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ALL IS NOT LOST
Journey To Yourself

Zaishah

Independently Published

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 If it weren't for you,
I wouldn't be here.
If I hadn't known you,
I wouldn't have known love.
The moment you touched my heart,
it became a poet.

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 CONTENTS

Copyright
Title Page
Dedication
introduction
The light is you
Inside of love
You will only be hurt deeply, when you love deeply
Make the best of what you have, no matter how flawed it is
If you don't give it a chance, how would you know it's right for you
Choose the people who choose you
It’s okay to take a break
Life goes on
Afterword
thank you note
Books By This Author

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 INTRODUCTION
Every single step you take forward, no matter how insignificant it may
seem, is significant. No matter how small your daily progress may be, it all
adds up in the end. Keep going, going, and going until you're proud.

STANDING AND WAITING FOR THE STORM TO END WON'T

END IT UNLESS YOU DECIDE TO GO THROUGH IT AND FACE
IT.

This book is a collection of poetry and prose. It will help you understand
what it means to keep moving forward in life, and it will remind you of the
strength that lies within the broken pieces of yourself. It will take you on a
journey to discover self-love.

This book will teach you not to give up when things get tough, help you
remember that you are stronger than you give yourself credit for, and
encourage you to keep your spirit high in the face of adversity, to keep
going when things seem bleak. This will help you see that you will
eventually get back to where you belong, in spite of all that is standing in
your way. You will always find a home, no matter how difficult the road
ahead may be. There's always a chance for the best , there's always a way
out of a bad situation, even when it seems like there isn't one.

It talks about how to rise again after a fall. Always keep in mind that no one
will come to save you. No one comes. It's you. It's always you who gets this
power.

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THE LIGHT IS YOU
You will heal in the midst of all this pain.

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Everyone can feel your pain,
but the thing that matters most is
who is there to help ease that suffering.
who is there to struggle alongside you.
who is there to go through the mess with you.
who is there to pick you up when you fall.

-IT'S YOU. ALWAYS YOU.

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At some point in our lives, all of us feel the need to be appreciated and
valued by the people we love. This is something that we all try so hard for.
But unfortunately, this is not how life works. There is no one who will
always be there for you. In the end, everything revolves around you and
how you feel about yourself.

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I hope you will be okay again.
I hope you will be okay again.
I hope you will be okay again.

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Accepting that you are suffering doesn't make you weak:
I am sorry if you gave your heart to someone who was not ready to hold it. I
am sorry if they are not willing to see things your way. I am sorry if you
made a mistake of giving them the power to decide what you can and can't
be. I am sorry if you made a mistake of putting the needs of others before
your own. I'm sorry if they painted you as a heartless or portrayed you in a
negative light. I am sorry if they made you believe that you don't deserve
love or that you're hard to love. I am sorry if they made you believe that
kindness doesn't exist in this world. I am sorry if they made you believe that
you are too much. I am sorry if they made you believe that falling in love
was the worst thing you ever did. I am sorry if they made you spend
countless hours wondering if you were good enough for them.

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I am sorry if you're in a relationship where you're the one who is constantly
being forced to prove the worth. I am sorry if you betrayed yourself for the
sake of someone else's happiness. I am sorry if you made someone else the
main character of your story. I am sorry if you had to lose sight of who you
were in order to turn yourself into the person, they thought you should be. I
am sorry if you had to lose sight of who you were in order to turn yourself
into a person you thought they would love. I am sorry if they made you
someone who you were not supposed to be. I am sorry if you have to ask
them how you deserve to be treated. I am sorry if you were being misjudged
by them. I am sorry if they never apologised for what they have done to
you. I am sorry if they never realised how much they hurt you.

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I am sorry if you are feeling lost, disoriented, or confused right now. I am
sorry if it's not the life you worked so hard for. I am sorry if you have not
achieved all that you set your mind on. I am sorry if it feels like everything
is slipping away from your fingers. I am sorry if you don't know how to
think about things that you can't control in a way that doesn't make you
stressed out. I am sorry if you regret never giving a chance to something
that could have been meant for you. I am sorry for what you encountered
along the way. I am sorry if you had to let go of things and people to whom
you dedicated every fibre of your soul. I am sorry if life put you in a place
where you had to settle for less. I am sorry if you have to pretend that it
doesn't hurt you.

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I am sorry for everything you have been through.
I am sorry for everything you have been through.
I am sorry for everything you have been through.

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You will not be hurt in any way unless you give the things the world
throws at you any meaning:

But the truth is, the world hurts you because you let it hurt you. People hurt
you because you gave them that power. You haven't accepted the parts of
yourself yet that irritate you. The parts of you that you are not comfortable
with. The parts of you that make you feel worthless. The parts of you where
you lack. The parts of you that dim all the light within you. You are still
afraid of accepting yourself with all your flaws. You don't have enough
courage to own your imperfections. To own yourself _____ Please be the
main character in the story of your life. Don't be your own critic. Don't be a
sidekick. Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you're worth it. You are
loved. You deserve to be loved. You are enough and have always been.
-BE YOUR OWN HERO. OWN YOURSELF
AND OWN IT PROUDLY.

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Just be okay with yourself:

Don't let others tell you what you should or shouldn't be. Don't let others
tell you what's good and what's not good for you. Don't let others tell you
what you are allowed to feel and what you're not. They are not the ones to
dictate your life or your way of living. Please don't see yourself through the
eyes of those who are always trying to highlight the glitches in you just to
let you down. Please don't give the key to your emotions and feelings into
the hands of anyone.
Please appreciate yourself. Learn to accept
yourself . Talk positively about yourself. If you have a fair complexion
or not, if you are too skinny or chubby, you are beautiful in your own
unique way. Whatever your height is, whatever your weight is, whatever
your skin tone is, whatever you choose to wear, wherever you belong, you
shine through with all who you are . Don't believe what else
society tells you.

Take care of yourself,

but you don't have to
feel ashamed of
being the person
that
you
are.

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If you don't pay attention to what others say, or what others do, what they
think about you. if you choose not to see yourself in the way, they want you
to see, if you refuse to feel how they try to make you feel about yourself,
you won't get hurt. Don't let someone's toxic words, their comments, their
opinions about you, or their actions define you. To touch you. To mirror
you. Stop feeling insecure about yourself when they try to make you feel
less about yourself. Stop doubting your worth.

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You are not bound to feel everything
the world throws at you:
Love yourself enough to walk away from everything that scares you. That
hurts you. That limits you. That devalues you. That questions your worth.
That makes you feel less. Uncomfortable. And not appreciated.

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Love yourself enough to walk away
from those who don't embrace
the home you made for them
within your heart.
From those who have
lost interest in you.
From those who treat you
as if you don't exist.
From those who don't know
what to do with you
or where to put you
in their life.
From those who give you
mixed signals.

Love yourself enough to walk away

from all those people
to whom you have given
so much of yourself
and still are not enough
for them.
From those who, in spite of all that
you have done for them,
still don't feel
complete
with
you.

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Love yourself enough to walk away
from all those places
where you are not treated the way
you think you should be treated.
Where you have to put
a question mark on your worth.
Where you are holding on
so tightly that
your heart is starting
to bleed.
Where they make you feel as
if you are a burden to them.
Where they're not comfortable
with places in which you lack.
Where they don't make you feel like
you are the one.
Where you are waiting for
someone to choose you.
Where you have to settle for
loving someone from distance.
Where you have to change
so much of yourself
into someone
who is a complete stranger to you,
just to feel
accepted
and loved
by others.

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Love yourself enough to walk away
from the relationship
when love in not enough
to keep both of you together.
When relationship is more like
a compulsion
than an emotional connection.
When you've forgotten
what it feels like
to be happy.
When there's no flexibility
to compromise,
no willingness
to put aside one's ego
for the other.
When commitment isn't anything
more than just empty words.
When it's difficult to find
peace of mind.
When every conversation turns
into an argument,
and every argument ends up in a fight.
When they care less
and complain more.
When you are being clingy
and overly protective.
When you are confused about
how they feel about you.

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Let go of everything that is weighing heavy on your heart.

Sometimes you have to let go of things so that you can create space within
the confinements of your heart for what is meant for you to come. The
people who let you go so easily, the people who chose not to walk with you,
have made room in your heart for those who truly want to walk
the path with you.

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You may not always get what you hope for, but you can make the best out
of whatever you get. Someday you'll reflect on your life and realize that
what you have now is truly worth everything you lost along the way. It
compensates for more than your sacrifices. It is okay if growth
seems to be in a yellow shade at the moment. It's okay if
today is overwhelming; there's always tomorrow. And there's
always a possibility with every tomorrow that it could be the best day ever.
Believe me, everything will be okay. Everything will get better because
everything is working out for you. Because everything finds a way to work
out in the end.

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You won't always be like this. Sometimes you have to go through the bad to
appreciate the good that comes your way. It's okay not to feel like yourself.
Believe me, it's okay for things to get wrong. Please don't forget that the
best days of your life don't always come in an easy way.

You have to fight through

so many obstacles in life
to get to the top.

You have to face many let-downs along the way. The most trusted ones are
going to disappoint you in the most unexpected ways. And sometimes life
will hurt you more than the world can bear. There will be times when the
world around you falls apart. But you don't have to be afraid of or worry
about the broken pieces of it. Please don't forget that difficulties sharpen
your spirit. Dig yourself out of the grey skies.

This is your chance

to put your pieces back
where you want to be,
how you want to be.
-REBUILD YOURSELF INTO A NEW YOU. THE
STRONGER YOU.

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There will be days that are not your days:

Sometimes you get what you want. Sometimes it's more than you could
ever think of. And sometimes, life just has nothing in store for you. You fail
no matter how hard you try. Your best doesn't work out for you. Without
any reason. Without any explanation. And that's okay. Because life is not a
straight line or a smooth road. Because the world is not always going to be
kind to you. There will be days that make you believe you are over the
moon and days when you find it difficult to breathe. There will be days
when life meets you in unexpected ways. Pain seems overwhelming and
unbearable. You feel like you don't matter. There will be days that are too
heavy for you to carry. Your heart gets tired. Your ribs feel worn out. You
feel the weight of the world pressing down on your back. There will be days
when you are too young to go through them. Days that make you feel like
life has nothing more good to offer you. Days that leave you imagining that
you have wasted your life. Constant negative thoughts and feelings of
hopelessness and loneliness are starting to consume you. You find it
difficult to share what your heart is experiencing. There will be days that
are harder than others. When you regret waking up. When you feel life isn't
worth living. When things don't go according to plan. There will be days
when life doesn't feel like life at all. There will be days when the sky is
overcast. There will be bad weather. Thunder and lightning. Some rainy
seasons. Heavy winds.

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There will be days
when you feel
the world revolves around you
and days
when you feel
you don't even exist at all.

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You will not get out of this unless you go through it:
Even if right now it feels like you're unable to fully recover from what
happened, and even if your scars do not completely disappear, you will find
a way to deal with it. Even if right now everything seems very painful and
more challenging than you thought it would be, it won't always hurt this
much. It won't always be this way . The good and bad days
come in waves. Maybe today is struggling, but never lose sight of the
glimmer of every little hope that tells you tomorrow will be better. It might
be very tough at this stage where you are at right now, but one day you are
going to make it despite what the odds are trying to make you believe.
There have been so many times in the past when you didn't think you could
survive. But you did. Didn't you? You've survived before, and
no matter what else your mind tells you, you can
do it again. It's amazing to see how far you've come. You're not
where you were a few days, a few weeks, a few months, or even a year ago.
So you've made it, and you're now exactly where you should be.

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Please don't forget that it won't always be a rainbow out there. The sky will
not always be blue. You may not always be able to enjoy the soothing
warmth of the sunrays on your skin. The stars will not always shine brightly
for you. Please don't forget that there are some things in your life you can
do the way you want and others over which you have no control at all. The
journey that takes so much of yourself ends up
giving you so much courage to fight to be here. The
parts of yourself that you lose in the chaotic experiences of life are replaced
with something you need to have the most right now.
Peace and happiness are always waiting on the other side of pain and rough
days. Please don't forget that you have to go through the messiest roads in
order to reach and appreciate the beauty of your good days.

The things that hurt you

are the things that help you find
your inner strength.

The things that challenge you

help you grow
into a stronger version of yourself.

The things that broke you to pieces

help you discover
who you are as a person.

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Trust me, the Universe knows what it's doing and it will never leave you in
pieces. Please don't forget that your worst days lead you to the best part of
your life. Everything happens for a reason, and the universe is constantly
working to create and put that reason in place for you. Troubles are part of
the process. An unavoidable part. Inescapable part. The more
difficult it is to bear, the more valuable it
becomes. All those things that don't work out for you build you into the
person you're meant to be. Please don't forget that each and every
experience you have helps you figure out what life is all about. Even if
something seems wrong right now, it could be the most important lesson
you'll ever learn in your life.

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I am so proud of the way you stood up for yourself.
I am so proud of the way you stood up for yourself.
I am so proud of the way you stood up for yourself.

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 I am so proud of you
for having the courage
to start again,
to keep growing,
and to keep healing
despite everything
you have been through.
Even when it hurts.
Even when things are
hard for you.
Even when you didn't want to.
I am so proud of you
for fighting so hard
for what you believe in.

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Give yourself credit for
how you stayed strong
when the days were rough
and you didn't know
what to expect.
When you're damaged
beyond repair.
When you tried harder and harder
to get out of your past,
but found yourself getting
more and more stuck.
When your life was darkened
by fear of the unknown.

Give yourself credit for

how you made it
through all of this mess,
when you were not even ready.
When it felt like
you were never
going to get through this.
When you thought,
you didn't belong to where
you were heading.
When your wounds were too deep
for you to find
a smile in life.

Give yourself credit for

how you fought for yourself
when things were not
what you were prepared for.
When you feel like
almost
giving
up.

Give yourself credit for

not being willing to quit
on your life,
or on your happiness,
no matter how difficult things were for you.
When you didn't have the will
to wake up
and face another day.

Give yourself credit

for how you have grown
on top of
whatever was happening
in your life,
whatever was
troubling
you.

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It's so brave of you that you choose to keep going when you feel like you're
stuck in a never-ending darkness with no hope of escaping it. It's so brave
of you that you choose to keep going when everything seems to be working
against you. It's so brave of you that you choose to keep going when your
mind is overflowing with insecurities and uncertainties. It's so brave of you
that you choose to keep going when you don't think you'll be able to make
it. It's so brave of you that you choose to keep going when things get more
difficult. It's so brave of you that you choose to keep going when life
demands a struggle for survival. It's so brave of you that you choose to keep
going even when you don't seem to be making any progress. It's so brave of
you that you choose to keep going even when you find yourself collapsing.
It's so brave of you that you choose to keep going even when the journey
makes no sense to you. And you have no idea where you are going. It's
so brave of you that you choose to keep going when
a string of failures continuously tries to stop
you.

IT'S SO BRAVE OF YOU THAT YOU CHOOSE TO

KEEP GOING
WHEN EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING
IN THE WORLD IS
CONSTANTLY URGING YOU
TO GIVE UP AND
SETTLE FOR
LESS.

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 Give
yourself
the
credit
you
deserve.

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Healing is not a destination, it's a journey:
If you look deep enough inside of yourself, you will find the strength to
battle through anything. And one day, when you come out of this, you will
look back and be proud of yourself for having persevered, for not giving up,
and for how far you have come in your life. You will come to realize that
you are far more capable than you ever thought. In the end, you will feel
proud of yourself for making the choice that is right for you. You will be
proud of yourself for fighting for something you deeply believe in.

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At the end of the day,
you will see that
never giving up
on hope
when life didn't
unfold in the way
you wanted
was
not
a
mistake.

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At the end of the day, you will see that sweeping all of yourself inside of
you to be poured into love was not a mistake. At the end of the day, you
will see that finding a home for yourself in the heart of another person was
not a mistake. At the end of the day, you will see that having your heart at
war with yourself for another person was not a mistake. At the end of the
day, you will see that allowing yourself to feel how you feel was not a
mistake. At the end of the day, you will see that being torn between two
halves for things that truly matter to you was not a mistake. At the end of
the day, you will see that waiting for someone who you believe is worthy of
you was not a mistake. At the end of the day, you will see that your refusal
to compromise on your dreams was not a mistake. At the end of the day,
you will see that your decision to follow a path leading to the life of your
choice was not a mistake. At the end of the day, you will see that not
following the crowd was not a mistake. At the end of the day, you will see
that walking away from all those things that always made you feel
worthless was not a mistake. And most importantly of all, at the end of the
day, you will see that making yourself a priority was not a mistake.

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At the end of the day, you will see that never giving up on hope when
nothing was going your way was not a mistake. At the end of the day, you
will see that never giving up on hope when you didn't even know what you
were hoping for was not a mistake. At the end of the day, you will see that
never giving up on hope when every aspect of life was meant to hurt your
heart was not a mistake. At the end of the day, you will see that never
giving up on hope when you didn't see yourself making any progress was
not a mistake. At the end of the day, you will see that never giving up on
hope when you thought you'd never be able to rise again was not a mistake.
At the end of the day, you will see that never giving up on hope when some
parts of yourself stopped you and urged you to give up was not a mistake.
At the end of the day, you will see that never giving up on hope when you
were afraid of what lay ahead was not a mistake. At the end of the day, you
will see that never giving up on hope when there was no one by your side to
tell you that you were going to make it through was not a mistake. At the
end of the day, you will see that never giving up on hope when you were
not willing to walk through those uncertain days was not a mistake. At the
end of the day, you will see that never giving up on hope when it was not
easy for you to keep holding on was not a mistake. At the end of the day,
you will see that never giving up on hope, despite your inner fears, was not
a mistake.

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 At the end
of the day,
you will see that
never giving up on hope
was
not
a
mistake.

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 INSIDE OF LOVE
The ocean is beautiful to look from the shore, but once we get in it, it's a
different story.

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The scariest thing about love is that so much of it exists just in our heads.
The way we see someone we love is just something we make up in our
thoughts. And this is why it hurts a great deal when the person doesn't turn
out to be what we thought they would be.

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 You're
the curve
on my face
when
I
smile.

:-)

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 You
are
the
coffee
in
my
cup
of
coffee.

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 There's
a lot
in this
universe
to see,

but
there's
a
universe
to
see
in
you.

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Let me count the ways:

He belongs to no one, to nothing, to nowhere. He's a roving star.

Unpredictable and alone like a moon. A haunted house. He is like an ocean,
mysterious but deep. He's like a handful of sand that keeps slipping out of
your grasp no matter how hard you try to hold it. But she loves his serene
brutality. In his darkness, she finds peace. She sees a glimmer of hope in his
roughness. She enjoys his steady violence. She feels like home in his
presence. Protected. Loved. Comfortable.

She wants to fit into his arms like they are meant to hold her. As if she was
born to be there.

AND SHE WILL SHOW HIM WHAT IT MEANS TO HOLD ONTO

SOMETHING HE HAS NEVER BEEN ABLE TO HOLD ONTO
BEFORE: HERSELF

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He is a rebellious wind
that no one can calm
but her.

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I was not looking for you
when you met me,
but now with you,
it feels like
a part of me
always wanted to have you.

-my heart stopped searching for anything else

the moment it found you.

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When did you cross
the threshold of
my eyes
and
become
the beat of
my heart?

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If I know you will eventually find
your way back to me some day,
just like the sky knows
the moon will come back to it
no matter what,

-the pain of your leaving me

won't hurt me that much.

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 Why do we fall in love with people we can't have?

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When I need a place to run away from the world, I seek refuge in you. But
what if I need a place to escape from you?

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 You were the first person
I ever
believed

and never thought

you'd be
the last.

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You were the one
who gave me
a reason to live,

and I never thought

you'd be the one
to take it away
from me.

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How can I love
someone new
with you
folding
in the
creases
of my
heart?

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 No way
can explain
the way
I
love
you.

I WISH THERE WAS A HEART

SOMEWHERE IN THE EYES.

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You are the most
wonderful thing
that could have
happened to me,
that I
desperately
wanted,
that I was
not allowed
to keep.

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 Whenever
I
hear
or
read
the
word
"love",
your
name
instantly
pops up
in
my
mind.

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I adore you to pieces:

It has never been easy for me to open up my life to strangers. But when I
first met you, it felt as if we had already met somewhere in the skies. A part
of me always knew you. I don't know how it happened, but you just made
me feel something deep within. All I know is that you came into my life
when I was not even looking for you. You touched some chord in my heart
that no one else in the world could ever touch before. All I know is
that something right happened to me because of
you. You're the one from whom I never tried to hide my weirdness. You
are so real with all your imperfections and flaws that you seem so perfect to
me. That made me stick with you. You understand why I am the way I am.
You gave me the freedom to be who I really am. You accepted me as me.

The moment I found you, it felt like I found myself. Before you, it always
seemed as though something was missing from my life. Then you came into
my life and that void was filled. The moment you entered my heart, all of
that changed. I finally feel completed. You fit in with me perfectly, as if you
were a part of me. Like we are meant to be.
-THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!

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You are the beat of my heart:

The sound of your voice

draws me in.

The rhythm of your heartbeat

is something that my ears
always want to listen to.

Your presence gives

the reason for the
continuation of my breath.

There isn't a single color

in the world that doesn't
show up in your
sky-wide smile.

There isn't a single star

in the sky
brighter than
your eyes.

You are circulating

through my
veins.

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 You are the only person
I am willing to take
a chance on.

When I feel down, I like to seek comfort in the warmth of your arms. You
are like the blanket that keeps me warm during the cold winter nights. You
are the path I take on my evening walks. You are my midnight moon. You
are the star in my eyes. You are the rays of sunlight that greet me every day.
You are the cup of my morning tea. You are part of everything I'm made of.

You are the page of a book that is turned over to read again. You're the most
repeated song on my playlist. You're the ringtone of choice. You are a
pinned note in the world of snoozing and ignoring.

You taught me the meaning of possession. You are the idea of falling in
love. You are the poetry I've always kept to myself and never intended to
share with anyone. You are the poem I always wanted to write.

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I am still tangled up
in the moment
you looked at me,
which let my heart
beat
in a way
it had never done
before.

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 In the midst of this
noisy world
and in the tumult of the day and night,
something still throbs in my chest.

(YOU)

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 In the streets
full of strangers,
my tired, restless eyes
scan the unfamiliar faces
in an attempt to find one
that they love
purely,
and
honestly.

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I can feel
your touch
on my skin
as the gentle
gust of wind
kisses me.

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 How ironic is that
the person who turned me
into a poet,
the person for whom
i write poems,
does not understand
the language of
poetry?
(HOW IRONIC IS THAT)

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 How long
will it take
for you
to feel
my
love?

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I know
I am making a mistake
by choosing
to love you,
but you left me
with no other
option.

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Please don't let me go
in a way
that makes me believe
I can't live
without you.

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 Eyes say better:
Just because
I didn't give you any
green signals
doesn't imply that
I don't love you.
If I say I have never told the moon about you, don't believe me. If I say the
way you look at me doesn't make me think about you, don't believe me. I
say that I don't invent reasons to stay with you, don't believe me. If I say we
are just friends and not anything more, don't believe me. If I say I don't see
something in your eyes to believe in, don't believe me.
(LOOK STRAIGHT INTO MY EYES AND LISTEN TO WHAT
THEY HAVE TO SAY. BECAUSE WORDS CAN'T ALWAYS TELL
YOU THE TRUTH)

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ALL I KNOW IS THAT
YOU'RE STUCK
IN MY HEART.

And I don't know

what to do with it.

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 But I spent countless minutes
thinking about it
and making it happen
in my head,
even though I knew
it was not going to happen
anyway.

(I love you with all my heart and honestly want you to be a part of my life,
but when I figure out all of these things, I end up thinking about giving up
on you every time.
There are some things that simply are not meant to be. Some of our wildest
dreams are just that: wild. They live in our imaginations only. )

-THERE IS A LOT OF STUFF THAT GOES AGAINST THE

IDEA OF BOTH OF US BEING TOGETHER.

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 You are the
ache of my
heart.

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And I never thought
I would fall in love
with the ache
of my heart.

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I crossed my boundaries, and you taught me why they are vital to preserve.
You proved to me that not everything we think is valuable is actually
valuable. For the first time, meeting someone felt like you were someone
worth a chance; you were someone who was worth the effort. And when I
finally worked up the courage to trust you, you showed me why I should
never have done that. You made me believe that I was getting so much more
than I ever could have had, when in reality, it was not even the bare
minimum of what I deserved. You convinced me that you were the one, and
when I began to feel that way, how easily you said, "I don't see it working
that way."

YOU TAUGHT ME WHAT LOVE IS.

YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO LOVE,
AND YOU ENDED UP

-NOT LOVING ME.

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 I ignored the fact that
you, too,
are just a
random
person.

(I SHOULDN'T HAVE SEARCHED FOR A

HOME WITHIN YOU)

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 You're from a
parallel universe,
and I don't know
why my path
has crossed with
yours.
Why did you even meet me
if you weren't
supposed to be mine?

There is a universe
between us,
like the distance between
A and Z.
(LOVE MULTIVERSE)

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I don't know whether
I'll ever be able to tell you that
when you're not around,
my nights are agitated.

I don't know whether

I'll ever be able to tell you that
when you are not around,
the sun does not shine in
through my windows.

I don't know whether

I'll ever be able to tell you that
when you are not around,
not a single flower opens its petals.
The earth seems like a barren desert.

I don't know whether

I'll ever be able to tell you that
when you are not around,
the sky rains fire.

I don't know whether

I'll ever be able to tell you that
When you are not around,
the air becomes a burden
on my lungs.

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 I don't know whether
I'll ever be able to tell you that
your absence is the reason
for the emptiness in my eyes.

(I wish you were here, or at least not from the beginning. What if I hadn't
met you in the first place? I am unable to understand what the point of
bringing you into my life was if you had to leave. Why did you begin it if
you didn't know how to carry it? If you can't finish it?)

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You have removed me
from your life so easily,
as if I mean nothing to you.
You have forgotten me
as if I was never there.
But tell me
how can I forget to breathe?
Even if I dare to remove you
from my life,
tell me how to remove you
from this heart.
No matter
what I do,
where I go,
who I become
or how I feel,
the truth is
I will always belong to you.
You are part of
everything I am.

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 I'm afraid
I'll lose everything
just to feel your touch
on my skin.

I wouldn't have owned you if you hadn't met me. If you hadn't met me, my
heart would never have learnt to beat. Before you, I had no idea how much
love was coursing through my veins.

In my quest for you, I've come across a road that leads nowhere, probably
with no definite end. And certainly, it is not going towards you. Not at all.

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YOU WILL ONLY BE HURT
DEEPLY, WHEN YOU LOVE
DEEPLY
You only lose what you have.

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You're the moon to my earth;
I know exactly what I want,
but can never get there.
I can't help but fall in love with you,
even though I understand very well that

-there's no way to have the moon.

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The strong desire
for closeness
to something,
to an idea,
a place,
or a person.

We are always
in search of
proximity
in order to feel
accepted,
secure,
and
loved.

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Is it
too much
to ask
if I say

-all I want is to feel you?

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 I understand
why things had to turn out
in this way,
but my heart doesn't.

-It is not yet ready

to let you go.

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Eyes tell a lot
about the heart,
and yours offer me
everything
I could ever
possibly hope to want.

-Just like the moon attracts the ocean to itself, your eyes are drawing me to
you.

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When we cross paths with others who carry the same vibes as we do, our
hearts flutter, we try to keep pace with them, and we begin to move in their
direction. That's natural. We can't afford to resist that emotional vortex, the
intense desire to be close to others, because that's something we are born
with. We are all born with an urge to be connected with others, to feel
loved, wanted, welcomed and owned by others.

_____that's all we want, right? Someone who loves us, owns us, and
accepts us with all our flaws, imperfections, and messiness. Someone from
whom we don't have to hide our true self.

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No matter how beautiful it is,
the end of the attachment is
sad.

-Always sad.

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I fear
I will lose you
in my desire
to be more than

-just friends.

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Despite what else
they tried to
make me believe in.
I gave you
every bit of mine,
every last drop of
my soul,
to fill all your cracks.
When everyone there told me
you didn't even merit
to be a star,
I made you the sky of my world,
and you pushed me to that edge
that makes me feel that
I am not even
a tiniest part of
my own sky.

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We fail, unfortunately, when we lose our emotional independence and start
looking for satisfaction and a place of safety for our hearts in things, in
places, or in people. We fail when we try to chase them. We fail when we
try to consume too much of them. We fail when we try to belong to
someone, when we try to be with someone or get something at the cost of
ourselves. We fail when we start believing what others think of us, when we
base our behavior on others’ opinions, and begin to criticize and undervalue
ourselves.

No one will treat you with the kindness and care that you are worth if you
don't do it for yourself. You first belong to yourself and
then to everything else.

(YOU CAN LOVE SOMEONE

AND STILL CHOOSE YOURSELF)

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You are not bound to live up
to everyone's expectations
because not everyone in your life
really needs to matter to you.

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I used to believe that everything had a timeline. There can be no beginning
without an end. After the day comes the night. Happiness gives way to
melancholy. I was terrified, because I have seen how things come to an end,
the way life works. This natural law of replacement and change always
filled me with grief and made me not believe in the permanence of things. I
was always so scared of being hurt, of being replaced, that I never had the
courage to admit I could fall for someone. I was always so scared to build
something that I could lose later.

I always tried to run away

From feelings.
From commitments.
From forevers.
From endings.
From all those who told me
they loved me.
From everyone
and everything,
I feared
I could lose
myself in.

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For me, love was always on the list of things I believed I should avoid. It
was not that I couldn't hold it, but because of how it ends. The ending
always prevents me from starting something new. I didn't want to be like
the people I saw falling apart because of it. I never wanted to live with a
broken heart. It was never my idea to fall in love. However, you changed
everything. You made me believe in love. You made me believe in
you. You showed me that love is not something to run away from. or to be
ignored. You taught me that love isn't a nightmare that I need to be afraid
of.

But unfortunately,
it was the same you
who told me that
all my fears about love
were true.
You convinced me
to believe in you.
And when I dared to give you a chance,
you tore me apart.
You rejected and disowned
each and every inch of me,
when I was all into you.
And then you walked away, so easily
from all that wreckage
that you made of me.
(FROM MY SOUL AND BODY TO MY HEART AND MIND, YOU
SHATTERED EVERYTHING)
You made me
feel things
that I would have
never allowed
myself to feel
if it weren't for the fact that
they were for you.

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Why did you prove me right
when I wanted to be
proven wrong
for the first time
in my life?
Why did you let me win
when I wanted to lose
for the first time
in my life?

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 You made me realize that
I was missing the
aesthetic view of life
before you,
and after losing you,
the emptiness in my heart
makes me feel that
having you in my life
was a
privilege.

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MAKE THE BEST OF WHAT
YOU HAVE, NO MATTER
HOW FLAWED IT IS
Higher expectations ruin the
delicacy of relationships .

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Our overly high standards of expectations lead us towards massive
disappointment:
Sometimes you feel trapped by the idea of being close to something or
someone. You expect, expect, and eventually your expectations become
uncontrollably high, and you appear to become addicted to them. You
become overly demanding or possessive of them, making them feel
restricted. Scared. And uncomfortable.
Maybe because you are afraid of losing them, of being rejected, or of being
worthless. but this makes it hard for them to meet your unnecessary
expectations physically, mentally, and emotionally. And when they fail to
satisfy you, or you don't see them struggling towards you, it feels like your
connection is melting minute by minute, with nothing you can do about it.
You don't feel getting as much attention as you're expecting. The quality of
love is not as you think it should be. Your connection doesn't look like it
would be fulfilling enough. You're unsure of their intentions and
commitments. You try to make yourself look like the person they picture
you in their head. Maybe you're afraid they will leave you or that your
relationship won't work if you're not exactly who they want you to be. All
this mess of emotions and expectations makes you believe that they are
looking for an excuse to run away from you. They are going to dump you.
You start feeling insecure in your relationship. And that ultimately makes
you wonder if you are really in the right place. Are you good enough for
them? Is that what you want?

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If you expect someone to know what you need without you telling them,
how would they know? If you expect someone to be who they are not, how
is this possible? How could this be possible if you expect someone to talk to
you all day long? How could you expect someone to feel comfortable with
you while everything you do makes them feel uncomfortable? How can you
expect someone to be sure about you when you yourself are unsure about
what you want? How could you expect someone to stay with you when you
are teaching them to live without you?

You can not force someone to be loyal to you and your relationship, or to
feel the connection that you do. You just can't do it because it is something
that takes time. You cannot expect your relationship to be flawless. You
can't make someone settle for less than what they think they deserve. You
can't force someone to make a choice in your favor. You can't make
someone pick you. To love you.

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Don't you see that the person you want to do everything you like and quit
doing everything that you do not like, even if it's their favorite, has a
personal life? Aside from you, they have some other friends whom they
have to give time to. They have their own plans, their own stuff to do, their
own dreams to live, their own goals to follow. Because you have a
relationship with someone, how can you expect them to put aside their self-
interests and sacrifice their desires for your sake? Isn't it fair to say that
you're being unjust? Isn't it? Why should someone give up something just
because you're not a part of it and they're in a relationship with you?

The fact that you are in love with someone doesn't mean they have to give
up on what they love. It is simply unreasonable. It's important to remember
that everyone has a life beyond your relationship
with them, and you should respect that.

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Don't put undue pressure or unnecessary strain on people by expecting too
much. Don't burden them with the responsibility of
making you feel ful l. When you expect too much from others, you
simply wear them out. It's like putting a flower pot in a windowless cave.
By depriving it of sunlight, air, and water, you want it to grow and bloom.
Is it workable?

(DON'T TRY TO FORCE THINGS; INSTEAD, GIVE YOUR

RELATIONSHIPS ROOM TO DEVELOP NATURALLY)

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Just because
I can't have you
doesn't mean
I can't keep
loving you.

-I like to want you and I like to love you, and I like it so badly.

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 Even if
love gives you wings
to fly,
the tenderness of these wings
will prevent you
from flying
too far.

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The more I see you,
the more I fall
in love with you.
Every time,
in a million
different
ways.

-WOULD YOU MIND MAKING ME

THE BEAT OF YOUR HEART?

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 I
lost
everything
I
loved;
I
don’t
want
to
lose
you.

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No one else could ever blow my heart the way you did:
The deeper I swim
in search of you,
the deeper you seem to me
to be at the bottom of the ocean.

The more I read and learn about you,

the more intrigued
I become.

The more I think

I'm getting close to you,
the more difficult it is for me
to reach you.

The more I conquer you,

the more my curiosity
about you
soars.

The harder I pursue you,

the faster you flee.

The more I discover about you,

the more I want to know everything
there is to know about you.

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 You are my
Everest.

Ethereal,
Irreplaceable,
Phenomenal,

-tough to approach.

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 We are not allowed
to keep all the things
we love
or we want.

And how unfortunate is that

-all I want is you.

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 Love is living in the chaos of that moment
that makes the mess of your heart.
Love isn't about
figuring out
how to get out
of a storm;
it's about
having the guts
to dance
in the midst of the storm.

-Love is all about courage.

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Love is love
when you love
someone
unconditionally,
even in
unfavorable conditions,
especially in
unfavorable conditions,
without
any hesitation.

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 "I love you" is not
everything
to express
your feelings
for someone.

What you do
matters more than
what you say.

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The other day, I asked someone what love is, and their reply was:
"Love is a willingness to compromise. When we fall in
love with someone, we love them completely and we accept them as they
are, with their flaws and imperfections, the good and the bad that exist
inside them. We don't try to change them, but we are always there to show
them the right path between right and wrong. We want the moments when
they smile to last forever. We want to shield them from every gust of
stinging winds and every ray of scorching sun and wrap them in the
soothing warmth of our arms_______That's all love is."

(SOME WORDS REALLY DO HAVE THE POWER TO MAKE

YOU FEEL SOMETHING)

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Love is more about what you do:

Love is the willingness

to change your
behaviour for someone.
Love is writing and sending a poem
to someone on their birthday
rather than buying them expensive things.
Love is celebrating
little moments in your relationship.
Love is in the sacrifices
you make in order to give someone
the best quality of life.
Love is shown in preferences
when you put someone first in all matters.
Love is found in those tight,
desperately needed hugs
that you give to someone
after they've experienced
a major setback in their lives.
Love is to remember someone
in your prayers.
Love is being supportive of someone in their career.
Love is understanding
and appreciating someone for who they are.
Love is to know what someone wants.
Love is being kind to someone for no reason.

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Love is assisting someone
in overcoming a challenging time
without them realizing
they owe you something.
Love is unexpectedly meeting
someone after a long time
in a restaurant and spending
quality time with them without
complaining about anything.
Love is standing up for someone
who has just defeated you
and clapping for them
in the midst of the crowd.
Love is making the road
easier to walk on
by picking up all the thorns
in someone's way.
Love is seeing someone grow.
Love is taking time out of your
super busy schedule to spend time with someone.
Love is to stop someone from making
a bad decision for themselves.
Love is agreeing to someone
without any argument.
Love is believing in someone
who is not ready to believe in themselves.

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Love is
planting a flower
and waiting for it
to bloom
fully.

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Love is not love if it can't make an effort towards you. If it doesn't have the
ability to evolve in order within you, if it can't change its limits to make
room for you, if both parties do not agree with its definition, if it focuses on
quantity, not quality. It is not love if there's not an equal investment of time
and feelings from both sides, if there's no belief in equality, if it doesn't
own your flaws. Love is not love if it can't make you captive to it. If it can't
turn your tears into laughter. If it can't protect you. If it is not able to defend
you in your absence, if it doesn't do miracles. It's not love if it doesn't
accept you as who you are. If it doesn't make you feel proud to have it, if it
doesn't make you humble. Love is not love if it cannot make you oblivious
to the world around you.

If it is not ready to carry your heart, if it doesn't let you grow in your own
way, then it isn't worth it.

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If I start counting my love for you
and piling it up,
it will go beyond the galaxies.
It will be more than the stars in the sky
and the specks of sand on the earth.

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 IF YOU DON'T GIVE IT A
CHANCE, HOW WOULD
YOU KNOW IT'S RIGHT
FOR YOU
Sometimes love comes to you when you are not even looking for it, and you
see it in all that you do.

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Two people forming a relationship
are two distinct ideas.
but are open
to exploring their differences.
They are willing
to learn and appreciate
each other's unique perspectives
without disagreeing
or questioning it.
They embrace one another
as they are.
They know
what their limits are
and how to respect
the boundaries,
freedom,
individuality
and personal space
of the other person.

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Everyone has a different way of looking at things and a unique approach to
the world and the events that unfold around them. Depending on what we
know, have learned, and experienced in the past, we view things differently.
When you say you're in a relationship with someone, it means that you
accept them for who they are, with their beliefs and perspectives.

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"Give some, take some" is the guiding principle behind all healthy
relationships:

There are times when you and your partner disagree over something. It is
possible for many things to go wrong in a number of ways that may result
in conflicting opinions between you and your partner. There are moments
when your preferences don't match those of your partner. This is the time to
be flexible in your arguments and to show a willingness to compromise on
things you don't like in order to find a solution to the matter that both of you
can live with.

We may need to adjust our preferences and inclinations from time to time in
order to focus on what is most important to us and what we should value the
most.

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We must deal with the fact that sometimes we are so unjust and harsh that
we want our partner to make all the sacrifices and compromises necessary
for a relationship to work. It's a never-ending cycle of demands. One after
another, we keep on asking them to do more. In our ignorance, we fail to
recognize the fact that their concerns aren't being addressed and that their
requirements aren't being satisfied.

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They think twice before doing anything, simply to make sure that you are
satisfied and happy with whatever they do. They are unconcerned with their
own thoughts and feelings. They place your interests ahead of their own.
Despite knowing what they want, they choose to disregard and ignore it
since they know you don't want it. Every time they put you first. From the
color of their clothes to the decisions they make in their lives, from their
appearance to their work, they embrace everything you like and everything
you want. They do not have a personal life. They, like machines, are always
waiting for your commands to be followed.
They value your overly demanding standards of expectation, not knowing
that in all this process of pleasing you and saving their relationship, they are
losing themselves along the way. They have no idea that they are not
solidifying their relationship, but rather
preventing themselves from growing. They forget to live in
the aura of happiness and the lustre of love. They forget what it means to
"Be Yourself." They don't even remember the last time they stood for their
rights. And I and you are the ones who make them and cause them to lose
the part of themselves that is essential for growth by expecting much more
from them.

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Constantly pressuring your partner to make concessions is not a recipe for a
happy and healthy relationship.

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You can't save a relationship by not allowing it to grow, by not allowing
yourself to grow, by not allowing your partner to grow. You're only making
things worse. Make sure you have something on the plate to offer your
partner in exchange the next time you ask them to give up something for the
sake of the relationship.

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 Don't do it
if it's not
what it should be.

Don't do it
if you are not
sure about it.

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 The
saddest
thing
about
life
is
that
there
are
no
happy
endings.

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The failure of a relationship isn't always your fault:

When we say compromise, it doesn't mean that the other person isn't
involved in the process. Doing more isn't always your responsibility. It isn't
always up to you to take the lead. There are times when you don't have to
give up or compromise on your principles and perspectives. The
responsibility of safeguarding your relationship does not necessarily fall on
you alone. The volume of effort you've already made is way beyond what
they could ever imagine or deserve.

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You do everything you can. You go above and above. You spend time with
them, paying attention to them, and doing all those things that show how
much you care and love them. You modify your behavior, change your
habits and routines for them, even change your bedtimes to accommodate
their schedules and demands. The way you live changes. You forget to
laugh. You stop asking for your rights. You no longer take care of yourself.
You back away from everything you choose. You have no idea what is
going on around you. All you know is that you have to save your
relationship at whatever cost.

You give up all your interests to avoid reaching a point of disagreement

with your partner in order to come to a place of understanding. All you do
is more than your best. But they don't see your worth. They don't value their
relationship with you. They think you are hard to love before they even give
you a try. They are blind to your efforts and sacrifices. Even though you
know they're treating you wrong, you keep telling yourself it's okay and
justifying it by making up excuses in their favor.

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It is not only you who needs to compromise your beliefs or abandon your
values to keep your relationship going smoothly. Compromise does not
imply one-sided efforts with no involvement on the part of the other person.
This isn't to say that you're the only one responsible for protecting your
relationship or that you're the only one who has to give up something that's
important to you and continually adjust your value system on a regular
basis. No, this is not the case. Both of you need to change and adjust your
attitudes to break the stalemate and show that you are willing to keep the
balance in your relationship.

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 Treating someone well
does not guarantee that
they will treat you well.

If you treat someone well,

don't expect them
to treat you the same way,
because not everyone is
as good-hearted as you are.

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CHOOSE THE PEOPLE
WHO CHOOSE YOU

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You cannot keep pouring
all of your heart into something
that does not have a heart to receive it.

-you're trying to fill the black hole.

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Never compromise your worth.

Don't throw yourself into the hands of those who don't offer you the same.
Don't cast your radiance over those who try to run away from it. It's wrong
to put yourself second to putting someone first who doesn't put you
anywhere. Stop investing yourself in those who don't appreciate it. Stop
trying to make an effort for those who have stopped caring. Don't give
someone too much space in your life that when they are not there, your life
doesn't feel like life. You are hurting yourself in your efforts to save them.

YOU SHOULDN’T FEEL GUILTY FOR WALKING AWAY FROM

THOE WHO DON'T DESERVE YOU. CUTTING TOXIC PEOPLE
OUT OF YOUR LIFE IS SELF-CARE.

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It's always the least expected people
who disappoint us the most,
in an unexpected way
when we don't even expect it.

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We often leave a lot unsaid:
Sometimes you have a lot on your mind that you want to confess. Your
heart is sometimes swamped with thwarted desires, unforgotten dreams,
hidden quests, and untouched moments. There are times when you feel a
whirlwind of emotions rushing through you and you want to say it all, say it
loudly, but you just can't do it. You prefer not to say a single word because
you are standing in a vacuum. Standing in front of someone who doesn't
even feel you. It is not that you have nothing to say. No, you have all the
answers, but you know they will never understand your reasons. You know
that what you are holding within you cannot be absorbed by them. You are
tired of explanations. Because you are too mature to win any argument at
the cost of your relationship. And if they think you don’t care, let them.
Because you’ve had enough experiences in the past that show you exactly
why you shouldn’t. Because you know that this is a one-way street, what
you have is for someone who is not just ready.

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 Everything isn't
meant to be said,
there are things
that are meant
to be
-felt.

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I wouldn't have
made the decision
to fall in love
if love was a

-choice.

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I learnt that no matter how hard you try, your maximum will never be
enough for some people. Some people are not going to be satisfied with
you. It's not that you did something wrong. Of course not. You are
doing the right thing, but for the wrong person .
You can't be enough for someone who doesn't recognize your worth. You
can't be enough for someone who isn't sure where to place you in their life.
You can't be enough for someone who is confused about you. You can't be
enough for someone who isn't good for you. You can't be enough for
someone who has no idea what it means to have you.

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If someone wants to commit,
they will commit.
You don't convince them.
You don't beg them.
You don't chase them.

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And sometimes
we waste years of our lives
on something
just to find out that
it was never meant for us.

We have to make peace

with the fact that
some people will never love us,

-no matter what we do

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I was there, always there for you,
perhaps you were not.

When everyone told me that

you don't deserve even an inch of me,
I gave you my all.

I saw you needed love.

I loved you.
I loved you without needing you to be perfect.
I loved you even with your deepest scars.
Even with your darkness.
Even with your insecurities.
Even with your imperfections.
Especially with your imperfections.

I saw you needed someone

to take care of you.
I poured my best efforts into you.
I saw you needed attention,
and I was there without any second thought.

I was there through thick and thin,

even in your rough days,
even when you were at your worst.

I was there to hide your flaws,

to wrap your darkness.

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I was there
when you wanted to laugh,
when you wanted to cry,
and when all you wanted was someone
to be with you.

In times of grief,
uncertainty,
and struggle.
I was there for you.
When I owed myself more to myself than anyone else,
I still made sure to be there for you.

I knew you were going to break my heart.

I knew I would end up with nothing.
I knew it and I risked it anyway.

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I was there,
always there
for you.
Perhaps you were not

The devotion I've chosen to give you

has not been reciprocated in any way.

I showered you with

unfathomable amounts of love,
but in return,
you never gave so much
as a single drop of that love to me.

You never thought I was enough for you.

My love and care weren't enough for you.
You never thought so.

Was I so insignificant that you never,

for a moment in your life,
thought of casting a loving glance my way?
Did I really never matter to you?

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I thought my love would be enough.

I wanted to show everyone that

a dead rose can still be loved.

I wanted to show everyone that

a beautiful life can be built
out of a mess.

I wanted to show everyone that

things rooted from scratch
can still be meaningful.

I thought my love would be enough

to fill all your cracks,
to heal all your pain,
to mend all your wounds,
to answer all your insecurities,
to calm all your fears.

I thought my love would be enough

to patch up all the holes in your heart
and make you whole again.

I thought my love would be enough.

I wish my love was enough.
I wish I could have been enough for you.

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We don't want to ruin something we already have by taking a chance
on something we are not sure we can build:

It's not that we are afraid of feeling the stuff, but of how people will
respond. The fear of being hurt stops us from getting too attached. We are
afraid of the outcomes. We are afraid of being rejected. Nobody likes being
told "no." We are afraid of being misunderstood. We are afraid that they
might not feel the same way. We are afraid to lose what we have.

Isn't it? People wait for us to confess, and we are waiting for them to
confess. We don't let our feelings come out, but inside we all desperately
want to tell them. We want people to know how we feel about them, but we
want it without our telling them. If you keep waiting for the right moment
to share things that are going through your head and heart, you will waste
your entire life doing so. The moment will never arise for you unless you
decide to take a stand.

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Own your feelings.

Sometimes it's difficult for some of us to express our gratitude to others or

let people know how much they mean to us. We stop trying on them
because we think we are making them uncomfortable. They, on the other
hand, are waiting for us too, but are too shy to say so. This is the irony of
this generation. We don't own our feelings. We say what we
don't mean and expect others to understand what we don't say. Tell people
you need them. Tell people how you feel about them. Tell people you love
them. Tell people how they make you feel. Tell people how much they
mean to you. Tell people where you put them in your life. Tell people
whatever you want to say to them. Talk. Confess your emotions. If you
don't tell them, they won't know. You don't know how badly people out
there want to hear you. want to talk to you. Just one kind word from you
can change someone's life.

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I'm not saying that if you're dating someone or seeing them for only a week,
you should go to them and tell them you love them. Don't rush
things. Don't misunderstand your infatuation for true love. Be sure of
what you want. Be honest with your feelings . And if you feel
it's right, don't be ashamed to admit it.
Our egos shouldn't be more important to us than the love we have for that
person. You have no idea that what you have to say could have a huge
impact on their lives. Don't let something amazing end before starting by
just not taking the chance.
We always regret what we don't say or what we don't do. Maybe they felt
the same about you. Maybe not. But at least, in the end, you will have the
satisfaction of knowing that you did your best. You did everything in your
control to make it happen. You would not have to live with the burden of
not asking them. It's always better to give something a shot than to look
back on it with regrets and wonder what might have been.

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 Loving someone
doesn't guarantee
they are going to
love you back.
You can't force a relationship.
You can't make someone
fall in love with you.
You can just love them.
What they decide to do
with that love
is their choice.

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We both know
we love each other
but are still afraid to
hold it.

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When you realize
your words
no longer count
as much as they once did,
there is nothing the same
as it used to be;
the best thing to do is to

-stop trying so hard.

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 You're everything.
Everything
I was not privileged
enough

-to hold.

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IT’S OKAY TO TAKE A
BREAK
A chance to reconsider our feelings.

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 Taking some time off
from the things in your life
that are causing you stress
can give you the opportunity to evaluate
what aspects of your life you value
and what aspects of your life
you are willing to let go.

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 Taking a break doesn't separate us;
sometimes it is the reason
we choose to stay.

It's what makes us stay.

It's why we stay.

Sometimes you get tired of doing the same thing over and over again.
Distance is incredibly important in order for things to work smoothly. It
makes us think twice about what we truly want. You may have observed
that even the funniest jokes don't always give you a good laugh. You don't
all read the same book because you know how it goes. In the same clip, you
do not get emotional as you understand that it's just a scene and nothing
more. You don't make the same mistake twice because you're mindful and
know in the back of your mind that this isn't the right way for you. And
perhaps you might have noticed that you get bored by your daily routines,
by visiting the same places and by seeing the same faces repeatedly.

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 When you find it difficult
to keep someone in your life,
you need to take a break for a while
from that relationship,
not break up with that person.

-give them space, not distance.

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When your relationship isn't going smoothly:

Everything seems to be falling apart.

Collapsing.
What you've done is not working anymore.
Your maximum is not enough.
You feel caught in the mud.
Rather than being supportive,
your partner seems to have become
overly demanding.
Every time you have a disagreement.
You're more focused on each other's flaws
than celebrating your strength.
There is nothing left to hold on to.
You are no longer you.
You feel exhausted.
Unloved. Ignored. Misunderstood.
Insecure. And left.
Your relationship seems boring. Changed.
Things are dark and gloomy.
Going nowhere.
You spend more time thinking about
what you don't have than what you do have.
You are bothered by what isn't working
rather than satisfied with what is.
Instead of appreciating the good,
you focus on the bad stuff.

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When you don't feel satisfied
with the way you are walking,
pause for a moment.

Take some time off.

Take a little break.
for a while.
From all of the things
you are concerned about,

From anyone who makes you feel agitated.

from your partner.
from your friends.
From your family.
From your work.
From unstoppable thoughts.

Allow yourself to be free of anything

that makes you feel like you're not yourself.
Be relaxed.
Just take a deep breath.
Spend some time with yourself.
all alone.
Feel what you are.
To find all of the answers you're looking for,
And let go of everything
that is stopping you from growing.

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A little bit of space from the other person
will give you both time to figure out
what the problem is about
and where it's leading you.
It will help both of you reflect on
why you're in a relationship
and what you want from it,
what you are investing in it,
and what brought you to the edge of it.

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 Love
is
not
something
you
have
to
hide
from.

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If you want to help them,
give them some space for your own sake.
If you're meant to be together,
things will work out.

You will make it in the end.

You will manage to convince yourself.
There will be explanations.
You will find reasons.
You will have a valid excuse.
to stay with them.
And then everything will be OK again.
It will all fall into place where it should be.

But if you're not right for each other,

you will reach a point
where you accept

-that's not your way.

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Don't
let
love
be
the
reason
for
your

-downfall.

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Just because they've got you, doesn't mean they have the right to treat
you wrongly .

You are fighting for a lost cause. You are watering a dead plant. You are no
longer the person you were supposed to be. You are who they want to see.
You are the only one who is suffering endlessly. You're the one who needs
to prove your worth every time. They are not ready to fix their parts. You
always put them before you. Prioritize their needs. Their desires Their
decisions. But they are blind to your sacrifices. They don't appreciate you.
They are not willing to put in the effort to make this work. They only love
you when they want to or when it's convenient for them. You are never their
all-time choice. You're not the first person they think of when they're
looking for a home. Your name isn't the first thing that crosses their mind
when they sit under the stars.

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They take your love for weakness. But the truth is, it is you who grants
them permission to make you feel worthless. You put in your all, your best,
your maximum in the middle of nowhere without realizing that the place
where you've invested everything you've had is wrong. But you don't
understand until it's too late. You offer them more than they deserve, yet
they don't even give you enough in return. And when they leave,
they take every reason you had with them to live
for. They take everything good with them. They take you along with
them. You're all left with nothing but regrets.

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Don't ignore the way they make you feel.

Efforts to be accepted by others have made you forget what it is like to feel
free to truly be yourself. You've given so much of yourself to others that
you've lost touch with who you were. Trying to please others at the expense
of your own happiness is the worst thing you can do to yourself. Don't hurt
yourself to fix someone else.

Don't try to find false excuses to defend their mistakes, their coldness, their
unevenness, their lack of interest and compassion. It's terrible to cut away
pieces of yourself just to fit into their box. You don't need to be apologetic
for being who you are. Do you. Be you. Don't build a home
where your heart feels like a stranger. Don't settle for
nothing. Don't lower your standards to meet someone else's lower
standards.

In fact, you're not for everyone.

You're for someone
who makes you feel that
you deserve to be
unconditionally loved,
to be welcomed,
to be wanted,
to be understood,
to be kept.

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The way someone treats you, tells everything.

You deserve the right kind of effort

without being asked.
Don't let anyone
make you believe
you are not enough.

You are enough,

but you will never be enough for anyone
who really doesn't care about you.

If you are fighting for something

that isn't even there,
it is better to just give up and let it go.

All you have is love for them

and they don't think it's not enough
to stick with you.

IF YOU'RE ALWAYS OKAY WITH THE WAY THEY TREAT YOU,

IF YOU ALWAYS IGNORE THE WAY THEY MAKE YOU FEEL,
YOU WILL LOSE YOUR WORTH.

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 Love is not a bad idea,
but building a home in people is.

people are too terrible

-to live in them.

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Sometimes things are
just not meant to work out.
And sometimes the things
that don't work out
are the things

-that matter the most.

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It's hard to be honest with your feelings and admit them when you know
you want someone you can't have. You can wish desperately to have them.
You can care for them unconditionally, you can choose them with all of
your heart, you can love their whole being behind them, but deep down, the
realization that you can never have them always stings.

IT'S BETTER TO MAKE YOUR HEART UNDERSTAND WHEN

YOU KNOW IT'S GOING TO BREAK ALONG THIS WAY.

-you can't afford to live with a broken heart.

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 All my heart's doors
have been locked
since the first time
I opened them.

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 How can you let someone go and still love them?

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 LIFE GOES ON
When everything around you falls apart and no one is coming to save
you.

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I know it's not easy to live with
the emptiness you are holding,
the hurt you're breathing,
the things you can't talk about.

Some wounds cannot be seen,

but they leave scars on your soul
that never go away and flatten over time.
The pain weighing on your heart
keeps you from moving forward.
It steals your identity.
It doesn't let you accept yourself.
Every day you wake up, it's there.
It gets heavier with every breath you take.
It is scary and overwhelming.
-SOMETIMES THE HEART GETS TOO HEAVY TO CARRY.

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We all have those moments in our lives where we don't want to live another
second of it. Sometimes things happen that leave us feeling we can't take it
any longer. Sometimes life unfolds in a way that makes us want to scream,
"I don't want to live this anymore!" We are too exhausted from living, and it
seems easier for us to die. But we choose ourselves. We choose to believe
ourselves. And this is the greatest thing. This is the bravest thing you can do

—to keep going and holding on the hope despite having endless pain in
your heart.

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I know it takes a lot. It really takes a lot to sit with the parts of yourself that
make you feel uncomfortable, the thoughts that haunt you, or the emotions
that scare you, or your past wounds, and allow yourself to feel all those
things and then gently work through them. Actually it takes more than a
lot____You don't need to run away from your feelings, emotions, or
suffering. accept them. own them. feel them. talk about them. Learn the
lesson they are trying to teach you and let them go. But if you don't address
what hurts you, you will not heal from it. Even if you don't heal from it, at
least you will learn to live with it peacefully. You will manage to carry all
of this mess in the most beautiful way possible.

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Embrace what you have.

We are always trying to figure out how to be happy, but the days we cannot
have back and the days that we can never be sure if they will come do not
allow us to fully embrace the present. The fact is we don't actually live; we
just plan to live.
Despite having everything, there is always
something missing in our lives. Even when we have all that
we could ever want, life still manages to keep us restless. It never lets us be
content with what we have at this very moment and let ourselves be
satisfied with it. We aren't even done with one goal when we start thinking
about the next one. No matter how much we have, there's always that
lingering feeling that there's more out there.
But life's not about regretting yesterday or worrying about tomorrow. It is
all about today . It's about what you have right now. Stop living
somewhere you don't belong. Make every moment count.

HOLD ON TO WHAT IS IN YOUR GRASP , AND LET GO OF

WHAT YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OVER. BE PRESENT IN THE
MOMENT AND IN EACH BREATH THAT YOU TAKE.

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You can't breathe with a broken heart:

In your efforts to give your best of yourself to others, don't forget that you
too deserve the same love and kindness that you offer to others. Please treat
yourself rightly. Beyond everything you belong to in this world, the most
important thing of all is you . It's not selfish to make choices that benefit
you. No one is deserving of yourself more than you when you need to have
it the most. Don't feel guilty for putting yourself first. You can't give others
what you don't have. You can't love with a broken heart. You can't heal a
broken heart with a broken heart. You can't save anyone from the pain when
you have your own heart crashing into your chest. You must first focus on
repairing what is broken inside you. You can't pour from an empty cup. Fill
your cup first. Before offering yourself to anyone, fill yourself first.

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It's just that sometimes
it's hard to find hope,
but it's never really lost.
It's always there.

At the very moment when it seems

there is no longer any reason to have hope,
life always gives you some reason
to hang in there, to keep going .

Be positive about yourself

even when you don't feel like it.
Especially when you don't feel like it.

Set some goals.

If something is not working,
try something else.
Sometimes nothing works,
and that's when it's time to take a step back
and look at things from a different point of view.
Don't just sit there
and wait for things to get better
on their own.

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Try one more time, one more thing:

You must always be willing to take a chance on whatever it is you're

interested in, no matter what, whether it is a relationship, an opportunity, or
a dream. Go for it. Put out your best effort, even when you are aware that
there is no hope for you to succeed. Living with buts and ifs,
regrets, the heaviness of wishing you had done
things differently is not an easy thing.

If you have to fail, give it a try and fail. It's better to fail than not try at all.
In the end, when it's all said and done, you won't be left with any questions
or second thoughts.

If you feel like giving up is the only option, take a break. If you find
yourself getting tired of all that, take a break. If nothing else seems to be
working for you, take a break. Take a break if you've already gotten lost too
much. When you want an escape from your daily routine, from your family,
from your friends, from the world, even from yourself, take a break. Take a
break for a while, and then try again. Don't give up. just don't. Try
everything that might help pull you out of this feeling of emptiness. If you
think you have tried everything, there is always one thing left that you
haven't tried yet.

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Spend time with yourself. Try to feel yourself. Give yourself some
attention. Be gentle with yourself. Remember, you have got time to find all
the answers you are looking for. Keep going, especially when it doesn't feel
like it. Keep going even when the water is too deep, even when the waves
are too high. Keep going even when the skies are too foggy, even when the
path is too slick. Keep going even when the rain is too heavy, even when
the storm is too wild. Please don't forget that the sun is always waiting to
shine brightly for you behind the clouds. There is someone who needs more
and more of you in every single way. Don't give up. on your life, on your
happiness, on your dreams, on yourself. Just don't. You are worthy of every
single breath you take. Just hang in there. Keep going. Continue to grow
yourself.

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Happiness is within you:

You don't need to have big moments to feel happy or at peace with yourself.
Happiness is a willingness. Happiness stems from the attitude of accepting
what comes your way. Happiness is a choice. You don't have to achieve
anything to be happy; you just have to be happy. And you can always
choose to be happy anytime.
Choose to be grateful for the little things that enlighten your day.
Appreciate all those people who try to make you feel better. All those
moments that cheer you up. In the mess of feelings, focus on what is
important, what brings peace to your soul, and let all the rest go. Hold on to
something that gives you courage to keep going and a reason to pull
yourself out of bed every morning to face the same things over and over
again.
Happiness is all about experiencing and appreciating every shade of life. It
is the peace of your mind. It is celebrating what is truly important to you. It
can be anything that allows you to be who you are and how weird you are.

It can be a good book that wraps you up. It can be getting an unexpected
phone call or email from an old friend. It can be a long drive to nowhere. It
can be ordering your favorite food at 2:00 a.m.

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 It can be a song that hits you just right every time. Happiness is seeing
some old photos while scrolling through your phone gallery. Happiness is
texting from under the blanket. Happiness is smiling like an idiot whenever
you get messages from your idiot. Happiness is sitting on the balcony with
a cup of coffee and a romantic novel on a rainy night.
Happiness is your friend tagging you in some stupid, meaningless
Instagram post that no one else can understand except the two of you.
Happiness is hiding in the arms of someone and forgetting about the rest of
the world for a while. Happiness is putting your head on the chest of
someone after a long, tiring day. Happiness is suddenly catching someone
who is already looking at you with eyes full of emotions that are pouring
out of their hearts. Happiness is taking refuge in cozy, tight hugs.

Happiness can be lying down

on the rooftop
and staring at the stars
on a moonlit night.

Happiness can be noticing a butterfly

that crosses your path
as you walk down the street.

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Feel the smell of wet earth
when rain touches the ground.

Go outside in the sunshine

and soak up the warmth of the
caressing rays of the sun streaming
through the clouds on your skin.

Take a deep breath in the fresh air

and let the pink sky tell you something good.

On a breezy fall day, close your eyes

and listen to the rustling of leaves in the trees
as the wind whistles through them.

HAPPINESS DOESN’T HAVE TO BE COMPLICATED.

HAPPINESS DOESN’T HAVE TO BE EXPENSIVE.
IT CAN BE SIMPLE.
IT CAN BE UNCONDITIONAL.
IT CAN BE YOUR LIFESTYLE.

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It's these moments that bind you together. Hold them tightly. Let them pull
you out of the darkness. Let them save you. One day you'll see that these
small moments that fill you up are no longer small. They are the things that
make you who you are. You are no longer in the dark; you have found your
light within yourself.

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Breathe a little deeper when you find little moments of happiness in the
midst of darkness. Hang in there for a while. Believe me, you will find all
the lost parts of yourself again.
YOU WILL LIVE AGAIN.
YOU WILL LAUGH AGAIN.
YOU WILL LOVE AGAIN.
YOU WILL BE FILLED
WITH LIGHT AGAIN.
YOU WILL RISE AGAIN.
JUST DON'T GIVE UP.

Nothing is permanent. Whatever you are going through is not going to be a

part of your life either. It'll pass too. Just. Keep. Going. There are
so many wonderful days ahead. Don't stop until you finish. keep moving
forward, one step at a time. You don't have to set high goals every time.
Sometimes you have to focus on making it to just the very next moment.
Your tiniest progress matters. Every step that seems meaningless scores.
You don't have to be multitasking. You're not required to get everything
done. Just focus on one thing at a time. Focus on what's really important.
And believe me, it will be over soon. You are going to be
alright

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To the people who have never let us down and are always there for us:

Envelope yourself with people who keep your flame burning when you're
struggling. People who help you keep going when you don’t feel like it.
when you're experiencing difficulties. There are so many people who love
you more than you know. There are so many people who care about you
more than they can express. They want to help you in so many ways. They
love you. But have not told you yet. If they are aware of how desperately
you wish to hear it, they would never take a breath without showing how
much they care about you. They won't miss a pulse to make you feel that
they adore you more than anything else.

How ironic it that we often try to chase after those who don't want us and ,
in the process, we lose sight of those who are always there for us no matter
what.

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There will always be someone out there
who you hit so deep and hit so right.
The warmth you radiate from within
soothes their aching souls
in the midst of this cold world.

There will always be someone out there

who will pick you up
when the world abandons you.

There will always be someone out there

whose day is instantly brightened
when you wake up next to them.

There will always be someone out there

who will appreciate your little efforts
when there is still not enough
for many people to be happy with,
no matter how much you have done for them.

There will always be someone out there

who will never make you feel like you're an option.

There will always be someone out there

wanting to love you in all those ways
you want to be loved.

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There will always be someone out there
who is willing to wrap their arms around you
so tightly that you won't believe
how warm you can be,
even on the coldest winter days.

There will always be someone out there

with whom you don't have to pretend
to be someone to feel loved and accepted.
who is willing to accept you for who you are.
with all the insecurities and imperfections,
with all the messiness and beauty,
with all the darkness and light, you belong to.

There will always be someone out there

who will never let you forget
how awesome you are.

There will always be someone out there

holding an umbrella to protect you from the rain.
To put stars in your eyes
when everything inside of you seems dim.
To glue all of your shattered pieces back together.
To give you the courage to pull out the light from within your darkness.
To give you a reason to keep going.

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There will always be someone out there
who is not perfect, but tries harder
to be a better person for you.

There will always be someone out there

who will prove every inch of your body is
worth loving to all those
who have told you
you are hard to love.
who will show you that
being different is not
something to hide from.
who will make you believe that
you are worth sticking with.
who will always try
to make sure you're okay.

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And with the right person
you will know
why it didn't work out
with the person
you were before,

-and you will be grateful for that.

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If everything goes swimmingly
and without a hitch in our lives,
we won't be able to know
and fully appreciate

-the potential that is inside us.

You are not useless. You are not unwanted. You are not boring. You are not
an outcast. You are not a mistake. You are not a problem.
 You are chosen.

You are irreplaceable.

You are a blessing.

You are the reason.

You are everything.

You are YOU

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 AFTERWORD
The world is the most beautiful place, but it can be awful as well. Some
seasons might be rough, demanding, filled with struggles and lows. But
giving up is not an option.
Sometimes it is possible to feel lonely in a room full of people. And the
feeling that no one in the world can understand the pain you're dealing with
might hurt you even more. Yes, some days are harder to get through, but
you get through them anyway. Every day, you fight for yourself, for your
growth in various forms. You always have the strength somewhere within
you to fight through. Every time you thought you couldn't make it through,
you proved yourself wrong. You saved yourself many times. You survived
so many storms. And you are going to pass this too.
You have to go through the messiest roads in order to reach and appreciate
the beauty of your good days. Everything happens for a reason and one day
when all will fall into place, you will understand why. You might not be
able to see it, but there's a light at the end of all this. There will always be a
spark of hope, no matter how small, no matter how hard to find, no matter
how difficult to hold. But there is always a spark of hope. When you want
to give up, take a moment to think back on why you hung in there so long.
What made you keep going for so long, despite all the odds?

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 THANK YOU NOTE
“Thank you so much for purchasing and reading my book. I am extremely
grateful and hope you found value in reading it. I hope that it added at value
and quality to your everyday life.

Please consider sharing it with friends or family and leaving a review

online. Your feedback and support are always appreciated, and allow me to
continue doing what I love.

If you enjoyed this book and found some benefit in reading this, I’d like to
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Amazon.

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 BOOKS BY THIS AUTHOR
Fragrance Of A Dead Rose
This book is a gentle reminder for anyone who is lost in life, experiencing
difficulty in relationships, or looking for hope and trying to rediscover their
self-worth. You can't understand the beauty and value of love unless your
heart falls apart.

No matter how hard life has been for you, no matter how tired you are,
there's always a reason to live. Even a dead rose still smells great. And amid
the shattered pieces of a broken heart, there's always some hope.

It will help those who are trying to heal from things that they can't talk
about.

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