24 December

I don’t know if you will ever read this letter. But if you ever read it, I hope you acknowledge it
because it’s my raw emotions. I still think you are a good person and have a good soul.

There are so many things I wanted to tell you. But I didn’t have words at that moment. I know you
are quite busy but I really wished you didn’t leave like that. Someone close to me used to do the
same behaviour with me and it hurt me to get that behaviour again. I felt whatever I am feeling after
a long period of time. I really don’t want to let it go. I never thought you will be so casual with
everything. I thought you were a serious person. I know it takes a lot of time to know a person, but
sometimes I feel it’s ok to know a person during the journey. I really wish I had never laid eyes on
you becoz I had started liking u from that very moment. I don’t know why becoz the prev time it was
a tragedy and I promised myself never to feel again. But I guess I just gave my heart to the wrong
person AGAIN ! And don’t ask me to stop feeling anything because if I could I would have the day
when you changed your decision suddenly. I keep asking myself did I do something wrong to drive
you away. I keep asking myself how can I like someone so quickly. But somethings just don’t have
answers ig.

Remembered I told you about my family issues. My mom is not well at all. I never wrote it down
because I am afraid to do so. I know she will get well. But she keeps telling me what if something
happens to me and all. She wants me to get married. But I had already told her I don’t want to ever
because I m a v emotional person and people now a days are just selfish. We had this conv many
times before but she is getting emotional. I cried and yelled at that. The last thing I told them on call
was that if I was a guy you wouldn’t have forced me. So yeah I guess I am just worried for her
because I have never seen her like this….

30 December

I don’t know what you r going through. But I hope everything sorts out. You kept ghosting me and I
have a huge huge issue with this, with being ghosted. I can’t explain and maybe you won’t
understand. I have went through something v bad earlier. All I can say is I just stop functioning when
things like this happens and all I can think what wrong I did to deserve this behaviour. I don’t know
why you lied about things, I don’t know why you are ghosting me and the worst part is I never forget
stuffs,,, so yeah this behaviour will remain with me. After almost 1.5 yrs I decided to open my heart
and I get this XD… no issues. Anyways I am not surprised by your behaviour because most people
nowadays are like these. I would have been surprised if I got a good behaviour because I am not
used to it.

31 December

I am in dilemma whether I should send this or not,,, whether I should text you and wish you a New
year or not because you literally asked me to FUCK OFF without saying the words. I know u r busy
but so am I…. You have no idea how many things I have to handle. Yeah you might have tougher
responsibilities but I don’t think that’s an excuse to ghost me. Or maybe you do this with everyone
idk. It’s so weird and ironic that you write songs about love and emotions but you yourself don’t
reflect that. I find it so hard to believe because if I were like you, I would have never found words for
my poems. I have been hurt several times by many people but still I choose love above everything
else because that’s very rare.
I think I would give a new start to my year. I will try my best not to text you anywhere. I promised
you that I will try my best to help you get a platform to share your talent, and I always keep my

promise. I will be more than happy if things work out because you deserve it 😊I will try my best to
use my connections. Again, I know you don’t need it from me because there are many people to
help you out but if you ever need me, I am here 4 u.

I have many regrets this year and one of them is you. You kinda rejected me without even knowing
me,,, so yeah I am hurt. And the worst part is that I can’t just let things or people go just like that.
This is both my positive and negative character. No one is perfect. So really sorry if I have irritated or
annoyed you this year.

1st JAN

HAPPY NEW YEAR DEAR <3<3 <3

I really wish from the core of my heart that this year brings you lot of success and most importantly a
lot if happiness. Whatever you are going through ends and you grow wiser and stronger.

I know you are not willing to meet or talk and I won’t try to ask anymore but you will always be in
my heart! Loads of love Mayank<3<3<3

I will still keep some hope because that’s who I am.

PS: Even strangers wish on New year,,, I thought at least you will text today but….its fine 😊

There are many things I want to tell you every day and there are many plans I had for us but I think
that’s never going to happen. When you tell about how u feel to a person but that person doesn’t
reciprocate something just breaks,,, something just becomes empty…. That’s how I feel right now!
But I really hope for a new start…. I know these all sounds soooo filmy and cringe but I couldn’t help
myself from venting these out! I really wished I got answers to my questions. I won’t make it longer
but all I want to say I will keep waiting :)