DIRECT TALKS

WITH
LORD KRISHNA

By

ABHISHEK AKHOURI
This book is based on certain real life incidents.
The Author
 || Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya ||

I eternally surrender to the son of Vasudeva, the

Supreme Lord Shri Krishna … the Supreme Cause of
all causes... the Supreme Source of all sources...
ABOUT
This book tells you the life story of a spiritual seeker, Agastya, who starts his journey in search of
Lord Krishna at a very young age, with determination and hope that one day he would be connected
with the Lord Himself. As you read this book, you may discover certain aspects that you can relate
to as well as things which are incomprehensible. It does not matter as long as it comes out as a
good read, a time well spent!

Just in brief, this ebook has 3 parts. The first part describes Agastya’s life in detail, until the point
where he starts talking with Lord Krishna. The second part, and the more interesting one, where
the talks happen, was a result of an auto writing exercise I was experimenting with when I started
writing this book. To put it simply, auto writing is a way of writing whatever comes to one’s mind,
without evaluating or analysing it. It is an “as it is” writing. While this can bring up certain
interesting revelations from Higher Sources if the connection is clear while writing, it has the
downside of sometimes merely reflecting the author’s fantasies.

So I have done my bit. I leave it up to you as the reader to decide what you agree with and what
you don’t. That’s all. I am not claiming that whatever is written in this book is a message from
Lord Krishna Himself. It may or may not be true. But, yes, to understand what is written, you must
have some information about Lord Krishna and also patience while reading this section. Trust me,
there are tons and tons of material loaded in part two, which can be comprehended only by reading
slowly. There is no point in rushing things just out of curiosity. It won’t help.

Finally, part three of this ebook talks about Agastya’s life after his interactions with Lord Krishna.

This book has been written in plain simple English and one area that I was questioned about by
quite a few people who read the hardcopy of this book was regarding the futuristic dates that I
have put in this book. Well, to answer it now in public, these dates are irrelevant. Only the timings
are. So if something happens in 2056 and another in 2070, it does mean that 14 years later another
event took place. These numbers have been used to cover up some of the life incidents that actually
took place, just for the sake of privacy, that’s all!

If you like reading this book or have any queries relating to it, please do share. This book is also
available as a hardcopy at online stores such as Flipkart and Amazon for Rs 180 (excl. any
discounts). But there are slight changes in this electronic version of the book.

THANK GOD FOR KNOWLEDGE!

Acknowledgements

I thank you all, those who have helped me to write and

those who manage to read this book.
 PART I

AGASTYA’S SPIRITUAL JOURNEY

 I was born in the city of Bhopal, to an ordinary Hindu family just like many others in India.
According to my parents, I never lived in Bhopal ever. My first year was spent in Indore and later
we shifted to Ujjain, one of the most sacred cities of the Hindus, and an hour’s drive from Indore.
In Ujjain, we lived in one of 10 independent houses of a small but pretty colony allotted to the
employees of the Indian Administrative Department where my father worked. I enjoyed playing
my favourite sport cricket with my friends in the large open spaces we had there. I would also
spend a lot of time at home listening to music.
I remember my father bringing home a collection of old music when I was about 4-5 years old.
One of the albums had classical devotional music that narrated Lord Krishna’s childhood stories.
The cover of the album was very attractive. It had a picture of Lord Krishna in his Bal Gopal
(little child) form and I was always fascinated with that image. I don’t know why but I loved
looking at it. I recall discussing with my friends at that young age on how God was able to see the
entire cosmos in a single glance because He had the world’s largest eyes! I realise now that I had
started thinking about the concept of God right then.
Around the time I turned six, we moved to New Delhi. Almost overnight, I forgot the holy city
of Ujjain and all my friends who I had bid farewell to so reluctantly. I was enrolled in an all boys’
school in Delhi and as far as I can recollect, I had a lot of fun hanging around with my school
friends at our apartment in central Delhi. But even though I enjoyed the company of my friends, I
recall getting into fights with a few of them. Being the smallest in size for my age, I would always
be defeated. Although I enjoyed the company of my friends, I realised that I was the happiest when
I was on my own, either playing with my digital toys or cycling around the colony on my six-gear
bicycle.
As I grew older, I started getting bored of being with my friends. Being on my own also did
not give me as much pleasure as it did earlier. By the time I was ten, I started getting depressed
once in a while. I would often ask myself why I came into this world and other such questions. But
I never got any answers.
Once when I fell very ill, I had a dream in which some strange mystical beings told me to hang
on to my life on Earth as there was something special awaiting me and that it would come very
soon. I woke up with a start only to discover that the mystical beings had vanished. I wondered if
it was real...what was the ‘special’ thing that was coming to me? I often thought about the dream
for a long time after that. The promise of the something special and the word ‘soon’ always lifted
my spirits. I eagerly waited for that something special as I went about my life with renewed hope.
After spending about five or six years in New Delhi, my family moved to Amritsar for a year.
Again, almost overnight, life changed drastically for me. I had to leave all my old friends behind.
Going to a co-ed school for the first time, I was extremely shy in the company of girls. Talking to
them was out of question! But I had a secret burning desire to make friends with them. At last,
luck favoured my relentless efforts and I started getting along well with most of them in my class.
During one of the school holidays, I accompanied my family to Dwarka in Gujarat to visit a
famous temple of Lord Krishna. It was a wonderful experience for me. I felt on top of the world
at the temple – like I was experiencing heaven on Earth. Why I felt like that was a mystery to me
at that time.
The same night I had a dream in which the idol of Lord Krishna came to life and spoke with
me. I don’t remember the conversation at all but a mysterious feeling of happiness filled my
subconscious mind until I was woken up by my sister to get ready quickly for our return journey
to Amritsar. That beautiful dream that I had in Dwarka gradually faded away.
When I was around 13, my father was promoted and we moved to Kolkata. I was heartbroken
because I had fallen in love with a Punjabi girl in Amritsar. This was the first time that my heart
had opened up to love for someone. I was sad that we had to leave even before I could propose to
her! To add to my misfortune, when I mailed a love note to her from Kolkata, she responded saying
that we were only “friends”. I was devastated. I saw no purpose in my life. I would often cry at
night and ask God to tell me why he created love when all it did was to hurt and make us feel
miserable. I hoped that Lord Krishna would reappear in my dream and answer all my queries on
life. But that seemed like a remote possibility.
During our stay in Kolkata, we planned a trip to the holy city of Nadia, which was famous for
being the birthplace of Lord Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. I had learnt from countless devotees that He
was most magnanimous, so I prayed to Him to somehow make this girl fall in love with me.
However, Chaitanya Mahaprabhu did not show any sympathy for my plight and I continued to
wallow in my lost love.
After we had lived in Kolkata for about a year, my father quit his government job and took up
a high paying consultancy position in a top global technology firm in Mumbai. Our comfort levels
shot up significantly in terms of a luxurious house, a fancy new car, etc., – all the perks of father’s
new job. But once again I got off to a bitter start at my new school in Mumbai with another sad
one-sided love story. To my utter dismay, I was rejected once again. I remained depressed for a
long time not able to reconcile to the rejections.
An aunt who was quite religious had once told me, “Agastya, if you ever feel weak in life, pray
to Lord Hanuman. He will give you all the strength that you need.” So one day I accompanied my
parents to an old Hanuman temple. Although I was a little uncomfortable about the rituals, I started
praying to Lord Hanuman for strength and also read the Hanuman Chalisa in the temple. This
helped me immensely – much beyond my imagination. It helped me to free myself of the emotional
trauma that I was going through.

***

Once, I went with my family on a pilgrimage to a famous temple dedicated to Lord Shiva
located in northern India. The journey which took more than a week was a true test of physical
endurance as we spent each day in a different location.
When I entered the ancient temple, I felt an immense power pulsating through my body. I was
not sure how to react to this sensation. I started to pray to Lord Shiva for His blessings, especially
so that I would do well in my final year ISC exams, which were due soon. At that time I was not
sure of the result of my prayers. But I realised later how it helped me. Miraculously, I got all the
motivation I needed to study like a pro on my own (without tuitions) throughout the year and, to
add to my shock and then delight, I topped my class in the Science section. I was generally among
the top five of the class, but the number one position always eluded me making me feel that it was
unachievable! For the first time, I had finally accomplished this goal!
After this amazing success, I took admission in one of the top colleges in Mumbai University.
But all was not meant to go well during the next few years of my life. My college life suddenly
became like a prison sentence with only a few moments of freedom and entertainment.
The major reason for this was my ever growing desire to have a girlfriend. I had never been in
a serious relationship, and I desperately wanted to make friends with a girl – any girl. Finally, a
not-so-good friend of mine sympathized with my plight and supplied me with the contact numbers
of some girls. I was unaware that another tragedy was awaiting me.
I became phone friends with a pretty voice and when I met her, I wanted to run away since she
was nothing like what she had described herself to be. I gradually realized that in my desperation
to make friends with a stranger, I was only inviting trouble. As it was proved later, these
distractions just created havoc in my life. This crafty girl bound me in a fraudulent relationship.
However much I tried to escape, she didn’t let me, torturing me emotionally with sweet words and
deeds. I did not love her. In fact, I could never love her, but I still talked to her for hours every day
due to her demanding nature.
This horrible relationship led to my downfall, at least on materialistic grounds. From a hero in
my ISC exams, I became almost a zero. I could not concentrate on my studies and performed
poorly in my college exams. By the time I reached third year, my parents also came to know about
the girl and tried to convince me to stop talking to her. They felt that I was under some tantric
influence. I told them that I knew I was trapped, but was somehow just not able to move away
from her. I kept alive my communication with her secretly. This gradually led to a totally
inescapable situation for me.
However, there is always light even in darkness! At some point during this harrowing time,
my mother bought the Bhagavad Gita and a couple of other spiritual books from an exhibition she
had visited. I started reading the Gita just out of curiosity. It gave me immense bliss to know that
I am not this body but a spirit soul. It took me to the ultimate realms of love to redeem my battered
soul. Unfortunately, I could not complete my reading of the Holy Scripture.
During this phase of my life, my mind was restless and I was mentally under a lot of stress. I
was eager to learn meditation for peace of mind. I started reading books on how to overcome
mental tension and managed to reach temporary states of inner peace and joy.
I also gave up non-vegetarian food shortly after immersing myself in spiritual books. The more
I read about spirituality, whether in books or newspaper articles, the happier I became with my
new-found occupation. All these books and articles talked of peace, love, happiness and joy. That’s
all that mattered to a distressed and troubled soul like me who was trapped in an unhealthy
relationship.
 Though I suffered for about three years during that troubled relationship, I finally got the power
to move away it once I got connected to Reiki – the ever present beautiful loving energy of the
universe that helps and nourishes traumatised souls.
The introduction to Reiki and my interactions with my Reiki master changed my life forever.
I learnt that though similar to air in terms of its ability to sustain life, Reiki was far superior because
it was a spiritual energy and had the potential to take us beyond material sufferings.
During this time, I also discovered the Hare Krishna Mahamantra in a book. Lying on my bed
one night, I started chanting and continued doing so for some 30 minutes. It gave me immense
peace and the absolute joy that I had being craving for, for so long. I wanted that night’s experience
to remain rooted to eternity and noted it down in my memory bank as a special night in my life.
Within a couple of months of connecting with Reiki, I took the bold decision of going abroad
for the first time. I took a bank loan and headed to London Business School to pursue an MBA
rather than doing an M.Sc. in New Age Technology from a prestigious college in New Delhi. My
friends thought I was foolish to abandon the best institution (for New Age Technology) in Asia for
an MBA, especially because it had been my childhood dream to pursue technology as a career. I
still don’t have an answer for this change in decision. Only God knew why.

***

I was initially very lonely in London and missed my parents a lot. I spent my first few days at
a Christian guesthouse. I recollect reading some interesting spiritual books kept in the common
reading room. One among them that caught my attention the most was about the similarities
between spirituality in the East and the West. It was interesting to learn that spirituality still played
an important role in the lives of some people with assured faith; despite the fact that materialism
had become the common driving force across the globe.
Life in London was good once I had adapted to my independent life in the student
accommodation I was allotted. Even though I had made a few friends, I often craved the right
company to go clubbing with. But that never happened. However, I had enough time to access the
internet, and my passion for reading about spirituality and the lives of saints was satisfied to a great
extent.
The two saints who attracted me the most were Swami Vivekananda and Paramhansa
Yogananda. Autobiography of a Yogi by the latter became an addiction for me. I relished its
contents since it transported me to a far-removed spiritual world.
Karma Yoga by Swami Vivekananda became another favourite of mine and it partially
answered the one question that had always plagued me – ‘Why am I here?’ It said something like
‘...forget why you are here. You made a mistake by coming here. First correct it and then bother
about why it happened...there is a God and He does not need your help or mine....this universe is
like the tail of a dog, which can never be straightened....,’ giving me some kind of an answer to
my eternal question.
 Even though my MBA programme took up most of my time, I still managed to spare a few
hours every day to practice Reiki healing. I also started chanting the Mahamantra once again. Both
these activities gave me tremendous inner joy and peace. I tried hard to balance the highly
materialistic society I was living in with my spiritual practices and readings. After reading Swami
Vivekananda’s book on karma one night, I came to the conclusion that there is only one God and
that there were various paths that led to Him, and that I had to reach Him through one way or the
other. Soon after, I had another interesting thought – if there is a God, He must have a name too!
But my spiritual understanding had not yet evolved enough to be able to comprehend on what
God’s original name was.
I was about 22 years old when I returned to India. Since I didn’t want to settle abroad, I took
the first assignment that came my way to be able to come back to Mumbai.
When I reached home and entered my room, I saw a book on my table: Krsna: The Supreme
Personality of Godhead by A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, the founder-acharya of the
International Society for Krishna Consciousness or ISKCON. I later discovered that the book had
been gifted to my father by someone associated with the international organization.
I was curious to know who the young person on the cover page was and started reading the
book. The first couple of chapters took me to an entirely new world, never experienced before.
The words in the book awakened my spiritual mind and gave me immense bliss. The more I
read, the more my heart and mind opened up to new realities. However, when I came to understand
the startling details, such as God having more than 16,000 wives when on Earth more than 5,000
years ago, I was quite disturbed. My critical mind began to doubt that such events could ever have
taken place.
Despite my misgivings, I continued to read the book and gradually began to accept everything
about Lord Krishna. I felt as if something was pulling me towards Him and couldn’t understand
this strong attraction that I felt. In fact, one day I had a flash – suddenly I wanted to be a messenger
of Lord Krishna. Moreover, when I read about Vrindavan in the book, I became extremely curious
to visit it.
During the month of November or December, I went to Vrindavan with my family for the first
time. It was late in the evening when we reached. I was completely lost in the spiritually charged
atmosphere of the Banke Bihari temple, the most popular temple of Vrindavan. It was a night to
remember because when I saw the idol of Lord Krishna there, I became ecstatic. This memory of
my first visit to Vrindavan remained in my mind for several months thereafter. Time and again, I
would ask myself, Why am I so attracted to Lord Krishna? but I never got an answer.
After that wonderful trip to Vrindavan, I started working as an analyst in a financial
consultancy firm in Mumbai. There I met Pooja, a gorgeous looking girl with whom I had a dream
relationship with for three months before she shifted to Bangalore. We eventually drifted apart
because of the physical distance. But despite such a brief relationship, I remembered her for a long
time because I had finally found a girlfriend who also said she loved me. After a while I realised
that all this was distracting me from work and decided that I would not enter into any new
relationship again until I was sure that it would end in marriage.
 Even though I remained single after ending all communication with Pooja, my life gradually
became more joyful through my constant connection with Reiki and mantra chanting. I wanted to
just carry on living in Mumbai peacefully, but that was not meant to be. A year later, I went to
the US to meet an uncle because I wanted a change of job. My parents had also started to put
pressure on me by saying that an astrologer had predicted that I had no future in India. They
convinced me that I would have many more opportunities in the US to grow as a financial
consultant. Being an obedient son, I took (rather reluctantly) unpaid leave and travelled to USA to
see if I could start a new life there.
Before I proceed, I must mention that during my initial working days in Mumbai, I had started
spending a lot of time reading the Srimad Bhagavatam (a sacred Indian scripture consisting of
twelve cantos) on the internet in office. I happened to discover it quite randomly while searching
for spiritual books online.
I had no idea as to what the Bhagavatam was all about, but when I started reading it I was
transported into a different world. I discovered that it contained the answers to the mysteries of
this universe as well as discussions on spirituality. It also included many wonderful stories about
Lord Krishna and by the time I completed the twelfth canto, Krishna had already become the centre
of my life.

***

I was quite miserable when I landed in New York. I was reminded of my lonely days in
London. Moreover, I felt that the quality of life in the US had become completely bereft of
spirituality. Despite my desire for material comforts, I was still a spiritual seeker and all I saw
there were money seekers. The word ‘God’ seemed to have disappeared from the vocabulary of
the masses.
I spent about two months travelling across different states of the US and often compared the
similarities and differences between America and India. After a brief stay in the East coast, I
travelled westward to my uncle’s place in California. The town in which my uncle lived was in
sharp contrast to what I had seen in New York – it was neat and clean, very green, and received
plenty of sunshine. I made up my mind to look for a job in California.
While travelling and searching for a job in California, I came across and visited many churches
and temples, since I craved the peace and quiet found in places of worship to rejuvenate myself. It
felt good to be in such places but once I was out, the crazy busy schedule of modern living always
caught up with me. Even though I was on vacation, the environment in most American cities I
visited always made me feel uneasy.
Despite my desire to settle down in California, I soon realised that destiny had something else
in store for me. I was unable to find a suitable job in California and returned to New York to meet
someone my uncle recommended in one of the top global consultancy firms in Manhattan. I was
not happy to return to New York.
 Just before my interview I sat on a bench in Central Park feeling completely lost and defeated.
With tears in my eyes, I prayed to Krishna to forgive me for the sins I had committed to be brought
to planet Earth, a place where I was unable to find joy.
I realised in my heart that I did not want to be in the US anymore. I thought about what my
mother had said almost two months ago at the Mumbai airport before I left for the US. ‘Agastya,
I hope you are not coming back to India to settle. We want you to get the best job in the US.’ I
didn’t want to disappoint her and was hugely distressed about what to do. Here I was in the US,
but quite unhappy. Even though I was eventually offered a fantastic job in Manhattan, I decided
to take a chance with my destiny. I rejected the offer and took the earliest possible flight back
home to Mumbai.
My parents were very disappointed to know about my decision and when I resigned from my
existing job the very next day, they went into temporary shock. When they asked why I took such
a crazy step, I boldly replied, ‘I don’t care about material success. Krishna is my goal.’
My mother thought I had gone crazy. She wanted my father to take me to a counsellor who she
thought would be able to convince me to change my mind and return to work. I begged my parents
to support me for a year, promising to get back to a job if I was unable to progress spiritually by
then. So, for a year, I became unemployed and was determined to find Lord Krishna!

***

During my one year break I travelled to a lot of holy places in India such as Jagannath Puri,
Rameshwaram, Mathura and Vrindavan. I travelled to Vrindavan from Delhi with some of my old
friends. When we reached the Banke Bihari temple, I just stood before the idol of Lord Krishna in
the prayer hall and kept staring at him for a long time. All of a sudden my mind became completely
blank and I heard a voice in my head, ‘Why are you here Agastya?’
I replied spontaneously, ‘I want Krishna to take me back home’. Immediately I felt as if my
body was being bathed with love, flowing from the idol of the Lord. My friends looked at me
wondering why I had become so still.
I walked out of the temple in a trance. I felt that the Lord had entered into me and was talking
to me in my heart. It felt as if He was in full control of my body and I was merely an observer, a
co-passenger in the body. I did not speak to anyone during our return journey.
We stopped at a small resort for dinner on the way back. I was not in my senses and did not
eat anything. My friends were still trying to figure out what had happened to me. Despite their
repeated attempts to get me to talk, I stayed quiet. I somehow managed to say that I was fine.
Just as we were leaving the resort, I did something very strange. I grabbed the keys of the car
in which we were travelling from one of my friends. I got inside the car and locked the doors
before my friends could enter. They were surprised and started knocking frantically, but I did not
open the doors.
The car was parked in front of a closed gate which led to the highway. I put the key into the
ignition, closed my eyes and pressed on the accelerator. In my heart I was screaming, ‘Prabhu
please take me home.’ I smashed through the gates with my eyes still closed until the car hit the
divider on the highway and the air bags popped out. I was in a weird state of consciousness. I just
couldn’t understand why I attempted something so crazy! But since I was wearing a seat belt, I
didn’t get injured. I was helped out of the mangled car by my friends who were needless to say, in
a state of shock.
For a brief moment, I had a bizarre thought that I was going to die and that a yamdoot (agent
of death) had come to take my soul away. But this thought disappeared within moments, and I
came back to my senses feeling awfully embarrassed about what I had just done. Luckily, I did not
have any external injuries and seemed to be fine, so we did not bother going to a doctor. However,
the car had got badly damaged and we had to call for a taxi to take us back to Delhi. No one spoke
during the remaining journey – all of us were shaken up by my abnormal behaviour that night.
Within a few days of this incident, I got in touch with my Reiki Master in Mumbai. I considered
him to be my spiritual guide and narrated the story of the car crash to him. He said that I could be
suffering from some kind of chemical imbalance in my brain due to mental stress or shock. He
performed a Reiki healing session on me and advised me to see a doctor later. I decided to take his
advise and visited a doctor who prescribed some medicines to calm me down. The doctor felt that
I was creating too much stress for myself by my constant travelling to holy places. I chose to end
my travels with one final trip to Bodh Gaya to visit the famous temple dedicated to Gautama
Buddha. I went there with just one close friend.
At Gaya I came across a babaji who seemed to know everything about my past life. As soon
as he saw me he asked, ‘So son, do you remember the ashram you meditated in, in your previous
life?’
I was stunned! I could not speak. He then told my friend, ‘Your friend Agastya is not an
ordinary boy. He may be ignored when he speaks, but when he eventually speaks up, the
Paramatma (the Supersoul) Himself will speak through him.’
I was happy to hear this but did not know how to react. The babaji looked a little frustrated
with my behaviour. He gazed into my eyes fiercely and said, ‘Agastya, whatever you ask for in
life, you will get easily’.
I replied simply in Hindi, ‘Whatever God wants for me should happen’.
He told me that he knew that I was in search of the Truth and would find it soon. I had my
doubts about this but thanked him nevertheless. I thought that I should note down everything he
said to me, just in case they came true sometime in the future!
Anyway, after my trip to Bodh Gaya, I decided to spend some time in Mumbai and absorb all
that I had experienced over the last several months. In particular, I reflected upon my visits to
Vrindavan and Bodh Gaya and wondered if there was actually something extraordinary about me.
I even wrote a book titled Krishna to reflect upon my understandings on spirituality and Lord
Krishna, but no one gave me a good enough feedback to motivate me to publish it. My one-year
“leave” from the mundane worldly life was coming to an end, and I had still not found Lord
Krishna. I started getting restless and gradually, depression seeped in. Life felt meaningless and I
started losing faith in chanting and healing too. I felt that there was no one to help me because it
was not visible to me.
By early next year, I rejoined my old company in Mumbai with much embarrassment to myself.
When I had left abruptly a year ago, I had lied to my boss that I would be going abroad for a new
assignment. Luckily, no one in the office asked much about what I had been up to for one year. I
somehow managed to readjust to my old 9:30-5:30 routine. It was painful initially since I was on
medication and also because I had been out of touch with the world for so long. But I slowly began
to readapt and after a few months, restarted my Reiki healing too. That improved my well-being
greatly and also started clearing up my life.
Within a couple of yearss my life was about to change forever in the most unbelievable manner.
One morning my uncle from California called to inform me about a new course in the area of
financial management at the University of California, Berkeley. The course guaranteed jobs to all
students after the successful completion of the programme. My mother happened to be around
when the call came. She was thrilled to hear about the new opportunity. ‘Agastya, I’ve been telling
you. Your future lies in the US, not in India. Apply for the course quickly and pack your bags. I am
not going to let you play with your destiny this time,’ she said excitedly.
I followed my mother’s orders and was a little surprised when I received the letter for
admission since the criterion was quite tough for the limited seats. I was instantly reminded of the
babaji’s words about me getting whatever I asked for easily. Perhaps what he told me was a divine
message. I was excited since I was beginning to get bored with my job in Mumbai and with Krishna
nowhere in sight; I thought that maybe life would change once I shifted to the US.

***

My flight to Los Angeles landed on time and the cool autumn breeze welcomed me, gently
soothing my mood and revitalizing my senses.
Life at Berkeley was good. The atmosphere there was such that I soon became a depression-
free man! I had achieved the impossible and was pleased with my progress. However, I remained
a mediocre student because I had been out of touch with academics for a long time. Since most of
my classmates had better work experience than I did, I felt incompetent for the first time in my
life. I had managed a distinction for my MBA in London but here I was still struggling. My peers
at Berkeley were intelligent and this gave me an inferiority complex. Reflecting on my school days
when I was often the teacher’s favourite and among the top five, I could now understand what the
others at the bottom felt. I had never thought about how difficult it could be to comprehend what
was being taught in class since I generally grasped things in the first go. Things were different now
and I had to put in a lot of effort to maintain my academic standing.
Anyhow, besides focussing on my education, I managed to take out time to boost my spiritual
life. My healing, chanting and meditation on Lord Krishna gradually increased during this period.
I felt my intelligence improving slowly and my health got better too. I became fitter physically as
I shed the extra kilos I had gained while leading a sedentary lifestyle in Mumbai. I restarted reading
spiritual books and Swami Prabhupada’s book which talked about Lord Chaitanya Mahaprabhu
soon became one of my favourites. I would enter into a zone of ecstasy just by reading about the
Lord!
At the end of my academic programme at Berkeley, I was offered an opportunity in a financial
services firm. But the catch was that I would have to first take up the position in New York for
two years before I could get a placement in Los Angeles. I was not very keen to live in New York
but did not want to gamble with my destiny anymore so I finally agreed to relocate. Since I had
lost all hope of leading a happy life in India, I assumed that God had something else in store for
me here in the US.
In New York I had to stay with a distant aunt for a few weeks till I found suitable
accommodation in Manhattan. She had a lovely lavish home in a posh locality on the outskirts of
the city. Both uncle and aunty were successful lawyers earning a lot of money.
While I was physically very comfortable there, I was emotionally very disturbed because they
were both very money minded and did not believe in the existence of God. I tried to maintain a
balance by keeping up with my healing, chanting and long walks in the evenings after work. I was
really relieved when I finally found accommodation in the heart of Manhattan, and moved out
immediately.
After completion of my first year at work, I took a few weeks off and went to meet an old
friend who lived in London. This time I somehow seemed to like London, maybe because I was
relaxed and also had a secure job. I spent a lot of time walking along the Thames River constantly
chanting God’s names and this gave me immense pleasure. I also enjoyed the beauty of the London
Eye and Westminster Abbey, and the scene of Canary Wharf from Waterloo Bridge lifted my
spirits. I was feeling good and I just couldn’t believe that I was the same person who had thought
that life was meaningless just a few years ago. I had become tougher – physically, mentally and
spiritually.
I got back to New York re-energized. My performance at work improved and when my boss
asked me the secret of my happiness and motivation, I replied, ‘Lord Krishna.’
She wanted to know more so one day I took her with me to a temple close to our office. She
was mesmerised by the idol of the Lord even though she was a Buddhist and did not believe in
idol worship. After the darshan we had some prasadam. She loved the experience and thanked me
for showing her the secret of my happiness!
During this happy phase of my life, I felt that it was my practice of Reiki and the Vaishnava
acharyas that guided me in my quest for Krishna. I was clear that serving Lord Krishna and
awakening deep love for Him in my heart were the only goals of my life. I was confident that one
day He would bless me and help me to achieve these goals.

***

I was 28 when I came back home to India for one of my usual holiday trips. During a spiritual
retreat in Haridwar, I experienced something unusual. I found that I was just not able to think
clearly. My mind blanked out and I felt free of all emotions and thoughts for a short while. I was
in a state of “I am,” just silently conscious of my surroundings.
When I came back to my “normal” senses, I told one of the rishis about what I had just
experienced. He laughed heartily, ‘Son, something very special is about to happen in your life very
soon.’
In a flash I was reminded of what I had heard in my dream several years ago, and the word
“soon” got engraved in my mind once again. I was excited and started speculating about what
would happen. Was I going to heaven? Was I going to become a great spiritual guru? Or was I
going to see Lord Krishna Himself? The last question appeared to be too unrealistic since I had
always believed that like air, God cannot be seen with the human eyes.
Anyway, I returned to the US soon after and got busy with my work. I briefly forgot about
what had happened to me in Haridwar. A few weeks later, I started noticing something very
strange. The number ‘1’ started appearing to me everywhere – whether it was in a grocery store
or a movie hall, in the newspaper or on television, this number kept showing up much more than
any other number. Initially I ignored it, but when I realised that it would just not stop, I started to
assume that it was perhaps an indication of something more important. I tried to guess what it
represented. Was it a code? Was it a date? Or did it have something to do with numerology? I
spent hours on the internet trying to find some relevance but I wasn’t able to make any meaningful
connections.
It was the month of February. On the morning of 23rd, I went for a stroll in Central Park. I
took a break and sat on a bench and looked up at the clear sky. I suddenly felt an uneasy sensation
in my heart. My immediate thought was that maybe I was having a heart attack. But the feeling
subsided and was followed by a strange sense of being. I became desireless! All my worries
disappeared. All my aspirations and goals faded away. In fact, my very desire to live dissolved. I
felt completely empty and became a living machine.
For the next few days, I did everything mechanically – just for the sake of doing them – without
any feelings or desire, but only out of necessity, such as going to office and coming back home,
eating, sleeping and so on. My mind had become partially inactive but my soul was conscious.
Time seemed to have almost stopped for me. It was a strange and somewhat scary development. I
felt like an observer, residing in my own the body, listening to and seeing everything around me.
On 25th February, I took a cab to work and asked for a few days off since I was not feeling
well. I couldn’t explain what was wrong with me so I told my boss that I had a severe migraine
and would visit the doctor that same day.
I passed that day lying in bed without any thoughts or feelings. By night time I was better and
was able to feel some emotions in my heart again. I forced myself out of my apartment and went
for a meal to a Mexican restaurant. To my pleasant surprise I bumped into Bhavna, a close friend
there. She was with her family to celebrate her son’s birthday. I was relieved to have some
company because it helped me to deal with my present condition of not being able to think or
desire.
 Bhavna sensed that something was wrong with me since I was not talking much. She assumed
that I had had a bad day at work, so she said, ‘Hey Agastya, why do you work so much all the
time? Have you ever taken a vacation to do nothing? I know that even during your holidays you
end up travelling extensively, and hardly give yourself any time.’
Bhavna was right. In my quest for Krishna I had become a spiritual workaholic! I’m not sure
what that means but that is how I can describe myself at that time. Either I was working or healing
or chanting or reading spiritual books. I never sat idle and did nothing! That night I decided that I
would get back home and for once in my life, would sit and do nothing! When I reached home, I
sat in silence not doing anything. I suddenly felt great peace.
I did not know that I was going to experience an extraordinary event in a few days. The night
of 25th passed easily: I dreamt that I was playing cricket in a stadium and was in a T-shirt with the
number ‘1’ written on the back! But before I could even start to enjoy the match, I was rudely
woken up by my alarm clock. It was 10:00 am! I had forgotten that I was being chased by the
number ‘1’ for a long time, but after the dream and then the time, I was once again reminded of
this mystical number.
I became restless. I was sure that something would happen to me very soon. Why was I seeing
the number over and over again? There had to be a reason. As a student of spiritual science I had
learnt that there are no coincidences in life. In my particular situation, coincidence was too mild
a term for what I was experiencing. I felt an unusual urge to get the newspaper from the local
grocery store. It was unusual because I hardly ever bothered to read the paper, that too on a cold
February morning!
Anyhow, I jumped out of bed, had a cup of coffee, took a shower and walked down to get the
newspaper. I picked up the local newspaper and read the headline ‘Earthquake Predicted in
Argentina on March 1’. I realised that 1st March was fast approaching. My heart began to pound
and my palms started sweating. Is this the event which I was seeing signs for, for so long? Was
there going to be a catastrophe? Was I going to die? These were the questions that came to my
mind instantly. My thoughts stopped abruptly when I looked up at the sky. In an instant, I became
unconscious.

***

I found myself in a hospital when I woke up. The time on the clock showed 11:30 am, so I
realised that I was not out for too long. As I slowly sat up on the bed, a doctor told me what had
happened. He said, “Your tests show that you are suffering from some kind of a shock and suggest
that you have an imbalance in your brain. By the way, have you been sleeping well lately? Have
you witnessed anything unusual in your thinking pattern?”
I was hesitant to reply. I did not want to tell him about the state I had achieved. I had, by now,
become somewhat proud of being desireless and almost thoughtless! So I lied to him and just said
that all was well with me. I don’t think he bought my story and hence gave me some pills to take
for a month. But that very evening I forgot to take my pill! Possibly due to the problem the doctor
said I had in my head, I could not sleep all night and started writing an email to a close friend in
Mumbai about my experiences. I told him that I felt that my life was coming to an end because I
had become desireless. He responded almost immediately advising me to continue with the
prescribed medication. I was not happy with his response. I expected some support and comfort,
and therefore, felt like I was being deserted. Besides, my friend felt that something was seriously
wrong with me and he told my father about my email.
The next morning my father called me to come back to Mumbai for a short while. He was
convinced that I could not take care of myself alone, given the history of my carelessness with
medicines. He refused to entertain my pleas and was adamant that I return. I gave in finally and
bought a ticket to Mumbai for 2nd March, the earliest I could get since all flights were booked
until then. I was in no mood to ask my boss for leave again but had to. She was unhappy about it
but finally gave in.
For the next two days I became like a machine again and simply followed the instructions that
came to me externally or internally. I would sit in the New York trains and travel from one random
location to another the entire day. I just did whatever my heart was attracted to.
On the first night, I suddenly felt an urge to go to a night club. I took a cab to Broadway. I
walked through the busy lanes and landed up outside a club. I paid the 5-dollar entry fee and got
myself a drink. I stood at the side of the dance floor and spent some time enjoying watching people
dance. At around 2 am, as I started walking towards Broadway, a poor woman approached me and
asked if I could spare some change.
I had had an earnest desire to have a conversation with a beggar for a long time, whether on
the streets in India or when I was in UK, to know the reason for their pathetic condition. But I
never had the courage to confront them. That night I had the guts. I asked the poor woman how
much money she wanted from me. She looked shocked. I don’t remember what she said. I then
asked her how she had landed up in this pitiful state. She told me that she had come from another
city after running away from her husband who used to beat her up and showed me a cracked tooth.
She said that she needed about 20 dollars to get accommodation in a shelter and she even took me
to the place which was close by. I decided to give her the money without thinking twice.
I took her to an ATM and since I was not in my full senses, asked her to type in the amount
she wanted. She was shocked again! So then I told her to withdraw 30 dollars. I also asked her if
she believed in God. She said she did and told me that she was a ‘twice born’. I did not understand
what she meant but was moved by her condition and wanted to comfort her. I told her to treat me
like a brother and held her rough hands in mine and tried to soothe her with words that I cannot
remember.
As we parted ways she asked if I would come back to the same place again the next day. I told
her I would. As she started walking away, tears of love and compassion suddenly poured down
my cheeks. I knew she saw them because she immediately came back, gave me a hug and a
beautiful kiss on my cheek. I felt that kiss on my cheek for a long time even after she had left.
I forgot my promise to meet her the next day. After spending the whole day lazing around at
home, I decided to go for a bus ride at night. After travelling for some time, I got off the bus and
took another one from across the street to come back home. I could not figure out why I was doing
such bizarre things. As I sat in the last seat of the bus, a girl got on to the bus and told the driver
that she had lost her wallet and requested for a free ride. He refused and was adamant even when
she kept pleading with him. No one else in the bus came forward to say or do anything about it. I
got up from my seat, went up to the driver and gave him a 10 dollar note and returned to my seat.
Everyone turned to look at me and the girl thanked me profusely saying loudly that good people
still existed. When the driver returned the change, she came to give it to me but I requested her to
keep it as she did not have any money. She thanked me and found a seat near the front and the bus
started moving. I reached home late that night but do not recall much of what all happened during
the next 24 hours.
All I remember from that night as I lay on my bed was a voice that sounded like mine, talking
to me and continuing all night while I remained a silent witness to the monologue. I connected the
voice to be that of Shri Krishna Himself. However, there was no evidence to prove this strange
experience. But I knew it was Him. He narrated lots of stories and I listened in rapturous attention
without resistance. The words flowed into my heart and my mind was calm. As the one-sided talk
continued, I began to feel the absence of the life force in my heart and soon my body became still.
I felt as if Lord Krishna was trying hard to sustain my life but I on the other hand, seemed to have
completely lost my desire to live.
Lord Krishna kept entertaining my spiritual heart with all kinds of stories and kept me
mesmerised. I kept wondering about whether they were true or not since they were beyond my
comprehension. But whether I agreed or disagreed was totally irrelevant since the connection and
flow were constant. I do not recollect if I slept that night since I was totally absorbed in the Lord.
I dragged myself out of bed in the morning and looked out of the window. It had been about
three days since the sun was visible in Manhattan. It was around 9:30 am. I looked at the sun
briefly and then looked to my left. I suddenly saw a white image emerging against a golden
background. The image gradually became clearer and transformed into a shining sword. I looked
out of the window once again before closing my eyes.
All of a sudden, I felt my third eye getting activated and even through my closed eyes, I could
see a glorious early morning orange coloured sky with small cloud formations in front of me. It
was like dawn. The picture soon changed to a soothing, gentle and soft light bluish-grey sky and
then suddenly…

I SAW KRISHNA – THE SUPREME PERSONALITY OF GODHEAD

(just like He was in the book I had found on my table in Mumbai), but in an entirely different get-
up. He was descending from what seemed to me like the spiritual sky. I kept looking at Him in
awe. I don’t remember for how long I witnessed that marvellous sight.
As soon as I opened my eyes the vision was gone.
I remained in a dazed state for a long time. As I gradually came back to my senses, I looked at
my watch and it was exactly 10:00 am. Had I been dreaming or had I awakened to a new reality?
I could not tell. I stood in front of a mirror and when I saw my face, I could see a beautiful, mystical
glow. Had Lord Krishna entered into my body? All my questions were to be answered very soon
but until then, I felt like a zombie residing in some alien body!
Apart from having the most beautiful, dazzling vision of THE SUPREME LORD SHRI
KRISHNA on 1st March 2009, the rest of the day was quite uneventful. The earthquake in
Argentina never happened! And I decided to stay indoors because my body was completely
exhausted after experiencing that amazing vision of Lord Krishna.
My heart gradually began to feel itself again and thoughts about daily life also started coming
back. I felt an inner calm because I had finally seen the Lord of my heart and the mystery of the
number ‘1’ was also resolved. I wondered if I would ever see God again. I was filled with sadness.
I was suddenly so close to Krishna yet so far. I started praying fervently and begged Him to talk
to me.
As my prayers intensified, my eyes filled with tears and my heart experienced the unbearable
pain of separation from the Lord. I reflected on my entire life and my spiritual journey, which had
ultimately brought me to Krishna. I became very anxious to know why Lord Krishna had revealed
Himself to me. From the bookish knowledge I had, I knew that God could not be seen with the
ordinary human eye. So why did Lord Krishna only choose me?
That night I sat on my bed with folded hands reflecting upon the vision of the Lord I had
experienced. I was plagued with doubts....was it possible that I was just hallucinating? Or was I
mentally unwell and needed some serious treatment?
My heart just did not want to accept what my mind was thinking. I loved Shri Krishna more
than my life and if this was all an illusion of my mind, I was not interested in carrying on with this
miserable existence.
My final prayer before falling asleep was, ‘Krishna please take me back home as soon as
possible.’
When I woke up the next morning, my body felt very light. I felt that I had lost a few kilos! I
vaguely remembered my vision of the previous day and hoped that it was real. But how would I
know? Who could tell me the significance of what I had seen? I decided to wait patiently for more
signs to tell me what was going on.
I went for a walk in Central Park to clear my head and get some fresh air. While walking I
suddenly heard a voice in my heart, ‘You are now ready. Talk to you soon.’
I was very excited and pondered over what it could mean. Was it the voice of Lord Krishna
that I heard again? I decided to test myself. I replied in my mind, ‘Is this the voice of God?’ I did
not get an answer. I was unhappy but got the strength to be patient. When I got back home, I
opened up my laptop. But instead of getting onto the internet, I was guided to open a blank word
document. I decided to experiment with ‘auto writing’ which I had recently learnt about. I had
discovered that a lot of people in the world had started connecting with divine beings and angels
through this form of writing. And that night I became eager to communicate with Lord Krishna
through it too.
 My mind and heart were restless, so I first prayed in silence for a few minutes for help to
connect with Krishna. When I felt that I was calm enough to begin, I just started typing whatever
came to my mind, without thinking.

That is how my direct communication began with Lord Krishna!

 PART II

DIRECT TALKS
WITH
LORD KRISHNA
March 2, 2009 – My First Communication

KRISHNA, PLEASE WRITE THROUGH ME. THANK YOU.

As soon as I typed the above prayer, magic began to happen!

KRISHNA: I LOVE YOU, AGASTYA.

AGASTYA: Prabhu, I surrender at Your lotus feet forever.

KRISHNA: So my child, are you enjoying this fantasy?

AGASTYA: You know everything, Krishna. Why did You keep me waiting for all these years,
Prabhu?

KRISHNA: Son, it was not Me but you who kept Me waiting. I have been eager to talk to you for
a long time now – ever since you came to My temple in Vrindavan for the first time but you
were not ready.

AGASTYA: Why was I not ready?

KRISHNA: Your karma had to be purified. But now I am here, son.

AGASTYA: I am very excited Prabhu...my hands are trembling as I am typing.

KRISHNA: I can see that. Calm down!

AGASTYA: Prabhu, I have too many questions in my mind. I think I’m going insane.

KRISHNA: What is your first question, Agastya?

AGASTYA: Why me?

KRISHNA: Because you are very special to Me.

AGASTYA: What is the purpose of this auto typing? Why can’t we just talk face to face?

KRISHNA: Your (material) eyes are not yet purified to see Me clearly. I have already revealed
Myself to your spiritual eyes. So what will you get by seeing Me again?

AGASTYA: Joy.

KRISHNA: Son, I am infinite. I can give you joy in infinite ways. So let us begin our official talk
which you can record for the masses to read. These are testing times for the planet and people
have forgotten Me. You are a rare soul who has held on tightly to My devotion and I want you
to show the world through this auto typing that God speaks through a pure soul. So, document
our talks in the form of a book.

AGASTYA: Prabhu, then please help me to make this a successful book which can be read with
joy by all Your devotees on the planet.

KRISHNA: Do one thing. Call Me ‘K’ in the rest of the book.

AGASTYA: And myself?

K: ‘A’!

A: I am exhausted after Your vision yesterday. There are so many things I want to know from
You to share with the world. I want Your direct help this time. The last time I made an attempt
to glorify You through my book Krishna, it was a disaster. Hardly anyone gave a good feedback.
I believe people don’t think of You with much respect. In fact, one fellow told me that Krishna
was just an ordinary king. I was so angry that I walked away immediately.

K: Hmm...

A: Prabhu, when I present this book to anyone, they will think I am crazy because I am claiming
to talk directly with God.

K: But son, don’t you agree that books on “dialogues with God” have generally been a great
success?

A: Yes, Krishna. Such books become successful because the authors make predictions about
future events using God’s name. The problem is that people believe only if you tell them
something or do something magical such as predicting the future. I do not have any such
powers even though in my heart I know that I am talking with You. I keep chanting Your name
all the time. I remember You in whatever I do – in good times and in bad; and I do my Reiki
healing to connect with Your love. I am convinced – but how do I convince others? Prabhu,
please help.

K: As our dialogues proceed, people will believe that I am talking with you.

A: But how? Please don’t let these conversations come from my lower mind, my false ego.

K: Don’t worry. Only because you finally gave up hope in life that I knew you were ready to
connect with Me. As we continue, this book will look more and more convincing to people with
faith. People who want scientific proof that Krishna is actually talking with Agastya through
auto writing on his laptop can remain in ignorance for as long as they like. My existence can
only be revealed by Me to whoever I personally choose. I do not reveal Myself to proof-seekers
simply because I want them to fulfil their material desires first, such as making modern life
more comfortable, disease-free and peaceful. Whether they are able to fulfil their desires or
not is a different story altogether.

A: What about Your devotees on the planet. Will they buy my book?

K: Some of them may not.

A: Why is that, Prabhu? Why would they not buy the book?

K: Because there are some things that we will discuss that they would not agree with.

A: Is that the entire answer or is there more to it?

K: There’s no more to it.

A: Is there any way I can make these people buy my book?

K: Why are you getting stuck with just one issue? Grow up son. I know that deep in your heart
you have a problem with the accents of some of My non-Indian devotees. Also, you consider
some of the organisations associated with Me as money-making institutions, don’t you?

A: Prabhu, I think I will be shot dead after anyone with faith in You reads what You have just
guided me to write! Please tell me that what You said was just a representation of my own
anger. Please, Prabhu.

K: Re-read what I have just said and then comment!

A: Krishna, is there any hidden motive for what You are telling me?

K: What could be My motive, son?

A: I don’t know. I give up. Please tell me.

K: Okay. Agastya, is it not true that you tend to judge people when you don’t like something
about them, such as their accent?

A: It is true.

K: Well, that’s what I wanted to hear from you. I know that it is not easy to be non-judgemental
and non-critical about people. But I will tell you a secret to help you to get rid of this negative
quality easily. Simply remember the following words: Please stop judging others before you
have perfected yourself.
A: That is a wonderful and inspiring message.

K: The reason I am saying this is that in today’s world several religious and spiritual
organisations are under attack and face severe criticism not only from atheists and non-
believers but also from each other. If people stop judging one another, they would become
more tolerant and there would be fewer conflicts between groups with different points of
views.

A: I feel a little embarrassed to see my own judgemental nature but thank You so much for
showing me this. I love You. Even though I am tired, I am enjoying this communication with
You. Please help me to continue writing without any difficulty.

K: You are most welcome My lovely child!

A: Prabhu, I cannot believe that I am able to sit and talk to You like this even though I have been
connecting with You in my heart for so long.

K: That’s because you were not ready to believe that I can write through you. If I could reveal
Myself to you, something that I rarely do, then you silly boy, why did you not think of or try to
communicate this way earlier?

A: I guess I was obsessed with my own personal realisations about God and spirituality. That is
why I decided to write the book, Krishna. What else could I do?

K: Son, it is very easy to get caught up in one’s own realisations. So that is why in your case, I
purposely did not let your book become a success because if it did, you would stop your
spiritual quest thinking that you had already found God in the form of Krishna. Then your heart
would never have got purified enough to be able to see Me clearly.

A: ...Krishna, You’ve brought tears to my eyes.

K: I love you so much son...never hesitate to pray to Me before taking any major decisions in
your life. I always hear your prayers. I am not deaf. I hear everyone, not just you my child. Even
if an ant remembers that it is not an ant but My child, I will still help it to come back home to
Me.

A: Prabhu, where is Your home?

K: In your spiritual heart. In every soul’s spiritual heart.

A: What about Goloka Vrindavan?

K: That’s like My party home! My land of love and light, eternally, which is blissfully filled with
enchantment, joy, love, peace, fun, and much more. When you leave this physical body, I will
take you to that home – Goloka. But My home is also eternally in your spiritual heart, so when
you connect with Me through any spiritual practice, you are back home... for a short while.
Then again when you forget Me, you go back to your physical consciousness, the pains and
daily sufferings and mundane pleasures such as sex.

A: Krishna, I am really enjoying this conversation. Even though my body is now beginning to
tire, I just want to carry on typing without stopping. I have already written quite a bit in a short
span of time.

K: Son, that is your pride speaking. Pride can be very dangerous, as it prevents the soul from
acknowledging that God is Supreme.

A: Is there an easy way to get rid of pride?

K: Yes, there is. Just say a short prayer to God to free you of pride easily and painlessly. Again,
remember, God is not deaf.

A: What about the complaint that prayers are often answered too late or with much delay?

K: That is because I only give what is beneficial and useful for the long-term evolution of the
soul. If you are in a desert and pray to Me for an ice-cream, I will obviously not oblige. I will give
you water. But you will not see that act of kindness of God because you were craving for
something less beneficial for your survival. So by the time you get your ice-cream, you may
think it came too late, but actually it was not in your best interest to receive it before
addressing your survival needs. Got it?

A: Wow! I never thought like that before!

K: Any more questions on this first day of our talks?

A: I am feeling very happy talking to You, Prabhu. This is in contrast to how I sometimes feel
when I reflect on all the challenges and situations that I have faced in this life.

K: Please don’t meditate on the unhappy events of the past. Instead, meditate on what made
you happy or what makes you happy or what will make you happy.

A: Thank You. Thank You again. I cannot live without Your loving presence anymore.

K: Take care for now. We will continue this happy communication again when you are ready.

A: And You?
K: I am always ready. God is watching over His children and creation 24/7! Goodnight son.
Always remember, God knows what is best for you. So whenever you pray, surrender all your
worries and anxieties to Me.

A: I will try that next time. Thank You, Krishna.

March 3 – My Doubt
A: Prabhu, today I thought about our talk of yesterday. I was worried that it was only my own
imagination. But after contemplating on it, I feel that you are actually here. How do I get rid of
this doubt? Doctors have told me that I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. How can I
handle the people who will totally deride me and my book and advise me to take further
treatment? How can I handle all that, Prabhu?

K: Son, there are many people who claim to be sent by God or God themselves and have a huge
fan following. What would you say about them? If people say you are crazy to be talking to God
through auto writing, tell them that, yes, you are crazy! That will lighten you up easily.

A: Thank you for soothing me, Sir. Strange I am calling You, my God, “Sir”!

K: That is just a state of mind which can change and it is good that you are flexible. It becomes
easier for Me to write through you like this. Suppose you were rigid and stuck with rules and I
made you write something that was beyond your bookish knowledge or beyond your grasp, you
would either change it forcibly or not write it at all. That is why – just keep flowing with the
writing and more and more faith will come as the book progresses. Trust me Agastya, your
book will help some souls to remember Me once again.

A: Krishna, I don’t feel like writing on my own anymore. I am enjoying being a silent typist. I
wish you could go on without my asking any more questions.

K: I can go on 24/7 son, but for you to keep up speed, you need to strengthen your mind and
body first. What else do you want to know for tonight?

A: My mind is blank but at peace.

K: That is a great state to be in. We will continue later when you have something to ask or when
you get desperate to communicate with Me this way. I love you son. You are doing a fabulous
job on Earth.

A: Thank You, Krishna.

K: You are most welcome, son.

March 5 – The Inner Space
A: Prabhu, I don’t know what to talk about today, but I still want to connect with You. In fact, I
am a little disturbed about my external environment. I find life so materialistic, and that makes
me want to just run away to a secluded place to meditate on You.

K: Agastya, I know that your environment has been troubling you for a long time. You are
finding it hard to balance material life with spirituality. But I want to assure you that things are
improving internally in your heart and there will be an external change in your environment
soon. Just focus on strengthening your inner space; and the more you succeed, the faster the
environment around you will fill with peace, love, light and joy. You do not need to hide from
the world in order to be happy.

A: But Krishna, I’m sure there are other humans on the planet right now who have strong inner
spaces... so why do I hardly see any environment filled with peace, love, light and joy in today’s
world?

K: Your vision is limited by your inner and past conditioning, son. Once your inner space
strengthens, you will stop connecting with what you do presently – such as treating problems
like problems. If you hear about accidents or violence, it does not mean that peace, love, light
and joy do not exist in the environment around you. These beautiful energies are always
present to comfort victims of such traumas. Obviously they may never realise that a Higher
Power of purity around them is comforting them, but you will begin to see that with your
spiritual vision.

A: I wonder if people will understand what you just guided me to write. I am sorry to be a little
doubtful and confused about all the inner space strengthening process. Please clarify what it
means.

K: Your inner space is a space of silence which is filled with peace, love, light and joy. Everyone
experiences connection with this inner space from time to time, such as when one is sitting in a
temple or a place of worship and listening to the prayers being offered to the Divine. One can
also connect with the inner space in a very relaxing or beautiful environment such as by the
seaside, river or in a garden.

A: How can we strengthen our inner space?

K: The inner space can be strengthened the most by remembering Me, My expansions or
messengers by any name such as Krishna, Ram, Allah, Shiva, Jesus and many more. You can also
learn some other forms of meditation to be performed regularly, such as sitting in silence for a
while every day or chanting mantras, slokas, or prayers as much as possible. And finally, the
inner space expands through selfless acts of giving to the needy who ask for help.

A: Krishna, I am again beginning to feel that I am writing to myself. What to do, Prabhu? I really
want to get rid of this stubborn doubt that it is You and not me, who is writing through me.

K: Be patient. Time is a great healer.

A: Thank You for that message.

K: Take care.
March 6 – The Purpose of Life
A: Prabhu, I would like to know the purpose of life today.

K: Why, what is troubling you now?

A: Krishna, I fear losing this connection with You.

K: Your query on the purpose of life is answered through what you have just written. There is
no one purpose of life. There are many. But one of the topmost purposes of life is to become
free of fear of the unknown. Death is also an “unknown” to living beings. Once you are free of
this fear of the unknown, then you can accomplish all your activities in life joyfully because you
will not be scared of the outcome of your actions. Whether you achieve success or failure for
your efforts, whether you are alive or not tomorrow, such thoughts will no longer trouble you.
But note that I am talking about the state of fearlessness in which your actions are positive and
not negative. I am not talking about actions which are sometimes carried out of temporary
states of boldness, such as in the case of murders, suicide bombings, robberies and so on.

A: How can one become free of the fear of the unknown? What about the fear of pain, or other
types of fears?

K: Pain is also a part of the unknown in the sense that no one really knows beforehand how
painful it is to have unwanted pains – such as diseases, traumas or accidents if and when they
arise. So one knows neither the intensity of a particular type of pain nor the timing of the pain.

Overcoming fear of the unknown will remove all other kinds of fears as well. How can one
overcome this fear? There is no shortcut or one point answer to this question. Various tools will
have to be used in order to achieve this most amazing goal or life purpose. Since the benefits of
fearlessness are immeasurable, the efforts to achieve the goal must also have some weight. For
someone who is very fearful about almost everything in life, about success or failure, about
relationships and so on, the initial journey will be tough. Most people in today’s world fall in
that category. Fear of the unknown is what drives the world to work, whether for selfish
motives or for charity. This internal fear leads most people to try to please the demi-gods in
exchange for the forgiveness of sins.

A: So where and how does one start?

K: The easiest way to start is through a prayer to God or any Divine Being, angels or other
representatives of Mine. Ask them to help you become free of fear of the unknown. This can
and should be repeated every day, whether once, twice or 100 times, depending on the time
one can give. That would depend on how badly you want to be free of fear! Fear is a negative
energy, which completely blocks the full potential of the human soul from shining forth. For
those who do not believe in God, an easy way is to use affirmations, rather than prayers. If
someone is serious about getting rid of fear, I bless that child of Mine with the strength to not
only become free of fear of the unknown easily and thus satisfy unfulfilled desires effortlessly,
but also give him/her the chance to help others to become fearless. Generally, saints of all
faiths rid themselves of fear from their consciousness and thus when they meditate, higher and
higher truths are revealed to them since they are open to receiving information about the
unknown. So prayers, affirmations and meditation are excellent tools to use. Again, remember,
when you are using any of these methods keep your goal in mind. You are searching for the
unknown – the fearlessness – something that you have not achieved ever before. So your fear
is hidden in this search itself. What if I do not get what I want? What if I do not become
fearless? If you remember this and try to dispel thoughts about the results and surrender your
anxiety and worries to Me, I will help you beyond your comprehension. As you progress, there
will be signs to tell you that you are doing well and must carry on the journey.

A: Krishna, I am feeling a little tired typing so much. Can I please read it once because...yes, I am
again fearful that maybe it makes no sense and is coming from my own false ego!

K: Hmm...sure, Agastya. I know that you have a lot of fear in you: this is slowing down our talks
a little compared to the first day when you were easily connecting with Me. But don’t worry…as
we go along, these fears will heal and disappear because writing to God is also a form of prayer
for help. God is not blind – He can see the sufferings of humankind and that is why He
constantly sends messengers and healers to purify the planet and help souls to rise up to higher
and higher levels of consciousness.

A: ...Krishna! I am very confused about something. You talked about unknown pain as arising
out disease, etc. But what about known pains – things that someone has already experienced
before such as a physical ailment or a painful relationship – things that keep recurring? Can we
say that there are several fears arising out of known outcomes as well?

K: You seem confused about a simple thing. If you just re-read what I guided you to write, you
will notice that I have also mentioned that apart from fear of the unknown, there are other
fears too (which are the known fears of the past), as you pointed out, which would also
eventually go if the fear of the unknown is removed. I mentioned that pain is part of the
unknown, but it is also part of the known too! I sometimes explain things in a seemingly
crooked or confusing manner to trick the critical mind. I did the same with Arjun too!

A: Krishna, now I am really excited! What You have just said has so easily removed my
confusion. Thank You so much, Thakurji. Your bringing up the topic of Arjun has suddenly made
my typing speed go up! Please can you tell me more about Arjun, Your Bhagavad Gita and how
You trick the critical mind with Your crooked ways?

K: As I told you earlier, I reveal Myself only to devotees that I choose. There is no other way to
talk with Me directly with the understanding that I, Krishna, am God. Arjun was one such lucky
dear soul...and you are another. There are many more, but since you have asked about Arjun
and My Gita right now, I will tell you about them. Arjun was already a self-realised, liberated
soul before he took birth more than 5,000 years ago when I personally descended on Earth. His
motive to take birth when I appeared was to build a loving relationship with Me as a friend. He
was also curious to see My virat roop, that is, My universal form as MahaVishnu. Most
importantly, he wanted to serve Me by helping humankind. Since all knowledge about Me and
the duty of the soul had been lost, I had to come down to Earth to teach someone who wanted
to listen. I chose Arjun (among a few others) and eventually spoke about various aspects of life,
duty and so on during the battle in Kurukshetra. I started off with the basic knowledge about
karma or action (and its reactions) in My brief teaching to Arjun. I followed it up with
knowledge about the self and how to use intelligence and yogic practices to achieve self-
realisation or the realisation that one is not the body but an eternal, indestructible spirit soul. I
also covered many other topics to purposely confuse Arjun – about which path to follow to
reach Me. Finally, I hinted that only if he surrendered to Me, would I help him to come back to
Me and remove all his sinful reactions.

A: Sorry to interrupt, but what was the purpose of telling Arjun about so many paths and then
hinting about devotion? I have read the Gita once but do not remember much of what was
written in it. Maybe I should read it again….

K: Son. I will tell you a secret. Krishna or God is your inner voice. Listen to what I am about to
reveal to you now. I love all My children – who are wandering around in this material world.
The only reason I created spirit souls was to engage in different types of loving relationships
with them. So when I came to this planet, I wanted to see who all were attracted to Me and
want to become My devotees. Unfortunately, not many people were interested. They were
more fascinated by My power rather than My love. However, I will tell you another secret. Any
universe that I step into becomes immediately liberated and all souls in that universe quickly
finish all their desires. And after becoming materially desireless, they can then decide whether
they want to come back to My home – the land of love – or want to merge into My light or
work as a guru or a lightworker for the welfare of other souls who are still in the process of
fulfilling their material desires. So I purposely speak in a seemingly confusing way so as to trick
the critical mind into thinking that Krishna cannot be God since He talks contradictory
nonsense! My hidden agenda is to test whether or not a soul’s heart is willing to surrender to
Me when the mind is being tricked. If one simply surrenders and says, ‘Sorry Krishna I cannot
understand You. You are too confusing, please help me,’ it is then that I help the person to
understand the hidden meanings of My messages and teachings. The same applied to Arjun. I
not only tested his willingness to surrender to Me, but I also fulfilled his desire to see My
universal form.

A: Krishna, our conversation is now moving on to another level! Can we talk more about this
next time please? I really want to just continue typing but my mind says that my body needs
rest right now.

K: Sure. We can continue when you are ready once again! Take care.

A: Thank You, Krishna.

March 7 – God’s Language, Religion and Spirituality
A: Krishna, I am very upset. I made a few changes to what was written under your name (that
is, K) dealing with fear and pain to be able to make some sense out of it. And now I am
beginning to feel that I have lost contact with you…I seem to be speaking with my false ego and
writing nonsense. Please help me.

K: Son, I did see you make the changes. But remember, not even a leaf can move without My
will. It is no different for you. I allowed you to make the changes to suit the reading audience
because they would not understand what I wrote through you. See, let’s make one thing clear.
God can speak in any language, in any style, in any tone, at any time. But if the recipient is
unable to understand what God is saying, then God has to use other means, as was the case
with Arjun. He was unable to follow all the complicated principles and practices from the past
scriptures that I presented to him since they had become difficult to follow and were no longer
useful during his time. So don’t worry…even though this is auto writing, we will change certain
sentences only after you read them and find them hard to understand. I want you to
understand the final version of this book one hundred per cent.

A: So what should I do? How do we proceed? Krishna, I am losing hope about this book being
accepted by the masses.

K: We will proceed just as before. The only thing is that after I dictate, you must carefully read
everything that you have written. If you have any doubts or confusion, I will help you to either
change the text or move on to clarify them through further discussion. So lighten up. You can
treat this exercise of changing anything written by Me through you as auto-editing! Always
remember that I am with you 24/7. There is no way that I will let you fail. In fact, I am patiently
sitting in the hearts of all living beings, eagerly waiting for them to re-start a dialogue with Me.
Also son, remember if there are external disturbances during the auto writing, then the flow
can get interrupted and what I say may get distorted by your distracted mind.

A: Thank you for the soothing words Prabhu. I will have to carefully read everything again and I
am sure more questions will arise. But I hope there is not much need for auto-editing! That will
make me lose confidence.

K: Don’t worry. As long as you follow the simple rule I mentioned above, our talks will carry on
smoothly without much need for editing. So, is there anything else you would like to talk about
right now?

A: I want to talk about spirituality and religion.

K: What about them?

A: What is spirituality?

K: Just look for the meaning online. Whatever appeals to you is what spirituality would mean
for you. It is a very broad term and can have several interpretations. What attracts the mind or
heart is the right answer for any person since that is the message from the Divine for their
further evolution and progress. For example, the word ‘God’ can mean different things to
different people. For you, God is Krishna, for a Muslim – God is Allah, for a Hindu it can mean
Krishna, Shiva, Ganesh, Durga and so on. Then there are the so-called non-religious
interpretations as well such as God is Love, God is Light, God is a Higher Power and so on. In
simple words, religion is a way of life and spirituality is the understanding of religion and
using it for one’s internal evolution. So there are several religions in today’s world along with
huge reams of scriptures as well. I will not say that any one is inferior or superior because each
one caters to the desires and spiritual aspirations of the followers in a particular lifetime. So the
best thing to do is not compare or look for similarities (unless you are confused as to which
system to follow) but to follow the one that comforts your heart.

One should follow the spiritual path or religious practice that comforts one’s heart. One
quality that all human beings must awaken and nurture is love for positive things in life.
Obviously, if you love war, I would not say that is the kind of love you should nurture. I hope
you now have some understanding of what I mean by love for positive things.
March 8 – The Soul’s Starting Point, Law of Karma, Hatred and Jealousy
A: I just thought over what You said about religion and spirituality. I wish everyone was
broadminded enough to let each person follow his or her own path. Why is there so much
hatred and jealousy in today’s world?

K: Hmm...these two negative energies, hatred and jealousy, have a long and deep-rooted
history for every living being.

A: Tell me more…..

K: Of course. But it needs your open-mindedness. I know that you have read many scriptures
and about many saints so your knowledge base is quite vast. But writing down what is hidden in
the subconscious mind in a simple manner is not easy. It is also never free from criticism by
ignorant people who do not have the understanding or intelligence to grasp what is coming
their way.

Let Me begin by taking you back to your starting point. Each and every living being in the
material world has a source from which it came into being. That source is God, which for you is
Krishna. Many highly evolved souls who finally got to see Me and know about Me have tried to
put their realisations into words in order to attract other souls towards Me. In the Gita, I have
mentioned that the soul is eternal. What does that mean? It means it was never born in this
material world and that everything here is non-eternal or temporary. But that does not mean
that the soul never had a starting point. Even I have a starting point for everything I do, but
people who are stuck with certain words from the scriptures find it impossible to be flexible to
new understandings about God.

For example, before I descended in Mathura more than five thousand years ago, people in
Bharat (today’s India) did not know much about who God was. They worshipped Vishnu as the
source of all incarnations of God and many considered Him supreme. So when I arrived, the
thinking was the same. Wow – this little, beautiful boy is so powerful that He must be an avatar
(incarnation) of Vishnu. Only some of the gopas (cowherds) and gopis of Vrindavan knew Me as
the Supreme Being because they were already liberated souls. They had by their own will
decided to take birth on Earth when I appeared so that they could engage themselves in loving
pastimes with Me in Vrindavan. My motive in moving out of Vrindavan was to attract other
souls towards Me. Arjun and the other Pandavas were among My dearest friends who I wanted
to take back home quickly since I knew that there were tough times ahead for the planet once I
left.

The planet was liberated the moment I arrived on it. Hence all the good, bad and ugly desires
and karmas of all souls have to be finished without delay as per My wish. In particular, I showed
Arjun My virat roop to convince him that I, Krishna am the Supreme God. He surrendered to Me
so that I could fill him with divine wisdom and guide him through the battle in Kurukshetra
easily.

Agastya, I am not asking you to surrender to Me because I am arrogant. I am asking you to do

so only because I know what is best for you. Surrendering to Me will make your life more
comfortable. I am telling you all this because the scriptures have often been misunderstood,
misinterpreted or changed over time making them useless for practical applications at any
given period of time. There are many things I have said in My Gita that are barely followed
today. Also, there are hundreds, if not thousands, of interpreters and translators of the Gita,
each expressing his/her own level of understanding or misunderstanding! So it’s up to you and
the readers of this book to listen to Me or ignore My words.

Now coming back to your point….whether you accept it or not, each soul (or spirit soul) has a
starting point when I bring it into being and give it an identity and consciousness separate from
Me. I give each soul the free will to choose between at least two options always. There are
often more than two options to choose from, but when you (and all other souls) came into
being I gave you the opportunity to either stay with Me and enjoy a loving relationship with Me
or choose to enjoy a life separate from Me in the material world because some of you found
that more appealing. If someone chooses the latter, I send them to the material world where
they are free to do as they please according to the rules I have set up.

And what are the rules I have set up? The two basic rules are: firstly, you will forget Me during
your travels and journeys in the material world; and secondly, you will have to follow the law of
karma, whether you like it or not. Karma means to act – in whichever way – through willing,
thinking, speaking or physical actions. The law also states that whatever you choose to do
through karma, you will receive benefits or be punished based on whether your acts were good
or bad as per the definition laid down by the universal administrators (who are ultimately
working under My guidance). These rewards are often termed as fruits of karma or reactions of
karma or even just karma by some spiritualists. In simple words, it is action and reaction.

So if I am making sense to you, hatred and jealousy come from ignorance of or an attempt to
disobey the law of karma that governs the material world. People who don’t bother to pay
attention to the spiritual life or think that the universe has no unseen laws behind it are the
ones who suffer the most.

I want you to now read everything we have written and then get back to Me if you need
clarifications.
A: Krishna, You are very kind and loving. I cannot believe that I actually wrote what I just did. It
gives me great joy to connect with You in this simple manner without caring about what will
happen next. I hope there are many readers out there who believe that God can truly speak
through me.

K: Son, don’t worry. In fact to make you feel lighter, I suggest that you write the following
disclaimer at the starting of your book:

This book can be treated merely as a work of spiritual fiction by those who feel that the author
cannot possibly talk to God through auto writing. However, the author is hopeful that there are
some readers who will be able to open up their hearts to receive what is offered through this
book without interference from their critical minds.

Happy, Agastya?

A: Yes, Prabhu. Thank You.

March 9 – Hatred and Jealousy Revisited
A: Krishna, can You please continue with the conversation on hatred and jealousy? How does
the ignorance of the law of karma play a role in bringing about hatred or jealousy?

K: Hatred comes from anger. Anger comes from the lack of success. The lack of success comes
from the failure to apply the law of karma to one’s benefit, which is ultimately due to the
ignorance of the law of karma. Jealousy also comes from the lack of success. So jealousy
combined with anger leads to hatred, the worst negative quality that a soul can possess if used
in the negative sense. But if hatred is used positively, such as to shield oneself from bad
associations, for example, by saying ‘I hate gambling or violence’ and so on, then it can be
beneficial for one’s spiritual growth. When one gradually becomes mature in his or her spiritual
understanding, then all forms of hatred – whether positive or negative – disappear, and one
becomes neutral to all emotions.

A: How can one become free from hatred and jealousy? I have experienced these emotions
many times in my life. And each time I think I have succeeded in getting rid of them, I am faced
with a new situation where these emotions arise once again. Is there no permanent solution to
deal with such negative qualities?

K: If there is determination, then there will always be a way out of any problem in life. So the
key question to ask here is how one can be full of the positive energy of determination which
can be used any time to deal with all challenges and weaknesses that one faces in life.

A: Prabhu, I’m sorry to interrupt but I am now beginning to feel that the auto writing is
becoming one-sided and that Lord Krishna is not writing through me. Is that true?

K: Not at all! I am just clearing your thought process and purifying it so that I can channel more
and more information through this auto writing. You just keep re-reading and writing. Newer
ideas and topics will come up and I will provide insights into them through you. You are very
special, Agastya. Krishna or God will not make a fool of you. Don’t bother about the grammar.
During auto writing, grammar cannot be perfect since thoughts come very fast. Just continue
with the flow of words coming from your heart. When you write, do not think about what
others will think or what the outcome will be. Surrender to Me, son. At least try to. I am giving
you all the strength that you need. Just remain connected to My loving energies. We shall
continue our discussion the next time you are ready.

A: Thank You.
March 10 – The Positive Energy of Determination
A: Before moving on to something new, can we finish the topic on determination? You
mentioned that if we want to become free of hatred or jealousy or deal with challenges or
weaknesses, we need the positive energy of determination. Please can You elaborate on this?

K: Yes. The first step towards becoming a determined soul is to learn the power of
concentration. If you want to achieve a goal and your karma keeps disturbing you through
internal and external problems or distractions, then you will never get anywhere. So you have
to learn to withdraw from at least the external environment and observe silence. You may not
only put yourself in an externally silent environment, but you could also try to practice silence
of thoughts or practice stillness of the body in one position so that your consciousness is at
least physically concentrated in one location. Doing this for just 5 minutes a day to start with,
will have a great effect. So concentrating on any or all of the above forms of silence or
withdrawal (from external sounds, or internal thoughts, or movement of the body) will
gradually strengthen your mind.

The second step is to use the power of the mind to meditate on positive things, happy
thoughts, and beautiful dreams to unfurl and strengthen your will power. As your will power
increases, there will be a rise in energy being transmitted by your inner spirit self towards your
bodily acts. This leads to the building up of the positive energy of determination.

A: Krishna, I am wondering if all that I have just typed above makes good sense.

K: Then read it My child, and give Me your feedback.

A: ...It does make sense but I still find it abstract, particularly the link between mind power and
will power.

K: See, I am sure that you are aware that there are thousands of different spiritual guides
present on Earth. Each of them has his or her own way of teaching such as how to concentrate,
how to meditate, how to enhance will power and so on. I am simply giving you a chain of
internal events that will happen to you if you are able to understand what I have written
through you. There are some souls who are already very determined in their goals and do not
need to understand the power of the mind or will power. They may be leading successful lives,
spiritually as well as materially. However, I am answering your queries as a specific case. Many
people will be able to connect with what I have said and I am sure they will benefit immensely
from our conversation.

A: Thank You so much, Krishna. Talk to You soon. Bye.

March 11 – Miracles, Magic, and Predictions
A: Krishna, please show me a miracle today.

K: What kind of miracle would you like to see, Agastya?

A: Maybe You can write about a future prediction or something beyond my knowledge.

K: That is not possible.

A: Why not?

K: Because that will inflate your pride that you are someone really great and God will do
anything for you. See, I love you a lot and I am already making many miracles happen in your
life, but your spiritual vision is still covered and hence you are not able to see the miracles
clearly.

A: What exactly is a miracle?

K: A miracle is an act of divine intervention in times of extreme need by a soul or a group of

souls who are experiencing a severe karma and have no human force to help them out of their
miserable condition. That is when divine intervention or a miracle takes place. Please note that
a miracle is different from magic. Magic is simply the bending of material laws with
supernatural powers that cannot be explained scientifically. For example, the ability to fly or
travel across space without an external support or the ability to predict certain events or read
others’ minds can all be considered magical feats.

A: I have another question. There are many people in today’s world who are making millions or
are at least receiving some form of financial support for claiming to be talking to either God or
another divine being. Does that actually happen? Are these people actually talking to You or
any of Your representatives?

K: Let Me make one thing clear again. I am the inner voice of all living beings. However, when I
speak, the message gets filtered through a person’s ego or critical mind. It is also possible for
highly creative minds to somehow fall into illusory traps of mental illness whereby they imagine
that powerful beings are talking to them and giving them guidance. There can also be astral
attacks, whereby some naughty astral enters your ears and brings about negative thoughts and
guidance. This only happens when lonely souls do not approach Me honestly. Or if one is lucky,
an angel may actually come by to give a positive message. Sometimes a person may actually
connect with his or her own inner self, the true spirit soul self, the real ‘I’, so to speak.
The inner self is highly intelligent and filled with the wisdom I have given it. It can transmit
messages of great importance and sometimes also predict certain future events. Generally, I do
not reveal future events in public through any soul. If anyone has been gifted with clairvoyance,
he or she may use it to predict the future to help others, but I refrain from doing so unless
absolutely essential because it can and often does interfere with the evolution of souls. So
whoever has this gift must be careful while using it.

A: But why? How can Your guidance or prediction about the future interfere with a person’s
evolution?

K: Well, if I were to tell the world through you today that there will be war in a particular region
at a particular time, what would happen? The believers would be terrified and perhaps flee
from the region beforehand or take unnecessary steps such as spending millions uselessly on
weapons. Even the things they planned to do before hearing about the future war would
remain undone. For example, if someone wanted to go on a pilgrimage, he/she may cancel the
trip hearing about the war and thus miss out on the benefits of the pilgrimage.

Now go back in time – when I appeared on the planet – earlier, I initially did not make any
predictions about the outcome of the war in Kurukshetra to Arjun. I simply told him about the
benefits of fighting and the drawbacks of not fighting. If I had told him in advance that the
Pandavas would win, then Arjun would have definitely fled the battlefield and taken sanyas
(renunciation). He would have told himself, ‘Since the war will anyway be won by my side, why
should I kill my relatives, friends and loved ones!’ This way his evolution would have been
hampered and he would have remained a weak soul attached to familial ties. So now do you
understand why I am not making any predictions through this book?

A: But You did say that this book would be a success.

K: Yes, I did – just so that you are motivated to write it. Would you have continued otherwise?
We have already progressed quite far in a short span of time, haven’t we?

A: Yes, we have. I have got back the confidence to move on with the writing whatever the
outcome. Thank You again. I love You Krishna.

K: I love you too, Agastya. Let the world think what it will. I know you are also concerned about
your health. Don’t worry. Everything will heal with time and you will have a happy life.

A: Can I re-read everything and then get back to You?

K: Sure! I am always ready.

March 12 – Acceptance of Spiritual Truths
A: Prabhu, when I re-read our conversations, I feel that it is very ordinary...nothing that will
convince the world that I am talking to God through this medium. Is there a way out of this?

K: Agastya, let me tell you something. It is impossible for this book to be universally accepted
with faith. Even when I appeared and taught Arjun about spiritual science, it was not that the
whole world was listening to Me and understanding what I was saying. Is there any commonly
accepted religion in the world today? No, right?

A: Why is that so? You are God, the Supreme Power. How is it not possible for You to convince
the whole world about the same spiritual truths?

K: The answer is simple. This is because almost all souls that are present in the material world
are here only because they desired to stay away from Me (even though they are not conscious
of this decision as of now). So why should they bother to listen to what God or any Divine
Power has to say? Also, each soul is at a particular level of consciousness and evolution. And
hence not all souls can understand everything in the same manner. That is why there is a need
for the saints I send as my messengers. It is not that all saints teach the same spiritual truths in
different languages. They are themselves at different levels of evolution and their knowledge
and wisdom depends on their own individual levels. Thus it is possible to group them broadly
into different schools of thought. Although you will find a few points of commonality among
them all, such as their views on the awakening of love, developing the quality of peaceful co-
existence and so on, there are many spiritual truths, which not all messengers or saints may be
aware of or have the permission to reveal to the general population. To wrap up, every soul in
the material world is ultimately moving back to God, each one evolving at its own pace in its
own way.

A: I am feeling relieved now and can continue writing. I always thought that I had to convince
the whole world but worried that if people had the free will not to listen, how could (and why
should) I even try to impose my views about God on them? I hope from now on our
conversation is not affected by my doubts. I am suddenly feeling free to just pour out
everything from my heart rather than analysing it before typing.

K: I’m glad! This is what I wanted you to do. Just flow with the words and enjoy the
conversation. Whether you think you are talking to Krishna, your inner self, your inner voice or
an angel, the key point is to have fun throughout the journey of writing this book. Talk to you
soon. Bye for now.
March 13 – God’s Eternal Name
A: Krishna, why is Your name ‘Krishna’?

K: Don’t you already know the answer to that question?

A: As per my understanding, ‘Krishna’ means the all attractive one, meaning that there is
nothing unattractive about You.

K: Yes, that is a good description of Me in the spiritual world.

A: But then why are people not attracted to You in the material world? Why is it easier to chant
Ram or Allah or Om Namah Shivaye and other divine mantras and names instead of simply
chanting ‘Krishna’? If ‘Krishna’ is the Supreme God, as I understand You to be, then why don’t
people who come to know that You are the Supreme One, chant only ‘Krishna’?

K: That is because My spiritual sound vibration is too pure to be heard or be comprehensible in

the material world. Just as my eternal form is impossible to see with the human eye because
the energy with which this creation is made is too dull compared with the pure blissful spiritual
energy that is My very essence and that of all spirit souls I have created.

A: Krishna, I am unable to understand why You say that Your sound vibration cannot be heard. I
mean, people do say the word ‘Krishna’ here which can be heard. So what are You saying?

K: Well, what you hear is just a material representation of My name, just as an energised idol in
a temple is a vague visual, material representation of my eternal form. Ram or Allah or Govinda
are My names with the vibrations that can attract the human hearing more easily due to their
particular frequencies. Now these spiritual realities may not be available anywhere so there is
no point in trying to debate on the how or why of the secret of God’s eternal name. That is all I
can explain based on your limited ability to grasp things. I have purposely made it easier for
living beings to come back to Me through My incarnations, messengers and holy names (other
than Krishna), because the very reason all of you are here in the material world is due to your
desire to stay away from Krishna. However, son, do remember that all My names are as
powerful as Krishna in the material world. So chant whichever name that gives you bliss and
brings you closer to God. There are very few holy men on the planet that can truly connect to
the spiritual sound vibration of ‘Krishna’ as available in Goloka Vrindavan.

A: Thank you, Prabhu. Today I have discovered something new. I thought that this book would
only contain what I knew. I thought it would make the critics’ job easier…they could just say
that this book was a reflection of all the texts I have read and is a reproduction of my bookish
knowledge….
K: Don’t worry. There is a lot more that I will reveal as we talk. It was important for you to
become free of the doubt and fear of the outcome of this book. Now that you are more relaxed
and somewhat beginning to enjoy typing, we will have more fun as we move along!

A: I am happy to hear that.

March 18 – The Tendency to Compare
A: I remember reading a book that described an American man’s conversations with God. At
that time I did not believe that anyone could engage in a dialogue with God through auto
writing. But now after my own personal experience, I am wondering if the author of the book
was actually talking with You or some higher power. Or was he simply reflecting his own inner
thoughts? Please can You tell me, Krishna?

K: He was communicating with Me but at his own level of consciousness which was filtered by
his lower mind. So obviously you found it hard to accept many things written in that book. I
know that some of what was written did not make sense to you. That was because there was a
difference between his level of evolution and that of his readers. Also people who read his
books are very different from you. He wanted to understand Me and life from his perspective
and you want to understand things from yours. Moreover, his background and age was very
different from yours; and thus, how you write will obviously differ from the way in which he
presented his book. So yes, people who have read his book and would like to read yours will
perhaps compare the two. There is a possibility that some will like his book more than yours
depending on their own preferences. As I have already mentioned before, each soul evolves at
its own pace in its own way, and I present spiritual truths of different kinds in different ways at
different times!

A: That makes sense. I guess I should not compare my writing with others and just focus on
what I am doing.

K: Yes, you should be concerned with what you are doing and not bother about what others are
up to. Tap into your own potential and creativity rather than comparing with others.

A: That is a lovely message, Prabhu. I will try to learn all Your messages by heart!

K: Sure! Do that! It will help you immensely.

March 19 – Reconnecting with God, the Grace and Mercy of God
A: Krishna, I’m not sure that I have asked You this before but what is Your purpose of choosing
me to write this book?

K: What do you think could be My motive for talking to you through this book?

A: One thing is for sure. It is giving me soul comfort. I was lonely and also very disturbed by the
fact about the imbalance in my brain. Talking through this medium is helping me to pour out
my heart to You, whether You are there or not.

K: I am here, son. People who doubt my presence basically still do not know who God really is.
You have this doubt because of your disassociation with spiritual people. It is very difficult to
progress spiritually alone and that is what you have been doing. This is why spiritual people or
scriptures are needed as friends, whichever religion one may belong to.

Anyway, coming back to My motive to engage with you, it is to help you to get back your
spiritual connection with Me because you are very dear to Me and also to provide the world
with hope that God does truly exist in everyone’s heart. Each one must try to tap into his or
her heart connection with God if he or she wants a life full of happiness and contentment.

A: How can one do that? I was most fortunate to get a spiritual master who connected me to
Reiki. Being blessed by You, I got attracted to the Mahamantra and now I chant it as much as I
can. I know that spirit guides and angels have also helped me to read a lot about spirituality and
become more aware of who You are. But this is my story and journey. How about helping the
others, Krishna? Seeing worldly suffering fills my eyes with tears, but Your kindness brings even
more tears. But they are tears of joy. Please give some guidance on how people can connect
with You in their hearts.

K: There is no single formula to connect with Me, son. First of all, a lot of people will not believe
that God’s original eternal name is ‘Krishna’ because as I told you earlier the sound vibration of
My name is not that appealing to the general masses. The nectar of chanting My name is
hidden unless you develop devotion towards Me. So I guide souls according to what suits them
best based on their karmas and desires. My grace is available to all beings, but My mercy is
available only to those who have become attracted to Me or are totally helpless in life and are
seeking My intervention in their lives.

A: Krishna, what is the difference between Your grace and Your mercy?
K: My grace is like air and My mercy is like water in the desert. I leave it up to you to decide
what this means because there is no textbook definition of this in My infinite knowledge bank.
Hope this answer satisfies you.

A: Yes, it does. Please tell me about the other possible ways for people to connect with You in
their hearts?

K: This may be a repetition but since you asked, I will tell you. One way is through chanting any
of My names or through praying. This purifies the heart and enables a soul to listen to My voice
and guidance more clearly. Another way is through spiritual practices such as Reiki. A third way
is to connect with angels through people who are already connected. Also, a lot of people like
to meditate in a way that suits them and this helps to clear their hearts and minds. Sometimes
the goal of meditation may not be to connect with God as an end result, but may simply be to
feel calm and peaceful or blissful or energised and so on. So the key point here is that if you
strongly desire to connect with God, then He will use every means to purify your heart and
consciousness so that you can communicate with Him easily.

I have already mentioned these means above. Chant, meditate or follow a spiritual practice that
suits you in order to get purified and communicate with Me. So desire for God and keep the
faith that He will help you to reach Him.

A: I hardly knew anything about you until about 8 years ago. When I started reading about You,
I was mesmerised and got so attracted to You that I wanted to go back home to You
immediately. I can never forget the days I would sit and weep for You. I would feel immense
pain remembering You and cried and begged Your forgiveness for the sins I had committed that
brought me to this miserable state of existence.

K: Your prayers were answered, weren’t they son? I did reveal Myself to you even though your
main desire is to go back home immediately or quickly. That will happen but in its own time.
We have had a long conversation today so now take some rest.

A: Thank You, Prabhu, for everything.

K: You are most welcome!

March 20 – Love
A: Krishna! I am very excited.

K: Why?

A: Prabhu, my faith in communicating with You in this way has just got a boost. Some time back
I had asked You to explain the difference between a miracle and magic. At that time, I did not
pay much attention to what You guided me to write. But now when I re-read what I wrote, I
realise that Your answer was very similar to the interpretation of these two terms that I saw on
the internet! In fact, just a few days before I started conversing with You, I read a book on
divine interventions and divine magic and had looked up the difference between the two
online. I had forgotten what I had read. I now see the similarity between what You had said and
what I had found on the internet. I know that it is Your mercy that You are removing all the
doubts in my heart about our communication.

K: Agastya, I am not here to help you write only extraordinary stuff through your book. There is
a lot of genuine information now available on the internet on various topics, so please do not
think that this book will only contain new information or reveal secrets. This book will show
that auto writing is possible if one has a pure heart and a strong desire to communicate with
God or a higher power or with angels or spirit guides.

A: I don’t know what to say. I am blank. Please talk about something else Krishna.

K: What do you want Me to talk about today?

A: Love.

K: I love you a lot!

A: I love You too. Please tell me more.

K: Love is the very essence of My being. Love is the reason for My existence. It is why I create
spirit souls. If I did not have the pure spiritual quality of love, I would never have created life. So
love is more important to Me than life itself. That is why I show personal favours and mercy to
souls who awaken their love for Me with My help. Because I have love, so do the children I have
created. But the ones who are roaming around in this material world have either not yet
awakened their ability to love purely or have forgotten how to live in a loving relationship with
Me. So that is why I have sent them here to either discover or re-discover pure unconditional
love.
A: Krishna, I am finding it difficult to type. Why are the words not flowing easily?

K: That is because love is a complicated topic and needs a lot of time and openness by your
receptive channels to discuss it in a smooth flow. But I am glad you have chosen to talk about
love.

A: Recently I was reading a newspaper article about love where the author wrote that love is
God. Is that true? My opinion is that love is an attribute or quality of God. I even discussed this
matter with a friend.

K: You are right. Love is one of My qualities. In fact, it is the topmost quality. If one understands
the meaning or textbook definition of God, then one will not say that love is God. Love being
God would mean that love is present everywhere and is all powerful. It would also mean that
love is the creator and that love is the maintainer of life. But is that the case? Yes, love is the
most powerful quality one can possess, but the rest of the features cannot really apply to love.
Anyway, this is a technical explanation of what you asked about love. If someone feels comfort
and joy in believing that love is God, they are most welcome to feel that way, until they
themselves rise up to higher levels of consciousness and understanding about love.

A: Krishna, I have a complaint. When some people talk about Your appearance on the planet
more than 5,000 years ago, they usually consider You as a Casanova, a lover boy, someone who
was just one of the incarnations of God but not as great as God. They try to imitate Your rasa
leelas (dance of Krishna with the gopis of Vrindavan) and think that you used to have fun with
older women and that this was not appropriate for God. Why did You let people have this
impression about Your love for the gopis, Krishna? I know that the gopis of Vrindavan were
highly evolved souls and most fortunate to engage in loving affairs with You. Then how did this
private matter become a public joke?

K: That was a test son. I did not come here for fun. I came here to take My devotees back home
to Goloka Vrindavan and also to give all other souls the opportunity to become My devotees
before I appeared as Kalki to finish off the miscreants. A lot of souls have decided that Krishna is
not attractive to them, so they will have to pay the price by not getting a chance to get back
home.

And let Me tell you one thing again. Coming back home to Goloka is not always an easy journey,
for which you purchase a spiritual ticket to get on to a spiritual aircraft and get back home in a
jiffy. There are generally several layers of existence that a soul must cross before getting the
opportunity to finally get back home to Goloka. For example, Shivloka is somewhere in
between the journey back home. So the devotees of Shiva are also very fortunate because He is
very kind to them and gradually removes their spiritual ignorance to help them to eventually
rise up to His residence, Shivloka.
As you are already aware, the Srimad Bhagavatam describes this universe in detail. So I will not
talk about that here. Perhaps you can write the summary of the Bhagavatam for the general
masses as your next project. It will be very useful for them since it will remove a lot of
ignorance from the minds of those who are open to receiving the knowledge and wisdom
contained in that scripture, the cream of the Vedas.

Above Shivloka is the Brahmajyoti or My eternal infinite light or aura. Within that light are
innumerable Vaikunthaloka or spiritual planets with Narayana (one of My partial expansions)
as the ruling deity in each one of them. Finally, the topmost state of existence is in My land of
love, Goloka, where entry is generally possible through the mercy of Radharani, the eternal
manifestation of My internal infinite heart. She is most beloved to all My devotees in all
existence, whether material or spiritual. That is why chanting of the Hare Krishna Mahamantra
can give immense bliss to a devotee. ‘Hare’ refers to Radharani, My heart. It is My own sweet
will to give that special power to Radharani’s name. It vibrates at a beautiful frequency when
chanted as Hare Krishna Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama,
Rama Rama Hare Hare! I can already see your beautiful heart blossoming with love after typing
and hearing Me chant.

A: Thank You, Krishna. I am in bliss.

K: You’re welcome, Agastya!

March 21 – Krishna’s Devotees and the Return Journey to the Spiritual World

A: Krishna, can we continue to talk about love? It is the best feeling I have ever experienced in
this life.

K: I have talked a lot. Now it is your turn! I want you to say something as well My son.

A: Well, You already know that I have been searching for love since I was a child. After several
heartbreaks in my life, I have realised that human love is nothing compared to divine love.
Human love involves attachment, and this can lead to problems when our loved ones leave us.
However, this awakening of my love for You has brought me immense bliss. As a result, I have
become so attached to You now that I cannot imagine life without You.

K: You are a true devotee. And I am not saying this to inflate your pride. Attachment has often
been considered as a negative quality by many spiritualists, but attachment to a Higher Power
or God by any name is good because it will always give you soul comfort. Also, God is never
going to die or leave His loved ones forever! So there is no question of pain. In the spiritual
world, love between Me and My devotees only keeps increasing. It is endless. Life in the
spiritual world is very different compared to what it is in this material world – the ‘dream world’
as you wrote in your book Krishna – where you are right now. You must reproduce certain
sections from that book here for your readers to better understand the difference between the
physical body and spirit and between this material world and the spiritual world. I will guide
you where to add that information in a while. Let us now continue with our conversation on
love!

A: Okay my Lord, please tell me, how can we define Your devotee? Also, how can a devotee
awaken and increase his or her love for You?

K: Anyone who remembers Me in bad times or in good ones is My devotee. Yes, there are so-
called bad souls or demons as well who remember Me, but their object in remembering Me is
to fight with Me and to kill Me. You can also easily write off those who claim to be atheists
since they have no interest in being My devotees. Another sign of a devotee is his or her
unending and ever increasing love for Me. This awakens only by My blessing. But yes, there is
an element of chance as well before a soul becomes My devotee. I will come to that later.

Now, suppose you do not know who I am and are curious to know more about Me. Since I am
personally sitting in each and every soul’s heart, I can read the individual soul’s desires to know
Me. I will then start to create situations for the soul concerned to know Me gradually. As a first
step, I usually remove all material comforts because if one is materially comfortable, one will
not bother to remember Me at all. Again, remember that most souls are here because they
desired to live in separation from Me. When I remove the material comforts such as happy
relationships, secure finances, good health, etc., the soul becomes agitated and tries hard to
hold on to the material comforts.

But when these comforts are completely withdrawn from the soul’s life, it realises that
something is troubling it and that is why it was trying to hold on to its comforts. As to when this
realisation comes about, it depends entirely on the soul’s free will. The more attached the soul
is to material life, the more painful is its separation from the comforts. Some souls seek help for
their problems by approaching astrologers, spiritualists, healers, and also, if fortunate, a
genuine spiritual master. After contact with a spiritual master, the soul’s journey to reach Me
begins in true earnest. Through the master, I then guide the soul on how to live, what practices
to follow and how to ultimately purify itself in order to be reunited with Me.

As the spiritual journey progresses, the soul’s love for material life begins to fade away. This
happens with the soul’s remembrance of past impressions of pain associated with living here
and also due to the realisation that there was something troubling the soul or lacking in it to
cause so much attachment to the material world. And the final step, which you too have
observed, is the realisation that the “something” that was troubling a soul throughout its
journey in this material world was the complete forgetfulness of God. Once the soul realises
this, naturally it begins to feel the pain of being separated from Me. It begs forgiveness for all
the sins committed by it in this world because by now it understands that past wrong deeds
eventually lead to present and future suffering. This suffering has the possibility of making the
soul so miserable that it may restart hating or forgetting Me and get absorbed in material
miseries.
Anyway, coming to the end, where true devotional life begins once a soul is honest in its appeal
to Me for forgiveness, I awaken its love for Me and give it more and more opportunities for
increasing its love for Me. This leads to more and more attachment to Me and less and less
attachment to material life, just what you are experiencing now. Naturally, when you reach this
state of attachment to Me, there is a desire to go back home quickly. But if I suddenly take a
soul back home before its remaining material desires are fulfilled, it will not be able to fully
enjoy the loving relationships with Me and My infinite devotees in the spiritual world. Since I
have given everyone the free will to desire anything, I cannot simply snatch away an individual’s
residual desires, even though I can gradually make someone karma free. Hence, a soul has to
finally become materially desireless before I can take it back home to the land of love and light.

A: Krishna, I am very eager to read what I have just typed. Thank You for sharing so much
information with me. Can I read it first before the next question?

K: Sure you can. I have made you write this not just for your understanding but for your
enjoyment as well. Read what you have written and tell Me if there is anything you need Me to
explain again. I will be happy to answer any other questions you may have.

A: Prabhu, I am quite fascinated by the way You have so simply explained the return journey
back home to the spiritual world. This is giving me a lot of confidence that it is not my lower
mind making me type all this. I now know for sure that it is You who is auto writing this through
me, Krishna. There is just one thing I did not understand clearly. What did you mean by the
element of chance?

K: Oh, that is so simple, son. Every soul has a free will. When I bestow My mercy on a soul to
temporarily increase that person’s suffering in order to bring him or her closer to Me then there
is also a chance that the soul may become helpless and angry with life and may start to hate or
disbelieve in God even more. If this chance event happens and the soul is unable to tolerate the
pain and is always complaining about the sudden rise in problems, then I put that soul back into
ignorance and give back the material comforts it craves. This is a sad event and happens more
often than not. Thus, I have to constantly keep sending messengers and saints to help and
comfort souls in distress and assure these souls that I do exist.
A: I was just wondering if the people who believe in a formless God are also among Your
devotees.

K: Agastya, these people have just begun their spiritual journey and for them a God with form is
beyond their comprehension. This is why I send highly evolved souls who themselves believe in
a formless God in order to attract other souls who find the concept of a formless God more
acceptable.

A: So are You formless or do You have a form? I saw Your eternal form when You revealed
Yourself to me.

K: I am both formless and have an eternal form. My eternal light or energies are formless and
they represent Me as well. Many souls have seen My light or connect with My energies through
various yogic practices, spiritual rituals and so on. Often they find so much bliss when they see
the light that they stop their spiritual journey thinking that they have found God, who they
believe to be a formless Being of light. These souls merge into My infinite light for a long period
of time but ultimately fall back into the material world and restart their journey of life. This is
because My light is not the final destination or home where souls can live forever. My
effulgence or light is just like a temporary rest-home for the spirit souls who are attracted to a
formless God rather than a God with form.

Son, I have channelled a lot of information through you today. I want you to take a break for
now. Talk to you later.
March 22 – Eternal Consciousness, Good Karma and Finding a Genuine Guru

A: I am a little disturbed about one thing. Apart from some souls considering God to be
formless, there is also a view that God or the Higher Power that controls all creation is merely
an eternal Consciousness. Is that a good way to define God? Is God eternal Consciousness?

K: All living beings created by me have a ‘Consciousness’ and they are also all eternal like I am.
So then does one deduce that all living beings are God? No, that is not the case. Every living
being or spirit soul is created by Me. But since the created cannot understand the creator
better than the creator, there is bound to always be a lot of confusion about who God is or how
to define God. In simple words, I am an eternal Conscious Being. I am not consciousness.
Consciousness is one of My attributes. So I am fully conscious about everything that is going on
both in the material as well as the spiritual world. Again, each soul understands God based on
his or her own level of evolution, and My purpose has always been to fast track each one’s
journey back home to Me since the very reason I create is to enjoy loving relationships with My
created spirit souls.

I am not a tyrant nor have I sent you all to a prison. But because the souls in the material world
are governed by the law of karma and supervised by universal administrators, they find this
world a prison where they are trapped and become desperate to get out of it and achieve
eternal bliss. This happens once they start understanding the law of karma and start their
spiritual journey towards freedom from karma. However, those who embark upon their
spiritual journey without seeking God’s help often tend to veer away from their path. This is
because memories of past lives are removed when a soul restarts the journey of life in its next
human body. This is why in its next life, it may not remember its desire to become karma free
and may again engage in activities to bind it to the endless cycle of birth and death. This brings
Me to a very important point. One cannot reach God without the assistance of a genuine guru.

A: So how does one find a genuine guru?

K: Good karma.
A: How can we define good karma?

K: There are many interpretations of good karma. Here is a simple one for you: Any selfless act
performed to help other souls who are in need or to please higher divine beings without the
intention of getting any benefit in return can be described as good karma. So if you do charity
with the intention of going to heaven after death, then that is not good karma, since your
motive is not pure. It would simply be a case of give and take. You give, for example, a hundred
rupees and at some point in the future you would get back those hundred rupees. However, if
you gave those hundred rupees to just help someone in need (not someone who wants to buy
drugs or use the money for any other harmful act!), then the universal administrators would
consider that as good karma. Such karma when sufficiently stocked up over lifetimes would
eventually bless you with the mercy of a genuine guru. This is a long exercise and hence,
offence against such a holy person is considered very gravely and can wipe out a lot of the
accumulated good karma as well.

So, while a guru may further help you to accumulate good karma, not following instructions can
and often leads to a downfall of the student or disciple. If you are fortunate and the guru shows
mercy, then you may be lifted back up to where you fell from. However, let Me tell you one
secret son. When one knows and understands who God is, one has actually unknowingly re-
established his or her connection with Me. Then, even if it becomes difficult to follow the guru,
I will still assist the soul to reunite with Me quickly. I will personally guide it to perform karma in
ways that all sinful reactions of past bad karmas are swiftly wiped out.

However much you love your guru(s) (which I know you do sincerely), remember that
ultimately they are just your guides and are not God. They must be given as much respect as
God is given but praying to God directly will always comfort the soul.

Now I want you to read everything I guided you to type. I know that you are missing your gurus
right now since you really love them, but don’t worry – Krishna is personally sitting in your
heart right now, healing all the traumas that you have faced in this life. I love you, Agastya.
A: You bring tears to my eyes.
March 25 – Spiritual Practice, Past Lives and Spiritual Mission

A: Recently, I got upset because when I was chanting the Mahamantra aloud while walking in
the park, I was mocked and called insane by a few people. What can I do in such situations?
Please guide me.

K: Son, you have to let go of your attachment to the environment while connecting to Me.
People will make fun of you and this will trouble you. But if you make yourself strong, they will
be unable to affect you. An easy way to get out of this situation is to concentrate more and
more on the Mahamantra. Before you had My vision, you were already doing a fabulous job by
connecting with Me every day. But then your own karmas and tests have made you weak.
Spiritual practices, even if lost for a while, can be regained if one has the will power and
determination. I have already told you how to achieve this earlier. So connecting with Me and
getting absorbed in Me is the highest form of yoga. It brings about such amazing results that
only a true devotee can understand its true worth. It far surpasses the joy of meditating on
sceneries or abstract objects which are the starting points of spiritual practice and evolution.
You have already undergone all that in the past and you realised that something was still
lacking in your bliss. When you finally understood that you were actually searching for Me once
again, I decided to awaken your love for Me and guide you back towards Me. You are already a
liberated and enlightened soul from a previous life, but in this life you are an ordinary human
being and there is a reason for that.

A: Prabhu, what is the reason for that?

K: You wanted to experience the ordinary life to understand what worldly suffering was in this
age and time. Now, through your personal experiences you can help this world by channelling
My love and healing. That is your spiritual mission on the planet.

A: So why don’t I remember my past lives? Wouldn’t it be easier for me to help people if I did?
Also, how can I channel Your love and healing? I do send Reiki healing, but I feel I am doing it
more for my own spiritual progress rather than for others. I guess I’m a little selfish.
K: No, you are not selfish. Any healer must heal himself or herself first before planning any
mass-scale healing or channelling of love. Why? Because only when you heal yourself will your
aura grow and allow the descent of more and more love and healing energies through you on
the planet. A lot of healers like to call themselves lightworkers. That is a humble term. You too
are like that, but so far you have not been able to tap into your true potential of a beautiful and
powerful channel of love and light. Don’t worry. You will be able to do this too. As of now,
strengthen yourself. You have chosen a weak body and tough karma only to use them in order
to become a very powerful spiritual healer who can truly move mountains. I am not just
boosting your ego. I know your potential – it is immense. So stop getting disheartened by
people who have nothing else to do other than making fun of others. They are creating bad
karma and it will have consequences. Focus on your mission…I am helping you to do so by
openly revealing it through this book.

Coming now to why you do not remember your past lives. Well, you have already undergone so
many challenges before becoming liberated and enlightened…if you remembered all that in this
lifetime, you would feel very heavy. But if you somehow overcame that heaviness through
healing past painful memories, then you would become arrogant and say, “Wow, I am such a
great enlightened being and am superior to all the ordinary inferior people in this world.” So
that is why I have withheld your past life memories from you so far. It is to help you to discover
your spiritual potential without getting caught up with negative qualities, such as pride and
arrogance.

A: Sorry Prabhu, but I am not comfortable with the idea of being called a liberated and
enlightened soul. I do not consider myself an enlightened soul. If I was, then wouldn’t I have
been wise not do any wrong deeds in this lifetime? Also, wouldn’t I have embarked on a
spiritual life from a very early age in order to help other beings?

K: Son, you are not the only liberated and enlightened being on the planet. There are many
others. Just because you are unaware of this fact, it does not mean that they do not exist. They
are very much there. As I mentioned earlier, some of them consider themselves as
lightworkers. When your present karma improves and you accumulate good karma once again,
your association with spiritual people like yourself will restart. You are anyway connecting with
angels. As you gain more confidence and the doubts lessen in your heart, you will understand
what you have to do in this lifetime. Your life is precious just like any other human life, and you
will be guided to use it wisely not only for your best interest, but also for the best interest of
humanity.

A: Krishna, can you please tell me more about the lightworkers on the planet? How many of
them are there and in which countries do they live?

K: There are thousands of them out there and they are spread all over the planet. Right now
the planet is undergoing a challenging phase wherein a lot of negative energies are being
released. Just like trees purify the air, the planet needs healers like you to purify it. So enjoy
your time here because I am telling you that your life has a good purpose. Stop worrying about
what other people have to say about you. Learn to love yourself because you are truly
special, a child of God.

A: Well, I know how to channel love to myself through Reiki healing. But what about those who
are in misery and are not currently connected to any spiritual practice? Is there any way I could
help them?

K: Pray for them every day. Pray for peace, love and joy for all living beings on the planet.
Prayer is a very powerful healer.

That’s all for today.

A: Thank You.
March 26 – Reconnecting with Krishna

A: Prabhu, I have a few queries regarding some things You said earlier. Please could You
address all of them before we move on to other topics? I am eager for this book to be
completed soon and be read by the maximum number of people. My first question deals with
what You said earlier about not revealing Yourself to proof seekers because You want them to
fulfil their material desires first. But are You also not helping Your devotees to fulfil their
material desires? Initially I thought I understood what You meant but now I am confused. Can
You please explain what You mean?

K: Son, when My devotees were non-devotees, they too did not have faith in My existence.
They were simply interested in fulfilling their material needs. So to begin with, I just guided
them in fulfilling their material needs. But they mostly got caught up in the law of karma and in
miseries while trying to fulfil their material needs due to their ignorance and unwillingness to
follow the divine guidance. Then at some point or the other they sought help from a higher
power to come out of their miseries, and gradually became My devotees as already explained
to you in one of our talks. Similarly, even the current non-devotees will ultimately come back to
Me through one path or another. To conclude, I help non-devotees as well as devotees to fulfil
their material needs. But the devotees get further assistance and guidance from Me to achieve
their spiritual goals which lie dormant in non-devotees.

A: Thank you, Krishna. That makes perfect sense now. Coming to my next query, You
mentioned that after successfully following the rules of reaching and then leaving You I am now
directly connecting with You. How did I leave You after reaching You? Please explain.

K: Okay. I mentioned earlier that whenever you connect with Me in your spiritual heart, you are
home with Me, and when you get back to bodily consciousness, you have in a way, left Me. So
through all your spiritual practices you purified yourself completely to be able to directly
connect with Me in your spiritual heart. It is not easy to connect with Me in the spiritual heart.
Generally, devotees do manage to connect at the physical heart or feeling level. But to reach
the spiritual heart level, a lot of purity is needed. This comes from devotional practices such as
chanting and meditation. So that is how you first reached Me and then left me since you
returned to bodily consciousness.
I know that right now you are thinking that if you became pure enough to connect with Me in
the first place, then why did you have to go back to bodily consciousness and live the mundane
life of pains and pleasures? Well, the answer to that is that you are here on a mission of
channelling My love and healing on the planet, to bring about peace, love and joy to those
whose lives you touch. In order for you to be able to achieve that, you have to be connected to
the people on the planet so that you can purify them. If I allowed you to remain desireless after
I revealed Myself to you, then you would not be able to function on the planet. You would just
have sat under a tree to meditate on Me. Although that way too, you would be channelling love
and light, but the process would be slower and rather indirect compared to actively working
with people and helping them. Think about it. I am omnipresent. Why then do I need to bother
to send messengers or saints to the planet for healing? Can I not just simply wipe out all
miseries? Of course I can, but I have nothing to gain from it and it will also interfere with the
free will of the people. So these messengers and saints not only get an opportunity to evolve
further and get closer to Me by serving Me on the planet, but they also get the opportunity to
directly influence the free will of seekers by answering questions, giving guidance, sharing
higher truths and so on. So the direct presence of saintly people always helps because it is
easier for a seeker to interact with them rather than directly approaching an invisible higher
power or just understanding everything by reading spiritual books.
March 27 – Evolution of the Soul, the Real and Temporary Self, and the Material
and Spiritual Worlds

A: I love you, Prabhu. I have some more questions from our previous discussion. You had said,
‘even if an ant somehow, suddenly remembers that it is not an ant but My child, I will help it to
come back home to Me.’ Is it really possible for an ant with such a low level of consciousness to
remember You? I mean, humans hardly ever bother to remember God, then how can an ant do
such a thing?

K: Well, normally an ant cannot remember Me. But if it was a human in a previous life and had
reincarnated as an ant, then we cannot say that its consciousness is very low. It could be a very
highly evolved soul who may have been cursed for having performed a very sinful act. In that
case, the ant may choose to remember God once again and immediately get liberated from its
miserable condition. The point of this example was to make you understand that even a tiny
being such as an ant, can in some cases eventually return home to the spiritual world by
remembering God. What then to speak of humans who have far higher levels of consciousness
and greater chances of concluding their unending journeys in the material world and returning
home to Me? Thus human life is very precious because it is only in this life form that the soul
can evolve easily. In other life forms, the soul is mainly fulfilling its desires and finishing past
karmas.

A: Can you please explain the process of evolution to me?

K: What do you want to know about evolution? I have already guided you to write about that
topic in your book Krishna. I want you to add that here so that people can get a different
perspective on evolution.

A: Okay. Dear reader, given below is my understanding of the evolution of a soul in the material
world taken from my first book Krishna along with some new inputs based on my conversations
with Lord Krishna. Most of the information is my personal understandings from a few years ago
when I reached a heightened state of spiritual consciousness briefly...
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So when you decided to move away from God, He sent you to this present physical world in a
vehicle or body made up of three components – mind, false ego and intelligence. This body is
called your ‘subtle body’.

For the sake of simplicity, let’s say this subtle body is like the operating system or cockpit of an
aeroplane and your human or physical body (made of earth, water, fire, air and space) is the
remaining part of the aeroplane. Finally, the ‘actual you’ is like the co-pilot sitting in the cockpit
of the aeroplane, with God as the captain.

Life in this physical world begins from the basic form called ‘amoeba’, which was discovered by
modern-day scientists. So your journey in this fantasy land could begin by entering the form of
an amoeba with your subtle body always remaining with you. Then you may move on to higher
and higher forms of life (based on your desires) such as insects, birds, trees, animals and so on,
until you finally reach the life of a human being. This is called ‘evolution’. Throughout your
evolution, your mind will keep observing everything you experience and God will keep helping
you to develop your intelligence so that you can perform more and more complex tasks, as
demanded by higher and higher life forms.

For example, the life of an insect mainly depends on having the intelligence to get food
wherever available within its limited reach and then store it wherever possible. A bird needs
the intelligence to build a nest, to feed its offspring, to search for suitable shelters in different
seasons and so on. A dog needs the intelligence to be able to recognise its master and obey his
or her orders. These orders – like guarding a house, sniffing out lost objects, taking a blind man
to his destination, fetching the ball when it is thrown and so on – require a lot of intelligence.

So in this way you keep wandering on this planet from one life form to another, based on your
desires in each form that are influenced by your mind and intelligence.

Now let’s come to the third component of your subtle body. Called the ‘false ego’ (or false self-
image), this is the most complex part of your subtle body. This false ego is responsible for
making you forget that you are a spirit soul and for making you imagine that you are the life
form that you are present in (hence the term ‘false’). So if you are in the body of a tree, your
false ego will make you think you are a tree and not a cat or dog or spirit soul, for example.
Apart from your subtle body, you also have been given the ability to desire. Your desires, past
and present, are stored in your spiritual heart, most of which you may not be aware of right
now. Only God can see all your desires because He is sitting in your heart 24 hours a day. So to
fulfil your desires God helps you as follows:

He stimulates your mind to think particular thoughts. This is done through internal and external
messages and guidance. He also gives you the intelligence required to perform certain mental
or physical activities to satisfy your desires.

If you are following what I am saying, then you may make the following observation: If the
theory of life is so simple where God is simply giving all the stimulus to do everything needed to
fulfil my desires, then why do I face problems in life or why do I ever feel unhappy? Or, why do I
still have desires which I know I cannot fulfil in this life anymore, for example, wanting to eat
sweets all day even though I have diabetes?

The answer to these very valid questions is very simple. God has given us one gift – the free will
to desire anything. So even though God is giving us all the stimulus we need, we rarely want to
follow them in reality through our human bodily actions. God does not decide our actions, He
only motivates us to act in a particular way. Whether we want to follow His guidance or not is
solely our personal choice and God respects that. If we do not want to follow His guidance, then
He may give us something else that we feel comfortable following. But His second guidance will
never be as good as the first one.

Let me give you an example to illustrate the above point. Suppose you want a car that you
currently cannot afford. God will give you stimuli to think of ways to get the money. He will also
give you the intelligence to follow the best option because only He and He alone knows the
consequences of each and every option. So in this case, He may give you the internal
intelligence to put your existing savings into a particular investment, for example in doing an
MBA from a particular institution, so that you get promoted in your existing job with higher pay
and also get perks that include the car of your choice. He would also give you external guidance
and motivation through various sources such as family encouragement to do the MBA, meeting
with an old friend who just finished her MBA, draw your attention to newspaper articles on
good MBA institutions and so on. But if despite such messages, you find this option unattractive
because it is too much hard work or because you fear you will fail the exam, then you will resist
doing the MBA at any cost.
When God observes your behaviour, in His kindness, He will give you the second best option,
such as investing in the stock market. The above process will start again through internal and
external messages until you finally decide what you want. If you find this second option
comfortable, you will follow the guidance coming to you and invest in particular shares in the
stock market.

God will ensure that you get enough money to buy the car through your investment, but He will
not force you to buy the car. Here the story can get a little complicated which often is the case.
Once you get the money, you may think, “Oh, let me make some more money. I will manage
without a car for a little longer.” God will say, “Fine. I will give you the intelligence to make
more money.” You will make more money and hopefully at some point decide to buy that
dream car. But if you are a bad boy or girl and become greedy and keep wanting more and
more money without using it on anything useful, then God may finally decide to intervene. This
is the toughest part to face for all stubborn children of God.

So what happens next? Well, He may snatch away your money to free you of the greed which is
not helping you in any way. The stock market may crash and you may lose all your money. This
will give you a shock and hopefully, free you of greed. When you recover and suddenly
remember your now – hidden old desire to buy a car, you may get help once again – this is
called good luck. This can happen in many ways.

The simplest thing could be that the share prices of your investments may suddenly shoot up
even if the stock market is crashing, causing you to think, “I am so intelligent that I invested in
the right stocks!” Hopefully, this time you will definitely prove your intelligence and listen to
God’s voice and buy your dream car!

The point of telling you this long story was to fulfil several purposes:

First, you are responsible for your present condition in life, not God.
Second, God is very kind and patient.

Third, your free will can either be your best friend (when you choose to listen to God) or your
worst enemy (when you revolt).

Fourth, I do not need to prove the presence of God in your life. Look at your desires and
compare them with the messages you are getting from friends, family, news, workplace, your
heart and so on. Trust me – all these messages are coming only by the will of God. God can
speak to you anytime, anywhere, through a person or even a physical object.

Fifth, you cannot fulfil all your desires in one lifetime because your desires are so complicated
and endless. That is why you have to be re-born over and over again in one body after another
in order to fulfil your unfulfilled desires or to get rid of them, whichever is easier. This is called
the Hindu theory of reincarnation, rebirth or life-after-death, but it applies to all living beings,
whether animals or humans or trees or fish, etc.

Sixth, God is fair with everyone and only gives us options keeping in mind our past and present
desires and actions, that is, our karma.

This story is highly simplified. Life may not be as simple because we have many desires at the
same time. We are also constantly receiving rewards for our past desires and actions (both
good and bad) apart from reaping the rewards for our present desires and actions.

The day you become totally desireless or strongly desire to go back to God, whichever happens
earlier, God will give you the chance to return to Him in the spiritual world. The only way to
become desireless is to keep fulfilling all your present desires by praying to Him to help you do
so easily. The journey will otherwise always be tough because you and I are not more intelligent
than God.

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A: Krishna, how was that?

K: Good job! It was a very simple way of explaining the most complicated of truths. What else
would you like to talk about today?

A: I suddenly remembered that I wanted to ask You to reveal at least something about the
spiritual world. Please tell me Krishna.

K: Okay. First you add the part about the difference between the real self and the bodily
consciousness as well as between the material and spiritual world. Then I will reveal more if
needed. It is important for you to also share your own realisations with the reader. Otherwise it
will seem that you are an ignorant child who is possessed by Krishna!

A: Okay. Dear reader, the following section from my first book Krishna deals with the difference
between who we truly are and our temporary consciousness. I have also included a discussion
on the difference between the material and spiritual world...

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When you are dreaming, do you think or know that you are dreaming at that very moment? It is
only when you wake up that you realise that you were dreaming, right? But while you were
dreaming, everything seemed so real. Either you were having fun somewhere, doing bizarre
things, being chased by ghosts, talking to a friend you just met during the day or doing
something related to what you experienced when you were awake. So many times when we
wake up from a bad or fearful dream, we say ‘thank God, it was only a dream’. The dreams that
we have are not a reality for the physical body because it is sleeping, but they are definitely a
reality, even if a temporary one, in the mind of the person who is sleeping.

Similarly, the actual or real you is a spirit soul which has a spiritual body but is presently
witnessing this dream world by sitting in the physical body of a male or female form right now.
Only when the real you realises that this physical world is not that exciting, then you desire to
wake up from this dreamlike state and go back to where you came from, the spiritual world.

So one may ask, What is the difference between the ‘real you’ and ‘you the reader’?

The answer is that the ‘real you’ is simply imagining that it is ‘you the reader’. Through God’s
power, the ‘real you’ has forgotten that it is a spirit soul. Why has He put you in this state of
mistaken identity? Well, if you truly knew that you are not the reader in the physical body of a
male or female but that you are a spirit soul made of God’s energy, then you would not be able
to enjoy the physical bodily pleasures and adventures that you have desired to witness. Why?
Because you will simply detach yourself from bodily feelings and absorb yourself in God 24
hours a day because He is so attractive!

Anyway, that is not the case right now, so let me try to explain who you truly are. Suppose you,
the reader, are a female designer, aged 35, named Shilpa Kumar. The real you is a spirit soul
which is sitting in this female body and thinking ‘I am Shilpa’. So you the reader is the dreamlike
bodily consciousness of the real you.

Let’s take the above example further. In the physical world we live in, when you, the reader, go
to sleep and are dreaming, you may imagine yourself to be a princess. But when you are awake
you know that you are a designer and not a princess. This distinction can best be understood
through a practical realisation of who you truly are. This may sometimes be experienced during
deep meditation.

Having discussed the difference between the real and temporary self, I would now like to
distinguish between the present world that we are living in, which I term as the ‘dream world’,
and the spiritual world. Basically, my understanding is that when the spirit soul or the real you
desires to leave God, He allows you to do so by saying, ‘Okay, since you do not want to stay
with Me in My home (the spiritual world), I will give you another home where you can enjoy
your fantasies and forget about Me.’
Hence, the only way God can make you and me forget Him is by sending us to this dream world
or the physical world, Earth, universe, etc.

So why am I using the term ‘dream world’? Because this is the only place where you and I can
fulfil all our dreams and fantasies that may exclude God. This does not mean that this physical
world is fake or unreal. It is very real since all of us can feel our presence here, but it is a
temporary home for the spirit soul in a physical body. It is similar to our dream state when we
go to sleep. The dreams that we have are not fake. They are a temporary reality in the mind
which we give up as soon as we wake up. So when we wake up from this fantasy ride and
realise that we are spirit souls and not the physical bodies that we are sitting inside, then this
physical world will simply seem like a dream to us. Obviously, this can only be understood once
we actually realise this. That is why saints talk of terms such as ‘self realisation’ or
‘enlightenment’ or ‘nirvana’. These terms basically describe the state that the spirit soul can
attain as soon as it realises who it truly is.

So the important question that comes up at this time is the difference between this present
physical world (dream world) and the spiritual world.

The main difference is that this dream world that we live in at the moment is the only place
where we can fulfil all our dreams and fantasies (that may exclude God), by sitting and
travelling in a physical body of our choice, whether male or female, animal or human and so on.
On the other hand, in the spiritual world, we can fulfil all our dreams and fantasies with God by
living in a spiritual body that can take any form we desire such as a human, plant or animal, etc.
You and I can never practically understand the difference between the substances our spirit
soul bodies are made of and the substances our physical bodies are made of because we can
see physical matter but we cannot see the spirit soul.

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A: Krishna, have I written anything wrong or misleading above?

K: Son, you have only written your own realisations in your own words. If another soul was to
realise the above truths, he or she would express it in his or her own words, and that could
differ from yours. Therefore, do not worry. Your realisations are correct for you and a lot of
people will understand what you mean by what you have just written about the soul and about
the material and spiritual worlds.

A: So then please tell me more about the spiritual world.

K: You still have one more part to add from your previous book here – the part that talks about
some secrets of the spiritual world.

A: Okay. Dear reader, the following information deals with the topic of time in the spiritual
world.

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Time has no relevance in the spiritual world. Time does not exist there, so it is no point trying to
ponder over when we were created or how old God is. Let me explain this interesting fact.

In the physical world that you and I are in right now, there is a past, present and future. Even
though we are living in the present in our physical body, we may travel to the past or future
through our mind. After we eat, we may think, ‘Oh what a wonderful dish I just had 10 minutes
ago.’ Here we are using our present time to think about a past activity even though we are
living in the present. The past is not a reality anymore. It was a reality some time ago. Similarly,
a future planned or unplanned event is not a reality right now. It will become a reality at a later
time. In this way, we use our present time to think about, for example, how to have a party. But
obviously that party will become a reality only at some time in the future. To repeat, we always
have to live in the present, at least in this physical body, even though there was a past and
there will be a future.

So how is it possible for time to not exist in the spiritual world? That is because in the spiritual
world, people live only in the present thinking about the present activity. There is no question
of pondering over an act done even a few moments ago or an act to be done a few moments
later. Why? Because that is how a spirit soul’s mind is created by God. It does not need memory
to think about what it did in the past nor does it need the intelligence to plan what to do next.
The spirit soul has the power to instantly know what to do next to fulfil any desire in the
spiritual world. But it loses that power in this physical world (dream world) due to the
forgetfulness of its true identity.

That is the beauty of spiritual life. All desires and wishes in the spiritual world are automatically
fulfilled effortlessly by God and all His companions. So they are constantly engaged in the
present moment doing one activity after another to have all the fun and bliss they desire. Even
if they need to do the same act a million times to fulfil one kind of desire, they will do it without
getting bored because there are infinite ways of performing the same pastime in the spiritual
world, and no one needs to remember how they did that same activity on a previous occasion!

Also, in the spiritual world, there is an absence of time in the sense that everything there is
always fresh. The spiritual world never deteriorates. It is eternal unlike this physical world
where planets may be destroyed by meteors or stars may explode, living beings get old and die,
and so on.

In the spiritual world, whether you want/have a spiritual body which looks like a bird or a baby
girl, the body will remain in the same form forever. At whatever moment you feel you have had
enough of being, for example, a small child (which according to Earth time could take anywhere
between one moment and zillions and zillions of years to decide based on your desires), you
will instantly get another form that you desire and like.

So that is why the spiritual world is a place of fun and excitement, because there you can do
anything you want instantly, simply by desiring it. Now do you understand why God keeps
sending messengers, saints and healers to this world? He knows that you can have much more
fun with Him in His unlimited spiritual world compared to this slow-paced, constantly changing
physical world, where nothing remains fresh forever. We may wake up in the morning all fresh
after a good night’s sleep, but as the day progresses, we get tired even if we are having fun. Day
by day we get older and problems never seem to leave us permanently. Just as one problem is
solved, another crops up.
This journey in the fantasy land that we are in right now will last forever…until we desire to go
back to our true home. I am simply giving you a glimpse of our true home. It is up to you to
decide what you want.

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K: Do you still want to know more about the spiritual world after sharing all this information
based on your own realisations?

A: Maybe some other time!

March 28 – Coping with Life

A: Krishna, I seem to be losing faith in Your presence today. Why is that happening?

K: That is because according to you, your life is not going as per your plans in a particular area –
that is, your current job. You are being narrow-minded here. You are not looking at what you’ve
got from life. Instead you are focussing on what is seemingly dissatisfactory. You are constantly
thinking, Why can’t I do a job which makes me happy all the time? Why do I have to live in New
York and not elsewhere where I will be more comfortable?

Well son, I’m sorry to disappoint you but this was the path that you chose yourself. I have and
always will be there to support you but you cannot blame God for your sufferings.

A: I am feeling a little disconnected from You. I know it is my fault.

K: Don’t blame yourself, Agastya. Look at the positive side of life and you will once again
connect with the beauty within you. I have suggested simple methods for strengthening
yourself...why are you forgetting them? Chant the Mahamantra, do your Reiki healing and live
life as it comes. There will be ups and downs in your life from time to time but it does not
matter how many ups and downs you face in life, it matters how you deal with them. So if
you decide that you will accept everything with a smiling face come what may, then the smile
will always remain on your face even in the worst of circumstances.

A: I am feeling better now. I sometimes feel silly about getting upset so easily. I give up very
easily in life. Is there a way to keep up my good spirits and not give up on life easily?

K: Yes. Be determined to be happy, and no suffering will be able to touch your inner joy. The
key is determination. I have told you that it comes from a strong willpower – something that
can be developed through the steps I described earlier. All the power lies in your heart.
Tapping into that power is the key to success in life. Your spirit self can and does channel a lot
of energy from within your heart to the external body so that you can fulfil all your goals and
desires. But when there is fear or helplessness in your heart, your energy flow gets blocked.
This often leads to diseases in the body since it is not getting sufficient nourishment from the
inner self.

Suppose you have a plant. If you always keep it away from the sun and only give it water, it will
obviously not flourish beyond a certain level and will eventually die. The same is with your
body. If you do not allow it to get the nourishment from your inner power and only give it
material food and water, in the long run, you are bound to become diseased because the body
needs more than just food and water.

A: I know that this might sound like a repeat question, but how do I tap into the power of the
heart?

K: The methods are the same. It all comes down to regular practice. Regular practice can and
does make one perfect in any endeavour. So you can follow any spiritual practice or religious
system, but if you are not regular then no one can help you, not even God.

A: Thank you, Krishna. That makes sense. Now that I am back to my normal self, I have another
question. I see so much suffering in this world and I am scared of the kind of terror that rules
the lives of many people on the planet. Is there a solution to the global problems that we are
facing today, such as terror acts by some groups, climate change, corruption and so on?

K: Agastya, if you ask a true saint this question, he will say that there is no problem in the
world. Everything is functioning perfectly according to the law of karma. Pleasure and pain are
all being experienced as a result of good and bad acts. But obviously, saying that all is well is not
going to take away the problems, is it? So pray, send healing and leave the results to Me.
Problems arise due to the use of the free will in a state of ignorance of the law of karma. What
is a good act? What act can cause pain? Knowledge of this comes only with experience or by
following the directions of the wise ones or Holy Scriptures.
If your life is purified in terms of getting rid of negative karma sufficiently then you will be able
to more actively help comfort those who are in a miserable state of existence. So as of now,
you need to focus more on healing your own life rather than worrying too much about global
problems (which you cannot do much about right now, in any case). There will be a time when
you will be able to contribute to global healing in a significant way. Always remember that God
resides in the hearts of all living beings, eagerly waiting to reveal Himself to each soul to take it
back home as soon as possible. It is just the unwillingness of the soul to communicate with
God that is the root cause of all problems. Once the soul becomes willing to internally
communicate, the guidance will come.

Take care for now. We shall continue later.

A: Thank you, Krishna.

March 29 – The Case of Spiritual Downfalls

A: ‘I am not this mind. I am not this body. I am a spark of the Supreme Lord Shri Krishna.’
Prabhu, I often used this prayer in the past and it brought me immense peace and relief from
suffering. I don’t know why I stopped using it. I really want to bounce back from this lowly state
of spiritual existence and heal myself quickly. I also want to help as many people as I can. But I
do not know what is stopping me from doing so. Can You please help me with this?

K: Son, the prayer you mentioned is very humbling and will reveal the true essence of your
nature to you. Why have you stopped? You must restart. This prayer will destroy the pride and
ego present in your consciousness. It is very easy to veer away from the spiritual path and very
difficult to get back on it. Hence it is essential to have spiritual people in your life because they
not only help you to see where you stand, but also become your support system to help you
stay focussed on the spiritual goals and be protected.

A: Krishna, I am sorry to interrupt You, but I have a question. Is it possible for a soul to have a
downfall after becoming liberated?

K: That is a good question. Let me tell you the story of Jaya and Vijaya of Vaikunthaloka. They
were liberated souls who had managed to reach the gates of the spiritual world. They were
assigned the task of being gatekeepers and kept unqualified souls from entering the spiritual
world. The four Kumaras (Sanata, Sanatana, Sanaka and Sanadhana) reached the gates of
Vaikunthaloka by their own spiritual powers and penances but Jaya and Vijaya refused to let
them in. The Kumaras were proud of their spiritual qualifications and cursed Jaya and Vijaya to
fall back into their material existence once again. It was at this point that I approached them in
My four-handed Narayana form. When I was informed that My devotees, Jaya and Vijaya, had
been cursed by the four Brahmin Kumaras, I had no choice but to oblige because they are given
the highest respect in the material world. So I gave a choice to Jaya and Vijaya to either appear
on the planet Earth three times as demons or seven times as devotees. Since they were so
devoted to Me, they preferred to finish their separation from the spiritual world quickly by
taking birth as demons in just three lifetimes rather than wait for seven lives as devotees. They
then appeared on the planet as brothers in three lifetimes – first as the demons Hiranyakashipu
and Hiranyaksha, then as Ravana and Kumbhakarna and finally, as Dantavakra and Shishupala.
My reason for telling you this story is to show you that even My devotees and other highly
evolved souls can make mistakes. Jaya and Vijaya had become arrogant and this had to go
before they could progress further in the spiritual world. And the four Kumaras’ hidden anger
came out in the form of the curse. So no one, not even karmically liberated beings can decide
when they will be eternally back in the spiritual world because only God knows all the hidden
desires and emotions in the spiritual heart of each soul. It is He and only He who knows when
these desires should be given a chance to get manifested. So for the Kumaras, releasing their
anger once and for all was most appropriate just before seeing Me in Vaikunthaloka. And I
allowed My gatekeepers to get rid of their arrogance by offending the Kumaras.

So son, life is very complicated and no one knows when what desire comes out or when a new
desire suddenly seeps into the consciousness. The bottom line is to surrender to God. He will
take you through all the ups and downs of life smoothly.

In your case, pride and ego crept in at an advanced stage of spiritual evolution in your life that
happened as soon as you got My vision. This is also a risk for all saintly people and gurus who
have become karma free or liberated but have the desire to help other souls on the planet.
Because when they come back and get covered temporarily with the influence of maya or
illusion, they can experience a spiritual fall briefly as long as they are present on the planet in
their physical bodies. Hence becoming karma free is not sufficient to go back home to
Vaikunthaloka or Goloka. Desirelessness is essential. Even the desire to help other souls is a
desire that brings back saints and messengers to the planet to help others. Once these saints
and messengers feel fulfilled in their desire to help, then I give them the opportunity to return
to the spiritual world. So it is crucial to decide in this lifetime itself as to where you want to go
at the end of your journey on the planet.

A: Krishna, I want to go back home with You. I sometimes wonder how I decided to come here.

K: It was your compassion for souls who are stuck with their own sufferings that brought you
back. You were a great being in your past. Your choosing an ordinary life this time was the need
of the hour so you took it up without hesitation. You were confident that you would remember
Me once again in your life and be able to assist those seeking help in their spiritual journeys.
The world is currently undergoing a confusing time. A lot of people want to get on the spiritual
path but are baffled by the presence of so many different schools of thought, many of which
are not genuine and in fact are cheating their aspiring members. This is why I want you to open
up. Just flow with this book. Present it to the world without fear. If you follow all My messages
and guidance in this book, you will always feel safe and protected. There will be many people
who will be attracted to your understandings of spirituality and God and you will be able to
remove a lot of confusion that prevails in the hearts of the masses. But remember again, always
remain connected to Me through your healing and chanting. This will purify you of the
remaining debris of pride and ego and make our talks and discussions more meaningful not
only for you, but for your readers as well.

A: Thank You, Krishna. You always have wonderful ways of comforting me. You have completely
removed all my doubts about my inner voice.
March 31 – Gautama Buddha

A: Krishna, there is one topic I have been wanting to discuss with You for a long time. It is about
Gautama Buddha and his teachings. Can you please tell me – did the Buddha believe in God?

K: Of course he did!

A: I am shocked to hear this and am sure many Buddhists will be too. My understanding is that
the Buddha did not believe in God.

K: Says who?

A: His teachings...

K: Well, that is not true. Of course, He believed in God. But his job on the planet was not to talk
about God but to simply talk about purification of the self.

A: I don’t understand that. Why should such a holy person who is himself treated as a divine
being not have the mission of teaching about God?

K: Agastya, that job was assigned to many other messengers and saints who have appeared on
this planet over the last 5,000 years. I wanted Gautama to focus on one main aspect – that of
non-violence through compassion. The Buddha appeared when there was a lot of animal
sacrifice being carried out in the name of religion. His job was to pull the masses away from
meaningless religious understandings and focus their thoughts on discovering their pure inner
self to gain bliss and immense peace.
A: But what was the problem with the religious understanding of his time?

K: Religious practices are not always followed correctly. Knowledge of appropriate practices
gets lost over time and has to be revived by someone who has the authority to teach the
correct religious principles and practices. When Gautama was born more than 2,500 years ago,
people had become very ignorant about God and religion was simply a means to please the
demi-gods for particular benefits or used as a custom with no spiritual benefits.

A: But isn’t pleasing a demi-god and God the same thing?

K: No, it is not. If you please an administrator in the government and do not respect the
President, is that a good thing? Even though the administrator has to do his or her job of
fulfilling your expressed desires, you are never going to get access to the President. Similarly,
pleasing the demi-gods will give you temporary benefits, but it will never give you access to
God, whom you understand to be Me, Krishna.

A: Okay. But I still do not understand why Gautama Buddha did not talk about God. I mean,
when he attained enlightenment, did he not see You? Did he not see God?

K: He did not see Me in the form you saw Me. But he connected with Me in his spiritual heart
and knew that this world is ultimately governed by Me. You are familiar with the Pure Lands
that some Buddhists talk about. Well these lands are simply planets in Vaikunthaloka or the
spiritual world. The Buddha knew that it is possible to get liberated and reach the spiritual
world if one becomes desireless. So instead of trying to convince people that God exists and
should be worshipped, his focus was on how to become desireless. This was easier to follow
during his time. In today’s world, if you try to teach people to become desireless, they will most
likely run away from you because there are so many exciting things to do and they have several
desires to fulfil in this life. Hence, reviving faith in God is crucial in the present world scenario,
because people are so overwhelmed by their own desires. They are so carried away by these
desires that they don’t remember that there is a Creator behind all this drama in the material
world that they are merely actors in.
A: Krishna, sometimes I feel a strong connection with the Buddha. But when I learnt that he did
not talk about God, I thought I should stay away from Buddhism.

K: Just know it in your heart, Agastya. The Buddha believed in God firmly. What else do you
want to know about Siddhartha or his teachings?

A: Were his teachings genuine?

K: Why do you doubt that? Of course, his teachings were genuine. Just because he did not say
that there is a God and that His original name is Krishna, it does not mean that his teachings
were not genuine. Let me illustrate with an example. A primary school teacher may only teach
his students the ‘abc’ of a given subject because he knows that his students will not be able to
grasp more than that. But does that mean that the teacher does not know more than that? Of
course he does, right? Similarly, the Buddha taught only as much as could be grasped by his
followers, even though he was qualified to teach much more. Generally speaking, every
spiritual master or guru knows far more than his or her disciple can grasp.

A: Sorry for being critical.

K: It’s good that you are being critical. It will help you when you re-read this book and will also
help many readers to get a better perspective on many issues that we are talking about here.

A: Krishna I want to understand more about the Buddha’s teachings. I tried searching online,
but there is so much material that apart from his basic teachings, I don’t know what exactly to
read.

K: Why are you getting so attached to the Buddha’s teachings? You have much more knowledge
and understanding about life than has been taught by Buddhist teachers. Strengthen your own
understanding and then relearn everything that you can connect with spiritually. Read the
Bhagavad Gita, the Bhagavatam, read about the Vaishnava acharyas and about Lord Chaitanya
Mahaprabhu, because this is the field of knowledge that attracts you the most. Your attraction
to the Buddha exists because you have a strong connection with his life.

A: Could I be a reincarnation of the Buddha?

K: I will not put the secret of your past life in this book. Anyway, train your mind to focus on
the present and your past will become a distant fading memory.

A: Prabhu, what is the crux of the Gita, the Bible, the Quran and the Guru Granth Sahib?

K: Son, leave the crux of these holy scriptures for those who follow them. The essence of a
scripture is interpreted differently by different followers and therefore, there will always be a
debate about their true meaning. Also, since they have been written at different times and
places for different audiences, the interpretations and contents change or get modified over
time to suit them. But if you are so restless to know about the Gita, read it again. I will tell you a
little about it but this is not a universal interpretation.

The essence of the Gita is that one should surrender only to Krishna. But again, to reach this
understanding, one needs to have spent many lives undergoing spiritual training in order to
understand the fact that there is a God and that this world is a temporary home for the spirit
soul. Only when this understanding comes can the soul accept that God’s original name is
Krishna and that would naturally push the soul to surrender only to Me.

I am not going to talk about the other scriptures since you do not have much information about
them and are unlikely to follow them anyway. Agastya, life is short. There is no point in wasting
so much time gathering more and more information about life. Use what you have to
strengthen your spiritual powers so that you can become a powerhouse of peace, love and joy
and emit these beautiful qualities.

A: Krishna, can I read everything that we have just talked about today?
K: Yes, please do.
April 1 – Chaitanya Mahaprabhu and Krishna Consciousness

K: How is it going, Agastya? What’s your take on whatever we have discussed so far?

A: Prabhu, I feel happy reading everything that I have written but I must admit that I still feel
doubtful sometimes about whether it is You talking through me or is it just me talking to
myself.

K: Don’t worry Agastya. Let me tell you something to make you feel better. I have mentioned
earlier to you that I am your inner voice. I am telling you again that sometimes when I guide
you to type something under “K,” there is a possibility that some of the messages get filtered by
your false ego. Now you may ask why it is not possible for you to be completely free of the false
ego so that you write only what I want you to write. Well, the answer is that if you are
completely free of the false ego, then you would not want to sit and write in the first place! You
would have no questions because you would be fully connected to Me and completely
detached from your bodily consciousness.

So in order to have this kind of ordinary dialogue with you, I have to allow you to have a false
ego so that you can ask questions just like other ordinary human beings. This was also the case
with Arjun. If I had not pulled the veil of ignorance over him, he would not have any questions
to ask Me and I would not have been able to deliver the spiritual truths through My Gita. So
enjoy the false ego while it lasts! There will be a time when you will be free of this ego. Until
then, just flow with whatever thoughts or words that come to your mind.

A: Krishna, in our previous conversation You told me to read about Lord Chaitanya. Can You
please tell me more about Chaitanya Mahaprabhu?

K: You already know that He was My secret incarnation. In other words, Chaitanya was Krishna
Himself in the disguise of His devotee. What else do you want to know?
A: I am aware that Chaitanya Mahaprabhu appeared on the planet almost 600 years ago to
spread the knowledge of devotional service. But why is He considered by many religious and
spiritual people as just a devotee of God rather than an incarnation of God?

K: The answer to this question is already hidden in what I have just said about Chaitanya. It was
meant to be a secret that Chaitanya Mahaprabhu was Krishna Himself. Think about it. How silly
it would be if everyone at that time came to know that God had reincarnated Himself as His
own devotee! My mission was to teach people devotional service towards Krishna and that
would not be possible if people knew who Chaitanya was. Only a handful of devotees were
shown My original form in order to strengthen their faith in Me and carry out my orders
without hesitation.

A: Please tell me some more secrets about Chaitanya Mahaprabhu.

K: What more do you want to know? I am glad that My mission of spreading Krishna
Consciousness is still going strong even after almost 600 years. When I came as Chaitanya, not
many people knew about Krishna. I had to look for an easy way to attract people towards Me
because as I mentioned to you earlier, this universe is already liberated and it is just a matter of
time before it is wrapped up and finished. That is why I want the maximum number of souls to
become My devotees as soon as possible and hence introduced the chanting of the
Mahamantra: Hare Krishna Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama,
Rama Rama Hare Hare. This is the easiest way to remember me.

Otherwise, in this present kalyug, remembering God is almost impossible for most people due
to their busy and stressful lives, innumerable material desires and also their immense sufferings
as a result of their forgetfulness of the law of karma. To get relief from their miseries people
take to alcohol, drugs, gambling, illicit sex, gossiping and so on, instead of turning to God. That
is why I say that remembering God has become more crucial than ever before for people to be
happy and content with their life and to fulfil all their desires quickly. Since it is only God who
knows what is best for His children, how can they be happy by being forgetful of Him?

A: Krishna, what were the main teachings of Lord Chaitanya?

K: I have already told you that you must read about Him and the best source is Teachings of
Lord Chaitanya as written by Swami Prabhupada. He was a great teacher and a devotee who
has helped to revive the Krishna Consciousness movement around the world. Lord Chaitanya’s
main teachings revolved around the awakening of the Krishna Consciousness in all human
beings.

A: What is Krishna Consciousness? Can you elaborate on this a little please?

K: In simple words, Krishna Consciousness means to be conscious of Krishna by remembering

Krishna. This can be achieved through means such as worshipping Me in a temple, praying to
Me in your heart, chanting My names, reading about Me, hearing about Me from a devotee or
just by thinking about Me as much as possible. This is the highest form of yoga that can be
practised in this world and is far superior to any other form of meditation or worship.

A: But Prabhu, some people think that Krishna Consciousness is the same as Christ
Consciousness. Is that true?

K: Why don’t you first ask those people what they mean by Christ Consciousness? If it matches
with what I have just said about Krishna Consciousness, then yes, the two are the same!

A: Prabhu, please...I am sure You know what people mean by Christ Consciousness. Please
enlighten me since I do not know.

K: Why do you want to find out the connection between Krishna Consciousness and Christ
Consciousness? Either you follow Krishna or you follow Christ. Crudely speaking, it’s like calling
the President, “Mr President” or calling him by his first name. You don’t do both, do you?
Choose the name that attracts you more – Christ or Krishna. That is your consciousness. That is
all I want to say on this matter.
A: Okay, accepted. You also mentioned that in this kalyug, chanting of the Mahamantra is the
easiest way of remembering You. But wouldn’t people who are not Hindus or are not aware of
the Mahamantra lose out on reaching You?

K: There are infinite ways of reaching Me. Some ways are easier than others. It is also the
karma of the soul to be able to get access to one path or another. If you have accumulated a lot
of good karma, you will immediately get attracted to the Mahamantra and chant it regularly.
You may also get connected to other spiritual practices such as Reiki, which is My universal
loving energy that will help you to feel My love for you. Reiki also helps you to become karma
free quickly.

A: Krishna, I have also heard of other healing methods such as Theta Healing, Quantum Healing,
Angel Therapy, Kriya Yoga, Transcendental Meditation, Buddhist chanting and so on. How are
they different from the chanting of the Mahamantra or Reiki?

K: Reiki and the Mahamantra complement each other just like food and water do. If you have a
lot of karma left, then combining Reiki healing with chanting will give you all the material and
spiritual nourishment that you need. However, just as when a person is freed of the urge to eat
and can survive only on water and air, if you are already very purified and have very little karma
left, then the Mahamantra is sufficient to constantly connect with Me.

All the other spiritual practices that you have asked about will also provide different levels of
material and spiritual nourishment. Ultimately, it is the connection to My love that counts the
most and some practices will help you to feel My love. Reiki and the Mahamantra are appealing
to you but may not be so for everyone. Hence, there will always be different paths and
practices to suit different people. Essentially, any spiritual practice that enhances one’s
connection to God’s love can be considered a genuine practice and should be followed
without comparing with what other people are following.
April 2 – Developing Faith

A: Krishna, sometimes I become very critical of you. I am sorry for complaining but there are
times when I lack job satisfaction. At other times, I get frustrated if I am unable to feel love
during my Reiki healing or when I am chanting. I know that I am fortunate to know to some
extent who God is but I tend to get upset easily. At these times I ask myself why God doesn’t
help me when I face a problem even though He is in my heart every day of my life, in good
times and in bad. On a different note, I also wonder where I will go at the end of this life.
Krishna, please give me some guidance on these issues that are troubling me. Thank you.

K: Son, I love you. You are very dear to Me. I do not like to see you unhappy. I am always
watching over you and all other living beings and all the trials and tribulations that each one of
you are undergoing right now are only meant to make you spiritually stronger. This message
goes out to all the readers who are following spiritual practices. Please do not be disheartened
if you are not getting the results that you are looking for. Develop faith in God. Know in your
heart that He exists and is constantly guiding you whether you are conscious of it or not. If
you just become aware of the fact that God is always with you, then you will be motivated to
carry on your spiritual practice until you achieve your goal.

With regard to life after death, the residual desires and karmas that are present in the soul will
ultimately determine where it will go. This issue has been discussed in many books by many
people so I am not going to repeat it here. All I want to say to believers is to try to develop a
strong desire to be reunited with God in this lifetime. That desire will attract all the help needed
for it to be fulfilled. Even if the goal is not achieved in this lifetime, you will once again get a
chance to progress further towards God whenever you come back next in a human body..

Interested readers can use the following prayer daily to enhance his or her connection with Me:

Dear Lord Shri Krishna, I eternally surrender at Your lotus feet. Please reveal Yourself to me O
Supreme One. Please reunite me with all Your glory and shower me with all Your love. I belong
to You forever my Lord, O Supreme Lord Shri Krishna. Thank You.
Learn this prayer by heart and chant it as many times as you like every day. If you are not
comfortable with the words “Lord Shri Krishna”, replace it with “God”. You will ultimately reach
Me if you are sincere in your prayer.

A: Thank you, Krishna. I feel very humbled reading the prayer. I am sure it will benefit all the
people who read this book.

K: Don’t worry about the others, son. You learn the prayer and chant it every day. Whoever is
ready to come to me will definitely use this prayer on a daily basis. I have kept it short so that it
can be learnt easily considering that people have so little time for anything…especially God!
Saying this prayer every day can do wonders.
April 3 – The Story of Krishna and His Devotees

K: Agastya, I hope you have enjoyed our discussions so far. I guess it’s time to end this joyful
month-long time that we spent together.

A: Krishna, why do you want to stop?

K: Son, it’s not Me! It is you…you are now satisfied in your heart with what you have received
over the last month. Since I know that you do not have anything else to talk about right now, I
have decided that we should take a break from the writing and focus on getting your book
published and successfully sold.

A: Krishna, I want to end with one question that has been there in my heart for a long time. I
want to get that answer directly from You. Please could You tell me who Your greatest devotee
is?

K: Son, you have asked a question that cannot be answered easily.

A: Why Prabhu?

K: That is because every soul has the potential to become My greatest devotee.

A: But still, there must already be some souls who have managed to become Your greatest
devotees. Who are they? What makes them so special to You Krishna? I am probably sounding
jealous but I have a burning desire to know the answer.
K: Since you are very dear to Me, I will briefly tell you the story of Narad Muni (son of Brahma).
He had the same question and his search for the answer has been beautifully documented in
the Sri Brhad Bhagavatamrtam, considered the nectar of My devotees and Me, by the saints.

The story goes like this. After King Parikshit (grandson of Arjun) heard the Srimad Bhagavatam
narrated by Sukadeva Goswami, he went to his mother, Uttara, who was eager to know the
essence of his learning. King Parikshit then narrated what he had heard:

Once upon a time, Narad went to the holy city of Prayag and saw a great Brahmin devotee of
Mine. He was very wealthy and did a lot of charity by giving food, clothes and other valuables to
great saints, the poor as well as animals who needed them. When he saw this, Narad praised
him by saying, ‘Krishna is very merciful to you.’ The great Brahmin replied that he was a very
insignificant devotee and that there was a greater devotee in the south of India, who was
believed to be the real object of My mercy.

A: But Krishna, why did Narad Muni tell the Brahmin that You were very merciful to him?

K: Agastya, if a devotee has the ability to do a lot of charity as an offering to Me, then that is
only possible with My mercy and blessings. Otherwise people tend to use their wealth for other
motives, such as promoting themselves to heavenly planets after death as a reward for their
pious deeds or to get name and fame and so on. But pure devotion to Me is very difficult
without active help from Me.

A: Okay. So what was so special about Your devotee who lived in South India?

K: Yes, I’m coming to that. After listening to the great Brahmin, Narad went to South India to
see the devotee referred to. He was a very rich and powerful king and had built several temples
in My honour. The people of his kingdom were all engaged in worshipping Me and when Narad
saw the wonderful qualities of the king and his subjects and their deep devotion for Me, he told
the king that he was definitely the object of My mercy. But the king was not pleased by Narad
Muni's kind words. He said to him, ‘Great Narad Muni, why do you consider me a special
devotee of Krishna? I hardly give anything in charity and I am always fearful. Go to the demi-
gods. They are always situated in the mode of goodness, are sinless, and are worshipped by
human beings. They are the true objects of Lord Krishna’s mercy. In fact, you must visit Lord
Indra, king of heaven, who has the power to give benefits to his devotees and punish the
tyrants.’

The restless Narad then went to Indra’s palace in Swargaloka (heaven) where he told Indra,
‘You must be the real object of Lord Krishna’s mercy because you have been bestowed with so
much power and all demi-gods obey your commands.’

Indra was embarrassed and replied, ‘O great saint. What is so special about me? I am sure you
are aware that I do not have a very respectable record in heaven. Don’t you remember the times
I had to flee this place due to my fear of being attacked by the powerful demons? If you truly
want to see the real object of Lord Krishna’s mercy, then go and meet your father, Lord Brahma.
He is not only the son of Lord Narayana but also the creator of all living entities including the
demi-gods. It is from his mouth that the Vedas originated.’

Narad was pleased with Indra’s explanation and went to see his father in Brahmaloka. He
praised him as the real object of My mercy, citing all the reasons put forward by Indra.

A: So, is Lord Brahma the real object of Your mercy, Prabhu?

K: I accept him as My devotee and he has My mercy. However, Brahma was not happy to hear
such praises by Narad since he considered himself to be My servant who carried out My orders
of creating the material universe. He told Narad that even he was under the influence of My
illusory potency and was not an independent creator. Brahma went on to remind Narad of what
he considered offences, such as when he tried to trick Me by hiding My cowherd friends in the
forests of Vrindavan while we were playing during my time on Earth. He said that he was not
My devotee and that My true devotee was Shiva, since He was always meditating on My lotus
feet and had no interest in materialistic pleasures.
Narad then went to Shivloka, Shiva’s residence.

A: Krishna, I thought Shivloka is beyond the material universe. How did Narad get access to Lord
Shiva’s residence?

K: Yes, it is true that Shivloka is eternal and is beyond material creation, but Narad is an
eternally liberated soul whom I have given the boon to travel anywhere across the material and
spiritual worlds. So when he saw Shiva immersed in worshipping Me in My form as Lord
Shankarshan, Narad excitedly exclaimed, ‘You are definitely most special and are the object of
Lord Krishna’s mercy! You always meditate on Him and the Lord is always kind towards your
devotees. Once, your devotee, a demon named Bana, tried fighting with Lord Krishna, but was
spared by Him because of your prayers.’

As you know, Shiva is either pleased or angered easily. In this case, Shiva got angry hearing
Narad’s words and said, ‘Why are you mocking me Narad? I am not the object of Lord Krishna’s
mercy. I myself crave for the association and the mercy of Krishna’s devotees and do not even
consider myself a servant of the servant of Krishna. If I can give boons to non-deserving souls
who often cause problems later on, how can that be a good act? I have been offensive to
Krishna. Moreover, I have been given the job of destroying the world at the end of time - a duty
that I despise. You must understand that it is the residents of Vaikunthaloka who are truly
blessed and have the full mercy of Lord Krishna. They live in eternal bliss, always glorifying the
Lord in awe and reverence, whether as birds, trees or whatever form they choose. They are
eternally free from fear and all other negative qualities. And even greater than such devotees is
Prahlad Maharaj, who is considered most dear to Lord Krishna. He is even dearer to Lord
Krishna than your father or I am.’

Eager to meet the great devotee Prahlad Maharaj, Narad took Shiva’s leave and went to
Sutaloka, Prahlad’s abode. As he was welcomed respectfully by Prahlad, Narad said, ‘Dear
Prahlad Maharaj, you are truly the greatest of Lord Krishna’s devotees because He has
bestowed His mercy on you. When you were so troubled by your father Hiranyakashipu, the Lord
Himself appeared as Narsimhadev and killed your father to protect you. Even though everyone
including the demi-gods such as Lord Shiva and my father, Lord Brahma were too scared to
appease Narsimhadev’s anger, you bowed down to Him and He blessed you by placing His hand
on your head and said that you were the most fortunate of all devotees of God. It is by your
sheer dint of devotion to Lord Krishna that even the demons whom you lived with became
devotees of God.’

Being a humble devotee, Prahlad Maharaj replied, ‘I do not believe that I am the object of Lord
Krishna’s mercy. He only gives His mercy to those who serve Him in devotion. Since I
remembered Him only in my time of distress, I cannot be His greatest devotee. After being saved
by the Lord, I have become so absorbed in my kingdom that I have stopped worshipping Him. A
great example of the Lord’s devotee is Hanuman. He served the Lord in the form of Lord Ram. I,
on the other hand, had no opportunity to serve the Lord as I got a chance to see Narsimhadev
only for a brief moment. Go and meet Hanuman. He continues to meditate on Lord Ram even
now – so long after the Lord departed to His abode.’

Narad was very happy to hear so much about My devotees from My devotees themselves. He
then travelled to the abode of Hanuman and was pleased to see him worshipping My form as
Lord Ram. However, Hanuman got upset when he was referred to as the real object of My
mercy. He told Narad how much pain he felt in his heart due to being separated from Ram and
that if Ram truly had mercy on him, He would not have gone back to His own abode without
him. He then went on to describe the great fortunes of the Pandavas, whom he considered as
greater devotees than himself because I, in the form of Krishna, had associated with them in
many ways such as by being their friend, chariot-driver during the battle in Kurukshetra,
messenger, guide and so on. Also, because the eldest Pandava, Yudhisthira was older than I was
when I was present on the planet, I would often bow down to him. So due to all these reasons,
Hanuman felt that Narad was wasting his time by not going to meet the true objects of My
mercy, the Pandavas!

A: Wow! All this sounds so wonderful. It is a beautiful story if it is really true, Krishna. It is very
touching to see the humbleness of Your devotees who despite having got Your mercy, consider
themselves insignificant and prefer to glorify other devotees rather than taking pride in being
dear to You.

K: It is true, Agastya. Humility and a pure heart is what separates a devotee from a non-devotee.
However, in today’s world, people have become so ignorant of and disrespectful towards ancient
scriptures such as the Brhad Bhagavatamrtam, that it has become very hard to get attracted to
Me by listening to these true stories.

Anyway, moving on with the story...Narad took leave of Hanuman and reached the residence of
the Pandavas. He approached the eldest Pandava, Yudhisthira, and addressed him respectfully,
‘Dear Maharaj, I have been searching for the true devotees of Krishna and I believe that all the
Pandavas are the real objects of the Lord’s mercy. You are so fortunate that Lord Krishna has
descended on the planet as your intimate friend and guide. He has shown His mercy by living
with you like a family member. Such intimacy is not available even to the great demi-gods who
function under His direct guidance.’

Yudhisthira was not happy hearing what Narad had to say, ‘Dear Narad Muni, what mercy are
you talking about? Don’t you know how much we Pandavas have suffered despite God being
present in our lives? We lost all our wealth and even our kingdom to the Kauravas and
ultimately had to fight and kill them in the battle of Kurukshetra to get back our rightful share. If
people listen to our story, they will definitely lose interest in worshipping Lord Krishna.
Moreover, we have become so engrossed in our materialistic activities that we hardly get to be
in His company. The immediate family members of the Lord who reside in Dwarka are far more
fortunate than us because they get the opportunity to always remain in His presence and enjoy
wonderful times with Him.’

Even Bhima, the second eldest Pandava, agreed with Yudhisthira and added, ‘Dear Narad,
Krishna is very deceptive and is very difficult to trust. Even though He helped us to get a great
and powerful kingdom, it can hardly be treated as His mercy because He has now abandoned us
and rarely has time to meet us, His cousins. So you must go to Dwarka and visit the Yadu
dynasty.’

Narad then came to Dwarka where I lived more than 5,000 years ago. When he met some of
the leaders of My clan, the Yadus, he bowed and began to praise them, ‘Dear Yadavas, I am
most fortunate to be in your presence because I feel that you are the greatest of the devotees of
Lord Krishna. You all have been given special favour by the Lord due to which He has chosen to
personally live and engage with you, members of the Yadu clan. Even the residents of
Vaikunthaloka are not as privileged as you all are.’
The Yadavas replied, ‘Dear Narad Muni, please do not give us so much respect. We are
unimportant. Even though Lord Krishna lives with us, He often leaves us to visit other devotees
without caring about the pain of separation we feel when He goes away. The most fortunate of
the Lord’s devotees is Uddhava. He is always with Krishna as His friend, disciple and
counsellor. In fact, Uddhava is so special and dear to Krishna that sometimes He sends him to
fulfil certain tasks that He needs to perform himself!’

Listening to the Yadavas, Narad was frantic to touch Uddhava’s feet. Uddhava, the humble soul,
bowed to Narad and said, ‘O great Muni, members of my clan consider me the real object of
Krishna’s mercy. But the truth is that such a close association with the Lord had made me very
proud. So the Lord once sent me to Vrajabhumi to convey a message to His most beloved gopis.
When I saw the unconditional pure love that the gopis had for Krishna, my own pride was
shattered. That is when I truly understood the beauty of Krishna’s pastimes with all His beloved
devotees in Vrajabhumi and realised that the real object of His mercy were the gopis of
Vrindavan.’

I was present at the palace of the Yadus at the time Narad came to see them. Uddhava had
informed Me about his visit. I knew that Narad had been searching for the real object of My
mercy so I decided to describe to him the prominence of the gopis of Vrindavan. I told him that
these simple devotees thought about nothing but Me all the time. They felt immense pain when
away from Me. That pain gave the gopis an incomprehensible sense of delight, a feeling of
ecstatic love for Me. In fact, the happiness they felt by thinking of Me during the separation from
Me gave them greater joy than what they felt in My presence.

After hearing about the greatness of the gopis, Narad became blissful and requested for My
mercy forever. He realised that My mercy was the highest benediction that a soul could receive
from Me, and that devotion to Me could reach the extent experienced by the gopis of Vrindavan,
only through My mercy.

A: Krishna, I don’t understand what You mean about the devotion of the gopis. I mean, how can
a devotee feel greater joy in Your absence compared with being in Your presence?

K: Agastya, I know that these are new topics for you and generally speaking, they are quite
perplexing. Only those who have practical experience of spiritual love for Me can gradually
comprehend the love felt by the gopis. I also want to add that all My devotees have a special
place in My heart, be it Narad, the Brahmin devotee, Shiva, the Pandavas or the other devotees
mentioned in this story. Even you are special to Me. It’s just that the reciprocation of love for Me
is felt the most by the gopis of Vrindavan and thus they are the highest objects of My mercy.

Ultimately, it is up to the soul to decide what kind of relationship it wants to have with Me,
whether as a saint who is constantly meditating on me, or as a servant who wants to serve Me, or
as a friend who wants to enjoy playful pastimes with Me, or as a lover like the gopis, or as a
child like you!

A: Thank you for sharing so much spiritual knowledge with me. But all this seems too good to
be true. What if everything I have just written is simply an unfolding of my own imagination?
Once again, I repeat my initial doubt...why would readers of this book want to believe that
Agastya, an ordinary man, could actually talk to God through auto writing? The language and
messages presented are so simple that people will definitely think that I have written it from
my imagination…a make-believe story.

K: If you or any of the readers of this book want to feel this way, it is perfectly fine. Why? Well,
if anyone knows who God is, then he or she will also know that at the end of the day, at the
highest level of understanding, everything originates only from God. This book, your life, the
readers, reality and fiction, all come from Me!

Take care, Agastya. I love you a lot, My child. If you ever want to communicate with Krishna,
just pray in your heart sincerely, and be assured, I will be there for you!

A: I am forever Yours, Krishna. I love You and thank You for this book.

K: GOD IS WITH ALL THE READERS OF THIS BOOK...ALWAYS!

 PART III

LIFE AFTER AGASTYA’S TALKS

WITH
KRISHNA
When I woke up, she smiled at me and said softly, “Wake up dear. It is already 10:30 am.” I sat
up and looked around the room. I felt as if I was in a dreamland. I looked at her again, the
beauty of her eyes tugged at my heart. Then I looked in the mirror and asked myself, “Who am
I? Who is she? What am I doing here?” And all of a sudden, as if struck by a thunderbolt, I saw a
flash of purple light in my mind. The light appeared right in front of me and from the light
emerged the most handsome angelic being I had ever seen.

“Who is he? Why is he here?” I asked myself.

Before I got any answers to my questions, a loud ringing sound led me to open my eyes.
I saw my mother standing in front of me. “Welcome back Agastya! We knew you would come
out of your coma soon. The Lord has definitely been merciful to you,” she said excitedly.

I didn’t know what she was talking about. I looked around at my surroundings, “Mom,
what am I doing in this hospital room? What happened to me?”

Out of the blue the word Krishna came to my mind and I blurted out, “Where is
Krishna?”

My mother looked concerned and asked, “Son, who is Krishna? Are you talking about
Lord Krishna?”

Within a few moments, I recalled my conversations with Krishna, my auto typing, my

questions, and His wonderful answers. I was also able to remember the most beautiful vision I
had got of the Lord. The date was 1st March 2050, and the time was around 10 am. How could I
have forgotten all this? And now here I was in the hospital.

The last time I spoke with Krishna was on 3rd April. I quickly asked my mother the date.
She told me that it was 4th April 2050, and that I had been in a coma for about a month.

“Krishna! Is this some kind of joke, Prabhu? Why are You playing games with me? Please
help me before I freak out,” I cried in my heart. How could it be? How was it possible for me to
have such beautiful discussions with God for over a month in a coma? Was I dreaming? I looked
around the room and stared at my mother as if she was just a part of a bad dream. She held my
hand and told me softly, “The doctors told us that it would take a while for you to readjust to
reality, Agastya. Take it easy, son. Try to relax. I am sure it is hard for you to digest the fact that
you were in a coma for so long. I just hope that your memory has not been damaged.”

“What can I say, Ma? All I recall is that it was just last night that I was very happy
because I had finally finished writing my book, Talks With God. And now you’re saying that I
was in coma for more than a month. How is that possible? I cannot understand anything Ma.
Please help me clear all this confusion.”
 She looked calmly into my eyes and said, “Don’t worry, son. You will be alright soon.
You’ve come back to the real world after a long break. You have not written anything since your
last book…the one you gave me….what was it titled? Krishna, am I right?”

“Yes, that was my first book. But I find it impossible to believe that I never wrote
another book,” I protested. Before she could answer, a doctor came into the room. He
examined me and congratulated me for coming out of my coma. He had told my mother just a
couple of days ago that there was no guarantee on when I would wake up from my deep
slumber.

“Agastya, can you remember anything from 1st March, the day before you were
admitted to hospital?” he asked.

I didn’t know what to say. All the information channelled to me by Lord Krishna was so
fresh in my mind that it took me a while to take myself to the day I supposedly started writing
my book...in a coma! I was apprehensive of being kept back in the hospital for more treatment,
so I decided to withhold the details of my vision of Lord Krishna. I was sure that the doctor
would say I was hallucinating, so I just told him that I was at home and could not sleep well that
night and that was all I could remember. I was very curious to know when and how I was
admitted to the hospital. “Doctor, how did I get into a coma? Who brought me to the hospital
on 2nd March?”

The doctor replied, “This might sound strange to you but when you went to sleep on the
night of 1st March, you never woke up in the morning. It is our assumption that...”

My mother interrupted, “You were supposed to come back to Mumbai that day. When
your father called you at around 11 am to check whether you had left home, there was no
reply. He got worried and asked your friend Bhavna to check on you. When you didn’t open the
door, she called 911 and the police had to break into your apartment. They found you in deep
sleep. Despite their many attempts to wake you up, you remained unconscious. You were then
brought to hospital and remained in coma until this morning.”

The doctor continued, “So again, Agastya, please can you tell us if anything strange
happened on 1st March? Your case is quite unusual given that you didn’t have an accident or
any other external injury to cause you to go into a coma.”

I didn’t want to tell the truth about my vision so I lied that nothing had happened that
day. He told me to let him know immediately if I recalled anything from that day to help the
doctors understand what led to my coma. After some routine checks, he assured my mother
that all I needed was some rest for a couple of weeks to get back on my feet.

I was relieved to be discharged and when I got back to my apartment, all I desperately
wanted to do was find my laptop and look for my Talks With God. I still could not believe that I
was in a coma for a month and that my talks with Lord Krishna never happened. I frantically
searched all the documents on my laptop but could not find anything. All I found were the
spiritual books and articles that I had saved over the years. I checked my emails, but there was
nothing worth reading. I was heartbroken.

Why did Krishna do this to me? I had been so sincere in my attempts to find Him. Then
how could all this happen? And most importantly, was my vision of Lord Krishna an illusion? I
had no one to discuss these questions with. I did not want to trouble my mother who had come
all the way to look after me. I decided to wait for her to return to India to find out if there was
any material on the internet about the form of Lord Krishna that I believed I had seen on the 1st
March 2050.

For the next two weeks, I stayed mostly at home resting, as per the doctors’ advice. My leave
from office had been automatically extended by a month to allow me to recover fully. After my
mother left for Mumbai on 18th April, I sat down to recollect all that I had talked about with
Krishna. I managed to note down most of what I assumed were direct talks with Krishna and
arranged everything in a book format. I mentioned my vision of Krishna in full detail even
though I was unable to find anything online that was in any way similar to what I had seen. I
was not afraid of being called a lunatic. What did I have to lose by sharing my story? Little was I
to know the consequences of what I was writing.

By mid-May my book was complete. Before approaching a publisher, I circulated a soft copy
amongst a few of my friends. Even though I wrote the book as fiction, some of my friends were
quite critical about the contents, since they could not believe that someone could ever talk to
God through auto typing. However, Karan, an old school friend from Delhi, was very positive
and told me that he was happy to receive the book. He promised to finish reading it and give
me a feedback soon. I assumed that he reacted like that because he, like me, was a fan of Lord
Krishna!

Anyhow, my anxiety to know if I ever had a real vision of Krishna remained. So one evening I sat
in bed and started chanting the Mahamantra. I was adamant to keep chanting till I got a
message from Krishna. As time passed, my chanting became more and more intense and after
about a couple of hours, I started feeling a pleasant sensation in my heart. Love for Krishna
seemed to be awakening or so I thought. As I continued, the beautiful feeling kept increasing
and surprisingly, I did not get tired at all. Was I going to see Krishna again? I did not know.
It was 11 pm and I had been chanting for almost four hours. The momentum did not wane even
for a second. Before I could decide when to stop, the doorbell rang. It was strange since I never
had guests so late at night. I did not want to stop chanting so I didn’t answer the doorbell and
remained in my room. A few minutes later my phone started ringing. Was Krishna testing me? I
was not going to give up. I carried on and prayed to Krishna to reveal Himself to me.

The next sound I heard was that of birds chirping outside my apartment. Since my eyes were
shut for a long time, I had lost all count of day and night. Krishna had still not appeared and I
was upset. I was beginning to tire and thought that I should stop chanting and sleep for some
time. But my plans were not to materialize. All of a sudden the phone rang again.

I answered in a tired and sleepy voice.

“Agastya! It’s me Anisha, calling from Kolkata. Remember you had sent me a copy of your new
book?” she asked enthusiastically.

I was feeling like a zombie and my brain seemed to have almost stopped working after chanting
non-stop for so long. It took me a few moments to recognise the voice. I had met Anisha in
London while doing my MBA and we had become friends. Of all the people I least expected
Anisha to call and that too, so early in the morning! I had randomly sent my book to many of
my friends for their reviews and had forgotten who all I had sent it to. “Oh yes, hi Anisha! This is
a pleasant surprise,” I replied, though it was more of a shock given that I had not been in touch
with her for ages but I decided to talk to her briefly, since she at least had the courtesy to reply
to my email.

“I know it must be early in the morning in New York but it was important so I called. In fact, I
tried your number a few hours ago but there was no answer,” she sounded somewhat restless.

I wondered if Krishna had heard my prayers. Maybe it was He wanting to give me a message
through Anisha. “Is it something to do with my book? Actually I did not sleep all night and...”

She interrupted before I could finish my sentence, “It is regarding the vision of Lord Krishna as
mentioned in your book.”

I jumped out of bed immediately feeling my heart beating faster. “What about it?” I asked
excitedly.

“Well, first of all you must tell me – was it fiction or reality?” Anisha asked.

I hesitated, but then gave in, “Real to me.”

“Seriously? But did you see this form anywhere else before you had the vision?” she was
curious.
“No,” I replied honestly.

“Agastya, did you know that this rare form of Lord Krishna that you saw and mentioned in your
book is also engraved in a temple in Odisha? Are you sure you never saw it before?”

“As far as I know, it was my first time. Please tell me more,” I was getting impatient.

“Well, I just wanted to tell you that I recently went to this temple in Konark near Jagannath Puri
and saw the beautiful form of Krishna that you wrote about. When I got back to Kolkata, I
received your email and started reading your book just yesterday. As I went through your
description of Krishna, I remembered the form of the Lord I had seen. I was surprised at the
similarity of your vision with what I saw and thought that you had probably visited the temple
at some point in your life. That’s why I called to check with you on it.”

The phone got disconnected before I could thank Anisha for this information which seemed to
validate the genuineness of my vision. I called back but could not get through.

I was no longer in the mood to sleep. There were many things in my head: Krishna must have
definitely arranged for me to get this message to confirm that I was not hallucinating on 1st
March....but then, how and why did I go into coma on the 2nd?

I had no answers to that yet. But I rejoiced at the fact that Krishna had actually revealed Himself
to me. I could not sleep all day and spent all my time searching online for the image of Krishna
in the Konark temple. When I finally found it, I was amazed. I could not believe that my vision
was so similar to an image that I had never seen before! Immediately I started thinking, ‘If
Krishna revealed Himself to me, then where is He now?’

I had always read that God is everywhere, especially in our hearts. But now I started feeling a
strange sense of separation from Lord Krishna and became desperate to talk to Him directly
once again.

After a long nap in the evening, I woke up feeling fresh and decided to start chanting once
again. This time there were no external sounds to disturb me. However, despite my intense
chanting and praying, no magical event took place that night either. I was disappointed but
chose not to strain myself by staying awake all night. With some difficulty I managed to sleep
for a few hours.

In the morning, I opened up a hard copy of my Talks With God and flipped through it. The
dialogues felt so real. A line that I had put in bold letters pulled my attention towards it:

It is just the unwillingness of the soul to communicate with God that is the root cause of all
problems.
I pondered over this sentence for a long time and thought, Was Krishna not appearing before
me because I was unwilling to talk to Him? Or was it because I was not purified enough to see
Him again?

All of a sudden, I heard a voice in my heart, Krishna is everywhere. Perhaps He wanted you to
talk to Him in a different way so as to enable other souls like you, who are not yet capable of
seeing God all the time, to at least have the faith that God can speak to anyone in any way...

The phone rang just then. It felt as if it was a signal that the universe was agreeing with what I
heard in my heart. It was Karan, my old buddy from Delhi.

“Hey Agastya! How’re you doing man?” he sounded very cheerful.

“Hi Karan! I was not expecting you to call so soon,” I replied.

“Guess what? I’ve finished reading your book. It’s fabulous!” He sounded so encouraging that
for a moment, I felt that I should just get the book published without any further delay, but my
doubtful nature spoke up. “Really? What did you find special about it?”

“I believe you my friend. Even though you have written your book as fiction, there are many
things that make perfect sense. And hey...that vision of yours, how did that happen? Had you
seen that image in the Hanuman mandir near CP?”

I was confused, “Which temple are you talking about? I’ve never been there.”

“You must be joking! I’m talking about the famous Hanuman Temple in Delhi. How could you
have missed going there? And more importantly, how could you see the form of the Lord in
your vision without ever having seen the image in the temple? I know that the forms are not
identical, but they are quite similar,” Karan said agitatedly.

“I’m surprised too. I don’t know how I got this vision without seeing any similar images before.
It only goes to show that perhaps my vision happened for real and was not a hallucination,” I
replied softly.

“Very true. Anyway, I just wanted to give you my feedback. Great going, Agastya. Hope to see
you next time you stop by at Delhi. Take care. Bye for now.”

“Thanks Karan. See you soon.”

***
It took me a month to finalise and send my book to the publisher. It was a great success and
brought me a lot of fame and riches. Gradually, I forgot about why I ever went into coma, and
by March 2051, I gave up my job in New York to become a full-time writer.

I had started living the good life following a career that gave me satisfaction and happiness.
What else could I want from life? Well, Krishna probably thought otherwise.

On my thirtieth birthday on 6th June 2051, instead of celebrating with my parents and some
close friends in Mumbai I decided to spend it in Vrindavan on my own. My parents were
disappointed with my decision but ultimately gave in. I arrived in Delhi on 4th June and before
going to Vrindavan, I went to meet my friend Karan. He was happy to see me and we spent a lot
of time together discussing spiritual topics. Karan also took me to the Hanuman Temple he had
mentioned. When I saw the picture of Lord Krishna he had referred to earlier, tears rolled down
my cheeks. I was awestruck by His beauty and all of a sudden the whole world and life itself
started seeming meaningless to me. I became restless to go to Vrindavan.

By the time I reached Vrindavan on my birthday, it was late evening. I quickly took a rickshaw to
the Banke Bihari temple and was fortunate to get the most beautiful darshan of the Lord
despite the temple being very crowded. After partaking of the prasadam I went to the shores of
the holy Yamuna river. The sun was setting in the distance and a gentle breeze rejuvenated my
senses.

I sat in one of the empty boats by the river and asked the boatman to give me a ride. He was
old, perhaps in his early sixties, and was surprised to see me alone since most pilgrims came
either with their families or in large groups for boat rides on the river.

As the boat moved slowly through the waters of the river, I closed my eyes and started
meditating on Lord Krishna. All sorts of thoughts swirled around in my head but soon, within a
few minutes, my mind became still and the image of the Lord from the Banke Bihari temple
appeared in my mind. My mind raced back in time to 1st March 2050, and I remembered my
final prayer before sleeping that night. It was, Krishna please take me back home as soon as
possible.

As soon as I repeated this prayer in my mind, I heard loud thunder and looked heavenwards. It
had been a hot summer day and now dense clouds were beginning to form in the sky. Before I
could ask the boatman to take us back to the shore, I heard a soft gentle voice coming from the
direction he was sitting in.

“Son, do you remember me?” the mysterious voice startled me. I turned but could no longer
see the boatman. Instead I saw a beautiful youth in dazzling gold garments with the most
beautiful garland hanging around his neck! He had a flute in one hand and with the other hand,
he was rowing the boat.

“Krishna, is that You?” I was in shock.

“Why? Do you have any doubt?” He replied with the most captivating smile.

“Am I hallucinating or am I in a coma?” I was trembling.

“Calm down, Agastya. This is for real,” His voice was very composed yet authoritative.

“Prabhu, are You playing tricks with me again? The last time I thought I was talking to You, it
turned out to be a total illusion. That entire month was spent in a coma. Now what games do
you want to play with me dear Lord?” I asked

“I know that you will take some time to adjust to this new reality, but it is true, My son. I have
been watching over you for a long time, protecting you from deviations from your spiritual
path. As I have already confirmed to you through your friends, your vision of Me was genuine.
It’s just that on the night of 1st March 2050, your soul became so tormented by its separation
from Me that you had no desire to live anymore. Since your mission on the planet is yet to be
fulfilled, I could not let you leave the body. But you just did not have the will to wake up the
next day. That is why your body went into a coma. And because your soul was craving for Me, I
decided to keep you going by conversing with you from time to time until you finally agreed to
return to your life and get on with your spiritual mission. You had long desired to be a
successful writer, but never tried pursuing it as a career. I thought it would be a good
opportunity for Me to motivate you to write while your body was still unconscious. I knew that
the prospect of becoming a writer would re-awaken your desire to live and I am glad that you
are here today.”

“But Krishna, how do I know that I am not hallucinating even now?” I was still doubtful of what I
was seeing. How was it possible for God to sit and talk to me directly? I was awestruck.

“Okay I’ll do some magic to convince you!” said Krishna laughing, and suddenly disappeared.

I looked around and found myself all alone in the boat. I got scared and started praying aloud,
“Krishna please come back. I am sorry to have doubted You, Prabhu. Please don’t abandon Your
child...,” I pleaded with tears in my eyes.

There was no reply. I was confused about what to do next. It was already getting dark and I had
to return to Delhi to catch my late night flight to Mumbai. I waited for a few minutes and when
nothing happened I decided to row the boat back to the shore myself, since the boatman had
disappeared. However, the more I tried to reach the shore, the farther it seemed to appear! I
could see the lights and could also hear people chanting mantras and prayers to glorify Lord
Krishna, but my boat didn’t get any closer to the shore despite moving along the water!

This must be Krishna’s trick, I thought, just as my phone rang. It was my father. Hearing his
voice I was relieved that I was definitely not dreaming or hallucinating. I talked to him briefly
but did not say anything about what I was experiencing. I had many questions...Where was my
boatman? Where was Krishna? Was He punishing me for doubting His presence?

My heart began to sink. What a fool I was, I thought.

My arms started aching with all the rowing and I was tired. Helplessly, I gave up and with folded
hands, I looked up at the sky and surrendered, “Krishna, please help me.”

“Brother, is something wrong?” I heard a deep voice.

It was the boatman! It was just too magical! I asked where he had been all this while. He looked
very calm and said smilingly, “Krishna must have given you a darshan.”

“Did you see Him?” I asked curiously.

“I see Him every day!” he said laughing.

“Then where has He disappeared now?”

“God has His own mysterious ways of communicating with us mortals. No one can predict what
He is up to. Only His closest and dearest devotees get a chance to be with Him all the time.”

“Then dear sir, please could you ask Krishna to appear here and talk to me again?” I begged.

“That is not possible.”

“Why not?” I could not contain my restlessness to see Krishna again.

“Well, He is the Master of His own will and because you doubted His presence, He chose to
disappear from your sight.”

“Then what should I do to see Him again?” I asked anxiously.

The boatman seemed to feel sorry for my pathetic condition. He looked me in the eye and said,
“My friend, why do you still hold on to this horrible doubting nature of yours? If you free
yourself from this, you will definitely see Krishna once again.”

“Dear boatman, you seem to be a very learned and blessed soul. My problem is that I
sometimes feel that I have become free of all doubts, but it keeps coming back to trouble me
again and again. I really don’t know how to get rid of it. Can you please help me to deal with
it?”

The boatman briefly closed his eyes as if in prayer. A few moments later, he opened them and
said, “Doubt only comes from ignorance of reality. It is like a stubborn, deep rooted disease
that cannot get cured easily. But if you are determined, you can definitely keep yourself away
from its negative influence.”

“You say that doubt comes from the ignorance of reality, but what is this reality that you are
talking about?” I sounded like a man bereft of all intelligence.

“The reality that I speak of is that everything happens under the watchful guidance of God and
that He will eventually take every soul out of its miseries in time. If you develop faith in this
reality, then doubt has no place in your heart. And faith will grow if you connect with this reality
on a daily basis.”

I pondered over the boatman’s words. My brain seemed to have stopped working and I was still
not clear about the link between my doubting nature and the reality he was referring to.

Feeling helpless, I fell on my knees and touched the wooden floor of the boat with my forehead
and closed my eyes. Facing the boatman I prayed, “Krishna, I have lost my intelligence today.
Doubt has consumed me so much that You disappeared from my sight. Prabhu, I am helpless
and the only thing I can understand right now is that You are the Supreme Source of all
sources...the Supreme Cause of all causes. Please have mercy on me, a tiny spark of life that has
emanated from You. I give up, O Supreme Lord. I have no reason to exist in separation from
You...”

The boatman looked very pleased when he heard my prayers and instantaneously transformed
into the beautiful, dazzling form of Supreme Lord Shri Krishna!

“Prabhu, you were my boatman? I knew You were playing a trick on me!” I cried in joy. “Why
did You let me remain away from You for so long?”

The Master of all Masters glanced upon me with so much love that I fainted with ecstasy. When
I came back to my senses, God was still sitting with me in the boat and with His hand on my
head. “Congratulations My son, Agastya! Your spiritual mission on the planet has finally
begun...”

I looked up at Him and was purified of all ignorance. All memories of my past lives were
revealed to me. Soon I realised who I was and what I had to do to fulfil my mission on the
planet. All my doubts disappeared and I became happy and peaceful.
“It’s time for you to get on with life, Agastya. Take care and never forget that God is always with
you,” saying these final words, the Lord disappeared again.

I was in absolute bliss, blessed by the presence of Lord Krishna Himself. My boat mystically
reached the shore of the river and as I bid farewell to the holy land of Vrindavan, I somehow
got a feeling that I would not be coming back.

I was now a completely transformed man and a new journey had just begun for me. There was
a lot that I had to accomplish over the next 30 years and only God knows how I will succeed.

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THE END OF A NEW BEGINNING

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