Charisse Ann V.

Balondo
Humss 11- St. Mark 9/18/21
REACTION PAPER
“How did Covid-19 change you as an individual?”

"Our lives have changed" we are living through a time of uncertainty

together. It has made us deeply aware of the experiences we love that we lost. We
have changed, and the new ones that we adopted. But being in this kind of
situation, I have found a lot of discoveries about myself. While staring at the mirror,
one question popped into my head "Do you still know who you are?"

I know, "Change is inevitable" but the truth is I don't want to change. You
see, I am an overthinker. My brain constantly races, not necessarily stressfully, but
it’s like my thoughts never rest. Now I consider overthinking my hobby because I can
make simple things to be complicated. I am often deemed worried, stressed, or
anxious.

When this pandemic started. I notice that I am slowly changing, from being
confident to have low self-esteemed. My mind affects my body, physical health,
social health, and hard to make decisions. It exhausts my mind the fact that I'm
alone, I don't have friends to talk to in person, I have no one to talk to regarding my
worries and difficulties. "Changing" really gets me. The fear is there.

Days, weeks, and months have passed. My overthinking only got worse. I
reached the point that I want to "end" it. I hate dramas, but here I am acting like a
drama queen. I ask myself why those thoughts are even happening and why I cannot
shut them out. This COVID-19 affects me, us. I know I’m not the only one
experiencing this. But there is no problem given by the Lord that we cannot solve.

In this time, I need to grow, I need to be better, I need to know that I can do
it. These problems cannot take me down. Yes, Overthinking is most probably the one
thing I overthink most. But, I have a lot of miles away to take. I can't just stop here. I
will not forget that there is no easiest route to grow.