Johnny O.

Reyes BSIT 191

“A Letter to Myself”
To start off, I am so proud of you. Life wasn’t been too easy to you lately, and I am

truly sorry about that. You been experience pettiness, sadness and sorrow. But despite it

all, you have managed to keep your head up and continue fighting throughout. Be proud

of everything you have gone through, and mostly, what you’ve become.

Stop being so hard on yourself. Everything will make sense to you one day. All the

pain, hurt, and frustration will become worth it. Remember, everything happens for a

particular reason. You are in the exact place you are meant to be right now. So breathe,

be patient, and trust the destination of your life. Let go of all the expectations you have

created in your head. Accept reality as it comes. Accept life for what it is.

Don’t take everything so serious and try to not let others get you down. Most of the

time, things have nothing to do with you, and everything to do with the other person. When

people hurt you, try and understand their side of the story. Forgive them. Learn from their

wrongdoings, and then let it remain in the past. Not everything is always how it appears.

You are perfect in every way, especially with your flaws. Accept the things that make you

different, while embracing everything that makes you unique.

Even though you think you are broken, there is so much beauty in your pain. Also,

you’re really not as broken as you think you are. You are stronger than anything that has

tried to tear you down. You are a survivor, not a victim. So with that, try not to be so hard

on yourself, we both know you’re doing the best you can.

 Create a meaningful life for yourself that you can be proud of. Promise me, you will

make the most of it all. Never let anyone get in the way of your goals in life. More

importantly, never give up on your passions and your dreams. Do not waste your time on

people who do not believe in you. You don’t need anyone like that in your life. Only

surround yourself with people who encourage and inspire you. You deserve the world

and even a little more. You are smart. You are beautiful. You are enough. You are

everything. You are all. Try to rely too much on others for your happiness.

You are so strong my dear. You have been through a lot in your journey. The world

has tried to break you, but you never let it. Thank you for your past, for it has made you

into a better person today. Not everyone you have meet is meant to stay around forever.

People will leave you. On the time comes, you will also leave others. People will

disappoint you, and all you can do is learn to appreciate them for what they have taught

you. Thank the people who have stayed. Fill the spaces of the ones who have gone.

More importantly, let go of the things and people that are not meant for you.

Accept things the way they are. Thank you for never giving up and being so tough. You

inspire others and you lift them up. Stay strong. Stand up tall. Be more beautiful than

ever. Make them wonder how you do it. You know you deserve the world, now go get it.

I am sorry for not always standing up for you. For letting you believe that the size

and shape of your body reflected the value and beauty of your mind. That I didn’t stop

you from trying to heal your thoughts by bullying your body. That I allowed you to diminish

yourself in space when you were already so lovely just as you were. That I didn’t tell you
that there was never anything wrong with either your mind or your body; I apologize for

letting you believe that you were flawed.

I’m sorry I let you think that at times you weren’t enough. I let you believe that you

needed to change. That I didn’t tell you that you didn’t need to be like anyone else. That

I allowed you to be afraid of yourself; to be afraid of living life authentically. I’m so sorry

that I let you fear yourself.

I’m sorry that I allowed you to believe that your worth was determined by the

number of people who liked you and by the grades you received on your report card. You

thought that worth was something to be earned. For allowing you to intentionally soften

your footprints out of fear of what others would think.

I am sorry that I didn’t stop you from hiding in the shadows. I didn’t encourage you

to instead let your voice be heard. I prevented you from living loudly and freely. I never

told you that you were enough, or that you were whole and complete. I did not remind you

that your presence brought infinite beauty and grace into this world. I didn’t allow you to

love your elegance and light. I’m sorry.

Although it might not seem like much, I can promise you that I am here now. I

promise that I will do my very best to make up for all of the times I didn’t take care of you

in the ways that I should have.

But I do hope you understand that I was trying; that I never stopped trying. I always

had faith in you, and I always hoped that you would see your shining light one day. I hope
you know that I didn’t always trust myself, and I allowed this uncertainty to taint the way

you saw yourself.

I hope you know that I never intentionally put you down or tried to hurt you. I hope

you know that despite how I may have treated you, you have still lived a beautiful life this

far. You have still been compassionate and courageous, and free in your own incredible

ways. I hope you know that no matter what mistakes I made, I will always look back on

your life with nothing but fondness and pride.

But from today and on, I promise that I will support you. I promise that we will finally

be on the same team.

I promise that I will tell you that you are valuable, and that for the most part, I will

truly believe it. Even more importantly, I promise that I will treat you like you are valuable.

I will treat you like you are worth everything that is wonderful and special in this world.

From today on I will raise you up higher than I ever have before, and when you fall

down, I will not let you stay down. I will lift you back up, again and again and again.

From today and on, I will support you and value you. From today and on I will love you, I

will be your friend.