All my life, I’ve never been this humiliated.

I was killed by knife of words and

been shot of insults. The worst part there is that, it was not made by some ordinary
people. Yet, my bloodline did it. I was angry, pissed off, sad, and hurt not only physically
but emotionally. You can feel your heart’s bursting into different emotions. It will be in
pain until a moment later your tears are continuously flowing without knowing it. It is not
simple emotions yet it is very strong that it can dominate you and will sometimes put you
into your own grave. How sad is that? Knowing that you can make suicide acts without
thinking of what will happen next.
Have you ever been physically hurt in an early age? Have you been slapped many
times? Have you been cast out in your own home? Well, this is my everyday life. I chose
to be happy but reality’s slapping me recently. Is this a curse? Then I want to break it and
embrace freedom. Sometimes, I just want to disappear in this madness. I don’t feel love
at home. In short, no one cares and no one loves me. Maybe they just love me because we
are blood alike or maybe they loved me because they will soon passed to me the
responsibilities. It’s a cruel life, no one loves me for who I am because for them I am a
useless jerk.