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roca wignis redaqtoroba gadavwyvite, erTgvarma SiSma Semipyro-rogori Sinaarsis iqneboda, rogor miiRebda mas sazogadoeba, rogor Rirebulebebze iqneboda dafuZnebuli da rac yvelaze mTavaria, ra mxatvrul-istoriuli mniSvneloba eqneboda mas; gauZlebda Tu ara dros, xom ar iqceoda Taroze Semosadeb nawarmoebad, romelic yvela ojaxSi mravladaa da aseTi `Rirebuli~ wignebi Cems Tarosac uxvad `amSvenebs~. mimaCnia, rom yvela wigni unda pasuxobdes drois moTxovnebs, xelSi misi aRebisas mkiTxvels mravali Rame unda gautexos da bevri fiqri auSalos. wignis wiaRsvlebma mkiTxvelis suli unda daipyros da aiZulos, ifiqros imaze, razec aqamde arasdros ufiqria. wignis Sinaarsma molodins gadaaWarba. vwuxvar, rom avtoris gacnoba ver movaswari, ise gavecani misi sulis pirmSos. kidev ufro metad vwuxvar, rom Tavad avtori ver moeswro am wignis gamosvlas, Tumca bednieri da ukvdavia igi. darwmunebuli var, wigni ara mxolod bevrs auforiaqebs suls, aramed is Cveni Tanamedrove istoriis Seufasebel saganZurad iqceva. darwmunebuli var imaSic, rom nawarmoebze, romelic udaod iqceva drois ganZad, veras daaklebs Tavad dro. is yvelaze piruTvneli msajulia da Rrmad mwams, rom Rirseuli gansjis Sedegad is bevri adamianis sasaubro Tema gaxdeba. problemebi, romelic aq, am wignSia gaSlili, iluziis samyaros ar ganekuTvneba. is dResac aqtualuria. wigni bevr istorikoss da literaturis kritikoss daainteresebs. adamianuri urTierTobebi, istoriuli wiaRsvlebi, erovnul umciresobebs Soris damokidebulebebi da umaRles rangSi ayvanili adamiani, rogorc pirovneba-wignis mTavari SenaZenia. mxatvrulad gadmocemuli adamianuri gancdebi da amis miRma ganviTarebuli obieqturi istoriuli realoba-wignis ZviradRirebuli samkaulia, romelic albaT imaze metad fasobs, vidre avtoris erT-erTi sayvareli gmiris, Tamilas oqro. wigns davulocav gzas droTa miraJebSi samogzaurod da vusurveb, mravali mkiTxvelis Zili daefrTxos, sul sxva TvaliT daanaxos samSobloc, obieqturi realobac da sakuTari Tavic. visurveb, im diadi Canafiqris ganxorcielebas, rac wignis mTavaria ideaa-gaerTianebuli saqarTvelo da aq mcxovreb adamianTa Rirseuli cxovreba! Jana asaniZe, filologi, Jurnalisti

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nestor CikvilaZis ojaxSi tradiciad iqca, yoveli ojaxis wevrisTvis dabadebis dRe aReniSnaT. Tvrameti weli usruldeboda ojaxis umcros gogonas, Tamilas. teqnikumSi Caricxulma Tamilam da ojaxis diasaxlisma gadawyvites, dabadebis dReze yvelasTvis sasurveli stumrebi moewviaT. nato CikvilaZes yovelTvis ori grZnoba hqonda da am SemTxvevis aRniSvnac or survils eqvemdebareboda: pirveli is, rom nacnob-megobrebSi Tavisi prestiJi aewia da meore, rasac ufro aucileblad Tvlida, sazeimo viTarebaSi gadaeca gogonasTvis Tavisi megobris, zemfiris mier naCuqari beWedi, romelic mosvenebas akargvinebda. nestorma sazeimod ganacxada, rom Tamilas dabadebis dReze im adamianebs moiwvevdnen, romlebic ojaxis axloblebi iyvnen. samzadisi wina dRidan daiwyo. rogorc yovelTvis, bazarSi sanovagis SesaZenad nato da Tamila wavidnen. _ sia xom mogaqvs? _ SeekiTxa nato Tamilas, roca avtomanqanaSi Casxdnen. _ ho, deda... _ maCvene! Tamilam qaRaldi miawoda. natom CaikiTxa. _ xmeli sanelebeli aklia. ra mogivida gogo? sul raRac rogor gaviwydeba? sakolmeurneo bazarTan ise mividnen, deda-Svils erTmaneTisTvis meti aRaraferi uTqvamT. _ kari dakete da Cven gamogvyevi! _ gadaulaparaka mZRols natom. qals uyvarda, roca mas emsaxurebodnen. naxevari saaTi moandomes bazarSi sanovagis SeZenas. roca datvirTuli ukan brundebodnen, axalgazrda vaJma dauZaxa natos. _ nato deida! Tamilas saxe aewva. _ gamarjobaT, nato deida,_ da ymawvilma xeli gauwoda. _ Sen? Sen xom vasiko xar?_ ikiTxa odnav ferSecvlilma qalma, _ aq saidan? _ saSofroze daviwye swavla. _ hooo... kargia! _ zrdilobisTvis gauRima natom. _ dagexmarebiT! _ Tamilas mZime CanTa CamoarTva. _ gmadlobT! mZRols ukve mietana erTi mZime CanTa da ukan gamobrunebuliyo, qalebs rom mixmareboda.

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_ sad xar dabinavebuli? _ jer-jerobiT bicola marusas mamidasTan. _ ra mxaresaa? _ kalininis quCisken. _ maSin Cveni mgzavri yofilxar. Cvenc iqiTken movdivarT. vasiko mZRolis gverdiT mokalaTda. manqanaSi Cajdomisas sarkeSi Tamilas Tvalebs SeefeTa. qal-vaJi Sinagani sixaruliT uyurebdnen erTmaneTs. aseTi lamazi Tvalebi vaJs jer arsad enaxa. vasikom daufaravi sixaruliT upasuxa Tamilas Rimils. _ rogor aris dedaSeni? _ SeekiTxa nato. _ kargad. egona, institutSi movewyobodi. me ki Sofroba miyvars. Cems sofels, nato deida, yvelaze metad Soferi sWirdeba. _ kargi biWi xar... ici ra? Tu dro geqneba, xval gamoiare. Tamilas dabadebis dRea. cota adre modi, mogvexmarebi. _ dro? ra Tqma unda, maqvs. moval, aucileblad moval, gmadlobT, nato deida! _uTxra sixaruliT saxegabrwyinebulma biWma. erTxel kidev gaxeda Tamilas, romelic kvlav gaciskrovnebuli saxiT ucqerda. _ RmerTo Cemo, rogor waagavs Tavis biZas! _ Jruantelma dauara qals. mis yurTsmenas avadmyofi kacis kvnesa miswvda da erTi wuTiT yvelaferi moagonda...
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sarkmels sami kenWi moxvda. qali qveSagebidan wamoiwia, guli amovardnaze hqonda. moeCvena, TiTqos sxvebmac gaigones sarkmelTan xmauri. miayurada, Seecada, guli daemSvidebina. Semdeg sasTumalTan dadebuli tansacmeli aiRo, dediseuli Sali mxrebze moigdo da karebTan mivida. yuriT aekra Txel kars, CamiCumi arsaidan ismoda. _ xolispiras gelodebi!_ moesma CurCuli qals. nela mivida karebTan, frTxilad gamoswia saxelurs.mezobeli oTaxidan kvnesa Semoesma. _ Sen xar?_ moesma mamakacis misustebuli xma da qali SekrTa. qali qmris oTaxSi Sevida. _ me var. _ ratom ar gZinavs? _ sadgomidan saqonlis xmauri Semomesma, gavxedav. _ me rom araferi gamigia?_ ikiTxa da mamakacs xveleba isev daawyebina. qals gaaJrJola. mamakacTan mivida da Sublze xeli daado. ofli xelsaxociT Sewminda da sabani gauswora. xelebi zizRiT Seiwminda da CurCuliT uTxra: _ daiZine!
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Semdeg frTxilad gaixeda taxtisaken, sadac moxuc dedamTils da aTiode wlis gogonas Rrmad eZina. Tvalebi daxuWa da qalma daweuli lamfis Suqze Raribul oTaxs kidev erTxel moavlo Tvali. Semdeg momakvdavi qmrisken gaixeda. _ netav, ramden xans icocxlebs? _ gaifiqra. _ ratom dgaxar? wadi, gaxede saqonels! _ dauZaxa isev mamakacis xmam. _ ho, mivdivar! _ gamoerkva qali. _ eh, daiwva Cemi avadmyofoba, Torem... _ xvelebam laparaki gaawyvetina, Semdeg Tvalebi daxuWa da uZravad gairinda. qalma kari gaixura. erTxans karebs mieyrdno. xoliswyalidan stvena Semoesma. qalis fexis xmas qmris nawyvet-nawyveti xveleba aedevna ukan. TavSalSi gaxveuli qali Cqari nabijiT gascda ezos. xoliswylisken dauxvia. nabadSi gaxveuli mamakacis maRali figura dainaxa. masTan misvla undoda, magram Sedga, radgan yurTan isev esmoda momakvdavi qmris wyevlagareuli xveleba. iq mdgom Saosans misi dasustebuli mxrebi aefara da es ukanaskneli xeliT rom ar SeSveleboda, gulwasuli Zirs daecemoda. qali gamofxizlda, mamakacs xelebidan dausxlta da xoliswyals maRla auyva. kacic ukan aedevna. mdumared mihyvebodnen qvian biliks, amJamad maTi sazrunavi erTi iyo _ rogorme male gasclodnen sofels. eklesiasTan Sedga qali, pirjvari gadaiwera da waiCurCula: _ RvTismSobelo, mapatie, Tu rame Sevcode! _ mamakacma win gauSva qali, masac winaRmdegoba ar gauwevia, ise ikisra megzuroba. roca ukanaskneli aRmarTi aiares, Sedgnen, sofels gadaxedes. cidan varskvlavebi ukve akrefiliyvnen. boslidan naadrevad gamoyrili furebi aRmarTze adiodnen. buxrebidan kvamli bolqvebs isroda. buneba iRviZebda da aRmosavleTiT odnav SewiTlebul casTan mzis gamoCenas elodeboda. imave adgilas danayrdnen mgzavrebi. win didi gza elodaT, amitom dasveneba gadawyvites. Seyvarebuli wyvili aq Sexvda mzis amosvlas. aisis am mSvenier dilas mTis angelozs damsgavseboda qali, vaJs aseTi lamazi arseba jer ar enaxa. misma uzomo simSvenierem ara marto moajadova, aramed SeaSina kidec. gasaocrad mSvenieri da sxivosani Tvalebi uyurebdnen mas, misi gafrenili warbebi am dros vedrebas an mudaras ki ara, ufro Tavisi silamaziT dajerebul siamovnebas gamoxatavda. swori aristokratuli cxviri, amoburculi tuCebi, odnav mogrZo freskismagvari saxe TeTr marmariloSi Casmul naxats mogagonebdaT. _ aman Camadenina yvelaferi! _ TavisTavad gaxmianda mis sulSi es sityvebi. qalis silamazis da Tavisi gadawyvetilebis SeeSinda.
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wamodgnen. qalis yurebTan kidev gaisma mitovebuli qmris xveleba. _ albaT didxans damtanjavs warsulze fiqri! _ gaifiqra qalma da ukan dabruneba mounda. _ wavideT, Cqara! _ win ubiZga kacma, _ Cven aq aRar dagvedgomeba. kacma qali win gauSva. _ iq, mTebis iqiT daiwyeba axali cxovreba. _ Tavis Tavs SeebrZola qali da nabijs auCqara. _ yoCaRi biWi iyo. Tqveni soflidanaa? _ ikiTxa mZRolma. nato gamofxizlda. _ ho, Cveni soflidan. _ upasuxa Tamilam, radgan natom pasuxi daagviana. Zalian grZeli aRmoCnda vasikosTvis darCenili dRec da meore dilac. saguldagulod gaauTova erTaderTi kostumi, romelic soflidan Camohyva. _ aha, esec... _ Tavisi halstuxi agdebiT miawoda nodarma. _ oh, ara... _ upasuxa vasikom, ise, rom Tvali ar mouSorebia sarkisTvis. _ e. i. quTaisSi wamosvla gadaifiqre. _ qvevidan Sexeda vasikos. _ ho, droebiT! _ maSin, warmatebebs gisurveb! _ gmadlobT. _ yvavilebis SeZena ar dagaviwydes! _ yvavilebi? _ gaikvirva vasikom. karebSi Tamila Sexvda. saSinao kaba ecva da srulebiT ar hgavda iubilars. gogonam Zlivs moaxerxa SepatiJeba. _ vasiko? _ ikiTxa natom, _ sulze mogviswari. _ gamarjoba, Cemo biWiko! _ vasikos nestori gamoegeba. _ acaleT, suli moaTqmevineT! _ Tamila, Cqara, rogor gaSterebulxar? ramdenime saaTSi stumrebiT aivseba saxli da Cven jer araferi gagvikeTebia. _ nato deida, igori saxlSia? _ igori? _ kiTxvas kiTxva Seageba. Sedga da Semdeg daumata: _ vasiko, igori aspiranturisTvis emzadeba, gadaRlilia amdeni mecadineobiT. ar vawuxeb, deda enacvalos! dRevandeli wveulebis ambavi arc gamimxelia. _ aSkarad icrua qalma. _ ar uyvars zedmetoba. igori didi kaci gaxdeba da mere Senc gamogadgeba raimeSi. _eubneboda qali da Tan sardafisaken miuZRoda. _ Sen ra Tqvi? saSofroze swavlob? kargia. Tu ginda, TbilisSi
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giSoviT samuSaos. nestori erTs gadarekavs da... _ me is miyvars? _ daekiTxa Tavis Tavs, - magram sofelSi, isic mTis sofelSi, myinvarebTan, mwvervalebTan axlos wamova? ara, ar wamova, magram Tu ar wamova... _ wveT-wveTad imarcvlebodnen avi fiqrebi vasikos sulSi. _ modi, genacvale. es boTlebi, ai, am RviniT aavse. Sen ki Tamila, boTlebi kargad gawminde da Tavze qaRaldis salfeTqebi Semoaxvie, Tavi lamazad Seukari. dRes iseTi xalxi iqneba... -siamayiT daumata, _ ar SevrcxveT! _ roca boTlebs aavsebT, zeviT amozideT! _ natom gankarguleba gasca da zeviT avida. raki ojaxis ufrosma gamoacxada yvelas Tavisi survilis mixedviT daepatiJa sasurveli stumrebi, igorma isargebla da sveta, romelic axla deidasTan imyofeboda, Tamilas dabadebis dReze moiwvia. saRamos masTan binaze gamoiara, magram qaliSvili saxlSi ar dauxvda. deidamiss sTxova, rom gadaeca, meore dRis rva saaTisTvis Tamilas dabadebis dReze misuliyo. _ gadavcem! _ upasuxa moxucma. igors ar uyvarda zedmet xalxTan urTierToba, miTumetes, ar moswonda amdeni wveulebebi. gabezrebuli iyo, amitom dilidanve Tavi aarida winasamzadiss da sajaro biblioTekaSi Caiketa. saxlSi maSin dabrunda, roca sufras usxdebodnen. _ Tamila sad aris? _ SeekiTxa sazeimod morTul dedas. _ sardafSia. _ iubilari sardafSia? _ gaocebiT ikiTxa da qveviT Cavida. _ vasiko, saidan? _ gakvirvebiT ikiTxa igorma, rodesac vasikos sardafidan limonaTis yuTi amohqonda. vasikom yuTi dado da igors gadaexvia. _ xom kargad xar? Tamila sad aris? _ SeekiTxa igori da vidre pasuxs gascemda, qveviT Cavida. Tamilas daRlil saxes rogorc ki Sexeda, ukmayofilod Cailaparaka: _ nuTu amden Sromad Rirda es yvelaferi? _ Semdeg xeli Caiqnia da Tamilas SeekiTxa: _ Tamila geTayva, sveta xom ar mosula? _ vasiko ukan dabrunda. man da Tamilam ukmayofilod Sexedes erTmaneTs. _ ar mosula? _ ikiTxa igorma kvlav. _ movida... _ mere? Tamila erTxans dumda. fiqrobda, eTqva Tu ara simarTle. _ dedam uTxra, igori Sin ar ariso. _ rao? _ elda eca igors. _ mosvla undoda, magram... _ Tavi Seikava, igorma igrZno, rom
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mas natosi eSinoda. igori aenTo da ukan gamobrunda. _ mamam gvTxova, dagvepatiJa sasurveli stumari. _ uTxra vasikos. _ Seni? Seni sasurveli stumari vin aris? _ Cemi? Semdeg vaJs Sexeda. vasiko pirdapir TvalebSi uyurebda da man gogonas Tvalis upeebTan morcxvad mimaluri Rimili dainaxa. vaJma igrZno, rom es Rimili mas ekuTvnoda. _ Tamila! _ vedrebasaviT aRmoxda biWs. _ Caicvi, sufras me movemsaxurebi. zeviT asul igors deda SeefeTa. Svils dedisTvis arc Seuxedavs, ise undoda gareT gasvla. ezoSi ori qaliSvili Semovida. _ igor, stumrebs Seegebe! uxerxul mdgomareobaSi Cavardnili vaJi Sedga. ezoSi Semosulma stumrebma gza gadauRobes. _ gagimarjos, ineza! _ xeli gauwoda igorma. _ gagimarjos, igor! _ es Cemi megobaria. Tanac erTad vswavlobT institutSi. _ igori... _ Tavi daukra vaJma. _ greta... _ saocari silamazis, TeTrma qaliSvilma igors xeli gauwoda. _ ineza, Svilo, moxvedi?_ qaliSvilebTan nato mivida. qalma muStris TvaliT SeaTvaliera stumari, romelic pirvelad iyo am ojaxSi. roca igorma gogonebi aivnamde aacila, natom ineza moixmo da Cumad SeekiTxa: _ vin aris es gogona? _ profesor daTunaSvilis qaliSvilia. mamaCemis axlo megobris Svilia. qals odnav gausxivosnda Tvalebi. _ Tamila, geTayva, Sen kidev ar Cagicvams? RmerTo Cemo... rogor gaurbis xalxs. _ inezas gasagonad usayvedura Tamilas. roca nato sastumro darbazSi Sevida, greta igoris gverdiT ijda. brolis WaRiT ganaTebul darbazSi greta gasaocari silamaziT gamoirCeoda. _ sad xar amden xans? _ nestori mogvianebiT Semosul biWikos miegeba, romelsac mis samsaxurSi ramdenime saqme hqonda SeTavsebuli. mas ukan qaRaldebiT xelSi nestoris moadgile Semohyva, romelic xSiri stumari iyo am ojaxSi, misi gamoCena mudam raRac seriozul saqmesTan iyo dakavSirebuli. amjeradac nestori gverdiT gaixmo, mivlinebaze xeli moawerina da bodiSis moxdiT ukan gabrunda.
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_ rodis Camoxval? _ erTi kvira damagviandeba. biWikom natos davalebiT, kidev moitana sanovage, Semdeg moqeifeebs SeuerTda. _ Cemi marjvena xelia, ar dagaviwydeT! gaicaniT... biWiko qamuSaZe._ ase warudgina stumrebs Tavisi TanamSromeli nestorma. _ iubilari, iubilari! _ daiZaxa ojaxis ufrosma, roca stumrebs Tvali moavlo da Tamila versad SeamCnia. moRuSulma cols gadaxeda. _ axlave! _ nato ukan gatrialda da Tamilas oTaxSi gavida. _ Cqara! amden xans ras eli? warbebi Sekra qalma. _ me mzad var! _ moisma CurCuliT naTqvami xma. Tamilas mtredisfer saxeze mSvenieri Tvalebi anaTebdnen. natom SeaTvaliera. _ sad xar? ramdens gvalodineb, Svilo? usayvedura nestorma. _ morcxvi gogonaa! SeaSvela dabneul Tamilas natom. yvelani sufras Semousxdnen. greta vasikos miesalma. natom myisve SeamCnia maTi nacnoboba. sxvaTaSoris, gretas ase warudgina: _ ho, sul damaviwyda gamecno TqvenTvis, Cveni naTesavia soflidan. gamocdebs abarebda. ver moewyo, nestorma iqneb samuSao uSovos. es ise bunebrivad Tqva, rom TviT nestorsac ar Sehparvia eWvi. ojaxis ufrosi wamodga. Tvali moavlo stumrebs, Semdeg Tamilaze SeaCera mzera da moxda is, risic yvelaze metad eSinoda. igrZno, rom Tamilas Tvalebidan feliqsi sayveduriT SesCereboda. guliT inatra, am wuTSive moSoreboda sazeimo sufras. daswyevla coli, romelmac Caagona am saRamos mowyoba, magram ukan dasaxevi gza ar iyo. garindebuli stumrebi mis sityvas elodnen, nestors eCveneboda, TiTqos feliqsis Tvalebi simarTlis Tqmas ubrZanebdnen. _ megobrebo! SeumCnevlad nestoris xmaSi TrTolva gaCnda da es gancda stumrebs gadaedo. samariseburi siCume Camowva. aman kidev ufro SeaSina maspinZeli. saxeze miwisferi daedo. natoc gafiTrda, magram gamagrda da meuRles gasamxneveblad gauRima. nestorma Wiqa meore xelSi gadaitana. magidaze Tavisufali xeli dado da daiwyo: _ cxovrebaSi erTi megobari myavda, osi iyo. aqedan Sors, ramdenime aTasi kilometris iqiT, ZmebiviT vcxovrobdiT. - haeri CaisunTqa da ganagrZo, xSirad mifiqria, rodis da visTan SeiZleba iyo bednieri?... isev da isev is megobari midgas Tvalwin. megobrebi Semdegac myavda. Tqven xom yvela Cemi megobrebi xarT,
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magram is sul sxva iyo, zedmiwevniT umwiklo adamiani... zogjer meCveneba, rom is Cemi cxovrebis ori samyaros sazRvarze dadga da dResac dgas. _ diax, raRac warmoudgeneli siyvaruliT uyvarda. CaurTo natom, raTa rogorme mdgomareobidan gamoeyvana qmari. _ nu mawyvetineb... dResac dgas da SeiZleba iTqvas, rom mSvid cxovrebas miwamlavs. is SemTxveviT gardaicvala. me viyavi is ubeduri adamiani, vinc daeswro mis sikvdils. _ nestorma Tvalebi daxuWa, Tavi gaaryia, guliT surda waeSala im ubedurebis scena Tavis azrovnebaSi. Tamilas Tvalebidan feliqsis ukmayofilo Tvalebi daikarga. axla amjerad SiSCamdgari Tvalebi ucqerdnen sevdianad mamis megobars. _ ukan dabrunebuls uaresi meloda, SeSlili vbrundebodi. TavSi ki aTasi azri mitrialebda. ra meTqva megobris colisaTvis, romelic bavSvs elodeboda. rogor mindoda mec feliqsTan erTad gadavCexiliyavi. damZimebuli guliT vbrundebodi. meCveneboda, TiTqos yvelaferi Cems winaaRmdeg iyo amxedrebuli. kiviliT ukan momdevdnen mTebi, myinvarebi, raRacnairi ZaliT gadadiodnen Cems Tavze da ukan, Sors darCenil feliqss eZaxdnen. axla natos wauvida feri. oqros yelsabami, romelic mis yelze bzinavda, am wuTSi yelze uWerda da swvavda. TviT SorsmWvretel qals ar gauTvaliswinebia, rom Tamilas dabadebis dRis aRniSvna ase mZimed daiwyeboda. _ kari SevaRe da Semomesma BbavSvis tirili. iseTi tirili, ubedurebis SemTxvevidan rom gamomyva. bavSvis deda ki zewargadafarebuli iwva sarecelze. am samarisebul siCumeSi oxvra gaisma. Tamilas Tavi daeRuna. ar tiroda, arc arafers ambobda. gogonam mSoblebis daRupvis ambavi icoda. Tavdaxril SublTan CamoSlili Tmebi ukrToda da amiT mixvdebodi, rom usityvod dastiroda daxocil ded-mamas. _ es ra ubeduri bedisweraa! - Cailaparaka viRacam. nestori TamilasTan mivida, aayena da Sublze akoca. Tamilas TvalebSi Zlivs SesamCnevi cremli gabrwyinda. _ Cemo Tamila! Sen im didi siyvarulis gagrZeleba xar! _ ra didebuli adamiania! _ gaifiqra gretam. sazeimo sufra moiqufra. nato gons moego. saWiro iyo raRac siaxlis Setana, rom sufrisTvis mxiaruli elferi daebrunebina. is wamodga da Tamilac aayena. _ Tamilas deda yovelTvis fiqrobda, rom qaliSvili gauCndeboda. man sicocxleSive Searqva saxeli. mSobiarobis win ki man metad didi sapasuxismgeblo saqme damakisra. misi sikvdilis Semdeg dedis naCuqari beWedi gadameca. man yuTi gaxsna, Zvirfasma nivTma oTaxSi gaibrwyina. Semdeg qaliSvils gaukeTa.
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_ es beWedi Seni winaprebis reliqviaa. deda patiosnebiT gamorCeul qaliSvils akuTvnebda da ase gadadioda xelidan xelSi. _ rogor brwyinavs, netav, ra eRireba? sulmouTqmelad uCurCula gretam inezas. _ am didi tradiciis Rirseuli Svili yofiliyavi, Cemo Tamila! aTrTolebuli tuCebi SublTan miutana da akoca. sulierad SeZruli nato skamze dajda da Tamilac dasva. natos saqcielma erTbaSad moxibla yvela. mxolod vasiko ijda gulmokluli, erTi survili hqonda, gaewvdia xeli da gogosTvis cremli Seewminda. im saRamos mxedvelobidan ar gamorCenia natos, rogor Sescicinebda greta igors, manve sZlia sulier sisustes da uceb isev im natod iqca, romelsac hqonda yvela sakiTxze ori pasuxi, ori mimika, ori adamianis saxe. igori, rogorc yovelTvis, im saRamosac Tavaziani iyo. misi es Tviseba Sinagani kulturidan modioda. uzomod nakiTxsa da ganaTlebul igors, romelic yovelTvis cdilobda, yovelgvari Wirveuli kaprizebi daeTmo Tavneba dedisTvis, dRes mis alersian mzeras ukmayofilod aridebda Tvals. miTumetes, Sors iyo im azridan, rom SeiZleba greta dedis rCeulic gamxdariyo. natom imdeni moaxerxa, rom qaliSvilebi igors gaacilebina. _ Sen ki gaixade sazeimo kaba da sufra mivalagoT! - rogorc ki ukanaskneli stumari WiSkars gascda, natom Tamilas mimarTa. gogona usityvod daemorCila. _ isev muSaob? ukmayofilod Sexeda ukan dabrunebulma igorma.- xval ar SeiZleboda? mere Tamilas miubrunda da uTxra: _ dRes ki dedofaliviT iyavi, Tamila! miualersa dasaviT Sezrdil gogonas. _ miacile is qaliSvilebi? salaparako Sescvala natom. _ aba, quCaSi xom ar gadmovsvamdi? _ ra SesaniSnavi gogo iyo? _ romeli? _ is profesoris qaliSvili. - ukanaskneli sityvebi raRac xmamaRla Tqva natom. _ lamazi iyo. _ ho, rogor ukravda roialze... erT qalad misi niWi Rirda. _ ho, kargad ukravda.- pasuxobda Zalian Tavazianad, magram damaluli gulgrilobiT. _ Tanac inostran institutSi naswavleba. Sen warmoidgine, ramdenime enaze laparakobs, aseT unaklo qals jer ar Sevxedrivar. igori mxolod axla daakvirda aWikWikebul dedas da mixvda, risTvis uqebda im TeTr qals. vaJma dedis gawbileba gadaw- 12 -

yvita. _ me Tu mkiTxav, yvelaze lamazi Tamila iyo. - pirze Seaxma Rimili natos, magram Tavs moeria da daeTanxma. _ diax, Tamilac mSvenieri sCanda. _ vwuxvar deda, rom es Sen maSinve ar aRiare. _ ratom? me es SevniSne. _ me ki Cemo saTayvanebelo dediko, im qaliSvilSi didi, civi `vitrinis Tojina~ davinaxe. natom tuCze ikbina. oTaxSi samarisebuli siCume Camovarda. _ sainteresoa, Cemi erTaderTi dapatiJebuli stumari ratom ar movida dRevandel zeimze. nato gafiTrda. _ araferia, diliT gavivli da gavigeb, moskovSi xom ar wavida Cemi naxvis Semdeg. _ bolos da bolos, is TxasaviT akuntruSebuli gogo kidev ar gSordeba?_zizRiT wamoiZaxa natom. _ ras ambob, deda? _ xval diliT me TviTon vnaxav da sabolood movelaparakebi, rom misi fexi ar iyos TbilisSi. _ ras ambob?- iyvira vaJma. _ Tamila, Cqara, wveTebi! qali skamze miesvena, Tamilam wveTebi moarbenina, igorma tuCebTan miutana. miuxedavad am incidentisa, meore dRes mainc mivida igori svetas deidasTan. axladgaRviZebulma qalma gamoixeda da roca igori dainaxa, doinjSemodebuli, mis win gaiWima da dauyvira: _ sveta saxlSi ar aris! _ da kari cxvirwin miuxura.
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im RamiT, roca ukanasknel TefSs Tavisi adgili miuCines, nato da Tamila daRlilebi savarZelSi Casxdnen. arc erTs ar surda daZineba, Tumca SuaRame gadasuli iyo. orive aforiaqebulni iyvnen da sxvadasxva sazrunavze fiqrobdnen. natos dRevandeli safiqrali greta gamxdariyo da masTan daaxloebisa da gacnobis Tadarigs iWerda. _ deda, miambe dedaCemze. _ uceb am siCumeSi vedrebasaviT gaisma Tamilas xma. yumbara rom dacliliyo qalis yurebTan, ise ar imoqmedebda, rogorc gogonas umanko xmam SeaSina da aaRelva. is jer wamodga, ramdenime nabiji gadadga Tamilasken, mere Sedga, misma daJinebulma mzeram TiTqos SeakrTo da ukan dabrunda. im RamiT gaTenebamde uambo is, risi Tqmac SeiZleboda TamilasTvis. TviTon natos ki TvalnaTliv moagonda yvelaferi, wvrilmanidan dawyebuli. mogoneba samudamod darCa mis gulSi didi
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lodiviT: _ nato, Zvirfaso, didi xania, gelodebi! _ miegeba Savgvremani, magram zedmetad eSxiani qali Semosul stumrebs. silamaziT maspinZels arc stumari CamorCeboda. Semosulma qurqi gaixada da qudi iqve Camohkida. _ ai, aq Camojeqi, raxania, gelodebi. SenTan laparaki mindoda. _ stumari RimiliT miuaxlovda qals, gverdiT miujda da mis mucels Sexeda. _ albaT, am Tvis bolos vaJis deda gaxdebi. _ maspinZels Savgvremani saxe wamoenTo, ufro mimzidveli gaxda misi Rawvebi. _ Tu ar movtyuvdi.Tumca, ratom vaJis deda? _ ar vici. _ igori rogor aris? _ iman Semagviana, mapatie, zemfir! _ igori... Cailaparaka zemfirma. _ ra? _ ici, nato? sul vfiqrob, ratom daarqvi Sens vaJs igori, me rogorc vici, nestors mamis saxeli undoda daerqmia. _ Tu RmerTi gwams, nu momagoneb mag istorias. _ zemfirma gaicina. _ nu icini, maSin pirvelad waviCxubeT, magram me gavimarjve. _ kargi nato! me ki minda Cemi gogonas naTlia Sen iyo. Tanac axlave msurs gavigo, ras daarqmevdi mas? _ ratom gogonas? _ guli meubneba, rom ase iqneba. _ iyos neba Seni! _ qeTevans!... ara, igi cota mZime saxelia. Tamari xom mefes erqva? _ ara, ar aris saWiro Cems Svils mefis saxeli erqvas. _ ufro mokrZalebuli? _ ikiTxa natom _ Tamila, ar mogwons zemfira? _ Tamila... _ sasoebiT wamoiZaxa momavalma dedam._ mSvenieri saxelia. SevTanxmdiT, nato, Sen Cemi Svilis naTlia iqnebi. zemfirs mkvdris feri daedo. gulze xeli daido da gairinda. _ nato, ver warmoidgen, rogor miyvars Cemi Svili. netavi, Tu veRirsebi mis danaxvas. dro iwureba. axlovdeba is nanatri wuTebi, guli ki saSinel rames migrZnobs, TiTqos Cems aRsasruls vxedavde. erTi wuTiTac rom davfiqrde, iseTi saSineli Jruanteli damivlis, rom mgonia, sacaa guls gaxeTqavs-Tqo. _ es yvela qals emarTeba, zemfir, nu geSinia. _ albaT Zalian Znelia mSobiaroba... natom gakvirvebiT Sexeda odnav saxeSecvlil qals. misi mudam mSvidi saxe autanel molodins gamoxatavda. saxeze gaCenil laqebs
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daeqalebina igi. _ magaze nu fiqrob, zemfir, Wame, meti imoZrave! _ natom megobris dasiebul fexebs daxeda. _ giWirs siaruli? _ arc ise, guli ufro mawuxebs. _ mec vnerviulobdi. _ daamSvida natom. _ ici, rogori grZnoba maqvs? TiTqos sasikvdilo ganaCenis sisruleSi moyvanis winaSe vdgavar. yvelaferi rom dasrulda da eli saboloo ganaCens. eli aRelvebiT da grZnob, Tundac vinmes SeeZlos Seni Svela, yvelaferi gvian aris. mosaxdeni unda moxdes! _ kargi. geyofa. aseTi fiqrebi SenTvis ar SeiZleba. _ Seawyvetina natom. _ aseT rameze feliqsTan laparaki ar SemiZlia. Zalian ki minda, vinmes guli gadavuSalo. _ ?! _ Tamila! _ fiqrebSi wasulma CurCuliT warmoTqva. _ iqneb, uweria Cems Svils, Tamila erqvas saxelad. Tu cocxali darCa Cemi sikvdilis Semdeg. _ ras bodav?_ uyvira natom. - me Sen ufro vaJkaci megone. _ vaJkaci dedaCemi iyo. _ Semdeg cota Seisvena. _ mismine, nato! _ man Tavis natif xelebs daxeda. SuaTiTze briliantisTvliani beWedi brwyinavda. misi danaxva yovelTvis aRelvebda natos. beWdis danaxvam odnav SeakrTo, magram Tavs moeria da mzera aaSora. _ es beWedi bebiaCemma dedas usaxsovra gaTxovebis win. am ramdenime wlis win, roca dedas davSordi, dedaCemma me maCuqa. beWedi Zalian Zviri Rirs, Tumca mTavari es ar aris. mas Taviseburi istoria aqvs. swored amisTvis miyvars igi. Cemi winapari dedebi, romlebsac hyavdaT ramdenime qaliSvili, beWeds ayolebdnen imas, romelic yvelaze patiosnad gaatarebda cxovrebas. es beWedi siwmindes da patiosnebas ganasaxierebda simbolurad. deda mamasTan SeTanxmebiT asrulebda beWedis gadacemis ceremonias. swored am RirsebisTvis miyvars es beWedi. am beWdis mflobeli mudam bedieri iyo, Tundac Raribulad ecxovra. me ki vici, misi tareba didxans ar momiwevs, me amas vgrZnob. Cemi Svili gogo iqneba.. _ geyofa! _ aRelvebiT Seawyvetina natom. _ Zalian minda, Cemi gogona am bednieri beWdis mflobeli iyos. maSinac ki, Tu feliqss Cems Semdeg ramdenime qaliSvili gauCndeba. _ nu laparakob ase. aseT mdgomareobaSi myofs gagiWirdeba mSobiaroba. zemfirs TiTqos arc gaugonia, isev gaagrZela...
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_ wuxel sizmarSi deda movida CvenTan. gulis sakinZe Seixsna da xeli damado. SeSfoTebiT daxeda Cems beWeds da miTxra, ra cota xans atareo. Semdeg xeli gamomiwoda, TiTidan rom waeZro da mec gamomeRviZa SiSisagan. _ qaliSvili gagiCndeba! _ damSvideba scada natom. Sen da nestori ojaxis megobrebi xarT, Cveni qmrebi Zmadnaficebi arian. dampirdi, rom roca yvelaferi dasruldeba, am beWeds Cems qaliSvils miscem. izruneb mis sispetakeze, radgan es beWedi mxolod rCeulTa xvedria. _ zemfir! _ Semoesma karebidan mamakacis xma. _ feliqs! _ erTbaSad Seicvala qali da qmars sirbiliT miegeba. _ mogvamzade, xval uTenia me da nestori sanadirod mivdivarT. qali SeSfoTda. natosken nerviulad gaixeda da qmars Sexeda. _ ra dros nadirobaa, feliqs! _ Rorebi am dros Camodian. - ise Tqva feliqsma, rom colisTvis arc ki Seuxedavs. _ nestori sad aris? _ Sakir kasumovTan wavida. imas kargi cxenebi hyavs, megzurobasac ikisrebs. _ zemfiris ase datoveba SeiZleba? _ SeekamaTa nato. _ Sen aq xar da mets ras gavukeTeb, roca davbrundebi, biWi damaxvedreT! zemfirs weRandeli saubari moagonda. Tvalebi daenisla. _ Tumca, Tundac gogo iyos, mTavaria, Sen damxvde janmrTeli. nato wasasvlelad moemzada. megobar qals kidev misca darigeba. _ me dRes veRar gcnob. sircxvilia aseTi SiSi. qalma naRvlianad gaicina. _ Sevecdebi. rogorc ki megobari qali gaacila, meuRles miutrialda da uTxra: _ rodis midixar? _ SeiZleba dRes, roca nestori cxenebs moiyvans. zemfiri qmarTan mivida, kiserze Camoekida da TiTqmis tiriliT Seevedra. _ nu waxval, feliqs, gemudarebi. zemfiris Tbilma xelebma da mSvenierma saxem erTianad moSala mamakaci. mkerdTan miikra da ise miiyvana sawolamde. _ ratom ar gesmis, rom me miWirs uSenod aseT mdgomareobaSi... _ saTqmeli Seawyvitina tirilma, - Tanac unda vifiqro Senze. _ Cemze ratom unda ifiqro?
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_ nu waxval, meSinia! _ aRmoxda qals, _ sakmarisia, Tvali davxuWo, rom sikvdili amesveteba win. is nel-nela moiwevs Cemsken, Tavis Semzaravi saxiT da saSineli grZeli TiTebiT. is Zalian nela modis, ise nela, rom SemiZlia gaviqce, magram mojadoebuli velodebi da mwams, is aris Cemi bolo molodini. SevCerebivar cocxali adamianiviT gamocxadebul sikvdils da vucdi, rodis Seexeba Cems sxeuls misi brWyalebi. feliqsma bolomde mousmina qals. _ zemfir, ar gadamrio, raebs bodav? ra dros sikvdilze fiqria? Cveni Svili, Cven rom velodebiT, ramden bednierebas mogvitans... _ feliqs, Semomfice, rom Sen sanimuSod mouvli am bavSvs da Cems beWedsac... kacma cols SiSiT Sexeda. mxolod axla igrZno, ra saocrad Secvloda saxe. misi saTayvanebeli zemfiris TvalebSi iotisodena sicocxle aRar Canda. qmars SeSinebuli ucqerda. _ Tu feliqsi giyvars, meored eg aRar miTxra. coli cota damSvidda. _ Tu wuTisofeli iseTi ukuRmarTia, rom Sens sicocxles Seexeba, Tu gangeba Sens Tavs wamarTmevs, maSin, zemfir, igive bediswera mec gamomiwers sikvdils da verc me vnaxav Cvens Svils, romelsac ase velodebiT. iqneb sul ar arsebobs bediswera da SeiZleba, es ubralod SemTxveviTobac iyos, magram amas me davarqmev bedisweras. _ qmris am sityvebma ufro SeaSina qali. _ axla damSviddi, sanadirod mainc waval. _ kargi, wadi, marTlac giJi var, ase ubralod ar kvdebian. _ ai, axla ki mesmis Seni. vxedav, rom Sens ZarRvebSi dedaSenis sisxlia. _ dedaCemis? _ SekrTa qali. wuxandeli sizmari moagonda. _ dedaCemi marto cxovrobda TqvenSi. zogjer vfiqrobdi, ra Zala iyo is, romelic maZlevda unars, dameZlia mSobliuri keris monatrebis grZnoba. _ gaxsovs, feliqs, soflis bolo? rogor menatreba iqauroba, iq yoveli qva Cemi da Senia. ramdeni spetaki mogoneba gvakavSirebs iqaurobasTan. gaxsovs nasoflari? iq misuls yovelTvis erTi grZnoba meufleba, TiTqos videqi uzarmazar, upatronod mitovebul sasaflaoze. ar vici, ra Zala izidavda am adgilisken dedaCems. arasdros aravin mihyavda iq. im ukacriel nasoflarze maSin midioda, roca simartove moundeboda. erTxel, roca patara viyavi, deda movikiTxe. roca vera da ver vnaxe, nasoflarisken wavedi. vicodi, iq damxvdeboda. gaocebuli Sevdeqi. axlos mivedi. vxedavdi mis sasowarkveTil saxes, magram im wuTSi, Cemi suli sul sxva ramem SeZra. deda mReroda.
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moguduli xma hqonda. saxeze cremlebi Camosdioda. gaugebar sityvebs ambobda. dedas simRera qviTiniviT ismoda nangrevebSi da momeCvena, TiTqos upatronod mitovebul sasaflaosmagvar warsuls dastiroda. deda ijda, aravis da arafers ar uyurebda. verc me daminaxa. gaognebuls ar SemeZlo, gamego, ras godebda, ra imaleboda mis sityvebSi. mojadoebuli Sevcqerodi esoden sayvarel qals, romelic am wuTidan gamoucnob qimerad qceuliyo CemTvis. mTeli arsebiT SevigrZeni, deda viRacas umReroda, viRacis gamo tiroda, godebda. vigrZeni, rom deda am nangrevebTan kvnesiT mouxmobda mTebis iqiT darCenil warsuls. is simRera xan godeba iyo, xan kvnesa, xan natvra da xan Soreuli sixarulis gaxseneba. misTvis xeli ar SemiSlia. im dRidan dedaCemi CemTvis ucxo adamiani gaxda da damCemda, misTvis meTvalTvala. gamego, sinamdvileSi vin iyo dedaCemi. SevSindi. aseTi axlobeli da mSobliuri, sayvareli deda uceb sxvad iqca. roca misi xma misustda da dayuCda, mis saxes davakvirdi. cremlebi Rvarad Camosdioda. masTan axlos ar mivsulvar. Zalian ki mindoda, cremli Semewminda, magram ver gavbede. ver gavbede imitom, rom vigrZeni, Cemi axlos misvliT wavarTmevdi did saidumlos. im uzarmazar lods ver Sevexe, romelic gulSi hqonda. ukan gavyevi. deda TavCaqindruli mihyveboda xriok biliks. avedevne da vgrZnobdi, rom aravin da araferi arsebobda misTvis. gadioda dro. deda xSirad midioda im adgilas. mec avedevnebodi xolme, vusmendi mis xmas da vxedavdi mis gatanjul saxes. _ Semdeg Senc dagCemda iq siaruli. pirvelad iq, nangrevebTan Sevicani manamde daunaxavi Seni silamaze. im nangrevebTan Semiyvardi. _ Seawyvetina feliqsma. _ ho, marTali xar. im nangrevebTan SevficeT erTmaneTs, rom erTad gvecxovra sikvdilamde... _ didxans vfiqrobdi, gamego, vin iyo deda... mama gardacvlili myavda. im dros aTi wlis viyavi, roca Cerqezebma mokles igi. _ biZaCemi? _ xo, biZaSeni, magram me is, rogorc mama, ise miyvarda. Tumca, me xom ar vici mis garda sxva mama. mas WaRara Tavi da Sublze dafenili Tmebi hqonda. Zalian miyvarda es Tmebi. _ maxsovs zemfir, dedam stumrad wamiyvana biZaCemTan. Sen mas kalTaSi ejeqi da Tmas uvarcxnidi. _ dedaSenma civad Semomxeda. _ Seawyvetina qalma. _ Tavazianad gadamisva Tmaze xeli, mamam Zirs damsva. erTmaneTs eambornen. dResac Tvalwin midgas maTi saxeebi, is xma isev mesmis. `Zmao, Zvirfaso, am siberis dros ramxela tvirTi gikisriao~,
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mama gawiTlda da miugo, rac amqveynad micxovria, veraferi aiwonis im didi tvirTis sitkbos, rac me Semxvda boloso... Semdeg TamaSi daviwyeT da sul dagvaviwyda isini. feliqsi isev Seicvala, zemfirma Txroba Sewyvita. qmari grZnobda, rom warsulis mogonebam misi coli saSinlad daRala. _ roca mama mokles, deda ocdaaTi wlis Tu iqneboda. forTxviT uvlida cxedars da Tavs iataks urtyamda. maSindeli godeba Zalian hgavda dedis simReras, nangrevebTan rom vusmendi. deda didxans dadioda fexSiSveli glovis niSnad. ase Tibavda da iRebda Tivas, uZRveboda xarebs. mamis wminda xsovna Cems gulSi mzis SuqiviT Seinaxa. namdvili osis qali rom viyavi, es sul dedaCemis damsaxurebaa. axla rom vukvirdebi, es misi mxridan gmiroba iyo. _ Semdeg me viyavi Sens gverdiT mudam... _ didxans megona, rom Sen Cemi mamidaSvili iyavi. _ mec aseve vfiqrobdi, magram... mec gvian gavige simarTle, zemfir. ar vici, ratom, magram gagebisTanave Semiyvardi. ramdens vitanjebodi, roca SenTvis mamidaSvili viyavi. gaxsovs, erTad rom vWyumpalaobdiT mdinareSi? Semdeg meore napirze gasvla moisurve. geSinoda gasvla, magram mainc mTxovdi. _ daixareo, miTxari da zurgze momekide. rogorc Zmas, ise Semomxvie xelebi. patara da saTuTi xelebi gqonda. roca mdinaris SuagulSi gavediT, saocrad Tbili mkerdi gqonda. kinaRam, grZnoba davkarge. Tavs Zala davatane da mdinareze gagiyvane. Sen Camocurdi, qviSaSi gagordi da kenWebis srola damiwye. me gaqvavebuli gicqerdi. CemTvis aRar iyavi aRarc celqi gogo da aRarc biZaSvili. Cems win ideqi sayvareli qalwuli da rogor vwyvelidi im saaTs, roca gangebam Cems biZaSvilad mognaTla. _ da gamagebineT, rom adamiani, vinc mamaze metad miyvarda, Cemi mama ar iyo. aravin araferi icoda CerqezeTidan gadmoyvanili qalis Sesaxeb, romelic CrdiloeT oseTis erT patara aulSi Cerman xalilovma erT SuaRames Tavis mamiseul Zvel saxlSi moiyvana. meore diliTve qals mSobiaroba daewyo. _ Cermen, bavSvi gogoa, _ sul Sen ggavs. _ axara bebiaqalma da Tan gakvirvebulma CaaTvaliera misi TovliviT TeTri Tmebi. _ madlobeli var, bicola xabi. im Rames, roca qals Rrma ZiliT CaeZina, Cermenma tyavis xelCanTa gaxsna, iqidan ZvirfasTvliani yelsabami amoiRo da gogonas gulze Camohkida. diliT gaRviZebulma mSobiarem gogonas akvanTan mjdari Cermeni rom dainaxa, gaiRima. es iyo qalis bednieri Rimili. _ Cermen, SegiZlia, es pawia Seiyvaro ise, rogorc Seni Svili?
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Cermeni qalTan mivida, misi xeli aiRo da akoca. _ nanaSa, me igi ukve miyvars. sofelSi aravin icoda, rom Cermenma es qali, Cerqezi qvrivi, pirdapir saxlidan mostaca mazlebs da sasikvdilod gadaimtera mTeli gvari. Cermen xalilovi bavSvobidanve Sua aziaSi dadioda. vaWrobam gaitaca. ucol-Svilod da usiyvarulod naxevari saukune icxovra. aravin icoda, ra simdidres itevda misi tyavis topraki. yurmokvriT icodnen, rom im Savadgaqonil CanTaSi didZali Zvirfasi Tvlebi Cxrialebda. Cermens bevri kargi Tviseba hqonda. mTavari misi Tavmoyvareoba iyo. mogvianebiT, dis qmari, zauric waiyvana Sua aziaSi. zauri, seda da maTi erTi vaJi feliqsi, im simdidris memkvidreni iyvnen. siberis dros mis sulSi misTvis uCveulo grZnoba Casaxlda. pirakrulma, SavebSi Cacmulma axalgazrda qalma doqiT wyali miawoda stumars wyarosTan. naTqvamia, siyvaruli erTxel brZensac gaaxelebso. Cermeni qalis Tvalebma moajadova. im saRamos stumrad gamoecxada da bewveulic igula. maspinZeli qalis mamamTili gaxldaT. stumarma im Rames Seityo, rom moxucis umcrosi vaJiSvili mruSobisaTvis moeklaT mezobel sofelSi. saxlSi ki akvanSi daniSnuli rZali darCenodaT, axla ki moxuci mis Svils eloda. _ damiloce fuZe, iqneba vaJiSvili gaCndes! miawoda stumars TviTnaxadi arayi. gaTenebisas wamodga Cermeni, Tavzardacemuli iyo imis SegnebiT, rom mas maspinZlis qvrivi qali gagiJebiT Seuyvarda. diliT xel-piri qalma daabanina. madloba moaxsena kacma Cerqezul enaze da xelisgulze Zvirfasi gulsabnevi daudo. SveliviT Tvalebi daafaxura qalma, SiSiT aqeT-iqiT gaixeda, Semdeg Cermens SeanaTa SeSinebuli Tvalebi, magram roca misi alersiani da siyvaruliT savse saxes Sexvda, gaxevda. mere doqs xeli daavlo da ukanmouxedavaT saxlSi Sevida. gavida sul cota xani da Cermeni kvlav gamoCnda sofelSi. qvrivis saxls ar ekareboda. qals xan sad mohkravda Tvals da xan sad. qali usiyvarulod gaTxovda. loTi, garyvnili, usaqmuri iyo misi meuRle. usityvod itanda yvelafers. ase moiTxovda mTis adaTi da Cveuleba. qmris dakargvas mwuxarebaSi ar Caugdia, magram sapatarZlo Tavsaburavi usityvod Secvala qvrivis TalxiT. Cermenma masSi namdvili qaloba gaaRviZa. naxevar saukunis miRweul mamakacSi Tvrameti wlis axalgazrda, mSvenierma qalma Tavisi swori naxa. guli siyvaruliT aevso, raRac axlis molodinSi misi Cum-Cumi Wvreta daiwyo.
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mayvalze gakrefil qalebs cxenze amxedrebuli Cermeni daxvda. qalis vnebamoreulma Tvalebma siyvarulis cecxli Seusxiva Warmag mamakacs, monusxuli Seayena cxeni kacma da qalebs miesalma. cxeni mimalulSi miaba Cermenma. Semdeg TvalTvali dauwyo Cerqez qals. mayvlis krefaSi garTul qals Tavze wamoadga. TiTqos elodao qali, Tvali TvalSi gauyara mosuls. _ Cemo patarav, saxe maCvene! waiCurCula mamakacma da ramdenime nabiji gadadga misken. niavma dauqrola da Savi Tavsafari Camoucurda qals, is ar cdila, piri aekra. siyvarulma dauara da gaxevebuli usityvod daeloda. is idga im mamakacis win, vinc misi suli WeSmarit siyvaruls aziara. Cermeni erTi naxtomiT gaCnda masTan da sunTqvaSekruli mis bageebs daewafa. qalma grZnoba dakarga. gvian movidnen gons, SeeSindaT, aravin wamodgomodaT Tavs. qalma Cermenis mklavebidan Tavi gaiTavisufla, sakinZe Seikra da mamakacs Sexeda. qalma igrZno, rom am ucxo kacs dakavSireboda mTeli sxeuliT. _ male wagiyvan! mwuxarebam dafara misi saxe. xeli gulTan miitana da waiCurCula. _ aulSi Cems Svils elodebian! qalma umweod xelebi Zirs CamouSva da Tvalebi cremliT aevso. mamakaci aRelda. kidev waetana qalis mSvenier saxes. kocniT amouSro Tvalebi da yurTan niaviviT wasCurCula. _ mas marto me da Sen davelodebiT! _ da gaSorda. qalma SiSiT gaayola Tvali. qals saSinlad uyvarda igi. uyvarda TavdaviwyebiT da mzad iyo, gadaedga yvela nabiji, Tundac Seugnebeli da damRupveli yofiliyo. ramdenime dRis Semdeg CrdiloeT oseTis yvelaze mTian soflisaken sami cxenosani mTeli siswrafiT mihqroda. Cermenmac da misma SavebSi Cacmulma sapatarZlom kargad icodnen, rom es gza SeiZleba ubedurebiT damTavrebuliyo, magram im wuTSi arafers dagidevdnen. maT win mosCanda mogvianebuli aisi maradiuli siyvarulisa da wyvili mas eswrafoda, ori sxvadasxva asakis, sxvadasxva mdgomareobis, sarwmunoebis da adaTis suli da xorci. Semdeg ra iqneboda, arcerTi ar fiqrobda amaze, mTavari iyo damTvraliyvnen am maradiuli gazafxulis sitkboTi da roca orma mamakacma didi xnis mitovebul saxlSi Cerqezis qvrivi miiyvanes, qals mSobiaroba daewyo. sofelSi yvelas egona, rom bavSvi, romelic im RamiT gaCnda, Cermenis iyo. maTi saidumlo icoda mxolod misma dam, sedam da siZe zaurma, romelic monawileobdnen qalis motacebaSi.
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mas Semdeg, rac qali atlasSi gaaxvia da Tavisad daigula Cermenma, Sua aziaSi siaruli Sewyvita. mis cxovrebaSi daiwyo yvelaze bednieri xana. cxovrebis dasasruls mis ZarRvebSi ifeTqa zRva siyvarulis dauokebelma survilma. im dros, roca sulis netarebas daeZebda oqroSi, SemTxveviT misi cxovrebis didi siyvarulis amomavali wertili gaxda Cerqezi qvrivis povna. am qalSi SeerTebuli iyo qaluri mimzidveloba da aziuri temperamenti, mTieli qalisTvis damaxasiaTebeli janmrTeli aRnagoba da tuCebTan mimaluli vneba, mSvenieri tanis moqniloba da TvalebTan gamonaskuli Tavbrudamxvevi Rimili. da siyvarulisken zurgSeqceuli Cermeni, romelmac naxevari saukune ise galia, rom normalurad qalisaken arc gauxedavs, TavdaviwyebiT gadavarda siyvarulis am amouSrob zRvaSi. _ Cemo nanaSa, Cemo gogona, Sen rom ar mepove, am qveynidan ise wavidodi, arc mecodineboda, ra iyo sicocxle. Sen me did cxovrebas maziare. magram qalmac da kacmac, orivem kargad icoda, rom es siyvaruli moparuli iyo, icodnen, rom yoveli qvis iqiT idga am maradiuli gazafxulis Semmusvreli zamTari, rom yoveli xis iqiT SeiZleba mdgariyo Tofmomarjvebuli sikvdili da isic icodnen, rom siyvaruli xangrZlivi ar iqneboda. amis SiSiT da dagubebuli siyvarulis erTbaSad mozRvavebiT, am ori adamianis siyvaruli iyo ganumeorebeli da eniT auwereli. amitom qals roca Cerqezi mazlebis mier akuwuli cocxalmkvdari Cermeni mohgvares, ar gahkvirvebia. _ es me mogkali, Cermen! mwuxarebiT mieWra sayvarel adamians. _ ar vnanob, Zvirfaso. Sen me warmoudgeneli sixaruli momaniWe. mapatie, rom ver gavufrTxildi Cems Tavs. gemudarebi, Cveni gogona Cems namdvil Svilad gazarde. Sen da Sen modgmas didxans eyofa, rac dagitove! _ ra TavSi vixlo isini. uinteresod miageba qalma. qmris saxesTan daixara. kacma Zlivs moaxerxa, xelebiT miezida qali, misi mSvenieri saxe Tavisken daxara da erTxel kidev moaswro misi tuCebis sitkboTi damtkbariyo. es netarebac gaiyola Cermenma da suli dalia. qaliSvili dedaze nakleb rodi dardobda mis sikvdils, mas sZulda viRac mTebis gaRmidan gadmosuli mkvlelebi. dro gadioda. nanaSa patiosnad atarebda qvrivis Talxs. zemfiri izrdeboda, dRiTidRe mSvenierdeboda. Cermenis das, sedas Zalian uyvarda rZali. es Tvinieri gogona SviliviT izrdeboda maTTan. gogonas sxva axlobeli aravin hyavda. qali grZnobda, rom dRes Tu xval, bedi moadgeboda karze da SiSobda, misi ojaxidan wasvliT
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daikargeboda mamis memkvidreobac. memkvidreoba, romelic, rom ara es gogona, mas darCeboda. qalma gadawyvita, zemfiri rZlad daetovebina. _ ramdenime xanSi, zemfiris maSvlebi mogvivlen zaur. xom ar ajobebda, feliqsisTvis dagvetovebina? _ arc zauri iyo uarze. mTavari erTi iyo-rogor eTqvaT da-ZmasaviT gazrdili axalgazrdebisaTvis Tavisi gulisnadebi. bolos dedam ikisra simarTlis Tqma. _ feliqs, modi CemTan! _ ra iyo? _ mamaSens mociquli mouvida. _ raze? _ zemfiris xels gvTxoven... _ vin arian? _ gakvirvebiT ikiTxa biWma. _ cudi xalxi ar arian, magram mas biZaSenma imdeni simdidre dautova, bare bevri sasiZoc gamouCndeba. _ kargi gogoa zemfiri, wynari da TavdaWerili. _ daumata zaurma. _ zemfiris Sesaferisia? _ ikiTxa feliqsma. _ mTavari axla eg ar aris, mTavari misi simdidrea. _ ver gavige, magiT risi Tqma gsurs? mama Tavis Svils dautovebda simdidres... _ Tavis Svils ki, magram zemfiri xom biZaSenis Svili ar aris da Sen gacilebiT meti memkvidre xar misi. feliqss gakvirveba gamoexata TvalebSi, Semdeg wyena dedis mimarT, romelsac surda, oboli gogonasTvis mamis memkvidreoba waerTmia. SiSi gadaekra saxeze da iqve Camojda. am wuTSi feliqsi ise iyo am azriT gaavebuli da aforiqebuli, rom verc mixvda, ra surda dedas. gulis siRrmeSi SesZagda mSoblebi, roca Seigno, rom maT oblisTvis, maTTan Sezrdili zemfirisaTvis, raRacis warTmeva surdaT. am memkvidreobas sTavazobdnen mas, adamians, romelic gogonas erTaderTi axlobeli iyo. zizRiT Seaqcia zurgi mSoblebs da daretianebuli gareT gavida. _ zemfiri da me ucxo varT erTmaneTisTvis! _ kioda yurTan qari da fafarayril cxens win miaqrolebda. ver mixvda, rogor gadaiara bilikebi. ver gaacnobiera, rogor Seayena zemfiris saxlTan cxeni. TiToeuli xe, qva, miwis nagleji am wuTSi ucxo gamxdariyo misTvis. _ ratom movedi? _ gakvirvebiT ikiTxa feliqsma da Tavi gaarxia. _ is sxvaa Turme, male samudamod sxva gaxdeba... _ feliqs!_ moesma qalis isev iseTive wkriala xma. feliqsi Semobrunda.
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_ rogor miyureb, biWo? ase mgonia, Cems win mgelia da SemWams. Camodi! _ vaJi ar ganZreula. gogonam gaicina, masTan TviTon mivida, cxens sadaveSi swvda da feliqss Sexeda. _ biWo, avad xom ara xar? adamianis feri aRar gadevs. _ bicola sad aris? _ nangrevebTan. Camodi, mgoni, Sen avad xar. _ modi, wavideT bicolasTan. _ ara, deda mReris, xels nu SevuSliT! _ mReris? _ ho, mReris, misi simRera Sen arasdros mogismenia, feliqs? _ ara. _ is simRera ki ara, tirilia. am wuTSi ki iseT xasiaTze var... sul ar minda, misi qviTini movismino. _ sCans, uxaria gaTxoveba! _ gaifiqra felisma. _ me ki minda, bicolas movusmino. wamoxval? _ ukmexad uTxra qaliSvils. _ Tu Sen ginda, maSin wavideT! feliqsi cxenidan Camoxta, iqve miaba, Semdeg qaliSvils angariSmiucemlad xeli waavlo da gaiqca. nangrevebamde sirbiliT mividnen. uceb Sedgnen da fexakrefiT gaagrZeles gza. simRera SemoesmaT. feliqsma gogona Seayena, mere moxerxebulad Camosxdnen da smenad iqcnen. _ sul asea. aq erTsa da imave dros dadis. feliqss Tvalebidan cremlebi wamosvcvivda. _ es xom tirilia, zemfir! _ Cailaparaka feliqsma. _ sawyali deda. ase mas Semdegaa, rac mama gardaicvala. feliqss gaaJrJola. _ ara, usamarTlobaa, Tu ki vetyviT, rom biZaCemi misi mama ar aris._ gaifiqra vaJma. _ mivideT? _ ara. sunTqvaSekruli isxdnen manam, sanam nanaSam simRera ar Sewyvita da iqauroba ar datova. feliqsi pirveli wamodga da im adgilisken wavida, sadac bicolamisi weRan ijda. iqve Camojda, saxe xelebSi Cargo da gairinda. zemfiri zurgidan miepara da xelebiT Tvalebi dauxuWa. vaJi erTxans garindebuli ijda, frTxilad Seexo mis naz xelebs da Tvalebidan ise moiSora, rom xeli ar gauSvia. jer Tvalebi daxuWa, mere gaaxila, gogona Tavisken Seatriala. vaJs gaaJrJola. misi saxe, Tvalebi da cxeli sunTqva sul axlos iyo masTan.
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_ zemfir, ramxela gazrdilxar? _ undoda eTqva, magram sityva ver daZra. Tavisi Tavis eSinoda, TiTqos ver mixvda, ram SeaSina. wamoiWra, sirbiliT gaiWra nangrevebTan da zemfiri ukan datova. _ feliqs! is ar motrialebula. _ dRes raRacam gadaria es biWi! _ udardelad Tqva da isic sirbiliT ukan daedevna. saxlSi misuli feliqsi cxens moaxta, wyarosTan misul bicolasTan erTad Sedga da CamosZaxa: _ Sen mainc ratom ar miTxari, rom zemfiri Cemi biZaSvili ar iyo._ pasuxisTvis ar daucdia, WenebiT gzaSaraze gaiWra. _ feliqs! _ ikivla gzaze Semxvedrma zemfirma. Tavis nebaze miSvebulma cxenma mtvris korianteli daayena da cxenic da mxedaric orive dafara. Sin dabrunebul zemfirs ki wyarosTan gulwasuli deda daxvda. _ netav, feliqsma ver SeamCnia? _ Tavis Tavs SeekiTxa qaliSvili, roca dedasTan miiWra. feliqsma arnaxuli siswrafiT gadaWra Tavis sofelTan misasvleli mokle bilikebi, magram saxlSi ar Sesula. sofels Semouara, ganmartoebuli adgili naxa, cxenidan Camoxta, iqve balaxze gauSva, TviTon ki mindorze wamowva. _ mainc, visze aTxoveben? _ pirveli, rac iyo, es SekiTxva dausva TavisTavs. amis Semdeg Wabukma gareT daiwyo siaruli. Tvalebs Soris mkacri zoli gauCnda da cdilobda, mSoblebs morideboda. seda sagonebelSi Cavarda Svilis aseTi saqcielis gamo. _ cudi araferi autexos Tavs! _ fiqrobda gulSi da cdilobda, rogorme molaparakeboda Svils, magram feliqsi saTofeze ar ekareboda. ase gavida ori weli. feliqsi gaurboda TviT zemfirasac ki. am ukanasknelma, romelmac araferi icoda, gaocebuli iyo vaJis fericvalebiT. nanaSam ki sworad gaugo muliSvils. qalis guli mixvda, rom vaJs misi qaliSvili uyvarda. _ netav, rogor avuxsna?_ Tavs itexda qali, mas ukeTesi sasiZo arc undoda. Tavs itexdnen sedac da zauric. male iseTi ram moxda, ramac gadaawyvetina yvelas, zemfirisTvis simarTle eTqvaT. erT saRamos orjer daqvrivebuli qalis ezoSi ucxo cxenosnebi Semovidnen. qalma Soridanve Seicno isini: Cerqezi mazli da misi mogvareni iyvnen. qals gulma avi uTxra. zemfirs xeli Caavlo da ukana karidan gaapara. ubrZana, saswrafod wadi da zaurs stumrebis
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mosvla acnobeo. _ ar dagaviwydes. stumrebi Cerqezebi arian. Sen ki iq darCi. qaliSvilma mokle biliki Cairbina. dedam iqaurobas moaSora Tu ara qali, vaJkacurad stumrebs Seegeba da Sin SeipatiJa. _ Cermenis saxli Riaa keTili stumrebisTvis. _ Secbunebuli Cerqezebi amas aRar moelodnen da odnav nirwamxdarni saxlSi Sevidnen. qalis namazlebma Tvali aarida xaliCaze gakrul Cermenis suraTs da mis qveS dakidebul vercxliT moWedil xanjals. qali mixvda, rom isini zemfirisTvis movidnen. Zu loms damsgavsebuli qali Zalas ikrebda da gonebaSi swonida, rogor gaestumrebina isini. _ samtrod ar movsulvarT. _ wamoiwyo yvelaze ufrosma da xSir ulvaSze xeli gadaisva. _ Tqvi, risTvis moxvedi?_ SeekiTxa mkacrad qali. _ vityviT, Tumca pasuxi erTi unda iyos Sengan, vinaidan Cven uSenod gadavwyviteT es sakiTxi. qals miwisferi daedo. _ `isev is monuri morCileba~._ gaifiqra gulSi. _ Cveni Svilis qebis xmam moaRwia Cvenamde. _ daiwyo im mazlma, romelmac Cermeni mohkla. - saqmro movuZebneT. namdvili jigiti. ver daiwuneb. ar minda, Seni mteri viyo. Sen Cvens Svilsa zrdi. _ gavikiTxav. _ gulis kankaliT uTxra dedam. _ sad unda gaikiTxo? _ ukmexad uTxra namazlarma. _ xalxSi. keTilismsurvelebi aqac bevria. zemfirsac vkiTxav. jer bavSvia. ra dros misi gaTxovebaa? _ TxuTmeti welia, rac iqauroba datove da am bebers gamoekide. _ joxi, romelic xelSi eWira, Cermenis suraTisken gaiSvira. _ TxuTmeti wlis qali ukve gasaTxovaria. qals sisxli moawva, magram sibraze daioka da gadawyvita, qaluri eSmakobiT aexvia maTTvis Tvalebi. _ rodisTvis movamzado patarZali? _ rac SeiZleba, male!_ namazlari wamodga, mrisxaned Sexeda narZlevs da uTxra: _ icode, Tu gagvacure, miwaSic ver dagvemalebi, nakuw-nakuw gadavuyri Sens Zvlebs ZaRlebs. roca karebSi gadiodnen, erTma pirtitvela Cerqezma, krZalviT daukra Tavi da qali mixvda, rom es unda yofiliyo misi sasiZo. gascdnen Tu ara cxenosnebi sofels, qalma TavSali moigdo mxrebze da mulis saxlisken gaswia. zemfiris monayoliT Sefiqrianebuli zauri da seda mdumared isxdnen. feliqsi ki xis ZirSi iwva garindebuli da iseT STabeWdilebas tovebda, TiTqos es saqme sul ar adardebda.
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_ feliqsi am bolo dros Cafiqrebulia, iqneb vinme uyvars? _ sxvaTaSoris Tqva sedam da zemfirs Sexeda. _ uyvars? mere me ratom ar meubneba? vin uyvars? _ zemfiri wamoxta da ezoSi Cairbina. _ feliqs! _ fexi wahkra fexze da axlos miujda. _ feliqs, CvenTan Cerqezi cxenosnebi movidnen. _ daginaxes? _ ara. mere? _ araferi. _ tutuco, ratom xar aseTi braziani. sul gamoicvale, iqneb viRac Segiyvarda da im viRacas sxva uyvars? feliqsma zurgi Seaqcia. _ ar meubnebi? _ axla winidan mouara gogonam, _ ar ginda Tqma, magram mainc gaTqmevineb. lamazia? vis hgavs? feliqss gaeRima am umanko bavSvis tiktikze. _ ras icini, sulelo, mamida dardobs da damavala, gavigo, vin dagadardiana. _ siciliT TmebSi swvda da SeanjRria. Tbilma Wruantelma dauara sxeulSi feliqss, xeli mohkida qals. _ getyvi. _ sunTqva Seekra. yvrimalTan akoca gogonas._ getyvi, aucileblad getyvi. _ wyarosTan Cairbine, me cxeniT moval, nasoflarze wavideT, iq aucileblad getyvi, sxva gza ar aris. qal-vaJs zauri wamoadga. _ zemfir, Svilo, mamidaSenTan Sedi, iq dedaSeni gelodeba. roca ukmayofilo qaliSvili saxlSi Sevida, zaurma Svili, rogorc Tavisi toli, gverdiT gaiyvana. TvalebSi Caxeda da uTxra: _ zemfiris Tavs samudamod gvTxoven misi naTesavebi. _ cecxlma dakvesa feliqsis TvalebSi. xmals magrad CasWida xeli. _ Sen ginda, rom colad SeirTo igi? _ me is miyvars. _ wadi, Cven mas movelaparakebiT. _ zauri Sin Sebrunda. _ gmadlobT, mamaCemo! _ moesma feliqsis xma ukana mxridan. mamakaci SviliviT zrdida qaliSvils, Tumca gumaniT grZnobda, es ambavi ase unda damTavrebuliyo. axla, rogorc rZlisTvis, ise unda Seexeda zemfirisTvis. mTis adaTiT ki mokrZaleba marTebda mis mimarT. erTaderTi da mTavari darCa mosagvarebeli _ Cermeni, romelic gagiJebiT uyvarda qaliSvils, misi mama ar iyo. Zalian Zneli iyo amis axsna, uTqmeloba ki aRar SeiZleboda. nanaSas Zala ar Seswevda, SvilisTvis simarTle eTqva da isev sadedamTilom ikisra am ambis gacxadeba. gogona jer ver mixvda, Semdeg xumroba egona da gadaikiskisa.
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Tqva, sulelebs ra mougoniaTo. magram roca dabneuli dedis saxes daakvirda da gaognebul biZas da mamidas Sexeda, sicili myisve Sewyvita. gabrazebulma SesZaxa: _ gemudarebiT, miTxariT, rom Tqven icrueT! yvelam Tavi daxara, gulis siRrmeSi SeebralaT qaliSvili. _ deda, es marTalia? _ axla dedasTan miiWra qali, xelebi dauWira. nanaSas yinuliviT civi xelebi hqonda. zemfirs gaaJrJola. deda axla ufro ucxo da Soreuli gamxdariyo misTvis. es ojaxic eucxova. arasdros ugrZvnia ase eulad Tavi. erTi wuTiT yvelaferi airia. yvelaferi sxvisi gaxda. _ damSviddi, Svilo! rac giTxres, marTalia. Seni bavSvobidan wilad mxvda, es tvirTi metarebina. Seni mama, romelic arasdros ginaxavs, Cemi akvanSi daniSnuli qmari, maSin gardaicvala, roca amqveynad arc iyavi movlenili. ramdenime kvira vicxovre mamaSenTan da misi mogoneba mxolod da mxolod tkivils miaxlebs. dRes, Seni mamis naTesavebi movidnen, Cermenis mkvlelebi. maT Cvens daukiTxavad gauTxovebixar Tavis sofelSi. isini Sens Tavs mTxoven. _ deda, ras ambob, ras? _ damSviddi, Svilo, _ moefera seda. _ Cven isev ise gveyvarebi. _ feliqsma icis? _ eldanakravma wamoiZaxa qaliSvilma. rZal-mulma erTmaneTs gadaxedes. veraferi Tqves. _ feliqsma icis, Svilo. is wyarosTan gelodeba! _ laparakSi Caeria zauri. _ imitomac SemiZula. _ Tqva da gulsaklavad atirda. giJiviT gaiWra gareT da TavkisrismtvreviT daRmarTze daeSva. is wyarosTan ar misula, magram vaJma SeamCnia da ukan gamoedevna. _ zemfir! anazdad Sedga gogona. cremlebi RapaRupiT cvioda. feliqsi miuaxlovda, qaliSvili Seebrala. inana, rom simarTle uTxres. xelisgulebiT SeumSrala cremlebi. marjnisferi tuCebi da Savi Tvalebi ise axlos iyo masTan, rom Zalian izidavda vaJs. Tavi Zlivs Seikava, magram male gons movida. _ gewyina, rom gaige? _ Sen icodi? _ ho... ori welia, rac vici da uxmod vitanjebi... _ imitom gamirbodi? vaJi daibna. qaliSvili wasasvlelad moemzada. _ midixar? _ vedrebiT Sexeda vaJma. _ ar vici. _ Sen xom mTxove... _ ra?
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_ Sen gindoda, gagego... _ ho... Tumca netav, weRan geTqva... lamis gamiskdes Tavi... feliqss Sexeda. Seebrala. _ feliqs, Tqvi... _ aq ara. rTuli saTqmelia. cxenTan miiWra, qaliSvils xeli daavlo. jer TviTon Sejda cxenze, Semdeg daixara, gaognebuli gogona aitaca, mkerdze aikra da mTeli siswrafiT gaaWena cxeni. _ `getyvi, yvelafers getyvi, magram vidre uars metyode, erTxel mainc Sevexo Sens mxrebs, Tmas, sul axlos davinaxo Seni Tvalebi, yvelaze sayvareli da Zvirfasi... erTxel mainc mivwvde Sens tuCebs, Torem SeiZleba, veRac vixilo isini~. _ am fiqrebiT miaqrolebda fafarayril da uunagiro cxens Wabuki. cxeni nangrevebTan Seayena. Camoxta, Semdeg qali Camosva. cxeni iqve gamoaba da gaocebulma zemfirs Sexeda. _ didi gambedaoba gamoviCine, rom ase moviqeci, ara?_ hkiTxa zemfirs. _ es xom pirveli ar iyo? _ maSin gvegona, rom sisxliT naTesavebi viyaviT me da Sen, daZmaniviT gviyvarda erTmaneTi. axla... _ nerwyvi gauSra, cxenis fafars miado Tavi da wasCurCula: _ rogor ar minda Seni dakargva, zemfir! zemfiri, amdeni ucnauri ambebiT daretebuli, qvaze Camojda da Tavis sicocxleSi pirvelad mounda emRera ise, rogorc mReroda dedamisi. jer nela aRiRinda, Semdeg xmas dauwia. qaliSvilis wkriala xma ismoda. Svilic iseve kargad mReroda, rogorc deda da feliqsi grZnobda, qaliSvili Tavis daoblebas glovobda. simRera miwyda. arcerTi ar amdgara. orive im simReris zegavlenis qveS iyvnen. mxolod mogvianebiT daarRvia dumili zemfirma. _ dae, nuravin iqnebiT Cemi naTesavi _es sulerTia. marto is iyo mamaCemi. risTvis miTxariT simarTle? _ ramxela gazrdilxar, zemfir? _ waiCurCula feliqsma. Sav Tmas miswvda. marjnisfer tuCebs siTbo SemoenTo, xeli mxrebze Camoucurda. qaliSvili vaJs miekra. _ risTvis miTxariT simarTle? _ raRac naRvlianad uCurCula vaJs da gaukvirda, mTeli sxeuliT moeSva. Tvalebi daxuWa. misi sayvareli feliqsi mis gverdiT iyo. is iseve uyvarda, rogorc adre. sadRac Sors zarebi rekdnen. qari mReroda da marjnisferi tuCebi nel-nela uaxlovdebodnen erTmaneTs. _ aRar metyvi, vin giyvars, tutuco? _ qals undoda, eTqva, magram tuCebi ar emorCilebodnen.
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vaJma ver gabeda, mis tuCebs miswvdomoda. qali xelSi aitaca, nangrevebze sirbiliT gadairbina, uunagiro cxens moaxta da iseTi siswrafiT gaaqana, rom qalma SiSiT Sehkivla. _ ras sCadi, biWo? _ aRar ginda, icode, vin miyvars?_ wasCurCula sunTqvaSekrulma vaJma. _ Tqvi, ar gadavcvivdeT! _ qali vaJisken Setrialda da mTeli mkerdiT aekra mis SiSvel mkerds. vaJma odnav Seayena cxeni, misken daixara da pirvelad miswvda mis marjnisfer tuCebs, romelic ase izidavda. ubiwo da umweo qalma igrZno, rom es ar iyo da-Zmuri kocna. es sul sxva iyo. mixvda, rom vaJi siyvarulSi gamoutyda. vaJma cxeni miuSva. axla iseTi grZnoba hqonda, mTel uswormasworo gzebs moivlida. qvesknelSic gadavardeboda, oRond ar daekarga is Zvirfasi arseba, romelic axla mkerdze hyavda mikruli. _ feliqs, gaCerdi, ar gadavcvivdeT! _ Tu sikvdili gviweria, erTad movkvdeT!
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im saRamos qarTveli ltolvilebi moadgnen Cermenis binas. qali Seegeba maT. roca Cermenis ambavi Seityves, Zlier daRondnen. qalma vinaoba ikiTxa. vaJis mama Cermenis megobari aRmoCnda. TavSesafari iTxova. zaurs Seatyobina, romelic Tadarigs iWerda Sua aziaSi wasasvlelad. ramdenime xanSi orma ojaxma datova oseTis patara sofeli da Sua aziis gzas daadgnen. nanaSa maT ar mihyveboda. man yvelaferi momaval sasiZos Caabara. Tavisi beWedic qaliSvils misca, TviTon ki ar isurva Cermenis saflavis mitoveba. Cermenis gverdiT daeloda Tavis bedisweras.
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ZmebiviT SeuyvardaT nestors da feliqss erTmaneTi. kavkasionidan pamiramde maT sxva aravin hyavdaT. zauri da seda ukan dabrundnen, roca feliqsi zemfirze daqorwinda. nestori da feliqsi muSaobdnen, qalebi saxlSi iyvnen. natos meore welsve SeeZina vaJi. zemfirma ki ramdenime weli iara uSvilod. mTebSi gazrdil vaJkacebs mTebi eZaxda. mTebi, Tavisi zRapruli mSvenierebiT, gaSiSvlebuli kldeebiT, maradiuli myinvarebiT da mzisken aziduli wveroebiT. Semodgoma dadgeboda Tu ara, es ori adamiani cxenebze Semosxdebodnen da erTi-ori kviriT daexetebodnen kldovan naprale-

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bze. maT xiblavdaT pamiris mTebis sikaSkaSe. _ Cems mTebs magonebs, dalocvili. _ ityoda nestori da RimiliT gaxedavda xolme. mTebisa da nadirobis siyvarulma waiyvana im dRes ori megobari pamiris mTebSi. _ vinZlo, biWi damaxvedro, zemfir! _ xeli dauqnia sayvarel adamians feliqsma, roca cxeni ezodan gaiyvana. _ biWi? _ zeviT aweuli xeli Zirs CamouSva qalma. _ nestor, frTxilad iareT! _ miaZaxa natom meuRles. roca cxenmac da adamianmac ori dRis savali gza dafares, feliqss moagonda, rom gamomSvidobebisas zemfirs nacrisferi saxe hqonda. _ netav, deda mainc iyos aq! _ Cailaparaka feliqsma. _ nato mixedavs, nu dardob! _ miuxvda nestori, _ is yvela saqmeSi profesoria. _ feliqs, xedav im patara vakes? _ vxedav... _ ai, im vakeze SarSan Rorebi iyvnen. SarSan iq ar avsulvar, wels ki iseTi grZnoba maqvs, rom aucileblad avalT. _ cota rTulia. _ Tvali Seavlo feliqsma. _ im dRes saRamomde ise ixetiales, araferi SexvedriaT. saxlidan wamoRebuli sagzliT danayrdnen. axlo-maxlo xafangi daages. meore dRes daiZrnen im vakisken. yvela saWiro nivTi zurgze moikides da gaswies. qars, adgil-adgil gaeSiSvlebina Tovliani adgilebi da ufskrulSi gadaeyara. mTavari iq asvla, xafangis dageba da ukan dabruneba iyo. mgluri nabijiT miiwevdnen zeviT. mziT gamTbar patara vakeze unda mietyuebinaT gareuli nadiri. gvian dabrundnen. patara goWi gabmuliyo xafangSi. qoxis piras cecxli daanTes, goWi gamoasufTaves, Samfurze wamoages da Sebrawes. _ momaval wels col-SviliT wamoval. _ ixumra feliqsma. TiTo maTara arayic miayoles. didxans imusaifes, Semdeg nabadi wamoixures da miwvnen. feliqss Zili gautyda da nestormac ar misca neba, daeZina. _ imdens melaparaka zemfiri, rom misi saxe Tavidan ar amomdis. aseTi Znelia mSobiaroba? _ daiZine, feliqs. natos miande eg saqme. sicivem gauara nabadSi, gverdi ibruna. _ getyoba, ar gZinavs. erTi, cecxli SeukeTe, gavTbeT. feliqsi wamodga. nakverCxlebze SeSa daawyo. daeloda, vidre ar aenTeboda, Semdeg zurgiT Setrialda, rom gamTbariyo. gamTbar qoxSi nestors CaeZina. zemfiris zafraniseburi saxe ki ver amodioda Tavidan.
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ori kvira ise ixetiales, vercerTi Rori ver mohkles. tafobze asvlisas xedavdnen Rorebis nakvalevs, magram xafangi mudam carieli xvdebodaT. _ Rame unda avideT, nestor, dRes iseT xasiaTze var, aucileblad movklavT rames. erTi, ori maTara arayi kidev dalies. simRerac wamoiwyes. nestorma Cveulebrivad adre daiZina. feliqsi cecxls unTebda da Tan saxlSi darCenil colze fiqrobda. feliqsi Zalian gvian miuwva megobars, nestors Tofi gverdze edo. piraRma iwva da xvrinavda. feliqsi marjvena xeliT megobars iyo moxveuli da ise eZina. uceb feliqsis cxenma anazdad yurebi cqvita, miwa datora da daixvixvina. buranSi CaesmaT cxenis xma, magram sasmels Tavisi gaetana da ver gaiges, saidan modioda igi. _ nu waxval, nu, feliqs! meSinia. xma sul axlos miswvda feliqss da am xmam erTbaSad cxenis xma dahfara. _ zemfir! davbrundi. xom xedav, erTad varT, xeliT Semexe... xom grZnob, rom cocxlebi varT, Sen ki dardobdi. _ meSinia feliqs! mamakacma colisaken gaiwvdina xeli. qals saqorwino kaba ecva, Tavic TeTri mandiliT hqonda gakruli. feliqsi gaaoca colis angeloziseburma silamazem. frTebi aklda mxolod, rom caSi gafreniliyo. mis tans daakvirda tanwerweta iyo, aSoltili. _ bavSvi sad aris? zemfir! bavSvi. _ saxlSi davtove. me ki SenTan wamovedi. megona, gcioda. gaToSili xelebi unda gameTbo SenTvis. Sen ki kargad yofilxar. ras vdardobdi, suleli... _ ai, axla ki miyvarxar! _ Sen me yovelTvis miyvardi feliqs! _ Semodi qoxSi. _ Cumad, feliqs! araferi gesmis? mamaCemis mkvlelebi momdeven. bevrni arian da wiTel cxenebze sxedan. feliqs, Cqara, Torem orives dagvxocaven. zemfiri daixara, qmars xeli staca da wamoayena. _ Cqara, Cveni cxeni aqvea, is Cven orives wagviyvans da gadagvarCens. colma Tavis sayvarel cxenTan miiyvana. is cxeni xom maTi sayvareli Tanaziaric iyo. _ Cqara, xom xedav gviaxlovdebian! iyvira qalma. feliqsi elvis siswrafiT moaxta cxens da colic aitaca. gaxelebuli ulayi torebze Sedga. Semdeg magrad daiWixvina da sadRac gaitaca ori adamiani. _ awi veravin dagveweva, verc Sens Tavs wamarTmevs vinme! uCurCula qalma da ufskrulis piras kamara Sehkra. orivem Tvalebi
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daxuWes da... _ feliqs! adeqi biWo! SeanjRria nestorma megobari, Rorebi karavs uaxlovdebian. _ Rorebi? dabneuli wamoiWra feliqsi, erTxans gaognebuli ijda, ver gamorkveuliyo, ratom Seicvala ase ucbad yvelaferi. _ oh! sizmari yofila, Cailaparaka SemkrTalma, magram ukve dro aRar iyo, Tofi Seayena da nestors ukan daedevna. _ Cqara, feliqs! frTxilad Cairbines TavdaRmarTi. _ Sen iqidan Semouare, - gasZaxa feliqss nestorma. yvelaferi moxda Tvalis daxamxamebaSi da uxmaurod. ramdenime Rori karavs frTxilad uaxlovdeboda. Caxmaxi Seayena feliqsma. misma xmam zariviT gaiwkriala.feliqsi Rorebs daedevna. sul ramdenime iyvnen da gadaTeTrebul tafobze am SuaRamis myudroebaSi Savi CrdilebiviT mosCandnen. sibneles odnav anaTebda TvalismomWreli Tovli. susxi Zvalsa da xorcSi atanda. ismoda Rorebis gniasi da nestoris qSinva. cdilobda, mizanSi amoRebul Rors rogorme daaxloeboda. Rorebma gverdi icvales da axla aRmarTze amoirbines. nestorma gadawyvita, winidan daevlo gareuli cxovelisaTvis. misvlaze nestorma ori daTvala, xolo ori gaeqca. axla idga da mesames ucdida Tofmomarjvebuli, sakmarisi iyo misi gamoCena da Tofi, romelic mzad iyo gasasrolad, daicleboda. axla ukve aRar awuxebda Tovlis sicive. mTeli arsebiT daZabuli borcvis iqidan amomaval gzas gascqeroda. TiTi miaWira sasxlets, Tvla daiwyo da Savi Crdilic gawva Tvalis momWrel Tovlze. gaisma Tofis xma. _ a . . . a . . . aaa adamianis Semazrzenma xmam dafara gasrolis xma.am xmam sadRac gadainacvla, jer axlos, mere ufro Sors... Semdeg yvela qvam, yvela kldis qimma, kldis wverom da yinulovanma mTagrexilebma, yvelam erTad Tavi mouyara, airekla da nestoris yurTan risxvasaviT ukan daabruna. _ ra iyo? guli SeekiTxa nestors. pasuxis gacemis Tavi ar hqonda. _ ra iyo? erTi SekiTxvac gaisma mis arsebaSi. moeCvena, TiTqos mTeli sxeuli raRac webovani da mlaSe siTxiT aevso. _ sada xar, feliqs? Rori movkali. undoda eyvira, ise Zlier, rom gadaRma gadmokidebul qarafebs gaego, magram ar SeeZlo. ramdenime nabiji gadadga win Semdeg TiTqos ukan viRac mosdevso, gaiqca da Tvalis momWrel Tovlze, piraRma gaWimul Sav CrdilTan miiWra. _ es xom... gulma uCurCula nestors da Zirs daixara. sisxli TeTr TovlSi areuliyo.
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_ feliqs, Sen aq iyavi Casafrebuli? undoda kidev daemSvidebina sakuTari Tavi. orive xeliT axveta Tovliani sisxli da saxeze Camoisva. rodesac man adamianis sisxlis suni igrZno, ugrZnoblad daeca Zirs. gariJraJze movida gons, Tvalis upeebi mZimed gaaxila. irgvliv yinva daborialobda, qari uxeSad SeWriliyo mis organizmSi da SiSismomgvrel kankals aetana misi sxeuli. xelebze daeyrdno, wamoweva surda, magram xelebze Semxmari sisxli dalanda, buranSi myofma aremares moavlo Tvali. _ nu waxval, feliqs, meSinia! _niavma uCurCula yurTan. _ es xom zemfiria?- gakvirvebiT mimoixeda. _ nu waxval, gemudarebi, feliqs! - kidev gaiwivla yurTan qalis xmam. SeaJrJola. feliqsis sisxli gayinuliyi mis xelebze. daakvirda Tavis sisxlian xelebs. SeezizRa. _ feliqs! _ aRmoxda Rriali da feliqsis saxes waetana. mSvidad iwva yinvaSi vaJkaci, odnav SeSupeboda saxe. qari qroda gulis wamReb stvenas waagavda misi xma, Tan sisxlian Tmebs ealerseboda. tvins uxvretda yvelaferi es nestors. kivilis xmac aRwevda mis yurebamde. moTqvamda qari, viT feliqsis Wirisufali da nestoris msajuli. _ ra dros Rorebze wasvlaa, nestor! barbacebda mTebi. kldeebi iryeodnen mis win da ismoda moTqma. es xma arasodes gaugonia, arsad mousmenia, arc cdila mis damaxsovrebas. sadRac Soridan modioda da TavisTavad imarcvleboda erTi kiTxva: _ ra vuTxra zemfirs? Tofs Seaswro Tvali es Tofi misi Sezrdili da Tanatoli iyo. ZmasaviT uyvarda igi. ukanaskneli misi tyvia megobris safeTqelTan dacliliyo. wamodga. xelSi aitaca Tofi. elvis siswrafiT ufskrulTan gaCnda da Sors gadaisrola igi. _ ra vuTxra zemfirs? yrud ismoda mis gulSi, fexi daucda. kinaRam gadaeSva qarafze. dro aRar iyo. feliqsi rogorme axla dasaxlebasTan unda mieyvana, datoveba ar SeiZleboda. iqneb nadirs daeglija micvalebuli. xelSi aiyvana megobris sxeuli. laslasiT Cauxvia qoxamde. _ ra vuTxra, ra vuTxra? - ambobda imedgacruebuli da sasowarkveTili. erTi uxeiro nabijic da, ufskrulSi gadavardeboda. napralTan Seisvena nestorma. uceb zurgi auwva avardnilma sicxem, saxe daugrZelda, Tvalebi sacrisodena gauxda. erTmaneTSi airia SiSi da sircxvili. kldovan napralebs Caxeda kacma. mdumared sCandnen kldovani qimebi, qveviT ki piri daeRo naprals. ufskrulis piras Semdgars fexi daucda, Zala gamoelia, xelidan gauvarda megobris gvami. gayinulma sxeulma jer didi wre Semoxaza haerSi, Semdeg sadRac qveviT kldis qimze daenarcxa.
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nestori gaTenebisas movida gons. Zirs ufskrulSi Caixeda, veRarsad dainaxa megobris cxedari.
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sofelSi ori bebia qali iyo da orive moixmo natom, rogorc ki zemfirs mSobiaroba daewyo. megobris SiSi axla mTlianad gadadeboda qals da isic mSobiaresaviT kankalebda.. _ ra dros nadiroba iyo? SiSiT kiTxulobda qali da bebiaqalebs ise SesCereboda, rogorc RmerTebs. am dros maTze didi RmerTi vercki warmoedgina natos. Semoteva Zalian Cqari hqonda da nato fiqrobda, yvelaferi male damTavrdeboda. _ ra dros nadiroba iyo? uazrod imeorebda nato. RmerTo, gemudarebi... exveweboda RmerTs da Tan zemfiris dalurjebul tuCebs misCereboda. _ movlen? netav, ase iqnebodes! SiSiT Cailaparaka natom. _ geSinia? - ikiTxa zemfirma da megobris saxes daakvirda. nato mixvda, rom qali mas cdida. _ ara, ar meSinia! _ Cqara upasuxa qalma. anda ra aris saSiSi? ubralod, minda, feliqsi daeswros Tavisi Svilis gaCenas. _ nato! zemfirma Zalian dabali xmiT daiwyo rac Tavi maxsovs, feliqsis gavlenis qveS vizrdebodi. jer kidev maSin, rodesac megona, rom is mamidaSvili iyo. ver warmomedgina iseTi dRe, roca igi Cems gverdiT ar iqneboda. TiTqos is Cemi sxeulis erTi nawili iyo da am nawilis gareSe Cems sxeuls sicocxle ar SeeZlo. albad gangeba iyo, rom Cven naTesavebi ar aRmovCndiT da samudamod erTad davrCiT. ra unda davubaro mas, roca satanjvelad isic eyofa, rom gverdiT ar veyolebi. mereda, rogor eloda Svils amdeni wlebis Semdeg . . . simarTle giTxra, me albaT pirveli qali var, visac SiSis zars scemda Svilis Casaxva. masSi Cemi sicocxlis dasasruls vxedavdi, magram am wuTSi ukve aRar vdardob mis gaCenas, radgan Cemi gogona mudam mogagonebT Cems Tavs. Semotevam gaaCuma qali. gafiTrda, tuCebi ufro Caulurjda. SiSiT Tvalebi gaufarTovda. ase gastana ramdenime wams, Semdeg tkivilebi dauwynarda da qalic gaCumda. _ nato ar daswrebixar furis pirvel mSobiarobas? wevs Zroxa, Tavi bagisTvis miuWeria da ismis Cveulebrivi kvnesa, iseTi, rogorc adamianebs sCveviaT xolme. iseTi kvnesa mxolod qalebs SeuZliaT. xelebdakapiwebuli elodebi, rodis gamoCndeba xbos drunCi, rom miexmaro. diax! deda bevrjer exmareboda Zroxas, me ki karebs akruli SiSiT vcaxcaxebdi da velodi im tanjvis dasasruls. erTxel deda ar iyo saxlSi da bebia qalis rolSi me aRmovCndi.
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feliqss Sevatyobine. Zroxis tanjvaze feliqsi icinoda, me karze viyavi akruli da vkankalebdi. bneloda, boselSi Wraqi bJutavda, pirutyvi kvnesoda. Tavi simwriT mucelze daedo. mTeli sxeuli ofliT hqonda dafaruli. me ki vkankalebdi. vixedebodi karisaken, dedas velodi, megona, gamoCndeboda Tu ara, eSveleboda uSobels, magram deda igvianebda, me amaod velodi xbos drunCis gamoCenas. Cemi gazrdili faqizo, im pirvel mSobiarobas gadayva. deda rom mosuliyo, aucileblad gadaarCenda. _ kargi ra! Seutia natom. _ Senc xvdebi Cems dasasruls, imitom ver miyureb TvalebSi, ra kargia, rom feliqsi aq ar aris. ufro gauadvildeba Cemi sikvdili. qalma gaicina da Tavisi mSvenieri kbilebi gamoaCina. _ ra xania, deda mReris Cem yurebTan. _ Zalian gTxov, nu laparakob. _ piriqiT, unda mTxovo, rom vilaparako, Torem iqneb, kidec mogenatros igi. natos TvalebSi cremlebi gabrwyinda. _ ase mgonia, Cems gverdiT zis deda, sakmarisia, xelebi daikapiwos, rom meSveleba. is ki damjdara da elodeba Cems tanjvas. elodeba Cemi Svilis pirveli xmis mosmenas da melodeba me. _ geyofa, gemudarebi! _ roca yvelaferi damTavrdeba, Cvenebs Seatyobine, Cerqezi biZebi Cems sikvdils rom gaigeben, feliqss CamoSordebian da isic ukan dabrundeba. Sen ki nato, mudam izrune Cems Svilze! man gulidan yelsabami moixsna da natos gauwoda. _ aiRe, atare, aman mogagonos Cemi Tavi. is mamaCemis naCuqaria da yvela samkaulze metad miyvarda. awi aRar damWirdeba. _ Cemo feliqs! _ amis Tqma iyo da erTbaSad ise swrafad daewyo mSobiaroba, rom aravis daxmareba ar dasWirvebia. mxolod erTi sityvis Tqma moaswro. _ miSveleT! _ da gonebac dakarga. mas ar daunaxavs, rogor afarTxalda mis fexebTan Cvilis sxeuli. marto dedis xelebs mohkra Tvali buranSi myofma. naxa, rogor aiyvana xelSi misi sxeuli da gaitaca. _ zemfir, zemfir! _ ikivla natom da megobari SeanjRria. _ nu awuxeb Svilo, xom xedav, alahma waiRo misi suli! _ axla gaacnobiera natom, rom qali mahmadiani iyo. cxenis fexis xma gaisma ezoSi, magram natos ar gaugonia. is qalis sxeuls anJRrevda. _ nu awuxeb, Svilo! _ isev uTxra bebiaqalma da natom aSkarad gaigona kibeze amomavali fexis xma. kari gaiRo. oTaxSi mamakaci Semovida, romelsac saxe gaSave- 36 -

boda, xolo Tavze erTi Reri Savi Tma aRar hqonda. nato qmarTan miiWra, magram veraferi SeniSna. saxeareulma feliqss dauwyo Zebna. _ vai, ubeduri!... _ damarcvliT Tqva qalma. nestori jer colis saxes daakvirda, Semdeg zemfirTan mofusfuse qalebs gaxeda. bavSvis pirveli tirilic miswvda mis yurTasmenas. _ rogor avuxsna zemfirs? _ es sami sityva TavisTvis ganmeorda TavSi. mudariT da SiSiT gaixeda simwriT galurjebuli mSobiare qalisken. _ sad aris feliqsi? _ ikiTxa natom aRelvebiT. roca pasuxi ver miiRo, qmars moSorda da zemfirisken gaiqca. qals SiSiT Seexo. TiTebiT mixvda, rom qali civdeboda. motrialda da wina oTaxSi mdgar qmars miaZaxa: _ ra dros nadiroba iyo, biWo? _ da TiTqos qalis sikvdilSi mas sdebdnen bralso, ise dauqnia TiTi. tajiki qali zemfirTan mivida, frTxilad gauswora saxe, Tvalebi dauxuWa, zewari waafara da alahTan Sesaxvedrad gaamwesa. SiSiT gafarToebuli TavlebiT didxans umzira nestorma am scenas da roca qalma mahmadianuri wesiT locva daiwyo, mis gonebamde Zlivs davida, rac moxda. swrafi nabijebiT qalis Tbil gvamTan gaCerda da TavSi xelebi waiSina. natom mxolod axla SeamCnia, rom qmars Tma gasTeTreboda. _ nestor, ra ambavia Sens Tavs? _ zemfir, dao, Seni feliqsi..._ nato wamoiWra. raRac Tqva, Semdeg dajda. mere ki aqeT-iqiT angariSmiucemlad sirbili daiwyo. arc cols da arc qmars araferi gaegeboda, ras akeTebdnen da ras ambobdnen. meore oTaxidan bavSvis pirveli tirili ismoda. Tvalauxilavi da fexaudgmeli Tamilas tirili glovasaviT gaismoda. is TiTqos ded-mamis udrood dakargvas mosTqvamda.
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_ umaRles saswavlebelSi rom ver movxvdebi, es kargad vici. _ TavisTvis fiqrobda vasiko, roca Tbilisisken mimaval uswormasworo gzaze manqana xtunva-xtunviT midioda. _ dedam miTxra, teqnikumSi mainc moewyveo, aqac vcdi. mere saSofro kursebze Seval da ukan sofelSi davbrundebi. Soferi kaci yvelaze saWiroa CvenSi. aba, daamTavre ekonomiuri... erTi buRalteri qe gvyavs da Cemi gulisTvis xom ar moxsnian? e.i. samuSaos saZebnad isev sxvagan momiwevs wasvla. Soferi ki... ramden
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manqanas gamoagzavnian mTaSi, imdeni Soferi sWirdebaT. ninianT Tea subtropikuls amTavrebs, mandarini iqneb, gagviSenos mTis Ziras. Tu sofelSi ginda darCe, raime iseTi unda iswavlo, rom Seni SromiT sofels gamoadge. Tanac es mamaCemis survilis Sesrulebac iqneba. Tbilisamde marTlac eyo bicolas gamomcxvari xaWapurebi. roca avtobusi sadilisTvis gaCerda, vasikom yvela moipatiJa da kalaTic iqve datova. TbilisSi pirvelad midioda. gulis jibeSi dedis nakarnaxevi misamarTi edo. bicolamisis danabarebs gulSi imeorebda da cdilobda, moxucebulisaTvis Tavi moewonebina. taqsis gaCereba ikiTxa. _ ramdeni mogarTva? _ SeekiTxa alali biWi, roca mZRolma miniSnebul misamarTze miiyvana. _ rac gemeteba!_ gauRima mZRolma. ormaneTians kidev maneTi daumata TavazianobisaTvis da Tavmomwoned taqsidan gadavida. _ nikas ZmiSvili var. _ moxuc qals ase gaacno Tavi da Tan SuaTana bicolas gamotanebuli werilic miarTva. _ romeli nikasi? _ saTvale Seiswora qalma. biWs Sexeda, romelic Tavaziani RimiliT awonebda Tavs. _ etyoba, daviwynia biZaCemi... gaifiqra vasikom. qalma werili gaxsna da axla ukve warbgaxsnili SeekiTxa. _ marusa rogor aris, Svilo? _ moxucebuli oTaxSi SeuZRva ymawvils.qali dabal skamze Camojda, ymawvils ki miuTiTa, divanze Camojeqio da kiTxva daiwyo. _ mogikvdi, Cemo marusa, albaT daberda, ara? ra gqvia, genacvale? _ vasiko. _ netav, Seni Tavi damanaxa. _ kiTxva gaagrZela moxucma. _ `me albaT am taxtze momiwevs wola~. _ gaifiqra vasikom, magram Secda. moxuci adga, Tavisufal adgilze gasaSleli sawoli dadga da masze qveSagebi daawyo. _ RmerTo Cemo, netav ar miTxras, axlave daweqio. _ gaifiqra vaJma. _ ai, aq Sen dawvebi. ramdeni xniT Camoxvedi? _ ar vici, Tu ver Cavabareb, ukan davbrundebi. _ iq ki... _ taxtisken TiTi gaiSvira. _ Cemi biZaSvilis Svili wevs. universitetSi abarebs. _ `netav, vin aris, gogo Tu biWi?~ _ amis gafiqrebisTanave rxevarxeviT maRali, saTvaliani biWi Semovida oTaxSi. moxucma axalgazrdebi erTmaneTs gaacno. ezo saerTo hqondaT, saerTo tualetiT da saerTo onkaniT. axlad Semosuli ezoSi Cavida. patara ezo moasfaltebuli iyo,
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onkanTan patara auzi iyo miSenebuli. am auzTan mivida nodari. jer erTi fexsacmeli gaixada da saguldagulod garecxa, Semdeg meore gaixada da isic garecxa. vasiko fanjridan misCereboda. Semdeg windebi waiZro da didxans recxa sapniT. ramdenimejer gadmoabruna da gasapna. mere fexebi daikapiwa da dabana daiwyo. vasikos zemoT saaTi wikwikebda. samzareulodan sadilis suni gamodioda da damSeul kuWs saWmelad eZaxda. nodari ki nelnela ganagrZobda fexebis banvas. fexsacmeli ukve mSrali iyo, roca fexebi SeimSrala. mere iqve samagridan jagrisi CamoiRo da kbilebis xexvas Seudga. _ aseTi araferi minaxavs! _ ukmayofilod Cailaparaka vasikom da Tavi moiqeqa. sufras ukve Slida diasaxlisi, roca nodarma windebi gasaSrobad gafina da isev onkanisaken gabrunda. _ albaT xelebze wyals gadaivlebs. _ axla ukve icoda, risTvis gabrunda nodari. moxucma xilic moitana sufraze. nodari Semovida. sufras uxalisod miuaxlovda, Semdeg xilian vazas xeli dastaca da ezoSi gaitana. gaocebuli vasiko isev fanjaras eca da gaixeda. nodarma vaza onkans Seudga da didxans saTiTaod recxa vaSli. _ garecxili iyo! _ uTxra dabrunebul nodars diasaxlisma da kerZiani TefSi win daudga. nodari odnav axlomxedveli iyo, saTvale gaikeTa, kerZs kovziT mouria da ramdenimejer SeaTvaliera. vasikom mis win TefSidan kovzi aiRo. _ marusa bicola mudam aqebda Tqvens gakeTebul kerZebs, bebo! _ mouqaTinaura Wabukma. _ marTla? _ moxucs gaexarda. moxucebi xom bavSvebiviT saferebelni arian da adviladac moatyueb maT. _ xom ar avadmyofobs? imxela ojaxi aikida. _ cota amreziT Tqva bebom da myisve Camoagdo saubari marusas gaTxovebis Sesaxeb. _ Cvens gvarSi marusa pirveli iyo, CvenTvis Seuferebeli saqcieli rom Caidina. aznauriSvili colad gahyva glexis Svils da isic mTis glexis Svils. ise, biZaSeni cudi kaci ar aris, magram rac ar unda iyos, is Cveni mojamagire iyo, yanebs gvimuSavebda. lamazi ki iyo, axovani. _ moxucs Tvalebi gauciskrovnda Tavisi warsulis mogonebiT. qedmaRlurad gaxeda biWebs da sinanuliT Cailaparaka: _ hoda, amitom, wminda sisxlis aznauris Rirsi gaxda. mere rogori iyo Cemi marusa, ra iadoniviT xma hqonda. `qvedrula modidebula~-s rom daiwyebda, mTeli ubnis biWebs masze eWiraT
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Tvali da Senma biZam gaimarjva. vasikom nodars gadaxeda. is uxalisod Wamda makarons. _ oi, ra ambavi iyo Cvens sagvareuloSi, marusam es ra Caidinao... _ xom ar nanobs axla bebo? _ ikiTxa nodarma. _ axla, raRa dros magaze laparakia, xom xedav, Tbiliss moawyda mTeli axalgazrdoba, dadgeba dro, wminda sisxlis Tbiliselebs haeri aRar gvyofa da gareubanSi moviTxovT gadasaxlebas. vasikos gaecina. Tavisi lamazi kbilebi gamoaCina. moxucma saubari Sewyvita da aRtacebiT daakvirda vaJs. _ dideba Sen, RmerTo! ai, sicili cxonebuli mamis gamogyolia. rogor ugzo-ukvlod daikarga ubeduri, me didad davalebuli var misgan. yovel zamTars marxiliT SeSas Camoitanda da Tan erTi tomara kartofils moayolebda xolme. moxucis Tvalebze cremli gaCnda. am cremlebma vasikos guli auCuya. _ rogori simRera icoda biZaSenmac, axla aRar mReris? _ mReris, bebo, mReris! _ eh, axalgazrdobav, misi simReriT aRtacebuli iyo Cveni gvari. _ moxuci CvriT xelSi magidasTan Sedga da vasikom dainaxa misi Tvalebi siamovnebiT aRtacebuli, romelic warsulis mogonebiT iyo gamowveuli. vasiko mTieli biWi iyo. is ar icnobda araviTar komforts, araviTar `maRal~ sazogadoebas, araviTari `maRali~ idealebi ar awuxebda. ver erkveoda Tanamedrove adamianTa erTi jgufis meSCanur cxovrebaSi. is Tavisufali iyo damaluli TviTkmayofilebisgan. fiqrobda imas, rasac ambobda, Sors idga iseTi adamianebisgan, vis gulSic mudam rCeboda sakuTari `me~. ra Tqma unda, igi verasdros Caswvdeboda am moxucis suls, romelic axla xelebis kankaliT daatarebda TefSebs, visac odesRac mdidruli, magram dRes daobebuli avejiT mohqonda Tavi, visTvisac warsulze mogoneba sulier sazrdos Seadgenda. diax, vasikos arc surda da verc dainaxavda am TvalebCacvenili moxucis sulier tragedias da mainc mixvda, rom es Cia dedakaci, romelic pirveli adamiani iyo, visac Sexvda TbilisSi, raRacnair brZolas ucxadebda mTidan Camosul biWs. Tumca mis mimarT biWs araviTari sawinaaRmdego grZnoba ar gasCenia. _ sad unda iswavlo, TbilisSi rom Camosulxar?_ cota dacinvis toniT Tqva moxucma. _ dedas unda, umaRlesi saswavlebeli davamTavro. _ Sen? Sen ra ginda? _ me? _ gaicina vasikom, _ me minda Soferi gavxde. Cvens sofelSi Sofroba yvelaze saWiroa. _ Sens sofelSi? _ SeekiTxa nodari. is pirvelad Caeria saubarSi.
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_ ho, es yvelaze sapatio xelobaa CvenSi. nodari vasikos daakvirda. _ Sen sad abareb, nodar? _ me? _ ho... _ leqsebs wers. _ daitrabaza moxucma. _ universitetSi, filologiis fakultetze. vasiko mis mimarT simpaTiiT ganewyo. _ saidan xar? _ quTaisidan. _ quTaisidan? quTaisSi mec vyofilvar... mere, ras fiqrob, moewyobi? _ sircxvilic aris, rom ar moewyos. _ laparakSi kvlav moxuci Caeria. _ ratom, bebia?_ ikiTxa nodarma. _ babuaSenisTana naswavli kaci ori ar dadioda Cvens mxares. cxonebuli Cemi biZaSvili Wkviani kaci iyo.
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diliT vasikom daaswro adgoma, magram nodari Tvalebgaxelili dainaxa sawolSi. _ Zmobilo, albaT leqsebs Txzav! nodarim Tavi vasikosken moabruna, magram araferi upasuxa, isev Tavis fiqrebSi Caeflo. igi, mxolod maSin adga, roca vasiko ukve wasasvlelad emzadeboda. _ moica, biWo, Cai ukve duRs! _ samzareulodan gamosZaxa moxucma. _ bebo, ar gvinda, Cais sadme davlevT. _ siciliT uTxra vasikom. _ wamoxval?_ sxvaTaSoris SeekiTxa nodars, romelic rxevarxeviT onkanisken modioda. _ rogor ara... _ Tu guSindeliviT ori saaTi ibanava..._ gaifiqra vasikom da SiSiT gaayola Tvali. nodari dilis tualets ramdenime wuTSi morCa. quCaSi gavidnen. _ ese igi, Sen ginda, mZRoli gaxde?_ SeekiTxa nodari. _ ara, jer beds institutSi vcdi, Torem dedas ewyineba. _ mainc, sad? _ Tundac filologiurze, barem erTad SevitanoT sabuTebi. _ Seni nebaa, magram girCev, tyuilad nu daxarjav dros. miuxedavad amisa, vasikom nodarTan erTad filologiis fakultetze Seitana sabuTebi. mxiaruli dabrunda im dRes.
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dro xom unda gasuliyo, vidre saSofroze Seitanda sabuTebs. gamocdebamde dro ki TbilisSi xetials moandoma. Turme nodarsac Zalian hyvarebia qalaqSi xetiali. poeturi bunebis adamianebi zogjer sakuTar Tavs xom ar ekuTvnian da roca aseTi momentebi dgeboda nodaris cxovrebaSi, igi myisve tovebda wignebs. cali TvaliT vasikos gadaxedavda da uTqmelad aniSnebda, wavediTo. nariyala da botanikuri baRi, vakis parki da mTawminda, didubis panTeoni da didubis taZari, vin mosTvlis, sad aRar dadiodnen erTad. saocari poeturi da musikaluri bunebis aRmoCnda nodari da pirveli vasikos STabeWdileba, romelic masze Seeqmna, sawinaaRmdegod Seicvala. _ xedav, vasil, ra mSvenieri daisia aqedan? _ wiTlad SeRebil caze aniSnebda nodari da Tavis grZel TiTs iSverda. _ me ar vici, Sen rogor aRiqvam amas. me ki, ici, ra grZnoba meufleba axla? mTeli mkerdiT rom miewebebi raRac arsebas da am arsebis siTbo mTlianad iRvreba Sens organizmSi. am dros garegnul silamazesa da sulier SegrZnebas Soris gansxvaveba sruliad qreba da mTlianad vardebi mSvenierebis SegrZnebis zRvaSi. Seni ra mogaxseno, magram me ki am mdgomareobas Cemi cxovrebis yvelaze bednier wuTebad vTvli. am dros mojadoebuli var bunebis usazRvro ferTa tkbobiT. am dros aRar vekuTvni Cems Tavs, radgan am TilismaSi gaxveuli, samyaros erTi patara wertili gavmxdarvar da sulganabuli CitiviT mivmalulvar mSvenieri samyaros uzarmazar ubeSi. _ Cemo nodar, me Seni TvalebiT ar SemiZlia davinaxo Camavali mzis mSveniereba. igi CemTvis ubralod saRamoa. SenTan SedarebiT ubralod adamiani var, arafriT gansxvavebuli sxvebisgan. mec minaxavs gasaocari samyaro: maradiuli Tovli, wiwviani mTebi, ufskruli da kldeebidan moxvetili zvavi. me... _ siciliT daumata vasikom._ vaJa-fSavela unda gamovsuliyavi. miwieri cxovrebiT miRebul bednierebas daveZeb am uzarmazar dedamiwaze, sadRac rom aris CemTvis mimaluli da melodeba. me amqveyniuri siamovnebisTvis var gaCenili da sul mciredi ram mxdis bedniers. Sen ki? visi sulic samyarom raRac gansxvavebuli naTliT akurTxa, meti unda? didisken, raRac Zalian didisken da araamqveyniurisken iswrafi. Seni Tvali im patara kunWuls eZebs, RmerTs rom misTvis Seunaxavs, raTa natex-natex gagvinawilos yvelas. Sen poeti xar da Seni xvedric sul sxvaa. amitom aris Seni suli am uzarmazar samyaroSi Cakiruli. Seni azrebi didia da gsurs, Cemic gaxado is. aq aris sxvadasxvaoba me da Sens Soris. mewamulisfer saRamos amitom vuyurebT sxvadasxva TvaliT.
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vasiko didxans misCereboda cas, Semdeg nodars miubrunda da SeekiTxa: _ mSoblebi gyavs? _ deda..._ upasuxa ise, rom cisTvis Tvali ar mouSorebia. _ mama? _ albaT myavda. _ isev iseTi toniT miugo nodarma. vasikos gulze moxvda mamis ase agdebiT xseneba. Tvalwin Tavisi dakarguli mama daudga da sibraziT nodars gaxeda. _ me mama damekarga, roca eqvsi wlis viyavi. _ bednieri kaci yofilxar... vasikomde Secbunebuli Sebrunda nodarisken. undoda, raRac eTqva misTvis, magram nodaris saxeze sayveduri SeniSna. biWi mixvda, rom es sayvareduri sxvas ekuTvnoda da ara-mas. vasikos surda, ukmayofilebis grZnoba gaefanta, axladSeZenil megobarTan mivida da SeekiTxa: _ Znelia, poeti gaxde? SekiTxva imdenad uazro iyo, rom nodars gaeRima. vasikos miamit saxeze es gulubryvilo SekiTxva patara bavSvis naTqvamiviT gaisma. _ poeti ar SeiZleba gaxde, poetad unda daibado! _ rodis mixvdi amas? _ Zalian adre, jer kidev maSin, roca anbans vswavlobdi. nodari Cafiqrda. dasavleTSi mimaval mzis nakvalevs TvalebanTebuli misCereboda. xedavda, rogor ixazeboda wiTeli feri sxivTa zolebiT. garinduli didxans ijda da tkbeboda bunebasTan gamoTxovebis mSvenierebiT. _ es iyo Zalian adre. _ ar uTqvams, mxolod gaifiqra nodarma. soflis Tavze xSirtyiani, gorakiani adgili iyo. nodars Zalian uyvarda iq xetiali. dedamisi mis ZebnaSi iyo mudam. gaTendeboda Tu ara da dros ixelTebda, tyisken garboda. tye saocari musikaluri, Seucnobeli da idumali iyo. sakmarisia, erTxel miugdo yuri da tye Seni nawili xdeba, xolo Sen misi tyve. tye eZaxda dausruleblad, weliwadis ra droc ar unda yofiliyo, yvelaze metad adreul gazafxulze. TiTqos surda, eCvenebina da uSualo monawile gaexada im fericvalebis, rac maSin bunebaSi xdeboda. mzis sxivebi TeTrad laplapebda naTovarze. nel-nela, SeumCnevlad, sadRac tyis fesvebTan iwriteboda sulTmobrZavi zamTari. jer vercxlisfer nazamTrevs nacrisferi gadahkvroda, Semdeg oxSivarasuli miwis naglejebic gamoCndeboda xolme. am dros nodaris survili iyo, exila mobubune, Tavisi eniT molaparake miwa. erTi suli hqonda, daxmareboda mzes. zamTris narCenebisgan exsna tye. am dros yvelaze metad uyvarda mze.
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surda, gaaTkecebiT gamoegzavna sxivebi. yovel CrdilSi, yovel napralSi Caexeda da exsna miwa Tovlisgan. nodari TvaldaxuWuli umzerda bunebis am fericvalebas. vasikos miamitma SekiTxvam bavSvobis bednieri gancda moagona. Rrmad CaisunTqa haeri da vasikos miubrunda. mere ki daumTavrebeli fiqri daasrula: _ maSin ar vicodi, ra mindoda. mogvianebiT mivxvdi, bunebis gaRviZebis surviliT menTeboda mTeli sxeuli. meCveneboda, mec masTan erTad viRviZebdi, vsunTqavdi, vTbebodi da oxSivari amdioda sxeulidan. TiToeuli gamoCenili miwis nagleji saocari siZlieriT miyvarda. misi xilviT Cemi survilis dakmayofilebas vxedavdi. rom wero, jer unda giyvardes, razec wer! vasikos ukve Seuyvarda es adamiani. misi Rrmad Camjdari, magram mSvenieri Tvalebi xiblavda. mis TvalSi nodari is adamiani iyo, vis mimarTac mowiwebiT ganimsWvalebian xolme.
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vasikos ise daudga gamocdebis Cabarebis dro, rom verc ki gaigo. pirvelad gamocdaze nodars gahyva. im dRes icoda, rom meored veRar gavidoda, magram amaze sulac ar dardobda. piriqiT, raRacnairi siamayis grZnobac ki gauCnda, nodarTan erTad misaReb gamocdaze rom gadioda. rogorc moeloda, sagamocdo furceli ukan aRar moutania. samagierod, yvela gamocdaze miacilebda axladSeZenil megobars, xolo saRamoobiT orive kvlav Tbilisis quCebSi daexetebodnen. vasiko ramdenime dRis Semdeg Tavis soflels Sexvda da dedasTan mokle baraTi gagzavna: `Cemo deda, rogorc vfiqrobdi, ise moxda. gamocdaze CaviWeri. weliwadi rom ar damkargvoda, gadavwyvite, saSofroze mowyoba. eqvs TveSi Camoval. Seni Svili~. roca universitetSi siebi gamoakres, vasiko maSinac gverdiT edga nodars. pirvel seqtembers umaRlesi saswavleblis karebamde miacila. vasikos bavSvuri sixaruliT uxaroda megobris warmateba. pirveli seqtembris saRamosac, universitetis Senobidan gamosul nodars isev vasiko daxvda. surda, dRevandeli dRe sadme aReniSnaT. is iyo, ezodan gasvla undodaT, rom biWebi viRacam SeaCera. _ nodar! _ greta, Sen?... _ ikiTxa gakvirvebulma nodarma da saxeze aRelveba daetyo. _ aq ra ginda?_ ikiTxa qaliSvilma. _ unda viswavlo.
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_ isev poetob? _ dacinviT ar uTqvams qaliSvils. sibralulis msgavsi grZnoba gamoxta misma xmam. _ isev! _ mkacrad miugo vaJma, romelic Rrmad Caswvda am SekiTxvis mniSvnelobas. vasiko Soriaxlos idga da am ulamazes qaliSvils misCereboda. mis Tvalebs msgavsi qali jer ar enaxa. Tavidan bolomde unaklo da amave dros, saSinlad civi qali iyo. nodars mSral kiTxvebs aZlevda. mis gverdiT qaliSvili idga da xelSi CanTas atrialebda. _ Cemi megobaria, erTad vswavlobT. _ ineza! _ xeli gauwoda nodars da axla moagonda, rom qaliSvilebi vasikosTvis ar gaucvnia. _ gaicani, vasil, Cemi daa. _ vasiko SekrTa, roca nodars Sexeda. mis TvalebSi is sayveduri dainaxa, erTxel rom ixila nariyalaze. vasikom uxerxulad CamoarTva xeli qaliSvilebs. Soriaxlos dadga da da-Zma Soridan SeaTvaliera. am or axalgazrdaSi TvalSisacemi gansxvaveba iyo rogorc CacmulobaSi, aseve xmis intonaciasa da garegnobaSi. unikalurad da maRali gemovnebiT Cacmuli greta civi da mSrali laparakiT gamoirCeoda. nodari Seciebuli idga qaliSvilis winaSe da vasikos moeCvena, TiTqos axla misi megobari sasamarTloSi imyofeboda da uxalisod ismenda mSral SekiTxvebs. _ `netav, rodis inebebs es qaliSvili, SeeSvas~... _ es kiTxva utrialebda TavSi vasikos. _ moxvdi? _ movxvdi. SekiTxvac da pasuxic naZaladevi iyo. _ mere?... gamoiare CvenTan. _ vecdebi. _ fexi Seinacvla nodarma. _ dRes SegiZlia?... Tumca dRes saxlSi ar viqnebi. _ es sityvebi mexis dacemasaviT xvdeboda nodars gulze. vasiko grZnobda, rogor aRizianebda es ori adamiani erTmaneTs. mxolod Sinagani valdebulebis grZnoba aWianurebda maT erTad dgomas. _ Tqven, mgoni, sadRac midiodiT. mapatieT, SegagvianeT. _ ho, saCuqars daveZeb. megobars dabadebis dReze unda mivarTva. _ maSin, naxvamdis! _ Tavazianad daukra Tavi nodarma da uxmod daSordnen erTmaneTs. cxadia, nodars dRevandeli bednieri ganwyoba am mSvenierma, magram amayma da civma qaliSvilma gauqarwyla. gmirTa moednisken dauxvies. nodari asfaltze dayril ken- 45 -

Webs fexis wvers urtyamda da Semdeg am kenWebs misCereboda. aRgznebuli saxe hqonda. mosacdelTan Sedga, magram nodarma zooparkisken aiRo gezi. _ raki asea, dRes mxecebi unda davaTvalieroT. _ odnav dacinviT Cailaparaka nodarma. mTaSi gazrdili vasikoc mixvda, rom nodarma viRacas ukbina am sityvebiT. _ is qaliSvili?... _ gaubedavad daiwyo vasikom. _ mamaCemis usayvarlesi da erTaderTi Svilia. _ Seawyvetina nodarma. roca es sityvebi Tqva, mTel sxeulze usiamovno susxma daayara. vasikosTvis yvelaferi naTeli gaxda. sadRac, gulic etkina mamis mizeziT gaTiSuli Svilebis gamo. nodari akvanSi iyo gakruli, roca mama TbilisSi wavida saswavleblad. sofelSi ori SviliT mitovebuli qali dedis imedze datova da im welsve colad sxva SeirTo. roca es Svilebis dedam Seityo, TbilisSi miadga ori bavSviT qmars. ufrosi-kote, eqvsiode wlis iyo. qmarma arnaxuli gulcivobiT moiSora qali. zamTarSi gulze akruli SvilebiT miadga dedamTils qali da Tavisi ubedureba SesCivla. Svilis saqcieliT Sewuxebulma qalma rZals da SviliSvilebs Tavisi mzrunveli xeli gadaafara. nodari icnobda mxolod dedas da bebias. ukve mozrdilma bavSvma ufrosebis naCqarevad warmoTqmuli sityvebidan daaskvna, rom masac hyavda mama da rom man akvanSive miatova. saocrad mgrZnobiare sulis patron nodarze am ambavma Rrma STabeWdileba moaxdina. _ ratom gaakeTa ase mamam? _ fiqrobda sul da eZebda misi mitovebis mizezs. pedagogma qalma, rogorc ki Svilebi wamoizardnen, quTaisSi gadawyvita cxovreba. samsaxuri male iSova da uqmroba nel-nela daviwyebas mieca. arc mamas gaxsenebia Svilebi. cxovreba TiTqmis Cveulebrivad warimarTa, magram ojaxs axali, xangrZlivi ubedureba daatyda Tavs, ramac nodars Rrma sulieri daRi daamCnia. kote, nodaris Zma, romelic yvelasaTvis Tavdadebuli iyo... TiTqmis aravis miuqcevia yuradReba, rogor gadaizarda sicelqe siTavxedeSi. es moxda Tvalsa da xels Sua. procesi SeumCneveli darCa yvelas: dedas, skolas, megobrebs, naTesavebs... mereda, rogor uyvardaT igi, SeiZleba im sicelqisTvisac, romelmac saxe icvala da Semzarav yaCaRad iqca. sporti uyvarda. orZelze dakidebuls SeeZlo, saaTobiT yo- 46 -

filiyo. ar icoda daRla, darboda, oxunjobda, aTasnair gasarTobs igonebda. uyvarda megobrebi, wyalSi gadavardeboda maT gamo. niWieri iyo, swavlobda warCinebiT da moxda ise, rom... ho, pirvelad, ramac gzas aacdina, iyo azri, romelis mis sulSi, rogorc matli, ise Casaxlda. surda, yofiliyo yvelaze Zlieri. merve klasSi krivis xelTaTmanebi SeiZina, rkinis boZze silaavsebuli tomara Camohkida da varjiSi daiwyo. Savgvremani iyo, dakunTuli da janmrTeli. masSi stiqiurad iyo mocemuli Zlieri temperamenti, bavSvuri sicelqe da vaJkacuri siZliere. zariviT xma hqonda mis sicils, Savi saxis fonze ki mouCanda TeTri, CamoTlili kbilebi. Tavis tolebs, pirvelad Tavisi bunebrivi siZlieriT gaaswro. erT azrs meore azri moemata am wuTidan. winswrafva surda kotes. survilma, romelic mis daudgomel sulSi mokalaTda, mTlianad amoglija masSi yvelaferi bavSvuri da megobrebs daaSora. amis Semdeg maT ucqerda mowyalebiT da aSkarad cdilobda, mfarveloba gaewia maTTvis. misTvis viwro sfero gaxda skola, sportis amxanagebi, ojaxi. Tavisufleba eZaxda mis suls da rom gekiTxaT, ra Tavisuflebisken iswrafio, ver getyodaT. akvanSi gakrul did bavSvs hgavda, romelic imdens igrixeboda artaxebSi, rom Semdeg akvnidan vardeboda. mis cxovrebaSi naadrevad mozRvavebulma stiqiurma aRtkinebam zrdis ramdenime etapi gamotova da kunTebdaWimulma merve klasis moswavlem gadawyvita skolis mitoveba. fexze dadga mTeli skola. amaod daSvra deda. bebiasTan gaiqca sofelSi. biWi aSkarad yvelas moeria da ialaRze gaSvebuli Tavisufleba sofelSi, bebiasTan ipova. geologiur partiaSi mivida da samuSao moiTxova. Tavisi SromisunarianobiT yvela gaaoca. is SeiZleba sasikeTod gamodgomoda Tavis Tavs, ojaxs, qveyanas, magram moxda piriqiT. Teqvsmeti wlisam gadawyvita colis SerTva. Tavisi skolis amxanag gogonas gaumijnurda da yvelaferi advilad xelmisawvdomad CaTvala. _ jer savaldebulo samsaxuri moiare da coli mere SeirTe!_ urCies biWebma. _ saxlSi rom davbrundebi, vaJis mamac viqnebi. TiTqos araferi iyo aq sagangaSo, magram swored am gadawyvetilebaSi ido kotes meore saSiSi survili. ar surda, sxvas daeswro, sxvas ejobna. surda, yvelaferSi pirveli yofiliyo. misi tolebi ki am dros skolis merxs usxdnen. jer cudi araferi Caedina, magram mainc gecemodaT TvalSi misi megobrebisgan gansxvavebuli sulswrafva.
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kotes undoda, SeWideboda da aewia is tvirTi, romelisTvisac mzad ar iyo. gogona ar gahyva, magram piroba misca, jaridan rom dabrundebi, gamogyvebio. kote matyuara ar iyo, magram mainc dauSva Secdoma da is piroba TviTon daarRvia. samxedro saswavlebelSi samijnuro romani gaaba da meore wels mama gaxda. amiT yvelaferi ar damTavrebula. coli oficerTan molaparake dainaxa da sisxli TavSi auvarda. arc ucdia, simarTle gaerkvia. maTTan miiWra, haerSi moxaza muSti da oficers yvela kbili Camoacala. ai, sad gamoiyena krivis xelTaTmanebi pirvelad. Sedegi sabediswero aRmoCnda misi momavlisTvis. sabraldebo skamze dasves. mogvianebiT, bebias sofelSi werili gaugzavna da patieba sTxova. ojaxs sxva ra gza hqondaT? apaties. Tavisufleba kotes bunebrivi stiqia iyo. oTxi kedeli axrCobda da gaparva scada. sami weli Svidi wliT Seucvales. cixes ar gamousworebia kote. piriqiT, gaaborota Tavisuflebisagan izolirebuli kaci. patimrobaSi yofnis dros is SeumCneveli ar darCeniaT did damnaSaveebs, romlebmac arc monanieba ician da arc arafrad agdeben keTil grZnobebs. kotesTana Zlieri vaJkacis CaTreva da Tavis saqmeSi gamoyeneba scades. kartis TamaSiT daiwyo misi pirovnebis gadagvareba. saubedurod, misi xalasi niWi da Zlieri aRnagoba am saSinelma xelobam imsxverpla. kote sofelSi mogvianebiT iwereboda, SeiZleba rodesme davbrunde, Tumca ar Rirs Cemi dabrunebao. misi patimrobaSi ayvanis mexuTe wels deda wavida Svilis sanaxavad. cixis ufrosma kotes sqeltaniani saqmidan ukanaskneli sabraldebo daskvna waakiTxa: `... cixidan gamosvlis Semdeg, patimari Sevida maRaziaSi, SeiZina ori boTli arayi, ori cali adikaloni da oTxi cali Cai. produqtiT datvirTuli Sevida gonCarovTan, romelic cixis mezoblad cxovrobda da axlo urTierToba hqonda patimrebTan. SezarxoSebul kotes TvalSi mouvida ToTxmeti wlis mezobeli gogona. amis niadagze gonCarovsa da kote daTunaSvils Soris moxda Cxubi. SuaSi Camdgar gonCarovis cols moxvda kotes xeli, romelic adgilzeve gardaicvala...~ am dros dakarga erTi fexi kotem. SeZruli dabrunda ubeduri qali ukan. Tan mohyveboda Svilis ukanaskneli sityvebi: _ mapatie, deda! mkvleli da patieba? Sesawynarebeli arc sakuTari dedisgan iyo. piriqiT, unda arsebobdes nebadarTuli yvela saxelmwifos- 48 -

Tvis erTi kanoni-dedis kanoni. mas ufleba unda hqondes, TviTon gaasamarTlos da gamoutanos ganaCeni uRirs Svils. amisTvis ki, pasuxi ar unda mosTxovon. deda xom pirveli pasuxismgebelia Tavisi Svilis yvela saqcielisTvis. odesRac sanatreli biWi, romelic Tavisuflad izrdeboda da SeiZleba gamxdariyo didi adamiani, recidivisti gaxda. sad iyo mama? mamam uari Tqva uRirs Svilze da erTxelac ar dafiqrebula imaze, rom TviTonac miuZRoda brali Svilis pirovnebis CamoyalibebaSi, mis gaborotebaSi. skolis damTavrebis Semdeg nodari TbilisSi wavida, dedisgan farulad mamis saxls miadga. mis sulSi uxmod, magram Zlierad daiareboda mamis pirovnebisadmi keTili grZnoba. am grZnobas moeWida da surda misi naxva. mama, romelsac marto suraTebiT icnobda, surda, axlos gaecno. ainteresebda, SeZlebda Tu ara mama ukve zrdasrul SvilTan urTierTobas. didma, mtanjvelma wuTebma gaiara, vidre biWi zaris Rilaks Seexeboda da darekavda. _ RmerTo, oRond is qali ar gamovides. _ mudariT misCereboda karebs.TiTqos, misi am wuTis ocnebis asruleba iyo misive momavali cxovrebis amomavali wertili. mis dRevandel survils asruleba ar ewera. Ria karebSi, lamazi, Casuqebuli maRali qalis figura sCanda da gaocebuli nodars misCereboda. _ vin gnebavT? _ ikiTxa, roca vaJis dabneuli saxe dainaxa. _ me nodari var! _ guli eubneboda, mamis unaxavi gabrundeboda. ukve gviani iyo. _ nodari? _ Secbunebulma hkiTxa da Tan biWi CaaTvaliera. nodarma igrZno, rom qali ver mixvda, vin iyo. fexi Seinacvla. rogor undoda, zurgi Seeqcia misTvis da kibeze daSvebuliyo. mamis naxvis survili masSi imdenad didi iyo, rom qals uTxra: _ me nikos Svili var! _ pirvelad uwoda ase Tavis Tavs. moeCvena, TiTqos es man ki ara, sxvam Tqva. _ mapatie. ratom Tavidan ar TqviT? SemobrZandiT. nodari saxlSi Sevida da Semdeg mudam sayvedurobda Tavis Tavs, ratom gaakeTa ase. pirveli, rac oTaxSi Sesvlisas TvalSi moxvda, ganebivrebuli katis Tvalebi iyo. katam nodaris SesvlisTanave zantad wamoswia Tavi da Sexeda. savarZelSi iwva. viRacas misTvis saguldagulod gaukeTebia TeTri bafTa yelze. savarZlis gverdiT taxtze ki qaliSvili iwva
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da wigns kiTxulobda. nodaris Sesvlisas qaliSvilma fexebi taxtidan gadmoiRo da ar amdgara, ise Sexeda Semosuls. katasac da qaliSvilsac TovliviT TeTri saxeebi hqondaT. maT gamoxedvaSic iyo raRac msgavseba, esaa mxolod, rom ver gaigebdikata ufro hgavda qaliSvils, Tu piriqiT. nodars usiamovno SegrZneba ufro gaumZafrda. qaliSvilma Tavi daxara, rom kiTxva gaegrZelebina. dedam stumari warudgina qaliSvils. _ greta, es ymawvili Seni Zma, nodaria. qaliSvili taxtidan wamodga. wigni dakeca da vaJTan mivida. _ gamarjoba! _ gagimarjos! orive civad miesalmnen erTmaneTs. nodari antipaTiiT ganimsWvala. da-Zma erTmaneTs aTvalierebdnen. _ dasxediT! _ SeeSvela axladgacnobil da-Zmas qali. Tavad ki samzareuloSi gavida. gretam Zmas is savarZeli SesTavaza, romelSic weRan kata iwva. qaliSvili Camojda, wigni kalTaze daido, magram kiTxva aRar gaugrZelebia. _ netav, Tu hgavs mamas? _ gaifiqra TvalmouSoreblad vaJma. qaliSvilma musika CarTo, Tan cdilobda, rogorme saubari daewyo. _ dRes Camoxvedi? _ ara, erTi kviraa. _ xom ar gvecekva? _ oh, ara. daukariT! uxerxulobis daZleva nodarsac undoda. _ siamovnebiT! _ vidre pianinosTan mividoda, dedas gasZaxa samzareuloSi. _ deda, vardisferi kaba gauToebulia? sacaa, ineza gamoivlis. nodars sarkeSi dedinacvlis gaocebuli Tvalebi SeefeTa. _ weRan gavauTove. gretam dakvra daiwyo. nodars uyvarda musika. axla es lamazi xmebi tkivils ganacdevinebda mxolod. _ niko, ori kvira mivlinebaSia. _ auxsna diasaxlisma. _ mobrZandiT, isadileT. sasadiloSi gawyobil sufrasTan miipatiJa nodari. diasaxliss guluxvoba gamoeCina. zaris xma gaisma. _ ineza iqneba! _ sixaruliT wamoxta greta da sirbiliT karebTan mivida,
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gaisma ormagi gasaRebis xma. _ mamaa! _ sixaruliT daiZaxa qaliSvilma da mamakacs kiserze Camoekida. _ Tea saxlSia? wamebi usaSvelod grZeli eCvena nodars. _ saxlSia. qalma sasadilo oTaxi datova. _ CvenTan stumaria! _ isev moesma nodars. laxvariviT gaiara nodaris gulSi am sityvebma. _ vin aris? _ gaisma CurCuliT naTqvami sityvebi. danarCeni sityvebi nodars aRar gaugonia. guls bagabugi gahqonda da wyevlida im dRes, roca aq mosvla gadawyvita. gaiara ramdenime mtanjvelma wuTma da Semdeg misi mogonebac ar undoda. karSi gamoCnda lamazi Sesaxedaobis mamakaci. es nodaris mama iyo. nodari pirvelad xedavda am kacs, romelsac mudam `im~- ad ixseniebdnen mis ojaxSi. kacs dabneuli saxe hqonda. isini erTmaneTs Sescqerodnen raRac Sinagani grZnobis sasworiT. saswori siZulvilsa da siyvaruls Soris qanaobda. am Sexvedraze bevri ram iyo damokidebuli. nodari adga, magram mamisken erTi nabijic ar gadaudgams. marjvena xelis saCvenebeli TiTi mokunta, magidaze daeyrdno, rom mTeli sxeuliT mibjenoda. Svilma SeniSna, rom mamam saxis feri ramdenjerme icvala. Semdeg odnav SesamCnevma Rimilma gaasxivosna. Svilma isic igrZno, masSi nawilobriv darcxvenac sCanda. nodari erTxans sdumda. ver garkveuliyo, gulaxdili yofiliyo mis win mdgom mamakacTan, romelsac misi mama erqva, Tu Tavi Seekavebina. amave dros gretas adevnebda Tvalyurs da fiqrobda, romels ufro hgavda, dedas Tu mamas. _ mgoni mamas hgavs! _ daaskvna gulSi. Team, romelic meore oTaxSi gavida, gretas TvaliT raRac aniSna. greta gavida da im wuTSive moesma misi aRtacebuli xma. _ ra lamazia... RmerTo! nikom Tavi daxara. _ filologiurze minda movewyo. _ universitetSi?_ ikiTxa mamam. _ rogor swavlobdi? _ saubarSi Caeria Tea, romelic ukve maT gverdiT ijda. _ humanitarul sagnebSi xuTebi myavda. _ eg araferia universitetSi. _ saCvenebeli TiTi zeviT aswia nikom, magram gaCumeba amjobina.
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_ vici, Znelia mowyoba. _ daxmareba ginda albaT! _ Cailaparaka mamam da nikapi moifxana. _ iciT ra, leqsebs vwer da mirCies, romelime poetTan miitaneo. _ biWo, Cvens gvarSi moleqse aravin yofila. ara, naswavli bevri iyo, magram... xom ar ajobebda, romelime xeloba geswavla? fuliani xeloba... Sen ar ici, rogor Rlis swavla adamians!_ es iyo pirveli civi wyali, romelic mamam Svils gadaasxa. _ fuli sul ar mWirdeba. swavla ki me ar mRlis. greta dedis gverdiT ijda da civad usmenda mama-Svilis saubars. _ ratom igvianebs ineza?_ Tqva bolos. _ qaliSvili rom ar myavdes mosawyobi... gvelis nakbenze mware iyo nodarisTvis es sityvebi. mamam Tavisi guli am sityvebiT mTlianad gaaSiSvla. nodaris TvalebSi damcinavi xazebi gaCnda. is aRar nanobda aq mosvlas. is patara sinaTle, romelic mamis bedze enTo mis sulSi, samudamod gaqra. _ miirTvi, nodar! _ Team TefSze Semwvari wiwila dado. _ nu wuxdebiT, qalbatono. _ Tavaziani RimiliT uTxra germa. gretas gverdiT mokalaTebuli fiso sadilobda. kata gretasa da mas Soris skamze ijda. nodarma xeli gadausva da das uTxra. _ greta, Zalian momewona Seni fiso. mere wamodga. mamasTan pirveli viziti dasasruls uaxlovdeboda. _ nuTu ise waval, rom es adamiani ar ikiTxavs arc moxuc dedas, arc patimar Svils? _ fiqrobda nodari. is idga da eloda kiTxvas. Semdeg Tavisi asakisTvis Seufarebeli moRlili xmiT uTxra. _ me dasaxmareblad ar movsulvar. ubralod mainteresebda, vin iyo Cemi mama. _ Semdeg Zalian civad daukra Tavi da gasasvlelisaken wavida. mama ukan daedevna. beWze xeli dado da dabali xmiT ise, rom Teas ar gaego, ikiTxa. _ `imisi~ ra ismis? _ saubedurod, recidivistia, albaT gaigebdiT ukanaskneli SemTxvevis Sesaxeb. _ vis daemsgavsa? nodari gvelnakbeniviT Setrialda misken. mTeli sxeuliT akankalebulma TvalebSi Caxeda mamas da kbilebSi gamoscra: _ is yvelas gvjobda da ver movuareT. niko daibna. nodarma swrafad datova iqauroba. rogorc ki gareT
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gavida, damSvidda. saxlidan aravis gaucilebia. _ `qaliSvili rom ar myavdes mosawyobi...?~ _ es fraza acilebda Svils da mamisken misasvlel gzas samudamod uketavda.
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nodari im wels universitetSi ver moxvda. savaldebulo samxedro saswavlebelma mouwia da wavida. greta ki ucxo enebis institutis studenti gaxda. dRes universitetis SenobasTan Sexvdnen erTmaneTs da-Zma. ra Tqma unda, erTmaneTi ar uyvardaT. isini ucxoni iyvnen erTmaneTisTvis. Tumca raxan erTi mamis Svilebi iyvnen, valdebulebasac grZnobdnen, angariSi gaewiaT erTmaneTisTvis. es yvelaferi nodars vasikosTvis ar uTqvams, imitom, rom mSobeli mamis augad xseneba rcxvenoda. uTqmeladac mixvda, rom nodari marto iyo amJamad da gadawyvita, Tavisi megobrobis simartove Seemsubuqebina. zooparkidan gamosulebma isev fexiT iares. veris bazarSi Sevidnen produqtis SesaZenad. uceb vasikom bade megobars SeaCeCa da Sori rigisaken gaiqca. _ vis eZeb? miaZaxa nodarma. vasikom pasuxi maSin daubruna, xalxSi is viRac roca dakarga. _ Tamila iyo. _ vin Tamila? _ eh! Cveneburi gogoa axla sadRa vnaxo? _ modi, karTan davdgeT. _ kargi azria. bazris karebTan gaCerdnen. _ vin arian? _ moica! avtomanqanisaken gaiqca. magram mopirdapire mxares manqanebis nakadi Camoefara da roca gza gaTavisuflda, is manqana aRarsad iyo, sadac Tamila Cajda.
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_ nestors vetyvi. erTxel gadarekavs da yvelaferi gakeTdeba! qeTino moxatuli savarZlidan wamodga. sanam masze ijda, Tavs uxerxulad grZnobda. maspinZels RimiliT misCereboda da karisaken ar Setrialebula, ise gahyva indur xaliCas. erTi suli hqonda, rogorme gadaebijebina noxisTvis. _ maS, viqonioT Tqveni imedi, qalbatono nato?_ ikiTxa karTan misulma. _ rogor gekadreba? amaze nurc idardebT. TviTon swvda

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karebis saxelurs da gaaRo. _ Cveni ojaxi Tqvengan davalebuli iqneba, Tu es saqme gamova! kidev SeTxova qeTinom. natom kopebi Seikra. qali gamoemSvidoba, ezoSi Cavida. _ kargad brZandebodeT. nu wuxdebiT! nato ukan dabrunda. _ Tamila! dauZaxa qaliSvils. _ movdivar, deda! _ ras akeTeb? _ gakveTils vamzadebdi. _ rogor daviRale, aiRe bade, maRaziaSi Cairbine, kvercxi da rZe amoitane... Zlivs ar moviSore? ginda Tu ara, Cemi qmari bazarSi kontroliorad momiwyoso. gana, ar icis, rom am saqmis gakeTebisTvis xalxi tricit tisiCs iRebs. rogor Tqva, Cveni ojaxi Tqvengan davalebuli iqnebao? rogor gekadreba? Tamila moTminebiT idga badiT xelSi da eloda, rodis morCeboda nato laparaks. _ wadi, ratom dgaxar? _ qalma fuli miawoda. _ roca dabrundebi, gakveTili maSin iswavle. _ kargi, deda. telefonis zaris xma gaisma. natom yurmili aiRo. nestori iyo. _ ho. . . ramdeni?. . . rodis?. . . saRamosaTvis? kargi. _ yurmili dado, magram ar amdgara. saRamomde xuTi saaTi rCeboda. stumrianoba xSiri iyo nestoris ojaxSi. am saqmis profesorad Tvlida meuRle. _ im gogos koniakze gavgzavni. mxolod es gaifiqra natom. isev gaisma telefonis xma. _ gismenT! diax, nato var, rogor ara... gamoiaros saRamos. TviTon sTxovos. . . samwuxaroa. . . maSin me TviTon vetyvi. natom yurmili dado da samzareuloSi gavida. ezoSi Tamila dabrunda. _ yvelaferi samzareuloSi Seitane da kidev Cairbine, oTxi boTli koniaki amoitane. mamas stumrebi mohyavs. gogonam warbebi Seikra. _ xvalisTvis maswavlebeli gibarebT. _ albaT isev maTematikis. - ukmayofilod Tqva natom. _ Tamilam Tavi daxara. _ aba, sadRaa dro, Seni maswavlebeli vnaxo. amdeni saqmeebiT dakavebuli var. kargi, rogorme gamovnaxav dros. . . axla ki wadi, Semdeg ki momexmare! rogorc ki gogona ezodan gavida, natom guldasmiT Seamowma sanovage.
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kidev gaisma telefonis xma. _ nestori? mivlinebaSia, erTi Tve Seagviandeba! kopebSekrulma yurmili dado. RmerTo Cemo, saSveli ar aris. ukan dabrunebulma Tamilam koniakebi daawyo da natos Sexeda, kidev xom arafers daavalebda. _ ras gaCerebulxar? mwvanili gaarCie! roca mis dabneul saxes Sexeda, tons dauwia natom da Cailaparaka: stumrianobas veRar movrCi. Tamilam mwvanilis rCeva uxalisod daiwyo. Tan imas fiqrobda, ra eTqva maTematikis maswavleblisaTvis, xval isev rom ar eqneboda saSinao davaleba. isev gaisma telefonis xma. natom saqme miatova da telefonTan gaCnda. mas uyvarda telefoni,radgan mraval adamianTan akavSirebda. _ Tamila gesmis? _ ra iyo deda? _ igori Camosula. _ igori? natom yurmili dado da gogos axali gankarguleba misca. _ Tamila igori male mova. misi tansacmeli karadidan gamoiRe da daaxvedre. gogonam saswrafod Seasrula qalis brZaneba da ukan dabrunda. _ male mova? gogonam nestors daureka. samzareuloSi Sewuxebuli saxiT dabrunda. _ manqana sxvagan gaugzavnia. _ mogikvdes deda. taqss unda daelodos! _ Tamila sufra gaSale, me kabas gamovicvli. _ miaZaxa Tamilas da roca ukan dabrunda, Tamilas sufra ukve gaewyo. gogonam natos moxdenil tans Sexeda, misi Tvalebi nela gacurda yelsabamze, romelic natos natif mkerdze brwyinavda. nato SekrTa, yelsabamze waivlo xeli. Semdeg gogonas uTxra: _ vidre stumrebi movlen, daisvene! Tamila Setrialda da frTxilad gavida oTaxidan. _ RmerTo, rogor hgavs zemfirs! Camojda, Tvalebi daxuWa da im wuTSive Tamilas pirveli tirili Caesma. Semdeg zemfiris dasaflaveba da bavSvis tirili airia mis warmosaxvaSi. mTavari mainc Semdegi iyo: feliqsis mSoblebi igvianebdnen. amitom natom da nestorma gadawyvites, yvela nivTi skivrSi CaewyoT da dalodebodnen. da moxda saswauli... mxolod zRaparSi Tu warmoidgenda nato iseT simdidres, ro- 55 -

melic man erT skivrSi Cakrul patara yuTSi naxa. macduneblad da utifrad misCereboda briliants, almass, lalis da zurmuxts. Semdeg SiSma aitana, moiSala da akankalda. _ visia es yvelaferi?_ gaifiqra da scada, azrebi daelagebina TavSi. _ vin iqneba am simdidris patroni? _ es meore avismomaswavebeli SekiTxva gaxmianda mis yurTan. bavSvis tirilma Seaxsena Tavisi Tavic da am simdidris patronic. misi veluri silamaze erTbaSad mglurma survilebma daamaxinja. nakverCxaliviT moelvare TvalebSi afTari Cajda, xolo mis aristokratiul cxvirs qvewarmavali daepatrona. lamazi kbilebi, romelic gapobili bagidan mouCanda, axla kamaraSekrul katis kbilebs hgavda, romelic Tavisi msxverplidan ramdenime nabijze idga da erTi didi nabijis gadadgmas apirebda. yelsabami, romelic sikvdilis win megobarma usaxsovra, axla yelze ekida. grZeli iyo da mis mkerdze irxeoda, magram TiTqos uWerda da axrCobda. yelsabams zemfiris sunTqva Sehyinvoda. natos raRacis mogoneba surda, magram macdunebeli skivris elvareba imdenad didi iyo, rom ukve aRar undoda misi arseboba. ... da im RamiT gaqra Cermenis Zvirfaseuloba, romelic arcerT mis mflobels ar gamouyenebia. natom ki gamoiyena. im RamiT arc cols da arc qmars ar eZinaT. colic da qmaric sxva fiqriT iyvnen Sepyrobili. im Ramidan maTi fiqrebi samudamod gaiTiSa. nestors mexsierebidan ar Sordeboda feliqsi da Tavisi sabediswero gasrola. nawamebi zemfiris saxe jojoxeTiviT edga Tvalwin. drodadro Tamilas umweo tirili moralur pasuxs sTxovda. nato ki samudamod daabrmava mocimcime Tvlebma. _ vin iqneba am simdidris patroni? _ SxamiviT SeWriliyo mis sulSi es kiTxva. sindisic da siZulvilic erTianad gamqraliyo misi Tavidan. col-qmars Soris samarisebuli siCume Camovarda da orives, TavianT fiqrebSi garTuls, erTmaneTis arseboba aviwydebodaT. _ modi, wavideT aqedan! nestorma mxolod es Tqva mtanjveli Ramis Semdeg. _ bavSvi? _ mgoni, aRaravin modis bavSvTan. _ Tan rom waviyvanoT. Tu cocxlebi arian, Semdegac SeiZleba maTi naxva. _ mere?
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Semdeg ki yvelaferi moxda ise, rogorc qals surda. im dRidan qalma saojaxo saqmeebis mmarTveloba Caibara. zaris xma gaisma. ezoSi Tamila Cavida. _ igor! _ Tamila! igorma gulSi Caikra gogona. _ xom kargad xar? _ brwyinvaled! _ kargad. Sen? Seni swavlis saqmeebi rogor midis? nato mSvidad gamovida da Svils miegeba. _ geTayva, sacaa, stumrebi movlen, tansacmeli gamoicvale! _ riTi moxvedi?_ ikiTxa Tamilam. _ troleibusiT. _ ratom gawvaldi, taqsi ver daiWire? _ ratom dediko, me mudam tramvai-troleibusiT vmgzavrob. ar dagaviwydes, rom mxolod mosaxleobis umciresoba dadis msubuqi avtomanqaniT. _ kargi, ar gekamaTebi. gamoicvale, Torem stumrebi, sacaa movlen. _ deda dasveneba minda. xom ar ajobebs, me da Tamilam calke vivaxSmoT? xedav mas, rogori gadaRlili saxe aqvs? igori swrafad dabrunda samzareuloSi. _ Tamila, geTayva, aqve vivaxSmoT. ver vitan, roca sufraze bevri, arafris maqnisi, Zvirfasi WurWeli awyvia. saxeldaxelod gaawyves sufra. _ mTeli ardadegebi ase iqneba! -ukmayofilod Cailaparaka igorma. _ me ki dasveneba minda. dedaCemi albaT Tavs mogvabezrebs stumrianobiT. Tamila dajda. is iyo, kovzi pirisken waiRo, rom ezoSi stumrebi Semovidnen. _ Tamila, Cqara, Sampaniuri ar aris sufraze! stumrebs nestoris marjvena xeli, biWiko qamuSaZe mouZRodaT win. igori TefSiT xelSi wamodga da Tavis oTaxSi Sevida. _ Tamilas albaT dRes ar ecleba! _ gaifiqra ymawvilma. nestoris TanamSromlebi movidnen gigola aivazaSvilis garda. is diliT gamoCnda, gankarguleba miiRo cexis ufrosisgan da mis Sesasruleblad wavida. Tu nestoris marjvena xeli biWiko iyo da is akeTebda yvela saqmes didi siyvaruliT, samagierod, yvela masaliT gigola amaragebda. amitom mas cexSi nestoris marcxena xeli Searqves.SezarxoSebuli stumrebi ukve dedis sadRegrZelos svamdnen. igori saxlidan gaparuliyo. Tamilas taxtze miwolils CasZineboda, nato ki stumrebis win idga da dedis sadRegrZelos usmenda.
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sul bolos biWiko wamodga. mas axovani tani da keTilSobiluri saxe hqonda. _ Cems bavSvobaSi dedis saflavis saZebnelad wavedi. dila iyo, roca sasaflaosken amaval grZel gzas davadeqi. gza qviani iyo da cicabo. Sors, zeviT, saydari sCanda xeTa CrdilSi. vicodi, mis garSemo iyo sasaflao. saflavebze an xis jvrebi iyo, an uSnod garanduli qvebi. raRac Zala mizidavda zeviT. mSobliuri iyo es Zala da Zalian maxlobeli. meCveneboda, asvlisTanave Semomegebeboda viRac, gulSi Camikravda, damarigebda da gzas miCvenebda. am fiqriT, dauRlelad aviare grZeli gza.sasaflaos yvela jvarTan da yvela qvasTan mivedi, magram dedis saflavs ver mivikvlie. viare, viare am usaxelo saflavebs Soris, Semdeg davjeqi da avtirdi. ar maxsovs, iq rodemde vijeqi. Cems irgvliv mimofantuli saflavis qvebs Soris. bundovnad maxsovda deda. mTlianad damkargvoda misi saxe. vin icis, rodemde viqnebodi ase, rom raRac Zalas ar gamovecocxlebine. CemSi axali grZnoba gaCnda. ucnobi da amaRlebuli iyo es grZnoba. isev movavle Tvali saflavis qvebs, isini yvela CemTvis mSobliuri da Zvirfasi gamxdariyo. Sevyurebdi ulamazo qvebs, mTis kalTaze rom mimofantuliyo. mesmoda galobis msgavsi Citebis stvena, romelic saydris romeliRac kuTxidan iwyeboda da saflavis romeliRac qvasTan wydeboda. meCveneboda, am mTaze maradiuli sicocxlis cecxli enTo da yvela qvas aTbobda. me vxedavdi dabrunebuli dedis saxes, ase Zvirfass da axlobels, saflavis qvebs Soris Tavaweuli rom daabijebda da vigrZeni, rom TiToeuli qva iseTi Tbili iyo, rogorc dedis guli, Tbili, rogorc dedis mkerdi, naTeli, rogorc dedis Tvalebi. zeze wamoviWeri, mTaze amosuli yvavilebi davkrife da yvela qvasTan TiTo-TiTo mivabnie. Cemo nato, Seni saxiT yvela cocxal dedas gaumarjos!_ daasrula sadRegrZelo stumarma. ezoSi dagvianebuli stumris fexis xma gaisma. _ Tavi momWeriT, Tu gigola ar iyos! karebSi gigolas Savi, mogrZo saxe gamoCnda. _ vinc movida, gaumarjos! _ daiZaxes nasvamma stumrebma da nestoris gverdiT adgili SesTavazes. _ iqeifeT biWebo, iqeifeT... me ki... _ Sen ki yvelafris gasaRebi xar, Cemo gigol... _ mouqaTinaura biWikom. *** nestor CikvilaZe Sua aziidan dabrunebuli TbilisSi dasaxlda. Cermen xalilovis Savma xelCanTam sakuTari adgili apovnina mis ojaxs. daazusta Tu ara natom Tvlebis Rirebuleba, misi realizacia daiwyo. didZali Tanxa mougrovda. qmris ukiTxavad lotkinze
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orsarTuliani saxlic iyida. _ nawils gvTxoven, nawils Semdeg gadavixdiT! _ ase daamSvida SeSinebuli qmari. saxli saukeTeso avejiT aavso, Sua aziidan Camotanil noxebs ucxouri brolic miumata. qalSi Casaxlebuli pativmoyvareobis Wia ufro gaizarda. mas boqlomdadebuli simdidre axrCobda. TandaTan gaiCina saWiro nacnobebi. nestorma erT-erT gaerTianebaSi daiwyo muSaoba, misi cexi saflavis Savi marmarilos qvebs, svetebs da dafebs amzadebda. maT sxvadasxva zoma, wona da xarisxi hqondaT. gaaCnia, vin iyo SemkveTi da visTvis iyo gankuTvnili. cexis ufrosobas didi ganaTleba ar sWirdeboda. biWikosTana muyaiTian da karg xelosans SeeZlo, uxarisxo qvisgan xarisxiani saflavis qvis gakeTeba. es qvebi Seiqna nestoris didi Semosavlis wyaro. saflavis qvebi ki, saubedurod, saWiroa am wuTisofelSi. isini jer gulisficarze ewyvnen, Semdeg vertikalurad dadgnen. zogma adamianis forma miRo. bevri aseTi qva gaukeTebia nestors cexSi biWikos xeliT da gigolas motanili masaliT. ra qva ra Rirs, zustad icoda nestorma da misma marcxena xelma, gigola aivazaSvilma. miuxedavad im azrebisa, romelic am saRamos dedis sadRegrZeloze warmosTqva, biWiko qamuSaZe patiosnad Tlida da aCuqurTmebda qvebs, romelic saflavisTvis iyo gankuTvnili. biWiko nestoris suli da guli iyo. isini ise Seewyvnen erTmaneTs, rom ufrosis saxis mimikaze, feris Secvlasa da patara moZraobaze xvdeboda, ra undoda nestors. biWikos arasdros unatria fufuneba. man icoda, es cxovreba wuTieri iyo, amitom arc cdilobda simdidris mosapoveblad ebrZola. samareze dawyobili lodebic ar moswonda. suli exuTeboda, roca mas xedavda. erTxel manamde, sanam nestorTan samuSaod mividoda, SemTxveviT saRamo xans erT `keTilmowyobil~ sasaflaoze moxvda. Sav da TeTr marmariloSi Camjdari saxeebi mdumared Sescqerodnen. isini Zalian bevrni iyvnen. zogi iRimeboda. zogi seriozulad icqireboda, zogis qandakeba idga, zogis marto saxe. bindi gadaekra `keTilmowyobil samoTxes~. biWiko kvlav daabijebda saflavebs Soris da maT Rirebulebas amowmebda. TandaTan sxva survilic gauCnda _ enaxa is `yelmoRerebuli~ saflavis qva, romelic sxvas Crdilavda silamaziT. ar axsovs, sasaflaos karebamde rodis miaRwia. gasvlisas Sedga da ukan miixeda. SiSma aitana, gaaJrJola. `pirvelebic~ da `ukanasknelebic~ bevrni iyvnen da ZviradRirebulnic. maT
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qveS iwvnen qvebiT damZimebuli adamianebi da Tavis tragediaze mosTqvamdnen. maTze fiqri aRaravis surda. dRe iwureboda. marmarilos qvebidan ukanaskneli sxivic akrefiliyo. Zvirfasi qvebi aCrdilad qceuliyo, saxeebi Tavis qalebad Secvliliyo da sadRac gvari da TariRi ewera mxolod. didi asoebi saxeSi anaTebdnen: `frTxilad, sasikvdiloa~. maTSi aRaraferi iyo wminda, muxlis moyra rom mogdomeboda maT winaSe. am uzarmazar teritoriaze amazrzeni sikvdili miCqmaluliyo da maTze aRmarTul marmariloebs ise moeRerebinaT yeli, TiTqos es-esaa, erTmaneTs ecemian, dakortnian, datoraven da iyvireben ise Zlier, vidre xma SerCenodaT _ `me ukeTesi var Senzeo~. es iyo sikvdilis saSineli dacinva. biWikom Tvalebi daxuWa da iqauroba datova. Savi Zeglebi ki yelmoRerili daabijebdnen `keTilmowyobil samoTxeSi~. mas Semdeg didma drom ganvlo. qvis ostati biWiko qamuSaZe mudam, yoveli qvis gakeTebisas zustad aseT grZnobas ganicdida da mudam sevdiani amooxvriT acilebda Tavis qvas SemkveTTan. Tu biWikos saTuTad da lamazad gamoTlil qvaSi nestori Semosavlis wyaros xedavda, biWikosTvis is mokvdavTa samudamo bina iyo, amitom surda Tavisi xelovneba da ostatoba mTlianad gadaeca am utyvi qvisTvis. roca Tavis naxelavs aaTvalier-CaaTvalierebda, Cumad gadanaxul arays sasmisSi Caasxamda da Sendobas SeuTvlida imas, visTvisac iyo gankuTvnili. es Sendoba, misi azriT, kurTxevac iyo da gzis dalocvac maradiul gzaze. _ `SenTan moval, SenTan momixaria!~_ RiRinebda drodadro da wawvetebuli CaquCi moZraobda Savi marmarilos fonze. sufraze xmauri iyo. gigola da nestori raRacas Cumad saubrodnen. biWiko sadRegrZelos ambobda. nato stumrebs acilebda. _ gigol, saxlSi Sen wamiyvan? aha, gasaRebi._ biWikom manqanis gasaRebi miawoda. nestorma sul bolos gaistumra isini. _ igori rogor aris? aki, Camovidao, ratom ar vnaxeT? _Semoedava biWiko, magram gigolam saxeloSi mokida xeli da manqanisken waiyvana. _ es gogo ratom ar daaZine?_ usayvedura qmarma, roca taxtze mokuntuli Tamila dainaxa. _ dRes qeTino iyo? _ ho, mere? _ ai, im saqmeze... rogorme gaakeTe! nestori tanT ixdida da wveboda.
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_ sul ori dRiT gaviTavisufle Tavi. yviTeli perangi gamiuTove, me ki sadils movamzadeb.
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_ Sen sadils moamzadeb? _ ratom ara? yvelaze ubralo sadils, erbo kvercxs movamzadeb._ igorma macivari gamoaRo. _ yveli daWrilia, esec xizilala, puri gamoviRo, mwvanilic da Caciebuli ludi. _ Tan laparakobda da Tan karadidan sufraze saWmelebs da TefSebs awyobda. mere sufras gadaxeda. _ ra aklia? ori Cangali, ori Wiqa da... _ Seni perangic mzad aris. _ Tamila perangiT gamovida. _ ho, axla davsxdeT da visadiloT, vidre deda Tavs dagvesxmodes. aqedan wavideT. _ magram, me rom ar mcalia? igorma sufrasTan erbo-kvercxi moitana. _ sad iswavle?_ gaukvirda qaliSvils. _ studqalaqSi. WadrakSi wagebuli, jarimad sadils akeTebda. _ pirvelad, Sen ra gaakeTe?_ gaiRima Tamilam. _ pirvelad?_ Cangali pirisken mihqonda, rom uceb gaecina. _ Wadraks vTamaSobdiT biWebi. erT-erTi agebda. is nerviulobda. Cven viRimebodiT da vybedobdiT. samzareuloSi rusuli blinebi cxveboda. misi organizatori Wadrakis dafasTan garindebuli idga. _ blini daiwva. _daiZaxa viRacam. _ midi, igor, gadaabrune! _ mTxova blinebis gamomcxobma. _ avdeqi, samzareuloSi gavedi. _ gaicina igorma._ blinebi rig-rigobiT gadavabrune. Tamilas sicili autyda. _ gadaabrune?_ SemekiTxa serioJa. _ ho. _ da Wadrakis dafas davxede. ramdenime wuTSi damwvari blinis saSineli suni dadga. derefnidan gogonam gamoixeda da daiZaxa: _ biWebo, ra iwvis? serioJa dafas moSorda da gaiqca. _ igor, ratom ar gadaabrune blini?_ gabrazebiT Semoyo Tavi serioJam. _ aki, gadavabruneo? _ mand, TefSze, xom xedav, gadavabrune. _ Wkuis kolofo! _ qaliSvili CemTan movida da Tmebi amiCeCa. _ davajarimoT. xval igori qarTul sadils gaakeTebs. _ ra? me da sadili?_ gavvocdi. es CemTvis iseTi ram iyo, rom SevSindi. _ raki qarTul sadils moamzadeb xval, Tqveni stumari viqnebi._ Tqva gogonam da gareT gavida. _ mere?_ ikiTxa siciliT damxrCvalma Tamilam. _ meore dRes sveta Semoipara samzareuloSi da miSvela.
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_ vin aris sveta? igori gawiTlda. _ Wame! _ vin aris sveta?_ kidev gaumeora kiTxva Tamilam. _ ar mogwons erbo-kvercxi?_ igorma erTxel kidev scada, sityva banze aegdo. _ gemrielia. svetam gaswavla?_ Caacivda gogona. _ ginda, gagacno? _ sad? rodis?_ zeze wamoiWra Tamila da taSi Semohkra. _ eqvs saaTze voroncovis xidTan unda Sevxvde. _ aq aris? _ ho. erTad CamovediT, deidasTan cxovrobs. _ dedam icis? _ ara, araferi wamogcdes... _ ra Tqma unda, ar vetyvi, magram... _ ra magram?... _ dedas Zalian ewyineba, roca gaigebs. _ hoda..._ TiTi tuCTan miitana. Tamilam Tavi dauqnia. zaris xma gaisma. _ mgoni, dedaa, araferi Tqva ra. movigonoT rame, rom eqvs saaTze saxlidan gavideT. _ neli maswavlebelia! _ gakvirvebiT da SecbunebiT wamoiZaxa gogonam._ mobrZandiT! ezosTan manqana gaCerda. _ dedac movida! _ Cailaparaka fanjarasTan mdgarma igorma da oTaxSi Semosul maswavlebels Tavi daukra. Ria karebSi gemovnebiT Cacmuli nato gamoCnda. ukmayofilebam gadairbina mis saxeze, magram es moxda sul cota xniT. maswavlebels RimiliT miegeba da moibodiSa. _ didxans melodeT, qalbatono neli? _ mxolod SemogaswariT. _ Tamila, Svilo, maswavlebeli SemoipatiJe! _ da agrZnobina, misaReb oTaxSi Seiyvaneo. rogorc ki maswavlebeli da Tamila oTaxSi gavidnen, nato Svils eca da mopirdapire oTaxSi gaiyvana. _ igor, SenTan saqme maqvs. Svilma dedas Sexeda. _ am saRamos profesor nakaSiZesTan varT dapatiJebuli. qaliSvilis dabadebis dRe aqvT. _ vin aris eg?_ ena daeba igors. _ friad saWiro pirovnebaa. _ mere ra, me ra SuaSi var? _ es, Svilo, Sens momavals exeba...
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_ deda, gTxov, nu damRli. gamaTavisufle am yalbi Rimilisgan. qals feri ecvala da vidre raimes moifiqrebda, salaparako Tema myisve Secvala. _ Tamilas maswavlebelia, ucxouri pianino unda SeiZinos. nestorTan movida saTxovnelad. mamaSenis megobari centralur univermaRSi muSaobs da... _ Cqara Tqva es sityvebi, Svilis pasuxs aRar dalodebia da pirgaxsnili gavida neli maswavlebelTan. _ mapatieT, qalbatono neli! _ ras brZanebT... _ Tamila, stumars xili da tkbileuli miarTvi! _ nu SewuxdebiT, me axlave unda gavide. _ Tamilas swavlis Sesaxeb SewuxdiT, ara? _ diax, diax, qalbatono nato. maTematika Zalian uWirs. _ odnav uxeSad Seawyvetina qalma. _ sul ar daemsgavsa igors.. ise daamTavra skola, rom... maswavlebeli ar damiqiravebia..._ bolo ori sityva ise Tqva, Sig gulSi moxvda neli maswavlebels. _ ara, eg saWiro ar aris. iqneb ojaxSi eSleba xeli. _ Cems ojaxSi?_ saxe aelanZRa natos. misma Tvalebma aSkara mtruli gamometyveleba miiRo. _ bavSvi zedmetad gadaRlili modis saxlidan. _ RmerTo, ra mesmis? albaT ar arsebobs iseTi deda, CemsaviT did energias rom andomebdes Svilis aRzrdas. _ amaSi eWvi ar mepareba. igori Cinebuli moswavle iyo, magram... _ neli wamodga. mis saxeze aRar sCanda ukan daxevis survili. Tamilam xili da tkbileuli moitana. roca iqauroba datova, neli maswavlebelma xmadabla Tqva: _ me gvian gavige, rom Tamila Tqveni Svili ar iyo. _ natos feri ecvala. Zu vefxvs daemsgavsa, magram imis SiSiT, rom igors maTi saubari ar moesmina, Cailaparaka: _ risTvis SemaxseneT eg? nelim nerviulad dasrisa xelCanTa, karisken wavida da vidre karis saxelurs xels waavlebda, Cailaparaka: _ me masSi morCil adamians ufro vxedav, vidre am brwyinvale WaRis qveS gazrdil adamians. qals TvalSi moxvda, saxlis SesasvlelSi Camokidebuli Zvirfasi WaRi. sityva `brwyinvale~ nelim xazgasmiT Tqva da nato mixvda, ra damaluli zizRi iyo Caqsovili am sityvebSi. _ kargad brZandebodeT, qalbatono nato!... ara, ara, gacileba ar minda. me TviTon waval. _ da ezoSi Cqari nabijiT Cavida. _ wavida?_ ikiTxa igorma. _ pianino unda... es maTematika! ra gaxda aseTi. _ braziT
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wamoiZaxa natom. natos ganadgurebuli saxe hqonda da am Zvirfasi WaRis qveS sacodavad gamoiyureboda. Tamila kedels aekra. igorma wamali moitana. natom wveTebi WiqaSi Caasxa. _ igor, Svilo, moemzade! _ ra gavakeTo? natom warbebi azida. igors araferi uTxra, ise moubrunda Tamilas. _ Tamila cisferi perangi moumzade, saRamos dasWirdeba. _ deda, rom ar wamovide, ar SeiZleba? _ kidev Seecada igori, dedas dasxltomoda xelidan. _ bolosdabolos me dasasveneblad Camovedi. yelSi amovida amdeni gauTavebeli Rreoba. _ Tu RmerTi gwams, nu xar umaduri! _ mimarTa Svils dedam. _ yviTeli perangi xom ar Caecva? _ ikiTxa Tamilam. _ nu sulelob. mag perangSi ise gamoiyurebi, rogorc mTidan gamoqceuli glexi. _ me ki yuradRebas ar mivaqcev amas da Cavicvam yviTel perangs. _ ar gamagiJo... _ deda, xom ar ajobebda, am perangiT wamovsuliyavi. _ Tamila, Savqamriani kaba momimzade. _ amaswinaT TeatrSi rom gecva? _ ramdeni SekiTxvis dasma dagCemda. gaakeTe, rac giTxari, Semdeg sadili gaacxele. ise var daRlili, cotas davisveneb. nato taxtze wamowva. Tamila isev samzareuloSi dabrunda da amouxsnel amocanaze fiqrobda. igori masTan Sevida da CurCuliT Seexvewa. _ Tamunia, Zalian gTxov, eqvs saaTze Sen midi voroncovze. gadaeci, rom xval aucileblad vinaxuleb... TamilasTvis igori namdvili Zma iyo. cdilobda, yvelaferi gaego misTvis. ase miaCvies am ojaxSi. is mzad iyo, darCenili wuTebi misTvis Seewira. aranakleb uyvarda da pativs scemda igori Tamilas. saubedurod, misTvis aravis dauvalebia, ezruna gogonaze. igori verc moifiqrebda, rom masac sWirdeboda misi daxmareba. _ Tamila, gemudarebi, gaaseirne sadme! Tamila usityvod Sehpirda. axla darCaT kidev erTi ram. raRac unda moegonebiaT, rom Tamila gareT gasuliyo. _ romel saaTze unda mivideT...? _ gvari daaviwyda igors. _ nakaSiZeebTan... _ rvaze adre. _ upasuxa dedam.
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_ ase gvian? _ ukmayofilod Cailaparaka igorma. me ki gias unda Sevxvedrodi. wigni unda moetana. _ vin gias?_ gangeb ikiTxa Tamilam. _ maSin erTad wavideT saxlidan. igori mixvda, rom saWiro iyo, dedisTvis daeTmo.
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igori Tavis nebis gareSe wavida moskovSi, umaRlesi ganaTlebis misaRebad. natom, rogorc zeviT vTqviT, ojaxis mmarTvelobis sadaveebi mTlianad igdo xelT. TiTqmis uswavlelma qalma saocari simSvidiT miiRo aristokratiuli saxe. mas hqonda mbrZanebluri ieri da moxerxebuli saqmosanis gamoxedva. uyvarda sxvebis daxmareba, Tu igi misi ojaxis avtoritets Seexeboda. miznis misaRwevad aravisTan brZolas ar erideboda. mis xelSi SemTxveviT Cavardnilma saganZurma qali saWiro adamianad aqcia. nato Tavisi surviliT ganagebda ara marto ojaxs, aramed ojaxis wevrebis bedsac da momavalsac. sakuTar Svilze aranormalurad Seyvarebuli dedis safiqrali is iyo, rom misi niWieri Svili aucileblad ramdenime safexuris gamotovebiT cxovrebis zeda safexurze moxvedriliyo. pirveli Setakeba dedasa da Svils Soris maSin moxda, roca saSualo skola daamTavra. natos daJinebuli moTxovniT, nestorma xalxi naxa, vinc igors daexmareboda moskovis erT-erT institutSi Casaricxad. saxlSi dabrunebul nestors aRelvebuli coli daxvda saxlSi. _ Sen gaige Cveni ubedureba?_ karebSive daetaka coli qmars. imis molodiniT, Tu ra ubedureba daatydaT Tavs, gaxevebuli nestori karebSive gaqvavda. _ igorma gamoacxada, rom arsad unda wasvla, rom gadawyvetili aqvs, pedagogi gaxdes. Sen warmoidgine, ubralod maswavlebeli._ ukanaskneli sityva man xazgasmiT Tqva. _ mas bavSvebi uyvars Turme da surs, suliT Zlieri adamianebi aRzardos. aseTi ram miTxra Senma Svilma. nestori SekrTa, magram ar SeimCnia. _ pedagogoba cudi araa. egaa, sufTa xelfasiT gauWirdeba cxovreba. _ ratom ginda, ganaTleba mainc da mainc moskovSi miviRo?_ ikiTxa oTaxidan gamosulma igorma. mas fermkrTali saxe rom ar hqonoda, dedis asli gegonebodaT. _ mag saqme ukve gadawyvetilia. _ ki, magram me aRar mekiTxebiT?
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_ ver gavige... _ uCemod Cemi momavali rogor gadawyviteT? _ Seni saqmea, iswavlo. danarCeni Cven gvexeba. maswavlebloba sul ubralo profesiaa. me ki minda, Svilo, Sen swavluli kaci gaxde. _ me ki vfiqrob, pedagogoba sulac araa ubralo profesia da rom yvelaze swavluli adamianebi bavSvebis aRzrdis saqmes unda emsaxurebodnen. _ Tu Cemi Svili xar, nu vikamaTebT. es sakiTxi davasruloT, me minda... _ iuristi xom ar ginda, gavxde? _ RmerTma dagvifaros! _ Zlieri unda iyo, rom pativi gcen! _ maSin saWidaod unda mevlo bavSvobaSi, egec amikrZaleT. _ kmara! igorma oTaxi datova da TavisTvis Cailaparaka: _ Zlieri, rogorc herakle, swavluli, rogorc aristotele, morCili, rogorc egvipteli mona. nuTu, ar icis mamaCemma, rom monad aRzrdili Zlieri verasdros iqneba. _ iqneb, saqmosani unda gavxde, gaiZvera? nestori da nato iseTi mSoblebi iyvnen, romlebmac mTeli Tavisi adamianuri Rirseba imas Sealies, rom maTi erTaderTi SvilisTvis momavali uzrunveleyoT. fermkrTali igori aweuli warbebiTa da daRlili saxiT idga. igorma saSualo skolaSi swavlebis periodi ise gaatara, rogorc galiaSi gamomwyvdeulma mtredma, romlis erTaderTi sazrunavi kargad swavla iyo. swavlobda zomaze metad, vidre avalebdnen, vidre saSualo skolis programiT iyo gaTvaliswinebuli. mxatvrul da teqnikur literaturas kiTxulobda. farTod erkveoda mimdinare ambebSi, icnobda politikur cxovrebasac. misTvis ar arsebobda arc megobruli samyaro da arc maTTan dakavSirebuli aucilebeli gancda. misi guli gaTavisuflebuli iyo yvela savaldebulo moraluri valdebulebebisgan. is gare samyaros xedavda wigniT da sakuTari araferi ebada. igori ar ereoda da arc revdnen ojaxur saqmeebSi. ar icoda da arc surda gaego mSoblebis saqmianoba, maTi Semosavali, samsaxuri da masTan dakavSirebuli kanoni da morali. mis gonebaSi es ambavi mudam `sxva saqmed~ rCeboda. is icnobda wigns da maswavlebels. amitom Tavis gulSi mxolod maswavlebels aRmerTebda. iqneb amitom gadawyvita, pedagogi gamxdariyo. vin icis, iqneb swored am momentSi waarTves igors yvelaze wminda, saTuTi, yvelaze faqizi ram. iqneb, amden gazeTebsa da wignebSi gafan- 66 -

tul codnas imitom uyrida Tavs, rom Semdeg yvelaze Rirseuli saqmisTvis moexmara igi, magram ar daanebes. aq mostaces is grZnoba, eris samsaxurisTvis rom hqonda Senaxuli am fermkrTal, Tavazian da uniWieres ymawvils. am susti aRnagobis ymawvils hyavda Zlieri mama da mzrunveli deda. igori mSoblebis morCili Svili iyo, saubedurod. _ sad mawyob, mama? _ roca TviTmfrinavi haerSi aiWra, maSin SeekiTxa Svili mamas. _ iq, sadac wels mxolod Sen moewyobi kavkasiidan? _ mere? _ diplomati unda gaxde! _ ra? _ is adamianebi yvelaze Wkvianebi arian. maTzea damokidebuli saxelmwifos bedi. _ saxelmwifos bedi? _ SiSiT wamoiZaxa igorma. _ Seiswavli ramdenime enas. ivli sxvadasxva qveynebSi... _ ras ambob? _ xo, Seni codnac aris saWiro. marto Cemi survili ar hyofnis iq mowyobas. igorma brwyinvaled Cabara gamocdebi. Soreuli naTesavebi meTvalyureobdnen mas. deda telefonze iyo Camokidebuli, mama zurgs umagrebda. ai, yvelaferi is, rac erTi wuTiT ar SeunelebiaT moskovSi swavlebis periodSi. gavida erTi weli, ori weli... natos Zili gaukrTa. _ iqneb moxdes ubedureba da igorma Cvens ukiTxavad vinme Seiyvaros._ uTxra colma erTxel qmars. _ ha? _ ratomRac guli cuds meubneba. _ eg saqme gamosarkvevia. im kvirasve moulodnelad deda `Tavs daesxa~ Svils. natos buneba metad rTuli da amoucnobi iyo. is mudam orazrovnad laparakobda da am or azrSi Zneli iyo dageWira tyuili. mis sulSi ori erTmaneTis sawinaaRmdego adamiani ijda _ erTdroulad keTilic da borotic, meqrTamec da xelgaSlilic, ampartavanic da sxvis ubedurebaze mowuwunec, magram erTi ram ucvleli iyo, Svilze avadmyofurad Seyvarebuli deda gaxldaT. Svili dedis Camosvlas ar moeloda. Tavazianad moikiTxa mama da Tamila. _ kargad arian. Tamila skolas amTavrebs. minda, tansacmeli vuyido. amitomac Camovedi. _ icrua natom.
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_ TbilisSi ar iSoveba? _ Tbilisurs xom ar Cavacmev? _ ho, dediko, Sen Zalian giyvars yvelaferi ucxouri. albaT Tavi mogaqvs, rom Seni mzrunvelobiT ramdenime ucxour enas vizepireb. _ giWirs? _ ara. _ Svilo, Zalian nu gadaiRli Tavs swavliT, zogjer gaiare sadme, magaliTad, TeatrSi. kinoSi ar dadixar? _ xandaxan. igori fanjaras miuaxlovda da gadaixeda. _ `martoa?~ _ gaifiqra natom. igori azrze ar iyo, rom deda dakiTxvas utarebda. _ oh, igor, adre eridebodi megobrebs, vifiqre, aqac martoobas xom ar ganicdis-Tqo. igori saaTs daaCerda. _ xom ar geCqareba? _ mapatie, deda, male davbrundebi. _ wadi, gaiseirne. me mudam vfiqrobdi da vdardobdi, rom Sen verasdros moiclidi gasarTobad. dedis Savi, sxiviani Tvalebi, romelic yovelTvis xiblavda Svils, axla afTariviT misCereboda. _ me wavedi deda! _ wadi! kari gaixura Tu ara, fanjarasTan mivida nato. _ netav, sad mieCqareba? igori Zalian Seicvala. natom dainaxa, rogor gadaWra igorma quCa. mas TeTrTmiani qaliSvili miegeba. am aRmoCeniT Tavzardacemulma dedam gadawyvita, igori saswavleblad moskovidan TbilisSi gadmoeyvana. nakaSiZeebTan imitom mihyavda, rom profesori gasaubreboda, rogorc momaval diplomats.
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xidTan Tamila eqvs saaTze mivida. ori qaliSvili iqve idga, gaCerebuli transportisken ixedebodnen. Tamilam gadawyvita, gamolaparakeboda maT. axlos mivida. _ Tqven sveta xom ar xarT? _ diax, sveta var _ igorma gamomgzavna... _ TviTon? _ ver moaxerxa. me misi da var. _ Tamila?
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_ ho! _ gaexarda gogonas, _ damavala, rom xval am adgilze amave dros Segxvdeba. _ xval? xval mivfrinav diliT. albaT, moskovSi SevxvdebiT erTmaneTs. _ xom ar gaviseirnoT? _ Tamilas surda, qaliSvilisTvis esiamovnebina. _ didi siamovnebiT. plexanovze gaiseirnes, Semdeg kinoSi Sevidnen. roca kinodan gamovidnen, moulodnelad neli maswavlebels gadaawydnen. amas ki ar moeloda Tamila. _ seirnob?_ dacinviT uTxra maswavlebelma, Tan qeraTmian gogonas Sexeda. _ igoris Tanakurselia. _ dabneulma Tamilam Zlivs amoilaparaka. Tamilam ver gaigo, daijera Tu ara neli maswavlebelma. mis TvalebSi aSkara muqara dainaxa. roca Tamila saxlSi dabrunda, aRelvebuli daxvda nato. isini ukve dabrunebuliyvnen nakaSiZeebidan. meore dRes Tamilam isev oriani miiRo maTematikaSi. neli damrigebelma, roca JurnalSi Tamilas gvaris gayolebiT axali oriani dainaxa, mkacrad Sexeda gogonas da usayvedura. _ netav, ra gaseirnebda? Tamilam Zlivs Seikava Tavi, rom ar atirebuliyo. im saRamosve neli maswavlebelma natosTan dareka. _ qalbatono nato, isev Tamilas sakiTxze gawuxebT. _ natom mwyralad Sexeda Tamilas, romelic karadis SuSebs aprialebda. _ Tqvenma qaliSvilma isev oriani miiRo. _ gamagiJebs es gogo! _ guSin saRamos, konosTan Sevxvdi. sulac araa dainteresebuli swavliT. gogonas modunebuli xeli dacurda karadis SuSaze. _ marto iyo?_ roca amas telefonis yurmilTan ambobda, afTariviT hkvesavda misi Tvalebi. _ ara, TeTrTmian qaliSvilTan erTad. etyoba, aqauri ar unda yofiliyo. ho, mgoni, Tqveni vaJiSvilis stumari yofila. Tamila aRar swmendda SuSas. xelebi Zirs daeSva da eloda risxvis dasasruls. moxda saswauli: natos saxe erTianad damSvidda. masSi aSkarad axali grZnoba gaCnda. Tbilad ucqerda Tamilas. misi gazrdili Znelad amosaxsneli amocana iyo misTvis da eZebda gzas am amocanis amosaxsnelad. _ Tamila, Svilo, rogori daRlili saxe gaqvs. daanebe Tavi mag SuSebs da daisvene. Tamila alali da spetaki sulis adamiani iyo. Tu mas natos
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ganrisxeba SiSis zars scemda, myisve mimndobi xdeboda mis patara alersze. Tamila dajdomas ver bedavda da dedobils gakvirvebiT SesCereboda. natosTan gazrdilma qaliSvilma icoda natos guneba. didi risxvis Semdeg gamodareba kargs rom ar moutanda, kargad xvdeboda. roca gogonam iqaurobis datoveba gadawyvita, viTom sasxvaTaSorisod, nato SeekiTxa: _ Tamila, Svilo, ratom damimale guSin rom kinoSi iyavi? Tamila mixvda, rom natos surda, damtkbari eniT amocana amoexsna. uceb ezodan sirbiliT amovarda igori. _ deda, moskovSi mivdivar! _ ratom? _ or dReSi davbrundebi. nato gaSra. amas ar eloda. _ me ki SenTan erTad mindoda wamosvla. _ risTvis? deda grZnobda, rom brZolas agebda. _ maqvs ufleba, ar gipasuxo am kiTxvaze. igori gafiTrda. _ mec maqvs ufleba, ar vupasuxo Sens SekiTxvas. me mjera, rom yvelas aqvs sakuTari piradi cxovreba. misi gadaCxrekis ufleba aravis ar aqvs, Tundac sakuTar dedas. igori Tavis patara CemodanSi sakuTar nivTebs awyobda. _ bileTi aRebuli gaqvs? _ ukanasknel bileTs mivuswari. Tu wamosvla gadawyvito, damikavSirdi. dagxvdebi. elvis siswrafiT gaiWra ezodan igori da deda gaognebuli datova. kedelze akruli Tamila ferwasuli sdumda. _ vin iyo is qeraTmiani gogona, guSin rom daseirnobda SenTan?_ mexiviT daeca nato Tamilas. Tamila sdumda. surda, mogvianebiT eTqva simarTle, magram sijiute xanmokle aRmoCnda. natos natifi saxe afTars daemsgavsa. kamaraSekruli, basri kbilebiT da Zlieri torebiT ukanasknel naxtoms akeTebda. _ vin iyo is qeraTmiani gogona? _ tons dauwia natom. Zlieri mexis dacemis win, Weqa-quxili rom wydeba, caze gaielvebs TvalismomWreli elva, Semdeg dgeba samarisebuli siCume da eli risxvas. gogonam ver gauZlo mexis dacemis molodins. _ igoris Tanakurselia.
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nato mxrebSi moixara, savarZelSi Cajda. Tamilas Seecoda. Sali moaxvia mxrebze. natos sisustem mcire xans gastana. qalSi mudam ijda meore, ufro Zlieri nato. igi misi sakuTari ZarRvebidan modioda. Tavs iCenda maSin, roca mis patrons dasWirdeboda. qalma dasZlia fizikuri sisuste, radgan miiRo gadawyvetileba-exsna Svili moaxloebuli ubedurebisgan. natom Tavis erTaderT Svils bavSvobaSive waarTva bavSvoba, moswavleobis dros ymawviloba da aiZula, mudam misi damjeri yofiliyo. studenti Svilisganac amas iTxovda deda. TeTrTmiani qalis saxe meteoriviT SemoiWra mis sulSi. mTlianad dadaRa da gaacecxla deda. erTi mizani hqonda, `eSvela~ SvilisTvis. _ lamazi iyo? _ xmadabla hkiTxa qalma. _ Zalian. mere ra xasiaTi... _ ase ician. kargi xasiaTiT ipyroben utvino biWebs. viRacam dareka. Tamilam yurmili aiRo. _ mama xar? natom xelidan gamostaca yurmili da CasZaxa: _ nestor, axali ubedureba... _ ra moxda? _ igori wavida. _ ra moxda mere? _ rogor, Tu ra moxda? viRac rus gogosTan erTad iyo Turme Camosuli da ukan gahyva. _ mdaaa! _ ena gauSra mamas. _ unda gavyve! _ nu sulelob. me ukve movaxerxe misi TbilisSi gadmoyvana. dampirdnen, rom pirdapir kaTedraze datoveben. _ TbilisSi? sxvanairad ar SeiZleboda? _ raRa sxvanairad? ukve gadawyvetilia. samagierod, imas mamis saflavisTvis ukrainidan Camovutan marmarilos qvas. natom yurmils xeli gauSva. yurmili aqanavda.
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`zogjer ise momenatreba Seni xilva, rogorc xangrZlivi wvimis Semdeg mzis gamoCena. me mzis xilva da Seni naxva erTnair sixaruls maniWebs. arsad iseTi lamazi, iseTi vercxliviT mbrwyinavi ar aris mzis sxivebi, rogorc Sens SublTan. Sen ki amayad dgaxar da sakuTari mSvenierebiT mbrZaneblob samyaros. rogor minda, axlac SenTan viyo. Sevxedo im Subls, WaRaraSer- 71 -

euls, zoggan norCs, zoggan naoWebdaRaruls, zoggan garinduls, martosulad amosulsa da zoggan erTmaneTSi Cakonil-Carkinuls. rogor miyvars is nakaduli, Seni gulis siuxve rom moaqvs Cemamde. sunTqvad rom qars moaqvs da meCurCuleba. Cemo mTebo, mziT gamTbaro da gasxivosnebulo, zogjer nisliT dafarulno. axlac vxedav, TovliviT TeTri nisli rom micuravs Sens tanze da saidumlo zRapars giambobs! rogor menatrebiT! Cemgan daupyrobelo mTebo, menatrebiT! arcerT suliers ar dauweria is musika, mSobliuri hangiT gamTbari, rogori musikac Senidan modis. ra Raribia is, vinc erTxel mainc ar Sexvedria Sens `nanas~! ra ubeduria is, vinc ar gamaZRara im sixaruliT, vinc SiSveli fexebiT pirdapir ar Segxebia da usityvod aRsareba ar uTqvams SenTvis. mxolod SenTan minda vTqva aRsareba, romelic Cems gulSia. netav, Tu dadgeba dro, rom SenTan movide da Cemi guli saidumlod davcalo. Cemo nodar, am zafxuls sofelSi roca Caxval, bebia damikocne. Semdeg Cems mTaze adi da es werili waukiTxe. rac ver vTqvi, Sen daumate. uTxari, rom saSinlad menatreba is bavSvoba, is umwikvlo sixaruli, mand rom mimiRia. dedas uTxari, rom nu dardobs. me yvelani miyvarxarT!~ Seni kote.
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_ ras kiTxulob nodar? _ kotes werilia. vasiko nodarTan mivida. werili gamoarTva da waikiTxa. erTxans garindebuli idga. _ mamas ar axsenebs?_ naRvlianad Cailaparaka vasikom. _ ara. nodarma igrZno, rom tkbili gancdebi gaufanta dilidan mofusfuse vasikos kotes werilma. sakuTari gancdebis moTokvas Seecada. _ ese igi, midixar? _ waval. jaric momiwevs. _ qalaqs aRar daubrundebi? vasiko SekrTa. am kiTxvis Tavadac eSinoda. _ roca jaridan davbrundebi, Camoval _ yvelaferi mzad gaqvs? _ netav, ra mqonda iseTi, CemodanSi Cawyoba rom damWirveboda? _ ra bednieri xar, rom midixar.
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_ ratom? _ zogjer meCveneba, TiTqos mxrebze carieli Tavi madevs. mivdivar, mivdivar am xmaurian quCebSi da Tavs gavaryev, vamowmeb, marTla mabia mxrebze, Tu... _ Seni imedi maqvs nodar, Sen tvins arsad datoveb. _ gana, ra ggonivar? _ Sen poeti xar! _ erTi Senc... ukve weliwadia, rac aq var da erTi xeiriani leqsic ar damiweria. _ ratom? _ muza ar modis. _ sad wavida is oxeri, rom SenisTana Wkviani kaci miatova._ simarTle gareuli xumrobiT uTxra vasikom. nodars gaecina. _ Wkuas muza maZlevs. Tu man damtova, wasulia Cemi saqme. _ erihaaa! _ gaukvirda vasikos, _ Seni xeloba, arc Tu saxarbielo yofila. marTla xelosnoba sjobia magas. _ marTals ambob... TamilasTan dawyebuli romani rogor midis?_ ikiTxa uceb nodarma. _ jer-jerobiT erTmaneTs vuRimiT. _ oh, eg mxolod siyvarulis dasawyisia. _ mgoni. Tan fiqrob, colad SeirTo? _ aba, rogor? _ gakvirvebiT ikiTxa vasikom. _ TavdaviwyebiT miyvars. _ vici. _ maS? _ jer Sen didi bavSvi xar, lamaz peplebze gamokidebuli. coli sxvaa. man meuRleoba unda gagiwios mTeli cxovrebis manZilze. ojaxi, rogori siyvaruliTac ar unda iyos agebuli, igi adamianisTvis mZime tvirTia, pasuxsagebi movaleobaa. ojaxi saxelmwifoc aris, rom icode. bavSvebi, maTi aRzrda, STamomavali... rogori iqneba igi, Seni Svili rom hqvia saxelad? amaze gifiqria? an Tu gifiqria, Tamila Seni siyvarulisTvis im mTa sofelSi gamogekideba da gaiziarebs Sens cxovrebas? im uRels gaswevs, Sen rom ukve gadgas? poeturi sulis mqone qals SeuZlia icxovros sayvarel adamianTan didi cxovrebiseuli datvirTviT, xolo iseTi gogona, Tavis dedobils TvalebSi rom Sescqeris da sakuTari yvelaferi daukargavs, ver gagiwevs did megobrobas. Sen didi bavSvi xar. mapatie, Tu lamazi ocnebebi dagingrie, magram Seni siyvaruli sacriT wvimis wveTebis Segrovebas hgavs da minda, dagexmaro. sofelSi wasvlis win Tamila aucileblad naxe! _ saRamos gaviaroT! _ manamde kotes werili unda gavugzavno. gTxov, marto damtovo!
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vasikom Tavi daukra. Cemodani, romelic mzad hqonda, iqve midga da gareT gavida. bicola marusas moxucma mamidam biWebs sakuWnaosodena oTaxi dauqirava mezoblad. im oTaxSi ori viwro sawoli eteoda da erTi patara magida, romelsac erTdroulad sasadilodac xmarobdnen, samecadinodac da sauToodac. vasikos mecadineobisaTvis Tavi ar Seuwuxebia. Sarvals ki yoveldRe auTovebda. hoda, roca arc Wamdnen da arc auTovebdnen, magida nodaris gankargulebaSi iyo. vasiko kviraSi erTxel Tamilas Seuvlida, nestor biZias saqmianad gaesaubreboda. natos Tavis daxmarebas SesTavazebda. igorTan, Tu saxlSi iyo, nards TamaSobda. Soridan Tamilas gauRimebda da mere dahqroda tramvaiT erTi kuTxidan meoreSi. ase gavida erTi weli. manqanis marTvis ufleba miiRo. sofeli eZaxda. deda enatreboda, magram raRac Zala izidavda im saxlisken, sadac mSvidi, magram Tavbrudamxvevi Rimili xvdeboda.
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`Cemo kote!~ `Sen Tbilisi arasdros ginaxavs. arc mis zecas dakvirvebixar odesme. me ki minda, zustad warmogidgino, rogor Sordeba dRe Rames. Tbilisis Tavze ukanaskneli sxivi esveneba dasavleTSi da didebul fers tovebs. iisfer zecas ecileba mewamuli feri da Semdeg bindi dgeba Tbilisis Tavze. es ferebi ise Caxvevia erTmaneTs, meSinia, mzem ar gaitacos orive. Sen ki arasdros daswrebixar am bunebis ferTa Widils. ar vici, vin xar, an risTvis ver xedav Sens Tavze Tavisufal mzes? nuTu marto erTi zecis nagleji garguna bedma. iqneb, ar gindoda is, rac naxe, magram mainc naxe. xuTi wuTis ufleba mieci Sens Tavs, gesunTqa sufTa haeri. risTvis gamoutane Sens Tavs aseTi mkacri ganaCeni? Seni vulkaniviT amozneqili mkerdi rogor umowyalod gaaqvave. vin xar Sen? qurdi, Tu mkvleli? avazaki, Tu yaCaRi? riTi sunTqav, an risTvis sunTqav? arafrisTvis rogor gagiCerda eg Zlieri mklavebi? rodis ascdi swor gzas? rodis Cagisaxlda ukan ar dabrunebis survili? Sen aq unda iyo! xaraCoze, an auditoriaSi. CvenTan unda iyo da tkbebode Tbilisis TaRiT. mand yofna rogor airCie? SensaviT gaubedurebuli xalxis bedi gaiziare, maTi ,,ufrosoba arCie. wumpeSi CaSvebul adamianTa ,,ufrosoba ra bedanaa? Sen maTi sisxli da xorci gaxdi. aRar ginda dabrunde ukan, rom naxo bindSi Securebuli zeca? gauCinarebuli mze rom dautovebs mZevlad erT sxivs da aTasferad aaTamaSebs Tbilisis
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TaRs. me menatrebi. deda da bebia damwuxrebulia SeniT. iqneb moxvide rodesme. Cven Sen gelodebiT! Seni nodari. werili konvertSi Cado da misamarTi daawera. sawolze gauxdeli wamowva. kidev auforiaqda fiqri. misi jarSi gacileba moagonda. naadrevi Tovli mosuliyo im dRes sofelSi. fantelebi blomad scvioda. samanqane gzamde sami kilometri iyo gasasvleli. megobrebi da naTesavebi acilebdnen. dedac Tavisi umcrosi SviliT soflidan acilebda. deda sayvarel Svils TvalebSi SiSiT uyurebda da arigebda. _ geyofa deda, bebo, Sen modi CemTan. Sen bevrs ar marigeb. icinoda da Tan Tavis spilosZvlisfer kbilebs aCenda. naadrevi Tovli did fifqebs hfenda aremares. jer dneboda, Semdeg erTmaneTs ewebeboda. TovlSi gulsaklavad farTxalebda beRura. fexze dgeboda, mirboda, efloboda, naadrev Tovls daemexa ubeduri. veRar frenda. daixara, xelSi aiyvana da ubeSi Caisva. _ deda! sciva beRuras, gaaTbe! axla aRar icinoda, aRarc misi TeTri kbilebi moCanda. Tovls dedisTvis Savi Tmebi TeTrad Seemosa. gegoneba, SiSisagan gaWaRaravebuliyo qali. _ deda! rogor gixdeba WaRara Tmebi! mivarda dedas, xelSi aitaca, rogorc bavSvi, Tvalebi daukocna, patara Citi xelSi Seatova. Semdeg yvela dakocna. bebias Tvalebze cremli moswminda da TavdaRmarTze daeSva. Semdeg motrialda da dedas dauZaxa. _ deda! sciva beRuras, saxlSi waiyvane, gaaTbe! Semdeg gamcileblebs xeli dauqnia. _ nu gamacilebT, bavSvi xom aRar var? roca kote gaiqca, marjvena fexi samjer Semohkra Tovlwayril qvas, Tavi Zlivs Seikava, rom ar waqceuliyo. _ mogikvdes deda! daikivla dedam da Tvalebze xeli aifara. irgvliv isev Tovda. ukan dabrunebul dedas ubeSi, fexebdamzrali beRura mihyavda.
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_ ra unda vuTxra? me miRimis. e. i. vuyvarvar. da Tu vuyvarvar, aucileblad damelodeba. _ sofelSi wamogyveba? Semoesma nodaris gesliani xma. _ eg ar mifiqria. _ iqneb wamogyves. didi siamovnebiT vicxovrebdi sofelSi! da uceb salaparako Tema Secvala.
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_ bavSvobaSi erTi Cveuleba mqonda, yvela wakiTxul wigni dedaCemisaTvis unda meambna. iyo SemTxvevac, wignSi raRac ar momewoneboda, me imas Cemeburad Sevasworebdi da ise vyvebodi. _ mgoni, mand Secdi, nodar! mafrTxilebda deda. _ ara, me ar Sevcdi. piriqiT, mwerali Secda. vpasuxobdi da Txrobas vagrZelebdi. _ ho, da aseTi qalaqSi ar modis. ase mgonia, kacobriobas rac kargi Seuqmnia, bunebis wiaRSi Seqmna. _ netavi Sen... Cemi sicocxle maSin cxovreba ar yofila! _ Sen siyvaruliT cocxlob. SromiT janmrTeli kunTebiT ginda aswio SenTvis kuTvnili asawevi. ginda, gyavdes erTguli coli, buTxuza biWebi. gverdiT edge Senze fiqriT daRlil dedas. me ki... ar masvenebs sxvebze fiqri. minda, Sens ufaqizes siyvarulze vwero, es aris Cemi Tavi cxovrebisa da bolo sicocxlisa. da Tu Cemgan azrebi modian, me aRar viqnebi me. nestoris binasTan Sedgnen. vasikom dareka. gaisma msubuqi fexis xma, kari gaiRo da RimiliT gaciskronebuli, bavSurad miamiti saxe SemoxvdaT win. _ SemovideT? gogonam Tanxmobis niSnad Tavi dauqniaT. qaliSvili talaveriT dafaruli ezos siRrmisken gauZRva stumrebs. _ CvenTan stumrebi arian. aqeT CamojeqiT. _ vin arian? _ ra giTxraT. erTi profesoris qaliSvilia. _ is xom ara, Sens dabadebis dReze rom iyo? _ ho, is. _ martoa? _ ara, ineza nakaSiZesTan erTad. _ Tamila! moisma xma. _ axlave. gogona sirbiliT gaiqca. _ vin arian? ikiTxa natom. _ vasiko, megobarTan erTad. _ ra Wkviani gogo xar. soflel biWebs uWirT qalaqel qaliSvilebTan zrdilobiani saubari. iq gaarTe biWebi. moica, jer qaliSvilebs tkbileuli moarTvi. Tamila gawiTlda, magram araferi uTqvams, ise Cavida sardafSi. roca tkbileuli magidaze daawyo, natom agrZnobina Tamilas, rom iqauroba daetovebina. _ oboli gogoa, moridebuli! _ Semoesma zurgsukan Tamilas. guli moeSxama. simwrisagan mxrebi aewva. es rom ase iyo, Tamilam kargad icoda, magram am sityvebSi gogonam dainaxa daCagvra,
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iseTi, weRan soflel biWebze rom Tqva natom. civwyalgadasxmuli dabrunda ymawvilebTan. Soriaxlos Camojda. mis saxeze aRar iyo miamiti da lamazi Rimili. Rrma sevdas daegrZelebia misi mSvenieri saxe. uxerxuli situacia Seiqmna. erTi wuTiT yvelas daaviwyda erTmaneTi da TaviaanT safiqrals miecnen. stumrebi male gamovidnen ezoSi. gabrwyinebuli saxiT gaacila isini natom. _ gretaa? _ gaocebiT ikiTxa nodarma. natom SesZlo qaliSvilebis ezodan ise gayvana, rom maT ,,sofleli biWebi ar SeemCniaT. ukan mobrunebuli Sua ezoSi Sedga. TiTqos axla SeamCnia biWebi. maTken wavida. _ oh! ymawvilebo! aq iyaviT? Tamila, Svilo ar gepatieba, ratom ar Semoiyvane isini qaliSvilebTan. iseTi gogonebis gacnoba ar unda yofiliyos amaTTvis cudi. sxva rom araferi vTqva, rames mainc iswavlidnen. nodari da vasiko zeze idgnen, am sityvebma isini ise ganacvifra, rom erTmaneTs SesCerebodnen da isterikuli sicilis atexva surdaT. nodarma fexi ramdenimejer Seinacvla. moeCvena, TiTqos fexsacmelebma mouWira. _ ai, ratom mtoveben xSirad muzebi, aq? gaifiqra nodarma. _ albaT gSiaT. Tamila, Svilo, stumrebs mixede! _ ara, deida nato, sasadiloSi gamoviareT. _ uTxres biWebma. _ oh! Tqven sasadiloSi sadilobT? ra saSinelebaa. _ ratom? magram natom ukve aRar isurva saubris gagrZeleba. _ vidre biWebi nards TamaSoben, nestors cisferi perangi gauuTove. _ kargi, deda! - gogona usityvod gaSorda iqaurobas. _ mapatieT, ymawvilebo, Zalian daviRale! kidev raRac gankarguleba misca Tamilas da oTaxebSi miimala. _ es, karebis cxvirwin mojaxunebas hgavs! _ Cailaparaka nodarma. _ ai, aq ki dagrCeboda tvini? sad moZebne es artistebi? _ me TamilasTvis movdivar. _ Tamila natos xelSi Tojinaa, Tanac uniWo. Tumca lamazi Rimili ki scodnia. ezodan gasvla daapires. Tamilam moirbina. _ xval sofelSi mivdivar, Tamila. _ mere ki jarSi. _ daumata nodarma. _ romel saaTze. me moval gasacileblad. _ yoCaR, Tamila! taSi Semohkra nodarim. isini erTmaneTs daSordnen.
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vidre gaCerebamde mividodnen, vasikom nodars uTxra. _ dadgeba dRe, Sen am ojaxis ufro sasurveli stumari gaxdebi. _ ratom? _ Sen xom profesor daTunaSvilis Svili xar, igori ki misi momavali sasiZoa. meore dRes vasiko da nodari droze adre mividnen sadgurze. _ Tamila viTom ivaJkacebs da aq mova? ikiTxa nodarma. _ mova, aucileblad mova! amSvidebda vasiko da TiTonac ar hqonda amis imedi. _ Sexede im kacs! ai imas, swori beWebi da amozneqili mkerdi rom aqvs. _ ra? ra mogewona? - ar Seuxednia misTvis, ise gasca pasuxi vasikom. _ piriqiT, Sexede, rogori RvarZliani saxe aqvs. _ Tu RmerTi gwams, SemeSvi! _cota ukmexad uTxra vasikom. Semdeg toni rom Seerbilebina, daumata: _ saidan xvdebi? _ saxe adamianis gulis sarkea. adamianis SecnobaSi iSviaTad vcdebi. _ yoCaR, me es ar vicodi. _ ai, Seni saxis adamians SeuZlia mxolod gogonebis RimiliT dakmayofildes. meeWveba, sakuTari Rirsebis dasacavad didxans SeZlo brZola. _ Tamila! vasiko adgilidan mowyda. _ sad midixar. ukve gasvlis droa! dauZaxa mZRolma. isini erTmaneTs miuaxlovdnen da gaCerdnen. arc erTs sityva ar uTqvamT erTmaneTisTvis. gulebi Zlier ucemdaT da usityvod uTxres yvelaferi erTmaneTs. avtobusi daiZra. vasiko Setrialda da Sexta manqanaze. Tamila idga da RimiliT acilebda mgzavrebs. roca mraval manqanas Soris avtobusi gaZvra da mTavar gzaze gavida, Tamilam maSin SeamCnia, rom mis gverdiT nodari idga. Tamilas saxeze sevdiani Rimili gaCnda, magram igi sul ar hgavda im Rimils, vasikos rom gaayola ukan. _ vasikos didi xania icnob? SeekiTxa, roca ukan gamobrundnen nodari da Tamila. _ sul ramdenime weli, Cven sofelSi gavicaniT erTmaneTi. Tamilas vasikosTan pirvelad Sexvedris dRe moagonda. sofelSi kokiT wylis mosatanad wavida. koka mZime iyo, Zlivs moitana saxlSi. WiSkarTan vasikos Sexvda. vaJma gza dauTmo, rom am dros natos xma gaisma. _ biWiko, genacvale, Tu SeiZleba, erTi xeli SemaSvele.
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biWi Tamilas Sehyva ezoSi. WiSkarSi Sesul vaJs napativebi ZaRli Sexvda RreniT. jaWvma ar gauSva. ezoSi igori xis kasrTan trialebda, misi sardafSi Catana undoda, magram ver moexerxebina. _ geTayva, mogvexmare, rom CavitanoT! alersiT uTxra qalma. vasikom mzera Tamilaze gadaitana, romelsac mZime kokis Camodeba surda mxridan. ori nabijiT gaCnda masTan da koka CamoarTva. _ gmadlobT! moesma gogonas nazi xma. Semdeg ori mrgvali xe moarbenina, kasri zed Seagora da Tavisuflad Caitana sardafSi. _ ra yoCaRi yofilxar! Seaqo natom. visi biWi xar? _ dariasi. _ ,,dariasi yrud gaxmianda es saxeli mis gulSi. feri ramdenjerme Seecvala. _ ra gqvia? _ vasili. nato skamze daeSva. _ ra kargi biWi yofilxar! uazrod Tqva natom. vasikom yvelas moavlo Tvali. mzera Tamilaze SeaCera da gauRima. gogona gawiTlda. _ axla waval, deida nato, Tu dagWirdi, damiZaxe da mogexmarebi. Semdeg ramdenime Sexvedra hqondaT soflis klubSi, koncertze, wyarosTan. yovelTvis Soridan SexedviT kmayofildebodnen bavSvebi. es iyo da es. _ me da vasikos erTi wlis nacnoboba gvaqvs, magram erTad vcxovrobdiT da sakmao dro gvqonda, erTmaneTi gagvecno. _ Tqva nodarma _ Cven ki ara. _ sinanuliT Tqva Tamilam. nodarma gakvirvebiT Sexeda am umweo qaliSvils da Tavis Tavs uTxra: - `iSviaTad vtyuvdebi. am umweo da morcxv qaliSvilSi SeiZleba Zlieri adamiani Camoyalibdes, magram manamde Sorsaa, radgan mis gverdiT dgas nato. nato ki Zlieria. arada. Tamilas vasiko namdvilad uyvars~. _ vasiko giyvars?_ SeekiTxa gogonas. Tamilas saxe gausxivosnda, Tavi daxara, saxe yurebamde gauwiTlda. _ giyvars!- TviTonve upasuxa nodarim._ axla meore SekiTxva. _ gismen. _ gayvebi colad? saTvaleebidan qaliSvils Rrmad Camjdari Tvalebi uyurebda. gogonas saxe ar Secvlia. ise upasuxa.
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_ jer ar mifiqria amaze. nodari qanav-qanaviT midioda Tamilas gverdiT, qaliSvils xan win moeqceoda, xan ukan. xalxi uSlida xels, erTad rom evloT. _ es qalaqi nerviul sistemaze moqmedebs. am garegnuli silamazis gverdiT aris mravali wvrilmani da aucilebeli, romelsac Zalauneburad unda daemorCilo. es avsili quCebi, maRaziis win rigi, dausrulebeli lodini... maRla asuli sarTulebi, guguni da gamonabolqvi. sofelSi adamiani yvelaferi am zedmetisgan gaTavisuflebulia. mamlis yiviliT iwyeba soflis dila. _ Sroma? Seawyvetina Tamilam. _ fizikuri Sroma aucilebelia adamianisaTvis. is imdenad ar Rlis adamians, rogorc fsiqologiuri datvirTva. qalaqs dro ar hyofnis aRidginos is dakarguli energia, romelic waarTva zedmetad datvirTvis aucileblobam. soflel kacs puris Wamis dros ubrundeba fizikuri SromiT dakarguli energia. iseTi warmodgena maqvs, rom aqauri samocdaaTi wlis upeebSeSupebuli mamakaci oci wliT ufrosia Tavisi asakis soflel mamakacTan SedarebiT. sofleli kaci, romelic mkvdariviT Camomxmaria, didi iumoris grZnoba aqvs, xolo mis TvalebSi jerac bavSuri sicelqe sCans. _ gmadlobT, nodar! Tumca soflis me ar meSinia. vasikos Tundac imis iqiTac gavyvebi. axla aRar iRimeboda Tamila. didi xania, gadawyvetileba ukve mieRo. es mis mkacr saxeze swored dRes dainaxa vaJma da amas namdvilad ar eloda nodari. _ tramvaiT wavideT, Tu taqsi daviWiro? _ tramvaiT. _ Tqveni ojaxi iseTia, rom... _ igori mudam avtobusiT dadis. _ igori male daqorwindeba? _ albaT. cota brazianad Tqva qaliSvilma. es toni rom gamoesworebina, daumata, mgoni sacolec SeurCies. _ is TovliviT TeTri qaliSvili? _ ho! profesoris qaliSvili, greta daTunaSvili. _ saucxooa. TviTon ras warmoadgens? _ ucxo enebis institutis meore kursis studentia. ukravs roialze, saucxood flobs ramdenime enas. didi xania, deda aseT sarZlos daeZebs. raki naxa aseTi gogo, saqme damTavrebulad miaCnia. _ igors moswons? _ igors sxva uyvars. _ Sen? Sen ra azrisa xar am SeuRlebaze? _ deda SesaniSnavi qalia. Tan igoris bedze gamudmebiT fiqrobs. miaCnia, rom igors masTan ukeTesi mdgomareoba Seeqmneba.
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nodaris win idga Cveulebrivi gulubryvilo bavSvi, romelsac ar SeeZlo, daemala Tavisi gulis nadebi. am wuTSi saSinlad Seebrala igi. _ greta Cemi daa. moulodnelad moswyda es sityvebi mis bages. Tamilam gaocebiT Sexeda vaJs, Semdeg SiSiT SeaTvaliera. _ e.i. Senc profesoris vaJi xar? _ gTxovT, ase nu miwodeb. me gretas mamis Svili var. es aris da es. _ mesmis, is TqvenTan aRar cxovrobs?
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,,Cemo patara biWuna! am sityvebiT imitom mogmarTav, rom Sen Cems warmodgenaSi aseTad darCi. dro gavida, gaizarde, magram, me ar daminaxavs, ar momismenia Seni daboxebuli xma, ar daminaxavs Sens tuCebTan amosuli ulvaSi. Sen mudam bavSvobisdroindeli TvalebiT micqeri. albaT mec SenTvis marad axalgazrda mama var. ocnebasaviT mSvenieri da sizmariviT gaelvebuli. arc sizmars da arc ocnebas araviTari forma ar aqvT. me ki maradiuli sicocxliT vcxovrob Sen sxeulSi, Sen ZarRvebSi CaRvrili sisxli am maradiulobis gagrZelebaa. mama, ramdenime dReSi jariskaci gavxdebi, ar vici, ra viqnebi xval, riTi gamovadgebi adamianebs, is ki mwams, arasodes Segarcxven. _ vasiko! daria qmris suraTTan gaCerebul SvilTan mivida. megona viRacas esaubrebodi, albaT momeCvena. _ ar mogCvenebia, deda! me da mama veTxovebiT erTmaneTs. daria Svilis gverdiT dadga. erTxans qmris suraTs ucqerda, Semdeg zurgi Seaqcia. zurgCanTa, romelic iqve taxtze ido, gaxsna. _ mgoni, yvelaferi Cavawyve, mainc Seamowme. dedam nivTebi SeaTvaliera, TiTqmis yvelaferi Caewyo Svils. mxolod im patara xanjalma gaaoca, romelic saTuTad gaxveuli zurgCanTis ZirSi ido da romelic didi xnis winaT qmarma miarTva saCuqrad. vasiko baRSi gavida da vardebs miualersa. dedas moagonda bolo dros Svilis xasiaTis Secvla. vasiko umizezod Riziandeboda xolme. vasikos xelSi wiTeli vardebi eWira. _ deda mamasTan gaviaroT! deda-Svili SinmousvlelTa ZeglTan Sedga. vasikom vardebi daawyo. qali, didi xania, qmars aRar tiroda. is mieCvia masTan usityvo saubars. axlac qmris suraTTan mdgari, sTxovda megzurad gahy- 81 -

oloda vaJiSvils. niavi qroda da maisis vardebs furclavda Zeglis fexebTan. vasiko bavSvobidanve mamis suraTs ise grZnobda, rogorc cocxal mamas. _ gaxsovs is dRe, vasiko, Sen da mamaSeni fermidan rom dabrundiT?_ TvalebSi cremli gaubrwyinda darias. _ maxsovs! vasikom zurgCanTa moigdo. orives is dRe daudgaT Tvalwin: _ vasiko, Svilo, mamaSeni ori dRea, sofelSi ar Camosula. diliT Tengiza amoivlis da gahyevi. _ am sityvebiT Seexmiana deda eqvsi wlis Svils. _ diliT adre gamaRviZe ,deda! _ es uTxra Svilma, kunTmagarma biWma gverdi inacvla da CaeZina. _ Tengiza fermamde xom ar midis?_ gamoelaparaka saCeCelTan mjdomi deda darias, _ nadirma ar SeaSinos biWi. _ gana, pirvelad midis... gamTeniisas Svils dedis daZaxeba ar dasWirvebia. ise wamodga, qalamnebi Caicva da TasmebiT Sekra. _ moicade, marto ar waxvide! _ sagzali xom Caawyve? _ didi kaciviT SeekiTxa dedas Svili. maSin vasiko eqvsi wlis iyo. _ Cavawyve. ezoSi gogona Semovida. _ am diliT saxlidan xom ar gamogagdes? _ gaexumra bavSvs daria. _ dedam SemogiTvala, mawvnis deda mindao. _ axlave. oh, ra lamazi kaba gacvia? sad iyide? _ mamidaanT nato Zalom Camomitana._ saxlSi Sedioda, roca es sityvebi moesma. _ am fexsacmelma Tamilas ar argo da me maCuqes. qalma mzera uazrod fexsacmelze gadaitana. _ vin aris Tamila? _ bavSvuri miamitobiT ikiTxa vasikom _ nestor biZias Svilia. _ Semdeg Tavi aswia, aqeT-iqiT miixeda, xom aravin mismenso da dabali xmiT vasikos uCurCula: _ nestor biZiasi ki ara da... wuxel RamiT movismine, Tekla bicola dedaCems eCurCuleboda, gogonas mSoblebi daRupvia da samadlod nestori da nato zrdian. daria karebSi idga gafiTrebuli da enaWartala gogonas misCereboda. welmowyvetiT gamoutana mawvnis deda da gogonas miawoda. _ nela iare, ar gatexo! _ gaafrTxila dariam, roca bavSvi sirbiliT TavdaRmarTze daeSva. _ xom ar gezareba wasvla?_ SeekiTxa deda vasikos, Tumca icoda, uaryofiT pasuxs miiRebda.
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_ ara, deda. _ biWi mzad iyo. buTxuza saxeze wiTlad dabrawuli loyebi mouCanda. daria mergolurad muSaobda. dilis saqmes Cqarobda, rom kantoraSi gamocxadebuliyo da TavmjdomarisTvis ori dRis gaTavisufleba eTxova. _ kviras saxlSi iqneba?_ miaZaxa dedas. _ ara, is kvirasac kantoraSia. iqneb, gios ambavi gavigo. Tavmjdomare marTlac samuSao adgilze aRmoCnda. dariam roca Seityo, rom gios ambavi manac ar icoda, Sewuxda. _ bavSvs vagzavni. _ mogecada, marto ar gauSva. _ Tengizs gavayoleb. ukan dabrunebulma giorgaanT Tengizs gamouara. _ dRes ar midis. kviraa, raionSi aqvs saqme. _ gamosZaxa Tengizis colma. mze ukve amowveriliyo. saxlSi dabrunda daria. vasikos ukve gadaevlo pirveli aRmarTi. _ gaipara, gaipara, Torem marto rava gavuSvebdi. gamovudeqi da veRar davewie. _ uTxra moxucma dedam. patara vasikom imis SiSiT, rom ukan ar daebrunebiaT, sul sirbiliT airbina pirveli aRmarTi. kargad gaTenebuliyo, roca gaivaka. jayviT joxi gamoWra da gzas gaudga. gza xan marjvniv uxvevda, xan marcxniv da bavSvma verc ki SeamCnia, rogor SeefeTa cxenosan mamas. _ mama! _ daiyvira bavSvma. _ gamoipare? _ ara. dedam gamomgzavna. _ marto?_ ikiTxa mamam. _ ai, xom xedav. sadilic wamomaRebina. _ yoCaRi biWi xar! momeci xeli._ xeli gauwoda Svils da cxenze Semoisva. _ saxlSi unda davbrundeT? _ vedrebiT Sexeda biWunam. _ aba, rogor? _ me ki... mamas Seecoda Svili. cxeni ukan daabruna da fermisken gaaWena, magram bolomde ar misula, ise gamobrunda ukan. _ male Tu ar mivediT, deda idardebs. axla geyofa! TavdaRmarTSi CamoqveiTdnen. bavSvi xtunva-xtunviT miuZRoda cxens da mis mxedars. _ xedav am TavdaRmarTs?_ uceb Svils SeekiTxa mama. _ vxedav. mere?

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_ mere da mogwons? _ ratomac ara? _ udardelad ikiTxa bavSvma. _ ai, aq samanqano gza unda gakeTdes da manqanebma unda iaron! _ namdvilma manqanebma?_ ikiTxa bavSvma da ufskruls Caxeda. aq cxeni ver Cadis da... _ netav, vin iqneba is bednieri, pirvel manqanas rom amoiyvans aq?_ wamoiZaxa bavSvma. _ Sen, Sen iqnebi! vasiko Sedga. _ SegeSinda? mamam gaicina. gaicina Zlier da xmamaRla. mzis sxivebi aucimcimda kbilebSi. _ ara, ar SemSinebia. sicili zaris yru, mogugune xmam Seuwyvita. _ ra iyo? _ SvilisTvis undoda ekiTxa. bavSvi cxenze Sesva da nabijs auCqara. _ mama, zarebs ratom reken? usiamovno SegrZnebiT brundeboda gio ukan. _ mama, im aRmarTze aucileblad aviyvan manqanas, _ sofels miaxloebulma ase uTxra mamas Svilma. mama Svils daakvirda. Tvalebze urCi Tmebi CamoSloda ymawvils, dabrawul loyebze WinkebiviT esxdnen Tvalebi. giom gaiRima. sofelSi Camosulma saxlSi ar Seuxvia, cxeni WiSkarTan miaba. _ Tiva dauyare cxens! _ daubara bavSvs da soflis centrisken wavida. vasikom erTxans ezoSi iboriala. cxens Tiva misca. dedisa da bebiis gamoCenis eSinoda. mere qurdulad saxlSi Seipara, magram gakvirvebuli ukan gamobrunda. Sin aravin daxvda. Surduli aiRo da xtunva-xtunviT Tavqve daeSva. karga xania, zaris xma mimwydariyo. damunjebuli saxeebi ki civad Sehyurebdnen erTmaneTs. dariam maSin mohkra gios Tvali, roca radio mTavrobis gancxadebas gadmoscemda. qals mkvdris feri edo. tuCebmokumuli usmenda radios. gios yurebTan vasikos sityvebi dafrinavdnen. _ mama, im aRmarTze aucileblad aviyvan pirvel manqanas! _ sapnis buStebiviT gaskda da gaifanta sityvebi. giom Tvali Seaswro Tavis erTaderT Svils. is SurduliT xelSi natos win idga. daria Tvals ar aSorebda qmris xorblisfer saxes, romelsac sevdaSereuli Rimili gahkroda. maTi Tvalebi erTmaneTs Sexvdnen. giom is sevdanarevi Rimili dautova megzurad qals, rogorc siyvarulis RmerTi mis sulTan gadanaskvuli. arcerTi werili, arcerTi nugeSi... arc gmirobis ambavi ar
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mosvlia qals, ise dakarga sicocxleze da lamaz cxovrebaze Seyvarebuli vaJkaci qerCTan. magram darias swamda, rom is uTanasworo brZolaSi daiRupa. mis sawolTan ki darCa qmris axalgazrdobis suraTi, am ojaxis ufrosi rom unda yofiliyo. gios bevri ram hqonda gasakeTebeli soflisTvis. sabWos Tavmjdomared ocdaxuTi wlis asakSi airCies. soflis Svili da soflis Tavkaci iyo. adre Sewyvita fiqri yvelaferze. daria Tavis vaJiSvilTan erTad marto darCa. yovel diliT xels gaiSverda, civ minas Seexeboda da qalis suli siTboTi ivseboda. didi da amaRlebuli grZnoba eufleboda. am grZnobas saTuTad ufrTxildeboda. qmris omSi wasvlis Semdeg qali fermis gamged gauSves. maT sofelSi es iyo yvelaze mZime da pasuxismgebeli saqme. _ vasiko, Svilo, iqneb dRes moaTavoT Tivis aReba. xedav, Rrublebi ikvris mariamis mTaze. ar gagifuWoT najafi. mariamis mTaze Rrublis gamoCena anerviulebda qals. Znelia soflis xelmZRvaneloba, sakuTari guliT unda ataro Seni soflis yoveli satkivari. es marTlac gmirobaa. qals vasiko mudam gverdiT hyavda. ardadegebis periodSi Tavis tol biWTan erTad did saqmes ukeTebdnen kolmeurneobas Tivis damzadebis saqmeSi. _ sofelSi dariasTana Svili aravis gauzrdia. _ CurCulebdnen mezoblebi, roca pirtitvela ymawvils mxarze celgadadebuls dainaxavdnen xolme. adre davaJkacebul vasikos mainc SerCa bavSvuri saxe da miamiti gamoxedva. samanqano gzaze ukve didi xania, Tavi moeyara TiTqmis mTeli soflis axalgazrdobas. vasikosTan erTad jarSi midiodnen soflis biWebic. gogo-biWebs wre SeekraT da cekva gaemarTaT. deda-Svilis danaxvaze wridan gogona gamovarda da vasikos staca xeli da wreSi Seagdo. _ TbilisSi Tu aqauri cekva ar dagaviwyda da Tanac, Tu gvikadreb, Camouare. _ nu enaWartalob! _ gaexumra biWi. _ Turme Tamila hyvarebia. _ xmamaRla uCurCula erTma gogonam meores, roca dariam maT win Caiara. _ Tamila? vin Tamila? _ gaifiqra dariam. _ RmerTo Cemo! _ aRmoxda, roca vasikos toli gogonebis saxelebi CamoTvala da bolos natos Svilobilze SeCerda. _ nuTu is?_ Svils Sexeda. qals moeCvena, rom massa da mis Svils Soris uzarmazari ufskruli gawva. is aqeT darCa ganadgurebuli, vasiko ki iqiT,
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bednieri da kmayofili. _ daria deida. axla Sen icekve! _ deda, icekve! Svilis xaTriT xeli gaSala, magram Tavbru daesxa da Setortmanda. _ ra mogdis, deida daria? _ araferi. es albaT imis bralia, rom didi xania, ara micekvia. _ `ara, vasiko amas ar gaakeTebs. unda avuxsna, rom es ar SemiZlia~_ sulSeZruli brundeboda qali. dedam icis, rom Svili mudam xedavda mis mZime Sromas. icoda, ra mZime saqme iyo mTaSi daserili bilikebi, uzomod daRlili muxlebi, xelSi aRebuli najaxi da waldi, Ram-RamobiT Svilis sasTumalTan gatarebuli uZilo Rameebi da mamis tansacmlidan saTuTad Sekerili Sarvali da palto. _ RmerTo, mSvidobiT daabrune Cveni Svilebi! _ pirjvari gadaiwera da mdumared gaxeda soflisken amaval gzas.
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_ Sen darekav, Tu me?_ ikiTxa nodarma. _ me. _ aba, midi! vasikom xeli gauwoda. ezos siRrmeSi zaris xma gaisma. viRacam saxlis kari gaaWriala da WiSkrisken wamovida. _ vasiko? mobrZandiT! _ ikiTxa nestorma da stumrebs aivnisken gauZRva.kibis SuagulSi vasiko idga. _ Tmebi? _ SeekiTxa. _ davtove iq. _ sad? _ me mivdivar. _ hoo, kacma yvelaferi unda naxos, _ axla mixvda nestori. biWebi skamebze Camosxdnen. _ nardi Tu domino? _ nardi. _ upasuxa vasikom da TavlebiT moZebna nacnobi Rimili. _ nato megobar qalTan wavida. _ SeaSvela nestorma. magidaze sami Wiqa da koniakis boTli dado. _ igori? _ ikiTxa vasikom. _ institutSia. gvian brundeba. pirdapir kaTedraze datoves. _ Sens jarSi wasvlas da bednierad dabrunebas gaumarjos! nodarma saTvale Seiswora, cota mosva, magram nestorma daaZala. orivem Wiqebi bolomde gamocales. _ jer maisia, sicxe ki ukve daiwyo.
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_ sofelSi wadiT. iq iseTi sigrilea... _ albaT Segvagviandeba. igors saqmeebi aqvs. Tamilac avad gaxda. _ ra stkiva? sad aris? _ TiTqmis orivem erTad ikiTxes. _ Tavis oTaxSi wevs. gaval, Tu ar sZinavs da Tqveni naxva moundeba, dagiZaxebT. daZabuli mzeriT gaayoles biWebma Tvali. sunTqvaSekruli daelodnen nestoris gamoCenas. is male dabrunda da TamilasTan stumrebi miipatiJa. TiTqmis sirbiliT gaiWrnen biWebi. avadmyofis sawolamde ise swrafad mividnen, ar axsovT, ramdeni oTaxi gaiares. patara, magram gemovnebiT morTul oTaxSi rkinis erTi sawoli, sarke, ramdenime rbili skami da tansacmlis karada idga. mTel kedelze gakrul xaliCaze erTaderTi suraTi ekida. es Tamilas mama, feliqsi iyo, romelic nestorma specialurad gaakeTebina da oqrosfer CarCoSi Caasmevina. iqve, suraTis qveS feliqsis xanjali da Tofi ekida. iatakze ki iranuli xaliCa efina. biWebi aRmosavlur yaidaze mowyobil oTaxSi SesvlisTanave Sedgnen. _ SemodiT, ratom gaCerdiT? _ miipatiJa biWebi Tamilam da skamebisken miuTiTa. _ cota acivda da ai, xom xedavT... qaliSvils vardisferi saxe auatlasda. _ aba, biWebo, cota xans Tamila gaarTeT. me male davbrundebi. _ keTili, Zia nestor!_ miugo nodarma. nestori oTaxidan gavida. biWebma mis fexis xmas miayurades. roca mamakacis fexis xmam meore sarTulidan pirvelSi gadainacvla, ramdenime nabijiT datoves noxi da SvebiT amoisunTqes. _ me wignebs davxedav, _ Tvali Caukra vasikos nodarma. Tamilam gaiRima. _ midixar ?_ vasikos miubrunda gogona. _ mivdivar. _ werilebs momwer? _ yovel dRe. Sen? Sen pasuxs damibruneb? _ ra Tqma unda. vaJi wamodga. jibidan qarqaSiani patara xanjali amoiRo da Tamilas miawoda. _ Cvens ojaxSi mamiseuli arcerTi Zvirfasi samkauli ar mogvepoveba. arc me da arc dedaCemi arasdros vyofilvarT simdidriT ganebivrebuli. deda patiosani mSromeli qalia. es erTaderTi samkauli gvaqvs, romelic mamam omSi wasvlis win usaxsovra dedas, dedam ki me maCuqa. Tanac miTxra, sacolisTvis meCuqebina. Tamila,
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dRes Sen gaZlev am nivTs. ufleba gaqvs, damibruno igi. _ ra lamazia. Sexede am suraTs, is mamaCemia. is ki mamaCemis xanjalia. araferi iseTi ar gamaCnia qveynad, amaTze Zvirfasi rom iyos. gTxov, es patara xanjali mis gverdiT dakido. TvalisCiniviT gavufrTxildebi maT. nodari wigniT xelSi dabrunda Tamilas saZinebel oTaxSi. natoc dabrunebuliyo, TamilasTan Seixeda. stumrebs Tavazianad, magram civad miesalma. _ oh, CvenTan isev stumrebi yofilan. saSinlad daviRale. Tamila eqTani xom ar mosula? _ movida. _ ra dros Seni avadmyofoba iyo? mapatieT, biWebo, axlave moval. _ karTan Sedga,_ sofelSi xom kargad datoveT yvelaferi?.vidre pasuxs miiRebda, nato nodars miubrunda da daakvirda. _ bodiSi, genacvale, Cven xom ukve vicnobT erTmaneTs? nato qveviT Cavida. nestori taxtze iwva. _ Tu qali xar, eg bavSvi jarSi midis, iqneb rame mogemzadebina. natom warbi Sekra. mere viTom ar gamigoniao, sxva sakiTxze daiwyo laparaki. _ nestor, pirdapir giTxra, autaneli gaxdi. nuTu marto me virbino am bavSvisTvis. _ romeli bavSvisTvis? _ institutSi ufrosi mecnier muSakis adgili gaTavisuflebula. _ saidan gaige eg? _ gacxarda nestori. _ RmerTo Cemo, ra umaduri xar! ici Tu ara Sen, rom institutis kancelariaSi yvela gavicani da imaT damirekes. _ mere da, Cemgan ra ginda? _ aenTo kaci. _ ar gamagiJo. _ risTvis giJdebi? me vin mkiTxavs mecnier muSakebis saqmes? bolos da bolos, qvis mTleli biWebis ufrosi var. _ damarcvliT Tqva nestorma. wamodga, vazaze xili daawyo da zeviT avida. _ Tamilas dResac sicxe aqvs? _ CamosZaxa zevidan. _ ho, da axla magis dro iyo? _ ukmayofilod asZaxa zeviT mimaval qmars natom. _ bodiSi, biWebo, marto dagtoveT. Tamila ferze mogiyvaniaT. am zafxuls sofelSi wavalT da wiTeli vaSliviT gaxdeba. _ Tqven erTad swavlobT? _ ara, erTad vcxovrobT. Tamilam nodars Sexeda. _ universitetSi swavlobs. poetia. _ cota trabaxiT Tqva va- 88 -

sikom megobarze. ezoSi igori Semovida. nato Svils miegeba. _ stumrebi arian soflidan. Tu daRlili xar, aqve moisvene. saWiro ar aris, yvelas warudge. _ vin arian? _ vasiko da viRac misi megobari. ar maxsendeba saxeli. albaT, Cveneburi ar aris. _ axlave aval. _ ara ra, ver gaswavle Wkua. ra saWiroa maT eaxlo? me TviTon aval da aq Camovlen. Svili pasuxs ar dalodebia, momRimari saxiT warudga stumrebs da qveviT CamoipatiJa. _ igori movida, qveviT gelodebaT! biWebi wamodgnen, Tamilam moiwyina, magram sawinaaRmdegos Tqma ver gabeda. _ aq amosuliyo... _ nestorma cols uCurCula. _ xom xedav, Tamila gadaiRala. _ sityva gaawyvetina colma da iqauroba pirvelma datova. _ kargi, kargi, wavediT! _ nestori cols gahyva. Tamilas pirveli nodari gamoemSvidoba. marto darCenilma vasikos didxans ucqira, Semdeg Tvali aarida. vasikom karisken daixia, mere karebTan Sedga da swrafad Setrialda. vidre axalgazrdebi igors Sexvdebodnen, natom vasikos Cumad gadaulaparaka. _ igori gadaRlilia. aTasi rame SeuTavses institutSi, laparakiT nu gadaRliT. vasiko saxtad darCa. nodars karisken gabruneba undoda, magram momRimari igori ukve elodeboda maT. imis surviliT, rom momavali sasiZo gaecno, Tavs Zala daatana da vasikos ukan gahyva. _ modiT, modiT, genacvaleT, igori daRlilia, magram gamonaxavs dros TqvenTvis. vasiko ise moswons, xSirad igonebs. Tqveni saxeli, genacvale, rogor damaviwyda... _ nodari, qalbatono nato, nodari mqvia. _ e. i. Sofris diplomiT midixar jarSi? _ RimiliT SeekiTxa igori. _ saocrebaa. am msaxiob qals aseTi Svili? _ gaifiqra nodarma. _ nardi viTamaSoT, biWebo! _ nestorma nardi maTken moaCoCa. _ igors dasveneba unda. _ kidev Caeria nato. _ deda, nu Relav. am biWebTan Tavisuflad SeiZleba daisvenos kacma. mama Tqven iTamaSeT, me Tamilas movinaxuleb. _ Tamilas sZinavs, ra saWiroa iq asvla? _ gasZaxa natom. _ Tqven saidan xarT? _ axla nodars SeekiTxa igori. _ quTaisidan. universitetSi vswavlob.
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nato mTeli taniT misken Setrialda. _ didebulia! _ Cailaparaka, _ vasiko ar gepatieba, rom amden xans ar gviTxari es ambavi. Cven ki gvegona, rom isic SensaviT Soferi iyo. _ gana magaSi ra aris cudi? _ ikiTxa ukmayofilo igorma. nato mas aRar usmenda. jarasaviT datrialda da sufraze Tvalis daxamxamebaSi yvelaferi gaaCina. _ Senma poetobam Zalian gasWra, Torem isev sasadiloSi mogviwevda wasvla. _ icinoda vasiko, roca zurgCanTamokidebuli navTluRis sadgurisken midiodnen.
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`Cemo megobaro, sveta! ramdeni xania, ar minaxixar! saTvalavi ameria, imdeni Tve aRar momismenia Seni saubari, uangaro sicili da yvelaferi zedmetisgan Tavisufali cxovreba, magram mTel am dros iseTi SegrZneba maqvs, rom Sen Cems gverdiT xar da cxovrebas miadvileb. rogor minda, damibrundes is wlebi, Tavisufali studenturi cxovreba, qvabSi moCuxCuxe sadili da lodinad qceuli kuWebi. yvelaze cudia, dediserTa rom gaCndebi amqveyanaze. yvelaze didi ubedureba ki isaa, roca dedas avadmyofurad uyvarxar. mas surs, Cemgan kerpi Seqmnas. saocrebaa, saidan Caujda es matli. yvela wvrilmani aRelvebs, rac me xels miSlis. mikroskopSi surs gaaSuqos Cemi sulis yvela kunWuli. ver itans, Tu rames aRmoaCens sxvis sulSi Cemeuls. dedaCems gasaberi buSti vgonivar, amitom tenis masSi yvelafer saWiros da arasaWiros. ubedureba isaa, rom man ar icis bunebis kanoni, rom gasaber buSts aqvs Tavisi sididis zRvari, romlis Semdegac... dedam imdeni irbina, imdeni reka... Semdeg imaT arbenines, rekes da ise moxda, rom erT dRes ufros mecniermuSakad gamomacxades. amis miRweva mec ar gamiWirdeboda, magram yvelafers Tavisi dro aqvs. sveta, minda isic gagando, rom sacolec SemirCies. dedas Tavisi Sexedulebebi aqvs momaval sarZloze. gamudmebiT eZebda da ipova kidec. me ki Zalian mindoda, maswavlebeli gavmxdariyavi. Camenerga momavali TaobisTvis patiosnebis siyvaruli da SenTan erTad davlodebodi SeSis Rumelze moCuxCuxe ubralo sadils. `Seni igori!~ roca igori am werils werda, swamda, rom sveta upasuxod ar datovebda. sadRac gulis siRrmeSi kidev kiafobda imedi, magram bolos gabeda da TbilisSi svetas deidasTan mivida. _ oh, isev Sen? xom gaige bolosdabolos, rom sveta gaTxovda.
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_ doinjSemoyrilma svetas deidam uxeSad gamoistumra igori. welmowyvetili datova iqauroba da miendo Cveulebrivi cxovrebis dinebas. nato ki jarasaviT trialebda da Svilis momavals sWedda. nestor CikvilaZes arc ganaTleba hqonda da arc mis Tanamdebobas hqonda raime sazogadoebrivi wona, magram ramdenime adgilas hqonda cexi gaxsnili, romelic sxvadasxva feris marmarilos qvebs amzadebda sasaflaosTvis. didi Semosavali hqonda. uamravi damkveTi hyavda. Zlivs audioda saqonlis Semozidvas. nestorma kargad icoda, rom misi adgili myari ar iyo, rom TiToeul gaSavebul qvas safrTxe emuqreboda, magram mis sulSi erTxel Camjdari azri yvelaze mTavari gaxda. is ar erideboda saqmian risks, rom materialuri dovlaTiT Tavisi adgili enaxa sazogadoebaSi. nato sargeblobda nestoris saWiro adgiliT da cxovrebis gzas ukvalavda erTaderT Svils. _ dedaCemi iseTi mebrZolia, arc Tavis Tavs asvenebs da arc sxvebs. _ fiqrobda xSirad igori, magram erTxelac ar dausvams SekiTxva Tavis TavisTvis, saidan hqonda mis ojaxs amdeni Semosavali. mis irgvliv gamudmebiT mofusfuse deda da Zlieri mama Cveulebriv movlenad miaCnda. svetas deidisgan gamobrunebuli igori aRelvebuli dabrunda saxlSi. erTxans oTaxSi Caiketa, magram imdenad iyo mdgomareobidan gamosuli, gadawyvita, vinmesTvis guli gadaeSala. _ ras kiTxulob? _ SeekiTxa Tamilas, romelsac ise waadga Tavs, rom verc ki SeamCnia gogonam. _ vasikos werili miviRe. _ rogorc vamCnev, mis werils yoveldRe iReb. _ cota daeWvebiT ikiTxa igorma. _ masTan xom megobrob? es saidumlo Tu aris, nu metyvi. _kidev Seunacvla kiTxva igorma. da-Zmam ver SeamCnies, rogor miuaxlovdaT nato. _ xom ar uyvarxar? _ ikiTxa igorma RimiliT,_ is biWi me Zalian momwons. natom kopebi Seikra. pirdapir TamilasTan mivida da daurideblad gamoarTva werili. orive saxtad darCnen. natom kiTxva daiwyo. Tamila daibna. igors ki saxe auwiTlda. _ deda, es usamarTlobaa. eg werili xom SenTvis ar mouweriaT? igi Tamilas ekuTvnis. _ unda gaxsovdes, rom Tqvens bedze me vageb pasuxs da amitom yvelaferi me unda vicode._ ukanaskneli sityvebi imdenad xazgasmiT Tqva, rom igori mixvda, masac exeboda. natom kiTxva gaagrZela. is xan fiTrdeboda, xan wiTldeboda.
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roca kiTxva daasrula, qaRaldi TvalebTan miutana gogonas da zizRnarevi xmiT SeekiTxa. _ Turme, raSi yofila saqme, _ skamze Camojda. uyure im... _veraferi moigona, riTi Seemko vasiko. _ xelSi Canglis daWera ar icis normalurad da xedav, ra ufiqria?-xelebi muxlebze dairtya natom. _ risi imedi hqonda im xepres? Tu Senc?... natos sibrazisgan saxe aewva da gogonas moeCvena, rom mis win umSvenieresi gveli idga, romelic mzad iyo, yelSi swvdomoda da moexrCo. _ msgavsi ram ar momxdara. ras moveswari? _ Tvalebi zeviT aatriala natom._nuTu, ggonia, boslidan gamosul darias mZaxals davuZaxeb?-es sityvebi xmadabla Tqva, mxolod igorisa da Tamilas gasagonad. _ deda, ras ambob? _ uTxra igorma. _ iqneb miesalmebi am ambavs? iqneb Senc ginda, gverdiT moisva is sofleli biWi? _ vasiko visze naklebia? _ ikiTxa igorma. - an Cven saidan varT, Sua Tbilisidan?- moTminebadakarguli igori elvis siswrafiT saxlidan gaiWra. _ igor, Svilo, lukmas ver Cagadebineb pirSi, mogikvdes deda! _ nato sirbiliT Cavida ezoSi. ver daewia quCaSi gasul igors, romelic TavdaRmarTze Cqari nabijebiT midioda. ukan dabrunebuli nato TamilasTan mivida. gogona isev im mdgomareobaSi daxvda, rogorc datova. _ uWmeli wavida da es yvelaferi Seni bralia. ar gabedo dReis Semdeg, fostis yuTs miekaro! _muqariT uTxra natom. Tamila uxmod Camojda skamze, Tavi xelebSi Cargo da gairinda. natom telefonze dareka. qmari gamoiZaxa. _ nestori xar? _ ho, raSi metyoba?.. aba, ra viqnebi Tqvens xelSi.. adre modi. inezam dareka... misi dabadebis dRea... isinic mowveulni arian... aba, rogor sakomisioSi... Zviri, iafi ar iyo... magram es aucilebelia... oh, ra umaduri xar... me ki Sens avtoritets Sevalie mTeli sicocxle... _ natom yurmili dakida. _ sad wavida is biWi? netav, Tu dabrundeba nestoris mosvlamde? _ nato Camojda. daRlili sCanda. Tvalis upeebi CaSaveboda, Tumca mis Tvalebs ar dahkargvoda eSxi da Zveleburi energia. Tamila ise uxmod avida Tavis oTaxSi, natos arc ki SeumCnevia. _ is gogo mainc sad wavida?_ gaifiqra da dauZaxa: _ Tamila!
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Tamilam pasuxi ar gasca. nato zeviT avida. kari daketili daxvda. elda eca, SeeSinda. _ araferi autexos Tavs! _ gaifiqra uceb. _ Tamila, kari gaaRe! _ pasuxi isev ar iyo. karze ramdenimejer daabraxuna. _ Tamila, Svilo, kari gaaRe! _ pasuxi amjeradac rom ver miiRo, kibeebi Cairbina, mere gasaRebi amoitana da kari gaaRo. Tamila sawolze iwva, TvalebgaSterebuli Wers misCereboda. _ ra mogivida, geTayva? _ axla dabali kiloTi daiwyo laparaki._ gana, Sen ar unda icode, rom sofelSi mamaSeni ar gagaTxovebs? Tamilas adrindeli mdgomareoba ar Seucvlia. mxolod didi ironiiT Cailaparaka: _ mamaCemi... mamaCemi... da dayuCda. meti araferi uTqvams. natos gaaJrJola. am patara gogos bedi mis xelSi iyo. vasiko rom siZe gaxdeboda, arc amaSi epareboda eWvi, magram Tamilas sityvebi ,,mamaCemi... mamaCemi...~ nestoris misamarTiT namdvilad ar iyo naTqvami. Tamila iwva. mis Tavze feliqsis suraTi ekida. gogona mamis suraTs ar misCereboda, magram arc aravis uyurebda. gaognebuli iyo. nato yovelTvis fiqrobda, rom rodesme Tamilas winaSe is pasuxs agebda. am dRis moaxloebis Zalian eSinoda. Tumca isic icoda, rom iseTi umweo gogona, rogoric Tamila iyo, misTvis saSiSi moraluri mowinaaRmdege ar unda yofiliyo. miuxedavad amisa, sityva ,,mamaCemi~ Soreul Wrilobas uxsnida. Tamila Tavisi mdgomareobiT protests ucxadebda gamzrdels. _ Cven yovelTvis vcdilobdiT, kargi aRzrda mogveca SenTvis. amisTvis arc me da arc nestors Zal-Rone ar dagviSurebia. _ ukve veRar gabeda, nestorisTvis `mama~ ewodebina. _ Sen rom odesme im...- cudi sityva moadga enaze, magram Tavi Seikava, radgan Seatyo, gogonas Rawvebi aukankalda, _ ...soflelze ifiqro gaTxoveba, orives dagvasamareb. nuTu, ar gebralebi, Cemo gogona? Tamilas pasuxi araferze gaucia. _ kargi, erT dros SeiZleba daafaso Cemi rCeva. manamde bevri wyali Caivlis. axla ki Seni daxmareba mWideba. gogona isev ar ganZreula. mxolod Tvalebi azida zeviT da nato mixvda, rom usmenda. _ dRes Cemi igoris bedi wydeba. nakaSiZeebTan varT dapatiJebuli, igori ki arsad sCans. iqneb, gaiaro da monaxo ra. _ Senc xom wamoxval wveulebaze? _ sxvaTaSoris daumata natom.
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Tamilam icoda, raki natom `Senc~ Tqva, misi wayvana gegmaSi ar hqonda. sxva dros ise gaakeTebda, rogorc natos surda, magram `Senc~ sityvam am wuTSi ise gaabraza, TiTqos yvelaferi am sityvis brali yofiliyos. gadawyvita, wasuliyo da daswreboda nakaSiZeebTan gamoWedil igoris beds. _ wamoval, aucileblad wamoval, igoric modis? _ nato erTi wuTiT Secba da Tamilas meore protesti igrZno, Tumca dauTmo. _ aba, wamodeqi da moiyvane! _ esRa moaxerxa eTqva. Tamila ver gagcemdaT pasuxs, ratom moxda am wuTSi mis sulSi gardatexa. mas xom araviTar wveulebaSi ar surda wasvla. mxoloddamxolod erTi suli hqonda, Tavisi TvaliT enaxa da daswreboda im saaTs, roca am suliT iSviaTi adamianisaTvis momavali iWedeboda. sirbiliT Cairbina tramvais xazamde. didi dro ar iyo mas Semdeg gasuli, rac igori saxlidan gavida. _ `is aucileblad kioskTan SeCerdeboda, gazeTs SeiZenda, Semdeg skverSi mSvid adgilas mokalaTebuli kiTxvas daiwyebda~. _ fiqrobda Tamila. _ Tamila, sad garbixar? _ moesma SeSinebuli igoris xma. Tamila iseT mdgomareobaSi datova, rom misma danaxvam igori Seacbuna. mas gadawyvetili hqonda, rogorme natosa da Tamilas Soris gaCenili bzari raRaciT amoevso. _ Tamila, ra nakverCxaliviT gaqvs saxe? sad garbixar? _ SenTan igor, dedam gamomgzavna. _ SerigdiT? _ ki _ ra Tqma unda. gana, SenTvis dedas cudi unda? _ vici, igor, vici, arc SenTvis unda cudi. dRes nakaSiZeebTan vyofilvarT dapatiJebuli. _ rasTan dakavSirebiT? _ inezas dabadebis dRea. _ ar mogasveneben ra. me ki kinoSi mindoda gavla. Sen ginda wasvla? _ ra Tqma unda, igor. iq xom saucxoo sazogadoeba dagvxvdeba. brwyinvale, sadac arcerTi sofleli xepre ar iqneba mowveuli. maT xom uWirT Tavis daWera. _ nu Relav, Tamila. vasiko dabrundeba da yvelaferi ise iqneba, rogorc Sen ginda. _ magram Sen? _ me? saubedurod,dedaCemis erTaderTi Svili var. Tanac sveta gaTxovda.

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im saRamos greta misma kurselma biWma miacila saxlamde. Semodgoma idga, yviTeli da wiTeli foTlebi scvioda maT fexebTan. _ ese igi, gadawyvite, gaTxovde? _SeekiTxa vaJi qaliSvils. _ mgoni, asea. _ mas icnob? _ erTxel vnaxe. arc ki davlaparakebivar. _ ojaxis Seqmna ase iolad gadawyvite? _ ojaxi? ra mesaqmeba ojaxTan. im ojaxs Citis rZe ar aklia. _ mesmis, me ki megona.. mudam vfiqrobdi, maRali donis qaliSvili miyvarda. _ maRali donis maSin viqnebodi, Tu usaxlkaros gavyvebodi? _ daurideblad SeekiTxa vaJs. _ Sen Tbilisis iqiT saxli ar gwamda. _ kargi Carli. Cven megobrebi viyaviT da aseve davrCeT. _ didi SeRavaTia, magram sastiki. me ki SenTan molaparakeba mindoda. _ ra unda miTxra? me xom vici, ras metyvi? rom institutis friadosani xar, rom aucileblad institutSi darCebi, radgan Senze ukeTesi kandidati ar hyavT. rom win didi momavali gelis, magram es yvelaferi momavalSi iqneba. me ki, Cemo Carli, axla minda yvelaferi da sulac ar minda, didi CanTiT virbino bazarSi sursaTis SesaZenad. _ mesmis, mZRoliani manqana unda gemsaxurebodes. aseTi axalgazrda da lamazi xar. bolos gkiTxav... Sen mas uyvarxar? greta SekrTa. _ ar vici. gana saWiroa siyvaruli? Sen xom gindoda, bednieri vyofiliyavi yovelTvis?.. _ bednieri iyavi im avsil ojaxSi, greta? _ ar gamomSvidobebia, ise Seaqcia zurgi qals. _ `Carli kargi adamiania, magram Raribi~. _ xalisi mainc gaufuWda gretas. gunebagafuWebuli qaliSvili Tavis oTaxSi Caiketa, magram nakaSiZeebTan wasvla mainc gadawyvita. is iyo, sazeimod gamowyobil mSoblebTan erTad greta wasasvlelad moemzada, rom zaris xma gaisma. kari gretam gaaRo. _ nodar, Semodi! _ mgoni, sadRac midixarT. _ ki, mivdivarT! _ me didi xniT ar var. _daamSvida vaJma. _ nodar, madloba RmerTs! _ miegeba mama.

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mamam Svili gadakocna. sazeimod morTul dedinacvals xeli gauwoda, romlis TvalebSic im wuTSive waikiTxa: _ `axla Seni mosvlis dro iyo?~ arc wyenia da arc arafrad Caugdia es nodars. gretam kedelze dakidebul oqrosfercifrebian saaTs Sexeda. _ bebia avad yofila da Tqvens naxvas iTxovs. _ Tavdaxrilma uTxra mamas. _ es, rogor? nodarma mxrebi aiCeCa. _ xval me mivdivar. Tu wamoxval, gamogivli. _da fexi Seinacvla. mamis TvalebSi isev `ra dros misi avadmyofoba iyo~-dainaxa. _ bodiSi, mapatie, rom ramdenime wuTi wagarTviT. _ es ukve dedinacvlis misamarTiT Tqva nodarma da karebisken gadadga fexi. _ nodar, Senc wamodi Svilo, Cemi gretas megobris dabadebis dRea. dapatiJebuli varT. _ siamovnebiT wamovidodi, magram... _ gretas Sexeda. _ nodar, Zalian gTxov, wamodi! _Seexvewa greta. dedam gakvirvebiT Sexeda qaliSvils. aranakleb gakvirvebiT Sexeda nodarma das. vaJma pirvelad dainaxa, rom es Txovna gulwrfeli iyo. CarlisTan daSorebis Semdeg greta dabneuli iyo. misTvis mSoblebis Semdeg yvelaze axlobeli nodari aRmoCnda da amave dros, is mis mier gadadgmuli nabijis zusti Semfasebelic SeiZleba yofiliyo. nodarma ar icoda, rom im ojaxSi Sexvdeboda misTvis kargad nacnob adamianebs. dedinacvalma Cumad SeaTvaliera misi Cacmuloba, rac nodars ar gamohparvia. wveuleba, romelic nakaSiZeebTan Sedga, am ori ojaxis Sesaxvedrad iyo momzadebuli. miuxedavad imisa, rom sazeimo viTarebas araferi aklda, TavdaWerili TavazianobisaTvis aucilebeli Rimili da naZaladevi saubari uxerxul mdgomareobaSi ayenebda stumarmaspinZels. igori namdvilad ar moeloda amas. verc imas mixvda, rom es dabadebis dRe dedamisis dakveTiT moewyo. saxlSi dabrunebulma igrZno, rom gaabes. nakaSiZeebTan pirvelebi CikvilaZeebi gamocxaddnen. axalgazrdebi inezas umcrosi deidis, ledis gavlenis qveS aRmoCndnen. ledi TiTqmis inezas Tanatoli iyo. inezam stumrebi Tavis ubralo, magram gemovnebiT morTul oTaxSi SeipatiJa da
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xelovnebaze gauba saubari. qaliSvili xelovnebaTmcodneobis muzeumSi muSaobda. saucxood flobda sam ucxo enas. eweoda Tarjimnobas ucxoel turistebTan. _ es suraTi ucxoelma turistma mxatvarma misaxsovra. _ `deida ledi~, Tavis Tavs ase acnobs yvela saxlSi Semosul stumars._ gaicina inezam. _ mogwonT?_ SeekiTxa stumrebs, romelmac yuradReba ar miaqcia disSvilis dacinvas. _ mSvenieria._ uTxra igorma. _ me ki ar momwons. igori daibna. _ maS, ratom gaqvT gamofenasaviT gamokidebuli? _ ici, ratom? _ ledi adga, suraTi CamoiRo, meore mxares gadaabruna da igors miawoda. _ waikiTxeT! _ `qalbaton ledis! Tqven iseTi didi gancdiT, iseTi amaRlebuli grZnobiT gagvacaniT Tqveni eris istoria da kultura, rom TqvenTan ganSorebis Semdeg CemSi axali siyvaruli gaCnda. me Semiyvarda Tqveni samSoblo. n. riteri~ _ germanelia? _ ho, Tumca es araferi. _ erTma ingliselma mweralma ki iciT, ra uTxra? _saubarSi isev ineza CaerTo. _ Tqven unda axvideT msoflioSi yvelaze maRal mTaze da iqidan uamboT xalxs. ra Tqma unda, yvelas Tavis enaze unda uTxraT, rom arsebobs saqarTvelo. Tqven iseTi xma gaqvT, imden siyvaruls aqsovT sityvebSi, rom xalxi dagijerebT da aucileblad Seiyvareben Sens samSoblos. ineza Tamilas gverdiT dajda. mas uyvarda ledi deida, igi misi erTaderTi megobari iyo, visTanac Tavs Tavisuflad grZnobda. ledi aravisgan arafers iTxovda. misi navsayudeli iyo samsaxuri, wignebis kioski da saxli... bevrs mogzaurobda. movlili hqonda Cveni qveynis mravali istoriuli adgili. SeeZlo, ukanaskneli kapikebi daexarja wignis SesaZenad. yvelasTan uangarod megobrobda. Tavisi samyaro hqonda, romelic uzarmazari iyo Tavisi masStaburobiT. ojaxuri cxovrebiT gamowveuli wvrilmani sazrunavi, romlebic sxvebs anerviulebda, misTvis ar arsebobda. ar uyvarda, roca mis gverdiT TavgamodebiT saubrobdnen Cacmaze, avejze, sadilze... ubraloeba mis sidiadeSi iyo, xolo misi sidiade ubraloebaSi. awuxebda mravali saqveyno problemebi. is sisxlxorceulad iyo
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mijaWvuli im aucilebel sayrdenTan, romlis gareSec misTvis cxovreba ar arsebobda. surda, Tavisi upretenzio sicocxliT patara, magram aucilebeli Rvawli daedo samSoblosTvis. es iyo misi mTavari cxovrebis arsi. Tamila mojadoebuli misCereboda am saucxoo qaliSvils. Tavis sicocxleSi ekonomikuri cxovrebiT gamowveuli qedmaRluri trabaxi pirvelad ar esmoda. ar esmoda kuWze, Cacmaze, wveulebebze, im kabebze, romelic mudam pirvel salaparako Temad iyo qceuli natos ojaxSi. is pirvelad Sexvda didi idealebis matarebel qals, romelic ar ifargleboda araviTari qaluri kaprizebiT. is, rac man misgan gaigo, misTvis Soreuli da miuwvdomeli iyo. natosTan aRzrdili gogona SeiZleba kargi diasaxlisi yofiliyos da sxva araferi, imitom, rom misgan marto amas moiTxovdnen. Tamilam isic SeniSna, rom misi `yovlismcodne Zma Secbunebuli ijda ledis win da saubarSi Cabmas ver bedavda. zaris xma gaisma. sasurveli stumrebic movidnen. natos da nestors gaoceba gamoexata, roca axlad mosul daTunaSvilebis ojaxSi maTi nacnobi nodari dainaxes. ojaxis diasaxlisma stumrebi erTmaneTs gaacno. _ Cven saSualeba gvqonda, gavcnobodiT erTmaneTs, poeto nodar, magram ar mqonda pativi mcodnoda rom Tqven, aq aseT mdgomareobaSi SegxvdebodiT. Tqva nestorma. nodari uxerxulad SeiSmuSna. misTvis moulodneli iyo amgvari Sexvedra. naZaladevi RimiliT daajildova yvela. mezobel oTaxidan ineza gamovida. greta gadakocna da axalgazrdebi ledis oTaxSi Seiyvana. Tamilam sixaruliT Sehkivla, roca nodari dainaxa. momavali sarZlo ki civad gadakocna. _ gaicaniT, Cemi deidaa, saqarTvelos warsulze uzomod Seyvarebuli. mas SeuZlia dauRalavad gesaubroT Cveni eris kulturaze da saerTod imaze, rom mSveniereba Cveni qveynis iqiT ar arsebos. ase warudgina inezam Tavisi deida nodars. _ es ki poetia, universitetis studenti da mgoni isic deidaCemiviT Seyvarebulia `ca, firuz... _ mapatieT ineza, me mxolod sicocxleze var Seyvarebuli. _ saocrebaa! dabrZandiT! SesaniSnavia! saubari ufro gasagebi gaxdeba... ki, magram greta, ratom ar vicodi, rom Sen Zma gyavda da Tanac poeti? ikiTxa ledim. uxerxuli siCume Camovarda. Tamilam nodars Tavis gverdiT skami SesTavaza. _ Seni naxva mindoda, Tamila, vasikos werili miviRe. Seni ambavis gagebas iTxovs.
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Tamila SekrTa, naRvlianad igorisaken gaapara mzera da vaJs uCurCula. _ me sastikad amikrZales misi werilis miReba. _ es ki... raRac undoda eTqva, magram Tavi Seikava. ledim axalgazrdebi SeaTvaliera. mas Tavis wreSi mudam `Tavkacis adgili ekava jer skolaSi, Semdeg institutSi da bolos samsaxurSi. xSirad mimarTavdnen rCevisaTvis. mis sityvas Taviseburi, gansakuTrebuli gavlena hqonda. am saRamosac axalgazrdebi misi farTo fantaziis tyveobaSi aRmoCndnen. ledim gretas SemosvlisTanave SeamCnia dabneuloba. samagierod, igors eWira mSvidad Tavi. misi saxe bedTan Serigebuls hgavda. ineza iRimeboda da cdilobda, uxerxuli dabneuloba Seemsubuqebina. nodari saTvaleebis iqidan icqireboda da surda, TiToeulis sulier samyaros Caswvdomoda. mxolod Tamila iyo uCveulod aRgznebuli, saxeze odnavi siwiTle gadahkravda. Tvalebi raRacis molodinSi anTeboda, qveda yba odnav dagrZeleboda, rac mis sulier nerviulobaze miuTiTebda. ineza salaparakod moemzada. man ukve icoda, rac axalgazrdebs gaaxalisebda. _ erTi SekiTxva minda dagisvaT, Tu deida ledi uflebas momcems. Taviseburi gamomwvevi kiloTi daiwyo man. _ brZaneT! Seageba ledim. _ sad da rogor cxovrebas inatrebdiT qorwinebidan erTi Tvis manZilze. _ oh! SekiTxva didebulia! kidev undoda raimes Tqma, magram Seicada. nodarma saTqmeli bolosTvis Semoinaxa. _ pirveli vin upasuxebs? ikiTxa inezam. _ igor, Tqven TqviT, rogorc wlovanebiT da mdgomareobiT ufrosi. _ mee? _ gamoerkva igori. igors im wuTSive SeeZlo eTqva Tavisi ocnebebi ara marto qorwinebis pirvel TveSi, aramed mTeli cxovrebis manZilze. undoda, eTqva im spetak siyvarulze, rac aucilebeli iyo ojaxis Sesaqmnelad. Tvalwin daudga moskovSi gatarebuli studentobis periodis poeturi saRamoebi, magram ratomRac Tavi Seikava da swored am dRes dauSva Secdoma. roca es dRe warsulad iqca, xSirad ufiqria, sworad moiqca Tu ara, roca Tavisi gulisnadebi damala. iqneb sjobda, gretasTan am pirvel oficialur Sexvedrisas eTqvas simarTle, magram sul sxva ram Tqva. _ gaaCnia, rogori gemovnebis meuRle Semxvdeba! Zlivs amoiluRluRa kbilebidan da amjerad pirvelad Sexeda gretas TvalebSi. _ es Zalian kargia. Tqven mudam meuRlis damjeri qmari iqnebiT? gaicina inezam.
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_ axla am ojaxSi pirvelad mosul stumars, Tamilas mivceT SekiTxva. mtrediviT ratom ganabulxar da laparakSic ar erevi? Tamilas kidev ufro gausxivosnda Tvalebi. TiTi, romelzec dediseuli beWedi ekeTa, nikapTan miitana. _ netav, ra eRireba es beWedi? uCurCula gretam inezas Cumad. _ visxdeT da vuyuroT, Zalian kargad rom SeviswavloT ereTmaneTi. upasuxa mcire fiqris Semdeg Tamilam. _ es ki uTuod originaluria. _ dasZina ledim. _ Tqven ledi deida? aba, is uambe stumrebs, erTi vaJi rogor mogewona, xelovnebis muzeumSi daibare, TiToeul SedevrTan daayene da cda Cautare, rogor aRiqvamda misi saxe Sens mier mowonebul suraTebs. _ enaWartala! _ gaicina ledim. _ maSin, Sen ras ityvi greta? _ sazRvargareT memogzaura... _ nodar, Tqven? nodari dafiqrda. Semdeg kefa moifxana, saTvale Seiswora da daiwyo: _ Cemi azri Zalian primitiulia, iolia da ar dagaviwydeT, iafic. _ Tqvi. _ Cems sacoles yayaCosferi kaba unda ecvas, me dawinwkluli CiTis perangi. vinatrebdi, mziT ganaTebul tyis napirze mqonoda Cemive mowyobili qoxi. irgvliv bunebiT garSemortymuli vyofiliyavi, Tavisi mSvenieri musikiT da ganumeorebeli ferweriT. aseT adgilas yvelaze spetaki unda iyos siyvaruli. _ barem geTqva, yvavilebSi siyvaruli-Tqo. ixumra inezam. yvelam taSi Semohkra. mxolod ledi Sexvda gaCumebuli mis azrs. _ mTavari ki gamomrCa. myoloda sacole, romelic ar myavs... siciliT daumata nodarma. _ yvavilebSi siyvaruli... _ Cailaparaka ledim da nodars daakvirda. axalgazrdebTan marine Semovida da isini sufrasTan miipatiJa. _ dediko, Tqven, rogorc Cvens saubarze Semoswrebuls, gvipasuxe erT kiTxvaze... cxovreba rom xelmeored dagewyo, qorwinebis pirvel Tves sad gaatarebdi? marinem gaocebiT aswia warbebi zeviT, Semdeg warsuls gadaxeda da aSkarad daenana igi. _ Taflobis Tveze mekiTxebiT, ara? _gaiRima. _ mis gagrZelebas vinatrebdi.
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isev taSis xma gaisma. axalgazrdebi marines gahyvnen. atmosfero SedarebiT Semsubuqebuliyo, Tumca saubars mainc aklda Sinauri kilo. _ nodar, Cven, rogorc kargi nacnobebi, erTad davsxdeT! _dauZaxa nestorma da mis gverdiT mdgar skamze miuTiTa. axalgazrdebs uxerxuloba gadaedo, magram ledim ixsna isini am mdgomareobidan. _ inezas, rogorc Cans, wels gaTxoveba gadawyvetili aqvs. amitom dasva es kiTxva. igi Tqvens warsuls exeba. _ ra saWiroa amdeni Sesavali. mokled, TqviT deida ledi, vis sad surs gaataros Taflobis Tve, Tu cxovreba ganmeordeba TqvenTvis? nestorma da natom erTmaneTs gadaxedes. maT orivem igrZnes, ra uxerxuli kiTxvis adresatebi gaxdnen. nestorma xelebi moifSvnita. natos pirze gafenili Rimili erTi wuTiT SeukrTa, magram es yvelaferi erTi wuTiT moxda. nato Rirseulad iqceoda, radgan momaval moyvrebs ar daeZraxa da Tavic Sesabamisad eWira. _ nestor biZia, aba, Tqven brZaneT, rogorc yvelaze ufrosma... nestori wuTiT daibna, magram male moego gons. _ deida natos sTxoveT, aucileblad misi survili Cems survils daemTxveva. nato amas namdvilad ar moeloda. nestorma Tavi daiZvrina, magram ukan dasaxevi gza ar iyo. Tavs Zala daatana da warmosTqva. _ siamovnebiT gavimeorebdi nestorTan erTad im Taflobis Tves, romelic bedma cxovrebaSi mxolod erTxel marguna. _ netav, sad gaatareT? _ ikiTxa inezam. _ albaT, saidumloa. ar CagacivdebiT... _ batono niko... nodarma Tavi aswia, wveTebad Camosulma oflma gamoJona Sublze. _ dRevandel axalgazrdobas gacilebiT didi saSualeba gaqvT, SearCioT adgili TaflobisTvis gasatareblad. _ Tqva natom bolos. _ axla Sen, winadadebis avtoro! _ gretas am sityvebma deda pasuxisgan ixsna. _ mec SensaviT mogzaurobas vinatrebdi. mTeli saRamo nodari xan gretas misCereboda da xan natos. ukvirda, raRac msgavseba iyo maT Soris, magram zustad ra, ver mimxvdariyo. Tamila nodaris gverdiT ijda. man moaxerxa da nodars wasCurCula: _ miswere vasikos werili, rom Cemi werilebic Sen gamogigzavnos.
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_ kargi, magram meCveneba, rom Sen sicxe gaqvs. marTalia, xmamaRla gretas da igoris SeerTebaze aq sityva ar Tqmula, magram es wveuleba maTi erTmaneTisTvis wardgena iyo. Tu es Sexvedra SemTxveviT uaryofiTad damTavrdeboda, ise unda momxdariyo, rom arcerTi Seuracxyofili ar darCeniliyo. saxlSi dabrunebulebma igrZnes, rom igoris da gretas bedi gadawyda. _ is gogona mSvenieria, magram sazogadoebaSi gamousvleli. _es iyo pirveli, rac nikom Tqva, _ nodar, rogorc gavige, igi Seni nacnobi yofila. _ diax, mag ojaxi da TviTon is gogonac erTma Cemma megobarma gamacno. me masTan erTi weli daqiravebul binaSi vcxovrobdi. _ ukanaskneli sityvebi xazgasmiT Tqva. _ dedamTili, etyoba, Cinebuli ojaxis xelmZRvaneli iqneba, Tanac saocari silamazis iqneboda odesRac. _ uxerxuloba rom gaefanta, isev nikom daaxasiaTa momavali samZaxlo. _ es rogor? e.i. flobs im aucilebel iaraRs, romelic saWiroa miznis misaRwevad. dRes ki miznis miRweva xSirad faruli gziT warmoebs. Tqven eg gindodaT geTqvaT, ara? _ odnav ironiulad CaurTo nodarma. _ SeiZleba asec iyos. _ magram didi gaunaTlebelic iqneba. yvelam mas Sexeda. greta wamoenTo. _ sikvdilamde dauZinebeli mtrebi iqnebian. es aris, sxvadasxva jiSis qalebis bedi. _ gaifiqra nodarma, roca gretas xma moesma. _ deda, Sen SesaniSnavi alRo gaqvs. maT mravalricxovan oTaxebSi mxolod erTi wignis karadaa da masSi orad ori wigni devs. _ samagierod, kargi mzareuli iqneba! _ Tea Seecada natos Seqebas, Tumca sityva `mzareuli~ dacinviT Tqva. roca kerZebis gakeTebaze Camovarda saubari, maSinve gamoamJRavna es. _ mama ki, Tumca garegnulad Zlieri adamianis STabeWdilebas stovebs, mainc ojaxSi dedis gavlena igrZnoba. _ Tqva nikom. _ ras ityviT sasiZoze? _ uceb ikiTxa nodarma. sityva `sasiZo~ pirvelad iTqva. niko wamowiTlda. dedam da qaliSvilma erTmaneTs gadaxedes. _ sCans, ganaTlebuli da naswavlia. etyoba, zrdilobiania. _ Cailaparaka Team da qmars gadaxeda. _ Tumca xSirad wiTldeboda. es Cemi azriT, cota zedmetia. nikom saWirod aRar CaTvala raimes damateba. _ es imitom, rom jer mas adamianebTan urTierToba ar dasWirvebia. _dasZina nodarma, _ Tanac, Cemi azriT, gauWirdeba cxovreba. nodars aTvalwunebiT ki uyurebda dedinacvali, magram ratom- 102 -

Rac dRes savsebiT mniSvnelobas aniWebda mis sityvebs. _ Tqveni azriT, greta masTan bednieri iqneba? _ ra Tqma unda. igori, yvelafers rom Tavi davaneboT, kargi adamiania. arsebiTad, aseTive TaTbiri hqondaT nestor CikvilaZes Tavis ojaxSi. _ SesaniSnavi mama sCans niko. _Cailaparaka Tavisi maRali xmiT nestorma. _ gaaCnia, visTvis? _ swrafad gamoepasuxa igori, romelic gazeTs kiTxulobda da ise Tqva es sityvebi, Tavi zeviT ar auwevia. _ ho, mesmis, rogorc gavige, igi nodaris dedasTan daSorebuli yofila. Tumca es ar CaiTvleba misi cxovrebis minusad. SeiZleba, maTi daSorebis mizezi TviT nodaris deda iyo. _ ar dagaviwydeT, mama, rom profesor niko daTunaSvilis ufrosi vaJiSvili, kote, sabraldebo skamze zis ukve karga xania. is uniWieresi adamiani yofila da swored mamamisisgan misi mitoveba iyo kotes gzidan acdenis mizezi. nodari ki, universitetis warCinebuli studenti, mTeli sami welia, cxovrobs daqiravebul sakuWnaoSi, sadac aucilebeli cxovrebis araviTari pirobebi ar arsebobs. maSin, rodesac gretas ganebivrebuli kata movarayebul savarZelSi nebivrobs. _ gaisma Tamilas aRelvebuli xma da TviTonac gaukvirda, aseT viTarebaSi rogor gabeda, sawinaaRmdego azri gamoeTqva momavali moyvrebis mimarT. natom warbebi Sekra, TqmiT ki, araferi uTqvams. _ gretas dedas ki sufTa mtaceblis Tvalebi aqvs. _ TiTqos Tamilas sityvebs agrZelebso, igorma Cailaparaka, _ ver warmoidgenT, rogori TvalebiT misCereboda Tamilas beWeds. me Semrcxva mis magivrad. _ Cemi azriT, eg yvela qalis bunebaa. mocimcime nivTebi uyvarT. _ nestori kvlav Seecada dawyebuli saubris Serbilebas. _ ra warmodgena SegeqmnaT sarZloze? _ igorma Tavi aswia. dedas TvalebSi Sexeda da Tvali TvalSi gauyara. _ gretaze? _ ho, gretaze. _ ironiiT upasuxa vaJiSvilma. _ SesaniSnavi gogonaa, igor, nuTu misi dawuneba ginda? igorma erTxans uyura dedas, Semdeg gazeTis kiTxva gaagrZela. nato Svilisgan SekamaTebas eloda da pasuxs daeloda. igorma, TiTqos kamaTis survili dakargao, erTxans dumili arCia. gvian, roca ukve pasuxis imedi aRar hqonda, igorma gazeTi gverdiT gadado, taxts mieyrdno, Rrmad amoisunTqa da Zalian gulgrilad Cailaparka: _ deda, Tqven mudam cdilobdiT, damjeri da Tvinieri Svili vyofiliyavi. xSirad momismenia Seni trabaxiT warmoTqmuli
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sityvebi: `sad arian igorisTana Svilebi?~ minda gagimarTlo, es Sexeduleba Cemze. Tqven bevri matareT, Sesaferisi instituti rom damemTavrebina. Tqveni damsaxurebaa, ramdenime profesia rom SemicvaleT. amjerad, ra gaqvT Cafiqrebuli, jer ar vici. institutebi SemoiareT, Cemi Sesaferisi sacole rom genaxaT. mgoni, miageniT, magram ar inanoT. Tqven arasdros gifiqriaT Cems grZnobebze. meCveneba, imasac ki fiqrobT, batono deda, rom me grZnobebi sulac ar gamaCnia. Tumca unda gamogitydeT da saubedurod, guli gatkinoT. mTeli saRamo vijeqi vitrinaSi mdgari civi qalis gamosaxulebis win. misi Tvalebi ki iseTi iyo, rom axlac Jruanteli mivlis. _ ras ambob, Svilo. me SenTvis bedniereba minda. es isev im... _ deda geyofa, is ukve gaTxovda. _ aRar acala Svilma. natom SvebiT amoisunTqa. _ arafers vambob. me Seni damjeri Svili viyavi. amjeradac ase iqneba. _ adga, Tamilas gadaxeda. gaukvirda, misi aRgznebuli saxis danaxva. Sublze xeli daado. gogonas cxeli sunTqva SemoenTo. _ deda, Tamila avadaa!
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biWiko qamuSaZe da gigola aivazaSvili erTi ezos mezoblebi iyvnen. isini im quCaze cxovrobdnen, sadac nestor CikvilaZis orsarTuliani saxli idga. Tu biWiko Tavisi SromisunarianobiT da didi siyvaruliT aCuqurTmebda qvebs saflavebisTvis, samagierod, yvela saqonlis Semomtani gigola aivazaSvili iyo. amitom nestorisaTvis biWikoc da gigolac saWiro da aucilebeli adamianebi iyvnen. nestori xumrobiT ase ambobda: biWiko Cemi marjvena xelia, xolo gigola marcxena xelio. patara oroTaxiani bina biWiko qamuSaZem memkvidreobiT dedis mamisgan miiRo. moxucs sxva memkvidre ar hyavda. babuam qorwili samezoblo ezoSi gadauxada, radgan lotkineli biWebi mis patara or oTaxSi ver moTavsdebodnen. babuas sikvdilis Semdeg biWikom karga mozrdili sardafi gaakeTa, sadac biWikosTana axovani vaJkaci Zlivs Tavsdeboda. _ biWiko! xSirad ismoda mis karebTan megobrebis xma. _ Semodi, rava ucxosaviT yviri? vidre stumari mis viwro binaSi Semovidoda, biWiko sardafis karebs saswrafod aswevda, iataks sarecx joxs Seuyenebda, kuTxeSi midgmul saxeldaxelod Sekrul kibes sardafSi CauSvebda da saxlSi Semosul stumars sardafidan amosZaxebda: _ mand Slangi damrCa, Camomawode! Semdeg doqTan erTad amohyofda Tavs da amovidoda. Tu bavSvebi saxlSi iyvnen da coli warbSekvriT gadaxedavda
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dasalevad Semosul stumars, biWiko TiTs uTqmelad dauqnevda xolme da masac sardafSi Caiyvanda. _ aba, Cqara, sinaTle! TvaliT aniSnebda biWs. biWi sinaTles rTavda. moTminebadakarguli keso uxeSad, fexis kvriT iatakis sawmend joxs sardafis karebs aclida. dajaxunebis xma gaismoda, rasac kesos wyevlac erTvoda xolme dro da dro. _ keso, Zvirfaso! _ daSaqruli xmiT Tavs amoyofda biWiko da siciliT etyoda: _ Wiqebi da TefSebi xom unda mogeca? _ miitane, boWo! keso bavSvs gadasZaxebda. keso cudi stumarTmoyvare rodi iyo, magram biWiko qamuSaZes Zalian bevri megobari hyavda. biWiko ra biWiko iyo, rom samezoblo ezoSi Semosuli kacisTvis Tavisi sardafis daTvaliereba ar SeeTavazebina. _ aqa var, Cemo gvritebo! da mcire sardafic ivseboda misi `biWebiT~. _ dalieT, biWebo, mainc Tqveni dasalevia! ambobda biWiko da kokas meore koka misdevda. _ `SenTan moval, SenTan momixaria~ mReroda biWiko, drodadro Tavis dakemsil kibes SeanjRrevda, TiTqos simagres usinjavso. _ Cemo biWebo, yvela movkvdebiT, Senc, mec, isic. erT dRes miqel-gabrieli gamogviZaxebs da... ginda Tu ara, unda gahyve ukan, magram es icodeT, yvela CemTan moxvalT, me unda dagilocoT axali bina. _ nuRar amRerdi, dagvalevine! Semdeg kargad SezarxoSebuli stumrebi nel-nela amodiodnen sardafidan moqanave kibiT, romelsac zedmeti saxeli ,,bewvis xidi daarqves. Tu romelime zedmetad gadaTvreboda, biWiko isev damtkbari xmiT amosZaxebda cols: _ keso, geTayva, rogorme es mutruki aqedan amomaTrevine. _ CagiskdaT muceli! _ keso muxlebiT CaiCoqebda, mxrebSi Caavlebda xels, qvevidan biWiko miebjineboda da Tan iTvlida: _ erTi, ori, sami... ai, yoCaR! amoswie keso, Seni Wirime, Torem am sardafSi rom davtovoT, aucileblad filtvebis anTeba daemarTeba. _ gawyda Tqveni jiSi! isev iwyevleboda keso, magram energiulad eqaCeboda biWikos Zmakacs. _ visi, Wirime? _ yvela loTi calke kunZulze xarT gasasaxlebeli. ra gindaT Tqven xalxSi? amoyvanil stumars, romelsac arafris gageba aRar SeeZlo, iqve taxtTan miiyvandnen da daawvendnen.
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_ ar mogiklavs, Se, uRmerTo? ras erCodi am ubedurs? _ axla gaixade, loTebis RmerTo da daweqi, me ki waval da amis cols gavagebineb, rom aq agdia es oxeri. _ buzRuniT tovebda saxls keso. _ ai, amitom miyvarxar, Cemo keso! SezarxoSebuli biWiko colisaken gaiweoda. marjved moiSorebda keso qmris uadgilo mklavebis gaSlas da taxtisaken miuTiTebda. Semdeg mezoblisas gadavidoda, rom biWikos megobris colisaTvis qmris ambavi eTqva. gaTenebisas amdgari biWiko cariel taxts gadaxedavda da daiZaxebda: _ gaparula. SeeSinda, rom dRes uaresi ar mosvloda._ Semdeg samuSaod midioda. _ moxvedi? karebSi Seegebeboda nestori. ufross moswonda es uzomod patiosani adamiani. moswonda yvelafrisTvis, gansakuTrebiT im Tavisufali bunebisaTvis, riTac gamoirCeoda biWiko yvelasgan. moswonda dardimanduli cxovrebismoyvareobis gamoc. maT erTmaneTTan araviTari angariSsworeba ar akavSirebda. imas, rasac biWikos nestori aZlevda, Tavis Zma-biWebSi xarjavda. _ nawyeni iyo keso! sayvedurobda nestori. _ viTom? Seicxadebda xolme biWiko. mas didi iumoris grZnoba hqonda. _ sayveduri Tqva, qvis mTlels qvis sami safexuri ver gaukeTebiao. _ gavakeTeb, nestor biZia, magaze gawyenineb? _ Tu kaci xar, meored aRar Semaxsenebio. _ ras brZaneb nestor biZia! keso sanitrad muSaobda saavadmyofoSi. biWi meeqvse klaseli iyo, xolo gogona baRSi dahyavda. samsaxurSi mudam agvianebda stumrianobis gamo. dabrundeboda da, isev xvdeboda nasufrali, papirosis suni, kuTxeSi mibuzuli bavSvebi da miwis da cis sadRegrZeloebi... erTxel kesom mZinare qmari saxlSi gamoketa da sardafSi rom ar Casuliyo, sardafis karsac boqlomi daado. _ kidev mognaxaven? rogorc ki keso saxlidan gavida, biWiko Setrialda. ase iwva cota xans. maRviZara saaTma gaaRviZa. biWiko wamoxta, tansacmeli Caicva da karTan mivida. _ va, sad wavida am uTenia? karebze daabraxuna. _ etyoba, samsaxurSi wavida. albaT instiqturad daketa kari. ukan dabrunda da isev taxtze wamowva. axla SeamCnia, rom sardafsac boqlomi edo. _ uyure Sen, ra gaubedia? gaocebiT fexi wahkra sardafze
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dadebul boqloms. _ nestorTan uTenia unda mivsuliyavi. amas ra gaubednia? _ biWiko-o! _ moesma garedan _ `ar var saxlSi!~ _gaifiqra biWikom. `ar momeWreba Tavi, imaT Caketil saxlSi rom mnaxon?~ _ biWiko-o! _ kidev gaisma xma. biWiko kedlisken gadatrialda da mis yuramde meore xmamac moaRwia. _ samuSaod gauswria. xom xedav, kari daketilia. biWikos Tavi stkioda. wuxandel naqeifars Rvino ar gamohyoloda. fiqrobda, rom axla erTi Wiqa Rvino monaTlavda, magram sardafs boqlomi saguldagulod edo. _ daiRupe, saidan mogivida azrad Cemi dapatimreba? isev colze gabrazda. erTxans TiTiT haerSi figurebs xazavda. _ ra saSineleba iqneba patimroba? _ jvari aqaurobas, saidan momelanda? ezoSi manqana Semovida. biWiko wamodga da fanjris farda gaswia. _ Zlivs ar wavidnen? _ gaifiqra biWikom da farda myisve CamouSva. _ kargi dasaxleba gqondes, mezobelo! sacaa, coli Wkuaze SemiSala misma `kaikacobam~. ganjina gamoaRo, qilebi miswi-moswia. samezoblo ezoSi xalxi axmaurda. axla fardidan gaxeda biWikom ezos. biWiko qamuSaZe stumarTmoyvare kaci iyo, mis saxlSi yvela mezobeli iyo naqeifari. mezoblis stumrebic xSirad wvevian mis Raribul, magram alal sardafs. mxolod gogla avazaSvilTan ver daamyara mezobluri urTierToba. Tumca igi kedlis mezobeli iyo da erTadac muSaobdnen wlebis manZilze. _ waxede. waxede, imas! mudam amas CasZaxoda coli. _ kooperatiul saxls iSenebs, im gomuridanac male gamoZvreba. Sen, ki didxans iqnebi am saRoreSi. skami, skami ar gidgas saxlSi. skami mainc iyide, Seni msgavsi stumrebi rom dasxa! _ cota movisveneb, gigolas rom veRar davinaxavT! uceb arays mohkra Tvali biWikom. boTli magidaze dado. _ sicocxleSi martos erTi Wiqa ar damilevia. _ arayi WiqaSi Caasxa da dalia. _ uh, sul spirti ar aris? _ boTli xelSi Seatriala, _ netav, rodindeli gadamaluli aqvs? _ `ise, rom vTqvaT, araferi maqvs sasayveduro. didi Tadarigiani aris Cemi keso~. _ gaifiqra biWikom da skamze Camojda. magidaze mdgar sarkeSi Caixeda. oreuli uyurebda da Tvali Caukra. _ xom ar daberdi, biWiko? SeekiTxa Tavis Tavs.
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_ ara biWiko, jer ra dros Seni siberea? cota ar iyos Tavisi Tavi moewona. safeTqelTan Severcxlili Tmebi ufro vaJkacurs xdida mis axovan aRnagobas. aryis boTli sarkisa da biWikos Soris idga. boTlidan arayi macdurad iyureboda. biWikom Tavis Tavs gauRima. kidev Caukra Tvali, aryis WiqaSi arayi Caasxa, sarkeSi Wiqa Wiqas miujaxuna da Cailaparaka: _ Seni janmrTelobis iyos biWiko! da Wiqa dacala. TeTrma siTxem mTel sxeulSi Tbilad dauara da odnav SewiTlebulma Tavis Tavs gamomwvevad Sexeda. mesame Wiqa daasxa. _ Tu biWi xar, gamejibre biWiko. me biWiko ar merqvas, Tu Sen mag sarkis qveS, ar gagoravo! _ arayi sulmouTqmelad gadahkra da roca sarkes Sexeda, gadaixarxara. _ yoCaR, biWiko! Sen daZaleba ar gWirdeba. Wiqasac cariels vxedav. axla ki momwonxar, magram me mainc wagaqcev. _ SenTan movaaal... _ wamoiwyo simRera biWikom, - aba, bani biWiko..._ xeli gaswia da radio CarTo. Tanamedrove cekvebs ver itanda. _ netav, Tqveni Tavi ar damanaxa! sad gagonila kaco, simReris dros momRerali xtunaobdes? _zizRiT radio gamoTiSa. _ Sen, Cemo Zmao, ar moiwyino! - sarkeSi Caulaparaka Tavis Tavs. _ ar gabedo mowyena, Torem zurgiT CagaTrev ai, im quCaze da mTeli quCis biWebs Senze vaxarxareb. _ am WiqiT Cemo biWiko im xalxs gaumarjos, viRaceebis da raRaceebis rom ar eSiniaT, aravis winaSe rom ar aris mokuntulebi. samezoblo ezoSi gigolas mezoblebi exmarebodnen. manqanas tvirTavdnen. _ Sen, gigolas frCxiladac ar Rirxaro, ase CamZaxis Cemi kneina, magram axla imas hkiTxe? ramdenjer mosula CemTan da uTqvams, Sen yvelaze bednieri kaci xar amqveynado. es rom asea, me ki vici, magram kesos ver gavagebine. im sacodavs erTi Wiqa ar auwevia tol-sworebSi. gana ar aqvs? arc Zunwia. ubralod, ar scalia. ise aris dasaqmebuli amqveyniuri cxovrebiT, darbis, daxtis, dadis, eZebs... gagiJdeba kaci! netav, ras eZebs? Tavisi gziT gaumarjos masac... eZebos, ixtunaos. Tumca sul erTia, dadgeba dro da miqelgabrieli CemTan gamogzavnis registraciaSi gasatareblad. sarkidan ori biWiko Semoscqeroda. _ arc Sen agcdeba CemTan mosvla, miqel gabrieli Senzec da Cemzec Zlieria. Tumca erTxel unda vcado smaSi gajibreba. biWiko wamodga. _ meore biWiko saidan gaCnda? dabarbacda, sarkeSi TiTi dauqnia Tavis Tavs. wagaqcev, gajobeb! ezodan manqana gavida.
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_ wavida Cvengan mSromeli adamiani, rogorc keso brZanebs. fanjarasTan mivida da farda gaswia. _ wavidaaaa! motrialda, barbaciT mivida magidasTan da boTls Sexeda. carieli iyo. _ afsus, gigolas wasvlis sadRegrZelo rom ver Sevsvi? _ SenisTana bednieri kaci am qveyanaze ar dadis! _ moesma xma, ukan motrialda. aravin iyo. sarkes Sexeda. hoi, saocrebav, gigola misCereboda sarkidan. es sityvebic mas ekuTvnoda. Tumca zedmetad mTvrali iyo, mainc moagonda. erTxel gigola aivaziSvili gvian dabrunda mivlinebidan. cexSi marto biWiko daxvda. uRonod Camojda Soriaxlos da gulze xeli moikida. _ ra iyo, gigolas venacvale? _ guli mawuxebs. _ SenTan gulis tkivils ra unda? qariSxali xar, qariSxali. _ magia swored, guli rom mtkiva. _ araferia, yoCaRi kaci xar. Svilebi gzaze daayene. binas aSeneb! _ binas ki miviReb, magram... mgoni gulma Tavisi adgili dakarga. _ Tu RmerTi gwams? CaiRima biWikom da muSaoba ganagrZo. _ nu icini! biWiko mTvrali iyo, magram is dRe zustad aRidgina, Tumca ver gaarCia, axla movida gigola masTan, Tu maSin. sarkes Sexeda da gigolas daRrejili saxe dainaxa. _ nu icini biWiko. xeli gamoiwode da marjvena mkerdze damade. maSin mixvdebi, rom guli marcxniv ki ara, marjvniv midevs. gikvirs? Tumca SenTvis Zalian Znelia warmoidgino is oromtriali, rac am guls akisria. me im ubedur adamianTa ricxvs vekuTvni, vinc darbis, iparavs, atyuebs, Semdeg sxvebs urigebs, arigebs, rom masac darCes. hoda, Zalian gvian SevamCnie, rom guli saguledan amovardniliyo. pirvelad gulis muSaobis riTmi airia. Cemi sxeuli imdenad iyo dakavebuli, rom sad mecala gulis misaxedad? piriqiT, Cemi sxeuli, mudam iTxovda gulisagan morCilebas. erTxel saSinlad daRlilma sofelSi gaviare. saxlSi aravin iyo. RamisgaTeva momixda. magondeba, rogori mSvidi Rame iyo. mTvare Cems fanjaraSi ixedeboda, Crdili kedelTan irxeoda. romantikul bunebis adamians, am mSvid, wynar RameSi ramdeni lamazi fiqri mouvidoda, magram me verc lamaz Rames vxedavdi da miTumetes, lamazi fiqric ar dambadebia. Cemi Tavi gatenili iyo amqveyniuri aboboqrebuli azrebiT da saTuTi grZnobebisaTvis ar ecala. _ dag-dag-dag... momesma fanjridan.
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momeCvena, viRacam frTxilad Cauara fanjaras da karisaken gaemarTa. _ qurdia! wamoviwie da siaruli Sewyda. fanjridan gadavixede, aravin iyo. mxolod mTvare mocuravda xeebs Soris. davweqi. _ dag-dag, dag-dag... _ kidev gaisma fanjarasTan. _ vin eSmakia? kidev gavifiqre da isev vetake fanjaras. fanjaras akruli didxans vzveravdi, magram aravin gamoCenila. davweqi. isev gaisma xma. aviwie sawolidan da xma isev Sewyda. ase gagrZelda ramdenjerme. Zlivs mivxvdi, rom is Cemi areuli gulis xma iyo, magram maSin patara gulisaTvis ar mimixednia, radgan ufro didi, amqveyniuri saqmeebi mqonda mosagvarebeli. cota gvian, roca cxovrebis SuagulSi aRmovCndi, SevniSne erTi ram. Sen Cemo biWiko, arc daijereb, magram asea da unda giTxra, guli sul wasuliyo Cemgan. aba, avadmyofi gulis movlis dro sad mqonda? _ gagiJebulxar, ubeduro! wamoiZaxa biWikom da dabarbacda isev taxtze wamowva. _ gulis wasvla maSin SevamCnie, roca bina miviRe, magram ver gadavedi. gana imitom, rom keTilmowyobil binaSi Sesvla ar mindoda. mindoda, mindoda da Tanac, rogor, magram... pirveli sarTulis mcxovrebma lakwasmuli parketiani bina miiRes. sabednierod, lifti maSin ar muSaobda, roca komisia Sesamowmeblad movida. mecxre sarTuli Sori aRmoCnda asasvlelad da aqtic pirvel sarTulze TvalsaCino binaSi gaformda. saRamos mindoda, binaSi Suqi amenTo, magram nuras ukacravad... Cems gverdiT ori mezobeli cxovrobs, magram maTTan araviTari saqmiani, an mezobluri urTierToba ar damimyarebia. mxolod vesalmebi xolme. erT saRamos zaris xma gaisma. _ me Tqveni mezobeli var! momesma mamakacis xma da Cems saxlSi daupatiJebelad Semovida. CemTvis arc Semouxedavs, ise wavida abanosken. abanoSi Cemi coli wyals ikavebda. _ iciT Tu ara Tqven, rom wyali Camodis CemTan? _ Tqven Cems qveviT cxovrobT? mivxvdi bolos. _ Tqvenma wyalma pirdapir zala gadakveTa da saZinebel oTaxSi
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Camovida. gTxovT, CamoxvideT da naxoT! ra Tqma unda, Cavedi. erTi kviris Semdeg Cemi zala uares mdgomareobaSi iyo. amjerad me momixda zeviT aWra da ai, Cemo biWiko, ase da amrigad, iq mcxovrebma yvelam daangria aSenebuli bina da aaSena dangreuli. maT xom ar CamovrCebodi? biWiko gamofxizlda, sarkidan gigola gamqraliyo. _ ar Secde biWiko, patiosani Sromisgan oflis suni rom agdis, es yvelaze ukeTesia. karze viRacam daakakuna keso modgomoda karebs. biWikom Tavi moimZinara. _ kidev ar amdgara! - Cailaparaka Semosulma. magidaze daclili boTli aiRo da uynosa. _ es rogor momivida, sad davutove am mudregs? gakicxa Tavisi Tavi. biWikos marto daleva ar uyvarda. _ gigola iyo. gigola avaziSvili, imasTan vsvamdi. misken gadmotrialda biWiko. uceb saxlis win manqana gaCerda, ezoSi biWi Semovida da biWiko qamuSaZe ikiTxa. kesom gareT gaixeda da biWikos dabal xmaze naTqvami sityvebi moesma. _ nestor biZias cexi dauxures!
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nestor CikvilaZis binis gaCxreka natosTvis pirveli, magram sabediswero dartyma iyo. kidev kargi, im saSinel dRes igori TbilisSi ar iyo. Tamilas sanaxavad sanatoriumSi iyo wasuli. gogona sruliad moulodnelad tuberkulioziT daavadda. misma avadmyofobam ormagad SeaSfoTa ojaxi: jer TviT Tamilas bedma aaforiaqa da meore avadmyofobam. sxva ojaxis wevrebze rom ar gavrcelebuliyo es avadmyofoba, gogona xangrZlivad samkurnalod sanatoriumSi waiyvanes. _ mogikvdes deda, Cemo Svilo! gadayva im gogos... xSirad ukmayofilod uTqvams dedas. im dRes nato marto iyo, Tumca stumrebi arasdros aklda. arc axla gahkvirvebia, roca ezoSi ucxo mamakacebi Semovidnen. qalma CaaTvaliera isini, TiTqos surda gaego, ra xalxTan hqonda saqme. roca stumrebma Cxrekis orderi warudgines, qals feri ecvala, magram saqmis viTareba saswrafod gansazRvra da maT ise gauZRva win, TiTqos saxlis Cxreka masac hqonda davalebuli. natom Zvirfaseulobis gadamalva moaswro. meore diliT biWiko ufrosis ojaxs estumra. gaognda, roca
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nestoris dapatimreba auwya natom. saqmis ase Setrialeba RvTis risxvad CaTvala. gaognebuli nato erTbaSad daibna. qmris dakaveba, ojaxis ekonomikis Seryevas niSnavda, magram mTavari igoris momavali iyo. yvelaferi es aucileblad Seaferxebda Svilis winsvlas. nato gons rom movida, saqmis daxurva gadawyvita. amisTvis gadamaluli Zvirfaseuloba unda gamoeyenebina. im kviraSi gaqra nestor CikvilaZis binidan Zvirfasi xaliCebi da brolis surebi, vercxliT moWedili WurWeli da oqrouloba. natom Tavis nacnobebSi SeZlo enaxa adamianebi, vinc saqmis viTareba Semoabruna da nestori patimrobas aacila. natom ise moagvara yvelaferi, rom Tavisi ojaxis krizisSi igoric ki ar Caaxeda. kidev metic, Tavisi SezRuduli gonebis karnaxiT dedamTilma igorisa da gretas niSnoba umaRles doneze moawyo, xolo maTma qorwilma da saqorwino mogzaurobam karga xniT valSi Caagdo. mogzaurobidan dabrunebulma axalgazrdebma TiTqmis myudro bednieri cxovreba daiwyes. mxolod nato iyo mousvenrad. aRebuli vali, giraoSi gayiduli saxlis pirveli sarTuli, nestoris ubralo samuSao, profesoris qaliSvili rZlad da mis winaSe TiTiswverebze cekva SerCa samudamod. _ igor, im karadaSi Cinuri faifuri davinaxe. netav sad waiReT? ikiTxa gretam, roca dReebma gaiares da cxovrebam saRi azrovneba daubruna. _ Cinuri? ho, mgoni ewyo aq raRac Cais lambaqebi. Cinuri Tu iyo, arc ki vicodi. dedas SeekiTxe. SesaZloa sxvagan gadaawyo. igorma gulgrilad gasca am SekiTxvas pasuxi. _ am magidaze ki iaponuri brolis kalaTa ido, Zalian kargad maxsovs. swored am kalaTiT natalia dimitrevnam me da inezas marokos mandarini SemogvTavaza. _ xmadabla Cailaparaka kvlav gretam. _ `saocrebaa, arc es WaRi ekida!~ aTvaliswunebiT Sexeda WaRs da axla ukve TavisTvis gaifiqra rZalma. _ greta, Svilo! CamodiT, isadileT, Semdeg qalaqgareT gaiseirneT. xom xedavT, ra sicxea! natom raki pasuxi ver miiRo, zeviT avida. dedamTils avad eniSna rZlis WurWlis karadasTan triali. _ wamodiT, isadileT! _ natalia dimitrevna, aq rom vaza ido... natos guli SeekumSa. man usityvod Sexeda civ, TeTri qvisagan gamokveTil qals. `natalia dimitrevna am sityvebiT pirveli ufskruli gaCnda maT Soris. qalma, romelsac sasoebiT eloda, romelic ocnebiT uyvarda, rogorc sayvareli Svilis coli, imis Rirsadac ar
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gaxada, rom misTvis deda ewodebina. `natalia dimitrevna am sityvebiT man igrZno, rom igoris colma masTan damamcirebeli brZola daiwyo. igrZno, rom is nanatri ocneba, rZalTan deda-Svilobis grZnoba gaCeniliyo, pirveli dRidanve gaqra. _ Cexuri sayvavile ki swored am adgilze ido. kvlav aTvalierebda karadas greta. nato gamoerkva. igi mixvda, rom rZali pasuxs eloda. marTalia, greta amas aqtiurad ar gamoxatavda, magram dadgeboda dro, roca amisTvis pasuxs mosTxovda. natos arcerTi saswavlebeli ar hqonda damTavrebuli, magram win gaxedvis saocari unari aRmoaCnda. mis sulSi pirvelobis survili Zval-rbilSi iyo gamjdari. xatze salocavi SvilisTvis ar dauTmia igi da ra gasakviria, Tu rZals, romelmac ukve barieri aRmarTa, sicocxlis fasad win ar gauSvebda. _ qorwilze bevri xalxi trialebda. naTesavTan Sevinaxe... _ qorwili? raxani gavida mas Semdeg. movitanoT! _ jer-jerobiT iyos. isadilebT? _ ukve Svils SeekiTxa nato. _ raki qalaqgareT gaviseirnebT, restoranSi visadilebT. ara, igor?_ warmoTqva rZalma. vaJi ise daeTanxma colis winadadebas, rom dedisTvis arc ki Seuxedavs. _ rogorc Sen ginda! _ da kvlav gazeTis kiTxva gaagZela. natom igrZno, rom dRes rZalma ajoba, magram far-xmali mainc ar dayara da gadawyvita, riTime gadaexada rZlisTvis. _ Tamila sanaxavia! _ viTom sxvaTaSoris Seaxsena Svils. _ roca ojaxSi broli ar aris, ase mgonia, sicivea. _ kvlav Cailaparaka rZalma. igorma gazeTidan Tavi aiRo da gretas Sexeda. _ xom ar ajobebda, dedaCemis winadadeba migveRo. Tanac, Sen ar ginaxavs Tamila. _ dRes? _ ho, ra Tqma unda, Tu Seni survili iqneba... saxealewili nato TandaTan damSvidda. igors siyvaruliT Sexeda da rZals gadaulaparaka: _ igorisTana adamianebi iSviaTad ibadebian. _ es sityvebi TiTis daqnevasaviT gaisma gretas yurebTan, Tumca natos saxeze Rimili iyo gadafenili. dro gadioda. nato TandaTan valebSi efloboda. nestoris xelfasi ar hyofnidaT, magram Svils umalavda ekonomikur kriziss. rZals ki ise aCvenebda Tavs, TiTqos yovlisSemZle iyo. Tamilas xangrZlivi mkurnaloba sWirdeboda. nodaris mier gadmocemul vasikos werilebs baliSis qves inaxavda da esiyvaruleboda.
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nestors gulis Setevebi daewyo. xSirad avadmyofobda. erTxel nestori cudad gaxda. rZali samsaxuridan axali dabrunebuli iyo. _ nestor grigoreviC, ra mogivida? - Taviseburi civi, odnav daRlili xmiT SeekiTxa rZali. _ araferia, Svilo, gamivlis. _ da Tvali aarida rZals. _ natalia dimitrevna, nestor grigoreviCi, mgoni, cudad aris. ra gavukeTo? _ natom warbebi usiamovnod SeWmuxna da gretas miubrunda. _ moisvene, Svilo. grigoreviCs me ukeT mivxedav. _ TviTonac mware dacinviT qmari mamis saxeliT axsena. _ saRamos megobris dedis panaSvidze unda wavsuliyavi, igori ki arsad Cans. _ ukmayofilod Tqva gretam da oTaxidan gavida. natom yrud amoioxra. meuRles gverdiT Camoujda da fiqrs mieca. _ nestor, es wveTebi dalie! roca fiqrebidan gamoerkva, qmars gulis wveTebi SesTavaza. _ viTom gamivlis? - ikiTxa kacma da Wiqa, romelic colma miawoda, xelSi SeaTamaSa. maTTan isev greta Semovida. Tmebi wesrigSi moeyvana. _ komisionSi franguli sadilis servisi iyideba. Wkua davkarge, iseTi lamazi iyo. col-qmarma erTmaneTs Sexedes. _ nacnobma ebraelma noxi maCvena. Cems Tvalebs aseTi jer araferi daunaxavs. xelSi SerCenili WiqiT nestorma wveTebi saswrafod gadaylapa. _ nestor grigoreviC, gulis Semotevam gagiara? mamamTilis win SeCerda. _ gamiara. ra Tqma unda, gamiara. wamoiwia, Tavs Zala daatana da wamodga. _ gaviseirneb. ezoSi igori Semovida. _ igor, moxvedi? fanjridan gadasZaxa colma, panaSvidze magviandeba. Sen ki dRes Segagvianda. _ panaSvidze? sad? _ wuxel xom giTxari? nestori colis gverdze Camojda. nato nerviulad iatakze fexs urtyamda. nestorma papiross moukida da sresa dauwyo. _ mapatie, sul damaviwyda. greta saswrafod Sevarda saZinebel oTaxSi da vidre igori abazanaSi iyo, moaswro da gamowyobili gamovida. rZals dekoltirebul kabaSi TeTri yeli broliviT mouCanda.
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_ ase swrafad? gauRima igorma. _ Cqara, Cqara, Torem veRar movaswrebT. igori daRlili sCanda _ saWmeli WameT, Svilebo! _ oh, ara. albaT, Cveni TanamSromlebi didi xania melodebian. _ igors xelkavi gaukeTa da kibeebze daeSvnen. nestorma da natom usityvod Sexedes erTmaneTs. qmarma dasresili papirosi fanjaraSi isrola. _ mogikvdes deda. albaT Zalian Sioda! Cailaparaka qalma da xeli Caiqnia, icekve axla mis winaSe... _ ai, Seni profesoris qaliSvili! niSnis mogebiT Seepasuxa nestori. meore dResve, rogorc ki qmris xelfasi dainaxa, gretam mTlianad gamoarTva. komisionSi gaiqca da franguli WurWeli moitana. _ natalia dimitrevna, roca naTesavisagan im WurWels moitan, ai, im karadaSi davawyobT. es fardebic ar momwons SuSabandSi. imave saRamos igori dedas udardelad miadga da saxarjo fuli sTxova. dedam nestoris xelfasi Suaze gauyo da Svils misca. ase daiwyo ojaxSi xangrZlivi ekonomiuri brZola. igori bavSobidan uzrunvelad izrdeboda. mas ar awuxebda fulis problema, Tavisufali iyo yovelgvari ojaxuri wvrilmanisgan. fulis Sesaxeb mSoblebi masTan arasodes laparakobdnen. greta am ojaxSi siyvaruliT ar Semosula. mas igori gauriges. fufunebas miCveul profesoris qaliSvils pirveli dRidanve ecotava is ekonomika, romelic mas ojaxSi daxvda. man ar icoda nestoris Cavardna da eWvi daebada dedamTilis mimarT. _ igor! Sen ar ici, ramdeni fuli aqvs nestor grigoreviCs? alali bunebis iyo igori. is ver mixvda, ratom ekiTxeboda greta da ubralod uTxra: _ me arasdros mikiTxia, Tu ginda Sen SeekiTxe! _ Cemgan uxerxulia, igor. _ ratom? _ hm! mxrebi aiCeCa da gakvirvebiT Sexeda qmars im TvaliT, TiTqos eubneboda, sircxvilia, amdeni rom ar gesmiso. natom TandaTan Sewyvita stumrebis miReba, TviTonac iSviaTad Cndeboda gareT. darCenili oqro mTlianad rZals Caabara. _ es TxuTmetiaTasiani gulsabnevia, Sexede, rogor brwyinavs. nestorma SuaaziaSi erTi vaWrisgan SeiZina. es beWedi xeluxlebelia. astraxanSi iyida. es zurmuxtisTvliani sayureebi megobarma usaxsovra. axla sadRa naxav maseT naRdTvlian samkaulebs. _ albaT maSin Zalian cota dagijdaT! Seageba rZalma. dedamTilma uTqmelad simwriT enaze ikbina. _ maSin fuli fulobda.
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rogorc ki natos Semosavlis wyaro Seumcirda, igi Znelad, magram garegnulad Seegua Tavis xvedrs. mis winaSe mainc idga erTi sakiTxi _ Svilis kariera. rZlis winaSe gauTavebeli komedia yelSi amouvida. ekonomikurma sisustem nato moToka, magram mis sulSi mainc ver Cahkla is mediduroba, rac am qalSi Tandayolili iyo. sikvdilamde mis suls dapatronebuli hyavda ori, urTierTsawinaaRmdego grZnoba. natoSi ijda ori adamiani da erTmaneTs gabudmebiT ebrZodnen. iyo keTili, magram misTvis sasargeblo pirobebSi SeiZleba Caedina boroteba; iyo xelgaSlili, sadac Tavi unda gamoeCina, magram uaRresad xelmomWirne, roca xelgaSliloba ar sWirdeboda; iyo mSromeli, SeeZlo fexiswverebze mdgariyo da ojaxi wesrigSi hqonoda, magram sakmarisi iyo mis ojaxs Tundac erTi stumari Semateboda, im wuTSive usaqmurisTvis damaxasiaTebel saxes miiRebda. axlo naTesavs aiZulebda stumris dasanaxad mis win ise etriala, rogorc xelze mosamsaxures, mTel qveynierebas dagimtkicebda da rogorc ki gaSordebodi, yvelaferi aviwydeboda. naTesavebs uyvardaT, naTesavebic uyvarda, romelTa ubedurebasac gulis siRrmemde ganicdida, magram sakmarisi iyo, vinmem ,,pirvelqalobaSi gaeswro, rom misi dauZinebeli mteri Seiqneboda.maSinac ki roca mis ojaxs finansurad frTebi Seemsxvra da veRar ,,pirvelqalobda, nato garegnulad mainc inarCunebda Zvel saxes. mas siamovnebda, roca xelSi SesCerebodnen. Wkviani qalis saxeliT sargeblobda, Tumca Tavisi uWkuo qmedebiT sakuTar Tavsac didi veraferi misca. miuxedavad imisa, rom greta misi amorCeuli sarZlo iyo da sakmao safuZveli hqonda angariSi gaewia misTvis, misi ojaxis warmomavlobisa da ganaTlebisaTvis, magram, roca misi saTayvanebeli vaJiSvilis meuRlisagan gacveTili mimarTva `natalia dimitrevna moismina, gadawyvita ar daeTmo misTvis. mogvianebiT ki, roca yovelgvari xaTris gareSe mamamTils `nestor grigoreviCi uwoda, rZali WiriviT SeiZula.
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ori wlis mkurnalobis Semdeg Tamila mTlianad ganikurna. sanatoriumis mTavarma eqimma erTxel kidev guldasmiT gasinja da saxlSi gawera. _ Tamunia, Sen iseTi yoCaRi gogo aRmoCndi, rom avadmyofobis araviTari kvali aRar gaqvs. SegiZlia iswavlo, ojaxi Seqmna da TmaxuWuWa biWebi gazardo. gaexumra eqimi da mamaSvilurad Tmebze xeli gadausva. Tamilam depeSa afrina saxlSi. im zafxuls igori da greta zRvaze isvenebdnen. nestori
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avadmyofobda. natom gadawyvita, nodarisaTvis eTxova Tamilas Camoyvana. nato isev qmris sawolze Camojda da Soridan daiwyo saTqmelis Tqma. _ netav, saxlSi iyvnen. gretas gavayolebdi, gaigebda eqimisgan... _ Camova da aq gavigebT. gana, avadmyofs saxlSi gamouSvebdnen? _ nodarTan davrekav. _ kargia, nodari ar dagvzardeba. _ greta rom iyos? _ iyos, mere? natom Tavi Seikava. risi Tqmac surda, ver Tqva, qmris moerida, Tu Tavisi Tavis Sercxva, ver getyviT. qmars simarTle ver gaumxila. saqme ki SemdegSi iyo: dedamTili Seecada mdgomareoba rogorme Seerbilebia rZalTan. Svilis karierisTvis meocnebe natos ar surda mtruli ganwyobileba hqonoda profesoris qaliSvilTan. erTxel dedamTilma gadawyvita, Tavisi ekonomikuri gasaWiri gaendo rZlisTvis, Tanac SesTxova, rom igorisTvis ar eTqva. _ styuis! erTaderTi azri, rac daebada rZals, es iyo, magram Tavi ise moaCvena, TiTqos Seebrala dedamTili. Tumca bolomde ver dafara Tavisi guliswyroma da Seecada, misTvis ekbina. _ ase ukuRma Semosul simdidres myari safuZveli ar aqvs! _ Zalian gulgrili toniT Cailaparaka da roca gareT gadioda, daumata: _ yovelTvis veridebodi Sav saqmianobasTan kavSirs da mainc... nakverCxaliviT aenTo dedamTili. marto satana Tu etyoda am dros am sityvebs, tuCze ikbina, magram gvian iyo. naTqvami ukan veRar waiRo. ojaxSi mdgomareoba daiZaba. Svilis bedze meocnebe deda, SiSiT Sescqeroda rZlis gaqvavebul saxes. _ mogikvdes deda, vis xelSi Cagagde! gretam erTxel inaxula Tamila sanatoriumSi da Semdeg mTeli sicocxle inana, ratom gaakeTa ase. saxlSi dabrunebuli oTaxSi Caiketa da didxans ar gamosula iqidan. natom yuri mohkra, rogor ebuzRuneboda qmars vaxSmis dros. _ igor! gana aucilebelia, rom mis pirispir ijde da... aRar daamTavra saTqmeli gretam, _ rogor axvelebda is qaliSvili, mis pirdapir rom iwva. cotac da mec daviwyebdi xvelebas. _ eqimma Zalian damamSvida.
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_ ratomRac meeWveba saerTod masTan kontaqti SeiZlebodes. nato gaqvavebuli usmenda rZlis msjelobas. _ natalia dimitrevna, ise ki ajobebs, TamilasaTvis oTaxi qveda sarTulze SegverCia. erTi mdgmuri rom dagveTxova? _ ra suleluri azrebi mogdis? aenTo igori. _ amiT SeiZleba uaresi gaukeTo TviT Tamilas organizms. _ samagierod, Cven dazRveuli viqnebiT! yovelive amis Semdeg natalia dimitrevna SiSiT eloda Tamilas sanatoriumidan dabrunebas. telefonis zaris xma gaisma. _ romeli xar? ah, gamarjoba... karg dros dareke. saTxovari maqvs SenTan, Svilo! Tamila gamouweriaT. igori saxlSi ar aris, nestoric wevs, iqneb Sen damdo pativi da Camoiyvano. aq gamoiare, tansacmels gagayoleb. natom TamilasTan gasagzavni yvela saWiro nivTi patara CanTaSi Caawyo da roca nodari taqsiT movida, mzad daxvda. natos moswonda gretas Zma. miuxedavad imisa, rom mas uproporcio kidurebi da beci Tvalebi hqonda, Tanac qanav-qanaviT siaruli icoda. _ nodar, SviliviT gendobi! gaisma misi aRelvebuli xma,_ ar Tqva, rom es me gTxove. daarige... nodarim saTvale Seiswora, gakvirvebulma natos Sexeda. misma gamometyvelebam SeaZrwuna vaJi. _ gretas sTxove, auxseni. gvirCevs, rom misi oTaxi qveda sarTulze gadavitanoT. es rogor SemiZlia? me Tamilas mSoblebis Svils rogor vakadro. Tanac es xom gaanadgurebs gogonas? nodaris sircxvilisgan saxe aewva. qudi, romelic xelSi eWira, daWmuWna. qalis daulagebelma saubarma sulis siRrmemde SesZra misi faqizi suli. _ gamovivli, deida nato, aucileblad gamovivli, roca isini Camovlen. nodari ezodan gavida. moxda ise, rom vidre nodari Tamilas Camoiyvanda, greta da igori ukve dabrundnen. _ natalia dimitrevna. iqneb mogvewyo ise, rom... _ ra? gakvirvebiT ikiTxa igorma. oTaxSi nestori Semovida. mas gulze xeli ekida. _ ratom adeqi, nestor! Seicxada natom da savarZeli miuwia. _ igor, nu xar suleli! mamamTilisaTvis arc Seuxednia, ise gaagrZela rZalma, Tamila qveda sarTulze icxovrebs. nestorma amoioxra. sCans, mamamTili amgvar gancxadebas ukve eloda. natalia dimitrevnam Svils Sexeda. igorma jer cols Sexeda, Semdeg dedas. _ ver gavige...
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_ saSiSia. _ ra? _ ra da, erTad xom ar ginda visadiloT kidec? _ kidev ras gvTxov, Cveno rZalo? garegnuli simSvidiT da Sinagani aRgznebiT SeekiTxa mamamTili. _ ras? mas yuradReba ar miuqcevia, rogor Seecvala feri mamamTils.WurWlis karadas eca. iqidan TefSi, Wiqa da kovzi gamoiRo da maT win aatriala. _ neba iboZeT da Tqvenma Svilobilma amiT miirTvas saWmeli. sxva WurWels xeli ar axlos. _ ha! angariSmiucemlad wamoiZaxa igorma. TvalebgafarToebulma axla igrZno im saSinelebis sigrZe-sigane, rasac misi coli iTxovda, magram gretasTan ar misula, dedasTan miiWra, yurTan miutana tuCebi da ise rogorc mxolod yruebs elaparakebian, mTeli xmiT CasZaxa: _ iqneb, Sen hkiTxo profesor daTunaSvilis qaliSvils, ra unda? ucxo enas mSobliur enasaviT flobs da sakuTari yvelaferi daukargavs? an me ras merCodi? me xom Seni saTayvanebeli Svili viyavi, risTvis gamwire? _ igor, Svilo! damSviddi, ratom aReldi? Sen xom ici, gretas rogor uyvars Tamila. is Sen gifrTxildeba! _ Seecada atexili davis Sewyvetas dedamTili. _ ra suleluri TviTdajerebaa, deda! SeiZleba dava aq Sewyvetiliyo, magram... uceb gaisma gretas yinuliviT civi xma. _ diax, igor! profesoris qaliSvili rom var, gvian gagigia. maS, mevaxSis Svili xom ar gegone? yvelas mkvdris feri daedo. nestori skamze gadaqanda. pirmokumuli nato skamze Camojda. igori daiZaba, gretasTan gaCerda da pirvelad Tavis cxovrebaSi cols sila gaawna. es iyo pirveli sila. mas bavSvobaSic ki aravisTvis gaurtyavs. gretam zizRiT gaxeda yvelas, Semdeg mSvidad gaaRo kari da karebTan Semotrialda. _ leqtoroba ginda? ver moeswrebi, amas profesoris qaliSvili gemuqreba! _ da karebi cxvirwin moujaxuna. erTxans samarisebuli siCume Camowva. yvela TamilasTvis gamzadebul WurWels misCereboda. Semdeg igori mivida, isini magididan aiRo da yvelaferi Tavis adgilze daawyo. _ araferia! axla yvelaze metad deda Seecoda igors. _ Tamilas araferi agrZnobinoT. waval, sadgurze davxvdebi. igori saxlidan gavida. _ mogikvda deda, vis xelSi Cagagde? Cailaparaka dedam. nestorma mkacrad Sexeda cols. araferi uTxra, ise gavida meore oTaxSi.
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sanatoriumidan saxlSi dabrunebulma Tamilam pirvelad igori da greta ikiTxa. gzaSi erTmaneTs ascdnen. _ Camovidnen? ikiTxa nodarma. _ ho, Camovidnen, es es aris, gagaswres. _ sad gaiqcnen? ukmayofilod Cailaparaka nodarma. natom mas Sexeda. qals iseTi gatanjuli saxe hqonda, rom nodarma igrZno, raRac momxdariyo. isedac gafuWebuli buneba kidev ufro gaufuWda. man male gadawyvita iqauroba daetovebina. natom WiSkramde miacila. sadRa iyo is adrindeli mediduri miReba da gacileba, am qalis Sexvedrisas TvalSi rom gecemoda?! man Cqara nawyvet-nawyvet uambo, rac moxda. ratomRac natom nodarSi iseTi adamiani dainaxa, visTanac arasdros cruoben. vaJs Seebrala qali. saxe Secvloda. odesRac amayi qali daTmobaze midioda. _ Sen misi Zma xar, auxseni, Caagone, ar minda Svilis momavali movspo. dRes Tu xval, xarisxs daicavs, ojaxurma pirobebma, ar minda, ukan daswios igi. sadRa gamovCndeT, rom gaigon, rZali saxlidan wavidao. _ TqvenTvis, iqneb, ajobebda gretasTan ganSoreba? moulodnelad aseTi SekiTxva dasva nodarim. _ ras ambob, Svilo. partiis wevria, vin apatiebs ojaxis dangrevas? pirze aafara xeli nodars. _ es ar Tqva, geTayva, wadi, Txove, auxseni, ukan movides. igori isea gabrazebuli, mas ar dauTmobs. natos uimedo mdgomareobam aaRelva nodari. mamasTan misvla da yvelafris axsna gadawyvita. SeiZleba arafrad Caegdo gretasa da igoris Soris momxdari konfliqti, rom adre ar hqonoda am ojaxTan urTierToba... axla mamis saxlisaken miabijebda da fiqrobda, dedinacvali ar daxvedroda. asec moxda. kari gretam gauRo. mas namtiralebi saxe hqonda. civad gadakocna da nebarTva ar uTxovia, ise Sevida mamis ojaxSi. axla Tavisuflad grZnobda Tavs, vidre adre. _ nodar, Sen? gakvirvebiT ikiTxa mamam. profesori mudam gakvirvebiT xvdeboda Svilis gamoCenas. _ ho, me... gamarjoba! igi ar misula mamasTan, Sua oTaxSi Sedga da oficialurad gaiWima. mama mixvda, mets aRar waiwevda misken Svili. saTvale Seiswora da mosasmenad moemzada. nodari laparaks agvianebda. _ dajeqi, nodar, ra aris qalaqSi axali, an gamomcemlobaSi ra siaxlea? SeekiTxa mama, roca Seatyo, Svili saTqmels agvianebda. nodari dumda, dumda jiutad da mamas akvirdeboda. is isev naTesaur msgavsebas eZebda mamasa da gretas Soris. mama SeeCvia
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im azrs, rom Svili masTan maSin Semoirbenda xolme, roca raRac ambis Setyobineba surda an soflidan, an romelime naTesavis Sesaxeb. saTxovarze Svili mamasTan arasodes midioda da es icoda, magram isic icoda, saTqmels uceb ityoda da gasaqcevad karisken ixedeboda. _ gadavwyvite, poezias SeveSva da prozaSi vcado Cemi SesaZleblobebi! _ ratom? Sen saukeTeso poeti xar. poets meti energia sWirdeba. _ meti energia? _ xo, ufro met Tavsatexs uxdis literaturismcodneT TiToeuli azris mecnierulad Seswavla... ironiulad Cailaparaka nodarim da daayola, Tumca, bevri prozaikosi ise Rrmad moazrovnea, rom... Tumca me ar mwams filosofia da iciT, ratom? zogjer nawarmoebs an sityvas imdeni mecnieruli axsna da gaanalizeba mohyveba, Semdeg maRal mecnieruli terminologiis wyalobiT am sityvebs imdeni azrTa sxvaoba, rom is sityva, mTavari da dawyebiTi sadRac iCqmaleba, xalxs ki is qmnileba sWirdeba, sadac simarTlea. adamianma unda waikiTxos da daijeros Seni. ramdeni mwerali da poeti darCa xalxis guls iqiT. ar minda mec, maT ricxvs davemato. Tu kargs ar davwer, cudsac ar davwer, ase vfiqrob. _ raRac gulgatexiloba sCans Sens sityvebSi, sakuTari Tavis ar gjera? _ me sul ar vfiqrob, Cemi saxeli ukvdavyo. minda, Cemi marTali sityva viRacas gamoadges, viRacas daexmaros, Wkua aswavlos. sakuTari Secdoma daanaxos da Tavis udides sakuTar Secdomas vaJkacurad Sexvdes. gesmis? Tundac nurvin gaigebs, rom me is davwere. nodars mama ar uyvarda, magram arc sZulda. Svilma icoda, rom mama maRali ganaTlebis kaci iyo, Tumca Wkvian adamianad arasodes warmoudgenia igi. Wkviani kaci SeiZleba uwignuric iyoso, xSirad uTqvams nodars. _ mama! niko skamidan wamoiwia, raRac dabzrialda oTaxSi, gulispirTan Setokda simis ZarRvi da Svilma dainaxa, rogor gausxivosnda mamas Tvalebi. mgoni, am erTma sityvam gaalRo mamasa da Svils Soris gawolili yinuli. _ me SenTan mosalaparakeblad movedi. nikos saxe daugrZelda, Tvalebi gaufarTovda, xeli nerviulad win waswia da magidas daeyrdno. roca nikom meore vaJiSvili gaicno, igi ukve Camoyalibebuli iyo. amitom mas ise Sexvda, rogorc toli tols. masTan Sexvedris
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dros, mis mimarT sadRac gulis siRrmeSi SiSismsgavs mokrZalebasac ganicdida. arsebiTad ar icoda, ras etyoda Svili, magram igrZno, rom masTan nodars arc Tu sasiamovno Temaze saubari surda. nodaris piridan amosuli sityva `mama~, romelic pirvelad moismina, maTi urTierTobis Semobrunebis dasawyisad miiCnia da odnav gulze moeSva. _ Tqven nu fiqrobT, rom warsuls mogagonebT. SegaxsenebT imas, rom vidre aq moxvidodiT, gyavdaT coli da ori Svili. arc is minda gisayveduroT, rom Cemi ufrosi Zma, Seni uniWieresi siyrmis Svili recidivistis saxeliT daRdasmuli SoreulSi sasjels ixdis. arc is minda SegekiTxoT, ganicdiT Tu ara mis beds ise, rogorc bebia da saerTod, Tu fiqrobT, rom misi, rogorc adamianis winaSe danaSauli migiZRviT? es Cveni piradi saqmea. gaognebulma mamam xelebi saxeze Camoisva, mas uWirda TvalebSi ecqira SvilisTvis. _ yvelaferi is, rac Cvens mamaSvilur urTierTobaSi xdeba, wvrilmanad mimaCnia, imasTan SedarebiT, rac kotes mdgomareobas Seexeba da saSinel Camourecxav dardad rom awevs mxrebze Cvens cxovrebas. mapatie, rom Segaxsene Tqveni mamuri movaleoba, radgan mis arakacad CamoyalibebaSi, ase vfiqrob, arc Tu naklebi danaSauli Tqven migiZRviT. magram me sul sxva danaSaulisaTvis movedi da Tqveni valia, aq mainc gamoiCinoT mamuri Rirsebac da mamuri movaleobac. nodari cota Sedga da mere yvelaferi uambo gretas xasiaTze da misi ojaxis mosalodneli dangrevis saSiSroebaze. niko gafiTrebuli da xmagakmendili misCereboda vaJs, romelic gulistkiviliT uambobda yvela wvrilmans, rac gretas da misi qmris ojaxs Seexeboda. _ me mudam maSinebda misi xasiaTi! mxolod es wamoiZaxa umweod. mamam jer kidev patara gogonas SeamCnia xasiaTis SecvliT gamowveuli butiaoba. xSirad umizezod ganerviulebuli sakuTar oTaxSi Caketili, daRvremili da daboRmili sawolSi mokuntuli iwva. mSoblebi erTTavad imis fiqrSi iyvnen, gaerkviaT am butiaobis mizezi, rom misi kaprizebi daekmayofilebinaT. profesor niko daTunaSvils hqonda amis saSualebac da mdgomareobac, rom mis qaliSvils emogzaura sazRvargareT. mudam bolo modaze ecva, manqanas TviTon marTavda, ramdenime ucxo enaze saubrobda da weliwadSi ramdenimejer isvenebda zRvazec da mTaSic. roca garkveuli mizezebis gamo gretam saqmrod igori SearCia, usityvod Sexvdnen amas mSoblebi. telefonis zaris xmam gamoafxizla niko. yurmili uxalisod aiRo da warbSekrulma upasuxa.
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_ diax! Semdeg aRaraferi uTqvams. mxolod gamococxlebuli usmenda. yurmili dado, wamodga, gaiar-gamoiara, mere isev telefonTan Sedga, yurmili aiRo, viRacasTan undoda darekva, magram gadaifiqra da Svils gasZaxa. _ greta! qaliSvilma pasuxi daugviana. samagierod fexis xma gaisma oTaxSi. fexis xma karTan Sewyda, etyoba, aRar undoda metis win waweva. nikos amisaTvis yuradReba ar miuqcevia. _ igors Seatyobine, rom diliT ministrTa sabWoSi mivides. mgoni awinaureben. es mis mecnierul muSaobas xels SeuSlis magram... gretas saxe gauvardisfrda, telefons daswvda da nomeri nerviulad akrifa. nodari wamodga da gakvirvebiT mama-Svils Sexeda. daakvirda, axla mama-SvilSi bevri msgavseba SeniSna. mama Seebrala. _ natalia dimitrevna! nodari mamas akvirdeboda. gretas Tavxedur mimarTvas ar auRelvebia. _ igori mobrZanda? ara... ho, rom mova, gadaeciT, rom mamaCems, profesor daTunaSvils, xazgasmiT Tqva es sityvebi, _ axlaxan Seatyobines, rom mis siZes igor CikvilaZes ministrTa sabWoSi ibareben, albaT dawinaurebasTan dakavSirebiT da rom, xval diliT iq unda gamocxaddes! - yurmili dado. arc mamisTvis da arc ZmisTvis ar Seuxedavs, ise daasrula telefonTan Sewyvetili saTqmeli. axla mainc mixvdi mevaxSis colo, rom me profesoris qaliSvili var. _ ra Tqvi? mere vin dagaZala maTi rZali gamxdariyavi? SeekiTxa gaocebuli mama. _ mamaCemo! tanjvaa im gaunaTlebel xalxSi cxovreba. _ ra aris ganaTleba, amixseni! SeekiTxa nodari. _ Zalian gTxov, nodar, nu gsurs Sens filosofiur qaosSi gamxvio da yvelaferi Seneburi TvalTaxedviT davinaxo. kari maT win miijaxuna.
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gretam rogorc ki yurmili dado, natom gadawyvita, rom aucilebeli iyo igorisa da gretas Serigeba. dadga is dro, roca igors gza exsneboda karierisaTvis. profesori mZaxlis dakargva arafer sikeTes moutanda mis Svils. sadRac gulSi kidec gaamarTla rZali da Tamilaze amreziT gaifiqra. _ Sen naxe, Tu man ojaxi ar amirios! nato mdgomareobidan gamosvlis didi ostati iyo. ojaxis aRdgena gretasTan misvliT gadawyvita. is moxdenilad gamoewyo
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da mZaxlebTan wavida. saqme Tu Svilis winsvlas exeboda, SeeZlo fexiswverebzec evlo. surda, Tundac Tavis damcirebis safasurad daeyoliebina greta, rom igorze emoqmeda. _ waval da im alqajs rogorme moviyvan! _ SeuTanxmda qmars wasvlis win. _ gaakeTe ise, rogorc Sen ginda, magram gafrTxileb, odesme Sens gabmul abda-ubdaSi sakuTari fexiT gaebmebi. niko mudam moxibluli iyo am qalis garegnobiTa da energiiT. _ greta, stumaria! _ gasZaxa dedam qaliSvils. greta Tavisi oTaxidan gamovida. natalia dimitrevnas danaxvaze warbebi zeviT azida, magram gaoceba male damala da zevidan gadaxeda dedamTils. natom daiWira rZlis ironiuli gamoxedva. isic igrZno, rom greta miuxvda, dedamTili raRacas Tmobda. _ natalia dimitrevna! _ RimiliT miegeba dedamTils. igi dedamTlis win Camojda. Sarvliani fexi fexze gadaido da pirdapir gadavida mTavarze. _ jer ar viciT, ra Tanamdebobaze daniSnaven. xval miva. uTxari? _ saxlSi ar iyo. greta civad wamodga. natos SeeSinda, rZals uari ar eTqva saxlSi dabrunebaze. swrafad Secvala salaparako Tema. _ dajeqi, Svilo, SenTan salaparako maqvs! _ gismenT! _ ar uTqvams, magram aseTi saxiT dajda mis gverdiT. natom xmas dauwia da rZals uTxra _ greta, Svilo, iqneb nacnobi rentgenologi gvenaxa. Tamila guldasmiT gagvesinja. oboli gogoa... _ mere profesors miubrunda, _ batono niko, ori welia, dagvRala misma avadmyofobam. _ Tamilam Seuferebeli saqmro airCia, rasac mohyva amaTi winaaRmdegoba. qaliSvili Caiketa da ai, Sedegic... _ niSnismogebiT gaxeda gretam mamas. _ amas moevleba, vaJi samxedro samsaxuridan dabrundeba. _ gaiRima nikom. _ oh, ara batono niko, vin aris iseTi, rom siyvarulisTvis avad gaxdes. Tanac Tamila Cveni ojaxis Svilia da arasdros Caidens saZrax saqmes... magram amisTvis ar movsulvar. natos ar uyvarda, misi ojaxis wevrebze sxvagan rom bWobdnen. _ igorma, SeiZleba, uari Tqvas SemoTavazebul Tanamdebobaze. is xom sadisertacio naSromze muSaobs... _ sxvaTaSoris, mec vifiqre magaze._ Tqva nikom.

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_ ifiqre? me Tu mkiTxav, sul arafrad ar Rirs misi xarisxi. _ ukmexad wamoiZaxa gretam da mamas Sexeda. _ rogor? _ gakvirvebiT Seepasuxa mama. _ ra da... miiRebs xarisxs da Semdegai, Semdeg ra iqneba? saministroSi ki sul sxvaa. Caabareben, romelime sammarTvelos da yelamde geqneba yvelaferi. Tumca meeWveba, iq gamodges. natos gaaJrJola. Tavis saTayvanebel Svilze aseT agdebul msjelobas marto moralurad ki ara, fizikuradac ver itanda. amjerad davis dro ar iyo. garegnulad misi sityvebi arafrad Caagdo, radgan ratomRac sjeroda, Svilis momavali rZlis xelSi iyo. _ moukvdes deda, me is saqmosan kacad ar gamizrdia. gretam mSvidad moismina dedamTilis Sors gamiznuli SeniSvna, magram misTvis yuradReba ar miuqcevia. aSkaraa, masac gauCnda axali azrebi igoris momaval samsaxurze. mamas miubrunda da sTxova. _ xom ar ajobebs, Tqven molaparakebodiT igors? _ es ki mSvenieri azri gagiCnda! _ sixaruliT saxe gaunaTda nikos. rZalmac da dedamTilmac, am orma sxvadasxva asakis, ganviTarebis, gemovnebis adamianma, saocari sulieri kavSiri daamyares. orives mizani axla erTi iyo, rogorme igori Semosavlian Tanamdebobaze gaeSvaT. batoni niko Tavisi jalabiT da mZaxliT ukve nestoris binaSi iyo da aRtacebuli Sexvdnen Tamilas Camosvlas. _ naxativiT gamxdarxar, Cemo Tamila. Sen Tavs aucileblad mogvtaceben!_ qaTinauri ar daaklo gretam Tamilas. _ vasiko, Svilo, rodis Camoxvedi? _ natom naTesaurad gadakocna yofili muliSvili. vasikos Camosvla daemTxva am ori ojaxis Tavyrilobas. amgvar sazogadoebaSi TavSeyras ar eloda vasiko. daimorcxva. is alali biWi iyo. Tavisuflad izrdeboda sofelSi, soflis Tavidan soflis bolomde yvela saxli Ria iyo misTvis. misi simdidre missave faqiz sulSi iyo, mis gamzrdel mSobliur keraSi mamis suraTTan, mTebSi, sadac fexSiSvela dasdevda xborebs. dedis mier gamomcxvar xaWapurs gareT gamoitanda, manamde ar SeWamda, vidre romelime Tanatoli ar Camoivlida da dauZaxebda. _ modi, biWo, Camojeqi! dediserTa biWs adamianebis siyvaruli enatreboda. yvela uyvarda da verasdros warmoidgenda, Tu mas vinme SeiZulebda. misgan Sors iyo yovelgvari siyalbe. ar surda, scodnoda, rom arsebobda amqveynad boroteba da cbiereba.
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_ Sena xar? _ axla vasikos miegeba greta. muStris TvaliT aaTvalier-CaaTvaliera da mourideblad daumata. _ mSvenieri biWi yofilxar! _ xmas dauwia da didi xnis megobariviT gauRima. _ netav, ras giwuneben eseni? _ ukanaskneli sityvis gagonebaze vasiko SekrTa, SiSiT aqeT-iqiT gaixeda, xom aravin moisminao. _ nestori wevs? _ SeekiTxa Tamilas nato. _ 37,5 sicxe aqvs. stumrebma nestoris oTaxSi moiyares Tavi. nato da greta samzareuloSi gavidnen. uTqmelad gamonaxes saerTo ena rZaldedamTilma. nodari, vasiko da Tamila male ganmartovdnen. igori simamrTan erTad nestoris oTaxSi miiwvies. saubari pirdapir saqmeze gadavida. _ mainteresebs Seni azri... _ mainc? _ SeekiTxa siZe. _ sad gsurs samsaxuri? _ jer disertaciaze vmuSaob. simSvide minda, mciredi simSvide mainc da meti araferi. _ magas nu dardob, movnaxav adamians. _ ver gavige... _ ra aris gaugebari? movnaxav pirovnebas, romelic dagexmareba. _ magramme rom eg ar miTxovia? _ vici, magram, isic minda icode, rom xval saministroSi gamogiZaxeben da SemogTavazeben romelime sammarTvelos. _ sammarTvelos ufrosad gacilebiT saqmiani kaci unda muSaobdes. Cemma Svilma ki,iqneb sjobia, gaagrZelos mecnieruli muSaoba. _ ukmexad Cailaparaka nestorma. _ instituti, bavSvebi, studentebTan muSaoba... igori amisTvis aris dabadebuli. _ da Tvidan Tvemde daelodos xelfass? _ Caeria greta saubarSi, romelic macxovris xativiT gamoCndeboda xolme am TaTbirze. _ sulerTia. iseTi marifaTiani kaci, rogoric Sen ginda iyos, Cemi Svili ver iqneba. _ aRar dauTmo rZals mamamTilma. _ sainteresoa, RmerTmani, mxolod igors ar SeuZlia is, rac yvelas SeuZlia? _ marTalia, es sityvebi sazogadod Tqva, magram mamamTilma kargad igrZno, rom `yvela~-Si igi, pirvel rigSi, mas gulisxmobda. _ ver gavige, Tqveni sityviT, saministroSi mxolod saqmosnebs uyrian Tavs? Tu piriqiT, patiosan adamianebs daeZeben? iqneb SeniSnes Seni patiosneba da... simamrs ironiulad Seawyvetina sityva siZem: _ Tu is SeniSnes, rom me Tqveni siZe var...
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_ SesaZlebelia, esec aris mizezi. oTaxSi nato gamoCnda. igorma igi CaaTvaliera. _ ukve didi xania, SeveCvieT, rom ojaxis avkargianobaze saboloo sityva dedas ekuTvnis. mas SeekiTxeT. _ igori adga. nato Secba. Team SuriT gaxeda mZaxals, romelic mudam gaCumebas arCevda. nato Svils ukan gahyva da kvnesa-kvnesiT uTxra: _ mTeli energia Sevalie imas, rom kargi gamekeTebina SenTvis. _ vici, deda, albaT ar arsebobs ufro mosiyvarule deda, _ mSvidad uTxra Svilma._ magram isic vici, dRevandeli saRamo Seni mowyobilia, ise, rogorc Cveni Sexvedris pirveli dRe. me uaric rom meTqva, mainc ise moxdeboda, rogorc Sen ginda. asea mudam... _ da pirveli gavida im oTaxSi, sadac sufra iyo gaSlili. am daZabul viTarebaSi, mxolod Tamila SesCereboda gaxsivosnebuli TvalebiT yvelas, raxan grZnobda, vasikosadmi simpaTiiT iyvnen ganwyobilni. _ vasiko mZRoli ar aris? SegiZlia, Sen aiyvano igor? _ xmadabla wasCurCula gretam qmars. _ jer CemTvis manqana ar gamouyviaT. _ ukmexad Seageba sityva gretas. Zlivs vasiko da Tamila marto darCnen. _ dRes Camoxvedi?_ SeekiTxa Tamila. _ guSin. sanatoriumSi viyavi. _ albaT, gzaSi agcdiT. vasiko gogonas saxes misCereboda. _ SenTan tkivils ra undoda, Tamila? _ Senma werilebma mimkurnala. vgrZnobdi, eqimebic uimedod iyvnen. usityvod vasrulebdi maT brZanebas, radgan vicodi, Sen dabrundebodi da unda dagxvedrodi cocxali. vasikos salaparako bevri hqonda, magram ena ar ubrundeboda. garetianebuli SesCereboda sayvarel gogonas. _ sofelSi rodis midixar? _ xval. Semdeg, rogorc Sen ginda. _ me? gana, aq mTavari me var? _ aba, rogor? _ mgoni, dRes yvelas movewone. rodesme giambob, ra Zvirad damijda me es, magram ar vnanob, radgan dRes CemTan xar. vasiko xeliT Seexo qaliSvilis odnav Severcxlil Tmas. _ rodis iqneba is dRe, marto Sen gicqerde, Zvirfaso? vasiko frTxilad daswvda mis natif xels da moefera, magram is xeli iseTi nazi iyo, ver gabeda tuCebamde mitana. mis gulSi ucnauri grZnoba gaCnda, mgoni, arasdros moxdeboda aseTi ram.
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gogonas Tvalebi iseTi spetaki, xolo sityvebi imdenad alali iyo, rom raRac Sinaganma SiSma moicva misi sxeuli. araadamianuri Tilisma moedo mis sxeuls. is gaocebuli SesCereboda qaliSvilis ufskruliviT uZiro Tvalebs da vaJma inatra, darCeniliyo sikvdilamde mxolod aseT mdgomareobaSi. _ deda Tanaxmaa, SevuRldeT?_ ikiTxa Tamilam. vasiko SekrTa. mas Tvalwin daudga deda. is bedSavi istoria, am or adamians Soris rom idga. karebSi kopebSekruli nato gamoCnda. orive damnaSave bavSviviT wamodgnen. nato daibna. man SeigrZno, rom or adamians Soris ufskruli Tavisi xeliT gaTxara, sadac mudarac iyo da sayveduric. maTma SeSinebulma Tvalebma erTi wuTiT avadmosagonari warsuli gaaxsena. ukan daixia. maTi datoveba undoda, magram greta mis ukan gaCnda. dedamTili gaswia, maT win saxegabrwyinebuli dadga da axalgazrdebs uTxra: _ ai, rogori kargi biWi yofilxar... _ vasikos mxarze xeli dahkra da ganagrZo. _ ho, marTla, mxedvelobaSi iqonie, roca igori axal samsaxurSi gava, Sen aucileblad mZRolad agiyvans. natom saxe gvelnakbeniviT Seikra. aSkaraa, ojaxis ufrosoba TandaTan ecleboda xelidan. Tu mas yvela ojaxis wevri yvela wvrilmanze ekiTxeboda, axla rZali zrdilobisaTvis mainc ar cdilobda, SekiTxvis Rirsad gaexada dedamTili. vasiko aRtacebiT Sescqeroda gretas. aseTi angelozi mas amqveynad ar eguleboda. _ vasiko am sakiTxze jer sakuTar dedas unda daekiTxos! _mtkiced mouWra dedamTilma. amiT sakuTari Rirsebis xelSeuxeblobac agrZnobina rZals. _ SeekiTxos, Tumca Cemi rCeva, umjobesia, gaiTvaliswinos. me mis sasargeblod minda, Torem TbilisSi mZRolebis meti ra aris? kvlav daZabuloba Camowva rZalsa da dedamTils Soris.
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igori saxtad darCa, roca saministroSi daavales iseTi saqme, razec warmodgena ar hqonda. centraluri universaluri samrewvelo bazis direqtoroba ise SesTavazes, TiTqos igors mravaljer Seetanos gancxadeba da axla akmayofilebdnen. _ amxanago CikvilaZe! bazis Sesaxeb bevri signalebia Semosuli. gamoyofilia komisia, romelic revizias Caatarebs xsenebul bazaSi. Tavmjdomareoba Sen gekisreba. amiT gaecnobi Sens saqmes da momaval muSaobasac. _ Tavazianad, magram amaRlebuli toniT daasrula saubari ministrma. _ magram me... _ vici, Cven gvWirdeba patiosani muSaki. garda amisa, iq, sadac Sen ggzavniT, arc Tu ioli samuSao gelodeba, magram gaxsovdes,
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Sens patara Secdomas, SeiZleba, udidesi danaSauli mohyves. gaognebuli dabrunda saxlSi igori. sakuTar oTaxSi Caiketa, taxtze wamowva da Wers miaSterda. _ SevZleb? _ ramdenjerme SeekiTxa Tavis Tavs da verc dadebiTi, verc uaryofiTi pauxi ver ipova. _ iqneb, sjobs, xvalve wavide saministroSi da uari vTqva maT mier SemoTavazebul winadadebaze. bazis uzarmazari faseuloba aSinebda saqmeSi Cauxedav igors. _ rom ar wavide, amiT iqneb vRalatob partias... _ meore xma ukiJinebda da aRar icoda, ra gzas dasdgomoda. saRamos orive ojaxis wevri isev Seikriba, imis gasagebad, ra gadawyvita igorma. am ukanasknelma Tavis tkivili moimizeza da saerTod ar gamosula oTaxidan. _ saocrebaa. Cemi profesori simamri rogor Sexvdeba Cems Tanamdebobas? _ mxolod es gaifiqra igorma. meore dRes ise gavida saxlidan, arc usauzmia. bazaSi komisiis wevrebi ukve elodnen CikvilaZis gamoCenas. mokle misalmebisa da gacnobis Semdeg, igorma calke oTaxi moiTxova. yvela sawyobis naSTi aiRo da sarevizio periodis masalebiT aavso oTaxi. mTeli kvira imuSava cekadan mowveuli buRaltris TanxlebiT. gasaocari alRo aRmoaCnda am saqmeSi Cauxedav axalgazrdas. igors araCveulebrivi unari hqonda, dauRalavad emuSava. kontroli gaewia namuSevris sisworisTvis. uaRresad kulturul pirovnebas ejavreboda yvela saxis uwesoba. TviTon, rogorc pirovneba, patiosani iyo. warmodgenac ar hqonda, Tu SeiZleboda saqmidan raime gamorCena.bazis mesveurebma igori pirvelad advilad xelSi Casagdeb adamianad miiCnies, magram male SeamCnies, rom axali revizori metad puntqualuri iyo da Tavisi fexiT daiwyes im adamianis Zebna, vinc masTan kavSirs daamyarebda. saqme TandaTan mZafrdeboda. igori TavCaqindruli ganagrZnobda sabuTebis qeqvas. Tavaziani RimiliT uars ambobda mdidrul sadilebze da gvian RamiT brundeboda saxlSi. _ ra iyo, igor? madani aRmoaCine, Tu pirdapir oqro? _ cinikurad ekiTxeboda greta, _ sul dagaviwydi. _ saubedurod, Savi qva. _ pasuxobda igori. vaxSmis Semdeg daRlils male eZineboda.
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TamilasTvis igori mudam kerpi iyo. misi bedniereba surda. dawinaureba, ra Tqma unda, Tamilasac Zlier axarebda, Tumca
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imaSi ver garkveuliyo, Tavisi mdgomareobiT kmayofili TviTon igori iqneboda, Tu ara. profesori daTunaSvili maRali avtoritetiT sargeblobda institutSi. misi leqciebi maRal sakacobrio ideebze, patiosnebaze did interess iwvevda da yvela ovaciiT xvdeboda. amis miuxedavad, didi moTxovnileba hqonda mis qaliSvils, sarfiani saqmianobis qmari sWirdeboda. amitom siZis am Tanamdebobas sixaruliT Sexvda. mxolod nestori ar iziarebda maT azrs. sarfiani samsaxuri igorisTvis cocxlad miwaSi Cadebas niSnavda. ukve sikvdilis piras misul mamas ar SeeZlo Svilis gadarCena. TviTon igori ras fiqrobda, aravin icis. axal obieqtze misuls pirveli dRidanve ukmayofilebis grZnoba mZime tvirTad daawva. am uzarmazarma tvirTma mas neli, magram xangrZlivi sikvdili miusaja, magram es Semdeg, manamde ki... erTxel samsaxuridan gvian dabrunebuls, maRali garegnobis mamakaci daxvda. igori myisve mixvda, rom mas eloda. salams Tavazianad upasuxa. gzis gagrZeleba scada, magram mamakacis nacnobma saxem SeaCera. daakvirda. icno. is misi mamis TanaSemwe, gigola aivazaSvili iyo. gigolam megobrulad daado xeli mxarze. igori gaSinaurebulma Sexebam SeakrTo. gulze usiamovno Cxvleta igrZno, gigolas moSorda, rom misi xeli mxridan moeSorebina. _ Zneli saqme gikisria, Cemo igor! Zneli... ici, ra mohyveba magas? _ gigolam ukan daixia da gverdidan gaxeda igors. xSirad gamoCenila maT ojaxSi gigola, mas nestorTan mudam mokle, saidumlo bWoba hqonda xolme. igoric Sexvedria mas. marto salmiT icnobda, magram mas Semdeg, rac nestors cexi dauxures, gigola maT saxlSi aRar mosula. _ yvela ubedurebis mizezi Sen iqnebi! _ gigolam grZeli, Savi, gamxdari TiTi igors miuSvira. saSinlad imoqmeda am ciliswamebam masze. gvelnakbeniviT Sedga, magram igrZno, rom gigola migzavnili iyo da gaTamamda. sakmarisia erTi Seni xelis mowera, Senc kmayofili darCebi da amdeni codvac kiserze ar dagedeba. igori dumda. _ Tu Tanaxma iqnebi, Sen amaRam miiReb Sensas da ar dagaviwydes, arc Tu cota Tanxas. igori SekrTa, axla ukve SiSisgan. Zlivs moeria Tavs da gadawyvita, mSvidad moeSorebina es abezari. _ dRes daRlili var. ufro saRi gonebiT unda saqmes awon-dawonva. manamde ki msurs, vicode, raSi maZleven fuls. gigolam ukan daixia. man igrZno, rom igors masTan laparaki aRar surda. _ da bolos, meored aRarsad waxvide saqmis Sesamowmeblad!
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igorma zurgi Seaqcia da qvafenilze miatova aivazaSvili. nawamebi da aRelvebuli Sevida saxlSi. miusalmeblad Cauara dedas. oTaxSi ganmartovda. SorsmWvretel natos myudroeba ar daurRvevia SvilisTvis. gvian SeaRo kari da moridebiT saWmeli SesTavaza. _ gretam ratom daigviana? _ mkeravTan unda gamoevlo. _ hooo, maSin mogvianebiT, roca is mova... _ mdumared moSorda kars nato. ezosTan msubuqi avtomanqana gaCerda. ezos kari gaiRo da qvafenilze gretas msubuqi fexis xma gaisma. man xelis kvriT gaaRo kari da sixaruliT wamoiZaxa: _ momilocnia, momilocnia! oTaxebSi mimaluli maspinZlebi aiSalnen. igori kibis Tavze gamoCnda, Tamilam kibeebi Cairbina, nestorma joxi moimarjva da natos amoudga mxarSi. sixarulisgan saxealewilma gretam yvela gadakocna da ganacxada: _ axlaxan mamas daurekes. igori centraluri bazis direqtorad dauniSnavT. im RamiT didxans sawolSi igorma itriala, scada, daeZina, magram amaod. erTidan asamde Tvla daiwyo, Semdeg asidan-erTamde. ramdenjerme gaimeora, rom gaumarTla da mizans miaRwia, mere ki, Zil-buranSi CaiZira. martodmarto darCa uecrad. arsad araviTari sulieri ar sCanda. fexqves eSleboda qviSa, win moiwevda, raRac Zala ukan abrunebda. sicocxles natrobda, magram pirdaRebuli udabno sCanda mxolod irgvliv. xmamaRla yvirili surda. surda, udabnos gaqceoda, magram ar SeeZlo. daRebuli piridan marto xavili aRmoxda da sakuTar yurebamdec ar aRwevda misi xma. erTbaSad, mis saxeze Rimili gaCnda, magram TviTonve igrZno, es Rimils ar hgavda. es Rimili arc SiSiT iyo gamowveuli da arc sixaruliT. nel-nela iZireboda qviSaSi.
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TalxSi Cacmuli qali oci welia, rac am bilikze dadis... aRmarTze amavali es gza erTaderTia da Seucvleli misTvis. ukve Severcxlili qali magari muxliT, energiuli nabijiT seravs biliks. masSi didi xania, Camkvdara romantikuli aRtaceba mSvenieri bunebisadmi. igi mxolod zeviT asvlisas akvirdeba Tovlian mwvervalebs. akvirdeba saavdrod Sekrul Rrubels, romlebic
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bambis fTilebiviT misdeven ukan da Semdeg nel-nela eSvebian qveviT. maSin meti sazrunavi uCndeba qals, fexs uCqarebs da cdilobs, male miaRwios fermas. win waweuli taniT da grZeli nabijebiT agrZelebs gzas, sanam ar gaivakebs. gadasasvlelTan Sedgeba, sofels gadaxedavs, erTi Tvalis SevlebiT sakuTar saxls Sexedavs, Rrmad amoisunTqebs da gzas agrZelebs. rac samxedro savaldebulo samsaxurSi misi vaJi wavida, sityvaZviri gaxda. cota motyda, magram ra dros daRlaa,zeviT elodeba ferma, qalebi, saqoneli, sofelSi gasagzavni yveli, mosatani Tiva da, dRec xelidan ecleba. qali am soflis Svilia, omSi dakarguli qmris qvrivi. sofeli da misi sakuTari ezo erTmaneTs ise SeTvisebian mis gulSi, ar icis, sakuTars ufro akeTebs, Tu soflisas. TxuTmeti weli fermis gamged muSaobda daria. qalisaTvis es samuSao, cxadia, mZime iyo, magram ar sCveoda gaWirvebaze wuwuni. piriqiT, sxvebs amxnevebda, sakuTari SromiT cdilobda bevrisTvis magaliTis micemas. _ am TveSi vasikoc dabrundeba,_ fiqrobda qali. _ mere da rogor sWirdeba sofels vasiko da misi Tanatolebi. _ wylis milebi uSovia nikolozs, xval sofelSi momiwevs muSaoba,-fiqrobda qali da fermas uaxlovdeboda. ZaRli kudis qneviT miegeba qals. _ ra iyo, niko, lamazom imSobiara? _ ho, Cemo rZalo, xbo isev mandaa. _ kargi, uSobeli iyo. vnaxoT, rogori Zroxa dadgeba. _ xelebi daikapiwa, xalaTi Semoicva da xbosTan Caimuxla. _ qalebi sad arian? _ sevasTas SeiyuJnen. dilis saqnars morCnen da... _ nakeli gasatani rom iyo? dauZaxe, Tan xarebi modene da uremSi Seabi. qalebTan Sevida, wuxandeli gabrazeba gaunelda, araferi uTqvams, saqme gadaunawila qalebs. sadilobisas uTxra maT: _ xval ver amoval, nikolozs unda mivexmaroT qalebi da moswavleebi. _ sxva veRaravin naxa? _ aba, vin? sofelSi aRaravin Cerdeba. wyali rom ezoSi mogiva... _ ise daurCa nikolozs Tavi... _ isev alaparakda avyia sevasti. _ kargi, Tu qali xar! _ erTi traqtori rom amodiodes, rogor gaaadvilebs Sromas.
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_ gza, gza aris saWiro. bilikze viRac gamoCnda. dariam iqiTken gaixeda. uceb gaxevda. xelebi gaasavsava da moceliliviT kunZze Camojda. _ vasiko, Svilo! _ wamoiZaxa nikom. _ ai, modis, ai, is amoiyvans traqtors am gzaze.
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meore dRes uTenia wamodga daria. mZinare Svils gadaxeda, ymawvils tkbilad eZina. fexis wverebiT uxmaurod datova saxli. dilis saqmes morCa, mxarze weraqvi gaido da orRobeSi, wyarosken amaval biliks auyva. gzadagza mezoblebs gasZaxoda. _ yvela amodiT wyaroze! _ ise gaixareT Senc da nikolozmac, ravarc mandedan wyali gadmoiyvanoT! _ moesma uknidan viRacis gamkilavi xma. _ milebs Caawyoben, CaJangaven da eg aris. _ axla meorem auba mxari.dariam ukan moixeda, dacinviT erTxel kidev gadaxeda maT da gza ganagrZo. mezoblebis avyiaobam guli atkina, magram usityvod, martom daiwyo miwis Txra. _ amovlen, aucileblad amovlen! _ daimedebiT gaifiqra qalma. mze amosuli iyo, roca bilikze Tavsafarwakruli qaliSvilis Tavi SeamCnia. _ irinea! Sublze Rvarad Camosuli ofli Tavsafris wveriT moiwminda. Sedga, gogonas mosvlas daeloda, Tan TxuTmeti wlis winaT momxdari ambavi moagonda. maSin gogona samiode wlis iqneboda. saRamos saqonlis mosarekad gasul dedas gogona ukan gamohkideboda. rogorc ki sofels gascdnen, dedam bavSvs dauZaxa: _ mand damelode! bavSvi gajiutda, dedas Cumad gahyva. tyeSi Sesuls deda daekarga. iara, iara, daiRala, buCqis qveS Camojda, atirda da Semdeg CaeZina. ukan dabrunebulma dedam, roca bavSvi ver naxa, afTars daesmgavsa da wivil-kivili daiwyo. mezoblebma bavSvs Zebna dauwyes. dariam naxa bavSvi, buCqis Ziras yvavilebze Tavmidebuli. pataras misZineboda. jer kidev SeumSrali cremli ekida Tvalze. roca namtiralevi gogona gulze miikra, bavSvs deda egona da kiserze Camoekida. bavSvi nazi da Tbili iyo. sakuTari SviliviT miualersa dariam, Semdeg qalebSi xumrobda, tyeSi dakarguli sarZlo vnaxeo. axla es ambavi roca moigona, qalma inatra, ra iqneba, Cemma vasikom es qali colad SeirToso. _ daria bicola, gamarjoba, martos ginda wylis gayvana?
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_ movlen. SercxvebaT da movlen! _ vasikos Camosvlas gilocavT! _ gaixare, Svilo. ise tkbilad eZina, ver gavaRviZe. _ moibodiSa qalma. _ axal manqanaze unda davsvao, ase Tqva Tavmjdomarem guSin. irinem weraqvi CamoarTva da miwas moxerxebulad dauwyo Txra. _ sxva rom ara iswavla da... _ ukmayofileba ver damala qalma. _ Sofrobis saswavleblad TbilisSi vin midis? _ mainc Tqven ra gindodaT, Tqveni Svili gamosuliyo? _ agronomi, zooteqnikosi. _ vasiko ki sul Sofrobaze ocnebobda. _ xom giTxari, movlen-meTqi... ai, modian. _ gzaze gamoCenil mezoblebs sixaruliT gaxeda dariam. _ mivexmaroT darias, jiutia da Tavisas ar daiSlis. ise ki, vici, saeWvoa, aqedan soflamde wyali avides. _ moesma darias nastias xma. darias sapasuxod araferi uTqvams, radgan icoda, rom nastia gulkeTili iyo. _ i biWi rom Camogsvlia, ra dros muSaobaa. dRes unda gveqeifa. Sen ki weraqvi agvkide. _ gaexumra varlam Zia. _ saRamos mezoblebo, pirdapir CemTan modiT, erTad movamzadoT da viqeifoT. _ ise, me rom Seni viyo, barem qorwilsac mivayolebdi, arsad gageqceva biWi. Torem yvelas buRasaviT uWiravs barisken Tvali. _ kidev Seexumra varlam Zia. qalebma irinas Sexedes. _ sarZlo qe gyavs bavSvobidan amorCeuli da... _ ras ambob, caca bicola? _ aitkica qaliSvili. _ axalgazrdebma unda icodnen. me ki didi xania, veli am ambavs. _ gaicina dariam. _ ho da, vidre sabudridan agifrindebodes, miabi, Torem mgoni, magasac gare-gare gaurbis Tavli. _ eh, Cemo caca, gana Cems survilzea damokidebuli misi wasvladarCena? _ oxvriT Tqva dariam da guli Seuqanda. im saRamos didxans ismoda darias saxlidan `mravalJamieri~. ise gamoaTro mezoblebi, rom avyia nastia datkba da `gafrindi, Savo mercxalo~ wamoiwyo. _ gaxsovs, axalgazrdobaSi rom vmRerodiT? _ CasCurCula darias. gvian daiSalnen. dariam gangeb datova irina, sufra mimalagebineo. rogorc ki saqmes morCnen, vasikos sTxova, saxlamde miecilebina gogona. orive mixvda, rom es gacileba mowyobili iyo. salaparako Tema
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uceb gamoeliaT da mTeli gza mdumared gaiares. _ Sen, vgrZnob, rom TbilisSi unda dabrunde, _ vasiko SekrTa. qaliSvilma zustad amoicno misi gulis nadebi. irina mas misCereboda. vasikos erT sityvaze iyo damokidebuli misi momavali. vaJs ver gaebeda, tyuili eTqva. man erTbaSad moxsna Tavi salaparako Temas. nirwamxdarma da sircxvilmodebulma aRsarebasaviT uTxra bavSvobis megobars. _ irine, daiko, Sen marTals ambob. me jer-jerobiT ar SemiZlia aq darCena, magram albaT dadgeba amis droc, Tumca ki ar vici, rodis. xval, zeg Tu xuTi wlis Semdeg, aucileblad davbrundebi. Cemi aq darCena marto Cemze ar aris damokidebuli. _ laxvariviT moxvda gulze bolo sityvebi qaliSvils, magram Tavs Zala daatana da Zalian mSvidad SeekiTxa. _ Tamila naxe? _ vnaxe. _ rogor aris? _ rogor giTxra. is iseTi kargi gogonaa... misi sicocxle Cemzea damokidebuli. _ kargad iyavi, vasiko! meore diliT vasiko mamis suraTis qveS idga. marad axalgazrda Wabuki sayveduriT umzerda Svils. vasikos adrindeli siTamame dahkargvoda da damnaSavesaviT misCereboda omSi dakargul mamas. vidre darias saxls fostalioni moadgeboda da Tbilisidan gamogzavnil depeSas gadascemda, sofelma ukve icoda misi Sinaarsi. saxlTan misul ismaila fostalions dariam ukmayofilod gaxeda, magram misi gabrwyinebuli saxe rom dainaxa, mixvda, cudi araferi iyo da ikiTxa. _ ra iyo? ra weria mand, depeSaSi? _ vasikos ibareben TbilisSi. _ vasikos? TbilisSi? vin? ratom? _ aRmoxda qals. _ waikiTxe! _ TiTqos ubrZanao, ise uTxra qals. _ nestoris rZlis depeSaa, saswrafod Camodi TbilisSio. greta awers xels. ezoSi gamosuli vasiko SeSinebul dedas misCereboda. fostalionma depeSa gadasca da gza ganagrZo. daria Svilis saxes daakvirda. eucxova misi gamoxedva. Svilis TvalebSi viRac sxva dainaxa. dedas elda eca, nela miuaxlovda da urCi Tmebi Seuswora. _ Sen is gogona giyvars, biWo? _ SeekiTxa da guliT inatra, uari eTqva Svils. Svilma TvalebSi Sexeda mravaWirgamovlil dedas. _ mere, mere ra, rom miyvardes? daria daaxloebiT aseT pasuxs eloda. es pasuxic iyo da SekiTx- 135 -

vac. Svilis am SekiTxvaSi Caqsovili iyo is sabediswero momavali, romelsac SeiZleba, daengria dedis guli. qali pasuxsagebi amocanis winaSe dadga. mTeli sicocxle autanlad eCveneboda misi avadmyofi Zmisa da natos Sesaxeb mogoneba. veraviTari gamarTleba ver ipova im pasuxSi, riTac SeiZleboda nacartutad eqcia axalgazrdebis siyvaruli. qali usityvod SesCereboda Svils, Tavis erTaderT nugeSs da siyvarulis nayofs. Svilisken gadadga nabiji. locvis msgavsi sityvebi moadga pirze, magram sul axlos ususuri avadmyofi Zmis xveleba Caesma. avazasaviT Setrialda, SekrTa. xvelebas susti xma ahyva, qali uecrad daiklakna da Zirs daeca. vasikom mwared daiyvira, xelSi aiyvana deda da akankalebuli xeliT safeTqlebi dauzila. wyali Caaylapa da roca Tvalebi gaaxila, Svilma SvebiT amoisunTqa. _ araferia, Svilo. albaT, sixarulisgan momivida. _ deda! _ aRmoxda biWs, dedas Caekra da mwared aqviTinda.
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_ yvela bednieri xarT, nodar. is ki... iqneb, genaxa bebo! saaqaod iqneb moatrialoT. Cadi qalaqSi, mamaSens sTxove, nu dakarge siyrmis Svili-Tqo. yvelani didi xalxi gaxdiT. ra iqneba, CaxvideT da naxoT? iqneb, gaulboT gayinuli guli. cocxalma iqneb moaRwios aqamde. _ ase gamoacila im zafxuls nodari bebiam. nodars, ra Tqma unda, azrad ar mosvlia am sakiTxze mama Seewuxebina. mas eCoTireboda koteze saubari. samagierod, SemTxveviT, igors moelaparaka da survili gamoTqva, Zmis sanaxavad wasuliyvnen. igors uyvarda colis naxevarZma Tavisi SeuboWavi bunebiT, garegnobiT. _ didi siamovnebiT vnaxavdi. Tundac imitom, rom mainteresebs, rogor eteva misi bunebis patroni cixis CarCoebSi. bavSvoba, kotesTan gatarebuli wlebi, tkiviliviT darCa nodars gulSi. gazafxulis erT mSvenier dRes TviTmfrinavma, sadac nodari da igori isxdnen, gezi kirovisken aiRo. gazafxulis pirvel naxevarSi jer kidev susxia zemo kamispireTSi. gauvali tyeebi da Waobiani adgilebi aseul kvadratul metrze gadaWimula... matarebliT mouxdaT mgzavroba, patimarTa zonamde rom misuliyvnen. vagonis fanjridan ukve xedavdnen patimrebs, Tofmomarjvebul zemdgomebs. orive gafacicebiT daeZebdnen nacnob saxes. damZimebuli guliT Camovidnen ukanasknel gaCerebaze. sadgurze
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Seityves, rom banakamde fexiT unda gaevloT. yinvaSi aTi kilometris gavla ar iyo advili, winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi saRamomde unda dalodebodnen manqanebs, romlebsac samuSaodan patimrebi mihyavdaT. gadawyvites, fexiT wasuliyvnen. cioda, saxeSi CrdiloeTis susxi scemdaT. nodarma Tavi sayeloSi Cayo da igorsac agrZnobina, Senc ase moiqecio. igors CanTa eWira, sadac patimrisTvis saWiro nivTebi, tkbileuli da xili mihqondaT. ori kilometric ar hqondaT gavlili, rom gverdiT gzidan jariskacebi SeamCnies. maT daelodnen. _ Tavi momWeriT, Tu eseni kavkasielebi ar arian. _ Cailaparaka nodarma. jariskacebi Tbil tansacmelSi iyvnen gamowyobilni. _ saiT, Zmebo? _ SeekiTxa erTi, roca maT miuaxlovda. _ Tu sapatimrosken gaqvT gza, Cvenc iqiT mivdivarT. _ upasuxa nodarma. _ sapatimromde ara, magram jer-jerobiT mgzavrebi varT._ rusulad Tqva meorem, magram iseTi qarTuli aqcentiT, rom nodarma qarTulad hkiTxa. _ qarTveli xar? saidan? ymawvils saxe gauciskrovnda, sixaruliT Sexeda mgzavrebs da xeli CamoarTva. _ Tbilisidan var, Tqven risTvis moxvediT aq? nodarma CanTa gaxsna. biWebs TiTo Wiqa arayi miawoda. maTac sulmouTqmelad dalies da madloba moaxsenes. _ Cemi Zmaa aq! _ patimaria? _ ra hqvia, iqneb vicnobdeT. _ kote daTunaSvili. _ kote daTunaSvili? sul ar gavxarT. meore jariskacs rusulad gadaulaparaka, `kniaz daTunaSvili~, mgoni axla zis! _ Tqven mas icnobT? _ vin ar icnobs kniazs? fexi ara aqvs, vefxviviT aris. axlaxan dana unaxes, amisTvis karcerSia. igors ufro daumZimda guli. mas moeCvena, rom SemTxveviT aRmoCnda sxva planetaze, sadac cxovreba SiSis momgvreli iyo. inana, aq rom wamovida. ratom mouvida azri, wamosuliyo am recidivistis sanaxavad. mas, didi momavlis patrons, ra esaqmeboda, am usier tyeSi, patimrebiT da jariskacebiT garemocul samyaroSi? ra undoda an vis daeZebda am dazvinebul xeebTan momuSave ubedur adamianebSi? an TviTon eseni ra danaSaulisTvis gamoriya aq wuTisofelma? axi ar aris, erTma TavzexelaRebulma TavSi mglijos najaxi da mSvidobiT yvelafero! _ gaifiqra igorma.
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_ piradad SexvedrixarT mas? _ roca aRelveba daioka, nodarma patimars hkiTxa. _ rogor ara, erTxel pativic mqonda, misTvis medaraja. _ eg pativia? _ maTi zedamxedveloba arc ise advilia. _ da mainc, pativad TvliT? _ iciT, ra? patimarTa cxovreba, miTumetes, roca aseT did patimarTan gaqvs saqme, rTulia, magram saintereso. aTasi rjulis xalxia, aTasi danaSaulis Camdeni xalxi. maT Tavisi dauwereli, magram mkacri kanoni aqvT. Tqven rom icodeT, is gacilebiT mkacria, vidre romelime sxva kanoni. am kanons unda daemorCilos yvela patimari da vai mas, vinc Seecdeba, gverdi auaros. patimarTa ufrosobac ar aris advili. zogjer zedamxedvelebi kotesTana patimris gulis mogebasac vcdilobdiT. _ eg, rogor? _ gaukvirda igors. _ asea. ai, Tundac erT magaliTs mogiyvan. am ori wlis winaT tusaRebs TamaSSi waugiaT erTi uzbeki jariskaci. ratomRac TvalSi ar mosvliaT ubeduri. misi mokvla erT patimars daavales. patimaric aris da patimaric, SeiZleba, iyos qurdi, magram ar iyos mkvleli, an piriqiT. im patimarma ver SeZlo, davaleba Seesrulebina, amitom TviTmkvleloba arCia. _ mere, ratom ar Seatyobina cixis ufross? _ gakvirvebiT ikiTxa igorma. jariskacma gakvirvebiT Sexeda mas, axlaRa SeamCnia misi nazi aRnagoba, aristokratiuli cxviri da TeTri xelebi. _ Tqveni ra aris kote? _ SeekiTxa. igori daibna. _ naTesavia. _ albaT axlo naTesavia, Torem mis sanaxavad aq ar wamoxvidodiT. rac Seexeba Tqvens SekiTxvas... _ jariskacma daustvina. _ eg yvelaze didi saSinelebaa, mabezRaras ormagi wamebiT sikvdili ar ascdeba. aman ki erTi sikvdili arCia. _ ho, maS, saSveli ar yofila. _ ra Tqma unda, mTavaria, ar moxvde aq. _ iseTi toniT uTxra igors jariskacma, rom am ukanasknels gaaJrJola. _ hoda, gamxecebul adamianTan zedamxedveloba marTlac sapatioa. maTTan Taviseburi, maTeburi kontaqti unda daamyaro, ise, rom arc gaanawyeno da Sens movaleobasac ar uRalato. axla xom gamige, gana es pativi araa? roca maTTan Sesvlisas ufleba ar gaqvs, iaraRi iqonio. erTi xelis dakvriT gagvaiaraReben da... mSvidobiT! _ ukve movediT. Cveni gza aqeT uxvevs. karg mgzavrobas gisurvebT megobrebo! kniazi daTunaSvili Cinebuli adamiani dadgeboda, aq rom ar moxvedriliyo. dasanania, rom ase ubralod gafuWda.
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jariskacebi igors da nodars gamoemSvidobnen da gza ganagrZes. win iyo samanqano gza. damZimebuli guliT, usityvod gaagrZeles gza. sicive matulobda. albaT gauWirdeboda cixemde misvla, rom maT bedze avtomanqana ar wamosweodaT. _ Tqven saiT? _ CasZaxa jariskacma, roca manqana maT win gaaCera. _ meeqvseSi. _ dajeqiT, gaiyinebiT! igori da nodari Zaraze axtnen. isini patimarTa gverdiT aRmoCndnen, patimrebi Seviwrovdnen da Tavis gverdiT moaTavses. _ zogjer cxovreba sasaciloa.amas ki ar warmovidgendi, Tu am usier tyeSi, patimarTa gverdiT, Ria manqaniT momixdeboda mgzavroba. vin icis, ra rjulisaa es xalxi. kacis mkvlelebi, Tu banditebi? _ fiqrobda igori. tusaRebiT savse manqana ki miraxraxebda morebdaWdobil gzaze. igori, romelic maT gverdiT SemTxveviT aRmoCnda, aTas rameze fiqrobda. dRemde arsad Sexvedria patimars, arasdros unaxavs sapatimro. am wuTSi Tavis Tavs ver miscemda pasuxs kiTxvaze, risTvis daTanxmda nodars, enaxa Tavisi colisZma aseT mdgomareobaSi. Tu es misi Sinagani karnaxi iyo, gascnoboda adamianTa bunebas karieris dasawyisSi? iqneb, es gamocda iyo, xelmZRvanel muSaks Tavisi mkacri kanonebi rom daanaxa. igori mixvda, rom arsebobs mkvlelebis, banditebis, qurdebis gverdiT sxva danaSauli, romelic SeumCnevelia da SeiZleba, dakanonebulic. romelzec erT mSvenier dRes pasuxi moeTxoveba da SeeSinda. swored dRes, patimrebis gverdiT mjdomma, patimarTa da jariskacTa gayinul saxeebze dainaxa is faruli danaSaulic, romelsac dRemde ver amCnevda. pirvelad Tavisi sicocxleSi, Sercxva Tavisi uniaTo SorsmWvretelobis gamo. cixis karebTan Sedga manqana. romeliRac zemdgomma siis kiTxva daiwyo. yoveli gvaris amokiTxvisas patimari tovebda manqanas. bolos manqanaze mxolod igori da nodari darCnen. _ Tqven vin gnebavT? _ SeekiTxa Zaraze darCenilT. _ Cven cixis ufrosi gvinda. _ upasuxa nodarma. _ maSin CamodiT. ai, im saxls xedavT? cixis ufross iq naxavT. igori da nodari Zaridan Camoxtnen. madloba gadauxades mZRols da miniSnebuli saxlisken gaswies. axla mxolod imas fiqrobda orive, rom male enaxaT cixis ufrosi, rom saRamos ukan matarebels gamohyolodnen. stumrebs xanSiSesuli, odnav meloti, mkacri saxelis mqone
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cixis ufrosi koridorSi daxvdaT. _ vin xarT? _ cixis ufrosi gvinda. mamakacma civad CaaTvaliera orive da Semdeg uTxra maT: _ aT wuTSi moval, damelodeT! _ man es sityvebi zomaze metad mkacrad Tqva da gareT gavida. stumrebma erTmaneTs Sexedes. cixis ufrosi marTlac male dabrunda. stumrebi kabinetSi miiwvia, sadac maudgadafarebuli magida da ramdenime skami idga. maspinZelma usityvod skamebisken miuTiTa da roca stumrebi dasxdnen, isic dajda. man magida qaRaldebisgan gaaTavisufla, Semdeg ujraSi Caawyo uxmaurod da gasaRebiT daketa. gasaRebi jibeSi Caido da usityvod stumrebs interesiT Sexeda. misma mkacrma Sexedvam aSkarad SeaSfoTa stumrebi. _ Cven saqarTvelodan varT! _ daiwyo nodarma da salaparako gauwyda, radgan ufrosis saxeze odnav SesamCnevi ironia gaCnda. _ ar aqvs mniSvneloba amas. visi naxva gsurT? _ mokled mouWra cixis ufrosma. _ kote daTunaSvilis. _ isev nodarma gabeda. ufrosis saxeze ironia myisve gaSra, yurmils daswvda da dareka. _ karceridan gamovida recidivisti kote daTunaSvili? _ ikiTxa man. _ ori kviraa? keTili... _ yurmili dado._ bedi gqoniaT, Torem ukan mogixdebodaT mis unaxavad wasvla. _ Tqven ra xarT misi? _ me Zma var. _ upasuxa nodarma. _ Zma? _ Tvalebi moWuta da ise Sexeda nodars. _ sxvaTaSoris, raki CamoxvediT... _ odnav pauza gaakeTa, gasaRebi jibidan amoiRo, iqidan sufTa qaRaldi amoacura da stumrebs miawoda. _dawereT gancxadeba daTunaSvilTan Sexvedraze. axalgazrdebi usityvod daemorCilnen brZanebas. cixis ufrosma gancxadebaze Tavisi aRniSvna gaakeTa, zars TiTi daaWira da dacvis ufrosi gamoiZaxa. _ gaatareT. instruqcias sobolovi Cautarebs! _ gaWimul jariskacs ubrZana. _ aris, gavataro da instruqcia Cautaros sobolovma! _ jariskacma fexi fexs Semohkra da stumrebi win gaatara. oc wuTSi isini patara saxlSi aRmoCndnen, sadac dacvis ufrosi papiross abolebda. xmel-xmelma mamakacma saTvale gaikeTa da guldasmiT waikiTxa gancxadeba, Semdeg stumrebi SeaTvaliera da saSvi gamowera. _ sasmeli, fuli, papirosi ar gadasceT. elaparakeT rusul enaze zemdgomis TanxlebiT. _ mSralad Tqva dacvis ufrosma da
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wamodga. maTTan Semosul jariskacs saSvebi misca. _ waiyvaneT! roca oTaxidan gamodiodnen, Tvali mohkres dafas derefanSi, sadac TxuTmetiode patimris Tavgadaparsuli saxeebi sCanda. `gansakuTrebuli damnaSaveni~ _ waikiTxa nodarma. Tvali gadaavlo maT. _ kote! _ aRmoxda nodars. _ ai, is aris! _ aRtacebiT wamoiZaxa da daaviwyda ra dafaze iyo gamokruli misi Zma. suraTidan Sescqeroda ocdaaT wels gadacilebuli axalgazrda kaci, misi sayvareli da erTguli megobari. igori miuaxlovda. _ is aris! _ isev ise aRtacebiT uTxra siZes. _ `gansakuTrebuli damnaSaveni~. _ isev waikiTxa igorma da amoioxra. nodari gons movida. wabarbacda. haeri aRar eyo, rom esunTqa. xeli civ minas Seaxo. _ kote da greta mamas hgvanan. _ suraTze TvalmouSoreblad uTxra nodars igorma. gamyolma TanagrZnobiT Sexeda maT. _ momyeviT! _ dabali xmiT Seaxsena jariskacma. _ axlave! isini suraTs moSordnen. jariskacma isev ukan wamoiyvana da saSualo zomis oTaxSi Seiyvana isini. oTaxSi grZeli magida da aqeT-iqiT Camwkrivebuli skamebi idga. SesvlisTanave nestis suni moxvdaT cxvirSi. _ aqeT dasxediT. paemani or saaTs gagrZeldeba! jariskaci sadRac gauCinarda. mtanjveli naxevari saaTi saukuned eCvenebodaT. _ gicnobs? _ igorma siCume daarRvia. _ ar vici, ar melodeba da... igors gaaJrJola, roca mavTulbadeebTan patara sarkmels gaxeda. uceb sarkmeli gaiRo. _ is aris! _ kbilebSi gamoscra nodarma da gairinda. pirvelad, racstumrebs TvalSi ecaT, rom kote galiaSi damwyvdeul, velur adamians hgavda. misma nadiriseburma Tvalebma erTbaSad gadafara garegnuli silamaze. erTxans monusxuli misCerebodnen erTmaneTs. patimars didi torebi aklda, rom es gisosebi daeglija. kotes saxem nodari da igori SeaSina. manamde aseTi saxe arcerTs ar enaxa. sarkmlis kari xelis uxeSi moZraobiT miixura. guls baga-bugi gahqonda.
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sami leitenantis TanxlebiT kote misaReb oTaxSi Semovida. joxis gareSe dadioda proteziani fexiT. kote erTxans Sedga. nodarma saTvale moixsna. _ nodar, Sen xar biWo? _ aRmoxda mas. nodarma misken gadadga nabiji. kotem xeli moxvia da Tavis Zlier mklavebSi moimwyvdia. kotes TvalebSi momdgari cremli gabrwyinda, magram aSkarad es cremli naZaladevi iyo. _ Cveni siZea, gaicani! _ waradgina igori. _ Cveni siZe? _ ikiTxa kotem. _ gretas qmari. _ auxsna nodarma. _ moxaruli var. arasdros mqonia Cemi dis gacnobis pativi. madlobeli var. _ Tqva da igori gadakocna. leitenantma dasxdoma ubrZana. kote da leitenanti erTad dasxdnen, orma Tanmxlebma pirma ki iqauroba datoves. mxolod Tofmomarjvebuli jariskaci aekra karebs. pauza grZeli aRmoCnda. kotes araadamianuri saxe, romelic drodadro gamokvesda, abnevda da aSinebda igors. _ TiTqmis ar Secvlilxar, kote. kargad gamoiyurebi. _ Sen ki Secvlilxar, nodar! gazrdilxar, daRlilic meCvenebi. miambe Sens Sesaxeb. sityva Seawyvetina kotem. etyoba, ar surda, Tavis Tavze elaparaka. _ redaqciaSi var, bolo werilSi mogwere. _ vici. rogor aris bebia da deda? _ Seni mdgomareobiT arian Sewuxebulni. rogor iqnebian, roca Senze fiqriT daiRalnen? kotem Tavi daxara. wuTierad gairinda. yelSi momdgari boRmanarevi cremli gadaylapa. _ Tqven? Tqven ras akeTebT? Tumca ratom vkiTxulob? niko daTunaSvilis siZe ubralo mdgomareobis xom ar iqneba? _ amoscra kotes. igori Seirxa. egona, Tavad ijda sabraldebo skamze, xolo es kunTmagari, SavTvala patimari Cvenebas iRebda misgan. _ universaluri bazis direqtoria. _ gasca pasuxi nodarma. _ kargi saqme dagirtyia, Semosavliani. WkuiT unda imuSavo, Torem aq didi Tanamdebobis pirebic mohyavT. _ mis xmaSi dacinvac gaisma da darigebac.kotem gaiRima da nodarma mTeli am xnis manZilze pirvelad icno bavSvobidan saTayvanebeli adamiani, Tavisi ufrosi Zma, Tavisi sikeTiTa da miamitobiT rom iyo cnobili. male kotes sikeTe borotma Rimilma gadayara misi saxidan da gaaqro. _ me ki, me ki mkvleli var. mkvleli... _ muSti magidaze dahkra. _ nodar, adamianis mokvla ras niSnavs, ici? _ Sinagani zizRiT wamoiZaxa da kbilebi gaaWriala.
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_ nodar, nu ifiqreb, rom me amis Cadena msurda. TviTon aewyo ase. Semdeg... Sen xom ici... _ Tavis kunTmagar xelebs daxeda da daumata. _ Sroma mindoda. am xelebiT miwas davxnavdi, am xelebiT liTonsac davadnobdi da axla?... rogor mZuls es xelebi. zizRiT dasCereboda sakuTar xelebs. saxe SeSlils miugavda. _ yvelaferi am xelebis bralia! _ damSviddi, kote, moixdi sasjels da daiwyeb axal cxovrebas. _ axal cxovrebas? ara. axal cxovrebas me verasdros daviwyeb. mkvlelisTvis axali cxovreba ar arsebobs da Tu arsebobs, Zalian xanmoklea igi. dro ar meyofa axali cxovrebis dasawyebad. kote dadumda. axla is pirquSi leitenanti, romelic mis gverdiT ijda, sibraluliT aRelda. kotes Tavi daexara, saxe xelebSi Caemala, mxrebi ukrToda da Cumad qviTinebda. _ ratom moxvedi aq, nodar? me xom SenTvis ar miTxovia? ratom Semaxvedre Cems dakargul bavSvobas? risTvis momagone, rom odesRac miyvardnen adamianebi, myavdnen megobrebi, vxedavdi mzes da davabijebdi dedamiwaze. risTvis moxvedi? da Tu moxvedi, datkbi Cemi avazakobiT. arasdros damarigo Wkua. Cemi suraTi cixis karebze hkidia da im suraTis gamo patimarsac ki ekrZaleba CemTan urTierToba. gesmis, ras geubnebi, nodar?... _ kotem gadaixarxara. SeSinebuli nodari da igori fexze wamoxtnen. kotem sadisturi xarxari swrafad Sewyvita da da mobodiSebiT miuTiTa stumrebs skamisken. _ dasxediT, biWebo! _ damSviddi kote. deda Seibrale. is gelis. Tvalcremliani bebia sofelSi gelodeba. Seni sicocxlec da Seni dabrunebac aucilebelia CemTvis, Zmao. nodarma xeli gaiSvira, raTa Zmas Sexeboda. misi xeli TvalebTan miitana da aqviTinda. igorma ver gauZlo am suraTs da wamodga. viwro derefanSi siaruli daiwyo. _ nu tiri, nodar! mapatie, rom guli gatkine! _ kote CanTas waetana da iqidan vaSli amoiRo. _ jarSi rom wavedi, sami vaSlis xe davrge sofelSi. bebia mwerda, rogor gaixara, rogor gaizarda da ramdeni cali vaSli moisxa. roca momenatrebiT, Zvel werilebs vkiTxulob xolme. TiTqmis yvela zepirad daviswavle. _ nodar, gaxsovs? bavSvobisas erTi gasarTobi TamaSi miyvarda. `nela wadi, Sors iqnebi~ erqva. _ kotem bavSvurad gaiRima. _ erTi bavSvi zurgs ukan, ymawvilebi ramdenime nabijis moSorebiT ganvlagdebodiT xolme. bavSvi daiZaxebda, `wadi nela, Sors iqnebi~! da myisve ukan ixedeboda. ymawvilebis mizani iyo, ise misuliyvnen mis zurgsukan, rom damZaxebels ar daenaxa. winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi, ymawvils ukan abrunebdnen. is bavSvi imarjvebda, romelic
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SeumCnevlad miiwevda win. kote Sedga, mwared amoioxra da naRvlianad daumata: _ hoda, me mudam ukan mabrunebdnen, sawyis xazze, radgan sulswrafi viyavi da male mindoda mivsuliyavi finiSamde. Zalian xSirad magondeba es TamaSi. didi cxovrebiseuli sibrZnea iq Cadebuli. me Cqara mindoda yvelaferi. swrafad mindoda, yvelafrisTvis mimeRwia, amitomac miWiravs sawyisi xazi. _ bebom fuli mogvca. iqneb gveTxova leitenantisTvis, davtovebT!_ uTxra nodarma Zmas. _ ar SeiZleba! _ Seaxsena oficerma. _ ar daganebebT!_ zizRiT gadaxeda kotem. _ fuli namcxvris qveS dadeT, rogorc ki SemTxveva mogecemaT._ uTxra qarTulad. nodarma namcxvari SesTavaza leitenants. man uari uTxra. _ SeiZleba, sigareti movwio? _ uTxra kotem. leitenentma Tavi dauqnia. sami ormocdaaTmaneTiani dakeca nodarma da namcxvris qveS dado. oficerma Tvali aarida. kote namcxvars waetana da fulTan erTad aiRo. _ roca aqedan gamiyvanen, gamaSiSvleben da kapitalurad Semamowmeben. fulis Setana sastikad akrZalulia. kotem sigareti moswia. nodarma leitenants Sexeda. _ ara, jer am namcxvars SevWam. _ xelSi namcxvari aiRo. igori Tvals ar aSorebda im xels, romelSic namcxvari da fuli ekava. kote maT moxerxebulad atrialebda. mere auRelveblad dakeca fuli da cal-calke namcxvarSi Seaxvia. stumrebi fiqrobdnen, rom kote namcxvris natexebs jibeSi Caiwyobda, magram raRac saswauli moxda, romlis xilvam ara mxolod Tavzari dasca maT, aramed gaaogna da SeaSina kidec. kotem erTi Rrmad amoisunTqa da natexebi samjer cal-calke gadaylapa. `fulis mWameli adamiani~! _ gaifiqra igorma, roca mis Tvalwin Tvalis daxamxamebaSi es moxda. Tvalebi daxuWa. nodari ukan gadaqanda. droze Seikava Tavi, Torem skams sazurge ar hqonda da Zirs daecemoda. Semdeg Tavi xelebSi Cargo da aqviTinda. es iyo sabediswero SemTxveva igoris cxovrebaSi. sxvas rom eambna, ar daijerebda. man Tavisi cxovrebaSi pirvelad naxa dasjili adamianis ubedureba. es yvelaferi ise mZimed ganicada, rom mis sulSi samyarosadmi gaoreba moxda. kote xeliT Seexo nodaris mxrebs, saxe auwia da TvalebSi Caxeda.
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_ ramdeni gawameT, yvelas vTxov patiebas Cemi saqcielis gamo. yvelaze metad bebo menatreba. _ mere axladgacnobil siZes miubrunda. _ Tqven ar ifiqroT, rom fuli miyvars. me is mWirdeba. _ Semdeg Sedga, Cafiqrda da isev satanurad axarxarda. _ nu aReldebiT Cemo angelozebo, Tqvens win ubeduri naZirala zis. am cxovrebaSi wmindanoba mxolod erTeulTa xvedria. aTasi rjulis xalxi zis Cems gverdiT. iseTebic arian, dRes Cveulebrivi cxovrebiT rom cxovroben Tqvens gverdiT. esec gangebis bralia. an gangeba maT xelSia jer-jerobiT. CemTan qurdebic bevria da mkvlelebic, zarmacebic da politikosebic. yvelaze metad `kulturuli qurdebi~ mZuls. sxvebs patiosnebisken rom miuTiTeben da TviTon yovel wuTs upatiosno cxovrebas ewevian. nebadarTul da nebadaurTvel kanonebs Tavis sasargeblod iyeneben, Sorsmxedveli saTvaleebi ukeTiaT da Tbilad cxovroben. maTze yovelTvis amboben, ra Wkviani gamovida, sxvasac aWmevs da TviTonac Wameno. didi siamovnebiT CavCridi im moparul fuls, rac maT xalxs waaglijes, davtkbebodi maTi wamebiT. ar dagaviwydes da, yvela didi danaSauli im `Wkviani kacebidan~ modis swored. kote wamodga. oTaxSi gaiar-gamoiara. Semdeg leitenantis gverdiT Sedga da uTxra. _ bevri ar gvisaubria, magram dro amoiwura. matarebelmac ar gagaswroT. stumrebi welmowyvetiT wamodgnen. roca Zmebi erTmaneTs gadaexvivnen, kidev gabrwyinda cremli kotes TvalebSi. _ ara mgonia, kidev Segxvde, nodar, magram gaxsovdes, me ar vyofilvar iseTi, Cemi Zmobis rom Segrcxves. me am samyaroSi TiTiT saCvenebeli var.
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`xSirad mifiqria erT metad samwuxaro mdgomareobaze da roca am sakiTxze vfiqrobdi, aTasi dadebiTi Tu uaryofiTi pasuxi momdioda TavSi. isini ise awonasworeben erTmaneTs, rom imaze, razec vfiqrobdi, ar vicodi dadebiTi pasuxi gameca, Tu uaryofiTi. es fiqrebi ki xSirad mosvenebas makargvinebdnen Tavisi gamocxadebiT da ukve sakuTar Tavze amxedrebuli vkiTxulobdi, risTvis movedi amqveynad da Tu movedi, risTvis avcdi swor gzas? xSirad SeSinebuli vixedebodi ukan. nuTu CemSi, imdroindel umanko bavSvSi, dRes viRac sxva Casaxlebuliyo da Cems suls marTavda. warsuli ki Tavisi didi, bavSvuri TvalebiT Semomcqeroda da pasuxs eloda. ,,viRac sxva ki usindisod dahpatroneboda Cems organizms, fiqris saSualebas ar maZlevda, xelSi maCeCebda gaSlil bades, rom mesrola cxovrebis zRvaSi
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da dameWira bevri Tevzi. ymawvilis ukmayofilo Tvalebi Tvals maridebdnen, roca am Tevzs vinawilebdi. Tvals aridebda maTac, siamovnebiT rom iRebdnen Cems ,,saCuqrebs, aravin icoda, ra sulieri Widili iyo Casaxuli, ra sulieri orTabrZola mimdinareobda CemSi. me maTTvis damxmare muSa viyavi da verasodes gaigebdnen im umanko bavSvis Segonebas, fexSiSveli rom darboda omis dros, wisqvilTan, Sav ZaZebSi gaxveul qalebTan rom eloda Tavis rigs, mSobliurma skolam qebis sigeliT rom gamoistumra da umaRles saswavlebelSi mainc ver moxvda. is iyo, yoveli badis gadagdebis win xels rom waatanda xelze da mudariT mTxovda, xeli gameSva badisaTvis. ukve Zlieri iyo da, rac mTavaria, mas sxva marTavda. amitom veRar mereoda. bade cocxali TevzebiT iyo savse. isini frTxialebdnen da Svelas elodnen, magram meore ufro Zlieri xma amis uflebas arasodes ar aZlevda.~ am fiqrebiT damZimebuli gigola aivazaSvili nestor CikvilaZis saxls miadga. ezos WiSkarTan Sedga. TiTi zaris Rilakisken frTxilad gaiSvira da dareka. kari gauRes. CikvilaZeebis ojaxSi yvela icnobda mas, gretasTvis ki ucnobi iyo da amitom stumari SeaTvaliera. _ Tqven igor nestoriCis meuRle brZandebiT? _ misalmebis Semdeg frTxilad SeekiTxa aivazaSvili. gretam Tanxmobis niSnad odnav Tavi dauqnia da stumris iRliaSi qaRaldSi gaxveul sagans Tvali Seavlo. misi mzera myisve daiWira stumarma, odnav gauRima da saCqarod uTxra, _ me misi TanamSromeli var! greta erTxans Seyovnda, ar icoda SeepatiJebina ucnobi, Tu ara. stumris iRliaSi gaCxerili sagani ki macduneblad iyureboda da _ SemobrZandiT, albaT igorma gamoggzavnaT. gaxarebuli gigola gretas gahyva. ezoSi talaveris qveS skamze miuTiTa, TviTon ki Soriaxlos gaCerda. _ nestori sad aris? misi megobari viyavi erT dros. ai, kaci. namdvili kaci... _ Cemi mamamTili gareT gavida. avadmyofobs am bolo dros. _ auxsna gretam. gigolam magidaze gaxveuli sagani dado. greta meore mxares skamze Camojda. _ me TqvenTan saqmeze movedi. saqmianma xalxma gamomgzavna. greta SekrTa, is mixvda, rom viRacas raRacaSi sWirdeboda. _ gismenT! _ did xans ar SegawuxebT, ubralod agixsniT. _ gigolam Caaxvela. xeli, romelic magidaze edo, daakakuna, Semdeg cxvirze Camoisva da kefa moifxana. axalgazrda diasaxlisi SesCereboda stumris Caqufrul saxes.
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Savi TvalebiT saqmianad zomavda qals da SeiZleba, misi meuRlis momavalsac. msgavsi gamoxedva qals arasdros enaxa. is mixvda, rom im mamakacis ukan, romelic masTan mosalaparakeblad mivida, idga adamianTa jgufi, romlsac surdaT gretas daxmareba. _ koleqtivis saxeliT movedi. _ gismenT, brZaneT. _ Tu muSaobis stili ar Secvala axalma direqtorma, saqme Sors ar wava. _ magram me ra SemiZlia? _ unda auxsnaT. qals bevri ram SeuZlia. ase rom ar iyos, aba, ojaxSi mTavari sityva ratom ekuTvnis qals? ho, da auxsniT, rom universaluri bazis direqtori riskiani unda iyos, marifaTianic da patiosnad mohqondes Tavi. _ Tqven rogor moiqceodiT? _ me? _ gigolam Rrmad SeisunTqa haeri. mas ar surda gulis im sims Sexeboda, sadac jer kidev feTqavda patiosneba. _ Cems Tavze bevri wisqvili datrialda. Seni mamamTilisTvis mudam saqmiani kaci viyavi. davrwmundi, erTi dro aravis SerCenia. me dRes ubralo muSis adgilze vmuSaob, Tumca didi cxovrebiseuli saqmis garigebac mevaleba. aucilebelia is niWi gamogvyves, or mosisxle mters moyvared rom gaxdis. gana, lamazia bazis direqtori ise wavides bazidan, rom Tavisi sityva ar Tqvas. gigolam saxls Sexeda. _ urigod ar xarT, magram yofil direqtors brolis SuSebi usvia fanjrebSi,ucxouri naxatebiT aavso darbazebi, misi saxli muzeums ufro hgavs, vidre sacxovrebels. sul erTia, aravis araferi SerCenia da Zalian nu gamoidebs Tavs patiosnebaze. gigolam qaRaldi gaxsna da brolis vazam gaibrwyina. _ wminda wylis brolia, Cexuri. _ ra lamazia? _ Tvis bolos gamoiareT. ucxouri saqoneli daaTvaliereT! _ gigola wamodga. Tavi daukra axalgazrda diasaxliss. _ Cems mamamTils dalodebodiT! _ ara, geTayva. xuT adgilze var dRes misasvleli. WiSkramde miacila gretam. ukan mobrunebulma vaza aiRo da meore sarTulze avida. nestoris saxlidan gamosuli gigolas win igoris manqana SeCerda. gigolas ar esiamovna es Sexvedra, Tvali aarida da mopirdapire mxarisken wavida. manqanidan gadmosulma natom gakvirvebiT gaayola Tvali. _ netav, ra undoda? _ gaifiqra natom. icno nestoris TanamSromeli, romelic maTTan mxolod `did saqmeebze modioda xolme. greta aivanze daxvda mZime CanTiT dabrunebul vasikos.
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_ vaso, geTayva, salonSi gamiyvane. _ cota male, Torem saministroSi igori melodeba. roca greta vasikos gverdiT mokalaTda, dabal xmaze SeekiTxa. _ axlaxan, CemTan, erT saqonelmcodnes muSa gamoegzavna. _ vin muSa? _ gzaSi rom SegxvdaT? _ ratom? _ TviTon ar vici, ratom? _ ar giTxraT, vin gamogzavna? _ samrewvelo saqonelmcodnem. _ oho, mere rao? albaT daxmareba unda. gamoiWires, maRaziis gamgeebidan qrTams iRebda. _ mere? _ gamococxlda greta. _ mere da igorma xalxi miugzavna da... _ sacodavi, mas verafriT Wkua ver vaswavleT. _ vis, saqonelmcodnes? _ ara, igors. _ he, ras ambob? igors ra Wkua unda aswavlo? igorisTana patiosani kaci meore ar dadis duniaze. _ Seinaxos, kargad Seinaxos Tavisi patiosneba. vasikom mxrebi ukmayofilod aiCeCa. _ saqoneli Turme Tvis bolos modis, iqneb gamiyvano am dros bazaSi. rac igori direqtoria, Cemi biZaSvili qurqs mTxovs, fexsacmeli normaluri ar macvia. iqneb sxva raimec iyos wesieri, Torem igori ,,isnis fexsacmels momitans. me Sen getyvi, gaarCevs cuds kargisagan? vasiko saxtad darCa da gaCumeba arCia. _ isev me daviWiro Tadarigi, Torem im muSam marTali miTxra... fiqrobda gzadagza greta, _rogori saqmiani da Wkviani saxe hqonda im muSas. Tu greta imas ambobda, rasac fiqrobda da aras dagidevda Tavis naTqvamiT, natalia dimitrevna sul sxva iyo. masSi im Tavidan am Tavamde ori sxvadasxva adamiani SenivTebuliyo. erTsa da imave dros am adamians SeeZlo ori saxiT sCveneboda gareSe myofT da Tavis or bunebas ise iyenebda, rogorc TviTon sWirdeboda. Tu greta winaswar gauTvaliswineblad ityoda mTavars da kamaTsac damTavrebulad CaTvlida, nato ramdenime sxvadasxva azris mqone meorexarisxovan SekiTxvas dasvamda, rom gaego, romeli iyo mTavari. saRamos, rogorc ki natom vasiko daimartoxela, Tavis sawol oTaxSi miiyvana, sawoli Seatrialebina, kidev raRacaSi miixmara. rogorc ki gareT gamovidnen, TiTqos sasxvaTaSorisod uTxra: _ rogor damaviwyda, nestorsac xSirad mouyvania aq. iqneb
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nestori undoda, gzaSi rom SegvefeTa. vasikom enas kbili daaWira. _ bazaSi? netav, vin undoda? _ SeiZleba viRacis gamogzavnili iyo. _moulodnelad kbilebs moswyda da mere saSinlad inana. natos TvalebSi uceb gaelvebulma cecxlma SeaSina Wabuki, mixvda, rom cota unda eleparaka am qalTan. nato, imis miuxedavad, rom rZlis mimarT mudam cudad iyo ganwyobili, arasodes Tavis Tavs ar miscemda uflebas rZalze viRacebTan augad elaparaka, miTumetes, Tavis Svilis mZRolTan. rZlis sawinaaRmdegos mxolod qmarTan laparakobda. _ greta qmris gareSe arasodes gadadgams nabijs! - vasikos dasarwmuneblad Tqva dedamTilma. marto darCenilma natom uceb gansazRvra Seqmnili mdgomareoba ojaxSi. pirvelobis dakargvis SiSma gadaadgmevina erTi, metad gauTvaliswinebeli nabiji. gavida dro, rZali da dedamTili TavisTvis eZebdnen bazaSi Sesvlis gzebs. erTxel telefonis xmaze natom yurmili aiRo. yurTan moridebuli mamakacis rbili xma _ igor nestoroviCis meuRles sTxoveT! _ gaisma xma. qalma im wuTSi moisazra, rom igoris TanamSromeli iyo da dayvavebiT uTxra: _ greta saxlSi ar aris, geTayva. me igoris deda var, ra gadavce, roca mova? _ ukacravad, Tumca sul erTia._ aseve gaisma yurSi xma. _ gadaeciT, rom merve sawyobSi importia Semosuli. Tu dros gamonaxavs, Semoiaros. _ keTili. diliT mofiqrebuli hqonda gretas, ra saaTebSi unda misuliyo bazaSi. man RamiT qmrisgan gaigo, rom oTxi saaTidan sammarTveloSi unda yofiliyo, amitom bazaSi misvla TanamSromlis manqaniT gadawyvita. oTxi saaTis Semdeg, raRac ori wuTiT vasikom Semoirbina da natom Seityo, rom is Tavisufali iyo. sixaruliT Seegeba. _ ra kargi biWi xar, bazaSi minda gaviaro, iqneba, TamilasTvis palto meSova. _ paltoebi Semosulia! _ mxolod igorTan araferi dagcdes! _ manqanaSi CajdomisTanave gaafrTxila ymawvili. vasikos gulze moxvda, magram male Tavi daimSvida, qali amjerad Tamilaze zrunavda. _ xom ici, ra wuniaa Tamila? netav, misi mosawoni Semxvdes rame.
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vasikom qals gakvirvebiT Sexeda, Tamilaze aseTi braldeba ar moewona, magram ar SehkamaTebia. manqana gzajvaredinze idga da SuqniSnebs misCereboda. igoris manqanis gamoCenisTanave darajma kari gaaRo. nato centraluri bazis teritoriaze uxmaurod aRmoCnda da moxda saswauli: bazaSi samrewvelo saqonlis sawyobSi rZali da dedamTili erTmaneTs SeefeTnen. _ RmerTo momkali, Cven ki saxlSi gelodebodiT, rom erTad wamovsuliyaviT. _ dedamTilis droulma sityvebma rZlis saxeze gabneuli ironia gafanta. mosiyvarule deda-SviliviT daSordnen erTmaneTs. _ Cqara unda davbrundeT! _ es palto Tamilas mainc ar moewoneba da nu etyvi mas. mezoblis gogona universitetSi moewyo. mexveweba, erTi palto maSovnineo da rasac mTxov, imas mogcemo. vasiko SekrTa. amas ar moeloda. manqana mkveTrad SeaCera. nato SeSinda. _ ra moxda? _ Suq-niSania! _ ah, me ki... _ nestori umuSevaria, aqedan darCenili fuliT SemdegSi vuyidi Tamilas paltos. vasiko aRar usmenda. kidevac amarTlebda mas. _ marTlac saidan unda hqonoda paltos sayideli fuli? Tamilas ki marTlac mouxdeboda is palto. _ `dedas rom SevuTvalo, iqneb gamomigzavnos~! _fiqrobda vasiko, vasiko ise Caeba greta-natos TvalTmaqcur TamaSSi, pirvelad ver mixvda, ra rols TamaSobda TviTon. igoris gverdis avliT, orivem bazidan spekuliantebi aiyvanes gamosuli saqonlis sarealizaciod. _ `valebi damaxvedres da mevaxSe gamxades~ _ buzRunebda ukmayofilo greta. gavida dro da rZalsac da dedamTilsac axali gamdidrebis saSualeba gauCndaT. _ is biWi mamaSenis naTlulia. sabuRaltro daumTavrebia. simamrma Cawera TbilisSi, samuSaos eZebs, iqneb, unaxo rame. _ sTxova dedam Svils. xolo qmris ,,naTlulis Svils, romelic nestors arasdros enaxa, roca igorisgan Tanxmoba miiRo, aseTi saubari gaumarTa. _ Cemo biWiko, am adgilSi, Sen rom moewyobi, xalxi tricittiSis iRebs. me ki ufro iafad gamogiyvan. Cemi Svili patiosnad gavzarde. mis amxanagebTan gagikeTeb saqmes. _ es iaponuri faifuria. ici, amis fasi, xelze ra Rirs? zustad
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sammagi mogeba geqneba. me ki TavSi Tavs gTxov. me Tu ar viwvale, Cemi qmari uSarvlod gamova im adgilidan, Tanac xalxs hgoniaT, rom oqro-vercxlSi macuravebs. _ usircxvilod arigebda Tavis spekuliants greta. _ saxli gasaremontebelia, WaRebi Sesacvleli, aveji SesaZeni, Cemi qmari ki?... _ qali ar Takilobda am ucxo rjulis spekuliantebTan qmris augad xsenebas. _ vaso, yuradReba miaqcie, berZnuli pianino xom ar Semosula bazaSi? qalebis kalTebze gamobmuli vasiko am or qals Soris retdasxmuli darboda da TandaTan grZnobda, rogor Sordeboda sakuTar Tavs. TviTon verc mixvda, rogor gaxda mTavari figura. is erTdroulad bazaSi despanic iyo da igoris moRalatec, spekulaciis xelSemwyobic da bazidan saqonlis gamomtanic. igi iseve manqana gaxda am ori qalis xelSi, rogorc misi saWe. ar icoda, rodis eqneboda dasasruli am mdgomareobas, an saerTod damTavrdeboda Tu ara es yvelaferi. wels Tamila samedicino teqnikums amTavrebda da isic ar icoda, gaxdeboda Tu ara misi coli. erTi wuTiT amosunTqvis saSualeba ar hqonda, amis uflebas ar aZlevda arc erTi qali. daria gamomwvevad sdumda. es dumili im avismomaswavebel siCumes hgavda, elvis Semdeg rom wveba xolme da Semdeg samarisebul siwynareSi quxiliT rom SesZravs aremares. omSi dakarguli qmris qvrivs da soflis TavkacebTan mdgom qals iqneb brZolis unari daekarga, an iqneb erTi Svilis dedam sisuste gamoiCina SvilTan brZolaSi.
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TamilasTvis, ise rogorc yvela damwyebi eqTnisTvis, samuSao dRe Cveulebrivad daiwyo. mere ki, rogor eloda am dRes damoukidebeli, viRacisTvis saWiro adamiani gaxda. rac mTavaria, mas aravin gamosTiSavda saqmidan, rogorc saxlSi xdeboda xolme. pirvelad rac SeigrZno, es iyo wamlis mZafri suni, TeTrxalaTiani adamianebis naCqarevi siaruli da mnaxvelebis SeSfoTebuli saxeebi. ganyofilebis gamgis kabinetidan gamovida, sadac pirveli rCeva-darigeba miiRo. ufrosTan ramdenime wuTis saubarma qaliSvili gaamxneva. es dRe ki sikvdilamde daamaxsovrda. _ katastrofis SemTxvevaa! _ mimRebSi viRacam daiZaxa da mTeli ganyofileba fexze dadga. TiTqos yvela da yvelaferi amoZravda, eqimebidan dawyebuli, sanitrebiT damTavrebuli. cnobismoyvare avadmyofebic saerTo xmaurs SeuerTdnen.
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ambis gasagebad bevrma yavarjniani fexi sawolidan gamohyo da derefanSi gavida. axalbeda eqTanic maT gahyva. TiTqos guSin iyo, Tamilam jer saskolo merxi, mere ki samedicino teqnikumi rom datova. saavadmyofoSi praqtika gaiara, magram maSin yvelaferi sxvis saqmed eCveneboda. avadmyofTan cnobismoyvareobis gamo midioda, dRes ki pirvelad warsdga avadmyofis winaSe, rogorc pasuxismgebeli piri. jer kidev guSin lamazi zRapariviT eCveneboda axal cxovrebaSi gadasadgmeli damoukidebeli nabijebi. fiqrobda, rom balaxebiT moarCenda momakvdav Wabuks, rogorc grZneuli qalwuli. bavSvobaSi aseTi bevri waukiTxavs. mis win TeTrzewargadafarebul taxtze oTxi wlis mSvenieri gogona daawvines. xelebis kankaliT SemoaWra gasisxlianebuli kaba da saoperaciod moamzada. qirurgi mkacrad iTxovda saoperacio xelsawyoebs da isic aZlevda. _ gadarCeba, aucileblad gadarCeba! _ gulisfancqaliT fiqrobda gogona da im wuTSi veravin daarwmunebda imaSi, rom bavSvTan axlos idga sikvdili. qirurgis saxes iotisodena sixaruli ar emCneoda, ofli saxeze Rvarad Camosdioda da sikvdils ebrZoda. _ gadarCeba, aucileblad gadarCeba! _ imeorebda gogona da SiSiT CasCereboda gakveTil sxeuls. ar surda, daejerebina, rom brma SemTxvevas bavSvisTvis saSineli ganaCeni gamoetana. bavSvs zewari waafares. majiscema, didi xania, Semwydariyo. qaliSvils xelSi SerCenoda gogonas gaciebuli xeli da mainc jiutad eloda saswauls. bavSvis xelis gaTboba surda. qaliSvils Tavbru exveoda, Wirisuflis godeba esmoda da mis sulSi saSinel moCvenebasaviT aRmarTuliyo sikvdilis SiSi. _ ver gadarCa! - axla ukve sxva CurCulebda mis yurTan da TviTonac emSvidobeboda sakuTar bavSvobas. ver gaego, rodis gamoacales bavSvis sxeuli. didxans idga garindebuli, fanjris minaze akruli. saavadmyofos ezo bavSvis Wirisuflebisgan didi xania dacarielda. TiTqos viRac daborialebda Tamilas yurTan da mbrZanebluri xmiT CasZaxoda: adamiano, gaufrTxildi sakuTar sicocxles! Semdeg am xmis eqo palataSi gadadioda da moguduli xmiT imeorebda. _ adamiano, gaufrTxildi sakuTar sicocxles! _ Tamila, Sen gkiTxuloben! - moesma sanitris xma. Tamila gamoerkva da mZime nabijebiT mivida telefonTan. _ gismenT! deda xar? _ saRamos vasiko gamogivlis. pirdapir saxlSi modi. igors saministrodan xalxi mohyavs.
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Tamila daeloda, sanam nato yurmils dadebda. Semdeg uxalisod Cailaparaka: _ RmerTo Cemo, dedam arc ki icis, risTvis daxarjos Tavisi energia. _ avadmyofi, pirveli palatidan, cudad aris! _ kidev gamoafxizla Tamila sanitris xmam. _ saswrafod eqims uxme, magram daicade... Sen avadmyofTan midi... _ Tamila Cqari nabijiT eqimis kabinetisken wavida. saRamos Tamilas vasikom manqaniT moakiTxa. kariskacs sTxova, daeZaxna misTvis. _ damelodos, axlave Camoval! _ daabara kariskacs. Tamilam xalaTi gaixada. _ RmerTo Cemo, aseTi dRe arasdros mqonia. Cemi muSaobis pirveli dRe... avadmyofi pirveli palatidan mdgomareobidan gamodis. xval davrekav da gavigeb, rogor iqneba! _ fiqrobda Tamila. mere manqanaSi Cajda.vasikosTvis araferi uTqvams, saSinlad daRlili iyo. laparakis Tavi ar hqonda. didi siamovnebiT gaiseirnebda am wynar saRamos qalaqgareT. _ vin aris? - uxalisod ikiTxa Tamilam. _ sad? _ stumrebi. _ ra stumrebi? _ dedam dareka. _ miTxra, rom erT spekulantTan unda wamyve raRaceebis sayidlado. _ sad? - jer ver moxvda Tamila. - mere, me ratom unda gavakeTo? _ SeSfoTebiT ikiTxa. _ Sen araferi. _ Seebrala vaJs qaliSvili. _ manqanaSi Cems gverdiT ijeqi, danarCens me gavakeTeb. _ RmerTo Cemo, ratom ver ZReba es xalxi, anda, risTvis aris saWiro amdeni saqmeebis rCeva, isedac xom iseTi xanmoklea sicocxle!- ukmayofilod Cailaparaka Tamilam. _ sad cxovrobs spekulanti? _ didubeSi. _ nodarTan gaviaroT. sadme gaviseirnoT. dRes iseTi ganwyoba maqvs, rom TiTqos guli gamiCerda. _ Sen mainc ra dagemarTa? _ ratom `Sen mainc~? _ Tamilam vasikos Sexeda, gaukvirda. es sicocxliT savse Wabuki saSinlad daRliliyo. dRevandeli dRe moagonda, bavSvis umanko saxeze sisxlSi areuli cremli, romelic mas Seyinvoda. _ Sen daRlili xar, vaso! _ hm! _ vasiko Tamilas ar ucqeroda, magram grZnobda, rogor TvalebiT misCereboda mas.
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isev aesveta fanjris minas qaliSvili. ezoSi mosCanda bavSvis Wirisufali da misi sudaraSi gaxveuli sxeuli. viRac kioda, viRac mosTqvamda, viRac yviroda da yvelaferi erTad gugunebda mis sulSi. viRacis Zlieri xma isev daJinebiT CasZaxoda yurTan: _ adamiano, gaufrTxildi sakuTar sicocxles! Tamila aRar ucqeroda misTvis esoden sayvarel adamians. TavdaRmarTze Cadioda manqana. viRaceebi Cqari nabijiT hkveTdnen quCas. _ ra Tqvi? - gamoerkva vasiko. _ adamianebi ratom ar vufrTxildebiT sicocxles? igi xom iseTi xanmoklea... Cven ki... sul raRacas vepotinebiT da odesme sasacilod mogveCveneba is, risTvisac amdeni vecadeT. _ aseTi azrebi rodidan gagiCnda, Tamila? - TiTqos sayveduriTac uTxra vaJma. es sayveduri mizanSi moxvda qalis guls. _ ai, gicqeri da sindisis qenjna mipyrobs, vaso. ukve ramdeni welia, erT WerqveS vcxovrobT. me dagRale. _ ra SuaSi xar Sen, Tamila? _ SuaSi? SuaSi ki ara, damnaSave var Sens winaSe. me Sen dagRale da ar vici, rogor gamogiyvano am mdgomareobidan. vasikos saxe daenisla. mis TvalebSi didi xania, aRar TamaSobda alali adamianis sijiute. mousvenroba daetyo mis gamoxedvas. _ Sen marTali xar, Tamila. me daviRale. saSinlad gamovifite. am saWesaviT gavxdi. iqiT-aqeT rom vtrialeb. roca Sen gadawyvet, aqedan wavalT. momwyinda salonis win dgoma, tansacmlis qimwmendaSi waReba, bazridan sursaTis motana da, rac yvelaze metad damamcirebelia CemTvis, ori qalis gamudmebuli sicrue. ase mgonia, Cemi sakuTari yvelaferi davkarge da am ori qalis tvini Casaxlda Cems dacarielebul Tavis qalaSi. dro aRar mrCeba, vifiqro Cems momavalze da Senze. _ naRvliani RimiliT laparakobda vasiko. saxe mitkaliviT gafiTreboda. Tamilam erTxans ganridebulma ucqira, Semdeg xeli gauwoda da mis urC Tmas Seeexo ise, rogorc dedebi eferebian xolme Tavis Svilebs. _ vasiko! _ Rrmad amoisunTqa. xeli moaSora da uTxra is, risi Tqmac didi xania, gadawyvita. _ rasac me axla getyvi, dRes ar momifiqrebia. igi aTasjer gazomili da gawonilia. Tu dRemde ar miTqvams, Zala ar Semwevda... xom ar ajobebs, erTmaneTs davSordeT? vasikom uxeSi moZraobiT manqana SeaCera, aseTive uxeSi moZraobiT Tamila Tavisken miatriala, saxe auwiTlda da gaborotebuli TvalebiT Sexeda. mere mxrebSi xelebi Caavlo da SeanjRria. _ ra Tqvi? gaimeore! Tamilas surda, rame eTqva, magram Tavi Seikava. surda, va- 154 -

sikosTvis pirvel eldas gaevlo. _ axla davSordeT? da gaqvs ufleba, es miTxra? SenTvis guli davkarge. Tvalebs vxuWav, roca dedaCemi, romelsac erTaderTi vyavar amqveynad, sayveduriT miyurebs. imis uflebasac ar vaZlev, raime miTxra. diliT gaTeneba Senze fiqriT iwyeba da imitom vcocxlob, rom Sen janmrTeli iyo. ususuri monasaviT davrbivar or qals Soris im imediT, rom SenTan axlos viyo da sicocxle Segimsubuqo. visTan dagtovo? es mainc miTxari, Se, uRmerTo? Tamila ar cdila misi xelebis moSorebas. marTlac, Tu ki raime amaRlebuli da kargi iyo mis cxovrebaSi, vasikosadmi siyvaruli iyo. ar fiqrobda, mis gareSe rogor iqneboda. vaJisadmi siyvaruls ise aevso misi guli, rom ver gaerkvia, xeli, romelic mas exeboda, misi iyo, Tu vasikosi. _ Sen ici, me kidev samkurnalo var. Tanac isic ici, ra Znelia dedaSenisTvis Cemi rZloba. vasikom xelebi Camoacura misi mxrebidan. Soridan Sexeda sayvarel qals, mis mtredisfer saxeze wiTeli xazi kiafobda. igrZno, ra Zneli iyo qaliSvilisTvis imis Tqma rac Tqva. axlac vaJkacurad itanda, rom cremlebi ar wamoscvenoda. vasiko gaognebuli SesCereboda sayvarel arsebas. mas ar surda riTime, Tundac spetaki kocniT SeebRala is didi grZnoba, romelic axla am qaliSvilSi iyo. mxolod Tmebi Seuswora. axla arafris Tqma aRar Rirda. vasiko mzad iyo, aseTi damqancveli mdgomareobiT ecxovra, oRondac mis gverdiT yofiliyo. _ ase arasdros melaparako, Tamila! vasikom isev CarTo Zrava, isev aekra minas qaliSvili da mis yurTan viRacis mbrZanebluri xma isev ismoda. _ adamiano, gaufrTxildi sakuTar sicocxles! vasikom Cqara miuTvala spekulants natosa da gretas mier gamotanebuli saqoneli, danabarebi fasebic gadasca da manqanaSi dabrunda. Tamilas eZina. frTxilad daZra manqana. nela mihyavda, rom ar gaRviZeboda qaliSvils, mere simyudroveSi gaaCera da frTxilad gadmovida manqanidan. gareT qvaze Camojda da papiross moukida. _ vaso, sad xar? vaJma manqana gaaRo da isev CarTo Zrava. _ gamoviZine. ra dReaa dRes... Cemi pirveli avadmyofi gardaicvala. _ ras ambob, ratom ar Tqvi Tavidanve? _ bavSvi oTxi wlis iyo. telefonis jixurs mohkra Tvali Tamilam. _ saxlSi davrekav. dRes gaseirneba minda. _ Tamila manqanidan gadmovida. telefonis nomeri akrifa.
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_ igor, Tu Zma xar, dRes manqana mWirdeba. jixuridan dabrunebulma Tamilam vasikos uTxra: _ axla nodars gavuaroT! _ es ra kargi moifiqre. mec raxania, nodari ar minaxavs. nodari marto cxovrobda sabWos quCis erT, mravalmezoblian, magram myudro ezoSi. dabalWeriani oTaxi saxlze midgmuli iyo. ufrosi Svilis damkargavi deda nodars xSirad akiTxavda da emudareboda, coli SeirTeo. _ diploms aviReb, dediko da mere! _ icinoda nodari. rac igori misi dis qmari gaxda, vasikos gamo da-Zma daaxlovda, Tumca mamasTan isev daZabuli urTierToba hqonda. axalgazrdebi saxtad darCnen, roca karebze daakakunes da iqidan ledi gamovida. mas saSinao kaba ecva. nodari mis ukan idga da darcxvenili saTvales isworebda. ledim megobrebi SeipatiJa. _ Cven xeli movawereT! _ SesvlisTanave uTxra nodarma. Tamilam aRtacebiT taSi Semohkra, rig-rigobiT yelze Camoekida orives. _ magram rodis?es aravin icis? _ Sehyvira vasikom. megobrebs bedniereba miuloca. _ Tqven pirveli xarT, vinc bedniereba mogviloca. _ ra kargia! _ sixaruli veRar damala Tamilam. sawolze Camojda, romelic amave dros skamis movaleobasac asrulebda. _ Cven ki Tamilas samuSao dRis aRniSvna gvindoda da nodarTan gamoviareT. _ marTla, Tamunia? nodar, movemzadoT! megobrebma male datoves nodaris Raribuli bina. manqana nela daiZra. nodari da ledi ukan mokalaTdnen. ledim myisve dRevandeli dRis eqskursiaze Camoagdo saubari da gatacebiT mohyva yvela wvrilmans. _ ra bednieria ledi! _ fiqrobda Tamila. _ yvelafrisgan Tavisufalia. daiwyo axali cxovreba da arc ki SehkiTxvia vinmes. mas aqvs ufleba, yvelaferze ilaparakos, rac moswons da zurgi Seaqcios imas, rac TvalSi ar mouva. nodari bednieri iqneba am arCevaniT. Tamila ukan Setrialda, SuriTac ki Sexeda sayvarel megobrebs. _ Tamila daRlili Tvalebi gaqvs! ledim Sewyvita eqskursiaze saubari da Tamilas daakvirda. _ yvelaferi Sromatevadia. Tu iSromeb... _ ver iqna da ver gandevna dRevandeli dRis STabeWdilebebi Tamilam. megobrebisTvis am dRis gafuWeba misi mxridan namdvilad usindisoba iyo. cxra saaTi iqneboda, roca mTawmindaze avidnen, qalaqis Semx- 156 -

uTavi haeris Semdeg mTawminda namdvili samoTxe aRmoCnda. Tamila cota mosulierda. manqana gaaCeres da iseTi adgili monaxes, rom TbilisisTvis ecqiraT. nodari galaqtionis leqss kiTxulobda, ledi ki sxivCamdgari TvalebiT Sescqeroda. vasiko Tamilas ucqerda daRlili TvalebiT. _ modi, davlioT! _ winadadeba Semoitana Tamilam. yvelam gakvirvebiT Sexeda qaliSvils. sufra vasikom SeukveTa. _ Sampaniuri Tu koniaki? _ Sampaniuri. _ isev Tamilam gasca gankarguleba. _ Tamadac Sen airCie, Tamila! _ sTxova nodarma. dRevandeli dRis gancda megobrebis bednierebasac ver gaenelebina. Tamilas tirili undoda, magram Tavs ikavebda. _ Tamilas pirvel samuSao dRes gaumarjos! _ pauza nodarma darRvia, magram Tamila xelze swvda da SeaCera. telefoni iqve, mopirdapire mxares, magidaze idga. Tamila wamodga, magidasTan mivida da telefonis nomeri akrifa. qaliSvilma raRac ikiTxa da ukan kmayofili dabrunda. _ avadmyofs pirvel palatidan krizisma gauara, iqneb gadarCes. magida sanovagiT aivso. Tamila ise iyo aRgznebuli, rom axla yvela mis sityvas eloda. _ ra kargia, rom yvela Cemi megobari eswreba Cems `bednier~ dRes. igoric rom aq iyos... ra bednieri kacis ieri aqvs mas, sinamdvileSi ki? _ Tamilas xma uTrToda. _ kargi ra, es dRe mainc daitove SenTvis. masze isedac zrunav. _ odnav xmamaRla usayvedura nodarma. _ macale, geTayva, Zlivs es dRe me mekuTvnis. Zalian gTxovT, momisminoT! _ wuTiT SeCerda, Semdeg fexi fexze Semoido, _ iSviaTia aseTi dRe Cems cxovrebaSi, romelic me mekuTvnis da es dRec... Tavi zeviT aswia da haeri CaisunTqa. _ raki Cemi dRea, me macadeT laparaki. SeiZleba, xval sxva dRe iyos Cems cxovrebaSi da sul ar viyo arc sicilis, arc tirilis, arc laparakis xasiaTze. SeiZleba, sulerTi gaxdes yvelaferi. SeiZleba, xval is didi samyaro daimsxvres, Cems ocnebaSi rom warmomedgina mxolod da Cveulebrivi dReebi ise gadaebas erTmaneTs, rom tirilisTvis veRar movicalo. ara, vaso? _ vasikos Tavi aewia da guli eTuTqeboda Tamilas daRlili xmis mosmeniT. _ winadadeba Semomaqvs, oTxivem TiTo sadRegrZelo Tqvas da Cveni Sekreba davamTavroT! _ didebulia! _ wamoiZaxa ledim, _me Tqven momwonxarT!
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yvela gairinda. Tamila iSviaTad aqtiurobda megobrebSic da naTesavebSic. mudam sadRac kuTxeSi rCeboda xolme. cdilobda, Tavisi mdgomareoba sxvebisTvis ar gaeziarebina. uCumrad yofnam is moridebuli gaxada, Tumca misi gamoCena amxanagebSi mokrZalebul pativiscemas iwvevda yovelTvis. yvela mis alaparakebas eloda, radgan icodnen, rom yvelafers Sinagani grZnobiT ambobda. ar axasiaTebda iumori. sxvis TvalebSi Semyure qaliSvils es grZnoba bavSvobidan waerTva da bevri megobari ar hyavda. natos aRzrdili qaliSvili, romlic mudam misi gadaWarbebuli zrunva-kontrolis tyveobaSi iyo, ar cdila, kavSiri daemyarebina natosTvis ucnob adamianebTan. vasikoc, nodaric, ledic nestor CikvilaZis ojaxTan Tamilas gareSe urTierTobdnen, isini man am ojaxSi gaicno. _ Tqven xom ar fiqrobT, galaqtionis leqsiT Sevaqo Cemi dRevandeli dRe, an `mTawminda Cafiqrebula-Ti...~. aq iseTi siwynarea da Tavisufleba, ramdeni leqsi mouxdeboda am dRes. _ me minda, ubralod giamboT Cemi pirveli samuSao dRe. is STabeWdileba gadmogceT, romelmac aavso Cemi sxeuli. mas ginda, sadRegrZelo daarqviT da ginda, amooxra-Sesandobari. yvela smenad iqca. _ am ramdenime saaTis win is darboda, WikWikebda, leqsebs swavlobda. deda kululebs usworebda da TviTonac Sexaroda dedas. mas didi Savi Tvalebi da Savi Tmebi hqonda. dedis Sekerili kaba umowyalod gasvroda sisxlSi da frTxilad makratliT vuWridi kabas, vparsavdi Tmas, gogonas saoperaciod vamzadebdi. Tvalebi daxuWuli hqonda. wamwamebi Crdils hfenda saxeze. cocxali iyo, radgan nestoebi ebereboda gafiTrebul saxeze. zustad vasrulebdi qirurgis brZanebas da gulSi vloculobdi. im umanko bavSvis sicocxleze vloculobdi. ratomRac mjeroda, Cems locvas Zala hqonda da gogona aucileblad gadarCeboda. didxans videqi mis win. Cems xelSi Sewyda Cemi pirveli avadmyofis da isic, bavSvis majiscema. viRacam usityvod gamomacala igi da gvami Wirisufals Caabara. me ki isev im adgilze videqi da Cems pirvel samuSao dRes davtirodi. aRgznebuli usmendnen Tamilas. _ gana SeiZleba, Sesandobari dalio im bavSvis, vinc guSin sicocxles Sehxaroda? im bavSvis dRegrZeloba iyos! _ Sedga, Wiqa aswia da Cailaparaka. _ imaTi sadRegrZelo iyos, vinc sxvis sicocxles ufrTxildeba! _da Wiqa gamoscala. arc erTs araferi daumatebia, ise gamocales Wiqebi. aravis araferi ukiTxavs qaliSvilisTvis, ra saWiro iyo zedmeti laparaki. aravis ukiTxavs, vin iyo msxverpli, an da risTvis mivida sasikvdilo sarecelze. mojadoebuli SesCerebodnen
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gogonas saxes da isic ver moexerxebinaT, raimeTi enugeSebinaT qaliSvili. Zlivs moswyvita mzera vasikom. sasmisi aavso. gaukvirda, rogor cocxlobda maSin, roca es gogona mis gverdiT ar iyo. _ dawynardi, Tamila! _ mxolod amis Tqma moaxerxa. _ gaufrTxildiT sxvis sicocxles! ra didebuli naTqvamia. nodari fexze wamoxta. sasmiss xeli mouWira, Tbiliss gaxeda da amoioxra. _ Cven ki ver gagifrTxildiT, Cemo kote! _ sadRac gaixeda Tavisi axlomxedveli TvalebiT, sasmisi aiRo da Cailaparaka. _ es Seni sadRegrZelo iyos, Cemo kote! _ usityvod Sesves megobrebma es sadRegrZelo. dajda, xelebi saxeze aifara da moguduli xmiT aRmoxda: _ ase mgonia, is arasdros dabrundeba CvenTan. _ pauza didxans grZeldeboda. ledim avsebuli sasmisi aswia da nodaris mxars Seexo. moefera, mere vasikos gaxeda da gauRima. _ Cveni valia, am or adamians gavufrTxildeT! mzera Tamilaze SeaCera. Tamila fermkrTali iyo, misi sxiviani Tvalebi da qaluri momxibvleloba mianiSnebda, rom didi siyvarulisTvis iyo gaCenili. Zlieri sulis mqone qals es amaRlebuli Tviseba memkvidreobiT mieRo Cerqezi bebiisgan. aq msxdomma axalgazrdebma da TviT Tamilamac ar icoda, ra Zlieri siyvarulis matarebeli iyo misi Cerqezi bebia. SviliSvilma ar icoda, ra didi siyvaruliT icxovra CermenTan sul raRac ramdenime weli.. roca qmari moukles, dakarguli meuRlis mimarT ufro gaSmagebuli siyvaruliT gaatara Tavisi xangrZlivi sicocxle. Cermenis siyvarulSi gazarda erTaderTi Svili da samudamod naTesavebs Caabara, TviTon ki darCa qmris saflavis motirlad da mosavlelad. Tamilam ar icoda, rom bebiam mokluli qmris TavTan Tavisi lamazi nawnavebi SeiWra da Cermens sasTumlad gaayola. amiT man amqveyniuri bednierebac gaayola Tan. siyvarulis didi Zala genebiT gadasca jer Svils da Semdeg SviliSvils. kantikuntad warmoTqmuli mSoblebis Sesaxeb cnobebi anerviulebda ubiwo qaliSvils. Tu dRemde natos yoveli sityva misTvis kanoni iyo, axla sul sxva ram SeniSna sakuTar sulSi. viRac ucxo mxridan mosuli naTesavebis xmebi SemZvraliyvnen mis sxeulSi da raRacas urCevdnen. sakuTari cxovreba enatreboda mis guls. _ Sen gagimarjos, Cemo Tamila, Sen amis Rirsi xar. imitom, rom ucxo xar da maxlobelic, Zlieric da Tvinieric. _ gmadlob, ledi!
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yvelam dalia es sadRegrZelo da myisve axlad Sevsili sasmisi vasikom aiRo. _ Tqvens bednierebas gaumarjos, megobrebo da imas gaumarjos, razec axla fiqrobT! sufridan aiSalnen. moajirTan Sedgnen. Tbilisis TaRidan mewamuli feri akruliyo da gaCiraRdnebul TbilisSi Camosuliyo. _ me Tbilisi miyvars! _ warmoTqva ledim. _ is Cemi sicocxlis ujredia. misi yoveli wvrilmani maRelvebs. vamayob, roca romelime ubani xaraCoebSia. meCveneba, rom Cemi suli raRacisTvis izrdeba da Zlierdeba. mivdivar Zvel ubnebSi, ukmarisoba meufleba, roca uZveles istoriul Zeglebze avTvisebiani simsivneebiviT amosulan Zveli drois nagebi saxlebi. ise vwuxvar, TiTqos morieli mimkrobodes mkerdze. erTi suli maqvs, viRacas mivawvdino Cemi xma, rom aiwmindos es qoxebi, romlis msgavsi ukidures soflebSic aRar aris. _ me vocnebob, sadme Zvel ubanSi Tamaris Zegli aRmarTon. is xom uZlieres saqarTvelos ganagebda. gana amis Rirsi ar aris? - ledi gasxivosnebuli TvalebiT hyveboda da misi sityvebi TilismasaviT edeboda megobrebs. ledisTan urTierToba sasiamovno iyo. sakuTari gaviwydeboda da Senc sixaruliT fiqrobdi sakacobrio sixarulze.
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samuSaodan dabrunebulma biWiko qamuSaZem maRaziaSi Seiara. yveli, Zexvi da erTi boTli arayi SeiZina, parkSi Caawyo da saxlSi wavida. ezoSi Sevida Tu ara aivanze mdgar biWs gasZaxa: _ dedaSeni movida? _ movida. _ ra moxda? meuRlem karebSi gamohyo Tavi da qmars kiTxvisniSaniviT gamoecxada. _ me da biWi saxlSi wavalT SabaT-kviras, wavimuSavebT, Rame nu dagvelodebi. _ mec xom ar wamovsuliyavi? _ SeekiTxa coli qmars. _ ara, xval gamogviare, sadili wamogviRe! _ biWiko saxlSi ar Sesula, ise gavida gareT. Tan TxuTmeti wlis biWi aedevna fexdafex. biWiko qamuSaZe isev iseTi iyo. yvelafers sawyensac ki, xumrobiT gadaitanda. qeifobda kidec, radgan janmrTeli iyo da megobrebi uyvarda, samagierod coli Seicvala, aRar buzRunebda, aRar eCxubeboda da wyevlida qmars. es gadatrialeba maSin moxda, roca samsaxuridan dabrunebuls qmarma binis orderi daaxvedra.
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_ axla raRas ityvi? SeekiTxa ironiiT biWiko, _ gigolas kaikacoba rom pirze gekera. me vicodi, rom CemisTana patiosani adamianic ar rCeba daunaxavi. arc aravisTvis momiparavs da arc aravis wauglejia CemTvis. cols jer xumroba egona, moTminebiT moismina qmris monologi, magram roca sabuTSi Tavisi qmris gvari da saxeli waikiTxa, sixaruliT cremlebi gadmoyara. sirbiliT Cavarda sardafSi, Rvino da saWmeli amoitana da mezoblebs dauZaxa. _ ai, yoCaR! aseTi miyvarxar, Cemo mtredo! Seaqo Tvalze cremlmomdgarma biWikom. rogorc yvela ,,keTilmowyobil binas, biWikos saxlsac Selamazeba dasWirda. magram mas es ar gasWirvebia, radgan erTdroulad durgalic iyo da mSenebelic, mlesavic da meparketec. maT bina meore sarTulze SexvdaT. biWikos gadawyvetili hqonda, am SabaT-kviras moeTavebina Savi samuSao. gaukvirda, kari rom Ria daxvda. _ aki davkete? Cailaparaka biWikom. _ qurdebi xom ar Sevidnen? ikiTxa Tamazma. _ mere ra gvaqvs mosapari? CvenTan saqurdlad biWo vin Semova? _ am sityvebiT orive binaSi Sevidnen. biWi aivnisaken wavida. biWikom iqve karebTan dayril agurebze daawyo sursaTi. abanosken gaixeda, kari inZreoda. _ mgoni, marTla viRac aris! gaifiqra biWikom da erTxans gaCumda. Semdeg dauZaxa. _ e, mand vin xar? pasuxi aravin gasca. _ gamodi! _ xmas auwia biWikom. Tamazi aivnidan dabrunda da SeCerda. abanos kari SeinZra, Semdeg WrialiT gaiRo da iqidan Tamazistola biWebi gamovidnen. biWikom aaTvalier-CaaTvaliera isini, biWebis gaborotebul gamoxedvas gangeb Tvali aarida, mere Svils RimiliT miubrunda da uTxra: _ Tamaz, biWo, bedi ar ginda, esenic dasaxmareblad mosulan, dRes aivans ki ara, abanosac amovaSeneb. Tamazma daijera mamis naTqvami. biWebis saxidan myisve gaqra arasasiamovno gamoxedva da erTmaneTs Sexedes. _ Cven ki qurdebi gvegona! alalmarTlad wamoiZaxa biWma. _ ras sulelob, CvenTan qurdebs ra unda? CvenTan marto megobrebi Semodian. es unda daixsomo, Cemo Svilo! aba, gaicaniT biWebo erTmaneTi. da samives RimiliT Tvali Caukra. stumrebi uxerxulad miuaxlovdnen maspinZlis Svils da rigrigobiT xeli CamoarTves. _ soso! _ zura!
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_ Tamazi! _ yoCaR, biWebo! raki erTmaneTi gaicaniT, gadavideT saqmeze. _ Tqva biWikom ise, rom Tvali ar mouSorebia biWebisTvis _ Tamaz, datrialdi, eseni dilidan gvelodebian, moSivdebodaT. _ Tqvenc, biWebo, rogor stumrebiviT iqceviT. biWikom pijaki gaixada. Tamazma sufra gaSala. stumrebi nirwamxdarni Soriaxlos idgnen da ver gadaewyvitaT, rogor moqceuliyvnen. biWikom kidev Caukra maT Tvali da sufrasTan miipatiJa. _ raki pirvelad SemoxvediT, Weri unda midRegrZeloT! _ biWikom aryiani boTli gaxsna da biWebs cot-cota arayi dausxa. _ Tamaz, pirveli Sen adRegrZele es Weri! Tamazma cxvirTan miitana Wiqa, daimanWa da Cailaparaka. _ ara mama, ar SemiZlia! Wiqebi stumrebs miawoda. soso maRali iyo da gamxdari, zura ki Cafskvnili da masTan SedarebiT dabali. _ romeli xarT vaJkaci? aba, bolomde dalieT, aq Semosuli yvela mTvrali unda gavides! _ ara, jer vimuSaoT biZia. SemoiZaxa sosom. _ biWiko! Seageba Tavisi saxeli biWikom. naxevar - naxevari Wiqa aryis dalevam biWebi gaaxalisa. erTbaSad gaTamamdnen. SiSi gauqraT. _ Cven aq... biWiko biZia... raRacis Tqma undoda sosos. zura gafiTrda. _ vici, vici, dilidan melodebodiT... vidre samuSaodan davbrundi, saxlSi Seviare da davagviane kidec! _ sityva Seawyvetina biWikom. _ damaviwyda, romeli profsaswavleblidan xarT? biWiko maT Cacmulobaze mixvda, rom isini romeliRac profsaswavlebelSi swavlobdnen. biWebi Zexvs gulianad ilukmebodnen. sosom saswavlebeli daasaxela. _ dRes albaT, gagicdaT! SeparviT SeekiTxa biWebs biWiko. _ ara, Tumca. . . ho, praqtika ar Cagvitarda. _ albaT, maswavlebeli avad gaxda. _ ara, praqtikisTvis adgili ver iSova. _ rogor Tu ver iSova? gaocda biWiko. _ ver iSova da ise! ukmexad Cailaparaka zuram. biWiko daJinebiT miaCerda xan erTs, xan meores. _ sami dRe swavlaa, sami dRe praqtika. ukve weliwadi midis, praqtika ar Cagvtarebia. dResac gamoviareT ramdenime biWma. raki araferi iyo samuSao, aviTeseT da davdivarT quCebSi. aba, ra gavakeToT? _ ra specialobaze swavlobT?
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_ san-teqnika, magram... sosom ar daasrula saTqmeli. _ ase marto Tqvens jgufSia? Tu... _ gaioca biWikom da sinanuliT Sexeda upatronod gaSvebul biWebs _ ager, Cemi Tamazi wels merve klass amTavrebs, profsaswavlebelSi unda gadameyvana, magram ase Tu aris... biWiko Cafiqrda, _ xom arafers matyuebT biWebo? _ ara, biWiko biZia. arafers ar vityuebiT. Tamazis profsaswavlebelSi Seyvanas namdvilad ar girCevT. biWikos marto soso scemda pasuxs, zura warbSekruli idga da laparakSi ar ereoda. biWiko wamodga. uxalisod misca samuSao biWebs. _ ramdeni samuSaoa Tundac Cems cexSi. TqvenisTana biWebis dausaqmebloba SeiZleba? _ qarxanaSi Cvenc migviyvana Cvenma praqtikis maswavlebelma, magram yuradReba aravis mouqcevia CvenTvis. man erT muSas Caabara Cveni Tavi da daubara... _ es biWebi diliT movlen da sam saaTze wavleno da mis anabara dagvtova. Cveni praqtikis maswavlebeli wavida da Cveni iq yofna yvelam daiviwya. qarxanaSi CvenTvis aravis mouclia. SesasvlelSi SevjgufdiT, Semdeg ki ezoSi miyuJul domonos moTamaSeebs SevuerTdiT. aravin gvekiTxeba, ratom vigvianebT da arc imas gvekiTxebian, risTvis movdivarT. Semdeg sul SeveSviT iq siaruls. albaT arc es SeumCnevia vinmes. _ leqtori ras ambobs? _ CvenTvis ar ukiTxavs araferi, amitom arc viciT ras ambobs. ase mgonia, arc mas scalia CvenTvis. biWiko qamuSaZem samuSao Sewyvita, quCaSi gamodevnili bavSvebis codviT guli daewva. erTi wuTiT warmoidgina Tavisi saxli, avejiT avsebuli. sacodav bavSvebs ras uzamda maSin? aiRebda yurmils da milicias gamouZaxebda, Tu gareT gayrida, Svili ar gamifuWono? SeekiTxa Tavis Tavs biWiko da gulSi ucnauri sevda igrZno. mis win idga ori ususuri, Znelad aRsazrdeli ymawvili, romlebic garkveuli mizezebiT daadgnen dRevandel gzas. SemTxveviT cariela bina da biWikosTana maspinZeli daxvdaT. sabraldebo skamze damjdari es ymawvilebi cixeSi kargs ras iswavlidnen? _ `sasjelmoxdilma da ukve cixeSi gaTviTcnobierebulma axalgazrdebma SeiZleba, uaresi Tavsatexi gauCinos sazogadoebas.~ _ fiqrobda alali bunebis adamiani. - maT saswavlebelSi ki aucileblad mival! dRevandeli dRiT ise iyo aRelvebuli, rom mTeli dRe pirmokumulma imuSava. ymawvilebi yovel droSi ymawvilebi arian, male aviwydebaT wyena. ise gaerTnen muSaobiT, sul daaviwydaT, aq ratom movidnen. male maT sindisis qejnamac gauara. aba, marTlac ra unda
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moeparaT am saxlSi? Tavi daarwmunes, rom isini saerTod binis dasaTvaliereblad Semovidnen. _ Cemi megobari cexSi muSaobs. rkinis WiSkrebs da moajirebs akeTebs. muSaxeli ki aklia. movelaparakebi, iqneb mTeli jgufic ki migiRoT. CemTan marmarilos qvebze muSaoben, iqneb SevZlo, ramdenime dagasaqmoT! ufro Tavis Tavs uTxra biWikom, vidre biWebs. _ xom moxvalT? biWebma erTmaneTs gadaxedes. _ Cven movalT, magram migviReben? biWikos gaukvirda maTi gulgatexili pasuxi. mogvianebiT kesoc movida sursaTiT datvirTuli. sufra isev gazeTgadafarebul ficarze gaawyves. keso biWebs aZalebdaT, kargaT WameTo. Tan xSirad ibodiSebda, ratom ar vicodi, rom aq damxvdebodiTo. _ xval rom moxvideT, kargi biWebi iqnebiT! daabara biWebs biWikom. _ movalT, aucileblad movalT! kidev undoda raRacis Tqma sosos, magram Tavi Seikava. roca marto darCnen, sinanuliT uTxra zuras: _ Cveni praqtikis maswavlebeli rom iyos biWiko, yvelafers gaaCenda. ase mgonia, dRes mSenebloba viswavle. im saRamos, roca mama-Svilma iatakze qveSagebi gaiSales, Svili mamas SeekiTxa; _ marTla Sen daibare mama isini, Tu... biWikom erTxans upasuxod datova Svilis SekiTxva. bolos TiTqos TavisTavs eubnebao, Cailaparaka: _ ra Tqma unda, me ar damibarebia. pirvelad vnaxe isini. qurdebi jer ar arian, magram male gaxdebian, Tu ase ixetiales. Tamazi Cafiqrda da bolos ikiTxa: _ movlen? _ movlen, aucileblad movlen. imaT swor gzaze damyenebeli undaT. Semdeg ra iqneba, roca cixidan gamovlen? uTenia wamodga biWiko. Svils xeli wahkra. is zantad wamoimarTa. _ aba, daviwyoT! dilis varjiSi Seasrules. musika stveniT Seasrula biWikom. _ Cemo Tamaz, es saxli ise unda gavaremontoT, rom kesom sicocxleSi ar mixsenos is gaiZvera gigola. _ amas winaT Semxvda gigolas Tekla... daiwyo Tamazim. _ musikidan modioda... Zalian momenatra Cveni Zveli ezoo. xom ici, ra pranWia gogoa. soso universitetisTvis emzadebao. wels ucxo enis maswavlebeli saxlSi moudiT, patara goCa kalaTburTSi SeuyvaniaT. patara tani aqvs, kalaTburTi aucileblad gazrdiso.
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SarSan kislavodskSi visvenebdi, wels zRvaze mivdivaro. albaT, Sen musikalurze moewyobi-Tqo Sevawyvetine trabaxi Teklas. ras laparakobo, Seicxada. pianinoze dakvra yvela qalma unda icodes, me aucileblad iuridiulze unda momawyos mamam. iq yvelaze meti Semosavaliao. _ didi gegma hqonia gigola avaziSvilis Svilebs. ubedurs ramdeni moparva dasWirdeba, rom mizans miaRwion misma Svilebma. sityva gauwyvita mamam. _ dadgeba im uvici diplomianis dRec. ra cudia udiplomoni rom masxarad aigdeben. _ gigolaze bednieri imitom varT, rom Cven arafris gveSinia. karebze frTxili kakuni gaisma. Tamazma kari gaaRo. guSindeli stumrebi ufro gabedulad Semovidnen. _ ai, xom vTqvi, isini aucileblad movlen-Tqo. imitom, rom sxvagan wasasvleli gza ar aqvT. saxeldaxelod asauzma biWebi, Semdeg samuSao gaunawila maT. Tamazi da soso silas zidavdnen, biWiko da zura isvenebdnen. _ Cveni biWebi aq rom iyvnen, ucbad morCebian am samuSaos. usaqmurad davexetebiT. xan ostats velodebiT, xan is gvelodeba. xan karts vTamaSobT da xanac vCxubobT! alaparakda soso. _ ostats nu abraleb yvelafers. qarxanaSi Tavisi muSebic gaqcevaze hyavT da Cven vis raSi vWirdebiT? _ CaurTo zuram. _ direqtori ras akeTebs? ikiTxa biWikom. _ direqtori ras akeTebs? Cafiqrda soso da zuras Sexeda. _ ar vici. _ mSoblebs? mSoblebs rogor sZinavT? _ Cemebi kaspSi cxovroben. dedaCemi makiTxavs xolme. roca gaigo praqtikis dReebze quCa-quCa davyialobT, Semexvewa, roca ki mecadineobas daamTavreb, im wuTSive dajeqi manqanaze da sofelSi wamodio. xom xedav, iq uTvalavi saqme gvaqvs. aq ki aseT yialSi arafers gadaeyaroo. miamitad Tqva sosom da yurebamde gawiTlda. zuram SeubRvira, rac biWikos ar gamohparvia. _ magram xeloba xom unda iswavlo? _ xeloba? rac vicodi, mgoni, isic damaviwyda. babuaCemi erTi wuTi ar gagvaCerebda umuSevrad. ukve oTxmoc wels gadacilebuli moxuci axalgazrdasaviT gvaswavlida yvela xelobas. _ Cveulebrivi bavSvebia! fiqrobda biWiko, _ rogoric Cven viyaviT odesRac... sicili, cekva, simRera es maTi bavSuri bunebidan modis. ecekvebaT da icekvon, emRerebaT da imReron. sirbili undaT, siyvaruli, mofereba, magram meTvalyurec undaT. soflidan biWi Camosula, saxlSi uxariaT. profesiul saswavlebels daamTavrebs. maT hgoniaT, Cvens Svils mzrunveli aRmzrdeli
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adgia Tavso da am dros, ver grZnoben, rogor ekargebaT Svili, rogor dahpatronebia mas quCa. _ gacdena, albaT, bevria! _ fiqridan gamoerkva biWiko. _ xuTni, zogjer rvani davdivarT. ori dRe rom erTi rva mivalT, meore dRes meore rva da ase Semdeg. _ ratom? _ ra vici, ase kia da... _ mere pasuxs aravin gTxovT? _ ara. _ e. i. saswavlebelSi erTad arasdros SegrovilxarT. _ rogor ara, erTxel. _ albaT raime samaxssovro dRe iyo. _ Cvens ostats qorwili hqonda da daupatiJeblad iq mivediT. biWikom gulianad gaicina. biWebic mas ahyvnen. _ direqtorma CagvaTvaliera da gviTxra, Zlivs erTad gnaxeTo. _ CaibuzRuna zuram. _ ostatma ra Tqva? _ Sav dReSi Cavarda. patarZali datova da Cven mogvijda. eSinoda, Cxubi ar agvetexa. _ CxubobT? _ es ise ikiTxa biWikom, Torem biWebisTvis Cxubi ucxo xili rom ar iyo, kargad icoda. _ roca Cvens winaSe cxvirs aswevs vinme... _ buzRuniT Tqva zuram da Tavis Cafskvnil xelebs daxeda. sosom alali biWis STabeWdileba datova, zuram _ Znelad aRsazrdelis. TqmiT ki es uTxra biWebs: _ kargi biWebi xarT, magram xom SeiZleba Tqvens gverdiT iyos cudi? _ rogor Tu cudi? _ qurdi an narkomani. biWebs gaecinaT. _ mere magas vityviT, Tundac iyvnen? _ Caiduduna zuram. _ magi marTalia, magram vinmem rom CagiTrioT? _ axla marto sosos ekiTxeboda biWiko. soso daibna, mere Tavs Zala daatana da CaibuzRuna: _ mibaZva Cvens asakSi gamoricxuli ar aris. CaTreva ki... gana qurdebi yvelas endobian, jer maTi ndoba unda moipovo... _ ukanasknelma misma sityvebma SeakrTo biWiko. mas moeCvena, rom am sityvebs soso ki ara, misi siyrmis Svili, Tamazi eubneboda. usiamovnod gaaJrJola. biWikos industriuli teqnikumi hqonda damTavrebuli. patiosan, mSromel, alali bunebis mqone da gamrje vaJkacs erTi uaryofiTi Tviseba hqonda _ bevrs svamda, magram muSaobis dros Wiqas pirTan ar miitanda. Tavisufal dros, roca ar muSaobda da
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arc svamda, bevrs kiTxulobda. albaT es iyo is, riTac xelmZRvanelobda Tavis cxovrebaSi da aravis ankesze ar wamogebia. Tavsatexma kiTxvam, romelic sosos ukanasknelma sityvam gaaCina, mas mosveneba daakargvina. _ magaTi ndoba jer unda moipovo! visi? an rogor? _ SekiTxvam avad daubura suli. _ iqneb, guSin imitom moxvdnen Cems binaSi, rom vinmes ndoba unda moepovebinaT? _ sinanuliT SeaTvaliera biWebi. _ albaT ukve dadga is momenti maT cxovrebaSi, rom danaSaulis Casadenad mzad arian da es unda gaakeTon imitom, rom viRac kerpad aRiarebulma garewarma, aseTi `yvinCilebi~ Tavisad CaTvalon. _ biWikom igrZno am biWebis cxovrebis katastrofis moaxloeba. mTeli dRe ise imuSaves, rom biWikos SekiTxva aRar dausvia. soso isev hyveboda saswavleblis ambebs, Tamazi icinoda, zura sdumda. biWiko uxmod brazobda. _ am miamiti biWebis sulSic ukve SemZvrala matli! _ fiqrobda igi.znedacemuli `vaJkacobis~ survili umowyalod Casaxlebula maT sulSi da `saTavgadasavlo gmirobisken~ ubiZgebda. es mizani ymawvilebs sikeTisken ar waiyvanda. saRamos didi madloba gadauxada biWebs, Zveli saxlis misamarTi misca da daubara maT: _ roca praqtikis gakveTilebi gagicdebaT, aucileblad CemTan SemoiareT! biWiko bunebiT megobrebisadmi Tavdadebuli iyo da gadawyvita, es patara biWebi Tavis Tanatolad gaexada. biWikos SeeZlo, gacilebiT ukeT ecxovra, magram ar surda. zizRiT iSorebda yvela SemoTavazebul Semosavals, romelic upatiosno gziT unda moepovebina. man xangrZlivad imuSava nestor CikvilaZesTan. uyvarda Tavisi ufrosi. ufrosic endoboda mas, magram arasdros cdila, am ndobiT esargebla. bolos mixvda, rom misi marjveniT bevrma moiTbo xeli, magram amasac ar gauborotebia, radgan sisxlsa da xorcSi hqonda gamjdari erTi mcneba: araferi gaekeTebina iseTi, romelic suls daumZimebda da aTas safiqrals gauCenda. nestor CikvilaZis gaTavisufleba gulwrfelad inana, Tumca Semdeg, roca sxvebi movidnen, arc maTTvis SeumCnevia patiosnebisadmi Tavdadebis survili. swored maSin daebada erTi, metad savalalo SekiTxva, romelic bevr biWikos msgavss awvalebda. _ risTvis moxsnes nestori, Tu mis adgilze isev iseTive admiani dasves?_ es kiTxva didxans daborialobda mis sulSi. Semdeg kidevac minelda. aseTi kiTxvebi erTxel kidev maSin aiSalnen, roca ukve mogvianebiT, nestoris kubos qudmoxdilma Cauara.
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_ risTvis? risTvis sWirdeboda `is~ yvelaferi? _ Tavis xeliT gaTala nestorisTvis marmarilos qva da mis mkerdze Tavisive xeliT aRmarTa, xolo roca mis damunjebul figuras Sexeda, gaukvirda, gulgrilad ucqeroda mis ufross. biWiko qamuSaZes pedagogiuri niWi arasdros hqonia. sakuTari Svilebis aRzrda mTlianad kesos miando. piriqiT, roca meuRle bavSvebs tuqsavda, igi eqomageboda xolme. erTxel makarenkos `pedagogiuri poema~ waikiTxa. is imdenad moixibla wigniT, rom misi damTavrebis Semdeg kesos dauZaxa da uTxra. _ me qeds vixri im udidesi amtanianobisa da disciplinis winaSe, rac Cvenma aRmzrdelebma gamoiCines im mZime dros. _ man makarenkos sityvebiT Tavisi colic Seaqo. _ es wigni yvela aRmzrdelma unda waikiTxos! _ uTxra kesos da sTxova, wigni masac waekiTxa. saxlSi dabrunebul biWikos survili aReZra, kidev erTxel waekiTxa es wigni, axla ukve pedagogiuri TvalsazrisiT. mas ainteresebda, ra iyo qurdobis gamomwvevi mizezi mozrdil biWebSi. Tan biWebTan Sexvedris dros saubars ixsenebda. _ Tqveni megobrebidan xom aravin Cavardnila? _ es SekiTxva dausva sosos da zuras. _ Cveni megobrebidan? ara, magram Cveni jgufidan ki... saxli gatexa. _ qurdoba daiwyo? _ ara, bacacoba. _ eg rogor gavigo, biWebo? bacaci da qurdi me erTi mgonia. _ biWiko biZia, qurdi Zlieri unda iyos, erTi xeliT unda aqcevdes aTs. Tanac yvelas unda eSinodes misi. bacaci ki bacacia. is qurdis xelqveiTia.. qurdi `saqmes~ arCevs da yvelaze Wkvianic unda iyos. _ mesmis, Wkviani damnaSave yvelaze saSiSia. _ mase ar aris. isini damnaSaveebi ar arian. sxvebze axdenen gavlenas. _ raRac Sinagani mowiwebiT Tqva zuram. biWikos es ar gamoparvia. aRmzrdelebs aqvT erTi Tavsatexi amocana _ jer kidev adreuli asakis ymawvilSi WiasaviT Cndeba raRac sagmiro saTavgadasavlo ambebis Cadenis survili. biWikom gadawyvita am biWebis ostati enaxa. direqtoris kabineti zed kibis TavSi aRmoCnda. daukiTxavad SeaRo kari da moulodnelad Tavs waadga dominos TamaSSi garTul or mamakacs. amas ar moeloda biWiko da gabrazda. mipatiJebas ar daeloda, yovelgvari Tavazianobis gareSe pirdapir gadaWra kabineti, direqtoris axlos skami gamoswia da maT win
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Camojda. _ gismenT, megobaro! - direqtorma TamaSs Tavi daaneba da mosuls Sexeda. _ me mSobeli var. _ keTili, romel jgufSi swavlobs bavSvi? _ 137-Si. _ samxaraZes dauZaxe! - direqtorma axalgazrdas gadaulaparaka, romelic dominos dasCereboda. manamde ki biWikom kargad moaswro,SeeTvalierebina direqtori. misma wiTelma RaJRaJa loyebma, msxvilma Rababma, amozneqilma mkerdma verafriT ver miaxvedra, ra asakis unda yofiliyo igi. upeebSi Camjdari Tvalebi da ukve gamelotebul Tavze aqa-iq Zlivs SesamCnevad gamoCenili Tmis Reroebi amtkicebdnen, rom misi mflobeli odesRac Sav Tmebs atarebda. _ samxaraZe dRes ar gamocxadebula! _ Tqva ukan dabrunebulma axalgazrdam da dominos qvebze TvaliT aniSna, aviRo Tu arao. direqtorma Tavi dauqnia. axalgazrdam swarafad Seasrula misi brZaneba. _ maSin tabiZes sTxoveT! _ saswavlo nawili gamoiZaxa direqtorma. axalgazrda gareT gavida. _ Tqven ra gvaris xarT? _ me? qamuSaZe. _ bavSvisTvis xom ar dagveZaxna? _ Semdeg biWikos daakvirda. _ q a m u S a Z e... _ damarcvliT Cailaparaka. _ magram aseTi gvaris bavSvi rom ar gvyavs? albaT romelime aRsazrdelis naTesavi brZandebiT. _ amas ar aqvs mniSvneloba. kari tabiZem SemoaRo. direqtori karebSive Seageba. _ samxaraZe ar yofila, mSobeli gvestumra. _ Tqven ra gsurT, gaigoT. albaT niSnebi, xom asea? _ egec. Tumca sjobs, samxaraZec menaxa, magram radgan saubedurod is xSirad acdens, saTqmels Tqvenc mogaxsenebT. _ didi Senoba gqoniaT, albaT moswavleTa raodenobac didia. _ ra Tqma unda, ra Tqma unda. _ meore Svili myavs Semosayvani. _ romel jgufSi gindaT? CvenTan saukeTeso specialistebi gamodian! _ ise Cqara Tqva, TiTqos eSinoda, ukan ar waeRo stumars Tavisi sityvebi. _ vici, vici. _ Caicina biWikom. _sabednierod, SemTxveva mqonda, gamecno Tqveni aRzrdilebi. axlaRa mixvda direqtori, rogor misCereboda mas biWiko cinikurad.
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_ me Tqveni ori moswavle qurdobaSi daviWire. _ biWikos saxeze cinizmi gaqra. axla maT saxeebs akvirdeboda da cdilobda, maTSi raime cvlileba daenaxa. samwuxarod, ver SeniSna. direqtorma amoioxra da moadgiles gadaxeda. uceb biWikos makarenko daudga Tvalwin. surda wamomdgariyo da am sqelydiani wigniT, romelic saswavlebelSi wamoeRo, Tavebi daemtvria orivesTvis. hqonda imis ufleba, yvela gaeyara aqedan, magram msgavsi ram ar Caudenia. susti da umweo eCveneboda Tavisi xelebi. mas mxolod maTi dagesvla da moralurad Tavdasxma SeeZlo. Sedegi? aSkaraa, Sedegi ar iqneboda da erTbaSad gaxalisda. Seecada, gesliani ironiiT rogorme Seelaxa am Sublsqeli adamianis Tavmoyvareoba. _ vin aris? _ ikiTxa moadgilem. biWiko frTxilad furclavda wigns, Semdeg Sedga. pasuxi ar gasca, ise daiwyo kiTxva. _ `meore dRes or saaTze kuriaJis gamgem qedmaRlurad xeli moawera Zalauflebis gadabarebisa da mTeli personalis moxsnis aqts. etlSi Cajda da wavida. me Sevcqerodi mimavali gamgis kefas. Semexarba am kacis sxivmosuli warmateba. axla igi beRurasaviT Tavisufali iyo. kenWsac ki veravin esroda~. _ danarCens albaT Tqven waikiTxavdiT. kiTxva Sewyvita da maspinZels gadaxeda. _ makarenko sul sxva dros moRvaweobda. biWikom jer wigni daixura, Semdeg gadaSala da roca sasurvel gverds miagno, axalgazrdas TiTi dauqnia da TvaliT waakiTxa: _ `Cemi koloniis arsebobis pirveli Tveebi CemTvis da Cemi amxanagebisTvis marto sasowarkveTilebisa da uRono daZabulobis mZime Tveebi ki ara, WeSmaritebis Ziebis Tveebic iyo.~ _ aSkaraa, Tqven brals gvdebT, magram unda gaxsovdeT, maSindeli bavSvi sul sxva iyo. bavSvma, romelmac daaSava, unda daisajos. amisTvis arsebobs milicia. _ tons auwia direqtorma. biWikos nervebis zambara ukanasknel zRvramde daeWima, magram Tavis gasaocrad erTbaSad daicxro gulis wyroma. is misCereboda axalgazrdas xelebs, romelsac isev SerCenoda xelSi domino. yvelam igrZno, ratom daucxra sibraze biWikos. misi Tvalebi iRimebodnen, rac loyaSi gartymul silaze ufro metad moqmedebda iq myofTaTvis. biWiko Seecada, isev mSvidi toniT makarenkos sityvebiT epasuxa: _ gaocebuli Sevcqerodi am mkvircxl, Wkvian, soflel moxuc kacs. ratom milicias ar gamouZaxebs, ar daapatimrebs am naZiralebs da maTTan erTad, mec-Tqo! _ vfiqrobdi gunebaSi. _ Tu Tqven ar gcaliaT maTTvis? _ biWikom isev dominos Sexeda. direqtorma Tvalebi daubriala axalgazrdas, romelic bolos
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da bolos mixvda, rom domino unda Seenaxa. _ vin arian bolos da bolos is ymawvilebi, ar ityviT? Tqven xom ar fiqrobT, me amdeni dro maqvs? eg wigni, megobaro, yvela Cems pedagogs wakiTxuli aqvs. biWiko mixvda, rom direqtors am wignis kiTxva ufro aRizianebda. amitom misi kiTxva upasuxod datova da wignis furcvla daiwyo. _ kargi wignia, ara? direqtori mixvda, rom stumari maT aRizianebda, magram Tavi Seikava, radgan undoda, saRad molaparakeboda, rom gaego vin iyvnen is avazakebi, romlebmac es kaci aq moiyvanes. _ Tqven iciT, rom profesiuli saswavlebeli ivseba Znelad aRsazrdeli bavSvebiT. yvela maTgans Cadenili aqvs erTi an ori msubuqi danaSauli, an saerTod, skola axasiaTebs arasrulfasovnad. biWikos saxe auWarxlda. man Cqara gadaSala wigni da Zalian seriozulad Seawyvetina sityva: _ gTxovT, waikiTxeT! _ me movaxerxe Cems mxareze gadmomebirebina yvela pedagogi koloniaSi da ukve 1922 welsve komisias vTxove, araviTari `saqme~ ar gamoegzavnaT CemTvis. direqtori fexze wamoiWra, roca biWikom wigni gamoarTva. _ mainc ra ginda Cemgan? _ Zalian cota. _ mainc? _ Sen ymawvilebis siyvaruli unda SegeZlos sakuTar Tavze metad. maSin gamogiva saqme. _ iciT? axla fulma, kargma cxovrebam gaanebivra da Tavisi daRi daasva axalgazrdobas. _ Secdoma ise daemCneva ers, rogorc pedagogis Secdoma daamCnevs daRs Tavis aRsazrdels. aRmzrdeli TviTon unda iyos saukeTeso TvisebebiT gamorCeuli, rom aRsazrdelic Rirseulad gazardos. _ netav, ramdeni wlis iqneba direqtori? _ Warbi xorci uSlida xels, daedgina misi wlovaneba. _ iqneb, Tqven gsurT CvenTan muSaoba? barem aqedan dagewyoT. _ ara. me specialobiT pedagogi ar var. _ Semdeg Tvali gauswora direqtors, kidev SeaTvaliera misi zonzroxa tani da SeekiTxa. _ mxolod mainteresebs, ramdeni ujdeba saxelmwifos saswavlebelSi TiToeuli aRsazrdelis Senaxva da ras axmarT sinamdvileSi mas? aRmzrdelebma erTmaneTs Sexedes. raki pasuxi ver miiRo biWikom, maT Tavi daukra da bodiSi mouxada.
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_ mapatieT, xeli rom SegiSaleT! - da isev dominos Sexeda. gulSi ki daifiqra _ ra tyuilad davkarge dro! biWiko guldaTuTquli dabrunda Sin.
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adreulma zaris xmam wamoayena biWiko. ase uTenia misi xma ar esiamovna, magram saswrafod kari gaaRo. _ soso Sen? Semodi. _ ymawvili saxlSi SeipatiJa. _ xom ar mogdeven? ra feri gadevs saxeze? _ ara, biWiko biZia. mgoni, ara. mTeli Rame gaTenebas velodi. rogorc ki iriJraJa, Cumad avdeqi da Sen mogaSure. zura daiWires! _ biWs cremlebi wamouvida. _ ra CaidineT? _ mkacrad ikiTxa biWikom da inana, maSin es biWebi cixiT rom ar SeaSina. _ biZia biWiko, me zustad giambobT, rac moxda. Sen xom gesmis Cveni? Cveni profsaswavlebeli sasaflaos qveviT aris. guSin saRamos vaxSmis Semdeg gareT gamovediT da kinoSi gadavwyviteT gasvla. am dros orma msubuqma avtomanqanam aiara da mTeli siswrafiT sasaflaosken auxvia. Cven Tvali gavayoleT. _ vin iyvnen? _ ikiTxa biWikom. _ ubnis qurdebi. _ albaT nadavliT ariano, zuram gaixumra, idayvi gamkra da SemomTavaza, modi, gavyveT, seiri iqnebao. SevekamaTe, xom ar gagiJdi-Tqo. viTom, ra moxdao... am dros erTi jgufeli SemogvierTda. vTxove, kinoSi wavideT-Tqo da uari miTxra. erTmaneTs raRac gadaulaparakes da sasaflaos mimarTulebiT ise wavidnen, rom CemTvis arc SemouxedavT. ar SemeZlo winaaRmdegobis gaweva, radgan nugzaris sityva misTvis kanoni iyo. nugzari karts TamaSobda. Tanac yurmokvriT vicodi, rom sami aTasi waego da axla gagiJebuli iyo, rogorme rom eSova. me maSinebda zuras da nugzaris megobroba. kinoSi aRar wavsulvar, ukan davbrundi. jer saerTo sacxovreblis oTaxebSi viboriale, Semdeg Cavweqi da CameZina. SuaRame gadasuli iqneboda, nugzarma rom gamaRviZa. saxeze mitklisferi edo. _ zura gaeba! _ sad? risTvis? _ man TiTiT maniSna, krinti ar daZrao. masTan wavediT. roca CaeZina, aforiaqebuli avdeqi, erT adgils ver vpoulobdi. ra meqna, ar vicodi. pirvelad, ra azric momivida TavSi, TqvenTan mosvla iyo. ai, movedi da Cems Tavs vekiTxebi, risTvis movedi? biWikom Caicva da sososTan erTad gareT gamovida. qalaqi axlaxan iRviZebda. naadrevad gamosuli adamianebi swrafi nabijiT
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mimodiodnen. soso krintSekruli mihyveboda biWikos. axla masze meti mxsneli aravin eguleboda am qalaqSi. _ deda hyavs marto. erTi da gaTxovilia. sacodavebi... _ waiduduna sosom. _ magaze fiqrob? mSoblebi yovelTvis codvaa aseTi Svilis xelSi. _ Semdeg SeCerda. _ Sen saswavlebelSi dabrundi. araa saWiro, wamomyve miliciaSi. gavigeb, raSia saqme. mogvianebiT Semogivli, arsad waxvide. roca aRsazrdelebi xazze dgebodnen, nugzari sosos amoudga da SeuRrina. _ sad gaZveri? _ gareT gavedi sigaretis mosawevad. _ ras mihqarav. sigarets rodis aqeT ewevi? _ axla vewevi. _ jiutad upasuxa sosom. _ aravisTan krinti, Torem... _ Tvalebi daubriala nugzarma. cxadia, direqtorma zuras daWeris ambavi icoda, nerviulobda da aRsazrdelebs geslianad elaparakeboda. daRonebuli mivida biWiko qamuSaze saswavlebelSi. soso karebTan Seegeba. _ Zalian cudad aris saqme. wuxel ocdaeqvsi wlis axalgazrda mouklavT sasaflaoze. sasaflaos gaCxrekisas karti naxes, sadac zuras naTiTurebia. daWeriT, jer marto is daiWires. danarCenebi gaqceulan. _ ese igi, kaci maT mokles? _ vin? _ ra Tqma unda, qurdebma. _ xom SeiZleba, amaTac moeklaT? Tu Sen ambob, nugzars wagebuli hqonda sami aTasi maneTio... iqneba, zura daexmara? sosos gaaJrJola. _ ara, zura magas ar gaakeTebda. _ aTqmevineben. imdens izamen, aTqmevineben. _ axla direqtorTan mival. vTxov, rom ramdenime biWi damaxmaros. Sen SearCie biWebi. direqtors maindamainc ar moewona biWiko qamuSaZis gamoCena. egona, raime ironiiT Seamkobda, magram msgavsi araferi momxdara. biWikos amjerad mkacri da seriozuli saxe hqonda. civad uTxra saTqmeli da roca dadebiTi pasuxi miiRo, ukan gamobrunda. karebTan atuzul sosos xeli gadaxvia da daavala: _ erTi xuTi biWi... romlebic cota yoCaRebi arian... _ kargi biZia biWiko! _ isini uxalisod daSordnen erTmaneTs. es arasasiamovno SemTxveva zuras dedas SeuTvales. is Camovida da roca Svilis ambavi Seatyobines, direqtors usayvedura: _ me megona, Tqven meTvalyureobas gauwevdiT ymawvilebs. gamo- 173 -

dis, rom Tavis nebaze miSvebuli gyoliaT. SemogeTvalaT da ukan davabrunebdi. dedas Tavzari dasca SvilTan Sexvedram. is nacemi iyo da Zlivs idga fexze. gaognebulma qalma moaxerxa eTqva: _ amisTvis gamoggzavne, Svilo? _ dedas geficebi, me aravin momiklavs. arc vici, vin mokla. Sen mainc damijere, dedaCemo! amaT swamdeT ise, rogorc surT. me aravin momiklavs. _ risTvis iyaviT iq? _ biWebi wavediT kartis saTamaSod. sabavSvo baRSi xom ar varT, rva saaTze daviZinoT? uceb yvirili mogvesma. biWebi gaiqcnen. me ki maT SevrCi. _ visTan erTad iyavi? zura Sedga. _ saRamos me da soso gamovediT. sososTvis rom damejerebina, aqac ar movxvdebodi. kinoSi wavidodi. magram nugzari movida, erisTavi. Cven wavediT da iq kidev dagvxvdnen... kari gaiRo. oTaxSi axovani tanis biWiko Semovida. _ bodiSi, udroo dros Semovedi. zura daibna. yurebamde gawiTlda. _ CemTan saamqroSi muSaobdnen biWebi. esec modioda. axla Sematyobines misi dapatimreba. _ me arvin momiklavs, biWiko biZia! _ zuras cremlebi waskda. _ gaiyvaneT! zura oTaxidan gaiyvanes, dedac maT gahyva. Tan biWikos misCereboda, axals xom arafers ityoda. _ Tqven, mgoni, CemTan xarT. _ uTxra gamomZiebelma. biWikom pirwmindad uambo organos muSaks yvelaferi, rac am bavSvze da imRamindeli SemTxvevis Sesaxeb yurmokruli ambebi icoda. _ patimrobaSi unda iqnas ayvanili nugzar erisTavi. mas Cemi azriT, arc Tu saxarbielo biografia aqvs. _ me marTali kaci var. am biWebTan SemTxveviT davmegobrdi. mapatieT, Tu Tqvens saqmeSi verevi, Tumca es saqme Cemicaa da yvelasic. ramdeni cudi iqneba, imdeni kidev erT imdens gaafuWebs. es aris mTavari. mibaZva am asakSi gadamdebi senia.
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SabaTs uTenia miadga axal binaSi soso. biWiko saqmiT iyo garTuli. sosos RmerTi am wuTSi mxolod is iyo. mas ver warmoedgina biWikoze Zlieri, marTali da patiosani adamiani. amitom sjeroda, rom zuras saqmeSi misi Careva aucileblad waadgeboda biWs. erTxans uTqmelad imuSaves ostatma da Segirdma. orives Tavisi safiqrali hqonda, xolo zuras bedi orives adardebda. misi ki
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orives erTnairad sjeroda. biWikos Tavidanve ar moewona zuras jiuti, zogjer agresiuli gamoxedva. soso masTan SedarebiT ufro marTali biWis STabeWdilebas tovebda. sosom icoda, rom Tumca zura aTasnairi suleluri Tavgadasavlis gmiri iyo, mainc ar Caidenda aseT umZimes danaSauls. mas erTi SemTxveva moagonda, romelic dedamisma uambo: zura maSin meoTxe klasSi swavlobda. kolmeurneobis venaxSi viRacas axalSobili ZaRlis lekvi gadaegdo. acaxcaxebuli lekvi saxlSi miiyvana. maSin mama cocxali hyavda, lekvi saxlSi ar gaaCera da gareT gaagdebina. acremlebulma zuram isev meurneobis mindorSi myudro adgili monaxa da patara bina gaukeTa. RamRamobiT Cumad mihqonda sakvebi da ise gadaarCina. _ biWiko biZia, ra Tqves zuras Sesaxeb miliciaSi?_moridebiT SeekiTxa SromaSi garTul kacs. _ ra Tqves? gamoiZaxeben, Cemo sosiko! tyuila vis daapatimreben? kaci mokvda. igi ki am dros iq iyo. iqneb, raime SeamCnia iseTi, romelic simarTles mohfens mkvlelobis ambavs, Seamowmeben. aravis ar unda, cixeebi aavsos udanaSaulo adamianebiT. _ zura cudi biWi ar aris, magram damoukidebloba unda. siamovnebs, roca misi eSiniaT. _ Sen kargad icnob? _ kargad. jer kidev manamde, sanam profsaswavlebelSi erTad movxvdebodiT, saqarTvelos pirvelobaze moswavle moWidaveebis Sexvedris dros, zura saukeTeso iyo. pirvel adgilze gadioda sul. _ axla? _ axla? ar vici. axlac... soflidan imitom CamovediT, rom dedaqalaqSi ufro meti SesaZlebloba gvqonda asparezobisTvis. magram ise ar aris, biWiko biZia, televizorSi, an kinoSi rom aris xolme... soflidan Camosuli axalgazrda roca dedaqalaqSi Cadis, igi daaxloebiT 17-18 wlisaa. mwvrTneli, romelmac unda aiyvanos igi, aRar iwuxebs Tavs axlis ayvaniT, radgan maTTan ukve dadian bavSvebi samecadinod. materialurad unda dainteresdes mwvrTneli, rom agiyvanos. amis saSualeba ki arc me mqonda da arc zurikos. amitom soflidan Camosuli axalgazrda, faqtiurad, Sordeba did sports, romelzec mTeli cxovreba ocnebobda. ymawvilebi, romlebic arafriT arian Senze ukeTesebi, gasvliT Sejibrze gahyavT, Sen ki verc gamCneven. zurac da mec orive gverdze davrCiT. male saswavlebels davamTavrebT da jarSi wavalT. Semdeg sofelSi davbrundebi, magram gulSi ki damrCeba mZime tkivili. sporti, romelic CemTvisac da misTvisac did sasicocxlo Zalas warmoadgenda, viRacam wagvarTva. ra Tqma unda, es tkivili
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ar gamaborotebs, Tumca Cems ZarRvebSi dagubebuli sportuli Jini raRacas mTxovs da meZaxis. zurasnairi biWebi ki, ase mgonia, viRaceebis winaSe aris amxedrebuli. ai, me aseTs vicnob zurikos. aq Cemi rCeva uazroa. zogjer Tavadac TanavugrZnob mas. biWikos samuSao mietovebina da sosos anTebul saxes misCereboda. mis cisfer TvalebSi didi adamianuri sasowarkveTileba sCanda. _ zura ar qurdobs? soso sdumda. _ ratom ar mpasuxob? _ ar vici. didi qurdoba mas ar Caudenia. _ ras eZaxi did qurdobas? soso erTi wuTiT Cafiqrda, Semdeg biWikos Sexeda da SeekiTxa. _ ai, magaliTad, Tqvens bavSvobaSi sofelSi xili ar mogiparavT? mozrdilebs danaoba ar giTamaSiaT? wagebulisaTvis ar dagivalebiaT mezoblis beRelSi Tonis purebis moparva? zura am saqmeebSi yvelaze aqtiuri iyo. aseTi qurdoba Tu qurdobaa... biWiko wamowiTlda. kefa moifxana. sosom gaagrZela: _ erTxel, soflidan raionSi sportskolaSi roca davdiodi, gzaSi avtobusis fuli damekarga. gza Svidi kilometric iyo. mesame klasSi vswavlobdi maSin. wvrilad Tovda da sul saxeze mayrida. arc mifiqria, ufulod avsuliyavi avtobusSi. fexiT davadeqi samanqano gzas da ise davbrundi sofelSi. erTxans gaCumda soso, Semdeg ironiulad gaiRima. _ dRes ki, ramden reiss vakeTebT qalaqis avtobusiT. fuli ar gvaqvs da imitom. Tqven ras fiqrobT, esec qurdoba ar aris? biWikom kvlav moifxana Tavi. _ iciT ra, roca TqvensaviT mama viqnebi, mec davtuqsav Svils danaSaulisTvis. dRes ki iseTi siamovnebiT vigoneb simindis yanaSi moparul taros. _ Sen es ra SekiTxvebi damisvi? me namdvil qurdobaze gelaparakebi. Sen ki taroebze misvam kiTxvas. _ magaliTad, sportskolaSi ixdi tansacmels, varjiSob. roca gamodixar, Seni maisuri sxvas acvia. Sen an unda eCxubo, an sxvisi tansacmeli moirgo. sportsmeni xar, kvatze xom ar dauwyeb Cxubs amxanags? _ Sen sul sxva xar. SegiZlia, imsjelo simarTleze. mas ki sakmarisia, odnav xeli hkra da sabraldebo skamze aRmoCnde. qurdoba Tandayolili Tvisebacaa. zogs erTxel Cadenili Secdoma, romelic Semdeg did danaSaulad SeiZleba iqces, mTeli sicocxlis fasad ujdeba. zogi ki Sinagan siamovnebas grZnobs. albaT am sakiTxze ar gifiqria. Sens megobars zuras ki swored
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es Tviseba aRmovuCine. _ SeiZleba, marTalic xar, biWiko biZia, magram misi mitoveba mainc ar SemiZlia. me miyvars es biWi. is kargi megobaria da unda vuSveloT, Torem mec, Tu zurgi Sevaqcie, daiRupeba. biWiko didxans akvirdeboda biWs. misi maRali, mxrebiani tani, sasowarkveTili cisferi Tvalebi, Rawvebze momskdari wiTeli feri, jiutad SeWmuxnuli Subli bevri ramis mTqmeli iyo. _ sainteresoa aseT jiut, utex ymawvilebTan cxovreba! _gaifiqra biWikom. _ maT SecdomebSic aris raRac fsiqologi, mTeli samyaro, sadac SeiZleba iswavlo sikeTisaTvis brZola. sufTa suli unda moZebno maTSi. maT sianceSi ramdenime saocrebaa. unda movavloT xeli am saocrebas, rom CanCqeri mdore wyalSi ar CaiRvaros, diax, mRvrie da mdore wyalSi. me miyvars aseTi biWebi, visTan erTadac SegiZlia ikamaTo sikeTeze da borotebaze, visTanac SegiZlia gadawyvito yvela sakiTxi. erTad itiro satirali da gaiziaro sixarulic. sada xarT Tqven, msuye saWmliT maZRarno. sanovagiT rom amogiyoravT faSati muceli, zinzilakebiT mogirTavT saxl-kari. fexi ar agicdeT, magrad daadgiT mopirkeTebul iataks fexi. arafers wamohkraT, frTxilad iareT, rom ar aayiravoT eg ZonZroxa sxeuli. Sens win dgas bajaRlo oqro da ver SegimCneviaT, radgan gamaZRari kuWi gawuxebs da giSlis xels, gaarCio oqro rkinisgan. am biWs erTi Solti unda, rom swor gzaze gaiyvano da vin mogca es Solti Sen? _ marTali xar, sosiko! _ Cailaparaka biWikom. _ zogjer mec gamomparvia erTi sibrZne, rom erTi kargi aT cudSi ar unda Seagdo, erTi cudi unda miugdo aT kargs da am aT kargs unda agebino pasuxi erTi cudisTvis. _ biWikom amoioxra. _ Tumca Sen ufro Wkviani yofilxar Cemze. erTi SemTxveva mqonda: Cems biWs RimiliT moadgeboda erTi ymawvili da gareT epatiJeboda. kesom da me imdeni movaxerxeT, rom es biWi CamovaSoreT. gvian gavigeT, patimrobaSia axla Turme. biWiko gaCumda. _ me yovelTvis vigoneb am ambavs. sindisis qenjna gulis kovzTan mwiwknis. ase mgonia, mis gacudebaSi mec mimiZRvis brali. karebze viRacam daakakuna, miwvevas ar daeloda da frTxilad SeamoaRo kari. biWikom da sosom orivem erTad Sehkivles. _ zura, biWo! _ soso zuras gaexvia. _ xom giTxari biWo, Tu damnaSave araa, gamouSveben-meTqi. Sen ki marwmunebdi, gana, iq brmebi arian, rom marTali da tyuili ver gaarCiono? _ aba, axla dajeqi da gviambe, rac Tavs gadagxda. _ zuriko dabneuli iyo, Tan gaxarebuli. is axlaxan gamoeSvaT cixidan. profsaswavlebelSi Seerbina, soso rom ar daxvda, biWikosTan
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wamosula. zura skamze Camojda. guli magrad ucemda da ar icoda, saTqmeli rogor daewyo. _ auuu, ici, ra ambebi dammarTes? _ TiTqos daitrabaxao, ise wamoiZaxa ymawvilma. _ Turme ra ambebi trialebs qveyanaze... rom gaigo, vin riTi cxovrobs, gagiJdebi. ramdeni ram gavige am dReebSi. Turme dRemde arc micxovria... amdeni ram rogor xdeboda qveyanaze da Cven ki... uceb gaCerda da biWikos Sexeda. cdilobda, gaego, ra STabeWdileba moaxdina masze misma sityvebma. biWikom gaocebiT da Tan gaognebiT Sexeda sosos. biWs saxeze cecxli waekida. uceb survili gauCnda, misuliyo da mietyepa zura, romlis saxeze ukve gamqaraliyo Calurjebuli laqebi. _ amazea naTqvami, mglis Tavze saxarebas kiTxulobdnen da is tyisken ixedebodao. _ Cailaparaka biWikom da mis Soriaxlos, cementis tomaraze Camojda. _ raebs bodav, biWo? ra ambebi gaige? kosmosis aTvisebis ambavi? Tu mag utvino TavSi didi mwerlis Semoqmedeba moismine? naZiralebis monaTxrobma ase rogor agaforiqa? _ xmas auwia biWikom. _ Cveni nugzari ki, ici, sad gabmula? es aris mTeli ambavi. _ isev daiwyo zuram. aq moTminebis fiala piramde aevso biWikos da biWs dauyvira. _ ai, zura xar Tu eSmaki, vidre ar amiwevixar da umi kvercxiviT Suaze ar gamixleCixar, Tqvi, risi Tqma ginda... xom ar gamoipare, esec SenisTanebisTvis satrabaxo ambavia, RmerTmani. _ biWikos gabrazebam gons moiyvana zura. _ ara, biZia biWiko, iq iseTi dacvaa, me vin gamomiSvebda? Tanac iseTi saqme gaixsna, rom me azrSiac ar momsvlia, Tu aseTi iyo is danaSauli, rac me bralad medeboda. nugzari ki pirdapir kisriT CaeSva am ambavSi. sosos ZarRvebi daeWima da uTxra: _ maT rac dagakles, me mogiTaveb. gametebiT wauSina amxanags. aseT Tavdasxmas ar moeloda zura da daibna. ukan daixia da muSti SemarTa. biWiko SuaSi Caudga. biWebi aqeT-iqiT miyara da zuras ubrZana: _ aba, daiwye, jer Tqvi, risTvis Cagsves da Semdeg, risTvis gamogiSves. gafrTxileb, tyuili ar Tqva! _ zura erTxans sdumda, is xels isvamda loyaze. sosos aRar uyurebda, magram ibRvireboda. Semdeg dawynarda da alaparakda: _ viRac jemali mouklavT, sawyobis gamge, Tu bazaSi saqonelmcodne yofila. imis mkvlels eZebdnen da me SevrCi. _ eg viciT, mere? _ ho da nugzari yofila misi mkvleli. _ marTla? _ orives erTad aRmoxdaT.
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sosos TandaTan gauara sibrazem. _ irbine, irbine mis dudukze. orive xom erTad waxvediT. rogor moxda, rom Sen ar xar mkvleli da arc araferi ici. nugzari ki mkvlelia._ hkiTxa biWikom. _ nugzars aTqmevines? _ ikiTxa sosom. _ daadgines. aba, me xom ar gamomiSvebdnen? _ mere ras erCoda im jemalis? _ eg Cawyobili saqmea. didi saqmeebi trialebs am ambebis ukan. _ dabali xmiT daiwyo zuram, magram biWikom xeli wahkra, saqmeze ilaparakeo. _ viRac direqtori yofila, es jemali ki misi Zmaa da megobari. Turme, mas avalebda maRaziis gamgeebidan fulis warTmevas, erTi sityviT, xarkis amkrefi yofila da Semdeg gamnawilebeli. is direqtori Sahin-SahiviT cxovrobda- agarakebi, manqanebi, fulebi... cxovrobs xalxi, Cven ki sups vTxvlepavT, Sig Zlivs trialebs ramdenime marcvali lobio. is direqtori ki... gadauwyvetia jemalis moSoreba, yvela danaSauli masze rom Seewminda. viRac mounaxavs da jemalis aorTqleba dauvalebia. im viRacas saqme Taviseburad gaurCevia da TvalSi ar mosvlia es ambavi. radgan sakmao Tanxas iRebda mkvlelobis SesrulebaSi, es `saqme~ nugzarisTvis SeuTavazebia, radgan masTan sami aTasi maneTi hqonda wagebuli. _ ai, yoCaR, ra kargad dagimaxsovrebia. _dacinviT esrola sosom. biWiko ki didi mondomebiT usmenda zuras quCis leqsikoniT savse monaTxrobs. Tan saCvenebeli TiTiT nikaps ifxanda. _ mere, ganagrZe! _ hoda im direqtors abralian mkvlelobas. axla saqme nugzaris Cvenebazea damokidebuli. _ Sen sad daSordi nugzars? _ mkacrad hkiTxa biWikom. _ rogorc ki sosos davSordi da kukiis aRmarTs avuyeviT, nugzarma mkiTxa: _ SeamCnie, aq manqanebs unda amoevloT? _ vis manqanebs? _ `imaT~ manqanebs. _ aiares. erTxans uxmod viareT, Semdeg patara buCqebi movZebneT da karti gavSaleT. _ manqana ra feris iyo? _ kidev mkiTxa nugzarma. _ Savi. _ ici, zura? cota xans aq damelode, male moval. kartebis naxevari jibeSi Caiyara da buCqebSi moulodnelad gaZvra. kargi amindi iyo, mdeloze wamovweqi, nugzaris cdaSi CavTvlime. ar maxsovs, ramden xans meZina, naxevari saaTi Tu ori
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saaTi. CoCqolma gamaRviZa. wamoviwie. areuli xmebi mesmoda. male yvelaferi dalagda Cems TavSi. darCenili kartebi jibeSi Caviwyve da wamovdeqi. gadavwyvite, nugzari momeZebna. kanti-kuntad mesmoda xma da am xmas gavyevi. male Tavs wavadeqi. Svidni iyvnen. yvela SevaTvaliere. nugzari iq ar iyo. maTma sazarelma saxeebma SemaSfoTa. ici, soso? aseTi saxeebi mxolod kinoSi Tu minaxavs. axlac tanSi mcris. ukan, oTxad mokecili gamovtrialdi, guls baga-bugi gahqonda. meCveneboda, sacaa, damiWeren-meTqi. gulgaxeTqili sasaflaos gasasvlels mivuaxlovdi, saxtad davrCi, davinaxe, rogor gamovarda buCqebidan nugzari. dayvirebac ver movaswari, rom Savi manqanis karebi gaiRo da nugzari Sig burTiviT Seagdes. mxolod is SevamCnie, rom nugzars mitklisferi hqonda. biWiko dakvirvebiT usmenda zuras. _ Semdeg? sad dagakaves? nugzaris saxem SemaSina. ukan davbrundi da buCqebSi SevZveri. daRamebas davelode. rom Camobnelda, Cemi safaridan gamovZveri da stvenac atyda. sasaflao alyaSi aRmoCnda,yvela gaqceuliyo Cems meti. maT xelT SevrCi. biWiko wamodga. _ xom ar gaxsovs im direqtoris saxeli da gvari, romelsac mkvlelobas abralebdnen? _ rogor ara, biWiko biZia. mTeli kvira misi saxeli ar mesmoda? _ Tqvi! _ daiZaba biWiko. _ igor CikvilaZe. biWikos Tvalebi gaufarTovda. mis TavSi raRac Seirya. uceb kefa aewva. gaognebul biWs Sexeda, magram araferi uTqvams. saxeli da gvari ecno. uceb biWebis arseboba daaviwyda da oTaxSi bolTis cema daiwyo. _ cudad xom ar xar, biWiko biZia? _ ikiTxa sosom. _ ara, araferia. Semdeg karebTan Sedga da zurasken Setrialda. TiTqos am ubedurebis mizezi is yofiliyos, TiTis daqneviT dauyvira: _ dRes gamogiSves, magram icode, Sen iseTi piri giCans, ar agcdeba asacdeni. Sen TviTon daeZeb iseT saqmes, rom sabraldebo skamamde mixval. fexi ar gadadga saxlidan da imuSaveT. me male moval! _uTxra sosos. _ me ar maqvs pedagogiuri alRo. rom davamtkico, Savi Savia da TeTri-TeTri, amas logika sWirdeba. me muSa var da Tanac ori Svilis mama. mxolod is vici, rom mSobeli aucileblad pedagogic unda iyos, Torem bevrs gauCndeba `quCis sulieri mama~. _ Tqva bolos.
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`zuras daWerac da gaTavisuflebac, erTi SexedviT, arc Tu ise didi ambavia. soflidan qalaqSi Camosuli, umeTvalyureod darCenili mozardi ukanonod daiWires. Tundac kanonierad daeWiraT, mas arc gazeTSi gamoacxadebdnen da arc televizorSi. SeiZleba aseTebisgan danaSauli dasaSvebic kia. sxva saqmea, roca akademikosis Svili sabraldebo skamze dajdeba.~ _ am fiqrebiT datova Tavisi bina biWikom da Zvel binas miaSura. _ aseTi Svilis mSoblebma sad dauSves Secdoma? sad gamoeparaT mTavari. ratom dakarges Svilebi? _ gaagrZela fiqri biWikom. _ SeZlebuli ojaxis Svilebis xelgaSliloba xom ar iyo magaliTi xelmokle ojaxis SvilebisTvis? sakuTari fulis Sovnis surviliT xom ar iwyeba ubedureba? soflidan Camosul `zurikoebs~ xom ar uCndebaT survili, xelgaSlilad icxovron? sxvebs waglijon qoneba da `nebadarTul qurdebad~ iqcnen? Sedegi ki? Sedegi TavisTavad modis.
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yovelive zemoT Tqmuls Semdegi movlenebi uswrebda win: igor nestoroviCs arasasiamovno ambavi daxvda samsaxurSi. sawyobSi kvlav danaklisi aRmoaCndaT. igorma sawyobis xelmeored gadamowmebis gankarguleba gasca, aRweraze operatiuli muSakic moiwvia. aman gaanawyena bazis mesveurni, Tumca Riad araferi uTqvamT. saRamos, roca saxlSi brundeboda, SesasvlelTan ucnobi landi SeamCnia. mamakaci, romelic mas eloda, misken wamovida. _ aivazaSvili?! _ usiamovnod gaifiqra bazis direqtorma, roca gigola mis win Sedga. _ cxadia, usaqmod ar movidoda. arc is mgonia, sasiamovno ambiT gamaxaros. _ gaifiqra igorma. gigola Semcbari idga mis win da xelebs ifSvnetda. pirvelma Seageba qaTinauriT salami. _ RmerTma gamarjveba nu moaklos Cems ufross! sityva `Cemi~ examuSa ufross. gigolas naTqvamSi es momarTva Tavxedurad eCvena. sastikad gabrazda, magram Tavi ar gasca. ar gaamJRavna isic, rom WiriviT sZulda es kaci. _ gagimarjos Cemo batono! _ qaTinauri RimiliT Seageba igorma. _ Tqven gelodebodiT! _ risTvis, Cemo gigola? _ sibrazedaokebulma igorma Cqara dausva SekiTxva da kiTxvisniSniT Sexeda. igorma aSkarad igrZno, rom gigola SepatiJebas eloda, magram amaod. roca mixvda, rom met nabijs win ver gadadgamda, kefa moifxana da saTqmeli pirdapir uTxra.
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_ biWebma gamomgzavnes... _ vin biWebma? _ Seawyvetina igorma. _ Cvenma, merve sawyobis biWebma. _ gigolam es fraza amaRlebuli toniT Tqva, riTac xazi gausva `merve sawyobis biWebis~ avtoritets. _ ra undaT Cemgan? _ igors surda, male moeSorebina gigola. ra imaleboda imis iqiT, `biWebs~ rom surdaT, daemalaT? gigolas moeCvena, rom ufrosis toni rbili iyo da uceb gaTamamda. man jibidan patara kolofi amoiRo, axlos miutana Tavis ufross da gaxsna. igorma civad daxeda, patara yuTidan TvalismomWrelad iyureboda TeTri, mocimcime Tvlebi. _ vin gamogatana? _ biWebma. _ gasagebia. bevri hqoniaT, guluxvebic yofilan. _ man Tvali aarida mocimcime Tvlebs. _ mainc, ratom aris amdeni danaklisi? _ waago da... _ gigolas pirze Seaxma sityva, radgan SeniSna, rogor daugrZelda qveda yba igors, rogor aucaxcaxda xelebi, rogor daedo mkvdris feri. _ rogor? _ gaognebulma ikiTxa da rom ar waqceuliyo iqve, moajirs mieyrdno. _ waages... jemalim waago... saxlSi ar hqonia, sawyobidan misca. egona, am partiis miRebisas gaasworebda danakliss, magram ici, ufroso? amaSi Senc gedeba brali. ar mieci gasaqani biWebs. _ es yvelaferi ise Cqara Tqva, TiTqos eSinoda, araferi darCenoda uTqmeli. _ nu SeSindebi, Cemo ufroso! _ saqmis Serbileba scada gigolam. am TveSi gaasworeben danakliss, Tu xels Seuwyob. axla Tqvens xelSia maTi bedi. danarCeni TviTon ici. _ gTxovT, Cemo batono, eg yuTi daubrunoT im biWebs. rogorc vxedavT, didi Rirebulebisaa, aravin wagarTvaT da Semdeg ar TqvaT, Cems ufross miveci qrTamado. _ rogor gekadrebaT, Cemo ufroso! _ TviTon ufroso! _ igorma es sityvebi dabejiTebiT da amave dros didi, sulieri tkiviliT warmoTqva. igors ufleba hqonda, ise daetovebina stumari, rom zedac ar Seexeda. man kargad icoda, rom es Savi, energiuli kaci, romelsac mkacri gamoxedva hqonda, ar iyo iseTi, romlis iolad gagdebac SeiZleboda. misi fesvebi Sors iyo gadgmuli. miuxedavad imisa, rom bazis direqtors sZulda es kaci, mis mimarT raRacnair valdebulebas grZnobda. icoda, rom gigolas met pativs scemdnen, Tundac `zeviT~, vidre mas. es kacuna mociquli iyo, maTgan gamogzavnili da saqmis garigebas sTxovda. igrZno, rom weRan naTqvami `Cems
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ufross~, Tavxedurad gaisma mis yurTan da gulis kovzTan usiamovnod gahkenwla. _ me partiis wevri var, Cemo gigola. _ igori mis mxars daeyrdno. _ mainteresebs, Sen ramdeni mogces saqmis garigebaSi? igors mTeli saxe ucaxcaxebda da Zlivs idga fexze. gigolac ki SekrTa am saxis danaxvaze. _ mec imaT sawyobSi vmuSaob. arc CemTvis aris sasiamovno danaklisi. _ xeli SeaSvela, rom ar waqceuliyo, magram igorma ukanaskneli Zala moikriba. xeli gahkra da gamosamSvidobeblad Tavi dauqnia. _ Zili nebisa, aivazaSvilo, daRlili var, Tumca saintereso pirovneba xar da Sengan bevris gageba SeiZleba. eg yuTi Seinaxe. Sen arc ki ici, ramdeni Tanxa giWiravs xelSi. iqneb moparulia, rasac Sen mTavazob da verc ki grZnob, ra borotebamde SegiZlia Cemi miyvana. _ igori ise nela ambobda am sityvebs, TiTqos viRacas miwidan esaubreboda. gigolas gaaJrJola. _ me Sen ar gaSineb. kargad mesmis. vinc Sen gamogagzavna, Cemzec da Senzec Zlieria, magram es icode, sakuTar sindisze Zlieri ver iqneba. gigolas erTi wuTiT sikeTis sxivi gadaekra saxeze. gulTan raRac SefarTxalda, magram, saubedurod, es iyo mxolod erTi wuTiT. anazdad yuTi gaxsna. iqidan TeTrma sxivebma ifeTqa. ver moaswro maTi daTvla igorma, magram is ki SeamCnia, rom iq ZviradRirebuli Tvlebi iyo. yuTSi briliantis TvlebiT moWedili oqros jvari ido. saxlamde ramdenime nabiji iyo darCenili. igors SeeSinda. mis win morieli idga, satana, adamianis saxiT movlenili, magram Wkviani kaci. mixvda, rom am Sav kacTan brZola advili ar iqneboda. igors Seacia. Setrialda da TiTqmis sirbiliT WiSkramde miaRwia. kari gaaRo, Sevida da aforiqebuli WiSkars zurgiT mieyrdno. egona, axla Semovardebodnen gigolas `biWebi~ da Zalad miscemdnen mocimcime yuTs. Tmebi didi xania, gauTeTrda igors. axla isic daemata, rom mxrebSi moixara. TiTqos dapataravda. barbaciT avida kibeze da taxtze Camojda. uceb dRevandeli dRe erTbaSad daaviwyda. Tamilas da vasikos xangrZlivi siyvaruli moagonda, dedis Semcirebuli roli da ojaxSi gretas aqtiuroba TvalSi eca, nodarisa da ledis poetur ojaxs Senatra. sadRac usier tyeSi calfexa kotem gaielva mis TvalTa sawierTan. _ sad daikarga ubeduri? _ gaifiqra da gaukvirda, masze didi damnaSaveni rom laparakobdnen. iolad fulis Sovnis survilma
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gaaRataka mravali adamiani, sixarbem daabrmava isini. erTs rom hqonda, meore eZebda da am oromtrialSi mxolod gigolasnairebi iyvnen fexmagarni. isini yovelgvari drois gasaRebni gamxdariyvnen, yvela `saqmis~ momrigebelnic da mosamarTlenic. maT ar awuxebdaT sulis simZime, radgan satanisTvis mieyidaT igi. zustad erTi kviris Semdeg gaTenebisas viRacam dareka. igori yurmils daswvda. _ igor nestoroviCi minda! _ gaisma yurmilSi da igorma misi xma icno. es xma Zlieri iyo da mbrZanebluri. _ igori gaxlavarT! _ wuxel mokluli iqna Tqveni TanamSromeli. merve sawyobis saqonelmcodne. igori telefonis yurmils miekra da gairinda. _ gesmis? - igive TiTqos muqariT savse xma gaisma yurmilSi. _ mesmis! _ mZimed Tqva igorma da xelebis faTuriT Zlivs monaxa skami, rom Camomjdariyo. arc ukiTxavs, vin iyo igi. kargad icoda, rom es xma avtoritetuli pirovnebis unda yofiliyo. imasac grZnobda, rom mas arc Tu ise dabali Tanamdeboba ekava. es xma karga xania, esmoda TiTqmis erTsa da imave dros yurmilidan. igori arasdros cdilobda, gaego am adamianis vinaoba, radgan icoda, swor pasuxs mainc ver miiRebda. alRoTi grZnobda, rom xma, romelic mas aRviZebda, didi borotmoqmedis xma iyo. _ iqneb, sulac ar aris Tanamdebobis piri da viRac naZiralaa. _ es SekiTxvac dausvams sakuTari TavisTvis. roca yurmilSi xma wydeboda, igors eufleboda raRac Zala, romelic ciebasaviT uvlida mTel sxeulSi. Semdeg igive Zala yelSi uWerda ise Zlier, rom egona, sadacaa, suli SemexuTebao. sunTqvaSekruli uRonod skamze eSveboda. aRsasruls ki ise axlos, ise TvalnaTliv xedavda, rom SiSisgan almuri edeboda saxeze da sicxisgan zurgi ewvoda. am wuTSi erTi grZnobac eufleboda: surda, yviriliT aeklo qveyana da simarTle xmamaRla eTqva. simarTlis Tqmis gambedaobas ki am dros is `xma~ uxSobda, mkacri mbrZanebluri toniT yurmilidan sicococxles rom umwarebda. igori am usamarTlo devnaSi marto aRmoCnda umegobrod. _ deda! _ gaWirvebis dros yvela SvilisTvis es sityva nugeSi iyo, magram igoris deda ar iyo is adamiani, romelic megobrad SeiZleboda CageTvala. TavisTavze da Svilze uzomod Seyvarebuli deda zereled aRiqvamda Svilis sakuTar `mes~. nato Cveulebrivi, meSCani qali iyo, romelic mudam amxedrebuli iyo im vercxlisfer unagirze, romelic sazogadoebaSi pirveli ledis saxels mianiWebda. nato ar iyo is deda, vinc did siTbos unawilebda Svilebs da avalebda im sikeTiT siaruls, risi magaliTis mimcemic TviTon
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unda yofiliyo. rZal-dedamTils Soris gamudmebuli mtroba maSin Sewyda, roca igori bazis direqtori gaxda. ra Tqma unda, isini megobrebi arasdros gamxdaran, magram `sakuTari saqme~ orives gauCnda. igoris Tanamdebobis gamoyeneba orivesTvis aucilebeli gaxda. greta ukve aRar sayvedurobda qmars, megobris dReobaze rom ar dahyavda, axali operis premieraze rom daigviana, agarakze rom marto wavida. yvelafers amas Seegua da Cveulebriv movlenad CaTvala. rZalsac da dedamTilsac axali saqme gauCndaT. profesoris qaliSvili dedamTilis msgavsad male gaxda spekulanti. igorisTvis greta `civi Tojina~ iyo, bevri wvrilmani problemebiT savse qali, romelsac TvalSi ecemoda sufridan arasworad aRebuli Cangali, sarkisebur iatakze dacemuli wylis wveTebi. ukiduresad afeTqdeboda, Tu oTaxSi Semofrenil buzs Seaswrebda Tvals, Tu oqrosfer CarCoze gaCndeboda mtveri, Tu ezoSi romelime yvavili daWkneboda da droulad ar moacilebdnen mas. _ marto me unda vxedavde? _ sayvedurobda Tamilas xSirad. didi xania, daaviwyda roialTan misvla. Tavi astkivdeboda, Tu ramdenime striqons waikiTxavda, misi suli yvelaferi amaRlebulisgan mTlianad gaiwminda, televizorisTvis dro aRar rCeboda. Tu nato yvela nivTs gamosaCen adgilze gamodgamda Tavis mosawoneblad, amiT siamayis grZnobac uCndeboda. greta ki piriqiT, yvelafers malavda, Cemodnebsa da yuTebSi stenida da fuTavda. kaci ifiqrebda, viRacas an raRacas umalavso. drodadro gemovnebiT Sekerili tansacmeli gauciskrovnebda Tvalebs, romelsac sakuTar lamaz tanze Semotmasnils dainaxavda, magram esec droebiTi iyo. ramdenime dReSi mobezrdeboda da romelime megobars ormag fasSi mihyidda. bolo dros patara saangariSo iyida, dominos saTamaSod rom xmarobdnen mezoblebi. marTlac da, kargi buRalteri sWirdeboda mis saqonlis brunvas da amdeni ambis Semdeg sxva ramisTvis sadRa ecala. meuRleoba da Tundac dedaSviloba, aba, sxva raRaa, Tu ara erTad gatanili cxovrebis mZime xnuli. meuRle sxva raa, Tu uRelis naxevaris simZime ar itvirTa, magram gretas ar ecala am didi qaluri movaleobisaTvis. _ mkvleloba sad moxda? _ ikiTxa igorma. _ mag ambavs bazaSi SeityobT, magram unda giTxraT, rom Tavi waageT. _ mkvlelobac xom ar gindaT damwamoT? _ rogor gekadrebaT, Tqven is ar xarT, vinc hklavs, Tqven is
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xarT, visac yvelaferi mzamzareuli mosdis. TviT mkvlelobis gadawyvetileba TqvenTvis aravis uswavlebia, Tumca jemalis mkvlelobisTvis pasuxs mainc agebT. aSkaraa, igor nestoris Zes an SantaJisti, an TviT satana elaparakeboda. igori mixvda, rom kaci, romelic mas yurmilTan civ, mokle gankargulebebs aZlevda, xelSeuxebeli iyo. jemalisTana kacunebis gaqroba misTvis axali xili ar unda yofiliyo. amdenad, arc igor nestoris Zis niCabze Sesmac ar iqneboda Zneli saqme misTvis. roca yurmili dado, igorma gansazRvra, rom saubari samudamod Sewyda maT Soris. mixvda, brZolas axla axali meTodiT dauwyebdnen, radgan jemalis mkvleloba ganwiruli `paiki~ iyo, riTac gza exsnebodaT bazis direqtoris mosaSoreblad. igors tanSi Seaxura, Semdeg Seaciva, sawolze wamowva da gairinda. _ RmerTo Cemo, nuTu adamianis sikvdili ase advili unda iyos... _ SiSma aitana, kankali daawyebina da suli rom moeTqva, sabani waifara. _ ra ubedurebaa Cems Tavs? _ Caiduduna da Tavis gulisTqmas yuri miugdo. _ rodesme ki vyofilvar bednieri... _ isev usayvedura meore xmam. sulSemxuTavi dedis meTvalyureoba, pirveli umwikvlo da uiRblo siyvaruli, Semosuli meuRle, romelmac ratomRac ver daikava mis gverdiT adgili. is arasdros yofila iseTi, ai, mis mxrebs rom Seexebi da Svebas igrZnob. misi mSvenieri garegnobis mqone meuRle dadga misgan Zalian Sors, iseve, rogorc im kuTxeSi brinjaos CarCoSi Casmuli suraTi kedelze. meuRles Tvalebi maSin uciskrovndeboda, roca broli brols emateboda. is dRec moagonda, sajarod rom gadasca natom dediseuli beWedi Tamilas. arasdros daaviwydeba is Tvalebi, im beWeds rom uyurebdnen. axalgazrda qali mzad iyo, kamara Seekra haerSi, rom xelSi Caegdo is Zvirfasi nivTi. axlac da yovelTvis, roca amas igonebda, ratomRac sircxvilisgan Rawvebi ewvoda, radgan is Tvalebi Semdeg im qals ekuTvnoda, misi meuRle rom iyo. oTaxSi fexis xma gaisma. igorma sabani moixada, Tamila miuaxlovda. iqve mdgari savarZeli mis sawolTan miswia da Camojda. xangrZlivi dumili Camowva. gaocebulma igorma Tvali moavlo qaliSvilis gaTeTrebul Tmebs. igi didi xania, SeeCvia, rom Tamilas dRiTidRe emateboda TeTri Tma, magram arasdros gaocebula imiT, rom Tamila jer kidev bavSvi iyo da TmaSi Savi aRar SerCenoda.
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dRes saxtad darCa, ratom gaTeTrda ase udrood Tamila. igi, SeiZleba iTqvas, igoris erTaderTi axlobeli adamiani iyo. mSoblebisagan damaluls, mas andobda mudam. erTi qalis gazrdili adamianebi, Tumca pativs scemdnen Tavis gamzrdels, arasdros mis gadametebul `mzrunvelobaze~ sxvebTan erT sityvasac ar ambobdnen. samagierod, aseve uTqmelad icodnen orivem, ra mZime iyo es `mzrunveloba~ maTTvis da SeZlebisdagvarad cdilobdnen, SeemsubuqebinaT es mZime tvirTi. xangrZlivi dumili igorma daarRvia. _ ratom ar atareb dediseul beWeds, Tamila? SekiTxva imdenad moulodneli iyo, rom qaliSvili SekrTa. igorma igrZno, rom mis mtkivneul adgils Seexo. SekiTxvis arsi rom Seerbilebia, TiTqos udardelad Cailaparaka: _ dRes modaSia igi, barem bevri qarafSuta gaskdeboda gulze. Tamilas usiamovnod gaaJrJola. mware SegrZnebam mTel sxeulSi dauara da ise mosxletiT Tqva saTqmeli, rom arc ki dafiqrebula, ra mohyveboda mas. _ mgoni, mas gahyva dedaCemis ukanaskneli ZarRvi. _ Tqva da im wuTSive inana, roca aRgznebuli igoris saxes Sexeda. mTeli guliT igrZno, rom dauSva sabediswero da gamousworebeli Secdoma, magram ukve gviani iyo. _ ratom Tqvi ase? _ yvelafrisgan gaTavisuflebuli igori sawolze wamojda da Tamilas daacqerda. Tamilas sunTqva Seekra. ukan dasaxevi gza aRar iyo. _ risTvis sdumxar? Tqvi... iqneb... is xom dedaSenis nivTi iyo... Tamilam xeli pirze aafara. _ nu, nuRar maxseneb! _ vedrebiT Seawyvetina saTqmeli. Tamilam icoda, rom amqveynad aravin hyavda igorze axlobeli. bavSvobidanve Tavisianebs iyo mowyvetili, am spetak da didi bunebis adamianTan gaatara cxovreba. bevri kargis gakeTeba SeZlo igorisTvis am mokrZalebulma gogonam. da dRes, roca aseTi sayvareli adamiani gansacdelSi iyo da arc aravin hyavda, moralurad gaemxnevebina, sulieri sazrdo miewodebina, raime rCeva mieca, gadawyvita, es misia etvirTa am sust, magram Zlieri nebisyofis mqone qals. gogonas spetak ZarRvebSi jer kidev daborialobda abasTumanSi gatarebuli mtanjveli dReebis tkivili, dakarguli samSoblos ulmobeli xvedri, vasikosTan garTulebuli da daumTavrebeli siyvaruli, natos xelebSi datyvevebuli misi suli, magram es yvelaferi ra saxsenebeli iyo im saSinelebasTan, rac SeiZleba igors dastexoda Tavs. anda is dakarguli beWedi, didi siTboTi da sixaruliT rom avsebda oblis suls, ra mosatani iyo dRes.
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rarig Zvirfasi unda yofiliyo nivTi, romelsac misi winaprebis sunTqva SerCenoda da mTel mis suls bednierebiT avsebda. axla da Tundac sxva dros, amis saTqmelad ar movidoda ZmasaviT sayvarel adamianTan. ver etyoda, radgan yovelive amas marto igoris gaRizianeba mohyveboda da sxva araferi. _ ar Rirs amaze saubari,igor, me sul sxva ramisTvis Semovedi. _ igors rom ar SeeCerebina, saCqarod daumata: _ me telefoniT laparaki movismine. _ odnav Sedga da daamata, _ nu gamiwyrebi, Seni saubari `imasTan~ yvelaferi mosmenili maqvs. sxvebze SeiZleba gabrazebuliyo igori, magram Tamilasgan es ar swyenia. piriqiT, gauxarda kidec. Tundac imitom, rom ojaxis erTi wevri mainc iyo dainteresebuli misi bediT. igori taxtze gadawva, xvalindeli dRis molodiniT gairinda. _ momismine? _ hkiTxa da xangrZlivi pauza Camowva. _ ra Znelia sicocxle! _ gminvasaviT aRmoxda igors. Tamila SekrTa. igoris xmis sisustem SeaSina. _ ra Tqvi? _ daviRale. _ eg danaSaulad meCveneba, igor! igorma Tavi gaaqnia. Tamilam sityvebs Zebna dauwyo. _ Sen daiRale? _ ikiTxa Tamilam, wamodga da oTaxSi gaiargamoiara. _ me ki... mimifurTxebia yvelafrisTvis, maT Soris tomsikebSi Caketili oqrosTvisac, romelic Cvens mSoblebs Suaaziidan Camohyva da dRevandeli piramde avsebuli wvrilmanisTvisac. es saxli sapyrobilea, didi cixe, sadac yoveli nivTi ise giyurebs, rogorc avi dedinacvali. im beWdis arsebobac minda daviviwyo. Tuki mSoblebis asavaldasavali CemTvis gasaidumloebulia, rad minda is beWedi, romlis fasi arc dedaCemma da arc misma dedam ar icodnen. mxolod maT ician, vis xelSic aris dRes is beWedi. am nivTma samudamod dakarga siwmindis fasi, riTac Tavi mohqondaT mis mflobelebs. dRes ki avadmbzinav fasian nivTad iqca. xom xedav, igor, Cemi erTaderTi fufunebis sagani gaqra ukvalod, magram ar vdardob. Cemi dediseuli beWedi dRevandel droSi aRar aris is, patiosnebas rom warmoadgenda. saubedurod, briliantisTvliani beWdebi axla sul sxva donis adamianis xelebze brwyinaven. gana gamorCeuli Seviqnebodi, me rom metarebina igi? gana vinmes TvalSi avmaRldebodi? igori jer wamoxta, TiTqos raRac moagonda. ganaTebuli fanjridan gaixeda, oTaxi ayiravda mis Tavze, Semdeg marcxena mxare
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daumZimda da Tavbru daexva. Semotrialda da kedels mieyrdno. kari gaiRo. acaxcaxebuli nestoris maRali figura gamoCnda, igorma uazrod Sexeda mamas. pirgamSralma Tvali moavlo iqaurobas, raRac moagonda TiTqos. warbebi Seikra, welSi gasworda da mamis win aisveta. _ miTxari, mama, ratom ar brwyinavs Tamilas beWedi? _ pasuxs ar daeloda, gareT gaiWra, kibeebi Cairbina da quCaSi gavida. Tamila mamasTan mivida. _ ratom adeqi, mama? _ Cumad, oTaxamde mimiyvane! Tamila mxrebSi Seudga. _ roca vasiko mova, CemTan Semovides. masTan salaparako maqvs. aqve damawvine, Torem Cems oTaxamde gamiWirdeba misvla. _ nestori igoris sawolze wamowva. zaris xma gaisma. yurmili Tamilam aiRo. _ igor CikvilaZis bina minda! _ gaisma qalis xma. _ igoris binaa. _ vaso minda. me misi deda var. Tamila SekrTa. didi xania, eloda am xmas. _ gesmis? _ isev gaisma qalis xma _ male mova, sad gnaxoT? _ Tamila xar, Svilo? _ ikiTxa isev im xmam. _ ho, deda! _ cremlma gabzara misi xma da yinuli, romelic dRemde maT Soris iyo, gadna. _ marusa mamidasTan var. icis manac. _ kargi. yurmili pirvelad dariam dado. araferi ukiTxavs TamilasTvis, magram oboli gogonas guli raRac siTboTi aivso. _ daria bicola iyo. TbilisSi Camosula. _ Tamila nestorTan mivida. _ cudad xom ar xar, mama? _ ara, gamivlis. rogorc ki vaso mova, CemTan Semodes. cxris naxevarze vasiko CikvilaZeebis binas miadga. manqana gareT gaaCera da ezoSi Sevida. Tamila kibeebze daeSva. _ minda, erTi ram gaxaro, vaso. _ ra? _ deda Camovida soflidan. vasikos sixaruliT saxe gaubrwyinda. TamilasTan miiWra da gulSi Caikra. _ mama igoris oTaxSia. SenTan saubari surs. Tamila darias Sexvedris Tadarigs Seudga. vasikom kibeebi airbina da igoris oTaxSi Sevida. igoris sawolze nestori iwva _ saxeaRgznebuli da akankalebuli.
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_ aq dajeqi CemTan... ara... midi... karebi Cakete... gaocebulma biWma misi Txovna usityvod Seasrula. erTxans siCume Camovarda, caze elvis Semdeg rom icis daZabuli rom elodebi mexis gavardnas. _ nestor biZia, Tqven cudad xarT? saswrafos davuZaxeb. _ nestorma tuCebi mokuma, pirze momdgari nerwyvi gadaylapa da Tavi uaris niSnad gaiqnia. _ Cemi avadmyofoba ra aris imasTan, mTeli sicocxle rom vewame erT mogonebas. mogonebas, romelic lodiviT mawevs gulze... dRes gadavwyvite is lodi movixsna da Sen Cagabaro. _ nela, svenebsvenebiT daiwyo nestorma. vasikom ukan daixia. SiSiT gaufarTovda Tvalebi da erT dros Zlieri mamakacis uZlur sxeuls gaocebuli daacqerda. _ pirvelad, rasac gTxov, is aris, rom nu SeSindebi da daibnevi. meored ki, aasrule is Txovna, rasac me anderZiviT gabareb. _ gismen, nestor biZia. _ axlos mivida vasiko. _ Camojeqi! erTxans kidev gaCumda. Semdeg TiTqos daaviwyda, visTan undoda Tavisi saidumlos gamxela. nela daiwyo, viTom vasos ki ara, Tavis Tavs eubneboda saTqmels. _ eh, nestor, adre unda gagekeTebina is, rac dRes gadagiwyvetia. momakvdavi kacisgan aRsarebis Tqma igivea, rom ganitvirTo codvebisgan da ucodveli waxvide imqveynad. saaqaoSi tvirTis zidvas SeuSindi. es ra kacobaa. SeiZleba, amasac Seni sulisTvis akeTeb, kacis mkvlelo! _ eubneboda nestori Tavis Tavs. vaso wamoxta. _ nu SekrTi, Svilo. marto es rom iyos, araferia. mTavari ki sxva ramea. me megobris mkvleli var. _ Zia nestor, nu maSineb! _ es aravin icis Sens metma. _ Tvalebi sacrisodena gauxda, baliSze wamoiwia da TiTi zeviT aswia, Senc nuravis etyvi. axla Sen zide saidumloebis mZime tvirTi. _ risTvis, risTvis ginda, Zia nestor? ra dagiSave? _ wamoiZaxa vasikom da gaqceva scada, magram nestoris mkacri xma miswvda ukan. _ nu garbixar! _ Semdeg xmas dauwia, _ me Tamilas mama SemTxveviT Semomakvda. vasiko nestoriken mZimed Semotrialda. gaocebac, SiSic da sibralulic gaqra misi saxidan. uazro TvalebiT SeaTvaliera uZluri kacis sxeuli, magram misken erTi nabiji win aRar gadaudgia. nestorma ki Tqva mTavari. lodaxsnilma ambavma piri daaRo da sulmouTqmelad uambo Tamilas mSoblebis tragedia. roca yvelafers morCa, baliSze miesvena.
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_ sad arian Tamilas naTesavebi, Zia nestor? es mainc miTxari. _vedrebiT SesZaxa momakvdav kacs. _ Cveni soflidan kavkasions rom gadaivli, pirveli patara sofeli Segxvdeba... xalilovebi ikiTxe... Cermeni... vin icis, misi coli iqneb isev cocxalia. is Tamilas bebiaa. _ Tqva da sunTqva Seekra. _ nestor Zia, nestor Zia... Tamila, Cqara, saswrafos gamouZaxe. _ mama cudad gaxda? _ Seegeba Tamila. vasiko SekrTa. sityva `mama~ isariviT moxvda gulze, magram kidev kargi, amis dro ar iyo. _ cudad aris. Cqara, dareke!
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saxlidan giJiviT gamovardnili igori qvafenilze daeSva. erTbaSad yvela satkivari da sawuxari gadaviwyda. mis Tvalwin akaSkaSda Tamilas beWedi, misi sxivebi satanasaviT SeiWra mis organizmSi da uxsenebelis sxeuliviT SemoeWdo. Semdeg acocxda, jer mkerdTan miualersa, Semdeg yels Seexo da Semoetmasna. sayeloSi xeli waavlo. igorma unasis moSoreba scada, magram ver SeZlo. unass Tavi ise gamsxvileboda da didi mwvane TvalebiT ise axlos CasCereboda, rom SiSisgan Tvalebi daxuWa, Semdeg gaaxila da uxmod daiZaxa: _ oh, ara, ara! _ moeCvena, TiTqos samyaro Seqanda mis Tavze. mosaxvevSi taqsi gamoCnda, gaaCera. bazaSi igori naadrevad mivida. TanamSromelTa umravlesoba adgilze daxvda. man aTobiT Tvalis mzera igrZno, romlebmac karebamde miacila bazis direqtori. maT TvalebSi sayveduric dainaxa. aman ufro auforiaqa suli. _ amaTgan erTia, vinc CemTan brZola telefoniT daiwyo. aucileblad aq aris. _ Tvali moavlo maT. netav, vin aris is, vinc jemalis bedTan misi bedic gadawyvita. kabinetSi Sevida. axlis molodinSi Camojda, TiTqos Seisvena momavali brZolis win. kari manamde aravis SeuRia, sanam oper-muSakebi ar movidnen. igor nestoris Zes ramdenime SekiTxva dausves da reviziis wevrebi moikiTxes. _ Cveni gankargulebis Tanaxmad droebiT Sewydes aRwera! _ sawyobs luqi daades da wavidnen. igori gaognebuli darCa Tavis kabinetSi. is ijda naxevari saaTi, garindebuli da Tavzardacemuli. moeCvena, rom dro usaSvelod gagrZelda. bazis teritoriaze gavida, axali saqoneli Semosuliyo sawyobSi.
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uxalisod SeaTvaliera, mokle gankarguleba gasca da isev kabinetSi dabrunda. _ vasikom ratom ar momakiTxa? _ telefons daswvda. saxlis nomeri akrifa, magram pasuxi rom aravin gasca, kidev akrifa Tavidan. _ mama mainc sad wavida? yurmili dado da kabinetSi ramdenimejer gaiar-gamoiara. telefonis zaris xmam gamoafxizla. am xmas eloda. igorma igrZno, brZola kulminacias aRwevda. _ gismenT. igor nestoris Ze gaxlavarT. _ mkvlelobasTan dakavSirebiT gawuxebT. _ gismenT! _ Tqveni mosvla axlave saWiroa, gTxovT, gamocxaddeT miliciaSi! _ kilo Zalian rbili iyo, magram igors moeCvena, rom sityva `axlave~ brZanebas ufro hgavda, vidre Txovnas. _ movdivar! saxlSi dareka. pasuxi isev ar iyo. moadgiles dauZaxa da manqanis moyvana daavala. ise gavida ezoSi, aravisTvis Seuxedavs. gza kabinetidan manqanamde usaSvelod grZeli eCvena. manqanasTan misvlisas Tavis moadgiles Sexeda da patara bavSviviT gauRima. TiTqos Seecoda, am oromtrialSi rom tovebda. _ nukri, geTayva, Cems mosvlamde saqmes mixede! _ manqanaSi Cajda,saqonelmcodnem, romelic saWes marTavda, manqana adgilidan daZra. igori nukrize fiqrobda. _ `niWieri da Tanac, patiosania. albaT, esaa cudi. niWieri da patiosani erT dros niWieri da matyuara gaxdeba~. oTaxSi, sadac igi gamocxadda, mxolod gamomZiebeli iyo. man Tavazianad da didi bodiSiT miiRo. aseTia Cveni samsaxureobrivi saqmeo, dasZina. ujridan `saqme~ amoiRo, gadaSala da raRacas dauwyo Zebna. _ werili, romelic CvenTan Semovida, anonimuria, magram raRacaze mainc migvaniSnebs. gamTeniisas miviReT. mkvleloba da werilis daweris dro cotaTi gansxvavdeba. ese igi, mkvleloba winaswar ganZraxviTaa Cadenili. es werilic, romelsac Tqven axla waikiTxavT, TiTqmis maSinvea SeTiTxnili, magram mTavari aq sxva ramea... modiT, jer waikiTxeT... werili kargi gawafuli xeliT iyo dawerili. naweris tonic ar hgavda ucodinari intriganis nawers. damwers yvelaferi gaeTvaliswinebina. werili Wkviani gaiZveris Sedgenils hgavda. Turme mTavari damnaSave bazis direqtori yofila, romlis miTiTebiT me-8 sawyobidan daitaces saxelmwifo dovlaTi. didi ciliswameba iyo. am tyuilis igors ar SeSinebia, mxolod erTma garemoebam
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waarTva sxeuli. arcerTi tyuili saSiSi ar aris, Tu iq patara simarTle ar urevia da am patara simarTlem aumRvia goneba. erT saSinel cnobas, romelsac cilismwamebeli amtkicebda, mohyva misi TviTdaeWveba. _ vin var me? _ fiqrobda igori. `jemal cnobilaZe igoris kaci iyo, _ werda avtori. _ bazis direqtorma sakuTari ojaxis mosawyobad gamoiyena gulubryvilo biWi, romelic arxeinad daparpaSobda bazaSi. dRevandelma direqtorma mas daavala Semosuli importis realizacia. aRweris dros danaklisi aRmoaCnda. moklulma direqtors aivazaSvilis xeliT soliduri Tanxis ZviradRirebuli samkaulebi SesTavaza. bazis direqtorma aiRo igi, magram dapireba ar Seasrula. piriqiT, misi gaqroba scada~. _ styuis! ese igi, mkvleloba me Cavidine? _ amis damwers adre mouvida am werilis gamogzavna, rac mis simarTles abaTilebs. Cvens xelT aris cnoba, razec ki aucileblad mogixdebaT axsna-ganmartebis micema. Tqvens gamoZaxebamde erTi saaTiT adre miviRe es suraTi. aq Tqveni meuRlea. _ gamomZieblis dabali xma mexiviT gavarda igoris yurebTan da dilandeliviT kvlav ayiravda samyaro mis Tavze. yvelafers warmoidgenda, magram Tu im jvars, romelic aivazaSvilma SesTavaza, meuRlis mkerdze ixilavda, es ver daejerebina. _ `me ar mawuxebs im beWdis dakargva, romlis fasi dedaCemsac sxvanairad warmoedgina~. _ kidev miswvda Tamilas bolo sityvebi igors. usityvod gauSva xeli suraTs da savarZels mieyrdno, rom Zirs ar dacemuliyo. mis Tavze ayiravebuli samyaro aqanavda. Semdeg Tavis Sua wertilSi raRac wvetiani CaerWo da mis garSemo yvelaferma brunva daiwyo.. isev suraTi aiRo xelSi. uceb yvelaferi dawynarda, yvelaferi Caqra, ayiravebuli samyaro Tavis adgilze daeSva. cols daakvirda. rodis uyvarda es qali, verafriT moigona. briliantisTvlebiani jvari gretas mkerdze brwyinavda da isedac mSvenier qals kidev ufro alamazebda. Turme didi RmerTebic scodaven, roca ulamazes qalebs patioben danaSauls.gamomZiebelma kidev ramdenime SekiTxva dausva igors. Semdeg mokrZalebiT mimarTa. _ jer-jerobiT saWiro ar xar. xvalidan Cveni rwmunebulis TandaswrebiT aRwera daiwyeba. igori nela wamodga. gamomZiebels naRvlianad gauRima da Caialaparaka: _ Cinebulad Cafiqrebuli tragediaa! gareT gamovida. manqana iqve eloda.
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_ saxlSi mimiyvane! saxtad darCa, roca saxlSi aravin daxvda, magram ar swyenia. TiTqos SvebiT amoisunTqa. erTxans gadawyvita, dawynarebuliyo, rom cal-calke aReqva yoveli movlena. sakuTar saxlSi misulma igrZno, rom mas ar uTvalTvalebdnen. amdeni usiamovno ambebis Tavmoyram igori mTlianad gamoafxizla. fiqris dros es ambebi erTmaneTs cvlidnen. Tu jemalis mkvlelobam SesZra misi suli da kanonieri aRSfoTeba gamoiwvia, Tamilas beWdis dakargvam Tavzari dasca. es ise gaigo, TiTqos sulSi CauZvrnen da raRac waarTves. gretas rolma am binZur saqmeSi mTlianad gaaSiSvla da dediSobila warudga sazogadoebas. mis fexebTan TiTqos miwa iZra, saSinlad SesZulda sakuTari Tavi. axla ukve aRar qanaobda mis Tavze samyaro, aRar dacocavdnen gaurkveveli azrebi mis sulSi. yvelaferma sakuTari forma da adgili daikava. sakuTari TvaliT dainaxa gaSiSvlebuli sakuTari sxeuli, moqanculi da ilajgawyvetili. sircxvilisgan yurebamde gawiTlda. wamodga da Tavis cxovrebaSi pirvelad gadawyvita, daeTvalierebina nestor CikvilaZis bina, romlis memkvidrec Tavad iyo. mamis oTaxma, sadac Savi sawoli, qristes xati, vercxlis qamar-xanjali da feliqsis suraTi Semohyurebda, sevda mohgvara. amasTanave gaaoca Weramde asulma dedis karadebma. saxeluri gamoswia da yvela kari mTlianad gaiRo. saxtad darCa amdeni ucxouri saqonlis xilvisas. aq iseTebic iyo, jer qselSi rom ar gasuliyo bazidan. _ ra miamiti patiosani vyofilvar. iqneb, kidev meyos gambedaoba, sindisiT vitrabaxo. ra mSvenivrad momirTavs cxovreba sakuTari TavisTvis ise, rom TiTic ar gaminZrevia. _ matriarqi. _ gaifiqra dedaze, magram sityvebi ver moZebna sakuTari Tavis gasalanZRad. Tamilas oTaxs cerad gaxeda. suraTidan zemfiris Tvalebi yovelTvis sayveduriT ucqerdnen. wamlebiTa da wignebiT savse karadaze vasikos suraTs hkida Tvali. _ dResve unda damTavrdes maTi saqme, Torem iqneb, xval yvelaferi gvian iyos! isev zemfiris Tvalebs Sexeda. ra mizezi iyo, rom mSoblebma Tamila Svilad ar aRiares. xom SeiZleboda, saerTod ar eTqvaT Tamilas mSoblebis tragedia? _ damjdari gonebiT, Zalian xSirad ufiqria igors. _ gana ukeTesi ar iqneboda, da-ZmebiviT gazrdil qal-vaJs gonebodaT, erTi ded-mamis Svilebi varTo? dRes zemfiris sayveduriT savse Tvalebi TiTqos eCurCuleboda:
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_ xom daikargeboda Cveni arseboba samudamod? _ moesma igors. Tvalebi gaufarTovda, Tmebi cerad daudga. _ ra ubedur dReze gavCenilvar. _ gaifiqra mexdakrulma kacma. darbazSi gavida, sadac mxolod pativcemul xalxs iRemdnen misi deda da meuRle. brolis didi WaRi TvalismomWrelad cimcimebda. igi gretam komisionSi SeiZina. moqalaqe, romelmac es WaRi moitana, Zvel aristokratiul wres ekuTvnoda. WaRic mecxramete saukunis naxelavi iyo. dResac ar icis, misma `Wkvianma~ colma ra gadaixada am WaRSi. brolis surebi, vazebi, kalaTebi, rbili aveji, noxebi da suraTebi-es yvelaferi... _ ra Rirs netav? - gaifiqra igorma. ezos kari gaiRo da vasiko Semovida. _ rogor arian Cvenebi? _ ikiTxa. _ cudad. igors raRacis Tqma undoda, rom uceb ezosTan manqana gaCerda. vasikom karisken gaixeda. _ deda! - aRmoxda biWs da sirbiliT kibeze daeSva. malamosaviT moxvda gulze misi danaxva vasikos.
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didi xani gavida mas Semdeg, rac dariam qmari karSi gaistumra, gaacila da ukan aRar dabrunebula. ise daiRupa, qals erTi werilic ar mosvlia misgan. saocrebaa adamianis buneba. roca yvelaferi daviwyebas eZleva, bolomde mainc ar aris yvelaferi daviwyebuli. wveT-wveTad iwriteba adamianis gulidan didi gancdebi, bednieri Tu ubeduri wuTebi. burusi efineba bevr movlenas, romelic adre did sixaruls aniWebda. mcocavi landebi Cndeba da Semdeg es landebic dneba adamianis warmosaxvaSi, magram ramdeni welic ar unda gavides, sami didi sulieri gancda samudamod anaTebs adamianis guls: adre daoblebis didi tkivili, mowifulobaSi-siyvarulis Zlieri gancda da Svilisadmi Tandayolili dardi. es sami grZnoba ise aris adamianis sulSi Caxveuli, rom araviTar gzaze Semxvedr bednierebas, araviTar sixaruls ar ZaluZs gaaqarwylos is, radgan adamianis nawilia da yovel wuTs masTanaa. adre daqvrivebas ar gautexia daria. axalgazrdobam gaakaJa, movaleobam patiosan SromaSi Caaba. mamakacis msgavsi gaxda mTasTan Serkinebuli qali. arc SvilTan daSorebam daayrevina farxmali. ar dauwyia wuwuni da wyevla. arc aravisTvis SeuCivlia Tavisi gulistkivili.
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bolo dros soflidan axalgazrdoba gaikrifa, kalTaze gamobmuli xom ar meyoleboda? _ Cumad, uTqmelad amarTlebda Svils. qali isev TavgamodebiT Sromobda, radgan grZnobda, dRiTidRe akldeboda muSa sofels, dRiTidRe ufro sWirdeboda saqmes, Tavis fuZes, romelsac wlebis manZilze patiosnad emsaxureboda. wlebs ki Tavisi daRi daesva qalisTvis. Savgvremani saxe dagrZeleboda, Sekruli SubliT mdumared asrulebda Tavisze dakisrebul mZime xvedrs. vaJi sdumda. gamogzavnil mokle baraTebSi mxolod dedis ambavs kiTxulobda. arc Tavis Tavze swerda rames da arc imaze, ra surda. amis Sesaxeb krints ar sZravda. mogvianebiT qvrivs qanci gauwyda. autanel tkivils iwvevda Svilis ambavi. _ nuTu daikarga CemTvis? nuTu yvelafers wertili daesva? _ fiqrobda qali. daria sakuTari soflis Svili iyo. mas bedniereba verc warmoedgina imis iqiT. _ Tu Cemi naTesavebi Cems sikeTes ver dainaxaven, Tu Secdomebze mezoblebi ar melaparakebian, rad minda aseTi cxovreba? _ aseTi iyo misi azri. didi yoymanis Semdeg gadawyvita, TbilisSi wasuliyo da Svili enaxa. bolosdabolos, misi cxovreba gaego. moemzada da stumrad Camosul mazliSvils TbilisSi gahyva. _ daRlili movedi wuxel. uSobeli maklda. mTeli Rame veZebe da ver vnaxe. _ gzadagza eubneboda mazliSvils. _ uTenia unaxavs Cveni nestoras nikas. did daRmarTSi misi Signeuli mgels gamoeglija. _ ambobda daria yovelgvari gancdis gareSe. cxovrebasTan pirdapir mdgom qals, etyoba, aseTi ambavi xSirad Sexvedria da araferi ukvirda. Svilze saerTod bevrs ar laparakobda, didxans iTmenda, Tavis dedur xmas ejiuteboda, magram eloda... roca moTmineba mTlianad amoewura da mis suls gaurkveveli SiSi daepatrona, dedurma xmam sZlia dedur sijiutes da gadawyvita TbilisSi Camosvla. Tu dRemde natosTan Sexvedra arasasiamovno mogonebebs uSlida, dRes yvelaferi erTbaSad ukan darCa da Svilze fiqriT ilajgawyvetilma qalma gadawyvita, daxmareba natosTvis eTxova. rogorc dedas, hqonda amis ufleba. ramdeni Rame gauTenebia Svilis akvanTan mijaWvul dedas _ smena aqvs Tu ara, mere mxedveloba aqvs Tu ara. Tvals gaayolebs da ggonia, is yvela bavSvze geniosia da verc ki grZnob, rom Cveulebrivi bavSvia. pirveli amosuli kbili, netav, saidan amouvida, zevidan Tu qvevidan? Semdeg uazrod warmoTqmuli sityvebi, dedasTan gab- 196 -

muli pirveli usityvo dialogi, pirveli nabiji, mravaljer gatexili cxviri, naRrZobi fexi, eklebze dakawruli wvivebi. Semdeg skolaSi gacileba _ es xom didi zeimia dedis da Svilis cxovrebaSi. mere deda-Svils Soris axali pirovneba Cndeba, romelTan Sexvedrac orives aRelvebs. dedis xels Cakruli bavSvi nela tovebs da garbis iq, sadac misi megobrebi midian. dedas isic axsovs, misi Svilis gverdiT pirveli loyebRaJRaJa gogona rom ijda da ase Semdeg... igorma daria win gaatara, uceb isev gaCerda manqana ezosTan, WiSkarSi nato gamoCnda, romelsac mZime CanTa mohqonda. igorma gaocebiT Sexeda CanTas, TqmiT ki, araferi uTqvams. nato ar eloda igors, Secba, magram ixtibari ar gaitexa da stumars daakvirda. Zlivs Seicno yofili muli natom. _ me avitan Sens oTaxSi! _ uTxra Svilma dedas. _ gmadlob. me TviTon! -_ magram ar gauZalianda da roca igorma CanTa CamoarTva, stumarTan mivida. _ kargia, rom gvinaxule daria! dariam yofili rZali SeaTvaliera. Tumca WaRara gareoda TmebSi, misi sxivosani TvalebiT mainc mimzidveli sCanda. sastumro oTaxSi SeipatiJa qali. soflidan Camosuls fufunebad mquxare mdinare, maRali mTebi, sayane da saTibi velebi miaCnda. am simdidrem erTbaSad daabnia. _ `aq Cemi Svili xelze mosamsaxured eyolebaT!~ _ gulnatkenma gaifiqra, roca moridebiT Cajda savarZelSi. _ wels gvindoda vasos sofelSi gamoSveba, magram igori ver Seelia. iseT mZRols, ZmasaviT rom gverdiT udgas, sad iSovi axla? laxvariviT moxvda es sityvebi darias. _ `Semoibereben sacodavs~. _ Svils usityvod Sexeda dariam. vasiko karebTan idga. _ darias Svilia da Tu moisurvebs, dResve waiyvans. ra Tqma unda, Tu vasos survilic iqneba. _ ukmexad Caeria igori. es ukve garigebas hgavda. dariam Svils Sexeda. Svilma mis sayvedurian Tvalebs ver gauZlo da Tavi Zlivs daxara. _ oh, laparakSi gaverTe. qalbatoni daria moSiebulia! _ nato swrafad adga da samzareuloSi gavida. pauza xangrZlivi iyo. bolos igorma daarRvia siCume. _ deida daria, Tqven usaqmod ar CamoxvidodiT. _ ra Tqma unda. aseT dros, roca yelamde samuSaoa sofelSi... _ moisveneT. samuSao yovelTvis aris. maSinac, roca Cven ar viqnebiT. _ naRvlianad Seepasuxa igori qals. _ da mainc, vasikos minda movelaparako. didi dro miveci Cems
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erTaderT Svils, Tavis nebaze evlo. mgonia, droa, sakuTar Tavzec ifiqros. _ Tqven CamoxvediT, rom vasiko waiyvanoT? _ ikiTxa igorma. _ ho, Svilo. _ Tamilas gareSe? _ ikiTxa igorma. am SekiTxvas sxva dros ar dasvamda, magram dRes saWiro iyo. arc gahkvirvebia, am kiTxvam daria rom SeakrTo. _ sCans, yvelaferi damTavrebuli yofila! _ gaifiqra qalma. _ Tamila, am ojaxSi gazrdili gogo SeZlebs mTis sofelSi cxovrebas? _ gaognebulma es wamoiZaxa mxolod. _ aucileblad SeZlebs, radgan eseni erTmaneTisTvis arian gaCenili. Seni Svili ubeduri iqneba mis gareSe. _ Cqara wamodga da dedasTan gavida. cota xanSi deda-Svili Semovidnen. dariam igrZno, maT Soris Sav katas gaerbina. _ vaso, gaiqeci, Tamila moiyvane da erTad mamas sanaxavad wavalT manamde. ki Cemi saTayvanebeli deda ki brolis surebiTa da vercxlis dana-CangliT aavsebs sufras. `brolis surebi~ da `vercxlis dana-Cangali~ gesliani xazgasmiT, amaRlebuli toniT Tqva igorma. nato moeSva. mas didi xania, daekarga pirveloba ojaxSi. ver ajoba gretas. _ araferi autexos Cems Svils!~ _ fiqrobda Svilze uzomod Seyvarebuli qali da ukve daTmobaze midioda. _ natalia dimitrevna Zlivs formaSi Cadga, damjeri dedamTilia! _ trabaxobda Tavis megobrebSi greta. samzareuloSi wakamaTebam, Semdeg sxvebis TandaswrebiT Svilis gamomwvevma kilom aaRelva nato, magram Tavi moToka da darias win, cariel savarZelSi Camojda. dumili xangrZlivi iyo. orive qali igoris sityvas eloda. es igorma igrZno, dariasTan axlos mivida da mxrebze moxvia xeli, keTilSobilma Rimilma gaunaTa saxe, vasikos Sexeda. aseTi Rimiliani saxe didxans daamaxsovrda mas. _ qalbatono daria, Tqven gismenT. TqviT, Torem sacaa, Cven SemogTavazoT Cveni qaliSvili. darias sixarulis cremliT aevso Tvalebi. es iyo Txovnac da madlobac. igi igoris xels moefara. _ iqneb TamilasTvis gekiTxa, iqneb sjobda, mas gadaewyvita Tavisi bedi. _ Cailaparaka natom. nervebi zambarasaviT daeWima igors, sisxli TavSi auvarda wamowiTlda. guli lamis budidan amouvarda. _ Tavisi bedi? mas didi xania, gadawyvetili aqvs Tavisi bedi, Cemo keTilismsurvelo deda. Tqven... _ meti veRar gagrZela. dariasi moerida.
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_ vasiko, raRas dgaxar? kari gaiRo. nodari da ledi Semovidnen. _ Cinebulia. _ Cailaparaka igorma. _ gaicaniT. qalbatoni daria, vasikos deda! _ ramdeni gvisaubria Tqvenze! _ roca ledi qals kocnida, ase uTxra. nato da igori samzareuloSi gavidnen. _ gretasTan ar wavide? _ daadevna igors vasikom. _ ara. masTan mere wavideT. Tqven vasos gahyeviT. dRes vasikos da Tamilas SeuRlebis dRea. _ marTla? _ saTvale gaiswora nodarma da ledis da vasikos ukan gaedevna. sastumro oTaxSi marto darCa daria. _ iqneb TamilasTvis gvekiTxa? _ samzareuloSi Semosul Svils sayveduriT Sexeda dedam. _ ver Seelie im azrs, rom ori xelze mosamsaxure unda dakargo. me mZRoli xvalidan aRar mWirdeba, Cemo mzrunvelo deda. gana Sen kari ar miuxure Cems gadawyvetilebas? svetas mSoblebi Seni Sesaferisebi ar iyvnen. SeniT, SeniT aris, rom gul-RviZli gamoclili maqvs. axla is gaklia, WiSkarSi daxvde bednier gogonas da ubrZano, Tavisi piriT Tqvas uari bednierebaze. midi, daxvdi, radgan Sen isini gWirdeba. _ igori didi Sinagani grZnobiT ambobda, magram cdilobda, wonasworoba ar daekarga. _ Seni azriT, es arafris gamkeTebeli nivTebiT avsebuli saxli bednierebaa? is CanTa, weRan rom Zlivs Semoitane, is aris SenTvis bedniereba? Sen Cvrebis mona xar! erTi bavSvi ar darbis axla amxela darbazebSi, amaze gifiqria? _ yvelaferi SenTvis gavakeTe, Svilo! _ gTxov, Sewyvite amaze laparaki. gareT gasvla undoda. Tamilas beWedi moagonda. _ deda! _ ra iyo, igor? _ Tamilas beWedi sadaa? _ romeli? _ dedisgan datovebuli. _ me ratom mekiTxebi? Tamilas hkiTxe? _ Tamilas ukve vkiTxe. _ mere? _ Sen ar SegimCnevia ramdeni xania, ar ukeTia. nato kedels mieyrdno. mis Tavze raRac ayiravda. _ macale amosunTqva. _ esRa uTxra Svils. _ me stumarTan gaval. Sen saqmes mixede da Tu rame dagWirdes, damiZaxe. igori dariasTan gavida.
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saavadmyofosTan SeaCera vasikom manqana. mamakacebi manqanaSi datova ledim, TamilasTan misvla martom gadawyvita. manve ikisra axali ambiT esiamovnebina megobrisTvis. Tamilam icoda, daria rom movidoda, Tumca mainc daibna. gareT gamosuls nodarma yvavilebi miarTva, vasikom gulSi Caikra. im RamiT patara vaxSmiT, ramdenime naCqarevad mowveuli stumari, axalgazrda wyvilis SeuRlebas aRniSnavdnen. didi siyvarulis pirveli periodi dasrulda, meore periodis dasawyisi aRniSnes stumrebma. im RamiT igoris bednierebisgan gaciskrovnebuli saxe yvelaze keTilSobili da yvelaze mimzidveli sCanda. roca dariam moridebiT moiZro Tavisi beWedi da rZals gaukeTa, natom TvaliT aniSna, Seni beWedi sad ariso. Tamila SekrTa da dedas uCurCula, axla amis dro ar ariso. im RamiT igori dedis gverdiT ijda da aSkarad, Sehxaroda axladSeuRlebulebs. _ ra bednieri xar, ledi. Sen ar gawuxebs adamianTa yoveldRiuri cxovreba. Sen SegiZlia, Seamko Seqmnili Zegli an piriqiT, galanZRo. Seni saqmea, magram SeiZleba, arc gaixseno moqandake, vinc Zegli Seqmna. an mwerali, vinc nawarmoebi dawera. isini gverdiT grCebian da Sen ici, maT ra rTuli cxovrebiT icxovres. maT mier Seqmnili xelovneba maTi aforiqebuli sulis daokebaa. nu sTxov nodars, Seni siamovnebisTvis weros. is imas dawers, rasac misi suli ubrZanebs. im RamiT mxolod nato iyo aforiqebuli da Tamilas beWedze fiqrobda. Tamila xvdeboda, rom igorma gaakeTa es imitom, rom xval SeiZleba yvelaferi gviani yofiliyo. gvian RamiT igorma, roca ukanaskneli sadRegrZelo Sesva, nodars sTxova, erTad gaeTiaT Rame. mSvidi Rame iyo. ezoSi Cavidnen. yvavilnarSi mdgar skamze Camosxdnen da didxans uxmod isxdnen. _ Sen ar giambnia CemTvis meored Seni mogzaurobis Sesaxeb kirovSi. dro ver gamovnaxe. kote ratom damidga Tvalwin am wuTSi... ra xarbad gadaylapa maSin fuli... nodari skamis sazurges mieyrdno. _ am bednier dRes ra saxsenebelia is ubeduri? ra ubralod daiRupa. _ Cailaparaka nodarma da piri mokuma. _ ubralod! _ nerviulad Tqva es sityvebi igorma. _ me kidev erTxel momiwia martos traqtor-gamobmul lafetze jdoma patimrebTan erTad. Semdeg am ubedur adamianebTan erTad Waobiani adgilebis gavla sapatimromde. _ igor, ra sunia zafxulSi am WaobSi... kargia, maSin zamTari iyo, zafxuli ki... saSinelma simyralem rom Semawuxa, vikiTxe,
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aq ra aris Tqo. sasaflaoa, Sen visTan xaro, SemekiTxa patimari. vupasuxe, Cemi Zmaa aq, kavkazski kniazs uwodeben-Tqo. _ is Seni Zma iyo? _ SekiTxva gulze momxvda. mivxvdi, `iyo~ warsulSi iyo naTqvami da avismomaswavebeli dasasrulis molodinSi morze Sevdeqi, romlic Waobze iyo gadadebuli. dumili didxans gagrZelda. _ is aRar aris? _ vikiTxe. _ ukve meore Tvea. ar Segatyobines? _ ara. kote CvenTvis maSin mokvda, roca saxlidan gavida, magram kidev sadRac imedis natamali iyo, rom cixidan movidoda. sul axlos WaobSi susti xma gaisma. _ erTic amovida. _ Cailaparaka erTma. WaobSi jer buStebi amovida, Semdeg kubos msgavsi ficari gamoCnda. albaT verasdros gavigebdi im xalxis bedis jojoxeTur dasasruls, iq rom ar movxvedriliyavi. _ Sexede, kidev erTi moswyda miwas. damnaSaves miwac ar Rebulobs. ai, sad aris dasaflavebuli Seni Zma. _ papirosi gaabola. gaognebuli mivCerebodi, rogor nela amodioda. vin icis, rodis iyo damarxuli patimari. _ kmara, nodar! _ Seawyvetina igorma. _ dRes Tamilas bednierebaa. igori Tumca gvian dawva, saSinelma sizmarma gamoaRviZa. CaZinebuls erTi fraza Cahyva gulSi: _ vin var me? imave wuTSi aTasma xmam aitaca es sityvebi da mis yurebTan daubrunes. am xmaSi erTad airia dacinvac da SiSic, brZanebac da Sebralebac. _ veravin Seexeba Cems sindiss! _ gaibrZola Sinaganma xmam. igive aTasma xmam gadaixarxara. Semdeg moiguda da yumbarasaviT mis yurTan daicala. am dros misi samuSao oTaxi gaiRo da Savad Camomxmari gigola aivazaSvili frTxilad Semovida. _ me getyvi, vin xar Sen! _ da Savi TiTi misken gaiSvira. igors sunTqva Seekra, savarZelSi Camomjdari gairinda. _ aanTe sinaTle! _ ukve brZaneba gaisma. igorma usityvod Seasrula stumris brZaneba. roca maspinZelma Tvali gaaxila, TeTr perangSi da zolebian halstuxSi gamowyobili ministri idga gigolas saxiT. igi nela uaxlovdeboda igoris sawer magidas, misi nabijebi usiamovno bgerebad gaismoda. ministrma saTvale gaikeTa da igors mkacri saxiT TvalebSi Caxeda. _ me Sen pasuxsageb saqmeze gagiSvi. aqedan SeiZleboda Seni aRzeveba da es Sansi xelidan gauSvi. _ me patiosani... _ patiosani... _ axlos mivida, mxrebSi Caavlo xeli, wamoayena
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da sadisturad gadaixarxara. es ar hgavda Cveulebriv sicils. es iyo igoris winaaRmdeg qveynierebis amboxeba. igori Zrwoda. gigola ki tkbeboda amiT. mas sakuTari saxe dabruneboda. sicili erTbaSad Sewyda. orive erTmaneTis pirdapir dasxdnen. _ me da Sen erTnairi patiosnebi varT, Cemo igor. gansxvaveba ki erTia. me SemiZlia amis aRiareba, Sen ki geSinia. mSiSara xar. ara, mamaSeni mSiSara ar iyo. is vaJkacurad akeTebda, rom Sen ai, mag savarZelSi Camjdariyavi. rbilia, ara? _ gansxvaveba kidev ici, ra aris? me vici, vin var. Sen ki dRemde ver mimxvdarxar, vin xar! dRes Cven tolebi varT. ginda, Tu ar ginda, es unda daijero. iseTive tolebi, rogorc adre, bavSvobisas. Senma mamam Caferfla CemSi didi niWi, rom SenTvis rbili adgili moenaxa. me Segnebulad wavedi danaSaulze, radgan Cems xuT Svils patiosani mama ar sWirdebodaT. me zustad vici, rodis mimatova sindisma. Seni erTi ubedureba is aris, rom sindisi ise wavida Sengan, verc ki gaige. gigola wamodga, karisken wavida. zurgiT SeCerda da TiTqos urekaveno, oTaxSi `is xma~ gaisma. _ Sen mohkali jemali, es avsili saxli rom SegrCenoda. _ a.. a... a... _ wamoiyvira moguduli xmiT da gamofxizlebuli zeze wamoiWra. _ RmerTo, sizmari yofila! Tavdapirvelad igors gadawyvetili hqonda, axaldaqorwinebulni gaecilebina, magram gadaifiqra. maTi gacileba nodars sTxova. vasiko bevrs ecada, Tundac erTi kviriT darCeniliyo masTan, magram araferi gamouvida. _ mamasTan gaviaroT saavadmyofoSi. dedas iq davtoveb. Semdeg borjomSi waval. _ aseTi pasuxi miiRo. Tamilas ukanasknelad gamoemSvidoba igori, cremlebiT aevso Tvalebi. _ Tamunia, me vnaxav Sens beWeds. _ nu dardob, igor. me igi ukve vnaxe. _ Tu ver vnaxe, masTan erTad daikargeba Cemi momavalic. _ xom ar davrCeniliyavi kidev? _ oh, ara, Sen ar ici, ramxela tvirTi momexsna mxridan. saavadmyofosTan daSordnen igors. mdumared dasZra manqana vasikom. mis gverdiT nodari ijda. Tamila dariasa da ledis Soris garindebuliyo. mas sadedoflo kaba ecva. saxeldaxelo gasaxlebas ufro hgavda maTi saqorwino mogzauroba. Tamila megobrebSi yofnis dros umetesad sdumda, magram Tu laparakobda, mTeli grZnobiT, ise, rom msmenels saswrafod
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atyvevebda. dabali, gulSi Camwvdomi xma hqonda. misi xma kargad awyobil sakravs hgavda, romelic didi gancdiT gamoxatavda sixarulsac da mwuxarebasac. _ am wuTSi ra momagonda, iciT? mainc risTvis momagonda? _ gaCumda erTxans. Semdeg nela daiwyo. _ ori Tvis winaT, saswrafoSi katastrofaSi moxvedrili adamianebi moiyvanes. isini somxebi iyvnen. manqanaSi ori axalgazrda mamakaci da erTi qali mkvdrebi iyvnen. daxmareba mxolod moxuc mamakacs aRmovuCineT, romelsac mciredi tramva mieRo Tavis areSi. roca grZnobaze movida, pirvelad qaliSvili ikiTxa. roca dadebiTi pasuxi miiRo, Semdeg siZe moikiTxa. aravis gaumxelia maTi sikvdili da moxucs mSvidad CaeZina. roca isev gaeRviZa, me vadeqi Tavze. uazrod wamavlo xeli da dabali xmiT SemekiTxa. _ SeekiTxe Cems qaliSvils, is Zvirfasi beWedi xom ar dakarga? Tvalebi davxuWe. ar mindoda, tyuilSi daveWire. gareT gavedi da avtirdi. _ risi damkargavi, ras kiTxulobda? is susti grZnoba, albaT, yvela adamianSia, Sen-Cemoba rom hqvia. rogor sasacilos gvxdis igi, imasac ver vgrZnobT. ise mouvida dRes igors. _ netav, Svebuleba aeRo da Cven gamogvyoloda! _ gulwrfelad Tqva dariam. _ Svebuleba? _ vasiko gamoerkva.
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igori arasodes aseTi daRlili, sulierad ganadgurebuli, Tavisi rwmenis mimarT gulgatexili da cxovrebaze xelCaqneuli ar yofila. mas fexze dgomis sayrdenic ki gamoecala. kunTebSi moeSva, suli gauorda, Tavis cxovrebas da Tavis sakuTar Tavs didi manZiliT daSorda, Soridan Sexeda da SeezizRa. marTalia, mas Tavisi Tavi borotmoqmedad ver Seecno, magram ususur Tojinad, sacodav dabeCavebul da umoqmedo arsebad daudga Tvalwin. dRes pirvelad mixvda, rom igi borotmoqmedze dabla daeSva. isic ki ar icoda, risTvis mivida danaSaulamde. aki gigolamac mourideblad uTxra: _ mamaSenma icoda, rasac akeTebda, magram Sen ver SeZeli dauReWavi lukmis gadaylapva. marTalia borotmoqmedi is ar iyo, amis gakeTebis Tavi mas ar hqonda, magram Sercxvenili, damcirebuli da motyuebuli rom iyo, amas mixvda. erTbaSad mounda im sazizRari arsebis naxva, vinc ramdenime saxiT ecxadeboda igors. ra Tqma unda, mas azradac ar mosvlia, rom Seqmnili mdgomareobidan Tavi daexsna. amis saSualebac iyo da Sansic, magram
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daZromis gza ar uZebnia bazis direqtors. moxda tragedia da am saSinel ubedurebaSi ra adgili ekava mas, mxolod amis garkveva surda. sayrdeni wertili eSleboda fexebTan da TiTqos ca Tavze damxoboda. am aforiaqebuli suliT daSorda Tamilas da mis mcire mayrions. man cxovrebaSi pirvelad isesxa dedis niRabi da msaxiobis roli didebulad gaiTamaSa. roca saWes miujda da manqana daZra, Tavis Tavs uTxra: _ exla borjomSi. iq yvelaze ukeTesad gavigeb, vin var me. erTxans mdumared mihyveboda gzas. cdilobda, araferze efiqra, magram amaod. xan jemalis mkvleloba daudgeboda Tvalwin, xanac Tamilas beWedi Seaxsenebda Tavs. _ nu dardob igor! is beWedi gana ramdeni Rirda. _ saqme sul sxvaa... ase mgonia, beWdis ver povnaSi Cemi usindiso da uazrod dakarguli momavalic aris. _ Seni dakarguli momavali? ra saerToa Sens momavalsa da Cems beWeds Soris? _ Zalian bevri. da igori ise cdilobda im oqros beWdis mopovebas, TiTqos amiT patiosan momavals daibrunebda. binddeboda, roca borjomSi Cavida. igori sanatoriumTan im dros SeCerda, roca sadResaswaulod morTuli greta da dedamisi gareT gamovidnen. is ise gaCnda maTTan, rom maT verc ki SeniSnes. igori Sedga. Tvali Seavlo cols, gaxevda, miwadqceuli da ferwasuli mamakaci colis mkerdze abrWyvialebul oqros jvars gaognebuli misCereboda, masSi aTasi sxivi cialebda... _ ese igi, marTalia! wynarad Cailaparaka igorma. _ ra? feri ecvala gretas, xeli waivlo jvarze, magram damalva ver SeZlo. gvian iyo. moxda ufro meti saswauli _ im xelze, jvars rom malavda, bzinavda... _ Tamilas beWedi? aRmoxda Rmuilis msgavsi xma. da aqamde samyaro mis Tavze rom qanaobda, uceb Sedga. yvelaferi dalagda. _ axla ki vici, vina var me? colTan axlos mivida. xelidan waaglija beWedi. _Sen ar xar Rirsi, am beWeds atarebde! kibeze misi simamri Camovida da siZisken gaemarTa, magram igorma misalmeba ar acala, TiTi gaiSvira mocimcime jvrisaken da simamrs uTxra: _ am jvris gamo kaci mokles. es jvari nayaCaRaria. Tqvens qaliSvils mouxdeba pasuxis geba. is borotmoqmedia. niko aenTo. qaliSvilTan mivida. _ Sen es icodi? _ es jvari gigola avazaSvilis xeliT gamomigzavnes Senma
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TanamSromlebma, me igi miviRe Sens wilad, romelsac misi xeliT viRebdi. _ ramxela ufleba momicia SenTvis? me yvelaze didi borotmoqmedi var, magram pasuxs mainc ageb. _ moiSore eg jvari! uyvira gafiTrebulma nikom. _ gvian aris. sagamomZieblo organoSi ukve aris miRebuli foto, sadac Seni qaliSvilis dekoltirebuli mkerdia amobeWdili Tavisi Zvirfasi jvriT. igorma zurgi Seaqcia maT. manqanaSi Cajda da ukan datova SeZrwunebuli coleuloba. beWdis povnam erTbaSad sixaruli mianiWa igors. uceb, mcire xniT, miaviwyda, ra roli iTamaSa im bnel istoriaSi, ramac briliantis Tvlian jvramde miiyvana. mTavari am wuTSi Tamilas beWedi iyo, jer kidev xelSi rom eWira. surda, instinqturad gaeswro movlenebisaTvis, dasweoda mayrions da saCuqrad mierTmia nefepatarZlisaTvis sagvareulo siwmindis niSani. samsaxuri, milicia, mkvleloba, gretas gulze avad mbrwyinvale jvari _ yvelaferi sadRac ukan darCa. mas araferi ar awuxebda, radgan xelSi eWira beWedi da masze SeTxzuli sasiamovno legenda. _ Cemo dediko! ramdeni ram icodi Cemze da ramdeni ram mainc darCa uTqmeli. Zalian xSirad mindoda bevris Tqma, magram, roca am gadawyvetilebas viRebdi, yovelTvis zedmetad mimaCnda saubari axla ki erTi ramis Tqma minda, ar vici, SevZleb ki dawevas da amis Tqmas? didxans videqi dedaCemis azrze. Seni sofelSi wasvla danaSaulad mimaCnda, amitom ar vcdilobdi Tqvens urTierTobaSi Cavreuliyavi. roca vasiko axlos gavicani, Cems Tavze gavbrazdi, magram gambedaoba ar meyo, Seni bedis gadamewyvita. Sen ki usityvod SemogvCerebodi. dariasTan Sexvedram damanaxa dedis didi guli. rCevas ar gaZlev, eg Seni saqmea, magram gTxov zurgi ar Seaqcio im qals, visac Seni sayvareli adamianis deda hqvia; im fuZes, kargi kacis kargi qvrivi rom dakankalebda. gemudarebi dedaCemis imediT nu wamoxval aq, es sakuTari sindisis Ralatia, sxva Tu araferi. Cems mdidrul saxlSi, dedaCemis mzrunvelobiT Tavbrudaxveuli yovelTvis Tavs oblad grZnobdi da Raribadac, magram Sen vaJkacurad medeqi gverdiT, radgan TviT am simdidres ar gaumdidrebia Cemi sulic. patiosnad iare Sens arCeul megobarTan! es iqneba Cemi locva, Seni cxovrebis did gzaze. adamiani ufre didi tanjvisTvis aris gaCenili da, vaJkacurad gadatanili es didi tanjva ufro warmoaCens adamians, vidre xangrZlivad udieri cxovreba. Camobnelda, gzatkecilze lampionebi aenTo, eleqtro boZebze zogan erTi naTura iyo, zoggan ori. igori uazrod iTvlida
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misken momaval lampionebs. zogjer surda, dilamde ar damTavrebuliyo lampionebis jeri, zogjer ki saSinlad anerviulebda isini. aSkaraa, misi nerviuli sistema am ukanasknel dReebSi mTlianad daWimuliyo. beWdis povnis pirvelma sixarulma male gauara, amas mohyva meore SekiTxva. _ rodidan gavxdi damnaSavis monawile? axla beWedi sapnis buStiviT farfatebda mis TvalebTan. viRac Tavis qalaze rkinis saltes uWerda. safeTqlebi daxeTqvaze hqonda. yelSi, gaCxerili erTi nervi salaparakos ukargavda. _ iqneb davewio! scada, nervebi moeToka da manqana bolo siCqareSi CarTo. avi fiqri ki ar Sordeboda, radgan viRacas xeli mis sulSi SemZvraliyo da guls ukirtnida. igorma ver SeamCnia, rogor acekvdnen wvimis wveTebi manqanis SuSaze, rogor gaexvia lampionebis burusSi. isic ver SeamCnia, rogor gadaidara da rodis gasrialda manqana mSral qvafenilze. beWdis povniT gamowveuli patara sixaruli da didi tkivili, umoZraod, tvinis erT ujredSi SeCerda. _ `igi gigolam gadmomca!~ pirdapir manqanis xedze wamoskupda greta da doinjSemoyrilma daabolova, ase cxovrobs dRes xalxi. _ xalxi? romeli xalxi? ikiTxa igorma da TvalebTan briliantis TvlebiT gabrwyinebuli oqros jvari aelvarda. _ xalxi! diax, xalxi! Caulaparaka mis yurTan viRacis Zlierma xmam, es is xma iyo, misTvis nacnobi xma. da dRes pirvelad igrZno, rom mas grZel jaWvSi gaeyo Tavi. jaWvSi, sadac sxvadasxva dros am xmis patronma, gretam, dedamisma, misma mamam, gigolam, jemalim da sxvebma gahyves Tavi. man igrZno, rom is am grZeli jaWvis erTi rgoli gaxda. _ Sen xar jemalis mkvleli! _ Sen xar meqrTame! _ Sen xar borotmoqmedi, damnaSave! yurebSi CasZaxoda yvela da mZime jaWvi gveliviT tanze etmasneboda. _ Sen xar pirveli damnaSave! gaisma mis yurTan avbediTi xma. _ ratom marto xma, ratom ar gamoCndebi? nerviulad wamoiZaxa uxmod igorma. _ Sen ver mxedav imitom, rom brma xar. me xom mudam Sens gverdiT var! _ da mis yuramde miaRwia sadisturma xarxarma. es saSineli xarxari gaizarda da moulodnelad yvelaferi mis win ayiravda, yvela sagani am xmas ahyva da dacinvis, Tu gaavebuli xmebis qaosSi airia. _ RmerTo Zliero! momeci Zala, gavuZlo am saSinel xmebs! _ igorma kidev moumata siCqares. man gaqceva scada, magram amaod. _ patiosnebas ikvexni Tavxedo? saxli sasaxles daamsgavse! mis
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win viRacis Zlieri xeli dedisa da colis garderobs aRebda da maT nivTebs xelSi afrialebda. _ me ar meSinia imis, rac gavakeTe. Sen ki soroSi garbixar dasamalad. magram gaxsovdes: Sen Cveulebrivi qurdi xar! _ Cemo megobaro, Sen xom Cemi naTesavi xar, mamaCemis sayvareli Svilis meuRle. maxsovs, rogori zizRiT daxuWe Tvalebi, roca me sacodav fuls vylapavdi. me yelze ar damdgomia, radgan cota iyo. kotes Tavaziani sityvebi Caesma. _ miSvele kote! Seyvira igorma. kotem Tavi gaaryia. briliantis TvlebiT moWedili jvari miutana tuCebTan da ubrZana _ gadaylape! _ ar SegiZlia? Sen iseTi nazi xar, amas ver gaakeTeb. me ki SemiZlia, magram ar minda. aseTi ulufa mxolod SenisTanebis sakadrisia. Sen ar gadaylapav? sxva mova da is gadaylapavs... me daviRale... _ ar SeuZlia!... ar SeuZlia! aTasi xma gamoekida ukan. _ me borotmoqmedi ar var, me sacodavi arseba var! _ yvirili undoda, magram ver SeZlo, radgan didi burTi gaeCxira yelSi igors. mis Tavze samyaro iZvroda da xarxarebda. yvela da yvelaferi mis winaaRmdeg amxedrebuliyo da qudebs isrodnen. _ dagiWeren! gaiqeci! yviroda tye, xeebi, Suqi, romlebic kantikuntad anaTebdnen. igorma erTi wuTiT daxuWa Tvalebi. man Tavisi cxovrebis dasasruli dainaxa. is patimrebs Soris mjdari Sav tansacmelSi Cacmuli cixisken midioda ubeduri adamianebiT datvirTuli avtomanqaniT. _ ai, yoCaR! ukve gamoutane sakuTar Tavs ganaCeni! TiTqos sinanulis win aesveta gigola. Semdeg viRacam TiTqos cxeli wyali gadasxao, jer kefa aewva, Semdeg gavarvarebuli siTxe saxeze CamoeRvara, nela Cahyva cxeli orTqli mTel sxeulze da fexebTan Caiwrita. es moxda raRac wamebSi. am wuTidan yovelgvari SegrZneba gaqra misi sxulidan, samyaros ayiravebac ver SeigrZno. didi tkivili, romelic am dReebSi mas miayenes, sadRac gadna, saWec msubuqi da damjere eCvena, rogorc arasodes! axla misi suli iseT mdgomareobaSi iyo, TiTqos mezoblis Soreul naTesavs da isic moxucs acilebda sasaflaoze. igi arafers grZnobda am sikvdiliT. Svilis sikvdilis Semdeg papis sikvdili rom aRarafrad eCveneba adamians, aseTi grZnoba daeufla. misi sxeuli gaciebul da gamofitul gvams daemsgavsa, erTmaneTze acmuli mwvave gancdebis simZimem sulierad daacariela misi organizmi. mZime tanjvisTvis momzadebuli aRmoCnda. sxeuli gaeyina. manqana SeaCera, Tavi saWeze Camodo da gairinda.
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_ Sen idiotic yofilxar. pasuxismgebloba ginda moixsna? iseve xmaurobda mis yurebTan ,,is Zlieri xma, magram masze es xma aRar moqmedebda. _ Cemo daiko, Cemo Tamunia, Sen ver dagibruneb Sens beWeds, radgan patiosneba didi xania waurTmeviaT CemTvis. _ ra moifiqre, igor? gigolas mudariT savse xma moesma. igorma Tavi aswia, manqana daZra. viRacis Zlierma xelma mxrebSi Caavlo, gigolas Savi aCrdili sikvdilis mociquliviT mis win aisveta. _ ramdeni tanjva mogayene, ubeduro, magram me im did xels ver gaveqeci. mapatie, igor, yvelaferi, magram is, rac Sen gadawyvite, yvelaze didi danaSaulia da nu daimZimeb suls. gigolas daRlilma xmam Rimili mohgvara, Sveba igrZno. _ Cemze ubeduri yofilxar Turme, Savi sulis adamiano! me ar SemiZlia sul sxvis dakrulze vicekvo SensaviT. Cemi arCeuli gza, gacilebiT iolia Sens gzasTan SedarebiT! _ nu izam uaress! _ momSordi, garewaro! uyvira igorma ras gadamekide, cxovrebis muwuko. Sen rom ver mogerie da WkuiT majobe, amaSi var damnaSave. Cems Tavs yvelaze mZime da saSineli ganaCeni gamovutane. ... kidev gadaudga gigola manqanas. _ amas nu izam, gemudarebi! magram igorma saWe gigolas moCvenebisaken mTeli ZaliT Seatriala da roca Ramis sibneleSi saSineli Waxani gaisma, mas moeCvena, gigola mivakalio rkinis boZze. _ erTi xorcmeti mainc movaSore am qveyanas! sicocxlis da sikvdilis gasayarTan amis gafiqreba moaswro mxolod. dasasruli Tbilisis yvelaze keTilmowyobil sasaflaoze ramdenime muSas Savi marmarilos qva moetana. qva maRali iyo da masze nestoris maRali figura iyo Caxatuli. dauZlurebuli berikaci zustad meormoce dRes ukan gahyva Svils. dRes ki biWikom mis mkerdze Savi marmarilos Zegli aRmarTa. roca qva micvalebulis TavTan dauSves, miwa Caizniqa. biWiko Secba, qvas axeda da ufrosis saxes daakvirda. gaocda, nirwamxdari wamodga. sayveduriT ucqerodnen nestoris Tvalebi. _ netav, ra davakeli! gaifiqra biWikom. miwam kidev daiwia da qva gadmoixara. muSebma xeli SeaSveles Zegls. cementiT amoavses Cazneqili miwa da Savi marmarilo gaamagres. _ ra mZimea es marmarilo! Cailaparaka sosom da biWikos Sexeda, kidev axeda ufrosis figuras. ver gauZlo misi Tvalebis mzeras da gareT gavida. iqve Sori-axlos Camojda. muSebic mas gahyvnen, biWikos gverdiT dasxdnen da papirosi gaaboles. _ davketo kari? ikiTxa sosom, romelic bolos gamovida mama- 208 -

Svilis samudamo samyofelidan. _ dakete, soso! sosom mZime jaWvi aswia, misi bolo daamagra da Semdeg gasaRebiT daketa. sosoc maT SeuerTda. erTxans mdumared isxdnen, Semdeg isev sosom daarRvia siCume. _ biWiko biZia! is mkvleloba kukiaze rom moxda... nugzar erisTavis garda vin daapatimres? _ aravin, Svilo! _ marto is iyo damnaSave? _ ra Tqma unda ara, yvelaferi winaswar gaTvlili yofila. sosom cisferi Tvalebi daxuWa, Semdeg sayveduriT Sexeda biWikos. qvis mTleli wamodga, saflavTan mivida da sosoc miiyvana. _ gaxseni es jaWvi ugasaRebod! sosom gakvirvebiT Sexeda. _ ver gaxsni. im danaSaulis jaWvis gasaRebi Zlier xels uWiravs. Cven uZlurebi varT maTTan WidilSi. igoric da nugzaric am xels Seewirnen. saflavebs moSordnen, muSebi aiSalnen da biWikos ukan gahyvnen. roca am keTilmowyobil saflavs tovebdnen, biWiko kidev Sedga da ukan gaixeda. Sendobis SeTvla surda maTTvis, vinc ukan darCnen, magram pirze Seaxma saTqmeli. berikacis gatanjuli sxeuli da aforiaqebuli sulic Savi marmarilos didebul Zegls daeCrdila. sxva saflavebze gadaitana mzera. Semazrzenad rokavdnen erTmaneTze Sejibrebuli qvebi. igrZno, rom im mZime jaWvSi, didi xania, TviTonac gaeyo Tavi. gareT gamosulma mindvris yvavilebi dakrifa, sosos misca xelSi. ymawvilma yvavilebi aiRo, ukan Sebrunda da igorisa da nestoris saflavebs moayara. 1984 weli.

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Cemi sadarbazo
wlebis gasvlasTan erTad icvleba adamianTa midgoma. icvleba Sexedulebebi, cxovrebis, siyvarulis, erTgulebis, ufrosisadmi pativicemis wesi. ukan darCa samocdaaTi weli da erT rameSi kargad gaverkvie: yvelaze xanmokle adamianis cxovrebaSi awmyoa, romelic raRac wamebs iTvlis da mere warsulSi ikargeba. im wamebSi iqmneba raRac Rirebulic da am wamebSi xdeba Cadenili danaSaulic, Semdeg ki am wamebiTve iqmneba momavali. vfiqrobdi, araferi damewera, amas xom sxvebic akeTeben-meTqi. weren, aqveyneben, qveyanas agebineben im awmyoSi Seqmnil momavals. warsuli, awmyo da momavali isea gadaxlarTuli, rom ar ici, rodis mTavrdeba Zveli da rodis iwyeba axali. aravin icis, axlis ZiebaSi vin ras moigebs. me miCveuli viyavi CrdilSi mecxovra mravali Cemnairi qalis msgavsad. vfiqrobdi, Tu qali iqneboda kargi meuRle, Tavdadebuli deda, mosiyvarule bebia, sxva rame ar unda moeTxovaT misTvis. mudam ar masvenebda erTi azri _ xom SeiZleboda Cemnair qals eTqva Tavisi gulistkivili, romelic am wlebis ganmavlobaSi daugrovda da awmyosTan erTad sadRac warsulis usasrulobaSi daekarga. arasdros vyofilvar komunisti, arc politikosoba mizidavda. gvaiZulebdnen, aTeisturad gvecxovra, Tumca qristianoba CemTvis samSoblos tolfasi iyo mudam. am oci wlis manZilze xalxs beladis ZiebaSi gagvatarebines da xalxis motyuebiT mosili adamianebis cinikuri, amazrzeni, yalbi, gamarjvebuli saxeebis mzeriT daviRaleT. erTmaneTis lanZRviT gajibrebul damarcxebul da gamarjvebul saxeebs vxedavT da ver vxvdebodiT, vin iyo marTali da vin - mtyuani. xalxi ki mudam damarcxebulis mxarezea, radgan TviTonac yovelTvis damarcxebulia. beladebis, mefeebis, prezidentebis ZebnaSi yvelam Tavi aiSva. radgan Tavisufleba miviReT, yvelafris ufleba miveciT Tavs. aRarc gamarjvebuli mogvwons, radgan imedi gagvicruvda da aRarc damarcxebulisgan veliT rames, radgan gvjera, roca gaimarjveben, mxolod sakuTari TavisTvis gaimarjveben. amitomac aris, rom am patara, umweo da viTom Tavisufal qveyanaSi uamravi partia Seiqmna, yvelas surs, sakuTari prezidenti hyavdes. ver gadaabijes sakuTar ambiciebs, rom SeeqmnaT erTi, erovnuli partia, vinc erisTvis gaakeTebda yvelafers. amaswinaT `istoriuli jvriswera~ Sedga. bagrationTa orma Stom iqorwina. maTi Svili momavali taxtis memkvidre unda yofiliyo. me vin var, rom es istoriuli faqti Sevafaso. misi Sefaseba istorias mivandoT. mTavaria, yofili Tavadaznaurobac ar daawves qveyanas mxrebze, Torem didi daviTis, didi Tamaris, giorgi brwyinvalis

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STamomavalni ratom ar unda iyvnen pirvelebi. maT sakuTari mxrebiT moitanes Cveni qveyana. iqneba, erovnuli sulic Semovides maTi meSveobiT, Torem gadagvabijes `ucxoplanetelebma~ da male aqac qarTvelebi ki ara, `Cveneburebi~ gavxdebiT. daicala soflebi. mtris Semosevebis dros qarTvelebi mTebSi garbodnen. axla aRarc mTa undaT da aRarc bari. did bednierebad iTvleba samSoblodan TavdaRweuli adamianebi lukmapuris saSovnelad Tu romelime qveyanas Seekedlnen da daicala qveyana, qalaqebi, soflebi, gaveranda saxnav-saTesebi. `socializmi ar varga, kapitalizmi sjobiao~, da gasxvisda qveyana. qarTvels fuli ar aqvs da yvelafers ucxoeli yidulobs. albaT sul male `mejRanuaSvilebis~ xelSi aRmovCndebiT. amitom ar awuxebs es yvelaferi `gamarjvebulebs~. saubedurod ar awuxebs, radgan globaluri saqme daavales msoflios Zlierma adamianebma. amitom aris, rom is, rac am 20 wlis win adamianebs aRafrTovanebda, Tavisufleba, damoukidebloba, erovnuloba, ena, mamuli, sarwmunoeba warsulSi darCa. awmyo mravali crudapirebiT daitvirTa da am dapirebebis aRaravis sjera. adamianebs momavlis imedic daekargaT. isini, vinc 20 wlis win saqarTvelos droSiT gamodiodnen, sadRac gaqrnen. zogi Caxoces, zogi samSoblos, pasuxismgeblobas, usamarTlobas, gaWirvebas da qarTvelobas gaeqca, zogma savarZeli moirgo da danarCenebis salanZRavi gaxda, zogi darCa da cxovrebas usaqmurobaSi, kartis TamaSSi, Rvinis smaSi, narkotiksa da dakargul imedSi atarebs. sofelSi, oci wlis win, roca zviad gamsaxurdias `saqarTvelo qarTvelebso~ gaisma, CvenTan mcxovrebi sxva erovnebis rZlebi gagiJdnen. yvela mtrad gadagvekida, magram male darwmundnen, rom isini ukeTes mdgomareobaSi aRmoCndnen, radgan saqarTvelodan yvelaze metad hqondaT gaqcevis Sansi. Svilebs daavles xeli da gaiqcnen: rusebi-ruseTSi, berZnebi-saberZneTSi, somxebi-somxeTSi... Cemi sofeli ar aris mTis sofeli. misi dacla ufro adre daiwyo. is sul axlos aris TbilisTan. veliT, vinme ucxoeli gamoCndeba da samuSao adgilebis Seqmnaze izrunebs, rom sofeli ar daicalos. televizia ki did imeds gvaZlevs adgilobrivi arCevnebis win. Cemi drois adamianebi samamulo omis Svilebi arian. isic maxsovs, tyvedyofilma mamaCemma sikvdilamde SiSSi icxovra. bevri usmarTloba iyo irgvliv, Tumca isic unda iTqvas, Suqi arasdros gvaklda. arc gazis didi gadasaxadi iyo. saarsebo saSualebebi iafi iyo. qarTveli qali ucxoeTSi ar garboda mosamsaxuris Tanamdebobas rom ziareboda. dRes mosaxleobis didi nawili pensioneria. Tumca pensia mxolod gazisa da Suqis gadasaxads Zlivs hyofnis. Tavisufleba gvindoda da gvaqvs, Tumca damoukideblobamde Sors varT. Tu samuSao ar iqneba, giJadqceuli adamianebi gaiqcevian, rusic, qarTvelic da Tqven, Cveni arCeulo adamianebo, male `ucxo- 211 -

planetelebis~ samarTavi gaxdebiT. erovnuli moZraobis mravali lideri sicocxles gamoasalmes. zogi SigniT daiRupa da zogi gareT. aseTi faqtebi bevri icis Cvenma bedkrulma qveyanam. Semdeg mRelvarebis moTaveebs midgnen da amoxades erovnuli suli. dRevandeli axalgazrdobis TviTSegnebac saSiSia. lukma-puris saZebnad ucxoeTSi gaxiznul an narkotikiT gabruebul adamianSi darCa raime Rirebuli, Cvens erovnul suls rom gamoadgeba? patriotizmi darCa maTSi, Tu isic sadRac warsulSi Caiferfla? Svilis siyvaruli dedis mimarT-es Tandayolili instinqtia. sircxvilia, vinmes umtkico, rom deda giyvars. aseve sisxlSia gamjdari sakuTari kerisa da miwis siyvaruli. gineba yvela saxis codvaa, Tundac eklesiurad, magram TviT ginebac ufro uaresi formiT Seicvala, roca `Seni dedis nacvlad `Cemi dedao~ amboben. romel patriotizmzea laparaki? sakuTari Tavis mimarT Rirseba swored am yvelaze wminda arsebis-dedis SeginebiT davkargeT. roca axlad gakeTebul skvers, an mosacdel skamebs anadgureb, radgan is Seni araa, romel samSoblos siyvarulzea saubari? roca maRalxarisxiani sigaragaCrili elodebi, rodis mogitans deda am sigaris fuls, romel Tavmoyvareobazea saubari da bolos, roca mSvidad eli colis gamogzavnil sxvis gamocvlil tansacmels sazRvargareTidan, ra Rirsebazea saubari. da kidev mravali, rac sircxvili iyo da aris, dRes adamianebis `patriotul~ sulze aRar moqmedebs. mTeli guliT vwuxvar im bavSvebis bedze, romlebic ori wlis win gaCndenen Tavisufal saqarTveloSi. ra misca maT dRevandelobam? miiRes is, risTvisac ibrZodnen maTi mamebi? minda gulistkiviliT vTqva, ratom gaCnda im dros movlenil adamianebSi uimedoba. narkomaniis burusSi ratom dakarges sakuTari `me~. sxeulTan erTad, vin an ram waarTva suli? adamians xSirad tkiva sxeuli sxvadasxva avadmyofobis gamo, magram ubedurebaa, roca suli gtkiva, roca uazrod xarxareb, uazrod saubrob, uazrod daborialob amqveynad da fiqrob, rom samyaro mxolod Senia! isini ar arian wera-kiTxvis ucodinarni, dRes aseTebi aRarc arian. socializmis pirobebSi swavla ufaso iyo. isini umaRlesi ganaTlebamiRebuli, raionSi dabrunebuli funqciadakarguli umuSevari axalgazrdebi arian. es is adamianebi gaxlavT, visac surs, gaagrZelos qarTuli geni. maT is `vai-patriotuli~ sadRegrZeloebic aRar ainteresebT, romelic qarTvelTa Tandayolili Tviseba iyo. qali mudam iyo ojaxis burji. ar minda, amis dasturad is sityvebi moviSvelio, rac dedasTan aris dakavSirebuli, magram dRes ojaxis simZime rom qals daawva, amis aRwerac SeuZlebelia. qarTvel qals msoflios mraval qveyanaSi SexvdebiT - moxucebis momvlelad, ZiZebad
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da iqneb uares adgilze samuSaodac ki. is gogonebi, romlebic aq darCnen, xSirad narkomani qmrebis xelSi aRmoCndnen, ojaxebi engrevaT da guls imiT inugeSeben, rom darCaT Svili da aqvT mizani. xSirad mifiqria, ra gvqonda kargi im avadsaxsenebel komunistur reJimSi, ra miviReT TavisuflebiT da ra davkargeT. Rirda ki amdeni msxverplis Semdeg, borkilaxsnil adamianTa cxovreba sxvagan gaqceviT damTavrebuliyo? zeviTac vTqvi, Cveni Taoba samamulo omis Svilebi arian-Tqo. Cven viwvnieT qveynis ganadgureba., naTesavebis dakargva, aTi aTasobiT bavSvis daobleba, uxelfaso Sroma sabWoTa meurneobaSi. ar gvikvirs arc siRaribe, arc korufcia, magram siZulvilis, veragobis, utifrobis, sicruis zRvargadasuloba arasdros minaxavs. me orjonikiZidan raWaSi, raWidan qluxorSi, qluxoridan saqarTvelos sxvadasxva kuTxeSi Casaxlebul adamianTa mkacri bedi gaviziare. magram iyo sixarulic, siyvarulic da mcirediT kmayofilebi viyaviT. am qveynad mcire xniT mosuli adamianebi ar fiqrobdnen sra-sasaxleebze. maT momavlis wmena da imedi acocxlebdaT. avadsaxsenebeli komunistebis dros SiSSi da terorSi cxovrobdnen adamianebi. raikoms da milicias ufleba hqonda, patara danaSaulze aqti SeedginaT da `msxverpli~ gaetyavebinaT. magram iyo dabali fasebi, iyo samuSao adgilebic, riTac Tavi gahqonda ubralo mokvdavT. umkacresi iyo kanonebi, magram zogjer moralurad misaRebic. vin gabedavda, meaTe klasSi gaTxoviliyo da isev swavla gaegrZelebina imave klassa da imave skolaSi. sad iyo is saSineli seni, rasac narkomania hqvia da romelmac imsxverpla Taobebi. narkomania, roca axalgazrda sakuTar Tavs aRar ekuTvnis, roca giJi mecnierad asaRebs Tavs, zecaSi dafrinavs da veRar igebs, ra aris cudi da ra aris kargi, roca veRar xvdeba, qalia Tu kaci. es damangreveli seni eroziasaviT moedo Cvens patara ers da aravin arsebobda, am senTan rom ebrZola. sad iyvnen is adamianebi, xalxma rom airCia, ratom ar Svelodnen maT. vis Semohqonda es sawamlavi? xels iTbobnen am ubedurebiT. sofelSi Sereuli osur-qarTuli ojaxi iyo. biWi hyavdaT Cemi Svilis tola, sayvareli, mosiyvarule... soflidan gaiqca. netav, ra katam gadairbina Cems Svilsa da im biWs Soris. maT xom ZmebiviT uyvardaT erTmaneTi? vin SeiWra am biWebis sxeulSi da is umwiklo, mSvenieri siyvaruli amoglija. am ganvlilma ocma welma daamZima guli. uaryofiTi muxtiT aavso Cveni sxeulebi. wagebulma omebma, gausamarTlebelma mkvlelobebma, inertuli gaxada adamianebi. RmerTs vTxov gaborotebisagan ixsnas is Taoba, romelic am oci wlis win daibada da romelic amis Semdeg moevlineba am qveyanas. amin!

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Tavi 1

Cemo bebo! dRes bednieri var da es bedniereba, minda, pirvelad Sen gaxaro. SenTan saubari mominda. momenatre da vici, Senc mogenatre. Sen xom is adamiani xar, Cems mSoblebTan erTad mxolod Cemze rom fiqrob yovelTvis? cdilob, gaigo, ras vakeTeb, ras vfiqrob, rogor vcxovrob. universitetSi Caviricxe, saxlSi jer arc mivsulvar. minda, pirvelad Sen Segexmiano. CemTan erTad moxvda lalic. xom ici, nodaris da ledis Svilia. isini didi xania megobroben Cems mSoblebTan. me da lalic amis gamo vicnobT erTmaneTs. mokled, kargi gogoa da minda, es pirvelad Sen gacnobo, Cemo bebo! axla erTi ram momagonda sofelSi Cemi cxovrebidan. maSin albaT 5-6 wlis viyavi. Tvalebi metkina, eqimebma saTvale gamomiweres. Tvalwin midgas, rogor Semomcqerodi. Seni Tvalebi arasdros damaviwydeba. albaT maSin pirvelad mogayene didi tkivili. Semdeg bambis fTilebi Camoqeni da Camoqnili fTila daatriale. fTilam piri kviracxovlisken hqna da gadawyvite, cxvari Segewira salocavisTvis. mTeli aRmarTi zurgiT matare. CoqviT Semoiare kviracxoveli da Cemi Tvalebi ufals Seavedre. wels ver Camovedi. umaRlesSi Casabareblad vemzadebodi. momavalSi aucileblad vnaxav Cvens saxls. Zalian menatreba Cveni ezo, sofeli, kviracxovlidan danaxuli nislSi gaxveuli mTebi. xelmarcxniv beRlebi iyo Camwkrivebuli, romelic didi xania, aRaraa. menatreba mquxare rioni, kavkasionis mkacr bunebas rom gamoqcevia da Cvens sofelTan odnav Semdgara. menatreba simwvane, sixasxase, pirvelyofili siwminde rom ifrqveva irgvliv. menatreba qviani orRobeebi, sadac Tavs yvelaze bednierad grZnob. albaT imitomac ar moSordi mag adgils. ase mgonia, Seni mkacri, dRes daRaruli Subli im mwvervals hgavs, ager axlac rom soflis meore mxares aRmarTula da Zalas gaZlevs. meSinia, ar datovo odesme Seni saxli. albaT Cvens saxlsac gamoecleba is burji, razec saxli, ezo da yana, sabZeli da boseli dgas. Seni zura, 1.09.1985 w. daria male darwmunda, rom misi Svilisa da rZlisTvis samuSao sofelSi ar arsebobda da arc arasdros iqneboda. sofeli TandaTan icleboda. rvawliani skolaSi TiTo-orola bavSvi dadioda. direqtori yvela sagnis erTaderTi maswavlebeli iyo. igi damlagebelic gaxldaT da darajic. masve hqonda Cabarebuli biblioTeka Tavisi wignebiT da klubiT. deda grZnobda, rogor uTqmelad itanjebodnen orive, magram arc mas adga kargi dRe. aTi weli cota ar iyo, romelic maT erTad gaatares. marTlac gmirobis tolfasi iyo iq

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gaZleba. qali TandaTan rwmundeboda, rom Svilebis aq datoveba suleluri gmiroba iyo. an vis sWirdeboda es gmiroba. sofeli male erTi-ori moxucis, an xeibris anabara rCeboda. Tamilas ar hqonda samSoblo. misi samSoblo daria, vasiko da zura iyo. mas mxolod maTTan yofna acocxlebda. did tkivili, romelsac dabadebidan atarebda, am adamianebma Seumsubuqes. naxevari guli mainc iseTive tkiviliT savse darCa, rogoric adre hqonda. adamianebi, romlebTanac gaizarda, am qveynidan wavidnen. iq namdvilad ar iyo bednieri. mSobliuri siTbo arasdros hqonia, arc iTxovda siTbos, radgan is mis gaCenamde daikarga. Tamilas sevdian saxeze daRdasmuli mwuxareba exata. roca sakuTar saxes sarkeSi dainaxavda, eSinoda. vaso uyvarda, pativs scemda darias, Tavze dahfofinebda usayvarles Svils, magram maTdami urTierTobaSic SeboWili iyo. vasikom kargad icoda sayvareli adamianis gulistkivili. isic icoda, saidan modioda amdeni sevda. meuRlis uCumrad Crdilo kavkasiaSi nestoris mier miniSnebuli adgili moinaxula, magram veravin naxa. is mTis sofeli ufro adre dacliliyo. qvemo qarTlSi Casaxlebulebi iyvnen saqarTvelos sxvadasxva kuTxidan. iq darias naTesavebic cxovrobdnen. amitom dedam Svilebs iq wasvla SesTavaza. roca mcire bargiT mamis suraTs Cauara, vasikom Tavi daxara, TiTqos am kacis mimarT danaSauli Caedinos. vasikom bina samsarTulian axladaSenebul SenobaSi SeiZina. mas sami sadarbazo hqonda. mraval da mravalerovan binaSi Tavi moeyara sxvadasxva eris warmomadgenlebs. aq cxovrobdnen osebi, azerbaijanelebi, somxebi, berZnebi, germanelebi, qurTebi da qarTvelebi. qarTvelebi sul bolos imitom davasaxele, rom roca ezos biWebma Tavisi erovnebis adamianebi daTvales, umciresobaSi qarTvelebi aRmoCndnen. qvemo qarTli somxeTisa da azerbaijanis sazRvarze mdebareobs, da radgan qarTveli mudam stumarTmoyvare iyo, farTod gauRes kari iqidan gadmosaxlebul adamianebs. omis dros mcireodeni mosaxleoba darCa Sua aziaSi gasaxlebuli germanelebisgan. berZnebi TurqeTidan Semovidnen da aq dasaxldnen. swored am mravali erovnebiT dasaxlebul binaSi aRmoCnda vasiko ojaxiT da maTi cxovrebis Tanaziari gaxda. mobinadreebma erTmaneTis Sesaxeb yvelaferi icodnen. vin ras akeTebda, vin ra SeiZina, vin vis uyvarda, vin ras sWamda. bavSvebi erT ezoSi TamaSobdnen, erT skolaSi swavlobdnen. amitomac zuras binac savse iyo misi toli gogo-biWebiT. samezobloSi kars aravin akakunebda, arc binas hketavda vinme. sjerodaT, rom es qveyana, sadac cota xniT movidnen, yvelasi iyo. bavSvebi ver grZnobdnen erTmaneTSi erovnul gansxvavebas. mxolod aRdgoma dRes, roca kvercxebs wiTlad SeRebavdnen, maSin Tu SeamCnevdnen
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xolme, rom mezoblebi azerbaijanlebi iyvnen. vasikom saavadmyofoSi saswrafo manqanaze daiwyo muSaoba, Tamila amave saavadmyofoSi qirurgiul ganyofilebaSi ufros meddad miiRes. skola, sadac zura miiyvanes, raionis centrSi iyo, sadac aseve mravali erovnebis bavSvi swavlobda. _ zuriko, Sen aq dajdebi. _ uTxra damrigebelma bavSvs. _ es soso qorTievia. _ osi xar? _ hkiTxa bavSvs. qals biWis mSvidi, alali, buTxuza saxe Sescqeroda. _ mama myavs osi, deda qarTveli. Tamilam bavSvs xeli gadausva da moulodnelad mkerdze miikra. _ amieridan zuras Zma iqnebi. _ bavSvma gaiRima, madlierad Sexeda qals da Caialaparaka: _ aucileblad. Tqven qarTveli xarT?_hkiTxa biWma. _ zuras mama qarTvelia, me osi var. _ Cveni raioni internacionaluria, Tumca yvelani erTni varT. _ RimiliT Cailaparaka damrigebelma. _ aba, yvelani adgilze! _ xmamaRla wamoTqva maswavlebelma. aseTi iyo zuras pirveli dRe pirvel saSualo skolaSi. vasikos ojaxis cxovreba raWis ukidures sofelSi ver Sedga. orives gauWirdaT. Svilsac iq veraviTar ganaTlebas ver miscemdnen. zafxulobiT amodiodnen qalaqSi gadasaxlebuli xalxi. es didi SeRavaTi ar iyo. daria ver daiTanxmes, maT gahyoloda. sofels mijaWvuli qalisTvis sxvagan wasvla, Tundac erTaderT SvilTan, sikvdilis tolfasi iyo. mas swamda, rom amqveynad mosul adamianebs sakuTari xvedri daabeda mama zecierma. es jvari mZime, magram misTvis yvelaze dasafasebeli, mas unda etarebina. dariasTvis saganZuri misi Zmisa da mSoblebis saflavebi iyo. is kedeli iyo, sadac qmris suraTi ekida. is qvrivoba iyo, romliTac icnobdnen mas sofelSi darCenili da soflidan wasuli adamianebi. daria madlobas ucxadebda rZals, mTeli aTi weli rom mis gverdiT acxovra Svili. yovelTvis grZnobda, natosTan gazrdil qals uWirda sofelSi cxovreba. ver aiZulebda Tamilas, masaviT hyvareboda soflis orRobeebi, ver daavalebda mis msgavasad SeesunTqa yvavilebis surneli, saavdrod yelmoRerebuli Rrublebi Sehyvareboda da ar SeSineboda im mrisxane xmauris, romelic Tan mohqonda gadauRebel elva-quxilebs. arc surda, qalaqeli rZali Zroxebis ZebnaSi hyoloda. mTaSi dabadebul da gazrdil qals ar SeeZlo, saurme gzamde gamotanili Tivis surneli SeegrZno.
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amitom TviTon gauZRva monagars da samanqano gzamde miacila. xom araferi dagrCaTo, gzadagza ekiTxeboda rZals da roca meore soflidan avtobusma Camoaiara, Sig Casva, didxans idga welmowyvetili da gascqeroda avtobusiT dayenebuli mtvris koriantels, romelic nela ileqeboda Saragzaze. qali ukan mxrebCamoyrili brundeboda da mxolod maSin gasworda, roca sanaxSoze dromoWmul morze Camomsxdar soflelebTan SeCerda. _ qalaqSi Svilebi gavacile!. _ amayad Cailaparaka da saxlisken amaval gzas auyva.
Tavi 2

Cemo bebo! roca SenTan ar vsaubrob, ase mgonia, raRac Zalian maxlobeli, didi da mSvenieri ram maklia. Zalian vecadeT, erTxel mainc Camosuliyavi barad, magram es siamovneba ar mogvaniWe da vamjobine, isev me movsuliyavi SenTan weriliT, radgan risi Tqmac SenTvis minda, marto weriliT Tu gagandob. Tumca saidumloc araferia. Cveulebrivad vcxovrobT. dReebi ise hgvanan erTmaneTs, rogorc tyupi Zmebi. Tbilisidan, roca raionSi vbrundebi, isev ise mxvdebian Cemi mSoblebi: mamis saswrafo manqana sadarbazosTan, megobrebi, mezoblebi... zogjer `birJavikebi~ grZel skamze saRamoobiT rom ikribebian da `jokeris~ TamaSiT rom irToben Tavs, ici bebo.. Sen ar giyvars `jokeris~ TamaSi, azartuli TamaSebis winaaRmdegi iyavi mudam. isini did fulze ar TamaSobdnen, ubralod, Tavs irTobdnen. TiTo boTl arays Camodgams wagebuli da qveynierebis ambebs arCeven. vici, ityvi, imuSaon, qveynis saqmis garCeva ra magaTi saqmeao, magram asea da sxva araferi. erTxel zafxulSi rom Camovedi, SemekiTxe, `visianTebi~ arian Seni mezoblebio. me gipasuxe, iq `visianTebi~ ar arian, aq `CvenianTebi~ arian, an `sxvisianTebi~_Tqo. Cveni bina samsarTuliania. mesame sadarbazoSi da mesame sarTulis samoTaxian binaSi Cven vcxovrobT. Cvens win azerbaijaneli zeinabi cxovrobs Tavisi ori biWiT, ziadini da zelimxani hqviaT. isini rusul skolaSi swavloben. TviTon ki raikavSiris mTavari buRalteria. meore mezobeli, variCka berZenia, qmari adre daeRupa, biWi samxedro savaldebulo saswavlebelSia. gogona Cemi tolia, elvira hqvia. rusuli skola daamTavra da axla ruseTSi swavlobs, universitetSi. meore sarTulze vitali qorTievis binaa. meuRle qarTveli hyavs. TviTon osia da hyavT erTi Svili, soso. man CemTan erTad daamTavra saSualo skola. vladikavkazSi moewyo, umaRlesSi. is Cemi saukeTeso megobaria da Zalian menatreba. meore binaSi lamara kamaliania. somexia. misi ori biWic ruseTSi dasaxldnen.
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am sarTulze erTi frangi qali cxovrobs. ar vici, romeli wlidanaa aq, saqarTveloSi. saavadmyofoSi didxans imuSava ufros sanitrad. axla pensiazea. pirvel sarTulze zauri da olia cxovroben. isini qarTvelebi arian. patara biWi hyavT, laSa hqvia. zauris sma uyvars, amitom xSirad xmauria maTi binidan. am sarTulze cxovroben ori qarTveli da-Tea da qeTi. maT saxli gayides, sazRvargareT wavidnen samogzaurod da ukan aRarc dabrunebulan, iq darCnen. bina ki zeinabis azerbaijanelma disSvilma SeiZina. aqve cxovrobs ebraeli maria, romelsac yvelani `tiotia marias~ veZaxiT. axla bebo, Sen gaarkvie, `visianTebi~ arian, `CvenianTebi~ Tu `sxvisianTebi~? axla bavSvebi did ezoSi burTs TamaSoben, saRamoobiT kacebi `jokeriT~ erTobian, samuSaodan dabrunebuli qalebi rig-rigobiT ikribebian romelimes ojaxSi da yavas miirTmeven, qveynis ambebs hyvebian. gkocni bebo, Zalian miyvarxar da menatrebi! Seni zura, 1986 w.
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dro gadioda, binaSi sadac `CvenianTebi~ da `sxvisianTebi~ erTad cxovrobdnen, zogjer Cxubobdnen, zogjer qeifobdnen, lxini da Wiri erTi hqondaT, magram TandaTan TvalSi sacemi gaxda erTi garemoeba. yoveli gayiduli saxlis axali mflobelebi `sxvisianTebi~ xdebodnen. TiTo Svils gamokidebuli qarTveli Tbilisisken miiwevda da nu SegrcxvebaT, Tu vityvi, rom nebayoflobiT vuwyobdiT xels periferiebSi sxva erovnebis adamianebis Camosaxlebas. sxvebs nu davabralebT am mZime process. amaSi yvelam miviReT monawileoba. _ soso, ici, zeinab deidas disSvilma iyida Cveni maswavleblis bina. _ miamitad, ubralod ambobda jer kidev ymawvili biWi zura, roca bavSvebi awiTlebuli loyebiT skolidan brundebodnen. _ ho, vici, dedam miTxra. xval gadmodian. _ netav, biWebi hyavT? _ modi, zeinab deidas vkiTxoT. biWebma ise SeaRes mezoblis kari, arc daukakunebiaT. kars miawvnen da Sevidnen. _ biWebi hyavT Sens naTesavebs? - TiTqmis erTdroulad ikiTxes biWebma. _ erTi gogo da biWi._ kmayofilma upasuxa zeinabma. _ ra kargia! - taSi Semohkres biWebma. _ ezoSi dagelodebi. _ CamosZaxa zuram sosos da orivem Tavis saxlebs miaSura. Tamilam sufra gauSala Svils, Semdeg iqve taxtze Camojda.
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_ kargi, isadile, mand jibeSi xurdaa, amoiRe da saparikmaxeroSi wadi. yovelTvis me unda Segaxseno? _ romel jibeSi? _ mand, xalaTi rom hkidia... _ 20, 20, 20, 10 da 2 xuTiani... _ CaiTvala biWma. _ 50 kapiki - gaparsva. gza aqedan da iqidan - 10 kapiki da 20 kapikiT `ponCiki~ iyide. _ dauangariSa Tamilam. _ gmadlob, deda! zura gavida Tu ara saxlidan, kari gaiRo da variCka Semovida. man mZime CanTa Semoitana da Tamilas gverdiT taxtze Camojda. CanTa gaxsna, iqidan importuli saqoneli amoalaga da Cqara CamoTvala, rac moitana. _ ai, eseni movaxerxe, Tamilas venacvale, saqoneli wuxel miiRes. im wuTSi raikomi, raikavSiri, milicia, `obexe~ da aTasi oxeri movida, rac kargi iyo, imaT moxvetes. Tu raime mogewoneba, ai, fasebi mandaa da aiRe! berZeni variCka aq daxvda vasikos ojaxs, roca isini aq dasaxldnen. qali univermaRSi damlageblad muSaobda. importuli saqoneli deficiti iyo da es qali axerxebda mezoblebisTvis saqonlis pirveli xelidan miwodebas. _ me variCka var, romanovi. _ ase gaecno axalmobinadrebs qali, rodesac maT gverdiT bina iyides. Tamilam gakvirvebiT Sexeda qals, cota daibna, cotaTi krZalvac gaCnda mis saxeze. _ romanovi? kargi gvari gqoniaT. _ ara. is romanovi ar var, Sen rom ggonia, me berZeni var. _ rogor? _ saqarTveloSi TurqeTidan movxvdiT. Cveni xalxi kargi binaTmSeneblebi arian. amitom maT gamogvayoles. berZnuli ar viciT. oridan erTi unda agverCia: am sarwmunoeba, an ena _ Cven pirveli vamjobineT. _ magram romanovi? _ isev ikiTxa Tamilam. _ roca ruseTi kavkasias daepatrona, berZnuli warmoSobis xalxs gvarebi Segvicvales da rusuli gvarebi miviReT. ase gaCnda rusuli gvaris berZnebi: seCovi, vasilebi, baraTovi. Cven ki romanovebis gvars vatarebT. _ sainteresoa. variCkas meuRle adre daeRupa. erTi vaJi hyavda da meores elodeboda. gogona gauCnda, elvira. variCkas bavSvs araCveulebrivi molurjo-mocisfro Tvalebi da brinjaosferi saxe hqonda. roca gogona icinoda, gegoneboda, samyaro sxivebs afrqvevs misi freskismsgavsi saxidano. man berZnuli ar icoda. Turquli saxlSi iswavla. rusuls kargad flobda, radgan rusul skolaSi miabares, qarTuli ki
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samezobloSi SeiTvisa. hoda, es gogona bavSvobidanve sosos uyvarda. es iyo bavSvuri, umwikvlo da spetaki siyvaruli, romelic TviTon maSin aRmoaCina, roca samezobloSi gamosuli bavSvebidan mxolod mas amCnevda. roca bavSvebs Soris mas ver xedavda, egona, raRac aklda, raRacas daeZebda. pirvelad ver mixvda, magram rac dro gadioda, soso grZnobda, rom am saocar gogonasTan gansxvavebuli grZnoba akavSirebda. _ variCka, mgoni Seni gogo sosos moswons. _ saidumlod gaumxila pirvel sarTulze mcxovrebma ebraelam qalma, mariam. Sereuli ojaxebi bevri iyo. Tundac am binaSi, Tumca berZen qals mainc ar esiamovna mezoblis gafrTxileba. _ `RmerTo, am qalis gaugebari araferia~._ gaifiqra, roca mas moSorda. maria, romelsac yvela `tiotias~ eZaxda, ormocdaaT wels miRweuli qali iyo. samamulo omamde misi naTesavebi ukrainaSi cxovrobdnen. roca germaniam ukraina droebiT daikava, ebraelebis winaaRmdeg ganxorcielebul rbeva-ganadgurebas Zlivs gadaurCnen. Tvrameti wlis gogona saqarTveloSi moxvda, male qarTvelze gaTxovda, Tumca misi meuRle jarSi waiyvanes da ukan aRarc dabrunebula. erTaderTi qaliSvili darCa, romelic volgogradSi saswavleblad gagzavna, sadac umaRlesi ganaTleba miiRo, daojaxda da iqve darCa sacxovreblad. omis Semdeg, roca yvelaferi dalagda, ukrainaSi wavida, magram mTlianad ganadgurebuli iyo sofeli, saidanac TviTon iyo warmoSobiT. bevri kiTxvis Semdeg erT gadarCenil das miakvlia. sacxovreblad aRar isurva darCena arc qaliSvilTan da wavida. am ebrael qalSi genetikurad sisxlSi hqonda sxvisi daxmarebisa da darigebis survili. is gulwrfelad mfarvelobda mezoblis bavSvebs da cdilobda, wesrigi yofiliyo mis garSemo.
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drois gasvlasTan erTad mogonebebi iferfleba da qreba, magram aris iseTi ram, romelic arasdros gamodis Tavidan, tvinSi ileqeba da samudamod SenTan rCeba. Zalian minda, warsuli danaleqi kargi mogoneba iyos da ara cudi, rom siberis dros am xanmokle da mkacr cxovrebaSi meti problemebi ar Sevuqmna sakuTar Tavs. bednieria is adamiani, vinc SeZlo, gasuli dReebidan kargi wuTebi daemaxsovrebina da maTi mogonebebiT gaexangrZlivebina moxucebuloba. ratom aris adamianis cxovreba warsulze fiqriT damZimebuli? is xom xels uSlis momavalze fiqrs? adamianebi am did samyaroSi mwerebiviT umniSvnelo arsebani arian, Tumca maT
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TviT ufalma daavala qveynierebis movla-patronoba, magram ar Seatyobina, rodis an rogor waiyvanda ufali zecaSi. sikvdilSic raRac aris lamazi, radgan is aucileblad mova da erTi Rrma amosunTqviT wagarTmevs warsuls, awmyos da momavals. magram vidre arsebob, grZnob, warsulTan ganSoreba im fesvebTan gawyvetas niSnavs, razec dgaxar. zogjer gzaze Sexvdebi ulamazes qalbatons, misiT moixiblebi, magram im wuTSive interesdebi misi pirovnebiT. Sens Tvalwin masTan erTad gaielvebs misi socialuri mdgomareoba, ganaTleba, inteleqti da rac mTavaria, mTeli misi warsuli. asea yvela adamiani. is Tundac umniSvnelo warsulis wnexs versad gaeqceva. dRes siberis gadasaxedidan im karg mogonebas daveZeb, romelic bevri iyo da mcirediT mainc ar daamZimebs im monayols, risi dawerac gadavwyvite. margalitebiviT minda movZebno da amovglijo daferflili da gamqrali warsulidan is siyvaruli, razec igeba ojaxebi da qveyana. minda, am TavisuflebamiRebul qveyanaSi movnaxo igi da vercxliswyaliviT mimovabnio irgvliv, Tumca manamde kidev didi gzaa gasavleli...
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saoperacio magidaze avadmyofs brma nawlavis operacias ukeTebdnen. qirurg elder gasanovs Tamila exmareboda. pacients brma nawlavi gaxeTqoda da misi damuSaveba gaxangrZlivda. am dros saavadmyofos saswrafo manqana moadga. daWrili mamakaci pirdapir qirurgiul ganyofilebaSi aiyvanes. morigem gasinja. sul mcire Wriloba hqonda muclis areSi. axalgazrda nasvami iyo da tkivils ver grZnobda. ezo Tanasoflelebis manqanebiT aivso. isinic nasvamebi iyvnen. derefanSi darbodnen. erTmaneTs saubars ar aclidnen, viRacas aginebdnen. radgan daWrili tkivils ver grZnobda da Tan meore sarTulze fexiT avida, Wriloba umniSvnelod CaTvales. urTierTSelaparakebisas dauWria Tanasoflels. gareT Casafrebia, dana mucelSi Caurtyams da mimalula. _ eh, mgoni damWra SobelZaRlma! _ Caulaparakia, magram gza saxlisken mainc Tamamad gaugrZelebia. Tanmxlebma perangi auwia. umniSvnelo Wrilobidan sisxli sdioda. roca saswrafom daWrili moiyvana, gasanovma naxa da Tqva: - didi araferia, magram mainc unda gaikeros. mere ki ikiTxa: _ vin aris? _ ager, mezobeli soflidan. mucelSia daWrili. _ male davasruleb da gamoval. moamzadeT!
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es `male~ naxevar saaTs gagrZelda. gasanovma, roca avadmyofs daxeda, SeSfoTda, Tumca ar SeimCnia. _ sisxli aqvs dakarguli. etyoba, Sig CaeRvara. nasvami soflelebi isev yayanebdnen, raRac detalebs ixsenebdnen, vin iyo mTavari damnaSave. am CxubSi ver amCnevdnen, Tu rogori SeSfoTebuli saxeebiT gamodiodnen saoperaciodan eqimebi. miliciis TanamSromlebic movidnen. axalgazrdebis dakiTxva daiwyes. isini ki isev ar aclidnen erTmaneTs laparaks. gvian datova saoperacio bloki Tamilam. is gafiTrebuli da ganadgurebuli iyo. ar axsovs, vin ras SeekiTxa. da vis ra upasuxa. aqedan gaqceva surda. vasikos daeZebda, rom borotad momziral nasvam mamakacebis Tvalebs gaqceoda. _ ra moxda, rogor Caiara operaciam? _ axalgazrdebidan erTi pirgamSral gasanovs mieWra, romelic blokidan gamovida da roca misgan pasuxi ver miiRo, gacofda da misken gaiwia. gaaCeres. gavida dro da es ambavi kargad gamoiyenes im nasvamma biWebma, rodesac bolnisSi cnobili movlenebi ganviTarda.
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dekemberi idga, gakaSkaSebuli mze anaTebda da am TvisTvis Seusabamo sicxes afrqvevda. simxurvale marto zevidan ki ara, TiTqos miwidan amodioda. Tamila fanjarasTan idga da sawrafo manqanas gadahyurebda. manqanidan avadmyofi gadmohyavdaT. is dro iyo, roca misi morigeoba mTavrdeboda. Semcvleli igvianebda. _ netav, romel ganyofilebaSi moiyvanes? _ gafiqreba ver moaswro, rom saavadmyofos kedlebma ryeva daiwyo. _ miwisZvra! _ wamoiZaxa da mopirdapire oTaxSi Sevarda. _Cqara. visac SegiZliaT, gareT gadiT. _ sTxova avadmyofebs. fanjrebis minebs bzriali gahqonda. derefanSi gasulma joxian biWunas xeli staca da kibeebisken gaiqca. iq zedaxora idga. qveviT garboda yvela, visac fexis gadadgma SeeZlo. ryeva Sewyda, Tumca avadmyofebi da momsaxure personali mainc Carbodnen. _ kidev ganmeordeba! _ Cailaparaka viRacam. ezoSi Casulma Tamilam fexnatkeni biWi Senobis moSorebiT dasva. gareT gasuli adamianebi SeSfoTebulni iyvnen da Senobidan gamoyvanil avadmyofebs misCerebodnen. ryeva marTlac ganmeorda, Tumca SedarebiT susti iyo. biZgebi isev ganmeorda, mere ki minelda. SeSinebuli avadmyofebi karga xans idgnen gareT. _ netav, sad iyo epicentri? - isev gaisma viRacis xma. Semcvlelma morigem, rogorc iqna, moaRwia.
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televizori ukanasknel cnobebs gadmocemda. _ davigviane! _ ebodiSeboda Tamilas misi Semcvleli. _ gaigeT, ra ubedureba momxdara somxeTSi? epicentri spitakSi iyo. ori dRea, bavSvebi kalininSi gavgzavne. telefonic gaTiSulia. aTas ubedurebas hyvebian. _ qali areulad laparakobda da cremlebs ikavebda. _gTxov, dRes imorige. Tu manqanebi dadis, xvalve davbrundebi. ra Tqma unda, Tu mSvidoba damxvda. _ Cqara eubneboda Tamilas da Tan gasaqcevad emzadeboda. qali somexi, warmoSobiT kalininidan iyo. _ wadi. vinmesTvis dagebarebina da nu moxvidodi. RmerTi daifaravs Sens Svilebs, nu geSinia. Semcvlels ki anugeSebda, magram am ambiT isic Sewuxebuli iyo. avadmyofebi mogvianebiT dabrundnen TavianT adgilze. usityvod milagden. bunebis risxvas rom veravin SeewinaaRmdegeboda, es yvelam kargad icoda. _ ra sainteresoa! _ gaifiqra Tamilam. _ axlaxan somxeTidan gamodevnili azerbaijanlebis kolonam Caiara. _ es ki xmamaRla Tqva. avadmyofebi misken mitrialdnen. saxeze SiSi gauCndaT. es SiSi sibrazis ufro iyo. marTlac, SemaZrwunebeli sanaxaoba iyo im dRes, roca avejiT avsebuli sabargo manqanebis kolonam uwyveti nakadiT Caiara. moaxloebul ubedurebas gamoqceodnen bavSvebi, moxucebi, qalebi iq isxdnen, sadac mokalaTeba SeZles. _ sad midixar? _ ikiTxa maSin fanjarasTan mdgomma qarTvelma avadmyofma. _ zogi aq Seafarebs Tavs. azerbaijanul soflebSi zogi baqosken wavlen. - vis sad hyavs naTesavi? _ Cailaparaka azerbaijanelma mamakacma, romelic kargad flobda qarTul enas. _ somxebic gamodevnes azerbaijanidan. maTma nawilmac aq Seafara Tavi. _ Tqva dafaruli sibraziT qalma, romelic somxuri warmoSobis iyo. _ Cven xom stumrebi Zalian gviyvars. yvela gamoqceuli CvenTan afarebs Tavs: ebraelic, germanelic, qurTic, berZenic. _ siamayiT, magram Sinagani sinanuliT Cailaparaka erTma. ra Tqma unda, igi qarTveli iyo. am sakiTxze im wuTSive laparaki Sewyda, radgan fanjrebs akruli adamianebi im manqanebs gahyurebdnen, romliTac ltolvilTa qaravani miemarTeboda. fanjarasTan mdgomni munjebiviT gascqerodnen am saSinel sanaxaobas-SeZrwunebulni, gaognebulni da daTrgunulni. marTalia, adamianebma maT win rom Caiares, ar iyvnen maTi naTesavebi, isini ucnobi xalxi iyo, magram mainc mZime STabeWdileba datova. ise moSordnen fanjrebs, rom erTmaneTisTvis ar SeexedaT. TiTqos erTmaneTis TvalebSi daarRvevda im grZnobas, romelic
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maSin gaCnda avadmyofebSic da med-personalSic. _ es RvTis risxva xom ar iyo? _ moesma mamakacis xma, roca Tamila nemsis gasakeTeblad masTan palataSi Sevida. es is somexi iyo, romelic azerbaijanelis pirispir iwva da papiross eweoda. isini am raionis mcxovrebni iyvnen. wlebi akavSirebdaT erTmaneTTan. somexs kidev raRacis Tqma undoda. egeb surdaT erTsac da meoresac raRaciT gaemarTlebinaT sakuTari eris namoqmedari, magram ver SeZles, Tavi daxares da sakuTar fiqrebSi gairindnen. erTmac da meoremac kargad icodnen, raRac Zlieri Zala boboqrobda maT Tavze. mrisxane, daundobeli da maTTvis gaucnobierebeli, romelic TiSavda am or upretenzio da sxvadasxva eris Svilebs erTmaneTisgan. maT rcxvenodaT, TvalebSi CaexedaT erTmaneTisTvis. TiTqos es ori adamiani iyo damnaSave somxeTidan gamodevnili xalxis winaSe da spitakSi momxdari ubedurebis gamo. Tamila meore dResac morige iyo. mxolod mesame dRes dabrunda misi Semcvleli Tavisi SvilebiT. gamaognebeli ambebi Camoitanes. Turme miwasTan yofila gasworebuli soflebi, dangreula qalaqebi da adamianebi nangrevebSi darCenilan. iwureboda dekembris dRe. uCveulo da am TvisTvis Seuferebeli sicxiT gakaSkaSebuli da mcxunvare mze zevidan dahyurebda am qveyanas. ukanaskneli sxivebi qrebodnen sadRac SoreTSi. axla sxvagan eCqareboda, radgan im dRis saqme aq ukve moeTavebia da udardelad efareboda Tvalsawiers.
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leqciebi dasrulda. lali universitetis Sesasvlel kibesTan idga. zuras elodeboda. meore dRes jgufi daviT garejis mosanaxuleblad unda wasuliyo. surdaT, adgilze gacnobodnen, ra zians ayenebda istoriul unikalur Zegls samxedro poligoni. pirveli dapirispireba mTavrobasa da maT Soris, visac erovnuli bedi awuxebdaT, daviT garejiT daiwyo. pirvelad am sakiTxze aimaRles xma studentebma. moTxovna erTi iyo _ am unikaluri Zeglis gaTavisufleba samxedro poligonisgan. agreTve win wamoiwia kavkasiis uReltexilis rkinigzis mSeneblobis Temam da mis winaaRmdeg brZolam. 1988 wlidan erovnul-ganmaTavisuflebel moZraobas ukve gamokveTilad saTaveSi Caudga merab kostava, zviad gamsaxurdia da Tamar CxeiZe, gia Wanturia, irakli wereTeli da sxvebi. daiwyo araformaluri organizaciebis Camoyalibeba. moTxovnebi ufro gaizarda. daiwyo saubari 1921-1924 wlebis genocidze. zura male gamovida leqciidan. maT garSemo male danarCenebmac moiyares Tavi. SeTanxmdnen da daTqves dro da adgili, erTad saidan unda gasuliyvnen. gvian daiSalnen.
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_ fexiT gaviseirnoT! _ sTxova lalim. nodarisa da ledis qaliSvilma Taviseburi gavlena iqonia zuras cxovrebaze. poeturi bunebis nodarisa da qarTuli istoriis kunWulebSi CxrekviT Tavgadadebul ledis erTaderTi mizani iyo, Svili qarTuli sulierebisTvis eziarebinaT. institutSi pirveli kursidan SesamCnevi gaxda lalis midrekileba im faseulobisaken, rasac samSoblos Tavisufleba erqva. amitom igi male gaxda sabWouri reJimis samizne, erTxel kinaRam `mglis bileTiT~ garicxes universitetidan. mWevrmetyvelebis gasaocari unari hqonda. SeeZlo, saaTobiT esaubra da daemtkicebina Tavisi azris siswore. jer kidev skolis periodSi akrZalul informacias awvdida moswavleebs, mezoblebs, megobrebs. studentobis dros man pirvelad Camoayaliba araformaluri organizacia, romlis xelmZRvaneli da sulisCamdgmeli TviTon iyo. yvelaze didi aqcia 1988 wlis noemberSi daiwyo. aq ukve gamoikveTa moTxovna sabWoTa kavSiridan saqarTvelos gamoyofis Sesaxeb. mexis gavardnis tolfasi iyo kremlisTvis es gabeduli moTxovna. lali im moSimSileebs Soris ijda, vinc am moTxovnebs ayenebda. zura da lali TiTqmis bavSvobidan icnobdnen erTmaneTs. universitetSi mowyobis Semdeg Wabuki male aRmoCnda im wreSi, sadac lali trialebda. ojaxebis megobrobis garda, maTSi gaCnda saerTo msoflmxedveloba. mTeli studenturi cxovreba im boboqari da saWiro dReebiT sazrdoobda. xSirad megobrebi raionSi midiodnen, sadac Tamila didi siyvaruliT iRebda maT. ramdenimejer sofelSi darias stumrebic iyvnen. 1989 wlis dasawyisSi viTareba daiZaba. aSkaraa, kremli gulxeldakrefili ar ijda. mesame Zala, romelic jer kidev Zlieri iyo, saqarTvelos erovnul-ganmaTavisuflebeli moZraoba gaxda. win wamoiwia erovnuli umciresobebis sakiTxma, afxazeTisa da samxreT oseTis problemebma. amave dros erTdroulad daiwyo SuRlis gaRviveba mTel kavkasiaSi. daviT garejidan dabrunebis Semdeg Seityves, rom sofel lixnSi Catarda afxazi erovnebis mqone adamianTa Tavyriloba, sadac Tavi moiyara ara marto axalgazrdobam, aramed inteligenciam da mTavrobamac. Tavisi gayalbebuli istoriiT damoukideblobas iTxovdnen. daZabulobam kulminacias aprilSi miaRwia. mitingebSi aqtiur monawileobas iRebda lali da zura Tavisi megobrebiT. mTavrobis sasaxlis win mjdomare aqciaSi CaerTo sxvadasxva raionebidan Camosuli mosaxleobis didi nawili. iyvnen skolis moswavleebic, maTi mSoblebic. lalis mSoblebic, nodari da lali mjdomare aqciaSi iRebdnen monawileobas. Tamilac, rogorc ki dros ixelTebda, Tbiliss moaSurebda, igi Sinaganad grZnobda, raRac unda momxdariyo.
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raRac gansakuTrebuli intuicia aSinebda erTaderTi Svilis dedas, romelic am oromtrialis SuagulSi iyo. studentebs kargad axsovdaT 1956 wlis sisxliani dRe. Tamilam icoda, rom arc axla daindobda kremli maT, magram iq, sadac mTeli saqarTvelo idga, Svils Tavis kalTas ver gadaafarebda. Tamila 9 aprilis gaTenebas rusTavelis prospeqtze Sexvda. mSvidobian momitingeebs kbilebamde SeiaraRebuli sabWoTa jari umowyalod, velurad daeria. niCbebiT, xelketebiT, momwamlavi gaziT gawmindes mTavrobis win mimdebare teritoria. im sabediswero gamTeniisas Tamila cdilobda daxmareboda daWrilebs. bedad gadarCenili deda mkvdrebSi da mowamlulebSi daeZebda Svilsa da mis megobrebs. rusTavelze urcxvad daglijinebda sikvdilis manqana da surda, SeeSinebina Tavisuflebismoyvare mebrZoli adamianebi. SesaSuri iyo is medgari, usityvo, mdumare saxeebis cqera, romelic meore dRidan yvavilebiT midiodnen im adgilas, sadac wina dRiT Caxoces momitingeebi. uwyveti iyo xalxTa nakadi, romlebic ise awyobdnen yvavilebis Taigulebs, rogorc panaSvidze da gzas ganagrZobdnen. iqve idgnen TofSemarTuli jariskacebi, wesrigis aRmdgeneli adamianebi, romlebic uinteresod adevnebdnen Tvalyurs am process. _ nodar, Zmao! - aRmoxda Tamilas, roca cisfer galeriaSi daWrilebs daeZebda. _ sxvebi ar ginaxavs? - ikiTxa nodarma. male ledis miakvlia. orive mowamlulebi iyvnen. avadmyofebi saswrafoebiT saavadmyofoebSi gadahyavdaT. Tamila isev daeZebda Svils, Tan cdilobda, mowamlulebs daxmareboda. mkvdrebic moinaxula. am axalgazrdebis xilva misTvis saSineleba iyo. verc mkvdrebSi aRmoaCina zura da lali. cotaTi damSvidda. gazis gaSvebasTan erTad zuram lalis daavlo xeli da moSimSileebidan gamoiyvana. jer xalxis nakadma rusTavelis quCisken gaitaca, Semdeg Sedga, Semotrialda da CitaZis quCisken aiRo gezi. lali fexs iTrevda. zura iZulebuli gaxda, zurgiT etarebina. kisrismtvreviT garbodnen zeviT. qal-vaJma isic SeniSna, iq qarTuli milicia idga da xalxs gasvlis saSualebas aZlevda. gasvla Wirda, magram zuram icoda, gaCereba sikvdilis tolfasi iyo. gondakarguli lalis gadarCenis gza axla is iyo, saswrafo daxmarebis manqanas rogorme saavadmyofomde mieyvana. xalxi avadmyofebs eSveleboda da saswrafo daxmarebisken sakaciT miarbeninebdnen. zuras viRac SeeSvela, misi zurgidan lali Camosva da damxmare manqanisken gaarbenina. masac Tavbru esxmoda. _ Senc Cajeqi. getyoba, mowamluli xar. - viRacam xelze mokida da isic manqanaSi Seagdo. gons roca movidnen, Tavze mSoblebi adgnen.
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_ ramdenia mkvdari? - ikiTxa lalim. _ jer ar aris dazustebuli. - upasuxa dedam. _ velurebi. vinme daiWires? _ yvela moTave. ase Tqves televizorSi. _ kidev ras amboben? _ patiaSvili gadadga! _ vidre es moxdeboda, maSin unda gadamdgariyo. axla gviania. - lalis sityvebi mkacri iyo, Tumca Zalian uWirda laparaki. _ zuram zurgiT matara saswrafos manqanamde. gadavrCi.
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raionis centraluri univermaRSi, sadac variCka damlageblad muSaobda, direqtorad azerbaijaneli alievi ali msaxurobda. sxva xelmZRvanelebisgan gansxvavebiT, igi mSvidi da gawonasworebuli adamianis STabeWdilebas tovebda. gamyidvelebisgan arc fuls iTxovda. mas Taviseburi `stavka~ hqonda. miRebuli importuli saqonlisgan ramdenime deficituri tansacmeli misi iyo, romlis realizacias spekulantebiT axdenda. misi mosvlis Semdeg TvalSisacemi erTi garemoeba gaxda. yovel gaTavisuflebul adgilas Tavis Tanamemamules niSnavda da male univermaRi azerbaijanuli warmoSobis TanamSromlebiT aivso. aseTive mdgomareoba iyo sxva dawesebulebebSic. 9 aprili moxda. centraluri komitetis mdivnoba gumbariZem Caibara. erovnuli moZraoba kulminaciur wertils aRwevda. samxreT kavkasiaSi TavisuflebisTvis brZolis moTxovniT xalxi gamodioda. ruseTi cdilobda am regionSi Zalauflebis SenarCunebas. misi mizani iyo, xalxi erTmaneTisTvis daepirispirebina. sxvadasxva rjulis adamianebi sofel-sofel daZrwodnen da SuRls aRvivebdnen. raionSi gamoCnda erTi pirovneba, azerbaijanuli warmoSobis mamakaci. Savi, maRali, yviTlad mouCanda oqros kbilebi. garegnulad mSvid, inteligenturi, kulturuli adamianis STabeWdilebas tovebda. mas SexvdebodiT saavadmyofoSi, raikavSirSi, soflebSi TavSeyris adgilebSi, dadioda maRaziebSi. TiTqos raRacis yidva undoda, Tumca arafers yidulobda. erTxans alievi alis kabinetsac mieCvia. isini sxva misi erovnebis adamianebTan erTad kabinetSi Caketilebi xmadabla raRaceebze saubrodnen. variCka kviras kapitalurad asufTavebda xolme univermaRs. maRazia orsarTuliani iyo. wyals ezodan ezideboda, amitom dilidanve gamocxadda. direqtoris kabinets Cauara da gacxarebuli saubari Semoesma. vinaidan man kargad icoda azerbaijanuli, daicada. Sesvla ver gabeda, ukan gamobruneba undoda, magram Sedga. radgan ucnauri fraza moesma. - `unda vaiZuloT, rom avtonomia
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mogvcen, Semdeg Cven viciT, rac iqneba. saWiroa, cota SeSineba~. variCka ukan gamobrunda. marTalia, bevri veraferi gaigo, magram raRacas mainc mixvda. dasufTaveba pirveli sarTulidan daiwyo. Tan dainteresda, vin gamovidoda direqtoris kabinetidan. direqtorTan erTad mogvianebiT xsenebuli `Savi kaci~ da aTiode raionis xelmZRvanel postebze momsaxure adamianebi gamovidnen. im saRamosve TamilasTan Sevida variCka da zura ikiTxa. saRamos movao, _ upasuxa vasikom. _ sul erTia. Sen getyvi. ar vici, rogor daviwyo. bevri veraferi gamegeba, magram raRaceebi rom ar momewona, ai, is unda giTxraT. _ da Tavisi azri mouTxro mezobels. cota areulad, magram esec sakmarisi iyo. _ saRamos zura mova da Semoiare. man ukeT icis, vis unda mivmarToT. _ urCies mezoblebma. ramdenime dRis Semdeg CoCqoli atyda im ezoSi, sadac zura cxovrobda. mezoblebi xuTi wlis gogonas Semoseodnen da raRacas ekiTxebodnen. _ ho. ase miTxra fatimam. _tiroda bavSvi. _ roca Cvenebi movlen, Sen CvenTan Semodi, rom ar mogklan, CvenTan daimale, Torem vici, mogklaveno... ase ambobdnen. Cemi yuriT movismine. bavSvi tiriliT ganagrZobda raRacis axsnas. raRacas amtkicebda. fatima zeinabis disSvilis Svili iyo, romelmac qarTvelebis saxli iyida. am areul da daZabul mdgomareobaSi bombis gavardnis tolfasi iyo bavSvis tiriliT naTqvami sityvebi. qvemo qarTlSi ca iRrubleboda da aravin uwyoda, vin iqneboda mogebuli da vin-wagebuli. erovnuli moZraobis liderebs, marTalia, ruseTisgan gaTavisufleba surdaT, magram araviTar SemTxvevaSi maTi mizani ar yofila xalxebis erTmaneTTan dapirispireba. agresia da Tavxedoba ki ukve karga xania, modioda umciresobisgan.
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axali wlis meore dRes univermaRSi misul TanamSromlebs fanjrebze azerbaijanuli warwera daxvdaT. axali wlis milocva maT enaze iyo. es aSkara gamowvevas hgavda. Tumca qarTvelma TanamSromlebma amiT miyenebuli tkivili gadaylapes, raikomSi darekes da es ambavi Seatyobines. zura Tavisi megobrebiT maSin Sevida univermaRSi, roca gaognebuli TanamSromlebis erTi nawili skamze isxdnen. _ es ra aris? azerbaijania? - ikiTxa zuram. _ rogorc xedavT. - pasuxi gasca variCkam. zuram kuTxeSi mdgar azerbaijanel biWs gadaxeda, romelic gamarjvebuli ieriT akvirdeboda maT saxeebs.
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_ sad aris direqtori? - ikiTxes Semosulebma da kabinetisken wavidnen. _ Sen... es ra aris? - uxeSad SeekiTxa erTi. _ ra? _ ikiTxa direqtorma, Tumca kargad mixvda, rasac ekiTxebodnen. _ ver mixvdi? erTi wuTiT... - da mis win zura aisveta. sayeloSi waavlo xeli da darbazSi gamoiyvana. _ moiZre eg halstuxi da gawminde, Torem cxviriT gagawmendineb. SeSinebulma alievma TanamSromlebs gadaxeda. egona, vinme gamoesarCleboda, magram mas mkacri TvalebiT Sehyurebdnen. kuTxeSi mdgar Tavis naTesavs gaxeda da dauyvira. _ mieTrie da gawminde. es Seni saqmea. _ is ar geyofa, Seni jiSiT rom aavse es univermaRi? - isev SeanjRria direqtori zuram. _ avtonomia gindaT, jigrebo? - kbilebSi gamoscra axalgazrdam, romelic aqamde usityvod idga. vin icis, rogor damTavrdeboda es, rom kulturis ganyofilebis gamge ar Semosuliyo da odnav ar dauwynarebia isini. fanjrebi ukve daesufTavebina. _ gaakeTe warwera qarTulad da rusulad. - Tqva gamgem. _ ara, marto qarTulad. - mkacrad Tqva zuram. _ kargi, iyos qarTulad. saRamos roca univermaRi daketes, im gamyidveli biWis xma isev gaisma. _ male isev ise iqneba. _ ra Tqva? _ daanebe Tavi. giJia! ar gasula amis Semdeg didi dro, rom viRacis waqezebuli azerbaijaneli mosaxleoba raionisaken daiZra. sabargo manqanebze amxedrebuli axalgazrdoba ToxebiT, qvebiT, xelketebiT raionSi SeiWra. _ es Cveni teritoriaa. aqedan wadiT! - yviriliT moednen ezoebs. yvelaferi airia. aqamde Seucnobeli da mZime suni datrialda. yvela fexze dadga. qali, bavSvi, moxuci Tu axalgazrda muSa, araformali Tu raikomis TanamSromeli, romlebmac mTeli cxovreba erTad gaatares, mtrebi gaxdnen. qarTuli milicia droze movida. gamoCndnen politikuri moRvaweebi, erovnuli moZraobis saTaveebTan mdgomi adamianebi. maTi didi damsaxurebaa, rom usisxlod damTavrda yvelaferi. meore dRes Tamila samsaxurSi wasasvlelad moemzada. misi morigeobis dRe iyo. xalxs mitingisken mouwodebdnen, magram ar SeeZlo samuSao gaecdina.
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mosacdelTan gavida Tu ara, eldar gasanovis manqana gaCerda. karga xania, igi masTan muSaobda. hqondaT mZime dReebi. roca operacia warumatebeli iyo, erTnairad ganicdidnen warmatebasac da Cavardnasac. mamakaci Secbunebuli ucdida, rodis gadawyvetda TanamSromeli mis manqanaSi Cajdomas. milicia akontrolebda yvela manqanas. Tamilas Sercxva. ver SeZlo, uari eTqva da manqanaSi Cajda. gza didi ar iyo, magram milicia yovel mosaxvevSi idga. isini aravis gauCerebia. saavadmyofos ezosTan SeaCeres xelketebiT SeiaraRebulma axalgazrdebma. manqanidan gadmosvla ubrZanes. Tamilam umalve Seafasa Seqmnili mdgomareoba. manqanidan gadmovida qirurgic. qali axalgazrdebsa da eldars Soris Cadga. _ gTxovT, nu gaamwvavebT mdgomareobas. _ magi ar iyo, axalgazrda kaci rom mogvikla? - wamoiZaxa erTma. saavadmyofos ezos saswrafo moadga. Tamila qmarTan miiWra. _ vaso, modi, SeaCere biWebi! gaognebuli qali biWebs emudareboda, vin icis, es gaweva sadamde gagrZeldeboda, rom mTavar eqims ar moeswro. _ eldar, gTxov, datovo teritoria. SenTvis umjobesia. Cvenc nu Cagvayeneb uxerxul mdgomareobaSi. _ me ra SuaSi var? - ikiTxa eldarma, magram mTavari eqimis saxes roca Sexeda, manqanaSi Cajda. _ manqanac ar unda gagveyolebina magisTvis. _ braziT wamoiZaxa axalgazrdam.
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_ SeikribeT raionis centrSi! - mikrofoniT gahyviroda axalgazrda biWi da manqanaze amxedrebuli qarTuli soflis mosaxleobas mitingisken mouwodebda. _ SeikribeT raionis centrSi. gaumarjos damoukidebel saqarTvelos! xalxi dilidanve raionis centrSi ikribeboda. mdgomareoba daZabuli iyo. aRaravin ekiTxeboda raikomsa da aRmaskoms. isini civad idgnen fanjrebTan, TiTqos es yvelaferi maT ar exebodaT. imis SiSiT, rom raionSi situacia umarTavi gaxdeboda, amitom gadawyvites, raionidan bavSvebi da moxucebi gaexiznaT. avtobusebi Camodga. im dRes yvela erTad idga, moxucic da axalgazrdac. SiSveli xelebiT surdaT daxvedrodnen mters. oratorebi, visac sajarod gamosvlis ar rcxvenodaT, erTmaneTs scvlidnen. moTxovna erTaderTi iyo. azerbaijaneli mosaxleoba unda gasaxlebuliyo raionidan. maT gamZafrebuli Seuracxyofis grZnoba hqondaT. viRacas
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surda maTi samSoblodan gandevna, amitom iyo amis patieba maTTvis miuRebeli. male raionis Tavkacebs dedaqalaqidan mosuli erovnuli liderebi SeuerTdnen: a. baqraZe, n. naTaZe, i. baTiaSvili da sxvebi. maT scades aRelvebuli xalxis daSoSmineba. _ es ruseTis dagegmilia. surT, erTmaneTs gadagvkidon. _ ismoda maTi xma, Tumca amis gamgone aravin iyo. mdgomareoba ukiduresad daiZaba. momitingeebma protestis niSnad datoves raikomis Senobis mimdebare teritoria. isini jer erTi mxarisken daiZrnen. roca qarTul sofels gascdnen, miliciis didi ZalisxmeviT ukan daabrunes. xalxi axladaSenebul pionerTa sasaxlesTan Sedga. azvirTebuli masa verc gumbariZis gamoCenam SeaCera. bedad, merab kostavas mosvlam daaSoSmina xalxi. mitingi gagrZelda. merabi Seecada, stiqiuri situaciidan gamoeyvana azvirTebuli xalxi. qarTuli miliciis didi ZalisxmeviT, romelsac maSindeli ministri SoTa gorgoZe xelmZRvanelobda, erovnuli moZraobis liderTa gaazrebuli moqmedeba da TviT bolniseli mosaxleobis damsaxurebiT-es procesebi emtkivneulod dasrulda. qalaqi bolnisi azerbaijaneli mosaxleobisagan gaiwminda. maTgan Sesyidul binebSi stiqiurad dazaralebuli svanebi da aWarlebi Caasaxles. nawili bolnisel mosaxleobas daurigda. arc erTi kaci ar momkvdara, rac qarTveli adamianebis sulgrZelobis gamoxatuleba iyo. ar mindoda am Temis wamoweva, magram es faqti iyo. gavida dro da es ori eris warmomadgenlebi Serigdnen. erTad daiwyes cxovreba, Tumca gakveTilad unda gamoiyenos imaT, vinc `samefo mantias~ moirgebs, raTa Secdoma ar dauSvas. didi sifTxile gvmarTebs. dRes gayiduli TiToeuli miwis nagleji ormocdaaTi wlis Semdeg Zvirad daujdeba Cvens Svilebs. nu viqnebiT sulelebi, nu daveZebT mdidrebs arabeTSi, egvipteSi, TurqeTSi, iranSi, ruseTSi, amerikaSi. Cven ar gvaqvs navTobi, gazi. Cven gvaqvs patara miwa, RvTismSobelma rom gviwilada.
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Cemo bebo! isev momenatra SenTan saubari. Tanac vici, ginda, yvelaferi gaigo Cems Sesaxeb. ici albaT, ra ambebic datrialda CvenTan. xumroba ar iyo, usisxlod gagvecilebia Tavis qveyanaSi adamianebi, romlebic didi xania, aq cxovrobdnen. zogma maT sakuTari manqanebiT miatanina tvirTi wiTel xidamde. ZmebiviT daSordnen erTmaneTs. Tumca mas Semdeg, rac saxalxo frontma maTi saxlebi SeiZina, Zneli dasarigebeli gaxda. am ganawilebis komisiis wevri mec var. amis Semdeg daiwyo koSmari. raRac sazizRar films dae- 231 -

msgavsa yvelaferi. omis Semdeg gamarjvebulebi erTmaneTs daerevian xolme, raTa meti Caigdon xelSi. bevrma am movlenebSi gmirad gamoacxada sakuTari Tavi da samagierod, saukeTeso saxlebis daTreva moundaT. Tu adamianebi dRemde erTad idgnen, axla erTmaneTs daupirispirdnen. zogs sakuTari binis karg binaSi gadacvla mounda, zogs - gafarToeba. gareT rom gamovdivar, gund-gundad damdeven nacnob-mezoblebi. maT isic ki hgoniaT, rom me didi saxli aviRe. SefarviT meubnebian, Sen yvelaze metad gekuTvnis sakuTari bina qalaqis centrSio. me amaze arc mifiqria. arian ojaxebi, romlebsac uWirT da sWirdebaT gafarToeba. me ki ar mWirdeba. samoTaxiani bina savsebiT myofnis. male arCevnebi Catardeba. saqarTvelos uaxloes istoriaSi mravalpartiul arCevnebSi miiReb monawileobas. mogikiTxa mamam da dedam, agreTve lalim. RmerTma hqnas, namdvilad miviRoT damoukidebloba. imasac vTxov RmerTs, rom roca es moxdeba, iseTive erTiani iyos xalxi, rogoric dResaa. roca arCevnebi damTvardeba, aucileblad gnaxav. Cemi megobrebiT Camoval. Seni zura! 1990w. zuras cxinvalis gavliT xSirad umgzavria Tbilisidan raWamde, da piriqiT. am gzas bavSvobidanve icnobda. yoveli mosaxvevi, aRmarTi da TavdaRmarTi, ferdobze gadmomdgari saxlebi, wowola Tivis zvinebi, mSvenieri zRapris asociacias iwvevda masSi. verxvis xidTan Camwkrivebuli qalebi xilsa da sxvadasxva produqts hyiddnen. mgzavrebi isadilebdnen da isev gzas ganagrZobdnen. dResac Zveli avtobusiT midiodnen sofelSi. lalis Tavisi megobari gogona wamoeyvana, zuras ori megobari studenti. wels yvela universitets amTavrebda da icodnen, rom amis Semdeg maTi gzebi gaiyreboda. Zneli warmosadgenia, vin sad moxvdeboda. cxadia, erovnuli mTavroba axali kadriT dakompleqtdeboda. Znelia imis Tqma, axali xelmZRvaneloba samarTlianad gadawyvetda kadris SerCevas, Tu ara? arCevnebiT mosul erovnul liderebs didi Zalisxmeva dasWirdebodaT, rom mTavroba qveynisTvis sasicocxlo yofiliyo. maT sworad unda SeefasebinaT Seqmnili mdgomareoba. Tavisuflebis gamocxadeba ar niSnavda damoukideblobis miRebas. saWiro iyo misi SenarCuneba. wiTeli droSis friali, saxelmwifo gerbisa da himnis miReba sasaxleSi savarZlebis morgeba sakmarisi ar iyo damoukideblobisTvis. ruseTze gadaxlarTuli ekonomikis gamo mosalodneli iyo qveyana izolaciaSi moqceuliyo. nuTu mTavroba SeZlebda momitinge
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adamianebze dayrdnobiT xelisuflebis SenarCunebas? an erovnul xazs gaatarebda da gverdiT amoudgeboda ucxoeTi? zura da lali grZnobdnen, rom brZola araTu ar damTavrebula, piriqiT, mZafri omisTvis unda momzadebuliyvnen. daria ukve samocdaaT wels gadacilebuli iyo. cxovrebis kargi gamocdileba hqonda. ukidures mTian sofelSi mcxovrebi qali iseve ganicdida qveynis saqmes, rogorc misi Svili da SviliSvili. yvela movlena, romlic mis qveyanaSi xdeboda, mis ezozec gadioda. arc dRevandeli mdgomareoba iyo misTvis ucxo. piriqiT, aqtiurad iyo CarTuli procesebSi. zuras uyvarda masTan yofna, Tavis warmatebebsa da Secdomebze saubari SeeZlo. _ Tavisufleba kargia, magram am mTis iqiT mamisonia da ruseTi iwyeba. jari gyavT, rom iq dadges? Tu CemiT gindaT daicvaT es kuTxe?-ironianarevi sityvebiT ambobda qali. man kargad icoda, rom Tavisufleba kargi iyo, magram ruseTis faqtori unda gadaeWraT, Zlieri qveyana rom ar gaenawyenebinaT. safiqrali iyo isic, arCevnebamde gaxleCili erovnuli moZaobis dapirispireba xom ar gavidoda xelCarTul brZolaSi. es ki damRupveli SeiZleba yofiliyo erovnuli mTavrobisTvis. gaurkvevel viTarebaSi daRupuli merab kostava udidesi dartyma gaxda am rTul pirobebSi. zuras ar ecala sofelSi wamosasvlelad. is marto bebias sanaxavad ar wamosula. surda, gaego iqauri sazogadoebis azri. ainteresebda, ra azri iyo osur mosaxleobaSi da saWiroebis SemTxvevaSi vin mxares dadgebodnen isini. daria lalis efereboda. arc danarCenebs aklebda yuradRebas. axalgazrdebi mezobel axalgazrdobas esaubrebodnen. yvelas uxaroda Tavisufleba. Tumca yvelas erTi kiTxva awvalebda - ra iqneba Semdeg? amis pasuxi jer-jerobiT arc Tbilisidan Camosulebs hqondaT. manamde yvela kanoni gauqmebuli iyo. saWiroebda swrafi gadawyvetilebis miRebas. _ zura, bebo, is Seni azerbaijaneli mezoblebi rogor wavidnen? _ moagonda qals. _ yvela saxli Seisyida saxalxo frontma. axla svanebi Caasaxles iq. mamam wiTel xidamde miacila da megobrulad daemSvidoba maT. _ kargi, bebo! _ SvebiT amoisunTqa dariam. _ mudam gaxsovdes bebo, ukanaskneli sityva aravis uTxra, Semdeg rom ar Segrcxves Seni sityvebis. gaivlis dro, adamianebi Serigdebian, xalxic Serigdeba, radgan sxvanairad ar SeiZleba. ise cxovreba gagviZneldeba, Cvenc da maTac. _ daariga SviliSvili. axalgazrdebi isev cxinvalis gziT avtobusiT ukan dabrundnen. avtobusi Zveli iyo da sabWouri. Zlivs miraxraxebda oRro-CoRro
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gzaze. gaiares iri, kvaisa, erwo... roca TavdaRmarTze eSvebodnen, mgzavrebma xeli dauqnies. mZRolma manqana SeaCera, axalgazrdebi nasvamebi iyvnen. osurad xmamaRla laparakobdnen. mZRolma inana, rom isini manqanaSi dasva, magram gvian iyo. wina skamze xanSiSesuli, Zlieri aRnagobis mamakaci ijda. _ SeaCere! - dauyvira mZRols. _ ra moxda? - ikiTxa mZRolma da manqana SeaCera. wina skamze mjdomi mamakaci elvis siswrafiT wamoxta da samive wixliskvriT manqanidan gadayara, magram gadayrilma biWebma mamakacs fexSi staces xeli da gareT gaTreva daupires. mgzavrebi aiSalnen. Zlivs moaxerxes mamakacis manqanaSi amoyvana. yvelaferi amiT ar damTavrebula. biWebma qvebi dauSines avtobuss da SuSebi Caulewes. erTi mgzavri daSavda. mZRolma Cqara moaSora avtobusi iqaurobas. _ ra moxda, Zia kaco? - zura mamakacis win dadga. _ maTi deda! aqac eseni gvagineben. kargia, rom Tqven ar gaigeT, Torem uaresi moxdeboda. _ rao? ra Tqves? _ amaTac damoukidebloba undaT Cvens miwaze. _ sibraziT Calaparaka mamakacma. siCume Camovarda. xma aravis amouRia. mxolod gvian lalim Cailaparaka: _ rusebi osebsac agvijanyeben!
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zura forTxviT midioda aRmarTze. marjvena mxarSi daWrili iyo, magram mainc ganagrZobda win svlas. sul mcire xniT CamorCa megobrebs. daWrili mxari Seixvia, sisxldena rom SeeCerebina. biWebi zeviT avidnen. imaT unda daweoda. buCqebSi Seisvena da daTvla daiwyo. _ rogorme unda gavuZlo! _ fiqrobda da TvaliT zomavda gasasvlel manZils. _ aucileblad aval! _ Tavs aimedebda. marcxena xelSi avtomati eWira, saWiroebis dros rom exmara. buCqebidan mcire xmauri gaisma, Semdeg avtomatis xmam dafara iqauroba. zura mixvda, rom fexSi daiWra. Zirs Camogorda, Tavi odnav awia da iqiT gaisrola, saidanac osuri laparaki ismoda. avtomatis jerma daamunja are-mare. zuram win waiwia. ukve xma ar ismoda, xoxva ganagrZo. axla ufro gauWirda gadaadgileba. _ vai, deda, _ Semoesma kvnesa. zuras gaaJrJola. _ kaia, Tu Cveniania. _ gaifiqra da cota xniT gairinda. fexi Seixvia. odnav Seisvena da gadawyvita, iqiT wasuliyo, saidanac xma ismoda. buCqebSi SeZvra. erTi mkvdari iyo. meoris susti xma ismoda. TiTqos avaldebulebda, enaxa igi. jariskaci piraRma iwva. xelSi avtomati eWira, zuram gadmoabruna, dajda da gaSeSda.
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_ soso, biWo, Sena xar? _ daWrilma Tvali gaaxila. zuras Sexeda, Tvalebi gaufarTovda. didxans iyo gaCumebuli. Semdeg Zlivs Cailaparaka. _ Sen, biWo, Sen mesrole tyvia, zura! zuras saxe auforiaqda. axlos wamoiwia. Wriloba gausinja. sasikvdilo ar iyo, magram saWiro iyo, sisxldena SeeCerebina. perangi Camoixia da sosos fexi Seuxvia. _ nu geSinia, soso, ar mokvdebi! _ akankalebuli xelebiT Sexveva daasrula. _ zura ratom mesrole, Cven xom erTad vcxovrobdiT. erT merxze ramdeni weli visxediT. _ nu laparakob, gadagarCen, aucileblad gadagarCen! iqneb, aRmarTze agiyvano, iq Cvenebi arian da orives mogvxedaven. _ ratom mesrole, ratom mesrole? - isev imeorebda soso. gaxsovs, biWo fexburTs vTamaSobdiT, burTi TavSi mogartyi da meore dRes skolaSi ar moxvedi. saxlSi gamogiare. Tamila deidam miTxra, rom Tavi gtkioda. me tirili daviwye. Cemi bralia, me vatkine Tavi-meTqi, gaxsovs? _ maxsovs da damSviddi. nu laparakob. rogorme zurgze damaweqi. iqneb zeviT avideT. iq Cemi amxanagebi arian, iqiT Tu avediT, biWebi dagvexmarebian. asvla daiwyo. Zlivs, gaWirvebiT mixoxavda da Tan fiqrobda: _ iq Cvenebi arian, magram aq vin arian? sadRac, Soridan ismoda avtomatis xma. ver gaarkvevdi, visi nasroli iyo, qarTvelis Tu osis. zuras Tvalwin daudga skola, sadac soso da is erTad swavlobdnen. sadarbazo, sadac TiTqmis erTad cxovrobdnen. erTad celqobdnen. rodis airia cxovreba? an ratom? odnav gaxelili TvalebiT cdilobda, gaezoma is manZili, gorakis TavTan rom aSorebda. _ aval. sosos gadavarCen! _ fiqrobda da xoxvas ganagrZobda. soso bavSvobidanve buTxuza bavSvi iyo. didobaSi ufro Cafskvniliyo. zuras, didi xania, ar enaxa. _ ratom? - sibraziT ambobda da Tvalebi ebindeboda. _ Tu gadavarCine da mec gadavrCi, avtomats xelSi arasdros aviReb. am wuTSi zura yvelaze da yvelaferze brazobda. _ rodis, an ratom daiwyo es yvelaferi? rodis gavxdiT me da soso erTmaneTis mtrebi? _ nu geSinia, soso, agiyvan, aucileblad agiyvan, iq Cvenebi arian._ TandaTan bodvaSi gadadioda misi sityvebi. xoxvas ganagrZobda. erTi ram mosvenebas ar aZlevda. _ ratom aRmoCnda soso mtris banakSi. misTvis xom aravis uwyeninebia? ratom aRmoCnda mopirdapire mxares? zura Zlivs miaTrevda bavSvobis megobars. Zala ecleboda
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warsulze fiqriT. sadRac burusSi ifareboda buCqebi, romlebic mis irgvliv iyo da mtris Tvalisgan faravdnen. Sav moCvenebad qceuliyo da eCveneboda, TTTqos masTan erTad ganagrZobdnen siaruls, raRacas Tu viRacas emalebodnen, xan izniqebodnen, xan mis win aRimarTebodnen, rogorc sikvdilis aCrdilebi. soso ki iseTi mZime iyo, rom misi atanis albaToba TandaTan mcirdeboda. ar axsovs, rodis Sewyvita xoxva, arc is, rodemde iwva gonebadakarguli. burusi nel-nela gadaeyara da bindSi SeamCnia, avtomatiani mamakaci Tavze adga. viRacas rusulad mouxmobda. zura mixvda, rom tyved Cavarda. _ daxede, vin arian, mgoni erTi qarTveli unda iyos. _ moxuci mamakaci daixara da sosos gasinjva daiwyo. _ mgoni, sunTqavs. Cveniani unda iyos. sisxli ki bevri daukargavs. _ meore? _ ar vici. _ iqneba, raime sabuTi hqondes, gasinje, ar SevcdeT, ar Semogvakvdes, Cveneburi ar iyos. _ sabuTebi araferi aqvs. am erTi xanjlis garda. _ momawode! - xanjals daakvirda, budidan amoiRo da warweras daacqerda. `feliqs zauris Ze 1920w.~. xanSiSesulma avtomatianma kacma kidev waikiTxa warwera. _ mgoni, esec Cveniania. soflamde CaviyvanoT. iqneba, orives eSvelos, Semdeg gavarCioT, vin arian. samanqano gzamde rig-rigobiT Caiyvanes. cota xans manqanas daelodnen. male satvirTo manqana gamoCnda. biWebi Zaraze daawvines da maxlobel osur dasaxlebamde Caiyvanes. marTalia, sofelSi gadaudebeli daxmareba aRmouCines, magram ramdenime dRe gonebaze vercerTi ver movida. maT sicxem auwia. qarTul sityvebs qaoturad isrodnen. _ qarTuli kargad ician._ Tqves saavadmyofoSi. _ Cven xom erTad vcxovrobdiT? _ Cailaparaka qalma, romelic maT momvlelad miuCines. _ TiTqos Tanatolebic arian. pirvelad gonze soso movida. _ sada var? - qarTulad ikiTxa. _ sadauri xar? - SeekiTxa osis qali. qali osurad laparakobda. _ CemTan rom iyo, is sad aris? - ymawvili qals daJinebiT daacqerda. mixvda, rom osis qali mas elaparakeboda. _ ra aris Seni? - axla rusulad SeekiTxa qali, radgan mixvda, rom vaJma osuri ar icoda. _ Cemi naTesavia. Tan megobari. xom ar momkvdara? - susti kvnesis xma gaisma. sosom Tavi iqiT miabruna, saidnac kvnesis xma ismoda.
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SvebiT amoisunTqa. _ rogor aris? _ jer cocxalia. - qali gareT gavida. _ zura, gesmis Cemi? _ dabali xmiT ikiTxa. zuram kvnesiT upasuxa, Tumca misi xma ar gaugia. male oTaxSi ucxo mamakaci Semovida. isic SeiaraRebuli iyo da mkacri saxe hqonda. sosos win skamze Camojda da daakvirda. _ qarveli xar? _ qarTveli deda myavs, mama _ osi. _ keTili. saidan xar? sosom misamarTi uTxra. _ axla sad cxovrob? _ vladikavkazSi. iq miviRe umaRlesi ganaTleba. _ ratom TbilisSi ar gaagrZele swavla? _ mamam mirCia. mec ase gadavwyvite. _ es vin aris? _ Cemi megobaria saqarTvelodan. erTad gavizardeT. erT sadarbazoSi vcxovrobdiT. Cemi mSoblebic axla iq cxovroben. _ qarTvelia? _ mama qarTveli hyavs, deda osuri warmoSobis qalia, magram araferi icis sakuTari naTesavebis Sesaxeb. _ gasagebia. _ rogor aris? _ bevri sisxli dakarga. _ roca Segxvda, daWrili iyo? _ mec daWrili viyavi. roca vicaniT erTmaneTi, zurgiT matara didxans. sosos cremlebiT aevso saxe. _ mas es xanjali aRmoaCnda. iqneb Sen ici rame masze? _ ho, es misi dedis nivTia. erTaderTi nivTi, Tavisi naTesavebisgan rom darCa. mamakacs sxva SekiTxva arc dausvams. gareT gavida da qals sTxova, biWisTvis miexeda. saRamos zurac movida gons. am dros qali maTTan ar imyofeboda. misi sawoli sosos sawolis gverdiT idga. adgoma daapira, magram ver SeZlo. _ zura, gesmis Cemi? - dabal xmaze SeekiTxa soso. _ sad var? - ikiTxa zuram. _ erTad varT osur sofelSi. ecade, araferi Tqva, rom Sen mesrole. Tqvi, rom daWrilebi SevxvdiT erTmaneTs, micani da samSvidoboze gayvana gindoda. zuras yvelaferi moagonda. tyved rom Cavarda, isic gaaxsenda. didxans ar amouRia xma. _ soso, ratom an rogor moxvdi aq Crdilo oseTidan?
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_ rostovSi vmsaxurobdi samxedro savaldebulo saswavlebelSi. ici, ruseTis moqalaqeoba maqvs miRebuli. erTi Tve sistematiur wvrTnebs gavdiodiT. Semdeg aq gadmogvisroles, xom gesmis? arc ki vicodiT, sad movdiodiT. oceuls am soflis dacva evaleboda. _ minda mjerodes, rom eg simarTlea. _Semdeg gaCumda. krinti aRar dauZravs. qalma vaxSami Semoitana. _ gonze movida. iqneb, raime SeaWamoT! - sTxova sosom qali axlos mivida zurasTan. baliSi auwia, _ cota SeWame. _ tuCebTan bostneulis ramdenime kovzi naxarSi gadaylapa. odnav moeSva, wyali iTxova. miawodes. _ gmadlobT, deida! qalma mkacrad Sexeda. _ madlobas maSin miviRebdi, Cvens winaaRmdeg rom ar gamosuliyo. ramdenime kovzi kidev miawoda da gareT gavida. _ zura, araferi wamogcdes. _ isev gaafrTxila sosom. sasikvdilo arcerTs araferi hqonda, magram sisxldenas ise daesustebina isini, rom ver inZreodnen. dilamde gaunZrevlad iwvnen. ar laparakobdnen, eSinodaT, rame ar wamoscdenodaT. karga gaTenebuli iyo, roca isev moakiTxa momvlelma qalma maT. biWebi ukeT danayrdnen. cota gons movidnen. rogorc ki momvlelma qalma uTqmelad datova daWrilebi, maTTan kbilebamde SeiaraRebuli mamakaci Semovida sosom erTi icno. man wina dRes mouwyo dakiTxva. meorem orives gadaxeda da ikiTxa. _ romelia? _ es aris! - da zuraze miuTiTa. kaci axlos mivida. skami miswia da Camojda. didxans akvirdeboda daWrils. raRacas eZebda mis saxeSi. _ axla daiwyeba xangrZlivi dakiTxva. _ gaifiqra zuram, magram amis msgavsi araferi momxdara. arada dakiTvis namdvilad eSinoda ymawvils. marTali bunebis zuras tyuilis Tqma ascda, razec RmerTs madloba uTxra. _ saidan xar? _ bolnisidan. ise raWidan var. _ gasagebia. osebi da raWvelebi odiTganve megobrobdnen erTmaneTTan. zuram Tvalebi daxuWa. laxvariviT moxvda es sityvebi gulSi. krinti ar dauZravs. sososken nasroli tyvia moagonda. TvalebSi cremli Caudga. _ zura, Sen xar?-isev hkiTxa mamakacma. _ diax! mamakacma zuras xanjali amoiRo da xelSi Seatriala.
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_ es TqvenTan saidan moxvda? zuras axla gaaxsenda, rom mas xanjali dedam Caudo. ratom gaakeTa es dedam, maSin ver mixvda. _ es Cveni ojaxis wmindaTawminda reliqviaa. _ amiT xom aravin mogiklavs? ikiTxa ucnobma. _ ara. es Tilismaa, romelic dedam gamomayola. _ deda qarTvelia? _ ara, warmoSobiT osia. Tumca mSoblebi dabadebidanve dakarga. qarTvelebma gazardes. gvian gaigo, rom is osi iyo. _ axla sad aris? _ saxlSia, sadac vcxovrobT, _ ded-mamiSvili gyavs? _ ara, me marto var. _ sxva ra ici am xanjlis Sesaxeb? zura tkivilma Seawuxa da Tan daiRala. wyali iTxova, Rvinonarevi wyali miawodes. xilic SesTavazes. odnav suli moiTqva. _ adamianma, romelmac deda gazarda, sikvdilis win mamas es xanjali misca da daubara, es Seni meuRlis mamis xanjalia. kargad Seinaxeo. mamam ver miakvlia dedaCemis naTesavebis adgil-samyofels. erTi didi xaliCa gvaqvs. babuas suraTia am xaliCaze dakidebuli. es aris da es. _ zura gaCumda. _ naxevari osi yofilxar da Cvens winaaRmdeg ratom ibrZodi? - ikiTxa ucnobma. zura erTxans sdumda. sityvebs eZebda, romliTac ar gaaRizianebda da Tan sakuTar erovnul Rirsebas ar uRalatebda. _ me da soso erT sadarbazoSi vcxovrobdiT. TiTqmis erTad gavizardeT. me mudam mwamda, rom erTni viyaviT. sxva xalxTan SedarebiT yvelaze axlos osebTan viyaviT. gvyavs mravali Sereuli ojaxebi, gadabmuli naTesaoba, romelic warsulidan modis. erTi sarwmunoeba da erTi miwa gvaqvs. _ da mainc aiRe iaraRi da Cvens winaaRmdeg gamoxvedi. _ saubedurod ise, rogorc soso Cvens winaaRmdeg. me da mas ra gvaqvs gasayofi. iseTi patara eris Svilebi, rogorc Cven varT, ar unda veomebodeT erTmeneTs. zura nela, sveneb-svenebiT laparakobda. Semdeg mamakacs TvalebSi Caxeda. saxes daakvirda, raRac msgavseba dainaxa dedasTan. _ dRes rom Segxvdes Seni dedis naTesavi, esrodi? _ Tqven? - esrodiT osi qalis Svils? - sityva Seunacvla ise, rom misTvis mzera ar moucilebia. axla mamakaci daibna. sityva ver monaxa. _ sakmarisia. davasruloT am saCoTiro saqmeze saubari. man meore, TiTqmis iseTive xanjali amoiRo da zuras gauwoda. _ feliqsi Cemi deidaSvili iyo. mamaCemma mec maCuqa aseTi xan- 239 -

jali. is misi naqonia. _ RmerTo, _ aRmoxda zuras. rogor, Tqven Cemi naTesavi xarT? deda, nuTu es simarTlea? - mas daaviwyda Tavisi mdgomareoba, tkivili da saxegabrwyinebuli TvalebiT Sexeda mamakacs. Tvalebze cremli moadga. samarisebuli siCume Camowva. _ RmerTo, ra pataraa es samyaro. me ki Zalian didi megona._ Caialaparaka sosom. mamakaci wamodga da iqauroba datova. mas ukan meorec gahyva. saRamomde aravin gamoCenila, momvleli qalis garda. daWrilebi TandaTan ukeT xdebodnen. wamodgomac scades. ase gavida ramdenime dRe. _ netav ras fiqroben? - erTmaneTs ekiTxebodnen. adamians, vinc naTesavad gamoecxada zuras, raRac avtoriteti hqonda. Tu is, rac Tqva, marTali iyo, maSin gaTavisuflebis imedi arsebobda. gaiara ramdenime mtanjvelma dRem da kidev gamoCnda is pirovneba. axla RimiliT Semovida avadmyofTan. gauxarda, rom avadmyofebi ukeT daxvdnen. _ kargia, momjobinebulxarT. SegiZliaT saxlebSi wasvlac. xvalisTvis moemzadeT. Zlivs daviTanxme ufrosi Sens gaSvebaze. _ moubrunda zuras._ TviTon gagacileb. am xanjals ki ukan gibruneb. mokiTxva dedaSens. cudia, rom aseT viTarebaSi gagicani. ecade, samtrod aRar Semoxvide Cvens miwaze. ukanaskneli sityvebi laxvariviT moxvda zuras. enas kbili daaWira, rom raime sawinaaRmdego ar eTqva. am viTarebaSi naTesavis gamoCena didi fufuneba iyo. _ nurc Tqven dagvxvdebiT samtrod. _ mxolod es uTxra zuram. _ Svilo, me vnaxav dedaSens da vetyvi, rom misma Svilma arasdros aiRos moZmeTa gasanadgurebeli iaraRi xelSi. is rusuli warmoebisaa. me minda iseve miyvarde, rogorc danarCeni Cemi naTesavebi. yvelaferi dalagdeba. me amis mjera. _ Tqva da iqauroba datova. isev Camowva samarisebuli siCume. _ Senebma Tu ician, rom aq xar?_ SeekiTxa gvian zura sosos. _ ara, ori dRea, rac mogviyvanes. giTxari, am soflis dacva dagvavales. ramdenime TanamebrZoli mkvdaria, netav, gamarkvia, romelia Cven ors Soris yvelaze didi damnaSave. zuras meti SekiTxva aRar dausvams, mogvianebiT soso SeekiTxa: _ elvira ras akeTebs? _ manac instituti daamTavra. werilebs ar werdiT erTmaneTs? _ erTxans vwerdiT. rogor fiqrob, aRar vuyvarvar? _ ise airia qveyana, siyvarulisTvis marTla aRaravis cxela. yvela sadRac gaqcevaze fiqrobs. elviras Zma didi xania, saberZneTSi wavida. TviTon samsaxurs eZebs.
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_ cudi dro daudga Cvens Taobas. _ Sen? rogor moewyve? _ muSaoba daviwye, rogorc ki instituti davamTavre. Crdilo kavkasiaSi areuloba ar dawyebula, mdgomareoba stabiluria. Semdeg erTbaSad mogvwyvites da ai, aq aRmovCndi. ruseTi didia, misi sacecebidan Tavis daRweva Znelia. ase advilad ar daTmobs respublikebs. _ mec ase vfiqrob. _ daeTanxma zura. _ elviraze mekiTxebodi. Sen dagaviwyda? _ ara, misi suraTi mudam Tan damaqvs. raRac didi siTbo iRvreba misi saxidan, saaTobiT minda vucqiro. is Cemi pirveli siyvarulia. Sen zura, colis SerTvas ar apireb? _ Tu Zma xar... isea areuli mTeli qveyana, cali fexi samareSi gvidgas. isic ar vici, dRes Tu dagviRamdeba. _ aravin giyvars? _ miyvars, magram jer omia. isev SekrTa. sityva `omma~ orive gaaqvava. siCume isev zuram daarRvia. _ osuri ici? _ Zalian cota. aq qarTulad vswavlobdi, iq rusulad. _ naRvlianad Caialaparaka. _ osuri ki aravis sWirdeba. didi xnis Semdeg siCume zuram daarRvia. _ roca me dagWeri, es Soki iyo CemTvis. zurgze rom agikide da xoxva ganvagrZe, maSin gadavwyvite, xelSi iaraRi aRarasdros ameRo. amas Sevasruleb. Cveni ZmobisTvis gavakeTeb yvelafers. meore dRe Rrubliani gaTenda. ar wvimda. nisls daefara aremare. Cermeni Semovida. moxuci kaci Semohyva Tan. _ mzad xar, zura? _ mzad var! _ da alersiT Sexeda Semosuls. _ Tqven araferi giTqvamT Tqvens Sesaxeb. _ keTili. mec mindoda Tqma, kargia, rom Semaxsene. _ me Cermenis dis Svili var. feliqsic Cermenis disSvili iyo. dedaSenis deda zemfiri Cermenis Svilobili da misi gazrdilia. Seni bebiis da babuis siyvaruli legendasaviT darCa Cven gvarSi. rodesac biZaCemi Cermeni Cerqezebma mokles da col-qmari srulwlovanebi gaxdnen, erTmaneTi SeuyvardaT. maT winaaRmdeg isev misi namdvili mamis Zmebi iyvnen da erT mSvenier dRes gaiqcnen soflidan. _ Semdeg ra moxda? _ erTxans exmianebodnen mSoblebs, mere ugzo-ukvlod gaqrnen. _ daasrula mamakacma. _ me biZaCemis, Cermenis saxeli mqvia. _ me da Tqven erTi sissxli gaqvs. _ ufro metic, Sens ZarRvebSi Cerqezi babuis da yaraCaveli
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bebiis sisxlic aris. ase rom, nurasdros Seecdebi maT winaaRmdeg iaraRi aiRo. Sens ZarRvebSi mTeli kavkasiis sisxlia, Seni fesvebi isea gafantuli Sens sxeulSi, rom amis ufleba ar gaqvs. _ gmadlob, ufalo! rodis dalagdeba netav yvelaferi. _ Tqva zuram. zuram da sosom erTmaneTi gadakocnes. Zlivs Seikaves Tavi, rom ar atirebuliyvnen. _ rodis gaiyara Cveni gzebi, soso? - mxolod es aRmoxda zuras. pasuxs ar dalodebia, radgan icoda, amis Sesaxeb pasuxi aravis hqonda. jer manqaniT atares, Semdeg bilikebiT qarTul soflamde miiyvanes. _ axla wadi, _ Cermenma gulSi Caikra axladgamoCenili naTesavi, romelic tyveobas gadaarCina, umkurnala da samSvidobos gaiyvana. _ sasikvdilod ar memetebi. Sen feliqsis erTaderTi memkvidre xar. dadgeba dro, Cven sxva viTarebaSi SevxvdebiT erTmaneTs. _ gmadlobT Zia Cermen, gelodebiT, roca yvelaferi dalagdeba. _ mec amis imedi maqvs. _ Semdeg xeli iqiTken gaiSvira, sadac sofeli sCanda. _ is qarTuli sofelia, am bilikiT iare da mixval. mSvidobiT dabrundi saxlSi. _ da mxarze xeli dahkra. _ Tqvenc aseve. zura bilikze daeSva. avtomatis jeri isev kakanebda. erTi ki cxadi iyo, rusuli warmoebis iaraRidan isrodnen.
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zura im saRamos dabrunda saxlSi. raioni aforiaqebuli daxvda, samaCablodan ramdenime mokluli CamoeyvanaT. Svilis cocxlad dabruneba mSoblebisTvis didi bedniereba iyo. dedam Wriloba gausinja da daumuSava. _ es sad SegemTxva, Svilo. _ tyved Cavvardi. Sen ver warmoidgen, ra gadamxda. _ rogor daaRwie Tavi? _ SeSfoTebulma ikiTxa dedam. _ am xanjalma gadamarCina. _ rogor? xanjalma? Svilma yvelaferi uambo Tamilas, rac gadaxda. am gaugonarma ambavma sagonebelSi Caagdo qali. erTmaneTSi aeria tkivilic da sixarulic. mis saxeze araferi aRbeWdila. misi tyvedCavardnili Svili viRacam ixsna, da es viRaca misi naTesavi iyo. biZaSvilis arsebobac ar icoda da romelTan Sexvedrazec mudam ocnebobda. _ aq ra ambavia?_ ikiTxa zuram, roca Txroba daamaTavra.
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_ cudi. ori mokluli da ramdeni daWrili Camoiyvanes. albaT osebsac mouwevT aqedan wasvla. axalgazrdebi gadareulebi arian. biWebis dasaflavebis dRes undaT gandevnon osebi. _ vitalis ra mouva? _ ikiTxa zuram. _ ar vici. zuras sosos Sesaxeb araferi uTqvams. megobarze saubari uWirda. isic ar icoda, ra eTqva. mixvda, rom sworad iqceoda. sakmarisi iyo sosos Sesaxeb raime eTqva, pirveli samizne vitali gaxdeboda. _ osur sofelSi ucbad ar wamogcdes, rom Sen damWeri. _ Caesma sosos sityvebi. dRes mixvda, rom did politikur TamaSSi Cabmuliyo orive. mosvlisTanave gaxarebuli mezoblebi Semovidnen zuras sanaxavad. ulocavdnen, rom Sin mSvidobiT dabrunda. elvirac Semovida, gadakocna, sixaruls ver faravda misi Tvalebi. Zalian undoda zuras, misTvis eTqva, soso vnaxeo. eTqva, ramdenime dRe erT oTaxSi viyaviT da vmkurnalobdiTo, magram es ar SeeZlo da verc verasdros etyoda. _ kargia, elvira, rom moxvediT. gareT erTad gavideT. Tan samZimaric unda vuTxra daRupulebs. isini ezoSi Cavidnen. mTeli korpusis macxovreblebs Tavi ezoSi moeyaraT. iyo yvirili, gineba, aRelvebuli adamianebi erTmaneTs laparaks ar aclidnen. am saSinel oromtrialSi ver gaigebdi, riT dasruldeboda yvelaferi. samaCablodan Camoyvanili daRupulebi sababi gaxda. axla samagieros osebs gadauxdidnen. maRalklaseli biWebi quCebSi dadiodnen da osebis saxlebs aRwerdnen. am dros aRaravin eqvemdebareboda mTavrobis winaaRmdegobas. mTavrobas da qalaqs quCaSi gamosuli pirtitvela biWebi marTavdnen. iyvnen iseTebic, wminda erovnuli surviliT rom iyvnen aRtkinebulnic, visac saqarTvelos bedi namdvilad aRelvebdaT. iseTebic moipovebodnen, binebis dakavebiT rom iyvnen dainteresebulni. ver gaarkvevdi, am aduRebul qvabSi vin iyo is, visi ndomac SeiZleboda. isini ki bevni iyvnen: komunistebi, erovnuli liderebi, kriminalebi, qurdebi. Tu dRemde erTad idgnen da TavisuflebisaTvis ibrZodnen. dRes erTmaneTze gajibrebulni cdilobdnen, vin ukeTes saxls daikavebda, vin gamoTavisuflebul Tanamdebobas igdebda xelSi. veRarc milicia asrulebda Tavis funqcias, arc axlad Seqmnil prefeqturas hqonda Zala, gamklaveboda am areulobas. yofili raikomis Senobis win amaRlebuli adgilidan xalxs yvela rjulis politikosi oratorobda, visac SeeZlo, adamianebis winaSe xmamaRali sityva eTqva. erovnul grZnobebs aforiqebdnen. Tbilisidan CaerTo axali talRa. gaCndnen samaCablodan devnilebi, romlebic unda Casaxlebuliyvnen osebis kuTvnil saxlebSi. raionSi demografiuli mdgomareoba gamosworda, Tumca es ar unda momxdariyo mTiani raionebidan gadmosaxlebis xarjze. es sxva kuTxeebis daclis
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saSiSroebamde ar unda misuliyo. rogorc fiqrobdnen, saRamos vitalis binaze miakakunes da binis nebayoflobiTi dacla mosTxoves. ra Tqma unda am ojaxisTvis Zalian Zneli da amave dros Seuracxmyofeli iyo es yvelaferi. isini xom dRemde erTi cxovrebiT cxovrobdnen. mdumared, magram amave dros gulistkiviliT misCerebodnen saxeSi. _ me megona, Tqvenianad mTvlidiT. me xom araferi damiSavebia? zurac iqve idga. sagonebelSi Cavardnili. _ arc araferi gagikeTebia. sad aris Seni Svili. is amJamad ratom ar dgas Cvens gverdiT? _ am kiTxvas pasuxi ar mohyolia. _ ramden xans maZlevT? _ erT kviras. _ gasagebia. _ Tavdaxrilma upasuxa vitalim da daumata. - mec ise mtkiva guli im daRupulebis gamo, rogorc Tqven. damerwmuneT. mTeli kvira darboda sadarbazos mezobeli lamara, rom rogorme saxlis myidveli eSova, rom amiT mainc Seemsubuqebia mezoblisTvis mdgomareoba. gamoTxovebis win vitalim zura daimartoxela. gulSi Caikra da TvalebSi Caxeda. _ soso Semexmiana. gmadlobT, rom misi saxeli ar axsene. _ ra giTxra? _ ikiTxa zuram. _ SemogiTvala, rom gamojanmrTelda da vladikavkazSi wasula, magram kidev erTi rame Sematyobina. im dRes Cermanma, roca gagacila, ukan dabrunebisas mouklavT. zura gaqvavda. imdenad Zlieri iyo mwuxareba, rom sityvis Tqmac gauWirda. vitalim gasamxneveblad mxarze xeli dahkra. _ me mivdivar. binas Sen gitoveb. iqneba dadges dro, rom davbrundeT. mixede, Zalian gTxov. _ kargi, Zia vitali. roca sosos Sexvdebi, uTxari, rom Zalian miyvars, gadaagdos is avtomati, mas rom ekava. es xom misi saqme ar aris. isic uTxari, rogorme miakvlios Cermenis naTesavebs. iqneba ukeTes viTarebaSi SevxvdeT erTmaneTs. mtrebi nu viqnebiT, mcire xniT varT mosulebi amqveynad. es miwa yvelas gveyofa aqac da iqac.
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Tamilas morigeoba diliT damTavrda. mZime samuSao dRe hqonda, saxlSi eCqareboda. TbilisSi wasasvlelad unda momzadebuliyo. gzebs mxedrionelebi da yofili Cinovnikebi akontrolebdnen. saSineleba male daatyda Tavs erovnul mTavrobas. ufro advili iyo brZola gareSe mtrebTan. am SemTxvevaSi viTareba sul sxva iyo, radgan erTmaneTs qarTvelebi dareodnen. mTavrobas ar hyavda samxedro kadri. arc iaraRi, arsaidan daxmarebis imedi ar hqondaT. marto TavisuflebisTvis brZolis Jini veraviTari upiratesoba
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iyo am areulobaSi. quCidan akrefilma adamianebma ver SeZles brZolis muxti periferiebSi SenarCuneba. Seqmnili prefeqturebi ver gaumklavda sabWoTa ideologiiT aRzrdil neokomunistebs, romlebic situacias akontrolebdnen. mxedrionelT xelSi aRmoCnda rusuli iaraRi. Tu 9 aprils yvela erTad idga, axla gaxleCili sazogadoeba erTmaneTs dareoda. erovnuli mTavrobis xelSi darCenili mTavrobis sasaxle ar iyo saqarTvelo. male misi aRsasrulis dRec dadgeboda. raionebidan xalxs dasaxmareblad aRar uSvebdnen. SemovliTi gziT axerxebdnen Tbilisamde misvlas. zura mudam erovnuli mTavrobis gverdiT idga. jer skolis merxidan, studentobidan, 9 aprilis moSimSilec iyo, mwoliarec, mowamlulic. samxreT oseTidan daWrili dabrunda. mSoblebi Zalian ganicdidnen erTaderTi Svilis beds, SeZlebisdagvarad gverdiT edgnen. axlac alyaSemortymuli mTavrobis sasaxleSic aRmoCnda. is bolomde im idealebis erTguli darCa, rasac bavSvobidan eziara. Tamila Cqarobda, rom am rTul viTarebaSi Svilis gverdiT mdgariyo, raRaciT daxmareboda. saxlSi dabrunebulma CanTebSi produqti Caalaga da gareT gamovida. roca bolo sarTulis kibeebi CaaTava, mezoblis saxlis kari gaiRo da iqidan aTi wlis biWuna gamovarda. Tamila Sedga da bavSvs SeekiTxa: _ ra iyo laSa, xom araferi giWirs? _ deida Tamila, deda cudad aris. iqneb Semoxvide! Tamilam CanTebi iqve miawyo da avadmyofTan Sevida. olia tkivilebisgan igrixeboda da mSobiaroba ewyeboda. Tamilam taxtze daawvina da daamSvida: _ axlave vasos davurekav, saswafo mova, nu geSinia. _ Tamila, Tu RmerTi gwams, ar mimatovo. mgoni, ver moaswreben. laSa karebSi idga da tiroda. _ gadi, tiotia marias dauZaxe, damexmareba, mamaSeni sad aris? _ weRan gavida gareT. - upasuxa qalma. Tamila gamocdili eqTani iyo. mas sakmao codna hqonda am saqmeSi. arc erTi mZime operacia ar keTdeboda mis gareSe. imuSava Terapiul ganyofilebaSi, bavSvTa ganyofilebaSi, magram Tavidanve ar isurva samSobiaro blokSi muSaoba. es misTvis Tavidanve fsiqologiurad miuRebeli iyo. man kargad icoda, rom mis gaCenas gadahyva dedamisi. amaze fiqric ki zaravda da Tu odesme mSobiarobas daeswreboda, mis Semdeg ramdenime xans koSmaridan ver gamodioda. maria Tbili wyliT DSemovida. _ aba, tamilaCka, Sen ici, cotas mec dagexmarebi. olia tiroda, igrixeboda, saswrafo igvianebda. _ RmerTo, gadaarCine, RmerTo, uSvele, laSa gareT gadi da
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mamaSeni moZebne. roca bavSvma kari gaijaxuna, qals mSobiaroba daewyo. _ momexmare deida maria, zewari momaSvele. Tamilam SiSs sZlia, mSvidad aiyvana bavSvi da marias miawoda. _ RmerTo, ra lamazi biWia. - sixaruliT aRmoxda marias. saswrafoc gamoCnda ezoSi. _ netav, vin aris avad? - fanjrebidan Tavi gamohyves mezoblebma. _ dagagviandaT, magram danarCeni Tqven ganagrZeT. me ki meCqareba. _ marias raRac rCeva misca Tamilam, Semdeg xelebi gadaibana da gareT gamovda. daRla ar etyoboda, mTeli sxeuli bednierebiT avseboda. _ gamomivida, ra kargi biWia. _ fiqrobda Tamila, CanTebs xeli daavlo da ezoSi gavida. _ olias biWi SeeZina. - axara saswrafosTan mdgar vasos, _ amitom Semagvianda. qmarma CanTebi CamoarTva da mosacdelamde gaacila. _ dRes dabrundebi? _ Sevecdebi. Tu manqana iqneba. _ aqve daelode. iqneb, avtobusi gamoCndes. olias saavadmyofoSi xom ar gadaiyvanen? _ ara, ara mgonia.
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Tbilisis Sesasvleli mZime teqnikiT iyo Caxergili. avtomatianma biWebma avtobusi SeaCeres, brazianad gadaavles Tvali usityvod msxdom mgzavrebs da saswrafod Cavidnen. _ RmerTo, rodis dawynardeba es qveyana?_ Caialaparaka ukan mjdomma Savosanma qalma. _ jer adrea. es Jurnalia. _ ukmexad gaisma viRacis xma. _ netav metro muSaobs? _ TavisTavs SeekiTxa Tamila. Tbilisi saocrad dadumebuli iyo. avtobusebi ar moZraobda. iSviaTad sCanda gareT gamosuli xalxi. adamianebi, vinc sCanda, Cqari nabijiT, mkacri saxeebi mimodiodnen. gaCerebaze aravin idga. Tamilam taqsi gaaCera da rusTavelamde misvla sTxova. _ qvemoT migiyvan Tavisuflebamde. mTeli rusTaveli cecxlis alSia gaxveuli. _ upasuxa taqsis mZRolma. Tamilas uxmo kvnesa aRmoxda. saxeze SiSma gadauara. _ RmerTo, gviSvele! - SesTxova ufals. mxolod mas Tu SeeZlo xalxis daSoSmineba. _ vinme gyavs iq? isvrian. ar girCevT wasvlas. _ wamiyvaneT! - saswrafod kari gaaRo da Cajda. mZRols aRaraferi uTqvams. aRelvebuli qalis saxem daarw- 246 -

muna, rom kargs arafers fiqrobda. marTalic iyo. mas amJamad naklebad ainteresebda, vin gaimarjvebda, vin daikavebda taxts da savarZels, romeli partia daimkvidrebda parlamentis Senobas. mas sadRac ukana mxares darCa is erovnuli grZnoba, romliTac mudam hkvebavda Svili. is marto Svilze fiqrobda, romelic alyaSemortymuli parlamentis Senobis romeliRac sarTulze gamagrebul erovnul mTavrobasTan erTad iyo. am ori dRis win kidev fiqrobda, rom qarTveli qarTvels ar gaimetebda. kolmeurneobis moedanTan Camovida. qaSueTis taZramde gzas gauyva. gzadagza kantikuntad warbSekruli adamianebis saxeebs xedavda. _ qalbatono, iqiT isvrian! _ pirtitvela Tofianma biWma SeaCera. Tamilam ymawvils Sexeda. daakvirda, moeCvena, rom am pirtitvela biWs Tofis tareba umZimda. _ male gaTavisufldeba sasaxle zviadistebisgan. axla ki gTxovT, ukan dabrundeT! _ rCeva Tavaziani iyo, magram mkacri. _ es rodis moxdeba? iq bevri arian? - uceb ikiTxa qalma. surda, raime mainc gaego am Tofiani biWisgan. _ nawili gamovida. egonaT, maTi ufrosebis gankargulebas asrulebdnen. _ mkvdrebi Tu arian? _ CemTvis aravis uTqvams. albaT gamoacxadeben televizorSi. Tamilas gaukvirda biWis Tavdajerebuloba, auRelveblad rom scemda pasuxs. qalma gadawyvita, binaze daereka. jixurTan mivida, ukan gamobrunda, radgan telefoni ar muSaobda. skveramde miaRwia da qvebze Camojda. cota Seisvena. Tavs Zala daatana, rom efiqra, rogor gavidoda aqedan. gadawyvita, miwisqveSa gadasasvleliT rogorme Tavisuflebis metromde mieRwia. gaumarTla, ori mZime CanTiT SeZlo metromde misvla. metroc muSaobda. metrosTan xalxi Sejgufuliyo. rkinis gisosebTan isev pirtitvela biWebi idgnen. adamianebi maT sakvebs awvdidnen. Tamilac movida, erTi mZime CanTa gadaawoda. _ gvardielebi mand bevri arian? _ Cumad SeekiTxa biWs. _ vin gindaT? - Svilis gvari da saxeli wasCurCula. _ ara, ar vicnob. vetyviT. Tamila ukan gamobrunda. isev SeCerda metrosTan. viRac axalgazrda, inteligenturi Sexedulebis xalxs metroSi Casvla sTxova. _ netav vis mxaresaa es ymawvili? - gaifiqra qalma. am wuTSi isic ver mixvda, vis mxares iyo TviTon. rusTavelze gasasvlels biWebi akontrolebdnen. avtomanqanebi ar moZraobdnen. mxolod TavSiSveli biWebi
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TofebiTa da avtomatebiT xelSi aqeT-iqiT darbodnen. iq ar idga rusis jari. arc osi da azerbaijaneli. iq qarTvelebi idgnen da verc mixvdebodi, romeli vis mxares ibrZoda. gegoneboda, films iRebdnen da isinic patara rols TamaSobdnen. TiTqos strelkebiT SeiaraRebuli anci biWebi dareodnen erTmaneTs, TiTqos bazaleTis ambebi meordeboda da aravin sCanda iseTi, TeTr mandils rom Caagdebda Zmebs Soris, vinc samoqalaqo oms aacdenda qveyanas. manqana, romelic maT gaTiSvas emsaxureboda, Zlieri iyo. mas Tavisi mizani hqonda da dRes Soridan mSvidad akvirdeboda dasasruls. _ lali... ratom aqamde ar momagonda imaT yvelaferi ecodinebaT. _ metroSi Cavida. vagonSi gaognebuli Sevida. karebTan dadga. isnis metrosTan amovida. lalis korpusamde didi manZili ar iyo da fexiT mivida. kari ledim gauRo. gza dauTmo, arcerTs ambavi ar ukiTxavT. televizoris win mdgar taxtze Camosxdnen. Tamilam saxli SeaTvaliera da ledis Sexeda. _ nodaric? sad aris? _ ikiTxa. _ dilidan gasulia. velodebi. iqneb raime ambavi Seityos. Camovarda xangrZlivi siCume. gvian daarRvia siCume manpinZelma. _ me mgonia, waages omi. Cveni Svilebi CixSi moeqcnen. erovnuli brZola damTavrda. - sevdianad Tqva qalma. televiziaSi saimedo araferi ismoda. Semdeg isic gaCerda. gamTenias karze kakuni gaisma. ledim kari gaaRo. zura da lali Semovidnen. usityvod mividnen taxtze da Camosxdnen. SekiTxva aravis dausvia. arc pasuxi hqonda aravis. _ alyaSemortymul zviadistebs karidori gauxsnes da gaiyvanes. _ase iuwyeboda sainformacio gadacema. _ deda, Sen ras izam? _ xval morige var. waval. Sen? _ axla deda SeekiTxa Svils. _ Cven? Cven vnaxavT. xval daiwyeba daWerebi. _ vnaxavT, vin mova saTaveSi. _ daaimeda dedam. _ saTaveSi isev komunistebi movlen. yaCaRebs gamoiyeneben, Semdeg maTac moisvrian. maT ar akliaT Wkua, ician, rogor moatyuon adamianebi. amas isini bavSvobidanve swavloben. - daasrula nodarma, romelmac Zlivs moaRwia gaTenebisas.
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mesame dRes ris vai-vaglaxiT Tamila saxlSi dabrunda. meuRles vaso ezoSive Seegeba. saxeze Seatyo saSineli sulieiri da fizikuri daRliloba. _ lalisTan aris. Semdeg ra iqneba, vnaxoT._ uTxra qmars. sadarbazos pirvel sarTulTan Sedga. mSobiare mezoblis monaxuleba gadawyvita.
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_ rogor xar, olia? _ gmadlob ,Tamila, Seni wyalobiT, kargad var. Sen? Tamilam mxrebi aiCeCa. _ zura xom naxe? _ vnaxe. _ sevdianad upasuxa Tamilam. _ biWs ra daarqvi? - uceb SeekiTxa olia. bavSvs daxeda. pirveli Rimili gakrTa mis saxeze. _ ra davarqva? Sen iyavi naTlia. _ marTla? gmadlobT. saxeli mamam daarqvas. _ mas mamis saxeli, giorgi unda daarqvas. _ wminda giorgi iyos misi mfarveli. dRes es Tu gadagvarCens. RmerTma inebos, rom mas ukeTes saqarTveloSi ecxovros. axla waval, vaso melodeba. wesierad arc davlaparakebivar. Tu dagWirde, Semexmiane. me ar migatoveb. Tamila gareT gamovida, kibeebs auyva. meore sarTulze lamara Sexvda. is oroTaxian binaSi cxovrobda. _ rogor aris saqme? televiziiT Tqves, rom qali somexi iyo. ori biWi hyavda da orive ruseTSi gagzavna saswavleblad. TviTon maRaziaSi muSaobda. kargi samezoblo da samegobro adamiani iyo. viTareba, romelic amqveynad arsebobda, CixSi Sevida. ver garkveuliyo, vin iyo marTali, visi mxare daekavebina. vaWrobis muSaki iyo da mudam miliciis SiSi hqonda. amitom Tavs ikavebda da yovelTvis imis mxares iyo, vinc raions ganagebda. misTvis sulerTi iyo, vin iqneboda saTaveSi. ded-mamiT saqarTveloSi cxovrobda, Tumca Zalian ganicdida somxeTSi datrialebul tragedias. sisxlis yivili mudam iyo masSi. surda, qarTvelebs da somxebs Soris keTilganwyobiTi urTierToba yofiliyo. Tumca isic kargad Seesisxlxorcebia, rom miwa, sadac is cxovrobda, misi iyo, rogorc qarTvelis. rogorc ki saqarTvelom damoukidebloba miiRo, Svilebi ruseTSi gagzavna da arasdros daTanxmdeboda, rom misi Svilebi an politikaSi, an raime saqarTvelosTvis brZolaSi Cabmuliyvnen. arc Svilebs miscemda uflebas qarTvelebis winaaRmdeg iaraRi aeRoT.mas mSvidi cxovreba undoda. vaWrobiT miRebul pirdapir da arapirdapir Semosavals Svilebs ugzavnida. mezoblebs qorwilsa da qelexSi exmareboda. roca televiziam gaaJRera, saqarTvelo qarTvelebisTviso, Zalian gaRizianda. _ rogor? Cven aq gvicxovria. davbadebulvarT, mamaCemic aq momkvdara, aq dasaflavebula. axla sad wavideT. somxeTi pataraa, iq rom yvela wavideT, sad daveteviT? _ dardobda somexi lamara. mraval dokuments iSveliebda, rom miwa, sadac TviTon cxovrobda, misi iyo. arada, yvelam icoda, maT Soris manac, rom mas aravin aviwroebda, aravin sdevnida. marTalia, misi SekiTxva, rogor aris saqmeo, gulwrfeli iyo,
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magram Tamilas isariviT gulSi moxvda. mudam Tavazianma qalma ukmexad upasuxa: _ Senc xom es gindoda? lamara amas ar moeloda. gawiwmatda. _ ras ambob? me mSvidoba minda. sulerTi ar aris, vin iqneba iq? arc Cemi Svilebi da arc Cemi naTesavebi mTavrobaSi Sesvlas ar moindomeben. _ vici, genacvale, vici, SenTvis xom yvelaferi sulerTia. mTavaria mSvidad icxovro. axla marTla gabrazda lamara. _ qalo, me SegekiTxe zuras ambavi. me misi bedi mainteresebs. Sen ra Cxubi damiwye? ase daSordnen mezoblebi. samezobloSi yvelam icoda lamaras ojaxis tragedia. omis dros tyvednamyofma mamamisma im adamianebis bedi gaiziara, vinc 1942 wels gasaxlebuli iqnen Sua aziaSi tyvedyofnis gamo. misi bedi gaiziara misma ojaxma da da-Zmebma. axsovs sicive, SimSili, gausaZlisi siRatake, samadlod lukma-purs rom awvdidnen gulisxmieri adgilobrivi mkvidrni. xSirad igonebda im avadmosagonar dReebs. yovelTvis erTbaSad isteriuli tirili ewyeboda. misi dawynareba Semdeg Zalian Zneli iyo. am incindentis Semdeg orives male gauara wyenam. saxlSi Sevidnen Tu ara, darekes, daWrilebi arian saavadmyofoSi da male modio. _ RmerTo, wavideT vaso. gzaSi getyvi zuras Sesaxeb. _ Tumca ra eTqva, ar icoda. _ TbilisSi nu gaCerdeba. aq ajobebs, prefeqturis TanamSromlebi gadadgnen, ra Tqma unda, Tavisi surviliT. axal mTavrobasTan isini ar iTanamSromleben. zurasac daawerineben ganTavisuflebaze gancxadebas._ ambobda saavadmyofoSi misvlamde vaso. _ Tu eg akmares... _ isev Zvelebi dabrundebian. moiZebnebian adamianebi, visTanac saerTo enas gamovZebniT. - amSvidebda cols. _ aq ra ambavia, daWrilebi vin arian? _ Setakebisas daSavdnen, guSinac iyvnen. yvelaferi ise warimarTa, rogorc ivaraudes, prefeqturebi da raikomi gauqmda. raionis gamgeblis Tanamdeboba SemoiRes, Tumca yofili raikomis TanamSromlebi ukan dabrundnen Tavis Tanamdebobaze. ganyofilebebs saxelebi Seucvales. partiuli bileTebic advilad daTmes, Tumca amas xeli ar SeuSlia axal savarZlebSi mokalaTebuliyvnen. zura gaerida axal mTavrobas, Tumca swamda, rom omi wagebuli ar iyo. erovnuli mTavroba isev dabrundeboda. swamda, mas daexmareboda sazRvargareT mcxovrebi qarTuli diaspora. saqarTvelom
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didi erovnuli kraxi ganicada. Sida omma Seiwira mravali axalgazrdis sicocxle. aduRebul qaosSi mTavari sadRac daikarga, samagierod am duRilis dros zeviT kriminaluri qafi amotivtivda, romelic saucxood gamoiyena revanSistma mTavrobam. am umZimes dros Tavisuflebamowyurebul xalxs SerCa socialurad umZimesi wlebi, TiTqmis gausaZlisi. qarTvelebs moTminebisTvis lamis yoveldRe madlobas uxdida imdroindeli mTavroba. uSuqobas, ugazobas, ufulobas, upurobas umuSevrobas, utransportobas SeeCexa adamiani. ukve monur moTminebas SeCveuli puris rigSi mdgomi adamianebis sasaubro Tema iyo, rogor gadaegorebinaT yoveldRiuri saSineli yofa. viyoT realistebi da nu SegvaSinebs imis Tqma, rom adamianebs, romlebic am yofaSi aRmoCndnen, gmirobas ver moTxovdi. TavisuflebisaTvis brZolis gagrZelebac did sulier simtkices moiTxovda. Tavisufleba maSin aris Rirebuli, roca igi yvela fenas Seexeba. nu davabralebT yvelafers sxvas, radgan imdroindeli gaWirveba, mSvenivrad gamoiyenes erTeulebma. socializmis ngreva da kapitalizmis Semosvla mZime asatani gaxda. moTminebisaken mowodebiT adamianTa erTma nawilma kargad moirgo Seqmnili mdgomareoba. xalxis xarjze safuZveli Caeyara sakuTari kapitalis aRviraxsnil momxveWelobas. kriminalurma viTarebam daibuda im aduRebul qvabSi, sadac zeviT amosul qafSi naZirlebi moxvdnen. maT xelSi aRmoCnda Tavisuflebac, damoukideblobac da ekonomikac.
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saavadmyofos reanimaciul ganyofilebaSi eqimTa jgufi avadmyofis gadarCenisTvis ibrZoda. am jgufSi Tamilac iyo. ar ainteresebda, vin iyo pacienti. ar adardebda, ra erovnebis, ra mrwamsis iyo, sad daiWra, vin daWra, an risTvis ibrZoda. yvelani sikvdils ebrZodnen maSin. maTTvis cxovreba uCveulo mogzauroba iyo. yinvaSi, sicxeSi, tkivilSi da xanmokle sixarulSi surdaT is xanmokle sixaruli rogorme gaexangrZlivebiaT. adamianebi am did samyaroSi mwerebiviT umweoni arian da ar fiqroben, rodis, an rogor mova sikvdili. eqimTa jgufi ki ibrZoda, rogorme gadaerCinaT daWrilebi.
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erovnuli mTavrobis gandevnis Semdeg daiwyo represiebi. zogi dapatimrebuli iqna, zogma ucxoeTs Seafara Tavi, zogma CaTrevas Cayola amjobina da droebiT SeCerda, movlenebis ganviTarebas daeloda. xelisuflebaSi kvlav komunistebi

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movidnen. zura da lali, gansakuTrebiT ki lali, Tavidanve erovnuli mTavrobis gverdiT idgnen da arc axla gadauxveviaT am gzidan. maT swamdaT, rom saxelmwifo saTaveSi isev movidoda erovnuli mTavroba. orives swamda, rom gza, romelic maT airCies, yvelaze samarTliani iyo. ase daiwyo mravalwliani samoqalaqo dapirispireba, gaiyo ojaxebi, quCebi, sawarmoebi. yvela Tavisi azris siswores asabuTebda. ver gaigebdi, vin iyo mteri da vin-moyvare. daikarga adamianebis mimarT ndoba. iRvreboda sisxli. daiwyes narkotikis gamoyenebis niSniT politikosTa dapatimreba. es iyo saSineleba, romelsac ver ascda qarTveli sazogadoeba. am viTarebaSi revanSistma mTavrobam gadawyvita, saqarTvelos mTel teritoriaSi sakuTari uflebebi moepovebina. ase mivida saqarTvelo afxazeTis omamde. es iyo usastikesi omi, romelic uaxloes istoriaSi datrialda. mebrZoli jgufebi CrdiloeTidan SemoWril eTnikur xalxs daupirispirda. aq ar iyo koordinirebuli brZolis gegma. yoveli jariskaci emorCileboda Tavis meTaurs. Crdilo kavkasiidan kriminalebs erTaderTi mizani hqondaT, gaeZarcvaT afxazeTSi mcxovrebi qarTvelebi. mravalwliani SromiT SeZenili Wirnaxuli, saqoneli, aveji, manqanebi, inventari miedineboda saqarTvelodan. CrdiloeTiT ltolvilTa uzarmazari masa moawyda samegrelos, aWaras, svaneTs. zamTarSi kodoris xeoba gamoiara mravalma aTasma adamianma. gzebze rCebodaT SimSiliT, avadmyofobiT, siciviT gaToSili da gaubedurebuli adamianebi. im avbediTi dReebis ubedurebiT araerTma Cvenma TanamebrZolmac isargebla. RmerTma SeundoT, Tumca Sendobis Rirsni ar iyvnen. rogorc sxva raionidan, bolnisidanac gavida ramdenime aTeuli axalgazrda. erovnuli TviTSegneba maSin maRal doneze iyo. maTi wasvla afxazeTis omSi wminda vali gaxldaT samSoblos winaSe. eseni iyvnen moxaliseebi da samxedro savaldebulo samsaxuris jariskacebi. iseTebic iyvnen, vinc pirvelad aiRo iaraRi xelSi. saavadmyofos mTavarma eqmimma saswrafo daxmarebis mZRolebi daibara da raionis xelmZRvanelTa davalebiT gaacno, rom erTerTi unda gahyolodaT afxazeTSi wamsvlel moxaliseebs. Tamila da vasiko informirebuli iyvnen am gadawyvetilebis Sesaxeb. saRamos ojaxSi dabrunebul vasikos rodesac Tamilam Sexeda, igrZno, rom gadawyvetileba, biWebs gahyoloda, uryevi iyo. _ TviTon dagavala, Tu Sen ikisre? _ mxolod es SeekiTxa sayvarel adamians. _ ara, aravis uTxovia. me TviTon. sxvanairad ar SemeZlo. jer
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erTi, yvela mZRoli axalgazrdaa. meorec, is biWebi, vinc moxalised midian, zuras Tanatolebi arian. _ vasiko SeCerda. karga xans iyo gaCumebuli. _ iq zura ar aris, iqneba ukeTesia. aravin icis, vin dabrundeba ukan. vasiko axlos mivida colTan, WaRara Tmebi siyvaruliT Seuswora, ise, rogorc axlagazrdobaSi sCveoda xolme. TvalebSi Caxeda, gauRima. mere gulSi Caikra da gaagrZela: _ Cemi valia, zura Sevcvalo. aqac rom iyos, amas gavakeTebdi. _ Tqva da cols moSorda. taxtze Camojda da daumata: _ yvelaferi kargad iqneba da Tu mainc ise moxda... sikvdilisgan aravin varT dazRveuli. ukve samoc wels vuaxlovdebi. ar minda, wavide am qveynidan, rom raime kargi ar gavakeTo. zogjer dgeba is wuTebi, roca unda gadadga raRac Rirebuli nabiji. bedisweras versad wauxval. RmerTi rasac dagawers, mas ver Secvli. RmrTisa da qveynis winaSe valmoxdili unda wavide. Cemo mSveniero adamiano, Sen unda gaswio is Wapani, romelsac aqamde erTad vwevdiT. Tamila monusxuli misCereboda misTvis yvelaze sayvarel adamians. is iyo pirveli, visi frTebis qveS daculad da amayad grZnobda Tavs. TamilasTvis vasiko meuRlec iyo, megobaric, ojaxic, sakuTari kera da Weric. gaTxovebis Semdeg misTvis masTan sulierad yvelaze axlos iyo. zuras interesebsac pativs scemda meuRlesTan erTad. mas Semdeg, rac zura erovnuli moZraobis SuagulSi aRmoCnda, mSoblebic misi Tanamonawileni gaxdnen. afxazeTis omSi vasikos wasvla im movlenebis gagrZelebad CaTvala, riTac cxovrobda aqamde. amitom arc ufiqria winaaRmdegoba gaewia vasikos gadawyvetilebisTvis. _ diliT adre gavdivarT. cota raRac moamzade. nu idardeb. aucileblad davbrundebi. - ase dasrulda im saRamos qmarma saubari. aris cxovrebaSi momenti, roca iReb gadawyvetilebas da ar ufiqrdebi Sedegs. maSin arcerTs ar ufiqria Sedegze. maT mudam evalebodaT, gadaerCinaT adamianebi. bevrjer unaxavT sasikvdilo sarecelze mwoliare avadmyofebi, daWrilebi, dasaxiCrebulebi. maT Svela undodaT da maTi profesiuli valdebuleba iyo, gadaerCinaT isini. es misia unda SeesrulebinaT afxazeTSic. _ mec xom ar wamovide? _ ikiTxa Tamilam. qmarma cols gakvirvebiT Sexeda. mas mkacri, magram mSvidi Tvalebi hqonda. _ ara, Sen aq darCebi. Sen aqac saWiro xar! es ori adamiani ise laparakobda am mZime, saWirboroto saqmeze, TiTqos maTze yofiliyos damokidebuli brZolis bedi. im saSineli
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brZolisa, romelSic unda Cabmuliyo raionis axalgazrdoba. Tamilas mudam Tan sdevda didi tkivili. eSinoda, Zlivs miZinebuli tkivili ar ganaxleboda. vasikos gareSe is naxevari iyo, magram iyo wminda movaleoba, romelsac qali ver SeewinaaRmdegeboda da usityvod daemorCila qmris gadawyvetilebas. uTenia wamodga Tamila. zurgCanTaSi Cauwyo saWiro nivTebi da sursaTi. cdilobda, misi aRelveba qmars ar SeemCnia. usityvod isauzma masTan erTad. arc qmars surda zedmeti emociebi gamoemJRavnebina. CanTa zurgze moigdo. karebamde mivida. ar surda, cols gamomSvidobeboda, magram raRac Zalam karebTan SeaCera da ukan moixeda. bevrismTqmeli Tvalebi ucqerdnen sulis siRrmidan. cota SeSinda, Tavs Zala daatana da gaiRima. ukan gamobrunda da qalTan mivida. aTasi wvrili xazi amSvenebda mis saxes. naoWebs ver waerTmia is silamaze, romelsac mudam xedavda colis saxeze. piriqiT, ufro sispetakis elferi dahkroda. daixara, Sublze akoca. Cqari nabijiT jer saxli datova da Semdeg sadarbazo. Zirs saswrafo manqana idga. Sig ramdenime moxalise eloda. manqanaSi ise Cajda, biWebs arc ki misalmebia. Semdeg moubodiSa omSi mimaval axalgazrdebs. _ mSvidobiT dabrunebuliyaviT biWebo. _ da manqana daZra. mezoblebi ezoSi Camosuliyvnen. maT saxeebze SiSi da SeSfoTeba aRbeWdiliyo. uxmod, pirjvris weriT daiSalnen. zogierTebi iqve grZel skamze Camosxdnen da didxans iyvnen damunjebulebi. bolnisis movlenebs, 9 aprilis tragedias, cxinvalSi gadatanil brZolebs, axla afxazeTis omi miemata. adamianebi televizors mijaWvulebi mxolod ukanasknel ambebs ismendnen. Suqi xSirad ar iyo da amis gamo wuxda xalxi. Suqi rom wavidoda, televizors moSordebodnen da radios imarjvebdnen xolme. afxazeTidan saSineli ambebi ismoda daWrilebis da daRupulebis Sesaxeb. es iyo eniT auwereli gancdebi im adamianebisaTvis, visi axloblebic afxazeTSi iyvnen. is dReebi autaneli iyo TamilasTvis. erTxel sadarbazodan gamosuls tiotia maria daxvda da gabrwyinebuli axali ambavi axara. _ TamilaCka, ici, ra gavige? Tamila Sedga da marias daakvirda. igi am qals pativs scemda, rCevisTvis mudam mas mimarTavda. _ ra iyo deida maria? _ ar vici Woria, Tu simarTle, magram amboben afxazeTis omi male damTavrdeba. aslan abaSiZem Turme SevardnaZe da gamsaxurdia Seariga da axla gaerTianebuli ZaliT gandevnian eqstremistebso. _ ra kargi ambavi miTxari! sixaruliT wamiZaxa Tamilam da mezobeli gulSi Caikra.
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Zlivs gaCnda sixaruli mis saxeze. yovelTvis fiqrobda, rom samoqalaqo omis bedi am or adamianze iyo damokidebuli. mxolod am ori adamianis dazaveba gadaarCenda mravali adamianis sicocxles. es is periodi iyo, roca qalaqSi avtobusebi aRar moZraobdnen. manZili saavadmyofomde didi iyo, magram ise Cqara dafara igi Tamilam, verc gaigo. TiTqos frTebi gamoesxao, ise gaiara, mTeli gza locavda samive xelmZRvanels, romlebmac am mZime viTarebaSi sakuTarze maRla qveynis interesebi daayenes. amas fiqrobda erTi Cveulebrivi qali, qarTvelebis rZali, zviadistis deda da afxazeTSi wasuli mamakacis meuRle da mTeli guliT surda, rom ase momxdariyo, magram saubedurod ase ar moxda. tiotia marias yurmokruli ambavi Wori gamodga. afxazeTSi umowyalod xocavdnen qarTvelebs, unadgurebdnen yvelafers da sakuTari fuZidan erekebodnen. ar iyo ojaxi, visi axlobeli an Soreuli naTesavi ar Sewirvoda am ubedurebas. umZimes mdgomareobas emateboda ukiduresi ekonomiuri gaWirveba. xalxi gaZlebaze cxovrobda.
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erT saRamos Tamila samsaxuridan brundeboda. gza saavadmyofodan saxlamde fexiT gaiara, amitom saSinlad daRlili iyo. sadarbazosTan misuls ezoSi gamofenili mezoblebi Seegebnen. miesalma maT. mezoblebis gareT gamosvla ar gakvirvebia. aseTi SemTxvevebi xSiri iyo bolo dros, magram roca maT mdumare saxeebs daakvirda, Sedga. raRac Zafi Cawyda gulTan, Tavbru daesxa da moajirs CaeWida. viRacam xeli staca. saxlSi aiyvanes. mezoblebic ukan mihyvnen. male gamoerkva, wamoiwia. weli ver aswia, mTeli sxeuli ise damZimeboda. viRacam wyali miawoda, cota mosva. mis Tavze gabmiT rekavda samgloviaro zari. _ ra moismineT televizorSi? Zlivs amoilaparaka qalma. _ gamagrdi Svilo! - xeli mokida mariam. qals aRaraferi gaugonia, gulwasuli taxtze gadaqanda. aris wuTebi, ramac SeiZleba Secvalos adamianis cxovreba da es wuTebi dadga Tamilas cxovrebaSi. aTeuli daRupuli axalgazrdebis gverdiT, romlebic afxazeTSi raionidan wavidnen da ukan aRar dabrunebulan, aRmoCnda samoc wels miRweuli misi usayvarlesi adamiani. cxovrebis mkacri pirobebi hqmnis mamac, Tavganwirulsa da movaleobis erTgulad Semsrulebel adamians. radgan WeSmaritebaa, rom erT dros yvela mokvdeba, lamazad, Rirseulad unda waxvide am qveynidan. vasikom ver Seasrula mamis suraTTan dadebuli fici. albaT misi Sesruleba ukeTesi, ufro Rirseuli sikvdilisTvis Semoinaxa. simSvide, rac Tamilas am adamianis gverdiT hqonda, gaqra. Zafi, romelic akavSirebda am qveyanasTan, yelTan SemoeWdo da misi
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gagudva scada. mere suli Seugubda da misi sxeulidan amoglejva moindoma. Zlivs movida gons. Svili moagonda _ misi da vasikos erTaderTi Svili. _ zura momiZebneT, mezoblebo! - vedrebasaviT SesTxova mis garSemo mofusfuse adamianebs. mis garSemo yvelaferi trialebda. surda, rogorme SeCerebuliyo. dasrulebuliyo is tkivili., romelic misi gulidan, sulidan, sxeulidan sasicocxlo wertilidan modioda da gauTaveblad yviroda. is xom yvelafers eTxoveboda: meuRles, usayvarles adamians, darCenil sicocxles, im mSvenier dros, romelic masTan gaatara da veRarasdros daibrunebda. surda tirili, moTqma, kivili, magram misi piridan araferi amodioda. ase uecrad, moulodnelad datexili ubedureba aRemateboda yvela sityvas, romelic mas unda eTqva. meore dResve dabrunda zviadistebTan gaxiznuli zura. misi mosvla patara nugeSi iyo qalisTvis. is mcireodeni doziT amoavsebda dacarielebul guls. mziT daficxebul Svilis saxeze aRar TamaSobda anci, mousvenari da mosiyvarule gamoxedva. Tvalebis velurma elvarebam SeaSfoTa qali. erTi wuTiT kinaRam daaviwyda Tavisi mdgomareoba.Svilis dabneuli gamoxedvac ar gamohparvia dedis Tvals. guli ufro daumZimda, ver mixvda, ra moxda Svilis cxovrebaSi. qmris kubosTan mgdari Svilis tkivili mis tkivils erTvoda da guls umZimebda. _ Senc ratom gamwire, ratom mimatove mama? _ es erTaderTi tkiviliT naTqvami sityvebi gahyva mamas, Semdeg saqarTvelos droSa Seaswora mis mkerdze, Sublze akoca da samares moSorda. vasikos bedi gaiziara mravalma aseulma qarTvelma. daiwyo gadmosveneba omis xazidan sxvadasxva kuTxeSi. saavadmyofoebi aivso daWrilebiT. Zlivs gamoaRwies ltolvilebma jojoxeTur oms. vinc kodoris gziT gamoaRwia samSvidobos, aravis daaviwydeba is eniT auwereli tanjva, rac maSin devnilebma gamoiares. saubedurod is, rac ver moaswres kavkasiurma tomebma, usircxvilod naZirala Tanamemamuleebma moaTaves. modioda daxuruli kuboebi afxazeTidan da Wirisufals eWvi epareboda, namdvilad Tavisi micvalebuli miuyvanes saxlSi, Tu sxvisi. ojaxSi dabrunebuli gardacvlili sanatreli gamxdariyo maTTvis. bevri mkvdari dautirebeli darCa. mamis gardacvalebis dros da imis Semdeg, ormocamde, zura saxlSi darCa. masTan iyo misi sulieri megobari, lali.
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Ramis 12 saaTze Suqi movida. taxtze miZinebuli olia saswrafod wamodga. quraze qvabi Semodga. bavSvebi mamasTan erTad iqve sawolze iyvnen miwolili. isinic Suqis mosvlas elodnen. _ onkani gaxseni. wylis mosvla ar gamogeparos.
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oliam qmars gadaxeda. patara giorgis mis mkerdze eZina. _ laSa, Caiwie. _ giorgi gverdiT miuwvina mamam. kaci wamodga da televizori CarTo. _ raRa dros televizoria. Tormet saaTze serialebi iqneba. _ TavisTvis Cailaparaka zaurma. Semdeg erTi kargad daamTqnara da careli macivari gamoaRo, SeaTvaliera da lazaTianad Seigina. cxadia, is mTavrobas aginebda, rogorc yovelTvis. olias mzad hqonda gaTlili kartofili, mwvanili da kombosto. Suqis mosvlasTan erTad qvabSi rig-rigobiT Cayara. marto imas natrobda, Suqi ar Camqraliyo da kerZis gakeTeba moeswro. _ male esec aRar iqneba. _ uxalisod gadaxeda mwir ulufas qalma. _ fabrikidan ukanaskneli muSa daiTxoves, marto yaraulebi darCnen. - Cailaparaka zaurma. orive, colic da qmaric samkervalo fabrikaSi muSaobdnen. qali mkeravad, kaci meqanizatorad. fufunebas moklebuli iyvnen, magram xelfasi, romelic hqondaT, arsebobisTvis hyofnidaT. produqti TiTqmis kapikebi Rirda. arc gazis da Suqis gadasaxadi iyo didi. saerTo gaWirvebas isic daerTo, rom gazi mTlianad gaiTiSa. Suqi Ramis 12 saaTze modioda. adamianebis, gansakuTrebiT diasaxlisebis cxovrebaSi dro Seicvala, radgan gvianamde sixaruliT elodnen nanatr Suqs. aravin icis, risTvis gandevnes erovnuli mTavroba. xalxis cxovreba ki ufro gauaresda. xalxs danazogi eleoda. bankSi Setanili mcireodeni Tanxa gaeyinaT. Tavisufali qveyana yvelafrisgan izolirebuli aRmoCnda. TandaTan Semcirda sabWoTa fulis Zveli kupiurebi, Semdeg axali fulic, romelic ruseTma gamouSva. male Sewyda maTi saqarTveloSi gamoyeneba. Semovida kuponebi, Semdeg erovnuli lari. RmerTma icis, vis mouvida azrad 8 lariani pensia miecaT moxucebulebisTvis. gadarCenisaTvis brZola daiwyo. qurdoba, jarTis Segroveba, yaCaRoba yoveldRiuri saqmianoba gaxda. fabrika-qarxnebis danadgarebi mezobel qveynebSi Calis fasad, jarTad hyidnen. Semdeg ojaxebidan daiwyes wvrilmani nivTebis gatana, eleqtro-sadenebis Camogleja, sasaflaoebidan rkinis karebebis moparva. _ zaur, iqneb gaiaro nakartofilarSi, zamTrisTvis ramdenime tomara mogetana. rkinigzis iqiT ukve aiRes mosavali. laSac waiyvane dilidanve nu daiwyeb smas. _ ukmayofilo kiloTi uTxra qmars oliam. _ dedaSeni soflidan rom Camosuliyo... _ TavisTavs uTxra qalma. _ ratom? iq sakuTari meurneoba aqvs. Cvenc gvestumreba. iqneb, sjobdes, Cvenc droebiT sofelSi gadavsuliyaviT. _ ras ambob? aq biWi swavlobs. wyalic movida. Cqara WurWlebi!
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avavsoT. xval sarecxi maqvs. _ wylis mosvlam salaparako Tema Seucvala col-qmars. zaurma isev daamTqnara. kidev Seigina, Tumca amjerad vis aginebda, ver gaigebdi. autanelma gaWirvebam, romelic xalxs Tavs daatyda, gaaborota SeWirvebuli adamianebi. zaurma WurWeli onkanTan mizida, Slangi gaukeTa da maTi wyliT avseba daiwyo. _ iqneb, yvela WurWeli aavso. _ isev brZanebebs iZleoda olia. Zlivs moaswro kerZis gakeTeba. Suqi Caqra. _ WalaSi aRaraferi darCa. es SeSa marto erTi Tve gveyofa, Semdeg... _ Cailaparaka oliam da sanTeli aanTo. sawoli gaaswora. bavSvebs daxeda. isini udardelad iwvnen, Semdeg TviTonac dawva. _ variCkas biWma vizebi gamougzavna cols da elviras. albaT variCkac wava aqedan. isini berZnebi arian, qalo. vizebic advilad aiRes da iqac vinme daxvdebaT. _ ar megona, sxvis erisSvilobas Tu vinatrebdiT. _ damaZine, sacaa gaTendes. _ gverdi Seinacvla kacma. _ dedaSeni Tu Camova, bavSvebis movlaSi dagvexmareba. mec wavidodi. ojaxs SeveSvelebi. _ qali wynarad laparakobda. Tumca qmari Zalian gaabraza. _ gagiJdi qalo? am ToTo bavSvs vis amara toveb? _ damaZine, isedac ar maklia safiqrali. _ maSin Sen moZebne samuSao, xom xedav, ra oqroc mebada, gavyide. amiT Zlivs gavitaneT ramdenime weli Tavi. _ ar cxreboda olia. didi winaaRmdegobis miuxedavad oliam dedamTili daiyolia, soflidan Camoiyvana da sabuTebis Segroveba daiwyo. _ jer me gavaRwev, Semdeg Senc gagiyvan. _ amSvidebda qmars olia. _ iqneb, cxovreba aewyos da gulianad davbrundebi. _ aq vin aawyobs cxovrebas? _ yovel SemTxvevaSi, me da Sen rom ver SevcvliT aqaurobis mdgomareobas, es kargad vici. dilidanve nu iwyeb loTobas. WalaSi rom waxval fiCxis mosatanad, sokoc gamoiyole. laSa gaiyole. zauris deda zemo soflidan gaxldaT da Zveli yaidis qali iyo. naxiri, yana, bostani _ ai, misi cxovreba da saarsebo saSualeba. zedmeti produqti gasayidad gahqonda da hyofnida ojaxs. _ sofeli aRaravis unda. gana, im saberZneTSi kabinetSi dagsvamen? me mirCevnia, naxirs movuaro, vidre berZeni moxucis garSokebi vxexo. RmerTo, Sen dagvifare. _ wuwunebda moxuci. _ ra vqna? xom xedav, Sens Svils arc sofelSi muSaoba unda. rac fabrika daixura, loTobis mets arafers akeTebs. vici, gana ar vici, rom samuSao ar aris? isic viciT, rom unda viTminoT, magram rodemde? miTxari, rodemde? Cadi sardafSi, TiTo tomara fqvili rom dagviriges, gaTavda. ori dRis samyofia. yvelafers rom Tavi davaneboT, puri xom gvinda? vici, iq me kabinetSi ar damsvamen da
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isic vici, rom iq mona viqnebi, magram me arc pirveli var da arc ukanaskneli. unda wavide. Seni imedi maqvs. xom xedav, diliT gavida da saRamos simReriT mova Seni Svili. ezoSi Semodis Tu ara, ginebas iwyebs. buzebi raa, imaTac aginebs. siduxWiris dasaZlevad qalebi sakuTar argumentebs iSveliebdnen. mxolod erT rameze Tanxmdebodnen, rom cxovrebaSi, yvelaze mZime dros qalebis Tavze tydeboda joxi. maT unda etvirTaT cxovrebis simZime. zogs didi, zogs patara, magram mainc mZime tvirTi. variCkas rZlis da elviras wasvla erTad aRniSnes mezoblebma. gamoTxovebisas yvela sTxovda, maTTvis saberZneTis vizebi gamoegzavnaT, rom rogorme gadaetanaT gaWirvebuli cxovreba. gavida ramdenime Tve. viza jer arsad sCanda, cxovreba isev gausaZlisi iyo. Tbilisamde avtobusebiT mgzavroba Sewyda. samagierod daba kazreTamde dadioda samgzavro matarebeli. es TiTqmis fufuneba iyo. mgzavroba TiTqmis sam-oTx saaTs grZeldeboda, magram amas vin Cioda. matarebelSi Sesuli ucnobi mgzavrebi bolo gaCerebamde TiTqmis karg nacnobebad Sordebodnen. qalaqidan, lilos bazrobidan lamaras raRac wvrilmani mohqonda. erT-or kapiks Soulobda da amiT irCenda Tavs. erTxel oliac waiyvana, iqneb cota fuli gaakeToso. didi kleCati CanTa aavso, qalisa da mamakacis sacvlebiT, parfiumeriiTa da TeTreuliT. matarebeli ukan gvian brundeboda. vagonebi gadaWedili iyo. mezoblebma Zlivs monaxes dasajdomi adgili. isini ori axalgazrda qalis gverdiT aRmoCndnen. gacxarebulebi saubrobdnen. _ ar unda vaJbatons, wavide. arada, aseTi varianti aRar meqneba. xuTasi dolari da kveba. _ viza sad iSove? _ gamomigzavna patronma. is Cemi mgzavrobis Rirebulebasac ixdis. jer-jerobiT erTwlian kontraqts debs, Semdeg Tu movewone, gaagrZelebs. _ ra unda gaakeTo? _ ori ZaRlis movla mevaleba. lamaram da oliam yurebi daZabes. _ ori ZaRlis movlaSi xuTasi dolari? - gaikvirva qalma. _ saxlis ZaRlebia, jiSiani. yoveldRiurad SampuniT unda davbano. gareT gavaseirno da roca ukan davabruneb, fexebi kargad gavuwmindo. patara lekvi hyavT. imisTvis, vidre gareT gasvlas vaswavli, pampersi unda gamoviyeno. _ RmerTo, ras moveswari. ZaRlis ZiZebadac gaxda Cveneburi qali. _ ras izam, SvilebisTvis yvelaferi unda gaakeTo. guldamZimebulebma datoves vagoni mezoblebma. pirveli viza
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olias mouvida yalbi cnobis aRebam mainc mouwia. arqividan miiRo cnoba, rom misi bebia berZnuli warmoSobisaa. vizas sxva saWiro sabuTebTan erTad es cnobac miumata da saberZneTSi wasvlis nebarTvac miiRo. wasvlis win mTeli Rame mZinare bavSvebis gverdiT ijda da maT misCereboda. uTenia Tvalcremlianma datova saxli, gareT gamosuls Tamila SeeCexa. adrianad gamouZaxaT saoperaciodan. saswrafo manqanaSi qmris magivrad axalgazrda mZRoli elodeboda. olias danaxvisas Sedga, gadakocna da warmateba usurva. _ bavSvebze nu idardeb. giorgis SviliviT mivxedav. rodesac saRamos saxlSi dabrunda, mezobelTan Sevida. sevdiani Sexvda moxuci. taxtze miwolil bavSvebs daxeda. ToTxmeti wlis laSas da oTxi wlis giorgis gulSi CaekraT dedis TavSali. Tamila SeaZrwuna maTma saxeebma. _ deida Tamila, am TavSals dedikos suni asdis! - ambobda giorgi da tiroda qali. maT gverdiT Camojda. mas, am bolo dros mravali ubedureba daatyda Tavs, magram cremli arasdros wamosvlia. am scenam gulis siRrmemde SeZra. verc erTi sanugeSo sityvis Tqma ver SeZlo. mxolod gulSi Caikra orive biWi. moefera da maTTan erTad gamoitira olias wasvla. man gamoitira im bavSvis wuxili, romelsac jer ar ganucdia dedis siTbo da dedis TavSali Caekra gulSi. man mTeli sigrZesiganiT gansazRvra am bavSvebis bedi. igrZno, momavalSi rogor daelodebian ucxoeTSi gadaxvewili dedis zars, SeCerdebian ucxoeTidan Camosul avtobusTan, daelodebian dedas da roca is gamoCndeba, misken gaiqcevian. magram verasdros mixvdebian, risi gulisTvis gaswires Tavi da ucxoeTSi ratom gadaixvewa igi. gaivlis dro. ucxoeTSi samuSaod wasul qalebze mravali saSineli, amazrzeni Wori Seiqmneba. ityvian bevr tyuils da marTals. aravis SeebralebaT is qalebi, romlebmac am sazizRari iarliyis fasad gadaarCines ojaxi SimSilisgan. es iyo didi tragedia qarTveli qalis cxovrebaSi. ubedurebisa da siduxWiris pirispir aRmoCenil adamianebSi daikarga imedi. axalgazrdobam dakarga funqcia. Zvel TaobaSi gaCnda protesti, ratom moxda qveynis izolireba, ratom garbodnen adamianebi sakuTari fuZidan an rodemde gagrZeldeboda aseTi yofa saerTod?
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vasikos daRupvidan erTi weli gavida. zura saflavis mowyobiT iyo dakavebuli. mis garSemo TandaTan mcirdeboda megobarTa wre. yvela sadRac miiCqaroda. raioni imdenad pataraa, rom erTmaneTis Sesaxeb yvelam yvelaferi icis. adamianebi erTmaneTisagan gaiTiSnen: zviadistebad, moqalaqeTa kavSirad, mxedrionelebad da uRaribes fenad. iyo ojaxebi, sadac
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erTi Zma zviadisti iyo, meore `aRorZinebidan~, mesame-`moqalaqeTa kavSiridan~. yvelas surda, uRaribesi fena taSis damkvrelebad an yuTTan maT sasargeblod biuletenebis Camyrelebad gamoeyenebiaT. wlisTavze samezoblo sufra gaiSala. vasikosTan erTad Sendoba SeuTvales afxazeTSi da cxinvalSi daRupulT. mxolod am dros iyo yvela erTsulovani da erTiani. _ or dReSi gelodebi. aRasad waxvide. - sTxova lalim zuras gamomSvidobebisas. marTlac ori dRis Semdeg dedas gamoemSvidoba, male davbrundebio, daubara da mosacdelTan gavida. es is periodi iyo, roca arc avtobusebi, arc taqsebi aRar moZraobdnen. erTi-ori mikroavtobusi, rolebic kerZo mZRolebma SeiZines, ver akmayofilebda mgzavrTa moTxovnilebas. gasvlisTanave msubuqi manqana SeCerda. gegoneboda, mas elodnen. _ zura, TbilisSi midixar? wamodi, erTi adgili gvaqvs. _ miipatiJa Tanaklaselma nikuSam. man iuridiuli fakulteti daamTavra da raionSi Zalovan struqturaSi muSaobda. masTan zura ar megobrobda, magram mipatiJebaze uari ar uTqvams. miTumetes, TbilisSi mgzavroba Zalian Wirda. saWesTan Zlieri aRnagobis axalgazrda ijda. is axali mosaxle iyo. misi vinaobiT arasdros dainteresebula, Tumca xedavda, rom mudam iaraRs atarebda. gaurkveveli warsulisa da cxovrebis imijs atarebda. meore, romelic mis gverdiT ijda, gamgeobaSi muSaobda. nikuSas gverdiT ki `aRorZinebis~ erT-erTi lideri ijda. zura miesalma, manqanaSi Cajda da im wuTSive inana, rom am xalxis gverdiT aRmoCnda. _ rogor xar, nikuS? - SeekiTxa zura dampatiJebels, radgan danarCenebs TiTqmis ar icnobda. _ rogorc yvela, Cemo zura, Sen? _ mec aseve. maTac ver SeZles gulRia saubari. mgzavrebi daZabulni Candnen. marneulSi manqana SeCerda. _ Tu ar gewyinebaT, xuTi wuTi Semagviandeba. ager Zmakaci unda vnaxo, - yvelam Tanxmoba ganucxada da mZRolma manqana daZra. jer bazrisken Seuxvia, roca centrs gascda, orRobeSi gadauxvia da erTi saxlis WiSkarTan SeCerda, manqanidan mZRoli da is axalgazrda gadavida, romelic zuras gverdiT ijda. ezoSi Tavisuflad Sevidnen. fanjaraze daakakunes. azerbaijanelma mamakacma Tavi gamohyo. mZRolma Cumad raRac aniSna. fuli gadaawoda da daelodnen. maspinZeli male gamovida da celofniani paketi gadasca. maT
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Tavi daukres da WiSkrisaken wavidnen, vidre ezodan gavidodnen, mZRolma SeaCera meore. _ es mosawevad. - paketidan patara Sekvra amoiRo._ es ki jibeSi Caude. umjobesia, kaifSi iyos. ase damavales. marneuls gascdnen Tu ara, mZRolma nikuSas gadaxeda da uTxra: _ im SobelZaRlebma yvelaferi gaaZvires. Tqva, saukeTeso ariso. ar SevamowmoT biWebo? _ SevamowmoT, _Tqva man, vinc mas Sehyva. jibidan patara Sekvra amoiRo. _ aha, Zmao, mowie. zura mixvda, rasac sTavazobdnen. _ magis moTxovnileba arasdros gamCenia. _ bevri dagikargavs. sulier areulobas es uSvelida. _ da kidev miawoda. zuram gamoarTva da mowia. mTel organizmSi simsubuqe igrZno. _ am gaubedurebul qveyanaSi es Tu gadagvarCens gagiJebisgan. _ Tqva mZRolma da zuras Tvali Caukra. _ gaamos! kumis-TeleTis aRmarTi aiares. gaivakes Tu ara, manqanas milicia gadaudga win. _ manqana unda gavCxrikoT, gadmodi! zuras gverdiT mjdomma ise Caudo jibeSi narkotikiani parki, rom ver SeamCnia. jer manqana Seamowmes, Semdeg mgzavrebi. _ ara, es me ar mqonia. zura gafiTrda, roca misi jibidan celofani amoiRes. _ nikuS, es xom ici.. nikuSam mxrebi aiCeCa. _ SeamowmeT, xom xedav, kaifSia. _ ara, es Cemi ar aris. _ kbilebSi gamoscra. gartyma moindoma da daakaves. Tamilas cxovrebaSi es uzarmazari dartyma iyo. zuras dapatimrebas eloda, magram am formiT ver warmoidgenda. _ Svilo, mogiwyves. verc mamaSenis daRupvam gadagarCina! Tamilam pirveli, rac moifiqra, lalisTvis unda Seetyobinebia. is, vinmes monaxavda mis dasaxsnelad. lalic eloda yovelive amas, magram ara narkotikis CagdebiT. is imTaviTve mixvda, rom zuras iseve gauswordnen, rogorc bevr mis msgavs politikur devnils. bevri ecada, magram mas ar Seaxvedres. jer Tavisi gegmiT amuSavebdnen patimars.marTlac ramdenime kvira mSvidad, yovelgvari zewolis gareSe Tavis sawadels miaRwies. im zomamde miiyvanes, rom roca dedas Seaxvedres, Tamilam gaubedurebuli Svili veRar icno. _ lali, geTayva, monaxe vinme, iqneb vuSveloT. _ Setira Tamilam da Caikeca. skami miawodes. meti araferi uTqvams. roca gonze mov- 262 -

ida, yurebidan dedis ukanaskneli saCuqari moixsna da qaliSvils miawoda. _ aiRe. Zalian Zviri Rirs. iqneb davixsnaT. _ yvelafers gavakeTeb, rom is amaTgan davixsna. _ Sepirda lali. Seecada, sayure ukan daebrunebia, magram Tamilam xeli auqnia. _ me is ukve aRar mWirdeba. misi sacolisTvis vinaxavdi. gaognebulma lalim mSoblebs mimarTa. maT SeZles briliantis sayuris sanacvlod zura cixidan daexsnaT. Tumca zurasa da misi axloblebis tragedia amis Semdeg daiwyo. ramdenime Tvem, romelic neosabWoTa sasaklaoze gaatara, samudamo daRi daasva zuras cxovrebas. erTxans saxlSi wavida dedasTan, magram Tamila male mixvda, ra ubedureba damarTnoda mis Svils. saaTobiT ijda da ras fiqrobda, ar icoda. deda isev lalis daukavSirda. axla mxolod isRa darCenoda qals imedad. zura da lali bavSvobidan megobrobdnen, TanamebrZolebi iyvnen, magram maTSi ukve kidev sxva grZnobac gaCnda. am grZnobaze arasdros usaubriaT. ojaxis Seqmnaze arc fiqrobdnen. arc ecalaT amisTvis, Tumca sjerodaT erTi-isini megobrebi iyvnen da bolomde ase darCebodnen.lalisTvis zuras mdgomareoba tragedia gaxda. is adgils ver poulobda, eZebda gzas, roTac megobars am saSineli senisgan ixsnida. zuras Tavs datexili ubedureba ar iyo erTi adamianis tragedia. es saerTo erovnuli tragedia iyo, romelic ar CamorCeboda Tavisi simZimiT im ubedurebas, rac ukve tendenciuri gaxda qarTuli sazogadoebisTvis. sazRvargareT gadaxvewili qarTveli qalebis mZime xvedrs TandaTan emateboda qveynis SigniT darCenili narkotikiT gabruebuli axalgazrdebis gaubedurebuli cxovreba. didi Zalisxmeva iyo saWiro, rom sayvareli adamiani am senisgan exsna. saWiro iyo, pirvel rigSi zura darwmunebuliyo, rom is avadmyofi iyo da unda emkurnala. _ iqneb, sjobs, sofelSi waxvideT! _ SesTavaza dedam qaliSvils. narkologiur centrSi mravali darigeba miiRes axalgazrdebma da mxolod amis Semdeg gadawyvites raWaSi wasvla. raWis sofelSi axla marto wavidnen zura da lali. cxinvalze gza Caaketili iyo. quTaisze gavliT gadawyvites wasvla. _ roca saqarTvelos rukas warmovidgen, ase mgonia, mas Tavic moaWres da gulic amoacales. _ sevdianad Cailaparaka zuram. misma sityvebma SeakrTo lali. is mixvda, rom am sulierad mZime wuTebSic qveynis beds mZimed ganicdida. daria bebias naxvam gaaxalisa zura. wlebs da Svilis sikvdils mZime daRi daesva misTvis. oTxmoc wels gadacilebul moxucs aRarc mxedveloba hqonda da aRarc janmrTeloba, magram SviliSvilis
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danaxvam Zveleburi simkvircxle daubruna da sixaruliT Seegeba zuras da mis megobars. lalis mSoblebi mudam fiqrobdnen, rom maTi erTaderTi qaliSvilis bedi mWidrod iyo dakavSirebuli zuras bedTan. xeli ar SeuSliaT, erTad wasuliyvnen sofelSi. maT saqmeSi ar ereodnen, radgan swamdaT, maTi bedi ukve gadawyvetili iyo. isini ukve ocdaaTi wlis iyvnen da ufleba hqondaT sakuTar ojaxze ezrunaT. roca es gadawyvetileba unda mieRoT, erTbaSad ramdenime ubedureba daatydaT Tavs. ideebi, rasac mravali weli Sewires, damarcxda. gaurkvevel viTarebaSi daiRupa adamiani, visic maT sjerodaT. afxazeTSi dakarga mama, samaCabloSi Sexvda ukve sxva banakSi gadasul megobars. patimrobaSi gatarebulma ramdenime Tvem fsiqikurad Searyia misi janmrTeloba. amave dros misi bedi gaiziara misma mravalma Tanamoazrem. TiTqos mizanmimarTulad xdeboda am saSineli senis Tavze moxveva. qveyanaSi mosuliyo raRac uxeSi Zala. iqneb mTavrobas, romelic aTeuli wlebi qveyanas marTavda, mudam hyavda raRac Zala sadRac farulad, saTadarigod, saWiroebis dros Semonaxuli. ar minda, Sevexo mxedrionelebs. iqac iyvnen, samSoblos keTildReobisTvis rom ucemdaT guli. Tumca iseTebic iyvnen, vinc saZarcvad gainawila gzebi, Tanamdebobebi da yvelaferi.
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mTeli kvira daexetebodnen soflis garSemo zura da lali. dilidan gasulebi gvian brundebodnen. zura drodadro eqimis gamoweril wamlebs iRebda. xSirad uWirda, magram cdilobda, rogorme gadaetana TiToeuli dRe. es iyo wamebiT gatarebuli TiToeuli saaTi. Tavis Tavze arasdros saubrobda. arc lali cdilobda, raime rCeva mieca. misi Tavmoyvareobis Selaxva ar surda. erTxel, roca Zalian Sewuxda, zuram lali SeaCera da sTxova, iqve qvebze Camomsxdariyvnen. _ aqve CamovsxdeT, aqedan xelisguliviT sCans yvelaferi. _ uTqmelad dajda lali. zurac mis gverdiT mokalaTda. erTxans mdumared isxdnen. arc erTi arafers ambobda. TiTqos amqveyniuri yvelaferi daaviwydaT. _ albaT aRaraferi miSvelis lali. - sevdianad Tqva vaJma bolos. _ mTeli ori kviraa, zeviT-qveviT damatareb. ar mogbezrda? lalim gakvirebiT da Tan sayveduriT Sexeda. misma sityvebma gaabraza. _ rogor fiqrob, mombezrda? me risTvis mekiTxebi. es xom ici, rom ar mombezrdeba. Zlivs marto davrCiT. _ mTavari is ki ar aris, ra vici, mTavaria, SenTvis ra ajobebs. dRes, xval, zeg, Semdeg ra iqneba? SeZleb CemTan erTad gadaitano es gasaWiri? _ dRes pirvelad alaparakda zura Tavis ubedurebaze.
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lalim misi xeli aiRo da gulSi Caikra. didxans fiqrobda, ra eTqva misTvis, radgan icoda, misi sityva axla SesaZloa, gadamwyveti yofiliyo. _ ver mogatyueb, rom CemTvis advilia Seni mdgomareobis yureba. isic vici, rom es ar iqneba xanmokle. Tumca isic cxadia, rom Cveni bedi ukve gansazRvrulia da Seni cxovreba Cemi cxovreba gaxda. amas ver grZnob? _ magram maqvs moraluri ufleba, ase iyos? an Tu ginaxavs vinme narkomani gaTavisuflebuliyos am senisgan _ unda SeZlo, radgan dedaSens marto Sen hyavxar, an me ras mipireb? _ zura mxrebze moexvia megobars. didxans iyo ase garindebuli. Semdeg Sublze akoca da TiTqos Tavis Tavs eubnebao, Cailaparaka: _ samaCabloSi brZolebis dros dedaCemis naTesavs Sevxvdi. man erTi winadadebiT gamacno Cemi ucnobi axloblebi, magram es sityvebi imaze metia, vidre mTeli erTad gatarebuli wlebi. _ ra iyo is sityvebi? - ikiTxa lalim, radgan pauza didi iyo. _ Sens ZarRvebSi mTeli kavkasiis xalxebis sisxlia da ecade maT winaaRmdeg ar ibrZoloo. Semdeg daamata, legendasaviT darCa CvenSi Seni bebiisa da babuis siyvarulio. sxva araferi uTqvams. misi Tqma SemdegisTvis Semoinaxa, Semdegi ki aRar dadga. Cemi gacilebisas avtomatiT dacxriles. sul erTia, vin esrola, osma Tu rusma? es tragediaa CvenTvis, magram ufro didi tragedia maSinaa, roca qarTveli qarTvels hklavs. gana is ufro damnaSavea, afxazeTSi rom mama momikles, an cxinvalSi ucnobi biZa? an me suli samudamod rom damicxriles? ar vici, moverevi Tu ara am sens. Zalian mindoda, Sen CemiT geamaya da me-SeniT. vici, amis Semdeg me SenTvis sircxvili viqnebi, amitom minda Tavs uSvelo, vidre droa. _ gaCumdi. me uSenod arafers warmovadgen. me mjera, SeZleb, aucileblad SeZleb. - sityvebi veRar moZebna. zuras TvalebSi cremlebi gabrwyinda. wamodgnen. TavdaRmarTs dauyvnen. soflis TavSi mdgar kviracxovelTan Sedgnen. pirjvari gadaiweres. _ modi, SevideT, _ sTxova zuram. eklesiis kari Ria iyo. didi, daJanguli boqlomi lursmanze ekida. Sig Sevidnen, RvTismSoblis xatTan Sedgnen da locva daiwyes, Semdeg iqve skamze Camosxdnen. zura cotaTi damSvidda. eklesiaSi ucnobi kaci Semovida. karTan Sedga. pirjvari gadaiwera da locva daiwyo. gvian SeamCnia kuTxeSi mjdomi wyvili. gabruneba scada. uceb lali wamodga, ucnobTan mivida da eklesiaSi Semosvla sTxova. Sua xnis mamakaci ukan dabrunda. orives miesalma. _ am soflidan ar unda iyo. _ uTxra lalim.
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_ mezobeli soflidan var. saqoneli damekarga da daveZeb. _ kidev daapira gareT gasvla, rom lalim isev SeaCera da moulodnelad ucnobs sTxova: _ dagvwere jvari! ucnobi daibna. Semdeg gaiRima alalad, soflis gulubryvilo mamakacebs rom sCveviaT xolme. _ me? me xom mwyemsi var. _ amitom minda, rom dagvwero jvari. _ dalocvilebi iyaviT Svilebo. yvelaferi kargi Tqvens cxovrebaSi yofiliyos. _ pirjvari gadawera da wyvilis momavali ufals Seavedra. roca ucnobma isini datova, gaocebuli zura lalis miubrunda. _ rogor? _ gaCumdi, Cven ukve jvardawerilebi varT. bebos vaxaroT... im ucnobis saxeli mainc gvekiTxa. lali gareT gavarda, magram ucnobi aRar sCanda. nela dauyvnen TavdaRmarTs. axla lali laparakobda. _ zura, mismine, Cveni jvriswera im lamazi legendis gagrZelebaa, Seni ucnobi bebiis da babuis siyvaruliT rom daiwyo. ufro naklebi lamazi siyvaruli ar hqoniaT Sens dedas da mamas. Cemma mSoblebmac aseTive siyvaruliT Seqmnes upretenzio ojaxi. yvelaze Rirebuli siyvaruli maSin aris, roca igi did mwuxarebaSi ibadeba. CemTvis sul erTia, Sen SeZleb am senis daZlevas, Tu ara, minda Cveni siyvaruli im legendis gagrZeleba iyos. iqneba am wminda adgilze, im wminda mwyemsis dalocva didi siyvarulis dalocvaa, romelsac mudam vatarebdiT da arasdros gagvimxelia. nu geSinia, erTad davamarcxebT Sens sens. _ ase rom ar moxdes? _ Sen Zlieri xar. gaivlis dro, gaixseneb am wuTebs, yvelaze lamazs da mSveniers. aseTi wuTebi sxva aRar iqneba. bevri warsulSi Caikargeba, magram dRevandeli dRe arasdros dagvaviwydeba. siyvaruli xSirad ukeTes pirovnebad gvaqcevs xolme. iqneba gausaZlisi dReebic, magram sakuTari Tavi unda davarwmunoT, rom win bednieri wuTebic iqneba. zuram xeli CasWida lalis. _ mxolod amas gTxov. nu Semibraleb. sibralulze agebuli siyvaruli cudi grZnobaa. ojaxi ki didi pasuxismgebloba. netav Tu SevZleb mis tarebas. mTavari is ki ar aris, sxvam ra damiSava, mTavaria, me ra davuSave Cems Tavs. erTi kvira kidev darCnen sofelSi. daria bebiam gaixara, maTi bednierebiT, magram misTvis gaugebari darCa zuras sulieri travma. ise wavida amqveynidan, ra sWirda mis SviliSvils, ver gaigo. axalgazrdebs gamoTxovebisas uTxra mxolod.
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_ bevrs nu ifiqrebT, rac moxda. mTavroba midis da modis, xalxi ki rCeba. Tqvenc naxavT Tqvens adgils, Tundac pataras. Semdeg lali gulSi Caikra da anderZiviT uCurCula: _ gemudarebi, bevrs nu ifiqreb, Svili gaaCine, is Tu gadaarCens Cvens kuTxes. yvelaze didi, rac davaSave, erTi Svilis amara darCenaa. arc Cemma Svilma isurva metis gaCena. am mSvenier sofels ramdenime moxuci SemovrCiT. isinic male wavalT da mere ra iqneba? am mTis iqiT sazRvaria, mas dacva unda. Tu es sofeli daicala, sxva tomis xalxi CamoeTeslebian. im qedis iqidan gadmovlen da dasaxldebian. gava dro da momravldebian, ityvian, Cveni miwaao. moxucs aRar gaucilebia qal-vaJi. samanqano gzamde Casvla aRar SeeZlo. _ Svilo, zura, gaiRime, Seni danaRvlianebuli saxe ar momwons. didxans idga WiSkarTan moxuci da im adgils gascqeroda, sadac misi SviliSvili da axali rZali miefarnen. _ albaT me veRar moveswrebi maT naxvas. _ Cailaparaka da ukan mibrunda.
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variCkam bevri iZaxa, kapitalizmi ar minda, socializmi sjobiao, amitomac cdilobda, saberZneTSi wasul Svilebs ar gahyoloda. martom icxovra maT gareSe ramdenime weliwadi. isini ukan dabrunebas aRar fiqrobdnen. cxovrebis done isev gausaZlisi iyo. Svilebis gamogzavnil meorad tansacmels mezoblebTan erTad inawilebda, xolo dolarebs saWiroebisamebr xarjavda. centralri univermaRic daixura da gadawyvita, masac daetovebina is sadarbazo, sadac mravali weli gaatara, sadac mezoblebi didi sixaruliTa da erTi tkiviliT cxovrobdnen, sadac yvelam yvelaferi icoda erTmaneTis Sesaxeb. misTvis es mZime xvedri iyo, magram sxva gamosavali ar arsebobda da isic gahyva sazRvargareT mimaval adamianTa qaravans. mis binaSi afxazeTidan devnili bebia da SviliSvili Caasaxles. gogona, Tormeti wlis iyo, misma mSoblebma afxazeTis oms ver daaRwia Tavi. bebiasTvis es gogona naperwkaliviT darCa. maRali aRnagobis Suaxans kargad gadacilebuli qals mkacri gamometyveleba hqonda. man yvelaferi dakarga: Svilebi, sacxovrebeli, mravali wlis SenaZeni. dakarga meuRlis saflavi da rac mTavaria, usaflaod datovebuli Svili da rZali. pirvelad axal mezoblebTan kontaqtSi ver Sevida, TiTqos ar endoboda maT, magram Semdeg, roca maT saWiro nivTebi SesTavazes, odnav moexsna daZabuloba. afxazeTidan mxolod surTebis wamoReba moeswro. erTaderTi nivTieri mtkicebuleba imisa, rom odesRac iq bednierad cxovrobdnen. masTan Sesul mezoblebs suraTebs aCvenebda da Tan tiroda.
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_ es Cemi saxlia. _ ambobda qali da orsarTulian farTo aivnebiT damSvenebuli binis gamosaxulebas stumars awvdida. _ es Cemi vaJiSvili da rZalia. mezoblebi afxazebi myavdnen. ar datovebdnen, daasaflavebdnen. Cven erTad megobrulad vcxovrobdiT. _ Semdeg isev iwyebda Tavisi ubedurebis Txrobas. _ ara, afxazebi ise sastikad ar iqceodnen. iq sxvebi iyvnen ufro sastikebi. RmerTo, amas vin warmoidgenda. ase daundoblad Tu gagviswordebodnen. qali yvelas ekiTxeboda, ra warmoSobis iyo. erTxel xeldamSvenebuli lamara axal mezobels estumra. devnilma salomem madloba gadauxada da skami SesTavaza. Semdeg kidev gadmoiRo suraTebi, ramdenjer nanaxi axloblebi da bina aCvena. _ gavige, Turme kazakebi Sesaxlebulan Cems binaSi. afxazebi mainc yofiliyvnen, Sen qarTveli xar? _ SeekiTxa lamaras. _ ara, me somexi var qalbatono salome! _ somexi? _ mkacrad Cailaparaka qalma. uceb wamoxta. lamaras motanili nivTebi akrifa da xelSi SeaCeCa mezobels. _ gTxov, ukan waiRe. me somxebis araferi minda. isini pirvelebi SemoiWrnen da gaZarcves Cemi bina. arasdros damaviwydeba maTgan moyenebuli tkivili. lamara daibna _ me alalad momitania. ra SuaSi var. ager hkiTxe mezoblebs, yvelasTvis kargi gamikeTebia. afxazeTSi aravis Cemians ar ucxovria, mapatie, Tu guli gatkine. _ man ukanmouxedavad datova iqauroba. _ ar minda Tqveni araferi. pirvelad swored Seni jiSis xalxi SemoiWra da rac moewonaT, yvelaferi waiRes. maSin afxazis saxlSi viyavi damaluli. _ moTqvamda qali. gogona skolaSi miiyvana. imdenad iyo bebia SeSinebuli, rom skolaSi TviTon mihyavda da saRamos skolis WiSkarTan elodeboda. roca gaigo, rom vasiko afxazeTSi daiRupa, TamilasTan yvelaze axlo urTierToba daiwyo. dro gadioda. ekonomikuri mdgomareoba ufro mZimdeboda. sadarbazoSi mcxovreblebi TandaTan icvlebodnen. zeinabisa da misi disSvilis wasvlis Semdeg svanebi da aWarlebi Camosaxldnen. frangi qalis erToTaxiani bina lamaras daxmarebiT misma Zmam SeiZina. vitalis binas erTxans vasiko patronobda, Tumca mis Semdeg aRaravis Seuwuxebia Tavi. am binis arseboba yvelas daaviwyda. ucvleli iyo ebraeli marias da saberZneTSi gadaxvewili olias qmar-Svilis cxovreba. zaurma smas mouxSira. moxuci dedamisi, xan sofelSi gaiqceoda da waiyvanda SviliSvilebs da xan raionSi ebrZoda cxovrebas. laSa dedis gamogzavnil amanaTebs eloda, meorad tansacmels, rac ar sWirdeboda mezoblebs urigebda. coli qmars swerda, Tu aRar dalev, Senc wagiyvan. aq samuSao bevriao.
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olias ar gasWirvebia Sroma. Sinamosamsaxureobas male moergo. marTalia, mTeli weli dasWirda, rom stabiluri adgili eSova. saqarTvelodan wamosuli berZenis ojaxSi cxovrobda. isinic dRiur samuSaoze muSaobdnen. arc bina hqondaT. naTesavebi dRiur ucxo piris SemoSvebas ar anebebdnen. Semodgomaze xilis krefis dros viRacam aiyvana. qarTveli kacebi da qalebi erT adgilze ikribebodnen, rom vinmes samuSaod waeyvanaT. erTxel berZenma kacma xeljoxiT Camoiara da muStris TvaliT sicxeSi miwaze dayrili adamianebi ise SeaTvaliera, rogorc gasayidad gamoyvanili saqoneli. Semdeg uxmaurod xeljoxi gaiSvira, janmrTeli da axalgazrda adamianebi amoarCia. maT Soris moxvda oliac. saxlSi erTi wlis Semdeg miiRes amanaTi da mcire fuli. laSa amanaTs eca, yvelaferi Zirs dayara da werilis Zebna daiwyo. mas pirvel rigSi dedis dawerili werili undoda, enaxa. amis Semdeg regularulad gzavnida amanaTs olia. _ Tu RmerTi gwams, nu loTob da aucileblad wagiyvan. _ emudareboda qmars saberZneTSi gadaxvewili olia. _ sad mieTreoda? mojamagiris adgils aq ver iSovida? am ZonZebis gamosagzavnad iq wavidoda qali? Svilebs ar hyofnidaT olias gamogzavnili fuli, magram mTavari is iyo, rom maT deda akldaT. laSa izrdeboda, moTxovnilebac ezrdeboda. dro gadioda da bavSvebis saxeze TandaTan Cndeboda sioblis, mudam molodinis da SiSis kvali. autaneli pirobebis fonze quCa bavSvebs iTrevda. bavSvebi iparavdnen yvelafers, risi gayidvac SeeZloT. daZrwodnen sardafebSi, eleqtroboZebidan sadinarebs xsnidnen. gahqondaT ojaxebidan spilenZisa da aluminis nawarmi, aterorebdnen patara biznesiT dasaqmebul adamianebs. qurdoba prestiJulic ki gaxda. _ saqmeze gavediT. _ ityodnen da sjerodaT, es iyo misaRebic da aucilebelic. mas Semdeg, rac mTavrobam jarTis Segrovebis nebarTva gadawyvita, bavSvebis `saqmeze gasvla~ ufro gafarTovda. xsnidnen rkinis Robeebs, saflavis karvebs, manqanidan xsnidnen saTadarigo nawilebs, magnitofonebs da sxva. es sagmiro saqmec gaxda mozardebisTvis.
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lalis dedam SeZlo muzeumSi gamoTavisuflebul adgilze qaliSvilis mowyoba. ledisTvis muzeumi meore ojaxi iyo, sadac TiToeuli nivTi misTvis sayvareli da Zvirfasi gaxldaT. am siyvaruliT aRzarda qaliSvili. maTi sasaubro Tema samSoblos warsuli, awmyo da momavali iyo. es Tviseba mas didi xnis win hqonda miRebuli. nodari institutSi leqciebs hkiTxulobda. maTi xelfasi mwiri iyo, Tumca amaze arasdros wuwunebdnen.
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bavSvobidan maT ojaxSi Sezrdili zura yovelTvis misaRebi iyo maTTvis. bolo wlebSi zuras Tavs datexilma ubedurebam ver Secvala mis mimarT damokidebuleba. ar gauweviaT qaliSvilisTvis winaaRmdegoba, emegobra masTan bolomde. maTTvis zura dabadebidanve Svilad aRiqmeboda. verc siZis ampluaSi yofnam gafanta misdami dedaSviluri grZnoba. Sorsmxedveli nodarisTvis kargad iyo moazrebuli, rom am senis winaaRmdeg brZola xangrZlivi iqneboda. mTavari iyo, ar daRliliyvnen, xeli ar CaeqniaT. axal cxovrebas axali codna sWirdeboda. kompiuterisa da ucxo enebis codna saWiro gaxda, amitom zuras misi aTvisebis aucilebloba SesTavazes. ucxo enebis specialistebi saxlSi hyavdaT lalisa da ledis saxiT. kompiuteris Seswavla Semswavlel kursebze daiwyo. kompiuteri misTvis sasicocxlod aucilebeli gaxda. informacia, romelsac internetis meSveobiT iRebda, dasawyisi gaxda misi miZinebuli niWis gaRviZebisaTvis. saaTobiT ijda da internetis labirinTSi daseirnobda. misTvis sul erTi iyo, ra sferos Seexeboda igi. roca ojaxi iZinebda, aq hklavda im sulis tkivilsac, rasac misi avadmyofoba erqva. amasTan erTad saWiro iyo didi Zalisxmeva, rogorme Serkineboda aSlil fsiqikas. magram umetes SemTxvevaSi gausaZlisi iyo misi yoveli dRe. am dros Zmakacebs miakiTxavda xolme. maTTan rCebda. es Zalian mtkivneuli iyo ojaxisTvis. lalisTvis zuras gadarCenis survili didi iyo, TiTqmis savaldebulo. qalis nebisyofa gmirobis tolfasi gaxda., rac yvelas ar SeeZlo. lalis saxeze gaCenili SiSi, zurasTvis autaneli xdeboda. am dros sakuTari Tavi ezizReboda, rcxvenoda im adamianebis, vinc masze zrunavda. xSirad lalisTan erTad raionSi dedasTan Cadioda. Tamila ukanasknel kapikebs maT aZlevda. zura fiqrobda, rom mis garSemo adamianebi daRala, rom man amowura ukanaskneli imedi. saWiro gaxda iseTi nabijis gadadgma, rom isini gaeTavisuflebina. odesRac xom yvelaferi mTavrdeba. ra azri hqonda sicocxles, roca amden adamians awvalebda. zura xedavda, rom lali am bolo kvireebSi mousvenrobda. gulis friali da Tavbrusxveva dasCemda. im dRes saxlidan adre gavida ise, rom zurasTvis araferi uTqvams. samsaxurSi ar wasula, poliklinikas miakiTxa. eqimma gasinja da uTxra, fexmZimed xaro. lalis surda, es ambavi zurasTvis exarebina. qmari saxlSi ar daxvda. didxans eloda, is ki igvianebda. sawol oTaxSi Sevida, saferflis qveS dakecili qaRaldi ipova, SiSiT aiRo da gaxsna. skamze Camojda, radgan igrZno, rom iq sasiamovno araferi ewereboda. `lali, Zvirfaso! didi fiqri ar damWirvebia, momewera SenTvis. weliwadia, rac erTad varT, Tumca yovelTvis mjeroda, rom dabadebidanve erTad viyaviT., megona, davZlevdi, amitom gavriske SenTan mosvla. amis
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gakeTeba marto CemTvis ki ara, SenTvis ufro mindoda. xom xedav, ver SevZeli. Cemsa da Sens Soris uxilavi fardaa Camofarebuli. me saubedurod, ver SevZeli Sens gverdiT Tavis damkvidreba. gausaZlisia Cemi tanjva, magram is grZnoba ufro mtanjvelia, rom Sen Cems gverdiT xar ubeduri. vici, metyi, me Sens gverdiT mudam bednieri viyavio. ar xar marTali. Seni sevdiani, SeSinebuli da amave dros mzrunveli gamoxedvis iqiT dgas CemiT gaubedurebuli qali, romelmac ver miiRo is, razec ocnebobda. minda, droebiT cal-calke viyoT. Tu SevZeli da vajobe Cems Tavs, raSic eWvi mepareba, davbrundebi da Tu ver SevZeli, albaT es Cems Zalebs aRemateboda. `Seni zura~ _ `Seni zura~, didi SeRavaTia - Cailaparaka qalma. erTxans garindebuli ijda. Semdeg telefoni aiRo da ramdenime megobars daureka. arsad ar aRmoCnda. Semdeg Tamilas gadaureka, ambavi gamohkiTxa, Tumca Tavi Seikava misTvis yvelaferi eTqva. _ zura rogor aris? _ mudam SiSiT hkiTxulobda Svilis ambavs Tamila. _ kargad! _ upasuxa lalim. kidev raRac ikiTxa da telefoni gaTiSa. _ ra vqna, RmerTo? _ mxolod es amoioxra. saxlidan gamosuli zura Sedga. ar icoda, sad wasuliyo. werili, romelic sayvarel adamians dautova, sircxviliviT avsebda. erTi ki ifiqra, dabrunebuliyo da gaenadgurebina igi, magram tkivili, romelic mis sxeulSi SeWriliyo, gonebas ar emorCileboda. raRac azrebi hkioda mis sxulSi da gzis gagrZelebas ubrZanebda. mis gulSi ori Zlieri Zala ibrZoda, siyvaruli da avbediTi avadmyofoba. lalis bina axlos iyo isnis metrosTan. mopirdapire mxares bazroba iyo. xalxi ijda trotuarebze, manqanis gasaCerebel adgilze, metros SesasvlelebTan. saxlidan gamoetanaT yvelaferi, rac dRes aRar sWirdebodaT. TeTreuli, saojaxo nivTebi, samkaulebi, qvabebi, TefSebi, suraTebi _ ras ar naxavdi bazrobaze. Tumca radgan xalxs fuli ar hqonda, myidvelic arsad Canda. zura bazrobaze ise angariSmiucemlad aRmoCnda, rom gekiTxaT, ver getyodaT, ratom movida aq. iqneb masSi Sinaganad isev ibrZoda ori Zlieri Zala, an daRla undoda am uTavbolo xetialSi, an Tavisze ubedur adamianebs daeZebda am gawamebul saxeebSi, romlebic mis garSemo daabijebdnen. daRlili biWebis cqeriT daiRala. gadawyvita, bazridan gasuliyo. uceb viRacis xma moesma: _ zura, biWo, moicade! zura SeCerda. Setrialda. nacnobi eZaxda, romelic ramdenime biWTan erTad idga. is maT gamoeyo da zuras miuaxlovda.
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_ sad daikarge zura Zmao, aRarsad sCanxar. _ ver viyavi kargad. _ mere? aq ar varT, biWo? ra bazaria? _ ara, magis gamo ara. _ axla ar miTxra... isini fuls iTxoven. bolo partiidan rom mogeci. _ mogitan, cota macale, muSaobas viwyeb. . . _ rodis Zmao. ar ginda bazari. ager modian... gverdiT mivdgeT isini agixsnian. erTnairi gagebis adamianebi male uaxlovdebian erTmaneTs. isini wamlis Sovnis saWiroebam daakavSira, TiTqos megobroben, magram garkveuli mkacri valdebulebebi hqondaT, rac aucileblad unda SeesrulebinaT. es adamianebi yvela ubedurebis msxverplic iyvnen da Tan monawilenic. Cveulebrivi misalmebis Semdeg erTma pirdapir uTxra: _ zura, Zmao! xeli gagimarTeT, vali unda gadaixado, winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi, cudad iqneba saqme. zuras feri ecvala, Tanxa didi ar iyo, magram isic kmaroda. roca ar gaqvs, cotac bevria. mamis saaTs daxeda. _ iciT, gadamxdeli var, cota madroveT! Semdeg isev daxeda saaTs da gaagrZela: - Tu ar gjeraT, ai, es saaTi. mas mamaCemi mTeli sicocxle atarebda. is Cems sicocxleze Zvirfasia, gitovebT. ar gayidoT, valis dabrunebisas ukan damibrunebT! ymawvilebi SekrTnen. icodnen, mas afxazeTSi daeRupa mama. erTma mainc aiRo. SeaTvaliera. _ vici SenTvis aris Rirebuli, Torem ubralo saaTia. aiRe, sad vataroT Cven? Sens sindisze iyos. zuras maTgan ganTavisufleba undoda. wasvla daapira. _ cudad gamoiyurebi, aiRe, mogeSveba. - Tavisi sigara miawoda ladom. zuram swrafad moqaCa. sasiamovno siTxis msgavsi CaeRvara sxeulSi. _ iqneb, magan ikisros? ikiTxa erTma da danarCenebs gadaxeda. _ movelaparakoT! _ Zmakac, magis Sovna advilia, magram saxifaTo. Sen fuli ara gaqvs, vxedav qurdobac ar SegiZlia, erT saqmes SemogTavazebT da wilSic gagiyvanT. wili kargad mogiwevs. zuras saxeze usiamovno molodini gaCnda, magram ar SeimCnia. gzidan gadauxvies. _ zugdidSi unda waxvide. fuls gagatanT. miniSnebul misamarTze mixval da am Tanxis saqonels Camoitan. inteligentis Sexeduleba gaqvs, eWvs veravin miitans. Tu gawyobs, xval Segvxvdi. matarebliT waxvalT. sityvebs mokled, magram mkacrad ambobda. es ufro brZaneba iyo, vidre Txovna. am sityvebis mosmenisas gulidan sisxlis wveTebi Jonavda.
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_ `oRond wamlis realizacia ar damavalon!~ gaifiqra zuram. _ kargi dagikavSirdebiT. yvelas xeli CamoarTva da moSorda. pirvelad Tavis cxovrebaSi dilemis winaSe dadga. unda aerCia lali an narkotiki. gabruebuli midioda da verc grZnobda, sad midioda. goneba dabinduli hqonda. weRan moweulma naxevarma sigaram cota Sveba mogvara, Tumca icoda, es didxans ar gagrZeldeboda. zuram icoda simSvide, romelic mas daeufla, male damTavrdeboda, saSineli sulieri aforiaqeba daeufla. es saSineli tkivili misTvis nacnobi iyo. am dros adamiani eSmaksac miyidda suls. raRac jojoxeTuri Zala mis sxeulSi gabatonebuliyo da Tavis surviliT daafarfatebda ukidegano samyaroSi, sadac fiqrobda, rom yvelaferi misi iyo. daeZebda iseT pirovnebas, romelTan erTadac warmosaxvaSi Tavis mier Seqmnil samyaroSi gainavardebda, sadac yvelgan xelSeuxebeli samefo iyo da ar arsebobda arc erTi qveSevrdomi. mosaRamovda, roca miadga Tavis sulier Zmas narkotikiT gabruebuli. ise mivida mis saxlamde, verc mixvda. mTvareuliviT mosiarules cxoveluri instiqti amoZravebda. maspinZelma kari gauRo. lados blomad mieRo TeTri sawamlavi da taxtze migdebuliyo. bolSi, sibinZureSi da sazizRar areul oTaxSi skamze mosxletiT daeSva zura. magidaze eyara sxvadasxva dros daclili da gadapirqvavebuli boTlebi, wignis naglejebi, saWmlis narCenebi, sigaris namwvavebi. erT boTlSi raRac siTxe mosCanda, ar gausinjavs, ise miitana tuCebTan da gadahkra. Semdeg wamodga. im taxtTan mivida, sadac lado iwva, gverdiT miuwva da Rrma Zils mieca. masSi erTbaSad gaqra SekiTxva, romelic am ramdenime saaTis win Tavis Tavs dausva: lali an narkotiki. am oridan arCevani daviwyebis burusSi gadna. am wuTSi daleulma siTxem mTlianad waSala yvela saRi grZnoba. is samyaroc gaqra, sadac Tavis Tavi mefed warmoedgina. diliT gaRviZebisTanave wamodga. lado amdgariyo da magidasTan mdgar skamze ijda. im siTxes eZebda, romelic wuxel boTlSi datova. yvela boTli SeanjRria. _ damilevia wuxel. uxalisod Cailaparaka. gamoRviZebuli zura jer ver gaerkva, sad iyo. Semdeg yvelaferi dalagda, yvelaferi moagonda mxolod ver mixvda, rogor moxvda am saxlSi ladosTan. masac daleva mounda, an moweva, an ufro uaresi ram... _ araferi darCa? ikiTxa da uazrod mjdom lados Sexeda. _ rodis moxvedi? _ ar maxsovs. kidev kargi, rom movedi. _ cudad xar? ikiTxa ladom. _ rogor ggonia? kargad viqnebi? _ gaxsovs guSindeli SemoTavazeba? zuram nel-nela aRidgina, vin ras sTavazobda.
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_ fuli ara gaqvs. vici, male arc geqneba _ meqneba. muSaobas daviwyeb. _ Seni samuSao problemas ver mogigvarebs. zuram Tavi Caqindra. didxans iyo ase garindebuli. _ wadi. uTxari maT, aq moitanon fuli da Tan damakvalianon. marTali xar, fuli ara maqvs, qurdobac ar SemiZlia. lado wamodga, raRacis Zebna daiwyo, Semdeg sigara aiRo, Tambaqo gamoyara da Sig fxvnili Cayara. jer TviTon gaabola. Sveba igrZno Semdeg zuras miawoda. ecade, cota mowio, iq sadac midixar, kaifSi ar unda iyo. male davbrundebi! lado wamodga da gareT gavida. da adamianma, romelic maRali idealebisaTvis ibrZoda, romelisTvisac erovnuli suliskveTeba iyo mTavari, gadadga sabediswero nabiji. wamalze damokidebul axalgazrdas qurdoba ar SeeZlo. arc saxlSi hqonda raime Rirebuli, rom gaeyida da narkotikisTvis fuli eSova. marTlac, riTi iyo imaTze ukeTesi, visac riskis fasad SemohqondaT saSineli sawamlavi. _ mTavaria, ar SeSinde! amSvidebda sakuTar Tavs lados wasvlis Semdeg da isev taxtze miegdo. karga xani iwva gaunZrevlad. taxti magidisgan samiode nabijiT iyo daSorebuli. magidas erTi fexi mokle hqonda, amitom patrons wigni Seuyenebia. ver mixvda, ratom dainteresda am areul saxlSi am wigniT. wigni gamoaZro da magida ayiravda. masze dawyobilma WuWyianma WurWelma bzriali daiwyo. zuram xeli SeaSvela da waqcevas gadaurCa. wigns daxeda. ,,saqarTvelos istoria 1992w. SeaTvaliera. didxans eWira xelSi. aRar icoda, isev magidis fexis qveS Seedo, Tu misTvis sufTa adgili moenaxa. simwris oflma daasxa. imasac ver mixvda, magidis qveS Sedebuli uaxloes `saqarTvelos istorias dardobda Tu Tavis beds, Tu orives erTad. lado adre dabrunda. mas erTi mamakaci da erTi axalgazrda gogona axlda. civad miesalmnen zuras. arc zuras exateboda isini gulze, mxolod is gaukvirda, gogona ratom moiyvanes. _ gadawyvite? es SeekiTxa mxolod. zuram civad daukra Tavi. _ maSin kargad daimaxsovre! _ mamakaci skamze Camojda. - pirveli: Cven erTmaneTs ar vicnobT. Sen ageb pasuxs maSinac ki, Tu gzaSi raime usiamovno SegemTxveva. ai, es zurgCanTa. Tu gagsinjaven, aq verafers naxaven, Zexvi da puria. iqidan, roca saqonels wamoiReb, CanTa Sens Soriaxlos dade. es gogona Jurnalistia televiziidan. fotoaparati moaqvs. Sen operatori xar. warmatebas gisurveb! aq xuTi aTasi maneTia, ecade ar Cavarde! sxapasxupiT, TiTqos dazepirebuli aqvso, ise daamTavra Tavisi saTqmeli. im wuTSive iqauroba datova. ladoc mas gahyva.
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zuram Rrmad amoisunTqa da gogonas Sexeda. _ dajeqi! skami SesTavaza. quCaSi gavidnen. vagzlisaken mimaval samarSuto mikroavtobuss daelodnen. zuram pirjvari gadaiwera, Sedga, erTi wuTiT ukan dabruneba mounda. win wasul megzurs gaxeda, romelic Tavdajerebuli, amayad miabijebda mxarze fotoaparatgadakidebuli da moswavlesaviT ukan gahyva. yvela dasawyiss dasasrulic aqvs da es avbediTi mogzauroba `warmatebiT~ dasrulda. maT ise moiares zugdidi, rom maTiT aravin dainteresebula. _ RmerTo, miSvele! kidev gadaiwera pirjvari ukan dabrunebulma zuram. Rrmad amoisunTqa da TbilisSi daxvedril Tanamosaqmeebs narkotikiani CanTa gadasca. _ kargad Seasrule davaleba. arc fuli dagWirda da surnelovani mosawevic sakmaod gergeba. xval lados xeliT wils gamogigzavniT.
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pirveli kiTxva, rac zuras zugdididan dabrunebis Semdeg gauCnda, is iyo, Tu sad wasuliyo Tavisi TeTri sawamlaviT. werili, romelic lalisTan datova, masTan dabrunebis saSualebas ar aZlevda. dedasTan raionSi ver wavidoda, ver uZlebda misi SiSiT mocqeral Tvalebs. rCeboda erTi gza _ vinme Tavisi msgavsi epova da iq Seefarebina Tavi. im dros lado yvelaze kargi varianti iyo. mas erToTaxiani bina hqonda. mSoblebi gaSorebulebi iyvnen. mamam sxva ojaxi Seqmna, xolo deda ramdenime welia, espaneTSi gahyva SeZlebul ojaxs ZiZad. lados binaSi ikribebodnen narkomanebi, loTebi, jibgirebi, quCis biWebi da aTasi garewari. swored aseT binaSi dasaxlebis gadawyvetileba miiRo zuram. gogona, romelic zugdidSi gahyva, aqac xSiri stumari iyo. cotaTi moawesrigebda xolme iqaurobas, sigaretis namwvavebisgan gaaTavisuflebda da cariel boTlebs gaitanda binidan. amjeradac ase moxda. _ mTavari WuWyi gavitane! _ Tqva gogonam da bina datova. _ netav, ra rols TamaSobs es gogo am ubedurebaSi?_TavisTavs SeekiTxa zura. gogonas ucnaurad mkacri saxe hqonda. yvelafers robotiviT asrulebda. TiTqos viRaca pultiT marTavda. bevrs ar saubrobda, cota rames ityoda, mokle pasuxebs iZleoda. misi nacrisferi Tvalebi saocrad gulgrilad icqirebodnen. ifiqrebdi, mTeli qveynis saqme mas abaria, an meored movida amqveynado. SekiTxva zuram ladosac gaumeora. lado karga nasvami iyo, erTi orad eCveneboda. zuras naTqvamze mainc gamofxizlda, mkacrad Sexeda, TiTi dauqnia da Caisisina. _ ar ginda, biWo SekiTxvebi. zedmetma codnam SeiZleba ziani
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mogitanos. _ TiTiT raRac moxaza papirosiT gaJRenTil haerSi da gaabola. _ me ar vici, vin aris. arc mainteresebs. _ Wiqa bolomde dacala, pirqve gadaayirava da magidaze dado. _ dRes meyofa. Sen Tu ginda, dalie ar mogeridos! zurasa da lados Soris amis Semdeg gogonaze SekiTxva aRar dasmula. erTic da meorec kargad xvdeboda, es TiTqos uwyinari gogona raRac did saidumlos malavda. amis Semdeg, sul erTi gaxda, vin iyo es arseba, narkorealizatori, Tu policiis agenti. biWebma wamlis sakmaod didi doza miiRes, saocrad mSvenier samyaroSi gaqroldnen, sadac ver xedavdnen sakuTar saxes. zebunebrivi Zala daatarebdaT usasrulobaSi, sadac yvelaferi mSvenieri iyo maT warmosaxvaSi. maT ar surdaT, gaqceodnen am jadosnur gaseirnebas. ar icodnen, rodis damTavrdeboda es yvelaferi da rodis Seejaxebodnen sinamdviles. isini tkbebodnen im wuTieri siamovnebiT. sadRac Sors Rrublebis zeviT ki dajiriTebda sikvdilis raSi. yvelafers aqvs dasasruli da maTTvis male damTavrda sasiamovno siTxiT miyenebuli netareba. erT dRes xaTunam lados binas miakiTxa. stumari da maspinZeli taxtze gaSotili daxvda. orive SeanjRria. roca arcerTma ar upasuxa, pulti gausinja. _ RmerTo! _ SeSfoTda gogona. saswrafod mobiluri jibidan amoiRo, viRacas daureka. _ jixuridan dareke saswrafoSi. Sen bina datove! _ miiRo gankarguleba viRacisgan. roca saswrafo manqana movida, oTaxSi mxolod avadmyofebi daxvdnen. _ narkotikiT arian gabruebulebi. vinc dareka, isic narkomani iqneboda, rom Tavisi vinaoba ar gaamJRavna. policias Seatyobine, saavadmyofoSi unda gadaviyvanoT! am sabediswero SemTxvevas lado emsxverpla. zura gadarCa. roca gons movida, Zlivs gaixsena, ratom iyo saavadmyofoSi. Tavzardacemuli deda Tavs adga. _ deda! _ aRmoxda uceb. _ Sen vin Segatyobina? Semdeg Tvali moavlo oTaxs, fanjarasTan mdgar lalis mohkra Tvali. _ Senc? _ da Tvalebi daxuWa. arc dedas da arc meuRles araferi uTqvams. an raRa iyo saTqmeli? yvelam yvelferi isedac icoda. _ SenTan wamoval deda! _ mogvianebiT es Tqva, Tvalebze momdgari cremli gadaylapa, sawolidan wamoiwia da fanjarasTan mdgar garindebul cols Sexeda. lali miuaxlovda, zuras xeli aiRo. qmarma misi xeli gulTan
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axlos miitana. erTxans garindebuli iyo, Semdeg dabal xmaze Cailaparaka: _ me ver SevZeli, Seni Rirsi vyofiliyavi. ar meyo vaJkacoba, SensaviT gadametana imedgacrueba. me davmarcxdi, rogorc pirovneba. sjobia, Seni gziT iaro! lalim mis sawolTan skami miaCoCa, Camojda da didxans efereboda qmris xels. _ ara, zura, Cven bednieri droc bevri gvqonda. Cven marto saerTo saqmisTvis ki ara, erTmaneTzec bevrs vfiqrobdiT. nu mimatoveb, zura. CemTvis Seni moferebac sakmarisia! mxrebze xeli moxvia. _ Sen male mama gaxdebi. misi xaTriT mainc Seibrale Seni Tavi. _ RmerTo, mapatie, Cemi Secdomebi. Senc mapatie, lali, Senc deda! lalim sevdianad gaiRima. misi xeli mkerdTan miitana da uTxra: _ sadac ar unda waxvide, SenTan viqnebi. es Cveni bedisweraa. dedasTan ginda? iq wagyvebi. vici, erTad yvelafers davZlevT. _ vici, TeTri sawamlavis miRebisas Tqvenc gwamlavdiT. narkotikis msxverpli marto me ki ara, Tqvenc aRmoCndiT. am avadmyofobam Cemi saukeTeso wlebi Carecxa. saSinelebaa, roca veravin gitans da veravis itan. Tamila guldaTuTquli misCereboda erTaderT gaubedurebul Svils. cremlebi, romelic mis TvalebSi brwyinavda, sadRac ukan, gulis siRrmeSi brundeboda da rogorc sawamlavi, ise edeboda mTel sxeuls.ver getyviT, tkivili, romelic axla masSi iyo, naklebad Zlieri iyo im tkivilze, mis Svils rom datexoda Tavs. ra Tqma unda, zuras da Tamilas lalic gahyva raionSi. mas swamda, rom siyvaruli gadaarCenda maT ojaxs. zura misTvis is siyvaruli iyo, romelic cxovrebaSi erTaderTxel modis. misTvis megobaric iyo, TanamebrZolic, mesaidumlec da saocnebo gmiric ki, romelic siyvarulis RmerTma mis sulSi samudamod daavana. mis cxovrebaSi didi Cavardna moxda, magram amas mis sulSi is spetaki grZnoba ar Cauklavs, rac zuras mimarT hqonda. misi avadmyofuri damokidebuleba wamalze tragediad iqca, Tumca arc ki gaufiqrebia, zurgi Seeqcia sayvareli adamianisTvis da im siyvarulisTvis, rac TiTqmis bavSvobidanve hqonda. lali cdilobda, ukiduresad mZime wuTebi vaJkacurad gadaetana da ar damsxvreoda is ocnebis koSki, erTxel rom Seqmna Tavis sulSi. eSinoda, am ubedurebas ar moepara es wminda, rac mas kvebavda. rac ar unda mware yofiliyo misi xvedri, unda gaeZlo. unda ebrZola, exsna ara marto zura, aramed is didi, faqizi siyvaruli, romelic am adamianTan akavSirebda. raionSi dabrunebul zuras sikvdilsa da sicocxles Soris
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arCevani unda gaekeTebina. sadarbazosTan misulma, vidre kibeebs auyveboda, Rrmad amoisunTqa da sinanuliT Cailaparaka: _ ra bednieri bavSvoba gavatare aq, Cems sadarbazoSi. ramdeni kargi mogoneba darCa Zveli mezoblebidan. axlebi? im zuras kidev gaicnoben? ucbad ucnobi biZis sityvebi gaaxsenda: `Sens ZarRvebSi mTeli kavkasiis xalxis sisxlia da ecade, maT winaaRmdeg arasdros aRmarTo iaraRi~. fiqri moeZala. `sakuTari sicocxlis riskis fasad samSvidoboze gamomiyvana da qarTul soflamde mimacila. amiT man sakuTari Tavis dacvac damavala. ra momdis? nuTu amis gamoc ar Rirs sakuTari Tavisgan Tavis dacva? ar unda daamarcxo SenSi meore `me~ dedis cremliani Tvalebis gamo, afxazeTSi daRupuli mamis gamo, cxinvalSi dacxriluli biZis gamo, sayvareli qalis gamo da im ucodveli bavSvis gamo, romelic jer ar mosula am qveynad? mas xom janmrTeli mama sWirdeba? CemTvis aravis moucia ufleba, rom vicxovro am irealur samyaroSi. amas xom marto me aRviqvam? narkomans aravin ebraleba, arc deda, arc coli, arc Svili. jer im zomamde ar mivsulvar, unda SevCerde, unda SevCerde! radac ar unda damijdes, unda davamTavro~ ~_ fiqrobda zura.
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roca olia saqarTvelodan saberZneTSi lukmapuris saSovnelad wavida, fiqrobda, rom ramdenime weliwadSi xeldamSvenebuli ukan dabrundeboda da ojaxTan erTad Cveul cxovrebas daubrundeboda, magram Secda. pirveli erTi weli umuSevari iyo. mcireodeni gamogzavnili Tanxa da amanaTebi, romelic naxmari tansacmliT iyo savse, ojaxis moTxovnilebas ver akmayofilebda. zauri gamudmebiT svamda da bolos qronikuli alkoholiki gaxda. bavSvebi moxuci bebiis anabara darCnen. laSam saSualo skola daamTavra, magram verc swavla gaagrZela da verc samuSao iSova. realurad, is quCaSi aRmoCnda. im dros quCa mravali umuSevaris TavSeyris adgilad iqca. maTi saqme jokeris TamaSi, karti da mTavarobis lanZRva-gineba iyo.erovnuli mTavrobis gacemuli miwebi axalma mTavrobam daakanona. qvemo qarTlis miwebi morwyvas moiTxovda, xolo gaZvirebuli eleqtroenergiis uqonloba miwebis damuSavebaze uaryofiTad moqmedebda. miwebi TandaTan daumuSavebeli rCeboda. amas emateboda sawvavi masalis siZvire. jarTad gaiyida sabWouri sasoflo manqna-danadgarebi. miwidan amoiRes da gayides sarwyavi sistema. yoveli arCevnebis win darigebuli erTi tomara fqvili, zeTi da soio veraferi imedi iyo daucveli adamianebisTvis.
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ltolvilTa nakadma qarTuli ekonomika gaaRataka. bavSvebi, ymawvilebi da zrdasruli adamianebi erTnair pirobebSi aRmoCndnen. yovelive amas mohyva qurdoba, yaCaRoba. mgzavrTa viTom dacvis mizniT gzebi kriminalebma gainawiles. maTma Semyure mozardebma gmirobad aRiqves es yvelaferi da maTi mibaZviT cxovrebis awyoba scades. cxadia, pirvel rigSi quCam isini gaitaca, visac ojaxSi gausaZlisi mdgomareoba hqonda.. verc laSa ascda cdunebas, wvrilmani qurdobiT daekmayofilebina axalgazrduli moTxovnileba. jarTis SegrovebiT daiwyo sxvebTan erTad `samuSaos~ Sesruleba. Semdeg Robeebs miadga. eleqtroboZebidan Tanamzraxvel biWebTan erTad eleqtrosadinarebze gadavida. daiwyes sabWoTa dros gakeTebuli sarwyavi sistemis miwidan amoyra, Semdeg sasaflaos gisosebis moxsnes. es procesi Seuqcevadi gaxda, mis SeCerebaze ki aravin fiqrobda. TiTqos dakanonda, TurqeTSi gaetanaT mza rkina, spilenZi da alumini. aseTi qurdbacacebisgan kapikebad SeZenil jarTad qceuli liTonebi vagonebiT miemarTeboda sazRvargareT, xolo Semdeg ukve ZviradRirebuli saWiro sameurneo, sasoflo, saojaxo nivTebi ukan brundeboda. roca quCaSi mosapari aRaraferi darCa, daiwyes ojaxebidan nivTebis moparva. bavSvebi im zomamde mividnen, rom sardafebidan gahqondaT aryis gamosaxdeli spilenZis qvabebi, aluminis saojaxo nivTebi. xan erTi, xan meore mezobeli ukmayofilebas gamoTqvamda, Tumca policiamde aravin misula saCivlelad. saocari gulmodginebiT faravdnen im bavSvebisa da axalgazrdebis vinaobas, vinc amas akeTebda da visac Zalian kargad icnobdnen. _ me ratom CavuSva? uCemodac moxdeba mosaxdeni. _ xelebs ibandnen mezoblebi. laSam erTxel zuras saTevzaod wasvla SesTavaza. biWebi xramze midiodnen da laSam gadawyvita, zurac waeyvana. rac olia wavida, Tamila sakuTari SviliviT mfarvelobda mis biWebs. gansakuTrebiT giorgi uyvarda, Tumca Tavad mas ufro didi problemebi hqonda. SiSiT SesCereboda saxlSi dabrunebul zuras. karze dakakuneba aciebda da acxelebda dedas. lali muzeumSi muSaobda, SabaT-kviras yovelTvis zurasTan atarebda dros. isic SiSiT Sexedavda xolme ezoSi biWebTan mdgar qmars, Semdeg gauRimebda da mxarze xelgadaxveulebi adiodnen kibeze. _ bedi hqonia am biWs! _ Tvals ayolebdnen axali mezoblebi. _ zurac kargi biWi iyo! _ naRvlianad ambobdnen Zveli mezoblebi, romlebmac kargad icodnen zuras warsuli. _ RmerTo, yvelani daifare am ubedurebisgan! _ agrZelebdnen danarCenebi. zura im dRes laSas SemoTavazebul gaseirnebas didi sixaruliT
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daTanxmda. fexiT auyvnen sanaxiro gzas. disvelze asulebs lamazi sanaxaoba gadaeSalaT Tvalwin. zura adreul asakSi aq xSirad yofila. TiToeuli goraki misTvis nacnobi da sayvareli iyo. adre aq meurneobis damuSavebuli yanebi gaxldaT. mohyavdaT puri, simindi, lobio. dRes ki erTi heqtari miwac ar yo damuSavebuli. mxolod soflis naxiri gafantuliyo irgvliv. vidre xramamde Cavidnen, naxirs Cauares. mozardebs erTi gamoeyo, buCqebSi mdgar ZroxasTan mivida, jibidan rkinis qila amoiRo da Camowvela. zura maSin mixvda, raSi iyo saqme, roca qvabi cecxlze Semodges, raRac balaxebi Cayares da misi xarSva daiwyes. _ es ra aris?- ikiTxa zuram. _ zura Zia, ar ici? es xom managuaa. heroinze ukeTesia. Tanac xom xedav, fuli sulac ar aris saWiro. bavSvebi 15-18 welisani iyvnen da aRtacebiT SesCerebodnen zuras. _ didi xania, eweviT? _ ara, vsvamT. _ da mere? _ ai, gasinje. _ laSa, Senc? _ ho, mec. zuram Tavi xelebSi Cargo, didxans iyo gaognebuli, Semdeg yvelani sibraluliT CaaTvaliera. _ Tqvenc xom TqviT, saTevzaod mivdivarTo. _ mere viTevzavebT. _ momismineT biWebo da kargad damakvirdiT. ra gaubedurebuli var, mxedavT? nu gaakeTebT amas, vidre gviani ar aris, SeCerdiT! xval uaresi dagemarTebaT da Tu ver iSoviT, mxecad iqceviT. adamianebs usulo sagnebad aRiqvamT da erTaderTi moTxovnileba gagiCndebaT, rogorme iSovoT wamali. ar gindaT. me Cems Tavze gamovcade es yvelaferi. siamovneba, romelsac am wuTSi miiRebT, male gaqreba da tkivili dagrCebaT. sulis tkivili ki sxeulis tkivilze uaresia. RmerTma gaSoroT es tkivili da Tu aqamde jer ar misulxarT, SeCerdiT! zura wamodga, qvabs fexi hkra da gadaayirava. _ kargad iyaviT, biWebo, kbilebiT amovwovdi sisxls imas, vinc am dReSi pirvelad Camagdo. TuU Cems Segonebas arafrad CaagdebT, naxiri mand aris da balaxebis Sovnac ar gagiWirdebaT. biWebi saxtad darCnen. _ laSa, Sen xom Tqvi, narkomaniao! _ usayvedures biWebma. laSam Tavi daxara. zuram biWebs zurgi aqcia. mdinare xramisken Cauyva da mdinaresTan qvaze Camojda.
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_ ratom me, ratom ver SevZeli Tavis droze SevCerebuliyavi? Cemze xom bevri imedebs amyarebda? ratom gavucrue yvelas imedi? dRevandelobam guSindeli dRe mTlianad waSala CemSi. netav, Tu davubrundebi naTel warsuls? biWebi miuaxlovdnen da Soriaxlos Camosxdnen. _ gvapatie zura biZia! _ mas yvelaze umcrosi miuaxlovda da masTan axlos CaiCoqa. zuram Tmebze xeli gadausva. TvalebSi Caxeda da miualersa. _ ar ginda biWuna. Sen sikvdils eTamaSebi. erT dros mec Sennairi viyavi. ar ginda, momavalSi Cemnairi gaxde da damemsgavso. saxlSi dabrunebuls deda karebSi Seegeba. samsaxuridan dRes adre dabrunebuliyo. zura saxlSi Sevida da samzareuloSi laSas patara Zma daxvda. rac olia saberZneTSi wavida, es patara biWi mTeli sadarbazos Svilobilad iqca. is yvela ojaxSi daukiTxavad Sedioda. Tamila mis mimarT did mzrunvelobas iCenda. marTalia, deda ugzavnida saarsebo wyaros, magram dedis siTbo sul sxva iyo da am siTbos micemas mezoblebi cdilobdnen. Tumca giorgis da laSas mdgomareoba saxarbielo ar iyo. mama loTobda, moxuc bebias wlebi emateboda, sul advili iyo viRaceebs maTi mdgomareobiT esargeblaT da biWebi swori gzidan gadaecdinaT. patara mrude nabijs SeiZleba sabediswero Sedegebamde mieyvana. zuram saxlSi Sesvlisas bavSvs miualersa. _ Zia zura, laSac movida?_ikiTxa giorgim. _ ki, biWebTan iqneba. _ waval. _ Tqva giorgim da mezoblis kari gaixura. _ iTevzaveT? - ikiTxa Tamilam da daRonebul Svils TvalebSi Caxeda. dedis Tvalebs mudam gaurboda zura, ver uZlebda im mtanjvel gamoxedvas. _ ho. _ upasuxa zuram. sxva SekiTxva aRar dausvams Tamilas. _ xval TbilisSi waval! _ gvian uTxra Svilma. zura roca meore dRes emSvidobeboda dedas, Tamilam mxolod erTi ram sTxova: _ lalisTvis nerviuloba ar SeiZleba, gTxov Zalian gTxov..._ sityvebi ver daamTavra. Svilma mis TvalebSi gabrwyinebuli cremli SeniSna. _ ar ginda deda. _ Sublze akoca. Setrialda, kari gaaRoO da kibeebs dauyva. meore sarTulis kibeebze laSa da afxazeTidan devnili salomes SviliSvili isxdnen. miesalma maT da ramdenime kibiT Cascda. uceb Sedga, maTken mibrunda da gauRima. _ RmerTma yvelaze didi jildo, rac adamianebs mianiWa, siyvaru- 281 -

lis niWia. nebismieri siyvaruli, romelic Cven gagvaCnia, didi madlia, magram pirvel siyvaruls, romelsac ymawvilobaSi Sexvdebi, es sul sxvaa. yvelaze wminda, yvelaze spetaki da sulieria. mas unda gaufrTxilde, radgan roca RmerTi am niWiT dagajildovebs, zevidan giTvalTvalebs. rogor SeZeli am niWis gafrTxileba, gakontrolebs. _ uTxra maT zuram. ymawvilebi wamodgnen. zurasTan axlos mividnen. _ zura biZia, Zalian miyvarxar! _ uTxra laSam. _ mixaria, rom giyvarvar. is maSinebs, Tqveni siyvaruli ar davkargo. Sen ki, Cemo patara angelozo. _ gogonas Tmebs Seexo. _ mamaCemi afxazeTSi daiRupa. sxva mravali adamianis msgavsad, gaormagebiT unda gqondes siyvarulis niWi, mravali Seni winapariviT unda giyvardes. Sen unda amoavso is danaklisi, romelic erTad davkargeT. samanqano gzamde gavida zura. mikroavtobuss daeloda. _ `lalisTvis nerviuloba ar SeiZleba, Zalian gTxov!~ _ moagonda dedis sityvebi. _ sacodavi dedaCemi, rogor gavamware. dausrulebel tkivilad viqeci misTvis. narkomani mama ra iqneba? jer kidev gauCeneli SvilisTvis netav, rogori viqnebi? _ Svili! an mqonda ufleba, mama gavmxdariyavi? vaiTu, mis ZarRvebSi es ubedureba Casaxldes? _ guli SeekumSa zuras. mkerdSi raRac Cawyda. _ netav, davZlev am ubedurebas? Tu samudamod damnaSaved davrCebi sakuTari Svilis winaSe? deda mieCvia Cems ubedurebas. lalim mapatia, bevrma mapatia, magram me verasdros vapatieb sakuTar Tavs. bavSvi rom janmrTeli iyos, dedisTvis simSvidea saWiro. es mciredi ramec ki ver miveci mas. rodis dasruldeba es jojoxeTi? rodis damTavrdeba yvelaferi? iqneba im pataram momces Zala, Sevcvalo Cemi cxovrebis wesi. RmerTo, damexmare!
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nela miuyvebodnen zura da lali fexiT mTawmindis samanqano gzas. didi xania, rac tramvais xazi da sabagiro gza aRar muSaobda. is, rac sabWouri iyo, TandaTan yvelaferi nadgurdeboda. funikulioric gaZarcvuli iyo. yvelaferi, rac mTawmindis parkTan iyo dakavSirebuli, mogonebebSi darCeniliyo. gazafxuli idga da Semodgomaze Camocvenili foTlebi isev Zirs eyara. zogi qars gaexmo da kunWulebSi Seekedlebina Tavi, zogic neSompalad qceuliyo. amas emateboda afrialebuli celofnis parkebisa da erTjeradi boTlebis saSineli gamofena. irgvliv antisanitaria idga. zura da lali nela midiodnen zeviT. TiTqos undodaT, gaqceodnen yvelafers. surdaT, warmoedginaT sasurveli realoba. dRes orive kritikulad Cxrekdnen im brZolis gzas, rac maT erTad gaiares. sad dauSves Secdoma da ra iyo maTi marcxis mizezi?
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maTma dawyebulma brZolam ratom ganicada kraxi? aRmarTi aiares. WiSkarTan nino WavWavaZis da griboedovis saflavebTan Sedgnen. lalis mudam xiblavda am ori adamianis xanmokle, magram Zlieri siyvaruli. roca aq amodioda, am saflavebTan Sedgeboda da ocnebiT gadadioda im droSi, sadac isini cxovrobdnen. surdaT, am utyvi, magram mravlismTqmeli saflavebidan raRac axali da ucnobi amoekiTxaT. mowiwebiT Cauares ukve istoriad qceul saflavebs. zeviT avidnen. nela Cauares Zvel da axal sasiqadulo adamianTa samudamo gansasvenebels. merab kostavas saflavTan Sedgnen. erTmaneTs xeli CasWides. _ xom ar daiRale? _ SeekiTxa zura. _ cotaTi. zuram misi sxeuli SeaTvaliera. _ erTi Tvis Semdeg mSoblebi gavxdebiT. _ Cven ukve mSoblebi varT. gazafxulis surneli ifrqveoda irgvliv. aqac mimofantuliyo gvian Camoyrili foTlebi. eklesiaSi Sevidnen. sanTlebi aunTes daRupul megobrebs. Semdeg gareT gamovidnen da skamze Camosxdnen. _ kostava ufro bednieri aRmoCnda. _ Cailaparaka zuram. _ maSin Cven yvela erTad videqiT. _ sad vin dauSva Secdoma, Tu yvelam erTad davaSaveT?_TavisTavs SeekiTxa lali. _ yvelam erTad, marTali Tqvi. didi politikis bedi ase mTavrdeba. am wuTSi ici ra momagonda? Tavisuflebis moedanze leninis Zegli rom aviReT, yuridan didi xani ar amodioda is xma, misi Zirs dacemisas rom gaisma. mTeli moednis garSemo xalxi idga da garindebuli misCereboda am sanaxaobas. arc sixaruli da arc taSi. iq mdgomi adamianebi daeswrnen didi imperiis didi diqtatoris dasasrulis dasawyiss. maT saxeze SiSic hqondaT, radgan iwyeboda brZola TavisuflebisaTvis, brZola, romelic usisxlod ar Caivlida. is xma axlac Camesmis, grgvinvasaviT rom gadauara iqaurobas da dResac grZeldeba es xma. roca merabi movida, roca zviadi mokles, roca afxazeTsa da samaCabloSi xalxi Caxoces. sulerTia, romeli mxrisTvis brZolaSi daiRupnen. isev mesmis Cemi megobari sosos gaocebuli xma, `Sen mesrole biWo~? _ ar minda im movlenebis gaxseneba, rac 1988 wlidan ganviTarda. ver viqnebi obieqturi, kinos kadrebiviT gairbina Cvens Tvalwin yvelaferma. mTavari ubedureba imaSia, rom TavisuflebamiRebulebma erTmaneTi davWameT. saerTo ena ver gamovnaxeT. nuTu leninis Zeglis msxvreviT damTavrda Cveni erovnuli suliereba? ratom ar movZebneT TviT mopirdapire banakSi erovnuli sulis mqone adamianebi? ratom ar SemovirigeT isini. gana TviT komunistebSic
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cota iyo Zlieri kadri, visac unda dayrdnoboda axladfexadgmuli qveyana, an vin ra gavakeTeT, sakuTar Tavs ver vupatroneT. daRlili xma hqonda zuras. masSi sakuTari Tavis ukmayofileba sCanda. lali ar ereoda mis saubarSi. surda, gaego misi azri yvelaferze. undoda, dakvirveboda, ramdenad SeWriliyo mis sulSi is autaneli seni, ra daetovebia kargi da ra gaenadgurebina. gvian dabrundnen mTawmindidan isev im moxveuli samanqano gziT. irgvliv eyara Semodgomaze Camocvenili foTlebi, zogan gafantuli da zogan neSompalad qceuli. beRurebi Seseodnen neSompalas, pawawa fexebiT qeqdnen, mwvane balaxs daeZebdnen, maT qveS iebsac moeswroT Tavis amoyofa da am antisanitariaSi sicocxle SemohqondaT. zura daixara, iebi dakrifa, lalis gauRima da patara kona miarTva meuRles.
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am or weliwadSic araferi Secvlila zuras cxovrebaSi. sadarbazos mcxovrebTa cxovreba isev gausaZlisi iyo. Tamila isev qirurgiul ganyofilebaSi muSaobda, saberZneTSi wasuli variCka xSirad exmianeboda mezoblebs, gansakuTrebiT Eelvira aqtiurobda. afxazeTidan devnili salome Tavis erTaderT gadarCenil SviliSvils dafofinebda. lamara cdilobda mezoblebisaTvis yuradReba ar moeklo. misi umuSevari Zma Tavisi mravali SviliT frangi qalis erToTaxian binaSi cxovrobda. soso qorTievis bina daketili iyo. iqneb Zvel mepatrones eloda. pirvel sarTulze mcxovrebi maswavleblebi Tea da qeTi didi xania sazRvargareT wasuliyvnen. maT mier datovebuli ZaRli isev maT karTan iwva. saberZneTSi samuSaod wasul olias fuls da amanaTebs TvalebcecebiT eloda misi qmar-Svili. marTalia, qarTveli ebraeli maria sakmaod moberebuliyo, magram isev sadarbazos sadarajoze idga. olias qmari isev loTobda. drodadro Sewyvetda, suls moiTqvamda, mere ki isev xelmeored meordeboda yvelaferi. rac Seexeba zuras mdgomareobas, igi xan sikeTisken Setrialdeboda. ojaxs egona, gveSvelao, magram drodadro isev iRviZebda jojoxeTuri cecxli mis sulSi. masSi xSirad iRviZebda ukurnebeli senis demoni, romlis winaaRmdeg brZola SeuZlebeli aRmoCnda. am dros gausaZlisi xdeboda ara marto misi, aramed misi axloblebis mdgomareoba.
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gvian gaeRviZa zuras, Tumca ver gaarkvia, gaeRviZa Tu daZinebas apirebda. wamoiwia, magram weli ver aswia. Tavbru daexva, isev daxuWa Tvalebi da daeloda, rodis SeZlebda adgomas. araferi ar

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tkioda, mxolod egona, rom Tavi gasaberi burTiviT hqonda. saSinel simZimes grZnobda, romelic mxrebze awveboda. guliscema esmoda da egona, male guli gauskdeboda. cdilobda im xmis SeCerebas, romelic mis yurTan ismoda da suls uwuravda. suli tkioda, ar asvenebda da siarulis uflebas arTmevda. _ RmerTo, gamagebine, sad var? _ evedreboda ufals. sawolidan wamoiwia, fexebi Zirs gadmoswia, Tavi xelebSi Cargo. guliscemis xma mainc ar wydeboda. _ deda, miSvele! _ daiyvira. sawolze gadaqanda. uceb kari gaiRo. qalis usicocxlo saxe gamoCnda. wvrili naoWebi gadahkroda mis saxes. saxis feri da Tmis feri erTnairi hqonda. ver gaarCevdi, sad mTavrdeboda saxe da sad iwyeboda Tma. odesRac mis mSvenier TvalebSi arc SiSi ixateboda da arc mwuxareba. Tvalebi arafrismTqmeli gauxda. bedTan Serigebis Zalas daefara misi Tvalebis gamometyveleba. ramdeni weli ebrZodnen deda-Svili am saSinelebas da verafers gaxdnen. Ddeda mis gaubedurebas xedavda da zogjer mzad iyo im wamliT ewamla, romelmac misi Svili am ubedurebamde miiyvana, rom Tundac mcire xniT mieniWebina SvilisTvis Sveba. _ deda, gTxov, rame miSvele, zeze ver vdgebi. saxlSi TuU raime Rirebuli iyo, Tamilam yvelaferi gayida. gasayidi aRaraferi darCa. usityvod CaTvala gulis wveTebi WiqaSi dedam, wyali daumata da Svils miawoda. zuram Wiqa xelis kankaliT aiRo da gadahkra. cota damSvidda. _ es ar miSvelis, magram... _ wamodga, tanT Caicva da karTan mivida. _ sad midixar? - mxolod es sityvebi gamoscra dedam. _ ar vici. _ frTxilad, kibeebi damtvreulia. ar waiqce! _ meti raRa momiva?_miaZaxa dedas, kari gaaRo da gareT gavida. mere SeCerda da kars zurgiT mieyrdno. kidev auforiaqda suli. ramdenime nabiji gadadga da kibis moajirs mieyrdno. ase iyo ramdenime wuTis manZilze. Semdeg wamoimarTa, amRvreuli TvalebiT variCkas yofil binas Sexeda da daabraxuna. _ variCka deida, elvira, sad xarT? kari gamiReT. zura var. elvira, sad xarT? kars ratom ar miRebT? _ erTxans Tavi miayrdno kars. gacxelebuli Sublis gagrileba mounda. _ eseni xom wavidnen, magram ratom? Cven xom erTad kargad unda gvecxovra? meore karTan Sedga. _ zeinab deida, miSvele! _ kars miawva. xma ar gamodioda, isev moajirTan gadmoinacvla da meore sarTulze Camaval kibeebs Cauyva.
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_ zeinab deida raRas miSvelis? is xom yvelaze adre wavida Cveni sadarbazodan. svanebi Casaxldnen, magram isinic sad wavidnen, wamalsac veRar iSovi aq. _ Tqva zuram da amoisunTqa, simwris ofli asxamda. isev daeyrdno meore sarTulis moajirs. _ netav sada var?_ikiTxa man.Semdeg amRvreuli TvalebiT karebi SeaTvaliera. erT karebze misi bavSvobis megobris sosos saxeli ewera, gamofxizlda da karTan mivida. daakakuna. _ soso, biWo, kari gaaRe! xom xedav, ra dReSi var, miSvele rame. _ Sen mimixede saxls, Sen gitoveb, zura, vin icis, iqneb davbrundeT rodesme. _ moesma vitalis, sosos mamis xma. gamofxizlda. karebs isev Sexeda. Tvalebi cremliT gaevso. _ ratom mimatove soso? Sen rom Cems gverdiT yofiliyavi, iqneb, am dReSi ar Cavvardebodi. dabarbacda, gulze miikra xeli. Semdeg orive xeli yelTan miitana. _ sad, sad waxvedi biWo? meore sadarbazos erTi binis kari gaiRo. lamara samuSaod wasasvlelad gamowyobiliyo. zuras gaxeda, undoda, Tvali aeridebina, magram mixvda, raRac uWirda da Sedga. _ zura, xom araferi ginda? _ lamara deida, miSvele, gemudarebi. an es gamagebine, sad aiyarnen es xalxi, sad gadaixvewnen. _ ra ar ici, zuras venacvale? wavidnen, aRar arian. _ vitali biZia xom aq cxovrobda? is did manqanaze ijda, meurneobaSi mZRolad muSaobda. me da sosos yanebSi dagvaseirnebda. mamaCemi Tamadad niSnavda xolme. lamara deida miSvele, haeri ar myofnis. _ SeCerdi, Svilo, _ dedis mkacrma xmam SeaCera. _ cudad var, deda. me is davWeri, ratom? risTvis? xom xedav sadarbazoSi Cemnairi gaubedurebuli adamiani darCa mxolod. _ saxlSi dabrundi, sircxvilia. _ ra aris sircxvili, simarTles rom vambob? ra vTqvi tyuili? gaiqcnen, yvela gaiqca. ver xedavT, sadarbazo rom dacarielda? aq frangi qali cxovrobda, isic wavida. patroni gauCnda, aq mxolod upatronoebi davrCiT. zura saSinlad daigrixa. moajirs mokida xeli, mavTuliT mibmuli rikuli CamoiSala. _ ai xom xedav, ingreva yvelaferi. _ SeCerdi, zura!. lamaram Tavi daaneba, sadarbazodan gavida. _ dawynardi! _ emudareboda deda. pirvel sarTulze Camovida, kibeebze Camojdoma gadawyvita, magram isev wamoimarTa, daigrixa, moajirs mieyrdno.
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_ Cemo maswavleblebo, Tea, qeTi, Tqven mainc gamiReT kari! maTi karisken gaixeda. mitovebuli ZaRli iyo mokuntuli. daixara, ZaRls moefera. _ gSia, goSia? _ SeekiTxa. _ Sen yvelaze erTgulad emsaxurebi am sadarbazos. arsad gaqceulxar, aq darCi._ zuram mis win ganabul ZaRls miualersa. mis ukan kari gaiRo. zaurma gamohyo Tavi. xelSi aryiT savse boTli eWira. _ zuras venacvale, CemTan Semodi. TviTnaxadi naturaluri arayi maqvs._ uTxra da boTlze aniSna. _ ara, zaur, jer tiotia marusia unda vnaxo. erToTaxiani binis karTan borZikiT mivida da daakakuna. xma aravin gasca, kars miawva da Sig Sevida. _ tiotia marias mudam Ria aqvs saxlis kari, iq Seval. miSvelis! _ gaifiqra zuram da daiZaxa. _ zura var, gesmis Cemi? derefani gaiara, sawol oTaxSi Sevida. moxuci mSvidad iwva, daixara da SeanjRria. _ RmerTo Cemo... deda, momeSveleT, mgonia, tiotia maria momkvdara! Tamila saswrafod Sevarda mezoblis binaSi. qali SeanjRria. mTlianad gayinuli iyo. _ etyoba, wuxel mokvda ubeduri, televizoric ki ar gamourTavs _ mkvdaria? - ikiTxa zuram. Tamilam Tavi dauqnia. televizoridan politikosTan gajibrebuli lanZRva-gineba ifrqveoda. _ raRas ybedobT? erTi qali darCa da isic wavida. vin xarT Tqve upatronoebi? vinRa mogismenT, Tu es qveyana ise daicala, rogorc Cveni sadarbazo? gareT gaiWra. dacarielebul saxls SesZaxa: _ gareT gamodiT, Tu vinme xarT aq kidev. tiotia maria mokvda. ramdenime fanjris kari gaiRo. _ sacodavi. qaliSvils ar SevatyobinoT?_CamoiZaxa viRacam zura dedasTan mivida. _ zura, dawynardi Svilo, saxlSi dabrundi! _ uTxra dedam zura gajiutda, sxvagan daapira wasvla, magram deda isev mivarda da SeanjRria. _ wamodi saxlSi! _ uyvira zuras. arasdros aseTi saxe ar hqonia Tamilas. gamwarebuli da sastiki iyo. _ wamodi, Torem mec waval aqedan. movZebni Cems naTesavebs da maTTan waval. arc me var qarTveli. zura Sedga. aseTi sityvebi dedisgan arasdros gaugonia. uceb gamofxizlda. verasdros warmoidgenda, rom deda amas etyoda. es ukiduresobaSi gadavardnili dedis protesti iyo erTaderTi Svilis mimarT.
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_ deda, araferia imaze uaresi, roca sakuTari Tavi gezizReba. am mdgomareobaSi ginda, mimatovo? ar mimatovo ra. Sen xom Cems garda sxva aravin gyavs? deda, gemudarebi, damexmare, rom SevZlo isev miyvardes Cemi Tavi. iqneb, rogorme davibruno is sikeTe, romelic adre iyo CemSi da sadRac damekarga. zurasTvis dedis naTqvami mexis gavardnas hgavda. qals, romelic mTeli cxovreba qarTuli suliT cxovrobda, aseTi ramis Tqma azrad rogor mouvida? iqneb, mTeli misi cxovreba galiaSi cxovrebas hgavda? iqneb axla surda gaTavisufleba? magram ras upirebda mamis saflavs an sakuTar Svils? iqneba, is fesvebi, romelic sakuTar idumal samSoblosTan akavSirebda, imdenad Zlieri iyo, rom es sityvebi aTqmevina. zuras maria daaviwyda. mas ezoSi mezoblebi utrialebdnen. saxlSi Sevida da dedis gamZvinvarebuli saxe SeamCnia. zura SekrTa. am yvelas mimarT mosiyvarule qalSi, Tavdadebul dedasa da meuRleSi dedis did guls daeZebda, sadac mudam iyo codvili SvilisTvis Sewynarebis unari. _ itire, iyvire, mceme, es nugeSia SenTvis deda, magram Cemnairi Svilis mitoveba danaSauli. Tamilam kargad icoda Tavisi valdebuleba Svilis, adamianebis, RmerTis winaSe, magram Svili ar unda iyos valdebuli mSoblis winaSe? dedas rac ar unda Tavsayreli problemebi hqondes, SvilisTvis siTbos micema arasdros daaviwydeba. _ RmerTs SesTxove, rom sakuTari avi zraxvisgan gixsnas. Tamila Svils gevrdiT miujda, misi Tavi mkerdze miikra. _ moindome, Svilo da daamarcxeb! _ didxans isxdnen deda-Svili gverdigverd, magram es iyo mcire xniT. zura wamodga, daigrixa, caxcaxi daawyebina. _ mgoni, vgiJdebi. _ wamodga, karadasTan mivida, ujra gamoaRo da iqidan wignaki amoiRo. dedas gauwoda. _ mand seiran mamedovis telefoni momiZebne. gavgiJdebi, TuU wamali ver viSove. aiRe, dareke! qali ukve erTi welia, rac am dReSi iyo. ucxo ar iyo Svilis xvewna-mudara. arc rCeva, arc mudara, arc Segoneba masze aRar moqmedebda. wamalze damokidebuli adamiani anadgurebda ara marto sakuTar Tavs, aramed sakuTar axloblebs. fsiqikuri aSliloba gadaedeboda maT da anadgurebda ojaxis Tavmoyvareobas, sixaruls. Tamila aRar SekamaTebia. telefoni aiRo da dareka. _ momeci, Sen ar gipasuxebs. _ telefons akankalebuli xeliT swvda da yurTan miitana. _ ra iyo, zura? - moesma xma. _ maxosTan miitane. axlave iq mival! _ SvebiT amoisunTqa zuram da telefoni dado. dedas Sexeda da gareT gavida. Tamila aRar
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gahyolia mas. am wuTidan zuram sakuTar Tavze kontroli dakarga, ukan dasaxevi gza ar arsebobda. aRmavali da samyaros SegrZnebis siamovnebac dahkargvoda. dedamisi ki ara, aTi adamianic veRar gaumklavdeboda mis winaaRmdegobas. siyvarulc, siZulvilic da yvelaferi, rac masSi odesRac iyo, mexsierebis burusSi gamqraliyo. areulad Cairbina Camtvreuli kibeebi. arcerTi samezoblos karisTvis ar Seuxedavs. maxosTan garboda Tavqudmoglejili. sadarbazos SemosasvlelTan Cavida da erTbaSad Sedga. sadarbazoSi misi usayvarlesi qali idga. mxarze CanTagadakidebuli. xelSi ori wlis gogona eWira. gaognebuli zura maT misCereboda. qalma gogona Zirs dasva. bavSvi mamisken wabajbajda. _ mamiko minda! _ wamoiZaxa. zura kibeebze Camojda. bavSvi gulSi Caikra, Semdeg cols Sexeda. qalis TvalebSi mudam SiSs xedavda zura. axla sibralulic dainaxa, sibraluli, romelic ase Zalian sZulda. fexi win aRar waudgams. _ sad midiodi, dabrundi, wamali mogitane. bavSvi xelSi aiyavana. misma rbilma sxeulma Sveba mogvara. lalisTvis araferi uTqvams, ise auyva kibeebs. bolo sarTulze Ria karebSi Tamila idga. _ dabrundi, Svilo. _ xeli momkideT, gemudarebiT, arsad gamiSvaT! _ aRmoxda zuras. bavSvi dedas miawoda, taxtze mowyvetiT daeca da aqviTinda. _ ratom damemarTa es? arakacobas mivaRwie. iqiT raRaa, gamagebineT. iqiT nuRar gamiSvebT! _ mosTqvamda zura.
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`Cemo bebo, vici am werils Sen ver waikiTxav. verc verasdros gigeb, Cems tkivils, radgan Sen iq gadasaxldi, sadac Seni winaprebi ganisveneben. bolos SenTan yofnisas SeamCnie CemSi cvlileba, magram ubedureba, rac me Tavs damatyda, ver mixvdi. an mixvdi da sakuTar Tavs ver Sekadre. me ki ar meyo vaJkacoba, rom SenTvis yvelaferi meTqva.kargad moviqeci, rom im qveynad ar gagayole amxela tvirTi. CemSi sxva sulieri gaucxoebac moxda. qveynis cxovrebis movlenebma Cems ezoSi gaiarao, miTxari erTxel. Cemma problemebmac mag gzaze gaiara. vici, gqonda sixaruli, bedniereba, magram arc didma tkivilma Cagiara gverdiT. Sen orive Rirseulad aitane da gaitane. iqneb amaSi iyo Seni bedniereba. axlac ar msurs, Seni suli Sevawuxo bebo, magram mSiers rom moundeba danayreba, ise minda SenTan saubari. Cemi guneba-ganwyobis realizacia mxolod SenTan SemiZlia. myavs usayvarlesi deda, meuRle, Svili da megobrebi, magram Sen sxva xar!
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Sen Cemi warsuli xar da TavisTavad, Cemi fesvebic. Sen gqonda Seni samyaro, cxovrobdi mTebSi, rogorc galiaSi da mainc bednieri iyavi. bunebasTan siaxlove gaZlevda sicocxlis Zalas. me ki mudam meCveneba, did galiaSi vicxovre da gausaZlisi iyo iq jdoma. Cemma Taobam galiis gangreva SeZelo, magram galiis kari bolomde ver mivxureT. bedisweras versad wauxvalo, ambobdi mudam. Torem amdeni mokluli, amdeni daWrili, pativayrili adamianis danaxva sigiJemde miiyvanda kacs. Wkvian adamians mudam unda hqondes saidumlo TavSesafari. es rom ar gvqonda, amitom `uTavo qaravans~ daemsgavsa Cveni cxovreba. qarTvelebi erTmaneTs kiserSi vwvdiT da am kinklaobaSi erovnuli suli sadRac daikarga. ar minda, Cemi cxovrebiT davamZimo Seni suli. is rac Cems Tavs datrialda, ar iyo Cemi brali. ubralod, simtkice ar aRmomaCnda, rom gameZlo. ar vici, ra iqneba amis Semdeg. ver Segpirdebi, xvalve Cemi sulidan im jojoxeTs amovglej da sazogadoebas iseTi warvudgebi, rogoric viyavi-meTqi. an mimiReben ki sxvebi? Sen RmerTis saufloSi Casaxldi, bebo! vici, am werils Sen ver waikiTxav, magram roca momenatrebi, me wavikiTxav da Tu Svebas vigrZnob, esec didi SeaRavaTia CemTvis. Seni zura, 2000 w. zuras zurgze samxedro CanTa moegdo da zeviT foTlovani tyis CrdilSi amaval biliks mihyveboda. male naZvnaris tevrSi aRmoCnda. uzarmazar tyes daeCrdila yvelaferi. tyis surnels neSompalaSi areuli mware suni uerTdeboda da sul sxva bunebisTvis damaxsiaTebel surnels afrqvevda irgvliv. zeviT monasteri idga, RrublebSi gaxveuli. axla zura miiCqaroda misken xeljoxze dayrdnobili. monasterisken amaval gzaze mamisonis ueltexili daudga Tvalwin. am mimarTulebiT bavSvobisas xSirad uvlia mamasTan erTad. mamis sityvebic moesma yurTan. _ am gziT gaparulan Turme Seni dedis aRmzrdelebi CrdiloeT kavkasiaSi, mis winaprebTan mamisonis iqiT Seni winaprebi arian. qarTvelebic bevrni dasaxlebulan sxvadasxva dros da sxvadasxva adgilze. dRes rom vukvirdebi, Cvenma Taobam aqac da iqac didi katastrofuli Secdoma dauSva, sacalfexo gzis CatexviT ZirZveli mezoblebi rom daaSora. zuras didi Zalisxmeva dasWirda `lomkidan~ gamosuliyo. Tamilam da lalim avtobusamde miaciles. didxans xels uqnevda mas gogona da Semdeg mTel gzaze zuras misi wkriala xma esmoda. `mamiko minda~- es avsebda mis suls, Svebas, sixaruls aniWebda da zeviT sacalfexo bilikze amavali gzis daZlevaSi exmareboda. monasterSi simSvides eswrafoda zura. warsulis damkargav,
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gzaabneul Svils RmerTisTvis surda, Caebarebina sakuTari momavali da, mas gadaewyvita, risi Rirsi iyo zura. RmerTisgan miRebul yvela ganaCens usityvod miiRebda, radgan RmerTs imaze mets ver SesTxovda, rasac miscemda. Sav Tmas daefara zuras saxe, xeljoxze dayrdnobili adioda zeviT, sadac monastris zeviT RrublebSi RmerTis sauflo iyo. bewvis xidze unda gasuliyo da mieRo misi ganaCeni. es ukanaskneli gadawyvetileba iyo.. monastris ezoSi morCilebi Sexvdnen, maT miuaxlovda, miesalma da grZel skamze Camojda. 2005 wlis marti.

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_ mama mosula! - gabmiT, xmamaRla daiyvira biWunam, vaSlis kenwerodan mosxltda da Zirs daqanda. miwasTan Sexebisas Tavi ver Seimagra, Zirs daeca, magram mkvircxlad wamovarda, WiSkrisaken Tvalebgabrwyinebulma gaixeda da mohkurcxla. biWuna mamas kiserze Camoekida da kocna dauwyo. _ moica, biWo! ar damaxrCo! - siciliT uTxra ymawvils, Semdeg xeli gadaxvia da aivanze gamosul simamrs gasZaxa: _ gamarjoba. ra karg dros amogivlia Cvensas. samoc wels gadacilebuli mamakaci, sakmaod Severcxlili TmebiT, lamazi saxiT, RimiliT SeCerda aivnis moajirTan da siZes miesalma. _ RmerTmani, albaT vicodi, rom dRes moxvidodi. _ antonina ar mosula skolidan? - SeekiTxa biWs. _ ara, jer ar dabrunebula. - upasuxa mkvircxlad. Semdeg aivanze airbina da galia Camoitana. _ mama, Sexede, rogori galia gamikeTa babum. _ ai, Se Winka. ra unda daamwyvdio? _ Citi. bavSvi moSorda ufrosebs, aivanze avida da galiis lursmanze mimagreba daiwyo. _ depeSa wina dRes iyo. kargi jiSis saqonelia. _ saukeTeso. gzaSi gamawvales magram... ai, iseTi saqoneli rom gvyavdes... _ TxuTmeti sulia? _ ho! bzial-bziali gaudiT dalocvilebs. or- ori wlis arian. elguja wyalTan mivida xel-piris dasabanad. _ abano momixdeboda axla. ise var dasvrili - Cailaparaka elgujam. _ exlave gavacxeleb! - dafacurda iliko. _ anatoli SeSa moitane! - gasZaxa SviliSvils, romelic maTraxs aqnevda da ise darboda ezoSi. _ axlave, babu. - da SeSis mosatanad gaiqca. babua ilikom Cqara gaacxela wyali, auzi piramde aavso Tbili wyliT da siZes gamosZaxa: _ abano Sens gankargulebaSia, siZe-kaco! elgujam fexsacmelebi ezoSi gaixada, fexi CustebSi wahyo da abanoSi Sevida. _ ai, dedikoc movida! - daiZaxa anatolim, - dedi, mama movida kostromidan, - gasZaxa antoninas manam, sanam igi ezoSi Semovidoda. qals odnav Seecvala feri, Semdeg gaiRima da ezoSi Semovida.

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_ es galia ki babuam gamikeTa. - TiTi gaiSvira aivanze dakidebul galiisaken. _ ho, kargia! - Tavze gadausva xeli da mamas moubrunda. _ abanoSia? skolaSi Semagvianda. pedsabWo iyo. wignebiT da rveulebiT savse CanTa anatolis miawoda da daariga: _ airbine, geTayva, Cems magidaze daawyve, - roca bavSvma CanTa CamoarTva, qali samzareuloSi Sevida da sadilis Tadarigs Seudga... ... erTi saaTis Semdeg ki es patara ojaxi xeivnis qveS gemrielad Seeqceoda sadils. _ is moxucebi rodisRa Camovlen, TbilisSi gautkbaT. _ ciala mexuTe kurss xuravs, mama. bavSvebTan arian. _ modaa exla, SviliSvilebs bebiebi zrdian, Svilebi ojaxebs awyoben an dros atareben. - CaurTo elgujam. Tamadobda iliko, meriqifis rols anatoli asrulebda. bavSvs Zalian uxaroda, roca ufrosebi amis nebas aZlevdnen. abanodan gamosuli elguja qaTmis xorcs madianad Seeqceoda. antonina didron xorcis naWrebs uwyobda TefSze. Tumca elgujas daZaleba ar sWirdeboda, Cqara Wamda da Zvlebs gverdiT awyobda. _ ai, es xaWapuri mwams, dauReWavad midis yelSi. - siciliT iZaxda elguja. _ modi, Cveni mSoblebis sadRegrZelo iyos!.. - Cailaparaka ilikom - Wiqa zeviT aswia da gaagrZela, - ai, me deda rom ar myavdes, ra meSveleboda. Cemi usinaTlo deda isev ise miyurebs, rogorc bavSvs. ai, xom xedav, samoc wels gadavabije da Sen warmoidgen, kidev mWirdeba deda. hoda, Cemi dedis saxiT yvela Svilis mSobels gaumarjos. sadac iyvnen, aqac da iqac... - Tqva da ilikom sasmeli sulmouTqmelad gadahkra. elgujam cols gaxeda. qmarma SeniSna, antoninas rogor gaufiTrda saxe da Cumi oxvra, romelic ilikos ar SeuniSnavs, gulidan moswyda. _ bednieri kaci xar. ai, gyavs deda da gixaria. es sixaruli mTeli sicocxlea. anatolis mSoblebs gaumarjos, Cems mSoblebs, Senc, xolo vinc ar aris, masac gaumarjos. _ bednieri xar! mixval da deda gagiSlis sufras, logins. _ eh, vin momca me bedniereba? elguja erTxans cols misCereboda, Semdeg ilikos Sexeda da odnav aweuli xmiT SeekiTxa: _ vin iyo Cemi colis deda, sadauri? erTbaSad yvelaferi airia. elgujam dainaxa, rogor daebara yelis ZarRvebi moxucs, rogor gaufiTrda saxe da pirSi Cadebuli lukma Zlivs gadaylapa. xeli galurjebul tuCebze moisva, Semdeg angariSmiucemlad
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Zirs dauSva. enaze momdgari sityvebi, raRac Zalam ukanve daubruna da haerSi raRac uazro bgerebi gadmoscvivda. saxtad darCenilma antoninam jer ganawameb mamas Sexeda, Semdeg mzera qmarze gadaitana. elgujam mis TvalebSi usazRvro sevdis garda sul sxva ram dainaxa. aman SeaSina igi. es zizRnarevi risxva iyo im sityvebis mimarT, rac am wuTSi qmarma mamis misamarTiT warmoTqva. iliko erTxans Tavdaxrili ijda. Semdeg SeSfoTebuli Tvalebi miapyro erTaderT Svils da am wuTSi, rogorc arasdros moxucs mounda, misuliyo da gulSi Caekra. gulSi Caekra, ara rogorc mSobel mamas, aramed rogorc mSobel dedas, magram misma saSinelma gamoxedvam, misma usazRvro sevdam da TvalebSi Camjdarma mwuxarebis xazma ar misca ufleba, es gaekeTebina. am wuTSi, rogorc arasdros, moxucma igrZno, rom igi, rogorc mama pasuxs agebda ara marto qaliSvilis winaSe, aramed siZis winaSec da TviT qaliSvili raRacaSi pasuxs agebda qmris winaSe. Tu dRemde mTeli sicocxle itanjeboda sakuTari tanjviT da mwuxarebiT, dReidan mas miemata meore, es iyo qaliSvilis mwuxareba. orive am tanjvis saTave saerTo iyo. elgujas mier wamosrolilma am sityvebma, romelsac mis warmoTqmamde ar miucia araviTari mniSvneloba, exla igrZno, rom Tqva imaze meti, vidre amis Tqmis ufleba hqonda da rom igi Seexo yvelaze mtkivneul adgils, romelic am misTvis yvelaze maxlobel adamianebs hqondaT. magram bolomde mainc ver Caswvda im tkivilis siRrmes. roca mama-Svilis umweo mdgomareoba dainaxa, gakvirvebuli wamodga da Tqva: _ netav, ram dagaRonaT? gana cotaa, iseTebi visac deda ar hyavT da arc axsovT? _ Sen SegeZlo, sxvanairad gexsenebia dedaCemi.- uxeSad uTxra colma, wamodga da Cqara datova iqauroba. siZe-simamrs Soris uxilavi bzari gaCnda. maT veRar aawyves sadRegrZeloebis warmoTqma da male wamodgnen. welmowyvetilma ilikom erTxans ezoSi ibrZola, Semdeg WiSkars miaSura. elguja da anatoli baRSi gavidnen. xeebs Semouares. oTaxidan gamosuli antonina jer samzareuloSi Sevida. yurSi uwioda qmris mier nasroli sityva da ratomRac eCveneboda, am sityvebSi mcire ironiac eria. _ ratom Tqva am toniT? - ekiTxeboda Tavis Tavs da isev da isev is ironia ar asvenebda qals. _ man yvelaze mtkivneul adgilze mikbina. rogor gaufiTra mamas saxe, mis Sublze TiTqos ZarRvebic Setokdnen. rogor miyurebda, TiTqos Cemgan iTxovda Svelasac da patiebas. ratom iTxovda patiebas? an da risTvis inaxavs saidumlod imas, rac dedaCems Seexeba?
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gverdiT oTaxSi gavida, Tavisi xelCanTidan suraTi amoiRo. suraTi Zveleburi iyo, muyaos ydaze dakruli da siZvelisagan adgil-adgil damtvreuli. frTxilad Seexo, Semdeg skamze Camojda da gulze miikra. Zveli suraTidan oTxi qalis saxe ucqerda antoninas. _ eseni Seni dedis debi arian. - uTxra erTxel bebiam da es suraTi dedis Tbili mkerdiviT Seiyvara jer kidev bavSvma. _ ra hqviaT, netav? - ikiTxa gogonam da maTi saxeebi CaaTvaliera, im mizniT rom maTSi TavisTavTan msgavsebis raime niSani daenaxa. _ akulina, Sura, nataSa, klava- CamoTvala bebiam da Semdeg daumata: kargad daimaxsovre, bebo, isini Seni dedis debi arian. _ deda sad aris? _ mova, bebo. maTTan wavida! - pasuxi dagvianebuli iyo da gabzaruli. amas mixvda gogona, magram ar Caacivda, radgan daaxloebiT aseT pasuxs iRebda mudam. _ akulina, Sura, nataSa, klava. - Cailaparaka, - isini Cemi dedis debi arian. _ ai, yvelaferi is, rac vici dedis axloblebis Sesaxeb. mamam maT Sesaxeb Zalian bevri icis da malavs. risTvis malavs? - ai, am wuTSic suraTiT gulze akruli zis da amaze fiqrobs. ocdaaTi weli gavida, rac omi damTavrda.mas warmodgena arasodes hqonia, rogori iyo deda. ocdaaTi welia, adamianebma moiSuSes omiT miyenebuli Wrilobebi. mis gulSi ki isev Wrilobaa gauTavebeli da ganukurneli. es tkivili lodiviT mZimea da mosvenebas ar aZlevs. _ vina xarT Tqven? sad xarT Tqven?- kiTxulobs TiTqmis yoveldRe, magram mamisTvis arasodes ukiTxavs. ar ukiTxavs, radgan icis, ar etyvis da amitomac ar unda gauaxlos miZinebuli tkivili. _ ,,viTom miZinebuli? mamis sevdian TvalebSi igi xedavs, raRac mware Soreul zmanebs, mware tanjvas da swored am tanjvis dros ar unda Seexos Svilis xeli. _ akulina, Sura, nataSa, klava - marcvlavs da kidev daeZebs maT saxeebSi TavisTan msgavsebis niSnebs. _ klava me mgavs da radgan me mgavs, is dedasac emsgavseba! - amitom muyaosydiani suraTidan yvelaze metad swored is Seiyvara, romelsac klava erqva. _ es namdvilad dedas hgavs, mravaljer arwmunebda gogona sakuTar Tavs.- mas Tavze Wreli Tavsafari akravs, maRal yels umSvenebs yelsabami. sxva naWrisgan Sekeril zedatanze usaxelo, jibebiT damSvenebuli Jileti acvia. am oTxi qalidan es qali swored Tavisi ukrainuli CacmulobiT gamoirCeoda da antoninas gulSi raRac siamayis grZnobac ibade- 295 -

boda am Cacmulobis gamo. swored am qalis erovnulma Cacmulobam Seayvara misi dedis mSobliuri mxare. mudam grZnobda sadRac Sors am mTebsa da gorebs, iqiT iyo misTvis ucnobi mxare. ucnobi, magram Zalian mSobliuri, Zalian axlobeli. igi grZnobda, rom misi guli orad iyo gayofili da erTi nawili mtkivneulad ganicdida am maxlobeli, magram ucnobi mxaris siSores. eCveneboda, rom igi mTeli sicocxle cxovrobda gulis im naxevariT, romelic mamas ekuTvnoda, xolo, naxevari gaqvavebulgayinuli ido umoZraod. amas igi TviT xelis SexebiTac grZnobda. _ ratom Tqva ase? - kiTxulobda antonina da ar SeeZlo, qmrisTvis epatiebina es sityvebi. antoninasTvis dedis xsovna iyo yvelaze saTuTi da wminda. igi ukiduresi grZnobiT iyo gamsWvaluli yvelafrisadmi,rac dedasTan iyo dakavSirebuli. amitom, ase agdebiT warmoTqmuli qmris sityvebi misTvis ara marto Tavmoyvareobis Selaxva, aramed aRmaSfoTebelic iyo. oTaxSi elguja Semovida, cremlSemSral colis Tvalebs ver gauZlo da gverdiT gaixeda. _ me ise vTqvi... ai, Seni gulisTvis... bolos da bolos, samareSi xom ar unda Caitanos is, rac Sen ukurnebel dardad gawevs gulze. ratom ver gaige, rom me Seni gulisaTvis vTqvi. - usayvedura qmarma. _ Sen mamas guli atkine. xom xedav, mas ar surs am sakiTxze laparaki. is...is... - veRar daamTavra da atirda. im RamiT, Cveulebrivze adre dawva dedis mier kankaliT gaSlil qveSagebSi. erTxans loginSi itriala. suli exuTeboda da eCveneboda, TiTqos gulze raRac uWerda. Zalian surda, Tvalebi daexuWa da Rrma ZiliT daeZina, magram Tvalebis daxuWvisTanave isev is Soreuli zmaneba elandeboda da SeSinebuli Tvalebs axelda. SuaRame gasuli iyo, roca Zilma sifxizle mostaca. deda sofios ki Rrma ZiliT eZina, TeTri, kargad movlili katac tkbilad xvneSoda mis fexebTan.... ....sadRac Sors, mzis axlos, yvavilebiT aWrelebul mdeloze, TeTrad gadafenili cxvris fara Zovda. iliko axalgazrda, pirtitvela da norCi, cxvrisaken midioda. niavi qroda, cxvari Relavda, rogorc zRva, TmebaqoCrili Wabuki uaxlovdeboda maT. Soriaxlos Wabukma nakadulis CuxCuxi gaigona da misken Setrialda wyurvilis mosaklavad. qari momZlavrda, cxvris Relvac qariSxals daemsgavsa. wyaros wylisken mimavals gza jogma CauRoba. gzis gagrZeleba scada, magram anazdad Sedga. wyarosTan Tavwakruli qali aisveta. mas orive xeliT wyali mohqonda ilikosTvis. isev Relavda cxvari da maT erTmaneTTan Sexvedras xels uSlida. Semdeg...
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... Semdeg cxvris qaravans erTi cxvari gamoeyo da jiqur gaeSura qaliSvilisken. vaimeo,- ikivla da wyliT savse xelebi gaSala ucbad. daRvara civi wyali. kidev aRelda cxvari. sul ramdenime nabiji aSorebdaT erTmaneTisgan, rom miwam piri daaRo da Tavisken CaiTria qali. _ mi-Sve-le!- gaisma gulSemzaravi kivili qalisa da ilikom dainaxa misken saSvelad gamowvdili xelebi da cremliT avsebuli cisferi Tvalebi. miwa ki umowyalod miaTrevda da miaTrevda Tavisken. saSineli qali boboqrobda da fexis gadadgmas uSlida Wabuks. miwis piri mZivebs Seexo da Wabukma Tvalebi daxuWa. mTeli ZalRone moikriba da misken iskupa, magram sikvdilma mouswro Wabuks da ufskrulma Tavwakruli Tavi Camala. _ uSveleT! - iRriala ilikom. usinaTlo moxucma sawolidan fexebi Camohyo, kankaliT jixo moZebna da Svilis sawolisken wafarTxunda. Svili SeanjRria, iliko gamoerkva. moxucma wyali miawoda. _ dalie, mogikvdes deda! _ ar minda dedi. - mudariT uTxra moxucs da sabani waifara. mogvianebiT wamodga im diliT iliko, isauzma, kolmeurneobis sawyobis magivrad isev qaliSvilis binisaken Cauxvia. im wuTSi ver gipasuxebdaT, ratom gaakeTa ase, raRac Zalas mihyavda mis SeukiTxavad. xeliT moswia WiSkris saxeluri, fexi Sedga da SekrTa. antoninas swored is Tavsakravi ekra Tavze, wuxel dedamisis Tavze rom dainaxa. mas aCqarebiT mihyavda anatoli sabavSvo baRSi. qaliSvilis Tvalebs ar gamohparvia mamis feriscvaleba. Seebrala igi. _ ram SegaSina mama? - SeekiTxa da mis saxes daakvirda. _ anatolim Seni bavSvoba momagona. me swored aseTi dagtove. antoninam gakvirvebiT Sexeda mamas, Tavi gaaqnia da wasCurCula. _ Sen cdebi mama. me masze patara damtove. - Semdeg kvlav daakvirda mamis saxes da mis gverdSi ratomRac is Tavwakruli qali daudga ukrainuli tansacmliT, suraTSi rom idga da klava erqva saxelad. Svilis mgrZnobiare guli yvelafers mixvda da qaliSvilis suli Sezara am mixvedram: man da misma Svilma dakarguli col-Svilis saxe moagona. _ elguja saxlSia? _ uTenia wavida fermaSi. _ momeci bavSvi. me waviyvan. Sen skolaSi ar dagagviandes. WiSkarSi gasul mamas da vaJiSvils ukan gahyva qali. saRamos, roca skolidan dabrunda, mamas ukve moeyvana anatoli da galias umagrebda aivanze.
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mamas dabneuli saxe hqonda. _ moxvedi, Svilo? antonina Sedga. simsuqnemoreul mamis gafiTrebul saxes daakvirda da guli SeekumSa. _ modi, Camojeqi. salaparako maqvs SenTan. qali gakvirvebuli dajda skamze. muxlebze wignebiT da rveulebiT gatenili CanTa daides. _ me... me... damaviwyda im soflis saxeli, sadac daibada dedaSeni. im saxlSi omamdec aRaravin cxovrobda, dedaSenis debi ki poltavis olqSi iyvnen. omis Semdeg ramdenimejer gavgzavne werili, magram ar mipasuxes. ar vici... is adgili ramdenimejer daikaves germanelebma. iqneb aRarc arian cocxlebi, an vin icis, iqneb isinic wyeulebma germaniaSi gairekes.- aq xma aukankalda ilikos. qaliSvils Seebrala mama. qaliSvilma CanTa gaxsna, iqidan muyaosydiani suraTi amoiRo da mamas miawoda. _ es suraTi daaxloebiT rodis aris gadaRebuli, rom dRevandeli maTi asaki davadgino? mamam suraTi aiRo, daxeda da kidev SekrTa _ ai, am qals, akulinas, ori Svili hyavda da orive meddebad iyvnen omSi wasulebi. amis vaJi, vasia, ukrainis pirvel frontze ibrZoda da araviTari cnoba ar arsebobda. _ Sen saidan ici? - Seawyvetina gakvirvebulma qaliSvilma. iliko SekrTa, magram Tavi ar auRia, ise gaagrZela. _ es qali Suraa. minskSi cxovrobda. mis gogonas nina erqva, - CurCuliT Cailaparaka moxucma tuCebi Seutokda, - misi saxis daviwyeba Zalian Znelia. suraTi Svils gadasca da gairinda. _ meoTxe da, nataSa, am suraTis gadaRebis dros Tavis meuRlesTan erTad cxovrobda stavropolSi. misi meuRle cudi kaci iyo da Semdeg daSordnen. omma saubedurod Segvyara akulinas saxlSi... ho! es suraTi omis win aris gadaRebuli. _ maS, es vin aris? - SeekiTxa qaliSvili da TiTi meoTxe qals daado. _ es xom Seni dedaa! - gakvirvebiT miugo mamam _ Cemi dedaa? - raRac nerviulad da mtkivneulad wamoiZaxa antoninam da zeze wamodga. _ Cemi dedaa es Tavwakruli qali da dRemde ar vicodi? - SeekiTxa mamas da isev Camojda. ilikom dabneviT Sexeda aRelvebul Svils. ratom swamda dRemde mas, rom es Tavwakruli misTvis ufro Zvirfasi iyo, vidre erTaderTi qaliSvilisaTvis? ratom sjeroda, rom mas cxovrebam ufro meti waarTva, vidre mis Svils? _ me vfiqrobdi, Sen icodi. Tanac mudam miZneldeboda masze saubari.
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_ Sen es ar gepatieba, mama! - sayveduriT uTxra. _ iqneb swori xar, magram mec maqvs mizezi. man mTeli Cemi cxovreba aCrdilad aqcia. omis Semdeg landiviT vcocxlob da zogjer am landisac meSinia. qaliSvili misma sityvebma gaaqvava. saSineli sinanuli igrZno, rom zedmeti Tqva. mwuxarebiT Sexeda mamis odnav SeSupebul Tvalebs, gafiTrebul saxes, WaRara Tavs, romlis Tmis TiToeuli Reri TrToda am wuTSi. Sexeda mis zomaze metad Cafskvnil sxeuls da raRacnairad mobuzul mxrebs. diax! yvelaze didi daRi cxovrebas am mxrebisaTvis daesva. _ rogor daberebula mamaCemi! - ratomRac mwared gaifiqra qalma da Tavis cxovrebaSi pirvelad SeuSinda guli. _ sikvdilma esec ar wamarTvas. - kidev uCurCula gulma. antoninam Tavi gaaryia. araferi uTqvams. gadawyvita, iqve daetovebia mama da kibisken gadadga fexi, rom mamis akankalebulma xelma Cqari moZraobiT SeaCera qaliSvili. misi xeli isev xelSi eWira. axlos miiwia da dabali xmiT uTxra: _ mTavari jer ar miTqvams, Svilo! _ agvistoSi wavideT iq. gaCveneb yvelafers. me SenTan erTad movigoneb tkbil wlebsac da im mwuxarebas, rac iqaurobasTan aris dakavSirebuli. davinaxav SenTan erTad, sadac fexi aidga dedaSenma da Semdeg erTad vitireb, iq, sadac dedaSenia. dasaflavebuli. _ dasaflavebuli? _ ho! _ Sen ici, sad, an rogor mokvda igi? _ vici. - raRac brazianad wamoiZaxa ilikom, sakinZe Seixsna da Sors gaixeda. mamis aRelvebulma saxem imis ufleba ar misca Svils, kidev ekiTxa rame. _ Cven agvistoSi wavalT iq! - waiCurCules misma tuCebma.
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1952w. 30 maisi qluxoris saavadmyofoSi Canaweri pirveli TviTon ar vici, ratom gadavwyvite damewera Cems Sesaxeb. ai, exla saavadmyofoSi var, qirurgiul ganyofilebaSi. yvelas sZinavs. fexi TabaSirSi maqvs. tkivilebi TiTqos damiyuCda. ratomRac amomitivtivda azri, raRac damewera Cemze, Zia silovanze, ai, ager rom sZinavs da amosunTqvisas Zlier haers uSvebs nestoebidan. mewera iasamanze, rogor miyvars iasamani, roca susti qari arxevs. amaSi sicocxles vxedav da me miyvars sicocxle. gverdiT isev Zia solovanis Zlieri sunTqva ismis da meCveneba,
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massa da iasamans Soris aris is kavSiri, rac iasamnis rxevasa da mis sunTqvaSia. man apendicitis operacia gaikeTa. ori dRe kvnesoda, dRes ki Rrmad CaeZina. iZine tkbilad, Zia silovan! Sen sunTqav da TiToeul amosunTqvisas nestoebs berav, iasamani ki irxeva da nanas gimReris. eqvsi Tve unda mqondes fexi TabaSirSi. eqvsi Tve, eqvsi saaTi xom ar aris? Sen warmoidgine, TiTqmis dazamTrebamde. ai, iasamani rom Camohyris Tavisi tanidan ukanasknel foTlebs, yvavilis surneliT aRar aivseba es oTaxi. Zlieri CrdiloeTis qari iqrolebs da mis SiSvel totebs Searxevs. dRes diliT movida liudmila petrovna. mas lidia petrovnas veZaxi. TovliviT TeTri Tmebi mSvidi saxe da alersiani cisferi Tvalebi aqvs. Zalian miyvars misi es Tvalebi. meCveneba, rom is yvelaze maxlobelia da sayvareli, yvelaze lamazi da Zvirfasi. _ ra aris es, anatoli? - momeCvena, mis am sityvebSi iyo wyenac, tkivilic da sayveduric. man Cem sisxlSi amosvrili fexi frTxilad aswia da me Semomxeda. me miyurebda Zalian maxlobeli Tvalebi da tirili Sevwyvite. im wuTSive mivxvdi, rom mas saSinlad vatkine guli. vcdilobdi tkivili dameZlia, rom lidia petrovnas Sewuxebuli saxe ar damenaxa. is Tavze medga. roca TabaSirSi fexi Camisves da palataSi gadamiyvanes, man saCvenebeli TiTi zeviT aswia da damibara. _ anatoli! ar icelqo! - es sityvebi mas dazepirebuli aqvs, Torem ar icis,rom aq, am mdgomareobaSi sicelqe ar SeiZleba? igi xom am sityvebiT macilebda TiTqmis yovel diliT. mivdiodi skolidan, ukan ar vixedebodi, magram vgrZnobdi, es mzrunveli qali, isev iq idga, meoTxe sabavSvo saxlis WiSkarTan da Tvals madevnebda, rom ar mecelqa, qva rom ar mesrola, rom win wasuli gogonasaTvis CanTa ar damegdebinebina da Tmebidan koxtad morgebuli bafTebi ar dameglija. me vicodi, lidia petrovna manamde idgeboda iq, vidre kino-Teatris SenobasTan ar Sevuxvevdi xelmarjvniv. aqedan skolamde arc erTi saxli ar idga. meore sarTulidan miyurebda direqtoris oTaxis fanjrebi da iqedan SeeZloT daenaxaT Cemi abezaroba, magram mainc vaswrebdi, win wasul biWs rom davweodi, fexi damedga da wameqcia. amis Semdeg iwyeboda Cveulebrivi dRe. atirebuli da gasvrili biWunas cremlebi, direqtoris kabinetSi Cemi gamoZaxeba. Tqven warmoidgineT, yovel diliT gibareben direqtoris kabinetSi. zogierTs arc ki daunaxavs, rogori kabineti aqvs mas. me ki, Tu gnebavT zepirad CamovTvli, kabinetSi ra nivTebia. pirdapir leninis portretia, tribunidan rom iyureba. kargia rom is me ar miyurebs, Torem iqneb, Cemi saqcielis Semrcxvenoda. magida, kidev midgmuli magida da zustad Teqvsmeti skami. gverdiT sabWoTa kavSiris politikuri ruka, mopirdapire mxares taxti,
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TeTri tilo gakerili da muTaqebiani... muTaqebi magaria. unda giTxraT ,rom am muTaqaze erTxel meZina kidec. amis Sesaxeb mTeli Tve vtrabaxobdi. es ase moxda: danaSaulisTvis direqtorma Tavis kabinetSi Camketa. rogorc ki kari miixura, taxtze wamovweqi, muTaqaze Tavi davde da Wers mivaCerdi. iq samnaTuriani ubralo WaRi ekida da mas davakvirdi. amis Semdeg aRar davupatimrebivar kabinetSi, Tumca yoveldRe gunebas rom vufuWebdi, kargad vici. amis Semdeg sxvadasxva sasjeli SemoiRes - aqedan yvelaze saZageli eqvsi saaTi kuTxeSi dgoma iyo. bavSvebi mecadineoben, koxtad sxedan Tavis merxebze, Sen ki ideqi kuTxeSi zurgiTo. amas JurnalSi Cawerili eqvsi oriani sjobda. am diliT, roca lidia petrovnam damtova, ratomRac mominda avmdgariyavi da fanjridan Semexeda am sayvareli qalis WaRara TavisTvis. ucbad damaviwyda misi danabarebi. aba, sawolSi rogor unda mecelqa. es ise Tqva, Tore gana iman ar icis, rom aq verc melniT veravis davusvri rveuls, saguldagulod gazeTs rom akravs Cems win mjdari gogona da verc wignidan amovuxev furcels. axla Tavisufali var. xangrZliv Sataloze, Cemi fexebi ki magrad gaukravT eqimebs. misi gasvlis xuTi wuTis Semdeg wamoviwie, xelebze daveydreni da fanjaraSi davapire gaxedva, magram iseTi tkivili vigrZeni, kinaRam guli wamivida. _ ar icelqo! - brazianad wamoviZaxe,magram ar avtirdi. _ ar icelqo! midi da, Tu biWi xar am fexiT icelqe. _ maroJni, maroJni, maroJni! - moisma quCidan xma. pirze mosuli nerwyvi Cavylape. gadavwyvite Tvalebi damexuWa. Tvalebi marTlac davxuWe da Tvla daviwye. vfiqrob, ase ufro male gava es mtanjveli eqvsi Tve. male gadamaviwyda Cemi mdgomareoba da idayvebze aviwie. _ maroJni-i-i! - gaisma gabmuli qalis xma da Tvalwin damidga bavSvebiT garSemortymuli. sami dRis winaT swored misgan oci nayini vayidine pranWia vaJa xizaniSvils. kargi biWia, magram metiCara, amitomac xvdeba xolme xSirad. Tmebs saguldagulod iyenebs da roca gogoebs elaparakeba, cali ybiT iRimeba. am sami dRis winaT sabavSvo saxlis ezoSi vTamaSobdiT. grZel skamze Soriaxlos lidia petrovna ijda da Tvalyurs gvadevnebda. am dros nayinis gamyidvelma gamoiara da daiyvira: _ maroJni, maroJni, maroJniii! lidia petrovnas gavxede Cumad. man jibisken waiRo xeli da gamiRima. misi mowodebuli xurda aviRe da kisrismtvreviT gamyidvel qals gamovudeqi. swored am dros Tvali Sevaswari gogoebSi mdgar vaJas. is albaT sainteresos laybobda, rom yvela TvalebcecebiT misCereboda. gadavwyvite, raRaciT damemcirebia maT TvalSi da
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roca mas mivuaxlovdi, SevZaxe: _ ei, mand ro ijgimebi! laybobas, gogoebs nayini rom uyido, isa sjobia. vaJa gawiTlda. arc sxvebs moewonaT Cemi siTavxede. uceb vaJam raRac gadawyvetileba miiRo da gamyidvelisaken gaiqca. man jibidan axali jayva amoiRo. im jayvaze suli mosdioda, qals miawoda da xvewniT uTxra: _ ramden nayins momcem, deida? qalma gasinja, masac moewona jayva. _ visia? _ Cemi. naCuqaria... _ mere ar genaneba? TvalebSi vuyurebdi vaJas. vicodi, es jayva Zalian enaneboda, magram Cemi damamcirebeli sityvebis eSinoda. Taviseburad gaiWima da Tqva: _ ara, srulebiT ara gamyidvelma nayiniani yuTi gaxsna da iqidan man nayini amoiRo. _ mTel jgufs geyofaT. gamarjvebuli saxiT gadmomxeda me vaJam da erTi cali gamomiwoda. _ ar minda. ra? me fuli ar maqvs? SensaviT naCuqar jayvebs ki ar vyidi - vuTxari da xurda mivawode qals. _ axalSeniSvili! - daufaravi zizRiT, amaRlebuli toniT Cailaparaka da momSorda. TavSi amivarda sisxli. misi zizRiani toni Zalian Sors umiznebda da pirdapir gulis im kuTxes esmoda, romelic yvelaze metad mtkioda. xelSi aRebuli nayini gavxseni, qaRaldi mTlianad Semovacale da mis saguldagulod dayenebul Tmebs vesrole. _ quCis saZageli! - gamosca kbilebidan, magram Cems anTebul Tvalebs roca Sexeda, igrZno, rom me arafers davTmobdi da odnav SeCerda. uceb deida lidia gaCnda. vaJas nayini CamoarTva da gogoebs dauriga. _ anatoli! Sen alioSa xaluzovi dageZebs. me SevCerdi vaJas gadavxede. rogor mindoda am gogoebis Tvalwin gameTela, magram deida lidias cisferi mSvidi da keTili Tvalebi isev miyurebdnen. amjerad davwynardi. _ diax! axalSeniSvili var. mere Sen ra? gana, xizaniSvilic imitom ar dagarqves, rom sabavSvo saxls Semoexizne? _ anatoli! eseTi saubari rogor SeiZleba? _ man pirveli daiwyo. _ aq yvela Zmebi xarT anatoli, vaJa, rogor SeiZleba erTmaneTs moagonoT is, rac yvelaze metad gawuxebT. dRes yvela erTmaneTis Zmebi xarT. nuTu aq cudad grZnobT Tavs?
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_ sul erTia. mas davbegvav, - vTqvi da alioSa maswavlebelTan gaviqeci. Canaweri meore qluxoris saavadmyofo 15 ivnisi mzem SemoanaTa Cems fanjarasTan. Tan imdeni siTbo Semoitana, rom sabani gverdze gadavwie. swored am dros SevamCnie TabaSirSi gakruli fexi. kidev oTxi Tve, aseT mdgomareobaSi. iasamnis yvavilis foTlebSi siyviTle gaCnda, isini yoveldRe izrdebian, magram diliT mze rom daanaTebs Tavze, meCveneba, TiTqos yviTeli feri bunebrivad gardamavali feria iasamnis yvavilis ferTan. am wuTSi veRarc vgrZnob, rom es yviTeli feris yvavili xval aRar iqneba am xeze. guSin mkurnalma eqimma Cumad miTxra, am Tvis bolos uflebas mogcem yavarjnebiT gaiaroo. saucxooa. Cemi fexiT gavivli derefans. Sevxedav yvela avadmyofs da rac mTavaria, yvela fanjridan davinaxav mzes, amomavalsac da Camavalsac. manamde ki, saWiroa movikribo Rone, rom ase viwve. guSin Cemi klaselebi movidnen. ujrebi aavses tkbileuliT da xiliT. yvela siyvaruliT da mowiwebiT miyurebda. is gogonac movida, SarSan mTeli meoTxedi rom iyo CemTan gabutuli. roca TabaSirSi Casmuli fexi dainaxa, amoioxra da Tvali amarida. gavwiTldi, magram imitom ki ara, rom mis TvalebSi Cemdami sibraluli davinaxe, aramed imitom, rom swored es fexi iyo imis mizezi, rom Cven erTmaneTs ar velaparakebodiT. am gogonas qeTino hqvia. is meore sabavSvo saxlis aRsazrdelia. swavlobs warCinebiT, icvams zedmiwevniT sufTad da Cems win mdgar merxze zis. maRizianebs misi qaTqaTa sayelosa da bafTebis mzera. TiTqmis amis gamo vCxubobT yoveldRe. Sesvenebisas, rogorc ki maswavlebeli derefanSi gavida, me mivwvdi da lamazi bafTi Camovaglije. is xSirad iTmens. cdilobs, ar Caerios CxubSi, magram amjerad veRar moiTmina da CanTa, romelic im wuTSi ujridan amoiRo, mTeli ZaliT TavSi Camartya. Tan sicili daiwyo. _ uzrdelo! - miyvira qeTinom. gavCumdi, mxolod imitom, rom samagiero mere gadamexada. im dResve, rogorc ki geografiis maswavlebelma qeTino kokosaSvili rukasTan gamoiZaxa, fexi misi merxisaken gavwie da qeTino Zirs daeca. samarisebuli siCume Camowva. maswavlebeli CemTan moiWra. araferi ar uTqvams, ise amiyvana direqtorTan.... qeTino ki mTeli meoTxedi ar mcemda xmas. im dResve moiwvies maswavlebelTa gaerTianebuli kreba da Cemi sakiTxi ganixiles.
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prezidiumSi lidia petrovnac miiwvies. prezidiumis cota moSorebiT vijeqi. sityviT gamosulma Tanaklaselebma da klasis damrigebelma yovlad saZagel adamianad CamTvales. sityva qeTinos ar uTxovia. is ukan ijda da Tavi Zirs daexara. erTxel Sexvda Cveni Tvalebi erTmaneTs da im wuTSi vigrZeni, rom Cems magier rcxvenoda. sityva erTma gogonam iTxova. cisferi Tvalebi da TeTri Tmebi hqonda. paralelur klasSi swavlobda, vicnobdi, Tumca arasodes mivsalmebivar. Cumad amovida scenaze. ar misula tribunebTan, rogorc gaakeTes sxvebma. Cems axlos dadga. uxerxulobisagan SeviSmuSne, roca man mxrebze damado xeli. misma patara, magram energiulma xelma Cems mxarTan raRac figuruli moZraoba gaakeTa. mivxvdi, rom Cems dasacavad gamovida. _ anatoli Cveulebrivi bavSvia. arc meti da arc naklebi. cotas celqobs, magram gana es danaSaulia? _ gogonas Seuracyofa danaSauli ar aris? - SeekamaTa vaJa xizaniSvili. _ ara, es bavSvuri sicelqea, romelic SeiZleba davZlioT. gogona erTxans Cafiqrebuli idga, Semdeg gamSorda. is daaxloebiT ori wliT Cemze patara Canda. win waiwia da Camomefara. axla veRar vxedavdi moswavleTa mwyral Tvalebs. _ me,...me ar minaxavs omi. arc misi saSineleba gamomicdia, radgan omis dros aq viyavi da mSvidad meZina saqarTveloSi. me ar vfiqrob, Tqvens Soris iyos vinme iseTi, visac Tavis Tavze ar gamoecados es tanjva? Cemi mSoblebi iq iyvnen da naxes yvelaferi. piradad me didxans ar vicodi, ra bedi ewia maT. igi Sedga. darbazi sulganabuli usmenda mas. _ maT vucdidi, vucdidi raRac avadmyofuri molodiniT. bebia meubneboda, mama mova da dedas moiyvanso. mjeroda misi. erTxel gabutuli vijeqi WiSkarTan. viRac axmaxi biWi movida, qva mesrola da rogorc yvavi, ise CamZaxa, Seni deda mkvdari aris, sulelo, visRa ucdio. Tqven ver warmoidgenT, rogor SemZulda is biWi, bebiasTan gaviqeci... magram mTavari mainc ici, ra iyo? gogonam amoioxra, Tumca mas zurgidan mivCerebodi, vigrZeni saxe anTebuli hqonda da xma odnav uTrToda. _ me yvela bavSvi SemZulda, visac deda hyavda. - igi gaCumda. darbazi garinduli iyo. _ qeTino! Sen xom SegiZlia ufro gulisxmieri iyo anatolisadmi: vaJa! Senc xom SegiZlia ar moagono mas sakuTari gvaris istoria? xom SegviZlia, erTmaneTs gaugoT da miTumetes im bavSvebs, vinc ar icis, ra aris dedis siTbo. maTma mSoblebma xom CvenTvis dahkarges sicocxle, ojaxi. vagrZnobinoT, rom es kedlebi misi ojaxia da Cven
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ki misi da-Zmani. Cven unda gavugoT maT. gogonas aravisTvis ar Seuxedavs, ise dabrunda darbazSi. me mxrebSi movixare, sircxvilma amiwva saxe. mrcxvenoda am wuTSi yvelasi: geografiis maswavleblis da qeTinosi, vaJasi da direqtoris, mrcxvenoda lidia petrovnasi, magram yvelaze metad mrcxvenoda im cisferTvaleba gogonasi, weRan rom idga Cems win. _ lidia petrovna quCaSi daxvda, roca antonina quCaSi brundeboda. _ antonina, Zvirfaso, gmadlobT. Sen mSvenieri sulis adamiani yofilxar. mis sityvebze antoninam sevdianad gaiRima. _ me Zma myavda. mas tolia erqva. dabombvaSi mohyva. - momesma es kvnesaviT naTqvami sityvebi. gavqvavdi. mivxvdi, sul axlos davinaxe misi gulistkivili. mourCeneli da sikvdilamde gaumrTelebeli. rogor mindoda gavqceuliyavi da mis Tvalebze mosuli cremlebi Semewminda, rogor mindoda vyofiliyavi is tolia, mis Zmas rom erqva saxelad. suliT da guliT mindoda is yofiliyo Cemi da...Cemi da...- gaxevebuli videqi da gavyurebdi axalSenis mimarTulebiT wasul gogonas. lidia petrovnac Cems gverdiT idga. mal-male Semomxedavda, Semdeg isic iqiT iyureboda, saiTkenac me vicqirebodi. wynarad amoioxra da TiTqos Tavis Tavs eubnebao, waiCurCula: _ RmerTo Cemo! rogor hgavxar am gogonas. ratom dRemde ar SemimCnevia. - me guli gadamiqanda, lidia petrovnas TovliviT TeTr Tmebs Sevxede. xeli gavuwode da Sevexe mis xelebs. vigrZeni is mSobliuri siTbo, romelic omma wamarTva. aqedan daiwyo Cemi da antoninas megobroba. Canaweri mesame qluxoris saavadmyofo. 15 ivlisi es dRe namdvilad Rirsaxsovaria. fexze wamovdeqi. cota adre ki, vidre adgomas gadavwyvetdi, loginze mTeli taniT wamovjeqi. fexebi Zirs Camovwie da ase davrCi ramdenime xans. - es alioSa xalizovma mirCia, wamodgomisas Tavbru aRar dagexvevao. Semdeg wamoviwie da oTaxSi sawolze dayrdnobiT gaviare. SuadRe iyo, roca derefanSi cali TvaliT gaviWyite. iq nel-nela mimodiodnen avadmyofebi. roca Cemi gakvirvebuli saxe dainaxes, yvelam siaruli Sewyvita da Semomxedes. Tavs Zala davatane, yavarjens mTeli sxeuliT daveyrdne, marcxena fexi gadavdgi, marjvena ki gavacure. ori nabijic da derefanSi aRmovCndi. _ ai, yoCaR, tolia! - raki fexi aidgi, awi win wava saqme. - miTxra
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levan Ziam, romelic Cemi xSiri stumari iyo palataSi. is Zalian miyvarda. miyvarda Tavisi moswrebuli anekdotebis, Tavisi bavSvobis Tavgadasavlebis moyolis, Tavisi keTili xasiaTebis gamo da a.S. nel-nela gavyevi kedlebs, mopirdapire fanjarasTan mivedi da gareT gavixede. aqedan mosCanda mTeli ezo, saavadmyofoSi Semosasvleli rkinis WiSkari, buCqebiT Camwkrivebuli quCa. ori saxlis iqiT skolaa, aqedan misi saxuravi Cans mxolod. Cemamde aRwevs xmebi, mWeqari, sicilismsgavsi xmebi da vgrZnob, Sesvenebaze arian bavSvebi. ezoSi xalizovi Semovida da mivxvdi, rom Cems sanaxavad modioda. igi Cveni sabavSvo saxlis yvelaze sayvareli aRmzrdeli iyo. sportuli tani hqonda. xalizovi Cven sabavSvo saxlSi aRizarda. omma mozrdils mouswro, xolo omis damTavrebas srulasakovani Sexvda. dauswreblad swavlobda fizkulturis institutSi da CvenTan maswavleblad darCa. xSirad gulCaTxrobili iyo, albaT maSin ganadgurebuli ojaxi da daRupuli mSoblebi edga Tvalwin. danarCen SemTxvevaSi sabavSvo saxlis suli da guli iyo. alioSam Soridan Semaswro Tvali, gamiRima da SvebiT amoisunTqa. man raRac Sexveuli gadmomawoda da ase miTxra: _ gaerTe tolia. bavSvuri saTamaSoa, magram vici, gagexardeba. frTxilad gavxseni qaRaldSi gaxveuli saCuqari da sixarulisagan viyvire. _ gemi, ra lamazi gemia! avadmyofebi Semomexvien. viRacam ixumra: _ maseTi gemiT TamaSi sul patarebs SehferiT, es ki gogoebisken ixedeba ukve! - yvelas gaecina _ ici, ra aris es toliasaTvis! Tavis oTaxi gemebis koleqciiT aqvs savse, kidev erTi exla movutane. alioSas da mTel sabavSvo saxls swamda, rom me odesRac gemis kapitani gavxdebodi. _ gmadlobT, alioSa maswavlebelo. - vuTxari da saCuqari fanjaraze davde da Tan Soridan SevaTvaliere. gemze ki namdvilad vocnebobdi. is iyo mas Semdeg, roca erT zafxuls, lilia petrovnam Sav zRvaze dasasveneblad wamiyvana. manamde zRva mxolod kinoSi Tu menaxa. misma sididem da ganuzomelma silamazem CemSi waruSleli STabeWdileba datova. gemic vnaxe jer Soridan, Semdeg deidam amiyvana. swored am dros TeTr formaSi gamowyobili kapitani davinaxe. Cems win idga saSualo tanis, energiuli saxis mamakaci. Cveulebrivi adamiani, magram TviT CveulebrivSi iyo raRac araCveulebrivi, uCveulo da mis winaSe Cemi Tavi Zalian patarad momeCvena. Cems win ki idga zRva, mefed wodebuli didi bumberazi. es gazviadebuli Sefaseba ar iyo misi. am ubralo adamians SeeZlo, ebrZana usasrulo da ukidegano silurjisTvis. zRvis silurje mas uZlevel Zalas aZlevda. mis patara
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moZraobaze iyo damokidebuli yvelaferi: gemi, zRva, adamianebi, is talRebic, ager gemis sip kedels rom askdeba da ukan brundeba. es is aris, is TeTrkaniani kapitani, ukan rom abrunebs mozRvavebul zvirTebs, aRelvebul da aboboqrebul zRvaTa Relvas. mas Semdeg, iq yofnis periodSi gaveparebodi petrovnas da vucdidi navsadgurSi Semosul gemebs. davbrundiT ukan. Tavisufali zRva, Tavisi gemebiT, navebiT da unapiro moxazulobebiT Cemi cxovrebis nawili gaxda. Seviyvare mziani zRva, lurji, kamkama zvirTebi. is kapitani, TeTri qaTqaTa kiteliT, erT Rames damesizmra. zRva iyo lurji da unapiro. me mas gavcqerodi, Tan gverdiT mdgom kapitnis brZanebas velodi. me am brZanebas aRelvebiT velodi, Tan unapiro SoreTisken vicqirebodi. im wuTSi meCveneboda,rom am wynar da kamkama zRvaze TviT fexiTac SemeZlo gavla. amaze fiqrma ise gamitaca, rom ver SevamCnie, rogor moswyda adgils gemi da unapiro SoreTisaken gamitaca. ver warmoidgenT, ra sazeimo RimiliT vSordebodi napirs. napirze ki TandaTan pataravdeboda deida lidias silueti, romelic me macilebda. didxans vxedavdi mis TeTr Tmebs da zeviT aweul TeTr cxvirsaxocs. vuyurebdi, is ki keTil mgzavrobas misurvebda. Tumca isic da misi TeTri Tmebic didi xania sadRac napirze darCa, misi saxe da Rimili, mSvidi, mSobliuri Rimili isev mosCanda da miqnevdnen xelebs. axla aRarc napiri sCanda da aRarc miwis moxazuloba. gemi miapobda zRvas da Tqven warmoidgineT, saWesTan is kapitani ki ara, me vijeqi. misi TeTri kiteli mecva da Tavisufal zRvaze vbatonobdi. gemi miiwevda win Ria zRvaSi, arsad miwis nawili da arsad Rrublis nafleTi ar mosCanda. _ Semdeg... TviTon ar maxsovs, saidan gaCnda Rrublebi, mas urCxuliseburi moyvaniloba hqonda da iq, sadac zRva uerTdeboda zecas, nel-nela tortmanobda. yurTan Tbilma qarma SemiRitina da erTdroulad SevigrZeni miwisa da zRvis sunTqva. isev im Rrublebs gavcqerodi, romelic gasaocari siCqariT moeqaneboda Cemsken. qarma imZlavra da zeviT anZebi Searxia. Cemi gemi ki moapobda aqoCril zvirTebs. am wuTSi CemSi gaCnda gasaocari grZnoba. es brZolaSi gamarjvebis didi grZnoba iyo da me mas mivende. qari qariSxlad iqca da gemi Seatortmana, magram ar Semdgara, isev ganagrZobda winsvlas. aboboqrebuli zvirTebi gemis kedlebTan imsxvreoda, me davcqerodi, vtkbebodi amiT da gulamoskdomamde vicinodi. Tmebi amwewoda, saxe amiwiokda da im didi grZnobiT vicinodi, talRebi rom imsxvreodnen Cems win. _ CauSvi Ruza! - momesma kapitnis xma. gakvirvebuli Sevxede mas. gamikvirda, rom Semiwyvita es aRmafrena. gemi Seqanda.
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_ CauSvi Ruza! SevCerdi, misken Sevtrialdi. akvaniviT irweoda gemi. _ yvelani qveviT! _ anatoli, Senc! me gavjiutdi! siZneleebTan TamaSi miyvarda da gadavwyvite kapitanTan davrCeniliyavi. talRebi askdeboda da aryevda gems, Semdeg cal mxares gadizniqa, wyalma gadauara. me anZas wavetane da zeviT avcocdi. ver varCevdi, gemi miiwevda fskerisken, Tu me momdevda zRva. ver varkvevdi mxolod erTi suli mqonda, anZis Tavze avsuliyavi da avedi kidec. aqedan sul axlos iyo napiri, xalxi da deida lidias zeviT aweuli xeli. qariSxali Cemamde ar uSvebda am xmebs, magram vicodi, ras ambobda igi... _ nu geSinia lidia, deida lidia! fexebamde momwvda wyali da pirvelad davdeqi pirispir sikvdilTan. mas saSinlad didi xaxa hqonda da lurji Tvalebi. SemeSinda. am wuTSi saSinlad mominda sicocxle, napirTan dabruneba, lidia petrovnas Rimilis kidev erTxel danaxva... Tvalebi magrad davxuWe da anZidan napirisaken gavfrindi... _ biWebo! anatoli sawolidan gadmovarda! - momesma xma. gaisma sicili, yvela me Semomexvia. Tvalebi gavaxile da gavicine... arasodes aseTi kargi saxeebi ar hqoniaT Cems megobrebs. Canaweri meoTxe qluxoris saavadmyofo 20 ivlisi _ sZinavs? - Camesma da myisve Tvalebi gavaxile. me wamoviwie. mTel sxeulSi mSobliuri siTbo CameRvara da enis borZikiT Cavilaparake: _ es Sen xar CemTan? gogona Cems sawolze Camojda. mis saxeze veraviTari cvlileba ver SevamCnie. is xarbad miyurebda da Cemi saxis TiToeuli nakvTis damaxsovreba undoda. mis TvalebSi Semdeg sevdiani Rimili gaCnda, kalaTidan xaWapurebi amoiRo da Cemi karadis Tavze dado. _ es bebias gamomcxvaria, Wame exlave! - Tqva TiTqos brZanebiT - mere gacivdeba da aRar ivargebs. - man xaWapuri gatexa da erTi naWeri momawoda. _ Wame, bebia gemriel xaWapurebs acxobs. ai, roca morCebi, me mas gagacnob. _ gmadlobT antonina. _ ras ambob, ar gaacivo!
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me xaWapuris Wama daviwye, radgan gogona daJinebiT miyurebda. _ wigni xom ar mogitano? an Semovivli xolme da gamecadineb. _ aba, rogor Segawuxo? - oflma damiara tanSi. _ ra Sewuxebaa. me bavSvebs vTxov da rig-rigobiT vivliT. xom imecadineb? _ ra Tqma unda - vWamdi da ise vpasuxobd. _ tolia! fexi Zalian gawuxebs? _ ara, sruliad ara _ ityuebi. aba, daifice! - es sityvebi instiqturad wamoiZaxa da misi simwris siRrmes mere mixvda gogona da saSinlad inana. _ davifico? - vikiTxe - aba vin davifico? - gogona gafiTrda. mis saxeze davinaxe am wuTSi SiSiT gafarTovebuli cisferi mSvenieri Tvalebi. es Tvalebi nel-nela ivsebodnen cremlebiT. Semdeg ise, rom saxis erTi nakvTi ar Serxeula, cremlebi loyebze Camougorda. me Tavi Zirs davxare. _ davifico? vin davifico? - yurSi miwioda es ori fraza. Cems win ki ijda gogona, Cemze patara gogona da dagubebul cremlebs ylapavda. is Cems gamo tiroda? xeli gaviwode da mis patara xels Sevexe. _ am wuTSi Zalian mominda damemSvidebina igi da meTqva, rom is iyo Cemi saficari, Cemi RviZli da, Cemi axlo naTesavi, magram aseTi rame ver vuTxari. sityvebi ver vnaxe didi survilis gamosaxatavad. mxolod misi msubuqi xeli saxesTan mivitane da mivikari. _ anatoli, miambe Sens Sesaxeb. _ vswavlob qluxoris saSualo skolaSi. vizrdebi meoTxe sabavSvo saxlSi. vcelqob, vCxubob... sxva... ar vici... TviTon ar vici ra giambo. _ egeni mec vici, tolia. Sen is miambe... nuTu aRaraferi gaxsovs bavSvobidan, vidre aq moxvidodi. _ Zalian cota. magram isic ar vici, es sinamdvile iyo Tu ubralod survili, romelic ocnebasTan erTad midis da mere Sens TavSi sinamdviled iqceva. _ miambe is cota, is survili sinamdvilisa, miambe Seni fiqrebi. sul erTia, me mogismen. palataSi eqTani Semovida. _ es Seni da xom ar aris, tolia? - ikiTxa antoninas danaxvaze. me SevkrTi. antoninas Sevxede da davinaxe, rogor gauwiTlda fermkrTali saxe. TvalebSoris ki gawva sixaruli didi survilisa.. _ ho! es Cemi daa. - waviCurCule, magram im wuTSi vigrZeni, rom eqTanma ar daijera. _ kargi gogonaa! _ SenTan bavSvebi arian, tolia! - Tavi Semohyo silovan Ziam.
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eqTani Sedga. _ Tu SegiZlia SesasvlelTan gadi! - miTxra eqTanma da palatidan gavida. me frTxilad gadmovwie natkeni fexi. _ mogexmarebi! - daixara antonina da Custebi fexTan dado. _ ara, ara, me TviTon. gogonam yavarjeni momawoda. me nela gavyevi sawols da vcdilobdi, Cemi tkivili ar egrZno am saTuTi gulis patron qaliSvils. is manamde idga erT adgilze, sanam karebamde ar mivedi. Sevtrialdi da gavuRime. mxolod amis Semdeg gaxsna Sekruli warbebi da me wamomyva. _ tolia modis! - gaisma derefanSi bavSvebis mxiaruli yvirili. Signidan Caketili kari gavaReT da maTTan mosacdelSi gavediT. _ antonina, Senc? - ikiTxa vaJam. _ ho, me cota adre momivida mosvla. _ ar SegeZlo dagecada? - brazianad Cailaparaka vaJam. me mis saxes davakvirdi. guli metkina, roca SevamCnie, rom mas Surda misi Cemdami TanagrZnoba. _ me mindoda martos menaxa tolia. - raRac Sinagani xmiT uTxra antoninam da vaJas Tvali TvalSi gauyara. _ Seni nebaa! - Tavi Zirs daxara vaJam. _ momavali wlisaTvis albaT moaswrebs Seni fexi morCenas.Cailaparaka. Tema Secvala qeTinom: _ mTavaria, antonina jgufs ar CamorCes! _ isedac ar brwyinavda! - isev gamkicxa vaJam. _ es Sen sul ar gexeba! - miaxala antoninam. ai, rig-rigobiT vivliT da vamecadinebT. _ yoCaR, gaxda mfarveli angelozi! - isev CaurTo vaJam. Cems garda yvelam gakvirvebiT Sexeda am yoyloCina biWs. vicdidi, riTi damTavrdeboda es paeqroba. _ Sen ki, vaJa, sjobda dResac ar mosuliyavi. _ mapatie, rom xeli SegiSale. _ usindiso! me antoninas gafiTrebul saxes Sevxede. muStebi moekumSa da gafiTrebuli tuCebiT raRac uazro bgerebs ambobda. misi sityvebi ar gamomigonia. vaJas Tavze yavarjenma wre moxaza, Semdeg mTeli ZaliT masze daeca. bavSvebma mxolod maSin dainaxes igi, roca derefanSi gaiSota. _ tolia! risTvis Caidine es? - sayveduriT momvarda qeTino. _ Sedi palataSi, tolia! - wamCurCula antoninam da xelis kvriT Sesasvlelidan koridorSi Semagdo.
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fanjridan davinaxe, rogor wamoayenes bavSvebma vaJa, Semdeg raRacas eubnebodnen, ekamaTebodnen. antonina ki karebTan idga da Tvals ar aSorebda vaJas. me iqaurobas gavSordi. _ netav, marTla ar mosuliyo es sazizRari! - Cavilaparake. palataSi Sevedi da pirvelad Cems sicocxleSi fanjaraSi ar gamixedia, ise moceliliviT daveci sawolze. am wuTSi fexi marTlac aRar mtkioda, magram mtkioda guli... Zalian, Zalian mindoda vinmes Sevxebodi, iseTs, vinc sam wlamde micnobda. rogor mindoda mcodnoda, vin iyo deda Cemi, Cemi mamaCemi, vin myavda, rogori saxe hqonda Cems dedas, an da ra gvars atarebda Cemi mama. rogor mindoda erTxel damedo Tavi im baliSze, dedis saTuTi xeliT rom iyo gasworebuli. mec meTqva, es Cemi daa, Cemi Zmaa, Cemi biZaSvilia... fexi? ras miqvia fexis tkivili? am tkivils wamali arasdros udgeba. me guli mtkioda da albaT ganukurnebeli iyo es tkivili. ... viRac qali damatarebda sabavSvo baRSi, ase maxsovs. is karebTan mividoda da qals gasZaxebda: _ Cemi biWi CaibareT! - mere Cqara midioda, albaT samuSaoze eCqareboda. saxlSi Cems garda kidev erTi gogona iyo. mas nina erqva. nina Cemze ufrosi iyo da dedas eZaxda im qals. anu me da is da-Zmani viyaviT. isic maxsovs, roca sufrasTan visxediT da roca saWmels ugulod vWamdi, is qali mtuqsavda. _ tolia, Wame, Torem mamaSens werils mivwer da wiTel manqanas aRar mogitans. _ eh, tolia, sadauri qarTveli xar? TeTri Tmebi da cisferi Tvalebi gaqvs. - Semdeg Tmebze xels misvamda da Zalad maWmevda. aseTi SekiTxva bevrjer dausviaT. gansakuTrebiT maSin, roca Cemi vinaobis gageba ainteresebdaT. _ qarTveli var! - vpasuxobdi, Tumca maSin arc ki vicodi, ras niSnavda igi. _ sadauri qarTveli xar, biWo? - mesmoda xSirad. ratom ar maxsovs im qalis saxe, an ras veZaxdi mas? lidia petrovna ki marwmunebs, swored is iyo dedaSeni da albaT mamasTan ar cxovrobdao. Tu is dedaCemi iyo, ninam me ratom damiZaxa? _ tolia, mamaSeni modis? me gaviqeci da mamas kisers Camovekide. samxedro tansacmeli ecva, Savgvremani saxe da Savi, ukan gadavarcxnili swori Tmebi hqonda. _ me albaT ver moval, magram waiyvans... - es sityvebi ki CamrCa xsovnaSi. _ rodis? _ erT kviraSi gamomSvidobebisas is qali da nina ubralod gadakocna, me ki Camikra gulSi da ase vyavdi erTxans.
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_ vin icis, iqneb veRarc vnaxoT! - Cailaparaka cremlnarevi xmiT qalma. me meeWveba, rom es qali dedaCemi iyo. _ mas mTeli Tve dahyavdi im sabavSvo baRSi, romelic Cemi saxlidan ramodenime metris daSorebiT mdebareobda. mas TeTri bereti exura da Savi Jaketi ecva. im dResac man mogiyvana. arasodes ar amodis xsovnidan misi saxe, aCqarebuli siaruli... - marwmunebda xSirad lidia petrovna. ratom var darwmunebuli, rom qali, romelic mravaljer deida lidias CemTan erTad daunaxavs, deda ar iyo? Canaweri mexuTe qluxoris sabavSvo saxli 15 seqtemberi me gamweres. odnav vkoWlob, magram es araferia. albaT gaivlis. Semodgomaa. foTlebi cviva da axla ufro kargad sCans mze. Semodgomis mze ki yvelaze metad sayvarelia, zogjer ki sanatrelic. zogjer xSir RrublebSi mimaluli Tavs gamohyofs, Zvlebamde gagaTbobs, magram me mze sul sxva ramisTvis miyvars. mze sicocxlea da mixaria, roca am sicocxlis wyaros vucqer. RmerTis ar mjera. bedis - ki? ar vici, zogjer mwams bediswerisac. _ uRmerToo! - xSirad meubneba lidia petrovna. Tu RmerTia, erTxel mainc damenaxos. bedi ki? iqneba bedi iyo is, lidia petrovnam nangrevebad qceul sabavSvo baRis Senobidan rom gamomitaca. saocrebaa! me maSin isic ki ar vicodi, ra iyo sikvdili, arc SiSi, arc yumbarebi da arc sicocxle. mere gavige, roca wamovizarde, roca Cemi Tavi vicani da lidia petrovnam zRapariviT miambo ambavi Cems Sesaxeb. bedi iyo? es guladi qali rom ara, mec xom im bavSvebTan erTad viqceodi naxSirad. da swored im dros, roca gavige, rom arsebobs wami sikvdil-sicocxlis mijnaze da es wami iyo Cems bavSvobaSi, am droidan mjera bedis. swored am aRmoCenidan viwame RmerTad mze- sicocxlis wyaro. da sul ubralod, me cisferTvaleba biWuna anatoli axalSeniSvili gavxdi. qarTuli gvari maqvs. mere ra, rom maSin erTi qarTuli sityvac ar vicodi da lurji TvalebiT Sevtrfodi uRrublo cas. Tqven meubnebiT, bedi ar arsebobso? me ki mwams. mwams isic, rom odesRac vipovi mamas, qarTvel mamas, gamiRimebs namdvili mSobliuri RimiliT, deda gamisworebs say- 312 -

elos. patara daiko gamebuteba, roca mis Tojinas iatakze gadavagdeb. mwams, lidia petrovna erT dRes Semova da metyvis: _ anatoli! gareT mamaSeni gelodeba! - da Tan daayolebs, - ar icelqo! rogor moviqcevi maSin? ra Tqma unda, gaviqcevi. jer Soridan SevaTvaliereb, davakvirdebi, mere TviTon movnaxav mas, rac Cems mamas unda hqondes. me xom maxsovs igi. mas Savgvremani saxe aqvs da swori ukan gadavarcxnili Tmebi... ...skolaSi aur-zauriT Semxvdnen bavSvebi. _ tolia biWebo, tolia! - yvirodnen isini da ise Semiyvanes saklaso oTaxSi, verc ki gavige. _ fexi sul mogirCa? _ ra Tqma unda. - Cems magivrad pasuxobdnen meoreni. _ gaige, gasuli wlis merveklasebi rom SeerTda? _ icis. _ ai, xom xedav, axali amxanagebi... _ viTom ar icis. qeTinom CanTa xelidan gamomtaca da Tavisufal merxs dauwyo Zebna, rom am dros karebSi antonina gamoCnda. Cems danaxvaze saxe gaunaTda. pirdapir CemTan movida da Sublze makoca. _ tolia, morCi? me Tavi davxare da vigrZeni, rom gavwiTldi. _ movrCi. _ qeTino, Sen vaJasTan dajeqi. iq Tavisufali adgilia. anatoli ki Cems gverdiT dajdeba. Semdeg ise, rom qeTinos pasuxisTvis ar daucdia, Cemi CanTa mis ujraSi Sedo, xolo qeTinos CanTa vaJas merxze dado. _ vaJa, Sen xom ar xar winaaRmdegi, qeTino rom SenTan dajdes? - odnav dacinviT gadaulaparaka vaJas da gverdulad gaxeda. vaJa wamoenTo, magram im wuTSi ver gavige, ra iyo amis mizezi. oqtomberi miznad davisaxe, Cemi cxovrebis samaxsovro dRe aRvniSno dRiurSi. maTematikaSi antonina mamecadinebs, rusulSi - lidia petrovna, Tumca weraSi xSirad viReb orians. danarCeni sagnebis Seswavla ki Cems survilzea. erT saRamos, roca rusul gramatikaSi wesi ver davimaxsovre, lidia petrovnam gverdze gadado wigni da TvalebSi Camxeda: _ tolia, Svilo! brZanebaa, vinc xuTosani an oTxosani ar aris, yvela profsaswavlebelSi unda gadaiyvanon. _ mSvenieri azria. _ aba, ras ambob tolia? me ki minda, Sen inJineri gamoxvide. _ inJineri rom gamovide, saWiroa xuTosnoba. _ Sen ra giSlis xels, rom xuTosani gaxde? _ ai, xom xedav, erTi wesis daswavlaze ramden dros vxarjav.
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profsaswavlebelSi swavla albaT Zalian iolia. lidia petrovnam mkacrad Semomxeda. _ Cveni klaseli qeTino inJinerobaze fiqrobs. mazalo gogoa, ara, lidia petrovna? _ mazalo? ra aris es? _ ho, cota sasacilod ucnauri. _ raSi xedav? _ TiTistola gogo inJineri? ra unda gaakeTos man, caTambjenebi? - me gavicine _ maRali izrdebi, tvini ki Sesaferisi ara gaqvs, Torem inJinrobaze Senc ifiqrebdi. _ yvela inJineri xom ar iqneba? _ ici, ra toli? modi, pirdapir movilaparakoT. Seni gadayvana undodaT am welsve, magram didi TxovniT SevZeli, dametovebine. exla ki saWiroa SenTan erTad vimecadino, rom ar damamadlon Seni datoveba. profesiuli saswavlebeli meoTxe sabavSvo saxlis gverdiT did SenobaSi iyo. mas maRali qviTkiris galavani ekra. am saswavlebelSi biWebi euflebodnen xelobas, Semdeg ki qarxnebSi midodnen samuSaod. sabavSvo saxlis aRsazrdelebi am qvis galavanze SevcocdebodiT, kenWebs vesrodiT fexburTis TamaSiT garTul biWebs. _ cudi azri ar aris. am wesebis daswavlas mainc gadavrCebi, magram zRva, gemi mSvenieri cxovrebaa. _ viswavli, lidia petrovna, viswavli! _ maTematikaSi rogor gaqvs saqme? _ cota ukeT. _ isev is gogona gamecadinebs? _ ho. _ omi im gogonas ar unaxavs, magram is travma, romelic man miiRo omisgan, sikvdilamde masTan iqneba. _ upatronod darCenili bavSvebi... _ upatronod ar Tqva, anatoli! Tqvi, udedmamod darCenili bavSvebi-Tqo. gana, romeli ded-mamiani gamoiyureba ise, rogorc Tqven. erTaderTi, rac Tqven gevalebaT, swavlaa. _ bevri saswavlo sagnebia. lidia petrovnam ukmayofilod gaaqnia Tavi. sevdianad Semomxeda da Cailaparaka: _ omi didi xania damTavrda, tolia. me ki isev aq var da... me unda davbrunde minskSi. iq aRaravin damxvdeba, arc aRaraferi iqneba. omma yvelaze sayvareli adamianebi wamarTva, magram mainc unda davbrunde iq... iq Cemi cxovrebis yvelaze kargi wlebi gavatare, iqaurobasTan aris dakavSirebuli saSineli gulistkivilic. im dRidan, rac Sen gadagarCine da Cemad CagTvale, vipove maxlobeli adamiani. Cven erTi ubedureba gvakavSirebda. rac Sen dahkarge, vcdilobdi,
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Sememsubuqebia SenTvis. amiT viadvilebdi Cems ubedurebas. is gairinda. aseTi saxiT xSirad minaxavs, Tumca maSin uaresad nawamebi saxe hqonda. omma ori Zvirfasi adamiani waarTva- qmari da vaJiSvili. ver warmoidgenT, ra sasoebiT inaxavda maT suraTebs, minskidan wamoRebul erTaderT gadarCenil nivTs. maTTan erTad inaxavda Cemi bavSvobis suraTsac. _ ai, aseTi iyavi, tolia, maSin dedaSenTan erTad rom midiodi skolaSi! - metyoda igi da xSirad meCveneboda, rom is dedaze Zvirfasi iyo CemTvis. am qalaqSi me vxedavdi did mSobliur siTbos da qalur sinazes, mamakacur simkacresa da mraval Wirgamovlili adamianisaTvis damaxasiaTebel simSvides. misi Severcxlili Tmebi da mkacrad Sekruli warbebi raRacnair mokrZalebas iwvevda ara marto CemSi, aramed danarCen aRsazrdelebSi. mas sZulda yoyloCina aRmzrdelebi, romlebic calke idgnen bavSvebisagan. is yvelasTvis sayvareli adamiani iyo. dabal klasebSi, roca gakveTilebs ver movamzadebdi, sawolze Camomjdari dabal xmaze mixsnida. maxsovs, erTxel aRelvebuli dabrunda skolidan. _ qarTul enaSi ori oriani migiRia am meoTxedSi. _ ase cota? - vikiTxe gakvirvebiT. _ ori niSani da orive ori. _ mere bevria? me ufro meti megona. _ kargi tolia, nu sulelob. Sen ici, rom meoTxedSi ori gamogyveba, Tu ar gamoaswore. marTlac gamovaswore is niSani, magram me ki ara, lidia petrovnam gamoaswora. is wamodga, Tmebze gadamisva xeli da mkacrad miTxra: _ tolia, iswavle kargad, ar icelqo! noemberi qluxoris sabavSvo saxli _ anatoli, Sen da qeTino CemTan wamoxvalT! - gviTxra antoninam, roca meeqvse gakveTilis damTavrebis mauwyebelma zarma Cvens yurebamde moaRwia. _ wavideT tolia! - Semexvewa qeTino. vaJa Cven Semogvcqeroda. _ Tu ginda, Senc! - gverdiT gaxeda antoninam _ raki mec, ese igi zedmeti var! - antonina gawiTlda _ ara, vaJa, Sen sul ar xar zedmeti. ubralod gabrazeb. - Tqva da am wuTSi, pirvelad vigrZeni, rom maT Soris iyo raRac iseTi, rac me da antoninas Soris ar iyo. es gogo CemTan Tavs grZnobda rogorc naTesavTan, magram masTan ki ufro sxvas. am aRmoCenas, erTbaSad meore aRmoCena mohyva, xom ar eWvianobda vaJa, roca gogona CemiT dainteresebuli iyo? odnav davmSviddi.
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_ vaJa, Senc wamodi, Torem marto viqnebi gogoebTan? davinaxe rogor gakvirvebiT Semomxeda vaJam. antoninas TvalebSic ki davinaxe, rom surda vaJas wamosvla. _ aucileblad wamodi, Torem arc Cven wavalT. _ lidia petrovnas uTxari, rom Segvagviandeba. _ mogvesma Soridan. trotuarsa da centralur quCas Soris farTo xeivani iyo. am xeivans mivyvebodiT. qeTino wina dRes nanax filmis Sinaars hyveboda, antonina dumda, me da vaJa ki vicinodiT. roca meore sabavSvo saxls mivuaxlovdiT, qeTinom me da vaJas CanTebi CamogvarTva da kibeebze airbina. Cven gza ganvagrZeT. qeTino mesame sabavSvo saxlTan dagvewia. axalSenisken mimaval gzas davadeqiT. gzis marjvniv maRali SiSveli gorebi iyo, marcxniv mdinare yubani. is iseTi kamkama iyo, rom kenWebs daTvlidi. im wels gacilebiT Tbili Semodgoma iyo. zamTarSi ki sqlad daefina yinuli mdinares. yinvisagan saxedabrawuli gogo-biWebi xutoramde gadavidnen srialiT. swrafad CavirbineT daRmarTze, Semdeg aRmarTi da xidisken SevuxvieT. mdinare am sofels or nawilad hyofs. marjvniv patara sofeli iyo, mis bolos ki kolmeurneobis baRi. albaT aseTi gemrieli gargari arsad ar aris-wiTeli, vardisferi da TeTri. qvis xidze SevediT. imis iqiT sofelia, adre kamenamosti erqva, exla axalSeni hqvia. me axalSeniSvili var. me da es sofeli erTad mogvnaTles, amitom miyvars igi. marcxniv wisqvilis borbali trialebda. am Zvel wisqvils wyali atrialebs, axali eleqtronis wisqvili ki cota iqiT aris. xidi moklea, radgan TviT yubanis kalapoti am adgilze Zalian viwroa. kavkasionidan gamoqceuli mdinare mofenil qvebs ebrZvis am xidamde. xidis zeviT yubani boboqrobs da grialebs, Sxefebs zeviT isvris da napirs bzrialiT askdeba. xidTan marwuxebSekruli wylis guguni eqos gamoscems SiSvel mTebSi, magram es xdeba ramdenime wamSi. sunTqvaSekruli xids scdeba mTeli siswrafiT da mis qveviT farTo kalapotSi irRveva, Tanac raRac ucnaur xmas gamoscems, ai iseTs, Tavisuflebisgan miRebul Svebas rom gamoxatavs xolme. xidis qveS da mis zeviT ramdenime metrze, TviT zamTarSic ki ar iyineba wyali. am adgilas bunebis ori movlena ibrZvis da napirebze mixeTqili mdinaris talRebi imarjvebs. wlis arc erT dros ar aris aq mdinare mSvidi, amitomac verc erT riskian mocuraves ver gaubedia xidis qveS gacurva. Cven zeviT avuyeviT moasfaltebul quCas. isev win migviZRoda qeTino da gauTaveblad hyveboda sxvadasxva ambebs. ezoSi SavTavsafriani moxuci gamodga. _ gogo! es Seni megobrebi arian?
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_ bebo! gaicani, Cemi klaselebi arian. Cven moxucs mivesalmeT. _ SemodiT, SemodiT, sadaurebi arian? _ italielebi, sadaurebi iqnebian. Cveneburebi arian. _ visi Svilebi arian? _ ramdeni SekiTxvebi ici, bebi. Cven ki gvSia. sjoba, sadili mogvimzado. antoninam nakadulidan wyali amoitana, xelebi davibaneT da saxlSi SevediT. oTaxSi ori rkinis sawoli, erTi ubralo karada da xis magida idga. skamebi mogvawoda qeTinom da suraTebiani albomi moitana. me wignebis TarosTan mivedi da maTi daTvaliereba daviwye. _ anatoli, modi suraTebi davaTvalieroT, - damiZaxa qeTinom. Cven mas nel-nela vfurclavdiT. _ es rusebi vin arian? - ikiTxa qeTinom. antoninam warbebi Seikra. _ rusebi! - ukmayofilod Cailaparaka. - rusebi! Cemi deidebi arian. me xelSi aviRe suraTi. oTxi qalis saxe miyurebda da erTxel kidev Semiqanda guli. _ sad arian? - SevekiTxe. _ ruseTSi, ukrainaSi, belorusiaSi. yvelgan SeiZleba iyvnen, an aRarc iyvnen. maT ar vicnob da albaT verc verasdros gavicnobdi, eg suraTi rom ar yofiliyo. _ rogor? Sen maT ar icnob? _ dakavebul zonaSi iyvnen. mama rom dabrunda, daiwyo maTi Zebna, magram ver ipova. Semdeg ... ai, varT me da eg suraTi mamaCemTan, rogorc warsulis gaxseneba. - antonina Setrialda. bebiam Tavi Semohyo da sufrasTan mogvipatiJa. Cven xmauriT gavediT im oTaxSi, sadac madisaRmZvreli saWmlis suni trialebda da rusuli Rumeli gizgizebda. xaWapuris, Roris xorcis, mwnilis da moxarSuli qaTmis sunma mada gagviRviZa da mipatiJeba aRar dagvWirvebia, ise daviwyeT Wama. bebia ki Tavs dagvtrialebda da sufridan aRebul saWmels pirdapir kalTaze gviwyobda. _ bebia, ar ginda, TviTon Wamen! - swuxda SviliSvili amis gamo. _ iqneb exaTrebaT. - eubneboda bebia. _ ara, bebo, ar gvexaTreba. xom xedav sufrasTan aRaraferi davtoveT. - gavicine me. _ Sen Svilo, aqauri xar? - uceb SemekiTxa me. _ ho, aqauri _ qarTveli?
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_ ho. _ ui! rom ara gavxar qarTvels? _ ase vwerivar. _ geyofa, bebo. xom giTxra, qarTveli varo. axalSeniSvilia. - saubarSi antonina Caeria. _ axalSeniSvilebi romeli kuTxidan arian? - isev dainteresda bebia. _ aqedan, Cveni kuTxidan. me sabavSvo saxlSi vizrdebi, bebo. Cemebs ar vicnob, gvaric aq damarqves. _ ui, upatrono saxlSi izrdebi? mogikvdi Sen! - Seicxada moxucma da Tvalebi daunislda. _ kargi, ra bebo. gadi ezoSi, mgoni Rorebi Semovidnen. _ ui, damidga Tvalebi. im oxerxma leqsos Rorebma amoagdes aqauroba! - bebia gareT gaiWra, joxi moimarjva da daiwyo misi mravalsarTuliani wyevla. _ ui, Sen daSTi, daduRdi, amogiwyda momjiSebeli, gagiwyda purismWameli, Sen ar dagxvda patroni saxlSi, Tavisi saoxre TviTon daimwyvdios. fui, mogikvdes patroni! gvian dabrunda _ ar gamomaWames i taroebi? - buzRuniT Semovida, magram male saxe gaebadra. _ ar gadagrieT Cemi wiviliT? Svilebo, WameT? CaliT aWrelebul ezoSi gavediT. _ mTeli kvira moundeba amis garCevas moxuci da amxanagebs vTxove simindis rCevaSi mivSvelebodiT bebias. _ mec amas vfiqrobdi. Cven Calas mivesieT. qeTino isev gvarTobda ambebis moyoliT. antonina bebiasTan ijda da marjved aclida fuCeCs taros. me tomaras vavsebdi da saxlis Tavze amqonda, iq vawyobdi da ukan vbrundebodi. gvian movrCiT saqmes. bebia xis WiSkramde mogvyva, jibeebi vaSliT agvivso da Tan daayola: _ Tqvenc upatrono saxlidan xarT? amjerad antonina gabrazda. Cven ki gavicineT, ukve aRar gvwyenia bebias sityvebi. _ CvenTan sad arian, bebo, upatronoebi. Cven udedmamo bavSvebi varT. patroni ki mTeli Cveni qveyanaa. - RimiliT uTxra vaJam, ise rom moxucs ar swyenoda. Cven TavdaRmarTs davuyeviT, antonina xidamde migvyva. mTvare amosuliyo da igi xidis qveda mxares farTo kalapotSi micuravda. Cven oTxi videqiT da misgan ganaTebul mdinaris dinebas mivCerebodiT. xidis iqiT wyali rogor mSviddeboda, wynardeboda da nela miiwevda win. _ mTvare... biWebo, curva rom vicode, gadavxtebodi da xeliT
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Sevexebodi. - Tqva qeTinom. _ kargia, rom curva ar ici, Torem masTan misvlisTanave dagemsxvreoda eg mSvenieri warmodgen.a - CaurTo vaJam. _ vaJa yovelTvis cdilobs, adamianSi TviT mSvenieri ocnebac ki Caklas. - sinanuliT Tqva antoninam. vaJa odnav SekrTa. _ nu gabrazdebiT! - davamSvide me. _ aba, gadaxtes da mivides mTvaresTan. _ viTom ara? - gamoajavra qeTinom. is gaiqca da iq Sedga, sadac xidis moajiri uerTdeboda qvis jebirs da zeviT aixeda. mis Tavze mTvare tortmanobda, pirsavse ca saocrad mSvenieri iyo da Tavis silamazes erTnairad unawilebda maRal qva-mTebSi gamowyvdeul yubnis kalapots. es patara gogo fexis wverebze Semdgari misCereboda mTvares pirdapir, mis qveS fexis wverebis qveviT gvrgvinavda yubani, pirdaRebuli Tavis talRebSi ixvevda mTvares, mTvare ki curavda caze da qvevidan Cven gviyurebda. da am RameSi es patara gogona fexis wverebze Semdgari zeviT iwevda. kldis napralSi amosul gvirilas yvaviliviT nazi iyo misi tani da umanko. fexis quslebi ki miiwevda zeviT, sul zeviT. ai, sacaa is mowydeba jebirs da qveviT gafrindeba gvirilas yvavili. qveviT talRebSi amoSverili qvis qimiebia... _ ras sulelobs! - gavifiqre sasowarkveTilma da misken gaviqeci. _ Tqven ar gjeraT, magram me mjera, mival iq, kaSkaSa mTvareze. xeliT Sevexebi. adgilidan movwydi, xelis uxeSi, magram zusti moZraobiT mis mklavs Sevexe da qveviT gasafrenad gamzadebuli gvirilas yvavili uceb xelebSi avitace. gogona patara da yvaviliviT msubuqi iyo. talRebma qveviT gaaqanes mTvare, me ki gulze mivikari qeTino, rom ar gahyoloda mas. _ anatoli, Sen SeSindi? _ Sen, ara? _ gana, marTla ifiqre rom gadavxtebodi? _ me raRac magdagvari momeCvena. CvenTan SiSgadavlili vaJa da antonina moiWrnen da qeTino xelidan gamomglijes. _ es xumroba ki ara, sisulelea! - usayvedura antoninam. qeTinom erTi gaicina, saTiTaod yvela SegvaTvaliera, Semdeg Tavi dagvikra da sul sirbiliT aRmarTze aiWra. Cven saxtad davrCiT. _ wadiT, biWebo. me davbrundebi! - xeli dagviqnia antoninam. roca antonina Tvals miefara, me xidTan mivedi. mTvare micuravda wyalSi, masTan erTad micuravda gvirilas yvavili da siyvaruls
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uxsnida mas. xidis zeviT ki boboqrobda, kvnesoda, ibrZoda yubani da gamarjvebuli WidilSi mTvares eweoda. Canaweri meSvide qluxoris profsaswavlebeli maisi ar vici, marTali viyavi Tu ara, radgan danaSauli yvelaze ukiduresi `afeTqebis dros moxda. exla damSvidebuli var. ukve SemiZlia saRi gonebiT viazrovno da sxvisi TvaliT Sevxedo sakuTar Secdomas. veZeb CemSi gasakicxs, magram TviT am mdgomareobaSic ver mipovnia. ver vityvim ramdenad viyavi damnaSave, Tumca danaSauli umizezod namdvilad ar momxdara. mecxre klasSi istoriis gakveTilze visxediT. maswavlebelma meore sabavSvo saxlis aRsazrdeli nazi axvlediani gaiZaxa. gogona dabali iyo da Casuqebuli. man dafasTan gasvla ramdenime wamiT daagviana, radgan fexsacmels moeWira da sanaxevrod gaexada. is nela wamodga, jer erTi, Semdeg meore fexi wadga fexsacmelSi da odnav koWlobiT mivida dafaze damagrebul rukasTan. gogonas sufTa, qaTqaTa sayelo da Tmebze morgebuli TeTri bafTebi hqonda, aseTive dauTovebuli saskolo forma ecva. etyoboda, axali fexsacmeli magrad uWerda, amitom vidre dafamde mividoda, fexi amoswia da uxeSad daadga fexsacmelis ukana mxares. yovelive amas Zalian guldasmiT misCereboda maswavlebeli da velodiT raRac SeniSvnas miscemda nazis, ai, iseTs, Cvenc rom gagvecineboda, magram moxda meti. maswavlebels arc dauyviria da arc sila gauwnavs, magram uaresi Tqva. man Cvensken moabruna Tavi da zizRiT da siZulviliT mogvmarTa: _ SexedeT am upatronos! codva ar aris, saxelmwifo SenisTana mawanwalisaTvis fuls xarjavdes? - albaT maswavlebeli Cvengan TanagrZnobas eloda, roca am sityvebs gveubneboda. magram igi Secda. oTaxSi samariseburi siCume Camovarda. buzis gafrenac ki ismoda. maswavlebelma aSkarad dainaxa misadmi daufaravi siZulvili. _ ras gaSterdiT? - ikiTxa gakvirvebulma. nazi ruqasTan ar mivida da jiutad dadga Sua oTaxSi. _ mieTrie. ras damgvanebixar? Se, damrgvalebulo! me moTmineba davkarge. samelnes vtace xeli. _ adeqi exlave da bodiSi mouxade nazis! - vuyvire xmamaRla. qeTinom xeli mtaca majaSi da samelne gamomtaca. man gaocebiT Semomxeda, magram myisve Sedga, roca Cemi zomaze metad gadareuli saxe dainaxa. _ axlave datove gakveTili! _ arsad ar waval, vidre bodiSs ar mouxdi. _ gaeTrie gareT. Se, magaze ufro mawanwala.
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es ki zedmeti iyo. Cemi moTmineba mTlianad gamoilia da ar vici, ra Zalam amoglija CemSi Semdegi sityvebi: _ mag sityvebis patrons Tavi viris unda gqondes da ara adamianis. maswavlebeli gaSavda. man Jurnals daavlo xeli da saklaso oTaxSi datova. samariseburi siCume idga. nazi Tavis merxTan mivida, dajda da atirda. bavSvebs gadavxede. maT saxeebs isev SerCenodaT weRandeli zizRi. ar laparakobdnen, magram maTi mokumuli tuCebi da Sekruli warbebi uTqmelad ambobdnen saTqmels. gakveTilebi damTavrda. bavSvebi velodiT kidev dasasruls, magram direqciidan aravis moukiTxivarT. im dRes uxalisod daviSaleT. meore dRes istoriis gakveTili gacda maswavleblis gamoucxadeblobis gamo. Cven velodiT raRacas, afeTqebis msgavss, magram im dResac amis msgavsi araferi momxdara. aravin araferi icoda, ras ambobdnen amis Sesaxeb samaswavlebloSi. an maswavlebelma Tqva is, rac wina dRes moxda? ase ganmeorda kidev ori dRe. gakveTilebi cdeboda. momdevno dRes, roca geografiis gakveTili daiwyo, TiTqmis ukve aRar gvaxsovda momxdari ambis Sesaxeb. Zalian miyvarda geografia, mudam xuTze vamzadebdi sagans. isic vicodi, rom maswavlebelsac vuyvardi. geografias is mexuTe klasidan maswavlida. swored im wels movida CvenTan samuSaod, roca Sevedi skolaSi. Cvenma klasma es sagani yvelaze safuZvlianad Seiswavla. aseTi mdgomareoba zeda klasebSi ar iyo. ruqaze roca mdinareebis SesarTavidan uCvenebdnen, maswavlebeli joxs iatakze ubraxunebda da mkacrad ambobda. _ miCvene mdinare saTavidan! im dRes istoriis gakveTili isev gacda, magram bavSvebs amisTvis yuradReba ar miuqceviaT, me ki mtkivneulad ganvicdidi am ambavs. geografiis maswavlebelma gamiZaxa. ruqasTan gavedi, joxi xelSi aviRe da gakveTilis mosayolad movemzade. man SemaCera: _ anatoli, gakveTilis mosayolad ar gamomiZaxixar. - man mravalmniSvnelovnad Semomxeda. _ da saerTod, dRes gakveTili ar Catardeba. - is didxans miyurebda, TiTqos surda Caswvdomoda Cems suls. _ ici, ra, Sen unda mouxado bodiSi istoriis maswavlebels. Tqven ganukiTxavi Seuracyofa miayeneT mas. _ man meti Tqva Cemze, amitom pirveli man moixados bodiSi! - sulmouTqmelad vuTxari. maswavlebeli Cafiqrda. _ iqneba nazim gamoiyvana mdgomareobidan.
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_ SeiZleba! mis saxes ar etyoboda moTbinebadakarguli adamianis gamoxedva. is mSvidad ijda, TiTqos mTeli dRe imas fiqrobda, rac im wuTSi Tqva. _ Sen Tu bodiSs ar mouxdi, is gakveTilze ar Semova. icode, wlis boloa da es pirvel rigSi Tqvens warmatebaze imoqmedebs. _ SegiZliaT gamricxoT, an profsaswavlebelSi gadamiyvanoT. me mas bodiSs mainc ar movuxdi, Tu nazis is pirveli ar mouxdis. _ maSin mec ar Cavatareb gakveTils! gaocebiT Sevxede. _ ratom ar gindaT, dainaxoT Tqven, rom man Tqva is, rac yvela aRsazrdelisTvis SeiZleboda eTqva. e.i. vinaidan Cven sabavSvo saxlis aRsazrdelni varT, vinaidan Cvenze saxelmwifo Tanxas xarjavs, viRac-viRaceebs, - am sityvebs xazi gavusvi, - ufleba aqvT, dagvayvedron es zrunva. is Cvens yvelaze natken guls Seexo. Cven Cveni nebiT xom ar movsulvarT aq. antonina wamodga. is mudam mtkivneulad ganicdida aseT ambebs. _ nazis mama omSi ugzo-ukvlod daikarga. uaresia, roca Svilma ar icis, sadaa mamis samarec ki. deda mis dards gadahyva. oTx patara gogonas daekarga is siTbo, mSobeli rom aZlevs, Torem sxva araferi ar aklia nazis. ra gancxromiTac ar unda cxovrobdes aRsazrdeli sabavSvo saxlis kedlebSi, mTavari mainc aklia. es mTavari ki man dahkarga imitom, rom Cven vyofiliyaviT bednierebi. saSinelebaa imis warmodgenac, rom vinmes ufleba misces Tavis Tavs, daayvedros rame. Tqven xom deda xarT, Svilebis patroni. nuTu Tqveni Svilebi dRes raimeSi gacvlian Tqvens siTbos, mSoblis did guls? aq ki... saSinelebaa, mawanwala, upatrono, mTavroba Senze fuls xarjavs... - da es yvelaferi uTxra ukve Camoyalibebul adamians imisTvis, rom nazis fexsacmelma fexi atkina. Cven yvela veTanxmebiT anatolis. aseTive azri gamoTqves slava warbam da vitali burZglam. gakveTili damTavrda. maSin ver mivxvdiT, ratom surda lizi maswavlebels saqmis Sinaurulad mogvareba. iqneb masac ar moewona istoriis maswavleblis sityvebi? meore dRes gamoCnda istoriis maswavlebeli. man Jurnali gaSala da sia waikiTxa. me siaSi gamomtova. ase gagrZelda mTeli darCenili meoTxedi. is arc gakveTils mekiTxeboda da arc nawers asworebda. etyoba, gamoricxa Cemi arseboba. exlac ar vici, Tu iyo es pedagogiuri midgoma. meoTxedis bolos samiani damiwera. davamTavre Tu ara mecxre klasi, sabavSvo saxlis direqtorTan mivedi da vTxove profsaswavlebelSi gadaveyvane. is damTanxmda.

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Canaweri merve qluxoris prof-saswavlebeli seqtemberi Cveni saswavlebeli, sadac xelobas vswavlobdiT, mTavari Senobis gverdiT idga. cota qvemoT sasadilo iyo. skolis zaris xma gansxvavdeboda sasadilos zaris xmisgan. is gareT boZze ekida da morige gabmiT rekavda ramdenime wuTi. hoda, roca aremares es zaris xma gamoafxizlebda, biWebi sirbiliT sasadilosaken gavrbodiT. guSinac ase iyo. sasadiloSi Sevedi da sirbiliT samzareulos sarkmelTan mivedi. iq axali mzareuli damxvda. _ axali xar Zia? cota meti daasxi! - gavexumre. is Cemsken mobrunda da piramde savse TefSi momawoda. TefSi aviRe da ise, rom aRar Semixedavs, magidasTan mivedi. skamze Camovjeqi da mxolod amis Semdeg gavixede samzareulos sarkmelisaken, rom mzareulisaTvis Tvali Camekra. uceb Sevdeqi. mzareulis daZabuli da gafiTrebuli saxe me maTvalierebda. roca Cemi mzera daiWira, is samzareulos sarkmels moSorda, radgan kidev micvivdnen biWebi. saRamos, roca savaxSmod mivedi, mzareuli Cemsken Semotrialda, kargad damakvirda da SemekiTxa. _ ra gqvia, biWo, Sen? - Sevatyve, xma uTrToda. _ anatoli var, axalSeniSvili. _ ha! - is moceliliviT dajda. gaocebulma davinaxe, rogor gaevso Tvalebi cremliT. _ romeli sabavSvo saxlidan gadmogviyvanes? _ meoTxedan. _ romel klasSi swavlob? _ meaTeSi. _ tolia! Sen meaTeSi xar? _ ha! - exla me Sevxede gakvirvebulma. _ me antoninas mama var. Cemi gogona Zalian bevr rames hyveboda Senze. - mas ara marto xma, aramed xelebic uTrToda. _ roca vaxSami davamTavre, me frTxilad gavixede sarkmlisken. antoninas mama isev iq ijda da micqerda. raRac uxilavi Zala misken mimaTrevda. meore xma, ufro Zlieri, ukan meweoda. yuri mivugde am xmas da mivxvdi, Cemi iq misvliT im adamianSi kidev ufro gavzrdidi mwuxarebas. Tavi davxare, sarkmlisken ar gamixedavs, ise davtove darbazi. biWebi xmaurobdnen. yvela raRaciT iyo dakavebuli. zogi saxelosnoSi garboda, viRacam mxaric ki gamkra, magram misTvis ar Semixedavs. am wuTSi, visac Cems irgvliv vxedavdi, yvela TiTqos erT mTlianad iqcnen. me ki mindoda mexila adamiani, naTesavi, sisxliT da guliT naTesavi. isev lidia petrovna da antonina damidgnen
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Tvalwin. erTic da meorec CemTvis Zalian maxlobeli da sayvareli iyvnen. me erTisaTvis viyavi Svili, meoresTvis- Zma. magram aqve vxvdebodi, rom me maTi Svilis da Zmis SemTxveviTi ganmeoreba viyavi. sadRac maT gulSi isev cocxlobdnen Svilisa da Zmis saxeebi. es CemSi gaumarTlebel Surs iwvevda. am saxeebis meSinoda. gardacvlili, ucnobi saxeebi sayveduriT miyurebdnen. TiTqos msayvedurobdnen im siyvarulisTvis, am orma keTilma adamianma rom momca. mivdiodi. TviTonac ar vici sad, risTvis an ratom mivdiodi. msurda, gavqceodi yvelas da yvelafers, magram mzareulis akankalebuli xeliT mowodebuli TefSi, misi cremliani Tvalebi mxvdeboda yvelgan. msurda, gavqceodi am Tvalebs, romelsac Cemma danaxvam sixaruli ki ara, mwuxareba mohgvara. da dRes, rogorc arasdros, saSinlad mominda Cemi cxovrebiT, Cemi TaviT vyvarebodi yvelas. guls miwuxebda imis mogoneba, rom sadRac da odesRac arsebobda tolia, antoninas dakarguli Zma da meCveneboda, TiTqos is, sadRac miwaSi damarxuli, ufro bednieri iyo, vidre me. im mkvdarze gacilebiT mets fiqrobdnen, vidre Cemze. rogor mindoda, lidia petrovnas minskis misadgomebTan daRupuli Svili me vyofiliyavi. is daeca, me ki misma dedam sicocxle momaniWa. omSi gaRebuli TviToeuli wveTi sisxli xom Cvens bednierebas moxmarda. e.i. me ormag valSi var mis mimarT. Turme me lidia petrovnas Svilma gadamarCina da dRes iqneb, ufro bednieri yofiliyo, me rom vyofiliyavi mis adgilze. raikomis Senobis win gaSenebul xeivanSi gavedi. skamze moceliliviT Camovjeqi, xelebi saxeze avifare da kinaRam avtirdi. ar maxsovs, ramden xans vijeqi skamze, ar vici ratom mirtyamda TavSi urosmagvari xma, romelic yurebTan xmaurobda da kiviliT gulis siRrmeSi ikargeboda. Cems irgvliv yvelaferi tortmanobda da momeCvena, es samyaro, es miwa sxvisi gamxdariyo da rogorc geri, am miwaze dasadgom adgils veZebdi. es iyo Cemi cxovrebis gulisSemzaravi epizodi. sad iyvnen Cemebi, sad iyo Cemi samyaro, sakuTari miwa? Tvalebi davxuWe. Cems TvalSi yvelaferma da yovelivem azri dahkarga. Cems TvalSi yvelaferma dahkarga Tavisi forma, Tavisi saxe. vin iyvnen, Cems irgvliv rom trialebdnen dRemde? nuTu isini araraoba iyvnen CemTvis? viRaca frTxilad Semexo da am wuTSi vidre Tvalebs gavaxelde da misken Sevtrialdebode, Cems azrSi moxda ukmayofilebis, Tu raRac ufro Zlieri grZnobis gaCena. _ netav, lidia da antonina ar iqnebodnen... _ da msurda mexila adamiani, romelic dainaxavda anatoli axalSeniSvilis guls da Seiyvarebda. frTxilad Sevtrialdi, Tvalebi isev Zirs mqonda daxrili. pirvelad mis fexebs Sevxede da vicani... yubanis talRebTan fexiswverebze Semdgari gvirilas yvavili. uceb yvelaferi airia. sxvisi samyaro,
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romliTac am ramdenime xanSi garSemortymuli viyavi, sadRac gaqra da am gvirilam Semodgomis danisluli dRe gaaciskrovna, gaanaTa. wamoviWeri, xeli wavavle im patara xels, vinc es saSineli fiqri damingria. araferi miTqvams, arc mas uTqvams rame, ise davsxediT. TvalebSi SevCerebodi. misi Tvalebi mSvidi da alersiani sixaruliT da didi siyvaruliT miyurebda. axla me aRar viyavi gaxseneba sxvisi aCrdilisa da arc mogoneba daRupuli naTesavisa. es iyo is adamiani, Cems win merxze rom ijda da TeTr babTebs melniT vusvridi. xuTiani rom ar mieRo, dasaswavl gakveTils wignidan vuxevdi. es gvirilas yvavili iyo, fexis wverebze Semdgari da gasafrenad gamzadebuli. es xelebi, pawawina xelebi, saxe, Tvalebi Cemi iyo da radgan es axla SevigrZeni, mTeli qveyanac Cemi gaxda. mindoda, meyvira ise Zlier, rom miwa SeZruliyo, xeebs gaegonaT, yvirili zecaSi wasuliyo. _ bednieri var, rom gxedav, qeTino. - magram amis msgavsi araferi miTqvams. visxediT skamze da erTmaneTs vucqerdiT. Cven erTmaneTisTvis viyaviT gaCenili, erTmaneTis uTqmelad gvesmoda... sxva araferi mindoda, oRond es grZnoba gamgrZeleboda didxans, Zalian didxans, rom davrwmunebuliyavi, odesme Tavad anatoli axalSeniSvils Seiyvarebdnen da ara tolias aCrdils. qeTino wamodga. CanTa aiRo da gamiRima. _ skolis fanjridan davinaxe, baRSi rom Cauxvie, TviTon ar vici, ratom movedi SenTan. rogor mindoda, marto am sityvebisaTvis mimekra gulze. es aucileblad daawynarebda mas, magram mxolod es vuTxari: _ Sen ar ici, am mosvliT ra bedniereba momaniWe. _ marTla? - is didxans damakvirda. me Tavi davxare. _ gagacileb. man Tavi damiqnia. nela movdiodiT trotuarsa da samanqano gzas Soris gaSenebul farTo xeivanSi. foTlebi cvioda da Cven gvecemoda. qeTino dumda, is aRar hyveboda Zveleburad nanax kinofilmebs, aRarc wakiTxul wigns miambobda, adre rom sCveoda. pirvelad vxedavdi, rom igi sul sxva rames hyveboda CemTvis da TavisTavs. da vicodi, amas Cveni bavSvuri, gaumxeleli, magram ganumeoreblad mSvenieri siyvaruli erqva. Canaweri mecxre germaniis demokratiuli respublika. 1955 w. noemberi maisSi samxedro savaldebulo samsaxurSi gamiwvies. var germaniis demokratiul respublikaSi. ar minda movigono is, rom Cemi
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cxovrebis yvelaze lamazi wlebi, mSvenieri bavSvoba damingria faSisturma tyviam da am tyviiT miyenebuli Wriloba wlebis manZilze Tan gamyveba. saqarTvelos ambebs antoninasgan vgebulob. dResac miviRe werili. ai, ras mwers igi. Zmao, anatoli! ra Tqma unda Sen Cemi Zma ar xar, magram mudam ase mjeroda SenTan Sexvedrisas, roca ganvicdidi daRupuli Zmis naxvis sixaruls. adamians, visac ara hyavs dedmamiSvili, ucxo adamianebSi eZebs maT samagieros. albaT, Cemma gulmac Sen gipova. radgan asea, ratomRac miCndeba iseTi azri, rom Sen unda icode yvela wvrilmani Cems Sesaxeb. ai, Tundac axla, ra mdgomareobaSic var. bebia Zalian adre adga, arayi hqonda gamosaxdeli. qvabi samfexze Semodga, Semdeg amJavebuli qliavis fafiT aavso, saxuravi mils moargo. Silis tuCTan samlitriani baloni dado. amasobaSi gaTenda, axla saqonlisaTvis unda miexeda, amitom fexiswverebiT movida Cems sawolTan. is ase dadis xolme da gamaRviZa. _ aba, bebo, adeqi da uyure! Tbilad Cavicvi. misi gafrTxileba CemTvis ukve naTeli iyo, rogor unda `vuyuro. es niSnavs imas, rom cecxli imdeni unda SevukeTo, rom qvabSi fafa aduRdes, magram Tu zedmeti momivida, maSin arays fafac wamohyveba. amas bebiaCemi pirisRebinebas uwodebs da Tu arayiani baloni aimRvra, maSin ici, ramdeni wyevla wamova Cemi misamarTiT? hoda, exla sicivea, am qvabis irgvliv agizgizebuli cecxli sasiamovnod miRitinebs cxvirTan. swored amitom Zalian mominda, Senc yofiliyavi da gamTbariyavi bebias danTebuli cecxlis siTboTi. tolia zog saganSi kargad vswavlob, zogSi ki - saSualod. ucxo enebi kvlav miSlis xels. zogjer kidevac vzarmacob. ici, ra? rac ufro miadvildeba, swored mas vswavlob. rac miZneldeba, mas ar vekarebi. qeTino xuTosania. ra Tqma unda, medals miiRebs. vaJas oTxebi gamoeria. tolia, wels, roca saSualo skolas davamTavrebT, gamosaSveb saRamos CvenTan movawyobT da Sen verc warmoidgen, rogor damwydeba guli, am saRamoze rom ar iqnebi. netav, biWi viyo, mec SemeZleboda raRaciT gamovdgomodi Cems qveyanas. Sen roca dabrundebi, valmoxdili iqnebi, me ki isev saSualo skolaSi var, viRac swavlulebis daweril wignebs vizuTxav da zogjer am mza gakveTilis daswavlac mezareba. im werilSi Sen mwerdi, roca samsaxuridan davbrundebi, minskSi gavivlio. vin icis, iqneb, naxo Senebi. maSin mec momenatrebian naTesavebi. lidia petrovna dums. Sen xom ar migiRia werili misgan? tolia, werilis weriT gaverTe da qvabTan cecxli minelda. milSi
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ki wveT-wveTad modis arayi. WiSkarTan bebia raRacas fusfusebs da meSinia, Tvali ar mohkras amas, Torem saRamomde sanTels Camomiqnis. Tumca is Zalian keTilia da misi wyevlac locvad meCveneba. qeTino mokiTxvas giTvlis. am bolo dros gulCaTxrobili gaxda. roca Senze vsaubrob, Tvalebi ubrwyinavs. xom ar uyvarxar? bebia movida da roca gaigo, Sen gwerdi werils, mTxova, didi mokiTxva miswere Cemgano, Semdeg bostanSi gadavida. Zirs dacvenil sarebs Segroveba dauwyo. milis gobSi wyali gacxelda. sanam bebia mova, is wyali unda gamovcvalo, Torem wylis orTqls aryis orTqlic ahyveba Tan. momwere yvelaferi. Seni daiko, antonina. gadavwyvite maSinve gameca pasuxi antoninas anatolisagan! wakiTxvisTanave gpasuxob Sens werilze. CemTan yvelaferi isev isea. sabavSvo saxli, profsaswavlebeli da samxedro saswavlebeli TiTqos raRaciT hgavs erTmaneTs. Cems gverdiT ukraineli biWi wevs, vasia stacenko. is mxiaruli, enamoswrebuli da Wkviani biWia. sawolTan Cemi da lidias suraTi gavakari. mas qveS warwera aqvs `mipovne - es saxeli me vuwode. me xom lidiam mipova. Tumca suraTs es saxeli sul sxva ramisaTvis vuwode. iqneb, aRmoCndes iseTi vinme, visac axsovs iseTi tolia, suraTidan odnav Worfliani rom iyureba. raxan lidia petrovna vaxsene, getyvi, misgan exlaxans miviRe werili. Turme im sabavSvi baRSi muSaobs, me rom vizrdebodi omamde. mwers, aucileblad mivide. qeTinos Sesaxeb geCveneba. mas yovelTvis ubrwyinavda Tvalebi, roca raimes hyveboda. namdvilad mogCvenebia. ratomRac uflebas ar vaZlev Cems Tavs, rom Tavs movaxvio Cemi cxovreba. is warCinebuli gogonaa. SeiZleba, kargi momavali hqondes da ratom davurRvio igi? amas winaT germanul JurnalSi erTi gogonas suraTi vnaxe. saguldagulod amovWeri da `mipove-s gverdiT gavakari. es gogona Zalian Semiyvarda. mas zRvisferi Tvalebi aqvs, mzes ucqeris da Seni saxeli qvia. me miyvars iseTebi, mzes rom ucqerian. roca ukan davbrundebi, am suraTs saCuqrad mogitan. momikiTxe bebia da iliko biZia. xom kargi arayi gamovida? aq axla civa da asi grami namdvilad momixdeboda. Seni ufrosi Zma, anatoli. minda, moxdes saswauli da vipovo Cemi da cisferi TvalebiT da ici ra, Seni saxeli rom erqvas?~ anatoli. 1957 wlis aprili

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`Zmao anatoli! axali ambavi unda gacnobo. raionis mTeli mosaxleoba gadadis sacxovreblad saqarTveloSi. cxadia, ganSoreba mouxdeba aq myofT, radgan maTTvis adgils sxvadasxva mxares SearCeven. jer-jerobiT ar vici, sad movxvdebi. tolia, kidev unda giTxra raRac, magram es saidumloa da mxolod me da Sen unda vicodeT. xom ici, or TveSi vamTavreb saSualos. vmecadineobT erTad da gansakuTrebiT yvelaze metad vuaxlovdebiT erTmaneTs. gava dro da Cven erTmaneTisTvis marto yofili Tanaklaselebi viqnebiT, magram ratomRac mwams am sityvas Cven vaxsenebT mowiwebiT, radgan am wlebTan dakavSirebulia wminda da faqizi megobrobis ganumeorebeli silamaze. amaswinaT qluxoris SuamaRlobze avediT, fiWvis sajiSe farTobi rom aris. saavadmyofos mxridan avuyeviT aRmarTs. maRlobze pirvelad viyavi. aq vnaxe TiTqmis mTeli qalaqi da ramdenime sofeli erTad. davinaxe zevidan, ankara yubans rogor erTvis mRvrie teberda. imis iqiT ki sCanda aerodromis xasxasa mindori. am adgilze erTxel cxenebis Sejibri iyo. mgoni, gaxsovs viRac osis biWma gaimarjva, wiTel cxenze ijda da qariviT mihqroda. aqoCril mindorze marjvniv axalSenis xedi mosCanda, marcxniv - baris. mojadoebuli davcqerodi yvelafers. _ rogor ar Svenis raikavSiris Sida ezo am patara qalaqs! momesma gverdidan vaJas xma. es namdvilad ase iyo, TqmiT marto man Tqva. meCveneba, TiTqos is imitom cxovrobs, rom irgvliv marto nakli SeamCnios da am naklis gamoaSkaraveba ise eCqareba, eSinia sxvam ar moaswros. iqedan sacalfexo gziT daveSviT da mesame sabavSvo saxlis Tavze aRmarTul patara obeliskTan gavCerdiT. iq xom omSi daRupulni ganisveneben. kibeebiT daveSviT da qeTinom TavisTan mimipatiJa. mis sawol oTaxSi Sevedi. oTaxSi oTxi sawoli da oTxi tumbo iyo. mis tumboze patara suraTebisgan Sekruli yuri ido, Tavi avxade da saxtad davrCi. megona, kargad vicnobdi mas, magram verasodes movifiqrebdi, is amxela gmiri rom gaxdeboda Cems TvalSi. yuTis saxuravidan Seni suraTi miyurebda. Sevxede. is mSvidad aTvalierebda Cems saxes. gadavwyvite, misi uTqmeli siyvaruli SenTvis meTqva. iqneb, Sens TvalSic gaxdes igi siyvarulis gmiri, anatoli. Seni daiko, antonina. iqneba es im xididan iyo, qeTino gvirilas yvaviliviT rom iwevda fexiswverebze an iqneb mas Semdeg, Cvens gamo kreba rom moiwvies? isev Tvalwin damidga Cems gamo sircxviliT anTebuli
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misi saxe da yurebamde gavwiTldi. mas Semdeg davmegobrdiT. is gatacebiT miambobda yvela nanax films, miambobda gatacebiT da surda damenaxa is, rasac am monaTxrobSi xedavda TviTon. _ tolia gavaciloT, antonina! - mTxovda xSirad. SemTxveviT, xidTan siaxlovem CemSi ucnauri grZnoba gaaCina, magram is im wuTSive Cavkali. mindoda, qeTino myvareboda, rogorc megobari. amis Semdeg is nel-nela damSorda, Tvals maridebda da aRar mTxovda, antonina gagvecilebina. wakiTxuli wignebis moyolac Sewyvita, TiTqos gulCaTxrobili gaxda. Semdeg raikomis baRSi SevxvdiT da uTqmelad vTqviT saTqmeli. _ me mas vuyvarvar! me mas vuyvarvar! - wamoviyvire, - magram me maqvs ufleba Seviyvaro is, vinc SeiZleba, ukeTess gayves? - meore xmam guli CamiTuTqa. gadavwyvite, es werili upasuxod dametovebia, magram erTdroulad werili da skolis damTavrebis suraTi miviRe. qeTinos seriozulma saxem gamaoca da SemaSina. mas skolis forma ar ecva, arc qaTqaTa sayelo ekeTa, romelic mudam maRizianebda. mas Sekruli Subli hqonda da mis saxeze bavSvuri Rimili aRar sCanda. veraferi wavikiTxe am odesRac saocrad bavSvur saxeze, arc sevda iyo masze, arc gaoceba, arc dabneuloba da arc sixaruli. mxolod da mxolod mSrali simkacre gamefebuliyo mis TvalebSi da me am Tvalebis saSinlad SemeSinda. didxans vecade, aRmedgina misi adrindeli saxe, iseTi, rogorc adre iyo, magram ver SevZeli. suraTi gverdze gadavde da antoninas werilis kiTxva daviwye: `Zmao, anatoli ver warmoidgen, rogor momenatre, gansakuTrebiT mas Semdeg, rac TiTqmis yvela Tanaklaseli am soflis usasrulo gzebSi davifanteT. Cven mxolod iuridiuli samZebro Tu gvipovis. patara evgenia skolis damTavrebis meore Tvesve gaTxovda. kapitonovi SoreulSi wavida maminacvalTan erTad, umaRlesi ganaTleba ruseTSi unda miviRoo. nodari zoovetSi moewyo. siciliT vkvdebodiT, roca es profesia airCia. ar mesmoda, ratom airCia cxovelis eqimoba. vaJa sainJinroze moewyo. Tmebs isev saguldagulod iyenebs da axla laparakis dros cali ybiT iRimeba, mas Semdeg, rac im mxares oqros ori kbili gaikeTa. qeTino iuridiulze moxvda. danarCeni jer-jerobiT gzebs daeZeben. TiTqmis erT kviraSi raionidan gavediT da aRarc vici, vin sad aris. axali sacxovrebeli adgilidan Segatyobineb danarCens. ho, kinaRam damaviwyda, me pedagogiur institutSi Caviricxe. Seni daiko antonina.

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_ qeTino iuridiul fakultetze moxvda. - didxans davCerebodi mis saxes. _ antonina erT sityvas aRar ambobs mis Sesaxeb. iqneb, nanobs naadrevad rom gamando saidumlo... _ mami, ras kiTxulob? - mezobeli oTaxidan TmebaSlili, Ramis perangis amara gogona gamovida. mamam rveuli daxura, ujra gamoaRo da Sig Seinaxa. _ Svilo, modi aq, ratom adeqi? _ ar dameZina. _ ratom? _ ar vici. gamovixede. didxans gicqire da mixaroda, rom ver SemamCnie. xom ar gajavrebdi? _ ara, im pirobiT, Tu axlave waxval dasaZineblad. _ ras kiTxulobdi? _ lidia petrovnas werilebs. - icrua mamam. Semdeg xelSi aiyvana gogona, Sublze akoca da dasaZineblad oTaxSi waiyvana. _ mami, deda xom male Camova mivlinebidan? mamakaci SekrTa. cerad gaxeda bavSvis sawolTan dakidul SavCarCoian suraTs, Semdeg gogona Tbilad CaTbuna da wasCurCula. _ kidev makoce mami, ai, am loyaze. - gogona Semotrialda da saxe miuSvira. mama daixara da akoca. _ es mamas kocna, axla dedas kocna... - Seunacvla loya gogonam. bavSvma ver SeamCnia rogor moswyda Cumi oxvra mamamiss. mamam kidev akoca. _ Rame mSvidobisa, mami! _ Zili nebisa, antonina! - uTxra da oTaxidan frTxilad gavida. _ isev im adgils miubrunda, sadac weRan sakuTar dRiurs kiTxulobda. savarZelSi Cajda, Subli moifxana da magidis ujra gamoswia. didi xnis monaxuli dRiuri Tavisken uxmobda mamakacs. am dRiurTan da mis TeTr furclebTan dakavSirebuli iyo wminda grZnoba. es grZnoba gulis kunWulSi minaxuli mas eZaxda. frTxilad amoiRo rveuli, bavSvis sawolisken gaixeda da roca darwmunda, iqidan aRaraferi ismoda, kiTxva gaagrZela. 1958 w. minski savaldebulo samsaxuridan am Semodgomaze minskSi davbrundi. Zvirfasi lidia petrovna, mTel cxovrebas rom mivsebda mSobliuri siTboTi, cota motexili damxvda, Tumca saubari mainc energiuli hqonda. man mezobel oTaxSi gamiyvana da miTxra:
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_ anatoli, es oTaxi Sens gankargulebaSia. me madlierebis grZnobiT Sevxede am metad saTuTi bunebis qals, roca TeTri, gaqaTqaTebuli sawolis gverdze, skamze dawyobili mamakacis tansacmeli davinaxe. igi CemTvis moemzadebina. Camosvlis meore dRes lidia petrovnas vTxove waveyvane im adgilas, sadac mipovna. Tan zustad aRewera yvelaferi Cems Sesaxeb. is didi siamovnebiT damTanxmda. noembris mziani dRe iyo, roca me da lidiam sabavSvo baRis patara ezos kari SevaReT. Sua ezoSi obeliskis msgavsi sveti iyo. is mnaxvelebs mouTxrobda im tragikuli dRis Sesaxeb. lidia skamze Camojda, romelic svetis Soriaxlo idga. _ diliT dedaSenma Cqara Cagatara Cemi fanjris win. mas Savi kostiumi ecva da TeTri bereti exura. Sen cisferi matroska gecva da TeTri bereti gexura. dedaSeni Cqarobda, Sen ki kenWebs iRebdi da isrodi swored Cemi fanjris win. SeniSvna mogca, rom Cqara wasuliyavi. _ anatoli Cqara, Cqara! - momesma misi xma, roca fanjaras vxuravdi. rogorc sCans, Sen maSinac celqi iyavi. Semdeg fanjara davxure... maSinac aseTi mziani dRe iyo. me taxtze Camovjeqi da radgan revmatizmi mawuxebda, skipidariT fexis zelva daviwye. minskis misadgomebTan brZola iyo. iqidan ismoda bombebis xma da es xmebi yvelas SiSs hgvrida. drodadro qalaqsac bombavdnen. es iyo omis dawyebis pirveli dReebi. mas Semdeg, rac fanjara davxure, aTi-TxuTmeti wuTi gavida. ar vici, ratom ver moviSore dedaSenisa da Seni saxe. Cveni saxlis Tavze ramdenime TviTfrinavis xma airia. isini Zalian dabla Camosuliyvnen. wamovxti, rom ezoSi saxeldaxelod gaTxril sardafSi Camovsuliyavi, magram igi aRar damWirvebia. Zlierma afeTqebis xmam iatakze damagdo. roca gons movedi, TviTfrinavis xma aRar ismoda. fanjaraSi isev ixedeboda mze da irgvliv iseTi siCume iyo, TiTqos ai, am wuTSi ki ara, am adgilebSi afeTqeba arasodes yofiliyo. ezoSi gavedi. mezoblebi samalavidan amodiodnen. _ mgoni sabavSvo baRis mxridan iyo! - wamoiZaxa erTma da saxeSeSlili quCaSi gaiWra. is garboda da mec mivdevdi. gavrbodi da fexebi mekeceboda, magram mivdevdi Svilis bediT saxeSecvlil qals. haerSi damwvrisa da sikvdilis suni idga. roca sabavSvo baRTan mivaRwieT, davinaxeT cecxlSi gaxveuli Senoba. ver gaigebdi, am jojoxeTSi vin iyo cocxali da vin mkvdari. eniT auwereli sikvdilis momswre gavxdi. bavSvebis gvamebi, erTi wuTis win mzes rom Sestrfodnen, Zirs eyara.
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_ valiCka, Svilo...- Semomesma guliswamRebi kivili, gamxecebulma dedam cecxlmodebuli mori aswia da iqidan damwvari da dasaxiCrebuli Svilis gvami gamoitaca. jojoxeTi iyo irgvliv, namdvili jojoxeTi... _ Cqara, visac SegiZliaT, Sig cocxali bavSvebi ar dagvrCes! - Camesma xma da gamoverkvie. mec maTTan gavCndi dasaxmareblad. odnav qroda qari da cecxli ufro da ufro Zlierdeboda. swored am dros Signidan bavSvis sunTqva Sekruli yvirili momesma, karebidan Sesvla ar SeiZleboda. Senobas gverdidan Semovurbine, fanjara fexiskvriT gavaRe da Sig Sevedi. vicodi, cecxli moedeboda ramdenime wamSi am mxaresac, magram am wuTSi amaze ar vfiqrobdi. Senobis siRrmidan ismoda bavSvis yvirili da iqiT miviwevdi. kvamlSi gaxveul oTaxSi, sawolis qveS Zlivs davinaxe, xeli davtace da ukan gamovbrundi. fanjridan jer Sen gisrole, Semdeg me gadmovxti. maSin fexi itkine, magram amis dro ar iyo. iqaurobidan unda momeSorebine, rom kedlebi ar dagvcemoda Tavze. isev win mivedi. _ cocxalia? yoCaR! - miTxra swored man, vinc weRan Svils iTxovda. _ cocxalia? bevria mkvdari? bavSvebis gvamebs gadavxede. Sens TanatolebSi, visac im dRes ukanasknelad gauTenda, beretiani qalis saxec Sevicani. etyoba, ver gaeswro, Seni miyvanisas daRupuliyo. lidia petrovnam Txroba Sewyvita. me daficxebuli tuCebi gaviloke. erTxans ase viyaviT. Semdeg... _ ai, bavSvTa samare! - Cavilaparake. _ omis dawyebis pirveli dReebidanve daiwyo evakuacia. im saRamos me da Senc davtoveT iqauroba. me bavSvebs gamomayoles. matarebelSi mTeli Rame kalTiT gatare, radgan ubralo xmaurzec krTodi, SfoTiani Zili gqonda. meSinoda, rame ar dagmarTnoda. diliT ukve samSvidoboze viyaviT, gaRviZebisas gakvirvebiT Semomxede. _ bax! bax! bax! - saxe gafiTrebulma xelebi aifare. cota puris naWeri da yveli mogawode. xarbad dauwye Wama, magram roca gaaTave, isev dagemanWa saxe da Cumad Tqvi. _ fricebi? bax! bax! ninaCka sad aris? _ vin aris ninoCka? frTxilad SegekiTxe me. _ ar ici ninaCka?. mas didi dedofala hyavs, roca daiZinebs, Tvalebs xuWavs. me mas erTi Tma movaWeri. ninaCka gabrazda da mcema. me davemuqre, mama saqarTvelodan mova da Senc gcems-Tqo. _ ratom aris mama saqarTveloSi?
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_ ar vici. _ miTxra, male moval da Senc saqarTveloSi wagiyvano. - cota Cafiqrebis Semdeg Tqvi. _ ratom waxval saqarTveloSi? _ me iq bebia da babua myavs. me qarTvel Tolias meZaxian. me gangeb ar mikiTxavs dedis Sesaxeb. meSinoda, ar gaWirveulebuliyavi. lidia petrovna gaCumda. iqauroba davtoveT. axla Cven mivyvebodiT im quCas, romelzec am TxuTmeti wlis winaT germanuli yumbarebi amsxvrevdnen, swvavdnen, spobdnen da klavdnen. omis damTavrebis Semdeg ki adamianebi ibrZodnen, qalaqisTvis pirvandeli saxe daebrunebiaT. iarebi SuSdeboda irgvliv, magram ramdeni TxuTmeti weli dasWirdeboda gulis iaris gankurnebas? Tumca Cven axla ukve aRar vsaubrobdiT, orivem vicodiT, rom es iara sikvdilamde gaumrTelebeli gvqonda. isic vicodi, rom exla is Tavis iaraze ki ara, Cems satkivarze fiqrobda. orives fiqri im didTvaleba dedofalas, ninaCkas dastrialebda, Tmebs rom vuwewavdi. _ nina! sad xar netav? gadarCi, Tu Sens gulze Semodgomis gamxmari foTlebi irxeva? - gavifiqre da gulis siRrmeSi raRac Camwyda. _ an iqneb daeZebs isic am abezar anatolis? - erT wuTSi azrad momivida, menaxa mTel qalaqSi yvela nina da gamego maTi vinaoba, magram es bavSvuri survili Tavidan moviSore. centrSi SevCerdiT. lidia mixsnida, sad ra dawesebuleba iyo. roca ukan vbrundebodiT, ramdenime sarTulidan sacxovrebeli saxlis mSeneblobis gverdze avRmoCndiT. relsebze amwe idga, mis Tavze jixurSi Cemi toli biWi ijda da misi patara saSualebiT caSi asuli amwe muSaobda. me SevCerdi, lidiac SeCerda da mivCerebodi im biWs. gorgolaWebi trialebdnen da cementiT datvirTuli sazidari zeviT iwevda. im biWs Zalian bednieri saxe hqonda. mis Tavze ki anaTebda mze. mze naTeli da sxiviani iyo da uceb momeCvena, TiTqos am mzes jadosnuri Zala hqonda da vaJis mklavebSi iRvreboda. erTbaSad airia zRva da xmeleTi. uialqno gemi Sors wavida Cemgan, me ki SemrCa marto ialqani. gemi tortmaniT mSordeboda da sadRac Sors usasrulobaSi ikargeboda. me damrCa ialqani ugemod, maRali TokebiT da jixuramde aSverili sxivebiT. Semdeg ialqanic daiSala Cems gverdiT. _ ra iyo biWo, xom ar mogewona misi profesia? - gamomiyvana am mdgomareobidan. Sevxede muSa iyo, alag-alag Tma gaTeTreboda da me miyurebda. pasuxi davagviane. sazidari Camovida dabla,muSa misken wavida da aguris tvirTva daiwyo.

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`Zmao anatoli. werilebs agvianeb. mec erTxans ar vicodi, sad iyavi. jarSi gagzavnili werilebi dumdnen da vfiqrobdi, rom adgili Seicvale. me meoTxe kursze vswavlob. Zvelebidan isev qeTinos megobrad davrCi. ratom ar wer werilebs? is ar ambobs, magram vgrZnob, rom Senze dardobs. vaJasac vxvdebi. Tmas modaze iyenebs xolme. gogoebs isev rCebaT Tvali mis Tmebze. bebia yoCaRad aris. xSirad gkiTxulobs, is rusi biWi sad daikargao. mamaCemi am dros gazeTs kiTxulobs da saTvaleebs zemodan gadascqeris bebias. is laparakSi ar ereva, me ki Tvalyurs vadevneb da roca bebia ukve sxva rameze saubrobs, mamas Cumi oxvra aRmoxdeba gulidan. am dros is Tavis daRupul anatolize fiqrobs. Seni gaxseneba or grZnobas aCens Cvens saxlSi, sixarulsa da mwuxarebas. amiT nu Rondebi anatoli. moZebne Seni daiko, nina. rogor cxovrob tolia. es me Zalian mainteresebs. antonina 1960 w. werilis bolo xazi antoninas xelwerisagan gansxvavdeboda. guli gadamiqanda, gulTan mivitane, Tvalebi davxuWe da qvis xidTan kvlav aisveta gvirila yvaviliviT qeTinos norCi tani. _ SegeSinda? - momesma niaviviT CurCuli, sul axlos, sadRac gulTan. _ Sen fiqrobdi, gadavxtebodi? - kidev daikvnesa raRac xmam. es Cemi mkerdidan amoxeTqili sityvebi iyo, ase saTuTad rom vinaxavdi dRemde. Cemi patara Cemodani movZebne, gavxseni da iqidan suraTi amoviRe. Tvalebic movZebne... isev da isev miyurebda qaliSvilis arafrismTqmeli mkacri Tvalebi. rogor ver vitandi am saxes. me am Tvalebis meSinoda. erTi kviris Semdeg antoninas werili gavugzavne. dao, antonina! am wuTSi Sens meti aRaravin aRar myavs. adamiani, vinc Cems sicocxles TvalisCiniviT ufrTxildeboda, aRar aris. es ici, ra aris CemTvis? TiTqos yvela dasayrdeni wertili gamomecala da haerSi Camokidebuli davrCi. igi iyo CemTvis yvelaferi: deda, mama, naTesavi da rac mTavaria is xidi, Cemi cxovrebis dasawyisTan patara ZafiT rom makavSirebda. dRes diliT ki didxans davCerebodi mis spetak saxes, TeTr Tmebs. ver warmoidgenT, rogor miyvarda misi TovliviT TeTri Tmebi. TviT zamTarSic ar uyvarda Tavze daxurva da aTas adamianSi SemeZlo, gamomecno igi. xelebi, axla gulze rom hqonda dawyobili, gahyviTleboda. es xelebi, mudam Cemsken gamowvdili rom iyo, exla umweod ewyo mis mkerdze. mindoda, davxriliyavi da am xelebisT- 334 -

vis meTqva madloba. movferebodi, mkerdTan mimetana da gameTbo. misi Cems mimarT gacemuli siTbo damebrunebina mTlianad. iqneb im Zalas SesZleboda, rom erTxel mainc gaexila Tvali, magram fexebi ar memorCileboda, nabiji win gadamedga. cisferi Tvalebi daxuWvoda. mSvidad eZina, me ki maxsovda misi mSvidi, alersiani da mSobliuri gamoxedva. am wuTSi mis sawolze vzivar da Sen werils vwer. TiTqos irgvliv mTeli samyaro daxSulia da saSinel sicarieles vgrZnob. am sicarieleSi mainc melandebi da mesmis Seni xma - `Zmao anatoli! es moCvenebaa. ismis xma sadRac Soridan da Zalian axlos Cems gulTan. ver gavrkveulvar, Soridan meZaxi, Tu karebis iqiT dgaxar da eli Cems daZaxebas. lidia petrovnas naqsovi svitri macvia da maTbobs. igi xom im adamianis xelebma moqsoves, am ramdenime saaTis win ase daJinebiT rom Semcqeroda. ai exla, roca ukanaskneli naTesavic davkarge, ver warmoidgen, rogor mindoda Seni naxva. rogor minda, Tvali gavaxilo da Cems gverdiT daginaxo. Seni erTi sityva `Zmao anatoli ramdens udris exla! antonina! ar vici, ratom momagonda erTi epizodi Cveni bavSvobidan. gaxsovs, kolmeurneobis dasaxmareblad rom wavediT skolidan? Rame iq davrCiT. biWebma qoxebi gavakeTeT, biWebis calke da gogoebis-calke. Rame iyo. gogoebis qoxis Tavze avZveri, qamari magrad davgrixe da mZinare bavSvebis Tavze Camovagde, Tanac yvirili avtexe: _ biWebo! Cqara gogoebis qoxSi gveli SeZvra-meTqi. gaisma guliswamRebi kivili. aiSala yvela. _ ager aris, - kioda erTi da gareT moiwevda. erTxans vicinodi, magram roca Sen gulwasuli gamogiyvanes, SiSis Jruantelma damiara da SenTan moviWeri. viRacam cecxli gaaCaRa. Sen gogoebs gamogglije da cecxlTan migarbenine. Zlivs mogasuliereT, magram didxans kankalebdi. aravin icis da verc veravin gaigo, rom am ambis momwyobi me viyavi. maswavleblebi yvirodnen da eWvi yvela abezar biWze mihqondaT. me ki ise viyavi sagonebelSi Cavardnili, rom Tu amas gavakeTebdi, vin ifiqrebda. Semdeg... Zlivs miviZineT. yvelas vTxove, Tavis adgilze wasuliyvnen. SenTan me da qeTino davrCiT. lidia petrovnas qmris naxmari bewviani qurqi gavixade, Sen dagaxure da rogorc bavSvi, ise CagTbune. mTeli Rame mogCerebodi. Sen verasodes gaigeb, rogor meSinoda, ar damkargvodi im Rames. TviTon ar vici, ratom momagonda yvelaferi es. ai, axla Sen gwer werils, Sen ki cecxlispiras mwolares gxedav. da axla, CemTvis ukve civ kedlebSi Cems civ guls gaaTbobda Seni naxva, Zvirfaso dao. Seni Zma anatoli. 1961
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me amweze vmuSaob da amjerad mravalsarTulian Senobas vaSeneb. mSenebloba marTlac lamazi da vaJkacuri profesiaa, magram Tanamedrove mSenebloba mxolod am amweebs SeuZliaT. isev lidia petrovnas datovebul binaSi vcxovrob. mis garSemo yvela patara saxli aiRes, albaT masac male aiReben. me ki keTilmowyobil binas miviReb. antoninam werilebis wera Sewyvita. ramdenjer gavugzavne, aRar upasuxnia. qeTino xom saerTod sdums. isev Semomecalnen Zveli megobrebi. am ramdenime kviris winaT, roca Cemi jixuri zeviT aiwia da samuSaod movemzade, sul axlos Cemi jixuris pirdapir axal sacxovrebeli binis aivanze qaliSvils movkari Tvali. mas Savgvremani saxe da Savi Tvalebi aqvs. Cemi jixuri misi aivnidan ise axloa, rom garkveviT davinaxe misi Tvalebis feri. vxedavdi mTeli sami dRis ganmavlobaSi, rogor Cqara isworebda Tmebs sarkesTan da iqaurobas tovebda. im dReebSi es marTobda. erT dRes, roca Cemi jixuri Zirs daeSva, Cems gaocebas sazRvari ar hqonda, roca Tvali movkari samuSao tansacmelSi gamowyobil qaliSvils. codva gamxelili sjobia, misi vinaobiT davinteresdi. axlos mivedi, ar mivsalmebivar da arc raime miTqvams, mivxvdi, rom is CvenTan muSaobda. man SemamCnia, damakvirda da Sinaurulad gamiRima. misma mwyaloblurma Rimilma gamabraza. meore dRes samuSaoze mivedi. iq damxvda isic. dameloda, rom pirveli mivsalmebodi. _ gamarjobaT. _ gagimarjos. - mipasuxa. warbebi odnav Seikra da gankarguleba momca. _ dRes unda movrCeT mexuTe sarTulis mSeneblobas. blokebi TiTqmis atanilia da exla memontaJeebs misca miTiTeba. aRar mikiTxavs misi vinaoba, radgan cxadi iyo, is Cveni mSeneblobis inJineri iyo. jixurSi Sevedi da zeviT avedi. Tan Tvals ar vaSorebdi muSebiT garSemortymul qals, romelic isev wvrilman SeniSvnebze esaubreboda maT. sazidari daitvirTa da zeviT wavida. gorgolaWebi trialebda. Tvals ar vacilebdi amwes. im dRis norma namdvilad gadaWarbebiT SevasruleT. roca Zirs Camovedi, qaliSvili mSeneblebs xvalindel gegmebs usaxavda. maTTan misvla ar mindoda, magram mivedi da Semdeg dReebSi mudam vfiqrobdi: ratom mivedi? mivedi, rogorc mSeneblobis ufrosTan Tu rogorc qaliSvilTan. erTxans upasuxod mrCeboda es SekiTxva. _ Tqven anatoli axalSeniSvili xarT, ara? _ diax! Semdeg man raRac damavala, yvelaferze Tavs vuqnevdi. bolos
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im RimiliT gamiRima, ufrosebs rom sCveviaT xolme Tavis xelqveiTebTan. quCaSi gamovediT. im wuTSi raRac mabrazebda. nela mivdiodi. aqeT-iqiT ki idga amweebi, maRlivi sarTulebi, mZlavri saZirkvelebi, exlaxans rom Casxmuliyo miwis wiaRSi. sul axlos manqana SeCerda. me gverdis aqceva mindoda, rom... _ anatoli, aqeT cxovrob? Cajeqi. migiyvan! - momesma da mis saxeze isev is Rimili davinaxe. _ sammarTveloSi mivdivar, Sida samuSaoebis Sesasruleblad. Semosazidi masalebi kidev darCa. saWesTan TviTon ijda. exla aRar iRimeboda da quCas gascqeroda. mas mSvidi saxe hqonda. _ sad cxovrob? - SemekiTxa uceb. _ me? - me misamarTi davusaxele. man manqana gverdiT quCaze gadaiyvana. _ aqauri xar? - SevekiTxe uceb. _ aqauri. is win ixedeboda da momeCvena, TiTqos aRar vaxsovdi. _ larisa aleqseevna damiZaxe! - Zalian oficialurad Tqva es sityvebi, ise, rogorc ufrosebi umcrosebs ecnobian xolme. am wuTSi CemTvis ufrosi iyo da ara qaliSvili. manqana Sedga. me kari gavaRe. _ romel sarTulze cxovrob? _ meoreze. ori oTaxi Cemia. ai, is fanjrebi. gamikvirda, roca qaliSvilma Tavi gamohyo da naCveneb fanjrebs Sexeda. _ ojaxSi vin gyavs? - erTbaSad SemekiTxa igi, ise rom mis saxeze simkacre ar gamqrala. gavfiTrdi, radgan mudam mabrazebda es SekiTxva. Cemi Tavi movToke da waviCurCule. _ aravin. me sabavSvo saxlSi gavizarde. erTbaSad qalma kari gaaRo da gareT gadmovida. mis fermkrTal saxeze siwiTle gaCeniliyo. is aRar iRimeboda, magram weRandeli simkacrec gahqroboda saxeze. exla gakvirvebiT Semomcqeroda misi Savi Tvalebi da mivxvdi, rom igi am wuTSi Cemi ufrosi ki ara, sxvisi bediT dainteresebuli adamiani iyo. manqanaSi Sevida, roca saWes xeli mohkida, me masTan axlos mivedi da movubodiSe: _ mapatie, larisa aleqseevna, iseTi mouwyobeli var, rom Tqveni mipatiJeba ver gavbede. _ TviTon bodiSi, anatoli! - Tqva da manqana mosxletiT win waswia. cotac da, is Cems Tvalebs miefara. nela avuyevi kibeebs, oTaxi gavaRe da mosxletiT taxtze mivegde.
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Semdegi dReebi Cven erTmaneTs Zalian oficialurad vxvdebodiT da TiTqmis mTlianad dagvaviwyda is dRe. is energiulad da mkacrad iTxovda yvelafers. swored amitom am axalgazrda specialistma male yvelas yuradReba miiqcia. _ larisa aleqseevna! - Cumad eubnebodnen mSeneblebi, roca mosawevad kuTxeSi Caimuxlebdnen. im dRes ar gamocxadebula samsaxurSi. roca amwis jixuri zeviT avida, TvalebiT movZebne is loji, sadac pirvelad davinaxe igi. arc iq sCanda, samagierod moxuci qali trialebda. mTeli dRe ise vimuSave, Zirs ar mindoda Camosvla. im fanjrisaken vixedebodi da msurda, gamego raime mis Sesaxeb. _ Camodi, biWo! - momesmoda qvevidan. me Zirs daveSvi. _ Sen dRes aRar fiqrob Zirs Camosvlas? visadiloT. sasadilosken CavuxvieT, rom mSeneblobaze misabmeliani avtomanqana Semovida. _ Tqveni ufrosi sad aris? - Tavi gamohyo mZRolma. _ ufrosi amJamad aq ar aris, magram... aba, sabuTi moitane - uTxra erT-erTma muSam, romelic Cvens Soris yvelaze ufrosi iyo da Semomxeda. erTxans vifiqre, xeli unda movawero faqturaze-meTqi, magram man qaRaldi gamomiwoda da mokled miTxra: _ ai, im lojs xedav, meeqvse sarTulze? TvaliT movZebne CemTvis ukve kargad nacnobi loji. _ mere? _ aitane da larisa aleqseevnas xeli moawerine. _ saxlSia? _ avad yofila. SemoTvala, roca aguri movides, sabuTi me gamomigzavneTo. me xeli wavavle sabuTs da sirbiliT sadarbazosken gavaWeri. gavrbodi da im wuTSi ar vicodi, risTvis gavrbodi ase kisrismtvreviT. sadarbazosTan Sevdeqi. vidre zeviT asvlas daviwyebde, gulTan raRac simi Camwyda. sadarbazos kuTxesTan damWknari gvirila egdo. daufiqreblad gaviwode xeli misken. _ SegeSinda? Sen fiqrobdi, gadavxtebodi? - niaviviT gaisma yurTan. damWknari yvavili aviRe. mas odnav SerCenoda Tavisi suni. nela avuyevi kibeebs. TviTeuli nabijis gadadgmisas Soreuli xma mTxovda pasuxs. roca meeqvse sarTulze avedi, ukve aRar mqonda survili, damereka. yvavili da sabuTi xelSi meWira. am ukanasknelma Semaxsena, risTvis wamovedi aq. zari davreke. _ TviTon ar vici, ratom movedi SenTan. - momesma sayvareli qaliSvilis kvnesismsgavsi xma. Cems xelebSi TrToda yvavilis
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furclebi. dauviwyari da mSvenieri, sayvareli da nazi qeTino me miRimoda. TiTma zaris Rilaki moZebna. _ erTi, ori, sami... - momesma nabijebis xma, da vidre kari gaiReboda gvirilas yvavili meeqvse sarTulidan Zirs gafrinda. Tvali Cavayole. Tavbru damexva, karis gaRebam gamomafxizla. _ larisa aleqseevna minda. _ SemobrZandi! _ ai, sabuTi. xeli moawere ai, aq... _ SemodiT! - exla RimiliT SemipatiJa moxucma. meuxerxula, gaprialebul binaSi aseTi tansacmliT Sesvla. sarkeSi larisa aleqseevnas movkari Tvali. is sawolSi Tavwakruli iwva. rogorc ki saxlSi fexi Sevdgi, kari Cems ukan frdxilad miixura da erTxel kidev Semiqanda guli. _ Semodi, anatoli! - gaisma larisa aleqseevnas mokle, brZanebismsgavsi xma. me misi sawoli oTaxisken waviwie da karebSi gaxevebuli gavCerdi. _ erTi avtomanqanaa? - SeekiTxa, radgan igrZno, rom win wasvla aRar mindoda. _ ki, erTi. bodiSi, rom ase Semovedi. - waviluRluRe raRac amis msgavsi. _ araferia. - man Cqara moawera xeli da sabuTi gamomiwoda. taxtamde darCenili iyo ramdenime metri. moxucic meore oTaxSi gasuliyo. misken gadavdgi nabiji. Tan Tvals ar vaSorebdi mis patara xels da sicxian saxes. _ Tqven avad xarT larisa aleqseevna? _ cotaTi. albaT gaivlis, aba, Tqven iciT, anatoli, uCemod Tu ar icuRlutebT. - es ki Txovna iyo, namdvili Txovna, Tanatoli rom mimarTavs Tanatols. me gaviRime da zurgi ar Semiqcevia, ise gavedi iqedan. roca iqauroba davtove, iseTi STabeWdileba damrCa, rom aseTi lamazi, ubralo da Tbili bina arsad menaxa. am binas met mimzidvelobas aZlevda swored misi sicxiani saxe, Tvalebi, CamoTlili xelebi. kibeebze veSvebodi da sul aRar maxsovda, weRan Zirs gafrenili gvirilas yvavili. sadarbazosTan egdo igi, Tvali movaride da ise gavedi quCaSi. 1970w. minski eh! Zalian Semagvianda SenTan mosvla. Sen Cemi megobari xar, Cemi cxovrebis mesaidumle! SenTan movdivar ori didi grZnobis Semdeg, roca raime mawuxebs, an roca Zalian bednieri var. Sen mogande Cemi ocnebebi, Cemi fiqrebi, bavSvuri wlebis tkbili
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sazrunavi da ocnebebi. ocnebebi bavSvur wlebTan erTad darCa, cxovrebam ki Tavisi gziT wamiyvana. Cemsa da Cems daubrunebel bavSvobasTan Sen makavSireb, Cemo megobaro! Sen SegiZlia, megobroba gamiwio sikvdilamde. Seni TeTri mkerdi Tbilad inaxavs Cemi cxovrebis sixarulsa da mwuxarebas. gendobi, radgan Sen yvelaferi ici Cems Sesaxeb, SenTan mudam gulwrfeli viyavi. sakmao drom ganvlo mas Semdeg, rac SenTan mosvla Sevwyvite, Tumca bevri sixarulic mqonda da bevri mwuxarebac. SenTan mosvla guliT mwadda, magram raRac Sinagani Zala yovelTvis ukan mwevda. am xmas ar surda, gaetexa Seni guli axali cxovrebiT. es cxovreba samudamod wyvetda kavSirs im periodTan, romelsac gazafxulis suni adis, romelic lamazi iyo Tavis sinorCiT, ankara Tavisi sispetakiT, mSvenieri Tavisi sikaSkaSiT, Tavisi udardeli wlebiT. Cemi amwis jixuri adioda da Cadioda xan zeviT, xan- qveviT. aRar vici, ramdeni tona avitane sarTulebze. qalaqi izrdeboda, sarTulebi miiwevdnen zeviT... ukve aRar maxsovs is dRe, Tvalebis cecebiT rom Sevcqerodi im guliTad biWs. viyavi zeviT, mzesTan axlos. ukve aRar maocebda is, rac dResac CemTvis saocneboa. Cems sulSi xSirad ibadeboda sakuTari Tavisadmi ukmarisobis SegrZneba. aRar maocebda, Cemi suraTebi rom ibeWdeboda Jurnal-gazeTebSi. arc is, sapatio dafidan rom miyurebda Cemi saxe. valad mqonda Cemi sicocxle da aRar makmayofilebda es yovelive. lidia petrovnas xsovna Cemgan iTxovda mets. me ki vijeqi da davdiodi zevidan qveviT. es ar iyo gmiroba. gmiroba sxva rame iyo da me mas veZebdi. suraTi `mipoveT Cemi rkinis sawolis Tavze mqonda mimagrebuli. yovel diliT Semomcqeroda sami wlis, odnav Worfliani biWis saxe. miyurebda cisferi, odnav gaocebuli Tvalebi. am saxeze, am TvalebSi me veZebdi CemTvis Seucnobel saWiro xazebs, mindoda, mis saxeze wamekiTxa maSindeli misi fiqrebi, misi gancdebi. larisa aleqseevna ki Cems cxovrebaSi Semovida Tavisi vaJkacuri suliT da qaluri sinaziT. jer kidev adre meCveneboda, rom is Cemgan mets moiTxovda da amas mudam maniSnebda. erTxel mirCia, dauswreblad ganmegrZo swavla. _ konkursSi gaval? - daukiTxavad vikiTxe me. _ gamecadineb. me gavvocdi. madlobis grZnobac ki ver gamovxate. _ SevTanxmdeT, yoveli muSaobis mere Semoivli CemTan. _ me... ver warmoidgenT... ra gulkeTili xarT! - abneulad wamovisrole, es erTmaneTTan SeuTanxmebeli sixarulis sityvebi. _ aba ras ambob?
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_ Tqven SesaniSnavi adamiani xarT larisa aleqseevna. _ aucileblad modiT, eg qaTinaurebi mere TqviT, roca institutSi moxvdebi. saRamos samuSao tansacmeli gamovicvale. yvelaze saukeTeso kostiumi Cavicvi da larisa aleqseevnas saxlisken amaval kibes avuyevi... ...ase daiwyo Cemi xangrZlivi muSaoba fizikasa da maTematikaSi. gaocebuli viyavi am qaliSvilis ara marto codniT, aramed gadmocemis unariT. is mixsnida logariTmebis cxrilis gamoyenebis wess, rTul trigonometriul gakveTilebs, miambobda Cveni klasikosebis Semoqmedebis Sesaxeb. dro gadioda. es qali lidia petrovnas gagrZeleba iyo, Tumca masTan ufro nazi grZnoba makavSirebda. vgrZnobdi, am qaliSvilTan cxovrebiseuli urTierTobiT viyavi dakavSirebuli da am damokidebulebaSi iyo Cemi movaleobac mis mimarT. misi mSvidi saxe CemSi ar badebda sxva grZnobas, garda mowiwebisa. am qalma teqnikur mwvervalebs maziara. swored is iyo, vinc CemSi ukmarisobis sadave monaxa da Cems cxovrebas swori mimarTuleba misca. masTan wminda megobruli grZnobiT viyavi dakavSirebuli. gvian Ramemde mixsnida gakveTilebs, Semdeg vSordebodi. is karebSi idga, vidre kibeebs ar CavaTavebdi da lampionebiT ganaTebul quCebs ar gavyvebodi. Cemi suli rwmeniT da sixaruliT iyo savse. erTxel, roca morig gakveTilze mivedi larisa aleqseevnasTan, is Cveulebrivi naxazebiT savse magidasTan damxvda. metad rTul da zust naxazebs Cahkirkitebda. taxtze Camovjeqi, ar mindoda, xeli SemeSala misTvis. sakonkurso naSromze muSaobda. zogjer sindisis qejnas vgrZnobdi, rom bevr dros varTmevdi. _ axlave, anatoli! - wynarad miTxra man ise, rom Tavi ar auRia. gazeTi aviRe, magram ar wamikiTxavs. Tvals ar vaSorebdi qaliSvilis ferwasul saxes, Sav Tvalebs, SublTan gaCenil ramdenime naoWs. igi albaT bevri fiqrisgan hqonda. is wamodga, xelebi gadaijvaredina da oTaxSi gaiara. drodadro Tavs gaaryevda xolme. vigrZeni, rom saSinlad daRlili iyo. larisa aleqseevna fanjarasTan mivida, qveviT gadaixeda. me wamovdeqi. _ Sen daRlili xar, larisa, modi, gaviseirnoT! gamikvirda, rom pirvelad mivmarTe mxolod saxeliT. man Semomxeda. _ kargi, Cavicvam! quCaSi gasvlisas mivutrialdi da vTxove, kinoSi SevsuliyaviT. Tavazianad gaaqnia Tavi da Cailaparaka. _ gaviseirnoT, Semdeg sadme CamovsxdeT!
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mSvidi saRamo iyo. erTxans nela mivyvebodiT quCas, Semdeg skverSi SeviareT da CamovsxediT. larisa aleqseevna erTxans garindebuli ijda, Semdeg Semomxeda da waiCurCula: _ anatoli! miambe Sens Sesaxeb. SevkrTi. Tvalwin antonina da misi mudariT savse Tvalebi damidga, rogor undoda maSin, meTqva iseTi ram, rac gaaxarebda. larisa aleqseevna odnav SesamCnevi RimiliT miyurebda da eloda pasuxs. _ aba, ra giTxra! - amovioxre. - sabavSvo saxli, profsaswavlebeli, samxedro saswavlebeli. Cemi cxovreba garegnulad TiTqmis martivia. mTeli sicocxlis samarSruto gza iyo minski-qluxoriberlini-minski. Cemi cxovreba Tavisi SinaarsiT Zalian rTulia. larisa, dResac ar vici, vina var: rusi, ukraineli, belarusi Tu qarTveli. is SesamCnevi Rimilic gahqra mis saxeze. _ mapatieT. _ ise, SemiZlia giamboT or Cems yvelaze maxlobel adamianze... da vuambe lili petrovnasa da antoninaze. vuambe, rom maTTan siaxlovisas ar vgrZnobdi Tavs unaTesavod. TviTon ar vici, ratom davmale Cemi grZnobebi qeTinos mimarT da saerTod erTi sityvac ar miTqvams mis Sesaxeb. ar vici, amjerad ratom ar viyavi bolomde gulwrfeli. is pirveli adga, mec avdeqi. xelkavi gamikeTa da mTeli gza uxmod gaviareT. erTi sityvac ar uTqvams CemTvis. mikvirda, TviT TanagrZnobis erTi Strixi saxeze ar SemimCnevia. sadarbazosTan Sedga. _ xval eqvs saaTze modi. rva saaTidan sakonkurso sabWoSi unda wavide. Tavi damiqnia. gakvirvebulma gavayole Tvali. garindebuli videqi imave adgilze manam, sanam ar mivxvdi, rom larisa aleqseevna ukve Tavis oTaxSi iqneboda. meore dRes, swored eqvs saaTze misi saxlis win videqi. zaris darekvisas moxucma gaaRo kari. qaliSvili im magidasTan mjdari damxvda, sadac me mamecadinebda xolme. etyoba isev daRlili iyo. mis TvalebSi swored es davinaxe. _ axla patara gamocdas mogiwyob, anatoli! - RimiliT miTxra, roca mis win movkalaTdi. man ramdenime kiTxva damisva da roca kargad vupasuxe, erTbaSad mTeli daRliloba gahqra misi Tvalebidan. _ e.i tyuilad ar gviSromia. imedia, Sen moxvdebi. me mudam mwamda misi sityvebis. amjerad misi mtkiced naTqvami es sityvebi umaRlesSi mowyobaze meti iyo. _ ar dagagviandes, larisa! - erTxel kide gavvocdi, radgan
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meored mivmarTe araoficialurad, megobrulad. mis saxes davakvirdi da davinaxe, rogor gauvardisferda fermkrTali saxe. Tvali amarida. Cqara wamodga da saZinebel oTaxSi tansacmlis gamosacvlelad gavida. _ ai, me mzad var! - momesma misi xma. Sevxede da gavvocdi. arasodes misi saxe aseTi bednieri ar menaxa. _ xom SeiZleba, migacilo? odnav Secbunebulma vuTxari. _ ra Tqma unda. Cems win Cadioda kibeebze. mas Savi kostiumi da TeTri bluzka ecva. ukan gadavarcxnili Tmebi saocrad uxdeboda. taqsi daviWireT. _ ai, mivediT. gmadlobT anatoli! mas ar daubarebia, rom davlodebodi. arc is uTqvams, ramden xanSi dabrundeboda. me ki ar SemeZlo Sin wasvla. arasdros migrZvnia lodiniT gamowveuli amxela aforiaqeba. jibeebSi xelebCawyobili davabijebdi trotuarze da velodi. Zalian gvian gamovida, Tan gamohyvnen kolegebi. Soriaxlos videqida mivxvdi, rom man gaimarjva. _ gisurvebT Semdgom warmatebas! - moisma xma. _ gmadlobT! - man ramdenime nabiji win wadga da isini ukan Camoitova. me dameZebda. _ larisa! - wamoviZaxe da misken gadavdgi fexi. _ anatoli! _ gelodi! konkursSi gaimarjve? Tavi damiqnia da gamiRima. xelze movkide xeli da TvalebSi Cavxede. im wuTSi is yvelaze bednieri iyo. arasdros damaviwydeba is dRe. restoranSi avRniSneT misi gamarjveba da gvian davbrundiT ukan. _ axla, mTavaria, Seni umaRlesSi moxvedra. ver warmoidgen, ras niSnavs es CemTvis. misken Sevtrialdi. _ anatoli! - gaisma misi xma. sunTqva Semekra, davixare da Suble vakoce. araferi uTqvams, ise gaagrZela gza. im saRamos sabolood davrwmundi, rom is miyvarda. miyvarda ara bavSvurad, aramed ufro Rrmad, ufro Zlier. mTeli arsebiT viyavi masTan dakavSirebuli da Cvenma gulebma erTmaneTTan kavSiri uTqmelad gaabes. erTmaneTs SevxvdiT ara SemTxveviT, aramed raRac aucileblobiT da es aucilebloba Cveni siyvaruli iyo, saocrad amaRlebuli, bavSvurad spetaki da vaJkacurad Zlieri. misi dafiqrebuli saxe, mkacri Tvalebi da codna ar maZlevda uflebas, mis mimarT TavdauWereli vyofiliyo. misi gakvirvebuli gamoxedvac ki sakmarisi iyo, axalgazrduli qcevebisgan momeToka
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Cemi Tavi da masTan ufro megobari vyofiliyavi, vidre qaliSvilis siaxloviT TavSeukavebeli Wabuki. im wels marTlac movxvdi. gareT bevr gulSematkivarTa Soris larisa aleqseevnac idga da TviToeul Cems niSans gulisfancqaliT eloda. roca Cemi gvari da saxeli CaricxulTa siaSi dainaxa, CvenSi pirvelad daarRvia manamde damyarebuli urTierToba da sixaruliT saxegabrwyinebulma makoca. gadioda dro. codnis wyurviliT anTebuli qali win miiwevda mecnierebis dasapyroblad. mis xelSi erTnairad eteoda codnisaken swrafvis survili da maRali adamianuri Tvisebebi. is aspiranti gaxda. xSirad vxvdebodiT erTmaneTs. Cveni gulebi ki isev Tokavdnen grZnobebs. erTxel kidev ar movida samsaxurSi. Cveni samuSao ubani exla qalaqis ganapira nawilSi iyo da ver gavige, ra mouvida. saRamos daviWire taqsi da samuSao tansacmeliT saxlSi mivadeqi. zari davreke. aravin gamomxeda. kars mivaweqi da gaiRo. mis samuSao oTaxSi Sevedi, sadac mudam mxvdeboda xolme. _ anatoli! - momesma sawoli oTaxidan. _ avad xar? - SevekiTxe, roca misi sicxisagan saxe davinaxe. _ cota - da gaiRima. pijaki gaviZvre. Ceqmebic SesasvlelSi davawyve da masTan Sevedi. _ marto iyavi? _ ho! deida, erTi kviraa, rac sofelSi wavida. _ ratom ar Sematyobine? - vusayvedure. sicxis sazomi mivawode, rom gamego, ramdenad `cota~ sicxe hqonda. _ eqims gamovuZaxeb! - telefonisaken gaviwie. _ iyo, ai, recepti! - skamze dadebuli qaRaldi damanaxa. _ waval, magram gavigo ramdeni gaqvs sicxe.. _ karadidan rZe da karaqi gamoviRe. rZe SevaTbe da mivutane. mas ukve sicxis sazomi eWira xelSi. _ 39, 2 - arc ise cotaa! - ukmayofilod Cavilaparake da TiTqmis Zalad davalevine Tbili rZe. aforiaqebuli afTiaqSi gaviqeci. ukan dabrunebulma avadmyofobisTvis saWiro sursaTi da xili SeviZine da larisa aleqseevnasTan davbrundi. _ gagawvale, anatoli! - moibodiSa man. jer wamali davalevine, Semdeg winsafari avifare da mzareuloba daviwye. Tqven warmoidgineT, arc Tu ise cudi sadili movamzade. _ yoCaR, ra gemrieli vaxSamia! - RimiliT Tqva qaliSvilma da madlierebis grZnobiT Semomxeda. _ WurWeli samzareuloSi gavitane da misi darecxva daviwye. roca ukan davbrundi, qaliSvils ukve eZina. Soriaxlos Camovjeqi
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da frTxilad gazeTi gavSale. gvian gamoiRviZa. jer ver mixvda, ratom viyavi masTan. odnav wamoiwia da Tavis Tavs usayvedura. _ ram damaZina ase? daweqi taxtze, anatoli. _ ara miSavs. _ ratom? cota ukeT var. Tu damWirdebi, dagiZaxeb. darCi, aba, am SuaRames saxlSi xom ar waxval? mivedi da Sublze xeli davade. etyoboda sicxes daewia, magram oflSi curavda. _ gamocvla gWirdeba. ofliani xar! man gaicina da miTxra: _ karadaSia TeTreuli. moitane! misi Txovna myisve Sevasrule. erTxans uxerxuloba Camovarda. _ kargi... gadi, me gamovicvli. SegiZlia, mand taxtze dawve! _ Rame mSvidobisa larisa aleqseevna! _ qveSagebi karadidan gamoiRe. davweqi, magram ar damZinebia. mxolod gaTenebisas CameZina Rrma ZiliT. roca gaviRviZe, kargad gaTenebuliyo. gabrazebuli wamovxti. larisa aleqseevnas saZinebel oTaxSi Sevedi da saxtad davrCi. xalaTSi gaxveuli larisa aleqseevna qveSagebSi wamomjdari, Tavis rTul naxazebSi Cafluli, Rrma fiqrs miscemoda. Tqven warmoidgineT, Cemi Sesvlac ki ar gaugia. uceb saSinlad gavbrazdi. masTan miviWeri da naxazi gamovarTvi. _ ar grcxvenia? xom unda mixedo Sens Tavs. man naRvlianad gaicina. _ sadRac patara Secdoma davuSvi da ver movnaxe. _ kargi. mere gaakeTe, roca ukeT gaxdebi! misi cxeli xeli gulTan mivitane da mudariT vuTxari. _ Tu saerTod Cemi xaTri gaqvs, zedmetad nu itvirTav Tavs. sawolTan mdgar skamze Camovjeqi. saxe odnav gauvardisfrda. _ iqneba me Cem fizikur SesaZleblobaze metad vitvirTav Tavs. Tavisi xeli Cem TmebSi Seacura. me SevkrTi, mas isev sicxe hqonda. wamovdeqi, Sublze vakoce da mkacrad vuTxari. _ axlave eqims gamoviZaxeb da yvela mis rCevas miiReb. naxazebi aviRe. meore oTaxis sawer magidis ujraSi Cavawyve, Cavkete da gasaRebi jibeSi Cavide. telefonis yurmili aviRe eqimis gamosaZaxeblad. eqimi male movida. guldasmiT gasinja, mere me momibrunda da moulodnelad SemekiTxa: _ Tqven meuRle xarT? _ diax! - ise mowyvetiT vupasuxe, rom TviT Cemma xmam SemaSina. larisa aleqseevnas Sevxede. mis saxeze gaoceba ar gamoxatula.
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_ ai, recepti. mas dasveneba unda. sicxe dauwevs, magram ar Seicivnos. roca karebSi gavacile, man Semomxeda da miTxra: _ zedmetad gadaRlilia da sruli dasveneba sWirdeba. kargia Tu sadme wava dasasveneblad. mxolod Tqvenc Tan unda gahyveT. gabruebuli davbrundi ukan. larisa isev im mdgomareobaSi iyo. ukve aRar SemeZlo auRelveblad mivsuliyavi masTan. ukve uazroba iyo mogvetyuebina erTmaneTi, Tundac gamoxedviT an sityviT. erTmac da meoremac kargad vicodiT, rom Cven erTmaneTs vekuTvnodiT. Cven erTmaneTs SevxedeT da gaviRimeT. es Rimili iyo siyvarulic da qorwinebac, sixarulic da bednierebac. TaflobisTve zRvispireTSi gavatareT. larisa aleqseevna ara marto gamojarmTelda, aramed mTlianad gamoicvala. mis mudam mSvid da amave dros mkacr saxeze siTbo gaCnda. is me mekuTvnoda. es siTbo mec gadamedo, ise Zlier, rom TviT es qveyanac Cemad CavTvale. bednieri viyavi. bedniereba erTxel modis adamianTan da saWiroa am did saganZurs TvalCiniviT gaufrTxilde, Torem, Tu odesme xelidan gagisxltda, samudamod unda gamoemSvidobo yvelaze wmindas, yvelaze faqizs, yvelaze Zvirfass, rac Sens gulSia. Cven SeverdiT maSin, roca mesame kursis studenti viyavi da roca diplomi miviRe, ukve qaliSvilis mama gavxdi. _ anatoli, antonina gagviCnda! - momwera saavadmyofodan larisam. gulTan raRac tkbilad momxvda. mas mudam axsovda Cemi tkivili. gogona dedas ar hgavda. cisferi Tvalebi da TeTri Tmebi hqonda da saocrad hgavda... _ oh! RmerTo, antonina, es patara arseba ra saocrad hgavs isev mas! - vCurCulebdi CemTvis, Tumca am sakiTxze larisasTan arasodes vlaparakobdi. mSeneblobis inJinrad damniSnes. larisa aleqseevna sammarTveloSi gadaiyvanes. es saocari qali bolomde darCa TavisTavisadmi mkacrad momTxovni. axla misi naxazebi ukve aRar iyo CemTvis ucnobi. teqnikurad mec vcdilobdi davxmarebodi mas. es iyo Cemi cxovrebis yvelaze kargi wlebi. myavda SesaniSnavi meuRle, vamayobdi Cemi gogonaTi. vmuSaobdi da vocnebobdi yvelaferze, rac ki kargi arsebobda. gogona im sabavSvo baRSi miviyvaneT, sadac me imdroindeli wlebi gavatare. erTad mivdiodiT da erTad mogvyavda bavSvi. bavSvi izrdeboda da Cven sazrunavic gvemateboda. erTxel samsaxuridan pirdapir bavSvis mosayvanad wavedi. ezoSi Sesvlisas gaocebuli Sevdeqi skverSi, svetis Soriaxlos ijda
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larisa. antonina Soriaxlos bavSvebTan erTad TamaSobda. qali saSinlad daRlili iyo. is naRvlianad Semomcqeroda. mis ukan im dReTa tragediis sveti, cocxali mematiene idga. masTan mivedi da Tvali ar momiSorebia, ise Camovjeqi. man Cemi xeli aiRo da gulTan miitana. erTxans ase iyo garindebuli. arc mas uTqvams rame da arc-me. mis TvalebSi jer cremli gabrwyinda, Semdeg ori wveTi moswyda da Cems xels daeca. me mivxvdi, rom Zalian cudad iyo. larisa aleqseevnas eqimma saSineli diagnozi dausva. es diagnozi sikvdils udrida. _ sisxlis gaTeTreba. - roca movismine, Tavbru damexva da Zlivs SevinarCune wonasworoba. misTvis ar miTqvams. saavadmyofoSi movaTavse. es ukve bedis dacinva iyo. erTbaSad uTvistomo gavxdi. CemTvis yvelaze maxlobel adamians male vkargavdi. ukve aRar vfiqrobdi Cems ubedurebaze. gana, SeiZleboda erTi wuTiTac mefiqra sakuTar Tavze? Cems Tvalwin dRiTidRe ecleboda sicocxlis yvela niSani, gayviTlda, Seecvala saxe, misi Tvalebis da tuCebis feri. guli meyineboda imis warmodgenaze, rom sul male sicocxleze Seyvarebuli qali am sarecelTan daasrulebda brZolas. grZnobda Tu ara amas? fiqrobda Tu ara saSinel dasarulze? _ ara! mas erTxelac ar dauCivlia. erTxelac ar daminaxavs mis Tvalebze SiSi sikvdilis gamo. erTxelac ar uwuwunia Tavis uimedobaze. saocari is iyo, rom TviT im dReebSic Tavis rTul naxazebze fiqrobda. xSirad, Zalian moridebiT mTxovda mimetana naxazebi masTan. me am Txovnas vusrulebdi. mudam masTan viyavi. bavSvi ki mis deidasTan davtove. saavadmyofos vtovebdi maSin, roca es avadmyofs esaWiroeboda. erTxel gamococxlebuli damxvda, SemosvlisTanave gamomiwoda xeli da damiyvira. _ anatoli! bolos da bolos mivxvdi. ai, rac aq var, sul amaze vfiqrobdi. bolos mivageni imitom, rom azrovneba axla marto masze mqonda mimarTuli. Sen warmoidgine, sul ubralo yofila, me ki mas mTeli wlebi veZebdi, - Seisvena, Sevatyve, rom daiRala. man naxazi aiRo. TiTi daado im adgils, sadac Secdoma iyo da odnav dabali xmiT daumata: _ Sen Seaswore, anatoli. dResve, saxlSi rom mixval. ramdeni xanic ar unda gavides, rogori cxovrebac ar unda mqondes, bedniereba, ra Tqma unda, aRar momiva. magram arasodes damaviwydeba mis gaTeTrebul saxeze anTebuli Tvalebi, didi sicocxlis wyurviliT anTebuli Tvalebi da naxazze gawvdili gamxdari yviTeli TiTi. momeCvena, rom man brZola gamoucxada Tavis
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satkivars, gamoucxada mTeli ZaliT da gaimarjva. mTeli energia, mTeli niWi, mTeli darCenili sicocxlis Zala am wuTSi erTad SeakavSira da SeebrZola. teqnikur sizustes man miaRwia. sikvdilis win naxa, rac awuxebda. mis gamarjvebas aRtacebuli da bednieri Sevcqerodi. wuTiT kidec gadamaviwyda misi mdgomareoba. naxazi aviRe. roca gamoverkvie, guli amiCuyda. Cemi cremlebis SemeSinda da derefanSi gavedi. dReebi midioda. yvela saSualebiT vcdilobdi gadamewia sikvdilis dro. misi sicocxlisa erTi dRe, erTi saaTic ramden ramed Rirda!.. magram is dRec dadga, roca yvelaferi amao iyo sikvdilTan brZolaSi. man xeli momiWira TiTebze da wamCurCula. oh! rogori gulisfancqaliT velodi sikvdilis win naTqvan TviToeul sityvas. _ anatoli! mismen? - igi gaCumda. Tvalebi davxuWe da TiTqos Zalian Soridan momesma misi neli nawyvet-nawyvet warmoTqmuli sityvebi. _ rogor mindoda sicocxle!... vyofiliyo kargi meuRle, kargi deda, kargi moqalaqe... xom xedav, ar damcalda... ara, anatoli, gana sikvdilis meSinia. me SenTan sicocxle mindoda. marto amas vdardob, rom Cemi gogona momenatreba. arafers gTxov. giyvardes Cveni Svili. Tvalebidan cremlebi Camomdioda da mis xelebze ecemoda. me ukve aRar SemeZlo, raimeTi menugeSebia igi. _ bavSvi xom ar moviyvano? - SevekiTxe mas. _ ara. dae, swamdes, rom dedamisi isev cocxalia. daixare... minda gakoco... es kocna wauRe. colis sarecelTan davixare. ukve aRar SemeZlo kocniTve mepasuxa misTvis. _ kargi, exla meZineba, nu Semawuxeb, gemudarebi! - ...raRac sayveduriT gadmomxeda. xeli ar gamiSvia. erTxans marTla megona rom daiZina, magram roca misi xeli gaiyina, mivxvdi, rom yvelaferi damTavrebuliyo. anatolim rveuli dakeca da ujraSi Cado. misi wakiTvisas Tvalwin daudga colis fermkrTali saxe, samudamod daxuWuli Tvalebi da xeli. anatolis Tavi stkioda. guli amovardnaze hqonda. nela wamodga da instinqturad bavSvis sawolisken walaslasda. mas Semdeg, rac larisa aleqseevna mokvda, misi xeluxlebeli qveSagebi bavSvis sawolTan idga. TviTon ki lojSi iZinebda. gogonas mSvidad eZina. man arc icoda, Tu dedamisi cocxali aRar iyo. yovel gaRviZebisas mis sawols ukmayofilod gadaxedavda da waibuzRunebda:
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_ kidev ar mosula Cemi deda? anatolim frTxilad aiyvana da gulze miixuta. erTxans ase dadioda oTaxSi, Semdeg roca odnav damSvidda isev Tavis sawolSi Caawvina. TviTon meuRlis sawolze Camojda. baliSs kidev SerCenoda qalis surneli. am wuTSi esec Svebis momgvreli iyo misTvis. is magrad CaeWida baliSs da yru xmiT aqviTinda.
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xis taxtze, romelic mopirdapire gverdze idga da masze simona Tavisi coliTa da ori vaJiSviliT iZinebda, Savi kata Sexta. simonam myisve gaigo, katas daucacxana, gverdi Seinacvla, magram oTaxis erTaderT sarkmels gaxeda da bindbundSi gaTenebis moaxloveba igrZno, im wuTSive wamoiwia da gverdiT mwoliare cols xeli wahkra. _ ade, vidre saqonels mivxedav, Sen e biWi moamzade! - sofiom Tvalebi gaaxila, manac sarkmels gaxeda, loginze wamojda da pirjvari gadaiwera. _ kviracxovlis madli nu moeSala maxaroblianT simonas ojaxs. qveda, jarjebiani kaba gadaicva, muTaqaSi Senaxuli, CvarSi gakruli fuli Sida kabaze dakerebuli Rrma jibeSi Caido. ufrosi Svilis saxelos waetana. sibneleSi Zlivs amCnevda mis saxes. SeanZria, magram Svilis Rrma sunTqva roca Semoesma, daenana da loginidan wamomdgarma myisve Wraqi aanTo. buxarSi monaxul xoSors nafotebi Semouwyo da cecxli gaaCaRa. Semobrunebul simonas sagzali Cawyobili daxvda. _ ai, sofio. barem Camowvele! - moesma qmris xma, roca colma xma ar gasca. saxlSi Semovida da Tan Semotanili SeSa buxris piras dayara. mixos isev tkbilad eZina. mamam ukmayofilod gaixeda misken da CaibuzRuna: _ e ojaqori aRar adgeba? daRamebamde mTas ver gadavalT, Tu adrian ar gavediT Sinidan. - sofio ukmayofilod wavida Svilisken da SeanZria. _ ra iyo deda, gaTenda? _ ade, mixo, Senc adeqi, ilo, ai, Cqara Caicvi da nino mamidasTan gadadi. baRanas Cavabareb. vin icis, iqneba erTi kvira Segvagviandes. jer mixo gadmovida taxtidan da buxarTan misulma Cacma daiwyo, Semdeg ilo gaizmora. uxalisod akrifa Tavisi tansacmeli da isic Zmis gverdiT buxars miujda. is isev izmoreboda da buranSi iyo. _ dedi me wavyvebi, mamas, ha, da Sen darCi. me Senze mets movitan. _ ras ambob biWo. eg ara Tqva. sad SegiZlia ToTxmeti wlis biWs mTis gadavla da iqidan ori fuTi xorblis zurgiT gadmotana. _ ara uSavs, cota naklebs avkidebT. Senze meti qe SeuZlia da...
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- daeTanxma Zmas mixo. mixos tansacmlis Cacma ukve moeswro, axla qalamnebSi rbil Toms afenda. sofiom rZis Casawveli qoTani aiRo da boselSi wavida. saxlSi Semosul mamas yelze Camoekida. _ aba, patara xom ara var. dedaze meti ar SemiZlia? Tan am pataras araferi mouvides, roca deda saxlSi ar iqneba. - Seexvewa da Tan TvalebSi Sexeda mamas. _ ariqa, Tu RmerTi gwams SemeSvi. nino mamida Tqvenze nakleb mouvlis baRanas? - waibuzRuna ukmayofilod simonam, bavSvs mainc gaxeda da erTbaSad Seenana akvanSi gakruli bavSvi. _ mere biWo, or fuTs Sen atareb mTaze? - ikiTxa odnav dabali xmiT simonam. _ dedas geficebi, vatareb. SarSanwin daviwye wisqvilSi safqvavis zidva. _ wisqvili, biWo, yurisZirSia. aq ki imdeni gzaa gasasvleli da Tanac TovlSi. _ deda ufro codoa! - Seesityva exla mixo. _ midi, kargi, kargi waixemseT da gavudgeT gzas. xom xedav aqve dagvaTenda. rZiT dabrunebul sofios, ilom mamis gadawyvetileba acnoba. man erTi Seicxada. _ ui, es ra mesmiso, - magram ojaxSi simonas sityva kanoni iyo. _ aba, Tu RmerTi gwams, uiTi nu gagvacileb sacalfexo gzaze. sofom ukmayofilod gaxeda qmars, Semdeg morCilad kaba aikalTava da CvarSi saguldagulod gamonaskuli fuli qmars miawoda. _ miirbine, Svilo, mand yurianSi yvelia da amoiRe! - gadaulaparaka dedam Svils. magidas mwnilic Seemata da Radridan gamoRebuli Semwvari kartofili. svimonam RmerTi axsena, mWadi waRma daatriala da sam natexad daamtvria. ornaxadi arayi daisxa, sulmouTqmelad gadahkra da Semdeg biWebs miawoda. _ erTi boTli Cade, boSo? - SeekiTxa cols. colma Tavi dauqnia. mixom arayi tuCebTan miitana, Semdeg dedas Tvali Caukra da gadahkra. _ Sen ra? im mTis gadasvla ginda da erTi ylupi arayisa geSinia? - SeuRrina umcros vaJiSvils, roca dainaxa, rom biWi iqiTken ar ixedeboda. ilom arays gauRima, tuCebTan miitana, usuna, roca suni SemoenTo, daiRrija, magram imis SiSiT, rom igi mamas sofelSi ar daetovebina, sulmouTqmelad gadahkra. _ ui! - wamoiZaxa da mozrdili yveli CakbiCa. _ aba Cqara - simona wamodga, jibeSi Senaxuli fuli gaisinja, magrad mokidebul nakverCxals fexi daadga da pirjvris weriT iqauroba dastova.
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ezoSi gasul qmar-Svils sofio WiSkramde mihyva. _ frTxilad iareT, biWebo! - es miaZaxa Svilebs, roca isini soflis gzaze gauCinardnen, Tvalebze momdgari cremlebi Tavsafris boloTi Seiwminda da ukan gamobrunda. _ daudga gaWirvebas Tvalebi, Torem am uTenia ori fuTi simindisaTvis cicabo klde unda gadiaron? - guldawyvetili butbutebda deda. samgzavrod mimavali mama da Svilebi wyalTan Sedgnen. wyali dalies da xolisaken Cauxvies. am dros maTken momavali mxedari dainaxes, roca maT daupirispirda, simonam ukmayofilod Cailaparaka. _ am uTenia sa jandabidan modis? - Semdeg gamarjobis magivrad mxedars SesZaxa: _ ra Svrebi, kakos Svilo? kide xom ar motrialebula menSeviki? - am uTenia salaSqrod rom gamzadebulxar. ymawvili miuxvda moxucs ironias. odnav Sedga da salami uTxra. simonas SekiTxvas araferi ar upasuxa, mxolod ymawvilebs gamoelaparaka. _ TviTon sad mihyvebiT mamas, nioris daTesva xom ar unda mTas iqiT? _ bolSevikebs xorbali moutaniaT, Wiorlebs mTis iqiT ar dasWirdeT gadasvlao. iqneba, Senc iqedan modixar gabriel?- zizRiT Cailaparaka moxucma da egona, amiT damTavrdeboda uadgilo adgilze dawyebuli kamaTi, magram gabrielma myisve miugo. _ kviracxovlis ferdobSi xorbals raze aitandnen bolSevikebi? maT xati ara swamT da RmerTi. TiToze TiTo traqtori ki mosula sakanafoebTan, magram rioni adidebulia da vidre ar Cadgeba, aba, raTi gadmovlen? simonam xeli Caiqnia. _ dawyevlos RmerTma! - miaZaxa gabriels da mTisaken mimaval gzas daadga. soflis bolos mixo erTbaSad Sedga da idumlad patara saxls gaxeda, romelic xolis pirze oTx boZze idga wamoskupebuli. ilom iribad gaxeda Zmas da miuxvda. _ e, ra tkbilad sZinavs im bednier Tebroles! - Cailaparaka ise, rom win ramdenime nabijiT wasul mamas ar gaegona. mixo gawiTlda. Sercxva, xvaSiadi Zmam rom gaugo. ilom ramdenime kenWi aiRo da saxlisaken isrola. erT-erTi patara sarkmels moxvda. mamas qurdulad gaxeda da Zmas miaZaxa: _ aba, biWo, Seneburad daustvine! mixo Sedga. pirSi ori TiTi Caido da samjer dastvina. simona Sedga. ukan moixeda, magram ymawvilebs araferi uTxra da gza ganagrZo. mas gaaxsenda, rom odesRac isic ymawvili iyo. sarkmelTan viRaca SeinZra, Semdeg igi gaiRo da pirmSvenieri
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gogonac gamoCnda. mixom da ilom xeli aswies, salami misces da win wasul mamas ZunZuliT daedevnen. roca mosaxvevs miuaxlovdnen, mixo erTxel kidev Sedga da Wioras gaxeda. gariJraJebis pirze misul sofels kidev eZina. mkrTal sinaTleSi Savi siluetiviT mosCandnen mwvaneSi gaxveuli saxlebi. siSaveSi Sesulma mwvane ferma odnav SeakrTo Wabuki. gagulisebuli rionis talRebi magrad askdebodnen Wioris CamoRvenTil napirs da Semdeg WalaSi uTavbolod ifantebodnen. mdinaris gugunis eqo kviracxovlisaken amaval bilikis TavTan ismoda da ymawvilis gulTan wydeboda. is sarkmeli aRar mosCanda, magram Wabukma dilis ganTiadSi SeamCnia xoliswyalze gadmomdgari TeTr samosSi gaxveuli qalis figura. mas xelSi Tavsakravi eWira da Wabuks eTxoveboda. mixo erTxans mojadoebuliviT mihyinoda im adgils. uceb TavSi mouvida azri, gaqceuliyo da gamomSvidobeboda qalwuls. fexic ki gadadga gasaqcevad, rom... _ ras Svrebi Se, ojaqoro! e boSo, madana dagvxdeba, zeg ro Camoivli. _ Camovivli? - instiqturad SeekiTxa mixo. uceb siom tanSi gauara da Seaciva. rionis Ziras momskdari talRebi kidev miawyda da glovasaviT xma gamosca mis gulTan. _ aba, mama gicxondeba, digors ginda CasiZeba? - iribad gaxeda Svils. Svilma araferi upasuxa. ukanasknelad aswia xeli da Tebroles dauqnia, Semdeg ukan mouxedavad mamis kvals gahyva. karga gaTenebuli iyo, roca simona Tavisi vaJiSvilebiT sofels gascda da gezi WanWaxisaken aiRo. _aba, aq cota movumatoT siaruls. samagierod zeviT, rom avalT, iq nela mogviwevs siaruli. mixo gasul welsac hyavda simonas digors, simindis marcvlis Camosatanad. ilo pirvelad mihyveboda mamasa da Zmas, yovel kilometris gavlisas aTas SekiTxvas usvamda maT. digori Crdilo oseTis pirveli sofelia, qedis iqiT. mTis raWvelebs xangrZlivi mimosvla hqonda maTTan. gacvla-gamocvlas awarmoebdnen erTmaneTTan. gansakuTrebiT raWvelebi sargeblobdnen imiT, rom iqedan simindi SemohqondaT. simona ramdenime nabijiT win miuZRoda Svilebs. mas Tavi Zirs daeRo da brazian nabijebs adgamda. biWebma icodnen mamis xasiaTi da imasac xvdebodnen, rom axla is viRacas Tu raRacas gulSi eCxuboda. Zmebi mxardamxar midiodnen da dabal xmaze raRacas hyvebodnen. _ ara, mainc saidan gamoZvra i mamaZaRliSvili. mama gicxonda,
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RmerTi rom ar gwams, ar vici? Se, oxero, Sen ar iyavi, eklesiidan macxovris zari rom moxseni da Zirs daanarcxe? ai, imisi madli gauwyda Sens momjiSebels, _ brazianad fiqrobda simona. _ Semovidnen cxvirmouxocavebi. exla egeni daepatronen qveyanas. mSivrebi iyvnen, soflis iqiT Tu qveyana iyo, es ar egonaT da ai, xom xedavT? rac sofelSi kargi miwa iyo, yvela me Sevisyide. soflis Tavidan soflis bolomde meores ara hqonda Cemodeni miwa. mere...ai, dedasa...mindori da yana saxelmwifosiao da davrCi gatlekili. eh!... ar unda wamovsuliyavi alagiridan. an rad mindoda, amden miwas rom vyidulobdi. rac duqanSi mogeba vnaxe, suyvela waiRes... ai, dedasa, sad iyo tvini, Tu ara is fulebi rom oqrod meqcia, exla zurgiT aRar damWirdeboda pyorWiali. simona drodadro Svilebs gaxedavda, Sedgeboda da isev gzas agrZelebda. _ is dRe ar sjobda alagirSi, rom davtvirTavdi urems simindiT? sofelSi Semosuls gagulisebuli mezoblis qalebi fanjridan micqerdnen da qmrebs esisinebodnen: _ daetoleT maxaroblianT simonaso. mogvianebiT miadgnen digors. nacnob mosaxles dauZaxes da Ramis gaTeva sTxoves. maspinZelma stumrebi Sin SeipatiJa. axalgazrda osis qalma buxris piras samfexa skamebi SesTavaza da Semdeg vaxSmis Tadarigs Seudga. TeTrwvera moxucma mTis iqiTa ambebis gamokiTxva daiwyo. simonam da moxucma erTmaneTTan gaabes saubari. bavSvobidanve alagirs namyofi simona kargad laparakobda osur enaze. _ es qali imis coli Tua, - gadaulaparaka ilom mixos da TvaliT moxuc qalze aCvena. qali TavSals qsovda. _ albaT. _ ra karg TavSals qsovs, hyidis? - kidev ikiTxa ilom. _ albaT. _ ra sul ,,albaT da ,,albaT. Tqvi, rom Senc mogwons. ginda, mamas vetyvi da TebrolesaTvis vayidvineb. _ etyvi? - gaicina mixom da gawiTlda, - aba mosinje, ise rom ar gaabrazo. ilom mamisaken miswia samfexa skami, Tan Tvals ar aSorebda moxuci qalis xelsaqmes. _ etyoba, mogwons - SeniSna TeTrwveram biWs, roca SeamCnia, rom biWi qals misCereboda. _ albaT, gasayidad qsovs, ara? - SeekiTxa ilo. simona gabrazda , magram ar gamoamJRavna. _ sacolesTvis Tu ginda, ukeTesi maqvs moqsovili. - pirvelad daarRvia siCume qalma.
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_ ara. aba, ra dros Cemi colia. ai, digors pirvelad gadmovedi. roca meored gadmoval maSin damaxvedre bebo. axla ki... - odnav Seisvena, qurdulad mamas gaxeda da Semdeg mosxletiT Tqva - mixos hyavs sacole. imisTvis rom gveyidna, kargi iqneboda. - mama Svils daakvirda. biWma icoda, rom amayi misi mama xalxSi arafers etyoda, Semdeg SeiZleba mujlugunic eTavazebina misTvis. exla ki imaze fiqrobda, rogorme Tavsafris fuli daetyuebia misTvis. _ ramdenad hyidi bebo? - axla samfexa qalisaken waacura da moxucs vedrebiT Sexeda, rom bevri ar eTqva da mama ar gadaeria. _ SenisTana karg biWs, Zmis colisaTvis rom ase zrunavs, oTx Saurad mivcem, - ilom jer Tvalebgabrwyinebul mixos Sexeda, Semdeg mamas. _ macale, biWo. jer simindi viyidoT da Tu dagvrCa, egec daumateT - Tqva simonam bolos. buxarTan axalgazrda qalma vaxSami Semoitana, moxucma Cibuxi gaabola. _ Cemi biWi saxlSi ar aris, sabWos Tavmjdomarea da dReniadag gareTaa. axlac mTaSia. es ki misi colia. - auxsna TeTrwveram da Cibuxi gverdiT dado. saxlSi gamoxdili aryiT sasmisebi aavses da ojaxis fuZe daloces. aseve moiqcnen danarCenebi. gvian Ramemde isaubra stumar-maspinZelma. Semdeg moxuci stumrisaTvis gankuTvnil patara miSenebuli oTaxisaken wauZRva, Tavdaweuli Sevida patara karSi, ,,Zili nebisa usurva da ukan gamobrunda. roca diliT mixo da ilo adgnen, maspinZels ukve aevso maTi tomrebi simindiT, TiToze or-ori fuTi. saxeldaxelod isauzmes da erTmaneTs gamoemSvidobnen. _ aha, erTi abazi da Tavsafari wamouRe i boSs, - gadaulaparaka mamam umcros Svils. ilo cqvitad Sevarda saxlSi, moxucs abazi gauwoda, yvelaze lamazi Tavsafari amoarCia da ukan gabrunda. _ aha, mixo, Coxis ubeSi Seinaxe, ar dasvaro, - sixaruliT uTxra Zmas.
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mze kargad iyo amosuli, roca maradiul yinulis sabrZanebelSi Sedges fexi. midiodnen nela, gazomili nabijiT. win mixo, Semdeg ilo da bolos simona. samiveni joxebze dayrdnobilni miiwevdnen zeviT da zeviT. savali gza TandaTan uaresdeboda, ufro cicabo da ufro saSiSi xdeboda. mTebs Soris viwrod Camjdar xeobas, romelsac sacalfexo gza miuyveboda, mze ar anaTebda. misi Suqi, sadRac Sors wverze vercxlisfer sinaTles hfenda. am gzaze im wveris ZirSi gadadioda yvelaze maRali uReltexili. Semdeg biliki mTas iqiT, qveviT eSveboda. mixo win midioda da ratomRac Tvals ar aSorebda im wvers. im
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wverze raRac Savi sagani irxeoda. _ albaT, yvavia, - TavisTvis gaifiqra Wabukma, magram aman ver daurRvia TovliTa da yinuliT garsSemortymuli simSvenieris SegrZneba. am wuTSi igi imdenad iyo yvelafrisagan gamoTiSuli, verc daRlas grZnobda da verc sicives. kldis qimze mzis Suqs gaelRo yinuli da Camomdnar sanTlebad ekida. mas TvalismomWreli sikaSkaSe hqonda. irgvliv gamefebul idealur simyudroves maTi fexis xma da sadRac gadafrenili yvavis Cxavili arRvevda. iqamde ar aRwevda mzis sxivi, magram mis Suqze TeTrad anTebuli silamaze romantikul eSxs aZlevda yvelafers. jer aseTi mSvenieri dila mixos arasodes enaxa. ar ganecada bunebis es jadosnuri Tilismis mSveniereba.erTbaSad Wabuks gadaedo am silamazis damatyvevebeli Zala. man Tavis kalTebi gadaafara da SeboWa. monusxuliviT midioda win mixo, ukan ar ixedeboda. ver amCnevda ramdenad daSorda mamas da Zmas. erTbaSad mounda eyvira, eyvira. Tavisi xmiT gaekveTa irgvliv dagubebuli myudroeba. simRerac mounda, ,,mgzavruli, raRac imis msgavsi, gabmiT rom iZaxian mTebSi. man icis, am simReras ahyveba mTeli samyaro. mTeli garsSemortymuli silamaze. Semdeg aTasi xmebi gamoepasuxa mas, sakuTari xmis eqo rom hqvia, am xmis mosmenac mounda mixos. netavi, rogori iqneba es xma. ramdenime nabijic da mziT ganaTebul wreSi Seva. fexi gadadga am wreSi da misma Suqma Tvali mosWra ymawvils, anazdad, kldis qimze Setortmanda yvavi da sadRac zeviT gascurda. mixom Tvali daxuWa, Semdeg gaaxila, yvavi aRar iyo axlos. is sadRac zeviT miscuravda da wertiliviT mcirdeboda. erTbaSad viRacam Tavsafari aafriala. TeTri samosi ecva, TovliviT TeTri, kldis qimze sanTlebad CamoRvril yinuls miugavda Tmebi. xeli awia zeviT da digors nayid Tavsafars uqnevda gulisswors. _ es xom Tebrolea, - gaifiqra mixom. ram Seuvercxla Tmebi ase, an ratom mSordeba? fexs ar adgams, ukan ar midis, magram micuravs, micuravs da pataravdeba sadRac zeviT, Sors. Tvalebi daxuWa da kidev gaaxila, wverisaken gaixeda. TvalismomWreli Tovlis sikaSkaSidan mxolod vercxlisferi sxivebi uyurebdnen da Tvalebs ubrmavebdnen Wabuks. wveri, is momajadoebeli wveri ukve aRar sCanda... ...mere, wveraSlili mama Seicno im adgilze, weRan TviTon rom idga da igrZno raRacas eZaxda, Tu yviroda. yurebi daxSoboda da mamis xma mis smenamde ver aRwevda. isic Sordeboda, Sordeboda da mixvda Wabuki, rom agorebuli zvavi miaqanebda sikvdilisaken. wamoiwia. mounda vaJkacurad gamklaveboda TvalismomWrel yinulTa samyaros, magram zurgze ekida ori fuTi simindi, is axla saSinlad damZimebuli mis mxrebze, moqmedebis unars ukargavda.
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Semdeg erTmaneTSi airia SeSlili mamis saxe da ilos guliswamRebi kivili. _ va-i-me mi-xoo-! bolos yvelafers TeTri feri gadaekra. SiSisagan Tvalebi daxuWa. kldis wverze Tebrole moswyda da mis saSvelad gamofrinda. _ ai, sacaa mova, xels stacebs Rvedebs, gaglejs da zeviT aswevs. isini erTad mivlen kldis wveramde. Semdeg TeTr Tavsafars daaxuravs Tavze da mayrioniT, yinulis silamazis mayrioniT mivlen dedasTan. ara, gana, imave gziT wava, romliTac movida. nowarisken gadauxvevs, kviracxovelTan Sedgeba, jvars daiwers... zevidan mosxletilma zvavis nakadma Suaze gauCexa lamazi ocneba, mSvenieri siyvarulis ocneba. agorebuli Tovlis klde erTi amotrialda da TiTqos adamianTan brZolaSi Sesveneba moundao da erTbaSad SeCerda. rogorc ki mixo moglejilma Tovlma qveviT gaitaca, ukan darCenilma ilom myisve dainaxa, mamisaken Setrialda da Sehyvira: _ mi-xoo! mamam jer ilos Sexeda, Semdeg win gaixeda, magram ufrosi Svilis zeviT aweul xels mohkra Tvali da daWrili xariviT daiRriala. es guliswamRebi xma jer irgvliv gaifanta, Semdeg yvela mTam da kldem airekla. da ukan daabruna. simonas xma eqo yinulisagan Sewuxebul nadirTa brdRvials hgavda. yuriswamRebi iyo da sazareli, magram am xmebs SeSlili mamis yuramde aRar mouRwevia. iman tomara moiglija, iqve daagdo da ramdenime mgluri naxtomiT im adgilze gaCnda, sadac es-es aris mixo idga. _ vaime mixo! - qveyana Camoglija ilos xmam. umcros Zmas erTi suli hqonda gadamxtariyo da an eSvela ZmisTvis da an masTan erTad daRupuliyo, magram mravalWirgamovlilma simonam xeli waavlo Svils da ukan, TovlSi gadaagdo. mama mixvda, rom ufros Svils aqedan gadayoliT verafers uSvelida. mas nadiris saxe hqonda da aman Seayena biWi. _ ar gainZre, - uyvira mamam da TmebaSlili ufskrulisaken gaqanebul Svils gadaxeda. _ oh! RmerTo, ra Segcode! - daiRriala, magram imis SiSiT, rom SeiZleba dahkargoda meore Svili, Tvalebi daxuWa, muxlebze daemxo da simwriT yinuls kortna dauwyo. _ vaime, mixo! - kioda ilo da ukve aRar SeeZlo wamomdgariyo da daenaxa, ra mdgomareobaSi iyo Zma. is Tavsa da fexebs urtyamda yinuls da mosTqvamda. roca sadRac, Sors zvavi Sedga, simwrisagan galurjebulma da akankalebulma mamam qveviT Caixeda, erTbaSad saRi azrovneba daubrunda, roca SeniSna, rom SeCerebuli zvavi sul axlos iyo gzasTan. axla saWiro iyo swrafad asuliyvnen zeviT da iqedan Cqari
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daqanebiT Casuliyvnen SeCerebul zvavamde. _ iqneba vuSveloT ilo, ha, Cqara, Cqara, - Tumca mamis xma gabzaruli da uimedo iyo, ilos frTebi gamoeba. maT aRar gaxsenebiaT simwriT amotanili tomrebi. sirbiliT aiWrnen gadasasvlelamde. aqedan zvavamde iyo daaxloebiT ori kilometri. _ aba, Cqara, ilo, - SeSliliviT iZaxda simona da win misrialebda, iqceoda, xan mucliT gadagordeboda, xan damjdari miscuravda, rom gza Seemoklebia. gza ki usasrulod Sori eCveneboda mama-Svils. _ iqneba, ar daviRupeT, ha, ilo! - ambobda mama da umcrosi Svilisagan eloda nugeSs. _ ai, aq aris, - orive gaiWrnen iqiTken, sadac Tovlis gora damdgariyo. Tovlis safari aq Rrma iyo da zeviT gadabiZguli. _ xe moamtvrie, - eubneboda mama, TviTon ki Seusvenebliv TovlSi miabotebda. roca Tovlis zvavTan mivida, nadiriviT SeuRriala damarxul Svils. _ mixo, biWo, gamagrdi, giSveliT, - da gametebiT Tovls xanjlis wveriT CiCqna dauwyo. zvavi didi iyo da Tan qva da RorRic moeglija. _ iqneba, ar daviRupeT, - yviroda mama, ise miiwevda win da sWrida Tovls. ori saaTis Semdeg Zlivs miakvlies mis fexs. _ mama... fexi... - iyvira ilom. _ iqneba, ar daviRupe, - iZaxda mama, magram es ukve aRar iyo misi xma, es viRac sxva eubneboda, sxva anugeSebda, mamis gulma ki ukve icoda, rom mixo am qveynisa aRar iyo. ... iriJraJa, maxaroblianT ubanSi ZaRli aymuvda, sofio winakarSi gamodga. SeSfoTebulma Rebis gzas gaxeda, kidev gaisma sadRac axlos ZaRlis ymuili. _ patronis sikvdili! - miawyevla qalma. adgilze Setrialda, daaviwyda risTvis gamovida gareT. Sin Sesvla gadawyvita, rom sadRac Soridan kvnesis msgavsma Rmuilma moaRwia. alayafis karisken gadadga fexi, kidev SeCerda, radgan kidev ganmeorda igive xma. ufro axlos, magram ver Seicno, es xma nadirisa iyo Tu adamianis. _ am Sua zafxuls ra undao nadirs? - daikvnesa qalma da anazdad wneliT gakavebul orRobes gahyva. gminva axlovdeboda da sofios fexebi ekveTeboda. eldanakrav qals wuxandeli sizmari daudga Tvalwin. naRvari wylis xavsian gobis kuTxeze Camojda: saydarSi iyo xalxi. iyo mxiaruleba da cekva-TamaSi. sofios TeTri tansacmeli ecva da cekvavda. aseTi cekva man axalgazrdobisas icoda. xalxi mas miCereboda. uceb TeTrwvera moxuci miuaxlovda. mas saSinlad damaxinjebuli saxe hqonda. grZeli, Zvlad qceuli xeli gamowoda misken, gulis
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sakinZe gauWra da marjvena ZuZu mohkveTa... _ vaime, Svilebo, - wamoiwia qali, magram garsSemoxveulma mezoblebma gaakaves. win gaixeda. simonas saxe da misi gaTeTrebuli Tmebi dainaxa. ilo misken gamoqanda da ukve grZnobamixdil dedas buranSi Caesma. _ vaime, mixo! - es ilo iyo. ilo Rrialebda ase. rodesac kviracxovlis ferdobze mixo daasaflaves, ilom Tvali Seaswro namtiralev Tebroles. xalxisagan malulad iwmendda cremlebs. maTi Tvalebi erTmaneTs Sexvda. Wabukma dainaxa qaliSvilis TvalebSi usazRvro sevda da sayveduri. Wioris Saragzebi viwroa da qviani. saxlebi ki mijriTaa naSeni da isic qvisa. mas patara fanjrebi dauyveba, kedelSi buxari gizgizebs da kakvze Camokidebul CoinaSi lori ixarSeboda. sasxlebs gverdiT midgmuli aqvs qvis bosel-sabZeli, quCis pirze yoriT Semokruli sanakeleebia. sofels saxnav-saTesi miwebi garSemo akravs. kviricxovlis zemoT nowaraSi ki saTibia. WioraSi karg vaJkacad karg mTibavs Tvlian. Tormeti wlis biWebi mglis nabijiT erkinebian Tibvis vaJkacur profesias. soflis ganapiras uZveles xeTa CrdilSi dgas eklesia. aq odesRac iyo mRvdeli, salocavad dadioda xalxi. axla gamoketilia. enanebaT Wiorlebs misi gaveraneba, magram arc locvisaTvis iwuxebs vinme Tavs. odesRac maxaroblianT ubanSic idga kakos cixe, cxra sarTuliani koSkuri tipis qvis Senoba. mis garSemo did-patara saxlebia aSenebuli. maxaroblianT gvari yvelaze didi gvaria WioraSi. naRvari wyalic im ubanSi modis. Wirsa Tu lxinSi am gvaris Svilebi burjad udgnen erTmaneTs. SromiT daRlili adamianebi sanaxSoze iyridnen Tavs. iwyeboda axalgazrdebis Sairi da taS-fandura. axla aRar dgas kakos cixe im ubanSi. dasanania, rom aRar amSvenebs Wioris midamos igi. kakos didi jalabi cal-calke gavidnen. cixis adgilze samsarTuliani saxli wamoWimes, im droisaTvis yvelaze TvalsaCino da lamazi. dResac, am wignis weris dros, am saxlSi cxovrobs kakos Svilis SviliSvili gabrieli. misma danarCenma memkvidreebma ruseTsa da saqarTvelos sxva miwebze ufro keTilmowyobili da ufro warCinebuli cxovreba arCies. gabrieli ki aq aris, rogorc Zveli bermuxa, rogorc kakos cixis Ziri, rogorc ukvdaveba am patara ubnisa. misi Svilebic wavidnen aqedan, gabrieli ki aq darCa, mxolod zamTrobiT gamoketavs saxls, maxaroblianT romelime mosaxles gasaRebs dautovebs da droebiT barad Cadis. Tbilisis quCebSi gaivlis. gazafxuldeba da isev eZaxis Wioris piras momskdari rionis xma, isev eZaxis kviracxovlis siyvaruli, isev eZaxis kakos cixis Ziri, romlis saZirkvelzea aSenebuli saxli.
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_ didxans icocxle Cemo gabriel! es yvelaferi cota gviandeli ambebia. adre ki... saRamo iyo, roca fanjaraze frTxili kakuni moisma. _ romeli xar, biWo, - gamoiZaxa gabrielma. _ me var, ilo, maxaroblianTi. _ Semodi mere. raRas akakuneb? _ ara, Sen gamodi, ar minda vinmem daminaxos. _ ra moxda, biWo? - gadmoiZaxa gabrielma, magram roca pasuxi ver miiRo, fanjara mixura, gareT gamovida, kedels Semouara da masTan gaCnda. _ SenTan salaparako maqvs gabriel, modi ai, uriSisaken gaviaroT. _ kargi. isini nela midiodnen. roca uriSamde mividnen, msxlis ZirSi Sedgnen. gabrielma ymawvils gamomcdelad gaxeda. _ ra iyo. aRar ityvi? _ Semomfice, rom saidumlos Seminaxav. _ geficebi mamis suls. _ ai , axla ki mjera. Semdeg gamomcdelad Sexeda da SeekiTxa: _ gabriel, gavige rom saswavlebelSi ggzavnian. _ mere? _ mec wamiyvane, biWo. raime xelobas viswavli. _ Tqvenebi giSveben? _ ras ambob. mamaCemi sad gamiSvebs. _ uxerxulia, codvebi arian. jer erTi Svili ver mounelebiaT da axla meore? _ hoda, gabriel, aRar SemiZlia mixos Semdeg aq cxovreba. lukma ver amiRia, misi saxe da Cvensken saSvelad gamowvdili xeli rom ar damidges Tvalwin. aRar SemiZlia. gabrielma Tavze gadusva ilos xeli. Seebrala ymawvili, magram isev gajiqebuli simoni daudga Tvalwin da ilos uTxra: _ vuTxraT, ha? _ ara, gabriel, ara. me arsad ar gamiSvebs. exla soflis mwyemsoba SemomTavaza. cota ifiqra,Semdeg mis Sav Tvalebs Sexeda. imdeni vedreba iyo mis TvalebSi, rom erTbaSad motyda. _ kargi. zeg uTenia, kakos ZirSi damxvdi. im RamiT Tvali ar gaubavs dasaZineblad ilos. ymawvili, romelic sakanafoebs ar gascileboda, romelsac Wioris maRalmTian gorakebis iqiT Tu qveyana kidev iyo, ver warmoedgina, Tu gamovaklebT im tragikul mogzaurobas Crdilo oseTSi, unda gadaedga nabiji da es iyo misi cxovrebis momavlis dasawyisi.
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man oTxwliani ganaTleba WioraSi miiRo. meti aRar uswavlia. axla swored am codniT da momavlis Rrma rwmeniT unda gadaewyvita Tavisi bedi. daumoukidebeli cxovrebis gzaze pirveli nabiji yvelaze rTuli da yvelaze saSiSia. yvelaferi, riTac dRemde cxovrobda biWi, riTac sunTqavda, rac axarebda da rac mwuxarebas hgvrida, erT mTlianad da martivad eCveneboda. Turme Tvrameti weli , rogorc dedis mkerdTan mikrul bavSvs, ise ucxovria. TavisTavze erTxelac ar dafiqrebula, ar ufiqria arc xvalindel dReze. mTeli Rame da Semdegi dRec imaze fiqrobda, ra iqneboda Semdeg. ilo am wuTSi ar fiqrobda arc imaze, ra nugeSiT stovebda mSoblebs. ar awuxebda, idardebdnen Tu ara masze. meore dRes uTenia adga. gaukvirda mamas, roca Svili Cacmuli dainaxa. im buxris piras axal qalamans keravda. _ yoCaR, ra daesizmra? - gakvirvebiT Sexeda biWs da ezoSi gavida. mixos sikvdilis Semdeg, mama gacilebiT yuradRebiani iyo. Svilis dardiT Sewuxebuli xSirad irtyamda mjiRebs xelSi. rogorc ki moTenda, ilo naRvari wylisaken wavida da sul mokle droSi kviracxovlisaken mimaval viwro saurme gzas daadga. _ ilo! - moesma uknidan Zaxili. Zmisaken patara TamTa gamorboda. _ ratom wamoxvedi? - SeekiTxa ymawvili. _ Sen ratom wamoxvedi? - gabrazebiT ikiTxa gogonam. igi Savi iyo da saocrad mSvenieri Tvalebi hqonda. _ mee! - daibna ilo. _ ho Sen? gegona gameparebodi? _ mere, Sen vin gagepara? _ vin da Sen. naRvar wyalTan rom Sedeqi da Cumad ukan gaixede. gegona, ver daginaxavdi? ilom gaiRima. patara daiko mxrebze Seisva da aRmarTs auyva. _ kviracxovelSi midixar? - kidev SeekiTxa TamTa. _ ho. _ mixo unda naxo, ho? - kidev SeekiTxa patara. Zmam pasuxi daugviana. gogonam gaagrZela. _ me dedas sanTeli movpare. xom aanTeb? - kidev SeekiTxa bavSvi. Zmam mxrebidan Camoisva TamTa da gaocebuli xmiT SeekiTxa: _ vin giTxra, eg rom gagekeTebia? _ amas winaT mec viyavi kviracxovelSi. _ rodis, ratom, vin wagiyvana? _ Tebrolem, magram Semexvewa, aravis uTxrao. xom ar gamamxel? _ ara, TamTa, ara. _ iq avida da bevri itira. yvavilebi davkrifeT da gulze davawyveT, sanTlebic avanTeT. is imdens tiroda, rom Tvalebi dauwiTlda. ratom tiroda Tebrole? - ikiTxa gogonam.
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_ is Cveni daa. Cemi da Seni. _ ra kargia, rom Cveni daa. ratom ar cxovrobs CvenTan? - gulubryvilod SeekiTxa Zmas. xma ar gasca, ise amoioxra. _ icxovrebda, rom... gza gaagrZela. ramdenjer auvlia am gzaze mixos, ukanaskneladac aiara. roca zeviT avidnen, erTi kidev moxeda sofels. _ ,,xval diliT mec Cavivli Wioris Suqebs. amis Semdeg ra iqneba? kidev momiwevs aq cxovreba. kidev rodis vnaxav am SavTvaleba gogos, dRes rom meWikWikeba? xval diliT gavixurav Cemi ezos WiSkars. TamTa gaiRviZebs Tu ara, me momZebnis, magram roca Cemi qveSagebi carieli daxvdeba, iq TviTon moikalaTebs da CaibuzRunebs. _ sawyali ilo. saqonlis gasarekad Tu aayena mamam, gverdiT gadabrundeba da daiZinebs. roca meored gaiRviZebs, dedas dauZaxebs. _ ilo ar mosula ? deda ukmayofilod gaaqnevs Tavs da SuadRisas mezoblebSi momikiTxavs. Sefiqrianebuli qali tol-sworebs SeekiTxeba: _ ilo xom arsad ginaxavTo? _ sad wavida dilidanve ojaxqori? - waibuwRunebs mama, magram roca sofelSi erTi kacic ar aRmoCndeba Cemi mnaxveli, sofels Sehyrian zrialiT. Semdeg ki gaigeben. gaigeben, rom mec wavedi maTgan da guli etkinebaT. kviracxovlisaken amavali yvelaze mokle da cicabo biliki airCia. mis TeTr kedlebs zurgi aqcia da Zmis samare moZebna. mas axalTaxali yvavilebi ewyo gulze. _ kidev yofila Tebrole,- gaifiqra ilom da saSinlad Seebrala satrfos dakargviT dasevdianebuli qaliSvili. ilo Zmis TavTan Cacucqda, Tavi miado xis jvars da gairinda. TamTa mis fexebTan idga, xelSi sanTeli eWira, ilos gafiTrebul saxes da gaTeTrebul tuCebs misCereboda. gogona xuTi wlisa iyo. ra Tqma unda, am asakSi, Znelia, dainaxo adamianis suli, adamianis gancda, magram am asakSi yvelaze didia maxsovrobis unari. swored am unarma aRbeWda mis mexsierebaSi es suraTi da roca dro gavida ,roca bevri sixarulic naxa da bevri satkivaric moxvda mis guls, roca Rrma adamianuri gancdiT SeigrZno sxvisi ubedureba, roca Semdeg fiqrobda Tavis Zmebze, sul pirvelad suraTiviT aesveteboda umcrosi Zmis Sewuxebuli saxe, romelic xelebiT Cahfenoda xis jvars. Tvalwin udgeboda, rogor simwriT hkortnida TiTebiT samarxis miwas da TvaldaxuWuli, ZaldatanebiT hylapavda cremlebs. axla ki gaocebuli idga da eloda, rodis aanTebda sanTels misi Zma, rodis miakravda jvars. am wuTSi mas ar SeeZlo warmoedgina
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Zmis mwuxareba, magram mainc dainaxa Zmis mwuxarebis garegnuli saxe da Semdeg igi Tvalebidan ar waSlia mTeli cxovrebis manZilze. metic... yoveli misi gaxsenebisas am suraTSi sul axals xedavda, rac adre mis bavSvur grZnobas ver daenaxa. TamTam meore mxridan mouara Zmas da axla im mxridan amoudga Zmis samares. ukve SeeSinda, ilos aRar vaxsovaro, ise dadga, rom mas SeemCnia. ilo gamoerkva. TamTam usityvod sanTeli gauwoda. biWma sanTeli aanTo da jvars miakra. da- Zma usityvod misCerebodnen, rogor dneboda da sio rogor arxevda anTebul Suqs. ilo daixara, Zmis samaridan erTi muWa miwa aiRo da cxvirsaxocSi gaaxvia. gaocebulma TamTam Zmas Sexeda da wasCurCula. bavSvs swamda, yviriliT laparaki ar SeiZleboda. _ ratom, ilo? - ilom ar upasuxa. TamTas ki ar asvenebda amaze fiqri. iqneba saWiro iyo, masac aeRo miwa da saxlSi wamoeRo? ilom ukan daswia bavSvi da saflavis miwa Seaswora. Semdeg TamTa xelSi aiyvana da uTxra: _ wavideT sofelSi! TamTa nawyeni iyo imiT, rom misi cnobismoyvareoba ar daakmayofiles. ise gahyva, rom misTvis ar Seuxedavs. roca sofelSi dabrundnen mama saxlSi ar iyo. deda purs acxobda. _ sad iyaviT? - gamoixeda sofiom. _ ar uTxra, TamTa! - gadaulaparaka ilom. bavSvs gauxarda. ukve daaviwyda wyena, radgan Zmam mas dedisagan malulad saidumlo gaando. _ kankleTSi, Txili movkrifeT. _ aba, magis dro iyo? - usayvedura dedam. mama geloda da marto wavida SeSaze. - deda moSorda. ilom erTxans TamTasTan itriala, Semdeg dedasTan gaistumra, TviTon ki saxlSi Sevida. male dabrunda. gaxveuli nivTi eWira xelSi. Tebroles saxlTan Sedga da dauZaxa. qaliSvili gamovida, roca ilo RobesTan momdgari dainaxa, TavdaRmarTi Camoirbina da gakvirvebiT ymawvils Sexeda. _ Tebrole! _ ra iyo ilo? _ ai, es TavSali Sen gqondes. mixom im dRes iyida... es misi survili iyo... daixure da atare. Zalian gTxov, uars nu metyvi. - ilos es sityvebi albaT bevrjer hqonda gameorebuli gulSi. amitomac isini Zalian Cqara Tqva, Semdeg qaliSvilis danislul Tvalebs Sexeda. _ ratom mTxov, ilo? piriqiT, sikvdilamde ar daviviwyeb Sens gulisxmierebas.
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ilom TavSali miawoda. Tebrolem xelSi aiRo. vaJma mis TvalebSi didi madlobis gamomxatveli mzera daiWira da kmayofilma gaiRima. qaliSvilma mkerdSi Caikra saCuqari da imis SiSiT, rom ar atirebuliyo, Cqara saxlisaken wavida... ...meore dRes dilauTenia wamodga ilo sawolidan. is maSinve TamTasken daixara da Sublze akoca. gogona SeiSmuSna, Tvalebi Wyita, ilos SeeSinda, ar gaeRviZebia da wasCurCula: _ daiZine da sabani ar gadaiZro, - gogonam braziT Sexeda, Semdeg sabanSi gaexvia, meore mxares gadabrunda da daiZina. ilom SvebiT amoisunTqa. mSoblebisaken gaixeda da Seebrala, magram Tavs Zala daatana da qurdulad ezoSi gavida. qvis yorebiani quCa Caiara da kakos ZirSi TbilisSi mimaval mxedars daeloda.
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_ moskovSi mivlineba gaaforme!- samsaxurSi misvlisTanave uTxra ufrosma. anatolim icoda, risTvis midioda, am sakiTxze maT guSin iTaTbires, amitom araferi uTqvams mas, ise gavida kancelariaSi mivlinebis gasaformeblad. _ aTi dRe.- derefanSi gasvlisas daubara mdivans. im dRes samSeneblo obieqtidan adre dabrunda. antoninas sabavSvo baRSi gamouara. saxlSi misulma larisa aleqseevnas deidam daureka. _ ramdenime dRiT modi. moskovSi mivdivar aTi dRiT. _ mec wamiyvane mami.- pirvelad Txovda qaliSvili mamas. _ es ar SeiZleba Svilo, iq samuSaod mivdivar. _ deida olgac wamovides. Zalian gTxov mami. iq vnaxav kremls, mdinare moskovs da... _ magas televizorSic xom xedav.- kidev scada misi datoveba mamam, magram.. _ Zalian gTxov, wamiyvane.- erTxel kidev sTxova bavSvma vedrebiT. _ kargi. - xeli Caiqnia anatolim da bebia olga gamoiZaxa. _ olga ivanovna. wamoiRe moskovisTvis saWiro tansacmeli...ho... man moisurva moskovis daTvaliereba...ha...ara uSavs-ra...gaiseirneT... _ Cemo mamiko! - gogona mamas gadaexvia da telefoniT saubari axla TviTon gaagrZela. _ bebi. kaba rom Seikere...TeTri sayelo rom aqvs...xom gaxsovs?... ai, is Zalian gixdeba... TeatrSi rom viyaviT me da Sen, ai, im kabaze geubnebi. is wamoiRe...rodis mivdivarT, mami? _ diliT. _ diliT mivdivarT da ar daagviano...TviTmfrinaviT, ara, mami? ...ho, TviTmfrinaviT. aba, matarebliT mamas xom daagviandeba?- 363 -

yurmili dado. gogonam cekviT Semouara magidas, taxtze Sexta da mamas kiserze Camoekida. mamam mkerdze miikra Svilis mSvenieri saxe, Tvalebi daukocna da erTxans ase darCa. _ aba, axla CavawyoT CemodanSi is, rac aucilebelia.- Tqva da gogona Zirs dasva. _ Cemi dedofala... _ ras ambob? _ dedofala, mSvenieri dedofala. Sen aq dagtoveb Cem sawolze, xom ar gamebutebi? ar gamebuto, gexvewebi da roca moskovidan Camoval, me Sen daikos Camogiyvan. mere erTad iTamaSebT da aRar mogewyineba, roca me saxlSi aRar viqnebi. mamam saWiro nivTebis Cawyoba daiwyo CemodanSi. zaris xma gaisma, anatolim kari gaaRo da olga ivanovnas gza dauTmo. _ es saidan moifiqreT? - misalmebis Semdeg hkiTxa moxucma. _ antoninas hkiTxe. _ ai, Se Winka. moskovSi moisurve gaseirneba? _ Senc bebo, Senc modixar. _ vici. - kostiumi SemosasvlelSi dakida. anatolis Zalian uyvarda larisa aleqseevnas aRmzrdeli deida. olga ivanovna larisas sikvdilis Semdeg Tavis Zvel binaSi dabrunda, Tumca xSirad akiTxavda bavSvs, zogjer TavisTan mihyavda. moxucs ar SeeZlo didi xniT gaCerebuliyo im binaSi, sadac yoveli nivTi disSvilis xsovnasTan iyo dakavSirebuli. anatoli grZnobda amas da amitom ver aZalebda masTan yofnas. olga ivanovnas qaliSvili ojaxiT moskovSi cxovrobda. amitomac moxucs kidevac gaexarda iq wasvla. meore dRes anatoli, antonina da olga ivanovna moskovs gaemgzavrnen. anatolis gverdiT ijda misi Svili da TviTmfrinavis qveviT ixedeboda. mamakacs ise araferi ar axarebda, rogorc bavSvis sixaruli. da axla roca Svilis Tvalebgabrwyinebul saxes xedavda, Tavisi Tavisac ki Surda, rom am saxes ar xedavda larisa aleqseevnasTan erTad. bavSvis sixaruls ganaxevrebulad aRiqvamda. _ ratom aris, rom bedma momisaja vicxovro marto. uTvistomod? - fiqrobda anatoli. _ TiTqmis vnaxe bedniereba, mivageni da isev Setrialda ukuRma cxovreba. is CemTvis iyo ara marto meuRle, aramed megobari, romelmac momca gza, rogor unda mecxovra. momca yvelanairi adamianuri simSvide, simtkice, nebisyofa, niWic ki... da ra usamarTloa sikvdili, radgan ganukiTxavia cudisa da kargis mimarT. amaze fiqrs erToda imis warmodgena, rom misi sayvareli gogona
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unda gazrdiliyo udedod. am dros mas gulSi ikravda, ukocnida cisfer Tvalebs da oqrosfer kululebs usworebda. amiT mas surda, SvilisaTvis mieca dedis alersic ki. antonina ki mamis kalTaze mokalaTebuli uzrunvelad gascqeroda fanjridan sivrces. uxaroda Rrublebis zeviT qrolva da ainunSiac ar agdebda raze fiqrobda mama. _ natalia jer kidev samsaxurSi iqneba. - Tqva olga ivanovnam, roca aerodromidan gamovidnen. anatolim taqsi daiWira. olga ivanovnas qaliSvili natalia molared muSaobda univermaRSi, meuRle zeinklad. _ iqneba, bavSvebi iyvnen skolidan dabrunebulni. - daamSvida anatolim. natalia Tavisi meuRliT marTlac ar daxvdaT saxlSi, magram saxlis kari rogorc ki gaiRo, iqidan patara gogona gamovarda da bebias kiserze Camoekida. _ aba, gaicaniT, deidaSvilebi xarT da antonina warudgina. Sin Sesul stumrebs natalias ufrosi vaJi, serioJa miegeba. _ serioJka, bebo, ramxela gazrdilxar, modi, erTi Semotrialdi.- sixaruliT aTvalierebda SviliSvils moxuci. samsaxuridan gvian dabrunebuli natalia sixaruliT Sexvda stumrebs. _ madloba RmerTs, madloba RmerTs! - imeorebda qali. _ ras unda mivawero Tqveni viziti? _ am qalbatonma moindoma moskovis daTvaliereba.- uTxra anatolim. _ ase moindome sxva drosac moskovis daTvaliereba. bavSvs surda, enaxa wiTeli moedani da mavzoleumi. waeyvanaT cirkSi da Tojinebis TeatrSi. meore dResve Seusrula es anatolim, radgan sammarTvelodan adre dabrunda. mmarTvelTan TaTbiri hqonda. misaRebi dRe xuTSabaTi ki momdevno dRe iyo. olga ivanovnam bavSvi gamoawyo da mamam saseirnod waiyvana. antonina eqvsi wlisa iyo da aTasi STabeWdilebebiT gabruebuli, yvelafers kiTxulobda mourideblad. vidre leninis neSTs Cauvlidnen, mamam Svili gaafrTxila, rom uxmaurod evloT. bavSvs gadaedo xalxis ganwyoba da garindebuli Cauares leninis cxedars. _ daimaxsovre. Cveni beladi lenini! - uTxra, roca moedanze gamovidnen. xom daimaxsovreb? _ Cveni beladi lenini. - gaimeora bavSvma. wiTel moedanze gamovidnen. _ mama, axla metroTi viseirnoT. _ Seni nebaa. roca metros sadgurSi Cadiodnen, mamam Svils uTxra.
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_ imden xans gaseirneb, sanam ar metyvi, zeviT avideTo. Semdeg maRaziebSi daatarebda Svils da misTvis Tojinas eZebda. _ ara, aseTi ara. iseTi, rom Cems Tojinas hgavdes. Sebindebuli iyo, roca mama-Svilma kinoSi Sesvla gadawyvita. kinomde avtobusiT unda misuliyvnen. avtobusis gaCerebasTan Sedgnen. avtobusi SeCerda. misken gadadga fexi anatolim, magram monusxuliviT erTbaSad Sedga. eleqtronis rkinis boZze miyrdnobili qalis gaqvavebuli saxe mas uyurebda. instiqturad kidev gadadga erTi nabiji win, magram am qalis daJinebuli Tvalebis cqeram ukan Semoatriala da exla mTlianad CaaTvaliera qali. qali ocdaTxuTmet wels gadacilebuli iyo. mas Savi, sevdiani Tvalebi hqonda. _ sadRac minaxavs es Tvalebi. - gakvirvebiT gaifiqra anatolim da anazdad mis axlos SeCerda. _ sadRac minaxixarT, qalbatono!- SeekiTxa ucnobs. qali gafiTrda, sadRac gulis siRrmeSi Rrma oxvra moswyda da dabali xmiT qarTul enaze Cailaparaka. _ Turme, me ufro kargi mexsiereba mqonia, anatoli! iavnanasaviT tkbili da bavSviviT mSvenieri iyo es xma. sadRac gulTan siTbo CaeRvara. qals miuaxlovda. mas misCereboda qalis mkacri da sayveduriT savse Tvalebi. _ Sen xom... _ diax! anatoli. me xom...upasuxa qalma da mamakacs Sexeda Tavisi mSvidi, magram daRlili TvalebiT. _ aq rogor gaCndi? _ gana, ufleba ar gvaqvs dedaqalaqSi Cvenc CamovideT?- sevdiani ironiiT SeekiTxa anatolis da mamakaci myisve SekrTa. qali daixara gogonasaken, ise, rom anatolisaTvis Tvali ar moeSorebia. _ es Tqveni qaliSvilia? _ diax! Cemi gogonaa. - Tvalebi gaubrwyinda anatolis imis gamo, rom bolos da bolos saubari gaadvilda. _ ra gqvia? - axla bavSvs Sexeda ucnobma. _ antonina. _ antonina. - gulis siRrmiT aRmoxda qals da Soreuli bavSvoba moagonda. qali gogonas daakvirda. anatolis Sexeda da uTxra: _ saocaria, RmerTmani... _ ra? - ikiTxa anatolim. _ ramxela msgavsebaa Cvens, antoninasa da Sens qaliSvils Soris. sityvebi `Cvens da `Sens man xazgasmiT Tqva. erTmaneTs daup- 366 -

irispira ori cxovrebis dro da mdgomareoba. anatolis guli etkina. qals daakvirda, rom mTlianad amoecno sityvebis Sinaarsi, magram qalis Tvalebi iyvnen mSvidi da amave dros sevdiani. _ antoninam ratomRac werilebis wera Sewyvita. _ Sen werdi? _ ra Tqma unda. qalma gaiRima da mamakacma am RimilSi dainaxa zomaze meti ukmayofili grZnoba. _ cudia, roca ar gpasuxoben. - anatoli mixvda, rom es naTqvami pirdapir mas exeboda da qali ratomRac moxveviT pasuxs sTxovda. erTxans Tavi daxara. Semdeg qals Sexeda da Cailaparaka. _ cxovrebas gamoucvlilxar. Tvalebi ki isev iseTi gaqvs. _ sasixaruloa rom SeamCnie eg mainc. _ mami, wavideT. - wasCurCula bavSvma, radgan igi aSkarad daiRala mamisa da am ucnobi qalis saubriT. _ axlave. _ sad xar dabinavebuli? - SeekiTxa qals. _ sastumroSi. _ Tu winaaRmdegi ar iqnebi, Segvxvdebi. Zalian mainteresebs Cvenebis Sesaxeb. _ raki gainteresebs, SevxvdeT am adgilze xval saRamos xuT saaTze,- Tqva qalma, bavSvs Tavze xeli gadausva da Camomdgar avtobusSi Sevida. _ vin iyo? _ Cemi skolis amxanagia, - uTxra mamam da Tvali gaayola qals. Tumca meore dRes dakavebuli iyo sasamarTloSi, anatolis Tvalebidan ar Sordeboda qalis mSvidi da sevdiani gamoxedva. misi suli aforiaqda da TviTonac ar icoda, ratom eloda ase sulmouTqmelad daRamebas da masTan Sexvedras. nuTu kidev iyo bavSvuri gancdis mcire naperwkali mis gulSi? ekiTxeboda SiSiT sakuTar Tavs. nuTu larisa aleqseevnas Semdeg mis guls kidev hqonda ufleba, yuri miegdo raime grZnobisaTvis. sammarTvelodan dabrunebulma wveri gaiparsa, saguldagulod daiyena Tmebi. Wreli halstuxi gaikeTa. sarkeSi erTxel kidev SeaTvaliera Tavisi Tavi da erTbaSad SekrTa. antonina aRtacebuli mzeriT uyurebda mas. _ ra kargi kostiumia, mami? sad midixar? mamakacs Sercxva da Tvali aarida, TiTqos Tavis Tavs eubneboda, dabali xmiT Tqva. _ megobrebi Semxvdnen. mTxoves, erTad gagvetarebina saRamo.- Tan eSinoda, tyuilSi ar daeWira olga ivanovnas. _ an ra mixaria? sasacilo ar iqneba, rom axla qmarTan erTad gamomecxados? me ki ise avcekvdi, rom TiTqos pirvel paemanze mivdivar sayvarel qaliSvilTan. an iqneb kidev aris is sayvareli qaliSvili?
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- roca kibeebze Cadioda, ase fiqrobda anatoli. metro-troleibusis samarSruto gza ise gaiara,rom ver gaerkva, raze fiqrobda. roca sarkeSi Tavisi qaliSvilis mSvenier saxes waawyda, mis suls daepatrona erTbaSad ori qali da erTdroulad erTmaneTisadmi sapirispiro grZnoba gauCnda. ver garkveuliyo, romeli ufro maxlobeli iyo misTvis. zogjer isic ki eCveneboda, rom am ori arsebis sicocxle erT adamianad qceuliyo da mis sulSi erTi mTliani adgili daekavebia. iyo dro, roca anatoli Tavis Tavs gamoutyda, rom larisa aleqseevnas dakargvis Semdeg man dahkarga bedniereba samudamod. maS, Tu ase iyo, axali sicocxle im qalis sulTan SeerTebuli rad dahpatroneboda mis grZnobas? anatoli gaocebuli usmenda Tavis guls, romelic kvlav eZaxda sicocxlis axali dasawyisisaTvis. is qali xom TxuTmeti weli iyo, rac CamoSorda mis TvalTaxedvas, mis guls. Tu kidev darCa is siyvaruli, gvirilas yvaviliviT qvis xidTan rom amoizarda da misi suli pirveli siyvarulis sixaruliT aavso. _ albaT jer ar dasrulebula sicocxle. rogorc gangeba, Tu ise momevlina da qmriani ar aris, maSin...maSin?...- gaaJrJola. _ anatoli! gesmis?...rogor mindoda sicocxle, vyofiliyavi kargi deda...kargi meuRle da kargi moqalaqe. xom xedav, ar damcalda. Sen fiqrob, me sikvdilze vtiri? me, Sen da Cemi gogona momenatrebiT...-sul axlos wasCurCula larisa aleqseevnas xmam da Semdeg naTlad daudga Tvalwin, rogor gacivda qalis xeli mis xelSi.- am mogonebam saxe saSinlad Seucvala, raRac ucnaurad daugrZelda da gaufiTrda. ise mivida daniSnul adgilze, rom ukve aRar icoda, risTvis mivida iq. _ anatoli! - Caesma yurSi. Setrialda. mas qeTinos mSvidi da sevdiani Tvalebi uyurebdnen. mamakaci nel-nela gamoerkva. erTxans usityvod Sescqerodnen erTmaneTs. _ qeTino! albaT didxans melodi! - wamoiZaxa, raRac damnaSavesaviT da Tavi daxara. _ magram molodinsac hqonia dasasruli, - TavisTavs uTxra qalma da anatolis Sexeda RimiliT, misi bavSvuri umanko RimiliT. _ aseTi TvalebiT mxolod sayvarel mamakacs Sescqerian. gaifiqra anatolim Tavis gulSi. anatoli axalSeniSvils minskSi dabruneba SeeZlo meeqvse dRes, radgan samsaxurebriv saqmes ukve morCa. sammarTvelos ufrosis davaleba, erT-erT samSeneblo ubnis proeqtis gadakeTebis Sesaxeb Seasrula. TiToeuli saaTi misTvis Zvirfasi iyo da exla misi gaumgzavre- 368 -

bloba danaSauladac ki eCveneboda, magram samivlinebo furclebiT oTxi dRe darCenoda da es oTxi dRe, undoda, piradi saqmisaTvis gamoeyenebina. anatolis da qeTinos Sexvedrebi, romelic TiTqmis mTeli eqvsi dRis ganmavlobaSi yoveldRe xdeboda, iyo oficialuri, zogjer civi, magram amave dros Tan axlda amxanaguri mogonebebic. anatoli ekiTxeboda aTas wvrilmans bavSvobidan, amxanagebis cxovrebidan da qeTinoc pasuxobda. mTeli eqvsi dRis ganmavlobaSi isini erTmaneTs xvdebodnen, rogorc Zveli megobrebi, dadiodnen TeatrSi an kinoSi da gvianobamde seirnobdnen mdinare moskovis napirze. arc erTs da arc meores ar surda gadaebijebina am naZaladevi TavdaWerilobis sazRvridan. arc erTs da arc meores ar ucdia, Sexeboda maTTvis yvelaze mtkivneul sakiTxs. aSkaraa, erTic da meorec gaurbodnen am SekiTxvas. erTsac da meoresac eSinodaT erTmaneTisTvis ekiTxaT is, rac maT azrSi pirvel SekiTxvad iyo dasmuli. magram erTsac da meoresac guliT ewadaT, scodnodaT erTmaneTis piradi warsuli. qeTinom metad gakvriT uTxra, rom igi moskovSi gamogzavnili iyo erTi Tvis vadiT sagamomZieblo organos mier erT-erTi metad rTuli, gauxsneli saqmis gamo, radgan anatoli mixvda es sakiTxi saidumlo iyo, ar ucdia ekiTxa, kerZod ras exeboda igi. maT gankargulebaSi iyo saRamo da sargeblobdnen am droiT. magram axlovdeboda maTi daSorebis dRec. orivem icodnen, rom bolos, ganSorebisas ikiTxavdnen im mTavars, romelic maTTvis iyo saSiSi da swored amis gamo gaurbodnen erTmaneTs. eSinodaT, maT pirad mdgomareobas Crdili ar mieyenebia maTi SexvedrebisaTvis, romelic mTlianad ekuTvnoda bavSvur mogonebebs. meSvide dRes, rogorc ki qeTino misken wamovida, rom mamakacisaTvis xelkavi gaekeTebia, anatolim mklavebi Zirs dauSva da Zalian seriozulad Sexeda: _ qeTino! _ ?! _ Tumca Zalian meSinia, ras metyvi Sen, mainc ar SeiZleba ise davSordeT, rom ar vicodeT erTmaneTis piradi cxovreba. qeTinom gaiRima. mas civi Rimili da mkacri saxe hqonda. _ sad cxovrob? an Seni ojaxis wevrebi: qmari, bavSvebi... - laparaki Sewyvita, radgan qali ramdenime nabijiT win wavida. anatoli daewia. axla gverdiT mihyveboda da SeeZlo daenaxa misi saxis feriscvaleba. misi mitkaliviT gaTeTrebuli saxe miwas CasCereboda. Semdeg mis mkerds moswyda Cumi oxvra da TiTqos TavisTavs scems pasuxso, waiCurCula. _ qmari? Svilebi?... me igi xom arasodes myolia. - aSkaraa aseT pasuxs ar moeloda anatoli. sixaruliT Tvalebi gaubrwyinda, ma- 369 -

gram roca qeTinos civ Tvalebs Sexeda, gaaJrJola. mas sikvdiliviT sZulda es Tvalebi. erTxans usityvod midiodnen Tavis gulTan miTokili ori arseba. albaT orive sakuTar Tavze, sakuTar warsulze da sakuTar momavalze fiqrobda. xangrZlivi siCume qeTinom daarRvia: _ Tqveni meuRle aq aris, Tu... - anatolis Sexeda. mamakacis saxe gaqvavebuliyo da TiTqos es SekiTxva ar gaugoniao, ise mihyveboda mdinare moskovis piras moajirs. Semdeg Sedga. moajirs mkerdiT mieyrdno da talRebs gaayola Tvali. mis gverdiT Sedga qeTinoc. talRebi, Tumca raRac ZaliT erTmaneTSi gadaxlarTuliyvnen, mainc SegeZlo gamogeyo isini erTmaneTisgan. talRebi SesamCnevad, gancalkevebuli midiodnen. midiodnen nela. qeTino pasuxs aRar ucdida. man mSvenivrad icoda, rogori iyo anatolis meuRle. igi xom am rva wlis winaT dainaxa. dainaxa da Tavisi bedic gadawyvita... anatoli fiqrebidan gamoerkva. mas daaviwyda qeTinos SekiTxva. Subli moisrisa da daRlili xmiT Tqva: _ Cemi meuRle SesaniSnavi adamiani iyo... _ rogor Tqvi? _ igi ori wlis winaT gardaicvala. mwared ukbina raRacam gulze qals, anazdad misken miiwia da Cumad uTxra: _ mapatie, anatoli. es me ar megona. Semdeg mTeli saRamo ise iares, rom arc erTs araferi uTqvams. maT Soris moCvenebasaviT adamiani idga, ufro swored, gardacvlili qalis aCrdili da erTmaneTisaken gaxedvis nebas ar aZlevdaT. taqsi gaaCeres. sastumromde mividnen. isini isev ganagrZobdnen dumils. _ kidev ramdeni dRe iqnebi? - hkiTxa karebTan anatolim. _ Svid dReSi gadis vada. _ me ki zeg minskSi unda viyo. _ kargad iyavi, anatoli. _ Cven kidev SevxvdebiT. _ albaT ukanasknelad. - daumata qeTinom. _ rogor? _ gTxov, nuRar SevxvdebiT erTmaneTs! - daJinebiT uTxra qalma. _ qeTino! _ gTxov, Zalian gTxov. man kibe airbina. anatolic ahyva. xeli waavlo xelSi da Tavisken Seatriala. _ me xval xuT saaTze aq moval. gesmis? iqneba gvian, magram mainc movides CvenTan bedniereba. _ bedniereba? - mtkivneulad, nerviulad da ukmayofilod wamoiZ- 370 -

axa qalma da saxtad darCenili anatoli kibeebze datova. meore dRes daTqmul dros anatoli sastumros win Sedga. zaris xmaze qeTinom gamoxeda. anatoli gaunZrevlad idga karebSi da mipatiJebas eloda. _ raki moxvedi, Semodi. stumars savarZeli SesTavaza, TviTon ki mis pirdapir Camojda. anatolim qals qvevidan Sexeda. mas saSinlad nawamebi saxe hqonda. _ albaT wuxel ar gZinebia! - ikiTxa anatolim. qeTinos Tavi daexara. is jiutad misCereboda iatakis erT wertils. _ rogor aris Tqveni qaliSvili? - naZaladevi megobruli toniT uTxra qalma. _ rogor giTxra? is isev elodeba dedas. qeTinos mwared moxvda gulze. isec daxara Tavi. anatoli adga. fanjarasTan mivida da qveviT Caixeda. erTxans dumili sufevda maT Soris. arc erTs ar hyofnida gambedaoba, eTqva saTqmeli. am wuTSi es qali misTvis iyo iseTive sayvareli, rogorc, maSin, qvis xidTan mdgari patara gogo. uceb Tvalwin daudga xidis qvis moajiri da gasafrenad momzadebuli gvirilas foToliviT umweo gogo. qveviT ki boboqrobda mdinare da napirs askdeboda mTeli siZlieriT. _ qeTino! _ !? _ me...me im dRidan miyvardi qeTino... _ gaxsovs? qveviT rom gindoda gafrena. - Setrialda misken. _ qveviT mTvare iyo. kaSkaSa mTvare, me masTan misvla mindoda, xeliT Sexeba, magram Sen ar isurve. - raRac daRlili xmiT uTxra qalma. _ me mudam megona, Sen Cemze maRla ideqi da ar mindoda Tavs momexvia es siyvaruli. me amis gamo vdumdi... Semdeg... gTxov, masze nu malaparakeb. is imdenad SesaniSnavi qali iyo, es rom gaego, ase mgonia, am sakiTxSic damexmareboda. me rom dRes aseTi var, es imas unda vumadlode. anatoli qalisaken Setrialda. axla qeTino uyurebda aRtacebiT. _ Sen mudam namdvili adamiani iyavi, anatoli! qeTinom dareka. _ gTxov, ori yava SemomitaneT. isini isev sdumdnen. qalma yava Semoitana. qeTinom CamoarTva da magidaze dado. _ miirTviT anatoli. _ gmadlobT. - da finjani aiRo.
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Semdeg qeTinos Sexeda da roca qali oTaxidan gavida, mokled uTxra saTqmeli. _ albaT imitom SevxvdiT erTmaneTs, rom amis Semdeg mainc aRar davSordeT. qeTino nela svamda yavas da Tan raRacaze fiqrobda. _ xval unda wavide, qeTino, Sens pasuxs veli. qalma yavis finjani lambaqze dado. wamodga.oTaxSi ramdenimejer gaiara. is aravis uyurebda. anatolis sityvebs iotisodena sixaruli ar moutania misTvis. Semdeg im adamianis win Sedga, vinc bavSvobidanve saTayvanebel kerpad miiCnia. misi cisferi Tvalebi, fermkrTali saxe da qera xveuli Tmebi, sizmarSic rom elandeboda, maxlobeli iyo da Zvirfasi. sakmarisi iyo xeli gaewvdina, Sexeboda am Zvirfas nakvTebs da mis saxeze gaqreboda Sesisxlxorcebuli simkacre. ai, bolos Sexvda im bednierebas, razedac fiqrobda, razec ocnebobda. ver garkveuliyo, nuTu SeiZleboda ase Setrialebuliyo misi bedi. aseTi rame xom mxolod zRaprebSi xdeba. am bednierebas ioli bedniereba hqvia, magram am zRaprad Tqmulma iolma bednierebam gvian miaRwia masTan. am bednierebam sabediswerod daigviana da... _ anatoli, gaviseirnoT mdinare moskovis sanapiroze. - erTbaSad Tqva qalma da mamakacs Sexeda. _ Sen pasuxs mainc ar maZlev. - anatolic wamodga. _ da es iqneba Cveni ukanaskneli gaseirneba. _ ras ambob? - fexi ecvala mamakacs. - iqneba sxva giyvars, an bavSvi, Cemi gogonaa mizezi. qeTinom sayveduriT Sexeda mamakacs, Semdeg kari gaaRo da gareT gavidnen. quCamde araferi uTqvamT. _ me yvela udedod gazrdili bavSvi mecodeba. siyvaruliT ki, didi xania aRTqma miveci Cems Tavs, arasodes aravin Seviyvaro. isini mdinaris mimarTulebiT miuyvebodnen. ukve saRamo iyo. lampionebi inTebodnen. anatolim TviTonac ar icoda, riTi damTavrdeboda misi ukanaskneli gaseirneba. qeTinom pirvelma daarRvia siCume. _ me im saRamos Semdeg Seviyvare qvis moajiriani sanapiroebi. vixedebodi mis zvirTebSi da mTvaresTan mobanave Sens saxes vxedavdi, Sen ki micqerdi Zalian civad am zvirTebidan. me ki am zvirTebs zogjer davCerebodi saaTobiT da msurda, damenaxa CemTvis gamogzavnili Rimili. aseT Rimils ki Sens saxeze ver vxedavdi. _ me ukve giTxari saTqmeli. gana, am dros ar SegiZlia mapatio yvelaferi? _ yvelaferi gapatio? gana, advilia gapatio, roca Cemi sicocxlis naxevari ukve wavida da warsuli wlebi mudam rCebian adamianis mexsierebaSi? Sen xom ar ici Cemi cxovrebis TiToeuli wuTi.
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_ me arafers gekiTxebi, qeTino. Cven daviwyebT axal cxovrebas. _ eg cotaa. - is qvis moajirs daeyrdno - naxevari cxovreba gavlie da SevZeli yvelaferi vaJkacurad gadametana. maT Soris, SevZeli gavmklavebodi Sens siyvarulsac. da axla ginda movigono?... _ mjera, magram Cvens Soris idgeba mesame da is arc erTs ar mogvasvenebs. _ nuTu gardacvlili qalis...- magram qeTinom Seawyvetina xelis moZraobiT. Semdeg kibeebs dauyva mdinaris talRebamde. _ anatoli, bevrjer vmdgarvar mtkvris piras aseT adgilas da zvirTebs davcqerodi. au, ramdeni dro gavida mas Semdeg... bolos aRar vuyurebdi talRebs, saidanac mudam Seni saxe mimzerda. meSinoda, am Tvalebs ar daenaxa Cemi suli... qali SeCerda, Semdeg pirdapir Sexeda anatolis TvalebSi da uTxra: _ da mainc Sexvdnen Cveni Tvalebi erTmaneTs. Sen miTxari, igi ar Secvlilao. me ki vici, Secvlilia da saocrad Secvlili. - mas daRlili xma hqonda. _ geyofa, gexvewebi, - anatolim mxarze daado xeli da Tavisken miizida.- Sen, roca Cemi coli gaxdebi, saerTod yvela wyena gagiqreba. _ me ukve giTxari, rom minda sikvdilamde viyo Cems gulTan marto. _ ras ambob, qeTino, ras? axla, roca am qveynad marto aravin myavda Cemi Svilis meti, gangebam Segvyara erTad da Sen ginda dacinviT xeli hkra am gangebas? nuTu Seni mkacri saxe, romelic mudam maSinebda, zustad Seni gulis asli iyo. Tu Cven davSordiT, im mkacri da zviadi saxis gamo davSordiT, magram vfiqrobdi, rom es daSoreba samarTliani iyo. Seni civi guli verasodes ver dainaxavs sxvisi gulis tkivils, rogori mosiyvarulec ar unda iyos igi. _ Cemi civi xasiaTis gamo? saidan moitane. Sen yru iyavi Cemi siyvarulisTvis da kidev me msayvedurob? _ arafers ar gsayvedurob. yvelafers Cems Tavze viReb. mxolod damibrundi qeTino. _ ara, anatoli, megobrebi viyoT... anatolim qals xeli mohkida da misken daixara. _ viyoT megobrebic, magram viyoT colic da qmaric. me es ise mWirdeba, rogorc haeri, miwa, sicocxle. gaakeTe es marto Cemi gulisTvis. Sen xom ici, ra saSinelebaa marto yofna. _ saSinelebaa marto yofna?... _ nu msayvedurob. _ Cven erTad arasodes vicxovrebT. _ ratom? ratom? miTxari. _ Tu me ar minda, risTvis maiZuleb?...damtove marto. _ miTxari, risTvis gamomitane aseTi ganaCeni. _ es ganaCeni me Cems Tavs gamovutane.
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qeTino isev talRebs misCereboda. anatoli qvaze Camojda. mis Soriaxlos Camojda qeTinoc, mxolod talRebis xma aRwevda maT smenamde da fiqris saSualebas ar aZlevdaT. _ bediswera iyo Cveni daSoreba. vfiqrob, Cveni Sexvedrac bedisweraa. bedisweraa da ara bedniereba. roca bedniereba udrood mova, misi brwyinvaleba dakargulia. vidre me Sen dagSordebode samudamod, minda, icode yvelaferi. saSualo skolis damTavrebis Semdeg me TbilisSi wavedi. sabavSvo saxlma ukanasknelad izruna Cemze da damoukidebeli gavxdi. im welsve iuridiul fakultetze movewyve. CemTan erTad imgzavra ilia buCukurma. iqneb, gaxsovs... is paralelur klasSi swavlobda. gamocdebs abarebda universitetSi geologiur fakultetze. gvian mivxvdi, rom man gangeb airCia CemTan mgzavroba, maSin ki amisTvis yuradRebac ar mimiqcevia. moxda ise, rom im wels Cveni skolidan marto me da is CaviricxeT. gasakviri ar iyo, rom igi yuradRebas ar maklebda. Cemi mxriv ki, amas didi siamovnebiT viRebdi. misdami iseTi ganwyoba mqonda, rom Cemi namdvili, erTguli megobari iyo. erTxel studqalaqSi Zalian sevdiani mivedi. naRvlianad miyurebda. roca mizezi vkiTxe, man zereled mipasuxa da mTxova, kinoSi wavsuliyaviT. kino-TeatrTan misuli ar viyaviT, rom uceb sxva ram mTxova. _ ubralod, gaviseirnoT quCebSi! aman gamakvirva. Tumca araferi vupasuxe, mTeli Tbilisis quCebSi ise vixetialeT, gadabmuli winadadeba ar uTqvams CemTvis. me ki vyvebodi aTas rames. Sen ici, anatoli, es Tviseba CemSi Tandayolilia. roca ukan davbrundiT, iliam naRvlianad miTxra: _ qeTino, gavige, Seyvarebuli yofilxar. me saxtad davrCi. radgan amis msgavss is arasodes SemkiTxvia. _ visze? _ amas me mekiTxebi? - SemekiTxa. Sevxede da davinaxe usazRvro sayveduri am sityvebSi. ilias me pativs vcemdi, misi dakargva ar mindoda. msurda, sicocxlis bolomde megobrad darCeniliyo, amitom gadavwyvite, vidre is Tavis siyvaruls SemomTavazebda, simarTle meTqva. _ vin giTxra? _ amas mniSvneloba ar aqvs. _ mTavaria, rom me miyvars, ara? - davamTavre saTqmeli. _ ho! - mowyvetiT Tqva da ramdenime nabijiT win wavida. mis mxrebs Sevxede. momeCvena, TiTqos misi mxrebi TrTodnen. nabijs avuCqare da davewie. amis Semdeg mravalma welma ganvlo da mudam vsayvedurob Cems Tavs, ratom davewie maSin. ratom ar gaiyara Cveni gzebi, swored im momentSi ratom miveci amiT Cemze fiqris ufleba, risTvis davutove
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imedis naperwkali. kidev amdeni weli rom gavides, mudam vusayvedureb Cems Tavs am nabijis gamo. magram im wuTSi, am veeberTela qalaqSi is yvelaze maxlobeli iyo da saSinlad Semebrala. odnav moxrili mxrebiT da gafiTrebuli saxiT midioda Cems win. diax! Semebrala da es sazizRari grZnoba didxans darCa gulSi. meore dRiT antoninam gamomiara da saidumlod miTxra, rom iliam sTxova, gamoerkvia, ra grZnobiT viyavi masTan daaxlovebuli. mas uTqvams, rom me anatoli miyvarda. amis Semdeg arsebobda ori gza: an uxeSad da mourideblad momeSorebina Tavidan, an davrCeniliyo Zveleburad da Tavi ise dameWira, rom grZnobebs ver mivuxvdi. Tanac ufleba ar unda mimeca, raime eTqva. pirvelis gakeTeba Cemi mxridan uzrdeloba da umaduroba iyo, ris gamoc uarvyavi es gza. meore ki aSkara TvalTmaqcoba, da gadavwyvite, masTan Sens siyvarulze melaparaka. es iyo, Cemi azriT, yvelaze swori gza. qeTino erTbaSad dadumda. anatoli ki farTo TvalebiT SesCereboda. mdinare ki ealerseboda maT fexis wverebs. _ iyo iseTi momentebi, Sens siyvaruls monatrebuli, am grZnobazec mas vuambobdi. Cven ase visxediT mtkvris piras. is naRvliani RimiliT Semomcqeroda, roca Sens saxels siyvaruliT warmovTqvamdi. aSkaraa, me vawamebdi. is ki am wamebasac moTminebiT itanda. iqneb imitom, rom.. - qeTinom anatolis Sexeda, - Cvens Soris urTierTobis veraviTar perspeqtivas xedavda. _ werili kidev ar aris? - mekiTxeboda da aSkarad vgrZnobdi dafarul sixaruls. is didi mondomebiT malavda am sixaruls, magram me mainc vgrZnobdi. vgrZnobdi da amis gamo SeviZule igi. diax! mas ki yvelafrisaTvis vuyvardi. mgoni, Sens gamo Tavganwiruli siyvarulisaTvisac ki. me vgrZnobdi, rogori araadamianuri TavganwirviT Tokavda am grZnobas. man icoda, misi siyvaruli CemTvis sawamlavi iqneboda. vuyvardi veluri siyvaruliT, romelsac arc Tavi aqvs da arc dasasruli. es siyvaruli dResac maSinebs. Sen sdumdi da me ki ar myofnida gambedaoba, meTqva SenTvis. ilia is erTaderTi adamiani iyo, visTanac SemeZlo gulis mooxeba Senze saubriT. dro gadioda. studentobis wlebi dasasruls uaxlovdeboda. antonina gaTxovda. vaJa xizaniSvilma da man erTmaneTs ver gauges.. erTxans saxtad davrCi. magram roca Rrmad Cavukvirdi, gavamarTle. sisulelea, giJurad giyvardes adamiani, vinc am siyvaruls ver dainaxavs. bolo dros ilias yuradReba mosabezrebeli iyo. is iq iyo, sadac me viyavi. mis eWvian mzeras mudam vxedavdi da swored aman warmoSva CemSi saSineli zizRi.
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magram am grZnobasTan erTad mudam arsebobda sibralulis grZnobac da am ukanasknelis brWyalebSi imdenad viyavi momwyvdeuli, rom zogjer zizRsac ki abaTilebda. roca universiteti davamTavre, TbilisSi gamanawiles. vfiqrobdi, ilia rogorc geologi, sadme mTebSi wavidoda samuSaod, magram Sevcdi. man muSaoba daiwyo geologiur sammarTveloSi ufro nakleb Tanamdebobaze. Cemma siZulvilma umaRles wertils miaRwia. qeTino isev dadumda. man mkacrad Sexeda anatolis da uTxra: _ me ki am dros isev Senze vfiqrobdi. Sen warmoidgine, rom erTxel mesizmre, TiTqos avad iyavi. SenTan movedi da saavadmyofoSi gnaxe. diliT, roca avdeqi, Savi fanqriT davxate sawolSi mwoliare. vinc ki dainaxa is naxati, yvelam amogicno. iliasac vaCvene. amiT bolos da bolos vagrZnobine, rom is tyuilad damtrialebda Tavs. amoioxra da ici, ra miTxra? _ es anatolia. misi Tvalebi aqvs, Tmebi, cxviri, kbilebi. ho, yvelaferi misia. magram mis saxeze ara sCans siyvarulis siTbo. - sayveduriT Semomxeda da daumata, - qeTino, daxate adamiani, vinc siyvaruli icis. daxate ise, rom mis saxeze ufro didi siyvaruli Candes, vidre pirovneba. gaocebulma Sevxede. am wuTSi vigrZeni, rom is idealurad Seyvarebuli adamiani iyo. misma tuCebma, Tvalebma, saxis TiToeulma nakvTma gamoxata namdvili siyvaruli. erTxans mojadoebuli Sevcqerodi am siyvaruls. am wuTSi ilias rogorc adamians, daekarga Tavisi garegnuli saxe da vxedavdi marto siyvaruls. mikvirda, ratom ar SemeZlo Semyvareboda igi. Tavi davxare, gadavwyvite, bodiSi momexada. _ mapatie, ilia mapatie! me SemiZlia davxato anatoli, Tundac mas ar SeeZlos siyvaruli, magram Seni siyvarulis daxatva ar SemiZlia. - es iyo pirveli da ukanaskneli uari. _ me minskSi mivdivar. unda vnaxo! - es ki Cems Tavs vuTxari. roca mas Sevxede, davinaxe, jer rogor gaSeSda, Semdeg saxeze siyvaruli mTlianad waeSala. is dReniadag Cems ukan darboda da uTqmelad itanjeboda. _ wadi, wadi... - nerviulad wamoiZaxa da momSorda. erTi kviris Semdeg samsaxurSi gamoiara da SemomTavaza, minskSi erTad wavideTo. es ukve metismeti iyo. nuTu, es misi mxridan sulgrZeloba iyo? risTvis sWirdeboda es sulgrZeloba? ukve yelSi amomivida misi zrunva. aRar SemeZlo, daumsaxureblad mimeRo misi amdeni samsaxuri. man icoda, rom misi yuradRebisa da mzrunvelobis miReba ar msurda da vidre uars vetyodi, damaswro. misi sityvebis ganmeoreba zustad SemiZlia, radgan man yvelaferi Tqva: _ me vici, ra aris siyvaruli. Tu Sen anatolis coli gaxdebi, me davemorCilebi beds, radgan Sen bednieri iqnebi. sxvas ki... TviT
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RmerTs... sikvdilsac ar davanebeb Sen Tavs.- Tavzari dameca, roca misi ganawamebi saxe davinaxe. aseTi sazareli gamoxedva aqamde jer aravis saxeze menaxa. misi sityvebi aRarc Txovna iyo da aRarc mudara. is Cems Tavs iTxovda... bolos mivxvdi, es miseuli siyvarulis veluri kanoni iyo. _ gTxov, CemTan erTad mgzavrobaze nu fiqrob. esec ar iyos, anatolisTan wasvla SenTan erTad, xom wamebaa SenTvis da Tanac CemTvis uxerxulia. _ sadguramde mainc gagacileb.- miTxra iliam. sibrazem saxe amilewa, magram roca mis Tvalebs wavawydi, guli SemekumSa.-axla mis TvalebSi usazRvro mudara iyo da sxva araferi. _ xval gaval. - vuTxari da gavSordi. meore dRes sadgurze damxvda, vagonamde mimacila da usityvod damSorda. davmSviddi. matarebeli daiZra da roca Cems moqmedebas davakvirdi, gamikvirda da Cems Tavs SevekiTxe, sad, an risTvis mivdiodi-meTqi. ukan dasaxevi gza ar miZebnia, Tumca Cemi Tavi aTasjer gavkicxe am nabijisaTvis. da uceb Cemi Tavi warmovidgine ilias mdgomareobaSi. im dRes yvelaze metad Semejavra Tavi Cemive ugulobis gamo. gamovutydi sakuTar Tavs, rom ilias vali memarTa - siyvarulis vali. minskSi Cavedi da Zvel misamarTze mogakiTxe. iq Zveli saxlebi aRebuli iyo. gadavwyvite, samsaxurSi mepovne. diliT usiamovno winaTgrZnobiT avdeqi. amas isic daerTo, rom wvimiani da moRrubluli dRe dadga. _ rac mosaxdenia, moxdes! - dabejiTebiT vTqvi da sastumro dilidanve davtove. sammarTveloSi mivedi da Sens Sesaxeb saWiro cnobisaTvis mdivnis win gavCerdi. mdivanma qalma Tavazianad mimiRo da roca Sens Sesaxeb SevekiTxe, mipasuxa: _ diax! diax! anatoli axalSeniSvili. Cveni larisa aleqseevnas meuRle. Tqven albaT naTesavi xarT? Semdeg ra miTxra, an ra rCeva momca, aRar maxsovs, buranSi gavexvie. ukve yvelaferi erTmaneTSi airia. miwasTan gasworebuli da Seuracxyofili videqi sxvis qmarze Seyvarebuli. _ axlaxan gavida mSeneblobaze larisa aleqseevna! - miTxra da mgoni skami SemomTavaza, mgoni SemekiTxa kidec, magram aRaraferi mesmoda. mowyvetiT gareT gamovvardi. ramdenime nabiji gadavdgi da gavSeSdi. sammarTvelos Sesasvlel kibeebze amodiodiT Sen da is. mivxvdi, vinc iyo, inteligenturi Sesaxedaoba hqonda. sada, magram moxdenili Savi kostumi ecva. Sen ki mis gverdiT Zalian bednieri Candi. SenobaSi SexvediT. imis SiSiT, rom aravin gamomkideboda, sammarTvelosTan taqsi daviWire.
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_ rkinigzis sadgurze... - instiqturad mivaZaxe mZRols. ramdenime wuTSi adgilze viyavi. yvelafers vxedavdi da Tan ver vxedavdi, rac Cems garSemo iyo da Cems irgvliv moZraobda. TiTqos TavSi mirtyamdnen da meCveneboda, rom minskis TiToeuli saxli, quCa, xe, telefonis boZi gamoscemda saSineli dacinvis xmis eqos. meCveneboda, rom nislSi gaxveuli qalaqi ukan dacinviT macilebda. _ qeTino! - momesma Zalian nacnobi xma. magram es xma mTeli damcinavi samyaros gagrZelebad miviCnie da arsad gamixedia. _ qeTino! - vedrebasaviT gaisma Cems ukan xma da gaocebuli Sevdeqi. _ ilia! - wamoviZaxe. Cemma arabunebrivma saxem SeaSina. _ vicodi, ase iqneboda. SemeSinda araferi ar agetexa TavisTvis da ukan gamogyevi. - mobodiSebiT miTxra man. yvelaferi ameria TavSi. Cems win idga adamiani, Cemi sulis mSveleli da SeiZleba momavalic. Cemi siyvarulis Rirsi iyo da me ki mudam zurgs vaqcevdi. cremlebma Tvalebi amiWrela. mis mkerdze miveyrdne da avtirdi. ar ganZreula. icoda, rom es cremlebi mas ki ara, Sen gekuTvnoda. _ bileTebi saRamos rva saaTisTvis aviRe. - Tqva iliam gamikvirda, ratom iyo darwmunebuli, rom ukan dabruneba mindoda. uceb mivxvdi, rom icoda Sens Sesaxeb da ar miTxra, albaT undoda, yvelaferi sakuTari TvaliT menaxa, magram am yvelafers amjerad mniSvneloba aRar hqonda. uazrod CavuyeviT minskis ramdenime quCas. visadileT restoranSi da saRamoc moaxlovda. vagonSi davjeqi Tu ara, vigrZeni, rom dadga is momenti, roca unda damebrunebina im siyvarulis safasuri, rasac Cemze xarjavda mTeli am wlebis manZilze. axla Cemi erTi Rimili dasawyisi gaxdeboda im bednierebisa, rasac igi eswrafoda. Cems xelSi iyo misi bedniereba. ilia meore kuTxeSi ijda. matarebeli daiZra. Cven marto aRmovCndiT erTad. axla ukve aRar ideqi Cvens Soris. sadRac dakarguliyavi. arc erTs ar gvsurda, Senze gvefiqra da miTumetes, gvesaubra. borblebis xma Cvenamde aRwevda da axali sicocxlisaken gveZaxda. iliasaken gavixede. ijda da uTqmeli tanjviT tiroda. tiroda, farTod gaxelili TvalebiT, Sors imzireboda, Sors, Zalian Sors... ver mivxvdi, igi amiT warsulSi ixedeboda, Tu momavalSi. saxeze arc erTi ZarRvi, arc erTi kunTi ar inZreoda da aman SesZra Cemi guli. qeTinom anatolis Sexeda. mas Tvalebi daexuWa da ise usmenda. _ me davinaxe misi suli. _ me Sen skolis merxidan miyvardi, qeTino!. _ mapatie, rom dagtanje am siyvaruliT. ubedureba iyo... im dRes netav, ar memgzavra SenTan erTad.
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_ angariSi ar gamiwevia xvalindeli dRisaTvis. xvalindeli dRe Sors iyo. axla, am wuTSi ki unda gadamedga nabiji. isic vicodi, Tu am nabijs axla ar gadavdgamd, ar gadavdgamdi xval. aRar vekiTxebodi Cems Tavs, ilias Seyvareba SemeZlo Tu ara. esec xvalindeli dRis msajuls Cavabare. xvalindeli dRe ki Zalian Sors iyo. borblebis xma aRwevda Cvenamde da meCveneboda, TiTqos es xmac raRacas mTxovda. Cems win isev ijda ilia Tavisi bediT saSinlad ukmayofilo. vxedavdi mis cremlebs, is CemTvis daRvrili cremlebi iyo. rogor mindoda myvareboda es CemTvis Tavdadebuli adamiani da gadavwyvite, misTvis cremlebi Semewminda. ...iriJraJa. ilias mSvidad eZina. TviT Rrma ZilSic bednieri saxe hqonda. tkbilad sunTqavda. ra Tqma unda, dReidan misi coli viyavi. guli SemekumSa. Tavi gavaryie. mindoda Cavkvirvebodi, ra moxda, an ra iqneboda xval. roca momaval xvalindel dRes gavxede, SiSis Jruantelma damiara, nuTu Cemi momavali mTlianad am adamianisTvis unda mimeca. sakuTari siyvarulis dakargviT imedgacruebulma gavxede ilias _ ratom ar SemiZlia, Segiyvaro Sen! - gavifiqre. - Sen momcem im siyvaruls, romelic mWirdeba. - adamiani, romelic Cems gulSi im dRes ucxo iyo, dRemde ucxod darCa. borblebis xma kidev aRwevda Cemamde, magram es xma axla samgloviaro xmas gamoscemda. kupedan gamovedi. mindoda, dilis haers daebrunebina CemSi vaJkacoba. vaJkacoba imisa, rom momekriba Zala, damewyo masTan erTad cxovreba. gareT gavedi. moajirs miveyrdne. axla sul axlos iyo borblebic xma da es xma amjerad sikvdilisken meZaxda. Tvalis daxuWva da erTi fexis gadadgma erTdroulad moxda... Tavbru damesxa... _ sikvdili? visa hklav? ugulod darCenili adamianis sxeuls? ara. dae, icocxle sakuTari me-s gareSe, es yvelaze saSineli ganaCenia SenTvis. ganaCeni gamovutane Cems Tavs. aman mixsna sikvdilisgan. saSineli mdgomareobidan ilias xelis Sexebam gamomiyvana. Tavisaken Sematriala, TvalebSi Camxeda da yvelafers mixvda. _ me ki megona... naadrevad mizeimia bedniereba. Cven kupeSi davbrundiT. uTqmelad isev im adgilze davjeqi. axla mivCerebodi da vnatrobdi, guliT vnatrobdi, rom kidev mexila mis Tvalebze cremli. magram... mas saxec da Tvalebic erTnairad gaciveboda mwuxarebiT. CemTvis ki yvelaferi damTavrda guSin. _ qeTino, miTxari, nuTu ar SegiZlia, Semiyvaro. adamiani, romelic Cemze loculobda, ar mindoda mometyuebina. is xom Cemi megobaric iyo. _ yovelTvis vcdilobdi, adrec.. magram xom xedav, Turme
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yvelaze Znelia, moToko Seni guli. - Cemi sityvebi Zalian civi da mSrali iyo. aseTi toniT mxolod Tavis bedTan Serigebuli adamianebi laparakobdnen. _ mapatie ilia, rom ver SevZeli... _ ra gadawyvite? - SemekiTxa SiSiT. dResac ar vici, sworad moiqca Tu ara, roca Cveni bedis gadawyveta me momando? maSin ratom ar gaufrTxilda Tavis beds? vin icis, dros, wlebs, siaxloves, bavSvebs - iqneba gaeCina Cemi siyvaruli. mas surda, Tavis sulgrZelobaSi erTxel kidev daverwmunebine? ase iyo, Tu ise, Secda, roca Cveni momavali erTad cxovrebis sakiTxis gadaWra me momando. maSin ar mqonda imdeni Zala, ukumegdo misi coloba. Tu ki amas moindomebda. Senze ukve aRar vfiqrobdi. im wuTSi mZuldi, magram mZulda isic da gacilebiT ufro Zlierad. _ ilia dReidan me marto sxeuli, moZravi sxeuli davrCi. miiRe Cemi guli, im siyvarulis sanacvlod, rac Sen momaniWe. _ guli? me momeci? is didi xania, sxvas ekuTvnis. me Seni siyvaruli mindoda. risTvis gaiRe es msxverpli? _ raxan guli sxvas ekuTvnis, sxvas ekuTvnis siyvarulic. Rirsi ar var, SenisTana mosiyvarule qmari myavdes. SesaniSnavi adamiani xar. SeiZleba, mec bednieri vyofiliyavi. saubedurod ar mewera, aseTi erTguli adamianisaTvis meuRleoba gamewia. nu gamiwyrebi, jobia Cemi siyvarulis erTguli davrCe bolomde. _ imis Semdeg, rac moxda, ra erTgulebaze laparakob? _ wuxel Zalian mominda, cxovrebaSi erTxel mainc mexila Seni bednieri saxe. _ iqneb, sjobda, eg bednierebac ar mqonoda. _ erTs gTxov, es bedniereba vicodeT marto me da Sen. is wamodga. arc Semouxedia, arc araferi uTqvams. me Tvalebi davxuWe. iliam iqauroba datova.... arc maSin gamixelia Tvalebi, roca matarebeli SeCerda mkveTri dartymiT. CoCqolic atyda, mere matarebelic wavida. mivxvdi, iliam me da matarebeli samudamod dagvtova. qeTinos Tvalebi aswiTleboda da anatolis umzerda. _ misTvis ar miTqvams, magram Cems Tavs piroba miveci, arasodes aravisze gavTxoviliyavi. samudamod erTnairi ubedurebiT gvecxovra me da mas. ilia mas Semdeg aRar minaxavs. Cveni mexsierebidan samudamod wavSaleT erTmaneTis saxelebi. arsad arasodes mikiTxavs, sad iyo da rogor cxovrobda. arsad moukiTxivar arc me. qeTino gaCumda, Semdeg zizRiT daefara saxe da gaagrZela. _ megona, me davrCi marto, romelmac kavSiri gawyvita yvela mogonebasTan. megona, cocxali sxeuli viyavi, romelic ugulod
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cxovrobda, magram Sevcdi. mTeli am xnis manZilze jojoxeTiviT Cems gverdiT idga erTi saSineli sircxvilis grZnoba da arc erT wuTs mosvenebas ar maZlevda. am grZnobam Cemi sxeulis yvela sasicocxlo ujredi daikava. didxans Camovarda dumili, Semdeg qeTinom anatolis Sexeda da hkiTxa. _ gana, SeiZleba, ubralod, erTi xelis mosmiT yvelafris daviwyeba da axali cxovrebis dawyeba? an gana SemiZlia, Cemi cxovrebis TiToeuli wuTi gapatio? qeTino wamodga. odnav dabarbacda. anatolim xeli SeaSvela da kibeebze avidnen. erTxans Cumad dauyvnen sanapiros. arc erTs aRar ecala, ecqira talRebisaTvis. Semdeg taqsi daiWires da sastumrosTan mividnen. _ ai, axla ukve mesame xar, vinc Cemi cxovrebis yvela wuTi gaiziara. vnanob, rom damWirda meambna SenTvis. anatolim Rrmad amoioxra. _ xval moval! _ ukeTesia, dRes davSordeT erTmaneTs. - Tqva da karebi cxviris win mouketa. roca diliT anatoli sastumroSi mivida, qeTino iq aRar daxvda. _ diliT gaemgzavra moskovidan! - moaxsenes sastumros registraturaSi. anatoli gaxevebuli idga.
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didma, Zalian didma drom ganvlo mas Semdeg, rac maxaroblianT simonas umcrosma vaJiSvilma ilikom, erTaderTi patara fuTiT da ori wyvili qalamniT datova mamis kera, myinvaris Ziras Sekedlebuli Wiora, uTavbolod mimofantuli rionispira Walebi da rostovisaken mimaval matarebelis gzas gauyva. magram vidre rostovis matarebelSi mokalaTdeboda, momavali cxovrebiT Tvalebdacecebuli biWi, gabrielis cxenze (romelsac meorec wamoeyvana ilosTvis) amxedrebulma quTaisamde iara, Semdeg cxenebi gabrielma quTaisSi savaWrod Camosul Wiorlebs ukan gaayola. swored maTgan gaigo simonam Sinidan wasuli Svilis ambavi. _ RmerTo, uwinamZRvre Cems ilikos! - Tvalcremlianma sofiom pirjvris weriT Seavedra ufals ymawvilis Tavi. _ RmerTs nu awuxeb. kakos Svili, gabrielia axla misi winamZRoli da imas Seevedre. axla egeni arian RmerTebic da xatebic. - RvarZlianad Cailaparaka simonam da buxarSi brazianad SeafurTxa.
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TbilisSi gabriels rostovSi momuSave raWveli mzareuli Sexvda. roca man ymawvilis vinaoba ikiTxa da ambavic Seityo, ilikos mxarze xeli dahkra da uTxra: _ wamodi CemTan, ruseTSi. qveyanasac qe naxav da iseT mzareulobas gaswavli, rom jibeebSi mudam fuli geqneba da mucelSi - qoni. - xumrobiT daasrula saTqmeli. ilikom iyoymana. gabriels Sexeda, Sori mgzavrobisTvis mzad ar iyo. uxerxulad SeiSmuSna da Semdeg axladgacnobils SemkrTali SeekiTxa: _ didi xania, biZi,a rac iq cxovrobT? _ iq? ager oci weli qe aris, rac iqa var da mTeli rostovi micnobs. man Rababze xeli Camoisva. ilikom misi Cacmuloba CaaTvaliera. gakrialebuli aziackebi da galife Sarvali ecva. sicxe iyo, magram Tavze buxris qudi exura da Wreli cxvirsaxociT ofls iwmendda. gabriels swored am dros gaxvretili Sauriani ar edo jibeSi. mas Tavisi Tavis gamokvebac ki uWirda da erTbaSad moewona es azri... ... da ai, ukve matarebelSi zis da fanjridan gascqeris gasaocar usazRvro sivrces. amasTan erTad, gulisfancqaliT elis xvalindel dRes. ukan ki rCeboda mogoneba guSindeli dRisa, romelic iyo bavSvobisa da moumwifebeli ymawvilobis cxovreba. roca mis azrSi gaCnda survili, wasuliyo sadRac xelobis Sesaswavlad, maSin, ra Tqma unda, ver warmoidgenda, rom aseuli kilometrebiT Tavis mSobliur keras daSordeboda da Tanac Zalian didi xniT. xelobis Seswavlis survilis asruleba mas sakanafoebis iqiT egona, sadRac sul axlos. magram roca gabrielTan erTad cxenze amxedrebulma sakanafoebic, binuleebic, saglolos mJave wylebic ukan moitova da uweras miadga, mixvda,rom es mgzavroba Zalian Sori da xangrZlivi gamouvidoda. xolo roca matareblis daorTqlili minebidan ruseTis Tvaluwvdenel sivrces moavlo Tvali, simarTleSi darwmunda. kanti-kuntad gamogzavnil ilikos werilebs deda guliT atarebda, sanamde skolidan ar dabrundeboda da TamTa ar waukiTxavda. _ aba, dauwyia muSaoba im wyeuls? - raRac siamayiT gaxedavda Svilis siSoriT monatrebuli mama qaliSvils da TeTr wverze xelebs isvamda. _ miwere i samgles, movides da dagvenaxos erTi. - gadaulaparakebda viTom sxvaTa Soris, magram amas ufro xvewnis toni hqonda. diax! maxaroblianT ilikom ise, rogorc bevrma misma tolma gadadga aseTi nabiji. im dros sad ar naxavdi mTebidan SvlebiviT
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gamorekil biWebs. zvavebsa da mewyrebs gamoqceulma biWebma xangrZlivad daidges bina mSobliuri keris gareT. ilikos mexsierebidan, ise, rogorc danarCeni mis mdgomareobaSi mcxovrebi mTis SvilTa azrovnebidan, nel-nela, magram mainc gafermkrTalda da Semdeg miviwyebas mieca is romantikuli simSvenieris jado- Tilisma, rac am sofels hqonda. maT warmodgenaSi TandaTan gauferulda is xma, kankleTidan wamosul niavs rom moaqvs xolme. daviwyebas mieca nowaris Tivis suni, Tivis Tavze asuli ymawvilis sixaruli. sadRac gulis ZarRvebSi Caikarga kviracxovlis midamoebi, aTasfrad mofenili yvavilTa surneli. ilikos ar ganucdia is sixaruli, rac Wioridan RebSi mosiarule moswavleebs hqondaT, xolo visac es bedniereba wilad xvdomia Tavis bavSvobaSi, is verasodes daiviwyebs axalTaxal qalamanSi Cawyobili Tomisa da RebSi naTesavTan erTi wuTiT Sevlisas agizgizebuli buxris siTbos netarebas. ilikos ar ganucdia is grZnoba, romelic Tan sdevda iq mosiarule moswavleebs, xolo roca yinulebTan da swavlasTan Sejibrebuli axalgazrdebi farTo cxovrebis asparezze gavidnen, Tan gahyvaT brZolasTan Seupovrobis Widilis Zala, dainaxes Sromis fasi da im mogonebis sixaruli, maT cnobierebaSi ganumeorebel mSvenier samyaros hqmnida mudam. ilikos ar ganucdia is amaRlebuli saTavgadasavlo samijnuro ambebi, romelic saocari iyo Tavisi siRrmiT, umanko Tavisi sispetakiT da lamazi Tavisi SinaarsiT: es mSvenieri siyvaruli mTeli Tavisi momxibvlelobiT Zalian Sors dgas xmauriani qalaqis binadar axalgazrdaTa siyvarulisgan. igi qvian SukebSi mimaluli faruli siyvarulia, fexaudgmeli da norCi. es siyvaruli sufTaa, rogorc mTis wyaro, radgan am siyvaruls bunebasTan siaxlovis saocrad mSvenieri ubraloeba axlavs xolme. ilikos mexsierebidan TandaTan waiSala rionis adidebiT gamowveuli ukmayofiloebis grZnoba, romelic ganuyofelia yoveli zafxulis dasawyisSi. Tumca arc auRelvebia, magram man TamTas werilidan Seityo, rom WioraSi axladCamoyalibebul koleqtivSi misi amayi mama Sevida. isic icoda, rom simonas, romelsac ymawvilkacobaSi alagirSi ramdenime duqani hqonda da vel-mindvrebic bevri SesZina sagvareulos, xalisiT ar gaakeTebda saqmes. Tumca icnobda mis amay xasiaTs, mas mezoblebisgan ukan CamorCena ar uyvarda. koleqtivSi Sesvlis win mwyralad gadaxeda mezoblebs da Tqva: _ Tqven ra ggoniaT, maxaroblianT simona TqvenisTana bogano xom ar aris, carieli jibiT da SiSveli fexebiT Sevides erTo- 383 -

baSi, ariqa, miSveleT, fexebze qalamnebi CamacviTo. iyo dro, zemo raWaSi meruseTe kaci fasobda da vaJkacuri qudi exura. axla axali dro dadga da da kakos Svilo arc amaSi CamogrCebi. - raRac muqarasaviT miaZaxa prezidiumSi mjdar gabriels da Tan ori SviliviT nazardi mozveri Seiyvana. ilom TamTas werilebidan Seityo, rom gabrieli raionis partiis sapasuxismgeblo adgilze daniSnes partiuli skolidan dabrunebis Semdeg. Tebrolem Rebis saSualo skola daamTavra da swavla umaRles saswavlebelSi ganagrZo. diax! ilikos bevri ram waeSala mexsierebidan, Tan ver gaigo da verc Caswvda im swrafvas, rac revoluciam moutana mTis adamianis Segnebas. Seicvala dro da Seicvala adamianic, magram misi buneba, romelic aRvsili iyo sxvadasxvagvari romantikuli TanSerwymiT, veraferma Sescvala. dRes ufro yinvaa loRorulis wverze da iqidan monaber qars TviT zafxulis TveebSi zamTris suni moaqvs. dResac isev moRelavs da Tan moaqvs uzarmazari RorRi rions, isev ifanteba Wioris WalebSi lodebsa da yinulebs gamoqceuli mdinare da umowyalod spobs xe-tyes. drodadro isev moswydeba sofeli qveyanas, Semdeg agugundeba axali manqanebi da sicocxle ubrundebaT daRvarul gzebs, sofels, xalxs. TovlSi Cafluli saxlebidan isev scviva damZimebuli namqeri. beRlebi avsilia xorageuliT da did RameebSi saCeCelTan Tavmoyrili mezoblebi saqmoben, Tan enas isveleben laparakiT. isev ismis taS-fanduris xma. isev gugunebs omaxiani miZaxili da mSvenieri siyvarulis Cangze amRerebuli gulis xvaSiadis gamxelaSi exmareba axalgazrdebs. iliko arc imiT aRelvebula, Wioris Walebs pirveli avtomobili rom miadga. zvaviviT moaskda soflis axalgazrdoba da Tavqve daeSva am moZravi sakvirvelebis sanaxavad. gareT gamosuli Wiorlebi ufro dinjad Camovidnen kakosZirSi da TavaweviT gadaxedes zevidan gakvirvebul Tanasoflelebs. cota mogvianebiT ki, roca sofelSi saqmisadmi orguli adamianebic gaCndnen da Tavis jibis gasqelebisTvis daiwyes zrunva, sanaxSoze gamosulma maxaroblianT simonam, romelic mudam atarebda Tavis mrgvalTavian Sav joxs da romliTac erT dros Tavic mohqonda. mezoblebs mwyralad gadaxeda da brazianad Tqva: _ uyure am mamaZaRlebsa? qurdobas xaltura daarqves da Tavi moaqvT, qurdebi ara varTo. erTi miTxariT, maT Soris ra gansxvavebaa? mTeli Crdilo kavkasia movlili maqvs da ar maxsovs, qrTami mimeca vinmesTvis, arc me amiRia arasdros. mamaZaRlebo,
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qrTams rom ufrosi aiRebs, xom wavida qveynis saqme ukuRma. umcrosi xom wamoajdeba Tavze da ravarc unda, ise iparpaSebs. maxaroblianT simona erTi imaTgani iyo, vinc didi sixaruliT ar Sexvedria bolSevizmis Semosvlas. mTaze gadasulma kacma ver gaigo is sikeTe, romelic Tan mohyveboda am revolucias. magram amayi bunebis moxucma igrZno, rom raRac moxda cxovrebaSi. axal dros sWirdeboda axali adamianebi da Tumca mis mxrebs samoci weli awva, mainc gadawyvita, ar CamorCenoda cxovrebas da es gaakeTa pirvel rigSi, wminda adamianuri Rirsebis gamosaCenad. _ me maSinac pirveli viyavi da axlac. - ityoda Zunwad ,magram qedmaRlurad simona. ufro gvian ki, mas eWvi aRar epareboda im sikeTeSi, romelic revoluciam moutana ara marto qveyanas, aramed loRoluris wverTan Sekedlebul Wioras. ilikom erTxel aseTi baraTic miiRo disgan. mas TamTas cremlebic gamohyoloda aTas kilometrebze. iliko, Zmao! minda, guSindeli dRe zustad agiwero, radgan igi Cems mexsierebaSi samudamod darCeba ise, rogorc darCa Seni saxe, mixos saflavis jvarze miyrdnobili rom hkortnidi miwas. isic maxsovs, Sen miwa aiRe da Seinaxe. me SegekiTxe da ar mipasuxe, Tu risTvis moiqeci ase. albaT gimZimda, gamogenaxa ubralo sityvebi pasuxisaTvis. me xom sul bavSvi viyavi maSin. axla ki didi var da vici, ra Zvirfasia igi SenTvis. guSin marto aviare kviracxovlisken amavali sacalfexo gza. gzis Ziridan mixos samaremde ise avedi, araferi migrZvnia. ar davRlilvar, radgan meCveneboda, isev Sen migyavdi mxrebze Sesmuli, rogorc maSin, bavSvobisas. avedi da roca davxede samares, guli Semiqanda. gamxmari yvavilebi ewyo gulze. ar vici, rodis miitana iseni Tebrolem. is ki vici, rom ukanasknelad miitana. me aviRe is gamxmari yvavilebi, xelis gulze davsrise da ise mivayare mixos. dae, es yvavilebi miwad iqces, dae, is siyvarulic gaifantos, romelic dRemde anugeSebda mis saxes. me arasodes vtiri, roca masTan avdivar. axla ar SemeZlo, ar metira. dRemde, vidre mis saflavze vxedavdi cocxal yvavilebs, megona, rom igi sadRac Cvens Soris idga uxilavad da es mamSvidebda mudam. dRes mivxvdi saSinel WeSmaritebas. Turme mxolod Tavs vityuebdi. Sen didi xania daSordi aqaurobas. ar gsayveduoeb, Tu xmauriani da ufro keTilmowyobili cxovreba airCie. magram ar SeiZleba ar Segaxseno is, rom deda da mama berdebian da SeiZleba
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mogenatros maTi naxva. me isRa damrCenia, xSirad viaro mixosTan. is arsad wava, me da is erTad davberdebiT aq. guSin ki, roca mivxvdi, rom is miwa, romelic mixos mkerds hfaravs da romelic yvela miwisgan gamoirCeva, Cveulebrivi miwaa, samaris miwa, mixo ki aRar aris ubralod. ubralod Tavs vimSvidebT, roca mis saflavTan mivdivarT. hoda, axla iq asvlis survilic damekarga. dRes, diliT, gabrielis ezoSi Tebrole trialebda. roca Caviare, Tvali avaride, magram mainc SevamCnie, rogor yurebamde gauwiTlda saxe. ezos karTan moiWra da damiZaxa. mec Sevtrialdi da davinaxe, mis TvalebSi cremlebi rogor brwyinavdnen. gadavexvie da bedniereba guliT mivuloce. iliko, Zmao, nu SeviZulebT mas. Tebroles isev uyvars mixo. Seni da, TamTa. _ mas isev uyvars mixo. - Cailaparaka ilikom. mixo, Zmao! - is sabediswero tragikuli dRe samudamod darCa mis azrovnebaSi. mixos mogonebis dro, Tvalebdanisluli, Sekruli warbebiT icqireboda Sors, magram mis gulTan mudam axlos mdebare kviracxovlisaken. iliko CamoSorda yvelafers, mSobliur keras da mSoblebs, mosiyvarule daikosa da megobrebs, maTgan Sors daido bina. yvela adamians aqvs Tavisi bedniereba da sixaruli, sxvisgan SeumCneveli gancdebi da sxvisagan damaluli samyaro. ilikom SesZlo, es bednieri da TavisTavadi sixaruli enaxa. is swavlobda, cxovrobda ubralo cxovrebiT, Tavisi sixaruliT, Tavisi mwuxarebiT da gulis siRrmesTan ganuSorebeli natvriT, Sors darCenili mSobliuri kerisadmi. iliko bavSvobidanve alal - marTali gulis patroni iyo da aseTive darCa sikvdilamde.
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isidore CixlaZe moxucda da rac pensiaze gavida, baRis movliT dakavda. iliko xSirad akiTxavda xolme, radgan rostovSi yofnis dros misTvis yvelaze axlobeli adamiani iyo. ilikom samuSao Seicvala. axali restornis gamge warmoSobiT belorusi iyo da minskSic cxovrobda. _ zafxuls col-Svils aq Camoviyvan. - sxvaTaSoris uTxra alioSam ilikos. alioSas swori Tlili cxviri da sasiamovno Sesaxedaobis pirisaxe hqonda. eqvsiode wliT iqneboda masze ufrosi. alioSam marTlac Camoiyvana im zafxuls col-Svili. Tan erTi qaliSvilic Camohyva.
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im saRamos iliko estumra _ Cemi colis daa.- gaacno alioSam roca maT erTmaneTs Sexedes, gaeRimaT da es Rimili maT cxovrebaSi siyvarulis dasawyisi gaxda. iliko roca Tavis daqiravebul oTaxSi dabrunda, bevri ifiqra da gulma ugrZno, rom bolos da bolos naxa is nanatri ubralo, magram mSvenieri bedniereba, romelsac amdeni xnis manZilze eswrafvoda. mTeli Rame ocnebaSi gaatara. amis Semdeg saRamoobiT xSirad isxdnen grZel skamze saxlis win da TavianT cxovrebaze saubrobdnen. _ wels davamTavreb samedicino saswavlebels. ar vici, sad gadamanawileben... _ ,,CemTan. ra Tqma unda CemTan. - undoda eTqva, magram Tavi Seikava. es iyo ilikos cxovrebaSi yvelaze bednieri xana. yvelaze lamazi sicocxlis erTi wuTi. am bednierebis gaxsenebis Semdegac bevrjer imrTelebda gabzarul guls. kino, Teatri da sayvarel adamianTan gatarebuli saRamoebi mis mogonebas mudam avsebda xan netarebiT, xan mwuxarebiT. es wuTebi da Semdeg kidev ramdenime weli iyo is amaRlebuli periodi, rasac Tamamad SeiZleba ewodos `bedniereba~. movida maTi minskSi wasvlis droc. alioSas meuRle, Sura grZnobda, rom misi umcrosi disTvis arc Tu ise saxarbielo iyo aqedan wasvla. erT saRamos, yvavilebiT xelSi iliko gamoecxada da mokled uTxra, rom valentinas colad SerTva surda. _ valentina, Tanaxmaa? - SeekiTxa Sura. _ ra Tqma unda. is Tqvens pasuxs elis. _ mere moawereT xeli. patara vaxSmiT daloces axladSeuRlebulni da uxmaurod daiwyes cxovreba. _ iSviaTi qali iyo valentina. - igonebda Semdeg iliko meuRleze. mas vuyvardi mTeli guliT. Cven erTi TefSidan vsadilobdiT mTeli cxovrebis manZilze. wlisTavze vaJiSvili SeeZinaT, xolo ori wlis Semdeg buTxuza qaliSvilis deda gaxda. rogorRac moxda, rom ori wlis anatoli SurasTan datoves, vinaidan gogona xSirad avadmyofobda. Suras meti dro da saSualeba hqonda mixmareboda umcros das biWis aRzrdaSi. iliko xSirad naxulobda vaJiSvils. Cahqonda sabavSvo saTamaSoebi, xelSi aiyvanda da gulSi ikravda. am dros anatoli sami wlisa iyo da bundovnad darCa igi mexsierebaSi. im wels movida TamTas werili. aq ki sayvedurs aRar malavda da
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iwereboda, mamas SeiZleba veRarc mouswro cocxalso. ilikom pirvelad igrZno sindisis qenjna. guli etkina, roca Tavisi Tavi im Svilad igrZno, romlebsac maSin agondebaT mSoblebi, roca sWirdebaT, xolo mSoblebs mudam axsovT Svilebi. gadawyvita, saqarTveloSi wasuliyo da Tan col-Svilic waeyvana. gamgzavrebis Tadarigi valentinam daiWira. man yvelas saCuqari uyida. ar daviwyebia arc Tebrole. sofia cota amrezili Sexvda rus rZals. _ rusis qali Svilsac gamirusebs da SviliSvilebsaco, magram roca valentina axlos gaicno, inana, ratom vawyenine Svilso. TamTam ki, samudamod Seinaxa ucxo qalisadmi gulwrfeli siyvaruli. ori Tve dahyves sofelSi. ilikos TvalSi epatarava saxlebi, eviwrova xeoba da erTmaneTze gadaxlarTuli mTagrexilebi. valentina moixibla mTebis siaxloviT. ruseTis ukidegano mindvrebTan SedarebiT mTebis siaxlovem ganumeorebeli STabeWdileba dastova. magram qali sacxovreblad mainc ar darCeboda iq. rac ar unda iyos, Wiora raWis mTis sofeli iyo, romelsac Tan hqonda wunwuxisa da nakelis suni, romelsac hqonda atalaxebuli quCebi da isev idgnen buxris kvamlisagan gaWvartluli saxlebi. ruseTis cxovreba eZaxda maT da is iyo, wasasvlelad moemzadnen, rom Suras werili miiRes. idga 1941 wlis zafxulis pirveli Tvis pirveli naxevari. es is dro iyo, roca TviT Wioris WaleebTanac mosuliyo dasavleTis sazRvrebidan moaxlovebuli mtris rkinis Ceqmis xmis eqo da Seufiqrianebia oxunjobisaTvis gaCenili alal adamianTa suli. Svilis CamosvliT gamojanmrTelebuli da gaaxalgazrdavebuli simona jiutad urtyamda joxs iataks da Sefiqrianebuli kiTxulobda. _ viTom qe gabedavs sazRvris gadmovlas? Suras werilic ar iyo mTlad saxarbielo. moaxlovebuli omis safrTxeze gakvriT werda da urCevda, saswrafod ukan dabrunebuliyvnen. _ ar waxvideT, Torem arc Sen gagaCereben. omSi wagiyvanen - SiSiT eubneboda rZals. varaudobda, rom misi profesia aucilebeli iyo omisaTvis. _ ara, mama. axla vin gabedavs oms. panika iqneba, - amSvidebda mSoblebs iliko, Tumca kargi feri arc mas hqonda. _ e Rlapic qe gindaT waiyvanoT? - ikiTxa moxucma, roca oTaxidan patara bavSvis tirili moesma. col-qmarma erTmaneTs Sexedes. _ erTi alTas, meore balTas. i biWs ra oxrobaze tovebdiT? usayvedura Svils simonam. rZalma ver gaugo mamamTils. _ ra Tqva?
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_ ratom is biWic Tan ar wamoiyvaneTo. _ ho. ai, kargi ki iyo.. _ hoda, Tu RmerTi gwamT, ravarc CaxvideT da SeatyoT saqmes sxvanairoba, im wuTSive aq gaaCineT i biWi. qveyana rom daiqces, Wioramde araferi amova. Tanac rioni Tu adidda, vin geimetebs Tavs dasaxrCobad. e baRana ki aq iyos. iqiT rava gagatanT. - Tqva simonam da Casuqebul gogonas gaxeda, romelic TamTas hyavda Caxutebuli. _ bavSvi datoveo? - SeekiTxa gakvirvebuli qali qmars. _ mere ra uSavs. magisTanebi ar dazrdilan Wioris quCebSi? Tu mSvidoba iqna, CamovalT da waviyvanT. _ ese igi, bavSvis datovebas fiqrob, iliko? _ me vfiqrob, ase ajobebs. valentinam gogona qaliSvils CamoarTva da sTxova qmars, gamgzavreba dilisaTvis gadaedoT. im saRamos xelidan ar gauSvia patara, saRamos dabana da daawvina. vaxSami sofiom moamzada. sufras ar aklda moxarSuli dedali da wiTlad gamosuli lori, qadebi da xaWapurebi, saxlSi ornaxadi arayi da qvemo raWidan kartofilSi gadacvlili xvanWkara. simonam xeli WaRara wverze daisva. mas wesisamebr adgili mudam TavSi hqonda da sufris yvela wevri mas misCereboda. vidre is Wiqas ar aiRebda, kovzisaken xels veravin gawvdida. am saRamos ki simona ratomRac igvianebda Wiqis aRebas, raRacas fiqrobda, danarCenebic ar iyvnen WamisaTvis ganwyobili. sofio rZals SesCereboda TvalebSi, romelic Zal-Rones ikrefda, cremlebi ar wamosvloda. TamTa ki patara gogos arwevda da Tvals ar aSorebda Zmis fermkrTal saxes. simona ki minskSi darCenil anatolize fiqrobda da sufra, romlis ucvleli xelmZRvanelic iyo mudam, sul daviwyeboda. valentinas cremli moswyda da loyaze Camougorda, sofiom xeli gaiwvdina qalisaken. _ Wame, Svilo! bavSvze ar idardo. valentinam cremli Seiwminda. Tavisi TeTri rbili xeli dedamTilis xels waavlo da madlierebis grZnobiT mouWira. Tavs Zala daatana, rom gaeRima, magram roca Svilis akvnisaken gaixeda, kvlav sevda daeufla. _ ase mgonia, Cems gogonas veRarasodes vnaxav. - gaifiqra da muxlebi aukankalda. mTeli Rame gulze hyavda mixutebuli da Cumad elaparakeboda. bavSvs eZineboda. deda ki amis saSualebas ar aZlevda. Rrma Zilma mxolod gaTenebisas mostaca Tvali. mwvane jejili irxeoda misi mSobliuriukrainis sofelSi. iq, sadac am ramdenime wlis winaT cxovrobda mamasTan da ufros dasTan erTad. jejili irxeoda da yana zRvasaviT Relavda. qali erTbaSad
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moixibla am momajadoebeli simwvaniT. mama dimitri TeTrad Selesili saxlis win ijda da Cibuxs abolebda. moWutuli TvaliT Sescqeroda yvavilidan gamosul vaSlis nayofs. TeTri ukrainuli moqargulsayeloiani perangi da Zveleburi Ceqmebi ecva. oficrad msaxurobda mefis ruseTis dros. yanidan valentina ilikos eloda da yvavilebs wnavda... Zlieri qari amovarda da qalma SeamCnia sadRac Sors, yanis boloSi Savi boli yvelafers moedo. mis sofels, saxls, mama dimitris da masac. ilikos eZaxda saSvelad, magram ver miawvdina xma. sakuTarma yvirilma gamoaRviZa qali. ilikos gogona TavisTan daewvina da Rrmad eZina. erTbaSad isev kvamlSi gaxveuli mama dimitri daudga Tvalwin da gaaJrJola. dilamde aRar dasZinebia. diliT, roca adga, ukve aRar wuxda bavSvis datovebas. `netav, anatolic aq iyos Cailaparaka da ukve samgzavrod gamzadebulma yvelas gadaxeda. bavSvs eZina oTaxSi. deda ar gasula masTan gamosamSvidobeblad. karebamde mivida, Semotrialda. yvela saTiTaod CaaTvaliera. mamamTili da dedamTili. TamTa da ilikoc. mas Sindisferi qiSmiris kaba ecva welSi gamoyvanili da moxdenil tans uCenda. mokled SeWrili Tmebi jiutad win CamoSloda. cisferi Tvalebi, diax! is cisferi Tvalebi, romlebic wuxel icremlebodnen, saocrad damSvidebuli gamoiyurebodnen. mokumul tuCebze simkacre gaCeniliyo, xolo mTel saxeze ilikom dainaxa raRac gadawyvetilebis miRebis mTeli arsi. ezoSi gavida da sxvebic Tan gaiyola. alayafis karebTan Sedga da dedamTils Sexeda. _ dabrundi, deda... sofiom Tvalebze momdgari cremli Tavsafris boloTi Seiwminda da rZali gadahkocna. roca mamamTils miubrunda, simonam joxi gaaqnia da rZals rusulad uTxra: _ Cven rionamde CagyvebiT. valentina ise Cavida rionamde, ise gamoemSvidoba simonasa da TamTas, rom wuwuni ar dascdenia, ar dauCivlia, arc Svili Caubarebia vinmesTvis. danarCenebi ki fiqrobdnen, netav, ratom ar gamoemSvida gogonas dedao. ufro mogvianebiT, roca matarebeli rostovisaken mihqroda, ilikom RimiliT uTxra cols, me megona, isterikebs astexdi bavSvTan gamomSvidobebisaso. valentinam amoioxra, fanjaraSi gaixeda da Cailaparaka: _ me anatolis bedi ufro mawuxebs. _ axlave wavideT minskSi. _ ara, ilo. ar SemiZlia. aucileblad mamasTan unda wavide.
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_ eg, rogor? _ TviTon ar vici, rogor. nurc SemekiTxebi. amis pasuxi ar momeZebneba. ase mgonia, mamas raRac uWirs. _ iqneb, gvenaxa anatoli da SurasTan erTad gadagvewyvita, - Seecada qmari Sesityvebas, magram cols sityva veRar gadaaTqmevina. roca iliko minskSi gasamgzavreblad matarebelSi unda Camjdariyo, qalma gulTan miitana xeli da mTeli am daZabulobis periodSi pirvelad mimarTa TxovniT. _ Seecade, anatolic iq waiyvano. _ ra mogivida? kaci ifiqrebs, omSi mivdivarT. - daamSvida qmarma. iliko didxans xedavda mokled SeWril Tmebsa da zeviT aSveril xels. Semdeg isic sadRac Sors darCa. axladgaRviZebul qalaqs matarebeli miadga. jer kidev yvela dawesebulebis kari daketili iyo, mxolod sadgurSi ireoda xalxi. bavSvebs eZinaT, roca karebi gauRo Suram. _ Cqara Camoxvedi. me ki jer ar gelodiT. _ rogor xarT Sura? _ jer-jerobiT, kargad! - Tqva qalma udardelad, ise rogorc ambobdnen xumrobis dros, magram sityvam ,,jer-jerobiT yurTan ucnaurad gaiJRera da qalma gulis ficarTan yru tkivili igrZno. _ ar gavCerebulvarT. valentina poltavaSi wavida. _ risTvis? _ mamaze dardobda. _ ho . akulina mwerda. revmatizmi awuxebso. anatolim Tvalebi gaaxila. roca iliko dainaxa, gaiRima da baliSze gaitruna. mama Svils miuaxlovda da xelSi aiyvana. _ saswrafod bavSvi saqarTveloSi waiyvaneo, damibara. _ antonina sad aris? _ davtoveT. _ ras ambob? Zalian ar SeSinebulxarT? iqneb, yvelaferma ubralod Caiaros. sawolidan nina Camovida, ilikosTan mivida da uTxra. _ roca manqanas iyidi anatolisTvis, mec momitane. anatoli iseTi moCxubaria, rom Tavisi manqaniT ar maTamaSebs. nina anatolize ori wliT ufrosi iyo. _ alioSas rodis eli? _ vfiqrob, dRes Camova. _ masac xom ar gaugzavne werili? mSvenieri saSualeba gamogigonia TavSeyrisTvis. maSin sjobia, erTi-ori boTli Rvino movitano da es dRe Rirseulad aRvniSnoT. _ dajeqi, geTayva, moisvene. mag sakiTxze me vizruneb. iliko taxtze Camojda, Tan bavSvebi muxlis Tavze daisva.
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meore dRes iliko quCaSi gavida. zafxulis mSvenieri dila iyo, xalxiT avsebuliyo qalaqi da samuSaod miiCqarodnen. sicocxe Cveulebrivi tempiT sCqefda da gaukvirda, saidan mouvida azrad raimis SiSi. iliko xalxis talRas gahyva. igi am dilis damaxasiaTebelma cxovrebam Tavisi gavlenis qveS moaqcia. zogi samuSaoze dagvianebis SiSiT mwyralad gascqeroda dagvianebul avtobuss, zogi axladgaRebul sasursaTo maRaziaSi garboda CanTebiT xelSi. zogi rZis rigs ikavebda naadrevad. maTi saxeebi sxvadasxva saxiT gamoxatavdnen molodins. ilikom xelmarcxniv gadauxvia. am saxlis iqiT sasursaTo maRazia iyo. sasursaTo maRaziisken ramdenime diasaxlisi miiCqaroda. haeri diqtoris mkveTrma xmam daarRvia da iliko Sedga. erTxans gaognebulma miugdo yuri im xmas, romelic haerSi iRvreboda. kedels mieyrdno. TvalebdaxuWuli idga da ismenda. roca Tvali gaaxila, igrZno, rom gaxevebul adamianTa mokumuli saxeebi arafriT gansxvavdebodnen erTmaneTisagan. weRandeli zRvari sixarulisa da ukmayofilebas Soris, tkivilsa Tu aRSfoTebas avtobusis droze mousvlelobis gamo, zRvari dilis yoveldRiuri saqmianobisa da gamyidvelis gamoxedvas Soris mTlianad gamqraliyo da axla ilikos mexsierebamde aRar aRwevdnen ukve nanaxi saxeebi. aseul adamianTa saxeebi mokumuli tuCebiT mkacrad Sescqeroda im wertils, saidanac es xma ismoda. _ RmerTo, Cemo! - aRmoxda ilikos da erTi wuTiT Tavisi daqsasuli, oTx sxvadasxva kuTxeSi gamoketili ojaxi daudga Tvalwin. arc ki icoda, romeli iyo amaTgan yvelaze usafrTxo adgilas. ...ilikos Tmebi aswewoda, saxe gafiTreboda da ise brundeboda ukan. Ria karebSi SeSfoTebuli Sura idga. _ omi! omi! - raRac RrialiviT amoscda Suras da siZes mkerdze mieyrdno. roca Suram ilikos Sexeda, mas Tmebic ki uTrToda.
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saSineli omis pirveli dReebi- am sityvebis iqiT ki dgas SemaZrwunebeli xvedri adamianebisa, visac wilad xvda am ubedurebis msxverpli an mowme gamxdariyo. am sityvebis iqiT aris udanaSaulo da mSvidobiani mosaxleobis ganadgureba, dasaxiCrebuli gvamebi, nawamebi saxeebi, sisxliT gasvrili xelebi. am sityvebis iqiT aris erTbaSad SemoWrili mtris kanonebi, maTi Ceqmebis qveS gaTelili, pirveli marcxiT miyenebuli moraluri Tavmoyvareoba. maTraxis qveS samuSaod garekil mcxovrebTa daRlili saxeebi da germanuli aRWurvilobiT SemkrTali SekiTxvebi. _ netav, Tu dabrundebian Cvenebi?
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ra Tqma unda, ar vecdebi vTqva axali ram omze, romelic hitlerma Tavs moaxvia milionobiT mSvidobian adamians, verc sityvebs movuZebni amas, rac xalxis Tavs datrialda. es istorias ekuTvnis, mravali qveynis xalxebis istorias, romlebmac didi xania gamoutanaT Tavisi ganaCeni. magram istoriac da didi da patara qveynis xalxebic TiToeuli adamianebisgan Sedgeba. iseTi adamianebisaganac, vinc faSizmisagan ixsna qveyana, vinc daeca TavisuflebisaTvis brZolaSi da TviTon gaxda istoriis kuTvnileba, magram iyvnen adamianebi, ubralo cxovrebiT rom cxovrobdnen. isini gmirebad ar dabadebulan, magram mTeli saSinelebiT gadaitanes Tavis Tavze is autaneli xvedri meomrebisa, romelic hitlerma gamoigona maTi sulisa da xorcis gadasarCenad. minda, Zalian mokrZalebulad vTqva, rom aseTi omgadaxdilni Tu gmirebi ara, vaJkacebi mainc arian. omis saSinelebis pirveli dReebi mTeli simZimiT daawva raWidan wasul maxaroblianT ilikosac. man 1941 wlis 22 ivniss miiRo iaraRi da Cairicxa ukrainis frontis 631 saartilerio polkSi. polki ibrZoda kievis maxloblad dneprispireTSi. brZola borcvis gadaRma ori kilometriT daSorebul teritoriaze mimdinareobda. Cvenebs uWirdaT. ukve meramdene dRe iyo, rac mters umklavdebodnen. sadilobis dro iyo. ilikos brZolis xazze meomrebisaTvis sursaTi unda moetana. omis dawyebis pirveli dRidanve igi am movaleobas asrulebda. tyviebis da saartilerio qvemexTa setyvaSi mihqonda mebrZoleebisaTvis sakvebi. agvistos miwuruli iyo. im dRes wvimda. miwuridan gasulma ilikom yurebze qudi Camoiwia, yurze Camoikida da win wavida. borcvamde gza daculi iyo, xolo imis Semdeg gza tyviebis wvimasa da naRmebis afeTqebebs Soris unda gaevlo. tyis piras upatronod mitovebuli Casuqebuli cxenebi Zovdnen da wiTlad ubzinavdaT tani. TeTr, lamaz fexebs miwaze abakunebdnen, xolo yurebs maSin dacqvetdnen, roca afeTqebis xma gaismoda. _ bednierebi. ra kargia, rom maT ar ician, ra aris omi. - gaifiqra ilikom, roca maT gausworda, nabijs moumata. zeviT nacnobi xma moesma. _ isev! - gaifiqra brazianad, myisve miwaze gawva da xoxviT daiwyo winsvla. is xelmarjvniv gzidan daSorebul bilikze mixoxavda. winidan motocikletis xma Semoesma. Tavi aswia. _ Cvenia! - isev gaagrZela winsvla. borcvamde rCeboda naxevari kilometri. TviTmfrinavi sazizRar wres xazavda mis Tavze. Tavi aiRo, radgan SeamCnia, rom evakuirebuli xalxi ukan iwevda. aseT nawameb saxeebs, bavSvebis SeSinebul Tvalebs da qalebis mrisxaned mokumul tuCebs is yoveldRe xedavda. ukan ixevda, yvela visac SeeZlo, gascloda aqaurobas.
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ltolvilebi grZel mwkrivad miemarTebodnen gzis erT mxares. gzis meore mxare samxedro manqanebisaTvis iyo gankuTvnili. tankebis xma Semoesma. _ Cvenebi arian. nuTu, Cveni nawili ukan ixevs?- gaifiqra da wamodga. _ diax. eseni Cveni polkebi arian. _ nabrZanebia, ukan davixioT. dabrundi, - moesma xma ilikos. iliko motrialda, tankisaken gaiqca, rom zed Semxtariyo, magram zevidan wamosulma cecxlma Zirs daagdo. roca wamoiwia, misi polkelebi win iyvnen, mis nacvlad axla axali nawilebis nakadi ixevda ukan da maTken gaiqca. _ iliko! - moesma nacnobi xma. _ valentina! - aRmoxda ilikos, CanTa zurgidan moixsna da misken gaiqca. qali manqanis mxridan Camoxta da ilikos yelze Camoekida. _ xom kargad xar? manqana ar SeCerebula. nela ixevdnen ukan. iliko da valentina fexiT mosiaruleebs SeuerTdnen. _ minski daikaves! - wasCurCula im imediT rom, coli raime axals etyoda anatolis Sesaxeb. _ vici. nina mama dimitrisTan aris. nataSam Camoiyvana. _ danarCenebi? - Tqva ilikom da sunTqvaSekruli Sedga. valentina Tvaldauxamxameblad SesCereboda qmars. ilikom moaswro, daenaxa is Rarebi, romelic axlaxan gasCenoda. man xeli waavlo xelSi ilikos da nawyvet-nawyvetad uTxra. _ gamagrdi iliko. anatoli dabombvaSi moxvda. _ is aRar aris? - SiSiT gaufarTovda Tvalebi. _ aRar arian. Sura da anatoli daiRupnen. TviTmfrinavTa wyebam Tavisi frTebiT dahfares miwa. _ Sexede...magram davbrundebiT...- daiyvira valentinam. _ daweqi, valentina. - xeli Caavlo da orive miwaze gawvnen. meserSmidtebi uSendnen cecxls gzas, romelzec ltolvilTa da ukan daxeul meomarTa grZeli qaravani miemarTeboda samxreTisaken. risi gakeTebac ver moaswro artileriam, cis mekobreTa saSinelma manqanam daasrula. igi yvelas spobda, vinc ki cdilobda gaqceoda am manqanas... ...karga xania, rac aRar iyo xmauri. axla igi, sadRac samxreTisaken ismoda da Zlivs aRwevda ilikos yurebamde. yurebi, Tavi, mxrebi raRacas daemZimebia da moZraobis unari waerTmia. mklavTan raRac Tbili siTxe iRvreboda tkiviliT ki araferi stkioda. wamoiwia. marjvena mklavi viRacas CabRauWeboda da mas Tavisi Tbili sisxliT aTbobda. Tavi gaaryia. siCume iyo irgvliv. samarisebulma siCumem jer gaaoca, Semdeg SeaSina. Semdeg mzera mklavze gadaitana. Wriloba didi ar iyo. Tvalebi daxuWa da erTbaSad yvelaferi moagonda. Tavi
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wamoswia, miwaSi damarxuli mxrebi gaiTavisufla da iqiT gaixeda, sadac mis xelze meuRlis sxeuli awva. daxeda... _ gamagrdi, iliko! Suri iZie anatolisaTvis! is aRar aris. - Sescqeroda gacivebuli da Riad darCenili cisferi Tvalebi. es Tvalebi im dawynarebul cas hgavda, axla rom edga zevidan. mis smenamde aRar aRwevda Soreuli qvemexis xma. mSvidad iwva, TiTqos udardelad. safeTqelTan ki mosCqefda sisxli da ilikos sisxls uerTdeboda. Semdeg orive sisxli ormoebad qceul miwaSi iJoneboda. _ valentina! - iRriala ilikom da mkerdze daeca. vin icis, rodemde egdeboda colis cxedarze goneba warTmeuli iliko, rom viRac meomari ar Sexebodes mis mxars. _ iliko, biWo, cocxali xar? - buranSi Caesma da Zlivs moego gons. misken Setrialda. gaocda, roca mis win misi sofleli da Tanatoli vano idga. _ Senc, vano?- Zlivs Tqva. usicocxlo TvalebiT Sexeda, - Sexede, Svilic, colic, ojaxic - marto me davrCi. raRaa Cemi sicocxle? _ marto Sen ara xar, iliko. mravalia Sens bedSi. - micvalebuls gadaxeda. es kidev ukeTesia. vin icis, Cven sad gviweria sikvdili. me da Seni mdgomareoba ufro cudia. Cven xom dakavebul zonaSi varT. isini dagviWeren da sicocxles gvawyevlineben. netavi Sen, rom Sens miwaze gergo saboloo bina. adeqi, sadme xis ZirSi davasaflavoT ubeduri. maTma artileriam ar mogvaswros. iliko wamodga. colis cxedari gulze miixuta da tyisaken wavida. anazdad Tvali gaayola im gzis bolos, weRan upatronod mitovebuli cxenebi rom Zovdnen balaxs. `ai, bednierebio - undoda eTqva, magram fiqri Suaze gauwyvita axalma sanaxaobam. yvela cxeni, fexebwaclili goraobdnen gadaTxril mindorSi. tyis piras Sedgnen, Tofis luliT gaTxares miwa. Zirs foTlebi daufines, zevidanac foTlebi daawyves,Semdeg xeliT waayares miwa. isini Rrmad Sevidnen tyeSi. cdilobdnen dnepramde misuliyvnen. Semdeg iqidan misi dinebis mimarTulebiT evloT. maT ar axsovdaT, ramdeni xani midiodnen. dakawruli xelebiT iSorebdnen eklebs. Tan smenadqceulni imis SiSSi iyvnen, germanelebs sadme ar wawydomodnen. vano win midioda. iliko ukan mihyveboda. mxrebi CamoSvebuli hqonda da mZime nabijebs adgamda. TviTon am wuTSi ver grZnobda risTvis, an sad midioda. valentinas saxe saSinlad awamebda. _ imitom Semaxvedra RmerTma masTan, rom Cems Tvalwin moeklaT? amaze fiqri hklavda. ar tiroda. tirili zogjer Svebas hgvris xolme adamians. mas amis gakeTeba ar SeeZlo. mwuxarebas gaeSro
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cremli, arc Sexveuli xeli stkioda. saerTod, yvela SegrZneba gamqraliyo masSi amJamad. Soridan afeTqebis xma aRwevda. _ axla, iqiT hklaven nadirebi. - usiamovnod gaifiqra. _ risTvis hklaven? - ukve omis dawyebidanve fiqrobda. ar SeeZlo Cawvdomoda am azrs. ar SeeZlo garkveuliyo, Tu risTvis ar sjerdebodnen ubralo, mSvid cxovrebas, vis sWirdeboda amdeni sisxli. arc imis Tavi hqonda, aRSfoTeba gamoexata yovelives gamo. tankebis xma SemoesmaT. SeCerdnen. vanos surda, garkveuliyo, saidan modioda igi. xma axlovdeboda da axlovdeboda. _ mgoni, gzas mivadeqiT. - uTxra ilikos. _ romel gzas? _ etyoba, am gziT Sedian mtris tankebi qveyanaSi. iliko vanos SesCereboda. raime gadawyvetilebis gamotana ar SeeZlo. vano Cafiqrebuli iyo. mosaRamovda, maT ki jer ar icodnen, sad iyvnen. erTi adamianic ar SexvedriaT, rom raime ekiTxaT. _ SevisvenoT, vWamoT rame da mere movifiqroT. Camosxdnen. vanom CanTidan Tevzis konservi da puri amoiRo. orive Suaze gaiyves Tanasoflelebma. danayrdnen. axla ukve swrafad SeeZloT moZraoba, magram ar icodnen, saiT wasuliyvnen. Tumca cxadi iyo, rom dakavebul zonaSi imyofebodnen da TavisianebTan Sexvedra Zalian gauWirdebodaT. xmeli fiCxi gatkacunda. Wiorlebi smenad iqcnen. kidev ganmeorda xma. mosalodneli iyo, yoveli xis iqiT mtris gamoCena. _ wyeulebi xom ar arian? - CaibuzRuna vanom da gairinda. foTlebi Seirxa da gamoCnda nayvavilari saxe. _ biWo, Cvenebi arian.! - kidev moesmaT CurCuli. ltolvilebma maTken miixedes. maT win sami sabWoTa jariskaci idga. erTmaneTs gadaexvivnen. _ ras fiqrobT? _ brZolis xazamde mivideT. _ rogor? - ikiTxa vanom. _ iqneba, maT Cvengan Sors gadainacvles. - gamoTqva azri nayvavilarma. _ vcadoT, siuSa. Sen aqauri xar da iqneba ici, axla sad varT. siuSa Cafiqrda. Tvali moWuta. _ dagvWirdeba cota ukan daxeva. iqiT Waobiani adgilia. im WaobiT unda visargebloT, Tu xidi daukavebelia, dneprs gadavlaxavT da mere soflebia. gviani iyo. gadawyvites, gza gaegrZelebiT meore dRisTvis. isini sakuTar farajebSi gaexvivnen da gverdigver miwvnen. mTvare mocuravda zeviT. misi sxivi odnav aRwevda tyis siRrmeSi da jariskacTa saxeebs erTmaneTisagan gasarCevs xdida. eZinaT frTxilad da TiToeuli foTlis rxevas ganicdidnen.
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iriJraJa. siuSam gaaRviZa isini. odnav danayrdnen da gzas gaudgnen. win siuSa miuZRvebodaT. joxi eWira da simardiT miiwevda win ekalbardebSi. Soridan dnepris xmac SemoesmaT. iqidan mdinaris qari qroda. _ ai, es adgilia. Waobi Rrmaa, magram buCqiani da iqneb gavaRwioT, - auxsnaT siuSam. - Tu xidze patruli ar dauyenebiT. _ es romel xidze, Cven rom gadmovediT? - ikiTxa vanom. _ ho! yvelam joxebi daiWires da WaobSi Sevidnen. buCqebis daxmarebiT SeiZleboda gasvla. megzuroba isev siuSam ikisra. _ erTxel gadavedi am gziT. iareT ise, rogorc me. sul bolos midioda vano. maT Rvarad CamosdiodaT ofli. es SiSis ofli iyo da ara daRlis. mkerdamde miapobdnen Waobs da garsSemoxveul balaxs iSorebdnen. vanos fexi daucda. iRbalze iliko megobrisaken swored am dros Setrialda. buCqs CaeWida erTi xeliT, xolo meore xeliT joxi gauwoda vanos. vanom xeli moavlo da ilikosken gadaiwia. _ Zlivs ar gadavrCi... - Cailaparaka vanom. roca napirze mividnen, siarulis Tavi aRar hqondaT, mosxletiT daecnen Zirs da Seisvenes. _ aba, biWebo. axla Tu RmerTic imaTken ar aris, xidamde xuTi kilometri darCa. iq vnaxav albaT cocxlad darCenilebs. SuadRe gadasuli iyo, roca saSinlad daRlili da nawamebi xuTeuli xids miadga. Semdeg mTeli cxovrebis manZilze ilikos mexsierebidan arasodes waSlila is, rac man da oTxma jariskacma Tavisi TvaliT naxa. am xidTan datrialebuli tragedia iyo yvela sazizRrobis erTad Tavmoyra, rac hitlers gamougonia Tavisi giJuri ocnebis gansaxorcieleblad. ver gaigebdi, ra sWarbobda, adamianTa dasaxiCrebuli gvamebi, Tu dneprSi samudamod damunjebuli tankebi. mkerdze mikruli bavSvebi, Riad darCenili Tvalebi, Tu cocxlad damarxuli gvamebi. es iyo sazareli ram, rac ilikom da misma amxanagebma naxes iq. erTxans gaognebuli idgnen da dascqerodnen am saSinel suraTs. irgvliv sikvdilis suni idga da Tavs yornebi dafrinavdnen. _ aq ver gadavalT. - isev siuSam gamoiyvana mdgomareobidan. _ rogorc vvaraudobdiT, brZolis xazi sakmao Sors gadaweula. - daaskvna vanom ise, rom Tvali ar mouSorebia am saSinelebisaTvis. rCeboda kidev erTi, Cahyolebodnen dneprs. saRamomde miadgnen patara borcvs, romlis wverodan kargad sCanda xidi. gadawyvites Soridan daezveraT. im wuTSive SeamCnies, rom xidze Tofmomarjvebuli patruli idga. _ xidi dakavebulia!
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radgan sxva gza ar iyo, meomrebma axlos misvla scades. _ mgoni, Cvenebi arian, ukrainelebi. - gadaulaparaka maT vanom. _ Cvenebi? - RvarZlianad Cailaparaka siuSam da daumata. - aq Cvenebs ra undaT. eseni moRalateebi arian. sxva gamosavali ar iyo. unda SeemowmebiaT isini. _ me waval, Tu gavedi, momyeviT, Tu ara da sxva gza naxeT gasasvlelad. - Tqva yvelasagan moulodnelad ilikom. axla misTvis sul erTi iyo, germanelis tyviiT mokvdeboda, Tu moRalatis xeliT. _ mec SenTan wamoval.- gverdiT amoudga vano, - Tu sikvdili gviweria, dae, erTad movkvdeT. _ ar Rirs vano, Cemi sicocxle ukve dasrulebulia mainc. patara TaTbiris Semdeg gadawyda, borcvis wverodan eTvalTvalaT ilikosa da vanosTvis, romlebic xidisaken daeSvnen. xids dauaxlovdnen Tu ara, Tofmomarjvebuli ori mamakaci gadmodga gzaze da ilikosa da vanos xidis piras daxvda. _ sabuTebi. - mokled iTxova erTma, ise rom, Tofi Zirs ar dauSvia. _ Cvenebi yofilxarT, biWebo. - viTom sixaruliT aRmoxda vanos, Tumca kargad icoda, rogori Cvenebic iyvnen isini. man icoda isic, rom am ukrainel wiTuras yovel wuTSi SeeZlo oriveni germanelisaTvis gadaeca. _ Tqven vina xarT?- ikiTxa ironiiT Tofmomarjvebulma da mowodebuli sabuTebi SeaTvaliera. _ Cven Tqvenebi varT, sabWoTa jariskacebi. Cven xom erTad vibrZodiT kievis misadgomebTan. - kvlav wailesa ena vanom da kidev Seecada fandiT gasxltomoda maT. _ aba, bevrs nu ybedob! nabrZanebia, sabWoTa jaris narCenebi germanelebs gadavceT. iaraRi ahyareT da waiyvaneT. _ or-ori miscvivdnen da saswrafod ganaiaraRes iliko da vano. _ `Suri iZie anatolisTvis! - dnepris talRebs mohyva es xma da ilikos tanSi gaaJrJola. borcvze darCenilebma tyisken ibrunes piri. _ biWebo, Cven xom erTad vibrZodiT kievisaTvis. _ axla ki nabrZanebia, Tqven ibrZoloT germanelebisaTvis. _ fiqrobT, Cvenebi aRar dabrundebian? _ ha,ha,ha. - moskovs urtyamen, kavkasias moswyveten da es ki fiqrobs, Cvenebi dabrundebiano... ilikos tvinSi auvarda cecxli. azri mouvida, elvis siswrafiT Tavs dasxmoda da moekla, magram nervebi moToka. _ gana, erTis mokvla SurisZiebaa? - gaifiqra man. axla gadawyvita, sul sxva ramiT moego maTi guli. _ Cemi meuRle Cerkaskis olqidanaa. dneprispira xutorSi cxovrobs. netav, iqamde manZili kidev Sorsaa? iqamde gvindoda misvla,
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Torem sabWoTa nawils rom ver SevuerTdebodiT, eg ki vicodiT. _ visi Svilia Tqveni meuRle? _ dimitrisi. ilikom gakvirvebiT Sexeda mosaubres. man Tofi Zirs dauSva da xeliT aniSna danarCenebs, moSorebodnen. _ Sen valentinas qmari xar? ratom maSinve ver mivxvdi. ilikom TvalebSi Caxeda. misi meuRlis Riad darCenili Tvalebi isev Sehyurebda. vin iyo netav es germanul qurqSi gaxveuli moRalate? ar ucdia, rogorme daefara zizRi, roca mixvda, saqme hqonda valentinas erT-erT naTesavTan. _ ho, asea! valentina ki guSin Cemi xeliT davasaflave verxvis qveS. is sahaero dabombvisas gardaicvala. - es iseTi siZulviliT uTxra, rom igrZno, colis sikvdilSi masac sdebda brals. _ mokvda? omi... ras izam?...omma msxverpli icis. _ icis, icis msxverpli... gana Cven TviTon movediT? Tavs mogvaxvies es omi...Tumca es gamagebine, Sen vina xar? - SeekiTxa iliko. _ nataSas qmari. bolo dros ukmayofileba gvqonda... ilikos tanSi Jruantelma dauara. mis win misi qvisli idga. valentinas umcrosi dis nataSas naqmrevi, romlis uweso saqcielze bevri hqonda gagonili. is qurdi, avazaki da uaRresad unamuso kaci iyo, swored amisTvis daSorda mas. axla germanul mundirSi gaxveuli avazaki mis win idga, misi bedi swored am banditis xelSi iyo. _ sad aris nataSa? - ikiTxa ilikom. _ odesaSi davtove. Semdeg aRar minaxavs. Seni bedi, rom me Segxvdi. iareT mdinaris mimarTulebiT. mesame sofeli maTia, Tu germanelebs ar daukavebiaT. sul erTia, or dReSi Tavis xalxs daayeneben. ise, me girCevT, WkuiT iyoT. xom xedavT, axla maTi dabruneba aRaravis SeuZlia. _ gmadlobT darigebisaTvis. - dafaruli muqariT uTxra da vanosken gadaixeda. _ mgoni, gadavrCiT... _ wadiT. ecadeT, meored ar SemxvdeT! _ vecdebi. roca mdinares dauyvnen, vanom gadaafurTxa da erTi gulianad Seigina. _ mamaZaRlebo! Tqveni rigic mova. imis SiSiT, rom vinme ar SeCexebodaT tyeSi, mdinaridan Soriaxlos midiodnen. adamiani, romelmac sakuTari xeliT damarxa sayvareli adamiani, vinc damZimebuli iyo erTaderTi Svilis sikvdiliT, mgluri nabijiT da kurdRlis sifxizliT miabijebda. es iyo sakuTari Tavis gadarCenis instinqti. ratom moxda, rom ilikoSi erTbaSad moxda cvlileba. is xom gaognebuli ijda cxedarTan, vano rom ar dasdgomoda Tavs, albaT ase daxvdeboda gzaze gavlil mters. colis sikvdilma Tavzari
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dasca, man dahkarga gare samyarosTan urTierTobis SegrZneba... kidev metic, siwminde sakuTari SesaZleblobisa. gauCnda erTi azri, amden sikvdilTan Cemi sikvdili Tu sicocxle orive umniSvneloa. maSin azrad ar mosvlia brZolis gagrZeleba. Semdeg Tavis Tanapolkelebs Sexvda. Sexvda umowyalod ganadgurebul uzarmazar naomar adgilas jarTad qceul teqnikas, ganawameb cocxal saxeebs. yovelive amis fonze man Tavisi TvaliT dainaxa kbilebamde aRWurvili mteri. mteri, romelic elvis siswrafiT miiwevda win, ukan ki rCeboda dapyrobili adamianebi. swored am dros darwmunda mtris uZlevelobaSi. sikvdils meored pirispir xidTan Sexvda. nataSas qmarTan Sexvedram ilikos pirvelad siZulvili gauCina. es ganwyobileba bolomde ar ganelebia. magram amave dros gauCnda sikvdilis SiSi da survili, rogorme sikvdils gaqceoda. am momentSi ar SeeZlo sxva ram gaekeTebina. nataSas naqmrevis, aleqseis mamas mefis dros samxedro samsaxurSi generlis posti ekava. is revoluciis winaaRmdeg brZolaSi daiRupa. es aleqseim kargad icoda da amitom sZulda sabWoTa xelisufleba. sZulda axali adamianebi da arc cdilobda daemala. pirvel xanebSi niRabi aifara, magram Semdeg... nataSas SemTxveviT ar Sexvedria. aleqseis mama nataSas mamis megobari iyo. dimitri, Tumca patara Cinis patroni iyo, SesaniSnavad uwyobda xasiaTs. isini erTad dadiodnen sanadirod da saTevzaod. ivane trofimenkos Tan axlda mSvenieri TxuTmeti wlis Wabuki, aleqsei. nataSa am dros Svidi-rva wlis iyo. aleqsei gamoekideboda, peplebs aWerinebda, gvirgvinebs wnavdnen yvavilebisgan. saRamos tyis piras cecxls gaaCaRebdnen. aleqsei da nataSa mamebs usmendnen. gogona gaocebuli Sescqeroda Cin-medlebiT mkerddamSvenebul adamians. mas mamac da Svilic gmirebad hyavda warmodgenili. nataSa am didi STabeWdilebiT savse izrdeboda. Semdeg, roca cecxli qreboda, aleqsei muxlebze miZinebul nataSas xelSi iyvanda da etlSi svamda. gverdiT TviTon miujdeboda. meore mxares ki ivane jdeboda. cxenebs mierekeboda dimitri. es iyo mSvenieri siyvarulis pirveli Tvalwarmtaci dReebi. aleqsei am dros gogonas uyvarda, rogorc ufrosi axlobeli, rogorc megobari. es swored is dro iyo, roca revoluciam gaimarjva. dimitri Tavis mamulSi Caiketa, ivane trofimenko ki mokles. aleqsei yvelasagan gaborotebuli axlo naTesavebs da megobrebs afarebda Tavs. arc dimitris ojaxs iviwyebda. nataSa SesaniSnavi qaliSvili gaxda. aleqseim da nataSam samudamod Seiyvares erTmaneTi. qaliSvilma bolos igrZno, rom misi saocnebo gmiri Zalian Sors idga misgan, magram roca es gaigo, gviani iyo. mis umanko guls siyvaruli dahpatroneboda. nataSa Wkviani gogo iyo da gadawyvita
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SeuRleboda mas, vinc sul cota xnis win SaravandediT mosil gmirad hyavda warmosaxuli. patara gogonas surda, radgan am vaJkacisadmi usazRvro siyvarulSi izrdeboda, ar dahkargvoda pirveli siyvarulis sixaruli, ar dahkargoda rwmena. dimitrisa da trifimenkos Soris didi klasobrivi zRvari arsebobda, Tumca isini megobrobdnen. dimitris Tavi ar gamoudia, revoluciis winaaRmdeg brZolaSi. Tumca mefis jarSi oficris adgili ekava. ivanes SvilSi mudam ivanes STamomavals xedavda da swored amitom Tavidanve ar moswonda es SeuRleba. magram nataSam yvelas daukiTxavad miiRo es gadawyvetileba. am nabijs mohyva pirveli Tavbrudamxvevi sixaruli da pirveli bednieri wuTebi. magram rogorc xdeba xolme, amjeradac eiforiam gaiara. nataSam igrZno, rom marto siyvaruli ar kmaroda. pirvelsave winaaRmdegobaze elda eca da Tavis sayvarel das - valentinas aseTi werili miswera: `...araferi iseTi umweo da sasacilo ar aris, roca darwmundebi, rom uZluri xar, Sen ki ici, valia! rogor mZuldnen aseTi adamianebi. dahkargo rwmena Sens SesaZlebobaze - es niSnavs icxovro umiznod. didxans, Zalian didxans vcdilobdi ar gamovtexodi Cems Tavs, rom aseT mdgomareobaSi viyavi, magram roca gamovutydi, saSinelma SiSma Semipyro. SevSindi imis gamo, rom SeiZleba CemSi ver vipovo Zala, SiSs da umweobas SevebrZolo. valia! ver warmoidgen, rogor mZuls Cemi Tavi, rom aseT viTarebaSic ver SevZeli aleqseis SeZuleba. mas sZuls yvela da yvelaferi. ukiduresadaa gaborotebuli yvela axalze da Cemganac moiTxovs, am siZulviliT vicxovro. ver gavrkveulvar, nuTu siyvaruli ise abrmavebs adamians, rom ar SeuZlia, sanam droa, dainaxos cudi da kargi. valia! minda Sen gamigo yvelaze metad. me dResac ar vnanob am nabijis gadadgmas. me da aleqseisadmi siyvarulma erTad avidgiT fexi. bednierebas swored am siyvarulSi veZebdi da dRes amisTvis sakuTari Tavic SeviZule. me vwuxvar erTs: ise gvian movedi am qveyanaze, rom adamians vinc sicocxleze metad miyvarda, ver vuSvele... es werili ilikomac waikiTxa da gulis siRrmemde Sezara nataSas cxovrebis warmodgenam. qvisls arasodes Sexvedria igi. mxolod nataSasagan igebdnen mis ambavs. es ambavi mudam savse iyo nataSas mwuxarebiT. Semdeg daSordnen. is ugzo-ukvlod gaqra. da ai, gamocxadda germanul samosSi gaxveuli. iliko da aleqsei erTmaneTis pirispir aRmoCndnen. pirvelma aSkarad dainaxa gardauvali sikvdili an tyved Cavardna. da Tu aqamde igi viRacis karnaxiT moZraobda, axla gauCnda survili,
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gaqceoda mters, radgan gaqceva yvelaze realuri saSualeba iyo Tavis gadasarCenad. ratom gauCnda es survili, visac ori saaTis win sikvdili undoda? cxadia, mas SeezizRa adamiani, romelmac unamusod gacvala sakuTari miwa-wyali am svastikSi, SeezizRa misi warsulisaTvisac da imisTvisac, rac valentinas sikvdilma miayena. iliko gmiri ar yofila, arc oms gauxda igi gmirad, magram aseT mdgomareobaSi gauCnda azri, rom unda ecocxla. ar vici, ra iyo amis mizezi, SiSi sikvdilis gamo, Tu sicocxlis survili. Tu erTic da meorec.... Sebindebuli iyo, roca pirvel sofels miadgnen. etyoboda, aq kidev ar Sesuliyvnen germanelebi. karebze daakakunes. fanjaraSi gamoCnda qalis SeSfoTebuli saxe. _ stiopa, biWo! gaixede, viRaceebi arian! - gasZaxa. gamxdari biWi gamoCnda karebSi da ilikos da vanos Sexeda. _ Tqvenebi varT. jariskacebi. - waiCuCules. qalma sevdianad gaiRima da SemodiTo, Tavi dauqnia. Camobnelebul fanjrebian saxlSi Sevidnen. ukrainuli Rumeli aanTes. siTbom raRacnairi sixaruli mohgvara jariskacebs. _ nawils CamorCiT? - SeekiTxa qali da Semosulebs daakvirda. _ CamovCiT!. - Rrmad amoioxra ilikom. sami dRis wanwalis Semdeg Tbilma saxlma mama dimitris kera moagona, magram myisve valentinas Riad darCenili Tvalebi amoutivtivdnen da guli SeekumSa. qalma puri da aduRebuli wyali miitana sufrasTan, marilic dadga da naRvlianad Tqva. _ mapatieT... _ viciT... _ jer ar mosulan. Cemi qmaric omSia. qaliSvilic sanitrad hyavT Cvenebs. saxlSi ai, Cven, orni varT. ltolvilebma Rumelis Tavze wamowolil biWs Sexedes. mas Worfliani saxe da namdvili ukrainuli cxviri hqonda. _ ras fiqrobT? _ nawils veRar daveweviT, am Rames Cems simamrTan unda mivaRwio. meore sofelSia. _ vin aris? _ dimitri S... _ Cemi biZaSvili, Sen romlis qmari xar? _ valentinasi. - naRvlianad uTxra ilikom da kvlav misi saxe daedga Tvalwin. _ valentina, Svilo! is ramdeni xania, aRar minaxavs, ai, mgoni mas Semdeg, rac SurasTan wavida saswavleblad. sad aris axla? Camovarda samariseburi siCume. am siCumes mxolod SeSis tkacunis xma arRvevda. ilikos Tvalebidan cremlebi moswyda da Rawvebze
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Camoedina. patara stiopam Tvalebi daaxamxama. qali skamze Camojda. vanom ki uazrod Rumelis kari gaaRo, SeSis naWeri aiRo da cecxls SeukeTa. _ valentina mokles! - raRac mkerdismieri xmiT Tqva ilikom, tuCebi aukankalda, idayvebiT patara magidaze daeyrdno da Tavi xelebs Soris Cargo. _ Svilebo! - kvnesasaviT gaisma oTaxSi da Semdeg isev myudroeba Camowva. ukrainul RumelSi isev gaatkacuna SeSam. mis axlos mdgar qals cremli moswyda da isic cxvirisa da Tvalis ubes Soris Sewyda. _ dimitri axla ufros qaliSvilTan, akulinasTan cxovrobs. jer-jerobiT arc iq Sesulan germanelebi. saxli ici? _ vici. - gaepasuxa iliko da Tvalwin daudga ukrainis patara sofeli. sicocxliT da sixaruliT savse adamianebi, amwvanebuli yanebi. yanebidan dabrunebuli soflis mxiaruleba. es iyo valentinasTan SeuRlebis pirveli bednieri weli. axsovs, Zalian kargad mama dimitris rom wahyva saTibSi. valentinas ukrainuli qveda kaba da amoqarguli bluza ecva, ilikosac ukrainuli perangi Caacva amoqarguli sayeloTi. iliko marjved aqnevda cels da mdelo mis fexebTan efineboda. balaxebidan valentina yvavilebs arCevda, gvirgvinebs swnavda, kiskisiT Tavs evleboda sayvarel adamians. saRamoze, roca quCaSi akordeonis xma gaismoda, valentina ilikos gareT itacebda da saerTo mxiarulobaSi ikargebodnen. ilikos qarTuli cekva didi xania daaviwyda, ukrainulsac ver uwyobda fexs. xan erTs adgamda da xan meores, magram amas ar hqonda mniSvneloba, roca adamianis guls sicili undoda, sixaruli undoda da mas igi hqonda. diax! is icnobda im patara xutors, sadac daibada da gaizarda misi valentina. dRes ki mamisTvis sazareli ambavi unda mietana. _ ra bednieri viqnebodi, mec mis gverdiT rom movmkvdariyavi. iqneb iseTi sikvdili sanatreli gamixdes. - gaifiqra ilikom, roca Tavisi Tavi dakavebul zonaSi warmoidgina. _ stiopa Caicvi da gaacile stumrebi. man icis umoklesi gza soflamde. pirdapir saxlamde miiyvane! - uTxra stiopas. biWuna Rumelis Tavidan CamoZvra da ise daiwyo tansacmlis Cacma, rom arc stumrebisaTvis Seuxednavs da arc araferi uTqvams. qali meore oTaxSi gavida, iqidan qmris Zveli tansacmeli gamoitana da jariskacebis win daawyo. _ gamoicvaleT. jariskacis forma zians mogitanT. stumrebma erTmaneTs gadaxedes da Semdeg madlobis grZnobiT qals Sexedes. qali ormociode wlis iqneboda, Tumca asaki etyoboda. misi saxe mwuxarebas gamoxatavda, magram amas sityviT ar amJRavnebda. mkacrad mokuma tuCebi da Zalian cotas laparakobda. gareT gavida da roca ukan dabrunda, stumrebsac da biWsac tansacmeli gadac- 403 -

muli hqondaT. _ me mzad var. - bavSvuri xmiT Tqva stiopam, magram TviT mis xmaSic raRac mkacri da mbrZanebluri, cxovrebas naadrevad rom mieca misTvis. isini uxmod gamoeTxoven maspinZels da Ria karebSi, sadac stiopa uxmod gavida, sibneleSi gauCinardnen. qalma kari mixura da ilikom myisve gaigo, rogor gadaatriala Signidan gasaRebi. biWma tyisken ibruna piri da isinic ukan gahyvnen. naxevari saaTi iares uxmod. yvela Tavis fiqrSi iyo garTuli da SiSiT Sepyrobili. gamoCnda Cabnelebuli sofeli. stiopam isini soflis ganapira orRobeSi atara, Semdeg erT ezosTan Sedga da Sig Sevida. fanjaraze samjer daakakuna. myisve gaiRo karebi da ilikom icno valentinas ufrosi da, akulina. _ akulina deida, TqvenTan stumrebi arian. _ stiopa, Sen? vin arian? qalma kari gaaRo da ezoSi gamovida. _ iliko! - gaoceba ver dahfara qalma. usityvod saxlSi SeuZRva. roca skamebze Camosxdnen, atuzulma stiopam qals Sexeda da saocrad dinji toniT Tqva. _ me mivdivar... _ diliT dabrundi. _ ara. deda idardebs. - is gareT gavida qudCamofxatuli. _ yoCaRi biWia! - Cailapara vanom. _ Tu ginda, nu iyoCaReb. bavSvebs bavSvoba ar daanebes. - ukmexad Cailapara akulinam da ilikos Sexeda: _ e.i. CamorCi ara? axla ras fiqrob? TviTon ar icoda, ras fiqrobda momavalze. es damokidebuli iyo imaze, rogor warimarTeboda mdgomareoba. _ faSistebi jer ar sCanan. win waiwies da Cven aRmovCndiT jer-jerobiT upatronod. magram albaT male dagvepatronebian. - RvarZlianad Cailaparaka qalma. mezobeli oTaxidan sacvlebisamara mama dimitri gamofratunda. _ iliko! Seni xma vicani. ras Svrebi biWo? - moxuci fexebis farTxuniT mivida siZesTan da gadakocna. _ gaumxile axla amas... - gaifiqra ilikom. _ eh, rogor viqnebi! gana, axla es sakiTxavia? saxlSi kidev vina xarT? _ nataSa, nina...- ena daeba, roca siZes Sexeda. - ivanec saxlSia, danarCenebi omSi arian. - Tvalebze momdgari cremli Seiwminda. _ anatoli moagonda. - gaifiqra ilikom. is ki ar icis, mas rom dedamisic mihyva. - sul erTia, Sen ver gaigeb amas. _ avaxSme Svilebi da moasvene. Zlivs-Ra dganan fexze.
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_ vivaxSmeT. mosvenebiT ki...meoTxe dRea ZaRlebiviT davZrwiT. qali qveSagebis dagebas Seudga. oTaxidan xalaTSemocmuli nataSa gamovarda. ilikos misma mSvenierma saxem guli atkina. qali siZes kiserze Camoekida da akoca. _ valentinasi xom araferi gagigia? - iliko erTbaSad SekrTa. Semdeg Tavi daxara. nataSam saxe awia da uxmod mis saxes daacqerda. ilikom mama dimitris gaxeda da qalis xelebi uxmod moiSora. nataSa gaqvavda. udroo dros Camovardnili siCume ninas fexis xmam daarRvia. _ biZia iliko? me ki megona, Senc faSistebma mogkles. faSistebi xom yvelas hklaven? isini patara bavSvebsac hklaven. Cemi deda da anatolic mohkles. me nataSam wamomiyvana mama dimitrisTan, Torem mec momklavdnen, - bavSvi mZimed laparakobda da Tan tiroda. TvalebcecebiT SesCereboda ilikosa da vanos da ucnaurad daabijebda oTaxSi. ilikos gaaJrJola. TojinasTan moTamaSe gogona, romelic mis Tmebsac ki nazad exeboda da anatolis tuqsavda misi aRebisaTvis, axla SeSinebul da isteriul avadmyofad qceuliyo da nawamebi saxiT uyurebda ilikos. _ dawynardi, nina! - gulSi Caikra bavSvi. _ ara. gana dawynarebuli ara var? Sen sad iyavi, iliko biZia? Sen rom yofiliyavi, iqneb im dRes saxlidan ar gasuliyvnen deda da anatoli. dedam diliT mezRvauris tansacmeli Caacva tolias. TeTri bereti daixura TviTon. roca gareT gavida, xelSi aiyvana Cemi Tojina da aatira. me gavbrazdi da yurze vuCqmite. Semdeg dedam karebi damiketa da TviTon wavidnen. _ didxans vabraxune karebze, bavSvebma gamiRes karebi da ezoSi CamovediT. - nina ilikos mkerdiT Camocurda da oTaxis SuagulSi dadga. _ bavSvebma gadavwyviteT, omobana gveTamaSa. Cven ise gaverTeT TamaSiT da yviriliT, rom ver gavigeT, rogor cvivoda zevidan bombebi, namdvili bombebi. Tvalebi davxuWe da Zirs daveci.- nina laparakobda da zustad akeTebda igive moZraobebs. - Semdeg yvelaferi dawynarda, Tvalebi gavaxile da gogonebs davuZaxe. _ adeqiT. omobana damTavrda! - arsaidan ismoda xma. ezo ki mTlianad gadaTxriliyo. erT-erT TxrilSi lidas TeTri bafTa SevamCnie. _ eh-he. gamodiT! sad waxvediT, biWebo?! - vyvirodi da gadaTxril ezoSi, yovel kuTxeSi biWebsa da gogoebs daveZebdi. _ sad wavidnen isini. meubnebian, daimalneno. miTxari, xom mohkles germanelebma, xom mohkles? - cisferi SeSinebuli TvalebiT uyurebda ilikos.
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_ ase hyveba mudam. dawynardi ninaCka. ai, iliko biZia movida. dedac da anatolic movlen. _ matyueb. Tqven yvela matyuarebi xarT. isini im dRes daxoces fricebma. Sen daginaxavs isini? daginaxavs? _ Sen rodis-Ra dainaxe, ninaCka? _ ar daminaxavs? Tu ginda dagixatav, maT saSineli saxe aqvT. _ dawynardi. anatolic kargad aris, dedac. iliko biZas dasveneba unda. nina erTbaSad Sedga. _ dasveneba? mere vin uSlis, moisvenos. - mxrebi Camohyara, mama dimitris Sexeda da wasCurCula, - wavideT. Cvenc davisvenoT. ilikom SiSiT gaayola Tvali bavSvs, romelic mama dimitrim aiyvana da saZinebel oTaxSi gaiyvana. qveSagebi gaSlili iyo. stumrebi gverdigverd mdgar xis taxtze wamowvnen. yvela Tavis adgilze moewyo da patara saxlSi siCumem daisadgura. stumaric da maspinZelic Rrma Zils mieca. uceb sadRac soflis axlos jer guguni gaisma, Semdeg sinaTlem dasera iqauroba, xolo cota xnis Semdeg gaRviZebulma da fanjrebidan mocvenilma xutorelebma dainaxes, rogor Semovidnen sofelSi svastikiani oficrebi, romlebic motocikletebze isxdnen da Semzaravi xmauriT avsebdnen aremares.
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nataSa siZis win ijda da dafaruli SiSiT Sescqeroda. saxlSi mxolod is da vano iyvnen, danarCenebi ki ezoebSi gasuliyvnen da mezoblebSi Cum-Cumad laparakobdnen germanelTa Semosvlaze. germanelebma TavianTi rwmunebuli daayenes yvela dasaxlebul sofelSi da iqauroba datoves. sabWos SenobaSi mokalaTebuli germaneli oficrebi mcxovreblebisagan samuSaoze gasvlas moiTxovdnen, winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi germaniaSi garekviT imuqrebodnen. _ Sen naxe valentina! - damajereblad uTxra nataSam ilikos. man SekiTxva ki ar dausva siZes, Tavisi daskvnebi gamoitana. ilikom colis das Sexeda. misi Tvalebi daJinebiT misCerebodnen mas. isic ki moeCvena, ai sadacaa, es Tvalebi simarTles dainaxaveno. siCume Camowva. gaiara ramdenime mtanjvelma wuTma.... _ valentina vnaxe. is Cemi xeliT davasaflave. - ilikos tuCebi ucaxcaxebda. nataSas TvalebSi erTbaSad gaqra SiSi da mis adgilze usazRvro zizRnarevma mwuxarebam daisadgura. ilikom Tavidanve icoda, nataSa kivils ar daiwyebda, arc loyebs daikawravda, rogorc misi ubnis qalebi. _ Sevxvdi. ori saSineli sityvis Tqva moaswro, Sura da anatoli mohkleso... erT mwuxarebaze ar mafiqres, ise mimimates meore wyeulebma. dabombvis dros gardaicvala. qali moSorda ilikos da fanjarasTan mivida. is sadRac ixede- 406 -

boda da ar daunaxavs, ra araadamianuri Zalis daZabviT daioka momZlavrebuli mwuxareba qalma. aseTi ram mxolod erTeulebs, didi nebisyofis adamianebs SeuZliaT. qalma nerviulad moisrisa xelis guliT saxe, Caylapa simwris cremli, Tavi civ minas miado da am mdgomareobaSi dahyo mTeli naxevari saaTi. Semdeg roca ilikosken Setrialda, mis saxeze aRar iyo aRar SiSi da aRarc mwuxareba. misi anTebuli Tvalebi daundobel SurisZiebas gamoxatavda. ilikom da vanom mokrZalebiT Sexedes. _ Semdeg? - SeekiTxa nataSa. ilikom kidev amoioxra. rCeboda erTi, rac amaze nakleb tkivils ar miayenebda qals. ver gadaewyvita, eTqva Tu ara aleqseisTan Sexvedra. iliko simarTlesTan erTad gaCenili, namdvili raWuli bunebis kaci iyo. mas warmoudgenlad miaCnda tyuilis Tqma. _ movaRwieT. Tumca kinaRam CavcivdiT.- Camowva siCume, ilikom nataSas Tvali gauswora. _ ara, ar SeiZleba, ar vuTxra simarTle! - gaifiqra TavisTvis. _ xidze faSistebis mier dayenebuli patruli idga. maTi ufrosi aleqsei aRmoCnda. roca man gaigo, rom valentinas qmari viyavi, gamomiSva. miwisferi daedo qals, jer raRac bgerebi amoscda xorxs, Semdeg haerSi xelebi ucnaurad aaTamaSa da skamze moceliliviT daeca. _ aleqsei! aleqsei! - wamoiZaxa da Tvalebi daxuWa. gaognebuli iliko da vano gaxevebulebi idgnen da nugeSis Tqmac ki ar SeeZloT. erTxans uZravad ijda da uazrod icqireboda. Semdeg wamodga, siZesTan mivida, mxrebSi SeanjRria da uTxra: _ Sen ici, es ras niSnavs? damerwmune, Zmao! me da Sen valentinaze metad ubedurebi varT. radgan is aq aris, moindomebs Cven gadabirebas. qali ilikos moSorda. roca magidas gauara, patara, magram Zlieri xeli dahkra, fanjarasTan mivida da amoioxra: _ vficav yvela imaT, vinc yvelaze Zvirfasia CemTvis, vficav yvela imaT suls, vinc Tqven daxoceT. vficav mamaCemis beber Zvlebs... patara ninas SeSinebul suls ar SegarCenT. me mZulxar Sen! - am momentSi, am jer kidev patara gogos Zu nadiris saxe hqonda, Svils rom waarTmevdnen da ukanaskneli kamara rom unda Sehkras mterze TavdasxmisTvis. im RamiT nataSa saxlidan wavida. saxlSi yvela mixvda, rom man es gaakeTa aleqseis gamo. mama dimitrim ki icoda, Sercxvenili siZe aq maT didxans unaxavs ar datovebda. miTumetes, raki man icoda, es ojaxi or sabWoTa jariskacs malavda. glexis tansacmelSi gaxveuli jariskacebi jer-jerobiT ezoSi ver gamodiodnen, ase gaiara agvistom da seqtemberma. ivane da akulina mitovebuli kolmeurneobis yanebSi puris marcvals
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agrovebdnen. iliko da vano mas xelis safqvavi wisqviliT fqvavdnen, mama dimitri ezoSi ijda da naRvlianad gascqeroda gzas, xolo nina patara joxebiT barikadebs agebda mterTan SexvedrisTvis mzad rom yofiliyo. _ sad wavida axla is Winka. - brazobda nataSa. sofeli mowyvetili iyo gare samyaros. mosaxleoba SiSiT Sescqeroda samxreTisaken mimaval gzas da erTmaneTs ekiTxebodnen: _ netav, dabrundebian Cvenebi? - cdilobdnen nugeSi erTmaneTis TvalebSi enaxaT. erT saRamos stiopam fanjaraze daakakuna, roca akulinam gaxeda, man saidumlod Seatyobina, rom nataSam droebiT erTi jariskaci miiRo da Suras mazlad unda gaesaRebinaT. yvela samuSaod gasuliyvnen, ilikos da vanos garda. saxlSi yvelasTvis cxadi gaxda, rom igi iatakqveS momuSave sabWoTa adamianTa organizaciaSi Caeba. meore diliT sabWos Senobis win ramdenime msubuqi avtomanqana gaCerda. isini SenobaSi Sevidnen. cota xnis Semdeg, Tarjimnis TanxlebiT maRali, xmel-xmeli unter- oficeri gamovida. xalxs gadaxeda da germanul enaze raRacis kiTxva daiwyo. Semdeg SeCerda da Tarjimans gadaxeda, romelmac wakiTxuli gadauTargmna xalxs. roca Tarjimanma kiTxva Sewyvita, oficerma kidev gaagrZela kiTxva. germaneli oficeri xalxs sazeimod acnobda faSisturi germaniis winsvlas aRmosavleTisken. maTgan ki moiTxovda, emuSavaT dangreuli gzebis mSeneblobaze, rom xeli SeewyoT germaniis gamarjvebis daCqarebisaTvis. oficeri xazgasmiT aRniSnavda, rom is ojaxi, romelic Seinaxavda samxedros an saeWvo pirovnebas, daisjeboda sikvdiliT, an germaniaSi gaigzavneboda. xalxSi jer daZabuli siCume Camovarda, Semdeg susti xma gaisma maT Tavebs zemoT da sadRac ukana rigebSi roca miaRwia, ukvalod gaqra. am siCumeSi muSaobis survili gamoTqves akulinam da misma qmarma. saRamos, roca mcire vaxSams miusxdnen, vanom ilikos uTxra. _ iqneb, ajobebs sxvagan movZebno TavSesafari. - ilikom ukmayofilad Sexeda. _ ras ambob? _ ori Cven varT, erTic rom dagvematos, SarSi gavxvevT am xalxs. ilikom icoda, rom amave olqSi cxovrobda omamde misi fronteli nacnobi qaliSvili. saxlSi moxuci deda hyavda. vano uTuod am moxucTan moZebnida TavSesafars. magram iqamde miaRwevda? _ aba, eg ram gafiqrebina? erTad viqnebiT. Tu rame mogviva, erTad mogvivides. - magram vanosTan verafers gaxda. is Tavazianad
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gamoemSvidoba maspinZlebs, iliko ki gadakocna. _ eh, kidev SevxvdebiT netav erTmaneTs? - gaifiqra Tvalebze cremlmomdgarma ilikom, roca saxlidan vano gavida, igrZno, rom dahkarga kidev erTi megobari. isini erTmaneTs albaT samudamod daSordebodnen, rom avbediT cxovrebas kidev erTxel ar Seexvedrebina. erTmac da meoremac kargad igrZno, rom im xutorSi gancdili SiSi ubralo bavSvur mogonebas hgavda imasTan SedarebiT, rac sakuTari TvaliT da guliT naxes da Semdeg SeigrZnes. isini erTmaneTs Sexvdnen iq, sadac aTasobiT adamianTa bedi damokidebuli iyo faSisturi germaniis yvelaze saSinel formaze- gestapos TanamSromlis TviToeul kaprizze. es iyo manqana, romelic TandaTan ConCxad aqcevda guSindel sicocxliT savse adamians. es iyo ugulo manqana, romlis triali borblebidan sasaklaoze hyrida uilajo, jer kidev mfeTqav gvamebs. diax! es fronteli megobrebi da Tanasoflelebi erTmaneTs Sexvdnen sikvdil-sicocxlis mijnaze. iliko Tavisi sicocxlis sasworze SegdebiT ibrZoda sikvdilis winaaRmdeg, roca sakuTari ubiT miwodebuli erTi naWeri puriT hkvebavda megobars. mogoneba omsa da tyveobaze- es cocxal sikvdils utoldeboda, radgan yovelive amasTan dakavSirebuli iyo damcirebuli adamianuri Tavmoyvareoba, Selaxuli sindisi, gatexili suli da yovelive amis gamo zizRi sakuTari Tavisa da sakuTari SesaZlebobisadmi, zizRi imis gamo, rom tyviis cxovrebiT cxovrobda da Tu xels anZrevda raimes gasakeTeblad, exmareboda sakuTar mters. alali da patiosani iliko swored amitom usvamda Tavis Tavs erT, magram yvelaze samarTlian SekiTxvas: _ SeiZleboda Tu ara sxvanairad? - da Tumca misi pasuxi mudam uaryofiTi iyo, mainc mudam hkicxavda Tavis Tavs da isic ki ver gaerkvia, sakuTari Tavis winaaRmdeg rogori pozicia daeWira. tyveobam gansazRvra misi Semdegi cxovrebis Sinaarsi, Tumca omma waarTva yvelaze Zvirfasi adamianebi, yvelaze metad ganicada Tavmoyvareobisa da adamianuri Rirsebis Selaxva, rac banakebSi iwvnia. magram es Semdeg iyo... akulinas meuRle, ivane samoc wels miRweuli mamakaci iyo da mama dimitris Tanatolad gamoiyureboda. akulinam, romelsac deda adre moukvda, Tavisi cxovrebis mravali weli umcrosi debis aRzrdas Sealia. man yvelas SeZlebisdagvarad aswavla da sakuTari cxovreba mouwyo. TviTon mas ki didxans cxovreba mouwyobeli darCa. swored amitom, mis xasiaTSi gaCnda simkacre, romelic zogjer siuxeSeSi gadadioda, Tumca samarTliani iyo da keTili. ivanes gvian Sexvda da roca sakuTari bedi mas daukavSira, amis Semdegac darCa mzrunveli ufrosi debisa da disSvilebisadmi. misi ojaxi is kera iyo, sadac erTmaneTs xvdebodnen yvela ded- 409 -

mamiSvili. mama dimitris SvilTa da SviliSvilTa SemaerTebel fuZed iyo miCneuli. omma kvlav Sehyara erTad mama dimitris STamomavalTa erTi nawili da akulinas Tbilma keram isev gauRo maT kari. dabombvas gamoqceul Suras qaliSvils, ninas da mama dimitris, valentinas qmars, ilikosa da nataSas. isev erT ojaxad iqcnen, erTmaneTze fiqriT Sepyrobil erT sxeulad da am sxeulis ufrosad isev ise, rogorc bavSvobisas, akulina gaxda. Sexiznul siZes da mis megobars akulina kvlav farulad inaxavda. bolo dros ukve Zneli iyo amis gakeTeba. germanelebma yoveli darCenili jariskacis Zebna daiwyes. swored amitom gadawyvita vanom, iqauroba daetovebia. akulinam stiopas gamouZaxa da stumari RamiT gaamgzavra saxlidan. amis Semdeg ilikos mdgomareoba kvlav umoqmedo iyo. yovel saaTSi mosalodneli iyo tyved waeyvanaT. ori dRis Semdeg stiopam nataSas mier gamogzavnili Suras mazli moiyvana. igi ormoc wels gadacilebuli mamakaci iyo da sufTa aqcentiT laparakobda ukrainulad. erT saRamos ki nataSamac Semoirbina naCqarevad da saubedurod gadawyvita, is Rame iq gaetarebina. akulinas saxlis win WiSkarTan motocikli SeCerda. _ germaneli, mama dimitri, germaneli. - nerviulad ikivla ninam da babuas aekra. moxuci joxs daebjina da ise wamodga. ukmayofilod WiSkrisaken gaixeda da daupatiJebel stumars roca Tvali mohkra, zizRiT da siZulviliT wamoiZaxa: _ aleqsei, Sen? - stumari mis win Sedga, Secbunebulma moxuci CaaTvaliera. mama dimitris piridan amosulma am orma sityvam yumbaris Zala miiRo da saxlis kedlebs SigniT SeyuJul adamianTa yurebamde miaRwia. nataSa elvis siswrafiT moswyda adgilidan da fanjaras aekra. _ aleqsei,- dakodili gulidan amosuli sityva gminvasaviT dairxa oTaxSi da Semdeg samarisebuli siCume Camowva. _ Cqara valodia, sxvenze adi, magi aravis daindobs. akulinam ukana kari gaaRo da valodia gauSva. _ ar melodi mama dimitri? _ ratom ara, yovel dRe gelodi. - qvemodan gaxeda moxucma nasiZars. _ rac qarTveli siZe Seikedle, mas Semdeg, ara?- axla aleqseim gaxeda simamrs. moxucs moeCvena, rom Sig dafaruli muqarac eria. _ odesRac Seni gadarCenac gulic mewada. naRvlianad Tvali Seavlo germanul formas da aleqseis mSvenier saxes. _ albaT imitom, rom Sen mamaCemis yofili megobari xar da Zalian axlo TanamebrZolic. mamaCemi ki, Sen ici, wiTelma ZaRlebma mohkles.
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mama dimitrim tuCze ikbina. is mixvda, rom amiT moxucs Tavisi mefisdroindeli samsaxuri moagona da avi winaTgrZnobiT Sepyrobilma tuCebi mokuma. am dumiliT isargebla aleqseim, mama dimitris mxrebze xeli gadausva da waulaparaka. _ mamaCemi SenSi mudam erTgul TanamebrZols xedavda. - Semdeg saxls gaxeda. odnav SesamCnevma Rimilma dausera saxe da Semparavad ganagrZo: _ bedi ki gwyalobs, mama dimitri, me rom am mxareSi movxvdi. im Sens wiTelarmielebsac araferi dauSavdeba. isini xom gamovgzavne SenTan, Tumca maSinve SemeZlo maTi datyveveba. Tqvens saxls rom aravin ekareba, amasac me mimadlodeT. mefis generlis Svilma icis mamis megobrebis dafarva da es iciT, ratom? - odnav gawiTlda, axlos mivida moxucTan da CurCuliT uTxra: _ me nataSa isev miyvars. - mama dimitri skamze Camojda da Tavi Caqindra. _ nataSa saxlSia. mas moelaparake. - yrud uTxra nasiZars da gulis areSi saSineli sicariele igrZno, roca aleqsei sulmouTqmelad kibesTan miiWra. moxucma mwared inana, ratom wamoroSa es, magram gvianRa iyo. aleqsei ukve aivanze iyo da ori naxtomiT oTaxSi gaCnda. erTi wuTiT daibna germanul mundirSi gamowyobili oficeri. mas siZulviliT SesCereboda risxviT savse wyvil-wyvili TvalebiT. magram es moxda erTi wuTiT. aleqseim fanjarasTan mdgomi nataSa dainaxa. ferwasuli iyo da ar inZreoda. mamakaci elvis siswrafiT gaCnda masTan da gulSi Caikra. ilikom Tvalebi daxuWa. _ davigviane, Zalian gvian movedi am qveynad da adamians, vinc miyvarda, ver vuSvele. - moesma mrTolvare xma, iseTive, rogoric hqonda nataSas valentinas werilis wakiTxvisas. isic gaaxsenda, TiTebSi rogor mosrisa qaRaldi, gverdiT isrola da aqviTinda. _ `me Sen mZulxar! - gaisma swored amaswindeli zizRiT naTqvami nataSas xma da ilikom qalis nawameb saxes gaxeda. axla masze damokidebuli iyo ara marto misi bedi, aramed yvelas bedi. aleqseim axla SeamCnia iliko. _ ai, Cven mainc SevxvdiT erTmaneTs. Tumca arc CemTvis aris didad saxarbielo. aleqseis umzerda iseTive gaborotebuli TvalebiT da erTbaSad gabrazda. _ ras gaCumebulxar da SemomCerebixar. iqneb msayvedurobT, rom TqvensaviT ar Sevakvdi wiTlebs? Tqven aravin gerCiT. ai, dadgeba Cveni droc. - karebSi mama dimitris moxrili mxrebi da TeTri Tavi gamoCnda. aleqsei gamxiarulda.
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_ me da mama dimitris droc dadgeba. da marTalia, mamaCemi ver daumSvenebs gverds, samagierod me aq viqnebi... _ Cemi mundiri, - Seawyvetina moxucma, - mefis iyo, Tu masze maRali Cinis, rusuli iyo. arasodes Camicvia sxvagan Sekerili. Cemi Tofic ai, eger hkidia. Sexede, Jangi moekida, Tumca brZola kidev SeuZlia, magram mas Tavisianebis mokvla ar exerxeba. me mefis yofili oficeri, mxolod Cemi qveynis miwas vicavdi. Sen ki, batono generlis Svilo, Tu ginda mainc momagono warsuli. mokled Tqvi, ra ginda Cemgan?- es sityvebi iyo gamowvevac, mdgomareobaSi garkvevac da uaryofac. Tumca guliT swadda gaego, ra surda yofil siZes misgan. ras Txovda dakavebul zonaSi darCenil uilajo mosaxleobas. aleqsei Camojda. daaxloebiT icoda, rom aseT pasuxs miiRebda, magram icoda isic, rom ilikos Cumad Senaxvis gamo ankesze iyvnen wamogebulni da Tu uars ityodnen daxmarebis aRmoCenaze, maSin SeeZlo daSinebiT mieRwia sawadelisTvis. swored am ukanaskneliT gaTavxedebulma oficialurad moaxsena, rom axlomaxlo soflebSi Semosulia metad didi masStabis iataqveSa organizaciis erT-erTi TvalsaCino wevri. komunisti da Cekisti valodia kovaliovi. misi daWera daevala yvela imas, vinc diadi germaniisTvis ibrZoda. _ ra Tqma unda, uTqvenodac daviWerT, - CaerTo bolos, - magram me minda, TviTon daviWiro mamaCemis mkvleli, samagierod... man orazrovnad Sexeda ilikos, Semdeg TiTqos aqamde amas fiqrobdao, uTxra: - Seni megobari sad aris. Tqven xom orni iyaviT? - vidre iliko pasuxs moamzadebda, nataSas wkriala xma gaisma: _ yvelafers gavakeTeb SenTvis, aleqsei. Sen ici, cxovrebaSi mxolod Sens bednierebaze vocnebobdi da radgan igi Sen gaqvs, raRa damrCenia, Tu xeli ar Segiwyve? - es sityvebi ise damajereblad warmosTqva, rom yvelam SvebiT amoisunTqa. xutorSi manqanis gugunis xma gaisma. aleqsei ki ar wamodga, wamoxta, nataSas sixaruliT Sexeda da uTxra: _ me mudam mjeroda Seni Tavganwiruli siyvarulis. - da sirbiliT gareT gaiWra. yvelam zizRiT gaayola Tvali. _ mSiSara kurdReli. - brazianad Tqva mama dimitrim da nataSas moubrunda. - yoCaR, gogona. valodiam ki bina unda gamoicvalos. Sen ki, mgoni, moige misi guli da unda gamoiyeno es. _ rogor mimZims, mama, es TamaSi. - qviTiniT wamoiZaxa nataSam da xis taxtze daeca. nataSam moaxerxa valodias gadamalva. danarCenebis cxovreba kvlav Zveleburad miemarTeboda. _ rodis moeReba amas bolo? - fiqrobda yvelaze da pirvel rigSi, Tavis Tavze gabrazebuli iliko. xutorSi darCenili adamianebi germanelebs gzaze samuSaod gahyavdaT. _ Cvenebsac dasWirdebaT es gzebi. - ambobdnen germanelebTan
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momuSaveebi. erT saRamos kovaliovi kvlav miadga mama dimitris binas Ramis gasaTevad. RamiT mas da ilikos erT oTaxSi gauSales logini. SuaRame gadasuli iyo, roca karebze braxuni atyda. valodia sxvenze aiWra. yvela mixvda, rom isini viRacam gasca. kari mama dimitrim gaaRo. _ ar gainZreT! - gaisma xma da oTaxi sinaTlis SuqiT aivso. ramdenime faSisti elvis siswrafiT moedo iqaobas. mis ukan ilikom aleqseis saxe dainaxa. _ Sen vin xar? _ Cemi siZea. avad aris. _ aq vin iwva? - iliko gaSra. _ adiT sxvenze. _ aq me viweqi. - icrua moxucma. _ adiT sxvenze. moxucs drois mogeba undoda da gadawyvita, winaaRmdegoba gaewia. _ frTxilad, dampali koWebia, ar CamocvivdeT batonebo. _ vin iyo aq? - mkacrad ikiTxa aleqseim. - miTxari, vin iyo aq? roca pasuxi ver miiRo, moxuci TaviT kedelze SeaferTxa da zeviT aiWra. sinaTlis Suqze dainaxa, rogor qanaobda axlad aglejili ficari haerSi. _ Cqara, gaqceula! - faSistebi gareT gacvivdnen. aleqseim ilikos Sexeda da iqve mdgar jariskacs dauyvira:waiyvaneT! sadRac srolis xma gaisma. _ netavi, gadarCebodes, - inatra ilikom. _ moicadeT, - daiyvira gacecxlebulma aleqseim, ilikom ukan moixeda. aleqsisa da mas Soris idga ori avtomatiani jariskaci, SeSinebuli akulina, misi qmari da nina karebs iyvnen akrulni. saxlSi kidev ori germaneli iyo. _ sCans, marTali iyo. Tqven malavdiT mas, xom? is iyo, ho? - CaekiTxa gawiTlebuli TvalebiT moxucs. _ Tqvi, ZaRlo! - uyvira aleqseim. gaqvavebuli akulina sdumda. iliko pirdapir misCereboda mama dimitris WaRara Tavs, daxuWul Tvalebs, odnav amoburcul Rawvebs. Semdeg mzera revolveris lulaze gadaitana. Sezara imis warmodgenam, rom erTi patara moZraoba da... moxucma Tvali gaaxila, zizRiT Sexeda aleqseis TvalebSi da yvelas gasagonad uTxra: _ me yovelTvis mwamda, rom Sen mamaSenis Svili iyavi. aseTad darCebi sikvdilamde.
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_ diax! me davmale. marto me vicodi, rom mamaSenis mkvleli iyo. aq sxvebi arafer SuaSi arian. davmale, radgan mivxvdi, rom is samSoblos keTildReobisaTvis ibrZoda, mas SensaviT ar gaucvlia Tavisi xalxi, SensaviT ar Caucviams maseTi mundiri. vici, isini movlen. magram icode, vidre isini movidodnen, Sen gagiswordebian aq darCenili adamianebi. mesrole, moRalatev! ilikom Tvalebi daxuWa da roca revolveris yru gasrola gaisma, viRacam ubiZga karisken. mas aRarc daunaxavs, rogor Caikeca kedelTan moxuci, xolo vidre es moxdeboda, rogor ubiZga akankalebul ninas akulinam. es yvelaferi ucbad moxda. yvelam icoda, ra saSineli dasasruli eqneboda am yovelives. akulina maSin mivida mamasTan, roca misi mCate sxeuli iatakze daeca. mkerdidan wamosulma Tbilma sisxlma gauTbo xelebi. qali wamoiWra da im dros, roca aleqsei gareT unda gasuliyo, gacivebuli grZnobiT akulinam mamis sisxliT Seusvara mundiri. mere miaZaxa: _ wyeulo! mamaCemis sisxliT gasvrili mundiriT iare! - Semdeg mamis sxeuls gadaefara. seqtembris miwuruli iyo. gareT qari zuzunebda. xelebawvdili iliko win midioda da ukan oTxi avtomatiani faSisti mihyveboda. qari arwevda xeebs da yviTeli foTlebi mis fexebTan efineboda. sibneleSi ar sCanda, magram grZnobda Zirs dacvenil foTlebs, mis fexebTan ucnauri xmas rom gamoscemdnen. samSoblos mkvnesare xmis gamoZaxils hgavda. qari qroda... qaris xmasTan SeerTebuli foTlebis Sriali raRac ucnaurad amazrzen xmas gamoscemda. iliko ver mimxvdariyo, qari saidan uberavda da qaris boboqrobiT gabruebuli miabijebda win, yurTan ki kioda da es kivili guls uklavda. ZvalSi gauara sicivem. _ irgvliv sikvdilia - Semoesma anazdad. axla, am sityvebs valentina ki ara, ukrainis miwa iZaxda. Tvalebi daxuWa ilikom. arafris mosmena aRar surda. qari isev kioda da ilikoSi ucnaur, amazrzen grZnobas hbadebda. ilikom qaris xma bavSvis tirils miamsgavsa. Casuqebuli cisferTvaleba gogona xelebgawvdili morboda misken. _ antonina, Svilo! - aRmoxda uxmod. TvalebdaxuWuli Sedga, rom bavSvs dalodeboda. xiSti Seeso zurgSi da gamoafxizla. am grZelsa da saSinel gzaze svimonis mkacri saxec daudga Tvalwin. mis TvalebSi sayveduri dainaxa da Tavi daxara. kviracxovlisaken amaval viwro sairme gzas gaudga. mixos samares Soridan hkida Tvali, ,,netav, erTxel kidev Sevxebodi Sens safla- 414 -

vso, - inatra ilikom, magram isev amazrzeni qaris kivili gaisma mis yurTan, massa da samyaros Soris didi Savi ufskruli gaCina. SeSinebuli Sedga am ufskrulTan iliko... cocxalic da mkvdaric im ufskrulis iqiT aRmoCndnen. is ki aqeT, sul marto... zurgSi Tofis lula Seexo. mavTulbadiani kari gaiRo da Semdeg WrialiT daixura mis zurgsukan. zogjer adamians wilad xvdeba, warsulze mogoneba tvirTiviT ataros, igi samudamod Tan sdevs xolme. gulis raRac adgils ikavebs meeqvse grZnobasaviT da misi aTvlis wertili xdeba. bednierebaa, roca am periodis mogonebisas adamians Tavs Seaxsenebs warsuli sixaruli da Tu igi cxovrebis yvelaze mSvenier wlebs ekuTvnis, maSin zRapariviT lamazia es mogoneba. magram Tu es periodi imitom miekra Sens suls, imitom Seeyina Sens guls, rom gawamos, maSin ubedureba da amaoebac mTeli darCenili cxovreba Tan gsdevs. vai mas, visi sulic am ubedurebis msxverpli gamxdara, radgan igi imdenad aris gamjdari adamianSi, rom Tundac Semdeg aTasjer Sexvdes bednierebas, yvela ujredi uars eubneba masTan damkvidrebaze, radgan samudamo bina im avadmosagonar wlebs daumkvidrebia da mTel sxeulSi daupatiJebeli stumariviT Casaxlebula. amis Semdeg cxovrobs adamiani. patara da did sixaruls aRiqvams, magram am aRTqmas aklia eSxi da lazaTi. SeSinebuli, sxvisi TvalebiT SeCerebia am sixaruls da hgonia, rom yvelaferi mas ki ara, sxvas ekuTvnis. swams, rom bedniereba da ubedureba erTmaneTis mtrebi arian, xolo mwuxareba da sixaruli erT gulSi ver moTavsdebian. ramdeni xanic ar unda icocxlo, ra sicocxliTac ar unda arsebobde, Seni cxovrebis RerZi is erTi periodia, romelic Sens organizms sasikvdilod miejaWva da miaqvavda. aseTi periodi xvda wilad maxaroblianT simonas vaJs, ilikos. es periodi iyo tyveobaSi ganvlili wlebis saSineleba, romelmac sikvdilamde awama. datyvevebidan meore dRes iliko isev Sexvda Tavis soflel da frontel megobar vanos. _ Senc dagiWires ZaRlebma? - SeekiTxa vano. _ damiWires, Sen rodis? _ im kviras. _ ras akeTebT? _ Sexede! - maT usityvod gaxedes dangreul gzebs. mesame dRes isini erTad isxdnen xtunva-xtunviT mimaval mixakisfer manqanaSi. _ ai, ameebs vasworebT. oxrebma Tavisuflad rom Semozidon tyvia-wamali Cvenebis dasaxocad. - ilikos gaaJrJola. _ maTTvis unda vimuSavoT?- gaifiqra. e.i. moRalate var? - ai, is, rac Semdeg cxovrebisaTvis mtkivneul nawilad iqca da misi sisxlxorcis sakuTreba gaxda.
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man am momentSi dahkarga sakuTari Tavis rwmena, gamoeTxova sakuTar Tavmoyvareobas da Seuracyofili da gaZarcvuli grZnobis gamo, sikvdilamde SeSinebuli darCa. wlebis gasvlasTan erTad ilikoSi TviT sindisic sadRac misgan Sors dadga, samyaros iqiTa napirze darCenilT SeuerTda. es iyo Semdegi cxovrebis wlebSi. axla ki avtomats SemarTuli miaraxraxebda gadaTxril miwaze. _ movediT. - Cailapara vanom. is ukve erTi kvira iyo, rac aq muSaobda. manqana Sedga. tyveebi Camosxdnen niCbebiT da weraqvebiT, laslasiT samuSaosken gaswies. roca samuSao adgilebze mividnen, gaocebulni Sedgnen. germaneli oficeri TxrilSi iyo Cagdebuli. iliko gamoeyo da moklulTan mivida. Tumca cemisagan saxe saSinlad Secvloda. ilikom aleqseis saxe Seicno. _ es nataSas saqmea. - gadaulaparaka vanos da xeli xelze mouWira. sami dRis Semdeg nacemi stiopa Semoagdes tyveTa banakSi. sisxliT mosvrils Worfliani saxe Zlivs uCanda. roca zedamxedveli gareT gavida, tyveebi mas Semoexvivnen. _ Sen risTvis, stiopa? - SeekiTxa vano. _ rac Sen, imisTvis... tyveebma Seuxvies iarebi. RamiT ilikos saidumlod gaando: _ mama dimitris daxvretis ambavi nataSam im dResve Seityo. saxlSi ar dabrunebula, me mTxova, aleqseisTan mivsuliyavi da gadameca, rom man Seityo kovaliovis adgilsamyofeli. ar vici, ratom damijera da gamomyva, Tan mxolod erTi jariskaci wamoiyvana. daTqmul adgilze nataSa dagvxvda.Soridan Sexeda qmarma. mas surda amoecno, icoda Tu ara colma mamis sikvdili. odnav damSvidda, roca nataSam gaiRima. _ aleqsei, mgoni, mivageni. Sen mas mZinares Seipyrob. - aleqsei daibna. tuCze ikbina, magram roca nataSas gabrwyinebul saxes Sexeda, gaifiqra. _ etyoba, araferi Seutyvia. _ stiopa, dabrundi saxlSi. me mivyvebi. _ ara, mec wamoval. - vuTxari da ukan gavyevi. nataSa da aleqsei win midiodnen, me da germaneli ukan, mxarimxar. roca tyeSi Rrmad SevediT, nataSam ukan moixeda, vigrZeni, ukan unda CamovrCeniliyavi, davixare , zonaris Sekvra daviwye. revolvers xeli CavWide da wamovdeqi. ramdenime mamakacis rkalSi aRmovCndiT. aleqsei nataSasken Setrialda. mamakacebs erTi gamoeyo da aleqseisTan mivida. _ es Sen kovaliov? - sibraziT nataSas gaxeda. _ me, diax, me.
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_ valodia. ara, es me. - moisma qalis xma da erTi gasroliT aleqseis sxeuli Zirs daeca. _ yvelaferi gavakeTe Cemi siyvarulisaTvis da radgan Sen mainc ver giSvele, dae Senc, Cems siyvarulTan erTad mokvdi. - Tqva nataSam da iqauroba datova. biWebma mokluls fexebSi Toki Caabes, rogorc qvewarmavals da Txrilamde TreviT miiyvanes. maT icodnen, rom meore dRes Tqven naxavdiT mas. Semdeg Cxreka daiwyes. me revolveri mipoves da mcemes. _ nataSa? - ikiTxa ilikom. _ jer-jerobiT gadarCa.
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mamlis yivilma gamoaRviZa gogona. is loginidan CamoZvra, ar Caucvams, ise gavida ezoSi. _ de-du-u-u, de-du-u-u... - daiyvira da roca pasuxi ver miiRo, Sin Sebrunda. sakuWnaoSi Seixeda, beRelSi Sehyo Tavi da isev ezoSi gatrialda. _ dedu-a, dedu-aa... - ayvirda ufro xmamaRla. _ aqa var, genacvalos dedua - gaepasuxa SviliSvils bebia da boslidan Tavi gamohyo - gogona misken wabajbajda. _ dResac gameparu dedu? - usayvedura bavSvma. moxucma Tivis narCenebisagan kalTa Camoibertya, Caimuxla da gogona gulSi Caikra. _ dajeqi, dedu, kalTaSi Camisvi. _ macale boSo! Cagacvam, ar Segcivdes. _ movitan. - gogona saxlSi gaiqca tansacmlis gamosatanad. _ TamTa mamida uTenia onSi wavida. axla me Cavacvam. - miegeba bebia, gogona WiSkrisaken gaiqca da Tan Tavis sayvarel bebias dauZaxa: _ dedu, WiSkarTan, WiSkarTan Camacvi, Tanac zRapars momiyevi. naRvari wylidan didi kokiT svimona gamoCnda. is odnav koWlobda da ise midioda. _ ai, babua movida da is mogiyveba zRapars, me ki kokors gamogicxob. - uTxra bebiam SviliSvils. mis Cacmas ukve morCa da axla svimonas odnav moxril mxrebze Sedgmul kokas misCereboda. _ svimona, Se kaco? raze waxvedi. movrCebodi diliT saqmes da mec qve gadmovitandi wyals. meore doqi pirTamde iyo savse da ra oxroba migarbeninebda. qoSin-qoSiniT rom modixar,Se, dalocviliSvilo. _ maincdamainc yuyze unda movides yvelaferi, rom saqmes mivxedo? araferia. nel-nela qe gamovitane. arc Sen gaqvs cota saqme. _ Caimuxle ma morze, Tu RmerTi gwams da erTi Seneburad mouyevi zRapari Tu ara am uTenia, qve ra mezRapreba. svimona morTan mivida. cali fexi odnav win waswia, meore xeliT
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mors daeyrdno da Camojda. erTi yrud amoioxra da SviliSvils dauZaxa. _ aba, gamoiqeci, Se fofol nina, sanam bebiaSeni kokors gamoacxobdes, me melaze da mamalze giambob zRapars. gogona gaiqca, babuas muxlebze Semoaxta da qanaoba dauwyo. Semdeg kiserze Semoexvia, TvalebSi akoca da Seexvewa: _ babu! Svelze da nukrze miambe. _ keTili da patiosani. ai, me mogiyvebi Svelze da patara nukrze, Semdeg Sen ise kargad unda daimaxsovro, rom xval TviTon miambo. gaige? _ gavige, babua. aba, yru xom ar var. _ ho da raxan gaige, mismine. _ erT mTaze cxovrobda lamazi Sveli. mas patara nukri hyavda. dedas Zalian uyvarda Tavisi Svili da Tavs evleboda. erT zamTars didi Tovli movida. Sewuxda Sveli, rom nukrs noyieri sazrdo aRar hqonda da sakvebis saSovnelad barSi Camovidnen. deda Tavis Svils aCvevda Wamas, nakadulTan misvlas, sirbils, sicxeSi zeviT mTaSi asvlas. _ ai, iseTze? - SeekiTxa gogona da loRorulis wvers gaxeda. _ ho, ufro maRalzec. isini iqidan xedavdnen mTel qveyanas. _ ra kargia, babu? xedavdnen mTel qveyanas. vin icis, iqneb Svels Cemi dedac unaxavs?- Seawyvetina gogonam. svimonam Tvalebi aafaxuna. imis SiSiT, kidev arafers SehkiTxoda SviliSvili, Txroba gaagrZela. _ zamTarSi barSi Camovidnen. _ netavi, Cvens sofelSi movidodnen. _ ara, Svilo. sofelSi ar movlen. maT adamianis eSiniaT. _ ratom? _ ratom? erT dRes Sveli da misi nukri WalaSi Camovidnen da nekers dauwyes Wama. im Rames WalaSi daiZines Tbilad. diliT, roca mze amoiwvera, dedam Svili gaaRviZa da wamoayena. nukri SekuntruSda da dedas moefera. im dRes yvelaze bednieri iyo patara nukri. didxans ar dascalda ase yofna. saidanRac Tofis xma gaisma, patara SekrTa, dedisaken gaixeda, magram Sveli qveviT migoravda. pataram misken gadadga nabiji, rom viRac Tofiani gamovida buCqebidan, Sveli zurgze moigdo da wavida. antonina mkerdze miekra babuas, Tavi magrad miaWira da gaitruna. _ mismen, babu? - CaekiTxa babua SviliSvils. bavSvi xmas ar iRebda. moxucma Tavi auwia. Tvalebi daexuWa, tuCebi moekuma da cdilobda, ar atirebuliyo. babua mixvda, sakmarisi iyo mofereboda, rom gogona gulamomjdari daiwyebda tirils. moxucma frTxilad miikra mkerdze bavSvis norCi da umanko saxe. bostnidan bebiam gadmoabija. antoninam misken gaixeda, babuas
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dausxlta, bebias kiserze Camoekida da atirda. _ ra iyo? - Secbunebulma ikiTxa qalma. qvabi, raSic axladamoRebuli kartofili ewyo, Zirs dauSva, Camojda da kalTaSi Caisva patara. _ ar ityvi? kaco ra moxda? - axla mwyralad gaxeda qmars. svimona ki gaognebuli ijda da sadRac Sors ixedeboda. _ dagiyruvda mag yurebi! ram gagaqvava adamiano, gelaparakeba? _ nu, bebo, nu, nu wyevli babuas - amoislokina gogonam da isev gulze miekra. babua joxs daeyrdno, Zlivs wamoimarTa da saxlisaken moxrili wavida. cota rom gaiara, weli gaaswora da ise Sevida winakarSi. _ dedu, is Tofiani kaci, nukrs rom deda moukla, germaneli iyo?- SeekiTxa bavSvi bebias. _ isev is moayole? mogikvdes bebia. _ germaneli iyo wyeuli albaT, Torem uwyinar cxovelze vin aRmarTavs xels mosaklavad. ui, gawyda magisTanebis sinsila. ezoSi isev gamoCnda svimona. mas qaRaldSi gaxveuli sagani eWira. isev pirvandel mdgomareobas daubrunda. bavSvma misken gaixeda. jer isev slukunebda. simonam RimiliT gaxeda da xeli dauqnia. _ modi CemTan, ra gaCveno? Sen ki, boSo, wadi da erTi kargi qaduani gamoacxve. _ ra iyo, babu? - Tvalebze cremlebi moiwminda da misken wavida bajbajiT. _ ai, ra gaCveno? man qaRaldi saTuTad gaxsna da suraTebi amoiRo. _ Sexede, Seni dediko! xom xedav, ra lamazia, germanelebs garekavs da mova. Semdeg sul erTad iqnebiT. es ki Seni mamaa. isic germanelebs hklavs. daxocaven im urjuloebs da movlen. Sen ici, ramdeni germaneli hyavs mokluli Sens mamas? _ ramdeni? _ bevri, Zalian bevri. _ marTla? - taSi Semohkra bavSvma da gadaikiskisa. _ rodis movlen? - SeekiTxa SviliSvili yovlismcodne babuas. _ male. omi roca damTavrdeba. _ rodis damTavrdeba omi? _ male, sul male. _ sul male? maSin Tu asea, ai, iq davjdebi da davelodebi babu. Tu ginda, Tqven saxlSi SediT. me pirvelad davinaxav. is mxrebze Semisvams, ar,Fsanax babu?... rogorc ki davinaxav, SenTan da bebiasTan gamoviqcevi da getyviT. Semdeg bebia, tkbil CurCxelas momcems saCuqrad. _ ho, Svilo, ho! ase iqneba. - axla simonas moadga Tvalebze cremli,
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magram roca bavSvis gabrwyinebuli saxe dainaxa, Tavi Seikava. ezoSi bebia gamovida. TefSze dadebuli cxeli qada mohqonda. _ aba, WameT. bebero, cota Caixare, exlave meoresac movayoleb. - moris kuTxeSi Camojda. cxeli qada gatexa. jer SviliSvils miawoda, Semdeg qmrisken miswia. _ i civi Rvinukac amogetana. - SeparviT sTxova simonam cols. _ exlave, bebero - wamoimarTa moxuci da cqvitad saxlisaken gaiqca. _ aba, fofol nina, daviwyoT. SevejibroT, vin pirveli gaaTavebs. - isev gamoCnda sofio doqiT xelSi, Zirs dakidebuli Tavsafari zeviT aigdo da Rvino Tixis sasmisSi Camoasxa. _ gaamos, Cemo bebrucuna. Tu ara, ra meSveleboda. _ daiRupe, dalie, nu moedebi axla. _ ai, kviracxovlis madlo da Zalo, Sen damibrune Svilebi Sin. Sena gTxov da gexvewebi, aavse Cemi ojaxi monagariT. roca moxucma sasmisi dacala, gogona bebias moubrunda da SeekiTxa. _ babuam miTxra, dedaSeni da mamaSeni omidan male dabrundebiano, Tu marTla male movlen, aq davelodoTo. dedu, gexvewebi, Tu dameZinos, aq damtove. Tu didxans vijdebi WiSkarTan, ufro male movlen. ho, babu?- axla babuas moubrunda gogona. _ ho, Svilo, Wame, Wame. - magram Tavisi lukma Zirs dauSva. kidev gamoitana qada sofiom, Tvalebze momdgari cremli Tavsafris boloTi Seiwminda. SiSiT nugeSic ki ver uTxra SviliSvils. _ wadi, simona, gaiare. axla me davjdebi am baRanasTan da gavarTob. qve mainc gaigeb, ras ambobs xalxi sanaxSoze. welmowyvetili simona zeze wamodga da joxis bjeniT WiSkris kari gaiara. sofio ki morze Camojda. SviliSvili kalTaSi Caisva, rweva dauwyo da Tan RiRini daiwyo: _ aqa deda, aqa mama, aqa deda, aqa mama. _ mere, mec meyoleba deda da ai, xrikeenT sara rom ipranWeba... _ beCa, Cemma dedam wiTeli kaba Semikera.- dascina gogonam. _ ui, CleCa gauCda imis mudreg Tavs, Tu Senodena kabebi imas ara hqondes. - qoqola gaugzavna mezoblis bavSvs bebiam. _ aqa deda, aqa mama, aqa deda, aqa mama.- moxucma rwevas moumata. _ dedu gexvewebi. aq davelodoT, ha? - bavSvs daamTqnara, sofiom mis rwevas moumata. sul male gogonas bebias kalTaSi CaeZina. ase iyo yovel dRe maxaroblianT simonas ojaxSi, rac omi daiwyo da bavSvis deda-mama ugzo-uklod daikargnen. moxucebs calke Svilisa da rZlis dardi hqondaT, calke SviliSvilis dardi. yovel cismara dRes zRaprebiTa da suraTebiT arTobdnen gogonas. aqeT TviTonac irTobdnen Tavs da masTan erTad elodnen frontze wasulebis ambavs. maTgan ambavi ar iyo. simona
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gatexes am wlebma. sofio ki ufro gamagrda. maT Tavis ubeSi gamozardes udedmamod datovebuli gogona. mTeli Zala am buTxuza gogonas aRzrdas moandomes. TamTa onSi muSaobda. kviras amodioda. patara didi sixaruliT eloda mis gamoCenas. gaiqceoda misken. _ ra momitane?- gzidanve SeekiTxeboda da xelCanTaSi CauZvreboda. Semdeg mTeli kvira misi amosvlis molodinSi iyvnen moxucebic da patarac. daRamebisas, roca gogonas miaZinebdnen, simona buxrispiras jdeboda da qalamnebs keravda. sofios an saCeCeli edga, an windebs qsovda da Tan fiqrobda: _ vin icis, iqneb Cem Svilebamdec miaRwios amano. sofelSi Savkabianebi momravldnen. xan erT saxlSi atydeboda kivili da moTqma, xan meoreSi. sofio gulis kankaliT SesCereboda WiSkarTan gavlil fostalions, magram arc avismauwyebeli qaRaldi sCanda da arc kargis. _ Cveni qveyana qve gauwmendiaT, mara axla Turme cxvirSi unda amoadinon hitlers, rac Cven dagvakles. - ambobdnen moxucebi da erTaderT radios SesCerebodnen, romlisganac qveynis ambebs igebdnen. am radiosTan Sejgufebuli adamianebi ar ileodnen arc zamTarSi da arc zafxulSi. antonina xuTi wlis gaxda. man enis adgma qarTulis swavliT daiwyo. es Casuqebuli gogona mezoblebs Zalian uyvardaT. rogorc ki ezos gareT gamosuls dainaxavdnen, xels dauqnevdnen da dauZaxebdnen: _ modi aq. modi, rusis boSuka! rusi qalis Svili ki yovel dRe ijda WiSkarTan dagdebul morze da quCaSi ixedeboda. is xSirad daRamebamdec eloda mSoblebs. erT dRes daRonebuli bavSvi Cveulebisamebr ijda morze da ukve mobezrebuli gascqeroda gza-Saras. daiRala yoveldRe lodiniT, magram mainc eloda. Soriaxlos moxucebi saqmobdnen, Tan Tvals ar aSorebdnen gabutul gogonas. bavSvi moxucebs ukve aRar abezrebda Tavs SekiTxvebiT, samagierod swamda, rom Tu didxans ijdeboda, aucileblad movidodnen misi mSoblebi. im dRes bavSvebi misi ezos win mezoblis panta msxals qvebs esrodnen da Camocvenili nayofisaken yvela erTad garboda. _ ruso, Senc modi - dauZaxa gogonas. gogona mwyralad SeiSmuSna. _ ra ginda? _ modi. msxals gaWmevT. _ me aq dedikos velodebi. _ aq modi da daelode! - gaekriWa erTi axmaxi biWuna.
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_ ar minda. Cemi deda germanelebs klavs. ai, Camova da medlebs Camomitanes. _ vin giTxra? _ babuam. _ ra ici? Seni deda da mama daikargnen. Sen ki gatyueben. iqneba TviTon isini mohkles germanelebma. gogona adgilidan mowyda. did qvas daavlo xeli da biWs esrola. gamwarda, rom ver moaxvedra. tirili atexa. simona ezoSi gamodga: _ ra ambavia? _ dedaSeni germanelebma mohkleso. - tiroda antonina da Tavs qvebze uSenda. SeSinebuli biWebi gaifantnen. _ Sen moukvdi Sens patrons, saidan moigone? - moesmaT mezoblis wyevla. gacecxlebulma simonam axalgazrduli simardiT gadairbina ezo, yanaSi gadaxta, Robes gadaevlo. axla mas aRar sWirdeboda joxi, is mardad garboda, rom im biWs dasweoda. _ dedas gitireb, Se mudrego, Sena. baRana ubeSi vzarde da Sen guli moukali, Se, ujiSo? me Sen giCveneb Se mawanwala, vis moukvda deda! - esmoda gogonas. saidanRac sofioc gaCnda. roca miwaze garTxmuli bavSvi dainaxa, fexze aayena, TavsafriT cremlebi Sewminda da imdeni wyevla SeuTvala im biWs, rom meeWveba, dRes cocxali iyos. - ambobda Semdeg antonina, roca im wlebs igonebda. im wels iyo swored, zemo raWis mTis soflebidan xalxis gadasaxleba rom daiwyo, axalcixe-adigenisa da qluxoris raionebSi. urmebiT gaemgzavrnen onamde. masze ewyo Zvelmanebi, is rac aucilebeli iyo maTTvis. Semdeg onSi manqanebi elodaT. quTaisidan ki sabargo matarebliT mouxdaT mgzavroba. ubeSi Cakruli antoninac mihyavda sofio bebias am misTvis grZel gzaze. matareblis yovel kivilze damWknar mkerdze ekvroda gogona, bebia ki raRacas Cumad eCurCuleboda. etyoboda, ulocavda, rom ar SeSineboda. simona da TamTa Wioras ar moSordnen. _ Sen wadi, boSo. iqneba kargi sacxovrebelia iq. im biWs daaxvedreb rames. mere isev aq dabrundi. me ki sanam cocxali var, aqaurobas ar movSordebi, Wioris Tovls ar Cavangrevineb mTeli cxovrebis nawvalebs. TamTas ki arc ufiqria, odesme mietovebia Wiora. axalgazrdobaSive sibrZneSi Sesul qaliSvils verc warmoedgina, Tu SeiZleboda yofiliyo ufro lamazi cxovreba Wioris gareSe... Tanac avadmyofi mamis Tovlsa da wyals Soris mitoveba miutevebel danaSaulad miaCnda.
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TamTas gansakuTrebiT uyvarda Tavisi amayi, dRes ki motexili mama. _ moxuci, nuTu, imis Rirsi ar unda iyos, Svilebma dauxuWon Tvali. - fiqrobda TamTa. sofio ki wavida. _ wiTelarmielis deda var da wiTelarmielis Svilsa vzrdi. qveyana didia. iqneba, oqros arigeben da Tu vinmes ekuTvnis saerTod, yvelaze pirvels me unda mergoso. hoda, gamoikra ubeSi Tavisi patara bartyi da wahyva mezoblebs. _ vaime, ugzo-ukvlod dakarguli Svilebi! i biWi mainc CamoeyvanaT. romeli vinaRvlo me, ubedurma? - mosTqvamda kentad darCenili simona. axla aRaravin uSlida xels. mieCvia xmamaRla laparaks. xan ilikos axsenebda da xan anatolis, Semdeg valentinas mkacri saxe daudgeboda Tvalwin da Cailaparakebda: _ cocxlebi Tu xarT axla Tqven?
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_ dedu-aaa! dedu-aaa!- eZaxda antonina. roca pasuxi ver miiRo, ufro xmamaRla ayvirda. _ dedu-aaa! dedu-aaa! _ ra iyo, bebo? - amosZaxa SviliSvils sofiom. gogonam kisrismtvreviT Cairbina daRmarTi. guli amovardnaze hqonda, magram aseTi bednieri saxe bebias arasodes daenaxa. _ dedu, axali ambavi... - qalma bavSvs Sexeda. is ki Rrmad sunTqavda da pasuxs agvianebda. _ aRar ityvi? gamixeTqe guli. _ getyvi dedu, getyvi. sofelSi zaris gabmuli xma ismoda. _ gesmis? _ paJari xom arsad gaCnda, boSo, Tqvi, raRas mawameb. _ ra dros paJaria dedu. omi damTavrda, omi! suyvela skolis ezoSi garbian. mec iq mindoda wasvla, magram SenTan gamoviqeci,kiserze Camoekida da Tvalebi daukocna bebias. _ Cqara, raRas udgaxar, wavideT dedu, wavideT, Torem gvajobeben. _ omi damTavrda? - motyda sixaruliT sofio. Semdeg SemkrTali auyva aRmarTs. _ RmerTo, ismine Cemi vedreba. damibrune monagari uklebliv. Seni Wirime, nu gadaiyvan maxaroblianT simonas uZeod. Tu sadmea i boSi, moiyvane babuamisis keramde. - miCifCifebda sofio da iqiT garboda, saiTkenac xalxi midioda. ukan ki sixaruliT awiTlebuli antonina mikuntruSobda. mas sul sxvanairad hqonda warmodgenili
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omis damTavreba. egona, rom skolis win daxvdeboda medlebiani jariskacebis rigi. xalxi garboda. yvela Tavis mamas exveoda. antonina ki Sexvdeboda dedas, mamas da Zmas? _ isini me damiwyeben Zebnas. me ki bebias amovefarebi da Soridan davakvirdebi. babua mudam meubneboda, dedaSeni lamazi ariso. medlebi da jariskacis forma xom ufro mouxdeba. gana ar ici, rogorc ki skolis wina kuTxesTan mivalT. deda im wuTSive SemamCnevs da daiyvirebs. _ ,,Cemi gogona. ai, is... da Cemken gamoiqceva. mamac gamoedevneba, Semdeg anatolic. me Sevdgebi da davucdi. am fiqriT miilia gza da akankalebuli sofioc Sedga. soflis axalgazrdobas wre SeukravT da cekvavdnen. radiodan ki ismoda omis damTavrebis mauwyebeli xma. _ sad arian, dedu? _ vin? _ isini... Cvenebi... jariskacebi... _ movlen. male movlen. gogona Sedga. mklavSi Caafrinda da SesZaxa: _ isini iq wavidodnen, babua morze zis axla da maT elodeba. netav, Cvenc iq viyoT. _ SemogviTvlis babua. SemogviTvlis.- daamSvida bavSvi, Semdeg zurgze moikida da ukan dabrunda. im wels modiodnen da modiodnen omgadaxdili meomrebi. is weli bevrisTvis sixarulis weli iyo. cekva-TamaSi ismoda xan erTi ojaxidan, xan meore ojaxidan. iyo iseTi ojaxebic, vinc arc Svilebis avi icoda da arc kargi. es weli maTTvis molodinis, SiSis da sixarulis weli iyo. _ lominaanT ladua movida. ori medali hkidia gulze. - esmoda mezoblebis CurCuli antoninas. bavSvi garboda mis dasanaxad. undoda, gaecno, rogori mama hyavda mis megobars. karebSi damdgari SesCereboda mamis muxlebze amayad wamomjdar amxanags, romelic ise iyo gaxarebuli, rom mas verc ki amCnevda. anTimo Camovidao ... da axla iqiT garboda antonina. col-SviliT da mezoblebiT garSemortymuli omis sayvarel ambebs hyveboda. sandruac Camovida. is ucolSvilo iyo. CifCikiT sanaxSoze miegeba dedamisi da atirda Svilis danaxvisas. ratomRac am suraTs gakvirvebulma Sexeda gogonam da gaifiqra: _ ra atirebs, netav? bebia ki ar itirebs, roca Cemi deda da mama dabrundebian. _ netav, ratom igvianeben. albaT gmirebi rom arian, imitom. daimSvida Tavi gogonam. im weliwads maRaziaSi mosuli CiTis naWeri irgo sofiom, Tavisi xeliT mougvirista kaba SviliSvils. patara naWrisgan wignebis Can- 424 -

Tac Seukera, Zveli Sarvlis naWrisagan ki saucxoo Custebi daukera, didis ambiT skolaSi miiyvana. Tanac bavSvebs mrisxaned gadaxeda da gaafrTxila, bovSvi aravin gamilaxoT, Torem Sav dRes dagayriTo. maswavlebeli ki saidumlod gverdze gaiyvana da Seexvewa: _ oboli bovSvia. saTuTad gazrdili, bevri ar awvaloT, rasac iswavlis, imas dasjerdiTo. nu gavamtyunebT moxucs. mas xom es erTi cicqna gogo SerCa qveyanaze. raWaSi darCenili simona uares dReSi iyo. monagarze fiqrma mTlianad Searyia misi jamrTeloba: gamouciva Tvalebi, Caucvivda loyebi, Walebisaken mzeriT gauSra wyali pirSi. Tu sofios is cicqna gogona amagrebda da Tavisi fiqrisaTvis dros ar utovebda, mas esec aRar hqonda da sul marto darCa. mamis avadmyofobam ki gaamagra TamTa. roca omis damTavrebis Semdeg pirvelad CamoTova Wioris SukebSi, simona Svilis dabrunebiT imeddakarguli samudamod sarecels miejaWva. TamTam mezoblebis da naTesavebis daxmarebiT gadaitana sayvareli mamis sikvdili. amis Semdeg mis xasiaTs simkacrec Seemata da es niSani gahyva bolomde. _ gabrieli da Tebrole CemTvis yvelaferi iyvnen. - uTqvams xSirad TamTas. mis adgilze, sxva gamoketavda mamiseul keras da gaeqceoda yvelafers, risi mogonebac mis vaJkacur, magram saTuT bunebas awuxebda. roca man mZime wuTebi dasZlia, gadawyvita, burjad amosdgomoda mamiseul ezo-kars da mitovebiT ar gaeCanagebia igi. amiT igi mamisadmi usazRvro siyvaruls gamoxatavda. amave dros TamTas Tavisi sofeli saocrad uyvarda, gaumxeleli pirveli siyvarulis msgavsad. am siyvarulSi iyo saocari sulis saTuTi mSveniereba. misi soflis miwa, qviani quCebi, danakelebuli ezoebi, Tu kviracxovlis xateba iyo is, rac Tavisken izidavda. qals ar swamda TviT bednierebac Tavisi soflis gareSe. _ ver warmomidgenia bedniereba Cemi xalxis, Cemi soflis, Cemi mezoblebis gareSe. ver gamigia, is bedniereba rogori unda iyos, Tu mas Cemi megobrebi ver dainaxaven. bevrma welma ganvlo, Wioris Sarebma bevri Tovli Seisruta. bevrjer moiWra kakos ZirSi rioni da uxidod dastova Wiorlebi. mxolod TamTa iyo ucvleli. misi vaJkacuri tani, TeTri saxe, aristokratuli gamoxedva da Tvalebi, maradiuli cecxliT anTebuli Tvalebi momajadoebel STabeWdilebas tovebda. mamiseul qamar-xanjliT cxenze amxedrebulic unaxavT igi Wiorlebs. mas jiriTiT hqonda Semovlili nowara, Rebi, digori da kviracxovlis garSemo midamoebi.
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mas uyvarda xetiali da amas Taviseburi siTboTi akeTebda TamTa. _ netav, Tu aris aseTi sofeli? - kiTxulobda qaliSvili, roca viwro bilikebze Camohyavda cxeni. pedagogiuri instituti dauswreblad daamTavra da Tavisi bedi samudamod yvelaze mSvenier da faqiz xelobas daukavSira. maRali sulis adamianma maxaroblianT TamTam bevri maRali sulis moqalaqe da adamiani gauzarda samSoblos da TiTqmis yvelam datoves iqauroba. axal cxovrebaSi gasvlisas maT Tan wahyvaT maswavlebisadmi mokrZaleba. usazRvro pativs scemda Tavisi soflis warsuls da misi guli itevda usazRvro siTbos, romelsac ganurCevlad unawilebda yvelas. _ me wilad mxvda bedniereba, orjer menaxa es SesaniSnavi qali da samudamod Seviyvare igi. pirvelad ormocdaxuTi wlis asakSi. qvaze ijda bavSvebiT garsSemortymuli. wigni eWira da raRacas TavdaviwyebiT hyveboda. axalgazrdebi saocari interesiT usmendnen. Soriaxlos Sevdeqi. misma silamazem momajadova da mivxvdi, vinc iyo. meored samoci wlis asakSi... Savi tansacmeli ecva da kankleTisaken saqonels mirekavda. naRvari wylidan SevamCnie misi briala Tvalebi. TviT samoc welsac ver Caeqro didi siTbo da sicocxlis Suqi mis mSvenier, dauberebel TvalebSi. mowiwebiT Sevdeqi da Tavi davxare mis winaSe, Tavi davxare misi mSvenieri warsulisa da ganumeorebeli silamazis winaSe, imis gamoc, rom man daferfla Tavisi didi momavali kavkasionis ferdTan Sekedlebul zvavze da TovlSi gamoketil WioraSi. namdvilad SeeZlo, sxva cxovrebiT ecxovra, sxva bednierebiT damtkbariyo, magram amaze uari Tqva. misTvis aseTi sicocxle iyo bedniereba. _ ratom ar gaTxovdi, TamTa? - sinanuliT bevrjer SekiTxvian mxolod axlo adamianebi, radgan amis Tqmas mxolod axloblebi Tu gaubedavdnen. is iRimeboda da upasuxod tovebda SekiTxvas. omidan dabrunebuli vaJkacebi axlomaxlo soflebidan modiodnen, magram yvelas Tavaziani uari uTxra da moiSora. mis damTavrebis erTi wlis Semdeg, roca TamTa morig gakveTilze unda Sesuliyo, sabWos Senobidan Tebroles Zaxili moesma: _ TamTa, erTi wuTiT gamodi aq. _ aucilebelia? _ yovel mizezgareSe. gaocebuli imis gamo, rom ase udroo dros eZaxda Tebrole, TamTa moajirTan erT wuTs Sedga, Semdeg Cqari nabijiT wavida
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sabWosken. _ ra moxda? _ ra bednierebaa, Sexede ilikos werilia. - Tavidan bolomde Jruantelma dauara TamTas da skami rom ar mieSvelebiaT, waiqceoda. _ ra Tqvi, Tebrole? - gaognebulma amoiluRluRa. _ dawynardi. ufro vaJkaci megone. _ nuTu, es simarTlea. _ Sexede. donbasidan aris. TamTa werils swvda da gaxsna. gulis fancqaliT gadaikiTxa dakarguli Zmis werili. _ dResve, dResve unda gavemgzavro da sacodavi deda da patara antonina unda gavaxaro. mesame dRes ki yelze exveoda antonina Tavis sikvdilamde saTayvanebel mamidas. _ werili, Toma, mamas werili. antonina meore klasSi swavlobda. am sityvebis mosmenisas bavSvs ar gauRimia, arc sixaruli gamouxatavs da arc gakvirveba. rac Tavi axsovs, sul dedisa da mamis molodinSi iyo, yvelasagan esmoda nugeSi. `male movleno - eubnebodnen bebia, babua, mamida, naTesavebi da megobrebi. sityva male mis azrSi mTeli sicocxle iyo, mTeli misi molodiniT aRsavse bavSvoba. es molodini misi ganuyofeli nawili gaxda. namdvili bavSvoba ise gaepara Tvalsa da xels Soris, rom ver gaigo, ra iyo bavSvoba. roca omi damTavrda da megobrebis sixaruliT gabrwyinebuli saxeebi dainaxa, gogonas moTminebis fialac amoewura da sadRac gulis siRrmidan amotivtivda SiSi. _ iqneb, marTla daxoces deda da mama germanelebma? - amas agonebda bavSvobisas daZaxebuli biWunas moufiqrebeli sityvebi. _ albaT matyueben, matyueben yvela. - simwriT wamoiZaxa am aRmoCeniT gulmoklulma bavSvma. erTbaSad gogona undobi gaxda yvelafris mimarT, Tavis TavSi Caiketa. Tu aqamde aTas SekiTxvebs usvamda yvelas, erTbaSad yvelafrisadmi interesi daekarga. mas swamda, sul erTia, marTals mainc ar etyodnen. ar tiroda, arc araferze wuwunebda. SimSiliT rom momkvdariyo, purs ar gatexda. akeTebda yvelafers, rasac daavalebdnen, magram uinteresod. _ ratom mimalavdnen? - ekiTxeboda TavisTavs da jer kidev ver garkveuliyo, sworad moeqcnen Tu ara. bavSvobis amxanagebs TandaTan CamoSorda. gaurboda maTi sixaruliT da bednierebiT gabrwyinebul Tvalebs da ise, rom TviTonac ar SeumCnevia, mis gulSi WiasaviT gaCnda Suri, bavSvuri, jer kidev fesvgaudgmeli da daumagrebeli, magram mainc saSineli Suri. mas Surda megobrebis sixarulic, bednierebac da yvelaferi is, rac mSoblebTan iyo dakavSirebuli.
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iqneb sjobda, rom bebia, romelmac bolo wlebi misTvis icocxla, dedad mieCnia. mas xom ded-mamaze warmodgena ar hqonda. bebiasTana alersi xom arc erTma dedam ar icoda. antonina molodinSi aRizarda. mas sixaruli esaxeboda xis iqiT, momaval dRes, daRamebisas, yvelgan-es iyo mudam momavalSi. am molodinma, gauTavebelma fiqrma, gamudmebulma ocnebam mSoblebze mas sasicocxlo nervebi dauwvriles. gana is ar sjobda, rom bebia, romelmac mas dedis siTbo da dedis siyvaruli misca, mamis nugeSic da mfarvelobac, Tavidanve mieCnia dedad. antoninasadmi siTbos ar iSurebdnen TviT keTili mezoblebi, magram antoninas TvalebSi bebiadan dawyebuli mezoblebiT damTavrebuli- es iyo oblisadmi mudam gamzadebuli sibraluli. _ maxaroblianT rusi gogonao, - Cumad warmoTqmuli es sityvebi, aRizianebda gogonas. mas sZulda sibraluli. mzad iyo, am dros qva esrola maTTvis. raRacaTi gaebrazebia, Tavisi siTavxediT maTSi sawinaaRmdego grZnoba gaeCina, magram amis gakeTeba ar SeeZlo da rom ar SeeZlo, bavSvi TavisTavis ukmayofiloc gaxda. da axla roca TamTa mamidam mamis werili axara, araferi gamouxatavs mis saxes. mxolod xelebi CamouSva Zirs da didxans ucqerda undoblad. Semdeg Zalian civad uTxra: _ Senc matyueb, TamTa mamida? gulis siRrmemde SeaZrwuna TamTa am sityvebma. man dainaxa bavSvis TvalebSi zrdasrulebuli adamianis gamoxedva. _ saidan ifiqre, Cemo? antoninas erTi wuTiT Seebrala TamTa. Tvali jibisken gaapara, saiTac mamidam xeli waiRo. roca mis xelSi samkuTxa baraTi dainaxa, gogona frTxilad Seexo da xelSi daiWira. erTxans xelSi atrialebda. _ viTom es mamam dawera? - kidev SeekiTxa antonina, magram roca mamidis Tvalebze cremlebi dainaxa, gakvirvebulma werili ukan daubruna da wasCurCula: _ nu tiri, mamida. deduas davuZaxeb, dariko bicolasTan purs acxobs. _ dauZaxe. gogona qviT naSen yoreze Sedga, fexis wverebze aiwia da daiyvira: _ dedu-aaa-a, dedu-aaa, gamoixede mamaCemis werilia, mamaCemis... _ ras ambob, gogo? - aivanze gamodga dariko. _ dedua, uTxari, TamTa mamida Camovida da mamaCemis werili Camoitana. gesmis? _ dedu-aaa gesmis? mamas werilia. - daiwyo axla ufro xmamaRla yvirili gogonam, Semdeg ufro moumata xmas. misi wkriala xma efineboda mezoblebs da sofios saxlisken morboda saxegabrwyinebuli.
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antonina yorze idga da Tan yviroda. yviroda maSinac, roca mTelma sofelma moirbina maT ezoSi, yviroda, roca gulwasuli sofio Semoiyvanes garedan. mas arafris danaxva da arafris mosmena ar surda. mxolod undoda, yvelas gaego misi bednierebis ambavi. _ mamaCemi movida! - gabmiT iZaxda. saxe gaswiTleboda, yelis ZarRvebi dahberoda da roca sunTqva Seekra, erTbaSad dawynarda. man Tvali moavlo xalxiT gaWedil ezos. yvela mas ucqerda da maT TvalebSi antoninam veRar SeamCnia sibraluli. yoredan Camoxta, mamidasTan miiWra, werili waarTva da daiZaxa: _ Tqven xom fiqrobdiT, rom Cemi mama ar movidoda? ai, xom xedavT. - Tqva da werili zeviT aafriala. amis Semdeg sityvam `male~, mTeli bavSvis organizmi daisakuTra. karis Wrialze, gamvleli manqanis xmaurze, mezoblis TvalebSi, Tu amxanagebTan saTamaSod wasvlisas, mudam gverdiT edga da bavSvuri ocnebiT Sestrfoda Tavis saTayvanebel mamas, mamas - ocnebaSi medlebiT mkerddamSvenebuls. _ Tvalebs davxuWav da davTvli ocamde, an asamde, aTasamde, nuTu amaze gvian mova? - ekiTxeboda TavisTavs bavSvi. _ ratom dedaze arafers iwereba? - avi fiqri kvlav Semoedeboda, magram myisve qreboda. _ ai, mova da ityvis. Tumca dedas iq xom ar datovebs? is albaT anatolisTan aris da male erTad viqnebiT me, deda, mama, anatoli, bebia, TamTa mamida da es iqneba sul male. es sityva axla aRar aRizianebda, aRarc SiSi eufleboda. mas swamda `male sul male iqneboda, sadRac axlos, xelisgawvdenaze. da dadga dRe, romelze fiqrSic gaizarda antonina. yovelTvis dauzareblad mofusfuse bebia ezoSi trialebda. mas gamoulevlad hqonda saqme. saqmes ki xSirad is umatebda, rom erTi da igive nivTi TviTon umiznod gadahqonda erTi adgilidan meoreze. gzaSi skolidan dabrunebul SviliSvils mohkra Tvali da vidre ezoSi Sevidoda, facafuciT samzareuloSi Sevida, rusul Rumelze gasaTbobad kerZi Semodga. Semdeg isev gamovarda gareT, WiSkarTan miegeba, RvediT mibmuli xis karebi gauRo, CiTis CanTa CamoarTva da SeekiTxa: _ mogikvda bebia, mogSivdeboda. _ mSia, ho, dedu. antonina am Sexvedras SeCveuli iyo. win gauswro, win karSi Sevida da xeli gadaabanina. _ ra hqeni, friadi xom miiRe? _ oTxi rusulSi. _ oTxi saxareba gauwyra imas. friadze bevri dagaklda? ratom friadi ar dagiwera. mara, sul Cems jinaze gaukeTebia. aryis gamo- 429 -

sacvleli gobi rom damimtvria da meored ar vaTxove, imitom bebo, mara Sen meyole janmrTelad da oTxic kai niSania. Rumlidan kerZis saamo suni gamovida. antoninas swamda, rom qveyanaze yvelaze gemriel saWmels misi bebia akeTebda. _ gacxelebula.- Cailaparaka bebiam. qvabs kovziT mouria da TefSze daasxa. _ sofio bebia! - moesma ezodan xma. _ vin ari? Sen ijeqi Svilo, me gavxedav. TefSi antoninas win dadga da ezoSi kalTaze xelebis wmendiT gavida. _ bebia sofio, samaxaroblo! - WiSkarTan moiWra mezoblis ymawvili. _ ra iyo juRa, ra unda maxaro axla magisTana. - xmis kankaliT SeekiTxa moxuci. _ iliko....- meti aRar gaugonia sofios. karebSi Caikeca. biWi karebSi SemoiWra. mezoblebic Semocvivdnen da moxucs yurebis zela dauwyes. antoninas maSin Caesma mamis saxeli, roca pirisken kovzi mihqonda. Tbilma JrJolam mTel sxeulSi gadauara da farTod gaxelili Tvalebi karebSi Cakecil bebias miapyro. erTxans haerSi gaSeSebuli xeli uazrod eWira. guls bagabugi gahqonda: egona, sadacaa, amovardebao. qalebi kvlav bebias asulierebdnen. is ki ijda skamze gaognebuli. _ ra Tqva juRam? iliko modiso. is xom mamaCemia, mama, romelic arasodes minaxavs. rogoria netav?- wamodga. _ ratom ar gaviqcevi da ar Sevxvdebi? _ micnobs? - ezoSi gaiWra. Tmebs urxevda qari, loyebi aswvoda siwiTliT, tuCebi gaficxeboda da eniT ilokavda. garboda, garboda da fexebi ekeceboda. _ micnobs?- guls yru xmauri gahqonda da es Sinagani xmauri mTel sxeuls efineboda. mTeli simZime erTad iyrida Tavs da fexebze awveboda. _ micnobs? - axla es asvenebda. gzaze gaiWra. Sors xidTan Sejgufebuli xalxi dainaxa. _ micnobs? - es fiqri ar asvenebda. TavdaRmarTze kisrismtvreviT garboda. _ micnobs? - jiutad ekiTxeboda Tavis Tavs da iqiT garboda, sadac viRac misTvis ucnobs, magram yvelaze maxlobel adamians xalxi exvia da dabrunebas ulocavda. roca ramdenime nabijze aRmoCnda mamamisisagan, Sedga. idga da pirdapir saxeSi uyurebda mamas. _ ver micno! - kvnesasaviT Semoesma mkerdis Signidan. ar utiria, mxolod saxe moeRrica sacodavad da axla dakvirvebiT CaaTvaliera mSobeli.
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mis saxeze ar sCanda gamarjvebis sixaruli, omgadaxdilis valmoxdili gamoxedva. misi Tvalebi ar brwyinavdnen siTboTi, Rimili mokrZalebuli da morCili hqonda, xolo saxeze gaCenil uamrav Rarze simtkicis arc erTi niSani ar ikveTeboda. misi gaxunebuli faraja naomars ki ara, naSroms ufro hgavda, xolo mkerdze arc erTi medali ar brwyinavda. is idga mezoblebs Soris da bavSvs moeCvena, mamamisi marto iyo. qviT mofenili Sara xalxiT aivso da maxaroblianT ilikos saxlisaken wauZRnen. imedgacruebuli da saocrad dapataravebuli antonina ukan gahyva. roca ezoSi Tavisi deda dainaxa, ilikos kvnesasaviT aRmoxda qviTini, misken gaiqca da daiZaxa: _ vaime, deda! _ me ki ver micno! - jiutad gaimeora Tavis gulSi antoninam, adgilidan mosxletiT moswyda, kari miijaxuna, iatakze daeca da mware tirili daiwyo. oTaxSi Sesulma ilikom xeli waavlo atirebul gogonas, zeviT aitaca da mkerdze miikra. Semdeg cisfer TvalebSi Caxeda da akankalebuli xmiT CasZaxa: _ Cemi gogona! kidev meRirsa Seni naxva. - Tvalebidan cremlebi Rapa-RupiT Camosdioda. _ mere deda? anatoli sad datove? - SiSiT SeekiTxa gogona, magram roca mamis saxeze saSineli mwuxareba dainaxa, Tvalebi daxuWa da saxe mamis mkerdSi Camala.
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mas Semdeg, rac antoninas mama daubrunda da bolos da bolos asrulda is didi xnis natvra, rac masSi mexsierebis gaCenasTan erTad warmoiSva, rogorc savaraudo iyo, gogonas cxovrebaSi unda dawyebuliyo axali sicocxle, gulsavse da guldamSvidebuli, magram moxda piriqiT. cota rom wamoizarda da saRi msjelobis unari gauCnda, roca ukve SesZlo swori orientacia gaekeTebia Tavisi Tavisa da sakuTari cxovrebisaTvis, mixvda, rom sastikad Secda. misi suli isev raRaciT daukmayofilebeli darCa. iseTive darCa misi guli, rogoric bavSvobaSi hqonda. mas pirvel dResve daemsxvra is mSvenieri miTi mamaze, Tavis gulSi rom uambobda megobrebs. daemsxvra, radgan Svilis mgrZnobiare gulma mamis saxeze xorcSesxmuli mwuxareba dainaxa. gogonas is ufro aRelvebda, sad miatova mamam deda, an rad Camovida saqarTveloSi marto? amis Semdeg mamasa da Svils Soris aRimarTa uxilavi kedeli. mamam ver dainaxa SvilSi is gadatanili tanjva da sulieri daZabuloba, rac bavSvobaSi xvda wilad. mamam ver monaxa sityvebic,
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romelic upasuxebda bavSvis cnobismoyvareobas. ganawamebi adamiani ver Caswvda Svilis fiqrebs, fiqrebs, romelmac waarTva adamianis yvelaze lamazi da bednieri wlebi- bavSvoba. _ ai, mival da SevekiTxebi. SevekiTxebi, sad datova deda, an sad aris anatoli? - gambedaobas ikrebda RamiT. RamiT TviT bavSvebsac SeuZliaT iocnebon gmirobaze. diax! da Cemi patara gmiric, roca RamiT Tavis fiqrebTan marto rCeboda, roca iZinebdnen mis azrovnebaSi yoveldRiuri cxovrebisagan miRebuli emociebi, mis adgils ikavebda ocneba. ocneba xom mis asakSi aqvT xolme bavSvebs. lamazi, mSvenieri, bavSvuri... mas am dros gabeduli fiqrebi hqonda. _ ai, avdgebi da vetyvi. is valdebulia, miTxras, sad aris Cemi deda? ase gaCnda pirveli ukmayofileba, pirveli ufskruli. gaRviZebisTanave hkargavda bavSvi gambedaobas. mamis odnav fermkrTali, RawvebCamomxmari saxe ukrZalavda im nabijis gadadgmas, romelzec mTeli Rame hqonda fiqrobda. bebiam, misma sayvarelma bebiamac Tavisi salaparako leqsikonidan amoiRo misi dedis da anatolis saxelebi. _ ratom arafers amboben maTze? - ekiTxeboda TavisTavs bebiazec gabrazebuli da ukmayofilo bavSvi. Tu mamamisis mosvlamde bavSvi molodiniT cocxlobda, misi mosvlis Semdeg daekarga molodinis imedic. _ matyuebdnen. - brazianad warmoTqmul am sityvebSi bavSvi, mTeli simZimiT gamoTqvamda Tavis guliswyromas da wuxils. ufro mogvianebiT ki, Tumca aravis ar uTqvams misTvis, mixvda namdvil saSinelebas: mas aRarc deda hyavda da aRarc Zma. mamasa da Svils Soris gaCnda uxilavi, magram Znelad gadasasvleli kedeli - es kedeli mTeli cxovrebis manZilze darCa maT Soris aRmarTuli. erTic da meorec fiqrobda, rom omma waarTva erTs ufro meti, vidre meores. ratomRac erTic da meorec ar cdilobda CaexedaT erTmaneTis gulSi. swored aman ganapiroba is, rom isini erTmaneTTan mxolod aucileblobis SemTxvevisas saubrobdnen. Tavis frontul warsulze iliko mokle statistikur cnobebs iZleoda. TviT Zalian axlobel adamianebTanac ar surda mTeli sicxadiT aesaxa sakuTari warsuli. _ tyveobaSi ras akeTebdi, Svilo? - roca aseT kiTxvas usvamdnen, is SeciebuliviT SeiSmuSneboda, usiamovno ambis gaxsenebisas tanSi Jruanteli uvlida. sikvdilamde sZulda es SekiTxva. kidev metic, roca ekiTxebodnen, es mokrZalebuli adamiani saSineli simwvaviT wiTldeboda Tavis sulTan brZolaSi. _ erTxans miwas vTxridiT. Semdeg banakSi tyveebisaTvis sadils vamzadebdi. es ki ramdenadme ukeTesi iyo. igi xom Cemi TanamemamuleebisTvis iyo gankuTvnili.
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ormocdasami wlis Semodgomamde ukrainaSi hyavdaT sabWoTa tyveebi. Semdeg Cvenebma win svla iwyes da swored am dros datrialda codvis kiTxva. germanelTa brZola sasikvdilod daWril lomis brdRvinvas hgavda. maT yvelaferi mospes, risi waRebac fizikurad ar SeeZloT. sabWoTa tyveebi ki win gairekes. tyveTa banaki, sadac iliko imyofeboda, erTi weli germaniaSi SeaCeres. Semdeg italiaSi ukres Tavi. Zala iyo maT xelSi da uialajo adamianebs araadamianurad eqceodnen. _ ho, da ganawamebi davbrundi ukan, osia biZia, nu momagoneb iqaobas. nu momayoleb im saSinel damcirebas, romelic Cven gamoviareT. tyveebi maTTvis gamwevi Zala iyo da sxva araferi. - ambobda Tavis saTqmels bolos. man erTxel aseTi epizodic mohyva: _ ratomRac ebraelad CamTvales da SemekiTxnen: _ sadauri ebraeli xar? _ me qarTveli var. _ styui. _ ara, geficebiT, me qarTveli var. gamaSiSvles... rom Cemi qarTveloba daemtkicebinaT. ai, aseTi Rirsebaayrili morCilebis Sesruleba gvixdeboda... mTavari sxva iyo: saxlSi dabrunebul, ganawameb da saSinlad sulSelaxul tyvednamyofs zogma orazrovnad dauwyo yuris gdeba. ilikos gulis siRrmemde zaravda imis warmodgena, rom mas eWvis TvaliT ucqerdnen. risTvis Cabardnen cocxali TaviT? nuTu, yvela gmirad daibada, vinc omSi wavida? nuTu, yvelas ar SeeZlo, erTi tyvia TavisTvis Semoenaxa, rom maTTan ar moxvedriliyvnen? sicocxle tkbilia da sikvdil-sicocxlis sasworze Semdgar adamians, meeWveba, saRi gonebiT aerCia sikvdili. igi xom yvelafris dasasrulia, xolo cocxlad darCenil adamians mainc rCeba imedi, rom rodesme gaTavisufldeba. maxaroblianT iliko Tu SeaZrwuna iq yofnam, axla mTeli siZlieriT daesxa Tavs RirsebaSelaxuli, magram mainc momTxovni sindisi. ratom ar Semoinaxa TavisTvis is erTaderTi tyvia? omidan dabrunebis Semdeg erTxans avadmyofuri SiSi daeufla. Semdeg, roca es SiSi dasZlia, gadawyvita Tavisi cxovrebidan mTlianad amoeRo is wlebi. es ki niSnavda, rom daeviwyebina yvelaferi, rac colsa da mis naTesavebTan akavSirebda, ar elaparaka valentinas sikvdilze, anatolis daRupvaze, ukrainaSi datexil qartexilze. _ sjobia, antoninam es ar icodes! - TavisTavs uTxra da am sityvebis Semsrulebeli darCa cxovrebis bolomde.
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antonina, ra Tqma unda, ver Caswvdeboda mamis grZnobas da Tundac gaego, ar mousmenda. molodinSi gazrdili bavSvis ocnebebi, mamis Camosvlis Semdeg erTi xelis dakvriT daingra. es sulmoTqmuli, mtanjveli, magram mainc zRapariviT mSvenieri molodini gacamtverda, xolo yovelive amis Semdeg antoninas xelSi SerCa damsxvreuli lamazi samyaro. swored amitom Tavisi bavSvuri arafrismTqmeli ukmayofilebiT Tavs daesxa isedac ganawameb mamis cxovrebas da aseTi grZnoba dahyva mTeli cxovrebis manZilze. _ ratom ar unda dainaxos mamaCemma Cemi tanjva? risTvis ar surs daakmayofilos Cemi cnobismoyvareoba? ukve asakSi Sesuli ekiTxeboda Tavis Tavs. _ risTvis sdums? ratom arafers ambobs? mamis dumili aRizianebda, magram ar hqonda imdeni gambedaoba, pirdapir eTqva saTqmeli. gabutuli da gulnatkeni fexakrefiT daabijebda da eCveneboda, rom yvelasgan mitovebuli iyo. cameti wlis asakSi, sofelSi TamTa mamidas swerda: mamida TamTa! es sizmari ar aris, TamTa mamida, rasac me giambob, magram arc sinamdvilea. ese igi rCeba erTi - is moCvenebaa. es moCveneba ki maSin modis, roca davwvebi da Tvals davxuWav. irgvliv sibnelea, Zalian bnela da am gamefebul siwynareSi modis qali. mas TeTri kaba acvia. TviT sibneleSic kargad varCev misi Tmebisa da Tvalebis fers. mis saxeze Rimilia. ici, ratom? ratomRac meCveneba, es Rimili Cemia. masSi veravin Semecileba. mis xelebsac vxedav sibneleSi da Sen warmoidgine, mesmis TviT fexis nabijebis xma. es xma iseTi mkveTria, rogorc Cemi guliscema. ar vinZrevi. meSinia, sawolis xmam ar SeuSalos xeli am mSvenier moCvenebas. Cemi sabani frTxilad ikeceba beWebTan. vxedav, rogor ealerseba misi xelebi, TeTri xelebi Cems Subls da Tmebs. vgrZnob mis sunTqvas. Semdeg Cemi sawolis kuTxeSi jdeba da vgrZnob, rogor micqerian misi Tvalebi sevdaSereuli sixaruliT. am dros Tvalebi daxuWuli maqvs. TavSeukaveblad momdian cremlebi da saxes misveleben. Semdeg winwklebad miedinebian yelisaken da sabnis im nawilSi ikargebian, sadac sul axlaxan misi xelebi mexeboda siyvaruliT. Zalian gvian meZaleba Zili. es Zili dedis kalTasTan miyuJul bavSvis sixaruls maniWebs. alionze isev meRviZeba. sofelSi mamlis pirveli yivili ismis, sadRac ZaRlis yefac emateba, magram arc mamals da arc ZaRls ar gavuRviZebivar. raRac Sinagani xma maRviZebs. manjRrevs da maRviZebs. am dros fanjrebidan, qariSxlis SemoWras vgrZnob, Tumca vici, arc qariSxalia da arc sxva ram. alionia. ver warmoidgen, rogor mZuls es alioni, radgan vici,
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igi wuxandeli moCvenebis sixaruls gamifantavs. mainc ar vaxel Tvalebs, rom ar damekargos es sixaruli. sixaruli ki wuTebs iTvlis. qali sawolis kuTxidan dgeba. TvalebSi SiSi Casdgomia da cremlebi danamvia. tuCis zemoT exeba misi tuCebi. es misi gamosamSvidobebeli kocnaa da vici, vis ekuTvnis es kocna. ase mxolod dedebma ician kocna. nu damemdurebi, TamTa mamida, Seni amagi Cemze didia. magram is kocna, RamiT moCvenebasaviT mosuli kocna sul sxvaa. mas dedis sunTqva mohyveba Tan da mas veraferi Seedreba. Seni mudam mosiyvarule antonina antonina mamidas aRar swerda imis Sesaxeb, moCvenebidan gamosuli rogor ixutebda tiriliT baliSs da didxans, uxmod asvelebda. Semdeg SeSupebuli TvalebiT dgeboda da aRarc undoda Seexeda sakuTari mamisaTvis. bevri, Zalian bevri wigni, miTi da legenda dawerila dedaSvilobis wminda grZnobaze. ukeTess ver davumateb. mxolod dedaSvilobis erT konkretul nawils minda Sevexo. Svilis gazrdis, Camoyalibebis, Semdeg sakuTari ojaxis da sakuTari Svilebis aRzrdisas, sadRac sxvebisgan uxilavad, sul axlos, farulad dgas deda da Svilis mTel cxovrebas avsebs imediani nugeSiT, mSobliuri nugeSiT. dgas SvilTan axlos, rogorc xelSeuxebeli wmindani, rogorc mkvdreTiT amdgari qriste, rogorc ocneba da tkbili zRapari. sxvanairad arc SeiZleba iyos, vinaidan piridan warmoTqmuli deda - locvaa. swored igi gimTelebs guls, gaZlevs gzas momavali sicocxlisaken. da ver warmoidgenT, ra netarebis momgvrelia Svilis cxovrebaSi wamierad, cocxaliviT gaelvarebuli dedis moCveneba. es miwaze mosuli miTiuri netarebaa. es mSvenieri SegrZneba im feriebis frenas hgavs, romlebic uhaero sivrceSi dahfrinaven da arasodes Camodian Zirs dedamiwaze. es amoxeTqili kvnesaa dedamiwidan, amaRlebuli siwminde da simfonia im grZeli dausrulebeli simRerisa, rasac dedaSviloba hqvia. yvelafris swavla SeiZleba, dedobis garda. igi Tandayolili grZnobaa yvela qalSi da ase mgonia, is sikvdilis Semdegac grZeldeba.
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_ TamTa mamida, xom ar gZinavs? _ ara. gogona idayvebze daeyrdno. mamida TamTasken gaixeda. _ sul mindoda mekiTxa _ ra antonina?
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_ uh, ra grZeli saxeli mqvia. me ki cicqna gogona var. mag saxeli ufro mtkice xasiaTis adamians daSvendeboda. _ ra gindoda gekiTxa? _ ratom xar aseTi? _ rogori, gogo? _ kargi. _ Sen geCveneba ase... _ rom meCveneba, albaT simarTlea. imdeni ki mesmis, avi da kargi gavarCio. _ ho, kargi. amitom gaiRviZe uTenia, rom eg geTqva? _ ara, es ise vTqvi. - Cafiqrda gogona. _ mamida, me Seni mudam mwamda. RmerTiviT mwamdi _ radgan RmerTiviT gwamdi, - gaicina TamTam, - maSin... _ vici, ra unda Tqva. nu ggonia, RmerTi ara mwams. adamians xom hyavs gulSi amorCeuli salocavi kerpi, ai, ise mwamda Seni. Sen iseTi keTili Tvalebi gaqvs, SeuZlebelia, ar daijero. SenisTana Tvalebi albaT meores ar aqvs amqveyanaze. _ nuRar momkali Cemi qebiT. xom ici, pirSi sulelebs aqeben. _ vici. Sen qaTinaurebi ar giyvars. Sens gulSi imdeni siyvaruli eteva... me jer bavSvi var, magram vgrZnob, ra Zvirfasia SenTvis aq TiToeuli nivTi. ai, Tu ginda babuaseuli savarZeli, aivanze xom dgas axla. mas rom vucqer, uceb masSi mjdom babuas vxedav. Sen mas arc erT ZviradRirebul nivTSi ar gascvlidi. siyvaruli, ai, amas hqvia. TamTam amoioxra. _ kmara, gogo. ar amatiro. _ Sen arasodes ar ambob am siyvarulze, magram TiToeuli Seni sityva, TiToeuli Seni gamoxedva da moZraoba ambobs amas. gana, Seni sicocxlec mTlian siyvaruls ar gamoxatavs? _ geyofa. wuxel xom araferi gesizmra? _ ara. araferi damsizmrebia da arc araferi momCvenebia. albaT imitom, rom Senze vfiqrobdi. _ nu amiCuye guli, gogo! _ ra bednierebaa, Sen tirili SegiZlia. bednierebaa isic, rom gaqvs adgili, sadac tirili SegiZlia. kviracxovelSi airben, roca amas moisurveb. Sens sixaruls, siyvaruls da TviT tirils xorci asxia. meCveneba, mas aqvs saxe, tani, fexebi. me mudam mSurda Seni, mamida TamTa! Cemi cxovreba mxolod molodini da moCveneba iyo. is saSinlad mtanjavs, TamTa mamida, saSinlad. TamTa sawolidan wamodga, xalaTi wamoisxa da ZmisSvils fexebTan Cauwva. mas gogonasaTvis saTqmeli ar Seuwyvetinebia. am mZime saubars is didxans eloda antoninas mdgomareoba ar Seucvlia. baliSze xelebSekruli iwva
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da ise laparakobda. misi TiToeuli sityva tyviasaviT xvdeboda TamTas guls da seravda. axla igi ZmisSvilis mxrebs da Tavs xedavda. mokle SeWrili TmebiT saocrad hgavda valentinas. _ axla CemSi molodini gaqra. samagierod, moCvenebebma gamitanes guli. - antonina wamoiwia. gulaRma gadatrialda, Semdeg qveSagebSi wamojda da TamTas TvalebSi Sexeda. _ TamTa mamida, Sens TvalebSi simarTles vxedavdi. amitom vamayobdi SeniT. mag Tvalebs dRes Zirs xri. e.i raRacas mimalav. gemudarebi, gamarkvio. iqneb, sjobs vicode simarTle. Tundac yvelaze saSineli iyos TamTa qveSagebidan wamodga. ZmisSvils iribad gaxeda da waulaparaka: _ adeqi, antonina. uriSSi avideT. iq sufTa haeria. aseTi haeri dedamiwis zurgze meore ar aris. - is aivanze gavida. loRorodan monaberi sio uwewda Tmebs. saocrad anTebuli Tvalebi hqonda. antoninam mamidas Sexeda. _ Seiyvare es Tmebi, ise, me rogorc miyvars. erTi saaTis Semdeg mamida da ZmisSvili uriSisaken amaval bilikze adiodnen zeviT. _ frTxilad iare, antonina! - isini zeviT avidnen, sul zeviT. aqedan kargad sCanda mTeli sofeli da Wioris Walebic. _ TamTa mamida. rogori dawynarebulia rioni. Turme masac SesZlebia erT kalapotSi dena. msxlis qveS Camosxdnen. es msxali maTi sakuTari iyo. odiTagan uriSis xexili maxaroblianT did sagvareulos ekuTvnoda, Semdeg ojaxebma daisakuTres. Tumca orive sdumda, orivem icoda, rom saTqmeli unda Tqmuliyo. dilis nams daeTrTvila balaxi da Tavisebur suns afrqvevda irgvliv. _ ramdeni xania, mamaSeni aRar yofila aq. antonina SekrTa, radgan igrZno, TamTam daiwyo. _ iqneb, enatreba kidec... _ movides da naxos, vin uSlis? - gaawyvetina gogonam. _ eg advilia. yovel SemTxvevaSi, imaze advili _ raze? _ mamaSenma omSi dahkarga ara marto meuRle da Svili, is sulieradac ganadgurda. Sen iTxov misgan cnobismoyvareobis daikmayofilebas? _ es marto cnobismoyvareoba ar aris. yvelaferze gaCumde, es danaSaulic aris bolos da bolos. _ Sen marTali xar! unda apatio mainc. omma is fizikurad da moralurad gaanadgura. _ gana, tyved marto is iyo?
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_ yvelas erTnairi sindisis ZarRvi ara aqvs. is mTeli sicocxle unda ewamos. magram antoninam ukmayofilod gaaqnia Tavi da Tvalebi daxuWa. mas ar surda, moesmina misTvis, eseni ukve icoda. mas ki mobezrda yovelive amis mosmena da gogonam dauokebuli TavSeukaveblobiT mowyvetiT Tqva: _ mamaCems Cemi arasodes esmoda... gakvirvebiT Sexeda TamTam ZmisSvils. bavSvis saxeze ramdenime nerviuli ZarRvi TrToda. aRar SekamaTebia, ise gaCumda. _ sad daiRupnen isini? - ikiTxa antoninam. mis xmaSi ukve moTminebadakarguli sibraze iyo. _ anatoli dabombvaSi mohyva. _ deda? _ deda omSi daiRupa. _ sad? _ ukrainaSi. _ es man Tqva? - ikiTxa gogonam. TamTas gulze moxvda sityva `man~. es ukve yvela sityvaze mware iyo. _ mamaSenma _ sxva araferi ici? _ ara. erTxans gaognebuli cisferi Tvalebi uyurebdnen TamTa mamidas. Semdeg cisfer Tvalebs bindi gadaekra. Tavi gaaryia gogonam. saxeze ailanda TeTr kabiani qalis saxe da gogonam grZnoba dakarga... erTi Tvis Semdeg saavadmyofodan gamoweres antonina. TamTas sityvierad ase daabares, nervozi rom ar ganmeordes, ecadeT araferze gaaRizianoTo. _ vecdebiT! - upasuxa TamTam da ezoSi gasulma ZmisSvils gaxeda. onidan WioraSi fostis manqanas gahyvnen, gzaSi mamida uambobda Tavis bavSvobaze, mowafeTa ganvlil dReebze. antonina fergamkrTali SesCereboda Tavis saTayvanebel mamidas. _ ra bednieria. mudam grZnobs Tavis TavSi Zalas. - fiqrobda, roca mis sxivosan Tvalebs xedavda. binulebTan erTbaSad TamTam manqana SeaCera da antoninas Sexeda: _ aba, gadavideT da fexiT gaviaroT aqedan. _ sokos davkrefT. - gaexumra gakvirvebul mZRols. _ aqedan jer kidev didi gzaa Wioramde. - gadmoixeda mZRolma. _ ara uSavs ra. es adgilebic Wiorisaa. - upasuxa TamTam, mZRols madloba gadauxada da wadio, xeliT aniSna. roca manqanam maT win mtveris korianteli daayena, mamida da ZmisSvili aRmarTs auyvnen.
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mokle bilikiT moWres gza. cicabo safexurebiT adiodnen zeviT. win TamTa miuZRoda qurcikiviT amaval ZmisSvils. irgvliv mTis yvavilebi sasiamovno suns afrqvevdnen. TamTa aRmarTis TavSi Sedga: _ daiRale? - SeekiTxa TamTa. _ ara, TamTa mamida, ara. _ cota kidev viaroT. _ kargi. mamida buCqebSi gamaval biliks gahyva da TxilnariT SemoRobil patara mindorze gavidnen. TamTa Sedga. Rrmad amoisunTqa da Zirs, xasxasa mdeloze Camojda. _ ai, aq dajeqi, gogo, mogwons aqauroba? _ Zalian, TamTa mamida! _ me ki miyvars es adgili. - naRvlianad Cailaparaka TamTam. xelebi muxlebze Semoixvia da Tavi muxlisTavze daido. aseTi sevdiani da mkacri gamoxedva antoninam pirvelad dainaxa TamTas saxeze. gogona SeakrTo aman. _ es iyo omis dawyebis win. aq, am adgilas erT vaJs sityva miveci, rom misi erTguli viqnebodi sikvdilamde. man omSi wasvlis win daijera Cemi da ise damSorda. _ Semdeg mamida? _ mTavaria is, rom Seni siyvarulis sjeraT. winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi, uazroba iqneboda TviT siyvarulic. me ki marTlac davrCi misi erTguli sikvdilamde. _ aRar dabrunda omidan? _ movida. _ mere? TamTas mSvenieri saxe mwuxarebam dasera. antoninas guli Seuqanda. is axlos mivida TamTa mamidasTan da xelebze Seexo. _ Semdeg mamida TamTa? _ dabrunda ukan, magram avadmyofi. mas tuberkuliozi mieRo omSi. - erTbaSad mis saxeze cremli gabrwyinda. _ mosvlis pirvelive dRidanve erideboda yvelas. sasikvdilod ganwiruls Cemi danaxvac ar undoda. erT dRes WiSkarTan mimixmo. albaT sikvdilamde darCeba is dRe Cems gulSi. saocrad mSvidi amindi iyo. mas sazafxulo palto ecva. fermkrTali xmeli saxe aRgznebiT miyurebda. _ ra iyo, giorgi? _ gcalia? _ Semodi, ratom ara. - sixaruliT vuTxari da WiSkris kari gavaRe. _ ara, saxlSi ara. Tu gcalia, kviracxovelSi avideT. _ amxela gzaze daiRlebi. - SiSiT gavaxsene da im wuTSive enaze vikbine, radgan Sevatyve, ar moewona.
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_ Soria. - gaocebiT Sevxede. mis azrs Zalian gvian mivxvdi. _ Semodi! - vTxove erTxelac da mklavSi vwvdi. TamTa Sedga, amoioxra, etyoboda uWirda laparaki am Temaze. _ man civad momiSora. egona, misi seni im wuTSive momaxteboda. is nela, sveneb-svenebiT midioda. Soridan miyurebda da ucnaurad miRimoda. Sevatyve, siaruli uWirda. saxe wamouwiTlda da xvelebas moumata. me vTxove damjdariyo da Seesvenebia. uari miTxra. is zeviT midioda da mec mivyvebodi ukan. roca yvavilebiT mofenil mindors mivaRwieT, man mTxova. _ TamTa, Sen xom giyvars yvavilebi, gTxov, dakrife... Txovna Sevusrule da win wasul giorgis davewie. _ ai, aqedan mTeli sofeli sCans, TamTa. _ ho, giorgi. xom ar CamovmsxdariyaviT. SiSiT Sevcqerodi mis daRlil saxes. sunTqavda Cqara da mkerdi erxeoda. _ daiRale? - SemekiTxa da damacqerda. misi Tvalebi siyvaruliT micqerdnen. me araferi vupasuxe. gaicina. _ raki daiRale, eg yvavilebi mand daawyve. me ki mis gverdiT davisveneb. - mis Rimilnareb sityvebSi msubuqi ironiac iyo. yvavilebi uazrod davawyve Zirs da isev mas Sevxede. giorgi yvavilebis gverdiT dajda, erTi xeliT akrifa isini da wamowva. _ ar gacivde giorgi! _ kviracxovlis miwa sabaniviT Tbilia, TamTa! suli SemexuTa am sityvebze. davixare da xeli wavavle, rom ameyenebia, magram man Tavisi gamxdari xelebi Cemsken gamowia. jer undoda, moeSorebia Cemi xelebi, Semdeg gadaifiqra da Cemi xelebi gulTan miitana. _ adeqi, giorgi! - Sevevedre kidev. _ mismine, TamTa. _ adeqi! _ roca movkvdebi, Cvenebs gadaeci, ai, aq damasaflavon. aqedan kargad daginaxav da Tu Sen amis Semdeg bednieri gaxdebi, darwmunebuli iyavi, es CemTvisac bedniereba iqneba. man yvavilebi gulze daiwyo da amomxeda. _ es ki Seni mokrefili pirveli yvavilia, mkerdze rom damawyve, TamTa! gulamoskvnili daveci mis gverdiT da avtirdi. _ eg ki pirveli cremlebia. me rom mitire... ori kviris Semdeg mTeli sofeli miacilebda kviracxovlis oRro-CoRro gzaze. TamTas antoninam xelze xeli mouWira. _ Cemo mamida! TamTa erTxans gaCumebuli iyo. sadRac Sors ixedeboda. gogonas ar SeuSlia xeli fiqrisaTvis.
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_ omma marto Sen ki ara, milionobiT adamians miayena tkivili, zogs sikvdilamde mourCeneli sikvdili. Cems sofelSic izrdebian umamo bavSvebi. me maT vaswavli da yovelTvis vfiqrob, rom amiT vagrZeleb giorgisadmi micemul sityvas da siyvaruls. bednieri var, rom movnaxe TviTon es bedniereba, xolo misi erTguli rom ar davrCeniliyavi, Zalian gamiWirdeboda sicocxle. _ Cemo mamida. Sen adamianebis siyvaruli maswavle. gemudarebi, axla maswavle rogor moviqce, Zlieri sulis adamiani rom gavxde. TamTa wamodga. ZmisSvilic ahyva. qalma gogonas Tmebze gadusva xeli da TvalebSi Caxeda: _ gaswavli. amisaTvis ki saWiroa mxolod erTi: Zalian cota unda ifiqro Sens cxovrebaze. meti ki- sxvaze. sxvisi sixaruli gaiTaviso, tkivili ki gulTan miitano.
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_ mama! - xmamaRla dauZaxa ilikos qaliSvilma. _ ra iyo? _ gemudarebi, aq ar moTibo. ramdeni marwyvia. qoxTan mival, kardals movitan. _ kargi, Svilo! antoninam sirbiliT Cairbina daRmarTi. saxeldaxelod gakeTebul qoxTan mivida da iqidan kardali wamoiRo. isev male amoirbina aRmarTi da moswavlil adgils Zebna dauwyo. _ sad iyo, mama? _ mgoni, cota zemoT ideqi. - upasuxa mamam da cels salesi gahkra. _ saRamomde gavaTaveb? - SeekiTxa qaliSvils, romelic ukve marwyvs krefda. _ gavaTaveb. mawoni xom ar mogitano? _ kargs izam. gogona kidev gaiqca qoxisaken. civi mawvniani qila aiRo da mamas mourbenia. _ oh! ar macxona am sicxeSi dalocvilma. - kmayofilebiT uTxra Svils, carieli qila ukan daubruna da Tibva ganagrZo. gvian RamiT dabrundnen mama-Svili saxlSi. bebia WiSkarTan SexvdaT. _ xval movisvenoT, zeg ki sagvelad wavalT. wamoxval? - Wamis dros SeekiTxa Svils mama. _ aba, ara? - gakvirvebiT ikiTxa antoninam da bebias gamomcxvari xaWapuri TefSidan gadaiRo. _ araferi iwyinos bovSvma. - ukmayofilod Cailaparaka sofio bebiam. _ aba, bebo, ra unda viwyino? - ikiTxa antoninam. mesame dRes kolmeurneobis xarebi Seaba uremSi ilikom.
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dilauTenia qaliSvili gaaRviZa da Tivis mosatanad gaudga gzas. _ Toki ar dagaviwydes,mami! _ ara. yvelaferi mand aris. uremi daiZra da qvian gzaze xtunva-xtunviT wavida. _ Tu SuadRemde avxveteT, movaswrebT Camotanas dRes. fiqrobda qaliSvili da Tan xarebs misCereboda, romelTa odnav gadatvlepil kiserze uReli edga da win wawvdil Tavebze ucnaurad irxeoda. _ nikora ufro eweva! - gaifiqra antoninam. _ swored amitom uRlis naxevari uSnod aris waweuli. Sen, getyoba, zarmaci xar, rom igvianeb da zantad maval xars Solts marjved urtyam. ukve merve welia, rac iliko omidan dabrunda. sofelma Seiyvara is da meore wlidan kolmeurneobis wevrebma sarevizio komisiis Tavjdomared airCies. _ swored aseTi patiosani adamiani unda iyos am adgilzeo, - moesma mezoblebis CurCuli da qaliSvilis guli sixaruliT aivso. ilikos Tvalebze ki sixarulis cremli gabrwyinda. _ gmadlobT, mezoblebo! - uTxra man da mas Semdeg ucvlelad irCevdnen am Tanamdebobaze. antoninam igrZno, rom misi tyvednamyofi mama ukve gamovida Sinagani sindisis qejnisgan. ukve daubrunda Tavis Tavisadmi rwmena. _ mamaCemis saxeze pirveli sixarulis Rimili rom gaCnda, es me SevamCnie. iqneba SeiZleba, daubrundes dakarguli bedniereba, magram rogor?...axali cxovreba?... magram me odesme vapatieb amas? - CaekiTxa Tavis Tavs da uceb motyda. Tavis Tavis arseboba zedmetad miiCnia da TamTas aseTi werili miwera: Cemo mamida! iseve minda Segawuxo, mamida! Tumca arasodes ar mdomebia Seni Sewuxeba. magram is rac Cems azrSi gaCnda, rom ar giTxra, ar SemiZlia. vici, Cemi sityvebi guls dagidardianeb. unda dagaviwyo Seni cxovrebis ramodenime saaTi da Cemze gafiqro. cota ar iyos, es egoisturi moTxovnac aris Cemgan, magram Sen amasac gamigeb. Sen ici, SenTan marto naTesauri kavSiri ki ara, sulieri megobrobac makavSirebs, amitom minda gagando yvelaze sazareli, rac CemSi gaCnda. ufro advili asatania, roca gabrazebuli xar sxvaze, magram roca Sen tvinSi SegiZvreba erTi azri, zedmeti xar am qveyanaze - es udris sikvdilze fiqrs. zogjer ise momindeba, viyo Cemi Zmis bedSi da omidan dabrunebul mamas aRarc me davxvedrodi.
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mamaCemi daiwyebda axal cxovrebas. gana mas amis ufleba ar hqonda? axali adamianebi gaafermkrTaldnen Cvens saxeebs. axali sixaruli gauyuCebda Zvel tkivils. axla ki... mamis WrilobebiT savse guls Zveli da axali sicocxlis karibWesTan davxvdi. me misgan viTxov, Cemze ifiqros, idardos da uflebas ar vaZlev axali cxovreba daiwyos. ai, xom mixvdi, ratom var zedmeti? maRizianebs misi dumili Tavis warsulze, mas ki albaT Cemi moTxovnebi. ho, da amitom vinatre, yvelaze saSineli da yvelaze samarcxvino, ratom davrCi omis Semdeg am qveyanaze? roca amas vwer, sircxvilisgan loyebi mewvis, magram mainc minda icode Cemi fiqri, Cemo mamida! Seni antonina _ kargad mokide xeli urems, aRmarTze ar gadmovarde. - fiqrebidan gamoiyvana qaliSvili mamam. antonina magrad Caafrinda urmis xelnebs da erTbaSad kvlav sxva fiqrebi Semoawva. _ ra ucnauri gogoa qeTino. amaswinaT, TiTqos jinaze miTxra: is Tavxedi anatoli axalSeniSvili ise ggavs, rogorc Suaze gaWrili vaSlio. ra Tqma unda, moeCvena. gana, visac cisferi Tvalebi da TeTri Tmebi aqvs, yvela hgavs erTmaneTs? _ mama, es xari zarmacia! - Seecada gaefanta fiqrebi. _ romeli? _ Svinda. _ erTi saxre uTavaze da sizarmacec gamouva Tavidan _ anatoli axalSeniSvili arc ki icis, sadauria. icis mxolod, rom minskidan aris. es aris da es. rom SevekiTxo mamas? _ mo-o-mo. - xarebi SeaCera ilikom - ai, kidevac mivediT. Tu viyoCaRebT, SuadRemde avwmendT aqaurobas. - qaliSvilma urmidan orive fiwali gadmoiRo. erTi mamas miawoda. _ moica, xarebs avuSveb da barem Sevyri griloSi, ibalaxon. uReli aacala xarebs da xeebis CrdilSi Sereka isini. _ Tvali geWiros. Sors ar wavidnen. - waulaparaka Svils, roca fiwali mxarze gaido da aRmarTs axeda. qaliSvilic gahyva. SuadRe iyo, roca mTel Tivas Tavi mouyares. orives ofli CamodiodaT saxidan. antonina CanTas eca da iqidan moxarSuli lori da mWadi amoiRo. Tivaze Camojdnen da danayrdnen. _ cota movisvenoT da Semdeg uremze davawyoT. qaliSvili xarebis mosarekad wavida. gzadagza kabaze mikrul ekal-bardebs iclida. _ oho. yoCaR, Svinda da nikora. norCi balaxi upoviaT da Tanac wyarosTan.
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qaliSvili wyals daewafa. _ albaT mamam ar icis, rom aq wyaroa! - gaifiqra TavisTvis. _ Tqven kidev aq iyaviT, zarmacebo, WameT, magram Sors ar waxvideT, Torem yurebs dagaWriT. - daemuqra xarebs, Semdeg nikoras miuaxlovda, Tavze xeli gadausva da uTxra: _ Sen ar gewyinos! - Tavi mis Tavs miayrdno. _ rom vuTxra mamas anatolize? - isev SeekiTxa Tavis Tavs, magram Tavs moeria da Soltis qneviT ukan dabrunda. qaliSvilma dainaxa, rogor gasrialda mZinare mamis fexebTan gveli. _ mama! - ikivla da misken gadaxta. gvelis kani mzeze nacrisfrad gabrwyinda, mZivebiani Tavi zeviT aswia, Semdeg mosxletiT kudi zeviT aswia da gauTibav adgilze gauCinarda. _ guli gamiskda! _ magisTanebiT savsea aqauroba. mama-Svili manamde isxdnen, sanam uremTan Crdili ar Camodga. _ aba, axla uremze adi da Tiva Tanabrad daawyve. qaliSvili uremze avida. mamis mowodebul Tivas awyobda da Tan fexebiT tkepnida. mamam ukanaskneli bululic zeviT aisrola. Semdeg Toki urmis bolos gamoaba da Svils gasZaxa. _ magrad daWime! mamam urems winidan mouara da exla Camowodebuli Tokis bolo urmis wina mxares magrad miaba. _ me aq viqnebi mama da Tanac wonasworobis davikaveb. - CamosZaxa qaliSvilma. _ kargi. mxolod magrad geWidos xeli, ar gadmovarde. _ bavSvi xom ara var? xarebi Seaba da uremi daiZra. win iliko miuZRoda daRmarTSi Camaval xarebs. _ nela, nikora, nela. - afrTxilebda gzadagza xarebs iliko. _ erT dRes anatolis sxvebTan erTad saxlSi movipatiJeb. - isev aedevnen fiqrebi qaliSvils. amas ise, sxvaTaSoris gavakeTeb. mama verc mixvdeba, rom es movawyve. _ anatoli minskelia da dabejiTebiT ambobs, rom is qarTvelia. ase axsovs bavSvobidan _ an risi gageba msurs? is xom vici, rom Cemi Zma dabombvaSi mohyva. me ki minda gamovCxriko axali Zma. _ magram xom xdeba saswaulebi? anatoli, Cemi Zma, viRacam amoiyvana Txrilidan da upatrono bavSvebs gamoayoles samxreTisaken, axla meore Zma ar asvenebda mgrZnobiare bavSvis guls. _ mama!
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_ ra iyo? _ mgoni, qveda mxares Tiva micuravs.- ilikom uremi SeaCera da Tivas qvemodan Semouara. _ erTi fiwali gadmomawode. _ aiRe! iliko mTeli ZaliT miawva Tivas da zeda mxarisken gadaswia. uremi daiZra. kolmeurneobis baRs daupirispirdnen. TeTri gargari saamod icqirebodnen iqidan. _ xom ar ginda? - Seexmiana Svils. _ kargi iqneba. - Tavi dauqnia mamas. mamam SeaCera uremi da yvelaze axlo xidan ramdenime nayofi mowyvita. _ albaT, aseTi gemrieli gargari arsad ar aris. - Cailaparaka antoninam, roca mamis mowodebuli gargari CakbiCa. _ mama! _ ra, Svilo! _ minski ufro male dabombes, Tu kievi? - erTbaSad ikiTxa qaliSvilma. mamis yurebs maSin miswvda es sityvebi, roca xeli xarebisaken gaiwvada. man gaocebiT Sexeda Svils. _ dabombva TiTqmis orivesi erTad daiwyes. aRebiT ki, minski ufro adre aiRes, wyeulebma.- Tqva da Toki gaWima. _ wamodi, nikora. - isev araxraxda qvian gzaze urmis borblebi. axla Tivas daemZimebia da aRar xtunaobda. _ CemTan erTi sabavSvo saxleli swavlobs. minskidan aris. albaT sami wliT iqneba ufrosi. nela midioda TiviT datvirTuli uremi. qaliSvili mamis mxrebs uyurebda, romelic xaris Soris idga. _ meoTxe sabavSvo saxlelia. Zalian celqi biWia da yvela bavSvi erideba. _ albaT, gadarCa. - Cailaparaka ilikom _ gogoebi ki amboben. ise ggavs, rogorc tyupiscalio. mkveTri moZraobiT misken Setrialda mama da gaocebiT dauwyo cqera. _ aba, ra saqme gaqvs viRac sabavSvo saxlelTan. - uTxra mouzomlad da moufiqreblad Svils da iliko albaT arc maSin da arc mis Semdeg ar dafiqrebula am sityvebis uazrobaze. mamam verc is SeamCnia, rogor gauqvavda masze miCerebuli Tvalebi mis erTaderT Svils. Tivaze rom ara mjdariyo, albaT isev krunCxva daemarTeboda, magram antoninam SeZlo araadamianuri Zalis moTokviT yovelive amis daZleva da gulmoklulma ase gaifiqra: _ ramdeni vifiqre, rom SevkiTxodi, man ki mxolod am sityvebis
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moZebna SeZlo. mamis zurgs miaCerda. odnav moxrili mxrebi irxeodnen or xars Soris. Tavi Zirs daeRo mZimed da ise miabijebda. kaci ifiqrebda, rom mas kiserze uReli adevso. erTbaSad Seebrala mama. mis mxrebs ar etyoboda simwifeSi Sesuli ormoci wlis mamakacis axovneba. cxovrebas Tavisi mkacri daRi am mxrebisTvisac daemCnia. _ Sen iqneb, swori xar, mama. mapatie, rom Segawuxe Cemi sisuleleebiT. mainc megona, Sen ufro sxvanairad Sexvdebodi Cems sityvebs. me ki im biWis danaxvisas, ise gaminaTdeba xolme guli, rom ase mgonia, araferi ar maklia. - fiqrobda gogona. mama sdumda. qaliSvili gaTamamda da mis yurebTan isev gaisma xma: _ mas anatoli hqvia! ilikom uremi Seayena da Svilisaken Seabruna saxe. qaliSvilma Tvali Seaswro ganadgurebul mamis gamoxedvas. mas qveda yba uTrToda. _ ra gvarisaa? _ axalSeniSvili misces gvarad. qaliSvili urmidan Camovida. _ mapatie, mama. me zogjer ver vzomav Sens tkivils... _ Svilo. Seni moTxovna mudam samarTliani iyo, magram unda icode da Seeguo im azrs, rom isini cocxlebi aRar arian. dedaSeni Cemi xeliT davasaflave. anatolis sikvdili ki dabejiTebiT vici. hoda, gemudarebi, nuRar momagoneb maT Tavs. Tivaze aRar Sesula antonina. ukan gahyva win wasul urems. _ ,,Cemi xeliT davasaflaveo dedaSeni. ramxela tkivilia. - Sedga, TavSi SemoiWdo xeli. _ ratom mawameb sulo, ratom? ratom Cndebian Cems gulSi erTmaneTis mteri azrebi. romels davujero, romels movusmino? mamidam ki damariga, meti sxvebze ifiqreo. hoda, vfiqrob sxvebze. me xom Cems Sesaxeb ar viwuxeb Tavs. Cemi tkivili, rogor Sevaqcio mas zurgi? uari vuTxra yvela Cems fiqrs da vicxovro sxvisi cxovrebiT. es xom ar SeiZleba, TamTa mamida, ara. _ man ki SeZlo, gadaetana Tavisi da sxvisi satkivaric. is mTebSi gazrdili vaJkacuri bunebis qalia. me ki umweo yvavili, mis CrdilSi amosuli. gana yvavils da xes erTnairi gamZleoba aqvs? me anatoli axalSeniSvilis ubedureba Cemad gavixade. dae, ar iyos is Cemi Zma. anatoli vercxliswyaliviT daokebuli da erTi wuTiTac ar grZnobs Tavs ubedurad. arc swavla afiqrebs. orianis miRebisas icinis, esec Cveulebriv ambad miaCnia. _ ras gadakidebixar im sabavSvo saxlelso. RmerTo, rogor amouvida es mamaCems piridan. _ omSi dakarga Svili. sicocxleSi aRarafers aRar vetyvi mas.
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matareblis gasvlas ramdenime wuTi aklda. xalxi mis molodinSi baqanze idga. samogzaurod gamowyobili axalgazrdoba mal-male ixedeboda iqiT, saidanac matarebeli unda gamoCeniliyo. mxolod fermis brigadiri, romelsac davalebuli hqonda, mogzaurobisTvis xelmZRvaneloba gaewia, aRelvebuli mopirdapire mxrisaken ixedeboda. etyoba, viRacas agviandeboda da mas sulmouTqmelad eloda. _ ra Tvalebi mogeRerZa, kidev ara sCans? - SeekiTxa gamomwvevad eleonora da Savi Tvalebi eSmakurad moWuta. elgujam ar upasuxa. isev qalaqSi gasasvleli gzisaken daiwyo mzera. sadRac matarebelma ikivla. _ sad wavida? - nerviulad Cailaparaka da moaxlovebuli matareblis borblebs miaCerda. _ oci wuTi aklia gasvlas. - Cailaparaka da instiqturad saaTs daxeda. borblebi svlas anelebdnen. gasasvlelSi qera Tmebi da vardisferi kaba dalanda. _ Zlivs!... - aRmoxda sixaruliT elgujas da Soridan gauRima qalSvils, romelsac ukan qal-vaJi mosdevda. maT sirbiliT gadaWres relsebi da elgujas win aRmoCndnen. _ cotac rom dagegvianebia, elgujas Tvalebi daeRleboda gaecina eleonoras, Tavisi mbzinavi Tvalebi axladmosulebisaken gadaitana. yvelas gaecina. _ Cemi skolis megobrebi arian. eseni ki Cemi soflis amxanagebi gaicaniT. _ vaJa _ qeTino... CamoarTves xeli elgujas. _ Tu da xar, qamari ar dagaviwydes, Torem ai, aq dagxvdebiT da matareblidan Camosvlis uflebas ar mogcemT. - siciliT daabara qeTinom megobars. _ aucileblad. Cveni ufrosi Tavis ubis wignakSi CainiSnavs qeTinos qamars. - ixumra axla antoninam. vagonisken wavidnen. _eleonora, Sens pirdapir damikave adgili. _ mxiaruli gogoa. gzaSi ar moawyens. - mklavSi xeli gamosdo qeTinos. _ netavi, Senc modiode! - inatra antoninam. _ me ki megona, Cemi wamosvlac gindoda. - pirvelad daarRvia siCume vaJam. _ ratom gegona? - ukmexad uTxra antoninam. _ bodiSi.

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_ nu gabrazdebi vaJa. kargad iyaviT da uCemod ar moiwyinoT. -CamoarTva skolis amxanagebs xeli da vagonis kibis TavSi mdgar misken gamowvdil elgujas xels swvda. _ Cqara, qalbatono, Torem im adgils sxva daikavebs. -dauZaxa eleonoram. _ meeWveba, vinme mogerios Sen. - matarebeli SeinjRra da Semdeg nela daiZra. _ Seni megobrebi, antonina! qaliSvili adga da fanjaraSi gaixeda. baqanze qeTino da vaJa xels uqnevdnen. skolis megobrebi baqanze manam darCnen, vidre matarebeli Tvals ar miefara. Semdeg qalma xelkavi gaukeTa vaJs, relsebi gadakveTes da qalaqSi gasasvlel gzaze gavidnen. _ kargi biWi iyo, ara? - erTbaSad Cailaparaka qeTinom TavisTvis da im wuTSi igrZno, rogor SekrTa vaJa am sityvebze. _ mogewona? mgoni ukve dakavebulia. - ukmexad upasuxa vaJma. _ Senc Seatyve? _ ?! _ mere? _ ra? _ me ki megona ... - da qeTinom dakvirvebiT Sexeda vaJas. _ ra gegona? - SekrTa vaJi da dabneuli TvalebiT qalisaken gaixeda. _ ara. iqneba vcdebodi, magram nuTu, Tqven erTmaneTi ar giyvarT? vaJa Sedga. is erTxans sdumda da saCvenebeli TiTiT Subls isresda. Semdeg is TiTi tuCze gadisva da gza ganagrZo. _ bodiSi, vaJa. yvelas sxvadasxvanairad esmis siyvaruli. iqneb sisulelea siyvaruli? _ mTeli cxovreba anatolis velodi. _ werils aRar werT? _ arc arasdros mimiweria. _ da giyvars? _ ar SeiZleba? _ ratom ara. magram Tu is ukve bednieria da Senc aRar axsovxar? _ me eg ukve vici, vaJa? _ da mainc giyvars? _ ise, rom swori analizi SemiZlia gavukeTo am siyvaruls. _ da sxvaze aRar fiqrob gaTxovebas? magaliTad, iliaze? mkvdrisferi daedo qals. _ Cvens Soris yvelaferi damTavrda. SeiZleba, swored ar moveqeci mas, magram me is mebraleboda mudam da amave dros mZulda. Tumca Zalian vcdilobdi, Semyvareboda. Sen rom icode, damnaSave var mis
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winaSe. Tqven ki TiTqos mogwondaT erTmaneTi. mxolod sityvebi ver gamonaxeT, rom erTmaneTisaTvis geTqvaT saTqmeli. _ Cven erTmaneTisTvis araferi gviTqvams. _ ratom? iqneba scdi? _ ara. _ tramvaiT wavideT? _ fexiT gaviaroT! _ ai, me da Sen megobrebi varT. Cven erTmaneTTan gvakavSirebs saerTo skola, sabavSo saxli. nacnob-megobrebi da es yvelaferi me aRviqvi erT did ojaxad. isic CvenTan iyo da met-naklebad mudam iziarebda Cvens cxovrebas. miyvars? ar vici. daze metad rom miyvars, ki vgrZnob. magram radgan masTan wminda naTesauri grZnoba makavSirebs, ver gadavdgi nabiji, gadamelaxa is wre, riTac Semofarglulia da-Zmuri siyvaruli. kidev metic. roca am sakiTxze vfiqrob, meCveneba, TiTqos Cavdivar raime mkrexelobas? saocaria, swored am dros Tvalwin midgas misi mSvidi saxe, dardiani Tvalebi da am fiqrisac ki mcxvenia. _ TiTqmis yvela erT bedSi vizrdebodiT. yvelas gauCnda sakuTari azri. Tanac Sen fiqrob erTs da ar fiqrob meores. rogor iqneba, roca igi sxvisi gaxdeba. amaze ar gifiqria? vaJa kvlav SekrTa. _ eleonora gZinavs? - ikiTxa antoninam. _ ra iyo gogo? mZinavs, aba, am SuaRames ra iqneba? - SeubuzRunda qaliSvilma. _ mapatie. daiZine! _ ra gindoda? axla raRa damaZinebs. Sua sizmari gamiwyvite. _ kargi sizmari iyo? _ yvelaferi kargisgan dawunebuli var! _ ratom? - gaicina antoninam _ Sen ici da... _ hoda, raki kargi ar iyo, madloba mekuTvnis gaRviZebisaTvis _ ara, amjerad kargi iyo. _ maSin, geTayva, daiZine da gaagrZele sizmari. _ nu xumrob! - eleonora wamojda. CamoSlili Tmebi ukan gadaiwyo da megobars gaxeda. mas antoninas cisferi Tvalebi seriozulad uyurebdnen. _ ra iyo? _ TviTon ar vici, ratom vRelav ase? _ ho! mec vRelavdi, roca pirvelad mivdiodi, magram amjerad mesame gaseirnebaa ukrainaSi. eleonoram antoninas gafiTrebul saxes Sexeda da SeekiTxa. _ sainteresoa, risTvis Relav ase. ara, me ase ar ganvicdidi iq wasvlas. ubralod, mixaroda, roca delegatad amirCies. im wels yvelaze bevri Camovwvele. is ki ar ifiqro, rom yvela Cems megobars
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vjobivar. Cemi megobrebi Cemze naklebs rodi Sromoben. ise, cota meti movwvele da gasagzavnTa siaSi pirveli Semiyvanes. _ albaT elgujam amogirCia... _ ho. cota ybedi biWia, magram Sromas ar dagikargavs. _ marTla? _ ar icodi? _ aba, saidan? erTad ar gviswavlia da erTad ar gavzrdilvarT. _ ra ambavia? adre gagiRviZebiaT? - Tavi Semohyo xsenebaze elgujam. _ Semodi, biWo. Sen ratomRa ar gZinavs? - miipatiJa eleonoram. antonina wamodga. wigni, romelic xelSi eWira dakeca da kuTxeSi Camojda. _ amdeni xalxis bed-iRbali mabaria da ra damaZinebs. _ oh! daiRupe, ar mogasvena mamazecierma RmerTma. - gaexumra isev eleonora. xelCanTa gaxsna. iqidan sarke da savarcxeli amoiRo da saguldagulod Tmis varcxna daiwyo. _ ise ipranWebi, gegoneba, aq darCenas apirebde _ ar gaxsovs, SarSan kinaRam rom damitova im traqtoristma? Tu RmerTma hqna da dResac Semyara bedma. - ixumra eleonoram. _ Sen ratom arafers ambob, antonina. albaT TbilisSi darCenil megobrebze dardob. - iribad gaxeda elgujam. _ ara, maT araferi aqvT safiqrali. isini rom davbrundebi, baqanze damxvdebian. me sxvebze vdardob. _ mainc? ... oh, mapatie... albaT... dedaSeni, mgoni, ukraineli iyo... eleonoram moiwyina. antonina wamowiTlda. _ ho, ukraineli. _ hoda, ki ar unda dardobde, unda gixarodes. _ maSin ki, rom vicode, sad arian isini. _ rogor? ar ici? _ ara _ aravin hyavda? _ rogor ara. omamde dedaCems da mec yvela gvyavdnen da yvelaferic gvqonda. mas Semdeg ocdaxuTi weli gavida. omma an am wlebma, vin icis, vin datova cocxali. _ misamarTi ici? antoninam naRvlianad gaiRima. man fanjaras gaxeda. Semdeg uazrod, CaniSnul adgilze wigni gadaSala da kiTxva daiwyo. _ ratom ar mipasuxe SekiTxvaze? antoninam kiTxva Sewyvita. man TvalebSi Sexeda vaJs da am ukanasknelma dainaxa, rogor daubinda cremlebma Tvalebi. _ saerTod, warmodgena ar maqvs maTze. - es Tqva, wigni daxura.
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cerad muxlisTavebze daido da nikapiT masze daeyrdno. matarebeli Cqari svliT midioda da Ramis naTuris Suqze antoninas mxrebis Crdili mis zurgs ukan krTodnen. axla Crdils misCereboda vaJi. _ mapatie, antonina. guli gatkine _ araferia. axlo naTesavebi CemTan saubarSi ar exebian am sakiTxs. _ saerTod, araferi icis maT Sesaxeb mamaSenma? mas SeeZlo, gamoeqveynebina gazeTSi. elvis siswrafiT gasworda antonina. is sakuTar Crdils miawva mxrebiT da axla elgujam dainaxa qaliSvilis saSinlad Secvlili saxe. qaliSvili vaJs SesCereboda sibraziT. mas raRacis Tqma undoda, magram saTqmeli xorxs ver amoscda, xeli uazrod gaiqnia da Tvalebi daxuWa. eleonoram elgujas Sexeda. vaJi wamodga, papirosi amoiRo jibidan, asanTis gakvra undoda, magram Sedga da derefanSi gavida. Ria fanjarasTan moukida pirSi gaCxeril papiross. Semdeg gareT gahyo Tavi da guli gaigrila. ovaluri kvamlis boli sadRac ukan darCa.
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elguja enuqiZis biografia moklea, magram iseTi, visac wilad xvda bedniereba, sakuTari SromiT miegno Tavisi gzisTvis. saSualo skola daamTavra Tu ara, fermaSi mivida. ori wlis Semdeg partiis wevri gaxda da Tanac veterinarul institutSi moewyo. ukve mesame kursze iyo, roca fermis brigadiroba daakisres. instituti, karga xania, damTavrda. is siyvaruliT da pativiscemiT sargeblobs ojaxSi. mSoblebi da umcrosi da hyavs. samedicino institutSi swavlobs. coli ki jer ar SeurTavs. _ muSaobiT gaerTo da sul daaviwyda ojaxio. - sayveduriT SesCerebia TvalebSi deda. _ ara, deda. jer aravis Sevyvarebivar.. _ ar ginda da aba, guli uCvene vinmes, Tu ar gamogekidebian. _ kargi, deda. dRes silosia Casadebi. Sen ki meubnebi, gamogekidebiano. swored axla gaaxsenda dedasTan saubari da gakvirvebiT ikiTxa. _ ratom, dRemde ar SemimCnevia es gogo? - gakvirvebiT ikiTxa gulSi. ukanasknelad moqaCa papirosi da namwvavi gareT isrola. ukan dabrunda. antonina wigns kiTxulobda. eleonora ki saxis kosmetikiT iyo garTuli. _ ar wamouRia mTeli saloni? - gaexumra elguja. roca eleono- 451 -

ras win dawyobil parfiumerias mohkra Tvali. _ xom xedavT, kievs vuaxlovdebiT... fanjridan aisi ixedeboda da naTlad sCanda Crdilnarevi reliefi. elgujam antoninas gaxeda. mas fermkrTali saxe mouCanda da ukve veRar daiWira misi ganwyobileba, radgan wignis kiTxviT iyo garTuli. eleonoram daasrula Tavisi saqme. yvelaferi xelCanTaSi Caawyo da gavida. elguja eleonoras skamze dajda. antoninam wigni daxura. _ me mainc ver gavige, ratom gatkine guli? - uceb siCume isev elgujam daarRvia. _ ara. Tqven ara. _ aba? _ es ase memarTeba mudam. _ mesmis, magram xom SeiZleba, naxo isini. bolos da bolos planetebi xvdebian erTmaneTs antoninas Tvalebidan cremlebi mowyda. man vedrebiT Sexeda vaJs da SesTxova: _ nu, nu metyvi. iqneba ase sjobia. vaJkacma saTuTad Sexeda qaliSvils. is Zalian susti da umweo sCanda da ver gabeda, Tundac mis xels Sexeboda. mxolod misken daixara da cisfer TvalebSi Caxeda. misi Tvalebi dabneulad uyurebdnen da sadRac gulSi manamde ucnobi, magram metad saamo siTbo CaeRvara. maT erTmaneTs Tvali moarides. eleonora karebSi Semovida. is antoninas miujda da gaixumra: _ is traqtoristi Tu isev dagxvda, Cemi bedic gabrwyindeba. - da eSmakurad qal-vaJs Sexeda. maT uxmod gaiRimes. _ ukrainuli cekva ki mexerxeba da - antonina gamococxlda. _ marTla? _ ise gaejibra maSin iqaur qalebs, rom veRarc ki gavarCie imaTSi Cveni eleonora. _ aba, aba - Senc magrad giprawavdnen Tvalebs, magram... iqneba daberde mase... Seni mowonebuli verc qarTveli vnaxe da verc ukraineli. _ me orive momwons... eleonoram taSi Semohkra. elgujas xeli beWze dahkra da daiZaxa: _ Tu masea, Sors ar dagWirdeba wasvla. matarebelma sadRac daiyvira, Semdeg svlas mouklo da Sedga. _ Sen aq gadmosaxldi? adeqiT, moemzadeT. - Tavi Semohyo sosom. qaliSvilebma xelCanTebs daavles xeli. elgujam isini win
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gaatara. roca antoninas mxars Seexo. swored maSin igrZno, rom igi mas uyvarda. mdumared idgnen omSi daRupul ZmaTa sasaflaos qvis kibeze. ratomRac ise moxda, rom isini marto aRmoCndnen. qari qroda samaris qvebs Soris da Tan mSobliur nanas mReroda. antonina gaqvavebuli misCereboda svetebs, uamravi da erTnairi. erTnairi, rogorc maT mier erTi miznisTvis daRvrili sisxli. maTi sicocxle ki am svetebSi darCa samudamod. aq iyo usaxelo samaris qvebi. qaliSvili daixara da xeliT Seexo miwas. ukrainis miwas Tavisad sTvlida mudam. axla ki xeliT exeboda. mas dedis siTbo hqonda, xasxasa movlil mdelos dedis siyvaruli, xolo niavs Tmebs rom urxevda axla, dedis sunTqva mohqonda. qaliSvili adga. nela dauyva mokirwylul xeivans. skamze Camosxdnen. ase savse guli arasodes ar hqonia mas. _ mxolod dRes SemiZlia vTqva, rom bednieri var. - gaifiqra man da elgujas Sexeda: ar vici, gaigebs Tu ara is. gana SeiZleba adamiani erTbaSad Caswvdes Cems suls. is xom ar micnobda. eniT ki ver gadmovcem mas, rac CemSia. _ TiTqmis yvelaferi mqonda da mainc meCveneboda, rom raRac maklda. maklda mxolod deda. es ki adamianisTvis yvelaferze ukeTesia. ukeTesi ki am miwis Svili iyo da am miwisTvis mokvda. es miwa dedas ekuTvnis. me ar vici, romeli miwis nagleji Sexvda wilad. magram CemTvis sulerTia... is sadRac aqaa, am miwis qveS da am miwis zeviT. me es SevigrZeni maSin, roca am miwam mSobeli dedis nugeSi momca. me bolos da bolos mas Sevxvdi. _ irgvliv aTasi ucnobi adamiania, magram isini Cemi axloblebi gamxdaran. es mxolod imitom, rom maT ar vicnob. iqneb ukeTesic aris? winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi, arc Sevxedavdi maT, ise movZebnidi Cemianebs. axla ki mivabijeb quCaSi da yvelas TvalebSi vucqeri, romelia Cemi? yvela Cemi Zmaa, daa, deidaSvili da biZaSvili. meCveneba, es xmauriani quCac isaa, me rom veZebdi mudam. _ da aRar vnanob im molodins, im cremls, im gacruebul imedebs. me bolos Sevxvdi da Cemi sulic dawynarda. ai, Turme sad yofila, rasac veZebdi. elguja siyvaruliT misCereboda qaliSvilis anTebul Tvalebs. _ rom icode maT Sesaxeb, Cven vnaxavdiT maT _ ara. daxocilebis naxva mxolod am civ svetebTan SeiZleba. isini mkvdrebi arian, Torem, TviTon moZebnidnen maTi dis, valentinas erTaderT Svils. maT xom axsovT is axlad fexadgmuli patara gogo. ar momZebnes? e.i aRar arian cocxlebi. me ki minda, cocxlebi iyvnen. dae, ar vicode, vin arian isini. vici,
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isini aq arian da yvela erTnairad axlobelia CemTvis. qaliSvili wamodga, vaJs gauRima da mokirwylul xeivans gauyvnen.
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Cemo qeTino! Cem sicocxleSi pirvelad SevZeli pirdapir Semexeda cxovrebisaTvis da rogori mkacric ar unda yofiliyos ganvlili wlebi, menaxa CemSi Zala, dameZlia igi. ara, igi gonebisa da gulis daZabviT ar mosula. magaliTad, gadawyvito da gaakeTo. SeiZleba, mTeli cxovreba icxovro ise, rogorc Sen gWirdeba da Sengan moiTxovo, magram zereled. kievSi ZmaTa sasaflaoze yofnis dros me am TeTrma qvebma da im idumalma xmam, aseT adgilze rom icis, yrud, guguniviT, zogjer kvnesas rom hgavs da zogjer sixaruls, bevr rameze damafiqra. Zvirfaso megobrebo, Cems gulamde moaRwia am xmebma da dRemde gayinuli guli gaalRo. swored es iyo, Cems sulze rom gaimarjva. am svetebTan davinaxe maradiuli da Zlieri sicocxle da Cemi Tavi Tavisi ubralo cxovrebiT Tvalwin warmomidga. mTeli sicocxle xelebdakrefili velodi am sixarulis xilvas. vnaxe is, risic meSinoda mudam. TiTqmis araferi momxdara. cxovreba isev ise midis, magram mainc Seicvala raRac. yvelafers namdvili saxe mieca. lamazia bavSvebi, skola, adamianebi. ufro sayvarelia bebia da mama, xolo TamTa mamida isev Zlieri meCveneba. dRes yvelaze bednieri var, radgan SevigrZeni, rom is udidesi msxverpli, rac oms dasWirda, aucilebeli iyo da swored aman gamiCina siamayis grZnoba - me es msxverpli Cemi dakarguli bavSvobiTac miveci mas. _ qeTino, ratom ar damxvdi sadgurze? hoda, erTi saidumloc unda gagando, sxvaTa Soris. es Cemi saqorwilo mogzaurobac gamodga. SabaTs gelodebi megobrebiT, Seni da, antonina
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qeTino daZabuli misCereboda vaJas saxes. is antoninas werils kiTxulobda. saxe odnav SesamCnevad gasTeTreboda. _ es marTalia? - ikiTxa bolos da savarZelSi mjdom qeTinos Sexeda. qalma TiTi magidaze daakakuna da mravalmniSvnelovnad gaiRima. _ rogorc sCans, marTalia. xom wamoxval?

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vaJam sigara amoiRo, pirSi Caido, mis bolos kbili magrad daaWira da meore xeli asanTis amosaRebad Caiyo jibeSi, magram gadaifiqra: papirosi ukanve gamoiRo, ceriTa da saCvenebeli TiTiT magrad dasrisa da daumwvari saferfleze dado. _ SabaTamde Sen naxe, qeTino. Tu is am kavSiriT bednieria, nurafers etyvi. dae, iyos ise, rogorc mas unda. vaJa gareT gavida. gaocebuli qeTino ki imave adgilze datova. _ daigviane, Cemo vaJa! - sinanuliT Cailaparaka da gulwrfelad daenana amxanagi. _ ra ucnauria bedi, iqneba swored moiqca antonina? - fiqrobda qeTino, roca avtobusi soflisken miaqanebda. _ iqneb, sjobda, gavyolodi ilias. vicxovrebdi bednier meuRlesTan. me ki ar gaviRe es msxverpli. marTlac suleli unda iyo, giyvardes adamiani, visac azrad ar mouva, rom uyvarxar. axla? miyvars? ra Tqma unda, ise aRar mas Semdeg didma drom ganvlo da wlebis CavlasTan erTad Cems Tavs ukve sxvisi TvaliT vwoni da vzomav. ai, ise TiTqos CemSi cxovrobdes viRac meore `me, SegiZlia, axlos iyo masTan. Semdeg dgeba raRac momenti, Seni `me ramdenime manZiliT gSordeba. Soridan ki ufro kargad SegiZlia Seafaso igi. am dros swori daskvnis gamotanac SegiZlia. es ufro imas hgavs- dgaxar did lamaz suraTTan, sul axlos da ar SegiZlia dainaxo es silamaze, radgan ferebi erTmaneTSi irevian da Tvalebs gWrian. Semdeg ukan ixev da zustad aRiqvam naxats. ezoSi Sesuls iliko gamoegeba. _ oh! rogor gamaxare Svilo! - Semdeg antoninas SesZaxa. _ gamoixede gogo. _ qeTino? vicodi, rom moxvidodi. _ ratom? _ axlos, rom dagenaxa Cemi bedniereba. aivanze Camosxdnen. _ bebias dauZaxe. xaWapurebi daacxos! - gasZaxa mamas. _ axlave, Svilo! - miugo da sardafisaken wavida. cota xanSi faci-fuciT momavali sofio gamoCnda. miuxedavad xandazmulobisa, igi iseTive cqviti iyo, rogorc axalgazrdobaSi. _ Cemo qeTino! rava xar? prokurori qali ki xar, didi qali.. - qaliSvils gadaexvia moxuci, - mara marto swavla da didqaloba ras giSvelis, Tu baRnebi ar dautove qveyanas. ratom ar gaTxovdi? _ ra vqna, bebo? vinc miyvarda, iman ar wamiyvana. visac vuyvardi, imas me TviTon ar wavyevi da qe davrCi ase... _ ui, beCa, vin dagiwuna SenisTana oqrosaviT qali, imas gauxma Tavi.
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_ ar ginda, nu swyevli bebo. mas warmodgena ar aqvs, rom miyvars. _ mere magisTana siyvaruli gagonila? gulzviadebi gaxdiT axlandeli modgma, - gakvirvebiT Cailaparaka sofiom da vaxSmis Tadarigs Seudga. iliko bostanSi gavida samuSaod. dabrunebuli axla ezoSi datrialebda saqmes. _ ese igi, gadawyvite, gahyve im biWs, erTad rom imgzavreT? _ gadavwyvite. gagikvirda? _ ara. piriqiT. velodi kidec, magram mere vaJa? antoninas elda eca. is wamodga da ezoSi gaixeda. Semdeg megobars miubrunda da uTxra: _ qeTino, ici Tu ara, mTeli cxovreba sul lodinSi gavatare. vaJas ki marto Tavisi Tavi uyvars. me minda movisveno. gavyve imas, visac vuyvarvar. _ Sen amaSi xedav bednierebas? _ diax! _ es Sengan gaRebuli didi msxverplia. _ msxverplia? me Zalian didi msxverpli gaviRe. bevri lodiniT davtanje Cemi guli. aRar SemiZlia, SensaviT miyvardes adamiani, visganac arafers veli. mSvidi da ubralo cxovreba minda, CemTan myofi adamianebi grZnobdnen Tavs bednierad. didi romantikuli Tavgadasavlebis Tavi ar maqvs, qeTino da es msxverplic amisTvis gaviRe. me da vaJas ki wminda megobruli grZnoba gvakavSirebda da aseve davrCebiT.
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_ dRes adre davbrundi, Cemo gogona da gaviseirnoT. - uTxra anatolim Svils, roca sabavSvo baRis WiSkramde miacila. anatoli samsaxurSi ar midioda. mas saproeqto institutSi hqonda saqme. sxdomaze arCevdnen naxazs, romelic ekuTvnoda sacxovrebeli binis mSeneblobas. misi avtori ki, larisa aleqseevna iyo. is am naxazze sikvdilis ukanasknel dRemde muSaobda. amitom igi anatolisaTvis yvelaze Zvirfasi iyo. naxazis ujraSi Caketva danaSauladac ki miaCnda da amitom misi sikvdilis Semdeg mis dasamtkiceblad izruna. larisa aleqseevna ramdenime naxazis avtori iyo. mas icnobdnen, rogorc perspeqtiul da niWier inJiners. karebSi Sesul anatolis sammarTvelos ufrosi Sexvda. rogorc ki anatolis mohkra Tvali, SeCerda da uTxra: _ dRes sxdoma ar Sedgeba, anatoli, Tumca naxazs yvela gaecno. igi damtkicebuli iqneba. _ gmadlobT, kirile dimitroviC! - sixaruliT uTxra anatolim.
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_ albaT mcireodeni Sesworebebi Seva, magram umniSvnelo. daurTo roca kibeebze Cadiodnen. anatoli ukan gamobrunda. samsaxurSi gaiara, gadaudebeli gankargulebebi gasca da ukan dabrunebisas sabavSvo baRSi gamoiara. _ mama, ra kargia, rom adre moxvedi. ici, ra? dRes lenas dabadebis dRe aqvs da bavSvebs gvepatiJeba. xom gamiSveb? _ kargi. kargi _ ai, misamarTi! - qaRaldi, sadac misamarTi ewera, mamas miawoda. Setrialda, bavSvebisaken unda gaqceuliyo, rom anatolim SeaCera. _ gaiqeci. aRmzrdels dauZaxe. _ deida nina! _ axalia? _ ho. ai, axla daiwyo muSaoba. - ezoSi gaurkveveli wlovanebis qali gamoCnda. mas TeTri Tmebi hqonda. TeTri xalaTi da aseTive feris fexsacmeli ecva. _ lenas dedaa. - gaacno moaxlovebisTanave antoninam. _ is gogona ki lenaa. _ gamarjoba. - moaxlovebisTanave moesalma aRmzrdeli. anatolim misken nabiji gadadga da xeli CamoarTva. _ anatoli _ nina _ `rogori Tbili saxe aqvs! - gaifiqra mamakacma. _ kargi gogona gyoliaT, cqviti... _ Cven lenasTan varT dapatiJebuli. - daJinebiT uTxra gogonam mamas. _ ho, aucileblad mivalT. _ saRamos eqvs saaTze, ara, nina? _ aris. saRamos eqvs saaTze! - patakze gaiWima anatoli. samives gaecina. _ qalbatoni nina. me manamde bavSvs gavaseirneb. _ didi siamovnebiT. wadi, antonina! _ gmadlobT. - deida ninam gogonas xeli gadausva. anatolis ki Tavi daukra. roca mama-Svili karebisaken gaemarTnen, ninam dakvirvebiT gaayola Tvali. _ sakvirvelia! - Tavi gaaryia da Semdeg bavSvebisaken wavida, magram isev Sedga da mimavalT gaxeda. _ mama - anatoli, Svili - antonina, - saocrebaa, RmerTmani. rogorc ki sabavSvo baRis moajirs gascdnen, antoninam kidev hkiTxa mamas: _ saCuqrad yvavilebi viyidoT Tu... dedofala? _ yvavilebic da dedofalac. _ uh! ra kargi mama xar!
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_ ai, Se, eSmako, Sena! maRaziaSic Sevidnen, mere zooparkSi. Semdeg anatolim swored is Tojina iyida, romelic Zalian uyvarda. yvavilebze ki mTeli qalaqi irbines xan fexiT. xan taqsiT da roca lenas sadarbazos win Sedgnen, bavSvebi ukve midiodnen saxlebSi. _ uh! rogor dagvagvianda! - iwyina anatolim. lenam Tvali Seaswro dagvianebul stumrebs _ deda, dediko! nina RimiliT Seegeba mama-Svils da saxlSi miipatiJa. sazeimod morTul oTaxSi Sevidnen. anatolim Sedga Tu ara fexi am oTaxSi, mTel sxeulSi sixarulis siTbo CaeRvara. moeCvena, rom es saxli sadRac enaxa, es adamianebic masTan cxovrobdnen odesRac. Zalian adre, Sors bavSvobisas... _ sergei prokofis Ze. - gaacno Tavisi Tavi lenas mamam, romelic savarZlidan wamodga da stumars miegeba. _ anatoli! _ kargi saxelia. ninas axla Tmebi ukan hqonda gadavarcxnili. saSinao kabaSi ufro moxdenili Canda. misi wlovanebis dadgena SeiZleboda. ocdaaT welze metis ar iqneboda. antoninam Tojina lenas gadasca. yvavilebi ki nina deidas. swored am dros Tojina atirda. bavSvebs gaecinaT. anatoli da nina ki SekrTnen da uceb erTmaneTs Sexedes. qali aRelvebuli miuaxlovda larnaks, rom yvavilebi Sig Caewyo, xelebi uTrToda. _ momeci, geTayva! - me TviTon. - mieSvela qmari. _ mgoni, samzareuloSi geZaxian. _ gadmocemaa saqarTvelodan. - sergeim savarZeli televizoris win moxerxebul adgilze dado. _ didi xania? _ axlaxans daiwyo. _ Tqven qarTveli xarT? - ase Tqva ninam weRan. _ diax! diax! _ sergei, gTxov! - gamosZaxa ninam _ axlave. bavSvebma mezobel oTaxSi kvlav aatires Tojina. anatolim gulTan yru tkivili SeigrZno. erTxans televizors usmina. Semdeg oTaxi SeaTvaliera... igi ijda tipiur sacxovrebel binaSi. avejic Tanamedrove iyo, magram mis cxovrebasTan raRac maxlobeli da swored im maxlobels daeZebda... wignebiT savse karadaze gadaitana mzera. meore Taroze CarCoSi Casmuli suraTi dainaxa. suraTi Zveli iyo. wamodga da karadisken wavida. sami nabiji iyo karadamde da moeCvena am sam nabijis gadadg- 458 -

mas mTeli sicocxle mounda. mTeli tani daumZimda da sxeulis yvela nawili moudunda. xelic ki gaiwoda karadisken,rom Seemoklebia gza, magram sadRac haerSi darCa, im sivrceSi, mis xelebs karadisgan rom hyofda. karebSi nina idga da gaqvavebuli anatolis misCereboda. bolos miaRwia karadamde da axlodan daakvirda suraTs. mas SesCereboda ori bavSvis cocxali da mSvenieri Tvalebi, aqedan erTi... is Setrialda. lenas da antoninas xelSi Tojina eWiraT da karebSi idgnen. samzareulos karTan TefSi daeca da ninas fexebTan daimsxvra. erTbaSad waiSala yvelaferi tipiuri saxlic da misi avejic, lenac da antoninac da mtirala Tojina xelSi SerCa Soreul bavSvobis mogonebas, Tmebdaglejilma Tojinam da masTan moCxubari ninas da anatolis bednierma wlebma. _ es Tojina tiris, mama! - gamoelaparaka qaliSvili mamas, magram mis yuramde ar miaRwia am xmam. safeTqelTan yru guguni esmoda da Soreul, Zalian Soreul nanatr bavSvobas agonebda. TviTon ver mixvda, rogor gaswia karadis SuSa da mTrTolvare xeliT Seexo ori adamianis mSvenier warsuls. anatolis adamianis feri ar edo. isev savarZelTan mivida da moceliliviT Sig Cavarda. _ mama, deida nina, mama avad aris. - ikivla antoninam da mamisaken gaqanda. samzareulodan sergei gamovarda. ninam saswrafod validolis wveTebi moZebna da anatolisTan miarbenina. _ ara. araferi ar minda. - amoiluRluRa anatolim da pirvelad Tavis cxovrebaSi atirda. _ es biWi. es biWi vin aris? - ikiTxa anatolim da ninas Sexeda. ninam amoikvnesa. _ Cemi deidaSvilia. dabombvis dros mokvda. _ es gogona? _ es ki me var, misi deidaSvili. _ am biWunas ra erqva, nina? - wamodga da Zalian axlos mivida qalTan. _ anatoli. _ nina! bavSvebs eWiraT Tojina da ismoda misi nawyvet-nawyveti tirili. moulodnelad anatoli ninas xelebSi waetana da magrad mouWira, Semdeg karebs eca da sulmouTqmelad kibeebze daeSva. gaocebuli sergei, nina da bavSvebi derefanSi gamovidnen. antonina mamas gamoudga, magram kibeebze nina daewia da gaaCera. _ mova. is aucileblad mova. mimaval taqss Sua quCaSi daxvda da SeaCera. aRelvebulma binis
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misamarTi uTxra da spidometrs Sexeda. erTi suli hqonda, male misuliyo saxlamde. roca erTi mosaxvevi darCa, mZRols miaZaxa: _ aT wuTs damelode da isev iq momiyvane. _ keTili. anatoli sirbiliT aiWra kibeebze da gasaRebiT kari gaaRo. isev gugunebda yurebTan safeTqlebi, isev yviroda Soreuli xma gulTan, isev ismoda Tojinas tirili da Tmagawewili ninas muqara. Tavisi sayvareli suraTi ipova. kedlidan CamoiRo da jibeSi Caido. Semdeg anatolis aRaraferi axsovda. aRar axsovda, rogor mivida taqsTan, ra siswrafiT midioda igi, an mZRols gadauxada Tu ara mgzavrobis safasuri. roca ukan dabrunda, dainaxa, rom axla nina ijda savarZelSi da sergei validolis wveTebs aZlevda. zaris daurekavad gaCnda maT win. sulmouTqmelad orive suraTi aiRo da erTdroulad orives daxeda. diax! ori suraTidan iyureboda erTi da igive biWis miamiti saxe. suraTebi ninas kalTaze dauwyo. _ aaa...- raRac bgerebi aRmoxda ninas da grZnoba dakarga. yvela mas Semoexvia. sergeim piri gauRo da wyliani wveTebi Caasxa. _ saswrafo. saswrafo gamoviZaxoT! - telefonTan miiWra anatoli, magram ninam Tvalebi gaaxila. _ Sen gaxsovs nina? _ maxsovs. marto is maxsovs da ... - Tojinas waetana, xelSi aitaca da TmebSi swvda. _ me maxsovs rogor vwewavdi Sens Tojinas. Sen ki memuqrebodi. Sen albaT Cemze ufrosi iyavi. _ Sen anatoli xar. anatoli. - nina wamovarda da gulSi Caikra didi xnis dakarguli deidaSvili. _ sergei, Sen ici, es ras niSnavs? mamakacebi erTmaneTs gadaexvivnen. kvlav gaisma Tojinas tirili. deidaSvilebma erTmaneTs Sexedes, gaiRimes da cremliT aevsoT Tvalebi. gulaCuyebuli sergei samzareuloSi gavida. _ rogorc ki sabavSvo baRSi moxvedi da gamecani, maSinve SevkrTi. ra Tqmaunda, Cems cxovrebaSi bevri anatoli Semxvedria, magram iseTi ara, mamas anatoli erqvas da Svils - antonina. anatolis farTod gaxelilma Tvalebma gaoceba gamoxates. _ miambe Sens Sesaxeb, anatoli! mamakaci Sedga, Semdeg Rrmad CaisunTqa haeri da daiwyo: _ lidia petrovna, romelmac gadamarCina, - ai, me masTan maqvs foto gadaRebuli, marwmunebda, rom dedaCemi da me erTad movxvdiT dabombvis dros da rom igi daiRupa.
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ninas xeli TeTri Tmis boloebs Seexo da daWima. _ is dedaCemi iyo. _ ese igi, deidaCemi. asec vfiqrobdi... ratomRac mexsierebaSi CamrCa, rom mamaCemi qarTveli iyo. _ marTali xar, iliko biZia, - ninas cremlebiT aevso Tvalebi saSinelebaa imis gaxsenebac ki, rac me vnaxe da ganvicade. bednieri xar Sen! radgan maSin imdenad patara iyavi, rom Zalian cota gaxsovs omze. an Tu gaxsovs, misi mxolod erTi dRe, me ki mTlianad... _ sergei, geTayva, bavSvebi daawvine. man bavSvebi saZinebel oTaxSi gaiyvana. _ Cems Tvalwin hklavdnen, asaxiCrebdnen. Sen warmoidgine, im dResac ezoSi `omobanas vTamaSobdiT da uceb Cveulebriv omad gadaiqca. roca Tvali gavaxile, me dasaxiCrebuli gvamebi SemrCa xelSi... Semdeg nataSa deidam mama dimitrisTan gadammala, magram iq uaresi datrialda. Cems Tvalwin daxvrites mama dimitri, Cems Tvalwin daiWires mamaSeni faSistebma. sajarod awames nataSa deida da es yvelaferi moxda ise, rogorc me giyureb Sen. davkarge mSoblebi, megobrebi, naTesavebi, saxli, axloblebi, davsaxiCrdi sulierad. axlac, roca es yvelaferi Tvalwin damidgeba. wonasworobas vkargav. im dReTa tragedia ar amomdis Tvalebidan. sergei karebSi gamoCnda. _ dawynardi nina, geTayva, ai, dabrunda erTi. iqneba kidev Setrialdes bedi. _ me akulina deidam gamzarda. - is erTxans gaognebuli iataks dascqeroda, Semdeg wamodga da albomi gamoiRo. magidaze anatolis gverdiT dado da axlos miujda. _ es mama dimitria. - anatolim dainaxa mefis jariskacis mundirSi Cacmuli xmel-xmeli kaci. _ ai, rogori yofila Cemi babua. - gaifiqra sevdianad anatolim. _ es Cemi mSoblebia. mama ugzo-ukvlod daikarga, es uaresia, ara anatoli? - sevdianad Sexeda deidaSvils. _ es nataSa deidaa, - man Tavi gaaqnia da Semdeg xeli miiWira. _ is sul axalgazrda iyo, sul axalgazrda im RamiT gvian movida. gaTenebisas Tavs dagvesxnen. perangis amara gaigdes win, fexSiSveli daTovlil gzaze. sofelSi awames partizanebTan urTierTobisTvis. maSin Svidi wlis viyavi... is dedaze metad miyvarda. _ es Seni mamaa! anatolim xarbad daxeda suraTs. _ iliko biZia. mama dimitri swored im RamiT daxrites, roca tyved waiyvanes. swored me davarwmune is, rom Sen da dedaCemi dabombvis dros daiRupeT.
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_ es ki Seni dedaa, valentina. anatolis gulma mometebulad dauwyo cema. is pirvelad xedavda adamians, vinc sicocxle misca. am qalTan SeeZlo yofiliyo Zalian bednieri... magram erTi ukvirda, ratom icnobda am qals odesRac, ver garkveuliyo, rodis iyo es: cxadad, sizmarSi Tu kinoSi. qals erTi wlis Casuqebuli gogona eWira xelSi. _ swored aman gamaoca da damaeWva. zogjer saswaulebrivi damTxvevaa. es gogona Seni daa. Seni umcrosi da, antonina. anatoli skamze Seqanda da wamoxta. _ ra Tqvi? ninam naTqvami gaumeora da Tan daumata: _ omis win saqarTveloSi waiyvanes da Cvenc davkargeT misi kvali. anatolim albomi ukan gadmofurcla da mamis saxes daakvirda. mas miwis feri edo da ise dasCereboda dedis, mamis da dis saxeebs. erTi wuTiT Tvalwin gaielva qluxoris sabavSvo saxlma, qvis xidTan SeCerebulma megobrebis saxeebma. sofio bebias mier mrgvlad moxarSulma dedalma da cxelma Wadebma. _ ui, upatrono saxlidana xar? - axlac yurTan uCurCula moxucma da Semdeg antoninas sayvarel saxes SeefeTa. yvelaferi erTmaneTSi airia da burusSi sarkmelTan momdgari Zia ilikos Sefiqrianebuli saxe dainaxa. _ ratom ver icani Seni Svili, Zia iliko? - naRvlianad gaifiqra. _ ra moxda, anatoli? - SiSiT SeekiTxa nina. _ me vicnob am gogonas. is Cemi yvelaze axlobeli adamiania. Sen ver warmoidgen, rogor itanjeboda is dakarguli Zmis gamo. man Zmad miwama da Turme, arc Semcdara. nina zeze wamoiWra, validolis wveTebi Caasxa WiqaSi, wyali daumata da gadahkra. Semdeg bavSvebis oTaxSi Sevida. erTad mwolare bavSvebs daxeda da gaifiqra: _ bavSvebi yvelaze metad sayvarlebi ZilSi arian. kargad gaTenebuli iyo. anatoli saxlSi brundeboda. antonina lenasTan erTad ninam waiyvana sabavSvo baRSi. mTeli Rame hyvebodnen Tavis Tavze deidaSvilebi da roca daaTendaT, kidev bevri darCaT uTqmeli. aTasi megobari rom gyavdes da Tavi mogqondes maTi kargi adamianobiT, Seni sisxli da xorci sxvaa. is Sens organizms Taviseburi siTboTi da bednierebiT avsebs da, am SegrZnebiT brundeboda ninasagan anatoli. _ netav, larisa aleqseevna daswreboda am bednierebas, - gaifiqra gulSi, roca masTan gatarebuli wlebi Tvalwin daudga. ki ar midioda, raRac Zala miaqanebda win. mTel sxeulSi simsubuqes grZnobda da egona, yvelani iseTive kmayofilebi iyvnen,
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rogorc is am diliT. _ antonina! samsaxurSi mival Tu ara, vudepeSeb. _ Zmao, anatoli! mwerdi da guliT gwadda ase yofiliyo namdvilad. mTeli sicocxle daitanje Cems gamo da amitom iwame abezari anatoli Zmad. is daRvrili cremli da dakarguli molodini Cems gamo iyo. axla anatoli TavisTavze ki ara, Tavis daze fiqrobda. sirbiliT aiWra kibeebze. kari gaaRo da Sevida.es oTaxebi aseTi Tbili da lamazi larisa aleqseevnas sikvdilis Semdeg aRar yofila. fanjara gaaRo. mzis sxivebi aTamaSda WaRTan. _ Cemi axali sicocxlis pirveli mze. samuSao tansacmeli Caicva. sarkeSi Caixeda, Tavisi Tavic moewona. isev dauyva kibeebs. midioda nela. mezoblebs Tavazianad esalmeboda. viRac mozrdils, mesame sarTulze rom cxovrobda, Rilic Seukra. pirvel sarTulze patara gogona Semoxvda da Tmebze gadausva xeli. gareT undoda gasvla, rom fostis yuTs Sexeda da Sedga. _ `es ori dRea, fosta ar mimiRia. jibidan gasaRebi amoiRo da xeli yuTisaken waiRo. rkinis saketma gaitkacuna da anatolis yurebTan usiamovno bgerebi gaisma. _ uWirs, - ukmayofilod Cailaparaka da gazeTebis Sekvra gamoiRo. isev daketa yuTi, isev gaatkacuna saketma, isev daayara sicivis susxi mamakacs. ezoSi gavida. gazeTebi gaSala. Sig yviTeli depeSa ido da SekrTa. _ saidan aris? - gaifiqra da depeSis kiTxva SiSiT qvevidan daiwyo. Tvalebi auWrelda. veraferi gaigo. guli gaimagra da depeSa waikiTxa. anatolis fexebTan dacvivda waukiTxavi ori dRis gazeTebis Sekvra. mis xelebSi SerCa is yviTeli qaRaldi, romelsac qveS antonina awerda xels.
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_ mama. pensia gekuTvnis, ratom arafers ambob? ilikom Taviseburi mSvidi RimiliT Sexeda qaliSvils da uTxra: _ eh! kaci rom pensiaze gava, mas cali fexi samareSi udgas. _ daisveneb da cali fexic aRar geqneba samareSi. mamasa da Svils Soris es saubari cota adre iyo. Semdeg ki moxuci soc.uzrunvelyofaSi mivida sapensio furclisaTvis. _ ormoci wlis namuSevari kaci xar. ki, gekuTvnis dasveneba. iliko biZia samxedro komisariatSi midi da iqidanac moitane cnoba
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samamulo omSi monawileobis Sesaxeb! _ tyved viyavi, biZiko! _ sul erTia. magis cnobas mogcemen. ilajgawyvetili gamovida gareT. civma oflma daasxa da ezoSi mdgar skamze Camojda. _ ra ubralod Tqva. samxedro komisariatidan cnoba moitaneo - mwared gaifiqra da gairbina. _ im patara gogom. SeiZleba. arc icis, ra aris tyveoba. da Tu icis, icis kinoebidan da wignebidan. is ki advilad iviwyebda adamianebs. ...eh! maT rom icnobdnen, ras niSnavs tyved yofna oTxi weli, mtris mavTulbadiani SemoRobilis SigniT? mxolod ZarRvebad da Zvlebad qceuli gamowvdili xelebi, amRvreul TvalebSi Camdgari erTi - purze fiqri. salafav saWmelTan rigad Camwkrivebuli danomril adamianTa Sesivebuli saxeebi, megobrebisaTvis iRliaSi Semonaxuli Zvliani xorci. ar ician Zirs dacvenili dasiebuli fexebi, tyviiT dacxrilul adamianTa gvamebi, gatyavebul micvalebulTa xrova. man ki ise ubralod miTxra, TiTqos bileTis aReba mTxova, TeatrSi SesvlisaTvis. wamodga. surda, moSoreboda iqaurobas, magram moeCvena, raRac simi Cawyda da isec dajda. Tavs Zala daatana da wamodga. nela gauyva quCas. mxrebi ufro moxroda da mZimed sunTqavda. _ yovelive amas sjobs, sul ar gavide pensiaze. - gadawyvita da mtanjveli fiqri gulidan gadaagdo. samuSaod dabrunebul ilikos isev antoninas kiTxvis gamomxatveli Tvalebi Sexvda da mixvda, mis SekiTxvas veRar daaRwevda Tavs. _ ra hqeni, mama? mama cota Seyovnda, Semdeg qaliSvils Sexeda. karisaken wavida da roca saxelurs swvda, SvilisaTvis aRar Seuxedavs, ise Cailaparaka. _ iyos. aTasi sabuTi iTxoves ra... _ ra? me moval _ ara, ara, ar aris saWiro. gaocebiT miaCerda Svili mamis zurgs, roca ezo gadaWra da yanaSi gavida samuSaod. _ ucnauria, RmerTmani, es kaci patara winaaRmdegobas Sexvdeba Tu ara, ukan ixevs. _ bebia sofio, rogor xar? - gasZaxa gareT gamosulma SviliSvilma. _ kargad, bebo. - moCifCifTa moxuci. didi xania, man sinaTle dahkarga, magram WiSkris gaRebisTanave icnobda sayvareli SviliSvilis fexis xmas. _ Sena xar, boSo? - gaixedavda sofio da im mimarTulebiT Cveuli
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simardiT wavidoda, saidanac esmoda fexis xma. _ i biWi ravaa? _ kargad bebo. dRes aq ar gamouvlia? _ ara. ra iqneba, gamoirbendes. momanatra Tavi i mudregma. _ saRamos aucileblad gamovgzavni. - amSvidebda moxucs. xels waukravda saqmes da Sin brundeboda. ar meguleba iseTi qaliSvili, visac mSobliuri keris xilva guls sixaruliT ar uvsebdes da aseTi rwmeniT brundeboda ukan antoninac. meore dRes TviTon wavida soc. uzrunvelyofaSi. _ me vuTxari mamaTqvens... - da xelmeored CamouTvala mosatani cnobebi. mixvda qaliSvili, Tu risTvis miatova mamamisma pensiis sabuTebis Segroveba. gadawyvita, TviTon moegvarebina es sakiTxi. samxedro komisariatSi uTxres, pasuxs ramdenime dReSi miiRebo. saRamos, sxvaTaSoris, elgujas uambo amis Sesaxeb. patara anatolic eswreboda maT saubars. meore dRes babuasTan gamovlisas bavSvuri miamitobiT uambo es saidumlo, aq sxvam ar majobos enis mitanao. patara, enaWartala, aba, ras warmoidgenda, Tu gamousworebeli Secdoma dauSva. _ ramdenime dReSi mogcemTo pasuxs? - gaimeora moxucma da Tavi mxrebSi Cargo. _ ho, babua. - ase uTxra dedam mamas. mTel tanSi usiamovno sicivem dauara. wamodga, lursmanze Camokidebuli Zveli kostiumi CamoiRo da mxrebze moigdo. isev iq Cajda da anatolis uTxra: _ wadi, bebos uTxari, logini gamiSalos aivanze. Semacia. - bavSvi gaiqca. amis Semdeg moxucma kvlav gamoscada mtanjveli molodinis saSineleba. am molodinma ise monusxa, rom dahkarga sxva rameze fiqris unari. siZe-qaliSvilisTvis araferi uTqvams. anatoli ki gaafrTxila. _ rac miambe, dedikos ar uTxra, Torem gagijavrdeba. antoninam cnoba roca miiRo, moxucs kidev miutana ambavi SviliSvilma. _ babua, is cnoba miviRe dRes. - akankalebuli moxuci mxrebSi Caafrinda anatolis da gulSi Caikra. gaivlis dro. anatoli gaizrdeba da davaJkacdeba. moagondeba mas es dRe - babuas sixaruliT akankalebuli saxe, TvalebTan gabrwyinebuli cremlebi. moagondeba, es sixaruli ra Zvirad daujda da dafiqrdeba. magram ver gazomavs im Wrilobis siRrmes, rac
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omma miayena mSvid, ubralo cxovrebaze meocnebe adamians. omma ki waarTva es ubralo cxovreba. uTenia adga im dRes antonina. elgujas fermis karebze eloda. anatolis mSvidad eZina da mamam frTxilad gaixura kari. _ dRes qalaqSi mivdivar. kombinirebuli sakvebis vagoni Camodga. antoninam uxmod gauwyo sauzme. ezoSi Cavida. mzis amosvlamde bostanSi gavida. muSaobaSi gaerTo. ver SeamCnia, rogor gavida ezodan elguja. mis yuramde roca matoris xmam miaRwia, maSin gaixeda. male wasuli manqanis borblebis xmac Sewyda. mwvanili balaxisagan gaaTavisufla. Semdeg balaxs xeli daavlo da gareT gamoitana. gadawyvita, diliTve moerwyo balaxisgan gaTavisuflebuli mwvanili. vedro aiRo da onkanTan mivida. WiSkarTan manqana SeCerda. ferSecvlili elguja gadmovida kabinidan da cols moridebiT Sexeda. _ ratom dabrundi? - ikiTxa antoninam _ bebia sofio gamxdara avad! _ xom ar mokvda? - ikiTxa SeSfoTebiT da qmars Sexeda. _ ara. - zurgSeqceviT miugo qmarma, antoninas mzerisaTvis rom Tvali aeridebia. manqanis kabinaSi Sevida coli. TviTon kabinis gverdiT dadga. roca mamis saxls miuaxlovda. ezoSi ukve xalxi iyo. maT saxeebs daakvirda da usityvod daaskvna. _ albaT, mokvda bebia. - Tavi gaimagra. _ sawyali mamaCemi, ra eSveleba axla? mezoblebi usityvod ixedebodnen misken da Semdeg mzera gverdiT gadahqondaT. _ Tvals marideben. - gaifiqra da manqanidan gadmovida. saxlis orive kari Ria iyo. irgvliv samarisebuli siCume idga da aman SeaSina qali. sirbiliT gadaWra ezo da saxlSi Sevarda. karebSive Sedga gaocebuli antonina. dabal skamze mjdari saxedakawruli bebiis usinaTlo Tvalebi misCereboda. _ Sen xar, boSo? - ikivla moxucma da TavSi waiSina xeli. adgilze datrialda qali. mezoblis gaqvavebul saxeebs daakvirda. maT saxeebze dainaxa is sibraluli, bavSvobaSi rom xvdeboda mudam. mas es mzera mudam sZulda, radgan igi Soreul mwuxare bavSvobas agonebda. am wuTSi Tavisi Tavi swored im umweo bavSvad warmoidgina da guli SeekumSa. viRacam xeli waavlo da meore oTaxSi gaiyvana. _ mama yofila avad, Turme. - Cailaparaka qaliSvilma da mwoliare momRimar mamasTan mivida. xeliT Seexo mis Subls. Tbili iyo.
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moeCvena, safeTqelTan ZarRvic feTqavda. _ saswrafo... elguja, Cqara - maja aiRo. ise Zlier ucemda guli, rom mamis majazec gadadioda. _ aRar gyavs mama! - moesma bebias xma. antoninas yurebamde miaRwia xmam da saxlis Weric Setortmanda. mamis mkerdze daixara, yuri miugdo da axla mTeli gulisyuriT mousmina. _ ara, bebia, ara. mama Tbilia. albaT, guli Seuwuxda. mamaCems ra mohklavda, ra? _ tyuilad ityueb Tavs! - moesma isev bebias xma da qaliSvili mamis mkerds daekona. axalma ubedurebam erTbaSad gamoalenCa antonina. yvelaferi erTmaneTSi aeria: warsuli, awmyo da momavali. ver garkveuliyo, sad iyo axla. erTmaneTSi areuliyo bavSvobis mware molodini da am molodinis mware dasasruli. yvelaferi rac iyo, dRes mTavrdeboda, mamamisis cxedarTan. joxis kakuniT miuaxlovda bebia SviliSvils. zurgze mieyrdno, xeli waavlo kankaliT da Tavisaken Semoatriala. _ ai, es eWira xelSi. diliT rom movedi, orjer davuZaxe da xma ar gamca. xelebiT gavsinje da es gamovarTvi. ra aris Svilo, naxe! antonina Zlivs moego gons. bebias xelidan muyaos ydaSi Casmuli suraTi gamoarTva. TiTebiT Tvalebi Seiwminda da suraTs daxeda. suraTi didi xnis iyo. es suraTi arasodes ar enaxa. mezRvauris tansacmelSi Cacmuli biWuna ucinoda. _ anatoli, Zmao! - daikvnesa qalma. mamis mkerds xeli daado da Tqva: - gamogaWama guli maTze fiqrma. ratom CemTvis arasodes giCvenebia es suraTi. yvelaferi rom saidumlod waiRe miwaSi. suraTi mamis mkerdze dado da axla Soridan Sexeda. SekrTa. suraTi isev aiRo da xarbad daakvirda. _ es xom is aris? is kargad maxsovs. - waiCurCula Cumad da gadmoatriala. masze gadaRebis TariRi ewera 1941 weli maisi. _ es is aris. gansxvaveba mxolod ramdenime TveSia. swored es tansacmeli ecva. aseTi Tvalebi hqonda, qera Tma. cota aweuli cxviri. es xom is aris. elguja Cqara, Cqara xalxi gaognebuli misCereboda aRelvebul qals, romelsac ise anTeboda Tvalebi, SeSlils hgavda. arc erTi ar iyo iseTi, vinc antoninas bavSvobas icnobda. _ elguja, daxede, es anatolia. anatolia, Cemi dakarguli Zma - tiriliT, nawyvet - nawyvet ambobda igi. _ saswrafod gagzavna depeSa, iqneba mkvdar mamas mainc mouswros. es Sen xar. Sen, Cemi Zma xar, anatoli. - da mamas mkerdze daeca. mezoblebma da uaxloesma naTesavebma icodnen gadmocemebiT, rom misi Zma dabombvaSi mohyva. _ dawynardi, Svilo, dawynardi. - SeSfoTebiT waavlo usinaTlo
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bebiam xeli, magram SviliSvilma umweod Sexeda mis davsil Tvalebs da SesZaxa. _ bebia, aixile Tvali da dainaxe, rom es biWuna, mamaCems rom hyavda Caxutebuli, cocxalia. cocxalia da is Cemi yvelaze maxlobeli adamiania. _ ras ambob? _ xom gaxsovs. sabavSvo saxleli, anatoli axalSeniSvili. _ rao? - gaognebulma bebiam jer Seicxada, Semdeg loyaze gaikra xeli da araadamianuri xma amouSva, Semdeg iatakze gagorda da Svilis ubedur dReze gaCena daswyevla. WiSkarTan taqsi SeCerda. manqanidan jer bavSvebi gadmovidnen. xalxis danaxvisas erTmaneTs aekrnen da moridebiT cqera daiwyes. Semdeg TeTrTmiani qali gadmovida da bavSvebs Taigulebi misca. bolos mamakacebic gadmovidnen. aqedan erTma myisve xalxi SeaTvaliera, roca verc erTi nacnobi ver naxa, aRaravisTvis Seuxedavs, Ria karebisaken wavida. danarCenebic ukan gahyvnen. karis zRurblze Sedga. micvalebuls gadaxeda da gafiTrda. icno. mas kargad axsovda sarkmelTan mdgari Cafiqrebuli Zia ilikos saxe. ganvlil dros ver waeSala es gamoxedva. axla ki... guli Seuqanda. micvalebuli adamianis saxeze dainaxa mSobeli mamis Rimili. xSiria, roca cocxali mSoblis aseT Rimils daeZebs Svili, gansakuTrebiT mamis saxeze. daeZebs magram uSedegod. es Rimili ki SvilTan Sexvedris Rimilic iyo da SvilTan ganSorebisac. bavSvobidanve ocnebobda am Rimilis xilvis sixarulze da swored maSin naxa, roca sixarulis nacvlad mwuxareba mohgvara. magram naxa gvian, erTxel da samudamod. mamis saxeze samudamod gayinuli Rimili misi iyo... Wirisufals gadaxeda. axla SeamCnia, mopirdapire mxares gaqvavebuli antonina idga da mas SesCereboda. mis saxeze arc gaoceba sCanda da arc Cveuli mudara. mis sevdian saxeze odnav SesamCnevi sixaruli kiafobda. es imdenad susti iyo, rom mxolod mas SeeZlo danaxva. _ Sen, Cemi Zma xar, anatoli! - naRvlianad Cailaparaka qalma, cxedars Semouara da Zmas kiserze Camoekida. TamTam gaocebiT Sexeda ZmisSvilebs. araferi uTqvams. Tavis momRimar Zmas daxeda da gulis siRrmemde Sezara imis SegrZnebam, rom mis sayvarel Zmas ar xvda wilad bedniereba, ukanasknelad mainc exila Tavisi Svilebi erTad. Tvalebidan cremlebi moswyda da Zmis saxes im adgilze daeca, sadac Tvalebi daxuWvoda samudamod. ninam yvavilebi daawyo gulze ilikos.
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_ mapatie, iliko biZia, rom me viyavi is, vinc anatolis sikvdili giTxra. yvelam mas Sexeda. _ Cveni deidaSvilia - Cailaparaka anatolim. _ rao? - ikiTxa antoninam da grZnoba dakarga. vidre mas moasulierebdnen, sofio bebia joxis kakuniT miuaxlovda anatolis. mis mklavs daeyrdno. oTxad moxrili moxuci welSi gasworda da dakoJrili xelebi gadausva SviliSvils. _ axla ki ara, Turme, maSinac brma vyofilvar. ratom ver gicani, rom Sen maxaroblianT simonas STamomavali iyavi? _ mamaSenic da babuaSenic Sens dards gadahyvnen Svilo. ezoSi gamosuli antonina ukve damSvidebuli iyo. mas gverdSi qeTino da nina amosdgomodnen. axla mTavari iyo, mamis cxedars ar CamorCenoda da mis ukan Zalian axlos evlo samaremde. qarma daubera, roca kubo saxlidan gamoitanes. Rrublebi iSlebodnen maT Tavze. qarma mamas sudara gadaacala da qaliSvilma dainaxa misi marliT gakruli xelebi. is marto mis WaRara Tavs misCereboda, mZimed ido kuboSi. wuxel mama anatolim da man gaaswores. kostiumi ver moergo da zeviT aswies cxedari. anatoli kostiums moeWida da waiCurCula _ exla Zirs dauSviT. qaliSvilma ver daimagra da Zirs daeca mamis Tavi. dacemis xmam SeaSfoTa Svilebis guli. maT moeCvenaT, amiT mSobels atkines rame. orive daixara mis saxesTan, mis gayinul Tavs Seexnen. surdaT, amiT daeyuCebiaT tkivili. magram igrZnes, rom mamas aRaraferi aRar awuxebda. is orive Svils erTnairad da Tanabrad uRimoda. antonina ver xedavda sxvas. icoda, mama midioda Zalian Sors da mas acilebdnen samudamod. da am saSinel Sor gzaze qaliSvilis win kvlav gaCnda moCveneba. mas isev TeTri kaba ecva da mamis cxedars miuZRoda win. rogor undoda, motrialebuliyo da daenaxa igi, magram mamis kubo uSlida xels. Svilma inatra, es moCveneba sinamdviled qceuliyo. dedas marTlac waeyvana mama TavisTan da sadRac iq saSinel SoreTSi daewyoT gawyvetili cxovreba. xolo mamis saxeze Seyinuli Rimili maTi axali cxovrebis dasawyisis Rimili gamxdariyo. gaTxril samaresTan Sewyda es mSvenieri idilia, TeTr samosSi gaxveuli qali gaqra da civi pirdaRebuli samare dainaxa Svilma. ukan dabrunebisas viRacam waatana xeli. miixeda. mis ukan moxuci gabrieli idga. man mamamisis Tavze aWrili Tmebi gauwoda da Cumi xmiT uTxra: _ Seinaxe. es Seni mamis WaRara Tmebia. anatoli qveSagebidan maSin wamodga, roca odnav gamoCnda fanjridan mTebis moxazuloba. yvelas eZina. dRes meSvide dRe iyo, rac
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mama daasaflaves. ezoSi frTxilad Cavida. onkanTan xel-piri daibana. mkrTalad anaTebda, roca WiSkari gaaRo da gareT gavida. mamis saflavTan misvlisas daaTenda. miwas Seexo da Seaswora. _ mamaCemis samaris miwa. _ Sen bednieri xar, rom naxe omis mxolod erTi dRe, - Semoesma ninas xma, - me ki TiTqmis mTlianad. ninas nerviulad naTqvami sityvebi axla guguniviT amodioda mamis mkerdidan. _ mamam ki mTeli cxovreba ioma, iwvala da mokvda. wiTeli mze amovida sanaxevrod. misma silamazem gaaoca anatoli. aseTi lamazi mze arsad, arasodes enaxa. _ es Seni mzea, Svilo! - isev daiguguna mamis miwam. anatoli wamodga. sasaflaoze pirveli sxivebi kiafobdnen. _ mama! - moesma bavSvis xma. bavSvebi gamorbodnen misken. yvavilebi daawyes gulze. babuas da mamas amoudga antonina gverdiT. lena da anatoli meore mxares idgnen da moridebiT biZas Sescqerodnen. gaivlis wlebi da am patara bavSvebs zRapariviT uamboben omze, radgan maT araferi ar ician mis Sesaxeb. ar ician isic, tyved Cavardnis win maxaroblianT iliko rogor daemSvidoba Tavis frontel megobar vanos. _ netav, Tu SevxvdebiT erTmaneTs? - da Sexvdnen. mTeli cxovreba omiT daasrules orma megobarma da ukanaskneli binac erTad ergoT. aq damTavrda maTi omi. ilikos Wirisufali gamoCnda. _ qeTinoc mosula. - naRvlianad Cailaparaka anatolim, roca misi dis gverdiT megobris mkacri, magram sayvareli saxe dainaxa. anatoli qeTinos miegeba da xeli CamoarTva. _ mgoni, Senc Segxvdi sabolood. - sevdianad uTxra qals. antoninam mamis samareze yvavilebi daawyo da Tavis siyrmis megobars gaxeda. am gamoxedvaSi orivem daisaxes didi survili maTi didi cxovrebis dasawyisisa. Cemo mamida TamTa! erTi welia, rac mama aRar aris. Sen ki ukanaskneli dedmamiSvili miwas miabare. sofio bebiac Sen waiyvane. asec unda momxdariyo. saukunes miRweulma qalma ra ar gadaitana. meamayeba, dResac burjiviT rom dgas Cvens Soris da vaJkacobis magaliTs gvaZlevs mis STamomavalT. vfiqrob, misi siZliere Sens ZarRvebSi gadavida da Tumca Sen sakuTari Svilebi ar gyavs, TviTon xar sikeTe, adamianuri siT- 470 -

boTi savse da Tu CemSi raime kargia, cota mainc, amas Sen unda gimadlode. midian wlebi, magram is simZime omma, rom mogvitana erTi wuTiTac ar gvSordeba. nu gvgonia, misi daviwyeba advilia. zogjer drodadro, sadRac gulis kunWulSi miiZinebs, magram es mxolod mcire xniT. gaivlis dro da Cvens Semdeg mosuli Taoba im oms kinofilmiviT aRiqvams, rogorc am planetaze ganviTarebul ucxo ambavs. maT ar SeawuxebT dabombvis SiSi, arc tyvedyofnis saSineli mogoneba. gaivlis dro da Cvens Semdeg mosuli Taoba iqneba ufro mxne, TavisTavSi darwmunebuli, laRi da mSvidi. RmerTma qnas, es ase iyos! Cven ki... Cven yvelani omis Svilebi viyaviT. gansxvaveba ar aris, viyaviT Tu ara misi monawile. Cven yvelani: bebia da babua, mama da Sen, Cemi deda, romelic ar maxsovs da misi naTesavebi, me da Cemi Zma, oTxi sabavSvo saxli, umSoblo bavSvebiT yvela omis Svilebi viyaviT. am bavSvebTan mudam dgas dakarguli bavSvoba, molodiniT savse axalgazrdoba da didi adamianuri tkivili. Cven xom ase, naxevari cxovrebiT da naxevari guliT viareT am qveyanaze. me mjera, Cemi Zma dabrundeba odesRac CvenTan. msurs, Tavisi SvilebiT movides mand. manac SeZlos, iseve uyvardes loRoris daTovlili wveri, sakanafoebSi mimofantuli rioni, nowaris surneli, naRvari wyali, xavsian boZSi rom Caedineba. avides kviracxovelSi da Cveneburad ilocos. man xom ar icis es da ramdeni swavla dasWirdeba. Cemo mamida amas Sen SeZleb! bebos uTxari, Tavis ubeSi gauTbos gasxivebuli guli. Torem gareT gasuli Svilebi, visac Tavisi mSoblis siTbo ar ecodineba, aRar aris Cveni Svili. me ki ... Sens da bebias mkerdze mikruls amisi madli ar maklda. am wuTSi marto var saxlSi. irgvliv siwynarea da momenatra SenTan saubari. `Seni Svili da ara ZmisSvili, antonina! 1976 w.
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`Cemo sayvarelo gogona! gogona, radgan dResac iseve bavSvi xar CemTvis, rogorc maSin, roca sul pawias, xelSi ayvanils dagatarebdi. Sengan gansxvavebiT, anatoli xelSi ar amiyvania, arc movferebivar. mis mimarT arc sibraluli gamaCnia, radgan is CvenTan ar iyo. roca igi vnaxe, vigrZeni mokrZaleba zrdasruli adamianisadmi, gaucxoebuli Seni sisxlisa da xorcisadmi. raRacam SemaSina, TiTqos upasuxismgebloba vigrZeni da mivxvdi, ra cota gamikeTebia am qveynad.
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me videqi ucxo adamiani win da vfiqrobdi yvelaze saSinels. iyo Tu ara Cemi modgmis es adamiani. roca mas davSordi, didi tkivili vigrZeni. ramdeni ram daaklda mas Cvengan da rom daaklda, amis anazRaureba ar aris ioli, radgan dro ar dagvrCenia amisaTvis. Cven mTeli sicocxle erTmaneTis gareSe vicxovrebT. siyvaruls bavSvobidan sWirdeba fexis adgma, rom mZlavrad gaidgas fesvebi sxeulSi. rac Seexeba mamaSens... ar vici ramdenad SevZleb Senamde movitano is tkivili, romelic sikvdilamde Tan hqonda. es CemTvisac zogjer gaugebaria. Sen elodi dedas da mamas da gwamda, isini erTad dabrundebodnen. wlebis manZilze es miTi Cven SevqmeniT SenSi, radgan gvegona, arc erTi cocxali aRar iyo. roca mama dabrunda, Sen unda gagego is, ra mouvida dedas, valdebuli iyavi, gcodnoda Seni naTesaobac. mamaSeni rogorc sCans, axali, ufro mZime da damqancveli dilemis winaSe aRmoCnda. mamaSens ar surda gagego Seni dedis naTesavebze, ratom? - amas didxans verc me vxvdebodi. mxolod erTxel Zlivs gamimxila iseTi ram, rasac axsnas dResac ver vuZebni. darwmunebuli var, amas verc Sen Cawvdebi. omisa da tyveobis gancda wlebis gasvlasTan erTad, TandaTan gaunelda. tyveobis Semdeg samSobloSi dabrunebis Semdeg dapatimrebis SiSi sikvdilamde SemorCa. mis Tvalwin ojaxTan erTad gaiyvanes tyved namyofi mravali adamiani. es avadsaxsenebel 1951 wels iyo. vfiqrob, amitom cdilobda, araferi gcodnoda yvelaferze. rac mas gadaxda. ar gcodnoda isic, rom mamaSeni germanelebma deidaSenis saxlidan aiyvanes. daRdasmul SiSs ver moeria mas Semdegac, roca qveyanaSi saomari mdgomareoba ganelda. Tanac cdilobda, aq gazrdils, ar mogsvloda azrad, Senc wasuliyavi misgan. amas ver gadaitanda. Seni mamida, TamTa. 1976 w.

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_ mama! mamiko! Sexede nanam axali kaseta maCuqa. _ vin nanam? _ Cemma deidaSvilma. - Tqva TxuTmeti wlis biWma da uzrunvelad daustvina. _ miTxra, axali amerikuli simRerebi ariso. xom ar movusminoT? mamam usiamovnod Sexeda kasetas. xatvas Tavi mianeba da biWs siyvaruliT uTxra: _ rodis naxe nana? _ klasidan gamovedi Tu ara, derefanSi SemefeTa, mgoni, micdida. _ mere? _ gadamkocna, `Cemo biWunao~... da es kaseta SemaCeCa xelSi. damibara, roca mousmen, ukan damibruneo. _ marto iyo? _ marto. _ movusminoT. biWi magnitafonTan mivida, kaseta Cado da Rilaks TiTi daaWira. im wuTSi gaisma qalis aRelvebuli xma. mamakacs saxe daugrZelda. _ Cemo biWuna! imas, rasac axla Sen giambob, arc Tu sasiamovno iqneba SenTvis, magram sxva gza araa. im tanjvas, rasac Cemi guli itevs, bolo xom unda moeRos rodesme. Sen ukve didi xar da SegiZlia gaarkvio avic da kargic, amitom... mamakaci skamidan wamoiWra, Tmis yvela bewvi yalyze daudga , xeli magnitofonisken uazrod gaiSvira. xorxidan raRac bgerebi aRmoxda, daWrili nadiris mier amoxeTqil xmas hgavda igi da mosxletiT iatakze daeca. _ mama! - iyvira biWma. saswrafod Zirs daixara, mamas Tavi auwia da TvalebSi Caxeda. _ mama! ra mogivida? yvirilze karebi gaiRo. _ deda, miSvele, mama cudad aris! ...da swored am dros magnitofonSi axalgazrda qalis xma gaisma: _ Svilo! me deda var Seni. - magram imedos es xma ar gaugonia. saxelosnoSi Semosulma qalma ki kargad moismina da mTeli siRrmiT gaanaliza, rac moxda. xelis Cqari moZraobiT magnitofonis CamrTveli gamorTo, qmarTan miiWra da pulsi gausinja.

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_ Cqara, saswrafo gamoiZaxe! Semdeg deida nastias daureke, Seatyobine mamaSenis mdgomareoba. swrafad aq gaCndes! biWs sul daaviwyda nanas naCuqari kaseta da isic, Tu ra Tqva ucnobi qalis xmam. sirbiliT kibeze daeSva, yurmils daswvda da saswrafo daxmarebis manqana gamoiZaxa, Semdeg deida natos telefonis nomeri akrifa. _ nana xar? _ kaseta moismine? - moesma ymawvils da gaukvirda, rom weRandeli xma Zalian waagavda mis xmas. _ kaseta? ra dros kasetaa. mama savalalo mdgomareobaSia. Cqara, modiT! - telefonis yurmilSi mokle zaris xma gaisma. ukan mibrunda ymawvili. mama isev im mdgomareobaSi daxvda. pirmokumuli deda Tavze adga da pirvel daxmarebas uwevda meuRles. saswrafo daxmarebis manqanac male gamoCnda. beso gasinja.Tavi gadaaqnia. _ kardiologi aris saWiro! infaqtis niSnebi aReniSneba. _ ra inerviula? - ikiTxa eqimma. qalis gakvirvebul saxeze arc erTi ZarRvi ar tokavda. kardiologma eqimis winaswari diagnozi daadastura. is TiTqmis sasikvdilo mdgomareobaSi iyo. eqimma rCeva misca maT. _ dRes gaunZrevlad iwves! roca deda da Svili marto darCnen, mariamma biWs TvalebSi Caxeda da mkacrad hkiTxa: _ deida nastiasTan dareke? _ nanam mipasuxa. _ mere? _ mere araferi. isev kaseta ikiTxa. _ saidan gaCnda es kaseta Sens xelSi? _ dRes damxvda skolaSi. amerikuli simRerebi ariso, mousmine da ukan damibruneo. zizRma, farulma zizRma daufara mariams saxe. zaris xma gaisma. _ naxe, vin aris? ymawvili karebTan mivida. _ deida nastiaa. mariami karebTan daxvda. lojSi gaiyvana. _ ra moxda? _ gadi mamasTan da is kaseta moitane! - mkacrad uTxra biWs dedam. ymawvili male dabrunda, dedas kaseta miawoda da isev avadmyofTan gavida. rogorc ki mariami dasTan marto darCa, TvalebSi mkacrad Caxeda da SeekiTxa.
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_ Sen icodi, roca nanam es moifiqra? nastiam kasetas Sexeda, civma oflma daasxa, mariami mixvda, rom isic am ambis monawile iyo. _ madlobis magieria, ara? karebSi gamoCenilma biWma SeaCera mariami. _ ra moxda, Svilo? _ mamas cnobiereba ubrundeba. yvela avadmyofis oTaxSi Sevida.
Tavi 2

Teqvsmeti wlis winaT, erTi gansacvifrebeli ambis momswre gaxda xalxi. es rusTavelis metros miwisqveSa sadgurze moxda. WaRaraTmian mamakacs xelSi eWira savadmyofodan axalgamoyvanili, TeTr safenebSi gakruli bavSvi. mis gverdiT mdgomi qali zeviT ixedeboda da viRacas eloda. _ vin iyo? saxeze ver Sexede? - ikiTxa aRelvebulma qalma. _ rogorc ki Camaval kibes mivuaxlovdi, mTxova daxmareba da xelSi momaCeCa. xelSi kide mZime xelCanTa eWira. aRelvebul col-qmars xalxi Semoesia. _ xom ar sjobia, zemoT avideT, iqneb ra SeemTxva? _ viRacam SegatovaT. nabiWvari iqneba! - gaisma damcinavi xma. _ milicias SeatyobineT. - axali darigeba moesmaT isev. naxevari saaTi atriales miwisqveSa baqanze bavSvi. Semdeg, roca aRaravin gaCnda, qali iqve miliciis ganyofilebaSi mivida. _ bavSvi Segvatoves, roca qveviT CamovdiodiT. _ bavSvi? qalma bavSvs Caxeda. gawiTlebuli xorcis naWeri safenebSi usiamovnod imanWeboda. _ biWia? _ ar viciT. bavSvi atirda. is isev mamakacs eWira xelSi da aqanavebda. _ wavideT saxlSi. Cveni misamarTi davtovoT da Tu deda gamoCnda, mogvakiTxos. qalma pasporti amoiRo. rwmunebuls gadasca. _ Svili gyavT? _ ara. _ hoda, RmerTs gamougzavnia TqvenTvis. bavSvi atirda. _ wavideT, xom xedav, ra mdgomareobaSia bavSvi! - isev Seaxsena WaRarianma mamakacma. _ ai, Sari Tu ginda es aris. gaaCenen... anda ras aCendnen, Tu mitoveba undodaT. - isev moesmaT col-qmars, roca zeviT adiodnen. saxlSi mividnen Tu ara, telefonis xma gaisma.
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yurmili besom aiRo. _ batoni besos binaa? - ikiTxa ucnobi mamakacis xmam. _ diax. _ Tqveni naxva minda bavSvis Taobaze. _ gismenT! - ukmexad gasca pasuxi mamakacma. _ uSvilo var da gasamrjelos gvarians SemogTavazebT, Tu... _ me mxolod dedas davubruneb bavSvs. ugasamrjelod! - Tqva civad da yurmili dado. beso mariams miuaxlovda. igi bavSvs qveSagebze Sexveuli safenebidan aTavisuflebda. _ ra lamazi biWia. - sinanuliT Tqva besom. _ nastias daureke, mogvexmaron. axla ameebis Tavi gvqonda?- uxalisod Cailaparaka mariamma. beso telefonTan mivida. _ nastia xar? simoni saxlSia? _ ara. _ yvelaferi isea, rogorc Caifiqre. - mariams daxmareba unda da male modi. xelovnuri kveba da aTasi wvrilmani. mariamma zizRiT moiSora gasvrili safenebi. uxeSad gadaawvina sufTa qveSagebSi bavSvi. _ frTxilad, araferi atkino! - usayvedura qmarma. _ Tu RmerTi gwams, Tan unda gadavyveT? - ukmexad gasca pasuxi meuRlem. qalma magrad gakoWa bavSvi. _ codoa, xom xedav, gawiTlda. _ araferia. gaval elisosTan. iqneb raime hqondes, rom gavaCumoT. mariami gareT gavida. bavSvi isev atirda. besom xelSi aiyvana, gulze miikra da dauyvava. _ Sen axla aRaraferi giWirs. male saWmels mogitanen. - mouCliqa ena axalSobils. mariams eliso Semohyva. Tavisi bavSvisTvis momzadebuli mza saWmeli Semoutana. _ eg, rogor, deida mariam? _ ra vici, Svilo! saxec ki ver davimaxsovreT, ise Semogvatova bavSvi. _ iqneb vinmem iSvilos. Tqvens asakSi gagiWirdebaT misi gazrda. nastia karebSi gamoCnda. mas gafiTrebuli saxe hqonda. _ Tu deda gamoCnda da misi wayvana isurva... waiyvans, Tu ara, RmerTma amiT iqneb gamogvcada da Cvenve gavzrdiT bavSvs. - mkvaxed Tqva besom. nastiasTvis arc Seuxedavs, ise miubrunda cols _ ori qali arian. ar unda gauWirdeT erTi bavSvis gazrda - Tqva
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da Tavis saxelosnoSi gavida. beso mxatvari iyo. dedis portreti didi gemovnebiT daexata da misi saxlis darbazSi, kedelze daekida. iqve iyo mSobliuri soflis suraTi, Zveli Tbilisi. gemovnebiani suraTebi did CarCoebSi hqondaT Casmuli da kedlebze ekida. beso saxelosnoSi taxtze wamowva da fiqrs mieca. _ bavSvis gazrda Cven mogviwevs! - TavisTvis gaifiqra, - sxvanairad ar SeiZleba. yvelaferi ase daiwyo: ori saaTis win telefonis zari gaisma maT ojaxSi. telefoni saxelosnoSic hqondaT. beso daeloda, sanam coli yurmils aiRebda. zaris xma isev gaisma, cota Seicada da Semdeg yurmili yurTan miitana. mariamis xmac moesma. yurmilis dadeba undoda, magram nastias aRelvebulma xmam SeaCera. _ ukve erTi saaTia, aeroportSi varT. bavSviT simonTan ver mivalT. ar vici, ra movaxerxo! _ nana ras ambobs? _ danaxvac ar unda. tiris... _ adre unda efiqra, magram... _ upatrono bavSvTa saxlSi unda miviyvano. mere vinme gamoCndeba. _ ra Tqma unda, ase sjobia ojaxis galanZRvas. es rogor gamogepara? _ ar gamomparvia, magram... besom kargad gaaTviTcnobiera, rac dastexoda Tavs misi colis das. _ bavSvis moSorebiT gindaT CamoirecxoT sircxvili, _ gaisma yurmilSi da debi mixvdnen, rom besom yvelaferi moismina. _ beso, rogor moviqce? mirCie. simoni am ubedurebas arc dedas da arc Svils ar gvapatiebs. _ magaze laparaki ukve gviania. erTi Secdoma ukve moxda. meore Secdoma ki bavSvis gaSvilebaa da es ukve danaSaulia. Semdeg mesames Caidens. dedoba RvTiuri nebaa. igi Camorecxs laqas. _ oh! ara beso. ukanono bavSvs saxlSi ver Seviyvan. _ gasagebia. metro ,,rusTavelTan dagelodebiT me da mariami. bavSvi jer-jerobiT CvenTan iqneba, Semdeg simons SevamzadebT. mariami saxelosnoSi Semosuliyo da gaognebuli karebTan idga. _ ar Segvatovon beso, Cveni asakisTvis bavSvis gazrda arc ise ioli unda iyos. _ ese igi, Senc Tanaxma xar, gaasxvison, gaaSvilon, an uares SemTxvevaSi gayidon bavSvi? nuTu, nastia amas Caidens? _ ras ambob , beso, is ubeduri dedaa.
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_ ubeduri bebiac iqneba. ar msurs TqvenTan saubari. Caicvi da wavideT! ... da TxuTmeti wlis winaT TmebgaTeTrebul besos da sibereSeparul mariams vaJiSvili SeeZinaT. _ rom vicode, simoni apatiebda Svils Secdomas?- saxegamSrali mariami Tvals ver aSorebda Cvilis umanko saxes. _ iqneb umjobesic aris. ase iyo, is Cemi sisxli da xorcia. gaizrdeba da Tu saWiro iqna, me vetyvi. Tumca is sjobia bavSvisTvis, erqvas Cemi Svili da ara Seni dis Svilis ukanonod Sobili. mariami zereled uvlida bavSvs. uxeSad miawodebda sawovars, qveSagebsac mourideblad gamoucvlida xolme da abanoSi isvrida. mis mimarT araviTar siyvaruls ar ganicdida. Tavze moxveul tvirTad miaCnda. samagierod, beso evleboda Tavs. saswrafod mivardeboda yovel wamotirebaze da tirilis mizezs eZebda. gakoWil bavSvs gaxsnida. _ codo ar aris? patimari ar aris aseTi Sekruli. rbil baliSze axal safens gafenda da nanatr Svils mzrunvelobiT, nazad axvevda. SeeZlo, saaTobiT ecqira misi freskisebuli saxisTvis. Semdeg saxelosnoSi gadioda da xatvas ganagrZobda. _ nu gadayevi Tan, beso! - mokrZalebiT etyoda coli besos. _ RmerTma maCuqa es bavSvi. me ki aqamde imitom vicocxle, rom RmerTis saCuqars gavufrTxilde. _ gaizrdeba. netav, Tu mixvdeba da daafasebs Sens Sromas. ramdeni uZilo Rame gagitarebia da kidev unda gaataro amis Semdeg. _ me gana mag minda? dafaseba ra SuaSia? Semdeg wamodga, axlad dawyebul suraTTan mivida `RvTismSobeli yrmiT, didxans misCereboda yrmis saxes, mis Tmebs, xelebs. suraTi Camoxsna, Semdeg isev Camokida. skamze Camojda da ise Sexeda Tavis naxelavs. ramdeni fiqri, ramdeni Sroma Sealia am suraTis Seqmnas. `RvTismSobeli yrmiT misi ocneba iyo. misi sulis umSvenieresi nawili, romelic misi gulis yvelaze mgrZnobiare nervze ido da raRacas sTxovda, Zalian didi dro dasWirda im gadawyvetilebamde misvlas, rom ekisra am tvirTis aweva da es suraTi Seeqmna. suraTze patara imedos saxe gamoCndeboda xolme da ukvirda, sad iyo yrmis deda `mariami, aseTi bavSvis moSoreba rom undoda. _ yvela mxatvars ufleba ar aqvs, Seqmnas iesos saxe. - fiqrobda beso da eZebda, Cxrekda, akontrolebda sakuTar Tavs, Rirsi iyo Tu ara am uzarmazari sulieri sispetakis xateba Seeqmna. iyo Tu ara amisaTvis mowodebuli? es meore kiTxvac aCerebda da eloda im dros, cdunebisagan rom exsna sakuTari Tavi, ar ahyoloda sakuTar fantazias da ocneba ocnebadve darCeniliyo. sxva ramec awuxebda besos. mas bevri rusi mxatvris mier Ses- 478 -

rulebuli `RvTismSobeli yrmiT~ unaxavs: qarTuli, somxuri, germanuli. garegnuli niSnebiT isini yvela erTmaneTs hgavdnen, magram maTi saxe yvela gansxvavdeboda erTi meorisagan. qristed movlenili ieso mxatvris xelSi gamoxatavda Semqmnelis erovnulobis niSans. mas ki surda, daexata ieso, miseuli, romelic Ze kacad movlenili RmerTis Svili, misi funjiT mxolod mas, qristes damsgavseboda. udidesi RmerTis morwmune iyo beso. magram is brma iaraRi religiisa arasdros yofila. kidev metic: - mas ar xiblavda umkacresi moses rjuli, sadac patara Secdomebsac miteveba ar hqonda, arc bibliuri mefeebis mravalcolianoba exateboda gulze, zneobrivad amaRlebul kacs Tavzars scemda daqvrivebuli Zmis colebTan aucilebeli col-qmruli kavSiri. Rimils iwvevda imdeni msxverplis aucilebloba, romelic miRebuli iyo Zveli aRTqmis mixedviT. magram TviT RmerTi, romelic aravis enaxa, masSi gaspetakebul siwmindes warmoadgenda. mas swamda RmerTis yovlisSemZleoba, swamda mis mier Seqmnili samyaro Tavis idumalebiT,romelic awonasworebda qveynierebas. sjeroda, aTi mcnebis Semqmneli ar iyo ubralo mokvdavi da RmerTis mier gamogzavnili Ze kacisa, ar iyo yvela mokvdavis dasaxati. misi daxatvis survili didi iyo. axsna ar aqvs im did survils, romelsac sakuTar klanWebSi moeqcia da mudarasaviT Semoxatul mis sxeulze sulieri Wrilobebi daemCnia. gaWaRaravebuli Tmebi dahfenoda mxrebze, Sublze Rrma iarismsgavsi naWdevebi gasCenoda, mokumul tuCebze mkacri idumaleba aRbeWdiliyo, xolo Tvalebi, Rrmad Camjdari Tvalebi, sadRac SoreTidan icqerebodnen da sulSi CaZroma surdaT. am mkacrad gamoqnili saxis nakvTebidan raRac sCanda araamqveyniuri. ver gaarCevdi, sad mTavrdeboda am adamianSi garegnuli xorcieli asketuri simkacre da sad iwyeboda sulieri sispetakiT ganaTebuli misi Sinagani buneba. ver mixvdebodi, romel ukiduresobas iyenebda TavisTvis da romels sxvebTan urTierTobaSi. ocdaaT wels iyo mitanebuli, roca colad mdidari vaWris Svili mariami SeirTo. fufunebaSi gazrdil qaliSvils verafriT rom ver gaakvirvebda, es kargad icoda. mariamis mSoblebic ar Sexvdnen didi sixaruliT soflidan Camosuli mxatvris siZobas, magram mariamis da besos urTierTobaSi didi urTierTpativiscema damkvidrda Tavidanve da bolomde ase darCnen. mariamisaTvis TviToeuli nivTi, romelsac beso antikvars uwodebda, arafers warmoadgenda. daRlili RimiliT ucqerda qmris aforiaqebas, roca axali SeZenili nivTis dasadgmelad adgils eZebda oTaxSi. jer kidev bavSvi iyo beso, fexSiSveli rom darboda soflis
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moriyul quCebSi, Takara mzeSi mdinaris piras qviSas gaasworebda da joxiT Tavis megobris saxeebs xatavda. imdeni msgavseba iyo naxatsa da mis megobrebs Soris, gegoneboda fotoaparats gadaeRo. gazafxulze, tyeSi xetiali uyvarda besos. axladamosul iasTan didxans iyo muxlmoyrili da misi foTlebis moxazulobas akvirdeboda. mdinaris piras mdgari bevrjer unaxavT. gegoneboda, ymawvili masze loculobso. kldeze afofxebuli dahyurebda bunebis momajadoebel silamazes, raRac Zlieri Zala mis sulSi musikasaviT iRvreboda da maSin ymawvils ar SeeZlo, mieca amisaTvis axsna. ar SeeZlo, mimxvdariyo, rom es iyo misi bediswera. _ beso, damxate! - esmoda biWebis xma da patara biWi, Savi naxSiriT xeldamSvenebuli xatavda biWebs rkinis WiSkrebze da bolos kedlebze, mdinarisagan saxedamSvenebul da galeul qvebze da sqeltanian xeebze. _ beso! damxate! - esmoda biWs da besoc darboda fexSiSveli da xatavda mSvenier iebs da lamaz vardebs. kldis Tavze Semomjdar qorsa da Tavis Wrel ZaRls, viwro quCebsa da bavSvebiT avsebul aivnebs. _ beso! damxate! - da besoc xatavda. soflis ganapiras momaRlebul adgilze Wadrebis qveS idga eklesia. is uZveles nagebobas ar warmoadgenda, Tumca Cveni saukunis urwmunoebs mTlianad gaenadgurebinaT misi kedlebi, kar-fanjrebi, mxolod bavSvebis mier moCxapnili,SeTeTrebuli kedlebi Semogvyurebdnen uRimRamod. saqonlisagan wabilwuli iataki da irgvliv mZafri Sardis suni idga. besos biZa mRvdeli iyo da isic rogorc sxva mravalni cimbiris grZel qaravans gauyenes Tavis droze. masve miayoles besos mama, radgan sakuTari TaviT eleqtrowisqvili Seqmna da sofelSi gasaocari siaxle Seitana. amitomac gakulakebis siaSi Seitanes. patara beso Tavis xuTi da-ZmiT darCa dedis kiserze. ise, rogorc sxva mravali, aTeisturad izrdeboda. misTvis ise, rogorc sxvebisTvis, pirjvris wera da sanTlis anTeba akrZaluli iyo. RmerTisa da yvela saxis religiis uaryofis saukunem xalxTa Soris megobrobis qadageba daiwyo. yvelas sakuTar sulSi unda Caekla sakuTari sarwmunoeba, magram veraviTarma Zalisxmevam ver SeZlo, TviT ukiduresi aTeisti pirovnebis sulSi Caekla rwmena. qristian ojaxSi dabadebulma adamianma icoda, rom sxva religiebisagan Tavisufali iyo, rom misi winaprebi Turqisagan imiT gansxvavdebodnen, rom qristes jvari iyo maTi megzuri, xolo gzis manaTobeli sanTeli. da es yvelaferi qristianoba iyo. Tumca Zalian sarisko iyo, beso Tavisi patara xborebiT eklesiis ezoSi adioda, sadac misi ucnobi biZa wirvas aRavlenda odesRac.
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frTxilad Sedioda gapartaxebul taZarSi, qvaze Camojdeboda da ocnebiT warsulSi daabijebda. wmindanebiT moxatuli kedlebi kiriT SeeTiTxnaT. adgili aRar iyo kedelze, sadac sxvadasxva dros pirveli siyvarulis gamxelis adgilad eqciaT axalgazrdebs. am wminda adgilze bavSvuri xeliT gamJRavnebuli siyvarulis mowmed qceuli kedlebi Semogyurebdnen: nanas+ vaxtangi. sofos + leqso da ase Semdeg. besos erTxel dedam mouTxro Cumad, rom karebis pirdapir TviT biZamisis mier Sesrulebuli ~RvTismSobeli yrmiT - iyo kedelze daxatuli, is adgili aCvena dedam. deda xSirad Sedioda eklesiaSi da loculobda am xatTan . besom gadawyvita misi ganTavisufleba. didi Sromis Semdeg, bavSvma Camorecxa TeTri kiri. yrmis saxe imdenad iyo nawvalebi, misi pirvandeli saxiT aRdgena ver SeZlo. gvian gaigo soflis sabWos Tavmjdomarem, Tvalebi daubriala. _ Senc imaT gzaze ar gagistumron, biZiko, frTxilad iyaviT. magram bevrad arc imas gamoudia Tavi, radgan saukunis grgvinva Camcxraliyo da axal sabWos Tavmjdomareebs sxva saqmeebi hqondaT mosagvarebeli. beso grZnobda, mis saxlSi, morwmune suli kioda da saxeSelaxul ~yrmas misTvis bavSvobidanve didi safiqrali gaeCina. im dros religiuri wignebi akrZaluli iyo, magram dedis did damsaxurebad unda CaiTvalos, rom saidumlod Senaxuli aRTqmis wignebidan RamiT Zilis win, nawyvetebs ukiTxavda Svilebs da Semdeg daZinebamde TvalebanTebuli beso TavisTvis butbutebda. `netar arian, romelnic ismenen RmerTis sityvas da icaven mas. da vinc ar iRebs Tavis jvars da ar gamomyveba ukan, ver iqneba Cemi mowafe. caSi ufro didi sixaruliT miiReben erT monanie codvils, vidre oTxmocdacxramet marTals, romelTac ar sWirdebaT sinanuli. nu gamocdiT ufals, Tqvens RmerTs. netaria kaci, romelic ar misdevs uRmrToTa rCevas da codvilTa gzas ar adgas, ar zis avyiaTa sakrebuloSi. ar miatova gayiduli marTali, aramed codvisagan daixsna igi. nu ityvi, Sevcode da ara damemarTao, radgan sulgrZelia ufali. netaria kaci, romelmac ar Sescoda Tavisi piriT da codvis sevda ar daamwuxra. netaria, visac ar arcxvens Tavisi suli da visac daukargavs sasoeba. radgan visac daiZraxavs mTel suls da Sescodavs mxolod erT rameSi, yvelaferSi Semcodea. gnebavs icode, amaoa kaci, rom rwmena mkvdaria saqmis gareSe. skolaSi warCinebiT ar swavlobda beso, magram is sxvebisagan imiT gansxvavdeboda, rom skolis yoveli kedlis gazeTi, pionerTa
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oTaxSi Tu komkavSiris saqmianobisaTvis gankuTvnil kuTxeSi, misi lamazi xeliT iyo gaformebuli. samxatvro saswavlebelSi misaRebi gamocdisTvis bevri ar umecadinia. deda tuqsavda. _ vin gvyavs, Sen ro dagexmaros? wigni xelSi aiRe! beso mamis gamoketil saxelosnoSi, sadac misi sxva da sxva rkinis xelsawyoebis mdidari koleqcia inaxeboda, Sedioda da xeSi figurebs aCuqurTmebda, ramdenime dReSi misi sawolis kedelTan `jvarcma Camokida. dedam Sexeda xeSi gamokveTil uflis sxeuls da Svils usayvedura: _ aseTi mkvrivi da xorciani sxeuli iesos ar eqnebodao. is naklebad hgavs nawamebso. SeniSvniT pirwamxdarma jvarcma CamoRo da Seaswora. Semdeg Camokida da Soridan SeaTvaliera wamebuli Ze kacis xateba. ... da mainc ukmayofilo darCa Tavisi naxelaviT. saswavlebelSi moewyo, daamTavra. samxedro saswavlebelic moiara da valmoxdilma Tbilisis Zvel ubanSi mxatvrad daiwyo muSaoba. mas SeeZlo, adamianis erTi naxviT daxatva. fotoatelieSi Zveli suraTebis aRdgenaze muSaobda. rogori Zveli da Selaxulic ar unda yofiliyo suraTi, besos misi restavraciis da pirveladi saxis dabruneba SeeZlo. TbilisSi im dros misi msgavsi xelosani ar dadioda. am RvTismosav mamakacs didi moTminebis unari hqonda, uyvarda Tavisi saqme, Tavisi mezobel-megobrebi, uyvarda sikeTe da arasodes aravis awyeninebda maSinac ki, roca vinme mas raime ukadriss Sehkadrebda, didi moTminebiT miutevebda yvelafers. samuSaod dabrunebuli beso Tavis saxlSi, saxelosnoSi Caiketeboda da Tavis stiqiaSi iZireboda, aq iyo igi ise, rac iyo. aravin arafers Txovda da arc aravis SekveTaze muSaobda. am dros akeTebda imas, rasac misi suli karnaxobda. sakuTari stiqiiT Seqmnil, Tu dakveTiT Sesrulebul suraTebs Soris `yrma TeTr laqasaviT idga da besoseul Sesrulebul saxes ucdida. ucdida da ai, ori adamianis tkbobiT miRebuli nayofi, besos `yrma gaxda. am mSvenieri umanko sxeulidan, mas unda Seeqmna xateba `yrmisa da radgan ufalma mas cocxali sxeuliT aCuqa - sakuTari, amaRlebuli sulis saWreliT daiwyo misi aRzrda. _ kadniereba iqneboda uflis winaSe, Torem am bavSvs iesos davarqmevdi. - da bavSvs `imedo uwoda. or bebias Soris izrdeboda imedo: keTili, saTno da mSvidi. or ojaxSi izrdeboda bavSvi da orive ojaxi Tan hyveboda. mis aRzrdaSi monawileobda misi deidaSvili nanac. simonic ara nakleb zrunavda am mSvenier biWunaze, Tumca ukvirda, saidan movida igi besos xelSi da risTvis itexdnen Tavs misi meuRle da qaliSvili misi aRzrdisTvis.
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_ ar gaumarTlda mag nabiWvars? - Caiqirqilebda colisa da Svilis TandaswrebiT da daumatebda. _ magis dedas Wkua sad hqonda, aseT bavSvs rom asaCuqrebda? imedo ki izrdeboda besos biWad. bavSvisaTvis beso iyo is, visganac yvelaze did, mSobliur siTbos iRebda. es bavSvic am WaRara mamakacisaTvis gaCeniliyo.
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ugonod miiyvanes beso saavadmyofoSi. eqims gaasinjes. gadarCenis patara Sansi kidev iyo darCenili, Zlieri infaqti mieRo. mariamma mTeli momsaxure personali fexze daayena. mesame dRes Tvali gaaxila. irgvliv mimoixeda, magram veravin icno - verc mariami, verc imedo, mis Tavze rom idga gaognebuli. Semdeg buranSi gaexvia... ...sofelSi aRmoCnda, bambasaviT qaTqaTa Rrublebi gars Semojaroda mTas, sadac ratomRac maTi saydari aRmarTuliyo. Camavali mzis sxivebSi gaxveuli patara taZari sulierad amaRlebul ganwyobilebas tovebda masSi. Tumca mTeli sxeuliT raRacaze iyo mijaWuli, mainc advilad avida zeviT. gars Semouara uflis saxls, magram karebi ver unaxa. Tvalebi daxuWa da iqve Camojda, roca Tvalebi gaaxila, gaCaxCaxebul samlocveloSi iyo. ismoda galoba, zeciuri galoba. am cariel darbazis, Suagul taxtze iwva mamakaci, mis win daixara beso, rom Seecno mwoliare, gaocebuli gasworda da aRmoxda: _ es xom Cemi sxeulia? rogor momaswro aq amosvla? - ikiTxa man da ise gamovida samlocvelodan, verc ki gaigo, saidan gamovida. galoba Sordeboda besos da cnobierebac daubrunda. isev Tavis sawolze iwva. _ Cemi sxeulidan suli gavida da me vnaxe Cemi sxeulis avadmyofoba. amitomac aRmoCda ukarebo taZarSi Cemi suli. _ mama, sayvarelo, mama! - gaisma imedos xma. xeli gaiSvira imedom. ymawvilis nazi xeli Seexo mamis saxes. _ me vnaxe. _ ra mama? _ rogor miacilebs suli sxeuls RrublebSi. sxeuli iq darCa mSvenier RrublebSi, suli isev TqvenTan dabrunda. _ bodavs. - Cailaparaka mariamma da sibraziT Tavis disSvils gadaxeda. didxans iwva beso ugonod. viRacas uxmobda, ebrZoda, SfoTavda. Tvalebgaciebuli Wirisufali Tavze adga da erTmaneTs Tvals ver usworebdnen. _ nanasagan jildod es miviReT. - Sinagani sinanuliT gadaulaparaka das mariamma. nastia pirgamSrali dahyurebda momakvdavs.
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_ aseTi surprizi sakuTari mamisaTvis unda moemzadebia Tavis droze. vin icis, iqneb epatiebia. nastia dumda. _ maSin, mzad iyaviT, bavSvi pirveli SemxvedrisaTvis migecaT. - mariami daRlili saxiT sayvedurobda das. ukan, fanjarasTan nana idga. arafrismTqmeli TvalebiT gareT icqireboda. imedos maTi laparaki ar esmoda. is mamis saxes dasCereboda Tvalcremliani. _ deda, modi, mama Tvals axels - wamoiZaxa biWma. mariami avadmyofTan mivida. _ beso, Zvirfaso! _ mariam - Zlivs amoilaparaka besom. besom Tvali gaaxila, nacnob saxeebs daakvirda. ukan mdgom nanas miaCerda. _ RmerTma Segindos, Svilo! - CurCuliT Tqva da gairinda. _ me vnaxe mariam. _ ra naxe, beso? _ rogor mivacile Cemi sxeuli RrublebTan, iq davtove da ar vici, rogor... msubuqad davbrundi ukan. TiTqos Cemgan tkivilic gaqra da sxeulisagan miRebuli tvirTic. _ isev bodavs. - Cailaparaka mariamma. beso TiTqos gamoerkva, Tvali gaaxila da nanas daakvirda. _ `radgan dideba kacisa mamis apativiscemaa, da sircxvilia SvilebisaTvis Seuracxyofili deda. - gatanjulma ucqira imedos, Rrmad amoisunTqa da daasrula: _ Svilo, imedo, kargad daimaxsovre bibliis es sibrZne. _ deda! mama ar bodavs. is rogorc yovelTvis, Wkuas marigebs. tiriliT wamoiZaxa ymawvilma da mamis Subls daekona. mariami besos xels Seexo. gulSi Caikra. avadmyofs Tvali ar gauxelia. _ Sen, Svilo, CemTvis didi aRmoCena iyavi da didi bediswerac, ise rogorc Cemi cxovreba, Sen damexmare mimegno Cemi adgilisaTvis. ver warmoidgen, ra bednieri viyavi Sens gverdiT. - laparaki Sewyvita. didxans iyo umoZraod. mSvidad iwva. TiTqos naTeli dasdgomoda mis WaRara Tavs. gaognebuli dascereboda mamas vaJi. man ar icoda, ratom daatyda mamamiss ubedureba ase moulodnelad. ver garkveuliyo, ratom misCereboda deda Tavisianebs ukmayofilod, ratom idgnen uZravad deida nastia da biZia simoni da saerTod, risTvis daiZaba urTierToba sayvarel adamianebs Soris. gvian gaaxila Tvalebi besom. Tvali moavlo irgvliv da fanjarasTan mdgar nanas daakvirda, erTbaSad saxeze simSvide daeufla. _ iqneb, Sen yvelaze ubeduri iyavi, roca es nabiji gadadgi. Seni Secdoma Cven davmaleT, Cven yvelani codvilebi varT. iqneb me ufro
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codvili var, Seni danaSauli rom vitvirTe? Semdeg mzera mariamze gadaitana. _ da rodesac Cemi suli datovebs codvil sxeuls, Sen unda zido saidumloebis mZime tvirTi. xom ar ajobebda, gaTavisuflebuliyo am tvirTisagan. .. Semdeg didxans akvirdeboda imedos. cremlebiT daenisla Tvalebi. _ me Seni dakargvis simware imdenad ar madardebs, rogorc is, rom maSinebs Sens sulSi is sikeTe ar daikargos, romelsac dRemde veferebodi. erTbaSad sunTqva Seekra. _ beso! _ mama! - erTdroulad iyvira mariamma da imedom. oTaxSi xmauri atyda. karebTan eqTani gamoCnda. _ eqimi, Cqara, eqimi ... beso mSvidad iwva. saxeze gadahkroda kmayofilebis Rimili. mas aRar sWirdeboda eqimi, radgan mis irgvliv ainTnen sanTlebi da sinaTlis sikaSkaSeSi gamoisaxa iesos saxe, romelic nel-nela acurda zeviT. Semdeg, momakvdavis yurTan gaisma RvTiuri sagalobeli da am umSvenieres galobaSi gadna imedos saxec. sulic moswyda sxeuls da zecaSi asuli ucxo xma gahyva Tan.
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bavSvs eqTani axvevda, deda kmayofilad dasCereboda mis umanko saxes. gareT mama elodebodaT. eqTanma Sexveva daamTavra. Cvili xelSi aiyvana da gareT gavida. ezoSi Cavidnen, imedo maTken wamovida gabrwyinebuli saxiT. Svili CamoarTva eqTans. fuli jibeSi Caudo da madloba gadauxada. cali xeliT bavSvi eWira, meore xeliT cols moexvia da manqanisken waiyvana. _ gamarjoba, imedo! - gaisma axalgazrda qalis xma. _ nana? aq ratom? _ gagimarjos, nana! - gaepasuxa bavSvis deda. _ dedam damireka da dagxvdi. _ CemTvis rom araferi uTqvams? - gakvirvebiT ikiTxa imedom. _ Cemi manqaniT wavideT. - nana axalgazrda dedas miefara. bavSvs daxeda. Semdeg Setrialda, taqsis mZRols bodiSi mouxada da manqanis kari gaaRo. _ wavideT! nino da imedo ukana mxares dasxdnen. _ ra gaewyoba, Cemi deidaSvili yovelTvis did mzrunvelobas iCenda Cems mimarT. nino daimaxsovre, is Cemi ufrosi daa. - siciliT Tqva imedom da bavSvi moxerxebulad gadaiwvina mklavze. _ xom kargad xar, niniko? - SeekiTxa nana axalbeda dedas.
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_ kargad. _ gaviaroT CvenTan, deda da mamac wamovlen, xom unda aRvniSnoT dRevandeli dRe? - mas daRlili xma hqonda. _ Tqvens gankargulebaSi varT. mxolod didxans nu vatarebT mSobiares da bavSvs. saxlTan misulma nanam Tavi gamohyo manqanidan da daiZaxa: _ deda, movediT! nastia ezodan gamovida. _ mariamic aq movida. CamodiT! - imedom bavSvi miawoda deidas da isev Cailaparaka. _ deda aq aris? CemTvis rom ar uTqvams? _ aq aris, gadmodi sayvarelo, saxlSi mogvianebiT waxvalT! gakvirvebuli da ukmayofilo imedo manqanidan gadmovida da ninos mieSvela. _ ra saWiro iyo Tqveni Sewuxeba, deida nastia? _ ara, Svilo! es Sewuxeba ar aris, es didi bednierebaa. stumrebiT avsebul oTaxSi Sevidnen axalgazrdebi. nastiam qmars miawoda bavSvi. svimonma axalSobili gulze miikra, usityvod daacqerda mis umanko saxes da Semdeg ninos daubruna. _ nino, SenTvis oTaxi mzad aris. gakvirvebiT Sexeda deida nastias axalgazrda dedam. _ gayevi, Svilo. - dabneulma dabneulma mariamma ase uTxra da taxtis kuTxeSi Camojda. _ deda! ratom winaswar ar Tqvi, aq rom unda movsuliyaviT? SeekiTxa imedo dedas da gverdiT miujda. _ ase gadawyvita nanam _ nanas vin ekiTxeboda? - gaocebiT ikiTxa imedom. mariamma Sexeda Svils. didxans daakvirda saxeze. usazRvro sevda gamoexata, Semdeg Tavs Zala daatana da taxtidan wamodga. ukan ar mouxedavs, ise gavida oTaxidan. imedom dakvirvebiT gaayola Tvali. moeCvena, TiTqos mxrebi ukankalebda mariams. stumrebi gvian daiSalnen. moilxines, imReres, icekves, yvavilebiT da saCuqrebiT aavses axalSobili. nana Tavs dastrialebda imedos da mis col-Svils. mxolod mariami ijda uxalisod. kanti-kuntad Tu CaerTveboda saubarSi da SoreTSi icqireboda. _ avad xom ar xar, deda? - xSir-xSirad ekiTxeboda imedo da gaocebiT akvirdeboda mis naRvlian saxes. arc simons da arc nastias mxiaruli ganwyobileba ar hqondaT. aforiaqebul nanas ukmexad gascqerodnen da Cumad gadaxedavdnen erTmaneTs. _ iqneb sjobia, isev ise iyos, rogorc aris. nana imedos gamorCeviT uyvars. ara mgonia, ukeTesi iyos simarTlis gageba. ara mgo- 486 -

nia, bebos gazrdils ar gauWirdes, Seeguos im azrs, rom is nanas ukanono Svilia. iqneb dafiqrebuliyaviT amaze. - mogvianebiT uTxra mariamma das da siZes. _ me meSinia, sul ar davkargoT biWi. am asakSi Tavmoyvareoba Seelaxeba. vin icis? ar gavaboroto... TiTqos Tavis Tavs afrTxilebso, ise ambobda mariami. imedos ar gahkvirvebia nanasgan, roca savadmyofoSi maT wasayvanad movida. is bavSvobidanve or ojaxSi izrdeboda. ori ojaxis memkvidres eZaxda simoni. is naTeli oTaxi, sadac misi coli da Svili Seiyvanes, didi xania misi iyo. roca mariamTan ar iyo, deida nastiasTan iyo. es oTaxi didi da farTo iyo, sadac ganebivrebuli biWi saukeTeso dros atarebda. kedelze ekida misi fotoebi. es ojaxi misTvis iseve Zvirfasi da sayvareli iyo, rogorc misi mamis, besos saxli. da mainc, dRes am saxlSi raRac Secvliliyo. ver xvdeboda ra, magram mainc, uaryofiTad damuxtuli atmosfero, usiamovno SegrZnebiT avsebda mas. mariamis naRvliani saubari, misi mousvenari da aforiaqebuli gamoxedva am bednierebis dRes auferulebda. _ deda, avad xom ar xar? - ekiTxeboda ymawvili mal-male. _ ara, Svilo! - da xelebs ukocnida nanatr Svils.
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_ nana, ise gixdeba bavSvis movla, Tanac ise swrafad akeTeb amas, TiTqos mravali gagezardos. - moulodnelad ase SeekiTxa erTxel nino nanas, roca es ukanaskneli bavSvis gaxveviT iyo garTuli. _ mis mamas aseve swrafad vaxvevdi. - Tvali moarida nanam axalgazrda dedas. _ Tqven maSinac ase exmarebodiT, roca imedo gaCnda? _ vexmarebodi. imedo xom sanaxevrod CvenTan izrdeboda. _ albaT imitom giyvarT, ara? nanam pasuxi daugviana. _ Cemi siyvaruli imedosadmi ufro Rrmaa, mis garda arc da, arc Zma ar gamaCnia. _ samagierod, Tqven imedo Zalian ggavT garegnobiT. - gulubryviloT mimarTa ninom. nanam SekrTa, ninosTan mivida da akoca. _ me Zalian, Zalian minda, rom Senc ise miyvarde, rogorc imedo. _ Tqveni ra mogaxsenoT da me ki albaT ver gadavixdi im pativiscemas, rac Tqven me da Cems Svils gagviwieT. Tqven CvenTvis yvelaze axlobeli adamiani xarT. _ ra kargia, es rom dainaxeT da isic, Cveni msgavseba rom SeamCnieT. _ iciT, me Cemi mamamTilis suraTebic vici, xSirad vakvirdebi mis
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saxes da vcdilob, raime msgavseba aRmovaCino Cems qmarsa da mamamiss Soris, magram amaod. _ beso ar mogwons? _ ara, piriqiT, mis suraTTan didi mowiwebiT vdgavar xolme. Cemi imedo gvian gaCenilia... mis daojaxebas ver moeswro ubeduri. albaT, rogor undoda. _ ra Tqma unda, ra Tqma unda, Tumca imaze metad ara, rogorc me. ninom gakvirvebiT Sexeda nanas. moeCvena, rom saSinlad aRelvebuli iyo. ofls daewinwkla misi mSvenieri Subli. _ ra bednierebaa, imedo amden sayvarel adamianSi izrdeboda. axla misi Svilia am siyvaruliT garemoculi. nana ninosTan mivida. mis gverdiT Camojda da dabali xmiT Cailaparaka: _ Zalian, Zalian minda, rom Sen Cemi megobari iyo, rom kargad gamigo da isic icode, ra aris CemTvis Seni da imedos siyvaruli. ninom gakvirvebiT Sexeda qals. mxrebCamoyrili da Sinaganad aforiaqebuli iyo. _ Tqven raRac gawuxebT. mgoni, raRac gtkivaT. _ me? ara. Tumca... rac mtkiva, es didi xnis tkivilia. _ didi xnis? _ minda, icode, rom imedo Cemi Svilia. es pawia biWuna Cemi SviliSvilia. - moulodnelad Tqva nanam. nino wamoiWra, raRac cxeli siTxe Tavidan fexebamde CaeRvara. Semdeg angariSmiucemlad sakuTari Svili xelSi aiyvana da gulSi Caikra. _ mere? - mxolod es sityva aRmoxda piridan. _ ver SevZeli, meTqva misTvis es ambavi. ver gavrkveulvar, iqneb sjobia, viyo mosiyvarule deidaSvili. nino erTxans gaognebuli idga. mxolod mis sulSi raRac Zala CaquCiviT urtyavda safeTqlebTan. _ imedo sul sxvaa da isic ki ar icis, visi sisxlia mis ZarRvebSi. nino Setortmanda. bavSvi daawvina da TviTonac mis gverdiT Camojda. _ mama! mama vin iyo? - moulodnelad ikiTxa ninom. nanas elda eca. yovelTvis gaurboda am SekiTxvas. _ me maSin sul bavSvi viyavi, mSoblebisgan ganebivrebuls, yoveli kaprizi unda SeesrulebinaT... axla, is cocxali aRar aris. _ vin iyo? _ nu mkiTxav. _ Tqveni nebaa. pauza didi xniT Camovarda. nana damSvidda, nino ki garetianebuli iyo am ambiT. axalgazrda dedam, romelsac axlaxan SeeZina
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nanatri biWi, arc ki icoda, visi gvaris, visi sisxlis iyo misi Svili. amis Setyoba arc ise sasiamovno iqneboda imedosTvis, mas aRmzrdeli deda da mama Zalian uyvarda. saerTod, amis Semdeg imedo veRar SesZlebs Tavis warsuliT cxovrebas, radgan arasdros yofila igi misi. _ marTali xar. isini rom ara, es bedniereba ar meqneba, Tqveni siaxloviT rom maqvs. Cemi Secdomac da bediswerac albaT sikvdilamde gamyveba. - sevdianad Tqva nanam. bavSvi atirda, qalebi mis garSemo datrialdnen, is gaxsnes, gaaTavisufles, gabanes da gaaCumes. _ mas Semdeg didma drom ganvlo. xom SegeZlo, ojaxi Segeqmna, bavSvebi gyoloda? - axla ukve ebraleboda Tavisi Svilis bebia. _ ver SevZeli. meSinoda, axali Secdoma ar dameSva. imedo ki Cems gverdiT izrdeboda. veZebdi dros, roca vetyodi, rom is Cemi Svili iyo, magram meSinoda, mimiRebda dedad Tu ara. imedos beso uyvarda. man mamoba gauwia da bolos dards gadahyva. masac TavdaviwyebiT uyvarda Cemi Svili. sul ufrTxildeboda. aSinebda is, rom misi gazrdili odesRac gaigebda, rom ukanono Svili iyo. ninos simwris oflma daasxa. sityva `ukanono tyviasaviT moxvda gulze. _ ukanonod Sobili Svili. es xom Cemi Svilia. - gaifiqra. sibraluli gaqra mis saxeze. usiamovnod Sexeda nanas. _ diax! amis gageba imedosTvis sikvdilis tolfasi iqneba. - xasgasmiT Tqva bolos. oTaxSi nastia Semovida. _ rogor aris? _ cudad. _ ra Tqves? _ mariams cudi avadyofoba aRmoaCnda. orive gaqvavebuli moaCerda axalSemosuls. imedo Zilis win mamis mier Sesrulebul `RvTismSobelTan SeCerdeboda, mamao Cvenos... ityoda, pirjvars gadaiwerda da dasawolad Tavis oTaxSi Sevidoda. im dResac ase moiqca. col-Svili isev nastia deidasTan datova. deda avadmyofobda, eklesiidan dabrunebuli RamiT ver tovebda, SiSiT misCereboda mis sanTeliviT Camoqnil saxes. Zlivs waiyvana gasasinjad. mZime seni aRmoaCnda. mariami gulubryvilo qali ar iyo. man igrZno, rom mourCeneli tkivili Separuliyo mis organizmSi. aravis Sewuxeba ar undoda. RmerTs evedreboda mxolod, male gaeCina misTvis saSveli da umtkivneulod waeyvana TavisTan. imedos dawolisTanave CaeZina. mas mkvdariviT eZina, ver gaigo, rogor Semovida mariami. didxans uyura siyvaruliT da Semdeg
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Cumad iqauroba datova. imedom ki ucnauri sizmari naxa: Sav tansacmelSi Cacmuli axalgazrda qali Semovida mamis saxelosnoSi. yvela suraTTan mivida da daaTvaliera, Semdeg im suraTTan Sedga, sadac besom imedos saxe `yrmad aqcia. didxans daakvirda, Semdeg xeli gaiwvdina da RvTismSobels yrma Camoaxia. didxans eWira naxevi, Semdeg daWmuWna da kuTxeSi miagdo. imedom daiyvira. qals gamoudga, mxrebSi swvda da Tavisken Semoatriala. _ Sen, nana? - gaocebiT ikiTxa da SeanjRria. _ ho, me imedo! - Sinagani braziT miugo nanam. _ risTvis moiqeci ase? _ ver xedav? is Cemi Svilia. xolo wminda mariamis Svili ieso iyo. Tqva, kuTxeSi migdebuli naxatis nagleji aiRo da gareT gavida. retdasxmuli wamojda imedo loginze, guli amovardnaze hqonda. Tvalebi moisrisa, sawolidan wamovarda da saxelosnoSi gavarda, sanTeli aanTo da `RvTismSobelTan SeCerda. odnav damSvidda, mamis naxati isev im adgilze rom naxa. mainc cudad eniSna morwmune biWs sizmari.
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oTaxs mkrTali sanTlis Suqi anaTebda. is patara magidaze ido sawolis gverdiT. sarecelze cvilisfersaxiani qali iwva. sawolTan imedo da nino isxdnen da SiSiT misCerebodnen, rogor irxeoda sanTlis Crdili. imasac grZnobdnen, rogor cdilobda, ar ekvnesa tkivilebiT daosebul qals. _ deda! - gaisma ymawvilis xma. qali gamoerkva, Tvalebi gaaxila, siyvaruliT Sexeda Svils. _ ra iyo, imedo? - ikiTxa bolos. _ Zalian miWirs imis Tqma, magram ... meti gza ar aris, unda SegekiTxo. _ ra? vaJma cols gadaxeda, moguduli, Zlivs gasagoni xmiT qals SeekiTxa. _ marTalia? rac nanam ninos uTxra? qalma Tvalebi daxuWa. didxans iwva gaunZrevlad, Semdeg Tvalebidan cremlma gamoJona da sanTlisfer saxeze CamoeRvara. _ da bolos mainc Tqva, - Cailaparaka CurCuliT,- didxans aravis daurRvevia siCume, sanTlis cvili nela dneboda, sinaTlis Crdili isev irxeoda da sxvadasxva figurebs xatavda kedelze. _ yvelaferi Tqva? - ikiTxa bolos qalma. _ ara... da rac ar Tqva, Sengan minda Sevityo.
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qali mxrebze wamoiwia, saxe erTbaSad wamouwiTlda, aRznebuli gauxda Tvalebi. _ maS, me getyvi yvelafers. _ baliSi aswie nino! - imedo da nino orive erTad mividnen avadmyofTan. Tavi moxerxebulad daudes amaRlebul baliSze. _ me ar vici, rogor Seicvlebi Cemsa da besos mimarT. arc is vici, geyvareba Tu ara Seni aRmzrdeli mama da deda, Cven veRar gavigebT amas da amitom sul erTia CemTvis. imedom inana, am sakiTxze rom daiwyo laparaki. _ besos Tavis sicocxleSi Zalian afiqrebda is, rom Sen nanas Svili iyavi da odesme es gamJRavndeboda. ara, is amaze imitom ki ar dardobda, rom nana Sen Tavs wagvarTmevda. mas sul sxva ram adardebda. mas eSinoda, Sen sulSi sikeTe rom Cado, ar dahkargvoda. Sen yvelas uyvardi, Sen yvela giyvarda, magram mas mudam afiqrebda, simarTlis gagebis SemTxvevaSi, ar gaborotebuliyavi. is didi Sroma, Sens aRzrdaSi, rom Cado, ar gamqraliyo. mas uyvardi ara marto, rogorc Svili, aramed rogorc uflis mier naboZebi cocxali arseba, misi sulis gakeTilSobileba rom daavala. beso amaze fiqrs gadahyva. Semdeg is avbediTi kaseta, sadac nanas aRsarebis msgavsad, surda, SenTvis Tavisi dedoba ecnobebia. diax, dedoba! didxans ucqira TvalebSi imedos. qali fiqrobda, - eTqva Tu ara saTqmeli. bolos saxeaRznebulma daufaravi siZulviliT warmosTqva: _ imedo, Sen unda icode, rom pirvelsave Svilis msurvels miscemda sakuTar Svils nana, oRondac mamis risxva ascdenoda maSin. ase moiqceoda nastiac. dRes CvenTan xar. Sen Cemi sisxliT naTesavi xar, Cemi dis SviliSvili Cemi SviliSvilic aris, magram nu damamadli Sens aRzrdas. Sen CvenTan besom dagtova. beso Cvil bavSvs warmoudgeneli sinaziT gefereboda. SenTvis sakvebze, Sesaxvevze, sawolze, saTamaSoebze, tansacmelebze darboda. Sen misTvis cxovrebis sixaruli gaxdi. beso grZnobda, viRac getyoda - es moxucebi Seni mSoblebi ar ariano, magram Tu nana am nabijs gadadgamda, ver warmoedgina. Cemo imedo! me Seni aRmzrdeli deda var. Sen sasTumalTan rom vijeqi avadmyofobis dros. SenTan erTad anbans vswavlobdi. SenTan erTad musikalur saswavlebelSi vswavlobdi. Semdeg besos daJinebuli TxovniT sasuliero saswavlebelSi migabareT. simonma mogvianebiT gaigo, rom Sen misi SviliSvili iyavi. radgan sxva memkvidre ar hyavda, gadawyvita, TavisTan daebrunebine. diax! sircxvili ukan darCa da TviTon arafrad Caagdes is tkivili, Cven rom mogvayenes. _ vin iyo Cemi mama? - kbilebSi gamoscra imedos.
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_ ar vici. me ar vici. ar davinteresebulvar. _ arc maT ician? _ ver getyvi, es ukve didi xnis win moxda. _ yovel SemTxvevaSi, erTi saukune ar gasula. mariamma Tvalebi daxuWa. iwvoda sanTeli. qali iwva didi saidumloebisgan gaTavisuflebuli, xolo axalgazrdebi sagonebelSi Cavardnilni, Tavdaxrilni da gaucxovebulni, erTmaneTs TvalebSi veRar umzerdnen. gvian wamodga nino. imedoc adga. _ waval, bavSvs davxedav! karebTan misuls imedos xmam SeaCera. _ nino! _ gismen! _ Sen ras fiqrob yovelive amaze? - ukanasknel dReebs daebrZenebina ymawvili. ninom Tavi daxara. imedo axlos mivida. _ Sen nino, isev ise geyvareba Seni Svilis ukanonod gaCenili mama Tu, xSirad Semaxseneb am ambavs. - imedos xma mkacri iyo da momTxovni. SeaSina misma saxem coli. _ Sen amaSi ar migiZRvis brali! - gulze miekra da aqviTinda. imedo mixvda, rom mis colma masTan erTad daitia misi tragikuli mdgomareoba. sikvdilis sarecelze mwoliare odnav SeinZra da maT gasagonad Cailaparaka. _ vera, ver apatieb, imedo, nanas?
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_ risTvis damibareT, batono simon? - bolo sityva xmadabla warmosTqva savarZelze mokalaTebulma imedom. Tumca bolo sityva rbilad Tqva, simons mainc ar moewona `batono simon - ase, mxolod gareSe pirs mimarTavda. imedo mas yovelTvis ase mimarTavda mas Semdeg, rac gaigo, rom misi SviliSvili iyo. am mimarTvam ki metad daZaba maT Soris urTierToba. simoni taxtis kuTxeSi ijda. Cafiqrebuli saxe hqonda. mis mopirdapire mxares, savarZelze nastia mokalaTebuliyo da raRac wigns kiTxulobda. aSkarad Canda, am wuTSi ver udebda guls kiTxvas. nana samzareuloSi trialebda. drodadro gamoCndeboda oTaxSi, sadac misi mSoblebi isxdnen da imedos SesCerebodnen. didxans verc erTi xmas ver iRebda. wonasworoba da siyvaruli, romelic manamde maT Soris arsebobda, mTlianad gamqraliyo. yvela Relavda. samarisebuli siCume iseve simonma daarRvia.
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_ me vfiqrob, yvelaferi garkveulia. amitom iqneb sjobs, saqmeze gvelaparaka. _ ar vici, visTvis aris garkveuli.- yrud Cailaparaka imedom. - CemTvis piradad araferia garkveuli. piriqiT. me minda, bevr rameSi gaverkve. - cdilobda, wonasworobidan ar gamosuliyo da bolomde simSvide SeenarCunebina. isev siCumem daisadgura. imedom mSvenivrad icoda, risi SemoTavazeba surdaT. simons surda, Tavis memkvidred eRiarebina. imedo amiT iRebda ara marto qonebis did nawils, aramed sazogadoebisgan pativs. sad mxatvris Sviloba da sad trestis mmarTvelis SviliSviloba! simoni xom am gansxvavebiT afasebda adamianebs. imedo sul fiqrobda, vin iyo misi mama da risTvis gaswira man esoden sanaqebo ojaxis qaliSvili. is Seuracxofili iyo ara marto dediT da mamiT, aramed sakuTari TaviTac. `ukanonod Sobili - es sityvebi zizRs da damcirebas badebda. imis gaxseneba, rom misi kanonierad mosvla am qveynad arc dedas da arc mamas ar surda, Tavzars scemda. _ me gvian gavige, rom Sen Cemi sisxli da xorci iyavi. aman orgvari grZnoba gaaCina CemSi, sibraze dedaSenis gamo da siyvaruli Sens mimarT. amis Semdeg vcdilobdi, Seni siyvaruli damemsaxurebia. vcdilobdi, momemzadebine, rom simarTle gagego. axla neba Senia, Sen unda gadawyvito yvelaferi. is mZimed da auRelveblad laparakobda. sCanda, es yvelaferi didi xnis winaT iyo mis tvinSi gadaxarSuli. _ ver gavrkveulvar, ras mTxov? _ Cemi gvari unda miiRo. kvlav siCume Camovarda. siCume samaris msgavsi da usiamovno. yvelas Tavi daexara dabla da pasuxs elodnen. _ vidre mag winadadebaze vifiqrebde, bevri ram maqvs gasarkvevi, romelmac miuxedavad Cemi garegnuli simSvidisa, Sinaganad depresiaSi Camagdo. - Cailaparaka imedom. _ brZaneT! _ Tqven es ambavi Zalian gvian gaigeT. geTanxmebiT, magram ara mgonia, TqvenTvis am ambavs sulieri travma ar mieyenebia. Cemi ukan dabrunebis survilic maSinve ar gagCeniaT. me dRes gavige simarTle, romelic. CemTvis yvelaferi Tavzardamcemic aris da Seuracmyofelic. ara mgonia, vinmesTvis sasiamovno iyos `ukanonod Sobilad movides am qveynad. meore is, rom dedoba Svilis dabadebidan iwyeba. dedaSviloba, RvTisagan gaCenili, yvelaze ukeTilSobilesi grZnobaa da am grZnobas uRalata, umweo Cvils zurgi Seaqcia im qalma, vinc dRes Cems Svilobaze pretenzias acxadebs. Cemi dabadeba imTaviTve Tavzardamcemi iyo maTTvis. ramdenadac mZime ar unda iyos Cemi moTxovna nanasTvis, pirvelad rac unda Seasrulos, unda gamacnos, vin iyo is mamakaci, vinc dabadebamde Cemze uari Tqva.
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nanas feri ecvala. SiSiT gadaxeda mSoblebs da savarZlis kuTxeSi Camojda. _ cudad xom ar xar Svilo? - skamidan nastia wamodga da Svils wyali miawoda. _ es Zalian didi xnis winaT moxda, is ambavi tragedia iyo CvenTvis. misi mogoneba ar gvinda - laparakSi nastia Caeria. _ da mainc unda miTxras. ara mgonia, nanas daviwyeboda is adamiani, vinc Cems gaCenaSi miiRo monawileoba. unda vicode, ratom gamwira. _ is mkvdaria! - upasuxa nastiam. _ vin iyo? simons civma oflma daasxa. inana, risTvis moiyvana aq imedo, magram ukan dasaxevi gza ar hqonda. _ am ambis gaxmaureba ar mindoda da amitom ise moviSore, arc mikiTxia, vin iyo. _ Tundac narkomani iyos, an romelime baRis loTi, mainc minda vicode, vin iyo is, vinc am yveynad momavlina. _ amas ver getyvi. - Cailaparaka nanam. _ maSin me getyvi. Tqveni urTierToba RvTiuri siyvaruli ar yofila. ubralod erTmaneTis mimarT biologiuri ltolva iyo, rac, mapatie da, saqonelsac ki gaaCnia, magram arcerTi jgufis cxoveli ar miatovebs sakuTar Svils. Sen ki Cemi moSoreba Cems dabadebamde dagegme. madloba RmerTs, `ukanonod mosuls, kanonieri mSoblebi momivlina. me maT xelSi geri arasodes vyofilvar. mTavari es aris. Sen ki momiSore! _ ara, imedo! me miyvardi. vcdilobdi, Sens gverdiT vyofiliyavi. - amoikvnesa nanam. _ yvelaferi maxsovs. SenTvis Tojina viyavi, roca mogindeboda, CemiT erTobodi. dedoba Sen ar gangicdia, is sul sxva ramea... imedo wamodga. qudi xelSi daWmuWna. gasasvlelisaken gadadga nabiji. _ erTi wuTiT kidev SeCerdi. - simonic wamodga da SviliSvils TvalebSi Caxeda, - bolomde giTxra saTqmeli, rogorc mamakacma mamakacs. _ gismen, batono simon! _ saSineleba iyo CvenTvis is, rom Sen im adamianis gvars atarebdi, Cemi sisxli da xorci, vinc suli amomxada moralze laparakiT. _ Zalian gTxovT, nu exebiT im adamians, is xom sazizRari kasetis msxverpli gaxda. mec exla gavige es tragedia. morals gikiTxavda? xom aravis arafers arTmevda. is Cemi mama iyo, Cemi sakuTari mama. dedac sasikvdilo sarecelzea. _ nu viyvirebT, Tu ver movrigdebiT, iseTebad mainc davCebiT erTmaneTisTvis, Sexedva rom ar Segvrcxves. dro yvelafers kurnavs. Senc SeeCvevi im azrs, rom beso Seni mama ar iyo.
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_ am wuTSi scodav, magas rom ambob. Tu is Cemi mama ar iyo, is mainc miTxariT, vin iyo Cemi mama, magram amas ver metyviT, imitom rom Senc ar ici, vin iyo. _ axla me sul sxva rames gTxov. _ ras? _ mogveci Seni Svili. Sen kidev geyoleba Svilebi. Cven kidev isev ise davrCiT, rogorc viyaviT. civma oflma daasxa imedos, amas namdvilad ar eloda. wabarbacda, skamze Camojda. didxans ver movida gons. Semdeg Zlivs wamoimarTa, nanasTan mivida da CurCuliT kbilebidan wamoscda: _ SenTvis advilia Svilis gasxviseba. _ me Sen imitom dagkarge, rom mamaCemis ojaxis siwminde SemenarCunebina.. calybad gaiRima imedom. Semotrialda da auRelveblad warmosTqva Semdegi fraza: _ ojaxis siwminde dedis muclidan iwyeba! - kari gaaRo da iqauroba datova. eklesiidan gamosuls iebis kona SeaCeCa soflis qalma. imedom gamoarTva, gazafxulis surneli Semoscqeroda cisferi foTlebidan. _ didi madloba, qalbatono! - fuli gauwoda qals da manqanaSi Cajda. _ xval mamaCemis dabadebis dRea, waval saflavs gavasufTaveb! vakis sasaflaosTan Sedga manqana. sasaflaos ezoSi micvalebuli miasvenes. erTxans maT aedevna. karga manZili iara, Semdeg Tavqve daeSva. besos da mariamis saflavebs miatana. Semdeg erTxans maT saxeebs umzira. gaukvirda, maTi saxeebi xan sixaruls gamoxatavdnen da xan mwuxarebas, xan aRtacebiT SesCerebodnen utyvi qvebi da xan sibraluliT. `Tu vinme ityvis, rom uyvars RmerTi, magram sZuls Zma, crua, radgan Tu ar uyvars Tavisi Zma, romelsac xedavs, rogorRa Seiyvarebs RmerTs, romelsac ver xedavs? moesma besos xma. imedo SekrTa. aqeT iqiT miixeda da gulSi pasuxi gasca: - ar SemiZlia vapatio nanas, `radgan dideba kacisa mamis pativiscemaa da sircxvilia SvilebisaTvis Seuracxyofili deda - amas xom Sen maswavlidi mama. _ `moralurad sufTa cxovreba didi miRwevaa wuTisofelSi,isev gaisma besos xma, vinc sikeTis qmna icis da ara iqms, es codvad eTvleba mas. _ `arcerTi kaci, visac xeli udevs saxnisze da ukan ki iyureba, ar ivargebs RmerTis sasufevlisTvis - amas xom Sen maswavlidi mama. `... visac Cven mivutevebT TanamdebTa maT CvenTa - gaismoda isev besos xma. _ ar vsji nanas cxovrebas. mxolod is maRizianebs, rom man Tavis
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droze dedobaze uari Tqva. mama, RmerTma Sens Svilad gamomgzavna, albaT imitomac iyo, rom Cems garda Sen sxva Svili ar gagCenia. Sen maswavle, rogori unda iyos siwminde. Sen Cemi sulieri mama xar. me arc sxva mSoblebi minda da arc simonis didi memkvidreoba, radgan es ukanaskneli ver Seedreba am simdidres, Sen xom is Cems sulSi Cade. sasaflaos kari SeaRo, iqauroba gamoasufTava, xeliT Seexo maT saxeebs, Semdeg iis yvavilebi larnakSi Cado, ukan daixia da maT saxeebs daakvirda. moeCvena, naTlis sxivi akiafda maT Tavze. pirjvari gadaiwera da ori sayvareli adamianis saflavs gaSorda. _ exla vxvdebi, ratom damale saidumlo Cems warmomavlobaze. geSinoda, SeniT gaspetakebul sulSi boroteba ar dasadgurebuliyo. rom SemeZlos, xeliT Sevexebi Sens suls da movesiyvarulebi. Sen imxela adgili daikave Cems gulSi, rom sxvisTvis aRaraferi datove. da dResac mesmis sagalobeliviT Seni sityvebi yurTan: `nurvin ityvis gansacdelSi, RvTisgan vicdebio, radgan RmerTi ar icdeba borotebiT da arc vinmes scdis.

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Ria fanjridan
1952 w. maisi 1953 w. noemberi. vuZRvni Cems gardacvlil das - nelis. ori gaZvaltyavebuli saskolo rveuli Zlivs avkinZe gasaaxleblad, radgan mindoda erTxel kidev Segxvedrodi sikvdilis Semdeg. Seni sikvdilis Semdeg ukve meaTe welia gasuli da ase mgonia, yvelaferi guSin moxda.
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gogonam mZinare mSoblebs gaxeda, frTxilad gaaRo kari, kibeebze Cairbina da yanis gverdiT gamaval biliks gauyva. erTbaSad manqanis moulodnelma xmam SeaCera. qaliSvili qviTkiris kedlisken naxevrad Setrialda, gverdidan gaxeda cisferi TvalebiT da grZeli wamwamebi daafafxuna. _ gulnari ? - waiCurCula da ukanve gamobrunda. manqanidan odnav Sesuqebuli qali gadmovida. mas sami wlis biWuna gadmohyva. mZRolma manqanidan bargi gadmoalaga. Julieta misken gaiqca da qalis SiSvel kisers Tavisi xelebi SemoaWdo. debma gadakocnes da Soridan Sexedes erTmaneTs. _ gazrdilxar, gamocvlilxar, Juli! - wamoiZaxa gulnarma. aba sinaTleSi SevideT, gnaxo, rogori xar? gulnarma mZRols bargi CamoarTva. safasuri gadauxada da ezoSi Julietas daxmarebiT Sevida. dedam Tavi aswia da gaxarebuli sawolidan wamodga. _ ase gvian, Svilo, marto moxvedi? - ikiTxa mamam. _ ho, mama. marto movedi, - Tqva da mere Julieta SeaTvaliera. _ Cinebulia. Tu aseTi kargi damxvdebodi, ar megona, - da kidev gadakocna. Julietam saerTo aurzauriT isargebla da ezoSi gavida. elvis siswrafiT biliki Cairbina da kakalTan mdgar vaJTan mivida. _ gulnari Camovida,giorgi, Cems das xom icnob? _ Soridan, - upasuxa vaJma, qaliSvilTan axlos mivida da Sublidan Tmebi frTxilad gadauwia. _ xval Segxvdebi, dRes ki... Zebnas damiwyeben, - qaliSvilma vaJis xeli moiSora da saxlisken wavida. mSoblebi ar moelodnen ufrosi qaliSvilis mosvlas. kiTxva ar dausviaT, magram qalma daRlili xmiT Tqva: _ iqneb, arc mogewonaT Cemi samudamod dabruneba? _ rogor Tu samudamod. vaso sad aris? - ikiTxa SemkrTalma dedam.

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_ davSordiT... _ rogor? - yru xmiT ikiTxa mamam. dedam Rawvebze Camodenili cremlebi Seiwminda. _ mogvianebiT yvelafers SegatyobinebT. albaT, aseTi bedi marguna gangebam, rom, martos gamezarda Svili. - am dros Temuri babuas ealerseboda. mSoblebs pirze SeaxmaT saTqmeli. Tavguneba qalTan saubriT verafers gaxdebodnen da erTxans siCume arCies. Julieta gaSterebuli misCereboda das. _ Sen xom giyvarda vaso? _ miyvarda? megona, miyvarda. _ magram bavSvi? _ morals nu wamikiTxav, daiko, eg SenTvis Seinaxe, gamogadgeba... Julieta gaSra. Tvalwin daudga adamiani, romelsac sul axlaxan Sexvda. masze mze da mTvare amodioda. misi siyvaruli spetaki da maradiuli iyo. _ nuTu SeiZleba misi SeZuleba, an mitoveba? - gakvirvebiT gaifiqra da saxe yayaCosferi gauxda. xuTi welia, rac erTmaneTi uyvarT. gogona giorgisTvis ocnebaa, xolo giorgi JulietasTvis bedniereba. giorgim sasoflo-sameurneo instituti maSin daamTavra, roca omis iarebs iSuSebda qveyana. axalgazrdas gaZvaltyavebuli kolmeurneobis Tavjdomareoba SesTavazes. Zalian Zneli iyo, arafrisgan Seeqmna meurneoba, arafrisTvis daekavebia muSa-xeli, magram yvelas kargad hqonda gacnobierebuli, rom unda eSroma: moswavles da students, moxucs da axalgazrdas, raTa dRiuri lukma-puri hqonodaT. maSin umaRlesi ganaTlebis muSakebic cotani iyvnen. skolis damTavrebis Semdeg axalgazrdebi Tu ver moewyobodnen, kolmeurneobaSi iwyebden muSaobas. erTxel biblioTekaSi Sesul giorgis Julietas naTelma Tvalebma SemoanaTa. gogona moswavle iyo maSin, TxuTmetiode wlis Tu iqneboda. vaJi didxans SeCerda Seugneblad da mourideblad. qaliSvili daibna da Tavi daxara. gavida dro da giorgis am gogos saxe TvalebTan xSirad elandeboda. TbilisSi bevri TavSesaqcevi romani hqonda. studenti qaliSvilebi Tavs evlebodnen, magram misi suli ase aravis SeuZravs. _ nuTu is krazanis msgavsi gogona aris, visac daveZeb, an daveZebdi? - fiqrobda xSirad, roca skolisken mimaval gogonas gzaSi Sexvdeboda. _ ra Tqma unda, ar daveZebdi, - ambobda, magram misi Tvalebi yvelgan uRimoda, ealerseboda, misi sulis bnel kuTxeSi uRitinebda. gogona mis Tvalwin izrdeboda, wynar, Tavazian da Cveulebriv qaliSvilSi, isev im patara gogonas, umanko da naTel bavSvs xedavda, romelmac myudroeba daurRvia.
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Tavi 2

_ Juli! ra Cinebuli vaJkacia Tqveni kolmeurneobis Tavmjdomare. adre Soridan vicnobdi, yvela gazrdilxarT, gamocvlilxarT, - saxlSi SemosvlisTanave gulnari am sityvebiT Sexvda umcros das. is sarkesTan mivida, didxans aTvaliera Tavisi saxe. Tmebi gaiswora. _ me ki?... ra meCqareboda gaTxoveba, - raRac Sinagani sinanuliT Tqva qalma. sarkidan Tavis das gauRima,romelic mis ukan idga awiTlebuli da dabneuli. _ Tumca isev lamazi var, ara? Juli, ratom sdumxar? Julietam Seucnobeli SiSiT Sexeda dis lamaz saxes, amoburcul tuCebs. _ ,,am qalSi isev qaliSviluri sikeklucea, axalgazrduli sisxli... - gaifiqra daze da usiamovnod gaSorda. _ Juli, ratom arafers ambob? is saucxoo adamianic sCans. mis Tanamdebobas kargi qali kargad gamoiyenebs. _ giorgi patiosania. marto saqveyno saqmezea Tavdadebuli. _ saqveyno saqmeze ? - gulianad gaicina gulnarma, - nuTu bevria iseTi, xalxze rom fiqrobs. _ giorgi aseTia... _ imitom daugvianebia ojaxis Seqmna, - da sarkeSi kidev erTxel Sexeda Tavis Tavs. - eh, Sviliani qali rom ar viyo... - gaifiqra gulnarma, magram roca sarkeSi Tavis mSvenier garegnobas Sexeda, SiSi gauqra. Julieta Tavis oTaxSi Sevida, Tavi baliSSi Cargo da gairinda. am wuTSi da saSinlad SeiZula. _ ra suleli var, giorgi am qalSi gamcvlis? vai, sircxvilo. netavi giorgi ar gaigebdes Cemi dis utifrobas. _ giorgi! Sen Cemi xar. Cemi sicocxlis nawili da Cemi nawili. aravis aqvs ufleba, me es wminda sicocxlis nawili momparos da Tavisad miisakuTros. Julieta ar styuoda, roca das uTxra, giorgi patiosaniao. muSaobis dawyebis dRidan, giorgim energiulad mohkida xeli Tavisze dakisrebul movaleobas. pirvel rigSi muSa xelis Semokreba iyo saWiro. misi mogvareba arc Tu ise advili iyo. piradi magaliTiT Tu SeZlebda amis miRwevas. mas kargad esmoda, rom wevrebze gacemuli samuSao dRis asanazRaurebeli produqcia mciredi da SeiZleba umniSvnelo iyo glexobisTvis, magram samagierod, isic sjeroda, rom keTdeboda saerTo saqme. swamda, rom kolmeurneobaSi darCenili TanxiT aSendeboda mcire eleqtrosadguri, wisqvili, klubi, gadakeTdeboda biblioTeka. giorgi gariJraJze gasuli gvian brundeboda saxlSi. mSoblebi ar hyavdaT. patara da, romelzec TxuTmeti wliT

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ufrosi iyo, aRsazrdelad darCenoda. igi skolaSi swavlobda. uWirda uded-mamoba, Zma misTvis ver iclida da mZime ojaxuri saqme adreul bavSvobaSi daawva. amitomac iyo, rom giorgis surda, JulietasTan dawyebuli siyvaruli male daemTavrebina. xan fermis mSenebloba, xan mindvrebSi yofna, raionSi TaTbirze siaruli, - dro aRar hyofnida, rom Tavis ojaxze efiqra. erTxel kantoridan daRlili brundeboda. Tavis sayvarel kaklis xisken Cauxvia. didxans icada, magram qaliSvili ar gamoCnda. Sewuxda. iqaurobas gaSorda da sayvareli qalis WiSkars miuaxlovda. _ movelaparakebi, dResve unda gadawydes yvelaferi. aivnidan viRaca Camovida da WiSkrisaken wavida. giorgi Julietas eloda, magram gulnarma gauRo kari. vaJi SekrTa. _ mobrZandi. _ biZia niko saxlSia? saqme mqonda... _ fermidan jer ar dabrunebula. _ ukacravad... _ mobrZandiT. mama male mova, cota daisveneT. amboben, Tavgamodebuli muSakiao. - gulnarma xeli Caavlo da WiSkris SigniT Seiyvana. _ eh! vin Tqva? Tumca ... Tu ar iSrome, araferi gamova. _ ra Tqma unda, Sroma kargia, magram sakuTari mainc sul sxvaa. giorgim saaTs daxeda, aivnisken gaixeda, Julietas gamoCenas eloda. _ ai, me ki samuSao ver miSovnia. _ mindorSi Sennairi qali ar imuSavebs. sxva adgili ki sofelSi araferia. giorgim kidev daxeda saaTs. _ xom aravis elodebi? - da uceb pirdapir Caxeda TvalebSi. _ aba, vis vWirdebi ? - siciliT uTxra stumarma. _ ar ginda, Torem bevrsac dasWirdebi, - niaviviT gaisma mis yurebTan qalis xma. giorgi qals daakvirda. Julietaze surda raRacis Tqma, magram Sedga. _ mapatie, kidev erTxel unda mivide! - giorgim qalis xeli moiSora, gareT gavida da usiamovno SegrZneba Tan gaiyola. aivanTan SeefeTa das gulnari. _ giorgi iyo, mama ikiTxa, - udardelad uTxra Julietas da oTaxSi Sevida.
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bodiSi! me avscdi Cems mTavar saTqmels. Cemi gmiri ampartavani, miwieri gulnari rodia? arc Julietas usicocxlo suls vetrfi. arc giorgi momwons. isini mxolod avseben Cemi gmiris cxovrebas.
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Cems patara gogonas Tavis survilisamebr ganageben. Cemi gmiri patara nonaa. Cemi muzis saTave Cems gulSi misi gauTavebeli CurCulia., misi sityvebia. Cemi suli rom hyavs mojadoebuli, Cemi pirveli wamowyebac mas ekuTvnis. _ nona, Cemi xuTi wlis gogona! oqroskululebiani! patara gogo, Savi TvalebiT, grZeli momSvilduli warbebiT, gabutuli tuCebiT da TeTri angelozis saxiT. Cemo patara nona! nuTu ar meyofa imdeni Zala, misi xanmokle sicocxle TeTr qaRaldze gadmovitano, nuTu ar aris CemSi unari, cotaodeni mwerlis niWi. mapatieT, Cemi niWi mwerlebs ver Seecileba, rom movaxerxo dalagebiT gadmovce is, rac Cems gulSi am moWikWike mtredma CamoZerwa. SevZleb? vin icis? vecdebi. iqneb ar damemduro, Cemo nona! iqneb Semdeg kalmis wveris rakraks am qaRaldze gavayolo Cem gulSi amxedrebuli usastikesi brZola-CurCuli. vin icis?! ai, kvlav Semomcqerixar. ra saSinelebaa, gicqero Sen da ver Segexo. gismino Sen da veraferi gagagono. Seni Tvalebi sibraluliT miyureben. ra gsurs? ras eli Cemgan? pasuxs? netavi, SevZlebde swori pasuxis gacemas. wuxel kvlav moxvedi. momialerse, momefere. didxans, didxans meCurCulebodi yurTan. ar maxsovs, ras ambobdi. ver davimaxsovre. raRac zRaprul baRSi viyaviT me da Sen. aTasi Citis xma ismoda irgvliv. aTasi yvavili mimofantuliyo Cvens fexebTan. Sen Tbil da tkbil sxeulze momajadoebeli siame daRvriliyo da mec CaveTrie, siamis damaTrobeli siTxiT avsebuliyo Cemi sxeuli. aseTi fantastikuri Rame jer ar mqonia. niavi damaqrolebda edemis baRSi da samoTxidan gamosvla ar mindoda. sinamdvilem Semaryia da gamaRviZa. magram sizmris Tilisma imdenad Zlieri iyo CemSi, Tvalebi ar gavaxile, Tumca vgrZnobdi, mTavrdeboda Cveni evas samoTxeSi yofna. baliSSi Tavi Cavrge da mwared avtirdi.
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elvis siswrafiT gavrcelda giorgisa da Julietas gaparvis ambavi. zogs gauxarda, kargi wyviliao. zogs Suri aReZra: - Sexede, am TiTistola gogom, ra vaJkaci gamoiWirao. zogma gogona Seicoda: - gauWirdeba martoxelas ojaxis marTvao. zognic ki gaogndnen, maTi ojaxebis Zveli uTqmeli mtroba gaaxsendaT da Cumad CurCulebdnen.

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Julietas mSoblebs ki Tavzari daecaT. dedam kanti-kuntad Woris doneze icoda misi qaliSvilisa da giorgis sasiyvarulo romanis Sesaxeb, magram Julieta uars ambobda. dedas misi sjeroda. gulnari maSin Sevida mSoblebTan, roca Tvalebdasiebuli deda da ganadgurebuli mama erTmaneTis gverdiT dabal skamze isxdnen. _ Cemi mteris Svils colad rogor gahyva? - xma dauwia nikom. _ qalo, nuTu erTxel ar giTqvams SvilebisTvis es ambavi? gulnarim gaocebiT Sexeda mSoblebs. _ ra moxda, mama? _ rogor? SenTvis aravis uTqvams, rom magisma mamam Cemi Zma gaatrockista? _ ras ambob? ar mesmis. _ Seni Steri da giorgis gahyolia. - ukmexad gasca pasuxi dedam. gulnari gaSra. iqve mdgar skamze Camojda da gairinda. _ amaze meti ubedureba gagigiaT? - giorgis mamam Cemi Zma gaatrockista... mereda, rogori mSromeli Zma, patiosani, saukeTeso pedagogi... da Cemi Svili misi Svilis coli gaxda, qalo... _ damidges Tvalebi! - wamoiZaxa gamwarebulma dedam. ra unda meTqva SiSiT. gana saSineleba ar iyo, rom Cveni ojaxi ekuTvnoda im ojaxs, saidanac im sabediswero dros, sasikvdilod, rogorc xalxis moRalate axalgazrda gaiyvanes? Sen Cemze ukeT ici, ra SiSSi viyaviT. im codvis Svilma ra icoda? _ magram giorgi ra SuaSia, Tu misi mama Savrazmeli iyo? - gakvirvebiT ikiTxa gulnarma. - RmerTs madloba uTxariT, rom aseTma pirovnebam Tqveni qaliSvili colad waiyvana. _ xma ar gavigono zedmeti! - zeze wamoiWra niko da gareT gavarda. nikom verc ezoSi monaxa adgili, rom damjdariyo da odnav dardi Seemsubuqebia. cxeni Sekazma da fermaSi wavida. niko xSirad fiqrobda Zmaze da mis ugzo-ukvlod dakargvaze. drom nel-nela mouyuCa tkivili. martom, sxvebisagan farulad gamoiglova arafrisTvis gamqrali sisxli da xorci. ojaxSi mis Sesaxeb laparaki ekrZalebodaT da aravin cdilobda raime grZnobebisa da emociebis gamoaSkaravebas. mSoblebi Svilis dakargvas gadahyvnen. niko roca sufrasTan ijda, meore Wiqas aswevda. uTqmelad erT natex purs RvinoSi Caawebda xolme da Semdeg pursac da Rvinosac uTqmelad erTi amosunTqviT gadaylapavda. am dros wuTieri dumili isadgurebda ojaxis wevrebSi da am dumils isev niko arRvevda. am dros Tavs Zalas atanda, didxans ar gagrZelebuliyo es sevdiani mogoneba. im dros yvelaferi ase daiwyo. erT dRes avismTqmeli CurCuli aliviT moedo sofels, ori uniWieresi Zma, revazi da Tamazi, rom- 502 -

lebic saxelmwifo universitetSi kaTedraze muSaobdnen, auditoriidan ise gaiyvanes, krintic ar dauZravT. es dRe studentebTan yofnis maTi ukanaskneli dRe iyo. gaocebulma msmenelebma SiSiT Tvali gaayoles. gavidnen da ukan aRar dabrunebulan, maTi ojaxi dResac inaxavs erT originalur suraTs. igi maTma umcrosma dam daamzada. am suraTze aRbeWdilia cecxlis alSi gaxveuli ori Zmis Crdili. visac es suraTi unaxavs, mixvdeba, rogori tragizmi iyo ojaxisTvis maTi dakargva. _ mavneblebi! morCa da gaTavda! xalxis mtrebi! aseTi iarliyiani pirovnebsTvis aRar arsebobs ojaxi. masze araferi ar unda Tqva, Tu ar gsurs, mis Crdils gahyve. imave TveSi cxenze amxedrebuli Savtansacmliani komkavSiris mdivani nikos saxlis WiSkarTan Sedga, man maTraxiT daabraguna xis WiSkarze. _ sandro sad aris? - ikiTxa. WiSkarTan TmaSevercxlili ojaxis deda gaCnda. _ mobrZandi. sergo! _ sandro skolaSi ar damxvda, sad aris? - moxucebulisTvis saxeSi ar Seuxedavs, arc misalmebia. _ noweras wavida mamasTan, Tiva aqvT asagrovebeli. _ aval fermaSi. _ dRes dabrundebian , risTvis unda gaisajo, Svilo? sergom Tavi aiRo. Semdeg Setrialda da cxeni Saragzaze gaaWena. usiamovnod gaxeda moxucma Tvals mifarebul cxens da mis mxedars. _ raionis komitetSi gibareben. elda eca sandros, gvian gasca pasuxi. _ barem movaTaveb Tivis aRebas. cas saavdro piri uCans,mamas martos gauWirdeba misi aReba. _ ara. nabrZanebi maqvs, dResve unda mixvide! - Seicxada. mSvidi xma hqonda sergos. sandro gumaniT mixvda, Savi Rrubeli rom ireoda mis Tavze. sandrom gakvirvebiT Sexeda sergos da xumroba scada. _ rogor milicieliviT melaparakebi. sergos ar gaRimia xumrobaze, SublSekruli maTraxs aTamaSebda. _ dauCqare! - es ukve brZaneba iyo. roca sofelSi Cavidnen, sandrom samuSao xalaTze daixeda da mezobels uTxra. _ Sevivli... gamovicvli. _ ara, Seni gza iqeT ar aris. win iare, - da revolveri moimarjva.
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im RamiT, kidev Svidi soflis Tavkaci aiyvanes Savrazmelebma. mosaxleoba panikaSi Cavarda. erTbaSad dairRva sofelSi ndobis atmosfero. erTmaneTisa eSinodaT da erTmaneTTan gasaubrebas gaurbodnen. dapatimrebulebze sityvis Tqmas veravin bedavda. mezoblis daZaxebaze ZrwolviT iReboda Caketili karis urdulebi. _ risTvis? ra daaSaves? - mxolod fiqrobdnen da fiqrisac eSinodaT, aravin gaigoso. erTaderTi werili movida sandrosgan. viRacisTvis gamoeyolebina da vinaidan yvela gatrockistebul ojaxze meTvalyure iyo miCenili, Zalian gvian, saidumlod miiRo nikom. _ gagvasamarTles, ocdaoTxi wlis ajanyebis monawileebis TanagrZnobisaTvis damnaSaved gvcnes da xuTi wlis patimroba mogvisajes. es saidumlo baraTi saidumlod iqna gadamaluli. es iyo da es. ase daikarga ucolSvilo adamiani. giorgi ki sergos erTaderTi vaJi iyo. _ gadaeci Sens das, arasodes axsenos Cemi saxeli. - ramdenime dRis Semdeg ase daabara ufros qaliSvils nikom. _ kargi niko, iqneb ar Rirs kidev warsuls davubrundeT. movifiqroT, rogorc ajobebs, ise gavakeToT. - SeekamaTa deda _ mTeli cxovreba SiSSi vicxovre. meSinoda, rogorc maT Searqves, xalxis mtris saxeli ar mqonoda. am ,,xalxis mtris Zma viyavi. meSinoda yoveli dRis da yoveli saaTis. guli gamelia. mivida xatis win dadga da warmosTqva: _ RmerTo, Zliero. RmerTo, didebulo, apatie Cems Svils ubedurTan sisxlis aRreva, `nuravin ityvis gansacdelSi, RvTisagan vicdebio, radgan RmerTi ar icdeba borotebiT da arc vinmes scdis. ra piriT unda warvdge RmerTis winaSe. Tu vinme ityvis, rom uyvars RmerTi, magram sZuls Tavisi Zma, crua, radgan Tu ar uyvars Tavisi Zma, romelsac xedavs, rogorRa Seiyvarebs RmerTs, romelsac ver xedavs? _ niko, sergom didi xania wuTisufeli datova. Zalian adrec RmerTis samsjavroSic warsdga. _ ara,`mkvdari codvisagan Tavxsnilia, amas gvaswavlis saRvTo sjuli. codvas misi Svili da SviliSvili gamoisyidian. sandros sulisaTvis, Cemi mSoblebis sulisaTvis da Cemi uTqmeli tkivilisaTvis vilocoT. _ Cven yvelani warvsdgebiT qristes msjavris winaSe. _ yvelafers gavyidi, yvelafers, da aqedan waval, - Tqva nikom da kidevac Seasrula. man Tavisi simwriT SeZenili cxovreba gayida da sofeli datova.

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ufros qaliSvilTan erTad CrdiloeT kavkasiaSi gadavida da oseTis dedaqalaqSi daido bina. saSualo asaks gadacilebuli, sxva mxares gaxiznuli mamakaci xSirad ambobda TavisTvi: _ daviRale SiSiT. maiZulebdnen, movferebodi Cems mters, magram Cemi mtris siyvaruls ver maiZuleben. sjobs, aq viyo. giorgis kargad axsovda mis bavSvobaSi momxdari tragedia, romelic qveyanaSi da sofelSic datrialda. isic kargad icoda, ra roli iTamaSa am ubedurebaSi misma mamam, magram mis cnobierebamde ar iyo dasuli, Tu ra danaSauli miuZRvoda mis mSobels damnaSaveTa datusaReba-gadasaxlebaSi. ver gaeTavisebia, saWiro iyo Tu ara amdeni msxverpli. mas ar esmoda, Tu rogor dacarielda Tundac es sofeli amdeni TvalsaCino vJkacebisagan. ver mimxvdariyo, xalxis mtrebi iyvnen, Tu aTvalwunebuli adamianebi, an Tavisuflad moazrovne adamianTa jgufi, romlis ideuri mrwamsi aSinebda mamamisis ideis matarebelT. an mSobeli mama, romelsac am yvelaferSi centraluri figura ekava, riTi gansxvavdeboda mis mier dasjili adamianebisagan. masac xom Zalian uyvarda xalxi. es da kidev mravali SekiTxva xSirad utrialebda TavSi. swori axsnisaTvis ki ver miegno. erTi ki icoda: mamam gaswira Tanasoflelebi, damnaSaveni Tu udanaSauloni, amas arsebiTi mniSvneloba ar hqonda. dasjilTa sisxli mamis kiserze iyo da roca maT maxloblebs gverdiT Cauvlida, yovelTvis Tavs xrida maT winaSe. omi daiwyo. sergosTvis partia da samSoblo erTi da igive iyo. gamouZaxeblad gamocxadda samxedro komisariatSi. is brZolaSi wavida da wina xazze dadga. sergos stiqia partiisaTvis brZola iyo da roca misi Tavi sxva adgilze dasWirda samSoblos, erTi wuTiTac ar Seyovnebula. roca am ambavs giorgi ixsenebda, siamayis grZnoba eufleboda. misi mama bolSevikuri saxelmwifos umagaliTo Svili iyo. mamisagan ramdenime werili miiRo, romelic reliqviasaviT inaxeba maT ojaxSi, rogorc didi ganZi. werili movida quTaisidan, Tbilisidan, baTumidan da Semdeg ugzo-ukvlod daikarga. giorgis mama Tvalwin edga, samSoblos siyvaruliT Tavdadebuli komunisti - ai, iseTi, rogoric mis werilSi iyo, misi dakargviT raRac mZime moraluri tvirTi moexsna ojaxs, Svilebs, Tumca mezoblebi sxvanairad sjidnen. Cven ki nu ganvsjiT, vinaidan es RmerTis saqmea da Cven nu CavereviT mis nebaSi. leila giorgize TxuTmeti wliT umcrosi iyo. is im tragediis dros gaCnda. mama ar axsovda. arc araferi icoda mis warsulze. icoda mxolod is, rom mama Tavisi nebiT wavida frontis wina xazze.
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Tavisi nebiT, radgan mas uflebas utovebdnen zurgSi darCeniliyo. ver getyviT, ratom ar darCa zurgSi, mas xom metis gakeTeba SeeZlo. iqneb gaeqca metis gakeTebas? ara, is araviTar metis gakeTebas ar gaqcevia. piriqiT, is iq wavida, sadac aucilebeli iyo samSoblosaTvis. giorgis kargad axsovs, rogori Tavgamodebuli iyo komunisturi ideologia. yvelaferi am ideologiasTan iyo dakavSirebuli, misi sisxli da xorci. am uzarmazari saxelmwifos erT-erTi patara, magram mniSvnelovani manqanis nawili iyo. asrulebda imas, rac mis siZlieres esaWiroeboda. didi beladebis wignebze aRzrdilma jariskacma, mTeli Tavisi cxovreba am ideas da sistemas Seswira. am didi brZolis gzaze man ar daindo arc sxva da arc sakuTari Tavi. ... da roca amas fiqrobda giorgi, mamis gamarTlebas aq daeZebda. giorgi sofelSi yvelas uyvarda. miuxedavad imisa, rom is sergos Svili iyo. uyvardaT misi patiosneba, Tavmdabloba, dauRalavi Sroma. mis sofelSi xelmZRvanelad mosvlas yvela sixaruliT Sexvda. nikos giorgi ar uyvarda. arc SeiZleboda yvareboda , magram cdilobda es ar gaemJRavnebina. piriqiT, cdilobda kargi urTierToba daemyarebia, magram misi siZeoba araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar undoda. misTvis es iyo tragediis ganmeoreba. _ bunebaSi araferi ikargeba, sisxli Tavisas iTxovs da ar minda, Cemi STamomavali sergos gamo dawyevlili iyos. - TavisTvis dudunobda niko. mtris SvilTan yoveldRiuri urTierToba misTvis autaneli rom ar gamxdariyo, amitom aiyara mSobliuri keridan. julietam dedisagan kanti-kuntad icoda es ambavi, magram siyvaruliT Tavbrudaxveuli qaliSvili amas araviTar mniSvnelobas ar aZlevda. _ ra SuaSia Cemi da giorgis siyvaruli mamamisis fanatikur politikasTan?- ambobda guldawyvetili. ar surda, es didi siyvaruli usiamovno CrdiliT daenisla, magram guli mainc damZimebuli hqonda. Julieta arc dedam naxa da arc mamam. mxolod gulnari mivida da miuloca. _ ratom araferi miTxari, Julieta? - ubralod usayvedura da mamis danabarebi odnav Serbilebulad moaxsena. es iyo da es. kari gaixura misma dam da Julietas raRac ZarRvi Cawyda. raRac didi ZarRvi, mSobliuri, sakuTari. qmars ki araferi agrZnobina. giorgi ar ekuTvnoda im partiul da Tanamdebobis muSakebs, romlebsac sakuTari cxovrebis ukeT mowyobisaTvis gamoiyenes

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partiac da Tanamdebobac. arc sergos da arc giorgis sakuTari keTildReobisaTvis ar gamouyenebiaT. partiis ndoba iyo is wertili, romliTac xelmZRvanelobda sergo. misTvis mTavari iyo saerTo saqme. giorgim am urTules periodSi, bavSvobisas mamisagan memkvidreobiT miiRo is, rac mis gulSi amarTlebda mSoblis cxovrebas. es iyo misTvis cxovrebis wesi da Tavisi sicocxlis manZilze misTvis ar uRalatia. kolmeurneobis xelmZRvaneloba ioli ar iyo. muSa-xeli soflidan garboda, radgan Sromis anazRaureba cota iyo. axalgazrdoba saSualo skolis damTavrebis Semdeg soflidan nel-nela midiodnen. mTavrobis mier Semowerili didi gegmebi aCanagebda glexebs. saWiro gaxda mTeli mosavlis iZulebiT Cabareba. zogjer glexi Tavis mier moweul sursaTs qalaqSi yidulobda iafad. raionis xelmZRvaneloba, raikomis gaberili Statebi da misi revizia mZimed awva glexs zurgze. miuxedavad amdeni usiamovno winaaRmdegobebisa, giorgi sakuTari Sromis fasad cdilobda, rogorme kolmeurneoba fexze daeyenebia. xan axalgazrdul brigadas ayalibebda, xan eqskursiiT axalisebda moswavleebs, xan sagzurs uSovida romelime kolwevrs da ase wvalebiT gadioda fons.
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mgonia, mivageni imas, rasac veZebdi. ufro swored, rasac mTxovdi. vfiqrob, movnaxe is adamianebic, vinc Sens gamo damWirdnen, Zlivs movaRwie Senamde, Cemo daiko, Cemo patara gogona. Sen ukve oTxi wlis bavSvi xar. mxatvris xeliT naZerwi angelozi. am wuTSi gicqeri da vtkbebi. gicqeri Sen da Cems warsuls, Cems bavSvobas, SenTan gatarebuli wlebi Tu CaiTvleba Cemi xsovnidan dauviwyar sixarulad. gicqeri Sen da Cems oreuls da Zvirfasi mogonebebi ifurCqnebian. Sen TeTri Ramis perangiT mobajbajeb da erTi wuTiT meRimeba. maviwydeba, rom Sen didi xania, zecaSi gadasaxldi. sxvanairad Seni sikvdilis SegrZnebac warmoudgenelia CemTvis. maviwydeba, rom Sen aRar SegiZlia Seni unazesi da uspetakesi xeliT Semexo. Sen sayvarel mamidasTan mixvide da Seni wkriala xmiT dauZaxo. _ leila mamidaa... - yviriliT da fexis wverebiT vuaxlovdebi patara gogos, Cems warsuls, Cems bavSvobas. Seni mamida am dros mxolod cameti wlisaa. ojaxSi is aris diasaxlisi, didi saxlis erTaderTi diasaxlisi. uamravi saqme aqvs saxlSi. amJamad Zroxas mijdomia da wvelis. _ ratom adeqi Zvirfaso, sul male moval, Cagacmev. macale Zroxis mowvela. mwyemsi naxirs gadenis da veRar davewevi. _ ase wamoval, araferia, leila mamida. Znelia Zroxis mowvela? rom gavizrdebi, me dagexmarebi.
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_ kargi, Zvirfaso, jer macale. leila dilis Tadarigs male rCeba. Semdeg nonas zurgze gudasaviT moigdebs da saxlisaken garbis. ramdenime xanSi ukve morze sxedarT Sen da leila. nona da leila... caSi adis Tqveni kiskisi. Tvalwin midgaxarT ori umwikvlo arseba da maviwydeba, rom me da leilam davkargeT pirveli bavSvi, pirveli sixaruli. gicqeri ukve wlebis Semdeg da vgrZnob, pirveli deduri siyvaruli Sen maswavle. Sen, CemTvis dauviwyaro angelozo! Tqvenma wkriala kiskisma, minda, erTi wuTiT damaviwyos Seni saxe. niavi qris da leilas uwesrigod gadmoyril Tmebs uwewavs. didi piri daubCenia da drogamoSvebiT warmosTqvams bavSvisadmi saalerso sityvebs. gaRebuli piridan mouCans ori farTo kbili. tyavgadaZromil cxvirs zeviT swevs da kvlav iwyebs tiktiks. leila! Sen TojinebTan unda ijde. bedma ki... obloba da Semdeg oblis movla garguna. naadrevi dedoba gaswavla. Sen oblobaSi gaatare Seni bavSvoba da bavSvobaSive wilad xvda axali oblisaTvis kalTa gadagefara. Seni susti mklavebiT didi siTbo migeca. deda gamxdariyavi cameti wlis asakSi da misi mZime saqmianoba Segesrulebina. naadrevad Sen iyavi deda da Svili arasdros yofilxar. gulSi ikrav Sens lamaz nonas da veRarc amCnev am bavSvebSi gansxvavebas, Soridan ori angelozi icqireba da veRarc ansxvaveb nonas mSvenier saxes leilas gacrecili saxis fonze. leilas erTi warbi zeviT auzidia da manZili Tvalis gugidan warbamde, raRac saocrad meocnebes xdis mis ulamazes saxes. Tvals irgvliv Sekruli wre mwuxarebis xazebad rialebs warsulis gamo, daJinebuli, moZravi gamoxedva SeSfoTebul elferad efineba mis saxes. _ sul SenTan minda viyo. xom aRar waval deidasTan? - ekiTxeba nona. _ rogorc Sen ginda, Cemo gogona, - magram mis xmaSi sisustea da es abrazebs patara mamidas. fexmotexil cxens kuTxisaken miaTrevs gogona. Semdeg xis TofiT mizanSi iRebs da eSmakurad iRimeba. _ movkali beberi cxeni. _ gana, beberi rom aris, amitom unda mokla? _ xom xedav, erTi fexic ar aqvs. _ mivxedoT. sawolSi CavawvinoT, mourCeba fexi da Seni megobari iqneba. - uxsnis leila.
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mSobiarobas ramdenime kvira aklda, roca gulnari estumra siZes da das dedis Txovna gadasca. _ dedas Zalian moenatre. SemogiTvala, rom wamoxvide da iq
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imSobiaro. Julietas saxe gaubrwyinda, sixaruliT qmars Sexeda . giorgim gauRima. _ rogorc Sen ginda,magram mgzavroba rom ar mogixdes? _ msubuqi manqaniT wavalT. _ ara, me waviyvan. _ mama? mama rogor aris? _ kargad, moxucs aqauroba enatreba. giorgi saxlidan gavida. _ ar giWirs aq cxovreba? - uceb SeekiTxa Julietas. - amdeni saqme, saqoneli. _ leila yoCaRi gogoa, mexmareba. _ mama mainc nawyenia Seni saqcielis gamo. moulodneli iyo misTvis es yvelaferi, Cems mtrebs Svilebs gauzrdis Cemi qaliSvilio. aivanze leila amovida. ukanaskneli sityvebi moismina da Sedga. _ gulo, ra SuaSia Cemi qmari an me? me giorgi miyvarda, imitom gavyevi. Senc ase moiqceodi. _ SeiZleba. Sen ar dagadanaSaulebs, arc giorgis. mamisaTvis ki es ambavi tragediaa. dakarguli Zmis aCrdili mosvenebas ar aZlevs. _ sergo xom ugzo-ukvlod daikarga? _ misi dakargva sxvanair dros da sxvanair viTarebaSi moxda. _ Seni saqme rogor aris, vaso rogor Sexvda Sens ganSorebas. _ mamaCemis didi survili iyo Sevrigebodi da SevrigdiT. _ ra kargia. _ magram bednieri mainc ar var. _ ratom? xom giyvarda? _ megona, magram male mivxvdi, rom ar myvarebia. Juli, yvelaferi gavakeTe, yvelaferi viRone, rom Semyvareboda, magram sul tyuilad. SevrigdiT, movaleobis gamo da kidev imis gamo, rom Znelia, icxovro uqmrod. ganaTxovari qali arc Tu kargi saxeliT sargeblobs sazogadoebaSi. sjobia, qmari myavdes, Tundac usiyvarulod, vidre mravalni meCxirebodnen TvalebSi. _ ver getyvi, gulo. me maseTi ram ar ganmicdia. me mxolod erTi miyvars da masac vuyvarvar. danarCeni ... amitom ra saqme maqvs, Tu giorgis mamam Cemi biZa daapatimra. leila karebs aekra da ise datova aivani, rom debs misi Semosvla da gasvla ar gaegoT. _ `mgoni mamaCemze hqondaT saubari, - gaognebulma es gaifiqra gulSi. Julieta giorgim ramdenime dReSi waiyvana mSoblebTan. mgzavrobam cudad imoqmeda mis janmrTelobaze, amis gamo iZulebuli gaxda, ramdenime dRe gaCerebuliyo. naZaladevma Tavazianobam, romelic siZem coleulobis ojaxSi igrZno, uxerxul mdgomareobaSi Caayena.
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inana, colis dis rCevas rom mousmina. amitom rogorc ki moikeTa avadmyofma, iqauroba datova. _ yvelaferi Sematyobine. rogor iqnebi, me male Camoval. _ qvewarmavali, - am sityviT gaacila nikom siZe, romelTanac ori gadabmuli sityva ar uTqvams. Julietas mama ar enaxa, rac gaTxovda. erT weliwadsac ver gaelxo misi guli. aman Zalian imoqmeda mSobiare qalze. fizikurma da sulierma daZabulobam imsxverpla Julieta. mxolod ramdenime Tve icocxla mSobiarobis Semdeg. giorgis xelebze dalia suli. patara nona ki darCa udedod. Julietas moulodnelma sikvdilma Tavzari dasca sanaTesaos. magram nikos mwuxarebam yvelas gza auria. is dasabmeli xariviT gaxda. sasowarkveTilebam ukidures mdgomareobamde miiyvana. sayvareli Svilis dakargvam sagonebelSi Caagdo. aman kidev gaumZafra giorgisadmi siZulvili. Tvalis dasanaxad SeiZula is umweo arseba, romlis gaCenamac imsxverpla misi Svili. _ ras merCodnen? ar eyo mamamiss Cveni ojaxis daRupva? Zveli tanjva risTvis gamiaxla misma Svilma? ar davinaxo Cems saxlSi misi naSieri. sergos SviliSvilmac ubedureba momitana. _ momaSoreT, - dagubebuli braziT ambobda niko. _ cota wamoizrdeba da waiyvans mama. uqalo ojaxia, sad gavgzavno? im codvas, Cveni codvac ginda, mivumatoT? - awynarebda guldamZimebuli ufrosi qaliSvili. loginad Cavardnili deda arafers ambobda, fiqrobda mkvdar qaliSvilze. arc nikos sayvedurobda, arc bavSvis tirili esmoda. _ Svilo, ratom dedaSeni ar mokvda, ratom? - erTTavad am sityvebs imeorebda da sivrceSi uazrod icqireboda. maTze nakleb mwuxarebaSi rodi iyo Cavardnili giorgi, arc mas Seuxedia am bavSvisaTvis, romlis gaCenas emsxverpla misTvis sayvareli adamiani. wasvlisas gulnaras daubara: _ mixede bavSvs! gemudarebi, wamoizrdeba da waviyvan, axla, ici, CemTvis Znelia. _ gasagebia. erTaderTi isev gulnari aRmoCnda, romelmac nonas movla- patronoba ikisra. _ xom vicodi, rom Cvens Soris megobruli da naTesauri kavSiri ar damyardeboda. ar damijereT. pirveli Sen iyavi, Cemo ubeduro gogo! giyvarda? ai, xom xedav, maRla RmerTma ar gapatia, Torem mSobiarobas aTasSi erTi Tu gadayolia, Tan is erTi Sen rogor iyavi? RmerTma ar gapatia ubeduris SvilTan kavSiri. is Zlieria da yvelafris gakeTeba SeuZlia. Cven varT brmebi. sergo, Sen amogiwyda jiSi da jilagi. _ cudia, roca kaci qaliviT iwyevleba. jiSTan ra ginda, gana am umanko bavSvmac rame dagiSava? - sayvedurobda gulnari.
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_ raRa ar damiSava, mosvlisTanave Svili momikla. _ dawynardi, saqmes aRaraferi eSveleba. gogonas gavzrdiT da imis magivrad gveyoleba, - amSvidebda gulnari. _ magis meti aravin gaizarda sergos ojaxSi. didxans tiroda patara leila sayvareli rZlisa da megobris dakargvas. misTvis meored daobleba iyo JulietasTan daSoreba. deda bavSvobaSi moukvda, omis damTavrebis Semdeg, xan naTesavebs iyo Sekedlebuli da xan keTili mezoblebi Seifarebdnen. giorgi TbilisSi wavida da institutSi gaagrZela swavla. warCinebiT swavlobda. upriani iyo misi institutSi datoveba, magram TxuTmeti wliT patara daiko soflis amara ver datova, arc keriis gaciveba undoda. saTno Julietas Semosvlam ojaxi didi deduri siTboTi aavso. ganaTda yvelaferi da bavSvis damZrali guli raRac saocarma sinaTlem gaaciskrovana da... uceb yvelaferi Tavdayira daemxo. ZmisSvili, roca leilam pirvelad naxa, wlinaxevris iyo. axali fexadgmuli. bavSvma xelebi gaSala da mTeli sxeuliT leilas mkerds miekra. _ noniko, Cemo noniko- cremlebi scvioda leilas da ver garkveuliyo, mas sWirdeboda am ususuri angelozis alersi, Tu bavSvs enatreboda deda da am jer umweo gogonaSi mis magiers daeZebda. didxans idga leila, mkerdSi ZmisSvili Caekra da usityvod tiroda. gaocebuli, didi Savi TvalebiT akvirdeboda bavSvi mis saxes, gabutuli tuCebi zeviT aewia da pawawa xeliT cremlebs swmendda, iqve gverdiT idgnen vaso, gulnari da Temuri. isini aRelvebulni uyurebdnen am scenas. _ ratom? ratom Cemo gogona! Senc CemsaviT udedod, ratom unda gazrdiliyavio, - uTxra bolos. amis Semdeg Camohyavda disSvili mamasTan, ramdenime dRe rCebodnen. Semdeg leila mihyavdaT sazafxulo ardadagebze da mTel zafxuls nona da leila erTad atarebdnen.
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dReebi dReebs misdevs. kvira kviras da erTferovan cxovrebaSi ileva weliwadi. davdivar da ukan damdevs Seni aCrdili, kvlav meWikWikebi, ukan damsdev da daJinebiT mikakuneb gulis kedlebze. midis fiqrebiT datvirTuli bneli Rameebi, sibneleSi varskvlavebiviT miRimis Seni Tvalebi da raRacas mTxov. irgvliv sibnelea da am did saxlSi yvelasagan mitovebuli var. mxolod Sen xar is erTi, vinc ar damtova marto Cems sulTan, Cems Sav fiqrebTan. vdgebi, fexakrefiT uaxlovdebi Zvel sawer magidas. iq Cemi rveulebia, Cemi wignebi. Tvalebs vxuWav, meSinia, ar waxvide da Senc ar mimatovo. ar waxvide! xom xedav sul marto var am did saxlSi.
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xelebis cecebiT xelSi viReb Savydian rveuls da sinaTles vanTeb. xelSi krTis rveuli, Savi sqelydiani rveuli da vjdebi magidasTan. gvelnakbeniviT viSoreb rveuls, isev vxuWav Tvalebs, yurebSi TiTebs vicob da virindebi. msurs dagiviwyo... ara, Sen ara... Seni ubedurebiT miRebuli tkivili, magram amaod. yoveli wertilidan daJinebiT Semomcqeri. yovel adgilze Seni uspetakesi saxis anarekli melandeba. Tavs varyev. giJi var, giJi, da msurs viyviro. _ wadi. Senc wadi Cemgan. magram ar SemiZlia. _ nu, nu mTxov nurafers, metis atana aRar SemiZlia. Sen xom giyvarda Seni mamida. Seni patara mamida. ho da, moasvene. Tvalwin isev Seni sisxliT SeRebili mkerdia, Seni aRsareba,Seni ukanaskneli sunTqva da Semdeg siCume. saSineli siCume. ar SemiZlia saRi gonebiT aRvwero is ubedureba. amitom gTxov, gemudarebi, momasvene, genacvale. _ mama telegramaa soflidan. biZia trifoni gardaicvala, zeg dasaflavebaa. - gulnarma depeSa mamas gauwoda. _ oh! acxonos biZaCemi RmerTma, oTxmocdaaT welze metis ki iqneboda. _ manqanas SeukveTavs vaso da xval diliT wavideT. gulnarma yvelafris Tadarigi zedmiwevniT zustad daiWira. nona da Temuri moamzada. saWiro wamlebi, rac dedas sWirdeboda, CanTaSi Caawyo. ise rom, diliT gasamgzavreblad mzad iyvnen. saRamo iyo, roca sofelSi mividnen. giorgi colis naTesavebs miegeba. nona gulSi Caikra da didxans hyavda ase mikruli. _ mamiko, me Sen miyvarxar, - miualersa gogonam da oqrosferi kululebi mxrebze SeaTamaSa. _ mec Zalian miyvarxar. ai, Seni mamidac movida. _ leila mamida, genacvale, rogor momenatre, - axla leilas Camoekida bavSvi kiserze. didxans, Zalian didxans hyavda mamidas nona mkerdSi Cakruli. bavSvis Tbili, nazi, mSvenieri xelebi da tani - saocari, ganumeorebeli siyvarulis grZnobas afrqvevda mis sxeulSi. _ Cemo noniko! rodis iqneba, rom me didi viyo da Sen CemTan iyo yovelTvis, xom iqnebi CemTan? _ me axlac minda SenTan viyo, Cemo mamida. meore dRes trifonis dasaflaveba iyo. sofelSi Tavi moeyara nacnobebsa da naTesavebs. erTi saukunis adamians ukanasknel gzaze acilebdnen. giorgi raikomSi iyo dabarebuli. niko, gulnari da vaso gasvenebaSi mogvianebiT wavidnen, leila skolaSi... netavi ar wasuliyo... im RamiT nona mis gverdiT iwva. bavSvi kedlisaken gadabrunebu- 512 -

liyo da tkbilad eZina leila mamidas mklavze. Tavi mis TavTan mietana, SubliT exebodnen erTmaneTs. orive gogonas sunTqva Tanabrad da ritmulad ismoda. leila mTeli Rame gaunZrevlad iwva. eSinoda, bavSvi ar gaeRviZebia. nonas natifi xeli mis mkerdze ido. yurs ugdebda sunTqvaSekruli mis Tanabar sunTqvas. daeloda gaTenebas... gariJraJze rulma mainc mostaca sifxizle da uceb CaeZina... ... kedelze, nonas Tavis maRla, saocari gamosaxuleba gamoikveTa, amazrzenad dabobRavda, uTavo, magram mravalxelebiani arseba. yvela misi nakvTi da moZraoba SiSismomgvreli iyo da saSineli. kedeli usazRvro sivrced qceuliyo da es binZuri saocreba simyrales afqvevda irgvliv. am arsebas moenusxa leila. mas arc adgomis da arc yvirilis Tavi hqonda. xedavda, rogor uaxlovdeboda es saSineleba, magram gogonas arc Zala da arc survili hqonda, rom gaqceoda mas. _ xeli ar axlo! xeli ar axlo! - ismoda Zalian Soridan qalis xma. xma Zalian nacnobi da maxlobeli iyo, magram ver gaerkvia, visi iyo igi. qali maT uaxlovdeboda, sacaa xels gaiwvdis da moaSorebs am urCxuls, magram im ucnaurma sxeulma, uformo, usisxlo da uxorco sxeulma im mravali xelidan erTi maTgani win gaiSvira, xeli gzidan CamoiSora , Semdeg igive xeli nonasa da leilas Soris gasrialda da mkerdTan Rrma iara daamCnia. _ RmerTo, miSvele! - SesZaxa leilam, Tavisi xeli daado nonas mkerds da igrZno Sededebulma sisxlma dausvela mTeli sxeuli. _ RmerTo, miSvele!... SesZaxa gogonam da gamoiRviZa, sunTqva Seekra. guli saguleSi aRar hqonda. gulSi Caikra akankalebulma bavSvi da tirili daiwyo. mixvda, rom naxa sizmari, rom araferi ucxo sxeuli kedelze ar daxoxavda, magram saSineli sizmari iyo. Tumca diliT karg xasiaTze datova bavSvebi bebiasTan, skolaSi mainc ver moisvena, raRac Seucnobeli SiSi dastrialebda da meore gakveTilis damTavrebis Semdeg leilam maswavlebels sTxova gaTavisufleba. welmowyvetilma CanTaSi Caawyo wignebi, angariSmiucemlad ezoSi gavida da roca saxlisaken mimaval gzas daadga, guli Seuqanda da Sedga. _ Temuri, bebo, saxlSi aravin aris, aba, saswrafod isauzmeT da Semdeg ezoSi CadiT! - dauZaxa bebiam SviliSvilebs. _ mamida skolaSia? - ikiTxa nonam _ daibara, male movalo. _ gaige, Temo. mamida male mova. xom gixaria, me ki mixaria. Temuri oTxi wliT ufrosi iyo nonaze. nona oTxi wlis gaxda, Tumca asakiT gansxvavebuli iyvnen, mainc kargad ewyobodnen erTmaneTs. erTi saaTis Semdeg bavSvi ezoSi CauSva. _ bebo ! bavSvs araferi dauSavo, gaufrTxildi,- moxuci samza- 513 -

reuloSi Sevida. bavSvebma erTxans ezoSi irbines. xboebi da patara batknebi daaTvalieres. _ ramdeni goWebia? ra Casuqebulebi arian, - icinoda nona. Semdeg saxlSi Setrialdnen. _ es Cemi mamidas oTaxia! - auxsna gogonam deidaSvils. _ es ki Cemi mamikosia. _ is Cemi dedikos suraTia. Sen xom icnobdi Cems dedikos. _ vicnobdi. _ me ki ar vicnobdi. - amoioxra nonam _ es mamikos saweri magidaa. uh, ramdeni qaRaldebia. Temurma ujra gamoaRo, Semdeg meore, mesame... _ daxure, ar SeiZleba, mamiko gawyreba. _ uh, ra Zveli revolveria. _ ar aiRo, mogklavs. _ giJo, gana revolveri TiTon klavs kacs. _ Seinaxe, Torem bebos vetyvi. _ moica noniko. me revolvers pirvelad vxedav. _ Seinaxe. _ xom xedav, Zvelia. saTamaSo revolveria. _ es lulaa, aqedan tyvia gamova. es ki... - TiTi amosdo sasxlets. nonam xeli gaiSvira da iaraRs CasWida xeli. _ momeci, mamikosia, Seinaxe! - sasowarkveTiT daiZaxa bavSvma da SeSinebuli Tvalebi sasrols miapyro. _ gana, xelis mokidebiT hklavs vinmes? - didi kaciviT auxsna Temurma. _ genacvale, Temo! Seinaxe, mama gajavrdeba. gogonam lulas waavlo xeli da orive iaraRs daeWidnen. ezoSi leila Semovida. _ wuxeli qali rom vnaxe, ratom ar vicani maSinve, is xom Julieta iyo, - fiqri dasrulebuli ar hqonda, rom oTaxidan revolveris xma gaisma. leilas Tavze samyaro ayiravda. Sedga. irgvliv saSineli siCume Camowva da am samarismsgavs siCumeSi Temuris yvirili gaisma. _ vaime, nona! bebia samzareulodan gamovarda. leila kibeze aiWra. kari SeaRo da gasisxlianebul nonasTan Sedga, gaqvavda. TiTqos viRacam xeli Semoswvda da ToTxmeti wlis gogonas samudamod bavSvoba aaglija. _ Cemo mamida... miSvele... _ nu geSinia! - raRac aramiwieri simSvide daeufla leilas. yvelafers mixvda. mixvda, rom bavSvis sicocxle ukanasknel wuTebSi iyo, magram gadarCenis ukanaskneli Sanss CaWidebulma bavSvi xelSi aitaca. sirbiliT gadaWra ezo, quCa.
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_ Cqara, Cqara, miSveleT, - yviroda, - bavSvi sisxlisagan icleba.

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_ niko biZia, SemiSviT. Cemi sisxli mieciT, Cemi, - mudariT ambobda leila. _ Sededebulia misi sisxli! mis sisxls aravis sisxli ar miudga. _ arc Cemi? - xelebze daixeda, masze Semxmariyo umanko bavSvis sisxli. _ arc Seni, - Tqva moxucma da iqve, qvafenilze Caikeca. kari gaiRo. saoperacio oTaxidan ganadgurebuli giorgi gamovida. xalxi nikos garSemo trialebda. raikomis meore mdivanma daimartoxela giorgi. _ kadnierebad nu CamiTvliT. magram saTqmeli unda iTqvas. giorgim kiTxvis niSniT Sexeda. _ miliciaSi davreke. aqti Sedga, iq Caweres TiTqos bavSvi xidan Camovarda. _ rogor? - gaawyvetina giorgim. _ pirvels moveTaTbire, iman ase gadawyvita. _ cota dro momeci. damnaSavem pasuxi unda agos. revolveri mamaCemis iyo. yvelaferi Cemi daudevrobis bralia.
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akankalebulma, sustma xelebma gulSi Caikra gayinuli sxeuli. tuCebze daewafa, rom Tavisi suli mieca bavSvisaTvis, magram saSineli sikvdilis suni asdioda sayvarel tuCebs, miwismagvari. _ Sededebulia misi sisxli! mis sisxls aravis sisxli ar miudgeba. _ isev moesma yurTan da gaaJrJola. da ijda patara Wirisufali. cremli ra aris, isic gaSroboda. mTeli sxeuliT moSvebuli aRaraferze fiqrobda.
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dReebi dReebs scvlis da ileva TveebiT akinZuli weliwadi. skolidan dabrunebuli wignebs uwesrigod mihyris magidaze da iq garbis, sadac patara aCrdili uxmobs... da ase meordeba yoveldRe. yoveldRe zis civi lodis gverdiT. ra maxlobelia axla igi misTvis. ar tiris, saxeze arcerTi ZarRvi ar utokavs, magram... fiqri... CurCuli... maxlobeli da Zvirfasi da mainc mosmena ar ZaluZs fiqriT dauZlurebul obols. ...landebi, azrebi, sityvebi, da grZeli gauTavebeli winadade- 515 -

bebi. mosveneba aRar aris misgan. saRamoze brundeba saxlSi. taatiT uaxlovdeba wignebiT mofantul saskolo magidas. magram am magidas, patara sawols, baliSs, sadac Tavi edo mis sayvarel arsebas, Tvalebi aubamT da vedrebiT misCerebian gacrecil qals. _ ras mTxov? - kvnesis leila - ra ginda Cemgan? - da mosxletiT ecema im baliSze, nonas suni rom SerCenia axlac. _ rogor unda mosveneba, magram CurCuli, mudara, Txovna ar wydeba mis yurebTan. ... xsna... sad aris sulis xsna.. wamoiWra, Ria fanjridan gaxeda sasaflaos. mis saxlidan igi kargad Cans. kargad sCans is ori sveti, dedasa da Svils mkerdze rom adevT. Semotrialda, saskolo rveuli amoiRo CanTidan da lamazad waawera ydaze_ `Ria fanjridan. erTi kidev dafiqrda, Ria fanjridan kidev Seavlo Tvali im svetebs da moeCvena, mkvdreTiT amdgarma sulebma gaijiriTes mis win da raRac sityvebi CasZaxes. asoebi asoebs misdevs, sityva sityvas da ivseba TeTri Tabaxi. dRes Rame scvlis, Rame dRes... zis leila mxrebSi moxrili magidasTan da Seucnobeli, siamovnebiT ealerseba nonas, misi muzis saTaves.
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Zmao, giorgi! vici, gawuxebs Cemze fiqri, me xom erTaderTi davrCi am qveynad, visTanac axlo naTesaoba gakavSirebs. mec mawuxebs Senze fiqri, magram es fiqri, ver warmoidgen, ramxela nugeSia CemTvis, radgan marTalia, Sors xar, magram mainc xar Cemi sisxli da SemiZlia cocxal adamianze vifiqro. rogor viqnebi, amas aRar unda axsna. nugeSic ar minda. me da Sens Soris iseTi asakobrivi sxvaobaa, zogjer meCveneboda, rom Cemi mama iyavi. aq rom iyavi, yovelTvis mokrZalebuli grZnoba mqonda Sens mimarT. iseTi, mamisadmi rom unda hqondes qaliSvils. is, risi Tqmac minda SenTvis axla, aq rom iyo, ver getyodi, werilis dawera ufro advilia. albaT imitom, rom werilis wakiTxvis dros, me ver davinaxav, ra STabeWdilebas moaxdens igi Senze da arc dagelodebi, ras mipasuxeb. guSin Cvenma `lamazom xbo moigo. saZroxea. me da nini naTlia vusxediT mTeli Rame. keTili adamianebi arian sofelSi. SeZlebisamebr cdiloben, Semimsubuqon es mZime dReebi. keTili adamianebi arian, amaze mindoda dafiqrebuliyavi. mama ar maxsovs, dedac im dros wavida Cvengan, Zlivs rom SevZeli misi damaxsovreba da keTili adamianebis amara viyavi mudam.
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me ar vici, iqneb mkacria gansja. me araviTari ufleba ar maqvs, ganvsajo mamaCemi. skolaSi istoriis maswavlebelma erTxel ase miTxra: mamaSeni samoqalaqo omis gmiri iyoo. ar vici, namdvilad iyo gmiri mamaCemi, Tu ara. imasac ver vxvdebi, marTali iyo es sityvebi, Tu damcina. maSin siamayis grZnoba dameufla, iseTi, bavSvebs rom mosdiT. mediduradac ki gadavxede Tanatolebs. Semdeg ki, me TviTon ar vici, rodis SemoiWra saSineli eWvi Cems gulSi. isic ki ar maxsovs, vin iyo is pirveli, romelmac mamaCemis warsulze damafiqra. zeviTac vTqvi, me araviTari ufleba ar maqvs, Svilis msjavri gamovutano ucnob mamas. kidev da kidev bodiSs vixdi misi sulis winaSe, magram mas Semdeg, rac Cvengan wavida ori adamiani, Tu saTvalavSi ar CavTvliT mamas da dedas. erTi avbediTi azri amekviata, saSineli da amazrzeni. TiTqos saidanRac sisxlis yivili ismis da samagieros iTxovs Cvengan. skolaSi akrZalulia yvela saxis religia. RmerTis arc Sen gwams, vici, da miuxedavad amisa, me mwams, rom samyaroSi aris raRac Zala, romliTac gawonasworebulia samyaro: dRe da Rame, zafxuli da zamTari, gazafxuli da Semodgoma, sicocxle da sikvdili, bedniereba da ubedureba, sikeTe da boroteba. is sisxli mamaCemis kiserze rom modis, xom ar iTxovs samagieros? me ar SemiZlia vamtkico, rom Cveni ubedureba RmerTis mier gamotanili sasjeli iyo da Tu es asea, udanaSaulo adamianebma ratom zRes samagiero? ra daaSava nonam, am ucodvelma angelozma. nuTu aseTi sastikia RmerTis samarTali. Cemo Zmao! Tu kidev ismis sisxlis yivili, umjobesia me wamiyvanos! me, xom im ubedur wels dabadebuli adamiani var. Seni daiko, leila. 1952 w. `.. zogi adamiani xangrZlivi cxovrebiT cxovrobs, mza cxovrebiT, xeli rom ar gaunZreviaT. zogma memkvidreobiT wodeba, Tanamdeboba da qoneba ise miiRo, rogorc sakuTari dedis rZe. aseTi adamiani erTi, uSinaarso cxovrebiT cxovrobs, romlisTvisac sixarulic mosabezrebelia. Sen ki, Cemi patara, magram didi sulis daiko! bevri adamianis cxovrebiT icxovre. Sen, sustma da sayvarelma gogonam SesZeli, ramdenime adamianis mZime bedi sakuTari mxrebiT gezida da erTxelac ar dagikvnesia sakuTar uiRblobaze. SenSi ramdenime adamiania, Torem erTi ver gauZlebda imas, rac Sen gadaitane. ara, amas imitom ar vambob, rom Sen oboli xar, oblebi sxvebic bevri yofilan. arc marto Sen xar is, sayvareli axlobeli rom dakarga.
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Seni suli sul sxva, saSineli kataklizmebis winaSe aRmoCnda da Sen moerie mas. rac Seexeba imas, rom iyo Tu ara Cvens ubedurebaSi sisxlis yivili, rogorc Sen ambob, amaze bevri mifiqria da bolos erTi daskvna gamovitane: es ase rom iyos, pirvel rigSi, ufali pasuxs Cven, mis Svilebs mogvTxovda, Cven ki aq varT. Cemi Svilis sikvdili, Cemi daudevrobis brali iyo. swored amis mizezia Cemi Svilis sikvdili. me ki erTdroulad damnaSavec gavxdi da dazarebulic. maRali rangis adamianTa mier SemoTavazebuli sicrue Cemi sulisaTvis miuRebeli iyo, albaT Cems adgilze mamaCemic ase moiqceoda, movixdi sasjels. magram ufro didi sasjeli sakuTari sulidan rom modis, mouxdeli damrCeba sikvdilamde. msayvedurob, arc Sen gwamso RmerTi. me mwams Zala samyaroSi, romelsac adamianebi dasabamidan RmerTs uwodeben. me mwams keTili RmerTi, qristec mwams da yoveli salocavi, magram yvelaze metad mwams adamiani, vis sulSic RmerTia Casaxuli. qriste xom mxsnelia da Tu mas Cvens gulSi mivcemT binas, sakuTar Tavs vargebT da sxvebsac. es unda SesZlo Cemo patara, magram didi sulis gogonav! madloba keTil adamianebs, romlebic am mZime dReebSi Sens gverdiT arian. minda davbrunde mxolod imisTvis, rom Sen gagaxaro. Seni Zma, giorgi ori saskolo rveuli ifurcleba nonas saflavis qvaze. usityvod kiTxulobs leila da elis CurCuls. maxlobels... zis da elis. patara gogona uaxlovdeba ciuri mnaTobiviT. xeliT exeba mis Tmebs da mis saxes. _ aRar idardo, leila mamida. ai, xeli gamomiwode da Semexe. SenTan var da arsad wavsulvar. Sen sulSic var, Cemo mamida da ar movmkvdarvar. Sen icocxle, radgan me SenSi vcocxlob. Tvalebi daxuWa patara mamidam, rom es naTeba didxans darCeniliyo masSi. _ `qriste xom mxsnelia da Tu mas Cvens gulSi mivcem binas sakuTar Tavsac vargebT da sxvebsac. - isev gaxmianda Zmis sityvebi. _ nona, noniko! unda vicocxlo, rom Sen icocxlo Cem gulSi. iqneb es aris Cemi sulis xsna. `Zmao, giorgi! guSin sasaflaodan dabrunebulma saydarSi Seviare. Zvel karebze daJanguli boqlomi gatexili damxvda. SigniT Sesvlisas Smoris, nakelis da autaneli sibinZuris suni dametaka cxvirSi. mosvril iatakze Tagvi darboda. gaZarcvul sakurTxevelTan Sevdeqi. Tvali Sevavle SelanZRul kedlebs, SeTeTrebul xatebs... locva mindoda, locva, am gaubedurebul salocavSi... daviCoqe da Tvalebi davxuWe. ar maxsovs, ramden xans videqi muxlisTavebze,
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ver movigone, sad unda yofiliyo RvTismSoblis xati, radgan me mas ganadgurebuls moveswari. erTxel isic ki miTxres skolaSi, eklesiaSi zari mamaSenis brZanebiT Camoxsneso. didxans videqi daCoqili, Tvalcremliani da vloculobdi CemTvis, eklesiisaTvis, im Camoxsnili zarisTvis. TvaldaxuWuls galoba Camesma, zecidan modioda es galoba da Cems win RvTismSoblis xati aRimarTa naTlis gvirgviniT. _ RmerTo, Zliero! cocxalma saxem gaielva yrmaSi da naTlad gamomecxada yrmaSi nonas saxe. sixarulisagan sunTqva Semekra. Tvalebi gavaxile. wamovdeqi. RimiliT movavle Tvali salocavs, Seginebuls da gaubedurebuls. aRarsad Canda RvTismSobeli da aRarc galoba ismoda zecidan. Tagvi darboda mxolod. SiSiT movavle Tvali am samarcxvino sanaxaobas, SiSi imdenad Zlieri iyo, locva veRar Sevkadre RmerTs! Zmao, giorgi! Zalian mindoda Sevxvewnodi ufals, is xom yovlis SemZlea. `nu moTxovs Svilebs mamis vals. nu mokiTxavs da nu azRvevinebs STamomavalT winaparTa codvas. yovel adamians sakuTari qmedebisaTvis sakuTriv miegos.
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pepela, pepela, TeTri, wiTlad dawinwkluli pepela dafrinavda mis saflavze da ase megona, nonas suli Casaxlebuliyo masSi. nazi da lamazi pepela, dafarfatebda mis saflavze da RmerTs vevedrebodi, rom didi xnis sicocxle mieca misTvis. pepela dafrinavda, wiTlad dawinwkluli xalebiT.

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roca karebs saguldagulod ketavdi, me erTxel kidev gadmomxede da TiTqos mudariT gadmomelaparake: _ gareT ar gaxvide, Svilo, Tu TviTmfrinavis xma gaigono, deida olia dagiZaxebT da sangarSi CadiT. man icis, rogor unda moiqceT!. kari miixura da oTaxSi davrCiT me da Cemi ucmrosi da, tonia. igi iwva patara sawolSi da mSvidad eZina. sulma wamZlia. saSinlad mominda misi gaRviZeba da germaneliviT daSineba, magram momagonda, rom deda amas ar mapatiebda da fanjaraze avbobRdi, matareblis ageba daviwye kubikebiT. ar vici, ra dro gavida mas Semdeg, rac kari miixura. arc is maxsovs, rogor gavCndi ukacriel quCaSi, sadac mSoblebs gamoparuli ori mezoblis bavSvi SevniSne. cxadia, dedis darigeba ar momgonebia, arc misi mudariT, TiTqos SiSiT naTqvami sityvebi gamxsenebia. me bavSvi viyavi da bavSvebTan wavedi. misi sityvebi axla maxsovs Zalian kargad. SeiZleba iTqvas, garkveviT, roca didi manZiliT davSordi bavSvobas da roca zRapariviT lamazi gaxda Senze ocneba. irgvliv samarisebuli siCume iyo da bavSvebic gaverTeT damtvreul manqanaze seirnobiT. am manqanaSi rig-rigobiT vsxdebodiT. erTi ijda da veweodiT danarCeni ori. ase meordeboda manam, sanam mziT ganaTebul da erT dros lamazad aSotil xeebs Soris ar gamoCnda faSistis TviTmfrinavi, rogorc urCxuli da sadRac Cvens axlos yumbarebis jeri ar Camohyara. SiSisgan acaxcaxebulni, udardelad moTamaSe bavSvebi, asfaltze davcvivdiT. ar vtirodiT, arc saSvelad vuxmobdiT vinmes, Cven vicodiT, rom mxolod Zirs dawola gadagvarCenda. vcdilobdiT, aravis SevemCnieT, rom dedaCemTan ar davebezRebineT. me dedaCemis meSinoda. bavSvebi qvafenilze viweqiT da gvesmoda axla sxva ubnidan yumbarebis xma. _ jer aq arian fricebi... _ momesma patara megobris xma. mas muStebi SeekumSa, warbebi SeeWmuxna da TvalebSi imxela zizRi aRbeWdoda, rom me vigrZeni am qvafenilze marto ar viyavi gaSotili. _ oh, RmerTo, lora, es Sen xar? gaisma dedaCemis xma, man akankalebuli xelebiT agvitata samive da ezoSi Segvyara. datuqsvis dro ar iyo. mTeli siswrafiT gadavirbineT ezo. deida olias naxevrad mZinare Cemi da sardafidan amohyavda. _ lora saxlSi ar damxvda, dro ar iyo, momeZebna. _ TiTqos TviTon yofiliyo damnaSave, ise Cailaparaka deida oliam da brazianad gadmomxeda. dedam tonia gamoarTva mezoblis qals, saxlSi Semiyvana da Semdeg patara isev sawolSi Caawvina. dedas erTi sityvac ar dauZravs.
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kuTxeSi mimiyvana da wvrilad danayil marilze muxlebiT damayena. gulamomjdari vtirodi, vslukunebdi, magram patiebas mainc ar gTxovdi deda! ver gTxovdi, radgan Sen Cemze nakleb rodi tirodi. me mtkioda muxlebi da Senc gtkioda, magram muxlebi ki ara, dedis didi guli gtkioda. dedis guli-ganumeorebeli guli, amitomac ase Seubraleblad dasaje sakuTari Tavic da bavSvobas monatrebuli Seni xuTiode wlis gogona. bevrs, Zalian bevrs dauweria dedis usazRvro siyvarulze Svilisadmi, siyvarulze, roca yvelaferi SvilisTvis Seuwiravs. bevri legenda da miTi Seqmnila dedaSvilobis am metad amaRlebul, tkbil da zogjer simwriT savse urTierTobaze. axals verafers vityvi, me mxolod Zalian cota unda vTqva im did danaklisze, rac Tan sdevs udedo Svilebs. roca izrdebi, yalibdebi, roca swavlob da cxovrebis did gzaze gadixar, roca sakuTar ojaxs qmni da samSoblos bavSvebs uzrdi, TviTon xar deda da am grZel gzaze erTxelac ar gilocavs dedis didi, siyvaruliT savse guli cxovrebis gzas. Sens gverdiT ar dgas yvelaze didi megobari, roca misi nugeSi ar avsebs Sens sicocxles, magram mainc dgas SenTan, rogorc wmindani, rogorc mkvdreTiT aRmdgari qriste, rogorc ocneba da tkbili zRapari. yovelTvis, yovel wams, bednierebis Tu ubedurebasTan WidilSi Sen grZnob, gaqvs da ara gaqvs mTeli guli da grZnob, rom naxevari sicocxle aklia Sens sicocxles, naxevari bedniereba-Sens bednierebas. ramdeni TeTrad gaTenebuli Rame misaubria SenTan, vtirodi da geCurCulebodi Cvens Sesaxeb, xan TvalebdaxuWuli gvikravdi gulSi. xelebiT dageZebdi, Cemi sawolis kuTxeSi rom iyavi Camomjdari da cremlian Tvalebs mimSralebdi. vxedavdi, roca Zili Tvalebze binds gadamakravda, roca alionic moaRwevda da mamlis yivilis xma gaismoda sofelSi, Sen frTxilad dgebodi, erTxel kidev Seasworebdi sabans welmowyvetiT da SiSnarevi TvalebiT Sordebodi sawols. meCveneboda, mis zRvisfer TvalebSi iseve mudara iyo, rogorc maSin, yumbarebi rom awvimda Cvens qveyanas. sibnelesTan erTad qreboda Seni aCrdili da Seni gaqvavebuli mSvenebac. visac CemsaviT ganucdia es aunazRaurebeli danaklisi, gaigebs im tkbil SegrZnebas, rac Tan axlda am moCvenebas. es miwaze mosuli miTiuri netareba iyo. es SegrZneba im feriebis frenas hgavda, romelic uhaero sivrceSi dasrialeben da arasdros Camodian dedamiwaze. es amaRlebuli siwmindea. risi gagebac miwaze mcxovrebT ar SegviZlia. es SegrZneba dedamiwis amoxeTqili kvnesaa. sxvisi ra giTxraT da es SegrZneba mimRerda nanas da maZlevda tkbil sityvas, darigebas. mxolod am xmas vusmendi, mxolod am xmis mjeroda. vicodi, rom bedniereba iyo es xma. da kidev is ramdenime

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momenti dedaCemis cxovrebidan, romelic ase lamazi zRapariviT SemorCa Cems mexsierebas.
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raRac faci-fuci idga Cvens saxlSi. aRelvebuli dedaCemi bargs hkravda. me da Cemi da, tonia muxlebze vusxediT Rrmad moxucebul kacs da TeTr wvers rig-rigobiT vuvarcxnidiT. Semdeg sabargo manqanaSi Caawyves Sekruli fuTebi da... albaT muxlebze gveZina, radgan mgzavroba aRar maxsovs, magram roca orjonikiZe karga didi manZiliT davtoveT ukan da daTovlil kavkasionze SevdgiT fexi... axlad Tvalwin midgas... saRamos kavkasionis uReltexilze, romeliRac samxedro punqtis gverdiT, mdinaris piras babuam cecxli gaaCaRa. dedam bavSvebi sabnebSi CafuTna. am dros viRac samxedro piri mogviaxlovda. igi didi Cinis sCanda. maxsovs, man ramdenime SekiTxva misca dedas: _ guSin faSistebs xom ar auRiaT orjonikiZe? _ ara, mas ver aiReben. _ mtkiced Tqva deda, arasdros damaviwydeba arc es sityvebi, arc cecxlisfrad alewili saxe. Sen ukrainelo qalo, ideqi ruseT-saqarTvelos SesayarTan da mrisxaned iyurebodi. Seni lurji Tvalebi saidanac TiTqos im wuTSive grZnobdi omis susxs, yumbarebis setyvas, ukrainaSi daRupul TanamoZmeTa gminvas, poltavaze daRvril wminda sisxls. me vxedav Sens mokumul tuCebs da ase darCi Cems xsovnaSi Sen, Cemo, ganuzomelo tkivilo. marTalia, rom amboben, bunebaSi araferi ikargebao, erTi kvdeba da meoreni amodian misi saxeSeucvleli, amodian, rom gaagrZelon bunebis kanonzomierebis gza. erTni kvdebian meoreni ibadebian da agrZeleben sicocxlis gadaxlarTul jaWvs. arc Sen xar mkvdari deda, kidev metic, Sen CvenTan xar maSinac, roca Senze ar vfiqrob. roca kari gaiReba da Seni TvalebiT gamicinebs Cemi biWi, Seni saxis feris idumalebas moitans, mixaria da minda, xmamaRla viyviro. Sen gaigono da iq, ukrainaSic gaigonon Senma TanamoZmeebma - es Sen xar deda!
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giJiviT moeqaneba rioni. zviadi mTebidan wamosuli mexiviT askdeba mis kalTebs da TeTr qafebad efineba mogrovebul lodebs. is nel-nela adnobs sal sip qvebs. raionis kalTebzea Sefenili sofeli Wiora, imis zeviT kidev erTi sofeli da Semdeg kavkasionis qedi daTovlili qedebiT. soflis aqeT TmaWRara loRorulis wveri mosCans da iqidan monaqrol qars moaqvs misi sunTqva. am zRapariviT mSvenier mxareSi, sadac ar aRwevs, arc orTqlmavlis kivili da arc qarxnis kvamli, sadac erTmaneTs emijneba ca, Tovli da simwvane, sadac mTis ankara wyaroebi tkbil nanasaviT rikrikebs sul axlos Cvens gulebTan, sadac am mSvenieri samyaros saidumloebis
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saTave dResac ucnobia CemTvis, gaSenebulia sofeli Wiora, namdvili mTis sofeli. am lamaz sofelSi, sadac erTmaneTze mijriT aris aSenebuli qviTkiris sxvadasxva Senobebi, zogi maRali, zogic dabali, zogic farTo aivnebiT da erTmaneTTan gadasasvleli kibeebiT, sadac iseTi viwro quCebia, rom samanqanod zoggan arc ki gamodgeba, sadac iseTi axloa mTebi da masze gadmokidebuli naZvebi, rom fiqrob, sadacaa, xels movkideb, meTqi. sadac morze zis TeTrwvera babua, tkbili, rogorc dedis rZe da SviliSvilebiT garSemortymuli did zRapars hyveba. ai, aseT sofelSi mogviyvana babuam Cven da deda 1942 wels. WioraSi orsarTuliani naxevradmoTavebuli saxli edga babuas. qveviT, sadac cxovreba SeiZleboda, Sedgeboda erTi sajalabo da sami pawawina oTaxisgan. es oTaxebi navaraudevi iyo sami vaJisTvis, swored erT maTganSi davbinavdiT Cven. _ Svilo, lora, Tomas dauZaxe! _ yurSi wasCurCula erTxel dedam. me toniasken gaviqeci. roca orive dedasTan movediT, man ori mozrdili karaqwasmuli puris naWeri Cumad Cagvido da gvTxova, Cqara gveWama. maxsovs, orjonikiZeSi am dros kvebis sakiTxi Zalian cudad iyo, deda Tbil wyalSi marils gaadnobda da ase vsvamdiT erT natex purze. ra Tqma unda, es karaqwasmuli didi natexi purebi, romelic amxela jalabs mohpara dedam da Cven qurdulad SegvaWama, Zalian didi fufuneba iyo da maxsovs isic, rogor qurdulad ixedeboda SeSinebuli TvalebiT, rom Tvali aravis Seeswro. im cxeli puris da karaqis suni am wuTSic cxvirTan ise axlos mcems, TiTqos mas Semdeg samma aTeulma welma ki ara, sam dResac ar gauvlia. mxolod es iyo da es. sxva araferi ar maxsovs Sengan dedaCemo! xan siciliT, xan seriozuli gulistkiviliT vuambobdi maT am ambavs, visac es natexi mohpare da Cven SegvaWame, vuambobdi da mSurda yvelasi, mSurda, visac sakuTari deda adga Tavze da misi mzrunveli xeli ealerseboda. visi sakuTari dedac Tavis Tavs hparavda yvela bednierebas da mas sakuTar Svils aZlevda. ai, axlac, roca ukve naxevari cxovreba gavlie da var oTxi Svilis deda, roca isic, Cemi sakuTvneli haeric msurs Cems Tavs movparo da maT gavunawilo, roca maTze spetaki araferi gamaCnia, ver warmoidgen, rogor maklixar, rogor mWirdebi! Seni SvilebisTvis arasdros ufiqriaT da Tu ufiqriaT, mudam movaleobis gamo. Sens Svilebze fiqriT aravin daRlila. albaT amitom SemorCa Cems mexsierebas es ori puris natexi, axlac TiTqos meZaxi da meCurCulebi. _ gaiqeci, Tomas dauZaxe! _ da gxedav Sen, Seni cisferi TvalebiT SeSinebuli rom ixedebodi karisken, aravis Semoeswro. meti? meti aRaraferi maxsovs, ase Cqara gaTavda Cemi da Seni lamazi zRapari.

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Semdeg? ho, visxediT me da Seni Toma ficrisgan uSnod Sekrul alayafis karTan. visxediT da im gzas gavcqerodiT, romliTac waxvedi da aRar dabrundi. visxediT zogjer daRamebamde da gelodiT, rom aucileblad dabrundebodi da Camoiyvandi mamas. _ Tu deda am saRamomde mainc dabrunda, xels movkideb da aRarsad gavuSveb.- vamSvidebdi qvaze Camoskupebul Tomas da Semdeg orives bebias kalTaze CaZinebuls sizmarSi gvelandebi. _ dRes albaT aRar daigvianebs! _ ukve dilaze veubnebodi daikos da ase dasusulebi visxediT WiSkarTan. _ ras CamomsxdarxarT mand, rusebo!_ gagvekriWa viRac mezoblis axmaxi biWuna. _ dedas velodebiT! _ damtvreuli qarTuliT vupasuxeT. _ dedas elodebian rusebi! _ gaikriWa biWuna da qva gvesrola. _ sulelebo, dedaTqveni xom mokvda? me gafiTrebuli wamovvardi, yvelaze didi qva movZebne da TavSi gavartyi. oh, rogor mZulda es axmaxi biWi? tiriliT saxlSi mivcvivdiT da yvelaferi slukuniT movyeviT. karebSi TeTrwvera babua idga, mas maRali tani da swori mxrebi hqonda. momeCvena, rom mas mxrebi ukankalebda, Tvalebidan cremlebi scvioda. mas mivCerebodi, misgan moviTxovdi simarTles, mas ki simarTlis Tqma ar undoda. _ babua, miTxari, marTla mokvda deda? miTxari, sad aris igi? babua gafiTrebuli idga, Semdeg Tavi daxara da wailaparaka: _ im saZagels moutyuebixar. deda omSi wavida da iqidan mamas wamoiyvans? Tvali amarida, joxs xeli wamoavlo da im biWis gasalaxad gaiqca. amis Semdeg aRar davmjdarvarT alayafis karTan. gveSinoda, im saZagel biWs ar daeZaxa, dedaTqveni mokvdao. samagierod, umoajiro aivanze avdiodiT, iqidan kargad Canda mTeli Wiora. Walaze mimofantuli bevri qva, Walaze monTxeuli rioni, gaRma gza, romelic sakanafoebSi ikargeboda, zemoT mTebi da daTovlili loRorulis wveri. gavida dro, dasrulda omi. gadarCenilebi dabrundnen saxlSi. dabrunda mamac. omma brinjaos qandakebad aqcia isini, vinc ver moeswro dabrunebas. aRarc deda dabrunebula ukan. igi aq kavkasionis qedis Ziras, myudro sofel Wioris gverdSi, manqanis katastrofis msxverpli gaxda. urainelma qalma kviracxovlis mwvaned mobibine miwaze hpova samudamo bina. 1974 w. marti

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Cemo kargo baia!

ra moulodneli Znelad saTqmeli mwuxareba dagatyda Tavs. saamayo, sayvareli deda gagiwvalda. vwuxvar mTeli guliT, damijereb! gisamZimreb dedmamiSvilebTan erTad da yvela axlobelTan erTad! Sen dakarge deda, dedaSvilobaSi gamorCeuli. Svilebma arc ki iciT, ra iyo is Tqvens gareSe. dakargeT deda-qali, ze-qali, niWieri, ganaTlebuli, wignieri, urTierTobaSi xuTosani, moqalaqeobrivad valmoxdili erisa da qveynis winaSe, Svilebisa da mTeli monagarisaTvis, valmoxdili naTesavebTan Tu megobrebTan. valmouxdili igi mxolod Tavis TavTan darCa da amis gamo Zalian mecodeba. vici, rom igi gausaZlis tkivils gitovebs! uZluri varT gangebasTan da mogonebasTan vrCebiT. guli ar iviwyebs dedas. RmerTs muSti ar mouRero, man xom dagloca da dagariga?! mTeli guliT misi saxelis ukvdavsayofad sikeTe rCeba, romelsac Sen Zalian xSirad moismen da es siamayes dagibrunebs! dedaSenis saxiT me davkarge megobari, romelTanac saubari da azris gaziareba miadvildeboda. me da toniam sulmnaTi debi cudad davicadeT. iSviaTad var gareT da Tu sadme Sevxvdi deidaSens, ar gaukvirdes, rom davemalo. gTxov... Tumca Sen Txovna rad ginda... roca namgala mTvare daxedavs mis wminda saflavs, ar miatovo marto, ocnebiT gaCndi masTan. is imsaxurebs Sens Zilgatexilobas ise, rogorc Sen imsaxureb Cemgan TanagrZnobas da Tanadgomas. sara rexviaSvili siyvaruliT, 26.05.10

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iyo da ara iyo ra...

Cemi lora mamida iyo... da ara iyo ra... TiTqos erTi Cveulebrivi, mSvidi da uTqmeli qali iyo, magram me rom mkiTxoT, Cveulebrivi mas araferi hqonda... mamidaCemi araCveulebrivi iyo... ar vici, saidan modis mSveniereba da sad midis, magram mamidaCemi namdvilad xorcSesxmuli mSveniereba iyo... is qali iyo, viszec ityodiT: `vin aris es qali, aseTi cisferi?~... mzisgan gamotacebul aTinaTs hgavda... cicinaTelasaviT anaTebda soflis orRobeSi... albaT, sicocxle rom amqveynad qalis saxiT dabadebuliyo, Cems mamidas emsgavseboda. mudam wyliani cisferi TvalebiT gviyurebda da imaze mets xedavda, vidre sxva yvela. mec vuyurebdi xolme am TvalebSi da megona, rom Tvalebi ki ara, cis patara nawilakebi iyo. mamidaCems ca uyvarda, mTeli Tavisi cxovrebis manZilze miwaze idga, magram caSi hqonda fesvebi. TiTqos ca eZaxda... saocrad saTuTi suli hqonda... TovlSi amosuli mwvanilis yureba miyvardao,_ miTxra erTxel, _ didxans, didxans vuyurebdi soflis gorakebidan mzis Casvlisas awiTlebul caso. maSin gavifiqre, netav, ra surda RmerTs, am sadedoflo qals aseT patara asparezs rom aZlevda cxovrebis sarbielze-meTqi. TiTqos Cemi fiqrebi amoicno, ucnauri sevdiT miTxra, yvelaze mniSvnelovani qalisTvis dedobaa, danarCeni ki is jvaria, romelic udrtvinvelad unda zidoo. da maSin Zalian, Zalian metkina SigniT raRac, mivxvdi, rom mamidasTvis Tavisi araCveulebrivoba tvirTi iyo, romlis simZimesac iSviaTad Tu uZleben. mikvirda, es feriasaviT saTuTi da susti qali rogor uZlebda. yvelaze ufrosi da iyo dedmamiSvilebSi da TiTqos Tavisi da-ZmisTvis deda iyo, patara, faqizi, TviTonac bavSvi, magram ukve gazrdili da daqalebuli. nelize, mamaCemis kidev erT daze, pirvelad misgan gavige. Semdeg moTxroba wavikiTxe _ `Ria sarkmlidan~ da... vigrZeni, ra unda yofiliyo mamidasTvis nelis sikvdili. erTxel ukve daoblebuli lora mamida, TiTqos, xelmeored damioblda Tavisi patara daikos qluxoris miwisTvis mibarebiT. gulma ver mouTmina, rom movkvdebi, Cems gverdiT misi suraTic daaxatvineTo. misi dedobrivi zrunva ukve didi xnis win gardacvlil daikos kvlavac icavda da ifaravda. TviTon yovelTvis dedis siTbos daeZebda, magram SvilebisTvis es siTbo arasdros mouklia. ucnauria, es susti, sifrifana qali qvis simtkices da gamZleobas rogor iCenda, roca mis Svilebs uWirdaT rame. sawolTan hqonda Svilebis da SviliSvilebis suraTebi da am suraTebs ise dahkankalebda, TiTqos xatebi yofiliyo. marTlac, mamidasTvis ojaxi uwmindesi xati da salocavi iyo.
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wavida Cemi mamida... kvlav mzes daubrunda odesRac motacebuli aTinaTi. cis patara nawilakebiviT mbrwyinavi Tvalebic samudamod daxuWa. soflis mtverSi Cakarguli, mocimcime margaliti gaqra. darCa tkivili da is sicariele, romelsac veravin Segvivsebs... magram amboben, RmerTsac saukeTesoebi mihyavs TavisTano. vin icis? miwav, gaufrTxildi da kargad mouare Cems lamaz mamidas! xatia

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S i n a a r s i

redaqtorisgan .......................................................................3 Tamilas oqro...........................................................................4 Cemi sadarbazo .......................................................................209 Sen Cemi Zma xar anatoli ........................................................292 besos biWi..................................................................................473 Ria fanjridan .........................................................................497 me da dedaCemis lamazi zRapari .........................................520 Cemo kargo baia! ...........................................................................525 iyo da ara iyo ra ... .....................................................................526

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