I’ve always been curious what it is like to die, but I’m a bit scared that curiosity would

kill me, it may sound weird but it is what I’ve been thinking.

I know someday it will soon happen. I am not waiting…

When the day comes that I finally have no strength to open my eyes, to touch the ground
with my feet, when I can no longer trace my smile and to get excited with the pretty colour of the
sky, to watch the sparks of the dead luminous stars and to take a picture of a beautiful moon,
forgive me I am biding my goodbye. Life is a gift from above and this time I am returning where
I came from.

It maybe sometimes lonesome but I love the warmth of living, those friend who makes
me feel worthy, the love and comfort they offer, Thank you for making my everyday life exciting
those laugh and tears I may not remember that in this moment but surely I treasure those. I am
happy to keep you all, and I’m sorry for leaving. Don’t be sad and live well my dear friend.

To a friend whom I always asked what if I die your answer remains in my heart “dili tika
malimtan”. You know what I’m going through and I know you as well but for now I’m sorry I
can no longer talk to you but I know you can do it, you can live the way you want without the
feeling of uneasiness.

To the man who become my bestfriend without any other intentions, you talk to me about
everything, thank you for asking my help and I am grateful for you always got me when I need
someone, you told me that I am the only person whom you can be emotional with, thank you for
trusting me for now I am sorry I can no longer cheers glasses with you, but I know you can make
it and be happy.

This letter is filled with thank you and sorry but I assure my mom and dad that your
daughter have lived a fulfilled life, you raised me for who I am with love and care, I can’t asked
for more because I am blessed with the family I have. Thank you for the tremendous love and
Thank you for two wonderful sisters I have you’re the best girls I’ve ever meet , I love you and
don’t forget to smile.

And finally for myself, for my flaws and failings, stitches and scars I lived my life worth
it, those experiences that mold me for who I am, to be loved for who I , am. The hardest question
asked is WHO I AM, by the time I have lived I answer that question , I get to know myself more,
it maybe hard to handle my emotion

sometimes but I know I know myself better than anyone. I fought hard and I am proud of that. I
am born with this weak heart I have to be careful everytime not to get excited too much nor be
sad, those time that my heart skips a beat and I’m catching my breath I fought so hard to survive
that made me strong.

After all this time spending summers and september’s, distractions and remnants of our
sad, hopeful love in another’s look in all familiar gesture I have console myself to rest and live
again to go on even dragging my aching body day after day through this yawning, yearning
world, searching for a glimpse of what it might have been. I am sure the days I lived is not
always like that, it is true that the world is great big place and I know I am not done exploring
every inch of it, I am happy for living my life even the situation changes like weathers.

I am worthy and I lived my life to the fullest its more than enough. Never forget to love
because it is the only thing you can have when you die.
After I end this with all my unorganized words I can offer for all of you, I would never
forget the man who makes me believe to fall in love that after you love yourself you can finally
give love to others. I love you until the casket drops.
Everyone, Thank you for the love I received that I will carry with me through eons to
oceans and every inch
And for now as the curtain drawn before the sun, and to be with dead bright stars above, I
wish to go on sleeping.