Job

When I was a little girl, I thought that life is easy if we are just be nice and study. I mean I know that
there will be a test in our life, but I thought it always maintain to be handle. So I guess I really was a
nice girl back then. I try to study, like when there was homeworks , I try to did it myself. Yea some
friends help me when I asked and of course my parents help me too when I felt difficult. But I always
try to do it myself. I have a little dissatisfaction when I could not get done my own task. You don’t
think that I am a perfectsionist aren’t you? Beccuase I’m not at all. I remembered a little bit about
my childhood, especially in terms of studying or learning (because in this section, I’m talking about
study and job stuff). But my parents said that I used to love following my cousin to learn, like writing
A,B,C, stuff like that. So you think I’m passionate about studying? Hmm not at all. I just don’t like
when I’m incapable of doing what’ve been told to me. I just a little bit disappointed when I need
someone’s help. Like I’m being ignorance and selfish right now? Hmm may be yes absolutely but in
this case I dare to say that I’m not. Why? Because it’s not that I had a bad emotion or temper when
in the end I was helping by someone. I’m mature enough to know that we, people, are need each
other. There’s no way that we could do everything without learn. It could be from ourself learning or
learning by someone. Right? Disappointed is just my honest feeling, and I can deal with it.

Short story, I went on my next milestone in study. Kindergarten first, there wasn’t any special about
that I mean in my memory. I just through it normally, all I know is that I don’t find any meaningful
difficulties through my kindergarten era. I made friends, I wrote, read, and learnt nicely even tho I’m
not making any achievement there like class’s champion and stuff like that. Were they all what
normality needed. Behind the spotlight and blend with the situation.

The complicated era begins with my elementary school period. Not that complicated tho, just indeed
more complicated than my last paragraph of course. Here’s the thing, my kindergarten and
elementary school were kind of mix used building, it has kindergarten building until high school
building. The reason my parents put me in my kindergarten was because it closed to my
grandmother’s home, we used to live there at my dad’s mom house since my he didn’t have home
for us yet ,me and my mom. (Actually we still not yet got our own house til now, we used to living
together with my mother’s family side, just in case you wanna know. But aren’t we talking about
job ? ). Also some of my cousin’s school was there (cousin from my dad’s behalf), whether it
elementary or junior or high school, I couldn’t remember it correctly. So that building school was
more like friendly neighborhood to my dad’s family member who lived there together at that time.

At first, my parents wanted to put me in another elementary school in the middle of the town. It
used to be my mom’s elementary school back then. What I know before, we have to pick the right
school to define our future. For example this elementary school we choose not only in learning
context but also must be in a good neighborhood and stuff like that to see how the school will be
affect to the our next study phase next like junior high school, senior high school up to university in
the future. Most people (am I right tho?) wanted to go to the school that have all the so called good
category to define their future, to safe a place in their future. Not gonna lie, me too. But now, I do
realize it was all bullshit (not that bullshit but actually we could be everything in our future based on
our true will not attending that so over glorificated building school. But ya, I can say, people who
came from there is a bit privilege in this world. Not being salty, but it helps sometimes.)
I could barely live, like damn every second is a messfull of blessing and tragic cases.