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 ‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺖ‪--.‬ﻋﻤﺮﻱ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻛﺎﻣﻞ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﺍﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭﺣﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻫﺬﺍﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬

‫ﺑﺎﻷﻣﺲﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺣﺪﺙ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺪﺙ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻳﻼﺣﻆ‪ .‬ﺟﻴﺪ ﺟﺪﺍ؛ ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻳﻘﻈﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ ﻭﺟﺪ‬

‫ﻗﺒﻞﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺪﻭﺙ ﺍﻷﻣﺲ ﺳﺄﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺘﺪﻭﻳﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ‬

‫ﻟﻠﺒﺪءﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺻﺤﻴﺢ ﻭﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺡ ﻟﻠﺴﺠﻞ ﺑﺎﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻳﺰﺓ‬

‫ﻳﺨﺒﺮﻧﻲﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻬﻤﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﺆﺭﺥ‬

‫ﻓﻲﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﺎ‪ .‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ‬

‫ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ؛ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺤﻴﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‬

‫ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻤﺎ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﺍ ﻓﺈﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻻﻗﺘﻨﺎﻉ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻫﻮﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ‪ -‬ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ؛ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﺛﻢﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻞ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮﺑﺔ؟ ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ؛ ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻗﻲ ﺟﺰء ﻣﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺍﻟﺮﺉﻴﺴﻲ ﻣﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻗﻲ ﻟﻪ ﻧﺼﻴﺒﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺄﻟﺔ‪ .‬ﻫﻮ ﻣﻮﻗﻔﻲ‬

‫ﺃﻡﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻗﺒﻪ ﻭﺃﻋﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻪ؟ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮ‪،‬‬

‫ﺭﺑﻤﺎ‪.‬ﺗﺨﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻳﺰﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻴﻘﻈﺔ ﺍﻷﺑﺪﻳﺔ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﺜﻤﻦ‬

‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﺘﻔﻮﻕ‪] .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﻩ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺻﻐﻴﺮ ﺟﺪﺍً‪[.‬‬

‫ﻛﻞﺷﻲء ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻣﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺑﺎﻷﻣﺲ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻧﺪﻓﺎﻉ‬

‫ﻣﻊﺍﻻﻧﺘﻬﺎء ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺲ‪ ،‬ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﺍﻟﺠﺒﺎﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺧﺸﻨﺔ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺴﻬﻮﻝ ﻣﻠﻴﺉﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻤﺎﻣﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﻳﺎ‬

‫ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖﺍﻟﺠﻮﺍﻧﺐ ﻣﺆﻟﻤﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﻓﻨﻴﺔ ﻧﺒﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ‬

‫ﻻﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺨﻀﻊ ﻟﻠﺘﺴﺮﻉ؛ ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺠﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻴﺐ ﻫﻮ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‬

‫ﻋﻤﻞﺃﻧﺒﻞ ﻭﺃﺟﻤﻞ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ ﻗﺮﻳﺐ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺭﺍﺉﻊ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﻜﻤﺎﻝ‪،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺿﻴﻖ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ .‬ﻫﻨﺎﻟﻚ ﺍﻳﻀﺎ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﻮﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﻭﻏﻴﺮ ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬

‫ﻋﻼﺟﻬﺎﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺿﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺷﻚ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﻔﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻧﺰﻟﻖ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺳﻘﻂ ﻭﺧﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻄﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺧﺴﺎﺭﺓ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﺟﺪﺍً؛ ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻳﻜﺴﺮ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‬

‫ﻟﻠﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺷﻲء ﺁﺧﺮ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻲ ﻭ‬

‫ﺩﻳﻜﻮﺭﺍﺕﻳﻀﺎﻫﻴﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻴﺚ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺸﻄﻴﺐ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ‬

‫ﺗﻢﺗﺜﺒﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻧﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﺇﻻ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺎﺩﺗﻬﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪--‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻦﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻳﻦ ﺫﻫﺒﺖ‪ .‬ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬‬

‫ﻣﻦﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺳﻴﺨﻔﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺻﺎﺩﻗﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻷﻣﻮﺭ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‬

‫ﺃﺩﺭﻙﺃﻥ ﺟﻮﻫﺮ ﻭﻣﺮﻛﺰ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺘﻲ ﻫﻮ ﺣﺐ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﻝ‪،‬‬

‫ﺷﻐﻒﺑﺎﻟﺠﻤﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻵﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﺔ ﺑﻲ‬

‫ﺑﻘﻤﺮﻳﺨﺺ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﻻ ﻳﻌﺮﻓﻪ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺨﻠﻰ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﺟﺪﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ‬

‫ﻳﺠﺐﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺧﺎﺉﻔﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺪﻫﻢ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻭﺟﺪﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎ‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﺪ ﻧﻮﻋﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺭ ﻟﻌﺪﻡ ﻗﻮﻝ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‬

‫ﺣﻮﻟﻪ‪.‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺍﻷﻗﻤﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻲ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻭﺭﻭﻣﺎﻧﺴﻴﺔ ﺟﺪﺍً‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺳﺘﺔ؛ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺫﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ؛ً ﻻ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‬

‫ﻣﺘﻌﺐﻣﺴﺘﻠﻖ ٍﻋﻠﻰ ﺿﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺤﻠﺐ ﻭﻳﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺾ ﻣﻨﻪ ﻷﺿﻌﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺷﻌﺮﻱ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﺠﻮﻡﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﺳﻮﻑﺗﺘﻔﺎﺟﺄ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﺠﺪ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺑﻌﺪﻫﻢ‬ ‫ﻟﻨﻔﺘﺮﺽﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺃﻇﻬﺮﻭﺍ ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﻫﻲ‪،‬ﻷﻧﻬﻢ ﻻ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﺎﻭﻝﺇﺳﻘﺎﻁ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺼﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻣﺎ‬

‫ﺃﺫﻫﻠﺘﻨﻲ؛ﺛﻢ ﺟﺮﺑﺖ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﻞ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﻌﺒﺖ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺎً‬

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 ‫ﺣﺼﻠﺖﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﺴﺮ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﻲ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺟﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﺣﺘﻰ‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺍﺳﺘﻬﺪﻓﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺻﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻵﺧﺮ‪،‬‬

‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻠﻘﻄﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻳﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍء ﻟﻠﺘﺮﺍﺏ‬

‫ﺃﺑﺤﺮﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﻗﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺒﻴﺔ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﻴﻦ ﺃﻭ ﺧﻤﺴﻴﻦ ﻣﺮﺓ‪،‬‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺎﺩﺃﻓﺘﻘﺪﻫﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﻤﻮﺩ ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﺃﻃﻮﻝ ﻗﻠﻴﻼً‬

‫ﺭﺑﻤﺎﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﺬﻟﻚﺑﻜﻴﺖ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪ ً،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻱ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﺑﻌﺪﺣﺼﻮﻟﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺣﺔ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﻠﺔ ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺚ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ‬

‫ﺃﻗﺼﻰﺣﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺉﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﻮﻡ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻭ‬

‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻳﺔ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ‬

‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻪﺃﻥ ﻳﺠﻤﻌﻬﻢ ﺑﺤﻨﺎﻥ ﺣﻴﻨﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﻜﺴﺮﻫﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﺑﻌﺪ‬

‫ﻣﻤﺎﻇﻨﻨﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﺿﻄﺮﺭﺕ ﻟﻠﺘﺨﻠﻲ ﻋﻨﻪ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻌﺒﺎ ﺟﺪﺍ ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺤﺐ ﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﺧﻄﻮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ؛ ﻋﻼﻭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﺘﺄﻟﻤﻴﻦ ﻭﻣﺘﺄﻟﻤﻴﻦ‬

‫ﻟﻲﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ؛ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺠﻮ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺍً؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬

‫ﺑﻌﺾﺍﻟﻨﻤﻮﺭ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻘﺮﺕ ﺑﻴﻨﻬﻢ ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺮﻳﺤﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖﺃﻧﻔﺎﺳﻬﻢ ﺣﻠﻮﺓ ﻭﻣﻤﺘﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻬﻢ ﻳﻌﻴﺸﻮﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‬

‫ﻓﺮﺍﻭﻟﺔ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﺒﻖ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﻧﻤﺮﺍً ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻋﺮﻓﺘﻬﻢ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ‬

‫ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﺭﺏ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﺘﻔﻌﻞ‬

‫ﺍﺻﻨﻌﻲﺛﻮﺑﺎً ﺟﻤﻴﻼً‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡﺃﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻓﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺣﺮﻳﺼﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‬

‫ﺃﻣﺴﻚﺑﻜﻞ ﺷﻲء ﺟﻤﻴﻞ ﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ ﺑﻪ ﺑﺪﻭﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎً ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﺟﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎً ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺳﺖ ﺑﻮﺻﺎﺕ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬

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 ‫ﺑﺪﺕﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﻗﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﺳﻒ‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﺷﻮﺍﻙ! ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﺩﺭﺳﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺻﻨﻌﺖ ﺑﺪﻳﻬﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﻠﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ‪ -‬ﺃﻭﻝ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻟﻲ؛ ﺍﻟﺨﺪﺵ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮﺑﺔﺗﺘﺠﻨﺐ ﺍﻟﺸﻮﻛﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﻣﺎ‬

‫ﺷﺎﺏ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﺎﺑﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮﺑﺔ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﻇﻬﺮ ﺃﻣﺲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻓﺔ‪،‬ﻷﺭﻯ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﻌﺖ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ‬

‫ﻟﺠﻌﻞﺍﻟﺨﺮﻭﺝ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺭﺟﻞ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﺒﻖ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺭﺟﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺑﺪﺍﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻟﻮ‬ ‫ﺃﺷﻌﺮﺑﺎﻟﻔﻀﻮﻝ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺣﻒ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻧﻪﺯﺍﺣﻒ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؛ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺫﻭ ﺷﻌﺮ ﺟﻌﺪ ﻭﺃﺯﺭﻕ‬

‫ﻋﻴﻮﻥ‪،‬ﻭﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺣﻒ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻛﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻳﺘﻨﺎﻗﺺ ﺗﺪﺭﻳﺠﻴﺎً ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﺠﺰﺭﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻳﻘﻒ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻳﻨﺘﺸﺮ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺑﺮﺝ ﺍﻟﺤﻔﺮ؛ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺯﻭﺍﺣﻒ‪،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺪﺳﺔ ﻣﻌﻤﺎﺭﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﺧﺎﺉﻔﺎً ﻣﻨﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﻛﺾ ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺍﻧﻌﻄﻒ‬

‫ﺣﻮﻟﻲ‪،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻄﺎﺭﺩﻧﻲ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺮﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻭﺟﺪﺗﻪ‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﻓﻘﻂ ﺍﻟﻬﺮﻭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺧﺠﻮﻻً‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬

‫ﺗﺘﺒﻌﺘﻪﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﻮﻝ ﻋﺪﺓ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺣﻮﺍﻟﻲ ﻋﺸﺮﻳﻦ ﻳﺎﺭﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﺃﺩﻯ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪﻭﺙ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺇﻧﻪﻋﺼﺒﻲ ﻭﻏﻴﺮ ﺳﻌﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺴﻠﻖ‬

‫ﺷﺠﺮﺓ‪.‬ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮﺕ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ ًﺛﻢ ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻭﺭﺟﻌﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺖ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡﺍﻧﺘﻬﻰ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﺸﺠﺮﺓ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻷﺣﺪ‪--.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺼﻞ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺑﻌﺪ‪ .‬ﻳﺴﺘﺮﻳﺢ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻠﺔ‪:‬ﺍﻷﺣﺪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺣﺔ؛ ﺗﻢ ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺖ ﻝ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻟﻲ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﻣﺨﻠﻮﻕ ﻣﻬﺘﻢ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺮﺍﺣﺔ‬

‫ﻣﻨﻪﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺁﺧﺮ‪ .‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﻳﺘﻌﺒﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺗﺎﺡ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﺘﻌﺒﻨﻲ‬

‫ﻓﻘﻂﻟﻠﺠﻠﻮﺱ ﻭﻣﺸﺎﻫﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺸﺠﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺴﺎءﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﺽ ﻣﻨﻪ؟ ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻻﺗﺮﺍﻩ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻋﺎﺩﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍ ﺟﺪﺍ! ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﻪ‬

‫ﺻﺎﺩﻗﺔﺟﺪﺍ ﻣﻨﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻖ ﻭﺳﻘﻂ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺑﺎﻷﺳﻰ‪.‬ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺣﺎﺟﺔ ﻟﻠﻘﻠﻖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺮء ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ‬

‫ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻹﻇﻬﺎﺭﻩ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺠﻴﺮﺍﻥ؛ﺳﻮﻑ ﻳﻌﻴﺪﻭﻧﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻭﺩﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺳﻞ ﻟﻬﻢ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻳﺪ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻋﻨﻲﺃﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﻧﺤﻦ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺣﻒ ﺗﻬﺘﻢ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺎﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻻﺷﻲء ﻟﻤﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻧﻬﺎﺫﺍﺕ ﺃﺫﻭﺍﻕ ﻣﻨﺨﻔﻀﺔ ﻭﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺫﻫﺒﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺴﺎء ﺃﻣﺲ‬

‫ﻭﻓﻲﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺯﺣﻒ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺳﻔﻞ ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻹﻣﺴﺎﻙ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻠﻴﻞ‬

‫ﺍﻷﺳﻤﺎﻙﺍﻟﻤﺮﻗﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻠﻌﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻮﺽ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺎﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ّﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﻄﻴﻬﺎ ﻷﺻﻨﻌﻬﺎ‬

‫ﺍﺻﻌﺪﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺸﺠﺮﺓ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻭﺍﺗﺮﻛﻬﻢ ﻭﺷﺄﻧﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﺗﺴﺎءﻝ ﻋﻤﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬

‫ﻝ؟ﺃﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﻪ ﻗﻠﺐ؟ ﺃﻟﻴﺲ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻔﻘﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺆﻻء ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ‬

‫ﻣﺨﻠﻮﻕ؟ﻫﻞ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻢ ﺗﺼﻤﻴﻤﻪ ﻭﺗﺼﻨﻴﻌﻪ ﻟﻤﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ؟‬

‫ﻋﻤﻞﻏﻴﺮ ﻟﻄﻴﻒ؟ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻣﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺎﺩﻫﺎ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﺍﺑﻴﺔ‬

‫ﺍﻷﺫﻥ‪،‬ﻭﺗﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻋﻄﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺸﻮﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬

‫ﺃﻭﻝﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻛﻼﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎء ﻛﻼﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺍﻓﻬﻢ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ‪،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺑﺪﺕ ﻣﻌﺒﺮﺓ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ؛ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﻧﻮﻣﻲ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺜﻴﺮ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻷﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﻀﺎﻋﻒ‪ ،‬ﻭ‬

‫ﻟﻦﺗﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺭﻏﺒﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﺫﺍﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺰﺍﺣﻒ ﺭﺟﻼ‪ ً،‬ﻓﻬﻮ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻣﺘﺨﺼﺼﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺗﻜﻨﻮﻟﻮﺟﻴﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮﻳﺔ‪،‬ﺃﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻟﺔﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺗﺤﻠﻴﻠﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻲ‪ :‬ﺍﻻﺳﻤﻲ‪HE ،‬؛ ﻣﻮﻃﻦ‪ ،‬ﻟﻪ؛ ﺻﻴﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﻜﻴﺔ‪،‬‬

‫ﻟﻪ‪.‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎً‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻋﺘﺒﺮﻩ ﺭﺟﻼ ًﻭﺃﺳﻤﻴﻪ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻳﻈﻬﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻟﻴﻜﻮﻥﺷﻴﺉﺎ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ .‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻓﺎﺉﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ‬

‫ﻋﺪﻡﺍﻟﻴﻘﻴﻦ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻷﺣﺪﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺳﺒﻮﻉ‪--.‬ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻷﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﻓﻘﻪ ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻋﻠﻲ ّﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺧﺠﻮﻻ‪ ً،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺗﻌﺮﻑ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺑﺪﺍ ﻣﺴﺮﻭﺭﺍً ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﺖ‬ ‫ﻟﻢﺗﻤﺎﻧﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻧﺤﻦ" ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺗﻤﻠﻘﻪ‬

‫ﻣﺘﻀﻤﻨﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻷﺭﺑﻌﺎء‪--.‬ﻧﺤﻦ ﻧﺘﻔﻖ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺟﻴﺪ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺘﻘﺪﻡ‬

‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞﻭﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﺪ ﻳﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺗﺠﻨﺒﻲ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻵﻥ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻫﺬﻩﻋﻼﻣﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺒﻴﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺤﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬

‫ﻳﺮﺿﻴﻨﻲ‪،‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﺱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﻔﻴﺪﺍً ﻟﻪ ﺑﻜﻞ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻤﻜﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

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 ‫ﺯﻳﺎﺩﺓﺍﺣﺘﺮﺍﻣﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺧﻼﻝﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻣﻴﻦ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮﻳﻦ‪ ،‬ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺘﺴﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء‬

‫ﻣﻦﻳﺪﻳﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺔ ﺭﺍﺣﺔ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ‬

‫ﻫﺪﻳﺔﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﻄﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺿﺢ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﻤﺘﻦ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻪ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺃ‬

‫ﺍﺳﻢﻣﻨﻄﻘﻲ ﻹﻧﻘﺎﺫﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﻤﺢ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺮﺅﻳﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ‬

‫ﻋﻴﺒﻪ‪.‬ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺟﺎء ﻣﺨﻠﻮﻕ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺃﺳﻤﻴﻪ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺄﺗﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖﻟﻔﻀﺢ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﺑﺼﻤﺖ ﺣﺮﺝ‪ .‬ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﻧﻘﺬﺕ‬

‫ﻟﻪﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻹﺣﺮﺍﺝ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻱ ﻋﻴﺐ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺘﻌﻴﻴﻨﻬﺎ‬

‫ﻋﻴﻮﻥﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻥ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻟﺤﻈﺔ؛‬

‫ﺍﻻﺳﻢﺍﻟﺼﺤﻴﺢ ﻳﺨﺮﺝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ ﺇﻟﻬﺎﻡ‪،‬‬

‫ﻻﺷﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﺪﺍﺧﻠﻲ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻳﺒﺪﻭﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺷﻜﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻠﻮﻕ ﻭﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﺑﻬﺎ‬

‫ﻣﺎﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺟﺎء ﻃﺎﺉﺮ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺩﻭ‪ ،‬ﻇﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻗﻂ ﺑﺮﻱ — ﺭﺃﻳﺘﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻃﺎﺉﺮﻩ‬

‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖﺣﺮﻳﺼﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‬ ‫ﻋﻴﻦ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻘﺬﺗﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﺤﺪﺛﺖ ﻟﻠﺘﻮ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‬ ‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦﺃﻥ ﺗﺆﺫﻱ ﻛﺒﺮﻳﺎﺉﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﻔﺎﺟﺄﺓﺳﺎﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﻠﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻘﻞ‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ‪،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ‪" :‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎً‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﻠﻦ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻃﺎﺉﺮ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺩﻭ!"‬

‫ﺷﺮﺣﺖ‪ -‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺪﻭ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺷﺮﺡ ‪ -‬ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻄﺎﺉﺮ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺩﻭ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻨﺰﻋﺠﺎً ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻟﻢ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺿﺢ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﻌﺠﺐ ﺑﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﻘﺒﻮﻻ ًﺟﺪﺍ‪ ً،‬ﻭﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺮﺓ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺮﺿﺎﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻛﻢ ﻫﻮ ﻗﻠﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺠﻌﻠﻨﺎ ﺳﻌﺪﺍء ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬

‫ﻧﺸﻌﺮﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻘﻨﺎﻫﺎ!‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺨﻤﻴﺲ‪--.‬ﺣﺰﻧﻲ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻷﻣﺲ ﺗﺠﻨﺒﻨﻲ ﻭﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺘﻤﻨﻰ‬

‫ﻟﻦﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺪﻕ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬

‫ﺑﻌﺾﺍﻟﺨﻄﺄ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺣﺒﺒﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﺒﺒﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﻤﻌﻪ ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ‪،‬‬

‫ﻓﻜﻴﻒﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺴﻮﺓ ﺗﺠﺎﻫﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻟﻢﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺷﻴﺉﺎ؟ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺻﺤﻴﺤﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﺍ ﺫﻫﺒﺖ ﻭﺟﻠﺴﺖ‬

‫ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺍًﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺭﺃﻳﺘﻪ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻧﺸﺄﻧﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ‬

‫ﻭﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺒﺎﻝ ﺑﻪ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻵﻥ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﻜﺎﻧﺎً ﺣﺰﻳﻨﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﺻﻐﻴﺮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ ﻭﻋﻦ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﺆﻟﻤﺎ ﺟﺪﺍ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺍ‬

‫ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺱ؛ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺮﺏ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﻠﻪ ﻟﻐﺰﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭ‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺨﺮﻭﺝ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺟﺎء ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻫﺒﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﺄﻭﻯﺍﻟﺠﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺑﻨﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﻷﺳﺄﻟﻪ ﻋﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻪ‬

‫ﺧﻄﺄﻭﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺇﺻﻼﺣﻪ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻃﻴﺒﺘﻪ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ؛ ﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﻮ‬

‫ﺃﺧﺮﺟﻨﻲﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺃﻭﻝ ﺣﺰﻥ ﻟﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻷﺣﺪ‪--.‬ﺍﻟﺠﻮ ﻟﻄﻴﻒ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺳﻌﻴﺪ؛ ﻟﻜﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺛﻘﻴﻠﺔ‬

‫ﺃﻳﺎﻡ؛ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻴﻬﻢ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺗﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﻟﻪ ﺑﻌﻀﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺣﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﺭﻣﻴﻬﺎ‬

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 ‫ﻣﺴﺘﻘﻴﻢ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻓﺸﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻴﺒﺔ ﺃﺳﻌﺪﺗﻪ‪ .‬ﻫﻢ‬

‫ﺣﺮﺍﻡﻭﻳﻘﻮﻝ ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﺿﺮ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﺁﺗﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺫﻯ‬

‫ﻣﻦﺧﻼﻝ ﺇﺭﺿﺎﺉﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻫﺘﻢ ﺑﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻷﺫﻯ؟‬

‫ﺍﻻﺛﻨﻴﻦ‪--.‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺗﻪ ﺑﺎﺳﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺜﻴﺮ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻣﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪﻟﻢ ﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻏﺮﻳﺐ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺨﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﺑﻪ‬

‫ﺍﻻﺳﻢ‪،‬ﺳﺄﻫﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﺘﻌﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺫﻧﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺁﺧﺮ‬

‫ﺻﻮﺕﺁﺧﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙﻗﻠﻴﻼ ﺟﺪﺍ‪ .‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻣﺸﺮﻗﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺣﺴﺎﺱﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻭﻳﺮﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺧﻔﺎء ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺆﺳﻒ ﺃﻧﻪ‬

‫ﻳﺠﺐﺃﻥ ﺗﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻄﻮﻉ ﻻ ﺷﻲء؛ ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺐ ﺃﻥ‬

‫ﻛﺬﺑﺔﺍﻟﻘﻴﻢ‪ .‬ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﻌﻠﻪ ﻳﻔﻬﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻄﻴﺐ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺐ‬

‫ﻫﻮﺍﻟﻐﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻐﻨﻰ ﻛﺎﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻘﻞ ﺑﺪﻭﻧﻪ ﻓﻘﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﺘﻠﻚ ﻣﻔﺮﺩﺍﺕ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺪﻫﺶ‪ .‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺿﺢ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺍﻋﺘﺮﻑ‪،‬‬

‫ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻣﺮﺍً ﺟﻴﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻋﻤﻞ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻣﺮﺗﻴﻦ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬‬

‫ﺑﺈﻫﻤﺎﻝ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﻨﺎً ﻋﺎﺩﻳﺎً ﺟﻴﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺃﻇﻬﺮ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﺘﻠﻚ ﻣﻬﺎﺭﺓ‬

‫ﻧﻮﻋﻴﺔﻣﻌﻴﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻹﺩﺭﺍﻙ‪ .‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﻻ ﺷﻚ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺇﺟﺮﺍء ﺍﻟﺒﺬﻭﺭ ﻝ‬

‫ﺗﻨﻤﻮﺇﺫﺍ ﺯﺭﻋﺖ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻣﻦﺃﻳﻦ ﻟﻪ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ؟ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﺘﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﻀﻰ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻻ‪،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﺑﺎﺳﻤﻲ‪ .‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺇﺧﻔﺎء ﺧﻴﺒﺔ ﺃﻣﻠﻲ‬

‫ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻧﺠﺢ‪ .‬ﺫﻫﺒﺖ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﻭﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺿﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺤﻠﺐ‬

‫ﻣﻊﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺎء‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺫﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺠﻮﻉ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺮﻓﻘﺔ‪،‬ﺷﺨﺺ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻠﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺷﺨﺺ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻠﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ‬

‫ﻳﻜﻔﻲ‪--‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺠﺴﻢ ﺍﻷﺑﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺳﻮﻡ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻮﺽ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺎﺣﺔ‪--‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺷﻲء‪،‬ﻭﺷﻲء ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﻠﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﺘﻰ‬

‫ﺍﺗﺤﺪﺙ؛ﺇﻧﻪ ﺣﺰﻳﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﺰﻥ؛ ﻳﺮﻳﺤﻨﻲ ﺑﺘﻌﺎﻃﻔﻪ‪ .‬ﻫﻮ ‪ -‬ﻫﻲ‬

‫ﻳﻘﻮﻝ‪":‬ﻻ ﺗﺤﺰﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻜﻴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻻ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻟﻬﺎ؛ ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻟﻚ‬

‫"ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺔ‪ ".‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺪﻳﻘﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﺧﺘﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﻠﻚﺍﻟﻤﺮﺓ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺨﻠﺖ ﻋﻨﻲ! ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻦ ﺃﻧﺴﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‬

‫‪ --‬ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﺭﺻﺎﺻﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ! ﻓﻘﻠﺖ‪ :‬ﻫﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻱ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ‪،‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺫﻫﺒﺖ!" ﻗﻠﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻳﺄﺳﻲ‪" :‬ﺍﻧﻜﺴﺮ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ؛ ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻻﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ!" ﻭﺃﺧﻔﻴﺖ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﺑﻴﻦ ﻳﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻋﺰﺍء ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺧﺬﺗﻬﻢ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﻗﻠﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﻀﺎء ﻭﻣﺸﺮﻗﺔ ﻭﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻔﺰﺕ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‬

‫ﺃﺳﻠﺤﺔ!‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻠﺔ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻣﺜﻞﻫﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺸﻮﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﻚ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻗﻂ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮﺕ‬

‫ﻭﻟﻢﻳﺸﻚ؛ ﻓﻘﻠﺖ‪ :‬ﻫﻲ ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺫﻫﺒﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺳﻔﺮ‪،‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎﺳﺘﺄﺗﻲ‪ ".‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ :‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﺳﺘﺄﺗﻲ‬

‫ﻻﺗﺄﺗﻲ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺷﻴﺉﺎ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺍ ﺧﺠﻮﻻ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﻘﻤﺮ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﺄﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺧﺎﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺃﺻﻐﺮﻣﻨﻲ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﻟﺪﺕ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ‪ .‬ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺓ ﻭﻛﺜﻴﺮﺓ ﻫﻲ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺰﻳﺎﺭﺍﺕﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻟﻬﺎ؛ ﻫﻲ ﺭﺍﺣﺘﻲ ﻭﻣﻠﺠﺄﻱ ﺣﻴﻦ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‬

‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ ‪ -‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻡ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺎء‪--.‬ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﻤﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﺤﺴﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﺭﻋﺔ؛ ﻭ ﺍﻧﺎ‬

‫ﺗﻌﻤﺪﺕﺍﻻﺑﺘﻌﺎﺩ ﻋﻨﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻮﺣﺪﺓ ﻭ‬

‫ﻳﺄﺗﻲ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﺍﻟﻈﻬﺮ ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻭﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﺍﺳﺘﺠﻤﺎﻣﺘﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺗﺤﺮﻳﻚ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء‬

‫ﻣﻊﺍﻟﻨﺤﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺷﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺘﺎﻉ ﺑﺎﻟﺰﻫﻮﺭ‪،‬‬

‫ﺗﻠﻚﺍﻟﻤﺨﻠﻮﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻠﺘﻘﻂ ﺑﺴﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء ﻭ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺤﻔﺎﻅﻋﻠﻴﻪ! ﻓﺠﻤﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﺟﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﺃﻛﺎﻟﻴﻞ ﻭﺃﻛﺎﻟﻴﻞ‬

‫ﻭﺍﺭﺗﺪﻳﺖﻣﻼﺑﺴﻲ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﻏﺪﺍءﻱ ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺡ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ؛‬

‫ﺛﻢﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻞ ﻭﺗﻤﻨﻴﺖ ﻭﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮﺕ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺄﺕ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﻻ ﻳﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻦ ﻳﺄﺗﻲ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻬﺘﻢ‬

‫ﺯﻫﻮﺭ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺩﻋﺎﻫﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻤﺎﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻤﻴﺰ ﺑﻌﻀﻬﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺑﻌﺾ‪ ،‬ﻭ‬

‫ﻳﻌﺘﻘﺪﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﺑﻲ‪ ،‬ﻫﻮ‬

‫ﻻﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﺰﻫﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻤﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﻄﻠﻴﺔ‬

‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎء ‪ -‬ﻫﻞ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎء ﺑﻨﺎء ﺍﻷﻛﻮﺍﺥ‬

‫ﻳﺤﺼﻦﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻀﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﻴﺦ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻳﺄﺧﺬﻭﻥﻋﻴﻨﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺐ ﻭﻳﻀﻌﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺜﻤﺎﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺷﺠﺎﺭ ﻟﻴﺮﻭﺍ‬

‫ﻛﻴﻒﺗﺄﺗﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺨﺼﺎﺉﺺ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﻮﻝ؟‬

‫ﻭﺿﻌﺖﻋﺼﺎ ﺟﺎﻓﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺪﺙ ﺣﻔﺮﺓ ﺑﻬﺎ‬

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 ‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺗﻨﻔﻴﺬ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻄﻂ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬

‫ﺧﻮﻑﻓﻈﻴﻊ‪ .‬ﻭﺧﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﻔﺮﺓ ﻓﻴﻠﻢ ﺭﻗﻴﻖ ﻭﺷﻔﺎﻑ ﻣﺰﺭﻕ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﺃﺳﻘﻄﺖﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﻭﺭﻛﻀﺖ! ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺭﻭﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺧﺎﺉﻔﺔﺟﺪﺍ! ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺍء‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻗﺎﺩﻣﺎً؛ ﻓﺎﻧﺤﻨﺖ‬

‫ﻋﻠﻰﺻﺨﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﺮﻳﺤﺖ ﻭﻟﻬﺜﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻓﻲ ﺗﺮﺗﺠﻒ‬

‫ﺣﺘﻰﺍﺳﺘﻘﺮﻭﺍ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ؛ ﺛﻢ ﻋﺪﺕ ﺑﺤﺬﺭ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﻨﺒﻬﺎً‪ ،‬ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺪ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻋﻠﻰﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩ ﻟﻠﻄﻴﺮﺍﻥ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ؛ ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺑﺖ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻗﺴﻤﺖﺃﻏﺼﺎﻥ ﺷﺠﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺩ ﻭﺍﺧﺘﻠﺴﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻟﻬﺎ ‪ -‬ﻣﺘﻤﻨﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺮﺟﻞ‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺷﻚ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺑﺪﻭ ﻣﺎﻛﺮﺍً ﻭﺟﻤﻴﻼً ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺉﻦ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺧﺘﻔﻰ‪.‬‬

‫ﺫﻫﺒﺖﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻗﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻔﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﺃﺩﺧﻠﺖﺇﺻﺒﻌﻲ ﻷﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻠﺖ ﺃﻭﺗﺶ! ﻭﺃﺧﺮﺟﻬﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻫﻮ ‪ -‬ﻫﻲ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻷﻟﻢ ﻗﺎﺳﻴﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺇﺻﺒﻌﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ ﺃﻭﻻ‬

‫ﻗﺪﻡﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺛﻢ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﺨﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﺧﻔﻔﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺆﺳﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ؛‬

‫ﺛﻢﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻤﺘﻠﺉﺎً ﺑﺎﻻﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺤﺺ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﻀﻮﻝ ﻟﻤﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺩﻱ‪ .‬ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺍﺳﻤﻪ‬

‫ﺧﻄﺮﺕﻓﻲ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﺭﻏﻢ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﺮﻳﻘﺎ! ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻭﺍﺛﻘﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﺜﻠﻤﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻷﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﺬﺍ‬

‫ﻭﺑﺪﻭﻥﺗﺮﺩﺩ ﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﺳﻢ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺧﻠﻘﺖ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺍً ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺿﻔﺖ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺍ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺸﻲءﺇﻟﻰ ﺧﺼﺎﺉﺺ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻻ ﺗﻌﺪ ﻭﻻ ﺗﺤﺼﻰ؛ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﻫﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ‬

‫ﻓﺨﻮﺭﺑﺈﻧﺠﺎﺯﺍﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﺭﻛﺾ ﻭﺃﺟﺪﻩ ﻭﺃﺧﺒﺮﻩ‬

‫ﺣﻮﻝﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺿﻮﻉ‪ ،‬ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺭﻓﻊ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮﻱ ﻟﻨﻔﺴﻲ ‪ -‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻜﺮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ‬

‫ﻻﺗﻔﻌﻠﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻻ – ﻟﻦ ﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺴﺄﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ‬

‫ﺟﻴﺪﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﻴﺐ؟ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺻﺎﻟﺤﺎ ﻟﺸﻲء ﻣﺎ‪،‬‬

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 ‫ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻘﻂ‪--‬‬

‫ﻓﺘﻨﻬﺪﺕﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺫﻫﺐ‪ .‬ﻻﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺻﺎﻟﺤﺎ ﻟﺸﻲء‪ .‬ﻣﻤﻜﻦ‬

‫ﻻﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺑﻨﺎء ﻛﻮﺥ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺗﺤﺴﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﻴﺦ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﻌﺠﻞ ﺃ‬

‫ﻣﺤﺼﻮﻝﺍﻟﻔﺎﻛﻬﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﺪﻳﻢ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺉﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﻤﺎﻗﺔ ﻭﺑﺎﻃﻼ‪ .‬ﺳﻴﻔﻌﻞ‬

‫ﻳﺤﺘﻘﺮﻫﺎﻭﻳﻘﻮﻝ ﻛﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻊ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺣﻘﻴﺮﺍً؛ ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ‪":‬ﺃﻭﻩ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﺒﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻠﻮﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺩﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻚ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺟﻤﻴﻞ– ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ!" ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﺟﻤﻌﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪﺍﻣﺘﻨﻊ‪ .‬ﺛﻢ ﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﺑﻤﻘﻮﻟﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻳﺸﺒﻪﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺍﻷﻭﻝ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧﺸﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺳﺮﻗﺔ ﺃﺩﺑﻴﺔ‪:‬‬

‫"ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺮﻭﻗﺔ ﺗﺘﺠﻨﺐ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ؛ ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺻﻨﻌﺖ ﻗﺪﺭﺍً ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺍً ﻣﻦ ﻏﺒﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ ﺃﻓﺮﻏﺘﻪ‬

‫ﻓﻲﺣﻔﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺐ ﺍﻟﺒﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻑ‪ ،‬ﺑﻬﺪﻑ ﺣﻤﻠﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﻭ‬

‫ﺍﺣﺘﻔﻆﺑﻬﺎ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺐ ﺑﻬﺎ؛ ﻓﻀﺮﺑﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﻳﺢ ﻓﺘﻨﺎﺛﺮﺕ‬

‫ﻧﻬﺾﻭﺑﺼﻖ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺳﻘﻄﺘﻪ ﻭﺭﻛﻀﺖ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ‬

‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﺨﻠﻒ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺡ ﺍﻟﺰﺭﻗﺎء ﺷﺎﻫﻘﺔ ﻭﺗﻤﺘﺪ ﻭﺗﺘﺪﺣﺮﺝ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً‬

‫ﻣﺜﻞﺳﺤﺎﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﻤﻬﺎ ‪ -‬ﺩﺧﺎﻥ! ‪ -‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬‬

‫ﺑﻨﺎء ًﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻼﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺧﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥﻣﺎ ﺍﻧﻄﻠﻘﺖ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﻞ ﺻﻔﺮﺍء ﻭﺣﻤﺮﺍء ﻻﻣﻌﺔ ﻋﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﺪﺧﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﺳﻤﻴﺘﻬﻢﻓﻲ ﻟﺤﻈﺔ ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﻨﻴﺮﺍﻥ ‪ -‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻖ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺍﻟﻨﻴﺮﺍﻥ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻇﻬﺮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ .‬ﻫﻢ‬

‫ﺗﺴﻠﻖﺍﻷﺷﺠﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺗﻮﻣﺾ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺭﺍﺉﻊ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﻭﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﻔﺴﻴﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺳﻌﺔ‬

‫ﺣﺠﻢﻣﺘﺰﺍﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺧﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺴﺎﻗﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺿﻄﺮﺭﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻔﻴﻖ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ ﻭ‬

‫ﺃﺿﺤﻚﻭﺃﺭﻗﺺ ﻓﻲ ﻧﺸﻮﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺍً ﻭﻏﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻭﻫﻜﺬﺍ‬

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 ‫ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔﻭﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ!‬

‫ﺟﺎءﺭﺍﻛﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻭﻧﻈﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻞ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻟﻠﻜﺜﻴﺮﻳﻦ‬

‫ﺩﻗﺎﺉﻖ‪.‬ﺛﻢ ﺳﺄﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ‪ .‬ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺳﻴﺉﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺍﻃﺮﺡﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﺆﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺒﺎﺷﺮ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﻴﺐ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻘﻠﺖﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻧﺎﺭ‪ .‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺯﻋﺠﻪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﻴﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻭﻳﺠﺐ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬

‫ﺑﺴﺄﻝ؛ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺧﻄﺄﻱ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻱ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺯﻋﺎﺟﻪ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ‬

‫ﺳﺄﻝ‪:‬‬

‫"ﻛﻴﻒ ﺟﺎء؟"‬

‫ﺳﺆﺍﻝﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻻ ﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﻪ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ‪".‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ ﺗﺴﺎﻓﺮ ﺃﺑﻌﺪ ﻭﺃﺑﻌﺪ‪ .‬ﺫﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺎﻓﺔ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥﺍﻟﻤﺤﺮﻭﻕ ﻭﻭﻗﻒ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺳﻔﻞ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎ ﻫﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ؟"‬

‫"ﺍﻟﻔﺤﻢ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭﻱ"‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻂﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻟﻔﺤﺼﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺭﺃﻳﻪ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﻬﺎ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﺎ‬

‫ﻣﺮﺓﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﺛﻢ ﺫﻫﺐ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﻳﺜﻴﺮ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻣﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻬﺘﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺭﻣﺎﺩ‪ ،‬ﺭﻣﺎﺩﻱ ﻭﻧﺎﻋﻢ ﻭﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﻭ‬

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 ‫ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪--‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻤﺮ؛ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺮﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺗﻔﺎﺣﺎﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧﺮﺟﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍً؛ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎﺻﻐﻴﺮ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻭﺷﻬﻴﺘﻲ ﻧﺸﻄﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﺃﻣﻞ‪ .‬ﻫﻢ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﻧﻔﺠﺮﺕ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﻬﺎ ﻭﻓﺴﺪﺕ‪ .‬ﻣﺪﻟﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ؛ ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؛‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ‬

‫ﻣﻔﻴﺪﺓ‪،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻌﺔ ‪--.‬ﺭﺃﻳﺘﻪ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻻﺛﻨﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻲ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺣﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬

‫ﻓﻘﻂﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻤﺪﺣﻨﻲ ﻟﻤﺤﺎﻭﻟﺘﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺣﺴﻨﺖﺣﺎﻟﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻲ ﺣﺴﻨﺖ ﻧﻴﺘﻲ ﻭﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﺑﺠﺪ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﺴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺑﺘﻌﺪ ﻭﺗﺮﻛﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻣﺴﺘﺎء ﻋﻠﻰ‬

‫ﺭﻭﺍﻳﺔﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ :‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻋﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺎﺏ‬

‫ﺍﻹﻧﻬﻴﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪.‬ﻭﺫﻟﻚ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ ﻛﺸﻔﺖ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻦ ﺷﻐﻒ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‬

‫‪ --‬ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﻭﺍﻟﺤﺰﻥ ﻭﻏﻴﺮﻫﻤﺎ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱﺍﻛﺘﺸﻔﺘﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺨﻮﻑ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻓﻈﻴﻊ!‪--‬ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ‬

‫ﻟﻢﺗﻜﺘﺸﻔﻪ ﻗﻂ؛ ﻳﻤﻨﺤﻨﻲ ﻟﺤﻈﺎﺕ ﻣﻈﻠﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻔﺴﺪ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺗﻲ‪،‬‬

‫ﻳﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲﺃﺭﺗﻌﺶ ﻭﺃﺭﺗﻌﺪ ﻭﺃﺭﺗﻌﺪ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻹﻗﻨﺎﻉ‬

‫ﻓﻬﻮﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﺘﺸﻒ ﺍﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﺑﻌﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔﻬﻢ‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻣﻘﺘﻄﻒﻣﻦ ﻣﺬﻛﺮﺍﺕ ﺁﺩﻡ‬

‫ﺭﺑﻤﺎﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﺟﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻨﺎﻋﺘﻬﺎ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺒﺪﻻﺕ‪.‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﻠﻬﺎ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻮﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﻴﻮﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‬

‫ﻟﻬﺎﺳﺤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻋﺠﺐ‪ ،‬ﻟﻐﺰ‪ ،‬ﻓﺮﺡ؛ ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺒﻬﺠﺔ‬

‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺗﺠﺪ ﺯﻫﺮﺓ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺪﺍﻋﺒﻬﺎ ﻭﺗﺪﺍﻋﺒﻬﺎ ﻭﺗﺸﻤﻬﺎ‬

‫ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙﻣﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻜﺐ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺃﺳﻤﺎء ﻣﺤﺒﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺟﻨﻮﻥﺍﻷﻟﻮﺍﻥ‪ :‬ﺍﻟﺼﺨﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﻨﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺮﺍء‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻄﺤﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺍﻟﺸﺠﺮ ﺍﻟﺨﻀﺮﺍء‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء ﺍﻟﺰﺭﻗﺎء؛‬

‫ﻟﺆﻟﺆﺓﺍﻟﻔﺠﺮ‪ ،‬ﻇﻼﻝ ﺍﻷﺭﺟﻮﺍﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﺒﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺒﻲ‬

‫ﺟﺰﺭﺗﻄﻔﻮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻣﺰﻳﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻏﺮﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺣﺐ ﻳﺒﺤﺮ‬

‫ﻣﻦﺧﻼﻝ ﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﺴﺤﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﺰﻕ‪ ،‬ﺟﻮﺍﻫﺮ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﻮﻡ ﺗﺘﻸﻷ ﻓﻲ‬

‫ﻣﻀﻴﻌﺔﻟﻠﻔﻀﺎء ‪ -‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻷﻱ ﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻱ ﻗﻴﻤﺔ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ‬

‫ﺗﺮﻯ‪،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻷﻥ ﻟﻬﻢ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻼﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﺬﺍ ﻳﻜﻔﻴﻬﺎ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﺗﻔﻘﺪﻋﻘﻠﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻬﺪﺃ ﻭﺗﻈﻞ ﺳﺎﻛﻨﺔ‬

‫ﺑﻀﻊﺩﻗﺎﺉﻖ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺸﻬﺪﺍً ﻣﺮﻳﺤﺎً‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ‬

‫ﺇﺫﺍﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﺎ؛ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﺨﻠﻮﻕ ﺟﻤﻴﻞ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‬

‫‪ --‬ﺭﺷﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﻧﺤﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺘﺪﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﺭﺷﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﺫﻛﻲ‪ ،‬ﺭﺷﻴﻖ؛ ﻭ ﻟﻤﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺨﺮﺓ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻟﻮﻥ ﺭﺧﺎﻣﻲ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﻭﻣﺸﻤﺴﺔ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺭﺃﺳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮ ﻳﻤﻴﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻒ ﻭﺗﻈﻠﻞ ﻳﺪﻫﺎ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻬﺎ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺮﺍﻗﺐ‬

‫ﺗﺤﻠﻴﻖﻃﺎﺉﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء‪ ،‬ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻇﻬﺮﺍﻻﺛﻨﻴﻦ‪--.‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﻛﺐ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩ‬

‫ﻣﻬﺘﻤﺔﺑﻪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻓﻲ ﻗﺎﺉﻤﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻏﻴﺮﻣﺒﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﻣﻌﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺃﻱ ﺗﻤﻴﻴﺰ‪،‬‬

‫ﺗﺄﺧﺬﻫﻢﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻈﻨﻬﻢ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎً ﻛﻨﻮﺯﺍً‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‬

‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪﻫﻮ ﻣﻮﺿﻊ ﺗﺮﺣﻴﺐ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺟﺎء ﺍﻟﺒﺮﻭﻧﺘﻮﺻﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻴﻢ ﻳﺨﻄﻮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺴﻜﺮ‪ ،‬ﺍﻋﺘﺒﺮﺗﻪ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺍﻛﺘﺴﺎﺑﺎ ًﺍﻋﺘﺒﺮﺗﻪ ﻣﺼﻴﺒﺔ؛ ﻫﺬﻩ ﻋﻴﻨﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ‬

‫ﻋﺪﻡﺍﻻﻧﺴﺠﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺴﻮﺩ ﻧﻈﺮﺗﻨﺎ ﻟﻸﺷﻴﺎء‪ .‬ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ‬

‫ﻟﺘﺪﺟﻴﻨﻪ‪،‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﺪﻳﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﺴﻜﻦ ﻭﺍﻻﻧﺘﻘﺎﻝ‬

‫ﺧﺎﺭﺝ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺗﺮﻭﻳﻀﻪ ﻋﻦ ﻃﺮﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻭﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺔ‬

‫ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻥﺃﻟﻴﻒ ﺟﻴﺪ؛ ﻗﻠﺖ ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎً ﺃﻟﻴﻔﺎً ﻳﺒﻠﻎ ﺍﺭﺗﻔﺎﻋﻪ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍً ﻭﻋﺸﺮﻳﻦ ﻗﺪﻣﺎً ﻭﻃﻮﻟﻪ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻭﺛﻤﺎﻧﻴﻦ ﻗﺪﻣﺎً‬

‫ﻟﻦﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺷﻲء ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ‪ ،‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻣﻊ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ‬

‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﻳﺎ ﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻱ ﺿﺮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺠﻠﺲ ﻋﻠﻰ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝﻭﻫﺮﺳﻪ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻷﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺮﻯ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻋﻴﻨﻪ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺷﺎﺭﺩ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﻦ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻣﻊﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﻠﺒﻬﺎ ﻣﺘﻤﺴﻜﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﺶ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﺎء‬

‫ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺒﺪﺃ ﻣﺼﻨﻊ ﺃﻟﺒﺎﻥ ﺑﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﺍﺩﺕ ﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺳﺎﻋﺪﻓﻲ ﺣﻠﺒﻬﺎ؛ ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺨﺎﻃﺮﺓ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺻﺤﻴﺤﺎ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺃﻱ ﺳﻠﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺕ ﺭﻛﻮﺑﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ‬

‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﻤﺸﻬﺪ‪ .‬ﺛﻼﺛﻴﻦ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﻴﻦ ﻗﺪﻣﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺫﻳﻠﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺴﺘﻠﻘﻴﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ‬

‫ﺍﻷﺭﺽﻣﺜﻞ ﺷﺠﺮﺓ ﺳﻘﻄﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺗﺴﻠﻘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﺨﻄﺉﺎ؛ ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻻﻧﺤﺪﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﻠﺴﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻭﻣﻨﺨﻔﻀﺎً‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺟﺎءﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﺘﺆﺫﻱ ﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﻟﻮﻻﻱ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻫﻞﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺭﺍﺿﻴﺔ ﺍﻵﻥ؟ ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﻳﺮﺿﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺳﻮﻯ‬

‫ﺗﻮﺿﻴﺢ؛ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮﻳﺎﺕ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺘﺒﺮﺓ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺧﻄﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻦ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻫﻢ‪.‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺡ ﺍﻟﺼﺤﻴﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﺮﻑ ﺑﻬﺎ؛ ﻳﺠﺬﺑﻨﻲ؛ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ‬

‫ﺗﺄﺛﻴﺮﻫﺎ؛ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻌﻬﺎ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‬

‫ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪.‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎً‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﻧﻈﺮﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﺘﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻼﻕ‪ :‬ﻫﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕﺃﻧﻪ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺮﻭﻳﻀﻪ ﻭﺟﻌﻠﻪ ﻭﺩﻭﺩﺍً ﻓﻴﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻜﺎﻧﻪ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺮﻭﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣﻪ ﻟﺠﺴﺮ‪ .‬ﺍﺗﻀﺢ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‬

‫ﺗﻢﺗﺮﻭﻳﺾ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﻔﺎﻳﺔ ‪ -‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻬﺎ ‪ -‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ‬

‫ﻧﻈﺮﻳﺘﻬﺎ‪،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻓﺸﻠﺖ‪ :‬ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻀﻌﻪ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺻﺤﻴﺢ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺮﻭﺫﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻃﺊ ﻟﻴﻌﺒﺮ ﻋﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﺨﺮﺝ ﻭﺗﺒﻌﻪ‬

‫ﻟﻬﺎﺣﻮﻟﻬﺎ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺟﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﻟﻴﻔﺔ‪ .‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺑﺎﻗﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ ‪ .‬ﻛﻠﻬﻢ ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻮﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺎء‪ -‬ﺍﻷﺭﺑﻌﺎء ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺨﻤﻴﺲ ‪ -‬ﻭﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ :‬ﻛﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ‬

‫ﻭﻗﺖﻃﻮﻳﻞ ﻟﻠﺒﻘﺎء ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺍ‪ .‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺍً ﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺮﺣﺐ ﺑﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻌﺔ‪--‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ّﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﻈﻰ ﺑﺼﺤﺒﺔ‪--‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺧﻠﻘﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪--‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻪ‬

‫ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎءﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻬﻢ ﺳﺎﺣﺮﻭﻥ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺪﻳﻬﻢ‬

‫ﺃﻟﻄﻒﺍﻟﺨﻠﻖ ﻭﺃﻟﻄﻒ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻕ؛ ﺇﻧﻬﻢ ﻻ ﻳﺒﺪﻭﻥ ﺣﺎﻣﻀﻴﻦ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‬

‫ﻻﺗﺪﻋﻚ ﺗﺸﻌﺮ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺑﺄﻧﻚ ﺗﺘﻄﻔﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻢ ﻳﺒﺘﺴﻤﻮﻥ ﻟﻚ ﻭﻳﻬﺰﻭّﻥ‬

‫ﺫﻳﻠﻬﻢ‪،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﻢ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻢ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩ ﻟﻠﻤﺮﺡ ﺃﻭ‬

‫ﺭﺣﻠﺔﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺍﺣﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻬﻢ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻴﻮﻥ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺓﺍﻟﻤﺤﺘﺮﻣﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻛﻞ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻷﻳﺎﻡ ﻗﻀﻴﻨﺎ ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺗﺎ ًﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﻀﻰ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺣﻴﺪ!ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻻ‪ .‬ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎ ﺳﺮﺏ ﻣﻨﻬﻢ‬

‫ﺣﻮﺍﻟﻲ‪ -‬ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺼﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﺃﻓﺪﻧﺔ ‪ -‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﻋﺪﻫﺎ؛‬

‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺗﻘﻒ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺨﺮﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﻭﺗﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍء‬

‫ﺍﻻﻣﺘﺪﺍﺩﻫﻮ ﻣﺮﻗﺶ ﻭﻣﺘﻨﺎﺛﺮ ﻭﻣﺒﻬﺞ ﺑﺎﻷﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻔﺘﻴﺶ‬

‫ﻟﻤﻌﺎﻥﻭﻭﻣﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺘﻤﻮﺝ ﺑﺎﻟﺨﻄﻮﻁ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻌﺘﻘﺪ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﺤﻴﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻓﻘﻂ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؛ ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻋﻮﺍﺻﻒ ﻣﺆﻧﺲ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻄﻴﻮﺭﻭﺍﻷﻋﺎﺻﻴﺮ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻷﺟﻨﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻨﺎﻧﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻀﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ‬

‫ﻓﻲﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻀﺠﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﻳﺸﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺗﻮﻫﺞ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺍﻷﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻨﺔ‬

‫ﻓﻜﺮﻓﻲ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺘﻐﻤﺾ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻗﻤﻨﺎ ﺑﺮﺣﻼﺕ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺟﺰءﺍً ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ؛‬

‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﻠﻬﺎ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً؛ ﻭﻟﺬﺍ ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻓﺮ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ‬

‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻴﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻬﺪ ﻣﻬﻴﺒﺎً ‪ -‬ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﺷﻲء‬

‫ﻣﺜﻞﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺣﺔ ﺃﺭﻛﺐ ﻧﻤﺮﺍً ﺃﻭ ﻧﻤﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻧﺎﻋﻤﺔﻭﻟﻬﺎ ﻇﻬﺮ ﻣﺴﺘﺪﻳﺮ ﻳﻨﺎﺳﺒﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻤﺴﺎﻓﺎﺕ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻟﻠﻤﻨﺎﻇﺮ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﺃﺭﻛﺐ‬

‫ﻓﻴﻞ‪.‬ﻳﺮﻓﻌﻨﻲ ﺑﺠﺬﻋﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﺰﻭﻝ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻲ؛‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻧﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﻳﻦ ﻟﻠﺘﺨﻴﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠﻠﺲ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﺰﻟﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻔﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻄﻴﻮﺭﻭﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﻛﻠﻬﺎ ﻭﺩﻳﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺑﻌﻀﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺨﻼﻓﺎﺕﺣﻮﻝ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‪ .‬ﻛﻠﻬﻢ ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺛﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻠﻬﻢ ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺛﻮﻥ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻳﺠﺐﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﻐﺔ ﺃﺟﻨﺒﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻓﻬﻢ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﻘﻮﻟﻮﻧﻬﺎ؛ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‬

‫ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎًﻣﺎ ﻳﻔﻬﻤﻮﻧﻨﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺩ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﺐ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻄﻂ‬

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 ‫ﻓﻴﻞ‪.‬ﻳﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺨﺠﻞ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﻈﻬﺮ ﺃﻧﻬﻢ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺇﺷﺮﺍﻗﺎ ﻣﻨﻲ‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ‪،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺉﻴﺴﻴﺔ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻲ ‪ -‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﻮﻱ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺗﻜﻮﻥﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﻋﺪﺩﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﻌﻠﻢ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺃﻭﻻ‪ً.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺟﺎﻫﻼ ًﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻳﻀﺎﻳﻘﻨﻲ ﻷﻧﻪ‪،‬‬

‫ﻣﻊﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺪﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺫﻛﻴﺎً ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻷﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺍً ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺍﻟﻤﻴﺎﻩ ﺗﺘﺪﻓﻖ ﺻﻌﻮﺩﺍ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻣﺎﻧﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺟﺮﺑﺖ‬

‫ﻭﺟﺮﺑﺖﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﺼﻌﺪ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﻓﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪.‬ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺣﻮﺽ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺎﺣﺔ ﻻ ﻳﺠﻒ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻫﻮﻣﺎ ﺳﻴﺤﺪﺙ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﺎﻩ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﻦﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺇﺛﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺠﺮﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﻌﻠﻴﺔ؛ ﺛﻢ ﺍﻧﺖ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ؛ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ‬

‫ﺇﺫﺍﺍﻋﺘﻤﺪﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﺨﻤﻴﻦ ﻭﺍﻟﻈﻦ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺨﻤﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻦ ﺗﺤﺼﻞ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‬

‫ﻣﺘﻌﻠﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺾﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﻛﺘﺸﺎﻓﻬﺎ؛ ﻟﻜﻨﻚ ﻟﻦ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺃﻧﻚ ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻈﻦﻭﺍﻟﻈﻦ‪ :‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﺼﺒﺮ ﻭﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‬

‫ﺗﺠﺮﻳﺐﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﻜﺘﺸﻒ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻫﻮ‬

‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﻤﺘﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻮ ﻳﺠﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻣﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻛﺘﺸﺎﻓﻪ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﻤﻼ‪ ً.‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﺤﺎﻭﻝ‬

‫ﺇﻥﺍﻛﺘﺸﺎﻑ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻭﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻛﺘﺸﺎﻓﻪ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻣﺜﻴﺮ ﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﻣﺜﻞ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺨﺮﻭﺝﻭﺍﻻﻛﺘﺸﺎﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺳﺮ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﻤﺎء ﻛﻨﺰﺍً ﺣﺘﻰ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ؛ ﺛﻢ ﺫﻫﺐ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﺱ‬

‫ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺨﺴﺎﺭﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺠﺮﺑﺔﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺨﺸﺐ ﻳﺴﺒﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻷﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻳﺶ‪ ،‬ﻭ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ؛ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻷﺩﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﺍﻛﻤﻴﺔ ﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻓﺎﻋﻠﻢﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺨﺮﺓ ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﺴﺒﺢ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺤﻤﻞ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺮﻓﺔ‬

‫ﻷﻧﻪﻻ ﺗﻮﺟﺪ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻹﺛﺒﺎﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺳﺄﺟﺪ ﺃ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ‪--‬ﺛﻢ ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﺬﻫﺐ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻹﺛﺎﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺗﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﺣﺰﻳﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﺑﻮﺍﺳﻄﺔ‬

‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺃﻛﺘﺸﻒ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻳﺪ‬

‫ﺍﻹﺛﺎﺭﺓ‪،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺍﻹﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﺟﺪﺍً! ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡﻟﻠﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻬﻢ ﻣﺎ ﺧﻠﻘﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻟﻠﺒﺤﺚﻋﻦ ﺃﺳﺮﺍﺭ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻊ ﻭﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍ ﻭﺷﻜﺮﺍ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻄﻲﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﻻﺑﺘﻜﺎﺭﻩ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺷﻴﺎء ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺓ ﻝ‬

‫ﺗﻌﻠﻢﺑﻌﺪ‪--‬ﺁﻣﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ؛ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻻﻗﺘﺼﺎﺩ ﻭﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺴﺮﻉ‬

‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﺴﺘﻤﺮ ﻷﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﻭﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ‪ .‬ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺈﻟﻘﺎء ﺃ‬

‫ﺭﻳﺸﺔﺗﻄﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ﻭﺗﺨﺘﻔﻲ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻷﻧﻈﺎﺭ؛ ﺛﻢ ﺗﺮﻣﻲ‬

‫ﻳﺼﻞﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﺮﺍﺏ ﻭﻻ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﻨﺰﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻭ‬

‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﺗﺴﺎءﻝ ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻫﻮ؟ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‬

‫ﻻﻳﻨﺰﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ‬

‫ﻭﻫﻢ‪.‬ﺃﻋﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﻨﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺃﻱ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ‬

‫ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻳﺸﺔ‪،‬ﻗﺪ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺭﺓ؛ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺇﺛﺒﺎﺕ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ‪ ،‬ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻓﻘﻂ‬

‫ﺇﺛﺒﺎﺕﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺪﻫﻤﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻵﺧﺮ ﻣﺰﻳﻒ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻉ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﻳﺄﺧﺬﻩ‬

‫ﺧﻴﺎﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﻦﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻫﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﻮﻡ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺪﻭﻡ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ‬

‫ﺑﻌﺾﻣﻦ ﺃﻓﻀﻠﻬﺎ ﻳﺬﻭﺏ ﻭﻳﻬﺒﻂ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺮء ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺬﻭﺏ‪،‬‬

‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦﺃﻥ ﺗﺬﻭﺏ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﻬﺎ؛ ﻭﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺬﻭﺏ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺬﻭﺏ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﻬﺎ ﺑﻨﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‬

‫ﻟﻴﻠﺔ‪.‬ﺳﻴﺄﺗﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺤﺰﻥ ‪ -‬ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﻠﺲ ﻛﻞ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ‬

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 ‫ﻭﺃﻧﻈﺮﺇﻟﻴﻬﻢ ﻣﺎ ﺩﻣﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺴﻬﺮ؛ ﻭﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﺑﻬﺮ ﻫﺆﻻء‬

‫ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻮﻝﺍﻟﻤﺘﻸﻟﺉﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻳﺘﻢ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺎﻃﻬﺎ ﺑﻤﺮﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬

‫ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊﺑﻤﺨﻴﻠﺘﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻴﺪ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻷﻟﻮﻑ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍء ﻭ‬

‫ﺃﺟﻌﻠﻬﺎﺗﺘﺄﻟﻖ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺿﺎﻋﻔﻬﺎ ﺑﻀﺒﺎﺏ ﺩﻣﻮﻋﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪﺍﻟﺴﻘﻮﻁ‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺍء‪ ،‬ﺃﺟﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺤﺪﻳﻘﺔ ﺣﻠﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻤﻴﻼ‪،‬‬

‫ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺳﺎﺣﺮ؛ ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺿﺎﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭ‬

‫ﻟﻦﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﺿﺎﻋﺖﺍﻟﺠﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻲ ﻭﺟﺪﺗﻪ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺭﺍﺿﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻳﺤﺒﻨﻲ ﻛﻤﺎ‬

‫ﺑﻘﺪﺭﻣﺎ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ؛ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﺑﻜﻞ ﻗﻮﺓ ﻋﺎﻃﻔﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﺔ‪،‬ﻭﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺐ ﻟﺸﺒﺎﺑﻲ ﻭﺟﻨﺴﻲ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺳﺄﻟﺖ‬

‫ﻧﻔﺴﻲﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﺟﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻫﺘﻢ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﺣﻘﺎً‬

‫ﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ؛ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻧﺘﺎﺟﺎً‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻄﻖﻭﺍﻹﺣﺼﺎﺉﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺣﺐ ﺍﻟﻤﺮء ﻟﻠﺰﻭﺍﺣﻒ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ ﻭ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ‪.‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻄﻴﻮﺭ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ‬

‫ﺃﻏﻨﻴﺘﻬﻢ؛ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺁﺩﻡ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﻏﻨﺎﺉﻪ‪ ،‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻟﻴﺲﻫﺬﺍ؛ ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﻏﻨﻰ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﺼﺎﻟﺢ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ .‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‬

‫ﺃﻃﻠﺐﻣﻨﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻐﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺐ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻌﻠﻢ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ‬

‫ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﻔﺴﺪ ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻴﺐ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ﻳﻬﻢ؛ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ‬

‫ﺗﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡﻟﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻴﺐ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻣﻠﻮﻣﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﻄﻮﻋﻪ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻫﻮ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‬

‫ﻻﻳﺼﻨﻌﻪ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻪ؛ ﻓﻬﻮ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺧﻠﻘﻪ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻏﺮﺽ ﺣﻜﻴﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ‪ .‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺳﻮﻑ ﻳﺘﻄﻮﺭ‬

‫ﻣﻊﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻔﺎﺟﺉﺎً؛ ﻭﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻋﺠﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻣﺮﻧﺎ؛ ﻫﻮ‬

‫ﺑﺨﻴﺮﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﻔﺎﻳﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻫﻮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻴﺲﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﻃﺮﻗﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﻳﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺮﺍﻋﻴﺔ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺮﻗﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ‪ .‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﻧﻘﺺ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺟﻴﺪﺍﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﻔﺎﻳﺔ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺘﺤﺴﻦ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻧﻨﻲﻻ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﻣﻬﻨﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺤﻤﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﺪﺍﺧﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺨﻔﻴﻪ‬

‫ﻣﻨﻲ‪.‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺃﻟﻤﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﻭﺇﻻ ﻓﻬﻮ ﺻﺮﻳﺢ ﻭﺻﺮﻳﺢ ﻣﻌﻲ‪،‬‬

‫ﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﺒﻘﻲ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻋﻨﻲ ﺳﻮﻯ ﻫﺬﺍ‪ .‬ﻭﻳﺤﺰﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ‬

‫ﻳﺠﺐﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ّﺳﺮ ﻣﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ ًﻳﻔﺴﺪ ﻋﻠﻲ ّﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮ‬

‫ﻣﻨﻪﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺧﺮﺟﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﺰﻋﺠﻨﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪،‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻫﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺧﻼﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﻠﻴﺉﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻴﻀﺎﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎﻻ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﺗﻌﻠﻴﻤﻪ‪ ،‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﻓﻬﻮ ﻣﺘﻌﻠﻢ ﺫﺍﺗﻴﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻌﺮﻑ ﺣﻘﺎً ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء‪،‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻨﻬﻢﻟﻴﺴﻮﺍ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻴﺲﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﻓﺮﻭﺳﺘﻪ ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﻋﻠﻲ ّﻭﻟﻜﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻟﻮﻣﻪ؛ ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺧﺼﻮﺻﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‪،‬‬

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 ‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻤﺎﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻷﻗﻮﻝ‬

‫ﻋﻠﻴﻪﻫﻠﻜﺖ ﺃﻭﻻ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺧﺼﻮﺻﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‪،‬‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﻔﻀﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻣﺎﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﺫﻥﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ؟ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻣﺬﻛﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻳﻔﻜﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﻌﻤﻖ ﻫﻮ ﺟﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ‬

‫ﺑﺪﻭﻧﻪ‪.‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻀﺮﺑﻨﻲ ﻭﻳﺴﻲء ﺇﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺘﻤﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ‬

‫ﻟﻪ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻧﻪ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺟﻨﺲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻧﻪﻗﻮﻱ ﻭﻭﺳﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﻌﺠﺐ ﺑﻪ ﻭ‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎﻓﺨﻮﺭ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻫﻮ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻭﺍﺿﺤﺎً ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ؛ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﻄﺎﻣﺎً ﻷﺣﺒﺒﺘﻪ؛‬

‫ﻭﺃﻋﻤﻞﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﺒﺪ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺩﻋﻮ ﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭ‬

‫ﺷﺎﻫﺪﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺳﺮﻳﺮﻩ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻣﺖ‪.‬‬

‫ﻧﻌﻢ‪،‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻣﻠﻜﻲ ﻭﻫﻮ ﺭﺟﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻻﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﺳﺒﺐ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﺬﺍ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻭﻻً‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬ﺇﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻧﺘﺎﺟﺎ ًﻟﻠﻌﻘﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻨﻄﻖ‬

‫ﺇﺣﺼﺎﺉﻴﺎﺕ‪.‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﺄﺗﻲ ﻓﻘﻂ ‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻳﻦ ‪ -‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔﺴﺮ‬

‫ﺑﺤﺪﺫﺍﺗﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻫﺬﺍﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪﻩ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﻝ ﻣﻦ ﻓﺤﺺ‬

‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻷﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻳﺘﺒﻴﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻬﻠﻲ ﻭﻗﻠﺔ ﺧﺒﺮﺗﻲ‬

‫ﻟﻢﺗﺤﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻖ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺇﻧﻬﺎﺻﻼﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺭﻏﺒﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻲ ﻧﺘﺠﺎﻭﺯ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‬

‫ﻣﻌﺎً‪ -‬ﺷﻮﻕ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻤﻮﺕ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﺳﻴﺨﺘﻔﻲ‬

‫ﻟﻬﺎﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠﺐ ﻛﻞ ﺯﻭﺟﺔ ﺗﺤﺒﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺑﺪ ﺍﻵﺑﺪﻳﻦ؛‬

‫ﻓﻴﺪﻋﻰﺑﺎﺳﻤﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺣﺪﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺬﻫﺐ ﺃﻭﻻ‪ ً،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺩﻋﻮ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺃﻧﺎ؛ ﻝ‬

‫ﺇﻧﻪﻗﻮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺿﻌﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺴﺖ ﺿﺮﻭﺭﻳﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻪ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‬

‫‪ --‬ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺑﺪﻭﻧﻪ ﻟﻦ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ؛ ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ؟ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺼﻼﺓ‬

‫ﻫﻮﺃﻳﻀﺎً ﺧﺎﻟﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻦ ﻳﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺪﻡ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﻋﺮﻗﻲ‬

‫ﻣﺘﻮﺍﺻﻞ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺟﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ؛ ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺟﺔ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮﺓ ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ‬

‫ﻣﻌﺎﺩ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻗﺒﺮ ﺣﻮﺍء‬

‫ﺁﺩﻡ‪:‬ﺃﻳﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻋﺪﻥ‪.‬‬

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