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Multivocal teacher educator identity: A self-study of a language teacher educator’s use of critical
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13 Multivocal teacher
educator identity
A self-study of a language teacher
educator’s use of critical autoethnography
Bedrettin Yazan
Introduction
TESOL research has been interested in how teacher candidates grow or
transition into teachers with focus on teacher learning, cognition, reflec-
tion, knowledge base, action research, and identity since the early 1990s
(see Freeman & Johnson, 1998), yet there has not been much attention to
the questions such as: How do teacher educators become teacher educators?
What knowledge and skills do they need? How do they construct the knowl-
edge and develop the skills? How do they construct their identities as teacher
educators? Recently researchers started centering their studies on these ques-
tions and investigating TESOL teacher educators’ growth, practices, beliefs,
identities, and agency (Golombek, 2015, 2017; Peercy, 2015; Yuan, 2015,
2016, 2017). This recent investigation endeavor has further been facilitated
by the introduction of self-study of teacher education practices (S-STEP)
to the field of TESOL (Peercy & Sharkey, 2020a, 2020b). Even though
S-STEP has been an established strand of research in broader teacher edu-
cation literature (see Studying Teacher Education and Springer book series
Self-Study of Teaching and Teacher Education Practices), self-study meth-
odology or the idea of teacher educators studying their own work and self
has been new to TESOL. The current chapter reports on my recent work
to contribute to this growing body of research in which language teacher
educators examine their own work and identities. It explores my experiences
theorizing and using critical autoethnography as a semester-long teacher-
learning activity in a graduate level “Linguistics for Classroom Teachers”
course. More specifically, it addresses the following question: How did I
negotiate and enact different identities in four one-on-one feedback sessions
with a teacher candidate on their critical autoethnography?
Back in Fall 2009, when taking my first doctoral course (Teaching English
Language Learners: Current and Future Research Directions) with Megan
Madigan Peercy, one of the main topics across the semester was the prepara-
tion of teachers to serve ELLs. One day walking away from the class with my
close friend and colleague, Ali Fuad Selvi, the question he posed stuck with
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me: How are language teacher educators prepared to work with teachers of
ELLs? What is their knowledge base? As budding researchers and teacher
educators, we found it really interesting that our field was concerned with
how teachers grow, but it did not explore how teacher educators grow, to
our knowledge then. Several years later, when I attended Dr. Peercy’s sem-
inar talk on her study (Peercy, 2015) “Do we ‘walk the talk’ in language
teacher education?”, in which she explored her year-long experience back
in the classroom as a Spanish teacher, her central question and research res-
onated with me so much. Both questions later surfaced when my interest
in teacher identity began and culminated in my dissertation project (Yazan,
2014). As I was researching teacher identity, I found myself reflecting not
only on my identity negotiation as an EFL teacher which I was no more, but
also my imagined identity as a language teacher educator. This reflection is
still ongoing and has led to the conception and design of identity-oriented
teacher learning activities in my teacher education practices and related
research studies (Yazan, 2018, 2019a, 2019b, 2019c). That is, I have begun
to use identity as a lens that guides my reflection, agency, and practice within
the constraints and affordances of the sociocultural context, which resonates
with Morgan’s (2004) concept of ‘identity as pedagogy.’
Researching language teacher identity, I have worked toward better
understanding the relationship between language teachers’ practices and
identities and the ways in which they deploy their identities as pedagogy
(Morgan, 2004; Motha, Jain, & Tecle, 2012; Zheng, 2017). I have also
been interested in the theorization of identity negotiation and agency vis-à-
vis teacher emotions and commitment/investment (Benesch, 2017, 2018). I
have concomitantly reviewed and questioned my language teacher education
practices with an identity lens. Therefore, the following questions emerged
at the nexus of my identities as a language teacher educator and researcher
of language teacher education: How does my identity orient my practices?
What identity negotiation do I engage in when teaching teachers? How can
I intentionally deploy my identity as pedagogy of teacher education?
Methodology
This study draws data from my implementation of CAN in a graduate lin-
guistics course for teacher candidates and addresses the following research
question: How did I negotiate and enact different identities in four one-
on-one feedback sessions with a teacher candidate on their critical autoeth-
nography? Below, I describe and explain the data collection and analysis
procedures I followed.
My researcher positionality
Conducting and reporting on this study, I acknowledge that my researcher
positionality is very much intertwined with my teacher educator identity.
I followed the self-study research methods (Peercy & Sharkey, 2020a) in
which the boundaries between the researcher and the researched become
rather blurry. That is, implementing the design of CAN in my course, I was
predominantly a teacher educator who is providing guidance and mentor-
ing for new writers of autoethnography, although I had not had any earlier
autoethnography writing experience. However, I was also a researcher of
teacher education and I was planning to analyze the data gleaned from the
CAN implementation as a self-study. I view the analysis I conducted for
this chapter and the writing and revising process (facilitated by the volume
editors) as part of my professional development. Therefore, reading this
chapter, you as the reader will hear my voice as a language teacher educator
who is researching his own practices of teacher education for the purpose of
engaging deep reflective practice and understanding the interplay between
my practices and identities.
Findings
Below, I will discuss how I constructed a new identity as an autoethnography
coach and how my multiple I-positions conflicted in this construction.
Narrating
I negotiated the I-position of an autoethnography coach for Peggy mainly
when I did the following in multiple occasions during the four feedback
sessions: (a) encouraging her to tell more stories; (b) bringing in my sto-
ried identity; (c) suggesting theories; (d) providing additional readings (e.g.,
sample autoethnographies); (e) encouraging further discussion of emotions.
For example, in the excerpt below, I explain the importance of emotions in
Peggy’s autoethnography in the first feedback session:
In the stories you tell, you’ll interpret your experiences and your feel-
ings too, right? Like emotionally, did you feel excited, did you feel
nervous, did you feel afraid, scared, did you feel frustrated, did you
feel annoyed or uneasy in those incidents! Like those! Because we
were talking with Rachel about it! Our feelings are also part of our
responses to experiences, right? We have an experience, like the most
noticeable part of it is our feelings about it. They can give us direction
too! And identity and emotions are also pretty much related! How we
respond to something is or how we emotionally respond to one inci-
dent, I believe, is informed by our identities! {P: Uhum} Not causality
per se. Also, every emotional response is identity enactment for us. So
see how you can capitalize more on your emotions when telling your
stories.
(Feedback Session 1, February 9, 2018)
Analyzing
My negotiation of I-position as an autoethnography coach also involved
engaging in the following practices that was intended to scaffold Peggy’s
analysis in her CAN: (a) modelling the use of concepts to make sense of her
experiences; (b) explaining the relationship between identity and practice in
her stories; (c) demonstrating the relationship between her multiple iden-
tities as language user, learner, and teacher. For example, as I read Peggy’s
CAN installments and discussed them with her in the feedback sessions, I
noticed that she narrated very interesting stories in which she could see the
interrelation of her multiple identities and engage in the analysis of this inter-
relation in her autoethnography. Below is an example from Feedback Session
2 where I direct Peggy’s attention to the complex intersection between her
identities:
The main goal why I designed CAN was to provide a discursive and expe-
riential space for the teacher candidates to construct their identities as they
narrate and analyze their stories (Yazan, 2019a). Whenever I found oppor-
tunities to explicate this goal in my feedback sessions and class discussions, I
tried to avail myself of them. The excerpt above is one of these opportunities
when I wanted to help Peggy see the intertwined nature of her multiple
identities. Foregrounding her teacher identity, I thought she needed to see
my rationalization of CAN as an assignment for language teacher candidates
and keep thinking about her interrelating I-positions. For instance, her iden-
tities as a multilingual language user and daughter of immigrant parents are
inseparable from her teacher identity. Her ideologies about learning, using,
and teaching languages have been shaped through her past experiences and
woven into her “ideological becoming” (Bakhtin, 1981, p. 341) as a pro-
fessional language teacher. These ideologies will inform what she deems as
important in her instructional decisions and her work with language learners
in general.
Composing
Lastly, composing is another dimension of autoethnography writing in which
I negotiated my I-position as an autoethnography coach. The analysis of four
feedback sessions with Peggy indicates that I tended to engage in the follow-
ing guidance to support her composing of CAN: (a) discussing conventions
in autoethnographic writing; (b) organizing the paper; (c) considering the
audience’s take-away; (d) supporting the submission of her manuscript to a
journal. For example, in Feedback Session 4, our conversation involved some
of these points of guidance.
Bedrettin: What you’re doing, you know, is brave in the sense that you
just tried out a new genre and wrote it in that genre’s conventions, it’s
gonna take some time to like…I mean I’m not saying that there are like
clear-cut conventions in autoethnography but, like, in terms of being
analytic, readers would expect to see the analysis in your discussion
when you are narrating your stories {P: Uhum} But, yeah! It’s getting
there! Your…I really enjoyed the stories and perhaps…I was gonna ask
you, like, when you start working on this, one more time, why don’t
you ask yourself to begin with: what do I expect my readers to take
away from this piece, right? {P: Yeah} So, what is my focus? Or maybe
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a few foci, right? What do I want my readers to experience reading my
autoethnography?
(Feedback Session 4, May 7, 2018)
Modelling analysis
The other tension I experienced during the feedback sessions concerned
my modelling of analysis for Peggy when I was listening to her stories. As
a teacher educator, I was envisioning these feedback conversations to be
a space for teacher candidates to reflect on their past and current experi-
ences with language use, learning, and teaching and to view their profes-
sional growth as identity construction. This vision also resonated with being
a “sounding board” (Chang et al., 2016) for the novice autoethnographers.
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However, as a researcher of teacher education who is interested in teacher
identities, I tended to jump in to model some analysis for Peggy. Such inter-
jections did not prove to be productive for our conversations. For instance,
the exchange below illustrates how Peggy’s rich reflection was intervened by
my researcher (over-) enthusiasm:
So, here is what I would suggest Peggy! When you are re-framing or
re-writing the first part of your paper {P: Yeah}, like think about organ-
izing it the way like starting with an introduction, like telling people
why you are writing this piece and before you move on to theoretical
framework…it’s not relevant to your question…but, you know, before
you move on to your theoretical framework why don’t you give people
a snippet in a paragraph, like 5-sentence, 6 or maybe 8-sentence para-
graph, it’s not easy I know but the story of your life, right! What hap-
pened…like…I was born here and…and I was a Fulbright scholar and
…. now I’m having my master’s degree in M.A. TESOL, right! So, give
people a snippet, a very succinct {P: OK} like summary of your life, then
when you move on your theoretical framework tell people and explain
to your readers whatever concepts you’re gonna use in your discussion
or in your analysis before you use them, right!
(Feedback Session 4, May 7, 2018)
…but think about it as data, your stories are the data and you from this
point on use the theoretical framework to make sense of these experi-
ences and analyze them, right! When you analyze them, you’re gonna
have certain conclusions, right! They’re not going to be like generaliza-
tions but conclusions within your own case, and your readers whoever
they are, depending on the journal, they’re going to be applied linguists,
they are gonna make sense of those conclusions, right! So, what I would
recommend you do is to make sure that the connection between your
experiences and your conclusions are clearly articulated, right? How, like
your readers should see …should be able to see how you analyzed your
data and came up with that, you know, analysis and conclusion or inter-
pretation, right!
(Feedback Session 2, March 8, 2018)
Acknowldgment
I am thankful to the editors for inviting me to this project and for their
patience with me as I prepared this manuscript. I truly appreciate their com-
ments and suggestions on this article. I also gratefully acknowledge all six
students in my Linguistics for Classroom Teachers course in Spring 2018
for sharing their stories and using critical autoethnography as their teacher
learning tool.
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