Starting my life in highschool. I promised myself to be good at school, but I met you.

August,22,2022 at
Imelda integrated school promising myself that I’ll be a good student because I ‘am just a transferee
I’am so nervous I couldn’t move, I know to myself that I can’t make friends because of being an introvert
saw this guy looking at me and also he’s attractive, am I in-love again? I looked away and beside me I
saw a muslim It took days for me to be comfortable and the guy keep staring at me I kinda assume that
he likes me.

iam starting to like him too, I also found out that his name is Jasper and never expected to make friends
with the muslim girl because its only been days and her name is Raja, there’s also two girls behind our
seat, they also became our friends, Aliyiah and Ellaijyjah. couple of days passed, I want to get close to
Jasper, I knew his full name so I searched it up on Facebook, I will wait for him and I will make the first
move, I sent a friend request but he didn’t accept it, so I ignored him the whole day and didn’t even
make eye contact, I kinda regret ignoring him because he ignored me back, while the teacher give us our
lectures, I saw this guy and he’s kinda struggling because he cant see whats on the whiteboard and since
iam already done copying the lecture, I let him sit in my seat which is so near at the whiteboard and
because I was on the front seat, I didn’t know him well because its only been few weeks since the first
day of school started but I kinda notice him sometimes. I feel so sick so I didn’t came to school the next
day, but at that night Jasper accepted my friend request and since iam already on facebook, I’ll check my
messages too and I saw a message request “hi” the anonymous person said so I replied back “hi? Are
you from the same class as me? 7-diamond?” I replied it took him so long to reply so I just ask Aliyiah
and Ellaiyjya if they know him and they said they know him, “hey, are you that girl who let me sit in that
chair when I cant see whats on the board? You are so kind” he replied “yeah” I replied back and I guess
we are friends now so I ask if him and Jasper were friends and he said yes “wait do you like him?” he
replied, I was panicking at that time because how did he knew? So I denied, I think he noticed that iam
always making eye contact with Jasper everyday , the next day when I came to school they already
voted for the class officers yesterday and Jasper is the escort, iam not surprised at all. I went to my seat,
Aliyiah lean closer to me to whisper something “I heard they were shipping Jasper to the secretary” she
whispered, porcha she’s our secretary they said she was blushing and Jasper keeps looking at Porcha, I
feel like iam dying inside I cant explain my feelings, iam jealous even if I don’t have rights to be. Porcha is
pretty and smart I cant compete her and besides I don’t have rights to be jealous, Jasper is out of my
league anyways, but I just cant get over Jasper i just cant with those eyes, how can I move on with those
precious eyes who stares at me fiercely and now staring at Porcha. Aliyiah and Ellaiyjya cheered me up,
but I rushed to the bathroom, This toxic love, its ok I came to school to study anyways. Its ok iam still
young, I don’t need love and I cant even give the definition of love, its just puppy love but so hurt so
much. When I stopped crying I got back to our classroom “what happened” Ellaiyjya said “nothing, I just
need some alone time” I replied back, I notice the guy that Iam chatting with last night I saw his name in
his facebook account I think his name is Jiro, I saw him looking at me, I think he noticed that I like Jasper
maybe iam making it too obvious, its almost our Mapeh class so I sat down, “ok class today I’ll be picking
4 leaders for our dance” 2 girls were picked and also Jiro and iam shocked because the teacher called my
name, I was one of the leader. I hate so much responsibilities and I also hate being the leader, I stand
beside Jiro “pick your members, leaders” Jiro was leading me who to pick, after we did he said it once
again “do you like Jasper” he said “NO! no why do you think so?” I replied, I sat down to my seat and
told Ellaiyjyah and Aliyiah what he just said “maybe you are making it too obvious?” Aliyiah said. Our
morning and afternoon class is over so I went home. I was overthinking that he already knew so I
chatted him “Jiro if you tell Jasper I’ll kill you” “so you do like him?” he replied back “do you like anyone
in our classroom?” I replied “You” he replied back, I was panicking, WHAT? NO WAY HE JUST KNEW I
LIKE HIS BESTFRIEND, and I don’t want to reject him, “Aliyiah guess what, Jiro likes me” I chatted Aliyiah
and Ellaiyjya in our group chat, “no way. WHAT?” said Ellaijya, I got back to Jiro’s messages and I kept
apologizing “iam so sorry, iam very sorry. What do you like about me anyway?” I replied “what are you
talking about?” he replied, huh? I thought he liked me? “what do you mean you just said you like me” I
replied back “no I mean, you, do you like someone in our classroom?” he replied back, oh no I just
assumed he likes me, “guys, false alarm, he doesn’t like me” I chatted in our group chat, I got back to
Jiro’s messages again “why didn’t you said so? Its your fault you didn’t put question mark on it” I replied
to Jiro “sorry then” he replied back, oh geez! Tomorrow will be awkward. The next day came, Ellaiyjya
did not came to school today so Jiro sat on her seat which is close to mine, me and Jiro kinda became
friends and more close and he ship me a lot with Jasper, I don’t know is he either being supportive or
just jealous, and it’s kinda annoying The morning and afternoon class is already over so we all went
home. and as usual I chatted Jiro again “you are friends with Porcha right?” I said “yes, why?” he replied
“I think she likes jasper” I replied

Jiro: what? That’s impossible, I know porcha she have a boyfriend already
me: