This is what self-destruction feels like

This isn't easy.

I don't know how and what to feel.

Keeping busy.

It does the job but it doesn't heal.

My mind is a fire. And I'm burning love away.

It's getting harder to feel.

And they all say.

You need to take care of yourself, my darling.

But they don't know how it feels to be broken.

I can't help it and I feel numb. I wait for the waves to even come.

Think I'm breaking. I'm a mess in the making.

I'm getting tired.

Of the same old feeling in my chest.

I'm not a liar. But I've got secrets I can't confess.

Don't say you love me. Cause I don't understand those words.

It's getting harder to feel.

And they all say.

You need to take care of your health, my darling.

But they don't know how it feels to be broken.

I can't help it and I feel numb. I wait for the waves to eve n come.

Think I'm breaking.

I'm a mess in the making.

I'm getting tired. Of the same old feeling in my chest.

I'm not a liar. But I've got secrets I can't confess.

Don't say you love me.

Cause I don't understand those words.

This isn't easy. I don't know how and what to feel.

Keeping busy. It does the job but it doesn't heal.