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To my Mum, who eff
intentionally led me
What A Time To Be
Alone is a book by
recovering hypocrite.
important sections:
em
Are you re
allows you to understand how t
ARE
SUPPOSED
TO BE
HERE.
shaped hole for you. No, not that hole. The gapi
YOU DESERVE
Human beings have been designed to disappoint.
as hard anymore.
GOING
TO KICK
YOU
IN THE
BALLS
REASON.
it is to accept that
just needs to
things
Healing hurts. Being kicked in the balls hurts.
best cleared
leaving it alo
DON
FOCUS
ON
TRYING
TO B
‘ THE
BEST
Being an Igbo Nigerian girl who grew
Igbo as my first language, I have been
Nigerian proverbs and idioms that ha
saved my life. This proverb of having the sa
DO BETTER.
‘ IT’ DOESN’T
REALLY GET
BETTER.
YOU DO.
doesn’t
teach
you, loss
will.
Beautiful things l
whether we are re
permission. Love
unannounced. And
welcome it with w
teacher of all:
regret.
DO NOT CREATE
EXPECTATIONS Y
LIVE UP TO.
QUIT
OVER- EXPLAINING.
THE WORLD IS STIL
GOING TO JUDGE
I still find myself trying really hard to be easy
people to give
you permission t
are amazing.
You don’t need to
your priorities.
It’s important to keep in mind that the expectations
going to
JUST D
The scariest part of the process is starting. Starti
IT FIRST.
Recognise your privilege! Whiteness is a
to be held.
present it ...
I bet ‘grown- up’ you still goes through that, do
LET YOUR
KINDNESS
KILL YOU.
emotional toolbox.
abandonment issues.
I’ve learnt to hold my importance in other people
expectations on others.
need you.
SILENCE CAN NEVER BE MISQU
That’s one more quote from my brilliant
WE STOP
PRETENDING
TO BE
IMMUNE TO
FEELINGS
THAT SCARE
US, THE
SOONER LIF
WILL BEGIN
TO MAKE
SENSE .
You run because it feels scary to care this much.
facing up to yourself.
To care is to be vulnerable. According to the wo
save them.
I’ve stopped being disappointed in the way pe
mentality is
stagnant.
remember: never f
defeated by a ‘ no’.
take it as a
LEARN TO
‘ TAKE ANY
LIKE A BOSS’
to show us a side of us th
aren’t learning.
Everything happening to you, i
Life is one big cosmic mess but
you’re going through is pushing
closer to the person you need t
Human beings are finding smarte
to curate the lives they wish they
other people to observe them t
phone screen. But they don’t tel
the better your life gets, the bigg
demons become. Just remember
everything revolves around bala
will never be perfect but it will a
better. When it gets unbearable,
remembering: these are the pro
that you didn’t know you asked
you were praying for those bless
Tasting your own magic
Be nice to yourself. Go to Nando’s
Take walks along the river on yo
Have super- long baths and blas
favourite playlist whilst you do
waiting for someone to give you
unconditional fairytale love and
it to yourself. Start right now. U
people who give you weird energy
and block people who make you
uncomfortable for whatever rea
Protect your space and pay no
to how people may perceive you
this. You deserve greatness, so
yourself. We need to learn to sto
so guilty for being kind to ourselv
sit around waiting for someone
and rescue you from yourself, l
you by − it ain’t gon’ happen.
You ever seen a chicken pee
Of course not!
Chickens don’t pee.
They do release waste but you’ll never see a stre
human beings.
Next time you go for a pee, think about how com
Choose yourself.
Choose yourself.
Choose yourself.
SELF- LOVE IS
THE
LEAST
AGGRESSIVE,
MOST
EFFECTIVE,
FORM OF
INTIMIDATION.
You cannot deceive someone who knows what
WHAT,
ALWAYS
REMEMBER:
YOU ARE
ALLOWED
TO CHANGE
YOUR MIND
ABOUT HOW
YOU FEEL
ABOUT OTHER
PEOPLE.
If they keep bringing up your
they belong in it. We reject the truth
treat you not how they feel about you but how
much later.
Mother always taught me: be careful who you
it, does not mean you will have the same reaction
their ego, they will tell their self that you blocking
of you.
If a person is withholding vulnerablity from you,
because their pride is more important than form
walls the ego has built and this is the ego’s worst
these questions:
Horrible people, surprisingly, don’t like it
‘ I FORGOT’ ACTUALLY
MEANS ‘ I DIDN’T
CARE ENOUGH T
PAY ATTENTION’
You’ll know.
People know exactly what they’re doin
they’re taking advantage of you.
Apologies do not change intentions.
yourself first.
IF YOU
WEIRD BIT OF
DISCOMFORT
SHARING GOOD
YOU’RE SHARING
YOURSELF WITH
meaningful to you.
What they don’t tell you is that the higher your
standards !
be working on.
The problem.
The solution.
...
accepts them.
problematic person.
You can only warn someone so many times be
YOURSELF WITH
PEOPLE WHO
HONOUR HOW
YOU FEEL.
you are worth it and they see it. Even if you can
nice
to
people
for
no
reason.
But don’t get attached to how you think they sh
congratulate
your friends, no
knowing that
someone is r
f l o w e r s while they
world where pe
appreciate the
that particular
appreciate the
bring to particular
Love people wh
here or learn t
Repeat after me:
THE WORLD
TO SOMEONE
ONE DAY.
*And it won’t just
IT’S OKAY TO
WANT TO BE
LOVED .
the past.
pride are
like oil
and
water.
The two
will
never
If a person is
vulnerablity
sometimes b
pride is more
forming a bon
Pride is the
offers protection.
vulnerability
to love is to
someone has
vulnerability
are not in a
love you.
mix.
Mixed signals aren’t mysterious.
Life’s way too short and you are way too valuable
hanging?
Kind- hearted people often fall for the idea of
benefits them.
every time.
proud of.
either.
to begin with.
Stop hanging out with people who make jokes
response to them.
My mother taught me: no matter how
deed, always show gratitude. We are nev
reactions to us.
If you ever find yourself in a situation like this,
from? What has hurt you? How long will you allo
FEEL HURT
NOT ALWAYS
WORTH IT
Good intentions , no matter
pure, are not guaranteed
understood or received in
same spirit. The only two
in life we can control are o
intentions and our reactions.
Everything else happens a
needs to, whether it feels
occured in our favour or n
BETTER.
FEELING FORGOTTEN?
It’s the worst. You feel invisible. You feel like all
TO SHARE
YOURSELF WITH
PEOPLE WHO
DON’T WANT
TO MAKE ROOM
FOR
YOU.
YOU ARE
KEY, FEE
TO LEAVE
IF IT HURTS A
LOT ALL THE
TIME, IT AIN’T
LOVE, IT’S
PRISON.
Drunk feelings are real. Drunk texts and phone
revelation.
by playing it safe.
You are allowed to outgrow people. An
allowed to outgrow you. Often we find ourse
way too invested in and attached to particular
valid stance.
same stuff.
sexually abused.
It’s nice to be admired, but what’s most important
people feel while they’re in your company. Are
IN
SOLITU