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 By Syarif
DearDia
Sect. 20th.
Dear Diary
ho
do not know what to say first
Since, in fact, I could not write in a
good way, could not express both
my joys and sorrows in a written
Stutt. it was my teeling as ihe
nspirer. I found no one to share
this matter with, nobody, and at last
have you. i believe you could be
the nght mate to which I release

the happiness and I bet you could

be the agony
aunty to cheer me up for the
sadness.
TO tell you the truth, t was a girn
who fomented unrest in my mind.
She attracted my attention too
much. She made me sutfer from
her simple life, moderate-fashioned
style, motherhood, and tempting
smile. She was so perfect to me.
You know, I did not trust on the
saying says 'Love at the first sight"
but finaly I do when I underwent t.
I noticed the girl last month. It was

in the carnpus precinct she stood in

the queue to wait for her lurn lor ing special happened. I neither been lwo months passing throughn
registralion. she was accepted in knew if she had a boyfriend or not but I still do not know her address,
nor she had a crush on me or not. even her nickname. I knew from the
English Department, my close
Adi, told me. It revealed that The siluation did not provide me a attendance list handed around
friend, chance to got close to her. Beside
was her senior and I was among9 everyday it her name was And
those who were appointed to be the that, you know me6. I do not pOssess Ratna Juwita, but it is too long and

commitlee during the orientation
days. I could imagine what a
dence it was to approach her.
But, the moment went on, noth
good sell-confidence in the so awkward to call her such a
coincl called-mater. s o J u s t Keep silent. I How could I make
in
way
just bore the blooming heart in her? Dy. show me the way, please!
mind. And the worst thing, it has Dear Diary, hopefully, my stais

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 will be twinkling next fime. Let's hope 1or
sho considers me as 'the person who
that, then. Dy, that's all for this moment. kills two birds with one So Dy,
will be exCused with lots of hopes. Dear Diary, why you could
stone.
guess the end of our meeting.
Bye! don't we hope ight, it ended without an assurance
we are lovers or not.
Dy, let's cherish
Oct. 5th. that such
moment a the hope Ihat it was not an ending but
My Dearest Diary, will make us just a deferment. See you!
i s So long not to put my grumble
down on you. My regular lasks on lec-
closer and will make Oct. 25th
tures as well as the search on
complet me brave to My Dearest Diary,
ing my last-term paper cause Ihat con am present in your space again to
dition. For those tasks, I have to visit the expresSS my feel share my good and bad news. The good
library very often. However, it does not ing abOut her. I Can- news is that I have just finished my
raise any problems since it brought me study. I had the graduation cerermony
good luck. The moment I am dreaming
not Stand too
yesterday. You know, Dy! I was
appoint
of so
dent when
long has come. I met her
was busy to search
by acci long to wait for ed as the best student of the faculty. I

tional literature for my paper. We made

for addi- the eXCItong am awfully happy with that award ( wish
And the one made me
you are, 1o0).
*an acquaintance. YOu were my senior
during the orientation days, werent
occasion, Dy! happiest is that the dean provided me
with arecommendation to continue my
Dear Diary, why don't we hope
you? It was the first utterance came that
such a moment will make us closer and study to the universities abroad for
out through her thin lips to start our chat.
wIl make me brave to express my feel- Masters Degree. "Congratulation, Arif! i
She, then, ensured her beliet when she
to"VE proposed give you the
to recom
about her. I cannot stand too long
saw Betty Azars book on my hand by ing
asking if I was an English Department
wait for the exciting occasion, Dy! mendation for studying abroad.
Well, I have to stop. I wil place on However, t s with one condition that you
Student also. We chatted around ten must be back to our university as the
my scratch after fulfilling the deal.
minutes. Tm Ari. It's nice to talk to
you Cherio! lecturer after getting your Master," he
She said before
exCUsing :saidwhen he expressed congratulation
Dear diary. I got it. she is really a o n me ater the ceremony.
Oct. 11th
nice giri to talk to. And the most impor Dear Dy, I am here with my thought w a s glad to hear it, of course! But
tant thing now is I know how to call her.
and it's all about her, of course! I fulfiled n the other side, I had thought one oft
Dy, that was a wondertul
beginning
hope the next will be more. Let's hope
the promise. I lound her in a casual
the consequences.fl were lucky, I
dress siting on a bench of her dorm's would pass and would leave Indonesia
for that, Dy. See you next time yard whenI came. she welcomed me a s wel as the one who had filled in my

Oct. 93th
Hello Dy! 1 show up again to sque
the one who forced me to spend my
ays on thinking o nopooy
would lke to inform out ihat n n hobbies. favorte songs, ideals and so
in the place a s the previous
again s a m e
one. I was about to leave the library
Wnen she stepped into. We greeted
and talked if
each other as
known one another tor a vey ong
She revealed me that sho nad sev
tasks to finish in a short time but she
Could not make them tor s o m e p r o b
lems. She, therefore, asked me 1o 9
a deal
her a hand. That's why. we
made
to meet in her dorm next iwo days.
with her attractive smile. As we stated heart with an uncertainty feeling. That is
before, I was in her place to assist her to the bad news, Dy! I am in a two-side of
get through her tasks. So we did. But nard-lo-decide problem.
Dy, why don't you give me support to
think you will bet if I not there for
was
that purpose only. We talked about ourba able to face all the possibilities hap-
pening later. See you!
on, including our dreaming spause to
be. Concerning the latest one, it seems Nov. 30th
Dy, whatI was worried about hap-
we have the same opinion about what
we had
I accepted in
ours aro like. Basicaly, we both dream
o f simple ones. So l think that can be
: inpens now. was a university
the States. The surnmons, that came
t h e green light' to me. That can make two days ago, require me to be in
us easliy oeing togother if we agree to. America next month to register. That's
I plan to leave in the day alter
: However,I do not have bravery to why
express my feeling. I am afraid that the tomorrow. I have prepared and complet
avowalImake wil hurt her and causeed everythingexcept
my
one thing. Atu has
for her. I
notknown about teeling am
I
our 1ogetherness disturbed. am afraid if

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 leaving soon but I have not expressed:I seemed lhat somelhing stuck on my know what Im talking about." I
dis
ih i l alrard when I depart throal blocking me to speak. "About" avowed to hide away trom saying the
nat wl anse another new problem to
ried to bring bravery together to talk
trulh. I had kepr
my
a a gunty teeling for not to tellbul once more I lailed. I just behaved in lime, thatI would miss ner wnen I was goOng
her the truth. What
should I do, Dy? a very awkward way. I, unconsciously. abroad. However, she knew me. She
niended to hand
you' over to her lurned he book on my hands again and could calch my expressi0n nidng
as my
way to express my feeling. You some
would not mind about this i
again. thing.
you? "About whal?" she asked wondering "About what? Just say , please! So
"About whatl? I don't know about I won't feel embittered by myself since
"Hi, Rif!" a voice and a slap on my
what. Even you are there, far away trom me," she
shoulder broke my silence in the time
don't tried to force me speaking. said noth-
was sitting
enjoying
my favorite fiction, ing. I just bent my head over the lable.
Lima Sekawan. When I turned
Tm sorry, f'd rather let you be in
around, I had found Arji having a
Curiosity than make you hurt. Im no
seat on the chair next to me.
brave enough to tell you,"|
Where have you been?
sighed while nodding.
havent seen you since
I But.. she was about to
the graduation," she
speak when I had put my
asked quietly tor she
index finger on her lips to
might realize if we were
sign her not to continue
in the keep Silent area,
her sentence.
thelibrary. quit read T won't tell you
directly
ing and closed the
right now. As I said before,
book.
don't want you to be hut
Congratulations! I
f o r my confession. Let my
YOu passed the
diary reveal you every-
entrance test to a
univer thing." I said then stood and
sity of the States,
right? walked toward the
bookshel
she extended her hand to
on which the visitors left their
shake mine.
stuffs before entering the main
ThanksI said while smiling
parts of the library. She did the same
to her.
thing and walked after me. At the exit,
Adi informed me about
everything. handed the diary to her.
Since then, I have tried to find you but
"Don't read it now!" I said hurriedly
failed. So ljust kept this saying," she
when she intended to
open it. "Read it in
explained as if she revealed that it waas the time I am
leaving. you get If
not her fault to be late to express her "I'm SOry, l'd point and you are with the
matter
the

congralulation. "You'l leave tomorrow, con

won't you?" she asked to ensure hersef. rather let you be Sisling. drop me line for your
a

response. I share you my address as

Yeah. That's right," I replied, and then
added, "1 came here to look tor you, to0.
in Curiosity than 0on asiget there. But if
oesn't matter to me
you t
arent,
take carelI said
...

assume that you haven't known much

about me. Soi want to tell you this,
make you hurt. to quit our talks.
Then I left her with her
anxiety lo find
mean everything aboul me, about my
luck of being accepted in an overseas
I'm not brave Out the real
thing. (02)
university, about my departure whichis
scheduled tomorrow, about my despon
enougn to tell
dency as I be far away from you, and
the most important thing is about.."
you,"I Siglhed the
addres5 o te we
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stoppod for a second. I could not finish while nodding. Sulawesi Selatan

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