Ch1 ?

I am in my bed.
Everything around me is calm.
There is no other sound than my cries that echoes in my pathetic room.
Nobody really cares.
I just relapsed.
But nobody really cares in the end
There is blood everywhere coming from my wrists.
If somebody cares they will come before I die.
I don’t really know if I want to die but I’m not sure if I can stay in this horrible world either.
I knew it.
Nobody is coming because nobody really cares;
I think that it is the 6th time that I’m in that position.
Maybe this time it will finally work.
Maybe this time I will finally get away from this horrible world.
Everthing stars to slow down.
Someone comes in my room but I really hope that it’s too late.
They start to scream.
I’m scared that’s it’s my little brother.
I don’t want him to remember of me that way.
Everything is blurry.
I cant see who is there.. my eyes start to close themselves.
I’m so tired.
I can finally go elsewhere.
I hope in paradise or jus in a better world
Bye horrible world, I will not miss you

Ch 1 part 2
I wake up because of a sound.
Oh no.
I’m here again.
It didn’t work.
I start to cry.
I saw this room a lot of times already.
I hate this room, she reminds me that I failed to kill myself like I fail at everything.
Even just killing myself is too compliquated for me.
I’m wondering who found me.
Then, something that I never wanted to happen happens.
My little brother comes in the room.
It looks like he cried all night.
He will end up like me just because of me.
I am such a bad person.
I look down because I am so ashamed of myself and see a with bandage on my wrist. It really
didn’t work.
My little brother runs towards me.
He stars to cry.
He looks scared of me but I know he isn’t, he already saw me in this state.
He comes to hug me.
“why did you do this ?” he asks.
“you told me you wouldn’t leave me here alone ! I can’t stay here alone, I need you.”
I start to cry even more.