j
ustki
ll
meal ready"Ist
oodupand
fi
redtwoshotsstr
aighttohi
sstomach
Me:"that'
sformywi fe"Icarr
iedonfi
ri
ngunti
lI
wasoutofbulletsIemptiedmybull
etsonhis
bodycaref
ull
ynott ouchi
ngtheheart,It
ook
oneofmyspeci albull
et
Me:"sendregar
dstothedevi
l"If
ir
editup
st
rai
ghttohishead,
andthati
t,I'
m done
.
.
.
Notedi
ted,
sor
ryf
oranyer
ror
s
.
.
Admi
n

SeasonFi
nal
e
I
nser
t50
Twoy
ear
slat
er
.
.
.
.
Anel
e
.
.
.
Her:
"MamaI
'
m ol
denoughnow,
goback"
Me:"Thandono!,
you'
reonl
y6andy
oul
ookso
beaut
if
ul"
Her:
"Mamamybr
other
sandsi
ster
sneedsy
ou
"
Me:"whatabouty
ou?Iwantt
otakecar
eof
you"
Her:"Mamadon'tbesel
fi
sh, I
'
m wit
hGr andma,
thi
nkofmysister
sandbrother
swhoar ealone,
theyneedyougoback"shestart
edrunning
awayfrom me
Me: "Thandobuya!,Buya!"Ist
artedcryi
ngshe
keptrunni
ngawayf rom meuntilIcoul
dn'tsee
her,Isatdownandst ar
tedcryi
ngand
screaming"Thando!Buya,Thandolwethu!"
Iwokeupf eel
ingtheurgetocry,Itri
edkeeping
myey esopenedbutt helightwast oobright,I
closedt hem foraboutami nutebeforeopening
them agai n, t
hist
imeIsucceed, the
environmentt oldmet hatI'
minhospi tal
.
Doc:"asIwassay
ingi
tbeent
woy
ear
snow,
I
t
hinkitt
ime"
Zweli
:"Idon'
tmindpayi
ngthebi
ll
s,Ist
il
lhav
e
hopethatonedayshewil
lwakeup"
Doc:
"youshoul
dlethergo"
Zwel
i:
"No!"
Doc:
"si
rit
sbeent
woy
ear
snow"
Me: "Iknowsomepeopl estayf
oraboutsix
years,canIhavepriv
acywi t
hmywi f
e"Iwas
l
isteni
ngt ot
heirconver
sati
on,butmyeyes
wer ecl
osedIheardfootst
epsandthedoor
closes,Iwantedtoopenmyey esbutIdeci
ded
againstit
Zwel
i:
"Heybaby"hehol
dmyhand
Zweli:
"youknowifIweret
otel
lthenursesthat
yourhandishot,t
heywon'
tbel
i
ev eme, I
haven'
tlosthope,
Isti
l
lbel
i
evethatyouwill
comeback, Il
oveyoupl
easewakeupbabe,
thequadshasgrownup"helaughed
Zwel i:
"Andt heylookexactl
ylikey ouespeci
all
y
theboy s,Banzi andZethembehasst art
ed
attendingschool andthePri
ncessi snow
starteddoinggr adeone,wakeupbaby"I
couldn'thelpmysel f,t
earsstartedroll
i
ngdown
myf ace,Iopenedmyey esandl ookedathim,
hisfacialexpressionwaspri
cel ess
Zweli
:"I
'
m notcr
azyr
ight?You'
reawake"he
beamedwit
hexcit
ement
Me: "w.
."Myt
hroathur
tsli
kehel
l"hest
oodup
andwenttogetmewat er,
hehel
pedmesitup
str
aight
Zweli
:"I
'
m sohappythat
'syou'
reawake,
I
shoul
dgoandcallt
hedoctor"
Me:
"N.
.o"
Zweli
:"Iwanttomakesurethatever
ythi
ngi
s
al
ri
ghtpleasebaby"Inodhekissedmy
f
oreheadandl
eft,
youcant
ell
hewashappyso
wasI
Doc:"ar
eyour
eal
l
yawake,
weai
n'
tdr
eami
ng
ri
ght"
Zweli
:"IthoughtIwastoo"theDocst
art
ed
examini
ngherandev er
ythi
ngseemsfi
ne
Doc:"Ihadlostal
lhope,
wewer
ereadyt
o
swi
tchoffthemachines"
Zweli:
"Iknewshewasgoingtocomeback"he
ki
ssesmyhand, Iwasqui
etl
ylooki
ngatt
hem
asthebusytal
ki
ng
Doc:
"ev
ery
thi
ngi
sfi
ne"Inodshel
eft
Me:
"h.
owwasIout
?"
Zwel
i:
"twoy
ear
sandf
ivemont
hs"
Me:
"howar
ethequads?
,Imi
ssedoutal
ot"
Zwel
i:
"theygood,
ever
yonei
sgood"
Me:
"dot
heyknowme?ThatI
'
mthei
rmot
her?
"
Zwel
i:"YesI
'
m suretheywi
l
lbesoexci
tedt
o
fi
nal
l
yhearyourvoi
ce"
Me:
"theydon'
tknowmyv
oice?
"
Zweli
:"t
heywer
est
il
lyoungwheny
oul
anded
her
e"
Me:
"wher
e'sJason"
Zweli
:"Iki
l
ledhi
m "Isi
gh"don'
tj
udgeme,
he
rui
nedourweddi
ngday"
Me:
"noi
tsokay,
Iwantt
ogobackhome"
Zweli
:"okayl
et'
sgo"hehel
pedmeoft
hebed,
mylegswerewobblyi
coul
dn'
tst
andpr
oper
ly
Zwel
i:
"it
sokay"
.
Wear
ri
vedathome,
not
hinghaschanged
Me:
"theki
dsar
eher
e?"
Zwel
i:
"No"Inodandl
i
mpedi
nsi
de
Mom :
"Anel
e!"Herv
oicecameoutasawhi
sper
Me:"Mama"shecamet
ohugme,
wecr
iedon
eachot
her
sarms
Mom :"I
'm sohappyy
ou'
reback,thanky
ou
moreforansweri
ngmyprayer
s"shehuggedme
r
ight
Mom :
"doy
ouneedany
thi
ng?
"
Me:
"Ineedtohi
tthegy
m,Il
ookl
i
keabal
l
oon"
wel
aughed
Mom :
"li
ker
ightnow,
whatdoy
ouneed?
"
Me:"I
'
mf i
neMom Ij
ustneedt
oseemyki
ds,
I
mi
ssedoutal
otonthei
rli
ves"
Zweli
:"y
ouwil
lseet
hem nextweek,
theschool
cl
osesandt
heywil
lcomevisi
tyou"
Me:
"butIwantt
oseet
hem "
Zweli:
"andI'm say
ingNo, youneedtobeokay
fi
rstbefor
eyouseet hem ,y
oucan'tevenwal
k
properl
y,andIknowf orsur
ethetwinswould
wanty outopl
aywi t
hthem "he'
sright
Mom :
"youneedt
orest"
Me: "I
'
v ebeenresti
ngf
oraboutt
woy ear
snow,
Ineedabr eak"Ili
mpedtothel
ongueandsat
downt her
e
Me:
"baby?
"
Zwel
i:
"Yes"
Me:
"Ineedupdat
es"hel
aughed
Zweli:
"justcal
lTeehewi
l
lupdat
eyouwi
th
ever
ythi
ng"
Me:"Ican'
tbel
i
eveIhav
en'
ttakenabat
hint
wo
year
s"
Zweli:
"andthequadshateswater"Ismiledbut
deepdownIwashur t
ing,Icoul
dn'tevenhear
thei
rfi
rstwords,
thei
rfi
rstst
eps, cur
seyou
Jason!
Mom :
"I'
l
l f
ixabat
hfory
ou"shewentupst
air
s,
i
tswaskindaawkwar
dbetweenmeandZweli
Me:
"Thanky
ouf
orst
icki
ngar
ound"
Zweli
:"noneed,Ivowedt
ost
aywi
thy
ou
thr
oughthi
ckandthin"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Zwel
i:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"heki
ssedmyf
orehead
.
Me:
"Bi
tch!
"Iwasonaphonecal
lwi
thTee
Tee:
"Noway
s!"
Me:"I'
m al
ive"Il
aughed,
Imissedt
hisbuti
t
wasnicespendi
ngtimewit
hmybaby,doyou
st
il
lrememberNkazi'
stwi
n?
Tee:
"Ican'
tbel
i
evei
sthaty
ou"
Me:"i
nfleshbabe,
Imi
ssedy
ou"Icoul
dtel
lhe
wascr
ying
Tee:
"Imi
ssedy
ou,
oht
hanky
oul
ord"
Me:
"weshoul
dmeetandcat
chup"
Tee:
"wher
ear
eyounow?
"
Me:
"I'
minDur
ban"
Tee:
"I'
m comi
ng"
Me:"MrHusbandi
salsohere,hesai
dIshoul
d
st
arti
nter
act
ingwi
thother
snextweek"
Tee:
"he'
ssuchabor
e"Il
aughed
Me:"I'
ll
cal
lyouback"wesai
dourgoodby
e,I
headeddownst
air
s
Me:
"Ihear
dsomeonecal
l
ingme"
Dad:
"Pr
incess"
Me:
"Dad"wehugged
Dad:
"I'
m sohappy"
Me:"Il
oveyoudadsomuch!Thanky
ouf
or
ev
eryt
hingespeci
all
ythedonor
"
Dad:"justbecauseyou'
recomi
ngoutf
rom t
he
hospi
tal doesn'
tmeanIcan'
tgi
vey
ouagood
hi
ding,itwasmyj obtodoso"
Me:"butt
hanky
ou"Ihuggedmyt
alki
ngt
eddy
bear
.
.
Twoweeksl
ater
.
.
Iwasfi
tenoughnow,Icoul
dn'
twaitt
oseemy
ki
dsandTodayIwasgoingbackt
o
kwaNongoma
Mom :
"docomev
isi
tus"
Me:
"ormay
bey
oushoul
dcomev
isi
tme"
Mom :
"andl
eav
emyhusbandal
one?Nev
er"
Me:"Ialsocan'
tl
eavemyhusband"we
l
aughedandhugged, Il
eftherandwenttosay
goodbyetoDad,Il
ovethisteddybearofmine
.
Iwasnervous,
myheartwasbeat
ingf ast,it
fel
tli
keIwasmeet
ingmyfir
stboyfr
iendf orthe
f
ir
stti
me,youknowt
hoset
imesbackwhen
y
ou'r
ewer
eat een
Me:
"whati
fthedon'
tl
oveme"
Zwel
i:
"don'tbesi
l
ly,
theywi
l
llov
eyou,
theyar
e
abi
tshythough"
Me:
"al
loft
hem?"henods
Zwel
i:"especi
all
ythegi
rl
s",heparkedi
nsi
de
they
ards, t
hekidscameoutrui
ning
Me:
"di
dtheyknowt
hatIwascomi
ngback?
"
Zweli:
"theyalwayswelcomemel i
ket
his"he
gotofff
irst,t
hequadswer er
unni
ngbutthey
werefal
li
ngwhi chwascute,Ibr
eathi
nandout
befor
eget t
ingoutthecar
"
Mamana!
"Hesawmef
ir
st,
thatwhenot
her
s
r
ant
ome,
Zee:
"Ngi
mboni
l
e,ngi
mbonekuqal
a"
Banzi:"hau!NanguuMamanaubuyi
le"Ipi
cked
them uptheywereabitheav
ybutImanaged
Me:
"hel
l
oboy
s"
Them :
"Mamaubuy
il
e!"
Me: "I
'm backforgoodbaby"Iwascr y
ingnow
,Icouldn'
tfi
ghtmyt ear
sthesearetear
sofjoy,
Iwalkedwi t
hthem insi
dethehouse,Iputt
hem
nexttomeasIwasseat edinthecouch
Nkazi
:"Hawu!Mamana!"
Me:
"comegiveMamaabi ghug"sher
anto
me,
shelooksbeaut
if
ulandt
all,
wehugged
Nkazi:
"I'
m sohappythatyou'r
eback,
Imissed
you,ImissedyoualotIthoughty
ouwerenever
comingback,Ithought
-"
Me:
"shush!BabeI
'
m her
enow"
Nkazi
:"Iwasscar
ed"
Me:
"don'
twor
ryy
ouwi
l
lbef
inenow,
I'
m her
e
t
ost
ay"
Zee:
"ZamaMy
ekephel
auMamana"
Nkazi
:"Iwi
l
lhi
tyousobad"
Banzi
:"Ngeke!Nami
ngi
zokushay
a"Il
aughed
Me:"Noonewil
lhi
tanyone,under
stand?"They
nod,Zwel
icamebackwitht
hequadsf ol
l
owing
hi
m
Zwel
i:
"EmihleandEsihle,
thisi
syourmom ,go
andgi
veherahug"t heyholdontoZwel
i'
slegI
wasabitdi
sappoi
nted
Me:
"Babi
escometoMama"Iopenedmyarms
t
heyst
art
edcry
ingbr
eaki
ngmyheartmor
e
Zweli:
"don'tworrytheywil
lgetusedtoyou,
NkanyezinaweNkany isogohugy ourmom "
theycamet omet houghtheywerehav i
ng
doubtsbutt hehuggedmeandi tfeltsogood
Nkany
ezi:
"Mawethu?
"Ihadthem i
nmyl
ap
bot
hNkanyezi
andNkanyi
so
Me:"I
'my
ourmother"theysmi
l
edandst
art
ed
ki
ssi
ngmyface,
Igi
ggled
Nkany
ezi
:"Mi
hlewoza"sheshookherhead
Nkany
ezi
:"Umawet
hu!
"
Zwel
i:
"don'
twor
ryt
heywi
l
lcomear
oundInod
.
Wewer edonewi t
hdinnerIhadbothEmihl
eand
Esi
hlesleepingonmyl ap,theyfi
nal
lyl
etgoof
whateverfeartheyhadtowardme
Banzi
:"Mamana!Ngi
zol
alanawemi
na"
Nkazi:
"Ai
boh!I
minaphel
aengi
mdal
a,uzol
ala
nami!
"
Zwel
i:"don'
twor
ryt
heyar
efor
everf
ight
ing"I
l
aughed
Me:
"Banzi
"
Banzi
:"Mama"hesmi
l
edr
eveal
i
ngdi
mpl
es,
Me:
"youwantt
osl
eepwi
thme?
"
Banzi
:"Yes!
"
Me:
"OkayTodayIwi
l
lsl
eepwi
tht
heset
wo"I
poi
ntedthebeauti
ful
soulssl
eepi
ngonmyl
ap"
TomorrowIwill
seewi t
hyouguys"
Zwel
i:
"andwher
ewi
l
lIsl
eep?
"
Me:
"youwi
l
lsl
eepwi
thus"
Zwel
i:
"I'
drat
hert
aket
heguestr
oom "
Me:"sui
tsyoursel
f"Iwentt
olaybot
hmygirl
s
i
nthei
rbed, t
here'
snowayI'
m sl
eepi
ngwit
h
t
hem ,Igoti
nsidemybedcover
sIwasshocked
whenIfoundZwelisl
eepi
ngt
here
Me:
"Ithoughtsomeonesai
dwassl
eepi
ngi
n
t
heguestroom "
Zweli:
"Ial
soneedsomel ovi
ng"Ismi
led,he
mightbedyingwit
hdrought,f
ort
hefuckent
wo
ful
lyear
s,that'
snojoke
Afteroursessi
onIsl
eptonhi
ssweat
ychest,
tr
yingtocatchmybreat
he
Zwel
i:
"Doy
oust
il
lwanty
ourhoney
moon?
"
Me:
"ofcour
sebabe,
Ineedt
osl
eepnow"I
smiledasIwassosleepy,
asIwasdozi
ngoff,
Zwelist
art
edmoving,Imoanedi
nmysleepI
sl
eptwithNdabei
nside,wemadelov
eoverand
overagai
n
.
.
.
Ay
earl
ater
.
.
Iwasinsidemyhousei nKwaNongoma, busy
cooki
ng, thekidswereallatschool,Zweliwas
notheresomet hingabouttheChief
s, yes!He
wasmeet i
ngwi t
htheChiefsaround
KwaNongomaandher eIam alonewithmy
maiden, shelooksaftermeasanewqueen,
Zwelihasf i
nall
ytookhisresponsi
bil
i
tiesast he
newKi ng,he'
sbeenupanddownpl uswi ththis
gangli
feofhi s,throughi tal
lIwashappy,
happythatintheendt hi
ngswor kedout,Iheard
alotabout"Kil
ler
"Iadv i
sedZwelinottobring
hi
m hereinsidemyhouseorhel lwil
lbr
eak
l
oose, sonomat terhowangr yheishereinmy
househe'sZwel i,myHusband, thefat
herof
mybabi est
hat '
sal l,
there'sno"Kil
l
er"i
nsidemy
house!,
.
Me:"Xol
ohelpmesitdown"shehelpedmesi
t
down,Iwasheav
il
ypregnantIcangi
vebi
rt
h
anyt
ime
Xolo:
"don'
tov
erwor
kyoursel
fift
heKi
ngwer
e
toher
ethi
shewil
lpr
obabl
yfir
eme"
Me:"don'tbesil
l
y,ifor
cedyout
ostopIcan'
t
j
ustlazyaroundanddonothi
ng,
IswearIwil
l
goinsane"
Xol
o:"howi
shedoi
ngt
her
e?"Iwashav
inga
boy
Me:
"he'
str
oubl
i
ngmebusyki
cki
ngnonst
op"
Xol
o:"May
behe'
sreadyt
ocomeout"
Me:
"ai
h!Suka"
"
Mama!"Iknewtheywer
ebackf
rom school
,
t
henoi
se, t
heyal
lcametoki
ssmytummy
Nkazi
:"Hel
lobabyShaka,yourbi
gsi
sisback
l
oveyou"shekissedmytummyandleft
Banzi:
"Shakashaka!I
minauBanzi
,
uyangi
zwa?"Helaidhi
sheadonmyt ummy,
I
l
aughed
Emi hl
e:"SukaphelaBhuti
!"Ilovehowthey
respecteachother,t
heyallsaidthesamethi
ng
beforegoingtochangethei
runiforms
.
Zwel
ial
socameback,
hef
oundmeseat
edon
mychai
r
Zwel
i:
"Heybaby"Ismi
l
edandl
ookedup
Me:
"heyy
ou'
reback"weki
ssed
Zweli:
"yes,
I'
m soti
redIhatel
ongmeeti
ngs,
I
'm goi
ngtochangeIwil
lcomeback"Inod,he
j
oggedtoourroom
Me:"Iwantfreshai
r"hehel pedmeup,we
headedtoourbeaut
iful
gar den,hel
aidt
hef
lee
bl
anketandhelpedmesi tdown
Zwel
i:"y
ou'
recomfort
abl
e?"Inod,
hest
art
ed
massagi
ngmyf oot
Zwel
i:"whatar
eyout
hink,
youseemst
obef
ar
fr
om here"
Me:"I
'mt hinkaboutal
ltheobst
acl
eswe've
beenthrough,theAngel
aSaga,NtandoSaga,
KwaneleandJason, wesurvi
vedalot"
Zwel
i:
"wear
eamat
chmai
dinheav
en"
Me:
"Bonni
eandCl
yde"wel
aughed
Zwel
i:
"Thankyouforbeingwit
hme, tol
erat
ing
myshitandev
ery
thi
ng, Iwil
lbefor
ever
gr
atef
ul"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouMageba"
Zwel
i:
"Il
ovey
out
ooMaNdl
ovu"
.
.
.
THEEND!