29/06/1982

Dear Diary 10 pm

I have always felt like I don’t belong with the others; but never before have had I felt
so unseen. You can’t imagine how miserable my life is. I know that we have to learn
to accept the world however it is but a 12 year old child should be treated properly.
There are so many people here but only some people can see what I have gone
through by having a small glimpse of my condition. Is it fair to me to be treated like
this? Coming to this city was a dream come true but there is a huge difference
between our expectations and the reality which I understood when I came here. My
heart is pumping very fast and my nerves are shivering with fright but I won’t go to
my village till I achieve something for my family. I just hate my father. How can he do
this to our family? Me and Lila can’t handle and take the responsibility of everyone in
our family but I can’t give up because of these small obstacles and life is all
challenges. My condition is even worse than before. I can sense that I don’t belong
here but nothing will make me stop. The thing that I have and others don’t is my
determination. I hope that I get a place to sleep and eat tonight and then I will start
looking for a job tomorrow.