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The light came out and it gave a vision of hope to my almost dying belief that one
day I could defy the unfortunate instances of failure. It was a beautiful façade; beautiful
enough to hide my pain from being drowned by excruciating melancholy. What’s more to
be blinded with thode rays? What’s more to follow a certain light impossible for me to
reach out? If failure was a disease, it could have killed my system long time before.
There’s no turning back. My tracks are already on. It’s either I die wondering or I move
learning.
When was the last time I felt a satisfaction of a momentous victory? My last quiz?
Probably not. I got a good grade but not good enough to outscore everyone. My last
group performance? Nope. Our group may have the highest rate but still did not met the
perfect score. My last graduation ceremony? Certainly not. It’s more of a nightmare for
me.
smiled in the whole ceremony. My soul was dead that time. While everyone was busy
making moments on one of the most memorable day on their lives, there I was in my
mother’s side, contemplating how I ended up having lesser medals compared with my
other colleagues. Yes, I may have sat on the frontmost part of the row but sitting on the
first chair on the corner left may have been a better feeling. I did everything to exalt my
grades. I got almost 95 but still, someone on the farther side of our section exalted a
higher point percentage than mine. I failed. My eight medals were not enough to
decorate my neck with utmost festivity. If only I have done better. If only my teachers
were as kind as the other sections, I could have stood a chance to outperform all of
not enough?” When I first auditioned for campus journalism, I failed. Though in the
second one, I got accepted and won first place in feature writing category during the
“Divisions Schools Press Conference”. The third one was my most heartbreaking one.
Considering that I was the Editor-in-Chief in our school paper back when I was in grade
12, all the pressures were exhausted directly to me since it was the first school paper
launch in the history of our school. A week before the competition, I was not able to
have a proper training for I prioritized much in polishing our paper to be passed before
the contest as reference of our entry. No school-paper, no DSCP. And so, I exerted my
body and blood, together with my school-paper adviser and layout artist to get all things
done. Then the competition proper came. It was more of nervousness at first, and a lot
My competitors were already there- those I defeated on the last schools press
conference. I stood nervous, knowing I was not able to harness my writing. I also saw
my trainer last year. As much as he wants me to represent for Panabo National High
School, too bad I was already studying at Panabo City Senior High School that time. It
was a pioneer school which gave me a difficult time to handle the pressure of being the
first EIC on our school paper. And as much as I wanted him as my Trainor, too be he
already had his own participant. When the competition started, my hands were shaking
involuntarily. Time was running fast. We were already given an hour to write. My
thoughts were rumbling, as if a storm was happening inside my head. I never stopped
writing, not until the time ran out…and it’s over. I already expected a hard defeat but it’s
more painful when I actually heard the announcement. No RSPC for me that time. I
failed.
Failure has always been a trademark on my pessimistic head. I always fail. It’s
like following a light with no certain endpoint. I thought it would always be that way. But I
was wrong. It was in college when I finally found the light I was looking back then. For
years, I have been much engaged in counting failures rather than blessings. It was also
the time I realized that failures are blessings as well. Whenever I fail, I learn. The side-
effects of failing are those that would keep me stronger and boulder. It’s as if God was
trying to humble me by experiencing what it feels like in the bottom. Eureka! I found the
answer!
suicide. Everytime I think of not being able to reach my expectations, it seems like I was
slowly killing myself. And that was all in the past. What’s more important is the present
juncture. If I might fail in the future, at least I won’t be thinking the same way again. It’s
more of a lesson than a regression. Life may beat us down in the ground but it will
always be our choice to either stand or remain beaten. When I failed to win the last
DSPC, I motivated myself more to improve my writing skills. When I failed to bag all the
performance in college. I also learned that there’s no such thing as perfection. The word
best would always depend on how you perceive it. For me, best is when I get to satisfy
my efforts. Whenever we feel like the penumbra of misery is slowly eating us, fear us
not for we are capable of suppressing it. When darkness calls upon the pessimistic side
in our head, be the living hope which ignites an emblem of faith saying- let there be
light.