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Warwick,
As I write this letter, I want you to know that I am thankful for the space you created
within the walls of classroom 2251. Not only did you create a place of acceptance and safety, but
you also created an environment that welcomed and encouraged growth. I always felt safe to
express my thoughts and share my writing free of judgment. This is perhaps the most important
thing a teacher can do for their students. I know that as I walk away from this class I have your
support and wisdom to guide me as I navigate my future aspirations within the walls of the
classroom and outside of the classroom. My letter to you consists of a reflection beyond the
classroom. I am sitting here reflecting on the ways your lessons have helped me better shape and
understand my own experiences. Thanks to this class, I have not only found ways to apply the
concepts of the course to my writing, but also to frame my personal history. My perception has
completely shifted to impact the way I will forever approach writing and learning in general.
It started with my first-year and it continued well beyond the freshmen year time-frame. I
had found that coming to college was difficult for me. It was uncharted territory that no one in
my family had embarked on before. The most challenging aspect was trying to cultivate
confident that their abilities would guide them to success. I lacked the confidence that everyone
else seemed to have. I had this constant voice in my head that told me I was mediocre at pretty
much everything I attempted. I had never been good at math or science. I had never been great at
writing for my past history classes. I was just about average at writing. Nothing about me stood
out, I felt ordinary in every way and most days I felt like I would never be bright enough to stay
afloat with my peers. The imposter syndrome was alive and well.
This all changed when I took my first course in an ethnic studies class. I was finally
finding myself to be passionate about something. I enjoyed what I was learning and it reflected
in my writing. That first course, I was told I had received the highest grade for our paper. Safe to
say I was shocked. I knew I had found what I was interested in and what I wanted to pursue. This
class gave me enough confidence to know I could pursue it and potentially succeed. From this
moment forward, I decided the only thing I could be good at was writing an essay. This mindset
was detrimental and transformed me into someone who was extremely critical of all my writing.
It greatly hindered the way I approached every writing project from there on out. It took me
thirty minutes to write two sentences since I was incessantly deleting every word that didn’t
sound like academic jargon. The most important thing to me was this superficial thought process
where I believed the only way for me to prove my intelligence or demonstrate that I belonged in
college was by using scholarly language. So, I want to explore how this class and its concepts
have led me to reflect on the harmful mindset I use to approach writing with. I want to delve
deeper into how these concepts have become somewhat healing to me, because they have
First, I want to discuss the way I am writing this letter right now and how I wish I had
approached all past writing assignments. I am removing myself from the editing process at this
stage and simply speaking, or rather, writing. I am writing as if I were speaking, which is the fun
part! When you read this, I will have done both stages, but know that they were not happening at
the same time. I am welcoming Peter Elbow’s first-order of thinking to emphasize the
importance of the “intuitive and creative” (Elbow, 55) that heightens one’s ability to offer
insightful perspectives. I am doing my best to rid myself of second-order thinking at this stage of
simultaneously with first-order thinking. I had the expectation that my first draft needed to be the
final draft, which is why I always attempted to employ critical thinking at the same time as
creative writing. I do not want to continue with this unhealthy method. So, while writing this, I
am making the effort to remain aware of the opposition between first-order and second-order
thinking. When we allow the separation of the two, “we can build a safe place for generative
thinking or writing” (Elbow, 61). If I had been introduced to this method on prior papers, I would
have saved myself plenty of time and saved myself from my unforgiving writing method.
Moving forward I will not allow myself to be constrained by the critical voice that exists within
second-order thinking. I will find myself to be liberated by the freedom of Elbow’s two ways of
thinking. I can now acknowledge that the initial creative process is equally significant to the
writing process as the revision process. I can ensure I am approaching writing in a less
destructive way and still maintaining my goal of creating a well-written academic essay.
Furthermore, I have come to shift the way I view writing and in turn this has shifted my
relationship with writing. As I mentioned earlier, the essay that I secured a good grade on made
me confident that I could be successful in school. In some way this was wonderful because I
think it helped build my internal locus of control, I began to believe my successes were
dependent on my own abilities. On the other hand, it became a bit damaging because I knew all
of my failures were also dependent upon my own capabilities. I had begun to view writing in
binary terms, as either success or failure, and I lost sight of the other ways in which writing held
value. This class allowed me to better understand learning dispositions and look at how I want to
apply them to my writing. I want to approach writing with the learning disposition of expectancy
value. Expectancy value is the theory that learners “will make better choices when they feel that
what they are working on, or learning, is valuable to them” (Wells, 20). Thanks to project one I
was able to see the value of the subject I was learning about. I was able to choose a subject that I
was actually enthusiastic about and it gave me the motivation to continue writing about it. More
than that, it motivated me to write something I was proud of and felt would hold value to others
too. The wikipedia project highlighted the expectancy value even further by giving us a platform
to share the knowledge we were able to gain. In some ways, seeing the value in my writing or
applying the theory of expectancy value, increased my self-regulation. I was able to “set
reasonable goals” and “to choose to utilize strategies to achieve those goals” (Wells, 21). It has
become clear to me that one reason I struggled so much in past writing is because I started to
Finally, I want to discuss the way this class helped me feel like I could find a community
which I often doubted would be a possibility for me. There were many times I felt like I would
never belong in academic circles or be able to hold my weight in scholarly conversation. This
class has taught me that isn’t true. Project two in particular taught me that I am capable of
finding my place in a discourse community. I had this assumption that a community between
scholars was exclusively for those who could prove themselves as intellectuals. However, these
projects allowed me to see where I can fit into these conversations, why more people are
welcome into the conversation, and the unique voice each person brings to the conversation. I
found the most important characteristic of a discourse community to be “the broadly agreed set
of common goals” (Swales). I think this goal highlights how these conversations are part of a
larger community that is not meant to be exclusive or inaccessible but rather to largely bring
My problem in the past has been that I wanted so desperately to prove that I belong in discourse
communities that I forgot discourse communities are founded by people who have the goal of
bringing awareness and effecting change. I belong in these communities because I share these
goals and I work hard to understand the issues and work hard to remain up to date on the
Once again, I want to thank you for exposing me to these readings that have altered my
perception of writing. Thank you for reminding me that writing does not need to have this
enormous amount of pressure in order to elicit creativity and impressive thoughts. Writing is not
just a number and sometimes that message gets lost in academia. We write because there is value
to it and we write with a purpose in mind. I hope to continue my writing journey with this in
Maria Donan