Liminally Me

Sometimes I wish I'd been born one way or the other,

A singular, enterprising self out of supposed nothingness,
Not feel the pressure to make anything of it all.

I've suffered through this change of heart,

I don't understand why.
I have no control over it.

I'd hooked on to that one word, “Pretending.”

Think about who you are,
Searching for identity,
Trapped in the limbo.

You can fly, but do not belong in the air.

In conflict with who you are,
Crisis of identity.

But I realize that

Everything I’m insecure about-
One can simply experience it and enjoy it.

The words slide from my brain and knot in my stomach.

“I am me.”
Just another inscrutable woman.

Are You a Boy or Are You a Girl?, Sarah Savage; Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret, Judy Blume; “Drinking
Coffee Elsewhere,” ZZ Packer; “Driver’s License,” Olivia Rodrigo; “Five Non-Binary Adults on Finding the Words-
and the Strength- to be Themselves,” Bobbi Ullinger; “Five Non-Binary Adults on Finding the Words- and the
Strength- to be Themselves,” Darren Rosenblum; “How I Learned to Fly,” George Tucker; “Losing Your Identity,”
Teresa Smith; “Right as Rain,” Alexandria Goodson; “The Coming-of-Age Con,” Cody Delistraty; “The Alumni
Interview,” David Levithan.