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AUTOBIOGRAPHY
By Srishti Sharma
M-Srishti Sharma
Sweetu-My Teddy bear
Maa-Nirmala Sharma
Mama-Anil Sharma
Nanaji-Brajmohan Sharma

21 may,2003
Dear sweetu,
Dophr k 1:55 bj rhe jb mne apni maa kokh se janam
liya. Mre papa ne mra naam hospital m hi rakh diya tha “KHUSHI”.Ye
naam mre papa ne Kareena Kapoor ki film k naam se rkha tha.

Filmo ka, khana bnane ka ghumne ka bahut shok tha mre papa
ko ,roj ek nayi dish bna k mmy ko khilate the aur unhe sikhate bhi the
.

21 may, 2004

Dear sweetu,
 Waqt bitta gya , mra pehla bdy mnaya gya .
Bahut khush the sb , mra pura pariwar tha mama, mmy, papa, dadi,
chacha . Bahut mza aya uss din. Ek saal uhi biit gya.

Year 2005

Dear sweetu,
Mre hath aur per m daane nikl aye , mmy ko
tension ho gyi ki akhir ye ho kya rha h mri beti ko. Mujhe doctor k
pass le jaya gya , doctor ne kaha iske machhro se elergy ho gyi hai .
Maa ne iska ilaz pucha toh doctor ne btaya ki iska koi ilaz nhi , jse -
jse ye badi hogi wse wse ye iske thik hone lgenge. Maa ne mra
treatment krna shuru kr diya , kbhi neem ka ptta mre sharir m lgati,
kbhi ayurvedic upchar krti toh kbhi medical . Iske aage iss saal kya
hua mujhe yd …..pr koi ni ….aage ki kahani pr charcha krte hain.

Year 2006

Dear sweetu,
Papa mmy m ldaiya hone lgi. Papa, mmy pr hath
uthane lge , unhe bahut marte the , unme ek bahut buri aadt thi ,
sharab pine ki . Roj sharab pikr aate aur mmy ko marte. M bhi bahut
bimaar rehne lgi , kbhi malaria toh kbhi chickengunia .
Mre bahut tej bukhaar tha , mmy k pass pese nhi the ki wo mujhe
doctor ko dikha ske , kyuki sare pese papa ne daru m kharch kr diye.

Maa bahut bahut dukhi the. Achanak mri kismat palti, mre nanaji
mmy se sambalpur (ek bt btani upr reh gyi ye ki mri mmy ki pehli
shaadi sambalpur m hui thi) aaye ,unse mri ye halt dekhi nhi gyi aur
we turant mujhe hospital leke gye . Agr thodi aur deri ho jati toh
shyd m mar skti thi.

Nanaji usi samay mujhe aur mmy ko leke Bargarh wapis laut gye .
Mre papa ko iss bt ki khbr nhi thi nanaji mujhr baur mmy ko wapis le
gye h jb wo kaam se ghr aye tb unhe pta chli. Papa hme lene Bargarh
punche lkin ghrwalo ne mna kr diya ki hm nhi bhjenge . Jisne hmri
beti ki ye halt kr di ho hm uss insaan k pas apni betiyo ko nhi
bhjenge. Papa jse tese ghrwalo ko mna liye aur ghrwalo ne mujhe aur
mmy ko unke sath wapis bhj diya.

Aage ki kahani kl , aaj k liye bss itna hi.

Gd night sweetu.

Next day

Dear sweetu,
Ye photo tb ki h kb m 2 saal ki thi.
(maaf kijiye m kahani se bhatak gyi)
M ye keh rhi thi ki mre papa hm
dono ko wapis le aye . Phir bhi unme koi sudhar aya , phir se whi
rawaiya shuru ho gya unka .
Din bitte gye unka gussa bhdta gya . Phir mri maa ne unse alg hone
ka fesla kr liya . Wo mujhe leke wapis Bargarh chli gyi . Unhone
mama aur nanaji ko sari kahani sunayi ki unke sath kya kya atyachar
hua (mri maa wo deserve nhi krti thi phir bhi wo mre liye sb sehti
rhi).
Mre papa mujhe aur mmy ko lene phir se gye lkin iss br mmy apni zid
pr aad gyi ki chahe kxh bhi ho jye m iss admi k sath ab wapis nhi
jaungi. Papa mujhe le jana chahte the, mmy mre ko unhe nhi dena
chahti thi , na jane esi kya bt hui sbke bich ki , mri mausi ne mmy se
kaha ki “Khushi iss admi ko dede”. Mri mmy ne mujhe mre papa ko
de diya.
Mre papa mujhe whn se ye keh k le gye ki m ise pdhaunga iska
school m addmission kraunga. Unhone esa kiya bhi , unhine mra
school m dakhila jrur kraya magar ek ese school m jhn koi pdhai nhi
hoti jhn koi uniform nhi (like a slum type of school) , use school bhi
nhi kaha ja skta …..kyuki shyd wo school tha hi nhi .
Kxh din biit gye dophr ka samay , m bukhaar m tp rhi thi , mujhe koi
hosh hi nhi tha ki m khn hu……papa bhi ghr pe nhi the ……mre nanaji
achanak sambalpur mujhe dekhne aa gye …ye dekhne k liye ki jo
jubaan papa deke mujhe sambalpur leke aye the uss jubaan pr papa
aaj bhi kayam h ya nhi …….sb jhut nikla …..jse mne upr btaya ki m
bukhaar m tp rhi thi …wo haalt mre nanaji dekh na ske….aur wo
mujhe whn se leke chle gye .
Mujhe lana ,wapis le jana ….ye silsila 1 saal tk chlta rha.

Year 2007
Dear sweetu,
Mri mmy ne mre papa k against divorce aur mri
custody ka case file kr diya . Kxh mahine case chla aur court decision
mri mmy k favour m aya. Mri custody mri mmy ko mil gyi.
Kxh dino bd khabar ayi ki sharab ki wjh se liver khrb ho gya aur mre
papa ki death ho gyi.
Mre papa jse bhi the …..mujhse pyar krte the …..mri mmy se pyar
krte the ….bss kxh glt dosto ki sangati aur shrb k addiction ne unhe
hmse alg kr diya.
Isi doran mre nanaji aur mama ne mri mmy k liye dusra ldka dekhna
shuru kr diya…hathras m mri nani ka maika h…..mtlb mri mmy ka
mama ghr , whn se phone aya ki mri mmy k liye dusra rishta aya
h…..Aligarh(Uttar Pradesh) ka rishta h…..joint family h …...lkin sb alga
lg rehte hain .
Pehle mre nanaji aur mmy k mamaji Aligarh aye unhe dekhne ……
mre nanaji ne ghrwalo k aage sirf ek hi condition rkhi ki “mri beti ki
ek santan h jise apko apnana hoga ….agr ap logo ye mnzur nhi toh
hme ye rista bhi mnzur nhi”…….lkin ghrwalo ne nanaji ki ye condition
maan li aur rishta pkaa ho gya ……kariban ek saal tk mri mmy hathras
m hi rhi …..kxh court ka case wgera chl rha tha …..mujhe jada ache se
inn sbke bare m malum nhi .
Year 2008
Dear sweetu,
Shyd mmy ye shadi krna nhi chahti thi ….lkin mmy
krti bhi toh kya …..mmy sirf BA pass thi ….uss wqt kisi ko bhi pdhai ki
itni value nhi pta thi ……mmy ki aage ki degree na hone ki wjh se
mmy ko dar tha ki unhe job nhi milegi aur wo mujhe akele nhi paal
skti thi …isliye unke andr k isi dar ne unhe dusri shadi krne pr mzbur
kr diya.
7 May 2008 ko mri mmy ki dusri shadi hui….mmy ek saal observe kr
rhi thi ki ye ghr mri beti k liye shi h ya nhi …..starting m mmy papa
Dadaji dadi aur tauji(mre bde tauji jo thode se mentally disturb h) k
sath rehti thi.
Kxc din bitte ……mri mmy k sath mentally toture hona start ho gya
….unhe ek khana 7 din tk khana pdta tha ……iss wjh se mri mmy
bahut bimar rehne lgi thi …..ek br mmy ko malaria ho gya …2 mahine
tk bimar rhi …bahut mushkilo se thik hui …..wo log phir bhi nhi mane
…..phir se mmy ko whi khana , khana pdta tha ……isi reason se mri
mmy ko roj mirchi namak roti khani pdti thi ……mri dadi ne mzbur kr
diya mri mmy ko ye khane m ……ye silsila 1 saa tk chlta rha.

Year 2009
Dear sweetu,
Mmy ki halt dekhte hue mre dusre papa ne alg
rehne ka decision le liya….wo log ghr k terrace wale hisse m rehne
lge …..phir bhi koi khn sudhrne wala tha …..phir bhi saas bahu ki kich
kich chalu thi …..ghr Kurukshetra ka medaan bn gya tha ……ek ajrun
toh dusra duryodhan …koi kisi se km nhi .
May ya june ki bt thi mmy bargarh aayi mujhse milne …..m,mama aur
rahul mmy ko station lene gye ….m mmy ka station m ese wait kr rhi
thi jse pehli br unse mil rhi hu …..itni tadap mmy se milne ki mujhe
kbhi nhi hui jitni uss din thi …..m aur mmy uss din pehli br sath m
roye ….m mmy ko chod hi nhi rhi thi ….m mmy k sath jana chahti thi
….m ab whn nhi rehna chahti thi …..maa jhn bhi jati whn unke sath
piche-piche chl deti.
Phir ek din mmy mujhe school chodne gyi…..mne mmy se kaha ki
“mmy m dophr tk aa jaungi ap mujhe chod kr khin jana nhi” mmy ne
kaha ki “thik h m tujhe chod kr khin nhi jaungi…. M tujhe sath lekr
jaungi.” ……m ghr wapis ayi “mmy mmy krti” mmy ghr pe nhi mili
….mra ro ro bura haal ho gya ….mne pura ghr sr pe utha liya….m ghr
se bhag gyi …..rahul mre piche piche bhaga ….wo mujhe mama k pass
dukan le gya ….mama ne mujhe behlane ki koshish ki ….lkin mujhe
mmy hi chaiye thi ….m rote rote so gyi …..m jb uthi ..m phir se rone lg
gyi …mama ne jse tese kr k mujhe behla liya.
Mmy ne mujhse jhut kaha ki wo khin nhi jaegi , mujhe sath m lekr
jaegi …sb jhut tha … mmy ne mujhe dhoka diya ….wo mujhe chod kr
chli gyi

Year 2010
Dear sweetu,
Papa ne mansoori ki ticket krayi …..unhone mmy se bhi kaha chlne ko
lkin mmy nhi mani …..mmy ne kaha ki m apni beti k pass jana chahti
hu ……papa ne kaha ki thik h ….lkin use lekr mt ana ….(papa nhi
chahte the ki m Aligarh aau …unhone kaha ki m khud use le aunga)
mmy ne kaha thik h ……lkin iss br mmy bargarh mujhe hi lene ayi thi
…..m iss br mmy ko ek pal k liye bhi akela nhi chodi …..jhn jati whn
unke piche piche chl deti ….. mujhe dr tha ki khin mmy iss br mujhe
chod kr na chli jaye…… lkin iss br esa nhi hua …..mmy mujhe sath
Aligarh le ayi.
Part 1
M aur mmy train m the ….papa ko ye bt pta nhi thi ki m mmy k ath
Aligarh aa rhi hu …..papa ne mmy ko call ki aur unse puche ki Khushi
ko sath nhi la rhi h na?-
[Mmy aur papa k bich bahut ldai hui]
Mmy- “haa m Khushi ko sath lekr aa rhi hu”
Papa(gusse m)-“kyu..mne mna kiya than a ki Khushi ko sath lane ki
jrurt nhi h m khud use lekr aa jaunga”
Mmy- “kyu jrurt nhi h ….mri beti h …mre pass rheg.”
Papa-“m tujhe Mathura station lene nhi aunga ….khud aa jana”
Mmy-“thik h m khud aa jaungi”
(Mmy ne santosh mama ko phone kiya …unhe sari bt btayi ki papa
aur mmy k bich kya bt hui….phir mama ne papa ko phone kiya
….mujhe nhi pta unke bich kya bt hui ….bss mujhe itna pta h ki gusse
m mama ne papa se ye kaha tha ki “bhaiisahab ab apke pass 2 raste
h toh
1-mri bhn aur mri bhanji ko Mathura railway station lene aiye ya phir
2-ap apni side 4 admi laiye aur m apni taraf se 4 admi leke ata hu
….ab faisla ho kr rhega ki ap mri bhanji ko apnana chahte h ya
nhi…..ab sb kch ap kr nirbhar krta h).
Part 2
Papa shyd dr gye ….unhone pehla rasta apnana jada uchit smjha
…..wo mujhe aur mmy ko lene station lene aa gye …..uss din pehli br
mne apne papa ko dekha …..hm sb bus se Aligarh aa gye
Hm ghr phunche …..m sbse mili ….dadaji aur dadi mujhe dekh k
khush hue ….bde tauji bed pe let k t.v dekh rhe the ….mne unke per
chue….but no response from him side.
M mmy aur papa upr aa gye …..2 room 1 kitchen 2 washroom ek
bathroom…2 room se ek room rent pr lga hua tha ….upadhayay sir
maths coaching class lete the ….colony k almost bche unse pdhte
the.
Papa roj mandir chle jate ….m or mmy naha dho k bethe rehte ….phir
sham ko mmy mujhe pdhati ….lkin mra pdhne ka bilkul bhi mn nhi
krta tha ……mmy muje jbrjsti pdhati thi…..lkin agr mujhe mmy uss
wqt na pdhati toh aaj m itni kabil nhi hoti …kher ye sb toh bd ki bt h .
Part 3
Mmy ne papa se kaha ki iska admission kra dete h….papa ne na jane
konse ek chote se school m mre admission k liye bol diya mmy se
….mmy ko aya gussa….mmy papa se lad pdi ….ki mri beti koi ese wse
school m pdhegi …pdhegi toh ache English medium school se pdhegi
…..mmy k against gyi …ye bt papa ko bilkul achii nhi lgi …. Aur papa
mmy k bich jordar yudh hua-
Papa –“tujhe jhn pdhana h tu whn pdha ..m iski pdhai ki ek
zimmedari nhi uthaunga…tu leke ayi h ise odisha se ….tri beti h tu
jaan aur tri beti jane …mra isse koi wasta nhi h…kyuki ye mri beti nhi
h”
Mmy –“m iska English medium school m hi admission kraungi apko jo
krna h kr lo …aur m iski zimmedari utha lungi”
Papa – “thik h utha …m bhi dekhta hu ek BA pass ldki kse pdhati h”
Mmy- “ap iski zimmedari uthao ya mt uthao ….m isko pdhaungi”
(Isi bt pr dono ki khub ldai hoti h..aur m 6 saal ki bchii ye sb sun sun k
ek kone m jake rone lg gyi).
Part 4
May 2010
M aur mmy mre admission k liye nikle ….. toh hme ek school dikha
jiska naam “Shri Vidya Asharam Public School” tha whn m aur mmy
mra admission krane gye-
Mmy – “namaste sir(Neeraj sir -accoundant of school), mujhe apni
bchii ka admission krana h”
Sir – “okk mam , konsi class mai?”
Mmy – “1st class”
{Whn principal mam (Saroj Sharma), head mam(Ranjana Chaudhary),
teacher(Rita mam) thi jinhone mra interview liya }
Principal mam-“beta kya naam hai apka”
Me – “Khushi Sharma”
Principal mam-“Alphabets sunao”
Me – “quit”
Principal mam - “koi bt nhi , countings sunao”
Me –“quit ”
(Principal mam to my mmy)
Principal mam- “mam apki beti ko toh kch nhi ata …ye bilkul bhi 1 st k
layak nhi h …ye UKG m jaegi…hm ise 1st m admission nhi de skte”
Mmy –“mam mujhe pta h ise nhi ata kch bhi …..ap bs mujhe 1
mahine ka time dijiye …m ise puri trh se 1st k layak bna dungi…ap bss
iska admission 1st m le lijiye”
Principal mam –“okk…agr ap ise prepare nhi kr payi toh hm iska
admission cancel kr denge”
Mmy –“apka bahut bahut shukriya mam”
Me–“mra naam Khushi nhi srishti rkhna(ye namkaran mne apna khud
kiya tha)”