Villanueva, Jamie Leane D.

11: HUMSS 201

Creative writing

As teenagers, we’ve experienced falling in love or infatuation with someone, as we

tend to romanticize our crushes. I experienced it myself. I mean a lot. Like, a lot, lot.
I’m a hopeless romantic who has a habit of daydreaming about the person that I
currently like. Until now, if I’m being honest. Take this as an example: during our
statistics and probability teacher's discussion, my mind was absent as I was too busy
building our life together inside my head.

Yes. I’m very delusional, and I’m completely aware of that. It’s very normal for
teenagers to think about romance, as when you’re a teenager yourself, it seems like
having a crush on someone and ending up going out with them means everything in
the world. I suppose thinking like that is fine, but always know your limits when liking
someone since maybe you’ll have a similar experience to mine. I chased after a guy.
Yes. And for seven years, to be exact. I’m not exactly proud of it, but I did learn a lot
from those seven years. Though I still think about him from time to time, I always see
my previous school every time I go home from STI. He makes me think of his brilliant,
big, brown eyes, his spiky hair, and his adorable-looking smile that he does every
time he sees someone that he knows.

He used to be my everything. I always used to wait for him after class as we were in
different sections, and we used to walk home even though he was the only one
walking home as he lived close to my previous school and I had to ride a jeepney to
come home. He ended up dating my best friend, and after that, I gave up. I mean, of
course, you have to give up they’re dating your friend. At least have some respect.
Though the ending of this one wasn’t that good, I’ll always know that I still do care
about him, even if my feelings have resided.

Even though I regret chasing after a guy for that long, at least I’ve learned my lesson.
(Gaslighting myself) He made me realize I shouldn't be the one chasing since it looks
like I’m his suitor. My standards went up, and you should be at least treated with the
bare minimum, because if not, run away. No, but seriously, run away as far as you can.
They’re the ones who are going to leave you with nothing but pain.