The Clandistine

By:Cherelyn L. Marasigan
Characters:
Belinda-one and only daughter of Arthur and Minda
Renzo-fiance of Belinda
Arthur-father of Belinda
Minda-mother of Belinda
Agnes-Belinda's teacher
Martha-Minda's bestfriend
Manuel-Arthur's brother

I am so tired,I want to sleep so that in the morning my day would be complete,this is the expectation I
wanted to happen when I woke up.But at the same time I am also expecting that when I open my eyes my
mother should be here by my side.I don't know what my emotions would be,it's a voice of a man coming from
the kitchen,he is crying.I am very familiar with it,I know he is my father.I run from the bedroom to the place
where I heard the voice,"No!I cannot accept it,please come back Minda,oh please,we don't know how to live
without you".My tears falling down and in that moment it was so shaggy because I see the knife in my fathers
right hand.I know what he have in mind,I cry out loud and shouted,"Dad!what are you doing?stop it!,where is
mom?why you are crying?and please bring down the knife."I thought my mother was here,cooking our
breakfast because it is her day off.Then,suddenly the phone on the table ring,it's a text message coming from tita
Martha the bestfriend of my mother,Arthur my family and friends condoles with you."Dad what's wrong,where
is mom?dad please tell me I have also the right to know it".My dad hug me tight and thrown the knife
away"Your mother is dead,she is murdered and I don't have any idea who killed her.I don't know and i'm so
sorry Belinda,it is my fault,I couldn't protect your mother."I hug my dad back,he is still crying and also I
am."No dad,it is not your fault.Don't worry I will be the one who will going to find the criminal and the justice
for mom."All of us didn't know about my mom's death.The day after will be the burial of my mother and she
burried in the cemetery of Maniwang,while I spotted a boy looking around under the tree,but he walks away
when he saw me looking at him.I just think that it was just an imagination or else our relatives.
My father raise me as a good person without any thought of revenge but to be a role model and example to
each and everyone,it is very difficult to accept that my mom passed away.Years later,I left my father in
Maniwang I visited him when I am not too busy in school.It is just to fulfill my promise,the justice for my
mother and also my dream to become a lawyer.
This is my story and I didn't know that my tears are falling,everybody are giving applause exept the one
man that get my attention when he walks out the door I don't mind it,but I remembered him,the boy in the
cemetery is totally the same.Ma'am Agnes speaking,"Thank you Belinda for sharing your story"."You're
welcome ma'am it's my pleasure".Our class is dismissed,I go to the school library for our assignment and I saw
again thr man,I sit in front of him at the table he is tall,dark and handsome,my heart beats fast.This is the day
when I realized that I have a crush on him or lets say a deep feeling,no no no no I think it's love.
A months later I see chocolates,flowers,teddy bears,cards place on the tables,chairs,and everywhere.It
really makes me happy,I couldn't expect that he loves me too.He is courting me for a years until we graduated as
Suma and Magna Comlaude,finally I can't imagine a ten years in a relationship with Renzo Tinaga,and now we
are engaged he is my first crush and first love.He is very sweet,loving,caring,responsible,a good man and will
be a good father soon who can raise his children very well,all that I need is him.
The phone rings it is tito Manuel the brother of my father,"Hello Belinda."I feel nervous at that time,"Yes
tito why did you call?i'm on my job right now"."I'm sorry Belinda,but your I have to tell you this,your father
passed away."I turn off the telephone,crying all over again my father and mother left me,I am alone,this
situation sinks on my mind and I don't know how to live.Because of this trials that I face,I become a strong
woman,Renzo is always by my side taking care of me,he gives all the love that I need,he never left me in times
of happiness and sadness.
I went to Maniwang for the burial of may father,I saw a piece of paper on his cabinet I open and read it.
My beloved daughter Belinda,I miss you so much,I want you to know everything before I passed away about
my self,about my past,because I can't keep it until I die.Your mother know this.I have an affair with another
woman,but I stop our relationship for the better because I have a family and she has also a son that she raises by
herself.Until now she loves me very much,my love for our family prevail.I hope you can forgive me and I hide
it for a long time,take care of yourself,always remember that I love you and your mom very much.My tears
falling again and again but all I have to do right now is to accept,to forgive his wrong doing from the past.

I go back to Lapuz where I am studying before and lived today.What would I do if all my loved ones will
gone especially Renzo,then I have no parents.
I open the door,turn on the lights and put my baggage on the sofa,Renzo visited me,he is sitting on the
chair,it is the first time when I saw him crying,I saw a broken pieces of glass on the floor,a blood that coming
from his arms.He kneel in front of me holding my hands"Belinda,sorry,sorry,i'm so sorry,it was all my
fault".There's something wrong here and I don't understand.
"Renzo,what happened to you?"
"I hope you can forgive me,I love you so much Belinda."
"Renzo?do you have something to tell me?"
"I hide it from you long time ago because I don't want you leave me."
I can't stop the tears,but I continue to speak.
"What do you mean?"
I feel pity for Renzo because I love him very much as I love my parents.I don't want that our relationship
would thrown in that easy way.
"I am the boy that you saw under the tree in the cemetery the same as the man that walks out on the classroom
and now your fiance."
"I don't really understand."
My heart beats fast as the time that I see Renzo I know that there is something wrong.He is pointing his self
while speaking.
"I am the man who killed your mother."
"No!No Renzo,no!"
"I hide it with my relatives just to save me and my dreams for the future,to become a lawyer."
I can't really stop the tears.
"It is for my mother,she wanted that your father come back to her,and it would be breable if your mother will
die.They have an affair Belinda.All I want is to make my mother happy."
Because of my enrage I slap Renzo's face."So your mother is the mistress of my father and he tell me by his
letter.You are selfish!How dare you,do you think it can solve the problem?You don't care about what others
feeling."
"Belinda,please forgive me,I didn't tell you before because I fell inlove with you,I really love you."
"I love you very much Renzo since the first time I meet you I am expecting that you are not hiding everything
about yourself for the reason that in my eyes you are perfect.But I was wrong."
"All that I have to say Belinda is sorry and I love you."
This is the words that I hear repeatedly from Renzo."I'm sorry Renzo but I will sacrifice my love for the
justice that I promise."
I called the police,it is very hard for me to do this because Renzo is the only one that stands as my
family,but I promise that I am the one who will find the criminal and the justice for my mother.It was too long
before I fulfill my promise and I will never let the justice go away.
I thought when my father died it was the last time that I will feel the pain.I really really love Renzo so
much I don't want to let him go he is just like my mother and my father.Our plan to build a family is gone.
Belinda realized that what would be the responsibility she could have when he lived,she is alone,there is
no parents at all and the man he loves very much is imprisoned because of her.Both of them suffered pain,their
hearts are totally broken.She didn't know how to moved on and can't easily forget those memories that they
made.
It is a very difficult situation for them,Belinda couldn't control what he felt,she doesn't realize her purpose
to lived and she hurts so much.She commits suicide to end her sufferings in life.

Moral Lesson:
"Don't let your emotions bother you."