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But when you make friends, the problem comes out. When you have friends, it feels like you
have people that care for you and help keep you out of trouble. Then, my confidence goes up and
I could learn. It feels like you come out of the shadows and you just speak now.
Maybe you could share this with my next year teacher so they will get me more.
Reflection:
There are many affective and sociocultural factors that seem to have influenced G’s
experience in acquiring English as a second language such as: motivation, inhibition, attitudes,
levels of anxiety and self-esteem, family expectations, acculturation patterns, value systems,
prior educational experiences, and school culture. However, when interviewing G about his
language experience, I heard him articulating a language story that was significantly affected by
G has minimal school experience before moving to the United States. He only received
formal instruction in Portuguese for one year before moving to America. Furthermore, it seems
his school experience was not heavily academic based as he mentions “there is not much reading
and writing in kinder, 1st, and 2nd” grade. When he started school in the United States, G was
not able to fully utilize his native language because he was still emerging in his Portuguese
language skills. This presented challenges for G while trying to acquire English, because “greater
proficiency in the first language (L1) helps students achieve in school” (Diaz-Rico, 2018, p. 7).
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G did not view his knowledge of Portuguese as beneficial because he was unable to draw any
connections between the two languages he was learning. However, I did find it intriguing that he
G expresses a great amount of anxiety around using language successfully with peers and
adults. G participated in the whole group more than any of my other students. He was eager to
share his thinking and show off his learning. However, if he made a mistake, he would quickly
follow up with a phrase that sounded like, “Guys, sometimes I say things a little differently
because in Brazil they talk differently.” He was hyper aware of what his peers think of him and
how they viewed him academically. Anxiety “can cause learners to feel defensive and block
effective learning” (Diaz-Rico, 2018, p. 12). Rather than simply focusing on learning, G is
dividing his “attentional resources into both learning and worrying about learning” (Diaz-Rico,
2018, p. 12). Fortunately, this barrier did not deter G from continuing to participate in daily
discussions and learning activities. On the other hand, I saw this anxiety and low self-esteem
seep into his independent work time. I often found G displaying work avoidance behaviors, such
as talking to friends and frequently getting out of his seat. Through private conversations with
him, I found that he was internalizing and becoming fixated on the opinions of others. This
presented a great challenge to his language learning, because he did not feel safe and supported
G’s language journey is centered around a desire to feel wanted, valued, and accepted. He
described the beginning of his language journey as being very sad and lonely due to not being
able to fully express himself. He would accomplish “great things in school and have to wait until
he got him to share with [his] mom and dad.” Not being able to instantly connect with his
classmates was frustrating, while also extremely motivating. G desperately wanted to “acquire
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language with the specific purpose” of being able to engage with his peers (Diaz-Rico, 2018, p.
11). He also displayed a sense of urgency to “become a member of the culture of [the English
language] group” (Diaz-Rico, 2018, p. 11). I think his motivation impacted his language
development positively, because it drove his desire to learn English. He wanted to be understood
and to be heard by his classmates and friends. He was longing to “replace” the things he had to
leave behind in Brazil, such as his friends and family. Conversely, I think some of the actions
that resulted from his motivations were unhealthy because they made him grow apart from his
native language. The best language experiences for students are where the students can grow
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