I'm standing here, to deliver my speech that I hope y'all are feeling as amazing as I am right

now. Even though, to be honest, I am a little nervous but I'm not here to tell you about it's okay
to make mistake.

I want to give a disclaimer first, that in this chance I'm not trying to say that I'm good at English,
but I think I have learned and improved a lot.

Since I was in junior high school, people always think that I have good English skills when
compared to other children in my age and our environment. Maybe it's seen because I have
won several English competitions.

But without people actually knowing before becoming who I am today, I was traumatized to
learn and practice English.

Why did it happen?

So exactly, when I was in 4th grade, I received unpleasant treatment from my seniors, let's say
that this was bullying. I got it just because I wrote the wrong song lyrics in English. At that time,
I was still beginner in learning English, so I made mistake by wrote the wrong arrangement of
the letters which makes it difficult to read and understand the meaning.

And they are my senior know that it was the first time I wrote something in English, but they
mocking me. Actually i will be fine if what they said is just a joke, but it was not a joke anymore
when they attacked me using hurtful words. They said I didn't deserve to learn English because I
came from an ordinary family, and I'm not a rich woman. Then I thought, why do they attack
me like that, mistakes a normal thing for someone who is learning?

And do you know how painful it is?, when your failure and your mistake in 9th years old and in
your learning process becomes a gap for other people to drop your spirit.

And I'm sure that my struggle has also been experienced by some of you. And that's what
made me traumatized tp something related to the English usage for several times.

(When you try to speak, write, and express something in english but you made a mistake and
found that some people took advantage of that to bring you down and make you think about
stop to learn and practice English.)

Of course at that time, I was disappointed with myself, I felt what they said was true, and I most
felt like I don't want to learn and practice English anymore.

But then I thought that my spirit for learning was not related to my social status. Like, everyone
has the right to learn wherever they come from, and it is normal for those who are learning to
make mistakes. From a mistake we can learn, from a mistake we can know the extent of our
abilities, and mistakes are there to be corrected.

So, the 9 years old of Noviana started to rised and stopped thinking about what her senior said.
I started to look for a supportive circle of friends, and learn from the stories of people who
succeeded after they failed because of a mistake they had made.

I started to go back to learn and practice again without them noticing. I make small celebrations
for every progress I've made, I started to build my confidence to write, speak, even express
something in English then ask for suggestion to my teacher.

From that learning process, I started to dare to participate in english competitions, several
times I won it but several times I also failed because I made a mistake. And that's okay to me for
it, although there are still some people who try to bring me down because of that. I consider it
something natural and a risk for anyone who is learning.

So, I kept learning and practicing until I was at my current English ability right now, although not
completely perfect but I managed to fix it from my mistakes. I even won an essay writing
competition even though in the past I was often write the wrong arrangement words in English.

So for anyone in this room who has ever made a mistake or someday you find yourself make a
mistake, remember that what I'm trying to say to you are don't spend too much of your
precious time to pondering what they said about your mistakes. You are only human, and
normal humans sometime make mistakes especially when you are still learning. Don't try to be
perfect person because that is impossible. Don't burden yourself with the expectation of
success on the first try.

You will often hear that the best teacher is experience so the key for reach your succes is
learning from the mistakes you have made, and the failures you have experienced. Keep
learning and practicing no matter how many mistakes you made. You must know that Mistakes
are part of the process and you should try to be humble by appreciating the process you have
to go through.

It's okay to make mistake. It's okay if try to write the text but the grammar is wrong, it's okay if
you try to speak but the pronunciation and grammar is not quite right, it's okay if you try to
translate a text but you make a wrong translation. Cause the important thing of make a
mistake is to fix your mistake immediately and don't let other people who are trying to bring
you down make you really fall. Prove that you are not easily dropped by them, prove that you
and your effort to fix your mistake is something that deserve to be respected by everyone.