I am not a nihilist. At least, not more than I am a non-nihilist.

However, I consider it better to draw wisdom from every possible resource. Let our opinions not be barriers.
Even if our approach to life disagrees with a certain philosophy, we should not view that philosophy as a
source of poisoned waters. It might be better to approach the spring and drink the water. Only through this
accomplishment can we see the world from a different perspective and benefit ourselves.
Giving or finding meaning implies a hierarchy of values and a reason to move forward. This is why
meaning is of primary importance in our lives. In a world where pain is the fundamental reality, the
absence of meaning can be equivalent to internal death. Defining death as the impossibility of any
further possibility, the absence of meaning imposes on humans not to act, but instead, to let their
lives reach an inevitable end without their action and participation. It becomes clear that an
acceptance of 'no meaning' threatens our freedom, a freedom that can be expressed only through
our actions.
On one side, meaning is a hierarchy of values, a system of priorities that provides a reason to keep
going, not to give up. Simultaneously, it operates as a barrier, a way of choosing and excluding.
This fact does not only concern other value systems but mainly concerns other humans. If my
actions cannot align with someone's priorities, I will be - intentionally or unintentionally - outside
of their life. Meaning is the ruler of our choices, reflecting a value system superior to ourselves,
expressing a hierarchy and priority.
Let me be clear. It is not the process of creating meaning that I disagree with; it is the subsequent
fear of approaching a person with a different hierarchy. I doubt if it's possible to have an authentic
friendship built solely because the value systems are shared. Do we share our lives with a friend
because we accept their value system, or do we do it because we are glad to see their effort to live
an authentic and genuine life?
In this perspective, nihilism can be beneficial. It can be a way of freedom, and that is why we
should explore it. The absence of meaning in all values, the contempt for life, and the
disparagement of meaning make somebody a free human. For we release ourselves from all
external springs of meaning and approach every human being equally and fearlessly. Even if there
is an external spring of value and meaning, it is considered better to first experience and live
through the nihilist liberation.

Now when I can distinguish better in the darkness, I see that nihilism has benefited me. It was rather
a way of freedom and because of this, I had to walk through it. The absence of meaning in all
values, the contempt of life and the disparagement of meaning make me a free man. That's because
I release myself of all springs of external meaning and I approached every human being equally and
fearlessly. Even if there is an external spring of value and meaning, it is considered better first to
experience and live through the nihilist liberation.