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Judge me
all the way you want. Whether I’m being selfish, rude, ungrateful or else. This is supposed to be my
honest thought.
First of all, I felt collapse in my career. I’m getting used to it, that my ability in my field is replacable
and mediocre. Even the fresh graduates more compatible than me , I guess. You and I could ask,
what am I doing these years, am I not learning? All I know I’m doing my best (so far as I recognized)
but it’s something that you couldn’t push. I couldn’t push my self to be the greatest but better, I still
could do it. I admit that I’m way more better now than to my fresh year of becoming so called
“architect”. I do thank to God, supports system and ofcourse myself for not quitting until now. But to
be feeling more alive, u need something that really I don’t know what to called it. Lovers of life. I
mean to pursuit more what you love , to give love on what you do. So probably we can assume that I
didn’t enjoy what I’m doing right now? It’s not like that, but I still not find any comfort feeling and
hunger in what I’m doing. It always making me stress, scared to let down my result by my abilities. Is
it normal?