SELF COMPASSIONATE LETTER

DEAR SELF,
Your day has become a handful to take but you still manage to the same as
what you have become since day one. The daily task was the same as well as the
situation. Too many to mention yet still hard to speak it out. My day start from my
daily routine, then continue to do the task household chores. It would be
fascinated if it was only what had happened. I wonder, why is it hard to have the
capability to hear, then echoed on my mind that keeps my tension sustain to the
limit of my end. I hate to say this, but why do I need to live in this kind of living.
Yes, life is a gift, but my situation doesn’t connect as what I have desired since
when I start to understand things.
I hate being compared! I hate being pressured! Why do I need to accept the
reality of no one wants to understand my situation? I have to endure all the
things they will throw to me and all I have to do is to catch what they have
thrown. I always wants to burst out my feelings to lift away my heaviness of my
feelings but whenever I tried to do so, the realization comes in my mind and stop
me from my attempt of act.
Anyway, why do I need to hear them out if I can ignore them and drop the
things I had caught? If only I know where will be my time of peace, to have a good
life with my family. I know that soon, I will achieve what I had planned and make
them see what they have made me to become what I am in the future.