23rd November 2021

I miss them. Him being the one I miss the most, I am conflicted who do I love more, his warm and
peaceful hug or just him….

On 21st November, 2021

I woke up all excited to meet my gang. Since I left Jodhpur, I couldn’t find the same meaningful
relationships (it’s not just friendship, way beyond it at least for me) in Delhi. I tried too hard to build
such but couldn’t. I turned into this quite and introvert person which I remember, I wasn’t. I met
people, talked, shared too but just couldn’t feel connected ever. I was always with those people who
made me feel me, how to be myself was something I forgot in Delhi. I lost the track of who I was.
Labels can’t define me…human personalities are just more complex than labels. But here I was, the
city who never stopped giving me life and reasons to live. I was meeting them. Shubhi was with me
otherwise Mumma wouldn’t have never let me meet my friends. We reached the place they asked
me to come. ONE AIRPORT was the café’s name. I immediately recognized the place because my
school bus used to go from the same route the café was situated. But I never went to that place. I
saw Vishwajeet, Siddharth and Priyasha standing in front of the main entrance. The feeling was too
good to be true. But sometimes we are just unable or I’d say ignorant to accept the good things
universe throws our way…that day, I was ready to accept which usually I wouldn’t have. So, I opened
my arms and hugged Vishu as tight as I could. He hugged me back. Then I hugged Priyasha and then
Sid. Felt home. They gave me the gifts they got for me and we went inside the café and Vishu started
cribbing how that café is just not upto his expectations haha. Sid said the same. We waited and then
Soumya called and asked us to pick her up from school because apparently her father trusted me
more than the boys in the group. DADS. I asked vishu to take me to her and he said, he doesn’t have
any vehicle so I ordered Sid to follow me and take me to Soumya and He said that he is afraid
whether Soumya’s father would let her go with us if seen with just Sid. So Vishu came along and
rode Priyasha’s scooty and I sat behind him. We reached the school which I used to call mine three
years and three months back. I saw Som and damn…felt overwhelming but then I was literally on the
top of my world that crying just not the option I wanted to go for. So instead, I go and hug her.
Greeted Uncle and promised him Soumya is my responsibility and she will be back home absolutely
safe. Then Soumya sat behind Sid and me behind Vishu. We vlog it. Wanted to capture literally all
the moments. Was just worried I would never be this happy again. But then more beautiful things
were yet to come. We reached One Airport and then Vishu and Sid and practically everyone present
said we should go somewhere else. Then……

Joy, Aman and Adi arrived. I saw them and I just breathed and this time, fully breathed. I had
everything I wanted at that moment. I was just going to them to hug them and they said wait there.
LOL they bought present for me that they were hiding. Then when they figured something out, They
showed me the green signal and I legit ran and hugged Joy. I was done. I didn’t need anything else in
that very moment. All the materialistic things I crushed upon crushed and I was safe and sound.
Peace I tried to find in the world was there in his hug. I knew….I knew I love him. He was the same
Joy I left in that city. He was the same person who had my back always. If I could tell him I love him
in there, I could have. I let go of him and was recovering from the complete joy, I hugged Aman.
Man, everything was just so unreal.