“Heaven by Your Side”

By: Janet C. Paggao

I heard a loud bang!!!! Suddenly, I was on the floor lying full of blood. I felt a sharp pain all over
my body and I blackout. I was about to open my eyes when I heard a sound of an opening door.
It was quite chilly in there so I moved and scratched my skin. I stood up and felt a little bit of
dizziness because of the accident I had. To my surprise! I saw a door. It was like an antic. Its
surroundings were rusty, old and creepy. I begun to shake thinking about; What was this? Where
am I? I walked slowly near the door and held the knob in my hands. As I touched it, all my
memories came back. I was bullied, I was discriminated, I was treated like a garbage. I shook my
head many times to stop the agony of thinking my past but it didn’t help me to efface what was
inside my head. I held the door tightly and feel the pressure around it. It was cold, very cold. It
was an ice touching every bolt of my senses. I pushed the door gently and I was surprised.
There’s a fire, a big chair in the middle and a man holding an iron shaped skull. Pungent odor
was all over the place. I tried to move but I can’t. I saw a sticky serum under my feet. I begun to
hear loud screams of agony but what I heard clearly was the voice calling my name. I shooked
my head and tried to removed my feet from the sticky serum and I succeeded. I walked upon the
corridor and saw the placard which says: “Welcome to Hell.” My body was paralyzed, tears
came running down my cheeks. Fire came out from the hallway. It was hot and I can’t think of
any idea on how to get out from that place. But I felt hopeless. No one would definitely help me
from this situation. I reminisce my past. The time when I badmouthed my parents. The time
when I was fighting with my colleagues, the time when I didn’t give my tithes and offerings. I
cried my heart out and started to flinched my body. One part of my brain said that I am a bad
girl. I deserved to be there and exists forever with sufferings. I stood up and said; No, I didn’t
deserve here. I run and run until I bumped into someone. He laughed out loud and said
“Welcome to the world of sufferings and evilness.” I was surprised and asked him, “who are
you?” he replied, “you! pathetic person!” I am Lusbel the god of Hell. I stuttered upon saying
these words. Whh..y….a---am I here? He begun to smushed my arms and said, because you are
also devil, demon, hardheaded person. You are shameless and ignorant. I cried a lot upon hearing
those words. I ponder upon what he said and it made me feel sad and down. Suddenly, I felt
dizzy and begun to lost my consciousness. I felt a little bit of coldness when I opened my eyes. I
think I was in a different place now. Everything was white and my trashy clothes were gone. I
am wearing now a white long dress and it seemed that it fitted a lot. I felt so light and cheerful to
some extent. I walked slowly and opened the other door and breeze came to me. I heard some
lullaby as I continued to walk. Then I heard a giggle beside me. It was a giggle from a cute little
kid with wings. It was an angel. I saw many of them as time passed by. They all exclaimed in
adoration when they saw me. I was wondering why am I suddenly here. But my thoughts
suddenly stopped when I saw those round cherubic eyes full of love and acceptance. I was
flustered. I knelt and said forgive me Father for everything I have done. I cried my heart out. He
suddenly stepped forward and said “My child you were forgiven and you are now ready to live in
my paradise where sorrows and sufferings were gone.” This will be your new home and we will
be together forever.” He hugged me tightly and I hugged Him back. It was my God, my one true
savior, my redeemer, my one true Father. Suddenly, I heard a strange sound, it was a sound of an
ambulance. I opened my eyes and I saw a light. It was a dim light. I was bleeding and I can’t
breathe properly. A person put me an oxygen. I feel dozed off upon taking some med. I was
confined for about two weeks and only gained my consciousness 1 week before the accident. I
became a new person when I got out from the hospital. I begin to work and dedicate my time to
the church. I spent almost a week in doing some ministries and pursue my calling as a pastor.
What I realized was the fact that God is good all the time. And He will not let His people suffer
unless you worked for Him.