Touching Nothing

By: Mariella Luisa Laguna

"At ngayon nandyan ka na di mapaliwanag ang nadarama”, right now, right at

this moment I am walking on an aisle, holding a bouquet on my hands as I felt
something hot liquid run down my cheeks, this is it!, hooh!!, I wiped my tears, "breathe
in" ,"breathe out", I instructed myself and smiled lightly. While walking, I envisioned
through their eyes the delight, the tears out of joy and on how they purse their lips just
to avoid from sobbing hard.

Move forward! further! and more further! and there, in front of me the man
whom I want to spend my life with the person who gave light on my empty dark life.
Showing his playful grin to avoid from crying, he stretched out his arm for me to link
my arms, we stared with each other with full of tenderness for we cannot believe that
after the trials that we went through we would still end up like this.

As I touch him. My eyes opened.

"Ikaw at ako", a song that has recently made trending in Philippines, it is

especially sang by Moira and Jason as it was published in February 2019, the song talks
about how the couple prayed to God for him to grant a perfect time and right person
for each other.

"Handa ako sa walang hanggang di paaasahin, di ka sasaktan",

I am happy, I laugh, I cry and cry and be happy again, well, that is life in every
relationship, you will face ups and downs but soon after, you will come up with a
decision to tie each other beside each other in a long time, for a life time. A decision
that is not easy but with the love of imperfect individuals to complement with each
other, that makes relationship magical.

"Mula noon hanggang ngayon ikaw at ako"

Everything happens for a reason. What is happening in our life is planned by

our God. It is destined to happen. As I move forward, further, more further, the only
thing that that I could think is I, him and at the center of that thought is God who
strengthens our relationship.

As I reach my life, my world, my everything, which I was about to touch. I

opened my eyes, finding myself staring at the ceiling, as disappointment surrounded my
empty room, while I recall my dreams, dreams, just a dreams....