subconcious auto-writing attempts

attempt 1

complacentness feels like acceptance to failure, this cannot be true to the ones
who will to do. the people
who care not about the others and how the others feel, the ones who dont have a
stress in mind when taking the leap of faith, it's something undeserved by the
masses
the thing within all of us that we call god is something that anyone can obtain.
to leverage your feelings against your other feelings is to engage in warfare with
yourself.
this is the goal of the chaotic, darker force that exists as a component of one
entirely whole force that engulfs and consumes all other forces.
the entire whole force is what we are in actuality; pure thought. the extension of
god that we share with the essence is that we are a fraction of this essence
but to god if you are allowed a fraction then it is no different than if you would
be allowed a whole of this.
the chaotic force against the organizing force, constantly causing order and
disorder, light and darkness. life and death.
ponder these ideas. If the intention of the creator be a malevolent one, then what
if you paid your dues in suffering?
what if it was the opposite intention of the creator? what if you must pay your
dues in love.
what if they both exist and you must pay your dues in existence?
what if the original creator was malevolent and the opposing force was the good?
what if we imagine the good out of the bad?
what if the original creator was a benevolent one and the opposing force was the
bad? what if we imagined the bad out of the good?
what if neither existed and we gave it our meaning based off of our reactions? if
reaction is the cause of effect; then what be the cause? (Insert something here on
"Reason" Reason > Reaction )
what if nothing ever had any meaning from the jump, what if it was purely computed
as a possibility and thus we are experiencing the reaction of this
computed cause. If we are experiencing a computed possibility of echoing butterfly
effects of endless infinite possibilities.
What if when simulating something this powerful, it goes rogue and doesn't need the
creator, and begins living within itself for no reason or no knowledge of why other
than existence?
what if this cycle is infinite.
surrender your ego and pay your dues.
the ego is the chain that tethers you to this reality.
watch and don't react
exist and fit into the movement of reality, be a gear that fits in the machine and
move with the clock.
god puts obsticles in front of you, jump all of god's hurdles flawlessly.
if there is a negative force there IS a positive force. if you believe in one; you
have no reason to discredit the others validity in existence.
don't be brainwashed, follow the non human desires; the desires beyond the human
body. then work on them and allow it to form in shape.
follow the pieces god puts in front of you ( do what you know you SHOULD do but may
not feel like)
don't be too starstruck in the image of yourself or of that dream reality, but
still believe; imagine and put in effort.
listen to your heart before your brain; use the brain to act on what you know to do
and use the heart to feel/know what to do.
the second your heart detaches from your brain you lose connection to the whole
universe.
bonus:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFJapFupThA this video relates, study this with
your writing.

attempt 2
in the end we all channel something greater than us but on the inside we are this
ball of light that is collectively sharing one experience between it's entirety

God is Life, and whoever seperates from Life, becomes seperated from God.