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I got laid off a couple years ago, at 41. When you get laid off
and you’re 40 or older, included in your severance packet is a
document that lists the ages of all your co-workers. It’s
required under the — and typing this makes me slightly
despondent — Older Workers Benefit Protection Act of 1990,
meant to defend the benefits of workers from age
discrimination. Perusing this list feels wrong, like you’re
invading your former colleagues’ privacy. Yet you can’t look
away. Seeing your age and their ages, like that, in a list, in
black and white, jolts you into considering where you’re at on
your professional journey. And what I realized when I saw
my age on the list: I was much older than I thought.
It wasn’t just that I was 41, which, let’s face it, isn’t old. It was
that I was 41 and bored. And a little tired. And, at times,
cantankerous. Crotchety, you might say. My professional age
was more like 51. Sometimes 61. Once, in a conversation with
an intern in the work kitchen about the fridge clean-out
schedule, I was 89. A spry 89, but still.
Exacerbating this problem was the fact that I had spent the
entire span of my thirties at one place — a prestigious men’s
magazine. I thought I had stability and security and swagger.
What I didn’t realize is that I had slowly started draining
energy from the place where I worked instead of injecting it
with my own. I was getting soft. I was getting lazy. I was
getting older than my colleagues.
Not only did they not care, but during a restructuring, one of
my colleagues was actually bummed he would have to leave
Cubeland and move into his own closed-door space. At first,
it didn’t compute. “But you have a door, man!” I thought.
“And you can close it! You can privately talk to your
plumber!!”
But now I get it. For him, the office is a democracy. The office
is where you work with people and make interesting things
happen, together. Why would you work any better because
you were able to close your door? Why wouldn’t you want to
be around other people who are working hard? Why wouldn’t
you want to Slack funny shit to them and hear them laugh
about it? Why wouldn’t you want to be an active member of a
community? (Because you’re tired, that’s why. And your
office is where you can nap with your eyes open. And soften.)
Mentorship is reciprocal.
Help them. Because you know things and have seen things.
And you are inured to certain events, like mass layoffs and
budget cuts. You know how to cope. Your stalwart attitude is
a model. But also admit what you don’t know. There’s
nothing more humble than saying to a younger colleague,
“You’re better at this than me. You should do it, and I’ll
watch.” And there’s nothing more flattering.
You have to move on.
Younger workers just don’t carry around shame and
embarrassment like older workers. Social media has provided
them with a platform for expression and feedback to that
expression. We think we’re the calloused ones. We’re not.
They are.
Earlier this year, I was laid off from the new place, too. It was
a strangely thrilling experience. It felt like an opportunity,
not an ordeal. The prospect of starting over somewhere else
wasn’t traumatic at all. Why would it be? I was nimble, eager,
ambitious, and unshakable. I was young.