Cabaret Lyrics

Anyway Instrumental
So its the first day of the term. I havent seen my best friend in
forever! She was really busy over the holidays. I mean, I was too. I didnt
get to see her, like, at all! And thats fine because Ill see her now. Shes
really cool and fun, and we have THE best time. There was this party at
the end of the year last year and it was really nice and we had such a
good time and. Anyways laughs. Well something happened and shes
not here right now so.

Dear Lucy
Dear Lucy,
So I'm bored to the point of snoring
'Cause some dork caught the flu this morning
And decided not to join me in math today
So I'm writing you this letter
To say I hope you're getting better
But you missed out on Mr. Jenkins pull a classic "Mr. J"
And the way I sat Just waiting for you to walk through that door
Or the way I laughed
Imagining the times we shared before
Maybe it's the other night, or the fact that we hooked up
But when I looked up
And saw you were gone, I realized
We have a little bit more together
And I know we've been friends forever
But the truth is- And I'm not afraid to say it-
I love you, Lucy
More than you will know
Can't get you out of my mind
Out of my mind
Look, I hope this doesn't scare you away
But I think about it every day
Since 4th grade when we made our first trade
My yoghurt for your PB&J
Now that it's out on the line, I'd like to take this time
To apologize for the other night
And how the light hit your face
And made me wanna kiss you
We were moving too fast
But you kissed back, so how could I resist?
It was a good thing, it was a good time, it was the best time-
It was my first time-
And now I see
We have a little bit more together
And I know we've been friends forever
But the truth is- And I'm not afraid to say it-
I love you, Lucy
More than you will know
Can't get you out of my mind
Out of my mind
Out of my mind
Out of my mind
It's silly how this skinny little fillin' of vanilla flavor'd ever have a chance
with you
But it's thrilling Feels like every second's killing me unwillingly, I swear,
it's like a million little dreams come true
But I can't get with it
Until you admit it
That you love me- right?
Lucy, do you love me, too?
I mean its totally fine if you dont and everything
But if you do
We have a little bit more together
I can't get you out of my mind
Out of my mind
Out of my mind
Out of my mind
Something needs to happen to make audience know Louisa and I is no
more

Louisa and I are talking. R U OK?... Im reaching out but not really
reaching out. I tried. Take your medication

How do we get the news that Luoisa is not okay?

News flash they found a body of etc suicide etc

Gloomy Sunday
Sunday is gloomy
My hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows
I live with are numberless

Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black coach
Of sorrow has taken you

Angels have no thoughts
Of ever returning you
Would they be angry
If I thought of joining you

Gloomy Sunday

Gloomy is Sunday
With shadows I spend it all
Your heart and you
Has decided to end it all

Soon there'll be candles
And prayers that are said I know
I will not weep
Let them know that I'm glad to go

Death is no dream
For in death I'm caressin' you
With the last breath of my soul
I'll be blessin' you

Gloomy Sunday

Brings it back to you
Am I going to commit suicide
Sets up Anyway
Am I gonna follow
Maybe its my fauly
Why didnt I see it
I shouldve notied
I shouldve known
She was fine
What do you mean she overdosed?
What
How I dont understand
Thers no purpose for me hanging around here now
She was the only one
All the other

Its so black I cant see through
Its never been this black

Smiley face prayer hands purple heart dog emoji 1

Anyway
SPOKEN
Wow, okay so that was incredibly depressing! Like SO depressing. I
almost couldnt deal with it, like all the black clothes and crying people. I
mean, I could never cry in front of anyone its just so awkward, like my
crying face is so ugly I havent seen you in a while, like.. ages! And
here we are, at a dead girls funeral. Well I mean, like shes my best
friend. Was I mean! Oh my god, thats going to be so hard to get used
to. She was your friend too wasnt she? I mean OBVIOUSLY, youre
here! Haha! Wait, remember that time in year 10 when we had that
English assignment and.. Dont worry. So how have you been
otherwise? Apart from having a friend die! I still dont even know how to
feel, I mean its like.. like.. Anyways,

I didnt expect to see you here
I mean outside, smoking. Denial, I DONT KNOW.
Im more of a nicorette boy these days.
Im joking.
I mean I did quit.
But who feels like joking now?
Ill see you your scowl
And raise you a furrowed brow.

Anyway.
Anyway.

Do you remember how we used to read

Rilke, Joyce?
And we barely understood it,
But it gave us a voice
Or a language
I dont read poetry anymore.
But if I did,
Id be reading it tonight for sure.
Oh. Oh.

I keep thinking about how the timing seems false.

How some days seem faster than my fucking pulse.
And others go so slow.
Like this morning
Feels like a month ago.
Oh. Oh.
Oh. Oh.

I feel like Im underwater.

I feel like Im underwater.
I feel like Im underwater.
Anyway.
Anyway.

Theres this building you pass

On the metro to kew.
Its on the left or the right or the one thats blue.
Its covered in tags,
Bright hieroglyphics.
These fifteen-year-olds
Theyre so fucking prolific.
Im commuting,
Im eating my goddamn apple
And theyre secretly painting their Sistine Chapel.
But whatever,
Its like they know their odds.
If you're gonna die young,
You'd better live like gods.
Gods.
Gods.

And me?
Im not doing anything.
Im not helping or cleaning.
Im not even crying.
Im not doing anything.
Shed be so goddamn helpful.
Well, fuck her for dying cause I,
Im not writing her elegy.
Not me.
Im not writing that down.
They would scrawl her name on a city wall
But Im a fucking clown.
Im making jokes
So I dont drown.
I feel like Im underwater.
I feel like Im underwater.
I feel like Im underwater.
I feel like Im underwater.
Like the whole world is underwater.
Like Im screaming out underwater.
I feel like Im underwater these days.

I didnt expect to see you here.

I mean thanks for coming.
I thought youd oppose the use of religious rites as numbing.
I mean it is dumb.
But what if she can hear us praying?
I mean what the fuck do we know?
Who are we to say?
If there was anyway.
Anyway

Words Fail

I never meant to become such a mess

I never thought that it could get this bad/I never thought that I could get
this sad
So I just stand here sorry
Searching for something to say
Something to say
Words fail, words fail
There's nothing I can say

I guess I thought youd always be part of me
I never had that kind of thing before
I never had that perfect friend
Who somehow could see the good part of me

I never had the guts to stuck it out
No inside jokes or late night talks
My other friends were not like you
Cause you were all I had
This is not a worthy explanation
I know there is none
But nothing can make sense of what you have done/this thing youve
done

So words fail, words fail
There's nothing I can say
Except sometimes, you see everything you wanted
And sometimes, you see everything you wish you had
And shes right there, shes right there, right there
But she runs away from you
And you cant believe it's true
But you... know its true
And you think maybe someday ill see it And you think if I pretend
that youre here, Ill keep you here, at least a little bit, of you
And believe it... a least little bit... too

I wish this was just a sad invention
But youre really gone, I know
We were happy
I dont know how to let that go
I dont know how to give that up
I guess I dont want to believe
'Cause if I dont believe
Then I don't have to see what's really here

No, I'd rather pretend I'm something better than
These broken parts
Pretend I'm something other than
This mess that I am
'Cause then I don't have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it
No, no one can really see

'Cause I've learned to slam on the brake
Before I even turn the key
Before I make the mistake
Before I lead with the worst of me
I never let them see the worst of me

'Cause what if everyone saw?
What if everyone knew?
Would they like what they saw?
Or would they hate it too?
Or would they HATE ME too?
Will I just keep on running away from what's true?

All I ever do is run
So how do I step in
Step into the sun?
Step into the sun

SPOKEN
Without you? How?... When When cries

Those Youve Known
YASH
Those you've known
And lost, still walk behind you
All alone
She lingers till she finds you
Without her
The world grows dark around you
And nothing is the same until you know that she has found you

ROSH
Those you've pained
May carry that still with them
All the same
I whisper, 'All forgiven'
Still your heart says
The shadows bring the starlight
And everything you've ever been is still there in the dark night

ROSH AND YASH AT THE SAME TIME
ROSH
When the northern wind blows
The sorrows your heart holds
There are those who still know
They're still home
Im still home
YASH (Sung in Counterpart)
Though you know
You've left her far behind
You walk on by yourself, and not with her
Still you know
She will fill your heart and mind
When she says there's a way through this

ROSH
Those you've known
And lost, still walk behind you
All alone
Their song still seems to find you
They call you
As if you knew their longing
They whistle through the lonely wind, the long blue shadows falling

YASH (Alone)
All alone
But still I hear her yearning
Through the dark, the moon, alone there, burning
The stars too
They tell of spring returning
And summer with another wind that no one yet has known

ROSH AND YASH AT THE SAME TIME
YASH(OPTION 1)
She calls me
Through all things
Night's falling
But somehow I go on
You watch me
Just watch me
I'm calling
From longing
ROSH
When the northern wind blows
The sorrows your heart's known
I believe
YASH(OPTION 2)
Though you known
There's so much more to find
Another dream, another love you'll hold
Still you know
To trust your own true mind
On your way you are not alone
There are those who still know



YASH (Sung Alone)
Now shell walk on my arm through the distant night
And I wont let her stray from my heart
Through the wind, through the dark, through the winter light
I will read all her dreams to the stars
I'll walk now with her
I'll call on her name
And I'll see her thoughts are known
Not gone
Not gone
Shell walk with my heart
ROSH
Not gone
YASH
And I'll never her them go
ROSH
Not gone
YASH
I'll never her them go
ROSH
Not gone
YASH
I'll never let her go
etc

For Good
YASH
Ive heard it said
That people come into our lives
For a reason
Even if this lifetime ends
You will be there, laughing at my stupid jokes,
Right beside me
While no one else here understands,
Well, I dont care if they believe thats true
But I know Im who I am today
Because Im with you

When Im drunk inside an uber
Im still talking to you
Still crying on your shoulder
More often than I should
Well, who can say that you have left me forever
But, because I loved you
Youll stay with me
For good

ROSH
I know its true
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say it since Im gone
So much of you
Ill take with me to where I go
And Ill be with you
Like a screenshot on your phone
And though you know which way my story ends
Just know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Every time youre in an uber
Ill be talking to you
And when longing for my shoulder
I told you that you could
Lean on me and Ill be with you forever
And because I loved you

YASH
Because I loved you

ROSH
Youll stay with me for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For this thing Ive done, and leaving you alone

YASH
But then, I guess I know
There's blame to share

BOTH
And none of it seems to matter anymore

YASH
When Im drunk inside an uber
Im still talking to you
Still crying on your shoulder
More often than I should
ROSH
Every time youre in an uber
Ill be talking to you
And when longing for my shoulder
I told you that you could

(Harmony over YASH)
(Both)
Who can say that you have
left me forever?
I do believe youll always
be here forever
(YASH)
And because I loved you
(ROSH)
Because I loved you
(Both)
Because I love you
I have been changed for good...


Anyway Reprise

I didnt expect to see you here.
I mean thanks for coming.
I thought youd oppose the use of religious rites as numbing.
I mean it is dumb.
But what if she can hear us praying?
I mean what the fuck do we know?
Who are we to say?
If there was anyway.
Anyway

Notes

Use the stage. My spark will fill the room. I will own the room

Rosh

Shes either on stage and staying completely still, freeze. Singing to her
and she cant react. Gloomy Sunday

Shes in the audience, sits there and just waits. She then appears and
shes here.

Shes in the back in rehearsal room. Comes through the door. v