Introduction

Title: Never Let Me Go [Eng Trans]

Copyright by: gemiwitharie

As published in: https://www.wattpad.com/story/348538489-never-let-

mego-eng-trans

Synopsis: The love between two boys budding between choosing 'duty' and
'death'. Because of obligations , Neungdiao had no choice but to be
flawless. He must be at the head and above all others as the heir of a
prestigious family. Due to the enormous burden his father left him before
his death , Nuengdiao was forced to grow up alone. He had no friends , no
one around , no one understand and no one to love. Until one day , he met
Palm. The son of the family driverAll Rights Reserved

Never Let Me Go [Eng Trans]

1. Introduction
2. Chapters
1. Opening Thu, Aug 3, 2023
2. Chapter 1Sat, Aug 5, 2023
3. Chapter 2Sun, Aug 6, 2023
4. Chapter 3Thu, Aug 10, 2023
5. Chapter 4Sun, Aug 13, 2023
6. Chapter 5Thu, Aug 17, 2023
7. Chapter 6Sun, Aug 20, 2023
8. Chapter 7Mon, Aug 21, 2023
9. Chapter 8Tue, Aug 22, 2023
10. Chapter 9Wed, Aug 23, 2023
11. Chapter 10Thu, Aug 24, 2023
12. Chapter 11Sun, Aug 27, 2023
13. Chapter 12 Mon, Aug 28, 2023
 14. Chapter 13Wed, Aug 30, 2023
15. Chapter 14Wed, Aug 30, 2023
16. Chapter 15 : Side Story Chopper x BenThu, Aug 31, 2023
Opening

"I'ii definitely see you this time!"

Dad said that one night. That day , it rained harder than ever , Neungdiao
could remember exactly that time. A kind of consistency in the other man's
gaze made the child a little suspicious. He only knew that his father was
very busy , there was only one day to meet all year , which was his
birthday. He was 10 year old , and no matter how busy he was , he would
come back to congratulate him. At this time , he could see and talk to his
father , sitting together happily

"I knew you were coming."

When he was hugged by his father , the son was extremely happy. He enjoy
watching himself in a bright suit , running to hug him because the moment
was always short. Dada always wakes up before his son and wont leave
until he asleep. Only his mother told him that his father made money to
build Neungdiao a big house , bought him a big car

"You have to trust me."

Dad lowered his head and pressed his lips to his forehead as a goodnight.
Neungdiao wanted him to finish the story. Dad recounted that the king
needed to protect the country from on evil dragon , whose head could not
return , because it would hurt those whom he valued
"I love you the most in the world Neungdiao."

He felt something wet on his father's face as he released him. Seeing his
eyes filled with tears , his heart trembled , he didnt want to see his father
like this

"Dont cry , Neungdiao loves you too."

The son said as he wiped away tears with his hands "Neungdiao doesn't
need you to have a lot of free time with me , as long as you don't cry."

"I Heard you say this."

The man wiped his tears with his hands as if he had lowered his resolve
"Remember how to play hide and seek?"

"Count from 1 to 10 , dont open your eyes"

Neungdiao used to play this game with his father on his birthday every year.
When he opened his eyes , he saw an unexpectedly large gift box

"Neungdiao has to quiet this time , count in is mouth , dont say it."

"Did you hear me count?"

Neungdiao asked incomprehensibly , he just smiled slightly but there was a

lot of concern in his heart. There was a rumbling sound in the sky. Pipob
holding onto his child tightly

"Neung has to trust dad."

He felt his father about to cry and insisted on every word "Dont let others
find out you're here. Listen to me , no matter what happens , Neungdiao
must close his eyes , keep his mouth shut and continue counting as 21
agreed?"

"Yes!"

The boy believed that his father's words were always true , so he believed
them unconditionally , without a doubt

"Are you going to count from 1 to 10?"

The father smiled , raised his hand and rubbed his son's head. Neungdiao
heard the sound of wheels in front of the house. Then come the sound of
rain. Pipob held his son in his arms , making Neung a little breathless. For
some reason he held back tears.

"I love you. I love you the most in the world."

Dad cried again , this time he came to comfort him " I love you the most in
the world , too."

This isn't a lie , that right. Dad carried the boy to the closet. There were ten
cabinets lined up in the locker room , and he opened the deepest one and
placed his son in the narrow slit. Neungdiao could barely move his body ,
his father's hand gently rubbing his head.

"Don't be afraid , after playing hide and seek i'll put you to sleep , okay?"

Dad said with soft smile. NEungdiao didn't quite understand at first , until
his father nodded and told him to count

"1....1..."

"2....2..."

"3....3...."
Dad closed the closet door , and the boy slowly counted in his throat until
silence swallowed him. NEungdiao closed his eyes and did as he was told ,
not letting anyone know he was here

"4...5...6...7...8...9"

He tried to focus on counting to 10 to get out looking for his father. But
outside the cupboard , he heard various voices. The sound of his father
scolding seemed to be arguing with someone , the sound of objects
colliding violently , something broke. Terrible stories caught his ears
Hurrah!

A gunshot rang out , which was the last sound Neungdiao heard. He
realized that he couldn't play with his father anymore
Chapter 1

"Or Poland , it's beautiful there."

Neungdiao sat with his chin up , looking dejectedly at the classroom wall
clock , and hearing his classmates arguments around him , but he didn't pay
much attention. The 2 nd period break is over but the 3 rd period teacher
has not yet entered the class

"Disneyland don't you?"

"Why not Poland , isn't it interesting?"

"Let's do a little research. Don't jus go to an amusement park or see nature"

The teenager still ignored his friend's words

"Isn't that Neungdiao?"

"What?"

He only let out a brief question because he wasn't involved in the

conversation in the first place. Neungdiao looked around , next to 3 friends
who were arguing over where to rest for the summer , but still undecided

"Where are you going?"

A friend asked , nothing so special that it made him sigh. I don't know ho
many more time i have to answer them

"At home."

"Why stay home. Aren't you rich , or waiting for the holiday weekend?"
"My mom didn't let me go anywhere."
Neungdiao replied softly , he didn't like this kind of interrogation very
much , so he mentioned his mother. BEcause otherwise they're going to
have a bunch of other questions , why stay home , and so on. Since his
father died on his 10th birthday , his mother was the one who raised him
like a flower in greenhouse. The status of the sole heir in the family is great
blessing , but also an evil curse

"But Chopper gets to go?"

The words stunned him for a moment , unable to ignore them. Chopper was
the son of Supakit , Neungdiao's uncle. His cousin. But he was raised in a
different way. Anyway , with Neungdiao's position , he is the breadwinner
of the family , all businesses are run under the hard work of his parents.
This meant that Neungdiao was the main heir , and Chopper was just his
uncle son , and his mother and uncle took over the job together. Although
he is a relative , he does not trust this uncle very much

"Chopper is Chopper , i'm me."

He asiad as he stood up and carried his bag. Ten minutes had passed , the
teacher still hadn't come in. Adn even if it was in the 11th minute , no one
would stop it

"I'll skip clas s, see you in the afternoon."

Pum immediately stopped. This was probably the one who talked to him the
most

"Hey i've fixed it. Will you ask me to sign it?"

He was silent and indescribable emotion in his heart "Well when can i tell
you"

"Than you , boss."

The other group continued to discuss animatedly. He draped his briefcase

over his shoulders and went out to find a quite place alone
There was a knock on the door even though the door was still open

A soft knock spread throughout the small room connected to the school's
main meeting room. It is used to make musical instruments and arrange
sound lighting effects for various important events. Of course , it became
the room for the music club

"It's been the first day of school?"

The person who was wiping the instruments suddenly turned when he heard
the voice. Neungdiao walked in and looked around. This is a secret place
behind the chicken wing , few people know about it. Like shadows in the
theater , where the prince will bury himself forever

"Can't you?"

He set the briefcase aside. As if there was some magical power , he went
straight to the piano in the corner of the room. Neungdiao's
conversationalist was Ben , and like him , he had been involved in the club
since high school. However , soicety is full eccentrics. Everyone has private
space , no one is allowed to enter except the people of the club

"It's okay if its's you." Ben replied

Neungdiao knew what he meant. Every if has a price to pay , a reward even
if the price is extremely high

"Uh."

He sat down in front of the keyboard , his mind blank , longing only to
touch a certain melody. His hand touched the C major key , intending to
play his favorite music again. Each finger gliding over the keyboard is the
freest feeling. Here , all can feel the art by ear, ignoring the dark
surroundings and immersing themselves in the music

"Last chrismas." Ben said. Neungdiao turned to look

"Last chrismas it the song you played at chrismas your freshman year."
"How do you know?"

Neungdiao was a little surprised. He was playing this piece at the time but it
was behind the scenes. Everyone thought it was a soundtrack played from
audio , and no one knew it was actually a piano piece played by him

"I know. But this C sound is quite strange , does not press al the way. It's a
bit out of tune but not so bad , is that your style?"

Ben said as he wiped the drums , not looking back but he knew what the
other party was thinking. Neungdiao tried to deal with this with his piano
teacher but couldn't , especially recently when things were getting chaotic

"Play another one."

Neungdiao said the last sentence and pressed the first note with his finger.
He'd done this much that he almost didn't need to look at the sheet music.
the song tells a love story in a special situation , the main character decides
to give his heart to a person who happens to pass by

Last christmas i gave you my heart

But the very next day you gave it away
This year , to save me from tears I'll
give it to someone special

"Senior of high school , how does the first day of school feel , is it okay?"

This was the first word he heard after sitting at the table. The table was long
enough for 10 people but no one except his mother and uncle

"Tha's fine!"
The son replied , pretending that nothing important had happened but at
same time 2 hands unconsciously grabbed the briefcase. Neungdiao skipped
school to the music room , accidentally staying too long. When i returned to
class , i found that the notebook i had left under the table had been slashed
to pieces. He went to check the locker when he saw clay stuffed into the
locks. It took him time to call a mechanic to fix it

"But hearing Chanon say you don't look good." Mom reached out and took
her hand. Since dad's death , mom has taken over dad's place. She took on
the job of a domestic real estate company., helping the company through the
crisis

Whether underground or on the ground , she did it all. After that night of
torrential rain , Neungdiao was not told stories before going to bed , and
then never in his lif

"Uncle Chanon is overreacting!"

"Neungdiao!" mom said , taking a deep breath at the same time. She looked
away. Life is not difficult , but not everyone wats to be born in this prison
world no less

"Uncle Chanon is worried so he tells me. Does Neungdiao have fight with
friends? Has anyone done anything to you? Tell me so i can tell the
headmaster."

Neungdiao didn't answer , shaking his head in disinterest and pretending

nothing had happened. She also understood that the reason he was hated
was because she had reclaimed some market land near the school to build
new buildings , forced people there to protest and planted banners along the
way. Had Neungdiao became the son of someone who din't care about the
poor?

"Mrs Tanya"

A small voice interrupted into the conversation. The boy who didn't need to
go back knew it was Chanon , the driver who took him to school every day.
His eyes swept over the driver with hash gaze but there was nothing he
could do. At least Chanon was the one who saved him from the closes
before suffocating in it

"It's time."

The man said. The mother said nothing , just nodded in agreement. Chanon
came out with another person "This is Palm , my son."

Chanon introduced the newcomer

"Hi khun Tanya , hello khun Neungdiao." He raised his hand to greet
everyone clumsily.

The boy in front was a smaller version of Chanon , expect for his fair skin.
The overall look is quite eye catching , the jawbone stands out , the five
eyes are bright. After he finished greeting , the boy's hands joined together
slightly bent down

Neungdiao looked at his son Palm

"Palm lives with his uncle in the country. But he had just passed away so i
told him to move here for a while. If there another place i'll let it him move
out."

Chanon said politely. Despite the fact that he could be considered his
mother's right hand man , he was very trusting. Neungdiao also considered
him a relative rather than a subordinate , but he never showed up , behaved
like a normal worker , never once asked for credit for helping his family

"No need to think that much. Leave your son here. Such a big house has a
lot of empty rooms."

Tanya said casually. He didn't interrupt or argue , just looked curiously at

the newcomer. Palm lifted his head to look up , their eyes involuntarily
meeting but within moments , the other realized and walked away

"Im sorry."
Neungdiao turned to look at Chanon and asked questions. Just because
there's no place to stay? Chanon's son is no longer young , why appear at
this time. Don't you want your kids to stay away from here. If given the
choice , no one would let their flesh and blood enter the gray area and the
smell of gun powder waft

"How old are you?"Mom turned to ask the boy

"19 years old."

He heard his voice clearly for the first time. Quite quite and rough but a
little resolute

"So i'm in my freshman year of college."

"No , khun Tanya. His uncle had cancer and had to take a year off from
school to care for him. He just went back to school in his senior year of
high school."

"So it's on par with Neungdiao now , isn't? When Neungdiao was 17 , Palm
was 18." Palm lifted his head to look at the other person , nodding in
understanding.

"Fortunately , it's like 2 of you are the same age. Can be friends with
Neungdiao."

The sentence cause the arm that was about to pick up the food to suddenly
pause. Neungdiao raised his head to look at the newcomer. He look deep
into the probing mysterious gaze. Palm was as quite and humble as his
father. Behind the burden of the driver's son , how would be behave with
him?

"Palm will you take care of Neungdiao?"

"Yes."
After saying that he and his father left. Neungdiao was now emotionally
confused. What does this seemingly mild , submissive name really mean?
He smiled involuntarily

Friends?

Does anyone in your life really consider yourself a friend?

Palm behaves like a servant in the family even though his mother has asked
him to be friends with her child. Every time he passed by , he just lowered
his eyes. When he came with him , he just bowed his head quietly. He was
so silent that he lived. Neungdiao didn't pay much attention at first , but the
more he looked at him , the more Nueng felt disgusted. Palm acts as not a
human but a silent machine , despite the outside world's dictates

"Hey."

Neungdiao casually greeted the newcomer. At first he was in the room

watching a little entertainment TV but suddenly heard the sound of running
water. When he came out , he saw Palm washing his car. Some strange
feeling urged him to come and talk to the other person

"Hello , Khun noo."

"My name is Neungdiao"

"Yes , Khun noo Neungdiao."

The boy who washing the car hurriedly ran to turn off the water and then
turned to stand quietly with his head down , hands clenched

"Do you need me to do anything?"

"Yes"
One side asked , the other hurriedly answered. The boy lifted his head as he
waited for order. But when the other person stared as hiim he ovoided his
gaze

"Look up"

"What?"

"I told you to look up."

The boy hesitated but eventually had to follow suit. Palm wasn't one to lack
confidence , but for some reason he wasn't

"When you talk , you have to look into the eyes of the other person , don't
look down , i don't like it."

Palm nodded in agreement. But then instead of looking down he looked

down , causing Neungdiao to sigh helplessly

"Where were you before?"

Neung continued to ask , looking at his opponent with provocative look. In

fact , he still doubted this son. It was no pure coincidence in the world that
he asked him to be his friend

"Hua Hin"

"In the city?"

"No in the country."

The teen replied politely. Neungdiao stood with his arms crossed over his
chest , his eyes watchign his opponent from head to toe

"Then what does your uncle do in Hua Hin?"

"Papaya salad"

"So you know how to do it , right?"

Learning the way his father did , he tried to look up as specific information
as possible

"Not really , because most of the time i'm just running errands." Palm said
as he bent down and immediately look up

"Is it hard to move here? New place for example?" Neungdiao pretended to
care , but the goal was to know what Chanon was doing

"It's nothing. My uncle died anyway , so there's no one else."

He nodded , watching the movements of the person in front of him. The

other party's answer wasn't out of the question , but Palm didn't seem to be
lying

"What about friends?"

Not so much. Because after school i have to run to help my uncle scrape the
papaya , so i don't have a lot of time to hang out with friends."

The air suddenly quiet , because the other owner couldn't think of any other
questions. Palm was too ordinary. It's not! Mediocre to the point of
boredom. But Neungdiao believes that Chanon's son must have a lot to
hide. His mother trusted Chanon like that , there was no reason why she
didn't care about her son. At least his mother would send him to school ,
and he would have a better life than the children of the rest of the family

The question is , does mom really want Plam to be his friend

"Why Palm?"

Questions lingered in the teen's mind. He looked out the window. Palm is
washing car after car. He watched to see what the other was wearing. It was
the school uniform of a public school that was quite far away from here.
Neungdiao shook his head to let the thoughts fade away.

After all , what were you thinking?

Chapter 2

"Khun noo how is the new semester?"

Chanon , the family driver , asked him. Neungdiao quietly recalled images
that crossed his mind. The los briefcase , the closet with ink stains and
curses , the notebook thrown in the trash , and the leaflets strewn across the
school , on which when 'son of the murderer' was written in scribbled red

"Just like always."

He replied , his gaze absentmindedly looking out the window. But signs
dotted the outside along with banners protesting the acquisition of market
land. In fact , his mother was not wrong , because the contract had expired
and the landowner was happy to sell it to the Kiattakulmaetee clan to build
a new department store. But this means that the land on which hundreds of
people live needs to be reclaimed

Thinking about it for a while , it was time to go to the school gate ,

everyone was staring at the car

"I've said it many time s, don't let mother know about thing at school. She
has lots of headaches for a lot of things so i can't cause any more trouble."

Neungdiao turned away and looked at the driver's expression behind the
rearview mirror. His eyes filled with mixed emotions , he took a deep
breath

"Yesterday's car's brake cord was cut"

A weak voice came from behind. Neungdiao was only slightly surprised ,
but somewhat predictable. It seems but fragments of many things are
gradually put together. In this world , there is no such thing as a coincidence
"I have a feeling there are always people watching us."

"Went to the bathroom for a while and saw that the car was like that."

His voice was even. Although Neungdiao wasn't surprised , he was also
uncomfortable. It wasn't the first time he'd been pranked , but the level this
time was too much

"I think it was someone in the school who notified the security department.
But as a result , there is no one , only students and administrators."

"No camera?"

"Yes" Chanon replied

"Because the parking space is not under supervision , only the people who
come in and out are students. I've already told the school to beef up the
cameras in that area."

"How's your mother doing?"

"Tanya's car was tracked yesterday but this is something that happens all the
time. It's not clear who did it."

His family was always in a dangerous situation. Because the business is not
completely clean , she is always in the crosshairs of government and
security agencies. Moreover , the crux of dad's case is still unsolved

"Is there anything else?"

"I want you to pay a little attention."

"Because the situation is becoming more and more disturbing." Chanon's

voice grew heavier
Neungdiao itself is understandable , but having hundreds of students , as a
precaution is not easy.

"Khun Tanya told you to learn self defense , every 7th."

Nuengdiao meditated. Shortly after his father died , his mother hired a
teacher to teach him how to defend himself. Mainly handle real life
situations , not used for sports competition. But when he entered level 3 his
studies became heavier , so he took some time off

"Okay."

"Khun Tanya also said to let Palm and his master study together. He's
learned it before , it's more convenient. I don't know what you mean."
He looked at Chanon through the rearview mirror "It's up to everyone."

Having said that , i went to school. The car stopped at the pick up area.
Neungdiao picked up his briefcase and got out of the car. It's still a little
while before class time. Maybe he should tell the school board about
installing more cameras , to find out who's behind everything.

"Neungdioa."

"What's wrong , Ben?"

The president of the music club was laughing and patting him on the
shoulder

"Did you come to the meeting room today? There's something i want to talk
to you about"

"What?"

"There was a dance club near the school that contacted me and wanted to
hire someone who knew how to play the piano for them. I think you're
interested . You should go. Is it ok?"

"Why me?"
"You're the only one in school who knows how to play the piano."

He was about to answer but turned to find his cousin in a far corner. At first
, Nuengdiao was about to raise his hand to call out to the other party , but
stopped. Chopper must have stood there for a while watching them two talk

"If there's anything else , please sending information over the line. I'll go
and ask my mom. If there's nothing else , i'll go first."

Nuengdiao gives the QE code to the other person to scan it. Chopper
frowned displeasedly . He hoped he didn't think too much. That his
behavior was obvious

"Next up is double practice."

The 7th afternoon self defense session began. Chanon's words weren't
wrong. Palm really excels in fitness. From the first lessons , the teacher
praised him hard. Only a few basic skills were learned quickly in a very
short time

"Please instruct."

Chanon son said softly. Neungdiao and Palm faced each other as the teacher
instructed the 2 to alternate as attackers. That means there will be bumps
during practice. His opponent's eyes were as moody as usual , making
Neungdiao uncomfortable. The desire to win was high , he wanted to tear
apart what the other man was hiding outside in his humble shell. Want to
know the truth of what happened

"ID doesn't matter."

Neungdiao replied , before mentally preparing himself to sound athletic. As

soon as it started , Palm's hand moved immediately. Neungdiao was
supposed to push away but kicked the leg causing the other to stagger. But
it was useless. Immediately Palm counterattacked , squeezing him so
tightly that his body couldn't move

"Im sorry."

The one who pinned him down said in low voice. Neungdiao was absent
minded , laughing slightly. If om had seen this situation , she would have
been disappointed

"The end."

Hearing the command , Palm immediately left Neungdiao's body. Reaching

out to pull him up. He took a deep breath , telling himself to try as the heir
to the KIattakulmaetee clan where his parents had built

"Get started."

After being pinned to the ground by the opponent . He was in an offensive

position right now. The right hand did not even have time to grab the
opponent's clothes when the other swung to block , and at the same time
threw his left leg , causing Nueng to lose his balance and fall. But before he
hit the ground , his opponent's arm supported him first. Nueng's body was
in Palm's arms.

"Sorry."

They are not too far away. Looking closely at Palm , he saw that he was
gulping , his face just a little away from his.

"Don't say sorry. Next time i'll kill you."

He was exasperated , tired of Palm's excessive respect , tired of repeated

apologies. He didn't mean what he was thinking.

"Yes Khun noo."

"Neungdiao
"Yes , Khun noo Neungdiao."

"Neungdiao , not Khun noo Neungdiao."

Looking at the scaled down version of Chanon , he found it even more

interesting . Competitiveness in people burns

"No , i have to call you master anyway."

The two separated again as instructed by the teacher. This time Neungdiao
was not interested in practicing , but took the person in front of him as a
challenge. He was a competitive man who knew at first glance that he was
hiding something. So the more you have to find loop holes

"See who's coming , be wise , huh?'

Like his mother , the son said with a relaxed smile. But the essence is
putting pressure on the opponent

"Get started"

The small body attacked again , but this time Neungdiao was better
prepared than before. He stretched out his right leg to sweep his opponent
from approaching. At first he only wanted to knock Palm down once but his
goal was in front of him , he slightly dropped his legs and jumped away ,
turning to pull the other down with his right arm

"A"

He was about to say something like he wanted to apologize , but he stopped

him "What are you going to call me?"

Neungdiao looked at Palm's face , though his strength suppressed him in all
directions. In the battlefield , this situation of wanting to take a life will be
as easy as turning a hand. But in the fight for freedom of speech ,
Neungdiao will never lose , even if the opponent is in an active position

"Khun noo Neungdiao

"I give you one last chance"

Time passed slowly. Neungdiao , who is winning linguistically , smiled.

The heat was spreading across his lips. After about 1 minute , the person
who was pressing him said that he didn't want to continue like this anymore

"Neungdiao."

Palm has been here for 1 week

Neungdiao's life is as calm as the calm ocean , but underneath the

underground storm is rolling. He always felt the oppression and danger
escalating. There were triangular nails next to the wheel , students who put
nails on were called for interrogation , but in the end it was still just
warnings

Moreover , he felt that his mother rarely come home

Mom acted more and more like dad. Only talk 1 time a day and the time to
go out last from day to day. Something was threatening but didn't know
what it was. The teenager felt nervous about everything around him

Neungdiao went outside to breathe , everything was going normally.

He heard someone swimming in the flowing water , the sound of rapid

breathing , the sound of the water hitting the walls of the tank rhythmically.
His gaze flicked over and he looked at the clock , it was 2 am. Neung went
downstairs , went through the hall and opened the pool door

"Khun noo. Neungdiao."

Neungdiao sat down on the edge of the tank , grinning smugly. The person
inside was Palm and he did not ask permission
"I just found out that mom allowed you to use that pool."

The voice startled the person in the tank to leave. For a moments ,
Neungdiao saw a small alternating light and darkness. The muscular body is
full of muscles like a regular exerciser . Thick shoulders , toned arms ,
strong undulating abs. The lower body is wrapped with towel. The son's
eyes were full of panic

"I don't"

"Nothing? I Don't know?"

"I'm sorry , there won't be another time."

The confused action of the person in front of him made him smile with
satisfaction. He always felt Palm wasn't one to just bow his head and live.
In front of him was a Palm with a soul , a certain toughness that others did
not have. No driver's son would sneak into a natural home pool in the
middle of the nigh. Chanon failed to tell his son to behave as he wanted.

"If an apology works what's the use of law?"

Palm leaned over the sit next to Neungdiao. He turned slightly and then
dodged again ,afraid of facing him head on

"If you call me khun noo again , i'll ask uncle chanon to come talk to you
right now , do you want it?"

"I'm sorry Neungdiao"

"What?"

"Sorry Neungdiao"

"Neungdiao can tell me to do anything , but don't tell my dad. If you want
to punish me , it's up to me to do it myself." Palm continued
"But don't you sleep with your dad? Why didn't your dada know you were
out?"

The other had revealed weakness. The two looked deeply into each other's
eyes. Playing sports may not to be something he's good at , but playing
reasoning is different

"Then my dad slept , then..."

"To..."

"Don't tell anyone , will you?"

His voice was hoarse , the movement filled with the arrogance that
Neungdiao hated. It hides under the guise of humility. Even at this
moment , his face held high as defiance

"Can you do anything?"

Neungdiao smiled smugly , is there anything more fun?

"If you consider yourself a servant , follow all orders from me , i will not
say what happened today."

Neungdiao pretended to say sympathetically "Oh , i can also tell you that i
allow you to use the pool"

"Yes."

"Ok?"

"Yes"

Palm's husky voice responded

"Im the son of a driver. Im poor with no money , as long as it's nothing to
do with money , you can do it."
The victory rushed. Neungdiao couldn't help but feel dissatisfied with the
word 'khun noo' but now was not the time to talk about it.

"Servant is your friend , i'm not your mother's servant or you father."

"What is it?"

The other looked up at him. There was a look of uncontrollable panic in his
eyes. "This 6th i want to skip school."

Palm looked at Neungdiao silently , not speaking again

"At 8am waiting at gate 6 , i'll go over the fence. Then 3pm will come back
to help me get back to school."

Neung saw his opponent gulp slightly

"No one know about this except you and me"

"But khun noo , this is very dangerous. You know it's not safe lately , and i
don't want to go against Tanya order."

"You're against my mother's order. You don't remember my mother telling

you to take care of me. That's it. You have to follow and keep me safe."

"But... Khun noo."

"Did you forget what you just said?"

Neungdiao subconsciously stiffened , lowering his voice and staring at the

person in front of him

"yes. So at 8 o clock i will wait at the gate."

Chapter 3

"1...2...3..."

NEungdiao counted and then jumped from a narrow gap in the fence in the
school's rarely used side gate area. Then he fell into the other boy's arms.
The close proximity and the soft sound of his breathing caused his jaw to
stretch visibly. Palm hugged Neungdiao to his lap , just tight enough. The
two looked at each other for a moment before Palm dropped him to the
ground.

"Are you okay in this school?"

"Nobody cares. Today the school is having father's day."

He replied , turning his head to look at the front gate. His school is a branch
of China , so it will hold activities similar to them on the 3rd sunday of june
according to chinese culture. This activity is also nothing , just meet the
owner and talk. Earlier , he asked uncle Supakit Chopper's father to come.
But this year won't he tired of pretending for so long

"Where do you want to go khun noo?" Palm asked confused

He turned around with an irritated expression "How long do you like to call
me khun noo. Do you like being my servant?"
In fact , he did not want to , it was just the situation that led to this step
"Sorry"

Neungdiao could only speak while sighing , his tone full of fatigue. "You
can call me Nueng , today i invite you to hang out as a friend."

"Its better to call Neungdiao"

"Dont add khun noo at the end."

"Where does Neungdiao want to go?"

Palm asked in low voice. Neungdiao raised an eyebrow , raised his hand
and hailed an oncoming taxi.

"Let me go to the subway station."

After arriving , Neungdiao talekd to his 'friend' as he walked. In fact , he

passed by here every day , but he never stood there

"Neungdiao has never taken the train?"

"So what?"

He said back with a grimace. Chanon's son has only been in Bangkok for 2
weeks and has already taken the train. It's because her mother told
Neungdiao that it's not safe to take public transport , so she has to let
Chanon go wherever he goes

"Where is Neungdiao going?"

Palm turned his head and asked , the two of them standing with a long list
of stations in front of them. Neungdiao had already found the destination ,
so he searched by name and bough a ticket. Meanwhile the other teenager
was watching his surroundings cautiously. Neungdiao saw that and said
sarcastically

"No one is coming to kill us."

But he pretended not to care , continuing to act as if he was looking for
someone. Neungdiao clicks the list of all the stations on the site

"Come here and put a coin"

Neungdiao eagerly put coins into the box. Although the ticket purchase can
be pain with QR , he prefers to be paid for the first time in his lif. The stern
faced boy involuntarily turned to look at him and smiled

"What are you laughing at?" Neung pouted

"Nothing. Just surprised , didn't expect Neugndiao to be so excited."

Palm is honest. This made Neungdiao sigh. He thought about his own life ,
which was confined in a cramped cage

" I haven't even reached 7 eleven yet."

While buying tickets and talking , Palm quickly ran after him. Fortunately ,
friday afternoon is not too crowded , everything is directed right in front of
you , so let the other party do whatever they want. After taking the train
tickets for both of them , Nueng walked away hurriedly

"Nueungdiao , go slow."

"Don't act like a bodyguard. Think of you as my friend. You keep looking
around like people think you're stealing."

He complained , but even so , Palm let everything blow through his ears ,
making Nueng bored. He ordered Palm to come with him , actually as a
friend but in the end as a master and servant

"Stop it."

Nueng's elbow lightly nudged the other. But when touched , Palm's hand
grabbed Neungdiao , pulled Neungdiao over , left hand pressed on body ,
causing Nueng to stop as an automatic response
"Are you a human or a fighting robot?"

Palm's face is now a little red for no reason. Was it because he was wrapped
in the arms of a taller person or something else. And it's no big deal if the
two are standing on the subway platform with countless glances all around
"Can you let go?" Nuengdiao coughed lightly.

The words brought Palm to his senses and let him go immediately. At the
same time the announcement sounded , that the train was about to enter the
station. Nuengdiao turned to look a bit , but Palm just lowered his eyes

"Dont arbitrarily hug other people in public , understand?"

"Let's take a look around a bit."

The security officer said. Right now , the two are standing in front of a not
so high building. In that area , there was an abandoned skyscraper. Palm
looked up , almost out of sight. Everything was bare , except for the xposed
columns and ceilings , which were surprisingly barren and gray. The
employee glanced slightly , not understanding what the other person was
doing here. Nuengdiao didn't say anything , just gently took his ID card and
pointed at the number

"Don't let anyone know i was here , okay?"

After finishing their words , the two boys greeted and opened to door to
enter "My dad built it a long time ago , during the financial crisis."

Brief explanations came from the guid's mouth. Fortunately , it was near
late afternoon , and the surrounding was not too lonely. A gentle breeze
from the Chao Phraya River not far away blew to the tall grass dotted with
barren land that was toppled by the wind. Palm looked around once and
then back at the other person. He took off the bag or put it on his shoulder
and held it in his hand , quietly following Nuengdiao into the deserted
building

"Why does Nuengdiao wnat to come here?"

The stairs are high and steep , there are no railings , everything is empty ,
the connections are precarious and unsecured. Everything turns to
suspicion. Palm questioned himself as Nuengdiao stepped up the stairs in
front of him

"You will know."

Both slowly climb to a certain height. Nueng's school uniform was

drenched , hugging his body tightly , revealing thin body

"Is it pretty?"

After arriving , Nuengdiao entered the balcony , went to the corner of the
building. 2 meters from the edge of the unbuild building , and sat down. He
looked at the scene in front of him , then turned back to his followers. The
opposite light enveloped him , making him like a blurry picture between
dream and awake , dream and reality

"All right."

Palm replied and sat down , leaving some space behind. Nueng turned to
glance at the distance between them , then returned without saying anything
, just looking at the scene of the Chao Phraya River in front of him. Time
seems to stop. He gently buried his face in his arms as he watched the
passing trains and moving people

"When my father was alive. He used to bring me here."

Nueng suddenly spoke up. I don't understand why there is a lump in my

chest. If you don't say it out loud , it will explode. The scenery around him
didn't change , only his feelings changed. Once full of life , now it has
tasted bleak. Nuengdiao felt like he couldn't breathe , as if someone was
covering his mouth in the closet at that time. He heard a loud gunshot , then
his own cry

"At that time , my father told me to choose the floor and the corner that i
liked the most. He would buy this building and renovate it into a new
apartment. But in the end , he was shot and killed."

Nuengdiao didn't understand why he would say that to someone he wasn't

close to who he'd only know for 3 weeks. He crossed his arms , his chest
full of nostalgia for the deceased , a little bit of his mother , the mother of
the past

"Im very sad."

Palm was silent at first , but then he walked over and put his hand on the
other's shoulder , soft and tender ,and squeezed it gently . Palm really
sympathizes with him

"I don't have my mother around either."

The boy's deep and rough voice spoke up. Nuengdiao did not turn around
and continued to listen

"MY father divorced my mother a long time ago. I moved in with him after
that and he worked in Bangkok. Although i called him many times but
couldn't get through. I don't remember how long it happened , about 8
years. Because after finishing middle school , he didn't go home anymore ,
only transferred money back."

If you compare the time , it also coincides with the loss of your father. And
palm also had to leave his father because Chanon became his mother's
closest confidant. Nuengdiao turned to look at the boy next to him ,
sympathizing with the other person's situation

"Why didn't uncle Chanon let you come here in the first place?"
Palm was silent for a moment , then said "Dad said it was dangerous here.
Right from the first day of middle school , he taught me martial arts , self
defense , driving and shooting."

Palm really learned how to protect himself. The sound stopped for a
moment because the person in front of him seemed to be crying in his heart.
But the tears did not fall. Both are products of what their father expected
and adorn them with the people their parents wanted to be. The tow of them
had no answer to what they would be lik when they grow up

"I Din't ask why. Because my dad just gave me money and told me to take
care of myself."

"So now do you know why?" Nuengdiao smiled softly

For a moment , he found himself lying on top of the boy in front of him "I
think i get it." It was the first time Nuengdiao felt the hurt buried deep in
the other's heart.

"Then let's be friends"

"Friend?"

"I say friends , i mean true friends."

My father must have known that Nuengdiao was skipping school." It was
already 4 Pm , When they returned to the school fence.

"Where are you going next?"

"Ah , a friend in the club said there was a job recently."

Then he called a taxi back to that point a bit. It's a pretty old and old
building. When he entered the parking lot , he saw Chanon's car parked
there. Nuengdiao told the driver to go around the back and find an
opportunity to sneak is so as not to be detected

"Does Nuengdiao drink cocoa?" Palm asked

After entering the lobby , the inside is quite spacious with quite a few
couples dancing slowly to the beat of the music. the scene reminds viewers
of 20 years ago. The people here are all no more than 56 years old. Haha

"I took a job playing the piano here , come visit first."

HE said Palm went to the corner of the dance floor because he didn't want
them both to be the center of attention

"Why are you doing this Nueng?" The club manager asked "and?"

"You're rich , we can't afford it"

"I don't do it for the money."

He answered bluntly , before he could say anything more , a waiter wearing

a bow came over. That person bought an entrance ticket and gave to both of
them

"Do you know how to dance?"

Palm shook his head quickly. The stiff body made Nueng unable to see the
smile. Chanon asked him to learn everything but it seem like entertainment
is not?

"Have you ever studied music?'

"Not yet"

"Dance , ballet?"

"I dont know"

Neungdiao chuckled softly. I'm afraid this person's whole life is good at
fighting , but he probably won't listen to music

"Come here , i will teach."

Nuengdiao took Palm's arm towards the dance floor without waiting for an
answer. Palm stiffly resisted making him laugh , it's really fun to tease him

"I don't want to."

Palm replied emphatically , and Neungdiao turned back with a fierce look
"It's fine for me to see from afar. Avoid other people approaching."

"You said you were a bodyguard. What if the person next to me shoots me
with a gun?"

When Palm heard that , he was dumbfounded and didn't know how to
refuse. But Neungdiao was quicker to drag him onto the dance floor. He
lifted Palm's left hand and gripped his right hand. The other hand wrapped
around his back and placed the other hand on the shoulder of the opponent.

"Don't worry about right or wrong , just focus on me. When i step left , you
step back right and vice versa , i go back , you go forward. Just remember
that. Don't care if it's wrong or right , just jump right. Move your body."

Nuengdiao spoke at length , as if he knew the rhythm. After the las sentence
, the melody began to play. The stiff palm made Palm forget to breathe

He used his right hand to grip the other person , slowly pulling the
consciousness of the person in front of him to focus on the present moment.
The young man inhaled slowly and exhaled rhythmically. The palm of the
hand is cold , wet then soft and finally relaxed

"1...2..3...4...5...6...7...8..."

Nuengdiao whispered the beat. They looked at each other as a signal to start

"Familiar with the new school?"

He asked in a whisper , his body still swaying to the bat , forgetting about
the outside world. Even an arm's length away , he could feel the lightness of
the air.

"Fine. But i just moved in so i don't have many friends."

The two teenagers involuntarily looked at each other , time seemed to

stop. The feet move slowly to the rhythm

"I don't have friends either...at school."

Palm was silent. The song has been played. The dancers around bowed to
each other and left. Only two people were left standing. Nuengdiao tried his
best to say the proposal in his heart "you move in to be my friend."
Chapter 4

"Hello everyone , Im Panakorn Jannoloy , you can call me Palm."

Nuengdiao propped his chin as Chanon's son introduced himself in front of

the classroom. This is a special language class , students are mainly english
and chinese. And his mother thought that Palm should be in the same class
as his son to keep an eye on him. But Nuengdiao learns chinese , and Palm's
chinese is a zero. Anyway since khun Tanya stands out , things couldn't be
easier

"Perhaps he has a good relationship too. ust started this calss and already
got into this class." Pum said casually

Nuengdiao was silent , his eyes fixed on the window. Time passed slowly ,
he noticed some changes but it was not obvious. Palm's first day at school
went smoothly because they had an official communication , that he would
go to school alone and go home alone so no one would find out.

"Where do you want to go khun?'

Neungdiao said he wanted to play for the dance club he went to last time.
Unfortunately , it's only open on Thursdays and Fridays. And this Monday
afternoon , the building is closed. The place is so gloomy , there's not even
an electric light outside

"You did that on purpose , didn't you?"

"What do you mean khun noo?"

"Your son."

"I don't understand."

'Why did your son suddenly appear here , at this moment. Even if it's only a
year away from you going to college?"

"His uncle is gone and i don't want him to live alone."

He glanced at the person in the rearview mirror. This man remained just as
clumsily honest. He knew Chanon knew more than he knew

"Tell the truth. We've played enough."

There was a fleeting silence. But eventually Chanon spoke "Now that khun
Tanya is being watched , so is the master."

"There are also threatening letters about taking over market land from
residents."

"So you called Palm?"

"I think the culprit is student in the school"

"To protect you?'

"They have help from outsiders. I'm not there to protect you at school. But
every step is dangerous"

"Focus on your question."

Chanon was silent , like he had never seen this side of his khun noo

"Yes"

Only 2 words already imply four. He thought of the son who had danced
with him the day before

"So you called Palm over...to be my bodyguard?"

Nuengdiao was silent. For a short period of time , Nuengdiao thought he
knew everything. But now after hearing the truth from Chanon , he seemed
to understand that the other was like a blind mand being guided by someone
else. It was like his father has comforted him in the dark , telling him to
take up arms. Do everything to be the son your father expects

"That's it."

Nueng muttered ending the topic. The car is still moving along with 2 other
cars not far away. He felt that he and Palm had a special bond. It was an
invisible hand arranged to be given to them regardless of whether they
wanted it or not

"What's wrong dad?"

As if anticipating what was about to happen , Palm timidly asked his father.
Chanon quickly replied that there was nothing to worry about. He nodded
slightly and left

"Palm."

'Boss"

After hearing that personal pronoun , his mouth immediately hardened.

Nuengdiao didn't say anything , just went straight ahead

"Then hat kind of chinese did you learn?"

"I don't know , i'm jus going to borrow library books to study by myself."

He replied sounding worried. It is true that chinese is not easy for beginners
to learn , especially self taught like this. In language class , most people can
speak chinese and english. Palm isn't good enough to speak fluently like
everyone else "I will teach you."

.
The relationship between Nuengdiao and Palm is still developing smoothly

Probably because of the disguised 'friendship' at school , Nuengdiao pulled

Palm into the group on the pretext of doing homework. The 2 talked and
became friends as expected of the family. Nuengdiao teaches Palm basic
chinese every day. Palm learns slowly , he also often goes swimming to
relieve pressure after stressful lessons

The 2 still learn self defense every 7th

Nuengdiao had never beaten the man named Palm. When he enters the field
, he is like a different person , tough and serious about his responsibilities. It
was like wanting to prove that he wasn't allowing himself to lose to anyone.
Nuengdiao din't try to beat Palm either. He knew what his physicality was
like and where he should study

"Pengyou means yo"

"Pengyou."

"No , the you is bar 3."

The boy said as he interrupted during the tutoring process. The two were
sitting by the pool , in fornt of them was a basic chinese textbook and a
writing exercise. On Nuengdiao advice , Palm tried to read bar 3 but
couldn't do it

"You just have to remember it's like jattawa in Thai , Pengyou."

"Pengyou"

"Exactly."

"Why don't you say it's like jattawa from the beginning , it's much simple"
The 2 argued back and forth like that. They had became much closer than
before. So much so that everyone else who looked at it thought it was a real
friend , not a master and bodyguard

"There as ome single words that will be pronounced differently , just lear
from the basic words. A long sentence might not be so obvious."

"Pengyou."

Palm said proudly. He took out his pencil to record it "ho;s Jin dirving"
Nuengdiao turned to ask Palm. He frowned incomprehensibly , using a
classic sentence that every language learner know

"Wo bu zhi."

"What it means to drive. You say peng you , i ask again. Wo shi ni de peng
you ma. Im your friend right"

"Thats right"

Nuengdiao smile

"Ni xiang xin wo de hua ma. Do you believe me?"

"linger yi zhi xin Diao. I beleive in Neungdiao."

"Xiang wo zheng ming. Prove it."

"Zen me. How?"

Palm folded his notebook then pouted slyly , walked towards the pool not
far away. Nuengdiao was surprised by the actions of the person in front of
him. In Palm's heart there seemed to be a bright fire , neither dazzling nor
extinguished

"Ni zhen ma? Are you serius?"

Palm laughed. He removed his clothes , leaving only his short and jumped
into the water disappearing for a moment before resurfacing again. He
stroked the hair that was sticking to his head from the wetness. There was
light shining on his face , revealing a smile that puzzled Nuengdiao

"Shi de. Yes"

He held out his hand to him. Neungdiao looked at the person in front of him
and smiled , reached out and grabbed it and jumped down. Although he
grew up in a wealthy family with his own swimming pool , the number of
times he went into the water counted on his fingers

"I can't swim."

Nuengdiao made no secret to his current state. The other party just nodded
"So Nuengdiao can take my hand?"

Palms clenched to look at the person in front of him. He felt that the
bottomless abyss was no longer as terrifying as before , as Palm had given
him a support

"Don't let go of my hand okay?"

The bodies of the 2 drifted slightly in the gentle current. Nuengdiao's hand
gripped Palm's houlder , his other hand gently around his stomach. For a
moment , he thought of sweet melodies as his hands clenched in a
romantics space

"Are you still afraid of water?"

Hearing this Nuengdiao shook his head hurriedly. The good questioner
explained briefly , instructed him how to hold his breath , and at the same
time dived to check the bottom of the water. When he was done , he went
and grabbed Nueng' hand , told him to hold his breath , and dived to the
bottom together

The picture below was more interesting than he though

Flickering light refracted through the twist , radiating a variety of colors.

Nueng looked around excitedly. Palm's lips twitched causing bubbles to
escape from his mouth. Even so , Nuengdiao was able to see them clearly
"Ni yi shi wo de peng you. You are also my friend."

"Palm"

The teenager called the person who could be trusted most in this school.
Nuengdiao was standing in front of the locker to get his briefcase to prepare
for class but the keyhole was blocked by something so it couldn't be turned.
This time it was gum sticking in. He called Palm and waited for him to run
to see the surveillance camera he had told the school to install

"Let me go call people."

Palm said calmly , but inside he was about to burst into rage. Nuengdiao is
equally adamant. "No need. I will go myself. Or we go together.
Otherwise , you're here waiting for me."

Nuengdiao said as he prepared a circuit to the guard room. He had been

pranked for a long time , and this time he was determined to find the person
behind him

"Calm down."

Palm grabbed his arm and told him to lower the fire a little but received a
bullet shaped look in return. He watched silently as hi opponent walked
down to hall

"nuengdiao"

The last words were uttered by his follower. Nuengdiao pushed open the
door to the music club's. Then his heart almost broke and fell. Sheets of
paper with his and his father's faces and the words 'son of cruelty' were
scattered throughout the room. Dozens and hundreds of sheets were
plastered on the walls , on chairs , all over the instruments. The picture
above is a face grafted onto a cartoon character who is throwing money and
saying repeatedly "Do you know who my dad is?"

"Bastards."

He let out a scream. The four boys in the room who were putting up flyers
insulting him immediately turned around. Three of them were masked and
did not appear to the students at the school

"you take it slow"

Palm tried to stop him but Nuengdiao advanced at the opponent , leaving
him with no time to prepare. Nuengidao's hands tugged at their collars but it
was easily knocked out. Palm rushed over immediately and then the pother
3 surrounded them. Palm was about to help Nuengdiao who was being
pushed to the ground but when he saw the other masked child walking over
and kicked him in the leg , causing him to fall. Nuengdiao took advantage
of that opportunity to unmask

Pum boy...

The person he wasn't sure could be considered a 'friend' but the closest
person beside Palm. A smirk spread across his face , bringing a horror. he
had never seen before. It was as if it had been waiting a long time...

"Your dad is such a terrible bastard."

The contempt caused Nuengdiao to pause slightly. At this time Pum stood
up , the 2 stood facing each other

"Your father tricked residents into signing contracts to clear land

unconditionally. Your mother made them hold contracts for 10 years ,
tricking people into building houses here. And in one day your mother took
it all away."

"Do you know ho much that market costs? It's that 30 million. My parents
took out a mortgage to sell the house just to invest in building a market for
people to make a living."
Pum's eyes were blooodshot

"Then what's the result? Because your dad , it was your dad who tricked
people into getting it back after 30 years. It my house hasn't gotten the
money back , your mom has already robbed everything."

Nuengdiao never knew or suspected the Pum family was involved in his
family's acquisition of the land. He only knew the Pum family was real
estate and quite wealthy. That's all

"So what are you going to do to. me?" Nueng asked. His eyes were already
bloodshot , too. His heart was filled with unspeakable sorrows , from
anger , frustration , humiliation and safness

"Isn't it because your father stupidly put the money in?"

Pum come and pulled on his collar but from a distance Palm was fighting a
live match with the other 3. For Palm , to defeat them is not difficult but
quite persistent. On this side , Pum still quietly spat out a sentence

"Your parents are...scum. And you're just as bad as your parents"

Nuengdiao's stamina has reached its limit. He punched the person in front
of him with all his might , but missed. Pum turned and responded before he
could do anything. The taste of blood wafted out the pain spreading
throughout his mouth

"Looks like you're the one who like to stab in the back?"

Neungdiao sneered and roared , spitting blood stained salvia on the ground.
This succeeded Pum's mad blood. He remembered the lesson of the 7th ,
first to sweep his legs so that the opponent fell forward , then to attack
again

"Devil , you fatherless son."

Before Neungdiao cold make the most of his lessons , Pum's face suddenly
disappeared as someone else stood in the middle. The other was like a
perfect shield that caused Pum to fall. But before he fell , Palm's powerful
punch landed on his right jaw. Pum's face twitched from the force of his
hands

Within a few minutes , blood gradually flows to the ground. Nuengdiao

turned to look around , the other 3 were already lying on the floor , some
were fainting , some were writhing unbearably

Nuengdiao subconsciously grabbed the hem of his shirt. He didn't know

what the other was thinking but the husky voice that the other side shout
was determined. As if it were an order that could not be left. An oath to
keep someone safe. The initial fear in him had almost disappeared

"You're not even qualified to touch Nuengdiao."

Chapter 5

Life without Palm is boring

To be more precise , life without Palm is boring at the moment where the
fight takes place , the security department has come in because they found
the perpetrator in the room. Pum and the other three students were expelled
and blacklisted by the school due to a mysterious force called
'Kiattakulmaetee'. But it wasn't over , as his mother tried to solve Palm's
problem and let him stay for a week.

Mom's lawyer did his best to make the deal. In fact , he did nothing wrong
when , from the surveillance camera position , everything Palm di was to
protect his friend. But Pum's parents deliberately provoked them by
repeatedly denouncing and insulting them in order to get Palm out of
school. In the end , however , it was easily resolve. Neungdiao could still
hear swimming every night , but he didn't dare to come out to see him

"Is mom okay?"

One morning after Pum was expelled , the atmosphere changed. His mother
also come home more often and on time . At first he thought his mother was
upset with him , but ybe he was wrong. The small world of this family is
too complicated

"It's okay."

One morning after Pum was expelled , the atmosphere changed. His mother
also came home more often and on time. At first he thought his mother was
upset with him , but maybe he was wrong. The small world of this family is
too complicated

"It's okay."
"Uncle Chanon said she was being watched."

She immediately turned her gaze to the driver who was standing in a corner
of the house. He was shaking his head slightly but she still responded

"Some have stopped , some have not." Finally my mother replied in a weak
voice "Who do you think does?"

The respondent held up a towel to wipe his mouth , silently shaking his
head. "How is Chopper at school , are you two still playing together?"

"Why do you ask that? What's wrong?"

"Answer me first."

"It's normal. We're in different classes so we dont talk very much."

Nuengdiao remembered his eyes staring at Ben , should he tell his mother?

"I want to hand over the Poipet casino to Supakit. He told me that he
wanted to manage some business. It's also far away so i can't run back and
forth."

She said that the faimly has several casinos in Cambodia , which can make
very good profits but the management is quite tiring. A black business can
be said to be not easy to manage is normal

Nuengdiao was about to ask something but his mother interrupted , got up
to go to work and told Chanon to watch over Nuengdiao when Palm was
out of school

"Why is you face so tense?"

Ben was the first to talk to him when he arrived at school. Nuengdiao didn't
go straight to class but to the music room. This led him to dicover that Ben
had helped him remove all the cursed papers from him as if nothing
happened He was jealous of Bens smile because he always looked so fond
of life. He wanted to be born like a normal person , without expectations or
pressure from the other side.
"This world is heavy."

Nuengdiao said. He was too tired to be close to people , much less in the
moof to play the piano or do anything else. He picked up the phone , turned
on the music , and plunged himself into a new world where no one was
bothering him right now.

"If you're feeling too heavy , i'll take it upon you."

The music Nuengdiao's ears disappeared. Ben lenaed to the left and put it
on. The 2 of them sat together on the stage performing. The boy's smile was
calm but steady. Neugndiao turned to look at Ben , the pent up emotion in
his heart aroused

"Can i lean on you?"

"Okay. Ben smiled

"3...2...1"

Ben slowly counted down and took advantage of the last moment reaching
out with his left hand and resting his head on his shoulder . The touch was
strangely soft in the midst of the cruelty of life. It was af eeling he had
never had. It hadn't been long since he'd really leaned on someone's
shoulder

Nuengdiao couln't hold back tears

Everythign in the world seems to be coming to an end. The image of the son
of the villain repeats itself in his mind , interspersed with his father saying
he loves him , his mother's alienation , his fists making his mouth full of
blood , the widespread pain ,and the guilt of letting Palm be dragged into
this spiral. The pain was as heavy as an avalanche on his 18 year old son

Ben didn't know what to do other than touch that hand to comfort him

Nuengdiao hadn't felt much of a hug from a person in his entire life. But the
moment Ben pulled him into his lap , he sobbed. Ben just slowly stroked his
hair , telling him not to worry. It was in that moment that he realized how
much he craved a hug from someone

"You still have me"

It was a reassurance he had never received. This comfort did not come from
his parents or anyone else , but from Ben. Nuengdiao doesn't remember
how long he borrowed Ben's shoulder to show off his miserable life. It's
such a magical time , that it's impossible to tell if it's moving fast or slow.
All he could do was say something of appreciation from the bottom of his
heart "Thank you."

"Im so sorry."

Nuengdiao said briefly as he lenaed over to sit down on the edge of the
pool. It was past midnight , and Palm was out swimming again without
telling his father. He was sorry for the person in front of him. If it had been
here , Palm might have had a better life than this. At least he didn't need to
be responsible for 'protecting Neungdiao'

"Nuengdiao"

Seeing him coming , Palm hurriedly swam back into the castle , his face a
little troubled "Im sorry"

"What is it?"

It was because of me that Nuengdiao was beaten. If it had been faster , you
would't have suffered" Guilt filled his face

"That's why you've been hiding from me for a week Palm?"

I fhe hadn't been impatient and called people over , no one would have been
hurt "Im fine."
"Nuengdiao"

"Don't feel bad anymore. It's because Im in a hurry , if i had listened to you
in the first place , it wouldn't have been that way?"

"Are you okay?"

"Well , you don't have to be. Bot of us are wrong" Palm was silent for a
moment and then grinned

Could he consider this a true friend. Deep in his heart , Nuengdiao pray that
the person in front of him will become friends because of true feelings and
not because of responsibility and status. For a moment , he suddenly
remembered something

"Got any best friend?"

"It used to be , but now there's no contact" Palm replied " So have you ever
had a boyfriend?"

"Oh , none"

This person in front of him was a little startled because the question made
him cringe. Seeing the other person react like that , Nuengdiao laughed out
loud. It was then that Palm sighed as if realizing he had just been teased

"I know you're straight."

"Why did you ask me that?"

"Nothing?" Neungdiao paused and then continued " I like boys , and want
to try dating someone in school. Its ok to tell you isn't it?"

Palm's emotion were chaotic. His eyebrows dropped slightly and then he
paused "Is it Ben?"

"How do you know?"

"He's the only person you're close to , but i din't expect to be a lover" The
voice was a little hoarse "Has Nuengdiao told anyone?"

"Not yet , i just told you. You're not allowed to tell my mother. You are my
friend , do not betray me"

"Yes , i won't betray you."

As an indisputable deal. Nueng sees Palm as a friend , he wants Palm to

keep a secret for himself

" I swear."

He had let everything like Nuengdiao and Ben's feelings go along so

naturally. Actually Ben didn't directly say that he was after Neungdiao but
Neungdiao felt it too. So let things happen as usual. At least let him try to
live his life to the fullest for once

Ben and Nuengdiao often meet on 5th and 6th at the dance club

WHen Nueng and Ben were together the moment when music took over ,
Palm kept his distance from afar. Nuengdiao dreamed of becoming a
musician , and although he knew that his technique was not so excellent , he
still wanted to follow it as a lifelong profession and wanted to continue to
study this direction seriously. But all he needed to do was overcome the
obstacle in front of him. His mother would never allow himself to do
anything but inherit what his father left behind

"You know , you never laugh unless you play the piano"

One night after changing , ben handed hima glass of water. Palm stood
across the hall chatting with a girl Nuengdiao used to see at a dance club.
They often chatted with each other quite intimately

Hearing Ben call back Nueng was startled to pretend

"I dont know "Neungdiao laughed

"I ran into Chopper the other day and he asked me if i wast dating you."
Ben said , his expression poised. In those eyes there was joy that Neungdiao
could almost touch , a glow

"Then how did you respond?"

Could he know the easy answer to confirming their nameless relationship

"Do mi fa sol la si do"

Ben hummed the melody of the track. An instrumental song. But after
listening , Nuengdiao quickly arranged it in his head into chords. It was the
first time they heard music in their ears It doesnt matter what our
relationship is

Every 9 months will celebrate the school's founding. And the lobby of the
meeting room is decorated as a luxurious banquet venue. The event is also
an opportunity for alumni to enter for free. The activities of the seniors and
juniors are to create videos to create atmosphere. Students at this school pay
very expensive tuition free so no one will accept the job of performing

"Want to play background music?"

Ben asked as he adjusted the sound to the piano behind the stage , adjacent
to the party's speaker "Why waste time running background music?"

Nuengdiao smiled back. As time went on , each relationship between him

and Ben also grew. Today the son in a suit , pretending to be a musician ,
was sent to play for the party. He hides in the shadows and communicates
with people through music

"Alright , let me tone it down."

Ben gestured. He was now wearing a complete suit. They pretend to be
princes at a secret opera house. This performance is very close to
Nuengdiao's dream of becoming a musician. Although this is a secret taht
cannot be revealed , it is a great value

"Ok"

His fingers traced the keyboard with appreciation. In this dreamy moment ,
he chose a chinese song because the soundtrack was a chinese tune.
Although it is an old song , it has such a deep meaning that it doese not
forget "Dream of The Lake Diep"

"Yesterday's story was like water flowing of the east. It's impossible to keep
away from me. How much trouble troubles my heart"

Music give Nuengdiao freedom. He felt light in his heart. No

Kiattakulmaetee name follows all the time. At this time , he was a man full
of enthusiasm , not troubled by trouble

"The more water you draw , the more it flows. Raising the cup of
melancholy pepper is even more lancholy"

Nuengdiao turned his head and glanced at Palm for moment.

He followed him everywhere , and was the faithful bodyguard , the Ben to
the piano. The boy's smile was strangely beautiful , like an unfinished
painting by the artist

"Two bitter love words. Want to ask a question. Or do you want to pretend
to be naive? Knowing more or less is hard to know enough"

The performance stopped at this point because someone sat down next to
him. Ben chooses the right time to turn on the background music. the two
sat facing each other on the long piano chair

" Do re mi fa sol la si do"

No matter what our Relationship is...

The person in front of him grinned , as beautiful as dream "Also
wondering...what is that relationship?"

"So how do you want us?"

Nuengdiao raised his eyebrows slightly , grinning. The other party brought
his face closer. His breath was not only taste but life. The man in front of
him can touch , not a dream , nor an illusion

Ben and Neungdiao's faces were glued together , 2 lips touching slightly
until the distance was zero. Nueng felt like he was freed of so much weight
on his shoulders. And ben was the one who took on that heavy world , in a
simple and profound way

The music continued to play

Couples who love each other , rela or dream , cant be around. In discrete
memory , they are distinct and separate from each other.

Ben smiled back

Heavy footsteps sounded in the distance

The figure of the other man come from afar , only an arm away from them.
The two of them automatically separated turning their heads to look back.
The room was still empty , the song still humming. The only change was a
young man standing with a worried expression on his face

Nuengdiao frowned

Palm glanced around into every possible that other could get in and out of.
The weariness in Palm's eyes hadn't subsided , his husky voice said

"Neungdiao , there's a camera here."

Chapter 6

Nuengdiao went to school as usual

It's past anniversary. He meets Chopper , his cousin. He stood in the parking
lot. Palm hasn't arrived because he took the bus. It seems likely that he will
be late for flag raising ceremony. He simply said goodbye to Chanon and
walked in

"Nueng , go home first."

The behavior of the person in front of him was tense , which raised
questions for him "Why go home?"

"Please come back" Chopper's expression was full of pleading. But without
specifying what had happened , his face was filled with worry

"What happened? Or is there someone watching?'

"It's not. But go home now."

Before deciding whether to leave or not. Nuengdiao glanced at the walkway

leading into the teaching building. Sheets of paper were plastered all over
the place , there was almost no room left. The students gathered watched a
lot. At this time , Nuengdiao met the eyes of passersby who were staring at
him , and there were loud murmurs

"Chopper , what's this about?"

The cousin tried to stop him from seeing. The more Nuengdiao cursed
furiously , the more Chopper followed. He walked over to the paper ,
tearing it down.
Im a gangster , but my son is gay man..

The flyers were not only in the music room but also on the way to the
school , and probably spread throughout the school. But it wasn't the
sentence that caught Nuengdiao's breath but the phase next to it. The blurry
photo has been enlarged but it's still clear who it is. It's a photo of
Nuengdiao and Ben kissing in the piano room behind the scenes

Nuengdiao opened Facebook to talk to Ben

But before he could click on the chat interface , a news sounded.He saw the
video posted by Pom. He was expelled from school but still played a
depraved game. He unfriended Pum , but the video was posted publicly and
his friends on the list liked it , so it popped up on his feed. He was
originally going to glance over but since it was Ben's face , he clicked . At
that moment Chopper stopped him but it was already late

"Who hits who? Or will whoever sleeps with you agree to be your wife?"

The moment the video was played there was boos. Ben was hiding but the
pranksters were still chasing to bully. There were a few people who couldn't
see their faces. Only to see Ben trying to cover his face and run away

"Do you like being eaten that much?"

"Like 'being meat' what the fuck?"

"Come with me , you can suck down here."

The words were so loud that Nuengdiao's heart tightened and trembled.
Chopper stood in front of him making a distressed face. He reached out and
tried to turn off the video but didn't dare

Nuengdiao was so angry , that his hands trembled. And the next thing
almost broke his heart

"Nuengdiao kissed me first , not me. Im not GAY!"

Continuing the taunts of the videographers. He didn't hear Ben say anything
anymore because then he got away with it. Even chopper standing in front
of him right now couldn't hear anything. Spilled tears blurred the world in
front of him. His chest was cold with disappointment , the person he
thought could trust , the person he gave his heart to said those words

"Nuengdiao."

At that moment the scream of the person in front of him woke him up. He
turned to look at his cousin

"Ben's dad is a military officer , he was homophobic. I've tried to talk , but
Ben is miserable right now. Now he's locked up in the house because his
dad knows about it."

Nuengdiao stagnant brain recognized the cruz of Chopper's words. Back

home , his mind pieced everything together , but he forgot how to operate

"Mom...."

Nuengdiao subconsciously muttered. For a moment , he lost the strength to

get up. The sound of the bell signaling the flag salute is about to begin
reminds everyone to be ready. He realized he didn't seem to have anywhere
to turn , whether it was home , school , or even a music club. How
disappointed she would be without an heir to the clan , how disappointed
she would be that he wasn't the man she wanted , disappointed to know the
son she raised liked another man

"Nuengdiao."

Chopper tried to wake him up but his head went blank. He walked in the
opposite direction , feeling the wind constantly blowing in his face , his
heart longing for a place where he could leave it al. He jumped over the
fence at gate 6 , not turning around

.
Nuengdiao stood quietly near the line between life and death. The edges of
the building were empty.The toes are only one foot from the border. The
closest distance to the finish line , gentle but barren. He looked up at the
sky and moved his feet slightly , just one step and everything would be over

"You take a step further and i'll jump"

Nuengdiao said without turning around because he heard someone running

up the stairs , panting. He knew who it was so he spoke first. Someone like
Palm was trying to pull him back but where Nuengdiao stood was too
dangerous. He had to stay calm or everything would go wrong

"Nuengdiao come down."

He turned his head to look at his opponent , a worried expression evident on

his face. " Do you think... jumping will hurt?"

"It hurts."

" I watched a documentary. It is said that the pressure of the incoming air
will make us unconscious before hitting the ground."

The face seemed to be talking normally , completely different from the

panicked expression on the other side

"But if you realize that if you really dont want to , you'll regret it."

"What i want to ask is... Is there a reason you decided to to do this?"

The words echoed in the deserted building , where the two boys were only
one arm apart. " didn't you know you followed me here?"

"I know. I just don't understand why Nuengdiao did that."

Suddenly he thought of his friends. this word 'friend' is a true friend or just
responsibility to have "I don't want to die. I just want to disappear. Do you
understand?"
The other side was silent , the breeze blowing softly through his ears

"If i die , i'll be a spoiled child in my mother's eyes. I Just want to disappear
, i want to disappear into nothingness like i don't exist , to be completely
erased from this world. Happy or sad."

He said with blank eyes

"Have you ever been like that Palm? the feeling that nothing in the world
can hold me back anymore. I don't belong in this world , i don't belong to
anything , there's nothing i can do about anything here."

Palm's palm reached forward for him to grasp "But Nuengdiao still has me."

The deep voice echoed throughout the heart. Admittedly , the person before
him has been friends for a few months , but he still felt something buried in
Palm's heart. Was he for his clan? And if they had to , would they still be
friends like this?

"You? Is it for a true friend or just a responsibility?"

Nuengdiao turned back to the space ahead. And solitude come again
begging him to embrace it. There is only momentary pain , then there will
be the abyss of eternal emptiness

"Don't come."

When he heard the person behind him step forward. He shouted softly ,
tears welling up in his eyes "I come here not out of duty , i came as a friend
of Neungdiao."

Arms wrapped around Nuengdiao from behind. He hugged tightly and

pulled the weak body to his chest. Nuengdiao lost strength in both legs so
he could not stand. He hoped to be able to borrow this body to lean on ,
taking on the heavy responsibilities , the soft legs and the heart that was in
pain
"If Nuengdiao's heart is still beating , so am i. We live and die together. Is
this enough to prove I'm not doing it out of responsibility?"

"Palm"

Nuengdiao sobbed , like a lost man in the arid desert. Day after day , he was
transported into a world with no way out , emptiness

"Im a useless human being , i dont know where to go , i don't know what to
do every day. But it was thanks to you that i lived. I want you to know that
you are not alone. Someone will be willing to take your hand when you
fall."

Palm's hands have become rough because of countless fights. He stroked

Neungdiao comfortingly , bringin with him the warmth he had craved all
his life. For a moment , the hand reminded him of his father who died when
he was 10. It was warm , tender mixed with cruelty

"Palm , my mother."

'I don't know"

"But if it were me , i'd consult before deciding what to do. If you want to
come back , i'll come back to you . i'm not going to say anything to khun
Tanya."

"Palm. You're doing it out of obligation , aren't you?'

"No one sacrifices their life for a man for the sake of a mission." Palm
replied

As he said that , he tightened his arms as if he wanted to bury him in his

heart. A towering wall won't fall no matter what

"Neungdiao has only one friend in his life. I also only have one friend ,
you , Neungdiao."
.

It was almost noon when they returned home

It was longer than he thought. after descending from the building , the sun
has also receded signaling the arrival of the afternoon

"Nuengdiao"

When he opened the door to the living room , his mother was the first to
arrive. Chanon stood on the other side , with a look of relief from his heart.
He looked at his son with relief. There were about 5 other people in the
room but when he came home they came out , so did Chanon but Palm
didn't

Because Nuengdiao had grabbed the hem of his shirt and stayed. Palm
bowed slightly and quietly took his father's placee

"Where did you go. I'm so worried"

"Gone for a walk"

His mother sighed and hugged Nuengdiao in her arms. She didn't ask any
more questions , though there were many questions in her heart.

"Don't disappear suddenly like this , i'm worried."

"Have you seen them?"

He knew it would be useless to run away , just looked at Palm and smiled
softly

"Those picture?"

Nueng nodded

"I see." She admitted succinctly

"In fact , the school told me that a security guard had token them from the
surveillance system. And the principal fired that person."

'So i know it all."

The son separated himself from the arms mother. She paused quietly and
then nodded slightly "Are you mad at me?" Something stuck in the throat
"... when you are."

Tears piled up in the corners preparing to fall again. he knew what his
mother was like. A woman who lost her husband all her life putting her
expectations on him will eventually suffer a great mental shock will not be
able to afford but fall in love with her child

"Angry!"

"My son likes to play the piano , why sneak up behind the stage. You have
to be performing as a musician at a fancy party."

"Mom..."

"Nuengdiao likes to play , doesn't he? Why don't you tell me i'll find a good
teacher to teach you , so that you can show your talent."

As a result , the one who hesitated was him. She suddenly become the
woman she was that day. He said he was the god who blessed his dreams ,
helping to ward off evil monsters.

"I mean kissing..."

"What do you want?" His mother laughed like it was no big deal

"But the one i kiss is a boy." He said breathlessly. She leaned close to his
face and whispered to son's ear

"I've kissed woman before."

"Mom!"
The boy was surprised while the still smiling mother reached out and
rubbed his head. This touch was full of the love he had always craved

"Did Nuengdiao ever wonder why parents have children so late? In fact ,
mom and dad got married when they were 24 , but when dad was 31 mom
gave birth."

He had never though of that

" I know it's not easy for a child to be born. She knew her family wasn't
completely clean. If the child is forced to be born , it means inheriting the
family."

"So parents decided to force their children to do only one thing , which is to
inherit the clan. Besides , we never force him to do something he doesn't
like."

She smiled again

"Your dad is a pretty patriarchal person. Before he decided to have childer ,

he was thinking about how many children to have , what gender it was ,
what kind of person he wanted to be when he grew up and at what age he
got married"

The she protested "Children are not dolls that i can wear as i please , if she
doesn't agree , don't give birth. And yet ten years have passed"

She continued " I know being the heir to this family is not easy. But i only
ask that when you grow up , you can help us take care of the family
business. Except for you , i have no one left. As for other things , i don't
force you. Wo do you want to love , what you want to do , i don't stop you.
That's enough."

He cried again , but it wasn't like the initial feeling but freedom. This wasn't
really about being able to get out of the cage completely , it was about him
having his wings spread a little. Nuengdiao buried himself in his mother's
arms , he hadn't felt this warmth in a long time.
"Thank you so much Mom."
Chapter 7

Ben hasn't been to school since that day

Chopper said that Ben's father was a high ranking officer who also had a
great reputation. Ben is locked in his home inside the barracks and is asked
to be examined. If he didn't lie that Nuengdiao was the one who suddenly
kissed him first , he might be transferred to a military school to regain his
'manliness'. Nuengdiao sympathizes , also because he has no way to contact
Ben

And he himself took a week off from school

In fact , as long as his mother understood him , he was not afraid of the
inquiring eyes of those in the school. But the mother firmly asked the
school to find the person who recorded the video and punish it according
the regulations. Nuengdiao also had to wait for the matter to calm down
before returning to give her mother peace of mind. As for Palm , he still
went to school as usual , self taught

"Im going to the dance club today"

After days of doing nothing , thursday finally arrived. And the other owner
turned to the driver , saying that he and Palm would meet at late afternoon.
Nuengdiao still come even though Ben was no longer there

"But khun Tanya ordered khun noo not go out."

"I told my mother , i wanted to play the piano there , and she agreed." He
was a bit skeptical abut Chanon's reaction

"Where's your mother?"

The other side was a little hesitant. So he repeated the question again
"Uncle chanon , where's your mother?"

"Khun Tanya went to the hotel in Krabi. The crowd was protesting there so
she had to go negotiate"

"But isn't she done with it?"

"Last time was in Phuket , because the people there were against
encroaching on forest land to build a liquor stare."

"Is there anything else don't know?"

It seemed that his mother had a lot of heavy responsibilities to shoulder but
never told him. And you only gave your mother more headache

"Khun noo , i think you should be a little careful" The other party said in
serious voice "We are constantly being attacked like this , it is possible that
there are insiders inciting the people."

"Who?'

Chanon helplessly shook his head , Nuengdiao let out a small sigh. It was
almost time , so he asked Chanon to turn over to the club. Although he was
happy to play the piano again , he still had many things in his heart. He
wanted to confide in him , so he sat in the performance room waiting for his
friend to come

"Palm"

The voice spoke but not Nuengdiao. The curtain separating the living room
from the outside passage fluttered but the door remained open , allowing
outside sounds to come in . It was the voice of a girl he didn't know

"Makie"

Then there was Palm's voice calling to the other side

"Fortunate to finally meet you. It's almost my birthday . Would you to
come?"

The other party's tone was full of cheerful teasing. Nuengdiao couldn't hold
back his curiosity , but stood up and walked to edge of the door. There was
a small opening , one male and one female could be seen , unexpectedly
this person. In fact , he had only heard it a few times but still recognized it
as Makie the granddaughter of the owner of this club. He also saw Palm
talking to her , but he didn't expect it to be so close

"I don't know if i'm free that day."

"Palm , please take a break. Surely no owner would be that difficult?"

Nuengdiao looked at his own shadow in the glass. Self doubt as to whether
he was a particularly unreasonable master. If one day Palm asked to take a
day off to go out with this girl , would he agree or not?

"My job doesn't have a fixed hour , and i don't know how to apply"

"You should relax a little , not be so serious."

The sweet laughter resounded as Nuengdiao peeked at that sweet face. from
a dark corner. Makie is worthy girl with a cheerful and sociable personality
that suits a boy like Palm. She is not a very beautiful person but admittedly
very pure , straightforward and outspoken. He always radiated an energy
full of life , something he had never seen in himself

"I like Palm. Palm don't say anything in a hurry , listen to what i have to
say"

"I do not have..."

Nuengdiao heart stopped beating. The girl's 'like' keep echoing in his mind.
Palm was interested in someone else , why not tell him. Even Neungdiao
relationship with Ben did you tell Palm?
"No I have"

"Im not going around anymore. I like you more than a friend you know?"

Makie said in a more serious tone. Neungdiao almost held his breath. On
the one hand he wanted Palm to answer , on the other he was afraid that if
Palm pursued his love , he would no longer be his only friend. And are the
two still friends?

"Me..."

Palm's voice was full of confusion , and the person who was hiding in the
dark Neungdiao also showed a confused expression. Thoughts whirled
around in his head , he didn't know what it was called. The fact that he din't
want to give that boy to anyone , by any means

The phone rings interrupting everything

Palm left immediately , saying he wanted to answer the owner's phone.

Makie showed her disappointment

Neungdiao breathed a sigh of relief and hurried back to his seat as if

nothing happened. But his hand was still clutching the phone in his pocket
He purpose withheld Palm's love , not understanding why he did it again

"What's wrong , Neugndiao?"

The voice made Neungdiao a little uncomfortable. After completing the

work , the club side has an exchange party. He sat in a quiet corner , picked
up a bottle of wine and poured a cup. He wondered why people like
drinking so much , what's so good about it?
"Ask what to do , leave me alone."

"Neungdiao is drunk"

"Im not drunk"

"Only drunk people say they are not drunk"

"So are you drunk?"

"Not available."

"That means you're drunk"

Nuengdiao opened his mouth to fight , his mood was chaotic and
complicated. Maybe it was because the other party didn't tell him about him
and Makie , or was there some other reason

"You're drinking for the first time , right?"

WHy does the voice sound like it's disparaging children? Do you like to say
that? " Ignore me"

Be brief and sarcastic in one sentence. Neungdiao glanced at the other side
with red eyes , but he couldn't answer what was going on in hi head.
Honestly , he was afraid of what he was thinking. Because the answer will
make you unacceptable

"Sorry"

"It's me who should apologize"

The smile of the person in front of the glass of wine widened as if laughing
at life.

"Is it hard to take care of someone like me? Chanon told you to die for me ,
what to do?"

Palm shook his head slightly. He doesn't know what to say now
"Idiot" Nuengdiao cursed " If you let me die , it's over. You're free to go
anywhere , do what you want and associate with anyone."

Palm immediately raised his head and stared into his eyes Neungdiao
realized what he had inadvertently said and immediately turned his face
away.

"What do you mean Neungdiao?"

"Nothing"

"If it's about Makie then..."

"I said nothing!"

The boy banged the table , the smell of alcohol made him feel
uncomfortable. Finally , the glass of wine spilled on Palm's face left him
feeling empty. Nuengdiao got up and walked to the bar. Palm wanted to
help , but he pushed his hand away

"Neungdiao , stop messing around"

'Who are you to give me orders?"

Since when did he inherit his family bad character , an arrogance that no
one could match. You know , the whole school hate me for being like that
"Ratter"

The smile on the corner of his mouth almost pushed the person in front of
him into the dust , trampling the other party insecure confidence to pieces

"Sorry"

Nuengdiao struggled to escape the opponent's hand. The apology from

Palm's mouth made him extremely irritated , his tone of voice giving in
unconditionally. The Boy walked slowly to buy more wine. No matter how
many meters away , you can't move anyway
"You're drunk. Let's go home"

"Stay away."

There was a voice from somewhere. Nuengdiao rubbed his eyes and saw 3
large men with unpleasant faces. He was barely able to see the current
situation

"I took all your father land and opened my mouth to scream?"

"insolent boy , how dare you say that to me?"

The thrust of the other man made Nuengdiao wobble . Immediately a hand
behind him caught it. Palm's eyes were now filled with anger

"You want trouble?"

Palm encapsulates each word forcefully. Although the words that followed
were still convincing , Nuengdiao only felt hazy with drunkenness. He's
like a different person who beat Pum that day to protect him

"I don't need your help."

He tried to get away from the person who was helping him but there was
almost no strength left. Words are sometimes clear , sometimes ambiguous

"You can scold me as much as you want , but i have to deal with this first."

Palm spoke calmly making Nuengdiao's inner feelings a mess. that's the
responsibility right? Was that the only word he forced this man to do? Palm
likes women , he's doing the right thing with Makie. He wondered how long
will he be like this with me?

"Sit here."

Palm helped him sit on the chair. Nuengdiao looked dreamily at his boy
who was dealing with a dengerous situation

"Your friend's mouth is too messed up" three thugs surround Palm
"It was you who told me first?"

"You , are you blaming us?"

Someone rushed towards Palm but he quickly dodged. The first that the
opponent swung out to block him turned into a direct punch , hitting his
jaw. Palm used his elbow to respond and punched him hard , causing the
opponent to fall face down on the ground

"You're pretty good."

Another voice rang out , and he ran straight to Palm. He turned to dodge ,
but the other guy jumped forward and kicked another kick. Nueng
involuntarily shouted but there was nothing he could do to help

One of them smashed the bottle agains the wall of the table

He stood up and knocked the other man down , leaving only one man
holding a sharp ray of light. Nuengdiao tried to warn Palm but was too
weak. That guy lunged at him instead of Palm

Nuengdiao tried to run away but his legs could only lift a little and fell to
the ground. When he closed his eyes , he heard Palm scream. The last thing
he saw was a sharp bottle head coming towards him

The smell of blood spread , but he felt no pain. He opened his eyes and
realized that Palm had taken his place. The blood flowing from his right
shoulder dyed his body red. Nuengdiao looked at the person in front of him

"That's what slaves do right? Why don't you just let me die. Then you can
go wherever you want. Do you like being my servant that much?"

Nuengdiao sprayed a stream that made the burning in his chest heavier.
Although the alchol in his body was still there , the person in front of him
could not hid his sad eyes. Palm's face filled with disappointment , turned
away

Palm pulled out his gun

Nuengdiao didn't know he was carrying a gun. The moment Palm pulled out
, the atmosphere completely changed. The guy holding the sharp objet
immediately loosened the mouth of the bottle and let it fall to the ground.
Palm walked over to Nuengdiao , put the gun in his hand and swung it at
the opponent's eyes , causing him to lie down and couldn't get up

"Let's go home." Said Palm

He tried to help Neungdiao move with his strength but to no avail. Finally ,
Palm lifted the other body off the ground

Everything fell silent , the more he looked at each other , the more guilty he
felt. The wound in his palm made Nueng bitter. Because of you , it's all
because of you , so it's new!

"Khun noo , we go back first. My father will come to handle the

compensation later."

Khun noo . Palm hasn't called that in a while. Nuengdiao didn't remember
when Chanon opened the door for him. Then Palm helped him down to the
back seat. All he could hear was his indistinct voice. Palm didn't get in the
car , but just stood outside

A silence enveloped

Nuengdiao lived in silence quite often but he never felt that this silence
made him more guilty than now. Palm's blood stained shirt kept replaying
in his mind

He knew he said bad and hateful things. So much so that he himself

remember every word , it digs deep into a heart full of holes. But because of
a thousand emotions , especially the first time he got drunk , he could only
embrace the vague memory. Something growled inside him , but couldn't
get out of his mouth

"Bring khun noo home"

"Where are you going?"

Chanon returned to the car and spoke to Nuengdiao in calm voice

"Palm has to go to the hospital to treat the wound first. What's the matter ,
i'll pick him up later."
Chapter 8

Nuengdiao was looking towards the hospital from a luxury car

He hadn't seen Palm since yesterday's incident at the dance club. At first he
was going to wait for him to come back and talk. But in the meantime , he
fell asleep. He didn't know what had happened when the memories were
hazy and then panicked when he woke up. In Nuengdiao's mind , he only
knew what he was thinking at the time , how could he hurt the person

"Boss , it's okay."

Chanon said. But he didn't respond , his eyes still on the building until the
dark skinned young man , jaw protruding , hair down to cover one side of
his face wrapped in a long gauze bandage , one hand holding a medicine
bag come out. The father in front of the wheel called his son to get in the
car. He didn't tell his son that Neungdiao was with him , so he was surprised
to see him in the car.

After sitting in the side seat , wearing a seatbelt , everything fell silent.
Palm doesn't go to school today , neither does Nuengdiao . In fact , he had
to go to the dance club today , but he didn't know if after yesterday's
incident he would be kicked out. He actually just wanted to see Palm , ask
what the situation was like

"Does it hurt?"

"Its okay , i've fought a lot before heavier than this." The atmosphere
suddenly became tense

"Sorry"
The word 'obligation' had always been something stuck in his sprawling
pile of emotions. Neungdiao leaned his head back in his chair wearily
"You shouldn't have moved in here. I'm just making trouble for you."

Nuengdiao said without sarcasm. It's true that for Palm to stick with him ,
he won't have freedom. He should have the life he wants. And you are used
to being alone

"No problem. It's just a small matter . Never mind"

Have you told me this to your dad , Palm ? He was about to ask but stopped

Chanon didn't seem to care about the conversation of the 2 of them he was
busy calling someone. Finally , he parked his car on the side of the road ,
clutching his phone and turning to look at his khun noo

"I cant contact khun Tanya bodyguard."

Eyebrows immediately knitted together. He sat up straighter "What do you

mean?"

"Normally Tanya escort would report the situation to me for hours , but this
time it wasn't. I couldn't get in touch , no one picked up the phone."

"Where did mother go today?"

"She said she had an appointment , but she didn't know what it was."

Chanon's face shows the severity of the situation. If he could , he would apt
for the unspoken but inevitable option

"I'll go in first , Palm stay with khun noo. If there's nothing , you can come
in?"

"Nope! Let's go together."

"But"
"It's my mother , uncle Chanon!"

His voice was almos angry , tears involuntarily welling up in his eyes. The
person in front of him had nothing more to say , and looked at his watch ,
finding that there was no time left. Chanon knew that the owner didn't give
up easily , so arguing would only be a waste of time. He turned on the turn
signal and drove tot he for right line

"Do you have gun?"

"Yes"

Chanon asked his osn. When he was done , he took out something and
handed it to Nuengdiao , his arms wrapped tightly around him

"Khun noo , please remember"

This time , Chanon's voice was calmer than ever

"I don't know waht happened. But if there is a danger , khun noo should
run away. Palm will take care of you."

"But"

"You have to understand that staying here would be dangerous. Got to hide ,
you understand?"

Nuengdiao swallowed hard. He was a real burden to everyone and in an

emergency , he still needed someone else's protection. On the other hand ,
he was worried about his mother that he couldn't sit still , except sit quietly
than Chanon turned to his son

"Remember something goes wrong take khun noo to the safe house?"

"Mom!"
Chanon opened the door to the house , and Palms held guns in their hands
and behaved extremely cautiously. Neungdiao wanted to run fast to find his
mother but he knew he had little experience in such a situation. He was
annoyed with himself , even though he had a gun in his hand , he couldn't
protect himself , so he carefully followed Chanon at a fast peace

All 3 went upstairs to mom's office. The atmosphere in the house has
become different than before. Normally there would be butlers and
bodyguards walking around but now everything is devilishly silent.
Nuengdiao turned his head to look at Palm in horror. He gave him
comforting look , momentarily forgetting the distance between them.
Nuengdiao's heart would tremble. Especially when he walked by his father's
room when he was 10 years old. He prayed that nothing would happen
again.

The frontrunner knocked on the door but there was no response

The moment he saw his mother lying on the table , he rushed in but was
stopped by Chanon for him to check. Nuengdiao exclaimed miserably.
CHanon picked up his cell phone to call an ambulance and walked over to
the mother who had been shot. He flipped her over in his chair to tcheck the
pulse in his hand

"Tanya isn't dead yet" Chanon says "Palm , get the boss back in the car
now."

Nuengdiao ran to his mother. He din't remember what hew as crying and
shouting but his sanity was almost gone. His vision blurred with tears , he
reached out to touch his mother , repeatedly calling but seeing no answer.
Mother... she had said she wasn't forcing him to do anything. She was
everything to him , she was gone , who would he live with

Palm pulled Nuengdiao up and led him down to aisle but he kept crying and
kept calling out mom

'Why don't you kill me. Why don't you come and kill me , you bastards.
Why shoot my mother. What did my mother do to you?"
The son roared , as if life had been crushed into powder. Tears streamed
down his face , tears welling up in his eyes. He managed to escape but
couldn't resist Palm's strength. He had forgotten about his own safety ,
because if his mother died , he would continue to live

Palm finally manage to pull Nuengdiao to the gate

There was a loud explosion ,and the bodies of the 2 fell to the ground. The
burning smell reached his nose. Palm immediately picked him up , but it
seemed like hang by thread because of the sound of gunfire

Damn it!

The gunfire pulled Nuengdiao's thought back. He turned to see to his right a
car parked in front of his entrance , a man in the car pointing a gun at him.
At that point , Palm pulled him away from the incoming target of the bullets
by hiding in the back of his car. Holding the gun tightly in his hand , Palm
took the opportunity to shoot back at the assassin. the gunfire was
constantly alternated , although it was impossible to take them down
because he has to protect Nuengdiao

"Palm , over there."

Nuengdiao shouted at the sight of the reflection on the gate of another

sneaking in with a gun. Palm roared angrily and then blocked Nuengdiao
with his body to shoot back and forth. The assailant dodged that shot. He
stood up and rushed towards both of them. Nueng's hand poked Palm
telling him to be careful

On his side , he tried to find something that could protect him. A wooden
stick ,a knife or a bowl of anything , as long as it could help him fight to the
last moment instead of hiding behind the car for everyone who would die
for him

Palm! You must not die. You can't throw away your life like this. His hands
were shaking involuntarily , tears welling up in his eyes.
Palm tried to alternate in 2 directions but the 2 assassins realized they only
had 1 gun. His shots only stoppe dthem , not killed them . Through the rear
view mirror , Palm decided to take a risk but another gunshot rang out
Damn it! Damn It!

Two echoes sounded in less than 2 seconds , the door to the house swung
open. Chanon stood in a position where he could watch everything fire
twice at the 2 killers. It seemed that he felt that Palm and Nuengdiao did not
have a chance to fight back , so he rushed out and shot both of them to the
ground

"Palm , tkae the khun noo quickly."

That was the last thing he heard from Chanon. The driver handed over his
old car keys , wallet and cell phone. Palm nodded and took everything not
asking. It seems that father and son have anticipated this situation for a long
time , so they are prepared

"Khun noo run first. First of all , im safe. As for Khun Tanya , im still here."

Palm backed up as far as he could and hit a car blocking the door causing it
to fly out , creating space large enough to pass through. Palm's driving skill
are amaxingly good in that extremely narrow space. He silently
accelerated , his eyes look serious and looking straight ahead

Nuengdiao picked up the bag Palm had placed under it and opened it ,
inside there was the spare ammunition he had stored. His trembling hand
slowly pushed the latch open and loaded it with new bullets. sweaty hands
gripped the weapon tightly , heart racing. He thought that by the time of the
emergency he would hand it over to Palm immediately. He silently blamed
himself for being useless. He couldn't drive , he couldn't shoot , he just
became a burden

What Palm said he would always carry with him , is true isn't it?

.
.

It was then that Nuengdiao realized that he knew very little about life

Palm had become someone he could rely on. He drove through Bangkok as
if he was there , he didn't need Google map , he din't need direction , he
parked his car in a public parking lot and then turned off the engine. At this
point nuengdiao realized that blood was liking from the old wound , but
Palm didn't care , just quickly pulled his sleeve down to cover it

"There's a wave locator in the car , my dad will find it himself."

Nuengdiao nodded. Fortunately , when he left the house , he still took his
backpack to the dance club to play the piano. Among them are some
personal items and important documents. The 2 packed up quickly and got
out of the car. They pretended to walk into a large shopping mall nearby but
actually walked to the other side to call a taxi to take them to bus stop not
far away

He didn't know where Palm was going to take him

After getting into the coach , he told Palm to switch places for himself to
the window. During the journey , Neungdiao said thank you to his partner ,
causing him to smile slightly. He believed Palm knew that thank you meant
many different thing : thank you for being his friend , thank you for
protecting ,and thank you for being there the whole time

The destination of the trip is Surat Thani , which seems to be a good

consideration. Nuengdiao tiredly leaned back against the cushions as if he
had just died over and over again

"You sleep first,: Palm said quietly

"Why are you helping me so much?"

Although he knew Chanon and Palm would protect his family in the most
critical moment , when he saw it with his own eyes. It was impossible not
to question it
"Nuengdiao's dad save my dad life." Nuengdiao turned his head , listening
curiously

"In past , when my father took me to Bangkok , he had all his money
stolen , so he had to borrow money to cover it. But due to high interest rates
, it didn't last long. At that time i was still sick , so i had to live in the
hospital and it cost more money to cure it."

"Did your dad borrow money from my dad?"

"No" Palm shook his head "When i was in the hospital , my father was
stopped to collect the debt , was dragged outside to beaten. Because of his
anger , my father fought back , the result almost destroyed." He continued
"At that time , Nuengdiao's father showed up , called someone to save
father and paid off debts , including the cost of my treatment."

Nuengdiao choked speechlessly. He still thinks Chanon sticks to this place

because the income here is higher than other places

"Do you know why my dad helped your dad?"

" Dad used to say that when i was a kid , i was always sick almost died. I
think he understands how my father feels about me. If i had the choice he
would help."

the son turned his head towards his opponent , seeing his reflection in his
eyes like an endless sky "Your father brought me back to life , this is just a
small response."

"Where are we going?"

After a moment confiding , Neugndiao looked around and asked "Safe

house"

"Your house?"

"It's not"
'What does that mean?"

He'd heard the word safe house since he was a kid but had never seen it
with his own eyes. I don't know if it's as great as the house you watch in the
TV series

"You'll know soon"

"Oh?'

"Dad said that the culprit of this incident was probably rubbing in the house
so he had to find way to stay hidden for a while. I hadn't been to this place
for many years , but i was still in regular contact. If necessary , dad will
send to me there."

"So whose house is it after all?'

Neungdiao asked , frowning at the boy in front of him. Palm was silent for a
moment and then revealed

"My mother."
Chapter 9

"You can stay here , but you have to do it."

Palm's mother , named Maem , has a pure appearance from the South of
Thailand with big brown eyes and short dyed hair. She looks quite fierce
but when she smiles , she is quite gentle. So , this so called safe house is
actually a cheap motel opened by Paml's mother for the tourism business

"Yes"

"Go to room 201 and rest for a while. There's something i need to do , i 'll
ket you know."

Her hotel is and old building , the ground floor has the reception , the
owner's room and the kitchen. The second floor has about 3 4 rooms
depending on the area. Overall pretty dull , as simple as as cheap place. The
average room rate is about 500 bath a night , including as simple breakfast
tortillas , milk , juice. Toilet and bathroom are shared. Most here are foreign
toursit

"Can you stay?"

Palm asked after the two carried their belongings up to the room. Although
room 201 is bigger than the others , it only has 1 bed and not a king size
bed. This meant that he and i had to be quite cramped together. But in the
current situation , it is not very safe to sleep alone

"It's okay , i've been in an even tougher place."

Nuengdiao smiled softly. He thought about how passed out in the closet
"Can i can uncle Chanon?"
He changed the subject , suddenly worried about his mother being shot.
Meanwhile , both phones were left at home at erase all traces. Palm took
out a keypad cell phone that could only answer calls and send sms

"No. Dad told me not to call. IF you're worried about khun Tanya , try
searching the internet , maybe you'll find it."

The two quickly packed their. bag , washed themselves clean , put on
clothes left by tourist , and ran downstairs to borrow Palm's mother
computer. The woman just lightly lit a cigarette and smoked it without
asking the two of them what to borrow

"Not available"

Nuengdiao said while trying to search for his mother's name but couldn't
find any news. This made him even more worried. The absence of any news
shows that everything has been covered up by some force. And moreover ,
why din't Chanon contact them

"Then go to bed first, we will see tomorrow"

Nuengdiao could do nothing but nod , obediently entering the room. The
bed of the hotel is quite tight , making it difficult for both of them to
manage. This feeling was very strange , because he was not used to
touching other people

"Are you uncomfortable?"

A hoarse voice echoed in the darkness

"No , im just worried about mom"

Among millions of emotions. He chose to answer only one and something

seemed to connect him to Palm. The person next to him seemed to be the
same as him , worried about his father. No one knows what happened after
than. Can Chanon handle it?
Palm didn't know what to say , just hugged him gently and patted his head
encouragingly. Nuengdiao gently moved himself to lie on the other's chest ,
borrowing the warmth that he din't know who belonged to r was possessed
by someone

"I used to lie on my uncle like this when i was a kid. He said that if you're
scared , hug someone and you'll feel comforted."

Nuengdiao tears kept falling. What fate had brought him and Palm so close
together. If it weren't for the person in front of him , he might not have been
able to breathe right now

"Mom will be fine , right?"

The son asked in low voice , even though he knew that the other party
would not have an answer. But the heavy pressure made his heart hurt so
much that he couldn't bear it alone

"I do not know"

Palm slowly storked the smaller body in his arms. "But i know khun
Nuengdiao will be fine."

The words made him think. Nuengdiao is still a member of the clan
regardless of whether his mother is alive or dead , one day he will come
back and make them pay for what they did to his father and mother

"Thanks"

Nuengdiao doessn't remember when he fell asleep. He only know that in a

foreign land there are still people beside him , a miracle that cannot be
forgotten. Nuengdiao feels warm. Palm as a friend , brother , bodyguard.
Even that warmth was like someone he longed for all his life. He burried
himself in ferocious dream in a peaceful shell

That nighht , Nuengdiao had no nightmares

.
.

Both are dressed in a weird style. Because they can only choose poorly
worn clothes combined with weird items in the wardrobe. These are Muay
Thai pants , i love Surat Thani shirt , turtleneck and ripped jeans , etc. The
two have chosen the most comfortable looking clothes to wear because no
one carries a lot of cash. Moreover , withdrawing money from ATM is quite
dangerous because of revealing information

"Two day s ago there was a break into the house of the Kiattakulmaetee
family...."

The sound coming from the TV at the front desk immediately attracted the
attention of 2 people. He rushed to turn up the volume to listen. The image
above it was the traces of the fight , the blood , the blurred image of his
mother. The police are wearing gloves going around to get the evidence left
behind

"Five people died , one seriously injured is khun Tanya KIattakulmaetee the
owner of the leading real estate company in the country. She is still in a
critical stage and is being monitored by a doctor. If more information is
available. What's new we will report more..."

The news mad Nuengdiao's heart flutter. Several reporters were trying to
squeeze in to interview the doctor who was treating her. It was the 3rd day
and his mother was still lying there , he was relieved that his mother had not
left him , but on the other hand he was extremely worried

"According to the preliminary investigation from the police , the current

suspect is Chanon Jannaloy , the family's driver is injured. Judging based
on fingerprints and relatively thick bullet wounds. Prosecutors have now
prosecuted him. Guilty of intentional murder. The suspect protested and
asked for bail but was refused due to the seriousness of the case..."

Palm's face turned pale. He stared at the image on the TV that made
Nuengdiao feel guilty. Chanon is being arrested by the police , although his
hands are wrapped in cloth , everyone knows that there are cuffs
underneath. Not being released on bail means that during this time , Chanon
will have to go to ail until evidence is found.

"Palm , we have to go back"

"We are witnesses at the scene. We can prove his innocence."

"It's not okay."

His voice was painful to the point of breaking. He shed a little tear , but
even so , his voice remained calm as he looked at his father

"If we go now , the person behind it all will plan to arrest him. He's been
waiting for a long time."

Sitting behind the front desk , Maem quietly watched the two of them. She
doesn't seem to worried about he ex husband being in jail

"We would like to interview the victim's relatives , khun Supakit

Kiattakulmaetee" The sound of the TV once again caught the attention of
the two

"My nephew has kidnapped on the day of the incident. I Don't want to
blame anyone but the suspect's son is also gone. I was afraid they would
demand ransom. I almost lost it. My sister in law , i can't lose my nephew
anymore."

Supakit's tears flowed down like couldn't take it anymore

"Don't worry too much Palm. Your father is a bad person but that doesn't
mean you are too. You can do whatever you want , just give me back
Nuengdiao. Don't do anything to him. He's had enough."

Nuengdiao heart suddenly turned cold. You've never seen him this
desperate. Palm's eyes looked at Supakit with hatred , it was clear that he
was deliberately pushing Palm into the dead end. There's no evidence that
Palm kidnapped him , just ran away together. Come to think of it , the mole
Chanon mention was Supakit?
"Am i living with a kidnapper and gangster's son?"

The owner of the hotel spoke leisurely , as if nothing had happened.

Fortunately , the media did not publicize the photo of the two

"We have to go back"

"Cannot"

His voice was hoarse with strained tone. His eyes gazed into the infinite
space

"My father is not wrong , he will prove his innocence no matter what. The
most important thing now is Nuengdiao safety. If you have any fate , they
will take everything from you."

"Aunt Maem , lend me your phone."

The woman gave it to him to find some documents. After receiving it from
her , he logged out of Maem account and then into his mother account. He
had always been able to access everything from Tanya cell phone but never
thought of using it today. He set up the search and then zoomed in on the
coordinates

"Uncle Supakit's house."

The person holding the phon trembled. I have no reason to keep your
mother's phone. If he wanted to find a clue about the real culprit , he would
have to hand it over to the police but he didn't. So the only reason is that
Supakit is the one behind it all

Palm immediately asked him. Nuengdiao nodded slightly

.
Nuengdiao and Palm started working as waiters in the hotel. Something
Maem had requested when they arrived. Even though Nuengdiao family
assets are billions , he still has to go to work with a salary of 300 bath/ day
She just shook her head and laughed out loud. Palm volunteered to take
over their jobs , but Nuengdiao refused , saying he couldn't stay like this for
the rest of his life

Work lasted from early morning to 2pm. They need to prepare breakfast for
the guests. Actually , its not much because its jut simple things , but you
have to do everything like cut fruit , add water , add dry food , bake bread ,
wash dishes. At first , Palm just sighed because he saw that the wam boy
was bit clumsy. But as time went on , things gradually got into orbit

From 10 am to 2pm is cleaning time

Guests will usually check out during that time , so the task will be to bring
the drab , pillow and towel to wash , dry , and iron. Some days without
guests would sit still an turn on the TV , smelling the lingering smell of
Maem cigarette smoke

"Look this."

Nuengdiao said as they were going to the market to buy more fruit for
breakfast. They passed a small restaurant inside a chinese temple. There is
an announcement for those who can play music and will pay per view

"No way. We still have work to do." His eyes showed concern but he
remained stubborn

"It's already two o clock in the afternoon. We can go out."

"So what will nuengdiao do with this money?"

"I want to buy a new phone , can be registered with aunt Maem's account"

He shyly said. Because the only happiness he can find now is an old
computer. Watching TV is boring , so he wants to buy a device that can
listen to music and watch videos , without being too expensive
"But do you see a piano in here?"

"There's that electronic organ" He pointed to the instrument "Its like a piano
but the structure is different , the sound will be different. If you play some
simple chinese music , it's fine."

Palm finally agreed to follow him. The restaurant said it would hire them to
play chinese music from 8 pm to 8 pm. from thursday to saturday 500 bath /
day. Neungdiao nodded excitedly. This was his first time playing since they
left Bangkok. If you play 3 day a week like that , 2 weeks can be enough to
buy a cheap phone

"The restaurant is closed on Mondays. If you two want to practice , you can
come check it out first. If you have any questions , please call me." The
restaurant manager spoke briefly

Neungdiao excitedly counted down the time to complete the work. The two
of them went through the temple together. Saying that they came here to
practice. The temple guard gave them a shortcut to the shop. He turned on
the light , the atmosphere of the bar was quiet and empty

"Find a seat. Let me take a look. It won't be long."

Palm nodded. He knew he couldn't be of much help , so he pulled up a stool

and sat down. Nuengdiao loves to play the piano , it's a hobby that makes
him feel like he is free from the mundane. Since coming here , i can only
sing softly in the shower but now my fingers are touching the keys.

"Khun , what song would you like to hear?"

He gently leaned back in his chair , smiling like he was looking at hundreds
of listeners "I dont't know much about chinese music"

"Don't know yet?"

"That day i only heard the song that Nuengdiao played."

He suddenly remembered Ben. I don't know how he is now , is he happy or
sad , is he still smiling like before. Nuengdiao didn't say anything but ran
his fingers over the keys. Even though it's not a solid as a piano , it's still
worth it at this point

Like a flamboyant couple during the difficult years

Who can Escape the pool of human suffering? A couple in the middle of a
world full of flowers existing in the world is already a miracle

No need to fly to the blue sky just keep sleeping gently

It's like an endless overlapping picture

The music wasn't over yet but Nuengdiao got up at the same time as Palm.
They walked behind , Palm's left hand grasping Nuengdiao right hand as if
there was a giant gravity. In the quiet space , the two people slowly moved
their bodies , their eyes looked at each other with bright rays of light

They are like flying phalaenopsis wings , meeting each other at bad time
but still clinging to each other to share difficulties. Both of them didn't say
it out loud , but they still understood the other's intentions. He realized that
someone is still there when he falls down. From music clubs , from
abandoned buildings to ruined temples. The person was , is coming and is
still here , right next to you

As if there was a spell bestowed on them , their lips lightly touched.

Nuengdiao knows how much he longs for the person in front of him. Palm
is the whole , is his inseparable life. He didn't know where or when it
started , but now he found it. The man in front of him was not a stranger ,
but someone who could heal his wounds . No matter how scary , become
relieved

They don't know why they want each other so much. But deep in their
hearts they know it's an inseparable destiny. The thread that connects them
is so strong that even the distance between two hearts can't be separated
Chapter 10

They still live a normal life , cleaning in the morning , going to the
restaurant to play music in the evening. The income is also enough to buy a
cheap mobile phone.

"Where's Maem?"

A man wearing dark glasses entered the reception. Nuengdiao looked at the
clock , it was already ten o'clock in the evening , so it must not be a guest
checking in , because the behavior is not very similiar

"I asked you where is Maem?"

The man yelled and slammed his hand on the table , startling him. The loud
noise caused Palm , who was standing in the kitchen , to run out and so did
his mother

"What are you doing here?" Said the middle aged woman , gesturing for
Nuengdiao to get out of the way

"The boss asked me to collect the debt"

"What debt? I've already paid the monthly interest?"

Nuengdiao just listened silently. Although aunt Maem showed no frea ,

there was a hint of concession in her eyes

"You should know when you borrow money? You can't just pay the interest
and not pay the principal. The boss said if you can't pay it back in time ,
you will have to move somewhere else. And he will sell this hotel."
Nuengdiao swallowed lightly , while Palm just stood listening , observing
the situation "Where does that kind of mortgage come from?"

"I'll go to the police"

The man laughed loudly , then his bullet shaped eyes fell

"You think my boss would lend money like that without having any
connection to the police? Do you think they'll help?"

"Choose. One is to pay , two to lose this hotel"

Maem stared , glaring so hard that her eyes were about to pop out of their
sockets. she gritted her teeth , clenched her fists and trembled slightly

"How much?"

Nuengdiao said , making everyone turn

"What did you say?"

"I asked you how much money. Both principal and interest , total?"

Maem looked at him with inexplicable eyes. Palm also held his hand but
Nuengdiao signalled him with determined look

"300.000 bath."

"I only borrowed 100.000 bath!"

The woman slammed her hand on the table , causing the man to
immediately pull out his gun. Palm also took the gun from his pocket. The
two sides stood facing each other. Everything was so tense that i could hold
my breath. Finally Nuengdiao said

"In 30 minutes , go get all the documents coming in. I'll pay 300.000 bath
for you."

"Nuengdiao!" Maem exclaimed in surprise

"I Know you were hired to collect debt and i want to take half of it. IF you
come abck and get the documents , i will pay you 100.000 bath more. IF not
, wiat for you boss to sell the building and you will get no coins at all"

"You think i'm stupid?"

Nuengdiao continued "So you choose. I pay you 300.000 bath , you can
take that 100.000. You don't want to risk going to jail , do you?"

He was calm , making a face that wasn't scared at the muzzle of the gun ,
but in fact his limbs were weak. His hands behind his back trembled , sweat
poured out , but he had to stay calm

"If you lie , i will kill you."

The man put the gun away and walked out. Nuengdiao put his hand on his
chest and breathed a sigh of relief

"Let's go get the money." Neungdiao said succinctly

He reached into his unopened wallet , which contained a series of ATM

cards , the total amount of which was up to millions but could not be
withdrawn for fear of revealing information that would lead the police to
find his whereabouts. But now he couldn't think of anything

"But..."

"If something happens , we'll be caught too. Better not to make a big deal
out of it."

The other party couldn't say anything. Together , they went to a nearby
ATM to withdraw from nearly 10 cards. When he returned , the man was
already waiting. While counting the money , 2 guns were placed on the
table , despite the sarcastic innuendos ringin in the ars. Finally khun Maem
also got back to the red book and related documents
Nuengdiao and Palm checked the surveillance camera an turned on the
recording to prevent the enemy from tipping over. At least having proof
would be better

"I will pay you back slowly"

In the stillness of the night , a hoarse voice spoke softly. Moonlight filtered
through the gap in the curtains , illuminating Palm's face. He stared blankly
at the picture in front of him. Thinking about what he'd been through.
Although this could be the beginning of the end

He looked at his only friend with strange expression , the word duty that his
mother said was still etched in his mind. After the man left , he reived a
deep thank you from Maem. Since then Palm also asked her about the
reason why his father and mother divorced. She just smiled and then
reported back. That Palm is the product of two people going overboard with
each other , forced to get married. But then they realized they couldn't
continue with this binding marriage anymore. Both of them chose to release
each other peacefully

"What happen?" Nuengdiao asked

"That 300.000 bath"

Nuengdiao looked into the other person's eyes. Palm was his only
remaining hope. Many times , ask himself , does that person know how
important he is to someone's life?

"Let's pretend im paying for you"

"What does that mean?"

"Life"

Nuengdiao whispered. The price to pay for life is too high , paying for a
lifetime is not enough

"No , im just doing my duty."

"You saved me. Both were well rewarded"

His face slowly approached. Then , muscular arms pulled Nuengdiao to hug
him. In the dark space , Palm's voice was liek bright light

"I don't want Nuengdiao to say that"

"Why?"

"I...."

Nuengdiao could feel the fierce inner struggle "One day , you too will have
the life you deserve"

"Palm , i don't intend to keep you forever. My life is a curse , you have
nothing to do with it. Your father and son have paid enough for me already."

"I never said i was leaving..."

"But that nigh..."

Hw was talking about the facebook photo of him and Makie at the dance
club night "Is there something you want to ask?"

"Actually , i have vaguely guessed it , but wanted to ask again."

"Nothing"

The person in his arms was half joking , but when his lips touched his
forehead he stopped short. Gentle movements as a word of comfort , but
also remove the melancholy clinging to the heart

"Ask me , i'll answer honestly"

"Are you dating Makie?"

Palm smiled softly "No"

Something seemed to flow out of my chest , turning into relaxation.

"We promise to be friends forever."

"Why? You have to be with me 24 hours a day , don't you want a private
life?"

"It's not a responsibility. It's just that i already have someone in my heart
that i want to be with."

Nuengdiao's heart felt like it was weighed down by something. He was in a

state of hesitation , not knowing whether to ask or not. But in the end , he
gulped and spoke his self inquiry

"Who is that?"

His body trembled slightly , afraid that after hearing the answer he would
not be able to hug anymore

"Nuengdiao..."

"What?"

The repression was gone , Palm whispered in the opposite ear "Im not
calling you. Im answering."

A light flashed in Nuengdiao heart

All his life he had longed for this. It's about being special in someone 's
heart , not out of obligation. Like family is his soul , the place he can rely
on. Palm hugged Nuengdiao tightly , sharing more than warmth , making
the heart connect

"Palm"

"Hmm?"

"Do you know what i'm talking about?"

Nuengdiao speaks with the most sincere heart. He had already realized his
heart before the kiss in the organ room. Or maybe it was a tight hug on the
abandoned building that day or it could be that the two of them spent their
days together here. Either way , for now , id didn't matter

"Know!"

The palm of his hand gently stroked his hair , tightening it a little "if i
ask..."

"I'll answer."

"I mean will you. be angry?"

"Will not."

In the dark , Neungdiao could not see but could feel Palm smiling. He still
buried himself in his lap peacefully

"Do you like boys?"

"I used to think not , but no i'm not sure."

Palm was blunt , pulling Nuengdiao out of his arms and looking him in the
eye. The wind blew the curtain , gently swaying , adorning the moment the
two looked at each other without leaving

Nuengdiao could feel his heart pounding furiously "But im sure"

Palm's voice disappeared slightly because Nuengdiao blocked it with a kiss.

A special emotion drew the two together , they exchanged touch , imbued
with bitter sweetness like a seedling growing int he cold wind season ,
which will be knocked down at any moment. But that can't stop him from
ending his life and still clinging to life tenaciously. It is also the feeling that
is hidden in the heart waiting to be revealed

"Would Nuengdiao agree , if"

"I agree"
Before he could finish the question , he interrupted. Palm easily turned
Nuengdiao's back to him , then reached behind his back and unbuttoned his
shirt one bye one. His fingers caressed Nuengdiao skin causing Neugndiao
to tilt his head back and hit him lightly. The kiss on the back of the next
extends to the shoulders and collarbone

"Did you see the tattoo on my neck?"

Both of their bodies are bare. Palm stretched out his hand to open the
curtains to let some light in

"Have"

"Red it up"

"erzi , which means child"

He doesnt know when this tattoo come from , only remembers it when he
was a kid. It is like a great expectation from the family. But in reality , it
reminded him how incompetent and disappointing he was

Palm gently pressed his lips to the tattoo "But liking men doesn't mean
Neugndiao isn't a good guy."

"Khun Tanya also said that she only forced Nuengdiao to do one thing. If
nuengdiao's father was still alive , he would think the same. He must be
happy to have a son like you."

Tears of the person in his arms flowed down , all the pain followed those
tears to the outside. He turned around , meeting warm eyes and arms
waiting to embrace him. Their lips touched each other again and again.
Moonlight gently shines through the narrow bed , turning it into a dance
floor where two people are entwined , swaying to a love song without
melody but full of sublimation

"I should think about the person in front of me" Palm smiled

"You said you liked me?"

Nuuengdiao joked first , then let things flow naturally. Its a pleasant
sensation , like an enticing whiskey. Several times he stared into Palm's
eyes , trembling slightly

"What's wrong with Nuengdiao?"

In the moment two people become one. Sweat trickled down his hair. The
boy bit his lip , trying to suppress the sound in his throat. Leaving only the
breaths , the rhythms , and the lust spreading

"If i say no , what will you do? Stop?"

Nuengdiao whispered hoarsely. His breath was gasping and trembling ,

wanting to play a trick but being pocked back. Because he couldn't stand it
when he called his name

"Will not."

"But i'll be gentle"

His words were gentle , but his body became more and more violent ,
making his heart stop beating. Nuengdiao gasped , both hands clutching the
bed sheet

"Do you like it?"

He didn't answer , just pursed his lips "Do you like it?"

Palm said as he sped up , choking him with tingly emotions and happiness

"Prefer..."

Finally , the boy agreed to speak. Because lips can't hide anymore

"What do you like?"

'Like all?"

"Does Nuengdiao like me?"

This time Nuengdiao grabbed the pillow in the corner. A feeling of
happiness filled his chest. The person being questioned accidentally shouted
, unable to say a word. He couldn't resist the lust that was flooding through
his body

"Prefer..."

'Who do you like?"

Nuengdiao wanted to go back and punch the crooked guy , but because he
was too tired right now , he answered lightly

"Like Palm... Nuengdiao likes Palm the most."

Chapter 11

A smooth but risky life begins again

Nuengdiao and Palm live in Surat Thani as if nothing dangerous is waiting ,

but deep down , both are always in a worried mood. Nuengdiao thought
about her mother , wondering how she is now. And palm also worried about
his father , wondering if he would be released on bail

"Is it too tight?"

Palm said , adjusting Nuengdiao clothes. After having some money , he

bought a suit to play music. Although the restaurant is not too strict about
dress , he thinks that it is still better to dress politely

"ho long are you going to talk to me like that with honorifics?"

Nuengdiao looked at the man in front of him. Even though he made his first
dedication to that person , he still behaved like a person of lower status.
Strong hands raised to caress the hair that covered Neungdiao face , full of
tenderness

"I'm not used to it yet!"

Palm shyly averted his gaze. Nuengdiao just chuckled lightly "Let's go
down together."

He realized it was time to perform

"Palm"

When they reached the ground floor , a heavy voice spoke clearly. It wasn't
Nuengdiao's , Meam's or Palm's but the tv near the front desk
" I know Neungdiao is at you place. If you don't want Dad to stay in prison
forever , give him back. You should know if you're doing right thing or
not?"

Supakit's face was clearly shown on the TV with concern. But it's also
know to be filled with threats. Nuengdiao subconsciously squeezed Palm's
hand. And he couldn't hide his pained expression when he looked at the
screen showing his father siting in the prison

"Let me choose. One is Nuengdiao , the other is my father."

The news program ended with Supakit's last words. The current Nuengdiao
is like an exhausted son with a sense of guilt and complexity torn inside.
But before he could do anything , a familiar voice rang out

"Palm , Nuengdiao , find a place to hide"

"Whats wrong mom?"

"Dont ask much. Hurry up and hide"

Before he had time to think , Palm took his hand and went straight to the
laundry room not far away. From the outside , it doesn't seem to be enough
to fill , but if you know how to shrink it , it will create enough space for
them

"Fast!"

Palm pushed Nuengdiao in , then himself. He slowly closed the door and
pushed the pile of clothes that covered the entrance so that no one could
easily find it. Nuengdiao clutched Palm's hand , not knowing what would
happen next

"No guns allowed in the hote."

After the wind chime on the door signaled someone's entry , Maem's voice
rang out "Is Nuengdiao here?"
"Who is Nuengdiao? I dont know"

"Don't lie!"

The shout made Nuengdiao tremble as he recalled the memory of when he

was 10 years old. He was , too , crying in the cramped closet. Nuengdiao
felt a little queasy because those images kept repeating. When someone
opens the closet and pulls the trigger

"Someone said he works here. Obey me or i'll shoot"

This time Palmchanged from holding hands to hugging , not knowing if he

was worried or afraid that he would recklessly rush out. Nuengdiao's face
was blank , leaning his chin on the other's thick shoulder and crying. What
is present , seems to be no longer happy in the world

"I call the police"

"Nuengdiao... where is he?"

"Kill me i won't tell you!"

You are cursed child. Nuengdiao subconsciously reached out his hand
towards the wardrobe but couldn't get out

Dang!

His heart was broken into pieces. His eyes widened and his mouth wanted
to scream but was immediately covered by Palm. Palm hugged him tightly ,
knowing how broken he was right now. And so did he , his eyes bloodshot
as he heard his mother scream as the gunshots went off

The guys who just pulled the trigger ran out quietly because more or less
they attracted the police to come. Palm said something but Nueng didn't
hear , all sanity had gradually disappeared You should have died... at the
age of 10!

Knowing the situation outside , Palm took Nuengdiao to escape through the
back door while the perpetrators were leaving the hotel. He took Maem car
keys , wallet and few other knick knacks and then ducked down the narrow
road , across the road that connected to the temple on the other side , and
around the parking lot. Neugndiao just got into the car motionlessly without
asking where he was going

Palm's mother is still the woman he has never forgotten over the past few
months

Just like the bad past when Chanon put him in the car to get away. He saw
his father's body , even for a very brief moment , but it was impossible to
wash it off. And this time it's not Chanon but his son

Then next time , who will die. If given the choice , could you ask for it to be
yourself? Everything will end

"What's wrong with Neungdiao?"

Palm picked up a water bottle and gave it to him. At first , he wanted to go

down to convenience store to buy something , but he just held his hand
indifferently. To other party understood the idea , sat back and turned to
look for something. There was only one bottle of milk left in the car

"No problem."

His mood was very bad. He knew the other person was as miserable as he
was when his mother had just died right in front of his eyes. Palm must
have suffered a lot more than he did. Nuengdiao didn't want to be a burden
to Palm , even emotionally

"Where are we going?"

Nuengdiao readjusted his psyche , the tears stopped falling and restored
sanity "Find a certain guesthouse in Ranong."

Palm restarts the car while talking

"Im trying to find my way out of Surat Thani. Those guys probably don't
know we have a car , and might be blocking at the transit station. So its
safest to turn around there."

"Is it really safe there?"

"At least it can last a little longer"

He checked the furniture , there was still 100.000 bath to spare. Then he
turned back to the door , thinking of that woman. If he hadn't come , she
wouldn't have left

"So when can we go back?"

"Until khun Tanya recovers. I guess she can't help my dad out right now.
But he'll definitely idea. way to clear things up and put Supakit in jail."

"Why don't we go back now?"

"It's not safe. They'll kill me and put all the blame on me the same way they
did to Dad."

"Uncle Supakit can kill me. ANd if mom dies , the property will be
managed by me. But if i die , he won't get anything."

'But Supakit is also my family. And will still get the inheritance"

Nuengdiao shook his head decisively

"MOther made a will a long time ago. She must have know that uncle was
behind everything. If the law was introduced , there wouldn't be any penny
left."

Palm turned to look at him , not knowing how to refute

"If you come back , he will at most put someone in there and force you to
hand over all you belongings. So in the meantime he can't kill you. If he do
that , the game is over."

Nuengdiao spoke as if he wasn't afraid of anything anymore. Palm reached

out and took his hand , smiling slightly

"Let me go back , Palm"

"I'll ask him to relase your father. You two should start a new life without
any problems."

"I read a few review , there is a Dim sum shop in Ranong that sounds very
good. I will take you to try it."

"Palm"

"There are some cafes with a nice view too"

"Palm"

Nuengdiao didn't scold him , but softly called the other person back to the
real world. If you don't deal with it , things will never end and the loss will
recur. Palm couldn't just run away with him forever

"I won't let you go."

This was perhaps the most dogged moment in Palm's life. The fierce gaze
seemed to never agree

"Let me go. Im the khun noo , you're the bodyguard. I command you to let
go , do you hear me?" The other party pretended not to hear , still trying
their best to hold him back , regardless of what the person in front of him
said

"Do you really want to die?" He shouted angrily

"Do you want to be like them? My father and mother , your father and
mother. No one has a happy ending."

"Im with you , with the meaning of your lover , your protector?" Nuen
choked and did not speak. Tears flowed. Whether its love or sex , your
partner's obligations , its just you

When we reached Ranong , it was already dark. Palm chose a small motel
to stop at. The hotel here does not need guest ID information , just pay in
full. The two got out of the car and bought some dinner

"This place is close to the south of Myanmar , probably no one will notice"

As he said he was cleanign the food he bough. Nuengdiao didn't say

anything , just handed the water bottle to the opponent. The two of them ate
in silence , showered and went to sleep

"You go take a shower first. I want rest a bit"

"Oka"

With that , Nuengdiao gently took his clothes and entered the bathroom. He
was in there longer than usual. Ten minutes passed and he returned to his
room

"Palm"

Nuengdiao come out with towel and called out to him , but there was no
answer. He slowly put on his clothes and stood in front the mirror. There are
many emotions in his heart that cannot be explained

"Palm"

He sat down next to the bed , trying to wake the other person up but there
was no response. Palm had fallen asleep from an unknown time. Nuengdiao
smiled , reaching out to stroke his handsome face and messy hair. It was
also the first time he saw him sleep so soundly. In front of him , it was a
solid place for him to lean on. The flow of life rushed but he never showed
weakness to him

Nuengdiao adjusted Palm's sleeping position , covered him with a blanket ,

and placed a kiss on his forehead , revealing the emotions that had built up
in his chest. Sleeping pills have had no effect

"Thank you Palm"

He loved the person in front of him to the very end. Again and again he
restrained himself from taking a step forward because the risk was too
great. He know ho dangerous this relationship is. Yet it quietly broke down
so that he could open his heart to let that person in. It made him happy , but
it also hurt him deeply

Palm doesn't love you. You know well

Palm is a man who likes women. Nuengdiao wasn't the one he wanted. He
knew Palm had a bond that made him stay with him. But it's really cruel
when he can't live his true self

Nuengdiao wrote the letter for him and walked out of the room. On the way
, he remembered the way well and with the money in hand it would not be
difficult for him to return. Nuengdiao left the rest of 100.000 bath o Palm
and kept only few for himself enough for him to take the bus back to
Bangkok

Even though it was late , he couldn't sleep

Nuengdiao knows that someone will wake up at any moment to protect him.
At this time , he was alone in fear when his heart was empty thinking about
the other person. Pray that Palm will do what he wrote in the letter

Let go and escape the chaotic life of the family heir Kiattakulmaetee To my
bodyguard
This letter is an order , and i order you as khun noo
Let go and escape the chaotic life of the family heir Kiattakulmaetee To my
bodyguard
This letter is an order , and i order you as khun noo

Thank you for everything you did for me and my family. What our families
do for each other was paid fully. You and your father no longer owe me
anything. Everything will be like this for the rest of my life. This is
something that you and your children have to deal with on their own.
Please accept my decision

Thank you for everything you did for me and my family. What our families
do for each other was paid fully. You and your father no longer owe me
anything. Everything will be like this for the rest of my life. This is
something that you and your children have to deal with on their own.
Please accept my decision

I'll go home alone and get your dad out of jail as a witness. Stay there until
uncle Chanon is free. My mother and i will transfer some money as capital
to start a new life. Don't worry about me , he won't kill me until i agree to
make a will to move all my assets. I will continue to. delay time , one year ,
two year , and maybe many more years. Meanwhile , i'll try to put him in
jail with money and power

I'll go home alone and get your dad out of jail as a witness. Stay there until
uncle Chanon is free. My mother and i will transfer some money as capital
to start a new life. Don't worry about me , he won't kill me until i agree to
make a will to move all my assets. I will continue to. delay time , one year ,
two year , and maybe many more years. Meanwhile , i'll try to put him in
jail with money and power

Sorry for what you. had to sarcrifice for me. You don't have to tie your life
to me all the tim. Wait for everything to settle down , then both will be fre.
Don't come back and shake my family again. Hope you won't interfere and
make things worse

Sorry for what you. had to sarcrifice for me. You don't have to tie your life
to me all the tim. Wait for everything to settle down , then both will be fre.
Don't come back and shake my family again. Hope you won't interfere and
make things worse

Besides , you don't have to force yourself to say you love me. I am grateful
for what you have done for me all this time. And i will treat it as a good
memory. Hopefully in the future you will find a faithful life partner to live
for the rest of his life. If one day everything is resolved smoothly and i am
still alive , i will come to see you and my lover. Wish you have a happy
family. Don't worry about what happened to us okay? I will treat it as a
secret
From khun noo has no friends

Besides , you don't have to force yourself to say you love me. I am grateful
for what you have done for me all this time. And i will treat it as a good
memory. Hopefully in the future you will find a faithful life partner to live
for the rest of his life. If one day everything is resolved smoothly and i am
still alive , i will come to see you and my lover. Wish you have a happy
family. Don't worry about what happened to us okay? I will treat it as a
secret
From khun noo has no friends

Chapter 12
Nuengdiao returned home the next afternoon

He got off the bus , transferred to a taxi and went in silence. But when he
arrived , the garekeeper's surprised expression was as if no one expected
him to come back on his own. The heir to the Kiattakulmaetee family has
returned with an entourage of two plainclothes policemen. He knew that his
mother employed these people as bodyguards , so he contacted them and
made an appointment to meet at the dock

"Want to meet me?"

Nuengdiao said with a half smile , the people in the house turned around in
surprise. Supakit had an angry look on his face , but in an instant , he
covered it with a worried and concerned expression

"Nuengdiao... ah... i was worried abut you"

The man walked towards him. Nuengdiao ordered the 2 bodyguards that
there was no problem. Supakit pulled his nephew to comfort him

"It's okay. I haven't been able to sleep since the day you disappeared. I
always pray that you are safe."

"Thank you for helping with the family business while i was away. Now
that i'm home , go home. Chopper is waiting at home."

The person in front stepped back. One hand grabbed the boy's shoulder with
a suspicious look " I know Chanon is a bad person. Now i cant trust anyone

"Chanon is not a bad person."

He said nonchalantly. Try to lower your head because he knows the other
person is pretending " I was with Chanon all the time. When i got home ,
my mother was shot"

Supakit looked surprised but Nuengdiao didn't notice. Just look deeply into
the other's eyes to see what he's up to
"I have contacted the police. Mai will do the prodcedure."

"NOt intentionally trying to accuse. But people like this can't be trusted"
The hand grabbed Nuengdiao's shoulder and squeezed it like a threat

"Phi Tanya hasn't woken up yet. I don't know if she will be harmed by those
villains again. I will return but i will let my people protect Nuengdiao."

He was silent. The person in front of him said firmly

"If something happens to you , i don't know how to explain it after Tanya
wakes up."

This means that he negotiated with his mother , but she did not agree. So he
pointed the gun at him. This uncle really refuses to admit defeat

"Okay. I can send someone to protect you. But if your people are still with
you are you safe?"

"I havent caught the person behind , so i'll be careful. Maybe someone with
a relationship with your father did it. Some people , know their faces but
don't know their hearts very much."

Finally , Supakit left , leaving his two bodyguards and him in the empty
room. He told the plain clothes police everything that made them suspicious
of none other than uncle. The heir sat on the bench , and four people stood
behind him

"Prepare a car for me. I'm going to see my mother"

The butler nodded and ran to inform the drier with worried mood. Almost
everyone here knows wha's going on. The man named Supakit slipped his
hand down his waist , gesturing for the gun. Nuengdiao just glanced and
didn't care. As he told Palm , the heir to this family cannot be killed

There is nothing he can do while the transfer of the property has not been
completed. Nuengdiao got into a big car with the other four. His mother is
at a hospital owned by his family.
The hospital has done a good job of protecting safety , especially a strong
security system that helps doctors feel secure in trying to treat. The dean
personally came to pick him up. Mother's hospital room is in a special
room. Without permission will not be approached

"Did anyone visit my mother?"

"No" The doctor's voice was firm

"Khun Tanya also said that if there is an injury , only khun Chanon , Khun
chanon's son and the owner are allowed."

From Chanon's son touched Neungdiao feelings. He looked through the

window to see his mother lying with long tubes. Maybe she knew
everything from the beginning. And since when did she plan to let Palm die
for him? Nuengdiao muttered , entering the room , followed by the dean

"Khun Tanya was hit by two bullets. The first bullet went through the
abdomen but did not hit the internal organs , not dangerous. The other bullet
was stuck in the throat. Although it was surgically removed , Tanya brain
was still not dangerous. We are still concussion , her breathing is still weak.
From the moment were admitted to the hospital , we have tried our best."
the doctor explained seriously

Nuengdiao pulled up a small chair and sat down next to his mother. He took
her hand and held it tight. The hand was quite cold , with a little warmth of
life , but there was no sing of movement.

"Can she wake up?"

"Maybe"

"But we can't say for sure when. The situation was very bad, fortunately the
bullet was removed. I believe she will wake up"

Nuengdiao pursed his lips

"One month , three month , six months or a year?"

The doctor didn't raise his head , just bent down and shook his head slightly

Nuengdiao heart was suppressed by many emotions. He was worried ,

lonely , sad and resentful. He clenched his hands into fists. One day he will
take revenge on those who did this to his mother

He swore to himself in tears

He went back to school as usual

Since the assassination of his mother happened. He had bought bodyguards

with him around the campus. In fact , he also wanted his personal space ,
but Supakit wouldn't allow it. Life has reached it worst. No one wants to
come near , he doesn't go to class , but only spends the rest of his time
solving other problems , especially making up exams to graduate according
to regulations

"Neungdiao"

A voice rang out from afar. He looked up to see Ben and Chopper in front
of him. There was guilt in their eyes , which he guessed because Ben's last
memory wasn't something memorable , and Chopper's father was the one he
hated right now

"I want to talk to my friends , you don't have to come in."

Then he stood up and went to reading room. The policeman nodded , unlike
Supakit's with a reluctant expression

"I wan to talk to your boss's son. Or if you think Supakit will call his son to
kill me , you can call to confirm."

In the end , both of them stepped back and gave in. Chopper turned to look
at him and walked into the room , followed by Ben. After the three entered ,
Nuengdiao locked the door

"I'm sorry."
Chopper was silent for a moment , then continued "Are we still brothers?"

"You and your father are different. What you do is your business , it has
nothing to do with it."

He never hated this cousin. Maybe the other side is like me , oppressed and
expected "Did your father ask you to come and kill me?"

Nuengdiao spoke as if he were chatting. Ben immediately grabbed

Chopper's shoulder , making Nuengdiao curiously observe the two's
behavior

"Chopper would never do that."

Ben answered for Chopper , a look of obvious concern on his face. Which
means that what you suspect is true. Do all the children in the family have
to suffer like this?

"Right?"

Nuengdiao ignored Ben , and Chopper nodded shortly after

"Even if you don't do it , your father will have someoen else do it. So you..
don't do it yourself you know. Get caught in this net and you'll regret it for
the rest of your life. Dad forced it if you can , pretend to assassinate me ,
but it doesn't work. Im willing to cooperate with you"

"I never thought i would..."

Nuengdiao reached out and squeezed his cousing

"I don't judge what you father did right or wrong. My father is also not a
clean person so i can live and die to protect my reputation. But believe me ,
don't fall into this spiral. Be a normal person , study , graduate , and then go
out to work. If you have money , you can make capital later."
"Your father and i are going to play this game for a while. Maybe a year , a
few year. If your dad was smart , he would't be in a hurry to kill me. So ,
find your way out , don't stick to the coins. This blood stained."

Chopper listened silently and did not answer

"Ben , you too. Stop being you father's prisoner. After graduation , start a
new life. I believe you can do it."

"I..." ben hesitated

"Also , if you love each other , let's move forward together."

Nuengdiao leaned on his chin and smiled happily at the two people in front
of him. Just looking at the action , Ben and Chopper have a special
relationship. He didn't know what happened when he disappeared. But one
thing is for sure , the eyes of these two people do not lie. They are full of
care and concern for each other. He looked at the two opposite people
happily making Nuengdiao think of someone he would probably never seen
again

"Are you still mad at me?" Ben asked

Nuengdiao wasn't sure what the other mean. Is it that video or is it Ben's
love for someone else?

"No its over"

He smiled at his opponent. The three talked for a while and then parted.
Nuengdiao plans to go to the dance club again. If you ask to play the piano
for free there should be no problem. If it doesnt work , its fine to pay an
extra amount. I just want to play music... ... to relieve my nostalgia for
someone

Mong Uyen Uong Ho Diep is a song he played when he was still in Surat
Thani. Where he and that person exchanged a sweet kiss. Every tune he
typed on the keyboard made himself feel that strong embrace. There , two
butterflies intertwined in a dream world. It's the best thing if not waking up
the next day in an empty bed

The club is closed today , the dance floor is empty , not only him playing
music. There are several employees cleaning and repairing. In addition ,
there are 4 bodyguards watching from afar. He didn't care but just immersed
himself in music because in that world , there were no cursed khun noo ,
only an ordinary person full of passion.

" No need to go anywhere."

"This is closed room with no windows. Just wait outside."

He opened the room for them to see. The 4 saw this and went out to let him
close the door. Alone like this , he couldn't help but think of that boy.
Nuengdiao swallowed dryly , looking for water in his eyes. seeing a bottle
on the table , he reached out and opened it. But before they touched lips ,
another voice spoke

"Do not drink"

"Palm"

He came out from behind the curtain and grabbed the water bottle. His eyes
were full of surprise. In front of this was the person he missed , but hoped
to never see again. On the one hand , he really wanted to hug the other
person in his arms , and on the other hand , he was angry because the other
party didn't listen. His heart was pounding like it was going to jump out of
his chest

"How can you drink water without knowing if someone put something in it?
Why are you so careless?"

Palm threw the water bottle in the trash , then walked over to the other side
of the cabinet and picked another bottle and brought it to the table

"Why are you here?"

"Why can i not be here?"

"I told you not to come back"

Nuengdiao said irritably , suppressing his voice so that it wouldn't echo

outside

"Did you fire me?"

"That's right?"

"Which mean im doing whatever i want right now" Palm said with calm
eyes

"Dont do it again , your mission is over"

Nuengdiao stood up. If Palm come back , Supakit will soon know his
relationship that they are not just a khun noo and bodyguard. He will make
it difficult for both of us

"What do you mean? My love for you is just an obligation?"

The boy seems to have turned into a different person. He went over and
grabbed his hand

"You look down on me , dont you?" The voice turned gruff

"I do not love you"

"Why? Because im poor. So my love has no value?"

The sound seemed to blame , not very loud , but it seemed that tears were
about to fall

"Because im poor? So you treat me like that. Am i just the driver's son , just
a bodyguard , just a man ordered to die for you? Am i asking you?"
Nuengdiao hates himself , and also hates what's in front of him right now.
He wanted to convey that he hated himself for not being able to
wholeheartedly accept the other person's love
"You put the sitation in my life , to understand how i feel"

Palm continued to speak making Nuengdiao not know how to respond

"How can you force me to get married and start a new life. How can you
say i dont like men. Because im not as rich as Ben. So you take my love as
a responsibility and refuse to see my feelings?"

Guilt filled Nuengdiao chest. What should i do? On the one hand , he was
worried about the sincerity of the person in front of him , and on the other
hand , he wanted to pull him back to hug and apologize. But he knew that if
he did , everything would come to standstill

"You go"

"Do you hate me that much? Dont want to see me?"

Nuengdiao struggled to resist but had no strength to resist his feeling.

Because he gave his whole heart to the opposite person

"Dont lie to me anymore" Palm's face drooped even more

"I said , you're not me. You know what i am thinking?"

He angrily bent down to kiss Nuengdiao. Although his mind wanted to

protest , his heart wouldn't allow it. As soon as his lips met , all the fences
he built suddenly collapsed. In his heart , he knew that without people in
front of him , how empty his world would be. And no matter how hard you
push , you cant escape. He kissed back , pretending not to care , as if in
disguise

His anger turned to tenderness. Hands clasped together , longing for

warmth. A light touch becomes a sweet taste , an affirmation that there is
still another person beside me
Nuengdiao involuntarily cried , wanting to leave the person in front of him ,
but he also didnt want to lose him again Without Palm... life has no
meaning
Chapter 13

"Are you bitting or kissing me?"

Nuengdiao makes a discriminatory face. His eyes slowly turned gentle.

Palm smiled softly. They met for the first time since he left from Ranong.
The two sons were bound by an invisible rope , unable to be separated at all
costs

"Why do you miss me?"

"Smooth tounged"

"Where are you? Is it safe?"

"Rent a small house not far from Nuengdiao's house. I used to stay there
when i went to Bangkok for treatment. It's quite safe."

The questioner nodded but sighed wearily. Palm gave the new phone in his
hand and asked him to save number

"Does anyone know you're back?"

"No one."

"Uncle Supakit?"

"I don't think he knows. Because if so , i would have been eliminated long
ago" Palm spoke as if being hunted was normal but made his heart twitch

"Palm"

"Hmmm"
"What you say take it serious. We have to talk as adults. Otherwise it's
dangerous" The person in front of him nodded in agreement

"My mother's will certainly doesn't have my uncle's name on it. So if he

wants to take the property , he has to wait for my mother to die first. After
getting the property , he will kill me. In the meantime i have to prepare a
new will and wait , so that at least he gets nothing."

Palm raised his hand as if to stop him from talking about death. But
Nuengdiao shook his head. The current situation was very serious , he
couldn't lie any longer

"What he's doing is to force me to give him all my assets. Or make me die
before the will is made. But that's not possible because my mother isn't
dead. There's nothing he can do."

"The fact that we love each other..."

Nuengdiao spoke calmly as if accepting everything. Accept the family

inheritance , accept that you love the person in front of you very much

"If Supakit finds out about this relationship. He'll take you hostage and then
force you too. I..."

Palm was silent , not saying a word. But his eyes showed that he had given
in for obvious reasons before his eyes

Nuengdiao kissed the person in front of him. It says that both of us should
make sacrifices for each other for once

"i will follow Nuengdiao quietly , wont make any noise"

The little master moved his lips to say something , but Palm covered his
mouth with his hand "Let me do what my heart tells me."

The saying makes the prepared things almost disappear. He looked at the
person in front of him with eyes of love that couldn't be hidden. On the
other hand , he hates the present moment when neither of them is free to do
what they want. On the other hand , he also hated the fate that brough them
so harshly

Nuengdiao phone vibrated. Is Chopper calling. Palm frowned and watched.

Nuengdiao recounts recent stories of Ben and Chopper. He nodded
understandingly. He answered the phone without hidding

"What's up?"

Normally , the two only exchange messages with each other or they meet at
school , so there's no need to call

"Are you free tomorrow afternoon? I have something to discuss with you ,
but..." Chopper stammered "... I don't want Ben to know"

"Is there something he should not know?"

"I Have something important to show you"

Nuengdiao was silent. He glanced at Palm. Both fell into depression

"Okay , come to my house"

Wherever Nuengdiao went , the four of them followed

Two of the are Supakit's men and the other two are policemen. The next day
he meets Chopper at school but does not discuss the date because Ben was
there. Instinct told him that there must be something big. He didn't want to
complicate matters because in a few hours he would know what was going
on

Palm also kept his promise

He just stood watching him not for a motorbike , sometimes close enough
to see , sometimes out of sight. Palm rented motorbikes by the day ,
changing models all the time to avoid detection.

Nuengdiao returned home around 4 pm. After school , he quickly returned

home because he had an appointment with Chopper. Maybe around 6
o'clock his cousin would come over , so he did his homework and sat down
in the hall

Suddenly

Dang!

Dang!

Annoying sound followed. He got up from the chair to find a place to hide ,
but when he opened the door , three guns were pointed at him. His eyes
were drawn to the image of two policemen lying in a pool of blood

"Sit down"

The man in the middle spoke quietly. Although he didn't expect this to
happen today , he prepared himself mentally. Supakit walked over with a
gun , he stared at it , clenched his teeth , and said nothing

"I came with some documents for Nuengdiao to sign."

The tip of his gun was pressed against the boredom , reminding him that his
life was hanging by a hair. He swallowed hard , gathering all his reason and
thinking of a way out in his head

"Tanya will die soon. My people have gone to the hospital , she will
definitely die."

The person in front of him smiled so disdainfully that he almost spat out a
curse , but the gun on his forehead silenced him. He smiled slightly , not
from joy , not from sadness , but from resentment. He swore that if he
escaped this time , he would kill him with his own hands. Even now the
chances of survival were extremely slim

"The moment Tanya dies. All property will be in Nuengdiao's hands

according to the law. If Nuengdiao dies , the property will be yours , but
since it is uncertain where Nuengdiao will make a will or not , it ts better to
make it myself and let Nuengdiao sign it. Name , huh?"

"You will definitely have a fortune."

Supakit sat down next to him. He moved the muzzle of the gun from his
forehead to his temple and nodded to his two entourage , motioning for
documents and pen to write down

Dang! Dang!

"Run!"

But just as the other two went to get the documents , another sound broke
out from the dark corner behind them and pierced both of their bodies.
Supakit turned his face in surprise. Taking the opportunity , Nuengdaio
immediately swung his right hand towards the muzzle of the gun and
slammed it , sending it flying. Nuengdiao jumped up from his chair and ran
as fast as he could towards a person who was hiding

Palm...

Nuengdiao knows exactly without looking at his face. Even though he was
only a few steps away , he felt so far away. The son still kept his promise
not to let him alone and appeared also took control of the situation by
himself. I don't know when he was in the house so he didn't know

"Careful"

The screams rang out again. Nuengdiao could not see clearly what the
speaker was referring to . Palm in front was clearly nervous but he was
running towards the firing line. The appearance made Nuengdiao couldn't
help but turn his head to look. At the same time , he saw Supakit aiming for
the gun an entourage who was lying in pain

Dang!
The explosion that resounded behind grazed the Nuengdiao. He reached out
and touched the boy waiting for him. Palm pulled him back and he fell to
the ground

Dang!

Gunshots rang out again as he lay down. Due to limited time , Palm did not
the opportunity to aim , but only raised his hand to stop the opponent. The
bullet missed the target opening a long distance causing a loud explosion.
But the other man did not doge , but directly responded

Dang!

He saw everything clearly. The bullet entered Palm's body , but it's unclear
which organs it hit. But the image of Palm falling down with a large pool of
blood made him rush at him with many emotions , his heart was blown
away

"If you dare to draw a gun , your friend will die"

A scream rang out from behind. And he didn't need to look to know it was
aiming for his head. With this distance , no matter how much you evade ,
you can't escape. The hand that was about to hold the gun to resist suddenly
stopped moving. Nuengdiao could only look at the image of Palm
immersed in a pool of blood. In the end , they all left him and nothing was
left

"Go back to sign the will , or you will die with it."

The voice threatened mercilessly. He stood up with trembling legs , raised

his hands as if he had conceded defeat , and turned around. Tears streamed
down his cheeks. Losing Palm , life is almost dumbfounded. His mind
haunted

Palm is dead...Palm is dead...

Nuengdiao signed an asset transfer to Supakit

Money is a crim. The more you have , the more things you love will
disappear. Soon it will probably be my turn to leave. His hands were
shaking with anger , fear , despair

"If your father had agreed to sign in the first place , he wouldn't have died
so suddenly."

The voice next to him rang out , accompanied by mockery. Supakit looked
at the will thoughtfully. Nuengdiao's eyes turned red with anger. He had
suspected he had something to do with his father's death but was never
certain until he confirmed it himself

"Last time i went , but your father forged his signature. This time i have to
double check" Then he took a piece of paper with an extra card to compare
with the document

"Well at least you're not lying like your father."

Nuengdiao gritted his teeth. Uncle is the only biological brothe of his father
, sharing the same bloodline. So ruthlessly killed him. Supakit ordered to
kill his father , kill his mother and soon it was him

Dang!

The moment Supakit pullet the gun out of his temple , another series of
gunshots rang out. This time it was not from the stairs but from the front
door of the open corridor. The first bullet was lodged in his uncle's thigh.
Then another bullet flew straigh to the center of the forehead. He left
without saying a word

The first one is from Chopper

He was the first to step out the door and shoot a shot in the thigh to stop his
father. But when Supakit resisted , two uniformed policemen pointed a shot
like executing a sentence. Tears slowly rolled down his cousin's eyes , the
gun in his trembling hand slowly fell. Nuengdiao was surprised for a
moment but regained his composure
"Take Palm to the hospital."

Nuengdiao shouted in horro. At the same time , another group of policeman

ran to control the situation. That's when he smelled the blood. on his body.

Rescue crews rushed to the scene to take Palm away

"Palm. You mustn't die."

Neungdiao cried out helplessly as rescuers put Palm on a stretcher and said
that Palm still had a pulse. He weakly walked out of the house. Fear rose in
my heart , not knowing what would happen next

When he turned to Chopper who was sitting on the floor , he sat down and
hugged his cousin and patted him. Both of them cried like crazy. This
incident must have also shattered his brother when it was the other's son
who decide to fire the first bullet. Chopper gave his father on last chance to
put down his gun but also took his life

"Im sorry , i was forced to make an appointment with you. I called the
police to deal with it , but didn't expect it to happen like that!"

Neugndiao almost forgot about it. But he doesn't care anymore "Mom , how
is my mother?"

Chopper grabbed his shoulder "Dont worry , she is fine. The hospital's
security system is good. The messengers were caught and made false
confessions. But to no avail because the police witnessed what i did."

Chopper's voice was filled with pity. No matter how much Nuengdiao hated
his uncle , he couldn't hate his cousin. Its not all voluntary. At least in the
crucial moment , he chose to stand for what is right over his father

"Go to the hospital"

Another voice sounded like it was waiting for the two of them to finish
talking. Nuengdiao turned around to see Ben looking at Chopper confused
"Ah , Ben contacted his father to call the police. Ben's father is a senior
military officer and has many connections. If it was just me there wouldn't
be that many policemen."

Neungdiao turned to look at Ben "Thanks"

Neungdiao grabbed Ben hand and stood up "Nothing"

Ben smiled back . Then he leaned down and put his arm around his
shoulder , pulling the other up encouragingly

Many people working in the house after the police left and returned , they
saw the scene in front of them , causing them to separate. Looking at the
love scene in front of him , fear come over him again

"Palm..."
Chapter 14

Palm was admitted to the same hospital as his mother.

Nuengdiao followed to the door of the emergency room. The tragedy left at
least three people ded. Supakit , Supakit's man and a secret policeman.
Palm , another of Supakit's men , and another policeman were seriously
injured. Mostly due to excessive blood loss

The family heir is like an ant crawling on a hot pot. Going back and forth.
He tried not to blame himself but couldn't. If it weren't for me , he wouldn't
have ended up like this. IF you die , how will i live? How would i explain
to Chanon about his son? Just thinking about the word 'death' sent chills
through his body

"Nuengdiao!"

He has slightly startled "Calm"

He turned to see Ben reassuring him. Chopper grabbed his hand and
squeezed "Palm will be fine."

Ben said bluntly. However it helped him to slowly sit down and pray to god
"Do your best , Palm"

The lights went out , the doctor came out from the emergency room. He
jumped to his feet "What's up , doctor?"

The other side nodded

"The bullet entered the abdomen , hitting the internal organs. Currently , the
medical team has surgically removed the bullet. The next step is to monitor
and wait for him to regain consciousness. If the moment passes , if he is out
of danger , he will survive."
His heart was stabbed by someone with a knife. The person in front of him
was still talking , but his mind was like a pause button. Ben and Chopper
continued to ask about the situation. And he just sat on the chair. If you pass
the dangerous moment , you will survive. so if it doesn't , what will
happen? He felt short of breath

"Calm"

When he returned , the doctor was no longer there. Ben grabbed his elbow
and encouraged him. He was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe. All
he could think was what if Palm died , over and over

"Go clean your face , threat the wound" Chopper said

When he regained his sense , he entered the bathroom and found himself
reflected in the mirror. The face is deformed and gloomy , the bridge of the
nose has red marks , the nose has dried blood , and the mouth still has a
fishy smell. The school uniform was stained with blood. He tried to wash it
off but couldn't. His clothes were wet from rubbing too hard , so he took
them off. The naked body that appeared in front of him reminded him of
that night in Surat Thani. Nuengdiao turned to look at himself in the mirror.
Half of the tattoo is also stained with blood

He felt like a cursed child. Anyone who comes close to him doesn't end
well. Palm and Palm's father , mother , my mother. His hands scooped up
the neck wash , squeezing it hard as if he wanted to remove the tattoo. He
looked at his image sadly , tears welling up in his eyes

Nuengdiao put on the dirty shirt again. Feet staggered like a lost flame , in
the dark , over the winding hills. He kept mumbling , the memory clinging
to him like faded old film reels , replaying the same tragedies over and over

He didn't know how long he had been on the rooftop until the wind blew in
his face. His hands gripped the cold railing tightly. Nuengdiao was startled
but soon he found himself strangely relieve as if the cold was beckoning.
He unconsciously looked down , remembering the day he was on the
rooftop of that abandoned building. But there was a warm embrace pulling
him back

Didn't you say you'll stay with me...

The image of a boy smiling at him sincerely appeared. We are friends , life
and death together. A hoarse voice rang in his ears. Palm , you kept your
promise. Didn't you say we'll be together? why i it like that now?

The hand holding the railing trembled

There was a whispering sound in his head that kept making him forget all
about reality and dreams. His legs slowly lifted. He heard Palm's voice
calling to him "There's a dance floor. There i'll teach you to swim , teach
you martial arts" Nuengdiao clearly remembers... the strange beauty in the
water , unchanged

"1..."

"2..."

"3..."

Neugndiao counted slowly , just like his father taugh him to play hide and
seek "Prepare"

A scream behind him. He didn't know what he was doing but when he woke
up his body was lying on the ground. His breath trembled , pulling him
back to the real world. The floor of the rooftop was freezing cold ,
surrounded by three medical staff who were hugging him tightly.
Neungdiao heard Chopper tell him to bring hope

"Palm is out of danger."

Palm woke up two days later

The morning sun peeked through the curtains , Neungdiao was sleeping on
the sofa next to the hospital bed. A hand gently caressed his face , waking
Neungdiao awake. Seeing Palm voluntarily get out of the hospital bed , he
exclaimed in surprise

"Why did you get out of bed like that?"

" I want to get a better look at you"

The boy with the angular jaw smiling , a very beautiful smile , is also the
thing that he misses the most , wants to meet again in his life. Neungdiao's
mind did not have time to think , he rushed to hug the person in front of
him. The time without Palm was as cold as swimming alone in the vast
ocean , unable to see the shore for a long time , but not matter how tired he
was , he couldn't stop. It wasn't until the person in front of him wake up
again that he realized how much he missed him. His whole heart seemed to
be filled , he was able to sleep peacefully again with a sense of security
beside him

"I won't let you die , understand?"

Neungdiao said with tears still falling. The injured man who had just woken
up pulled him into his lap , then gently patted his head. He couldn't hold
back his tears , but this time it was because he was overjoyed. Like a
person who has been submerged in water for a long time , finally regaining
his breath

"I am not dead yet?'

"Then why you sleep so long?"

Neungdiao whispered in the other's chest , Palm knows , he ethought about

him so much that he died over and over again

"I was worried you know?"

"What did you say?"

Palm pulled Neungdiao out of his arms , looked at his face again. With a
sly smile , narrowed his eyes so closely that his ehart skipped a beat

"If you don't die , don't sleep"

"No the next sentece"

"Sleeping so long"

"Not yet , next sentence"

"Make people worry crazy"

Neungdiao pouted , but still obediently said. He would do whatever Palm

wanted , as long as his bodyguard would come back

"What about other people? So many people?"

Palm pretended to be confused , if not because the opponent was still in

pain , Neungdiao would have hit him on the arm

"Uh , its you , you , you... is that enough?"

Palm laughed and pulled Neungdiao towards him ,and they hugged again.
The two sat next to each other ignoring the tangled sea water transmission
lines

"Neungdiao"

"What?"

"I've slept for a long time , my mouth is too dry. Do you have lip balm , out
it on me."

Palm said , voice hoarse. He was tall and muscular , but his words wered
different. Neungdiao pretends to discriminate against the person in front of
him

"Yes , want to apply?" Palm nodded , grinning

"Give it to me , i can apply" Neungdiao pulled the person in front of him
closer , pressing his lips to his. Palm responds in search of food , filled with
nostalgia , as if it were a dessert to be eaten over and over again

"Miss you so much"

His lips parted , becoming a whisper

"People who sleep for a few days straight like that , can't remember
anything. And when people wake up , they are going to g crazy. don't they
say they will protect you forever , why are they so easily hit by bullets"
Neungdiao grimaced making Palm laugh

"You're lucky to be alive" Palm reached over and pinched Neungdiao cheek

HE pouted , using his finger to touch the other's slightly damp lips ,
resolutely repeated it once more. "Do not die. This is an order."

Then he leaned over him forgetting whether Palm still hurt or not , now he
just wanted the warmth of Palm's body , and he couldn't help himself

"For someone like me , life is very difficult. Or rather , my life is very bad ,
everyone around me is gone."

Palm smiled and pulled the other into his lap. That large hand gently stroke
Neungdiao "I love you , do you know that?"

He placed his lips on Neungdiao's hair , then whispered softly , but his
voice was loud enough to fill the listener heart , as if nourishing his arid
heart

"But i love you more , don't refute this."

"I am not objecting , but i want to ask you , do you believe?"

Neungdiao let go o Palm's arms , the two looked at each other silently , the
one who was still transmitting seawater laughed and said
"I mean , i love you. because i really love you , not because of any
obligation" He flashed a bright smile , but immediately retracted it when he
realized that "if you don't believe it , i have to prove it first.How long did it
take you to believe this?"

"30 Years"

'You are so heartless , why is it so hard to trust?" Palm groaned , his voice
low and hoarse , but his expression was not like his words , on the contrary
his mood was very good

"No , 30 years is too fast"

"So hong long?"

"Forever"

Neungdiao was indifferent , cupping his beloved's face with both hands ,
silently observing as if ordering the other party not to violate or forget his
words

"What's the reward? Being your bodyguards is expensive."

He pinched the other's cheek , shaking it back and forth. After escaping
from death , the tongue has become more crooked , unlike before at all. He
complained in displeasure

"The whole thing."

"Really?"

As he asked , Palm's hand caressed his back , Neugndiao hit his arm in
frustration , making him laugh out loud

"I love you so much , you know that?"

"i've know that for a long time , but pretended i didn't"

Neungdiao asked , Palm answered. He pulled the person in front of him
again , wanting to kiss to release the nostalgia. Is this bodyguard going bad
after his pulse returns or is he always like that , just hiding his bad side too
well in the past. The touch between them seemed to wash away all suffering

"Dont hide from me. If you leave me i'll kill you myselft" Neungdiao
whispered , emphasizing each word to the person in front of him. Palm
didn't answer , instead he responded with a kiss

Neungdiao took over all the family businesses at the age 20

His mother woke up after the death of his uncle , after two months in a
coma , Tanya finally regained consciousness. However , her health
condition has deteriorated significantly , she cannot work as before and has
to do physical therapy almost every day. But anyway , she is still
Neungdiao mother , the head of the family , her thinking and determination
are always the same. After knowing that uncle was dead , she just smiled
and held Neungdiao hand tightly , as if to say that one day all the hardships
will pass

Neungdiao only finished his 3rd year of university. But that's not a problem
because he invites the best professors to tutor special courses , he doesn't
need a degree , just knowledge is enough. there was only one classmate in
his class , Palm. Never changed. Bot he and his mother agreed that the
family business was too messy , he gradually moved his business activities
to outside , as well as gradually sold less assets to get cash to invest in
other places. Within two years , the Kiattakulmaetee family had gone from
black to gray , and is now almost completely white

Ben and Chopper decide to move out and become independent

Ben's father's homophobia cannot be changed , and he does not change

himself for others. After graduating from college , Ben decide to move out
of the house. Together , the two of them move to Taiwan , get married , and
start a new life. The four still kept in touch and Neungdiao often asked
Palm to fly over there to visit them. Ben's work is a sound engineer , while
Chopper's inheritance plus the fact that he has a bright mind , has made his
own money since high school enough that he doesn't need to worry too
much.

Chanon is back as a personal chauffeur for the family , but this time to take
care of Tanya because Neungdiao already has a professional chauffeur , and
bodyguard. Palm follows him everywhere , the two of them like a shadow.
At the beginning of the business transition , Neungdiao had to negotiate
with dangerous business many times , he could not count the number of
times Palm protected him in time. With Palm by his side Neungdiao no
longer had to worry about anything. Because he believed that there was no
on in this world to protect him better than him

On Tanya's side , after learning that Chanon's son had changed from a
bodyguard to his son's lover , she was very happy , which made Palm and
Neungdiao seem to be relieved of their burden. She had long wanted to see
Palm as another son in the family , but he refused , remaining obedient ,
respectful and always considered himself the driver's son. Only when Palm
and Neungdiao are together does he play the role of lover. Palm behaved in
such a way that almost no one in the family knew about their relationship

"Hey , are we getting married?"

Neungdiao asked in a low voice , in front of him was the clear blue
Bangkok sky , the view through the quadrilateral window was all too
familiar. But this place was no longer the same as before , Neugndiao had to
completely demolish and rebuild with 100 of the original area. The
abandoned house is now had life , and he has also fulfilled the promise he
made to his father

"You want to get married?" Palm asked , wrapping his arms around him
from behind

"Thats right , dont you want to?"

"if Neungdiao wants , i want too , everything depends on Neungdiao , i will

always be with you."
Neungdiao smiled , still slightly displeased that Palm still acted like a loyal
subordinate until now , but deep in his heart he knew that wasn't the case.
He has never considered Palm as a person inferior to him , he is a friend
who was born and died for him

"Do you dare?"

"Why not? Neungdiao wants me to do it , i'll do it"

Neungdiao turned to take a closer look at the man in front of him. Feeling
grateful for everything in the world , grateful for not taking Palm away
from him

"Really?

"Except from leaving you , i can do it."

"Your mouth is very flexible now , where did you learn it from?"

He acted like a stubborn child teasing him and giggling. In this world , there
is nothing to be afraid of anymore , as long as mom understands , Palm
understands , the rest of the world doesn't understand , he doesn't care. You
just need to care about the people you love is enough

"It's just that someone around here told me that he wants to get married. But
i don't know who told me , don't let others know that we love each other ,
this love will become a weakness right?"

Palm stifled teasing , Neungdiao immediately hit him on the shoulder. He

immediately cooed , let out a cry

"The situation then was not the same as it is now. No one wants to harm you
now"

His lover smiled and said. There were many people who anted to kill
Neungdiao Kiattakulmaetee. After that incident , they still had to go
through countless times of driving through bullets to survive. But luckily ,
nothing was as serious as that time
"It's because the bodyguard's job is not up to the mark"

"Has Neungdiao been injured yet? Its just me , who's been in the hospital so
many i cant count"

Palm complained , while Neugndiao just chuckled , shaking his head in a

cheerful mood. Every time you have to use force , he didn't stop him.
Sometimes just raising the gun to scare the opponent is enough , but you
prefers to use his fist , as his hobby

"I will buy insurance for you , i will definitely get money."

"Neungdiao is my insurance" He said with a bright smile , when looking at

that smile , Neungdiao suddenly felt a warmth spread throughout his heart

"If Neungdiao doesn't die , i wont die."

"Yes , you must not die in front of me , remember this promise"

Yes he once ordered Palm not to die under any circumstances , he said
"Definitely"

He always hugs him every time he says these words. NEugndiao also knew
that nothing in this world is certain , especially when it comes to life and
death. But at the same time , the other party's promise to him also warmed
Neugndiao's heart , as if a miracle was protecting him

Neungdiao brought his lips to his , Palm was already waiting. The soft and
sweet touch of lips is the promise of lovers , that they will not leave each
other no matter what happens , from the first day to the last day without
knowing when , Palm is steadfast in this promise. Like the sun always rises
in the east and sets in the west.

This is the taste of life

Start , grow , crash , then start all over agian

Each time the two of them continued to breathe for some unknown reason ,
Palm is Neugndiao's answer , Neugndiao is Palm's answer. The love story is
like a romantic love story that continues , in the novels without ending , as
emphasizing the fact that true love always exists in this world and we can
reach it. And that will continue for a long time , just as the existence of the
ballroom seems to forget time

Forever

Love is still there. The last promise still exists , exists... for a person is you.
MAIN STORY END
Chapter 15 : Side Story Chopper x Ben

Ben turned shyly to his companion's face

In front of them is an apartment of medium size but enough for both of

them to live comfortably. He let out a small sigh when he saw the other's
face. Emotions piled up

"I'm sorry"

Ben didn't know how many times he'd said this since they both graduated
from high school. He had a heated argument with his father and decide to
move out on his own. But the reality was without Chopper's help , he
wouldn't be able to handle it

"Ben also knows that after my father's death , i will also inherit the property
left behind. If i dont help my lover , who else will i help?"

Chopper took Ben's hand into the room , put the suitcase they pulled into a
corner , and fell on the bed. Both chose this place because it was quite
convenient to the university

"I owe you too much"

Ben sighed heavily and turned to look at his lover lying next to him.
Although knowing that the person in front of him was voluntary in his heart
, he couldn't stop the complicated thoughts that keep swirling around in his
head for so many years

"Its what i want. Its nothing"

"Chopper"
"You there , i told you not to worry. You're the one who loves me , i can't
help it."

Chopper wrapped his arms around him. He was a bit reluctant at first due to
stress. But after seeing the others gaze the resistance suddenly softened. Are
you overdoing the kindness of the person in front of you?

"Ben do you know ho long i've been secretly in love with you?"

Chopper's voice whispered softy . At the same time , face pressed against
him "Third year high school?"

"First year , term 1" Chopper replied with a slight smile "I liked you at first
sight , until today"

"How can you like it in a freshman year , we don't know anything?"

Ben asked suspiciously. He rummaged through the past but had no

memories. He only remembers officially gettin to know Chopper in the
second semester of his first year or something like that when he started
participating in school activities. Chopper and he were both members of the
student council. Occasionally they will hold different events but they hardly
talk much.

"Because Ben is cute."

With that , Chopper took a deep breath into Ben's shoulder making him roll
over. Seeing that , the other side hugged him tighter

"No. Seriously. Why do you like me?"

"Its really because of that cute Ben. Sometimes love at first sight is such a
magical thing"

"But why don't you talk to me?"

This time is wan Ben's turn to tease. He moved the person lying next to the
pillow on the other side. Both sides looked at each other embarrassed but
tried to hide

"Ben likes Neungdiao so clearly , the whole school knows. How dare i get
close. I know i cant compare with him"

This time Chopper turned hi face away. Ben slowly put his hand on the
other's face causing the two to turn to look at each other again

"Who said that. Aren't you already winning people?"

Ben smiled flatly. Chopper who seemd to be suffering gradually calmed

down , rolling his eyes teasingly

"I dont believe"

"Must bleieve"

"Then prove it" Chopper challenged

"Okay"

Ben obediently put his hand on the cheeks of the person in front of him
pulling their lips together. Chopper's mind suddenly stalled a bit , but it
immediately responded. Meanwhile , Ben could only hear his heart beating
rhythmically

Both you and the person you love have scars from the past. They come
from things they are not good enough for no matter how hard they try. Ben
was never what his father expected , or Chopper was always compared to
Neungdiao. But no one could see but the two of them who had found each
other in coldest days. They share warmth when the other needs it , and their
pain is felt by the person who shares it

"We'll live a new life." Chopper whispered firmly

The last time Ben , Chopper Neungdiao , Palm met each other was the day
all 4 graduated. Of course that wasn't the last time they saw each other.

Chopper said so in front of all , each of them understood what it mean

The shackles of the 'the son who is not good enough' have been removed

Ben , Chopper , Neungdiao , Palm paid enough for their father's

expectations. It's time for them to take charge of their own lives , wlak on
the path for themselves to choose. Whether it's family expectations or not ,
appropriate or inappropriate. But this is the path that they choose according
to their own beliefs and conceptions of life

"We are new people"

"We will live a new life"

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