Writing Competition:

I have done something I have never ever done before- took part in a writing
competition !

Today by 5 pm the results will be out, they are Hundreds of participants. We had 3
days to prepare for the topic, the procrastinator
I was, I wasted 3 days, all the time something inside of me was stopping me?, I am
not sure but I think it was the fear of not winning- fear of seeing myself as a
loser.

... and just when there was a couple of hours left to submit the writing, I started
to write. In 1 hour I was done.

The truth is I have already won something very special. Just by allowing myself to
write I realized that writing comes to me effortlessly, I am not
strained or tensed while words simply.....flow. This is an inner awakening to
finally have found my PASSION- Writing!

So why am I posting now much before 5 PM? I want to overcome this false belief in
me that "You must play to win".

I ask Allah will I win today? ( I would like to :)

The reply:
Who do you think you are? don't try to play God. You only have the right to put in
your best effort, hope for the best But do not
make an assumption that you will win. If you think you are special ( that's Nice),
but so are each of those hundreds of other participants.
Who wins is MY DECISION...rather ask yourself do you have a "Winning Mindset"??

and so I am pretty relieved of the pressure to win, whether I win or not, I have
firm faith that writing is my passion, yes I am raw, in 40 years
this is my first ever writing competition, my grammar sucks, my spellings are
terrible, I have a lot to improve on this passion of mine.
But above all I want that "Winning Mindset" . Which to me is being open to make
mistakes, being vulnerable,one that is open to learn...one that can
face defeat ...go back and work hard only to return again and compete....all for
joy of learning not just for winning :)