나우 이즈 굿 영화 대본 (SIGHS)

TESSA: Moments... Zo... What, babe?

This is one. If I do this with someone I don't know, does that

make me a slag?

This right here, right now, is definitely a moment.

It makes you alive.

ZOEY: Tessa?
So, that club, are you guys regulars there?

Anything could happen next.

No. You?

- Tessa? - What?
Sometimes, you know.

You're not listening to me.

Right.

I am listening to you.
Is there anywhere else we can go?

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What did I just say?

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Do you want a cup of tea? Or coffee?

I wasn't listening to you.

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Sure, yeah. Either.

I'm saying this is a big night for you.

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We haven't actually got any coffee.

Number one on the list.

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Okay.

There is no list.
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I can't find the tea.

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e.
You were gonna make a list.
Water's fine.

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I haven't started.
So, what's your favorite...

Then start now. Go on.

Do you want to kiss me?

Right. So, which one do you want? Because I

really don't mind. God, yeah.

The blond one. (BREATHING HEAVILY)

The blond one? You're sure? (GASPS) Jesus Christ! It's okay.

You want him? Like I said, I don't mind. Just... Jesus bloody Christ! It's fine.

You can have the blond one. What happened?

Only if you're sure. This girl's head... Her head came off in my hand!
(ALL LAUGHING) Okay.

What are you laughing at? It's not funny. (ROCK MUSIC PLAYING)

Scared the piss out of me. (LAUGHING) Whoo! ♪ I will love you till the end of time

So, do you often go out in disguise? ♪ I would wait a million years

The hair hat and all. ♪ Promise you'll remember that you're mine

I got given it. I was ill. ♪ Baby, can you see through the tears?

Are you better now? ♪ Love you more than those bitches before

All better. ♪ Say you'll remember, Say you'll remember

Oh. ♪ Baby, who

Aren't we supposed to do that for a bit longer? ♪ I will love you till the end of time

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I'm ready now. ♪ Big dreams, gangsta

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Wait, wait. Can you just look at me for one ♪ Said you had to leave to start your life over
second?

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♪ I was like, no, please,
This is my first time.
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♪ Stay here, we don't need no money, we could

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Wow. That's amazing. make it all work

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Obviously it's not yours. ♪ But he headed out on Sunday

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(SHUSHING) Stop talking now. ♪ Said he'd come home Monday

Yeah, not like this. ♪ I stay up waitin', anticipatin', and pacing'

What? ♪ But he was chasing paper

Sorry. Not gonna happen. ♪ Caught up in the game that was the last I
heard
You're shitting me. You come this far, and...
♪ I will love you till the end of time
I'm sorry. Really.
♪ I would wait a million years
Whatever.
♪ Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Okay.
♪ Baby, can you see through the tears?
♪ Love you more than those bitches before Okay.

♪ Say you'll remember, Say you'll remember Tessa Scott and her father.

♪ Baby, who Hi, guys. Take a seat. DAD: Hello.

♪ I will love you till the end of time Really pleased to be here.

♪ Love you more than those bitches before Yeah, we're big fans.

♪ Say you'll remember, Say you'll remember Great. We'll just have a little chat.

♪ Baby, who Be as natural as you can and I'll help you

through. Okay?
♪ I will love you till the end of time ♪
So, what's your angle going to be?
Thanks. Thank you.
Is it the whole dying girl thing,
(SIGHS)

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or do you have something original planned?
I don't understand it. I just don't get it.
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(CHUCKLES) Sorry?
You always tell me everything.

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I never tell you anything.
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I know it's heavy stuff, but let's try to keep it

ve
Why don't you start now? What were you doing upbeat. Yeah?
last night?

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e.
And now I'm delighted to have as my guest in the

af
Keep asking, Dad. The 15th time is the charm. studio

c
(FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING) a very brave young lady indeed, Tessa Scott.

Hi, I'm Caroline, Richard's producer. We spoke on Tessa's been living with leukemia for the past
the phone. four years,

Hi. Good to meet you in person. and she's here with her dad to talk about it.

And this must be Tessa. Tell us, when did you realize that Tessa was first
ill?
That's me!
Four years ago.
The lift's not working. Can she manage the
stairs? She had, well, we thought it was the flu,

Yeah, she'll be fine. Tessa's mum and I.

 It's true that if I kept going with the chemo,
But the flu just wouldn't clear up.
I'd probably live a bit longer.
The blood test confirmed our worst fears.
But it made me feel so bad.
The doctors told us they couldn't
And there are things I want to do before I die.
hold out any hope for her survival,
Things?
which brought us to the point where
Yeah. I've got a list.
Tessa felt like she had no choice
Oh. Your dad didn't mention that.
but to end her chemotherapy entirely.
That's 'cause he doesn't know about it.
Tessa, you chose to give up the treatment.
Most of what's on it is illegal.
That's a big decision for a 17-year-old.
I'm almost scared to ask. (CHUCKLES)
If I may...

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Well, I nearly had sex last night,
The more aggressive treatments,
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which isn't actually technically against the law of
they would have only slightly

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prolonged Tessa's life.

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anyway.

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There are other ways to maintain her health.

na Okay, I think that's all we've got time for.

e.
Dad... For example, studies have shown

af
Next I'm planning to take drugs.
that
entirely.
good
c nutrition can rebalance a system
Do you have any advice which ones?

That's why we're here really, to raise awareness, That's enough, Tessa.
and...
(CHUCKLING NERVOUSLY) Very amusing.
Dad... What?
Sex and drugs and rock 'n' roll.
He's gonna have to stop sometime.
Ladies and gents, I think you'll agree
Stop what, Tessa?
there is a young lady taking life by the horns.
He knows it's gonna happen.
Thank you very much, Tessa and her dad.
But he can't stop hoping that it won't.
Thank you.
 I heard you on the radio.
And now the weather. Squally this morning,
You met a boy.
rounding up this afternoon and clearing
Tessa, promise me you'll always use a condom.
for the rest of the week.
I know the smell of rubber can be off-putting,
She's out. No.
but, then, so is gonorrhea.
Dad...
Please stop. My panic attack is having a panic
Wait. attack.

Bad night? And don't have casual sex.

There's no such thing. Really?

Hello, darlings. Come on in. No, darling.

Hi, Mum.

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You must always, always try as hard as you can.

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You look stressed. (BOTH LAUGHING)

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Blame her. Back at 4:00. I've got to get a tattoo.

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It's a new trick, Mum. I can make a coin And I want one and all.

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disappear.

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Over my whole body, of myself.
Do you want to see it?

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e.
And taller, with bigger tits.

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No, darling. Not before coffee.

c
Nothing before the coffee. Show your sister.
What's up?

He's such a bloody liar.

She's never interested. She doesn't care.
Who? Scott.
I'm sure she does.
Said he had a stall here.
I really don't.
Is that why we came?
Why don't you go and watch CBeebies or
something? I can't believe he'd blow me off.

Because I'm nine. I gave him the ride of his life.

(SIGHS) Zo... Wanker.

Zo... What? There's a bonfire in the garden next door.

He's right there. Don't do that. Please don't do that.

Hey, handsome. If you don't want these things, I do.

What's up? That's Spain. You were in remission.

I don't know. You tell me. A boy whistled at me, and you took that.

Or better yet, show me. Said I'd never want to forget my first whistle.

(ZOEY GIGGLING) Hey. Yeah.

Hey. But I do.

How are you? ADAM: What are you doing?

I'm fine. Do you mind?

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I know I left you hanging the other night and I Feel very free.
just wanted...
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I'm Adam.
No, it was my fault.

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And you're Tessa.
What?
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I've seen you around, since we moved here.

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I just... I could've been a bit more...

na I meant to introduce myself, but...

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She told you.

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They're not love letters.
What?
c It's none of my business.
You did, didn't you? You told him about me.
I'm just saying. I didn't get dumped or anything.
Shouldn't have done that.
I wouldn't have thought so.
Tessa, wait!
Anyway, I've got more stuff to burn.
Tessa!
Cool, whack it on.
Hey. You missed lunch.
This is going.
You eat it.
Probably best. That's a dangerous dress.
What are you doing with all this?
Are you okay?
 Yes, I do.
Tessa?
When Tessa dies, can we go on holiday?
All right, don't move. Don't move. I think you
fainted. Cal, that's an awful thing to say.

Are you diabetic? I don't even remember going to Spain.

Do you need sugar? It was so long ago, it might not even be true.

Have some of this. Cal, that's enough. Go to your room.

It's flat. Dad... What's wrong?

You're tough to please. Get out!

You say that like it's a bad thing. What did I say that was wrong?

Okay, excellent. Not embarrassed, not It's all very confusing.

embarrassed at all.

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No, it's not.
No, it's cool, all right?
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This is your day.
I mean, I've never had that effect on someone
before.
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I kind of like it. That I'll do whatever you want.

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na
(EXHALES) This is a nice garden. Buy more things?

af e.
Thanks. It's kind of my thing. It keeps my mum Sure.
happy.
c Where does the money come from?
How about your dad?
A credit card.
It's just the two of us.
Buy now, pay later.
I should get home. All right. You need help?
Or you know, not.
It's not exactly far.
Watch where you're flying. You almost poked the
So, anytime you've got something to burn... guy's eye out.

Or I just want to pass out in front of someone... I wish I could fly for real.

You know where to come. Yeah?

(WIND WHOOSHING) Why should he be punished?

(CHUCKLING) What are you doing?

CAL: Amazing! Is this to do with your list?

That was better than the best thing ever! I don't have a list.

Can I go again? You told that radio guy you had a list.

I think it's your sister's go. He was a knob.

I'm good, I'm just watching. Yeah, he was a knob.

Are you sure? Yeah. You were still more honest with him than you are
with me.
She's sick. She can't do this kind of thing.
How do you think that makes me feel?
All right, mate, well, let's get you hooked up
again.

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I don't give a crap how you feel.

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Actually, you know what? She's not coming. Let's do this.

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I will have a crack. Tessa, there'll be a slight pinch and burn,

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Ready? Ready. then the anesthetic will kick in. All right?

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Tessa, I don't know if this is a good idea. Good.

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e.
Is she okay? Now, I wiggle up and down

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She's fine.
c to break the tissue around the insertion point.

She just doesn't want it to end. She may feel a slight tugging across the chest,

It wasn't your money. but once the line detaches from the cuff,

She's late. it will simply slide away.

Do you hear what I'm saying? Now, of course I can reinsert the catheter

She promised she'd come. should you wish to recommence your treatment.

Tessa... I'm saying you can change your mind.

Do you want Cal to return everything? I won't change my mind.

(SIGHS) Dad? But there was this insane traffic.

She won't change her mind. I definitely left on time. I just...

All right then. Sure, whatever.

(GRUNTS) Tessa...

Hold that for me. I don't care.

Good girl. Oh, don't be like that.

Do you want to slap my rump? How do you expect her to be?

What? No. I'm sorry, this has what to do with you?

Then don't talk to me like I'm a horse. Is that a serious question? Yes, it's a serious...

Yes. Enough.

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Sorry. You both suck.

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Hey, it's done now. It's done. One of you is this cancer obsessive,

NURSE: You know what to look out for?

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and the other can't even face showing up

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DAD: Yeah. Chill, fever, stiff neck or headache. at the hospital, which is fine,

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na
Drainage, bleeding, loss of strength. I get it.

af e.
You're good. (CHUCKLES) But neither of you are what I need.

c
Thanks for all your help. You're just wasting my time.

She likes you. All I'm saying... This is not gonna be all you say.

I doubt that. All I'm saying is... There'll be another thing.

I mean it. You're bang in there.
You should definitely ask her out or something.
Tessa! Tessa, wait, I'm here. I'm coming. Stay
there.
Oh, God, did I miss it? I left on time.
All I'm saying is, you don't have to stay in on my
account.
You could go out and see your friends more
often.
And that's all I'm saying. Okay. Okay.
I've just taken drugs.
 ♪ The lack of sleeping but it's all right
Excellent. Have you met my mum?
♪ And it's all
Hi.
♪ And it's all right
Hi.
♪ And it's all
Mushrooms is all I did, which are natural.
♪ And it's all right
If not strictly legal.
♪ And it's all ♪
My friend did buy some ketamine,
(INAUDIBLE)
but she thought the dealer was a bit skanky,
Don't be afraid.
so we've gone with the shrooms instead.
What? What?
See you inside.
What did you say?
That went well.

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ADAM: All right, we could hang out here.
I thought so.
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There's no one around, so you guys can go
How much did you take?

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crazy.

Not much.
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I don't know, I'm not really that clued up on the I don't have to go crazy at all.
stuff.

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I'll just be up here.

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Yeah, me neither.

c
Look, I'll drive you somewhere. Keep you out of
What are you doing?

trouble. All right. Get down.

I'm not sure how long it takes to kick in. Come on, get down, off the roof. No.

About that long. Come on, get down. Please.

(POP MUSIC PLAYING) Why? Are you gonna make me?

♪ Seven shooting stars in one night No, I'm just gonna tell you. Get down.

♪ The water and sand in our eyesight Fine. All right? Thank you.

♪ The rocks in our hands preparing for flight Harshing my buzz.

Where's Tessa?
I'm going to tell you something.
What?
But you have to promise not to tell anyone, okay?
ZOEY: We gotta go after her.
I'm not sick here.
We didn't see which way she went.
I'm not sick anymore.
We need to find her. Now.
I just need to stay here in this wood.
She'll come back. I mean, it's no big thing.
I need to keep away from the modern world and
We're just out here. There's no danger. all its gadgets

Yes, there is. and then I won't be sick.

Why? Zoey... You can stay with me if you want.

This time I'm really not supposed to tell you. I'd like it if you did.

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Not supposed to tell me what? We'll build things, shelters and tracks.

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ADAM: Tessa! We'll grow vegetables.

Tessa!
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We'll be safe.

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Tessa! Tessa... No.

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Tessa!

na Please. Don't say anything.

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TESSA: I've discovered something. Tessa?

c
Are you okay? Can you get down? What?

I don't want to. Will I still be a brother when you're dead?

All right, just wait. I'll still be around.

Just hold on, I'm coming. Are you going to haunt me?

Just hold on. Not if you don't want me to.

Tessa... Just I might be a bit scared.

You need to come down now, please. The nurse is here. Dad says come down when
you're ready.
You need to let me help you climb down.
(DOOR CLOSES)
Hey.
Enjoying your cake?
Hey.
Mmm. (CHUCKLES)
You don't have to look at me like that.
It's lovely. Thank you, Tessa.
I'm just dying. It's not contagious.
I'm Philippa.
How are you feeling today?
You don't look like you're feeling too good.
Can I come for a ride?
Would you be?
Do you always answer a question with another
Take nothing personally. She was rude to last question?
week's nurse, too.
Does that annoy you?
Sian, I think she was called.
Bit tricky to ride this at the minute.
Don't pretend you've forgotten her name, Dad.

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I thought I'd strip the engine down, give it a
You asked her to stay for supper. She said no.
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I'll be next door. And now you can't put it back together.

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He does everything wrong. What do you mean? I can, no trouble.

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How does that make you feel? Just so long as this bit wasn't important.

na
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It makes me laugh. (POP MUSIC PLAYING)

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c
You know, there are support groups. Where did you say we were going again?

Places you can meet people in the same position I didn't.

as you.
What?
I went to one of those.
A good long cross-country hike. Excellent.
Met a cool girl called Angela.
Because my big problem is too much energy to
So why not talk to her about all this? burn.

Because she died. (LAUGHS)

Last time I make that mistake. Nearly there.

Are we done? It's worth it, yeah?

Yes. Whose party is it?

So, what's the story with you and your mum? I'm not sure.

My dad died last year. He was hit by a car. You didn't get invited?

I had a place at college, but I had to defer it. That's not really how it works.

You should still go. But all your mates are going?

I don't know. I kind of... I guess, yeah.

I'm not sure I was ready for it anyway. I just haven't done this stuff in a while.

Are you afraid? Makes two of us.

It comes and goes. (TECHNO MUSIC PLAYING)

Most people think that when you're sick

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(INDISTINCT CONVERSATION)

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you become fearless and brave, Hey, so, do you just want to hang out here?

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but you don't. I'll get us something to drink.

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Most of the time it's like being stalked by a Yeah.

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psycho,

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Or come with me?

na
like I might get shot any second.

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I'll come with you.

a f
Sometimes I forget about it for hours.

c
What makes you forget?
TOMMY: Hey, there he is!

Hi, guys...
When I was with you in the wood,
Sorry to bother you,
I didn't think about it for the whole afternoon.
it's just we used to know someone
Look at me.
who looked just like your friend here.
I'm not thinking about it now.
I'm Tessa. It's nice to meet you.
So, why don't you want to go?
If you're the one that got him out of the house,
I shouldn't have said anything.
it's good to meet you, too.
Genie's out of the bottle now.
How's college? Are you sure? Yeah, of course, no trouble.

You don't even have to pretend to learn anything. See?

You should try it. Yeah, I will, sometime. (CHUCKLES)

Are you drinking this? Thank you.

Yeah, actually... (ROCK MUSIC PLAYING)

(GASPS) Hey.

(GRUNTING) Hello.

Yeah, it's good, I think, just to pop in to parties You dropped a fiver.
like that.
What?
Don't want to outstay a welcome, do you?
That fiver. You dropped it.
You got a pretty big one there. You should get

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out more. That's not mine.

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Well, then they wouldn't care when I walked in, I saw it come out of your pocket.
would they?

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Did that girl hurt you?
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r.c
'Cause I was looking.
Other way round.
v e
na Okay, well, thanks.

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I caught her fist a good one with my chin,

af
That was so cool. It totally was.

c
then whacked her right in the knee with my nose.
We rock as criminals. That flirty eye thing you
You need to be careful. were doing.

No, I don't. What about you nipping in there with the perfect
timing?
That's the thing.
So now what?
Here you go then.
Now we get some cash out and party.
How do you mean?
With the card? Right.
This is you. No, bollocks, no way.
Okay. What's the number?
I'll walk you to your door.
What do you mean?
 Why not together?
Didn't you see the number?
More suspicious. Go on.
No, I was doing the flirty eye thing.
Right.
I was nipping in there.
Tessa? Tessa Scott?
We suck as criminals.
No. Sorry.
Probably best. The guy seemed all right.
It is you.
Maybe we should try and give his card back.
Don't you remember us? From school.
And how are we going to do that?
Oh, yeah.
Not interrupting anything, am I? Get...
You left in Year 11, didn't you?
Tessa... What?
Ten.
The card. What about it?

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So how's it going? Are you still having all that
Give it back to him!
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treatment?

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(PANTING) Not anymore.

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(LAUGHING) So you're better?

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Scott plays it cool. I know he's crazy about me. No.

na
e.
How'd you know? What do you two want?

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c
Because he's a guy. Hi, Zoey. You helping her shop?

I'll take your word for it. Are you ready to go? Yeah.

So, why didn't he call me last night? Is it true you've been seeing Scott Redmond?

Zo, there's something I need to tell you. What's it to you? Do you know him?

Let's get this done first. All right, let's go.

Remember, shoplifting's all about confidence. Everybody knows him.

Walk tall, pick and pocket. He went out with my sister for about half an
hour.
In there, we go in separate.
Is that right?
 Listen...
I have to go collect the invites for my funeral.
This is a portacath.
Really? Yeah.
It's an access disk for medical treatments.
I also need to sort out the readings.
I have acute lymphoblastic leukemia.
Make sure it's not that bloody poem. It's been
done to death. Please put your shirt back on.

Let go of me. Do you know what acute lymphoblastic leukemia

is?
They're idiots, Zo. They don't know anything.
No, I'm afraid I don't.
I know.
It's cancer.
I have to go find him.
I still have to call your dad.
NOW?

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And you, what's your excuse?

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Yeah. I'm sorry. I need to go.

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What did she take?

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Hey!

Another one! Stop her too!

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One Clearblue Home Pregnancy Test.

o m Was this on the list? Shoplifting?

r.c
Gotcha.

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What are you doing, Tessa?
Sit down.

na
e.
What are you doing?

a f
Empty your pockets.

c
Well, I'd call that evidence, wouldn't you?
As much as I can. As fast as I can.

I wish you'd stop.

Name. Address. Parents' phone numbers.
You'd prefer I spend the rest of my life
Don't call my dad.
huddled in a blanket on the sofa,
We have a choice.
with my head on your shoulder.
We can call him, or we can call the police.
Yeah, I would. Can you blame me?
The police, every time.
(ENGINE STARTS)
Now, I told that guy out there I'd handle it, and if
you... Yes, I would.
My point is... Well, my point is, I like a strong
woman. I know you're looking.

You've always wanted to be carried to bed. I'm not looking.

I have always wanted to be carried to bed. Liar.

What I don't do, is bring to a mate's party DAD: Perhaps you should think about going back
to school.
an, admittedly perfectly formed, young pixie
warlock. A bit of normality in your life.

Yeah, she's isn't a warlock. I'm not going back to school.

I mean you can't just go around There's got to be some perks to terminal illness.

starting fights every which way (LAUGHS)

and shaking things up like that. I'm killing you, right?

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Apparently you can. Every day.

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What are you doing here? (MOTORBIKE REVVING)

I've been stalking you all day.

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r.c
I only just now plucked up the courage to reveal Bloody idiot.
myself.
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na What's this guy up to?

e.
Really?

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(INAUDIBLE)
No.
c Tessa, where are you going? Tessa?
(LAUGHS)
Tessa!
My dad's in the health food store. He could drive
past. (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING)

It's nice to see your mates again. TESSA: That was good.

(WHISTLING) A ride on a motorbike.

Yeah. Always a pleasure. Should have been on my list.

Well, I'll see you around, maybe. What is? Name one.

Sure, yeah. Fame.

How famous do you want to be? You're evil! You are so evil!

Enough for the whole world to stop what it's How is it?
doing
Yeah, actually really gorgeous and lovely.
and personally come and say goodbye to me when
I die. Really?

I think it's good you're not asking too much No. But go for it anyway.
there.
Come on, what are you scared of?
I just want to have my name out there
somewhere, you know. Nothing.

You don't have to worry about being forgotten, (SCREAMING)

Tess.
(BOTH EXCLAIMING)
Anything else?
Okay, okay.

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Yeah.

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See, the great thing is,

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What are you doing?

I just thought of another.

/ 9 9 I have actually always wondered

o m if it was possible to dry yourself with a sock.

r.c
You're not gonna swim naked.

ve
Thanks for doing that with me.

na
No way. You think I'm crazy?

e.
I wouldn't have missed it for the world.
Not naked.
a f
Tess! Tess!
c The stars are out.

Yeah.
Okay, count of three, yeah?
See that group of five up there?
What?
The kind of curved shape.
Just got to commit. We just run in, full whack.
See them? See them?
Deal. Right.
Yeah.
Bollocks. Here we go.
I've got no idea what they're called.
BOTH: One, two, three!
(LAUGHS)
(ADAM GRUNTING)
Goon. Tessa?

No. Nurse!

What? Here, darling.

I'm sorry. (COUGHING)

Don't you like me? DAD: Okay, okay.

It's not that. We'll soon have that cleared up.

I don't think I can handle it. I'm sorry. Sorry.

I'll see you around. It's okay, darling.

Tess... Tess, wait. Come on. Hello, Tessa. How are you?

Tessa, come on. TESSA: Good.

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No, I've made a mistake. I think dignity's overrated anyway.

e n
99
What? What mistake? We performed some tests last night.

You can't save me.

/ 9 9
I'm afraid the cancer has spread to your spinal

o m fluid.

r.c
When you were a baby,

ve
Things are progressing more quickly than we first

na
me and your mum used to lie awake at night thought.

e.
watching you breathe.

af
You've moved further down the line.

c
We were convinced that if we stopped looking,
How much further?
you'd forget how to do it.
I would encourage you to do the things you want
As your kids get older, it's a different kind of to do.
worry.
I'm trying.
It never ever goes.
Enchanted Garden!
Please think about that.
Whoo!
You know, I kind of prefer it when you give me
shit. That was lovely.

Tessa? Boring. Do another.

What do you want to do? Should I do a rocket? It'll hurt.

Yes! Do a rocket! It already hurts.

Okay. Zoey was right. I'm alive.

Remind me again why you're here. I'm alive.

Your father said he'd chop my legs off if I didn't Morning, Dad. Sleep well?
show up.
Who are you? What have you done with my
Ready, everybody? daughter?

Cover your ears, this is gonna be aloud one. Sit.

Oh! Eat. Drink coffee.

(FIREWORK BURSTING) Dad, I want to introduce someone.

Okay. Oh, God.

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Okay? This is Adam. Adam, Dad.

9 99
9
Okay. It's good to meet you, sir.

m /
o
Not bad. What else you got in there? You don't have to call him sir.

r.c
ve
Should I go for a 21-shot Cascade? Sir will be fine.

na
e.
Yes, do the Cascade! I'll count. Excellent. Who wants toast?

a f
c
Ready? Right, here we go. You can go.

(MUM LAUGHING) And miss all the fun?

One, two, three... It's all right, Tess.

MUM: Three... Sit down. Yeah.

Four... CAL: Four, five... It's a terrible day in an man's life

...six, seven, eight, nine, 10. when his daughter brings a boy home.

Tessa... I always thought if I killed the first one, word

would get around.
What's the worst that can happen?
Do you go to college?
Yeah, I had a place. I thought you weren't speaking to him.

Then some stuff happened, you know. I knew there was a reason I forgot to ask.

I know what happened. I'm sorry for your loss. Well, thanks for bringing me.

Yeah. I thought it would be full of girls

How is your mum doing? holding tissues and looking gutted.

Some days she seems okay. Yeah. At least Scott paid for privacy.

I used to think that about Tessa. He'll get over it.

You're aware of her condition? No, never.

Yeah, she's told me everything. He never will. He hates me.

No, she hasn't. Do you?

i s h
n gl
e
If she wants you to find her attractive, I'm just talking to them today.

999
9
then one thing she won't have done is told you About making another appointment?
everything.

m /
o
Yes. Yeah, I want it gone, all right?

r.c
How old are you?

ve
Zoey Walker? We're ready for you now.
Why?

na
e.
I just want it gone.

a f
Because at your age, you shouldn't have to be

c
nursing someone. (TIRES SCREECHING)

Tessa doesn't need nursing. ZOEY: You hit that curb.

Yes, she does. TESSA: Wasn't my fault. The road should have
been straight.
And she will more and more.
There you go.
And you, my young friend, you're simply not up
to the task. Tess, you know I've got no choice.

So, why don't you do us all a favor, You don't even know what those words mean.

and piss off out of what's left of her life. Why did you come if you were just going to
disapprove?
So, how'd you get your dad to lend you the car?
'Cause that's why you asked me.
Dad and Cal are looking for you. Where have you
(DOOR OPENS) been?

(DOOR SLAMS SHUT) We'll have to talk about it some other time.

(CAR REVVING) Why?

Hey. 'Cause I've got a date.

Evening. That was my first drive. Yeah. She's here.

First ever? Not tonight. Please, not tonight.

Well, then you did fantastic. Okay, I've called your father. I've told him not to
worry. He's going...
You think?
Oh, my God. It's just a nosebleed.
Yeah. Yeah, that's just how changing gear is
meant to sound.

i s h
No, it's pumping out of you. Tessa, I...

n gl
e
It's my dad's car. Deserves what it gets. What should I do? I don't know...

999
9
He's just trying to keep you safe. Here, take a towel.

m /
o
I think that ship has sailed, don't you? Sit down. Pinch your nose or something.

r.c
ve
Would you like to go on a date with me? Oh, you need to go to hospital.

na
e.
Just it occurred to me we've never It'll stop in a minute. I'm calling your father.

a f
c
actually been on a date, like a proper one, Should I call your father? I don't know what to
do.
and I thought that maybe we should.
Tell me what to do! Just get me some ice.
You know, it doesn't have to be right tonight, like
now, What? Ice!

but, you know, the offer's there, for anytime. A bag of frozen peas would be best. (COUGHING)

You just let me know when suits. Right. Frozen peas.

Now is good. (BREATHING HEAVILY)

Christ, Tessa. You could have called. There's sweet corn. Is sweet corn okay?

What are you doing here? Oh, Jesus.

 (SIREN WAILING)
You have to take me to hospital.
MUM: She must be thirsty. She's lost so much
I can't, Tessa. I think your father should do this. blood.

There isn't time. Should she have some water? Should she?

Okay. Let's see what the doctor says, all right.

Yes. Ambulance, please. Quickly. Quickly! Good. Here you are.

(DOORBELL BUZZING) Right. Any signs of thrombocytopenia before

today?
Who is it? No.
Mum? Mum?
Who is it? He can't...
Sorry, me?
I need help. Don't let him in.
Has she complained of a headache?
No, I need help.

i s h
gl
Have you noticed any pinprick bruising?
He can't see me like this!
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99
I didn't look, to be honest.
Tess, I can't do this on my own. I need help.

/ 9 9When was the last platelet transfusion?

(GROANING)
o m
r.c
I'm not sure. I can try... I can try and find out.

v e
(MUM SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ON PHONE)

na Has she used any aspirin products recently?

e.
(CELL PHONE BEEPS)

af
I don't know. I don't...
Coming.
c I'm sorry. I don't know the answers to any of
Help me get her downstairs. these questions.

Come on. Are you gonna help? My last platelet transfusion was May 18th.

Get him out! Please. Okay, thank you. Don't talk.

All right, just go. We can manage. Go. Mum, get yourself round here, and hold your
daughter's hand.
Would you hold that?
Okay. Squeeze your mum's hand once for yes,
Thank you. twice for no.

Adam. Understand? Don't talk.

Yes.
I'm here, you can go now if you want.
Any signs of thrombocytopenia? Headaches?
Bruising? Can I stay?

No. Yeah.

Aspirin products? Bonjela? Teejel? How are you feeling?

Anti-inflammatories?
Sleepy...
No, none of those. No.
Thank you for being there.
Good.
It was a bit of a shock. For your boy, too.
Now I'm afraid we're going to need to cauterize
your nose. It was understandable.

Have you been cauterized before? Yes, she has. He's a hot buttered biscuit, that one.

Okay. We'll check your platelets, (CHUCKLES)

i s h
n gl
e
and then you're going to need at least a couple Yeah, that's exactly how I'd describe him.

99
of units.

A rough night, but you'll be back home tomorrow.

/ 9 9 MUM: What would you say?

o m When he's not with me, I think I've made him up.

r.c
We got there in the end.

ve
He didn't call or come after us, or anything?
(SIGHS)

na
e.
No.

a f
They said it was a posterior nosebleed, the... You

c
know, the bad kind. Maybe I did make him up.

They had to pack her nose with vaso... Good God.

Vasoconstrictive. What?

Yeah, vasoconstrictive agents. There, on the bridge.

And before they transfused in two units, they did That's odd.
a platelet count.
You're everywhere, Tessa!
And?
TESSA: He's done it.
Stable.
He's put my name in the world.
You did well.
Juggling clubs! You brought me juggling clubs! How's the list going?

Happy birthday. Things I thought mattered don't matter so much

anymore.
Can you do these?
How about you? Got anything you wanna put up
Yeah. A bit, yeah. there?

I'll help you practice later if you want. I'm fine.

Dad, can Adam stay for dinner? I mean, there are things I've kind of,

No. you know, opted out of I guess.

Mum... No, I'm not like you like that.

I don't live here, do I? I don't...

DAD: Thank you. Adam?

i s h
gl
But let him stay. Yeah.

e n
99
It's a conspiracy. You've got to get in the game.

CAL: All right, on with the magic show.

/ 9 9
So have a think.

o m
r.c
Pick a card. What are your hopes, your dreams?

v e
Five of hearts.

na Right now?

No.
af e. Yeah.

c
One day I'll get the right one, CAL: Let go of my hand. Let go of my hand.

and you'll all crap yourselves. I'll wipe out.

Oh, nice. He's allowed to say that, is he? Yeah, but I'll be miles away.

It's only "crap." Go on, all the way across. Just lean forward and
run.
(MOUTHING)
You can do it.
TESSA: Well, that's another one to cross off the
list. Lean and run, got it.

(LAUGHS) Get in! Tessa Scott is in the house!

Cal, how do you stop? (CHUCKLES)

Use the wall. Hey, what's up, Tess?

Cal! Use the wall! It's not enough. Us. This.

Hi, babe. How do you mean?

Hey. Stay with me. Stay the nights.

You looked good out there. What do you want from me, Tess?

I kept falling down. My bum hurts. Nighttime. Sleeping together. Waking up together.
Breakfast.
You should put some ice on it.
What do you really want?
I'm keeping the baby.
I want you to be with me in the dark.
Really?
To hold me.

i s h
gl
Yeah. Yes.

e n
To keep loving me.

99
It's a girl. I'm having a girl.

And I'm gonna call her Lauren.

/ 9 9 To help me when I get scared.

o m To come right to the edge and see what's there.

r.c
That's what I'm gonna do.

ve
What if I get it wrong?
I want to be there.

na
e.
It's impossible to get wrong.

a f
If you don't want me in the birth,

c
then I can sit outside and come in afterwards.
For you.

It's a snow angel.

I want to be one of the first people
No. No, no and no.
in the world to ever hold your baby.
Dad... Is this on the list?
It's five months away.
A boy staying over? Forget it. No.
Then it's something to aim for.
You know, this is not easy for me to ask.
You see, some people would find this beautiful.
Well, it's very easy for me to answer.
But all I can think is, it's killing my poor
vegetables. I thought you wanted to talk. Not about this.
I won't permit it. End of discussion.
Yes.
Don't pull rank on me.
I told you I didn't want that.
I have rank. I'm your father.
I know.
Not for much longer.
You know why?
Are you ready?
I think so.
(PANTING) It's too far.
He's a good kid, Tessa.
Just jump.
But a kid is all he is. You can't rely on him.
It's too bloody far.
He might let you down.
Good night then.
He won't.
Wait.
What if he does?

i s h
gl
What are you doing?

e n
Then I'll still have you. Like always.

99
Psyching myself up.

Oh, is that gonna take a while,

/ 9 9
(DOOR CLOSES)

o m These are insanely good.

r.c
'cause I quite fancy a cup of tea.

ve
I think they fry the onions in hair oil.
(CLATTERING)

na
e.
Because we're worth it.

a f
(ADAM GROANING) Oh, my God.

c
Are you all right? No.
I wish I could do that.

You can't?
I've broken my arm.
No.
Both arms.
I can do like two and then they just die.
I've broken everything.
I'll teach you.
Hi. Hi.
I'll put it on my new list.
Ow.
Along with what?
But you're here.
Too many things.
DAD: He's in there, isn't he?
Spring. Daffodils and tulips. There was a water fight in the park

A long train journey. against Year Seven, and we won!

A peacock. Cal, tell Philippa what you've been doing recently.

Bed and breakfast. Oh, yeah. I'm doing "keep death away" spells.

A joint bank account. I've put garlic above all the doors

Listening to you snore for years and years. and at the four corners of Tessa's bed.

I don't snore. Do I snore? Which is pretty bloody gross, but I figure...

You will when you get old. What?

To go to a parents' evening, and our child's a What is it?

genius.
Tessa?
Actually, all three of our kids.

i s h
gl
Where's your father?
We're having three?
e n
99
Telling my mum something. What's he telling her?
Chester, Merlin and Daisy.

/ 9 9
Let's wait for them to join us, shall we?
God help them.
o m
r.c
It's me that's sick, not them.

v e
Being with you. Being with you.

na How sick, please?

e.
Being with you.

af
Your latest blood counts are very low.

c
Just being with you.
Your immune system is in collapse.
So, is the love cure still working its magic?
The cancer is now everywhere.
You tell me.
How much longer do I have?
I should recommend it to all my patients.
I don't want to be drawn into time scales.
(CELL PHONE CHIMING) Yes! I got a text.
I won't sue you if you're wrong.
Cal's got a mobile phone.
My best friend's due in April.
He's growing up.
Will I get to meet her baby?
Year Five won!
No.
 It was here all along.
Adam?
Why didn't you show me?
Is Adam here?
You should've shown me.
Oh, no, I'm sorry, darling. He won't be back till
this evening. Some of these, I could've helped you.

That's too late. Where's he gone? I just wanted to help you.

He's on the train. For the Open Day. I couldn't help you.

Open Day? Yeah, at the university. I can't help you.

I was so thrilled when he said he was (SOBBING) I don't want you to go.

taking up his place in September. I don't want you to go.

There were times when I thought I can't bear it.

i s h
gl
we'd be waiting another 12 months. Take me with you.

e n
99
No one wants to be the oldest kid in the class, do Oh, please...
they?

/ 9 9 I don't want you to go.

No. No one wants that.
o m
r.c
I don't want you to go.
(DOOR OPENS)
v e
na Oh, baby...

e.
(PANTING)

af
Oh, you're my baby...
DAD: Tessa?
c Jesus, Tess, I've been looking all over.
(FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING)
How long have you been up here?
Tessa, are you here?
Why didn't you tell me?
Darling?
You can't be making that walk, right?
No.
Just come back with me, please.
You monster.
Why didn't you tell me?
Do you want to leave me with nothing?
Because it's gonna be me!
Is this it? The list.
It's gonna be me that's left behind on my own.
Don't you dare feel sorry for yourself Again.

because you get to stay behind. Tell me how it will be.

Don't you fucking dare! You won't want to eat much from now on.

This is what you wanted. You'll be thirsty.

Come on, I know it. This is what you wanted. And sometimes feverish.

For me to go on and... You'll want to sleep a lot.

Oh, please, you've got to know that You'll have little or no energy.

if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be able TESSA: Will it hurt?

to go anywhere or do anything. No. The morphine will make sure you're not in
any pain.
Except, I don't know, fucking garden.

i s h
gl
It will give you some beautiful dreams.
(SOBBING)
e n
99
Hi, there.
It's going to happen.

/ 9 9 I keep thinking I've met your baby.

I know.
o m
r.c
How is she?
Soon.
v e
na Gorgeous.

e.
All right?

af
You'll love her.

c
So what was it like there?
Is this happening?
Big, lots of buildings. I got a bit lost.
Yeah.
We'll figure it out.
I don't know what's real.
We will? Yeah.
I am.
I'm coming back as somebody else.
TESSA: Do you think I'll be scared?
I'll be the wild-haired girl that walks up to you on
day one, PHILIPPA: I think you've had the worst luck in the
world,
and ask what you're studying.
and if I was in your shoes, I would be scared.
And I'll fall in love with you at first sight.
But I also believe that however you handle these A better site for you.
last few days
Jobs.
will be exactly as it should be done.
You've got to start thinking.
I hate it when you say days.
Not yet.
Quite soon you'll start to drift in and out of
consciousness. You're gonna have a life again.

Sometimes you won't be able to respond, I never had a life.

but you'll know people are there, you'll hear them I was an accountant.
talk.
And now you can do anything.
Thank you for staying with her.
CAL: I'm telling Tessa and Dad,
I love her.
and then everyone else I know.
And eventually, Tess, you'll just drift away.

i s h
gl
...because I don't. Mum fancies Mr. Wilmot.
Do you have any other questions?
e n
99
I do not. I never said that.
No. No.

/ 9 9You did, you did.

You're awake.
o m
r.c
Mum fancies Mr. Wilmot.

v
Just getting an ice lolly.
e
na All the mums fancy Mr. Wilmot.

e.
Why didn't you ring the bell?

af
And a few of the dads.

c
Still looking for a cure?
Hey. How are you feeling?
Pain relief.
Where have you been?
Can I use the computer for a sec?
I have been to a parent-teacher meeting.
Yeah. Of course.
You went to that?
No, you're good.
She did. Yeah.
Your hair's growing back.
And it bored the hole off me.
Not quick enough.
Except for Mr. Wilmot?
What are you showing me here?
CAL: He said I was doing great, so Mum got me
this. Each one a journey to the end.

You spin it round and it kind of sings. Let them go.

Yeah, but not in the house, right? Let them all go.

How come you're up? DAD: You should say goodbye, Cal.

Are you sweating? No.

I'll change your sheets for you. Come on, love, it's important.

I'll do it. It might make her die.

I can make a bed. DAD: Nothing you say can make her die. Okay?

You wouldn't know a hospital corner if it bit you Hey, we're all here, Tessa.
on the arse.
We all love you so much.
MUM: That is not true.

i s h
gl
You've done so well.
CAL: Fine, I'll do it outside.
e n
99
You can go now. You can go.
Come and have a listen, Tess. It kind of sings.

/ 9 9
(WHISPERING) Bye, Tess.
(DOOR OPENS)
o m
r.c
Haunt me if you like. I don't mind.

v e
I'm coming. Be there in a second.

na TESSA: Our life is a series of moments.

e.
(SOBBING)

af
Let them go.

c
It's gonna be all right.
Moments...
(GASPING) Adam!
All gathering to wards this one.
Yes, beautiful.
(SLOW POP SONG PLAYING)
Don't let me fall. I've got you.
♪ Clinging to me
I'm falling.
♪ Like a last breath you would breathe
You're not falling. You're not falling.
♪ You were like home to me
TESSA: Moments...
♪ I don't recognize the street
Our life is a series of moments.
♪ Please don't close your eyes
 ♪ I'll be saving myself from the ruin
♪ Don't know where to look without them
♪ And know it wasn't always wrong
♪ Outside the cars speed by
♪ But I've never known a winter so cold
♪ I never heard them until now
♪ Now I don't warm my hands in your coat
♪ I know you care
♪ But I still hope
♪ I know it is always been there
♪ 'Cause this is how things ought to have been
♪ But there's trouble ahead, I can feel it
♪ And I know the worst of it wasn't all that it
♪ You are just saving yourself when you hide it seemed

♪ Yeah, I know you care ♪ Why can't I dream

♪ I see it in the way you stare ♪ Why can't I dream

♪ As if there was trouble ahead and you knew it

i s h
♪ 'Cause I know you care

n gl
e
♪ I'll be saving myself from the ruin ♪ And I know you care

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♪ And I know you care ♪ I know you care

m /
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♪ I used to run down the stairs ♪ I know you care

r.c
ve
♪ To the door and I thought you were there ♪ I know it's always been there ♪

na
e.
♪ Do you shape through the comfort of us

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c
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