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Is God seeing all of us all the time? Does He continuously monitor our thoughts? From what age
can a person be held responsible for his thoughts and deeds? How far parents responsible for
their actions and thoughts ( A & T s )? How far is a person responsible for his A & Ts inherited
or acquired from his genes? He may have acquired A & Ts very different from those of parents.
Parents might have tried in all earnestness to bring their child up well and to be educated well.
But by his nature he may have gone astray and ill educated and not shown interest in any kind
of other activities in the field of sports, arts, business etc. So he has to settle for existence in
lower income jobs or be engaged in illegal activities of earning like thefts, cheating, drug
trafficking etc. He will be entering a vicious circle from which it is very difficult, if not impossible,
to come out and wipe out the history and get accepted in the society.

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In our daily life how many activities- physical and mental – take place without our own concern
and conscious effort? May be thousands or millions of activities occur almost independent of us
- in the internal organs and external activities like movements of hands, fingers, legs, eye
movements, lip and tongue movements, hearing and the analysis by mind of inputs from all
sensory organs, and thoughts occurring within the mind itself.

When we are asleep too, the external organs like hands, legs, head and torso move without our
conscious knowledge. We don’t even recollect such movements when we wake up.

When we are awake and fully conscious, we talk to somebody and simultaneously make
gestures involuntarily and voluntarily. For example, we are in serious discussion and our fingers
drum the table for a known favorite tune. If we jot down a notes while listening to a lecture it is
a conscious effort. We are simultaneously listening to a lecture and writing notes
simultaneously.

(5.1.2015)In any everyday activity since we get up from bed, there are several mental and
physical actions required. For example, to brush our teeth, we have to implement several
movements of our organs continuously and accurately. But almost all of them are executed
without 100 percent mind on them to their minutest details. In case of a machine working on
the basis of a preprogrammed coding loaded in its computer, every minutest activity is to be
coded and so controlled, monitored with the help of sensors, corrected continuously on the
feedbacks and the task completed and results obtained precisely and accurately, if everything
goes well. But as humans we do most of our routine activities with mind elsewhere. We don’t
concentrate on the fingers movements, arms and legs and eyes movements continuously, that
is every micro second, and correct them at every instant consciously. If we divide any such
activity as brushing our teeth into micro events, there will be millions of them. Yet we are not
conscious of them. We complete that activity to near perfection. Such activity is not at all
identical at micro level with that we did earlier in the day. Every micro activity is different from
corresponding one executed earlier. Actually there is no one to one correspondence between
them. We are not preprogrammed machines. At every instant we have to improvise our
thoughts and actions as per requirements without actually concentrating on them. But to
complete such tasks, there should be controls and regulators. They are being executed without
our explicit conscience or permissions. It is different that we do not know the activities of our
heart, blood, lungs or any other internal organ, which are extremely complex and mind
boggling. We have zero control over them under normal conditions. We are not even conscious
of their existence within us except when we consciously remember them due to some reason.
Otherwise we do not think about any of them for days or months or years and for life if we do
not mind about our inside activities. Yet they are utmost important to us and we are existing
peacefully because of the perfectly coordinated operations of every single minutest part of our
organs, every moment. Who has programmed them to work like that??? Amazing!!!(5.1.2015).

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Most of the people on the earth believe in God. That there are several religions with great
following vouches for this fact. What does faith in God mean? We believe that God created us
and the nature we live in. For that matter we are part of the nature. We also believe that we
live due to God’s grace and that only God knows when, where and to who we are born and
when we will leave this world. What else do we think about God? Did any one of us wish to see
Him? 26.3.15 We take it for granted that God cannot be seen. We do not want to break our
heads over this serious matter that cannot be concluded. We leave it to our religious leaders
who studied all the available scriptures and so advise us to renew our faith in God. They do
what they too were asked by their predecessors. They were and are busy propagating what
their ancestors were doing. We, the followers, have other more essential jobs to do to live on
this planet. We have to maintain family. We believe in what our forefathers said. They in turn
did what their forefathers did and so on. So the same setting in which we are living now with
respect to religion, religious propagators and the followers like us, has been repeating over and
over seamlessly. Unfortunately for us there is no firsthand, solid, undisputable proof that God is
there. We only pray Him for peaceful life and thank Him for providing such life to us on day to
day basis. The search for God must have been churning in the minds of several persons over
ages. God might have blessed them for their selfless job of devotion. But what about us? How
are we to be convinced about His existence? It is like a student asking to be passed in an
academic examination without actually reading or learning the subject. It requires lot of effort
to become an artist, a musician, a mechanic or electrician or any other professional. There is an
objective and an outcome after the necessary training course as per prescribed syllabus.

But in the case of perfect perception of God there is no such course or training or books to find
Him or understand Him since nobody saw Him or understood Him to design such course or
training nor wrote a book to describe Him.

When we are watching a TV program we are deeply engrossed in the characters in it, in the
nature in it. We forget that we are in a virtual world. do not bother about the

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For more than 90% of our time in the day, when we are awake, we do not consciously
remember God. Then why do we think of God? Why are we faithful to God? [6.1.15]We are
helpless in several situations, though under normal circumstances we subconsciously feel that
everything is in under control. We see people suffering from some fatal diseases for which
there is no cure; people meeting with fatal accidents; people getting cheated etc. So we turn to
God and pray Him to grant us peaceful life without such mishaps. Initially we get solace from
the prayer. We get some immediate relief with the belief that He would save us from such
awkward situations. We get strength out of that feeling. We confide to God what we do not
confide with our near and dear regarding our difficulties. We do not tell even our parents or
spouses every day or several times in a day that our life should be good and smooth, even
though they are our best wishers. They will ask us not to be so much worried about life every
now and then. They too advise us to leave everything to God and remain peaceful. If you
express the same worry to any friend, he would comment that we are too pessimistic. So, only
God will accept our expression of fears without any negative comment as He only listens but
does not speak.[6.1.15]

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When any misfortune happens to us we ask why it happened only to us. Any kind of being
cheated, being burgled, missing an opportunity to get a job narrowly, being neglected at job or
in society, for not getting reasonable, justified and expected due recognition at work place etc
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16.7.14 In this world humans are the only species that cover their bodies with clothing. How
did this tradition come? Is it for protection against cold? Or is it to make us look better
presentable and fanciful? Or is it to cover our private parts? Private parts are again our
conception. Why do not we perceive our arms and nose as private parts too? In some public
beaches we see people not covering bodies completely and still there are no ill feelings or ill
looks. But it is a taboo to come out of that beach and move in streets in the same dress or semi
or quarter dress. The same people look at them in a different fashion. It is all our perception
and getting habituated to live in a certain manner.

If it is due to the weather reason, we should be happy to get rid of any dress during other warm
seasons. It is an extra burden. We don’t wear shoes all the time. We don’t wear suit and tie all
the time. Imagine a cat or dog wearing dress like us. It looks odd. We enjoy only in cartoons.
Why pet animals are not cladded (???) in fanciful dresses to enhance their appearance and also
to cover their so called private parts? Why only us?

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16.7.14 When God created (or by natural selective evolution) amphibians (land and water),
and animals that can live both on land and in air,why not animals that can live and move in
the three environments: land, sky and water?
Amphibians: Amphi stems from the Greek meaning 'of both kinds' such as amphibian animals that can live in both kinds of
environment, land and water. (http://animals.sandiegozoo.org/content/amphibians)

Amphibians are animals that live part of their lives in water and part on land. They are vertebrates and are also
ectothermic; they cannot regulate their own body heat, so they depend on sunlight to become warm and active.
Amphibians also can't cool down on their own, so if they get too hot, they have to find a burrow or some other
shade. In cold weather, amphibians tend to be sluggish and do not move around much. Most amphibians have soft,
moist skin that is protected by a slippery secretion of mucus. They also tend to live in moist places or near water to keep
their bodies from drying out.

Ectothermic - depend on warmth from sunlight to become warm and active

Metamorphosis - as they develop, young change in body shape, diet, and lifestyle

(http://animals.sandiegozoo.org/content/amphibians)

- See more at: http://animals.sandiegozoo.org/content/amphibians#sthash.2XZ0vas9.dpuf

Reptiles - crocodiles, alligators, sea snakes, turtles, tortoises etc.. (frogs??)

Amphibious fish - such as the eel (they can travel long distances out of water and have been known to leave the water to
eat eggs and catch small rodents)

Crustaceans - crabs, crayfish etc..

Insects - such as water beetles (lots of aquatic beetles fly.)

Mammals - seals, walrus, sea otters etc.. (polar bears have been sighted swimming and feeding so far out to sea (over 100
miles), it shows they can live for extended periods on the water also)

You might include birds, such as the penguin

And also arthropods... spiders and water scorpions

Mulloscs - such as snails, clams etc..

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17.7.14. Over the last few centuries remarkable theories about laws of nature were developed
by mathematicians cum scientists which were later corroborated by experiments. Development
of mathematics and other sciences led to theories and postulates, followed by experiments and
vice versa. Examples : Newton’s gravitational law and laws of motion, Maxwell’s
electromagnetic field theory, Einstein’s theory of relativity, Higgs boson particle, etc. Those
scientists were geniuses, visionaries and were blessed by God. So they could postulate theories
based on the very limited knowledge about the fundamentals of nature as on that date and the
mathematical tools that were in their possession at the time of the postulation. Science has
always been progressing and bringing out new and thus far unknown startling facts about the
very fundamentals. Example is the very structure of the atom (atom means indivisible !!). It
means that whatever they could postulate mathematically in the past were based on
approximations without the exact knowledge of the nature and effects of the basic
fundamental particles. Their spectacular theories did not take into consideration the influences-
electrical, magnetic etc – of these new fundamental particles, but still they were precise and
accurate to yield expected practical results in terms of atom bomb or space exploration using
rockets. It may be that those results were within practically permissible margins of errors. Man
went to moon and returned with the kind technology, materials available and the margins of
errors in1969!!. Even now scientists are not very sure of the fundamental nature of the
fundamental particles. New radical theories in mathematics and sciences are awaited to crack
the unified theory of forces of nature. Are there new forces still not encountered by scientists
so far? The fundamental particles of the erstwhile years were found to be not fundamental.
Are there new fundamental particles that are not postulated and discovered so far? Are there
limitations in the mathematics as on date to explore new frontiers of nature? Certainly geniuses
will be born as usual to lead the way. It appears there is no end to research to understand the
nature. Nature too is elusive. The deeper the scientists go into this search, the more complex
the nature appears to be. New technologies, new instruments and detection systems, new
radical theories may be postulated by geniuses that will change the course of science and the
understanding of the universe and God. It happened in the past. There cannot and will not be a
stop for surprises.

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What is the religion of God? What is the religion of animals, birds, plants, air, fire, water and
earth? Is religion only for humans? The pilot of a plane may pray God in his own way before he
starts the aircraft. He prays not just for himself but for the safe travel all passengers and for the
best function of the aircraft machine. He prays in his own language and in a manner he has
been accustomed to. God does not have preference to any language or mode of prayer. He
accepts a sincere and wholehearted prayer from any person, educated or illiterate, emperor or
beggar, kind hearted or cruel person, believer or atheist. Even a cruel person who has been the
cause of sufferings of several people and animals could face a helpless and hopeless situation
and may turn to God to overcome it. Is religion only for humans? Only humans can be taught
morals and made to mend ways. Man has tamed some animals under his control. Can he tame
insects like mosquitoes, spiders, ants etc? He tamed wild animals like elephant, lion, tiger and
domesticated certain other animals like sheep, camel, goat, dog, pig, cat, horse, donkey, cow,
buffalo and chicken.

[Dr Jordan (http://circuswatchwa.org/domestication.htm)defines the difference between domestication and

taming of animals as follows:

 Domestication is a process whereby man has structurally, physiologically and behaviourally modified
certain species of animals by maintaining them in or near human habitation and by breeding from those
certain animals who seem best suited for various human objectives.

 Taming is a process whereby a wild animal is subdued into adapting and submitting to human control.
Taming of wild animals can be accomplished by various methods but wildness is still there and can be
triggered off by undue stress. There have been many instances of trainers being killed or injured by circus
animals, particularly elephants. ]

Can we domesticate fish ?

http://ngm.nationalgeographic.com/2011/03/taming-wild-animals/ratliff-text. Out of 148 large

mammal species on Earth, why have no more than 15 ever been domesticated? Why have we been able to tame and
breed horses for thousands of years, but never their close relative the zebra, despite numerous attempts?

The exercise of dominion over plants and animals is arguably the most consequential event in human history. Along with
cultivated agriculture, the ability to raise and manage domesticated fauna—of which wolves were likely the first, but
chickens, cattle, and other food species the most important—altered the human diet, paving the way for settlements and
eventually nation-states to flourish.

In fact, scientists have even struggled to define domestication precisely. We all know that individual animals can
be trained to exist in close contact with humans. A tiger cub fed by hand, imprinting on its captors, may grow up
to treat them like family. But that tiger's offspring, at birth, will be just as wild as its ancestors. Domestication, by
contrast, is not a quality trained into an individual, but one bred into an entire population through generations of
living in proximity to humans. Many if not most of the species' wild instincts have long since been lost.
Domestication, in other words, is mostly in the genes.

http://ngm.nationalgeographic.com/2011/03/taming-wild-animals/ratliff-text/2
In his own hunt for domestication genes, Andersson (Uppsala University's Leif Andersson, who studies the genetics of
farm animals) is taking a close look at the most populous domesticated animal on Earth: the chicken. Their ancestors, red
jungle fowl, roamed freely in the jungles of India, Nepal, and other parts of South and Southeast Asia. Somewhere around
8,000 years ago, humans started breeding them for food. Last year Andersson and his colleagues compared the full
genomes of domesticated chickens with those of zoo-based populations of red jungle fowl. They identified a mutation, in
a gene known as TSHR, that was found only in domestic populations. The implication is that TSHR thereby played some
role in domestication, and now the team is working to determine exactly what the TSHR mutation controls. Andersson
hypothesizes that it could play a role in the birds' reproductive cycles, allowing chickens to breed more frequently in
captivity than red jungle fowl do in the wild—a trait early farmers would have been eager to perpetuate.

We humans think that we are created by God. What about animals, plants, the air, water, earth,
fire etc? Just like us, animals too are borne out of mating of male and female animals. Plants
are also borne that way. Animals too have emotions, pains, feelings of happiness, sorrow,
family ties, affections, love and care towards their offspring, train them, play with them, get
teased by their kith, and fight among themselves to protect their rights, fight with villains
among them too, and fight and protect themselves from predators and weep when someone
among them dies, etc. They have heads of families and tribe leaders. They too have brains. They
too think. They too must be of different intelligence levels or IQs. They too must be thinking
during their idle time. They have observational power. They can discriminate between good and
bad for them. They can select which is good to eat and which is not. They know their
limitations. They know that they should not enter deep water if cannot swim. They know that
they should not step on fire. They know that they cannot jump over a pit or valley if the
separation is too wide beyond their capability of jumping. They hear sounds the birds and the
other animals make and the commotion that indicates the presence of a marauder. They have
reflex actions. They run for their life, try to fight, make a flight or frighten and drive the enemy
away. Other animals like deer which do not have fighting capabilities just become spectators of
their fellow animals being killed and proceed with their routine in a philosophical manner. We
do not know what they must be feeling at the plight of their fellow being chased to death. They
move around a place a tiger or a lion is peacefully resting, without any fear.

Do they think about God? We do not know. How come only humans think about God? We are
just like those helpless animals in many respects. Whatever is discussed above for them applies
to us even in every aspect. We are social animals, it is said. God gave us the extra facility of
speech. They only make sounds which are understood by them but we can speak and
communicate much better.

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Building houses to live: very few animals besides man can build abodes to live. Some birds build
nests, ants build ant hills to be occupied later by snakes, bees to store honey in the beehives
built by them, rats etc build burrows, lions live in dens etc .

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Dear God, you bless your great devotees. In fact those great devotees were created by you to
guide the rest of the humans. You bless even the cruelest persons by killing them. In fact you
created them to show us why we should not be cruel.

Your great devotees are highly intelligent and strong willed people. You only create them and
bless them. They are pious persons with all best possible virtuous traits : Humane and
determined to serve people and God. Have no distractive thoughts. Not interested in the
pleasures of the world. Not interested in acquiring wealth. Not interested in carnal pleasures.
They are very peaceful with tranquil minds, kind and forgiving. They do not bother about abuses
that they are subjected to at times. They are never bothered about their family welfare and
about earning lots of money and comforts for them. Some of them bore the tag of the most
useless persons on the earth and good for nothing title even by their own families. They are
subjected to humiliations and even punishments for not being subservient to persons of
influence and being docile. They are dull and not smart in our day to day to day activities.

On the other hand, the wicked persons are very intelligent to have influence over many
followers, to satisfy all their needs, to earn wealth by unscrupulous means, to harass those who
do not toe their line etc. They do not care God in all sincerity. They sometimes donate to
religious establishments and charity institutions to be in the limelight and for publicity. They are
considered to be smart by their followers and by those ignorant of their real intentions.

21.2.15. Is there any recgnisad classification of your devotees? Excellent, very

good,good,satisfactory?

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The great majority of people are simple minded, peace loving, work hard to earn living, take
care of family needs and family ties, law abiding, and have faith in God. They appreciate and
follow the great devotees of God and fear the wicked persons. They pray God to lead peaceful
and successful life.
In simple terms life can be said to be successful when we satisfy: 1.The aspirations of our
parents. They wish us to lead a just, healthy, independent and respectable life in the society. 2.
The aspirations of our parents-in-law. They wish us to make our spouses happy by treating
them as equals in all decisions related to the married life. 3. The aspirations of our teachers. At
all levels they taught us lessons of life from which we understand the working principles of the
world in general and the particular specializations we choose. They would all be happy when
we receive whatever they taught in all sincerity and attention. 4. The aspirations of our spouses
when we are sincere and faithful to them and share life as equals. 5. The children are brought
up properly, educate them to whatever extent possible and make them lead just and
independent life just as our parents and teachers wished us to be. 6. Our responsibilities in the
society. They are simple. Let us not hurt the feelings of other fellow beings in the society:
humans, animals and plants. We should deal with land and water with due respect. By being
unkind to animals, plantations, land and water on which we dependent, we are damaging
ecology and thus endanger our future generations of humans and animals. 7. Let us help poor
once in a while silently and without publicity. 8. Let us realize our mistakes committed
consciously or unconsciously. 9. Let us be faithful to God who created this universe. God is
abstract. We cannot see Him. We can only feel Him through the nature, if we observe the world
critically. God would be happy and kind to us if we satisfy the aspirations of all the stakeholders
of in our life.

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Why God created carnivores? Does He like violence? He is the creator of universe and
everything in it. And all the living organisms in universe are designed by Him to eat some food
to live (or make own food in case of plants and trees). But why did He design the living beings to
feed themselves by killing the fellow organisms and eat them? How much of mental and
physical agony and torture has to be undergone by the prey while getting chased and killed?
Why God has not taken this into consideration? There might be dependents of the victim and
their lives too are shattered due to the loss. Will the tiger allow its cub to be taken away for
killing? Does not a buffalo moan when its calf is killed? The tiger and the buffalo would resist
and fight against their kids being taken away by strangers. They feel restless if they don’t find
their wards. It is sometimes said that all such creatures are created to be the food for some
others. In that case why did God create herbivores and plants?
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Our mental setup at the time of prayer affects our prayer. We want all our attention to God
while we conduct our prayers. But our concentration gets disturbed if our thoughts are diverted
to some unsavory events that happened sometime ago. It becomes very difficult realize to
come out of those vicious thoughts and pay full attention to God. It appears that it is easier to
get entangled in those disturbing thoughts and get more and more involved in them than to
rein in those thoughts.

While serving in an organization, our equation and ties with our boss or the one that influences
him are very important. If that relation gets disturbed due to any reason which may not
necessarily be our own doing, the repercussions are bad. If our boss comes under the influence
of someone that is important to him and the third person does not like us, it immediately
reflects on our relationship with our boss. When our relationship with the boss turns sour or is
degraded, all those working with boss also look down on us as untouchables.

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1.9.14 God! What is good in this world or universe? We are imperfect human beings. That is
why we are unable to grasp you and your thoughts. That is why we are fighting among
ourselves and causing miseries to your creatures. There seems to be no end for this situation.
We are all selfish. We basically want our immediate family to prosper. Our basic family unit
consists of me, my wife and my children and my parents. It includes my brothers and sisters as
long as they share the inherited wealth in just manner. It includes them as long as they treat us
well even when they become much more prosperous than me and I treat them equally well in
case I become more prosperous. But alas, the problem is that it does not happen that way. I
belittle them when I become richer or vice versa. So the basic unit of family shrinks. My own
children may follow the same sentiments when they become independent. This applies to
whole society.

While cooperating with each other we live in groups. We cooperate with each other as long as
we are independent of each other. In case a family in the group becomes bankrupt totally due
to some misfortune, will others in the group come to their rescue? For small needs and for
small periods of time help may come. But in case the main bread winner in the family dies or
becomes crippled, and that family becomes totally dependent on others, will those others come
to their rescue for indefinite time? Not in all probability. That family has to depend on their old
parents, if that is possible. Otherwise it is shattered and has to find some means to survive. In
all probability, brothers and sisters may not support them except in rare cases. They may help
them to adjust to a new situation of lower status.

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What is evil? Evil is to be unkind to the creation of God. To harm the nature is evil. Tiger in a
jungle is not an evil. If it trespasses its habitat and harms humans and their cattle, it is an evil act
though unintentional. Humans have equal right to live and take care of their livelihood through
raising cattle and harnessing and domesticating other animals like cows, buffalos, horses, oxen,
dogs, hen, cocks, goats, sheep, donkeys, pigs, etc. as long as they are kind while using them. If
humans trespass into jungle and get attacked by an animal there, it not an evil act by that
animal. An animal does not possess reasoning and rational mind as a human. But humans
should not attack the wild animals entering their habitat as animals do not realize the
boundaries. Humans must try to drive them away into the jungle.

A person is usually punished by the established judicial machinery accepted by the society. It
awards punishment appropriately in accordance with the nature of crime. But some arrogant
and vice people tend to defy the civilized and harmonious living and try to impose their will with
an intention to usurp property and authority. They exploit and manipulate people to achieve
their ambition. They divide society in whatever manner they think suitable for them, be it in the
name of religion, region, caste, creed, language etc. They breed hatred among the humanity.
Some people join them to further their own interests through these power mongers. Some are
forced to work for them to avoid harm and unjust punishment. Some others are influenced and
indoctrinated to follow them. Only God can punish such evil persons.

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11.9.14 There is no limit to human intelligence. Great scientists have high intelligence.
Great politicians have high intelligence. Great devotees, poets, writers, artists, social reformers,
businessmen, educationists and sports persons have high intelligence. Great cheaters,
fraudsters, autocrats, dictators have high intelligence. They used their intelligence to shine in
their respective fields. Many of them were satisfied with their achievements and were
contented with the laurels they received. They were proud of their work and the fame and
riches they got in turn. But there are also persons who were not satisfied with what they
achieved as they realized the limitations in their capabilities: intellectual and physical. They may
not express them explicitly but they understood that though what they achieved was great it
was not enough and that there was no end or limit to any achievement. Can any of the great
persons in any field claim that there is nothing more to achieve? Then who is a satisfied person?
An ignorant person is a satisfied person. A person of ego is a satisfied person with his
achievements. Science has no limits or horizon. Knowledge is always outdated by improved
theories or methods. God’s creation is always puzzling in microscopic and macroscopic
dimensions. Can anybody know what I am thinking? Can we guess what is going to happen to us
in any next moment for sure? Can we know what happened at any place sometime back? Can
we avoid aging and death? There may be many secrets in the universe yet to be realized and are
perhaps beyond our perception.

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17.9.14. When does a person get satisfaction? Satisfaction is a mental process. It gives us
pleasure. It is a particular state of mind. When we achieve something we wanted at that
particular time or period, we get satisfaction. It is a continuous process. When we get a good
night sleep we feel fresh in the morning and are satisfied with the rest we had. Otherwise we
feel restless and disturbed and may get headache too. We shall be satisfied when we drink a
morning coffee or tea that we are habituated to. Otherwise we shall feel something missing and
uneasy as in the case when we are in travel and we don’t get it. If we don’t read news paper in
time in the morning we feel uneasy. We search for the news of our interest and be happy if we
go through those pages even though there is nothing great in it. We get satisfaction just from
wading through it. We made it a habit and so just feel good once that rigmarole is finished. We
will be satisfied with our regular prayer when it is properly done with due concentration. We
are satisfied when we get breakfast of our liking. Otherwise it is taken mechanically.

There is no end or limit for level of satisfaction. Even animals have satisfaction. They are like us
only in many aspects like getting food, living with spouse, playing, getting babies etc. Rich
people are satisfied if they have all amenities for a deluxe living and comforts. Even if they miss
a small comforting activity they feel bad.

Some people get satisfaction as leaders. Some others get it as followers.

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For parents all the children are equal. They want them to live happily and be prosperous. They
want them to live in utmost harmony. They discourage fighting among themselves. The children
have their own preferences and priorities as they grow. They may or may not have ideas about
life as their wish to be. Parents are expected to be wiser due to their experience in life. They
went through several hardships as they grew up. They may be successful or not successful and
so in either case they are in a better position to offer a piece of advice to the children. But due
to human nature, the children of the same parents may accept their guidance or may hate to be
guided by the parents. All are not equal. Upto a certain age, children are completely dependent
on parents. Even an infant may not like the food liked and offered by parents. Father or mother
may like sweet food or drink. The child may not like it. This kind of differences of preferences
may be there in every aspect of life. It all depends on the child’s biological and psychological
setup which is not under the control of parents. The child may unwillingly and reluctantly
accept some activities thrust on him even though they are for his well being. At certain age he
feels uncomfortable with this parental guidance, but still being dependent on them has to
accept it. But once the child is away from them or becomes independent, his activities are all of
his own. He is the master of his own fate. Parents will think about their prosperity even on their
deathbed.
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We have faith in God. We totally surrender to Him in that whatever happens in the His creation
is fully known to Him and so our actions cannot escape His attention. We cannot understand
the mechanism with which He works. In fact what do we know about Him? Have we seen Him?
Have we as any normal mortal of this era or age got even an iota of proof that He exists? In this
well established scientific age every concept goes by proof and evidence. Any hypothesis or
proposition or axiom or view or any mentally conceived heuristic concept has to undergo
rigorous process of mathematical logic / deduction or validation and independent verification in
laboratory for its consistency and repetitiveness.

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29+ Evidences for Macroevolution

http://www.talkorigins.org/faqs/comdesc/sciproof.html

"If you thought that science was certain — well, that is just an error on your part."

Richard Feynman (1918-1988).

Testing Involves a Totality of Evidence and Statistics

"As far as the laws of mathematics refer to reality, they are not certain; and as far as they are certain,
they do not refer to reality."

Albert Einstein, addressing the Prussian Acadamy of Science, Berlin , Jan 27, 1921

The validity of a hypothesis does not stand or fall based on just a few confirmations or
contradictions, but on the totality of the evidence. Often, data that initially may seem to be
inconsistent with a theory will in fact lead to new important predictions. The history of
Newtonian physics gives a clear example. The abnormal movement of Uranus was initially
considered inconsistent with Newton's new theory. However, by claiming the existence of
an unseen planet, the anomaly was explained within Newton's paradigm. In general, an
explanation for anomalous behavior should be considered ad hoc unless it is independently
verifiable. Positing a new, unseen planet might be considered hedging if there were no
independent way to detect if a new planet actually existed. Nevertheless, when technology
had advanced enough to reliably test the new prediction, the unseen planet was found to be
Neptune.

The lesson to be learned is that alternate explanations for "anomalies" should be treated
like any other hypotheses: they should be weighed, tested, and either ruled out or
confirmed. But a hypothesis should not be considered invalidated until thorough testing has
produced multiple lines of positive evidence indicating that the hypothesis is truly
inconsistent with the empirical data.

A crucial related point is that modern scientific theories are probabilistic. This means that
all testing of scientific predictions is carried out in a statistical framework. Probability and
statistics pervade modern scientific theories, including thermodynamics (statistical
mechanics), geology, quantum mechanics, genetics, and medicine. While the mathematics
of probability can be daunting for some, a working knowledge of statistics is absolutely
essential for judging the fit between observed data and the predictions of any theory.

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We do some mistakes and immediately making us realize them and in turn ask God why He has
made us to commit those mistakes? We are fallible. We are ignorant of the nature of God. We
doubt God quite often. We blame Him for all the misfortunes in this world. We do not
remember Him for the prosperity we got by our hard work or our smartness. We do not
remember Him for the good health we have. We attribute our diseases to Him asking Him why
he is punishing us.

If we kill a defenseless animal for our consumption it is right, but if an animal kills us for its
consumption it is natural but we kill that animal. Why God designed animals to be eaten by
animals for a living like fish eating fish and other carnivores?

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 27.9.14 GOD & MAN : why do humans believe in God? Why do they have the utmost faith in
Him? [Ze covers both he and she, rhythms with he or she; plural zes; zin is akin to him or her; zis
goes with his or hers.]. Zes, whether they are greatest scientists or mightiest monarchs or
horrific villains, have faith in God because they realize their limitations and also recognize,
heuristically, that there is some supernatural force that is controlling all that is in the nature.
They did not see God; did not feel God; did not communicate with Zin[:him,her] . They did not
even come into contact with anybody who knew Zin. There is no proof that Ze exists. Still they
pray God in all good faith. Even those who have an iota or more of doubt about Zis existence
leave it to the benefit of doubt and take it for granted that Ze exists. They feel comfort in that
feeling or mindset. Then if such feeling is causing good to zin, without causing any harm or side
effect, zin prefers to have it rather than not. It may look foolish or against rational thinking
which brought success to the scientists. Even the most independent thinkers and philosophers
surrender before God without any question. The non believers or atheists or rationalists do not
buy this logic. May be God made them to ……..

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We are mute spectators of what has been happening in this world. We are sometimes
intimidated by the events around us. As of now, we are fortunate that we are not the victims of
those unfortunate activities and atrocities. People are harassed, robbed, molested, raped and
murdered by criminals or by normal persons – turned-evil persons due to some compelling
circumstances. These are besides the unforeseen disasters for which nobody can be blamed.
We pray God that anything of that sort of misfortune should not happen to us and pray Him to
grant us peace.

To what extent we should be selfish? We pray God to help us & our family. We want our family
to be safe and be prosperous. We want our children win in all competitions. But we don’t wish
or pray for others to lose in the competitions. We are positive in our approach. Even when we
know our children are inferior to their competitors, we wish our children to participate and try
to win. It is quite normal as long as we do not scheme or plot for a win in a devious manner. We
are unhappy to lose but are not very sad at the loss against a genuine winner. We thank God if
we win.

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We sometimes think why God didn’t give us better abilities when we compare ourselves with
others endowed with better capabilities in terms of intelligence, memory, rational thinking,
service to society, oratory skills, convincing skills, wealth, health, etc. and of course luck. But
with regard to our family we will never think why we didn’t get a better spouse and better
children with all the above qualities. We will not blame our parents for our deficiencies and
limitations. We are all very pragmatic and try to be contented with the levels of capabilities we
are granted by birth and later by the upbringing. We try to maximize our gains vis a vis our
abilities. If lady luck smiles on us our gains will far exceed. All persons cannot achieve the same
kind success as the established ones did. For example, all cannot become Bill Gates and
Einsteins.

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We think why God has not blessed us with devotion unto Him as He did with His great devotees
like Thyaga Raju, Kannappa, etc.

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A person is given birth by zen [his or her]mother. Mother feeds zin[him or her], protects zin,
gives all the affection possible, teaches zin, plays with zin, creates emotional attachment and
feeling of being protected and being well taken care of in zin. Ze[he or she] feels secured with
zen mother and father.

In case of a boy, as he grows and becomes independent, he is married and his wife takes the
position of his mother in so far as affection, food, health aspects and other daily needs as a
housewife even when she works in a job outside. Besides, the wife is the best intimate
companion and friend for whole life. She provides carnal pleasures. She emotionally and
physically bonds and shares his feelings, pleasures and hardships. She supports him in all his
dealings. She turns a mother and has duties towards the children as much as with husband. She
is always occupied with the thoughts about the welfare of husband and children. She is at peace
when the husband and children are well. She is worried when they suffer. Thus she fulfils her
job and is accomplished in the life. The husband takes all measures to make her feel at home
with him after she leaves her parents. He makes her feel his affection and protection. He makes
her feel that he is dependent on her for his needs at home like food, clothes etc while helping
her in her daily chores. He makes her feel proud that he is under her guardianship at home.
Thus she happily switches over from her maternal home to her home. In fact both play
guardian to each other in their own way. Both share everything in their life together. After
marriage both have several aspects that may not be revealed to their parents even. They are
guided by their own unwritten rules as to how far they can share their family affairs with their
parents, friends and even their own children. They may have many aspects which should not be
discussed with their children who they love the most. They may have their own opinions about
their children, their good and bad nature or behavior which they may not be inclined to share
with the children to some extent. They know to what extent they can discuss about the bad
behavior of one child with another child. They do not want to create ill will among the children.
They wish to encourage amity and harmony among the children.

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8.10.14 & 11.10.14 When I was a child I was asking my father or mother whatever I wanted.
They were acceding to my demands in accordance with the reasonableness of my requests and
their ability to satisfy me. They had to consider the after effects of fulfilling my demands. My
siblings too were watching what I was getting and they too should be provided with exactly
same things I got or their demands might altogether be different. They would say that whatever
I asked for was given to me and so similar treatment should be meted out to them. Next once I
knew that I got what I wanted, I would gather confidence to ask for more. Parents always tried
to satisfy us while at the same time teaching us softly why they would not grant us whatever we
wanted. They would inform that what I asked was beyond their financial capability or whatever
I asked for was not reasonable as it would harm me more. In case of eatables, they informed
that they would affect my health or they were very costly. I would accept it grudgingly or if I
insisted adamantly they were firm with harsh no. I would weep for some time and they would
try to divert my attention to some other lighter aspects. I would learn to recognize and
compromise or downgrade my unreasonable demands. I would think twice before putting up
my next demands.

These were all lessons to us by parents in an indirect fashion how to live and manage in this
world. They would teach us how to behave with siblings, friends, elders, neighbors, animals and
with the nature. Thus they taught us the human and the nature management aspects. They
taught us to be patient by not providing us whatever we wanted as and when we liked. They
would give as per the need and schedule. They taught us the value of time and time
management by informing us when to go to play, with what and whom to play, and when to
return; when to eat, how much to eat and what not to eat; how keep ourselves neat and tidy;
how to keep our environment clean. We used to complain to parents about the harsh behavior
of friends during the play and we would get lessons about how to respond properly and how
not to react and fight. We would ask why we should not and hit back as we felt that injustice
was done to us. Mother would talk to soothe our feelings and would ask us to wait and be
patient. Not long after, we were playing again with the same friends. Mothers played greater
role by being with us for almost all the time in the day. We learned by observation that father
would go out and return at a specified times in the day. Later as we grew older we knew why he
went out every day. We would come to understand from mother that he earned by working
and thus we got finances to spend to live comfortably and enjoy. We learnt to a large extent
from our friends too. We observed their behavior: good or bad; their mentality, the way they
thought and their moods; their methodology in games, studies and dressing up; the way they
spoke, communicated and their body language; how to request, cajole or argue with them; how
to bear inconveniences from them like getting insulted, bullied or being ostracized etc. We
would come back and discuss with mother who would help us to understand those aspects and
face such situations with confidence, tolerance and patience.

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We don’t always sail through life smoothly and comfortably. There would be many rough
patches. The sooner we face hardships in life the better. We would be equipped better to face
challenges in the later part of life with confidence.

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Probability is the strongest evidence of God. We cannot predict with 100 percent accuracy the
results of several events like the gender of a naturally conceived embryo, the winner of any
game of equally talented opponents like tennis, football, cricket, etc . We cannot predict the
result of a lottery, where the storm crosses land a few hours in advance, when human mind
surrenders to weaknesses and attractions, whether some body returns home safely, which way
an ant or a mosquito moves. We can only make the best guess of the outcome of which we are
not sure. That is why it is a guess. It is always safe to say my guess is.. We cannot predict where
an electron is at any moment.
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Men are more fickle minded than women though they appear or pretend to be masters of the
status of their minds. Women are more possessive than men. This trait may be the result of
some kind of insecurity they may have compared to men. A man can walk in the night alone in
the streets even though he has the fear of some attack by thieves. He may after all lose some
valuables in his possession. Woman fears for more for valid reasons.

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13.10.14 We have to pray God to prevent us from becoming slaves to weak thoughts that are
treacherous to our character. I pray and get relief that I have sincerely and wholeheartedly
done a fantastic duty by requesting God to purify me. But alas, after a few hours I realize that I
am not a very much changed person and that bad thoughts still haunt me. I get angry with God
and demand Him why He has not reformed me completely. Why am I being pushed into the
devilish thoughts? Is it because God does not like me? Why is He making me take wrong path
and then make me repent? Why is He, after my repeated requests to reform me, still allowing
me to tread thorny path leaving the royal way of reaching Him? Do not I deserve better
treatment from Him? What can I advise my children when I am not a fulfilled person? Still I have
to ask them not to do any act that is against our conscience which cautions us continuously
against making mistakes. I have to tell them, and simultaneously tell me too, that we have to
orient ourselves to God and He will do the rest. He is very kind. Are not our parents kind to us?
Are not our grandparents kind to us? Our parents scolded us for our wrong deeds and we even
received beatings from them for not following their advice. But it is out of affection and grief
that we may be spoiled. They ask us and request us not to commit wrong acts. Then as a last
resort they rebuke us. They want to create a kind of fear in us that if we do not follow their right
advice we would be scolded or beaten. So initially, out fear we do not want to do any mistake.
That way, we habituate ourselves to be good and feel good by following their lessons and there
by pleasing them. Our grandparents love and pamper us too much. They are not willing even to
scold us out of affection. We enjoy too much liberty with them. We play with them. We do not
want to displease them. So we listen and follow their advice even though we become naughty
with them sometimes. We too love them. Our grand grand parents, if we are fortunate to have
their company, are themselves an embodiment of love. They treat like precious things. They
think that they are fortunate to be in our company. They thank God for giving them such
opportunity. We will realize how much affectionate they are to us only when we take up their
position when we grow old and have our own grand children. Then, what about God, who is the
creator of all of us, our parents, grandparents, their parents and so on? How much affectionate
He is to all of us? We should reciprocate in the same token. We should never be angry with Him
just as we are never angry with our parents and grandparents. We should never think of leaving
Him.

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We are witnessing very frequently wars, cold wars, proxy wars and acts of terrorism in some
part or other of our world. There are reasons for every fight. Fight for principles, power,
expansionism, hegemony, for oil, water, for business development etc.

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17.10.14 Dear God, I am a good bad man. i.e. I am definitely a bad man, but as I do not
intentionally harm any being in the nature, I consider myself as somewhat good among bad
people. So I request you consider to elevate me to the good man level. Sometimes I feel
whether I am a bad person among good. I feel that the being bad among good is much better
and preferable than being good among bad. The bad persons always consider good persons as
their enemies and they want to destroy all that is even a little good outright without having
consideration that the good persons never intend to harm even the bad persons, but only try to
counsel and change their hearts and thus make them mend their behavior to do service to the
society instead of causing harassment. Thus they grudge someone tending to be even slightly
good. Such persons are like poison and are more harmful to the society of bad persons than the
good persons. So they ostracize and harass such good bad persons and make their life hell to
set an example and caution the other bad persons. In contrast, good persons do not harm or
criticize a bad person among them. They only try to change zin( him or her) through discourse
and education or continuous acts of affection and kindness. They do not consider zin to be
enemy or poison. Good persons, being good, cannot be distracted even by very bad people. So
the bad among them cannot do anything to turn them bad. Thus it is better to be bad among
goodpersons than being good among bad persons.

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18.10.14 Praying God is more important than the method of praying. INTELLECTUALS, so called
idiots, rich persons, poor persons all pray God with a single aim. Save us from disasters ; natural
or man made or human inflicted. Human inflicted may be due to man made pollution of nature,
man made levels in society, man made harassments due to arrogance, power, money, and
treating others as inferiors. All these human made maladies cannot be avoided any time. They
were there; are there and will be there. Only degree may vary. We only pray God always that
we should not become victims of these maladies. We pray Him that let our life be led as
smoothly and peacefully as possible. We commit many mistakes by way of entertaining vices in
the form of ideas and actions. They may not be aimed at harming others. They may damage our
own lives. Jealousy kills us silently. Inferiority complex damages us. Laziness breeds inefficiency
and invites rebukes. Procrastination lets us lose opportunities for betterment of life.
Dependence on others makes us slaves. Arrogance leads to defiance and downfall. Superiority
complex poisons our minds and behavior with others. Vices like drinking, smoking, irregular
food habits in timings, quantities as well as attraction to junk foods spoil health. Infatuation
with other sex contaminates mind, family relations and other human relations.

Prayer to God is the best and only answer from all kinds of malaise and suffering. It It makes us
live in peace even in unavoidable and worst suffering. It gives us confidence. Dependence on
God is not like dependence on humans. Humans may take advantage of our dependence on
them. With God it is different. That is why He does not show Himself to us. If He is with us like
any other human, we treat Him like any other human. We develop cult worship even with Him.
He gave us mind not to entirely over depend even upon Him. We have to depend on ourselves
and take care of those who depend on us, like our family. God wants us to use our mind
properly to make a living here by executing our duties. Our duties depend again on what we
choose using our minds and physical capabilities. Each is destined to fulfill only certain
activities. Everyone cannot excel in all fields or specializations. Everyone cannot become
musician, teacher, administrator, politician, farmer, leader, sports person, poet-lyricist-novelist,
anchor, singer, dancer, artist, painter, sculptor etc. Every human has to recognize his innate
ability and synchronize his efforts in that direction in order to derive full satisfaction and results
and provide his own contribution in that particular field. Otherwise conflict between ability and
interest may harm his personality. I may be interested in singing but my vocal chords may not
suit. I may wish to run like an athlete but my structure may not permit it. I may not become a
leader, being an introvert, selfish and shy.
Human dependency is mutual and everywhere. A leader has to depend on his cadres for results
and they depend on him for their living. Husband and wife depend on each other. Children
depend on parents and parents may have to depend on children in old age. For execution of any
job subordinates depend on the boss for proper decisions and guidelines and guidance and boss
on the subordinates for proper execution of his ideas.

So what is the part of God in this? God has designed each individual by the genetic process
called Meiosis. That is not the end of God’s job. He rules our fate which governs us from being
conceived in mother’s womb till death. Death may come at any instant after conception. This
applies to all living things. After conception, in humans and animals, the embryo may become
defective due to any reason: accidents, improper nutrition of mother, diseases and emotions of
mother etc. We know whatever can happen after the delivery of a child. That is the fate a
particular person.

Due to scientific and technological development we may alter a few genes of haploids in sperm
and ovum but not all millions of genes. Not for whole population. And their fate cannot be
controlled afterwards by anyone. There comes God.

And it applies to non living things in a different fashion.

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Scientists of some rogue countries may try to produce a super person using genetic changes or
produce super bugs and virus to destroy enemy countries.

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Do mosquitoes and ants have hearts? Which size insects do not have heart, lungs, blood etc?
What made sizes of all living things as there now? Why people are not taller etc? if moon were
not there what would have happened? How many different kinds of species were there two
hundred years ago, before man caused their destruction by way of industrialization and
indiscriminately harming nature?

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Some persons may be good in many aspects but may be bad in some other aspects which may
not cause harm to society or other individuals. For example, a person may good and un harmful
to others but is jealous , or is greedy, or look at women in lust, or make fun of others, or hate
others due to some silly reasons such as not accepting him as a leader, or not being tidy, or be
lazy, or become slave to drinking, gambling etc. Such kind of thinking and behaviour may not be
illegal but would destroy him as an individual. He may cause damage to family life and may
distance some friends. Spouse may not like such qualities; children may emulate such bad traits.
He may be aware of his weakness but is unable to mend himself despite his efforts to avoid it as
it is deeply ingrained in his genes. Reforming such a person may be difficult. Counseling won’t
help much. He might try hard to leave that weakness, but he could succeed only temporarily
and soon would revert back. He would silently pray God to save him from such situations but of
no avail. Being helpless and frustrated, he would have to unwillingly, grudgingly and reluctantly
live with some bad traits. He would be self deprecating and be remorseful every now and then.
Does God like him or would punish him?

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Scientists are messengers of God. They work hard to understand and reveal the secrets of
nature. It is a continuous and probably never ending process. The micro universe inside the
micro cells of living organisms appears to be more complicated and puzzling than the macro
universe. Inside each cell there are thousands of chemical reactions, components designed and
built to the utmost precision and accuracy and all systems and transport mechanisms working in
synchronism as per the programs incorporated by way of arrangement of the molecules of
chromosomes.

There was no dearth of intelligent, super intelligent, intellectual persons and geniuses in the
past. God made them to think and work in a different way. They too were trying hard to
understand the basics and roots of nature.

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29.10.14 GOD created several great devotees and they were (are) completely devoted to HIM.
They withstood all kinds of tests by humans as well as GOD. GOD tested those devotees through
humans, who acted as villains some times, to indicate to the world what kind of devotees they
were. So, GOD has made some bad people who harassed and humiliated the devotees. But, the
devotees, being created by God, took all such predicaments into their stride and were
vindicated. Thus, through those devotees GOD showed the right path of living to the rest of the
world. Ordinary humans believe in good persons only through some miracles. To start and
continue the mission of serving destitutes, handicapped, sufferers from vicious diseases or ill
fate, down trodden, under privileged, cheated, innocent people is an arduous task which can be
overcome only by a few blessed ones. I find myself not belonging to that category of good
people. I am a very much down to earth person and selfish. I do not hesitate to forget you
when I am in comforts and do not hesitate to blame you for any misfortunes I face. So, YOU
only have to save me from my bad nature, which I am unable to get rid of. If YOU do not care
me, where can I go ?

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Even the great philosophers, thinkers, intellectuals and scientists have very limited
understanding of the nature created by YOU. They are great because YOU blessed them. YOU
showed them the right path and so they created good work in their fields. Show me the right
path to discover a few features of your nature.

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Women are great. They bring up children, grand children with affection and utmost care, while
paying highest attention to their husbands.

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A person has two young sons. Both of them are very obedient to him, pay very good attention
to him, take his guidance, and consult him for all matters related to their family. They have
good character and are always working towards the reputation of their family. Their father is
always satisfied with their attitude and behavior. He used to teach them to be respectable
elders and save the honour of the family at any personal cost and they are in complete
agreement with the ideas and the vision of their father. They are grown up to think and take
independent decisions. The father is very proud of them. Both the sons are married.

There is one attitude which they possess and their father considers that it is required to live in
this world with dignity. It is a kind of being very confident of what they are thinking, assume
that their decisions are always right and implement in full vigor what they thought is good for
their family. The father is happy for having such great sons.
The father has to go far off for some work and the two sons are to handle the day to day affairs
of the family business and house. Sometime later, an occasion has come when a crucial decision
that has a great bearing on the family has to be taken. The brothers discussed the matter and
understood that they have difference of opinion to deal with the problem. Their methods are
somewhat conflicting with each other on some minor issues. Either of them thinks that he is
right and is not inclined to change or deviate from his plan. Both are equally adamant and are
not ready to get convinced by the other’s viewpoint. Now they have the support of their
respective wives who are (i) fully supportive of their spouses irrespective of the logic of
argument of the other side, or (ii) unable to convince their spouses to try to have a
compromising stance in the arguments in view of the superscribing family ties, or (iii) of the
nature to add more fuel to fire in order to settle some earlier personal scores. Sensing
something is wrong, some external forces may enter to disturb the otherwise harmonious
family. Eventually, the peaceful ambience of the family is disturbed to the point of no return.
Still both the brothers strongly feel that they are acting in the best interests of the family. They
would not listen to a wise third person who understood the problem thoroughly and tried to
change their perception for good.

Somewhat similar events happened and continue to happen with respect to God. Though all the
believers are in agreement that God is our creator and that we should be truthful and faithful
to Him, they have their own approaches to God and get troubled and offended if some others
follow any different approach of understanding God and would not hesitate to suppress them.

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2.11.14. In the human cell there are about 25,000 genes??. They are responsible for the
development, growth and repair of all parts of body. They are the cause of manufacture of
proteins for the body functioning. From the time of conception of zygote (the result of
fertilization the female’s egg by male’s sperm) to the natural death at old age of a human(or
any living thing), the genes play the most vital role. After conception, they provide the blue
print of human. Just before fertilization there was no human shape. Just after fertilization, the
whole design of a new human in all respects, such as physiological, intellectual and
psychological characteristics is fixed. The new human is entirely different from the parents who
contributed the sperm and the egg. The common characteristics of a human structure or
anatomy such as two legs, hands, eyes, heart etc are preserved. But he is an entirely a different
person in appearance and in thoughts. If a sculptor is asked to manufacture the statue of a
person, he takes measurements of that person and manufactures (sculpts??) an approximate
and similarly appearing statue of that person out of some material. But the manufacture a real
person inside womb and his growth after the delivery are profoundly different. From micro
organisms : sperm and the egg,( I do not know whether I am right if I say they have life) after
the process of meiosis that follows the fertilization, the human fetus and then the human shape
develop by continuous cell division. Every micro part of the body is created and grown
continuously. The blue print changes every micro second. If we were to go through the whole
process of the development of the body of an individual, millions of drawings are required
which should be modified every micro second. Are all such designs incorporated in the genes?
Unimaginable!!

Then what about evolution of a real human from no shape to the present shape? Throughout
the evolution of the organisms over billions of years, billions of alterations must have
spontaneously happened and the changes must have been recorded in the genes for future use.
There are millions of chemical reactions occurring in the body with the help of several enzymes,
harmones etc. Human body must have evolved to the present shape after millions of changes in
structure, organs, nervous and other blood circulatory systems.

The genes were to be designed, created, and developed and modified continuously to get to
this present stage?

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5.11.14. Whenever I see the new smooth and light green leaves of a plant or a tree I
immediately think that they are just like plastic leaves. I am living mostly in the artificial world
made by man. So the man made articles have become a standard for me. So, if I see anything
that is natural, I compare it with what I am more familiar with. In case I see a running horse, I
compare it with my motor cycle with regard to its speed. In the beginning of industrial
revolution, machine’s capacity was compared with the power of horse, calling it ‘horse power’.
Now I say whether horse can run as fast as my motor cycle. With my artificial scents and sprays,
I forgot about the natural fragrance of flowers. I compare the natural fragrance of a flower with
my sprays and think that that the natural fragrance is just like my spray’s fragrance. I even feel
that my chemical spray is much better. So instead of saying that whatever I have is similar to a
corresponding thing in nature and approaches it, I say that whatever I find in nature is similar to
what I have bought in market, if at all I have time to watch nature. I may watch nature, but I will
not appreciate its beauty and grandeur, as I don’t know the secrets of nature. I am happy to be
grown up in my artificial world, synthetic articles, music from the speakers of a radio or TV, the
animals made out of plastics or clay or those shown on TV and then say that the real lion is just
like the one seen on the TV. I am at home with the whole world or universe seen within the four
walls of my house than with the nature. My ambience in my drawing hall is more natural to me
than the nature outside. The nature inside my house is more clean, safe and economical. I am
understanding everything about and in the nature from the unnatural video displays and
visuals. I don’t appreciate the melodious voice of the bird koel or the chirpings of birds as I am
habituated to the high decibel sounds from audio speakers. I don’t know and like the symphony
created by the great conductors of the past. It is noise for me. I am modern and much advanced
and tuned and grown up in these supersonic beats than that old music which is too slow and
boring and so meaningless for me. They are all not for me. I am happy with my robots and
remote controlled objects. Outside nature is artificial for me and inside computer monitor, ipad,
smart phone or mobile, TV and robotic materials are the most natural for me. I am more
comfortable with my things. Why do you want to poison my mind with those so called nature
and natural things? I like the delicacies what you guys call the junk food made out of artificial
colors and flavors and essences, bottled fruit juices and carbonated drinks. Don’t bother me
with the moral lessons about natural and fresh fruits and vegetables. I don’t have time even to
think about such things leave alone take the pains of preparing food items in kitchen. I can buy
the cans and bottles of any kind of your natural fruits and fruit juices and any food items at the
click of my mouse or my finger tip movements on the touch screens and get them door
delivered in no time. Hell with the preservatives in them and the date of manufacture. I can get
the most unseasonal fruits and vegetables from the cold storage. So why should I search for
those seasonally available fruits just outside my door. It is more painful and waste of energy
and time. I just open the fridge door and get it. I get ready to eat of anything from it. I need not
clean, peel off or cut into pieces. I can say proudly that I am enjoying mango in winter and the
winter fruit in summer. Great feeling. You are terribly outdated and old fashioned and out of
tune with the times. Be positive and think positive. Don’t say gloomy things and spoil my mood.
Don’t you understand that the only constant in the world is change. So try to change and
improve your methods and attempt to enjoy. Hell with the health matters. Think about today
and be hilarious.
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I am happy if I think and hear negative things about others. It elates my mood. I know it is bad
but still I am unable to get out of it.

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While praying God, my thoughts wander and I feel bad, repent and put efforts to bring my mind
back to God.

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My wife is much superior to me. She never gets bored of daily chores of preparing food
throughout day, take care of household affairs, feed all the members with what they like, think
about their health. She bears the tension if things don’t go smooth and still makes things move.

Grandparents are essential for all : for their children for guidance and advice, for their grand
children to get tons of affection and love. Children may be afraid of parents but not of
grandparents.

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8.11.14 I sometimes feel that I am so faithful to God and do no harm to others in thoughts or
deeds, but I still get a raw deal from Him, whereas I find that those who have cruel thoughts,
adamant and arrogant get all wealth, respect and status etc. But God, I am made by you to be
as I am now. It is actually the greatest boon to me that I am without the hankering for the
things beyond my reach: that is what is due to me; that is what is given to me by You. But I am a
human created by You. I am not a perfect human in the sense of not being as You wish to be.
But I am as You wished me to be. That is why I am here as I am. So You create imperfect
humans too. This world is mostly of imperfect humans. Only the degree of imperfectness varies.
The perfect humans do not come out and show them up because they are perfect and are
against any wish to display their superior qualities. We recognize them by their unselfish deeds.
Being perfect they are completely devoted to You only. If they are inclined to any thing other
than You, they are imperfect. We are fortunate, that is we are made fortunate by You, if we
come across such perfect persons. We call them saints. Again about somebody getting better
worldly things than me, it is as per Your decision. You do not create anything without a specific
purpose. If we suffer, and its cause is beyond our grasp, it is due to some reason which You only
know. When I leave everything to you, why I should worry about me? Still I worry because I am
imperfect. So You will understand my confusion and ambiguity and pardon me for my
misdeeds. So, You please lead me towards perfectness, though the bad part of my conscience
warns me not to lose the worldly comforts and suffer due to lack of them. The struggle between
the bad and good parts of my conscience is never ending, and I am resigned to the fact that I
have to live with them.

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I always pray for the welfare of my immediate family. When I live with my parents and my
brothers and sisters, I seek their welfare. After marriage, I set up my family and I start praying
for my family welfare. I never pray for the well being of all humans or all living things. I am
selfish.

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15.11.14 if I pray God, it is because God blessed me and turned my mind towards Him. It is due
to Him I am able to concentrate on Him even for a few minutes. Otherwise I cannot concentrate
on Him even for a few seconds.

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15.11.14 I am angry. I don’t know how You produced imperfect persons like me. I am neither
perfectly perfect nor perfectly imperfect. It is killing me. I am becoming inefficient because of
this. If am perfect in all respects I would have been utmost loyal to you and tuned to You. I am
not. I am suffering because I am not. I do not want to be perfectly imperfect in that I would
then hate You and do all wicked natured jobs with wicked thoughts which You do not and I too
do not like. I want to be a perfectly good natured person devoted to You all the time, but I am
unable to do that and am getting distracted from you as I am a weak minded person. So You
created a weak person and so are You are imperfect? You can not be imperfect because You
are God. What is this confusion?

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16.11.14 even while praying God, alone so that there are no other physical distractions, the
thought in the mind gets loose and picks up any topic suddenly and gets embroiled in it. There
is no boundary or restriction or direction for it. It takes mind away from God and into a different
world of emotions.

It is like a branch off from the current main program in a software coding and entering a sub
program which is altogether different from the main program. The main program is temporarily
forgotten while executing the sub program. Sub program is the current controller. From the sub
program too the control may branch off to another path (as required by the situation) and from
there to another path and so on and will finally trace back from all those diversions to the main
program. Sometimes the control may be lost in an infinite loop( i.e., get lost and making rounds
along the same path repetitively) unless precautions are taken to come out of it. There are bad
programs and good software programs.

It can also be compared to a drive along the national highway and on the way trying to locate a
rest house for a temporary break for refreshments and coffee. We take several diversions and
after the job is finished we shall return to the high way to continue the journey.

So our thoughts get lost any time from God during prayer and we become conscious at some
point, repent , feel very bad for the distraction and try hard to concentrate again on God. If we
are able to return to God we feel greatly relieved and be peaceful and tranquil. Otherwise we
feel uncomfortable and restless at the lost opportunity to align ourselves with God.

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20.11.14 While I stop at any red traffic signal, the beggars who station themselves
permanently at those fixed turnings come to me one after one. They know that I do not give
them anything. I travel in that route everyday to my college. So I may stop at those signals in all
probability. They know my face and I know them as we see each other every day. I don’t pay
them not because I am not kind to them. If I pay any one, the others there also come to me. Not
only that, I make them expect from me every day. They think that what if I pay them one rupee
every day and that I do not lose much or what I give is pittance for mr me and that it is one of
the drops that make a ocean for them. If I pay them every day, and I do not pay on any day they
think what has happened to me. Not only that, I heard stories that they have their own
associations or gangs and gang wars sometimes. They do not naturally allow any new beggar to
come to that place. They practically own that place. I heard that they have protection from their
leaders to who they pay on regular basis. Thus they are more secure. But they have to move a
lot in synchronization with the signals, stay under hot sun, live in atmosphere polluted by
exhaust gases from vehicles, and above all beg everyone even when they know that they will
not get from many. It is a hazardous and unhygienic job. If they fall ill it will be a big problem for
them. They are not covered under any insurance scheme. I do not know whether they insure
themselves if any money is left from their earnings. There are some junctions of traffic where
they may earn more. They consider that it is their profession without any investment or
training. They are their own bosses.

I hear stories of malpractices in that field. Children are forced to move with them (may be they
do not have any other alternative). I hear that they steal children and force them to beg for
them. I hear that they make children handicapped to earn out of pity.

And whenever I do not pay them, say always, I feel guilty. I feel that I cannot pay them every
day to everybody. But I pray God to pay me every day to live in comforts of whatever level I live
in. What if God says I cannot give you too every day or that He is bored with my same prayers
every day to give me something. I am not praying for welfare of the society. I am only praying
for my benefit and for my wife and children. I am selfish. Just as I feel pity about the beggars
but do not pay them, what if God also feels pity on me but does not show His mercy on me?
Even though I think all this, I won’t pay the beggars quite often as I am a practical and down to
earth person. That is what God has made me to be.

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21.11.14 We think that we do not have enemies because we have not done any harm to any
body and because we try to help others. But we have a great enemy within us : our wavering
mind which always tries to go out of control. It needs great mental and physical efforts to keep
it under our control. It is to be trained to divert it to be on moral path. If we have an aim to
perform good deeds, we can harness our mind to fulfill that aim and get it in proper direction
that way. There are always worldly attractions in the form of various vices which offer the least
resistance path to the hell on earth. That is, to lead a moral life it requires effort and sacrifice
but the other direction is effortless. Moral path is healthy as with good ideas and thoughts, our
emotions are under control. Mind and body have inseparable relation. Our body is made of
chemicals. Emotions develop chemicals to act on the body chemicals which act in the form of
blood pressure etc. The chemicals produced out of emotions disturb the chemical balance of
the body which leads to diseases.

It requires courage to follow moral path. Moral path initially invites insults and ostracisation to
some extent. In course of time it earns respect.

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22.11.14 God, how will you treat the class of people who believe You, have confidence in
You, pray You whenever possible, surrender to You, but being ordinary human beings, have
weaknesses and so get momentarily attracted to mean things in this world and thus get
distracted from right path. During that period of fall they forget You or the power of the stray
attractions overpower them even from the thoughts about You, or even if they remember You,
just get carried away from You. This class of persons are good. So, at the nearest opportunity of
their coming out of the grips of that vice, they are shattered for being disobedient to You and
for going against Your dictats and values. They pray You for pardon in all earnestness. They are
good most of the time except at times. They do not cause any kind of harm to any of Your
creatures, but get mental distractions from You. Still they are sinners and they know that. The
only good aspect about them is that they would never leave You and would present the facts of
errors committed by them to You.

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22.11.14 Many times many of us feel that the life we are getting along is not what we deserve
or what we desired. It may be true for some and exaggerated for others. We all expect life to be
smooth and glorious. In reality life is full of unexpected problems and handicaps.

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23.11.14 God, I am your devotee but with several weaknesses which distract me from You.
My experience all these years says that I cannot overcome them and so I am praying you to
protect me from those vices and drag me to You. Don’t ever think that I am completely
overwhelmed by the vices. No. fortunately I fear You and I recognize that You are the creator
and savior. Still I forget You and commit mistakes. So treat me like the parents treat their small
kid. The child gets distracted by toys etc but will not be willing to be away from the parents.
And parents would not punish him for his mistakes or disobedience. Even with all my advanced
age and experience, I am to You like that small kid. I am unfortunately not created by You to be
one of those greatest devotees who do not care the material aspects in the world and so they
are in total service to You. I am created by You to be what I am and so it is not my fault that I
commit mistakes. Still I am thankful and grateful to You for making me realize my mistakes
which I should not have committed had I been a superior devotee. I am happy that I am made
by You to realize the mistakes and pray You for pardon and show mercy.

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24.11.14 Being human, I am fallible. I always make mistakes. I forget You because I am
preoccupied with more urgent mundane jobs compared to thinking about You or paying
attention to You. I can always have the excuse of requesting to pardon me, which You always
kindly consent like a mother. I am a weak person and so I neglect You and You are weak
because like a mother to are kind and affectionate and forget and forgive my mistakes. You go
on giving chances for me. But I am good in one respect that I always remember You and request
You to forgive me after committing mistakes. I always attribute my mistakes to You because I
always request You to prevent me from making mistakes in future. So it not my mistake that I
am committing some blunder or other. You know that I am going to commit blunders and You
are giving me an opportunity to remember You after committing mistakes. What would happen
to me if I do not remember You even after my mistakes. Any way I am sure You would not
prevent me from making mistakes. But Please do not remove the privilege of remembering You
and request You to pardon me. I would suffer no end if I cannot pray You. I am living in peace
just because I am able to request You for a pardon. Otherwise I would be heartbroken just like a
child removed from zis [ = his/her] mother. Ze [= he/she] would weep or cry till ze finds the
mother. Nothing else satisfies zies[ him/her]. I am at peace now that I expressed about my
weakness to You. So please be kind.

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28.11.14 The most powerful thing is the mind. It can make and break the body. Make in the
sense that it can keep the body in good health. In case someone hears a news very sad to
zes(him or her), as it happened any number of times, ze may collapse and die. Was ze not
healthy till the time of hearing that news? Ze was not suffering from any kind of ailments till ze
heard that news. What then made ze to extremely suffer suddenly or die? It was just the
hearing of something which ze could not bear even for a moment. Ze did not even have time to
think rationally. Other persons along with zes took the news into their stride, though they too
were extremely sad. It is not that the person suffered was a weak person. Ze may even be much
stronger emotionally and physically. But it was zis (his or her) mind at that moment that caused
the havoc. Ze might be a person who was a leader or a much respected guide who would advise
others not to take anything to heart. But at that moment zis mind too could not take it light. Zis
mind got that just one time shock and it immediately and instantly sent signals causing havoc.

If I am in a sad mood, I try to divert my mind to something which I like the most : music or a
book or a TV channel or talk to near and dear. We are trying to keep our minds happy. Who is
doing all this diversion here? Again it is my mind itself. There are no other parts of brain to keep
one part of brain cool in thoughts or advise it. The same suffering brain searches for diversion
or a solution.

It is the mind which spoils us thoroughly by taking wrong decisions or leads us to immoral paths.
The same mind goes through a dialogue of divergent and conflicting views or perceptions. It
takes wrong decision throwing to winds its own cautions. There is no contribution from any
other part of the body in its decisions. To say to control the mind is easy. It is difficult to imagine
why the mind of a very good person took any particular bad decision at any particular moment.
A person with very good family relations may get attracted to a lady at a very bad moment and
shatter his and his family’s life. A person can spoil friendly relations instantly by speaking a few
wrong words. It is all related to mind. We attribute it to fate that such person took such
decision and that such havoc happened.

The most difficult thing to do with mind is to concentrate on God. We can concentrate or be
deeply immersed in any activity, say listening to music or watching TV show or reading a book
or a conversation. We are lost in that activity physically and emotionally. We may not hear
somebody calling us. We may not see somebody taking away our articles. We may be almost in
tears during some sad or tragic scenes enacted in TV or cinema or smile and laugh in comedy
scenes. We are not ourselves in a cinema theatre and are grossly immersed and become a part
of the characters for a whole two hours or so. While watching a TV show we do not want to be
disturbed and become annoyed and get angry even if our mother calls us for some urgent work.
That is we have ability to concentrate to a great extent for long durations.
But when it comes to God, it is a very serious matter and brain becomes heavy. We can
concentrate only for a few seconds after which the brain searches other easy paths. We are
satisfied that we prayed for even those few seconds. We know that God is ultimate and that Ze
is our saviour. But having realized that, can we continuously be with the thoughts of God? Or
whenever we have leisure moments? Throughout the day and night we think and keep the
mind busy with all kinds of thoughts, but God has no space in our thoughts. Mind rejects
thoughts about God beyond certain small duration. What is there to think more about God?
We have everything else to think about. We need not go to prayer hall to think and concentrate
on God. But left to us without those prayer halls and other rituals related to God, it may be that
we go on postponing thinking about God.

Not only on God, people may not be interested in studies or games or music etc. People are
living happily because they are doing what they like.

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2.12.14 God has been very kind to me. I am a human of mean qualities and character, but I
have faith in Him and request Him to put me in right path. So, He reminds me to think about
Him whenever I tend to forget Him. I immediately feel that it is because of His prodding that I
remembered Him. So I am grateful to Him.

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2.12.14 Whenever I am praying you, if I happen to think of Your devotees, please forgive me if I
pay attention to them because they are to be respected utmost. When I see their devotion to
You, I am nothing compared to them. They deserve Your attention much better than me. So
there is nothing wrong if I pay respects to them before I do to You as through them my devotion
to You is getting multiplied and I am getting inspired by them.

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3.12.14. on any particular day nothing goes right even with prior hard work and planning and
prayer to You to bless me with fruitful job. I think Your attention got diverted to more
important and urgent things such as another great devotee in a danger. But, You are
omnipresent and omniscient and so You would simultaneously be with everyone and everything
in the universe. So,I do not know why I suffered as mentioned above. Please forgive me for
asking You why You have not helped me or even accused You for failing me. I am nothing
without Your help at every moment. I am very silly and stupid. You know that and I know that.
Then if You leave me even for a moment, it is disastrous for me. I get annoyed and disturbed. I
am not like Your great devotees who do not leave You nor blame You in times of rigorous test
by You. I do not belong to that kind. I have very little patience. I am not wise. All Your children
are equal to You. So please show Your kindness to me too.

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4.12.14. Today I murdered three mosquitoes and one cockroach. They were part of the universe
and so they belonged to You. They had life till that time. They were like us and were in search of
food. So the mosquitoes were pestering me and I was driving them away. After a while I was
annoyed and hunted them and killed them using my both hands. I hunted the cockroach and
killed it with my footwear, as otherwise it would expand its family in the kitchen. Wouldn’t You
be angry at those acts of mine? Did not You register my deeds in Your (my) books of accounts?
There would be an opportunity for You to punish me and I would suffer again. What was my
duty and how was I to get rid of those creatures at that moment if I were not to attack them?

6.12.14. If I attack somebody who was trying to harm me physically and he gets grievously
injured or gets killed in the process I would be punished by our law. According to our law I have
to establish that he was about to harm me physically and I reacted and thus he was killed I that
process. Even then I am not sure that I would not be punished. Then how you would help me as
You understand my situation? Or Would You

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5.12.14. God is very kind. He is pleased even if somebody does the act of prayer unintentionally,
if only he is good at heart. That is He gives us lot of margin. While specifying the performance of
machines we mention margin or range of its parameters within which it operates satisfactorily.
God’s margin of the parameter of prayer to get His blessings is zero to infinity [variable???]. He
blesses those great persons who are perfectly and completely devoted to Him. He also blesses
those who remember Him once in a while. That is why the range of those who get His blessings
by the metric of parameter prayer is infinity. Then what is the role of those who do not pray
Him at all. These are the persons with zero taking the value of the parameter prayer. Why does
God still bless them? Is it that they do not believe God and so do not pray? Non believer any
way does not pray God. Some believers too may not pray God because they do not believe in
the path of prayer to please God. Then what do they do to recognize Him? They feel that God
does need and does not encourage subservience to Him. God is not a human to desire always
some eulogies explicitly in order to gain His attention and pleasure. Humans become happy and
get into good mood if we say something pleasing to them. For that too we should be skilled and
possess the art of pleasing. Otherwise he may get hint that somebody is saying pleasing words
for the sake of pleasing. That is why this zero prayer people do not pray even though they
believe God. God is great and He knows the intention of such people and so blesses them too.
Then all the people cannot do in the same manner. They proceed in the way in which their
personalities are designed. The range of any parameter of human qualities is not discrete but
continuous. There are no values fixed for a parameters like 1,2,3… There are infinite values a
parameter can take between 1 and 2, 2and 3 etc. God knows to which category a person
belongs in terms of devotion towards Him. Devotion towards God and hatred of any degree
towards other things of His creation do not lead to His pleasure. Belief in God means belief in
His creation too. Any loyal citizen is punishable if he harms nature. Limits and rules are framed
for humans by humans regarding the extent to which a citizen can misbehave towards nature. A
person X may hate another person Y but cannot harm him explicitly and get caught by the law
made by humans. X waits for opportunity to insult Y as per rules by defeating him in elections or
in business or in studies or in sports etc. But the point is that X hates Y. Y could be animals,
plants, and environment etc. God does not sanction this kind or any kind of hatred. He approves
only love towards nature. So even though somebody does not pray Him, He likes him if he does
not have any intention to harm nature. Bad persons try to destroy nature including humans.
God punishes them even though they pray Him.

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7.12.14. Praying God means we are surrendering ourselves to Him. We are considering Him to
be ultimate.

At office we surrender to our senior officials. We become obedient to them out of necessity but
not at the cost of our dignity. We have to earn to live and maintain family. We cannot do that
without expressing our obedience to boss. It depends on the situation. It is not simple. Many
personalities besides us are involved in this. The immediate boss, his bosses, our peers, our
subordinates or more aptly the team members. All of them have different IQs, backgrounds,
different levels of open-mindedness, different types of interests to be safeguarded, different
kinds of influencing or getting influenced etc. Over certain duration diverse personal equations
develop in terms of having confidence in each other. That is I will develop a feeling that I can
confide in particular persons without getting my interests and thus organisation’s interests
compromised. That is I can confidently speak with them the problems I face in the day to day
administration, seek their advice which should benefit the organization and thus my position is
secure. They too confide in me and express their opinions openly. So we develop mutual
confidence and work in unison. I can safely delegate a job to my subordinates and thus I
develop my own cartel. This cartel may expand to contain all or some. My boss gets the results
what ze (he or she) is expected to deliver to zis (his or her)boss and so on. The team which has
more persons with innovative ideas, dynamism, push and abilities to execute those ideas
becomes successful and so develops advances and grows in the organization and organization
grows if it has several such teams in every department and branch of its operations.
Inefficiencies exist in every unit of the organization. A person may be docile, not completely
tuned to the operations of the team in which he works. But if ze is found to be working in the
interest of the organization, be willing to cooperate with others, zes deficiencies are covered by
zes colleagues. Here cooperation flows in reverse direction to protect zes (him or her).

8.12.14. Similarly, in the organization of the universe created and continuously directed by
You, O God, I am the weakest link because of who the whole organization may suffer. So, in
order to operate Your universe to Your liking, You have to save me, teach me, goad me, and
push me to make me work towards Your goal. There are several persons blessed by You and so
working for You in Your organization, that is Your universe, with utmost devotion and with the
motto of service to the creatures created by You, be they humans, animals, plants and other
environment. They please You by their deeds and You bless them. I have bad temperament,
unkind to nature, selfish and unsocial. Still I like You, Your people, the nature created by You
and am jealous of the persons blessed by You. I am a bad person because I do not want to work
like them but want to be like them and get Your blessings. Still I consider me to be a good
person because I think about You and Your creation and worry why I am not being blessed by
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9.12.14. Oh God, When I was young I was calling You Father. When I am old I am calling You
Father. I am feeling whether it is not appropriate to call You my Son, now that I am old and that
You do not age? See, You are the real Father of the universe. You are always present. If we,
humans have no death and are always young, there is no relevance for counting the years. We
are counting years to count our age. If we live forever why should I count my age? I only see
time passing because of day and nights formed by this earth’s rotation about its own axis and its
revolution around this sun.

Suppose I rotate a ball about an axis, like in the case of a globe, in a brightly lit room with
uniform light everywhere in it. Every point on the ball gets the same amount of light. There are
no dark and bright points on it even as the ball rotates about its axis.

Imagine a similar situation for earth where it rotates about its axis in the universe which has
uniform light everywhere around the earth. In that hypothetical situation our earth does not
face any variation in light as it rotates about its axis and so it is full day time always and we do
not feel any passage of time. Time is after all made by us by counting seconds, minutes, hours
and days. In real world, in terms of light, every second is different from the past second and so
we feel time passing. And we are ageing : we are growing from childhood to adolescence to
middle age to old age and then die a natural death. The biological change is occurring every
passing second as it is programmed in our genes. So we are correlating chronological time and
biological changes in the body and are saying that the age of a person is changing. In our
hypothetical case, as there is no change in light on the earth, there is no relative measure for
time. What we call a second in the real world is not relevant there. Still we can make the clock
work and see time. But that time will show seconds or minutes or hours increasing
continuously. It is like living near poles of the earth where the daylight is there for many
months and later dark night is there for the rest of the year. The only difference in the case
under discussion is that, here there is the same day light forever. There is no reference for days
and months and years.

If the life on the new earth goes on as it is on real earth, we are born, grow, and die without a
measure of time and age. A clock should be made for every person to be born, which is set to
start running from the moment ze(he or she) is born, like a stop clock. It is made to stop at the
moment of zes (his or her) death, just know how long ze lived.
Let us consider a new case on the new earth. Suppose I am 25 years old and then say I would
undergo no further changes biologically. That is my body does not age anymore. I would be ever
young. In that case I do not need any kind of clock to determine my age. I only need clock to
record events happening in the world chronologically. Then some time later I would say that
some thousand seconds ago a particular event occurred. May be I would call a million seconds
a minute and a million minutes an hour etc just to measure time in a convenient manner.

May be God is like that. He does not age. He is ever present, so time is irrelevant for Him.

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10.12.14, O God, our parents prayed You, our grand parents prayed You, their parents, their
parents and so on prayed You. I do not know how many generations and generations had gone
before me since millions of years and we are here now as their products in the present. We are
praying You and our children, their children and so on pray You. I do not know how many
generations will come in future. The only one witness to all these generations of innumerable or
countless people of all times is YOU. What is Your aim? Are not You getting bored with the same
job of seeing all of us being born, growing and dying?

If a human were to be observing for say a few hundred years his progeny being born, grown and
dying like normal humans, what would be his feelings? He would be attached emotionally to his
first generation children : worrying about their welfare and well being every moment,
throughout their growth till they become independent and secure. Then he would love the
company of their next generation children. He would cuddle them more than the first
generation children and shower a lot of affection. Soon the first generation children become old
and die and he weeps their departure reminiscing their past living with him. Soon he forgets
them to live in the present with the existing grand children. They too grow and produce
children. It is always good to see the newly born and then play with them as they grow. Then
the second generation departs. He feels bad and starts feeling why he is still living to see the
departure his progeny. He becomes philosophical and his attachment to the next generations of
children is getting diminished as their number is becoming huge and so the affection and
attention is diluted. Soon it becomes difficult to remember their names and their hierarchy.
That is tracing their position in the family tree, though he has been the starting point or the root
of the family tree. So he becomes just an observer to whatever happens to them. He would just
say “oh!” for the births and deaths of persons many generations away from him. Now, they are
like any other persons not related to him biologically. What would he say if someone asks him
why he is not as affectionate to the latest living generation as he was with his first and second
generation children? He would not like to answer because he knows the answer. In spite of
being with his progeny, he feels lonely. They would revere him being the oldest in the huge
family. He gets bored with their reverence too. Thank God our lives are short.

Now what is the position of God who is the creator of universe? Is He not getting bored and feel
monotonous and get exhausted with His own creation? He has to respond to prayers of all of
them, observe how they were and are not following right and moral path and punish them
accordingly.

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11.12.14. God, You have rewarded many people with talents. A great singer may be born in a
family who do not like music at all in their blood, as they say commonly. That is for several
generations on both sides no singer happened to be there. Now we find a great wizard of a
musician into the family. Sometimes not one but all children happen to be great musicians or of
very high IQ. One may be an accident but many is not by chance. It is You who blessed those
lucky persons. Even that single child prodigy in that family is not by accident but is because of
You.

Ok, we are happy to know about these cases and we thank You amply. But what about the bad,
worse and worst cases of children being born with defects and deficiencies that cannot be
cured later? This also must be because of You only. Don’t we have every right to blame You for
such tragic occurrences? Do You get angry if we blame You? We do not understand the reason
and the back ground for such sad things. But You, the designer of our fates know everything
about everything. Are You punishing the children or us or both? What happened to Your
kindness? We humans possess emotions and our moods change continuously according to
circumstances and so we may commit mistakes quite often. So what is the remedy? Feel
frustrated? We may intentionally commit mistakes and so be happy? God, You are the ultimate
and please make us understand Your weird acts. But I know that You will not. So, You are You
and I am me.

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12.12.14. Some of us always think and talk about others in their absence and derive satisfaction
out of criticizing some aspects about them. We don’t know or conveniently forget that the
same persons we are talking with combine with those who we criticized and discuss
derogatorily some good or bad aspects about us. It is not that all these concerned persons are
bad. They conduct such discussions for time pass and to raise their spirits at that moment. It is
natural human tendency.

God, whatever good things, nay the best things, You gave me are for my good and You gave
them in a suitable measure, that is quality and quantity, so that I can bear them psychologically
and physically. They should not become a burden to me. If You give me great riches, I would be
very very busy protecting them as well as me and my close family from being kidnapped for a
ransom. I would even be busy distributing to charity institutions while some family members
might object to such charitable acts. I would become famous and would be in focus of public
like press and felicitations. I am at peace now without all of them. So please let me live this way
and let me think only about You in my spare time. I am healthy now due to Your grace and if
anybody is to be spoiled he is to be made rich.

I am always happy to see Your devotees and I divert my attention to them. I pay my respects to
them first and then to You because they are great to be blessed by You. You are announcing
Your existence through them. They always pray You and think about You. When any person
thinks about You, ze (he or she) will not commit any mistake. Even while committing some
wrong acts You will be remembered. Sometimes the evil mind overcomes the thoughts about
You and the body proceeds in a wicked way. Even then You will be in a corner of the mind. Evil
mind overruled You at that moment. That is our fate that we weaklings are unable to escape.
That is why I worship Your great devotees for their control over their minds from getting
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13.12.14. God, I am full of poison. My mind is poisoned. My thinking power is covered by dust.
You gave pure mind as I observe in infants and small children. As I grew my mind got distorted
by all the worldly attractions and other mundane affairs. As I grew, people said that I was
becoming smart, intelligent, practical, able and independent person capable of managing
myself in this world. I was passing examinations in schools and colleges though I knew that I am
a slightly above average in abilities. I knew that I was not going in right path. I did many things
which You and I did not like. Still I did. I requested You to save me. You did but not to the fullest
extent; not to my satisfaction; may be not to Your satisfaction too, as You and I know that I do
not deserve Your kindness. I was not reforming myself. I was pretending that I was changing for
good. But fortunately You blessed me with the property of realizing my mistakes once in a while
and praying again to save me. You are God, an embodiment of kindness and so I was always
being rescued, which I knew. But how to depoison my mind completely? How to flush it out and
purify it? No doctor can do it. You are the only doctor to do such major operation. Normally
patients go to doctor. But in my case it is for You to come to me and treat me. There is not a
single moment without my mind wandering to waste objects and thoughts. I am filled with
envy, false prestige, false pride and many other bad qualities. I am unable to chase them out.
My mind has become a strong magnet of attraction to them. You have to place another
stronger magnet around my mind to divert all bad thoughts, scenes etc. from my mind. I think I
will be praying like this throughout my balance life. I am grateful to You for Your kind
consideration and granting me with at least such thoughts of repentance and to come back to
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14.12.14. We humans have multiple roles at a time. We are selfish. So we try to balance
mundane affairs and dealings in spiritual realization. In the former case we have act
diplomatically as the situation demands and sometimes we act against our conscience. We
cannot do justice as we think it to be as we are bound by restraints imposed by hierarchy at job.
The superiors at job overrule our decisions in the interest of the organization or they contradict
us based on some other inputs or they feel that their decision is wiser in their opinion. We
cannot help somebody out of the way as it becomes precedent and we would be in problem at
a later date and we become accountable for not following the rule book. So we become silent
spectators to some kind of injustice during the execution of our job. Similarly at home we have
to deal with family members sometimes diplomatically. Diplomatic means to create an escape
path in case of conflict or serious differences in opinion or justify or convince our actions of
preferring something or someone over other and convincing all concerned parties. We have to
carry everybody concerned with us. We may not do justice and get justice all times and we have
to bear with it to live peacefully. We have to play different roles at different times, places and
with people. So, O God, besides remembering You, we have to fulfill our role in this world, Your
world, to our and Your satisfaction.
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16.12.14. How beautifully You created this universe! Peacock is beautiful. I am surprised to hear
that it evolved by itself to have such magnificent multi colored wings or so. I strongly believe it
as a very intelligent and intentional creation by You! Who gave the fantastic fragrance and
appearance to flowers like jasmine, rose etc? Who created deliciously flavored and sweet fruits
like mangoes, oranges, pine apple or custard apple etc.? Who gave the melodious voice to the
shy koel bird and the manner it sings at pleasantly increasing pitch and speed? Who gave the
idea to bees to store the nector or honey in the self built beehive after collecting it from
flowers? You created innumerable wonders like these for the humans to enjoy! I do not know
whether any other living being comprehends and enjoys them. What a great life You gave us!
But alas, unfortunately we are too busy to enjoy them. We recognize them but still do not
realize the creator behind them.

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16.12.14. God, during prayer I remind myself to concentrate upon You. I have to rein in my
mind several times during every sitting for prayer. I sometimes really concentrate upon You and
I become conscious of that too. I thank You for granting me those few moments once in a while.

Whenever I don’t pray You well, I don’t get satisfaction. But I convince myself that to have
thought about You even for a fleeting moment is better than no thought about You.

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17.12.14. God, today You are silent and so my brain is empty. Without Your guidance I am a
naught and stupid. I am leading a comfortable and peaceful life in spite of some difficulties
because You have been leading me. I would have been heart broke umpteen times in my life so
far had it not been for Your kindness to me. Please do not leave me even for a second to my
own wisdom as I am not wise. You know it and I know it. My mind is at peace only because I
remember You. Thank You.

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19.12.14. God, I grew up in a protected ambience, just as any other child. I grew up in a
peaceful ambience with no problems regarding food, shelter, clothing and education
irrespective of my intellectual abilities. I grew up amicable social environment of genteel
parents, relatives and friends. All of these were provided to me by You. Fortunately I used these
opportunities in right way and completed my education and got employment, have my family
etc. This too is all due to You only. It would have been very easy to get into wrong path at any
moment of my life and so I am deeply indebted to You for what I am now. I am thinking about
You and thanking You only because of Your blessings. Still I am greedy. I always feel I am an
incomplete and hopelessly imperfect person. It is not just feeling but it is what I am made of. I
am not a great poet or singer or engineer or devotee of Yours. You have to forgive me for
getting such thoughts because I am created by You and so I should not point out my defects to
You. I cannot blame my parents and my grandparents etc for what I am not intellectually. I am
always grateful to my parents for providing me whatever I wanted in spite of the financial
hardships they faced because of the economically and socially shattered life they underwent
when my paternal grandfather died when my father was at college level education without
leaving even a rupee, being a highly charitable person. It was You who saved them in the form
of my maternal grandparents. I shudder to think about the problems being faced by the poor
people I am seeing here and the abject living conditions of people elsewhere in the world. God,
why did You do all this? You are the ultimate. You are the embodiment of kindness and
forgiving. I am not at all being sarcastic in expressing this way. I am only thinking about the basis
of Your thinking and purpose behind all this. Without any reason You would not have created
the dark side of the life. Instead of being humble to You and praying You for my comfortable
life, I am searching for the wrong side of You. I know that You cannot be wrong and that is basis
for my searching enquiry. My intellectual abilities would not permit to think beyond this. You
create innumerable great persons. Why did not You bless them to understand You perfectly and
comprehend the nuances of life as above and inform and enlighten us through them?

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20.12.14 God, You have been kind to us in granting forgetfulness. That is forgetting what had
happened in the past. We forget what we studied a few days back unless we revise them
frequently. We allow most of the incidents to be forgotten. We are seeing the world every
moment through the eyes and getting the view imprinted on an erasable slate like memory.
Whatever we want to remember is transferred to another section of the memory from where
we can recollect at a later time. Otherwise it is like a reel of a cinema. The panorama of scenes
we see continuously passes off silently. We remember only a few events and not whole
continuum of view as is registered in a reel. Those events too would be erased or forgotten
unless they had a serious impact on our emotions good or bad. Good events are sometimes are
forgotten conveniently compared to bad ones. Also the amount of information retained in
memory varies person to person. We tend to remember what bad had been done to us by some
persons than the help rendered by them. We remember and remind ourselves that those
persons could have favored us much better. Otherwise everybody in this world would be loving
everybody else ze (he or she) came across in life. We want favors continuously from all. We do
not consider or be inclined to consider the circumstances that made others not to favor us and
the constraints they faced. If I was given a handsome increment every year and somewhat less
this year, I would get emotionally burnt and tend to hate the boss and the job. I would forget
how my career progressed in that organization and would contemplate to switch over to
another. I am loyal as long as I am benefited. I do not consider the genuinity of circumstances.
Could I have similar attitude with my parents, siblings, wife and children? Parents too cannot
always express their love to their children in exactly same measure to each one, if at all any
such measure is there. It may be argued that why I should not go to someplace where I am
benefited more if you are not offering in similar fashion? Yes, there is no answer to it. If my
efficiency went low due to some circumstances, am I not being reprimanded and even
punished? So, we are in business of give and take. It cannot be compared with family relations.
Many a time family relations are damaged because of bad emotions rather than cool and wise
thinking from either side.

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8.1.15 some persons have inherent or inborn interest for arts, some others in sciences, some in
management issues, some others in pure social service, some in regional and national politics
through social service etc. Someone with interest in arts may not have inclination in science.
Someone interested in classical dance may not have inclination in writing poetry. Thus there are
numerous disciplines in which persons like to choose some particular ones. Some may be lucky
in their choicest fields from childhood. Some may realize their interest later in life. Everyone
tries to be expert in ones field and the individual’s destiny decides who prospers in the chosen
field. All will not reach the pinnacle. Many struggle to get to grips in the chosen field due lack of
resources, guidance, opportunities etc besides the innate mental and physical ability to get to
top form. Life is very complex and only a few get to be masters in their fields.
Can a person who is a master in his chosen field look down upon someone who is a master in
some other field unfamiliar to him just because the other person has scant knowledge in his
field? Only mediocre do that. Masters realize how difficult it is to become a master in a field
and so recognize other masters and respect them. Only in politics opponents never stop
criticizing each other and they do for valid reasons.

People of the planet earth do not belong to one single country called the earth. There are
several man made countries on earth and a person on earth has to belong to a country
compulsorily. Several restrictions of some sort or other would restrict his free movements and
living in other countries. Birds do not have single nationality. They are free to move across
borders. Animals like dogs etc too have that much freedom to move across borders to some
extent. Fish too can move in oceans as they like.

In case of religions, all religions preach people to lead moral path, be sympathetic and be
helpful to the under privileged and unfortunate persons and to have faith in God. Ordinary or
common people would always like to lead peaceful life. They have many other problems to live
peacefully and so do not want to add a complex problem in the name of rivalry towards other
religions. Within a religion there may be several sub customs which differ from each other
depending on place of living. Still they adjust and neglect such differences. Religions as such are
like that. All of them ask us to pray God. God is not seen by the followers of the respective
religions. That is a common factor for all religions. Only rituals differ. So, why should people
fight in the name of religions?

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9.1.15 Why God is not punishing or eliminating the wicked persons? There are several levels
of crimes being committed by people.

God is not punishing immediately because they pray God. Even criminals pray Him.

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20.1.15

What is the limit of the brain power?

What is the difference between a toy looking like a man and man?
Animals or plants or humans are born out of a single cell. That cell has a plan or blue print or
design stored in it. According to that plan that cell divides into millions of cells to form the
infinitely complex form of animal or plant or a human body. That body too grows as per that
plan, reaches a limit in terms of height, weight etc. This ‘etc’ is very complicated. In humans and
animals the functions of all organs are regulated, controlled by brain. The brain thinks too,
continuously. It is very powerful. It remembers events to some extent as it does not have
unlimited memory. It does not have unlimited abilities with regard to calculations and
perceptions. Animals too have brains. They think. They remember. They calculate and so
control their actions, speeds and timings of their movements to reach a target. They act
appropriately on what they observe. If we pretend to offer them some food they can be fooled
once or twice and then look with suspicion and then stop responding.

Among humans, the levels of intelligence, the physical structure, memory, physical capabilities
are different, though the degree of variation is little. But the mental perceptions may be highly
divergent. Someone may like arts, some others may hate arts. One may be good at
mathematics and another may dislike it, etc. Among those having same liking, levels of
perceptions may be widely different.

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Can we live comfortably without having faith in God? We see several such persons. We do not
always think about God. We may pray God in the morning and forget about Him for the rest of
the day. Some may pray a few times more. We will be engaged in activities other than God.
After prayer we feel peace psychologically for the rest of the day. Again we remember God
whenever we are in trouble beyond our control. We do not seek Him for smaller problems. We
may not remember Him in happy times. We thank Him if we are overwhelmed with unexpected
gains or favors.

Is God pleased even with a small prayer and bless them by mitigating their problems? Did they
get the psychological strength due to God?

Atheists just remove the prayer time from their schedule in the day. They are not inclined to ask
favors from God even in terrible hardships. Still they lead quite normal life, as rich or as poor.
They do not attribute difficulties they face to their fate or to God. They are a sort of more
independent and stubborn type.
So, while theists lead normal life for most of the time in a day with no thoughts about God,
atheists live as much normal life without ever thinking about God.

Then what is the advantage theists have over atheists or vice versa?

Similar question can be asked with respect to people following different faiths or religions.
Generally the followers of the different faiths are insulated from each other with regard to
marriages. A person of a faith may not be inclined to marry a person from the other faith for
fear of incompatibility of several activities related to respective faiths. It may be with respect to
how God is perceived or civil code imposed by the faith or dress code or mode of prayer or the
revered tenets in the form of books or religious functions or the language related to the religion
etc. They live in peace as neighbors or while working together in a common work place. They
greet each other. They respect and so tolerate public functions of each other. Children are
grown up with such living together in diversity. They simply and silently follow their faith
without any comment about other faiths. The followers of each faith protect their beliefs and
traditions or culture in that faith. They do not like their practices to be criticized or their
followers to be humiliated in any manner.

In general problems start with the schildren of a faith talking something wrong or ridiculing the
other religion while playing together and have heated discussions or aroused tempers leading
to fights which spill over to youth and then to elders. If elders are sensible, they douse the
tempers and bring peace while cautioning the children not to repeat such mistakes and make
them understand the diversity in worships. Problems also arise when a boy of a faith intends to
marry a girl of another faith. Some reasons of fight are silly and trivial but cause damage.

Some followers of any faith claim that their religion is superior to others or they do not tolerate
criticism of any sort of their faith.

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25.1.15

While parting with near and dear for long duration we feel that we should have done some
more things sweeter to them or have not done some bitter things. What would be the feelings
before final moments of separation towards God?

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Why God permitted killing of animals for food when He created vegetables?

Lions, tigers and other carnivorous animals have to kill and eat as they made for eating animals
only. Is human by creation made to eat non veg food? Or he made it convenient to eat non veg
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27.1.15. Many systems in the universe external to us or inside our body whose creation and
arrangement are mind boggling are said to be nature’s marvel. We fell shy to say that it is the
creation of God. We subconsciously or consciously know that only God could have created
them. But our training and the systems we created do not permit to discuss about God and
God’s creation in the scientific presentations as the obvious embarrassing question put to the
presenter would be to prove it. It is different matter those who question may also believe in
God and believe too that only God must have done it. But the etiquette does not permit to talk
about God in the discussions about our science which is only striving to discover and interpret
the science that was already created by God. Many scientists must be praying God for His
blessings for the success of their original discoveries or propositions or postulates. Their
discovery is original but was created originally by God. They must have thanked God for their
success. We attend, listen and absorb the religious sermons with utmost devotion. But when
we come out, God is God and science is science. We draw a line between them. We forget
conveniently or out of compulsion that when we believe in God, He is everything and
everything is Him and due to Him. There is no distinction between God and anything in the
universe. Before the advent of science a vast majority of population believed in God due to
ignorance or out of the inexplicability of the nature of the universe. Science brought an element
of doubt in God in some. As science developed it is again tending to strengthen the belief in
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29.1.15. As we grew through childhood, some of us might have committed mistakes knowingly
or unknowingly. Sometimes we were naughty. Sometimes we were rebellious. Sometimes we
tried to do what we were instructed not to do or were implied not to do. In retrospection, we
feel shocked and ashamed that we did like that.
We may have secrets which we would not like to divulge. It may be regarding our feelings
towards some others who came across our life. We might be the victims or sufferers for their
acts, but still we do not wish to reveal. They may be our close relatives, friends, teachers,
bosses or some relatively distantly connected people. We do not want to share because we feel
that the issue is not very serious; or circumstances might have led them to do so; or out of
respect for them; or they may be doing a lot of good things or service to others; or we were
victims because of our own doing; or they might have done wrong to us due to some
momentary weakness in them though they are very good otherwise. It depends on us to what
extent we could tolerate without revealing. It depends on the seriousness of the acts and
whether we feel that many others might suffer like us from them.

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Women are more possessive compared to men. They face many problems in bringing up
children and grand children even, and they face those difficulties willingly, whole heartedly and
without any complaint. Women do not get perturbed at all if their children defecate on them or
vomit on them. They are extremely patient, affectionate, kind and protective towards their
children. They are their best well wishers besides the father and grandfather. Such is the case
with animals too.

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30.1.15. How many of us are conscious of the processes occurring in our bodies. It takes some
effort to breathe in and out: inhalation and exhalation of air.

Relativity wrt time : If we are watching an interesting program in TV or reading an interesting

story, we are not conscious of time and the surroundings. We don’t even register the words
spoken by someone nearby. We may not even watch somebody passing in front of us. We are
lost with regard to our presence in this world. Time passes very fast without our conscious
knowledge and we are at peace.

In case we are asked to listen to a lecture which is not of our liking, every second passes very
slow. To be harsh, let us imagine a situation which everyone of us must have faced sometimes
in our life. We are in an urgent need to relieve our selves [either urination or defecation] and
the toilet is engaged by someone else. Then every second is like an hour. If we are listening to
an extremely boring lecture sitting in the front row and as a result feeling sleepy and getting
yawns, then every moment is like an hour. We become restless.

In case we have to go on a vacation, we count every day and feel slow passage of time. Once
the end of our vacation is approaching, we feel time passes fast.

In an examination room, the time passes fast for a student who knows answers to all questions
and may feel that time should move a bit more slow to write more of what he knows. For a
student who does not know the answers, it is very hard to spend the minimum stipulated time.
Time passes slow for him.

For the hard laborer time passes slow, and for the employer who is running against time to
complete job commitments time runs fast.

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31.1.2015

Relativity wrt distance : for participants in running races the last few meters may appear to be
a few kilometers away.

Why some people attract attention despite being glamour less?

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1.2.15. God, I know why You are not saving me from all my sins and not preventing me from
sinful thoughts and acts in spite of requesting You and praying You always. I am a mediocre or
unfit person to draw Your attention. I am not worried if humans neglect me or do not do me
any favors. I do not want to appease them. But You are not paying any attention to me because
I know that I am not a sincere devotee. I doubt Your existence sometimes as You are not
converting me to be very good human and I am vacillating between good and bad very
frequently. I am not a wicked person nor cruel person who troubles and pesters Your devotees
so that they pray You to save or protect them from the disturbances from me. So Your devotees
do not mention my name to You. I do not want to be a wicked person in order to gain Your
attention that way. I like Your devotees. But I am not a person who works in the company of
Your great devotees so that whenever You attend to them there may be a chance to draw Your
attention to me. I am not a person who serves poor and downtrodden even though I know that
You like such kind hearted people. But I do some good things to poor sometimes which may not
be sufficient to draw Your attention. May be You are making me to think about You as a result
of such good deeds, though infrequent, and consequently You are kind to me not to make me a
wicked person. You are the cause of everything in the universe which includes me. I am only
requesting You to elevate my thoughts in noble direction for noble cause however small it may
be and thus get me a step nearer to You and Your devotees.

I am a weakling. So I cannot withstand Your tests regarding my devotion to You. I get attracted
to mean things and turn my attention to them in preference to You. You know it and I know it.
So I am labeled a dirty man by me and by You. I agree. But please do not neglect me. Please
save me and change my mind to prefer You and neglect those dirty attractions.

My parents, my family and teachers should not get bad name in Your book because of my bad
thoughts and deeds. In order that they get good name You make me Your sincere devotee.

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4.2.15 However good and intelligent some people may be and are in good status, with good
families, a sudden moment of weakness or fickleness in some circumstances destroys their lives
and consequently the lives of their families. Some of them might have escaped or let off for
some of their simple evil acts. That might give confidence to proceed further. In those bad
moments they push aside the fear of God, affections of families, their status in society and
other responsibilities etc for which otherwise they attach great values. In a matter of seconds or
minutes they find themselves dreadfully exposed in society and crestfallen forever. It requires
lot of hard work, time, education, patience, good will and developing connections with people
to achieve a particular respectable status. But all this is shattered in a matter of a few seconds
because of the momentary weak and petty thoughts which prevailed over caution. The mind
became blind to prudence and wise counsel from another corner of mind. Obsession prevailed
and led to total devastation.
It is like a hurricane damaging whatever comes in its path. Before it happened there was peace
and tranquility.

There is no answer or reason for such occurrence. Even that person would be blaming himself
and the fate.

Examples of such acts of impulse : getting attracted to bribe and caught by vigilance squads,
getting attracted to opposite sex and , getting attracted to very high returns and losing
investments and savings, indulging in molesting & rapes, indulging in gambling & betting like
horse race

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Elephants flocking and attacking herd of lions for killing an elephant. They have ability to
communicate the matter of urgency and gather courage and anger.

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Lion and crocodile have intelligence and commonsense as to how to defend and then attack at
the vital parts of the other in their fight.

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5.2.15 The wonderful process of life is with a net physical asset stock result of zero. I was not
there before I was born. I will not be there after my death. But the universe is there as it is
before my entry, during my life on the earth and also after my departure. Nothing in the
universe is ever static. The building on earth is static but the earth is not static. It is revolving
around sun at a speed of about 30 km per second, this sun is revolving in this particular galaxy
in which it is situated at a speed of about 200 km per second, and the galaxy itself is moving in
this universe at a speed of about 1000km per second etc. we do not yet know beyond this
except that everything is moving away. So we are all free ticketless passengers in the universe
without our knowledge. We are moving in an orbit which itself is in another orbit and so on. As
of now we on the earth are the only passengers in the universe as we do not yet have any
knowledge about any other passengers on vehicles like our earth, even though there might be
billions of earth like inhabitable planets in the universe.
It is amusing that nobody in this journey knows where he or his progeny would be going
ultimately and there are no stoppages or stations, no refueling, no maintenance pit shops, no
apparent navigators, drivers, inspectors, no signals for directions, no information desks etc. In
fact none of the passengers even thinks about any of these aspects ever. Nobody is conscious of
the journey he is performing. The journey is perpetual. Apparently there is no change in the
velocity or speed ever, no acceleration or deceleration, no braking as we do not feel them, such
as those we experience in bus or train. But there is acceleration as none of the planets or stars
has rectilinear motion or movement in a straight line. They are all moving in orbits thus ever
changing direction of motion. The effect of such acceleration that results in a force is not
perceptible to us. When we move at high speeds on a motor cycle we feel gush of air that is
pushed. For the journey in the universe there is no such pushing of air as we travel in vacuum.

So we are ignorant about the eternal journey during which we are born, grow, give birth to
others and die. It is like our families living permanently in a compartment of an eternally moving
train, at constant velocity, throughout our lives and generations. We do not know about our
own past generation persons [forefathers] and our own future generation persons
[descendents] except for one or two generations on either side of us.

Overall we have no aim. We are born without any aim. Upto a certain stage we grow without
any aim. We are wards and are guided. Then we aim to earn to live independently. We marry to
enjoy and in the process give birth to children, again to enjoy their company. We aim to earn to
bring up the family comfortably and later we aim to earn to live peacefully till death. It is
another matter that we struggle to earn and spend most of our life in it. These are all short term
aims in the journey. But when we do not live further what is the meaning of long term or
permanent aim?

Here we have to go to abstraction. We discuss something which is vague and so called

unscientific. We only hypothesize without proof. We call it belief. This belief itself is based on
reasoning and deduction. For every action there is reaction. There are debits, credits and
balance sheets in every aspect of our life. When we do good deeds, we get credit by way of
reward or remuneration. When our deeds are bad we are punished and fined and so debited to
our account.

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[ From : http://www.livescience.com/32437-why-are-250-million-sperm-cells-released-during-
sex.html, Eric R. Olson, Life's Little Mysteries Contributor | January 24, 2013 11:19am ET

In fact, the average male will produce roughly 525 billion sperm cells over a lifetime and shed at least
one billion of them per month. A healthy adult male can release between 40 million and 1.2
billion sperm cells in a single ejaculation.

In contrast, women are born with an average 2 million egg follicles, the reproductive structures that
give rise to eggs. By puberty, a majority of those follicles close up and only about 450 will ever release
mature eggs for fertilization.]

6.2.15. I could be anybody else. I am what I am just by chance. I could have been any one of
another of a million or even a billion with most probably similar characteristics or could have
been entirely different characteristics in a gap of micro seconds or milli seconds. Among the
millions or billions of sperms of my father competing to reach the ovum or egg of my mother,
only one sperm could combine with the egg and so I was born. Each one of the millions of
sperms released at that moment may be of different genetic combination from others. Each
sperm carries genes which are an arbitrary combination of the genes of my father’s parents
whose genes were another arbitrary combination of genes of their parents and so on. So I could
have been a one in millions different person with different facial features, body features,
mental features etc in a space of a micro second. There is competition even there as to which
sperm reaches the egg first.

And at that moment my mother had only one egg ready to meet any one of those million
sperms. It too had a particular genetic set up, an arbitrary combination of the genes of her
parents. My mother had millions of eggs formed just at the time my mother was conceived by
her parents. Each of those eggs was of different genetic set up. So when I was born my mother
could have had any of those eggs waiting for my father’s millions of sperms. Several times my
father’s millions of sperms missed my mother’s egg. And each time my father’s sperms are of
different genes. So it is amazing that I am what I am and not a different one. That is why I am
quite different from my siblings.

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That our earth is not so far visited by aliens from other planets indicates that aliens, if at all
exist, are not technologically advanced to reach us or communicate with us.

At present there is nobody on earth who can prove that God exists. There were great persons,
blessed by God, who could convince people in God’s existence and so many religions came into
existence. Now we are following their tenets and the rituals as promulgated by them. We have
faith in God because we believe those prophets.

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9.2.15

[Science is applied for practical purposes to facilitate comfortable life through technology and
engineering. There has been continuous improvement in human life through inventions for fast
and easy communication, housing, clothing, transport, health care, agriculture, education and
entertainment. We are only in the stage of understanding the nature as it is and are trying to
improve our living conditions further. ]

Hinduism and islam : discussion,6.2.15

https://in.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20071111070704AAFepK6

http://muhammadinhinduism.tripod.com/id2.html

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http://www.laparoscopic.md/digestion

DIGESTIVE ORGANS

STOMACH
The stomach is not the only part of your digestive system that absorbs food but rather is a part of the digestive
system and important for churning food into a consistency that is easier to digest for the rest of your intestines.

 Partial digestion of the food takes place here. The churning action of the stomach muscles
physically breaks down the food.
 The stomach releases acids and enzymes for the chemical breakdown of food. The enzyme
pepsin is responsible for protein breakdown.
 The stomach releases food into the small intestine in a controlled and regulated manner.
The crushed and mixed food is liquefied to form chyme and is pushed through the pyloric canal into the s m a l l
intestine.

A network of blood vessels and nerves surrounds the stomach; this is responsible for the regulation of the
secretion and the motion of stomach muscles that churns food.

Parietal cells secrete Hydrochloric acid; the acid activates release of pepsin for protein digestion.
The acid also kills micro-organisms swallowed with the food.
Mucous cells secrete the alkaline mucous for shielding the epithelium from hydrochloric acid.
Chief cells secrete pepsin.
G cells secrete gastrin which stimulates the secretion of hydrochloric acid.
LIVER
The liver is the largest solid organ inside the body and plays a very important role in the process
of d i g e s t i o n by physically regulating it and ensuring release of post digestive nutrients into the system.
The liver is the largest gland in the body and therefore has many important roles that are not related
to d i g e s t i o n including the creation of proteins and blood clotting factors.

The majority of the blood flow to the liver comes from the portal vein. This situation is somewhat unique as that
most organs receive their blood supply from an artery. The reason for this is that the digested nutrients from
the s m a l l i n t e s t i n e and most of the c o l o n drain directly into veins which connect into the portal vein.
Therefore nutrients as well as the breakdown products of d i g e s t i o n that need to be filtered flow to the liver as a
first stop before going to the rest of the organs.
The liver plays an important role in the digestion and processing of proteins, fat and sugar. The liver helps create
some of the building blocks of proteins needed for the body known as amino acids. The liver plays an important
role in fat digestion as well as the production of fats needed for the function of different organs of the body.

Simple sugars are created in the liver by breaking down both proteins as well as more complex sugars known as
glycogen. The liver can also convert simple sugar into glycogen which is better for storage. In this way the liver
acts as an energy center for the body. It controls the balance of simple and complex sugar storage and releases
sugar stores when needed for energy.

The liver and bile

Producing bile and detoxification are the important digestion-related roles that the liver plays.

Bile is a bitter-to-taste fluid that is produced in the liver. It ranges in color from yellowish-green to dark brown. It
is composed of water, bile salts, bilirubin cholesterol, and inorganic salts. Bile plays an important role in the
digestion and absorption of lipids and also fat-soluble vitamins A, D, E, and K. Waste products such as bilirubin
are eliminated from the body via bile. Bilirubin is produced during the recycling of red blood cells in the liver.
Bile also serves as a carrier for cholesterol to be excreted. Bile is alkaline in nature and it neutralizes
excessive s t o m a c h acids before the food enters the ileum. Bile is antibacterial in nature and kills bacteria that
may be present in food.
After being produced in the liver the bile juice is either released into the d u o d e n u m or it travels to
the g a l l b l a d d e r for storage. Bile travels to the g a l l b l a d d e r during the fasting stage and during storage it gets
concentrated to up to five times its original potency. The secretion and flow of bile is controlled by the hormones
cholecystokinin and secretin.
Although the g a l l b l a d d e r may need to be surgically removed, in an operation known as c h o l e c y s t e c t o m y ,
the liver continues to produce bile in a normal fashion and therefore only minimal to zero side-effects are the
norm.
The liver to detoxify
The liver is also a major organ for detoxification along with the kidneys. It breaks down and removes matter that
is generated during nutrient metabolism and that enters the body in the form of medicine, cigarette smoke,
environmental toxins, etc.

The liver also serves as a natural filter which helps breakdown ammonia, one of the byproducts of the digestion
of proteins. The liver also helps with the breakdown of old red blood cells.

DUODENUM
When food enters the duodenum, there are multiple feed-back pathways and nervous reflexes that will affect how
fast the s t o m a c h empties as well as the secretion of other hormones.
The duodenum plays an important role in regulating the emptying of s t o m a c h contents into the s m a l l
i n t e s t i n e . When chyme enters the duodenum, it acts as a stimulant for the release of secretin and
cholecystokinin which are released by the epithelial cell walls of the duodenum. This in turn acts as a signal for
the release of bile from the l i v e r and digestive enzymes from the p a n c r e a s . Thus, the process of enzymatic
breakdown of food in the duodenum begins.
Absorption of i r o n occurs primarily in the duodenum and upper jejunum. Apart from iron, Vitamins A and B1,
calcium, glycerol, fatty acids, monoglycerides, amino acids, monosaccharides, and disaccharides are absorbed in
the duodenum.

We often eat meat and dairy products that contain a significant percentage of fats. These foods contain animal
fats, which are complex as fats go and potentially contain a lot of useful energy. However, these fats are
polyglycerides, which are forms of fat compounds with molecules so large that the body can’t use them. So, one
of the jobs of digestion is to convert (emulsify) polyglycerides into much smaller monoglycerides that can be
absorbed by the intestines and eventually turned into cellular energy.

After breakdown by the acids in the stomach, what’s left of your meal enters the top of the small intestine at the
duodenum. Here there is a hormone, cholecystokinin (CCK), which reacts to the presence of fats – the more fat,
the more it reacts. The more it reacts, the stronger the signals it sends through the nervous system to the pancreas
and gallbladder ordering them to deliver digestive bile.

GALL BLADDER

The bile from the gallbladder originates in the liver. The bile is also the medium for all the things the liver is
trying to get rid of – toxins, excess cholesterol and impurities of one kind or another.

The bile salts have two main tasks; one is to emulsify large fat molecules into smaller, simpler fats; the other is to
make the fats more water-soluble by forming micelles, aggregate drops of fatty acids, cholesterol and
monoglycerides (those simple fats) dissolved in water for easy absorption by the intestine.

The liver produces between 400 and 800 milligrams of bile a day, most of which flows down the common duct to
the top of the small intestine. When not receiving a stimulus from the CCK in the duodenum, which is pretty
much the same as the time between meals (with a lag for digestion), the bile diverts to the gallbladder for storage.

One of the functions of the gallbladder is to concentrate the bile produced by the liver. Mainly by removing
water, the bile is reduced from a fifth to a tenth of its original volume until reaching the maximum capacity of the
gallbladder at about 50 milliliters. This concentration is a kind of balancing act. If the gallbladder doesn’t
concentrate the bile, then there may not be enough active ingredients to break down a heavy load of fat, resulting
in digestive problems. If the gallbladder performs too much concentration, the lack of water may stimulate the
formation of gallstones around impurities in the high saturation of cholesterol.

Because most of the digestive system operates outside our consciousness (unless there is something wrong), most
people are unaware of the rather delicate sensory system involved in the process of digestion. Just the part that
includes the gallbladder is a complex set of triggers (CCK, for example) and responses in the liver, gallbladder,
pancreas, intestines and even the stomach and brain. We may be aware of some of this when we get the signals of
hunger pangs.

One of the important systems maintains the supply and balance of the bile salts, which are produced by the liver
in considerable quantity but only about 5% are lost through expulsion with feces. The rest of the bile salts are
absorbed through the lining of the ileum (middle portion of the intestines), flushed into ileac vein straight into the
portal vein of the liver and from there back into circulation for the creation of liver bile. Each bile salt may be
recycled as many as twenty times and perhaps three times for each meal-digestive cycle.

Another digestive sensory system involves the hormone secretin, which is produced in the duodenum in response
to the acid versus base level of the food mixture. When there is too little acid, secretin becomes the
neurotransmitter that stimulates the common biliary duct to add more water and bicarbonate to the flow of bile
and increasing the volume.

As you may have noticed, from the extraction of excess cholesterol by the liver and removing it through the bile,
to the formation of gallstones, to the creation of the bile salts, cholesterol is a key ingredient in the role of the
gallbladder in digestion.

If the gallbladder is dispensable, as many believe, then why is it there? It’s a legitimate question. The suspicion of
many researchers is that the contribution of the normal gallbladder to digestion is subtle. That‘s why its removal
is not life threatening. In fact, for most people it is not noticeable. This does not mean the digestive system is
better or even ‘normal’ without the gallbladder only that it continues to function sufficiently.

PANCREAS

The role of the pancreas in digestion and sugar metabolism

The stomach breaks down the bulky food you eat and starts the process of reducing the large nutrient molecules
with gastric acids. The intestines carry out the task of absorbing the nutrients into the bloodstream. The pancreas,
with its ducts leading into the top of the small intestine, plays a crucial role in digestion by secreting enzymes that
cut apart large nutrient molecules, making smaller molecules that can be absorbed into the bloodstream through
the walls of the intestines.

Along with the liver, the pancreas is one of the master chemists of the body. In fact, it’s two chemists in one.
One function of the pancreas produces enzymes for the digestive system in the exocrine tissue. The other function
of the pancreas creates hormones as part of the endocrine system. Within the pancreas the tissues of both systems
intertwine, which makes it difficult to treat the pancreas because things that work on one system very easily
damage the other.

While its exocrine function connects directly to the small intestine through a system of ducts, the endocrine
pancreas connects to the rest of the body through the blood and nervous systems. Both systems react to the
demand for energy and the complex chemical biofeedback controlled process of digestion.
The stomach delivers its decidedly acidic contents, called chyme (pronounced ‘kime’ as in lime) to the intestines.
As it enters the duodenum, the chyme mixes with pancreatic juice, which is alkaline (a high concentration of
bicarbonate ions) that neutralizes the gastric acids. This makes enzymatic action more effective.

The pancreas stores many of the enzymes it produces, waiting for a signal – from hormones or nerve impulses –
to release them into the duodenum. In this way, many of the hormones and enzymes of the pancreas are sensitive
to body signals related to stress (for energy production), quantity of food types (fats, carbohydrates and proteins),
and alcohol.

It doesn’t take of leap of imagination to understand that a gland producing chemistry intimately linked to the
digestion of food and drink is sensitive to lifestyle abuse. Overeating and obesity, eating a diet high in fats or
sugars, and heavy drinking of alcohol are typical of things that stress the pancreas. Long-term stress on any
organ, including the pancreas, often leads to disease.

Unfortunately, most of the diseases of the pancreas are serious and frequently fatal.

Glucagon and insulin are the two primary hormones – both produced by the pancreas – that stimulate or depress
the level of sugar (glucose) in the blood.

In type 1 diabetes, the pancreas completely loses the ability to produce insulin. In type 2 diabetes, insulin
resistance, the cells of the body partially or fully lose their ability to use insulin. Either way, the level of blood
sugar increases and, if untreated, will cause serious damage to the body and is fatal in some situations.

Both type 1 and type 2 diabetes are chronic, incurable diseases although regular insulin injection is effective in
controlling type 1 and lifestyle changes combined with medication are effective in controlling type 2.

LARGE INTESTINE OR COLON

The large intestine carries out the function of absorption of water and electrolytes as well as storing waste until it
can be expelled. It is also responsible for maintaining water balance and some absorption of vitamins such as
vitamin K. The mixture of remaining food and intestinal juices called chyme in the colon is devoid of almost all
nutrients and water; it consists of primarily the undigested food with some amount of water and electrolytes.

The bacteria in the colon are capable of digesting small amounts of cellulose. Substances formed as a result of
bacteria activity include vitamin K, vitamin B12, thiamin and riboflavin.

From the colon, the stool passes to the rectum to be discharged from the body.

OMENTUM

The omentum as fatty tissue that insulates the abdominal organs.

The omentum is a membranous double layer of fatty tissue that covers and supports the intestines and organs in
the lower abdominal area. The omentum is made up of the greater omentum which is an important storage for fat
deposits and the lesser omentum which connects the stomach and intestines to the liver.

ETC

SMALL INTESTINE

The small intestine is a long tube that is approximately 18 feet long (6 meters). The small intestine is called small
because the diameter or the width of the tube is much less than the l a r g e i n t e s t i n e . The parts of the small
intestine include thed u o d e n u m , jejunum and the ileum. Thed u o d e n u m is a segment of intestine between the
stomach and the jejunum that is very active in digestion where many different enzymes mix from
the s t o m a c h ,l i v e r , g a l l b l a d d e r and p a n c r e a s .
The small intestine is the location in the body where the majority of the nutrients from ingested food are
absorbed. Whereas the s t o m a c h is responsible for the churning and mechanical breakdown of food, the small
intestine is very important for absorption. Digested food passes through the wall of the intestine into the blood
vessels which then distribute the nutrition first to the l i v e r and then through the rest of the body.

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13.2.15
God, the persons are killing each other in Your name. The killer is killing others saying he is
killing to protect Your ideology or Your identity. The person getting killed is also Your devotee
and has been praying You. Then why all these cruel deeds have been happening in Your name?
You are God. You are all powerful. You know everything happening in this small world. Are You
hesitating to stop the killers from killing others because they are uttering Your name before
killing or while killing?[ In many situations they do not even think about You or they hate You].
But the person murdered too must be praying You and must have been asking You an
explanation why it was happening to him in spite of praying You. He did not have much time to
pray You. He was calling You in emergency. You as God must have thought that it is better to
save the person getting killed than to listen to the killers. Killers would still be there after killing
to continue to pray You, but the killed would be no more after getting killed. He would not be
there to pray You. Which way is better to follow- to listen to the killers or to the one being
killed? Do not You understand the simple logic which we know? Are we wrong in thinking that
way? I think we are wrong to think that way because of the simple reason that You are God and
we believe that You are always right and it is we who are always on wrong side. We are humans
and are fallible and You are not.
How do You answer the family of the slain who must have been fervently appealing to You
devotedly and tearfully praying You to save their family member. Are You unkind or selectively
kind like us. Are You very busy not to hear our appeals at crucial times? You are God and so You
can attend every business simultaneously, everywhere and instantly.
After the person is killed he is no more to pray You. But his kith and kin who have been praying
You for his life have no other go than to forget You and start weeping for him. You cannot
expect them to continue praying You even after he has been killed. They would say O God why
You have taken him away from us.
We are confused at what is happening in this world. We have no logical answers or
explanations. Our knowledge is very limited to understand Your acts. I am sure we will never
understand You and Your creation and we move on with no change in our attitudes.
You understand that and so You are confident that we will never desert You in spite of our
setbacks. We are always cornered and are at dead end. You know further that the more the
setbacks we face the more we turn to You. We forget and continue to live. We should thank
You for letting us forget the mishaps. We even forget that we are confused as said above.
Soon we enter different world.
We forget You most of the time. We always gloat over the pleasures of life. We are humans.

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What should we think given to know that we are going to die in a few minutes?
We are always attached to our childhood places.

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We have mathematics, physical and biological sciences, computer sciences and various
branches of engineering. We are able to hypothesize and prove several theories. But we cannot
predict about our own thinking at any moment. This moment we think about a particular topic
and next moment we may switch to a different one. We think continuously. It is an abstract
process. We cannot see it. We cannot record it. Whatever we speak can be recorded. Whatever
we see can be recorded and so whatever we do can be recorded .Whatever we think cannot be
recorded. Similarly whatever we taste cannot be recorded. Whatever is going to happen in next
moment cannot be predicted. So our brain

17.2.15
God , I am confused as always, as I do not know who You are. I vaguely understand that You are
there or You might be there. I cannot argue with somebody who says You are not there. I
cannot convince someone who believes You but asks me some clarification about You; that is
he and I are in same confusion about You. I only hear from books and preachers that You are
there. I only understand from stories that You blessed Your staunch devotees. Mathematics is
not a story. Physics and chemistry and other sciences which are called exact sciences are not
stories as they can be explained step by step as they are established or supported by
experiments. You are beyond all these sciences and are cause of all these sciences. You know
all these mathematics and sciences and that is why the universe and we are all here. Still we do
not know You. I know I will not know You in my life time. I am unfortunate to be in this state of
confusion. If I do not think about You there is no confusion. Ignorance is bliss. But I am a fool. I
always think about You. I do not know what to think about You. There is no beginning, no
middle state or no end to my thinking about You. I am not like Your great devotees who are
devoted to You without any doubt or question or foolish thoughts of proof about You. I am
neither like them nor like those who do not think about You while accepting You nor like those
blessed ones who do not believe You and so do not think about You. My condition is horrible. I
am not smart or intelligent enough to somehow mesmerize others to make them believe You. I
do not quote from the established scriptures and convince others as I do not understand them.
My intellect is low. I do not try to attempt to tell anybody about You because I do not know
You. I do not know the reason why You do not show Yourself to us. You are not like us who
want to announce eagerly what we know or what we discovered. You are different. You know
everything. You created everything. You know why we are born, why and how we are existing
and finally why we are dying. Still You do not want us to know about You. What is the mystery
behind Your intention? We do not know what is real. If we do not know about us and for what
we are here and why we are leaving this place, what is the use of this life? Is it Your intention
that we are born to grow to earn money to live to eat, enjoy; be entangled in ego and prestige,
and fights for positions, family ties and sorrows?

If I make any object like say a chair, I know why I am making it, its use and probably its life. But
this great object, a person or animal, is not made by parents. They cannot claim that they
designed it, its features, properties and destiny. Once conceived, they do not have any designs,
materials and tools to fabricate or mould the fetus except the food the pregnant mother eats.
To make a chair I make it out of materials I know and fabricate it in whatever fashion I desire
and modify it. I know its features. I created it. If it comes out well I take pride of it. If it does not
come out well I know why it has not and I am not satisfied with it. But onething. I cannot make
a very tiny model of the chair and make it grow by itself with all the features I want in correct
proportions and stop at a level I desire. But we humans or animals or plants are like that. They
start from single micro sized cell without any physical features of final product. That cell is not
seen by us unless some scientist sees under microscope. But that single cell knows what it is
going to be, divides selectively, continuously every moment to develop all features. All the
design features, perceptible and imperceptible are contained in it. Once in womb, the cell
transforms itself in accordance with a design which we parents do not know, into a baby. Once
born, it grows, lives and dies. Parents, the so called creators, cannot take credit for all this, as in
the case of a craftsman. But they do. They take pride. Is any tiniest part of the body made by
the parents? Do they claim responsibility for the baby’s intellect or handicaps? But they own it.

The real manmade objects do not know about their manufacturer or the producer. They
change hands. They are inert. They do not have gratitude towards their creator. Humans are
faithful to their parents. In fact they are faithful to parents not for creating them. Parents are
not creators in real sense. A farmer placing a seed of a plant in earth will claim that he is the
creator of the plant that comes out of it. He planted the seed, took care by watering it. He is not
the creator of the seed. Another plant is the creator of the seed. He is just a care taker as he
kept it in his yard. What about plants and trees in forests or on roadside? Who created them in
our sense? We do not think about the real producer because He does not proclaim and
publicize His creation.
God, thanks for making me write all this. I am tired or my mind is tired of thinking about You.
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18.2.15
Science and technology are recent phenomena.
Some animals and birds follow monogamy. Some animals maintain association or herding. How
do they communicate among themselves?
Birds fly in a formation.
Body of bird.
Why we are unable to decode animal or bird language?
Why some animals have poisonous glands to aid killing as self protection?
Which animals are designed to give us milk? Why not dog milk or donkey milk or horse milk or
camel milk etc?
Why is zebra not a domestic animal? Bear ? are fox, jackal still existing?
Crocodile is strong in water or on land? Power of crocodile? Food of crocodiles?
Is there fish bite? Are fish soft animals?
Which animals eat dry and wet grass? They like wet or dry grass?
Do cows and buffaloes eat leaves and plants?
Are our 20000 genes sufficient to design every micro part of bodies besides minds?
Body is structure : bones, ligaments and flesh, blood vessels, digestive mechanisms, sensory
organs, nerves,signals and communications, energy production and distribution for all muscles,
defence mechanisms, thinking, analysis, memory, speech, visuals, chemicals like enzymes,
harmones, acids, blood pumping at certain pressure and related valves and chambers, oxygen
intake, exchange with effluent gases like co2, moisture, respiratory system, blood purification,
distribution food to all cells, excavation of useless gases from all cells, growth, decay, death of
cells, cell repair, etc.
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God , I have only questions about You and Your existence. I do not have any answer. Earlier,
before science came into existence, great people realized You by Your grace. You blessed them
but You did not make ordinary people realize You. All of us are believing You just because of
those who were blessed by You. We are all only followers following a set of rules and rituals
framed by You through them. Science is now allowing everyone know the secrets of nature. The
great scientists who must have been created by You only, are allowing everyone to learn and
understand the laws of nature and thus encouraging others too to contribute. Science has now
indirectly proved Your existence beyond doubt. You are there. But where are You? Who are
You? Why are You playing with us and spoiling us by creating differences in the name of
religion, region, ideologies, selfishness, supremacies and egos? Make us all as inert as rock
instead. You sent Your messengers. We believed them because of their miracles as directed by
You. Ordinary humans believe in miracles. You are a miracle. But what is the use? We will
never change. We only fight in Your name. All Your messengers said very good morals. Yes, but
as their staunch followers, all of us built walls around us. We are as cults. All Your messengers
practiced and preached peaceful coexistence. But we are fighting saying our God’s messenger is
better than Yours. In fact we forget those great people. We are using them to fight and settle our
internal disputes. You are observing and doing nothing to save us. It is impossible to understand
You. I am writing this only because of Your grace. Otherwise I am an idiot.
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19.2.15
God, I am very happy when I pray You even with 50% concentration or devotion. This happens
most often. I am very sad when I lose my concentration while praying You. I get excited when I
pray You wholeheartedly, without getting distracted. I get peace out of it. I thank and express my
gratitude to You for letting me pray You with full concentration. I request You only to let me
pray You with complete devotion. I do not wish anything else as You are here to take care of me.
When I pray wholeheartedly You are forced to look at me. That is the essence of prayer. It is to
attract Your attention to us. I do not follow any conventional methods to pray You. I simply pray
and remember You and earn peace. People may get mental peace in several ways. Some may not
get peace if they do not read that day’s news paper. Some others may like to watch TV serials
and movies, financial dealings etc. There is no end to this list. But they may spoil our minds.
Then what is special in getting peace through prayer? We do not turn to evil deeds & evil
thoughts.
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21.2.15
God, do not allow me to think in my own way. My mind always goes astray. For my mind the
easiest path to get peace, solace and satisfaction or getting disturbed and perturbed is to imagine
obscene, to think bad about others, to remember what bad things others did to me, how I did
good things and so how others flattered me, and why some others did not recognize me etc. I
bother about others than You.The hardest path is to concentrate on You even for a few seconds
and minutes. So I request You to take complete control of my mind and also my body. I feel safe
and secure in Your control. The evil thoughts will not dare to attack and poison me.
You blessed innumerable persons by granting them skills in literature, music, arts, sciences,
philosophy, good governance, service to society etc. Those who recognized that they attained
such skills due to Your benefaction are the real great persons.
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22.2.15
God, I am in confusion as usual. I do not know why I am here in this world. I am a very shy
person. I cannot do any useful work for society because of my nature. I am timid. I do not like
criticism because I fail to defend myself; because I am not thorough; because I have many doubts
about everything; because I do not know You, Your world or universe; because I am not blessed
by You to be even one millionth of an Einstein or any of other scientists or mathematicians who
try to enrich their knowledge and of others to understand Your creation; because I cannot be like
anybody who leads normal life of enjoying his or her existence without always thinking about
You and Your creation. So I belong to neither world. Why do not You understand my state and
lead me to understand You. I have no peace without knowledge about You. I am unable to just
live by just accepting Your existence. I know You are here and there and everywhere. I am like a
small child who is unable to locate his/ her mother who is somewhere in the house. The child
cries and mother runs towards her child. The child gets peace. What about me now? You are
everywhere and I am unable to see You. I am unable to perceive You. I know it is impossible to
get to see You. So I am restless. Why did You create me like this? There are innumerable
devotees for You at any time. What is the reason behind Your idea of not showing Yourself to
even the greatest of Your devotees? You always let them know You by blessing them; the great
scientists blessed by You are never satisfied with their invaluable discoveries and turn to You for
not blessing them with more knowledge; at their peak they feel that they are ordinary even
though they are extraordinary; the greatest singers feel the limits of their vocal chords and turn to
You for better output, etc. Humans can never be more than whatever they are because they are
physical beings. There are limits to the properties of all physical elements of which we are all
made. The difference between the performances of different persons is due the variation in the
elements of which they made, like differences in the strengths of muscles, or the vocal chords as
said above.

The thought process is not physical but is linked to the quality of the grey matter. That is why
people have different IQs or emotions. We can raise the levels of IQ etc by some training or
meditation, but not beyond a limit.
I am satisfied to some extent that I realized my incompleteness and then again dissatisfied and
disappointed because I am not able to realize You.
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2.3.15
When we listen to the best music of our interest our mind gets tuned to it and we enjoy it; we get
elated; we get peace of mind; we get energy or revitalized; if possible we will rewind and listen
again; we analyze it, every bit of it commensurate with our ability and knowledge; a music can
be enjoyed by different people in different ways. Some may like its overall tune and say it is
fantastic. They may not go further deep into it. Just as for any subject, the deeper we go into the
details of that composition, the more we enjoy. Great efforts of several persons contribute to a
piece of music : Lyric writer, music composer, singers, orchestra, and nowadays recording
technology and playback technology. The flow of words of the lyric touches our hearts. He
writes according the situation he imagines. The lyric makes us to think. The music composer
gives life to the lyric and mesmerises the mind and sooths it. The melody in the voice of singers
hypnotizes us.
We admire the genius of the persons who contributed to that piece of music. Then we thank God
for enabling them with those abilities.
God’s creation of this universe is like a play or drama composition. We are all actors in that play.
God is the producer of the play, script writer, and director. He selects the persons as per the roles
of characters in that play. We are all the best actors because we are so engrossed while enacting
the play that we forget that we only are acting in accordance with the directions from the
Director. We forget everything else. We forget God who is directing us. We improvise our roles
without the permission of the director. We do not respect the producer because of who we exist
in that play. That is why commit mistakes and blunders. We think that we have originality.
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4.3.15
Wars between kingdoms happened due to silly reasons and misunderstandings and their effect on
the egos of rulers, backstabbers, power mongers, money, expansionism, adventurism and
jealousy. People suffered due to wars. It is inconsequential for the rulers. All the parties involved
pray God for victory.
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4.3.15
We carry the body with all the fantastic machinery in it. Our mind does not ever think about
inside the body except when it is unwell. We are ignorant and uneducated as far as our body is
concerned. We only take medicines as prescribed by the doctor and again forget about it. Why
should we worry about that great machine inside us and of which we are composed of. We suffer
when even a small part in it develops defect. For the most part of our life our body works without
any complaint. But we are ignorant of its existence. It is born, grows and then deteriorates
continuously without our knowledge. We are also ignorant of the creator of the universe, of
which our body is a part, for most our life. We are always engaged in providing food and
external comforts for the body, and for the other bodies that are dependent on us.
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6.3.15 One way to understand God is to understand our own body. We naturally do not care to
go into the micro details of our body because we do not need that kind of knowledge to get on in
this world. Only scientists in the field of biological, medical and related sciences would try to
gather knowledge in that direction. For others a little extra effort into genetics, human anatomy
and physiology will take us nearer to God. Our body is a great miracle. Every micro part of it is a
miracle. Every scientist agrees. Only God can do miracles. Science is unraveling God while
trying to unravel the secrets of nature.
The second thing is the ever undefinable happening called the fate. Fate is beyond science and so
it is not recognized. So we cannot talk about the fate with any degree of confidence. We only
whisper about it. But we still believe it in our hearts. We are scared of the fate. We only say that
we do not know what our fate is the next moment. We do not know when we acquire a certain
fatal disease; when will we be involved in any kind of accident; what the attitude of interviewer
is going to be and whether he would ask questions entirely unknown to us even after rigorous
preparation, whereas a little prepared candidate is asked questions of what he just prepared;
whether a genius or a low IQ child is born to us; what kind of spouses we get; whether we get
rich or not in spite of our genuine efforts, etc. There is no end to the list of situations that are
attributed to the fate. We work hard towards a goal that remains elusive. We get something that
pleases us unexpectedly. Fate cannot be realized by equations, derivations or any hypothesis.
Statistics too takes back seat with regard to the fate. Its only characteristic is unpredictability.
The nearest expression in statistics to predict any event is the probability. The probability of
meeting with an accident is 50%. We meet with an accident or we do not meet with an accident.
The probability of getting questions with known answers in a general interview is very low as
against a particular subject matter on which we did a thesis, but still we cannot be assured of
success.
Science pushes us to God and fate attracts us to God. Science with all its logical derivations
supported by experimental evidence is leading to intricacies of no end which puzzle scientists.
One puzzle leads to hundred puzzles. The fate cannot be understood by any extent and so it is
easy to understand the significance of fate.

The third aspect is our understanding or not understanding the universe external to our body that
leads us to God. The more we understand the more we do not understand. It is like saying about a
very close person that we can never understand his attitude.
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8.3.15. God, I do not wish to be a politician. Because, with politics as my profession, I have to
play politics always. I have to do social service as a politician. I have no guarantee of regular
income. I have to spend money while being at service to people. I do not service rich people. I
have to listen to down trodden people or listen to the problems of middle class people who have
grievances due to the neglect of governing bodies like municipalities or corporations. Those
affected people do not pay me if their grievances are addressed through me. These governing
bodies do not listen to ordinary servicers. The elected representatives of people do not usually
care either for the servicers. Social service comes under non profitable job. So I have to depend
on charities from private institutions. It is very difficult to get funds from them. They pay only to
recognized social bodies by cheques to justify their payment and convince partners and audits. I
do not wish to work with those organizations full time as they pay less. Government does not
pay for social service. It is not a budgeted organ of government.
I would rather study well and get job in a government office where job is secure and
promotions are assured upto a certain level as I work sincerely and people go on retiring. In
government jobs medical and retirement benefits are assured. Job timings are fixed. Holidays are
fixed. Overtime allowances are there. But usually all employees are equal. Sometimes sincere
and hard worker is overloaded and a smart lazy guy can get away working less but within the
regulations, thus escaping any action. Promotions need not necessarily be commensurate with the
work, but based on the assessment according to some fixed parameters which the lazy ones too
would satisfy and thus qualify for increments and promotion. All government jobs are not equal.
Employees in small proprietary and private companies work at the whims of the
management. Without organized unions, employees are at the mercy of proprietors for
everything: salaries, timings of work, holidays, increments, fringe benefits if any etc. There is no
job guarantee till retirement. Smart persons move up. But all persons are not smart. So, many
employees suffer as they have no other alternative. They cannot change or jump jobs for good as
they are not smart, though sincere. They may not get good increments and so stagnate. They are
retained at low wages because they work to retain their jobs.
Jobs in private organizations of repute are good to work with. They pay well if you are
smart at work and there is no limit for growth if you are recognized.
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God, what is the purpose of the life on this earth? We are born without our knowledge. We are
grown by parents without our knowledge. We go to school, college learn some knowledge
required to know about the world around us and learn to work to earn money, get married,
produce children, bring them up, make them settle and in this process we become old. We get
ready to settle for smooth passage out from this world. We are satisfied that we have led our life
well. We acquired some properties and are busy maintaining them and earn from them for the
rest of life. We get up from sleep, eat, watch TV, see news papers, talk to our children, friends,
and go to bed to sleep again. And then die one day. We are no more. Finally, what did all of us
do?
We have no answer. Or we say that we did so many great things or we enjoyed life full. Or we
say that God did not favor us with smooth life and life is full of difficulties, agony, exploitation,
harassment, diseases and suffering. One more thing we did quite often : praying God.
What would be our attitude towards life if we happen to know that we are going to die soon, as in
the case of terminal diseases? Do we cry that we are going to die? Or become philosophical and
pray God to let us die peacefully?
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Which is superior? Mind or body? Though the mind is within the body, mind controls the
actions of the body. Mind suffers if the body is not well. In turn, the body suffers if the mind is
not well. 12.3.15 If mind is very good, say very intelligent, it directs expression through speech
from mouth and deeds through hands, legs and other organs, all being parts of body. Mind is like
a pilot and the body is like an aero plane. The pilot controls the plane. If the plane develops a
snag, pilot cannot control it properly and takes steps to repair it through the maintenance staff. A
bad pilot can cause problem to the plane.
But our body is not inert like a plane. It is fantastically dynamic beyond imagination. Most of the
time body repairs or heals itself. From a single micro cell called zygote, it has grown to become a
complete body that includes the brain.
The mind too is fantastically dynamic beyond imagination and can keep body in good health
through positive thinking. The mind and body work in perfect harmony.
The mind can spoil the body by negative thinking and hence wrong decisions: smoking, drinking,
bad food habits, bad sleeping habits, stealing, debauchery, befriending bad people and be
influenced by them, influencing others to bad deeds, use bad language and become emotional or
vice versa, unduly overambitious and selfish, etc.
Sometimes the body becomes defective due to some known or unknown reasons. It requires
treatment.
Mind too can fall ill requiring treatment.
Both body and mind age. They lose sharpness with age. Body loses fitness and mind’s control
over body falls. In death the thinking power and memory disappear from brain; the body
becomes static and deteriorates fast to destruction.
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14.3.15 God, of all the sensory organs You provided us, the eyes not only act as sensors to see
the world , but deliver the expression of feelings too. We can read a person’s emotional status
through his eyes. Other sensory organs: the ears, the tongue, the skin, the nose cannot express the
feelings of a person. Eyes can very explicitly express anger, humor, acceptance, rejection,
jealousy, appreciation, sadness, happiness, sleepiness, attention etc. We can have some kind of
estimation of a person’s character through his eyes. Besides, eye aid beauty too. Eyes have
fantastic coordinated movement of both eye balls. All sensory organs have limits of their
function. Eyes get strained, ear drums get damaged, nose’s smelling olfactory receptors can get
damaged, skin can lose its sense of touch, taste buds of tongue can get damaged. God gave two
eyes, two ears, two nostrils, but one tongue and one continuous skin.
{ form http://www.sciencelet.com/2012/11/why-two-nostrils-why-not-one-or-three.html
Two eyes help us see depth (3 dimensional picture) and two ears help us determine the direction and
distance of the source of sound. So, two nostrils also should help us in some way. They do - they help
us smell more things in a better way.

Smell is basically a chemical reaction between the olfactory receptors in the nose and the
volatile chemicals coming from the object that is being smelled (for example esters from
fruits). An object has no smell if it does not emit any chemicals that the receptors in the
nose can detect (for example iPhone).

Smell is basically a chemical reaction and the rate of this chemical reaction varies based on
the molecules coming out of the thing being smelled. Some of them react quickly (like
Octane coming from anise) whereas others are slow (like l-carvone coming from
peppermint) and thus our nose needs more time with the slowly reacting chemicals before
it can detect the smell. This is where having two nostrils helps.

Different breathing pattern in different nostrils.

In the above diagram, Nostril 1 is the dominant nostril

It has been observed in controlled experiments that all of us have one dominant nostril and one not-
so-dominant one (which nostril is dominant keeps changing through out the day without any pattern).
The dominant nostril takes in air at the pace required to fuel the body while the other nostril takes in
air at a much slower pace. This way, the dominant nostril takes care of supplying the body with
enough oxygen and smelling the fast reacting chemicals while the other nostril takes its own time and
smells the slow reacting chemicals (it can do so because air passes slowly through this nostril giving
enough time for the reaction to occur)
 Now we know why nature gave us two nostrils. Human's sense of smell is poor compared to others in
the class, but hey, it is at least better than what it would have been if we just had one nostril.

} That is the God’s creation.

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God, do people suffer or die untimely without Your knowledge? Do villains exist and cause harm
and agony to innocent people without Your knowledge? The answer cannot be negative as You
are omniscient and omnipresent. So, why in Your creation negativism too is prevailing and
dominating? Why are You tolerating? You are permitting two negative events to happen. One is,
the unduly suffering of innocents. Another is, the villain is allowed to commit heinous acts.

Here we reach dead end of discussion because we do not have answer.

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16.3.15
The cell is the unit of life for humans, animals and plants. It consists of cytoplasm, nucleoplasm,
nucleus, and many vital organelles. The nucleus contains the chromosomes that contain the genes
along with X & Y chromosomes.
The life of anyone starts from the single cell zygote which has single chromosomes of all types
from mother as well as the father.
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20.3.15 God, I am not in the control of my body and mind. Then how can You save me? How
can I ask You to save me? I am not a strong willed person.
21.3.15 There are great number of people superior to me in intellect or in social service or in
Your service. There are several people of lower social or economic or intellectual status who
much more strongly believe You than me. They are in a much higher status spiritually and so on
higher pedestal to reach You. I feel shy before them.Hence You have to pay attention to them or
rather they deserve Your attention much better than me. I am in a pitiable state because I am
inferior to all of them. The fate is that I cannot come out of my mould. I tried but could not
succeed. I am a steadfast person of my own character and by nature I cannot climb to next higher
position spiritually. I pray You from my lower spiritual level, lower intellectual platform and at
my convenience. And still I pray You to bless me! I weep for Your blessing! I know very well
that it is You who created me like this. So it is not my fault. I do not dare to say that Your
creation of me like this is defective, though I feel like that. How can I say that Your creation is
defective? You are perfectly perfect. So You created me like I am now, intentionally. So why
should I worry when I understand that You created me with some purpose. For that matter, all
Your creation is with specific purpose known only to You. My only request is that please do not
let me slip further down. I am tired now mentally.
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23.3.15 God, has any scientist made any statement about the existence or non existence of You?
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[25.3.15] God, As I do not understand Your intention, I see the world around me with a different
perception. In fact I do not have any perception. I am a biased person. I am ignorant. Though I
have some degrees from educational institutions, I know that I am uneducated to the core. My
degrees are useful only to earn daily bread for me and my family to live and to struggle to
improve contemporary comforts. Such comforts are increasing in number and in quality, so I am
continuously engaging myself in obtaining them or upgrading my current comforts. [31.3.15]My
outlook is always to maintain and improve my comfort level, acquisition of assets with savings
and status in this society. I am busy in that. So where is the time slot to think about You?
Whatever time is available I engage myself in gossips about relatives and friends and in watching
TV or visiting places and other people. I spend time in cultural associations, clubs etc.
25.3.15 contd.. Again, as I do not understand Your intention, I do not understand the way the
universe is working or moving. You know the past, present and future. You are everywhere in
the universe. i.e., You are omniscient and omnipresent etc. That is, You are all omni or can I say
omniomni? Or simply call You God. As I do not comprehend You, Your intentions and Your
activities, I always misunderstand You. I do not understand why we are all in problems. We do
not in fact understand that we are in problems. The problems we understand as problems are all
mundane problems. We feel that we can solve all such problems. Or we approach our patrons in
this world to solve our problems. We work hard to solve these mundane problems with all our
smartness and intelligence. We feel that we are achievers as we solve our problems.
We never attempt even to think of the real problems.
The real problem is to understand why we are in this world. The problem is to gain
knowledge of what is happening in this world. Everything in this world is beyond our
comprehension. Every event is beyond our control. All our knowledge and all our actions to earn
bread and status are meaningless and are of no significance in the real sense. [31.3.15]All of our
knowledge and experience is akin to kindergarten compared to the knowledge of universe and
God, in which we can never graduate because we basically think that it is all waste of time and
trash and does not result any kind of personal gain. It is only for people who don’t have any work
or don’t intend to work smart. Thinking about universe from metaphysical perception and God is
for idle and lazy persons. It is reserved for time slot before death after we exhaust all our physical
[of our body and mind] resources and become helpless and we be considered as waste to be cared
and maintained by our own people who inherit whatever we earned.
23.3.15 contd…With all our knowledge, education, experience etc, can we eradicate
differences in intellectual abilities of people? Can we eliminate the element of fate from our
life? Can we master the nature and control its fury and mould it to suit our comforts?
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4.4.15 God created flowers with fantastic fragrance which freshen us and cause tranquility
in our thoughts. Why flowers do not disseminate foul smell? God has been kind to us. Flowers
have appealing and pleasing colors too due to God’s grace. Fortunately they are not of black
color or some kind of such repelling colors.
Why humans and animals are not created with such covering containing chlorophyll and
corresponding mechanisms such that they too manufacture their own food by photosynthesis
with the help of sunlight and water with minerals and carbon dioxide as input?
 God, many animals are created with carnivorous nature as otherwise there would not be
enough vegetation for all of them and also probably to control their population .
God, why have You not created all animals and humans with herbivorous nature and avoid
killings and flesh eating?
Why some animals give birth to multiple offspring and some others only one?
God, such female animals with multiple offspring have been provided with multiple
breasts. But why do women have two breasts and cows have four nipples with one breast etc?
Before death our minds are tuned towards the spouse, children or grand children and the
amounts owed by others to us etc. and may be we pray God. Do we remember the ones who
brought us into this world, spent their lives and showered all affection for us? We rarely
remember our parents and grandparents because we are naturally inclined and occupied with the
thoughts about our children, grandchildren and their welfare. Our parents too were equally
worried about us. Still they are given a pass.
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9.4.15 God, I am not intelligent. I do not have good memory. In fact I have very faltering
memory. I tend to fail to recollect a particular person’s name or a particular number at right time.
I have no affiliations even with known people. I am not talkative. I do not flatter people. I do not
discuss other’s weaknesses or criticize others in their absence. So I cannot mix well in social
groups. I do not have attractive personality. In fact people try not to meet me or remember me for
any advice. I feel that I have a repulsive personality. People neglect me in a group. I am not very
assertive even when I have a strong ground. My voice gets drowned in meetings. I am too
obedient to the extent that I am taken for granted to be bypassed or not to be considered even for
small favors. I am no body’s intimate friend for discussing specific matters. I am very reserved. I
have no ambitions. I have no goal for any practical purpose.
God, I always tend to think about You. But You are too abstract and I fail to catch You.
But I do not leave You in my thoughts. I am always in dilemma about You, but I won’t leave
You. Is it my weakness that I am lost in thoughts about You, but without any concrete outcome?
I am not satisfied with conventional prayers though I pray every day. So here too I do not belong
to any established groups. I am always on my own. I do not know where I am going in my
thoughts or deeds. I am ever lost. I have no guide nor I am in a position to guide anyone.
So I am not smart. So, God, who will help me in any matter except You?
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24.4.15 [A] God, the humans are dependent for food on the various kinds of plants and
trees for the vegetables[ leaves, roots, seeds and fruits etc] they produce.
[B] All organs of the body including brain with its memory and analytical and reasoning
powers and preprogrammed subconscious controls developed simultaneously with perfect
harmony with each other. All organs and their sub organs [eg., hand is an organ while arms,
fingers are sub organs] are coordinated with each other perfectly and the actions and reactions are
very swift and instantaneous and sometimes without conscious efforts from brain.
[C]

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5.5.15. why plants and trees which too have life do not have heart ?
Humans are made of chemicals. They eat food made of chemicals. They digest the food using
chemicals like hormones and enzymes. The muscles work through signals in the form of
chemicals. But our thoughts are not made of chemicals. The thought process in humans and
animals is amazing and complex. It is not physical. The thoughts are abstract phenomena
happening inside brain.
8.5.15 They control the person `s character and actions and vice versa. The brain’s content
decides the level of intelligence of the person or animal. It decides the emotional nature of the
person. The person could become an artist or scientist or thinker etc. An intelligent person who is
destined to become an artist like a poet may not like to opt any other type of profession, say
painting or engineering or political leadership.
The inner organs of the body are formed and work continuously according the programs written
in genes. They are not in any way designed or produced by their owner, the person having them
inside him. They are not in the control of their owner. The owner is not at all conscious about the
multitude of continuous, nonstop functions like heart pumping and blood flow, digestion
processes, cell growth and division etc. The owner does not have control over the right or wrong
functioning of the inner organs or diseases occurring to them. The owner can harm them directly
through wrong habits like smoking etc or indirectly by not controlling emotions. The owner is
not the body containing the inner organs. But in real sense the thought process inside the brain is
the one which claims the ownership. The body as such is itself an organ containing organs. If the
brain does not work, as in the case of mad persons or after the brain death or even during sleep or
coma, the claim of ownership is lost. One part of the brain very efficiently controls all inner
organs like a machine with computer without any other thoughts or emotions. Another part of
brain is the one that has ego, emotions and desires. It is always directed outwards and works in
conjunction with the sense organs. It takes the ownership of the body and mind. It thinks
continuously when awake. It directs the organs linked to the external world like eyes, hands and
legs etc.

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13.5.15. Why do we need to take food?

Why does it take many years for a human to grow?
Cycle of human life: birth, grow to be young, when is the peak?, any stable state over a period
without growth or decay?, decay without suffering but decreasing energy and stamina, decay
with suffering as organs do not work properly or decay without suffering as organs still work
without causing suffering, death.
1.Birth is not in the control of the person being born. It is due to parents but they too do not know
exactly at what moment the zygote formation took place. ie., the moment when the semen joined
the ovum or egg. Mother may know only a few weeks later. If it is a test tube baby [IVF] the
exact time of zygote formation can be known. Actual date of birth is the date on which comes the
baby out of the mother’s womb.

2. The sex of the baby can be known only a few weeks later. In test tube baby case it could be
manipulated.
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24.5.15
God, humans animals are gifted brains, of different orders. They use their brains mainly to
maintain the body and to live in peace. They search for food or work for food, they maintain
houses, families and children till they grow.
Why the flowers are not black?
Why all leaves are not very big instead of being large number of small leave ?
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6.6.15 We humans falter. We do not have infinite intelligence, nor do we have infinite memory.
Our life is of very limited duration. Even people with very good intentions falter in decision
making. The cost of ill decisions varies depending on situation. We may commit many mistakes
unintentionally or intentionally and escape. But fate catches some people sometime. There may
be several persons who did not receive any punishment at all even after committing gravest
crimes intentionally. Some persons with great ideals and skills may get caught in the vicious
circle of errors in judgment in very simple or in crucial cases. People tend to be over ambitious.
There is no contentment. In their attempts to reach their set goals, there is every chance of
committing mistakes. In an organization, any error anywhere in the chain of hierarchy affects the
whole organization. All the good will developed with hard work over a long time and effort is
lost just because of some simple or grave blunders, intentional or unintentional, at any level, the
lowest level or at the highest level. There may be checks and remedial measures against several
known or assumed contingencies. But life is very complex and beyond imagination. Disaster can
strike in any form any time. It is not that only good intentions and schemes prevail all the time.
Situations are under control only as long as they are under control. They may turn out of control
due to unexpected reasons, rational or irrational, and cause havoc.
What is the role of God in all these cases?
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7.6.15 We cannot think or imagine regarding any theory or situation beyond a certain level
because of limitations in our brain. All the developments in science have been happening
incrementally and continuously. A person, however intelligent he might be, cannot put forward a
universal concept in terms of mathematics, which can be said to be the mother of all concepts
from which any branch of science can be derived to its end. It is of great significance that
theories developed in mathematics using algebra, trigonometry and calculus have contributed to
the understanding of nature through the branches of science : physics, chemistry, biology,
astronomy etc. Psychology and the working of thought processes in brain are abstract and so it
may not be possible to quantify the aspects of thoughts and control them with a set of equations.
We can calculate the position of stars and planets with sufficient accuracy using mathematics.
But we cannot calculate and predict human or animal behavior to any extent.
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7.6.15. Suppose we change the brain of a person with somebody else’s brain keeping the original
head( and so the face) intact. That is a particular person X has his brain replaced by Y’s brain
with every other part of body being the original X’s. Now, the person X identifies himself as Y
because it is the brain which thinks and has the memory of Y. Now, even though only brain is
changed in X’s body, the X’s body has become Y’s new body. For others X is only X with
complete change in identity and behavior. They feel some ghost has entered his body calling
himself as Y.

7.6.15 Why this life cycle? Birth, growth, and death?

8.6.15 How do genes contribute to intelligence quotient and memory?
10.6.15. how fantastically God designed the internal structures of female reproduction organs:
eggs, their transfer of one at a time at a prescribed frequency, their disposal if not fertilized.
Preparation of womb to receive the fertilized egg and nourish the fetus till the birth of baby,
disposal of all the preparations if the fertilized egg was not received in time and cleaning the
womb;
PLANTS AND TREES HAVE SEASONAL CHANGES IN LEAVES, FLOWERS AND FRUITS. ANIMALS AND
HUMANS HAVE NO SUCH EFFECT FROM SEASONS.
Where does the unfertilized egg go from fallopian tubes?
Does the fertilization occur in fallopian tubes? Where exactly does the semen meet the egg? Life of sperm once ejaculated
and if not ejaculated.
Life of egg released from ovary if not fertilized? How is the egg navigated from ovary to fallopian tubes?
Which of the several eggs of ovum is released and what mechanism makes it to go out from ovum? Is the program for this
written in genes or which one supervises it?
All are eggs identical genetically?
Structure of egg? How do eggs differ among animals?
If earth were to rotate about its axis at half its speed, i.e., day and night times are doubled, what would have happened to
the body structures?
Teacher- student relationship in humans. Does it exist in animals?
Why is human baby is not as fast to move after birth as a deer or giraffe?
Does any bird fly off just after birth?
Why eggs are all created in ovaries of a female fetus, while sperms are produced throughout the life of a male?
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10.6.15 God, You have cleverly designed to produce and ejaculate millions of sperms at a time,
though genetically different from each other, in order to mate with one egg!!
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17.6.15 Mayfly is the insect which lives only a few hours after its birth. During that time the
only thing the male does is to mate with a female and then die soon. The female immediately
lays eggs and it too dies. So, its sole purpose is to continue the existence of its species by
mating. But how does a newly born insect know to catch a female and mate? How is it
programmed?
All the living beings[or most of the living beings?] are destined to mate and continue their
existence as a specie. Each specie has a male and a female. All males are for producing sperms.
Females are for carrying eggs and produce progeny and feed. There is almost a near balance
between the populations of male and female members in most of the species.
Why males are stronger in structure compared to females?
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28.8.15 OM NAMO NARAYANAYA OM NAMO BHAGAVATE VASUDEVAYA

O Paramathma, why do I require proof that you are there? BUT, YES, I require proof because it
is only You that made me to think so. You made to reason for everything. You made me to
search. You made me to have the searching mind. You made my mind to be inquisitive. You
made me to question about anything instead of believing blindly. I am applying the searching
mind grafted by You to search You in turn. Am I wrong?

I am a lost person. I do not have identification. I do not know from where I came. I do not know
why I came here [into this world]. I do not know my final aim. I am aimless. I am just drifting
without any direction or guidance. Whatever I am doing every minute when I am awake is to
search for food, shelter and enjoyment. In this process I develop my association of friends,
relatives and family. I want security: security from predators and enemies; security from illness :
Illness of body and illness of mind. Body becomes ill due to external and internal causes. Mind
becomes ill due to bad thoughts and bad actions.
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6.9.15 God, I am an ordinary person with low or average intelligence and with no initiative and I
am not smart. I am wavering. I am not steadfast. I do not apply my mind on what I want to do.
In fact I do not know what I have to do. I do not belong to the kind of people who have vigor
and energize and motivate people with their innate skills, intellect and wit. I am in total
confusion. I am spending time in search of money to maintain family and to maintain my
existing social status in this society. I am in search of methods of protecting my dignity and
associated vanity and pride. I am hurt if I feel that I am being insulted and think negatively that I
may be insulted and do something to avoid it. I try to please people and keep them in good
humor so that I live in peace. I always try to be in good books of influential people and try to do
a minimum to do that. I am by nature a person of independent mentality and do not wish to be
dictated. I do not have the required skills to convince others into my way thinking. I put my
views straight and if they are not taken in right spirit, as I feel, I am hurt. I am too much
sensitive. But I do not have enough brains to be completely independent and to get recognition.
Though I know that I am not the kind person to get recognition on my own, I feel hurt that why I
am unable to achieve something to get recognition. I am happy if I am left alone. But in the
society we can`t live isolation. Still I try to be in seclusion to a maximum possible extent and get
into minimum limelight in order not to get the tag of being unsocial.
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8.9.15. God, as I start learning about human physiology, I get puzzled to no end and I get
frustrated. I know that You exist but cant perceive You!
 26.9.15. God, my relationship with You is like the relationship of a child and mother. The child
is at peace as long as mother showers affection. The child by its innate nature behaves naughty
some times and if the mother gets angry, the child becomes perturbed. The mother
understands the state of mind of the child and pacifies the child. From the time of the birth of
the child till the time any one of them departs this world that affection exists. That affection
continues to exist in the mind of the residual one. I am at peace as long as You bless me with
peace. I cannot buy peace. You have to bestow peace upon us. Peace of inner self, peace within
family, peace with neighbors, peace in society we exist, peace in the world we live and peace in
the universe of we are a miniscule part. Any disturbance any where disturbs our peace. I am
unable to imagine such ideal situation of peace everywhere, that is, omni peace. Our human
nature is to disturb peace for selfish prospects. Human nature is mostly ‘me’ first. Me means
me, my family, my organization, my political state, my nation, my religion, my language etc. We
are considered very dynamic when we work consciously towards the progress of any these me
factors. We compete to be at the top of these me factors or else we do not exist and are thrown
out of competition and are labeled incompetent and worthlesss. We have several factors based
on which we can live divided. Division is easier than unity. Divisive forces add fuel to fire to
sustain it eternally.

My relationship with You is somewhat like the relationship between wife and husband. They did
not know each other before they meet and develop relation to marry.

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5.10.15

1. Excellent, seamless, multifaceted [dealing with simultaneous and unrelated multiple

problems to find remote link between them] logic & reasoning capabilities

2. Excellent and instantaneous coordination of thoughts and actions of all external organs: Eyes
: lashes, pupil movement; Nose: twitching nose muscles, both hands, all fingers of hands and
feet, both legs, mouth, expression through lips , vocal cords, tongue movement, ears, head and
neck movement, swinging of trunk, facial muscles,

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7.11.15 God, life is like 4x100m relay running race. Every generation produces and brings up
next generation and hands over to nature. The next generation too does the same way and so
on. The older generations die and the new generations proceed further.

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21.11.15

God, we are ignorant, arrogant, proud, egoistic, and highly sensitive to the behavior of the
people daily connected to and concerned with us. We want attention and importance in the
small society we live in. We do not tolerate being ignored. We are jealous of the prosperity of
others known to us. We are totally and irrevocably captivated and engrossed in the ocean of
vices. With all these mundane negative qualities and engagements, how can we remember You
in spite of the realization that You are our cause and our provider and our savior every moment.
We simmer and suffer and enjoy these situations on top priority and at those moments You are
of least priority. We do not want to extricate out of those vicious circles. We are happy at
eulogizing our bosses and criticize others and remember and magnify the mistakes and
weaknesses of others and ignore their virtues. We even project the virtues of others as their
weaknesses.

You too cannot save us from our weaknesses mentioned above as we are very strongly bonded
to and emotionally involved in them.

God, You designed all the chemical and electrical activities in our bodies [of all living beings].
Innumerable and fascinating chemicals in the form of acids, alkalis, enzymes, hormones etc are
produced in appropriate places and quantities at the most appropriate times as designed by
You. You designed all those chemical reactions. You designed the senses, the thought
processes, reasoning process and memory. You designed our life, the struggle to earn food to
exist and the death. You designed the reproductive and growth mechanisms in all living beings.
You designed the way we behave and our fates.

You know us but we do not know You and it is Your design.

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22.11.15

God, we are borne without our consent. As we grow old we form our own opinions and become
independent financially. We are responsible for our actions. In the society we depend on some
persons and some depend on us. We lead life over days, months and years. Then gradually a
day comes when we have to leave the world, if life moves normally. We die without our
consent.

When we are born we did not have any information in our brain’s memory except for that for
the preprogrammed automatic involuntary actions of heart etc. Before death we have a great
amount of information along with logical reasoning in the brain. We have a body whose internal
and external organs did so much of work as directed by the brain throughout the life. All these
organs grew out of a small single cell without any external instructions except for the supply of
nutritious food and oxygen from outside.

Then what happens to all these things after death?

What does God do with body and mind so far He protected and saved ? what is His idea in
creating me and then letting me die or disappear?

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1.12.15

God, universe is governed by several laws. They are laws of basics sciences such as physics,
chemistry, mathematics, biology, genetics and their derivatives.

These are all very recent sciences for humans. We did not have any knowledge about these laws
a few centuries ago. Before that mathematics was only for counting. We had no knowledge of
geometry, trigonometry, calculus, algebra, etc. For millions of years we did not have much
knowledge of processes inside the body and mind. We use our body for all purposes. Hands are
most important external tools for all developments and living. Mouth is another tool for
efficient communication beside food intake. All other external organs help in these important
aspects. Mouth has dual functions of eating [along with tasting] and talking. Nose has the dual
functions of breathing in and out as well as smell detection. Ears have dual functions of hearing
and balance.
3.12.15

God, are not You bored with Your creation on earth? Creatures are born, live and carry out all
sorts of things and then die. You have to watch all their activities; their thoughts or intentions
and deeds which change continuously; maintain their records and act on them as required; You
have to follow up even after they die so that they receive the fruits of their above actions
without fail. If we believe You, there cannot be an escape route in death. When I believe You, I
believe You to be eternal, and with infinite amount of knowledge and that You are omni
present. There cannot be a place without You, however infinitesimal it may be. I cannot hide
any information from You. You are all pervading. Am I a bit too much of eulogizing You? Why
should I? You are what You are. You do not need any praise. You are not like humans to do
favors by getting praised. I do not know Your operating channels of knowing about everything in
the universe. Yet I know that You are there and that You are almighty. i.e., You can do anything
and everything. You know my past, present and future. Past includes what I was during the time
before my birth; before my mother conceived me; before even my parents mated to conceive
me. Just after the moment my parents mated I was conceived. I would have been completely
different person had my mother’s egg been fertilized by any another of the millions of sperms
released by my father. As God is almighty, I believe that God knows and controls the particular
sperm which should meet my mother’s egg to conceive this particular me. God also knew which
one of the several thousands of eggs of either of the two ovaries of my mother should be
released once in a month to conceive this particular me. Any another egg would have conceived
a different me. Even after that particular sperm met that particular egg, there was still a chance
that I would have been a different one. Soon after that meeting I could have been of opposite
gender too. It was a chance; a chance decided by God. So it was not a chance. It was as decided
by God. Soon after that meeting, I could have been still different during the exchange of some
parts of genes of both the parents. So, God made me to be what I was at the birth, at the time
of conception itself. Not just that; God has been controlling my fate at every moment of my life.
God could have made me different at any time of my life. Now, before conception what was I ?

Suppose I died in my previous life without having received punishment for a wrong I did, would
God let me escape by death? etc

The creature may have escaped from enjoying the results of those consequences.
But we humans think that only we, of all creatures, think of all consequences of our actions and
reactions in this world or elsewhere. We may be ignorant that other creatures too may have
such feelings and beliefs. Science may prove that in future. Till that time we feel that our race is
superior to other creatures. So, we think that they may not think about God, heaven and hell.
They may not pray God. They may enjoy or suffer silently because they do not have specialists
as we have. We have doctors, engineers and philosophers to get or give advice. Other creatures
too have intelligence. They too are systematic in their daily activities. They too have
experiences and memory to remember and recall those experiences at a later time to live in
their own way peacefully or in their struggle to live in peace. We do not know what they think in
their spare time or what kind of recreation they have. We have various arts and sports and
gossip to engage ourselves. We are never idle except in sleep. They too are never idle.

Other creatures too We do

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5.12.15

God, universe is my teacher. Nature is my teacher. All humans are my teachers. I should not feel
that I am superior to at least some people. I am struggling to have a better life. The persons
who I am considering as inferior to me in any aspect, may it be by intelligence or by economic
status or by social status or by education or by age or by experience, too are struggling in life to
exist just like me. They too have positive and negative points like me in all aspects of life; in
thoughts and deeds. My immediate significant negative point is that I consider some people to
be inferior to me in any way. Who am I to judge that way? It is because of my ignorance and
arrogance. I am biased in my thoughts. What makes me think that way? It is because I feel
insecure in my life and take pleasure in placing myself above some others by creating some silly
comparisons in my mind. If we get closer to them by removing our bias against them we will
know that there is lot to learn from them. Do we feel that mosquitoes are inferior to us? Try to
kill a mosquito. It senses our intention and becomes smart and escapes swiftly unless we are
lucky to overcome it in fewer attempts. That means that a mosquito is very intelligent. While
doing its own work it sensed the danger and acted fast. I have to learn from it that it is very
intelligent and not inferior to me at least in the aspect of self defense. It flies. I cannot. I do not
have its agility. I do not know in how many other ways it is superior to me. It may take a lifetime
to learn a little about it.
We see some most unrealistic movies because we identify, very seriously, for some time with
the imaginary idealistic hero there in the movie. We cannot even imitate him in real life in any
way. We know that. We want live in that impractical world in the name of recreation at least
for some time.

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8.12.15

God, in my normal life I commit so many silly mistakes. I am careless. No. I am careful but still I
commit mistakes. It is my fate. So how can then I think to strive for perfection. Now I know that
I cannot even imagine to aim at perfection. Then how can I think about You? Can a perfectly
imperfect person like me attempt to perceive the most perfect You? Can I call it bold or
audacious or impudent? I am most disrespectful to You. I am not ignorant of You. I am not
against You. I do not abhor You. In fact I love You. I admire You. I am loyal to You. I am obedient
to You. I would like to be Your closest servant, serving You in the closest quarters. Otherwise, as
I am prone to commit mistakes, You may not understand me right or even misunderstand me if
I am away from You. In case I am close to You always, You will know my intentions perfectly and
so there is every chance that You may think that my mistakes are by mistake and not that much
intentional. You will understand that I become sometimes distracted from You and commit
grave offences not because I am unfaithful to You but because I am extremely forcefully
tempted or attracted by vulgar thoughts and deeds. I know that I am offending You and
betraying Your faith in me. I know that I am drifting away from You often. But vices are very
strongly influential. They will not let me resist the distractions. I know that I am falling or
deviating from right path. I know that I will make You angry. I know that I may lose You. But
alas, the demon is powerful because I am weak. I know that all Your great devotees are great
because they resist all temptations that are against Your doctrines or dictates. Morals are very
simple and cannot be misunderstood or misinterpreted. We complicate our lives by moving
away from them. We are not stable minded. A swing in the rest position is the most stable one,
which I compare being in alignment with You. We intentionally move away from it and swing to
and fro while crossing the rest position in between. Likewise we move away from You because
of our fickle mind but still revisit You, due to Your grace, before moving away from You again,
because of our fickle mind. This happens continuously with no end till I suppose I die. I am
human; bad at that. The only solace is that I do not forget You or rather I am fortunately blessed
by You not to forget You or not move away from You. I do not like to be this way. I wish to be
blessed by You totally with no other avocations and distractions. I do not know when or
whether I would get to that state of mind.

I do not know what would happen to me after my death. In case I am reborn, I may take a form
which may not think about You, I am afraid.

9.12.15

God, I do not know whether animals or insects think about You. They too have brains. They too
think and act in a highly coordinated way. They have memory. They think logically. They
observe and learn. Then they too must be in the same position as humans are to feel the
necessity of God. How foolish I am to imagine that way! God, You are the cause of everything in
Your universe including the thoughts that pass in my brain. So it is You that provoked me to
think about You. I express by my actions that I obey You by way of saluting You with folded
hands or by bowing my head or by kneeling before You. That is a kind of language of gestures
developed by my ancestors, which again must have been ordained by You.

Are the animals too blessed by You to realize You and pray You in some fashion not perceived
by us?

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12.12.15

God, I am in confusion. You gave humans mind to think. We are not utilizing properly and so we
are fighting among ourselves and are acting against You. You know that and could have
corrected it.

God, we have created wedges among ourselves with regard to how to perceive You. We are
fighting in Your name. It has become a fight of individuals. It is fight for one up -manship. It is
fight of egos and personal superiority. It is fight between dogmatic policies and beliefs. In the
process we are deviating from You. We are busy recruiting people to toe our line of thinking.

I find many animals are innocent and are falling prey to their predators. So they are suffering.
How can we make the predators responsible for their killing behavior as they are made by You
to act that way to live. Why did You create a cruel society like this?
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God, I am puzzled as I knew that in India on several occasions You helped Your devotees either
directly or indirectly in recent times. There are innumerable occasions of indirectly helping
them. People experienced miracles. In the distant past whatever I heard or read was
unrecorded. It was passed on person to person and so on. But we hear about miracles of Shirdi
Sai & Sathya Sai, Thyaga raju, Annamayya, Tharigonda Vengamamba, Pothana, Ramadasu. So,
I believe that You are there. I am a small person; insignificant person; with no talent of any sort.
But still I am after You on and off. What do I want from You?

17.12.15

I only desire to know about You through science. Science is the best platform to understand
Your way of operation little by little. In the above examples of great devotees blessed by You, all
people understood Your existence. They know that You listen to the devotees; You take care of
them; You protect them; You appear from nowhere or anywhere, in any form-human or as
animal or wind or fire; You can make river split into two parts making way for people. You
control nature. Furious nature turns quite and vice versa as per Your directions. You do not
have religious bias. You are almighty for all. You are the savior for all living beings. There need
not be any proof for that. With what all I know of You, I cannot have any doubt about Your
activities. Animals too may be praying You, even though I do not see that directly. They too are
intelligent. They too must be wise animals that have realization of You. Just as humans, some
animals may not be wise enough to realize You. It is funny for unwise people like me to imagine
ants and mosquitoes praying You. Are they not intelligent? So they must be wise too. They
could be wicked and unmindful of You too. I am not surprised for any kind of event related to
You and Your devotees. But people forget about You for most of the time. We are unfaithful.
We don’t fear You. We take advantage of modern tools for luxury and completely deviate from
You. The development in science is continuous and more and more comforts flood the market
from several competitive brands. This makes people always busy in discussions to select the
choicest and attractive goods.

Thus scientific developments are driving people away from You instead of taking closure to You.
I think only the scientists who invent realize their limitations in the nature created by You and
become more humble and grateful to You.
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18.12.15

God, I mentioned that I wanted to know You through science. I am ashamed to say that I am
not a scientist. I am not a science student even. Then how should I realize You? Yes, I realized
Your intention. You made me to realize that to realize You science is not necessary. Science too
is a route to realize You. All your devotees were not scientists. There were uneducated among
Your staunch devotees. There were economically poorest among them. There were socially
remotest tribals among Your devotees. Then somebody may say what the necessity of Holy
Scriptures is? Are they only for educated persons? All educated persons in the normal sense
may not really grasp the spirit of these Scriptures. Education gives them some other
responsibilities in life. It is not just education that promotes sense of belongingness to You. It
only aids. It promotes the zeal, if I have already with me, to go further and read what those
devotees said when they were in trance with You. Even to have such basic zeal, I should have
Your blessing. In that process of getting tuned to the earlier devotees, I am getting tuned to You
gradually. But, what is meant by realizing You? Is it just enough if I say that I believe You or that
I have faith in You? Is it enough I pray You every day with full concentration? Should that prayer
be essentially as recommended by traditionally prescribed methods or hymns? There is one
thing. Suppose I have been listening or seeing those traditional prayers since childhood. I might
be hearing them without any interest or those sounds might be passing through my ears
unintentionally. Gradually I get tuned to them and I correlate those sounds to You. It is one of
the most accepted methods of training minds towards You. It is like this. Suppose I have been
listening to a song or music since my childhood. It was liked my parents or grandparents or
some close friends. So I too start liking it, if my nature permits. It may also so happen that I may
develop dislike for that because of my nature or I might associate those songs to some tragic
incidents associated with me like getting scolded or being beaten or I heard them at the death
of somebody and that got imprinted in my mind. So, there are several factors that govern our
psychology and lead us in a particular direction. Even without all such bases, I might all of a
sudden, at any age, develop liking a song or tune or stanzas and fall for it. There are no hard
and fast rules for any event influencing us. There are several cases like a very sober person
committing suicide for a small scolding etc. According to which rule governing our life that
incident led to such drastic step? So, our devotion to God can manifest in any manner. There is
no syllabus and coaching for that. But training and brainwashing since childhood would yield
very intense influence on a person’s mind. Our mind is very flexible. Even rigid, dogmatic beliefs
can be changed, but when such thing happens is beyond one’s guess. Sometimes an unknown
person may influence or catalyze such drastic transformation. So, God, I do not leave or neglect
my pursuit to know You. It continues nonstop because I will never be able to catch You. I will
only understand that You are mystic and unachievable and inaccessible and beyond grasp.

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19.12.15

God, as science develops and gets applications in engineering, we are moving from away from
real world and nature. Were the past generations for millions of years not happy in their living?
Are we many times better than them? [22.12.15]Yes, we got better housing, clothing and
protection from predators and nature’s fury to a large extent, better health and medicines
education and knowledge, travel, communication, better human relations like abolition of
slavery, human rights, understanding about micro and macro universe, etc.

Yet, in our enthusiasm to improve comforts to all humans, the side effects are unpalatable. We
neglected or overlooked the consequence on nature. We have been trying to harness nature
and in that process caused damage to the nature unintentionally. Travel by automobiles, trains,
aero planes and ships improved vastly our journey to our destination. Our health and longevity
improved because of invention and manufacture of medicines. But the extraction of raw
materials on a large scale from earth and deforestation adversely affected the nature inviting
worse nature’s fury.

We are deeply engrossed in the movies in theatres to the extent of identifying ourselves
emotionally with the characters therein and feeling happy or sad as the reel rolled. Outside the
theatre, we are again in real world. But now, we are virtually living in the virtual world for most
of the time. TV and mobile take us into that world. We do not think about nature. Nature is
away from us and not part of us. We see beautiful concrete jungle around us. We worship the
artificial beauty of whatever we see. How beautiful the buildings are without wooden beams or
doors or windows! Everywhere we see that plywood made out of wood with decolam sheet
over it; no wooden carvings, synthetic toys, synthetic plants even, synthetic clothes, etc.

20.12.15
God, soon we may get robots or synthetic persons. Of course people are better off now than
earlier. Can we say that?

Normally people pray You to thank You for proving us our daily bread or food. They pray You to
make our lives peaceful and purposeful. They pray to mitigate problems like diseases, economic
problems, misfortunes, getting cheated, or not getting proper justice, or subject to harassment
etc.

I thank You for providing me the nature of probing You, for providing inquisitiveness to
understand You through the nature created by You. Naturally I am full of questions in that
search.

26.12.15

God, why did You create the universe? Who are You? Why did or why are You creating us,
humans? What is Your aim in creating us? I am not talking about animals. First I want to settle
the question about us, humans. Are You enjoying our existence? Are You happy with Your
creation of humans? I am asking You on the premise that I strongly believe that You are there. I
believe in Your existence due to the following reasons as I discussed several times earlier;

1.Several incidents in the past concerned with Your devotees proved beyond doubt that You
exist.

2.I do not believe in the evolution theory : All humans, animals, birds[do birds come under
animals?], insects, developing simultaneously, over billions of years, to have identical features
in that particular class is impossible to my imagination.

Let us start with a specie being formed from the chemicals of the big bang theory. It must have
started with an atom or molecule after explosion and sudden cooling in the empty space in the
universe or whatever it may be. In the explosion, there was no life. There must be only gases
just after explosion. Where did the gases come from? From where did all the chemical elements
come after explosion? What was there before explosion? Was there empty space? How could
explosion come from nothing? Could the explosion be due to nuclear reactions of extremely
large scale? Then, the space was not empty, but was with some materials. But the expanding
Universe, when traced back, could have come from a point source. Was it that without
explosive force, acceleration could not have come for the expanding matter of the universe as
we observe now? But what was there at that point of explosion with so much of unlimited
energy in an infinitesimally small thing with all chemicals connected with explosion? Was the
energy unlimited or huge? Whole universe can be considered to be limited or bounded with
respect to mass because the mass could be, for example, considered to be n times the earth’s
mass, where n is unknown, but finite though very large. The value of n cannot be infinite,
because it emanated from a source before big bang. Can all the mass that exists in the universe
be condensed to a point before big bang explosion? Is there law of conservation of mass?

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30.12.15

GOD, Your fantastic creation : You created TWO lungs instead of one!! Each lung is divided into
sections (lobes): three in the right lung and two in the left lung. The left lung is a little smaller
than the right lung because it shares space in the left side of the chest with the heart : A
beautiful design adjustment for space.

The respiratory system starts at the nose and mouth and continues through the airways and
the lungs. Air enters the respiratory system through the nose and mouth and passes down the
throat (pharynx) and through the voice box, or larynx. The entrance to the larynx is covered by
a small flap of tissue (epiglottis) that automatically closes during swallowing, thus preventing
food or drink from entering the airways.

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2.1.16

God, instead of surrendering to You totally, I always search for You. I know You are the
creator of the universe, but I try to find Your roots. I know that You cannot be reached
physically, but I wish to get to You with my physical senses. I try all wrong routes to
understand You leaving the path of devotion as followed by all my ancestors. I am a rebel.
I am always at cross roads in Your realization. I know that You purposefully created me to be
like this and to think to know about You in paths already created by scientists, leaving the
easiest way of total unquestioned devotion. But, for me that mode is the most difficult one to
digest. My nature is like that. Again You made me like that. But You created a defective me in
that I am the most unintellectual and get into confusion always. But You are perfect and
Your creation is without any blemish. So I am not defective. Thus I am on right path as I am
destined to be that way by You. Why should I worry then? Instead I should proceed in my
search for You as I am doing now as it only is dictated and directed by You. My confusion is
what I am imagining, forgetting that it is Your decision. It is also Your enactment. But I am
thankful to You that You are allowing me to realize the situation and making to come out of
it.

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15.2.16

God, I am far away from perfection and I cannot even think about perfection. I would have
been a very proud and greedy person had I been nearer to minutest part of perfection.
I would have looked upon others as inferior to me and may have insulted them. You know my
nature and so made me obedient and respectful to all others. I would like to be inferior to
others than possessing little knowledge accompanied by pride.

A century after Einstein predicted mathematically about the wave nature of gravitational
field, it is proved by highly sophisticated instruments. So, the mathematics at the time of
Einstein was perfect and complete. The way the pace of research has been happening all over
the world, there must have been many more advancements in mathematics over the last
century that would have produced much more epoch making theories about universe.

Or have we to wait for someone like Einstein to formulate them? Can we say that a century
after Einstein’s theories, which are proved to be right over several years, the present day
mathematics and other sciences are much superior and would aid many times more epoch
making discoveries?

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6.5.16

God, I am glad that I m not made smart and intelligent to become a successful professional or
businessman busy to earn more and more money. Yet You provided me sufficient intelligence
to probe about You, not just inclined to follow established traditions. It is not to say that rich
and busy people do not think about You. I do not know about anybody else’s intentions and
philosophies due to my nature. I cannot become a disciple of any great devotee to learn
about You, again because of my nature. I am an independent minded person without much
mind.