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 ‫اﺳﻢ اﻟﻜﺘﺎب‪ :‬ﺗﻌﺎوﻳﺬ )‪ (3‬ﺗﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﻣﺎﻧﺪﻳﻼ‪.‬‬
‫اﺳﻢ اﻟﻜﺎﺗﺐ‪ :‬أﺣﻤﺪ زﻛﻲ‪.‬‬
‫اﻟﺘﺪﻗﻴﻖ اﻟﻠﻐﻮي‪ :‬أﺣﻤﺪ زﻛﻲ‪.‬‬
‫اﻟﺘﻨﺴﻴﻖ واﻹﺧﺮاج اﻟﻔﻨﻲ‪ :‬أﺣﻤﺪ زﻛﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺼﻤﻴﻢ اﻟﻐﻼف‪ :‬ﻣﺤﻤﺪ ﻋﻠﻲ‪.‬‬
‫رﻗﻢ اﻹﻳﺪاع‪2021/16880 :‬‬
‫اﻟﺘﺮﻗﻴﻢ اﻟﺪوﻟﻲ‪978-977-785-2948 :‬‬

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‫ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺃﺷﻛﺎﻝ ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺓ ﻟﻠﺭﻋﺏ ﻣﻥ ﺣﻭﻟﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﻣﺛﻼ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺷﻌﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺭﻫﻳﺏ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﻼﺯﻣﻙ ﻟﻳﻼ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺗﻌﺑﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺣﻣﺎﻡ ﺑﻣﺛﺎﻧﺔ ﻣﻣﺗﻠﺋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺗﺿﻁﺭ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻣﺭﻭﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺁﺓ ﺍﻟﻛﺑﻳﺭﺓ‪ ..‬ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺗﺿﻁﺭﺏ ﺿﺭﺑﺎﺕ ﻗﻠﺑﻙ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻭﺷﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺻﺭﺍﺥ ﻫﻠﻌﺎ ﻓﺗﻧﺗﻬﻰ ﻣﻣﺎ ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﺳﺭﻳﻌﺎ ﻟﺗﻌﻭﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻓﺭﺍﺷﻙ ﺍﻵﻣﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺭﻋﺏ ﺗﻘﻠﻳﺩﻱ ﻣﺄﻟﻭﻑ ﻭﻣﻌﺭﻭﻑ ﻭﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻋﻧﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺅﻟﻔﻭﻥ ﻭﺍﻷﺩﺑﺎء‪ ..‬ﻭﻫﻧﺎ ﻳﺑﺩﺃ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﻳﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺷﻳﺎﻁﻳﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻷﺷﻳﺎء ﺍﻟﺗﻰ ﺗﺧﺗﺑﻰء ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻅﻼﻡ ﺑﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻬﻡ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻲ ﻭﻻ ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺗﺭﻳﺩ ﺑﻙ ﺍﻟﺷﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻳﺱ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺭﻋﺏ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻧﺭﻳﺩﻩ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺓ‪ ..‬ﺭﻋﺏ ﺍﻻﺷﺑﺎﺡ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻭﺣﻭﺵ ﻣﺛﻳﺭ ﻭﻟﻁﻳﻑ ﻭﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻗﺩ ﺻﺎﺭ ﻣﻣﻼ‪ ..‬ﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻋﻧﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺻﺎﺭ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻳﺷﺑﻪ ﻗﺻﺹ ﺍﻷﻁﻔﺎﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻥ ﻧﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻋﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﺻﺹ‪ ..‬ﺳﻭﻑ ﻧﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻋﻥ ﻗﺻﺹ ﻣﺧﻳﻔﺔ‬
‫ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺣﺩﺙ‪ ..‬ﻗﺻﺹ ﺣﺩﺛﺕ ﺣﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻷﺷﺧﺎﺹ ﻋﺎﻧﻭﺍ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺧﻭﻑ ﺍﻟﺧﺎﻡ ﻛﻣﺎ ﺧﻠﻘﻪ ﷲ‪ ..‬ﺧﻭﻑ ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺗﺧﻳﻝ ﺃﺳﺑﺎﺑﻪ‪..‬‬

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‫ﺍﻟﺧﻭﻑ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﺿﺭﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺏ ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺓ ﻭﻳﺣﺗﻭﻳﻪ ﺑﻘﺑﺿﺔ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﻻ‬
‫ﻓﻛﺎﻙ ﻣﻧﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﺗﺭﻙ ﺑﻳﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﺻﺹ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﻠﻬﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺣﻛﻳﻬﺎ ﺃﺻﺣﺎﺑﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻥ ﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺳﺄﻋﺭﺽ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﺗﺟﺎﺭﺏ‪ ..‬ﻗﺻﺹ ﺃﺗﺕ ﻣﻥ ﻗﻠﺏ‬
‫ﻋﻘﻭﻝ ﻳﻁﻠﻖ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﻡ ﻣﺟﺎﺯﺍ ﺃﻧﻬﻡ )ﻣﺟﺎﻧﻳﻥ(‪ ..‬ﻻ ﺗﻌﻠﻡ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻧﻭﺍ‬
‫ﺣﻘﺎ ﻣﺟﺎﻧﻳﻥ ﺃﻡ ﻣﺭﻭﺍ ﺑﺗﺟﺎﺭﺏ ﻣﺭﻭﻋﺔ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺻﺩﻗﻬﻡ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺃﺣﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧﺕ ﺳﻭﻑ ﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﺣﻛﻣﺎ‪ ..‬ﺇﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺻﺩﻗﻬﻡ ﻭﺇﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻬﻡ‬
‫ﻣﺟﺎﻧﻳﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻻﺧﺗﻳﺎﺭ ﻟﻙ!‬
‫ﺃﻣﺎ ﻋﻥ ﻛﻳﻔﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺣﺻﻭﻝ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺩﻋﻧﻲ ﺃﺣﻛﻳﻬﺎ ﻟﻙ ﻳﻭﻣﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻗﺻﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻧﻔﺻﻠﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻵﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻗﻠﺏ ﺍﻟﺻﻔﺣﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻧﻅﺭ ﻟﻠﻳﺳﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺗﻣﺗﻊ ﺑﻣﺎ ﻫﻭ ﻗﺎﺩﻡ!‬

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‫ﻳﺣﻛﻳﻬﺎ‪ :‬ﺷﺧﺹ ﺳﻠﻳﻡ!‬

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 ‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﻏﺭﻳﺑﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻟﻭ ﺍﺳﺗﻁﻌﺕ‬
‫ﻓﻳﺟﺏ ﻋﻠﻳﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺻﻭﺏ ﻧﺣﻭ ﺭﺃﺳﻰ ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺓ ﻭﻻ ﺗﺗﺭﺩﺩ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺇﻁﻼﻕ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺭ!‬
‫ﺃﻁﻠﻖ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺭ ﻓﻭﺭﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻣﻧﺗﺻﻑ ﺍﻟﺭﺃﺱ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻯ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﻣﻧﺎﺳﺑﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻙ‪ ..‬ﻭﻻ ﺗﻘﻠﻖ ﺑﺷﺄﻧﻰ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻹﺣﺳﺎﺱ ﺑﺎﻷﻟﻡ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺳﻳﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﻟﺑﺿﻊ‬
‫ﻟﺣﻅﺎﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺃﺗﻣﻧﻰ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺳﺄﻛﻭﻥ ﻗﺩ ﻏﺑﺕ ﻋﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺩﻧﻳﺎ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺗﻣﺎﻣﺎ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺣﺩﺙ!‬
‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﻡ ﺗﺣﻁﻡ ﺟﻣﺟﻣﺗﻰ ﺗﺣﺕ ﻭﻁﺄﺓ ﺍﻟﺭﺻﺎﺻﺔ ﻓﻅﻳﻊ‬
‫ﻭﺭﻫﻳﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺃﻓﺿﻝ ﺍﻷﺷﻳﺎء ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺋﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺻﺩﻗﻧﻰ!‬
‫ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﻓﻅﻳﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺕ ﺳﻭﻑ ﺗﻘﺩﻡ ﻟﻰ ﺧﺩﻣﺔ‬
‫ﻛﺑﻳﺭﺓ ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺗﺧﻳﻝ ﻣﺩﻯ ﻋﻅﻣﺗﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺕ ﺑﺭﺻﺎﺻﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﺃﺱ ﺃﻓﺿﻝ ﺑﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﺟﺩﺍ ﻣﻥ ﻛﻝ ﺍﻟﺑﺩﺍﺋﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻁﺭﻭﺣﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻰ ﺣﺎﻟﻳﺎ!‬
‫ﻟﻛﻰ ﺗﻔﻬﻡ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻰء ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺎﺣﺩﺙ ﻟﻰ ﻗﺩ ﺣﺩﺙ‬
‫ﻣﻧﺫ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻣﻧﺫ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺑﺎﻟﺗﺣﺩﻳﺩ ﻛﻳﻑ ﺃﻧﻘﻝ ﻟﻙ ﺗﺟﺭﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻳﻝ ﻫﺫﻩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻭ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﺑﺩﺍﻳﺔ ﻣﻧﺫ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﻷﻋﻭﺍﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻷﺣﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺑﻁﺑﻳﻌﺔ ﻋﻣﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻳﺑﺔ؛ ﺇﺫ ﺃﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻋﻣﻝ‪) :‬ﺷﺧﺻﺎ ﺳﻠﻳﻣﺎ(!‬
‫ﺃﻯ ﺃﻧﻰ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻟﺷﺭﻛﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﺩﻭﻳﺔ ﻭﺃﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﺩﻭﻳﺔ ﺗﺟﺭﻳﺑﻳﺔ ﺟﺩﻳﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻛﻰ ﻳﺗﻡ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺁﺛﺎﺭﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻧﺑﻳﺔ ﻋﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻘﺎﺑﻝ ﺃﺣﺻﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺎﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻧﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺎﺭ ﺛﻡ ﺃﻓﺣﺹ ﺿﻐﻁ ﺍﻟﺩﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﻛﻭﻟﻳﺳﺗﺭﻭﻝ ﻭﻭﻅﺎﺋﻑ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﻠﻰ ﻭﺍﻟﻛﺑﺩ ﻭﻛﻝ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺷﻳﺎء‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻫﺗﻡ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﺻﻑ ﻟﻬﻡ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﻪ ﺑﺩﻗﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺛﻼ ﺃﺧﺑﺭﻫﻡ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺻﺩﺍﻉ ﺃﻭ ﻏﺛﻳﺎﻥ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻘﺩﺍﻥ ﺷﻬﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻡ‬
‫ﻳﺩﻭﻧﻭﻥ ﻛﻝ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺧﻠﻔﻰ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻭ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻗﻭﻝ ﻛﻼﻣﺎ ﻣﻘﺩﺳﺎ!‬
‫ﻛﻳﻑ ﻳﺛﻖ ﻫﺅﻻء ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ ﻓﻰ ﻛﻼﻣﻰ ؟‬
‫ﻁﺑﻌﺎ ﻷﻧﻰ ﻟﺳﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩ!‬
‫ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭﻭﻥ ﻣﺛﻠﻰ ﻳﻌﻣﻠﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﻣﻬﻧﺔ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻭﻫﺅﻻء ﺍﻷﻁﺑﺎء ﻳﺳﺗﺑﻌﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﻥ ﻳﺷﻛﻭﻥ ﺑﻛﺫﺑﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻭﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﻠﻳﺱ ﻣﻥ ﻣﺻﻠﺣﺗﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻛﺫﺏ ﻫﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ!‬
‫ﺛﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﺟﻪ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻭﻡ ﻟﻌﻣﻠﻲ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻁﻠﺑﻭﺍ ﻣﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﺿﻭﺭ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﻭﻣﺎ ﺭﻣﺎﺩﻳﺎ ﻛﺋﻳﺑﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻳﺱ ﺣﺎﺭﺍ ﺟﺩﺍ ﻭﻟﻳﺱ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺍ ﺃﻳﺿﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅﺕ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﻭﺕ ﻏﺭﺍﺏ ﻳﻧﻌﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﺎﻓﺫﺗﻲ ﻭﻳﻧﻅﺭ ﻧﺣﻭﻱ ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻻﻧﺯﻋﺎﺝ ﻷﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻧﺫﻳﺭ ﺳﻭء ﻻ ﺷﻙ ﻓﻳﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺟﺎﻫﻠﺕ ﻧﻅﺭﺍﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺻﻭﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﻣﺯﻋﺞ ﻭﻧﻬﺿﺕ ﺛﻡ ﺍﻏﺗﺳﻠﺕ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺗﺟﻬﺕ ﻧﺣﻭ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺷﺄﺓ ﺍﻟﻁﺑﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻰ ﺗﺧﻁﻑ ﺍﻷﻧﻔﺎﺱ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺧﺎﺭﺝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺑﻧﻰ ﺯﺟﺎﺟﻲ ﻋﻣﻼﻕ ﻳﺣﺗﻭﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍﺧﻠﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺭﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻭﻡ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻁﺏ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺧﺎﺭﺟﻳﺔ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻏﺭﺍﺏ ﺁﺧﺭ ﻳﺗﻘﺎﻓﺯ ﺧﻠﻔﻲ‬
‫ﻳﻧﻌﻖ ﻭﻳﻧﻅﺭ ﻟﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﻫﻭ ﻧﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﺍﺏ؟‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﻫﻭ ﻧﺫﻳﺭ ﺷﺅﻡ ﻓﻌﻼ؟‬
‫ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺭﺓ ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﺇﺣﺩﻯ ﺍﻟﻌﺭﺍﻓﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻐﺟﺭﻳﺎﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻁﺎﻟﻌﻲ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﺳﺗﺧﺩﻡ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﺭﻭﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺩﺕ ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻗﺎ ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺓ ﺗﺣﻣﻝ ﺷﻛﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﺭﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﻗﺎﻟﺕ ﻟﻰ ﻭﻭﻗﺗﻬﺎ ﺣﺫﺭﺗﻧﻲ‪ ..‬ﺇﻥ ﻁﺎﺋﺭ ﺍﻟﺣﻅ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﺍﺏ!‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺣﻛﻣﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻭﺩ ﺃﺩﺭﺍﺟﻲ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻟﻠﻌﻣﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻛﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺣﻲ ﺍﻟﺧﺭﺍﻓﺎﺕ ﺟﺎﻧﺑﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﻋﻣﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻭ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻋﻧﺩ ﺍﺣﺗﻳﺎﺟﻬﻡ ﻟﻲ ﻓﻠﻥ ﺃﻛﻭﻥ ﺃﻫﻼ ﻟﻠﺛﻘﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺃﻛﻣﻠﺕ ﻁﺭﻳﻘﻲ ﺭﻏﻡ ﻧﻌﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﺻﺎﺭﺥ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﺗﺎﺑﻌﻧﻲ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻳﻧﻳﻪ ﻣﻥ ﺑﻌﻳﺩ ﺛﻡ ﻁﺎﺭ ﻻ ﻳﻠﻭﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻲء!‬
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‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺟﺎﻟﺳﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺟﺭﺓ ﺍﻻﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭ ﺃﻧﻅﺭ ﻟﻠﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪ ..‬ﺍﻟﺳﺎﻋﺔ ‪10:15‬‬
‫ﺻﺑﺎﺣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﺳﻭﻑ ﺃﺣﺻﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻣﻭﺍﻝ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻳﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺧﻼﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺷﺎﺭﻛﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺗﺟﺎﺭﺏ ﺍﻟﻣﺧﺩﺭﺍﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺣﺳﻥ ﺣﻅﻲ ﺇﺫﻥ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻣﻊ ﻟﻬﻼﻭﺱ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﻭﺻﺩﻓﺔ‬
‫ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﺳﺧﻳﻑ!‬
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 ‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺗﺎﺩ ﺃﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﻌﺭﻓﺔ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﻌﺎﻟﺞ ﺑﺎﻟﺿﺑﻁ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻬﻡ ﻳﺧﺑﺭﻭﻧﻧﻰ ﺑﻌﺩﻫﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻝ ﺣﺎﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺑﺭﻭﻧﻰ ﻋﻥ ﻧﻭﻉ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻧﺎﻭﻟﻪ ﺃﺻﻼ!‬
‫ﺃﺧﺑﺭﻭﻧﻲ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺻﺑﺎﺡ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺗﻧﺎﻭﻟﺗﻪ ﺗﻭﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺎﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺫﺍﺕ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ )ﻧﻔﺳﻲ(‪ ،‬ﺗﻬﺩﻑ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﺳﺭﻳﻊ ﻭﻅﺎﺋﻑ ﺍﻟﻣﺦ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺳﺭﻳﻊ ﻭﻅﺎﺋﻑ ﺍﻟﻣﺦ!‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﻓﻬﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﻧﻰ ﺟﻳﺩﺍ ﻟﻛﻧﻰ ﺃﻭﻣﺄﺕ ﺑﺭﺃﺳﻰ ﻋﻼﻣﺔ ﺃﻧﻰ ﻓﻬﻣﺕ ﻛﻝ‬
‫ﺷﻰء ﻭﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺷﻰء ﺭﺍﺋﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺷﻁﺎﺋﺭ ﺍﻟﺳﺟﻖ ﺑﻣﺟﺭﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻧﺗﻬﺎء ﻣﻥ ﻛﻝ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻬﺭﺍء!‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺑﻖ ﻟﻡ ﺗﻔﻌﻝ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﺩﻭﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺍﺧﺗﺑﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‬
‫ﺿﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﺳﺑﺏ ﺃﻱ ﺩﻭﺍء ﺿﺭﺭﺍ ﻣﻠﻣﻭﺳﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻁﺑﻌﺎ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﺩﻭﻳﺔ ﺣﻣﻠﺕ ﺁﺛﺎﺭﺍ ﺟﺎﻧﺑﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﺷﻰء‬
‫ﻣﺯﻋﺞ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﻁﻔﺢ ﺍﻟﺟﻠﺩﻯ ﻻ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻹﻣﺳﺎﻙ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻹﺳﻬﺎﻝ!‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﺑﺩﺍﻳﺔ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﻭﻗﻊ ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻹﺛﺎﺭﺓ‪..‬‬

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‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺣﻭﻝ ﻟﻣﺎ ﻳﺷﺑﻪ ﺍﻟﺭﺟﻝ ﺍﻷﺧﺿﺭ ﻣﺛﻼ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺗﻔﻰ ﺃﻭ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﺣﺻﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺿﺔ ﻋﻧﻛﺑﻭﺕ ﻷﺻﻳﺭ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻟﺭﺟﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻧﻛﺑﻭﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻳﻧﺗﻬﻰ ﺩﺍﺋﻣﺎ ﺑﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﻣﺟﻣﻭﻋﺎﺕ ﺩﻭﺍﺋﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺗﺳﺑﺏ ﺍﻹﺳﻬﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻹﻣﺳﺎﻙ ﻭﺍﻟﺯﻏﻠﻠﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺣﻳﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﺩﻭﺍءﺍ ﻭﻫﻣﻳﺎ ﻻ ﻗﻳﻣﺔ ﻟﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻡ‬
‫ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻭﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻥ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻵﺧﺭ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻗﻠﺕ ﻻﺧﺗﺑﺎﺭﻧﺎ!‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻘﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﻣﺧﺗﻠﻔًﺎ ﻭﺳﺗﻔﻬﻡ ﺣﺎﻻ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻭﺩ ﻗﻭﻟﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﻁﻭﻧﻲ ﺣﺑﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﻋﺔ ‪ 10:15‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﻭﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺗﻅﺭ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻻﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭ ﻭﺃﻓﻌﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺣﻠﻭ ﻟﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺣﺭﺝ‪ ،‬ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺗﺻﻠﻭﺍ‬
‫ﺑﻲ ﻹﺟﺭﺍء ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻻﺧﺗﺑﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺑﻌﺩ ﻧﺻﻑ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻛﺛﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺟﻠﺳﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻣﻠﻝ ﻻ ﺃﺟﺩ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻟﻔﻌﻠﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﺣﺟﺭﺓ ﻣﺗﻭﺳﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﺣﺟﻡ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻟﻭﻥ ﺃﺑﻳﺽ ﻫﺎﺩﻱء‪ ،‬ﺗﺣﺗﻭﻱ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺏ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻛﺗﺑﺔ ﺟﺎﻧﺑﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺗﻧﺎﺛﺭ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺑﻌﺽ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻘﺎﻋﺩ ﺍﻟﻭﺛﻳﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺭﻛﺎﻥ ﻧﺑﺎﺗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻅﻝ ﻟﺗﻌﻁﻲ ﺭﺍﺣﺔ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺳﻳﺔ ﻛﺑﻳﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﻧﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﻣﺟﻼﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻰ ﻭﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺃﺗﺻﻔﺣﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﻣﻠﺔ ﺟﺩﺍ!‬
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 ‫ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻣﻘﺻﻭﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﺟﻼﺕ ﻋﻥ ﻋﻠﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻧﻔﺱ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺟﻼﺕ ﻣﻣﻠﺔ ﺟﺩﺍ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻗﻠﺕ ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﻻﺗﺣﺗﻭﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺷﻲء ﻣﺛﻳﺭ!‬
‫ﺛﻼﺙ ﻣﺟﻼﺕ ﻗﺭﺃﺗﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻠﻝ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ ﺃﻭﺷﻛﺕ ﺑﻁﺎﺭﻳﺗﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﻧﺗﻬﺎء‪ ،‬ﻓﻼ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻌﺏ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ!‬
‫ﻣﺭ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺗﺻﻝ ﺑﻰ ﺃﺣﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺍﺳﺗﻐﺭﻗﻭﺍ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻳﻝ؟‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺃﻧﻰ ﻫﻧﺎ ﻣﻧﺫ ﺳﺎﻋﺗﻳﻥ ﻣﺛﻼ!‬
‫ﺃﺩﺭﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺑﺑﻁء ﻭﻛﺳﻝ ﻟﻠﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺋﻁ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﺎﻋﺔ ‪ 10:23‬ﺻﺑﺎ ًﺣﺎ ﻓﻘﻁ!‬
‫ﻏﺭﻳﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺟﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺛﻼﺛﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺿﻭﻋﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻰ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺳﻊ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﻓﻘﻁ؟‬
‫ﺯﻓﺭﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺿﻳﻖ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﻳﻭﻣﺎ ﻁﻭﻳﻼ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ!‬
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 ‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻷﺳﻭﺃ ﻗﺎﺩﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻻﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺗﺣﺗﻭﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﻑ ﻛﺗﺏ ﺻﻐﻳﺭ ﻛﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻗﻠﺕ ﻣﻊ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﻏﻠﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﺻﻠﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺗﺧﺩﻣﺔ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﺎ؛ ﻓﻘﺭﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﻣﻧﻬﺎ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻷﻗﺭﺅﻩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺍﻟﻧﻬﻭﺽ ﻟﻠﻣﺷﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺏ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻗﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ ﺗﻌﻣﻝ!‬
‫ﻟﻳﺱ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺳﺎﻗﻰ ﺿﻌﻳﻔﺔ ﻣﺛﻼ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻧﻰ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻷﻟﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻁ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺳﺗﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺔ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﻔﺯﻉ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﻧﺫ ﻗﻠﻳﻝ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺫﻟﻙ ﺃﺛﻧﺎء ﻗﺭﺍءﺓ ﺍﻟﻣﺟﻼﺕ ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ‬
‫ﺻﺎﺭ ﻭﺍﺿﺣﺎ ﺟﻠﻳﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﺧﺻﻭﺻﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺣﺭﻛﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺟﺳﺩﻳﺔ!‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺍﺳﺗﻐﺭﻕ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻟﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ ﻛﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻟﻠﻭﻗﻭﻑ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻛﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻻﺗﺧﺎﺫ ﺧﻁﻭﺗﻳﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺧﺯﺍﻧﺔ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺏ!‬
‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻻ ﻳﺛﻳﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻗﻠﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻓﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻧﺑﻰ‬
‫ﺳﻳﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﻟﺑﺿﻊ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﻓﺣﺳﺏ! ﻛﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻫﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﻘﻝ ﺍﻟﻁﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻭ ﺣﺩﺙ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺧﺎﻁﻲء ﻓﻬﻡ ﺳﻳﻌﺎﻟﺟﻭﻧﻧﻲ ﻓﻭﺭﺍ!‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﻣﻬﻡ ﺃﻧﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻣﺣﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻟﻁﺭﺩ ﺍﻟﺗﻭﺗﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺩﻣﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﻑ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺏ ﺍﺧﺗﺭﺕ ﻧﺳﺧﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺭﻭﺍﻳﺔ )ﺃﺭﻭﺍﺡ ﻧﺟﺳﺔ( ﺍﻟﺷﻬﻳﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﺗﻌﺎﻧﻲ ﻣﻥ ﻧﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﺎﻛﻝ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺳﺎﻗﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻁﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﺋﺔ!‬
‫ﻣﺟﺭﺩ ﺍﻟﻭﺻﻭﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﺍﺳﺗﻐﺭﻕ ﻭﻗﺗﺎ ﻁﻭﻳﻼ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ..‬ﻟﻘﺩ‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻣﻠﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭ ﻭﺻﻭﻝ ﻳﺩﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻧﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺎﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻷﺳﻭﺃ ﻣﺎﺯﺍﻝ ﻗﺎﺩﻣﺎ!‬
‫ﻋﺩﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻛﺔ ﻭﺍﻧﻬﺭﺕ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﺎ ﺟﺎﻟﺳﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻭﺟﺋﺕ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﺳﻘﻁ‬
‫ﺑﺑﻁء‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﺑﻁء ﺷﺩﻳﺩ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﻧﻰ ﻓﻌﻠﻳﺎ ﺃﺣﺳﺳﺕ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﻁﻳﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍء ﻟﺑﺿﻊ‬
‫ﻟﺣﻅﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺭﺍ ﻣﺳﻠﻳﺎ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻁء ﺍﻟﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺫ ّﻛﺭﻧﻲ ﺑﻘﻔﺯﺍﺕ ﺭﻭﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﻔﺿﺎء ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﻁﺢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻣﺭ ﺣﻳﺙ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﺫﺑﻳﺔ ﻣﻧﺧﻔﺿﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺳﺗﻐﺭﻗﻭﻥ ﻭﻗﺗﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻳﺎ ﻟﻼﺑﺗﻌﺎﺩ‬
‫ﻋﻥ ﺳﻁﺢ ﺍﻟﻘﻣﺭ ﺛﻡ ﻭﻗﺗﺎ ﺁﺧﺭﺍ ﻟﻠﻌﻭﺩﺓ ﺇﻟﻳﻪ!‬
‫ﺳﺑﺏ ﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺑﺩﺍﻳﺗﻪ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﻣﻌﻧﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺃﻧﻰ ﺃﻫﻠﻭﺱ؟‬
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 ‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﺗﺣﺕ )ﺃﺭﻭﺍﺡ ﻧﺟﺳﺔ( )ﺑﺑﻁء ﺷﺩﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﺩ( ﻭﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﺍءﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺩﻣﺟﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﺍءﺓ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺗﺻﻠﻭﺍ ﺑﻲ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺻﻝ ﺍﻟﺛﻼﺛﻳﻥ!‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺗﻑ ﺟﺎءﻧﻰ ﺻﻭﺕ ﻣﺳﺎﻋﺩ ﺍﻟﺑﺣﺙ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻣﺛﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻰ ﺗﺳﻣﻌﻬﺎ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﻠﻔﺎﺯ‪:‬‬
‫‪" -‬ﻛﻳﻑ ﺗﺷﻌﺭ؟"‬
‫ﻗﻠﺕ ﻟﻪ ﺑﻬﺩﻭء‪:‬‬
‫‪" -‬ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺑﻁء"‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﺃﻥ ﺇﺣﺳﺎﺳﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺑﻁء ﺟﻌﻝ ﻛﻼﻣﻲ ﺳﺭﻳﻌﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻪ ﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ " -‬ﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﻌﻰ ﺑﺄﺑﻁﺄ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﻛﻰ ﺃﻓﻬﻣﻙ‪ ..‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻛﺱ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺻﺣﻳﺢ‪ ،‬ﻓﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺑﻁﻳﺋًﺎ ﻷﻧﻙ ﺳﺭﻳﻊ‬
‫ﺟﺩًﺍ‪ ..‬ﻓﺄﻧﺕ ﺗﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﺑﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﻋﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﺃﻓﻬﻣﻙ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﺇﻟﻳﻙ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﻣﻁﻠﻘﺔ ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﺃﺑﺩﻭ ﻟﻙ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ..‬ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟"‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺿﻳﻖ ﻣﻥ ﻛﻼﻣﻪ‪ ..‬ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻝ ﻗﺎﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻠﺕ ﻟﻪ‪:‬‬
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 ‫‪" -‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺳﺎﻗﻲ ﻭﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ‪ ..‬ﺇﻧﻬﻣﺎ ﻳﺗﺣﺭﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺑﻁء‪" .‬‬
‫‪" -‬ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻛﺱ‪ ..‬ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﻟﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﻙ ﺗﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻣﺎ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ‬
‫ﻟﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺟﺳﻣﻙ ﻳﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﺑﺑﻁء ﻷﻥ ﺩﻣﺎﻏﻙ ﺳﺭﻳﻊ‪ ..‬ﺣﺭﻛﺔ‬
‫ﺟﺳﻣﻙ ﺳﺭﻳﻌﺔ ﻷﻥ ﺩﻣﺎﻏﻙ ﻳﻌﻣﻝ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺑﻣﺎ ﻳﻌﺎﺩﻝ‬
‫ﻋﺷﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﻋﺷﺭﻳﻥ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺳﺭﻉ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺗﺎﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﻔﻛﺭ ﻭﺗﺩﺭﻙ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﺑﻭﺗﻳﺭﺓ ﻣﺗﺳﺎﺭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ‬
‫ﺟﺳﻣﻙ ﻻ ﻳﺯﺍﻝ ﻣﻘﻳﺩًﺍ ﺑﻘﻭﺍﻧﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻳﻛﺎﻧﻳﻛﺎ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﻭﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻣﺎ ﻗﻠﺕ ﻟﻙ ﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺃﻛﺑﺭ ﺑﻛﺛﻳﺭ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺷﺧﺹ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺩﻣﺎﻏﻙ ﻳﻌﻣﻝ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺃﻛﺑﺭ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﻟﻲ ﻟﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻳﻊ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ‬
‫ﻧﺷﺎﻫﺩﻩ ﻧﺣﻥ‪ ،‬ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺑﻁﻳﺋًﺎ ﺟﺩًﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻙ‪".‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﺑﺩﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻣﻣﺗﻌﺎ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ ﻋﻧﺩ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻧﻘﻁﺔ‪ ..‬ﺟﺳﺩﻱ‬
‫ﺑﻁﻰء ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﻔﺎﻋﻝ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﺫﺑﻳﺔ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺑﻁﻰء ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ‬
‫ﺇﺩﺭﺍﻛﻰ ﺳﺭﻳﻊ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﻣﻔﻳﺩﺍ‪ ..‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻬﻳﺕ ﻗﺭﺍءﺓ ﺍﻟﺭﻭﺍﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺛﻼﺛﺔ ﻣﺟﻼﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺭﺑﻊ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ!‬
‫ﺭﺍﺋﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻬﻲ ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﻋﻣﺎﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﻗﺻﺭ ﺑﻛﺛﻳﺭ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺑﻝ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻲ ﺍﺷﺗﺭﻳﺕ ﻋﻣﺭﺍ ﻓﻭﻕ ﻋﻣﺭﻱ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺩ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻁﻭﻳﻝ ﺟﺎءﻭﺍ ﻻﺻﻁﺣﺎﺑﻰ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺍﺧﺗﺎﺭﻭﺍ ﺃﺳﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ ﻻﺻﻁﺣﺎﺑﻲ ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺑﻁء‬
‫ﺍﻟﺷﺩﻳﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺑﻁء ﻳﺗﺯﺍﻳﺩ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻘﺩ ﺍﺳﺗﻐﺭﻗﻭﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻭﺍﺯﻱ ﺃﻳﺎﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻭﺻﻭﻝ ﻟﻣﻭﻗﻊ ﺍﻻﺧﺗﺑﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﻠﻝ!‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺃﺟﺭﻭﺍ ﺳﻠﺳﻠﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻻﺧﺗﺑﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻋﻠﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻻﺧﺗﺑﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺑﺩﻧﻳﺔ ﻣﻣﺗﻌﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻁﻠﺑﻭﺍ ﻣﻧﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﺑﺩﺍﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻼﻋﺏ ﺑﺛﻼﺙ ﻛﺭﺍﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺳﺗﺔ!‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﺟﺩ ﻣﺷﻛﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﺣﺗﻔﺎﻅ ﺑﺳﺕ ﻛﺭﺍﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍء ﻷﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺗﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﺑﺑﻁء ﺷﺩﻳﺩ ﻭﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺭﺻﺩ ﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﻝ ﻛﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺗﻘﺎﻁﻬﺎ ﺛﻡ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻘﺎءﻫﺎ ﺑﺭﻓﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍء‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺗﻘﺩﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﻫﻧﺎ ﻣﺧﺗﻠﻑ ﻷﻧﻲ ﺃﺳﺗﺧﺩﻡ ﻗﻭﺗﻲ ﺑﺑﻁء‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺗﺧﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻛﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺩﻫﺎ ﺗﺭﺗﻔﻊ ﺑﺑﻁء ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﻟﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺭﺗﻁﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﺳﻘﻑ ﺑﻌﻧﻑ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﻣﻠﺔ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﻧﺗﻅﺭ ﻛﻝ ﻛﺭﺓ ﺗﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﻋﺎﻟﻳﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺗﻘﻑ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍء‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺗﺑﺩﺃ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﺑﻭﻁ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺗﺗﻣﻛﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻹﻣﺳﺎﻙ ﺑﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺍﻟﺳﻰء ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺿﻭﻉ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺩﻱ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺔ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺗﻧﺎﺳﺏ ﻣﻊ ﻗﺭﺍﺕ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻭ ﺻﺎﺭ ﺟﺳﺩﻱ ﻣﺗﻧﺎﺳﺑﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﻟﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺭﺍﺋﻌﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻰ ﺍﺳﺗﻁﻌﺕ ﺇﻣﺳﺎﻛﻬﺎ ﺟﻣﻳﻌﺎ ﻭﺇﻟﻘﺎءﻫﺎ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍء‪...‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﺑﻳﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺡ ﺃﻟﻘﻭﺍ ﻗﻁﻊ ﺩﺟﺎﺝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍء ﻭﺃﻣﺳﻛﺗﻬﻡ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻳﺩﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﻳﻧﻳﺔ ﻓﻘﻁ!‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺃﺳﻘﻁﻭﺍ ﺣﻔﻧﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻣﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺩﻧﻳﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻣﺕ‬
‫ﺑﺎﺣﺗﺳﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﻳﻣﺔ ﺍﻹﺟﻣﺎﻟﻳﺔ ﻟﻠﻧﻘﻭﺩ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺿﺭﺏ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪..‬‬
‫ﻷﻧﻰ ﺃﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﻭﻫﻰ ﺗﺳﻘﻁ ﺑﺑﻁء!‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻻﺧﺗﺑﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺭﻓﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻫﻲ ﺃﻗﻝ ﻣﺗﻌﺔ ﻁﺑﻌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻛﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻅﺭﻳﻔﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺛﻼ‪ :‬ﻗﻡ ﺑﺈﻧﻬﺎء ﺑﺣﺙ ﻣﻥ ﺧﻣﺳﻳﻥ ﻛﻠﻣﺔ‬
‫ﺛﻭﺍﻥ(‪..‬‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫)ﺍﺳﺗﻐﺭﻗﺕ ﻓﻳﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺳﺎﺑﺎﺗﻬﻡ ﺛﻼﺙ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺭ ﺁﺧﺭ‪ :‬ﻗﻡ ﺑﺣﻝ ﻣﺗﺎﻫﺔ ﻣﻌﻘﺩﺓ ﻣﺭﺳﻭﻣﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺭﻕ ﺑﺣﺟﻡ ﻛﺑﻳﺭ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫)ﺍﺳﺗﻐﺭﻗﺕ ﺛﺎﻧﻳﺗﻳﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺳﺎﺑﺎﺗﻬﻡ(‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻣﺭ ﺛﺎﻟﺙ‪ :‬ﺷﺎﻫﺩ ﻋﺭﺽ ﺷﺭﺍﺋﺢ ﺳﺭﻋﺗﻪ ﻋﺷﺭ ﺻﻭﺭ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﻭﺃﺟﺏ ﻋﻥ ﺃﺳﺋﻠﺔ ﺗﻔﺻﻳﻠﻳﺔ ﺣﻭﻝ ﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺗﻪ‬
‫)ﺃﺟﺑﺕ ﺑﻧﺳﺑﺔ ‪ ٪95‬ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺻﺣﻳﺢ ﻷﻥ ﺫﺍﻛﺭﺗﻲ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻳﺳﺕ ﺃﻓﺿﻝ‬
‫ﺫﺍﻛﺭﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ(‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺃﺧﺑﺭﻭﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻰ ﺣﺻﻠﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻳﺎﺱ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻥ ‪ 250‬ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﻣﻘﻳﺎﺱ )ﻛﻧﻭﺑﻑ(!‬
‫ﺭﺍﺋﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺎﻟﻪ ﻣﻥ ﺇﻧﺟﺎﺯ‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﻭﻑ ﺃﺧﺑﺭ ﻛﻝ ﺃﺻﺩﻗﺎﺋﻲ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺣﺻﻠﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺷﻲء‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻘﻳﺎﺱ ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ‪ -‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ‪-‬‬
‫ﺷﻰء ﻋﻣﻳﻖ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻁﺎﻕ ﺳﺭﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻔﻛﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﺧﺎﺭﻗﺔ!‬
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‫ﺍﻧﺗﻬﺕ ﺍﻻﺧﺗﺑﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻰ ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﻭﻗﺗﺎ ﻁﻭﻳﻼ ﺟﺩﺍ ﺟﺩﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺳﻣﺣﻭﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻭﺩﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ‪ ..‬ﻗﺎﻟﻭﺍ‪:‬‬
‫‪" -‬ﺳﻭﻑ ﻳﺯﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺿﻭﻥ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻗﻠﻳﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺗﻲ‬
‫ﺳﺗﺑﺩﻭ ﻟﻙ ﺃﻳﺎ ًﻣﺎ‪ .‬ﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﺳﺗﺧﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺑﻘﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻹﻧﺟﺎﺯ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﻋﻣﺎﻝ ﺃﻭ ﻣﺗﺎﺑﻌﺔ ﺭﺳﺎﺋﻝ ﺍﻟﺑﺭﻳﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻟﻛﺗﺭﻭﻧﻲ ﻟﻠﻌﻣﻝ ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﻻ ﺗﺯﺍﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻋﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻳﺔ!"‬
‫ﺭﺍﺋﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺍﻋﺗﻘﺩﺕ!‬
‫ﺃﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺭﻛﻭﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ ﻓﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺭﻭﻋﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﺎﺑﻭﺳﺎ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻳﻧﻲ ﻭﺑﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺛﻼﺙ ﻣﺣﻁﺎﺕ ﻣﺗﺭﻭ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺗﺳﺗﻐﺭﻕ ﻋﺎﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺧﻣﺱ ﻭﺛﻼﺛﻳﻥ ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﺻﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻭﺟﻬﺗﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﻭﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﺗﺳﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺋﻖ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﻣﺭﻭﺭ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ ﻭﻟﻳﺳﺕ ﻣﺟﺭﺩ ﺗﻌﺑﻳﺭﺍﺕ ﻣﺟﺎﺯﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺻﺭﺕ ﺳﺟﻳﻥ ﺟﺳﻡ ﺑﻁﻰء ﻻ ﻳﻛﺎﺩ ﻳﺗﺣﺭﻙ!‬
‫ﺷﻌﻭﺭ ﺳﻣﺞ ﺳﺧﻳﻑ ﻭﺳﻰء ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ!‬
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‫ﺃﺻﻼ ﻣﺟﺭﺩ ﺍﻟﺧﺭﻭﺝ ﻣﻥ ﺟﻧﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﺑﺣﺙ ﺍﻟﻁﺑﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺻﻌﺩ ﺑﺩﺍ‬
‫ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﺍﺳﺗﻐﺭﻕ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻛﺎﻣﻠﺔ!‬
‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺧﺭﺟﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺗﺏ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺭﻏﺏ ﻓﻲ ﺗﺣﺭﻳﻙ ﺳﺎﻗﻲ ﻭﻳﺩﻯ‬
‫ﺃﺳﻳﺭﺍ‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺃﻛﺑﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻗﻭﺍﻧﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻳﻛﺎﻧﻳﻛﺎ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﻭﻳﺔ ﺟﻌﻠﺗﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻟﺟﺳﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﺑﻁﻲء‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺗﺳﺎﺭﻉ ﺩﻣﺎﻏﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﻓﻌﻝ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‬
‫ﻟﺟﻌﻝ ﺳﺎﻗﻲ ﺗﻌﻣﻝ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺃﺳﺭﻉ‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺣﺩﺙ ﺷﻰء ﺟﻌﻠﻧﻰ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺫﻋﺭ ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺭﺓ ﻣﻧﺫ ﺑﺩﺍﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﺟﺭﺑﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﺗﻘﺩﻳﺭ ﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺣﺭﻛﺗﻰ ﻷﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﺻﻌﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﺃﺧﻁﺄﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺗﻘﺩﻳﺭ ﺳﺭﻋﺗﻰ ﻭﺍﺻﻁﺩﻣﺕ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺟﺩﺍﺭ ﺑﻘﻭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﺑﺩﺍﻳﺔ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺃﻟﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﺑﺩﺃ ﻳﺗﺻﺎﻋﺩ ﺗﺩﺭﻳﺟﻳﺎ ﺣﺗﻰ‬
‫ﺻﺎﺭ ﺷﺩﻳﺩﺍ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺷﺩﻳﺩًﺍ ﻭﻣﺳﺗﻣﺭﺍ ﻭﻳﺭﻓﺽ ﺍﻟﺗﻭﻗﻑ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﺻﺎﻋﺩ ﺗﺻﺎﻋﺩﺍ ﺣﺎﺩﺍ ﻁﻭﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻟﻡ ﺷﻧﻳﻊ!‬
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 ‫ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺩﻣﺎﻏﻲ ﻳﻌﻣﻝ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺗﻅﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﻁﺎﻡ ﺳﻳﺅﻟﻣﻪ ﻟﻣﺩﺓ ﺛﻼﺛﻳﻥ ﺛﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﺗﻘﺭﻳﺑًﺎ ﺛﻡ ﻳﻧﺗﻬﻲ ﻛﻝ‬
‫ﺷﻲء‪ ..‬ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺎﻟﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺑﻁﻳﺋﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﺩﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﺷﺩﻳﺩ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﻟﻣﺩﺓ ﻧﺻﻑ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﺛﻼ‪ ..‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻭﺃﺭﺑﻌﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ!‬
‫ﺗﺧﻳﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻟﻡ ﺍﺭﺗﻁﺎﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻭﺝ ﻗﻭﺗﻪ ﻳﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﻟﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺩﺓ ﺣﺗﻰ ﻛﺩﺕ ﺃﺻﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺟﻧﻭﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﺣﺗﻰ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺷﺩ ﺣﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻌﺫﻳﺏ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻟﻛﻝ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺭﺓ!‬
‫ﺃﻣﺎ ﺭﻛﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﻣﺻﻌﺩ ﻓﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺭﻭﻋﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺄﻧﻲ ﺃﻣﺿﻳﺕ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﺃﻭ ﺧﻣﺱ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻧﺯﻭﻝ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺳﺑﻌﺔ ﻁﻭﺍﺑﻖ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺷﻲء ﺳﻭﻯ ﺩﺍﺧﻝ ﻣﺭﺁﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺻﻌﺩ!‬
‫ﻭﺧﻁﺭﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻓﻛﺭﺓ ﺑﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﺻﻼ ﺭﻳﺎﺿﻲ ﻭﺃﺣﺏ ﺍﻟﺟﺭﻱ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺧﺭﺟﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﻛﺯ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺭﻛﺿﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺣﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺭﻭ‬
‫ﻻﺟﺗﻳﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺗﺭﻑ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺟﺯء ﻣﻣﺗﻌًﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺩ ﻛﺑﻳﺭ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﺟﺳﺩﻱ ﺑﻣﺎ ﺑﺩﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﻼ ﻳﺯﺍﻝ ﺑﺈﻣﻛﺎﻧﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺗﺎﺭ ﺑﻌﻧﺎﻳﺔ ﻛﻳﻑ ﻭﺃﻳﻥ ﺃﺿﻊ ﻗﺩﻣﻲ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺃﺅﺭﺟﺢ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﺃﻭﺃﺩﻳﺭ ﺟﺫﻋﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻗﻭﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﺭﻗﺹ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺑﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻁﻭﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻻﻟﺗﻭﺍء ﻭﺍﻟﻣﺯﺍﺡ ﺑﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﺻﻳﻑ ﻭﺗﻔﺎﺩﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺣﺭﻛﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻫﻝ ﺗﻌﻠﻡ ﻛﻡ ﺍﺳﺗﻐﺭﻕ ﻧﺯﻭﻟﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺳﻼﻟﻡ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺩﺍﺧﻝ‬
‫ﻣﺣﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺭﻭ؟‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻰ!‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﺗﺗﺧﻳﻝ!‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻟﻠﺳﻠﻡ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻟﻛﻝ ﺳﻠﻡ ﻧﺯﻭﻻ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺣﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺭﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺫﻯ ﺟﺎء ﺑﻌﺩ ﺳﺎﻋﺗﻳﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﺎﻩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺑﺎﻟﺗﺄﻛﻳﺩ ﺃﺳﻭﺃ ﺗﺟﺭﺑﺔ ﻣﺭﺭﺕ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻰ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻛﺎﺩ ﺃﺧﺗﻧﻖ ﻣﻥ ﻓﺭﻁ ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻝ!‬
‫ﻛﻝ ﺷﻰء ﻣﻣﻝ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﻔﺗﻳﺎﺕ ﻳﺗﺣﺭﻛﻥ ﺑﺑﻁء ﻭﺍﻷﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﻏﻳﺭ ﻭﺍﺿﺣﺔ ﻭﺳﻣﻳﻛﺔ‬
‫ﺿﺧﻣﺔ ﺗﺅﻟﻡ ﺃﺫﻧﻲ ﻭﺗﺿﺎﻳﻘﻧﻲ ﻭﺗﺛﻳﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﺷﺗﻰ ﺃﻧﻭﺍﻉ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺧﻭﻑ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺳﻰء ﺳﻰء ﺑﻣﺎ ﻻ ﻳﻘﺎﺱ!‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﺭﻗﺔ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺏ ﻛﻰ ﺃﺗﺳﻠﻰ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺭﺣﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻭﺩﺓ!‬
‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬
‫ﺃﺧﻳﺭﺍ ﻭﺻﻝ ﺍﻟﻘﻁﺎﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﻁﺔ ﺑﺎﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺳﺗﻘﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﻌﺩ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﺑﺩﺃ ﻳﺗﺣﺭﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﻣﻌﺕ ﺍﻟﺻﺭﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻰ ﻟﻣﻛﺎﺑﺢ ﺍﻟﻘﻁﺎﺭ ﺗﺷﺑﻪ ﻧﻐﻣﺔ ﻁﻭﻳﻠﺔ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﻛﺎﺩ ﺗﻧﺗﻬﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﺭﻧﺔ ﺷﻰء ﻣﻌﺩﻧﻰ ﺛﻘﻳﻝ ﻭﻧﺎﻋﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺩ ﻗﻠﻳﻝ ﺗﺑﺎﻁﺄ ﻭﺻﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺫﻧﻰ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺍﺧﺗﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺩﺃﺕ‬
‫ﺃﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻅﻬﻭﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﺻﻭﺕ ﻁﻔﻝ ﻳﺻﺭﺥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﺷﺑﻪ ﺑﻧﻐﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺣﻭﺕ ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺣﻳﻁﺎﺕ!‬

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 ‫ﺍﻷﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺣﻭﻟﻰ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺃﺑﻭﺍﻕ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻣﺛﻼ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺷﺎﺣﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺎﺭﺓ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺔ ﺿﺧﻣﺔ ﻭﻣﺛﻝ ﻫﺩﻳﺭ ﺟﺑﻝ ﺃﻭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻝ ﺍﻷﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﺿﺧﻣﺔ ﺳﻳﺋﺔ !‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺗﻭﺍﺻﻝ ﻣﻊ ﻣﻛﺗﺏ ﺍﻟﺑﺣﺙ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺗﻑ‪ ..‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﺳﻣﻊ ﻭﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻭﺍﺻﻝ ﻣﻊ ﻓﺭﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﺑﺣﺙ ﻭﻟﻛﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﺻﺑﺢ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺗﺣﻳﻝ ﺍﻟﺗﻭﺍﺻﻝ ﺍﻟﻠﻔﻅﻲ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺧﺹ!‬
‫ﺍﻻﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﻏﻳﺭ ﻣﻔﻬﻭﻣﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ!‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺁﺛﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﻻ ﺗﺯﺍﻝ ﺗﻛﺛﻑ ﻭﺗﺗﺯﺍﻳﺩ ﻭﺗﺷﺗﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﺿﻳﺕ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺩﺍ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻁﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺧﻁ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻯ ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻧﺗﻬﻰ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻁﻭﻳﻠﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻻﺳﺗﻣﺎﻉ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻏﻧﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺣﻭﺕ ﻟﻠﻁﻔﻝ ﺍﻟﺻﺎﺭﺥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﺯﻓﺎ ﻣﻧﻔﺭﺩ ﺍﻟﻧﻐﻣﺔ ﻳﺄﺗﻰ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻣﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺷﻰء ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﺫﻯ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﻐﻳﺭ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺭﻭﺍﺋﺢ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻡ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺻﺏ ﺑﻌﻣﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻧﻑ‪ ..‬ﻅﻠﻠﺕ ﺃﺷﻡ ﺭﻭﺍﺋﺢ ﺍﻟﻌﻁﻭﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺣﻭﻟﻰ ﻣﻣﺗﺯﺟﺎ ﺑﻌﺭﻕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺭﻛﺎﺏ ﻭﻓﺭﺍﻣﻝ ﺍﻟﻘﻁﺎﺭ ﻭﻏﺎﺯﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻟﺳﻳﻥ!‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻳﺩﻭﻡ ﻁﻭﻳﻼ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺃﺻﻼ ﻋﻣﻠﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻧﻔﺱ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﻋﺟﻳﺑﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻟﺷﻬﻳﻖ ﻳﺳﺗﻣﺭ‬
‫ﻁﻭﻳﻼ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺎ ﺑﻼ ﺃﻟﻡ ﻭﻛﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﺯﻓﻳﺭ!‬
‫ﻭﺻﻠﺕ ﺃﺧﻳﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻭﺟﻬﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺗﻛﺭﺭﺕ ﻋﻣﻠﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺧﺭﻭﺝ ﺭﻛﺿﺎ‬
‫ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﻁﺔ ﻭﺻﻌﻭﺩﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺷﺎﺭﻉ ﺛﻡ ﺍﻧﻁﻼﻗﺎ ﻧﺣﻭ ﺷﻘﺗﻲ‪ ..‬ﻟﻡ‬
‫ﻳﻔﺗﻧﻲ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﻧﻌﻖ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﺗﺎﺑﻌﻧﻲ ﺑﻌﻳﻧﻳﻪ ﺻﺎﻣﺗﺎ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻳﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺗﺑﻪ ﺇﻟﻳﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﻙ ﺳﺄﻅﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ‪ ..‬ﺃﻋﺩﻙ ﺑﻬﺫﺍ!‬
‫ﺃﺧﻳﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺷﻘﺗﻲ!‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﻭﻋﺩﺕ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺭﻛﺽ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺑﺎﺑﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺗﻭﺡ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺩﺍﺧﻝ ﺍﻟﺷﻘﺔ ﺑﺄﻗﺻﻰ‬
‫ﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻌﻬﺎ ﻳﺷﺑﻪ ﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﺑﻁﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﺋﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﻣﺭﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﻳﺣﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻘﻁﻌﺔ ﺧﺷﺏ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻬﺭ ﻛﺳﻭﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻻﺭﺗﻳﺎﺡ ﻟﻛﻭﻧﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻝ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺩﻱ ﺃﺷﻳﺎء ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻳﺎﻡ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻫﻧﺎ!‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﻘﻁﺕ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻗﺭﺅﻩ ﻣﻧﺫ ﻳﻭﻣﻳﻥ ‪ -‬ﻣﺎﺋﺔ ﻋﺎﻡ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺯﻟﺔ ‪ -‬ﻭﺍﻧﺗﻬﻳﺕ ﻣﻧﻪ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﺃﻧﻰ ﻗﻣﺕ ﺑﺗﻘﻠﻳﺏ ﺍﻟﺻﻔﺣﺎﺕ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﻛﺑﻳﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻟﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻧﻲ ﻣﺯﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻧﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻥ ﻣﻌﻅﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻗﺿﻳﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺇﻧﻬﺎء ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﺿﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻘﻠﻳﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺻﻔﺣﺔ ﻭﻟﻳﺱ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﺍءﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺭﺕ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﻣﻧﺫ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺻﻠﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ!‬
‫ﻓﻘﻁ!‬
‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺗﺻﻔﺢ ﺍﻹﻧﺗﺭﻧﺕ ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺻﻼ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺳﻭﺏ ﻳﺳﺗﻐﺭﻕ ﻭﻗﺗﺎ ﻁﻭﻳﻼ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻛﻰ ﻳﺳﺗﻘﺭ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺍﺳﺗﻌﻣﺎﻟﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺿﻌﺕ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺷﺎﺣﻥ ﻭﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﻓﺗﺣﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺃﻋﻳﺷﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﻁﻳﺋًﺎ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺣﺑﻁ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﻳﻭﺍﺯﻱ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ )ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻰ( ﻟﺗﺣﻣﻳﻝ ﻛﻝ ﺻﻔﺣﺔ ﺟﺩﻳﺩﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺟﺯء ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﻟﻘﺭﺍءﺗﻬﺎ!‬
‫ﺑﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﺗﻣﻣﺕ ﻗﺭﺍءﺓ ﻣﺎﺋﺔ ﻣﻘﺎﻟﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺧﻼﺻﺗﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻹﺧﺑﺎﺭﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﺿﺕ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻓﻘﻁ!‬

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 ‫ﻗﻣﺕ ﻣﻥ ﻣﻛﺎﻧﻰ ﻭﻏﻁﺳﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻭﻣﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺏ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻗﺭﺃﻫﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻌﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧﺗﻬﻳﺕ ﻣﻥ ﻛﺗﺎﺑﻳﻥ ﺁﺧﺭﻳﻥ‪ ..‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻗﺭﺃ ﻛﻝ ﺣﺭﻑ ﺑﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ ﺑﻣﺎ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻐﻼﻑ ﺣﺗﻰ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻣﺭﺕ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ!‬
‫ﺃﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ ﻟﻠﻬﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻳﻥ؟‬
‫ﻳﺎﻟﻬﺎ ﻣﻥ ﻓﻛﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻡ ﺗﺄﺕ ﻟﻰ ﻣﻥ ﻗﺑﻝ!‬
‫ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ ﻁﺑﻌﺎ!‬
‫ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ ﻟﻠﻬﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻵﺛﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺑﻘﻳﺔ ﻟﻠﺩﻭﺍء‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻟﺳﻭء ﺍﻟﺣﻅ ﺣﺩﺙ ﺧﻁﺄ ﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﻘﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺫﻯ ﻳﻔﻛﺭ ﻳﻌﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻳﺎﻣﺎ ﻭﺃﺳﺎﺑﻳﻌﺎ ﻭﺷﻬﻭﺭﺍ ﻗﺩ ﻣﺭﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺟﺳﺩﻯ ﺍﻟﺫﻯ ﻳﺗﺣﻛﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺟﺳﻣﻰ ﻻ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﻣﺭﻫﻘﺎ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ‬
‫ﻭﻻ ﻳﺭﻏﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ! ﻟﻘﺩ ﺍﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅﺕ ﻓﻌﻠﻳﺎ ﻣﻧﺫ ﻗﻠﻳﻝ!‬
‫ﺇﺩﺭﺍﻛﻰ ﺳﺭﻳﻊ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻟﻛﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻰء!‬
‫ﺑﻌﺑﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪ :‬ﺑﻐﺽ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﺯء ﻣﻥ ﺫﻫﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺋﻭﻝ ﻋﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻹﺩﺭﺍﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﺯء ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺗﻡ ﺗﺳﺭﻳﻌﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺳﺭﻋﺎﺕ ﻋﺎﻟﻳﺔ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﻗﺑﻝ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﻟﻳﺱ ﻫﻭ ﻧﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﺟﺯء ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﺣﻛﻡ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻓﻌﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺗﻣﺩﺩﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﺵ ﺑﺎﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻅﻠﻠﺕ ﻣﻣﺩﺩﺍ‬
‫ﻭﻣﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅﺎ ﻟﻣﺎ ﺍﻋﺗﺑﺭﺗﻪ ﺃﻳﺎ ًﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﺯﺍﻝ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﺑﺩﻧﻲ ﻳﻌﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﺎﻋﺔ ‪ 1:25‬ﻅﻬﺭﺍ‪ ..‬ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﺟﺎﻫﺯﺍ ﻟﻠﻧﻭﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﻘﺩ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺷﻳﺕ ﺣﻭﻝ ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﻧﻭﻣﻲ ﻣﺭﺗﻳﻥ ﻣﺳﺗﻐﺭﻗﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ‪45‬‬
‫ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ ﺛﻡ ﺍﺭﺗﻣﻳﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﺵ ﻓﻰ ﺳﻘﻭﻁ ﻟﻁﻳﻑ ﻛﺳﻘﻭﻁ ﺍﻟﺭﻳﺷﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻘﺑﻪ ﺍﺭﺗﻁﺎﻡ ﻧﺎﻋﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺭﺍﺵ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺍﺣﺗﻭﺍﻧﻲ ﻭﺍﺣﺗﺿﻧﻧﻲ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ‬
‫ﺭﺍﺋﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻏﻠﻘﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻭﺍﺳﺗﻠﻘﻳﺕ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻟﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻭﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ‬
‫)‪ 10‬ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﻣﻥ ﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ( ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺗﺳﻠﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻥ ﻳﺄﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ!‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻭﺍﺟﻪ ﺃﻳﺎ ًﻣﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻳﻊ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﻭﻉ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺟﻥ ﺑﻁﻲء‬
‫ﺍﻟﺣﺭﻛﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺗﻘﺑﻝ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﻳﺏ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﻣﻣﻼ ﻟﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺣﻣﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﺫﻟﻙ‬
‫ﻓﻛﺭﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺑﺗﻼﻉ ﻣﻧﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻧﻌﻡ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭﻩ ﺳﻳﺑﺩﺃ ﺑﻌﺩ ﻓﺗﺭﺓ ﻁﻭﻳﻠﺔ ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﺳﻳﻌﻣﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﻗﻣﺕ ﻷﺑﺗﻠﻊ ﻣﻧﻭﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻓﻛﺭﺓ ﺍﻻﺑﺗﻼﻉ ﻧﻔﺳﻬﺎ ﻣﺧﻳﻔﺔ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺭﺹ ﻳﻧﺯﻟﻖ‬
‫ﺑﺑﻁء ﻋﺑﺭ ﺣﻠﻘﻰ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺎء ﻛﺎﻥ ﺯﻟﻘﺎ ﺳﺧﻳﻔﺎ ﺫﺍ ﺛﻘﻝ ﺳﻰء‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻗﺭﺃ ﻛﺗﺎﺑﺎ ﺟﺩﻳﺩﺍ ﺑﺎﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺭﺕ ﻋﺷﺭ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﻛﺗﺎﺑﺎ ﺁﺧﺭﺍ!‬
‫ﺛﻣﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻧﺫ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﻭﻻ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺄﻯ ﺭﻏﺑﺔ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ!‬
‫ﺭﻣﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻓﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺷﻣﺋﺯﺍﺯ ﻣﻥ ﻭﺿﻌﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﻳﺩﻭﺭ ﺑﺑﻁء ﻭﻳﺩﻭﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍء‪ ،‬ﻣﺛﻝ ﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﺗﻬﺏ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻧﺳﻳﻡ ﻳﻭﻡ ﻋﺎﺻﻑ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺻﻁﺩﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﺟﺩﺍﺭ ﺑﺻﻭﺕ ﻋﺎ ٍﻝ ﺧﺎﻓﺕ‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺭﺃﻳﺗُﻪ ﻟﻣﺎ ﺑﺩﺍ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ‪ -‬ﺛﻡ ﻭﻗﻊ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻕ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻭﺽ ﺍﻟﺳﺑﺎﺣﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺧﻁﺭﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺑﺎﻟﻰ ﻓﻛﺭﺓ ﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻁﺑﻌﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺗﺗﻐﻳﺭ ﻗﻭﺓ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﺫﺑﻳﺔ ﻣﻧﺫ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺍﻟﺣﺑﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻳﻧﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﻭﺍﻧﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﻳﺯﻳﺎء ﻫﻲ ﻧﻔﺳﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﺗﻐﻳﺭ ﻫﻭ ﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺇﺩﺭﺍﻛﻰ ﻟﻠﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺣﻭﻟﻰ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻳﻌﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺍﺳﺗﺧﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﺳﻘﻁ‬
‫ﻛﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﻟﻠﺣﻛﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺁﺛﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﺑﻧﺎ ًء ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺍﺳﺗﻐﺭﻗﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﻭﻉ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻸﺳﻑ ﻗﺩﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺁﺛﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻻ ﺗﺯﺍﻝ ﺗﺗﺯﺍﻳﺩ!‬
‫ﺑﻣﻌﻧﻰ ﺁﺧﺭ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﻳﺯﻳﺩ ﺑﻁﺋﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻧﺔ!‬
‫ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﻣﺟﻠﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﻗﻣﺕ ﺑﺗﺷﻐﻳﻝ ﺍﻟﺗﻠﻔﺎﺯ ﻭﻫﻧﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺕ ﺑﻭﺿﻭﺡ ﻛﻝ ﺇﻁﺎﺭ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺎﻁﻊ ﺍﻟﻔﻳﺩﻳﻭ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻭ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺩ ﻋﺭﺽ ﺷﺭﺍﺋﺢ ﻟﺻﻭﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺣﺑﻁ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻭﻗﻔﺕ ﺗﺷﻐﻳﻝ ﺍﻟﺗﻠﻔﺎﺯ‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺯﻳﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﺃﻭﻝ ﻛﺗﺎﺑﻳﻥ ﻣﻥ ﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﻣﻭﺳﻭﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺣﺿﺎﺭﺓ‪ ..‬ﻟﻳﺳﺕ ﻗﺭﺍءﺓ‬
‫ﺧﻔﻳﻔﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺿﺑﻁ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺭﻫﺕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻝ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺳﺗﺳﺗﻐﺭﻗﻬﺎ ﻹﺧﺭﺍﺝ ﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﺁﺧﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺭﻑ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺏ‪..‬‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ﻣﺟﺭﺩ ﺍﻟﺟﻠﻭﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻛﺔ ﻭﻗﺭﺍءﺓ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺳﻭﻋﺔ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻓﺿﻝ!‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻝ ﺃﻗﻝ ﺳﻭءﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻣﺭﺕ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺧﻣﺱ ﻭﺛﻼﺛﻭﻥ ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻧﺫ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺩﻭﺍء ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﺳﺗﻠﻘﻳﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻛﺔ ﻭﺃﻏﻠﻘﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺭ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﻧﻔﺳﺎ ﻋﻣﻳﻘﺎ ﻭﻫﻰ ﻋﻣﻠﻳﺔ ﺗﺳﺗﻐﺭﻕ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺭ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﻗﻣﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺯﻓﻳﺭ ﻟﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﺃﻧﻰ ﻟﻥ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ!‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺑﺣﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺧﻁﺔ ﺟﺩﻳﺩﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻭﺩﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺗﺏ ﺍﻟﺫﻯ ﺃﻋﻁﻭﻧﻲ ﻓﻳﻪ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺳﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﻟﺩﻳﻬﻡ ﺷﻲء ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻘﺎﻭﻡ ﺁﺛﺎﺭﻩ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻝ ﻳﻌﻁﻭﻧﻰ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻷﻧﺎﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻧﺞ ﺃﻭ ﻣﺎﺷﺎﺑﻪ!‬
‫ﺃﻛﺎﺩ ﺃﺻﺎﺏ ﺑﺎﻟﺟﻧﻭﻥ!‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﺗﻌﻠﻡ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ؟ ﺍﻷﺳﻭﺃ ﻗﺎﺩﻡ!‬
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 ‫ﺧﺭﺟﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺷﻘﺗﻲ ﺑﺄﺳﺭﻉ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻣﻣﻛﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﻭﺍﺯﻯ ﻗﺿﺎء‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻹﻁﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺯﻣﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺫﻯ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﻪ ﻟﻠﻘﻳﺎﻡ ﺑﺫﻟﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺻﻭﺭ ﺃﻧﻰ ﺣﺗﻰ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺯﻋﺞ ﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﺑﺈﻏﻼﻕ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺷﻘﺗﻲ ﺧﻠﻔﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺳﻳﺳﺗﻐﺭﻕ ﻭﻗﺗﺎ ﻁﻭﻳﻼﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ!‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻭﺭ ﺍﺗﺟﻬﺕ ﻟﻠﺩﺭﺝ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺃﺳﺭﻉ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺻﻌﺩ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺭﻛﺿﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺧﺭﺟﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺭﺩﻫﺔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺷﺎﺭﻉ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺣﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻳﻠﺔ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﻳﻭﻡ ﻁﻭﻳﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺗﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺄﻗﺻﻰ ﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺭﻛﺿﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﺷﺎﺭﻉ ﻣﺗﺧﻁﻳﺎ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﺎﺓ ﺑﺑﺭﺍﻋﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻧﻘﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﻳﺭ ﺇﺫ ﺃﻧﻰ ﻟﺩﻯ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﻛﺎﻓﻰ ﻟﻛﻰ ﺃﺗﻔﺎﺩﻯ ﻛﻝ‬
‫ﻫﺅﻻء‪ ..‬ﻻﺑﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺑﺭﺍﻋﺗﻰ ﻟﻔﺗﺕ ﺍﻷﻧﻅﺎﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻧﺯﻟﺕ ﺩﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﺳﻠﻡ ﻣﺗﺟﻬﺎ ﻧﺣﻭ ﻋﺭﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻁﺎﺭ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻫﺎﺟﻣﻧﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﺍﻟﻣﻧﻭﻡ ﻓﺟﺄﺓ!‬
‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﺗﺳﺎءﻝ ﻋﻥ ﻣﻌﻧﻰ ﺍﻟﻬﺟﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻪ ﺷﻰء ﺳﻰء‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺳﻭء!‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺟﻌﻠﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﻭﻡ ﻧﻌﺳﺎﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﻁﻼﻕ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻻﺑﺩ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻪ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻝ ﺷﺩﻳﺩ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﺍﻟﺗﺟﺭﻳﺑﻲ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺗﻧﺎﻭﻟﺗﻪ‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺻﺑﺎﺡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻗﺗﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻧﻲ ﺃﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﺑﻁﻳﺋﺔ ﻟﻛﻧﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﺣﻘﻖ ﺗﻘﺩ ًﻣﺎ ﻣﻠﺣﻭ ً‬
‫ﻅﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ‪:‬‬
‫ﺑﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء!‬
‫ﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﻫﺩﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﺷﺎﺭﻉ ﻭﺿﻭﺿﺎء ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺭﻭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﻝ ﻣﺣﻠﻬﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺻﻣﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺛﺎﻟﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻗﻭﻯ ﺻﻣﺕ ﻣﺭﺭﺕ ﺑﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ!‬
‫ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺣﺭﻛﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﺑﻭﻁﻳﺔ ﺗﺟﻣﺩﺕ ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺗﺣﺭﻙ!‬
‫ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺑﺩﺃ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﻭﻡ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺗﺻﻭﺭﻱ ﻟﻠﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﺑﻁﺄ ﺑﺿﻊ ﻣﺋﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺍﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﻔﻌﻠﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺩ ﺩﺧﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﻭﻡ ﺣﻳﺯ ﺍﻟﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﺻﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﺑﻁﺄ ﺑﺂﻻﻑ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺍﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﺩﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻛﻝ ﺛﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺣﺗﻰ ﻣﺟﺭﺩ ﺗﺣﺭﻳﻙ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻟﻠﺗﺭﻛﻳﺯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﻘﻁﺔ ﺟﺩﻳﺩﺓ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺛﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﻣﺭﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﺑﻁﻲء ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺳﺗﺣﻳﻝ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﻣﺟﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺑﺻﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﺧﺎﺹ‬
‫ﺑﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺻﻼ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ ﺗﻌﻠﻣﺕ ﻛﻳﻔﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﺭﻛﺽ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻔﺯ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻫﻧﻲ ﺃﺳﺭﻉ ﺑﻣﺋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺍﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺟﺳﺩﻱ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻣﻊ ﻭﺟﻭﺩ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﺃﺿﻌﺎﻑ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﺑﺎﻁﺅ‬
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‫ﻣﺳﺗﺣﻳﻼ ﺗﻘﺭﻳﺑًﺎ‪..‬‬ ‫ﺑﺳﺑﺏ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﺣﻛﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺟﺳﻡ‬
‫ﻭﻫﻧﺎ ﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺳﻘﻁ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺗﺟﻣﺩﺍ ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻧﺗﺻﻑ ﺍﻟﺧﻁﻭﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺗﺣﻳﻝ ﺍﻟﺗﺣﻛﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺿﻼﺗﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺃﻣﺭﺕ ﻗﺩﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻡ ﻟﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻭﺭﺍء ﻟﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ‪ ..‬ﺗﻌﺛﺭﺕ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺃﺣﺳﺏ ﺧﻁﻭﺍﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺑﺩﺃ‬
‫ﻛﺎﺣﻠﻰ ﻳﻠﺗﻭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺳﻭﻑ ﻳﻬﺎﺟﻣﻧﻰ ﻋﻧﻳﻔﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺿﺑﻁ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﻛﺎﺣﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺇﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺿﺑﻁ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺧﻁﺄ!‬

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 ‫ﺃﻣﺎ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺍﻟﺳﻰء ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﻡ ﺗﺧﻔﻳﻑ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ ﺑﺳﺑﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺑﻁء‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺿﻐﻁ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺯﺍﻳﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﺎﺣﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺣﻧﻲ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻭﻑ ﻳﻧﻔﺻﻝ ﻋﻥ ﺟﺳﺩﻱ ﻓﻲ ﻟﺣﻅﺔ ﻣﺎ!‬
‫ﺃﻻ ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﻣﻝ ﺍﻹﺷﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺻﺑﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺗﺳﺑﺏ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺩﻣﺎﻍ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺧﺗﻠﻑ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻷﻋﺻﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺟﺯء‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺄﺛﺭ؟!‬
‫ﺍﻧﺗﺷﺭﺕ ﻁﺎﻗﺔ ﺻﻭﺗﻳﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺭﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺛﻡ ﺗﻡ ﺗﺧﻔﻳﻔﻬﺎ ﺣﺗﻰ‬
‫ﺃﺻﺑﺣﺕ ﻏﻳﺭ ﻣﺣﺳﻭﺳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻛﺢ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺻﺭﺥ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺩﻓّﻖ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺩﻣﺎﻏﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﺧﻔﻳﻑ ﺑﺳﺑﺏ ﺍﻟﺗﻐﻳﻳﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺩﺭﺍﻛﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺣﻣﻠﺕ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻭﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺯﻳﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻭﺯﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﺎﺣﻠﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻠﺗﻭﻯ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻓﻅﻳﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺯﺍﻳﺩ ﻋﻧﺩ ﺯﻳﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺟﻣﻠﺔ ﺭﻫﻳﺑﺔ ﻟﻭ ﺗﺩﺭﻯ!‬
‫ﺗﻘﺩﻣﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻡ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻓﺷﻳﺋﺎ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﻋﺎﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﻏﻳﺭ ﻗﺎﺩﺭ ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺗﺣﻛﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺳﺩﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻧﺧﻔﺽ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻋﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺟﺭﻓﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺳﻔﻝ ﻟﻌﺩﺓ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻣﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺗﺩﻭﻳﺭ ﺟﺫﻋﻲ ﺑﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻳﻛﻔﻲ ﻟﻣﻧﻊ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﻁﺎﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﺃﻭﻻً!‬
‫ﻫﺑﻁﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﺗﻔﻲ ﺍﻷﻳﻣﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺑﺩﺍﻳﺔ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻠﺣﻭ ً‬
‫ﻅﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺿﻐﻁ ﻁﻔﻳﻑ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻛﺗﻔﻲ ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﻼﻣﺱ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﺯﺩﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﺿﻐﻁ ﻭﺟﻠﺏ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺗﺯﺍﻳﺩ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻠﻥ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻭﺟﻭﺩﻩ ﻭﺍﺿﺣﺎ ﺟﻠﻳﺎ ﻳﺻﺭﺥ ﺩﺍﺧﻝ ﻋﻘﻠﻰ‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺗﻭﻗﻔﺕ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺑﺄﻳﺎﻡ ﻭﺍﻧﻬﺭﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﺃﺣﺩﻕ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﻘﻑ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺗﻔﻲ ﻻ ﻳﺯﺍﻝ ﻳﺻﺭﺥ ﻣﻊ ﺷﺩﺓ ﺍﻹﺻﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻧﻳﻔﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺟﺩﻳﺩﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻟﻠﺗﻔﻛﻳﺭ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍ ﺑﺩﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻛﻝ ﺛﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﺳﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﻛﻝ ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﻲ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺳﻧﻭﺍﺕ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻭﺣﺗﻰ ﻟﻭ ﺃﺯﻳﻝ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﻣﻥ ﺟﻬﺎﺯﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﻋﺗﻳﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺛﻼﺙ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻛﺎﺑﻭﺱ ﺳﻳﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﻟﻘﺭﻭﻥ ﻣﻌﻰ!‬
‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻬﺽ ﻟﻛﻧﻰ ﺃﺳﺄﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻘﺩﻳﺭ ﻓﻭﻗﻌﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻅﻬﺭﻯ ﻣﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺍﺧﺗﺻﺭﺕ ﻟﻙ ﺃﻳﺎﻣﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺷﻘﺎء! ﻛﻳﻑ ﺃﺗﺣﻛﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺟﺳﻡ‬
‫ﻳﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﺃﺑﻁﺄ ﻣﻥ ﻧﻣﻭ ﺍﻷﻋﺷﺎﺏ؟!‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ ﺍﺳﺗﻧﺩﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺩﻯ ﻭﺭﻛﺑﺗﻰ ﺑﻌﺩ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻳﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺑﻁء ﺍﻟﻣﺧﻳﻑ ﺍﻛﺗﺷﻔﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﻲ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺟﺭﻱ ﺃﻣﺭ‬
‫ﻏﻳﺭ ﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ؛ ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﺯﺣﻔﺕ!‬
‫ﺯﺣﻔﺕ ﻋﺑﺭ ﻧﻔﻖ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺭﻭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻲ ﻷﺳﺎﺑﻳﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﺣﻣﻝ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭﺍﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻭﻩ ﺍﻟﺣﺷﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺑﻘﻳﺕ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﺯﺣﻔﺕ ﻭﺯﺣﻔﺕ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺭﺃﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺭﻭ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﻠﻔﻅ ﺟﻣﻭﻉ ﺍﻟﺧﺎﺭﺟﻳﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻧﻪ ﻭﻛﻧﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺫﺭﻭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻁﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻰ ﺳﻳﺄﺗﻰ ﺑﻌﺩ ﻋﺷﺭ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﺫﻥ ﺳﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ‪ ..‬ﻋﺎﻡ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ؟‬
‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺿﻲ ﻋﺎ ًﻣﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻧﺻﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺭﻭ ﻭﻫﻭ ﺃﺷﺑﻪ ﺑﺎﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺯﺣﻔﺕ ﻣﺑﺗﻌﺩﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﻠﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺣﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺎﻧﻳﺕ ﺃﻳﺎ ًﻣﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﻌﺑﻳﺭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﺑﻳﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻭﻩ ﺍﻟﺭﻛﺎﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﺯﺣﻔﺕ ﺑﺿﻌﺔ ﺃﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻘﻌﺩ ﺧﺭﺳﺎﻧﻲ ﻭﺍﻧﺣﻧﻳﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﻭﺍﺭﻩ‬
‫ﻣﺣﺎﻭﻻً ﺇﻳﺟﺎﺩ ﻭﺿﻊ ﻣﺭﻳﺢ ﻟﺗﺧﻔﻳﻑ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺗﻔﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺳﺎءﺕ ﻣﺷﻛﻠﺗﻲ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺳﻭﺃ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺗﺣﻳﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻷﺳﻭﺃ ﻗﺎﺩﻡ!‬
‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﺑﺎﻁﺅ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺋﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺝ ﻣﺟﺭﺩ ﺑﺩﺍﻳﺔ ﻟﻠﺗﻔﺎﻋﻝ ﺑﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﺟﺭﻳﺑﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻭﺍء ﺍﻟﻣﻧﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻧﺎ ﻏﻠﺑﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﻣﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﺿﻊ ﻭﻣﺿﺎﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺿﻭء ﺛﻡ ﺳﺎﺩﺕ ﺳﻧﻭﺍﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻅﻼﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺫﻫﺑﺕ ﺍﻷﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻧﺳﻳﺕ ﺻﻭﺗﻰ!‬
‫ﺿﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻅﻼﻡ ﻓﻼ ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺇﻻ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻳﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﺧﺗﻔﻰ ﺍﻟﺑﺻﺭ ﺃﻳ ً‬
‫ﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩًﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺻﺎﺑﻧﻲ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻛﻝ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺃﻏﻣﺿﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻰ ﻓﻘﻁ!‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﻳﺿﻳﻊ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺳﺎﺭﻉ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﻗﺗًﺎ ﻟﻠﺗﻌﻭﻳﺽ ﻋﻥ ﻧﻘﺹ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺩﺧﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺣﺳﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﺣﺩﺛﺕ ﻟﻲ ﺃﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺓ ﺟﻣﻳﻠﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻏﻧﻭﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺑﻠﻐﺎﺕ ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩﺓ ﻣﻥ ﻗﺑﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺫﻛﺭﺕ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻲ ﻛﻠﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻝ ﺗﺧﻳﻠﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻳﺵ ﺣﻳﺎﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﻧﺳﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻛﻼﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﺣﺩﺛﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﷲ ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﺧﻳﻠﺕ ﻛﻭﻧًﺎ ﺟﺩﻳﺩًﺍ ﻭﺃﺣﻳﻳﺗﻪ ﺑﺄﻓﻛﺎﺭﻱ‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﺗﺣﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻣﻊ ﺑﻁء ﺧﺭﺍﻓﻰ ﻷﺭﻯ ﺗﻭﻫﺞ ﺑﺎﻫﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻳﻊ ﺃﻓﺗﺢ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﻋﻳﻧﻰ ﻷﺭﻯ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺷﻘﺎ ﺿﻭﺋﻳﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻳﻊ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﺣﺗﻰ ﻅﻬﺭ ﻣﻧﻅﺭ ﺿﻳﻖ ﻟﻣﻧﺻﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺭﻭ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺭﻯ ﻗﺩﻣﻳﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻧﻲ ﻭﺇﻋﻼﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺟﺩﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﻣﻘﺎﺑﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﺳﺗﺧﺭﺟﺕ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ ﻣﻥ ﺟﻳﺑﻲ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻣﺷﺭﻭﻉ ﺍﻣﺗﺩ ﻟﻌﻘﻭﺩ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻛﻳﻑ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺷﺭﺡ ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻝ؟ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺗﻔﻲ ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻘﺎﺭﻧﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻣﻠﻝ!‬
‫ﻛﻝ ﻓﻛﺭ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻛﺭ ﻓﻳﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻛﺭﺕ ﻓﻳﻪ ﻣﺋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺍﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ!‬
‫ﻻ ﻳﺗﻐﻳﺭ ﻣﻧﻅﺭ ﺍﻟﻛﺎﺣﻠﻳﻥ ﻭﺍﻹﻋﻼﻧﺎﺕ ﺃﺑﺩًﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺑﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻝ ﺷﺩﻳﺩ ﻟﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﻠﻣﻭﺱ ‪ -‬ﻣﺛﻝ ﺟﺳﻡ ﺻﻠﺏ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺩﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺣﺟﺭ ﻣﺛﺑﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻣﺟﻣﺗﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﻫﻲ ﺧﻳﺎﺭﺍﺗﻲ؟‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍ ﺯﺣﻔﺕ ﻭﺳﻘﻁﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻰ ﻳﺳﻳﺭ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﺎ ﻗﻁﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻗﺎﺩﻡ ﻓﺳﻭﻑ ﻳﺳﺣﻘﻧﻰ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻥ ﺃﻣﻭﺕ ﻓﻭﺭﺍ!‬
‫ﺳﻭﻑ ﺃﻋﺎﻧﻲ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﺑﺭ ﻣﻣﺎ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺧﻳﻠﻪ ﻭﻟﺳﻭﻑ ﻳﺳﺗﻣﺭ‬
‫ﻭﻳﺳﺗﻣﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﻣﻌﺎﻧﺎﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﻧﺎﺭﻳﻭ ﺑﻼ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻋﺷﺕ ﻣﺋﺎﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﻋﻣﺎﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻘﻌﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻛﺑﺭ ﺳﻧﺎ ً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﻭﺡ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻱ ﺇﻧﺳﺎﻥ ﻋﺎﺵ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﻌﻅﻡ ﺗﺟﺭﺑﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻲ ﻟﻘﻁﺔ ﺛﺎﺑﺗﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﻛﺩﺱ‬
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 ‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺭﺿﻳﺔ ﻣﻧﺻﺔ ﻣﺗﺭﻭ ﺍﻷﻧﻔﺎﻕ ﻣﻊ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺛﺎﺑﺗﺔ ﻟﻠﻘﺩﻣﻳﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻹﻋﻼﻧﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻵﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺷﻭﺭ ﻫﻭ ﺧﻁﺗﻲ ﺍﻷﺧﺭﻯ ﻟﻘﺻﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻳﻠﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺃﻣﺿﻳﺕ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺗﺎﺑﺔ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻭﻧﺷﺭﻫﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻣﻝ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﻘﺭﺃﻫﺎ ﺷﺧﺹ ﻣﺎ ﻭﻳﺻﺑﺢ ﻣﻘﺗﻧﻌًﺎ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻣﻌﺎﻧﺎﺗﻲ ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻧﺗﻬﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﺧﺹ ﻣﺎ ﺟﻭﺍﺭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﺧﺹ ﺳﻳﺟﺩ ﺭﺟﻼ ﺟﺎﻟﺳﺎ ﺑﻼ ﺣﺭﺍﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻳﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﺣﺭﻛﺎﺕ ﻫﺳﺗﻳﺭﻳﺔ ﻓﺎﺋﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻋﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻛﺗﺑﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﻓﻣﺯﻗﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺩﺓ ﻣﻭﺍﺿﻊ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻻﺑﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺑﺟﻭﺍﺭﻯ ﺗﻌﺟﺏ ﻣﻥ ﺳﺭﻋﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﻫﻳﺑﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺑﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻭﺭﻕ ﻳﺗﻣﺯﻕ ﺃﺣﻳﺎﻧﺎ ﺗﺣﺕ ﻳﺩﻱ‪..‬‬
‫ﻧﺳﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺑﺔ ﻭﺗﺫﻛﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻧﺳﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﻭﺗﺫﻛﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺭﺟﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻰ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺳﺗﻌﻣﻠﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﺃﺭﺟﻭﻙ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻭﺟﺩﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﺟﻭﺍﺭﻱ ﻓﺎﻗﺗﻠﻧﻲ ﺑﺄﺳﺭﻉ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺕ ﻣﻣﻛﻥ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺭﺻﺎﺻﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﺃﺱ ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺓ!‬
‫ﺃﺭﺟﻭﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺳﻠ ًﺣﺎ ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺭﻭ ﻓﻳﺭﺟﻰ ﺇﻁﻼﻕ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺭ ﻋﻠﻲ!‬
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 ‫ﺗﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﻣﺎﻧﺪﻳﻼ‬

‫ﻳﺤﻜﻴﻬﺎ‪ :‬أﺣﻤﺪ!‬

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 ‫)ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ(‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﺑﺎﺭﺓ ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﺗﻌﻧﻲ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺧﻳﻑ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺑﻖ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺷﺎﻫﺩﺕ ﻋﻧﻬﺎ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺷﻭﺭﺍﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻳﺱ ﺑﻭﻙ ﻓﻘﻁ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﺷﻳﺋًﺎ ﻓﻛﺭﺕ ﻓﻳﻪ ﻷﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺧﻣﺱ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺗﺛﺭ ﺍﻫﺗﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺩﺧﻭﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﻳﺔ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺣﺗﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻌﻧﺎﻫﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﻣﻥ ﻫﻭ )ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ( ﻫﺫﺍ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭﻩ ﺑﺎﻟﺿﺑﻁ!‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺳﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺻﺣﺎﺏ ﻧﻅﺭﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺅﺍﻣﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻭﺍﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺍﺯﻳﺔ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﻗﺻﺹ ﺍﻷﺷﺑﺎﺡ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺑﻳﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺗﻭﻗﻊ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺷﺧﺹ ﻣﺛﻠﻲ؟ ﺑﺎﻟﺗﺄﻛﻳﺩ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻫﺗﻡ ﺑﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﻧﻭﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺎﻟﺗﺄﻛﻳﺩ ﻛﻧﺕ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻣﻧﻰ ﻟﻭ ﻅﻠﻠﺕ ﺟﺎﻫﻼ ﺑﻪ!‬
‫ﺑﺩﺃ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﻓﻲ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻣﻌﺎﻣﻝ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺃﺩﺭﺱ ﺑﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺩﺭﺱ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﺎﺓ ﻭ)ﺍﻟﺑﻳﻭﻟﻭﺟﻳﺎ(‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺷﺭﻳﻥ ﻣﻥ ﻋﻣﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‬
‫ﻗﺭﻳﺑًﺎ ﺟﺩًﺍ ﻣﻥ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﻓﺻﻝ ﺍﻟﺧﺭﻳﻑ ﺣﻳﺙ ﺍﻟﺣﺭ ﻳﻬﺟﻡ ﻋﻠﻳﻧﺎ ﻳﻭﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻳﺻﻳﺭ ﺑﺭﺩﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻲ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﺃﻋﻁﺗﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺩﻛﺗﻭﺭﺓ )ﻣﺭﻭﺓ( ﺍﻟﺗﻛﻠﻳﻑ ﺑﻣﺷﺎﺭﻳﻌﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺑﻛﺭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﻣﻠﻙ ﻗﻠﺑًﺎ ﻭﻟﻳﺳﺕ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻷﺳﺎﺗﺫﺓ‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻧﻬﺎﺋﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻵﺧﺭﻳﻥ ﻣﺗﺣﺟﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﺭﻳﺩﻧﺎ ﺃﻻ ﻧﺩﺭﺱ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻭﺍﺣﺩ ﺣﺗﻰ ﻧﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺍﻻﺳﺗﻳﻌﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﻛﺭﺕ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺇﺟﺭﺍء ﻧﻬﺎﺋﻳﺎﺗﻧﺎ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻣﻧﺣﻧﺎ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺧﺹ ﺁﺧﺭ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻭﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺇﻟﻬﺎء‪ ..‬ﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﻟﻁﻳﻔﺔ ﺃﻋﻁﺗﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻣﺯﻳﺩ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻣﺯﻳﺩ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻓﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻠﺣﻖ ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﺍﺣﺑﺑﺗﻬﺎ ﻟﺫﻟﻙ‪ ..‬ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﺟﺯ ًءﺍ ﻣﻧﻲ ﻳﺗﻣﻧﻰ ﻟﻭ‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﻗﺩ ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺳﺎﻋﺩﻧﺎ ﺑﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ‪ ..‬ﻟﻭ ﺃﺣﺑﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺳﺎﻋﺩﻧﺎ ﻓﻣﺎ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﺎ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻐﻲ ﺍﻻﻣﺗﺣﺎﻧﺎﺕ!‬
‫ﻣﺛﻼ!‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﺍﻷﺧﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺗﻧﺎ ﻣﻌﻬﺎ ﺣﺿﺭ ﻣﻌﻅﻡ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ‪ ..‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ ﻟﻳﺳﺕ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻗﻳﻣﺔ‬
‫ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﻳﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻧﻧﺎ ﻟﻥ ﻧﻔﻌﻝ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺣﻘًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺑﻌﺽ ﻣﻧﺎ ﻣﻠﺯ ًﻣﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺣﺿﻭﺭ ﻻﺣﺗﺳﺎﺏ ﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻐﻳﺎﺏ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﻣﺎ ﻅﻬﺭ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﻁﻼﺏ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻣﻥ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻣﺟﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻟﻠﺩﻛﺗﻭﺭ‬
‫)ﻣﺭﻭﺓ(‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﺷﺧﺻﻳﺎ ً ﻛﻧﺕ ﺣﺎﺿﺭﺍ ﻷﻧﻲ ﺃﺣﺑﺑﺕ ﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺍﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﺃﺳﻠﻭﺑﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﻋﺭﺿﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻅﻠﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ ﻣﺳﺗﻣﺭﺓ ﻟﻣﺩﺓ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﺧﻣﺱ ﻋﺷﺭﺓ ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺩﺭﻳﺳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﺑﻣﺛﺎﺑﺔ ﻓﻭﺯ ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻲ‪ ..‬ﻭﻟﻠﺣﻖ ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﻟﻡ‬
‫ﻳﻛﻥ ﻟﺩﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺃﻓﺿﻝ ﻷﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ ﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﺩﻛﺗﻭﺭﺓ )ﻣﺭﻭﺓ( ﺑﺷﻛﻝ‬
‫ﻣﺧﺗﻠﻑ ﻗﻠﻳﻼً ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺗﺎﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻏﺎﻟﺑًﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻧﺑﺩﺃ ﺑﺣﺩﺙ ﺣﺎﻟﻲ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﺣﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻣﻳﺔ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻷﺳﺑﻭﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺎﺿﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻗﺻﺩ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻳﺗﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺋﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺩﻟﺔ ﻭﺭﺍﺛﻳًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻧﺧﻔﺎﺽ ﺍﻟﻛﺑﻳﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺩﺩ ﺍﻟﺯﺭﺍﻓﺎﺕ ﻣﺛﻼ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺁﺧﺭ‬
‫ﻳﺗﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﻌﻠﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﺎﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﺗﺣﺩﺛﻧﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺷﻲء ﺑﻌﻳﺩ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﺫﺍ ﺻﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺑﻳﻭﻟﻭﺟﻳﺎ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻳﺗﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ )ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ(!‬
‫ﻭﻗﺗﻬﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﻣﻊ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻥ ﻗﺑﻝ؛ ﻭﻣﻌﻅﻣﻧﺎ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻔﻌﻝ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ .‬ﻟﻛﻥ‬
‫ﺩ‪).‬ﻣﺭﻭﺓ( ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺷﻐﻭﻓﺔ ﺑﺫﻟﻙ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ..‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺗﺎﺩ ﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﻣﺭﺣﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺃﺛﻧﺎء ﺍﻟﺗﺩﺭﻳﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻛﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﺗﺣﻣﺳﺔ ﻭﻣﻧﻁﻠﻘﺔ‬

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 ‫ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻛﺑﻳﺭ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ ﺷﻐﻔﻧﺎ ﻧﺣﻥ ﻭﻧﺣﻥ ﻧﺳﺗﻣﻊ ﺇﻟﻳﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﺑﺩﺃﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ ﺑﻘﻭﻟﻬﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺣﺳﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﻷﻭﻟﺋﻙ ﻣﻧﻛﻡ ﺍﻟﺫﻳﻥ ﻳﺗﺣﻠﻭﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﺗﻔﻛﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﺟﻳﺩ ﺑﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻳﻛﻔﻲ ﻟﻳﺣﺿﺭﻭﺍ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﺩﻱ ﻣﻔﺟﺄﺓ ﻟﻛﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻋﻠﻣﻛﻡ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﻋﻥ ﺷﻲء ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻟﻥ ﺗﻧﺳﻭﻩ ﺃﺑﺩًﺍ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻛﻡ‪ ،‬ﺑﻝ ﻭﺭﻣﺎ ﻳﻐﻳﺭ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻛﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻭ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻛﻼﻡ ﺇﻋﺟﺎﺑﻛﻡ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻝ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﻣﺗﺄﻛﺩﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻧﻛﻡ‬
‫ﺳﺗﻛﻭﻧﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ..‬ﻭﺍﻟﺣﻣﺎﺱ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﻷﺣﺩ ﻣﻧﻛﻡ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺧﺑﺭﻧﻲ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺣﺩﺙ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻣﺎﺕ‬
‫)ﻧﻳﻠﺳﻭﻥ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ(؟‬
‫ﻧﻅﺭ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺣﻭﻟﻬﻡ ﺑﺎﺭﺗﺑﺎﻙ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﻣﻌﻠﻭﻣﺔ ﻣﺣﺩﺩﺓ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻻ ﻳﻌﺭﻓﻬﺎ ﺃﺣﺩﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺭﻓﻌﺕ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ ﻳﺩﻫﺎ ﻁﺎﻟﺑﺔ ﺍﻹﺫﻥ ﺑﺎﻹﺟﺎﺑﺔ‪ ..‬ﺛﻡ‬
‫ﻧﻬﺿﺕ ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺕ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﻧﺫ ﻋﺎﻣﻳﻥ ‪ 2012‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ‪.‬‬
‫)ﺃﺭﺟﻭﻙ ﻻ ﺗﻧﺱ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﺣﻛﻲ ﻗﺻﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺎﺿﻲ(‬

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 ‫ﺃﻭﻣﺄﺕ ﺩ‪).‬ﻣﺭﻭﺓ( ﺑﺭﺃﺳﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺑﻁء‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻧﻅﺭ ﻟﻠﻔﺻﻝ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻭ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﻧﺗﻅﺭ ﺷﻳﺋًﺎ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﻧﻅﺭﺓ ﻅﻔﺭ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻣﺎ ﻭﺟﺩﺕ‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺷﻲء‪ ..‬ﻭﻓﺟﺄﺓ ﺃﺷﺎﺭﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻟﺳﻳﻥ ﻭﺳﺄﻟﺗﻪ ﺑﻠﻁﻑ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺕ‪ ..‬ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻭﺟﻪ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺗﺑﻙ؟ ﻫﻝ ﺗﺷﻌﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﻠﻭﻣﺔ‬
‫ﻣﺣﺗﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﺻﺣﻳﺢ ﻣﺛﻼ؟‬
‫ﺗﻔﺎﺟﺄ ﺑﺎﻟﺣﺩﻳﺙ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺟﻪ ﻟﻪ ﻓﻧﻬﺽ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺣﺳﻧًﺎ‪ ..‬ﺍﻋﺗﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﻧﺫ ﻓﺗﺭﺓ‪ ..‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻓﺗﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﺳﻌﻳﻧﻳﺎﺕ ﺃﻭ ﻣﺎ ﺷﺎﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺟﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺑﺗﺳﻣﺕ ﺩ‪).‬ﻣﺭﻭﺓ( ﺑﻔﺭﺣﺔ ﻏﻳﺭ ﻣﺑﺭﺭﺓ ﻟﻧﺎ ﻭﻗﺗﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﻭﺟﻬﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﻼﻡ ﻟﻧﺎ ﺟﻣﻳﻌﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺣﺳﻧًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﻛﻡ؟ ﻫﻝ ﺯﻣﻳﻠﺗﻛﻡ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﺯﻣﻳﻠﻛﻡ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﺭﺏ ﻟﻠﺻﻭﺍﺏ؟‬
‫ﺑﺩﺍ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﻣﺗﺿﺎﺭﺑﻳﻥ‪ ..‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻌﻅﻣﻧﺎ ﻣﺛﻠﻲ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ‬
‫ﻟﺩﻳﻪ ﺃﺩﻧﻰ ﻓﻛﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﺗﻔﻖ ﺷﺧﺻﺎﻥ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻁﺎﻟﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺗﻔﻖ ﺷﺧﺹ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺣﺩ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻌﺟﺑﺎ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ!‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﻔﺗﺕ ﺍﻟﺩﻛﺗﻭﺭ )ﻣﺭﻭﺓ( ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺕ‪:‬‬

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 ‫ﺕ ﺃﻗﺭﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺩﻗﺔ ﻳﺎ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ‪ ..‬ﺗﻭﻓﻲ )ﻧﻳﻠﺳﻭﻥ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ(‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ِ‬
‫ﻣﺗﺄﺛﺭﺍ ً ﺑﺈﺻﺎﺑﺗﻪ ﺑﻌﺩﻭﻯ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺟﻬﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﺗﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺧﺎﻣﺱ‬
‫ﻣﻥ )ﺩﻳﺳﻣﺑﺭ( ‪ ،2013‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﻌﺗﻘﺩ ﺍﻟﺑﻌﺽ ﻣﻧﻛﻡ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪ ﺗﻭﻓﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺟﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺑﺩﺍﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﺳﻌﻳﻧﻳﺎﺕ؟‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺩﻳﺩ ﻣﻧﻛﻡ ﻳﻌﺗﻘﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ..‬ﻣﻥ ﺃﻳﻥ ﺗﻭﺻﻠﺗﻡ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻻﺳﺗﻧﺗﺎﺝ؟‬
‫ﺭﻓﻊ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻟﺳﻳﻥ ﻳﺩﻩ ﺛﻡ ﻗﺎﻝ ﺑﺎﺭﺗﺑﺎﻙ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺳﻡ ﺃﻧﻧﺎ ﺗﻌﻠﻣﻧﺎ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻑ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺩﺱ‬
‫ﻣﺛﻼ‪ ..‬ﺃﻭ ﺳﻣﻌﺕ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺧﺑﺎﺭ‪ ..‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻳﻠﻡ‬
‫ﻭﺛﺎﺋﻘﻲ ﻋﻥ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﺦ ﺍﻟﺳﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﺫﻳﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻳﻭﻣﺎ!‬
‫ﻭﺭﻓﻌﺕ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻳﺩﻫﺎ ﺛﻡ ﻗﺎﻟﺕ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻧﻌﻡ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻛﻬﺫﺍ ﻭﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻔﻳﻠﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻭﺛﺎﺋﻘﻲ‪ ..‬ﻭﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺯﻭﺟﺗﻪ ﺩﺧﻠﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺎﻙ‬
‫ﻗﺿﺎﺋﻳﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺇﺣﺩﻯ ﺍﻟﺷﺭﻛﺎﺕ ﺑﻌﺩ ﻭﻓﺎﺗﻪ ﺑﻘﻠﻳﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺻﺎﺣﺕ ﺩ‪).‬ﻣﺭﻭﺓ( ﺑﺣﻣﺎﺱ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺻﻔﻖ ﺑﻳﺩﻳﻬﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺭﺍﺋﻊ‪ ..‬ﻛﻼﻡ ﺭﺍﺋﻊ ﻳﺎ ﺷﺑﺎﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﺩﻛﺗﻭﺭﺓ )ﻣﺭﻭﺓ( ﺭﺍﺿﻳﺔ ﻭﻣﺗﺣﻣﺳﺔ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺗﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻣﺿﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺎﺑﻌﺕ ﻛﻼﻣﻬﺎ‪:‬‬
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 ‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺗﻡ ﺗﺫﻛﺭﻭﻥ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻗﻳﻝ ﻓﻳﻣﺎ ﻋﺩﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻝ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪ ..‬ﻭﻟﻭ ﺃﺭﺩﺗﻡ ﺩﻟﻳﻼ ﻓﺎﻓﺗﺣﻭﺍ ﺷﺑﻛﺔ ﺍﻹﻧﺗﺭﻧﺕ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺑﺣﺛﻭﺍ ﻋﻥ )ﻧﻳﻠﺳﻭﻥ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ( ﻓﻠﻥ ﺗﺟﺩﻭﺍ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻋﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﺳﻌﻳﻧﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺳﺟﻥ‪ ..‬ﻭﻟﻥ ﺗﺟﺩﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻔﻳﻠﻡ ﺍﻟﻭﺛﺎﺋﻘﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺯﻋﻭﻡ!‬
‫ﻭﺣﺗﻰ ﻟﻭ ﺑﺣﺛﺗﻡ ﻋﻥ )ﻣﻭﺕ ﻭﺳﺟﻥ ﻧﻳﻠﺳﻭﻥ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ(‪ .‬ﻟﻥ ﺗﺟﺩ‬
‫ً‬
‫ﻣﻘﺎﻻ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﺑﻛﺔ ﺳﻲ ﺇﻥ ﺇﻥ ﻣﺛﻼ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻓﻳﻠ ًﻣﺎ ﻭﺛﺎﺋﻘﻳًﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺟﻧﺎﺯﺗﻪ‬
‫ﺗﻡ ﺑﺛﻪ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﺗﻠﻔﺯﻳﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺃﻧﺣﺎء ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ‪ .‬ﻟﻥ ﺗﺟﺩ ﺳﺑﺏ‬
‫ﻭﻓﺎﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﻣﺯﻋﻭﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻥ ﺗﺟﺩ ﺷﻳﺋًﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻋﻣﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺷﻐﺏ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺩﻥ‬
‫ﺟﻧﻭﺏ ﺇﻓﺭﻳﻘﻳﺎ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺗﺫﻛﺭﻭﻧﻬﺎ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ .‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ!‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺭﺍﺑﺔ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﺷﻲء‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻌﻅﻡ ﺍﻟﻁﻼﺏ‬
‫ﺻﺎﻣﺗﻳﻥ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻳﻧﺗﻅﺭﻭﻥ ﻣﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺷﺭﺡ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ‪ ..‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺩﺃﺕ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺷﺭﺣﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻭﺭ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻅﺎﻫﺭﺓ ﻣﻌﺭﻭﻓﺔ ﺑﺎﺳﻡ )ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ(‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻟﻐﺯ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻣﻝ‪ ..‬ﺷﺫﻭﺫ ﻏﺎﻣﺽ ﺟﺩﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻭﻛﺏ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻭﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ ﺑﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻔﺳﻳﺭ ﻋﻠﻣﻲ ﻣﻘﻧﻊ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬‬
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 ‫ﻭﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻧﻘﻁﺔ ﺍﻧﻁﻠﻘﺕ ﺗﺷﺭﺡ ﻭﺗﻌﺭﺽ ﻟﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭﻳﺔ ﻁﻭﺍﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﺧﻣﺱ ﻋﺷﺭﺓ ﺩﻗﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻰ ﺗﺣﺩﺛﺕ ﻋﻧﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﺛﻡ ﺍﻧﺗﻬﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻳﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻣﺭﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻥ ﻣﻠﺧﺹ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻲ‪:‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭﻳﺔ ﺗﻘﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ )ﻧﻳﻠﺳﻭﻥ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ( ﻣﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺟﻥ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﺳﻌﻳﻧﻳﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﺣﺩﺙ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺎ ﻋﻛﺱ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﺙ‬
‫ﺑﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺍﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﺎﺓ ﻟﻌﻘﻭﺩ ﺃﻁﻭﻝ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻣﻭﺕ‬
‫ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺎﻡ ‪.2013‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺑﻌﺽ ﻣﻧﺎ ﻻ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻭﻓﺎﺓ )ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ( ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺭﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺷﺭﻳﻥ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻵﺧﺭ ﻳﺫﻛﺭ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻭﺑﻛﻝ‬
‫ﻭﺿﻭﺡ‪ ..‬ﺣﺗﻰ ﺇﻧﻬﻡ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﻐﻁﻳﺔ ﺍﻹﺧﺑﺎﺭﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺻﺣﻑ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺧﻁﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺻﺎﺩﻕ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺭﻣﻠﺗﻪ ‪ -‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻛﻝ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﺧﺗﻔﻰ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻛﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻭﻗﻊ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﺙ ﻭﺃﻋﺎﺩ ﻛﺗﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﺭﻳﺦ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ!‬
‫ﻭﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺑﻘﻰ ﻫﻭ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺫﺍﻛﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﺎﻋﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺿﺧﻣﺔ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺷﺧﺻﻳﺎ ً‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻗﻳﻝ ﻟﻲ ﺇﻥ )ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ( ﻣﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﺳﻌﻳﻧﻳﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻟﻛﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺑﻭﺿﻭﺡ!‬
‫ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻧﻭﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭﻳﺎﺕ ﻭﺭﺍء ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ‪:‬‬
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 ‫ﻋﺎ ﻫﻰ ﻧﻅﺭﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺳﻔﺭ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﺯﻣﻥ‪ ..‬ﻳﻘﻭﻟﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻭﺍﻷﻗﻝ ﺷﻳﻭ ً‬
‫ﺻﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻋﺎﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻭﺭﺍء ﻭﻗﺎﻡ ﺑﺗﻐﻳﻳﺭ ﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺷﺧ ً‬
‫ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﻣﺿﺎﻋﻔًﺎ ﺃﺩﻯ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﻐﻳﻳﺭ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺎ‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﻁﻔﻳﻑ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﺧﻠﻖ‬
‫ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻛﺑﻳﺭ‪ ..‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻳُﻌﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﻔﺭ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﺯﻣﻥ ﺃﻣﺭ ﺧﻳﺎﻟﻲ ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻏﻳﺭ ﻣﺣﺗﻣﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﺎ ﻫﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻋﺩﺓ ﺃﻛﻭﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻷﻛﺛﺭ ﺷﻳﻭ ً‬
‫ﺟﻣﻳﻌﻬﺎ ﻣﺗﻭﺍﺯﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﺣﻳﺎﻧًﺎ ﺗﻠﺗﻘﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺳﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻣﺗﻘﺎﻁﻌﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻻﻟﺗﻘﺎء ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻛﻝ ﻣﻥ ﺳﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻣﻳﻥ ﺑﻌﺽ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﺍﻵﺧﺭ‪ ..‬ﺃﻭ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻳﺗﻡ ﺗﺑﺎﺩﻝ ﺍﻷﺣﺩﺍﺙ ﺑﻳﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻣﻳﻥ!‬
‫ﺇﺫﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﻋﺎﺵ )ﻧﻳﻠﺳﻭﻥ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ( ﺣﺗﻰ ﻋﺎﻡ ‪ 2013‬ﻭﺗﻭﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺑﺳﺑﺏ ﻋﺩﻭﻯ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺟﻬﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﺗﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺎﻟﻣﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺩﻟﻳﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﺳﻌﻳﻧﺎﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﻌﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﺧﻳﺎﻝ ﻧﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﺧﺎﺻﺎ ﺁﺧﺭﻳﻥ ﻳﻌﻳﺷﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻭﺍﺯ ﻳﻌﺗﻘﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﺎﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺩﻭﻯ ﺍﻟﺗﻧﻔﺳﻳﺔ ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﻋﻧﺩﻫﻡ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﺳﻌﻳﻧﺎﺕ!‬
‫ﻁﺑﻌﺎ ﻟﻳﺱ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﻣﺛﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩ‪ ..‬ﻣﺛﻼ‪:‬‬
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 ‫ﻣﺛﻼ ﻛﻝ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻭﻥ ﺷﻌﺎﺭ ﺷﺭﻛﺔ )‪(loony toons‬‬
‫ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟ ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻛﺗﺎﺑﺔ ﺧﺎﻁﺋﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺻﺣﻳﺢ ﻣﻧﻬﺎ ) ‪loony‬‬
‫‪..(tunes‬‬
‫ﺷﻳﻛﻭﻻﺗﺔ ﻛﻳﺕ ﻛﺎﺕ‪ ..‬ﻫﻝ ﺗﻭﺟﺩ ﺷﺭﻁﺔ ﻓﺎﺻﻠﺔ ﺑﻳﻥ ‪ kit‬ﻭ‬
‫‪ kat‬؟‬
‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﺳﺗﻘﻭﻝ ﻻ‪ ..‬ﻟﻛﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩﺓ!‬
‫ﻟﻌﺑﺔ ﻣﻭﻧﻭﺑﻭﻟﻲ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺭﺟﻝ ﺍﻟﺷﻬﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﺣﻣﻝ ﻛﻳﺱ ﺍﻟﻧﻘﻭﺩ‪،‬‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺿﻊ ﻋﺩﺳﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻳﻧﻪ؟‬
‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﺳﺗﻘﻭﻝ ﻧﻌﻡ ﻁﺑﻌﺎ ﻭﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺷﻛﻠﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﻳﺿﻊ ﺃﻯ‬
‫ﻋﺩﺳﺎﺕ!‬
‫ﻓﻳﺩﻳﻭ ﺍﻏﺗﻳﺎﻝ ﺟﻭﻥ ﻛﻳﻧﻳﺩﻱ‪ ..‬ﻛﻡ ﺷﺧﺻﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺎﺭﺓ؟‬
‫‪ 4‬ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟‬
‫ﻻ‪ ..‬ﺇﻧﻬﻡ ﻛﺎﻧﻭﺍ ﺳﺗﺔ ﺃﺷﺧﺎﺹ!‬
‫ﺷﺧﺻﻳﺔ ﺑﻳﻛﺎﺗﺷﻭ ﺍﻟﻛﺭﺗﻭﻧﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺷﻬﻳﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﻛﻳﻣﻭﻥ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﺎﺋﻥ ﺍﻷﺻﻔﺭ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﺗﺫﻛﺭﻩ ﺑﻠﻭﻧﻪ ﺍﻷﺻﻔﺭ ﻭﺫﻳﻠﻪ ﺫﻱ ﺍﻟﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﻭﺩﺍء ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺫﻳﻠﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻭﺟﺩ ﺑﻪ ﺃﻱ ﻟﻭﻥ ﺃﺳﻭﺩ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ! ﺇﻧﻪ ﺃﺻﻔﺭ ﻓﻘﻁ!‬
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 ‫ﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﻫﺟﻣﺎﺕ ‪ 11‬ﺳﺑﺗﻣﺑﺭ‪ ..‬ﻧﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺑﻧﺗﺎﺟﻭﻥ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻣﺕ ﻓﻳﻪ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺩ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺧﺎﻟﻳﺎ ﺗﻘﺭﻳﺑﺎ‪ ..‬ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟‬
‫ﺇﺫﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻳﻥ ﺃﺗﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﻓﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺗﺟﺎﻭﺯﺕ ﻣﺎﺋﺔ ﺇﻧﺳﺎﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ!‬
‫ﻛﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺟﺩﺍ ﻣﺷﺎﻫﺩﺓ ﻓﻳﻠﻡ )ﻛﺎﺯﺍﻡ( ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻁﻔﻭﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻓﻳﻠﻡ‬
‫ﻣﻠﻲء ﺑﺎﻟﻣﺷﺎﻋﺭ‪ ،‬ﻛﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻭﺟﻭﺩ ﻟﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ ﺍﻵﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻛﻡ ﺍﻟﺑﺣﺙ ﻋﻧﻪ ﺑﺄﻧﻔﺳﻛﻡ!‬
‫ﻭﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﻛﻳﻑ ﻣﺎﺕ ﻫﻭﺩﻳﻧﻲ؟ ﻏﺭﻗﺎ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻧﻌﻠﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻ‪ ..‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺿﺭﺑﺔ ﻗﻭﻳﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻁﻧﻪ!‬
‫ﻭﺟﺑﻥ )ﻻﻓﺎﺷﻛﻳﺭﻱ(‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻹﻋﻼﻥ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺗﺧﺭﺝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺑﻘﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺧﻠﻑ ﺳﺗﺎﺋﺭ ﺣﻣﺭﺍء ﻭﻳﻬﺗﺯ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﻁ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻧﻔﻬﺎ؟‬
‫ﻻ ﻳﻭﺟﺩ ﺷﻲء ﻛﻬﺫﺍ! ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻹﻋﻼﻥ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻭﺟﺩ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺗﺭﺗﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺑﻘﺭﺓ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ ﺃﻱ ﻗﺭﻁ ﻟﻸﻧﻑ!‬
‫ﻭﻛﺫﻟﻙ‪ :‬ﻗﻧﺎﻉ ﺩﻓﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻙ ﺗﻭﺕ‪ :‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﻭﺟﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﺃﺱ ﺍﻟﻘﻧﺎﻉ ﺑﻳﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻳﻧﻳﻪ؟‬
‫ﺑﻳﻥ ﻋﻳﻧﻳﻪ ﺣﻳﻭﺍﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺛﻌﺑﺎﻥ ﻓﺎﺧﺭ ﺍﻟﺷﻛﻝ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﻌﺗﻘﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻣﺛﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺕ‬
‫ﻣﺧﻁﺊ ﻣﺛﻠﻲ ﺃﻳﺿﺎ! ﺟﺯﺋﻳﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻝ‪ ..‬ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺛﻌﺑﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﻭﺍﺭﻩ‬
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 ‫ﻁﺎﺋﺭ ﻋﺟﻳﺏ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﺑﺩﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﻋﺻﻔﻭﺭ ﻗﺑﻳﺢ ﺃﻭ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺩﻳﻙ‬
‫ﺭﻭﻣﻲ! ﻁﺎﺋﺭ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﻏﺭﻳﺑًﺎ ﺟﺩًﺍ ﻭﻏﻳﺭ ﻁﺑﻳﻌﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﻧﺎﻉ‬
‫ﻟﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻳﻪ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻫﺯ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺗﻌﺟﺑﺎ‪ ..‬ﻣﻧﺫ ﻣﺗﻰ ﻳﻔﻌﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﺻﺭﻳﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺩﻣﺎء ﻣﺛﻝ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺭﻣﻭﺯ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﺧﻳﻔﺔ! ﻭﻣﻧﻁﻘﻳﺎ ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺣﻳﻭﺍﻧﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻧﺎﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺩﻓﻥ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺳﺧﻳﻔﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ! ﺍﺑﺣﺙ ﻋﻧﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ‪Google‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻧﻅﺭ ﺑﻧﻔﺳﻙ‪...‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻑ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺩﻱ ﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﻣﺩﺭﺳﻲ ﻋﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺎﺭﻳﺦ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻣﻊ ﻗﻧﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﺩﻓﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻐﻼﻑ‪ ..‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﻧﺎﻉ ﻛﻝ ﻳﻭﻡ ﺃﺛﻧﺎء ﺍﻟﺣﺻﺹ ﻭﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺷﻛﻠﻪ ﺟﻳﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ‬
‫ﺃﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻁﺎﺋﺭ ﻗﻁ‪ ..‬ﻭﻻﺣﻘﺎ ﺍﻋﺗﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻣﻛﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﺃﺧﻔﺕ ﺗﻔﺎﺻﻳﻠﻪ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻟﻁﺎﺋﺭ ﻳﺑﺭﺯ‬
‫ﺑﺣﻳﺙ ﻻ ﺗﻭﺟﺩ ﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻙ ﺭﺅﻳﺗﻪ ﺑﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺻﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩﺍ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ!‬
‫ﺇﺫﻥ ﻓﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻁﺎﺋﺭ ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩ ﻣﻧﺫ ﻋﺎﻡ ‪ 1323‬ﻗﺑﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﻳﻼﺩ‪.‬‬
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 ‫ﺍﻧﻅﺭ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺩ ﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ ﺩﻛﺗﻭﺭ )ﻣﺭﻭﺓ( ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ‬
‫ﺇﺧﺭﺍﺝ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻛﻼﻡ ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﻣﺛﻠﺔ ﻭﻏﻳﺭﻫﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺫﻫﻧﻲ‪ ..‬ﻭﻟﺳﺕ‬
‫ﺃﺩﺭﻱ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺳﺑﺏ ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﺃﺻﺑﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺯﻉ ﺍﻟﺷﺩﻳﺩ ﺑﺳﺑﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻧﺕ‬
‫ﻣﺫﻫﻭﻻ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺷﻐﻠﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺎﺭﻱ ﻟﺑﺿﻊ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻻﺣﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻭﻗﻑ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭﻳﺔ ﺍﺳﺗﺣﻭﺫﺗﻧﻲ ﺗﻣﺎﻣﺎ!‬
‫ﻛﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﺕ ﺍﻟﺩﻛﺗﻭﺭﺓ ﻓﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﻔﻠﺳﻔﺎﺕ ﺗﻐﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﺎﺓ‪...‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻟﻸﺑﺩ!‬
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‫ﻣﺷﻐﻭﻻ ﺟﺩًﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﻭﺍﻻﻣﺗﺣﺎﻧﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺭﻏﻡ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء‪ ،‬ﻛﻧﺕ‬
‫ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ ﻣﻣﺎ ﺟﻌﻠﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺍﻟﺗﻔﻛﻳﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻛﻝ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺗﻐﻳﺭ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺟﻠﺳﺕ ﻣﻊ ﺻﺩﻳﻘﻲ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﺑﻌﺩ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺑﻭﻉ ﻟﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻹﻓﻁﺎﺭ ﺳﻭﻳﺎ‪ ..‬ﺇﻓﻁﺎﺭ ﻁﺎﻝ ﺍﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭﻩ ﺣﻳﺙ‬
‫ﺗﺭﺍﺻﺕ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻧﺎ ﻛﻝ ﺍﻷﺻﻧﺎﻑ ﺍﻟﺷﻬﻳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﻁﺑﺎﻕ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺩﻧﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻣﻳﺯﺓ ﻟﻌﺭﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻔﻭﻝ‪ ..‬ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻳﻔﻭﻕ ﻟﺫﺓ ﻁﺑﻖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﻭﻝ ﺻﺑﺎﺣﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻁﺑﻖ ﻣﻌﺩﻧﻲ ﻗﺫﺭ ﻣﻧﺩﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻣﺎء ﻭﻋﻠﻳﻪ ﺃﻁﻧﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺯﻳﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻁﺣﻳﻧﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻳﻣﻭﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﺍﺋﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﻣﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻭﺣﺩﻫﺎ ﺗﻛﻔﻲ ﻟﻳﻧﻬﺎﺭ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻬﺎ ﺃﻋﺗﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﺟﺎﻝ ﻭﻳﻧﻬﺎﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻁﺑﻖ‬
‫ﺑﻠﻘﻳﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﺗﻼﺣﻘﺔ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻬﺷﻡ ﺑﺻﻠﺔ ﺑﻘﺑﺿﺗﻙ ﻟﺗﻛﺗﻣﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﻌﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻘﺩﺳﺔ!‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭ)ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻛﻧﺎ ﺃﺻﺩﻗﺎء ﻣﻧﺫ ﺍﻟﺻﻑ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺳﻁ ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﻛﺋﻳﺑﺔ ﻗﺭﺭﻭﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻌﻁﻭﻧﺎ ﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﻳﺩﺍﻧﻳﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻗﺭﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﻗﺭﻯ ﺍﻟﺻﻌﻳﺩ‪ ..‬ﻗﺭﻳﺔ ﺻﻐﻳﺭﺓ ﻳﻘﻝ ﻋﺩﺩ ﺳﻛﺎﻧﻬﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻟﻑ‬
‫ﺇﻧﺳﺎﻥ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﻏﻡ ﺃﻧﻧﺎ ﻟﻡ ﻧﻛﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺷﺗﺎء ﺗﻣﺎﻣﺎ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﻭ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﺭﺩًﺍ ﺩﺍﺋ ًﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻫﻧﺎﻙ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﺋﻳﺑًﺎ ﻭﺭﻣﺎﺩ ًﻳﺎ ﻭﺻﺎﻣﺗًﺎ‪ ..‬ﻭﻳﻣﻛﻧﻙ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻛﻣﻠﻬﺎ ﻣﻥ ﻣﺑﻧﻰ ﻣﻛﻭﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻁﻭﺍﺑﻖ!‬
‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺗﺗﺄﻣﻝ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﺟﺩ ﻣﺳﺎﺣﺎﺕ ﺷﺎﺳﻌﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺣﻘﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺫﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻏﺔ‪ ..‬ﻟﻡ ﻳﻬﺗﻡ ﺃﻫﻠﻬﺎ ﺟﺩﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﺯﺭﺍﻋﺔ ﻷﻥ ﺃﺭﺑﺎﺣﻬﻡ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺗﺄﺗﻲ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﻳﺩ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻧﻳﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻷﺳﻣﺎﻙ ﻫﻧﺎ ﺗﺗﺟﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺑﻛﻣﻳﺎﺕ ﺿﺧﻣﺔ ﻟﺳﺑﺏ ﻏﻳﺭ ﻣﻔﻬﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺻﻣﺕ ﺍﻟﻛﺋﻳﺏ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﺧﻳﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﻳﺔ‪ ..‬ﺻﻣﺕ ﻳﻣﺣﻭ‬
‫ﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺗﻙ‪ ،‬ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭﻩ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺳﻣﺎء ﺍﻟﺭﻣﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻭﺣﻘﻭﻝ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺫﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺻﺎﻣﺗﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺷﻌﻭﺭ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﻡ ﻣﺣﻭ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻥ ﻳﻼﺣﻅ ﺃﺣﺩ!‬
‫ﻛﻧﺎ ﺳﺗﺔ ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻁﺎﻟﺑﺎ ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺷﺩ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻳﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﻳﺔ‪ ..‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻹﻗﺎﻣﺔ ﻫﺎﺩﺋﺎ ﻛﺑﻘﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺑﻠﺩﺓ ﻭﻧﻅﻳﻔﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺟﻌﻠﻭﺍ ﻟﻧﺎ ﻭﺟﺑﺎﺕ ﻳﻭﻣﻳﺔ ﻛﻲ ﻻ ﻧﺿﻁﺭ ﻟﻠﺫﻫﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﻟﺗﻌﺎﻣﻝ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺃﻫﻝ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﻳﺔ‪ ..‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧﻬﻡ ﻳﺑﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﺳﺎﻟﻣﻳﻥ ﺟﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﺣﺩﺍ ﻣﻣﻥ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﻡ ﺟﻣﻳﻌﺎ ﺍﻟﺗﻌﺎﺳﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻭﺣﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻛﻭﻥ ﺑﻌﺿﻬﻡ ﺻﺩﺍﻗﺎﺕ ﺛﻧﺎﺋﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻁﻳﻔﺔ‪ ..‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺛﺎﻧﻲ ﻳﻭﻡ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺩﺍﻳﺔ ﻣﻌﺭﻓﺗﻲ ﺑـ)ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ(‪..‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺿﻭﺭ ﺟﻭﻋﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﻧﻬﺩ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﺑﻌﺩ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺟﻬﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺣﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ‬
‫ﻳﻣﺷﻲ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺷﺎء‪.‬‬
‫ﺿﺣﻛﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺟﻣﻠﺗﻪ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻳﻌﻳﺵ ﺗﻌﺎﺳﺔ ﻣﻁﻠﻘﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺫﻟﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻪ ﺷﺧﺹ ﻓﻭﺿﻭﻱ ﻭﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ ﻳﺟﺗﺎﺯ ﺍﻻﻣﺗﺣﺎﻧﺎﺕ‪ ..‬ﻫﻭ ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺟﻝ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﻳﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺧﺭﻭﺝ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﺭﻳﺩ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻡ!‬
‫ﻓﻘﻁ ﻫﻭ ﻳﺟﺗﺎﺯ ﺍﻻﻣﺗﺣﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺃﺳﻭﺓ ﺑﺯﻣﻼﺋﻪ ﻓﺣﺳﺏ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻭﻫﻭ – ﺑﺎﻟﺗﺄﻛﻳﺩ ‪ -‬ﻳﺣﻣﻝ ﻗﺩﺭﺍ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻛﺎء ﻓﻲ ﺍﺟﺗﻳﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺍﻗﻑ!‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻣﻬﻡ ﻛﻧﺎ ﻧﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻹﻁﺎﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻬﻡ ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﻳﺷﺭﺏ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻣﺎء‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﻠﻁﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺷﻊ‪ ..‬ﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ )ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ( ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻟﻡ‬
‫ﻳﺣﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺳﻣﻊ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻋﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻬﺭﺍء ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺩ ﻗﻭﻟﻪ‪ ..‬ﺛﻡ ﻗﺎﻝ‬
‫ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﺗﺟﺷﺄ ﻓﻳﻧﺗﻔﺦ ﻓﻣﻪ ﻟﺛﻭﺍﻥ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺗﻧﺗﻬﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺳﻧﺔ ﺳﻭﻑ ﻧﻘﻳﻡ ﺣﻔﻼ ﺃﺳﻁﻭﺭﻳﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﻧﺣﺗﻔﻝ ﺑﺟﻧﻭﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻧﺷﺭﺏ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟـ ‪ ..‬ﻫﻭﺏ ﻫﻭﺏ ﺃﻳﺿﺎ!‬
‫ﺃﺭﻳﺩﻫﺎ ﻟﻳﻠﺔ ﺟﺎﻣﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻭﻑ ﺃﻓﻌﻝ ﺫﻟﻙ!‬
‫ﺿﺣﻛﺕ‪ ..‬ﻫﻭ ﺃﺑﻠﻪ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﻗﻠﺕ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺩﻭﻥ ﺳﺑﺏ ﺣﻘﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻛﻧﻭﻉ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﺧﺎﻓﺔ ﻻ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻧﻌﻡ‪ ..‬ﻫﻝ ﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺗﻘﺎﺑﻠﻧﺎ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺭﺓ؟‬
‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻳﻡ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺣﻔﻝ‪ ..‬ﺑﻝ ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺩﻋﻭ ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﻠﻳﺔ ﻹﻗﺎﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺣﻔﻝ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺯ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﻐﻣﻐﻡ‪:‬‬

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 ‫‪ -‬ﻧﻌﻡ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺃﺳﻭﺃ ﺃﻳﺎﻣﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪ ..‬ﻳﻛﻔﻲ ﺃﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻋﺭﻓﺗﻙ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ! ﻟﻡ ﺃﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﻊ ﺷﺧﺹ ﻭﺍﺣﺩ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﺭﺑﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻋﺷﺭ ﻏﻳﺭﻙ‪ ..‬ﺣﺗﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﺭﻑ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﺃﻛﻠﻣﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻡ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ‬
‫ﻣﺷﺭﻓﺔ؟ ﺍﺳﻣﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻧﺔ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ؟‬
‫ﺻﻣﺕ ﻟﻠﺣﻅﺎﺕ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭﻝ ﺑﺎﺭﺗﺑﺎﻙ ﺑﺳﻳﻁ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ؟ ﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻧﺎ ﻛﻧﺎ ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻓﺭﺩﺍ‪ ..‬ﺃﻟﻳﺱ‬
‫ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟‬
‫ﺭﻓﻊ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﻭﺿﻳﻖ ﻋﻳﻧﻳﻪ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ‪ ..‬ﻫﻭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﺷﺧﺎﺹ ﺫﻭﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺫﺍﻛﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﻭﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻻ ﻳﺣﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻌﺩﻝ ﻋﻠﻳﻪ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻌﻠﻭﻣﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﻘﺩ ﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﻻ‪ ..‬ﻳﺎﺃﺧﻲ ﻛﻧﺎ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻓﺭﺩﺍ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺕ‪ ،‬ﻫﻧﺎء‬
‫ﻣﺣﻣﺩ‪ ،‬ﻣﺻﻁﻔﻰ ﺳﻠﻳﻣﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻣﺣﻣﺩ ﺣﺳﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺩﺋﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﻣﺎﺓ ﺷﺎﺩﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﺑﻳﺭ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺳﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺷﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻟﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺗﻰ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺍﺳﻣﻪ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﻲ ﻟﻛﻧﻧﺎ ﺟﻣﻳﻌًﺎ ﻧﺩﻋﻭﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻳﻝ‪ ..‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﻛﺑﻳﺭﺓ ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﺳﺗﻁﻊ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺩ ﺳﻣﺎﻉ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﻭﻟﻪ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺿﺣﻛﺕ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭﻩ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻧﺣﻳﻔﺎ ﻭﻁﻭﻳﻼ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻏﺭﻳﺏ ﻓﻌﻼ‪،‬‬
‫ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻛﻝ ﻧﺳﻰ ﺍﺳﻣﻪ ﻭﺻﺎﺭﻭﺍ ﻳﻧﺎﺩﻭﻧﻪ ﺑﺎﺳﻡ ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻳﻝ ﻓﻘﻁ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﺃﺣﻣﺩ ﻋﺑﺩﷲ‪ ،‬ﺇﻳﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺗﻭﺃﻣﺎﻥ ﻓﺎﺩﻱ‬
‫ﻭﺷﺎﺩﻱ ﺟﻣﻳﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﺳﺎﻥ‪ ..‬ﻭﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺗﺄﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ‬
‫)ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ(‪ ..‬ﻛﻧﺎ ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻳﺎ ﺻﺩﻳﻘﻲ ﺑﻣﺎ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺷﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﺗﺄﻛﻳﺩ ﻛﻧﺎ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻁﺎﻟﺑﺎ‪..‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭ)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ؟‬
‫ﺣﺩﻕ ﺑﻌﻳﻧﻳﻪ ﻧﺣﻭﻱ ﻣﺗﺳﺎﺋﻼ ﺛﻡ ﺃﺭﺩﻑ ﻣﺳﺗﻅﺭﻓﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪) -‬ﻧﻬﺎﻝ ﻋﻧﺑﺭ(؟‬
‫ﻗﻠﺕ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﺗﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﻭﺟﻬﻪ‪:‬‬
‫‪) -‬ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪ ..‬ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﺧﺟﻭﻟﺔ‪ ..‬ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ؟ ﻗﺻﻳﺭﺓ ﺷﻘﺭﺍء ﺫﺍﺕ‬
‫ﻋﻳﻧﻳﻥ ﺑﻧﻳﺗﻳﻥ‪ ..‬ﻟﻡ ﺗﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺧﺹ ﻭﻛﻧﺎ ﺟﻣﻳﻌﺎ‬
‫ﻧﺗﻣﻧﻰ ﺗﻘﺑﻳﻠﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺯ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﻧﺎﻓﻳﺎ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻋﻣﻥ ﺗﺗﺣﺩﺙ‪ ..‬ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺃﻧﻧﺎ ﻛﻧﺎ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ‬
‫ﺻﺎ ﻓﺣﺳﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﺷﺧ ً‬
‫ﺃﺟﺑﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻣﺎﺱ ﻭﺍﻟﺷﻙ ﻳﻐﺯﻭ ﻗﻠﺑﻲ‪:‬‬
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 ‫‪ -‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺻﺎﺣﺑﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻭﺿﻭﺡ ﻭﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﻟﻭﺍﻥ ﻣﻼﺑﺳﻬﺎ! ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻧﺗﻅﺭ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺍﺳﻣﻬﺎ ﻁﻭﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﺫ ﻳﻧﻅﺭ ﻟﻲ ﻣﺗﻌﺟﺑﺎ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻲ ﺃﺧﺑﺭﻩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺣﻣﻳﺭ ﺗﻁﻳﺭ ﺛﻡ ﻫﺯ‬
‫ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﻧﺎﻓﻳﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻠﺕ ﺑﺷﻲء ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺻﺑﻳﺔ‪:‬‬
‫‪) -‬ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ(‪ ،‬ﻫﻝ ﺗﻌﺑﺙ ﻣﻌﻲ؟ ﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﻣﻥ ﻓﺿﻠﻙ ﺃﻧﺕ‬
‫ﺗﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻣﺷﻐﻭﻝ ﺑﺄﻣﻭﺭ ﻣﺷﺎﺑﻬﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺩﻕ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺑﺙ ﻣﻌﻙ ﺻﺩﻗﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪ .‬ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ‬
‫ﺑﻭﺿﻭﺡ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻓﺭﺩﺍ ﻣﻧﺎ‪ .‬ﺗﺫﻛﺭ؟ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﻓﺗﻳﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻭﻋﺷﺭﺓ ﺭﺟﺎﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺯﺯﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻧﺎﻓﻳﺎ ﻭﻗﻠﺕ‪:‬‬
‫ﻻ‪ ..‬ﺧﻣﺱ ﻓﺗﻳﺎﺕ ﻭﻋﺷﺭﺓ ﺭﺟﺎﻝ‪ ..‬ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ‪..‬‬ ‫‪-‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﺳﻣﻬﺎ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪ ،‬ﻟﻡ ﺗﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺧﺹ ﻭﻛﻼﻧﺎ ﻟﻡ‬
‫ﻳﻘﻝ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﻌﺑﺙ ﻣﻌﻲ ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻟﻳﺱ ﻣﺿﺣﻛﺎ!‬
‫ﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺫﻋﺭ ﻭﻗﻠﺕ‪:‬‬
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 ‫‪ -‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻗﺭﺃ ﻛﻝ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻬﺭﺍء ﻋﻥ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﻭﺃﻧﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﺗﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺇﺧﺎﻓﺗﻲ‪ ..‬ﻣﻥ ﻓﺿﻠﻙ ﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﻋﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ!‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﺑﺩﺍ ﻣﺣﺑ ً‬
‫ﻁﺎ ﻓﻌﻼ ﻭﻟﻸﺳﻑ ﻣﻼﻣﺢ ﻭﺟﻬﻪ ﺗﻧﻡ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
‫ﺻﺎﺩﻕ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﺃﻧﺕ ﻋﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺧﺯﻋﺑﻼﺕ‪ ..‬ﺻﺩﻗﻧﻲ ﻟﻳﺱ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ‬
‫ﺃﻱ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻣﻌﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻧﻙ ﻣﺣﺭﻭﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ ‪ ..‬ﻟﻁﺎﻟﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺗﻣﻧﻳﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻥ ﺑﻳﻥ ﺃﺻﺩﻗﺎﺋﻲ!‬
‫ﺿﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﻧﺯﻋ ًﺟﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺭﻋﻭﺑﺎ ﺃﻳ ً‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻥ؟‬
‫ﻓﻛﺭﺕ ‪ ..‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﻳﺻﻭﺭ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻼﻭﺱ؟‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺇﺣﺳﺎﺳﻲ ﺑﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳًﺎ ﺟﻌﻠﻧﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺟﻧﻭﻥ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﻳﺅﺱ ﻣﻧﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻋﻠﻡ ﺃﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪ .‬ﺫﻫﺑﺕ ﻣﻌﻧﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺑﻌﺛﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺗﺄﻛﺩ‪ ..‬ﻛﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﺑﻭﺿﻭﺡ ﺗﺎﻡ!‬
‫ﻧﻅﺭ ﻟﻲ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻓﻲ ﺷﻙ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺣﻣﺩ‪ ..‬ﻫﻝ ﺗﻣﺯﺡ ﻣﻌﻲ ﻣﺯﺍﺣﺎ ﺳﺧﻳﻔﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻣﺫﻋﻭﺭﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ً‬ ‫ً‬
‫ﻣﺣﺎﻭﻻ ﺃﻻ ﺃﺑﺩﻭ‬ ‫ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺃﺟﺑﺗﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺭ‪ ..‬ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺿﻭﻉ ﺑﺳﻳﻁ ﻭﻻ ﻳﺟﺏ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﺑﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺍﺿﻳﻊ‪ ..‬ﻻﺑﺩ ﺃﻥ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻧﺳﻳﻬﺎ ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺧﺟﻭﻟﺔ‬
‫ﺻﺎﻣﺗﺔ ﻓﺣﺳﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻭ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺳﺄﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺳﺅﺍﻻ ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺍ ﻟﻣﺎ ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻭ ﻟﻡ ﺗﻭﺟﻪ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺳﺗﺎﺫﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻣﻬﻣﺔ ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﺳﺅﺍﻻ‬
‫ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺍ ﻟﻣﺎ ﺭﺩﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﺣﺩﺛﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺃﺟﺑﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻙ‬
‫ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﺑﺩﺃ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻣﻧﺎ ﻣﺣﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﻣﻌﻬﺎ!‬
‫ﻓﻘﻠﺕ ﻟﻪ ﻣﺣﺎﻭﻻ ﺍﺳﺗﺟﻣﺎﻉ ﺃﻋﺻﺎﺑﻲ‪:‬‬
‫ﻧﺳﻳﺕ ﺃﻣﺭﻫﺎ ﻓﺣﺳﺏ‪ ..‬ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟‬
‫َ‬ ‫‪ -‬ﻳﺎﺻﺩﻳﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺩ‬
‫ﻫﺯ ﻛﺗﻔﻳﻪ ﺑﻌﻼﻣﺔ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ‪ ..‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﺍﻟﺻﻣﺕ ﻓﻘﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﻣﺗﻊ ﺑﺫﺍﻛﺭﺓ ﻗﻭﻳﺔ ﻳﺎ ﺻﺩﻳﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻻ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﺎﺭﻳﻙ ﻓﺣﺳﺏ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻧﺎ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻋﺷﺭ ﻓﺭﺩﺍ‪ ..‬ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻛﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺷﻲء ﺁﺧﺭ!‬
‫ﺻﺣﺕ ﻓﻳﻪ‪:‬‬
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 ‫‪ -‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﻟﻳﺱ ﻣﺿﺣﻛﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﻑ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻭﻧﻅﺭﻳﺗﻪ ﺗﺛﻳﺭ ﺍﻫﺗﻣﺎﻣﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺗﺧﻳﻔﻧﻲ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ‪ ،‬ﻓﺭﺟﺎءﺍ ﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺑﺙ!‬
‫ﺑﺩﺍ ﻣﺭﻋﻭﺑًﺎ ﻭﻣﺻﺩﻭﻣﺎ ﻣﻧﻲ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﺧﻔﺕ ﺻﻭﺗﻪ ﻭﻳﻘﻭﻝ ﺑﺑﻁء‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺣﻣﺩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻧﺕ ﻗﻠﻖ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻫﺩﺃ ﻳﺎ ﺭﺟﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﺳﺗﺭﺥ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻳﺳﺕ ﻣﺷﻛﻠﺔ ﻛﺑﻳﺭﺓ ﻭﻟﻳﺱ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺑﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺳﻭء‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﺑﺧﻳﺭ‪ ..‬ﺫﺍﻛﺭﺗﻙ ﺳﻳﺋﺔ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ ،‬ﻫﻝ ﺗﻌﺎﻧﻲ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﻣﺷﺎﻛﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺑﻳﺕ؟‬
‫ﻗﻠﺕ ﺑﻌﺻﺑﻳﺔ ﻣﺗﺟﺎﻫﻼ ﺳﺅﺍﻟﻪ ﺍﻷﺧﻳﺭ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﻌﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫)ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ(‪ ،‬ﻫﻝ ﺗﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻣﺟﻣﻭﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﺍءﺓ؟‬
‫ﻛﻧﺎ ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﺷﺧﺻﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻧﺎ ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺟﻣﻭﻋﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻓﻲ ﻣﺟﻣﻭﻋﺗﻲ‪.‬‬

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 ‫‪ -‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﻛﻼﻡ ﻻ ﺻﺣﺔ ﻟﻪ‪ ..‬ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ ﺃﻧﺕ ﻣﺣﻖ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻭﺩ‬
‫ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺟﻣﻭﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺟﻣﻭﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﺗﺫﻛﺭ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﺗﺟﻭﻝ ﻭﺗﺷﺭﻑ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺟﻣﻭﻋﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﻠﻡ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺗُﺟﺑﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﺍءﺓ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﺧﺗﻧﻖ ﻭﻻ ﺗﻘﻭﻝ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻳﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﺩﺍﺋ ًﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺗﺣﻣﺳﺎ ﻟﺳﻣﺎﻉ ﺻﻭﺗﻬﺎ ﻓﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻧﺗﺑﻪ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺟﻳﺩﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﺳﺎﻛﻧًﺎ ﻭﺻﺎﻣﺗًﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻼﻧﺎ ﻳﻌﺭﻑ ﻭﻳﺗﺄﻛﺩ ﺗﻣﺎﻣﺎ ﻣﻥ ﻣﻌﻠﻭﻣﺎﺗﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺃﺣﺩﻧﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺧﻁﺋﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺻﺣﻳﺢ؟‬
‫ﻋﺩﺕ ﺍﻗﻭﻝ ﺑﻠﻬﺟﺔ ﺍﻧﺗﺻﺎﺭ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻧﺗﻅﺭ‪ ..‬ﺳﻳﺎﺭﺗﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﺣﻭﺭ ﺣﺩﻳﺙ ﺍﻟﺩﻓﻌﺔ ﻛﻠﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻝ؟ ﻛﻠﻧﺎ ﺗﺣﺩﺛﻧﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺳﻳﺎﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺳﻭﺩﺍء‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺧﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻡ ﺃﻫﺗﻡ ﺃﺑﺩًﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﺳﻳﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺕ ﻻ ﺃﻓﻌﻝ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻙ‪،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﻕ ﺑﻳﻥ ﺑﻭﺭﺵ ﻭﻫﻭﻧﺩﺍ‪ .‬ﻟﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ‬
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 ‫ﺳﻳﺎﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺟﻣﻳﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﻅﻬﺭ‪ ..‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ‬
‫ﻛﺎﺩﻳﻼﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺑﻳﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺩﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻧﻭﻳﺔ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﺗﻬﺎ ﺗﺄﺗﻲ ﻻﺻﻁﺣﺎﺑﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺣﻳﺎﻧﺎ ﺑﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺎﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺗﺧﺭﺝ ﻣﻥ ﺳﻳﺎﺭﺗﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻌﺎﻧﻖ ﺍﺑﻧﺗﻬﺎ ﺛﻡ ﺗﻧﻁﻠﻘﺎﻥ ﻣﻌﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺭﺍﺋﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﻁﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻛﺎﻧﻧﺎ ﺷﻣﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺃﻣﺗﺎﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺗﻅﺭ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺭﺍﺋﺣﺔ ﻋﻁﺭ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﺍﻟﺭﻗﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺷﺑﻪ ﺭﺍﺋﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻭﺭﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﺑﺩﺍ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻗﻠﻘًﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻧﻅﺭ ﻧﺣﻭﻱ ﺑﺗﻌﺟﺏ ﺛﻡ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺣﻣﺩ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ‪ ..‬ﺃﻭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭﻝ ﺃﻧﻙ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺗﻔﻛﺭ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺷﺧﺹ ﺁﺧﺭ ﻣﻥ ﻣﺩﺭﺳﺔ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻧﺎ ﺫﻫﺑﻧﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻧﻔﺱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺩﺭﺳﺔ ﻣﻧﺫ ﺍﻟﺻﻑ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪ ..‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ‪ ..‬ﻭﻻ‬
‫ﺻﺎ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻛﻝ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺗﻔﺎﺻﻳﻝ‪ ..‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺷﺧ ً‬
‫ﻣﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﺩﺭﺳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻳﺄﺱ‪:‬‬
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 ‫‪ -‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻛﻼﻧﺎ ﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻋﻧﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍﺋﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﺍءﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻲ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ(‪.‬‬
‫ﺧﻁﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﺧﺎﻁﺭ ﻓﻘﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺣﺳﻧﺎ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺣﻘﺎ‪ ..‬ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ ﻧﺣﻥ ﻛﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺩﺭﺳﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺣﺩﺓ ﻟﻛﻧﻧﺎ ﻟﻡ ﻧﻛﻥ ﻧﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻓﻠﻬﺫﺍ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻧﺗﺑﻪ ﻟﻠﺳﻳﺎﺭﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻛﻧﻙ ﺗﻘﻭﻝ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﻌﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻑ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻣﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻳﻥ ﺫﻫﺑﺕ؟‬
‫ﻗﻠﺕ ﺑﺗﺭﺩﺩ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ .‬ﻻﺑﺩ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻧﺗﻘﻠﺕ‪ .‬ﻟﻛﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻑ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪ .‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻟﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺳﺑﺏ ﻧﺳﻳﺗﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺿﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﻳﺎ ﺭﺟﻝ‪ ..‬ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺍﻟﺻﻑ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ ﺃﻳ ً‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻣﻌﻠﻣﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺿﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺗﻠﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﻧﺔ ﺑﺳﻬﻭﻟﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ ﺍﺳﻣﻬﺎ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺣﻘًﺎ ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺭﻏﺑﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺑﻛﺎء!‬
‫ﺗﺧﻳﻝ ﺃﻧﻙ ﻁﻭﺍﻝ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻙ ﻟﻡ ﺗﺅﻣﻥ ﺑﺎﻷﺷﺑﺎﺡ‪ .‬ﺛﻡ ﺗﺭﻯ ﻓﻳﻠﻡ ﺭﻋﺏ‬
‫ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺭﺓ!‬

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 ‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺗﺭﻯ ﻣﺷﻬﺩﺍ ﻣﺧﻳﻔﺎ ﺣﻳﺙ ﺍﻟﺷﺧﺻﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺭﺋﻳﺳﺔ ﺗﻧﻅﺭ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺁﺓ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﻳﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﺍﻧﻌﻛﺎﺳﻬﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﺻﺭﻑ ﻣﺛﻠﻬﺎ ﻭﻳﺣﺩﻕ ﻧﺣﻭﻫﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺗﺭﻛﻳﺯ ﺷﺭﻳﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺃﻣﺭ ﻣﺭﻋﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﻔﻛﻳﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﻬﺩ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺃﺧﺎﻓﻙ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻘﻭﻝ ﻟﻧﻔﺳﻙ ﻣﻬﻼ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻣﺟﺭﺩ ﻓﻳﻠﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻳﺱ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻙ ﺧﺎﺋﻑ ﻣﺗﻭﺗﺭ!‬
‫ﻭﺗﺑﺩﺃ ﺗﺳﺗﺧﺩﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺍﻳﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺣﺫﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻛﺗﺷﻑ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﻳﻠﻡ ﻣﺻﻭﺭ ﺑﻧﺎ ًء ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺻﺔ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺗﺑﺩﺃ ﺍﻷﺣﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺋﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﻭﺙ ﻟﻙ ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﺣﺩﻳﺩﺍ!‬
‫ﺗﺧﺭﺝ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺣﻣﺎﻡ ﻭﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﺟﻔﻑ ﻧﻔﺳﻙ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺣﻣﺎﻡ ﺩﺍﻓﻲء‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺗﺻﺎﺩﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺁﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺭﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺷﻔﺔ ﻟﺗﺟﻔﻳﻑ ﺷﻌﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻳﻅﻬﺭ ﺍﻧﻌﻛﺎﺳﻙ‪،‬‬
‫ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﺎﻩ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺎﻧﺑﻳﻪ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﺣﺩﻕ ﻓﻳﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺕ ﻣﺭﻋﻭﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻪ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻲ!‬
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 ‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺣﺩﺙ ﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻧﻛﺭ ﺫﻟﻙ!‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻌﺭﺑﺔ ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﻓﻘﺩﺕ ﺷﻬﻳﺗﻲ ﺗﻣﺎﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﻌﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﻣﺛﻝ ﻅﻬﺭ ﻳﺩﻱ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻻ ﻳﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻻ ﺃﻱ ﺫﻛﺭﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ!‬
‫)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻟﻁﺎﺋﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻧﺎﻉ ﺩﻓﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻙ ﺗﻭﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻟﻠﻘﻁﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺋﺑﺔ ﻟﺟﻧﺎﺯﺓ ﻧﻳﻠﺳﻭﻥ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﺍﻟﺿﺧﻣﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻭﺍﺋﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﺳﻌﻳﻧﻳﺎﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺛﻝ ﺇﻋﻼﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﺑﻥ!‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻧﻲ ﺳﺄﺻﺎﺏ ﺑﻧﻭﺑﺔ ﻫﻠﻊ ﻟﺑﻘﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﺩﺭﺱ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﺣﺿﺭ ﺃﻱ ﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ!‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺭﺗﺑ ًﻛﺎ ﺟﺩًﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺟﺎﻫﺩًﺍ ﺗﺫﻛﺭ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻓﻲ ﺃﻱ ﻣﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﻥ ﻣﺭﺍﺣﻝ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺭﻫﺎ ﺳﻭﻯ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺑﻌﺛﺔ!‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺧﻁﺭﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻓﻛﺭﺓ!‬
‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﻟﻳﻼ ﺍﺗﺻﻠﺕ ﺑﺄﻣﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﻣﻘﺗﻧﻌًﺎ ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ ﺑﺄﻧﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺩ‬
‫ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ ﻣﺧﺗﻔﻳﺔ ﻟﺳﺑﺏ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ ،‬ﻭ)ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ‪ ..‬ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﺗﺷﻑ ﻭﺟﻭﺩﻫﺎ ﻓﺣﺳﺏ ﻟﻳﻧﺗﻬﻰ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء!‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻗﺩ ﻗﻠﺕ ﻷﻣﻲ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻟﻥ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﻣﺣﺎﺩﺛﺗﻬﺎ ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﺑﺳﺑﺏ‬
‫ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺗﻲ ﻭﺍﻣﺗﺣﺎﻧﺎﺗﻲ ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﺗﻔﺎﺟﺋﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺍﺗﺻﻠﺕ‬
‫ﺑﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻﺑﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺻﻳﺑﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺣﺩﺛﺕ!‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻗﺩ ﺗﺫﻛﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻟﺩﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭ ﻟﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺑﻌﺿﻬﺎ ﺣﺗﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩﺓ‪ ..‬ﻭﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺭﺃﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﻛﻠﻣﺗﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻟﺗﺩﻋﻭﻫﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻧﺎﺳﺑﺔ ﻣﺎ‪ ..‬ﻋﻳﺩ ﻣﻳﻼﺩﻱ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺑﻳﻝ‪ ..‬ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﺳﺄﻟﺗﻬﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻳﺎ ﺃﻣﻲ! ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺄﻟﻙ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ‪..‬‬

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‫ﻫﻝ ﺗﺗﺫﻛﺭﻳﻥ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ ﺍﺳﻣﻬﺎ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﻌﻧﺎ؟ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ ﺷﻘﺭﺍء‬
‫ﻗﺻﻳﺭﺓ ﺑﻌﻳﻭﻥ ﺑﻧﻳﺔ‪ ..‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﻗﺩ ﺩﻋﻭﺗﻳﻬﺎ ﻟﺣﻔﻝ ﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻣﻣﻡ‪ ،‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ‪ ..‬ﻓﻲ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺃﻋﻳﺎﺩ ﻣﻳﻼﺩﻙ ﻓﻌﻼ‬
‫ﺩﻋﻭﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﻓﺭﺩﺍ ﻓﺭﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‬
‫‪ -‬ﻧﻌﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﺩﻋﻭﺗﻳﻬﺎ ﻟﻛﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺗﺄﺕ‪ ..‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺧﺟﻭﻟﺔ ﺣﻘًﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻟﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺳﺑﺏ ﻧﺳﻳﺗﻳﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺣﺳﻧًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﺩﻱ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭ ﻟﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻑ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺇﺭﺳﺎﻟﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻳﻙ ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺳﺄﻝ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻﺷﻲء‪ ..‬ﺣﻭﺍﺭ ﺑﺳﻳﻁ ﺑﻳﻧﻲ ﻭﺑﻳﻥ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻻ‬
‫ﺿﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺃﻳ ً‬
‫ﺃﺭﻳﺩ ﺇﻗﻧﺎﻋﻪ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩﺓ‪ ..‬ﺳﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﺭﺍﺋﻌًﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺳﻠﺕ‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﻫﻝ ﻟﺩﻳﻙ ﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺟﻣﻌﺗﻧﺎ ﻣﻌﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺑﻌﺛﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻌﻳﺩ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺩﺓ ﻟﻸﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻓﺭﺩﺍ ﻛﻠﻬﻡ؟‬
‫ﺟﻣﻠﺗﻬﺎ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺿﺭﺑﺕ ﻗﻠﺑﻲ‪ ..‬ﻟﻬﺛﺕ ﻟﻠﺣﻅﺔ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺻﺎ ﻳﺎ ﺃﻣﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻧﺎ ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﺷﺧ ً‬
‫ﻏﻣﻐﻣﺕ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻛﻧﺗﻡ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﺗﻛﻠﻡ ﻋﻥ‬
‫ﺑﻌﺛﺔ ﺍﻟﺻﻌﻳﺩ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻠﺣﻅﺔ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﺍﻟﻛﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻣﺳﺕ‪:‬‬
‫ﺕ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻣﻲ‪ ..‬ﻧﻌﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﺭﺳﻠﻲ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺳﺗﻁﻌ ِ‬
‫‪ -‬ﺗﻣﺎﻡ‪ ..‬ﻫﻝ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺭﺍﻡ ﻳﺎ )ﺃﺣﻣﺩ(؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻧﻌﻡ‪ ..‬ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺭﺍﻡ‪ ..‬ﻓﻘﻁ ﻳﺗﻣﻠﻛﻧﻲ ﺷﻌﻭﺭ‬
‫ﻏﺭﻳﺏ‪ ..‬ﻻ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻧﻬﺩﺕ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺳﺄﺑﺣﺙ ﻋﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﻣﻠﻛﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﺳﺄﺳﺄﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺩ‬
‫ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ ﻟﻭ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺩﻳﻬﺎ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺳﺄﺭﺳﻝ ﻟﻙ ﻛﻝ‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﻟﺩﻱ !‬
‫ﺷﻛﺭﺍ ﻳﺎ ﺃﻣﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ً‬ ‫‪ -‬ﺣﺳﻧًﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧﻬﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻟﻣﺔ ﺷﺎﺭﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺟﺳﺩﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺻﻳﺭ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻭﻗﻭﺍﻣﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻣﺛﺎﻟﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺳﺎﺗﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﺫﺍﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﺭﺗﺩﻳﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺭﺍﺋﺣﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻻ ﺗﺯﺍﻝ ﺗﻅﻬﺭ ﺣﺗﻰ ﻳﻭﻣﻧﺎ ﻫﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺃﺣﻳﺎﻧًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺣﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺳﻭﺑﺭ ﻣﺎﺭﻛﺕ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻲ ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺎﺿﺭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﻟﺛﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﺑﺎﻫﺗﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﻳﺭﺍ ﺍﻟﺷﺟﺎﻋﺔ‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺻﻭﺗﻬﺎ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺍﺳﺗﺟﻣﻌﺕ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻘﺭﺍءﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍﺋﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺭﺍءﺓ ﻟﺩﻳﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء‬
‫ﻋﻧﻬﺎ!‬
‫ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ‪ ..‬ﻫﻝ ﻫﻭ ﻻ ﻳﺗﺭﻙ ﺃﻱ ﺃﺛﺭ ﻓﻌﻼ ﺑﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺯﻋﺔ؟‬
‫ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺭ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﻘﻁﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺛﻡ ﻻ ﺃﺟﺩ ﻟﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺛﺭﺍ‪ ..‬ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﻛﺗﺑﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺗﻭﺟﺩ ﻗﻁ ﺃﻭ ﺷﺎﻫﺩﺕ ﺃﻓﻼﻣﺎ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﻡ ﺗﻣﺛﻳﻠﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺑﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺫﻫﺑﺕ ﻷﻣﺎﻛﻥ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﻣﻊ ﻋﻧﻬﺎ ﺑﺣﻳﺎﺗﻲ‪ ..‬ﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺕ ﺑﺎﻫﺗﺔ‬
‫ﺳﺭﻳﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ ﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﻌﻬﻡ ﺫﻟﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺻﺣﻳﺣﺎ‪ ..‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺻﺣﻳﺣﺎ‬
‫ﻓﺄﻳﻥ ﺫﻫﺑﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(؟‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺃﻋﻠﻡ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺗﻌﺎﻣﻝ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺃﻱ ﻓﺎﺋﺩﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ ﻣﻥ ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﻭﺍء ﻛﺎﻧﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﺗﻘﻑ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺃﻡ ﻻ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺗﻘﻁﺕ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻓﺈﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻥ ﺗﻅﻬﺭ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩﺓ ﻟﻠﻘﺑﺽ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﻫﻲ ﻣﻥ ﺧﻼﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺷﻳﺎء ﺍﻟﻧﺳﺑﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺫﺍﻛﺭﺓ !‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍ ﺳﺣﺏ ﺍﻟﻛﻭﻥ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺟﻭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻥ ﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﺣﺎﺿﺭﺓ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﺣﻘﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻳﺗﺿﺢ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺎ!‬
‫ﺃﺭﺳﻠﺕ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﺻﻭﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﺗﺱ ﺁﺏ؛ ﺗﻔﺣﺻﺕ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺛﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﺑﻼ ﺟﺩﻭﻯ‪ ،‬ﺛﻡ ﺟﺎءﺕ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻟﺛﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﺛﻳﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻟﻼﻫﺗﻣﺎﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺣﻔﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﺣﻳﺙ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻓﺭﻗﺔ‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﺗﻘﺩﻡ ﺃﻏﺎﻥ ﻣﺳﻠﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺭﺅﻳﺗﻧﺎ ﺟﻣﻳﻌًﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺭﺡ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺟﻭﺍﺭﻩ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻭﺑﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﻳﺎﺕ ﻭﺯﺣﺎﻣﻬﻥ ﻓﺭﺍﻍ ﺑﺳﻳﻁ ﻳﻭﺣﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺷﺧﺻﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻫﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﺭﺍﻍ ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ ﻭﺳﻁ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺯﺣﺎﻡ!‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺷﺧﺹ ﻣﻔﻘﻭﺩ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﺗﻡ ﺗﻌﺩﻳﻠﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺑﺭﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺍﻟﻔﻭﺗﻭﺷﻭﺏ!‬
‫ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻍ ﺍﻟﺑﺳﻳﻁ ﻳﻧﺎﺳﺏ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﺗﻣﺎﻣﺎ!‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺗﺫﻛﺭﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﻡ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺧﺎﺋﻔﺔ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻭﻗﻑ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻭﺿﻌﺕ ﻓﻳﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﻝ ﺻﻌﺩﻭﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺭﺡ ﺍﻟﺑﺩﺍﺋﻲ ﻟﻠﻐﻧﺎء ﻭﻫﻲ ﻻ ﺗﺭﻳﺩ!‬
‫ﻭﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻓﺳﺗﺎﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺑﻳﺽ ﻭﺃﻓﻛﺭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻥ ﻳﺻﻠﺢ ﺇﻻ ﻟﻣﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺩﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺍﺣﺗﺿﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﻳﺎﺕ ﻟﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃ ُﺭﺍ ِﻫﻥ ﺑﺭﻭﺣﻲ ﻧﻔﺳﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻝ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻗﺩ ﺣﺩﺙ!‬
‫ﺃﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺭﺍﺑﻌﺔ ﻓﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻋﺩﻳﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺋﺩﺓ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻳﻳﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﺣﻔﻅﺕ ﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺣﻔﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺍﻟﺩﻟﻳﻝ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺣﺗﺎﺟﻪ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ(‪ ...‬ﺩﻟﻳﻝ ﺑﺳﻳﻁ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ!‬
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 ‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻲ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺕ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﺃﺭﻳﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﺩﻫﺷﺗﻲ ﺃﺛﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻋﻠﻳﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺗﻭﺗﺭﺍ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺑﺩﺃ ﻳﻔﻛﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺩﻯ ﻏﺭﺍﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺑﺩﺍ‬
‫ﺃﺧﺑﺭﻧﻲ ﺑﻠﻬﺟﺔ ﻏﻳﺭ ﻣﻧﺗﻅﻣﺔ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻟﻭ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺫﻛﺭﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﺍﻵﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺃﻯ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﺟﺭﺩ ﻣﺻﺎﺩﻓﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺑﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺫﻛﺭﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﺟﻌﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻏﺭﺍﺑﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﻣﺳﺗﻌﺩًﺍ ﻟﻺﻳﻣﺎﻥ ﺑﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ! ﻣﺻﺎﺩﻓﺔ ﻗﻭﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻓﺣﺳﺏ!‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﺿﻭﻟﻳًﺎ ﺑﻣﺎ ﻳﻛﻔﻲ ﻟﺳﺅﺍﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﺗﻪ ﻋﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻟﺩﻳﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺗﺟﻣﻌﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺟﺎﺑﺕ ﺑﺎﻹﻳﺟﺎﺏ‪ ..‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﻣﻠﻙ ﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﻟﺑﻌﺛﺗﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻌﻳﺩ!‬
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‫ﺍﻧﺗﻅﺭﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺭﺳﻝ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺑﻘﻠﻖ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺭﻏﺏ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺭﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻭﺿﻊ ﻏﺭﻳﺏ ﺃﻭ ﻓﺭﺍﻍ‬
‫ﺁﺧﺭ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻟﺣﻔﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﺎﻥ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻣﺗﻭﺗﺭﺍ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻭﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺗﻠﻘﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﻼﻧﺎ ﻳﺭﺗﺟﻑ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻷﺩﺭﻳﻧﺎﻟﻳﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﺣﻅﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺃﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺷﻬﻘﺕ ﺛﻡ ﻗﻔﺯﺕ ﻛﻣﻥ ﻟﺳﻌﻪ ﻧﺣﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺅﺧﺭﺓ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﻭﺃﺷﺭﺕ ﻟﻠﺻﻭﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺗﺫﻛﺭﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﺳﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻧﺣﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﺳﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻧﺣﻝ!‬
‫ﺟﻔﻝ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻭﺫﻫﻝ ﻣﻥ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻠﻲ ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﻗﻠﺕ ﻟﻪ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻧﻅﺭ‪ ،‬ﻛﻳﻑ ﻧﻘﻑ ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ؟! ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺑﺳﺑﺏ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(!‬
‫ﺳﺄﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﻭﺻﻑ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‪:‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﻔﺕ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻓﻲ ﻭﺳﻁﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﺑﻌﺔ ﻣﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺳﺎﺭﻫﺎ ﻭﺳﺑﻌﺔ ﻣﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﻣﻳﻧﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﺳﺗﺩﺍﺭ ﺍﻷﺷﺧﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺫﻳﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺳﺎﺭﻫﺎ ﻗﻠﻳﻼً ﻟﻣﻭﺍﺟﻬﺔ ﺍﻟﻛﺎﻣﻳﺭﺍ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﻅﻬﺭ ﺍﻟﺟﻭﺍﻧﺏ ﺍﻟﻳﺳﺭﻯ ﻣﻥ ﻭﺟﻭﻫﻬﻡ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ ،‬ﺃﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺫﻳﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﻣﻳﻥ ﺍﻷﺳﺗﺎﺫﺓ ﻓﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻣﻳﻧﻬﻡ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﻭﺍﺟﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺻﻭﺭ!‬
‫ﻛﻧﺎ ﻧﻘﻑ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻏﺭﻳﺏ ﻭﻟﻬﺫﺍ ﺳﺑﺏ ﻣﻬﻡ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺻﺣﺕ ﻓﻳﻪ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻫﻝ ﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺳﺑﺏ ﻭﻗﻭﻓﻧﺎ ﺑﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ؟ ﻷﻥ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‬
‫ﺗﻌﺭﺿﺕ ﻟﻠﺩﻏﺔ ﻣﻥ ﻧﺣﻠﺔ!‬
‫ﻳﺎ ﺻﺎﺣﺑﻲ ﺃﺧﺑﺭﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻙ ﺗﺗﺫﻛﺭ!‬
‫ﻛﻧﺎ ﺫﺍﻫﺑﻳﻥ ﻻﻟﺗﻘﺎﻁ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺛﻡ ﺗﻌﺭﺿﺕ ﻟﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﺳﻌﺔ‬
‫ﺗﺣﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻳﻣﻧﻰ؛ ﻓﺎﻧﺗﻔﺦ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﻣﻝ ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﺑﻛﻲ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺗﺭﻳﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺑﺩﻭ ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﻗﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺻﻭﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻑ ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺑﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺩﻳﺭ‬
‫)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻧﺏ ﺍﻷﻳﺳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﻟﻠﻛﺎﻣﻳﺭﺍ!‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﺣﻙ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺣﺩﻭﺙ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺑﻳﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺑﺩﺃ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻳﺿﺎﻳﻘﻧﻲ ﻓﻌﻼ‪ ..‬ﻟﺳﺕ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﻱ ﻓﺎﺋﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺃﺻﻼ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺑﺣﺙ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺿﻭﻉ‪ ..‬ﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻧﺎ ﻳﺟﺏ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻧﻧﺳﻰ ﺫﻟﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺑﺗﻪ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺑﻠﻬﺟﺔ ﻳﺎﺋﺳﺔ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺳﻰ ﺫﻟﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺇﻧﺳﺎﻧﺔ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻻ ﺃﺻﺩﻕ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻳﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻧﻅﺭ ﻟﻲ ﻗﻧﻭﻁ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻼﻧﺎ ﻣﺗﺷﺑﺙ ﺑﺭﺃﻳﻪ ﻭﻛﻼﻧﺎ ﻻ ﻳﺩﺭﻱ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﻔﻌﻝ!‬
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‫ﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﺑﻖ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺳﻭﻯ ﺧﻳﺎﺭ ﻭﺍﺣﺩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﺗﻘﻲ ﺑﻬﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺗﻘﻳﻧﺎ ﺟﻣﻳﻌًﺎ ﻭﺗﺫﻛﺭﻧﺎ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪ ،‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻧﻧﻲ ﻟﺳﺕ‬
‫ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻧًﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﻌﻅﻣﻧﺎ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﻧﺫ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺩﻱ )ﻫﻧﺎء(‬
‫ﻛﺻﺩﻳﻘﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻳﺱ ﺑﻭﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﺣﺩﺛﺕ ﻣﻌﻲ ﻋﺩﺓ ﻣﺭﺍﺕ ﻋﻥ ﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﺷﻣﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺭﻓﺕ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻟﻭ‬
‫ﻛﻠﻣﺗﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﺳﺗﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺗﺟﻣﻳﻌﻧﺎ ﻣﻌًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺗﺻﻠﺕ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﻠﺔ ﻭﺍﻗﺗﺭﺣﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻠﺗﻘﻲ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻧﺎﺳﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺻﻼ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺍﻣﺭﺃﺓ ﺍﺟﺗﻣﺎﻋﻳﺔ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺑﺎﻟﻎ ﻓﻳﻪ ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻗﺩ‬
‫ﻗﺩ ﺍﻗﺗﺭﺣﺕ ﻋﻠﻲ ﻣﻧﺫ ﻓﺗﺭﺓ ﻁﻭﻳﻠﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭﻡ ﺑﻠﻡ ﺷﻣﻝ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺭﻏﺏ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺃﺻﺩﻗﺎﺋﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻭﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻋﺭﺿﺕ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﺳﺗﺿﺎﻓﺗﻧﺎ ﻟﻠﻳﻠﺔ ﺭﺣﺑﺕ ﺑﺷﺩﺓ ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺕ‬
‫ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺳﺗﺗﺷﺭﻑ ﺑﺎﺳﺗﺿﺎﻓﺗﻧﺎ ﻭﺗﻠﺑﻳﺔ ﺍﺣﺗﻳﺎﺟﺎﺗﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﺑﻝ ﻭﺳﺗﺻﻧﻊ ﻟﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺷﻭ ﻛﻭﺟﺑﺔ ﻟﻁﻳﻔﺔ ﺑﺟﻭﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺩﺟﺎﺝ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﻣﺭ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻣﻠﻭﺧﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻷﺭﺯ‪ ..‬ﻭﻛﻧﺎﻓﺔ ﻭﺑﺳﺑﻭﺳﺔ ﺃﻳﺿﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺭﻛﺗﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻣﺎﺳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻝ‪ ..‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﺷﻣﻝ ﻋﻧﺩﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻷﻥ ﺑﻳﺗﻧﺎ ﻭﺍﺳﻊ ﻟﻁﻳﻑ ﻭﻋﻧﺩﻧﺎ ﺣﺩﻳﻘﺔ ﻻ ﺑﺄﺱ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺑﻳﺗﻧﺎ ﻟﻳﺱ ﺑﻌﻳﺩﺍ ﺟﺩﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺳﺎﻋﺗﻳﻥ ﻓﺣﺳﺏ ﻟﻭ ﻛﻧﺎ ﻣﺳﺭﻋﻳﻥ !‬
‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺃﺧﺑﺭﺕ )ﻫﻧﺎء( ﻋﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺗﺣﻣﺳﺕ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﺃﻛﺩﺕ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺳﺗﺗﻭﺍﺻﻝ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻵﺧﺭﻳﻥ‪ ..‬ﻭﺳﺗﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺗﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺍﻟﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻓﺭﺩﺍ‬
‫ﻛﻠﻬﻡ!‬
‫ﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﺣﻅﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺳﺎﺭﻋﺕ ﺿﺭﺑﺎﺕ ﻗﻠﺑﻲ ﻭﺳﺄﻟﺗﻬﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛﻝ ﺍﻟﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻭﺍﺣﺩ ﻭﻭﺍﺣﺩﺓ؟ ﻫﻝ ﺃﻧﺕ ﻣﺗﺄﻛﺩﺓ؟‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻣﺎﺱ‪:‬‬

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 ‫‪ -‬ﻧﻌﻡ‪ ،‬ﺟﻣﻳﻌﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺧﻣﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ‪ ،‬ﻧﺣﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻟﻭ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺑﺑﺕ!‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻠﺣﻅﺔ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺈﺣﺳﺎﺱ ﺁﺧﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺭﻫﺑﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻳﺄﺱ!‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺕ )ﻫﻧﺎء( ﺩﺍﺋ ًﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺣﻔﺎﻅ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺟﻣﻭﻋﺔ ﻣﻌًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺳﻳﺎﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻳﻌﻧﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺷﻳﺋًﺎ ﻣﺎ ﺭﻫﻳﺑﺎ ﻭﺧﻁﻳﺭﺍ ﻗﺩ ﺣﺩﺙ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻋﺩﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻧﺯﻝ ﺃﻫﻠﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﻌﺩﻡ ﺍﻟﺭﺍﺣﺔ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺍﻋﺗﺩﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺑﻌﺩ ﻋﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ!‬
‫ﻭﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺎﺩﺋﺎ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﻘﺑﺽ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ ﻛﻠﻬﻡ ﺗﺭﻛﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﻫﺎﺟﺭﻭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻣﺎﻛﻥ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺳﺑﺏ ﺍﻟﺣﻅﺭ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﻳﺭﻭﺱ!‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺎﺟﺄﺓ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﺍﻱ ﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﻧﺗﻅﺎﺭﻯ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺣﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻁﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻟﻳﺻﻁﺣﺑﺎﻧﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﺫﻛﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻖ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﻣﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ‬
‫ﺁﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻧﺎ ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺣﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻁﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ‪..‬‬
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‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻫﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﻷﻣﺱ؛ ﻓﻼ ﺷﻲء ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺧﺗﻠﻔﺎ ﻭﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻌﺭﻭﻓًﺎ ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻻﺧﺗﻼﻑ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩ ﻫﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﻣﺑﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺩﻳﻣﺔ ﺑﺩﺕ‬
‫ﺗﺩﻫﻭﺭﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺑﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺑﺄﺧﺭﻯ ﺃﻗﺩﻡ ﺑﻛﺛﻳﺭ‪ ،‬ﺑﻝ ﻭﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ‬
‫ﻭﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﻣﻬﺟﻭﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻫﻠﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻁﻭﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺩﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻧﺯﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺭ ﻓﻳﻪ‬
‫ﺣﻘًﺎ ﻫﻭ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﻗﺭﺏ ﺇﻟﻳﻬﺎ ﻫﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻣﻭﻁﻧﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﻣﻭﻁﻧﻬﺎ!‬
‫ﻧﻌﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﺳﻛﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﻫﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺗﻧﺎﻭﻝ ﻳﺩﻱ!‬
‫ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﺗﻣﻧﻰ ﻟﻭ ﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺷﺧﺹ ﺁﺧﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺳﺕ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻧًﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭ)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ)ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺧﻁﺋﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﺎ ﷲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﺻﻠﻳﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺟﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻧﻛﺷﻑ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻭﻟﻭ ﻋﺭﻓﺕ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻥ ﻟﺳﻭﻑ ﺃﺭﺗﺎﺡ ﺟﺩﺍ!‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻬﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻘﺎء ﺳﻭﻑ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻧﺯﻟﻲ ﻫﻧﺎ ﻏﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺗﻌﺩ ﺟﻳﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻸﺳﻑ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻣﺷﻐﻭﻟﺔ ﻣﻊ ﻋﺎﺋﻠﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﻟﻥ ﺗﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺣﺿﻭﺭ ﺇﻟﻳﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣﻳﺙ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻫﺎ ﻳﺣﺗﺿﺭ ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﻌﺭﻓﻭﺍ ﻛﻡ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺑﻘﻲ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻪ!‬
‫ﻭﻛﺎﻥ )ﻣﺣﻣﺩ ﺣﺳﻥ(ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺗﻌﻘﺑﻪ ﻭﻻ ﻳﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﺣﺩﻧﺎ ﺃﻳﻥ ﻫﻭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﺃﻣﺭﺍ ﻣﻘﻠﻘﺎ ﻷﻥ )ﻣﺻﻁﻔﻰ ﺳﻠﻳﻣﺎﻥ( ﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺃﻥ )ﻣﺣﻣﺩ‬
‫ﺣﺳﻥ( ﻭﻗﻊ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺷﻛﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻣﺎ ﻭﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺭﻛﺯ ﺍﺣﺗﺟﺎﺯ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺣﺩﺍﺙ!‬
‫ﻭﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﺍﺧﺗﻔﻰ ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻣﻛﺎﻧﻪ ﻭﻻ ﺃﻳﻥ ﻫﻭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻟﻳﺱ ﻣﺛﻝ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻻ ﻳﺯﺍﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﺯﺍﻟﻭﺍ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻭﻥ ﺍﺳﻣﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻅﻬﺭ ﺍﻻﺛﻧﺎﻋﺷﺭ ﺷﺧﺻﺎ ﺍﻵﺧﺭﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ‪ ،‬ﻧﺳﻳﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺭ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻟﻠﺣﻅﺎﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ )ﻫﻧﺎء( ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺭﺍﺋﻌﺔ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺟﻣﻳﻠﺔ ﻭﺣﻳﻭﻳﺔ ﻛﺎﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺭﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﺑﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻳﻝ ﺍﻵﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺻﻔﻑ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺟﻣﻳﻝ ﻓﻌﻼ ﻭﻋﻳﻧﺎﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﺧﺿﺭﺍﻭﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺑﺿﺗﻳﻥ‬
‫ﺿﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺣﻳﺎﺓ ﺃﺻﺑﺣﺗﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﺣﻛﻣﺔ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻥ )ﺑﺎﺳﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺷﺩﻱ( ﺃﻳ ً‬
‫ﻭﺳﻳ ًﻣﺎ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﺋ ًﻣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺍﻧﺿﻡ )ﻣﺻﻁﻔﻰ ﺳﻠﻳﻣﺎﻥ( ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺑﺣﺭﻳﺔ ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺑﺣﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺣﻣﺭ‪ ..‬ﺛﻡ ﺻﺎﺭ ﺃﻛﺑﺭ ﺟﺳﺩﻳﺎ ﻭﺃﺿﺧﻡ ﻣﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻳﻪ ﻗﺩﻳﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺗﻣﺗﻊ ﺑﺟﺳﺩ ﺭﻳﺎﺿﻲ ﻗﻭﻱ‪ ..‬ﻛﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺧﻁﻭﺑًﺎ ﻟﺻﺩﻳﻘﺗﻪ‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﻗﺭﻳﺑﺗﻪ ﻣﻥ ﻧﺎﺣﻳﺔ ﺍﻷﻡ ﻭﻫﻭ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﻳﺳﻌﺩﻩ ﺟﺩﺍ!‬
‫ﻭ)ﻋﺑﻳﺭ( ﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﺑﺩﺕ ﻛﺑﻳﺭﺓ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻅﻠﺕ ﺃﻗﺻﺭ ﺑﻛﺛﻳﺭ‬
‫ﻣﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﻣﻐﻁﻰ ﺑﺣﺏ ﺍﻟﺷﺑﺎﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺩﺩﺕ ﻟﻭ ﺃﺻﻑ ﻟﻙ ﺗﻐﻳﻳﺭﺍﺕ ﻛﻝ ﺷﺧﺹ ﻟﻛﻧﻬﻡ ﺻﺎﺭﻭﺍ ﻛﻠﻬﻡ‬
‫ﻣﺗﻐﻳﺭﻳﻥ ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺎﺿﻲ‪ ..‬ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﺷﺧﺻﻳﺎﺕ ﺃﻗﻭﻯ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻷﺟﺳﺎﻡ ﺃﺟﻣﻝ ﻭﺃﻗﻭﻯ ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻠﺷﺑﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﺣﺗﻰ ﺍﻟﺗﻭﺃﻡ ﺻﺎﺭﺍ‬
‫ﻣﺧﺗﻠﻔﻳﻥ ﻋﻥ ﺑﻌﺿﻬﻣﺎ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻣﺎ ﺻﺎﺭﺍ ﺑﺫﻳﺋﻳﻥ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺭ ﻏﺭﻳﺏ ﻷﻧﻧﺎ ﻧﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻧﻬﻣﺎ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ ﻻ ﻳﻧﻁﻘﺎﻥ ﺑﺷﻲء ﺑﺫﻱء!‬

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‫ﺃﻣﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ ﺿﺣﻛﻧﺎ ﻓﻌﻼ ﻓﻬﻭ )ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻳﻝ( ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺻﺎﺭ ﺃﺑﻠﻬﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻣﺭﺍﺭﺍ‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﻭﻟﻡ ﻧﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﻓﻬﻡ ﻛﻠﻣﺔ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﻭﻟﻬﺎ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺛﺭﺛﺭ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻛﺭﺍﺭﺍ ﺑﺳﺭﻋﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺿﺣﻙ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻧًﺎ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﺋ ًﻣﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻌﺗﻘﺩ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻋﺎﻡ ﺃﻥ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺗﻣﺎﺛﻼﻥ ﺃﻭ ﻧﺷﺑﻪ‬
‫ﺑﻌﺿﻧﺎ! ﻛﺎﻥ ﺷﻌﺭ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻻ ﻳﺯﺍﻝ ﺃﺳﻭﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻌﺭﻱ ﻻ ﻳﺯﺍﻝ‬
‫ﺑﻧﻳًﺎ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﺎﻩ ﻻ ﺗﺯﺍﻻﻥ ﺧﺿﺭﺍﻭﻳﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﺯﺭﻗﺎﻭﻳﻥ!‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻓﺭﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺭﺿﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﻔﺱ ﺑﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺃﺻﺩﻗﺎﺋﻲ ﻣﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﺻﺭﻓﺕ ﺍﻧﺗﺑﺎﻫﻲ ﻟﻔﺗﺭﺓ ﻗﺻﻳﺭﺓ ﺛﻡ ﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺎﺭﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺗﻅﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺄﺗﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺏ ﻟﺗﺩﺧﻝ ﺇﻟﻳﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﻋﻠﻣﺕ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻔﻌﻝ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺃﺑﺩًﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺗﻅﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺃﺣﺩﻫﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﻋﻠﻣﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻟﻥ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ‬
‫ﺃﺑﺩًﺍ ﺃﻳﺿﺎ!‬
‫ﻣﻊ ﻣﺭﺍﻋﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻭ)ﻣﺣﻣﺩ ﺣﺳﻥ(‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﻫﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺃﺣﺑﻁﻧﻲ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻳﻔﺗﻘﺩﻫﺎ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻧﺎ!‬
‫ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﻓﺗﺄﺛﺭﺕ ﺑﻪ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺧﻳﻝ‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺃﻭ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻗﺭﺃﺕ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺧﻳﺎﻻﺕ ﻟﻳﺱ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﺳﺎﺱ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﺣﺔ!‬
‫ﺃﻭﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺣﻠﻣﺕ ﺑـ)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺭﺓ ﻓﺎﻋﺗﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ؟!‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﻟﻠﺗﺄﻛﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﻌﺩ ﺍﻟﻌﺷﺎء ﺍﻟﺩﺳﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﺭﺍﺋﻊ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﻋﺩﺗﻪ ﺃﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺫﻫﺑﻧﺎ ﺟﻣﻳﻌًﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﻳﺷﺔ ﻭﺗﺣﺩﺛﻧﺎ‪ .‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺗﻣﺗﻊ ﺑﻬﻡ ﻭﺑﺎﻟﺟﻠﻭﺱ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻬﻡ ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺧﻁﺄ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻛﻭﻥ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻫﻧﺎ ﻣﻌﻧﺎ!‬
‫ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺩﺍ ً ﻟﻡ ﻳﺳﺄﻝ ﻋﻧﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺭﻓﺕ‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ ﻟﻘﺩ ﺃﺯﻋﺟﻧﻲ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻲ ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺄﻝ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺑﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﻋﻧﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺩﻭ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻣﺳﺎ ﻁﻠﺏ ﻣﻧﻲ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﺃﻻ ﺃﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺃﺭﻏﺏ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺯﻋﺎﺟﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﻣﺳﺗﻌﺩًﺍ ﻟﺳﻣﺎﻋﻬﻡ ﻳﺧﺑﺭﻭﻧﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻬﻡ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻭﻧﻬﺎ!‬
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 ‫ﻟﻭ ﻗﺎﻝ ﻟﻲ ﺃﺣﺩﻫﻡ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﻓﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻓﻌﻝ ﺇﺫﻥ؟‬
‫ﻟﻥ ﺃﻛﻭﻥ ﻣﺗﻭﻫﻣﺎً‪ ..‬ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ؟‬
‫ﺳﻳﺣﻝ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﻋﺏ ﻣﻥ ﻣﺣﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻗﺑﻭﻝ ﻣﺎ ﺣﻝ ﺑﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺳﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﺃﻗﺭﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺗﺣﻳﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻣﺎﻟﻙ ﻧﻔﺳﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺭﻏﺏ ﺑﺷﺩﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﻣﻊ ﻣﻥ ﺷﺧﺹ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻛﻳﻑ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺳﺄﻧﺳﺎﻫﺎ ﺃﺑﺩًﺍ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺧﻳﻝ ﺣﻘًﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻛﻭﻥ ﻧﻔﺳﻪ ﻗﺭﺭ ﺇﻧﻬﺎء ﻭﺟﻭﺩﻫﺎ!‬
‫ﺩﻭﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺩ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻛﻥ ﻭﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﺧﺗﻠﻔﺔ‪ ..‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻣﻥ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺧﺗﻔﻲ ﺇﻧﺳﺎﻥ!‬
‫ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﻫﺎﺩﺋﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺳﺎﻫﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺧﻳﺎﺭﺍ‪ ..‬ﻟﻥ ﺃﻧﺳﺎﻫﺎ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ!‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻋﻠﻣﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺯﻋﺟﻧﻲ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ‪ :‬ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ‬
‫ﻳﺣﺩﺙ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﻣﻧﺯﻟﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻭﻥ ﻣﺗﻭﻫﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻧﺎ!‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﻟﺗﻳﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻟﻡ ﻳﻌﺩ ﺑﺈﻣﻛﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻻﺣﺗﻔﺎﻅ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻠﻭﻣﺔ ﻟﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﻓﺣﺳﺏ‪ ،‬ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺄﻝ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ‪..‬‬
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‫‪ -‬ﻣﺭﺣﺑًﺎ ﻳﺎ ﺭﻓﺎﻕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺣﺩﺛﺕ ﺟﻣﻠﺗﻲ ﺑﺗﻭﺗﺭ ﺧﻔﻳﻑ ﺛﻡ ﻗﻠﺕ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﺃﺭﻳﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻁﺭﺡ ﻋﻠﻳﻛﻡ ﺟﻣﻳﻌًﺎ ﺳﺅﺍﻻً ﺑﺳﻳﻁﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﻧﻅﺭﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺑﺩﺍ ﻣﺣﺑﻁﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﻋﺎﺩ‬
‫ﺑﻅﻬﺭﻩ ﻟﻠﺧﻠﻑ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺿﻊ ﻳﺩﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﺑﻬﺗﻪ‪ ..‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺿﺣﻙ ﻣﻥ ﻣﻧﻅﺭﻩ ﻟﻛﻧﻲ )ﻣﺻﻁﻔﻰ ﺳﻠﻳﻣﺎﻥ( ﺳﺄﻟﻧﻲ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻳﺎ )ﺃﺣﻣﺩ(؟‬
‫ﻧﻅﺭﺕ ﻟﻪ ﺛﻡ ﻟﻠﺑﺎﻗﻳﻥ ﻭﻗﻠﺕ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻧﻅﺭ‪ ..‬ﻗﺩ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﻫﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﺁﻩ‪ ..‬ﻏﺭﻳﺏ! ﻭﻟﻛﻥ‪ ..‬ﺃﻳﻥ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻁﻭﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ!‬
‫ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺗﻛﻠﻡ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﺑﺑﺳﺎﻁﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﻗﻠﺑﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﻛﻥ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺷﺧﺹ ﺁﺧﺭ!‬
‫ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺧﺹ ﺁﺧﺭ ﺑﺧﻼﻑ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ(!‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺩ ﺟﻣﻠﺗﻪ ﺳﺎﺩ ﺻﻣﺕ ﻣﺷﻭﺵ ﻳﻠﺗﻬﻡ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻓﺔ ﺑﺎﻻﺭﺗﺑﺎﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﻧﻅﺭﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺑﺩﺍ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺭﺃﻯ ﺷﺑ ًﺣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﻳﻧﺎﻩ ﻣﺗﺳﻌﺗﺎﻥ ﻭﻭﺟﻬﻪ ﺷﺎﺣﺏ!‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺭﻋﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻏﻣﺭﻧﻲ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﻳﺎﺡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺗﻧﺎ )ﻫﻧﺎء( ﺑﻔﺿﻭﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪) -‬ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(؟ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻣﻥ؟‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﻐﻣﻐﻡ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺍﺳﻡ ﻋﺎﺋﻠﺗﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ ﻫﺎﺩﺋﺔ ﺗﺷﺑﻪ ﻛﺗﻛﻭﺗﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻘﺭﺍ ﻗﺻﻳﺭﺍ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﺭﺗﺩﻱ ﻓﺳﺗﺎﻧًﺎ ﻁﻭﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻣﺗﻡ )ﺇﺑﺭﺍﻫﻳﻡ( ﻓﻲ ﺣﻳﺭﺓ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻧﺔ‪ ..‬ﻣﺎﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺟﻧﻭﻥ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﺟﻧﻭﻥ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻫﻝ ﻓﺎﺗﻧﻲ ﺷﻲء؟‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺕ )ﺇﻳﻣﻲ( ﺍﻟﺳﺅﺍﻝ ﺍﻷﺧﻳﺭ ﻓﺄﺟﺑﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﺳﺗﺟﻣﺎﻉ‬
‫ﺷﺗﺎﺕ ﻗﻠﺑﻲ‪:‬‬
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 ‫‪ -‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ ﺍﺳﻣﻬﺎ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻓﻲ ﺻﻔﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺻﻑ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ‪ ..‬ﻻ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺗﻘﺭﻳﺑﺎ‪ ..‬ﺃﻭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻋﺗﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻳﻔﻌﻝ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ..‬ﻟﻛﻥ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﺃﻧﺕ‬
‫ﺗﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻅﻧﻧﺕ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻓﻘﺩﺕ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﺃﺣﻳﺎﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻳﺳﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭ ﻳﺎ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﺗﺧﻳﻝ! ﺑﻝ ﻭﺍﻷﺳﻭﺃ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺗﻭﺟﺩ‬
‫ﻋﻼﻣﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻭﺩﻫﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ ﺑﺎﺳﺗﺛﻧﺎء ﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺗﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﺿﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻳﺎ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﺃﻧﺕ ﺗﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﺃﻳ ً‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ )ﻓﺎﺩﻱ( ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﻠﻭﺡ ﺑﻛﻭﺏ ﻓﻲ ﻳﺩﻩ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺃﻱ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻣﻌﻧﺎ ﻳﺎ ﺷﺑﺎﺏ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺫﻛﺭ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪ ..‬ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻛﻝ ﻭﺍﺣﺩ ﻣﻧﻛﻡ ﺑﻭﺿﻭﺡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺧﻳﻝ ﻛﻳﻑ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺳﺄﻧﺳﻰ ﻭﺍﺣﺩًﺍ ﻣﻧﻛﻡ‬
‫ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺑﻭﺿﻭﺡ ﺑﺎﻗﻳﻛﻡ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﺃﻣﺭ ﻏﻳﺭ‬
‫ﻣﻧﻁﻘﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪ ..‬ﺃﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﺫﻟﻙ؟‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ )ﺷﺎﺩﻱ( ﺃﻳﺿﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻭﺍﻓﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻼﻡ ﺃﺧﻲ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﻓﺗﻳﺎﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺑﺳﻬﻭﻟﺔ ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺧﺎﻣﺳﺔ ﺑﻳﻧﻬﻥ‪.‬‬
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 ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﻭﻫﻭ ﻣﺿﻁﺭﺏ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻧﻌﻡ‪..‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﻳﻧﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﻼﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﻛﻼﻡ‪ ..‬ﺑﻝ ﻟﻘﺩ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺟﺑﺕ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻭﺣﻛﻳﺕ ﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺫﻟﻙ؟ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺑﺑﺕ ﻛﻝ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺃﺭﻗﻬﻥ!‬
‫ﺍﻧﻔﺟﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﻳﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺿﺣﻙ ﺻﺎﺧﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﺿﺣﻙ ﺍﻟﺗﻭﺗﺭ ﻋﺩﻳﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺫﺍﻕ ﻭﺳﺭﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻓﺔ ﺻﺎﻣﺗﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﺫﻟﻙ‬
‫ﺃﺭﺩﻑ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﺍﺳﺗﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻛﻝ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺎﻫﺗﻣﺎﻡ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺣﺑﺑﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪ .‬ﻟﻡ ﻳﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺳﺑﺏ ﺇﻋﺟﺎﺑﻲ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻷﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺻﺎﻣﺗﺔ ﻭﻣﺗﻌﺻﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻭﻗﻌﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺑﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﻟﺫﻟﻙ‬
‫ﻛﺗﺑﺕ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻳﻭﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﺣﺑﻬﺎ ﻭﺃﻋﻁﻳﺗﻬﺎ ﺇﻳﺎﻫﺎ‪ ..‬ﺛﻡ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ‬
‫ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﺭﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻳﺩﻱ ﻭﺭﺃﺕ‬
‫ﻭﺭﺩﺗﻳﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻳﺩﻱ ﺍﻷﺧﺭﻱ ﻓﺻﻣﻣﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﺭﻑ ﻣﺎ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺛﻡ‬
‫ﺻﺎﺩﺭﺗﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺑﺩﺃ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﻳﻘﺗﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻌﺎﻣﻝ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﻣﻌﻲ ﺳﺧﻳﻔﺎ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺗﻭﺏ‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺗﺿﺣﻙ ﻋﻠﻲ‪ ..‬ﻭﻣﻌﻅﻣﻛﻡ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﺑﺗﺳﻡ ﺍﺑﺗﺳﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﺭﻳﺿﺔ ﺛﻡ ﺃﻛﻣﻝ‪:‬‬

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 ‫‪ -‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻳﻭﻡ ﻣﺣﺭﺝ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻲ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺗﻡ ﻳﺎ ﺭﻓﺎﻕ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺗﺫﻛﺭﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﻗﻑ ﻓﻌﻼ؟‬
‫ﺑﺩﺍ ﻣﻌﻅﻣﻬﻡ ﻏﻳﺭ ﻣﺭﺗﺎﺣﻳﻥ ﻣﻊ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺑﻘﺔ )ﺷﺎﺩﻳﺔ( ﺑﺛﻘﺔ ﻛﺑﻳﺭﺓ ﺛﻡ ﺃﺭﺩﻓﺕ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻻﺳﻡ ﺃﺑﺩًﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﻬﺕ ﺟﻣﻠﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﺍﺑﺗﺳﻣﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻬﺎ ﺑﺩﺕ ﻣﺿﻁﺭﺑﺔ‪ ..‬ﺛﻡ ﻗﺎﻟﺕ ﻭﻫﻲ‬
‫ﺗﻬﺯ ﻛﺗﻔﻳﻬﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛﻠﻧﺎ ﻓﺗﻳﺎﺕ‪ ..‬ﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻧﺎ ﻧﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻭﺳﻭﻑ ﻧﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻓﺗﺎﺓ‬
‫ﻣﻧﺎ!‬
‫ﻫﺯ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﻛﺗﻔﻳﻪ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﺎ ﺣﻛﻳﺕ ﻋﻧﻪ‪ ..‬ﻛﻳﻑ ﺳﺄﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻣﻊ )ﺃﺣﻣﺩ( ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﺷﻲء؟ ﺑﺎﻟﺿﺑﻁ ﻧﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﺷﻲء؟ ﻛﻳﻑ ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻙ ﺣﻘًﺎ؟‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ )ﻫﻧﺎء(‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺣﺳﻧًﺎ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﻏﺭﻳﺏ ﺣﻘًﺎ!‬

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 ‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻛﻠﻣﺎﺕ )ﻫﻧﺎء( ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﻧﻔﻳﺱ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺗﺑﺣﺙ ﻋﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻓﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻐﺽ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭ ﻋﻣﺎ ﻳﻌﻧﻳﻪ ﻭﺟﻭﺩ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ‪ -‬ﺃﻭ ﻋﺩﻡ ﻭﺟﻭﺩﻫﺎ ‪ ،-‬ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﻷﻱ ﺷﺧﺹ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺧﺗﻠﻑ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ ﻏﺭﻳﺏ ﺣﻘًﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻏﻳﺭﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺿﻭﻉ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺩﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻣﻌﻅﻣﻧﺎ ﻳﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﺳﺭﻳﻌًﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻳﺩًﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺯ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻓﻌﻝ ﻣﺛﻠﻬﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﻔﻛﻳﺭ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺯﻋﺟﻧﻲ ﻁﻭﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺄﻛﻠﻧﻲ ﺣﻳﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﺟﻠﻭﺱ ﻭﺍﻟﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﻊ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﻋﻥ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻁﻭﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﻝ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﻣﻊ ﻛﻝ ﺍﻟﻘﺻﺹ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭﻫﺎ ﻋﻧﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﺷﻭﻕ ﻟﺳﺅﺍﻟﻪ ﻋﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻗﺻﺔ ﻟﺳﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻧﺣﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﻁﻠﺏ ﺫﻟﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺎﺗﺭﻯ ﺃﻳﻥ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻵﻥ؟‬
‫ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻻ ﻳﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭ؟‬
‫ﺑﺫﻟﺕ ﻗﺻﺎﺭﻯ ﺟﻬﺩﻱ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺟﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺳﻰ ﻓﻘﻁ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻋﺎﻟﻘﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳًﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﻟﻡ ﺗﻌﺩ ﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺣﺩﺙ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺇﺫﻥ؟‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻣﺭﻋﺑًﺎ ﺟﺩًﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﺿﻰ ﻣﻌﻅﻣﻬﻡ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻧﺯﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣﻳﺙ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻓﻧﺩﻕ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺩﻳﻧﺔ ﺑﺄﻛﻣﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻏﺎﻟﺑﻳﺔ ﺍﻵﺑﺎء ﻗﺩ ﺍﻧﺗﻘﻠﻭﺍ ﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺭﺍﺿﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻲ ﺑﺩﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ ﻓﺎﺭﻏﺎ ﺑﻌﺩﻣﺎ ﻋﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺑﻳﻭﺗﻬﻡ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻟﻳﻠﺔ ﻟﻁﻳﻔﺔ ﺭﻏﻡ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﻭﺍﺳﺗﻣﺗﻊ ﺍﻟﻛﻝ ﺑﻭﻗﺗﻬﻡ!‬
‫ﺑﻘﻳﺕ ﻭﺣﺩﻱ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺑﻘﻳﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻧﻘﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺧﻧﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻛﻭﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﻳﺙ ﺗﺻﺎﺩﻣﺕ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﺗﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺩ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺗﺟﻣﻊ ﻅﻠﻠﻧﺎ ﺟﻣﻳﻌﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺗﺻﺎﻝ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺗﻌﺩ ﺑﻳﻧﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻗﻁﻳﻌﺔ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺑﻖ‪ ،‬ﺑﻝ ﺇﻧﻧﻧﺎ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺻﻧﻌﻧﺎ )ﺟﺭﻭﺏ( ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻭﺍﺗﺱ ﺁﺏ ﻭﻫﻭ ﺃﻣﺭ ﺭﺍﺋﻊ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺎﻟﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﺧﺎﺹ ﺃﻓﻛﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺷﻳﺎء ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ ﻟﻧﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﻟﻪ ﻣﻌﻧﻰ؟‬
‫ﺗﺫﻛﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺧﺎﺋﻔﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺎﺳﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻻﺟﺗﻣﺎﻋﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺗﺻﻣﻳﻣﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻛﺑﻳﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺭﺗﺩﻱ ﻓﺳﺗﺎﻧًﺎ ﻛﻠﻣﺎ ﺳﻧﺣﺕ ﻟﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺻﺔ ﻓﺗﺻﺑﺢ ﺃﺷﺑﻪ ﺑﺄﻣﻳﺭﺍﺕ ﺩﻳﺯﻧﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﺯﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺳﺗﺎﻥ ﺑﻘﻔﺎﺯﺍﺕ ﻭﻭﺷﺎﺡ!‬
‫ﻋﻧﺎﻗﻬﺎ ﻣﻊ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﺗﻬﺎ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺳﻳﺎﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺳﻭﺩﺍء ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺧﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﺑﻛﺎء )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻟﺳﻌﺕ ﺍﻟﻧﺣﻠﺔ ﻋﻳﻧﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺫﻛﺭﻯ ﺍﻷﺧﻳﺭﺓ ﻟﺳﺑﺏ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺯﻋﺟﺗﻧﻲ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻵﺧﺭﻳﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺛﺭﺕ ﻋﻠﻲ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻣﺳﺕ ﻗﻠﺑﻲ ﺟﺩﺍ!‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺑﺭﻳﺋﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺳﻭء ﺗﺟﺎﻫﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﻫﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﺿﺣﻳﺔ ﻟﺳﻌﺔ ﻧﺣﻠﺔ ﺑﺳﻳﻁﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﻟﺣﺩﺙ ﻛﻭﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻓﻅﻳﻊ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻬﻰ ﻭﺟﻭﺩﻫﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺩﻧﻳﺎ!‬
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‫ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﺍﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﻣﻌﻬﻣﺎ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺗﻛﻣﻝ ﻣﺫﺍﻛﺭﺗﻲ ﻫﻧﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﻔﻛﻳﺭ ﻓﻲ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻗﺗﻠﻧﻲ ﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻧﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﺭﻏﺏ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺑﻘﺎء ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻟﻣﺩﺓ ﺃﺳﺑﻭﻉ ﺁﺧﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺭﻫﺕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻵﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺧﺎﺋﻔﺎ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺕ ﻫﻧﺎ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻫﻝ ﺳﺄﻧﺗﺯﻉ ﻣﻥ ﻭﺍﻗﻌﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻛﻭﻥ ﻳﻭﻣﺎ ﻣﺎ؟‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﺳﺄﺧﺗﻔﻲ ﺑﻼ ﺃﺛﺭ؟‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺣﺩﺙ ﻫﻧﺎ ﻣﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﻗﺑﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺿﻣﻥ ﺃﻻ ﻳﺗﻛﺭﺭ ﺛﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﻣﻌﻲ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﻣﻊ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺣﺑﺎﺋﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﻳﺭ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺗﻭﻗﻔﺕ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺟﻭﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﻘﺩ ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﺑﻘﺎء ﻣﻊ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﺭﺕ ﺍﻷﻳﺎﻡ ﻭﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺗﻪ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺟﻠﻭﺱ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺭﻓﺗﻲ ﻭﻣﺷﺎﻫﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﻠﻔﺯﻳﻭﻥ!‬
‫ﻱ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺟﻭﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻛﻼﻫﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺍﺳﺗﻣﺗﻌﺕ ﺑﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺩ ّ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻌﻣﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻳﻌﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﻣﺿﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﻛﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺑﻣﻔﺭﺩﻱ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ ﻭﻫﻭ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻛﺭﻫﺗﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺋﺩﺓ ﻣﻥ ﻭﺟﻭﺩﻱ ﻫﻧﺎ ﺇﺫﻥ!‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺣﺩﺙ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺛﻳﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﻠﻘﻳﺕ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻧﺻﻳﺔ ﻣﻥ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ(!‬
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‫"أﺣﻤﺪ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﺮأت ﻋﻦ ﺗﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﻣﺎﻧﺪﻳﻼ‪ ..‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﺟﻌﻠﻨﻲ‬

‫أﺻﺎب ﺑﺎﻟﺠﻨﻮن‪ ..‬وأﻋﺘﻘﺪ أن ﻫﺬا اﻟﺘﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﻫﻮ ﻣﺎ ﺣﺪث‬

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‫ﻣﻊ )ﻧﻬﺎل(‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ أﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺷﻴﺌًﺎ اﻵن وﻫﺬا ﻗﺪ ﻳﺜﺒﺖ ﺣﻘًﺎ‬

‫أن )ﻧﻬﺎل( ﻣﻮﺟﻮدة ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪..‬‬

‫اﻟﻤﻠﺤﻮﻇﺔ اﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺘﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﻟﻬﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪ ﺳﺮﻗﺘﻬﺎ‪ ..‬أﻧﺖ ﺳﺮﻗﺘﻬﺎ وأﻋﺪﺗﻬﺎ ﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪﻣﺎ‬

‫أﺧﺮﺟﺘﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻜﺘﺐ اﻟﺴﻴﺪة )إﺑﺘﺴﺎم(‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ ﺑﻌﺪ ذﻟﻚ‬

‫أﺧﺒﺮﺗﻚ أن ﺗﺤﺘﻔﻆ ﺑﻬﺎ أوﺗﺘﺨﻠﺺ ﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﺑﻌﻴﺪًا‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪ أﺧﺒﺮﺗﻨﻲ ﻻﺣﻘًﺎ أﻧﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺮﻣﻴﻬﺎ أﺑﺪًا وﻟﻜﻨﻚ أﺧﺬﺗﻬﺎ‬

‫إﻟﻰ اﻟﻤﻨﺰل‪ ،‬وﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ اﻟﺴﺨﺎﻓﺔ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻋﺮﺿﺘﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ‬

‫واﻟﺪﻳﻚ‪ ،‬وﺿﺤﻜﺘﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ‪ ..‬أﻳﻦ ﻫﻲ ﻫﺬه اﻟﻮرﻗﺔ؟ إذا‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻻ ﺗﺰال ﻟﺪﻳﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﻴﻜﻮن دﻟﻴﻼ ً ‪ ..‬اﺑﺤﺚ ﻋﻨﻬﺎ‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪك! "‬
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‫ﺷﻬﻘﺕ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﻧﺹ‪ ..‬ﺛﻡ ﺍﻧﺩﻓﻌﺕ ﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﺫﻛﺭﻯ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ‬
‫ﻧﺳﻳﺕ ﻋﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﻭﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺃﺗﻠﻔﺕ ﺣﻭﻟﻲ‪..‬‬

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‫ﻣﻥ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺧﺑﺭﺗﻲ ﻓﺗﺄﺛﻳﺭ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻟﻸﺷﻳﺎء ﺍﻟﻣﺗﻌﻠﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﺷﺧﺹ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺷﻲء ﺍﻟﻣﺧﺗﻠﻑ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﻣﺧﺗﻔﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺷﻲء ﻧﻔﺳﻪ ﻭﻣﺎ ﻳﺗﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﻪ ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺣﺩﺍﺙ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻼﺣﻅﺔ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻟﻡ ﺗﺗﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﺩﻫﺎ!‬
‫ﻗﻠﺑﻲ ﻳﺣﺩﺛﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻧﻲ ﻟﻥ ﺃﺟﺩ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﻼﺣﻅﺔ ﺃﺑﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﻧﻬﺿﺕ ﻭﺍﺗﺟﻬﺕ ﻟﺣﺟﺭﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻣﺎﺯﺍﻟﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺎﻟﻬﺎ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﻐﻳﺭ‬
‫ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺷﻲء ﻭﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺑﺣﺙ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻣﻛﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﻠﺣﻅﺎﺕ ﻫﺎﺟﻡ ﻗﻠﺑﻲ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﺧﻭﻑ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﻲء ﻣﺎ ﻳﺻﺭﺥ ﺑﺩﺍﺧﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺃﺑﺣﺙ ﻭﺃﺑﺣﺙ ﺣﺗﻰ ﻭﺟﺩﺕ ﻋﻠﺑﺔ ﻣﻠﻳﺋﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻭﺭﻗﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺻﻭﺭ ﻭﺧﻁﺎﺑﺎﺕ ﻭﺻﻭﺭ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻭﻛﻼﻡ ﻓﺎﺭﻍ ﻭﺭﺳﻭﻣﺎﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﻁﻭﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﻌﺭﻓﺕ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻭﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﺎﻩ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺃﻧﻔﺎﺳﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ ﺛﻡ ﺟﻠﺳﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﻔﺣﺻﺕ ﺍﻟﺩﻟﻳﻝ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻧﺳﻳﻪ ﺍﻟﻛﻭﻥ ﺑﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﻧﻔﺱ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻓﺗﺢ ﺍﻟﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﻭﺃﺑﺣﺙ ﺩﺍﺧﻠﻬﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻻﺳﻡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﺃﻭﻝ ﺟﻣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻣﻛﺗﻭﺑﺔ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻛﻭﻣﻳﺩﻱ‪:‬‬

‫‪" -‬ﻋﺰﻳﺰﺗﻲ )ﻧﻬﺎل("‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﻧﻬﺩﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺭﺗﻳﺎﺡ‪..‬‬
‫ﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺭﺃﻩ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺯﻳﺯﺗﻲ‪..‬‬
‫)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﺯﻳﺯﺗﻲ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﺯﻳﺯﺗﻲ‪..‬‬
‫)ﻧﻬﺎﻝ(!‬
‫ﻁﻭﻳﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺗﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻳﺑﻲ ﺑﺣﺭﺹ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﻧﻔﺳﺎ ً ﻋﻣﻳﻘﺎ ً ﻁﻭﻳﻼً ﺳﻌﻳﺩﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺗﻭﻗﻔﺕ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺟﻭﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﻧﺎ ﺣﻘًﺎ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻣﺗﺻﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻛﻭﻥ ﻭﺃﺧﻔﺎﻫﺎ ﻭﺃﺧﻔﻰ ﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﻧﺳﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻣﺣﻭ‬
‫ﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺗﻲ ﻭﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺕ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻭﺭﻗﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺎﺗﺭﻯ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺣﺩﺙ ﻟﻬﺎ؟‬
‫ﺍﻳﻥ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻻﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫﻝ ﻫﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﺎﺓ؟‬
‫ﺃﻳﻥ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﺣﻠﻭﺓ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺩﺋﺔ‪ ..‬ﻭﻫﻝ ﺳﺄﻋﺭﻑ؟‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻏﻠﺏ ﻻ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻣﻠﻙ ﻓﻳﻪ ﺑﻳﻛﺎﺗﻭ ﺫﻳﻼ ﺃﺻﻔﺭﺍ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺳﻭﺩﺍ‪ ..‬ﻭﻓﻳﻪ ﻧﻳﻠﺳﻭﻥ ﻣﺎﻧﺩﻳﻼ ﻣﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺟﻥ ﺑﺟﻧﻭﺏ ﺇﻓﺭﻳﻘﻳﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻳﻪ ﺟﺑﻥ ﻻﻓﺎﺷﻛﻳﺭﻱ ﺗﺣﻣﻝ ﺑﻘﺭﺗﻪ ﻗﺭﻁﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻧﻔﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻭ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻫﻲ ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﺍﻵﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺍﺭﺗﻛﺏ ﺍﻟﻛﻭﻥ ﺧﻁﺄ ً ﻣﺄﺳﺎﻭﻳًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ ﻏﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﻣﺅﺫﻳﺔ ﻟﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻣﺷﻲ ﺃﺑﺩًﺍ ﺑﻳﻥ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻣﺣﺑﻳﻥ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻫﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻍ‪..‬‬
‫ﺗﻘﺿﻲ ﺍﻷﺑﺩﻳﺔ ﺧﺎﺋﻔﺔ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﺣﺎﺻﺭﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻅﻼﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻍ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﺗﺧﻳﻠﺕ ﺷﺑﺢ ﺟﻠﻭﺳﻬﺎ ﻣﻌﻲ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺄﻧﻲ ﻗﺭﻳﺏ ﺟﺩًﺍ ﻣﻧﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻧﺳﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﺗﻘﺭﻳﺑﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺄﻣﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺎﺣﺩﺙ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻗﺭﻳﺔ ﺃﺧﻁﺄ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻛﻭﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻋﺩﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﺷﺩﻱ ﺃﺭﺳﻠﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺫﻛﺭﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻬﺗﻡ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺟﺩﺍ ﺑﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﻝ ﻳﻅﻬﺭﻭﻥ ﺗﻌﺎﻁﻔﺎ ﺯﺍﺋﻔﺎ ﺇﻻ ﻣﻥ )ﻏﺳﺎﻥ( ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻳﻛﻔﻳﻧﻲ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﻭﻛﻔﻰ!‬
‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻻﺭﺗﻳﺎﺡ‪..‬‬
‫ﺣﺎﻥ ﻭﻗﺕ ﺗﺭﻙ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺟﺎﻧﺑﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻲ ﻷﻥ ﻻﺷﻲء ﻓﻌﻠﻲ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﺛﻡ ﺣﺩﺙ ﺷﻲء ﻏﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺍﺯﻳﻥ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﻭﻣﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻣﺕ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺩﺓ )ﺇﺑﺗﺳﺎﻡ( ﺑﺗﺣﺩﻳﺙ ﻣﻭﻗﻌﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻳﺱ‬
‫ﺑﻭﻙ‪..‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺕ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺁﺳﻔﺔ ﻷﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺗﻣﻛﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺣﺿﻭﺭ ﻟﺣﻔﻝ ﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﺷﻣﻝ!‬
‫ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﺃﺭﻳﺩ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭﻝ ﺇﻧﻲ ﺳﺄﻗﻭﻡ ﺑﺫﻟﻙ ﻗﺭﻳﺑﺎ ﺟﺩﺍ‬

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 ‫ﻭﺃﺭﺟﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻛﻡ ﺩﺍﺋﻣﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺧﻳﺭ‪ ..‬ﻛﻧﺗﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﻔﻭﻑ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺍﺳﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺿﻠﺔ ﻟﺩﻱ ﻭﺃﺣﺑﻛﻡ ﺟﻣﻳﻌﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺗﺣﺕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻛﻼﻡ ﺭﺳﻣﺔ ﺭﺳﻣﺗﻬﺎ )ﺷﺎﺩﻳﺔ( ﻟﻧﺎ ﺟﻣﻳﻌﺎ‪ ..‬ﺭﺳﻡ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺭﺳﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍﺓ ﻭﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﺑﻣﺎ ﻳﻛﻔﻲ ﻛﻲ ﺗﺣﺩﺩ ﻣﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﺭﺳﻡ ﺑﺳﻳﻁ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻭﺿﻭﻱ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ‪ ..‬ﺍﺳﺗﺧﺩﻣﺕ ﻓﻳﻪ ﺃﻗﻼﻡ ﺭﺻﺎﺹ ﻣﻠﻭﻧﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺭﺳ ًﻣﺎ ﻟﻌﺷﺭﺓ ﺃﻭﻻﺩ ﺻﻐﺎﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻌﻬﻡ ﺧﻣﺱ ﻓﺗﻳﺎﺕ ﺻﻐﻳﺭﺍﺕ!‬
‫ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺭﺳﻡ ﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ ﺷﻘﺭﺍء ﻗﺻﻳﺭﺓ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻋﻳﻭﻥ ﺑﻧﻳﺔ ﺗﺭﺗﺩﻱ ﻓﺳﺗﺎﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺟﻣﻳﻼ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﻠﺑﻲ ﻳﺩﻕ ﻛﻘﻠﻭﺏ ﺧﻳﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺳﺑﺎﻕ‪..‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻛﻳﻑ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻝ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺧﺹ ﺁﺧﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺗﻰ ﺗﻅﻬﺭ ﺑﻭﺿﻭﺡ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺣﺎﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺟﻝ ﺇﺛﺑﺎﺗﻪ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻥ ﺩﺍﺧﻠﻲ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻻﻧﺗﺻﺎﺭ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻷﻟﻡ!‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺧﻭﻑ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻫﻝ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﺗﻘﻲ ﻳﻭﻣﺎ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ؟ ﻭﻫﻝ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺫﻫﺏ ﻧﺣﻥ ﺇﻟﻳﻬﺎ!‬
‫ﺃﺗﻣﻧﻰ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻛﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﺎﺓ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻋﺩﻻ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ ..‬ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺳﻰ‬
‫ﻭﺟﻭﺩ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺗﺎﺓ‪..‬‬
‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺳﺗﻣﺭ ﺣﻳﺎﺗﻲ!‬
‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ )ﻧﻬﺎﻝ( ﻳﻭﻣﺎ ﻣﺎ‪..‬‬

‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬

‫) ‪U! %‬‬ ‫‪-V W X K Y 3+ Y M- Y Z ' = 2‬‬ ‫)‬

‫‪[ \ B . ] ^%& I A_ AM`Z ,‬‬ ‫‪- a 'J> 6‬‬

‫‪b /$ 1 c‬‬ ‫‪6 d( .(e f) G‬‬ ‫‪L M ' 0F‬‬

‫‪jk )"l& %- dm - ; . 3‬‬ ‫‪G 7:g .E$ h- f B%%i F‬‬

‫‪f ,- G‬‬ ‫‪. n A 6 ^%& ' o( A_% AM`9‬‬

‫‪p‬‬ ‫;‪Z q l‬‬ ‫‪T l;o‬‬ ‫"‪;A d -^ JA C 'h‬‬

‫‪(!/JrV‬‬
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‫ﺗﺣﻧﻳﻁ!‬
‫ﻳﺣﻛﻳﻬﺎ‪:‬‬
‫ﺍﺑﻥ ﺍﻟ ُﻣﺣ ِﻧّﻁ!‬

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 ‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺻﻐﻳﺭﺍ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﻧﺑﻬﺭﺍ ﺑﻣﺟﺎﻝ ﻋﻣﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﻳﺭ ﻣﺄﻟﻭﻑ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻗﻔﺯ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﻳﺻﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ ﻣﻊ ﺣﻘﻳﺑﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺑﻌﺔ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻌﺟﻳﺑﺔ ﻭﺃﺟﺭﻱ ﻧﺣﻭﻩ ﺑﺈﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﺻﺑﻳﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﻣﺗﻭﺳﻼ ﺇﻟﻳﻪ ﻟﻣﺷﺎﻫﺩﺗﻪ‬
‫ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﻌﻣﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻘﻝ )ﻧﻌﻡ(‪ ..‬ﺃﺑﺩًﺍ‪..‬‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﻁﺑﻊ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺣﻖ؛ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻧﺑﻐﻲ ﻷﻱ ﻁﻔﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺟﺩ ﻣﺛﻝ‬

‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﻔﻛﻳﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺟﺛﺔ ﻣﺧﻠﻭﻕ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺗﻡ‬
‫ﺗﻘﻁﻳﻌﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺷﺭﺍﺋﺢ‪ ،‬ﻗﺑﻝ ﺗﺟﻔﻳﻔﻬﺎ ﻭﺣﺷﻭﻫﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺗﺣﻧﻳﻁ!‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺭﺓ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺭﻓﺽ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺎﻋﺩﻩ ﺃﻭ ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﻛﻧﺕ‬

‫ﺃﺗﺟﻪ ﻧﺣﻭ ﻏﺭﻓﺗﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﺗﻅﺭ ﺳﻣﺎﻉ ﺑﺎﺏ ﻣﻛﺗﺑﻪ ﻳﻔﺗﺢ ﻭﻳﻐﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﻗﺑﻝ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻓﻊ ﺻﻭﺭﺓ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻣﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺋﻁ ﻭﺃﻧﻅﺭ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﺛﻘﺏ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ‬
‫ﺻﻧﻌﺗﻪ ﻟﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺋﻁ ﺍﻟﺧﻔﻳﻑ ﻛﻲ ﺃﺗﻠﺻﺹ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺭﺗﺟﻑ ﺣﻣﺎﺳﺎ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻳﺧﺭﺝ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﺟﺛﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺣﻘﻳﺑﺗﻪ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻁﺎﺋﺭﺍ ﺻﻐﻳﺭﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻓﺄﺭﺍ ﺃﺑﻳﺿﺎ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﺣﻳﺎﻥ ﺗﻛﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺭﻧﺑﺎ ﺻﻐﻳﺭﺍ ﺃﻭ ﻗﻁﺔ‪..‬‬

‫ﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺟﻠﺏ ﻟﻲ ﺷﻲء ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﺍﻹﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺳﻛﻳﻥ‬

‫ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﻘﻁﻊ ﺟﻠﺩ ﻭﻟﺣﻡ ﺣﻳﻭﺍﻥ ﻣﻳﺕ ﺣﺩﻳﺛًﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﺟﻣﻳﻼ ﻣﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺑﺎﺳﺗﺛﻧﺎء ﻋﻣﻠﻳﺔ ﻧﺯﻉ ﺍﻷﺣﺷﺎء‬

‫ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺗﻼﻋﺏ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﻣﻘﺯﺯﺍ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ!‬

‫ﻭﺃﺣﻳﺎﻧﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﺳﻠﻝ ﻣﻥ ﻏﺭﻓﺗﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﺃﺑﻲ ﺑﻌﺩ ﻧﻭﻣﻪ ﺑﺑﻁء‬
‫ﻭﻫﺩﻭء ﻗﺩﺭ ﺍﻹﻣﻛﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻟﺗﻘﻁ ﻣﻔﺗﺎﺣﻪ ﺑﺭﻓﻖ ﻭﺃﺷﻖ ﻁﺭﻳﻘﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻣﻛﺗﺑﻪ ﻷﺷﺎﻫﺩ ﺇﺑﺩﺍﻋﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﺣﺳﺱ ﺑﺄﺻﺎﺑﻌﻲ ﺑﺭﻓﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﺭﻭﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﻋﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﻟﻣﺱ ﻋﻳﻭﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺯﺟﺎﺟﻳﺔ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﻫﻣﺱ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻭﺃﺳﺄﻟﻬﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺷﻌﻭﺭﻫﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻣﻭﺕ!‬

‫ﻭﻫﻝ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﻣﺎ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﻡ ﻻ!‬

‫ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺁﻣﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺭﺩ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﻭﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻳﻭﻡ ﻣﻥ‬

‫ﺍﻷﻳﺎﻡ‪.‬‬
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 ‫ﻭﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻡ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﻭﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺭﺩ ﻋﻠﻲ!‬

‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﻠﺏ )ﺩﻭﺑﺭﻣﺎﻥ( ﺃﺳﻭﺩ ﺗﻡ ﺗﺣﻧﻳﻁﻪ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺳﻲء ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺩ ﻣﺎ‬

‫ﻭﻫﻭ ﺷﻲء ﻏﺭﻳﺏ ﻷﻥ ﺃﺑﻲ ﻻ ﻳﻘﻭﻡ ﺑﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺗﺣﻧﻳﻁ ﺍﻟﺳﻲء ﻋﺎﺩﺓ!‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﻣﻪ ﻣﺧﻳ ً‬

‫ﻁﺎ ﺧﻳﺎﻁﺔ ﻭﺍﺿﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺳﺎﻧﻪ ﻳﺗﺩﻟﻰ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺷﻔﺎﻩ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺣﺎﻛﺎﺓ ﻣﺭﻭﻋﺔ ﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﺣﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺭﻗﺑﺗﻪ ﻣﻛﺳﻭﺭﺓ ﻭﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺳﺑﺏ ﻣﻭﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻷﺳﺎﺱ؛ ﻓﻣﻁ ﺃﺑﻲ ﺭﻗﺑﺗﻪ ﺑﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻔﺯﻋﺔ ﺗﻣﻳﻝ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺷﻛﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺛﻌﺑﺎﻥ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﻟﻳﺱ ﻛﻠﺑﺎ‪ ..‬ﻛﻠﺏ ﺑﺭﻗﺑﺔ ﺛﻌﺑﺎﻥ!‬

‫ﻭﻅﻬﺭﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﺎﻩ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻭ ﻛﺎﻧﺗﺎ ﺗﺧﺭﺟﺎﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﻔﻧﻳﻥ ﻭﺗﻛﺎﺩﺍ ﺃﻥ‬

‫ﺗﺳﻘﻁﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ!‬

‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﻔﺗﻭﻧًﺎ ﺑﻪ ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺃﻱ ﻋﻳﻧﺔ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻋﻧﺩ ﺃﺑﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺭﺓ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﺣﺳﺳﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﺳﺳﺕ ﺑﺈﺣﺳﺎﺱ ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ‬

‫ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺍﺭﺗﺟﻑ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﻭﺍﻥ ﺗﺣﺕ ﺃﺻﺎﺑﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻣﺎ ﺟﻌﻠﻧﻲ ﺃﻗﻔﺯ ﻟﻠﺧﻠﻑ!‬

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 ‫ﺛﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﺷﺎﻫﺩﺕ ﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﻣﺧﻳﻔﺔ ﺗﻧﺗﺎﺏ ﺟﺳﺩﻩ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻠﻭﻱ ﺭﻗﺑﺗﻪ‬

‫ﻧﺣﻭﻱ ﻭﻳﻧﻅﺭ‪..‬‬

‫ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﻣﺗﺟﻣﺩﺍ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺭﻋﺏ‪..‬‬

‫ﺳﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻳﺎﺋ ً‬

‫ﻫﻧﺎ ﺳﻣﻌﺕ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﻳﺗﺣﺩﺙ!‬

‫‪ -‬ﺩﻋﻧﻲ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ!‬
‫ﻭﺑﻌﺩﻫﺎ ﺃﻏﻣﻲ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺗﻣﺎﻣﺎ ﻭﺗﺣﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻟﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻷﺳﻭﺩ!‬

‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬

‫ﺃﻓﻘﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻫﺗﺯﺍﺯ ﻋﻧﻳﻑ ﻭﺻﺭﺍﺥ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ ﻣﻁﺎﻟﺑًﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔﻬﻡ ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻳﻑ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺗﺣﺩﻳﻪ ﻋﻣﺩﺍ ً ﻭﺩﺧﻭﻝ ﻣﻧﻁﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻋﻣﻠﻪ!‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ ﺍﺳﺗﻁﻌﺕ ﺍﻟﻧﻬﻭﺽ ﻭﺍﺳﺗﺟﻣﻌﻥ ﺷﺗﺎﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺎﺭﻱ ﻟﻠﺭﺩ ﻗﺑﻝ‬

‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻌﺭﺽ ﻟﻠﻌﻘﺎﺏ‪..‬‬

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‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺗﻔﻛﻳﺭﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻧﺻﺑﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﻬﺩ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﻭﻉ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﺗﻛﺭﺭ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻟﺟﺛﺔ ﻣﺷﻭﻫﺔ ﺗﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﻣﻥ ﺗﻠﻘﺎء ﻧﻔﺳﻬﺎ ﻭﺗﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﺇﻟﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﺍﻟﺭﺩ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺣﺎﺳﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻡ ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻗﻠﺗﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﺿﺑﻁ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ ‪ -‬ﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﻏﻣﺽ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ‪ -‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻛﺎﻧﻲ‬

‫ﺭﺅﻳﺗﻪ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬

‫ﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻋﺎﻧﻲ ﻧﻔﺳﻳﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﺩﺍﻉ‪..‬‬

‫ﻻﺷﻲء ﻳﺯﻳﻝ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﻬﺩ ﻣﻥ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ!‬

‫ﺛﻡ ﺻﺎﺭ ﺑﺈﻣﻛﺎﻧﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﺩﻭﻣﺎ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻱ ﺍﻧﻌﻛﺎﺱ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺯﻝ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﻱ ﺳﻁﺢ ﻣﺻﻘﻭﻝ ﻳﻅﻬﺭ ﻋﻠﻳﻪ ﺭﺃﺱ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﻭﻋﻧﻘﻪ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ‬

‫ﻳﺗﻠﻭﻱ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺳﻣﻊ ﺻﻭﺗﻪ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻱ ﺻﻣﺕ!‬

‫ﻭﻟﻬﺫﺍ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﺎﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻳﺔ ﺑﻼ ﻧﻭﻡ ﺗﻘﺭﻳﺑﺎ‪ ..‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺧﺎﻑ ﻣﻥ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ!‬

‫ﻳﻣﻸ ﺳﻣﺎﻋﻲ ﻋﻭﺍء ﺍﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﻛﺻﺭﺧﺔ ﻣﻌﺫﺑﺔ ﻟﺭﺟﻝ ﻳﺗﺄﻟﻡ‪..‬‬

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‫ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺑﺷﺩﺓ ﻣﻧﻊ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺕ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺗﺭﺩﺩ ﺻﺩﺍﻩ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋﻣﺎﻕ ﺟﻣﺟﻣﺗﻲ ﻧﻔﺳﻬﺎ!‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ‪ -‬ﺳﻭﺍء ﺑﺳﺑﺏ ﺍﻹﺭﻫﺎﻕ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﻳﺄﺱ ‪ -‬ﺗﻭﺻﻠﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ‬

‫ﻗﺭﺍﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻧﻬﺎﺋﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻭﺍﺟﻬﻪ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻱ ﻷﻓﻬﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﺗﺳﻠﻠﺕ ﻣﻥ ﻏﺭﻓﺗﻲ ﻭﺳﺭﺕ ﺑﻬﺩﻭء ﻧﺣﻭ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺃﺑﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﻳﺩﻋﻭﻧﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻳﺿﻐﻁ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻋﺻﺎﺑﻲ ﻭﻳﺻﺭﺥ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﺗﺣﻣﻝ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺻﺭﺍﺧﻪ ﻣﺭﻭﻋﺎ ﻣﻔﺯﻋﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻟﻥ ﺃﺗﺣﻣﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺿﻐﻁ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻋﺻﺎﺑﻲ ﻛﻲ ﺃﻓﻌﻝ ﻣﺎ‬

‫ﻳﺭﻳﺩ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺻﻭﺕ ﺻﺭﺧﺔ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﻳﻌﻠﻭ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻣﺿﻰ‬

‫ﻭﻳﻬﺗﺯ ﺩﺍﺧﻝ ﻗﻔﺻﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﺩﺭﻱ ﻭﻳﻬﺯ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻣﻥ ﺣﻭﻟﻲ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺟﺎﻫﺩﺕ ﻟﻣﻘﺎﻭﻣﺔ ﺍﺭﺗﺟﺎﻓﻲ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻣﺭﺭﺕ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺃﺑﻲ‪ ..‬ﺛﻡ‬
‫ﺩﺧﻠﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺟﺭﺗﻪ ﺑﻬﺩﻭء ﺷﺩﻳﺩ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺻﻣﺕ ﻛﺎﻟﻔﺄﺭ ﺗﺳﻠﻠﺕ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺏ ﺳﺭﻳﺭﻩ‪ ،‬ﺑﺣﺛًﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺗﺎﺡ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺟﺩﻩ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺓ!‬

‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺃﺧﻔﻲ ﺃﺑﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺎﺗﻳﺢ ﺑﻌﻳﺩﺍ ﻋﻥ ﻳﺩﻱ ﻭﻏﻳﺭ ﻣﻛﺎﻧﻬﺎ!‬

‫ﺻﻭﺕ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﺍﻟﺻﺎﺭﺥ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻳﻌﻠﻭ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺕ‬

‫ﻣﺿﻰ‪ ،‬ﻣﻣﺎ ﺯﺍﺩ ﻣﻥ ﺫﻋﺭﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺑﺣﺙ ﺑﻬﺩﻭء ﻗﺩﺭ ﺍﻹﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺗﺎﺡ‪..‬‬

‫ﺭﻛﻌﺕ ﻭﺩﻗﻘﺕ ﺃﺳﻔﻝ ﺳﺭﻳﺭﻩ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺃﺟﺩ ﺷﻳﺋًﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﺑﺣﺛﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺩﻭﻻﺑﻪ ﻓﻠﻡ ﺃﺟﺩ ﺳﻭﻯ ﻣﻼﺑﺳﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﻛﺗﺑﻪ ﻻ ﻳﺣﻣﻝ ﺳﻭﻯ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺏ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻓﻌﻝ!‬

‫ﺍﻟﺻﺭﺍﺥ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻭﺍء ﻳﻣﺯﻗﺎﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ!‬

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‫ﺃﺧﺫﺕ ﺃﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻭﺟﻪ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺋﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻛﺭﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻅﻪ ﻭﺷﺭﺡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺷﻛﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺃﻣﺭ ﺑﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻧﺩﻫﺎ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺭﺃﻳﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺎﺗﻳﺢ ﺃﺧﻳﺭﺍ ﺗﺣﺕ‬
‫ﻭﺳﺎﺩﺗﻪ! ﻳﺑﺭﺯ ﺟﺯء ﻣﻧﻪ ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﺃﺣﻔﻅ ﺗﻔﺎﺻﻳﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺗﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻣﻣﻳﺯ!‬

‫ﺑﺑﻁء ﻭﺑﺻﻣﺕ ﻣﺩﺩﺕ ﻳﺩﻱ ﻧﺣﻭ ﺭﺃﺱ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﺣﻳﺙ ﻛﺎﻥ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺗﺎﺡ‪..‬‬

‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺟﺎﻫﺩًﺍ ﻣﻘﺎﻭﻣﺔ ﺍﺭﺗﺟﺎﻓﺔ ﻳﺩﻱ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﺭﺍﺥ ﺍﻟﺟﻬﻧﻣﻲ‬

‫ﻟﻠﻛﻠﺏ ﻳﻧﺗﻬﻙ ﺃﺫﻧﻲ ﺑﺷﺩﺓ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻣﺿﻰ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﻏﻣﺿﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻛﻣﺣﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺃﺧﻳﺭﺓ ﻟﻣﻘﺎﻭﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺻﺭﺍﺥ ﺍﻟﺭﻫﻳﺏ‬

‫ﺩﺍﺧﻝ ﺻﺩﺭﻱ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﻣﻥ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻘﻣﺎﺵ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺣﺕ ﺛﻘﻝ ﺭﺃﺱ ﺃﺑﻲ ﺗﺣﺳﺳﺕ‬

‫ﺑﺭﻓﻖ ﻛﻲ ﺃﺻﻝ ﻟﻠﻣﻔﺗﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺃﺑﻲ ﺗﺣﺭﻙ ﻗﻠﻳﻼ ﻓﺗﺣﺭﻛﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻭﺳﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺍﺧﺗﻔﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺗﺎﺡ!‬

‫ﻟﻠﺣﻅﺎﺕ ﻅﻧﻧﺕ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺗﻭﻫﻣﺎ‪ ..‬ﻫﻝ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺗﺎﺡ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ؟‬

‫ﻫﻝ ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺭﺍﺟﻊ؟‬

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 ‫ﺍﺳﺗﺣﻭﺫﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺳﺋﻠﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻫﻧﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻣﺩ ﺃﺻﺎﺑﻌﻲ‬
‫ﺑﻬﺩﻭﻭﻭﻭﻭء‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﺧﻳﺭﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﻣﻌﺩﻥ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺭﺩ‪..‬‬

‫ً‬ ‫ﺣﺗﻰ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ‬

‫ﺃﻣﺳﻛﺗﻪ ﺑﻘﻭﺓ ﺣﺗﻲ ﻻ ﻳﺻﺩﺭ ﺃﻱ ﺻﻭﺕ ﺛﻡ ﺗﺭﺍﺟﻌﺕ ﻭﻧﻅﺭﺕ‬

‫ﻟﻭﺟﻪ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻁﻳﺏ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻟﻬﺙ ﺑﺻﻣﺕ‪..‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺗﺎﺡ ﻓﻲ ﻳﺩﻱ‪..‬‬

‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺳﺗﻌﺩﺍﺩ ﻹﻧﻬﺎء ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺟﻧﻭﻥ‪..‬‬

‫ﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺗﺟﻪ ﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻣﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻅﺭ ﻟﺑﺎﺏ ﺣﺟﺭﺓ ﻧﻭﻣﻪ ﻳﺑﺗﻌﺩ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻟﺗﻔﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻣﻠﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﻗﺗﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﻫﺩﻓﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﻸﻧﻲ ﻟﻠﺣﻅﺎﺕ ﺷﻌﻭﺭ ﺑﺄﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﺍﻟﺗﻌﺭﻑ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺟﺯء‬

‫ﻣﻥ ﻣﻧﺯﻟﻲ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻭ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﺩﻳﺩ ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ!‬

‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻭﺍء ﻣﺭﺗﻔﻌًﺎ ﺟﺩًﺍ ﻟﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺗﻬﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﻛﺭﺓ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻣﺷﻳﺕ ﺃﺳﺭﻉ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺩﻭﺍﺭ ﻣﻥ ﻓﺭﻁ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺗﺞ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﺭﺍﺥ‪..‬‬

‫ﺳﻘﻁﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﻛﺑﺗﻲ ﻭﺃﻣﺳﻛﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻭﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺗﺩﻟﻳﻙ ﺻﺩﻏﻲ‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﻣﺣﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻳﺎﺋﺳﺔ ﻟﻭﻗﻑ ﺍﻟﺩﻣﻭﻉ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻳﻊ ﻓﻌﻝ ﺷﻲء‪..‬‬

‫ﻋﺎﺟﺯ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﻏﻣﺿﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻣﺳﺗﺳﻠﻣﺎ ﻟﻸﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻧﻳﻑ ﻭﺗﻣﻧﻳﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻘﺩ ﺍﻟﻭﻋﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺗﺳﻠﻣﺕ ﻛﻠﻳﺎ ﻹﺭﺍﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻣﺧﻠﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﻌﺫﺑﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻧﺩﻫﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻘﻁ ﻓﺗﺣﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻭﻅﻬﺭ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺏ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ!‬

‫ﺑﺷﻬﻳﻖ ﻳﺣﻣﻝ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﻳﺎﺡ ﻭﺍﻟﺭﻫﺑﺔ ﺗﻌﺛﺭﺕ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺏ‬

‫ﻭﺭﻛﺿﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﻳﺙ ﻳﻘﻑ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﻭﺳﻘﻁﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﻛﺑﺗﻲ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻪ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻭﺳﻝ ﻭﺃﺳﺎﻭﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺟﻝ ﺍﻟﺭﺣﻣﺔ‪..‬‬

‫ﺻﺭﺧﺕ ﺑﻛﻝ ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍء ﻓﻲ ﺭﺋﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺻﻭﺗﻲ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺷﻲء‬

‫ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺳﻣﺎﻋﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺏ ﺍﻟﻌﻭﺍء ﺍﻟﺷﺭﻳﺭ‪..‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺗﻭﻱ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻳﻠﻑ ﺑﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻭﺍﺟﻬﺗﻲ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺗﺣﺭﻛﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﺯﺟﺎﺟﻳﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺳﻔﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻱ‪..‬‬

‫‪-‬ﺩﻋﻧﻲ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﻟﺣﻅﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺩﺓ ﻷﻓﻛﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻠﻣﺎﺗﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﻻ ﺃﻓﻛﺎﺭ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺗﺷﻛﻝ ﺑﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻭﺍء ﻭﺍﻷﻧﻳﻥ‪..‬‬

‫ﺗﻌﺛﺭﺕ ﺑﻬﺫﻳﺎﻥ ﻧﺣﻭ ﻁﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻋﻣﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ ﻭﺃﻣﺳﻛﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻣﺷﺭﻁ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻟﻁﺎﻟﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﺑﺑﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺩﻩ ﻳﺳﺗﺧﺩﻣﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻭﺍء ﻳﻌﻠﻭ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﺿ ًﺣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻟﻥ ﻳﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﺣﺗﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻔﺫ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺭﻳﺩ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﺿﻌﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﺭﻁ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺩﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﻷﻗﻁﻌﻬﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺃﺳﻔﻝ ﻭﺃﻓﺻﻠﻬﺎ‬

‫ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻳﻘﻑ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻣﺣﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻳﺎﺋﺳﺔ ﻟﺗﺣﺭﻳﺭﻩ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻛﺎﻧﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﻛﻝ ﻏﺭﺯﺓ ﺃﻗﻭﻡ ﺑﻔﻛﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻭﺍء ﻳﻌﻠﻭ ﺑﺻﻭﺕ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ‪،‬‬

‫ﺣﺗﻰ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﻛﺎﺩ ﺃﻓﻘﺩ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﻁﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺟﺳﺩﻱ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﻣﺳﻙ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﺭﻁ ﺑﺻﻌﻭﺑﺔ ﻭﺳﻁ ﺍﺭﺗﺟﺎﻓﺔ ﺟﺳﺩﻱ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻫﺗﺯﺕ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﺗﺣﺗﻲ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺍﻗﺗﺭﺑﺕ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻓﺄﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺗﺭﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻛﻠﺏ ﻁﻠﻳﻘًﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﺛﺎﺑﺭﺕ‪..‬‬

‫ﻓﻘﻁ ﺛﻼﺙ ﻏﺭﺯ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﺛﻧﺗﺎﻥ ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺍﺣﺩﺓ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﺧﻳﺭﺍ‪ ،‬ﺳﻳﻁﺭ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻭﺍء ﺗﻣﺎ ًﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﺭﺗﻔﻊ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺟﺩﺭﺍﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ‬
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‫ﻭﻭﺻﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﺭﻭﺓ ﺗﺻﺎﻋﺩ ﺟﻬﻧﻣﻲ‪..‬‬

‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﺻﺑﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅ ﺍﻷﺏ ﻓﻲ ﺻﻣﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻠﻑ‬

‫ﻧﻔﺳﻪ ﻋﻧﺎء ﻓﺗﺢ ﻋﻳﻧﻳﻪ ﻟﻣﺩﺓ ﻋﺷﺭ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﻋﻠﻳﻪ ﺍﻟﻧﺯﻭﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻁﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺳﻔﻠﻲ ﻭﺇﻋﺩﺍﺩ ﻓﻁﻭﺭ ﺍﺑﻧﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻣﺷﻲ ﻧﺣﻭ ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺝ‪ ،‬ﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﺑﻧﻪ ﻭﺗﻭﻗﻑ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺣﻅﺔ ﻳﻔﻛﺭ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﺿﺣﺎ ﻟﻠﺭﺟﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺑﻧﻪ ﻧﺩﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺧﻁﺄﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﺭﻳﺩ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻁﻭﻝ ﻋﻘﻭﺑﺗﻪ ﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻼﺯﻡ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺑﻧﻪ ﻳﺭﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﺗﻌﺭﻑ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻣﻠﻪ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻟﻳﺱ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ‬
‫ﺧﺎﻁﺋﺎ ﺟﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻓﻌﺎﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻏﺭﻓﺗﻪ ﻭﺃﺧﺫ ﻛﺗﺎﺑًﺎ ﻣﺻﻭﺭﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺗﺣﻧﻳﻁ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺩ ﺍﺷﺗﺭﺍﻩ ﻣﻧﺫ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻗﺭﻳﺏ‪..‬‬

‫ﻓﺗﺢ ﺍﻟﺭﺟﻝ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﺑﻧﻪ ﺑﻠﻁﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺭﺹ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻻ ﻳﻔﺎﺟﺋﻪ ﺛﻡ ﻧﻁﻖ‬

‫ﺑﺎﺳﻣﻪ ﺑﻠﻁﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﻠﻖ ﺃﻱ ﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﻛﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﺑﻝ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻳﺩﺭﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺑﻧﻪ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺭﻳﺭﻩ ﺃﺻﻼ!‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﻏﻳﻅ ﻏﺎﺿﺏ ﻋﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﺭﺟﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ‬

‫ﺍﺑﻧﻪ ﻓﻳﻪ‪ ..‬ﺳﻳﻁﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻋﺻﺎﺑﻪ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﻟﻧﻔﺳﻪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺳﻳﺟﻠﺱ ﺑﻬﺩﻭء ﻭﻳﺧﺑﺭﻩ ﻋﻥ ﺣﺭﻓﺗﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﻳﺟﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﺳﻌﻳﺩًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻓﺑﻌﺩ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء ﺃﻥ ﻳﻛﻭﻥ ﻟﺩﻳﻪ ﺍﺑﻥ‬

‫ﻳﺷﺎﺭﻛﻪ ﺍﻫﺗﻣﺎﻣﺎﺗﻪ ﻟﻬﻭ ﺷﻲء ﺭﺍﺋﻊ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﺷﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﺟﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺑﺎﺏ ﻣﻛﺗﺑﻪ ﻭﻧﺎﺩﻱ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﺑﻧﻪ ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﺳﻣﻊ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﺗﺢ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺏ‪..‬‬

‫ﺷﻬﻖ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻧﻑ‪..‬‬

‫ﺳﻘﻁ ﺍﻟﻛﺗﺎﺏ ﻣﻥ ﻳﺩﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﺑﺻﻭﺕ ﻳﺻﻡ ﺍﻵﺫﺍﻥ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺳﻘﻁ ﺍﻟﺭﺟﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﻛﺑﺗﻳﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺭﻋﺏ‪..‬‬

‫ﺗﻌﺭﺿﺕ ﻣﻛﺗﺑﻪ ﻟﻠﻔﻭﺿﻰ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺭﻫﻳﺏ‪..‬‬

‫ﺳﻘﻁﺕ ﻁﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻋﻣﻠﻪ ﻭﺗﻧﺎﺛﺭﺕ ﺃﺩﻭﺍﺗﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﺧﻠﻑ ﻣﻛﺗﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﻓﺫﺓ ﻣﻛﺳﻭﺭﺓ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺷﻳﺋًﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺩ ﺃﻟﻘﻰ‬

‫ﻋﺑﺭﻫﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺯﻗﺎﻕ ﺑﺎﻟﺧﺎﺭﺝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻟﺭﺟﻝ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ ﻻﺣﻅ ﻫﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﻔﺎﺻﻳﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﺎﻩ ﻣﺛﺑﺗﺗﻳﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺑﺷﻊ ﺭﻋﺏ ﻋﺭﻓﻪ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﻣﻛﺗﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻑ ﺍﺑﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩ ﻓﻭﻕ ﻣﻧﺻﺔ ﺗﺣﻧﻳﻁ ﻭﺫﺭﺍﻋﺎﻩ‬
‫ﻣﻠﺗﻭﻳﺗﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻭﺿﺎﻉ ﻏﻳﺭ ﺇﻧﺳﺎﻧﻳﺔ‪..‬‬

‫ﻓﻣﻪ ﻣﺧﻳﻁ‪..‬‬

‫ﻋﻳﻧﺎﻩ ﻣﻧﺗﻔﺧﺗﺎﻥ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﻧﺗﻔﺧﺗﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﻣﻌﺗﺎﻥ ﺧﻠﻑ ﺍﻟﺟﻔﻧﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﻘﺭﺣﻳﻥ!‬

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.); 6 -1 7 = 6 A % Gl"F % Y1 B .. ]

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,- E Nv )o= D S K -,I w T !

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‫ﻳﺣﻛﻳﻬﺎ‪ :‬ﻣﺭﺍﻫﻖ‬

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 ‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺣﻛﺎﻳﺔ ﻻ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺻﺩﻗﻬﺎ ﺃﺣﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﺳﻭﻑ‬
‫ﺃﺣﻛﻳﻬﺎ ﻟﻙ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﻧﺫ ﺯﻣﻥ ﻁﻭﻳﻝ ﺗﻭﻓﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ ﺑﺳﺑﺏ ﺍﺭﺗﻔﺎﻉ ﺿﻐﻁ ﺍﻟﺩﻡ ﺍﻟﺭﺋﻭﻱ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺩﻯ ﻷﺯﻣﺔ ﻗﻠﺑﻳﺔ ﻗﺎﺗﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻣﺭﻱ‬
‫ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﺳﻧﻭﺍﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺃﺻﻳﺏ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺑﻧﻭﺑﺔ ﻗﻠﺑﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﻳﺙ‬
‫ﺷﺎﻫﺩﺗﻪ ﻣﻥ ﻧﺎﻓﺫﺓ ﺍﻟﻁﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻟﺙ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﻧﻭﻡ ﺟﺩﺗﻲ ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺳﻌﻔﻭﻥ ﻳﻧﻘﻠﻭﻧﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﻘﺎﻟﺔ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﻣﻣﺭ‪..‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻧﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﻭﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺏ‪ ..‬ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺑﻛﻲ ﻭﻛﻧﺕ ﻻ ﺃﻓﻬﻡ‬
‫ﺟﻳﺩﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ‪ ..‬ﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺣﺑﻪ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺟﻧﻭﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺭﺣﻳﻠﻪ ﺁﻟﻡ ﻗﻠﺑﻲ ﺑﺷﺩﺓ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺍﻷﺷﺟﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺭﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻣﻠﺗﻭﻳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﻧﺎء ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﺃﺫﻛﺭ ﻅﻼﻟﻬﺎ ﺗﺯﺣﻑ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻷﻋﺷﺎﺏ ﻣﻊ ﻏﺭﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﺷﻣﺱ‪..‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﻒ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺃﻧﺘﻈﺮﻩ‪ ..‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﺄﺗﻲ!‬

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‫ﺑﺻﺭﺍﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻟﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺣﻛﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺻﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺳﺄﺣﻛﻳﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻙ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻳﻭﺿﺢ ﻧﻘﻁﺔ ﻫﺎﻣﺔ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺫﻛﺭﻳﺎﺕ ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺑﻛﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺿﺣﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺩﺍﺋ ًﻣﺎ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻧﺱ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ﺗﻘﺭﻳﺑﺎ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺳﻭﻑ ﺃﻗﺻﻪ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻳﻙ ﻟﻳﺱ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ ً ﺗﺧﻳﻠﺗﻪ‪ ..‬ﻓﺗﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻁﻔﻭﻟﺔ ﻟﻳﺳﺕ ﺫﺍﻛﺭﺓ ﻏﺎﻣﺿﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻣﺛﻝ ﻣﻌﻅﻡ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻓﺑﺑﺳﺎﻁﺔ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺗﻠﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻳﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﺷﺅﻭﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﻣﺗﺄﻛﺩ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻧﻧﻲ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺍﻷﺣﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺗﻣﺎﻣﺎ! ﻧﺤﻦ ﺃﺻﻼ ﻣﻦ )ﻣﺼﺮ( ﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﺑﻲ ﻭﺃﻣﻲ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﻼ ﻟﻠﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺤﺪﺓ ﺍﻷﻣﺮﻳﻜﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺁﺗﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﻧﻴﺎ‪ ..‬ﻭﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺻﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻧﺗﺻﻑ ﺷﻬﺭ ﺃﻛﺗﻭﺑﺭ‪ ،‬ﻗﺑﻝ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻗﺻﻳﺭ ﻣﻥ ﻓﻘﺩﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺑﻲ! ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺳﺗﻣﺗﻊ ﺑﻪ ﺣﻳﺎ!‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻳﺩ )ﺍﻟﻬﺎﻟﻭﻳﻥ( ﻫﻭ ﺃﻓﺿﻝ ﻳﻭﻡ ﻟﻲ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺳﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻧﺕ‬

‫ﺃﺳﺗﻌﺩ ﻟﻪ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺷﻬﺭ ﺑﺄﻛﻣﻠﻪ! ﺗﺭﺍﻧﻲ ﺃﺳﻬﺭ ﻋﺩﺓ ﻟﻳﺎﻝ ﻣﺗﺷﻭﻗﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺣﻳﺙ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺳﺗﻳﻘ ً‬
‫ﻅﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻳﺭ ﺃﺷﻌﺭ ﺑﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﺎﻣﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﻓﻛﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﺭﺗﺩﺍء ﺍﻟﻣﻼﺑﺱ ﺍﻟﺗﻧﻛﺭﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﻲ ﻳﻐﻁ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻭﻡ‬
‫ﻋﻣﻳﻖ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻧﻲ!‬

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 ‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺣﺩﻯ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﺎﻟﻲ ﻭﺑﺧﺗﻧﻲ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﻌﻧﻑ ﻷﻧﻲ ﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺕ‬
‫ﻣﺳﺗﻳﻘ ً‬
‫ﻅﺎ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻧﺎﻗﺽ ﻋﺎﺩﺍﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻣﺻﺭﻳﺔ ﺍﻷﺻﻳﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺩﺩﺗﻧﻲ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻭ ﺭﺃﺗﻧﻲ ﻣﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅﺎ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻓﻠﻥ ﺃﺣﺗﻔﻝ‪ ..‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﺃﻣﺭ ﻳﻔﻭﻕ‬
‫ﻗﺩﺭﺗﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﺣﺗﻣﺎﻝ! ﻭﻟﻳﻠﺗﻬﺎ ﺃﺟﺑﺭﺕ ﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﻏﻼﻕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻭﻣﺣﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺗﻘﺭﻳﺑﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ ﺃﺑﺩﺃ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻬﻼﻭﺱ ﺍﻟﺗﻰ ﺗﻧﺩﻓﻊ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻳﻧﺎ ﺑﻳﻥ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﻳﻘﻅﺔ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺳﻣﻌﺕ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺏ ﻳﻧﻔﺗﺢ ﺑﺑﻁء‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﺑﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻁﻔﻼ ﺫﻛﻳًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﻅﻧﻧﺕ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﺃﺑﻘﻳﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻣﻐﻠﻘﺗﻳﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺩﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻅﺎﻫﺭ ﺑﺷﺧﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﺭﺳﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺣﺭﻛﺔ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻟﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻧﺧﺩﻉ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﺃﻣﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﻧﻅﺭﺓ ﺳﺭﻳﻌﺔ ﺛﻡ ﺗﺭﺣﻝ!‬

‫ﻭﻟﻛﻥ ﺑﺩﻻ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺭﺣﻝ ﺍﻧﻔﺗﺢ ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺻﺭﺍﻋﻳﻪ ﻭﺑﺩﺃﺕ‬

‫ﺃﺳﻣﻊ ﺃﻗﺩﺍﻣﺎ ﺛﻘﻳﻠﺔ ﺗﺩﺧﻝ ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ‪ ..‬ﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﺃﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﺃﻣﻲ!‬

‫ﺗﺟﺭﺃﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻧﻅﺭ ﺑﻌﻳﻥ ﻭﺍﺣﺩﺓ ﻟﻣﻌﺭﻓﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻣﻭﺟﻭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ‬

‫ﺭﺃﻳﺗﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺣﺷﺎ!‬

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‫ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ ﻣﺧﻳﻔﺎ ﺑﺄﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﺣﻭﺍﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﺍﻗﻊ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻟﻁﻳﻔًﺎ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺣﺩ ﻛﺑﻳﺭ!‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻐﻁﻰ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﻣﻝ ﺑﻔﺭﻭ ﺑﺭﺗﻘﺎﻟﻲ ﺳﻣﻳﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻘﻑ ﺟﻭﺍﺭ ﺳﺭﻳﺭﻱ‬

‫ﺑﺎﺑﺗﺳﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﺭﻳﺿﺔ ﺗﻅﻬﺭ ﺃﺳﻧﺎﻧﺎ ﻣﺩﺑﺑﺔ!‬

‫ﻭﺃﻳﺿﺎ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻗﺭﻧﺎ ﻛﺑﺵ ﺟﺎﻧﺑﻳﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺑﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺳﺑﺏ‬

‫ﺣﺟﻣﻪ ﺍﻟﻛﺑﻳﺭ ﻛﺎﺩﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻛﺷﻁﺎ ﺍﻟﺳﻘﻑ‪..‬ﻁﺒﻌﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺣﻠﻢ ﺏ)ﺷﻠﺒﻲ‬
‫ﺳﻮﻟﻴﻔﺎﻥ( ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺮﻛﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻋﺒﻴﻦ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺧﻄﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺒﺎﻟﻚ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻡ ﻳﻬﺗﻡ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ ﺑﺄﺧﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻐﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﻧﺎﺋﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻳﺭ ﺍﻟﻣﻘﺎﺑﻝ ﻟﻲ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﺑﺩﻻ ﻣﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺗﻘﺩﻡ ﻣﻧﻲ ﻭﺃﻣﺳﻙ ﺑﻳﺩﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺧﻠﺑﻳﺔ ﻳﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﺻﻐﻳﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺑﻠﻁﻑ! ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﻘﻳﻘﺔ ﻟﺳﺕ ﻣﺗﺄﻛﺩًﺍ ﻣﻥ ﺳﺑﺏ ﺍﻋﺗﻘﺎﺩﻱ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻟﻁﻳﻑ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻭﺿﻌﺕ ﻛﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺻﻐﻳﺭﺓ ﺩﺍﺧﻝ ﻳﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺑﺽ ﻋﻠﻳﻬﺎ ﺑﻠﻁﻑ‬
‫ﻭﺇﺣﻛﺎﻡ‪..‬‬

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‫ﻧﻬﺿﺕ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺑﻁء ﻗﺎﺩﻧﻲ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻓﺔ ﻧﺣﻭ ﻣﺳﺎﺣﺔ ﻓﺎﺭﻏﺔ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺟﺩﺍﺭ ﺣﻳﺙ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﺗﻲ ﺗﻧﻭﻱ ﻭﺿﻊ ﻧﻭﻉ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﺛﺎﺙ‪ ..‬ﺭﺑﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﻧﻭﻱ ﻭﺿﻊ ﺩﻭﻻﺏ ﻛﺑﻳﺭ ﻫﻧﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻣﻬﻡ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻭﻗﻔﺕ ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺩ ﻣﺎﻳﺣﺩﺙ ﺑﻔﺿﻭﻝ‪ ،‬ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺑﺭﺗﻘﺎﻟﻲ ﻳﺭﺳﻡ ﺷﻛﻼ ﻋﺭﻳﺿﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺭﻕ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺋﻁ ﺑﻣﺧﻠﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻟﺣﻅﺔ ﻅﻬﺭﺕ ﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ!‬

‫ﺍﻧﺑﻌﺙ ﻣﻧﻬﺎ ﺿﻭء ﻗﻭﻱ ﻓﺄﻏﻣﺿﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻭﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻭﺣﺵ‬

‫ﻳﺟﺫﺑﻲ ﻋﺩﺓ ﺧﻁﻭﺍﺕ‪ ..‬ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺷﻌﺭﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺿﻭء ﻳﺧﻔﺕ ﻓﺗﺣﺕ‬
‫ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻭﻭﺟﺩﺕ ﺃﻧﻧﺎ ﻟﻡ ﻧﻌﺩ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﻧﻭﻣﻲ!‬

‫ﻛﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ "ﻋﺎﻟﻣﻪ"‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﺎﻟ ًﻣﺎ ﺗﻌﺟﺑﺕ ﻣﻧﻪ ﺟﺩﺍ‪..‬‬

‫ﺭﺃﻳﺕ ﺳﻭﻗﺎ ﻣﺭﺻﻭﻓﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺣﺻﻰ ﻣﻣﺗﺩﺍ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻠﻳﺋﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻣﺩﺭﺟﺎﺕ‬

‫ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺭﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻳﺩﻳﺭﻫﺎ ﻛﻝ ﺃﻧﻭﺍﻉ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻭﺵ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻳﻣﻛﻧﻙ ﺗﺧﻳﻠﻬﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺳﺣﺭﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺷﻙ ﻣﻠﻲء ﺑﺎﻟﺟﺭﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺳﺧﺭﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﺫﻳﺫﺓ‬

‫ﻭﻗﺩﻣﻭﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺣﻠﻭﻯ ﺍﻟﺫﺭﺓ ﻭﻧﺣﻥ ﻧﻣﺭﺑﻬﺎ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻭﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﻣﺻﺎﺻﻭ ﺍﻟﺩﻣﺎء ﻳﺟﻠﺳﻭﻥ ﺑﻌﻳﺩﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺷﻣﺱ ﺗﺣﺕ ﻅﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﻅﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺭﻳﺿﺔ ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻭﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺑﻳﻌﻭﻥ ﻗﻭﺍﺭﻳﺭﺍ ﻣﺯﺧﺭﻓﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺩﻡ‬
‫ﺗﺗﻭﻫﺞ ﻣﺛﻝ ﺍﻟﺯﺟﺎﺝ ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺧﺭ!‬

‫ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺫﺋﺎﺏ ﺿﺎﺭﻳﺔ ﺗﺳﻳﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺩﻣﻳﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻧﺎ ﻫﻳﺎﻛﻝ‬

‫ﻋﻅﻣﻳﺔ ﻭﻣﻭﻣﻳﺎﻭﺍﺕ ﻭﺃﻛﺛﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺑﻛﺛﻳﺭ‪ ..‬ﻭﺟﻣﻳﻌﻬﻡ‬
‫ﻣﺷﻐﻭﻟﻭﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﺗﺣﺿﻳﺭ ﻟﻌﻳﺩ )ﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺍﻟﻘﺩﻳﺳﻳﻥ( ﺃﻭ )ﺍﻟﻬﺎﻟﻭﻳﻥ( ﻛﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻧﻌﺭﻓﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻠﻬﻡ ﻭﺩﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻛﻥ‪ ..‬ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺷﻖ ﻁﺭﻳﻘﻧﺎ ﺳﻳﺭﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﻭﻕ ﻳﺳﺗﻐﺭﻕ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ‪،‬‬

‫ﺳﺭﻧﺎ ﻧﺄﻛﻝ ﻭﻧﺷﺭﺏ ﻭﻧﻠﻌﺏ ﻭﻧﺿﺣﻙ ﻭﻧﻔﺭﺡ‪ ..‬ﺍﻷﻟﻭﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺯﺍﻫﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺗﻐﻣﺭ ﻛﻝ ﺷﻲء‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻣﻣﺗﻌﺎ ﺣﻳﻥ ﻫﺟﻡ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﺣﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺫﺅﻭﺑﻳﻥ ﻭﺃﺧﺫ ﻳﺗﻅﺎﻫﺭ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻳﻠﺗﻬﻣﻧﻲ ﻗﺑﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺟﺫﺑﻪ ﻣﻭﻣﻳﺎء‬
‫ﺑﻌﻳﺩﺓ ﻋﻧﻲ ﻭﺗﻘﺩﻡ ﻟﻲ ﺣﻠﻭﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻛﻝ ﺫﺭﺍﻉ ﻣﻭﻣﻳﺎء‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ ﻳﺭﺍﻗﺑﻧﻲ ﺑﻠﻁﻑ ﻭﻳﺿﺣﻙ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﺻﻝ ﺑﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺩﻳﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﺳﻌﺔ ﻣﻠﻳﺋﺔ‬

‫ﺑﺎﻷﺷﺟﺎﺭ ﻭﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺑﺭﻳﻖ ﺟﻣﻳﻝ ﻋﻧﺩ ﻣﺩﺧﻠﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﻗﺎﺩﻧﻲ ﻭﺣﺷﻲ‬

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‫ﺇﻟﻲ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺩ ﺍﺣﺗﺿﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﻓﺊ ﻏﻣﺭﻧﻲ ﺑﻪ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺟﻣﻳﻝ‪ ،‬ﻧﻘﻠﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻋﺎ ﻣﺭ ًﺣﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻌﺔ ﻭﻗﺩﻡ ﻭﺩﺍ ً‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﻲ ﻧﻔﺳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺩﺧﻠﺕ ﻣﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻌﺎﻟﻣﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﺛﻡ ﺍﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺭﻳﺭﻱ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻓﺗﺣﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﺧﻲ ﻻ ﻳﺯﺍﻝ ﻧﺎﺋﻣﺎ ً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻓﺔ ﻭﻛﺎﻥ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺟﺩﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻍ ﻳﻌﻭﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺎﻟﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﻁﺑﻳﻌﻳﺔ‪ ..‬ﺍﺧﺗﻔﻲ ﻛﻝ ﺍﻟﺳﺣﺭ!‬

‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺑﻬﻭﺭﺍ‪ ..‬ﻧﻅﺭﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻳﺩﻱ ﻷﺟﺩ ﺁﺛﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺣﻠﻭﻯ‪ ..‬ﻓﻘﻣﺕ‬

‫ﻭﻏﺳﻠﺕ ﻳﺩﻱ ﺛﻡ ﻋﺩﺕ ﺳﻌﻳﺩﺍ ﻟﻠﻔﺭﺍﺵ!‬

‫ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻹﻓﻁﺎﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺑﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻳﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻲ ﺃﺧﺑﺭﺕ ﺃﺳﺭﺗﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺣﻛﺎﻳﺔ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻌﺟﻳﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻝ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻁﺭﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺗﺗﻭﻗﻌﻬﺎ ﻣﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻁﻔﻝ ﻳﺑﻠﻎ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻣﺭ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﺳﻧﻭﺍﺕ؛ ﺃﻣﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﻱ ﺍﺑﺗﺳﻡ ﻓﻘﻁ‬
‫ﺍﺑﺗﺳﺎﻣﺔ ﺧﻔﻳﻔﺔ‪ ..‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﻠﻣﺎ ﻛﻣﺎ ﺃﻗﻧﻌﻭﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺛﻳﺭﺍ!‬

‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﻣﻧﻰ ﻟﻭ ﻳﺣﺩﺙ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺛﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺩ ﻣﺭﻭﺭ ﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﺻﺑﺣﺕ ﺃﻣﻧﻳﺗﻲ ﺣﻘﻳﻘﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻧﺗﺻﻑ ﺃﻛﺗﻭﺑﺭ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺭﻏﻡ ﻣﻥ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻻ‬

‫ﻳﺯﺍﻝ ﻭﻗﺗًﺎ ﻣﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﺑﺳﺑﺏ ﺍﻗﺗﺭﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﻟﻭﻳﻥ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻋﺩ ﺃﺟﺩ‬
‫ﺻﻌﻭﺑﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﺇﺣﺩﻯ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﺎﻟﻲ ﺍﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺭﻳﺭ ﺑﺎﺏ ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﻧﻭﻣﻲ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻓﺗﺣﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻟﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ ﺍﻟﺑﺭﺗﻘﺎﻟﻲ ﻳﻘﻑ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻧﻭﻡ‬
‫ﺑﺎﺑﺗﺳﺎﻣﺔ ﺧﺟﻭﻟﺔ!‬

‫ﻗﻔﺯﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻳﺭ ﻭﺍﺣﺗﺿﻧﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻛﺎﻟﺳﺎﺑﻖ ﻗﺎﻡ ﺑﺭﺳﻡ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺑﺎﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺋﻁ ﺑﻣﺧﻠﺑﻪ ﻭﺃﺧﺫﻧﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﺎﻟﻣﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﺳﺎ ﻟﺭﺅﻳﺗﻲ ﻭﺗﺫﻛﺭﻭﺍ ﺟﻣﻳﻌًﺎ‬

‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺓ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﻣﺗﺣﻣ ً‬
‫ﺍﺳﻣﻲ‪ ..‬ﺃﻋﻁﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺣﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺣﻠﻭﻯ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺻﺎﺻﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺩﻣﺎء ﻫﻣﺳﺕ ﺑﺗﺭﺣﺎﺏ ﻭﺃﺭﺍﺩﻭﺍ ﺇﻋﻁﺎﺋﻲ ﺑﻌﺽ ﺍﻟﺩﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺟﺎﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﺭﻓﺿﺕ ﺷﺎﻛﺭﺍ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﻳﺗﻛﺭﺭ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺟﻣﻳﻝ ﻣﺭﻭﺭﺍ ً‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﺳﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﻣﺯﺩﺣﻡ ﺣﺗﻰ ﻭﺻﻠﻧﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻌﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﻳﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻭﻭﺩﺍﻋﻧﺎ ﺑﻌﺿﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺑﻌﺽ‪..‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺫﺅﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻈﺎﻫﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻬﺎﻣﻲ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﺣﻤﻠﻨﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺓ ﻭﺃﺧﺬ ﻳﻌﺪﻭ ﺑﻲ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﻌﻮﻱ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﺧﺬ ﻳﻠﻘﻴﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﻼﻋﺐ ﺑﻲ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺓ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺭﻓﻘﺎﺋﻪ‪ ..‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻓﺎﺋﻖ ﺍﻹﻣﺘﺎﻉ ﻓﻌﻼ!‬

‫ﺛﻡ ﻋﺩﺕ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺑﻳﺗﻲ ﻷﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺟﺭﺓ ﻧﻭﻣﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺩﻱ ﻧﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﺣﻠﻡ ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻣﻊ ﺍﺧﺗﻼﻑ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺗﻔﺎﺻﻳﻝ‪ ..‬ﺗﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﻁﻳﺭ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺣﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﻫﺭﺏ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺧﻁﺑﻭﻁ ﺍﻟﻐﺭﻳﺏ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺡ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺟﺭﻯ ﻭﺭﺍﺋﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﺗﻛﺭﺭ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺍﻟﺳﻧﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺗﻠﺕ ﺫﻟﻙ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﺭﺓ ﺑﻌﺩ ﻣﺭﺓ ﻭﺳﻧﺔ ﺑﻌﺩ ﺳﻧﺔ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ ﺍﻟﺑﺭﺗﻘﺎﻟﻲ ﻣﻥ ﺗﻘﺎﻟﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﻟﻭﻳﻥ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺳﻧﻭﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺍﻋﺗﺩﺗﻬﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﺣﺗﻰ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﻋﻣﺭﻱ ﻟﻡ ﺗﺗﻐﻳﺭ ﺃﺣﻼﻣﻲ‪..‬‬

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‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﺳﻧﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺑﻠﻐﺕ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻡ ﻳﻛﻥ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻭﺵ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﻭﻕ ﺳﻌﻳﺩًﺍ ﺑﺭﺅﻳﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﺃﻋﻁﻭﻧﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺣﺷﻲ ﺍﻟﺑﺭﺗﻘﺎﻟﻲ ﻧﻅﺭﺍﺕ ﺳﺧﻳﻔﺔ ﻭ ﺗﺑﺩﻭ ﺻﺎﺭﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﻬﻣﺳﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺑﺄﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﻣﻛﺗﻭﻣﺔ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺳﺗﻁﻊ ﻓﻬﻣﻬﺎ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺗﻛﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺣﻠﻭﻯ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻧﺳﺑﺔ ﻟﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻻ ﺗﺣﻳﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﺑﺗﺳﺎﻣﺎﺕ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﺛﻳﺭﺓ ﻟﻠﻘﻠﻖ ﻭﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺣﺷﻲ ﻳﻌﺭﻑ ﺫﻟﻙ‪،‬‬

‫ﻷﻧﻪ ﺑﺩﺃ ﻓﻲ ﺭﻓﻊ ﺳﺭﻋﺗﻪ ﻭﺳﺭﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﺩﻧﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﻳﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻭﻋﺩﺕ ﻟﻠﻣﻧﺯﻝ ﺑﺄﻣﺎﻥ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻣﺗﺿﺎﻳﻘﺎ ﺟﺩﺍ‪..‬‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻝ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﺛﻳﺭﺓ ﻟﻠﺿﻳﻖ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﻛﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺎﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻧﻲ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺭ ﺍﺳﻭﺃ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ!‬

‫ﻭﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺻﺭﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻟﺛﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﺃﺻﺑﺢ ﺍﻟﺳﻭﻕ ﺑﻳﺋﺔ ﻣﻌﺎﺩﻳﺔ!‬

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 ‫ﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺍﻟﻣﺧﻠﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻁﻳﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻋﺭﻓﺗﻬﺎ ﻣﻧﺫ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺭﺏ ﻣﻧﺫ ﻋﻘﺩ‬
‫ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺯﻣﺎﻥ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺗﺻﺭﺥ ﺑﺄﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﻗﺎﺳﻳﺔ ﻋﻧﺩ ﻣﺭﻭﺭﻱ ﺑﻬﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻣﺫﺅﻭﺏ ﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻌﺿﻧﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻳﺎ‪ ..‬ﻛﻝ ﻣﻥ ﻛﺎﻧﻭﺍ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ‬
‫ﺃﺷﺎﺭﻭﺍ ﻧﺣﻭﻱ ﺑﺄﺻﺎﺑﻊ ﻋﻅﻣﻳﺔ ﻏﺎﺿﺑﺔ‪..‬‬

‫ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺷﺧﺹ ﻣﺎ )ﺑﺻﻖ( ﻋﻠﻳﻧﺎ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻏﺎﺿﺏ ﻭﻁﻠﺑﻭﺍ ﻣﻧﺎ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻭﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ!‬

‫ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﺧﺫﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ ﻣﻥ ﻳﺩﻱ ﺑﺧﻭﻑ‪..‬‬

‫ﺭﻓﻌﻧﻲ ﻭﺣﻣﻠﻧﻲ ﻭﺟﺭﻱ ﺑﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺧﺎﺋﻔﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﻭﻗﻑ ﺣﺗﻰ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺑﺄﻣﺎﻥ ﻋﻧﺩ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻷﺣﻼﻡ ﻟﻡ ﺗﺗﻭﻗﻑ‪ ..‬ﻭﻟﺳﺕ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻌﻭﺩ ﺇﻟﻲ ﻷﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻫﻭ ﻧﻔﺳﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺗﻌﺭﺽ ﻟﻠﺧﻁﺭ!‬

‫ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺭﺣﻠﺗﻲ ﺃﺳﻭﺃ ﻛﻝ ﻋﺎﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺻﺭ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ ﺍﻟﺑﺭﺗﻘﺎﻟﻲ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻭﺩﺓ؟‬

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 ‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺩﺳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﻋﻣﺭﻱ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺑﺣﺕ ﺍﻷﺣﻼﻡ‬
‫ﺃﺧﻳﺭﺍ‪..‬‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﻛﻭﺍﺑﻳﺳﺎ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺟﺎء ﻭﺣﺷﻲ ﻟﻲ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻝ ﺩﺍﺋ ًﻣﺎ ﻛﻝ ﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺷﻳﺋًﺎ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺧﺗﻠﻔًﺎ ﻓﻳﻪ‪..‬‬

‫ﻧﻣﺕ ﻓﺭﻭﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺑﺭﺗﻘﺎﻟﻳﺔ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﻏﺯﻳﺭ ﻭﻓﺧﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺭﻗﻳﻘًﺎ ﻭﻣﺑﻬ ًﺟﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻘﺭﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻛﺑﺵ ﺭﻗﺎﺋﻖ‬
‫ﻭﺷﻘﻭﻕ ﻣﺧﺗﻠﻔﺔ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻻ ﻳﺯﺍﻝ ﻳﻣﺳﻙ ﻳﺩﻱ ﺑﻳﺩﻩ ﻭﺃﺧﺫﻧﻲ ﻋﺑﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻣﺩﺧﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺧﻁﺄ ﻓﺎﺩ ًﺣﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺩ ﻁﺎﺭﺩﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺳﻭﻕ‪،‬ﻋﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺣﻭﺵ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻡ ﻋﺿﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﺣﻣﻠﺗﻧﻲ ﺇﺣﺩﻯ ﺍﻟﺳﺎﺣﺭﺍﺕ ﻋﺎﻟﻳﺎ ﻭﺃﻟﻘﺗﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻷﺳﻘﻁ ﻭﺃﻣﻭﺕ ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﺗﻘﻁﻧﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻛﺎﺩ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﻬﻣﺳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺷﺭﻳﺭﺓ ﺗﻣﻸ ﺃﺫﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺷﺭ ﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﻓﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻌﻳﻭﻥ‪..‬‬

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‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﻛﺑﻳﺭﺍ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺣﻣﻠﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ ﻭﻳﺟﺭﻱ ﺑﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﺳﻣﺣﺕ‬
‫ﻟﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺳﺣﺑﻧﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﻳﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﺗﺑﻌﺗﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻣﺧﻠﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﺧﺭﻯ ﻁﻭﺍﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻳﻖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻡ ﺗﺗﺭﻙ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻟﻠﻭﺩﺍﻉ‪..‬‬

‫ﺗﻡ ﺩﻓﻌﻲ ﺩﻓﻌﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅﺕ ﻏﺎﺭﻗًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺭﻕ ﻓﻲ‬

‫ﻏﺭﻓﺔ ﻧﻭﻣﻲ‪!.‬‬

‫ﺳﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻋﺎﻣﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ..‬ﻭﺟﺎء ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ ﻟﻳﺻﻁﺣﺑﻧﻲ ﻣﺭﺓ‬

‫ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺭﻋﺏ ﻳﻌﺑﺙ ﺑﻘﻠﺑﻲ‪ ..‬ﺭﻋﺏ ﻫﺎﺋﻝ ﺑﻳﻧﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺎ ﻧﺗﺟﻭﻝ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺳﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺻﻭﻓﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺣﺻﻰ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺧﻠﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﻻ ﺗﺯﺍﻝ ﻋﻧﺩ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺻﻭﺭﺍﺗﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺛﻘﻭﺏ ﺳﻭﺩﺍء ﻭﻓﺟﻭﺍﺕ ﻣﻅﻠﻣﺔ ﺑﺩﻻ ﻣﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻳﻭﻧﻬﻡ ﻭﺃﻓﻭﺍﻫﻬﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﺣﻭﻟﻭﺍ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺭﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ‪ ..‬ﻭﺭﻏﻡ ﺃﻧﻬﻡ ﻛﺎﻧﻭﺍ ﺑﻼ ﺣﺭﺍﻙ‬

‫ﻛﺛﻳﺭﺍ ﻻﻟﺗﻘﺎﻁ ﺃﻧﻔﺎﺳﻪ‬
‫ً‬ ‫ﺗﻘﺭﻳﺑﺎ ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﺿﻁﺭ ﻭﺣﺷﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺗﻭﻗﻑ‬
‫ﻗﺑﻝ ﻭﺻﻭﻟﻧﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﻳﻘﺔ‪..‬‬

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‫ﻗﺑﻝ ﺩﺧﻭﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﺍﺑﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺍﺣﺗﺿﻧﺗﻪ ﺑﻳﻥ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﻭﺿﻐﻁﺕ ﻋﻠﻳﻪ‬
‫ﻛﻣﺎ ﻟﻭ ﻛﻧﺕ ﻁﻔﻼ ﺭﻏﻡ ﺣﺟﻣﻪ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺋﻝ‪ ..‬ﻳﻭﻣﻬﺎ ﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺑﻌﻳﻥ‬
‫ﺣﺯﻳﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﺍﺑﺗﺳﻡ ﺍﺑﺗﺳﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﺭﻳﺿﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺗﻠﻙ ﺍﻷﺳﻧﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻛﺑﻳﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺩﻓﻌﻧﻲ ﺑﺭﻓﻖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻡ ﻛﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻝ ﺩﺍﺋ ًﻣﺎ‪ ..‬ﻁﻠﺑﺕ ﻣﻧﻪ ﺃﻻ ﻳﺄﺗﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ!‬

‫ﻭﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺍﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﺩﺕ ﻋﻳﻧﻲ ﻣﺑﺗﻠﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺩﻣﻭﻉ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺗﺎﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗﺳﺎءﻟﺕ ﻋﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺳﺄﺣﻘﻖ ﺍﻟﺣﻠﻡ ﻣﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺃﺧﺭﻯ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﺍﻟﺣﻠﻡ ﺗﺄﺧﺭ‪..‬‬

‫ﺕ!‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﻳﺄ ِ‬

‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﻟﻳﻠﺔ ﻋﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﻟﻭﻳﻥ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺩ ﺍﻟﺣﻔﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺃﻗﻳﻣﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺕ‬

‫ﺻﺎ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺗﺄﺧﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻳﻝ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﺻﺩﻗﺎء‪ ،‬ﻧﻣﺕ ﻭﺣﻠﻣﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺷﺧ ً‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺧﺗﺑﺊ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺩﺭﺍﻧﻲ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﺧﺭﺟﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﺭﻳﺭ ﻭﺍﻧﺗﻘﻠﺕ ﺑﺣﺫﺭ ﻋﺑﺭ ﺍﻷﺭﺿﻳﺔ ﻷﺭﻯ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻣﺩﺧﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﻠﻲء ﺑﺎﻟﺿﻭء ﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻭﺣﺷﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻔﺗﻭ ًﺣﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﻣﺻﺭﺍﻋﻳﻪ!‬

‫ﻋﺎﻟﻡ ﻣﺧﻳﻑ‪..‬‬

‫ﺩﺧﻠﺕ ﻣﻥ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ ﺑﻧﻔﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﻣﺧﺎﻁﺭﺓ ﻏﻳﺭ ﻣﺣﺳﻭﺑﺔ!‬

‫ﻭﺗﺳﺎءﻟﺕ ﻋﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ‪..‬‬

‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻧﺗﻅﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺟﺎﻧﺏ ﺍﻵﺧﺭ‪.‬؟‬

‫ﻟﻛﻥ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻭﺟﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺷﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺻﻭﻑ ﺑﺎﻟﺣﺻﻰ ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻳﻝ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﺎﺭ ً‬
‫ﻏﺎ‪ ،‬ﺧﺎﻟﻳًﺎ ﻣﻥ ﺟﻣﻳﻊ ﺍﻟﻬﻳﺎﻛﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺣﻳﺎﺓ‪..‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺷﻲء ﺍﻟﻭﺣﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺭﺍﻓﻘﻧﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺳﺣﺎﺕ ﻁﻭﻳﻠﺔ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺩﻣﺎء‬

‫ﺍﻟﺑﻧﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺩﺍﻛﻧﺔ ﻭﺗﻣﺯﻕ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻓﺗﺭﺽ ﺃﻧﻪ‪ ..‬ﺟﺳﺩ ﻣﺄﻟﻭﻑ ﻧﻭﻋﺎ!‬

‫ﺍﻟﺟﻭ ﻧﻔﺳﻪ ﻳﺟﺭﺣﻧﻲ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻬﻭﺍء ﻣﺣﻣﻝ ﺑﺷﻅﺎﻳﺎ ﺍﻟﺯﺟﺎﺝ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺭﺍﺋﺣﺔ ﻛﺭﻳﻬﺔ ﻣﺗﻌﻔﻧﺔ ﺟﻌﻠﺗﻧﻲ ﺃﻏﻁﻲ ﺃﻧﻔﻲ ﺑﻳﺎﻗﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺑﻳﺟﺎﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻲ ﻭﺃﺟﺑﺭﺗﻧﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﻳﺎﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﺳﻳﺭ ﺑﺄﺭﺟﻝ‬
‫ﻣﺭﺗﺟﻔﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺍﻟﺟﺭﻭﺡ ﺗﻣﻸ ﺟﺳﺩﻱ ﻭﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﻳﺗﺯﺍﻳﺩ‪..‬‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻓﻬﻡ ﺷﻳﺋﺎ!‬

‫ﻣﺷﻳﺕ ﻟﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺭﻳﺗﻳﻥ ﺗﻧﺯﻓﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﺩﻣﺎء‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻠﻁﻳﺦ‬

‫ﺃﺻﺎﺑﻊ ﻗﺩﻣﻲ ﻭﺗﺟﻌﻠﻧﻲ ﺃﺭﺗﻌﺵ‪ ..‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺩﻓﻌﻧﻲ ﻟﻠﺩﺧﻭﻝ!‬

‫ﺻﺭﺧﺕ ﻋﺩﺓ ﻣﺭﺍﺕ ﻁﻠﺑﺎ ﻟﻭﺣﺷﻲ ﺍﻟﺟﻣﻳﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻗﻭﺑﻠﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ‬

‫ﺑﺄﺻﻭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺭﻳﺢ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺗﻬﻣﺱ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺷﻭﺍﺭﻉ‪ .‬ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺍﻧﺗﻬﻰ ﺍﻟﺳﻭﻕ‬
‫ﻭﻅﻬﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﻳﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻭﻗﻔﺕ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﻳﺭ ﻭﺃﻓﺭﻏﺕ ﻣﺎﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺩﺗﻲ‪..‬‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﻓﺮﻁ ﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺟﺛﺙ ﻓﻲ ﻁﺭﻳﻘﻲ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺳﺣﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻣﺻﺎﺻﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺩﻣﺎء‪ ،‬ﺫﺋﺎﺏ ﺿﺎﺭﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻭﺣﻭﺵ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﻡ ﺗﺷﻭﻳﻬﻬﻡ ﻭﺗﺷﻭﻳﻬﻬﻡ‪ ..‬ﺗﺷﻭﻳﻪ ﺑﺷﻛﻝ ﺭﻫﻳﺏ ﺛﻡ ﺗﻡ ﺗﻛﻭﻳﻣﻬﻡ‬

‫ﻓﻲ ﺃﻛﻭﺍﻡ ﺑﻼ ﻣﺑﺎﻻﺓ‪..‬‬
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 ‫ﻟﻡ ﻳﻌﻭﺩﻭﺍ ﺑﻼ ﻋﻳﻭﻥ ﺃﻭ ﻗﺎﺳﻳﺔ ﻣﻅﺎﻫﺭﻫﻡ‪..‬‬

‫ﺗﺫﻛﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﺧﻠﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﺩﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺗﺧﻳﻠﻬﺎ ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﻛﻧﺕ‬

‫ﺻﻐﻳﺭﺍ ً ﺟﺩﺍ ً‪ .‬ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﻧﺯﻟﻖ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺯﻳﺩ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺩﻣﺎء‪ ..‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻔﺎﺩﻯ ﺍﻟﺟﺛﺙ ﻭﻗﻁﻊ ﺻﻐﻳﺭﺓ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﺣﻠﻭﻯ ﺗﺣﺕ ﺍﻷﻗﺩﺍﻡ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻡ ﻣﺑﺎﺷﺭﺓ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺣﺩﻳﻘﺔ ﻭﺣﻳﺙ ﻟﻭﻗﻭﻑ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻬﺎ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺷﻬﺩًﺍ ﻣﺄﻟﻭﻓًﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺷﻛﻝ ﺍﻟﻣﻌﺭﻭﻑ ﻟﻠﻭﺣﺵ ﺻﺩﻳﻘﻲ‬
‫ﻳﻧﺗﻅﺭﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻥ ﻅﻬﺭﻩ ﻗﺩ ﺗﻐﻳﺭ‪ ..‬ﻻﺣﻅﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻓﺭﺍءﻩ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻏﻳﺭ‬
‫ﻣﻛﺗﻣﻝ ﻭﻫﻧﺎﻙ ﺑﻘﻊ ﻛﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻋﺎﺭﻳﺔ ﺗﻣﺗﻠﻲء ﺑﺎﻟﺟﺭﻭﺡ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﺷﻑ ﻋﻥ ﺟﺳﻡ ﺭﻣﺎﺩﻱ ﻋﺿﻠﻲ ﻣﻧﺗﻔﺦ ﻭﻣﻣﺗﻠﻲء ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺭﻭﻕ‪ .‬ﻛﻠﻣﺎ‬

‫ﺍﻗﺗﺭﺑﺕ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻷﻓﺿﻝ ﺳﻣﺎﻉ ﺃﻧﻔﺎﺳﻪ ﺍﻟﻌﻣﻳﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻡ ﻳﻧﻅﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﻭﻟﻛﻧﻪ ﺑﺩﺍ ﻣﻧﺗﺑﻬﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻣﺭﻛﺯﺍ ﻟﺷﻲء ﻣﺎ‪ ..‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻨﺘﺒﻪ ﻟﻮﺟﻮﺩﻱ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺎﺳﺎ!‬

‫ﻗﺩﻣﻲ ﺩﺍﺳﺕ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﺣﺩ ﺍﻷﻁﺭﺍﻑ ﻭﺗﻌﺛﺭﺕ ﻓﺻﺭﺧﺕ ﻣﻥ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻣﻔﺎﺟﺄﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺳﻳﺔ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺻﻭﺕ ﺍﻟﻣﻧﺑﻌﺙ ﻣﻥ ﻓﻣﻲ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻣﺎ ﺗﺧﻳﻠﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺑﺩﻭ ﺃﺻﻐﺭ ﻣﻥ ﺻﻭﺕ ﻁﻔﻝ ﻳﺑﻠﻎ ﻣﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻣﺭ ﺛﻣﺎﻧﻳﺔ ﻋﺷﺭ ﻋﺎ ًﻣﺎ!‬

‫ﺻﺭﺧﺔ ﻣﻔﺎﺟﺋﺔ ﺃﺩﺕ ﻟﺗﺟﻣﻳﺩ ﺍﻟﻭﺣﺵ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺑﻁء‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺗﻔﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ‬

‫ﻭﺟﻬﻲ‪..‬‬

‫ﺑﻳﻥ ﻣﺧﺎﻟﺑﻪ ﺭﺃﻳﺕ ﺑﻘﺎﻳﺎ ﻟﺣﻡ ﻭﺩﻣﺎء ﺑﻧﻳﺔ‪..‬‬

‫ﻋﻧﺩﻣﺎ ﺭﺁﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﺑﺗﺳﻡ ﺍﺑﺗﺳﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﺭﻳﺿﺔ ﺑﻣﺟﻣﻭﻋﺔ ﺟﺩﻳﺩﺓ ﻣﻥ‬

‫ﺍﻷﺳﻧﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﺩﺓ‪،.‬ﻭﻭﺟﺩﺕ ﻧﻔﺳﻲ ﺃﺗﺄﻣﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻁﻊ ﺍﻟﻠﺣﻡ ﺍﻟﻣﺗﺩﻟﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺑﻳﻥ ﺍﻷﻧﻳﺎﺏ‪.‬‬

‫‪" -‬ﻟﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟"‬

‫ﺗﻭﺳﻠﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺧﻭﻑ ﻣﻥ ﻧﺑﺭﺍﺕ ﺳﺅﺍﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺗﺟﻑ‪..‬‬

‫ﻛﻧﺕ ﺃﺑﻛﻲ‪..‬‬

‫‪" -‬ﻷﻥ"‪..‬‬

‫ﻫﻛﺫﺍ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻛﻝ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺗﻪ!‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﻣﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺗﻲ ﺃﺳﻣﻊ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﺻﻭﺗﻪ‪..‬‬

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 ‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺗﻛﻠﻡ ﺑﺻﻭﺕ ﻣﻧﺧﻔﺽ‪ ،‬ﺧﺎﻁﺊ ﻭﻏﻳﺭ ﺇﻧﺳﺎﻧﻲ ﻛﺷﻲء ﻗﺩﻳﻡ‬
‫ﻭﻟﻳﺱ ﻋﻥ ﻋﺎﻟﻣﻧﺎ‪ ..‬ﺛﻡ ﺃﻛﻣﻝ‪:‬‬

‫‪" -‬ﻷﻧﻙ ﻗﺩ ﻛﺑﺭﺕ"‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﺭﺓ ﺃﺧﺭﻯ ﻣﺩ ﻳﺩﻩ ﻧﺣﻭﻱ ﺑﻣﺧﻠﺏ ﻣﻔﺗﻭﺡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻛﻧﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺁﺧﺫﻫﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﺩﻓﻌﺗﻪ ﺑﻌﻳﺩًﺍ ﻭﺫﻫﺑﺕ ﺳﺭﻳﻌًﺎ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺟﺛﺙ ﻭﺟﺭﻳﺕ ﻧﺣﻭ ﺍﻟﺑﻭﺍﺑﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺄﺳﺭﻉ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻣﻛﻥ‪..‬‬

‫ﺍﺳﺗﻳﻘﻅﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺭﻓﺗﻲ ﻣﻊ ﻭﻗﻭﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﺩﺗﻲ ﺟﻭﺍﺭﻱ ﻫﻲ ﻭﺃﺧﻲ‪،‬‬

‫ﻣﻁﺎﻟﺑﻳﻥ ﺑﻣﻌﺭﻓﺔ ﺳﺑﺏ ﺻﺭﺍﺧﻲ ﺃﺛﻧﺎء ﻧﻭﻣﻲ ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻧﺕ ﺑﺣﺎﺟﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺫﻫﺎﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻣﺳﺗﺷﻔﻰ!‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺛﺎﻟﺛﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺷﺭﻳﻥ ﻣﻥ ﻋﻣﺭﻱ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺃﺭ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺣﻼﻡ‬

‫ﻣﻧﺫ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﺣﻳﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻋﺗﻘﺩ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻝ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻣﻁﻠﻘًﺎ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﻓﻛﺭ ﻓﻳﻬﺎ ﻣﻥ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻵﺧﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺗﺣﺩﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ‬

‫ﻷﺻﺩﻗﺎﺋﻲ‪..‬ﺇﻧﻬﻡ ﻳﻬﺯﻭﻥ ﺭﺅﻭﺳﻬﻡ ﺩﺍﺋ ًﻣﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﻭﻳﺿﺣﻛﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻭﻳﺫﻛﺭﻭﻧﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ‪ ):‬ﻻ ﺃﺣﺩ ﻳﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﺃﺷﻳﺎء ﻣﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺑﻳﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻋﻣﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺻﻐﻳﺭﺓ(!‬
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 ‫ﻳﺧﺑﺭﻭﻧﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﻫﻠﻭﺱ‪..‬‬

‫ﺭﺑﻣﺎ ﺃﻓﺭﻁﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺷﺭﺏ ﺃﻭ ﺗﺩﺧﻳﻥ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻣﺟﻧﻭﻥ‬

‫ﻗﻠﻳﻼ!‬

‫ﻟﻛﻧﻧﻲ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻟﻳﺱ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺣﺎﻝ‪..‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺎ ﺍﺗﺫﻛﺭ ﻣﺎﺣﺩﺙ ﺑﻭﺿﻭﺡ‪..‬‬

‫ﻣﺎﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﺗﺫﻛﺭ!‬

‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬ ‫**‬

‫‪GH ,% ] 6 )<J- R- Y G $ e‬‬ ‫‪# r ' = 2 ,- M5‬‬

‫!‬ ‫" ‪p " GlA y‬‬

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