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e TMraHTCKa M He 3Haelll Ha KOM CBAT Ce HAMMpalll HEHOHOLIHO, a MOXKE
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OTBOPEeHM, NYBalyM OM, TH e HAaTMKaa KHUrata B pyijete C LyMUTe:

»[Ipouemu moa, maka Hatl-naKpas Moxe U da Me pasbepeui”.

AKO TROeTO COOcTBEHO BHTpenINO pubse e THXO M 3abyTAaHO HAKBe B
bIbAa Ha MOPCH3HAHNeTO TH, Ta pasbepeul equa Ch3HarenHa puGa-ruraHt
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OTCABaH M Thpcu OTTOBOpy. YeepaBam Te, le PM OTKPueMl, cAey KOE TO We
ce MouyCcTBalll CHOKOeH uM OamaHcupan. 3a oKonO nem Munymu...

OT Bcxka lIpasHa CTpannija fo BCAKa CieyBalya We HaMepuut paskasn,

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OT Hac UMaT GoesHeHaTa HY Ka fa VAT,

SaroBa MOCAaHUeTO MM,

OT CLpHeTo ta ena KpaitHo HenryHoga Pubaa e:

Hexapcmeo Hama.
Tepcenemo
u Tlapadoxcom,
u /yoocmma,
u Modpocmma,
u dicmunama,
ca Beunu.

JKusomom e Ween,
MOUHO 6B MO3U Cu Bud,
3aujorno MOUHO Maka CMe CU 20 U36panuU.

Huxoea ne cnupatt Ha edno mucmo,

keep on swimming, litile fish!

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The 1975 - “Me”, tuxo, B Kbcuua cneqoben. Menoyuara ce 6belte BIMAA B
MO3bKa MH H HE Me OcTaBsite fa AMuTaM. Max GonesHenara HyKaa fa cilywiaM
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qa KbpBa. He saigoro CbhM Ma3OXMCT, a 3aJOTO HAMAX THprlienve ga BilAsa
pAGOKO B GoKara, Ha KOTO We CbM BeuHO BspHa. He 3aljoTO CbM Ma3OXMCT,
a 3aljoTO BCMYKH CMe, HO HeBoms. HaMax THEpneltie ga uaxKMBeA NCTHHaTA 3a

TOPeseH Wht, UpeAM Wa ce NOObPKaM OT AbKATA, KOATO ¢ YCMMBKaTa Ha BCeKM

4yoReK B TOS CBAT. [Ipeam ga ce pasGorea oT BCHUKO (pamMBO, KOeTO BCMUKU
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CM BCAKO KBTYe, KoeTO Oewle HarHcTcHO ¢ YepHMmika. He 3a fa TO Npats u3BDH
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KaKBO CTaBa BBIPOC B OCTaHalaTa 4aCT OT TeKCTa Ha Ta3M MeceH. UyBax camo
“Oh I was thinking about killing myself, don’t you mind? I love you, don’t you
mind?”.
Anno Topa 61xa eqMHcTBeHMTe AyMu, KoMToO 4yBCTBax cBOu. FyuHcrReHMte
AYMM, KOMTO Ca TOKOBa “mou”, Ye He € MMaNO M MOMEHTT OT KUBOTA MU, B KOATO
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XBaHAaX HAKONKO FeTKM, 60M, eEMHO Crapo MWiaTHO, M 3arlowHax Ba WacmarBam
limact clef, mact, yepHa Goa. Moe 6m, ako dePHOTO Oellle HaBDbH, Wjewe Ja
omekHe BbTpe.

Heusyo cmpanno ce cayuu.

Equa cpetia, apka burypa 3amouna ja ce OTKPOABa B LleHTbpa Ha Tes ThMHM

BOM, KOMTO pasiMBax M HacnosBax No aTHOTO. Equa pu6xa, KosTO Gee
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WHewmacmue.

MW Ce SAMUCHAX?

»Kak taka 6 ma3zu dyma ce Kpue Wwacmuemo?

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HyYMMaKaTa SHAM"?

Vmax Oe BbIIPOCH, HO MH Ce MCkKalile fa TH TH 3aflaM, 6e3 AYMU.

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Jlexa cM Ha MeKM4YKOTO Nerprie. Hamupam ce Ha ABaHayjeceTHAa era “ reyaM

TDMHOTO Hebe. BIOKMaM Kak BR BCeKM YepeH Mpux ce Kpue Gan ups. /lyHara ¢
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HaMUCHAaNA e epeutHo KoNue, KAZANA e epeutHa KomaHOd. He cu 3a myK’.

00:23
He com 3a TyK. [[pagecer or BageceT M YeTMpM vaca QuulaM HacHta. ,AKO
6ewme na Opyea nnaHema, NaK Himawie Oa ce uyECMBaM HA MACMO, He obeunseatt
Kpacueama 3ema!“ — ajocsa ce eyHara Puéa B Meu. [ipyrara saspasa: Ha
ocmananume naanemu ecenenckama mo6oe e cuana, ycetua ce! lle ce uyecmeaau
o6tuuana no Hesemen Hauur! [/pppara Pubxa Gepsa fa OTTOBODU: ,,AMU aKo He ce?
Kaka e cmucoaem? 3awuo com dnexcna Ga xusea?” Mononosmte ca OesKpalinn.

00:41
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Pewiux fa cripa.
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Ha ci 1O3BO/1H fa He MCKaM Jja Ce PEMOHTMpaM @KeETHEBHO,

JJa cu 1o3Bo0ns8 fa cb ciraba.

ja He TaBaM CbBeTH Ha Apyrute, 3anjoro WHec (unm Moxe 6m yrpe)

Beye HAMA /fa CbM CTapaeljata Ce M OCb3HaBalllata Ce.

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cnaba OTHOBO, ToraBa ce OCcBOGOmMX.

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makm, ce oxa3a ceobodama, KoAMO mopcex.
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M Bbobure Moxe sm fla ce ropopyt 3a Te6 B eMMHCTBeHO MCA?

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AMroTHATA?

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IPHBHM, a BeYepTa - OM3HEC Tama CBC CaKO M OOYBKM Ha TOK,

Tenwanua 4 KpeaTMBHa MAM NaTeTMUHO anaTM4qHa?

Hapbrpe rieqauy eXCrpOBepT MIM WMPOKO 3ATIHall MHTpoBepT?

Tlapenmay sey, WIM BAeCHABaLUMAT OrbH?
XBbpualjMAT Ganon C XenM WIM [bpBOTO C KOpeHM BIMTM B TBEpyara
3emx? JleceTKku Metadopy MAM KaxKM CM TO B pa TeKCT:

Hamam udex tuo e mo mosa moe A3!

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He MCKaM Jja 3HaM. Ka3sBam TOBa M MMC APyrOTO, CHOMeHaBaM Hero
M Ce BPbIjaM aK B HayaOTO, Beye pelusia ja TbPCA CpeweH BapwaHy.
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ObCKAM UM 4YIIA, Cle], MaIKO MbpKamM, rams vw iWetyRaM.
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cm emoumn. Vianuram ce, caMo 3a Ja WaytHa OT Olle 1O-BUCOKO.

Kak yla pasGepa Koe OT BCMUKMTe MU “a3” e eceHuMata Mu?

Vi cuey karo orrosopr e “scuuxu 3aedno”, Mora CaMo a OTIIpaBs cpeleH

QPbBCT K’bM HeOecata, fa CeqHa a M3HM E]JHM KBAHOBe, TOKAaTO cit
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Wake me up and
put in me in the sky
Pll be a star, only you can make me shine

Kiss me goodnight and

find me in your dreams
Pl be your guide
you know that’s where I live
in endless flight

The moon is calling

stars are falling
my love keeps growing for you

Wake me up and
pack your things all tight
I have a map,
we can live this world behind
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I'm not special

just somewhat interesting
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nor am I as smart,
witty or funny
as I would like to be

but
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I'll always try to lighten up your day

to make you see the struggles as latent victories
my inner optimism is contagious
my idealism will make your faith grow
your fears silent

and ‘though my ideas might seem insane

and you might think I'm naive or delusional
I know my power
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but what you become
when you're around me

I'm like a balloon

grab ahold

and you'll always stay afloat

I'm not letting you go

and I'm never going down
T'll always find a way to make things work
as long as you're near me

you will too

and even though I cant ,,change the world“

I can change how you see the world
I will saturate the colors

you'll cry
and laugh
with me
at me
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by going too fast
I will let you be yourself around me
no questions asked

and maybe this is how I'm changing the world

if I can chase away the dark cloud above your head -

lama magician!

so who cares if they dontt believe me

I see the change in your eyes

I see them brighten up
that’s how I know I can make a difference
one person at a time

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responsible for everything. And you cannot turn away. Your destiny is bound
with the destinies of others. You must either learn to carry the Universe or
be crushed by it. You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty
enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors.”

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de HapayOKCbT e Hal-HOpMaMHOTO M ecTecTBeHO Heo BbB Bcenenara.

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CMH KUBOT, HOKATO Ce Hayda TMacHO fa U3pa3ABaM eMOI[MMTe CM M a
CH 1OSBOA Wa Obya WeTe, Fa Wada CNOKOMHO, pes xopa, a KoraTO ce
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HMUlaneTo cTaBa TpyqHO. OTKpuBaHeTO Ha YCHOKOABalija MMC’b CraBa
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WM Mnade.
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Tesu penone He Thpcar oyoOpenue, pas6upane, puckyTupaue,

CbIMaCABaHe WIM ONpoBeprapaHe.

lpocmo uckam 0a 60am.

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I'bHa KaTO Meceunua!

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Tu sppauim. Hanpes. Tux.
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€ MAHA pea/IHOCT MW He BCHYKO € IIPOCTO C’bH.
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OaBHO HalIpey UM Olek Jalle WaTenHo WIOUKNTe TO TpoToapa. IToKomebax
ce 3a 4YaCTM OT CeKYHAaTa, HO B Kpalilia CMeTKa JOTMYAX FO HELO, COKUX
P'bKa Ha paMOTO My, Tolt ce oOObpHa M My Mogzagox mapute.

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hepormmby, npumMyalm Ha 6yKBM, KONTO HOpM He ycuAax fla pasyeta Tos
cneqobey. TocneqHute penoge 61xa 10-YeTIMBM VM Tmacaxa:

“But in the event that we do offer our help, with the acknowledged pos-
sibility of an embarrassing outcome, we sometimes get a true smile, a grateful
warm look, a sincere “Thank you” and “Have a nice evening”, that probably
almost no one who said to you before, really meant in such a way. Its worth
it. | say do it. Do it more often.”

Tpaosaie fa ciipa fa MUCIIA, Fe HAKOM le TO HallipaBM BMeCTO MeH,

CaMO 3aHJOTO ce CTpaxyBam MIM CpaMyBam. Caio TaKa He € BAXKHO KaKBO
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HeroBy. He e BaxKHO M KaKBO lle CM NOMMCHAT Dpyrnte.

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“HAMA Ba Lo HoRMMHel. Topa cromia. Croyoxaa Hage.

Tas3v HOMO e O6OBTa, KOATO UMaMe Ja fasleM, TA e Heu3uepriaema.

Hama cmMMc'b/ fla CU #@ Ta3MM 3a “orpememenu cbillectBa” (xopa mM
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Pu6éu, 6escropHo e Knpt Ko6evtn (kakro Bapowem cam ce OlMcBa, B
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fla ce MOTONM B OKeaHa Ha YYBCTBaTa, Ha UMeETO 'DHO BEPOATHO e MMaz
ycellaneTo, ¥e *KMBee Half-aBTeHTMYHO.

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U3TpelANO Ha BbPXa, HO 3aeTHO C TOBA e OuNO HYKHO fa pasbepe Kak a
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TOBOPMM 3a CMIHaTa CbIIPOTMBA KM TOBa Ja Obse pasmo3HaBaH, KATO
no-cielManed MAM pasimden oT Apyrute. AKO HAKOM, HAKOTa ucka Wa
HaJHUKHe B Cb3HaHMeTO Ha Pubu, B TexcroBete Ha Huppana, kakTO ut B
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Ta 6UBa USTPbrHaTa M3NOA KpakaTa My Mu 6omKaTa, KOATO M3IIMTBa OT
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c Be AYMM — BCMYKO, KOeETO Te OTKDCBa OT ,,TYK M Cera” M pealHocTTa,
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uskycrRoTo. lip Knpt Tosa ce oKa3Ba My3iKaTa.

“Thank you for the tragedy. I need it for my art.” K.C.

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HpowbybkaBa Ma Ce BH3TMANABa, HAK be WbAGOKO B Hero. Hempumupenueto
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Ha Kpas.
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paxya nerengata Kppt Ko6benn.

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TOBA, Ye NOCTABEHMTe TpaHMM OT KOMEKTMBHOTO OOeECTBO Ca TOKOBA
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Have you ever felt that? Restlessness that keeps you awake in your sleep?
Being “uneasy” seeming like a vague statement of what's really going on,
because “uneasy” would actually feel nice right now? Fighting is futile. It’s
the permanent mask you try to put on, but it always seems to slip at the
most inconvenient of moments, revealing the truth. The emptiness. Feeling
so uncontrollably sad and vulnerable, but seeming apathetic. Desperate for
a reality check, but the only one that’s been offered to you is the one that
shows your complete and conscious isolation.

Part of the whole, part of the divine, you lost all that, pathetic is all
you feel. Only thing left to do now is to just experience it and make sure
you survive it. Walking the extra mile to get to those wounded areas in
your mind, dismembered and thrown in thousand different directions.
Cautiously reanimating your most vivid nightmares and transferring them
into the only ‘here and now’ you know. Sinking your fingers into your tem-
ples, praying the skin gives in, before you do. You're at that point where
you just want to end it all, but the “reassuring” thought that this might
actually be impossible makes the abyss even darker, while the air thickens
with each breath. No death. Such a morbid thought to live with. “Why?”
youd ask, before even thinking it through. “What is death?” I'll ask back

i FL
“An end, right?” And if there’s no end? If there is no... end? You know what
else has no end, according to some books? Hell. Reaching further down
the path you're barely aware of your own being. On top of your head and
shoulders all your demons chant dementedly. Facing the black, never ad-
justing, you don't slow down. You can't slow down now. Barely breathing,
your eyes sting, your knees are weak and your mouth whispers “It should
be near, it should be near...” You start to crawl, your blood is thick, your
hands are stiff, you pray “No more, it should be near” Truth is, it’s further
down this time around. Faces pass you, words are spoken, they only echo
in the distance. You no longer share the same space as them, your human
casing does. That's not you, but they don’t know that. They wort ever know
that. ‘It should be near..” Your sanity is dripping away, leaving a trail of what
used to be a promising future, now only fluid that evaporates on contact.
You hit a wall. Your fingers trace it, trying to make sure it’s really there.
Your eyes are blood red, you exhale silently, shedding a tear. “I’m here.
Ym finally here” You've made it, you reached your lowest point. Now turn
around, face the light and never turn back. Darkness will always find a way
to creep in on you, just focus on the light. That bright light dot that grows
bigger with each step. This light is only growing, because it takes a step
towards you when you do too. And after a while... when you finally meet,
you realize this bright dot has a form, a human form. That’s when you meet
your other self. The balance is found, the circle is mended.

PSG

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guess it seems fitting. And now, just pretend for a split second that a part of
you thinks in a different language. Making it stop expressing itself in that
language would mean repressing half of your entire being, and for what?
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green grass, hot sand.

I want to go outside and take a big breath.

I want to walk streets I’ve never walked.

I want to get lost.

I want to see people I know I'll never see again.

I want to hear them talk, but not understand a word they say.

I need to go to an unknow restaurant, close my eyes, open the menu and

put my finger on something, then order it, not knowing what it is.

I need adrenaline.

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I want to get beaten in an alley.

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{ want to live, existing isn’t enough.

Just one day.

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truly belong.
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I float alone

on my little boat
you can come aboard
but stay not for too long
for it’s a journey of mine
and mine alone.

I'm not unkind

you are not left behind,
you are left to be drawn
on a path of your own.
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It’s all just an illusion.

Your mind will always try to comfort you.

Your body will always play tricks on you.

You won't even know if you're thinking straight or biology is controling

your entire being.

You'll think everything's alright when it’s not.

You'll think everything is falling apart when it might just be falling into
place.

Emotions.

The reason of the inconsistence in your state of mind.

You'll always strive for a connection. It’s natural, we're a social spieces. We
do better in groups.

Most of us strive for the ‘group’ of two.

I know | did.

I can’t say | feel that way anymore.

I can’t say [ feel like I belong anywhere, with anyone, anymore.

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A way to find meaning and purpose.

To feel less alone and lost.

You'll say it’s not, but how do you know it’s not your mind protecting you
again?

Don't you ever search for the deeper motive?

I feel I doubt mine too much.

Why not alone?

Is alone wrong?
Is it bad?

Is it not better than a lifetime of trying to connect and never getting there,
simply because there is no such thing as pure merging?

I can never feel exactly what you feel.

I can never see the world through your eyes.

I can't pick your brain, it’s locked.

Everyone seems to be okay with as much connection as they can get, but
Tm not okay with human earthly connection.

I need something surreal.

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[surerecal}
adj. having the disorienting, hallucinatory quality of a dream; unreal;

Unreal, you say.

Unreal.
Non-existent.
Not real.

What is real anyway?

The ground under my feet feels real.

The clock on the wall ticks away real minutes of my life, that I will never
get back.

And yet when | look into someone’s real eyes and search for something
realer and meant only for me, I can’t find it.

It seems to not exist.

In the end, some things are actually realer than others and there is no way
of escaping them.
Or is there...
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