May 12, 2018

Today is my birthday. I heard some noise outside

from my party that my family prepared. They are
waiting for me to go and join them. It is a huge
party that all my relatives attended and it so
overwhelming to see them happy.

Three days already passed after my birthday. I still

can’t believe about how wonderful my birthday was
last time. But, today is another special day. We are
going to an Amusement park! Enchanted Kingdom
here we come!

I was surprised that my mother is there, I thought

that she went abroad to manage our business. I can’t
explain the feeling; mixed emotions, this is the first
time that my mother is present for my birthday.
This is the best birthday that I had in my life, and
I knew that my mother was the one who organized
the party for me.

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This day is amazing. We rode all the rides, so we All the happiness fades.
are so tired. But wait, I also bought a lot of things
I can see how busy my parents are. Dad has a big
from the souvenir shop. There are, tees from my
pile of paper in his office room. Sadly, I think I’m
uncles, bags from my aunt, and toys from my
going to spend my day alone in my game room.
cousins. After shopping, we go to mall, I was
surprised when my mother gave new gadget with
letter that saying goodbye.

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Last week of May

It’s time to enroll. I asked my dad if he can go with

me. But then he said no because he has lots of
things to do. He got busier. So my nanny will come
with me to school. I asked my nanny if she can go to
the office and talk to the principal for my
requirements.

Walking in the hallway, I noticed that this school

is quite big. It has a soccer field, laboratories, a big
library, a covered basketball court, and more. As I
walk to the office, a group of students caught my
attention. They are jamming with a guitar and a
beatbox. They look so happy.

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June 11 2018 As I walk inside our classroom, I can hear the other
students laughing and having lots of conversations.
New school, new classmates, new teachers, new
They know each other and they are already
environment.
grouped. They are busy talking which is why they
First day of school, I will go to school alone, walk didn’t notice even my shadow. I sat near a boy who’s
alone, eat alone. Thinking of those things makes me also lonely.
sick. I am so excited yesterday but right now I am so
At first, we are shy to each other but as the day
nervous. There are lots of what ifs on my mind.
passed, we eventually get to know each other.
What if they don’t want to be my friend? What if
I’ve become a victim of bullies? I’m so scared. It’s just
6 o’clock in the morning and my class will start at
7:30 yet I’m ready to go to school.

After a month, I felt envy to my friend because he

always tells how happy their family was. But
instead of saying the truth about my family, I lied
to him and said that my family is a lot happier
than his family. Yet, the truth is opposite of what
I’ve said

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 At first I saw them in their practice when I enroll
in this school. I felt blessed because I had
opportunity to join them. They gave me a letter
saying that I was accepted to join their group

While talking, a group of guys came near us and I went home and I saw my dad. I told him the thing
gave a piece of paper. I was shocked! about the searching for a new member of the band.
He was not convinced; he thinks that this might be
a distraction for my studies.

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Audition day, I disobeyed my dad’s order to focus Few days passed. I saw many students in
on my studies. announcement area. I was curious of what they are
looking at. My best friend calls me to see what they
It’s my turn, there are many parents watching and
are looking. I saw my name in the list who pass the
supporting the other contestants. I sang an old song
audition for the band.
and every lyrics of that song makes me think of my
family that breaks my heart. Every line in that song Almost all the students know me, because they
is related to what I felt with my family. It breaks adore me in my performance.
my heart; I was stuttering and holding back my
tears during my performance.

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As time passes, our nanny noticed that I am going PTC day
home later than the usual. Dad asked me about it,
My teacher gave my card to my dad. I was so
and I don’t know what to say. I told an alibi, I told
nervous that I may have a failing grade because of
him that we are doing projects on my classmate’s
the distraction that the band had caused me
house.

But my dad noticed that I am always going home

late. He asked if we really do have lots of paper
works, so I lied again and gave him the letter my
teacher gave to inform him that the PTC will be
held tomorrow Saturday.

It’s evening and I heard my dad talking to mom over

the phone. They were arguing about why I got
failing grade. They didn’t know the reason that I
decided to join in the band. Instead of doing the
things they want to me to do, I find happiness that I
can’t get from my parents, so I found it in my band.

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Instead of following them I followed my heart and
join the band, since I can’t get the attention I want
from them
Monday,
My dad invited me to join him on eating his
breakfast. While eating, we were shocked because
mom is the one who served our breakfast. I am so
happy, yet I am also felt guilty because of having a
failing grade.
As I got ready from school, I was so happy because I
saw my mom wearing casual tees. She told me that
she will be the one who will send me to school.
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School went so fast. I got home as fast as I can to
spend more time with my mom. I am afraid that
after this day she will leave me again for our
business. As I enter our house, I heard them
shouting and fighting each other.
It broke my heart when I heard from my dad that
mom has live in partner for almost 2 months. It
broke my heart one more time. I don’t know what to
do. There are lots of negative things that was coming
to my mind again.
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The day after my dad knew about what my mom
had done, everything has changed in our life. My
As time passed by, my dad realized that he must
mom left us, she live in our rest house with her
move on from what my mom did. He started to meet
new partner. She never come back. My dad slowly
other girls. Even though he met lots of ladies, he is
changed from caring and lovable father to careless
still longing for mom’s love. Every night I can still
and alcoholic man. He always had that alcohol
hear him crying and questioning himself why my
beverages in his room and he smell like alcohols
mom left us. There was a time when he hurt
each new day
himself and didn’t stop drinking.

I have become addicted in alcoholic drinks. I skip

school and just go with my friends to drink. Unlike
before that my dad is getting mad at me when he
caught me drinking, this time he allows me and
didn’t get mad at all. While drinking I forget how

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complicated and how miserable my life is. Alcohol That night is the reason why I realize that I should
eased the pain I felt continue my life and be independent. I start to
change myself by going school every day, and
I was so drunk that night. I was so broken, I feel like
focused in my study. I decided to make my life
I’m dying. I can see how my parents cried to see my
better and do right things
dead body. Am I already a ghost? I wondered; I am
already crying out loud. I don’t know what to do.
Suddenly, my phone rang that made me wake up. It
is mom, mom is calling. I don’t know if I will
answer the call.

I made my life better for myself

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October 23, 2018

It’s my graduation day. As I walked to the stage, I

saw my parents having a big smile on their lips. I
didn’t expect that my family will be complete
again. I was so shocked; this is the best gift I ever
had. My family is here to support and congratulate
me for being the magna cum laude of our batch.
They were so proud of me.

They told me that we will be a happy family again.

They secretly fixed the problem they have.

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