The New Me

This is the new me you'll never expect

This is the new me that you'll never want to see

I did everything for you. I risked everything for you

I made everything right for you

I tried to look beautiful. I stayed up late .I spent this much

I stepped. I rain. I fell. I crossed. I climbed . I did everything .

And it’s all because of you

I cried all night .I wasted my years.

I prayed for miracle but nothing happened.

Nothing I ever did ever made you like me .

Not my messages , Not my phone calls, not my gifts ,nor my looks

Not my efforts, not my promises not my soul or my life

So this is the new me .This is the new me you’ll have to see

Wait until you realize how much you hurt me Did you know I fought for you?

I would've killed for you. I would've died for you

But you could never love me.

It’s sickening to know that one’s efforts can never be appreciated.

What is about me that you couldn’t like?

Am I fat? Am I short? Am I boring?

Is it because I’m boyish ? Is it because I am garrolous? Is it because I'm knowledgeable?

Is it because I don’t like parties and I'm not a night lifer

Then what was I supposed to do ? This is Me! Me!!.I can’t change who I used to be .

At least,when I found out that you could never learn to love me.

I realized … I realized just how much I missed

I lost my friends. I pushed my family away . I became cruel and I was being selfish.
So look at me now .I didn’t change who I was.I simply exposed myself in different activities.I became active
and happy. I learn to love myself

And I DON’T NEED YOU

THIS IS THE NEW ME

"JUVENILE DELINQUENT"

Am I a juvenile delinquent? I'm a teenager, I'm young, young at heart in mind. In this position, I'm carefree,
I enjoy doing nothing but to drink the wine of pleasure. I seldom go to school, nobody cares!. But instead
you can see me roaming around. Standing at the nearby canto (street). Or else standing beside a jukebox
stand playing the nerve tickling bugaloo.Those are the reasons, why people, you branded me delinquent,
a juvenile delinquent.

My parents ignored me, my teachers sneered at me and my friends, they neglected me. One night I asked
my mother to teach me how to appreciate the values in life. Would you care what she told me? "Stop
bothering me! Can't you see? I had to dress up for my mahjong session, some other time my child". I
turned to my father to console me, but, what a wonderful thing he told me. "Child, here's 500 bucks, get
it and enjoy yourself, go and ask your teachers that question".

And in school, I heard nothing but the echoes of the voices of my teachers torturing me with these words.
"Why waste your time in studying, you can't even divide 100 by 5! Go home and plant sweet potatoes".

I may have the looks of Audrey Hepburn, the calmly voice of Nathalie Cole. But that's not what you can
see in me. Here's a young girl who needs counsel to enlighten her way and guidance to strenghten her life
into contentment.

Honorable judge, friends and teachers...is this the girl whom you commented a juvenile delinquent?.
Darling Of The Crowd

This is really it. This is the day that the Lord has made. I'm gonna be the next superstarrrrr. Kimberly Ann
Cecilia Bettina Pasajol Lopez will be the next superstarrrrr . Cause why not ?. I'm Sexy , I'm Hot ,and I’m
everything you’re not (contagious laugh). That was my expression way back when I was about to audition
for PGT season 3. I was really really excited to the point that I even pray to all the angels and saints in
heaven, Goodness Gracious!! Hallelujah !! .But do you know what happen exactlyon that day ?.It was a
beautiful day . I am wearing the most fabulous dress , then a limousine with a plate number of 01K stop
in front of me .

I look at it but I see no space for me yet the driver kept on saying “ Hoy, sumakay ka na at lalarga na” .But
just because I don’t want to be late .I rode in it and “Oh my God , I was just sitting in the air in this jeepney
and it then it racked so much . I hated the woman beside me who sat like she owns the place taking maybe
2 spaces as she yells at the driver “ manong ayus ayusin mo oh tanga ka ba ?” . Oh my God!!! That woman
is narcissistic with the manifestation of symptom number 7. She needs to feel and recognize the feelings
of others. How does she think of herself when my legs are shaking to death and so I had to endure this
pain.

I'm saying all of those in my mind until I was able to seat properly (sighs of relief). And Oh!! I have to give
my fare “Please Teh!! Te Please ! Te Paabot naman oh !! . Oh my God !!! the woman won’t receive my 9
pesos .Is she deaf or what?. So I didn’t have any chose but to move forward .. move forward. Few minutes
later, I arrived at SM. I will have to forget all those miserable things that happened to me a while ago. But
first I have to keep my poise; breast out, stomach in , chin up ,pucker lips ,and twinkle twinkle eyes and I
started to walk confidently. I don’t know which way to go . I have to stay calm inhale … exhale…. Oh ! I
think that’s the line for PGT season 3 , so I hurriedly follow the line. And everybody was insecure of my
beauty. When I was falling in line there was a lady who thought she’s really beautiful. She walked with
confidence . As if everybody is staring at her duhhh! . You look like my toes. Urghhh how I hate that lady
she’s using her physical beauty to get attention, How Pathetic ewww!!. Suddenly a girl at front of me
caught my attention . She gave me a cup of noodles then said “ Enjoy the new flavor of Lucky Me Bulalo “
.And I was like huhh! Are you kidding me? . Isn’t this the line for PGT season 3 “ No mam this is the line
for Lucky Me Free Taste Activity. Oh my Gosh Oh my Gosh Why is this happening to me? Noooooooo.
And that that was the end of it . I shouldn’t have wasted my time labeling those people of disorders. I
should have been the next superstarrrrr. But no I won’t give up all I have to do is to keep my poise;
breast out, stomach in , chin up ,pucker lips ,and twinkle twinkle eyes and I started to walk out confidently.