Love You Anyways

Posted originally on the Archive of Our Own at http://archiveofourown.org/works/52356394.

Rating: Explicit
Archive Warning: Major Character Death
Category: F/F
Fandom: Station 19 (TV)
Relationships: Maya Bishop/Carina DeLuca, Maya Bishop & Original Female
Character(s)
Characters: Andy Herrera, Victoria Hughes, Charlotte Dearborn, Carina DeLuca,
Andrew DeLuca, Maya Bishop, Jack Gibson, Jo Wilson, Miranda Bailey
(Grey's Anatomy), Travis Montgomery, Ben Warren, Ryan Tanner
Additional Tags: Fluff and Smut, Drama, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Masturbation, Shower
Sex, Jealousy, Character Death, Anal Sex, Rough Sex, Oral Sex
Language: English
Stats: Published: 2023-12-18 Updated: 2024-04-23 Words: 114,512 Chapters:
27/?
 Love You Anyways
by Savre_bubbles97

Summary

Maya recently went through a terrible breakup with her ex-Charlotte Dearborn. They were
together for 4 years, ended on very bad terms. The girls at Station 19 decide to take Maya out
for some drinks. Unexpectedly she runs into a very beautiful Italian woman. Promising
herself that she would not get into another relationship... But what happens when this woman
steals Maya’s heart from the start? Come on the journey with Maya as she starts to fall in
love with Carina faster than she expected and Carina, accepts all of Maya. What will happen
when Dearborn tries to return to Maya? We all love a good drama. This will test the love,
Maya has for Carina, but also the love she once had for Charlotte.

Notes

#DoNotCancelStation19
#SaveStation19

See the end of the work for more notes

 Something In The Orange

“I’m sorry Maya, I.. I just cannot do this anymore. You are avoiding me!” Charlotte shrugged
and continued to pack her bag.

“Avoiding you? When? You ask me to come home and I do. I let you move in with me
because you had nowhere to go!” Maya rolled her eyes and scuffed.

“Yeah, and you remind me of every fight we have! I can do things on my own without you.”
The brunette rolled her eyes and zipped up her bag. “I shouldn’t have to ask you to come
home Maya. I more than anyone understand long hours at a firehouse, but you- you avoid
coming home.” The girl sighed and sat on the bed. “Face it, Maya. We just aren’t working.
We can act fine, fuck and then continue but it sits in the pit of my stomach that maybe you
just don’t love me.” Dearborn shrugged. Maya bit the inside of her cheek and sighed.

“I do love you, I’m just.. I’m built to just go.” The blonde sat beside the girl and leaned in.
“Please, don’t go. I can work on it.” Maya begged, she hated begging but god. She fell in
love with this girl.

“You honestly had your chance, Maya.” Dearborn leaned in and kissed the blonde one more
time. “You had the chance to save us.” She whispered. Maya sighed into the kiss and leaned
in again, kissing her.

“I..” Maya struggled to find the words.

“Goodbye Mai.” The brunette got up and grabbed her bag, walking out of the door.
Maya lay on the bed and sighed. She could have tried harder. She could have been better. But
her body felt like it was a built robot. Run, eat, move, work, sex, sleep. That was what her
mind knew how to do. She made it a point to not be in a relationship for this purpose. The
leaving fucking sucked.

“Damn, Maya pick up your phone.” Andy groaned in the voicemail. Then Vic decided to take
it into her own hands. “Maya.” Vic pounded on the apartment door. The blonde heard them,
but she decided to ignore them. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying. Andy knew Maya
and Charlotte had broken up. She was trying to get Maya to go out. Suddenly the door
clicked unlock, Maya quickly got out of bed in only her t-shirt and underwear, thinking it was
her ex-lover. Instead... It was her two best friends.

“Ugh.” Maya rolled her eyes. “I am not going out,” Maya muttered, walking back to her
bedroom.

“Mai.. come on.” Andy followed the blonde into the room, turning on her closet light.
“Listen, we won’t push. Let’s just drink.” The Latina shrugged and looked through her
friends' clothing. Vic.. the more emotional supporter sat down on Maya’s bed.
“Listen... We can go out, have some fun, get a few drinks in, dance.” Vic shimmied her
shoulders and chuckled.

“Andy you won’t find anything in there!” Maya shouted, staring at Vic who was trying to not
laugh.

“Come on. Up.” Vic pulled Maya up and into the bathroom, she grabbed a curling wand and
handed the blonde her makeup bag. Deciding not to fight her friends anymore, Maya agreed
to a few drinks, nothing more. Andy picked out a black short-sleeved shirt and a pair of light
blue skinny jeans with black heeled boots and a jacket. “Oh and put on a good bra,” Andy
smirked and continued to get ready in front of the mirror Maya had in her room. Vic was
curling the blonde locks while Maya applied a small amount of make-up. Not that she needed
it, she didn’t like to get crazy dressed up to go out.

“Out, I’m changing,” Maya demanded and shut her door, locking it. “Okay,” Maya whispered
to herself and took off her t-shirt as well as her underwear, she put on a pair of white laced
panties and a bra that matched it. Then she slid on the outfit Andy picked for her, grabbed a
pair of socks, and slid those on, then her boots. “You can do this Maya.” She whispered to
herself again. Standing up, Maya looked at herself in the mirror. Damn, this shirt was tight
and it made her breast look bigger and hugged her curves just right. It was a chilly night in
Seattle, so Maya decided to slide on her jacket and made her way out of her room.

Once at the bar, Vic ordered them a round of lemon drop shots, two rounds to be exact. Maya
sighed and sat at the bar, this was the common one that everyone went to. Of course, the girls
chose this one. The shots were served, they cheered and clinked their shot glasses together
and took the shot. Maya held her breath and gulped it down, then cheered again, clinked, and
downed another one. “Okay. That is a good start.” Andy laughed and ordered a beer, Maya
ordered herself a glass of whiskey, and Vic ordered a mixed drink. “So, Andy. You and Ryan?
How is that going?” Maya asked.

“Oh, it’s good. I mean you know, pretty much just sex, sleep, work, and more sex.” Andy
shrugged, taking a drink of her beer. Maya and Vic laughed and drank out of their glasses.

A few more drinks in and Maya was feeling pretty good, Andy and Vic tend to get a little
more wilder the more they drink. They were playing darts and flirting with the boys. Maya
sat back and watched, shaking her head.
“Hi, a glass of white wine.” A brunette said as she stood beside the stool Maya was sitting in.
As she waited for her drink she looked over and noticed that her baby brother was flirting
with the girls, shaking her head she chuckled.

“He is truly such a baby boy,” Carina smirked and then looked over at the blonde who was
eyeing her whiskey.

“My friends seem to be enjoying him,” Maya said softly and looked up right as Carina
looked at her. She felt like her breath was stuck somewhere in her throat, she gulped down
more of her drink and put a finger up towards the bartender.

“Hmmm, they are.” Carina smiled.

“Maya Bishop.” Maya introduced herself and extended her hand.

“Dr. Carina Deluca.” The Italian shook her hand and smirked. There was some kind of
connection, she felt it. “Another white wine please.” The brunette turned her head to check
Maya out and smirked. “So Maya, what is it that you do?”

“I am a firefighter.” Maya shrugged. “Station 19.” She took a sip of her whiskey again and
looked at Carina. “And you? You’re a doctor? What is your specialty?” The blonde asked,
allowing the alcohol to take over.

“OB/GYN, bring babies into the world, help with women's health.” Carina smiled and stirred
her wine in the glass then took a sip.

“Well, I just think you got ten times hotter than you already were.” Maya chuckled and
finished off her whiskey. “Excuse me.” Maya got up and headed to the bathroom. Quickly
she looked back at Carina and smirked slightly. The Italian raised her eyebrow and then
turned to look at her brother.

“Nng.” Carina got up slowly, taking the last drink of her wine before heading to the
bathroom. She opened the door to find the blonde leaning against the counter, facing the door.

“I had a feeling you’d follow me,” Maya smirked at the blonde and watched as Carina came
closer to her.

“How could I not?” Carina smiled and leaned in slowly, inches away from Maya’s lips.
Suddenly Maya felt sick to her stomach, she wasn’t sure if it was the alcohol or if it was the
fact that she just went through a breakup, but before she could try to kindly decline Carina,
her lips touch Maya’s and fuck did it feel good. “Mmmh.” Maya moaned and kissed the
Italian back, deepening the kiss. Maya felt like her body was on fire, her heart was racing and
her leg felt like putty. Carina followed Maya’s lead, pushing her body against the counter.
The brunette ran her tongue along Maya’s bottom lip, before Maya could open her mouth the
door opened and the pair pulled away quickly. Dearborn... Maya felt her sickness get worse
and suddenly she was running into one of the stalls to throw up.

“Uh.. sorry,” Dearborn muttered and looked around. She sighed, watching Maya with
someone else near her made her sad. But how could Maya move on so fast? Before she could
say anything, Carina ran her hand on the back of her mouth and then went to check on Maya.

“Hey.. are you okay?” Carina asked, shutting the stall door and locking it, she decided to take
the blond locks and hold them back. For some reason, she cared for this stranger, or maybe it
was the doctor in her.

“Maya.” Dearborn suddenly knocked on the stall.

“Please go away,” Maya said, closing her eyes.

“Andy said she saw you walk in here, I-I came here to talk to you.” The brunette mumbled,
still standing outside the stall. “I don’t know who that girl is with you, but you move on
pretty fast for being in love with me.” Holding back tears, Dearborn slid the apartment key
under the stall and they heard the bathroom door open and close. Maya looked at the key and
her eyes watered, now she remembered why she hadn’t done this. She grabbed the key on the
floor, flushed the toilet, and stood in front of Carina, tears were already streaming down her
face.

“I’m sorry, Carina,” Maya said, opening the stall door, walking to the sink, and turning the
water on.
Carina was confused as to what had just happened. Who was that?
“Maya. I’m not sure what happened or what you are sorry about.” Carina leaned against the
sink, her back to the mirror, Maya rinsed out her mouth and tried to get some of the vomit
taste out. “Listen, maybe I came off too strong.” The brunette shrugged, Maya turned off the
water and grabbed a paper towel, dabbing her face.

“You didn’t come off too strong. You are perfect. I am a mess.” Maya shrugged and walked
in front of Carina. “That was my ex. As of today.” Maya took a shaky breath in and looked
down. “She broke up with me because I am not good at making time for people. I put my job
before anything and she didn’t want to continue to do it.” Maya shrugged and looked back at
Carina. “I’m sorry that our moment got ruined.” Maya felt Carina grab her hand and bring the
blonde closer to her. “Listen, Carina. I’m not ready to just jump into something else. But God
you are an amazing kisser and your lips are addicting but I can’t.” Maya whispered, her hand
grabbing the brunette's waste. Carina nodded in understanding.

“I get it. I am just getting over a breakup that happened a week ago, she left me for her ex,
and moved to New York.” Carina chuckled and leaned in kissing Maya’s cheek. “Do you
have your phone?” The Italian asked. Maya nodded pulled her phone out of her back pocket
and unlocked it. Carina smiled and Maya handed the brunette her phone, putting her number
in there. “Call me sometime,” Carina smirked. “We don’t have to get into anything, but I’d
like to take you out to dinner Maya Bishop, whenever you are ready.” Carina handed Maya
her phone back and bit her lip.

“I’ll call you,” Maya said softly, eying Carina as she moved away from Maya and walked out
of the bathroom door. Maya held the apartment key in her hand and sighed. Then walked out
of the bathroom. Andy and Vic were near her drink, Carina was walking out with her brother.
Dearborn was sitting with some of her friends. Maya sighed and walked over to her friends.

“Damn girl.” Andy smiled and grabbed her car keys.

“Shush.” Maya rolled her eyes, when she turned to leave she was met with her ex-lover's eyes
and she quickly fixed her gaze on the door when she saw Carina come back in.
She turned to look at the stool they were sitting at and found Carina’s jacket that had been
left, the blonde decided to grab it and walk towards the door, she bit her lip as her blue eyes
were met with beautiful brown.
“Needed one more minute to see me?” Maya asked, handing the brunette her jacket.

“Actually, yes,” Carina smirked and grabbed Maya’s hand under the jacket, it sent chills
through both of their bodies.

“Hmm.” Maya hummed and squeezed the Italian's hand and then pulled away. Vic and Andy
were behind her. “Goodnight Dr. Deluca,” Maya smirked and bit her lip.
“Goodnight, Maya.” Carina blushed and turned to walk out the door, the girls following
behind her. Carina got into her brother's car and watched as Maya got into Andy’s car.

“So..” Vic smirked and looked at Maya from the back seat.

“Listen. I am not rushing into anything but today was a lot.” Maya chuckled and grabbed the
key out of her packet. “Dearborn came in while Carina and I were making out to give me my
apartment key.” Maya rolled her eyes and eyeballed Andy.

“Oops.” Andy shrugged and drove to Maya’s apartment

They all crashed at Maya’s remembering they had to work the next morning.
 Merry Go Round
Chapter Notes

#SaveStation19
#DoNotCancelStation19

See the end of the chapter for more notes

It has been two weeks since Maya and Charlotte broke up. Maya invested her time into work
and spending time by herself. Now and then she thought about Carina, but she knew that she
deserved better than what Maya could offer.

“Maya!” Andy shouted, after a huge explosion in the building, Maya was thrown back
against the wall. “Come on Maya wake up.” The Latina turned up Maya’s air. When the
blonde finally coughed, Andy sighed. “Get up!” Andy heard the fire coming, quickly she
picked up her friend and dragged her down the hall towards the stairs. Maya was so out of it
but survival mode kicked in and she quickly ran down the stairs right beside Andy, both of
them running into Dean and Vic. “Go! Go” Andy yelled, the building was shaking, it was
about to collapse.

“Miller!” Vic yelled, he was running down the other hall on the next floor. “Go, Vic. I need to
get Gibson.” Dean ran quicker down the hall and the three girls raced towards the exit of the
building, before they could even run down the steps of the entrance the building was
collapsing, and behind them were Miller and Gibson, then the next explosion, throwing all
five firefighters forward and towards the ground. Glass everywhere, smoke coming out of the
building. People were yelling, the lights were flashing.
“Andy!” Ryan yelled, running over to the firefighters, Andy slowly opened her eyes.
“Ry..” She mumbled.
“Help! Get gournies over here.” Travis yelled and turned Maya over. “Starting
compressions.” Travis began CPR on Maya. Andy lied there confused. Suddenly before she
could comprehend what was happening she was being lifted, she looked around, foggy. She
found Vic, Jack, Dean, and Maya on gournies going to different ambulances, Ryan was
managing the police officers at the scene. “Go! Go!” Travis yelled to the driver.

Ben had switched CPR on Maya, he was now trying to get her pulse back. The other EMT
was helping with CPR. “Come on Bishop!” Warren yelled, suddenly there was a pulse. Weak
on. But there was one. “Let’s go!” Warren shut the doors and the sirens were going off. All
Ambulances arrived at the same time. Doctors were lined up outside, Ben spotted Bailey as
soon as the bay opened. “Female 32, Maya Bishop, unconscious after the explosion. CPR
was performed for 3 minutes and 38 seconds. Pulse is 45.” Warren walked with them inside.
Andrew Deluca went to the next bay. “Victoria Hughes. 30 years old, unconscious at the
scene. Pulse 56.” And off they went to the next trauma room. The next Bay “Andrea Herrera,
32 years old, unconscious at the scene, started compressions, going on for 5 minutes and 40
seconds.” Travis hopped onto the gurney, trying to save Andy’s life. “Possible smoke
inhalation.” To the next trauma room, they went. “Male, 35, Dean Miller, breathing, possible
smoke inhalation.” EMT took Miller into the emergency room. “Jack Gibson, 34-year-old
male, unconscious at the scene, vitals stable.” Sullivan rushed him to a spot in the ER. Pages
were going off everywhere. The scene was so hectic, phones ringing uncontrollably.
“Carina! Get in here.” Bailey yelled. “All hands on deck.” Bailey grabbed the paddles. Carina
walked into the room and gasped. “Charging to two hundred.” Bailey placed the pads on
Maya’s chest, Warren was pushing the bag. “Clear!” Everyone’s hands moved and the shock
to Maya’s heart was delivered. “Charge to three hundred. Clear!” Bailey waited, shock was
delivered. “We have a rhythm. Page Pierce.” Bailey placed the paddles back on the court,
hooked up her IV, Carina came over and started listening to her heart, it was weak but there
was a pulse. “Warren we have it handled.” Bailey nodded. Ben stepped back, looking at his
wife and then his co-worker. “Pierce!” Bailey yelled and Warren walked out of the room.
“Hey, Warren sit. You need checked out.” Jo said, walking him to a bed.

After what felt like hours, all firefighters were stable and in rooms. Andy and Maya were
sharing a room with curtains separating them, Vic was next door to both of them, and Dean
and Gibson were in a room together as well. Maya was now awake, her eyes fluttered open,
and saw a familiar brunette standing at the bedside talking to Ben. She slowly reached for her
hand, startled, Carina looked behind her. She smiled slightly.

“Hey,” Carina mumbled. Ben nodded and walked out of the room.

“W-what happened? Where is Charlotte?” Maya asked, trying to sit up but her body hurt.

“Maya, do not try and move.” Carina squeezed her hand. “Uhm, there was an explosion at the
downtown art center. I am assuming you were in there. I haven’t looked at your chart. You
did come into the emergency room, not responding.” Carina sighed and looked at Maya.

“Oh.. gosh.” Maya put her hand on her forehead and groaned. “Could I get some water?”
Maya asked, finally looking up at Carina’s eyes. The Italian smiled and nodded. Carina
poured some water into the cup and placed a straw in it. Pulling up a chair she sat beside
Maya and held the straw to her lips, Maya closed her lips around it and took a drink. “Still
want me to call you?” Maya chuckled to lighten the mood. Carina smiled a little and nodded.

“I’ve been waiting Maya Bishop and I am not a woman that waits,” Carina smirked and
placed the cup on the nightstand. “I still want you to call me. To answer your question. But I
don’t know if you should be looking around for your ex in a hospital room.” Carina teased
and looked to the ground. “But usually when you wake up confused you tend to want the last
person you thought about.” Carina had a sad smile. She wasn’t sure why, Maya was still a
stranger to her. “I’ll let you rest.” Carina got up and Maya grabbed her hand.

“Come see me later?” Maya asked.

“I will, I am going to see some patients and I’ll come by when I get off.” Carina nodded and
squeezed the blonde's hand before letting go and walking out of the hospital room.
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Carina did come in to check on Maya and sat with her while she ate dinner, watched a show
with her, and waited for her to fall asleep. She grabbed a note a wrote a note to Maya

Dear Maya,

Tiredness got the best of you and I work a long shift tomorrow on top of being on call so I
decided to go home and get some rest. I hope to hear from you. Don’t be a stranger. I hope
you wake up and feel a little better.

Carina
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~~

Maya got better throughout the day, she read Carina’s note and smiled. Andy was feeling
better because she was now teasing Maya abuout her. The blonde opened her phone and
found the brunette's number, she decided to send her a message.

Maya: I hope your shift isn’t killing you, sorry for falling asleep last night. Come see me.
You know my room number. I believe they are going to discharge me in the morning if my
stats are clear.

Taking the risk, Maya hit send and smiled, Vic, Dean, and Jack were being discharged today.
They came to say their goodbyes to both Andy and Maya. Talked about having a party once
they were both better. Maya offered to host it. Pros to Charlotte's break up with her were she
can do what she wants without being accused of cheating, hearing about how much Maya has
to drink, or how much she flirts.

Carina saw her phone light up, she was studying some scans from earlier, she smiled and saw
the message, knowing it was Maya, but decided to play a game.

Carina: Who is this? I am intrigued as to what room you are talking about. A hotel? ;)

Hitting send, Carina closed out her scans walked to the locker rooms changed out of her
scrubs, and put on a pair of jeans and a dark red blouse. She was in fact going to see Maya.
She let her long brunette hair down and sat down on the couch.

Maya looked at her phone as soon as Carina’s name came on, she read the message and bit
the inside of her cheek... Right, she should have said who it was.

Maya: Ah, right. I wish I was here to woo you and say a hotel, but it's a hospital room. And
it’s the girl from the bar who got sick after seeing her ex but made out with you. Maya
Bishop. ;) *Bites lip intrigued.*

Maya hit send and the nurse came in to take some vitals and ordered her dinner. Carina got
the message and chuckled.

Carina: Haha, cute blonde from the bar. Right. You’re adorable Bella.

Carina hit send and headed to Maya’s room, she saw the nurse in there and decided to wait a
few minutes, once the nurse left and closed the curtain between Andy and Maya that was
when Carina decided to walk in.

“Hi, stranger.” Carina smiled and leaned her arm against the doorframe

“Hi.” Maya smiled nervously and looked Carina up and down. “Do you wear that daily? To
see your patients? Because I’d be calling you every five seconds just to look at you.” Maya
smirked.

Carina blushed and walked closer to Maya’s bed, she was now sitting up on the bed, her hair
was down, still somewhat dirty and she had flowers everywhere.
“No.” Carina laughed and sat in the chair. “Did you order dinner?” Carina asked, placing her
bag behind her.

“Yes,” Maya answered and continued to look at Carina. “I am so glad you came to see me,”
Maya said softly. Just as Carina was about to respond a familiar face came into sight at the
door, Maya froze. “Charlotte..” Maya mumbled and looked back at Carina who was getting
ready to get up. “What are you doing here?” She asked. “Carina.. Please don’t leave.

“I’ll be back, Maya. I am going to get you some fresh water.” Carina had a sad smile, her ex
always had perfect timing of showing up. Not that Carina had any room to be jealous but she
was. Maya watched Carina walk out of the room.

“I just um.. I needed to see that you were okay.” Charlotte nodded and walked closer. “I
brought you some flowers last night but you were out.” She chuckled and placed her hands in
her pockets. Maya nodded and looked ahead at the wall. “Listen, mai.” Dearborn started.

“Don’t,” Maya said sternly. “Remember you left me. You don’t get to just keep coming back
over and over again.” She snapped. “I am thankful that you are okay, but just stop. It fucking
hurts every time you are here or every time I see you.” Maya said softly. “I still love you...
And what had happened in the bar was me trying to just forget you.” As soon as the words
came out of their mouth, Carina was at the doorway and she looked at Maya, their eyes met.
Charlotte sighed and looked at Maya, then turned to find Carina standing there.

“Here,” Carina said and set down the water pitcher poured a glass of water for Maya, and set
them on the table that was over her lap.

“Carina..” Maya went to stop her and she pulled her hand away before Maya could grab it,
quickly Carina grabbed all of her stuff and walked out of the door.
“You can go too Charlotte,” Maya mumbled and took a drink of her water.

“Come on Mai. You don’t want company?” She asked.

“No, not from you.” Maya snapped and pushed the nurses' button.

“Please leave,” Maya asked.

“Maya.. please,” Charlotte begged. The nurse came in and Maya looked away from
Charlotte's eyes and asked the nurse to cancel her dinner order.
Charlotte was looking at Maya and rolled her eyes.
“You do this! Over and over again. So damn stubborn.” Dearborn laughed and rolled her
eyes. “This is exactly why it’s so fucking hard to love you, Maya. You don’t let anyone in.”
She had tears in her eyes. “I loved you until you made it impossible to.” She muttered, just
then Carina came into the room.

“Yeah, and that’s why I got distance was because you slept with Gibson when I was
working!” Maya yelled, Carina came back to grab her pager that was set down on the
nightstand and her eyes went wide.

“What? Who told you that?” Charlotte asked.

“Get out Dearborn!” Andy yelled, opening the curtain. “Just fucking go.”

Charlotte rolled her eyes and walked to Maya, the blonde tried to move but didn’t have all of
her strength yet, so Carina stood in front of Maya. “I think you should go. She asked you to
leave. I will page security if you don’t leave.” Carina said sternly.

“Yeah, well you’ll be just another woman she fucks and leaves,” Dearborn said, turning to
leave. “Oh and Maya. You have a type. I know you’ll come crawling back to me soon.” She
left. Carina sighed and so did Maya.

“Carina.” Maya grabbed her hand, but she quickly pulled it away.

“I’m not some prize, or some toy you use to get over your ex Maya.” Carina shrugged and
started to walk to the door. “I know I went through a breakup too, but I wasn’t using you to
get over her. I was moving on to someone I thought was better.” Carina said sadly and looked
down.
“That came out wrong, Carina. I wasn’t using you.” Maya said. “Please, just come sit with
me. I enjoy your company. I’m not using you, I want to just be around you. Your presence
right now just makes me calm.” Maya was being truthful.

Carina sighed and sat down, Maya scrolled through the channels and they watched a few
shows together, by the time the last episode was over, Maya was struggling to stay awake, at
some point Carina was holding hands, their fingers laced together. It felt so natural. Carina
looked tired, and Maya felt guilty for keeping her so late.

“Carina,” Maya whispered and Carina looked over at her, brown eyes meeting her blue and
she couldn’t help but smile. “If you want to go home, I will text you.” The blonde said softly
and squeezed her hand. Carina looked down at the hands, she didn’t realize when that
happened or how it happened. But to her too it felt natural.

“Goodnight, Maya Bishop.” Carina smiled and let go of her hand and walked out of the door.
Maya smiled and watched Carina leave.
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~~~

The next morning, Maya got discharged, Vic came to pick up her and Andy and since it was
going to be a little rough, Maya offered Andy to stay in the guest bedroom at her apartment,
Vic also offered to come over and help them around the house. But they were certainly going
to throw this party.

Maya: Hey, got discharged. Could I get a goodbye for now?

Maya hit send and signed her paperwork, Andy smiled and they started to walk with the team
out of the room.

“Maya,” Carina called, quickly the blonde turned around and smiled. The team snickered and
watched the blonde.

“That was fast.” Maya teased and bit the inside of her cheek. She was nervous.

“Call me tonight when you get off?” Maya asked, looking Carina up and down and then to
her eyes.

“Okay. It’s my short day so I’ll be off this afternoon. Let me know if you need anything?”
Carina smiled and looked over Maya’s shoulder, her team quickly looked away and wondered
their eyes somewhere else. The brunette kissed Maya’s cheek and watched as she walked
away.
After getting back home, and settling in the girls decided to have a movie night, Andy wanted
to invite Ryan, Vic wanted her boyfriend over and Maya thought about inviting Carina. They
ordered pizza, made popcorn, and had some drinks and water.

Maya: Hi, are you busy?

Maya hit send and waited, Ryan and Vic’s boyfriend, Joe was his name, showed up and they
sat on the couch, fighting over what to watch,

Carina: Just got done showering, you okay?

The brunette hit send and a response quickly came.

Maya: Come over? Watch a movie and just hang out?

Carina debated, she was exhausted but decided against sleep.

Carina: Address?

Maya: 1908 N. Bridgett Way apt 7

Carina smiled and quickly found some pajama bottoms and a T-shirt, she let her hair air dry,
she grabbed her bag. “Oh.. maybe snacks.” She searched her fridge and found some Tarmesu.
“Perfect,” She said to herself, walked to her car and drove over to Maya’s. Once she arrived
she walked up to the door and knocked. Maya slowly got up and opened the door, finding
Carina there. Her heart stopped.

“Hi.” Maya smiled and grabbed the baking pan from her hand. “What is this?” Maya asked.

“Ah, yumminess, Bella.” Carina chuckled and set her bag down on the table beside the door.
“I like delicious things,” Maya smirked, her eyes looking into Carina. The Italian could feel
her cheeks getting warm.

“It’s just a little Italian dish I had some left over so I brought it.” Carina grabbed it from
Maya and followed her over to the couch, they both sat down, close together since Andy and
Ryan were also on the couch, and Vic and her boyfriend were sharing a chair beside Andy.
Carina set the baking dish down on the table, the lights turned off and they still fought over
what movie to play.

“I’m picking.” Maya grabbed the remote and they all argued. “My apartment, my tv, my
choice.” Maya shrugged and Carina laughed a little. “Scary?” Maya asked, no one opposed
so she chose Amityville Horror. Maya set the remote on the table, took off the foil of what
Carina brought, and looked over at her, Carina nodded and Maya grabbed a spoon and took a
piece, then put in her mouth. She almost moaned but caught herself.

“That’s so good,” Maya smirked and then grabbed a blanket, she placed it over her legs, lifted
it, and offered half to Carina. The brunette allowed Maya to move in closer, her arm going to
the back of the couch behind Carina and Carina’s hands rested on top of the blanket on her
lap. She had to admit she got scared of most horror movies. But maybe she could play it off
and feel Maya’s arms around her.

Everyone grabbed pizza, Maya offered Carina some and they shared a plate. There was a part
with loud music, and Carina knew what was coming, she scooted closer to Maya, their pizza
being moved to the coffee table in front of them, her hand suddenly went to Maya’s leg and
there is was the jump scare, Carina leaned her head against the blonde's shoulder and didn’t
look at the TV for a few seconds. Maya bit her lip and slid the blanket up further, grabbing
Carina’s hand and then wrapping Carina in her arm, moving her till their bodies were pushed
together. Carina was trying to play this, but she did get scared. Maya felt so warm. Carina’s
head was now lying on Maya’s shoulder, their fingers playing with each other.

Once the movie was over, Vic and her boyfriend were asleep and Andy and Ryan were
looking at the TV.
“One more, Mai.” Andy asked.

“It’s getting late. “ Carina said softly and went to sit up but Maya held her close and looked
into her eyes.

“Do you work tomorrow?” Maya asked. The Italian shook her head and Maya’s eyes almost
went to a begging look, as if she could speak with her eyes.

“Maybe one more?” Maya asked.

Carina didn’t want to leave, but she knew that she should.
“Okay.” Carina replied and they picked another movie “Hope Floats” It was Andy’s choice.

During the movie, Ryan and Andy were cuddling, Maya had decided to move to the other
chair, and she brought Carina with her, this would bring them closer, but with the two couch
hogs, Maya had no choice. Carina sat down beside Maya, her legs came to rest on top of the
blonde and she looked at Maya for permission and she nodded. Maya also grabbed them a
bigger blanket and it covered them both, Carina curled her body in the corner of the chair,
then grabbed Maya’s hands and let them rest on her thigh, Maya adjusted so her head this
time could lay on Carina’s shoulder, Carina gently played with Maya’s blonde locks as they
watched the film. The love scenes made Andy almost cry..

Once the movie was over, Andy and Ryan went to the guest bedroom, Vic moved to the
couch and Carina and Maya cleaned up the living room, putting things in the fridge.

“Thank you for coming,” Maya said, stopping at the counter beside the stool that Carina had
sat in.

“Thank you for inviting me.” The Italian smiled and looked at the blonde standing there.
“Maya.” Carina whispered, grabbing her hand to bring her closer.

“Go on a date with me tomorrow?” Maya asked, lightly brushing a strand of Carina’s hair
behind her ear.
“This didn’t count as a date?” Carina asked curiously. Maya was flustered. Did it? Oh geez.
Carina chuckled softly and leaned up and captured Maya’s lips against her own. Maya places
her hands on Carina’s arms, one hand coming to play with the blonde locks again. She
deepened the kiss, and the firefighter reciprocated. Her tongue finally entered Maya’s mouth,
causing her to moan. Maya was now standing in between Carina’s legs, their tongues battling
with each other, light moans filled the room till air became necessary. Maya pulled away,
panting. Carina still had her eyes closed, Maya bit her lip and leaned down, kissing along the
Italian jaw.

“Mmmh.” Carina hummed and pushed Maya’s head lower towards her neck. Maya started to
trail kisses along the tan-toned neck, biting gently, causing Carina to hiss, but Maya’s tongue
soothed it.
“Fuck..” Maya said softly, feeling Carina’s hands moving up her shirt. “W-we have to stop,”
Maya whispered, kissing Carina again before straightening herself up, Carina stood up.
“Trust me... I want you.” Maya whispered. “Let me woo you before I get you in my bed,”
Maya said. Looking at Carina. The Italian nodded, her lips puffy and swollen.

“Walk me to my car?” Carina asked and Maya nodded, walking with Carina. Once they
arrived at Carina’s Porsche Maya smirked and gently pushed Carina against her door and
kissed her again, deepening it quickly. Carina placed a hand on the back of Maya’s neck, her
fingernails massaging the blonde's scalp.

“Goodnight Carina,” Maya whispered, kissing her again.

“Text me date information,” Carina said softly and got into her car. Maya smiled and nodded,
waiting for the brunette to drive off, once she did, Maya sighed and smiled. She decided to
turn it in as well.

Maya: How about I surprise you? I’ll pick you up at 5:30 tomorrow evening.

Carina: Sounds perfect Bella.

Maya: I enjoyed tonight.

 Carina: Me too.

Maya: I put on the scary movie on purpose.

Carina: Oh? : )

Maya: I just wanted to see if I could get you close to me ;) And it worked.

Carina: I would have found excuses to get close to you anyway.

Maya: Good.

Carina: Goodnight Bambina.

Maya: Goodnight.

Maya smiled and fell fast asleep, at least tonight it was with a real smile.

Chapter End Notes

2 chapters for now! I have been working on this story for a few days now, so I have up
to 6 chapters written. I work 12-hour shifts at a minor emergency clinic so I can only
post every so often! I hope you are enjoying the story so far. The chapters will get better.
I promise. Also, they will be longer because soon I will be getting a new laptop. Right
now mine literally freezes up :(

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Maya was not sure what to wear, she hadn’t gone on a first date in well over five years, of
course, Charlotte took her out now and then. But still, this was a struggle. She decided on
some flared light blue jeans, and a white top with a white lace bra, see-through but subtle.
Along with a pair of heels. Maya pulled her hair up into a high ponytail, pulled out some
framing pieces, and then applied a small amount of makeup. She curled the hair in her
ponytail and grabbed a light silk black jacket. Once she felt she was ready she dabbed on
some perfume around her wrist and her neck, then lightly on her hairline. Smiling to herself
she gathered a purse and made sure she had her car keys.

Carina was not sure what to wear, with Arizona, they never really went on a date, so this was
Carina’s first time in a very long time. She decided on a pair of dark blue jeans, a tan shirt
that showed off some cleavage and her figure, and then a pair of brown boots that went just
below her knee. These weren’t heels so she would be comfortable for whatever Maya had
planned, she lightly curled her hair and then applied perfume around her neck, she then
grabbed a long brown coat and a purse. She added a touch of makeup and waited for Maya to
come and pick her up.

Maya was nervous, but so ready. The blonde got into her car looked at the address Carina
sent her and made her way there, once she arrived she went up to the floor and knocked on
the door. Carina jumped up from the couch, everything in hand with a smile on her face.

“Hi.” Carina greeted, looking Maya up and down and nibbling on her lower lip.
“Hi, wow. You look stunning.” Maya smirked and then looked at Carina.
“Thank you and you.. I feel underdressed. Haha, you look beautiful.” The Italian said softly
and then made sure to grab her house key. “Ready?” Carina asked Maya, noticing that she
was continuing to stare.
“Yes, yes. You are not underdressed, you… look so beautiful.” Maya said, backing up a little
as Carina shut her door.
“Thank you, Maya.” Carina walked down the stairs beside the blonde, eager to see what was
planned. Maya opened the passenger door for Carina and then made her way to the driver's
side.

“Are you hungry right now?” Maya asked, she had the whole evening planned.
“Mmmh, no. I can wait a little while.” Carina shrugged, holding her jacket in her lap which
hid the fact that she was playing with her fingers, Maya nodded and then continued to drive.
Once she parked, Carina looked around. They were by the water. Ah, loading dock.
“I should have asked you if you get seasick.” Maya sighed and looked over at the Italian.

“No, I don’t Maya.” She said softly and got out of the car at the same time the blonde did.
She followed her lead, hand in hand they loaded up on the Fairy. It was sunset so they would
be able to watch it. Carina put on her jacket, it was a little chilly for this time of year. Maya
led Carina over to the front of the boat and they sat down, Carina smiled and looked out at
the view. Who knew Maya could be a romantic? After a little while of waiting for everyone
to load, they finally began to move, Maya grabbed a peach-colored rose from behind her and
handed it to Carina.

“What is this?” Carina asked, smiling as she took the rose from Maya’s hand.

“Each thing we do will add up to a bouquet of roses,” Maya muttered and looked at Carina.

“It’s beautiful, thank you.” Carina leaned in and kissed the firefighter's cheek.
Maya blushed and looked down for a second.

“So, Carina. What made you want to become a doctor?” Maya asked, watching the wind
gently blow Carina’s hair.

“Everyone in my family is a doctor, but my Papa really pushed for it. He doesn’t enjoy the
fact that I do women’s health. He insisted that it was a waste of my practice but I love to
bring babies into this world, I love seeing the joy on momma’s faces when they hold their
baby for the first time. I just love helping people.” Carina smiled as she explained her love
for her job. “Papa, he, I wish he would understand that my job is necessary.” Carina shrugged
and looked over at Maya again. “What about you and firefighting?” Carina asked, grabbing
Maya’s hand and lacing their fingers together.

“Well, my dad trained me to go to the Olympics for track, I won a medal and I won it while
injured and that injury was the end of my career, but I wanted something risky, something
that I could feel good about.” Maya sighed. “I decided to be a firefighter because saving
people is what I love to do and the thrill of the fire is what I live for. It makes me passionate.”
Maya chuckled. “I sound so crazy.” She said, looking at Carina.

“Not crazy, it’s good to love your job, Maya, and someone who doesn’t support you through
your job has no business being around you.” Carina was referring to Dearborn. She wanted to
ask about that but she wasn’t sure if it was too soon.

“My job is always the ultimatum in a relationship. Some can’t handle the thought of me
risking my life. Others think I work too much, some think I am insane and have a death
wish.” Maya scuffed. “I just.. I was built to just get up and go and fight for what you want.”
Maya was squeezing Carina’s hand, maybe afraid she might try to run away. There was a
deeper explanation of what she just gave.”All my life I have had to prove over and over again
that I am enough. My dad.. He pushed me to be the best that I could be.” Maya sounded
defensive. “He-he..” She stopped for a second and Carina met her eyes, her hands going to
Maya’s face.

“Breathe, Bambina,” Carina whispered and ran her thumbs along the blonde's cheek.
“Breathe.” She whispered again.
“M-my dad.. I am starting to think that maybe proving that I’m worth something isn’t right,
and pushing myself isn’t right.” Maya had tears welling up in her eyes. “I’m sorry this wasn’t
supposed to be a pity party kind of thing.” Maya scuffed and tried to let go of Carina’s hand,
but she held on.

“Maya, I want to get to know you. All of you.” Carina squeezed her hand for reassurance.
“My Papa, he wasn’t exactly the most loving father. He suffers from bipolar disorder. He has
mood swings and manic episodes. They s-started when I was fifteen, my mom left, and I sent
Andrea with Mama, she moved to America. I wanted him to have a better life and so at
fifteen, my dad drilled it into my brain that I was never enough, I had to prove something to
earn his love and I am still working on that.” Carina sighed. “H-he truly is sick, but it is hard.
I always feel that I have to give to others to prove I am worth something.” Carina shook her
head and looked at Maya. “See, your past and mine... We can share it and know that it's what
we went through.” Carina said softly and then looked out at the view of the sunset, Maya
scooted closer to Carina and then got up, leading her towards the stairs to go up to the other
deck, Carina followed and they went right to the front of the boat and the rail, standing side
by side as the sun was going down.

“Carina,” Maya whispered, a hand on the small of the brunette's back. Carina turned and then
was instantly met with Maya’s lips, the Italian couldn’t help but to moan softly into the kiss, a
hand going into Maya’s hair lightly massaging her scalp. The blonde deepened the kiss,
lightly pushing Carina against the rail, her whole body felt like it was on fire and they still
had the rest of the evening to go. Slowly Maya pulled away, biting Carina’s bottom lip on the
way.

“Mmmh, if you continue to kiss me that way Maya Bishop this evening might end early.”
Carina chuckled and slowly dragged her hand down along her bicep. Her eyes never left
Maya’s. The feeling of just making eye contact was enough to turn both women on. The fairy
pulled up to the next doc, and the pair made their way to the exit.

Maya held onto Carina’s hand and they walked along the sidewalk by the water. “So Maya,
how long have you been a firefighter?” Carina asked, looking out at the city lights.

Maya smiled and then sighed “Six years.” She said, leading Carina to their next destination
of their date. There was a small restaurant along the street, Carina eyed it, little lights were
hanging around the building that lit up the outside, and people were sitting out there and then
inside. Not too busy. Maya led the way and walked Carina to a table outside. She grabbed a
rose from the window seal and handed it to Carina.

“You did put a rose everywhere that we are going to go” Carina chuckled and put the rose
with the other one.

“Hmm, you will just have to wait and find out,” Maya smirked and then handed Carina a
menu. They ate some pasta and then had a piece of cheesecake to share, Carina had ordered
wine, and Maya just went with water. The pair finished and Maya paid the bill. Once they
were finished, Carina and Maya made their way to the monorail, taking it further away from
downtown and towards the pier. Once they were off they walked a little bit further towards
the giant wheel. Carina smiled and held onto the blond's arm with both her hands. Maya
smirked and enjoyed Carina’s touch. Maya paid for the ticket and the guy quickly handed
Carina another peach-colored rose and to the little car they went. Maya and Carina sat on the
same side, hights were not Carina’s favorite but she knew Maya would keep her safe.

“You didn’t pay him to stop at the top just so you could kiss me did you, Maya Bishop?”
Carina asked, laughing a little.

“No, ha, but, I know I can kiss you whenever I want to,” Maya smirked.

She was right about that. “For someone who doesn’t do this whole um ‘dating thing,’ you are
doing pretty good,” Carina said softly, they stopped almost at the top and Maya looked
around then at Carina. “My turn” Carina whispered and pulled Maya by the back of her neck
and instantly slid her tongue into Maya’s mouth, the blonde quickly grabbed the lapels of the
Italian jacket, kissing her deeply, sucking on her tongue. Both women didn’t notice the wheel
was moving. Maya then pulled away for air but continued to kiss Carina’s jaw, then to her
ear, nibbling on her ear lobe.

“You can kiss me like that anytime,” Maya whispered and kissed along her neck, biting
lightly. Not enough to leave a mark. Slowly, Maya pulled away and kept Carina close. Her
body felt hotter, she knew the night still had to continue. Once the wheel was finished going
around a few more times the pair got off and walked towards the Ferry. There was a coffee
cart by the entrance, Maya ordered two hot chocolates, Carina laced her fingers with Maya’s
and smiled. Maya grabbed a rose from behind the counter and handed it to the brunette.
Carina shook her head and took the rose, adding it to the others that were in her hand. Maya
carried hers, and Carina had to let go of Maya’s hand, but she carried her hot chocolate and
the two women sat on the bench side by side.

“What is your dream life in the future?” Carina asked, lightly playing with Maya’s hair.

“I eventually want to become battalion chief, maybe get married.” Maya shrugged and Carina
smiled. “What about you?” Maya asked.

“Hmm, I eventually want to open a practice and have time for whatever life brings my way.
Or a clinic to help people that don’t have health insurance.” Carina shrugged and Maya
smiled.

“I love that,” Maya said softly, kissing the brunette’s cheek, Carina blushed and then got up
to throw her cup and Maya’s away in the trash, quickly coming back to the blonde's side.

“Where is a place you would love to travel?” Maya asked, her fingers grazing up and down
Carina’s back.

“Oooh, France forsure.” Carina chuckled and then looked at Maya. “What about you?”
Carina asked.

“I haven’t traveled a whole lot, I have been to Paris, and all around the States, but I’d love to
go to Italy.” Maya shrugged.

“I’d love to show you around!” Carina got excited and had a smile on her face that just
amazed Maya.
Soon the fairy arrived at the original doc they boarded, Maya and Carina walked to the car
and drove toward a park. Once they arrived there were a lot of cars in the parking lot, which
made Carina curious. Maya parked her car, got out, and opened the trunk, Carina followed
Maya as she grabbed a few blankets and a pillow.

“What are we doing?” Carina asked, chuckling.

“That’s a surprise beautiful, but will you grab that bag? It has some snacks.” Maya made sure
to close her trunk and she led Carina down to the grass, a lot of people were sitting on the
grass with a big screen sitting in front of the water, the projector was in the back, Carina bit
her lip and smiled. Maya bought two tickets and was handed a rose, she grabbed the
brunette's hand and they made their way to the middle, finding an empty spot that was not too
close to people, but enough for just the two of them. Maya laid the blanket out, put down two
pillows, put down another blanket, and then grabbed the basket from Carina and handed her
the flower. Carina made sure to carry her other ones and then set them down on the blanket
and took off her boots, and Maya took off her heels, slid their legs under the covers, and sat
down. Maya opened the basket and pulled out a bottle of wine.

“Now, listen I am not a good wine picker so I am so sorry if this tastes awful.” Maya smiled
and handed Carina a plastic glass and opened the wine, pouring it. This was a white one,
bubbly. Good choice there. Carina waited for Maya to pour herself some and then they
clinked their plastic cups and took a sip. Mmmh, okay.

“Well, you are a good wine picker,” Carina whispered in the blonde's ear, then kissed her
cheek.

“When does this movie start?” She asked, looking around. The street lights around the
sidewalk turned off.

“Now,” Maya smirked, and then they laid back, Carina put her glass between the two of them
and rested her head almost on Maya’s pillow.

‘A Walk To Remember’ popped up on the screen, and Carina smiled. “You, Maya Bishop,
have won the romance prize.” Carina chuckled and finished her wine before setting the cup
beside her and scooting her entire body closer to the blonde. Maya just smiled and watched
the movie.

Carina leaned in and gently started to kiss Maya’s neck, looking around slightly to make sure
they were somewhat hidden. Maya bit the inside of her lip and turned her neck more,
allowing Carina more access. The brunette rolled her tongue in circles around the woman's
pulse point and then sucked lightly before pulling away. She didn’t want to leave a mark, not
yet. Then slowly, Carina kissed around her shoulder and then back up towards her ear.
“Maya,” Carina whispered.

“Hmm?” Maya asked, looking over at the brunette.

“Can I touch your skin?” Carina asked, her eyes filling with lust. Maya nodded so Carina
gently placed her hand just under Maya’s shirt and slid up, grazing her breast. The blonde bit
her lip, trying to hold back a moan. Carina smirked and then gently slid her fingers under her
bra and skimmed over her nipple, causing her to gasp. The brunette pulled the blankets up
over Maya’s chest as Carina heard people walking behind them, she rested her head on her
shoulder and continued to play with her nipple. Maya arched her back slightly, Carina pulled
at her nipple hard and made Maya moan lowly.

“Fuck.” Maya whispered. Carina smirked and did the same thing to the other nipple, then she
took her hand out, laced her fingers with Maya’s, and watched the rest of the movie. Once the
movie was finished, Maya gathered their trash, Carina gathered the blankets and her roses,
Maya grabbed the pillows, and then Carina’s hand and led them back to the car.

“What’s next?” Carina asked, curiously.

“Well, just wait and see.” Maya shrugged and opened Carina’s door, grabbing the blankets
from her hand. Maya was half tempted to take the Italian back to her apartment but she had a
few more places left. So she drove them through the town and out. It was a little bit of a
drive, but once they pulled into a smaller parking lot in the mountains, Maya grabbed her
jacket and put it on then grabbed a blanket and got out, Carina followed Maya’s lead and they
walked to a sidewalk, people were looking through the telescopes and watching the sky. No
city lights here and you can see all the stars... How romantic. Maya walked over to an empty
scope and pulled out two roses. Carina smiled and grabbed them both.

“Take a look,” Maya said softly, holding Carina by the small of her back. Carina looked
through the scope and found that she was looking into the galaxy, she smiled and continued
to look around. How beautiful it truly was. Maya took a turn to look and Carina just held her
hand and gazed at the stars. They continued to talk about work their lives and where they
were. Luckily the other roses were safe, Maya drove Carina back down the mountain and to
her apartment.

“I know I should have asked if you wanted to go to your apartment, but I wanted to at least
spend a little more time with you.” She said softly as she put the car in park.

“Maya, I want to spend more time with you,” Carina reassured the blonde and they both
walked up to her apartment. Maya unlocked the door and then shut it. Luckily Andy went to
stay with Ryan tonight.

“Here.” Maya offered to help Carina out her jacket and she hung it up, Carina placed her bag
on the table, then turned to face Maya, smelling the roses.

“Come,” Maya said softly, leading Carina down a short hallway towards a room, Carina went
to look and gasped, the other five roses were sitting on the bed, Maya smiled and leaned into
Carina until she was pressed against the door frame. Carina gasped and watched as Maya
made the moves.

“Please,” Carina whispered and that was all Maya needed before she slammed her lips
against Carina's, her body flesh against hers. Moaning, Carina led them towards the bed,
Maya kicked the door closed just in case Andy were to come over.
The second the door closed, Maya’s hand slid the end of Carina’s shirt up slightly just to feel
her skin. It was warm. Smiling against Carina’s lips she slowly pulled away and kissed
Carina’s jaw, the Italian had her eyes closed, enjoying the fact that Maya was being so gentle
with her.

“Maya, ” Carina whispered and grabbed the woman's hands. “Are you sure about this?”
Carina asked, biting the inside of her cheek as they laced their fingers together. Maya pulled
away and nodded.

“I’m sure, Carina. I know that maybe I came off as distant or maybe not ready but with
you… everything just feels right.” The blonde whispered and let go of Carina’s hands pulled
her shirt over her head and let down her hair. Carina watched Maya and smirked. “I know
that I haven’t exactly been giving you straight signals and maybe sex isn’t the signal needed
to know that I am moving on, but all I wanted to do tonight was please you, to see you smile
because your smile is so beautiful, you are so beautiful.” Maya kissed gently along Carina’s
neck, her hands slowly lifting her shirt. Carina chuckled, her cheeks were warm and she
helped Maya take off the shirt.

“I believe you and this evening has been so special. No one has ever gone out of their way to
make it special like you did.” Carina put both of her hands on Maya’s cheek and kissed her
sweetly. “I don’t want you to think all I want is sex, that’s not what I was looking for in the
bar and it certainly isn’t what I am looking for now.” Carina looked into the blue eyes. “I
want this to be just as special for you.” Carina kissed Maya again and they both breathed into
each other, Maya’s hands playing with the straps of Carina’s bra.

“You giving me the time of day makes me feel special, Carina,” Maya whispered and leaned
in and started to kiss Carina’s neck, causing the brunette to gasp at the feeling of her lips.
Carina decided then, that Maya was sure so she pushed Maya’s hands down to her hips. Maya
taking the hint gently bit on Carina’s neck and slid her hands to her ass. Carina moaned softly
and leaned her head back, giving the blonde as much access. Maya squeezed Carina’s cheeks
and brought their bodies flesh against one another again. Carina groaned and quickly
unclipped Maya’s bra, slowly pulling her body away for a second. The blonde smirked and
moved her hands for a second, letting it fall before bringing Carina close again.

“Maya..” Carina moaned, feeling her fingers sliding down the brunette's pants. “Please.” She
whispered. The blonde kissed along Carina’s collarbone, then down her chest, unclipping the
bra letting it slide off, and tossing it to the side. Smiling, Maya walked Carina backward
toward the bed. Once Carina felt the bed behind her she pulled away from Maya and laid
down in the middle and watched as her lover climbed up her body, smearing kisses along her
stomach and then to her breasts. Her tongue darted out against her nipple and her fingers
played with the other one. “Harder.” Carina whimpered. Maya smirked and bit down on the
Italian's nipple and pulled the one between her fingers just as hard. Carina let out a loud
moan, her fingers going up the nape of Maya’s neck and into her hair, pushing her face down,
Maya sucked on her nipple then switched to the other one and repeated the action. Once she
felt Carina grinding against nothing the blonde decided it was enough nipple stimulation, she
moved her lips down the Italian's stomach over her panties, kissing her inner thighs. “M-
aaaya.” Carina groaned then arched her hips as she felt lips against her center then moved to
the other thigh. Maya smirked against her skin and pushed her tongue against the woman's
center through her panties and began pushing her tongue further so she could feel her tongue
against her clit. Maya flattened her tongue and rolled it around the hardening bud.

“Fuck, Maya.” Carina moaned and started to give her own breasts attention, her stomach was
going crazy, and the feeling of Maya between her legs was addicting. Maya stopped and
came up to Carina’s face and kissed her deeply. Inhaling Carina kissed her back and
undressed Maya completely. “Bambina,” Carina whispered and looked into the ocean-blue
eyes. “Please.” Carina whimpered, feeling her fingers pulling her panties down.

“Please what?” Maya smirked, leaning up, her eyes never leaving Carina’s as she took her
panties off.

“Fuck me,” Carina demanded. Maya smirked and leaned in, kissing the Latina’s neck again
then up to ear.

“Say please.” Maya teased her folds and felt Carina grind against the finger playing with her
clit so Maya stopped.

“Ugggh Dio. Fanculo a me, per favore” Carina grabbed Maya’s cheeks and kissed her again.
“Fuck me, please,” Carina begged, moving her hips to find friction. “Please, please, please,”
Carina begged. Maya began to rub her clit a little bit faster and moved her lips to Carina’s
breasts, licking and sucking on the swollen nub. Once Maya was satisfied with how wet
Carina had gotten she slid a finger inside the Italian. Hearing her gasp egged Maya on so she
pushed it in and out faster, adding another finger. “Yes, Y-es.” Carina moaned, arching her
back as Maya continued to suck at her nipples, switching between both of them. Her fingers
started to move faster, each time her palm slapping against her clit. “I need more.” Carina
whimpered, Maya smirked and added her thumb to the brunette's clit, her fingers curling and
hitting the sweet spot. She knew Carina was getting closer based on how much she was
whimpering and her pussy was clenching. “Maya.” She whispered, Maya moved up and
kissed Carina’s lips then moved her face directly above Carina.

“Look at me,” Maya demanded and started to move her two fingers in a coming position
back and forth. Carina was silently moaning, her eyes opening. The blonde added just enough
pressure on her clit. “I’m so close, Bambina.” Carina bit her lip, fighting to keep her eyes
open, Maya moved her fingers as fast as she could, feeling her wrist burning.

“Cum for me,” Maya whispered, her eyes never leaving Carina’s. Suddenly Maya felt
Carina’s lower half lift off the bed, her thighs began to shake and the way her pussy clenched
Maya added speed to her clit and Carina let out a scream. Maya bit her lip and smirked,
pushing her fingers back and forth a little slower to move Carina through her orgasm. Once
satisfied, Maya removed her fingers gently and brought them to her lips, licking them clean,
Carina watched as she tried to catch her breath. “Now that was hot.” Maya chuckled and
palmed Carina’s breasts with her hands, causing the Italian to moan. “Mmm, so sensitive,”
Maya whispered, kissing Carina and sliding her tongue into her mouth. Carina kissed her
back, tasting herself.
Maya slid off of Carina and watched as the brunette beside her opened one of Maya’s legs,
bringing it up towards her torso and leaving the other one stretched out to the foot of the bed.
“My turn,” Carina whispered and got between the blonde's legs. “You pleased me so good, I
want to do the same for you,” Carina whispered, kissing Maya before going to her breast.
Maya was already turned on from watching Carina cum so she knew that this would be faster.

Carina sucked on her nipples, one at a time. Maya squirmed and felt Carina play with her clit.
“C-carina.” She moaned. “This is going to end embarrassingly quick.” She whispered. The
brunette smiled.

“As long as you are satisfied, Bella,” Carina smirked and applied more pressure to her clit
and sucked harder on her nipples causing Maya to moan loudly. “Mmmh you’re dripping,”
Carina mumbled, kissing up to the blonde’s neck, sucking on her skin just not hard enough to
leave a mark, slowly Carina inserted two fingers inside Maya and felt her pussy clench
tightly against her.

“Mmm god.” Maya moaned, arching her back, she felt Carina speed her fingers up, her palm
slapping against her clit, and the sound of how wet Maya has filled the room along with
whimpers.

“Cum for me,” Carina whispered, going harder. Maya moaned louder and opened her legs
more, Carina smirked and added a third finger, stretching the blonde so good.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck.” Maya said breathlessly. She gripped Carina’s hair and pulled. Carina
moaned and Maya’s hips arched off the bed. “Yes!” Maya moaned. “I’m so close.” Maya
whimpered, her body squirming. Carina turned her fingers so her knuckles were up, hitting
the bottom of her clit each time she pulled out, wetness was dripping onto the sheets, Carina’s
fingers sped up and Maya swore she could see stars. “Shit, Carina!!” Maya screamed loudly
and felt a gush of liquid being released from her body, covering Carina’s hand as well as her
lower back. Maya felt her thighs shaking and Carina bit her lip.

“One more,” Carina demanded and pulled her fingers out for a second, then put them back in,
using her other hand to rub her clit back and forth fast and her fingers moving in and out fast
that she felt the burn going up her arm. Maya arched almost her whole body off the bed and
shot liquid out again, her thighs shaking and closing against Carina’s hand. Carina smirked
and slowed down, pulling her hand away from her clit and gently pushing her fingers in and
out before slowly taking them out one by one. Maya had her eyes closed, her hands still
gripping the sheets.

Once Maya caught her breath, Carina kissed gently along her chest.
“Hi,” Carina whispered.

“Hi.” Maya chuckled nervously and instantly turned red. “I’ve never done that before.” She
mumbled. Carina couldn’t help but smirk.

“Mmmh it was very hot,” Carina whispered, kissing Maya’s lips. “Would you like to take a
shower I can help you change your sheets.” She kissed Maya one last time.
 “Yeah, let’s go. If I can feel my legs.” Maya laughed and slowly sat up, Carina got knees in
between Maya and then slid off the bed, Maya following her.
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They took a shower, shared kisses, and washed themselves off. Maya handed Carina an old
Station 19 shirt and a pair of shorts. Carina thanked her and got dressed, Maya did the same
and then changed the sheets. They both climbed into bed and faced each other.

“Thank you for tonight, Bambina,” Carina said softly, kissing Maya’s nose. The blonde
blushed and captured Carina’s lips.

“I’m so glad you decided to wait.” She chuckled and laced her fingers with Carina’s.
“Me too,” Carina whispered.

“What does Bambina mean?” Maya asked.

“Oh.” Carina looked at Maya’s eyes. “It means baby.” The brunette bit the inside of her
cheek.
“I like it,” Maya mumbled and moved in closer to the Italian, wrapping her arm around her
waist, and pulling their bodies closer. Carina smiled and they both fell into a slumber.

Chapter End Notes

Surprise (:
 I'll Be There For You
Chapter Notes
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Carina woke up early in the morning, the sun must have been just coming up because it was
still somewhat dark outside. The brunette looked at the blonde who was sound asleep, her
arm wrapped around Carina. Studying her features, Carina wondered how someone could
hurt this soul. Sure, life wasn’t the easiest. It never is for anyone, but Maya. She knew had
her flaws, but all Carina wanted to do was show this woman what it’s like to have someone
who can show support and love them through whatever happens. Carina kissed Maya’s
shoulder, then her neck and up to her jaw.

“Hmm.” Maya hummed and had a smile. “Good morning.” Maya’s voice when she first
woke up was a little crackled and somewhat deep. Carina did find that attractive.
“Buongiorno, Bambina.” Carina whispered and kissed the blonde’s lips. Maya hummed
softly and tightened her arm around the Italian. The pair laid in bed for a little while longer,
their eyes instantly meeting each other, and kisses were shared and one more round of
orgasms.

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“Maya. Love. There is nothing here to eat.” Carina chuckled and continued to search the
fridge.

“I usually just drink a protein shake.” Maya scratched at her neck and watched Carina move
around the kitchen in a station 19 t-shirt and her shorts.

“Let me take you to breakfast.” Carina said, looking at Maya and then gently kissing her.

“Car-.” Before Maya could finish that sentence, Carina was kissing her again. “Okay.” Maya
whispered and kissed her again.

“Hmm. I don’t have a change of clothes, so maybe we could go to my apartment so I can

change?” Carina asked, lacing her hands with Maya. Physical touch was definitely Carina’s
love language and Maya made note of that.

“We can do that.” Maya nodded and went to change into a pair of jeans and a loose t-shirt
with a jacket. She brushed through her hair and then placed it in a pony tale. “Okay, ready?”
Maya asked as she walked out of the bathroom and found Carina in her clothes from last
night, bag in hand.
“Yes.” Carina answered and walked towards the door, Maya followed, smiling.

They made their way to the apartment, and Carina invited her in. “Maya, I should mention. I
live with my brother.” The brunette unlocked the door and opened it to find her brother in the
kitchen and another male's voice. Carina instantly stopped in her tracks. She recognized it.
Maya was following Carina a little too close and with the sudden stop, Maya ran into
Carina’s back and put her hands on her waist to brace the impact.

“Ah, Carina!” Andrew smiled and then looked at his sister's waist to find a pair of hands on
them. He got the hint. “Papa, Quando è arrivato il tuo volo?” Carina knew Andrew was
distracting her father. She grabbed Maya’s hand and pulled them inside, shutting the door and
walking to her room.

“Carina, are you okay?” Maya asked, shutting the door behind them.

“I don’t know.” Carina replied and grabbed a pair of jeans from her closet and started to
undress. Maya sat down on the bed and waited patiently for Carina. “Maya.” She said softly,
the blonde looked over at Carina and found her just standing at the closet.

“Hey.” Maya said softly as she got up and grabbed Carina to pull her to the bed. “Talk to
me.”

“I wasn’t expecting him to be here, I don’t think Andrew was.” Carina shook her head and sat
down on the bed, her hand still linked with Maya’s. “I don’t want you to feel like I am hiding
you, but I am not ready for you to even meet Papa, he is a lot to handle.” Carina sighed. “I
think breakfast might have to be put off for another day.” Carina looked at her with
disappointment spread on her face.

“It’s ok. Carina. I understand.” Maya squeezed her hand reassuringly. “I can wait for you.”
Maya shrugged. “I’ll just go home and if you need me you can call?” Maya asked. Carina
thought about it for a minute and then she heard a knock on the door. “Hold on.” Carina told
Maya and got off the bed and walked to the door.

“I didn’t know he was coming.” Andrew argued and barged into the room and shut the door.
“He is making himself comfortable in the guest room.” Carina shut the door and then Andrew
looked over at a blonde sitting on his sister's bed. “Oh, my apologies.” Andrew looked at his
sister.

“Maya, this is Andrea, my baby brother.” Carina smiled.

“Andrew.” He corrected her and then went to shake Maya’s hand.
“Nice to meet you. I really should let you spend time with your family.” Maya said and got
up.
“Listen, Car. If you had plans, I understand. Papa is a lot to handle. We could meet up with
you for dinner.” Andrew suggested. Carina looked at him and then to Maya and sighed.
“I don’t want him to be upset and take it out on you, Andrea.” Carina grabbed Maya’s hand.
“I’ll walk you to your car.” Carina said. Andrew poked his head out the door and saw the
guest door closed. He ushered Carina and Maya out.
“It was nice to meet you, Maya. Maybe you, Carina and I could hang out soon.” Andrew
smiled and Maya nodded and followed Carina out the door.
“I’m sorry, Maya.” Carina looked at her then to the ground. Maya grabbed her cheeks and
kissed her deeply. Carian reciprocated the kiss just as much, her hands latching onto the
blonde's jacket.

“Call me if it gets to be too much.” Maya whispered and kissed Carina again.
“I will.” Carina kissed her back. “Even if it doesn't get to be too much, I want to call you.”
Carina smiled and then opened Maya’s door. The blonde bit her lip and got in, letting Carina
shut her door. Sighing, Maya started her car and Carina walked towards the entrance of her
building, waving to the blonde and walking inside.

Once she walked back into the apartment she was greeted by her Papa. “Ah, Ciao, Carina.”
Her father kissed her cheek and smiled.
“Ciao Papa.” Carina said, smiling back at him and then walking to the kitchen and began to
make some espresso.
“Andrea, Come va il lavoro?” Papa asked, looking only at Andrew. Carina scuffed and rolled
her eyes. Andrew looked at Carina and then to his father. “It’s great, dad.” He said shortly,
walking to help Carina with the coffee.

“Please, just talk to him?” Andrew asked, pouring the liquid into a small espresso mug and
taking a sip.
“I will. After I’ve had my coffee.” Carina poured hers into the mug and sat at the table across
from her father.
“So Carina’s study has been going very well for her.” Andrew added, smiling.

“Ah, good.” He blew it off and continued a conversation with Andrew. Carina knew when to
be quiet so she listened to the rambles of her brother and her father. That went on for what
felt like hours.

“Mi dispiace Carina, come va lo studio?” (I’m sorry Carina, how is your study going?) Papa
asked, looking at his daughter. Uninterested.
“Bene. Ho quasi finito.” (Good, I’m almost finished) Carina smiled slightly at her father.
“Ahh. And where is this um… Arizona? Was it her who came into the apartment with you?”
He smiled sarcastically at her.

“No Papa, Arizona and I broke up.” Carina admitted and was waiting for the blow to come.
“Ah, so sorry.” He shook his head and laughed. Carina rolled her eyes. She wouldn’t open
herself up to the hurt, nor would he be hearing about Maya yet. Carina grabbed the dishes
and quickly cleaned up the kitchen. She felt her phone buzz and pulled it out of her pocket to
look at it.

Maya: Hey, I haven’t heard from you in a bit. Doing, ok?

Carina: It’s going ok. I’m sorry again.

Carina hit send and stuffed her phone back into her pocket.

“Carina! Let’s go get some early dinner. Andrew is inviting Meridith. See. You should have a
successful relationship like him. Someone who is proud of you and you are proud to show.
Not sneak off into your room like you are a teenager.” Her father said and grabbed his coat.
Carina got up and grabbed her coat from her room and pulled out her phone.

Carina: I’m going to dinner, maybe I can come over for a movie later?
Carina hit send and walked out of the room and placed her jacket on.
Maya and Andy were having a conversation when she heard her phone go off. Reading it,
Maya looked at Andy then to her phone.
Maya: Andy and I are watching a few tonight, feel free to join (: If I need to I can come get
you from dinner.
Carina: I don’t want to intrude on your plans.
Carina got into Andrew’s car in the backseat and waited for Maya to reply.
Maya read the message.
“Hey, would you care if Carina were to join?” Maya asked. Andy shook her head and
smirked.
“No, when is the last time you let a girl join?” Andy teased.
Maya: Come. It’s no worries.
Carina smiled down at her phone and decided to let Maya pick her up when she was done.
Now she needed to find an excuse.
Carina: Okay Bambina. Come get me when I'm done?
Maya: Of course, let me know and I’ll be there. (:
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They arrived at the restaurant and got a table. Of course, Carina’s father wasn’t the nicest
person someone could meet. He made comments that probably could have been kept to
himself. Meredith came in behind them, Andrew grabbed her hand, and she greeted Carina.

Dinner was pleasant, although Papa only chose to talk to Andrew and Merdith which was
what Carina was used to. It shouldn’t affect her. Right?

“Carina has been doing well out here. She is going to soon be chief of the OB floor. I’m
proud of her.” Meredith smiled over to the brunette and that’s when Vincenzo’s whole
demeanor changed.

“Excuse me if I am being rude Ms. Grey, but I don’t see Carina’s career choice as a success
she is doing what every woman can do. She just likes to think that it makes her on top of the
world. Bringing babies into the world is not.. It’s not even a thing to make a career of!” He
shrugged and laughed. Andrew looked over at Carina, and Merdith looked down for a
second.

“Papa. I help women! I am finding new things to improve their health and quality of life. I
am doing what a doctor does! I am saving lives.” Carina was aggravated. She hated even
bringing up her title to her father.

“Women have been taking care of themselves for years! You can call it a career all you want
darling, but you are still stuck in the same spot you were back at home.” Vincenzo shrugged.
Carina sat up in her seat.
“No. Papa, I am in a much better place here then I was in Italy.” Carina argued, tears welling
up in her eyes. “I am making something of myself. I have researched a lot and I will not let
you tear me down.” The brunette pulled out her phone and got up, she dialed Maya’s number.

“Hi, love.” Maya answered, Carina knew she was smiling.

“Ciao Bambina. Come get me?” Carina asked, trying to add calmness to her voice to not
worry her.
“Of course. Where?” She asked, Carina could hear her grabbing her car keys.

“Pink door.” She replied. “Thank you.” Carina hung up the phone and walked back to the
table and finished off her glass of wine.

“Carina Deluca. Show some manners instead of downing that damn wine!” Vincenzo
muttered under his breath. Carina raised her eyebrow and sighed, setting her finished glass
down.

“I have manners Papa, just not your cup of tea.” Carina smiled and got up. “I have to go.”
She grabbed her jacket and walked out of the restaurant and sat on the bench, waiting for
Maya. Andrew came to sit beside Carina and laid his head on his shoulder.

“Carina, You do matter, and you have done amazing work with your job.” Andrew kissed her
cheek as a car pulled up.

“Grazie.” Carina smiled and kissed his cheek as well then got up. He walked back inside, and
Carina got into the car with Maya. “It’s refreshing to see you.” Carina said, closing the door.

“I could say the same about you.” Maya smirked and then drove off to her apartment. Carina
told Maya all about Vincenzo and his bipolar disorder and how he was ashamed of her career
choices, also how she was afraid Andrea may have bipolar as well. Maya held her hand and
gave her reassuring squeezes every now and then.

Once they arrived at the apartment, Andy had already made some tacos, rice and margaritas.
Andy asked Maya if she could invite Ryan since Carina was coming and Maya agreed. Maya
made herself a plate and then grabbed a bottle of wine from the fridge and poured Carina a
glass.

“Maya. can I have comfy clothes?” Carina asked, grabbing the wine glass.

“Yeah, come on.” Maya led Carina to her bedroom and pulled out a pair of sweatpants and
another t-shirt. It was her fire academy t-shirt. She handed the brunette the clothes. Carina
started to undress; Maya was standing at her dresser biting her lip.

“What?” Carina asked, chuckling.

“You are so beautiful.” Maya said softly and let Carina continue, but just before she could put
on her sweatpants Maya was in front of her. “You may not be in the mood, Carina but I plan
to take your mind off whatever is bothering you.” She whispered, kissing along the woman's
neck. The Italian chuckled lightly and closed her eyes, tilting her head to the side to give
Maya more access. The blonde nibbled along her neck and then moved her lips to Carina’s.
They shared a few kisses and teasing touches. Before anything got too intense there was a
knock on the door, the pair quickly pulled away from each other and smiled.

“Let’s go lovebirds!” Andy yelled through the door. Maya rolled her eyes and looked back at
Carina who was putting the sweatpants on.

When the movie started, they all agreed on watching the Twilight series. Carina was in the
corner of the couch, her back resting against the arm, Maya was resting her body in between
Carina’s legs, head on her chest. Carina played with Maya’s hair, Andy and Ryan were on the
chair, curled up under a blanket.

As the second movie started it was getting dark, the only light was the tv, Maya pulled the
blanket over her body and rested her hand on Carina’s stomach under her shirt. She started to
graze her hand up but felt Carina’s hand push hers down. Maya pouted and shifted her a little
lower, her head resting in between Carina’s breast.

By the third movie Andy and Ryan decided to stop and go into the guest room. Maya and
Carina were left alone watching the movie. The blonde decided to tease Carina just a little bit
before they went to bed. So, her hand went up Carina’s shirt and to her breast, her lips
attaching to her neck. “Maya.” Carina whispered with a smile. Then she felt fingers
unhooking her bra, she slightly arched her back and let her bra come undone, she moved it
from under her shirt and sit it on her side. Maya took a nipple between her fingers and pulled
harshly. “Mmh.” Carina muttered out, biting the inside of her cheek. Maya smirked and
started to kiss and suck on her neck, her fingers working at one nipple then switching to the
other, pulling and pinching. “Harder, Maya.” Carina whispered. The blonde listened and took
a nipple between her fingers, her face lifted to watch Carina’s eyes and she pulled at the
nipple while pinching it. The brunette let out a moan, soft enough for only them to hear.
Maya did the same to the other nipple, repeating this a few more times before sliding her
hands away and resting her head back on the brunette's chest. Carina was breathing a little
heavier and her body felt hot. When Maya stopped and went back to watch the movie, Carina
grunted slightly and then ran her fingers through Maya’s hair, grabbing a handful towards the
nape of her neck and pulling on it. Maya moaned louder and bit her lip.

“Let’s go to bed.” Maya whispered, trying to reach for the remote, Carina stopped her hand
and placed it on her thighs. “Not right now. Leave the movie on.” Carina whispered and
looked at the blue eyes in front of her. “Andy could walk out anytime.” Maya whispered, her
hand going to the waistband of Carina’s sweatpants. “I don’t care, just touch me. It won’t
take long I promise.” Carina nodded and closed her eyes as soon as Maya’s hand cupped her
pussy through her underwear. Gasping, Maya lightly brushed her fingers up and down
Carina’s covered mound. Carina bit her lip to keep from moaning, waiting patiently for Maya
to please her, the blonde started to rub Carina’s clit in wide circles, her lips kissing on her
neck. Carina’s breath started to get labored, so Maya decided to speed her fingers up, kissing
her neck up to her ear.

“You’re so wet.” Maya whispered, nibbling on the Italians ear lobe.

“Yes.” Carian answered, her legs opening just a bit wider. “Please Maya.” She whispered.
“Is it all for me?” Maya asked, pushing her fingers slightly harder against her clit. Carina
moaned instead of answering so Maya stopped her circles and bit on the spot behind Carina’s
ear.
“Yes, yes. Bambina. It’s all for you.” Carina whimpered. Maya smirked and began her circles
again, moving faster.

“Your pussy wants me.” Maya said, by the way Carina’s body was responding she was
enjoying this dirty talk as well.

“Take me, Maya. Make me yours.” Carina’s hand was on the back of Maya’s head and the
other on the small of her back, trying to find leverage to move her hips. Maya moaned into
Carina’s ears and sped her fingers up on the brunette's clit, the bud hardening each rub she
gave it.

“Cum for me.” Maya looked into Carina’s eyes and added just enough pressure that it pushed
the Italian to the edge. Her back slightly arched and a whimper escaping her lips. Maya
rubbed in circles till she Carina rode out her orgasm.

“Okay. Bedroom.” Carina demanded, handing Maya the remote.

They quickly cleaned up the mess in the living room together and then went to the bedroom,
Maya shut the door and turned around to Carina getting underdressed.
“Tell me what you want me to do.” Carina said, naked.

“Get on your hands and knees.” Maya pointed to the bed and started to undress herself.
Carian listened and got on the center of Maya’s bed, her legs slightly spread and her hands
even with her head. She felt a dip behind her and then Maya’s lips on her back.

“One of the best parts of a woman’s body is her back.” Maya muttered as she kissed up
Carina’s spine. The goosebumps rising on her skin were clearly visible to Maya. “I don’t like
to say I’m an ass girl but you... My darling. Have a beautiful ass.” Maya’s hand landed on her
cheek and Carina let out a moan. “Now, now. Shh. We don’t want to wake up the guest.”
Maya bit down on the back of Carina’s neck and another hand landed on the same ass cheek.
Carina pushed her backside out towards Maya, silently begging for more. “Oh? Does this
turn you on?” Maya asked, slapping the other cheek twice as hard. Carina could feel her arms
getting wobbly and she took in a shaky breath, just in time for two slaps to land on both
cheeks at the same time.

“Fuck.” Carina moaned; her head turned to the side to eye Maya. The blonde chuckled and
leaned over the brunette, meeting her face from behind, Kissing her. Carina returned the kiss
and moaned as she felt Maya’s fingers grazing against her swollen clit. She was wet and
sensitive. But all she wanted was Maya to pleasure her.

“I want your ass red.” Maya whispered, her free hand landing on Carina’s ass cheek, then
again on the other side, two more times and Carina’s arms gave out and her head was down
on the mattress, and her ass was in the air. Maya couldn’t help but to groan at the position and
her face immediately went between the girl's leg. Licking at her clit, her tongue rolling in
slow circles. Carina was panting and groaning at the same time. Maya’s free hands squeezed
both cheeks as her tongue continued on the nub. Carina’s wetness was dripping down her
chin.
“Cazzo!” Carina whimpered again, the feeling between her legs was causing her body to go
numb. “Please, please, please.” carina begged in a whisper. Maya smacked her ass again and
then slid two fingers inside of the brunette, her tongue poking out and moving up and down
against the womans sensitive clit. Carina was a moaning mess, her body was hot… No on
fire. She felt the fingers going faster and she knew she was close.
“I’m cumming, I’m cumming, I’m cumming.” Carian repeated, her ass still in the air, Maya’s
face between her legs, her tongue flicking at her clit. Finally, her lips closed around her clit,
and she sucked. Carina felt like she could see stars, her abdomen tightened, and white heat
was released. Her moans were almost screams; her thighs were shaking.

Maya slid her tongue where her fingers were and she pushed it in and out, deeply. Carina was
moaning louder, and her body felt weak. “One more for me baby.” Maya said against the
brunette's mound. Carina shook her head and gasped, Maya’s finger was touching her clit
gently and her tongue was doing wonders inside of her.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck!” Carina moaned, her hand gripping the sheets. Another orgasm came,
liquid poured out of her pussy, covering Maya’s face and the bed. Maya licked her clean and
Carina laid on her stomach.

“That was hot.” Maya chuckled and sat her pussy directly on Carina’s ass cheek. “God.”
Maya moaned, her hips moving back and forth against the muscle. Carian dazed, but aware
she clenched her butt cheeks and that instantly threw Maya over the edge. “Fuck, I’m
cumming.” Maya moaned and felt her release, her body was squirming. Carina quickly
turned them over and threw Maya’s legs over her shoulders, her face between her legs.

“I love to eat a woman out, the way she tastes. It’s like magic.” Carina muttered; Maya was
still trying to catch her breath. “I watch a woman as she is being ate out. The way the body
moves, the moans that escape the lips.” Carian gently bit down on Maya’s clit, hearing her
gasp. “You… Bambina. Are so sexy.” Carina flattened her tongue and licked at the blonde
clit like it was candy. Her eyes only focus on Maya. Just as she was coming down from her
high, another was building. Carina slid in two fingers, her rhythm going faster each thrust she
made. Maya was moaning loudly.

“So wet my love.” Carina bit at her clit again and Maya’s hips arched, so Carina rested her
hand on the top of her waist, her tongue flicking up and down at the same rhythm her fingers
were going. Wetness coating bothers her hand and her tongue. The only sounds in the room
were Maya’s whimpers and pants and the wetness of Maya’s pussy. Carina knew she was
close, her abdomen flexed and suddenly liquid poured out, Carina continued to push her
fingers in, going as fast as she could. Her face lifts to watch Maya come undone; she was
borderline screaming, not caring that Andy was in the room across from them at this point.
More liquid was released and slowly Carina took out her fingers, Maya was still whimpering.

Carina watched as Maya came down, her chest still rising.

“I’m going to draw up a bath.” Carina kissed her lover's cheek and walked into the bathroom
and turned on the water. She knew that Maya was going to be extra sensitive, she hasn’t made
very many women squirt, but watching Maya come undone like that was hot. Once the water
 was warm enough, Carina plugged the drain and let the tub fill, she put some bubbles in the
water and then walked out, finding Maya still having her eyes closed and her legs open.
“Come on Bambina.” Carina said, helping Maya up. The blonde sat up and grabbed Carina’s
face, kissing her. They made their way to the tub, Carina got in first and Maya sat between
her legs, her back resting against the brunettes.

“Thank you.” Maya smiled and played with Carina’s fingers.

“For what?” Carina asked, watching Maya.

“For just coming into my life at the time you did.” Maya smiled and looked behind her,
brown eyes meeting blue. Carina kissed her softly and squeezed her hands.

“We’ve only spent two days together. On sexapade.” Carina laughed a little. “Like heavenly
bliss.” She shrugged and looked down at their joined hands.

“Is tomorrow your official day back at work?” Carina asked.

“Yes. But I won’t go in until 10am, I have my check up at the hospital.” Maya said.

“Can I take you to breakfast?’ Carina asked.

“Yes.” Maya answered with a smile from ear to ear.

They finished their bath, dried off and changed the sheets again. Once everything was
changed, they got into bed, arms and legs tangled together, bodies snug and covered.

“Goodnight Maya.” Carina kissed her softly.

“Goodnight.” Maya whispered, kissing her back and closing her eyes, Carian rested her face
in the crook of Maya’s neck, soft snores filing the room from both women.

Chapter End Notes

Updated!

Thank you for all the kind feedback and love for the story. I appreciate it! Next chapter
will be full of drama, I just wanted to give you one more love sickening chapter!

So sorry for it being so delayed, I had the flu and then I worked 9 days straight. I hope
everyone enjoyed their Holiday's.

Enjoy. I plan to add another chapter either later tonight or tomorrow. #SaveStation19
#DoNotCancelStation19

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Maya woke up the next morning to an empty bed, she looked around and sighed, the clothes
that were on the floor were picked up, Carina was nowhere in sight. Maya climbed out of bed
slowly and put on a pair of sweats and a hoodie. As she opened the door, she heard some
laughing and voices. Maya walked out and found Vic, Jack, Carina, Andy, Ryan and Dean
talking and laughing.

“Good morning sunshine!” Andy chuckled, attention going to Maya. “I assumed you’d still
be sleeping from all the action that happened last night.” Andy teased, winking. The group
whistled and Carina laughed. Proud.

“Hi.” Maya replied, sleepish. Her cheeks became red. She walked towards Carina and
remembering that they weren’t really a couple she wasn’t sure if Carina would be okay if
Maya had greeted her with a kiss, so she chose to grab the brunette's hand, squeezing it then
standing beside her.

“So, big day back at work!” Vic cheered.

“Oh! Crap! What time is it?” Maya asked in a hurry and quickly ran to her room. She closed
her bedroom door and got into the shower. Little did Maya know it was only 8:00 am, her
appointment wasn’t until 9:15. Carina watched in amusement and excused herself while
everyone chatted away. She opened the door to find Maya underdressing and getting into the
shower. The brunette bit her lip and locked the door. She undressed too and walked into
Maya’s shower, her arms wrapping around her from behind, kissing her shoulder.

“It’s only 8:00.” Carina whispered, her hands going down Maya’s abdomen.
Maya smiled and watched Carina’s hand. “Let me release some stress.” Carina whispered
into her ear and slid two fingers into the blonde's already wet center.

“Ah.” Maya gasped and put a hand on the shower wall to brace herself. Carina moved her
fingers in and out at a slow rhythm, her lips kissing along the blonde's skin as the water
poured down on both of them. “Faster.” Maya demanded. Carina bit her lip and smacked her
pussy. “Don’t tell me what to do.” Carina bit back, her fingers rubbing at her clit in fast,
small circles.

“Fuck.” Maya said, her hips trying to find any friction.

Carina chuckled and slid three fingers inside the blonde, her leg going between Maya’s to
spread her open.

“Oh! God that feels amazing.” Maya moaned, Carina’s fingers moving in and out at a faster
pace. Maya’s moans filled the bathroom as Carina brought her over the edge.
“Well, that was a great way to start the morning.” Maya chuckled and turned to face Carina.
She kissed her and they both finished a shower.

“Maya, I’ve got to stop at my house to change, do you mind?” Carina asked as she slid on a
pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt.

“No. That’s fine. We better go through.” Maya said as she got dressed in a pair of jeans and
shirt. The pair noticed everyone was gone, probably to go to work.

Maya parked in front of Carina’s apartment. They said their goodbyes and Carina assured
Maya; she would see her at the hospital.

Maya arrived at the hospital and waited for Dr. Hunt to approve her to go back to work, Andy
was there too.

“Alright, Bishop, you are ready to go back.” Hunt handed her the release and then handed
Andy hers. Maya thanked him and sighed, looking around.

“Dr. Hunt. Do you happen to know where Dr. Deluca is?” Maya asked, walking towards the
desk. “Carina Deluca.” She repeated.

“Oh yeah, her office is on the fifth floor, take a right and the station is there.” Hunt went on to
another patient and Maya went to find her way to the elevators. She followed his directions
and ended up at the long desk.

“Can I help you?” A blonde doctor asked.

“Y-yes. I am looking for Carina Deluca.” Maya said, looking around.

“Oh, she is in a meeting with Dr. Robbins. What can I help you with?” She asked.

“It’s kind of a personal matter.” Maya shrugged. “I can wait.” She stood by the desk.

“Right okay. Hold on.” Jo walked into the hall towards an office. Yelling. “Crap.” Jo
whispered then knocked.

“What?!” Arizona yelled.

“I’m sorry to bother, Dr. Deluca, there is someone at the front asking for you. Personal matter
she said.” Jo nodded and shut the door.

A few moments later, Carina appeared.

“Hi.” Carina said, almost annoyed.

“Hey...” Maya could feel the tone Carina had.

“Come on.” Carina said, getting on the elevator. The doors shut and Carina instantly kissed
Maya. The blonde was taken aback but she returned the kiss.
“Hmm.” Maya hummed and pulled away. “What’s wrong?” Maya asked.

“Just irritating doctors.” Carina groaned and walked off the elevator with Maya.

“We uhm. We can skip breakfast if you want.” Maya said, hoping Carina remembered.

“Oh, Bambina.” Carina pouted and walked outside. “I forgot… I have surgery in thirty
minutes.” The brunette made her way to the coffee cart. “I can buy you a coffee though.” She
offered, knowing that it wasn’t the same.

“Okay.” Maya nodded and smiled. She was slightly disappointed about breakfast, but she
knew that Carina was busy.

“Espresso for me, actually make it a double.” Carina looked over at Maya.
“Uh, just the Americano for me.” She nodded and Carina scanned her badge then laid out
cash.

“Are you released?” Carina asked while they waited for the coffee.

“Yes, all good. So, I work a 24-hour shift.” Maya nodded, grabbing her coffee.

“Good. So as captain do you run into the fires?” Carina asked, smiling.

“Sometimes. Most of the time I just really delegate where the team goes.” Maya sat down on
a bench; Carina sat beside her.

“Well, that makes you a little safer right?” The brunette asked, sipping at her coffee.

“Well… if my team is in danger, I go in. But I’m supposed to be a little safer.” She nodded.
“Are you worried about me Ms. Deluca?” Maya flirted, nudging her shoulder.

“I am.” Carina admitted, looking at Maya with a sad look.

“I’ll be okay. We are careful.” Maya assured her. She was about to say something else, but a
pager went off.

“That’s my cue. Call me?” Carina asked, standing up.

“I will.” Maya said, standing up as well she leaned over and placed a kiss on Carina’s cheek
then walked away as did Carina.

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The pair went on about their days, Maya worked her 24, Carina worked her 12, then her 12
hours on call. Once Carina was off she walked into the attending office to grab her bag.
“So, pretty new blonde?” Arizona asked, standing at the door frame.

“None of your business.” Carina replied.

“Of course not, but I just didn’t think it would take you a week to just move on?” Arizona
shrugged.

“Yeah, I wasn’t planning on it.” Carina undressed and changed into a pair of slacks and a
peach-colored blouse, buttoning it up.

“You really have a type. Blonde, blue eyes.” Arizona shrugged and closed the door, standing
against it.

“I’m leaving.” Carina stated and noticed Arizona closed the door. “You chose your daughter
and ex-wife over me. Do not expect me to linger around hoping you’d see me.” The brunette
added.

“I- You were the one that walked away remember?” Arizona scuffed.

“Yes. Because you didn’t want my opinion on your daughter, Arizona. That’s fine. We have
different opinions.” Carina grabbed her bag.

“She is my daughter.” Arizona barked back.

“I get it!” Carina yelled. “I really do. But do not make me feel bad for moving on.” Carina
huffed and tried to get out the door, Arizona stopped her.

“I’m sorry that I hurt you.” Arizona said, her hand lightly grazing Carina’s arm.

“I need to leave.” Carina said, opening the door as soon as Arizona moved.

Carina made her way to her car and found her father standing against her door.

“Ciao Papa.” Carina greeted, standing away from him. Growing up, she knew when his
demeanor changed. He was manic.

“Ah, Carina.” He stood up, hands in the pocket of his jacket.

“Rough day at work?” He asked, Carina shook her head. “No, it was okay.” She lied, smiling
slightly.

“Carina…” He started and sighed. “I’ve decided that I am going to stay for a while longer,
Andrea is helping me with a study, and he is speaking with Chief Karev about allowing me to
use the lab.” Carina could feel her heart beating fast. Not only was her dad manic, but he was
dragging her brother with him.

“Andrea? Why?” Carina asked. “What is your study?” She asked.

“See, Carina, unlike you, I can really study and make it matter.” Vincenzo shrugged. “Andrea
believes in my mind.” He added, smiling. “I want to create a sac for a baby to live in outside
of the womb to decrease premature babies.” Carina immediately felt sick to her stomach.

“Dr. Karev would never agree to this.” Carina stood there; her disbelief filled her mind.
“Oh, but he already did, Carina.” He came closer to Carina. “Because I am a real doctor. I can
make things happen that no one thinks about!” His excitement killed Carina inside.

“Papa, there is no way that a premature baby can survive in a sac! It’s not going to prove
anything other than you hurt families more.” Carina was stern.

“Babies die Cariana! You know this.” He threw his hands in the air.

“When was the last time you slept?” Carina asked, she knew.

“I slept fine last night. You are just mad because I am going to change lives, I am going to
bring joy to families. You may give life and save women who are struggling with whatever it
is, but I will give them life and more! A miracle.” Carina walked to her car door, and soon
Andrew appeared.

“Papa, Dr. Karev approved the study.” Andrew smiled wide and then looked over at Carina.

“Andrea, great! I knew you were always special.” Vicenzo chuckled and hugged his son.
“Let’s go celebrate!” Andrew looked over at Carina, she rolled her eyes. Her heart was torn
on protecting her brother from their fathers' genes or rolling with it to keep patients safe.

“Okay. Let’s go celebrate.” Carina agreed and they all got into Carina’s car. She drove them
to the bar, parked and everyone got out. She noticed a group of firefighters, Vic, Andy, and
then Jack.

“Carina!” Andy smiled and waved, Carina waved back and let the men go into the bar, she
joined the other three in the parking lot.

“Maya will be here soon.” Andry smirked and shimmied her shoulders. Carina laughed and
nodded.

“Perfect, I should get inside.” Carina knew her whole mood was off, she walked inside of the
bar. She found other doctors with her brother and father, all laughing. Carina sighed and
ordered a white wine. She noticed someone sitting beside her. Looking, she knew
immediately who it was. It must be ex’s day because now Dearborn was right there.

“Listen, I plan to have Maya back. You may be her little sex friend, but she is only using you
to get over me.” Charlotte looked at Carina. “I don’t blame her, you are hot.” Carina looked
at Charlotte and then scuffed.

“Maya can make her own choices.” Carina replied, trying to not engage.

“She can. But I know how she works. You don’t.” Carina looked at her glass because
Charlotte was right. “I have loved her for years; I still love her. I just want her to see that I’m
important. Not her job.” She ordered a whiskey.

“Maya’s job is demanding.” Carina stated.

“Oh, trust me. I am a firefighter too. But I want to be home with my significant other.”
“Maybe she just didn’t want to be around you.” Carina finished off her glass and left cash on
the table. Meredith was sitting with Andrew and looked at Carina. Unspoken agreement that
she would make sure they both got home. Carina walked out the door and found Maya
walking towards her.

“Hi, stranger.” Maya smiled and went to hug Carina. But instead, Carina stopped her.

“Please don’t.” Carina whispered. Everyone looked at Maya and then walked into the bar
without her.

“Listen, if-if I’m some rebound to get over Charlotte then fine. But be honest.” Carina was
making assumptions.

“Where is this coming from?” Maya asked. Carina noted that she didn’t deny it. “Carina.
What’s going on?”

“Just a tough day. Listen, I’m going to head home.” She kissed Maya’s cheek and walked
away. Maya looked at the door and then to Carina. She decided to turn around, catching up
with her.

“Carina.” Maya said, grabbing the brunette’s arm. “Hey…” Maya looked at her once Carina
turned around, leaning against her car door.

“I know we have literally only spent two full days together and most of it has been sex, but
Maya, I don’t know you. I want to know you. I want to be there for you on your bad days. I
want you to feel open enough to talk to me. I want to feel that I can trust you too.” Carina
was sniffling.

“Carina, I don’t let just anyone stay the night in my bed.” Maya added. “I want to get to
know you, but it seems that life keeps getting in the way.” The blonde stood in front of
Carina.

“You had a four-year relationship with someone who seemed to be in love with you. And she
defends you like she is still in love.” Carina sighed.

“Okay, Charlotte left me, remember?” Maya asked, her hands in the pockets of her jeans.

“Yes, but what is stopping you from having some fun with me then deciding that you really
do love her more?” Carina asked the question she had feared the answer to.

“Because she doesn’t love me.” Maya stated simply. “If she loved me the way she says she
does or tells you apparently. She wouldn’t have walked away. There is more to why I decided
to move on. It’s not just because she left. I checked out of that relationship a while ago. I just
thought that if I distanced myself from her; she would see that I was affected a lot. I’m not
saying I was perfect in the relationship by any means, but I didn’t leave because my heart
was truly in love with her. She killed me these past few months. It’s like I gave her my entire
heart and I got it back in pieces.” Maya sighed, looking down at the ground. “You make me
feel special, like I am on a high.” Maya added. “When you kiss me…I can feel all your
emotions.”
Carina stared at Maya and bit her lip. “My ex was at the hospital today. Dr. Robbins.” Carina
knew this probably wasn’t the time, but she had to be honest with Maya. “She uh, she came
back to help me close off one of the studies we did together.” Carina looked up at the sky.
“That is why my mood was so off this morning.” Maya looked at Carina and nodded.

“So… why is she taking up your time?” Maya asked.

“She wanted to apologize.” Carina said.

“Ah, that’s all?” Maya felt insecure because Carina could leave at any point too.

“Yes. Maya, believe me when I say that I don’t care about her. I thought maybe I did but I
didn't. I want to just run to you. I want to open myself up to you. I want to show you what
love truly is.” Carina shrugged. Her emotions were out in the open. “My father being here too
is messing with my head. I feel out of sorts.” Carina had actual tears rolling down her cheek.
Maya came closer and held Carina’s face between her hands, wiping the tears off with her
thumbs and she kissed Carina softly.

“Let’s go inside.” Maya grabbed the brunette's hand and led her back inside.

Things remained calm for the most part, Charlotte stayed away from Maya while Carina was
beside her. Eventually Carina’s father left, Andrew stayed with Jo and Alex. The firefighters
were mingling with other doctors. Eventually Ryan came and joined Andy.

Maya was buzzed, which wasn’t her plan, but the past few weeks were weighing down on
her. Carina decided she would drive so she stopped at 3 glasses of wine.

“Maya.” Charlotte approached them.

“Stop.” Maya said, her glass going to her lips.

“Come on.” Charlotte said. “You need water.”

'Who are you to say anything to me? You lost that right.” Maya snapped.

“You’ve reached your limit.” Charlotte bit back.

“Yeah, and you need to leave Carina alone.” Maya got close to her face. “She’s safe.” Maya
whispered. Her eyes staring at Dearborn.

“Oh because you’ve fucked her a few times she is suddenly your emotional teddy bear?”
Charlotte scoffed. Maya rolled her eyes.

“At least I don’t have to be drunk to get someone in bed with me.” Maya downed the rest of
her whiskey. Carina was observing the entire conversation. Her heart was heavy.

“Right, because you sleep with whoever walks and makes you feel special. You are good in
bed, Maya. I’ll give you that, but eventually sex won’t fix you.” Charlotte laughed a little.
Maya stared at her then ordered another glass so Carina stepped in.
“Bambina, let’s get out of here.” Carina said softly.

“Oh, taking orders from a foreigner?” Charlotte asked. That was the straw for Maya. She got
off the stool and looked at Dearborn, Andy was quick, and she grabbed Maya by her arm and
pulled her back.

Carina grabbed Maya’s jacket, paid for her drinks and grabbed her hand. “Come on.” Carina
demanded; her tone harsh. Maya followed; Andy stood there.

“Get the hell out of my face.” Andy bit.

“Right. Always needs her friends to defend her!” Charlotte shouted towards Maya and Carina
could feel Maya shaking. She was quick to pull Maya to the door and outside, she stopped
and kissed Maya softly. At first Maya wasn’t kissing her, but she eventually did, and it was
rough. Carina pulled away, her brother coming out the door. They walked to the car and
Maya grabbed her keys from her pocket.

“You aren’t driving.” Carina stated, taking the keys.

“The hell? You aren’t my boss either!” Maya snapped.

“No, but I care about you.” Carina slid the keys in her purse, Andrew decided to leave this
situation because he knew his sister's temper.

“I don’t need you to babysit me.” Maya started to walk to her own car.

“Right, but I care about you, Maya!” She stopped behind her car and watched Maya walk
away. “I care about you!” She repeated and Maya stopped.

“Give me my keys, Carina.” Maya muttered through her teeth.

“Get in the car.” Carina said, her distance away from Maya. “You’re pissed, great. Be mad
but get in the car and let me take you home.” Carina got into the driver's side. She waited a
few minutes and saw the passenger door open; she started the car and drove back to her own
apartment. Probably wasn’t the best idea, but things were heated, and Carina needed her own
comfort. They arrived at Carina’s apartment; Maya followed her lover inside. Luckily Papa
was already in bed, Carina led Maya to her room, she locked the door and handed Carina a
pair of shorts and a tank top. Maya took them and sat on the edge of the bed.

“I’m sorry.” Maya half whispered. Carina looked at her and sighed, she sat down beside the
blonde and closed her eyes.

“I don’t know everything she put you through, Maya. But believe me when I tell you I care
about you.” Carina was looking at the floor. Maya sniffled and nodded. She then leaned over
and kissed Carina’s cheek, moving to her lips. Carina moaned lightly and kissed Maya back.
“Come hold me in the bathtub.” Carina asked, walking to the bathroom. Maya followed,
leaving the clothes on the bed. She let the water get warm and she put some bath salts in the
tub, along with bubbles, Maya got in first and Carina got in, her back leaning against Maya’s
front.
“I want to get to know everything about you, Carina.” Maya whispered, her chin resting on
the shoulder of the Italian. “I’m so terrified that you’ll make me fall in love with you.” Maya
admitted her arms tightening around her. Carina closed her eyes at the admission.

“Maya… I am not going to promise that I’m great with things, but I can promise that I will
show you what love is, and how you should be loved. Even at the hardest moments I want
you to feel every emotion in me. I want you to feel safe.” Carina said, her eyes opening
again.

“You make me feel safe and that is the most terrifying thing.” Maya said, her lips kissing the
exposed shoulder. Carian turned in the tub to face Maya. The admission felt raw. She kissed
the blonde deeply. Maya kissed her back just as deeply.

The night was shared with intense kisses and cuddles.

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The next day everyone got around, Carina explained her worries to Maya and Andrew about
her father and his study. Maya comforted Carina the best she could until she was called into a
five-alarm fire.

“I got to go.” Maya kissed Carina’s cheek, not remembering that her brother was right there.

“Text me when you can.” Carina asked, trying to hide her worry. Then hers and Andrew’s
pagers went off.

“It must be huge. Be careful Maya.” Andrew got up to go grab his bag. Carina kissed Maya
quickly and let her walk out the door. Her fear for Maya’s safety was evident.

“She will be okay.” Andrew assured Carina.

A shift arrived at the skyscraper in downtown Seattle. Maya directed everyone where to go.
“Bishop!” Sullivan, battalion chief.

“Sir.” Maya nodded, holding her walkie.

“Herrera, you and Miller are on search and rescue. Relieve station 12, Gibson, Warren. You
are to go to the sixteenth floor, relieve 22, Montgomery and Hughes, fire hydrant. Put this
damn fire out. The scene was crazy, Maya was watching her team move. As more victims
came out, Maya watched. Suddenly there was a huge explosion. Everyone outside got on the
ground, Maya laid down and once the fire exploded, she got on her walkie.

“19 talk to me!” Maya yelled.

“Captain.” Gibson replied, as well as Miller. Maya sighed.

“Herrera.” Andy answered, out of breath.

“Warren.” Ben coughed.

Her team was okay so far. Everything was about getting people out of the building, Maya
noticed that the top of the building was burnt to shreds, it was going to collapse.

“Floor 20 clear, I can’t go up further, heading down.” Andy reported, they were all safe and
doing what they were supposed to do. Suddenly the top of the building started to fall apart.
Maya gasped. She knew she couldn’t panic.

“Go! Go!” Warren yelled as they brought multiple people out of the building, Maya’s heart
was beating fast. “Captain.” Gibson came up and they looked at each other.

“Herrera, can you hear me?” Maya said over the walkie, waiting. “Miller!” Maya yelled.
Everyone’s panic set in when there was no response from the two.

Maya decided she needed to rescue her team.

“NO! Bishop.” Maya ignored her name and ran back inside, along with the rest of the 19
team. She had to get to her team.

“Andy!” Maya yelled, there was smoke everywhere, black dust flooding the rooms. Visibility
was low.

“Dean!” Vic shouted. They walked up the stairwells. The last floor Maya knew they were on
was 20th and then the building collapsed partially. She could only hope they made it down
before it got to them.

Once they made it to the 17th floor, there was fire everywhere and passing devices going off.
More than two. Maya looked around.

“Meda! Meda. We have multiple firefighters down.” Maya said through her walkie. Water
came through the windows to put out the fire.

“19! Out of the building.” Sullivan demanded.

“Not without my team sir!” Maya said, walking around, looking at the firefighters, she knew
for most it was too late. No one was coming, so each firefighter from 19 picked someone up
and dragged them down the 17 floors, one by one. Once most were cleared out, there were
three left. Turn outs said Miller, Herrara, Dearborn. Maya felt her heart beating too fast, she
felt like she couldn’t breathe, her body became frozen.

“Maya! Maya!” Vic was yelling but Maya could barely hear her till suddenly she heard loud
sounds. The team was already strapping the bodies to theirs, standing by the window. Maya
quickly grabbed Andy and hosted her up, Travis strapped her to Maya’s back, and they
looked down. “Coming down!” Sullivan luckily put up the blow-up mats down so when they
landed it wouldn’t kill them. The unspoken agreement between the team was made. The next
explosion threw them all out the window. 17 stories. Maya shut her eyes and held her breath
till they landed. Other firefighters unstrapped the bodies and helped the firefighters off the
mats, the building was crumpling, Maya got off and they were rushing all three people to the
ambulances.

“Charlotte.” Maya mumbled, her mask coming off. She was holding her breath again,
hyperventilating.

Ryan came up to Maya. “Take a breath Bishop!” He said, grabbing her shoulders. Maya was
looking everywhere but Ryan. She needed Cariana, no she needed Andy. She needed
Charlotte. Maya felt dizzy. “Maya!” Ryan shouted. Suddenly she took a big breath in and let
it out. Maya nodded and then walked over to the ambulances. “Move!” Maya demanded and
every 19 members were in the three ambulances.

“Prepare! We’ve got multiple casualties. Firefighters down.” Teddy demanded. Carina was
biting the inside of her cheek. They didn’t know who it was and that worried her. “Hey, it’s
going to be okay.” Andrew patted his sisters back. Carina nodded and took a deep breath in
and let on out. They all were waiting outside in the pit. Three ambulances came rushing in.

“Andy Herrera, 32, crushing abdominal pain, unresponsive.” Vic jumped out, as well as Jack.
Carina walked to the next ambulance.

“Dean Miller, 35, crushed injuries, possible head trauma.” Warren shouted, the last one,
Carina could feel her heart racing. Travis came out of the driver's side and Maya jumped out.
Carina felt tears forming.

“Charlotte Dearborn 30, head trauma, cpr started at 22:02, another person was doing chest
compressions and Maya was holding the mask over Dearborn's face, her eyes were red. She
had been crying, or trying to hold it all in. Carina looked at her, waiting for Maya to eye her
but she didn’t.

“I want every firefighter checked for smoke inhalation and injuries from the fall.” The chief
demanded. “Got it!” Hunt said, all firefighters were loading up the beds in the emergency
room. Maya avoided it, she looked outside the trauma room as they worked on three people
she deeply cared about.

“We have a rhythm!” Teddy shouted. Dearborn. She’s alive.

“We are losing her!” Andrew shouted; Carina was in the trauma room with Andy doing
compressions. “Go!” Pierce shouted and they were rushing Dean out the room and to an
elevator. Maya could feel her heart pounding.

Amelia went into Charlotte's trauma room and suddenly Carina was in front of Maya. All
Maya could do was let Carina drag her to a side room. She pulled out her stethoscope and
grabbed an oxygen mask from the cabinet. She hooked up the tubes to the oxygen plug and
she lifted the back of the bed so Maya could sit up. She put the nasal cannula inside of
 Maya’s nose and connected the blood pressure cuff and wrapped her finger to read oxygen
levels.

“Breathe.” Carina whispered, she took off Maya’s shirt, she had burn marks on her body. Not
severe. The brunette placed the stethoscope against Maya’s chest and listened to her heartbeat
and breathing. Maya took a few deep breaths and then laid back against the bed.

Maya had tears rolling down her cheeks. She was silent. Carina did a few more things and
then helped Maya put her shirt on.

“Leave the oxygen on. Yours is at 85.” Carina said sternly and went to walk away, and Maya
grabbed her hand. “Maya... I have to go.” Carina walked away. She had to help in the ER, it
was unfair for her to be mad that Maya didn’t even make eye contact with her. There was so
much going on, but why didn’t Maya look at her?

Maya waited for Carina to come back, but she didn’t. Jo released Maya and told her that
Carina was in surgery. Maya understood and then checked on her team.

They were all in the waiting room, so many firefighters. Maya’s heart was pounding.
Multiple firefighters were dead. Suddenly out came Dr. Pierce, then Amilia, every firefighter
stood up. Andrew was there to join as well as Meridith. Maya knew that look… someone was
dead. Or worse. All were? The Chief stood beside all firefighters. Awaiting the news of one
of their own. Their family. Dean and Andy with nineteen. Dearborn with twelve. Carina was
now standing to the side by the desk. Maya looked at her, but Carina couldn’t look at her.

“Just say it.” Gibson said. Waiting. Ryan stood beside Maya and wrapped his arm around her.

“I’m sorry but…” All Maya could hear was silence. She feared the worst.

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“I’m sorry but…” Pierce paused, “Dean Miller did not make it.” Her voice was shaky and she
took a breath so no one would notice. “Charlotte Dearborn is still in very critical condition,
right now we have her on comfort care. She may not have much time. We are doing
everything we can.” Amelia said, walking away. Pierce followed. Andrew walked up to
Station 19 crew “Andy is going to be okay, long recovery but she did have some internal
bleeding, we repaired the bleed.” Andrew said, everyone thanked him, Maya stood there,
frozen. Carina looked at Andrew as he walked away and then decided to go comfort Maya.
She sighed lightly and walked over to the blonde, her arms going around Maya.

“No, no.” Maya whispered, her arms still at her side but her face was buried into Carina’s
chest. “No.” She sniffled. Carina tightened her arms.

“Shh, I’ve got you.” Carina whispered, every team member was watching Maya and Carina
knew she wouldn’t show her emotions until they were alone. “I’ve got to go check on my
patients, okay? If you would like, we can go back to my apartment when I’m done.” Carina
said softly and kissed the blonde cheek as she nodded. The brunette walked away, and Maya
looked at her team, tears filling in their eyes. Gibson sniffled and got up, walking away.
Maya sat down beside Vic who was in tears, her heart was pounding. Almost as if Maya
could hear it. She was sobbing into her own hands the next moment. Everyone then released
their emotions, all crowded around each other, Jack was back and surrounded in Vic’s arms,
Maya was curled up to Vic’s side. She decided that today they didn’t have to be strong.

All while sitting in the waiting room, Amilia reappeared and Maya looked up, she couldn’t
hear anything but the way that the chief’s head dropped she instantly felt sick. She slid away
from her team and suddenly Carina was by Maya’s side.

“Maya...” She said, her voice was strained.

“She’s dead.” Maya said. She knew the look in everyone's eyes.

“She is.” Carina confirmed. Maya nodded, frozen in time. The sickening feeling returned to
her body, and she walked over to the trash can. She threw up, her best friend was fighting for
her life, her ex-lover was dead as well as a good friend. Carina wasn’t sure what Maya
needed at this moment, her team was in tears as they got up and walked away towards Andy’s
room. Amilia looked over to Carina and nodded. Carina grabbed the blonde’s hand and led
her to the elevator. She knew one way or the other, Maya needed a minute.

“Carina stop.” Maya demanded, but her feet kept following the brunette. She pulled her into a
room, shut the door and locked it. Maya stood by the bed, her eyes open and her head back.

“Feel it, Maya. I’m right here.” Carina assured her. Maya shook her head, she felt too
exposed, her body was heavy and too much.
“I need to run.” Maya said, walking towards the door. Carina stood there and came to level
with Maya.

“No, you don’t.” Carina said.

“You have no idea what I need, Carina. Move out of my way.” Maya snapped.

“I may not know you well, but Maya. I can see when your head is spinning.” Carina
admitted. Her hands came to grab Maya’s arms.

“Don’t touch me.” Maya shrugged Carina’s hands off of her. The brunette nodded and moved
her hands away from the blonde. Maya scuffed and looked at the Italian. “Let me run.” Maya
said more sternly.

“Not until I know you can think straight.” Carina was being stern and putting her foot down.
It was a battle she chose to fight.

“Let me see her.” Maya said.

“What?” Carina was caught off guard.

“I need to see her.” Maya repeated.

“Andy?” Carina asked. No, it was Dearborn, and she knew it.

“No.” Maya said.

“C-Charlotte?” Carina asked.

“You won’t understand, Carina.” Maya opened the door and walked down the stairs to where
she knew Dearborn was and she walked in the room, her family was in there. Her father,
mother, two sisters and her nephew.

“Auntie Mai!” Justin said, running to Maya. She caught him in her arms and held him close.
His sisters allowed Maya in and the tears formed. “Mai.” Justina called for her. “Auntie Char
is going to go see grandpa.” He looked down for a second. “Mommy said that she isn’t in
pain.” The toddler chatted away and Maya sighed and kissed his head.

“Auntie Char is going to not feel any more pain and she will be so happy wherever she is
bub.” Maya responded and watched as they unplugged the machine. Her heart felt like it was
going to stop. She shouldn’t have snapped at Carina. Maya was holding Justin; his face was
buried deep into the crook of Maya’s neck and his tears made Maya’s skin wet and the top of
shirt. She had her own tears too.

They all watched the monitor, it felt like hours, everyone was sitting in a chair, Maya was
leaning against the corner. She watched as the rhythms went down on their own, sighing, the
beeping began. Amelia turned off the monitor and looked around, they all waited for that last
breath. The hope that everyone had in their mind that this was all just a lie. But Amelia said
the words and Maya could feel her heart break.
“Time of death 02:13.” The nurse wrote it down in the chart and the doctors walked out of
the room. Carina was standing at the nurse's station, dressed. She has been off work for a few
hours now but decided to wait for Maya.

“Why are you here?” Amelia asked, handing the chart to the nurse as she looked at Carina.

“Because I hope that Maya will lean on me.” Carina admitted. “It’s heartbreaking. Watching
her go through this.” Carina said as she leaned against the desk. “I want to drag her out and
hold her all night long.” Amelia raised an eyebrow and chuckled a little.

“Are you dating her?” She asked.

“Not exclusively.” Carina responded, just then Maya walked out of the room and found
Carina standing there. She walked to her and wrapped her arms around the brunette's waist.
Carina’s arms wrapped around Maya’s, and she held her there. She felt Maya shaking in her
arms, her body was tense.

“Maya, let’s go.” Carina whispered, still holding onto her.

“Carina!” Andrew shouted.

“Not now.” Carina snapped. Andrew looked down to find Maya, her eyes were puffy and
swollen. He then looked at Charlotte's family.

“Papa is doing his first case.” Andrew said.

“He’s what?!” Carina asked, grabbing onto Maya’s hand. “No- no! This is going to ruin
everything.” Suddenly Carina’s pager went off and she looked at it. A mom in premature
labor. “Come on Maya.” Carina said, dragging Maya to the fifth floor, she led the blonde to
her office and shut the door. “Bambina. Please just stay here. I’ll be back.” Carina said. All
Maya could do was nod, she didn’t feel she had it in her to speak.

“Deluca!” Bailey yelled.

“Dr. Bailey I have to go. My father thinks he can freaking save a premature baby!” She
walked into the patient's room to find her father explaining the procedure to the scared
mother. Andrew looked at Carina then to his dad. Alex was standing beside him.

“I have tested this, and it is going to work. I can save your baby.” He spoke.

“Dr. Deluca… are you sure?” The mother asked. Carina knew she could try and prevent the
premature labor, but she knew that she couldn’t say anything to change her father's mind.
They took the mother to labor, Carina watched from the gallery. Her eyes on Karev. Everyone
was watching. Her father took the baby out of the womb and placed the tiny human into a
sac, closed it and then closed the mother, only now the mom was crashing. Karev jumped in
and started compressions. Carina ran down and walked into the OR. She grabbed the baby
and headed to the NICU.
Luckily the momma was safe, and Carina’s father was going to monitor the baby all night.
So, Carina left to go to her office to attend to Maya, only she wasn’t there.

“Dammit.” Carina mumbled and walked away. She went to check on Amelia and found Maya
standing where Charlotte's room was, not moving. The brunette sighed softly and walked up
behind Maya. “Hey.” Carina whispered, her hand going to grab Maya’s. “Let’s go.” She led
the blonde to her car, and they drove back to Carina’s place.

Once at the apartment, Carina walked Maya upstairs, unlocked the door and walked into her
room. Maya sat on the bed and all the tears she held in were let go. The brunette got down on
her knee in front of the blonde and placed her hands gently on Maya’s thighs. She had her
face in her hands and the tears continued to flow for what felt like hours. She was crying for
Dean, for Andy, for Charlotte, and for every victim that was lost.

Once Maya felt she had no tears left to cry, she slowly moved her hands away, finding
Carina’s head resting on her legs. Her breathing was shaky, and she couldn’t trust herself to
move but her eyes met the chocolate brown ones.

“Can we change?” Maya asked, shaking.

“Yes.” Carina answered and grabbed the same clothes Maya slept in the previous night and
handed them to her all whilst Carina changed into a pair of sweatpants and a tank top, Maya
changed and then she crawled into Carina’s bed, they faced each other.

“M-Maya can I ask you something?” Carina asked.

“Yeah.” Maya whispered, moving in closer to the brunette.

“You didn’t look at me. When you got off the ambulance you didn’t look at me.” Carina
looked down and then to Maya’s eyes. “Why?” She held her breath as she waited for an
answer.

Maya looked down and then back up. “I knew you were worried and to look at you and see
the worry would make me break down. I couldn’t break down. I had to hold it together.”
Maya admitted. “I’m not saying it’s the proudest thing I’ve done, but I couldn’t fall apart
yet.” She looked deeply into Carina’s eyes.

“You didn’t look at me either.” Maya said, closing her eyes.

“Because as selfish as this sounds, I couldn’t bear the thought that if she was to survive
through this, you wouldn’t be by her side through the recovery. I told myself at that moment I
was going to lose you.” Carina was ashamed of her thoughts in such a hard time for Maya.

“Carina.” Maya began and tried to control her breathing. “I’m not going to say that I
wouldn’t be there for her. I would have, because I love her. Or loved. I guess.” Maya paused.
“But to lose what we have so far… I’d be a fool to walk away.” Maya then looked at Carina.
“I wish that things ended differently with her. I don’t regret the ending… I just wish we could
have closure. The ending of her is what led me to you.” Maya slightly smiled and then
shrugged. “I am difficult, you saw. I told you that I would be safe last night and instead two
people died, two of my people died and Andy is lying in a hospital bed.” Maya felt the tears
again. “I’m sorry that I was rude earlier and that I didn’t just let you be there.” The blonde
felt Carina’s hand moving to her cheek, so Maya’s hand moved up her arm, holding her wrist.
“When times get hard, I just run because Charlotte always told me I was being too negative,
or too hard on people. So, my escape was running. That’s how my dad was too. I wasn’t
allowed to feel my feelings.” Maya admitted, Carina got as close as she could to Maya. “I
want to lean on you and know that you will catch me, but I am terrified.” Maya whispered.

“I know that you are aware of this, but I don’t think anyone has actually said it to you.”
Carina started. “You did what you could, it was already too late when you got up there. You
saved those people, and you got them to the hospital. They got help. Sure, they didn’t make
it, but you... Maya. You saved them.” Carina looked into the blue eyes. “You don’t get to just
beat yourself up for what you could have done because the truth is. There wasn’t anything
else that could be. “Carina was right, there wasn’t, and Maya knew that. The blonde leaned in
and kissed Carina softly before they both fell asleep.

In the middle of the night, Carina’s pager went off. She groaned lightly and looked to see
who it was. It was her brother, the mamma that just had a premature baby has passed away
because of complications. The brunette kissed Maya’s cheek lightly and then got dressed.

Bambina,

I had to go into work due to an emergency. Please feel free to stay and rest. I’ll be back. I
have the day off I am just on call all day.

Carina

And with that, Carina left.

The hospital was a mess. Busy, Carina made her way to the fifth floor, Jo gave her the update
on the patient, Arizona Robbins did step in to try and save the mom but due to more bleeding
and complications with her uterus she passed away. The baby's vitals were up and down.
Carina was now more afraid that her father's study would be deemed unfit for mothers.
Carina walked into her office and found Arizona writing in the chart.

“She was fine. I did everything I could.” Arizona mumbled. Carina looked around and left
her door cracked, walking over to her ex-lover.

“We were cautious of what was happening, Arizona.” Carina assured her, trying to stay calm.
Then came in her father.

“Carina! Caio, so happy to see you.” Her father kissed her cheek and then handed her the
paper chart to the baby. Carina grabbed it.

“The baby is doing great. See I told you I could do it.” Her father left the office.

“This baby needs her mother, Carina.” Arizona stood up.

“You don’t think I don’t know that?!” Carina snapped and put the chart down before storming
out of her office. She had to say something. She walked into Karev’s office and stood in front
of him.

“How could you approve this? Being in PEDS, Alex. You know that babies need their
mother. I could have stopped that baby from coming out, just to be in a little longer so that
the momma could survive. Instead, we took the baby out of her home before she was ready!
That is not okay. Not something I support. My father… he is manic. He is on a high and
when this fails there will be an episode of complete rage. You do not understand!” Carina
stomped her foot slightly while she talked. Andrew was standing at the door.

“Babies' vitals are not good.” He said, looking at Carina then to Alex.

“If this works, Carina, you will be sorry for everything you said about Papa.” Andrew said
out of anger. Carina had tears in her eyes. She sighed loudly and walked out of the office.

“Carina! Baby is crashing!” Jo yelled down the hall and immediately, Alex, Andrew and
Carina ran down the hall to the NICU.

The baby was already dead by the time all four of them ran into the room. Vincenzo was
holding onto the baby. His anger was radiating off his body.

“No more.” Alex finally stopped Vincenzo. “There is to be no more of this study. I deem it
unsafe.” Alex stormed out of the room leaving Arizona, Andrew, Jo and Carina.

“You yelled at him before even giving this a chance to work!” Andrew said, looking at
Carina.

“No, I knew it was going to work Andrea because I have been taught to prevent premature
labor! Not enforce it.” Carina bit back at her brother. She shook her head in disbelief as her
father held the dead baby in her hand. The brunette made the phone calls to family and
informed them of the situation, taking in the anger from these families. Once that was
finished, she drove herself home.

Meanwhile, Maya woke up early in the morning, the sun was slightly shining, and she found
a note from Carina, she smiled and read it. The blonde grabbed her phone and saw missed
calls from Charolette's sister. “Fuck.” She muttered to herself. Just then another call coming
in. Charlotte’s mother.

“Hello.” Maya answered.

“Mai... hi. I didn’t get a chance to talk to you at the hospital and I just tried to come by your
place.” Her mother stated.

“I uh- I stayed with a friend.” Maya answered, saving the details.

“Maya, I put something in your mailbox, please read it.”

“Darly… I.” Before Maya could finish Darly cut her off

“Please, Maya. Read it.” She then hung up the phone and left Maya confused. Soon after
setting her phone down, Carina came into her room.

“Hi.” Maya greeted her and saw Carina’s eyes, there were tears.

“Carina.” Maya said, getting out of bed and walking towards her, but Carina backed up.
“What happened?” Maya asked.

“A momma and her baby passed away because of my stupid father!” Carina let the tears fall
freely, the blonde wrapped her arms around Carina’s waist and brought her closer. Carina
tried to fight it but eventually wrapped her arms around Maya’s neck and let the tears flow.

Eventually after Carina stopped crying, Maya was holding her in the bed, Carina latched onto
Maya like a Kola.

“I don’t want to be here when my father and brother come home.” Carina whispered,
sniffling.

“Let’s go to my place.” Maya offered, Carina looked at her and nodded.

“As long as you are okay with it.” Carina whispered, kissing the blonde. Maya kissed her
back and then pulled away.

“Pack a bag. You can stay as long as you want.” Maya whispered, sitting up. Carina nodded
again and got off Maya. She started to pack for a few days, deciding that if she needed
something she could stop by here. Once she was packed, Carina drove to Maya’s apartment.
It felt empty without Andy, usually after a hard day they would drink a beer and laugh about
all the crap. But instead, Maya felt alone, even though she had Carina.

“Babe, I can draw you a bath and then cook some lunch.” Maya offered, Carina agreed and
Maya did just that. Got the bath ready and left Carina to relax. The blonde went to her
mailbox and found a letter addressed to her from Charlotte. She grabbed the rest of the mail
and walked back to her apartment, she opened the letter.

Dear Mai…
I truly do hope that you are happy. We both saw the best and worst parts of each other. You
stuck by me when my brother passed away and you always had me when my family wasn’t
the most supportive. I wanted to believe that if I left you it would open your eyes to see
everything that I did. But instead, it opened my eyes. The love you gave me was by far the
best. The way you caressed my hair when I was deep in conversation, or the blanket you
covered me with at night when you knew I was cold. You listened to every word I said. You
allowed me to tell you things that I felt about you. You never left me. Maybe mentally for a
while but you always came back. But I was in the wrong. I love you Maya… you will be the
 one I love forever. I don’t see myself loving another soul. But watching you with that other
girl is heart breaking. She makes you laugh like I never did. The smile she plants on your
face after she touches you is a wish I had wished I could do for you. She’s calm. She isn’t a
storm. I’m a force to be wrecking with. I knew you checked out from the relationship about a
year ago when all I did was point out everything you weren’t doing out. I never told you I
appreciated what you did. Like leave me notes, draw me up a bath, massage my legs after a
hard day. You made me feel cherished and instead I made you feel unloved. I don’t blame
you for moving on. I’m sorry that my anger betrayed me. I wish you well, Mai. I wish you
the happiness you deserve and I hope that she can see the love you give like I never saw.

Yours truly

Charlotte.

Maya had tears rolling down her cheeks, she hadn’t realized that Carina was standing against
the wall. The blonde set down the letter and closed her eyes. Her thoughts feel jumbled. It
wasn’t fair to Carina that she felt all this, but it wasn’t fair to Charlotte that Maya gave up.
All the guilt and anger was building up. Carina slowly walked over to Maya and grabbed her
cheeks, her eyes meeting the bright blue ones. Silently talking to the blonde. Maya leaned in
and kissed Carina deeply. Her breathing increased as fast as the kiss did. Moans filled the
room and Carina had the blonde pinned to the counter.

“Carina.” Maya whispered as they both pulled away. Carina looked at Maya, nodding to her
for her to continue talking. “I am damaged goods, and I’m giving you an out…” Carina
wasn’t expecting that and she pulled back from Maya. “I- that came out wrong.” Maya
groaned at herself. “I want you to be happy and I want to be honest with you. My love I had
for Charlotte was so deep and to feel that love for someone doesn’t happen just randomly.

“Maya I’m not asking you to love me after just getting out of a relationship. I’m not even
sure I’m looking for something serious. But what I do know is I enjoy my time with you and
I want to show you what it’s like to be taken care of.” Carina looked down for a moment,
waiting for the rejection. Instead she watch feet come up in front of hers so she looked up.

“I want to love you more than I ever loved someone else because for the first time in my life I
actually feel safe with you.” Maya admitted. A small smile came to her face.

Chapter End Notes

At first, I was not going to kill of Charlotte, but I decided to let the story go in a
different direction. I love everyone's feedback. I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I will
be working on the next chapter the next couple of days! I know that we all are annoyed
with the ex's, but I do love that Maya wants to open up to Carina. I don't feel that after a
long-term relationship you just move on that fast. I want to have Maya move on, but I
want her to be more open about what she endured when she was with Charlotte because
as I said in the chapter, their relationship wasn't the healthiest. I hope you all are along
for this ride.

Thank you again. I appreciate you.

Enjoy! Oh, and Happy New Years.

#SaveStation19 #DoNotCancelStation19
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Chapter Notes

Happy New Year! (: Enjoy!

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A week had gone by, Maya was finally back at work, slammed with all the paperwork
regarding Dean’s death, and the planning of the funeral. Charlottes was tomorrow and Maya
already decided to pay her respects. All of Station 19 did, Carina offered to go with Maya to
be by her side. Deans was at the end of the week. Both were going to be heavy. The
arrangements for Dean’s funeral were made with the help of the team; the family wasn’t
involved in it a lot. Andy was also being discharged and Maya promised to pick her up. Also
giving her an excuse to see Carina. She also hasn’t seen much of her due to their schedules.
Carina’s father also went back to Italy the same night things went south with the last patient.

“Hey, it’s time.” Vic reminded Maya and she nodded. The blonde grabbed her keys and
walked towards her car. Once she got to the hospital and received a text.

Andy: Still waiting on discharge papers to sign.

Maya: Okay. I’m here. I will be in your room shortly.

Maya got onto the elevator and pushed the number five, Arizona got on the elevator with
Maya and looked at the number then she smiled at the other blonde. Maya smiled back and
then leaned against the wall of the elevator. Once the doors opened, Maya walked out and
smiled when she found Carina at the main desk.

“Hi.” Carina said with a surprised look on her face.

“Hey.” Maya smiled. “You act surprised to see me.” She chuckled a little and then looked
behind her to find Arizona talking to a nurse, “Oh, did I get in the way of a meeting?” Maya
asked.

“No, don’t be silly. I have a few minutes. I forgot you were coming to get Andy.” Carina
grabbed Maya’s hand and pulled her towards the office.

“Oh, yeah, she isn’t ready yet. Bailey still has to give her discharge paperwork.” Maya
followed the brunette into the office, closing the door behind her.

“Hmm. I’ve really been missing you.” Carina wrapped her arms around Maya and brought
her in close. Maya wrapped her arms around the small of the woman’s back and held her,
breathing in her scent.

“I’ve been missing you too. I actually wanted to ask you something, I didn’t want to do it
over text.” Maya shrugged.

“What is it, Bambina?” Carina asked, leaning back to look at the blue eyes in front of her.

“Do you want to get dinner tonight? With everything going on I’d really just like to take the
night and spend it with you.” Maya kissed her softly.

“I’d love to. When are you done tonight?” Carina asked.

“6 pm.” Maya replied, moving Carina backwards towards her desk.

Carina chuckled and kissed the blonde gently. “I don’t get off until 7 tonight but I can meet
you at your apartment?” She asked, leaning against her desk.

“Sounds good to me. We can leave from there.” Maya mumbled, kissing Carina again. The
kiss was beginning to deepen and then Maya felt her phone go off. “Ugh, Andy is done.” She
groaned lightly. Kissing Carina again before pulling herself away.

“Go. I’ll see you tonight.” Carina smiled and followed the blonde to the door before she saw
her turn around abruptly and the next thing Carina knew there were lips on hers, kissing her
with such intensity it caused chills to run up her body. They both moaned and pulled away.
“Go.” Carina whispered with a smile.

Maya went to get Andy, took her back to the apartment. Ryan was meeting them there. They
both helped Andy up to the guest room, Maya went back to work and finished what she
needed to. It was now time for her to get off and get ready for her date, she quickly got out of
the station before anyone could stop her and she drove home. She checked on Andy who was
snuggled up to Ryan sleeping. Then she took a quick shower and then tried to find something
to wear.

Carina: Just left work, I’m going to stop by my apartment and then I’ll be at your place (: I
can’t wait.

Maya checked the time, it was 7:15, she smiled and replied.
Maya: Perfect! Me either. :)

Maya grabbed a pair of jeans that hugged her curves just right and then a cream-colored short
sleeve shirt. Simple, that's what she was going for. The blonde brushed through her hair and
applied a small amount of makeup and then put on her booties and waited for Carina.

Carina got off work and drove to her apartment after she had texted Maya, luckily she took a
shower this morning so when she got into the apartment she went straight to her room and
changed into a summer dress that had purple flowers all over it and a slit that went up her
thigh, almost exposing her hip but not quite there, it was warm, but cloudy in Seattle. She put
on a pair of white flats. She pulled her hair into a loose braid and put on some makeup, then
she brushed her teeth and decided to pack an overnight back just in case. She put in some
lingerie, a pair of slacks and a red blouse as well as shoes, her shampoo and conditioner, all
of her skin care and a change of pajamas. Carina walked out of the house with her bag and
purse in hand.

Carina: I’m on my way.

The brunette laid her phone down and dabbed some perfume on herself, placed her bags in
the backseat and drove over to Maya’s. Once she arrived she got out, locked her doors and
headed to Maya’s apartment door. Carina gently knocked and was met with Maya, her
lipstick was red, her mascara made her eyes pop and she looked beautiful, her shirt hugged
her torso perfectly and the jeans she had on showed her curves, Carina smiled.

“Momma mia.” Carina whispered under her breath and then chuckled. Hi.” Carina greeted,
taking Maya’s hand. The blonde laced their fingers together and grabbed her house keys,
leaning in and kissing Carina softly.
“Hey.” Maya said, “wow you look so beautiful.” closing her door and locking the door. “So,
what sounds good?” Maya asked as they walked hand in hand down the stairs to Carina’s car.

“Mmh, pizza?” Carina asked, opening her car door for Maya. The blonde got in and shut the
door, her hand immediately finding Carina’s once she was in the car.

“Perfect.” Maya replied and laced their fingers together. Carina smiled at the small gesture
and drove to the ‘Pink Door’ for some great Italian food. They made small talk about their
day on the drive there and once they arrived, Maya quickly got out and opened Carina’s door
for her. The pair walked inside and were seated.

“I have never been here.” Maya admitted, looking at the menu.

“Oh, it’s amazing!” Carina said excitedly. “They have the best wine here and the food is
made so well. It reminds me of home.” Carina smiled and saw the waiter coming to them.

“Hello, ladies.” The waiter greeted the couple. Maya smiled and then looked at Carina. “Can
I start you off with something to drink, wine? Water? Italian sodas?” He asked.

“Can we get two glasses of white wine, glasses of water as well.” Carina ordered. Once the
waiter walked away, Carina grabbed her hand.

“How are you?” She asked, eyeing Maya.

“I’m okay.” Maya responded while she nodded, holding the woman's hand. “How are you?”

“I’m so exhausted, Arizona and I finally finished our study, and my own personal study is
now completed. I helped deliver seven babies today.” Carina sighed gently. Maya looked at
the brunette with adoration, she truly loved that Carina was a life giver. Literally just brought
babies into the world. Magic.
“That’s a lot of babies.” Maya chuckled. “All the paperwork is done for the studies?” Maya
asked. “Is Arizona free from your company?” A hint of jealousy was in her voice.

“Yes, Bambina. Arizona’s presence is no longer needed.” Carina assured her. “I usually
deliver more babies than that in a day but forty-eight-hour shifts are enough. I mainly focused
on my study and all the paperwork.” The waiter set their drinks in front of them. “Maya, are
you okay with the pizza?” She asked.

“Yeah, yeah.” Maya replied, moving her hand away from Carina’s to sip at her wine and
move her water. Carina ordered a cheese pizza with pesto sauce and a salad for the both of
them. Maya’s hand linking with Carina’s again as she ordered.

“Maya…I wasn’t asking how you were just to brush it away. I want you to feel that you can
be honest.” Carina said softly, her eyes looking into the blue pair in front of her. Maya took a
shaky breath in and gripped Carina’s hand a little tighter and she shrugged.

“I’m sad… but I have a whole team to take care of and Andy is back.” Maya was always
selfless, and it was odd for someone to truly care how she was feeling. Suddenly Carina was
moving a chair beside her.

“I know you want to be strong for your team and for Andy, but you don’t have to be strong
with me.” Carina caressed Maya’s face, watching as the wheels in her head were turning. The
blonde nodded and smiled slightly. She knew Carina would be there, but she wasn’t ready to
express all her emotions, so instead, Maya leaned in and kissed the brunette. “Hmm, I’ve
missed you.” Carina hummed, bringing Maya’s lips back to hers. The stopped the kiss
because they knew if they continued it wouldn’t stop.

Shortly after their moment the food arrived and they made small talk about Carina’s study,
Maya informed her of the funerals and all arrangements, she wanted to be sure Carina was
okay with being at the funerals. Carina agreed of course. Once they finished, Carina handed
the waiter her card before Maya could say anything. Maya tried to argue, but Carina insisted.

Once they got back to the apartment, Carina grabbed her bags, locked her car. Maya went and
checked on Andy again when she got back and Ryan updated her about her pain and the little
appetite, she has had but he reassured Maya he was going to take care of her. With that, Maya
walked to the room and found Carina changing into pajamas. Maya smiled a little and then
shut her door. She took off her clothes and put on a t-shirt and climbed into bed with the
brunette.

“I’ve never had someone care so deeply about me.” Maya blurted out. Carina looked at her
and nodded for Maya to continue. “Charlotte… she always somehow made it about her. No
matter what I was going through.” The blonde looked down. “Eventually I just stopped
talking about my feelings or what was bothering me. She would use that against me and tell
me I wasn’t communicating my feelings.” The blonde took a second before continuing. “I
remember the biggest fight we ever had… Pruitt had passed away; Andy was so sad. Of
course, it was her dad. So, I invited her to stay and that was right around the time that Char
moved in. She told me it was selfish of me to let someone else stay here when she was just
trying to make herself at home. I insisted that Andy was going to stay. So, when Andy got
here, I went to the guest room and laid with her while she cried, and we fell asleep. I-I didn’t
mean to, but the next morning Charlotte found me, and she hit my arm. She never actually hit
me hard enough, but we went to my room, and she accused me of cheating on her even
though Andy was dating Jack… then she got in my face and told me that Andy needed to go
because she was taking time away from her.” Maya was now letting her tears fall freely. “So,
to keep the peace, I told Andy to see if she could stay with Vic. She said she understood but I
think that really put a distance in our friendship and so when I didn’t exactly have anyone to
lean on and every time, I was home late she accused me of cheating or told me I was selfish.
But then there were really good days where she would hold me after a hard day and fuck…
My heart just wanted her. I spent two years just being there for her, consistently. I met her
family, and I became a family member. We were good because no one was distracting me
from her. The third year… I definitely got closer with Andy and Vic again and we went out
every now and then and I never heard the end of it when I got home, so finally I just checked
out. I told myself that if I did what she wanted that she would love me. I searched for her
love. She tells people she begged for mine, but I spent two years trying to find hers. Closer to
the time we um... Closer to the time that we broke up, I was going to the bars more, working
late at work and I did hook up with Jack while I was with her, a few times.” Maya looked
away from Carina, her cheeks were red, stained with tears. “I’m not that person. I don’t cheat.
But ugh. He understood all my emotions, he understood how my head worked and for the
first time I didn’t feel alone. I never told anyone that Jack and I were hooking up. I don’t
even know if Charlotte knew. I’m not proud of it… but it happened, and I went for captain,
and she was by my side. I was safer, I was going to be coming home to her and that’s when
she really started to love me. She was going out with me; she would care for my body in the
ways I craved her to. Then again, a flip switched, and she left and said it was my fault.” Maya
felt Carina come closer to her. There was silence between them, Maya could feel her body
relax. “I truly loved her, and I did what I could to earn her love. It wasn’t enough, I wasn’t
enough. Sex was just sex, there were no cuddles, she never held me. We played the happy
couple because I couldn't admit that what was happening wasn’t okay.” Maya turned her
body to face Carina. “You are safer than her… when you touch me, my body is on fire. I want
to just watch you every time you move. I want to worship you and fuck you. I want it all,
Carina.” Maya admitted. Carina leaned in and kissed Maya deeply. Her tongue ran across the
blonde’s lips asking for access. Maya granted it and pulled Carina closer to her body.

“I understand how you feel and what you went through. I am not sure I can say anything to
justify her, but what I can say is that you deserve the love. To allow someone to love you and
show you that you are worth it. You shouldn’t have to earn your love, Maya. The person that
you are dating should be falling in love with you. And as far as your friendship with Andy,
maybe something happened in her past relationships that her trust with friendships and
someone she was dating was broken. Insecurities can get really ugly.” Carina kissed her
again. “Arizona sometimes compared me to her ex-wife. Even though the most our
relationship consisted of was sex.” Carina shrugged. “I was falling for her, and she was not.
Then her daughter came back, and she was skipping school and acting out. Arizona coddled
her and I stayed out of it until she asked for my opinion, and I told her to not coddle her.
Parents separate, yes, it is hard on the child, but Momma coddled Andrea and now he thinks
he is owed this protection, do not get me wrong I love him. But he was coddled. He thinks
the world owes him something. Maybe it is about who was raised and how they were raised.
My Papa showed me the ugly side of the world very early. I had to do things to make him
proud to earn his love. I’m not saying that Sophia should do that with Arizona, but she should
have some means of punishment for acting out.” Carina was rambling. She never told anyone
the honest truth as to why her and Arizona ended things. “Then she moved to New York last
week and to find out that she is back with her ex from everyone at the hospital was a little
disheartening.” Carina looked down and moved closer to Maya’s body, so their entire bodies
were touching. “Then one night at a bar I saw you and that smile.” Carina smiled at the
memory. “I just wanted to see that smile every day.” Maya chuckled and looked at Carina.
“Arizona somewhat made me feel that I had to earn her love or earn sex. I pleasured her and
while I was getting the favor returned it eventually felt like a chore.” Carina sighed. “With
you… pleasuring you makes my whole body feel on fire and I’ve never felt that with anyone.
Just hearing you whimper makes my skin hot. The way you give me pleasure makes me
never want to stop. The connection that we have is so genuine and real.” The blonde was
staring at Carina. The blonde went to push Carina to lay on her back but instead, Carina
pushed Maya to lay on her back.

“Let me.” Carina whispered and laid Maya down, she took off the blonde’s shirt, her lips
kissing along Maya’s neck. The woman turned her head to the side to give Carina more
access. The brunette moved her lips along her chest, sucking and kissing. Maya was
squirming and Carina wasn’t even pleasuring her yet. Her tongue darted out over Maya’s
semi-hard nipple, watching it get harder against her tongue. Maya let out a moan and bit her
lip, her eyes closing. Carina continued to pleasure both nipples, biting and sucking on the
swollen buds one by one. The blonde’s hands were laced into Carina’s hair, pulling slightly
then massaging her scalp. Carina then sucked along the blonde’s rib cage, leaving small
marks, then moving down her hips.

“Please.” Maya whispered, feeling Carina’s lips on her body was making her body overheat,
it was something she hadn't felt before.

“Patients, love.” Carina replied and slid Maya’s panties down then she undressed herself
before getting between Maya’s legs, laying down and coming face to face with Maya’s very
wet and swollen cunt. The Italian brought her finger to her clit, circling it and then moving
her finger down the lips of her mound and pushed a finger in then pulling it out and repeating
that motion a few times before completely pulling out. Maya was already a moaning mess
and only getting more wet.

“Fuck me, please.” She begged again. Her hips moving trying to find any kind of friction.
Carina chuckled and slowly slid her tongue against her center, moaning at the taste. “Hmm,
Carina.” Maya whimpered, feeling her tongue sliding inside of her and moving it in circles
before pulling it out and licking at her clit. Her tongue flicking fast and then slowing down
and her lips wrapping around the nub and sucking, just enough to get Maya moaning before
pulling away. The blonde was so wet she could feel the wetness dripping down her thighs and
onto the sheets. Carina kissed her way up Maya’s body and let her breasts press against
Maya’s.

“I want you to feel, just take a deep breath.” Carina whispered, kissing the blonde and then
moving to her ear. “Don’t rush it.” Carina bit down on her ear lobe and then slid two fingers
inside of the blonde. Moving in and out at a slow pace. Maya was breathing heavier and her
back was slightly arched. Carina smiled and put her lips right next to Maya’s ear again.
“You're so wet Maya.” She pushed her fingers in a little bit faster, her palm hitting the
woman’s clit slightly as her fingers went in. “You feel so good around my fingers, so needy.”
The blonde was now a whimpering mess, her legs opening more. “I can feel you clenching
against them.” Carina pushed her fingers in faster, arching her wrist slightly and hitting the
spot that made Maya gasp and let out a louder whimper.

“Fuck! Yes.” Maya moaned, her back was trying to arch more but with Carina laying almost
completely on her she couldn’t. “Don’t stop, don’t stop.” Maya begged. The brunette added a
third finger and was now moving faster and harder, wetness was covering her hand and the
only sounds in the room were Maya’s moans and the wet sounds of Carina’s hand slapping
against her cunt as she thrusted into her.

“Maya, you are making me so horny right now.” Carina licked at her ear lobe and then kissed
down her neck. Her own hips were moving against the bed, not enough friction to make her
cum but enough to keep the pressure off.

“God! You are driving me crazy.” Maya whispered, her panting was a sign she was close.
“Mmmh, clench against my fingers like a good girl.” Carina mumbled, sucking at Maya’s
neck. Maya clenched at the words. Carina placed her thumb over her clit and circled it
quickly as her fingers moved fast. She lightly sat up, watching as Maya was falling over the
edge, mumbling that she was about to cum. She was tighter than before making it hard for
Carina to move, so Carina add a little bit more pressure to the womans clit
“Let go.” Carina demanded, moving her fingers in a come here motion inside of Maya and
that was the last thing Maya could feel, her whole body went limp and she arched her back
feeling the white heat escape her. Carina’s name was whimpered over and over again. Carina
fingered her through her orgasm and then slowly pulled her fingers out before licking them
clean. Maya watched her with one eye open as she tried to catch her breath. Carina was on
her knees in between Maya and she moved her own hand down to her center and circled at
her own clit.

Maya sat up and gripped Carina by her butt then smacked it and then kissed the Italians lips.
“Dio, Maya. I need you.” Carina whispered, her hair now falling to one side, Maya slapped
her butt cheeks again and laid back.

“Ride me.” Maya whispered. Carina bit her lip and then opened her own vulva , pulling it
back, Maya did the same and Carina positioned herself over Maya’s center, her one leg on the
outside of Maya’s and the other pushing Maya’s leg open. The brunette pushed her hips down
and felt her clit touch Maya’s and they both let out a gasp. “Fuck that feels so good.” Maya
mumbled, laying back and watching Carina close her eyes. Maya smirked and slapped the
woman’s ass again causing Carina’s hips to jolt and they both moaned, Carina started to
move back and forth, their cunts pushing against one another. “Yes.” Carina whimpered and
lifted Maya’s leg up, holding it over her shoulder and using it as grip to move. “Let me know
if you start cramping.” Carina said, moving faster now that both of them were getting wetter.
Maya watched Carina’s breast bounce as she moved back and forth, the feeling of Carina’s
wet mound over hers was doing wonders.

“Faster.” Maya whispered, moaning. Carina moved her hips out slightly, her ass sticking out
and she moved at a different angle, her clit hitting Maya’s at just the right spot. Maya then
again slapped her ass cheek one and then the other, over and over again.

“Yes! Spank me Capitana.” Carina moaned, her back was now arched and the whimpers were
leaving her mouth like words. Maya let out an almost growl as Carina picked up the pace and
she gripped her ass with one hand. “You feel so good, Bambina.” Carina looked down at
Maya and saw that she was looking at her. Maya smiled and bit down on her own lip.

“Oooooo I’m so close.” Carina whined. Maya was too, but she wanted to feel Carina cum
over her. She smacked her butt cheeks again and Carina bit down on Maya’s calf and let out a
strangled scream as she was pushed over the edge, her abdomen tightening and her speed
increasing as she rode out her own orgasm, white heat dripping onto Maya’s center. The
blonde was soon letting go shortly after Carian, her hands scratching at the Italians waist.
Carina slowed down and rubbed herself against Maya a few more times before gently getting
off the blonde and lying beside her.

“That was hot.” Maya chuckled, staring at the ceiling, Carina’s body clung onto Maya.

“Indeed. It was. I don't think I have had an orgasm that intense in that position.” Carina
smirked and looked at Maya. The blonde looked over at her and smiled. “I think you have
one more in you.” The brunette slid her hands down Maya’s torso and over her cut.

“Ssshi..” Maya arched her back. “I’m so sensitive.” The blonde groaned. Carina slid one
finger into the woman and pushed in and out at a gentle pace. They both knew Maya wasn’t
going to last long at all due to how sensitive she was and the way her cunt clenched against
Carina’s fingers. Tonight was about pleasuring Maya and making her feel taken care of. It
wasn’t about returning favors or seeing who could have the most orgasms. Carina truly was
starting to feel love for Maya and everyday it got more intense.

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The next morning, Maya woke up before Carina, her arm was wrapped around her torso, her
front pressed against the brunette’s back. Slowly, Maya slid out of bed and got dressed. The
day was already heavy on her heart. As much as Charlotte had hurt her she missed the good
times that they had together. It was such a bittersweet time. Maya grabbed water from the
fridge and then walked back to the room, she checked the time and decided it was time to get
ready.
“Baby, wake up.” Maya whispered, kissing along the woman’s jaw. Carina groaned a little
and smiled. It was too early and she needed coffee. Maya pulled Carina to lay down on her
back. Carina could feel Maya get between her legs. To Maya’s surprise, Carina was already
wet. “Dreaming about me?” Maya asked with a chuckle.

“Hmm, always.” Carina replied and let out a moan as Maya flicked her tongue at a fast pace
against Carina’s clit. “Mio Dio!” Carina whimpered, Maya’s tongue was moving fast enough
that Carina could feel how wet she was as she felt it drip onto the bed below her. Maya could
feel the burn in her jaw but all she wanted to do was get lost in Carina. Her fingers moved to
the opening of her center, she pushed two fingers inside and began pumping them just as fast
as her tongue was moving. “Uh..” Carina whimpered again, her back arching and her hand
gripping onto the night stand. “Yes.. yes.” Carina was not one to be vocal but the way Maya
was working her up it felt so good. “Ci si sente cosi bene.” The brunette was moaning words
in Italian and Maya knew she was doing something right. “Sto per venire.” Carina gasped.
“I’m cumming, Maya Dio!” Maya could feel how Carina clenched and she sucked on the
brunette’s clit. “Maaaaya.” Carina screamed out her back was fully arched off the bed, her
legs closed Maya’s face in and her hand was pushing the blonde into her center more as she
released her white heat, moans leaving her mouth as she came down. Maya slowly pulled her
fingers out and came up to Cariana, kissing her.

“Shower time.” Maya whispered. Carina laughed and kissed Maya back.

“I don’t know if my legs work.” Carina whispered back. Maya smiled and helped Carina sit
up and then she lifted her up, placing her hands just under Carina’s bum, the brunette
wrapped her legs around Maya’s waist, laughing as they walked to the bathroom. Maya
placed Carina on the counter, kissing her before pulling away and turning on the water and
getting undressed. They both showered and Carina washed Maya’s hair, kissing her cheek,
then her lips, down her chest and then back to her lips. She treasured Maya.

Once Carina was dressed, Maya was in her formal uniform. They both finished getting ready
and then walked out of the room. Andy was dressed as well in her formal uniform, trying to
stand up straight, Ryan was dressed in his formals too. They all gathered into Maya’s car and
drove to the town where the funeral would be held. It was at the church, then they would
have their town mourn the loss with them with a celebration of the life we lost. As they got
out of the car Andy and Ryan walked over to the team, Maya got out and found Carina
already standing at the back door waiting. The blonde took a shaky breath in and Carina went
closer and grabbed her cheeks. “Hey. You can do this.” Carina kissed the blonde deeply,
Maya kissed her back and nodded. They laced their fingers together but Maya pulled Carina
back. “Don’t let go of my hand.” Maya said, Carina nodded and they walked to the team.

“Hey Mia...” Jack hugged her tightly.

“Hi.” Maya wrapped her free arm around him, hugging him back. Her hand tightly held onto
Carina’s.
“Okay, let’s do this.” Maya said. “Nineteen.” She said sternly.

“Nineteen!” They all shouted back and walked towards the church together. Maya walked
behind her team.

“Carina.” She stopped them, Andy looked back and Maya nodded.

“What’s wrong?” Carina asked, standing in front of Maya, worried that maybe this wasn’t a
good idea for Maya to be here.

“Are you sure you are okay being here?” Maya asked, her eyes meeting Carina’s.

“If I wasn’t sure I wouldn’t have offered.” Carina said softly, pecking the blonde’s lips and
squeezing her hand. “Come on.” Carina started to drag her towards the church, Maya
followed beside her. Once they were inside the church was full. Family, friends and fellow
firefighters. Maya led Carina to where her team was and there was space for both of them,
Maya sat down next to Andy, Carina then sat beside Maya her hand still intertwined with
Maya’s. Andy then grabbed onto Maya’s other hand and as Maya looked down, Andy
squeezed. They both don’t do well with funerals. Maya squeezed Andy’s hand in return and
left it there.

“We are all gathered here to celebrate the life of a brave, strong, intelligent woman. Charlotte
Dearborn.” The young and started. “A life that was tragically lost as she was saving lives.
That’s what she did for a living. She fought fires. I watched her grow up, she got into the fire
academy young. She was ambitious and a force of nature.” He looked down for a second and
then back up. “Her bright smile could melt anyone.” He chuckled. “The love that people had
for her is felt in this room today. And the people she saved are surrounding her in this time.”
He sniffled. “I’m not going to stand up here and tell you about all the cool fires she fought,
instead I want you to just listen to how this woman changed my life.” He took a minute,
wiping his eyes. “I met Charlotte in high school, she was a hard-ass, full of power and
confidence. Behind that demeanor she was caring and kind. She would go to the end of the
earth for anyone.” He shrugged. “Even strangers.” He laughed. He continued to talk about
Charlotte and although Maya’s feelings felt confusing she knew that deep down Charlotte
wasn’t a bad person. They were just bad for each other. The tears were forming in her eyes
and she could feel Carina curling into her more without making it noticeable. Maya wanted to
push her off, but she knew she asked Carina to be here. It was an inner battle she was fighting
with herself. Once the speech was finished, Sullivan got up and walked towards the bell. “We
will now ring the bell three times as the end of a service.” Sullivan stood tall and rang the
bell, it echoed. Maya squeezed Andy’s hand, her tears were falling, Carina watched, the death
grip Maya had on her hand was a sign to just keep still. The second bell echoed, Andy had
her head down. Then the third. The crowd sat there as the last ring came to an end.

The town came together as Charlotte's team walked down the road, the casket was sitting on
top of the fire truck. They marched through the town. Maya was standing in the grass area,
watching the truck. Carina was standing behind her slightly, their hand was still linked. Once
the service was over the team walked back to their cars. “How about some beers?” Jack asked
and they all agreed, Maya wanted to change. “I’ll be there shortly.” Maya replied, Andy
nodded in agreement and got in the car with Maya, Carina and Ryan. Maya drove back to the
apartment and made her way to her room, she had walked into the bathroom as Cariana shut
the bedroom door. Maya now let her emotions spill over as she got undressed. Carina walked
over to her and grabbed the uniform as she stripped out of it and hung it up. Once Maya was
left in her bra and underwear Carina walked into the bathroom and wrapped her arms around
the blonde. Maya stayed like that for what felt like hours, crying into Carina’s chest. It was
only twenty minutes and once she released her emotions her eyes met Carina’s.

“I’m sorry.” Maya whispered.

“Don’t apologize.” Carina caressed her cheek. “Come on, we told the team we would be
there.” Carina whispered and helped Maya put on her shirt. Then fixed her hair as Maya
finished getting dressed. They drove to Jo’s bar and found the entire team surrounded at a
table, Maya joined, pulling a seat close to her for Carina.

“So are you two a thing?” Jack whispered. Maya nodded and then took a sip of a beer that
Andy put in front of her.
“I’ll be back, I am going to order.” Carina whispered and got off the stool and walked over to
the bar. She ordered a white wine.

“I can’t believe Maya had the audacity to bring another woman to that funeral. She isn’t even
a firefighter.” A girl said, sitting behind where Carina was standing.

“I know… that is the girl that Charlotte said Maya was with in the bathroom the night that
they broke up.” She scuffed. Carina’s wine was placed in front of her and she left cash, still
standing there.

“Maya cheated on her, Charlotte knew. She just couldn’t figure out who.”

“Maya is a bitch, she just left Charlotte alone and avoided her.” Carina turned and caught the
girls attention and they both gasped and then looked around. She walked back over to Maya
and sat down. Deciding to talk about what she heard later, or maybe not at all.

The team finished a few more beers, Maya was slightly drunk and Carina knew that was their
cue to go home. It was only four in the evening. They said their goodbyes and Carina drove
back to the apartment. Maya walked upstairs with Carina and then walked into the room,
Carina followed, changing into her pajamas. Maya began to get handsy and Carina shrugged
her hands off.

“Let’s go watch something.” Carina suggested and Maya agreed. They watched a few shows
together, Maya passed out on Carina’s chest after another episode of tears.
Soon, Maya woke up and looked around for a second, she was still against Carina. The
apartment was lit with a lamp that was beside the couch, the tv was off. Carina was reading a
book on her phone. She hadn’t noticed Maya had woken up yet.

“Reading anything good?” Maya asked, her raspy voice came out, Cariana found that
extremely sexy.

“No, just some case studies. Did you sleep well?” Carina asked, playing with Maya’s blonde
hair.

“Yeah, I did.” Maya kissed the blonde's exposed skin on her chest. Carina hummed and
looked down at Maya after she set her phone down on the side table beside them.

“Carina.” Maya mumbled her eyes, never leaving the two brown ones. She sat up slightly and
took a deep breath in before releasing it. “Will you be my girlfriend?” Maya asked, biting the
inside of her cheek, awaiting an answer.

Carina stared at her for a moment, her eyes went wide. She wanted to. But was it too soon?
She couldn’t stand to hurt Maya. But was she really ready to be in a relationship? Carina said
she wasn’t looking for anything serious but God. She was falling in love with Maya the more
they spent time together. Carina took a deep breath in and before she could reply Maya
 nodded. “It was stupid of me to ask.” She got off Carina and walked into her bedroom and
then to the bathroom, shutting the door behind her and locking it. Carina tried to open her
mouth, but no words came out. She wanted so badly to just be Maya’s officially, but she
didn’t want to rush into this. Sighing, Carina got off the couch and walked to the room. She
looked over at the bathroom door and sat on the edge of the bed, waiting for Maya to come
out. Hoping she would eventually come out. Carina never wanted Maya to feel rejected, she
just was taken by surprise.

After thirty minutes, Carina needed to know Maya was okay, so she knocked on the door.

“Maya.” She said, no answer. “Maya please open the door, let’s talk about this.” Carina
leaned her ear into the door, and she could hear sniffling. Carina felt her chest ache. She hurt
Maya…

Chapter End Notes

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 Bad Habits
Chapter Notes

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Time had passed by, Carina was sitting on the ground in front of the bathroom. Maya finally
came out of the bathroom after two hours of sitting on the floor. Was she crying because she
felt rejected? Or was it because all these emotions were too heavy to feel? She heard Carina
outside the door earlier and she felt too embarrassed to face her. She looked down and she
found Carina laying on the floor of the bedroom, asleep. But Maya accidentally hit the door
with her arm and Carina shot up. “I’m awake.” Carina said, looking up to find Maya standing
there. “Maya.” She stood up and came face to face with the blonde.

“I thought you left.” Maya said in a distant tone.

“N-no I was waiting.” Carina answered, she could feel Maya’s emotions like it covered the
entire room. “I just wanted to be sure you were okay.” The brunette came closer to Maya, but
to her surprise Maya stepped back.

“I think you should go.” Maya snapped.

“What? Maya, you didn’t even give me a chance to say anything.” Carina arguing, confusion
covered her face.

“Well, you not responding said enough. So, leave.” Maya said.

“Maya. I’m here, I’m not going anywhere.” Carina pushed, probably not the best idea but she
wasn’t going to just leave Maya alone.

“Fine. I’ll leave.” Maya grabbed her shoes and put them on, walking away as Carina called
her name. Carina sighed and looked at the door as it slammed closed.

“She does this.” Andy said from her doorway. “When she feels embarrassed or to upset, she
runs away.” The Latina nodded and smiled slightly at Carina. “Let her run. She will come
back.” Andy reassured Carina and the brunette nodded and sighed. “One thing to know about
Maya is her heart is so big and she has this very cold demeanor and badass label, but she will
give you the world. Charlotte took that away from her. I have my own opinions on her, and I
went to that funeral for Maya. Not for her. I don’t know what all she has told you but don’t
take her coldness as an insult.” Andy shut the door once she was done talking. Carina took
the words she said and processed what had just happened. Carina looked back into Maya’s
bedroom and then sighed.

Maya slammed the door, her anger towards herself was getting the best of her, so she started
running. A sense of punishment for being selfish. How could she only think of herself? Why
didn’t she ask Carina what she wanted? She assumed Carina wanted this as much as she did.
Maybe the truth of what happened between her, and Charlotte was too much too soon. Maya
ran harder the more she thought about how she hurt Carina.

Maya ran for two hours then she finally returned to her apartment. Carina’s car was still in
the parking lot. So, the blonde walked up to the door and opened it. She found Andy, Ryan
and Carina watching a movie. Carina had her hair tied up in a loose bun and gosh she looked
so beautiful. Andy looked like Maya walked in the door and she shook her head at the blonde
then eyed the brunette. Maya nodded and walked over to the couch where Carina was sitting.

Carina could feel Maya behind her, she knew it was her who had walked in through the door.
She couldn’t make herself turn because she wasn’t sure what was going through Maya’s
mind. “Carina, can we talk?” Maya asked. Carina’s Italian temper was at the tip of her
tongue, she hated when someone walked away when she was trying to talk, but being gentle
with Maya is what she needed to be so she turned to look at the blonde, her cheeks were red,
and her eyes had tears forming. They were already red; her hands were red too. The brunette
got off the couch and walked with Maya to her room. Once the door was shut, Maya turned
to look at Carina who was hesitant standing next to the door.

“What did you want to talk about?” Carina asked.

“I’m sorry.” Maya stated. “I-”

“You run to clear your head. I get it.” Carina barked. “You just pushed my words away and
didn’t even give me a chance to answer you. Yeah, it came out of a shock, and I thought
maybe you weren’t thinking clearly.” Carina shrugged. “I wasn’t ready for the question but to
not even give me a second to answer. And then lock yourself in the bathroom.” Carina shook
her head. “I want to be here for you, Maya and I don’t know what else I have to do to prove
it.” Carina’s hands were moving, it’s something she did when she was upset, excited, angry.
Maya found it adorable. Now she was smiling. “Maya, stop smiling. We are having a serious
conversation.” Carina leaned against the door. Maya walked to her and kissed her, Carina
kissed her back and then pulled away. “No, we are talking.” Carina shook her head and
pointed her finger at Maya who was still smiling.

“You stayed.” Was all Maya said. Carina looked at her and nodded.

“I stayed.” She repeated what Maya said. “I want to try this relationship thing with you,
Maya. I want to be your girlfriend eventually. I just want you to be sure. I don’t want you to
wake up one day and just decided that you no longer want me because I got you through the
hard times.” Carina looked down and felt Maya come impossibly closer to her. “I know that
things are crazy and so scary right now. Your mind is a mess, but I’m not going anywhere.
Let’s just take things slow and day by day. I’m not interested in anyone else.”

“So, is that a, no?” Maya simply asked.

“It’s not a no and it’s not a yes, it’s just an eventually we will get there. We are only seeing
each other and when things die down and we actually start to have normal stuff happening
then we can talk about becoming more serious. Maya. Your ex-girlfriend of four years just
died, and you broke up a week and half ago. You don’t just move on from that like this.
Believe me. I am just as interested in you as you are me.” Maya nodded at her words and
grabbed the brunette’s hands.

“Come take a shower with me?” Maya asked, taking off her own clothes. Carina smiled and
followed Maya’s lead, taking off her clothes.

“So, you are okay with this answer?” Carina asked.

“For now, yes I see where you are coming from, and I want to show you that I am in.” Maya
responded and turned on the water after all of their clothes were removed, Carina shut the
bathroom door and leaned against the counter watching Maya check the temperature of the
water. Maya turned around and walked over to her lover. Carina took her hair down and
leaned in, kissing Maya. The blonde moaned into the kiss and pushed Carina against the
counter further. She grabbed onto the Italians nipples with both of her hands and pulled at the
nubs, squeezed and then released them only to repeat the action over and over again.

“Maya.” Carina whined. Maya chuckled and kissed along the blonde’s neck, her tongue
rolling along the soft skin. “Please.” Carina whimpered, her head hanging back as Maya
began to gently nibble on her skin. The bathroom was steaming, and Carina lifted herself
onto the counter pulling Maya between her legs. Maya moved down to her girlfriend's breast
and sucked on her nipples one by one, her fingers playing with the one that didn’t have her
mouth over it.

“Bambina.” Carina growled. Maya smirked and kissed along Carina’s rib cage, leaving marks
along her torso. The brunette felt insanely wet and hot. All she needed was a release and
Maya was being slow. “You take too long.” Carina pulled Maya’s wrist. “Touch me.” Carina
demanded her eyes grow darker.” Maya put her hand over Carina’s cut like she wanted but
just kept it there. Growing impatient Carina moved her hips so that her center would rub
against Maya’s hand, it was a need. She needed Maya to fuck her.

“You want me?” Maya asked, kissing the woman on her lips. “You want my fingers deep
inside of you?” She felt Carina’s cunt rubbing against her hand and she bit her own lip as she
watched the action. “So needy.” Maya whispered, pushing her hand harder against Carina.

“Maya, I want you.” Carina begged.

“What do you want me to do?” Maya asked, moving her hand at the opposite direction of
Carina’s hand to create friction for the woman.
“Dio, I don’t care! Just fuck me.” Carina arched her back at the feeling. “Oh yes.” The
woman moaned at the friction. Maya pulled her hand away and Carina gasped.

“Stay.” Maya said sternly and walked out of the bathroom; Carina could hear her shuffling
through things. Once she returned, Maya shut the door again and held up a bullet vibrator.
“It’s waterproof, I ordered it a few weeks ago, it’s never been used. I washed it.” Maya
looked at Carina and she could have sworn that her eyes only grew darker. “Get in the
shower.” Maya stood back and watched Carina getting off the counter, so she walked inside
of the shower and turned to find Maya pushing her against the wall. “Tell me again how
much you need me.” Maya whispered against the Italians' ear.

“I’m so wet for you, Maya please. I need you so bad.” Carina begged, hooking one leg
against the blonde’s hip and wrapping it around so her foot rested just below the woman's ass.
Maya let out an animalistic moan and she turned the vibrator on a low setting, her lips
attached to the Italians neck, and she placed the vibrator against her clit. “Oh fuck.” Carina
moaned, once of hands moving to Maya’s head, pulling at her hair. Maya was sucking on her
neck, biting and nibbling on the skin. The vibrator was moving in circles against the woman’s
clit, slow circles and it was driving Carina mad, she groaned and dug her nails into Maya’s
scalp. “Please.” Carina groaned.

“Please what?” Maya pulled her lips away from Carina and looked into the pair of brown
eyes, pushing the button to increase the speed. This time it was increased two speeds and
Carina let out a moan and moved her hips to find friction. “Hmm, so greedy.” Maya smirked.

“Maya!” Carina whimpered loudly, her nipples were hard, as a rock, almost painful,
everything was too hot, but it felt so good. She felt the vibrator move faster against her clit.
“Yes, yes, yes. Dio Mio.” Carina chanted over and over again. Maya loved how vocal Carina
was, it added to the mood. Soon Carina felt Maya’s lips against one of her nipples and she
gasped. Moans filled the bathroom, Maya held the vibrator in place and got as close as she
could to Carina and felt the vibration of her own cunt and let out a moan, she was throbbing
and in need of Carina. To feel her everywhere. The way Maya pushed her hips against
Carina’s it only added more pleasure. Carina grabbed at Maya’s nipples pulling at them,
causing Maya to move her hips in a back-and-forth motion, the vibrator moving in just a
perfect angle, she turned up the speed to the max and Carina could have sworn she would fall
if Maya’s free hand wasn’t holding her up.

“Yes! Maya I’m gonna come.” Carina whimpered, the pace of Maya’s hips increased and the
vibration in one spot sent Carina over the edge, and she let her release flow through her,
down the vibrator and down her legs as well as Maya’s. Shortly after she felt Maya’s thighs
tremble and she let out a groan, her head buried in the crock of Carina’s neck. Carina was
panting and she grabbed Maya’s hand to pull the vibrator away, she was extra sensitive. Both
women stood there, catching their breath. Carina turned off the vibrator and opened the
shower door and set it on the counter before coming back to Maya who was standing under
the water. Carina smiled and leaned against the wall, watching the blonde.

“What?” Maya laughed and suddenly felt self-conscious, but Carina took that thought away
when she came to the blonde under the water and kissed her.
“Just a curious question for you.” Carina whispered, grabbing the shampoo and putting some
in her hand then bringing it to Maya’s scalp and massaging it in.

“What is it?” Maya asked, closing her eyes.

“Does Andy live here? Or just she just stays whenever?” Carina asked. Maya opened her
eyes and looked at Carina. “I’m asking because I want to fuck you, Maya and I don’t want to
be cautious of how much noise we are making.” Carina finished and then let her rinse the
shampoo out while she did her own head.

“She stays here, I’ve made it welcoming for her.” Maya answered, wiping her eyes. “But I
could tell her to go stay at Ryans.” Maya suggested.

“I don’t want it to feel like I’m kicking her out of here.” Carina got under the water and Maya
put conditioner in her own hair.

“I won’t do it tonight but sometime this week, okay?’ Maya watched Carina and bit her lip.

“Okay Bambina.” Carina responded and switched places with Maya.

Carina rinsed out the conditioner and washed her body with Maya. Once their shower was
completed, they got out and wrapped themselves in towels. Maya got dressed and turned to
find Carina leaning against the door frame of the closet.

“What?” Maya smirked.

“I want you to touch me again.” Carina admitted, blushing. Maya walked towards the blonde
and slid her hand up the brunette’s leg.

“I want to fuck you against this door, but you have to be quiet.” Maya whispered against the
woman’s lips. Carina eagerly nodded and bit her lip at the thought. Maya turned around and
grabbed a strapless strap and Carina gasped. “Can we?” Maya asked.

“Yes.” Carina almost moaned and Maya but on the strap then grabbed some lube and poured
it into her hand, she stroked the makeshift cock with one hand and as she did that her fingers
found Carina’s cunt. “I’m already so wet, Bambina.” Carina whispered, feeling Maya’s
fingers slid in and out of her at a face pace. “Fuck.” Carina whispered, Maya watched the
brunette and continued to finger her before pulling her fingers away and pushed Carina fully
against the door. She hooked a leg around her waist and rubbed the tip of the strap against
Carina’s very wet cunt.

“Do you trust me?” Maya asked, looking at Carina.

“Of course.” Carina whispered. Maya pinned Carina’s hands above her head and pushed the
cock inside of her pussy in one motion till she to the hilt. Carina threw her head back with her
mouth open, her breath stuck somewhere in her chest. Maya watched her intentionally and
kept her hands up, she started to push the cock in and out of Carina’s cunt at a slow pace,
allowing Carina to get used to it. “Fuck I feel so full.” Carina whispered, lacing her fingers
with Maya’s, her chest arching out.

“Yeah? You feel so tight babygirl I can barely move.” Maya moaned into Carina’s ear,
thrusting a little bit faster once Carina angled her leg that was wrapped around Maya’s waist.
It caused Maya to go in a little deeper which neither of them thought was possible. “You like
my cock buried inside of your pussy?” Maya asked, pulling the makeshift dick almost all the
way out leaving only the tip then pushing in harder.

“Yes. Fuck. Maya, yes.” Carina moaned quietly. Maya quickened the pace, her hands letting
go of Carina’s and she slid on to grab the woman's ass and the other to pull at her nipples.
Carina kept her hands above her head, surrendering to Maya. Carina let out a moan that was
louder and Maya leaned forward and kissed her neck. Screw being quiet, she just wanted to
pleasure this woman. “Dio Maya… faster.” Carina whispered breathlessly. Maya picked up
the pace, her hips slamming against Carina’s and the door was thumbing against nothing.

“You feel so fucking amazing.” Maya groaned, her fingers squeezing each nipple one and a
time and pulling. Her hips were a frantic pace, she knew Carina was closed based off the way
she was whimpering. “Are you going to come all over my dick baby?” Maya whispered,
kissing the Italians neck again.

“Yes! Bambino. Dio. “Carina moaned, she moved her hips to meet Maya, same pace. The
pair no longer cared how loud it was getting. “I’m so close.” Carina moaned, she was so wet,
and the makeshift cock was sliding in at such a perfect pace. “Fuck!” Carina groaned and
Maya slammed her hips against Carina’s a few more times before feeling the woman tremble.
Her orgasm came crashing down and Maya didn’t stop. She fucked Carina through her
orgasm. Once Maya knew she was finished she slowly pulled out, breathing heavy. Carina
groaned and switched places with Maya, taking the dick off of her. She got onto her knees
and instantly Maya’s hands went to Carina’s head. Her tongue immediately started to lick the
blonde in front of her.

“Ah!” Maya moaned, pushing Carina’s head further against her cunt. Carina was swirling her
tongue in circles over Maya’s clit. She was so wet, and her release was closer than she
wanted it to be. Maya lifted her leg over Carina’s shoulder giving the brunette a better angle.
“Carina. Fuck your tongue feels amazing.” Maya whimpered. Carina moaned against Maya
and placed both hands on the woman’s ass, griping it. “Fuck. Eat me like the good girl you
are.” Maya looked down at Carina and pulled her hair into a makeshift pony.

Carina sucked on the woman’s clit; she was so wet that it covered her face. Carina has
learned that Maya is all about the dirty talk and it turned Carina on more than she realized.
Maya was trembling and Carina stopped sucking on her clit and slid her tongue inside of the
blonde’s cunt, moving it in and out. “Ah ah.” Maya gasped, pulling Carina’s hair harder.
“Yes! Babygirl, you fuck me so good.” Maya started to grind her cunt on Carina’s face,
which is exactly what Carina was aiming for. “I’m so close.” Maya groaned, moving her hips
at a quicker pace. Carina stuck her tongue out and flattened it, allowing Maya the control.
Each move, Carina licked her clit and as Maya sped up, Carina gripped her ass cheeks again
and sucked her clit, throwing Maya over the edge, she slightly bent over and let her orgasm
take her over.
 “Oh yes! Carina!” She moaned, borderline a scream. Carina let go of her clit after Maya’s
legs trembled uncontrollably. She licked Maya up and then stood up. Maya grabbed her face
and kissed her deeply, moaning at the taste. Carina kissed her back and pulled at the blonde’s
hair.

“I like when you scream my name.” Carina whispered, pulling away from the blonde who
was still trying to catch her breath. Maya was red and she let out a little laugh. Both finished
getting dressed and walked out of the room, hand in hand. Andy looked over at the pair and
shook her head. The TV was blaring loud. Carina blushed and hid her face in Maya’s
shoulder.

“From the sound of both of you… It sounds like you’ve made up.” Andy teased. It was
Maya’s turn to blush. “We thought about ordering take out and from all the action going on I
think you would have worked up an appetite.” Andy threw a menu at Maya. “You know what
we get, call it in?” Andy asked.
“Will do.” Maya turned on the light in the kitchen and handed the menu to Carina.

They ordered take out and Maya decided she would grab it, Carina tagged along. Once they
were back, they all sat in the living room and decided on another movie. They agreed on one
more because Maya and Andy both had to work the next day.

Chapter End Notes

What are your thoughts? Should they be in a relationship? Or did Carina have a good
point? I hope you enjoyed this chapter. The next one will be posted on Thursday!
 God Is A Woman
Chapter Notes

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It was now the day of Dean’s funeral. The team had just got done with a 48-hour shift,
showering and changing. Carina promised to meet Maya at the station so she could ride with
everyone to the funeral. The team was really adapting to Carina’s presence, and it made
Maya’s heart happy. Things felt semi-okay for the past three days. Maya stayed at Carina’s
place, and it's been two days since they have actually seen each other for more than five
minutes. Once everyone was dressed in their uniforms, they all gathered in the beanery.
Heavy hearts filled the room. Miranda Bailey and Carina walked into the station and up the
stairs bringing the food. They had decided to surprise the team with food and celebration of
Dean’s life after this hard day.

“Hey!” The team shouted, greeting both women, kissing their cheeks and grabbing the food
out of their hands. Carina looked around for Maya and saw Andy in the corner.

“She’s in her office.” Andy said as she grabbed the drinks from Carina’s hand. The brunette
nodded and made her way back down the stairs. She saw the blinds closed and decided to just
open the door, she slowly shut it and found Maya sitting in front of her desk working on
reports from the incidents.

“I said I’d be up in a minute.” Maya said, writing something down.

“And I decided I wanted a minute alone with you.” Carina responded, leaning against the
door. Maya dropped her pen and got up from her chair. “Hi, Bambina.” Carina chuckled and
hugged the blonde tightly.

Maya felt her heart skip a beat when she heard that beautiful Italian accent. She instantly
needed affection from her, so getting up she was met with Carina’s warm embrace. “Hi.”
Maya smiled and inhaled the scent of Carina’s perfume. “Did you get the whole day off?”
Maya asked, leaning back and looking into Carina’s eyes.

“Yes, but I am on call.” Carina shrugged and leaned in, placing a chaste kiss on the blonde’s
lips. Maya kissed the woman back and nodded.

“I need to finish this report, if you’d like you can sit here or you can go upstairs and socialize
with the team. I know they’ll love you the more they get to know you.” Maya smiled, slowly
letting go of Carina.
“I’ll go upstairs and get to know them. Just don’t take too long?” Carina asked, opening the
door. Maya nodded and sat back down at her desk.

Carina made her back up the stairs and found everyone sitting around the table, Andy
motioned for her to join so she did.

“Ah! Italian goddess.” Travis chuckled and stood up from his chair. “Have this seat.” He
offered.

“Thank you.” Carina smiled and sat down.

“So, Carina. What kind of doctor are you?” Vic asked.

“O.B” Carina replied.

“Oooh, professional life giver.” Travis teased, sitting beside Carina.

“Ah, no. The momma’s do the work. I just make sure they come into the world safely.”
Carina chuckled and everyone laughed with her. The team continued to ask Carina questions
about her job and the hospital. Along with questions about Maya and how they met.

“I’m just glad she got away from Dearborn.” Vic put her hands in the air and chuckled. Just
then, Maya walked into the beanery, and everyone turned to look at her.

“Captain.” Jack greeted with a smile. Maya nodded and smiled at everyone then turned her
attention to Carina and her smile only grew. Vic laughed a little and shoved her mouth full of
grapes that were in front of her. Maya turned and glared for a second.

“Okay, everyone. Let’s go.” Maya said, walked over to Carina and kissing her cheek. “They
didn’t scare you away, did they?” Maya asked.

“Never, they are sweet.” Carina replied.

“You hear that, Bishop? We are sweet.” Vic teased and walked out of the beanery and down
the stairs.

“Oh, and after Dean’s funeral we did bring food for everyone so we can gather and celebrate
his life.” Miranda walked down the stairs as she was talking. It was sweet. Ben and Dean had
gotten closer the past few years and it’s almost like they’ve all lost a brother. Travis, Vic and
Jack rode with Ben and Miranda, Maya, Carina, Ryan and Andy rode in Maya’s car. No one
was prepared for this, Andy tried to keep her tears at bay, so did Maya.

Once they arrived, everyone walked into the church and took a seat. The funeral was filled
with tears and beautiful stories about how great Dean was. Ben told a story about when he
first started, and the jokes Dean would tease him about. Jack shared the story about how they
went through the academy together and they didn’t get along at first but after more time they
were like brothers. Dean took Jack in when he had nowhere else to go. The kindness that
Dean spread went through the community. It was good to hear stories. Once the bells started
to ring, Andy and Maya held hands and Carina linked her arm around Maya’s free one and
held her hand. Maya let Andy squeeze her hand as her tears fell silently and Maya squeezed
Carina’s hand. Refusing to cry at the moment. The team marched through downtown Seattle
and followed the firetruck, Carina and Bailey stood towards the place they’d finish so they
could meet up with the team. Once it was all over and everyone was paying their respects to
Nineteen, they all went back to the station. Emotions filled the beanery as everyone grabbed
food and gathered around the table. The decided to share their favorite memories with Dean.
They shared special moments they’d treasure forever, even Maya shared her thoughts and
time with Dean that made everyone emotional.

“Thank you, Dr. Bailey, and Italian Goddess for this wonderful food.” Travis grabbed
everyone’s plates.

“She has a name.” Maya argued with a smile.

“Yeah, goddess, gorgeous.” Vic winked and Carina let out a laugh. Maya smiled and shook
her head.

“Well, they are true.” Maya whispered into Carina’s ear, kissed her cheek and got up. They
cleaned everything up and everyone went home. Carina went to Maya’s and held her in her
arms for the night, letting her cry and share all her stories.

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2 weeks later

“How are things going with firefighter barbie?” Amilia asked, sitting in front of Carina at her
desk, setting down lunch in front of her.

“They are good. Just both of us have been so busy we only have seen each other three times
in the past two weeks. But I did invite her over tonight for dinner and I’m going to make her
lasagna and have some wine. Andrea is also going to be at the hospital all night, so I have the
entire house to myself to relieve some of her stress.” Carina chuckled and took a bite of her
food. “Mmh. Grazie, I didn’t even realize what time it was.” Carina hummed.

Amilia raised her eyebrow at the Italian and chuckled. “Take her stress away by making her
scream your name?” She teased.

“Ah, Amilia I am going to leave that to only your imagination.” Carina winked and continued
to eat.

“Come on, give me some details. Bedroom details. I am pregnant I don’t get to have a lot of
fun.” Amilia wined and Carina shook her head laughing.

“Sex won’t hurt the baby.” Carina whispered, finishing her food.

“I know that. But Link doesn’t believe me.” Amilia huffed.

“Pleasure him enough to when he is about to reach his orgasm and then pull away and find
something sexy to wear, spice it up. And try being on top. A guy loves it.” Carina shrugged.
“I’ve tried that, and he still just doesn't.” Amilia paused. “I have an idea. You are a genius.”
Amilia stood up and waddled herself away. Carina was left confused, but she couldn’t help
but to chuckle.

Maya got off work and quickly drove home, grabbed a change of clothes, pajamas and
whatever else she thought she needed. She put it in a bag and changed into a pair of
sweatpants and a t-shirt. Carina said to keep it casual. Maya put her bag in the passenger seat
and drove to a store. She got out and walked inside. “Lingerie and pleasure” were the name.
Maya was nervous, but she wanted to get fresh new stuff with Carina, so she walked inside
and grabbed a basket. She grabbed a lingerie set; it was a red corset with knee highs and a
pair of laced panties. She bit her lip and placed it in the basket, then she also decided to grab
a green set, it was a bralette and laced panties, then she also grabbed a black simple lingerie
dress. Moving onto the toys, Maya walked over to the vibrators and grabbed a bullet vibrator,
it was bright pink and then a light green large sized. Then she walked over to the makeshift
dicks, she looked around for a second and found the perfect stap on that also vibrated and had
another end so both women would be pleasured. She grabbed that as well as a beginners
bondage set. Maya walked up to the counter and paid for her items and then put them in her
bag and drove to Carina’s house.

Carina had gotten off and drove home, she started to prepare lasagna and placed it in the over,
then she set the table with a plate, bowl and wine glass for each other. She then changed into
a pair of leggings and a long sweater that came down to her mid thighs. She quickly cleaned
up her room and set up some candles. Then she heard a knock, looking at the time she
skipped to the door and found the blonde standing there.

“Hi, Bambina.” Carina greeted, ushing her to come in and quickly shut the door and brought
Maya in for a kiss. The blonde let out a moan and kissed Carina back.

“Hey.” Maya chuckled and leaned in again. “I’ve missed you.” Maya whispered.

“I’ve missed you too, bella.” Carina pecked her lips and then walked over to the fridge and
grabbed stuff to make a fresh salad.

“It smells amazing in here. But not as good as you smell.” Maya winked and then walked to
the bedroom and set her bag down in the corner and unpacked it. She left the toys in there
and then set her clothes out on the chair that Carina had in the corner of her room. Once she
was done, she came back out and Carina was pulling out the Lasagna.

“Have a seat.” Carina said softly as she turned off the oven and walked over to Maya and
poured her a glass of wine and then poured herself one too.

“This all looks amazing, babe.” Maya complimented and took a sip of the wine, Carina
smiled at her and leaned down, kissing her lips.

“You look amazing.” Carina whispered, kissing her again.

“I have some surprises for you.” Maya said as Carina walked back to the oven and cut the
lasagna and placed them on the plates, Maya served them both salad and poured the dressing
while Carina walked over with the plates.

“Oh? I’m intrigued. Do I get a hint?” Carina asked, sitting down in front of the blonde.

Maya took a bite of her food in front of her. “Hmm, maybe. If you play nice.” Maya teased.
“This is amazing, Carina.” The blonde took another bite and moaned. Carina watched her for
a second, biting her lip.

“You were quick to taste like you were eager to taste me this morning.” Carina smirked and
Maya almost choked on her drink. Carina chuckled and took another bite. “Although, your
mission was accomplished because all I thought about all day is you between my legs.”
Carina shook her head and ate her food. Maya’s face was red.

“Then I guess I did my job so stop complaining.” Maya said, looking at Carina seriously
before taking another bite. “If I remember correctly, you were the one begging for me to fuck
you.” Maya smirked. “What were the words again?” Maya thought for a second and
responded. “Maya, fuck me so good I think about you all day.” Carina was now red, and she
sipped at her wine. They pair made some small talk about their day while they ate. Once they
were both finished, Maya picked up the plates and bowls. She poured another glass of wine
for both of them.

“Bambina, I can do the dishes.” Carina argued, getting up.

“No, please. Allow me. Just show me where the Tupperware is so I can save the rest of this
lasagna.” Maya finished the dishes in the sink and Carina pointed to the cabinet to the right of
the sink. She smiled and placed the pieces of lasagna in the bowl and then cleaned the dish
that Carina used to cook it in. Once everything was cleaned up, Carina was on the phone with
her brother, Maya found this as a perfect time to change into lingerie she bought. She decided
on green one, she quickly undressed and slipped it on. Once she felt she was ready she folded
up her sweats and t-shirt and placed them on the chair. She heard Carina still on the phone, so
she found a lighter and lit the candles around the room then turned off the light. There were
enough candles to lite the room. It was beautiful.

“Yes, Andrea. Goodbye.” Carina sighed and then looked around. “Maya?” She asked.

“In your room.” Maya responded and then got in the center of Carina’s bed on her knees, all
the toys she purchased were in front of her. Carina walked to her bedroom and stopped in the
doorway, looking at Maya. Her mouth fell open.

“I-I. Mio Dio, Bambina.” For a moment Carina forgot to speak English. Maya chuckled a
little. “Is this my surprise?” Carina asked, shutting her door and walking to her bed. She
glanced down at the toys and found Maya’s body hard to look away from. “You, Bambina so
breathtaking.” Carina whispered, standing at the foot of her bed.
“I want you to pick one to use on me.” Maya said softly, her nerves were now coming out.
Carina looked down at all the toys in front, she found the two vibrators, then moved to the
dildo and as much as she would love to fuck Maya with that, she wanted to start her off
simple.

“I actually got a collection of my own that I bought the other day, can I add to it?” Carina
asked. Maya nodded and smiled. “Leave out the light green vibrator.” Carina smiled and
walked into her closet and quickly took off her clothes. It was too hot for her to be wearing
any. She grabbed a bag and walked out. Maya gulped at the sight of her naked lover walking
out of the closet naked. Carina laid out a g spot vibrator, a remote-control vibrator, a
makeshift dildo that they both could use, lube, flavored body oils, a rose shaped sucker,
nipple clamps and anal plugs. Maya watched her lay all this out and her mouth started to
water. It was clear that Carina was kinky, probably more than Maya. “I see you got a bondage
set, so did I.” Carina laid out her toys and watched Maya eye each other. ‘Yeah, tonight is
going to be fun.’ Carina thought to herself.

“You are off tomorrow, right?” Maya asked, looking up at the Italian.

“Mhm, are you?” Carina asked.

“Yes.” Maya breathed out and bit her lip.

“Good, because I plan to fuck you all night, Bambina. Now let’s pick a safe word.” Carina
said.

“I actually have another idea.” Maya said. Carina raised an eyebrow, waiting for the blonde
to talk. “What if we made this a game?” Maya asked.

“How would we play?” Carina asked.

“Well, you write on a piece of paper, and we draw it out. We don’t have to do every single
one tonight, but we can pick like 3 and try them. Carina nodded.

“Okay. So, I write down on paper everything I want to do to you?” She asked.

“Yes.” Maya responded. “Oh, and safe word for me… Elephant.” Maya said.

“Okay.” Carina smiled and grabbed notebook paper, she tore a piece out for her and then
handed one to Maya.

“Carina, what is your safe word?” Maya asked grabbing the notebook from Carina and then
the pen.

“Umm.” Carina thought for a moment. “Scooby.” Carina chuckled and then began writing
little things on paper, tearing them apart as she went. She grabbed an empty jar and put it
between her and Maya. Once it was filled Carina shook the jar, her hand covering the top.
“So, I grab one at a time? Or three?” She asked.

“Let’s do one at a time, so you grab one, I’ll grab, then you, then me. And that is the order we
will do them. Whatever you get you’ll do to me and whatever I get I’ll do to you.” Maya
 shrugged and Carina nodded. She reached her hand in the jar and grabbed a piece of paper.

‘Eat out.’ Carina smirked and then read it aloud to Maya. The blonde nodded and smiled as
she reached into the jar.

‘Vibrator only on the clit. No penetration’ Maya smirked and looked at the brunette then read
it aloud. The next one Carina pulled out, shook her to her core.
‘Tied up and fucked with a choice of whatever toy.’ Carina read that aloud and held the jar to
Maya.

‘Sit on my face’ Maya was red now Carina smirked at her and then grabbed the last piece of
paper.

‘Overstimulation’ Carina raised an eyebrow.

‘Nipple stimulation only’ Maya set the jar back on the nightstand and bit her lip. Now she
was nervous.

“Since I drew first, I’ll go.” Carina chuckled and got on top of Maya, laying in her. “You
really do look beautiful Bella.”

Chapter End Notes

I know this was a shorter chapter, but I am working on the next one that will be
*Spoiler* all smut between the two of them. So if that does not interest you, you have a
warning. Thank you everyone for the love and support! I appreciate it so much. I'm
going to try and post the next chapter in the next few days!
 Into You
Chapter Notes

*WARNING* Heavy smut. Enjoy (:

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Carina kissed Maya’s lips softly and then gently started to play with the straps of Maya’s
lingerie set. “I love this color on you.” Carina whispered, kissing the blonde again, sliding
her tongue along her bottom lip and then into her mouth. Maya let out a small giggle and let
Carina take full control of the kiss. As Carina was kissing her lover her hands started to move
down to her breast and she palmed one, leaving the other waiting for attention. Maya
hummed into the kiss and bit the bottom of Carina’s lips. Carina chuckled and kissed Maya
more intensely and then pulled away and started to kiss along the blonde's creamy neck, her
teeth digging in and then soothing the skin. Maya’s back arched slightly every time Carina
used her teeth and it drove Maya mad. The brunette noticed it too, she moved her lips to the
spot behind her earlobe and she sucked hard, knowingly leaving a mark.

“Fuck, Carina.” Maya moaned, digging her fingers into the brunette's long hair and grabbing
it by the nape of her neck as she continued to mark the blonde’s skin. Carina then pulled
away and looked at Maya. “You are going to be the death of me.” Maya whispered.

“Hmm no killing, Bella, just pleasure.” Carina smirked and then kissed the brunette's clothed
torso and down to her thighs. She kissed each one a few times and then gently slid the top of
the lingerie up and she started to kiss along the creamy waist, right about her lovers' panties.
Maya was letting out small noises, Carina couldn’t help but to smile and she move her mouth
down to the woman’s thighs and sucked each one, leaving a few marks. “So beautiful.”
Carina whispered and kissed the blonde’s covered mound, pushing her mouth against her clit,
causing Maya to gasp.

“Please, baby.” Maya moaned. Carina kissed again and then ran her tongue from the bottom
to the top, groaning. Maya was wet and it was because of Carina.

“You’re so wet.” Carina groaned, her teeth grabbing on to the thin string and she started to
pull the panties down the blonde’s white legs, she made it to her thighs and looked up, Maya
was on her elbow’s watching the Italian pull her underwear down with her teeth, so Carina
continued and used her fingers for the last half and immediately laid on her stomach between
the blonde’s legs. She placed her hands under Maya’s thighs and rested her hands on her
torso. She knew Maya was going to squirm and Carina wanted to pleasure her as much as she
could. “Is there a rule on home many times I can make you cum?” Carina asked.
Maya let out a giggle and nibbled on her bottom lip, still sitting up on her elbows. “No, as
many times as you want to make me as long as you don’t ware me out the first paper idea.”
Maya laughed and let out a moan as Carina licked up her slit. The blonde laid back and that
was Carina’s cue to dig in. Her tongue rolled in circles over her clit, she could feel Maya
getting more wet as she moved her tongue.

“Fuck me...” Maya groaned and grabbed at her own breast, Carina was watching her every
move, the tip of her tongue sticking out and flicking against the womans clit. “Yes yes yes.”
Maya chanted, bringing one of her heels of her foot to rest against Carina’s lower back and
opening her legs more. Carina then moved her tongue down and slid her tongue inside of the
woman, licking. Maya arched her back slightly and Carina pushed down on her waist to hold
her in place. Carina moaned as she felt Maya grow even more wet, it was dripping down her
chin and covering her nose. Carina moved her tongue in and out, penetrating her. “Oh
Carina!” Maya whimpered, her hands gripping at her own breast harder. Carina closed her
eyes and moved her mouth back to the blonde’s clit, she sucked at it and felt Maya’s heel dig
into her back as her back arched again, her hands now gripping onto the sheets. The woman
was whimpering, and Carina let out a moan again and pulled her mouth away and licked up
and down her slit like an ice cream on a cone. Her tongue slurping up the mess that was over
Maya’s cut. “Please Carina.” Maya groaned, her hand coming to the blonde’s hair, pushing
her face in. Carina smirked and fought her hand.

“What do you need, Bambina?” Carina asked, flicking at her clit again with the tip of her
tongue.

“Oh god! Make me cum.” Maya bit her lip and enjoyed the feeling of Carina’s tongue.

“Not yet.” Carina said, sliding her tongue back into the blonde as deep as she could get it to
go, Maya was pushing her face in and her knees started to bend. She knew Maya was close
based on the way that her breathing was now became a pant/whimper. Carina held onto her
waist and sucked all the wetness that was coming out of Maya she couldn’t get enough of it.

“Ah, ah.” Maya whimpered out, her nails digging into Carina’s scalp. Carina then moved her
tongue to the blonde’s clit and sucked hard and that was it for Maya, her abdomen tightened,
and she was now screaming out Carina’s name. White heat dripped through her folds, her
orgasm was crashing through her, and she was throbbing. Carina poked her tongue out and
flicked her clit, switching between sucking and flicking as the blonde rode through her
orgasm. As soon as Carina knew Maya’s orgasm subsided, she pulled her face away and
come up to the blonde, crashing their lips together. Maya moaned at the taste and licked at
Carina’s lips. Carina slid her tongue inside of Maya’s mouth and deepened their kiss.

When air was necessary, they both pulled away and Maya was panting. “Eating your pussy
makes me horny.” Carina admitted, her face was red, and her lips were swollen. Maya
chuckled and played with the brown hair.

“Mmh, are you wet for me babygirl?” Maya whispered, her eyes looking into the pair of
brown ones in front of her. Carina nodded.

“So wet, Maya.” She teased. “I’m throbbing.” She admitted. Maya chuckled and grabbed the
light green vibrator and put it under the pillow, flipping Carina onto her back. Maya was now
kissing her deeply, her hands still playing with the end of the brown locks. Carina wrapped
her legs around Maya’s waist and her hands moved her cheeks. Soon Maya pulled away and
Carina whimpered and then opened her eyes to find Maya taking off her top and then coming
back to Carina.

“My nipples are so hard it was starting to hurt.” Maya chuckled and hid her face in Carina’s
neck, placing soft kisses along her tan skin. Carina let out a laugh and tilted her head to the
side. “Can I mark you?” Maya asked and Carina nodded. She wanted it more than anything.
For everyone to know she was taken. Maya started to suck on her pulse point, her teeth
grazing it in the mix, Carina let out a moan and felt the blonde suck harder. Satisfied enough,
Maya pulled away and continued to kiss along the column of her neck. Carina had her eyes
closed, enjoying the feeling of Maya’s lips on her she didn’t even feel her reach for the
vibrator so when she heard it turn on her eyes opened and she looked at Maya who was
watching Carina and she guided the vibrator down to the brunette’s chest and to her nipple,
Carina let out a gasp and then a moan, the pressure was just perfect.

“That feels so good.” Carina whispered, biting down on her bottom lip. Maya watched her
face, and her eyes were shut again, then she felt Maya pull away and go to the other nipple
doing the same thing. This time her free hand was playing with the hardened nub, pulling and
squeezing, causing Carina to let out a moan.

“Please, Maya.” Carina groaned, her legs moving from the blonde’s waist and opening. Maya
slid the vibrator down and then sat up between her lover's legs, she watched as Carina looked
at Maya. Then she turned up the speed one speed up and placed the vibrator against her cunt,
she watched Carina take a breath in and let out a loud animalistic moan. That only egged
Maya on and she moved the vibrator in small circles, enough to tease her. “Dio Mio.” Carina
whimpered, her legs opening more. Maya pushed the vibrator harder against the woman and
turned the speed up again. Carina was now a whimpering mess, her chest moving up and
down as she panted, Maya watched her nipples get hard, begging for attention. She wanted to
cheat and suck them. Maya could hear the wetness of Carina’s pussy hitting the vibrator each
time Maya made a circle, it was making her wet. Maya leaned down and kissed Carina who
was caught by surprise but kissed the blonde back, moaning against her lips. Maya pushed
her hips down and came in contact with the end of the vibrations and she turned the speed up
to the lost speed and pulled away, Carina whimpered and moaned. Maya put her mouth next
to Carina’s ear and gently moved her hips so that the vibrator moved against both of their
clits.

“I swear Carina if I had a dick, I’d be fucking you so good right now.” Maya whispered and
all she could hear was Carina gasping for air. “I want to feel you cum against me baby.”
Maya moaned and moved her hips harder and Carina’s hands came down to Maya’s butt
cheeks and she pushed her hips down and held them in place. Carina took her strength and
smacked both of Maya’s cheeks and Maya let out a whimper.

“Fuck, do it again. Spank me.” Maya moaned and so Carina did it again and that caused the
vibrator to hit just the right spot on both women and they both moaned out, Carina on the
boarder of screaming as the white heat was released from both of them. Maya held her hips
there as they both rode out their orgasms, panting into Carina’s ear. When she heard Carina
whimpering, she slowly removed the vibrator from between their legs and turned it off,
laying it beside them. Carina was panting and her body was now covered in sweat.

Maya slowly got off Carina and laid down beside her.

“Maya… that was so intense.” Carina smiled and looked over at the blonde.

“Yeah? Not too much?” Maya asked nervously and Carina shook her head.

“No, it was perfect.” Carina leaned over and kissed the blonde. “I need something to drink,
would you like something?” She asked, sitting up.

“Whatever you get.” Maya answered and watched Carina grab the sheet and wrap herself in
it. She walked out the bedroom door and returned a few minutes later with some water, she
handed a glass to Maya and took a drink of her own. Maya drank some of hers and then
watched as Carina slid the sheet down and laid it on the bed. Maya chuckled and set her
water down on the nightstand. Carina looked through the toys that were on the dresser,
deciding what she wanted to do with Maya, and she bit her lip a little bit and thought for a
second. She grabbed the hand cuffs and the rope.

“Lay down Maya.” Carina said sternly. Maya widened her eyes and then looked at Carina’s
hands. Maya obeyed this time and laid flat on the bed, Carina got on the bed beside Maya and
grabbed her wrists and pinned them about her head, she put the handcuffs on and tied her
hands to the bedpost. She then grabbed the strap that vibrates and has an end for Carina to get
off on and she puts it on, adjusting it and then grabbing the lube.

“Baby you don’t need any of that I promise I’m so wet you will slide right in.” Maya said,
looking at Carina.

“Don’t sass me.” Carina said and put lube on the makeshift dick and angled the end inside of
herself, gasping and then walking over to Maya and getting on the bed, she put lube on her
fingers and slid her fingers inside of the blonde and penetrated her, spreading the lube
around. She indeed did not need lube, but she wanted to fuck Maya and she wanted to make
it good. The brunette watched the blonde letting out small grunts. So, she pulled her fingers
out and put them to Maya’s lips, Maya leaned up and sucked on her fingers, her eyes never
leaving Carina’s.

“Enough.” Carina pulled her fingers away and then grabbed Maya’s legs and put them in the
air and onto her shoulders. “Is your pussy ready to be fucked, Maya?” Carina asked, moving
her body to hover over Maya’s face, bending Maya’s legs back and letting the cock tease the
blonde’s folds.

“Yes!” Maya groaned, her eyes never leaving the brown pair. Carina smirked and kissed
Maya deeply, causing the tip to push inside Maya. She felt the blonde shiver, so Carina pulled
away and slid in a little bit more, waiting a minute. Even though the size was average, Maya
hasn’t had this kind of penetration in a while, and she had to get used to it. “Fuck, go in.”
Maya whispered and Carina thrusted all the way to the hilt, her hips meeting Maya’s and she
let out a loud groan.
“Fuck, you are so tight.” Carina whispered, slowly pulling out of the blonde, leaving just the
tip inside and going back in. The pace was slow, she wanted to build Maya up. “Does it feel
good, Bambina?” Carina asked, hovering over Maya again.

“Yes… so good.” Maya moaned, closing her eyes.

“You like my cock inside your pussy?” Carina asked, her Italian accent was only driving
Maya crazier. She arched her back and moaned instead of answering. Carina pulled out,
leaving barely the tip in and she used her hand and smacked her clit.

“Oh shit!” Maya moaned loudly.

“Answer me.” Carina said sternly, pushing in a little and then pulling back and smacking her
clit again. With how wet Maya was it only caused her to moan louder.

“Yes baby! Yes, put your cock back inside of me.” Maya demanded and Carina pinched at the
blonde’s nipples, causing her back to arch again and a scream be released from Maya’s
mouth. “Fuck… so good.” The blonde rested her back on the bed again and felt Carina slide
in and increase the pace slightly.

“If you be a good girl, I’ll fuck you hard.” Carina said against Maya’s ear and Maya nodded
eagerly. “Tell me Maya, have you ever been fucked this good?” Carina asked, increasing her
pace and pushing Maya’s legs back a little more towards her.

“No baby.” Maya answered, gasping each time Carina thrusted in.

“Am I the only one that gets to fuck your pussy?” Carina paused her thrust and circled her
hips inside of Maya.

“Oh fuck! Yes Carina.” She answered, hoping she would get what she was promised. Carina
smirked.

“You want to be fucked hard?” She asked, sucking on Maya’s neck, the blonde arched up
again, pulling at the rope.

“Yes, please... Please fuck me.” Maya begged, her eyes were shut, and her mouth was
hanging open, Carina loved this side of Maya.

“How hard.” Carina reached for the remote and turned on the vibration, trying to keep her
own pleasure behind Maya.

“God. Carina!” Maya moaned and moved her hips against Carina’s.

“Uh uh.” Carina stilled Maya’s hips with her hand. “Only good girls get what they deserve.”
Carina increased the speed and let out a moan, she was sensitive from the last vibrator
session they did. Maya opened her eyes and looked at Carina.

“Please baby, fuck me so hard I feel you in me when we are done.” Maya begged; the rope
being tugged again.
“I’ll fuck you so hard you won’t be able to walk.” Carina got cocky and she smirked. Maya
nodded.

“Please baby. I’m so close.” Maya clenched against the dick inside of her and with the way
Carina was moving she wasn’t going to last long so she increased the speed and started a
faster rhythm, the only sounds in the room were the vibrator and Maya’s wet pussy being
fucked.

“Oh god! Yes!” Maya moaned and arched up her back again, the cuffs slightly hurting her.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck.” Carina chanted and continued to thrust, hitting one spot that Maya
whimpered. She thrusted over and over again; skin was slapping together. Both women were
sweaty, and all Carina wanted to do was feel Maya cum.

“I’m so fucking close, Carina.” Maya moaned out, her head moving from side to side. Carina
let out a loud moan as her own orgasm reached her, she pounded into Maya’s cunt and felt a
little resistance and then a loud scream. Carina watched Maya as her orgasm crashed through
her, suddenly wetness pooled out and onto the bed, Carina fucked her through the orgasm and
slowly pulled out, turning off the vibrations and taking it off and then untying Maya. The
sheets beneath her ass were soaked. Maya still had her eyes closed and she was panting.
Carina kissed her softly and then laid beside her lover.

After both of them caught their breath, Maya took a drink and then turned to face Carina. She
was still laying there with her eyes closed. “Are you okay?” Maya asked, moving closer to
the brunette and kissing her cheek. Carina smiled and started to play with the blonde’s hair.

“Yeah, I just need a minute.” Carina said softly and kissed Maya. “I won’t last long if I sit on
your face.” Carina admitted.

“That’s okay. Just let me taste you whenever you are ready.” Maya assured her and kissed
along her neck and then gently flicked her nipple, causing Carina to moan. “Fuck you are so
sensitive baby.” Maya grabbed her nipple and pulled, causing Carina to hiss. “Let me taste
you.” Maya begged. Carina nodded and Maya laid down. Carina positioned her hips over
Maya’s face and pushed her hips down just enough for Maya’s tongue to flick at her clit.
Carina moaned loudly and grabbed the headboard.

“Dio!” Carina moaned and Maya finally grabbed the woman by her thighs and pulled her
down, causing Carina to sit on her face. Maya finally pushed her tongue inside and Carina let
out a whimper. “Oooh so good, Bambina.” She bit her lip and grabbed harder at the
headboard. Maya was swirling her tongue inside of the brunette’s cunt, she couldn’t get
enough of her taste. Carina put one of her hands on Maya’s face and grabbed at her hair and
began to grind her hips.

Maya held onto Carina’s thighs and then moved her tongue out, flattened it and put it on the
womans clit, Carina moved her hips back and forth, riding Maya’s tongue.
“Ah! Ah!” Carina moaned and pushed her hips harder down, using Maya’s head as leverage
to move. “I’m so close.” Carina whimpered. Maya dug her nails into her thighs and began to
suck on her clit. Carina put both hands back on the headboard and leaned forward. Her teeth
digging into the wood as she let out scream, she was cumming all over Maya’s face and it felt
so good. Maya was lapping her up like a damn lollipop. She licked her pussy clean and
Carina pulled herself away from the headboard and off of Maya.

The blonde’s face was covered in Carina’s wetness and all she wanted to do was kiss her.
Carina leaned in and kissed the blonde instantly and then pulled away to catch her breath.

“I would say let’s change the sheets, but I have a feeling they will be getting wet again if we
did.” Maya chuckled and Carina couldn’t help but to let out a laugh.

“I’m so sensitive but so turned on.” Carina bit her lip. It was Maya’s turn, but Carina needed
to take a minute to rebuild her strength. She doesn’t think it’ll take long for the woman to be
overstimulated, but she doesn’t want to reach that point as quickly. She wants to make Maya
chase her orgasm.

After a little bit of rest, Carina was kissing Maya's neck again.

“Do you trust me?” Carina asked.

“Of course.” Maya replied and leaned up, kissing the brunette.

Carina kissed her back and then pulled away. “Turn around.” Carina demanded, moving so
Maya had room. The blonde did as she was told and bit her lip. “Do you remember your safe
word?” Carina asked, getting in between Maya’s legs from behind.

“Yes.” Maya replied.

“Good, stay on all four. If you use your safe word, I’ll stop immediately.” Carina said, kissing
the blonde’s cheek before getting off the bed and looking at the toys. She grabbed the dildo
that she purchased and then set it down on the bed and got in between Maya’s legs again.
“Arch your ass up.” Carina pushed her back down towards the bed just a little bit and Maya
arched her rear end into the air. Carina smirked and looked at the sight before her. “Have you
ever done anal?” Carina asked.

“Once, but it wasn’t enjoyable because the person was only seeking their own orgasm.” Maya
answered and Carina kissed up Maya’s spine.

“Would you be willing to try again?” She asked, reaching the back of Maya’s neck and
moving her hair. Maya held her head down and let Carina kiss her skin, goosebumps were
rising on her skin.

“With you, yes.” Maya replied, moaning as Carina sucked on her skin. She felt on fire and
cold at the same time.

“Okay.” Was all Carina replied with before she kissed back down the woman’s back. Kissing
her butt cheeks and groping them. Maya hummed in pleasure and closed her eyes. “I love
your ass, Bambina.” Carina said, then before Maya could respond she felt a smack against
her cheek. “I want it red.” She smirked and smacked the other cheek.

“Yess.” Maya moaned and felt another smack. She arched her ass out even more and her
pussy was throbbing.

“You like that?” Carina asked, taking her hands and smacking both at the same time and then
griping onto her cheeks at the same time. Maya hissed at the pain but never pulled away. “I
think pleasure and pain go very well together. If you do it right of course.” Carina shrugged
and dipping her finger to Maya’s slit and found her soaking wet. “Seems like you do too.”
Carina said, cockily. Maya was not responding; her eyes were closed, and she was trying to
concentrate on not coming. “How many smacks can you take?” Carina asked.

“I don’t know baby, let’s count.” Maya replied, wiggling her butt.

Carina chuckled and then bit her lip. “Say green when you are okay, orange when you are
getting close and red when you’ve had enough, and you want me to stop.” Carina got off the
bed and opened a drawer and come back. Maya was already on edge and Carina knew that.

The brunette slapped both cheeks at once. “Count Maya.” Carina said.

“One. Green” Maya replied, groaning. Another smack landed, a little harder this time.

“Two. Fuck Green.” Maya moaned again, eager for more. Carina smacked her again, the
sound of the smacks against Maya’s skin was echoing and she was sure that her butt cheeks
were red.

“T-three.” Maya moaned. “Green.” She huffed out. So Carina grabbed the paddle and turned
her body slightly to the side and let the hard surface land right onto Maya’s ass cheeks. Maya
whimpered and Carina swore she could see cum dripping out of her lover's cunt.

“Oh fuck!” Maya moaned out. “Fuck.” She tried to catch her breathe. “Four… green.” She
nodded.

Carina smacked her with the paddle again, harder, Maya’s ass was bright red, and it was only
turning Carina on more.

“Ah! Orange. Orange.” Maya repeated. “F-five.” She sounded so small but so turned on.
Carina was more cautious about Maya’s colors. Carina bit her lip and let the paddle hit one
cheek this time.

“Oh!” Maya screamed out, hissing. “Yes! Fuck, fuck, fuck.” She was trembling, her body had
already released and orgasm. “Orange... six. “Carina smacked her other cheek and heard
Maya moan. “Seven, orange. Baby, fuck.” Maya whispered. Carina set the paddle to the side
and used her hands again. Maya was so wet it was on her thighs. “Eight, orange.” Maya
moaned. She wanted to make it o ten. Carina slapped her again. “Nine.” Maya was shaking,
and another smack. “Fuck! Red, red, red.” She chanted out and Carina groped her ass again
and then moved one hand down, pushing Maya’s upper body all the way down and she began
to finger the blonde’s very wet cunt. Maya was a moaning mess; she knew she wasn’t going
to be able to take much more. Carina slid two fingers in and out and her hand was covered in
the wetness of her lover, each time she thrusted in you could hear how wet Maya was.

“Fuck! Fuck Carina.” Maya screamed out, her pussy clenching against her fingers. Carina
pulled out and watched Maya’s whole-body shake. She hasn’t released another orgasm, but
she was close. Carina smacked her ass, not as hard but enough and then leaned in and started
licking at the blonde's clit at a fast pace, her tongue moving up and down.

“Oh yes! Baby.” Maya gripped at the pillow; her face half buried in it as she started to scream
out. “Fuck me fuck me fuck me.” Maya repeated, gasping as she felt Carina’s tongue move
away from her clit, then suddenly she felt something sliding inside of her. Carina put herself
over Maya’s back as she began to fuck her with a dildo, her free hand wrapping around her
front and rubbing at her clit. Maya could feel herself starting to cum. Coating the dick inside
of her, but Carina only went faster and harder. Like she was fucking her earlier. “Take it.”
Carina growled into Maya’s ear and fuck… that only turned Maya on more.

“Fuck!” Maya moaned out and suddenly felt wetness escape her, she could feel in on her
knees. “Ooooooh God! So good!” Maya had her mouth open, and Carina had pulled the
makeshift dick out of her and began fingering her just as hard and fast, her thumb rubbing her
clit back and forth at a very face pace. And more wetness pooled below them.

“Oh, fuck Carina! Elephant!” She screamed out, feeling more wetness dripping down, her
whole body was shaking. Carina pulled her fingers out slowly and kissed up Maya’s back and
to her shoulders. Maya rolled over onto her back and Carina was right on top of her,
considering that the middle of the bed was soaked. Maya was still shaking, and Carina lightly
grazed her fingers along her cheek. Her pussy was so sensitive and anything she moved
caused it to throb but God... She wanted that.

Carina was resting her head on Maya’s chest, gently grazing her fingers along her arm.

“Hmm, I like a woman that can go from playing rough to being so gentle.” Maya laughed a
little and Carina looked up at her and kissed her softly.

“Are you okay?” Carina asked, kissing her again.

“Yeah, baby. It was amazing.” Maya reassured her. “You have one more to go for.” Maya
chuckled.

“I do. But we can do it whenever you are ready.” Carina said. “I know it won’t take long at
all. My nipples are very sensitive. And fucking you like that made my whole body on edge.”
Carina admitted, turning bright red. Maya chuckled at her and then pushed Carina onto her
knees. Maya sat up against the headboard and Carina came in closer on all four, her face
close to Maya’s. “Touch me.” Carina whispered. Maya obeyed and started to grope her
breasts. Carina hissed slightly and closed her eyes. “I’m going to teach you how to cum just
by nipple stimulation.” Carina said.

“That is actually a thing?” Maya asked, pulling at her nipples.

“Yes, I will do it to you another night.” Carina smirked and opened her eyes to look at the
blonde.

“Harder.” Carina ordered, feeling Maya pull at her nipples a little harder. “Squeeze and only
do one.” Maya did just as she was told, Carina got closer to Maya and sat on her thighs, her
mound sitting on the sheets and her chest at eye level with Maya. “Do that over and over
again.” Carina was done teaching, she needed to cum. Maya did exactly as she was told, then
took the free nipple into her mouth and sucked on it, causing Carina to moan and put her
fingers through Maya’s hair. “Fuck.” Carina whined, her pussy getting more wet. Maya then
switched to the other nipple and placed her hand on the free one, squeezing at her nipple
harder and she gently bit down on the one that was in her mouth. Carina was grinding down
on the sheets, trying to find friction. “Yes Bambina, bite harder.” Carina demanded through
her moans. So Maya bit harder onto it and pulled with her teeth, Carina hissed. “Yes! Just like
that.” Carina was moving her hips faster and Maya was loving the scene in front of her. Maya
repeated the biting and pulling of the nipple. Carina was on the edge, she was panting.
“Maya...” Words couldn’t leave her mouth as Maya pulled and squeezed both nipples harder
than before and that threw Carina over the edge.

“Maya! Maya!” She chanted, her hips grinding down on the sheets. She rode out her orgasm,
allowing Maya to play with her nipples. Once she was finished, Carina opened her eyes and
found the blonde leaning back against the headboard, watching her. Carina blushed and
moved closer and kissed the blonde.

They laid in bed for a while and then decided to go take a shower. Carina was sore and could
feel all the roughness they just did. Maya’s ass was still red and it made Carina very proud.
Maya hissed as the water hit her back side and Carina gently massaged her butt cheeks,
letting the water hit both of them. There was no conversation needed, their eyes spoke
everything the needed to say to each other. A few kisses were shared and then they both
finished washing up and got out, Carina handed Maya a towel and then she wrapped one
around herself. They both changed the bedsheets; Carina started the sheets and came back
and hung her towel up and got in bed with Maya. The blonde wrapped her arms tightly
around Carina and looked at the time.

“It’s four in the morning.” Maya laughed a little and curled up closer to Carina.

“Gosh. Good thing we finished. Andrea will be home soon.” Carina chuckled and fell asleep
quickly. Maya fell asleep, her face buried in the back of Carina’s neck.
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Carina was woken up by her phone ringing over and over again, she searched for it on the
nightstand and look to see that it was Andrew.

“Cao Andrea.” Carina said softly, hoping to not wake up Maya.

“By the sound of your voice I woke you up. I’m bringing you coffee. Does Maya drink any?”
He asked. Carina pulled the phone away from her ear it was late in the afternoon, 2pm to be
exact.

“Um, yeah just bring her an americano with a pump of hazelnut.” Carina said.
“Alright.”

“Wait, why are you off so late?” Carina asked.

“I had a major surgery! I’ll tell you about it when I get home. I love you. Caio.” He hung up
and Carina set her phone back down, she noticed Maya’s arm was not around her and she was
curled up on her side facing the other wall. Carina came up behind her and wrapped her arms
around the blonde. Maya was shaking. Was she having a bad dream? Carina gently kissed her
cheek and Maya was whimpering.

“Maya.” Carina whispered. Maya was still whimpering.

“No. No. NO.” She repeated and then her eyes flew open, she scooted out of Carina’s arm,
almost falling onto the floor but Carina caught her.

“Maya wakes up.” Carin said. “Maya.” She said again, tapping on her shoulder. Soon she felt
the blonde turn and bury her face into the woman's bare chest, crying. Carina held her and
lightly played with her hair; her body was still shaking. Carina soothed her until Maya pulled
away.

“I-I’m sorry.” Maya apologized.

“It’s okay, you were just having a bad dream, Bambina.” Carina moved hair away from her
face. “Hey… talk to me.” Carina whispered and Maya looked at the ceiling.

“I was in a fire, and it was like the same people died all over again and I keep reliving those
moments, except you aren't there.” Maya says, tears spilling out from the corner of her eye
and Carina kisses it away. “You aren’t there, and I feel alone and scared.

“I’m right here.” Carina brough Maya closer.

“It felt so real, Carina. I didn’t want to wake up and not have you here.” Maya was letting
more tears fall.

“I’m right her, Bambina. I’m not going anywhere.” She whispered.

“I lost Charlotte.” Maya admitted it, more so to herself then to Carina. In that moment,
Carina knew Maya needed to process this. “I lost her and I couldn’t save her. There was
nothing I could have done. If i had gone in sooner I could have died. I could have been Dean
o-or Andy.” Maya shook her head and sat up. “All the lives that were lost could have been
me, but I… you were in the back of my mind.” Maya admitted and this was the first time she
has heard Maya say this. Carina looked at her while she laid down and Maya sat up.

“I kept myself safe because you made me feel okay with coming back.” Carina let a tear roll
down her cheek at Maya’s admission. The strong feelings that were between them was only
getting more intense. “I don’t think Charlotte would have fought for me as hard as I did her.”
Maya said, scuffing. “I’m sorry I’m rambling.” Maya shook her head.

“No, it’s okay, please continue if you want to.” Carina encouraged and leaned up, kissing the
blonde’s shoulder.
“I know she wouldn’t have saved me. Could she have saved Dean and Andy? She was by the
exit; they were by the wall and the window.” Maya was now spiraling in her thoughts.

“Hey, no. Okay. No do not go down there. Leave it where it is at, Maya. You did what you
could, we will never know if the role were reversed, and I don’t want to think about losing
you. So, no. I want to listen to you but stop beating yourself up.” Carina turned Maya’s face
to look at her. “You are here, and I am here. We are safe and as tragic as the loss was, Maya.
You saved someone, yourself. You got the people out of there. Tragedies happen in everyday
life but you… saved yourself. You did it because I made you feel safe to do that. I’m so
deeply sorry for your losses but no. I will not let you blame yourself for this, Bambina.”
Carina was looking at the blonde with tears in her eyes. Maya then realized just how
dangerous her job was and the thought of not coming back to Carina terrified her.

“I’m here. And you are here.” Maya repeated and kissed the Italian. Suddenly they both
heard the front door open and some chattering.

“I forgot to tell you that my brother brought us coffee.” Carina kissed her again and put her
forehead against Maya’s.

Maya took a deep breathe and nodded to Carina. “I’m okay.” She whispered. Carina kissed
her again and they both got out of bed and put on some clothes then walked out to the
kitchen.

“Ah afternoon sleeping birds!” Andrew greeted them.

“How was your night?” Vic asked, smirking. Maya turned red and hid behind Carina slightly.

“Wonderful.” Carina replied and sat down next to Vic.

“What are you doing here?” Maya asked, sitting down, Andrew handed her a coffee and then
Carina, vic already had hers. Andrew looked at the pair and then to Vic.

“Well since Mer and I ended things, I have been just ya, now doing my own thing, but Vic
and I ran into each other last night and we talked and we got coffee this morning. Her and I
are gonna go to the movies if you both want to join.” Andrew offered as he leaned against the
counter.

“Yeah! That sounds great, Maya?” Carina asked, taking a sip of her coffee as she looked over
at the blonde.

“Su-sure I’d love to!” Maya smiled and then drank her coffee.

“Well this will be great!” Vic said cheerfully and let out a chuckle.

“Well, I do need to get a nap in before we go so maybe later in the evening?” Andrew asked,
yawning.

“Yeah! For sure. I will meet you all back here.” Vic stood up. “Bye.” She quickly walked out
the door.
“Andrea, get some sleep.” Carina kissed her brother's cheek and walked into her room. Maya
was quick to smile and then followed Carina. She shut the door and then watched as Carina
collected the clothes on the floor and threw them into the laundry basket. Maya smiled at her.

“Hey, what’s going on in that noggin up there?” Maya asked, grabbing the basket for Carina.

“I just didn’t know Meredith and my brother broke up. And I have been so caught up in work
and my life I didn’t bother to ask.” Carina huffed out.

“Babe, I know that it's hard, but it's okay.” Maya nodded. Carina nodded sadly.

“I just want him to know I’m here.” Carina grabbed the basket from Maya and walked out of
the door and to the laundry room, she started the washer and then knocked on her brother's
door, so Maya sat down on the bed by the headboard and waited for Carina.

“Drea?” Carina called out and opened the door.

“Carina are you okay?” He asked. She nodded and smiled.

“I’m sorry I didn’t know you and Mer broke up.” She said softly and sat beside him on his
bed. Andrew smiled at his sister.

“Hey, it didn’t end on bad terms.” Andrew reassured her.

“Promise?” Carina asked, snuggling up into his arm.

“Yeah, I’m good. Okay?” Andrew kissed his sisters head and then Carina kissed his cheek
and went back to her room, Maya was fiddling with her fingers and didn’t even hear Carina
come in. The brunette closed the door and took off her clothes. Suddenly Maya looked up
and took a deep breath in.

“Maya…” Carina said softly, crawling up to the blonde and kissing her softly.

“Hmm?” Maya hummed and kissed the woman back and then began to take off her on
clothes.

“Fuck me.” Carina whispered, Maya nodded and got up and grab the strap on and strapped it
on.
“Hands and knees.” Maya demanded. Carina raised her eyebrow and turned on her hands and
knees. Maya walked up behind her and got on the bed, the brunette bit her lip and suddenly
felt a slap on her butt cheeks.

“Shh!” Carina hissed and chuckled. Maya smirked.

“Hopefully your brother is a deep sleeper.” Maya whispered and hit the woman's ass again.
Carina let out a moan and lowered her upper body. Maya groaned and gently slid her fingers
to her slit. Carina hummed and felt Maya push two fingers in. “Hmm so wet.” Maya
 whispered, leaning over Carina’s back, kissing her shoulders. The Italian moved her hair to
the side and let Maya’s lips attack the back of her neck.

“Wet for you.” Carina muttered and let out a gasp as she felt her lovers lips on her. “Yess!”
Carina whimpered and moved her hips to meet Maya’s fingers. “Please Maya.” She begged.

“Please what babygirl?” Maya asked, biting down on the Italians earlobe.

“Fuck me.” Carina whimpered. Maya smacked her ass again and Carina let out a moan, her
fingers going faster. Maya knew Cariana was plenty wet, she was just teasing now. “Maya.”
Carina groaned and stuck her ass out more. The blonde pulled her fingers out and grabbed a
fist full of Carina’s hair and pulled her head back, Carina got up on her hands and let her
lover pull her hair and then she slid the makeshift cock inside the brunette in one motion,
causing Carina to open her mouth and let out a silent scream. Maya moaned, her hips pushing
in and out of the woman’s cunt.

“Let me hear you.” Maya whispered, going faster against Carina.

“Yes! Maya fuck.” Carina moaned out, and felt a smack against her butt cheeks again and
instantly she could feel her body responding, she was wet and the way Maya was pounding
into her, Carina knew she wasn’t going to last much longer.

“God, Carina, I wish I could feel how tight you are.” Maya admitted, pulling at her hair
harder till Carina was sitting on her knees, her back pressed against Maya’s front. “Move
your hips.” Maya demanded, her hands playing with Carina’s nipples. The brunette was a
moaning mess, her pussy was so exposed but so full. She guided her hips up and down and
each time she went up, Maya pulled at her nipples, causing Carina to let out a strangled
moan. Then without hesitation Maya ran her hand up Carina’s neck and wrapped it around
her, applying a small amount of pressure and Carina was gone, her whole body paused as an
orgasm ripped through her, she moaned Maya’s name loud, her thighs trembling and she felt
Maya moving inside of her. Carina laid on the bed and let Maya pull out of her, she
whimpered at the loss and then felt Maya lay beside her.

“That was amazing.” Carina whispered, scooting closer to the blonde.

“Good. I’m glad. Are you doing okay?” Maya asked, tangling her legs with the Italian’s.

“Pleasantly numb.” Carina smiled and they both fell into a slumper.

Chapter End Notes

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A month had gone by, a month since Charlotte died, a month since her team had their hearts
ripped from their chest. Maya was now attending therapy but keeping it between only her and
Carina. The pair were growing stronger every day, they have been doing small dates when
they’ve had time, Maya was working more than Carina would like, but she knew times where
Maya needed to invest into work. Andy was getting stronger too, finally released to go into
scenes again. She was all about fighting the fires. Andy had officially moved in with Maya
because her and Ryan ended things. Things were falling into line and Maya couldn’t be
anymore happier. Of course, she missed Charlotte, but Carina made her heart melt, it was
everything she was searching for. One day when they got back from a call, Maya saw
Carina’s car parked beside hers and she got worried, she quickly jumped out of the truck
before it was even done backing up and she walked through the door to find Ben and Carina
laughing. Relieved, Maya took a deep breath in and let it out.

“Hi.” Maya came up to Carina and kissed her cheek.

“Hey, Bambina,” Carina greeted her and wrapped her arm around the small of her back.

“What’s up?” Maya asked, Carina moved her head to the direction of her office. Maya
chuckled and walked with Carina slowly, she was unsure why Carina was here, though it was
a wonderful surprise. As she shut the door Carina turned to look at Maya, her face changed.
“Car, you are scaring me.” Maya admitted, locking the door and walking to the brunette.

“Maya, I wanted to be the only one to say something before the word got out.” Carina sat
down and urged Maya to sit with her.

“Carina, just tell me.” Maya stood by her office door, looking at the woman.

“There was a really bad accident last night and I male came in.” Carina started and paused.
“Please come sit with me.” Carina asked, so Maya did. “It was a john doe because he had no
identification on him, but he had your number in his jacket pocket. It was kind of faded.” The
brunette was playing with her hands. “He had blonde hair and your same features, younger
than you.” Maya could feel her heart pounding. “Ryan was there because apparently, he was
one to cause the accident. The emergency room was so full and apparently, he knew who was
lying on the table and he identified him as Mason Bishop. I wasn't sure.” Carina admitted.
“You never said anything about having a brother, but then this man, h-he was so angry. He
was identified as Lane Bishop.” Carina could see Maya’s eyes filled with so much emotion
and confusion. “Bambina, your brother hit your mother and father's car.” Carina just had to
get it out because Maya’s face was sharing all her emotions.

“Carina, that is crazy. Mason doesn’t drive. H-he can’t even afford a car.” Maya got up and
scuffed. “And who is Ryan to identify him!” Maya was now pacing. “My father was tough,
but he loved Mason.” The blonde was overwhelmed, Carina got up to try and calm her down.
“No, Carina, you don’t know for sure if that is him. My father hasn’t seen him in years, he
couldn’t have known that.” Maya backed away and into the door.

“Maya, they identified him.” Carina was now being stern.

“No. They are wrong. You need to leave; I’ve got reports I need to do.” Maya went to open
the door.

“I’m not leaving, so stop.” Carina said, walking to Maya and grabbing her hand. “You aren’t
hearing me.”

“I’ve heard you, loud and clear. Leave.” Maya opened the door and walked to her desk.
Carina closed her eyes and let tears fall down her face. “My father would have told me.”
Maya added, sitting down in her chair.

“Maybe I am wrong, but I don’t think I’ve ever seen a horrified look on a mothers face the
way your mom looked at that person lying on the table.” Carina said before she walked away,
she walked to Ben who was sitting at the reception desk.

“So?” He asked softly and Carina shook her head.

“Cariana.” Maya said from her chair. Carina took a deep breath and then walked back to the
room, the doors to the fire station opened and an older male and older female came in.

“I’m looking for Maya Bishop.” He said, his face was full of anger.

“Ah, yes. Captain Bishop is right in her office. Ben pointed and before he could say anything
else, Lane stormed in, Carina moved out of the way.

“Kiddo!” Lane greeted and walked to the blonde and kissed her cheek.

“H-hi, d-dad.” Maya stood up and greeted him with a hug. Carina watched it play out.

“Um, sorry Ma’am I need a minute alone with my daughter.” Lane’s voice was stern, and
Carina stepped out and shut the door.

“Carina.” Ben stopped her from walking out. “Go wait upstairs.” Ben nodded and Carina
sighed and walked up the stairs and sat on the couch, waiting.

“Listen, have you talked to Mason in a while?” Lane asked, sitting across from his daughter.

“No, the last time I saw him he was at the homeless spots down by the bridge off of 123rd
St.” Maya said, leaning back in her chair. “That was a year ago.” She shrugged.

“Did you give him your number?” Lane asked. Maya nodded and raised her eyebrow.

“Why would you do that? He chose to leave and not talk to any of us!” Lane had anger in his
face. Maya could feel her heart beating faster. ‘Stand firm’ she told herself.
“I did it for him to have someone, dad. I am not sorry that he had it. He knew he could reach
out at any point in his struggles. Unlike you, I made him feel welcome by relying on family.
So, it wasn’t a problem for me. You are half the reason Mason used drugs.” Maya snapped
back at her father.

“You don’t get to talk to me like that young lady.” He glared at his own daughter.

“You are using the taxpayers time, if you have anything else you’d like to say then go on and
say it. If not, then you need to leave my office because I have reports to get done.” Maya said
sternly, looking between her mother and her father.

“Mason is dead because of you.” Lane stood up. “Because of you, he felt like a
disappointment, like he somehow let you down. He wasn’t successful enough for you.” Lane
leaned over to Maya and stared into her eyes. “You killed your brother.”

Maya stood up and watched her father lean into her. “He made his choices, dad. Now if you
would like to talk about anything else, feel free to contact me outside of work. For now, I
need you to leave.” Maya walked to the door and opened it. Lane stormed out of the office
and pushed the door open hard enough that it almost broke. Katherine was following behind
him with her head held down. Carina was at the bottom of the stairs, watching the scene in
front of her. Maya was staring at the door and then turned to look at Carina and then walked
into her office and shut her door.

“Call me if she is asking for me.” Carina grabbed her car keys from her pocket and left.

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Maya buried herself into paperwork, her body was physically exhausted. Running, she
needed to run. So, Maya got up and changed into her clothes and then walked to the gym.
She started the treadmill and began to run. Her body felt weak because she hadn’t had much
water today, let alone much food. Her mind was everywhere. Why would Mason run into
their father's car? Was he drunk? Was he high? Was he clean? Maya wondered it all. She
wondered what had happened. He was independent. Didn’t rely on anyone. He reached out to
Maya a few times to ask her if she was doing okay. Maya would ask him the same and he
would tell her to not worry about him. She continued to run faster. Her body was sweating,
and her heart was pounding. She was punishing herself for the death of her little brother. She
was punishing herself for the recent death of her friend/ colleague. Her ex-lover's death was
her fault too. Maya ran. Soon she looked down and had already run eight miles. How? How
long has it been? She could feel her knees getting ready to collapse on her and she stopped
the treadmill, only to find Andy standing beside it.

“What are you doing?” Andy asked.

“Running, there is a whole other area for you to work out, go there.” Maya snapped and
wiped off her face and chugged some water Andy had brought her.

“No, what are you doing?” Andy asked again, this time sterner. “Maya, you run like this
when you feel you have to punish yourself.” She added.
“I’m getting my run in for the day, I haven’t been able to do it for a while.” Maya shrugged,
her eyes were almost red. They burned.

“Mai... come on. Carina called me and told me; she is worried sick about you.” The Latina
handed the blonde another water.

“Let her worry. She doesn’t know me.” Maya shrugged and walked over to the weights and
grabbed the water, chugging that one and then started to lift weights.

“Wow… I know you get stuck in your head sometimes, but damn. Pull your head out of your
ass and realize that she cares about you, Maya and I know for damn sure you feel the same
about her. So, this little tough face you are putting on isn’t fooling anyone. Go home to her
and explain yourself. She isn’t Dearborn. She won’t make you feel alone or make you feel
like you are asking too much. She had a bad day too. Her brother has been admitted to the
hospital.” Andy shouldn’t have told Maya the last part, but her anger towards Maya’s attitude
was enough.

“What?” Maya dropped the weight and turned to the Latina who was already walking out of
the gym.

“Shift is over, Maya. Go home.” Andy said and then was out of sight. Crap… Maya didn’t
even ask Carina how she was. She hasn’t even checked her phone. She grabbed another water
from the fridge and then walked to her office and pulled her phone out of her drawer. 10
missed calls from Lane, 3 missed calls from Carina and a text

Carina: Bambina, I know the news shocked you but please come to my apartment… I just
need you.

Maya felt like crap, she quickly changed and gathered her stuff and drove to Carina’s
apartment. The nerves and the guilt were eating her up. She sighed and got out of her car
once she arrived and walked up to the door and knocked. No one answered.

“Carina...” Maya said, knocking again. “Please open the door.” She knocked a few more
times and waited. The apartment was silent. She sighed and looked at the time. It was almost
midnight. Maybe she was asleep.

“Dear, are you looking for someone?” A lady asked. Maya turned around and nodded.

“Yes, I was looking for Carina, she lives here.” Maya said,

“Oh honey, I think she left about an hour ago in a bit of a hurry.” She said, walking back
inside her apartment.

Maya knew of two places Carina could be, so she drove to the first one. The hospital. She
arrived and rushed to the OB floor, no sign of Carina. No one has heard from her and she
wasn’t in Andrew’s room since he was on a 72-hour hold; he wasn't allowed to have visitors
for the first 48 hours. Maya then decided there was one other place she could be. So, she
drove to the park and pulled up. Her car was there. Maya sighed, it was now pouring rain,
Carina was sitting on a bench. It was the bench that she always sat at with Andrew, and he
would tell her stories about their mom, and this was her favorite place because it looked out
by the water and the moon shined so beautifully against it. The bridge was usually full of cars
going back and forth, dogs would walk along the sidewalk, and it was just like a breath of
fresh air. Maya got out and walked over to Carina who was soaking wet. She sat down beside
her; Carina hadn’t even noticed her eyes were closed.

“Carina.” Maya said softly and suddenly the Italian looked at the blonde and all her emotions
came pouring out.

“Bambina.” She cried out and Maya scooted closer and brought Carina into her arms, letting
her feel all her emotions. It was like she has been holding them in all day for this moment to
be in Maya’s arms.

“Hey, I know that its comfortable to be here, but let's go get you warmed up, okay?” Maya
asked, Carina nodded and let Maya lead her towards her car. “We can leave my car here; I’ll
see if someone will come get it.” Maya said, grabbing Carina’s car keys from her pocket, she
helped Carina into the passenger seat then the blonde got into the driver's seat, Carina was
quiet now, silent tears rolling down her cheeks.

“I can’t go back to my apartment.” Carina said so softly and vulnerable.

“Okay.” Maya nodded. “We can go to mine.” Maya drove to her apartment, once she got
there, she helped Carina inside. “Come here.” Maya said, grabbing Carina’s cheeks so she
would look at her.

“Maya.” She whispered, grabbing at the blonde’s shirt and taking it off. Maya felt Carina’s
cold fingers against her skin, and she gasped.

“Baby, I don’t think we should.” Maya said, Carina was working on Maya’s bra.

“You don’t want me?” Carina asked, looking at the blonde.

“No, trust me I do. But we... we shouldn’t. Let’s just get you in warm clothes and I’ll make
you some soup.” Maya offered, Carina shook her head and kissed Maya deeply. She kissed
Carina back, grabbing at the back of her head, she wasn’t sure what Carina needed at the
moment. But Maya could feel Carina digging at her skin. “Car.. come on.” Maya led her to
the bathroom and began to undress Carina and started the bathtub. Once the water was warm,
Carina took off the rest of her clothes and got in. Maya put in some bubbles and made sure
the water was hot. She kissed the brunette's head. Maya walked out of the bathroom and
knocked on Andy’s door, once the Latina opened it she looked at Maya with anger/calmness.

“I drove Carina’s car here; I need to get mine.” Maya said, fiddling with her fingers. “I don’t
want to leave her alone.”

“I got you.” Andy said, looking at Maya. “Don’t let her be alone, Mai. I know you are going
through some shit right now, but that woman loves you.” Andy said, grabbing onto Maya’s
shoulder and smiling.

“I love her… Andy. I’m so scared.” Maya admitted in a whisper.

“Go love her, Maya.” Andy turned the blonde and Maya walked back to her room and shut
the door. She found Carina sitting in the tub and tears were still rolling down her cheek, so
Maya got undressed and got into the tub, facing Carina.

“Carina… What do you need?” Maya asked.

“J-just help me forget… please.” She begged. “Please.” She said again, pulling Maya to her.
“Just help me forget the world for a little bit.” Maya nodded and kissed along Carina’s neck.
She wasn’t sure if sex was the greatest idea when they were both at such an emotional state,
but Maya couldn’t deny Carina anything.

So, Maya slid her fingers down the woman's abdomen and to her slit, feeling how wet she
was. “Mmm.” Carina hummed and Maya started to circle the woman’s clit. “Yes... Maya.
Fuck.” Carina arched her back and grabbed at the edge of the tub. The blonde slid two fingers
inside of her lover and attached her lips back to the tan neck, sucking and biting on her skin.
Carina was already close; she just needed a release from all the stress. “Bambina, please.”
Carina begged, whimpers escaping her lips.

“What do you need, my love?” Maya asked, looking at the brunette who had her eyes closed
and her bottom lip between her lips.

“Make me cum.” Carina moved her hips to meet Maya’s fingers, she increased her pace
inside of the Italian and brought her thumb to her clit and moved at a fast pace. Carina arched
her back again and let out moans as her release took over her body. Maya moved her fingers
inside of Carina through her orgasm, kissing her jaw then her neck. Carina put her hand on
the back of Maya’s neck and brought Maya’s lips to her own, kissing her. Maya slowly pulled
her fingers out of Carina and kissed her back.

They both sat in the tub for a while longer, Maya was facing Carina, and her head was resting
on her chest. She ran her fingers lightly along the woman's arm, Carina ran her fingers lightly
along Maya’s back.

“I’m sorry about earlier.” Maya said softly.

“It’s okay, I understand.” Carina whispered, kissing the top of the blonde’s head.

“What happened with your brother?” Maya asked and she felt Carina’s body tense, and her
fingers stop trailing along her back. Maya sat up and faced the woman in front of her.

“He um. There was a switch. He just was manic, he went off on Meredith today, then Vic
tried to calm him down and he just kept yelling. He lost a patient, and I thought that maybe
he was taking it hard, but he was acting the way Papa did when he was manic, he has been
staying up and working twenty-four-hour shifts, I-I should have caught it.” Carina sighed and
let her tears fall again. “He just kept working and he was operating on people!” Carina was
moving her hands. “H-he yelled at me today and told me that I was comparing him to Papa,
and he just got in my face and told me I was so focused on you I didn’t hear his cries for
help.” Carina didn’t want to admit that last part, she thought Andrew was just working and
picking up shifts to avoid dealing with his breakup.
“Carina, you couldn’t have known.” Maya assured her and grabbed the brunette’s hands.

“Your brother was his patient, Maya. I- I left because one of my mom’s came in and she was
in active labor, but I left him, and I thought he was okay.” Carina was rambling, her story was
coming out in pieces. Maya wasn’t sure what landed Andrew into a 72-hour hold.

“Carina, no one could have known!” She was defending her.

“Maya! He missed a major part... He took your brother to surgery! Your brother came in for
major injuries, yes, but he had a brain bleed, and his system was filled with illegal amounts of
substances. He never paged Amelia to have a neuro consult...” Carina finally let it out and
Maya dropped Carina’s hands. “He was on a death wish... He said he knew what he was
doing. T-the attendings were everywhere and I saw him go into the elevators, I swore that I
saw Amilia and then when she came to me to tell me what had happened, that’s when
Andrew broke down. It was in the middle of the hospital. He was spinning, Maya. He lost
that patient and when he realized why, he broke. Something in him broke.” Carina was now
in a puddle of tears; the water was getting cold.

“Your brother killed my brother?” Maya asked, looking at Carina with tears running down
her cheeks. Carina took a breath and scuffed.

“Mistakes happen to Maya.” Carina defended her brother.

“Oh! Now you want to defend your brother!” Maya got out of the tub and grabbed a towel;
she walked out of the bathroom.

“Maya!” Carina said as she got out of the tub as well and grabbed the other towel and
wrapped it around herself.

“You’re a doctor, Carina. You didn’t think to check in on it?” Maya asked, standing by her
window, far away from Carina.

“He was no longer my patient. He was left in a senior resident's spot and by that time they are
allowed to have their own patients.” Carina defended. “I was already on my floor delivering a
baby by the time that surgery was done. Regardless of what you think, Maya. Andrea would
never have killed your brother purposefully.” Carina stood there and watched Maya.

“Right. But no one can catch a doctor who is having a manic episode! There is doctors filled
in that fucking place!” Maya was raising her voice, and it was like her eyes went cold and
Carina suddenly felt so small.

“You’re right.” Carina grabbed her clothes and got dressed. Maya watched her, her mind was
racing. Of course, it wasn’t Carina’s fault, it wasn’t even Andrew’s fault that this was all
happening. “You know, Maya. I have been patient and I wanted to be here for you. But for
you to even think that my brother would have just put your brother's life in danger is the last
straw for me.” Carina said as she put on her jacket. Maya watched her, she couldn’t get words
out. Her anger that her brother was dead was getting to her, her father’s words sitting in her
mind. The rage her father felt was boiling inside of Maya and suddenly Maya felt her feet
move and she stopped Carina from walking out.
 “I’m sorry. I-I shouldn’t have said that.” Maya said softly, looking up at Carina, but Carina
didn’t meet her eyes.

“I think we should just take a little bit of time away from each other.” Carina muttered out
and opened the door.

“Please Carina, I didn’t mean to say it.” Maya begged and followed Carina to the door.

“No! You didn’t but you said it, so you were thinking it, Maya. The cold look in your eyes
made me believe that a part of you really thought my brother did this on purpose. You are
right, we are doctors, and he is surrounded by doctors, that’s why he is in a hospital bed,
alone and I’m here with you. Because I put him in a holding! I did that! Because I knew he
wasn’t okay. I’m sorry it cost your brother's life but to be quite fair, your brother would have
either not been the same, or brain dead. His injuries were extensive Maya. He overdosed. He
was drugged up; his alcohol level was well over the legal limit. I’m so sorry that my brother
has been having a rough month and killed your brother.” Carina snapped and grabbed her car
keys. “Please, do not tell me you are sorry because I don’t know if I believe that.” Carina
walked out of the apartment, tears rolling down her cheek. Maya watched her leave, and her
heart sank.

Andy was just stepping out of Maya’s car and found Carina walking to her car.

“Hey, hey. What’s wrong?” Andy asked, coming up to Cariana.

“I’m sorry Andy… I’m so sorry about her brother. Please take care of her.” Carina got into
her car and drove off.

Andy was left confused, she walked up to the apartment and found Maya standing in the
living room, still staring at the door. The Latina shut the door and walked over to Maya.

“Mai..” Andy said and Maya broke. All the feelings she has been holding in, all the rage that
was built inside of her was released. She let out a sob and fell into Andy’s arms. Who was
she to judge Andrew? She had her fair share of crap she has been through. Who was she to
accuse Carina of not taking care of her brother when all she did her entire life was take care
of her father. Who was Maya to judge anyone when she went to a fire scene mad at Charlotte
and almost got her best friend killed. Who was Maya to judge anyone when she laid in bed
and cried for her dead lover? Who was Maya to push Carina away when she could have left
at any point. Who was Maya to judge anyone? Now she lost another person she loved.
Charlotte was right… Maya was selfish. And now Maya sees it.

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Carina walked into her apartment and sniffled. Her entire body felt so heavy. She could
understand Maya’s anger towards the situation, but how… why would she even accuse her
brother of that. Carina knew Maya was in a hard place but so was she and it wasn’t about
who was in a worse situation all that Carina wanted was to be wrapped in Maya’s arms. She
walked into her room and shut the door, her clothes came off and she put on one of Maya’s
shirts and she laid down on her bed, sobbing into the pillow.

“Maya... go talk to her. She has been so patient and understanding with you. Explain that
your reaction wasn’t intentional. Tell her you care. Show her, Maya. Do not lose her because
she is better than what you’ve had, and she loves you. I can see it. I know you love her. You
tell me every day about how in love with her you are.” Andy stood up. “Maya gets up and go.
She needs you.” Andy demanded and the blonde slowly stood up. She looked at her best
friend, cheeks stained with tears and her eyes were red.

“What do I even say to her, Andy? Sorry I’m just like my father? I snapped.” Maya shrugged.

“You are not your father, Maya. Get that out of your head and go get you girl.” Andy handed
Maya her car keys and left Maya to make her choice.

The blonde looked at the keys and then walked out of the apartment, she wanted to apologize
to Carina, she wanted to just tell Carina how sorry she was. She walked into the flower shop
she first went to before her first date with Carina and grabbed the peach-colored roses. A
dozen. Maya decided that she was in fact in love with Carina and she wanted to express it.

A knock on the door startled Carina and she sat up in bed, hearing a knock again. Sighing,
she slid on a pair of shorts and walked over to the door, she looked through the peek hole and
found the woman she just fought with, suddenly the anger inside of her boiled up.

“I told you I need space.” Carina said through the door.

“Please, let’s talk.” Maya begged, she was soaking wet and shivering.

“Maya.. I am exhausted from talking. I have nothing left to say.” Carina answered, her back
was leaned against the door. Her heart fought with her mind. She wanted to let the woman in,
but her logical mind told her no because Maya hurt her.

“You don’t have to talk, just give me a chance to say my piece and I’ll leave you alone.”
Maya sounded so soft and unlike what she was a few hours ago. Carina stood against the
door and let her tears fall. “I’m not going to give you up that easily.” Maya said, her hand on
the door, it was like Carina could feel it because she placed her hand on the door in the same
spot that Maya’s was.

“Fine.” Carina opened the door to find the blonde shivering. Maya walked in, soaking wet.
Carina sighed softly and shut the door. “There’s a change of clothes in my room.” She simply
said, walking back to her bedroom and grabbing another t-shirt Maya had left and a pair of
sweatpants. The blonde was standing at the door frame and watched as Carina handed her the
clothes. Maya had set down the roses on the counter before she met Carina by her bedroom
and she walked into the bathroom and changed out of her wet clothes, Carina knew her well
enough she put a pair of fresh socks in the bunch of clothes. So, Maya put those one and
came out, Carina grabbed her clothes and put them in her dryer. She spotted the roses and
then she turned to find Maya standing beside her at a distance.

“You can say your piece. I’m listening.” Carina said, starting the dryer and then turning to
face the blonde. Maya walked over to the counter and grabbed the roses.

“I still remember the way your eyes lit up in the dim lighting at the bar the night we met. It
was like the magic was still there. You held this magical energy about you, and it was like...
Gosh. It was the most comforting thing. And the way your lips felt against mine was
everything I had been searching for. It’s like you-you fit.” Maya looked at Carina as she
leaned against the wall. “The first date we ever went on I spent the day spreading these roses
out and talking to people and the magic was there. The feeling of just being around you
brought me so much peace. It was like the breakup I had just gone through didn’t exist.”
Maya took a rose out from the dozen and held it. “You have been there for me through these
tough few weeks, and you have been patient.” Maya looked at the rose. “The first time I
watched you smile on our first date I knew I was going to fall in love with you.” She handed
Carina the rose. “That’s one reason I love you.” Carina took the rose from Maya and her
stomach felt like it was doing summersaults. “The second time I watched how you always
searched for me. Even when I was right in front of you, there you were, calming me down.”
Maya pulled out the second rose. “That’s another reason I love you.” The blonde gave the
woman in front of her the next rose. “Third, the way you could just light up a room just by
walking into it.” Maya smiled at the thought, she extended another rose. “Fourth, you let me
cry to you about my ex being dead and you never even… you never thought of me
differently.” Carina grabbed the rose from Maya, and she held onto them for dear life as she
listened to the blonde talk. “Fifth. The first time I knew you made love to me. You were so
gentle, but you just had to make me feel on fire.” Maya handed her the next rose. “Sixth, you
went to those funerals with me, even though you didn’t know either of them. You went for
me.” Maya now had tears falling down her face. “Seventh, I wanted to love you. I’ve never
fallen in love with someone the way I have fallen in love with you.” Maya had to pause,
Carina was grabbing each rose, now her head hung down as she stared at them. “Eighth, you
reassured me that you weren’t interested in anyone else, that you only had eyes for me. And I
could tell by your eyes that you meant it.” Maya handed her the rose. “Nine, when we cuddle,
you always hold me even though I know you want to be the little spoon, you insist on
keeping me in your arms. Ten, you came to my work to tell me heartbreaking news and you
stayed till you couldn’t. Eleven, you have changed the way I view people, I thought before
that I could never be loved. Twelve, you... Carina. You make my heart stop every time I’m
near you. All I want is you. You are what I crave and to feel your arms wrapped around me.
You make me feel so safe and to lose you… I’d be a fool.” Maya handed her the last rose and
Carina was sniffling. Maya stood there and waited, she wasn’t sure what to do next, her mind
wanted to comfort her, but she wasn’t sure what Carina wanted. The blonde listened to her
heart, and she walked closer to Carina and noticed she didn’t move, so she grabbed Carina by
her waist and hugged her tightly. The brunette wrapped her arms around Maya. The blonde
pushed Carina towards her harder and tighter. Carina was sobbing into Maya’s neck. Maya
held onto Carina as long as she would allow her to. Until slowly, Carina pulled away. Maya
kept her hands on Carina’s waist and looked up at her. Neither of them said a word, Carina
leaned into her and kissed the blonde softly, Maya kissed her back.

“Carina.” She whispered, not wanting to ruin the moment. The Italian hummed and looked
into Maya’s eyes. “Let me hold you tonight.” Maya suggested, leading Carina to her room.

“Maya… I’m so tired.” Carina whispered as she followed the blonde.

“Lay down, I’ll put these in water.” Maya went to walk out of the room and Carina held onto
the blonde and kissed her deeply. Maya moaned into the kiss and kissed her back with such
intensity. Slowly, Maya pulled away and Carina went to lay down. She put the flowers in a
vase with water, locked the door and turned off the lights. She shut Carina’s bedroom door,
took off her sweats and laid down with Carina wrapping her arm around the woman’s torso
and pulling her flesh against her. Their legs tangled together.

As they laid there for a while, Carina slowly turned to face Maya, her hands going around the
blonde.

“I’m supposed to be holding you.” Maya said, chuckling a little.

“You are, I just needed to touch you.” Carina whispered. “Maya...” She moved in closer, and
Maya moved her other hand to play with Carina’s hair as she listened to her. “I love you too.”
Carina admitted, her eyes meeting the blue ones in front of her. Maya laid there, shocked. She
wasn’t expecting her to say it back, she did hope.

“R-really?” Maya asked, tears filling her eyes.

“Yes, Maya I love you.” Carina said, smiling.

“I love you too.” Maya leaned in and kissed Carina. The Italian kissed her back and smiled.
They both laid close to each other and fell into a slumber.

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Carina woke up the next morning, she looked around and found the blonde beside her, lightly
snoring. She felt like last night was a blur, she was still upset with Maya, but not enough to
make her leave. Rolling over she looked at the time and found a text from Meredith.
Meredith Grey: Hey, Andrew had a rough night, but he is doing better and resting.

Carina read the text and sighed. Only 24 more hours and she could visit him, she could break
the rules as a doctor and see him, but Andrew was very upset with Carina, and she didn’t
want to make the situation worse. Carina set her phone down and felt her lover moving closer
to her and kissing her shoulder through her t-shirt.

“Buongiorno, Bambina.” Carina mumbled, turning in her arms and facing the blonde.

“Good morning.” Maya’s voice when she woke up was a little deeper and it sent chills
through Carina’s body.

“Maya...” Carina said softly, playing with the blonde locks. “I still would like to talk about
what happened, but I haven’t eaten since yesterday morning so I’m going to cook for you,
and I’d really love it if you would join me.” Carina smiled slightly and kissed her lips before
getting out of bed. “Whenever you are ready.” Carina added before walking out of the
bedroom and into the kitchen.

Maya sighed and watched the brunette get out of bed, she knew she owed an apology to
Carina for what she said, but where does she start? She had to process things that happened.
She could hear Carina in the kitchen going through dishes, slowly the blonde gets out of bed
and walked into the kitchen. Carina had her Italian music softly playing on the radio and she
was mixing eggs into a bowl. She slowly walked up to Carina and stood beside her.

“Can I help you while we talk?” Maya asked.

“Si, just um, grab the bread from the cabinet right there and if you will add the cinnamon and
a little bit of sugar in here, I am going to grab a pan.” Carina said as she walked to the stove
and pulled a pan to a burner and turned it on.

“Okay.” Maya nodded and walked over to the panty and grabbed the bread then she walked
to the bowl of mixed eggs, and she poured a spoon full of cinnamon in there and then a pinch
of sugar, she mixed it into the bowel and then turned to face Carina.

“I’m sorry I jumped to the conclusion I did.” Maya said, taking in a shaky breath. “I don’t
think that your brother killed my brother, I was wrong to say that.” Carina walked over to
Maya and grabbed the bowl of mixed eggs and grabbed the bread, she placed the bowl on the
counter beside the stove and pulled out a few slices of bread.

“I understand your anger or emotions I guess, but what you said was uncalled for.” Carina
grabbed a fork and put the bread into the mix of eggs and waited a few seconds before
turning it over. “Maya, my brother has always been independent, and he knows his limits. I
trusted him.” Carina placed the bread on the pan and turned to the blonde.

“I get it.” Maya simply stated.

“He has a lot going on, we all do. And I was hoping that Papa being here wouldn’t have
messed with him b-but it did, and I know that your brother died, and your dad came but
Maya, I needed you.” Carina finally admitted. She took the piece of toast off of the pan and
placed it on a plate and then did the same thing with another piece of bread.

“I was just in a state of shock. I’m not trying to find excuses. I am saying that I’m sorry
Carina. I was in the wrong.” The blonde grabbed the powdered sugar and syrup.
“I know Maya and I forgive you.” Carina sighed and turned to face the blonde. “But I don’t
ever want to feel like I did last night.” Carina flipped the piece of bread in the pan.

“Let me make it up to you.” Maya said walking over to Carina. “Please let me show you that
I care.” Maya was standing beside Carina.

“I want to… Maya but I’m so terrified.” The Italian grabbed the next piece of bread and
placed it in the pan.

“I know that things have started off way too complicated for us, Carina. But if we just give
ourselves a chance, I think we can be great.” Maya was hopeful. Carina finished their French
toast and then showed Maya how to put the powder sugar on and then she grabbed some
fresh orange juice she made and set it out on the table. Maya finished the powdered sugar and
then set the plates down on either side.

“I trust that you want to make this work. But how can I be assured you won’t just let words
like that spill out on our next fight?” Carina asked, sitting down. Maya sat across from her.

“I can’t promise that I am perfect, Carina.” Maya shrugged. “But I want to show you that I
care and want to work on this. I can’t promise I won’t say something that will upset you and
you can’t either Carina. We are human, we will mess up. But it’s worth it to just try. I am
trying to not be like my father. I’m so afraid one day I am going to snap one day, and you will
never look at me again.” Maya shrugged. “I don’t want to be like him.” Carina listened to
every word Maya said, she got up and knelt down beside Maya.

“You will never be like him, Bambina.” Carina smiled slightly. “You are far from your father.
Now eat up.” Carina kissed her cheek and waited for her to take a bite. As it hit her mouth,
Maya let out a moan.

“This might be better than sex.” Maya took another bite and then her eyes went wide.

“Haha, that sounds like a challenge, Bella.” Carina took a bite of her own food. Maya was red
as a tomato, it made Carina laugh. “Can I ask you something?” Carina asked, taking another
bite. Maya nodded; her mouth was too full to speak.

Carina took a minute so Maya could chew, and she smiled. “Maya will you be my
girlfriend?” Carina asked. “I’m not sure how to do this, I don’t put labels on things, but I
want you to be mine. Even though you say you’re mine, I want my mind to know you are
mine.” Carina was rambling, sometimes she did that when she was nervous, and Maya found
it so adorable.

“Yes.” Maya said before Carina could finish getting her words out. “A thousand times yes.”
Carina smiled and looked over at Maya. “More than anything I want that.” She jumped out of
her seat and kissed Carina, catching the Italian by surprise but Carina gladly kissed her back.

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The couple went about their day, Maya had to go by the Station to grab some stuff and then
Carina needed to run by the hospital to lay eyes on Andrew. Regardless if her brother was
mad at her, she needed to know he was alive.

“I’m nervous.” Carina admitted, walking down the hall. She stopped and found her brother
sitting on the bed, he looked like had been crying. All Carina wanted to do was wrap her
arms around her brother. Maya wrapped her arm around the small of Carina’s back as they
stood there.

“Carina.” Meredith came out of the doors and walked over to her. “Hey.” She smiled and
Carina smiled back.

“How is he?” Carina asked.

“He has had a really hard day; he’s been asking for you.” Meredith sighed. “I think you
should talk to him.” Carina shook her head.

“I can’t… not yet. He is still mad at me. I know he is.” Carina shrugged.

“Babe, maybe you should if he has been asking for you.” Maya suggested.

“No, he can have visitors tomorrow and I’ll be there by tomorrow.” Carina shrugged herself
away from Maya and walked away.

“I’ll talk to her.” Maya walked over to Carina and sat down on the bench beside her. “Car... I
know that things are messy in your mind, but your brother is asking for you. It’s okay to take
a minute and talk to him. You won’t harm him.” Maya said, looking at the brunette. “I think
that you are upset with yourself more than anything and that you didn’t catch this, but Carina.
It’s okay. He is okay.” Maya paused and waited to see if Carina was going to say anything.
“I’ll wait for you in your office.” Maya kissed her cheek and then walked towards the
elevator.

Carina sat on the bench for what seemed like an hour, finally she got up and nodded.
Meredith let Carina into the room and for the first time in almost thirty five hours she has
seen her brother so broken and vulnerable. Her baby brother… empty.

“Andrea.” She whispered.

“Cosa vuoi?” (What do you want?) Andrew asked, not looking at Carina. He was crying
again.

“Non è colpa tua.” (It’s not your fault) Carina replied, standing near the door. Andrew stood
up; not moving from the side of the bed and he finally looked into his sisters eyes.

“Ho fatto la chiamata sbagliata. E' colpa mia.” (I made the wrong call. It is my fault)

“Alla fine sarebbe morto, Andrea.” (He was going to die in the end, Andrea.)

“E se avessi potuto salvarlo se non avessi sbagliato quell'ultimo passaggio?” (What if I could
have saved him if I didn’t miss that last step) Andrew argued. Carina looked at him and
shook her head.

“Stava per morire. Avreste potuto dargli più tempo, ma non sarebbe stato per molto tempo.”
(He was going to die. You could have given him more time, but it wouldn't have been for
very long.) Carina walked closer to her brother and for the first time, Andrew melted into his
sister's arms, and he cried. Carina cried with him. How could she let her baby brother go
through this?

After a long visit, Carina made her way to her office, she found Maya on the couch, waiting.

“Hi.” Maya stood up and walked over to her girlfriend.

“Caio.” Carina greeted and pulled Maya towards her. The blonde wrapped her arms around
Carina’s waist and pulled her in for a tight hug. “Can we just go back to the apartment and
watch a movie?” Carina asked. “We can order take out and just cuddle.” Carina smiled and
kissed Maya deeply. The blonde placed both hands on the side of Carina’s neck and kissed
her back.

“I’m all for the cuddles.” Maya said, kissing the brunette again and pulling away. “My
apartment? Or yours?” Maya asked, kissing Carina’s jaw. The brunette chuckled and closed
her eyes.

“Yours, Andy can join.” Carina laughed and kissed the blonde one more time before taking
her by the hand and dragging Maya out of the hospital.

They got back to Maya’s apartment, after stopping at Carina’s to grab a change of clothes for
a few days and then grabbing food for everyone. Maya set the food down on the counter.

“Well, well, well lovebirds.” Andy teased, smiling. “I’m surprised you don’t have her laid up
in bed Maya.” Andy laughed and started to separate the food. Maya was blushing and she
shook her head.

“Not yet anyways.” Carina added, biting her lip.

“Stop. Both of you.” Maya laughed and walked to her bedroom, Carina followed and shut the
door. She pushed Maya against the wall and kissed her again.

“Why don’t you have me laid up in bed right now Ms. Bishop?” Carina asked, biting on
Maya’s lower lip and pulling. Maya gasped and brought Carina against her body.

“I can change that.” Maya said. “You are good for more than sex.” She added, kissing Carina
one last time before taking off her own clothes and putting on a tank top and shorts. Carina
smiled.

“I want you to have sex with me at some point.” Maya stopped in her tracks and turned
around, Carina bit her own lip and laughed. “Tonight. I even packed the toys.” Carina took
off her clothes and also put on a pair of shorts and a t-shirt. They walked out of the bedroom
hand in hand.
“Are you two on again?” Maya asked Andy when she saw Ryan sitting in the living room.
Andy was grabbing a fork and she shrugged.

“It’s just a thing.” Andy walked back to Ryan and sat down with him on the couch, now that
they finally had two couches in the living room. Maya handed Carina her food and a fork
then grabbed her own and walked to the living room. They all chose a funny movie. Carina
put a blanket over her and Maya’s lap and ate her food. They started another movie once the
first one was over, Carina was no cuddled up into Maya’s chest, her entire weight on the
blonde’s body. She had gotten a few updates about Andrew and as far as it was going, he was
doing okay. Before the movie started, Maya’s phone was ringing, she looked at it and then set
it back down and pulled Carina closer to her, silently just telling Carina she needed her close.
Once the movie started, Maya was trying to not let her tears fall, but failed, it landed on
Carina’s hand and the Italian looked up at her girlfriend, she slowly sat up.

“Bambina, come with me? I need help finding something.” Carina got up and Maya did as
well, she followed the Italian to her bedroom and sighed.

“What’s wrong?” Carina asked, shutting the bedroom door quietly and looking at Maya. The
blonde shook her head. If Carina has learned something about Maya this past month, it’s to
not push her.

“My dad is calling me, and I don’t want to know what he has to say.” She said softly. “He
blamed me for Mason’s death.” Maya sighed and looked up at the ceiling.

“Bambina, you know it isn’t your fault.” Carina said softly. “Come here.” Carina whispered.

“Carina.” She whispered before coming over to her. “Please just...” Maya sighed and felt
Carina push her back against the door. Carina nodded and slid her hands up the woman’s leg,
watching her. “Just touch me, baby.” Maya begged.

“Patients, Bambina.” Carina whispered and slid her hands into the blonde’s shorts. “You have
to be quiet so that Andy doesn’t hear us.” Carina smirked and grazed her fingers over the
blonde’s folds over her panties. Maya nodded and gasped. Carina slid her fingers inside of
Maya’s panties and rubbed her clit slowly in small circles. She leaned into the woman and
pushed her as far as she could against the door. “So wet for me, bella.” Carina applied a faster
pace, watching as Maya’s mouth gaped open but no sound was coming out. “Such a good
girl.” Carina moved her hand further down and slid two fingers inside of the woman's cunt,
hearing her groan.

“Fuck.” Maya whispered, her head leaning against the corner of the door and the wall, and
she was gripping onto the women's t-shirt.

“So greedy.” Carina moaned and moved her fingers in and out faster. “You like my fingers
inside of you?” Carina asked, leaning in to kiss Maya’s neck, sucking on her skin.

“Oh Carina. I. love it.” Maya said in between breaths, one of her legs hooked onto Carina’s
waist and she felt her fingers sliding in at a different angle.
“Yes, Bambina, feel me fucking you.” Carina grabbed onto Maya’s ass with one hand, adding
another finger and watching Maya grip harder onto her t-shirt, she could feel her pussy
clenching against her fingers. “Are you close?” Carina asked, kissing the blonde and then
kissing her neck again.

“Yes baby, I’m so so close.” Maya moaned and moved her hips to meet Carina’s fingers. “Oh
fuck.” Maya gasped and let her orgasm take over her body, Carina continued to finger the
woman through her orgasm, speeding up. “Oh god.” Maya moaned and arched her back.
Once Maya’s orgasm had subsided, Carina slowly pulled her fingers out. As soon as Maya
opened her eyes, she watched Carina lick her fingers clean, the blonde grabbed Carina and
kissed her deeply, moaning.

“Mmmh, you owe me later.” Carina whispered and kissed the blonde again before pulling
away. “Now let’s go finish this movie, leave your phone alone tonight.” Carina grabbed her
hand and walked towards the living room. They both laid down, Maya was now laying on
Carina as the movie continued to play, she finally felt relaxed.

“Well, lovebirds. Ryan and I are going to go out for some ice cream. Do you want to join?”
Andy asked as she stood up.

“No, I think we will stay in, but bring some back?” Maya asked, and Andy nodded, smirking.

Once Andy and Ryan walked out of the door, Maya was kissing Carina deeply. “Do you want
to move to the bedroom?” Carina asked, kissing Maya.

“No.” Maya whispered. “Pull the blanket up and take off your shorts.” Maya said, and Carina
did just that, Maya helped her and then kissed along her girlfriends' thighs, marking each one,
Carina let out a moan and held onto the blankets, Maya was now kissing her folds and
sucking on the skin of her cunt, and it was making Carina feel hot.

“Bambina, fuck me.” Carina begged. Maya continued to suck at her skin and moved her
thumb to the woman's clit, sliding her tongue inside of the woman, Carina let out a whimper
and moved on hand to the blonde’s head, pushing her face to her cunt. Maya circled her clit
faster and licked her inside’s faster. Carina was a mess; she was let out moans and whines.
Maya soon pulled her tongue away and licked at Carina’s clit, moaning at the taste. The faster
her tongue went against the swollen bud, the more wet Carina got, parts of it were leaking
down on the couch. “Dio Mio! Maya.” Carina moaned and grabbed at her own breast, Maya’s
tongue flattened, and she flicked at it, then she pulled away, realizing how wet Carina was
she quickly pulled her shorts and placed them under her, and she moved two fingers back and
forth against the womans clit, watching the wetness covering her entire cunt.

“Fuck baby you are so wet.” Maya whispered.

“Bambina, we need to go to a room, I’m about to make a mess and I don’t want to explain to
Andy what happened.” Carina whispered and Maya knew, so they both quickly got up and
went to the bedroom, she shut the door and pushed Carina back onto the bed, and grabbed a
towel and slid it under Carina’s hips. “Maya, fuck me.” Carina begged.
“Yes ma’am.” Maya moved her mouth back to her lover's cunt and licked up her juices,
Carina let out a louder moan and arched her back. Maya rolled her tongue over the swollen
bud, getting Carina just as wet as she was on the couch.

“Bambina!” Carina whined and moved her hips against the woman's face. Maya pulled her
mouth away, sucking at her clit before pulling away again and moving her two fingers against
the woman's clint in a side-to-side motion, watching her cunt get more wet. “Oh!” Carina let
out a silent scream as liquid poured out of her cunt. Maya watched and slowed her fingers
down giving Carina a second to catch her breath and she leaned in and licked up the juices,
moaning. She then rubbed the clit faster and harder causing Carina to moan again, and liquid
poured out again. Carina screamed Maya’s name and pulled the blonde’s hand away. Maya
smirked and kissed at the blonde’s cunt before coming up to Carina’s face, kissing her deeply.
Carina kissed her back, moaning at the taste. Slowly Maya slid off of Carina’s body and
smiled.

“Did I make it up to you?” Carina asked.

“Yes, you did.” Carina chuckled and sighed; they heard the front door open. “Just in time
too.” Carina smirked and got up from the bed, but she felt her legs tremble and Maya grabbed
at her waist.
“Too wobbly to walk?” Maya smirked, kissing the woman’s neck, sucking at her skin. Carina
gasped. “Baby...” Maya moaned.

“Not now. Ice cream.” Carina chuckled and grabbed the towel, she put it in the laundry and
Maya grabbed her basket and waited for Carina to slide her shorts on, no panties.

“Are you trying to tease me?” Maya asked. Carina shook her head with a smirk and Maya
watched the woman’s ass sway as she walked away.

Maya shook her head and chuckled, she put the laundry in the washer and then walked over
to the counter where Andy, Carina and Ryan were standing. They looked like they had seen a
ghost.

“Why the long face...?” Maya asked, chuckling.

“Mai... your dad is in a car outside of the apartment, he saw us, I don’t think he recognized
me.” Andy shook her head and Maya’s face went pale. Then there was a knock at the door.

“Maya, don’t.” Carina whispered. The doorbell rang over and over again, they all stood in the
kitchen, frozen.

“Maya! Open the door, kiddo.” Lane pounded on the door. Andy shook her head and Carina
grabbed at Maya’s hand. The pounding continued.

“I need to open it; he won’t leave until I do.” Maya whispered. Ryan walked to the room and
then came out and he nodded at Maya. Slowly, Maya opened the door and was met with her
very angry father.

“I called you.” Lane said sternly.

“I was sleeping. I have a long shift tomorrow.” Maya replied.

“Yeah, you were never a good liar.” Lane scuffed. “Listen, we need to talk about Mason.” He
spoke.

“No.” Maya said sternly.

“No? Who are you to talk to me like that? I’m not wasting the taxpayer's time.” Lane
shrugged.

“No, but I have a long shift. Goodnight.” Maya went to shut the door and Lane pushed it
open and walked in finding, Carina, Ryan and Andy standing in the kitchen.

“Ah, so you weren’t sleeping.” Lane chuckled.

“Dad, you need to leave.” Maya said holding the door open.

“I’m not going anywhere. We are talking.” Lane said.

“Sir, she asked you to leave.” Ryan stepped in.

“Who the hell are you?” Lane asked, Carina moved by Andy as Ryan walked over to Lane
and Maya.

“I’m officer Ryan Tanner. She asked you to leave.” Ryan said again.

“Maya, tell your friends to leave.” Lane demanded.

“No.” Maya shrugged. “Leave dad, before I call the cops.” Maya left the door open. “If you
want to talk, then call me.” Maya was now getting angry.

“I’ve tried and you don’t pick up.” Lane was still standing in the apartment.

“Dad! Leave!” Maya yelled and Ryan dialed his phone.

“Yeah, we need to back up at.” Before Ryan could finish, Lane stormed out and Maya shut
and locked the door.

“Thank you.” Maya said to Ryan before walking to Carina. “Are you okay?” Maya asked,
holding onto Carina’s face.

“Yes. Are you?” Carina asked, grabbing onto Maya.

“Yeah, yeah. Come on, let’s eat ice cream.” Maya sat down on the stool, Andy and Ryan sat
there and ate.

“Maya, if he tries to come back, I texted a buddy, he will come when I say.” Ryan said.

“Thanks.” Maya smiled and took a bite of Carina’s ice cream and smiled. Carina faked a gasp
and took a bite of Maya’s.
“Bambina, your phone is ringing again.” Carina sighed.
“Leave it, baby.” Maya shrugged.

“Let’s get some sleep, everyone. It’s been a long day. Ryan and I will leave the door open just
in case.” Andy hugged Maya and they all made their ways to their rooms. Maya turned on
her bedside lamps and then turned off her big light. They both laid down in bed, facing each
other. Carina played with Maya’s hair and watched her. Maya slid her hand down the
woman’s arm and then grabbed her wrist, looking at the brown eyes in front of her. Suddenly
there was a knock on the door again, and again. Maya got up and locked her bedroom door.

Andy: Do not answer it.

Maya heard her phone vibrate and she grabbed it.

Maya: I didn’t plan on it.

The knocking only got louder. Maya held onto Carina who was scooted so close to Maya’s
body she latched on.

“He’ll go away.” Maya whispered.

“He’s very persistent.” Carina commented.

Little did they know that Kathryn was knocking on the apartment door, she had just left Lane
while he was away, but Maya didn’t know. So Katherine continued to pound, finally Ryan
opened the door and found a woman that looked a lot like Maya.

“H-hello?” Ryan asked.

“I need Maya.” Katherine said urgently. “Please.” Ryan noticed the bruises on her arm, and
he ushered her in and locked the door, he then walked to Maya’s bedroom door and knocked.

“Maya… it’s your mom.” Ryan said.

“What?” Maya asked softly and got out of bed. “I’ll be back.” Maya opened the door and
then shut it and found Katherine standing by her door.

“I’m sorry it’s so late, but Lane is looking for me.” Katherine was shaking.

“Mom, what are you doing here?” Maya asked.

“Could I stay here for the night? And then I will be out of here in the morning.” Katherine
begged. Maya nodded and grabbed blankets out of the closet and set up the couch, she closed
her curtains to the windows and made sure her mom had clean clothes to sleep in.

“Don’t answer the door.” Maya said. “Ryan will answer it.” She smiled slightly and then
walked back to her room and locked her door and joined Carina in bed who was already
asleep. Maya slid in as close as she could to Carina and tangled her legs.

“Mmmh, Bambina?” Carina asked. Maya kissed her cheek.

 “Go back to sleep.” Maya whispered and wrapped her arm around Carina’s torso and they
both fell asleep quickly.

Chapter End Notes

As always, I appreciate your comments! Sorry my Italian is a little rusty... I took it so

long ago and I know some phrases I promise that even though I have another story
going, this will be the one I update first. I love this story and I have a lot of plans for it. I
hope you enjoyed this chapter! And yay! Now they are officially together. What
happened between Lane and Katherine? Do you think Andrew truly killed Mason, or
was he just unfocused and overworked? No, I don't plan on killing Andrew off, I love
his character. Rest assured that angst and smut will be coming again! I have ideas. Next
update will be in the next few days I am working on the chapter as we speak. I just work
12-hour shifts for the next few days.

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Maya woke up at some point in the middle of the night and found, Carina out of bed. Panic
set her mind and she quickly got out of bed and walked out of her room and found her
girlfriend sitting on the couch with her mom, watching a show. Maya sighed in relief and
Carina looked over at Maya and smiled slightly. She checked on the woman beside her and
then got off the couch and Maya quickly wrapped her arms around Carina and sighed into her
neck. The brunette wrapped her arms around Maya’s neck and held her closer.

“I was scared when I didn’t see you in bed.” Maya whispered, kissing her neck lightly. Carina
played with the blonde’s hair.

“I’m sorry, Bambina. Your mama came knocking and you were sound asleep. I just wanted to
make sure she was okay.” Carina said softly and pulled Maya in closer.

“Is she okay?” Maya asked.

“Yeah, she is almost asleep.” Carina responded and she led Maya back to the room, Maya
followed and shut the door. The blonde felt the need to just hold onto Carina, so she got into
bed and Carina laid down on one side and faced the blonde, reading her emotions and she
moved in closer to Maya and tangled their limbs together, her arm moving to Maya’s waist
and Maya put her hand on Carina’s back, grazing her fingers lightly along the woman’s back.
“Bambina, come here.” Carina whispered and Maya moved in closer and gently started to
kiss the woman’s neck, Carina moved her head slightly to give the blonde more access. Maya
sucked at her skin, her hand moving under the woman’s shirt and feeling the need to touch
her skin. “Hmm.” Carina moaned out lightly.

“I’m sorry I don’t know what came over me.” Maya sniffled.

“No, don’t be sorry, Bambina.” Carina whispered and whipped away the tears that freely fell
from Maya’s eyes. “Tell me what you need.” Carina said softly.

“I don’t know. I just need you close to me.” Maya whispered; her breathing was getting
heavier. “I-I.” Maya stopped, and Carina moved Maya onto her back, and she pinned her
hands above her head.

“Breathe.” Carina whispered and Maya opened her legs and allowed Carina to between them.
“Feel me, Maya.” Carina leaned down and kissed Maya lips softly and she felt Maya meet
her lips intensely. Carina moaned against her lover's lips, and she kissed Maya back with the
same intensity. Their fingers laced together, and Maya wrapped her legs around Carina’s
waist, tongues battling for dominance. The brunette pulled away when she needed to breathe
in air.
“Carina.” Maya whimpered as she felt the brunette pulled away and then she felt Carina’s lips
against her skin and she sighed, relief washed over her body. Suddenly there was a knock on
the door and Carina slid off of Maya and they sat up.

“Come in.” Maya answered, Ryan opened the door.

“Hey, we are going to head out. Are you going to be, okay?” Ryan asked.

“Yeah- yeah we will be good.” Maya answered. She knew her mom said she only wanted to
stay on the couch, but Maya had questions about Mason, and she slid of bed and walked out
of the room, Andy and Ryan were gathering stuff up and Maya walked to the Livingroom,
her mother was folding the blankets and she smiled at Maya.

“Bye, Mai. Call me if you need me.” Andy walked out of the door, Carina decided to stay in
bed and allow Maya this time.

“Mom.” Maya greeted and sat down in the chair. “What happened?” She asked and Katherine
sat down.

“Your fathers anger.” Katherine sighed. “He um... He is so mad at himself for not being there
for Mason through this hard time.” She shook her head. “And he blamed me for not giving
him attention, I gave you too much attention and he blamed me for Mason’s death and you.
He carried around your number for years, Maya.” Katherine was just as shocked about the
death as Maya was. “I decided I needed to leave when his rage was so bad that he had pushed
me against the wall.” Katherine looked at Maya who was motionless. “Maya, I am so sorry I
put you through this… the pain and the anguish you experienced, I wish I could have been a
better mother for you.” Katherine was now in tears.

“Mom, please don’t apologize. You did the best you could and it’s okay. I am sad that Mason
is dead. My heart is broken.” Maya replied. “I don’t know what to think at this moment. I
have so many questions as to why Mason was near the neighborhood, where he got this car
from? Did he know it was dad’s car? I just have so many unanswered questions. I just need
time.” Maya replied and shook her head. “I don’t understand, dad. He confuses me.” Maya’s
relationship with her father grew more and more distant the more she grew and realized that
her father was abusive and that what he had put her through wasn’t okay.

“I’m going to stay with Sally. Here is a number, Mason had it in his phone her name is
Jessica… Call her.” Katherine handed her the paper with the number, she kissed the top of
her head and walked towards the door, she waved at Carina who was standing against the
door frame, and she walked out of the door. As soon as it shut, Maya’s hands were shaking,
and Carina walked over to her, and she knelt down in front of the blonde and held onto her
hands.

“Nothing has to be done right now, Bambina.” Carina whispered and pulled Maya away from
the chair as she stood up and Maya wrapped her arms around Carina and held onto her.
Carina led the blonde to the bedroom and straight into the bathroom, she undressed Maya and
then turned on the shower, Carina undressed herself and she helped Maya into the shower and
put her under the water. Maya then let her emotions escape, sobs echoed in the bathroom and
Carina had her arms around the blonde the entire time. As the water covered their bodies,
Maya finally calmed herself down and looked up at Carina who was looking at Maya. There
was no verbal communication, just the look in their eyes was enough for each other to know
what they were thinking. Maya then leaned in and captured Carina’s lips and she kissed her
softly, Carina kissed her back and then pulled away and started to wash the blonde hair,
slowly massaging her scalp, Maya had her eyes closed and she just let Carina take care of
her.

“Are you going to go see Andrew today?” Maya asked, feeling Carina rinse out her hair.

“I thought about it.” Carina replied and put conditioner in her hair and lightly ran her fingers
through her hair. “I didn’t want to just leave you here by yourself.” Carina said softly and
rinsed the conditioner in Maya’s hair.

“I’ll be okay. I want you to see your brother.” Maya answered and then swapped places with
Carina and did the same with her hair, Carina allowed her to do so.

“You can come to the hospital with me if you want, Bambina.” Carina offered and rinsed out
her hair and they both washed their own body.

“Would it be okay if I stay here?” Maya asked and turned off the water and grabbed a towel
for Carina and then wrapped one around her own body.

“Yeah, I’ll come back here when I’m done.” Carina smiled and wrapped the towel around
herself, and they walked back to Maya’s room and got dressed.

“Babe, my keys are on the table. Your car is at the hospital.” Maya walked into the kitchen
and looked for something to eat, but she decided to make a smoothie.

“Bambina, we need to have an espresso machine.” Carina chuckled and grabbed the car keys.

“Do you want me to get real food on my way back? Or, let me cook!” Carina said excitingly.
Maya smiled and kissed Carina softly.
“You can cook anytime of the day.” Maya replied.

“Okay, I’ll make some food for everyone.” Carina pulled Maya into her arms and hugged her.
Maya hugged her back and kissed along her neck. “Hmmm. save those lips for later.” Carina
whispered and kissed Maya again before walking towards the door. Maya chuckled and
opened the door for Carina.

“Be safe. I love you.” Maya said softly and watched Carina walk out the door. “I love you
too.” Carina replied and walked down to Maya’s car.

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Carina arrived at the hospital and walked towards the wing, she then walked into Andrew’s
room and was greeted with a hug.

“Wow, you are happy.” Carina chuckled and hugged her brother back.
“Yes! I am. I feel a lot better.” Andrew replied and sat down on the bed, Carina sat down
beside him and nodded her head encouraging.

“Good! I’m glad.” Carina replied and wrapped her arm around him.

“How is Maya?” Andrew asked, a question he has been dreading. “I hate that his happened.”
Andrew added and Carina shook her head.

“No, you did what you thought you could. Okay? Maya is going to be okay. She is hurting
but there is a lot more to the story than just what happened with you.” Carina sighed and she
hated that her brother took on this guilt.

“Do you think I did wrong?” Andrew asked again.

“I think that steps were missed, yes. But I don’t think you purposefully killed him, Andrea.”
Carina knew what she said didn’t answer his question. “I’m still proud of you. I still want to
be there for you, and I want to see your career go further!” The Italian had tears streaming
down her face and Andrew was hugging his sister again. They both ate lunch together and
talked about what was next.

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Maya shut the door once Carina left, and she cleaned up the place a little bit and sat down.
She pulled the number from her pocket and sighed, she stared at this number and wondered
whether this really was the answer to all the questions. She had Carina’s voice in the back of
her mind telling her that it was okay to wait, it was okay to not have the answers right now.
But she craved the answers of what happened to her brother. So she picked up her phone and
dialed the number and placed it up by her ear.

“Hello.” A woman answers.

“Hi, I’m sorry. Um my name is Maya Bishop and I- um. I’m calling about Mason Bishop.”
Maya got it out and she had her hand to her forehead.

“Why are you calling me?” She asked.

“His number was in your pocket. I just had questions.” Maya responded.

“I don’t have any.” The woman said and hung up the phone. Maya stared at the phone and
sighed. She threw her phone across the room and got up. All she needed was answers, but
why? Mason wanted nothing to do with Maya. Why was it affecting Maya this way? So,
Maya changed into some workout clothes, and she went on a run. She ran for miles. She felt
so uneasy about all of her feelings, and she just continued to run.

Carina got home and noticed Maya wasn’t home, she sighed and looked around and found
the piece of paper with the number on it lying on the counter. Deciding to wait a little bit she
knew Maya would eventually get home. After an hour, Carina tried to call Maya, but her
phone was left in the apartment and that worried Carina. She was panicking, it was now
getting darker. As soon as Carina went to open the door, she found Maya panting at the door.
“Bambina!” Carina grabbed the blonde and dragged her inside; she handed her water and
Maya drank it fast. “Where were you?” Carina asked, handing Maya another water. The
blonde grabbed it and drank more of that water.

“I was running.” Maya said, panting.

“Yeah, but Bambina. You look like you ran a marathon.” Carina replied.

“Yeah, I don’t know how long I ran for.” Maya was sounding distant, and Carina then stood
close to Maya and kissed her cheek. “Hmmm, how was your visit with Andrew?” Maya
asked.

“It was good, he seems to be doing better.” Carina shrugged and then felt Maya stand up.
“I’m going to cook. Is Andy going to be home?” Carina asked.

“Yeah.” Maya replied and walked over to her phone and picked it up, luckily it wasn’t
cracked. “Carina. I know you have questions but just let me process.” Maya walked to the
bedroom and took off her clothes and went into the bathroom, she shut the door and got into
the shower.

Carina watched Maya walk away and she sighed, she grabbed a few pans and began to heat
up some sausage and started boiling water for the noodles. She was going to make spaghetti.

Maya got into the shower and washed her body and just let the hot water run down her body.
She felt weak, but she felt the need to just hold onto Carina through all of this. Her emotions
felt everywhere. She had no answers, and suddenly her phone was ringing. She quickly
turned the water off and answered the phone.

“Hello.” Maya answered and wrapped a towel around her.

“Hey, listen I’m sorry I hung up on you. I was in shock.” Jessica said and Maya sighed of
relief, and she walked out of the bathroom. “I’ll tell you whatever you want to know.” Jessica
said, and Maya sat down on the bed.

“Okay... um... Was Mason high? T-the night of the accident?” Maya asked, she wasn’t sure
she was ready for the answers but here she was, waiting.

“Y-yes. He relapsed.” Jessica replied.

“How did he get the car?” She asked.

“He got it from his dealer. He had seen your dad at the store, and he went to talk to him, and
Lane just scuffed at him and walked away. Maya, he had so much anger towards your dad,
and it built, and his high wasn’t enough to control the anger anymore. So, he was going to go
confront your father and he got high before then and he had so much more than he should
have… he- um. He drove off. I tried to talk him out of it, but it was too late. He wanted to
confront him, and he knew that he still lived in the home that he grew up in and he had your
number because he was going to call you and tell you he confronted Lane. He wanted to
make you proud, Maya and he– he crashed. He overdosed.” Jessica told Maya and the blonde
sat there, unable to move. She hadn’t even realized that Carina was standing by the bed.

“Thank you.” Maya replied and hung up the phone. The blonde could feel the panic building
up in her and the anger. She wasn’t sure what was going to come out and suddenly Carina
went to touch her arm and Maya let out a sob, Carina could hear the food sizzling. “Bambina,
give me a minute and I will be here.” Carina turned the heat down and added the sauce and a
few spices, she then turned the oven on simmer, and she covered the sauce and then stirred
the noodles. The brunette walked back to the room, shut the door and she took off Maya’s
towel and put on a shirt and then slid shorts up her leg and helped Maya stand up, then she
led Maya out of the bedroom and sat on her own stool while she cooked. Maya was quiet, her
body felt numb. She was glad she had answers, but did Lane know that Mason was coming to
see him? Why would Lane be mad about Mason having Maya’s number? Carina stirred the
food, and she came to stand in front of Maya and kissed her head.

“Bambina.” Carina whispered and Maya leaned her head up and she brought Carina closer by
her cheeks and kissed her girlfriend deeply. The brunette kissed Maya back, she felt the
blonde deepen the kiss and Carina did the same and she ran her fingers through Maya’s wet
hair, massaging her scalp with her fingers, Maya slid her tongue inside of the woman’s mouth
and moaned, Carina moaned as well but then slowly pulled away, Maya was trying to bring
her back and Carina grabbed at Maya’s cheeks. “Maya.” She said, and finally those blue eyes
looked at her.

“Carina, I don’t want to talk.” Maya whispered.

“Okay and that’s fine but using sex to not feel is something I’m not supporting. I love you
and I want to be there for you.” Carina stood her ground and pulled away from Maya.

“So, because I’m sad you don’t want to have sex?” Maya asked.

“No, because you are using sex to avoid a talk.” Carina walked over to the food and mixed
everything together.

“Fine I will talk.” Maya replied.

“Great, we can talk later because Andy is about to walk in that door.” Carina grabbed four
plates and began serving the food onto the plates. Maya sighed and soon enough the door
opened.

“Hey!” Andy and Ryan walked in and Carina smiled and served everyone food, she poured
the wine into the glasses, and everyone sat at the table, they chatted about their days and
Maya and Carina held hands every so often. Once dinner was over, Ryan and Andy went to
their own room and Maya and Carina put the food away and went into Maya’s room.

“I called Jessica.” Maya let it out as she shut the door, Carina turned to look at her. “And she
told me that Mason was high. He did take an extra amount.” Maya looked at Carina and
shook her head. “He had my number because he was going to call me after he confronted
Lane.” Maya looked at the ceiling to avoid crying. “He wanted me to be proud, Carina.”
Maya shrugged. “And I am. Regardless of wrecking into the car. He did it. He fucking went
to do it. High or not. He was going to confront that asshole.” Maya was now letting her tears
fall. “I can’t talk about this because it hurts, and I just want you to hold me.” Maya was
trying to communicate with Carina about what she wanted in hopes that Carina would
understand. The brunette came to Maya and kissed her. Maya gasped and kissed her back.

“Please, I know you don’t want to have sex to avoid what I’m feeling, but Carina. Just please.
I want to be in my own world with you. I want to feel you. I just want to have my thoughts
around you for now.” Maya begged, kissing Carina again. “Please fuck me.” Maya
whispered. Carina nodded and she took off the woman's clothes and then her own.

“Get on the bed, Maya. Hands and knees.” Carina said, walking to her bag and grabbing the
toys she brought. She grabbed the bullet vibrator and walked towards Maya who had her
upper body down against the mattress and her ass in the air. Carina smirked and got behind
Maya and kissed up the back of her thighs, causing Maya to tremble.

“Hmm. Carina.” Maya whispered and felt Carina’s lips around her butt cheek and then Carina
bit down on the muscle and Maya chuckled and let out a moan when she felt Carina bite
harder. “Fuck.” Maya whispered. Carina did the same on the other cheek and kissed down the
back of her thighs, each and then she leaned her face in, spread her ass cheeks and her tongue
rolled her tongue against the woman’s folds. Maya let out a loud moan and then remembered
that Andy was here and so she grabbed a pillow and bit down on it, Carina's skilled tongue
was almost making her want to scream. Carina rolled her tongue in circles and then she
inserted two fingers inside of the woman’s cunt and pushed and out and Maya closed her eyes
and let herself feel all of Carina.

Carina moaned at the taste of her lover and how wet she was getting the more she fingered
her. She pushed them in and out faster than before and her tongue was now flicking the
swollen bud. Maya’s hips here moving slightly and she was gripping onto the sheets. The
sound of Carina eating her pussy out was music to Maya’s ears and all that could be heard
was Maya’s wetness and Carina’s heavy breathing as she continued to flick at Maya’s clit.

“Baby... fuck, ah, fuck. I’m so close.” Maya felt Carina removed her tongue and she sucked
on the inside of her thighs, the juices that dripped down from her cunt and she sucked on her
skin, leaving marks, and her fingers continued to push against the spot that drove Maya crazy,
she curled her fingers inside and pumped against the squishy inside, her cunt was clenching
against Carina’s fingers and she let out a strangled moan as her orgasm took her over, Carina
sucked up all the juices that escaped and her fingers moved through the blonde’s folds as she
fucked Maya through her orgasm. Once the blonde felt her orgasm subside, she slowly pulled
her fingers out of the blonde, and she smacked at her ass cheeks kind of hard and Maya
chuckled and slowly rolled onto her back and hissed. “God babe, how hard did you bite?”
Maya asked, laughing. Carina shrugged her shoulders.
“Not too hard, just enough to bruise.” Carina smirked and watched Maya’s eyes turn a shade
darker.

“Can I fuck you?” Maya asked and Carina nodded. She bit her lip and watched Maya get up
and grab the strap on.

Maya strapped it on and then found the bullet vibrator and she raised her eyebrow, “you were
already wet, I didn’t need that to make you squirm. My tongue did that.” Carina smiled and
then Maya nodded and lifted Carina’s legs over her shoulders and Carina crossed her ankles
and watched the blonde’s every move. “Maya...” Carina wined, and Maya roughly pushed
Cariana’s legs back, so they were bent even with her shoulders, and she started to rub at
Carina’s clit, watching how she reacted. The brunette groaned and watched Maya. “Yes...”
Carina whispered and closed her eyes, Maya dipped her finger inside of the blonde and
penetrated it in and out slowly, feeling how wet Carina was and she then pulled out and
grabbed the head of the cock and rubbed it along Carina’s folds.

“You’re so wet baby.” Maya smirked and watched Carina open her mouth and then bite her
lip “You ready?” Maya asked, pushing Carina’s legs back tighter and Carina nodded, and
Maya slowly pushed the tip in and she felt Carina’s resistance, and she penetrated a few
times, feeling her finally ease into the pressure and she pushed the makeshift cock in further,
bottoming Carina out.

“Fuck!! Maya.” Carina moaned out and arched her back, Maya leaned down and kissed her
neck and stayed inside of Carina for a moment before she started to thrust in and out hard.
Maya moved her hand and she rubbed at Carina’s nipple, feeling them getting harder and she
felt Carina’s wetness drip down onto her thighs. “Fuck I feel so full.” Carina whispered; her
pants were becoming uneven.

“Yeah? You like how my cock feels?” Maya whispered, nibbling on the brunette’s earlobe.

“Yes...” Carina whispered. “God, Maya, you feel so good.” Carina moaned out.

“God, Carina, I can hear how wet you are.” Maya whispered and pushed in harder, the angel
was doing Carina justice it was hitting her in just the right spots and before she could beg
Maya to go faster it was like she read her mind and Maya sped up, the slapping sound of their
skin was the only sound in the room, Carina had to cover her mouth as she let out louder
moans.

“Carina, baby.” Maya moaned and rubbed at the woman’s nipples, pulling at them.

“Bambina!!” Carina screamed out. “I’m so close.” Carina could feel Maya move her legs
further back and she hit Carina in the right spots and suddenly her orgasm came crashing and
Maya pounded into Carina’s cunt through her orgasm, watching her girlfriend cum. Slowly
Maya pulled out and took off the strap on and set all the toys on the floor beside the bed and
she gently massaged Carina’s legs, watching as the brunette came down from her high.

“Hmm I love you.” Carina whispered.

“I love you too.” Maya whispered and kissed Carina softly. “God, Carina, I am so in love
with you.” Maya moved in closer to Carina and kissed her again, Carina smiled and kissed
Maya back.

“You are everything I’ve been searching for, Maya.” Carina said softly and they turned their
bodies to face each other. Maya smiled and watched Carina and Carina did the same.
Chapter End Notes

I hope you enjoyed this chapter! I am hoping to post another one tonight, if not then I
will do it tomorrow for sure! I always appreciate your love and support. (:
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A month went by, Mason had a small funeral thanks to Maya, it was filled with a few friends
that had heard about the news, Maya’s team came to support her, a few people from the
hospital and it was nice. Andrew was released and slowly got back to work and focused on
his specialty, cardio. He switched from general so that he and Meredith could work on things,
and it was better. Andy moved out of Maya’s apartment and into her own with Ryan. Things
finally felt like they were falling into place. Maya was finally doing okay. She was enjoying
life with Carina.

“Bambina! Stop.” Carina begged, letting out a laugh as Maya continued to tickle her. They
stayed the night at Carina’s apartment because it was closer to the restaurant they went to last
night. Maya slowed down her tickles and kissed the brunette. Carina was out of breath from
laughing so hard. She was thankful that things were finally going in their favor, life was
everything and more with Maya. Sure, Maya still had some rough moments, but she was
getting better. Carina’s phone started to ring… it was her best friend.

“Ciao Gabri!” Carina answered, Maya wrapped her arms around Carina and kissed the back
of her neck.

“Ciao, Ah, Carina, ho una notizia per te.” (Carina, I have news for you) Gabri tried to keep
her tone very neutral because what she was about to tell Carina was going to either upset her
or anger her.

“Quali sono le novità?” (What is the news?) Carina sat up on the bed, she was worried
because Gabri was always excited to talk to her and today it wasn’t the case.

“Tuo padre è all'ospedale e non sanno quanto tempo gli resta. Hanno bisogno che i suoi
parenti più stretti vengano a decidere cosa fare dopo.” (Your father is at the hospital, and they
are not sure how much longer he has. They are needing his next of kin to come decide what is
next. )

“Che fine ha fatto papà?” (What happened to Papa?) Carina asked, and Maya sat up at the
word she knew Papa, something about Carina’s dad. Suddenly the brunette was pacing the
room as she listened.

“C'è stata un'orribile epidemia di influenza, ed è peggio di quanto non l'abbiamo vista negli
ultimi anni! Carina era malata, e l'ho controllato il più possibile e un giorno sono andata e lui
era a terra, insensibile. L'ho portato qui e ha avuto un infarto e un ictus. Hanno provato di
tutto, c'è anche del liquido nei suoi polmoni e lui continua a non rispondere. Attualmente è
attaccato al respiratore.” (There was a horrible outbreak of the flu, and it is worse than we
have seen it in years! Carina he was sick, and I checked on him as much as I could and I went
one day and he was on the floor, unresponsive. I brought him here and he has suffered a heart
attack as well as a stroke. They have tried everything, there is also fluid in his lungs, and he is
still unresponsive. He is currently on the ventilator) Gabri sighed as she finished.

“How– how do I tell Andrea?” Carina was asking about herself more-so than anyone.
“Non conosco l'amore, ma deve essere presto che arrivi qui.” (I don’t know love, but it needs
to be soon that you get her.)

Carina said goodbye to her best friend, and she was still pacing the room, Maya watched her
with her head turned slightly and she waited for Carina to say anything but instead the
brunette was going into her closet and grabbing a bag.

“What happened?” Maya asked, watching Carina frantically packing.

“My Papa is dying.” Carina blurted out and threw clothes into her bag. “I need to tell Andrea,
and I need to get out there.” Carina was panicking and so Maya quickly got off the bed and
walked over to Carina and stopped her, but Carina was fighting Maya from stopping her.

“L’amore, listen. I need you to sit down for a second.” Maya said, pushing Carina back to the
bed and sat her down. “Next, we will figure out how to tell Andrew okay? But first you need
to talk to Bailey about leaving for a few weeks and then we need to talk.” Maya said softly,
caressing Carina’s cheek and she nodded.

“Y-you’re right.” Carina said softly and then she dialed Chief Bailey’s number. She explained
what was happening and Bailey approved her leave. Next, Andrea. She knocked on his
bedroom door, and when he opened it, Carina couldn’t even get the words out, she froze. Her
mouth was open, but tears were spilling down her eyes. “Andrea...” She cried out. “P- umm.”
Carina went quiet and tried to calm herself down, she felt Maya beside her as she grabbed
onto Carina’s hand. “Papa is sick, Andrea and Gabri need us in Italy. I have already talked to
Bailey, and we have leave we can use.” Carina finally got it out and Maya squeezed her hand
as Andrew stood there in silence. Andrew didn’t say anything her just pulled Carina into a
warm hug and held onto her, Maya released the woman’s hand and leaned against the wall,
waiting for Carina.

“I’ll get the plane tickets and let you know when we leave.” Carian said, walking back to her
room with Maya. The blonde helped Carina pack and she made sure Carina was taking
breaks. She found plane tickets for tomorrow early in the morning, Maya agreed to take them
both to the airport.

The pair spent the rest of the night together, Maya tried to get Carina to eat, but she only took
a few bites and then she was back in Maya’s arms. So, Maya started to get a bubble bath
together and she made sure the water was hot, steaming at that. Just the way Carina liked it.
Once the bubbles were in, Maya walked to the room and found Carina sitting on the edge of
the bed, staring at the wall, Maya walked over to her girlfriend and helped her towards the
bathroom.

“Hey, my love. Come on.” Maya whispered and undressed her slowly, Carina was just numb,
her body felt heavy, she couldn’t even feel her heart beating, she just wanted to curl up to
Maya and not leave. Maya undressed herself, and then sat in the bath, Carina got in, facing
Maya and then she turned around, her back pressing against Maya’s front. Maya pulled the
brunette hair into a messy bun that rested at the top of her head, and she leaned forward,
wrapping her arms around Carina’s torso and she kissed along her neck, sucking and biting at
the skin. Anything to get Carina to just relax for a second against her. Carina tilted her head
to the side to give Maya more access. She wished she could form into words what was going
through her mind, but she couldn’t. She wasn’t even sure this was all real. It felt like a dream.
The feeling of Maya’s lips on her skin was so satisfying and it brought her back to reality.

“Mmmh, Bambina.” Carina whispered, lacing her fingers with Maya’s on both hands and
Maya kissed along the back of her lover's neck, and moving to the other side, Maya kissed
between Carina’s ear and neck, and it made Carina giggle and Maya tightened her arms
around Carina.

“I love you.” Maya whispered, nibbling on Carina’s ear lobe.

“I love you too, Maya.” Carina said softly and tried to allow her body to relax. The pair sat in
the bathtub for as long as the water allowed them and it started to get cold, so they got out
and Carina got dressed and check on her brother who was ready to go, he was going to bed.
Carina made sure he didn’t need anything and then went to bed with Maya and the pair held
each other the entire night.

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Once Carina and Andrew were dropped off at the airport, Maya said her goodbyes to her
girlfriend, and they promised to call each other no matter what. Every day because Carina
was unsure of when she would be able to return. Maya agreed to call her after hard calls and
text her through the day. They kissed themselves goodbye and Maya watched as Carina and
Andrew walked inside of the airport. Maya felt her heart grow heavy and she drove herself to
work.

Maya worked her 48-hour shift, Carina called and let her know when they landed, she texted
her the entire time they were on the way to the hospital, and she promised Maya she would
call later to talk. Once Maya was home, she still hadn’t heard from Carina and it worried
Maya more.

Maya: I love you. <3

Maya hits send and make sure her phone was on loud so she wouldn’t miss a call and she fell
asleep, her arm wrapped around the pillow that Carina used, it smelled like her, and Maya got
enough comfort in that to fall asleep. Maya rested for half of the day and finally her phone
started to ring, she answered it quickly, it was a facetime call.

“Hi Bambina.” Carina said softly, exhaustion wore on her face, and it worried Maya.
“Hi my love.” Maya replied, still half asleep, Carina licked her lips, the sound of Maya’s
voice when she first woke up was the sexiest thing Carina has heard and just to hear it over
the phone made her wish she could be with Maya.

“I miss you.” Carina played with her hair and set her phone on the bathroom counter, she
assumed Carina was at her family home, and Carina started to undress, and Maya smiled and
watched.

“I miss you too. How was your day?” Maya asked, trying to make casual conversation and
she could see the outline of Carina’s breast, down her toned stomach and her hips and a great
side view of her ass. Maya was trying to not stare but when she finally noticed Carina had
moved back into the frame of the video, Maya was filled with lust.

“Hmm, it was okay. Papa is really sick. Andrea and I have been trying to decide what to do.”
Carina sighed heavily and looked at Maya who was blushing and it made Carina smile. She
purposefully left the view at that angle just to tease her.

“Have you come up with anything?” Maya asked, adjusting herself on the bed to sit up and
her hair was messy, and it made Carina smile.

“No not yet. We have a few days to decide.” Carina sat down on a bed and leaned against the
headboard. “I fucking miss you, Maya.” Carina pouted and looked down.

“I miss you too, baby.” Maya replied. “I wish I could have come with you.” Maya held onto
her phone tighter and looked at Carina. “Don’t rush in your choice my love, just take a few
days and think and allow yourself to feel, okay?” Maya reassured her and Carina nodded.
Maya talked about her day with Carina, and they shared laughs and then Carina was almost
asleep, and Maya smiled at her girlfriend, her eyes were closed, and she was lightly snoring.
So, Maya kept her on her phone, and she fell back asleep too.

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A few more days had passed, and Carina and Andrew decided to take their father off the
ventilator and when that choice was made, Carina called Maya and was in a puddle of tears in
the bed. She just needed to see Maya, but when Maya answered she looked all smoky and she
was coughing, Carina stopped her sobs and she looked at Maya.

“Car.. what’s wrong?” Maya asked, coughing after every work.

“Maya you better be on your way to be checked out!” Carina warned, listening as everyone
else started to cough.

“We are but we have another call to go to and it shouldn’t be too long.” Maya replied and
looked at Carina. “Baby...” Maya said softly, and Carina opened her sad brown eyes to look
at Maya. It was dark so she couldn’t see Maya other than when they drove by streetlights and
its lite up Maya’s face.
“I can’t do this Maya. Not alone.” Carina sighed and she let sniffles free and she was crying
again.

“Hey, hey. You can do this babygirl and you know I am a phone call away. I’m off by
midnight and I will stay on the phone with you. When is this happening?” Maya asked.

“Today. In an hour.” Carina replied and heard a knock on the door, she walked to the door
and was embraced in a hug by Gabri and Carina wrapped her arms around her, and she cried
uncontrollably, and Maya just listened, her heart broke for her girlfriend, and she wished that
there was more she could have done for her lover.

“Babe, I am at the scene. I will call you soon.” Maya blew her a kiss and Carina nodded and
blew Maya a kiss and they hung up. The last fire took longer than Maya thought, they were
finally done a few hours later and Maya walked into the bunk when they returned to the
station and she dialed Carina’s number and it rang a few times, relief washed over Maya until
she heard a woman on the phone.

“Hello?” She asked, very thick accent.

“Hi, Carina?” Maya was unsure, her ears were ringing slightly, and she couldn’t hear that
well.

“No, Carina is busy...” The woman said and she could hear Carina laughing in the
background.

“Umm, this is her phone please give it to her.” Maya was getting frustrated, and she heard
more laughter and Andrew was being loud.

“She said she will call you later.” The woman hung up the phone and Maya listened to the
dial tone, and she sighed. She tried to rationalize that maybe Carina was surrounded by
family, and they were all talking and giving Carina good memories. Maya set her phone
down and, on the bed, and she waited but never heard from Carina.

Two more days passed. It has been two weeks since she has seen Carina, touched her and just
held her close. 10 Days since Maya left a kiss on Carina’s lips, and she knew that Carina was
surrounded by family and the funeral was soon. But Maya just needed to hear her voice. She
grabbed Carina’s pillow and pushed the video button on her phone and waited to see if Carina
would answer and when she did, Maya’s heart stopped. Carina had been crying and she
looked tired.

“Baby...” Maya muttered out and touched at her phone screen. She truly didn’t realize how
much she missed Carina until she saw her on the video.

“Bambina. I wish you were here.” Carina sniffled, the room was dark, and Carina looked so
small.

“I know my love… I want to be.” Maya whispered and Carina turned on a small lamp and
she sat up.
“W-what if you did come out here?” Carina asked, looking at the blonde through the screen
and Maya looked at the phone, she saw the brown eyes and she wanted to just caress her
cheek and play with her hair.

“I mean I can try. I can’t promise I can get it approved but if you need me out there, I will
fight for my time. It might not be for more than a few days.” Maya didn’t want to show too
much excitement but to see Carina would be what Maya needed.

“Bambina, I will take any days just to feel you holding me.” Carina smiled and looked at her
girlfriend. It was the first real smile she has shown in days.

“Let me see what I can do, okay?” Maya said softly. “I’ll call you soon.” Maya kissed the
phone and Carina did the same.

“I love you.” Carina said. “I love you, Carina.” Maya responded and they hung up.

Maya sighed and looked at her schedule then she decided to drive to the station and see what
she can work on for the schedule. It would be convenient for Maya to leave after her 12-hour
shift tomorrow, then she would have 3 days off in a row and she could take another 2 days off
which was a 48-hour shift and that would give her five days with Carina in Italy. Carina still
was unsure when she was going to be able to come back. She had to do some stuff for her
family and close her fathers house before she could return. But Andrew would be returning
after the funeral. Maya sent an email to her battalion chief. Her request was immediately
granted. Maya looked online and found a decent plane ticket for a round trip. She would
leave tomorrow at 500 pm, and her flight would be 12 and half hours. She was okay with
that. She wanted to just see Carina. She booked that flight and then called Carina.

“Bambina, what time is it?” Carina asked, half asleep. Maya forgot their time difference, she
looked at her phone. Crap… it was 2am.

“I’m sorry baby, do you want to go back to sleep?” Maya asked, walking to her car.

“No no. I need your voice.” Carina mumbled.

“I booked a flight; I’ll leave tomorrow evening.” Maya said, connecting her phone to her car
so that she could talk to Carina.

“Really?” Carina asked and let out a little giggle.

“Yes, I leave at 5 tomorrow, and my flight is 12 and half hours.” Maya said softly.

“So that would put you here at 7pm the next day? I only have to wait two more nights to see
you?” Carina asked, she sounded so tired.

“Yes, baby.” Maya replied and drove back to her apartment.

“I’ll be there to pick you up.” Carina said, there was some shuffling and then Carina sighed
again. “I can’t wait to see you, Bambina.” Carina mumbled and soon she was lightly snoring.
Maya chuckled and she decided to keep her on the phone. She wanted to hear Carina. Maya
walked into her house, she heated up some dinner and ate, Carina would mumble in her
sleep, and it was like music to Maya’s ears. She then decided to hang up and send a text to
Carina.

Maya: I love you; I hope you got some sleep L’amore. I’ll see you soon. Xx

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Maya hits send and then got in her pajamas, she curled up against Carina’s pillow and fell
asleep. The next morning, her alarm went off at 7 am, Maya grumbled and found a missed
call from Carina. “Fuck.” She muttered and hit the facetime button and started running
around the room to get ready for work. She was undressing herself and didn’t hear Carina
answer the phone, she was naked, and her phone was up against the lamp on the nightstand
and Maya was searching for her t-shirt and she was bent over. Carina got a perfect view of
her girlfriend's ass, and she bit her lip and lordy. Did she want Maya bent over like that.
Carina was turning herself on with the thoughts then Maya turned around and she was bare
chest, and she then heard Carina chuckle. Maya was red, and she grabbed the phone and
smiled.

“Hi.” Maya greeted and looked at Carina who had messy hair and she looked like she just got
up.

“Buongiorno piccola.” Carina greeted and Maya smiled at her again. “I was enjoying that
view.” Carina teased and looked at the blonde and she purposefully bit her lip. Maya watched
her and she giggled.

“Oh? Like this?” Maya set her phone down on against the lamp and turned around, her bare
ass facing Carina’s camera again and she bent down, she was closer, and Carina could see her
sweet pink pussy as she bent over, and it made her cunt throb.

“Mmm Bambina.” Carina moaned out and Maya smirked and slowly stood back up and
turned around bending forward to grab her phone and gave Carina a perfect view of her
breast.

“I wish I had time to play, but I am running late.” Maya said as she walked to the bathroom
and started to get dressed, she pulled her hair up into a pony tail and brushed her teeth, Carina
talked about what she was going to do today and then she told Maya she got a hotel for the
night Maya came because the house she was staying at was full of people and she just wanted
to be alone with Maya for the night. Maya agreed and slid on a pair of sneakers. “I can’t wait
to see you.” Maya said, grabbing all of her bags, and suitcase along with her water bottle and
lunch that she had made, and she walked out of the door. She propped her phone up on the
stand in her car, connected her phone to the speakers in the car, and started to drive. Maya
told her about what she has been up to the last few days and Carina listened to her with such
a soft look on her face.

Maya said her goodbyes and promised she would call Carina when she got to the airport
tonight. The day was smooth, only a few calls, Maya packed up her stuff and she drove to the
airport. Maya went through the security and baggage claim and finally she was at her gate.
She had thirty minutes before she had to board so she dialed Carina’s number.
“Bambina!” Carina smiled and she had her makeup on, and she looked beautiful.

“Hi beautiful.” Maya greeted and Carina blushed. “God, I am so excited to see you.” Maya
said, putting in her air pods so she could hear Carina better.

“Hmm, me too! I am actually at the hotel, and I am just setting some stuff up and Andrea and
I are going to dinner.” Carina smiled. “How are you? How was your day?” Carina asked,
placing Maya against the wall and the counter in the bathroom and Maya got a view, she was
wearing a tight black shirt and a pair of light blue jeans that hugged her curves perfectly.

“Hmm fuck I can’t wait to see you.” Maya grumbled under her breath. “My day was good!
Only a few fires and now I am on my way to see my beautiful girlfriend.” Maya smiled and
watched Carina as she was getting ready. She was curling her hair.

“I can’t wait to see you either, Maya. I have surprises for you.” Carina winked and then
grabbed her phone and sprayed perfume on her and it was almost like Maya could smell it
and it made her heart race.

“I’ll let you get to dinner my love. I’ll call you on my layover. I love you.” Maya whispered.

“I love you, Bambina.” Carina blew her a kiss and hung up the phone.

Maya bored her plan and waited for the takeoff.

Carina was meeting her brother for dinner and then she was going to set up the hotel. She
wanted to make it special and Gabri was taking Carina shopping for lingerie to surprise
Maya. All Carina talked about was Maya while she was in Italy and Gabri was happy for her
best friend, she wanted to treat her.

Maya’s plane took off and she landed in New York for her layover, Carina had gone to the
store with Gabri and picked out a wine red lingerie set, and she bought candles and she
spread them around the room, she had peach colored rose peddles, which were not easy to
find, but luckily she found them at a local flower shop and the hotel had a jacuzzi tub, so
Carina got bath stuff and body oils, she also bought a few toys for her and Maya. It was going
to be perfect. Carina heard her phone going off and she picked it up, lying in bed.

“Soon enough you’ll be in my arms.” Carina smiled and looked at Maya who looked
exhausted.

“Soon enough.” Maya replied and smiled.

“Bambina, you should sleep on the plane?” Carina suggested, turning on the lamp beside the
bed.

“I am going to try; I took a sleeping pill a little bit ago. 6 more hours and I will get to see
your beautiful face.” Maya said softly. It was almost the afternoon for Carina. “How are you?
Have you eaten?” Maya asked, looking at the brunette and her plane was about to board, but
she figured she could talk to Carina until they were about to take off.
“Yes, I did, I am doing okay. Just can’t wait to see you.” Carina smiled slightly. “I also have a
place I want to take you for dinner when you get here. Believe me I am going to spoil you
rotten.” Carina said, getting out of bed and walking around the hotel room and turning the
camera to show Maya the view, it was water, and it took Maya’s breath away.

“Oh gosh! I am so excited to just be with you and in that water.” Maya chuckled. “But baby.
You didn’t say to bring a swim suit.” Maya wrinkled her eyebrows and Carina let a laugh
escape her lips and Maya smiled wide.

“I will get you a swimsuit my love.” Carina replied and turned the camera back to her.

“Baby I am about to board. I love you.” Maya blew a kiss and Carina did the same. Six hours
and she could see this beautiful blonde. Carina got ready for the afternoon, she put on a
simple pair of jeans and a loose t-shirt. She curled some of her hair and put on some makeup
and she went to store and picked out a swim suit for Maya, it was a simple navy-blue bikini,
she hoped Maya would like it and she grabbed some fresh produce to take back to the hotel.It
was getting closer to time, so Carina headed to the airport. She parked by the airport and
waited for Maya to land.

Once Maya landed, she grabbed her carry-on bag and opened her phone.

Maya: Getting off the plane now, babe.

Carina pulled up to the pick-up part of the airport, Maya grabbed her bags form baggage
claim.

Carina: I’ll be in a gold car. Only one and I’m parked at the end, waiting for you.

Maya looked for that car and when she saw Carina get out, she walked fast with her bags and
left them on the sidewalk and Carina ran into her lovers' arms and Maya picked her up, the
blonde put her hands on the back of Carina’s thighs to hold her and Carina kissed Maya
deeply, her hair falling over their faces and Maya moaned into the kiss and kissed Carina
back. Slowly they pulled away and Maya laughed, and her face was red. She was excited and
nervous all at the same time. Slowly, Maya let Carina down on her feet and Carina grabbed
her suitcase and opened the trunk and put her bag in and Maya put the other one in, and they
got into the car. Maya’s hand immediately grabbed for Carina’s, and she laced their fingers
together.

“I figured we could go to the hotel before dinner so you could change.” Carina smiled and
shrugged her shoulders.

“Yeah! Yeah.” Maya was looking around, the sun was going down, so she tried to take in the
beautiful Italy. Carina squeezed Maya’s hand tightly and she drove to the hotel. Once they
arrived, Carina almost worried but she remembers she hid all of the stuff, Gabri said she
would be over to set it up once Carina was at dinner.

They both carried the bags inside and set them on the stand in the room, Maya started to take
off her clothes and Carina came up behind her and touched her skin, she watched as Maya’s
goosebumps raised on her skin. The blonde took in a shaky breath and laid her shirt down on
the table.

“Hmm baby.” Maya moaned as Carina kissed along the woman’s shoulders. “If we start, we
will not leave.” Maya whispered and Carina nodded, so Maya took her pants off and changed
into a pair of jeans and a crop top and then threw on her hoodie. Carina then pushed Maya
against the nearest wall and kissed her deeply, Maya moaned into the kiss, and she deepened
it, sliding her tongue inside of the brunette. They made out for a few minutes and then when
air was necessary, they pulled away.

“Let’s go so I can come back and fuck you.” Carina whispered and Maya blushed and looked
at Carina before nodding. They headed out of the hotel and Carina quickly texted Gabri that
they were leaving. She drove Maya to a small restaurant, and they walked in, Carina greeted
everyone, and Maya assumed they all knew each other, and they sat down, there were candles
on the table and Maya smiled at the brunette across from her, a glass of wine was placed in
front of them and so was some breadsticks. Maya smiled and took a sip of the wine and
groaned.

“Oh, this is so good!” Maya smiled. Carina smiled back and took a sip of the wine.

“Good. I want to pamper you tonight.” Carina whispered and grabbed a breadstick and put it
to Maya’s lips, the blonde took a bite out of it and watched Carina who was staring at her
mouth.

“I have spent too much time away from you.” Carina whispered, taking a bite after Maya.

“I have missed you.” Maya said, and then they grabbed the menu. “I don’t know what any of
this says.” Maya chuckled. “What do you usually get?” Maya asked.

“I usually get the pasta with garlic and butter and a light sauce. It’s amazing.” Carina looked
at the menu with Maya. “Or the pizza is amazing too. Homemade bread.” Carina added with
a smile. She couldn’t believe Maya was actually here and how she pulled off having a week
off.

“We can do the pasta with garlic and butter. That sounds amazing.” Maya put the menu back
and Carina then ordered that for the both of them and more wine. The waiter brought them a
bottle of wine and Carina and Maya decide to catch up.

“How have you been?” Maya asked, grabbing Carina’s hand.

“I’ve been okay… better since you are here.” Carina was honest and she looked at Maya. “I
have so much mixed feelings with my Papa, and Andrea is just... A mess.” Carina sighed. “I
worry about him.” Carina squeezed Maya’s hand. “I’m sad some days and then other days
I’m not.” Carina shrugged. “It has been exhausting to try and be laughing and playing games
with my family while they talked about my dad because I don’t have a lot of happy memories
with him.” Carina shrugged. “Does that make me an awful daughter?” Carina asked.

“No, it doesn’t Carina.” Maya reassured her and laced their fingers together. “It doesn’t make
you a bad person and to be exhausted after that is normal.” Maya kissed the brunette's hand
 and smiled at her. “I did try to call you one night, and someone answered the phone.” Maya
looked down and licked her lips. “She said you were busy, and I asked her to give you the
phone. But she didn’t and I didn’t hear from you for two days.” Maya looked at Carina who
was almost in tears.

“Bambina, that would never be true! My family was over, and I had some cousins there. One
of them might have grabbed my phone.” Carina sighed.

“I could hear your laugh in the background.” Maya met the brown pair of eyes again.

“I waited for you to call and then I thought about calling but I can never remember the time
difference and I didn’t want to call and not hear your voice. I’m sorry. I know that isn’t an
excuse.” Carina looked down and she felt Maya squeeze her hand.

“Babe, I’m not telling you so that you can feel bad. I just want you to know that I did call
you.” Maya sipped at her wine and Carina nodded, licking at her lips. She refused to let the
tears fall. Carina looked at Maya who looked so sweet.

“Maya, I would never not intentionally talk to you.” Carina felt the need to defend, and Maya
got up and sat beside Carina and kissed her softly, she didn’t know what to say so she had to
prove to Carina that it was okay. When Carina went to talk again to apologize, Maya kissed
her again.

“I know you love me, and things are crazy here. I know that you wouldn’t do anything on
purpose.” Maya kissed her cheek and then went back to her spot and Carina nodded and
slightly smiled. The couple enjoyed the rest of her dinner and Carina paid the bill, even
though Maya tried to argue, but Carina insisted. Once they were done, Carina ordered a to-go
of Gelato. They waited for that and then they headed back to the hotel. Carina hoped that
Gabri made the room look special, because tonight was about Maya. No one else.

Chapter End Notes

I hope you liked this chapter; next chapter will be what we've been waiting for. All the
miss you smut there can be also some drama... Maya is one that holds her feelings down
and we will see how upset she truly was about the fact that Carina didn't call her for two
days. And to see a side of Carina when she is back at home. I am excited to explore a
different side of this story. I had another route I could have gone but I decided to add
some happiness into their lives and the sadness. I always appreciate your comments and
feedback. Stay tuned!
 But I Do Love You
Chapter Notes

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#SaveStation19

#DoNotCancelStation19

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They arrived back at the hotel and walked inside hand and hand. Maya couldn’t get it out of
her head about the woman that answered Carina’s phone, but Maya didn’t want to start a fight
with Carina. She got onto the elevator and Carina was kissing along the blonde’s neck and
when that woman's lips touched her neck her brain feels like it turns into mush, Maya giggled
when she felt Carina lick at ear and the elevator dinged. Maya pulled her off and walked
towards their room. Once they got inside, Maya shut the door behind her and found the room
full of candles and the peach-colored rose petals spread around the room. She smiled wide
and looked at Carina who was watching Maya’s reaction.

“I know that we did not walk out of the room earlier looking like this.” Maya laughed and
wrapped an arm around Carina and kissed her. “Did you hire someone to do this?” Maya
asked, sliding her hand up Carina’s shirt to lightly scratch at her back.

“Just a little help from a friend.” Carina shrugged and then pulled Maya’s hoodie up over her
head and she hung it up by the door. Maya smiled and then felt Carina kiss her lips, she
kissed her back and then pulled away, Carina frowned and looked at the blonde, she could
always tell when her head was spinning, and Maya needed to release it if the night was going
to be as special as Carina wanted to make it. “Bambina, what’s going on in that beautiful
head of yours?” Carina asked, pulling Maya towards the bed. Maya sighed and followed
Carina, she straddled Carina’s lap on the bed and looked at her.

“Carina, I know I dropped the conversation of who answered your phone the other night…
but I can’t get it out of my head because she made it seem like you didn’t want to talk to me.”
Maya was now playing with Carina’s shirt, looking down at her fingers. It was hard for Maya
to communicate what she was feeling, but she was trying. Carina listened and looked at
Maya, listening to her words. She really tried to recall the other night.

“Bambina, I really don’t know who answered the phone.” Carina huffed. “I wasn’t near my
phone.” Maya stopped playing with her shirt and she just froze.

“I heard you laughing in the background. Like you were happy, and it’s not that I didn’t want
you to be happy and I’m glad you got to spend time with your family. I just can’t get her
voice out of my head.” Maya moved hair behind her own ear, and she finally looked at
Carina’s brown eyes, watching as they intently looked into Maya’s.

“I might have had too much to drink, and I set my phone down. I thought that you were
working, that's why I didn’t call. But I should have.” Carina muttered out and reached out to
grab Maya’s hands.

“I have been around so many people the past week, I lost my phone so many times because I
invested in making sure everyone else was okay. It's not that I didn’t think about you, because
believe me. You ran through my mind every second of the day. Maya, I wanted to just be in
your arms.” Carina was rambling and Maya squeezed at her hands. “Bambina, I never not
wanted to talk to you or told anyone to tell you I’d call you later. I think that maybe someone
wanted me to not worry about other people.” Carina shrugged and Maya nodded.

“Okay, I trust you.” Maya said softly and she leaned forward and kissed Carina softly. The
Italian kissed her back and moaned into the kiss. The blonde deepened the kiss quickly,
sliding her tongue into the brunette’s mouth. Carina granted her access and fought for
dominance. Maya groaned and pushed Carina against the headboard, Carina gasped and she
moved her hands to Maya’s thighs.

“Bambina, I would not intentionally hurt your feelings or your heart. You are special, truly
special to me. I will find out who answered the phone that night” Carina said as she pulled
away from the kiss. Maya chased her lips and then listened to her girlfriend, and she smiled.

“I love you.” Maya whispered, wrapping her arms around Carina’s neck.

“I love you too, Maya.” Carina said softly and leaned up, taking Maya’s lips between hers
again. Maya pulled away again and Carina groaned.

“I’m sorry I didn’t come out here with you in the beginning.” Maya said softly, grabbing the
woman’s cheeks and kissing her again.

“Mmmh, Bambina, it’s okay.” Carina said softly, rubbing Maya’s thighs. Maya looked at her
girlfriend and sighed. “I know that you had work, and I would have loved for you to come
out here, but I know that you would be here for me in your own way.” The Italian smiled at
her and then leaned up, her hands pushing into Maya’s back so that she could put her head on
Maya’s chest. Maya smiled and played with the brunette’s hair.

“I still should have gotten on the plane with you.” Maya whispered. Carina started to
unbutton Maya’s pants and patted Maya’s thighs. The blonde got off Carina and took off her
jeans and her t-shirt, leaving her in a black bra and thong, she got onto Carina’s lap again and
looked down at her.

“I forgive you, Maya. I’m not mad. Please forgive yourself.” Carina said, sliding her hand
over Maya’s covered center, the blonde gasped. “Babmbina you are only punishing yourself.”
Carina pushed her fingers against Maya’s folds over her panties, Maya moaned and looked
deep into her lover’s eyes. “Tell me what I can do for you.” Carina whispered, leaning into
Maya’s face, their lips not touching yet.

“Carina, let me make it up to you.” Maya whispered, sliding her own hand over Carina’s and
pushing it against her center again, grinding against it.

“Believe me, pleasuring you will make me feel so good.” Carina smirked and moved her
underwear to the side and brushed her fingers against the woman’s cunt and then rubbed at
her clit in slow, big circles. Maya let out a moan, her body involuntary grinding to find
friction. Her thighs opened a little bit more. “Let me make love to you in all the right ways
babe.” Carina whispered, adding more pressure against her clit.

“Oh god, Carina.” Maya whimpered, pulling at the brunette’s hair, bringing her face to
Carina’s and kissing her. Carina kissed her back, rubbing at her clit faster. She wanted to edge
Maya and make her have a powerful orgasm that only Carina knew she could give her. All
her love poured into Maya.

“Lay back, amore, I want to get you naked.” Carina whispered and pushed the blonde back
onto her back laying near the foot of the bed. Maya smiled at the woman who slid off her
underwear down her white, creamy legs then she pushed Maya’s legs open and laid down on
top of her, kissing her neck. Maya hummed at the feeling of Carina’s lips on her and Carina’s
body full against her as they made out. It was like a little touch of heaven and her entire body
had chills.

“You are wearing too many clothes.” Maya complained and tried to take off Carina’s clothes,
the brunette shook her head and pinned Maya’s hands above her head and came level with
her face. Maya bit her own bottom lip and looked at Carina who looked like she was about to
devour her. “Please, Carina.” Maya begged and arched her hips and tried to grind on Carina’s
leg but the brunette straddled Maya’s torso and smirked.

“You can beg, but I will decide when you cum and when you don’t.” Carina chuckled and got
off Maya and walked over to her bag and pulled out the first toy she wanted to use on Maya.
“I want to fuck you and then I want to fuck your ass.” Carina grabbed the strapless strap on,
and she watched as Maya sat up at her words, eyes wide.

“M-my ass?” Maya asked, blushing a deep red. Carina was sliding off her pants, smirking at
Maya.” My ass?” She repeated, chills ran up her spine and she shivered at the thought. “Have
you ever had your ass fucked, Maya?” Carina asked, sliding the strapless strap over her
thong. The blonde was watching every move Carina was making, shaking her head. “Hmm?”
Carina questioned, standing over by the chair.

“Once, b-but I don’t think it was done right. Wasn’t pleasurable for me.” Maya said softly,
still sitting on the bed.

“Oh, I’ll make it pleasurable for you, get over here.” Carina demanded confidently. Maya
obeyed and stood up. “Take off your bra, bed over that desk.” Carina pointed over to the
counter beside the chair, Carina moved the stuff onto the chair and as she finished Maya’s bra
was thrown onto the bed and she was bending over the desk, facing the wall. Her ass out for
Carina. The brunette came to stand behind Maya and got down onto her knees and spread her
ass cheeks open, licking from her slit to her crack, moaning at the taste. Maya gasped and
gripped the edge of the desk. Carina chuckled and rolled her tongue into circles against the
woman’s clit, moaning at the taste.

“Oh fuck!” Maya gasped, closing her eyes. Carina flatted her tongue and flicked against the
bud, feeling it harden under her tongue. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.” Maya chanted out, Carina
grabbed at her waist, holding Maya up unsure if Maya would collapse from pleasure. She
continued to flick her tongue, closing her eyes at the taste of Maya. The more she flicked the
wetter she got. Carina wrapped her lips around her clit and sucked, her tongue rolling in
circles, Maya’s knuckles turned white, and she could feel her body tingling. “Fuck baby. I’m
so close.” Maya panting, trying to move her hips but Carina kept her still and sucked harder.
The blonde smacked her hand on the desk, moaning louder just before Maya was about to
reach her orgasm, Carina pulled away and left Maya panting and whining. Carina smacked
her cheeks and heard Maya gasp again. “Do you remember your safe words?” Carina asked.
Maya nodded and felt Carina pull at her hair from the nape of her neck and Maya held her
head back, her back arched and her ass out, Carina rubbed the tip of the makeshift dick along
the woman’s folds, watching it get wet, then she leaned forward and kissed along the
woman’s neck, biting and sucking at spots. Maya groaned and felt Carina tug at her hair
tighter.

“Carina.” Maya whimpered and the brunette sucked at the side of Maya’s neck beside her
pulse point, moaning. Maya moaned with her and grinding her hips back against Carina. The
brunette pulled away and watched as Maya’s mark was a deep red, she smirked to herself and
let go of Maya’s hair and covered the strap with lube. Maya kept her head up, her elbows at
the edge of the desk and her hands gripping at the other end of the desk, she felt Carina lift
one of her legs up on the desk, leaving her cunt open and dripping for Carina to take. The
brunette rubbed the tip against her folds a few times before sliding the tip in and then pulling
out completely. “Fuck me!” Maya yelled out and then felt a sting on her rear.

“Don’t be rude.” Carina said, pushing the tip in again and then pulling out, Maya moaned and
laid her forehead on the desk. Carina watched her girlfriend and smiled, sliding the tip in and
then going in further, stretching the blonde slightly. The width was a little bigger than Maya
could remember it being, but fuck. It felt too good to care. Carina spread Maya’s cheeks and
watched as the dick slid further into the blonde’s cunt and as she pulled out so slowly, she
watched how wet it was, not just from the lube but from Maya. The blonde below her was a
panting mess, her groans were echoing in the room, and it was like music to Carina’s ears.
She could listen to Maya moan and groan every second of the day. Carina slid almost all the
way out and then she slammed the entire length into Maya, causing Maya to let out an
animalistic moan. Carina left herself in there and she leaned forward and kissed along the
woman’s shoulder blades, running her fingers lightly along the woman’s side, watching as
her skin formed goosebumps. “Hmm, such a good girl for me.” Carina said softly, moving
Maya’s blonde hair to one side and she kissed and sucked on the back side of Maya’s neck,
sliding the makeshift dick out a little bit before slamming back in, causing the desk to thud
against the wall.

“Oh yes! Carina. Babe. fuck.” Maya panted out, whimpering as she felt Carina’s lips on her
skin. She felt on fire but so cold at the same time. Carina left another mark and then stood up
straighter and smacked Maya’s rear end and started to fuck Maya at a faster pace, pulling all
the way out before slamming back in harder each time. “Yes! Baby you fuck me so good.”
Maya moaned out, gripping at the desk harder.

“You like when I fuck you, Maya?” Carina asked, panting herself. She was getting turned on
just by the way Maya was moaning and the sound of her wetness coating the makeshift dick.
She wasn’t only going to edge Maya, but she was edging herself. “God, you know I do.”
Maya replied and felt another sting to her ass and she could feel the wetness gushing out of
her every time Carina was rough with her. Before she could comprehend, Carina was
thrusting in faster, each thrust was causing the desk to hit the wall, Maya moved her fingers
away and she slid her free hand down and started to rub her clit, Carina had her eyes closed,
the way Maya’s ass bounced was going to make her cum. “Fuck.” Carina whispered, when
she opened her eyes, Maya was breathing heavier and she saw her hand, Carina pulled out
completely and Maya whimpered loudly. Carina grabbed Maya’s hands and pulled them
behind her back and shoved Maya’s upper body all the way against the desk, wetness
dripping down Maya’s thighs.

“Bad girl.” Carina said sternly and walked away from Maya, reaching in the bag. She pulled
out a paddle and walked back over to Maya. The blonde was rubbing her thighs together and
suddenly she felt a harsh sting to one of her butt cheeks.

“Ah!” She screamed out, keeping her hands in the same place Carina had them, she knew if
she moved them, Carina would torture her, and all Maya wanted to do right now was cum.
She felt a sting on her other cheek and then a finger rubbing at her anus, Maya moaned
loudly, not caring who could hear her. Carina grabbed the lube from the bed, and she coated a
finger and she rubbed at Maya’s ass and set the paddle down and used her other hand and
rubbed at Maya’s clit then pushed her finger slowly inside of Maya’s ass, feeling some
resistance she paused and rubbed at the woman’s clit faster.

“Fuck fuck fuck.” Maya chanted, trying to move her hips. “Bambina, don’t cum just yet, I
just want you to feel the pleasure.” Cariana said softly, focusing, she felt her slightly loosen
up and she pushed her finger in a little further, Maya was whining her clit was harder and
Carina knew she was close, so she stopped rubbing her clit and slid her finger all the way in
and let it sit there for a second. Maya was gasping and she felt Carina pull away a little bit
and push back in, creating friction.

“Fuck.” Maya whimpered out and then suddenly felt wetness and more pressure. Carina had
poured more lube over Maya’s ass and then slid two fingers inside of the blonde and she slid
the makeshift dick inside of her girlfriend again and started to thrust slowly, Maya hit the
desk again with her hand and let out louder moans. “That feels so good.” Maya grunted and
Carina started to thrust both ends a little faster, she could feel Maya getting tighter, and her
whines turned into heavy breathed screams, and her body froze, and her legs trembled.

“Shit, no... fuck.” Maya whimpered and grabbed at the edge of the desk again and suddenly
her orgasm was trying to take over and her eyes closed and Carina could barely push inside
of Maya so she reached her free hand to the front of Maya and pushed at her clit and rubbed
in small tight circles, bringing her orgasm to the surface and Maya whimpered out Carina’s
name, her body shook and Carina slowly pulled her fingers out of her ass and then fucked
Maya with the dick through her orgasm, her hands squeezing the woman’s cheeks. Once
Maya’s orgasm subsided, Carina slowly pulled out of Maya and she kissed along her thighs,
licking up the wetness that was still there, and kissed each of Maya’s cheeks and gently bit
down, Maya chuckled and waited for Carina to finish kissing her and she slowly stood up,
Carina’s arm was around her torso, holding her up.

“Do my legs work?” Maya asked, laughing. Carina smiled and nodded.

“Yes, they work.” Carina laughed and walked Maya over to the bed, Carina slid off the
strapless strap and she then started to take off her shirt, Maya was sitting at the edge of the
bed, her eyes on Carina, she was wearing a deep red colored thong and as she took off her
shirt, Maya gasped for air, the dark red definitely complimented Carina’s skin tone, but
seeing her in the candle light it made Maya look at her with adoration and she sat up
straighter on the bed.

“Please come here.” Maya whispered, her blue eyes big and beautiful, Carina walked over to
her and stood right in between Maya’s legs, her hands resting on the blonde’s shoulders, and
she looked down at Maya who met her eyes, smiling. The blonde placed her hands on
Carina’s waist, and she leaned forward and started to kiss along the brunette’s toned stomach,
moving her lips across the skin, Carina hummed softly, the feeling of Maya’s lips on her body
was the best feeling in the world, and to watch Maya be so gentle with her was such an
emotional connection for Carina, she was addicted to it. Maya started to gently suck at her
skin, running her tongue in circles then she pulled Carina closer to her and she kissed along
her waist right where the line of the thong sat, and it made Carina gasp. It was so close to
where she needed Maya, but yet, so far. Maya watched as the woman closed her eyes and
took a deep breath, trying to control her body. Maya reached a hand into Carina’s panties, and
she started to rub at her clit, Carina dug her fingers into Maya’s shoulders, and she gasped.
Maya watched her from below, picking up the pace. Her goal was to make Carina cum.
Quickly the blonde scooted back a little bit and slid two fingers inside of the blonde and
started to penetrate, Carina let out a moan, biting at her own lip. Maya was in awe of this
woman.

“Mmh! Maya.” Carina groaned and threw her head back as she felt Maya pick up the pace,
her thumb now rubbing at her clit. Carina could feel her nipples rubbing against the material
and it was becoming uncomfortable, her body was so responsive to Maya, and it was such an
intense feeling, sometimes all Carina could get wet just by the way Maya made her feel. The
brunette was so close, her hand now moved to Maya’s head, and she was pushing Maya’s
face into her so Maya attached her lips to the brunette’s stomach again, kissing at her skin.
“Ah!” Carina gasped and started to massage the woman’s scalp, her hips thrusting to meet
Maya’s fingers. She was so wet; Maya pushed her fingers deeper pushing against the spongy
inside over and over again.

“Oh! Bambina.!” Carina screamed out. “I’m so close.” She whispered, Maya continued to
kiss along the woman's skin, her free hand moving behind Carina and pulling at the string of
the thong so that every time Carina thrusted up she was causing friction against her clit, she
felt Carina clench and Maya pushed in harder and she felt the woman's abdomen tightened
and then Maya’s name was repeated in a chant as white heat was released, Maya felt her
fingers soaked and she moaned against the woman’s skin, closing her eyes. She fucked
Carina through her orgasm and watched as she came down. Slowly she pulled her fingers out
and licked her fingers clean.

Carina looked down and watched Maya, biting at her own lip again. Maya moaned at the
taste, and she then ran her hands up Carina’s side, and she stood up and cupped the brunette’s
plumped breast, squeezing them, causing Carina to moan and her eyes fluttered closed again.

“Baciami, capitana.” Carina whispered, looking at Maya and bending down. The blonde
knew what that meant and she leaned forward and captured Carina’s lips between hers and
she kissed her, squeezing at her breasts again. Carina groaned and slid her tongue into the
blonde’s mouth, and she grabbed at her ass and squeezed it. Maya deepened the kiss and let
Carina take over the kiss, she was already weak to her knees and ready for another round.

“Baby, can we... can we...” Maya paused, and she was turning red. “I want you to ride me...”
Maya whispered.

“Like with the strap?” Carina asked, moving Maya’s hair out of her face.

“No.” Maya looked at her and pushed Carina flush against her and she grinded her hips and
Carina gasped and nodded. “Go lay down on the bed all the way to the headboard.” Carina
said softly and walked away from Maya, grabbing the vibrator. Maya was where she was told
to be and Carina blew out the candles and she turned on the lamp beside the bed and she got
in between Maya’s legs, leaning down, kissing the blonde. Maya kissed her back and then
Carina put her hips over Maya’s sideways and she lifted Maya’s leg.

“Let me know if you start cramping.” Carina said softly and Maya nodded, and she reached
her hand down and spread her own folds, exposing her clit and Carina did the same and she
slowly let her hips go down and she felt their clits touch and then Maya moved her hand and
Carina waited a minute to adjust to the right spot and she leaned forward, gasping. “If I don’t
cum, don’t be offended, it’s harder for me to get off like this.” Carina said softly and kissed
Maya's leg that she was holding. Maya smiled at her girlfriend and Carina began to move
back and forth slowly, creating a friction for both of them, their clit rubbing together.

“Yess!” Maya moaned, moving her hips and Carina let out another moan and held onto
Maya’s leg and started to pick up the pace. “Amore, let me be the one that moves for right
now.” Carina moved her hips at a quicker pace, creating the perfect friction for their clits and
she rubbed her pussy against Maya’s, both of them moaned. She reached for the vibrator and
turned in on, Maya’s eyes were closed, and she was moaning, Carina lifted her hips slightly
and slid the smaller vibrator between them once it was on, trying to not lose the feeling and
she sat down on the vibrator that was now vibrating against both of her clits and Maya arched
her back and moved her hips.

“Fuck, babe.” Maya was panting and the more wet she got the more Carina could hear it
against the vibrator. Carina changed the angle slightly and opened Maya’s leg more that was
in the air, and she gasped as the vibrator hit her clit just right and suddenly moved her hand to
Carina’s ass and she smacked it hard.

“Ah! Captina.” Carina moaned out, her pussy was becoming more wet as she felt Maya’s
hand on her, squeezing her ass and smacking it again. Carina moaned again.
“Oh baby.” Maya groaned, rubbing her pussy more against the vibrator and she squeezed at
Carina’s cheek with her one hand and Maya felt herself clench against nothing, her body was
hot, and she arched her back and her orgasm crashed quickly. The blonde whimpered out
Carina’s name, her clit was so sensitive but it was almost an addicting feeling as it moved
between them, knowing Carina was causing the movement and Maya’s legs shook and Carina
was still working herself up, so she reached down and coating the wetness against her finger
and she started making circles against the woman’s anus and Carina moved her hips lower
and pushed her ass out slightly and Maya took that as a sign and she rubbed a little harder
and Carina let out a strangled scream and Maya could feel her body shake above her and then
Carina took the vibrator away and she collapsed on Maya. The blonde reached for the
vibrator and turned it off and she lowered her leg, and played with the brunette’s hair, her
back was sweaty, and she was panting along with Maya.

The couple laid there for a little bit, loving kisses were shared against their skin and touches
that sent chills down their bodies all over again. “Carina.” Maya whispered and rolled Carina
onto her back. “Let me love you.” Maya whispered and she slid down Carina’s body and the
Italian opened her legs more to accommodate Maya and she felt the woman’s tongue lick at
her slit like it was a damn lollipop and fuck it made Carina more wet… if that was even
possible.

“Scopami.” Carina was now rambling in Italian and if there was one thing that Maya was
picking up on it was mostly what she heard in the bedroom when she was pleasuring Carina.
“Mangiami.” (eat me) Carina begged, pushing Maya’s face closer to her center and Maya
chuckled and laid flat on her stomach so she was face to face with Carina’s very pink and
very wet pussy and God was it sexy. Maya poked her tongue out and touched the woman’s
clit and Carina gasped and moved her hips slightly, creating her own friction against the
woman’s tongue. “Sono tua.” (I’m yours) Carina whispered, massaging the blonde’s scalp
and opening her legs more. Maya stuck her tongue more and she watched as Carina increased
the pace of her hips. “Oh!” Carina whimpered out and Maya started to suck on her clit and
two of her fingers inside of Carina, causing the brunette to arch her back. Maya sucked
harder and pushed her fingers in and out faster, hearing the wetness each time she pushed in,
and fuck, Maya was already turned on again. She then pulled away and it caused Carina to
look up. The blonde grabbed at Carina’s legs, and she pulled her to the edge of the bed and
she let her legs dangle.

“Take off that bra. As sexy as it is on you, I need to watch them move as I fuck you.” Maya
demanded and Carina sat up slightly and she took off the bralette and let it fall to the floor.
She watched Maya put on the double ended strap. She smirked and watched Maya lube it up
and then she laid back and played with her own breasts with both hands. Maya watched her
and once it was lubed up enough she placed the smaller end inside of herself, gasping and
then she walked over to Carina and she grabbed at her legs and placed each one of her
shoulders and Maya pushed her back down to lay on the bed and she ran the tip against
Carina’s folds, watching as Carina groaned and felt Maya push her legs back a little bit and
then she slid the tip inside of her, causing them both to moan, the push back was pushing into
Maya.

“Yess! Bambina.” Carina whimpered, grabbing at the sheets, Maya closed her eyes and tried
to control herself before sliding more inside of the brunette, biting on her lip. Carina was
breathing heavier, and her nipples were harder and begging for attention, Maya licked at two
of her fingers and she rubbed at her nipple with one hand, and she started to push in and out
of Carina, not all the way in, she kept the slow pace, building her girlfriend up and Carina’s
head was to the side, and she was already a moaning mess. Maya moaned and pulled at the
woman’s nipple, Carina gasped, and her eyes looked into Maya’s. Carina licked at her own
two fingers and did the same as Maya and the blonde growled and she slid all the way inside
of the Carina and they both moaned louder, Maya pushed Carina’s legs back a little bit more
and it created a perfect angle to hit inside of Carina’s sweet cunt that made her toes curled
and that was the goal. She wanted Carina to feel good, but fucked enough it was hard to walk
the next day. Maya rolled her lovers nipple between her fingers a few more second and
Carina was mirroring her action and Carina felt her slid out and Carina braced herself for
what was to come, and she grabbed at the sheets with both hands and Maya slammed back
into Carina and repeated the action over and over again.

“Oh! Maya! Cazzo.” Carina whimpered out and the Italian only fused Maya on.

“You like being fucked with my dick?” Maya whispered, only enough for Carina to hear.

“Yes Captina! Yes!” Carina moaned, feeling Maya repeatedly hit one spot. “Uh!” She let out
and closed her eyes. “Mi scopi così bene.” Carina then felt herself being flipped onto her
stomach and then her legs were bent at the knees and Maya was now pushing in her from
behind, her legs weren’t opened a lot and the position felt amazing, she could feel the dick
sliding in at such a perfect angle, it made her feel tighter and the makeshift dick feel bigger.

“Oh, Sì Bambina così buona!” Carina was getting louder, and Maya had her hips at the edge
of the bed and her knee’s bent, she watched as her ass moved the faster, she shoved the
cockinside of Carina’s perfect cunt. “Sono vicino” Carina whimpered. Maya knew Carina
was about to cum, but she wasn’t done with her. Maya slammed harder inside of the brunette
and that was when the room went silent, all that was heard was Maya’s skin slapping against
Carina’s ass and the wetness that was coating the dick and suddenly Carina was lying flat on
the bed and her legs were trembling, her orgasm crashed, and she let out a stream of whines
and whimpers and Maya smirked and watched her girlfriend orgasm. Then she pulled out, not
fucking Carina through her orgasm and she rolled the brunette over onto her back and she got
on her knee’s pulled the strap off and set it beside of her and licked at the woman’s clit, not
giving Carina a chance to stop her.

“Così sensibile.” Carina whimpered out and tried to move her center away from Maya’s
mouth, but Maya held her there and she kept licking at Carina’s cunt, moaning at the taste.
“Cazzo, non posso.” Carina whined and pushed Maya’s face further against her center. She
could feel another orgasm building up and the way Maya’s tongue was rolling against her clit
it wouldn’t take long and fuck it felt amazing to have this woman pushing her to this point.
She felt like she could explode. Maya slid a finger inside of Carina, knowing she was
sensitive she pushed it in and out at a fast, soft pace and she licked at the woman’s clit,
Carina was tight and wet, and it only egged Maya on, she swore she could cum just by tasting
this woman.

“Sto venendo!” Carina screamed out, arching her back off the bed entirely and her orgasm
crashed, coating Maya’s nose, mouth and chin and Maya licked it all, she was addicted she
wanted to lick Carina dry. Her finger continued to push in and out and her tongue was
slurping up the juices. Carina’s legs were shaking, and she pulled Maya’s face away and
whimpered breathlessly and Maya slid her finger out slowly. Maya got up onto her feet and
leaned over and kissed Carina deeply, the woman kissed her back and moaned at the taste of
herself covered on Maya’s lips. Carina pulled away to try and catch her breath and Maya was
kissing along the woman’s neck, she was so horny it would take a few pumps of Carina’s
fingers and she would cum, but instead, Carina pulled at Maya, so she straddled the woman’s
torso and she gasped and started to grind, Carina’s skin was so hot, and it felt so amazing
against the sensitive bud. Her hips picked up the pace and she gripped at Carina’s breasts,
moaning.

“Oh! Oh! Fuuuck.” Maya moaned out, her clit was rubbing at just the right pace and Carina
placed a hand on the woman’s thigh and watched as Maya chased for her orgasm. Wetness
was coating her stomach and she wanted nothing more but to make Maya release her
pressure.

“Your pussy is so wet for me.” Carina said softly, digging her nails into the blonde’s bare
thigh and Maya groaned.

“So so wet, baby. All for you.” Maya panted out, groaning. “I’m so close, Carina.” Maya
whispered, moving back and forth faster.

“You gonna cum for me like a good girl?” Carina asked, moaning.

“Yes! Yes! I want to be a good girl.” Maya chanted out. Carina smirked and she could feel
Maya going as fast as she could.

“Let me feel you cum, Bambina. Cover me in it.” Carina begged and she left nail marks in
Maya’s thighs and the blonde was thrown over the edge, she let out a scream that surely woke
up a few people and she threw her head back. Carina watched Maya as her orgasm took over
and she then slowed Maya’s hips down and the blonde sat still and caught her breath, she
could still feel her cunt throbbing from all the pleasure she just gave. The blonde got off
Carina and her legs felt like jello, she chuckled, and Carina sat up, holding onto her.

“I say, let’s take a bath and relax the rest of the night. I am spent.” Carina said, standing up.
Maya nodded with a smile, and she led Carina to the bathroom. Maya grabbed some of the
bubble bath that Carina had brought while Carina started the bath water, making it as hot as it
could go. She wanted to give their muscles some heat since they both were in positions they
didn’t do often. She wanted to relax them as much as she could. Maya put some salts in the
bath and then added bubbles. Carina stood over by the sink and looked at the marks Maya left
over her torso.

“I love you.” Maya walked up beside Carina and placed a kiss on her shoulder.

“I love you too.” Carina smiled and watched Maya in the mirror, she felt proud, Maya’s neck
had two marks and that was perfect. She didn’t want anyone to even remotely look at Maya
while she was here. It was a possessive side to Carina that she didn’t want to unleash.
“Come on.” Maya led them to the tub, and she sat down and waited for Carina to get in front
of her. Once she did that, Maya wrapped her arms around the woman and breathed in her
scent, sighing. They sat in a comfortable silence for the rest of their bath, kissing each other
sweetly and staring into each other's eyes. It was such a sweet and intense thing they both
did.

Meanwhile, Carina’s phone was blowing up…

Genivia: Hey, wanna go get drinks?

Gabri: Geniva keeps asking for you… you need to tell her you are seeing someone

Genivia: Can we talk about the other night? I’m sorry I might have come off too strong.

Geniva: Gabri just said you had a girlfriend… is that true?

Geniva: Wait… is that why you rejected me when I asked you out? Is that who called you the
other night?

Geniva: Oh gosh… I’m sorry Carina… I think I fucked up.

Gabri: This woman…. I swear. Enjoy your time with Maya.

Geniva: Carina. I am so sorry. I answered your phone the other night when we were all
drinking…

Geniva: I fucked up and told her you didn’t want to talk

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Maya got out of the tub first and she wrapped herself in a towel and she could hear a phone
going off, she thought it might have been hers, she walked out and she went to the phone that
was lighting up and found these messages. Maya looked at them and then it dawned on her…

“Carina. Who is Geniva?” Maya asked, holding the brunette’s phone.

“Gabri’s girl toy.” Carina responded and walked over to her suitcase and pulled out a pair of
fresh clothes.

“Why is Gabri saying she is asking for you?” Maya asked, walking over to Carina and
holding up the phone to Carina’s face.

Carina read the messages as quickly as she could and she sighed.

“She is one of Gabri’s toys and I felt bad so I invited her the other night to drink and play
games with my cousins and Gabri and her were flirting all night and so I didn’t think
anything of it until she tried to kiss me and I pushed her away before she could.” Carina
looked at Maya who was now looking at the phone. Carina grabbed it and set it down.
“Maya, I didn’t know she was the one who answered the phone. She didn’t say anything, and
I promise nothing happened. I swear.” Carina watched as Maya said nothing, emotionless.
 Carina started to get dressed and Maya did the same, still not saying anything. Once they
were both cleaning up the toys in the bathroom sink, Maya let out a shaky breath and she
looked at Carina.

“I believe you.” Maya simply said and Carina let out a little bit of a sob and she dropped the
object in the sink. “Carina, I don’t think you would do that.. Ever.” Maya finished cleaning
one and she placed it on the towel and then grabbed the one Carina dropped and she looked
down for a second. “I trust you amore.” Maya finished cleaning and she shut the water off.
Carina nodded and she wrapped her arms around the blonde.

“I’m so in love with you Maya.. I can’t let anyone or anything come between that.” Carina
whispered, holding onto the blonde tightly.

“I love you, Carina.” Maya leaned back and kissed Carina softly. They both walked to the
bed hand in hand and got under the covers, facing each other. The brunette ran her fingers
gently along Maya’s arm.

“Kiss me again.” Carina whispered, and Maya obeyed and she kissed the brunette deeply,
their bodies tangled into one another and Carina pulled away and moved closer to Maya and
fell sound asleep, so did Maya.

Chapter End Notes

I had thought about leaving the cliffhanger after the text messages, but it felt wrong.
Because no way would Carina cheat on Maya and I don't want to ruin what they have. I
wanted to go a little further to show that Maya can trust Carina and process it while still
being in the same room as her. Stay tuned for what happens next! I always appreciate
your comments and feedback. Now we know who answered the phone the other night...
but why was Geniva interested in Carina if she was flirting with Gabri. You may find
out next chapter. (: Don't hate me! I hope that you will keep reading. Enjoy your
day/night!
 Jealous
Chapter Notes
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The next morning, Maya woke up before Carina, she was spooning Carina. She smiled, this
is what familiarity was like and she loved it. She was so beyond in love with Carina, all she
wanted to do had them be in their own bubble of love. Maya leaned down and kissed Carina’s
neck softly, and down her shoulder blade. Somewhere in the night, Carina removed her
clothes, and she was naked. Slowly, Maya slid off the bed and walked into the bathroom and
undressed herself, she turned on the hot water to the bathtub, she had to admit that she was
sore, pleasantly though. She shut the bathroom door a little bit and tied her hair into a bun.

Carina woke up after she heard the water and she looked around and saw the door was half
closed, she smiled to herself and got up. She needed coffee, but first she wanted to enjoy her
time with her girlfriend before she introduced them to people. The brunette opened the
bathroom door and Maya was just about to get in and she turned around, smiling.

“Buongiorno.” Carina greeted and walked towards Maya, kissing her lips softly.

“Good morning, amore.” Maya greeted.

“Let me hold you.” Carina said softly and got into the tub before Maya and the blonde
nodded and then got into the water in front of Carina. She sighed softly at the feeling of the
water and then she felt Carina’s arms wrap around her. “How are you?” Carina whispered,
grabbing water with her hand and running it down Maya’s arm.

“I’m a little sore, but in a good way.” Maya chuckled and laced her fingers with Carina’s.
“How are you?” Maya asked, shivering at the feeling of Carina’s lips on her neck.

“I’m good, still tired.” Carina mumbled against the woman’s skin, kissing along her creamy
neck, biting lightly at it and causing Maya to hiss. “I figured we could go get some coffee and
come back to the hotel. I still have us booked for one more night.” Carina suggested. Maya
nodded in agreement and turned her head to look at Carina.

“I’m okay with anything as long as I am with you.” Maya kissed along Carina’s neck, biting
at her skin just like Carina did to her and it made Carina moan. “Mark me, Bambina.” The
brunette whispered and tilted her head to the side and Maya turned to face Carina and she
licked and sucked at her neck, once the blonde was done with one spot she moved to the next
and she paused and pulled Carina’s hair up into a messy bun and kissed along the woman’s
neck, moaning at the taste of Carina’s skin against her tongue.

Maya pulled away and smiled at her girlfriend, Carina giggled and licked her lips. “You’re
mine.” Maya whispered, kissing Carina’s lips deeply. The Italian kissed her back just as
deeply, both of them moaning.
“I’ll always be yours, Maya.” Carina whispered. “But Bambina, the water is getting cold…
and I want coffee.” Carina pouted. Maya couldn’t help but to laugh and she leaned in again,
kissing the pout off her girlfriend's face.

“Come on.” Maya stood up and grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her body and then she
held one out to Carina and helped her wrap it. Carina mouthed a thank you and the pair
walked out of the bathroom together, and they both got dressed. Carina put on a yellow floral
dress and white heels. She put her hair down and brushed it out and then put half of it in a
bun. Maya put on a pair of jean shorts and a t-shirt that hung off one shoulder and she took
down her hair and brushed it out. Both women brushed their teeth and Maya put on a pair of
sneakers and grabbed her wallet, Carina grabbed her purse and made sure she had the room
key.

Maya grabbed Carina’s hand and they walked down the streets of Italy. They stopped at a
local coffee shop, Carina ordered her espresso and Maya decided to try the same thing.
Carina smiled and they waited for their coffee.

“You look so hot, Bambina.” Carina whispered, kissing Maya’s cheek.

“And you my love, look so beautiful.” Maya whispered back, blushing.

Their coffee was finished, and they grabbed their cups and walked back outside.

“Carina!” Gabri yelled and Carina immediately turned around and she hugged Gabri as she
came closer, surprise, Geniva was there.

“Mmh, Maya, this is my best friend, Gabriella.” Carina introduced and then she turned her
attention to Geniva, and she sighed. Maya then put her arm around Carina’s waist, pulling her
in close. “And Geniva.” Carina smiled and felt Maya’s arm and she bit the inside of her
cheek.

“Nice to meet both of you.” Maya said, shaking their hands and pulling Carina in closer to
her, causing Carina to place a hand on Maya’s chest.

“Uh, Carina. I was wondering if I could speak to you.” Geniva asked, walking towards
Carina.

“Sure! Anything you say can be said in front of Maya.” Carina said, playing with the blonde
locks.

“Oh...” Geniva paused and looked at Maya. “Um, listen Carina. I answered your phone the
other night and it said the name Maya. Then Gabri told me about you and Maya. I’m so sorry
I didn’t mean to cross a line. I just assumed that you were enjoying your time and you
mentioned her, but you never said she was your girlfriend. At least it didn’t come off that way
so when I did try to ask you out, I thought you weren’t interested in me, but it turns out you
have a serious girlfriend.” Geniva nodded. “I hope that you can forgive me for crossing the
line.” The dark-haired girl said, Carina felt Maya move closer to Carina if that was even
possible and the brunette wrapped her arm around Maya.
“I’m not happy with what you said to her and as for not making it clear that she was my
girlfriend, I did. I talked about how much I adored her, and I even showed pictures. I told
everyone I was waiting for her call even if I was too drunk.” Carina spitted out, just looking
calmly at the woman. “You chose to not listen to me about her because you were interested in
me. Though you weren’t shy about telling me your sexapade with Gabriella.” Carina
shrugged and kissed Maya’s cheek and then looked at Gabri who was smirking.

“Again, I am so sorry, Maya.” Geniva turned her attention to the blonde and unlike Carina,
she can’t not show calm, her emotions are worn on her face, and she was looking at Geniva
with disgust.

“Yeah, umm. It hurts, but just know Carina is mine and I protect what is mine.” Maya smiled
warmly and then she turned and kissed Carina on the lips softly.

“So what are the plans for today?” Gabri asked.

“Well, I wanted to take Maya down to the water and then maybe have a picnic.” Carina
shrugged. “Both of you could join if you’d like. If Maya is okay with it.” Carina smiled at the
blonde as she watched her girlfriend nod.

“Sounds good to me.” Maya replied and they all started to walk back towards the hotel. Gabri
and Geniva went back to her place to change, Carina was holding Maya’s hand the entire
time and they walked to the hotel, coffee in hand.

“Bambina, I’m sorry for what she said. I would never ever tell someone I didn’t want to talk
to you.” Carina said softly and then stopped when Maya stopped and she grabbed Carina’s
cheek with her free hand and she kissed the brunette deeply, Carina let out a soft moan,
kissing the woman back.

“Hey, let’s not dwell on what happened and just try and move on? I want to enjoy my time
with you and show you off because you are mine and I am the luckiest person in the world to
be loved by you, Carina. Only you.” Maya smiled and pulled Carina inside of the hotel and
they walked up to the room and got into their bikinis and then Maya put on her shorts and t-
shirt again, Carina put on her dress. She packed up a bag with towels, water, sunscreen,
sunglasses for both of them and hair ties. Then the pair walked to the water, meeting
Gabriella and Geniva there. Maya watched Geniva as she checked Carina out as she was
undressing, so Maya grabbed the tanning oil and she came up behind Carina and she kissed
along her shoulders, causing the brunette to smile.

“Let me help you.” Maya whispered and put oil onto her hands, and she started to rub it into
the tan skin, smiling a little as she continued, going down her arms, then around her waist and
up her shoulders. Carina gasped a little and felt Maya going down her leg and then back up,
almost grazing her center, but then moving down the other leg. She turned Carina around and
Maya smirked at her girlfriend.
“You’re silly.” Carina whispered and kissed along Maya’s jaw and the blonde covered the
rest of her body in oils. “My turn.” Carina took off Maya’s shirt.

“Damn… okay. I can see why you went for the firefighter.” Gabri whistled and Maya looked
at Carina with a blush rising at her cheeks, Carina brought her bottom lip between her teeth,
and she had a crooked smile.

“Yes, and she is all mine.” Carina grabbed the sunscreen and she started to apply it to Maya’s
front, luckily the bikini that Cairna bought for her was low cut and showed off Maya’s
cleavage just perfectly. Carina rubbed it along the top of her breast and then down her
abdomen.

“Oh, I’m just admiring.” Gabri smirked and then pulled Geniva towards the water.

“Take off your shorts.” Carina said softly, kissing Maya.

“So, bossy.” Maya chuckled and unbuttoned her shorts. “Help me.” Maya whispered, looking
at Carina. “Take off my clothes, please baby.” Maya pouted and moved closer to Carina. The
brunette laughed a little and then she slid Maya’s shorts down and Maya took her ankles out
and then bent down in front of Carina and put it in the bag. Carina had her eyes on Maya’s
ass.

“Were you staring at my butt?” Maya asked, laughing a little.

“Yes, I was because it’s all mine.” Carina grabbed her ass and squeezed. Maya let out a moan
soft enough for only Carina to hear and then bit on her lip.

“Baby.” Maya moaned out and Carina finished putting on her sunscreen on her legs and then
on her back. Once both of them were done they walked out to the water hand in hand. They
went as deep as they could till both of their feet weren’t touching. Maya watched Carina as
her smile radiated like the sunlight and it made her whole heart skip a beat. She truly loved
this woman. Suddenly she was gently pushed underwater and then she came back up, seeing
Carina laughing. “Oh, game on!” Maya chuckled and grabbed Carina and then Carina swam
away, giggling. The brunette stopped and then she was underwater, and she came back up and
Maya was wrapping her legs around Carina’s waist.

“Hi.” Carina whispered and she placed her hands on the back of Maya’s thighs, letting them
float.

“You’re so fucking beautiful.” Maya said softly, running her fingers through Carina’s wet
hair, watching the natural curls form.

“Bambina, stop.” Carina was blushing and she looked down, away from Maya but she
stopped Carina from turning and she kissed her softly. “You’re beautiful.” Maya whispered
again and she kissed the woman again but before things got too pg 13, Gabri came up behind
Carina and poked her sides, Causing Carina to jump and let go of Maya and the blonde went
under water, her legs still wrapped around Carina.

“Love birds, let’s actually go swimming.” Gabri chuckled and Maya came back up from the
water and unwrapped her legs from Carina. They all swam for a while and then they got out
and laid their towels down and sunbathed in the sun along the sand. Maya and Carina were
side by side, holding hands. Gabri and Geneva weren’t even touching. When Gabriella was
done with something she made sure to make it aware.
They swam again for a few more hours and then Gabri and Geniva went home. They all
agreed to meet up at a local club later in the night. Carina and Maya swam for a little while
longer and then they went back to the hotel and ordered room service, they showered together
and then both of them wrapped up in robes. Carina laid down on the bed facing Carina, they
locked eyes and Maya smiled.

“You are so beautiful.” Carina whispered, running her fingers along Maya’s cheeks. “I’m so
lucky to have you.” Carina said, smiling.

“Carina.” Maya whispered, blushing and looking down for a second before leaning in and
kissing Carina. The brunette smiled into the kiss and kissed the blonde back before hearing a
knock on the door and she pulled away. “No. No, not yet.” Maya whispered and kissed
Carina again, pulling her closer. “Please.” Maya whispered and Carina kissed her again,
deepening it. Maya opened her legs and wrapped her arm around Carina. The brunette put her
hand around Maya’s throat and applied pressure along the sides and continued to kiss the
blonde.

Maya let out a moan and arched her back. Carina chuckled a little and kissed along the
woman's jaw, then to her ear and she nibbled on her ear lobe and pushed herself off of Maya
and she got up and went to grab the food, Maya laid on the bed, breathing a little heavy. Her
lips were swollen.

“Bambina, we have to get up and get dressed.” Carina set the food on the desk and Maya sat
up and watched Carina, she wanted Carina now and she was going to get it before they left
anywhere, so Maya got off the bed and she moved the food by the tv and she pushed Carina
against the desk, her hands sliding up her bare thigh.

Carina gasped and opened her legs as she felt Maya touch her, she started to untie her robe
and Maya watched. Before Carina could finish sliding the robe off Maya was already sucking
at her neck, kissing her skin. Carina moaned out and the blonde slid her fingers along
Carina’s slit, feeling wetness coat her fingers.

“So wet for me.” Maya whispered and Carina arched her back up and Maya kissed along her
bare breast, sucking on the skin there, Carina allowed Maya to mark her wherever. She was
too turned on to care about hiding it, so Maya dipped two fingers into the blondes warm and
welcoming cunt, thrusting them in and out, Carina threw her head back, her chest stuck out
and Maya began to suck on one nipple, her tongue rolling in circles and flicking at the
swollen bud.

“Ah! Fuck Maya.” Carina moaned out, both of her hands on the edge of the desk, holding
herself up. Maya switched to the other breast, and she rubbed at Carina’s clit with her thumb,
finding the perfect spot inside of the woman that made Carina whimper and squirm. She
pushed repeatedly at that spot with her fingers, making a come here motion with her fingers,
her thumb applying the perfect amount of pressure that was causing Carina to choke on her
own breath.

“God you are so perfect.” Maya whispered, kissing along the woman’s neck, Carina was
groaning, her hips started to meet Maya’s fingers, wetness coated Maya’s fingers.
“I’m so close.” Carina whispered, gasping when Maya picked up the pace of her fingers.
“Yes! Yessss! Fuuuck Maya.” Carina screamed out, her abdomen tensed up and she grabbed
onto Maya’s neck with both of her hands as she was pushed over the edge, groaning. Maya
skilled fully fucked her through her orgasm, waiting till she rode it out and then she slowly
pulled her fingers out and licked them clean. Carina was inches away from Maya’s face,
panting and watching every move Maya made. Once Carina caught her breath and she
loosened her grip on Maya they kissed softly, Carina moaned at the taste of herself against
the blonde’s lips and they separated, knowing they had to eat and get ready.

The pair sat down on the bed and turned on the tv and ate their dinner, once they were
finished, Carina walked to her bag and pulled out her curling iron and her makeup bag. Maya
grabbed her straightener and makeup bag, and she slid off her robe and they stood in the
bathroom getting ready, stealing glances at each other. Carina started to curl her hair, Maya
did a light amount of makeup and applied a red lipstick, Carina stopped doing her makeup
and watched as Maya applied it and she smirked.

“What?” Maya chuckled as she finished her makeup and started to straighten her hair.

“You’re just lusciously beautiful Bambina...” Carina chuckled and started to apply makeup,
she did a brown eyeshadow and then a dark eyeliner on her bottom waterline, it made
Carina’s brown eyes pop. Then she applied a small amount of contour, and she applied a
lighter brown lipstick. Once she was finished, she left Maya in the bathroom to finish, and
she started to get dressed. She decided to wear a short navy-blue dress that scrunched and
made it look tight on her, it was strapless. Then she threw on a pair of heels and sat on the
bed, waiting for Maya. The blonde walked out of the bathroom and then looked at the
brunette, stopping at the doorway.

“Oh. Damn.” Maya blurted out, her eyes were full of lust and Carina smiled at her.

“What Bambina?” Carina asked, knowing damn well what she was thinking.

“Trust and believe my hands will be on you all night.” Maya said and then she walked to her
bag and slid on her underwear and then put on a tight white dress, it hugged her curves in all
of the right places, and she slid on a pair of heels, her hair was straight and parted down the
middle, she had winged blank eyeliner. She walked over to Carina and stood in front of her.

“How do I look?” Maya asked, turning in front of Carina and she stood up.

“Tu sei la luce più bella del mio mondo, mia bella ragazza.” Carina said softly, cupping the
back of Maya’s neck, kissing her lips lightly.

“I have no idea what any of that means, but you made it sound so beautiful.” Maya chuckled
and kissed the woman back.

“You are the most beautiful light in my world, girl.” Carina whispered and then she grabbed
her purse and then a jacket and then grabbed Maya’s hands.

“Oh, I need to call a cab.” Carina reached for her phone and then she dialed for a cab, once it
was ordered the walked outside and waited, Maya had her arm now wrapped around Carina’s
body and she kissed lightly along her ear.

“Mmh, Maya your lips feel so good.” Carina whispered as the cab pulled up, Carina gripped
Maya’s hand and they got in, they sat close to each other, and Carina told the driver the
address. They were in the car for a while, driving across town and down into the city.
Nightlife in Italy was a real thing, and it was beautiful. Once the cab stopped, Carina got out
and helped Maya out, then they walked inside and Carina paid for their way in and the music
was loud, lights were flashing everywhere. It was not super crowded, but Maya latched onto
Carina as they walked in. The whole gang was there, Andrew, Gabriella, Geniva, another guy
and then one more woman.

“Ah! Rina!” The male hugged her quickly. “And you must be Maya?” He said and shook the
blonde’s hand.

“Maya, this is Leco, he is a family friend.” Carina smiled and then looked around. “And that
is Rosealina, she is Leco’s fiance.” Carian introduced them and then everyone ordered shots.
The took them and then downed a few more. Carina pulled Maya to the dance floor, and she
turned so that her back was turned against Maya and her hips moved to the music against
Maya’s hips. The blonde bit her lip and watched Carina’s hips and she placed her hands on
each side of the woman’s waist and helped her grind, bringing her ass flesh against her own
hips and she grinded back against Carina. Everyone was joining in and dancing. It was fun
and Carina and Maya were flirting back and forth.

The more the evening went on the more drunk Carina was getting, Maya was drunk herself
but not as bad as Carina. But as Carina went back to the dance floor with Gabri, Geniva and
Andrew they were all dancing, but Maya caught from the corner of her eye Geniva grinding
against Carina and that was enough for Maya she walked to the dance floor and she played
with Carina’s hair, the brunette was laughing, and Gabriella was trying to pull Geniva off of
her. Maya got in between the pair, and she wrapped her arms around Maya.

“Hi, Bambina.” Carina mumbled and Maya grabbed at the woman's waist and smiled at her.

“Hi babe.” Maya whispered and leaned in, kissing Carina deeply, she moaned and kissed
Maya back. They danced together and then Maya led Carina back to the table, Geniva still
had her eyes on Carina, and it was driving the jealousy in Maya’s body in full gear. She felt
possessive of Carina, but her mind also wasn’t thinking straight.

“I can feel the jealousy radiating off of you baby.” Carina whispered into Maya’s ear,
nibbling on her ear lobe, Maya closed her eyes and put her hand on Carina’s thigh.

“I just want them to know that you are my girl.” Maya whispered and she moved Carina’s
hair behind her ear and Carina looked at her girlfriend with so much love in her eyes. “I’m
forever yours Maya.” Carina said, looking deeply into Maya’s eyes with such love and
adoration as well as lust. The blonde smiled at Carina’s words, and she leaned in again and
kissed her.

“Slide your hands up higher.” Carina said, looking at Geneva and then back to Maya so the
blonde did as she was told and slid up further. “Go higher.” So, Maya did and she slid her
hand under her dress and close to her bare center and gasped.
“No underwear?” Maya asked.

“No, I want you to fuck me, Maya. Be spontaneous and fuck me when I’m least expecting
it.” Carina smirked and handed the blonde another shot. They all sat around the table,
laughing and talking. Maya’s hand rested on the inside of Carina’s thigh, causing Carina’s
legs to be open slightly but not enough for anyone to notice. They all took a few more shots
and then they went to the dance floor, Maya grabbed Carina and moved her to a darker spot
on the dance floors.

“What are we doing?” Carina giggled and she was flesh against Maya.

“Turn around.” Maya whispered. “Don’t make things obvious.” Slowly Maya slid her hand
up the back of Carina’s thigh and she slid a finger along the woman’s cunt, and Carina
gasped. “Shh, if you are quiet then I promise to fuck you so good tonight you’ll be screaming
my name” Maya mumbled and moved Carina’s hair to the side, and she attached her lips to
the woman’s neck and Carina tilted her head back and Maya swayed them as her finger slid
inside of the blonde’s pussy. Carina was already so wet, and it turned Maya on. “So wet baby
girl.” Carina liked when Maya used pet names on her, it made her throb.

“Yes, Bambina.” Carina whispered and Maya sped her finger up and she added her thumb
against the woman’s clit and rubbed it in circles, Carina gasped again, and she started to grind
against Maya’s front, she added a second finger and Carina opened her legs a little more to
accommodate the wonderful intrusions. The Italian felt weak to her knees and the feeling of
Maya’s fingers deep inside of her was so good. The blonde left a mark on Carina’s neck again
and moved her hair back and moved to her lover's ear.

“You’re so sexy and beautiful, Carina.” Maya whispered. “So loveable and fuckable.” Maya’s
fingers were going at the fastest speed she could make them go, her whole area was moving,
if someone looked at them right now, they would be well aware of what was going on and the
thrill of it ran in Carina’s mind and that brought her to the edge on top of Maya’s breathing
against her ear. “Ooooh, I’m so close.” Carina whimpered softly. Maya applied more pressure
on the woman’s clit, and she felt Carina’s walls tighten and heard her gasp and Maya knew
she had cum.

“That’s it baby.” Maya whispered and fucked her through her orgasm and then slowly slid her
fingers out of Carina’s welcoming cunt. Carina tried to catch her breath and both of them
swayed together, Maya wrapped her arms around Carina’s torso and held her close. Little did
they know that Geneva just watched the entire action between the two and it almost hurt her.
She knew that Carina was taken but the truth is Geniva has been in love with Carina since
med school. Gabri played her like a toy, and she hated it, and Carina was gentle and loving. It
was what she wanted and now there was this other woman that had Carina’s heart and Geniva
was determined to get Carina to break up with Maya.

The brunette noticed that Geniva was standing on the dance floor watching her and she then
turned around and kissed Maya.

“I love you.” Carina whispered and played with Maya’s hair, looking into her eyes, a smile
on her face.
“I love you too.” Maya whispered back and kept her eyes only on Carina.

The pair danced for a while longer until it was time for the club to close and everyone made
their way outside. Once they were outside, Leco recommended going to the beach, he knew
secret spots around the water, and they all thought it would be fun, so everyone agreed. Leco
offered to drive Maya and Carina and then Andrew, Gabri and Geniva agreed to go in Gabri’s
car. Carina was still tipsy, Maya was sobering up, her arm wrapped around Carina, and they
drove off towards a road off of the main road. Carina leaned over into Maya’s ear, her hand
resting on her thigh.

“You look so gorgeous tonight. Did I tell you that?” Carina whispered, nibbling on her ear
lobe.

“No, Dr. DeLuca you forgot to mention that.” Maya teased and closed her eyes. She hoped
right now that Rosealina doesn’t look back because Carina’s hand was wondering, and Maya
was shifting in her seat. Maya quickly stopped her hand and chuckled. Carina pulled away
from the woman’s face and started to pout. “Later.: Maya whispered and laced her fingers
with Carina who was now resting her head on the woman’s shoulder. They drove for about
forty-five minutes to the water. Once they parked all of them got out of the car and everyone
beside Carina and Maya ran towards the water, their clothes were coming off. Common thing
about Italy, it wasn’t uncommon for people to not wear clothes. Everyone was in their
underwear and bras each one of them got into the water and Carina chuckled.

“Carina.” Maya whispered, leading Carina over to the rock that they both could sit on and
look out at the water.

“Yes?” Carina responded and sat down beside Maya, smiling.

“Do you miss it here?” Maya asked, watching how much fun Carina had been back home and
the way her whole personality lit up here was something that Maya hadn't seen before. Carina
radiated happiness back in Seattle but nothing like this and it made Maya wonder if she ever
thought about moving back here.

“Sometimes, I do.” Carina admitted. “This is just a place, Maya, that I love to come to. I love
my life in Seattle with you and Andrew. I don’t want to come back to live here, but I enjoy
visiting because it feels like my soul lives here, but you…” Carina paused and turned Maya’s
face to look at her. “You are what I enjoy in Seattle. You make me feel like home isn’t a
place. It’s a person. And I know that things have been rocky with us lately and we started off
on such a weird note, but I can’t imagine not having you in my life. You are like this missing
puzzle piece I have been searching for.” Carina leaned in and looked into Maya’s blue eyes.
“Anywhere I go I search for these blue eyes and when I meet them it makes the whole world
stop and I get so lost with you. I don’t ever want to lose that, Bambina. I want to keep you for
as long as I can.” Carina smiled and watched Maya’s eye’s rim with tears as she looked at
Carina.

“Car... you came into my life at such a messy time and somehow you only put me back
together slowly and I know I haven’t been fair to you but… ah, I am so in love with you. It
scares me. I search for you too, everywhere. Just these beautiful brown eyes and that
gorgeous smile that makes me stop in my tracks. You make my mind calm and running no
longer sounds appealing and that is scary. It is not easy to give up parts of me that I am so
familiar with but like I’ve said before you are safe. My safe space.” Maya looked down for a
second and she grabbed at Carina’s hands and laced their fingers together. “I don’t want to
lose you, I want to be the reason your smile shines light, I want to be the reason you stay in
Seattle. I want you to be happy and even if we travel here whenever I will follow you
anywhere, Carina. I’ll follow you until you tell me to stop.” Maya whispered and leaned in,
kissing Carina. The pair deepened their kiss together and then they heard a woman clear her
throat and it was Geniva.

“Hi.” She said, “Listen, sorry to interrupt that moment but... um. I saw you two in the club,
and I hope that you know that if you got caught you could be arrested. Gay rights are still not
okay here.” Geniva shrugged her shoulders. “Gabri and I keep things a secret for a reason.”
She added. Carina shook her head and looked at the woman.

“We didn’t get caught and if they have a problem with someone, I love then I will fight for
her. Geniva, I don’t know what your problem is but you need to just walk away before I say
something I regret.” Carina said.

“Eri troppo ubriaco per ricordare qualcosa, ma hai provato a baciarmi prima ancora che ti
chiedessi di uscire. (You were too drunk to remember anything, but you tried to kiss me
before I even asked you out.) “Ecco perché non pensavo che tu e Maya foste in una relazione
seria. Si scopre che tu e Gabri giocate allo stesso modo.” (That's why I didn't think you and
Maya were in a serious relationship. Turns out you and Gabri play games the same.)

“Questa è una bugia. So che non proverei mai a baciarti. Parlavo di lei ogni volta che ne
avevo l'occasione. Come hai fatto a non capire che avevo una relazione con lei? (That's a lie.
I know that I would never try to kiss you. I talked about her every chance I got. How could
you not understand I was in a relationship with her?) Gabriella non me lo avrebbe mai
permesso. Non ero così ubriaco. Stai solo cercando di creare un problema che non c'è
nemmeno. Quindi lasciami in pace e lascia in pace la mia ragazza. (Gabriella would never let
me do that. I wasn't that drunk. You are just trying to create a problem that isn't even there.
So leave me alone and leave my girlfriend alone. ) Carina snapped at the woman and was
standing up, but Carina stopped her. Just then Gabriella was walking towards the women.

“What’s going on here?” Gabriella asked.

“Non ti sopporto.” Carina spitted out and she grabbed Maya’s hand. The blonde was
confused. She was still rusty on her Italian but the way that Carina was speaking, she knew
that her girlfriend was mad.

“Carina. Stop.” Maya tried to stop her, but Carina was walking back to the car. “Rina.” Maya
pulled the woman’s arm to stop her and finally Carina looked at Maya.

“She is saying things! Things that i didn’t make it obvious that we were in a serious
relationship so that’s why she made the moves she did. And that I was one to make the moves
first, but I know that I would never do that. Not to you, Maya.” Carina was still talking loud
and fast, so Maya wrapped her arms around Carina and pulled her in close.
“Amore, I trust you.” Maya said, pressing her lips against Carina’s before she could say
anything else. Carina placed her hand on Maya’s cheek and kissed her back, deepening it.
Maya pulled Carina flesh against her and slid her tongue inside of Carina’s mouth, moaning
lightly. The Italian gave Maya full access to her body. It was like the world stopped, it was
only Maya who surrounded her world and that was all she needed in this moment. The pair
slowly pulled away from each other.

“I want to go back to the hotel.” Carina whispered, kissing along the blonde’s neck. Maya
chuckled and she grabbed at Carina’s waist again.

“How much was your dress?” Maya asked. Carina raised an eyebrow and chuckled.

“Not terribly expensive.” Carina shrugged.

“Let’s go.” Maya took off her heels and so did Carina and she slid off her own dress, luckily
she was wearing underwear and a bra, and she then led Carina towards the water. “Maya,
what are we doing?” Carina held onto her hand, squeezing it.

“Just trust me.” Maya got closer to the water, and she walked in, the water was warm, it felt
nice, and the moon shone enough light you could see the bottom of the water where their feet
were. Carina followed Maya and then got into the water, and they went away from the group
going deeper. The water was now at Carina’s knees, and she smiled lightly.

“Maya, I don’t want to ride home in a wet dress.” Carina pouted.

“We aren’t going that far in, I promise. I know you love the water and I just want you to
enjoy some of it.” Maya said, bringing Carina in further and the water was now at her mid
thighs, just above her dress.

“Thank you.” Carina whispered and kissed Maya softly. “I want to do something special for
you tomorrow, Maya. Before you meet my family.” Carina kissed her again. Maya smiled
and nodded her head.

“I’ll go with you anywhere.” Maya kissed the brunette back and the pair stood in the water
holding each other. The gang all played around in the water, eventually everyone got out of
the water, and they were all sitting on rocks and watching the sun come up, Maya was sitting
on Carina’s lap, and they held each other, Gabri and Geniva were cuddling on the sand,
laughing. It was beautiful to watch the sun rise and the colors in the sky, red, blue, and
orange. Maya looked at Carina from the side and the smile that shined through it made her
heart melt. She leaned in and placed a kiss on Carina’s cheek and saw how red the woman’s
cheeks got.

Leco drove Maya and Carina back to the hotel, when they made it up to their room and once
they were in Carina was already trying to unzip her dress and Maya shut the door and came
 up behind the woman and unzipped it for her, kissing along her shoulders and watching the
goosebumps that rose on her skin it made Maya smile.

“Help me?” Maya turned around and Carina held her dress up and unzipped Maya’s dress.

“Let’s get a little bit of rest.” Carina whispered.

“Carina, I have been doing a little bit of research and I wanted to take you to this fancy hotel
and I wanted to book it for the rest of the time I am here.” Maya smiled. “It’s beside the water
so maybe after we see your family we can head that way?” Maya walked to the bed.

“I’d be okay with that.” Carina nodded and followed Maya to the bed and she kissed the
blonde softly. “Anywhere you go. I’ll go.” Carina whispered against the woman's lips.

Chapter End Notes

As always, I enjoy your feedback and support for this story! I hope you have enjoyed
this chapter. I am going to be working on the next one and hopefully post it tonight!
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Today, Maya was meeting all of Carina’s family and it made her nervous. She wanted to
make sure she left a good impression. Carina already warned her that her family could be a
little bit crazy and ask a lot of questions, but she reassured Maya that her family was nice.
Maya packed up the rest of her stuff and then slid on a pair of wide leg jeans and a button up
black shirt with a black bralette, she tucked the front of her shirt into her pants, and she then
slid on a pair of sneakers. She left her long blonde hair down and put it behind her ears.
Carina was sitting on the bed, watching Maya get ready.

“I can feel the nerves radiating off of you, bella.” Carina teased and stood up. She was
wearing a white dress with a slit that almost went up to her hip. It was low enough to cover
up her pantie line and she had a pair of white heels on. She was already packed; her hair had
its beautiful natural wave, and she wore no makeup. She looked breathtaking and Maya
looked at her as she spoke, smiling.

“I just want to make a good impression.” Maya walked over to her girlfriend and kissed her
sweetly and then finished packing up her bag. “Are you ready?” Maya asked and Carina
nodded and pulled her suitcase and Maya did the same thing. The pair checked out of the
hotel and then met Andrew outside, he helped load their bags and opened the door for the two
of them. Carina got back and Maya decided to sit beside her.

After about a 30-minute drive through the busy traffic they finally arrive at Carina’s father's
house. It was huge, white and had plants everywhere and beautiful big trees, it was
surrounded by water with a stone driveway. Gorgeous. All three got out of the car and walked
inside.

“Bentornata Carina!” A woman greeted, kissing Carina’s cheek. The brunette smiled and
hugged her and kissed her cheek back.

“Ciao!” Carina smiled. “Mi piacerebbe che tu incontrassi Maya.” Carina introduced the
blonde. “Maya, this is my Aunt Anastasia.” Carina wrapped her arm around Maya’s back as
she was greeted.

“Ciao! Nice to meet you. Carina has talked so much about you.” Anastasia said. “Come!
Come! We are about to eat some lunch.” She waved to the pair, and they walked through the
house, Maya was taking in the scene before her. It had a glass roof, the natural sunlight was
gorgeous, it went well with the cream-colored tile that surrounded the house.

“This house is so beautiful.” Maya whispered and wrapped her arm around Carina’s back as
well and they sat down at the table.

“Maya this is my cousin, Gulia, she is the youngest, and then that is Sophia, and lastly my
other cousin Alice.” Maya waved and said hi to all of them.

“So Maya, what do you do for a living?” Gulia asked, she was gorgeous, she had dark hair
with blonde highlights, she looked identical to Carina, tall.

“I’m a firefighter captain.” Maya replied with a smile.

“Oh! That’s amazing.” Sophia commented. “How long have you been doing that?” She
asked.

“Well, I have been a captain for a year now, but I’ve been a firefighter for six years now.”
Maya grabbed Carina’s hand under the table and squeezed it.

“That’s awesome. What did you do before fighting fires?” Alica asked, Carina rolled her
eyes.

“Oh. I was a professional track runner.” Maya shrugged and Carina looked at Maya. She was
taking their questions with grace.

“Oh! That’s awesome. How did you meet Carina?” Sophia asked.

“Umm.” Maya looked at Carina and she saw the brunette nod slightly. “We met at a bar, I
was out with some friends and we kind of just clicked. I took her on a date, and we have been
growing strong since.” Maya smiled at Carina.

“Carina won’t shut up about you! It's sickening.” Gulia laughed and Carina looked down,
hiding a big smile.

“Ah, so I’ve heard.” Maya laughed and ran her hand up and down Carina’s thigh. “So do you
all live here?” Maya asked.

“Oh no, I live in Rome. Just down here to help Carina with the rest of the stuff for the house.”
Alice said with a sad smile.
“Gulia and I live together in Catania with our mom.” They pointed over to Anastasia and
Maya nodded. “I am really sorry for your loss.” Maya said and they all thanked Maya.

As the afternoon went on, they all ate a small helping of freshly made salad and played a few
games into the night. Maya and Carina had a few glasses of wine and the family spent time
getting to know Maya and Maya did the same. She wanted to get to know Carina’s family
and that meant the world to Carina. She looked at Maya with such adoration. As it started to
get darker Andrew gave Carina the keys to the rental car they had purchased when they came
out here for her and Maya. They all said their goodbyes and Maya and Carina hit the road.
The couple would be staying at Catania Parco Degli Aragonesi, it was a hotel right by the
sea, and they had a pool. It was around some restaurants and a beautiful view. Maya even
paid extra for breakfast to be included. She wanted to enjoy her last two days with Carina.
They drove for a while and finally pulled into the hotel, Carina parked the car, and they got
out. Maya grabbed their bags and Carina went to check in. She got the hotel key, and she
grabbed a bag from Maya, and they went to the elevator and made it to the floor and Carina
unlocked their room and let Maya in first. It was beautiful, king size bed, then a balcony that
they could go sit outside and look at the water, a flat screen tv, the hotel was surrounded by
palm trees, it was truly beautiful. Maya set their bags down on in the corner of the room and
then turned to look at Carina who was watching Maya.

“What?” Maya asked with a chuckle.

“Nothing. Just... I love you, Maya.” Carina said softly and she walked over to the blonde and
kissed her softly. Maya wrapped her arms around Carina and kissed her back, deepening it,
Carina moaned softly and pulled away. “Let’s get in our swimsuits and go down by the
beach.” Carina said, lifting up Maya’s shirt.

“Okay, okay.” Maya chuckled and let Carina take off her shirt. They both got undressed and
into their swim suites, Carina grabbed some towels out of her bag and then handed one to
Maya.

“Ready?” Carina asked.

“You do know it is getting dark, right?” Maya laughed a little and Carina nodded.

“Just trust me.” Carina whispered and grabbed their hotel keys and lead Maya down through
the hotel and towards the water. The waves crashing, it was peaceful. Carina loved the water
and Maya was learning that about Carina and she loved it. It was truly the happy place for her
girlfriend. Once they reached the water, they both took off their clothes and walked towards
the water. When their feet touched the water, Maya grabbed onto Carina’s arm, and she
walked next to her until both of their feet weren’t touching. The brunette brought Maya close
to her and she helped Maya wrap her legs around her waist. Maya giggled and wrapped her
body around Carina’s like a koala.

“The moon shining on your skin is so beautiful.” Maya whispered to Carina.

“Maya, I want to give you everything.” Carina said softly and leaned in, kissing the blonde
deeply. Maya let out a moan and kissed her back, their tongues battling for dominance with
each other. Carina ran her fingers through Maya’s hair, removing her lips from Maya’s she
gently started to kiss the woman's creamy neck, biting at her skin causing Maya to throw her
head back and moan.

The feeling of Carina’s lips was addicting, she wanted to give every inch of herself to Carina.
She tightened her legs against the brunette’s waist, Carina started to suck on her neck
roughly, pulling at Maya’s hair.

“Oh god.” Maya whispered and felt Carina’s lips move down to her cleavage and she smiled
and looked down at the woman and meeting her brown eyes. “Carina…” Maya whimpered,
feeling her teeth bite at her nipples. “Please baby.” Maya begged, feeling Carina biting her
nipple again. Maya hissed and arched her back. The Italian pulled herself away and slid her
hand up Maya’s thigh.

“Tell me what you need.” Carina whispered, kissing at her chest again and up her neck.

“Make love to me.” Maya groaned, feeling Carina’s hand so close to where she wanted her.
“Please.” Maya tried to grind her hips against Carina’s lower abdomen.

“I want you wet and ready.” Carina sucked at the woman’s neck roughly, moaning against her
skin.

“Baby, that won’t be a problem. Touch me and see how wet I am.” Maya said, wrapping an
arm around Carina.

“Show me where to touch you.” Carina whispered into Maya’s ear, and it gave Maya chills,
and she grabbed Carina’s hand and placed it over her covered center. Carina pushed her
finger against Maya’s clit, and she let out a soft moan.

“Oh fuck!” Maya moaned out loud, feeling Carina add more pressure to her clit, going in
slow big circles. “Carina.” Maya whined.

“What do you need, Bambina?” Carina asked, looking into Maya’s blue eyes, moving her
finger faster against her clit.

“Fuck me.” Maya begged.

“Isn’t that what I’m doing? No?” Carina chuckled and slid her fingers down and pushed
against her cunt.

“No baby, inside. Please. Please Carina.” Maya leaned in and captured Carina’s lips and she
felt Carina move her bikini bottom to the side and slid a finger inside of the woman, Maya
breathed against her lips, grinding her hips against the woman’s finger.

Carina kissed Maya back and thrusted her finger in and out. She knew this wouldn’t be
enough to bring Maya to an orgasm, but all she wanted to do was give Maya the attention she
deserved.

“Baby, please I want to cum.” Maya whimpered, trying to find friction against Carina’s
finger. The brunette slid another finger inside of her cunt and thrusted her fingers faster.
Maya gasped at the intrusion and watched Carina’s eyes as they looked into hers.

“You’re so tight.” Carina whispered. “I can barely push my fingers in.” She added her thumb
to Maya’s clit and rubbed, fucking her girlfriend.

“Hmm. I feel so full.” Maya whispered.

“Maya, loosen your legs around me and just trust me. Keep your ankles crossed.” Carina
demanded softly and Maya did just as she was told, and it caused Carina more room and she
added another finger and Maya closed her eyes and moaned. “Tell me how good that feels.”
Carina whispered, kissing at the blonde’s jaw.

“Fuckk! Sooo good baby.” Maya’s hips thrusted to meet Carina’s fingers. “I’m so close.”
Maya arched her back and threw her head back, Carina held onto Maya, and she thrusted her
fingers as hard as she could and brought Maya to an orgasm, the blonde tightened her body
against Carina’s as her orgasm crashed through her body, her face buried in Carina’s neck,
screaming against her skin. Carina tried to ride out Maya’s orgasm, but her cunt was tight; it
just held Carina’s fingers inside of her.

Slowly Carina pulled her fingers out of Maya, and she wrapped her arms tightly around the
blonde, she could feel Maya kissing at her neck, and it made her smile.
“Mmh, we have all night, let’s swim.” Carina leaned down and captures Maya’s lips, kissing
her and she felt the blonde untangle herself and they started to swim.
They swam for a few hours and then they were lying on the beach on their towels. Their
fingers laced together, they stayed silent as the waves crashed against the shore and the sound
of birds chirping. It was a peaceful time. They went back to the hotel and undressed and
walked into the bathroom, Maya turned on the water and helped Carina untie her bikini top
and helped her slid it off. She stood behind the brunette and pushed her towards the mirror,
and she had Carina facing the mirror and she began to play with her nipples with both hands,
pulling at the nubs and flicking them. Carina watched her in the mirror, and she moaned,
biting at her bottom lip.

“Keep your eyes open.” Maya said sternly and she moved one of her hands down to Carina’s
pussy and began to rub her clit at a fast pace, Carina gasped and tried to closer her eyes, but
Maya started to bite at her neck. “Eyes open, watch me fuck you.” Maya whispered. She
pulled her hand away and went to the room and grabbed the strap from the bag and slid it on
and she walked back, pouring lube in her hand and stroking the dick with lube, she then
pushed her fingers inside of Carina’s cunt and thrusted her fingers hard and fast. Carina tried
to keep her eyes open, but the pleasure was taking over her body. She took her fingers out,
causing Carina to whimper.

“Bambina, please.” Carina whispered.

“Bend over.” Maya demanded, pushing at her shoulders.

“Mmmh.” Carina moaned and bent down, holding onto the counter. Maya looked at the
woman in front of her and she smirked. Watching Carina’s ass wiggle in front of her. Maya
smirked and then rubbed the tip of the cock against Carina’s wet folds and then she slid
inside of her cunt inch by inch, Carina had her eyes closed and she let out a loud groan and
felt Maya bottom out.

“Fuck you’re so tight.” Maya moaned and kept herself still inside of Carina.

“Cazzo! Move.” Carina demanded, slamming her hand against the counter. The steam from
the shower was fogging up the mirror. Maya smacked a cheek and Carina let out high pitched
squeal, and the blonde move out of Carina at a slow pace and then slammed back into her.
“Yesss! Maya.” Carina moaned out and felt her body move every time Maya slammed into
her. It was the perfect rhythm for both of them.
Maya slid her hand forward and rubbed at Carina’s clit, she wanted to bring Carina to an
orgasm fast and she knew exactly would throw her over the edge, so she rubbed at her clit
and continued to slam into the woman in front of her. “Maaaya! Please.” Carina begged and
so Maya lifted Carina’s leg onto the counter, and Carina put her hand on the mirror and Maya
started to fuck Carina’s warm cunt as fast as she could. Her skin slapping against Carina’s.
Maya swore she was about to cum herself with the pressure of thrusting inside of Carina.

“Are you close baby?” Maya asked, watching the makeshift dick sliding in and out of the
woman's pussy.

“Yess! Scopami.” Maya knew once Carina was only speaking in Italian, she was doing
something right and before Maya moved in Carina tightening her walls causing it to be hard
for Maya to move Carina was screaming out Maya’s name and phrases in Italian that she
couldn’t understand. The brunette pulled Maya’s hand away from her clit and whimpered.
Maya continued to move in and out, slowing down her pace inside of Carina until she knew
Carina was coming down from her orgasm. She pulled the makeshift dick out of Carina and
then she slid it off and helped with Carina’s leg, sliding it off the counter.

She pulled Carina into the shower, and she put them both under the water, Carina’s hand
came down to Maya’s clit and she teased it.

“Ahh.” Maya moaned out, grabbing at the woman’s waist.

“I know you were about to cum earlier. Let me help you.” Carina whispered.

“Oh god.” Maya moaned and felt Carina thrusted her fingers in and out of Carina as fast as
she could. “Oohhhh fuck, fuck.” Maya chanted out, she walked backwards towards the wall
and leaned against it, Carina attached her lips to Maya’s nipple, biting at it and licking at the
bud and still pushing her fingers in and out of her girlfriend's cunt, she gave the same
attention to her other nipple. “Carina I’m so close.” Maya whimpered and moved one of her
legs around Carina’s waist, giving Carina a different angle to thrust. Carina bit at her nipple
and her free hand pulling at the other nipple and that pushed Maya over the edge, she felt her
abdomen tightening. “Oh! Carina! I’m cumming!” Maya screamed out and she chanted
Carina’s name as her orgasm crashed through her body. Carina fucked Maya through her
orgasm and then slowly pushed her leg down so Maya could get her footing. The couple
washed their hair and their bodies together and got out, putting on their robes and walking
out to the room. The sunrise was starting to come so Carina closed the curtains to black out
the light. She planned to make the most of today because it was going to be Maya’s last day
special because tomorrow, they would be heading to the airport and going their separate ways
for a short amount of time.

Carina sat down on the bed, and she turned to Maya who was crawling on the other side. The
pair made loved one more time before falling asleep together, naked. Carina was wrapped up
into Maya’s chest and Maya was holding Carina tightly.

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Around the afternoon, Maya woke up to a feeling between her legs, Carina was licking at
Maya’s folds.
“Mmmh, Carina.” Maya moaned out, opening her legs more and sliding her fingers between
through Carina’s hair. The brunette rolled her tongue over Maya’s clit, causing the blonde to
arch her back “Oh yes!” Maya whimpered out, suddenly she felt two fingers sliding in and
out of her and fuck she was horny, and this was only making her want more.

“Mmh, Bambina. You’re so wet.” Carina groaned and French kissed her cunt, fucking Maya
with her fingers. She enjoyed how wet oral made Maya; it was something Carina loved to do.
She loved the taste of Maya and the way her body squirmed.

“Fuck baby. It’s all for you.” Maya moaned out, pushing Carina’s head in further and feeling
her fingers move in and out faster. Her wetness was dripping onto the sheets, and it was only
Carina who could make her this wet and still beg for more. The blonde started to thrust her
hips up towards Carina’s face and before she even could get the words out her orgasm took
over her body.

“Carina! Carina! Fuck, fuck fuck!” Maya chanted out, her legs trembling. Carina continued
to thrust her fingers and lick at the woman’s clit riding Maya through her orgasm. Once Maya
calmed down and she tried to catch her breath as Carina came up her body, kissing every inch
of her skin and Maya quickly wrapped her legs around Carina’s back, bring Carina’s warm
pussy against hers. The brunette groaned and moved against Maya’s cunt.

“Oh fuck… Maya.” Carina started to move faster. It was a soft moment between the couple,
their bodies speaking to each other, moving. Carina looked into Maya’s eyes, their mouths
opened but no sound came out, just their wetness coating each other.

“Fuck, Carina.” Maya whimpered out and looked at the woman on top of her. “Fuck me.”
Maya begged and Carina reached between them and opened their lips and caused their clits to
touch.

“Oh!” Carina groaned out and started to move faster against Maya.

“Carina you’re so beautiful.” Maya panted out, tightening her legs around Carina. The Italian
smiled and leaned down and started to kiss Maya’s neck, thrusting harder against the woman
and Maya met her thrusts.

“Mmmh. I need more.” Carina whimpered; her orgasm was so close, but something needed to
push her over. Maya pulled at Carina’s hair, and she started to kiss the woman's neck, biting
and sucking on her pulse point. Carina groaned, moving at an uneven rhythm against Maya
bringing both women over the edge, their moans mingled together and their white heat
rubbing mixed. It wasn’t a powerful orgasm, but it was soft enough to give them both a
release. Carina slowed her hips down and Maya unwrapped her legs but kept them open so
Carina could rest.

“I want to take you to dinner.” Carina whispered, playing with Maya’s hair.

“Okay.” Maya laughed a little and then played with the brunette hair, moving it away from
her skin because of how sweaty she had gotten. “Where are we gonna go for dinner?” Maya
asked, looking down at her girlfriend.
“It’s a surprise.” Carina answered with a smile, and she kissed the blonde and then laid beside
Maya. The pair fell into a light sleep for a little while longer.

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They both woke up around 4pm and they started to get ready for their dinner date, Maya
decided to wear a dress, it hugged her curves, it was gold, and it complimented her skin
perfectly and she wore a pair of black flat sandals, her hair was curled loosely, and she had a
small amount of makeup on. Carina decided to wear a pair of slacks and a red button up
blouse, she tucked in the front, threw a jacket over shoulders and a pair of heels. Once they
were ready to go, they got into the car and drove downtown to a pizzeria. It was busy, but
luckily Carina made a reservation. The enjoyed their meal with a few glasses of wine and
small conversation. Carina teased Maya every so often and Maya would do the same. Carina
had her hair in a ponytail, and it showed off the now fading marks on her neck and it made
Maya proud. They haven’t heard from Geniva and Maya felt at ease with that. After a few
more glasses of wine and desert they decided to head back to their hotel and go for a swim in
that pool. They splashed around and played, clung to each other’s bodies and looked at one
another. Maya didn’t want to let Carina go. She had one more day here, actually half a day
because her flight left in the afternoon, Andrew was on the same flight. The pair took a quick
shower, watched a movie on the tv and fell into a deep sleep together.
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The next morning Carina woke up before Maya and she looked over at the blonde and
sighed. She wasn’t ready for Maya to leave. Even though she would be a few days later than
her brother and girlfriend it was still hard for her to let them go. Carina played with Maya’s
hair, stroking her cheek and gently kissing along her neck. Maya moved a little closer to
Carina and then she felt her lips touch hers. “Mmmh.” Maya hummed and kissed Carina
deeply.

“Good morning.” Maya whispered, kissing Carina again, just then she looked at Carina who
had tears rimming at her eyes. “Hey, what’s wrong amore?” Maya asked, grabbing at Carina’s
cheeks.

“I’m not ready to let you leave.” Carina pouted and looked away from Maya. The blonde
sighed and moved closer to Carina.

“You’ll be home a few days after I get home. Isn’t there someone interested in buying the
house?” Maya asked, lightly grazing her fingers up and down Carina’s back.

“Yeah… there is.” Carina then looked up at Maya and she kissed her again.

“We have to get up soon so we can get Andrew.” Maya said, kissing Carina again.

“I know, but just let me make you feel good before we go.” Carina rolled Maya onto her back
and made love to her with her fingers and Maya did the same only with her tongue. Then
they finished packing up their bags and cleaning up the room. Once they were finished, they
checked out of the hotel and drove down to Carina’s family home to pick up Andrew. All
three of them stopped to grab something to eat at a local cafe and then Carina took them both
to the airport. As they walked inside, Maya was squeezing Carina’s hand, sighing.
 “Let me know when you land.” Carina whispered, kissing Maya softly.

“I will and I’ll text you until we take off. Okay?” Maya leaned in and kissed Carina again,
deepening it.

“Get a room.” Andrew groaned and the pair pulled away laughing.

“Shut up.” Carina said and hugged her brother, he hugged her back and then Carina turned
her attention back to the blonde and she hugged her girlfriend again.

“I love you.” Maya whispered, wrapping her arms around Carina, holding her tightly.

“I love you too.” Carina whispered, kissing the blonde one last time. “Andrea, I love you.”
Carina said, squeezing Maya’s hand.

“Love you!” Andrew was already walking to baggage claim, Maya and Carina kissed one last
time and then Maya was following Andrew. Carina watched them as they walked through the
airport together, tears rolling down her cheek. She would be home soon.

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Maya texted Carina up until the time they had to take off, she let Carina know that they were
taking off and then she shut her phone off. But after 5 hours, they should have had a layover
in London, but she never heard from Maya. She thought maybe her phone died so she stayed
up a little while longer, it was almost morning and Carina hadn't heard from her brother or
Maya and she was starting to worry. She tried to call Maya and her phone went straight to
voicemail, so she tried her brother’s and the same thing. Voicemail. Carina could feel her
heart pounding, she felt sick. She was trying not to jump to conclusions. Maybe flights are
delayed? No way their plane crashed. It would be on the news. Right? Maya would have let
Carina know their flight was running behind. She was communicating with her until they
took off. Fuck... Carina was now in tears, trying not to rush her thoughts but she feared the
worst.

Chapter End Notes

Opps. Probably wasn't the ending you were expecting.

Trust the process! I always enjoy your feedback and loving comments! I look forward to
your thoughts on what you think happened! I'll try and update again this week. But for
now, we will let our mind ponder.
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Chapter Notes

Surprise!

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“Shit, Carina has called over and over again and with the plane almost crashing. Ugh she is
probably worried sick.” Maya looked at Andrew.

“You might want to call her because she is yelling at me.” Andrew chuckled and sat down in
one of the seats. Maya sighed heavily and she dialed Carina’s number.

“After 14 hours you just now called me?! I thought you were dead Maya! Dead! I thought the
love of my life and my baby brother were dead and you called me after 14 hours.” Carina
yelled again. Maya listened and she closed her eyes but shot them back open after she heard
Carina say the words Maya herself had been thinking.

“I’m the love of your life?” Maya asked, smiling.

“Maya! That is beside the point.” Carina sniffled and Maya felt like an ass.

“I’m sorry baby… the plane was acting weird… and one of the engines failed so they landed
us in Scotland and they got us off the plane and then we were put on another plane and our
flight in London took off before we got their because of miscommunication and so we had to
buy another ticket and that plane was leaving immediately and now we are at the New York
airport and our flight has been delayed. I’m so sorry I didn’t call you.” Maya wished she
could comfort Carina.

“I thought you were dead.” Carina cried out, pacing her room. She was packed and the house
was sold, she was coming home today.

“I’m not, okay. I’m safe and so is Andrew. How is the house going? Did you get it sold?”
Maya asked pushing the FaceTime icon. Carina quickly answered and her eyes were red, and
her face was swollen.

“I sold the house. I’m coming home today.” Carina replied and looked at Maya. “You owe
me for all this worrying.” Carina groaned and grabbed her bags. “How long is your flight
delayed?” Carina asked.

“Two hours. We should be home by tomorrow morning.” Maya grumbled. “And I’ll be on a
48-hour shift so I will see you when I get home?” Maya asked.
“Yeah. I’ll come to your apartment.” Carina replied. “I’m heading to the airport. I love you.”
Carina said softly, putting her bags in the trunk and then getting in the car.

“I miss you!” Andrea yelled.

“I miss you too, baby brother.” Carina said and looked at Maya.

“I love you too, Bella ragazza.” Maya whispered, Carina smiled and kissed the phone.

“I’ll see you soon.” Carina hung up the phone and Maya sighed looking over at Andrew.

“She almost came through the phone to kill you.” Andrew teased, laughing. Maya hit his
shoulder playfully and laughed, shaking her head.

They finally board their plane and land in Seattle at 7am, Maya drove Andrew back to his
apartment and then she drove to work.

Carina: I’ve landed in London. I’ll be in New York soon.

Maya:I can’t wait to see you baby.

Carina: (: I love you

Maya: I love you too.

That was the last text Carina read before boarding the plane…

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Maya’s phone kept ringing in the truck, she was trying to not pick it up but it kept going.

“Hello!” Maya answered, rolling her eyes in annoyance until she realized who it was.

“Maya… there was a plane crash...” Andrew simply said. “It was the same flight Carina was
on and it was just outside of Tacoma.” The blonde looked at Andy who had a puzzled look on
her face and suddenly the radio was calling Station 19 to that same location.

“We just got called to it…” Maya didn’t know what else to say.

“We are getting on a helicopter to go rescue them.” Andrew said before hanging up the
phone. Maya looked out the window and she tried to not show her emotions.

“Please be okay, Carina.” Maya whispered. Once they arrived, Maya jumped out the rigg and
she heard people screaming. Part of the plane was on fire. There were fire trucks everywhere
and ambulances. Crowds of people piling behind the yellow line.

“Okay, team. Herrera and Hughes you are on search and rescue with Gibson. Montgomery
and Warren, hoses to the fire.” Maya turned around and the team searched for survivors
through the woods. It had been an hour since they had been here, Andrew arrived in the
helicopter, and they put people in empty ones.

“Bishop, come in!” Andy yelled through the walkie.

“Herrera.” Maya responded.

“We have one survivor, barely alive.” Andy and Vic tagged people who were deceased, and
the living person was Carina. The barely alive person was the love of Maya’s life. They were
all determined to get Carina to safety and to a hospital. Andy and Vic carried the gurney
through the bushes and trees and towards Maya. The blonde was talking to Sullivan, and she
turned around, she saw the jacket she knows so well. The light blue jacket that she loved on
Carina, her brown hair full of leaves.

“No! No. No.” Maya muttered to herself and walked towards Andy. But Gibson grabbed
Maya’s shoulders.

“Stop, go get on that helicopter with her. We will handle Sullivan.” Gibson grabbed Maya
and dragged her so she would walk, and they walked towards Andrew and Amelia and
Maya’s eyes were streaming with tears.

“It’s Carina.” Maya warned Andrew and he put on a brave face, and they loaded her body
into the helicopter. All thoughts left Maya’s brain. She was on autopilot; Carina was hurt, and
she needed to attend to her. The doors to the helicopter shut and it stated, Amelia gave Carina
oxygen, and her rhythms were steady…her head was bleeding and she had bruises on her
chest. Maya stayed back in the seat, she had to be strong for Carina. They flew to Grey Sloan
Memorial, and they rushed Carina in, Maya was quick to follow.

“Maya, you have to stay back.” Meredith stopped her from going into the trauma room.

“But! She needs me. Dr. Grey. Please.” Maya cried out, but Grey was already pushing her
back.

“No! No. You need to wait here and let us do our job. We don’t tell you how to put out fires. I
will come update you as often as I can, okay? Please. Maya. Go.” Dr. Grey pointed so Maya
started to walk, Grey followed her. She sat Maya in the ER waiting room.

“I will come update you.” Meredith promised and walked back. Maya put her face between
her hands, worry taking over her body. She wanted to be beside Carina. She needed Carina to
be okay. Suddenly a woman sat beside her, along with another one. “I’m Jo, Carina’s resident
in training.” Jo introduced herself. “And I’m Arizona.” The blonde looked at Maya.

“Carina’s ex.” Maya snapped, and Arizona nodded. “This is my wife, Callie.” Arizona
introduced them and Maya nodded with a smile. “We are all going to sit here with you till
your team gets here.” Jo stated and they all sat there in silence for a few hours, Maya had no
more tears left to cry. She heard that the fires were put out and search and rescue was
completed. Suddenly the entire the team was crowded around Maya and the doctors. It has
been a few hours and there was no sign of any doctors coming to update them. Maya was
curled up in Andy’s arm, resting her head on her shoulder. Suddenly Meredith came in and
everyone stood up.

“She is still in surgery, she has a lot of abdominal bleeding, her head injury was causing her
brain to swell so we have ventilated it to allow the swelling to go down. Her heart is working
extra so the muscles have become weak, but I want to make you aware that we are doing
everything we can.” Meredith walked over to Maya. “I’ll be back after her surgery is
through.” Maya nodded and then continued to rest on Andy’s shoulder.

About three more hours passed by and she saw Andrew and Meredith walk through, Maya
stood up and met them halfway, everyone behind her. “She is through with surgery, we had to
put her in a medically induced coma to prevent her brain from swelling. Now we do have to
keep an eye on internal bleeding so she will be in the ICU for a few days.” Meredith said,
Andrew… he looked defeated. Maya wrapped her arms around him, and she finally broke
again. She let her tears fall and Andrew held onto her. He knew that he had to do this for his
sister. He promised her in that surgery that if she survived, he would take care of Maya.

“Let’s go see her.” Andrew whispered and pulled Maya aside. Meredith dismissed everyone.
Andy sat down and waited. She knew Maya was going to need someone. “Tell her I’ll be here
when she is done.” Andy said to Meredith. “Okay. I will.” Meredith replied and walked away.
Andrew led Maya to Carina’s room. Slowly Maya walked into the room, and she saw Carina
hooked up to machines and it made her heart hurt for her girlfriend. Maya sat down in the
chair beside Carina’s bed, and she grabbed her hand gently. Andrew kissed the top of Maya’s
head and left her alone.

“I should have been the one on that plane…” Maya sniffled.

“I’m sorry, Bambina.” Maya added, she rested her head on the bed beside Carina’s arm and
waited for a sign of her waking up. But there wasn’t one. The next day passed by and Maya
was in the same chair and it has been 36 hours since this has happened, Andrew tried to bring
her food, but Maya declined. He talked her into drinking water and she fought but he
demanded for his sister, and she agreed. They both spent time in the hospital next to Carina.

The next day, Andy came in.

“Mai.. you gotta take a shower. Go get a fresh change of clothes?” Andy suggested and the
blonde shook her head. “You stink. Let’s go,” Andy pulled on Maya’s arm.

“I’ll call you if anything changes.” Andrew offered and Maya nodded and got up, she was
quiet the entire drive back to her apartment, her body was heavy, and she felt like she
couldn’t breathe. She wanted Carina, only Carina. When they got to Maya’s apartment, her
tears were building up again. Andy got out and walked over to Maya’s side and opened the
door. Maya slid out of the car, and she walked inside, she didn’t say anything to Andy she
just walked into her bathroom and shut the door.

Maya showered, for a long time at that. She showered until no hot water was coming
through. So she got out, conditioner was still left in her hair, she sighed and leaned over her
sink and rinsed the conditioner out before she wrapped her hair in a towel. She got out of the
bathroom and put on a pair of sweatpants and a hoodie. She unwrapped her hair, brushed it
out and then she walked out.
 “Can we go back?” Maya asked, sniffling.

“Yeah, let’s go Mai.” Andy grabbed the bag she packed for Maya, and she walked down to
her car. She got in and drove Maya back to the hospital and she was right by Carina’s side
again.

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Two days later:

Amelia came by and took Carina for a brain scan and brought her back, Meredith came in to
check on and internal bleeding. All clear signs so they agreed to wake up Carina now they
would update Andrew and Maya.

“So, we have decided to wake up Carina. The swelling in her brain has gone down, she has
no internal bleeding, and we want to see what happens when we wake her up. It could take a
few hours, so just be patient.” Ameila looked between Maya and Andrew as they talked, and
they both understood.

“Maya, you are more than welcome to use the shower in this room, just so you don’t have to
leave to shower.” Meredith offered quietly and Maya nodded. “Thank you.” Maya whispered.
She got up and showered while Ameila worked on Carina’s sedation.

Once she was done, Andrew showered as well and then they both sat in the chairs beside
Carina’s bed and held both of her hands and waited.

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A few hours passed by, and Maya felt a squeeze on her hand, slowly, Maya raised her head
and looked at Carina. She looked like she was in pain and Maya cupped Carina’s cheeks.

“Baby...” Maya whispered. Carina’s eye’s opened and she looked around with her eyes and
they landed on a familiar blue pair… but she couldn’t remember her name... Arizona? No
that wasn’t it. She was much more beautiful. Ugh the brain fog will go away.

Meanwhile, Maya was searching for her eyes, holding her cheeks. “Baby.” Maya repeated
and Carina closed her eyes and turned her head away slowly, landing on Andrew. Maya
slowly pulled her hands away and she sighed, grabbing Carina’s hand again.

Chapter End Notes

Well... we waited for the answer and plot twist came. Let's hope that it's just brain fog,
something we weren't expecting. I will try and update later tonight, if not in the next few
days and I know its a short chapter I am currently at home sick . I always appreciate
your feedback(: I hope you are still enjoying this story.
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Chapter Notes
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Carina was awake. After a week of being in a medically induced coma, she was awake.
Although she couldn’t remember Maya. She was asking about Arizona and Maya could feel
her entire heart breaking, Meredith kept reminding her that it was just from the anesthesia
that needed to be worn off from Carina. So Maya tried to keep an open mind and she stood
beside the brunette, squeezing her hand. Carina looked at the woman and then looked at
Andrew.

“Car.. it’s Maya. She is your girlfriend.” Andrew replied.

“ La mia ragazza? E l'Arizona? “Carina asked, grabbing onto Andrew’s hand and letting go
of Maya’s.

“Tu e Arizona vi siete lasciati mesi fa. Sei uscito con Maya. Datele una possibilità.” Andrew
replied, pointing to the hallway and then to Maya. “Ti ricordi cosa ti è successo Carina?”
Andrew asked, looking at Carina.

“No. Io no.” Carina replied.

“Get some rest, I’ll check on you later.” Andrew kissed the top of her head. “Conosci Maya.”
With that Andrew walked out of the room and Carina turned her attention to the blonde
woman sitting beside her bed.

“Hai dei bellissimi occhi azzurri.” (You have beautiful blue eyes) Carina whispered to Maya
with a smile. Maya smiled back and then let out a nervous chuckle.

“I-I don’t speak Italian.” Maya said softly and Carina chuckled.

“Oh, my apologies. You have really beautiful blue eyes.” Carina said, her Italian accent thick,
Maya couldn’t help but to smile.

“Thank you, Carina.” The blonde looked at Carina. “Do you need anything?” Maya asked.

“Maybe another blanket? I just need some rest.” Carina answered, so Maya got up and she
grabbed a blanket out of the cabinet, and she covered her.

“Grazie.” Carina smiled and she turned to her side and fell fast asleep.

Maya sat in the chair and watched Carina sleep. She kept reminding herself that Carina will
come back to her. It would just take some time. No matter how much it broke her heart. What
if she lost Carina forever? What if Carina never comes back to her? Will Maya know life
without Carina? Even though it’s only been a few months… she feels like she could marry
this woman and be happy for the rest of her life.
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It’s been two days, Maya returned to work and Carina still couldn’t remember her and it was
breaking her heart the more she sat in that room. So she focused on work, and she fought
fires. Of course, she would go sit in the hospital room and Carina would make casual
conversation with her and they would laugh at tv shows and occasionally Carina would hold
Maya’s hand. She wondered if it meant something more to Carina like it did for Maya. The
blonde would spoil Carina with her favorite food and the Italian would ask questions of how
Maya knew. She understood why Carina was asking, it just hurt a little bit, but Maya was
always willing to explain. That’s all she could do without breaking apart.

Her 24-hour shift was over, so she decided to get dressed and go to the hospital just to see if
there were any changes, but she stopped in her tracks when she got a text and her mind felt
like it stopped working, she was happy and nervous all at the same time. Was it true?

Andrew: She’s asking for you.

Maya read that text and she smiled. Carina was asking for her. So I took a quick shower and
then put on a pair of nice jeans and a button up top. She grabbed a jacket, and she left her
apartment, smiling the whole way to the hospital. She walked towards the room, but Carina
wasn’t there. Her heart started racing, and she began to feel the panic slipping in. She was
pacing the hospital, looking for help.

“Andrew! Where is she?” Maya asked and Andrew sighed and looked away from my Maya.
“Tell me!” Maya yelled.

“She had to go back into surgery, she had some internal bleeding and Meredith said it was
part of her spleen, it’s an easy fix.” Andrew tried to reassure Maya and she nodded, sighing.
The surgery took a while, about 4 hours. Finally, Meredith came up to the two of them.

“She is out of surgery and asking for Maya.” Meredith smiled and Maya stood up and started
to quickly follow Meredith, Andrew lingering behind.

Maya walked into the room, and she stood beside the bed, grabbing Carina’s hand. Now they
would wait for her to wake up from her anesthesia. She was so still and beautiful. They all
waited about an hour and a half before Maya felt Carina trying to stir awake, Maya squeezed
her hand lightly and stood up at the side of the bed.

“Bambina.” She groaned softly, squeezing her hand.

“Hi my love.” Maya had tears in her eyes and she let them fall freely this time, Carina
reached up and tried to wipe them away and she urged Maya to come closer.

“Kiss me..” Carina whispered and that was exactly what Maya did, her lips pressed against
Carina’s, and she sighed in relief and deepened the kiss, but before it got too crazy, Andrew
cleared his throat. Maya pulled away from Carina, blushing. She stared at this woman with so
much love in her eyes. It probably made other people sick, but here she was.. Her Carina. Just
lying in this bed and just woke up. Remembering Maya, it all felt like a dream. Was it real?
Was Maya dreaming? Maybe she is… her shift was long, and she was exhausted. Hmmm…
Andrew walked in as Maya pulled away, smiling wide.

“I haven’t seen that smile since Italy.” Andrew teased, laughing.

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Maya opened her eyes, wide. She was in the hospital chair; it was dark in the room. How
long was she asleep for? The blonde looked around and adjusted herself in the chair. Carina
was sound asleep in the bed. Her vitals were good, and she was breathing well. Finally, off of
her oxygen. Suddenly, Maya heard a knock on the door.

“Hey, I just wanted to check on her.” Amelia smiled and came up to the machines and started
to check the liquid on the machines, she then looked over at Maya who was grabbing
Carina’s hand. “Can I tell you something?” Amelia asked, looking over at the blonde. Maya
nodded eagerly waiting to hear what Amelia had to say.

“Of course.” Maya replied and she sat down at the chair, still holding Carina’s hand.

“She mentioned your name the other day and you were at work. Andrew wasn’t here and I
thought she was sleeping but when I told her you were at work, and she was worried. I think
that her amnesia was slowly going away, and I think that when she wakes up, she would love
to see your face.” Amelia checked her vitals and wrote them down her chart before going to
the door.

“Do you think she would really remember me? I mean it’s been a week since she woke up
and she still doesn’t remember me. She flirts with me and she holds my hand, but I want my
Carina back. I want the woman I trust and love to come back to me.” Maya had tears in her
eyes, she was never vulnerable in front of people except for Carina but she had nothing to
hold on to.

“Believe me when I tell you that the worry in her face was the old Carina.” Amelia walked
over to Maya. “The way your name rolled off her tongue was like old times. Its the little
things you need to pay attention to.” Ameila hugged Maya and the blonde hugged her back,
but just then she heard a groan from Carina, and they pulled apart and looked at the bed,
Carina was stirring. Amelia smiled and she walked out of the room, leaving Maya in there to
finally be open to the idea that Carina was slowly waking up.

“B-Bambina?” Carina mumbled and Maya pulled the chair close to the bed and she sat down
on the chair, grabbing at the woman's hand.

“Carina.” Maya whispered, sniffling and brushing the tears off her cheek that fell.

“Maya.” Carina smiled and squeezed the blonde's hand, and she opened her eyes to find
Maya crying and she reached over and gently wiped off the tears from Maya;s cheek. The
blonde smiled and looked over at Carina. “Why are you crying?” Carina asked, trying to sit
up in her bed but winced at the pain, Maya quickly got up and she helped Carina move up a
little bit by moving the head of the bed up. Carina smiled and she reached up and grabbed
Maya’s cheeks, staring at her eyes. Maya sniffled and stared at the woman’s eyes; those
brown beautiful eyes that made her heartbeat so loud. “Bambina, what’s wrong?” Carina
asked, rubbing her thumb against the woman’s skin.

“I just um..” Maya looked down for a second and tried to pull away, but Carina kept her
there. “Come back to me.. Carina.” Maya let out a sob and she grabbed Carina’s hands.
“Please tell me you are coming back to me and remember me.” Maya closed her eyes. Carina
watched Maya, her lips and the way she had such pain behind her blue eyes. The blue eyes
and that she loved.

“I remember bits and pieces... Maya. I remember meeting you at the bar, I can remember you
girlfriend dying.” Cariana shrugged. “I-I remember your um.. I remember your brother dying
and you blamed my brother.” Carina looked at the blonde and she had tears rolling down her
cheeks again. “I’m slowly remembering, Maya. I know that we were maybe dating. I can’t
remember if we actually started dating.” Carina leaned up and she kissed Maya’s cheeks
where the tears fell and the blonde closed her eyes and grabbed the back of Carina’s head.

“Carina..” Maya cried out and she pulled away from the brunette and sat in the chair. She
couldn’t be close to Carina without kissing her, or feeling the love from her. She was happy
that Carina was remembering but the pain of her not remembering the last month is
heartbreaking. The happiest they have ever been gone from her memory.

“I’m sorry.” Carina said softly and stared at the wall, playing with her fingers. Maya stood up
and she grabbed Carina's hands. She was being unfair to Carina right now. So she grabbed
her hands, sat on the edge of the bed and she leaned in slowly. Carina looked at the blonde
and she closed her eyes. She hasn’t kissed Maya since the night that they got into a fight, at
least that’s what she remembers, but Maya pressed her forehead against Carina’s and stared
into her eyes.

“Don’t be sorry, it’s unfair of me to be so upset when you have every right to be.” Maya
shrugged and Carina leaned in and gently place her lips along Maya's, kissing her soft
kissable lips, Maya gasped against the woman’s mouth, kissing her back.

“I feel so drawn to you, maya there is just this connection with you and it takes my breath
away.” Carina said softly, playing with the woman’s hair. Kissing her again. “Please just be
patient with me.” Carina begged, looking into Maya’ blue eyes.

“I’ll be patient.” Maya whispered, kissing her again. “Let’s get some sleep, okay?” Maya got
off of the bed and she helped Carina scoot over and then she got under the covers with the
brunette. Carina smiled at her and she rested her head on the blonde’s chest, pulling the
covers up over their bodies and they fell into a sweet slumber, holding each other.

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Another week went on, Maya was in and out of the hospital. She would go home and shower
and then she would sleep in Carina’s hospital bed with her. Now she finally had a few days
off from long shifts, she finished her reports and then she got a text from Andrew.

Andrew: Great news! Carina will tell you when you get here. Bring food? She misses you.
Maya smiled at that message, and she decided to throw on a pair of comfy pants, a light t-
shirt and slippers. Her hair was up in a ponytail, and she packed a bag for Carina with some
shower things, lotions, perfume and a change of clothes since she was no longer required to
wear a hospital gown. Maya ordered take out for her, Carina and Andrew and she picked that
up and then she went to the hospital, she grabbed all the stuff from the car and made her way
to Carina’s room. Once she got there, Carina was sitting on the edge of the bed, her hair was
in a bun, and she looked defeated.

“Hi.” Maya smiled and walked over to the table and set the food down and then turned to
look at the tears falling from her lover's eyes. “What’s wrong?” Maya dropped everything
and walked over to Carina and grabbed her cheeks, bending down to get on her level.

“M-Maya I can’t leave. I’m not ready.” Carina whispered and Maya wiped her tears away. “I
have been walking for a few days but today I just couldn’t.” Carina looked at Maya. “I had
no energy and… it hurts.” Maya cupped her cheeks, and she leaned in, kissing Carina softly.

“Amore, let’s go. Let me help you take a shower.” Maya helped her stand up.

“Maya I can’t! I can’t walk!” Carina was getting aggravated, and Maya pulled her up and
started to walk and Carina was following slowly. “Maya! Stop.” Carina whimpered and tried
to pull away from Maya but the blonde, being stronger, pulled the brunette against her and
she walked towards the bathroom. She turned on the shower and grabbed the shower chair.

“Carina! You walked to the bathroom. I might have been holding you steady, but you
walked.” Maya sat Carina down in the chair and she untied Carian’s gown. “You are doing it
my love and today was a bad day.” The blonde squatted down on her level, and she grabbed
Maya’s cheeks. “You can do this, baby. It’s a bad day. Everyone has bad days. I know that it
has been so hard. It has been the roughest month and you have had to come to terms with
things and re-remember things and it is awful but believe me when I say this.” Maya leaned
in and pressed her forehead against Carina’s. “You are going to get through this my love,
because you are stronger than you think.” Maya kissed her softly, and Carina pulled away.

“Bambina, I haven't brushed my teeth.” Carina tried to look down.

“I don’t care.” Maya leaned in again and kissed the woman’s lips deeply, Carina let out a
small moan and she kissed Maya back. The words that Maya said kept replaying in her head
and she knew it was a bad day. It is hard but Maya knew that and she understood. “Let’s get
you showered; I brought your favorite food.” Maya kissed her again and she looked at Carina
who nodded.

“Okay.” Carina smiled a little and then she allowed Maya to push her towards the water and
she helped her shower, wash her hair, and wash her body. Carina brushed her teeth and then
Maya shaved Carina’s legs which made Carina giggle and play with Maya’s blonde hair. She
was so beautiful and such a good person. It made her heart happy to have such a caring
person in her life. This was the softer side of Maya that no one else really got to see other
than maybe Andy, but she loved Maya, all of her. The angry side of her, the sad, the happy
and the sweet. Once Carina was done, Maya put lotion on her body, it was Carina’s favorite,
coconut and cream. It smelled like a beach, and it made Carina happy. She then got Carina in
a lounge set, it was navy blue soft pants and a light t-shirt. It matched Maya’s except hers was
gray. Maya brushed out her wet hair and then braided it then she got Carina out of the
bathroom and back into her bed. Maya grabbed her food and Andrew joined, smiling.

“You look beautiful sis.” Andrew kissed her head and sat down in a chair, Maya handed him
his food and then she sat down beside Carina’s bed in the chair. They all ate, telling jokes and
laughing. It made Carina’s spirit better, having the two most important people in her life.
Andrew was being called for rounds so it was just Maya and Carina. Maya cleaned up the
room and she sat beside Carina in bed and played with the brunette’s hand. The TV playing
in the background was enough to make up for the silence.

“What’s on your mind?” Carina asked, watching Maya. The blonde shrugged and looked at
the woman beside her.

“You look so beautiful.” Maya whispered, leaning in and kissing the blonde.

“Maya.” Carina blushed and looked at the blonde.

“I am just ready for you to come home.” Maya shrugged. “I miss you.” Maya looked at
Carina and then back at her hands.

“I miss you too. I miss not being in a hospital bed, turned on when we are making out but
afraid someone is going to catch us if they walk in to check my vitals.” Carina laughed and
Maya rolled her eyes.

“Sex is definitely missed.” Maya chuckled and they both laid back on the bed, cuddling into
someone. “How are you feeling?” Maya asked, brushing Carina’s hair behind her ear.

“I feel good. No pain.” Carina shrugged.

“We have a little while before one can walk in..” Maya shrugged and moved her face closer.
“I think we can make out.” Maya whispered and Carina laughed and pulled Maya close, their
bodies touching and finally their lips did too, causing them both to moan. Their lips caressed
each other, the spark was being felt inside of all, of their bodies. Maya placed her hand on
Carina’s side right above her waist. Carina tried to move her body closer to Maya and she
placed her hand on the back of her neck, running her fingers through the blonde’s hair, and
lightly pulling at her hair, Maya tried her best to keep quiet. Her hand went under Carina’s
shirt to touch her warm, soft skin. Carina gasped and then slid her tongue inside of Maya’s
mouth, moaning.

“Shh.” Maya said against the woman’s lips, both of them giggling and their legs tangling
together. It pressed their centers so close. They both craved the touches, but Maya knew that
it would be worth the wait. So the pair pulled apart and they cuddled close to each other.
Amelia came and checked Carina’s vitals an hour later and the pair fell asleep.

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It was 2am, Carina woke up, eyes wide and her heart beating fast. She felt tears streaming
down her face and she moved her hand on the spot beside her to find Maya but the blonde
wasn’t there.

“Maya.” Carina whispered and the brunette got no response, she sat up and looked around,
panic taking her mind, causing the machine to beep because of her blood pressure rise and
Maya rushed out of the bathroom and found Carina panic, she quickly rushed to the bed and
grabbed Carina’s cheeks.

“Baby. I’m right here.” Maya whispered Carina was grabbing at her arms, tears still running
down her face. “Hey..” Maya got on the bed and she wrapped her arms around Carina,
holding her tightly and finally Carina began to calm down and she wrapped her arm around
Maya’s arm, holding onto her and causing her breathing to relax.

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Another week went by and Carina was finally going to be discharged. She was fully healed,
and her physical therapy was going great. She was improving every day and her memory was
in full tact. Maya was now off shift, she was still sweaty and ashy, but she didn’t want to be
late to take Carina home, so she ran to the flower shop, got peach-colored roses and made her
way to the hospital in her turn out pants, suspenders and her 19 shirt. Her hair was a mess,
but she didn’t care. She wanted to just be present for this moment. Once she arrived at the
hospital, Maya ran up to Carina’s room, she was in her wheelchair signing her discharge
paperwork, Andrew was grabbing her bags.

“Just in time!” Andrew smiled and hugged Maya before walking down to the car to load it.

“Bambina!” Carina greeted with a huge smile and that’s when she saw the roses, she gently
bit her own lip and was blushing.

“Damn, you’ve got firefighter barbie trained!” Amelia laughed and then she helped Carina
put her hair in a bun and then Maya handed Carina the flowers, so Carina took them and
smelled them, closing her eyes. It was a beautiful sight and it made Maya’s heart skip a beat.

“You’re so beautiful.” Maya whispered and leaned down, kissing her softly. Carina kissed the
woman back and then she heard Andrew clear his throat. The pair laughed and pulled fully
away from each other.

“So, take it easy. Physical therapy twice a week, you are off work for two more weeks and
then on light duty, no crazy physical activity. You can do some, but not a lot.” Amelia handed
the instructions to Maya and then left the room. Carina smiled at the blonde.

“No crazy physical activity.. Doesn’t mean I can’t lay on my back and receive pleasure.”
Carina teased, smirking.

“Hmm, all give you all the pleasure as long as you are good.” Maya whispered and Andrew
gagged. Both women laughed and then Maya got behind the wheelchair and pushed Carina
towards her car, Andrew followed and helped Carina into Maya’s car. The brunette buckled
her seatbelt and then she closed the door. Maya thanked Andrew and then Maya got in the car
and drove Carina back to her and Andrew’s apartment.

Once they arrived, Maya helped Carina up the stairs and then onto the couch, she grabbed a
bottle of water and handed it to Carina and then started to unload the car. Once she was
finished she walked over to Carina who was half asleep.

“You wanna go take a bath?” Maya asked, sitting down beside Carina. The brunette nodded
with a smile.

“I’d love nothing more, Bambina.” Carina whispered and took a drink of water and then she
slowly got up as well as Maya and they both walked into Carina’s room, the brunette shut the
door and leaned in, kissing Maya deeply. The blonde groaned and kissed her girlfriend back,
deepening it. Carina slid her tongue inside of Maya’s mouth and swirled it around, causing
Maya to moan.

“Mmmh, okay, okay. Bath. I smell like smoke.” Maya said, pulling away. Carina laughed a
little and then Maya started to undress herself and Carina did the same. They walked into the
bathroom and turned on the water then put bubbles into the water and she pulled Carina close
to her. “Get in front of me.” Maya whispered, when Carina looked at her blue eyes they were
a shade darker,

“I like bossy Maya.” Carina whispered and she let Maya get in first and then Carina got in.
Once Carina was in, Maya’s arm went around her torso and she held Carina close to her,
kissing along her shoulders. The brunette closed her eyes and felt the rush go through her
body and the goosebumps rose on her skin and it made Maya chuckle.

“I love you.” Maya whispered against Carina’s ear and nibbled at her earlobe.

“I love you too.” Carina whispered, tilting her head to the side, finally feeling Maya’s lips on
her skin. She gasped at the feeling. Maya’s tongue rolled against her skin, tasting her coconut
lotion, then sucking and nibbling on the side of her neck. One of her hands coming up to
Carina’s breasts, playing with her nipple, flicking it and rolling it between her fingers. Carina
let out a moan, freely. Now there was no stopping them from being loud. No hospital, no
Andrew. Just them. Maya rose her other hand to her other breast and she did the same thing.
Both hands repeating the motions. Carina hissed and felt Maya’s lips all over her neck, her
shoulders and her jaw and it was the most amazing feeling. Her body felt on fire but cold all
at once. It was addicting and the wetness that was pooling at her center was making her crave
Maya more.

“Ah.” Carina gasped as Maya bit down on her skin and pulled at both of her nipples at the
same time. It made Maya smirk and she repeated the action. “Maya..” Carina said in a
warning tone. Maya rested her chin on Carina’s shoulder, pulling at her nipples again and
then rolling them between her fingers.

“Are you getting turned on?” Maya asked, playing with the buds in her fingers, watching her
own hand moving. Carina was breathing a little heavier.
“Yes.” Carina answered and put her hands on Maya, motioning a grab action and that’s
exactly what Maya did, groping her girlfriend’s breast. “I could come just like this.” Carina
whispered, biting on her lip.

“Yeah?” Maya asked, grabbing at her lover's breasts harder.

“Mhm, but Maya.” Carina paused, the blonde’s hands stopped. “I want your fingers buried in
my pussy.” Carina whispered, looking at Maya who shut her eyes. They usually were one’s
that didn’t throw out language like this but when they were both horny, Carina didn’t care
what came out of her mouth and that turned Maya on. She slid one of her hands down and
stopped on Carina’s stomach, bringing her lips to the woman’s ear.

“How many fingers?” Maya asked, biting at her ear lobe. Carina smiled and looked down at
Maya’s hand.

“Two, I can probably take three once I get use to it.” Carina answered, opening her legs and
bending her knees, leaving herself open and exposed for Maya. So the blonde slid her hand
further down and finally touched Carina’s clit, rubbing it in slow big circles, Carina let out a
moan.

“I haven’t even started and you are already moaning.” Maya teased, biting at the woman’s
skin, her other hand playing with each nipple one at a time. Carina was holding onto the edge
of the tub, the one on the wall. Maya rubbed at her clit harder and a little faster.

“Mmmh. Bambina” Carina moaned out, her body was squirming, she was trying to not do it
too hard since they couldn’t do a full extent on their physical activity. “I won’t last long.”
Carina admitted, turning her head and connecting her lips with Maya.

The blonde slid her fingers lower and slid two inside of the woman, causing Carina to gasp
against the blonde’s lips, letting out a moan that turned Maya on, her body craved Carina and
she thrusted her fingers in and out at a fast pace. Her goal was to make Carina come. They
could focus on connecting later. The brunette was squirming her lower half, gasping.

“Fuuuck, Maya.” Carina threw her head back against the woman’s shoulder, trying to not
arch her back too much and the way that Carina’s hips were moving it was adding pleasure to
Maya’s clit. She was groaning. It was enough friction to make her come.

“Do you like my fingers inside of you?” Maya breathed heavy into Carina’s ear and she
nodded, Maya’s free hand came up to Carina’s throat, grabbing the sides a little hard and
Carina was even more wet than before her pussy was slick and taking all the penetration
Maya was doing. The blonde added a third finger and then her thumb against the woman’s
clit.

“Maaaya!” Carina whimpered out. “You fill me so good Bambina.” Carina grabbed at her
own breast and Maya was watching. Maya thrusted faster, her wrist was throbbing but she
didn’t care, she wanted to pleasure her lover. “So close..” Carina whispered over and over
again.
 “Let me feel you cover my fingers.” Maya whispered, thrusting harder and her thumb adding
just enough pleasure, Carina let out an animalistic moan and her back arched, the blonde
applied more pressure on the side of her throat and Carina swore she saw stars and her entire
body shook and her hips arched, Maya fucked her as she started to cum. Maya’s name fell
from Maya’s lips with such pleasure and Maya swore her pussy instantly clenched against
nothing as she watched Carina come and it caused Maya’s orgasm to hit her unexpectedly
and she chanted Carina’s name, moaning.

It took a minute for Carina’s body to finally settle down, she was still shaking and she
whimpered as Maya pulled her fingers out slowly, running them up Carina’s torso, over both
of nipples and up her neck. Carina let out a low chuckle, closing her eyes. She can’t
remember an orgasm taking over her body like that in a while and the way Maya knew her
body was so satisfying.

“You are so gorgeous.” Maya whispered.

“Mmmh, you are too.” Carina smiled and turned her head, kissing Maya softly. “Do you want
me to return the favor?” She asked, trying to turn around but Maya stopped her and was
blushing.

“I umm.. I already watched you cum like that.” Maya whispered, kissing Carina.

“Hmm.” Carina hummed, kissing the blonde back.

“Let’s get out and go watch a movie.” Carina whispered, standing up slowly and then helped
Maya. Both woman dried off and got into their pajama’s stealing kisses and then make
popcorn, water bottles and cuddling up on the couch against each other watching movies for
the night. It was everything both of them needed at this moment. To just be close to each
other. Carina was satisfied for now and so was Maya.

Chapter End Notes

Amnesia is away and they are happier! What are we thinking? I always enjoy your
feedback! I'll be updating this weekend. Stay tuned (:
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Another month has passed, and Carina finally returned to work, physical therapy was
finished, Maya was back at work full time. She now had a new probe starting to replace Dean
Miller. It only took them almost four months to find a replacement. The blonde hasn’t even
been able to go through the file so when Sullivan walked in, Maya immediately knew who it
was.

“19!” He said and everyone stood straight up, Maya walked out of her office and looked at
the woman, she waited for Sullivan to introduce her.

“Everyone, this is Natalie.” Sullivan introduced the new probe, not so new to being a
firefighter but Andy looked at her and then immediately looked at Maya who stood there
with her hands in front of her. They all greeted Natalie, shaking her hand.

“Let me show you around.” Vic offered and Natalie smiled and walked with the woman and
the rest of the team followed them, except for Andy, Maya and Robert.

“Make her feel at home Bishop. I’ll be in my office I have some papers to fill out.” Sullivan
walked away and left Andy and Maya alone. Once the chief was out of sight, Andy walked
with Maya to her office.

“Did you know that she was going to be starting here?” Andy asked, walking into the office
and looking at Maya who sat down.

“No, I was so focused on trying to figure things out with Carina that I didn’t even read the
file. Let’s just hope she keeps things professional.” Maya shrugged and her phone was going
off.

Carina: I won’t be home tonight; Arizona has the entire unit working on stuff.

Maya rolled her eyes, Arizona being back was annoying, not that she flirted with Carina
anymore, but it still drove Maya nuts.

Maya: Okay, babe. I love you <3

Maya hits send.

“Mai! This woman is someone you cheated on Charlotte with… she, Maya. She was
someone you were falling in love with!” Andy was now talking loudly, little did they know
that Natalie walked into the office, she was at the door when Andy was talking, and she
knocked loudly. Andy turned around to find the lighter brown hair girl with beautiful green
eyes standing at the doorway, smiling.

“Hey! Come in.” Maya said. “What can I help you with?” She asked.
“Chief Sullivan said that there was paperwork I needed to sign.” Natalie walked in and
smiled at Andy and then sat down in front of Maya.
“Right! Yes. Herrera, go make sure that they engines get cleaned up.” Maya nodded and
Andy had wide eyes and she nodded again.

“Okay.” She chuckled and walked away. The blonde shook her head and Andy shut the door.

“Sorry about that.” Maya reached over and grabbed Natalie’s file and pulled out the
paperwork that was needed.

“It’s fine.” Natalie replied and watched Maya, smiling. The blonde pulled out the paperwork
and started to explain everything that Natlie needed to know. The pair were in the office for a
while. Carina tried to call Maya a few times, but no answer. Maya silenced her phone and
then finished up with Natalie.

“So you can go to the barn and follow what everyone is doing, get to know the team.” Maya
suggested, placing the papers in the file and then storing them in the file cabinet.

“I can’t spend time with you and get to know this new version of you?” Natalie chuckled and
she watched Maya put the fire away.

“I’m your superior, flirting with me won’t go very far.” Maya said and opened her office
door. “Go get to know the team.” Maya suggested again and Natalie nodded and got up,
walking out of the office and into the barn.

Maya then checked her phone. Carina was mad that she ignored her calls. So she closed her
door but before she could close it there was a foot stopping the door. She recognized those
heels, slowly Maya looked up.

“Hi.” Maya said softly and let Carina in, but the Italian shut the door loudly.

“Do you know how worried I was about you! There was a huge fire downtown and you just
don’t answer my calls and come to find out that you’ve been in your office all day, Maya! I
was worried sick about you. I yelled at Arizona to let me leave! Why would you just not pick
up your phone or shoot a text just so I know you are okay.” Carina was talking and Maya
grabbed her cheeks, and she pulled Carina forward, kissing her.

Carina, shocked by the action, kissed her girlfriend back, but then pulled away. “No, your lips
are addicting but you are not off the chain.” Carina pointed her finger and Maya chuckled.

“Not off the hook.” She leaned in and looked at Carina, batting her eyes. “I’m sorry. We had
a new firefighter start and I had to do all the paperwork and that took so much time. I’m okay
and I’m right here.” Maya grabbed Carina’s hands and she leaned in, kissing her again.
Carina kissed the woman back. They both pulled away when there was a knock.

“Come in.” Maya said and Carina went to her side, standing close.

“Oh I’m sorry that I interrupted.” Natalie smiled and looked at Carina.
“Right, umm, oh! This is Carina. She is a doctor at the hospital. Carina DeLuca.” Maya
introduced her and she looked at Carina who wasn’t even looking at Maya or Natalie, she
was playing with her hands, and she extended her hand.

“Nice to meet you, my name is Natalie.” Carina shook Natalie’s hand. “I need to get back to
the hospital, duty reports.” Carina smiled and then looked at Maya before walking out of the
office.

“Did you need something?” Maya asked.

“I just had a question, but I can wait.” Natalie walked out of the office and Maya quickly
walked outside towards Carina and she grabbed her hand, but Carina pulled it away.

“Carina. Wait.” Maya tried again and Carina stopped in front of her car.

“She’s a doctor at the hospital.” Carina repeated Maya’s words to her. “I’m just a doctor?”
Carina scuffed and walked to her door and Maya stopped her from getting into her car.

“I messed up, introducing you. I’m sorry.” Maya sighed and looked at Carina.

“Yeah you did.” Carina turned and moved Maya’s hand and got into her car, Maya sighed and
she watched Carina drive off. She really messed up. She has to eventually tell Carina about
Natalie. She heard the alarms going off, calling for the engines to a fire. So Maya ran back
inside and got in her turnouts and off to the fire they went.

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Carina drove away from the station. How could Maya not introduce her? Everyone at the
station knew they were dating and Maya made it known. Professional or not she always had a
hand on Carina, and it made her uneasy that Maya didn’t introduce her as her girlfriend. Just
Dr. Carina DeLuca. Why? Maybe she was overreacting. But she knew Maya enough to know
when something makes her uncomfortable. Natalie made Maya uncomfortable, and Carina
wanted to know what happened between the two of them. Carina arrived back at the hospital
and made her way back to the floor, she continued to work with Arizona. Finding research
about c-sections. Ever since her father lost that baby and mother Carina has been researching
on her own ways to bring a baby to full term unless it was harmful to the momma.

Maya and her team arrived at the scene, she put on her helmet and they all got out, grabbing
hoses.

“Herrera! You and Harvey are on search and rescue.” Maya stuck Natalie with Andy because
she wanted her to be with the best, and that was her best friend. “Hughes and Montgomery,
water line.” Maya demanded. “Gibson and Warren, meet search and rescue with Andy and
Natalie.” Maya looked up at the fire. This one was bad, not as bad as they had seen but there
were already multiple casualties. Everyone was in a panic, firefighters were bringing people
out, dead and alive. Her team was still in there.

“Bishop! Update.” Sullivan walked over to the blonde.

“Herrera and Harvey are on search and rescue, Gibson and Warren are met with search and
rescue, Montgomery and Hughes are in charge of the waterline.” Bishop gave her report and
suddenly there was an explosion.

“Bishop!” Hughes yelled and everyone got on the ground, ashes were falling, Sullivan and
Bishop looked up. The building was falling apart as they stood there.

“Hughes! Get that water on the windows. “Herrera! Report.” Bishop yelled into the walkie.

“Explosion, civilians on the ground. We only made it to the fourth floor.” Herrera reported
back, Harvey had someone on her back and they were walking back down, they handed the
person to Gibson who carried them outside, EMT’s meeting him at the stairwell.

“It looks like the explosion hit the twelfth floor, do not go past floor ten.” Bishop commanded
and looked up, the smoke was huge and it was only getting worse. There was a loud noise
again. Cement falling.

“Bishop!” Gibson and Warren came running up to Maya.

“What are you doing? Go! Herrera needs you.” Maya yelled at her team members.

“Maya! Andy isn’t responding.” Jack looked at Maya and her eyes were wide.

“Herrera report!” Maya called into the walkie. There was silence. “Herrera!” Maya yelled
again. “Harvey!” Maya called to the other walkie and nothing. The blonde threw her
clipboard down and she walked past Gibson and Warren.

“Maya! No, the building is crashing down! What are you doing?” Jack called out, following
Maya.

“Bishop! No.” Sullivan yelled.

“My team is in there Jack!” Maya shrugged his hand away trying to grab her.

“Maya, it's not safe.” Jack begged.

“I don’t care!!” Maya shouted and walked towards the building and suddenly Andy and
Natalie came out and they were carrying a body, Maya watched them, shock taking over her
body. She closed her eyes and opened them again. Andy was walking past Maya, she turned
around and just watched, shaking her head. Natalie came to stand beside Maya.

“She is badass.” Natalie commented, catching her breath. “She saved that kid, Maya.” Natalie
shook her head and walked down the stairs to the engine, everyone high fiving and then the
building came crashing down, a cloud of smoke came swirling over and Maya was thrown
across the air from the explosion, everyone was down on the ground and Maya was face
down on the ground, she wasn’t moving.

“Maya!” Andy yelled, running over to the blonde.

“Bishop!” Jack yelled at the same time Andy called her name and they both rolled Maya
over, she was covered in smoke and her face was covered in ash. Andy rubbed Maya’s chest
roughly and it caused Maya to cough. She took in a deep breath and opened her eyes wide.
Maya was taken over to the ambulance and they checked her out, gave her oxygen and then
she helped her team get the fire out while the rest of the building burnt to the ground.

“19. Report to Grey Sloan to get checked out.” Sullivan demanded and that is where the team
went. Andy got her arm looked at that had cuts through it, no burns. Everyone got checked
for smoke inhalation. Maya sat in the chair, waiting for her team to get done.

“Have you been checked on?” Natalie asked, looking at the blonde.

“Oh, no I’m good.” Maya shrugged her off.

“Come on.” Natalie grabbed Maya’s arm and she led her into a random room, and she shut
the door, she still had a stethoscope in her pocket from working in the aid car so she pulled it
out. “You’ll have to take off your shirt for me to do this.” Natalie chuckled and Maya rolled
her eyes and smiled.

“You just want the excuse to take my shirt off again... But I am umm... ” Maya was going to
say it and she felt Natalie’s hands. She then stopped Natalie when the brunette tried to
remove her shirt. Their hands connected and Maya watched Natalie.

“Maya.. I..” Natalie heard the door swing open and Maya immediately let go of Natalie's
hand when she saw Carina at the door. She looked tired, almost like she hadn’t slept in days.
It was late.

“I can assess Captain Bishop.” Carina said sternly, standing there, watching Natalie.

“Oh, it’s not a problem.” Natalie defended.

“Get out and let me talk to my girlfriend.” Carina was getting angry; her Italian temper was
boiling.

“Girlfriend? Maya.. you never mentioned.” Natalie scuffed and looked over at Maya who
was looking at Carina and then she looked down. “Wow, okay.” Natalie walked away and out
of the door, Carina slammed the door to the room and she looked at Maya.

“Take off your shirt so I can listen to you.” Carina said, her professional doctor's voice was
back and Maya did exactly what Carina said and she removed her shirt. Carina put the
stethoscope in her ears and she placed one end on her back where her lungs were and Maya
tried to take a deep breathe but she was coughing and Carina moved to the other one, Maya
repeated the action and Maya didn’t cough this time and then Carina moved to the front of
her Maya opened her legs and Carina stood in between them and she listened to Maya, her
eyes focused on the way Maya’s chest moved. The blonde reached to put her hands on
Carina’s waist but she pulled away from Maya’s chest.

“You need oxygen treatments. So they’ll admit you tonight.” Carina said, looking away from
Maya and then she left the room before Maya could say anything. Maya sighed and put her
shirt back on and walked out of the room. Natalie was standing in the corner, waiting for
Maya.

“Why didn’t you tell me you had a girlfriend?” Natalie asked, stopping Maya.

“I didn’t mention it because it wasn’t your business.” Maya had her defense up and Natalie
was looking at her.

“Like you didn’t tell me you were dating Charolette, and we fucked around?” Natalie asked,
shaking her head and then walking away from Maya. Little did Maya know, Carina was
standing in the room that Maya was just in and listened to the conversation.

“So you cheated on her?” Carina asked, looking at Maya and quickly Maya turned around.

“Carina.. Let me explain.” Maya begged, walking towards Carina.

“Explain away that you were unhappy so you flirted. Did it start like this too? She got the job
at the station you were at and then wanted to play doctor and you let her remove your shirt.”
Carina shook her head and she had tears in her eyes.

“Carina, I wasn’t going to let her take it off.” Maya stood in front of Carina and looked at her.
“I swear. I wasn’t. I was just going to let her listen to my lungs. I didn’t mean to hide you
from her. She means nothing to me, Carina. That was a few years ago and the way that things
ended and how messy it was. I don’t want her. I want you and only you.” Maya tried to grab
Carina’s hand and the brunette pulled it away.

“Maya..” Carina sighed and then she felt Maya’s lips on hers and it was like all of her bad
thoughts melted away and she grabbed the back of Maya’s neck and kissed her back, both of
them deepening the kiss and backing into the room and Carina shut the door, her tongue
sliding into Maya’s mouth, moaning. Maya grabbed Carina’s waist and brought her in closer
and shoved her against the wall, hard. The brunette gasped and she sucked on Maya’s tongue
and pulled at her messy hair, causing the blonde to moan. The pair made out roughly and then
pulled away to catch their breaths.

“Carina, she means nothing to me. Okay? It shocked me to see her and that is it. We ended on
bad terms and things got messy. I didn’t introduce you because I didn’t want to cause a
scene? Okay. I’m not ashamed of you, I wouldn’t cheat on you and I sure as hell wouldn’t let
her near me. I stopped her hand, Carina. I wanted to find you but someone said you were in
surgery when we got here so I thought if she could listen to me I could surprise you.” Maya
defended herself and she was looking at Carina who was finally meeting her eyes.

“I’m so in love with you.. Maya and someone touching your hand makes my blood boil. And
when you didn’t tell her I was your girlfriend it gave her a chance to flirt with you I could tell
by the way she was looking at you, Maya.” Carina defended and she looked down, Maya still
had her blocked against the wall.

“Carina. I love you so much and there is so much about the past that I still haven’t come to
terms with. I’m not proud that I cheated okay? It’s not something I’d love to advertise to you
because I am ashamed of who I was with her.” Maya felt Carina grab her face and Maya tried
to move away but Carina kissed her, the blonde kissed her back.

“Come on, they need to get oxygen on you.” Carina said softly, grabbing Maya’s hand and
walking her to the emergency bay, hooking up the oxygen hose and Maya got on the bed and
looked at Carina, smiling. “Stop staring.” Carina chuckled and she put the mask to Maya’s
nose and wrapped it around her head, moving her ashy hair away from her face.

“Stay?” Maya asked, grabbing Carina’s hand, the brunette looked around and nodded. She sat
on the edge of the bed beside Maya and she watched as she had the oxygen on. Carina held
onto her hand and waited for her girlfriend to finish the treatment. Once she was done, Carina
listened to her again and then she cleared her.

“Carina, will you come over when you get off?” Maya asked.

“Yeah.” Carina nodded, she leaned down and kissed the blonde. “I’ll see you later.” Carina
walked away and Maya watched her, sighing.

Things still felt tense between the pair, like they were being civil but she could tell by
Carina’s body language she was still upset and Maya knew she had to be honest with Carina.
The team finished off the shift and fought a small fire and then they all were cleared to go
home. Maya took a shower and rubbed off the day, she stood under the steaming water and
her body ached. Once she was done, she grabbed the towel from outside of stall and she
wrapped herself in the towel and got dressed.

Maya made her way to her apartment, and she unlocked in and sighed. Carina still wasn’t
here. She wasn’t sure when she would be here, but she hoped that Carina would come soon.
The blonde quickly made herself a smoothie and she heard keys in the door and there was her
girlfriend, she was in her pajamas.

“Bambina.” Carina greeted, closing the door and smiling. A smile that didn’t meet her eyes.

“Hi.” Maya set her smoothie down and she walked over to Carina but instead of hug, Carina
went in for a kiss, it was sloppy and needy. Maya got the message, and she pulled Carina
closer, kissing the woman back deeply but then Maya pulled away and looked at Carina.

“Why did you pull away?” Carina asked, looking at the blonde.

“Because.. We umm.” Maya paused.

“Oh do you not want sex?” Carina asked and nodded. “I’ll just go lay down, join me in bed
when you are done with your smoothie.” Carina walked away from Maya and she got under
the covers. Maya sighed and she put her smoothie in the fridge and walked to her room.
Maya sighed and she walked over to Carina who was curled up under the covers.

“Carina.. I want sex. For the right reasons.” Maya said softly.

“Right reasons? Or on your terms?” Carina asked, her tone was distant.
 “What? Carina.” Maya stood up. “So I’ve been forcing you into sex?” Maya asked and
looked at her girlfriend.Carina sat up and sighed, Maya was now stopped at her door. “Right..
Okay. I won’t touch you without asking.” Maya walked out of her room and she slammed it
and walked into the living room and laid on the couch. Carina looked down and she shook
her head. She had to get her mind straight. Maya said she wanted Carina and her jealousy
was getting the best of her and she never handled it well. The brunette walked out of the
room and she walked over to the couch, Carina then got on her knees in front of Maya. The
blonde was sitting there, her eyes looking into Carina’s.

“I didn’t mean what I said…” Carina whispered. “M-my jealousy gets the best of my head.”
Carina frowned. “I.. I want you to have sex with me because I want to feel close to you. Or
maybe my head is so messed up I want sex to prove that I’m worth keeping around.” Carina
shrugged and Maya just looked at her. “Maya.. I want you to want me and I know you do..
But I want spontaneous sex and I don’t want another woman touching you.” Carina groaned
and she got up.

“Carina! I want sex with you. All the time. I want you. Do you not see it?” Maya asked,
looking at the brunette.

“No… because all I can see is the love I have for you and that I would do anything for you.”
Carina was sniffling and her body was tense.

“You.. Carina.” Maya pulled at her arm and Carina stood up and straddled Maya’s lap and
they both shared a kiss.

“I love you, Carina. I want you all the time and I wonder how the hell I am so lucky to call
you mine. I wonder how someone as beautiful as you can be with someone like me and I
would never do anything to tarnish that, ever. Not some girl who I messed around with.”
Maya placed her hands on Carina's back and she pushed Carina closer. “I want you all the
time. Carina I would find a way to make you scream in public if I could and wouldn’t get
caught and it was illegal.” Maya chuckled a little and it made Carina smile. “If you want
anything, just tell me and I’ll give it to you, Carina.” The blonde looked at her and Carina
nodded.

“I want you anywhere, anytime of the day Maya. Not on terms, just all the time. You kiss me
and I melt.” Carina whispered and chuckled a little and Maya then pushed Carina onto the
couch carefully and got on top of her.

“Let me worship you, my queen.” Maya whispered, leaning down to kiss the woman below
her.

Chapter End Notes

We got a little bit of jealous Carina. What do you think? I hope this chapter was okay. I
always enjoy your feedback! (:
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The pair stayed up all night making sweet love to each other, marking each other's bodies and
making up for lost time with fighting. Carina poured all her love she had for Maya into this
moment, Maya did the same, all her love she had for Carina was poured into their sweet love
making.

The next morning, Maya woke up on the couch, Carina was on top of her. They were
snuggled under blankets and naked, the blonde kissed along Carina’s bare shoulder and to her
neck, sucking on her skin again. The brunette groaned in her sleep and Maya continued to
kiss along the tan skin. Carina opened her eyes and looked down at Maya, smiling.

“Buongiorno amore.” Carina whispered, kissing the blonde’s lips sweetly and then slowly
sitting up and wrapping her blanket around her body. Maya bit her lip and watched Carina
and did the same for herself, they stood up and Maya walked to the kitchen.

“Babe, I need to go to work for a little bit today.” Maya said, grabbing a water from the
fridge and another one for Carina. She walked to the bedroom and handed Carina her water
and kissed her cheek.

“How long do you have to go to work? I was wondering if we could go to dinner tonight?”
Carina offered, sitting on the bed and removing the blanket from her body.

“Um, yeah. Let me shower, go to work and then I’ll be back in time for dinner.” Maya took
off the blanket and she walked to the bathroom, turning on the water. Carina nodded and
watched the blonde, biting her lip. She trusted Maya, truly. It was other people she didn’t
trust because Maya was a giving person, attractive and that smile would knock someone off
their feet. Carina knew her jealousy was out of line, but she still didn’t trust Natalie.

“Can I join you?” Carina asked, walking to the bathroom door, seeing Maya naked, her torso
and breasts were marked, and it made Carina smile to herself.

“Of course.” Maya answered and looked at Carina, her eyes grew dark. Her body was marked
as well, probably more than her own but she was so sexy, her tan skin marked and glowing
with after sex shine. The blonde led Carina into the shower, pulling them both under the
water, kissing her deeply. Carina placed her hands around Maya’s neck, kissing her back just
as deeply. Their bodies pressed close together, Maya’s hands wrapped around the woman’s
waist, letting the water fall against their skin.

“Maya..” Carina whispered, kissing along the blonde’s white creamy skin.

“Hmm?” Maya hummed, closing her eyes.

“If you ever fall out love with me, please tell me.” Carina said softly, pulling her lips away
and looking at Maya, waiting for her to open her blue eyes.

“What?” Maya asked, opening her eyes looking into the brown eyes.

“I don’t want you to feel like you can’t be honest with me. I don’t want you to cheat on me if
you are unhappy. Ever.” Carina said, tears welling up in her eyes.

“Where is this coming from?” Maya asked, pulling away from Carina.

“No where.. I just.” Carina shrugged. “I just want you to know that if you ever fall out of
love with me and the thought of pleasuring someone else crosses your mind then leave me.
Don’t break the trust I allow you to have.” Carina was being honest, vulnerable. Maya
frowned, she knew that cheating on Charlotte wasn’t fair and when she told Carina she was
trying to be open and honest but now she worried that she betrayed Carina in a way.

“Carina..” Maya sighed.

“Don’t tell me you won’t ever do it. A relationship is a lot and this is so new. We are still
learning about each other.” Carina answered, grabbing the rag from the side of the shower
and put it under the water. “Turn around.” Carina whispered and grabbed the body wash and
she looked at Maya before watched Maya turn around. “I’m so terrified that my jealousy and
anger will drive you to walk away from me. I have the Italian temper; I make things bigger
than they already are. But Maya when I tell you that I love you. I mean it. With my whole
heart. I am putting my heart in your hand, and you have me.” Carina ran the rag along Maya’s
shoulders and down her back. “You are so beautiful and sexy. I love to show you off, but at
the end of the night I want them to know you come home to me. You didn’t make that clear
yesterday until I had to step in and do it.” Carina ran the rag along Maya’s rear, and down her
leg then back up, repeating the motion on the other leg and then turning Maya around to face
her. “I want to make it clear.” Carina dragged the rag along Maya’s torso, their eyes meeting.
“I don’t own you, but I will make the world clear that you are mine, Maya.” Carina finished
washing Maya’s body and she pushed her back into the water and Maya let the water run
down her body.

Maya grabbed the shampoo, and she washed her hair, Carina washed her body and then put
shampoo in her hair and she felt Maya’s hands on her waist. “Carina, it was my mistake to
not introduce you as my girlfriend yesterday to Natalie. I was so in shock from her being
there and then you showed up and my brain went to mush. It’s not an excuse. Yes, she flirts
with me but I promise you that what I had with her is done. It has been for a few years now. I
was falling in love with her, but she hurt me..” Maya sighed. “She slept with Charlotte and
that is how she found out that I cheated.” Maya looked down. “I know it was wrong of me,
but I somehow convinced Charlotte to stay with me and she continued to cheat on me. I tried
to just worship her, but our relationship was already destroyed. It had been before I was ever
with Natalie.” Maya looked at Carina. “I never want to lose you, Carina. You mean more to
me than anyone ever has. I can handle your jealousy and I want you to take over me and tell
the world I’m yours because I promise I am wrapped around your finger.” Maya leaned in
and kissed Carina. The brunette kissed Maya back and then rinsed the shampoo out of her
hair and put conditioner in, Maya kissed her again and got out, wrapping the towel around
herself. Carina finished washing her hair and then turned off the water and got out, Maya was
already dressed in her station 19 t-shirt and a pair of jeans. Carina smiled and walked over to
the blonde and unwrapped her towel, Maya raised an eyebrow chuckling.

“You are so beautiful.” Maya whispered and pushed Carina against the vanity that was close
to the door. Carina bit her lip and watched Maya, feeling her hand sliding up and down her
thigh, so Carina grabbed Maya’s hand and let it to her mound.

“Fuck me.” Carina whispered and opened her legs more and Maya got close and slid a finger
along her slit, feeling how wet the Italian was, causing the woman to gasp. “Uhh.” Carina
moaned and threw her head back.

“So wet for me.” Maya whispered and leaned against Carina and shoved two fingers inside of
the woman’s cunt and attacked her neck with wet sloppy kisses, sucking on her skin. Marking
it.

“Oh Bambina.” Carina whimpered out, grinding her hips down against Maya’s fingers. Maya
sped up her thrust, hitting Carina’s clit with her palm each time she thrusted in, Carina
hooked one of her legs against Maya’s waist, wrapping it, Maya held onto Carina with her
free hand and moved her lips to the woman’s nipple, biting and sucking at it. She decided to
add a third finger inside of Carina, causing the woman below her to moan louder, her hands
gripping onto the edge of the vanity.

“Your pussy is so greedy for my fingers.” Maya whispered, sucking at her nipple again
roughly, releasing it with a pop and then doing the same to the other one.

“Cazzo, I’m so close.” Carina moaned out, arching her back. Her body was tingling, and her
leg tightened around Maya’s waist and her orgasm crashed in her body, her walls clenching
Maya’s fingers, chanting out Maya’s name as she came. Maya fucked the Italian through her
orgasm and then slowly pulled her fingers out one by one and licked them clean. Carina was
panting, her head raised to watch as Maya licked her own fingers clean.

“Mmh. Perfect way to make me miss you while I’m gone.” Maya whispered and kissed
Carina softly. “I’ll be back.” Maya said, kissing Carina again, deepening it. Carina kissed her
back and nodded.

“I’m going to go by my apartment and grab some clothes, but I’ll be back before you come
home.” Carina said, walking Maya to the door, kissing her again. “I love you.” Carina
whispered and opened the door, hiding behind it and shutting it once the blonde walked out.

“I love you too.” Maya replied and heard the locks click as she walked down the stairs to her
car. Carina got dressed and blow dried her hair, then she cooked a small breakfast and ate.
She drove to her apartment and tried to go through her closet to find something to wear for
their date tonight.

Meanwhile, Maya pulled up to the station and walked into her office working on reports. She
was invested in being at the station for a little bit, but she wanted to get out of here early so
she could get ready for her date with Carina. A knock startled her out of her thoughts.

“I thought that was your car out there.” Natalie said, opening the door.
“Yeah, what are you doing here?” Maya asked, looking down at her paperwork, writing
something down.

“I just wanted to apologize.” Natalie shut the door and stood at the end of Maya’s desk.
Natalie was in work out legging and a sports bra, her tan skin was sweaty. “I didn’t know that
she was your girlfriend. You didn’t make that clear.” Natalie shrugged. Maya looked up and
rolled her eyes.

“Well she is. Can I help you with anything else? Or did you just come in here for a personal
matter?” Maya snapped, looking back down at her paperwork.

“Maya, I know that things between us got a little rocky, but what I said to you that night. I
meant it.” Natalie grabbed the pen from Maya’s hand and set it down.

“What the hell?” Maya asked, not looking at Natalie.

“I said I loved you and you never told me back.” Natalie said, when Maya reached for
another pen, Natalie stopped her.

“I’m not here to hash out the past. I have moved on, get out of my office if you have nothing
professional to talk about.” Maya was bitter and she needed Natalie away from her.

“I just want to clear the air… I never meant to sleep with Charlotte.” Natalie let out, sighing.
“We were drunk, I can’t even remember half of that night, but what I do remember is all of us
were in the bed and by morning you were gone.” Natalie said.

“Get out.” Maya stood up, pulling her wrist out of Natalie’s grasp.

“I’m trying to make a mend.” Natalie scuffed and looked at Maya.

“I said get out.” Maya walked to her door and opened it. Natalie rolled her eyes and walked
out of the office. Maya slammed her door and locked it.

Andy watched Natalie walked away from the office and she raised an eyebrow and walked
towards the dark-haired girl.

“Stay away from Maya. You hear me? She doesn’t need your bullshit, Natalie. She has finally
found someone who doesn’t fucking use her.” Andy looked at her and Natalie shook her
head.

“I never meant to hurt her, Andy. I loved her.. Love her.” Natalie answered. “Charlotte told
me to have her and I tried to win her back, but she was so in love with Char that she didn’t let
anyone in and when they broke up, I saw her at the bar that night. I saw her broken and I was
going to comfort her and then that another girl went up to her and followed her in the
bathroom.” Natalie shook her head again and scuffed, she had tears in her eyes. “I wanted
her..” Natalie admitted. “I knew she had a girlfriend when I started. I have seen them around
town.” Natalie replied. “I thought maybe she wasn’t happy, and I could swoop in.”

“Wait… you’ve known about Carina? And you still tried to get in Maya’s pants?” Andy
asked, furrowing her eyebrows.
“Yes.” Natalie answered.

“You’re fucked up… stay away from her!” Andy said angrily and walked away from Natalie.

Maya was standing by her door and heard the whole conversation, she felt sick to her
stomach. She should have told Natalie that Carina was her girlfriend from the start, it would
have prevented this. The blonde finished up her reports and walked out of the station. Andy
was standing at her car.

“Hey.” Maya said, unlocked her car and putting her bag in the backseat.

“Hi, you doing okay?” Andy asked.

“Yeah, I am good. Are you?” Maya asked, walking to stand in front of the Latina.

“Yeah. Listen, Natalie is trouble.” Andy warned.

“I know.. I messed up.” Maya cut off Andy. “The first time she met Carina, I didn’t exactly
introduce her as my girlfriend and that gave Natalie the opportunity to flirt with me and
Carina told Natalie we were together.” Maya shook her head. “I am an idiot.” Maya scuffed
out.

“You are.” Andy agreed and chuckled. “I’ll take care of Harvey. You go to be with Carina
and love her.” Andy pushed Maya’s shoulder.

“I think she got the message earlier.” Maya chuckled and walked to her driver's side door.

“Don’t ruin this, Bishop. Carina loves you, more than Charlotte ever did.” Andy walked
away with those last words and walked back to the station. Maya smiled and she got into the
car and drove back to her apartment.

Carina slid on a pair of peached colored lingerie, she went by the flower shop and picked up
peach-colored roses for Maya and then she slid on a white dress, it was tight and had a slit
that went almost to the band of her panties and she had a pair of wedges on, the back of the
dress was all lace around her back and the dress went down to her mid thighs, she curled her
hair and then put a half braid in her hair and let the rest of it lay down and her makeup was
smokey and she had on a darker red lipstick, she sat on the bed with the roses in her hand and
waited for Maya to come home.

The blonde pulled up to the parking space, got out, grabbed her bag and made her way to her
apartment. She unlocked the door and placed her bag by the door and then her keys hung up,
she locked the door and walked to the bedroom and found Carina sitting on the bed and she
gasped.

“Woah.” Maya breathed out, smiling. Carina blushed and looked down for a second. “You
make white look so sinful.” Maya muttered out, chuckling.

“I hope that is a good thing.” Carina laughed and stood up, walking over to Carina.

“Very good thing.” Maya whispered.

 “These are for you.” Carina handed Maya the flowers and kissed the blonde. “I’ll wait for
you to get dressed.”

“Y-yes. Thank you, babe.” Maya smiled and held onto the flowers and then walked to the
kitchen and put them in a vase with water. She then walked to the bedroom and searched
through her closet and found a pair of white slacks that had flared out bottoms and she found
a thin black blouse. Quickly Maya changed and tucked the shirt into the blouse and her lace
bra was seen through the thin material, but it didn’t bother Maya. She then put on a pair of
black heels. She walked out of the closet and into the bathroom, she straightened her hair and
did a middle part and then pulled her hair into a mid-ponytail and put gel on to make it look
more slick back. She unbuttoned the blouse enough to show off her cleavage and she did a
small amount of makeup, red lipstick. Once she was done, she heard Carina in the kitchen
talking. Maya walked out and found Andy standing there.

“Hey.” Maya said, walking out her room.

“Oh hey, I was just stopping by to grab some stuff from the room that I left.” Andy said,
smiling. “Well, lovebirds have fun. I’ll lock up on my way out.” Andy shrugged and Maya
nodded with a smile. She walked over to Carina and wrapped an arm around her waist.

“Thank you, Andy.” Maya said, smiling. “You ready?” Maya asked, looking at Carina.

“Give me just a second, I’m going to go grab a jacket.” Carina walked back to the bedroom
and sighed. Andy stopped by to warn Carina about Natalie and she would be keeping an eye
on Maya and relieved her stress when she heard Maya kicked the woman out of her office
today. Maya is very good at remaining professional, but Andy was wanting to reassure that
someone was on Carina’s side, aside from Maya. She grabbed a black jacket and placed it
over her shoulders and walked out of the room. Maya was standing by the door, and she
grabbed the car keys and followed Carina out of the apartment.

“So where are we going?” Maya asked, handing Carina the keys.

“It’s a surprise. Just trust me.” Carina smiled and grabbed the car keys, opening Maya’s door.

Maya chuckled and got in, putting on her seatbelt. How did she get so lucky?

Chapter End Notes

I know it's a short chapter, I have been so sick and then working a lot. I am working on
the next chapter as we speak and I hope to post it soon! I always enjoy your feedback.
Do we enjoy this storyline? I have two ways I can go with it. I can keep Natalie in the
picture and flirting with Maya and create a lot of angst or I can lay it to rest and let
Maya and Carina be happy. What do you think? Find out next chapter why Andy was
talking to Carina! Not only to inform her about Natalie but something soon that Maya
will find out.
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Carina pulled up to a parking space and when Maya looked around, she recognized the place.
It was the cafe from their first date. It made Maya smile and she turned to look at Carina who
was staring at the blonde.

“It’s cheesy… I know. But Maya, this is the first place that I started to fall in love with you.”
Carina said softly, turning the car off. “I don’t want to recreate the moment. I want to
continue to make memories with you that you can forever cherish.” Carina smiled and got out
of the car, Maya was stunned, and she got out of the car as well and walked to the sidewalk
and grabbed Carina’s hand. “I love you; Maya and I want to always keep the love I have for
you, alive.” The brunette shrugged and pulled Maya to the table, they walked inside and
found a round table to sit at that just sat the two of them. It was by the window, away from
the crowd. Not the same table they sat at, just because it was getting colder outside, but it was
still perfect.

“I love you, Carina. This will always be a special place. Our place.” Maya smiled and looked
at the brunette and then leaned over and grabbed her hand. “You are the special one.” Maya
laced their fingers together and they both looked at their menus, deciding what they wanted.

“What sounds good?” Carina asked, looking through the menu and thinking.

“Umm, I thought about getting the turkey sandwich and potato soup.” Maya shrugged, Carina
looked at her and then back down and let out a small chuckle. “What?” Maya asked, faking a
pout.

“Nothing, Bambina. You are so cute.” Carina said softly and bumped Maya’s nose with the
finger of her free hand.

“Mmh.” Maya blushed and looked down. The bell on the door rang and just as Maya went to
look up at Carina, she noticed Natalie walking in with none other than Jack Gibson. Maya
tried to not make it obvious, and she looked at Carina but the Italian already noticed Natalie
and she tensed. “Carina, hey. Look at me.” Maya said calmly and squeezed Carina’s hand
slightly. “Baby.” Maya whispered.

“I’m fine, Maya.” Carina said, looking back at the menu. “I think what you are wanting to get
sounds good. Let’s just do that.” Carina shut her menu and looked at Maya’s blue eyes. But
before Carina could open her mouth again, Natalie was there beside Maya.

“Wow, you must show all the girls around here this place. Remember Maya, you brought me
here one time? Oh and not to mention that you brought Charlotte here too.” Natalie chuckled
and rolled her eyes. “So clique. Truly. You could have had Carina fooled. You steal people’s
hearts and then you find a way to break them and leave others to pick up the pieces.” The
dark-haired girl smiled and looked at Carina who was eyeing Natalie. “You look beautiful
though, Carina.” Natalie smiled and walked away. Maya was chewing the inside of her
cheek.

“Carina, please do not believe her. We all came here as a group. I never came here with them
as a date. The station came to her a few times all together and Natalie was a part of a team.”
Maya was defending herself, but what she didn’t realize is that Carina didn’t need her to. She
didn’t want to believe Natalie. She believed Maya. “Please don’t let her ruin our place.”
Maya whispered.

“Hello, ladies. What can I get you to eat?” The waiter asked, pulling out a pad and a pen.

“I’ll take a turkey sandwich and potato soup.” Maya ordered and handed the guy her menu.

“I’ll just do the same.” Carina handed the menu to him as well and then looked down. Maya
sighed and she stood up and walked over to Carina, her hands placed on the brunette’s
cheeks, and she leaned down and kissed Carina deeply, closing her eyes.

Carina was unsure what Maya was up to but the minute she felt her girlfriend's lips on hers
she was lost, her hand moved to Maya’s arm and she kissed her back, deepening it. Maya’s
lips felt like clouds, she could feel her entire body floating and this woman would bring
Carina to her knees if she could. Maya slid her tongue inside of Carina’s mouth for a second
and then pulled away from her. She was panting and so was Carina, she watched her
girlfriend sit back down in the chair across from her and she couldn’t help but to smile wide.

“Focus on me.” Maya whispered. The waiter brought their drinks and they both took a sip
and Carina decided to talk about Andrew and how he was doing. She also was talking about
Bailey wanting to open up the abortion clinic and Carina was going to be her partner and
Maya supported her. Although Carina knew the real dangers of it she decided to save Maya
the details and she assured the blonde she would be safe. Once the food came the two women
ate and Maya was going to tell Carina she was going to test for Battalion Chief, she wanted
to wait for the right moment because it was going to be a lot of pressure and stress. Maya
handled her stress but not in the healthiest way, so she wanted to be open and honest with
Carina about this chance. Once finished, Carina paid for the meal and left a tip. Maya still
noticed Jack and Natalie; they have been exchanging glances every so often.

“Ready?” Carina asked, standing up. Maya nodded and smiled, standing up and wrapping her
arm around Carina’s waist. The brunette smiled and walked out with Maya, walking towards
the sidewalk.

“What is the plan now?” Maya asked, looking at Carina who was playing with her fingers,
walking closely to Maya.

“I want to go to the Ferris wheel.” Carina said softly, pointing at the wheel with a smile.

“Let’s go.” Maya laced her fingers with Carina and led them along the sidewalk towards the
wheel. To be honest, Maya was trying to plan a night to bring Carina back, but since she
decided she wanted to do it, Maya was going to make it special. As they made it to the line,
Maya stopped behind a group of people.
“Stay here? I’m going to go grab the tickets.” Maya kissed Carina’s cheek and walked over to
the booth and paid for the ticket. She also convinced the operator to stop them at the top, it
was getting dark, and the lights of Seattle would be shining through the city and Maya
wanted to take in the view. He agreed, Maya walked back to Carina with the tickets and
handed one to the brunette.

“What are you up to?” Carina teased with a smile, poking Maya’s nose.

“Nothing, just wanted to make tonight special for you too.” Maya said softly, pulling Carina
in closer to her by her waist, kissing her softly. The brunette wrapped her arm around Maya
and kissed her back.

“Maya, anything with you is special.” The woman said softly, her brown eyes meeting
Maya’s blue pair. The blonde blushed and hid her face in Carina’s neck, holding her closer.
As they waited in line, Carina played with Maya’s blonde hair, biting her lip. The attraction
she had for this woman was unbelievable, she was in love with Maya. Star struck is what
they call it. The fact that Natalie wants to get to Maya annoys Carina but it also makes her
want Maya more and more. Carina brushed off her thoughts as they walked up the stairs and
got into the carriage. Maya was sitting on one side and Carina sat down on the opposite side,
Maya frowned a little and reached for Carina’s hand. Physical touch was their love language
and Carina loved to touch Maya in the simplest ways.

“You are too far away.” Maya pouted.

“But if I sit over there then it will be unbalanced.” Carina teased.

“No, its unbalanced over here.” Maya pointed and finally Carina caved and smiled. “That’s
better.” Maya whispered and she looked out the side of the open carriage. Carina did the
same and watched as they moved up, stopping right at the top. Carina immediately looked
away and tried to hide against Maya but the blonde stopped her and grabbed her face, looking
into her eyes. “Carina.” Maya whispered and the brunette opened her eyes. “Focus on me.”
Maya whispered and the woman nodded and looked at Maya. “This is the moment I knew
you were different from Charlotte; I know that we were only on our first date but just the way
you looked at me… I melted and my heart did too. Carina, this is the moment where I saw
my future and I knew for sure that I wanted you to be in it. Even if you didn’t feel the same,
you were it. I want you to know that I’ll spend the rest of my life trying to prove to you that
you are worth loving. You don’t have to throw yourself at me to grab my attention, I see you.
Even in the crowded room, my eyes search for you and suddenly I am home.” Maya had tears
filling in her eyes. “I tried to stop myself from falling so deeply in love with you but there is
no stopping it. Even when you didn’t have your memory, I was bound to prove to you we
were once in love and that our love story wasn’t finished. We aren’t done. We never will be
because, Carina, you are the one person in this world that I want to be by my side through
everything.” Maya sighed softly and Carina leaned in and kissed Maya deeply, stopping her
from talking. She poured all of her love into that one kiss. Her body bringing Maya as close
as possible, she deepened the kiss more, sliding her tongue inside of Maya’s mouth, moaning
at the taste of her love as it filled her mouth. She begged for more, Maya was holding onto
Carina like it was the last thing on earth she was going to be able to do. This woman…
Maya’s heart was in her hand and there was nothing Maya would change or could change.
Once the pair pulled away their foreheads connected and they stared into each other's eyes,
smiling and panting. The wheel went around a few more times and it was time for them to get
off, Maya got off first and then helped Carina.

“Let’s go dancing. Your outfit is too sexy to not show off.” Maya smirked and led Carina
back to the car.

“Bambina, last time we went, we barely danced.” Carina chuckled and followed the eager
blonde to the car.

“Exactly. Let me show you off.” Maya opened the door for Carina and the brunette got in,
smiling. She handed Maya the car keys and Maya went around to the driver's side and she got
in and started the car, she then backed up out of the parking spot and drove towards
downtown Seattle. They arrived at a very popular night club and Maya parked the car and
they both got out, Maya put the keys in Carina’s clutch bag and then walked to the door,
linking Carina’s hand with hers.

Once they were inside, Maya ordered herself a whiskey, Carina ordered herself a white wine.
They sat at the bar; the music was blaring. Maya sipped at her whiskey. She heard a familiar
voice and suddenly Vic and Andy were running towards the bar.

“Mai!” Vic was obviously drunk, she was loud and hugging up on Maya.

“Hey.” Maya laughed and hugged Vic, Andy went close to Maya’s ear and warned her that
Natalie was here. Maya rolled her eyes and Carina drank some of her wine, talking to Vic.
Maya looked around the bar and spotted Natalie and Jack on the dance floor, she was going
to make it a mission to only be around Carina.

“Carina?” Jo asked, coming up.

“Hey!” Carina greeted Jo and Link, hugging them both. “This is my girlfriend, Maya.”
Carina introduced them and then smiled. She lost her smile when she saw her ex. “Arizona.”
Carina greeted. Maya rolled her eyes and quickly placed her hand on the small of Carina’s
back.

“Hey.” Arizona greeted Maggie and was with them as well, Andrew and Meredith of course
and then Amelia joined them.

“Where is Callie?” Carina asked, finishing her wine.

“Oh, she is at home with Sofia, I decided to just have a night out. You look great by the way.”
Arizona smirked a little and she ordered herself a red wine. Maya smiled a little and then she
drank her whiskey. Carina greeted everyone else and then Maya decided to slam her whiskey
down and she pulled Carina towards the dance floor. The Italian followed, smiling.

Maya turned Carina around so that Carina’s back was against Maya’s front and then she
guided Carina’s hips to start grinding against her and so that is what the woman did, she
grinded against Maya, biting her lip. The room was dark and the lights flashed, Maya’s hands
rested on Carina waist, her head resting on Carina’s shoulder, smiling.
 “You’re so breathtaking.” Maya whispered, kissing along Carina’s bare shoulder, smiling.

“Mmmh, Maya. Your lips feel amazing.” Carina laughed and put her hands on Maya’s and as
the song turned slow, Carina was turning to face the blonde. She wrapped her arms around
Maya’s neck and brought her body as close as she possibly could to Maya’s. The pair swayed
on the dance floor, Maya’s arm around Carina’s waist, her lips kissing along Carina’s neck
and up her jaw.

Natalie kept looking at Maya and the blonde could feel it, but she wanted to only focus on
Carina. Arizona, of course, kept looking at Carina, and she knew it. Once the song was over,
Maya pulled away and pulled Carina towards the bar, ordering them another round of drinks.
Carina was all over Maya, her hand and her lips were kissing every inch of her exposed skin.

“Carina! I love this dress.” Arizona and Amelia came up to the bar next to Carina and
touched her dress at her waist. The blonde was quick to wrap her arm around Carina. “Well,
ya know. It almost looks identical to the dress you wore that one night a few months ago?”
Arizona smirked and then she ordered a drink. Maya looked down at her feet, sighing.

“Another whiskey for her.” Carina ordered and then sat on the stool and pulled Maya
between her legs, she slightly opened them and as soon as Maya was between her legs and
her hands were resting on her shoulders, Carina leaned up and kissed Maya softly. Once the
whiskey was on the counter Carina pulled away and grabbed it for Maya. The blonde grabbed
it from Carina’s hands and took a sip. “Drink up.” Carina whispered, kissing along her cheek.

“Are you trying to get me drunk Dr. DeLuca?” Maya teased with a smile.

“I might be.” Carina whispered against Maya’s ear, sliding her hands along Maya’s thigh and
in between almost touching her center but stopped and she nibbled on Maya’s ear. She could
hear Maya’s breath catch in her throat and she let out a small groan. Maya took another sip of
her whiskey and she played with Carina’s hair.

“You are so beautiful.” Maya whispered, Carina smiled and she leaned up again and kissed
Carina. Before they could pull away everyone was screaming and suddenly the lights went
out, the ground shook and there was a loud bang. Fire started and there was the smell of
carbon monoxide filling the bar. Maya was on the ground, far away from the bar. She looked
around and when she tried to breathe, she couldn’t catch her breath. Her entire body felt cold.
“C-Car-.” Maya tried to talk but she couldn’t.

“Maya!” Carina screamed… no she whaled out for Maya, but the room was fuzzy, the flames
were filling the building. Maya had glass in her abdomen and a table trapped under her legs.

Chapter End Notes

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 Turn Back Time
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4 weeks later:

“When can I go back to work?” Maya asked, sitting across the desk from her trauma surgeon.
Owen Hunt.

“I recommend physical therapy for the next eight weeks, you are on light duty, thus, only
working at the desk and I am putting you down for only three days a week, no forty-eight-
hour shifts. It’s too hard on your body.” Owen typed on his tablet and then printed out the
paper and handed it to Maya. “Now, go home to Carina, give her my condolences. I know she
is eager to return to work.” Owen smiled and then got up from his chair and opened the door
for Maya. The blonde sighed and slowly got up, limping her way out of the office.

“Oh! Maya.” Jo walked up to the blonde and hugged her. “Hey, how is Carina?” She asked,
pulling away from the hug.

“She is doing better; I think that going out still scares her.” Maya nodded, smiling a little.
“She is still really sore.” The blonde added. “I told her I’d pick up dinner on the way home,
so I should go.” Maya pointed towards the doors and Jo nodded. “Tell her hi.” Jo said and
walked away. Maya nodded again and walked towards the doors and outside. It was sunset,
Maya knew she was running late. Andy was out by her car, and she helped Maya down the
curb and into the passenger seat. Maya thanked her and Andy walked to the driver's side.

“The cafe? Or take out?” Andy asked, looking at the blonde, her jaw was locked, meaning
she truly was trying to not show her emotions.
“Take out, it’ll be easier.” Maya admitted and looked down. “I am on light duty, only three
days a week, no forty-eight-hour shifts.” Maya sighed and looked out the window.

“Mai, it’s only to let your body heal.” Andy tried to being realistic, but she knew Maya didn’t
want to hear it. So, Andy put the car in drive, and she drove to their favorite take out place
and she left Maya in the car and went inside and grabbed their order and got back into the car
and handed it to Maya to hold on to. Maya held the bag, and she was quiet the entire way to
her apartment.

“Maya! Maya!” Carina screamed.

“Hold on, Carina don’t move.” Natalie slowly moved towards Carina and pulled the hood of
a car up off her body, her dress covered in dust, oil, gas and blood. Her blood. “Oh my
god.” Natalie muttered out.

“What?!” Carina looked around. “Maya!” She screamed again.

“Maya, are you listening?” Andy asked, pulling into the parking lot.

“What?” Maya asked, shaking her head.

“Earth to Maya.” Andy chuckled and grabbed the bag. “I’m going to take this up to the
apartment, take your time on the stairs.” Andy smiled and started to walk upstairs and Maya
got out of the car, at least she could do that on her own now. There was still some infection in
her leg, but it was managed by some medicine, she wasn’t allowed to put a lot of weight on
her right leg, that was the one that was pinned against a car and a table. Slowly, Maya moved
up the stairs. As soon as Andy put the food down, she helped Maya the rest of the way up the
stairs.

Andy was grabbing the plates, Maya walked into the room and found Carina staring at the
scar on her abdomen in the mirror, she was half dressed. It was the first time in a month that
Maya has seen remotely undressed. She refused the look at the scar and now she was staring
at it with tears in her eyes.
“You are still as beautiful as ever.” Maya said softly, limping to the bed and sitting down,
watching Carina as she turned around.

“How was your doctor's appointment?” Carina asked, grabbing a t-shirt and putting it on and
pulling her hair back into a loose bun.

“Light duty.” Maya replied and watched Carina slid on a pair of shorts and wince as the
material made its way over her bruise on her leg. “You know you could leave pants off… it
hurts you.” Maya said softly, standing up, slowly.

“We have company.” Carina replied and helped Maya stand up and then she made her way
out of the room. “Thank you, Andrea for getting this.” Carina said softly and sat down at the
table, Maya watched her walk away and she sighed heavily. Ever since that night, Carina
hasn’t looked at Maya in the same way, barely made eye contact. They both refused to talk
about it, more so, Maya refused to talk about it.

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Four more weeks went on, Maya was back at work, light duty. Carina had returned to work,
finally and she would end up staying at her place more than Maya’s. It was the hardest
decision she made. Every time Carina looks at Maya the vision of Maya coding rests in her
brain and it kills Carina every time. Only, she couldn’t confess that to Maya who looked like
a lost puppy every time Carina came around. The guilt was eating her alive, only if Maya
knew it truly wasn’t her fault. None of it, but Maya refused to believe that.

Maya: Can you please come over tonight? I want to talk to you.

The blonde hit the send button and she set her phone down on her desk and she got up.
Finally able to stand on her own with little to no pain. But unfortunately, they had to cut her
leg open and dig a blood clot out, so she had a scar down her thigh. It was unattractive and
Maya and she hated showing anyone.
Carina heard her phone ding; she had just finished lunch with her brother, and she dreaded
looking at her phone. Maya has been begging her to come around for the past week and
Carina finds some excuse, but this time she didn’t have one. She missed Maya and they did
need to talk.

Carina: Sure, I’ll be there around 7pm. Xx

Carina hit send and then put her phone in her pocket and focused on work, calming scared
moms down, bringing beautiful babies into the world and pushed the thoughts of Maya and
her own scared thoughts of that night to the side. She assisted on a c-section and then showed
the new interns what OB was all about. When 6:30 hit, Carina clocked out, she gathered her
bags and walked to her car. She drove to her own place and changed out of her clothes and
into comfy clothes, she let her hair fall natural with her beautiful waves, she removed her
make up and packed a few outfits for the next few days, she gathered some of her shower
stuff, makeup and then made her way to her car and then over to Maya’s. The brunette took a
few deep breathes and parked her car. This is the first time they would be having a full
conversation about anything; it made Carina nervous, but she pushed her fears aside and she
grabbed her bag and purse and walked up to the apartment. She chose to not knock, instead
she opened the door and found Maya in the kitchen, huffing and sighing loudly. Carina shut
the door and locked it.

Maya looked up from the mess on the counter and found the brunette standing there, she
sighed softly and walked towards the woman. Carina dropped her bags by the door and
walked over to Maya and wrapped her arms around the woman’s neck, pulling her in close.
Maya let out a sob and she wrapped her arms around Carina’s waist, holding the woman
close to her. Resting her head on Carina’s chest, they gently swayed as they hugged. Maya
freely let her tears fall, her arms tightening around Carina. This was the closest the pair has
been in two months, the closest their bodies have been, and it was like natural flow. Both
women relaxed into each other. Talking didn’t matter right now because their bodies were
saying enough.

After a long, intense hug the pair pulled away and Maya smiled at the brunette, Carina wiped
off the tears that fell down Maya’s cheek. “What are you doing in the kitchen?” Carina asked,
brushing Maya’s strands of hair behind her ear.

“Trying to cook you dinner.” Maya chuckled a little and finally met the brown pair of eyes
she had been longing to see. Carina leaned in and kissed Maya’s cheek softly. That was a step
and Maya would accept it, so she walked over to Carina’s bags and picked them up and
walked to the room and placed them on Carina’s side of the bed then she made her way out of
the bedroom to find Carina looking through the recipe Maya was looking through.

“You do know that this requires homemade bread?” Carina pointed out, teasingly with a
smirk on her face.

“No.” Maya chuckled at herself and sighed.

“Here, let’s just make some tortellini soup, something light and you can help me.” Carina
grabbed the big pot from the cabinet and then started to wander through the fridge and grab
what she needed to make the soup. Maya came into the kitchen and stood by the stove. “Do
you mind cutting the veggies?” Carina asked, handing Maya the carrots, celery and zucchini.

“Not at all.” Maya whispered and turned around and grabbed the cutting board. She walked
over to the island and she quickly washed the veggies and started to cut them, Carina was
mixing seasoning into the broth and turning on the stove, she poured the mix into the pot and
then grabbed a separate pot and filled it with water and then brought it to the stove, added oil
and turned it on and waited for it to boil, they made casual conversation about their days and
catching up on the crazy things they’ve both witnessed. No hard conversation was brought
up, yet. Maya poured the veggies into the broth and Carina finished making the tortellini and
she put that in the broth and turned the burner on the stove to a simmer and she placed a lid
on the pot and then turned to face Maya. Her bright blue eyes made Carina stop in her tracks.

“Let’s go sit.” Maya suggested and walked to the couch, Carina following her, they both sat
down, facing each other. They both didn’t say anything at first, but instead they just stared at
each other.

“Carina..” Maya started. “I um.” She swallowed and took a deep breath. “I wanted to tell you
that I am so sorry. I haven’t been fair to you, and I’ve been pushing you away.” Maya
admitted and she looked down, playing with her fingers. “I blame myself for all that has
happened to you..” The blonde stirred a little and sighed. “I know that I can’t take blame for
what happened that night, but I do blame myself for not being in that hospital room with
you.” She took a breath and looked at Carina who had tears rimming in her eyes.

“You.. um. You couldn’t help it. It was a lot.” Carina was making excuses. “But it hurt.”
Carina finally let it out. “It hurt that you refused to come in my room.” The brunette sighed.
“I watched you code… over and over again. The amount of blood you lost, Maya you could
have died and you didn’t. But you didn’t even come to my room.” Carina looked around,
avoiding eye contact. “I am still holding onto that anger because when you finally made it to
my room you looked better, healed. I was still lying in a hospital bed with an ugly scar on my
stomach. I almost had my uterus removed because of all the bleeding.” Carina was now a
puddle of tears, all her emotions flowing out at once, hurt, anger, sadness. “I.. I am not as
angry with you because I can understand, but Maya.” Carina sighed. “You didn’t even try to
come to my room.” The brunette moved her hair away from her face and looked at the blonde
who was also in tears.

“I.. I don’t have an excuse for that because there isn’t. I was selfish. I blamed myself… I hurt
you and I didn’t face it. Cowardly of me.” Maya admitted. “But, Carina. I felt like you were
mad at me.. Still because of that night.” The blonde looked down. “You never told me you
loved me back when we were sitting beside each other, waiting for someone to help.” The
blonde looked at the brown pair of eyes. “You looked away from me and I felt like I lost
you.” The blonde shrugged. “It’s not an excuse like I said.” Maya sighed and shook her head,
wiping her own tears away. Carina looked at Maya and then tilted her head, she decided she
was done talking, but she hoped Maya would be okay with the next move. Carina leaned in
and she stopped inches away from Maya’s face, her eyes never leaving the blue pair.

“Tell me to stop and I will.” Carina whispered and Maya remained silent and they both
leaned into the want, their lips connected. The most contact their bodies have had with each
other in two months, Maya moaned softly and Carina deepened their kiss. All thoughts
leaving for the moment, she felt that this is what they needed. Not avoiding the problem, but
trying to find a way to lay the bad feelings to rest. Maya followed Carina’s lead, kissing her.
They both didn’t dare pull away, they continued to kiss, breathing through each other as they
needed air. Maya was moving closer to Carina and the brunette leaned against the arm of the
couch and found Maya finally on top of her, not fully but their bodies felt it, their kiss finally
simmering when they heard Maya’s phone chime. Slowly they pulled away from each other,
Maya’s eyes meeting Carina’s.

“I do love you, Maya. Even though I’m still mad and hurt. I love you.” Carina whispered.
Maya nodded and let a small smile form on her lips. “I love you too, Carina.” The blonde
leaned in again and kissed Carina, she felt Carina kiss her back and then pull away.

“Food. We have to check on the food.” Carina whispered and they both stood up, Maya
grabbed her phone and looked at the text.
 Natalie: I am so glad we had the chance to talk last week, I’ve been thinking about you. I
hope you are okay… and thank you for visiting me.

Maya sighed.. She had to somehow tell Carina that she saw Natalie last week in the midst of
them not talking.

Chapter End Notes

I know this is a short chapter, I do apologize after a long break. I will be working on the
next chapter and hoping to post it either later today or tomorrow. I will slowly get to
what happened that night with both Carina and Maya and how they ended up in the mess
they were in. I always appreciate your feedback! Thoughts? (:

Thank you!
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“Hold on, Carina.” Natalie said softly and slowly helped Carina off the ground, even as a
firefighter she knew this was a mistake, but the way Carina was calling out for Maya.
Arizona helped Natalie drag Carina towards Maya across the bar and as they made it over
there, Maya was in and out of consciousness.

“Maya!” Carina whispered, sliding closer towards the blonde lying on the ground. There
were sirens blaring, all Carina could hear was commotion.

“Natalie… she isn’t responding.” Carina whispered.

“Mai! Mai!” Andy shouted, running towards the blonde and lifting the table off of her legs.

“Carina?” Maya whispered out, groaning in pain.

“I’m right here.” Carina coughed and blood came out on her hand, she sighed softly and
saw that Maya was fading out again.

Mai! Wake up!” Andy shouted and shook the blonde, her blue eyes opened.

“Help! Over here!” Vic shouted, moving over to Carina as she continued to cough.

“Carina.” Maya whispered again.

“I’m here.” Carina whispered in return.

“I love you.” Maya said softly, she reached to grab Carina’s hand and felt the brunette pull
her hand away, but suddenly everything went dark again.

The blonde tossed and turned in bed, finding Carina still sleeping, snuggled into the pillow
slightly snoring. Maya slowly sat up on the bed and looked over at the clock. 2am, great.
Maya slowly got out of bed and made her way to the bathroom; she removed her clothes and
started the shower. She couldn’t go running so she needed a way to stabilize her mind.
Slowly Maya got into the shower and let the water run down her body. Her eyes were closed,
and she was trying to calm her mind down.

“She’s coding! Start CPR.” Travis yelled, Maya could hear the commotion, but she couldn’t
open her eyes, her body felt cold.

“Maya!” Carina panicked.

“She is going to be okay, come on. We need to get you checked out.” Natalie dragged Carina
to the next aid car, the brunette was limping her way through, hunched over. Her abdomen
was still bleeding, but all she cared about was Maya.

“Please, let me see her.” Carina begged, trying to walk over to the ambulance that Maya was
in.

“Carina, we will see her at the hospital. Come on you need checked out.” Arizona and
Natalie dragged Carina to the aid car and helped her in, Carina gave in and laid down on
the bed. The doors closed and Warren was now assessing Carina.

“This is Travis Motgomery, I’ve got a thirty-four-year-old female unresponsive. ETA is four
minutes.” The sound came over the walkie and Carina sighed.

“Warren! Sew me up or whatever but let me see her.” Carina begged, looking at her friend.
“Carina your injuries are extensive.” Warren started to apply the gauze to Carina wound,
her bottom half covered with a blanket and her dress now cut open and her abdomen
exposed.

“I know they are but let me see her.” Carina begged.

Carina opened her eyes wide and searched for Maya on her side of the bed, only the space
was warm but empty. She shot her head up and saw the bathroom light on and heard the
water running. Carina got out of bed, she needed to get to Maya now. Her heart was racing,
and she felt her eyes watering, she opened the door and undressed herself quickly.

“Bambina...” Carina whimpered out and opened the shower door, Maya’s face was red and
puffy.

“Cariana.” Maya acted startled and she rubbed her eyes a few times. “Are you okay?” Maya
asked, reaching for Carina’s hands.

“No..” Carina whispered. “I just needed to be near you.” The brunette walked closer to Maya
and she started to brush her fingers through Maya’s blonde hair.

“Come here.” Maya whispered and switched places with Carina and let the water run down
her hair and body, God, Maya has missed her girlfriend. ‘Mind out of the gutter’ Maya said
to herself. She grabbed Carina’s loofa and put water on it and then soap, hopefully Carina
still liked Maya’s soap because that was what they were using it.

“Maya..” Carina whispered.

“I went and saw Natalie last week to check on her.” Maya blurted out and it caught Carina off
guard, her entire body stiffened. “I had to tell you… I um. I had to just tell you. It wasn’t to
hurt you or to um rub it in your face. Carina it was to thank her for bringing you to me.”
Maya was defending herself. The brunette moved away from the water and looked at the
blonde who was standing there, shaking. “I was going to mention it earlier.” Maya said.
“Wait..” Carina stopped her and chuckled. “You went to see someone but couldn’t bother to
see me in the damn hospital?” Carina scuffed. “Let me know when you are done with your
shower, and I’ll finish mine.” Carina went towards the shower door and Maya grabbed at her
hand.

“Carina we talked about this.” Maya whispered.

“Yeah and I told you I was still angry.” The brunette whispered and opened the door and
grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her body and shut the shower door, leaving Maya to
shower herself.

The brunette slipped on a pair of shorts and a t-shirt and walked to the kitchen and grabbed a
glass of water, she heard Maya’s footsteps coming out of the room.

“Be angry… but please just hear me out.” Maya whispered. “I watched them do surgery on
you, Carina. I know that they almost took your uterus and my heart hurt.” The blonde sat
down and played with her fingers. “I did visit you, but you were too busy ignoring me. You
spaced me out like I wasn’t there. I thought maybe that you no longer wanted to speak to me
or needed time to process and I just let you. Natalie checked on me when I wasn’t answering
anyone’s phone calls. I took my anger out on her and she told me everything she did for you
and to help you get to my room when she wasn’t allowed. I was selfish. She literally helped
you and I was thanking her. I didn’t go over there out of spite to hurt you, Carina. I went over
there to apologize and thank her. I’m sorry if that hurt you or made you angrier, but
remember she was the one that helped you.” Maya then got up and walked back to the
bedroom and got herself dressed and brushed through her hair.

Carina listened to Maya and she drank at her water, anger and guilt were taking over her
body. Natalie did help her when Maya was in the hospital, along with Arizona. Carina did
choose to not talk to Maya for a whole month because of her anger and guilt. Only Maya was
there, just not enough for Cariana to notice. The brunette set her glass down on the counter
and she walked back to the room to find Maya sitting on the edge of the bed sniffling. Carina
sighed a little and she walked over to Maya and sat down beside her. “I didn’t know that she
helped you, okay? I remember her helping me, bits and pieces and I swore when I saw her
again, I would thank her. I.. Maya that night was such a mess. I was still confused about how
I was introduced and that she could still flirt with you. Okay? I love you; I don’t want this
horrible night to ruin our love. I am so glad you are back, and I am so sorry that the hospital
was rough and that I didn’t face you for a month. I couldn’t look at the guilt on your face or
hear one more apology because you didn’t do it. You didn’t cause the earthquake to make the
building fall or make the cars run into the building.” Carina closed her eyes. “I still smell the
gas and oil on my body. I can’t sleep at night because I replay losing you.” The brunette
grabbed onto Maya’s hand, and she leaned into the blonde and rested her head on her
shoulder. “We both have made mistakes and I’m sorry for walking out of the shower.” Carina
said and kept resting against Maya.

Maya listened, there wasn’t a whole lot to be said because truth be told, Carina was ignoring
Maya’s messages for the last month, they saw each other only four times last month and it
was awkward, they didn’t talk a lot and silence would fill the apartment. This was the hard
stages of the aftermath of their accidents.

“I love you, Carina. I am trying to work through stuff and I am being patient and giving you
grace, so please allow me some too.” Maya whispered, lacing her fingers with Carina’s as she
grabbed her hand.

“I love you too, Maya.” Carina whispered and she lifted her head and kissed Maya’s cheek.

“Carina… can you trust me?” Maya asked.

“Of course.” Carina replied and looked at the blonde.

“Will you just lay down on the bed, I know we aren’t ready to be intimate and we are waiting
for the right time even though we haven’t talked about it we are just reading minds.” Maya
was rambling and Carina let out a chuckle because it was cute.

“I trust you.” Carina whispered and she moved towards the head of the bed and laid down
like Maya asked her to. The blonde moved to the side of Carina, and she gently lifted up her
shirt and looked at Carina who had her eyes closed. Maya leaned in and kissed Carina’s lips
softly and the Italian returned the kiss.

“I won’t hurt you.” Maya whispered and she lifted her shirt further and moved her face
towards Carina’s abdomen and she gently started to kiss the scar along the woman's tan,
toned stomach and her hand rested on the Carina’s hip, her lips gently kissing the scar, Carina
let out a soft moan and she held her eyes closed, her body was tense but the more Maya
kissed her stomach the more she could feel her body relax. Once Maya was satisfied, she
pulled away and she smiled at Carina who was slowly opening her eyes.

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As Maya arrived, everyone was rushing the woman into the trauma room she was
unresponsive, cpr was being performed, Carina arrived shortly after Maya and was pushed
into the trauma room beside Maya, all she could hear was the commotion of the trauma next
door, shouting, blood, beeping, so much talking. Was it her room? Or Maya’s.

Maya was finally out of surgery and Carina was in a wheelchair beside Maya’s bed, she
watched the blonde sleep and breathe but the next minute she was crashing, everyone was
rushing in, and Carina tried to stand up, but Natalie made her stay seated.

“Come on, we can’t be in here.” Natalie tried to pull the wheelchair out and Carina refused
to let her.

“No! Maya!” Cariana shouted.

“Get Dr. DeLuca out of here!” Hunt shouted and began compressions; Meredith was beside
Maya and Andrew grabbed the wheelchair from Natalie and forced his sister out of the room.
The brunette watched as Maya coded, she counted how long it took them to bring her back.

Four minutes. It took four minutes to make her heart start pumping again.

A few hours went by and Maya coded again, Carina counted again, another four minutes.
Maya had to survive; Carina needed her. Natalie sat by Carina’s side, and she helped Carina
when Andrew couldn’t. The Italian couldn’t understand why this woman was so helpful or
why she was trying, but it was nice to have some company. Andy came and checked on both
Carina and Maya when she could, as well as Vic.

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 Maya was now kissing along Carina’s neck and the Italian had her head back and she
caressed through Maya’s hair, moaning. They were more intimate and it was driving both of
them nuts. The blonde pulled away from Carina and she smiled.

“Can we go take a vacation somewhere?” Maya whispered, looking into Carina’s brown
eyes.

“Like where?” Carina asked, chuckling.

“Anywhere, let’s just go away for a weekend.” Maya shrugged.

“Okay, tell me when.” Carina said, kissing the blonde softly. “I am off at the end of the month
for a weekend, maybe we can plan something for then?” She suggested, taking off her shorts
and helping Maya with the covers, both laid together, limbs tangled up.

“I think we should go to the beach, maybe Hawaii?” Maya shrugged. “Or Bahama’s?” Maya
laughed. “Anywhere with water.” The blonde shrugged and snuggled further into Carina.

“We will decide where to go later, let’s get some sleep.” Carina whispered and kissed Maya’s
lips softly, both women fell into a deep sleep.

Chapter End Notes

As promised, here is another chapter. I hope you enjoyed this one and got some
questions answered. I can see everyone is annoyed with Maya visiting Natalie but it is
explained. :') and the reasoning behind why Maya did it was only for Carina. It is always
for Carina. I always enjoy your feedback so please, keep letting me know your thoughts!
(:
 If I Ain't Got You
Chapter Notes
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The pair has finally decided where they wanted to go for vacation, they chose the Caribbeans,
it was a small resort on the water, they would have their own private building right on the
water. It was going to be the perfect getaway. Maya, of course over packed for the both of
them. They decided to take a long weekend vacation. Thursday-Monday. It felt needed.

“Carina, come on we are going to be late.” Maya whined, standing against the doorframe of
the bathroom, watching as Carina curled up more under the covers, it was 4 am. The blonde
huffed and walked back into the bathroom and finished brushing her teeth, once she was done
and cleaning off her toothbrush under the water, she felt a pair of arms come up behind her.

“I’m awake.” Carina whispered, tightening her arms around Maya and kissing along her
neck. “Bambina... It is too early.” The Italian groaned and looked at the blonde through the
mirror.

“It’ll be so worth it once we get to our hotel.” Maya chuckled and looked at Carina through
the mirror and found her girlfriend in only underwear and a bra. “Babe, get dressed. I will
meet you at the car. I’m going to load our bags.” Maya said, turning around and gently
offering her girlfriend a kiss. It was quick, it had to be or they would really be late to the
airport.

Carina nodded and walked into the closet, Maya walked into the living room and gathered the
suitcases and started to take them down the stairs to the car, she loaded the trunk and grabbed
Carina’s pillow and her own, as well as two throw blankets for the plane ride. Maya then shut
the trunk and she walked back into the apartment and started to make coffee for her cranky
Italian.

Carina found a pair of jeans and a simple red t-shirt, she slipped that on and put on a pair of
white sneakers, she found a light sweater and then brushed her teeth, placed all her toiletries
in a bag and placed it in her purse. She then dabbed herself with perfume and slid that in her
purse as well, she smelled coffee and smiled, she grabbed her purse and walked out to the
kitchen to find the blonde pouring coffee in a to-go coffee cup. Once completed, Maya turned
around and smiled.
“You look beautiful, babe.” Maya said softly and leaned in, kissing Carina. This time more
deeply, it made the brunette moan, and she placed both hands on Maya’s cheek and kissed her
deeply. Maya sighed contentedly into the kiss and slowly pulled away. “Come on.” Maya
handed Carina her coffee mug and made sure they had everything, she grabbed her backpack
and smoothie and they both headed out of the door and locked it.

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Luckily for Maya’s sake the pair made it to the airport on time, checked bags in and also
stopped at a shop in the airport and got a drink and then they went to the gate and loaded onto
the plane. Maya sat by the window and Carina sat beside her, they both buckled and set up
their blankets.

“Bambina, are you sure you don’t want to switch me sides?” Carina asked, chuckling as she
watched Maya’s leg bounce up and down.

“What? No. I’m good.” Maya continued to stare out the window, the plane hasn’t even
moved yet and Maya was already anxious.

“Maybe I could try and make you feel better.” Carina whispered, sliding her hand up Maya’s
leg under the blanket, and the blonde almost jumped, her eyes went wide.

“Carina DeLuca...” Maya laughed nervously and looked around and then stopped Carina’s
hand from going up any further.

“What? I am just trying to distract you, or help you relax.” Carina whispered into Maya’s ear,
nibbling on her earlobe.

“Mmh.” Maya hummed and closed her eyes.

“I can make you cum before this plane even takes off.” Carina whispered again, kissing
behind Maya’s ear and she watched the blonde’s body shiver.

“Make me cum as we take off.” Maya said, looking at Carina and watched her girlfriend’s
eyes go a shade darker. To make Maya more turned on, Carina started to kiss along the
woman's neck, resting her head enough to make it look like they were relaxing.

“I want to feel how wet you get for me.” Carina said softly, her hand resting on Maya’s leg.
“Tell me how good I make you feel.” The blonde looked over at Carina and their eyes met,
both full of lust.

“You make me feel like I’m on cloud 9, Carina.” Maya said, biting her lip. The crew
announced that the doors would be closing, so Carina took her hand and slid it down Maya’s
pants, noticing she was not wearing underwear under her sweatpants, it made Carina instantly
wet.

“No panties?” Carina asked, rubbing the blonde’s clit in slow circles, watching the
demonstration of safety from the flight attendants.

“No, I imagined you doing this to me.” Maya whispered against Carina’s ear this time and
kissed along her neck. “Fuck me, Carina. We only have a few minutes.” Maya said sternly
and her hand slid up Carina’s free arm and into her hair and she grabbed a fist full of her hair
and pulled it back slightly and it took everything in Carina to not moan, the brunette adjusted
her hand and found Maya soaking wet, she slid two fingers inside of the blonde and started to
gently thrust, she wanted to wait until the lights went off to speed up. Maya gripped Carina’s
hair with on hand and the arm rest of the plane beside the window, trying to not make it
obvious.

Carina watched Maya and as soon as the cabin went dim, Carina sped her fingers up, moving
them at an angle where her palm hit Maya’s clit just right. It was already making the blonde
squirm.

“You fuck me so good.” Maya whispered, opening her legs wider and Carina hit the blonde's
clit faster and her fingers made a come here motion inside of the woman's wet cunt.
“Only I get to fuck you.” Carina said softly and she felt the plane stop, she knew they were
about to take off. “Tell me what you need.” Carina looked at Maya and their eyes locked, her
fingers moving at a fast pace, Carina rubbed her clit as her fingers went in and Maya was
squirming a little more. “So so wet my love.” Carina whispered and she started to suck on
Maya’s neck roughly and Maya’s hand tightened in her hair.

“Oh just like that.” Maya tried not to moan, but her hips started to slightly lift off of the seat,
she was so close, and Carina was sucking on her neck hard enough to leave a mark and it
made Maya a fucking puddle. “Oh baby.” Maya whispered, putting her hand on top of
Carina’s and the blonde moved her fingers in a come here motion again, fully emerged in her
wet pussy and Carina changed angle of her mouth and sucked on the front of Maya’s neck
and the blonde closed her eyes, the plane sped up and suddenly her entire body tensed,
wetness flowed out of her cunt onto Carina’s fingers. It took everything in Maya to not moan,
so she bit her lip. Carina continued to move her fingers until she knew Maya came down then
she slowly slid her fingers out and licked them clean.

“Enough distraction?” Carina asked, watching as her lover was panting and her body was
becoming more relaxed. The blonde nodded and opened her eyes, looking at the loving
brown ones in front of her. “And now we are in the air.” Carina smiled and kissed Maya
softly and then she relaxed in her own seat, her hand holding onto Maya’s. The blonde rested
her head against Carina’s arm and the brunette pulled out a book and started to read while
Maya fell asleep.

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After a very long flight on Wednesday night, the pair got off the plane, grabbed their bags
from baggage claim and got a taxi to the hotel. They checked into their resort and gathered all
their bags and made their way to the room.

“I’m exhausted, but so hungry.” Carina said, her lips pouty as they pair walked along the
walkway towards their own little resort hut.

“Let’s go get settled in and we can order some food.” Maya leaned in and kissed Carina’s
pouty lips softly.
“Mmh, cuddles, food and movies. Perfect.” Carina whispered and stopped behind Maya at
the door. “Bambina, go in. Silly.” Carina laughed as Maya put her ear to the door.

“I just want to make sure.” Maya listed and then she unlocked the door and allowed Carina to
go in first, they hut was surrounded by beautiful blue water, the moon shined on it perfectly
and created enough light. The Italian turned on the lamp and walked inside. There was a
couch, a smaller kitchen, a big flat screen tv, open windows in the living area and then
towards the right was two double doors, Carina slid her bags to the side by the door and
walked over to the double doors and smiled.

“Car...” Maya looked down at the bags and watched as her beautiful girlfriend walked
towards the double doors. So Maya chuckled and rolled both hers and Carina’s suitcases
towards the room. Once the door opened there was a king size bed, dimmed lights along the
ceiling, a tv, a chair in the corner, a big window outlooking the water. It was perfect. Then
there was the master bathroom that had a big jacuzzi and a single shower and two sinks.

“This is perfect!” Carina said with excitement, and she wrapped her arms around Maya.
“Thank you for planning this trip, Bambina.” The brunette smiled and then leaned in and
kissed the blonde softly. Maya chuckled and wrapped her one free arm around the woman in
front of her and she kissed her back.

“Let’s get settled.” Maya said softly and slid the suitcases in the corner, those could wait to
be unpacked tomorrow, Maya was in the middle of grabbing a pair of shorts and a t-shirt and
she heard Carina groan behind her when the blonde turned around, she found Carina fixing a
bralette from a lingerie set, it was maroon, red, it complimented her skin tone well and Maya
always found Carina attractive in red. Or any color for that matter.

“I thought you were hungry.” Maya said, biting her lip as she eyed the woman standing at the
foot of the bed.

“Oh I am, but first I want you.” Carina chuckled and she walked over to Maya and started to
undress her.

“Hmm, I need to return the favor from earlier.” Maya hummed as she felt Carina’s hands
graze against her skin.
“Oh, you will. We have all night.” Carina chuckled and Maya was now just in panties, the
brunette leaned down and started to kiss along Maya’s chest, her lips lingering on her skin,
she could feel Maya’s body getting warm. “You are so beautiful, Maya.” Carina said softly
and looked up at the blonde who was now almost red, smiling.

“I..” Maya sighed softly and she leaned in and kissed Carina’s soft lips, moaning at the
feeling.

“Say it.” Carina whispered, kissing Maya back and then pulling away and learning down and
taking one of Maya’s hardened nipples into her mouth.

“Oh fuck!” Maya gasped and slightly tilted her head back, luckily the window seal was
behind her, so her hands went back and she gripped onto it, moaning as Carina’s tongue
rolled in circles around her sensitive nub. “I want you.” Maya whimpered. Carina gently bit
down on the blonde’s nipple and tugged, she heard the blonde moan louder and Carina knew
she did just right.

“Mmmh, I love when you get loud for me.” Carina smirked and then did the same thing to
the other nipple, licking and tugging. From the corner of Carina’s eye she saw the blonde’s
hand move to her nipple that didn’t have attention and she flicked at it and pulled; Carina
tugged on the nub in her teeth the same time Maya pulled with her fingers.

“Fuck, fuck.” Maya panted out, arching her back. “Carina.” Maya whimpered. The brunette
moved her lips away from Maya’s breast and she shoved Maya’s hand down and she looked
into the pair of blue eyes, her fingers grazing along the blonde’s skin, causing goosebumps to
rise. Once both of her hands made it to Maya’s breasts, she started to massage them, their
eyes locked.

“So sexy.” Carina whispered and she took both nipples between her fingers, and she pulled at
them, causing Maya’s head to full go back and a moan leave her mouth. It was only turning
Carina on more. “Are you wet?” Carina asked, loosening her grip on the nipples.

“Yes.” Maya whimpered. She felt Carina tug at her nipples again. “Mmh, baby.” Maya
moaned.
“You’re so hot, whimpering.” Carina whispered, licking up Maya’s creamy neck and then
sucking on her skin, purposefully leaving marks.

“Fuck me.” Maya whispered softly. Carina smirked, she could hear what Maya said but she
wanted her to be louder, so Carina pulled her lips away from Maya’s neck and she smacked
her breast, causing Maya’s legs to tremble.

“Louder.” Carina demanded, pinching her nipples one at a time.

“Fuck me.” Maya moaned out, rubbing both of her thighs together.

“Mmmh, turned on?” Carina chuckled and slapped at her breast again.

“Ah, more.” Maya groaned and she stood up straighter. “I am so horny right now and I’m
about to explode. Fuck me or I fuck myself.” Maya demanded, grabbing Carina’s wrist and
pulled them away and down to her sides.

“So demanding.” Carina shook her head and clicked her tongue.

“Punish me then.” Maya groaned and felt Carina try to move her hands.

“Turn around.” Carina demanded in a stern tone, Maya gulped, and she slowly turned around.
“Bend down, hold on to the wall. I will tell you when to stop.” Carina said, pushing on
Maya’s back. So the blonde listened, and she started to bed down her hands sliding down the
wall, once she was halfway down and her ass was sticking out, Carina stopped her and the
blonde bit her lip. There was nothing to grip on and she knew that if she moved, Carina
would punish her more.

“I love it when you surrender to me.” Carina whispered and she ran her hands over Maya’s
ass cheeks. “I’ve always admired your ass.” The brunette chuckled and she leaned over
Maya’s back and she kissed along the woman's spine, gently biting at her skin. She could
hear Maya’s breaths getting heavier. Suddenly, Carina slapped both of Maya’s ass cheeks and
it caused the blonde to let out a moan and her hand hit the wall. Carina smirked and she
slapped both cheeks again.

“Fuck.” Maya moaned out. “Signora.” Maya whimpered out and suddenly she felt Carina’s
fingers pushing against her covered cunt, moving in rapid circles against Maya’s clit. “Oh!
Carina.” Maya groaned, her nails scratching at the wall.

“I love when you speak Italian to me.” Carina whispered, pulling at Maya’s hair and moving
her fingers against the woman’s clit faster. “I can feel you soaking your panties.” Carina
chuckled and it was the sexiest thing Maya has heard.

“Ah ah, Signorina, metti le tue dita dentro di me. (Miss, put your fingers inside of me.)”
Maya whimpered out and suddenly she felt Carina move away and that was a moment for
Maya to catch her breath, but before she could she felt Carina come back up behind her and
her hand against her cheek, smacking it. It caught Maya off guard, and she pressed her face
against the wall, moaning. “Please, baby. Please. Fuck me. I’m so wet for you.” Maya
whimpered out, and Carina hit her ass again and then moved away and Maya breathed for a
moment and she turned around to face Carina.

“Mmmh. You look so hot.” Carina chuckled and she walked towards Maya and slid the
womans panties down and then helping Maya walk to the bed. “I want to taste you.” Carina
said softly and she gently pushed Maya down on the edge of the bed and Carina got down on
her knees in front of Maya and she started to kiss along the womans thigh, her eyes looking
up at the blonde.

“You’re so beautiful.” Maya whispered, watching Carina as she kissed along her skin.

“Mmmh, you smell amazing.” Carina groaned and she leaned forward and run her tongue up
the woman’s slit and then back down, she repeated that motion and moaned.

“Fuck.” Maya whimpered and opened her legs wider and ran her fingers through Carina’s
hair. The brunette then rolled her tongue along the swollen nub, causing Maya to whimper,
her body felt like it was on fire the way that Carina was pleasuring her. She felt the Italian
flicking at her clit in a fast motion. Maya gripped onto Carina’s hair and gasped at the
feeling, her back arching.
Carina then moved her tongue down and slid it inside, tasting the wetness that coated her
lover's cunt, it tasted like heaven and all Carina wanted to do was devour Maya and it was
addicting. She could hear the blonde moaning loudly over and over again. Her wetness
coating her chin and her nose, but she knew Maya was close, the way her thighs were
trembling, and Carina wasn’t ready for her to cum, so she pulled away, causing Maya to
groan in disappointment.

“Baby, I was so close.” Maya whined, looking down at the brunette who was sitting on the
back of her legs, wetness coated on her face.

“I want to feel you cum against my fingers.” Carina whispered and she got back on her knees
and she immediately put two fingers inside of Maya and moving them in and out at a slow
pace, watching her fingers come out and coated in Maya’s juices. It was turning Carina on,
watching the way she could pleasure Maya.

“Oh baby..” Maya whimpered out and opened her legs wider. “Please.” she moaned out.

“Mmmh, you want to cum?” Carina asked, speeding her fingers up, watching as Maya’s
mouth gaped open and no sound coming out. “Answer me, Bambina.” Carina stopped her
fingers and Maya’s legs were trembling again.

“Yes, yes, yes. Make me cum, Carina!” Maya moaned and she felt the womans fingers going
faster and her palm hitting her clit over and over again. The only sound in the room was the
wetness of Maya’s pussy and Carina’s heavy breathing. Carina swore she was close the way
she was throbbing. The panties to the lengerie set were ruined. “Fuck fuck fuck. You feel so
good.” Maya whimpered, clenching her walls against the womans fingers, causing Carina to
hit the right spot over and over again.

“Hmm, cum for me, Maya.” Carina demanded, moving her fingers as fast as she could, and
Maya could feel her stomach tighten and then her legs shook and white heat escaped her
body, she heard the blonde scream her name and Carina could have sworn she had an orgasm
as well. Her pussy was throbbing, and her legs trembled with Maya’s. The brunette fingered
Maya until she rode out her orgasm and then she slowly pulled her fingers out and moved
them to her mouth and licked them clean one by one.
Maya collapsed back on the bed, her legs still spread open, her thighs coated in wetness and
all she could do was pant. Carina slowly stood up and she grabbed the bed because she was
wobbly, she laid beside Maya and gently kissed along her jaw. Maya smiled and she looked
over at Carina, kissing her lover deeply.

“Let me return the favor.” Maya whispered and she ran her fingers up Carina’s thigh and
noticed they were wet. “Did– did you cum?” Maya asked with a smirk and Carina nodded,
biting her lip. “Pleasuring you is so hot and I just couldn’t hold it in anymore. I was
throbbing.” Carina chuckled and she leaned up and kissed Maya softly. “But… I do want
your tongue in me.” Carina whispered. “So, please, get down and taste me.” The brunette
scooted up on the bed and Maya got in between Carina’s legs and tasted her lover until she
was thrown into ecstasy, two orgasms. Carina made Maya cum one more time and then the
pair got out of bed and Maya started a bath, Carina pulled the bigger comforter off the bed
and set it down in the corner, luckily there was a lighter blanket on the bed since the
comforter was most likely ruined. Once the bath was warm the pair took their bath and
relaxed, Maya ordered them food and they turned on a movie and relaxed in bed for the rest
of the night.

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The next day the couple spent their day out in the water and in the sun, they drank a few
drinks and decided to go out for dinner, once they got back to the resort the pair made love
once again into the early hours and they fell asleep again. The second day of vacation, Maya
noticed her phone kept ringing, it was Natalie, so Maya silenced her calls and she focused on
Carina.

“Babe, I’ll be back, I’m going to grab more lotion.” Maya said, leaning down and kissing the
brunette. Maya walked through the door of their resort, and she grabbed the tanning lotion
and she noticed a picture was sent by Natalie. Maybe it was a question that the station
couldn’t find the answer to, so Maya opened the message and it was not a work related
anything, it was a picture of Natalie in lingerie and the caption was ‘thinking about you. I
miss you’ and Maya immediately closed her phone and set it down. Carina is going to flip on
her. She needs to tell her. The blonde sighed and she went to walk out the door but Carina
came in.

“I am actually exhausted, Bambina. Can we take a nap?” Carina asked, locking the door and
closing the shades of the window.
“Y-yeah.” Maya nodded and she set the lotion down, Carina started to take her bikini off and
walking towards the bathroom, naked. Her naked girlfriend was with her. Maya looked at
Carina and she followed the brunette into the bathroom and stopped Carina and leaned in to
kiss her lover. Carina chuckled and kissed Maya back.

“Are we sleeping naked?” Carina asked, hanging her wet bikini along the tub to allow it to
dry.

“Yeah.” Maya responded and got undressed as well and hung her one piece next to Carina’s.

“What’s wrong, Bambina?” Carina asked, walking back to the bedroom.

“Nothing, I think the sun got to me.” Maya chuckled and she climbed into bed next to Carina,
curling up to the Italian. Maya was never the one to be cuddled, she usually was big spoon,
but for some reason she needed the comfort of Carina. They turned on the tv and watched a
show until Carina fell asleep, Maya laid there, her mind racing. Why did Natalie message her
this? Was it meant for someone else? Surely it was for someone else and she clicked the
wrong contact.

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The last day of vacation, Maya and Carina decided to spend the day inside and go to the
water at night, so they made use of their day and have multiple orgasms, eating and watching
movies. Maya hadn’t gotten another message from Natalie which eased her mind, she still
had to tell Carina. Or she could just delete it and never speak of it again? Carina fell asleep
and Maya decided to delete that message, so Maya opened her phone and deleted Natalie’s
message, and she curled up to Carina and fell asleep. The night came and the couple went to
the water and swam and made out against the pole holding their hut up. Once the sunrise was
starting, the pair decided to go back inside. They had to pack and get to the airport, so Maya
made sure everything was ready to go and they gathered their things and went to the airport
and flew back home.

Once they got to the airport in Seattle, Maya went to the bathroom and Carina went to weight
for their suitcases, but as Maya walked out of the bathroom, she found a woman resting her
hand on the small of Carina’s back and they were laughing, this woman was too close to
Carina, so Maya made her way over and she came up beside the woman. “Hi.” Maya smiled
and looked over at Carina who was holding both handles of the suitcase.

“Oh, Maya this is Kaci, she actually is starting at the hospital tomorrow for my rotations.”
Carian smiled and she looked over at the blonde who had a tight smile.

“Hi, I’m Maya. Nice to meet you.” Maya shook the woman’s hand and then she wrapped her
arm around Carina. The dark-haired woman noticed, and she nodded.

“Nice to meet you too, Maya. I should get going. Carina I will see you tomorrow.” Kaci
grabbed her suitcase handled and walked away, Maya slid her hand away and grabbed her
own suitcase and started to walk. Carina rolled her eyes and followed the blonde to the car.
Maya loaded the suitcases and Carina got in the passenger seat. The ride home was quiet, the
pair held hands and they drove home. Once they got back to Maya’s place, Carina unloaded
the bags from the car, Maya helped with the smaller bags and they went inside.

“Are.. are you mad?” Carina asked, shutting the bedroom door.

“No.” Maya answered and put all the clothes from their trip in the laundry basket.

“You won’t look at me.” Carina whispered, sitting on the bed. Maya turned and looked at the
brunette and then walked away and started laundry.

“I’m not mad. You made a friend.” Maya shrugged as she shut the bedroom door again.

“But you are.” Carina argued, suddenly Maya was standing in front of her and the brunette
looked up at the pair of blue eyes, she knew this look. It was look Maya got when she was
done talking, but Carina wasn’t. “Tell me what you feel.” Carina whispered, taking off
Maya’s shirt. “Tell me.” Carina repeated. “I’ll make you feel better.” She took off her own
shirt.

“I hated the way her arm was on your back.” Maya whispered, closing her eyes as she felt
Carina’s lips on her skin. “I know it’s silly, but Carina.” Maya whimpered. “I love you.” The
blonde leaned back and she captured Carina’s lips.
 “I love you too.” Carina whispered and she grabbed Maya’s hands. “We need sleep.” Maya
agreed and the pair laid down in bed and fell asleep in each other's arms.

Chapter End Notes

I know I have been not posting as much. I have some personal things going on with my
health, but I am semi-back, and I will be posting when I can. I am currently working on
the other story as well! I hope you enjoyed this chapter. As always, I appreciate your
comments and love for this story. I have some more ideas to create some angst between
the couple. What do you all think? Would you enjoy that?
 It's Not Over
Chapter Notes
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A week has gone by since the vacation, a week of Maya being on edge. She needed to tell
Carina about the picture Natalie sent. She has been avoiding Natalie as much as possible and
Carina is now starting to ask questions. Maya finished out the workday and she was getting
ready to leave when Natalie knocked on her office door.

“Yeah.” Maya called out and finished packing her bag, when she saw the dark-haired woman
enter, the blonde quickly stood up straighter.

“Can I help you with something?”

“Mai, you’ve avoided me all week. I’m sorry I sent that picture. It truly was meant for
someone else.” Natalie shrugged and Maya looked at her and sighed.

“Yeah, I don’t think it was, because you have to click my name to text me, Natalie.” Maya
snapped and she put her backpack on her back.

“Well, I’m sure it was a better view than you’ve seen in a while.” Natalie smirked.

“I didn’t even look at it.” Maya shrugged. “I love my girlfriend, so please. Stop.” Maya
gathered her other bag and she started to walk out and Natalie grabbed Maya’s arm to stop
her.

“I hate seeing you with her.” Natalie whispered. Maya pulled her arm away.

“You had your chance, Natalie. I’m with Carina and she makes me happy.” Maya walked out
of her office and into the parking lot, she found Carina standing against her car in a pair of
white slacks and a black button up shirt that was tucked in. Gosh, she was breathtaking.
Maya smiled to herself and walked over to her car, she wrapped her arm around Carina and
kissed her softly.

“Hmm, I have missed you.” Maya whispered against Carina’s lips.

“I’ve missed you too, Bambina.” Carina kissed her again and then saw Natalie coming up to
them.

“Oh fuck.” Maya muttered under her breath and before Carina could ask what Maya said the
brunette approached them.

“Captain Bishop, Dr. DeLuca..” Natalie smiled. Maya rolled her eyes and Carina smiled a
little. “I hope you too have a very lovely evening. I’ll see you tomorrow, Maya.” Natalie
smiled and she walked away from the pair. Carina raised an eyebrow at her and she looked
over at Maya who had the most irritated look on her face.

“Maya.” Carina whispered but before Carina could kiss her girlfriend again Maya was now
almost in tears.

“She sent me a picture while we were on vacation and I ignored it and she said it was meant
for someone else and I deleted it. I didn’t want to ruin our vacation and I should have told
you sooner.” Maya blurted out and then took a deep breath in and let it out. Carina dropped
her hand from Maya’s side and she pulled away to put distance between her and the blonde.

“What?” Carina asked, scuffing. “Just great.” Carina walked to her car door and Maya
dropped her bags and quickly walked over to Carian to stop her.

“Please.” Maya was almost in tears. “I meant to tell you.”

“Did you, Maya? Because it doesn’t feel like it. You hid it for a week! Maya, if you would
have just told me when it happened I probably wouldn’t be as pissed at you. But I am mad.”
The Italian opened her car door and Maya slammed it shut. “You don’t get to just stop me
from leaving.” Carina looked at the blonde and then to the floor. “It makes me think you have
feelings or are hiding whatever it is.” Carina shrugged. “How do I know you want me and
only just me, Maya.” The Italian opened her door and then got in, she started her car and
Maya sighed and grabbed her bags and got into her car. Hard thing is, Carina was right, Maya
should have told her that night. So Carina went to her own apartment and Maya went to hers,
the pair both cried themselves to sleep that night.

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One week later:

Carina was working so much, she barely even thought about texting Maya back. The brunette
was still upset with her and hurt, Maya was trying to reach out and even was sending things
to her job with notes. They avoided each other when Maya brought patients in. Were they
over? Maybe they were, maybe Maya wanted to be with Natalie and that is what she has been
doing.

Maya was miserable, she couldn’t lash out on Natalie for no reason, so she just made her
have desk duty for the last week, she avoided the common area where she would run into this
woman and she went about her business. Carina refused to answer any texts for phone calls
from Maya and that was making her upset. Another week went by without them talking.

Maya: Car, please talk to me. Tuesday March 3rd 9:50 pm

Read at: 9:55 pm

Maya: Please, I miss you. Saturday March 7th 3:00 pm

Read at 10:30 pm

Maya: Carina I am so sorry. Saturday March 14th 4:30pm

Read at 4:31
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Eventually Maya gave up on the texting it was only hurting her more when Carina didn’t
answer. So Maya decided to just believe that she had moved on. In fact when she came into
the bar there was Carina with Arizona and Amelia. Maya shook her head and Andy walked in
and looked over, Maya bit her lip and then she decided to just sit at the bar instead of a table.
The rest of the station was messing around and playing darts and pool, Maya sat there and
then she felt someone sit beside her. She hoped it was Carina but it wasn’t. It was a younger
blonde, she ordered a whiskey and Maya tilted her head and then looked over at Carina who
was touching Arizona’s arm and laughing. Maya scuffed and downed more whiskey. She was
taking shot after shot until she couldn’t feel anymore and just as Carina was getting up with
Arizona, Maya decided to stroll on over.

“Oh, Carina. You should come by and let me show you that.” Arizona said with a laugh and
Maya laughed as well.

“Yeah, Carina you should really go and look at what Arizona is trying to show you.” Maya
smirked and she was unsteady. “You know… now I know why you never answered my texts.
You just decided to put your feelings to the side and screw someone else.” Maya shook her
head.

“Wow, Maya. Get a hold of yourself.” Carina shook her head.

“We will meet you in the car, Carina.” Amelia grabbed Arizona and they both walked out.

“Does she fuck you good, Carina?” Maya asked, her words slurring.

“No, because I can’t fuck anyone else, Maya. All I think about is you.” Carina looked away.

“Well, stop thinking about me. You decided to dip out.” Maya shook her head. “You just
thought I fucking cheated on you or had feelings for someone else and I’m so fucking in love
with you, Carina it makes me so sick.” Maya stumbled closer to the Italian.

“Maya, you need to go home.” Carina whispered. “Please, go.”

“Come with me.” Maya whispered.

“I can’t… everytime I look at you it hurts and I wonder if– if you are getting a naked picture
of someone or thinking about someone else when I touch you. I know you had good
intentions with that but I can’t help but to wonder.” Carina now had tears in her eyes and it
made Maya’s eyes water too.

“Please, baby. I didn’t mean it.” Maya sniffled and she looked around

“I’m sorry, Maya.” Carina said softly and she walked away from the drunk blonde. Andy
walked out of the bathroom to find her best friend standing at the table Carina was at. So the
Latina walked over and sighed.

“Come on, Mai, lets get you home.” Andy dragged Maya out of the bar and to the car. She
helped Maya inside and then got her into bed, she plugged in the blondes phone and then she
shut the door and walked to the couch and laid down until she heard a knock. So Andy got
off the couch and went to the door to find Carina standing there.

“What are you doing here?” Andy asked in her irritated voice.

“Let me talk to her, please.” Carina said softly.

“Carina she is out of it… she is drunk and probably will say stuff, come by in the morning?”
Andy offered.

“Andy, please.” Carina begged with a soft sniffle. Andy watched Carina and she moved out
of the way and Carina walked inside and she went straight into Maya’s room, finding the
blonde sitting on the edge of her bed. The Italian shut the door slowly and Maya looked up
and she blinked a few times, there was a dim light in the corner of the room and she couldn’t
quiet make out who it was.
“Carina?” Maya asked out of hope.

“Hi, Maya.” Carina said softly and she walked over to Maya and sat beside her.

“What are you doing here?” Maya asked, sounding frustrated.

“I just need you.” Carina whispered and she looked at the blonde who was hunched over.

“I– um, I.” Maya quickly got up and walked to the bathroom and shut the door, throwing up.
Carina sighed and she got up from the bed and knocked on the door when there wasn’t an
answer, Carina opened the door. Maya was sitting on the floor, leaning against the wall.

“Maya.” Carina whispered and she walked over to the blonde who was holding her hair.

“Carina, please. I don’t want you to see my like this.” Maya said softly and Carina slowly sat
down and she moved Maya’s hair out of face and put it in a pony tail, Maya got sick a few
more times and finally stood up and brushed her teeth, Carina leaned against the door frame
and waited for Maya to finish.

“Let’s talk in the morning.” Carina whispered and she took off her pants and Maya nodded
lightly and she walked back over to the bed, she moved the pillows around so that Carina
would have her own pillows, Maya then adjusted the covers.

“You know where the t-shirts are if you need one.” Maya said softly and she crawled back
into bed. The brunette nodded and she walked over to the drawer and got out a t-shirt and she
took off her shirt and her bra and she put one of Maya’s shirts on and she got in on the other
side of the bed and under the covers, she wished she could hold Maya but she was also trying
to offer the blonde the space she needed. So Carina got herself comfortable and then she felt
the bed shift and then Maya was tangling her legs with Carina’s and she was facing the
Italian. “I’m still mad that you left me, but I love being so close to you.” Maya whispered.
Carina smiled a little and she tangled her legs between Maya’s and the pair fell asleep.
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Carina woke up the next morning and felt Maya almost on top of her and it made Carina’s
heart swoon. She gently started to play with the blonde locks that were still in a now messy
pony tail, her light snores were soothing. How could she ever leave this woman behind?
Maya did truly make her happy and she understands Maya’s inventions most of the time, but
Carina still wasn’t happy that she just deleted the picture instead of informing her the night it
happened. The Italian didn’t feel she was out of line with that.

The blonde was now stirring awake, she opened one eye and then she sat up immediately and
was panting.

“Bambina, what is it?” Carina asked, reaching for Maya’s hand.

“I- I’m sorry.” Maya whispered, she was still breathing heavy and she moved loose hairs
away from her face. “I umm. When did you come in?” Maya asked, looking around and
found Carina’s clothes on the floor. “Did we- uh- did we? Did I bring you home. Oh geez.”
Maya was now trying to get off the bed but Carina stopped her.

“Maya, breathe.” Carina said softly. “Breathe.” The Italian sat up and she looked at Maya
who was now trying to focus on her breathing to calm herself down. “I came here last night
and we just slept. Nothing more.” Carina assured her inner thoughts that she knew Maya was
having.

“I, okay, uh, I.” Maya paused. “That’s good.” The blonde slowly got off the bed and she felt
the room spin a little. “I’m going to uh, g-go take a s-shower.” She was biting at her lip and
Carina got out bed in only a t-shirt and underwear and Maya gasped at the sight.

“Ca-.” Carina looked away, almost shyly. “Can I join you?” Carina asked, unsure if she even
had the right to ask anymore.

“Yeah.” Maya nodded, her blue eyes big and she had a small smile and the Italian nodded and
followed Maya into the bathroom, she shut the door and started to undress herself and then
she looked over at Carina who had just finished starting the water. “I um.. Correct me if I am
wrong, Carina. I thought we were fighting.” Maya pointed out as she finished sliding her bra
down her arms.

“We were.. And now we aren’t.” Carina shrugged and she got undressed. Maya let out a
small chuckle and she grabbed Carina’s hands and walked towards the shower, the pair got in
together and Maya immediately pushed Carina against the shower wall, pinning her hands
above her head, she kissed along the tan neck in front of her that tasted like coconuts and
mango’s, addicting. Maya rolled her tongue against Carina’s pulse, moaning against her skin
and she then moved to Carina’s ear and nibbled on the woman’s lobe.

“There is no one that can compare to you, Carina. No one in this world that makes me feel so
alive and can make me throb just by a look. When I tell you I don’t want anyone else I mean
it.” Maya whispered, nibbling on her lover's lobe again and Carina’s breath was becoming
more ragged. “You are what I need, my body needs you, my lips need you, I just need you
everywhere, Carina. I’ll be damned if I ruin what we have built or trying to build.” Maya then
moved her lips back down to Carina’s neck and she felt Carina move her head to the side.
The blonde took the message and she sucked on the woman’s skin, her eyes closing and her
tongue moving in circles.

“Maya.” Carina moaned, she tried to break her hands free but Maya’s strength was strong and
she pinned Carina’s hands harder to the wall of the shower which only turned Carina on
more. “I’m so in love with you, Bambina. Everything about you. Your emotions, your heart,
the way your eyes sparkle when you look at me, the way your body craves me and the way
your head works, the way you think, the small smirk you get when we are in public and you
look at me, or the way your smile comes to life when you are watching your favorite show.
Maya I’m in love with you and I want to keep loving you.” Carina groaned as Maya marked
her breasts, the brunette could feel her nipples harden and every time Maya brushed her own
breasts against Carina it made the Italian tingle.

Maya looked at Carina and that was the moment Carina felt Maya’s hands loosen and she
quickly turned them around and she pinned Maya’s front to the wall and she slapped her ass
cheeks roughly. Maya let out a loud moan and she stuck her ass out more, Carina watched her
and she smacked the blonde again and then she pinned Maya completely against the wall, her
body hovering over Maya’s.

“Tell me how much you want me, Maya.” Carina whispered, pulling at the blonde’s locks,
causing Maya to gasp.
“Fuck, Carina I want you.” Maya said in between breaths. “I need you.” Maya whispered and
she felt Carina kissing along her back and her body felt like it was on fire. “Please baby.”
Maya whimpered and Carina smacked at her ass again.

“I love hearing you beg for me.” Carina whispered against Maya’s white creamy skin, her
mouth moving down Maya’s back and then she got on her knees and she started to nip at
Maya’s cheek, it caused Maya to almost pull away but she moaned. She hasn’t seen this side
of Carina and Maya was already becoming addicting. “Put your hands against the wall, feet
shoulder width apart and stick you ass out.” Carina said, waiting for Maya to do what she
was told. “Good girl.” Carina whispered and she rolled her tongue from her clit all the way to
the crack of her bottom. Maya groaned again and she felt Carina’s tongue once again on her
clit, back and forth, side to side.

“Oh fuck.” Maya moaned as her fingers tried to claw at the wet tile. “Yes, yes just like that.”
Maya whimpered out as her clit was becoming extra senstive and she suddenly felt Carina’s
mouth pulled away and she whined. Carina smirked at the noises Maya was making and she
then palmed at the blonde’s creamy butt cheeks, squeezing and digging her nails into the
womans muscle. The Italian had to admit that one her favorite parts of Maya was her ass and
the way she continued to stick it out, begging for Carina’s attention.

“Such a good girl.” Carina whispered and she smacked the both ass cheeks roughly, Maya
gasped and pressed her cheek against the wall, this woman was going to be the death of her.
Again, Carina smacked her and then suddenly there was two fingers sliding inside of her. “So
wet.” Carina moaned at the feeling of how tight and wet Maya was. And it was all for her, the
Italina continued to push her fingers in and out at a steady pace, her thumb swiping across
Maya’s clit every so often.

“Carina.” Maya whined and she felt Carina’s lips along her shoulder blades moving up her
neck. “Baby.” Maya whimpered again, causing Carina’s fingers to speed up. She knew
exactly what Maya needed to bring her love to ecstasy. “Oh! Yes, just like that.” Maya said in
between breathes, her walls squeezing Carina’s fingers. The Italian started to push faster,
feeling the burning in her wrist and she started to suck at her creamy neck once again, and her
free hand squeezing Maya’s butt cheeks. “Oooo, so close!” Maya moaned out, clawing at the
wet tile, spreading her legs further apart, she felt Carina slid one more finger in and her
thumb was not going in fast circles against her swollen nub and Maya let out a silent scream,
her mouth in the shape of an “o” and her nails digging into what she could of the wall. Her
body trembled and Carina fucked her until her orgasm subsided.
 Maya fucked Carina twice and the pair quickly showered and got out and got ready for the
day. Maya had nothing planned, neither did Carina so they decided to order in and watch
movies for the remainder of the night. Carina rested her head on Maya’s thighs and she
covered herself up and they relaxed, watching funny movies, romantic ones and one scary
one.

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The next few weeks were busy, Carina and Maya spent as much time as they could together,
their schedules were absolutely insane, but every chance they got they made sure to relax.
Natalie eventually left Maya alone and transferred to another station and Maya was now
being offered the battalion chief position for three stations in Seattle. She had to take the
exam so now she spent most of her time studying and Carina helped her when she could.
Andy finally let go of her anger towards Carina for walking away from her best friend and
they all hung out together. One day Carina was pulled into the office for a meeting with the
chief, there was an organization in South America that was in dire need of a obgyn and
pediatric doctor. Bailey decided she wanted to offer it to Carina, Jo and Arizona. Jo was
already the first one to agree and Carina and Arizona wanted more time to think about it.
Now Carina had to figure out how to bring it up to Maya and that she would be gone for nine
months.. How was Maya going to handle it?

Chapter End Notes

Cliffhanger. How do you think Maya is going to react? Do we think they will just go
together? Or will it end their relationship? Stay tuned. I am going to try and update in
the next few days. Thank you for being patient and I always enjoy your feedback :)
 Love You From A Distance
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes

Carina sat in her office for the rest of the day to look over paperwork and figure out what to
do. Surely Maya wouldn’t be upset, Carina was going to communicate with her and she
wasn’t just making a choice by herself. The Italian sighed and decided to call it a night and
go home. So Carina drove back to Maya’s apartment and went inside. When she walked in,
Maya was sitting at the table with her books everywhere and it smelt like food was burning.

“Bambina, were you cooking?” Carina asked as she locked the door behind her and walked
into the kitchen.

“Oh shit!” Maya jumped out of the chair and rushed to the oven and pulled out the pizza, it
was somewhat burnt but it wasn’t terrible. Maya sighed and set the pan down. Carina came
over to the blonde and shut off the oven and grabbed some plates. “I’m sorry.” Maya looked
at the pizza and then to Carina.

“Bambina, it’s fine. You are studying. I appreciate you making dinner.” Carina grabbed the
pizza cutter and cut the pizza, Maya put slices on their plate and walked over to the table,
Carina grabbed glasses and poured water into them and set them down while Maya cleaned
up her books and set them over on the couch.

“How was your day?” Maya asked, walking back to the table and stopped beside Carina’s
chair and she leaned down and kissed Carina on her lips softly and smiled. Carina kissed her
back and then began to eat.

“My day was good, long. I mostly did paperwork, met with the chief and was stuck in my
office.” Carina shrugged and she smiled. “How was your day?” Carina asked, looking at
Maya who was eating her pizza rather quickly.

“Oh? How did your meeting go with the chief?” Maya asked, taking a drink. “My day was
good, I just did a little bit of housework and studied.” The blonde shrugged.
“It went good, I actually wanted to talk to you about something.” Carina took a bite and she
saw Maya look over at her with a smile and she had a little bit of pizza sauce on the corner of
her lip. “Come here.” Carina chuckled and she leaned forward, and Maya met her halfway
and the brunette rolled her tongue along Maya’s lip and got the sauce and then kissed the
blonde.

“Mmmh, hi.” Maya smiled and watched Carina pull away. “What did you want to talk to me
about?” Maya asked, looking at her girlfriend.

“Well, Bailey presented this offer to me and I wanted to get your input on it.” Carina said,
playing with her plate as she looked at Maya. The blonde noticed Carina’s fidgeting and she
encouraged Carina to continue by grabbing her hands and looking at the Italian. “There is a
clinic down in South America and they are needing some OB’s and a peds surgeon.” Carina
spatted out. “As you know I am passionate about woman’s health and my work.” Carina
shrugged.

“Baby! That is amazing!” Maya squeezed her hands and smiled.

“It’s nine months.” Carina blurted out and looked at the blonde, Maya loosened her grip on
Carina’s hand slightly and her smile fell.

“Nine months? D-do you not get a break?” Maya asked, looking down and then back to her
lover.

“No, Bambina. Nine months straight.” Carina sighed and she felt Maya release her hands
completely.

“I mean, who am I to stop you from your dreams?” Maya shrugged and she took a sip of
water.

“Maya, you know that is not the case. I wanted to talk to you about it and not just jump to
agree.” Carina argued and stood up.
“What say do I have, Carina?” Maya asked, her temper was rising, and Carina could feel it.

“Every say, Maya! Because you matter to me.” Carina huffed and started pacing the kitchen.
Maya sighed and she looked at Carina.

“I want you to be able to go and live out your dream, Carina.” The blonde looked down. “I
want that for you because you deserve it.”

“I want to know that you support me, not just because you think it’s what I want.” Carina said
softly.

“I support you, Carina.” Maya answered. Carina looked at her and then tilted her head. “I
want you to go because its your dream and I know that you would talk me into doing
something.” Maya stood up from the table and she walked over to Carina who just stood at
the counter. “I want to be your support system; nine months is a really long time. I guess I’m
just terrified that you will forget about me.” Maya shrugged and looked at the woman in front
of her.

“Maya, I wouldn’t ever forget about you.” Carina placed both of her hands on Maya’s cheeks,
and she leaned in and kissed her. “I love you and I want you to have a say in anything that is
offered to me.” Carina whispered and kissed Maya again. The blonde kissed the woman back
and moaned.

“I want you to go, Carina. I can wait nine months for you.” Maya whispered. “Wh-when
would you leave?” Maya asked.

“Two weeks.” Carina replied. “Maybe on one of your weekends off you could come see me?”
Carina asked, running her hands down Maya’s arms.

“Of course, I want to see you as much as I can.” Maya replied and she leaned in and kissed
Carina deeply.
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Two weeks later:

“Last night here.” Maya said sadly and she looked at Carina who was undressing.

“For only nine months.” Carina reassured her. Maya watched her girlfriend and smiled. “Are
you going to drop me off at the airport?” Carina asked, sliding a shirt over her head but
before she could get it down, Maya was wrapping her arms around Carina’s torso and pulling
the Italian against her.

“Yes, baby.” Maya whispered.

“I need you, Bambina.” Carina whispered. “Touch me and make me remember your touch
every second of the day.” The Italian felt Maya push Carina further into the bathroom and she
shut the door behind them and lifted Carina onto the counter. “Ah,” Carina moaned, the
counter was cold, but her legs opened immediately to allow Maya to come closer and the pair
continued to make out, Maya slid her hand up Carina’s thigh and Carina undressed Maya
slowly.

“I need to taste you.” Maya whispered and got down on her knees and kissed along the inside
of each thigh, sucking at the skin to make sure there were marks left. It caused Carina to
moan loudly and open her legs more. The blonde pushed her nose and chin against Carina’s
cunt and she inhaled the scent and moaned.

Carina arched her back a little and she watched as Maya teased her sweet cunt. “Bambina.”
Carina whimpered and she felt the woman's tongue start to lick at her folds. “Fuck.” Carina
moaned out and grabbed at Maya’s hair. Maya rolled her tongue against Carina’s clit and then
down into her entrance and she slid her tongue in and moaned at the taste and pulled her
tongue out and pushed back in over and over again, Carina’s hand gripped the blonde's hair
and pulled.
“Sì, mangiami.” Carina moaned out and gasped every time Maya changed positions of her
tongue. “La tua lingua è così buona.” Carina grabbed at her own breasts, and she pinched at
her nipples, arching her back.

Maya dug her nails into Carina’s thighs, and she licked up the juices that flowed out of the
brunette and Maya licked over and over again, her tongue rolling against the woman's clit,
sensitive enough to cause Carina to whimper again.

“Oh! Bambina. Please.” Carina groaned and pushed Maya’s face in further and her legs
moved to Maya’s shoulders, and she was trying to ground her hips against the woman's face.
“S-so close.” Carina whimpered, using her other hand to grab Maya’s hair as her orgasm took
over her body, her legs shook, and she screamed out Maya’s name. The blonde licked up
every ounce of juice that flowed out of the brunette. Once Maya knew she was clean she
moved her hand and shoved two fingers into the woman's cunt, fingering her lover hard and
fast. Carina was so sensitive she was a moaning mess. Maya licked her way up Carina’s front
and bit down on each nipple then kissed along her skin and then to her lips.

“So fucking wet.” Maya moaned out. “All mine.” Maya whispered and kissed Carina again.
“Tell me you’re mine..” The blonde kissed along Carina’s jaw and then down to her neck
again, leaving marks on that part of her body, her fingers moving faster, her wrist was
burning but all she wanted to do was feel Carina for the last time for the next nine months.

“All yours. I’m all yours, Maya.” Carina whimpered between pants, she bit down on her lip
and let Maya do whatever she pleased. “Il mio corpo è tuo.” Carina whispered and she
grabbed Maya’s hair again and felt her orgasm crashing against her, juices flowed out and
covered Maya’s fingers. “Oh! Maya! Maya!” Carina screamed out. Maya fucked Carina
through her orgasm and then pulled her fingers out. Carina brought Maya closer with her legs
and she reached her hand out and pulled Maya’s pants down and started to finger the woman.

“Oh!” Maya moaned out and she pressed her hand against the counter. Carina smirked and
she leaned forward and started to suck on Maya’s neck, marking her lover in the same spots
Maya marked her. Carina slid two fingers inside of the blonde and shoved them inside fast
and hard just how Maya liked it. “Baby..” Maya whimpered and started to move her hips to
meet Carina’s fingers.

“You like my fingers inside of you?” Carina asked, her voice was hoarse, and it made Maya
wet. “Tell me, Bambina. Tell me you like how I fuck you.” Carina whispered against Maya’s
ear, moaning. “So fucking wet.” Carina nibbled on her earlobe, and she continued to push her
fingers inside of the blonde, her thumb swiping along the woman's clit every so often.

“God, I love how you fuck me.” Maya said, moaning.

“Say my name.” Carina demanded and she could feel how tight Maya got and she pushed,
she knew the blonde was close. “Cover my fingers in your cum, Maya.” Carina begged,
biting on her neck.

“Fuck! Carina.” Maya groaned and she moved her hips quicker and Carina thrusted her
fingers in and out hitting the same spot that drove Maya crazy. “Ah! Ah! Ah!” Maya gasped
as her orgasm overtook her body and her pussy throbbed as her orgasm continued. Carina
fingered her through the entire orgasm and she then pulled her fingers out and licked her
fingers clean. Maya watched Carina and she chuckled a little and leaned in and kissed the
brunette softly.

“I love you.” Carina whispered and kissed Maya again. “Take a shower with me.” Maya
nodded and moved away so Carina could get off the counter and once she was off Maya
finished undressing and she followed Carina into the shower, The couple took a long show
full off body massages and kisses, Carina held Maya as tightly as she could and whispered
loving things in her ear. She wanted to assure Maya that everything would be okay.

Once their shower was finished Maya and Carina dried off and they walked out to their room
and laid down in bed, the lights were off and Maya curled up against Carina and she looked
into the women's chocolate brown eyes.

“I love you so much, Carina.” Maya whispered, kissing the brunette's cheek.

“I love you too, Bambina.” Carina replied and wrapped her arms around Maya to bring her
even closer, they tangled their legs together and laid there just looking into their eyes.
“Maya… don’t be a hero.” Carina sniffled and Maya looked at her concern. “Don’t leave me
in this world without you.” Carina mumbled.

“I–.” Maya sighed, she couldn’t promise Carina that she would be okay, the job is demanding
and dangerous. “I will try my best and I will call you as much as I can, I don’t want to leave
you, baby.” Maya whispered and she kissed the tears that fell down Carina’s cheek. It was
finally hitting her that she was leaving Maya and it killed her. She wanted to back out, but she
wanted to help people as much as she could.

“I don’t want to sleep because I don’t want to wake up in the morning to leave you behind.”
Carina whispered.

“You aren’t leaving me behind, I’m here, I'm not going anywhere. We will still talk every
day.” Maya assured her and leaned in and kissed her lover softly. “We need sleep.” Maya
whispered and she played with Carina’s damp hair and they both fell asleep in each other's
arms.

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Morning came quicker than both of the women wanted, Carina’s alarm was going off, it was
6am, the brunette groaned and leaned over to turn off her alarm, Maya curled up more to
Carina and sighed contently. Carina looked at the time and then she curled up to Maya, she
could sleep for a little bit longer. But soon enough, the alarm was going off again, so Carina
woke Maya up by playing with her hair and kissing along her face, Maya smiled and she
kissed Carina.

“Mmh, Buongiorno.” Carina mumbled, kissing Maya back.

“Hmm, I love you.” Maya mumbled and she slowly sat up, Carina sighed heavily and sat up
as well and turned the light on. Carina got out of bed first and she slid on a pair of panties and
a bra, she then walked to the bathroom and began to fix her hair, giving it curls and she
started to do her makeup.

Maya slowly got out of bed and slid on a pair of panties as well as a sports bra. She then slid
on a pair of sweatpants, and she walked into the bathroom next to Carina and grabbed her
toothbrush and started to brush her teeth. Once Carina finished her makeup, she brushed her
teeth too and then she walked to the closet and grabbed a pair of jeans and a t-shirt that was
Maya’s. It was a station 19 shirt and then she slid on a pair of tennis shoes, and she grabbed a
jacket, she dabbed her perfume and then lightly dabbed it onto her pillow for Maya. The
blonde walked out of the bathroom, her hair in a high pony and she was sliding on a hoodie.
Carina sat on the edge of the bed and looked at Maya.
“I love you.” Carina said softly.

“I love you too.” Maya walked over to Carina and she placed her hands on Carina’s cheeks
and she kissed the Italian deeply, both of them moaning into the kiss, Carina slid her tongue
into Maya’s mouth and now the blonde slid one of her hands to the back of Carina’s neck and
she pulled at the brunette locks and Carina was pulling Maya down on top of her as she laid
back on the bed, Maya chuckled and she continued to kiss Carina.

The pair continued to make out for a little longer and they pulled away from each other. “We
need to go.” Maya whispered and kissed the brunette again and got off of her lover.

“I know.” Carina whispered and she gathered her purse and then walked out to the kitchen
and she quickly made a cup of coffee and Maya made a smoothie. While Carina was making
her coffee, Maya loaded up the car with Carina’s luggage and she then walked back to the
door and Carina was carrying her purse, jacket and coffee cup. Maya grabbed Carina’s jacket
and her purse and she shut the door behind Carina and locked it. They made it to the car and
they held hands the entire drive to the airport.

Once they arrived, Maya parked her car, turned on her hazard lights and she opened the trunk
and got out. Carina got out as well and Maya helped her get the bags out of the car and she
shut her trunk. Maya looked at Carina and sighed softly.

“Hey.. come here.” Carina pulled at Maya’s hoodie and she pulled the blonde into a kiss and
Maya closed her eyes and held onto Carina as tightly as she could and she kissed her back
deeply. The pair pulled away and they both had tears.

“I love you so fucking much, Carina.” Maya whispered.

“I love you too, Bambina.” Carina whispered back and they kissed again. “I have to go.”
Carina sighed and she grabbed her suitcase.

“Text me as much as you can.” Maya said softly and Carina nodded. Just as Carina was about
to walk away, Maya grabbed her shirt and kissed her deeply, the brunette moaned softly into
 the kiss and kissed her back. “I love you.” Maya said as she pulled away and wiped her tears.

“I love you too, Maya.” Carina kissed the blondes cheek and then she walked inside, Maya
waited until she was out of sight, and she then got into her car and sighed heavily and let her
tears flow freely as she drove away.

Chapter End Notes

Well? Did we predict Carina to go for it? Or do we think she should have turned it
down. I had good ideas for both ways but I think that this is going to create more content
and the next few chapters will be the months counting down to when Carina returns. I
hope that you have enjoyed this chapter! Updates soon (:
End Notes

My very first fic I have written for this fandom, not sure about making this a lot of chapters.
Always open to suggestions. Just be nice. (: Follow me on Twitter. @Savre_bubbles I am
sorta new to the fandom. I have been watching Station since season 5, but I love, love, love
Maya and Carina and their connections.

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