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NCOMESLOVE

S02E01

Dinnerwi tht henewl yf oundedf amilywentwel l,i

twasgoi nggr eatunt i
l myassofasper m
donordeci dedt ogeti ntomybusi ness.Wel l st
epmommyandIwer et alkingaboutt he
possi bil
it
yofmest udy i
ngabr oadandshewasexci t
edf orme, sheadv isedmet of ol
lowmy
dreamsandt hatifMel or eal l
ylovesmel i
kehesay shedoest henhewon' tstandi nmywayof
reachi ngmygoal s.Sheal sosai dsomet hi
ngabouthownotal lofusasf or t
unat eashei stobe
bor nintoal egacy ,sohersuggest ionwast hatIdon' tev ent hinkt wicei fgivent heoppor t
unity
,
sper m donorwal kedi naswewer est il
ltalkingandt ol dmet hatMel owasn' tr i
ghtf orme, he
didn'tgot ochur ch, whatki ndofboy fri
endi sheandpr et t
ymuchany thingt opi ssmeof fand
makemet ellhim hisnews.Whowashet oj udgeany way ?Heonl ymetme2mont hsagoandhe
thinkshecandi ctatemyl i
fe?Nahf am y ougott obeaf atherf i
rstfory out oear nthatrightof
dictatingmyl if
eandwhoIdat eandnotdat e.Besides, Idon' tevenat t
endhi schur ch..
.I'm sorr
y
butIdon' tt r
usti t
,whati fhe' sthosef rom past ors?orsnakepast or
?Ort hegr asspast or?Ihave
trustissueswher echur chi sconcer ned.These" Christi
ans"ar et oojudgyf ormesonot hanks.
Noof fenset oanyChr i
st iansbutt hisj ustmyopi nionandt hewayIf eel.ButIdogot ochur ch..
.
somet imes.any waybackt omydad, heandIwer epr obabl ynotgoi ngt ogetal ongwi ththisrate
hewasgoi ngon.ThenextdayIwasmeet i
ngupwi t
hAsemahl ei ntown, wel l
shewasf etchi
ng
Mel o'scardf rom Kat eatt hecl i
nicanddr i
v i
nghert oherpl ace.Asesuggest edt hatwego
toget hertomeetKat e..
.per sonall
yIt hinkshej ustwant sdr amabutI '
m adr amaf reeper son.I
goti nsidehercarandwedr oveof f
.

Her
:sohowwasdi
nner
?

Me:
wel
lthepar
ent
ssuggest
edt
hatIt
aket
heschol
arshi
p

LediandAsemahl etoldmet ot akethescholarshipwi t

houtthi
nkingtwice.Buttheyalsosaidto
tal
ktoMel oabouti ttoojustsot hi
sdoesn' taff
ectourr el
ati
onshipbutlet'
sber eali
sti
c..
.one
wayort heotheritwasgoi ngt oaffectourrelat
ionship.yes,weloveeachot herbutIdon'tthi
nk
ourlovei sstrongenought osurviv
et hi
s.AsmuchasMel oisgr
aduatingthisyearbuthei sal
so
fur
theringhi sstudiessowhatar ethechancesofhi m mov i
ngwithme?Ev eni fIcomebackf or
holi
day s,howdoIknowt hathewi llbe100%commi t
tedt ome?we' v
eonl ybeent ogetherf
or3
mont hs...chancesar ethatheandIwer eprobablynotev enmeantt obeany way .I
'm not
doubtinghi m butIam doubt ingourr el
ati
onshipal i
tt
le..
.shootme!weal lhaveal it
tl
edoubt
wherel ongdi st
ancer elat
ionshipisconcernedok? !

Her
:but
?

Me:
Ihav
eal
i
feher
e..
.Toj
ustupandl
eav
eev
ery
thi
ngbehi
nd

Her
:tal
ktoy
ourmom andher
ewhatshehast
osayabouti
t
Me:
it'
snotherI
'
m wor
ri
edabout
.It
'sMel
o

Her
:Mel
oisabi
gboy
.Hewoul
dn'
tdar
est
andi
nyourwayt
oabr
ightf
utur
e

Me:Iunderst
andt
hatmuch.
..weki
ndofspokeabouti
tthi
smor
ningbutwhataboutour
r
elat
ionshi
p?

Her
:Idon'
tgetwhyy
ousowor
ri
edabouti
t.Yout
wol
oveeachot
her

Me:
canMel
osur
viv
eay
earwi
thoutsex?

Her
:whoa.
..Ther
ear
ehol
i
day
sinbet
weenmos

Me:
ofwhi
chImi
ghtbewor
kingi
nsomeoft
hem.
..

Her
:andt
hisi
swhyIwassi
ngl
e.Rel
ati
onshi
psar
etoocompl
i
cat
ed!

Me:
tel
lmeabouti
t

Her
:Ibel
i
evei
nyouandmybr
other
.Youguy
sar
egoi
ngt
omakei
twor
k!Ij
ustknowy
ouwi
l
l

Inodded.
..Ihopewewi l
l.Idon'
twanttolosehim.Notl
ikethi
s.Wedrov
etoMari
eStopesand
AsemahlecalledKatewhowal kedoutlooki
ngfi
ne,wel
lshelookedl
i
keshehadbeencr
ying.
Shegotinsidethecarandgreetedthenkeptqui
et.

Me:
youok?

Her
:yep

Ase:
how'
ditgo?

Her
:I'
m notpr
egnantany
mor
eift
hat
'
swhaty
ouaski
ng

Ase:honeyyouareinnoposi
ti
ontobegi
vingmeatti
tudei
nmycar
!Maybemybr
othergoes
wit
hitbutIdon'
t!Idi
dn'
taskyout
ogetri
dofyourchi
ldsocal
myourt
it
s

Ij
ustkeptqui
etnotknowingwhatt
osay
.Kat
eapol
ogi
sedandgav
emeMel
o'
scar
dandt
hat
wasthelastweheardfr
om her
.

Me:
isn'
tMel
o'
scar
dsupposedt
ohav
ehi
ssi
gnat
ure?

AndI
'
m aski
ngt
hisbecausei
twassi
gned"
A.Bess"

Ase:
ofcausei
tshoul
dhav
ehi
ssi
gnat
ure.
..whatdoy
oumean?

Me:
it'
ssi
gnedA.Bess

Ase:
Shi
i
it!

Shesai
dhi
tt
ingt
hest
eer
ingwheel
inf
rust
rat
ion.
Me:
what
?

Her
:that
'smom'
scr
edi
tcar
d.

Me:
shi
i
t!

Her
:mom i
sgoi
ngt
oki
l
lme.

Me:
howdi
dyounotseei
t?

Her
:It
houghtIgav
eherMel
o'
scar
d.Theyal
ll
ookt
hesame.

Me:
doesi
trepor
t?

Her
:she'
sAmahl
eBess.Ofcausei
trepor
tsEVERYTHI
NG!

Sheseemedfrustr
ated.Thi swholeti
meKat ewasqui et
.Howdi dshenotnot icethecardat
l
east?Imeanyoucan'ttakeacar df r
om someoneandnotl ookatitr
ight ?Atleastthat'
swhatI
do.WedroppedKateof fanddr ovetoherhomei nsi
lence.I'
veseenpeopl epanicov ert
est
sand
stuf
fbutt
hiswasnewev enforme.Asemahl ei
salway schil
ledbutnott histi
mear ound.Wegot
toherhomeandshepar kedhercarandgotof fwhil
eIf ol
lowedbehindherl ikealostpuppy.We
weren’
teveni
nsidewhenMr sBessstoodnexttothekitchencounterclearlymadabout
somethi
ngsoitreport
edt oheraft
erall
.Shi
itwasaboutt ogodown!

Ama:
sowhi
chonei
fyougotanabor
ti
on?

Welookedateachot
her.MrsBesswasf
umi
ng;
Ihav
enev
erseenherl
i
ket
hisbef
ore.She
l
ookedli
keshewasreadyforwar.

Mom:
ANSWERMEDAMMI
T!

Sher
oar
edst
art
li
ngbot
hofusi
nthepr
ocess.

Ase:
mom pl
easej
ustcal
m down.Icanexpl
ain

Her
:DON'
TTELLMETOCALM DOWNASEMAHLE!

Sheshoutedagai
n.WherewasMel
okuhl
e??
?Thi
swashi
smessandAsemahl
ecannott
aket
he
fal
lforhi
m,notwit
hthi
s

Mom:
Star
ttal
ki
ng.Bot
hofy
oubef
oreIbeatt
hehel
loutofy
ou!

Thatalmostmademel aughbutshewasseri
ous.MrsBesswasmoreorlessthesamehei
ght
asherdaughterandme…t r
ypict
uresomeonethatshor
thi
tt
ingy
ou…wel l
shewasnotthat
shortbutj
ustimagi
nesomeoney ourhei
ghtl
ooki
ngascuteasherhi
tt
ingyou…veryf
unnysi
ght
i
fyouaskme.

Me:
noneofushadanabor
ti
on.

Ase:
Iwentt
ogetal
oop
Mom:doIlookli
keanidi
ottoyoutwo?Al oopi
snot1.
3somet
hing.
..nocont
racepti
vecost
s
t
hatmuch.Especi
all
ynotatMari
eStopes.Youhav
eamedical
aidforthat
!Nowt el
lmethetrut
h.

Wher
ethehel
lwasMel
okuhl
e?Thi
sisal
lonhi
m!Whywasn'
theher
etodef
endus?

“
theydi
dn’
tdoany
thi
ngmom”

Mel
osaidstandi
ngbythedoorway.Tookhimlongenough.MrsBesswasl ooki
ngatMeloand
wewerelooki
ngatthem.Aseshookherhead.Iyanawalkedi
naf t
erMelo.Ifel
tli
keIwasint
he
musi
cvideooftr
appedinthecl
osetbyR-Kel
ly.Thetensi
oninthatki
tchenwast oomuch.

Mom:
whatar
eyout
alki
ngaboutMel
okuhl
e

Him:
I’
vebeent
ryingt
oexpl
aint
oyouf
ort
hepast15mi
nut
est
hatnoneoft
hem wentt
her
ebut
your
efuset
oli
sten

Mom:
I’
m notst
upi
d.You’
veal
way
sst
uckupf
ory
oursi
stera…

Hi
m:Kat
ehadanabor
ti
on

Meloj
ustblurt
edi
tout.ImeanevenIwasn’
treadyforthatone,yesIknewbutIt
houghthewas
goi
ngtomakeupsomel i
eorsomethi
ng…anythingreal
lybutnope.Hegaveitt
oherstr
aightup.
MrsBessthrewahotslapatMel
o.

Mom:
Mel
okuhl
efol
l
owme

Weal ljuststoodther eprettymuchaskingour selv

eswhatj usthappened.Wewer eallj
ust
standingthereasst at
ues.Mr sBesswasPI SSED!Icannotst ressthi
senough.Okmay bei t
’s
becauseIhav enev erseenherl i
kethatbefore, Idi
dn’teventhinkshewascapablereall
y .Iwas
worriedaboutMel o…butt henagainhe’shersonandt heyhaveagr eatrel
ati
onshi
pgoi ngonso
chancesar et heywi l
lbeov erthi
sinminutes…oratl eastthat’
swhatI’m hopi
ngfor.Atthispoint
I’
mj ustscaredf ormyboy fri
end.Evenhecan’ tcharm hiswayoutoft hisone

Yana:
cansomeoneexpl
aint
omewhatj
usthappened?

Ijustf
rozether
ewait
ingforAsemahl
etot
ell
hersi
sterwhatact
ual
l
yhappenedbutMi
ssBess
tookaglassandpouredhersel
fsomewat
er.

Yana:
isanyofy
ougoi
ngt
oanswerme?

Ase:
Mel
ojustbl
urt
edi
toutt
hatKat
ewaspr
egnantandy
ourmot
herj
ustsl
appedhi
m

I
ya:
youknowt
hat
’snotwhatI
’
m aski
ng

Me:
Asemi
stakenl
ygav
eKat
ehermot
her
’scr
edi
tcar
d

I
ya:apar
tfrom t
hat
,thi
swasnev
ergoi
ngt
ost
ayhi
ddenf
orev
er.Howcoul
dyouguy
sev
enl
et
t
hishappen?
Webot
hlookedatherast
oni
shed.Whatwassher
efer
ri
ngt
oagai
n?

Ase:
excusemehuh?

I
ya:
youknowwhatIwentt
hroughwhenIl
ostmybaby
.Howcoul
dyousuppor
tthi
sAsemahl
e?

Ase:i
twasnotmychoi cetomake.Mywombhasnev ercar
ri
edanythi
ng.Myvagi
nadoesn’t
evenknowwhatadi ckfeel
sli
ke.I
’m nott
heonewhogotpregnanther
eitwasKate,I
’
m notthe
onewhosai dsheshoul
dgetanabor t
ion,
shedi
dsoifyoulooki
ngforanyonet
opointfi
nger
s
at…pointt
hem atKatebecausenothi
ngMeloorIsai
dgothertochangehermind

I
ya:
buty
ougav
ehermoneyt
odoi
tsoy
ouj
ustasgui
l
ty

Ase:Iwil
lnotbeshout
edf orKat
ehav i
ngunprotectedsexandnotknowi
ngthatcont
racept
ives
exi
st.Idi
dn’
tgivehert
hemoney ,yourbrot
herdid.Iwasnothi
ngbutamessengerheresoifyou
l
ookingforgui
lt
ypeople,
startwi
thyourbrotherandhisex-
gir
lf
ri
end

Shethenst ormedoutandlef
tmest andi
ngt her
ewithIyana.YanaandIaren’tf
ri
endsor
whatsoeversowedon’ tr
eall
yhaveanythi
ngt otal
kabout…al lweevertal
kaboutismebutnot
thi
stimebecausejudgingbythelookshegav eme; Iwasjustasguilt
yastherestoft
hem.I
pouredmy selfagl
assofwaterbeforepour
ingAsemahl eher sandthenheadedtoherroom.I
foundhersitti
ngonthebedwi t
hherlegscrossedandherel bowsresti
ngbetweenherthighs,
herfacebur i
edbet
weenherhands.

Me:
hey
.

Shel
ookedup

Her
:I’
m sor
ryy
ouhadt
ogot
hrought
hat
.Mom wasoutofl
i
ne

Me:
she’
smad…whocoul
dbl
ameher

Her:
mom oncehadami scar
ri
age,
shewasonherwaytomyuncle’
sgraduat
ionwhent
heplane
shewasi
ncrashed,
kil
l
ingmydad’spar
ent
s.She’
sabitsensi
ti
vet
othi
swholematterr
eal
l
y

Inodded.Wellasmuchasi t
’ssomethi
ngthathappenedav erylongti
meago, i
twassti
ll
avai
labl
eonlinebutitdi
dn’
tmentiont
hemiscarri
agepartthough.Idon’
tblameherforget
ti
ng
madshame, afterwhatsheandherdaught
erhavebeent hrough…whowoul d?Therear
epeople
outther
edy i
ngt ohaveki
dsyetyoufi
ndpeoplewhodon’twantt hem…i t
’sacrazywei
rdmessed
upwor l
dthatwel i
vein.

Me:
I’
m sosor
ryt
oheart
hat

Her
:yeahi
tsucksr
eal
l
y.I
’
venev
erseenmom t
hatpi
ssed

Me:
yout
ell
i
ngme

Her
:thi
sisal
lmyf
aul
t.HadInotswi
tchedt
hecar
dsupt
henshewoul
dn’
thav
efoundout
Me:
thi
sisnoty
ourf
aul
t,y
oudi
dn’
tknowandKat
eshoul
dhav
elookedatt
hecar
dtoo

Her
:butshedi
dn’
t

Me:
thi
sisnoty
ourf
aul
t.Youcan’
tgodownf
ort
his

Her:Ican’
tbel
i
evemom wouldthi
nkt
hatofus.Howdumbwoul
dwebet
hought
ousehercr
edi
t
car
di nst
eadofmineorMel
o’s?

Me:
whywashercr
edi
tcar
dwi
thy
ouany
way
?

Her:ev
ersinceAmst er
dam.Iwast heonetobookourf lightti
cketsandsoIf or
gott
ogiveitto
herandshehasn’taskedforit
.WhenImetupwi t
hKat e,mom’ scardwasi nthesmall
pocketof
myhandbag, t
ogetherwithMelo’
scardsowithoutlookingIgav eKatethewrongcardwit
ht he
wrongpin…seeingthatthetr
ansacti
ondi
dn’tfai
l,
Iguesst hei
rpinsarethesame

Me:
wowt
hei
rrel
ati
onshi
pisst
rongert
hanIhadt
hought

Her
:tr
uebutt
heyt
hesamebecausemom usesMel
o’scar
dwhenshecan’
tfi
ndher
ssohence
t
heyhavet
hesamepi
ns

Me:
right
…

Shewastal
ki
ngbuthermi
ndwasn’
ther
e,shewasasworri
edabouthi
m asIwas.Youcannev
er
betoosur
ewit
hanangrybl
ackwomaney.Andr
ightnow?MrsBesswasone.

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S02E02-Mel
o

I'
veseenmom madbutt hiswasnot hingli
ket heot herti
mes.Thistimear oundshewas
probablygoingtokillmeandgetr idofmybody ,withthekindofmoneyshehas. ..I'
m pret
ty
sureshewoul dn'tstr
uggleey .onet hingI'm sureofwast hatshedidn'
that eme, Ithi
nkshewas
disappoint
edinmeandf ort akingmat ter
sintomyownhandswhenIcoul dhav ecomet oher.
That'showsher aisedusany way.Ify ouhav eapr oblem t
hatyoucan'tdeal wi
thy ourown, t
hen
youcomet oherordad.It r
iedt oexpl aintoherbutmom woul dn'
tli
sten,shedidn'twantt ohear
anythingbecauseaccordingt oherI 'm alway sstickingupformyt win.Mom i sstubbornand
whensheget sl
ikethisyousi tandl i
st en.WhenIaskedwhatwasupshet hrewmeherphone
whichwasonmessageswi that extr eport
ingt hatacer t
ainamountwasusedatMar ieStopes.
Asemahl
ehasr
eal
lyf
uckedmeupt hi
stimearound!HowcouldshegiveKatet
hewr ongcard?I
fol
l
owedmom t
otheguestr
oom heredownstai
rsli
mping.Theminut
eIwalkedinsheslapped
meandIhel
dmycheek,i
twasevi
dentthatshewashurtandmad.

Her
:Abor
ti
onMel
okuhl
e?

Me:
mom Icanexpl
ain

Shesl
appedmeagai
n.

Her
:whati
sitt
haty
ourf
atherandIdon’
tdof
ory
ouhuh?

Ikeptquiet
.Iwantedt
orespondbutt
henhowcert
ainwasIthatIwasn’
tgoingt
ogetanother
sl
ap?Shesatdownandl ookedupatmestandi
ngbythedoor.Shepatt
edthebednextt
oher.I
l
impedt ositnextt
oher.

Her:
Iwouldhavepref
erredhear
ingyoutel
lmet
hatthemoneywentt
oal
cohol
ordr
ugsor
somethi
ng.butt
hisMelokuhl
e?Thisist
oomuchevenfory
ou.

Me:
mom I
’
m sor
ry

Her
:whyMel
okuhl
e?

Ishr
uggedher
.

Her:don’
tgivemethat!Youknowv er
ywel l
thatwecoul
dhavesupport
edyouandKatehere.We
coul
dhav eprovi
dedthatbabywit
hev er
ythi
ngitwasgoi
ngtoneed.Iwoul
dhavetakencar
eofit
fory
ouunt i
lyoucandoi ty
oursel
f.Whydidn’ty
oucometomehuh?

May
bebecauseIwasscar
edt
oseet
hedi
sappoi
ntmentony
ourf
acemay
be.

Her
:ANSWERMEDAMMI
T!

Me: Mom IaskedKatenottogothr

oughwi
thi
t,Ibeggedhernottodoitbutshewantedto.Kate
saidshecouldn’
taf
fordbri
ngi
nganunwant
edchildi
ntothiswor
ldespeci
allywit
hthesit
uati
on
sheisfr
om.Shewoul dn’
tbeabletost
andt
hedisappoint
mentonhermot herandgrandmother
’s
face

Her:
shecouldn’
taf
for
dachi l
d?Mel okuhl
eyouarethesonofthecountry
’sri
chestman.What
doyoumeanshecouldn’
taffor
dt hechil
d?YouknowwhatI ’
m hear
ingri
ghtnow, excusesand
not
hingmore!Yougaveheryourcardwellmycardinthi
scasetogot hr
oughwithit.for
someonewhobeggedhery ousureencouragedhertogothr
oughwi t
hitthat
’sf
orsur e

Me:
Idi
dn’
tknowwhatt
odomom

Her:
I’
my ourmot
her.Youwer esupposedtotal
ktome,youalwaysusedtobeablet
ot al
ktome
whensomethi
ngwast roubl
i
ngy ou.Whathappened?Whatwasdiff
erentt
hist
imearound?And
don’
ttel
lmeaboutdisappoi
ntment!Thi
sisworsethandi
sappoi
ntmentMelokuhl
e.
Shewascryi
ngwhichmademet earupt
o.Ihateddisappoint
ingtheoneper
sonwho’
shadmy
backsi
ncedayoneandwil
lhav
ei tt
il
lmylastbreat
h.I’
vereal
lydoneitt
hist
ime.

Her:i
fyouwer
en’ti
njuredal
readyI
’dprobablywouldhavehi
tyouwit
habroom r
ightnowand
knocksomesenseintoyoubutI’
m notthatkindofper
son.Iwashmyhandsof
fy ou!

Wit
ht hatshegotupandwal kedout.Youknowy ou’
ver eall
yscr
ewedupwheny ourparentsay
s
t
hat.Isattherenotknowingwhattodowithmy self
.Ihatedmer ightnow.I’
l
lneverf
orget
mom’ slook.Theangeranddisappoi
ntmentisnonelikeI’v
eseenbef or
e.Isatt
herewithmy
f
acebur iedinmyhands.Iheardthedooropen.

“
heyy
ouok?
”

Ilookedupandi
twasbigsist
er.Shekneel
edi
nfr
ontofmeandshewi
pedmyt
ear
sthatwer
e
runningdownmycheeks.

Me:
shehat
esme

Her
:shedoesn’
that
eyou.Shej
ustdi
dn’
texpectt
hisf
rom y
ou.Ial
sodi
dn’
texpecti
tbutweal
l
makemist
akes

Me:
IknowI
’
vedi
sappoi
ntedy
ouguy
s.Al
lofy
ou

Her:
att
heendoft
hedayi
twasnoty
ourf
inal
deci
siont
omake,
itwasher
s.Mom wi
l
lcome
ar
ound

Igav
eaf
aintchuckl
e.Iknowmymot
her
;thi
sshewi
l
lnev
erf
orgi
vemef
or.

Her
:Icanal
way
scal
lYay
afory
ou,
she’
sinAsemahl
e’
sroom

Ilookedatherandnodded.Ineededher .Shehuggedmeandt hengotupandwalkedoutofthe

room.Awhi l
elaterYaya’
sperfumef i
ll
edmyr oom,shesmell
edsogood.Sosweet .Shegoton
topofmeasIsatont heedgeoft hebed.Iwrappedmyhandsar oundherassasshewrapped
hersaroundmyneck.Shedi dn’tsayanythi
ngandneit
herdi
dIf orwhatseemedli
ke30minutes.

-
Amahl
e

Iwashurt ,
crushedr eal
ly.Thiswast helastt
hingIwouldexpectfrom Melo.Onmywayupst air
s
Ibumpedi ntoYanagoi ngdown, shedidn’
tsayanythi
ngandnei t
herdidI
.Igott omyr oom and
j
ustsatdownbyt hedoor .Howcoul dMel odosomet hi
nglikethi
s?howcoul dhesuppor tthi
s?
Meloisturning21t hisyear,heisoldenough.heisgraduati
ngandhehasaj obathisfat
her’
s
company .Idon’tunderstandhowhecoul dall
owsomet hi
ngl i
kethist
ohappen.Thi sboyis
fi
nancial
l
yst abl
emor ethanIwaswhenIwashi sage,bythisImeanmypar entsl
eftmoneyf or
them andsodi dDamon’ spar entssobasical
lyhedidnotneedaj obforthenextthreetofive
yearsr eally.Idon’ tgetwhyhewoul dall
owKat et
ogot hroughwi ththisandIam pr ettysur et hat
thi
spr egnancywoul dn’
thav ecomebet weenhim andYandi swa.Thatgi r
l wassmar t
, shewasa
realwomanandIknowt hatshecoul dhavehandledt hi
spr operlybecauseshel ovesmyson.I
don’tgetKat e’ sexcusesr eally
;Imeani fAya’
sparent scouldf orgivehert hensur elyherpar ents
woul dt oo.y es, peoplearedi f
ferentbutamot her
’slovefort heirchildislikethatofGod.Ki ds
will
alway sbeki ds,theywi llmakemi st
akesalongthewaybutatt heendoft hedayt heywi ll
alway sneedt heirparent
sandasapar entyourdutyistounder standt hatandwel comet hem
homewi thopenar msbecauset heyareyourstotakecar eofandt oteachaboutl i
fe.Ki ndofl ike
thepr odigal soni nt hebi
bl e.Weal lgoastr
ayatsomepoi ntbutweknowt hatt here’snopl ace
betterthanhome.AsIwassi tti
ngtherebythedoort hetabr ang, well mycal lsf rom myphone
arediv ertedt ot hetabandseei ngthatmyphonewaspr obablydownst ai
rsint hel ounge, thecal l
wasdi verted.Igat heredall t
hel i
tt
lestr
engthIhadinmet ogoandansweri t.itwasmyhusband.
Isweart hatt hisguyknowswhenI ’
m notok,histi
mi ngisalway si mpeccabl e.Ianswer edit.

/
/Hi
m:heyhoney

Me:
uhhm heybabe

Hi
m:i
sev
ery
thi
ngok?

Inoddedast
houghhecoul
dseeme.st
upi
dri
ght
?IknowbutIdi
dn’
twantt
ogi
vei
tawayby
tal
ki
ngnow.

Hi
m:don’
ttel
lmey
ouj
ustnodded.Amahl
ewhat
’sgoi
ngon?

SeewhatImean?Heknowsmel
i
ket
hebackofhi
shand.

Me:
not
hingbabe.

Iwanttotel
lDamonaboutthi
sbutit
’snotmynewstotel
landI ’
m worr
iedthathemightcr
ippl
e
Melo.Damonisnothi
ngl
ikeme,hesawwhatt hemi
scarri
ageIyanawentthroughdi
dtoherso
forDer
ri
cktogivet
hisgi
rlmoneyforabor
ti
on…tohi
mt hat’
sjustasbad.

Hi
m:seei
ngt
haty
oudon’
twantt
otel
lmet
hisov
ert
hephone,
I’
m onmywayt
hen

Me:
youdon’
thav
etocomebackbabe.Ev
ery
thi
ngi
sfi
ne

Hi
m:Iknowy
ouAmahl
e.Somet
hingi
swr
ongandy
oudon’
twantt
otel
lme.i
sitoneoft
heki
ds?

Ikeptqui
et.

Hi
m:seey
oui
n30mi
nut
es/
/

Hedidn’
tevenwaitformyresponsebefor
ecutt
ingt
hecallonme.Ithr
ewthetabont
hebed.
Thi
swast helastt
hingIneededri
ghtnow.Iy
anawalkedi
nwithaglassofwat
er.

Her
:her
eyougoi
ng.

It
ookt
hegl
ass
Me:
thanks.

Igul
pedi
tatonegoandsatdown,
shej
oinedmeont
hebedandsatnex
tme.

Her
:ther
ewasnot
hinghecoul
dhav
edonemom

Il
ookedatheraboutt
orespondbef
oreshecutmeof
f

Her:pl
easeletmef ini
sh.Att
heendoft hedayitwasKat e’
sfi
naldeci
sionandnot hi
nghesays
ordocouldhavest oppedherfr
om thi
s.wedon’tknowt hewholestor
yf orustojudgehi
m mom.
heishurt
inghere,
hel osthi
sfir
stbornthelastt
hingweshouldbedoingi stur
ningourbacks
agai
nsthim her
e.Yes, hegavehermoneytogot hroughwithi
tbuthedi dn’
thaveachoiceher
e,
whatifKatethr
eatenedhim orsomethi
ng?

Okmay beI
yanahadapoi ntbutwhatcoul
dKat epossi
blyt
hreatenDerri
ckwit
h?hewasnev er
supposedt
opregnantherinthefi
rstpl
ace.Idon’
tcarehowexcitedtheywer
ebutthepregnancy
wasnotsupposedtohappen.Meloisnotreadyforababy,especial
l
ywitht
helif
eheleads.

Me:
yourf
atheri
sonhi
sway

Her
:yout
oldhi
m?

Me:
ofcausenotbuty
ouknowy
ourf
ather
,Ican’
tev
enpr
etendwi
thhi
m

Her
:dadwon’
tunder
standmom.Dadi
sgoi
ngt
omur
derMel
o

“
whywoul
dImur
derMel
o?”

Webothtur
nedaroundandlookedatDamonwalki
ngi
ntaki
nghi
sti
eof
fandput
ti
nghi
sbagon
t
hefl
oorbythedoor.I
yaandIlookedateachot
her
.

Me:
it’
snot
hingbabe.

Isai
dget
ti
ngupt
ohughi
m butIwasn’
tconv
inci
ng.Hebr
oket
hehug.

Hi
m:soi
sany
onegoi
ngt
otel
lmewhat
’sgoi
ngon?

Her
:Kat
emi
scar
ri
edDer
ri
ck’
schi
l
d

Sheblur
teditout.I
twasei
thert
hatorthetrut
handthetruthi
st hel
astthingmyhusbandneeds
tohearri
ghtnow.Yanaandhersibl
i
ngshav ealway
sbeengoodatl yi
ngt oDae,Iwasnever
real
l
yeasytot r
ickorl
i
eto…may beit
’sbecausesomeoft hei
rli
eswereplannedwithmebutas
forme,coul
dn’tli
etomyhusbandli
kethekidscoul
d.Theywer econvi
ncing.

Hi
m:i
ssheok?

Her
:she’
satherhomeatt
hemomentsowedon’
tknowr
eal
l
y

Il
ookedatYana.Tr
ustmyki
dst
ost
andupf
oroneanot
her
.
Hi
m:y
oushoul
dpr
obabl
ysendherf
lower
sorsomet
hing.how’
sMel
otaki
ngi
t?

Me:
he’
swi
thYandi
swaatt
hemoment

Hi
m:heneedsher
.I’
l
lgocheckonhi
mlat
eron

Hewal
kedouttothebat
hroom.ThankGodf
orI
yanaorel
seIwasnotgoi
ngt
obeabl
etodot
his
wi
thDamon.Isi
ghedinr
eli
ef

Her
:don’
ttel
lhi
m mom…pl
ease!

Inodded

Her
:I’
l
ltal
ktoMel
o.Dadcan’
tknowt
his,
asf
ort
hemessageony
ourphoney
ou’
l
lsayshewent
t
ogetherwombcleaned

Me:
Isweart
oGody
ouguy
swentt
oschool
forl
yi
ng

Shelaughedatmeandwal kedoutpr
obabl
ytof
il
lMeloi
nont hi
sli
eofours,i
twasoursnow.I
gotintot
hebat hr
oom andmyhusbandwasint
heshower.It
ookofmyclothesandj
oinedhi
m.
heturnedaroundtoki
ssme.

Hi
m:y
ouok?

Me:
Iam now

Evenaft
er20years,
looki
ngatmyhusband’snakedbodysti
l
lsentchil
lsdownmyspine.Damon
Bessmat ur
edl
ikefi
newine.Hekepti
nshape,probabl
ythemostsexiest40-
somet
hingyearol
d
Ihaveevermet
.Hewasi ngoodshapeforsomeonehisage.Iwaslookingashi
sDdr ool
i
ng.

Hi
m:ey
esupher
e

Igi
ggl
edandhel
aughedatme

Hi
m:y
ousuchaper
ver
t!

Hesai dgr
abbingmyassmakingmewetsamet ime.Hepi ckedheupandpi nnedmet ot hewall
andthenstart
edkissi
ngmeslowlyandpassi
onat el
y.Thiswasj ustwhatIneededrightnow.My
husbandandIhav eal
waysbeensexual
l
yactive,
agedi dn’tchangeanythingandneitherdid
havi
ngchildr
en.Idon’
tunder
standwhypeopl
ebl amet hekidsforthei
rlackofinti
macyr eall
y.
Wehadmi ndblowi
ngshowersexandfr
om therewet ooki tt
othebedroom andy oucan
i
magi newhathappenedfr
om ther
eon.

-
Mel
o

Yay
aandIbr
oket
hemomentandgoti
nBedandcuddl
ed.Noneofushadsai
dany
thi
ngt
oeach
otherf
rom theminut
eshewalkedintonow.ifIdi
dn’tknowbet
terIwouldsayshehad
somethingonhermindei
therthanthi
sbutYayawill
t al
kwhensheisreadyto.

Me:
youok?

Her
:yeahI
’
mfi
ne

Me:
yousur
e?

Shewasaboutt
orespondwhenwewer
edi
stur
bedbyaknock

Me:
comei
n

I
yanawal
kedi
nandsatatt
heedgeoft
hebed.

Her
:yout
woar
ecosyandcut
e

Yay
agi
ggl
ed.

Her:
wel
ldadjustgothome…mom didn’tsayany
thingandnei
therdi
dI.Wet
oldhi
mthatKat
e
hadami
scarr
iage,bet
terkeepupwi
ththelieorr
iskdadmurderi
ngyou

Me:
thankssi
s

Her
:nextt
imet
alkt
ousbef
orey
oumakesuchdeci
sions.Yay
apl
easedon’
tgetpr
egnanty
et

Webot
hchuckl
ed

Me:
she’
sonbi
rt
hcont
rol

Yay
agavemeal
ook,
that“
ser
iousl
y”l
ookandIj
ustsmi
l
edather
.shenev
ert
oldmenott
o
menti
oni
t

Yana:
any
wayIhav
etogo.Seey
oul
ater
.By
eguy
s

Us:
bye

Wi
tht
hatYanawal
kedoutandYay
ahi
tmyshoul
der
,mor
eli
kesheshov
edi
t

Me:
OUCH!

Her
:youdi
dn’
thav
etot
ell
yoursi
stert
hat

Me:
sor
ry…geeez

Her
:what
ever

Me:
oh…kay

Ipul
l
edhert ome,shetr
iedfi
ght
ingmebuteventual
l
yshegaveinandwecuddled.Shet
oldme
whathappenedatthedi
nnerandwhatherf
atheract
ual
l
ysaidthatpi
ssedherof
fandthenshe
tol
dmet
hatherf
avour
it
ear
ti
stwasi
nJobur
gandt
hatherwor
kwasbei
ngshowcasedathi
s
show

Me:
soy
out
hel
uckyst
udent
?

Her
:yep…

Me:
whydoesi
tsoundl
i
ket
her
e’smor
etot
hist
hany
oul
ett
ingon?

Her
:Imi
ghtgetaschol
arshi
ptost
udyabr
oad

<3

[
10/
15,
19:
26]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E03

Hel ookedatmepr obabl

ywaiti
ngmetoconti
nueorsayIwasj
oki
ngorsomethi
ngbutr
eal
l
yI
hadnot hi
ngmor etosay.Idi
dn’
tmeantodropthi
ski
ndofbombonhim buti
t’
snopoi
nt
draggingthi
sforlong.Hedeserv
est
oknow.

Hi
m:sowher
ewoul
dthatl
eav
eourr
elat
ionshi
p?

Me:
whatdoy
oumeanMel
o?

Whatdi
dhemean?

Him:youtal
ki
ngaboutmovi
ngacrosst
heworl
dYandi
swa.Wherewoul
dthatl
eaveus?
Yest
erdaywhenyouaskedmeaboutworki
ngabr
oad,
ist
hiswhatyouwer
etal
kingabout
?

Me:
Ineedy
out
ounder
standandputy
our
sel
finmyshoesher
ea…

Him:it
’snotf
airYandi
swa.Ij
ustgotyouandnowI
’
m supposedt
ojustwat
chy
out
akeof
f?I
cannotlosey
ouYandiswa.Idon’
twantto

Igotont
opofhi
m andcuppedhi
sface.

Me:
y ounotgoi
ngtoloseme,
especi
all
yovert
his.t
hiswi
l
lbegoodf
ormycar
eerandi
twi
l
lget
metheri
ghtexposur
eIneedf
orfut
urepur
poses.

Hi
m:t
henwhydoesi
tfeel
li
keI
’
m goi
ngt
olosey
ou
Me:
youwi
l
lnev
erl
osemeMel
okuhl
e.

Hi
m:t
hat
’sex
act
lyhowt
her
elat
ionshi
pends

Me:
sowhat
?Youdon’
ttr
ustt
hatwecanmaket
hiswor
k?

Iwasal i
ttl
ehur tthathet houghtthi
sli
tt
leofourr elati
onshi
p.ImeanIbelievewecanmakei t
wor k,
heshoul dbelievethatwecanmaket hingswor k.HeandIloveeachot herandourlovefor
eachot hershoul dnotbemeasur edbydistanceandt i
me.IloveMel
okuhle,Iknowi thasn’
teven
beenay earletalone6mont hsbutIlovethisguyandIcani magineafuturebet weenus.call
me
crazybuthei sthefirstguyIactuall
yseeaf utur
ei n,Ij
ustwishhesawthesamei nme.

Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouYandi
swa.YouknowIdobutt
his?y
oul
eav
ingt
hecont
inent
?Idon’
tknow

Igotof
fofhi
m.i
twaspr
ett
ycl
earwher
ewest
oodwi
tht
hismos.

Hi
m:wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?

Me:
mypl
ace.Ineedt
obr
eat
he

Hi
m:Yay
acomeon

Itookmybagandev eryt
hingandwalkedout.HewasbeggingmenottogobutIcoul
dn’tst
ay,
Mel owasbeingunfair
!Notallofusarebor
npr i
vi
legedashi
m,notal
lofusgett
ohaveaf at
her
andmot heraspowerfulashisparent
s.OnmywayoutIbumpedi ntoMrBess,l
i
ter
all
y.Iwas
holdingbacktear
s.

Me:
I’
m sosor
ry

Hi
m:ar
eyouok?y
ouseem abi
tshaken

Me:
I’
ll
bef
inesi
r;Ihav
etogo

Hi
m:y
ousur
eyouok?

Me:
YesMrBessIam ok.Goodday

Wit
ht hatIwalkedawaytot hrought hekit
chenandwentout .Iaskedoneoft hedri
v erst
odri
ve
metomypl ace.Idi
dn’
tevenf eelthedistancebecausemymi ndwasj ustelsewhere.Whoam I
ki
dding?Iknowwher emymi ndwas, Iwasthinki
ngofhowsel f
ishmyboy fri
endwas.Hekept
cal
li
ngandIkepti gnor
ing,Icouldn’ttal
ktohim now, Idi
dn’twanttotalktohim atall.Hepar
ked
out
sidemygat eandIt
hankedhi m andwenti nsi
de.IfoundLedi i
nthekitchenmaki ng
somethingtoeat.

Her
:Idi
dn’
tthi
nky
ouwer
ecomi
ngback

Iputmybagont hefloorandmyphoneandkey sonthekitchencounterthensatonthehigh

chai
rs.Icoul
dn’
trespondbecausei
fIdidthenIwoul
dcr yandIwoul dn’
tbecryingoutsadness
orsomethingbuti
twouldbetearsofangerandIdi
dn’twantt hat
.IwassomadatMel oov er
t
his.t
hisismyfut
ureweweretal
ki
ngabout
,ai
ntl
ikeIwasev
enaski
ngper
missi
onbutIwas
t
ell
inghim sot
hathecanbepr
eparedi
ncaseIl
eave.

Her
:Yandi
youok?

Shewasst
andingontheothersi
deoft
hecount
erwi
thherf
acer
est
edonherhandswi
thher
el
bowsonthecount
erlooki
ngatme.

Me:
yeah

Her
:whatdi
dMel
odo?

Me:
het
hinkshe’
sgoi
ngt
oloseme

Her
:aaht
hat
’scut
e

Me:
hedoesn’
tthi
nkheandIcan’
tmaket
hisdi
stancet
hingwor
kNal
edi

Tearsroll
eddownmycheeks,
thet
ear
sIhadbeenhol
dingbackf
oundt
hei
rwayoutofwher
e
theybelongandsl
i
ddownmycheeks.

Her
:Mel
olov
esy
ou.

Me: t
hat’
swhatIthoughtunt
ilr
ecentl
y.I
t’
sli
kehedoesn’twantmetosucceedandbethe
personIaspi
ret
obe.Thi si
sgoingtotakemeplacesLedi,
heissupposedtosuppor
tandnot
shutmedownov erthi
s.thi
sismyf ut
ure

Her
:makehi
m under
standt
hatt
hen

Me:
he’
sst
ubbor
nandhewon’
tli
sten

Her:Mel ol
ovesyou,healmostdi
edbecausey ouweremadathim.heri
skedhisli
fehereandif
aguycandoal lofthatf
oryouthenIhavenor easont
odoubtt
hewayhef eel
sabouty ou.Make
him seethi
ngsthewayy ouseethem andf
indawayf orwar
dfr
om ther
e.Thereason
rel
ationshi
psdiei
sbecauseofmi scommunicati
on

Me:
Idon’
tknow

Her:Mel
ohasallt
hemeanst ocomeandv i
sityouwhenhecanandsowi l
lyou.Ireadthi
sthi
ng
onli
neaboutt
hist
hingyougoingtoandIl
earntthatt
hemoneyear
nedfrom thepiecesyousel
l
wil
lcometoyouandtheywil
lalsogiv
eyouanal l
owance,
aplacet
ostayandt heywill
buyyoua
ti
ckett
ogohomef orthosel
ongholi
days.

EvenIdidn’
tknowt hat
,al
lIknewwer ethel i
tt
ledetai
lsmylectur
ertol
dmeandt hatwasthat
.
Onewoul dt
hinkIwasn’ti
nterest
edorany thi
nglikethatbutIonl
yheardoft
hisyester
dayandI
di
dn’tt
hinkthatsuchnewswoul dbeav ai
lableonli
ne.Myphoner ang,
Iwasabouttoendthecal
l
whenIsawAsemahl e’
snameandpi cturepopuponmyscr een.

/
/Her
:youl
eft
,justl
i
ket
hat
Me:
I’
m sor
ry

Her
:what
’swr
ong?Youok?

Me:
yeahI
’
mfi
ne.I
’
m sor
ryIl
eftwi
thoutt
ell
i
ngy
ou

Her
:di
dyouandmybr
otherhav
eaf
ight
?

Me:
canwet
alksomeot
hert
ime

Her
:I’
l
lcal
lyouagai
nlat
erok

Me:
sur
e.By
e

Her
:by
ebabe/
/

Her
:justt
hinkaboutwhatI
’
m say
ingokbabe

Shekissedmyf oreheadandwentbackt
oherpots.Iwentt
hroughmyphoneandlookedatthe
dozenmi ssedcall
sfrom Mel
o,t
hemessagesbeggingmetocallhi
m backort
oanswerhiscal
ls.
Myphoner angwhil
estil
li
nmyhandanditwashim cal
li
ng.Igotupandtookmybagandwent
outanswer i
nghiscall
.

/
/Hi
m:Yandi
swawher
ear
eyou?

Me:
I’
m atmypl
ace

Hi
m:don’
tev
erscar
emel
i
ket
hat

Me:
ok

Hi
m:Iwaswor
ri
edabouty
ouYandi
swa!

Me:
wel
lI’
mfi
neMel
okuhl
e

Hi
m:canwet
alkaboutt
hispl
ease

Me:what
’st
her
etot
alkabout
,youmadei
tpr
ett
ycl
eart
haty
ouar
eagai
nstmedoi
ngsomet
hing
Il
ove

Him:youknowthat’
snott
rue!Yandi
swaIwantyout
ogoplaces,
Ilovey
ouandIwi
l
lal
way
s
supporty
ourhust
leanddoanythi
ngIcant
ohelpoutandy
ouknowt hat
!

Ikeptqui
et

Him:Yay
aIloveyou,maybeali
tt
letoomuchthanIshoul
dandIam ter
ri
fiedofl
osi
ngyou
Yandi
swa.Iknowwecanmaket hisworkbuty
oucan’tbl
amemef orbei
ngscaredl
iket
his.I
’
m
scar
edyou’
llmeetsomeonebett
erther
eandI’
m worri
edwe’
ll
dri
ftapart

Me:
wewon’
tdr
if
tapar
tifwedon’
twantt
o.Rel
ati
onshi
psar
eaboutwor
kingt
oget
herbabeand
t
rust
ingi
neachot
hert
hatwewi
l
lmakei
twor
kthr
ought
hickandt
hin

Him:Iwantt
obel
i
evet
hatYay
a,Ir
eal
l
ydobutt
hingshappen.Thi
ngswedon’
tint
endf
ort
o
happen

Me:
not
hingwi
l
lhappenonmysi
de

Hi
m:andnot
hingwi
l
lhappenonmysi
de.I
’
mint
hisf
ort
hel
ongr
unbabe

Me:
youpr
omi
se?

Hi
m:doy
oupr
omi
se?

Me:
ofcauseIdo

Hi
m:Idot
oo.pl
easedon’
tev
erl
eav
eli
ket
hatagai
n

Me:
don’
tmakemel
eav
eli
ket
hatt
oo

Hi
m:Iwi
l
ltr
ynott
obabe.Sowegood?

Me:
ofcausewegood.

Hi
m:t
ell
mey
oul
oveme

Me:
Iwantt
oheari
tfr
om y
ouf
ir
st

Hi
m:what
?You’
vebeenhear
ingmesayi
t.hehy
azi
youal
mostgotmei
ntr
oubl
eforl
eav
ingl
i
ke
t
hat

Me:
howso?

Him:youbumpedint
odadwheny oudr amat
ical
l
ystor
medoutandtheol
dguywal
kedi
nher
eal
l
concer
nedaboutDrGxaba’
sdaughterandwhatIhaddonet
hist
imeandthent
her
ewasmy
si
stert
oowhocamel ooki
ngforyou

Me:
it’
sgoodt
oknowt
haty
ourf
ami
l
ylov
esme

Hi
m:don’
tgetcomf
ort
abl
e

Il
aughedatt
hewayhesai
dit
.therewassomet
hingaboutMelowhi
chIneverunder
stood.I
don’
tgetwhyhemadei
tsohardtobemadathim.Ihavetr
iedfr
om t
imeandtimebutitnever
l
asts24hour
s.Hi
schar
miswayt oomuchevenforme.

Me:
what
everbabe.Youl
oveme

Hi
m:r
ii
ight
.By
e

Me:
byebabe
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou

Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo

Ther
ewassi
l
ence.

Hi
m:whyar
en’
tyoudr
oppi
ngt
hecal
l
?

Me:
whyar
en’
tyou?

Hi
m:soy
ouwon’
tgetmadi
fIdr
opi
tony
ounow

Me:
ofcausenot

Hi
m:okby
eforr
eal
thi
sti
me.

Me:
byebabe/
/

Aft
erthecal
lIwaslef
tsmil
ingfr
om eartoear.Thisguydidthingstomey ouguy
s.It
ooka
showerandthenwenttoj
oinLedii
nthelounge,shewaseat i
ngspaghetti
andmeatbal
ls
watchi
ngTheHavesAndHav eNots,aseri
esbyTy lerPer
ry.Isatnextt
oher

Her
:someoneseemsbet
ter

Me:
wespokeandhewasact
ual
l
yunder
standi
ng

Her
:tol
dyout
omakehi
m seer
eason

Me:
Idi
dn’
thav
etomakehi
m seer
eason.Hej
ustsawi
thi
msel
f

Her
:ncooohy
ouguy
s

Me:
yeah.Sowher
e’smypl
ate?

Her
:int
hemi
crowav
e.

Igotuptof etchi
twithaforkandpour edsomesaucest henwenttojoi
nher.Westayedupal l
nighteat
ingsnacksandenj oy
ingthedr amaofthefi
rstseasonandthenwewenttosl eepinher
room andwecuddl edtoo.ThenextdayIwokeupandpr eparedusbreakf
astandt
ooki ttoher
i
nbed, shewasal lsmil
esandhappy .Igotacallf
rom mynewl yf
oundedstepmotheraskingto
meetupf orlunchandthenwedr oppedt hecal
l
.

Her
:andt
hat
?

Me:
thatwasmyf
ather
’swi
feaski
ngmeoutf
orl
unch

Her
:ni
ce,
yougoi
ng?

Me:
Idon’
tknow.whatcoul
dsheandIpossi
blyt
alkabout
?
Her
:youwoul
dbesur
pri
sedey
.Gi
veherachance

Me:
soy
ousayIshoul
dgo?

Her
:whatdoy
ouhav
etol
ose?

Inoddedandat emyf oodandt henshewentt owasht hedi sheswhi l

eIdidt
hebedandwentt o
preparef orthi
sl unchwi t
hmummydear est.Aft
ershower ingIcalledmom andt oldherabout
theexhibiti
onandshesai dshewasgoi ngt obethereandshewaswi t
hme100%aboutgoi ngt o
studyabr oadandwehadagr eatconversati
onaboutMel oandI ,wealsospokeofmyst epmom
andshet oldmet oletmyguar ddownandt akealeapoff aithwiththem asaf amily,t
heymight
notbebadpeopl e.Afterthe1-hourconversati
onwithmymom, Il
otionedmybodyandt hengot
dressedi nasi mplepi nkdressandasandal ,tookmyt hingsandcal ledhert
ot el
lherIwasdone.
Shepar kedout sidemypl aceandIwalkedt ohercar,shedr oveat wodoorBenzwi thredl
eather
seats.Wewentt ohav elunchinGateway .WhenIwast herefordinnerwenev erreall
ygottomy
studies.ItwasabouthowIgr ewupandwher eIgr
ewupandwhatmymot herdidf orali
vi
ng…
thosel i
tt
lethings.

Her
:sowhatar
eyoust
udy
ingnow?

Me:
Itakepi
ctur
esorpai
ntt
hem…ei
thert
hanbei
ngapast
or’
swi
fe,
whatel
sedoy
oudo?

Her
:Iownabout
iquei
nCapeTown,
Jobur
gandher
e

Inodded

Her
:soar
eyougoi
ngt
othear
texhi
bit
ionnextweek?

Me:
yeah…Iki
ndofgoti
nvi
ted

Her
:ohwowt
hati
sni
ce.Iam pr
oudofy
ou

Me:
thanks

Ir
eal
l
ydi
dn’
thav
emuchconv
ersat
ionwi
tht
hiswomanandIt
hinkshepi
ckedt
hatup.

Her:
look,
Iknowyouandyourfat
hergotof
fatthewrongfoott
hef
ir
stt
imey
ouguy
smetbutI
canassur
eyouthathei
sagreatmanandagr eatf
ather

Me:ofcausey
ouwoul
dthi
nkt
hat
.Hewast
her
efory
out
hroughoutal
lofy
ourpr
egnanci
esI
’
m
sur
e

Shechuckl
ed,
notbecauseIsai
daj
okebutherchuckl
ewassar
cast
ic

Her:
whathappenedbetweeny
ourmotherandy
ourf
atheryearsagoist
heirbusinessandIenter
nowher
ebecauseIwasn’tt
her
ebutt
hismuchIcant
ellyou,hewouldhavelovedtobet her
efor
youashehasforther
estofhi
ski
ds

Me:
excepthedi
dn’
tdoany
thi
ng.Hedi
dn’
ttr
ytocont
actmymot
herormeandy
oucan’
tsaywe
changedaddr essesorstat
esbecausemygrandmotherst
il
lli
vesint
hever
ysamehouseshedid
19y ear
sagoandal sothenumbermygrandmotherusedbacktheni
sanumbermymom has
beenusingf oraverylongti
menowsowhat ’
shisexcusefornotbei
ngt
here?What
’shi
sexcuse
fornottr
ying?

Her
:itwaswhatwasbestf
ory
ouandy
ourmot
her

Me:
don’
tgi
vemet
hatbul
l
shi
t

Isai
drol
l
ingmyey
es.

Me:
ther
eisnosucht
hingandy
ouknowi
t.

It
ookmyphoneandwasaboutt
otakemybagwhensheputherhandov
ermi
ne

Her
:pl
easedon’
tleav
e.Idi
dn’
tmeant
oupsety
ou

Me:
youdon’
tknowy
ourhusbandf
rom 19y
ear
sago

Her
:butIknowhi
mfr
om 16y
ear
sbackandIcant
ell
yout
hismuch,
hehaschanged

Me:
what
evermakesy
ousl
eepatni
ght
.

Her
:canwet
alkaboutsomet
hingel
sepl
ease?

Me:
Iwoul
dlov
etobutIhav
epl
ans

Her
:canIatl
eastgodr
opy
ouof
faty
ourpl
ans?

Me:
fine

Shesett
ledt
hebil
landwewalkedoutandwentt
ohercar
.Iaskedhert
ostopinf
rontofSi
hle’
s
fl
at.HeandIhadalott
otal
kabout,
hegotbackl
astni
ghtsayshehasasupp.Si
hlewal
kedout
toopen.

Her
:soi
sthi
syourboy
fri
end

Me:
now…Si
hlei
smyf
ri
end

Her
:oh

Shenoddedast houghshedisappr
ov edbutreal
lyIdi
dn’
tcare.Si
hlegr
eet
edandshegr
eeted
backwithat
ti
tude,Idi
dn’tmindherreall
y.Ij
ustgotoutofhercarandt
ookmythi
ngsand
walkedoutt
ot heGatewithSihl
e

Hi
m:andt
hen?Whowast
hat
?

Me:
thest
epmot
her
.Don’
tmi
ndher

Hi
m:st
epmot
her
?Youhav
east
epmot
her
?
Me:
notr
eal
l
y…i
t’
sal
ongst
ory

Hi
m:Ial
way
shav
eti
me.l
et’
sgobuysomet
hingt
oeat
.

SI
hlel
eavedinBerea.Wewal kedt
oBereacentret
obuyjunkandwentbacktohispl
acet
oget
st
onedandt al
kaboutthedramahehasmi ssedoutonwhil
ehewasonholidayandIwasback
i
nDurban.Ieventol
dhim aboutMeloget
ti
ngi nanacci
dentonhi
swaytomeandawhol elot
.

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15,
19:
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E04–Mel
o

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yI ’
m notasunder standingbutf ort hesakeofpeaceIl ett hingsbebecauset hel ast
thi
ngIwanti susbr eakingupov erherl eav ing.Imeanwhowoul dcel ebr ateatt heirgirlf
riend
l
eav i
ngt hem f orl ordknowshowl ong?ImeanIcheckedt histhingoutandi tisl egitbutt he
problem wi tht histhingofher sist hatitmeansshewoul dbegonef or3y earsandIdon’ tknow
howt hehel lI’m supposedt ol i
vewi tht hat.Yes, Icanv isi
therandshecanv i
sitmebutl et’
sbe
real
isticnow, howof tendot hosev i
sitslast ?Thepr oblem wi t
hl ongdi stancei sthati nthe
beginningy out alkev erydayandt henst artt alking3or4t imesaweekandf r
om t herey outalk
onceort wi ceaweekandf rom ther ey out al konceamont handt hecy clegoesonunt ilyoutwo
tal
kbecausey oupr obabl ycameacr osssomet hingt or emindy out haty oust illi
nar elati
onship
andt henshi itendsj ustl iket hat.NowI ’
m notsay i
ngt hatthisiswhatwi llhappenwi t
hherandI
butwhatar et heoddsr eally?Herl eavingi sf rust r
atingme, it
sst ressingmeout ,todayIwentt o
thedoct orandhet oldmemypr essur ewasupandt hatIwasget tingbet t
erbutmebei ngl i
ke
thi
sisnothel pi ngmysi tuat i
on.Yay aof fer edt odr iveme, mom wasnotonspeaki ngt ermswi t
h
meunl essshewasaski ngmet opasshersomet hingorsheneededsomet hingf rom meand
thatwasi t.thatwasal sooneoft het hingsst ressingmeout .Wegott ot hecar ,Ihadaskedt he
doctort or emov ethecastonmyar m becauseIf eltlikeIdidn’tneedi tandmyar m didn’thurt
anymor e,wewentbackandf ort
habouti tunt ilIthreat enedt osuehi m…i t
sst upi dreally
becausei t’
shi sjobt omakesur et hatIam wel l andt hatIf ol
lowor dersbuthegav ein.Myar m
wasok; itwasn’ tpai nful atall r
eally.Ithinkonecoul dsayt hatthex- rayswer ewr ongbecause
seemi ngl yall Ididwasspr ai
ni tandnowi twasf i
neandbackt onor mal .Wewer ei nthecaron
ourwayoutoft hehospi tal.

Her
:youok?

Me:
yeahI
’
m good
Her
:yourdoct
orsai
dyourpr
essur
ewashi
gh

Me:
yeaht
hingshappenbabe

Her
:ok…wher
edoy
ouwantt
oeat
?

Me:
wher
everweeati
sfi
ner
eal
l
y

Shesighedandf ocusedont her oad.HonestlyIhadal otonmymi ndbecauset odaywas

Wednesdaywhi chmeanst hatintwoday sort omor r
owshemi ghtbeheadedforJobur gand
thenatwooraweekf rom nowshemi ghtjustbef l
yingouttowher evershewil
lbe.Shegotinat
Gatewayandpar kedneart herestaurantsoutside.Webot hgotof f
,Iheadedtohersideaboutto
takeherhandi ntomi nebutshedi dn’thavenoneoft hatsoIletherbe.Wewentt opanarott
is
andwer etakent oat ablefortwo,thewai t
resswasoucheat hrowingsomeser i
ousv i
beswith
me.wegott oourt ableandsetonopposi tesides,Ichuckledatthi
sgi r
l.i
twasreall
ycutebut
I’
m overthatli
fe.

Her
:Himynamei
sAmyandI
’
llbey
ourwai
tr
essf
ort
heday
,canIgety
ouguy
sany
thi
ngt
odr
ink
sol
ong?

Yay
a:I
’
llhav
eaBubbl
e-gum mi
l
kshake

Me:
andI
’
llhav
eabot
tl
eofHei
nekenpl
ease

Her
:comi
ngr
ightup

Me:
thanksAmy

Wit
hthatshesmi
l
edandwal
kedaway
,Yay
aey
edmef
rom hermenuandwentbackt
olooki
ng
t
hroughi
t.

Me:
somet
hingi
sbot
her
ingy
ou

Her
:nope…not
hing

Me:
youknowIhat
eitwheny
oul
i
ket
his.y
ouhav
en’
tev
enl
eftandal
readyt
hingsar
eli
ket
his

Her
:exact
ly,
Ihav
en’
tev
enl
eftandal
readyy
ouf
li
rt
ingwi
tht
hewai
tr
ess

Me:
what
?Iwasj
ustbei
ngni
cegeez
.Canwej
ustt
alkaboutwhat
’sr
eal
l
ybot
her
ingy
ou?

Her
:not
hing’
sbot
her
ingme.I
’
mfi
ne

Me:
real
l
ynow

Her:
Melowhywon’
tyout
alkt
omeaboutwhat’sbot
heri
ngy
ou.Wei
nar
elat
ionshi
pher
ebut
youwon’
tev
ental
ktomeaboutwhat
’sst
ressi
ngyouout

Me:
youar
est
ressi
ngmeoutYandi
swa!
Her
:me?

Me: y
es,you.Idon’
twantyoutoleavebutthenmet ell
i
ngyouthatmakesitseem li
keI’
m bei
ng
unfai
rtowardsyouandthatIdon’
twanty outogrowanddowhaty oureal
l
yl ove.Il
ovethaty
ou
passi
onateaboutthi
sbutIreal
lydon’twanttol
osey ouYandi
swa.Il
oveyou

Shel
ookedatmewi
they
esf
il
ledwi
tht
ear
s.

Her
:It
houghtwewer
eov
ert
his

Me:
clear
lywenotbecausei
t’
sbeenbot
her
ingmeev
ersi
nce.Ican’
tbar
eitYay
a

Her
:butMel
othi
sisagr
eatoppor
tuni
tyf
ormeandusi
nfut
ure

Me: Igett
hatbutt
hisi
sinev
itabler
eall
y.Wecan’tshyawayf r
om whatmighthappeni
nthi
s
peri
odoftime.weoucheamaki ngpromisestoeachotherofwenottheoneswhohavecontr
ol
overwhatismeanttobeornot.I’
m notbeingnegat
ivehere;I
’
m bei
ngreal
ist
ic

Her
:sowhatar
eyousay
ingr
eal
l
y?

Me:not
hing.I
’
mj ustsayi
ngthatwehavenocont
rol
overt
hef
utur
e,l
etsf
ocusont
henowand
notmakepromisesneit
herofuswil
lbeabl
etokeep

Amyar
ri
vedwi
thourdr
inks.

Amy
:soar
eyouguy
sreadyt
oor
der
?

Il
ookedatYay
awhowasl
ooki
ngdown.

Me:
We’
l
lhav
eaduooft
hemonst
eri
topi
zza

Her
:andwhi
chf
lav
our
swoul
dyoul
i
ke?

Me:
babe?

Yay
a:whi
chev
ery
ouchoosei
sfi
nebyme

Me:
ok.SaucyMeatSupr
emeandSaucyChi
ckenandMushr
oom pl
ease.Thanky
ou

Her
:youror
derwi
l
lber
eadyi
n30mi
nut
es.CanIt
aket
hese?

Yayagavehert hemenuandIdi dthesameandwi ththatshethankedusandwal kedaway .Igot

upfrom mysideandwentt ositwithYayaonhersi de.Ihatet
hatmygi rl
fr
iendwaslikethis
becauseofme.t hisalonemakesmeseem l ikeajerkwhowant stogetintothenextskir
tIsee
whenshel eaveswhenact ual
lyit
snot hi
nglikethatbecauseIl
ov eYandiswaandIwoul dn’
tdare
doanythingtojeopardisewhatsheandIhav e.Noskirti
sworthit.Il
i
ftedherfaceupwi t
hmy
i
ndexf i
ngerandwi pedhertearswithmyt humbs, l
uckymeshewasn’ tweari
nganymakeup.

Me:youhav
enoideahowmuchIlov
eyou.IfIcoul
dlaymyheartoutfory
ouIwouldsothatyou
seet
hatonl
yyouhavei
tandnoonewil
lev
ert akei
tfr
om y
ou.Ididn’
tmeantoupsetyouhere,I
j
ustwant
edy
out
oseet
hingsdi
ff
erent
lyf
rom howt
heyl
ook

Shenodded

Me:
canIseet
hatsmi
l
eIl
ovesomuchnow?

Her
:leav
emeal
one

Shesai
dtr
yinghar
dnottosmi
l
ebutwebot
hknowhowmuchofachar
merIcanbe,
event
ual
l
y
shegav
einandsmiledf
orme

Me:
ther
eiti
s

Her
:Shutupandmov
eIwantt
ogocl
eanmyf
ace

Me:
fine

Isai
drol
l
ingmyey
es

Me:
giv
emeaki
ssf
ir
st

Her
:fi
ne

Sheki
ssedmycheekwi
thherr
edl
i
ps

Me:
JesusChr
ist
!Youbet
ternothav
elef
tmewi
tht
hesel
i
psofy
our
s

Her
:it
’smydut
y

Wit
hthatIgotupandret
urnedt
omyseatandshegotupandwenttocl
eanherselfup.It
ook
t
histi
metojustgothr
oughmymessagesandrespondt
oafewofthem unt
ilYayacameback.

Me:
tooky
oul
ongenough

Her:
Ineededtopeet
oo.sowhi
l
eIwasi
nthel
ooIhear
doury
oungwai
tr
esst
ell
herf
ri
endhow
shewouldgi
veitt
oyou

Shesai
dlaughi
ng

Her
:thet
hingsshewant
stodot
oyou…

Shecont i
nuedlaughi
ngmakingmelaught
o.ther
e’ssomet
hingaboutwhensomeonel
aughs,
thei
rlaughteraut
omatical
l
yrubsof
fonyoutoo

Me:
ser
iousl
y?

Shewasi
nstit
chesofl
aughter
.Amycamewi t
hthepizzaandputi
toni
tsst
and,
sheandYay
a
shar
edagazebefor
eshelef
tus.Yay
acrackedupevenmor e

Me:
whatbabe?
Her:sothatgir
lwast ell
ingherfr
iendhowshecan’twaittobeallov
eryoudoi
ngwhatpor nst
ars
do,sai
dshewoul dl etyou50shadeheranywher eandanyhow.Soherfri
endasks,
“howbi gdo
youthi
nkhei s?”that’
swhenIcameoutandr espondedthatyouwerebi
genough,Iwashedmy
handsandleftthem lookingl
iketheyj
ustgotstr
uckbylighteni
ng

Il
aughed

Me:
may
beIshoul
dleav
ehermynumbert
henandwe’
l
lgett
odot
het
hingsy
our
efuset
odo

Herfaci
alexpr
essionchangedwi
thi
nabl
i
nkofaney
emaki
ngmel
aughather
.shewas
suddenl
ysoseriousandpouti
ng.

Her
:ist
hatwhaty
ouwant
?Ist
hatwhatImeanwhoy
ou’
l
lbedoi
ngwhenI
’
m gone?

Me:
what
?NO!I
’
m ki
ddi
nghai
boYay
a

Her
:it
’snotf
unny

Me:
howqui
cky
ouwer
etochange.Ican’
tremembert
hel
astt
imeIl
aughedl
i
ket
his

Shepi
nchedmewi
thherst
il
ett
onai
l
sshehaddonef
ort
heev
entoft
hisweekend

Me:
OUCH!

Her
:ser
vesy
our
ight
!

Me:
canwej
usteat
.I’
m st
arv
ingher
e

Her
:eatwi
thAmy

Me:
butIwantt
oeatwi
thmyAmy

Isaidtucki
ngherweavebehi ndherear.Shehadweav eon, itwaspartedinthemiddlebut
apparentl
yyoucanpartitthreeways…orsoshesay s.Idon’ tknowreall
y,may bebecausemy
si
ster’
sdon’tputonanyweav eorwhatsoeverbecauset heirhairi
slongenough.theygotthe
hairfr
om myf at
her’
sside,yesmom hasl onghair;probably14”butmysi ster’
shairi
sthatofa
whitepersonandthetextureisri
chtoo.theyareblessedshame.Asf orYay a,
herhairis
probably10”l
ong,al
lIknowi sthati
tslongenoughandshedoesn’ tneedthelongweav eshe
hasonbuti tl
ooksgoodonhert hat
’sforsure.

Her
:Iam notAmy

Me:
jeal
ousyl
ooksgoodony
ou

Her
:what
ever
!Let
’sj
usteatandl
eav
e.

Weatewhilechatt
ingaboutstuff
,shewasexci t
edaboutherartgoi
ngt
obesoldatthe
exhi
bit
iont
opeoplefrom al
loverbecauseappar entl
yther
ewasgoingt
obepeoplefr
om all
over
att
endi
ngthist
hing.Youcouldjusttel
lthatshelovedwhatshewasdoi
ngbecausesheli
tup
everyt i
meshespokeofi t
,shewastell
ingmeabouthowwhensheget sbackshewant stoopen
anar tGaller
yanditwil
lbeasuccess.Shewentontotell
met hatthemoneysheget sf r
om the
picturesshesells;
shewil
lputi
tinhersavi
ngsaccountsothatsheisabletobuil
dthisgaller
yof
hers.Iwaspr oudofhernodoubt.Whenwewer edoneIsettl
edthebill
andwi t
hthatwedr ov
eto
myhome.Thehousewasempt y
,meaningmom anddadwer eatwor k,Yanaprobablyalsoat
wor kandAsewasoutwi t
hherfri
ends.Wewenttomyr oom andwehadast eamymakeout
session.Ikissedhersi
deoftheheadasshelai
donmychestt r
yingtocatchherbreath,shewas
stil
lont opofme.

Her
:Idon’
tthi
nkI
’
llbeabl
etowal
kaf
tert
oday

Ichuckl
ed,
shesoundedsotir
ed.Yayaknewhowtobeont
opt
hatmuchIcant
ell
you.Sher
ode
mel i
keapornst
ar…asAugustAlsi
nawouldsay
.

Me:
I’
m cur
iousast
owher
eyoul
ear
ntt
odowhaty
ouj
ustdi
d

her
:scr
ewy
ou!

Me:
youj
ustdi
dbabeandIam st
il
ltr
yingt
orecov
erf
rom i
t

Shecl
i
ckedhert
ongue.Sher
aisedherheadandl
ookedatmeandIl
ookedatherback

Me:
what
?

Her
:not
hing.I
’
mjustadmi
ri
ngwhat
’smi
net
hat
’sal
l

Me:
real
l
ynow?

Her
:yep.I
’
llnev
ert
radet
his,
whatwehav
eforany
thi
ngMel
o.

Me:
nei
therwoul
dIbabe

Her
:thenpl
easet
rustandbel
iev
ethat
.Pl
easel
etmel
eav
epeacef
ull
yandbel
i
evet
hatwecan
makeitwor
kdespi
tewhereIam.

Me:
Itr
usty
ou.Ij
usthopet
haty
out
rustmet
oo

Her:
ofcauseIdobutMeloshouldthi
sgettoomuchfory
ouandyouf
eelasthoughy
oucannot
l
iv
eliket
his,
pleaset
ell
meratherthantost
ringmeal
ongandpl
aymeforafool

Iat
tempt
edt
otal
kbutsheputherf
ingeronmymout
h.

Her:Iknowy ouaguyandy ouhav eneedsbutsodoI .WhatI ’m sayi

ngi st
hatpl easedon’tcheat
onmei fyoucan’tcar
ryonl ikethis,r
atheryouendthi
ngswi t
hmeandbeci vilwithmeov erthe
mat t
ersothatIam abl
et ounder standwhyy ouendthingsandonemor ething,don’tpullt
hat
stuntyoupull
edonKat e.Mepi ssingy ouoff
,whichwil
l probablyhappenal ot,pleasedon’tblow
offsomesteam bybangi ngsomechi ck,i
fyouwanttobl owofsomest eam.Takeashotl i
ke
anynormal per
sonorgoshootsomehoopsorpunchabagorwal lorsomet hing.justdon’
t
cheatonmeordoany thingthatwi l
lbreakmytrustbecauset rusti
slikeami rror,youcanf i
xiti
f
i
tsbr
okenbutt
hecr
ackswi
l
lal
way
sbet
her
e.Nowy
oucant
alk

Me:youhav
eyourselfadeal
.Iexpectt
hesamefrom y
oubabe.It
rusty
ouwayt oomuchandI
don’
twantt
olosethattr
ustorbeputinaposi
ti
ontodoubty
ou.Itr
ustthatwecanmakethi
s
workok

Sheki
ssedmeonmyl i
psandIr
esponded,
herkissmademehardal
loveragai
n.Shegi
ggl
edi
n
bet
weentheki
ss,
Ifl
i
ppedusoversoIwasintopandther
esti
shist
oryastheysay
.

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I’
m sorrythiscamet odaybutI ’
m sortofstruggl
ingtohandlethisdi
aryandt heotherone.The
thi
ngwi ththesestori
esi sthatI’
m st
rivi
ngt oimprovewhereIlackedonTheSandsOfTshani so
hencet heinser
tsaren’talwayspoppingandt hi
sti
mear oundtheinsertsarelongerthanfr
om
seasonone.Soi fthere’snoinserthere,checkAmahl e’
sDiaryforaninsertonTheBaby
Contract.Il
oveyouandagai nIam sor r
y<3: *

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10/
15,
19:
28]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E05

Aft
eranamazingsessionwit
hMel owewenttogetcl
eanedupandaft
erthatwegotdr
essed
andwentoutoftheroom togetsomet
hingt
oeat.Hemadeussandwicheswhil
eIsatonthe
bar
stool
andwatchedhi m.Hewasharmingsomethi
ngandhesoundedsogood,nodoubthe
wasagreatsi
nger.Ij
ustsatther
eandadmir
edhim.

“
Idi
dn’
tknowy
ouwer
eher
e.Hel
l
oYandi
swa”

Iwasstartl
edbyMr s.Besswalki
nginfr
om thedoorthatledtothepassage.Thiswomanwas
for
evergracef
ul,ev
erythi
ngaboutherwasjustbeauti
fulandperfect
.Yes,per
fectdoesnotexi
st
butIsweartogodt hatshewas.Shewaswear ingabeautif
ulnudepencil
skir
twitharedshir
t,
hai
rhangingloosealmostasthoughshejusttookoffherhair
bandandwear i
ngpinksleeper
s.
Nodoubtshehadj ustcamebackf r
om work.

Me:
hel
l
oMa,
howar
eyou?

Her
:I’
m goodhoneyandhowar
eyou?

Thet
ensi
onbet
weenherandMel
owasv
isi
ble.I
t’
snodoubtt
hatt
heset
wower
ear
gui
ngabout
something.Wel
lMel
ofi
l
ledmei
nonhergi
vi
nghi
mthesi
l
entt
reat
mentbutIdi
dn’
tthi
nki
twent
thi
sfar.

Me:
I’
m al
sogoodt
hanky
ou

Her
:how’
shome?Di
dyoupassal
lyourmodul
es?

Ismi
l
edbef
orer
espondi
ng.Iwaspr
oudofmy
sel
fforhav
ingdonet
hatwel
l
.

Me: Homeisok,mom i
sact
ual
l
ycomi
ngonherwayher
easwespeakandasf
ormymodul
es,
I
passedever
ythi
ng

Her
:that
’sgood.Iam pr
oudofy
ou.

Shebr
oughtmei
nforahugandt
henbr
okei
t.

Her
:youdi
dgood.Howl
ongwi
l
lyourmot
herbei
ntownf
or?

Me:
notf
orl
ong,
wegoi
ngt
obeat
tendi
nganar
tExhi
bit
ioni
nJobur
gthi
sweekend

Her
:theoneMel
oandhi
ssi
sterar
egoi
ngt
o?

Il
ookedatMel
owhowal
kedov
ert
ohandmeasandwi
ch.Inodded

Hi
m:canImakey
ousomet
hingt
oeat
?

Sheshookherheadandwal
kedov
ert
othef
ri
dge.Mel
olookedatmeandshr
uggedwhi
l
ebi
ti
ng
onhi
ssandwich.

Her
:Idi
dn’
tknowy
ouwer
ethatdeepi
ntoar
t,It
houghty
ouj
ustdi
dphot
ogr
aphy

Me:ILOVEallt
hingsar
t,i
tseverywher
e,i
t’
sinev
ery
thing.Theguyhost
ingt
heexhibi
ti
oni
s
act
uall
ymyidol.Iadmi
rehim andhiswor
k.GodIworshiphim!Hewil
lbeshowcasi
ngsomeof
mypieces

Shet
urnedar
oundandwashol
dingabot
tl
eofwat
er.

Her
:wow!Lookaty
oudoi
ngbi
gthi
ngs.Jensay
stheguyof
fer
saschol
arshi
ptost
udyabr
oad

Sheopenedherwat
erandl
eanedagai
nstt
hecupboar
dwhi
l
esi
ppi
ngoni
t.

Me:
yes.
..

Her
:forhowmanyy
ear
swi
l
lyoubest
udy
ingt
her
e?

Me:
ifIr
eadev
ery
thi
ngcor
rect
,itwi
l
lbef
or3y
ear
s

Her
:wher
ewoul
dthatl
eav
eyourr
elat
ionshi
pwi
thDer
ri
ck?

Iswal
l
owedhar
dbef
oreanswer
ing.
Hi
m:wewi
l
lmakei
twor
k

Mr
s.Bessdi
dn’
trespondt
oMel
o,i
nst
eadshej
ustl
ookedatmewai
ti
ngf
orar
esponse.

Her:you’l
lforgivemebutIwasoncewi t
hamanl i
keMelokuhl
ei nmyfir
styearinvarsi
ty.Iwas
herei
nDur banandhewasst udyi
ngi
nJobur
g, hewasn’tev
ent her
eforamont hwhenIf ound
hi
mi nbedwi thsomegirlwhom hehadconv
incedmef rom ti
met oti
met hatshewasnot hing
butaf r
iendtohi m.NowIt rusty
oubuti
tsMelokuhlet
hatIdon’ttr
ust
.Soagai nIask,where
wouldthisleav eyourr
elat
ionshi
p?

Me:
I’
dli
ket
obel
i
evet
hatheandIwi
l
lmakei
twor
k

Her
:fory
oursake,
Ireal
l
yhopehei
sabl
etokeepi
tinhi
spant
sfor3y
ear
s

Wit
hthatshewal
kedoutwi
thherwat
er.Il
ookedatMel
owhohadhi
sey
esonmet
hiswhol
e
t
ime.

Me:
whatj
usthappened?

Hi
m:t
hati
smymot
herf
ory
ou.

Me:
Ishoul
dleav
e.Mymot
heri
spr
obabl
yonherwayi
nsi
deDur
ban

Hi
m:soy
oul
eav
ing…

Me:
yep

Hi
m:whatt
imear
eyoul
eav
ingt
omor
row?

Me:int
hemor
ningIhav
eaf
ewt
hingsmom andIneedt
odosowe’
l
lpr
obabl
yleav
ear
ound2or
3pm

Hi
m:sodoest
hatmeanIwon’
tbeseei
ngy
ou?

Me:
Imi
ghtj
ustdr
opbyt
oki
ssy
ougoodby
eandi
fnotwe’
l
lmeeti
nJobur
g

Hi
m:whatar
ethechancesofmegoi
ng?

Me:
Idon’
tthi
nky
ourmom wi
l
lst
andi
nthewayofy
oucomi
ngt
osuppor
tme

Hechuckl
ed

Hi
m:y
epshel
i
kesy
out
hatmuchhuh

Me:
nott
obef
ull
ofmy
sel
forany
thi
ng…butsheador
esmeandsheseesher
sel
finme

Hi
m:r
ight
…let
’sgety
ouacart
odr
ivey
ouhomeMi
ssf
ull
ofy
our
sel
f

Il
aughedathi
m andt
ookmyt
hingst
henwewal
kedout
.
Me:
sohowl
ongi
sthi
s…y
ouandy
ourmom goi
ngt
ohav
eagoati
t?

Hi
m:we’
venev
erwentt
hisl
ongwi
thoutt
alki
ngsor
eal
l
yIdon’
tknow.

Me:
hav
eyout
ri
edcal
l
ingKat
e?

Hi
m:f
orwhat
?

Me:
wel
lshe’
sthecent
erofal
loft
hissoy
ouki
ndofhav
etocal
lher

Hi
m:I
’
llsee

Me:
don’
tseeMel
o,do.Kat
emi
ghtj
ustbet
hekeyt
oyouandy
ourmot
herf
ixi
ngt
hings

Thecarpul
l
edupi
nfr
ontofus.

Hi
m:Iwi
l
lseey
oui
nJobur
g

Hesai
dat
tempt
ingt
oki
ssmebutIgav
ehi
m mycheek

Hi
m:whatnow?

Me:
Mel
oyoudon’
tev
enknowi
fshewentt
hroughwi
thi
tornot

Hi
m:i
twaspai
dfor
.Anal
ertf
rom t
hebanknot
if
iedmymot
her
’sphone

Me:
justt
alkt
oKat
eMel
okuhl
e

Hi
m:whywoul
dshepayandnotgot
hroughwi
thi
t?

Me:howam Isupposedtoknow?Melokuhl
ejustcal
lKat
eandtal
ktohert
ogetherwi
thyour
mother.Letherbet
heonetoexpl
ainwhyshewentaheadwit
hevery
thi
ngtoyourmotherand
hopethatyouandyourmom wil
lbefi
neaft
er

Justashewasaboutt
orespondmyphoner
ang,
Irai
sedmyhandathi
m soIcananswermy
mom.

/
/Me:
Bheps

Her
:Iwi
l
lhi
tyouwena

Il
aughedather

Me:
wher
ear
eyou?

Her
:Ij
ustgoti
n.I
’
m headedt
oDur
banSt
ati
on

Me:
howmanymi
nut
esmay
be?

Her
:15It
hink.Say
sher
eI’
m supposedt
oar
ri
veat18:
45
Me:
uhhm okmom I
’
llbet
her
enownow

Her
:okbaby
.Seey
oui
nabi
t./
/

Hi
m:y
ouhav
etol
eav
e?

Me:
yep.Wenotdonet
alki
ngaboutt
his

Isai
dki
ssi
nghi
scheek

Hi
m:y
ou’
l
lcal
lmet
hen

Iwasal
readyi
nsi
det
hecar

Me:
yes,
Iwi
l
landy
ouwi
l
lcal
lKat
e.I
’
m notaski
ngy
out
hist
imear
ound,
I’
mtel
l
ingy
ou!

Henoddedandl
eanedint
oki
ssmebeforethedr
iverdrov
eoff.Iaskedt
hatwest
artatthebus
st
ati
onbefor
ehedri
vesmehome.Hedroppedusoffinfr
ontofthedoorandwewentinsi
de.

Her
:spot
less…Iseey
ouguy
sknowhowt
otakecar
eofy
our
sel
ves

Me:
comeonmom,
youknowweal
way
sdi
d

Her
:sowher
eist
hatf
ri
endofy
our
s?

Me:Idon’tknow.I
nherr
oom may
be,
I’
ll
goandcheckonher
.Letmeshowy
ouwher
eyouwi
l
l
besl
eepingtoo

WiththatIwalkedupthestair
sandshefol
lowedri
ghtbehi
ndmet othespareroom,Il
efthert
o
sett
leinwhil
eIwenttocheckonLedi.Iknockedbutshedi
dn’tr
espondsoIwalkedi
n.Ifound
hersleepi
ngpeaceful
l
y .Igotont
opofherbedandpat t
edherli
ght
ly,
shebli
nkedafewtimes
beforeopeni
nghereyesf ul
ly.

Me:
heyy
ou

Her
:hey
.Whendi
dyougether
e?Wher
e’sy
ourmom?

Me:
int
hespar
eroom.Youok?

Her
:yeahI
’
mfi
nebabe.Ij
ustf
ell
asl
eept
hat
’sal
l

Me:
younotonet
osl
eepi
ntheaf
ter
noon.Whati
sit
?

Her
:not
hing.I
’
mfi
ne

Me:
Nal
edi
.

Her
:Yandi

Me:
what
’sgoi
ngon?
Her
:ar
ghi
tsnot
hing.Lat
hit
hawasher
eear
li
eronmaki
ngt
hreat
sthatal
l

Me:
oh…

Her:
yeah,
Idon’
tknowhowsheknowbutsheknowsthaty
ouwil
lbel
eav
ingfort
hest
atessoon
andshementi
onedsomeshi
i
taboutbei
ngthemadam wheny
ougone…youknowhercrazyass

Me:
whati
sitwi
tht
hisgi
rl
?!

Her
:shei
sment
all
yil
landsheneedsmedi
cal
att
ent
iont
hat
’swhat
’swr
ongwi
thher

Knowi
ngLat
hit
ha.Ibel
i
evethatshewi
l
ltr
yherlev
elbestt
ogetwit
hMelowhenI
’
m gone.Shei
s
ver
ymuchcapabl
eofthatnow.Thi
sgi
rli
sreal
l
ytest
ingmypati
enceIswear

Her
:heydon’
twor
ryabouti
t.Af
tert
hebeat
ingIgav
eher
,shewon’
ttr
yany
thi
ng

Me:
webot
hknowt
hatwon’
tst
opher
.Let
’sgooutf
ordi
nner

Her
:ok.I
’
llchangei
ntosomet
hingappr
opr
iat
e

Shewaswear i
ngbum short
sandcr opt
opvest
.Sheknowsmom wouldn’
tappr
oveeventhough
Iwearli
kethatbutmom doesn’
tletmegooutdressedl
i
ket
hatnordoessheal
lowanyofmy
fr
iendsto.

Her
:hav
eyouhear
dfr
om Ni
ta?

Me:
lastt
imewespokeshewascomi
ngbacknextweek.Idon’
tknowbabe

Her
:weshoul
dsky
pehert
oni
ght

Me:
we’
l
ldo,
letmegocheckonmom ok

Her
:meety
ouatt
hebot
tom

Iwal
kedouttocheckonmom andshewassi tt
ingontopofthebedtalki
ngonthephonetell
i
ng
whoevershehadarr
ivedsaf
ely
.Isatnextt
oher,shef
ini
shedhercal
lthenputherphonenextto
her
.

Me:
soweshoul
dgoandeatout
,Ledi
didn’
tcookandI
’
m sor
tofl
azy

Her
:whyam Inotsur
pri
sed?Sowher
ear
ewegoi
ngt
oeat
?

Me:
Gat
ewayi
scl
oser
.

Her
:ok…l
etmeshowerf
ir
standt
henwe’
l
lgo

Me:
yes,
ma’
am

Wit
hthatIwal
kedoutandwentt
owaitonherdownst
air
schatt
ingwit
hmyfr
iendaboutstuf
f
unt
ilt
hedoccamedowndressedinal
ooselongdr
esswithasandal
andabl
ackleat
herjacket
.
ShelookedHOTt hat
’sf
orsure.Weshower edherwithcompli
ment smakingourwayoutoft he
housetoLedi ’
scar.WegottoGat ewayandheadedt oSpur
,Iorderedasaladbecausereall
yI
wasn’thungryandIaskedthem foraribmeal asatakeaway.Justaswewer esitt
ingeati
ng,I
sawmyot herfamil
ywalki
n.myey esandSino’smetandsheranov ert
oourtable.

Si
no:
GodIhav
emi
ssedy
ou!

Me:
hel
l
otoy
out
oosweet
ie

Igotupt
ohugher

Mom:
shel
ooksj
ustl
i
key
ou

Me:
thent
hatwoul
dmeanshel
ooksl
i
key
out
oot
hen

Webr
oket
hehugandshar
edal
augh.

Me:
mom t
hisi
sSi
not
handoandSi
not
hisi
smymot
herandt
hisi
sNal
edi
mybestf
ri
end

Si
no:
nicet
ofi
nal
l
ymeety
ou,
Ihav
ehear
dsomuchabouty
ou

Mom:
li
kewi
se.Ni
cet
omeety
out
oo

Justt
henherpar
ent
swal
kedov
er.

Dad:
Babes?

Mom turnedar
oundt
olookathi
m whi
l
eLedi
justsmi
rked.Iwasn’
treadyf
ort
hist
ohappennow
ofal
lti
mes.

Mom:
Thandohi
.

Idon’tknowwhatwasgoi ngonbutj udgi

ngbyt hewayhewasl ooki
ngather;youcoul
dtel
lhe
wassear chingforsomet hingthatoncewast herebutwi
thmom itwasdiffer
ent.I
twasli
keshe
wasst andinginfrontofast r
anger.Itwasasifshehadnev ermethi
m beforeandasift
hey
don’thaveachi l
dt oget
her.It’
snodoubtt hatmom wasov erhi
m butIdon’
tthinkhewasover
her.Dadwasgoi ngforahugbutmom wentwi thahandshake…OUCH!

Hi
m:uhhm Honeythi
sisBabal
wa,Yandiswa’
smom andBabest
hisi
smywi
feCar
oli
neand
t
hesear
eourson’sChri
sti
anandChri
stopher

Chr
ist
ianwasev
ersosweetwhengr
eet
ingusal
lbuthi
stwi
nwasj
ust“
toocool
”forus.

Mom:
nicet
omeety
oual
l
.Youhav
eabeaut
if
ulf
ami
l
y

Car
:thanky
ou.Youhav
eabeaut
if
uldaught
ery
our
sel
f

Mom:
thanky
ou

Dadcoul
dn’
tkeephi
sey
esof
fofmom.Wel
lshewasbeaut
if
ulobv
iousl
ybuti
t’
snodoubtt
hat
hesti
ll
hadat hi
ngf
orher.Hecoul
dbarel
ykeephi
seyesof
fandIt
hinkSi
nonot
icedbecause
sheaskedherdadt
hattheygoandfi
ndatabl
efort
hefami
ly

Caro:
itwasni
cemeet
ingy
ouandIhopewecoul
dmeetsomeot
hert
imeandhav
eachat
someday

Mom:why?Sowecanexchangestor
iesabouthowmuchofanasst
hemany
oumar
ri
edi
sor
maybehowgoodi
nbedhewas…l astti
meIchecked

Ledi
andIl
ookedateachot
herhol
dingbackl
aught
erandshock

Car
o:uhhhm no.Idi
dn’
tseei
tli
ke

Mom:
Iwasj
ustki
ddi
ng.Soundedf
unnyi
nmyhead.I
’
m sor
ryt
ohav
eof
fendedy
ou

Her
:ri
ght
.Uhhm Ishoul
djoi
nmyf
ami
l
y

Mom:
wecandobr
eakf
astt
omor
row

Mom hadherpokerf
aceont
hiswhol
eti
me.Shewascr
eepi
l
ycal
mify
ouaskme.

Car
o:y
ou’
l
lgetmynumberf
rom y
ourdaught
er,
anyt
imei
sfi
nebyme

Mom:
ok.Ni
cet
omeety
ouCar
oli
ne

Her
:li
kewi
se

Wi
tht
hatshewal
kedov
ert
oherf
ami
l
y.

Us:
whatt
hehel
lwast
hat
?

Ledi
andIspokei
nuni
son’

Mom:
not
hing

Ledi
:excuset
hel
anguagebuty
ou’
reabadb*
tch!

Me:
she’
sri
ght
.“j
oke”
?real
l
ymom

Mom:
Iwasonl
ypr
essi
ngherbut
tonst
hat
’sal
l
.Seei
ngwhatmakesherbr
eakandst
uff
…

Ledi
:herhusbandcoul
dn’
tkeephi
sey
esof
fofy
out
hough

Mom:
wheny
ou’
vegoti
t,y
ou’
vegoti
t.Noamountoft
imecanmakey
ouf
orgett
hatonegi
rl

Ledi
:ev
ent
houghy
ouseem t
ohav
efor
got
tent
hatoneboy

Mom:i
thappens.I
’v
ef orgi
venhi
m ofev
ery
thi
ngbutno-
onet
reat
smydaught
ert
hewayt
hey
hav
eandthi
nkthatI’
l
lletitgo

Mom knowsaboutmymeet
ingwi
thCar
oli
neandshewasnothappywi
tht
hewayi
twentand
shev
owedt
omakehermi
ser
abl
e.Tr
ustmymot
her
.

Me:
rii
i
ghtmom

Mom:
don’
twor
ryIwon’
tdoany
thi
ngy
ouwoul
dn’
tdohoney

Me:
that
’sexact
lywhatwor
ri
esmemom.

Mom:
I’
m abi
ggi
rl

Wecont i
nuedt
oeatandwhenwewer edone,Ihadmyt akeawayandt henweheadedhome.I
gavemom Caroli
ne’
snumberandthenextdayshedressedtoki
llf
ortheirbr
eakf
ast.Ledi
andI
droppedherof
fwhil
ewewenttorunafewer r
andsintownbeforeIleave.

-
Thando

SeeingBabest odaybr oughtbackf or

gottenfeel
i
ngs.Inev erstoppedlovi
ngher .Iwasf orced
i
nt oforget
ti
ngaboutherbutInev erforgotherort helov
eIhadf orher.Yes,Iwasstil
l i
nlov e
withBabalwaGxabaandIr egretnotstandi
ngupt omyf at
her18y earsago.Ihatemy selffornot
standingupt ohim becauseIlostav erygoodwoman.I t’
struewhattheysayaboutl osing
someonei nor dert
or eali
zewhaty ouoncehad.Il ov emywi febutI’
mi nl
ovewi thmyuni versi
ty
gi
r l
fri
end.Whenmyf ami l
yandIgothomemywi f ewasi nthemood, notagoodonet hou.We
wer einourroom changingi nt
ooursl eepi
ngclothes

Her
:ar
eyoui
nlov
ewi
thher
?

Me:
excuseme?

It
urnedt
olookatherbutshehadherbackonmeget
ti
ngoutofhercl
othes

Her
:Iaskedi
fyouar
einl
ovewi
thher
?

Me:
who?

Her
:don’
tpl
aydumbwi
thmeThando

Shesai
drai
singherv
oiceatme

Me:
sincewhendoy
our
aisey
ourv
oiceatme?

Her
:justanswermet
hisandI
’
lldr
opi
t

Me:
she’
sthemot
herofmychi
l
d.Ther
e’snot
hingmor
eI’
l
lspeakofi
t

Her
:insi
mpl
eter
msy
oul
oveher
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantf
rom me?

Her
:thet
rut
hThando.Isawt
hewayy
oul
ookedather

Me:Ihaven’
tseenherev
ersi
nceourdaught
erwasbor
nwhi
chwaswhenYandi
swawasst
il
li
n
hospi
tal

Her
:you’
venev
erl
ookedatmet
hewayy
oul
ookedather

Me:
Idon’
tknowwhaty
ouexpect
ingf
rom meCar
oli
neandIam notdoi
ngt
hiswi
thy
ou.Not
t
oni
ght
.

Wi
tht
hatIgoti
nundert
hecov
ers’

Her
:soy
ougoi
ngt
osl
eepwhi
l
eI’
mtal
ki
ngt
oyou?

Me:
goodni
ghthoney
.

Iswit
chedoffmysidel ampandwenttolalaland.Iwasnotabouttoargueaboutt
his.Iknow
howIfeelaboutBabalwaanditwil
lneverchange.You’dthi
nkaft
erthi
smanyy ear
sI’dbeover
herbutI
’m not
.Ial
way simagi
nedhowi twouldbei fsheandImetbuttodaywasunexpected,i
t
caughtmebysurprise!Il
oveherandIdon’tt
hinkIwi l
lev
erstop.

<3

GuysIpostoncehereandthenpostonceinAmahle’
sDiary
.OnedayIposther
eandthenext
dayIpostt
hereandsoonandsof orth,
andIwon’tpostmorethanonceunl
essit
shol
iday
sor
somethi
ngli
kethat.Ineedt
ofocusonot heri
mport
antthi
ngsatthemoment.

[
10/
15,
19:
28]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E06–Mel
o

MaybeYaya’
sideaisnotsobad.May beIshouldgi
veKat
eacal
l,
ift
hat’
swhati
twil
ltakef
or
mom andIfi
xourrelat
ionshi
p.Iwenttofetchmyphonei
nmyroom andwentt
ohernumber
andcal
ledher
.sheanswer edaf
teraverylongti
me.

/
/Me:
Hey

Her
:whatdoy
ouwantDer
ri
ck?
Me:
weneedt
otal
k

Her
:about
?YouandIar
en’
texpect
inganymor
esowemi
ghtaswel
ll
oseeachot
her
’snumber
s

Me:
Idon’
twantt
odot
hisasmuchasy
..

Her
:thenwhyar
eyoudoi
ngi
t?

Me:
mygi
rl
fr
iendt
hinkst
haty
ouar
ethekeyt
omeandmymom t
alki
ngagai
n

Her
:wher
edoIent
eri
nyouandy
ourmot
hernott
alki
ngDer
ri
ck?

Me:
sheknowsabouty
ouabor
ti
ngKat
e

Shekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e

Me:
Kat
eyoust
il
lther
e?

Her
:how?

Me:
incont
actKat
e.SocanIsendadr
ivert
ocomepi
cky
ouup

Her
:Idon’
tthi
nkIcanf
acey
ourmot
herDer
ri
ck

Me:
Kat
ejustdomet
hisonef
avourandI
’
lll
osey
ournumberandnev
erbot
hery
ouagai
n

Her
:whyshoul
dIdoy
ouaf
avour
?

Me:Idon’
tknow.may
bebecauseIam t
heonewhopai
dfort
hef
li
ppi
ngabor
ti
ony
ouwer
eso
per
sist
entt
oget

Iwasgetti
ngpi
ssed.Iwasnoti
nthemoodf
ort
his.whydoesev
ery
thi
nghav
etobedi
ff
icul
twi
th
ever
ythi
ng?

Her
:sowhat
?Ar
eyougoi
ngt
ohol
dthi
sagai
nstme?

Me:
Kat
ejustdot
hisandy
ou’
l
lnev
erhearf
rom meagai
n

Her
:fi
ne.

Me:
I’
ll
sendsomeonet
ocomeandf
etchy
ou.Youst
il
li
nres?

Her
:yes.Wher
eel
sewoul
dIbe?

Me:
ayt
//

Idroppedthecal
landwenttot
heki
tchentocal
loneofthedriv
erstogoandf et
chKate.I
start
edprepar
ingsomet
hingwecanalleat
.Mom walkedinandref
il
ledherbott
lewi
thoutsay
ing
anythi
ngtome.shewasabouttowalkoutwhenIstoppedher

Me:
Mah
Shet
urnedt
olookatme

Me:
Ical
l
edKat
e,she’
sonherwayher
e

Shenoddedandwi
tht
hatwal
kedout
.Thi
ngswer
ereal
l
ybad.

“Youcooki
ng?That
’safi
rst
”Ifel
tIy
ana’
sarmswraparoundmeandhugmef
rom behi
nd.Her
perf
umewast oosweetandital
waysgav
eheraway.

Me:
hel
l
otoy
out
oo

Her
:Ihopey
ounott
ryi
ngt
oki
l
lmymot
her

Me:
hahav
eryf
unny
.Kat
eisonherwayher
e

Sher
emov
edherhandsf
rom meandl
eanedont
hecount
ernextt
othest
ove.

Her
:why
?Soy
oucooki
ngt
oimpr
essher
?

Me:
real
l
y?!Theonl
ypeopl
eIai
mtoi
mpr
essar
emypar
ent
sandmygi
rl
fr
iend

Her
:ri
i
ightMr
.Sowhyi
sshecomi
ngher
e?

Me:
becausei
saskedhert
o

Her
:Idi
dn’
tev
enknowy
out
wower
est
il
li
ncont
actwi
theachot
her

Me:Ist
il
lhav
ehernumberandshehasn’
tchangedi
t…Yay
at houghti
twoul
dbeagoodi
deat
o
hav
eKatetal
ktomom andmakeherunderst
andwhyshedidwhatshedid

Her:
andy
out
hinkmom wi
l
lbecool
wit
hthatj
ustbecausei
tscomi
ngf
rom hermout
handnot
your
s?

Me:
I’
m hopi
ngt
hatSopr
anowi
l
lsoundbet
tert
hanabass

Shel
aughedandsodi
dI.

Her
:youar
epl
ayi
ngwi
thf
ir
eher
ebutgoodl
uck.

Me:
it’
sthet
hingsYandi
swamakesmedo.Idon’
tev
enknowwhyIl
i
stent
oheratt
imes

Shechuckl
ed

Her
:it
’scal
l
edl
ovel
i
ttl
ebr
other

Sheroughingupmyhairandwalki
ngouttoprobabl
ygr
eethermother.Ther
ewasaknockon
thedoor.Iwentt
ogeti
tandKat ewasstandi
ngontheothersi
deofthedoorlooki
ngal
lcut
ein
dressandasandalwi
thjacketontop.

Her
:hi
Me:
hel
l
o.Comei
npl
ease

Isai
dst
eppi
ngasi
de

Her
:howar
eyou?

Me:
I’
vehadbet
terday
s.Howar
eyou?

Her
:get
ti
ngbet
ter
.Smel
l
sgood

Me:
thanks.Uhhm pl
easecomet
hissi
de

Her
:wher
e’sy
ourmom?

Me:
int
hel
oungeIt
hink

Her
:YOH!

Me:
shewon’
tdoany
thi
ngt
oyouIpr
omi
se.

Shetookadeepbr
eathinandsodidIbeforewewalkedint
othelounge.Mom andI
yanawer
e
chat
ti
ngupastorm aboutsomet
hingandtheywer
el aughi
ngtoo.

I
ya:
Kat
e.Hi

Kat
e:uhhm Hel
l
o.

Mom:
hi.

Thi
ngsj
ustgotawkwar
d.

I
ya:
pleaseseat
.

Shesai
deyei
ngme,Ilookedatherbef
oresi
gnal
l
ingt
ot al
kint
hepassage.Sheexcusedher
sel
f
andsai
dshewasgoingtohelpmeout.Mylegwaski
ll
ingme,I’
vebeenstandi
ngfortool
ong.
Shefol
l
owedmetotheki t
chen

Her
:youok?

Me:
it’
sjustmyl
egbutI
’
mfi
ne

Isai
dsi
tt
ingont
hebar
stool

Her
:needmet
ofi
nishup?

Me:
yes,
please.

Isatdownont hebarstool.mylegwasjustdoingot
herthi
ngstome…i t
’snowt hatI’
mreal
isi
ng
thatIspentmostoftodayst andi
ngwhenYay aandIwereatGatewayandthent her
e’st
he
cooking.Thatacci
dentreall
ydidanumberonmeandt hescar
sareproofofthat.
I
ya:
yousur
eyouok?

Me:
myl
egi
ski
l
li
ngme.canIl
eav
eyouher
eandgosi
tint
hel
oungei
nst
ead?

Her
:I’
l
lgogety
oupai
nmedsok.

Me:
thankssi
s

Igotofft
hechairandl
i
mpedt
othel
ounge.Ther
ewasj
ustawkwar
dsi
l
encewi
thonl
ythet
v
makingnoise.

Mom:
soKat
e,whatbr
ingsy
ouher
e?

Kat
elookedatmebutIwasnotaboutt
obai
lherouther
ewi
tht
hepai
nI’
mfeel
i
ngonmyl
eg.

Her
:uhhm Mel
ocal
l
edme

Mom:
oh…

I
yawal
kedi
nwi
thmymedsandhandedt
hem t
ome.

Her
:howdoy
ouf
eel
now?

Me:
sur
elyt
heydon’
twor
kinst
ant
lynow

Mom:
what
’swr
ong?

I
ya:
it’
shi
sleg

Me:
I’
mfi
ne

Mom:
shoul
dIy
acal
lthedoct
ort
ohav
eitcheckedout
?

Shewaswor ri
ednodoubt .Well
t odaywasthefi
rstt
imeIwentout
,bygoingoutImeangoi
ngto
themallandactuall
yroamingaround.Normall
ywhenIgooutit
stochurchortoarest
aur
ant
andthenheadst r
aightt
othecaraf t
er.

Me:
mom I
’
mfi
ne.I
t’
snot
hingser
ious.I
yay
oubet
ternotbur
nany
thi
ng

Her
:hahahawhat
ever
!

Wit
hthatshewalkedout
.Idon’
tli
kepeopl
estr
essingovermeandi
fIt
ell
mom t
hatt
hepai
nis
t
oomucht henImightj
ustnotgotoJobur
gfortheexhi
bit
ion.

Mom:
arey
ousur
eMel
okuhl
e?

Me: y
es,mom Iam surenowcanwepl easejustfocusonmorepressi
ngmat t
ers.Idon’
tli
kethi
s
tensi
onbetweenus,i
t’
snothealt
hyf orbot hofusmom.Sor easonIcal
ledKateoverissothat
shecanbet heonetoactual
l
yexplaintoy ouwhyshedecidedtogoaheadwi t
ht heabort
ion
evenaft
erIbeggedhercountl
esstimesnott o.
Thi
swhol
eti
memom hadherey
esonmeandwhenIwasdoneshet
urnedt
oKat
ewhowas
l
ooki
ngdown.

Mom:
Kat
e…

Her
:Mr
sBess

Mom:
doesy
ourmom knowy
ouhadanabor
ti
on?

Kat
eshookherhead

Mom:
catgoty
ourt
ongue?

Kat
e:NoMr
sBess

Mom:
thenanswerme

Her
:Mymot
herdoesn’
tknow.

Mom: t
hefactthatshedoesn’
tknowthenthatonitsownshouldtell
youjusthowwr ongwhat
youoptedfori
swr onginsomanylev
els.I’
m notyourmotherbutIam amot herandIhav
etwo
daught
ersandev enIknowthatasaparentyoudon’tt
hrowyourchil
dint
ot hewolveswhenthey
needyouthemost

Her:nodi sr
espectMrsBessbuty ourdaught
ersandIcomef rom compl et
elydif
ferent
backgrounds.Youhav eall
themeanst osupportyourdaughtersi
ft heyweretogetpr egnantby
mymot herdoesn’
t.sheisalr
eadytaki
ngcareofme, mygr andmot her,mysibl
ingandher sel
f
andit’
shar denoughasitisforhersomebr i
nginganextramout ht ofeedwasj ustnotan
opti
on

Mom: doyouthi
nkIwouldsitbackandl etyousufferwhil
ey oucarr
ymyv eryfi
rstgr
andchi
ld?
Hady outwospokent oyourparentsli
keyoushoul dhavethemi nut
eyouf oundoutthenwe
wouldhav ecomeupwi thasoluti
ont oget
her.Youtooktheeasywayoutoft his.a
disadvant
agedbackgrounddoesn’ tgi
veyouther i
ghttomur derani
nnocentchi l
d.Doyouthink
I’
dbeher etodayi
fmygr andmotherhadnotgi venmymot herupforadoption?Youcouldhav e
giventhechil
dli
feandgivehim orhertomet or ai
sehim orherforyouunt i
lyouareabl
et o
standony ourownfeetbecauselikeyousaid,Ihaveallt
hemeansandt hatappliest
omy
grandchil
dto.

Kat
ewi
pedhert
ear
s.Idi
dn’
tev
enknowshewascr
yingunt
ilIhear
dhersni
ff
.

Mom: Idon’
tcondonewhatyout
wodidandt
hismuchIcantel
lyou,youwi
llbot
hregreti
tint
he
l
ongrunbecausethis…hasawayofcomi
ngbackt
oy ou.Whathappenswhenyou“ready
”fora
chi
l
dKat e?

Sheshr
ugged

Mom:
whathappenswheny
ouandy
ourhusbandpayf
ordozensofpr
ocedur
esbecausey
ouar
e
unabl
et obarehi m anheir
?Thenwhat ?Didyout hi
nkaboutal lt
hesethingsbeforeyouwent
aheadwiththis?whatabouty ouMel okuhl
e?Youar ejustasguiltyassheis.Idon’tcarewhat
yousaidbutcl ear
lyitwasnotenought oconvincehernott ogothroughwithit.Youwer e
supposedtot akeresponsibi
li
tyofyouracti
onsbuty oudidt heopposit
e.You“tookcar e”ofthe
probl
em instead.Any wayI’
m Melokuhle’
smotherher eandnoty oursandwhaty oudowi t
hy our
bodyisyourpr obl
em.WenaMel okuhlenextti
mey ouar efacedwi t
hsomet hi
ngl i
kethisinfutur
e,
remembert hisconv er
sati
onandIwanty outor emembert hedisappoint
mentonmyf acethe
dayIheardaboutt his.

Kat
e:Mr
sBessI
’
m sosor
ry.

Mom: y oudidn’tdoanythi
ngtomesweet i
e.I’
mj ustyourex-boy fr
iend’
smot her
…i fheeven
countsasanexconsi deri
ngitdidn’tevenlastamont h.IfIwasoneoft hosecruelparents,I
wouldhav espokentoyourmot heraboutt hi
sbutI ’
m not.Nextt imethi
nkofal lt
hepr osand
constowhaty ouwantt odobef oregoingaheadwi t
hit.Ibelievethatt
here’
snobet teradvi
sor
thanyourpar entbecauseattheendoft hedayt heyarethinkingabouty ouandtheywantwhat ’
s
bestfory ou.Yourmotherwasgoi ngt obehur tanddisappoi ntedbutshewasst il
lgoingtobe
ther
ef ory oubecauseit’
sinamot her ’
snaturetodoso.Idon’ tknowherbutI ’
m surethatthi
s
wouldcr ushherasmuchasi tcrushedme.Ihopey oubothl i
stenedandhear dmecl earl
y.

Me:
yes,
mom

Kat
e:y
es,
MrsBess

Mom:
gogety
our
sel
fcl
eanedupi
nthebat
hroom bel
owt
hest
air
sandcomebackf
orl
unch

Shenoddedandgotupheadedt
owher
emom hadt
oldhert
ogo.

Mom:
Nev
erputmeont
hespotl
i
ket
hatagai
n

Me:
okmom Iwon’
t.Buti
twasy
ourpr
eci
ousdaught
eri
n-l
aw’
sidea

Mom:
andy
oul
i
stened?

Me:
yousoundsur
pri
sed?

Mom:
she’
schangi
ngy
ouf
ort
hebet
ter
.

Ismi
l
ed.Shewasr
ight
,Iam nott
heper
sonIwasbef
oreYandi
swa.

Me:
yeah

Mom:butser
iousl
yMelokuhl
e.Nextt
imeyouar
efacedwi
thsomet
hingl
i
ket
his,
tal
ktome.y
ou
usedt
obeabletotal
ktome.whatchanged?

Ishr
ugged

Me:
Idi
dn’
twantt
odi
sappoi
nty
oul
i
ket
his
Mom:
andwhatdi
dyougai
noutofy
ounotwant
ingt
odi
sappoi
ntme?

Me:
yougi
vi
ngmet
hesi
l
entt
reat
mentandourr
elat
ionshi
pal
mostbr
eaki
ng

Mom:
exact
ly.Forev
eryact
iont
her
eisar
eact
ion…y
our
emembert
hat

Me:
I’
mreal
l
ysor
rymom

Shegotupt
ojoi
nmeont
hecouchandpul
l
edmei
nforahug

Her:If
orgiv
ey ou.Ihadforgi
venyouagesagobutIjustwantedyout
ounder
standt
he
consequencesofy oudoingsomethi
ngwit
houtthi
nkingitt
hrough

Shebr
oket
hehug

Me:
lessonl
ear
nt

Her
:nextt
imeMel
opl
easet
alkt
ome.aboutany
thi
ngandev
ery
thi
ngl
i
kebef
oreok?

Inodded

Her:
rememberthatI’
l
lal
way
sknow.Idon’
tcar
ehowsmar
tyout
hinky
ouar
eey
,not
hingev
er
st
ayshiddenf
orever
.

Inodded

Me:
ofcause.I
’
m al
awst
udent
,thatmuchIknow

“
gladt
oseey
oul
ovebi
rdsf
ixedt
hings”

Wel
ookedupandYanawashol
dingat
rayoff
oodandsheputi
tont
opoft
het
abl
e.

Mom:
youknowus.not
hingi
stoobi
gforus

I
ya:
nomor
esi
l
entt
reat
ment
s?

Mom:
weov
ert
hat
.MysonandIar
egood

Me:
Itol
dyouIwast
hef
avour
it
echi
l
d

Mom hi
tmyshoul
derpl
ayf
ull
ylaughi
ng

Mom:
all
ofy
ouar
emyf
avour
it
echi
l
dren.Asmuchasy
ouguy
shav
eaPhDi
nly
ing

Me:
geezmom r
eal
l
ynow

I
ya:
uhhhm l
etmegoandf
etchy
ourpl
ate

Shewal
kedoutl
aughi
ngatus

Mom:
Ilov
eyouok
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo

Shekissedmycheekandt ookherplat
e.Katejoi
nedusall
cleanedup, wel
lshehadpinkcheeks
andredeyesbutshewasok.Weat echatt
ingl
ikewenormallywould.ThefoodIcookedwas
amazingevenifIsaysomy self
.Iy
anaaskedthedri
vert
odriveKatetoherplaceaft
erlunch,
Ase
andDadwal kedintoget
heraround4to5pm.

<3

[
10/
15,
19:
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E07

Whilemom wasoutwi thmyot her"mom"Ledi , AseandIdeci dedt odoal itt

leshopping.I
alr
eadyhadt hedr ess, i
t'
st heshoet hatIdidn'thav eformyspeci al ni
ght.Myl ect
urercall
edand
tol
dmemor eexci ti
ngnews, t
heguywant edt omeetmeFr idayf ordinner.
..j
usttogett oknow
thi
s"youngt alent edar t
ist"-hi
swor ds,notmi ne-andwhoam It osaynot othat.t
hebestpar t
aboutthisst udyingabr oadt hing,Igett opickwhi chuniversit
yIwantt ostudyi n;
I'
m notready
foryourtypicalHar var
dorYal eal thoughIam i nterestedinStanf ord,heardtheyof f
erthebest
artcourseandi fy outhet opofy ourcl asstheyf indy ougalleri
est owor kinwhi chisjustper
fect
formet ogr owsot hatIcangobackt oSAandbui l
dmyownst udio.Thegi rl
sandIdi daf ew
shoppingandt henaf t
er,Lediwentt omeetupwi thsomeguy .
..Asesuggest edweheadt ot
he
mansionpl usI ’
llgett oseemyboy friend.

-
Babes

Iwasdr essedt oki l

lnodoubtaboutt hat.Oksomydaught erandImaynotbebest iesbutshe
fi
ll
edmei nint hiswomanandIcan' tsayIl i
keher .Yayatol
dmeabouthergi vingherf r
iendSihl
e
funnylooksofwhi chIneedt oknowwhyshedi dthatbecauseSihlei
sagoodki d.Ihav emet
him everyti
meIcamet ovisitYayalastyearandIhav enothingbadtosayabouthi m.Asf or
Thando, heisi nnopositi
ont otryandf atherYay a,Imeanwhot hehelldoeshet hinkhei stotel
l
Yandiswawhoshecanandcannotdat e?Ir efuset ohavehim betheparenthispar entswereto
him.Igott oGat ewayseeingt hatit'
scl
osert oYandi swa'
splaceany wayandIneededt odoa
l
itt
leshoppi ngf orJHB.Iwassi tt
ingonat ableoutsideatMimo'swear i
ngawhi t
ef l
ower edknee
l
engt hsummerdr esswit
hashor tdeni
mj acketandadeni m heel
.Shewal kedov erwear i
nga
pencilkneel engthblackdresswi thagoldbel t,goldheel
sandanudebl azer.Shewaswayt oo
for
malforbreakfastreal
ly
..
.butthenagai
nshe'
sa" past
ors"wif
e..
.not
icet
heairquotes?Idon'
t
buythi
swhole" cal
li
ng"thi
ngshame.ShootmebutIdon' t
.Butwhoam Itojudge,
Godhashi s
wayofturni
ngpeopl e'
sli
vesaroundey.Hetookhershadesoffwhenshegottoourtableand
wesharedabr i
efhugbef oret
akingourseat
s.

Her
:sohowar
eyou?

Me:
goodt
hanky
ouandhowar
eyou?

Her
:al
sogood.Sohav
eyouor
der
ed?

Ihadanor
angej
uicei
nfr
ontofme.

Me:
notany
thi
ngt
oeat
.

Her
:Canweeatel
sewher
e.Idon'
tl
iket
hei
rfoodher
e

Sheaci
dsoundingli
keasnob.Yandit
oldmetobehaveandIwi
llt
ry.Imadenopromi
ses
anyway
.Ical
ledthewai
terandaskedtoset
tl
emybill
buttheki
dservingmetol
dmethatmy
dri
nkwasalr
eadypaidf
or.

Me:
bywho?

Hi
m:t
hatgent
lemanov
ert
her
e.

Hesai
dpoi
nti
ngataguywear
inganavytai
l
oredsui
twit
hawhit
eshi
rtandamat
chi
ngnav
yti
e.
MyGodwasheHotbuthewastooyoungandI'
m nocougar

Me:
tel
lhi
m Isai
dthanky
ou

Hi
m:hesai
dtogi
vey
out
his

Hesaidhandingmeabusinesscard.Il
ookedatt
hecardandtheguywor kedasanaccountant
atahospit
al,
hehadthe"
Dr "t
it
le,meani
nghestudiedf
urt
her
.Hel ookedli
kehewasinhisearly
thi
rt
iesandIam 38soi
t'
sano- noforme.Thiswholet
imeThando'swif
ewasgi v
ingmef unny
l
ooks.

Me:
thanky
ou.

Isl
i
ppedt
hecar
dinmybagandwegotupt
oleav
e.

Her
:youknowhe'
sachi
l
dri
ght
?

Me:
onet
hati
sint
erest
edi
nmeandnott
heot
herwayr
ound

Her
:coul
dhav
efool
edme.Youwer
emaki
ngoutwi
thhi
m ment
all
y.

Me:uhhhm l
et'
sgetonethi
ngstr
aight
,I'
m notSi
no,Thando,
Chr
ist
ianorChr
ist
opher
.Youwon'
t
t
alktomeany howl
etalonej
udgeme.Ar eweclear
?
Her
:yes.

Wewalkedi
nsideandweheadedt osomecafé.Wegotat abl
efort
wo.Thi
swomanclear
ly
di
dn’
tli
kemef orreasonsknowntoher,
thewayshespoketomeandthewayshel
ookedatme,
i
tmademef eeluncomf or
tabl
esoIdeci
dedtofi
nal
lyask.

Me:
doy
ouhav
eapr
obl
em wi
thme?

Her
:excuseme?

Me:
don’
tpl
aydumbwi
thme.doy
ouhav
eapr
obl
em wi
thme?

Her
:ofcausenot

Me:
thenwhati
sit
?

Shel
ookedatmef
orawhi
l
ebef
orer
espondi
ng.

Her
:he’
sst
il
li
nlov
ewi
thy
ou

Me:
huh?

Her:myhusband,thef
atherofy
ourdaught
er.Hei
sst
il
li
nlov
ewi
thy
ou.Ev
enaf
tersomany
year
sandIcan’tcompetewitht
hat

Me:
woah!Backupnow.
..

Her
:doy
oust
il
ll
ovehi
m?

Me:
arey
ouki
ddi
ngme?i
sthi
ssomesi
ckj
oke?

Her
:Ineedt
oknowBabal
wapl
ease

Me:l
ook,Idon’
tknowhowy oucameupwi t
hyourconclusi
onbutThandoandIwer elongover
.I
don’
tev
engett heti
niestbut
ter
fl
ywhenl ooki
ngathim sotoansweryourquest
ion.I’
m noti
n
l
ovewit
hy ourhusbandnoram Iint
erest
edinhiminanywaypossi bl
e

Shet
ookadeepbr eat
hinandleti
tout.i
twasn’tasighofreli
efbutasi
ghofpai
n.Mebei
ngher
e
wasaclear
lysometesttothei
rmarr
iage.FunnyenoughIdidn’
tdoanyt
hingt
oanyoft
hem t
o
makethem t
hinkIwasint
erest
edi
nthatman.

Me: l
ook,I
’m notgoi
ngtot
ryandconv i
nceyouofany t
hingbecausethati
syourhusbandsj
ob
andyourfri
endsjob…andIam neit
herofthosepeoplebutIwil
ltel
lyouthi
s,I
’
m nohome
wreckerandIdidnotmeantobeat hr
eattoy ourmarr
iageoryourhome.Idon’tev
enknowwhy
youwantedtomeetwi t
hmer eal
lybutift
hat’
sal l
.Iwi
llbeonmywaynow

Ididn’
tevenwai
tforhert
orespondbef
oretaki
ngmybagandl eav i
ngt
hecafétobuyafewlit
tl
e
thi
ngsforthet
ri
pandwhenIwasdoneIr equestedanubertotakemeoverYandi
’spl
ace.I
droppedoffmythi
ngsandcall
edYandit
oaskf orhermotheri
nlawsaddr
ess,I
’m her
esoI
mi
ghtaswel
lseehernow.

/
/Her
:she’
spr
obabl
yatwor
kmom

Me:
soy
ounotsur
e

Her
:whydoy
ouwantt
oseeherany
way
?

Me:
tochatwi
thaf
ri
endhai
bo

Her
:real
l
ymom

Me:
Yandi
swaar
eyougoi
ngt
ogi
vemet
hisaddr
essornot
?

Her
:fi
ne.I
’
llt
exti
ttoy
ou

Me:
thanky
ou/
/

Iwaitedforhertotextmet headdressandshedi djustthat

,Ir
espondedthankingherthen
requestedanubertot heBessresidence.Theti
mewasar ound12:30pm.Theuberdroppedme
offandIwentt otal
kt otheguardandaskedhi mtol etmein.Theyhadabeautiful
housefrom
theoutside,
itwasmyf i
rstt
imeher e.Theguar
dcal l
edinandami nutelat
erthegatewas
opened.Iwalkedallthewayt othefrontdoor
,therewasawomanbusywi t
hsomet hi
nginthe
kit
chen.

Me:
hel
l
o

Her
:uhhm hi
.CanIhel
pyou?

Me:
I’
m her
etoseeAmahl
e

Her
:she’
satwor
katt
hemoment

Me:
don’
twor
ryIwi
l
lwai
t

Shenodded.

Her
:pl
easef
oll
owme

Shel
edmeoutoft hekit
chent
othel
oungewher
eMel
okuhl
ewasl
ayi
ngont
hecouchwat
chi
ng
tvwi
thhi
slegsupport
edbyacushi
on.

Me:
hel
l
o

Hi
m:Mi
ssGxaba.Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Hewasshockedtoseemeher
e.Thecut
eyoungBesshadaf
ewbr
uisesonhi
sface,
that
acci
dentr
eal
l
ydidanumberonhi
m.

Hi
m:Imeanhowar
eyou?
Me:I
’m heret
oseey ourmom act
ual
ly
.How’
syourl
eg?Yandi
swal
efti
nsuchar
ushwheny
ou
wer
en’tansweri
nghercal
lst
hatday

Hi
m:Idi
dn’
tmeant
oscar
eherl
i
ket
hat
.Iwasatt
hewr
ongpl
aceatt
hewr
ongt
ime

Me:
shet
oldmewhathappened.Sohow’
syourl
eg?

Hi
m:i
thasi
tsday
sbutI
’
mfi
ne.CanIgety
ouany
thi
ngt
oeatordr
ink?

Me:
noI
’
m st
il
lgoodt
hanky
ou.

Wesati
nawkwar
dsi
l
ence.

Me:
Ihav
etoask

Hi
m:any
thi
ng

Me:
howdoy
ouf
eel
aboutYandi
swal
eav
ing?Pl
easebehonest
.

Him:
uhhhm…it’
snotmydeci
siont
omake,
it’
sagr
eatoppor
tuni
tyf
orhert
ogr
owi
nsomet
hing
shel
ovesdoi
ng

Me:
anddoy
out
hinky
oucanhandl
ethedi
stancewi
thouthur
ti
ngmydaught
er?

Him:Il
oveYandi
swa.Al
ot,
may
beal
i
ttl
etoomuchandIi
nnowayi
ntendt
ohur
therMi
ss
Gxaba

Me:Idon’tknowy ourr
elat
ionshi
pwit
hmydaught erbutdon’
thurther
.letmef i
nish,
Iknowyou’
ll
makeallkindsofpromisesandthenwhentheti
mecomesf oryoutoli
veupt othosepromi
ses,
youunableto.She’smyonlydaught
erMelokuhl
eandIdon’twantherhur ti
nanyway

Hechuckl
ed

Him: yourdaughteri
smywor l
d,she’
smyl i
fe.Iwouldneverhurtherpurposef
ull
y.Andshoul
dI
hurther,younottheonlypersonwho’sreadytofightf
orherandpr obablymurdermefor
hurti
ng…mywhol efamil
yislookingoutforyourdaughter
,theywouldbet hever
yfir
stonest
o
ki
llmei fIscrewedthi
srelat
ionshipupsoy ouneednotwor ry

Me:
I’
m amot
her
,I’
l
lal
way
swor
ry

ImustsayMel osoundedgenui ne,hesoundedconv inci

ngofhisl
oveformydaught erwhichput
myguar ddownateaseal i
tt
le.Ihadmyhear t
breakwithYandi
swa’
sfatherandIdon’twantmy
daughtertoeverexperi
encethatkindofpain.Iknowhowmuchshel ovesMelokuhle,i
tscute
butit
’snothealt
hybecausei fheweretoscr ewt hi
supinanywaythenitwouldbreakmybaby
andIcan’thavethat.

Hi
m:Iunder
stand

Wecont
inuedt
alki
ngal
i
ttl
eunt
ilt
her
ewasnoi
secomi
ngf
rom t
hepassage.Webot
htur
nedt
o
l
ookandwewer
egr
eet
edbyhi
smot
her
,hi
stwi
nandmydaught
er.

Idon'
tthi
nkther
ewasev eranyt
hingmoreweirdt
hangetti
ngintoyourboyfr
iend’
scri
bandy our
mom chatti
ngwit
hyourboyfri
end.IknewshewasherebutIthoughtshewoul dbegoneseeing
thatMrsBesswasn'
therebutnope,notBabe'
sGxaba.If
rozeonmyt racksassheandMel o
wereatuswithnot
hingbutsmiles.

Mel
o:heyguy
s.Babe

Mr
sBess:
Babe'
s.Ihav
en'
tseeny
oui
nages

Sheandmom shar
edahugbusygr
eet
ingeachot
herandst
uff
.Youknowhowpar
ent
sar
e.

Me:
heybabe

Isai
dkissi
nghi
scheekbuty
ouknowmyboy
fri
end,
hei
sal
laboutshowi
ngof
f.Hepul
l
edmet
o
si
tontopofhim

Hi
m:gi
mmeapr
operki
ss

Me:
bot
hourmot
her
sar
eher
esono.Behav
e!

Isaidtry
ingtoloosenhi
sgripbuthe'
sstrongerthanme.Mr sBesspulledmom outofthe
l
oungewhi lebusychatt
ingupastorm.Ididn'tgeti
t,mom andAmahl ehadamut ualf
ri
endbut
theyweren'tr
eall
ybesti
esbutall
ofsuddent heybumpi nt
oeachotheri nDurbanandboom!A
fri
endshipi
sbor nandbesti
eshi
piscreat
edt hankstothei
rkidsdat
ing..
.I’
ll
besuretoremember
totell
myki dsthatsomeday.

Hi
m:nowcanIgetapr
operhel
l
o

Ase:
sti
l
lint
her
oom guy
s

Hi
m:goputy
ourt
hingsi
nther
oom kal
oku

Hesaidpul
li
ngmei nforakiss.IknowIsawhimy est
erdaybutGodDamnt hisguydoesthi
ngs
tome.Brui
sedornotheisstil
lhotandhiski
ssalonecreat
esfloodsdowntherewherethesun
don'
tshi
ne.Ibr
okeitandlookedathim,hefl
ashedmet hatsmileofhi
sthatgetsmeeveryti
me!

Me:
whyy
ousmi
l
ing?

Hi
m:becausemygir
lf
ri
endi
sher
ewi
thmesi
tt
ingonmyl
apandl
ooki
ngal
lki
ndsofbeaut
if
ul.
Whyar
en'tyousmi
l
ing?

Igi
ggl
ed.Hewassuchaf
li
rt

Me:
becausemymom andy
our
scoul
dwal
kinanymi
nut
e
Hi
m:speaki
ngofy
ourmom

Me:
ohGodwhatdi
dshedo?

Isai
dhi
dingmyf
acewi
thbot
hhands.Hepul
l
edmyhandsawayf
rom myf
ace.

Him:shet
oldmenottohurty
ouandt
otreatyouri
ghtandpr
ett
ymuchever
ythi
ngmyfami
l
yhas
sai
dconcer
ningy
ouleavi
nginamont
h.Shereall
ylov
esyouandshecar
esabouty
ou

Me:
shei
smymom af
teral
l
.It
'sonl
yfi
tt
ingt
hatshedoes

Hi
m:l
et’
snotgetcockynow.

Me:
Ican'
thel
pit
.Sodi
dyoucal
lKat
e?

Hi
m:y
es,
Idi
dandmom andIar
ebackt
onor
mal
sot
hanky
ou

Hesaidrunni
nghi
sfi
ngersdownmycheeksendi
ngallki
ndsofel
ectr
ici
mpulsesdownmy
spi
ne.SeewhatImean,
hedoesthi
ngstomewi t
houtevent
ryi
ng.I
t'
snotri
ght!

Me:
det
ail
sbabe

Him:geeez!Shecameoverandmom saidalotoft
hingst
hatmadehercryandmademef eel
l
ikeshi
itbutint
heendital
lworkedoutf
orthebest
.Iseeyoudi
dn'
ttel
lyourmom aboutKat
e

Me:causeKatei
snoneofherbusi
ness.Therearet
hingsIcantell
herandthent
her
ear
ethose
shedoesnotneedt
oknow.Mom woul dhaveblownthingsoutofpropor
ti
on

Hi
m:r
eal
l
y?

Mom wouldhav emadeMel oseem li

kethebadguyher e.Mom i
sadoctor;sheisagainst
abor
ti
on.Sheoncesaidt omet hatifIeverdidit,
Imightaswel l
consi
dermy sel
fhomel essand
mother
less.Sherat
herraisetwokidst hanrai
seamur derer
.Soshe'
spret
tystri
ctther
e.Shehad
mewhenshewas20andshemanagedj ustf
ine,whatwouldbesohardforme?Basi call
ythat
's
themotherIhave.Mel
oi sluckytohavesuchpar ents.

Me:
youdon'
tknowherbabe.Sowhenar
eyougoi
ngt
oJHB?

Hi
m:t
omor
rowni
ght
.Whenar
eyoul
eav
ing?

Me:t
oday.
..at2Ihope.Lediwi
llbedri
vi
ngust
her
e.Di
dIt
ell
yout
hatt
heguywant
stomeetme
f
ordi
nnertomorr
ow...j
usttogettoknowme

Hisexpressi
onsuddenl
ychanged.Ir
eall
ydon'
tunder
standwhyguysfeelthreatenedbyot
her
guysbuty oual
readyhi
s.ImeanMelokuhl
eknowshehasmyhear t
..
.allofittoo..
.butt
he
mentionofanothermanmakeshim cri
nge.why
?

Hi
m:sowhoar
eyougoi
ngwi
th?

Me:
tot
hedi
nner
?Al
one
Him:whycan'tyougowi thy
ourmom orsomet hi
ng?Whatift
hisguyistri
cki
ngyoujusttohave
yousoldabroad?Gir
lsgomi ssi
ngever
yday.Theyarebei
ngkil
ledorbeingsol
dintoprost
it
uti
on
nowadays.Idon'
twanty outobepar
toftheli
sthereYandi
swa...r
oll
youreyesal
lyouwantbutI
don'
tfeelcomfort
ableyoumeet i
ngt
hisguyalone

Me:
fine.I
'
llgowi
thmyl
ect
urer

Hi
m:gowi
thy
ourmot
her
.Youf
indt
hatsomegi
rl
sar
esol
dbyt
hoset
heyt
rust
.

I
t'
scut
ethathecar
esandiswor
ri
edbutseri
ousl
y?Thi
sisali
tt
let
oomuchnow.Iwassul
ki
ng.
Meloi
str
eati
ngmelikeachi
l
dandIdi
dn'tsi
gnupfort
his!

Him:sul
kallyouwantbutt
hisisf
inal
.IknowIdon'
townbutI
'
m doi
ngt
hisf
ory
ou.Youcl
ear
ly
don'
tworryenoughabouty
oursel
f.

Inodded.Maybehehadapoint.Iwassi
tt
ingont
opofhi
m wi
thhi
m bet
weenmyl
egsandme
kneel
ingonthecouch.Hecuppedmyface.

Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouandIdon'
twantt
olosey
ou.Especi
all
ytohumant
raf
fi
cki
ng.

Inodded.hepulledmeclosertohi
m,Ipul
ledawaywhenIhear
dourmother
’sv
oicesmaki
ng
thei
rwaydownt othel
ounge.Igotof
fhi
m sametimeandsatnextt
ohi
m.Helookedatmeand
chuckl
ed.Irespectourmother
sok!

Mom:
weshoul
dgetgoi
ngey
..
.wedon'
twantt
ogett
her
etool
ate

Ama:IReal
l
ywishIcoul
dgobutDamonhast
hist
hingi
nCapeTownt
hisweekendandast
he
wi
feIhavetobet
here

Shesai
drol
l
ingherey
es.DamonBesswasaj
udgebyt
heway
.

Mom:
Iunder
standhoney
.Iwi
l
ltel
lyoual
labouti
t

Ama:
knockem deadsweet
ie.I
'
veseeny
ourwor
kandy
oudeser
vet
hisoppor
tuni
ty

Ismi
l
ed

Me:
thanky
ouMr
sBess

Ama:
comeher
e

Shesai
dwithherar
mswi
deopen.Whoam It
oref
useahugf
rom Mr
sBess.Igotupandwent
toherf
ort
hathug.

Her
:becar
eful
ok?

Me:
Iwi
l
l

Her:
takecar
eofyour
selff
ormeandf
orMel
o.Her
eal
l
ylov
esy
oubabyandIpl
easedon'
thur
t
hi
m.Iwouldn'
twantt
o..
.youknow
Shesaidbreaki
ngthehug.It
'snodoubtthatthiswomanj ustthreat
enedme.Shel i
kesmebut
sheloveshersonandwil
ldoany t
hingtopr ot
ecthim atal
lcosts.Inoddedwi t
hasmile.She
pull
edmymom outoft heloungetothekitchen.Iwenttotakemypur senexttoMel
oont he
fl
oor.Hepull
edmei nt
ohisarmsandki ssedmel ikei
twasourl astkiss.

Hi
m:seey
out
omor
rowok

Me:
yesbabe

Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouYandi
swaGxaba

Me:
Ilov
eyouMel
okuhl
eBess

Hepeckedmyl i
psandl etgoofme, hespankedmyassasIwal kedaway ,
maki
ngmegi ggleon
mywayout .Mom andMr sBesswer echatt
ingupastorm untilacarpul
ledupi
nfrontofus.We
sai
dourgoodby esandwer edr
ivenhome.Ont hewayIwast elli
ngmom aboutwhatMelosai d
abouthumantraffi
cki
ngandallandmom agr eedwi
thhim, saidMelomeanswellandhecar es
andhelovesmeandt hatshewasgoi ngtobebymysi deatt hatdi
nner.

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l
lnotback

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10/
15,
19:
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E08-Mel
o

IseewhyYay ai sthewayshei s.Hav i

ngspentthosefewmi nuteswit
hhermot her,Iseet he
resemblance...sher eall
yishermot her'
sdaughter.Imeanthatinagoodway ,
hermot heris
i
ntimidati
ngt hou.Imustsay ,yesAuntJenknowst heguyonaper sonall
evelbutnowaday scan
youreall
ysayy ouknowaper son?Il oveYayaandIam t er
ri
fiedofl
osingher.Iwouldgot othe
endsoft hewor ldfort hatlady.Shemeanst hewor l
dtomeandi meanitwhenIsayt hatIplan
onmar ryi
nghersomesay .I'
dpr oposenowbutYay aisnotthetypetosett
lewithoutany thi
ngof
herown, sheandmom ar ebirdsoft hesamef eat
her.Theyaresoinvest
edinindependencei t'
s
annoyingbuti tischarmi ng.It'
sattracti
vethatshewantstomakesomet hi
ngoutofher self
.On
theotherhandI 'm gladt hatmom andIar ebackonspeakingt ermsandIplanonkeepi ngthings
thatway, wewer eoncebest iesandIwantust ogobackt othat.Mom camebackandsatnext
tomeput t
ingmyf eetonherl apwithapi l
l
owont opofherofcause.

Her
:Babesi
ssuchanamazi
ngwoman.Iseewher
eYay
aget
sitf
rom
Me:yeahshe'
spr
ett
ycool
.Fi
rstt
imeImethershet
oldmest
rai
ghtupt
hatmeandherdaught
er
wer
egoingtodat
e

Isai
dlaughi
ngasIrememberedt
hatday
,howYay
aandIwentof
fateachot
her,
howwedenied
ourf
eeli
ngsforeachot
her
..
.mybabyandIhav
ecomealongwayandwegoingfart
oget
her
.

Her
:wit
hthewayyout
wowentof
fateachot
her
,itwasboundt
ohappen.Yout
wor
emi
ndedme
ofy
ourfat
herandI

Shesaidlaughing.Mom anddadwer en'

tthebestoffr
iendswhent heyfir
stmet .Mom hat
ed
dad,
butthenagai ndadwasanasst omom.Accor di
ngt othem dadt r
iedtoflaunthi
smoneyat
mom...wellsomom say sbutaccor
dingtodadhewasj ustbei
ngni cef orbr
eakingherphone.
Mom fell
fordadt hi
sonenightshehadabr eakdownwhenshehadj ustcamebackf rom JHB
anddadwast herewi
thoutanyul
ter
iormot i
vesandtherestishistory.

Me:
whoknewt
haty
out
wowoul
dbemar
ri
ednowwi
th3y
oungadul
ts

Her:
yep,ouramazi
ngcreat
ions.YouandYay
aaregoi
ngf
ar.Keept
hatgi
rl
,she'
l
ltakey
ou
pl
aces.Pl
acesevenyouwil
lneverbeabl
etogoal
one

Me:
yesmummyIheary
ou

Justt
hendadwalkedinwi
thhisar
m wrappedar
oundmyt
winsneckandheral
lsmi
l
es.
..I
wonderwhatst
orysheist
ell
i
ngthi
sti
me.

Dad:
Hel
l
ohoney
,son

Hesaidcomi ngtowardsusandAset aki

ngherseatwhi
ledadandmom shar edakiss,
these
twoaresomet hi
ngelse.Theylivei
nthesamehouse, sl
eeponthesamebed, wakeupnextt o
eachot herevery
daybutev ery
timetheyseeeachotheri
t'sasi
fthey'
vebeenawayf r
om each
otherforav eryl
ongtime.It'
scutereall
y.AseandIcl
earedourt
hroatsastheyseemedt obe
forget
tingthatwewer eintheroom andmyf eetwereontopofmom.Theybr okethekissand
sharedal augh.

Mom:
howar
eyou?Howwasy
ourday
?

Dad:
itwasok.Anot
herdayi
ncour
t.
..t
heusual
.Howwasy
ourday
?

Mom:i
twasgr
eathoney.Yandi
swa'
smom i
sint
own.Sheandherdaught
erar
egoi
ngt
oJHB
t
odayf
ort
heexhi
bit
ion

Dadsatnextt
oAse

Dad:
that
'sni
ce.Don'
tyouwi
shy
oucoul
dgonow?

Mom:
ifIdi
dn'
tknowbet
terBessi
'
dsayy
ouwer
etr
yingt
ogetr
idofme

Dad:hahahaofcauseIam,Iwannaspendsomet
imewi
thmyCapeTownsi
dechi
ckf
ora
change.
..youknow,f
reshpussy
Mom pul
l
edoutapil
l
owfrom behi
ndherandt
hrewi
tatdadwhowasl
aughi
ngather
.Mom was
madandcut
eatthesameti
me.

Mom:
finet
hen.Goonal
one

Dad:youknowI'
m onl
yjoki
ngri
ght.Thi
shear
tri
ghther
e*hesaidpat
ti
nghischestwher
ethe
hear
tislocat
ed*beat
sonlyf
oryou.Nowomanf or
medagainstmehasprosperedandt
hey
won'
tstartnowok.

Mom cl
i
ckedhert
ongue

Mom:
i'
m st
il
lnotgoi
ngwi
thy
ouany
mor
e

Ase:
getar
oom guy
s

Weal
ll
aughed

Mom:
shutup!

Dad:
Ilov
eyouMr
sBess

Mom:
scr
ewy
ou

Dad:
ther
e'ski
dsar
ound.Lat
ermay
be

Myt wi
nandIwer einsti
tches,mom coul
dn'
thelpbutlaughtoo.Thiswastheki
ndofmarr
iageI
wanted.Thi
slevelofcomfortabi
l
ity
.Theydi
dev er
ythi
ngef f
ort
lessl
y.Theywer
eperf
ect
,wellof
causethey'
vehadaf ewspeedbumpsal ongthewaybutt heywereherenowandtheywer
e
happy.

Dad:
gladt
oseey
out
wot
alkedt
hingsout

Mom:wewereboundto,howdoIst
aymadatt
hey
oungv
ersi
onofy
ou.Oursi
nisar
epl
i
caof
youwhenIf
ir
stmetyou

Me:
eeuwmom!

Mom:
what
?

Dad:
yeahwhat
?

Me:
Idon'
tneedt
oknowt
het
hingsy
out
wogotupt
owhendadl
ookedl
i
ket
his

Isai
dpoi
nti
ngatmysexyhandsomesel
f.

Mom: Ionlysai
dyou'rearepl
i
cababy.Yourfatherwasflamesandhestil
li
s.Gi
rlsthr
ew
themselv
esathim,itwasannoyingr
eall
y..
.i'
vehadgirl
st hr
owthemselv
esathim butoneof
them j
ustwouldn'
tstop.Shewentasfaraskidnappi
ngYanaallbecauseyourf
atherwouldn'
t
enter
tai
nher
Dad:funnyenough,
yourmotherandherendedupwor
kingt
oget
hert
obr
ingdowny
ourmot
her
's
obsessiv
epsychoti
ccrusher

Me:
seemsl
i
key
ouguy
swentt
hroughal
otofadv
ent
ures

Mom:
ist
hatwhaty
oucal
li
t?Adv
ent
ures?Nobabyt
hatwashel
l
!

Me:
butt
heendr
esul
tsar
eamazi
ng.Youhappy
.Itwasanadv
ent
ure,
arol
l
ercoast
err
ide

Dad:
wheny
ouputi
tthatwayson.
..

Wecontinuedchat
tingf orali
tt
lewhil
euntil
dadgotuptochangeandmom foll
owedr i
ghtafter
.
AseandIexchangedgl ancesbecauseweknewexact l
ywhatwasgoingt
ogodown.Our
par
entsaretoosexuall
yact i
vefort
heiragesshame.You’
dthi
nkinyourf
ort
iesthey
’dbet i
redof
i
tbutnah,notmypar ents.Theycamebackf ordi
nnerwhi
chwasat8pm.Wehadani cefamily
mealandaftert
hatwewentt oourrooms.

ThenextdayAuntJencamet oourcr ibandl ateronwef l

ewt oJHBwher ewewer ebookedi na
hotelbasedi nSandt on.IcalledBaet ot el
lherIwasher eandshet oldmet hatshewas
prepari
ngf orherdi nnerwitht hisTay l
orMei erguy .Icall
edmom t oi nform herwewer eher e
safel
yandshet ol
dmet hattheygott oCapeTownsaf el
ytoo,wehadami niconver sati
on
beforeendingt hecal l
.Awhi lel aterJenandAsecamei nt
omyr oom aski ngmet ojoint hem as
theygocl ubhoppi nginJHBpl usauntSageandherhusbandwer eher eandsomeofour
cousinsandf riendswer eher et oosowhynot ,atfi
rstIwasn’tupf ori tbutaf t
ersome
convinci
ngIf inall
ygav ein,nott otheclubhoppi ngt houbuttochi l
lingi ndoorsanddr inkingwit
h
fri
ends,myl egdoesn’ tall
owmet obecl ubhoppi ng.Itwasgoingt obeme, Asakhe, Asange,
Alungil
eandLucas…Lucasandpar t
ying,t
het woar elikeahouseonf ire.Iaskedt hegi rl
st o
dropmeof fatAsangeandAsakhe’ splacesomewher earoundSandt on,theylivedint hesame
buil
dingjustdi f
ferentfl
ats…l ikemyt winandI .Wewer echil
li
ngi nAsakhe’ sflatdrinkingand
them smoki ngweed, wellAlu, AngeandLuc.AkheandIwer en'treal l
yf ans,wellIhat eweed.I
feell
ikeitmakespeopl eslowanddumbandIhat et hatbothmygi rl
f r
iendandt winl ov eit.My
missionist ogett hem toqui t
.

Luc:
soy
ouandt
hatYay
achi
ckst
il
lpushi
ng?

Inodded.LucandIusedtoleadthesameli
fest
ylebutIwasfarworset
hanhi
m,ther
ewas
l
iter
all
ynosav i
ngmef r
om thel
if
eIusedtoleadunti
lYayacamealongandLuci
shavingt
roubl
e
accepti
ngthatI'
m achangedmannow.

Asakhe:
Iforoneam pr
oudofy
ou.Sheseemsl
i
ket
heper
fectchi
ck

Ange:youwonaj
ackpotwi
tht
hatone,
Aunt
ylov
esherandsodoesuncl
eandt
her
estofy
our
fam mahn

Luc:
butshe'
sleav
ingsoonwhi
chmeansi
'
llhav
emycousi
nback

Hesai
dtr
ynat
oastbutIdi
dn'
trai
semybeert
ohi
m.Thet
houghtofYay
aleav
ingr
eal
l
yput
sme
off
.Idon'
twanthert
oleavebutIal
sodon'twantt
oseem sel
fi
sht
ooandt
her
e'snowayt
o
convi
nceherwit
houtseemingl
ikeasel
fi
shass.

Al
u:what
'sl
ucast
alki
ngabout
?

Me:
nextmont
hshe'
sgoi
ngt
ost
udyov
erseas

Twi
ns:
what
???

Akhe:
why
?

Me:tomorr
owherpict
ureswi
l
lbef
eatur
edintheexhi
bit
ion,
she'
sal
readygott
heschol
arshi
pal
l
sheneedsi
sforherpi
ctur
est
osel
landthenshe'
sgone

Ange:
butshe'
sgoi
ngt
ocomebacknexty
earr
ight
?

Me:
it'
sa3y
eart
hing

Al
u:whydonty
ouasky
ourdadf
oral
ett
erofr
ecommendat
iont
ogost
udyi
nthesameci
ty

Whydi
dn'tIthi
nkofthat?Itwasagreati
dea.Per
fectev
en.Al
lIneedt
odoi
sfi
nishmyar
ti
cles
her
eorf
inishthem overthatsi
de.

Me:
dudet
hat
'sagr
eati
dea!Whydi
dn'
tIt
hinkoft
hat
?

Al
u:becausey
oudumbAf
*

Me:
scr
ewy
ou!

Al
u:noty
ourgi
rlbr
o!.Tal
ktoy
ourpar
ent
sfi
rst

Luc:
especi
all
yAunt
yAmaey
.She'
sthemostdi
ff
icul
t

Me:
youknowheral
ltoowel
l

Luc:
sowhathappenedt
othatpsy
chochi
cky
ouoncesl
eptwi
th

Me:
Isl
eptwi
thal
otofpsy
chos.Whi
chone?

Luc:
theDUTchi
ck,
yourgi
rl
fr
iendsf
ri
end

Me:
eybr
uh,
she'
sbeenqui
et.That
'
sagoodsi
gnIguess

Ange:
shet
roubl
e?

Me:Ihadsexwi
thhermadatYandi
swa..
.well
Iwaspi ssedandshewasavai
labl
esoIdidi
twi
th
herandt
hentol
dhertol
eav
e,shetooknakedpict
uresinmyroom andsentt
hem toKat
e

Akhe:
nof
*cki
ngway
!Sot
hat
'
swhyy
ouandKat
ebr
okeup.

Al
u:di
dyout
ryt
omakeupwi
thKat
e,apol
ogi
seandst
uff
?
Me:
shewoul
dn'
thearmeout
,shewasbot
hmadandhur
t.

Luc:
andsohef
inal
l
yfol
l
owedhi
shear
tandwentf
orYay
ainst
ead

Al
u:soYay
awasar
ebound?
!

Hesai
dnoddi
ng.

Me:no!Yay
aandIwer ecomplicat
edok.Ifel
lforYayal
ongbef
oreLat
hithaorKat
ebutshewas
t
oostuckupforme.Atfir
stitwaslustbutbecauseofmyfami
lyIwasforcedt
oactual
l
yspend
t
imewithherandIgottoknowherbet t
er

Luc:
andt
her
esti
shi
stor
y.Wegeti
t,y
ouwhi
pped

Al
u:bet
tert
hanscr
ewi
ngany
thi
ngwi
thapussy

Luc:asi
fyouanybet
ter
.Youhav
eagi
rl
fr
iendbuty
ouscr
ewi
ngy
ourboss.
..I
'
m notst
ri
ngi
ng
anyoneal
ong

Me&t
het
wins:
what
?

Al
useemsl
i
ket
heper
fectgent
lemani
nthewhol
eofoursquad.

Al
u:t
hatwomanr
efusest
oendt
hings.I
'
vet
ri
edt
ost
opi
tok

Me:
wher
edoest
hisl
eav
eEmi
hle?

Al
u:eydudepl
easedon'
t.i
t'
sbadenoughasi
tisok

Ange:
buty
ouhav
etoendt
hist
hingwi
thy
ourbossbef
orei
tendsbadl
yfory
oucuz

Luc:i
fonlyi
tweret
hateasy
.Ifi
tget
syouar
aiseandy
ourgett
ospoi
lBaewi
tht
hemoney
,Isee
noreasontost
opit

Akhe:
whati
fitcameout
?Thenwhat
?

Luc:
theni
t'
sout
.Heget
sanot
herj
obel
sewher
e.May
bej
oinusi
nDBN

Al
u:no.I
'
llhandl
eitl
i
kei
'
vebeenhandl
i
ngi
tthesepastf
ewmont
hs

Me:
howl
onghast
hisbeenhappeni
ngkant
i?

Al
u:6mont
hs

Ange:
dudet
hat
'showl
ongy
ou'
vebeenwor
kingt
her
e.I
sthathowy
ouev
engott
hej
ob?

Al
unodded

Me:
youar
epl
ayi
ngwi
thf
ir
e.

Luc:
he'
sjusthav
ingf
un.Lett
heguybe.He'
sbeencar
eful
fort
hisl
onghasn'
the?Chi
l
l
Hesaidsli
ppingonhisbeer.Lucisall
forpl
ayingwi t
hfir
euntil
hegetsburnt
.Trustmether
e's
nosavingthi
sone,butheplaysitsaf
eshame.Igotoutt ofetchsomethi
ngwithAsangeinhi
s
pl
acewi t
hwasi nt
hetopfloor,wegotinsi
dethel i
ftandweremetbymyhi ghschoolex
gi
rl
fr
iend.Thi
sweekendwasgoi ngtobelongerthanexpected.

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S02E09

Dinnerwi thmom, Tay lorandhisassistantLay l

awasgoi nggood, gr
eatact uall
y.Iwasenj oying
everybitofi tandt hef ood..
.Godthef oodwasheav enl yormay beIwasj usttooexci ted.My
phoner angsoIdeci dedtogoansweri ti
nt heladies’ room.I twasmysi ster.Wespokef ora
while,shewasaski ngaboutmyt ri
pandt hedinnerandt heusual stuffafterthatIgotoutoft he
stal
l gofreshenup.Youev ermeetsomeonesobr eat htakinglygorgeousy oust arttoquest ion
yoursexual it
y?Thatwast hewomanIwal kedoutt o, shewasst andingbyt hemi rrorapplying
l
ipstick,Iwasl i
terallystart
inganddrool i
ngov eranot herwoman. .
.wellshedi dn'tlookoldert han
met hou, shewaspr obablymyageoray earolderbutGodDamnhermani sluckyt ohav eher .
shewasal lkindsofbeaut y,I
'mtal
kingper fectli
ps, perfectbodyshape( hourgl ass),perfect
eyes, ey
ebr ows...ev er
ythi
ngaboutherwasnot hingl esst hanper f
ect.

"
Youcant
akeapi
ctur
eify
oul
i
ke"

Eventhewayshespokewasper fect,wordsjustf
lowedri
ghtoutofhermouth.Shewasnotdark
andshewasn'
tayel l
oboneeit
her,herskintonewasjustli
keminebutherswasglowyand
gli
tt
eryt
hanmine,shehadnospotorwhat soeverormaybeit'
sthemakeup.All
Iknowist
hat
shewasBEAUTIFUL!Mel owouldn'
tev enthi
nktwiceaboutdumpingmeforherandIwouldn'
t
evenbemadorhur tabouti
t.

Me:
excuseme?

Shegi
ggl
ed,
Ithi
nkI
’
vef
oundmywomancr
ushher
e

Her
:I'
m ki
ddi
ng,
youwer
est
arr
inga.
..

Me:
Idi
dn'
tmeant
ober
udeabouti
t,t
hingi
syoubeaut
if
ul

OhGosh!Isoundl
i
keal
ovest
ruckner
d.Ni
ceoneYandi
swa.Becr
eepy
.

Her
:thanky
ou.Soar
eyoubyt
heway
.I'
m Ol
onaMbi
za
Shehel
doutherhandr
eveal
i
ngherv
eryownRi
hannat
att
oos

Me:
Yandi
swaGxaba.Ni
cet
omeety
ou

Her
:Yandi
swaGxaba.
..
.

Shesai
dlooki
ngasi
fshewast
hinki
ngf
orawhi
l
e,Ij
ustst
oodt
her
eadmi
ri
ng

Her
:ar
en'
tyout
heonedat
ingMel
okuhl
eBess?

Areyouki
ddingmer i
ghtnow?!I
nmyheadIwasbangi
ngmyf oreheadagainstt
hemir
ror.Is
ther
eanygir
lthatdoesnotknowmyboyf
ri
end?"
SayNo!"That
'sallsubconsci
ouswastell
i
ng
me.

Me:
depends

Her
:on?

Me:
ther
elat
ionshi
pyouhav
ewi
thhi
m

Her
:soy
ouoneoft
hose.
..i
nsecu.
..

Me:
I’
m noti
nsecur
esweet
ie.I
'
m ascur
iousasy
ou

Her
:cur
iosi
tyki
l
ledacat

Me:
don'
tl
eti
tki
l
lahumannow

Isai
dwi
thasmi
l
e

Her
:Iseewhyhel
i
kesy
ou.You'
vegott
hat
..
.Uhhm howdoIputi
t

Me:
I’
m abi
tchwhocanst
ickupf
orher
sel
f?Thati
swhaty
oucal
lfl
i
ngscal
lusr
ight
?"Bi
tches"

Shechuckl
ed.

Her
:what
ever
.AskMel
oaboutme.

Shewi nkedatmeandwal kedout.Okwhatj usthappenedr i

ghtnow?Icall
edMel osamet i
me
buthedi dn'tanswer,Ikeptcal
li
ngandsl owlyIwasget ti
ngpissed.Thesefl
ingsofhisshoul d
stayintheirlane,I
'm nottheonewhoendedt hingswiththem,Melodid.I
'mt henewgirlandI
don'tdeserv ethi
s.Thewayhei ssopopul aryouwoul dswearhewasChr i
sBr ownorsomet hi
ng.
Icalmedmy sel
fdownandheadedbackt oourt able.Thi
sOlonachickwassi tt
ingonaf artable
withsomeguyi nanexpensivelooki
ngsuit.Itookmyseatandj oinedinontheconv er
sationand
aftersomet imeTayl
oraskedf orthebil
landthenwepar t
edway sbacktothehot el
.JustwhenI
gotintomyr oom Igotacallfr
om Mel o.

/
/Hi
m:mi
ssme?

Me:
whoi
sOl
ona?
Hi
m:what
?Whoi
sshekeny
ani
?

Me:
OlonaMbi
za.

Hekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e.

Hi
m:oht
hatOl
ona

Me:
howmanyar
ethey
?

Hi
m:babecanwenotf
ightpl
ease

Me:
wewoul
dn'
ti
fyouwoul
djustt
ell
mewhoshei
s

Hi
m:I
’
m notdoi
ngt
his.I
'
m wayt
oot
ipsyf
ort
his.

Me:
fine/
/

Iwassomad.Whycan' thejusttellmewhoshei sandthenwecanmov eon?Idon' tunderstand

whatissodifferentaboutt hisone.Exceptthefactt
hatsheisflamesbutwhati sitabouther .I
l
oggedont oInst agram andsear chedforheranddamn!She'sthosegirl
swi t
hov erthousands
offol
l
ower swhi l
eshef ol
lowsabout200- 300ofherfol
lowers.Shewast oomuch.Icannev er
competewi t
ht hat.Itookof fmycl ot
hesandwentt oshowerthencamebackandl oti
onedmy
bodyprepari
ngf orbedwhent herewasaknockonmydoor .Iwenttogetitandi twasNal edi
wit
hsomegi r
l wewentt ohighschool wi
th.Ist
oodasideforthem togetinaftersharingfake
hugsandsmi les.ReasonIsayf akeisbecausethisgi
rlanduswer en'
tfr
iendsinhighschool but
al
lofasuddenweshar ehugsandsmi l
esnow?Whati sthi
s?

Ledi
:sowegoi
ngout
,getdr
essed

Me:
notupf
ori
t,Ij
ustwantt
osl
eep

Nol
l
y:comeonYandi
don'
tbel
i
ket
his.I
twi
l
lbef
un

Shesai
dwi
tht
hewi
destsmi
l
e.Il
ookedathert
henatLedi

Me:
yeaht
hef
uncanmi
ssme

Ledi
:cany
ouexcuseusf
orami
nut
e

Shesai
dpul
l
ingmet
othebat
hroom.

Her
:okandt
hen?What
’swr
ongwi
thy
ou?

Me:
Ijustdon’
tfeel
li
kegoi
ngout

Her
:why
?Per
iods?

Inodded.Idi
dn’
tev
enwantt
otal
kabouti
t.
Her
:okf
inemami
.

Shepul
l
edmei
nforahugt
henbr
okei
tandki
ssedmyf
orehead

Her
:getwel
lok.Iwi
l
lhav
elot
soff
unf
orbot
hofusandIwi
l
lbr
ingy
oul
otsandl
otsofcomf
ort
f
oodok?

Inoddedandsmi l
ed,knowi ngher
,sheiscapable.Shesmil
edandthenwal
kedoutasIfol
l
owed
behi
ndher .ShetoldNollythatIwasn’
tokandt hatitwasbestt
heyleav
emeandNolly
underst
oodandt oldmet ogetwell
.TheywentoutandIwentt owearmypjay
sandgotunder
thecoverstosleep.Awhi leint
omynapIwaswokenupbymyphone.

/
/Me:
mmh?

Iwassodeepi
nmysl
eept
hatIdi
dn’
tev
enwantt
oopenmyey
esandcheckwhowascal
l
ing.

Per
son:
Yay
apl
easeopen

Thatv
oice.Dr
unkasi
tis,
Ist
il
lknowi
tal
ltoowel
l
.Whatwashedoi
ngher
e?Howdi
dheev
en
knowmyr oom?

Me:
Mel
okuhl
ewhatdoy
ouwant
?

Hi
m: yourf
ri
endcal
l
edmet
ell
i
ngmey
ouwer
eony
ourper
iod.Pl
easej
ustopent
hisdoor
al
ready/
/

IlookedatthescreenandrealizedIhadonlybeensleepingforanhourandt hi
rt
yminutes.I
draggedmyassoutoft hebedandgotupt ogogett hedoor.Idroppedt hecal
lonmywayt o
thedoor.Hewalkedi ncarr
yingroses,aplasti
cbagwi t
hal otofjunkandat akeaway.Hesmiled
atmeandIj ustlookedathimt henclosedthedoorandf oll
owedhi mtomybed.Igoti nunder
thecoversandcov er
edmy self.Rosesandjunkdon’talwaysfixeveryt
hing,maybeifIwason
myper i
odIwouldhav emel t
edatt hegesturebutIwasn’t.

Hi
m:expl
ainsy
ourmoodear
li
er

If
igur
edl
etmenotanswerhi
m.Iwasn’
tint
hemood.If
eltt
hebedmov
eandf
elthi
sar
mswr
ap
ar
oundme,hewassowarm.

Hi
m:pl
easet
alkt
ome

Me:
Ionl
ysai
dIwasonmyper
iodst
ogetLedi
offmyback,
youcanl
eav
e

Hi
m:I
’
m notgoi
ngany
wher
eYandi
swa.

Me:
sui
tyour
sel
f

Hi
m:Idon’
tev
enknowwhatI
’
vedonet
hist
imear
ound

Me:
whoi
sOl
onaMbi
zaMel
okuhl
e?
Hetookadeepbreat
hinandthenletitout
.Hewassocl oset
omeIcoul
dsmel
ltheHei
neken
onhisbr
eat
hwithami xt
ureofhal
l
s, i
twasn’tsuchabadsmell
.

Hi
m:whyt
hesuddeni
nter
est
?

Me:
unt
ily
oucananswermewhoshei
sthenwehav
enot
hingt
otal
kabout
.Pl
easel
eav
e

Hi
m:pl
easel
ookatme

Me:
no.

Hi
m:Yandi
swapl
easet
urnar
ound

Ishookmyheadno.looki
ngathi
m willonl
ymakememel t,healr
eadysoundssexywithhi
s
huskydrunkv
oiceandIdon’
twanttogivei
n.nott
hiseasi
lyanyway.Ir
emovedtheblanket
sand
gotontopofmeandt ur
nedmearoundt olayonmyback.Istar
tedhit
ti
nghimtogetoffofme
butMeloisst
rongert
hanme,hepinnedmyhandstothebed.

Hi
m:y
ousodamnsexywheny
oumad

Me:
getof
fmeMel
okuhl
e

Hi
m:It
houghty
ouwant
edt
oknowaboutOl
onaMbi
za

Me:
getof
fmekal
oku

Hi
m:no.

Il
ookedathi
m andhejustsmiled.Godhewassosexywit
hhissuddenlyt
inyey
es;wit
htheway
hewasontopofmeIcoul dfeelhismanhoodonmystomach.Hebroughthi
sfacetomineand
br
eathedi
nthecarbondi
oxideIwasbr eat
hingout
.

Hi
m:l
ookatme

Me:
stoppl
ayi
nggamesandj
ustt
ell
mewhot
hisgi
rli
s

Him:she’ sanex, agirl

Ihadaf l
i
ngwit
hformor et
han3y ear
s.SheandIweremor eorl
essi
nan
openr el
ationshi
p.Ev er
yt i
meshewasinDurbanshewouldhitmeupandev eryt
imeIwashereI
wouldhi therupandwe’ dbang,
gooutanddohalfthet
hingscoupl
esdo.wehadan
understandinguntilshestart
edcat
chi
ngfeel
ingsandwantedustobemor ethanwhatwewere
soIcal l
edi tqui
ts

Bythisti
me,hewasnol
ongerhol
dingmyhands,
hewasbal
anci
ngwi
thhi
sonei
thersi
deofmy
facestar
ingatme.

Hi
m:nowhowdoy
ouknowher
?

Me:
Iranint
oheri
nthel
adi
est
odayandf
orsomer
easonsheknewme.howdi
dsheknowme
Mel
okuhl
e?
Hi
m:becausesheandIst
il
ltal
kandshe’
spr
obabl
yseeny
ouonmyst
atusest
oo

Me:
oh

Hi
m:t
her
e’snot
hinggoi
ngonbet
weenOl
onaandIei
thert
hanusj
ustbei
ngf
ri
ends

Ij
ustnodded

Hi
m:i
sthatal
lyouwantt
oknowori
sther
emor
e?

Me:
ist
her
emor
e?

Heshookhi
shead.

Him:t
hel
astthi
ngIwantt
odoi sar
gueaboutyouov
erOl
onawhent
her
e’sl
i
ter
all
ynot
hing
goi
ngonbet
weenherandI.sheandIar
ehist
ory

Idon’
tknow, Iki
nderfeell
i
ket
here’
smoretothi
sgir
lthanhewaslett
ingon.Idon’
tknowmahn,
thehaironthebackofmyheadisunrel
axedwit
hthi
sst or
yhe’
ssell
i
ngme.Iwantt obel
iev
ehim
butIfeell
ikehe’
sfeedingmel
ies

Me:
aret
her
eanymor
e“ex
es”or“
fl
ings”Ishoul
dlookoutf
orwhi
l
eI’
m her
e?

Heshookhi
shead.

Me:
ok.Pl
easegetof
fmenow

Hi
m:af
tert
his

Hesai dkissingme, Iresponded.I ’

vebeenwant i
nghi m si ncet hemi nutehewal kedi n.asmuch
asIdon’tbuyhi sstor y,
Iwassupert urnedonbyhi m andhi sseduct iveey es.Mel okuhlewasal l
ki
ndsofhot ,evenwhendr unkhewasst il
lsexyAF.Heki ssedmehungr ilythenwentt omyneck,
fr
om myneckhesuckedonmyboobssendi ngimpul sest ot hebottom ofmyspi ne.Het ookmy
pjpantsof fthentookof fmyunder wearandt ookmest raightt omuf ft
own, hewast oogoodI
couldn’
thol dmy sel
f,hewoul dteaseandgosl owj ustasI ’m aboutt oor gasm af terIdon’tknow
howmanyor gasmst hatactual l
ybuiltupheletmer eleaseandt henhecameupt okissme
whiletry
ingt oinser
thi mself.Itwassopai nfulIwasdi ggingonhi sbackwi thmyst i
lett
onails,
hefinall
ygoti nmaki ngmegaspi nhismout h,hest art
edof fsl
owl ythenincr easedhi space.yes,
wewer en’tusingacondom andIwasont hepi l
l
,Ihadmyl astperiodbegi nningoft hemont hso
pregnancywashopef ul
lynotpossi bl
ebyGod’ sgr ace.Idon’ twhenhef l
ippedusov erbutIwas
nowont opr i
ddinghim withhi sheadt i
lt
edbackandmegoi ngatmyownpacemaki nghim
groaninbet ween.Wecamet ogethercall
i
ngouteachot her ’sname, Icollapsedont opofhi m
andher anhi shandsonmyback.

Hi
m:wi
thwhaty
ouj
ustdi
d.Gi
rly
ouar
enotgoi
ngany
wher
e

Igi
ggl
edt
ryi
ngt
ocat
chmybr
eat
h

Me:
shutup
Wewer
ebot
hbr
eat
hingheav
il
y

Hi
m:I
’
m ser
ious,
yousur
pri
semeev
eryt
ime

Me:
what
everbabe.

Hewasst
il
li
nsi
deme.

Hi
m:can’
twest
ayl
i
ket
hisf
orev
erpl
ease?
!

Me:
sadl
y,wecan’
t

Iwasslowlydri
fti
ngofftolal
aland.Iaskedhim hetel
lmesomethi
ngandhestar
tedt
ell
i
ngme
aboutt
heirgett
ingdrunkconquestoftoday.Idon’
tknowwhenIfel
lasl
eepbutwhenIwokeup
hewassleepingpeaceful
lynexttome; Iwaswrappedunderhi
sarm wi
thmyheadonhischest
.

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o

Iknowmygi rlfr
iend,youcouldgiveherthebestsexev erandshewi l
lsti
llnotforgetyoupi ssed
heroff
.EverythingItoldheraboutOlonaisthet r
uth,
OlonaiswhoIsai dshei s.TheoneexI 'm
worri
edaboutherbumpi ngintoistheoneIbumpedi ntoear l
ieron.Youknowt hatoneexwhom
youtwonev erreallyendedthi
ngs,wellthat'
swhoMi randais.Beauty,brai
ns,pr et
tymucht he
wholepackage.Mi randaandInev erreal
lyended, shejustmov edawayandl asttimeIchecked
shewasst udyinginLondonsoofcauseI 'm stunnedtomeetheri nJoburg.BecauseIwaswi th
mycousin,sheandIcoul dn'
treal
ly"chat"
.IlovemyYay abutt hethi
ngwi thMi r
ai sdif
ferent.
Unli
keOlonashei snotcrazy,
shei sagreatper sonwithagr eathearttoo.SoI '
m kindofwor r
ied
becauseseeinghert odayeruptedforgott
enf eeli
ngsandI '
m wor ri
edYay ami ghtjustpickthat
up.Iwokeupt oYay awatchi
ngme.

Her
:heysl
eepy

Me:
heybeaut
if
ul.St
il
lmad?

Her
:Idon'
tknow,
shoul
dIbe

Me:
tel
lmewhatt
odoandi
'
lldoi
t

Her
:youhi
dingsomet
hingf
rom me
Me:
whywoul
dIhi
deany
thi
ngf
rom y
ou?

Her
:Idon'
tknowMel
o,y
out
ell
me

Me:
ear
li
eronIr
ani
ntoal
ongl
ostl
overi
nthebui
l
dingAsangeandAsakhel
i
vei
n.

I
t'
snousehi
dingt
hingsf
rom Yay
a,sheal
waysfi
ndsoutany
wayorshoul
dIsaymypasthasa
wayofcomi
ngbacktohauntme.Shel
ookedatmeforawhil
eandsi
ghed.

Her
:doy
oust
il
ll
oveher
?Pl
easeanswermehonest
ly

Me: Idon'
tknow.Ithi
nkIst
il
lhav
efeel
i
ngsf
orher
.SheandInev
err
eal
l
yended,
wewer
ejust
separatedbydi
stance

Her
:so?Youconsi
der
ingr
eki
ndl
i
ngwhatoncewas?

Wewer
ebot
hfaci
ngeachot
herwi
thourheadsbal
ancedonourhands.

Me:
what
?

Her
:it
saquest
ionMel
o.Ay
esornowi
l
ldo

Me:
ofcausenot
.I'
m wi
thy
ouar
en'
ti

Her
:youwi
thmenowbutunt
ilwhen?

Me:
til
deat
h.I
fIwasst
il
li
nlov
ewi
thherdoy
out
hinki
'
dbeher
elay
ingnextt
oyounaked?

Her
:Idon'
tknowMel
o.

Me:
what
'
sar
elat
ionshi
pwi
thoutt
rust
?

Shekeptqui
et

Me: yousaywecanmaket hingswor kwit

hy oustudy i
ngabroadbuther eyouaredoubtingme
andy ouhav en'tevenleftyet,howmuchmor ewheny ougone?Wheny ougotint
oar el
ationshi
p
withmey ouknewIhadskel etonsinmycl osetbuty ousaidyoucouldhandlethem,peopl e
warnedy ouaboutmeandt hepastIhav e,don' tmistakewhatI'm say
ingforsomethingelse.My
pointisthatyouknewwhaty ouwer egett
ingi nto,youknewt hatther
ewoul dbegir
lsli
keOl ona
poppingupev erynowandt henandhonest lyIwoul dn'tbl
amey ouifyouwantedoutbecausei t
's
toomucht ohandl e.Ifeel
likei'vespentmostofmyt i
mewi t
hy ouapologi
singformypastand
honestlyit'
snotf aironmeorourr elati
onship.Yandi swaI'mreall
ytryi
ngherebutyour eall
y
makingt hingshar dforme.Your eall
ymaki ngi thardtobewi thyou

Her
:whatar
eyousay
ingMel
o?

Me:thati
fyouwantspacet
heni
'l
lgi
veitt
oyouunt
ily
ouknowwhaty
ouwant
.Unt
ily
out
hink
youcantr
ustmeasmuchasIt r
ustyou.

Wewer
ebot
hsi
tt
ingupnow.I
'
m notdumpi
ngherorany
thi
ngl
i
ket
hatbutunt
ilshei
sabl
eto
tr
ustmecompl et
elythenr
eal
l
yourrel
ati
onshi
pisn'
tgoi
nganywhere.Il
oveheral
otbuti
treal
l
y
hurt
sthatshedoubtsmethewayshedoes.Igoti
nanacci
dentbecauseofthi
sver
ysame
doubtofhers.

Her
:oh.
..

Igotupoutofherbedandgotdressedwi
thherwat
chi
ngme.WhenIwasdoneIt
ookmyphone
andwenttokissherf
orehead.

Me:
youhav
emynumber
,cal
lmewheny
ouhav
eananswerf
ormeok

Shenoddedhol
dingbackt
ear
s.

Me:
Ilov
eyouok

Iwalkedtot
hedoor,unl
ockeditandwalkedout.Thi
shasgottobet hemosthardestt
hingi
've
everdoneandIhat
emy sel
ffordoingitbuti
t'
shastobedone.It'
sforthebestf
orbothherandI.
Onmyt otheel
evat
orIbumpedi ntoLedicomingoutoft
heelevator
.

Her
:mor
ning

Me:
mor
ning

Her
:sohow'
smyf
ri
end?

Me:
okIguess

Ishr
ugged.

Me:
Ihav
etogo,
theuberi
sal
readydownst
air
s

Her
:ohok.Thanksf
orcomi
ngov
er

Me:
she'
smygi
rl
fr
iend,
I'
ll
alway
scomeov
erwhensheneedsme.

Shesmil
edandnoddedthenheadedaboutherbusi
nesswhi leIwentt
oelevat
orrequest
ingan
uber
.Igoti
nanditdr
ovemet omycousinsapart
ment .Ical
ledAsangetocomeopenf orme
andhedid,
whenwegott ot
heroom theyweresl
eepingwi t
hbottl
esever
ywhere.

Hi
m:how'
sYay
a?

Wesatdownonthefreecouchwhil
ethedudessl
eptont
heot
hercouchesandf
loor
.It
ooka
deepbr
eat
hinandletitoutsl
owl
y.

Me:
she'
snotonper
iods

Hi
m:ok?

Me:
Igav
eherspace
Hi
m:whatdoy
oumean?Whati
s"space"
?

Me:
Yandi
swai
snotr
eadyf
oral
ongdi
stancer
elat
ionshi
p.

Hi
m:andy
ouknowt
his?

Me:
shedoesn'
ttr
ustme.Thedozenmi
ssedcal
l
swer
ebecauseshebumpedi
ntoOl
onaMbi
za

Hi
m:t
hathot
ti
eyouwer
ehooki
ngupwi
th?

Me:
yesher.Lastni
ghtsheaskedmeaboutherandtol
dherever
ythi
ngaboutherandt
hent
his
mor
ningIt
oldheraboutMir
andafrom t
heel
evatorl
astni
ght

Hi
m:oh

Me:sheaskedifIwasst
il
li
nlov
ewi
thherandIt
oldherIwasn'
tthouIcan'
tdenyt
hef
eel
i
ngs
t
hatarest
il
lthere

Hi
m:whywoul
dyout
ell
hery
oust
il
lhav
efeel
i
ngsf
ory
ourex?

Me:Iwoul
dn'
tev
encal
li
tfeel
i
ngs.I
t'
sli
keaspar
k,t
hatt
hingy
ouf
eel
wheny
ouhav
en'
tseen
someonei
nyear
s

Heshookhi
shead

Hi
m:y
oudugy
ourowngr
ave

Me:Ir
atherdi
gmyowngr
avet
hanbei
nar
elat
ionshi
pwi
thoutt
rust
,thet
rut
h,commi
tmentand
l
oyal
ty.
..y
ouknow

Hi
m:Iguess.Buty
out
aket
hist
rut
hthi
ngt
oanot
herl
evel
dude!

Me:
mom taughtmethatt
hetrut
hwil
lal
way
ssety
ouf
ree.Rat
hershebemadaty
oubecauseof
t
hetr
utht
hanbehappybecauseofl
i
es

Henodded.

Hi
m:sowher
edoest
hisl
eav
eyouguy
s?

Me:
Idon'
tknow.I
'
m wai
ti
ngt
ohearf
rom her

Hi
m:y
ougoi
ngt
otheexhi
bit
ionr
ight
?

Me:
ofcause.Icameher
etosuppor
ther
.Il
oveherandt
odaychangesnot
hingorwhat
soev
er

Hi
m:ni
ggay
oumyspi
l
li
on!Ir
especty
ourass!Let
'
shopet
hisi
sn'
ttheendofy
ouguy
s

Me:
wel
lLucwoul
dbehappy

Isai
dlaughi
ngandhel
aughedt
oo
Hi
m:Luci
saspeci
alcase

Me:
thathei
s.What
'sf
orbr
eakf
ast
?

Hi
m:Idon'
tknow.Cer
eal
may
be?

Me:let
sgobuysomet
hingt
oeat
.Somet
hingf
il
li
ng.Fi
rstIneedt
owash,
pleasedr
ivemet
othe
hot
el

Hi
m:l
etmeshowerf
ir
st

Me:
Ayt

Hewenttoshowerandleftmeclear
ingthebott
lesonthef l
oor.Theseguysweredeadasleep
andnoneofthem wasgett
ingup.Fi
nall
yAsangecamebackaf terwhatseemedli
ke30mi nutes
andthenwedroveofft
othehotelwhereheorderedroom serv
ice.Iwenttoshower,
whenI
camebackHewaschi l
li
ngwithmysi st
erhav
ingbreakfastt
oget herandmyplat
eont het
able.

Ase:
mor
ningt
win

Me:
mor
ningt
oyout
oot
win.Howwasl
astni
ght
?

Her
:itwasl
i
t.Feel
sgoodbei
ngbackher
e

Me:
ofcausei
twoul
d.Hav
eyouseeny
ourboy
fri
end?

Her
:Ispentt
heni
ghtathi
sapar
tment

Il
ookedather

Her
:rel
ax,
wedi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ng.Iwast
oodr
unkt
odoany
thi
ngwi
thJi
m any
way

Me:
andhedi
dn'
ttakeadv
ant
age?

Sheshookherhead

Her
:st
il
lpur
ebr
other

Me:
youbet
ter
.

Ange:
backup,
Asemahl
ehasaboy
fri
end?Si
ncewhen?

Her
:si
nceDecemberhol
i
day
s.Agr
eatguy

Hi
m:he'
syourf
ir
stboy
fri
end,
ofcausehewoul
dbeagr
eatguyt
oyou

Her
:yousuchanass!Hear
dyourgi
rl
fr
iendwasdy
ing,
per
iodpai
ns

Me:
she'
sfi
ne,
sheonl
ysai
dthatsoLedi
coul
dgetof
fherback.Di
dn'
tfeel
li
kegoi
ngout

Her
:ok.
..
Iateandthenwentt oloti
oninthebathroom andcamebackwear i
ngbri
efs,
Iwentt opickout
j
eansandat -
shirt
.Wechi l
l
edforawhi l
ebeforeheadi
ngov ertothetwi
nsplace.Ineededat ux
andwhobet tertohookmeupt hanAuntSage.Theguy sandIheadedtoherbout i
que,she
expandedfrom justsel
li
ngfemalethi
ngst osell
malestufftoo.Hersui
tswereimportedfrom
aroundthewor l
d,shesoldqual
itysui
ts.Wegott oherbouti
queandherassistantwasatt heti
l
l.

Me:
heyi
sMr
sNdabaar
ound?

Her
:she'
satt
heback.WhodoIsayi
slooki
ngf
orher
?

Me:
Mel
o..
.she'
l
lknow

Her
:uhhhm ok

Shewal
kedoutandwentt
otheback.Shecamebackaf
terawhi
l
efol
l
owedbyauntSage.

Sage:
mybabi
es.GoshIhav
eahangov
er.

Shesai
dhuggi
ngme

Me:
heyaunt
y.

Shegr
eet
edt
her
est

Luc:
sti
l
lhotasev
er

Sage:
andy
oust
il
lnott
appi
ngt
his

Weal
ll
aughed.

Her
:lemmeguess,
ya'
l
lwantt
uxes

Al
u:y
ep.Gotany
thi
ng?

Her
:youknowIgaty
ou.Comet
hissi
de

Wef oll
owedherandsheshowedusherl atestcoll
ecti
on.Wewer ealli
mpr essedbutther
e'sone
tuxthatcaughtmyey e,itwaswhi t
ewi thablacktieandalsobecauseYay awaswear ingablack
dresswithawhitebelt.IaskedAsanget oaccompanymet ogetthecastr emoved,Iwasnot
goingtoanexhibi
ti
onwi thafreakncastonmyl eg.it
'
sonlybeentwoweeks, IknowbutIfeel
fi
nejustaslongasIdon' tstandforlong.Docgav emeawal ki
ngstickjusttobesafe.Whenwe
weredonewewentt ogetsomet hi
ngt oeatandt henat5:30pm wewentt of r
eshenupprepari
ng
togot otheexhi
bit
ionwhi chwasst art
ingat6pm.

Iwaswal ki
ngaroundlookingatthepicturesonthewalkandImustsayTay lorknowshi
sstaff
butYaya'
spictureswereawor kofar t
.Thecentrepi
eceforYaya'
spictureswasab/ wpictur
eof
us.Wellmyf acewasn'tshowinginthepictur
eandneitherwashers,all
y oucouldseefr
om me
wasmynosedownt omybodyandal lyoucouldseefrom herwasherheadsnuggl edonmy
bardchest.I
twasapi ctureofmet opl
essandherhuggi ngmehidingherf aceinmychest.I
t
wasapr
ett
ypi
ctur
ethatmuchIcansay
.

"
She'
sreal
l
ytal
ent
edi
sn'
tshe?Cr
eat
ivet
oo"

Me:
ofcause

Hi
m:i
'
m Tay
lorMei
er

Me:
Der
ri
ckBess

Hi
m:ohy
out
heboy
fri
end.Ni
cet
omeety
ou

Weshookhands

Me:
yeah

Hi
m:y
oumustbepr
oudofher
.Shehasagoodey
e

Me:
ofcause.I
'
mli
vi
ngpr
oofoft
hat

Hechuckl
edandsodi
di

Hi
m:Isee.

Me:
anyi
deawher
eshecoul
dbe?

Hi
m:l
astt
imeIsawhershewasent
ert
aini
ngguest
sov
ert
her
e

Hesai
dpointi
ngbehindme.Iscannedwi
thmyey
esandIspot
tedher
.ShewasBEAUTI
FULI
f
oundmyselfdrool
i
ng.

Me:
thanks

Hi
m:sur
e

Iwalkedovertoher
,shewashol
dingagl
assofchampagnest
andingwit
hLucandJenadmiri
ng
apictur
esheoncetookofher
selfont
hemirr
or.Herf
acewasn'
tshowingbuthercamer
aand
bodywer e,
itwasbl
ackandwhit
e.

Me:
hey

Luc:
youhav
etobuyt
hisonecuz!Youcan'
thav
esuchpi
ctur
eshangi
ngonsomeper
ver
tswal
l

Weal
ll
aughed

Me:
ofcauseI
'
m buy
ingi
t.Howmanypi
ctur
esofy
ouar
eher
e?

Her
:3andt
her
estar
ejustr
andom pi
ctur
es

Jen:whenMelosaidyouweregoodIt
houghthewasonl
ysay
ingt
hatbecausey
out
woar
e
dati
ngbutgi
rl
!Thisisbeaut
if
ul
Her
:thanky
ousomuch.

Shesai
dwi
thasmi
l
e.

Luc:
uhhm okIwi
l
lseey
ouguy
sar
ound

Jen:
wai
tup

Theyl
eftusst
andi
ngt
her
etoget
herl
ooki
ngatherpi
ctur
ehangi
ngont
hewhi
tewal
l
.

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[
10/
16,
08:
56]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E11

Idon'tknowwhatadaggert ot hehear tfeel

sl i
kebutI '
m pr ettysureit'
sf eel sli
kethis.Ont he
onedayI '
m supposedt obet hehappi estandl ookingf orwardt othebestnews, myboy fr
iend
tel
lsmehest il
lhasf eeli
ngsf orhi sexandt hathei sgivingmespace, spaceIdi dnotaskf orby
thewaybutImustt hankhi mf orhi shonest yev ent houghi t'
shear tbreaki ngbuthekepti treal
withmesot hanksf orthat.Af terhel eftIletthetear srolldownmycheeksal lthewayt omy
cri
sscr osslegs.Whydi dithur tthi sbad?I '
vehadmyf airshar eofahear t
br eakandi twas
nothingl i
ket hi
s,thi
spai nisdi fferent ,it'
sforeignt ome.Myf athertel
li
ngmeshi i
twhenwef i
rst
metwasn' tthispainful.Idon'tev enknowhowt odescr i
bewhatIwasf elling,Icouldn'teven
breathepr operlythewaymyhear thur t.Iwoul dhav epr eferr
edhi m shoot ingmeorst abbingor
somet hingbecauset henIknowt hatatsomepoi ntthepai nwi l
lgoaway , thatkindofpaini s
mor ebar eablethant heoneI 'mf eelingr ightnowandi tdoesn' thav eat imef r
ameofwheni 'l
lbe
fi
ne.Ther e'snobandageorpl astert hancancov erthispai nandmakei tlesspai nful
.Whywas
hedoi ngt histome? i t
houghthel ov edme.Di dIpushhi mt oof ar?Ihav esomanyquest i
onsI
can'tev enbegintoanswer .Awhi lelat ermydooropenedandLedi walkedi nsoundingall happy.
Iquicklywi pedthet earswhi chj ustwoul dn'
tstopcomi ngout .

Her
:honeyy
ouok?

Inodded.Thankstotheweav
ecoveringmyf acefr
om herIhadal
i
ttl
ebitoft
imetotr
ywipe
thesestupi
dtear
scausedbystupi
dMel o.Iwaslooki
ngdownasthetearswoul
dn'
tst
op.If
elt
herindexfi
ngerr
aiseupmychintolookupather.

Her
:babywhat
'swr
ong?

Ther
ewasconcer
ninherv
oice.Whyi
sitt
hatwhenpeopl
easkhowy
ouar
ewheny
oucr
yingt
he
tear
sf eelt
heneedt ojustpouroutasi fat aphadbeenopen?Idon' tgeti t.Thetearsare
supposedt ostopthemi nut
esomeoneaskshowy ouare.It
'ssonotf air.Icouldn'
tevenrespond,
thetearsrespondedforme.Iwasnotf ine.Iwasnotok.Nott histi
mear ound.Shepul l
edmei n
forahugandIl etitall
outonherchest .Damny ouMel okuhlefordoingt hist omeonmyspeci al
day.GodIhat ehim.Okt hat
'salie,Ican'thatehim evenifItri
ed.I
thasn' tev enbeen3mont hs
andher eIam cryi
ngbecauseofhi m.Iam soscr ewed!I'
m cr y
ingbecauseofaguyIhav en't
evenbeenwi thfor3mont hs.I'
m probabl ythemostweakestwomant hereis.Ormay betheright
wordisdumb?I '
m somewher einbet weent hosetwo.Dumbandweak.Af terwhatseemedl ike
anhour ,well
itfel
tli
keanhourIwokeupwi thablanketovermeandaspl i
tt
ingheadache.Mel o
hasturnedmei ntosomet hi
ngI'm not.I'm notonetocrymy selftosleep.Isatupandbur i
edmy
faceinmyhands.

"
Hey
"

Il
ookedupandLedi
wascomi
ngoutoft
hebat
hroom wear
ingar
obe.Shesatont
hebed.

Her
:wantt
otal
kabouti
t?

Ishookmyhead.

Her
:ok.Goshowerandl
et'
sgohav
ebr
eakf
astok.

Inodded.Igotupfrom t
hebedandwal kedtothebat
hroom,Ineededabathandnotashower
.I
sati
nthebat hforanhourjustsi
tt
ingt
herenotwashi
ngbutthinki
ngaboutwhatMel
ohadsaid
andwhatr esponseheexpectsofme.Iwasdistur
bedbyaknockbr i
ngi
ngmebacktonow.

Me:
almostdone

Istar
tedwashi
ngwit
hthenowcoldwat
er.WhenIwasdoneIgotoutoft
hebat
handdr
ained
thewatert
henscr
ubbedthebat
handwalkedoutwr
appedi
nat owel
.

Her
:Igoty
ouneur
ofen.I
twi
l
lhel
pwi
tht
heheadache

Me:
thanky
ou

It
ookoneanddr
ankwi
thwat
er.Thi
swhol
eti
meLedi
wasj
ustwat
chi
ngme.I
twascr
eepyr
eal
l
y.

Me:
sot
ell
meaboutl
astni
ght
.Whatdi
dImi
ss?

Her
:somuchIdon'
tev
enknowwher
etost
art

Me:
you'
l
ltel
lmeal
labouti
tatbr
eakf
astr
ight
?

Her
:damnr
ight
.

Me:
andwher
edi
dyougetNol
l
y?

Her:Ifoundheratt
herecept
ionl
astni
ghtwi
thsomebl
essedl
ooki
ngguywet
hu.Thedudegav
e
herhiscardandtol
dhertobuywhatev
ershewant
ed
Me:
Ibety
oual
lthatcomeswi
thapr
ice

Her
:what
evert
hepr
icemaybe,
abl
ackcar
disheav
enl
y

Me:
don'
tgeti
ntot
hisl
i
fe.Youdon'
tneedabl
esser

Iwasbusyget
ti
ngdr
essedandsowasshe

Her
:justf
ort
hoset
ri
pst
oDubai
,shoppi
ngandt
hebasi
cst
uff

Me:
unt
ily
ougomi
ssi
ngandy
ourdeadbodyi
sfoundi
nadumpst
erbecausey
our
efusedt
obe
t
amed.

Her
:what
evermami
.Iwi
l
lbeagoodgi
rlf
orev
er

Me:
Ipr
efery
oul
i
ket
hat

Ifini
shedget t
ingdr essedinj eans, t-
shirtandabl ackcour theel .Ijustwant edt obesi mpleand
depressedl ookingwi t
hahi ntofgl am.Ledi woreashor treddr esswi thabl uel eatherjacketand
blueheel sandar edhandbag.Theout f
itwasnewt ome, butthenagai nonecannev erkeepup
withNal edi.Wet ookaf ewpi cturesbef oreheadi ngoutt omeetmom downst airs.Breakfast,
shoppi ngandl atel unchwasf un.Tookmymi ndawayf r
om t hi
ngsf orawhi l
eunt il
Iwasbacki n
myownspace.If i
gur edthati twasbestIf ocusonmet onightandt hinkofMel o'sresponse
whenIam l esssober ,hi
ghAFandnotpr eparingformybugni ghtt oshi ne.Iwasonl ygoingt o
fi
ndoutnextweekFr i
day,thef i
rstweekofFebwhet herornotmypi ctureswer esoldand
whet herornotIwasl eavi
ngSA.Theexhi biti
onwasmor epackedt hanexpect ed,hopef ul
lyIsell
al
l.You' dthinkther e'
dbel esspi cturesofMel obutMel o'spictur esaresomeofmybestwor k.
Him andLedi ,welltherewasabout3ofeachandt woofMel obutnonewher ehi sfacewas
showi ng.Ihadn'tseenhi m andIwashopi nghedoesn' tcome.IguessIspoket oosoonbecause
hewasst andingr ightnextt ome, clai
mi ngmeashi swithoutev endoi ngl etalonesay ing
any t
hing.

Hi
m:y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul

Me:
thanky
ou.Youl
ookhandsomey
our
sel
f

Hi
m:y
ouknowIal
way
sai
mtopl
ease

Ikeptst
eal
i
nggl
ancesatt
hishotmannextt
omewi
thav
eryst
rongmanl
yscent
.

Me:
no.Wenotdoi
ngt
his.Nother
eandnotnow

Hi
m:what
?

Me:
pret
endi
ngt
hismor
ningdi
dn'
thappen

Hi
m:oh

Me:
wewi
l
ltal
kaboutt
hissomeot
hert
ime.Fornowpl
easej
ustcont
inuegi
vi
ngmey
ourso
cal
l
ed"
space"

"
Wow!Idi
dn'
texpectt
oseey
ouher
e"

Iturnedandsodi
dMelo,shewasobv i
ousl
ytalki
ngtoMeloandnotme.Shewasanot
her
versionofOl
ona,
lessf
akethough.
..oratl
eastIhopeso.

Hi
m:Mi
randa.Hi

Shepul
ledhi
mi nforahugandheobv
iousl
ygav
eint
othehugt
osomeonehemi
ghtst
il
lhav
e
feel
i
ngsfor
.Great
!

Hi
m:Mi
rat
hisi
smygi
rl
fr
iendYandi
swa,
thephot
ogr
apherbehi
ndsomeoft
hesepi
ctur
es

Her
:wow.Ni
cepi
ctur
esandni
cet
omeety
ou

Me:
li
kewi
se.I
fyouwi
l
lpl
easeexcuseme

Isaidwalkingaway .Iam notgoingtostaybackandwat chhewhoi ssupposedtohav ef

eeli
ngs
formeal one,l
ovemeal onebebusyhav ingf
eeli
ngsforanoldex.Iwenttomeetaf ewartists,
courtesyofTaylorandsomenewspaperandmagazi needit
ors.Iwasnetworki
ngandmy
pict
ureswer esell
ingli
kehotpot at
oes.Someoneboughtpi ct
uresofMelo,thequesti
onwaswho?
Mybestbeti sont hisexofhis,Miranda.Whenthenightwasf i
nal
lyoverTayl
oraskedtotalkto
meandsowhi lepeopl ewereleavi
ngwewal kedaround.

Hi
m:ev
ery
thi
ngok?

Me:
yeah.
..ev
ery
thi
ngi
sok.t
heexhi
bit
ionwasgr
eat

Hi
m:i
magi
nehowmuchgr
eat
ert
heywi
l
lbewheny
ouhav
eyourowngal
l
ery

Me:
whatar
eyousay
ing?

Hesmug'
d

Hi
m:t
hatev
ery
oneofy
ourpi
ctur
eshav
ebeensol
datanev
enbi
ggerpr
icet
hanset

Me:
ohmyGod

Ij
umpedathi
m andhuggedhi
mfordearl
i
fe.Iqui
ckl
ygotof
fhi
m andgi
ggl
ed.

Me:
i'
m sor
ry

Hi
m: i
t'sok.Goodjobandthankyouforal
l
owi
ngmet ofeat
urey
ourst
uff
.Peopl
ecoul
dn'
tst
op
t
alki
ngabouty ourpi
ctur
esandIhaveanumberofpeopl
ewhowanttoworkwit
hyou,
peopl
e
f
rom theri
ghtplaces

Me:
youj
oki
ngr
ight
?!MrMei
erpl
easet
ell
mey
ouki
ddi
ng

Hi
m:nott
hist
imear
ound.Goodj
obMi
ssy
.Il
ookf
orwar
dtowor
kingwi
thy
ou
Me:
li
kewi
se.Thanky
ousomuch

Hi
m:t
hanky
ourl
ect
urer
.Ihav
eadi
nnert
ogett
o,seey
ouar
ound

Me:
agai
nthanky
ou.

Weshookhandsandhel eftmestandingthereallexcit
ednotknowi ngwhattodowi t
hmy sel
f.I
j
umpedupanddownsqui r
minginex ci
tement.Istoppedandl ookedaroundforanyeyesand
ther
ewerenone.Ifi
xedmydr essandwentt ofetchmycl ut
chthenwalkedoutrequest
ingan
uber.WhenIgotoutIf
oundMel oleani
ngont hewal lpressi
nghisphone.Icl
earedmyt hr
oat
andhelookedupatme.

Me:
youst
il
lher
e

Hi
m:Iwashopi
ngwecoul
dgogr
absomet
hingt
oeatbef
oret
hepar
ty.

Me:
yeahsur
e

Theuberpar
kedi
nfr
ontofus,
heopenedt
hedoorf
ormeandi
goti
nsi
det
henhegoti
naf
ter
me.

Hi
m:y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul

Me:
thanky
ou

Het
oldtheuberdr
iverwher
etodropusoff.Hepar
kedinfr
ontofthi
s5st
arl
ooki
ngr
est
aur
ant
.
Wewalkedi
nandwer eescor
tedt
oat abl
efortwobyourwait
erfort
heev
eni
ng.

Me:
whyar
eweher
e?

Hi
m:t
oeat

Me:
why
?

Hi
m:t
ocel
ebr
ateandt
otal
k

Me:
i'
m wayt
oosobert
ohav
ethi
sconv
ersat
iony
ouwantt
ohav
ewi
thmeandI
'
m nothi
gh

Hi
m:whywoul
dyouwantt
ogetdr
inkf
orust
otal
k

Me: becauseMel okuhle, unli

keyou.Ican' tdothis.Ican'tpret
endthatthingsarenormal
betweenus.Ican' tpretendt hatjustthismor ni
ng, t
heonedayIwassupposedt obehappy
wit
houtanyspeedbumpsorsomet hi
ng,Ican'tpretendthatyoudidn'
tjusttearmyheartout
aft
ert el
lingmey oustil
l hadf eel
ingsf oryourex.I'
m noty ou.Ican'
tpretend.Imanagedtohol
d
mysel ftogetherl
ongenought osur vi
vethenight.Now, nowIj ustwanttogetsloshedand
"pr
etend"t hatyoudidn'
tdowhaty oudidthismor ni
ng.Iwantt osmokesomej oint
sandgethigh
andf orgetaboutyouhur ti
ngme, evenifit
'sforoneni ght.

Hi
m:Iunder
standIwashar
sht
hismor
ninga.
..
Me: har
sh?Har shisanunderstatement.Yousayyoulovemeandt henyougoonanddot he
exactopposit
e.Youdon'tdot hattosomeoney oulove.Youdon'tr
ipouttheirhear
tr i
ghtaf t
er
tel
li
ngthem thatyoustil
lhavefeeli
ngsforyourex.Melokuhleweonl yj
uststar
tedlasty earend
November ,whatyouexpectofmei nsuchli
tt
leti
mei swr onganduncall
edfor.Youhav et oo
muchbaggagei nyourpsstMelokuhleandit'
suntrai
ned.WhenIsai dIcoul
ddeal withitIdidn'
t
expectitt
obet hrownatmel ikethi
s.Iwassowi l
li
ngt olookpastt
hesegi r
lsbutafterthis
morning.Idon'
tthinkIcan,Ideservebett
er.

Iwi
pedmyt
ear
swhi
chwer
enowi
nmycheeks.Di
dn'
tev
enknowIwascr
ying.

Me:I'
m nott
hebestgi
rl
fr
iend,
IknowIhaven'
tbeentootr
usti
ngbutMelokuhl
eyoumakeithard
t
otrustyoui
fyouli
etome.Thankyouforyourhonest
ybytheway,t
hatmuchIdoappreci
ate
f
rom you.By
eMelo.

Igotupandki
ssedhi
scheekandwal
kedoutr
equest
inganubert
otakemet
othehot
el.

<3

Thi
sisforbei
ngsuchamazingpeopl
e.Yourcomment
syest
erdayl
eftmef
eel
i
ngal
i
ttl
einspi
red
towri
teali
ttl
esomethi
ng.

[
10/
16,
09:
02]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E12-Mel
o

Byt het imeIgotout sideshewasgoneal ready .Whathav eIdone?Whycan' tIkeept hem?Why

can'tImaket hem st ay?Kat eandIwer egoodandIwentont or ui
nitbysl eepingwi thLat hi
tha.I
clearlysuckatt hiswhol elov ething.Mi r
aandIdi dn'tdoany thingwhenYay aleftust ogether,we
exchangedcont ractsbutnowt hatIment ioni tmay bet hataloneshoul dn'thav ehappened.I 'v
e
hear therenoughf oroneday .Foret ernity.Iloveherandshedeser vesbet terthant hecrapIput
hert hrough.Icalledherbutshewoul dn'tansweranyofmycal l
s.Irequest edanubert odr i
ve
mebackt othehot el t
opackupmyshi itandl eav e.Ical l
edtheai r
portandaskedt hattheyget
meaf l
ightoutofJHBt oDur banf ornow, nonewer eav ail
ablesoIaskedt hePJt of l
ymeback.
Jobur gwasonl ygoingt or uinmyl ife,itwasgoi ngt or uinmyr elati
onshipwi thYay aev enwor se.
Igott ot heair
portandboar dedthePJandl eftJHB.Fl yingalonegav emesomet i
met oact uall
y
refl
ectonev eryt
hingt hathappened, r
unni ngi ntoMi randa, Yayameet ingOl ot hewayshedi dand
met ell
ingYay aImi ghtjusthav ef eeli
ngsf orMi ra.Iwasonl yinJobur gf or2day sandIl ostmy
girl
friendjustli
ket hat.Afterlandingatt heai rportIr equestedanubert odr ivemehome, mom' s
house.Ont hewayIswi t
chedmyphoneonandmessagesst artedcomi ngi naf t
erawhi le,
missedcal
l
sandv oi
cemail
s.Mostofthenwer
efrom Yay
a,Idi
all
edhernumberandcal
l
edher
backofwhichsheanswer
edjustasIwasaboutt
ogiveup.

/
/Her
:Mel
okuhl
e

Me:
Yay
a

Her
:i'
vebeencal
l
ingy
ou.Wher
ear
eyou?

Me:
Itookaf
li
ghtbackt
oDur
ban.

Her
:andy
ouwer
en'
tgoi
ngt
otel
lme?

Me:
hav
eyoubeendr
inki
ng?

Her
:answermef
ir
st

Me:
Itr
iedcal
l
ingy
oubuty
ouwoul
dn'
tanswermycal
l
s.Yandi
swaar
eyoudr
unk?

Her
:may
be

Shegiggl
ed.Ther
ewasmusi
cinherbackgr
oundbuti
twasn'
tthatl
oudbecausewecoul
dhear
eachotherpr
oper
ly.

Her
:youl
eft
.Youdi
dn'
ttex
torsayany
thi
ng,
youj
ustl
eft
.Ist
hiswhathasbecomeofus?

Shesai
dsobbi
ng.

Her
:youtell
i
ngmeyousti
l
lhav
efeel
ingsfory
ourexandt
henleav
ingwi
thoutt
ell
i
ngme.Ar
ewe
r
eal
lyover?Wasy
ougiv
ingmespaceyourwayofendi
ngthi
ngswit
hme?

Me: ofcausenot.IunderstandthatwhatIdidthi
smorni
ngiswrong,Ishouldn'
thav
edonei tat
al
l.Ishouldn'
thavespokent oyouthewayIdidandnoIwasn'
ttry
ingtoendt hi
ngswithyou
becauseIcannotstandl osingyou.Iknowyouwon'tbel
i
eveanyt
hingItell
youf r
om hereonbut
babyIam sorryImessedusup.I 'm sor
ryf
orexpect
ingmoret
hany oucouldgivemeandI '
m
sorr
yf orever
ythi
ngwr ongIdi dthi
sweekend

Her
:youbr
okemyhear
tMel
okuhl
e

I
tcameoutasawhi
speraccompani
edbysobs.

Her:youri
ppeditoutofmychestandy oucrushedi tr
ighti
nfrontofme.Howam Isupposedt o
r
ecoverfrom t
hat?Thepainy oumademef eelisnonel i
keanypainIhaveeverfeltbefor
e.You
weresupposedtoloveme, keepsafeandoutofhar msway ,makesurethatIdon'tgethurtbut
youdidtheopposit
e.Youwer eharmsway ,y
ouhur tme.Youpr ovedever
yonerightandme
wrong.MaybeIneedt hatspaceyousokindl
ygav eme

Me:
Yandi
swapl
ease

Myv
oicecameoutasawhi
speri
tsel
f.IknowImademybedandI
'
m supposedt
oli
eini
tbutI
di
dn'
tthi
nkthi
swasourbreaki
ngpoi
nt.Idon'
tknowhowtodescr
ibehowIwasf
eel
i
ngbutno
amountofsexcoul
dfi
xit
.Thepai
nwasunbear abl
e.i
twasf
orei
gn.

Her
:I'
m sor
ryMel
okuhl
e

Me:
Yay
apl
ease.

Her
:lookati
tthisway,I'
m gi
vi
ngyouspacetofigur
eoutwhati
tisyoureal
l
ywantok?Il
ovey
ou
Mel
okuhlealot.ButIcan'
tcompet
ewithyourexesandyourf
li
ngs.GoodbyeMel
o//

Andli
ket hatthecal
lwasended.Painissupposedt ocomewi t
hlovebutmypai ncamewiththe
opposi
te.Theonewhol ovedme, t
heonegi rlwhowasper fectforme,theonegirlwhowas
meantt ogroom mewasthegirlt
hatgotaway .TheoneIhurtwi t
houtaguntomyhead.The
oneIhur tt
hinki
ngIwasdoingtherightt
hing.Ipaidtheuberdriverandtookmyt hi
ngsandgot
offhi
scart henheadedi
nsidet
hey ardandintot hehousestrai
ghttomyr oom.IknowIshould
becall
ingherandbeggingherbutthere'
snor easoningwit
hdr unkYaya.That'
swhyshewant ed
ustotalkwhenshewasdr unkbecausewhenshei sdr
unk,hernomeansno.

1MONTHLATER

It
'sMar chandYay ai sinCal i
forni
adoi ngsomet hingshel ovesandhasal way swant edt odo.On
thenightshel eftshedi dn'
twantt oseeme, whatanIsay i
ng, wehav en'
tseeneachot hersince
thenightofherev ent .Wedi dspeakbutnot hi
ngmuch.Justy oursi mpleFacebooki nboxt ypeof
conversations.Shedoesn' tanswermycal l
sandr efusesto,shesay swhat ev erIwantt osayv ia
phonecal lcanbesai dv iatextorv oicenote.Imi sshersomuch.Myf amilydoesn' tknowwhat
i
sgoi ngonexceptdad, mom andmysi ster
swoul dpr obablykillmeorsomet hing.Dadt ol
dme
aboutt hetimehesl eptwi thmom' sbestf ri
endandmom di dn'ttalktohimf orl i
keamont hor
somet hingbutev ent uallyshecamear ound,besai dwi t
hsamewasgoi ngtohappenwi thYay a.I
j
ustshoul dn'tgi
v euponus.Ishoul dkeeptryingandshowhert hatImeani twhenIsayIwantt o
bewi thherandonl yher .Miracalledmet heSundayaf t
ertheexhi bit
ionaskingt omeetupf or
breakfastbutItoldherIwasbacki nDurbanandshewasbummedabouti t.Myl egwasbackt o
i
tsnor mal stat
eandIwasbacki nmyf l
atevent houghmom camet ocheckuponmeev erynow
andt hen.ItwasaSat urdayandIhadj ustgottenbackf rom thegy m.It ookaqui ckshowerand
wentt opreparesomet hingtoeat ,myphoner angandi twasshocki nglyYay a,Isayshocki ngly
causeshenev ercalls.Ianswer edi tputti
ngheronl oudspeaker .

/
/Me:
hey

Her
:hi
.Howar
eyou?

Me:
i'
m goodandhowar
eyou?

Her
:I'
m good.
Ther
ewassi
l
ence.

Me:
how'
sCal
i
?

Her
:how'
shome?

Wespokeatt
hesamet
imemaki
ngusbot
hlaugh.

Me:
homei
sbor
ingwi
thouty
ou.How'
sCal
i
?

Her:Mel
okuhleImissy ou.Every
day.It
houghtIcoul
ddothi
s,goonwi
thouthear
ingy
ourv
oice
ever
ydaybutIcan'
t.Ican'tkeepdoi
ngthist
omy self
.Cal
ii
snotCal
ii
fIdon'
thaveyou

Me:
whatar
eyousuggest
ingYay
a?

Her
:hav
eyouandMi
randadonesomet
hingabouty
ourf
eel
i
ngs?

Me: Ihav
en'tseenorspokent oMirandasinceJoburg.EvensoIdon' tneedhertoknowt hatI
am incompletewit
houty ou.What everIthi
nkImayst i
ll
feelforher,i
t'
snotthere,i
t'
sgone
becauseshewasnev eryouandshewoul dneverbeyou.IknowIscr ewedupbuty ouleavi
ng
mademer eali
sethati'
l
lnev erfi
ndanot heryou.Noamountoff eeli
ngsorwhat ev
ercancompar e
towhatweshar e.IloveyouYandi swaandIwantt oshowy oujusthowmuch

Her
:whenl
astdi
dyouhav
esex?Behonest

Me:
andi
fI'
m honesty
oupr
omi
sey
ouwon'
tdr
opt
hiscal
lonme?

Her
:fi
ne.When?

Me:
whenwewer
eatt
hehot
eli
nJobur
g.TheFr
idaybef
orey
ourexhi
bit
ion

Shecr
ackedupi
nlaught
er

Her
:youl
yi
ng

Me:honest
ly.I
'
vehadafewtemptat
ionshereandther
ebutt
heynotyou.Theconver
sat
ionsI
havewit
hthem ar
enoneli
ketheonesIhavewithy
ou.Idon'
texpecty
outobeli
evemebutit'
s
thetr
uth

Her
:soy
ouhav
en'
tbeenwi
thagi
rl
,i
nanyi
nti
mat
ewayexceptf
orme?

Me:
Nope.It
hinkI
'
m gay
.Luct
hinksi
ngay

Her
:Luct
houghty
ouwer
egayf
ordat
ing.I
t'
snosur
pri
sehewoul
dthi
nkt
hat

Webot
hlaughed.Imissedherlaugh.Imissedt
his.Thi
stal
ki
ngandl
i
steni
ngt
oherv
oice,
her
t
ryi
ngt
obesternwithme.Imi ssedital
l.

Me:
whatabouty
ou?
Her
:whataboutme?

Me:
anynewboy
fri
end?Af
li
rtmat
e?Asexbuddy
?Any
thi
ng?

Her
:doesagi
rlongi
rlact
ioncount
?

Ikeptqui
ett
rynapi
ctur
eYandi
swabusymaki
ngoutwi
thanot
hergi
rl
.Ihear
dherl
aughi
ng

Me:
what
?

Her
:I'
m ki
ddi
ng.YouknowIwoul
dn'
tsur
viv
e

Me:
thankGod.

Her
:Idi
dki
ssthi
sguyt
hou,
wewer
eatahousepar
typl
ayi
ngspi
nthebot
tl
e-t
rut
hordar
e.I
twas
apeckont
hecheek

Me:
yousur
e?

Her:
theywer
en'tspeci
fi
cwitht
hedar
esoIki
ssedhi
m ont
hecheek.Noneoft
heguy
sher
ear
e
you,
Idontwantanyofthem

Me:
so?

Her
:your
eal
l
ygoi
ngt
omakemesayi
fhuh?

Me:
ofcause.Youwer
etheonewhoaskedf
orspacesosayi
t

Her
:thi
sIdefi
nit
elydi
dnotmi ss.Mel
okuhl
ecanwepl easetr
yagai
n.Nosecr
ets,noexes,
no
f
eel
ingsforot
herpeopl
e..
.justyouandmelikebef
ore.l
et'
smakethisl
ongdi
stancethi
ngwork

Me:
feel
sgoodt
oheary
ousayt
hat
.Soy
es,
I'
ll
bey
ourboy
fri
endagai
n

Her
:ni
ggapl
ease!Younev
erst
oppedt
obegi
nwi
th

Me:
ohi
t'
sli
ket
hatnow?

Her
:you'
real
ostpuppywi
thoutmebabe

Me:
right
.Wenotdoi
ngt
his.By
enow

Her
:geeezwhat
'
sthi
sspacedonet
oyou?Youal
lgr
umpyandst
uff

Me:
yousi
l
li
ert
hanbef
ore

Her
:wel
l
...

Me:
exact
ly.How'
sschool
?

Her
:school
isf
un.I
'
vemadef
ri
endsandguesswhat
?
Me:
what
?

Her
:theydr
inkandsmokeweed.
..l
i
keme

Me:l
etmeguess,youguy
smetdur
ingl
unchwher
etheywer
eshar
ingabl
untandy
ouj
ust
coul
dn'
thel
pyour
self

Her
:youknowmeal
ltoowel
l
...

Me:
sowhenwi
l
lyouqui
tit
?

Her
:what
?Thedr
inki
ngort
heweed?

Me:
bot
h

Shecr
ackedupi
nlaught
erandt
henst
opped.

Her
:wai
tyouser
ious?

Me:
yes

Her:
Icanquitt
heal
cohol
butnott
heweed.Someofmybestpai
nti
ngsar
edonewhenI
'
m
st
oned.Ineedt
heweed

Me:
we'
l
lhav
ethi
sconv
ersat
ioni
nper
son

Her
:soy
our
eal
l
ygoi
ngt
otr
ycont
rol
me?

Me:
it'
snot
hingl
i
ket
hat

Her
:Thenwhat
'si
tli
ke?

Me:
let
sjustdr
opi
t.Someone'
satt
hedoor

Her
:fi
ne.By
e

Me:
don'
ttel
lmey
oumadatme?

Her
:gett
hedoor
.We'
l
ltal
kwheny
ourv
isi
tori
sgone

Me:
ouch.Okby
e

Her
:by
e//

Iwentt
oopent
hedoorandOl
onawasst
andi
ngont
heot
hersi
deoft
het
rel
l
idor
.Whatwasshe
doi
nghere?

Me:
Olona?
!

Icoul
dn'
tev
enhi
det
heshockonmyf
ace.
Her
:ar
en'
tyougoi
ngt
oletmei
n?

Iopenedt
hegat
eandmov
edasi
de.

Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Her
:Icamet
oseey
ou.I
sthegi
rl
fr
iendher
eorshe'
sgoneal
ready
?BygoneImeant
othest
ates

Me:
noneofy
ourbusi
ness.Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Shet
ookhal
foft
hesandwi
chImadeandt
ookabi
tfr
om i
twhi
l
esi
tt
ingont
opoft
hecount
er.

Her
:Imi
ssedy
out
hat
'sal
l

Me:
nor
mal
peopl
epi
ckupt
hephoneandcal
lyouwhent
heymi
ssy
ou

Her
:i'
venev
erbeennor
mal
.Fuck!Yousexy

Ihadev
enf
orgot
tenIwasn'
twear
ingashi
rt

Me:
thanky
ou

Her
:don'
tyoumi
ssme?

Shejumpedoffthecounterandwalkedov
ertomethenwrappedherar
msaroundmyneck.
Ther
ewast hatperf
umeofher s.Ir
emovedherar
ms.Olonawasafreaki
nbed,t
her
e'snot
hing
shedidn'
tdoorsaidnoto.

Me:
noIdon'
t

Shegi
ggl
ed

Her:
yeahri
ghtMel
o.Youmayhav
ethatgi
rl
fr
iendofyour
sfool
edbuty
oudon'
tfool
me.You
al
waysfi
ndyourwaybackt
ome,onewayortheother

Shewassosexyandseduct
ive.Wor
dsjustr
oll
edoutofhermout
h.Herhandwasi
nmyshor
ts
i
nsidemyboxer
sstr
oki
ngmynowhar dD*

Me:
stopi
tOl
ona

Her
:youknowy
oudon'
twantmet
o

OfcauseIdidn'
twanthert
ostopbutal
lIkeptt
hinki
ngofwasYay
a.Howhur
tshewasbyme
t
ell
ingherIhadfeel
i
ngsforanex,t
hiswouldcr
ushhersoul
.

Her
:shedoesn'
thav
etoknow.I
twi
l
lbel
i
keol
dti
mes

Shesaidpull
i
ngdownmyshor
ts,
Ist
oppedherbefor
etheycoul
dgodown.Shewasshocked
becausei
'venev
ersai
dnot
oherwheresexwasconcer
ned.
Me:
Isai
dno.Pl
easel
eav
e

Her
:what
?

Me:Ihav
eagir
lf
ri
endwhowouldn'
tbehappywi
thmedoingthi
s,heckshewoul
dn'
tev
enbe
happywi
thy
oubeingher
e.Sodomeandherafavourandgetout
.

Shelookedatmefumingwithanger.Shest
ormedoutoft
hefl
atbangi
ngtheburgl
ar.Icl
osedi
t
proper
lyandcl
osedthedoortoo.Icoul
dn'
taff
ordhur
ti
ngYay
aagain.Idi
all
edhernumberand
call
edher.

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10/
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03]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E13

It'
snousehi dingthefactthatImi sshim somuchi thurts.Memi ssinghim hur tsmor ethanhe
hurtme.Hehasbeenbeggi ngmeandpl eadingf orust ogobackt obeingusf oramont hnow
andt r
uthfull
yspeakingIthinkhe'shadenought imet ofigureoutwhather eal
lywant s,whohe
reall
ywant s.Hisatt
enti
ont owar dsmehaspr oventomej usthowmuchhewant sthis,justhow
muchhewant sustowor kandIhopet hathei sseri
ousaboutusasmuchasIam.Hewant sme
toquitboozeandweed? !Ithasn'tevenbeen6mont hsletaloneay earandal readyhei st ry
ing
tocontrolme, whatisthi
s?Whydoguy sdot hatany way ?Imeanwhydot heyf eeltheneedt o
tell
ust oquitcert
ainhabits,dressacertainway ,speakacer tainwayandal lt
hati shast hough
wemar r
ied?Ifyouaskmei t'
swr ong.Niggagott ostayi nhislane.Iwi l
ldressasIpl easeunt i
lI
feelneedt ochangemyst y l
e,wal kasIpleaseunt i
lIfeelli
kechangi ngandasf ortheal cohol
andweed, i
t'
spointl
esstoqui tifyouyourselfarenotwi ll
ingto.Thel astthingIwantt oendup
doingisbinging.Iwasintheschool st
udiohighandbusypai nti
ngwhenmyphoner ang.I twas
Mel o.

/
/Me:
visi
torgoneal
ready
?

Hi
m:y
ep.Thev
isi
torwasOl
ona

Ikeptqui
etforawhil
e.Welastspokethir
tyminutesago.Alotcanhappeninthi
rt
ymi nut
esIf
youaskmeandt hatOlonabi
tchdoesn'tseem l
i
ket hety
petojustl
etshii
tgo.Sheseemsl i
ke
thetypet
ogoaf t
erwhatshewantsandget sit
,I'
m surethat
'showsheandMel oevenendedup
sleepi
ngtoget
her.
Hi
m:shegav
emeahandj
obbutIst
oppedher
.Isweart
oGodwedi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ng

Me:
Ibel
i
evey
ou

Him:Ihopeso.Yay
aIcoul
dn'
tdoanythi
ngwit
hherbecauseIcoul
dn'
tst
opt
hinki
ngabouty
ou
andhowmuchpai nIwoul
dbecausi
ngy ou

Me:
Iheary
oubabe.I
t'
sokandI
'
m gl
ady
ouwer
eabl
etor
esi
sther

Hi
m:whatar
eyoudoi
ng?

Me:
i'
mint
hest
udi
obusypai
nti
ng

Hi
m:i
sn'
ti
tal
i
ttl
elat
ether
e?

Me:
notatal
lbabe.Pl
usi
nnotal
one,
I'
m wi
thaf
ewcl
assmat
es

Hi
m:t
heybet
terkeept
hei
rhandst
othemsel
ves

Me:
whosai
ditwasmen?

Hi
m:what
evergendert
heyar
e!

Me:
youcr
azy

Hi
m:f
ory
ou,
yes.If
ucki
ngmi
ssf
ucki
ngy
ou!

Igi
ggl
edandl
ookedar
oundbef
orer
espondi
ng

Me:
Imi
ssy
out
oo

Hi
m:whatdoy
oumi
ss?

Me:
Mel
oI'
mincl
asswi
thpeopl
ear
ound

Hi
m:andI
'
minmyf
lat

Me:
huh?

Hi
m:i
'
m sor
ry,
Ithoughtwewer
ement
ioni
ngmeani
ngl
essshi
i
t

Me:
ver
yfunnyMel
o

Hi
m:whatdoy
oumi
ssYandi
swa?

Me:
you.Yourdi
ck.

Hi
m:whataboutus?

Me:
sendmeapi
ctur
epl
ease
Him:youmad?Inev
ersenty
ouadi
ckpi
cwheny
ouwer
eher
e,whatmakesy
out
hinki
'
llsend
onenow?

Me:
Idon'
tknow.BecauseI
'
llsendy
ouanude

Hi
m:hahahav
eryf
unny
.You'
l
lsendi
tev
eni
fIdon'
tsendy
ouadi
ckpi
cYay
a

Me:
yousuchanass

Hi
m:af
ineonet
oo.

Me:
byeMel
o.Peopl
ear
est
art
ingt
ogi
vemef
unnyl
ooks

Hi
m:f
ine.
..By
ebabe.cal
lmebef
orey
ougot
obed

Me:
yesdaddy
.By
enow

Hi
m:by
ebeaut
if
ul/
/

Theeart
oearsmileonmyf aceaft
erdroppi
ngthecallwi
thbae.I
t'
spri
cel
ess.DamnImissed
hi
m.Hisvoi
ce,hi
stouch,
hiskissonmyl i
ps,hi
shandscaressi
ngmybody ,
thelookonhi
sface
whenIri
dehi
m, f
uckImisseshim.Imissedoursex.Justt
hethoughtwasenoughtomakeme
wet.

"
Ear
tht
oYay
a"

Iwasbr
oughtbackt
oreal
i
tybyAndr
ewwav
inghi
shandi
nfr
ontofmyf
ace.

Me:
heywhat
'sup?

Hi
m:wher
ewer
eyouj
ustnow?

Me:
Mel
olandasusual

Hi
m:y
our
eal
l
ylov
ehi
m huh?

Me:
youhav
enoi
dea.Any
waywhat
'
sup?

Hi
m:Ihav
eaf
avourt
oasky
ou

Me:
okI
'
m al
lear
s

Hi
m:y
out
hebestpai
nterher
e.

Me:
obv
iousl
y

Hi
m:Iwanty
out
opai
ntme

Ichuckl
edandt
henl
ookedupathi
m.Hewasser
ious.OhmyGod!

Me:
youser
ious
Hi
m:ofcause

Me:
ok.We'
l
ltal
kaboutt
hiswhenI
'
m doneher
e

Hi
m:okcool
.Hal
l
aatmewheny
oul
eav
ing

Me:
sur
ethi
ng

Hewentbacktohisboar
dandlef
tmewi t
hmyphoneandearphonespluggedi
nlisteningt
o
somegoodoldJ-Col
e.WhenIwasdonebett
eryetwhenIwasboredIgotupandt extedmy
roomi
easkinghert
ogoouttoeatandshesaidwe'
dmeetinourr
oom.Iwaswal kingoutwith
myearphonespl
uggedwhenIf
eltsomeonetapmyshoul
der,
Itur
nedaroundandi twasAndrew.

Me:
dudewhatt
hef
uck?
!

Hi
m:sor
ryIf
ri
ght
enedy
ou.

Me:
yeahsur
ewhat
ever
.What
'sup?

Hi
m:y
ousai
dwe'
dtal
kwheny
ouwer
edone

Me:
ohr
ight
.OkI
'
mli
steni
ng

Hi
m:i
'
dact
ual
l
yli
key
out
otakepi
ctur
eofme

Me:
whatki
ndofpi
ctur
es?

Hi
m:nudeshot
s..
.wel
lnotr
eal
l
ynaked,
justsomeshot
sli
ket
heonef
rom t
heexhi
bit
ion

Me:thosewer
epi
ctur
esofmyboy
fri
endIdon'
tthi
nkI
'
m comf
ort
abl
etaki
ngsuchpi
ctur
esof
you

Hi
m:comeonYay
awef
ri
ends.Whatcoul
dIpossi
blydot
oyou?

Me:
ohIdon'
tknow.
..Ihav
en'
tknowny
oul
ongenough

Hi
m:wef
ri
ends.Iwoul
dnev
erdoany
thi
ngt
ohur
tyou

Me:
yousoundl
i
kemyex.
..hesai
dthesamet
hing

Hi
m: hahahawellI
'
m nothi
m.Idon'
tfeel
comf
ort
abl
ehav
ingaguyt
aki
ngt
hesepi
ctur
esandt
he
gi
rl
sinourclassare.
..

Me:
annoy
ing,
snob,
bit
ches.
..

Hi
m:y
ousai
dthem al
l
...

Me:
i'
ll
thi
nkabouti
tyeah?

Hi
m:t
otal
l
ycool
Me:
Ayt
.Iwi
l
lseey
oui
ncl
ass

Hi
m:t
omor
row?

Me:
no.Monday

Hi
m:ar
en'
tyoucomi
ngi
ntomor
row?

Me:
i'
m goi
ngt
ochur
chwi
thmyr
oom mat
e

Hi
m:l
uckyher
.Sot
her
ethi
spar
tyatt
hePhr
athouse.
..i
fyouf
reepl
easeswi
ngby

Me:
Imakenopr
omi
ses.We'
l
lsee

Hi
m:l
etmenotkeepy
ou

Me:
sur
e

Wellthatwasawkwar d.Iwal
kedt omyr oom withmyear phonespl uggedi nalloveragain.This
guywaswei r
dandcr eepyormay bei t
'st
heweedmaki ngmef eelsomet y
peofway .Idon't
know, thewayhewasl ooki
ngatmemademef eelnaked.Idon' tknow, it'
sprobablytheweed
paranoia.Myt otall
yawesomer oom mateAshant iWalsh, daughteroft heefamousLuci nda
WalshandAl exWal shwasst andingbytheclosettry
ingt of i
gureoutsomet hingtowear .This
gir
lhadabodyf ordays,shewasmodel l
ooki
ng, somev ictoriassecretangel stypeofbody .She
wasagoddessandshewast hemostsweet estthingever .Wegotal ongondayone, whenI
mov edi nshewasn' thome.Shecamebackf rom townwi thherhai randnai l
sdone, shewasso
sweeti twascr eepyandIwassi t
tingonmybedst raighteningmyweav e.Any waysheandIar e
goodr oommat es.

Me:
heyAsh

Her
:Idi
dn'
tthi
nky
ou'
dbebackt
hisear
ly

Me:
andasusual
youdon'
tknowwhatt
owear

Her
:youknowmeal
ltoowel
lhoney
boo

Me:
wearwhaty
ouwor
etocl
ass

Her
:i'
vebeeni
nbedal
lday

Shesai
dsmi
l
ing.

Her
:Ij
ustf
ini
shedshower
ing

Me:
ofcause.

Isai
dhi
tt
ingmyf
orehead.MySat
urday
sar
en'
treal
l
ySat
urday
sbecauseIspendt
hei
nst
udi
o

Me:
let
smeshowerqui
ckl
yandchangeoutoft
hese
Her
:sur
ethi
nghone

It
ookof
fmyscr
ubsandwr
appedat
owel
aroundmybodyandwentt
otheshower
.

Her
:Ihear
dther
e'sapar
tyt
oni
ght
..
.wannago?

Me:
Andr
ewment
ionedi
t,hei
nvi
tedmeact
ual
l
y

Her
:wegoi
ngr
ight
?

Me:
Idon'
tknow.Doy
ouev
enwantt
ogo?

Her
:wel
lSer
enasuggest
edwego.
..

Me:
finewe'
l
lgo

Thiswholeti
mewewer eshouti
ngf r
om theot
hersidesoftheroom.HerandSerenagoway
back,t
heygrewupt ogether
.Serenaisamedst udentandsheisahighclassdr
unk,t
otal
lycool
chi
ckthoughI'm st
il
ltr
yingtounderst
andhowt heyendedupasf r
iends.Ser
enaismoreorless
l
ikeLedi.St
ri
ctl
ynof i
lt
erbutverylovi
ng,
sweet,kindandcari
ng.TheyremindmeofLediandI .

Wecalledacabandwentt ograbsomet hi
ngatthi
sotherrestauranti
ntown.Afteragoodmeal,
wetookacabtot heplacewherethepartywashel
d.I
twaspack.Ki dsfr
om hereandpar t
iesar
e
l
ikeahouseonf i
re,t
heylovepart
yingtoodamnmuch.Ev erydayisapartyf
ortheseones.We
madeourwayt hr
ought hecrowdandfoundSerenabythebar ..
.whyam Inotsurpri
sed,shewas
dri
nki
ngandchattingtothebart
ender.

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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E14-Mel
o

Afterthecal lwi
thYayaIf i
nishedeat i
ngandt henwenttogetdr
essedpr epari
ngtogooutwi th
Asemahl e.Shesai
dsheneededt otalktomeaboutsomet hi
ngv i
atext.WhenIwasdoneIt ook
myt hingsandwentt oherapar t
ment .Iknockedandshecamet oanswer .Shelookedhor r
ible.I
closedt hedoorbehindmeandpul l
edmyt wininf
orahug.Shejustcrieduncont rollablyonmy
chest ,
somuchsheev enhadhi ccups.Wesatdownont hefl
oorbyt hedoorasIl i
st enedtoher
cry,thewaymyhear tsankt omyst omachf el
tunr
eal
.Itwaspainfulhearinghercr yl i
kethatand
allIcouldsaywas" i
t'sok"..
.whichisf unnybecauseIdon'
tevenknowwhatI '
mt alkingaboutor
thereasonshewascr y i
ng.Shecr i
edunt i
lshehadnocr ymorecryleftinherandIj ustkept
qui
etandbr
ushedherback.

Her:
Iaskedhi
mt ostopbuthewouldn'tst
op.Myscr
eamsdi
dn'
tmeanany
thi
ngt
ohi
m,t
he
ki
cki
ngandscrat
chingdi
dn'tdoany
thingtohim.

Me:
shhhhdon'
tsayany
thi
ng

Icouldn'
tholdbackt
hetear
sfr
om st
reami
ngdownandt
heangerf
rom bui
l
dingup.Whoev
er
rapedmysi st
erwasadeadman!

Me:
whodi
dthi
stoy
ou?

Her
:itwas.
..Ke.
.vi
n

Me:
comel
et'
sgety
oucl
eanedupI
'
mtaki
ngy
out
othehospi
tal

Her
:no!

Sheshout
ed.

Me:
Asemahl
eI'
m notgoi
ngt
oar
guewi
thy
ouont
his.Wegoi
ngt
othehospi
tal

Her
:noDer
ri
ck

Sheshookherhead.

Her
:theygoi
ngt
ojudgemeDer
ri
ck.Idon'
twantt
ogot
her
e

Me:
Asemahl
ewedon'
tknowwhatdi
seaseshemi
ghthav
e.Let
sgo.

Shest
il
lshookherhead.

Her
:may
bey
oushoul
dleav
e

Me:
i'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
e.Gowearagownandl
et'
sgo!

Shewashesi tantbuteventual
lyshenodded.Webot hgotupandheadedt oherroom, she
l
ookedl i
keshewasscar edtogoin.Whatam Isay i
ng,shewasl iter
all
yshaking,thefearinher
eyessaiditall
.Iletgoofherhandandwal kedinal
one.Themessi nherroom alonetell
sast ory
ofjusthowmucht heyfoughtbeforehewasabl etogethishandsonher .Thebedandsheet s
weremessedupIwentupt othebedandt herewasbloodont hesheet s,
thesheetswer etorn
tootherewassomest uffonthefloor,
asmuchasIwasn' therethescenepl ay
edoutcl earl
yfor
me.Icouldn'tstandbeinginhere,Iwalkedtohercl
osetandt ookouthergownandsl eepers
thentookherphonewi thme.WhenIgotoutshewassi tt
ingcurledupont hef
loor,It
ookher
handsandmadeherst andupt henhelpedherwearhergownandsl eepers.Al
lIcouldthinkof
wasway stomaket heassholepay !

Kevi
nisaguywholi
vesar
oundourcompl
ex,
wenor mall
ychil
lwi
thhi
m ever
ynowandt hen,
he
andmysist
erwer
einthesamecl
assbacki
nhighschool.He'
sbeent
rynafl
i
rtwi
thherbut
Asemahleisthosehar
dtogettypeofgirl
sandIalsodi
dn'tmakethi
ngseasyf orhim.Heand
Asewear esupposedtobefri
ends,whatwentwrong?Whatgavehimthewr ongi dea?There's
l
it
eral
l
ynoexpl ai
ningr
apethou.Thequesti
onponderi
nginmyheadi swhathewasev endoing
her
elastnightort
hismorni
ngI'm sur
ebecausemysisterwassti
l
l i
nhershortpjays.

WegotintomycarandIdroveusst
rai
ghttothehospi
talwher
eain'
tAmberusedtoworkin.It
wasastruggl
etogetheroutoft
hecarbutev
entual
lyshegotoutandt
heytookheraway.Itook
myphoneandcall
edmom.

/
/Her
:towhatdoIowet
hiscal
l
?

Me:
mom y
ouhav
etor
usht
othehospi
tal
now

Her
:whati
sit
?What
'
swr
ongbaby
?

Me:
it'
sAsemahl
e.Pl
easej
ustcomet
othehospi
tal

Her
:okI
'
m onmyway
.//

Knowi
ngmom shewaspr
obablyt
hinki
ngit
'sal
coholpoi
soni
ngorsomet
hing,
butnott
hist
ime
ar
ound.Wi
thi
nminut
esmom cameinrunni
ngwithIy
ana.

I
ya:
Mel
owhati
sit
?

Mom:
Mel
owher
eismybaby
?

It
ookadeepbr
eat
hinandt
henl
eti
tout
.

Mom:
Mel
otal
ktome.I
ssheok?Saysomet
hing

Me:
shewasr
apedmom.

Shel
ookeddownandt henl
ookedupatmewi
tht
ear
yey
es.I
yanawentt
osi
tdownandbur
ied
herf
aceinherhands.

Mom:
rrr
r.
..
a..
.p.
..
ed?

Shest
ruggl
edt
oev
engett
hewor
doutofhermout
h.

Mom:
wher
eisshe?Iwantt
oseeher
?

Me:
she'
swi
tht
hedoct
or.

Mom:
wher
ethehel
li
syourf
ather
.Hesai
dhewasonhi
sway
!

Me:
mom pl
easecal
m down

Isai
dtr
yingt
otouchher

Her
:don'
ttouchmeMel
okuhl
e
Shewasnowi
ntear
s.I
yahasn'
tsai
dawor
dev
ersi
nce.Dadcamei
nrunni
ng.

Hi
m:wher
e'smydaught
er?

Mom threwhersel
fatdadcr
yinganddadwel
comedheri
nhi
sembr
ace.Hel
ookedatmewi
th
quest
ioningey
esasmom criedouttohi
m.

Mom:
youhav
etof
indhi
m Damon!

Shesai
dsobbi
ngi
nhi
schest
.

Dad:
him?Who?Someonet
ell
mesomet
hing

Adoct
orcameov
ert
ous,
theonewhowasat
tendi
ngher
.

Me:
howi
sshe?

Dr
:she'
sasl
eep.

Mom:
Iwantt
oseeher

Dr
:whenshewakesupi
'
llsendsomeonet
ocal
lyou

Mom:
whati
syourname?

Her
:Hel
enMar
s

Mom: DrMar
syoucl
ear
lynewher
e,y
ournur
seswi
l
lfi
l
lyoui
nonwhoIam.Iwantt
oseemy
daught
ernow

Dad:
honeycal
m down

Mom:
Damondon'
tfucki
ngt
ell
met
ocal
m down.Whi
chr
oom i
smydaught
eri
n?

Dr
:pl
easef
oll
owme.

Mom anddadfol
lowedbehindher
,Iwal
keduptoI
yaandhelpedherstandsowecanalsoj
oin
them.Whenwegottotheroom Asewassl
eepi
ngpeacef
ull
y.Mom rantoherandki
ssedher
count
lesst
imesonherfor
eheadsobbi
ng.

Dad:
wil
lsomeonepl
easet
ell
mewhathappenedt
omydaught
er?
!

Her
oar
ed.

Dr
:yourdaught
erwasr
apedt
hismor
ning.I
'
m sosor
rysi
r

Dad:
pleasel
eav
eus.

Shenoddedandwal
kedout
.Dadl
ookedatmeandsi
gnal
l
edust
otal
kout
side.

Hi
m:whodi
dthi
s?
Me:
someguywhol
i
vesi
nthecompl
exwi
thus

Hi
m:Iwantanameandsur
nameDer
ri
ck!

Me:
Kev
inReed

Hi
m:ok.

Het ookouthisphoneandmadesomephonecal l
s.Thi
swholeti
meIwaswatchi
nghim
speakingtolor
dknows,Iwasstar
tl
edbyhim endi
ngthecal
lwit
h"Fi
ndhim"andt
henhe
droppedit.Wewentbackinsi
dewit
houtany
onesay i
ngthewordtoany
one.Hewentt
ostandby
mom' sside

Her
:di
dyouf
indhi
m?

Dad:
mymenar
ewor
kingoni
t.

Ijustpul
ledYanatome.Mysi sterwascrushed,asweallwer e.Noneofusev erthoughtwe
woul dfi
ndoursel
vesinasi
tuati
onl i
kethi
sbeforebutherewear e,andnotevenmoneycan
solvethi
sone.Myt winwasgoingtobescar edforl
if
ebyt hisone.Noamountofweedor
alcoholwasgoingtomakethispaingoawayormakeherf orget
.Thiswholeordealmademe
thinkofYaya,
Idon'tknowhowIwoul dliv
ewi t
hmy sel
fifsomet hingli
kethi
shappenedt oher
.I
helpedYanaseatdownandwentout si
detocallher
.Ineededt oknowt hatshewasok.I tr
anga
whi l
ebefor
eitwasanswered.

/
/Her
:heybaby

Shesai
dshout
ing.Ther
ewasl
oudmusi
cfr
om wher
evershewas.

Me:
Yandi
swa!

Her
:hol
donbabewhi
l
eIf
indaqui
etpl
ace.

Ihear
dsomel
oudnoi
sef
orawhi
l
eandt
henadoorbangandl
ock.

Her
:heyy
ou

Me:
wher
ear
eyou?

Her
:ther
e'st
hispar
tyoncampusatt
hePhr
athouse

Me:
Yandi
swaIneedy
out
ogohome

Her
:what
?Why
?

Me:
coul
dyoupl
easej
ustl
i
stent
omef
oronceandst
opbei
ngst
ubbor
n

Her
:babywhat
'swr
ong?Tal
ktome

Me:
Yandi
swapl
easej
ustgot
oyourpl
ace.Idon'
twantt
ohav
etowor
ryabouty
ouespeci
all
y
now

Her
:babe

Me:
Yandi
swamar
n!

Her
:fi
ne.I
'
llcal
lyouwhenIgett
her
e

Me:
thanky
ou.
//

Shewaspr obablymadt hi
nkingI'
mt ry
nacontrolherandstuffwhenI'm onl
yt r
yingtolookout
forher
.Mysi st
erislyi
ngtherewhensheshoul dn'tbe,
Idon'twantmygi rl
fr
iendt oendupinthe
samesituati
on.Thiswasdonet oherbysomeoneshet rusted,Yay
aneedst ocutdownont hese
malefri
endsnow.I t
'snotsafe!Iwasreal
lyhopingthatYandiswali
stenedtomet hist
ime.Iwent
i
nsideandAsewasst i
llsl
eeping.

-
Ase

Somyhousemat eisgonefortheweekendandi sonlycomi ngbackSundayorMonday

dependingonhercl
ass.Ihadjustfini
shedmaki ngbreakfastwhent her
ewasaknockont he
door,Iwentt
oopent hedoorandt herestoodKevin.Afriendfr
om highschoolwhol i
vesinthe
samecompl exasme, heandiaregoodf ri
endseventhoughhef li
rt
swi t
hmeev er
ynowand
thenbutwegoodf r
iendswhoshar eser i
esandotherthings.Iopenthedoorandhi sbreat
h
smell
sofalcoholwithamixofmi nt.Ilethi
mi nandthenwegoi nt
ot helounge

Me:
i'
m hav
ingcer
eal
,canImakey
ouabowl
?

Hi
m:not
hanksI
'
mful
l
.Ij
ustmi
ssedy
out
hat
'
sal
l

Me:
youchoset
ogogetdr
unkl
astni
ghtwhenwecoul
dhav
ewat
chedt
hev
ampi
redi
ari
es

Hechuckl
ed.

Hi
m:y
oumadatmepr
incess?

Me:
notatal
l
.Iwat
chedVDwi
thmyboy
fri
endv
iaSky
pe

Hel
aughedatme

Hi
m:t
hat
'scut
e.

Hecouldbarekeephi
sey esoffmylegs,Iwaswear i
ngshor
tsandatop, mypjaysofcause.
BecauseIf
eltuncomfor
tablewit
hhisstaresIexcusedmysel
fandsaidIwasfeelingabitcold
soi'
ll
gowearagownqui ck.HenoddedandIl efthi
m andwenttomyr oom.Igrabbedmyl ong
gownandwal kedtot
hedoorwear i
nggi twhenitswungopenanditwasKev i
n.
Me:
hey

Hi
m:hi
.Gody
ousosexy

Me:
uhhm t
hanks

Isai
dcov
eri
ngmy
sel
fwi
tht
hegownandt
yingi
tlooki
ngathi
m wal
ki
ngcl
osert
omeasImov
ed
back

Me:
sol
et'
sgetoutofher
eandgochi
l
lint
hel
ounge

Hi
m:whynother
e?

If
rozewhenIcoul
dn'tmov
ebackanyf
urther
,Ihadreachedthebed.Imov
edt
othesi
debuthe
di
dn'tbudge,
hej
ustcameatmewitht
hathungryl
ustfull
ook.

Me:
Kev
iny
ouneedt
oleav
e

Hi
m:y
ouwant
edmel
astni
ght
,I'
m her
enow

Me:
notl
i
ket
hat

Hegrabbedahol
dofmeandIt
ri
edt
ofi
ghthi
m butwhoam Iki
ddi
ng,
Kev
ini
sint
othosebody
bui
l
dingthi
ngs.

Me:
Kev
iny
ouhur
ti
ngmel
eav
emeal
one

Hi
m:i
'
vewant
edy
ousi
nceHi
ghschool
buty
ounev
ergav
emet
het
imeofday

Me:
andI
'
m sor
rynowpl
easel
etgoofme

Heat
tempt
edt
oki
ssmebutIshutmyl
i
ps

Hi
m:soy
ounotwi
l
li
ngt
ocor
por
ate?

Me:
Kev
inpl
easej
ustl
eav
e

BynowIwascr yi
ng,
tear
sstreami ngdownmyf acebuthewasn' tfazed.Hewant edwhathe
wantedf r
om meandhewasdet erminedongetti
ngit.HethrewmeI .ThebedandIcr awl
edto
mybedsi debuthecaughtmyl egandpul l
edmet ohim beforeIcouldreachmysi delamp.He
gotont opofmeandsatonmyassmaki ngithar
df ormet omov eandt henheheldmyhands
andtiedthem t
omyback, wellheheldthem andwiththeonehandheusedi tt
otakehispant
s
off
.Ikeptbegginghi
m nottodot hisbuthewasn'theari
nganyoft hat.Ifel
thishardshaf
t
agai
nstmyass

Hi
m:t
odayI
'
m goi
ngt
otakey
out
oawor
ldy
ou'
venev
erbeenbef
ore.

Hesai
dpul
l
ingbot
hmyshor
tsandunder
wearof
fatt
hesamet
ime.

Hi
m:l
ace.
..sexy
.
Youcouldhearthepl
easur
einhisvoi
ce.Att
hatmomentIhat
edl
aceunder
wear
.Secondsl
aterI
fel
tit
,If
elthi
m shovehi
sthi
nginsi
deofme.

Hi
m:mmmmhy
ousot
ight

Mebei ng" t
ight"didn'tstophi m, myt ear sdi dn'tstophi m, mybeggi ngdi dn'tstophi mi nst eadhe
tookitasani nv i
tationtot hrusthar deranddeeper .Ikeptpr ayingf orhi mt ost opbuthedi dn't.
Hef li
ppedmeov erandwentati tagai n, bynowIhadnof ighti nme.Mypr ay erwast hathegeti t
overwi thandki l
lmeaf terbecauseIdon' tseel i
feaf terthis.Hewenti nandoutunt ilhef i
lledme
upandwhenhewasdownhegotof fmeanddr essedmei nmypj ayshor tsandwal kedout
feeli
ngpl easedwi thhimsel f.Hedi dn'tt urnbackorsayany thingaf t
er, hejustl eft
.It ri
edt oget
upbutt hepai ndownt herewasunbear abl e,Ineededmyphone, IneededMel o.Igat heredt he
l
itt
lest rengt hIhadandsear chedf ormyphoneundert hepi llowandIf oundi t,Icouldn'tbr i
ng
my selftocal lhim becausehewoul daskquest i
onsIcoul dn' tanswer .Isenthi m at exti nstead
andt hengotoft hebed, therewasbl oodonmysheet sandonmyshor ts,evidenceofhav ing
l
ostmyv i
rginityandnev erget t
ingitback, evidenceofhav i
ngbeenr apedbysomeonewhowas
supposedt obemyf r
iend.Icoul dn'tev enl ookatmy self,myf i
rstt houghtwast oshowerbut
growingupwi thanauntt hatisadoct ort here'sjustsomet hi ngsy ouknow, li
kenott oshower
afterbei ngr apedf orevidencesake.Iwal kedoutoft her oom andshutt hedoort hencur l
ed
my selfupbyt hedoorwai t
ingformybr ot hert ogether e.Ev entual l
yhecameby ,Iknowhi s
knock, It r
iedget tingupandopenedf orhi m.Hel ookedgood, hesmel tgoodt oo.Hissmi le
changedt hemi nut ehesawmet obei ngconcer ned, that'smybr otherf ory ou.Icoul dn'thol d
backt het ears.Ijustcr i
edwi t
hhopest hati twasnot hingbutadr eam butt hepai nIwasf eeli
ng
wasnotadr eam, i
twasr ealandt her ewasnowaki ngupf rom t his.

Iwokeupscr
eami
ngandcr
ying.

"Asemahlewakeupbabyy ouhav i
ngabaddr eam"Irecognisedt
hatvoi
ce,
Iknewi tall
toowell.
Itwasmom.It ri
edt oopenmyey esandt hel
ightwasblindi
ngbutevent
uall
yIopenedt hem.I
wasi nhospi
tal
,Mel obroughtmei n.Whendidmom gether e?WhydidMel
ot el
lher?Shelooked
atmewi theyesfil
ledwithtearsandsodi ddadstandingnexttoher
.Theyfel
tpityforme.Why
didn'
thekil
lmei nstead?Whydi dhel etmeli
ve?Why ?Seeingmyparentsl
ikethat,
Icouldn'
t.I
closedmyey esandl ett
het ear
srolldownont hei
rown.

<3

[
10/
16,
09:
06]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E15
Thepartywasal lki
ndsofl i
tandtherewer eallkindsofalcohol .Mahnt helastti
meIgotwast ed
wasthatni ghtIdrunkcalledMelo,Ineededt hi
s, i
t'
sbeent ool ongandschool i
sn'teasytoo.But
thenagainschool i
snevereasyormay beI'
mj usthomesi ck.I'
m wayt oofatfrom mymom, my
bestfr
iendandmyboy fr
iendandi tsucksbecauset herear ethoseday swher eseeingtheirface,
heari
ngthei rvoi
ce, t
ouchingthem makesev erythingfeelbetter.Li
kenow, i
fMelowasi ntownI
wouldprobabl ygetdrunkandt hengosl eepov erathisplaceandhav esomegr eatdrunksex
buthe'
snother e.Ashisnotmuchofaheav ydr i
nk,heckshe' sal i
ght
wei ght,t
wobot tl
esand
she'
sout .
..okmay beI'
m exaggerati
ngal i
ttl
ebutt hepointisshei snott hatheavyofadr inker
l
ikeSerenaandI .

"
Youcame"

Saidavoicefr
om behindmeasSer ena,AshandIwer ebusydanci
ng.Nowt hesegi r
lscanget
down,forachefandadoct or,pr
opst othem.It urnedaroundanditwasAndr ew, Idon'
tknowI
j
ustwasn'tinthemoodf orhim.Alcohol doesthattomesomet i
mes,makesmenotwantt he
companyofcer t
ainpeople,meninparticulareversincethatni
ghtIwasinsult
edatacl ubfor
beingXhosaandappar entl
yforgoingforMel obecausehehadmoney .AfterthatdayIvowedto
keepmydi st
ancefrom menwhenI '
m drunk.

Me:
yepIcame

Hi
m:enj
oyi
ngy
our
sel
f?

Me:
yeahIam

Hi
m:canIdancewi
thy
ou?

Me:
no

Hi
m:pl
ease

Me:
dudeNo!

Ifel
tmyphonev i
brat
inginmypocketandexcusedmy selff
rom thegir
lstogoansweri t.I
checkedthescreenanditwasMel o.Ianswereditwal ki
ngupt hestai
rs.Hewasl i
teral
ly
scol
dingatmef orreasonsknownt ohim.Idon'
tev engetwhyhe' ssuddenlyallov
erpr otecti
ve
andfather
lytowardsmel at
ely.Fi
rsthet el
lsmetoqui tmyhabi tsandnowhe' sdemandi ngIgo
home.Really?Whendi dhebecomet hisboyf
ri
end?Af terthecallIt
ookal ookatmy sel
fint he
mirr
orandt henwenttoopent hedoor .OnmywayoutIbumpedi ntoAndrew.Whyi sthisguy
every
where?Hei ssuchacr eep!Youknowwheny ouannoy edAFandt henyouruninto
someoneannoy ingandyousuddenl ywantt opuncht hem intheface?Wel l
thatwasmer ight
now.

Me:
whyt
hef
uckar
eyouev
ery
wher
e?

Hi
m:Iwasj
ustchecki
ngupony
ou

Me:
Idon'
tneedaf
ucki
ngbodyguar
d.Icant
akecar
eofmy
sel
fnowpl
easeexcuseme
Hi
m:whatdi
dIev
erdot
oyou?

Me:
Iam t
oodr
unkt
ohav
ethi
sconv
ersat
ionwi
thy
ou

Hewasl
i
ter
all
ybl
ocki
ngmywayofpassage.

Hi
m:Yay
aIl
i
key
ou!

Me:
joi
nthel
i
ne.Ev
ery
oneher
eli
kesme.Andr
ewmov
e

Hewal
kedi
ncl
oserandImov
edback.

Me:
mov
eoutofmywaynow

Hi
m:comei
ndon'
tbet
hatgi
rl
.Don'
tbeactl
i
key
oudon'
twantme.I
'
veseent
hewayy
oul
ookat
me

Me:
li
keI
'
m aboutt
ohur
l?Yeahcauset
hat
'
sal
lIcant
hinkofwhenIl
ookaty
ou

Him:fuckyousohot
.Fr
om t
hemi nut
eIlai
dey
esony ouIknewIwant
edt
ofucky
ouhar
d.
Rough.Youlookl
i
keyoupr
eferi
trough.Ar
ghi
tdoesn'
tmatter

Hemov
edi
ncl
oserunbuckl
i
nghi
sbel
t.

Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?

Hepushedt
hedoorandi
tcl
osedt
henhecamecl
osert
aki
nghi
spant
sof
f.

Hi
m:webot
hwantt
his.Tr
ustme

Me:
Iwi
l
lscr
eam

Hi
m:noonewi
l
lheary
ou.St
opact
ingsmar
t

Hepull
edhispantsdownt ogetherwithhisboxer
s.Il
ookedathi
sDandcoul dn'
thol
dmy sel
f.I
cr
ackedupinlaught
er.Idon'tt
hinki'
veseensuchasmal l
dyouguys.Forsomeonewhomi ght
j
ustberapedIwastoocalm, annoyinglycal
m.Alcoholandweeddoesthat.Hel
ookedatmel i
ke
Iwascrazy,
hewasget t
ingpissed

Me:
whati
sthat
?

Isai
dpoi
nti
ngathi
sdl
aughi
ng

Hi
m:we'
l
lseewhol
aughsl
ast
.

Hecameal i
tt
lecloserandIputmyhandinmypocketandheldmyt azer
.Ledihadboughtmea
tazerbef
oreIleft
,acutepinksmall
tazeri
ncasesofemergenci
es..
.li
ket
hisoneorincaseIrun
i
nt ooneofMel o'
sexes.Icar
ryitwi
thmeev er
ywher
eIgo.Likenow.Iwaswear i
ngalongdenim
Jacketwit
hdeeppocket s.
Me:
yeahwewi
l
l

Hecameal i
ttl
ecloserandIpull
edmyhandoutandseti tonhi
sdickandpressedthebut
ton
andhedroppedtothefloor
.Iusedtheopport
unit
ytogetoutandleav
ehi mlyi
ngther
einpai
n.
Atthi
smomentIwi shedIcouldcall
Lediandthankherf
orthi
sli
tt
lepresent
.Igotdownst
air
s
andthegi
rl
swer eri
ghtwhereIleftt
hem.

Me:
guy
sI'
m cal
l
ingi
tani
ght

Ser
ena:
it'
snotev
en8pm y
et

Me:
exact
ly

Ash:
ever
ythi
ngok?

Me:
i'
mjustnotf
eel
i
nggoodt
hat
'
sal
l

Ash:
okl
et'
sgohomet
hen

Ser
ena:
finel
et'
sgo.I
'
llcal
lanuber
.

Wewal kedout
sidetoget
herwit
hourar mshookedtoeachother
.Mysensessortofcameback
becauseIwaswor r
iedaboutMelo'
scall
,hi
svoicewasn'
tthenor
malvoiceheusedwhen
shouti
ngatme.Almostsoundedasi fhehadbeencryi
ngorsomethi
ng.Idon'
tknow.

Wewerei
nourdormroom wear
ingourpj
aysaf
terIt
ookashower
,Ashwasnowshower
ingsoI
usedt
het
imetocal
lMelo.

/
/Me:
Ijustgothome

Hi
m:t
hat
'sgood.

Me:
ever
ythi
ngok?

Hi
m:l
etmegetouther
eforasec

Ihear
dhi
m askt
obeexcusedandt
henhear
dadoorcl
ose.

Hi
m:Asemahl
eisi
nhospi
tal

Me:
what
?Why
?Whathappened?

Hi
m:shewasr
aped.

Hesaidwithashakyv oi
ce.Tearsj
ustrol
leddownmyey es.WhatdoIsaytohi
m know?Howdo
Icomforthi
m?Shi i
tIwasalmostrapedtoday.Real
i
tyst
ruck.I
'm dof
arfr
om home,myfami
ly
andfr
iends.HowwasMel ogoingt
odeal wit
hthisi
fsomethi
nghadhappenedtome.MaybeI
shoul
dquitalcohol
.

Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Him:hetookmysi
ster
spr
ideaway
.Iwasn'
tther
etopr
otecther
.Ishoul
dhav
ebeent
her
efor
herbutIwasn'
t

Me:
it'
snoty
ourf
aul
t.Doy
ouguy
sknowwhodi
dit
?

Hi
m:i
twasKev
in

Me:
Kev
inf
rom y
ourcompl
ex?

Hi
m:y
es

Me:
hashebeenar
rest
ed?Howi
sAsemahl
edoi
ng?Whendi
dthi
shappen?

Hi
m:dadi
swor
kingoni
t.I
thappenedt
hismor
ning.She'
sst
il
lsl
eepi
ng

Me:
Iam sosor
rybabe.

Hi
m:y
eahmet
oo.Di
str
actme,
any
thi
nghappenatt
hispar
tyy
ouwentt
o?

Me:
nope

Hi
m:Yandi
swa

Me:
Mel
okuhl
e

Hi
m:comeont
ell
me.Idon'
thav
eiti
nmet
obemadabouti
tany
way

Lol.Yousaythatnow, unti
lIt
elly
ouandt henyousuddenl
yherepunchingsomepeopl e's
noses..
.nopenothi
nghappened.i fMelohear dwhathappenedtonight,
hewoul dfli
p!Hewoul d
goonar ampageorpr obablyfi
ndhi mselfinsomewoman' sbedtryingrel
iev
esomest ress.I
knowmyboy f
ri
end,therearesomet hingshecanhandleandt hentherearethosethathet hi
nks
sexcanmakehi mf orget.I
fIwasi nSAr i
ghtnow,heandIwoul dprobablybefuckingunt i
lwe
bothpassoutjustsohedoesn' tthi
nkaboutwhatheandhi sfamilyisgoingthrough.

Me:
not
hinghappenedbabydon'
twor
ry

Hi
m:Yandi
swaGxaba

Me:
babe

Hi
m:spi
l
lit
.

It
houghtf
orami
nut
e.Shi
i
twhatl
i
eam Igoi
ngt
otel
lhi
m?

Hi
m:i
'
mli
steni
ng.
anddon'
tl
iet
omebecauseIwi
l
lfi
ndt
het
rut
hout

Me:
canIt
ell
yousomeot
hert
ime.Wheny
oul
essemot
ional
andl
essangr
y

Hi
m:y
ouar
emaki
ngmeangr
yri
ghtnowYandi
swa.Tal
k!
Me: af
terItooky ourcal
l.WhenIwasgetti
ngoutofthetoi
let
,thi
sguyfrom myclasswas
standi
ngrightout si
dethedoor.Hebl
ockedmywayandst artedsay
ingsomet hi
ngsabouthow
he'sbeenwant i
ngt ofuckme.Hecamei nandclosedthedoorandthenhetookhispant
soff
andcamet owar dsmebutIt azedhi
m andgotaway .I
'
m ok

Thi
swholetimeIcouldhearhi
m cursi
ngunderhi
sbr
eath.Hewasfuming.IknowIcan'tsee
hi
m butIknowhim andIcanimaginehowangryhei
sri
ghtnow.Hechuckledindi
sbel
ief.-oh
God!
-

Me:
babyI
'
m ok.Hedi
dn'
ttouchme

Hi
m:whati
fhehadhuh?ThenwhatYandi
swa?

Me:
babyI
'
mfi
ne.Iam ok.Youshoul
dseehi
m.If
ri
edhi
sbal
l
s

Isai
dtry
ingtolaughbutnope,not
hingwasworking.Hewasn'
tfazedatal
l.Thi
swholetimeAsh
wasnowsi t
ti
ngonherbedpr essi
ngherphone.Shehear
dthewhol est
oryoftoday
.Great.NowI
havetodealwit
hhertoo.

Hi
m:Iwanty
out
ofi
l
ear
est
rai
ningor
deragai
nsthi
m orr
epor
thi
m orsomet
hing.

Me:
comeonbabey
ouov
err
eact
ing

Him:overr
eact
ing?Yout
hinkI'
m over
reacti
ng?Doy ouwantmetof
lyt
her
eandt
akey
out
othe
pol
icestat
ionandhavey
ouf i
l
ear est
rai
ningorderagai
nsthi
m?

Me:
no

Hi
m:MondayYandi
swa.

Me:
yes

Hi
m:Iexpectapi
ctur
eofi
ttoo!Iwi
l
lknowi
fyourdi
dn'
t

Me:
yesMel
o.CanIgot
osl
eepnow

Hi
m:i
'
llcheckupony
out
omor
row

Me:
pleasekeepmepost
edwi
thMahl
e

Hi
m:wi
l
ldo.Il
ovey
ou

Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.By
ebabe

Hi
m:by
e//

JEZUS!Whathav
eIgot
tenmy
sel
fint
o?asht
urnedt
olookatme.Lor
dpl
easeki
l
lme.
..now
pref
erabl
y.

Her
:Andr
ewal
mostr
apedy
ou?
Me:
buthedi
dn'
t

Her
:soy
ouwer
en'
tgoi
ngt
otel
lme?

Me:
ther
e'snot
hingt
otel
l
.I'
mfi
ne

Sheshookherheadi
ndi
sbel
i
ef.SeewhatImean?Shehasn'
tev
enknownmef
orl
ongandshe'
s
over
react
ing

Her
:whati
fhehaddonesomet
hingt
oyou?Thenwhat
?

Me:
AshI
'
mfi
ne.Thanky
ouf
orcar
ing

Igotundert hecov er
sandcov er edmy self.Ifelthergetont opofmybedandi nsi demycov er
s
thencuddl eme.May beIneededt his.Il etthet earsthathadbeenbur ningmyey esl oose, I
couldn'tbelievethatAsemahl ewentt hroughsomet hingliket hat
.Howcoul dKev i
nbet hisev i
l
andhear tless.Hewasherf ri
end.Hewassupposedt opr otectherf rom cr eepsl i
kehi m.I
couldn'timagi nethepainshewaspr obabl ygoi ngthrough.Noonedeser v estof eel t
hewayshe
does.MyGodherf amil
ymustbecr ushed, i
'm crushedbyt his.Isai
dashor tpray eraski ngGod
tobewi t
hherandherf ami l
ythrought hisor deal.Shewasav i
rgi
n.Shedi dn'tdeser vet ol oose
getwomanhoodl i
kethat.Sheal wayst ol dmehowshepl annedonl osingi tonherweddi ngnight
toherhusbandi nabeaut i
fulr
esor tonsomef arawayi slandonabedf ul lofrosepet als.Your
typi
cal mov ieromant i
cscene.Thatwasherdr eam.Theweedandt heal cohol wer ewear ingoff
remindingmeoft hepossibil
it
yofal mostgoi ngt hr
oughwhatmyf ri
endwentt hroughand
suddenl yIjustcriedevenmor eanduncont roll
ablythistime.Wher edidIev engett hegut s.Why
wasn' tIscaredofhi mt hen?Whyi st hisonl yr egist
eringnow?Ashgav emepai nkill
erssot hat
theywoul dknockmeoutandt heydi d...untilIhadadr eam wher eAndr ewwasbr eat hingheav i
ly
ontopofme, sweat i
ngandf eeli
ngpl easedwi thhimsel fashewenthar deranddeeperi nsideof
me, thepai nwasnott hatofpl easure, i
tf el
tl i
kesomeonewasr i
ppingmyv aginai ntohal f.Icr
ied
unti
lIcoul dn'tcryanymor e.

"
Yay
awakeup.I
t'
sokhe'
snotgoi
ngt
ohur
tyou"

Ashwasr
ightnextt
omepat
ti
ngmegent
ly.

Her
:youwer
ecr
ying

Me:
itf
eltsor
eal

Iwassi
tt
ingupandcuddl
edi
nAshesar
ms.

Her
:itwasonl
yadr
eam

Mycheekswerewet.Iwasn'
tcr
yinginthedream onl
y,Iwascry
inginper
sont oo.Shekept
assuri
ngmeitwasnothi
ngbutadr eam whi
lerubbi
ngmybackgent l
yunt
ilIcouldfeel
my sel
f
dri
ft
ingof
ftosl
eep.MaybeIshouldfil
earestr
aini
ngorderagai
nsthi
m.

.
.

<3

[
10/
16,
09:
07]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E16–Mel
o

Ican'tputintowordst hewayIf eel.It'

sami xtureofr age,wor ryandhur t
.Mysi st
erisina
hospitalbedbecausesomeasshol ejustcoul dn'tkeepi tl
ockedupi nhispant sandt he.Ther e'
s
mygi rl
fri
endwhoi soceansawayf rom me, almostgotr aped.Idon' tknow.Thathor nyboyhas
bett
erpr aywenev errunintoeachot herbecauseofwedoi twi l
lbet heendofhi m.Idon' tget
howYandi swaget stobet hischill
edov erthis,whati fshedi dn'thav eataz er?WhatI 'dhehad
donesomet hingtoher?Iaskedhert oqui talcohol forsuchr easons, toav oidsuchi ncident s.
Girl
sneedt ounder st
andt hatwhenweasky out oqui tsomet hi
ng,it'snotcausewedon' twant
youtohav ef unbutit'
sforyourowngood, yourownsaf et
y.Ifshedi dn'tdrink,shewoul dn'thave
hadtobeent hereinthebeginning.Itriedt ocal m my selfdownbef oregoingbacki nsidet he
room, Ineededabr eather
.Iwalkedbacki nandt her oom wasdeadsi l
ent.Iyawassi tt
ingr ight
whereIl ef
therandsowasmom.Dadwasn' tinther oom, hepr obablywentoutt omakesome
call
s.Istoodbymom andr ubbedhershoul ders.Shewast ornapar tbythis.Asewasl ay ingon
thebedcur leduplikeaninfantfacingmom wi thtearsst r
eami ngdownherey es.

Me:
wher
esdad?

Mom:
he'
soutmaki
ngsomecal
l
s

Inodded.Justaswewer
eli
ket
hat
,thedoorswungopenandAuntJen,
Siy
aandSi
yabonga
walkedin.

Si
ya:
IcameassoonasIgotI
ya'
stext
.Whathappened?

Shel
ookedatmom whohadt
ear
yey
es.

Jen:
Amahl
ewhathappenedt
omyni
ece?Wher
eisDamon?

Me:
someguyf
rom ourcompl
ext
ookadv
ant
ageofMel
ody

Si
ya:
whatdoy
oumeant
ookadv
ant
ageofher
?Her
apedher
?

Sheaskedwi
thabi
tofangerandhur
tinherv
oice.Inodded.Shewal
kedov
ert
othesi
deAse
wasfaci
ng.

Siy
a: Ican'
tl
ieandsayi
t'
sgoingt
ogetbett
er.Ican'
ttel
lyouyougoi
ngtobefi
nebecausey
ou
won'tbugthisIcant
ell
you,y
ouhaveagreatsupportsyst
em ar
oundyouandwewill
helpy
ou
getthroughthi
smybaby .
Dadwal
kedi
n.

Mom:
didy
ouf
indhi
m Damon?

Henodded.

Mom:
excuseme.

Shesai
dget
ti
ngupoutoft
hechai
rtoherhusbandandt
heywal
kedoutt
oget
herf
oll
owedby
Jen.

Her
:cany
ouguy
spl
easegetout
!

Shej
ustsnappedshocki
ngal
lofus.

Me:
no.Youcan'
tbeal
one.I
'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
e

Ase:
JUSTGETOUT!Pl
ease

BongaandauntSi
yawal
kedoutandl
eftme&I
ya.

Ase:
Mel
opl
ease.

Herv
oicecameoutasawhi
sper
.Br
okenandr
eadyt
ocr
y.Il
ookedatI
yawhoshookherhead.

I
ya:
wenotgoi
ngany
wher
e

Shegotont
hebedbehi
ndAseandcuddl
edher
.

I
ya:
youneedmeasmuchasIneededy
ouwhenIl
ostmybaby
.Wenotl
eav
ingy
ouMel
ody
.

Shekeptqui
etwi
thoutanyf
ighti
nher
.DrMar
swal
kedi
n.

Dr
:hi
.Ij
ustcametocheckuponthepat
ientandhowshe'
sdoi
ng.Asemahl
ether
eisat
her
api
st
wai
ti
ngout
side,
incaseyouwantt
otal
k.

Ase:
Iwantt
ogohome.CanIgohome?

Dr
:west
il
lneedt
okeepy
ouf
oraf
ewday
stomakesur
ethaty
ouar
efi
ne

Ase:
I'
m notsi
ck,
Iwasr
aped.CanIgohome?

Me:
Asepl
ease

Dr
:atl
eastt
alkt
othet
her
api
standt
henwe'
l
ldi
scussdi
schar
gingy
ou

Ase:am Ipr
ison?Ofment
ali
nst
it
uti
on?Whyshoul
dyouhav
etot
alkt
osomeoneel
sei
nor
dert
o
di
schargeme?

Thedocst
oodt
her
enotknowi
ngwhatt
osay
.
I
ya:
atl
eastwai
tfort
her
esul
tsandt
heny
oucangohome.Okbabe

I
yal
ookedatt
hedoc

Dr
:yourr
esul
tsshoul
dbebackt
omor
rowmor
ning

I
ya:
thanky
ou.

Thedocwal
kedoutandourpar
ent
swal
kedi
n.

Mom:
whatdi
dthedoct
orsay
?

I
ya:
thatsheneedscounsel
l
ingandt
hatshewoul
dbeoutt
omor
row

Mom:
isn’
tthatal
i
ttl
ebi
tsoon?

Ase:
I’
m notgoi
ngt
ost
ayher
eanyl
ongermom

Mom:
Asemahl
eyouneedcounsel
l
ingbaby

Ase:
Ineedt
ogohome.

Seeminglyall
mysibli
ngsandIhat
ehospi
tal
s,i
t’
sfunnybecausehospi
tal
shavedoneanyt
hing
toanyofus.butthenagai
nIthi
nkwedon’
tli
kethatwholebeingt
akencareofandgi
ven
unnecessaryatt
ent
ion.

Mom:
Asemahl
eyo…

Ase:
I’
m notgoi
ngf
orcounsel
l
ingandt
hat
’st
hat
.Dadhav
eyouf
oundhi
m?

Dad:
yes,
baby

Her
:Iwantt
oseehi
m

Mom &Dad:
No.

Dad:
that
’snothappeni
ng.

Ase:
dadIneedt
oseehi
m

Mom: No.FuckNoAsemahl
e!Seei
nghi
m wi
l
lonl
ytakey
oubackt
othet
raumahecausedy
ou
baby

Ase:
whost
oppedy
ouf
rom v
isi
ti
ngAmanda?

Amandai sanannywhomol est

edourmotherbackwhenshewasaki d,whenshewasabout5
year
sold.Thewomanmademom dodespi cablethi
ngstoher,thi
ngsnochil
dshoul
ddoatthat
age.Butevent
uallyt
hetr
uthcameout.Mom wentf ort
herapyunti
lshewasmentall
yfi
newit
h
ever
ythi
ngandt henyear
slat
ershewentt
ov isi
tthenanny,togetsomeclosur
eandshegoti
t.
Mom lookedatAsemahlewithherj
awonthef l
oor.
Dad:
yourmot
heri
sonl
ytr
yingt
ohel
pyou

Ase:
Idon’
twanthel
p.Idon’
twanty
ourpi
ty.Idon’
twantt
obeher
e.GodIj
ustwantt
ogetback
tomyli
feasi
fthi
sdidn’
thappen

Mom:andforhowlongar
ey ouplanni
ngonavoi
dingt
hati
thappenedhuh?Yougoabouty
our
l
if
eandthenwhat?Youst
artdri
nkingandt
henwhatAsemahle?

Dad:Amahl
ecal
m down!She’
shur
ti
ng,
mor
ethany
ouar
e.Letherdeal
wit
hthi
sthewayshe
seesfi
t

Mom l
it
eral
lyl
ashedouton.I
nsensi
ti
veasi
tmaybebutIunderst
andwher
eshei
scomi
ngf
rom.
Thi
ngsl
eftundeal
twit
hhaveawayofcomingbackt
ohaunty ou.

Mom: AsemahleIloveyouandIdon’twanttobur
yyou.Notanyti
mesoon.Youmydaught er
,
youtheonethatshouldburymeandnott heot
herwayround.Youcan’tavoi
dthi
s;Iunder
stand
i
thurtsbaby.Iknowithur
tsbutthisat
ti
tudewon’
tmakeitlesspai
nful,i
twil
lonl
ymakey oufeel
worseanditwilll
eadyoutodothingsyoudon’
twanttodobaby.Please.

Herv
oicewassolowandeachwordwasaccompaniedbyt
hepainshewasfeel
ingasamother.
I
twasjustpai
nful
.Whowoul
dhavethoughtmyl
i
ttl
esist
erwoul
dgot hr
oughsomethi
ngl
ikethi
s?

Mom:
pleasej
ustgethel
p

Afterawhil
emom suggest edIgohomeandchangei ntosomet hi
ngmor ecomf or
tabl
eand
bri
ngmysi st
ersomecl othes.Istart
edatAse’sflatandi twascleanedup,li
kethemessf rom
earli
erwasnotthereanymor e.Iwenttoherclosetandpackedupabagandwentt oputitinmy
carandthenwentt omypl ace.WhenIgott hereOlonawasst andi
ngoutsidethedoorwear i
nga
tr
enchcoatandbl ackheels.Herweav ewasshoul derlengthandithadgoldhighli
ghtsatthe
bottom,herl
ipswer emaroonish,shelookedbeaut i
ful
,sexyAF.

Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Her
:I’
m her
etoseey
ou.

Isi
ghed.Whatwasshedoi nghere?Thisgir
lisnothi
ngbutat empt at
ion.Every
thingshedoesis
eff
ortl
ess.I
nmyheadIwant edtoripthatcoatoffofherandsexhert osl
eep,Ineededthi
s,I
neededherri
ghtnow, Ineededtohaveheratmymer cy,doingeverythi
ngIwanthert odo
wit
houtanyquest i
onsasked,Ineededtoblowofsomest eam,releasealit
tlebitoft
ensi
onand
j
ustforgetever
ythi
ngthat’
shappenedi nthepastfewhour s.

Me:
clear
lyIdi
dn’
tmakemy
sel
fcl
eart
hismor
ning

Her
:It
houghty
ou’
dknowmebynow.Ial
way
sgetwhatIwant
.

Shesaiddroppi
ngthetr
enchcoatrev
eali
ngherbangingbodyinlace.Yayawasallki
ndsof
beauti
ful
andherbodywasjustasbeauti
fulbutOl
ona,Olona’
sbodyl ookedl
ikei
twasmadef or
nothi
ngbutsex,shewasall
kindsofsexyandhertat
tooscomplement edherbodywell
.Ij
ust
st
oodther
eandadmi
redher
,Yay
awi
l
lhav
etof
orgi
vemef
ort
oni
ghtbecauser
eal
l
yIcan’
thel
p
mysel
fher
e.

Me:
putony
ourcoatandl
et’
sgo!

Her
:wher
e?

Me:
toy
ourpl
ace.

Shepi
ckedi
tupandputI
ton.

Her
:whynother
e?

Me:
wenotgoi
ngt
ohav
esexont
hebedandt
hesheet
sIsl
eepwi
thmygi
rl
fr
iendon

Shelookedatmeandshookherhead, Ithi
nkthatstatementki ndofhitanerve.Thedistance
fr
om mypl acetohere’swaspl us/
minus30mi nut
es.Wegoti nsideherapar tmentandI
att
ackedherwi thakisswhi chshedidn’thesit
atetorespondt o.Itookhertrenchcoatof fwhil
e
st
il
lkissingherhungril
y(It
’sbeenaf l
ippingmont hsinceIlasthadt hi
ssopleasedon’tjudge
me),shehelpedmet akemyt -shir
toff
,Ipickedherupagai nstthedoorandshewr appedher
l
egsar oundmywai standherhandsar oundmyneckwhi lemi newer edi
ggingonherbutcheeks
makinghermoani npl easure.Itookhertothecounterandcont i
nuedkissi
ngherwhi l
et aking
mypant soff.Shebroketheki ss

Her
:ar
eyousur
eyouwantt
odot
his?

Inodded.Shewentdownandt ookmyboxer sof fandt henst artedst rokingmydi cksl owl

ythen
sheputi tinsi
dehermout handst art
eddoingt hingsIcan’ tev enputi ntowor ds.Herheadgame
wasdi f
fer
entkindsoflevels,somepor nshiit
.Shewast hatgood, Icoul dfeelmyselfcomi ng
andt hatonlypleasedherev enmor e,Iwasgr oaning!Shel ookedupatmeandsmi ledwi t
hher
eyesper mitti
ngmet ocum i nsidehermout handIdi dj ustt hat,sheswal l
owedandt henshe
i
nser tedacondom onmyDt hencameupt okissme.Ipl acedheront hecounterandwenti n
withoutwar ni
ngmaki ngherscr eam mynamei npleasur e.Istartedof fslowlyandt henpicked
upmypaceandwenti nandoutf astermakingherscr eam l ouder ,
Ipickedusupandl edherto
theloungewher eIfl
i
ppedusov erintodoggyst yleuntilIcoul dnol ongerhol dmy selfbutcum i
n
l
oadscal l
i
ngouthername.Whenwewer edoneIt ookt hecondom of fandwentt odi sposeofit
withherwal kingri
ghtbehindme.

Her
:wantt
otal
kabouti
t?

Idi
dn’
trespondbuti
nst
eadIwentt
otheki
tchent
oputmyboxer
son.

Her
:youl
eav
ing?

Me:
youknowIhav
eagi
rl
fr
iend

Her
:howcoul
dIf
orgetwheny
oucal
l
edhernameoutwheny
ouwer
ecumi
ng
Shewasmad.Butshehasnor
ightt
obe.

Her:
Iknowthatwejustf
ucki
ngbuthav
eal
i
ttl
erespectf
ormeMel
o.I
’
m notsomehoey
ou
pi
ckeduponthestr
eet.

Thi
swholet
imeIwasget
ti
ngdressedandnotrespondi
ngt
oher
.Shewastri
ppi
ngovernot
hing;
sheknewwhatwewer
edoingi
nthefir
stpl
ace.WhenIwasdoneIheadedt
othedoor
.

Me:
mov
e.

Her
:what
’swr
ongwi
thy
ou?What
’sbot
her
ingy
ou?

Me:
mysi
stergotr
apedandmygi
rl
fr
iendal
mostgotr
aped.Nowmov
eoutoft
heway
!

Sheputherhandsonhermout
hinshock.

Me:
MOVE!

Iroaredandshemov edoutoft hewayandl etmel eav e.Igotinsidemycaranddr ovebackt o

mypl ace,passingbyal i
quorst oreandget t
ingmy sel fabot tl
e.Igott omypl aceandstart
ed
drinkingoneglassaft ertheot her,Istoppedonmyt hirdremember ingIstil
lneededtogoback
tot hehospit
al.Iwentt ot akeashowerdr owningmy selfinmygui l
t.Yayawoul dbeso
disappointedinme;t hisist helaststrawf orher.Ikeptt hinkingofhowshewoul dreactt
ot hi
s,
shewoul dhatemef ort hi
sespeci allyaftereveryt
hi ng.If eltshit
ty.Ican’tkeephurt
ingherlike
this.WhenIwasdoneshower i
ngIgotoutanddr iedmybodyt henIl oti
onedandgotdr essedin
sweatpant sandat -shirtwi thasneakerandt hendr ov eof ft
ot hehospital.

I
ya:
tooky
oul
ongenough

Me:
Ineededt
opr
ocessev
ery
thi
ng

Her
:whywhat
’sup?

Me:
Yandi
swaal
mostgotr
aped

Sheputherhandsonhermout
h.

Her
:OhmyGodhowi
sshe?Shemustbeshaken

Me:
shesay
sshe’
sfi
ne.

Her
:andwhatdoy
out
hink?

Me:
thatsheshoul
dgof
il
ear
est
rai
ningor
deragai
nstt
heguy
.Theguyi
shercl
assmat
e

Her
:whati
ftheydon’
tgr
antherone,
seei
ngt
hathedi
dn’
tdoany
thi
ng

Me:I
’l
lcal
lsomeonefr
om t
here.Thi
sasshol
ecan’
tgetawaywi
tht
his.whati
fhehaddone
somet
hingtoher
?she’
snotsafeIya
Her
:Iunder
stand.I
’
m sor
ry

Me:
yeahsur
e.

Wewer
ebot
hsi
tt
ingont
hef
loori
nthecor
ri
dorout
sideAse’
sroom.

Me:
sowhyar
en’
tyoui
nsi
de?

Her
:mom askedt
obel
eftwi
thheral
one.Pr
obabl
ytr
yingt
oconv
incehert
ogethel
p

Me:
anddad?

Her
:dadwentt
o“at
tendacr
isi
s”

Shesai
dwi
thai
rquot
es.

Her
:doy
out
hinkhehadt
hem ki
l
lhi
m?

Me:
Idoubti
t.het
ookawayhi
sdaught
er’
sinnocence,
deat
hwoul
dbet
ooeasyf
orhi
m

Her
:Iguess

Me:
doesSeanknow?

Sheshr
ugged.

Her
:he’
sbeencal
l
ingt
hou.It
hinkhe’
swor
ri
ed

Me:
wit
hthewaymysi
steri
s,Idoubtsheev
enst
il
lwant
stobei
nar
elat
ionshi
pwi
thhi
m.

Justasweweresit
ti
ngdownli
kethatsomeonewal
kedoverwi
thanur
seshout
ingbehi
ndhi
m
thathecoul
dn’
tcomethi
ssi
de.Theguywasinsucharush.

Hi
m:hi
,I
’ml
ooki
ngf
orAsemahl
eandherphonesay
sshe’
sher
e

Me:
andy
ouar
e?

Hi
m:Sean,
SeanNguni
.Wai
tyouhert
winandy
ouhersi
sterr
ight
?

Webothnoddedandst
oodup.Sot
hisi
stheeSean…Ni
ce…he’
snotbad,
mysi
sterhast
ast
e
shame.

Me:
soy
out
heboy
fri
end?

I
ya:
it’
sapl
easur
etomeety
ouSean.I
’
mIy
anaandt
hisi
sDer
ri
ck

Hi
m:Iam t
heboy
fri
end.I
ssheok?Shewasn’
tanswer
ingmycal
l
ssoIt
rackedherphone

-StalkerAler
t!
!!
-Mysubconscioushadami ndofit
sown.ButIcoul
dn’
thel
pbutf
eel
hehad
stalkertendenci
es,
whot racksthei
rpar
tnersphone?
I
ya:
shei
s….

Me:
Idon’
tthi
nkshewant
stoseey
ou.

Hi
m:what
?Why
?

I
yal
ookedatmeshocked.

Me:
mysi
sterhasbeent
hroughal
otandt
hel
astt
hingsheneedsi
syour
ightnow

Hi
m:di
dshet
ell
yout
hatory
out
houghtoft
hatony
ourown?

Il
ookedatt
hisguy
.Thener
ve?What
’swi
tht
heat
ti
tude?

Me:
doesi
tmat
ter
?

Hi
m:i
fshedoesn’
twantmeher
eshe’
l
ltel
lmeher
sel
f

Me:
samewayshet
oldy
ouwher
eshewasr
ight
?

I
ya:
Seanl
astt
imeIhear
dyouwer
einJobur
g

Hi
m:Ij
ustl
andedf
ewmi
nut
esago.Cany
oupl
easet
ell
mewhat
’sgoi
ngon?

Me:
niggagobackt
oJobur
g.

Isai
dthatandwal
kedbacki
ntomysi
ster
’sr
oom andf
oundhersl
eepi
ng.

Mom:
youback

Me:
yeah.Howi
sshe?

Her
:sheagr
eedt
oseeat
her
api
st

Me:
that
’sgood.

Her
:ev
ery
thi
ngok?

Me:
yeahev
ery
thi
ngi
sfi
ne

Her
:howl
onghav
eIknowny
ouagai
n?

Ichuckl
ed.

Her
:you’
vebeendi
str
act
edsi
nceIdon’
tknow.t
alkt
omebaby
.Br
ingachai
randcomesi
ther
e

It
ookachai
randwentt
oputi
tnextt
oherandsatdown.

Her
:so?

Me:
Yandi
swaal
mostgotr
aped
-
ohandIcheatedonherwit
hagir
lItol
dherwasaf
riendandsheshoul
dn’
twor
ryabout
…that
’s
j
ustabouti
tri
ght?buti
fIt
ell
you,
you’l
lmur
derme-

Her
:ohmyGod.Howi
sshe?

Me:
shesay
sshe’
sfi
ne.I
’
llgov
isi
therwhenAsei
sal
i
ttl
ebet
ter

Her
:yoh.t
hisIdi
dn’
texpect

I
nawayIki ndofbl
amedherf
orput
tinghersel
finthatsi
tuat
ion.Hadshej
ustst
ayedhomet
hen
noneoft
hiswouldhav
ehappenedi
nt hef
ir
stplace!

Me:
yeahmet
oo

Her
:I’
m sor
rybaby
.Ishoul
dcal
lherwhenIgett
hechance

Shesai
dbr
ushi
ngmyknee.

<3

[
10/
16,
09:
09]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E17

Iwokeupf eeli
ngbleh...youknowt hatfeeli
ngyougetwhensomet hi
ngbadi sabouttohappen?
youknowwheny ourhear tsi
nkst othebottom ofyourst omach?Wel l
thatwasmet oday.Ididn'
t
feelsogood.Ormay beit'
sthealcoholwear i
ngofforitst hereal
it
yoflastni
ght,t
he" whatifs"of
l
astnight.Ashanti
wasn' tinmybednorwasshei nhers.Igotupandwentt opeet henbrushed
myt eet
handwentt ocheckmyphoneandIhadaf ewt ext shereandtherebutnonef r
om Mel o,
i
'dsayit'
sstrangebutt henagainhissisteri
sinhospital.SpeakingofwhichIneedt ocalland
checkuponher .Idiall
edMel o.Heanswer edaftersomet ime.

/
/Me:
heybabe.

Hi
m:heyYay
a

Thet
onei
nhi
svoi
cesay
ssomet
hingel
se.

Hi
m:howar
eyout
oday
?

Me:
i'
m goodbabeandhowar
eyou?
Hi
m:goodt
oo

Me:
how'
syoursi
ster
?How'
sev
ery
one?

Hi
m:she'
snotf
ineanduhhm t
her
estoft
hef
ami
l
yisn'
ttoo

Me:
i'
m sor
ryI
'
m nott
her
efory
out
hrought
his

Hi
m:i
tsokbabe.Li
sten,
Ihav
etogoneh.I
'
llcal
lyoul
ater
?

Me:
yeahsur
elat
er.By
e

Hi
m:by
e//

Thathastobethemostwei
rdandawkwardconv er
sat
ionIhaveeverhaswit
hhi m.I
tfeltl
ikeI
wastalki
ngtosomeoneel
seandnotmyboyfri
endormay beI'
mj ustbei
ngparanoi
d.he'sgoing
thr
oughsomest uf
fany
way.Ashwal
kedindressedinagym att
ir
eandapaperbagoft hecafe
outsi
deourcampus.

Her
:mor
ning.Youup

Me:
mor
ninghoney
.Whydi
dn'
tyouwakemeup?

Her
:youneededt
her
est
.Howar
eyout
oday
?

Me:
ali
tt
leundert
heweat
her
.You?

Her
:I'
m al
lgood.Imett
hisguyatt
hecaf
e

Shesaidsqui
rming.Arghbutmyr
oommatewasabr eat
hoffreshair
.Shel
ightsuptheroom
wit
hherbubblypersonal
it
yandj
ustev
ery
thi
ngaboutherisamazingandcuteandadorbs.Ash
i
sev er
ythi
nggood!

Me:
det
ail
s..
.

Shemadeussitonherbedwhichwasmadeandsheputthefr
eshmuf
fi
nsbet
weenus.We
weresi
tt
ingf
acingeachot
herwit
hourl
egsi
ny ogaposi
ti
on.

Her:
so!Arghfir
stl
yhepaidf
orthesebyt
heway.Butt
hat
'snotwhatwetal
ki
ngabouther
e,he'
s
alawstudentwhom Ihav
eneverseenar
oundher
ebytheway.HisnameisScot
tandhe'
sdoing
hi
slastyearher
eoncampusbyt heway

Me:
didy
ougi
vehi
myournumber
?

Sheshookherheadwi
thherhandscov
eri
ngherf
ace.

Me:what??
?Why ?Isn'
thecute?Doyouevenunder
standtheconceptof"
metaguy",
thatmeans
youli
kedhi
m enoughtogivehimyournumberandyouli
kedhim enought
otel
lyourf
riends
abouthi
m
Her
:youandSer
enaar
eappl
esoft
hesamet
ree

Shesai
drol
l
ingherey
es.

Her
:henev
eraskedf
ori
t.

Me:
what
?Youl
i
e!

Her:I
'
m seri
ous.Heaskedt
owalkmetomydomeandthent
hatwasi
t.Ont
hewayherewe
werechat
ti
ngaboutschool
even,
hewasaski
ngmeaboutmycour
seandwhyIchosei
tand
st
uff

Me:
sowhatdoeshel
ookl
i
ke?

Her:adream..
.Tal
l
,handsome,dr
essedinasuitorwasi
tchi
nos?ArghI'
m notsure.Hiswhi
te
ofcause,bl
ackhai
r,br
ushcutt
ypeofthi
nggoingon.Ali
tt
lemuscledup,
uhhm hisv oi
cewas
dreamydude.Godhewast hemosthott
estspeci
menIhaveeverseenar
oundhere

Icoul
dn'thel
pbutl
aughathowmuchshewasdrool
i
ngov ert
hisguy.Herphonerangandshe
answereditwhi
l
eIwenttomakemybedandthengoshower,sheandhermot herareti
ghtl
ike
that
.WhenIgotoutoftheshowermi
newasr
ingi
nganditwasanunknownnumber .Ianswered
i
t

/
/Me:
Hel
l
o?

Per
son:
HiYandi
swat
hisi
sMr
sBess.Igoty
ournumberf
rom myson

Me:
ohhi
Mah,
howar
eyou?Mel
otol
dmeaboutAse,
howar
eyouguy
shol
dingup?Howi
sshe?

Her
:she'
samess.Idon'
tev
enknowwhatt
odo,
whatt
osayt
oher
,Ij
ust
..
.Idon'
tknowbaby
.

Me:she'
sgoingt
opul
lthr
ough.Godwi
l
lhel
phert
hrought
his.Pl
usshehasherf
ami
l
yto
suppor
ther

Her:oneshei
str
yingv
eryhar
dtopushaway
.Any
wayhowar
eyou?Mel
okuhl
etol
dmewhat
happened

Me:he'
soverr
eact
ingkeyena,
not
hinghappened.I
tal
mosthappenedbutmnaI
'
mfi
ne.Thank
Godfort
hetazer
.I'
mfineMah

Her:butbabyyouneedt obecar
efultheseboysar en'
tri
ght.Yazi
(youknow)t hi
sonetimewhenI
wasar oundyourage,Iwentt
oahousepar t
yinmyhomet own.Therewasaboyt herewho
pul
ledsomest untmakingDamonv erypissedthatheputtheboyi nhospit
al.Year
slaterhehad
hi
ssidechicktryseduceDamonallinthenameofr evengeohandal sobecausehewant edme

Me:
that
'sobsessi
onmos

Her:
youcansaythat
.ButbabywhatI
'
m sayingisthatf
il
ear estrai
ningor
der
,hav
etheuni
ver
sit
y
knowaboutt
hisf
oryourownsafet
yok.Idon'tt
hinkhe'
llst
opt here
Me:
yesMahwi
l
lsoonMonday

Her
:okbaby

Me:
Asei
sgoi
ngt
opul
lthr
ough.I
twon'
tbeeasybutshewi
l
lbef
ine.

Her:
I'
m worr
iedaboutherYaya.Iwor
ri
edshemi
ghtdosomet
hing.Bei
thur
ti
ngher
sel
fordoi
ng
somethi
ngshewill
lat
eronregret

Me:
whataboutt
heguywhodi
dthi
s?

Her:myhusband'
speopl
ecaughthi
mjustint
ime.Hewasleav
ingDurbantoLordknowswher
e.
Damonhashispeopleonhi
m.Ihaven'
tseenhi
m, I
'
m wor
ri
edImi ghtj
ustki
l
lhim wi
thmybare
handsyuh

Me:
buthedeser
vest
odi
e!Wi
thwhathedi
dMah

Her:Damoniswor ki
ngonput
ti
nghimi
ntot
hoseheavyl
ockdownpr i
sonswher
ehe'
ll
be
someone'
sbitch.Hewantshi
mt of
eel
whatMel
odyfelt
.Ican'
thel
pbutfeel
shewon'
tbef
ine
knowingt
hathei sal
ive

Me:letherbetheonetodeci
dethatMah.Iknowyoubeingamotherandt
ryi
ngt
oprotecther
butl
etherbet heonet
odecidet
his.Shemightnev
ergetthecl
osur
esheneedsi
fyouguys
deci
det hi
sforher

Her
:Iguessy
ouhav
eapoi
nt.Any
wayIwaschecki
ngupony
ou,
how'
sthedi
stance?

Me:
yoh!

Shel
aughedandsodi
di.

Her
:Iknow.Igocr
azybybei
ngawayf
rom myhusbandf
oraweekend.Youmustbegoi
ngmad

Me:
yohMahy
ouhav
enoi
dea.Ican'
twai
tforhol
i
day
sal
ready
.Icannotwai
ttoseehi
m

Her
:that
'scut
e..
.li
stenIhav
etogo.By
ebabyandf
ocusont
her
easony
out
her
eok?

Me:
yesMah.By
e//

Ashcamebackandfoundnesmil
ing.Ihadamotheri
nMr
sBess,
shemaynotbemybi
ologi
cal
mom butshesur
ecaresaboutmeli
keherown.

Ash:
Itakei
tyouj
ustspoket
oMel
o?

Me:
Arghnoman.Hi
smot
her
,she'
ssuchasweetper
son

Her
:lookaty
oumi
ngl
i
ngwi
tht
hei
n-l
aws.Don'
tgett
ooat
tachedey

Me:
whosai
dIwi
l
lmar
ryMel
o?
Her
:whosai
dyouwoul
dn'
t?

Me:
hahahay
ouwi
n.Ar
ghIdon'
tknowmahnAsh

Her
:ok,
quest
ion.I
fheaskedy
out
omar
ryhi
m,woul
dyousayy
esorno?

Me:
yes.

Thewordsl
it
eral
l
ysl
ippedri
ghtoutofmymout h.Il
i
keser
iouslywasn'
treadyfort
hem mysel
f.
Buti
nmydefenceIl
ovehim andIt
hinkgivent
imeheandIcouldactual
lyhaveafutur
ehere.
Ashl
aughedathowquickIwastorespondandthenhi
dmyf aceinembarrassment.

Her
:thati
ssocut
e

Me:
scr
ewy
ou.SowhatwasmamaLucysay
ing?

Her
:mamaLucyi
sonherwaysoy
oubet
terwashupandgetdr
essed.I
'
veal
readyt
ext
edS.

Me:
sti
l
ltr
ynawr
apmyheadar
oundbei
ngr
oom mat
ewi
tht
hef
amousLucyWal
sh'
sdaught
er

Isai
dsqui
rmi
ngandshej
ustl
aughedatmeasIwentt
oshower
.

*
*OneWeekLat
er*
*

It'
sFr i
daynowandt hingsbet weenMel oandIar ealit
tl
er ocky.LikeIdon' tknowwhat '
sgoi ng
on, he'
sabi tdistantlately,hebar elycal l
s,allwedoi s"chat"andev ensoi t'
sjustawkwar d
conv ersati
ons.Ihav en'treall
yhadt i
met oent ertainwhateverthi
si s,it'
sbeenabusyweekf or
meandmycl assmat es.Ohal sohedi dn'
tev enaskmeaboutgoi ngt of i
learestrainingor der,i
s
i
tmeorsomet hinghashi sattenti
on?ImeanMel o?Notaskorpr essur emeaboutt he
restrai
ningorder?Somet hinghast obeupguy s.AnywayIdi drepor titonCampusandt urnsout
whathedi disanof f
enceandi spuni shablet hroughsuspensi on.Campussecur ityhadhi m
escor t
edoutofcl assonMondayandnooneknewwhy .Ashhasseenherguyagai nandt his
ti
mehewaswi thanev enhot terfriendwhi chonl yconfusedher .
..Ar ghshe'sagor kyonet hat
one.Af tercl
assIheadedt omydor m wi thoneofmycl assmat es,thisot hercutener d,very
talkati
veandanamazi ngsculpt or.Wegott oourdor msandheadedt oourr ooms.Ideci dedt o
callmyboy f
ri
endand" st
irupt roubl e",t
hat'swhatguy ssaymoswhenwewantt ot alktot hem.I
diall
edhi snumberandatf i
rstIwasr ejectedst r
aightupandt henIcal l
edhi m againinwhi chhe
answer ed.

/
/Hi
m:heybabe

Me:
Ijustt
ri
edcal
l
ingy
ouandmycal
lwasr
eject
ed

Him:I
twasami
stakebabe,
itgotpr
essedwhenIwast
aki
ngoutofmypocket
.Howar
eyou
beaut
if
ul?
Me:
i'
mfi
neandhowar
eyou?

Hi
m:i
'
m good.Sowhat
'
sup?

OH?

Me:
arey
ouatwor
k?

Hi
m:Ij
ustgothome.Il
eftear
ly,
why
?

Me:
Idon'
tknowi
fit
'sme,
I'
m seei
ngt
hingsbuty
oudi
stantl
atel
yandI
'
m nothappy

Hi
m:whatdoy
oumeanbabe.Wet
alkev
ery
day

Me:text
ingmegoodmor ninghav
eagreatdayi
snott
alki
ngMel
okuhl
e.I
t'
ssomet
hingy
oudot
o
cl
earyourconsci
ence.What'
sgoi
ngon?

Hi
m:i
tsj
ustbeenhect
icatwor
kbabeI
'
m sor
ry

Me:
it'
sbeenhect
icatBESS,
it'
sal
way
shect
ict
her
e.Whathasy
ourat
tent
ion?

Hi
m:nott
hisagai
n.It
houghtwehadt
hisconv
ersat
ionmos.i
'
m donewi
tht
hatl
i
feYay
a

Me:
arey
our
eal
l
y?

Hi
m:si
ncewhenar
eyoui
nsecur
e?

Ichuckl
edi
ndi
sbel
i
ef.

Hi
m:t
hel
astt
hingIwantt
odoi
sar
guewi
thy
ouov
ert
his

Me: youdon'tgetitdoyou?I'm notblind.I'

m notst upi
dMel okuhl e.IknowIhav en'tknowny ou
l
ongenoughbecausey oukeepsur pri
singmebutIknowt hatsomet hi
nghasy ourat t
enti
onand
thatsomethingisnotme.Myboy f
riendwoul dnev ertal
ktomel iket hi
s,myboy fr
iendcallsme
tocheckuponmeanddoesn' twai tformet ocal l
f orhi
mt oask, myboy fr
iendwoul dhavecalled
mef ir
stthi
ngMondayandr emi ndedmet onotf orgettofi
lear est rai
ningorderagainstAndrew
andmyboy f
riendwouldnev erusewor kasanexcuset onott alkt omebecauset hisi
sthesame
personwhor iskedgett
inginaccidental lbecauseIwasnott alkingt ohim.Nowt ellmeI'm bei
ng
i
nsecur eandseeingthi
ngs.

Il
i
ter
all
yfel
ttear
srol
ldownmycheeks.Iwi
pedt
hem.Whywashedoi
ngt
hist
ome?

Me: IknowwhathappenedtoAsemahleanditpai
nsmejustasmuchasi
tdoesy
ou, she'
sli
kea
sist
ertomeandf orhert
ogothroughthati
t'
shardonyouandonmebutIknowyou.Iknow
thatsheisnott
hereasonfory
oursuddenchange.Whati
sitMel
o?

Hetookadeepbr eat
hinandl etitoutslowly.Icoul
dpict
urehi
m doi
ngt
hat,r
akinghishai
rback
wit
hhiseyesclosedandthenopeni ngt hem againt
oanswerme.Hewouldprobabl
ytakemy
handsi
ntohisandsay"Yaya".It'
sani cknamepeopl ehav
ecall
edmebybeforebutthewayhe
say
siti
sdif
fer
ent
,itsendschil
l
sdownmyspine,
itt
akesmet
oawor
ldonl
yheandIknow,
it
hol
dsmoremeani
ngt hanitbei
ngsai
dbyot
herpeopl
e.

Hi
m:Yay
a

SeewhatImean?Iknowt
hisguy
.

Him: Iswearnot
hingeithert
hanwor khasmyat tent
ion.Thisweekhasjustbeenstressful
and
hecti
c.Wor kl
it
eral
lyhasmebyt heball
s.Dadisjustoverworkingmeallinthenameoft urni
ng
mei ntohim.Andthentheresthisthi
ngthathappenedtoAsemahl e,
she'sreal
lynotcopingand
i
t'sstressi
ngmeoutr ealbad.Iam sosorryf
orbeingdistantandIpromiseyou,Ipr
omi seyou
thatasofnowy ouwillbemymai npri
ori
ty

Me:Idon'
twanttobeapr
ior
it
y.Iwanttobeyourgir
lfr
iendMelokuhl
e.Idon'
twanty
outof
eel
obl
igat
edtotal
ktomeall
becauseofthi
sconversat
ion.Iwantyoutobethatmanyouwer
ea
weekagooristhatt
oomuchtoaskfor?

Hi
m:babyIam r
eal
l
ytr
yingher
e.

Me:
try
ingt
odowhatexact
ly?

Hi
m: t
ocopewit
hthi
sdistancet
hing.I
t'
ski
l
li
ngme,
notseei
ngy
ou,
nott
alki
ngt
oyou,
not
t
ouchi
ngyou.I
thur
tsYaya.

Me:
soi
sthatwhyy
oudi
stant
?

Hi
m:ofcausenot
.I'
vej
ustbeencaughtupwi
thwor
k

Me:
andspendi
ngt
imewi
thOl
ona

Hi
m:what
?

Me:
i'
m notst
upi
dMel
okuhl
e.

Hi
m:babeIdon'
tknowwhaty
out
alki
ngabout
.

Iremovedmyphonef rom myearandforwar

dedhimt hepi
ctur
eofthetwoofthem ata
rest
aurant
.Thepict
urewassentt omebyLathi
thasomet i
methisweek.Atf
ir
stIthoughti
twas
tospit
eme.Itri
edignori
ngitbutIcoul
dn'
tanymore.

Me:
arey
ousl
eepi
ngwi
thher
?

Hi
m:what
?FuckNo!

Me:
Der
ri
ckMel
okuhl
eBessar
eyousl
eepi
ngwi
thOl
onaMbi
za?

Hi
m:agai
nYandi
swa.No!

Me:
fine.Cal
l
.mewheny
our
eadyt
obehonestwi
thme
Hi
m:whot
hef
ucksenty
out
hisany
way
?Ar
eyoukeepi
ngt
absonmenow?

Me:
excuseme?Sowhati
fIam

Hi
m:don'
tyoudar
est
artsomet
hingy
oucan'
tfi
nishYandi
swa

Me:
twocanpl
ayt
hisgameMel
okuhl
e.

Hi
m:whatgame?Yay
acomeon,
itwasani
nnocentdi
nner
.Iwast
ell
i
nghert
ost
ayawayf
rom
me

Iam phot
ographerandapainter,
myf utur
ecareerdependsonmebeingabl
etol
ookatpi
ctur
es
andanaly
singthem andthatpi
cturedidnotl
ooklikehewastel
l
inghertost
ayaway
.Ther
ewas
moretoitthanjust"
stayaway".

Me:
sur
ethi
ngMrHot
Shot
!//

Idroppedt
hecall
madashell
.Heckmadisanunder
stat
ement
.IwaspissedAsFuck!GodIwas
breathi
ngf
ir
e,t
hat'
showpi
ssedIwas.Howdarehel
ietomeli
kethat
?Whodoeshet hinkIam?

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NCOMESLOVE*

S02E18-Mel
o

It
'sbeenaweeknowandmysi st erwasoutofhospi t
al andlivingwi ththepar entsint he
mansi on.IyaandIwer er egularv i
sitorsatt hehouse, mysi sterwas. ..what'
st hewor d?a
walkingZombi e?Nahshewasn' tthat.Idon' tknowwhi chwor dtousebutshewasn' tf i
ne,yes
shespokebutshespentmostofhert i
mel ockedupi nherr oom, shehadl ostwei ghtandj ust
wasn'tthesame.I 'm surprisedshewasn' tdrinki
ngt hou, Arghbutt henagai nmom hadher
underclosewat ch.Shet ooksomet imeof ffrom wor kt otakecar eofherdaught er.Idon'tknow,
noneofuswer ehandl i
ngt his,seei nghert hewayshewasnowwasj ustpainfulforal lofusand
everyonehadt heirownwayofdeal ingwi thit.OlonaandIhav egrowncl oseandYay aandIar ea
l
itt
ledistantbutwet alkonadai ly.Ol onaisj ustmyst ressbal l
,she'smygot o.Yay acalledmeat
around10pm.Whi chI'
m assumi ngt hetimet hatsidewaspast3pm.Whenshecal l
edIwas
i
nchesdeepi nsideofMi randawhowasr i
dingmesodamngood.Ir anintohert odayaf t
erwork
andonet hi
ngledt oanotherandt hishappenedi nahot el r
oom ar oundUmhl anga.Ist oppedher
andwentt oanswerYay a'scal lbyt hewi ndow.Shewashur ting,disappointed, t
hepai ni nher
voicewascl ear.Whatam Idoi ng?Whyam Idoi ngt hi
st oher ?She' sagr eatgirlandshedoesn' t
deserv
et hi
s.Idon'
tknowwhyIletmy selfhur
therli
kethi
swhenshehasdonenothingbutl
ove
mei nawayInev ert
houghtanygi
rlcould.I'
m anasshol
e.Ajerk.Anymeanwor
dwaswhatI
was.Itri
edcall
ingherbutshewoul
dn'tanswermycal l
s.If
elthandsrubonmynakedupper
body.

Mi
ra:
ever
ythi
ngok?

Ir
emov
edherhandsandt
urnedt
oher
.

Me:t
hiswasamist
ake.Thi
sshoul
dn'thav
ehappenedandI
'
m sor
ryi
tdi
d.Cal
lmewhat
ever
name,I
'
m pr
ett
ysur
ei'v
ealr
eadycal
ledmy sel
f.

Shecuppedmyf
aceandmademel
ooki
ntoherey
es

Her
:Mel
owhat
'sgoi
ngon?

Me:
Iam messi
ngwi
thagoodwoman.Agr
eatwomanandshedoesn'
tdeser
vet
his

Her:
MeloyouandInev
erbr
okeup.YouandIwer
einl
ovewhenIl
eftandwecanpi
ckupr
ight
wherewel
eftof
f

Me:
youdon'
tgeti
t.Il
oveYandi
swa.She'
smyl
i
fe

Her
:yousai
dyoust
il
lhadf
eel
i
ngsf
orme

Me:
Ido.
..Idi
d..j
ust

Sheshutmeupwithaki
ssIbr
okei
t.I
twast
oogoodbutIbr
okei
t.Thi
swasj
ustwr
ong.I
nso
manywayseven.

Me:Mi
rayouagr
eatgi
rlandIdon'
tdeserveyoubutwhatyouandIhadisi
nthepastandwhat
Yay
aandIhavei
sthef
uture.I
'
vehurtherenoughal
readyandIdon'
twantt
oanymore.

Her
:sowhatnow?

Me:
i'
ll
sleepdownst
air
sandy
oucansl
eepher
e.I
'
llcal
lyouanubert
omor
rowmor
ning

Her
:doesn'
ti
tmat
terwhatIwant
?Don'
tyoucar
etoknowabouthowIf
eel
?

Me:
eveni
fyout
ell
mei
twon'
tchanget
hewayIf
eel
aboutYandi
swa.

Her:Meloi
'
vespental
lmyli
fel
ooki
ngf oryoui never
yguyImetorabyguywhot ri
edtoget
closet
omebutnoneofthem wer
ey ou.Icouldn'
tbri
ngmy selft
omov eonbecausetheyweren'
t
youandeveni
fItri
edtodosomet
hingitfeltwrongbecauseIknewt hatt
herewassomeone
backhomewholovesmeasmuchasIl ovethem andthatitwouldn'
tbefai
rint
hem todothi
s
tothem

Me:
younev
ercamebackMi
randa!Youst
ayedawayf
rom me.Why
?

Her
:Iwasscar
ed.Scar
edt
haty
oumayhav
emov
edonandseemi
ngl
yyouhav
e.Iwasscar
ed
t
hathi
stor
ymi
ghtr
epeati
tsel
fandy
oumi
ghtl
eav
eme.

Me:
Ihav
emov
edon

Her
:butshe'
snother
e.She'
smi
l
esaway
,youandIcanbet
oget
heragai
n.i
tcanbel
i
keol
dti
mes

Ishookmyhead.

Me:
Mir
andaIcan'
t.Ihav
eputhert
hroughenoughal
ready

Her
:Mel
oIl
ovey
ou.

Il
ookedather
,Shewassobeaut
if
ul.Whywasitsodamnhardtot
urnawayf
rom herl
i
kei
'
ve
donewit
htherest
?Whywasshebeingdi
ff
icul
t?Whydidshel
oveme?

Her:
Ilov
ey ouDerri
ckandInev
erst
opped.Pl
easegi
veusachance,
theonewemi
ssed.The
onewedidn'thav
e.Please

Shewr appedherar msar oundmyneckandpul l

edmedownt oherlips.Thiskisswasnotl i
ke
Olona'
sorYay a's,herswasdi f
ferent.Wedeepenedt hekissandshepul ledmet owar dst hebed.
Igotont opofherandr ubbedhercooki ejarwhi l
est i
llki
ssingher .I
twaswr ong.Iwant edt o
stopbutIcoul dn't.Icouldn'
tbri
ngmy selftostop.Shewasmoani nginbet weent heki sswhi ch
wasani nvitati
ont ogoi n.Wehadagoodsessi on,whenshewassl eepingIgotupt oshower .I
n
theshowerIcoul dn'tstopthi
nkingaboutev eryt
hingshesai dandev ery
thingYay asai dwhenshe
call
ed.Iwasamanhoe.Igotouroft heshowerandt ookmyphoneandheadedoutt ot he
l
oungewi t
hat owel wrappedaroundmywai st.Idial
ledYay a'
snumberbutst oppedmy selfwhen
i
tstartedringing.WhatwasIdoi ng?Ij ustsleptwithanot hergirlandnowI '
m oucheacal li
ng
another.I
nasi tuati
onlikethi
sIwoul daskmydadf orsomet ipsbutguyhasnev ercheat edon
mom sohewoul donlyjudgeorpr obablyhitmewi thasjambokorsomet hi
ng.Iloggedi non
whatsappandcheckedYay aandshewasonl ineandshehadj ustuploadedast atus,itwasa
pict
ureofagi rl curl
edupandacapt i
onsay ing"Idon'tknowany mor e"
.Inmymi ndI 'm debat i
ng
whethertor espondornot .SoIdecidedt otexther .

*
/Me:
hey

Her
:hi

She'
sal
way
sbeenaqui
ckr
espondernutnott
hist
imear
ound.

Me:
howar
eyouMaf
aku?

Her
:good.You?

Me:
good.Howwasschool
?

Her
:nor
mal
.Howwaswor
k?

Me:
nor
mal
Her
:youcal
l
ed.
..
?

Me:
it'
snot
hingbabe.For
geti
t

Her
:cool

Ikeptqui
etthi
nkingwhattosaynext.Thisisnotournor
mal conv
ersati
on.Wedon' tnor
mally
chatli
ket
his.She'smygir
lfr
iendbutIdon'tknowwhattosaytoherrightnow.Isawhert y
ping
andmyhear tst
artedbeat
ingreal
lyfast
.Whatwasshegoi ngtosay?Pleasedon'tdumpme.

Her:look.Idon'tknowwhatorwhohasy ourattenti
onatthemomentbutit
'sdefini
tel
ynotme.
I'
m notsay i
ngy oucheat ingoranythi
nglikethat,onl
yyouknowwhaty oudoingbutMel okuhl
e
please.Pleasedon' tst
ri
ngmeal ongintothi
nkingthatyouandIcoul
dbemor ethanwhatwear e,
don'ttr
ickmei ntot hi
nkingwehav eaf utur
eifyoudon'tseeoneanymore.I
fy oucan'tdothis
anymor ethenpl easejustsaythewor d.

Ir
eadhertextf
ormoret
han5timestryi
ngtoprocessi
tandmakesenseoutofi
t.I
twaspr
ett
y
cl
earwhatshewassayi
ngbutIj
ustcouldn'
tst
omachit.Iwasf
ucked!

Me:
Maf
akuwher
eist
hiscomi
ngf
rom?

Her: Iwoul
dn'tbeyourgir
lf
ri
endi
fIdi dn'
tnoti
cethelit
tl
ethi
ngs.I
t'
sli
key oudon'tcareanymore.
It
'sli
keI'mjusttheref
oryoutooffl
oady ourprobl
emsorwor kstr
essandt henthat'
sit.Youdon'
t
callanymore,Ihavetobetheonecallingyoutocheckuponev er
ythi
ng.Idon'tknowMel okuhl
e.
Talkt omeplease.Tellmewhat'
swr ong.Tell
mei fyoudon'
tfeelt
hesamewayany more.Just
don'tstr
ingmeal ongthat
'sal
l

Me:Yandi
swayoumyf uture.Icannoti
magi
neafutur
ewit
houtyou.I
'm sor
ryIhaven'
tbeen
doi
ngthethi
ngsyouusedtomedoi ngandIpr
omiseyout
hingswil
lbediff
erent
.Iwil
lbe
di
ff
erent
.Babypl
ease.I
'm sorry

Her:ever
yf i
brei
nmybodyt ell
smet obeli
eveyou.Itt
ell
smet hatI'
m overr
eacti
ngandt hatthe
pict
ureIsawi snotwhatitl
ooksli
kebutthenther
esthatlit
tl
ev oi
cewhi chisnotasloudast he
restandit'
stel
li
ngmet hatwhatIthi
nkofyoureal
lyiswhatitis.I'
mt emptedtoli
stentoit.I
real
lyam butthi
sloveIhaveforyouismakingmeaf ool,anidiot
.Ijustdon'
tknowwhi chv oi
ce
toli
stento.

Me:
Idon'
tknowwhatt
osayr
ightnow.

Her:Mel
oy ouoncegavemespacey
outhi
nkever
ythi
ngt
hrough.I
'
m gi
vi
ngy
out
hatsamespace
r
ightnow.Figur
eoutthi
ngswhi
l
eIdothesame.

Me:
eyYay
a.

Her
:goodni
ght
.It
'dni
ghtt
imet
hatsi
der
ight
?

Me:
yeahi
tis.
Her
:sowhatar
eyoudoi
ng?

Me:
i'
mjustsi
tt
ingchat
ti
ngt
oyou.You?

Her
:I'
minmyr
oom hav
ingwi
newi
tht
hegi
rl
s.

Me:
nice.
..

Her
:bythewayIgott
her
est
rai
ningor
deragai
nstAndr
ewandhe'
sbeensuspendedf
ort
her
est
oft
hesemester
.

Me:
that
'sgoodbabe.Andhav
eyouseenhi
m?

Her
:nope.Il
astsawhi
m whent
heyhadhi
m escor
tedoutofcl
ass

Me:
nice.
..

Her
:any
way
.By
enowandt
hegi
rl
ssay
shi

Me:
byeandt
ell
them Isayhi
.

Her
:(y
)

Me:
:*/
*

Iloggedoutofwhat sappandwentt ogetdressedandt ookmyt hingsandwentt omy

apartment.OnthewayIkeptt hinkingofthi
sconv ersati
onIhadwi thYay a.Iser iousl
yscr ewed
thisup.Imeanhowdi dwegether e?Iputherinaposi tiontostartquest ioningourr el
ationship.
She'snothappyany more.Iparkedoutsidemyf latandtextedMi rat el
lingherIl eftandthatt he
room waspai dforandshecoul dleavewhenshewant st oandal sosenthermoneyf oranuber
thenswitchedmyphoneof fandheadedi nsidemypl acewher eIst artedpacki ngaf ewcl othes
thenIswi t
chedmyphoneont ochar geitfi
l
lwhileIusedmyf latphonet ocal l
theai r
portt o
preparetheBESSPJ.Whenmyphonewasdonechar gingIdrov etot heai r
portandt extedt he
parentsthatIwasgoingtobegonef oraweekort wo.It ol
dthepi l
ott hatIwasheadedt oCal i
.

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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E19

Il
oveMel
okuhl
e.Despi
teev
ery
thi
ngIcan'
tbr
ingmy
sel
ftowal
kawayf
rom hi
m.Ican'
tbr
ing
myselftoleavehi
m.Iknowhe' scheat i
ngonmenodoubtandIwantt oenditwithhim,Ireal
ly
dobutev eryt
imeItrytoleavehim, ev
eryti
meI'
m abouttotexthi
mt hatheandIshoul djustend
thi
ngsonceandf orall,If
indmy sel
ftypi
nganddeleti
ngthatmessage.Youwantt oknowwhy ?
Becausewheny oulov esomeonet hewayIhav ecometoloveMelokuhle,nothi
ngtheydoi s
enoughtomakey oul eaveunti
ly ouarereadyt
owalkaway .Unt
ily
ouar ereadytoleavethem.
Walki
ngawayi sthehar destt
hingonecandoandy oucanonlydoitsuccessful
lywhenandi f
youreadyto.

Ash:
ever
ythi
ngok?

Me:
yep

Ser
:needanot
hergl
ass?

Ishookmyheadandgotupt ositbyt hewindow.WhatdidInotdohuh?Whydoeshedot histo

me?Fi r
stti
mehedi dn'
tcheat,hebrokemyhear tandnowhe' scheat i
ngonmeandi tal
lhurt
s
thesameway .AndLathit
haismaki ngthingssodiff
icul
tbecausei fshedidn'
tspyonmy
boyfr
iendthenthi
ngswouldn'tbethismessedup.I'm apersonwhobel i
evesinthesayi
ng"what
youdon'tknowwon'thurtyou"andit'
sgotmet hisfarandIhav en'
tbeenst r
essi
ngt hewayIam
now.Ifeltahandtouchmycheek.Il ookedupandAshwaswi pingawayat earthatmanagedto
escapemyey es.

Her
:tal
ktous.

Me:
wher
edoIst
art
?

Ser
:thebegi
nni
ngmami
.

Isi
ghed.

Me:
Mel
oischeat
ingonme

Ash:
i'
m sor
rywhat
?

Ser
:howdoy
ouknowt
hat
?

Me:Igotapict
ureaf
ewday
sagoofhi
m andt
hischi
ckheusedt
oscr
ew.Theywer
esi
tt
ingi
na
r
est
auranteati
ng

Ser
:whosenty
out
hepi
ctur
e?

Me: agir
lwhom heoncesl eptwithoutofangerf
orsomethi
ngIsaidordoneorsomet hing
alongthosel i
nes.Buttoblowofsomest eam hesleptwi
thherandthentoldhertol
eave.She
wasn'thappywi thhim andsot orui
ntherel
ati
onshiphewasinattheti
meandal sobecause
shewashur tandmadathi m, shetookanudepicandsentitt
othegirl
fr
iendwhichthenledt
o
thetwooft hem breaki
ngup

Ash:
wai
twhatwasgoi
ngonbet
weeny
ouandMel
otobegi
nwi
th?
Me: soMel oandIwer en'
tclose,wewer en'
tevenfri
ends.Idi
dn'tli
kehim,oratleastIthoughtI
di
dn't.Hestarteddati
ngt hi
sgirlnamedKat e,
thi
ngsbet weenthem weregoodIguessandt hen
Melost ar
tedcatchingfeeli
ngsformeorhedi dt hatev
enbeforedat i
ngKate,Istil
ldon'
tknow
butallIknowist hatwespokeandt hi
ngsgotoutofhandatt hi
spar t
yIwast akingpictur
esin
whichgothi m al
l wor
kedupandl edtohim sl
eepingwit
hLathitha.

Ser
:damnt
hat
'smessedupshi
i
t.Sowhat
?Heusessext
orel
i
evest
ressandt
ensi
on?

Inodded

Ser
:that
'snotr
ightt
hou.Thatoni
tsowni
sapr
obl
em.I
tsoundsl
i
keanaddi
cti
on

Me:
eveni
fiti
sSwhatcanIdo?

Ash:Idon'
tbuythat
.It
'snotanaddict
ion,t
heguyjustl
oveshav
ingsexandthat
'sal
l.Imean
angershoul
dn'
tmakey oudothingsthatwil
lmakeyouhurtt
henextper
son.Weallgetangr
y

Ser:andweal l
havediff
er entway stodealwithitAsh.Melojustchosessex.Heneedsanew
str
ategy,anewwayt odeal wit
hthingsandmay beYayaistheonet ohelphi
m changethings
anddot hem di
ffer
entl
y.Looky oulovet
heguydespi teeveryt
hing,thewayhehandleshisanger
orhurtorwhatevershouldn'tchangehowy oufeelabouthi
m andIknowi tdoesn'
t.Bethe
changeheneedsYay a,theki ndhedidn'tknowheneededi nthef i
rstpl
ace.

Ash:
Ithi
nky
oudr
unk

Weal
ll
aughedi
nthetear
s.Ev
ery
thi
ngSerenasaidwaseyeopening.Theymademer
eal
i
sej
ust
howmuchIl
ovehi
m anddon'
twantt
olosehim evenwi
thever
ything.

Ash:
okIhav
eonepr
obl
em

Me:
weal
lear
s

Ash:whyi sitt
hatwhenaguycheat si
t'
sok,wesupposedt ounderstandt hathehasneedsand
al
lthatotherbull
andthentheresalsothatcr
apaboutnotbei ngabletohandl earel
ati
onship
meaningy ounotcutoutf
ormar ri
ageasi fwomenaret heonlyonest hataresupposedto
conserv
et hemselvesf
ormar r
iage.Whenwi l
lweapplaudthosewomant hatgai
nthestrengt
h
andcouraget owalkawayfrom beingtr
eatedli
ket
rashbyt hesetrashyguy s.

Me:youhav
eapointthereAsh.Al
lourl
i
veswe'
vebeentaughtt
ostayev
enwhent
hegoi
ngget
s
t
ough.Whydon'
ttheyteachmenthesamepri
nci
plest
heyteachuswomen

Ser
:ifonl
yyouguy
sli
stenedt
otheshi
i
tya'
l
lpr
eachi
ngr
ightnow

Ash:i
tsnoteasyt
owal
kaway
.Rel
ati
onshi
par
eli
kepeopl
eandsubst
ances,
it'
snoteasyt
oqui
t.
Thi
nkaboutitguy
s

Me:tr
uethat.Whydowecompl
i
cat
eourownl
i
ves?Imeanwel
etguy
shur
tuswhenr
eal
l
ywe
don'
thav
et oall
owthem t
o.
Wecont i
nueddr i
nking.Wewer ehav i
ngdr ywi ne, Serena' streatofcausebecauseAshandI
prefersweetwi neov erdr yanyday .Event heci der swedr inkoughtt obesweetst uf f.Idon't
knowwhySerpr efersthebi ttertypeofal cohol .
..ormay bei t'
sbecauseofherchosencour se.I
t
wasal readypast8pm now, wedeci dedtogetupandgohi tthecl ub'
s.Weneededt ohav ef un
andf orgetev er
y t
hingI '
m goi ngt hroughwi thMel o.I'ml i
teral l
ytheonl yonei nar elationshipher e
andt heot hertwoar esingle.We' l
lSerrecent lygotoutofonewhenshemov edt hissi de
becauseherboy fr
ienddi dn'twanthert ost udyt hissi de.Soy eah.Andasf orAsh, she' syour
cutev i
rginMar y,kindofr emi ndsmeofAni tabackathome.Speaki ngofNi ta,shewas3mont hs
pregnantandshehasn' tt ol
dBonkeabouti t.She' sseenhi m butshewasn' tshowi ngj ustyetso
shewassaf efornow.Herandhermot herwer euhhmm. ..notr eallyok,i
twashar df orhermom
toacceptt his.Wewer enowi nt hi
sclubupt own, i
t'
sact ual l
yt hosekindofcl ubswher epeopl e
danceont ablesandst uff.Itwassocool bei ngt here, i
twasmyf i
rstti
mebei nginacl ubev er
sinceIcameher e.We'v ebeenat t
endingFr atpar ties.Wegotat ableandor deredsomebooze,
Ashwasal r
eadyl i
tf r
om t hewi ne, tal
kaboutar eal l
ightwei ght.Igotupt ogodance, Iam
Bey oncéwhenI 'm drunk.If eltthisguydancebehi ndme.West arteddancingwi t heachot her
andbynowpeopl ewer ewat chingusdoal l kindsofcool thingsi nthedancef l
oor .Ifeltl
ikeI
wasona' stepup' scene.Whent hesongendedIwal kedbackt oourt abl
eandt hegutsatr ight
nextt ome.

Hi
m:wher
edi
dyoul
ear
ntodot
hat
?

Ichuckl
ed.

Me:
itcomesnat
ural
l
y.

Hi
m:mynamei
sThomas

Me:
Inev
eraskedf
ori
t

Hi
m:Iknowbutit
'st
her
ightt
hingt
odowheny
oumeetsomeoneanddancewi
tht
hem t
heway
wedi
djustnow

Ser
:i'
m Ser
enabyt
hewayandt
hisi
sAsh

Shesai
dwi
thherhandpul
l
edoutt
oThomas.Heshookherhandwi
thasmi
l
e.

Me:
Yandi
swa.Cal
lmeYay
a

Hi
m:ohshi
tpl
easet
ell
meungumxhosa!

Il
ookedatthi
swhi
teguy.Hewascut
enodoubtandt
hewaybesaid'ungumxhosa'
wit
haXhosa
accentmademecuri
oustoknowhi
m.Ihav
en'
tmetanyonef
rom backhomeuponmyar r
ival
so
shootme.

Me:
Iam

Hi
m:f
rom?I
'
mfr
om EastLondonbyt
heway
Me:
i'
mfr
om Mt
hat
ha.Wow.Buty
ouwhi
te

Hi
m:notwhi
te,
col
our
ed.Dadi
sXhosaandmom i
swhi
te.Youbeaut
if
ul

Me:
youdr
unk

Hi
m:Icanst
il
lseecl
ear
lyt
hough.Sowhat
'
syourst
ory
?

Me:
sti
ckar
oundandy
ou'
l
lfi
ndout
.

Hechuckl
ed

Hi
m:y
ou'
reaf
li
rtar
en'
tyou?
!

Hesai
dwi
thasmug.

Me:
what
?No!

Him:l
ist
enIwoul
dlov
etost
ayandchatmor
ebutmyf
ri
endsar
epr
obabl
ywonder
ingwher
eI
vani
shedto

Me:
nicemeet
ingy
ouTom

Hi
m:canIhav
eyournumberori
sitt
oosoon?

Me:
notsoon,
justcl
i
ché

Hi
m:oh.
..sowhatdoIdo?

Me:
somet
hingl
esscl
i
ché.

Him:ok.Letsdoitl
iket
his,t
here'
sadanceclubdownt
own.Iknowthatpar
toft
ownmi
ghtbe
shadyforyoubutit
'sagreatpl
acetobein.Wemeetther
e,whenev
eriti
s

Me:
addr
ess?

Hi
m:gi
mmeapenandpaper

Ichuckl
ed

Hi
m:ohr
ight
..
.youoneoft
hose,
gimmey
ourphone

Me:
youcan'
tgi
mmey
ournumber

Hi
m:no,
Iwantt
owr
it
eyout
headdr
ess.Geeez

Hesaidr
oll
i
nghi
sey
esdramati
cal
lymaki
ngmelaugh.Ihav
ehi
m myphoneandhet
ypedt
his
addr
essi
nmemoandthenhandedmemyphoneback.

Ash:
andt
hat
?
Me:
aguyIwasdanci
ngwi
thont
hedancef
loor

Ser
:cut
e.Hei
sfucki
ngy
ummy

Me:
uhhm okmami

Ser
:don'
tl
ie.

Me:
about
?

Ser
:webot
hknowy
ounot
icedhowy
ummyhewas.

Me:
Ihav
eaboy
fri
end

Ash:
nobodyasked

Me:
okf
inehei
sdr
eamy
.

IthoughtIhadseeni tall
wi t
hMelobutgoodGodThomaswasadr eam.Hehadexot i
ceyes
whichmakesy ouwonderwhatki ndofwhi tepersonhismotheri
s.Thomasl ookedsomething
l
ikeIanSomer halder(DamonSalv at
orfrom Vampi r
eDiari
es)butwi
thgreenisheyes.Hiseyes
weredreamy ,
y ougetlostinthem.Ididn'tevengethissur
namesot hatIcouldstal
khim: /.Wel
l
thatsucks.Aroundofdr inkscamet oourt abl
e.

Ash:
nowedi
dn'
tor
dert
hese

Wai
tr
ess:
theyf
rom agent
lemanwhosai
dhi
snamei
sThomas

Shesai
dwi
thasmi
l
e.

Ser
:tel
lhi
m wesai
dthanky
ouv
erymuch.

Shepl
acedt
hem onourt
abl
eandt
henshel
eft
.

Ser
:hel
i
kesy
ou

Me:
andy
ougat
her
edt
hatbyt
heal
cohol
heboughtus?

I
twascockt
ail
swehadbeendr
inki
ng.

Ash:
trustSer
ena.

Ser
:no.I
t'
sthewayhewasl
ooki
ngaty
oui
diot
.Hecoul
dn'
tkeephi
sey
esof
fyou

Ash:
probabl
ybecauseoft
heshor
tsshe'
swear
ing

Ser
:Ar
ghy
out
woknownot
hing

Shesai
droll
inghereyes.Myfri
endsar
esomethi
ngelse.I
nacutel
ovi
ngway.Thecl
ubname
wasMars.Ionlynot
icedthatwhenwewerewait
ingf
orouruber
.Westoodt
herepat
ient
ly.Whi
l
e
wewer
est
andi
ngt
her
ethesechi
ckscameandst
oodnextt
ouschat
ti
ng.

Chi
ck1:
goshdi
dyouseehi
m mov
e?

Chi
ck2:
hecangeti
t.AndnoI
'
m notsay
ingt
hatbecauseheownst
hiscl
ub

Chi
ck3:
wai
tthi
sishi
scl
ub?

Chi
ck1:
ThomasSt
evensi
saki
ngf
am!Di
dyouseet
hegi
rlhewasdanci
ngwi
th?

Chi
ck3:
theyl
ookedper
fectt
oget
her
.Theymakemagi
c!

Wekeptqui
etandl
ist
enedtothem goonandonaboutt
hisThomasStev
ensguy
.Surel
ythey
wer
en'
ttal
ki
ngabouttheThomasImetright
?Thatguyi
stooyoungt
oownaclubli
kethi
sone.

Ser
:i'
m sor
rybutwhoar
eyouguy
stal
ki
ngabout
?

Chi
ck1:
thedudet
hat
..
.wai
t,y
out
hegi
rlhewasdanci
ngwi
th.wher
edi
dyoul
ear
ntodot
hat
?

Ouruberst
oppedr
ighti
nfr
ontofus.ThankGod!

Me:
nicemeet
ingy
ouguy
sbutwehav
etogonow.By
eladi
es

Isaidpul
l
ingmysquadi
nsi
det
hecar
,Ashr
oom t
hef
rontseatandwewav
edgoodby
etot
he
gir
ls.

Ser
:thatguyownst
hatcl
ub?

Ash:
let
sGoogl
ehi
m.Whatwashi
ssur
nameagai
n?

Ser
:St
evens

Ashpunchedi
nherphoneandt
henst
art
edr
eadi
ng.

Ash:30yearol
dbusi
nessmogult
hrowsthebestpart
yCali
haseverseen!ThomasSt evens,
cl
ubownerofMarsandaf ewmorecl
ubsthr
owshi msel
fathi
rt
iet
hbirt
hdaycelebrat
ionwith
appear
ancesfr
om Ki
m K,Kany
eWest,Ri
hannaandmanymor efamousf aces.
..
..

Me:
letmesee!

Ser
:ify
oudon'
twanthi
m,i
'
llhav
ehi
m!

Ashgav emet hephoneandIcontinuedreading.Thisguyreall

ywastheshiithuh?Idecidedto
giveAshherphonebackandst art
edstal
kinghi m onIG.Therewerepictur
esofhi m wit
h
Rihanna,QueenB(Beyoncé),
IanSomerhalderandmanyot hercel
ebr
it
ies.Thisguyroll
edwi th
thebigdogsy oh!Expl
ainswhyhedidn'
ttellmehi ssurnamebecausehepr obablyknewt hatthi
s
wasex actl
ywhatIwasgoi ngtodo.Yeswegety ournameandsur nameandgost alkguysso
weknowwhatwegetour sel
vesi
nto.

ThenextdayIwokeupwi
thaspl
i
tti
ngonesi
dedheadache.Lucki
l
ywehav
eamedst
udent
who'sfi
rstmissioni
nmedi ci
newastocomeupwi t
hahangovercur epil
landitwasasuccess.
Serenawantstobeagy naebutshel
ovestoexper
imentwit
hotherpar tsofmedici
ne.She
studi
espharmacypar tt
imetoo,
shesaysshedoesn'
twanttodomi nateinonepartonl
y.Sowe
tookthepil
l
swhi chknockedusoutt
hatweendedupwakingupar ound1pm.Weal ll
ookedat
eachotheralll
azytogetupandmakebreakf
astsoAshdecidedtoor derin.

Ser
:lastni
ghtwasl
i
t!

Ash:
i'
m nev
erdr
inki
ngl
i
ket
hatagai
n!

Shesai
dheadi
ngt
othebat
hroom

Ser
:sowhenar
ewegoi
ngt
othecl
ubMrMar
swr
oteony
ourphone?

Me:
he'
sol
d

Her
:Idi
dn'
tsaydat
etheguy
.Ij
ustaskedwhenwegoi
ngdanci
ngbabe.Geeez!

Me:
fine.Wecangot
oni
ght
.Happy
?

Her
:let
shearwhatAshsay
s

Ashwal
kedi
nwi
thherf
acedr
ippi
ngwat
er.

Me:
Wegoi
ngdanci
ngt
oni
ght

Sheshookherhead

Ser
:noal
cohol
Ipr
omi
se!

Ash:
real
l
y?

Inoddedandj ustthentherewasaknockont hedoor,Ashwentt ogetitandi twasourfood.We

l
iter
all
yalll
itupwhenwesawt heplasti
cbag.Igotupt ogobr ushmyt each,Serwentinaf ter
met hem wesatont hefl
oorandst arteddiggingin.Thefoodwassogood.Whydi ditt
astet hi
s
good?Fuck!Wewentt owashonebyoneaf terwehadf i
nishedeati
ngandt henwe
accompaniedSert ogof etchsomet hingtoweart onightandt henwentbackt oourroom.Today
Iworesweatpant s,croptopandheel s.Serenawor eadr essandAshwor eshor t
sandacr op
topwithalonglengthdeni m Jacket.Wer equestedanuberandt ol
dthedr i
verwher etotakeus
andhedrov eusst r
aighttotheclub.Ithadt hatwholedodgyl ookont heoutside.

Ash:
yohsur
ethi
sist
her
ightpl
ace?

Dr
iver
:yest
hisi
sther
ightpl
ace.Tr
ustmei
t'
snotwhati
tlooksI
ikei
nsi
de

Me:
you'
l
lhav
etowai
tforust
ogoi
nandchecki
toutf
ir
st

Hechuckl
ed

Hi
m:okl
adi
es
SerandIwalkedoutandwentt othedoorandbangedonit
,somebuffguyopenedi
tandletus
i
n.Theclublookedli
tasfuck.Discol
ight
sandall
.Peopl
eweredanci
ngandsomedr i
nki
ngand
ever
yonejusthavi
ngfun.Itext
edAshandshecamei n.

Ash:
nice

Thereweren'
tanypl
acestosi
tfr
om wherewewer estandingthatwasinsight.Il
ookedupand
thi
splacewashuge.Ther
ewerestai
rsonthelef
twhichledt oanotherf
loor.Damnthisper
son
mustmakeal otofmoneytoownsuchaplace.Aguyhal fnakedwalkedupt ouswithshot
s.

Hi
m:hel
l
oladi
es.Wel
comet
oD-
Lux.

Wel
ookedateachot
her

Ash:
wenotdr
inki
ngt
oni
ght
.Thanky
ou

Hi
m:gener
alorupst
air
s?

Me:
wher
eisi
tmostf
un?

Hi
m:theact
ionhappenssownher
e.Peopl
ethatsi
tupt
her
ear
eher
etosi
randdr
inkandwat
ch
ev
ery
onedancedownhere

Ser
:gener
ali
tist
hen.Thanky
ou

Hi
m:pl
easur
e

Hewal kedawayandl ef tuswal kingdownt othedancef loor.Peopl eweregat heredinaci r

cle
watchingpeopl edanci ng.Thisclubhadt hathiphopf eelgoingon, I
'
mt alkinggraff
it
ionthe
wall
sandst uff.Wemadeourwayt hrought hecrowdandf oundour selv
esi nthesecondr owof
thecirclewher ewecoul dl i
ter
allyseewhatwashappeni nginsidet hecircle.Thomaswas
dancing, hewassomesor tofaChr isBr own.Myj awwasi nt hefloor,henot i
cedmeandwi nked
atmet hencont i
nueddoi nghist hingunt ilthesongwasov er.Whenhewasdonepeopl emade
thei
rwayi nthecircl
eandst ar
teddanci ngwhi l
ehemadehi swayt omewi thasmi l
e.Fuckt his
guywasmaki ngmef eel thi
ngsaper sonwi thaboy fr
iendshoul dn'tbefeeling!Il
ookedar ound
andthesebi tcheshaddi sappearedonme.Het ookmyhandi ntohi sandt henledust hr
ought he
crowd.Wel andedatt hebar .

Hi
m:y
oucame

Me:
youownMar
s

Hechuckl
edl
i
ght
lyandor
der
edhi
msel
fredbul
l
.

Hi
m:canIgety
ousomet
hingt
odr
ink?

Me:
monst
erwi
l
ldo

Hi
m:monst
erf
ort
hel
ady
Me:
you30.How?

Hi
m:st
ickar
oundandy
ou'
l
lfi
ndout

Me:
tuché.

Hi
m:sowhatmadey
oudeci
det
ocome?

Me:
cur
iosi
ty.

Hi
m:ni
ce.
..nowt
hatnumber

Me:
whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
mey
ouownMar
s?

Hi
m:wedon'
tknoweachot
herl
i
ket
hatbeaut
if
ul.

AndhesaysI'
mthefl
ir
t.Hehadthel
atesti
Phone.
..ofcause.whyam Inotsur
pri
sed?Hegav
eit
tometoentermynumberandsoIdi
dt henhepul
ledmeupt odance.

<3

[
10/
16,
09:
11]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E20-Mel
o

ItwasMonday .Ihadjustlanded, thisplacewasabr eathoff

r eshairasusual
.Beenherebefore
andifst i
lll
ooksasgoodasbef ore.Ihailedacabtodr opmeof fatahot el
.WhenIgottothe
hotel,Ichargedmyphoneandwentt oshowersolong.WhenIwasdoneshower i
ngandpr et
ty
muchev eryhygieneprocess,Iswi tchedmyphoneonandmessagesst art
edfl
oodingit
,Ihada
dozennot ifi
cati
ons.Manymi ssedcal lsfrom myparents,
MirandaandOl ona,t
extsfr
om
everyonewhohasmeonwhat sapp.28hour soffl
yi
ngi snochild'
splayya'
ll
.Ical
l
edmom, she'
s
mor eunder st
andingthanmyf atheris.

/
/Me:
heymom

Her
:hel
l
obaby
.Howar
eyou?

Me:
i'
m goodmom andhowar
eyou?How'
smyt
win?

Her:I
'
m ok.Shei
ssti
l
lthesame.I
'
m scar
edf
orherMel
o.I
'
m wor
ri
edaboutherandwhatshe
mightdotoher
sel
f
Me:
shewoul
dnev
erhur
ther
sel
f.I
'
llcal
lhert
hou

Her
:pl
easedohoney
.SoCal
i
?

Me:
Ihav
etof
ixmyr
elat
ionshi
p

Her
:wannat
alkabout
?

Me:
ever
ythi
ngi
samessMah.

Her
:tal
ktomebaby

Me:
I'
m cheat
ingonYay
a

Shesi
ghed.

Her
:andsheknows?

Me:
shehashersuspi
cions

Her
:whydi
dyoucheatonher
?

Ishr
ugged.Whydi
dI?

Me:Idon'
tknowMah.Iguessi
t'
stheonl
ywayIknowhowt
ohandl
ewi
thev
ery
thi
ngt
hat
'sbeen
goi
nginlat
ely

Her:
Nahthat'
snottr
uebaby.Thi
nkofsomet hi
ngelse.That
'sjustanexcuseMel
okuhle.I
fyou
t
ir
edofbeingi
nar el
ati
onshi
pthengetoutofitandstophurt
ingsomebodyelse'
schi
ld.

Me:
mom Il
oveYandi
swa.Ij
ustdon'
tknowwhat
'
swr
ongwi
thme

Her
:youdon'
tcheatonsomeoneyoulovebaby
.Imagi
nesomeonedoi
ngwhaty
oudoi
ngt
o
Yay
atoAsemahle.Howwouldyoufeel
?

Wel
lthat
'sf
oodf
ort
hought
.

Me:
Iwoul
dpr
obabl
yki
l
lhi
m

Her:
soy aya'
sdadshouldkil
lyou?Youdon'
tdeser
veherbabyandwi t
ht hewayy
ougoingon,
yougoingtoloseher
..
.that
'si
fyouhaven'
tal
ready
.Youluckybecauseifyouwer
edat
ingme,I
wouldhavedumpedy oualr
eady

Me:
thankGodI
'
m notdat
ingy
ou

Her:
butontherealMelo.Gr
owup.Thesechil
dishact
swon'tgety
ouany
wher
e.I
fyouwant
whatyourf
atherandIhave,
you'
l
lhavetoputi
nt hework.

Me:
yesmom Iheary
ou
Her:andnextt
imebeforey
out
akeof
fsomegi
rl
sunder
wear
,thi
nkaboutsomeonecheat
ingon
yourdaught
erorsi
ster

Me:
yesMom.Thanky
ou

Her
:any
time.Ihopet
hingswor
koutbet
weeny
out
wo.Iwoul
dhat
efory
out
oloseher

Me:
Ihopesot
oo.

Her
:okby
ebaby
.Il
ovey
ou

Me:
byemom.Il
ovey
oumor
e//

Iansweredaf ewtextsandt henorderedbreakfast

.Iwashungr yasaMF* .Iatemyf oodand
thengotinbedandsl ept.Iwasgoingt oseeYay awhenI '
ml essti
red.Iwokeupar ound1pm
andwentt owashmyf acethenchangedi ntojogger
s.,sneakersandat -
shirt
.Ical
l
edacarhi ri
ng
servi
ceandwai t
edf orthem todeli
veritt
henf i
ll
edinthepaperwor kandt ookmyst uffwhi
le
call
i
ngYay a.Atfi
rstshedidn'tanswerthensheansweraf t
erawhi l
e.

/
/Her
:hey

Me:
heybabeHowar
eyou?

Her
:I'
m goodt
hanky
ouandhowar
eyou?

Me:
alsogoodt
oo.Wher
ear
eyouandwhatar
eyouupt
o?

Her
:Ij
ustgotoutofcl
assandnowI
'
m meet
ingSer
enaatt
hecaf
eter
ia.Why
?

Me:
wheni
syourl
astcl
ass?

Her
:theoneIj
ustgotoutof
..
.

Me:
okcool
.

Her
:okt
hen.By
e

Me:
bye/
/

Idroveof ftoafl
owerst oreandboughtr edrosesandchocolatesandgoodi esthendrovet oher
uni
v ersit
y.WhenIwaspar kedoutsideIcalledhert ocomeoutsidet hey ar
dtoaBl ackFerrari
.
Shewasscept i
calatfi
rstbutshef i
nallycameandshewasl ookingbeaut i
fulasusual,so
beautifulIal
mostdidn'
tr ecogni
seher .Shehadhernat ur
alhai
rdy edcopperr edtiedupinabun,
wear i
ngabl ackshortj
umpsui twithar edcour theelandawhitebl azer.Wow!Shewal kedov er
tomewi thasmile,Iwashol di
nghert hingsstandingbythecardoor .

Her
:whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Me:
canIgetahugf
ir
st?
Iputt
het hi
ngsinthefrontsi
tandthensheat
tackedmewit
hahugandIspunheraround.Fel
t
goodtosmel l
herperfumeagain,t
ohaveheri
nmyar msagain.Shewast
ini
ert
hanIremember,
l
ight
erthanbefore.Iputherdown.

Her
:Ican'
tbel
i
evey
ouher
e

Me:
bet
terbel
i
evei
t.Youl
ostwei
ght

Shel
ookeddown.Ir
aisedherheadupwi
thmyi
ndexf
ingermaki
ngherl
ookatme.

Me:
Iknowi
t'
smyf
aul
tandIpr
omi
set
omaket
hingsr
ight
.

Shesmi
l
ed

Her
:youher
enowandt
hat
'
sal
lthatmat
ter
s.Whendi
dyougether
e?

Ipul
l
edhercl
osert
omewhi
l
eleani
ngont
hecarandsheputherar
msar
oundmyneck.

Me:
thi
smor
ning.CanIgetaki
ss?

Shet
ipt
oedandwesharedakiss.Ihadfor
got
tenhowsof
therl
i
pswer
e.Thi
swashome.Thi
s
wasj
ustwhathadbeenmissi
nginlif
e.Shebr
okeit
.

Me:
Imi
ssedy
ou

Her
:Imi
ssedy
out
oo.Sowher
edoy
oul
i
ve?

Me:
somehot
elupt
own.Sowher
edoy
ouwantt
oeat
?

Her
:i'
veal
readyeat
ensowecanj
ustgogr
abdr
inksi
nst
ead

Me:
wannast
artaty
ourr
oom t
ooutt
heseor
?

Her
:Nahl
et'
sjustgo

Iopenedt
hedoorforherandt
ookhert
hingsandputt
hem i
nthebackandthenshegoti
n,I
cl
osedthedoorbehi
ndherandwentt
ogetinmysideanddrov
eoff.Shekeptst
eal
inggl
ances
atme.

Me:
what
?

Her
:youj
ustsohot
!

Ichuckl
ed.

Me:
yousoundt
urnedon

Her
:may
beIam

Shegi
ggl
ed.Idr
ovet
othehot
elandt
henwewentupi
ntheel
evat
ort
oget
herandwentt
omy
room.Theminut
ethedoorclosed,shepi
nnedmeont hedoorandst
art
edkissi
ngmewhil
e
str
ippi
ngmyclot
hesoff.Ihel
pedhertakehercl
othesof
fandthenpi
ckedherupandl
edhert
o
thebed.Shewasnowleftinherunder
wearandIinmybrief
s.

Me:
sti
l
loncont
racept
ives?

Iaskedherbetweenthekissandshenodded.Iki ssedherwhil
et aki
ngherbraof fthenwent
downtoherst omachall
thewaydownt oherunder wear
.Yayaist heonlyoneIgodownon.
OlonaandMi r
andahaven'thadthatpri
vil
ege.Itookherunder
wearof fandkissedherbet ween
herthi
ghsmaki ngmywayupt ot hecake.ItwasjusthowIlef
tit.Shewaswetal ready.Yep
that
'st
heeffectIhaveonmymunchki n.Shewasmoani ngalr
eady .Ist
artedl
icki
nghercl i
t
makinghercryoutinpl
easure.Iateherupunt i
lshecameandt henIl i
ckedherjuicesthenwent
uptokissher.Iwasabouttogoi nwhenshet oldmet oputonacondom.

Me:
real
l
y?

Her
:yes.Idon'
tknowwhoy
ou'
vebeenf
ucki
ngandwhati
nfect
ionsordi
seasest
heyhav
e.

Ouch!

Igotupandsearchedf
orcondomsi
nmywal letandIhadt
wo. .
.Isl
i
ppedoneonandt henwent
backtoherandwehadsex.Whenwewer edoneIwenttodisposeofitandjoi
nedheri
nbed.
Sheputherheadonmychestandwrappedmyar m ar
oundhershoulders.

Her
:it
sbeent
oodamnl
ong

Me:
mh

Her
:ify
out
hinki
'
llapol
ogi
sef
orwhatIsai
d,shameony
ou.

Me:
babe

Her:letmef ini
sh.Iknowy ou'vebeensleepingwi t
hsomeonei nmyabsence.Igetit,youhave
needsbutsodoI .Thedifferencebetweeny ouandIi st hatIcankeepmypant scl
osed,I'
m used
tobeinghor nyandf orgetti
ngabouti tbutyouar eclearl
ynot .Partoft
hatisprobabl
ymyf ault
becauseIkindofmadey ougetusedt ogettingitwhenev ery ouwanteditandwiththatmindset
I'
m will
ingtomov epastit.I'
m will
ingtojustleti
tslidebugonl yi
fwheny oubackinSAy ouwon't
doitagain.Thisisy ourlastchanceMel okuhleandI 'm deadser i
ous.Idon'
twanttohearany
apologyorpr omiseorwhat everandalsodon' twantt oknowhowmanyt heywere.I'
m bett
eroff
notknowi ngany way.

Iki
ssedt
het
opofherhead.She'
stooamazi
ngf
orme.Ir
eal
l
ydon'
tdeser
veher
.She'
stoogood.

Me:
thanky
ou

Shel
ookedupatmeandki
ssedme

Her
:lastchance!
Me:YayaIal
waysusedacondom.Iknowy
oudon'
twantt
obel
i
evemebutIswearonmyl
i
feI
di
dn'
thavesexwit
houtacondom

Her
:youcan'
tbl
ameme

Me:
doest
hismeanwenev
erhav
ingsexwi
thoutacondom?

Her
:Nev
er!

Wow!Rawsexi st
hebestthingeverthou.Imeannot hi
ngcompar esorcomesclosetoi
t.What
doesshemeannev er?Ikepttr
yingtopr ocesswhatshejustsai
d.Herphonerangwhil
eIwas
sti
ll
thi
nking.Shegotoutofmyar msandwentt olookfori
tandansweredit
.Iwatchedherl
ook
fori
tnaked.Fuckshewassexy !Justlookingatherwasenoughtomakemydi ckgohardagai
n.

/
/Her
:Thomashey

.
..
.

Her
:I'
m notoncampusatt
hemoment

.
..

Her
:I'
m wi
thmyboy
fri
endatsomehot
el

.
..
.

Her
:tomor
rowi
nst
ead?I
'
llcal
lyouaf
tercl
ass

.
..
.

Her
:Ipr
omi
se

.
..

Her
:pi
nki
epr
omi
se!

.
..
.

Her
:by
eMar
s!/
/

Sheturnedaroundwit
hasmil
e.Ok?Am Imi
ssingsomethi
ng?Mybonerhadl
i
ter
all
ygonedown.
Ifeel
disrespect
ed.Whoi
sthi
sThomas?Shejoinedmeundert
hecover
sandputherheadon
mychest .

Me:
Ngubani
uThomas?(
whoi
sthomas?
)

Her
:af
ri
endofmi
ne

Shesai
dsi
tt
ingup
Me:
whatki
ndoff
ri
endmakesy
ousmi
l
eli
ket
hat
?

Her
:si
ncewhendowedot
his?Youquest
ioni
ngme

Me:
arey
ousl
eepi
ngwi
tht
hisguy
?

Shechuckl
edindi
sbel
ief
.Shegotoutoft
hecov
ersandwentt
otheshower
.Igotupand
fol
l
owedherinsi
detheshower
.

Me:
Iaskedy
ouaquest
ionYandi
swa

Iy
ankedherar
mtur
ninghert
ofaceme.

Her
:jeal
ous?

Ishookmyheadl ooki
ngather
.IfIwasanabuserornotaf
rai
dtohi
tawomanIpr
obabl
ywoul
d
haveslappedher
.Shewaspissi
ngmeof f

Her
:unli
keyouIdon'
tgoaroundscrewi
ngany
thi
ngthathassomet
hingdangl
i
ngbet
weent
hei
r
l
egs.Sotoansweryou.NoI'
m notsl
eepi
ngwi
thhim.

Iwantedtobeli
evehernutatt
hesamet i
meIdi dn'
twantt
obecauseasmuchasshewast i
ght
,
gir
lshavetr
icksandtr
adesofkeepi
ngtheirthi
ngyti
ght
.Thesmugonherf acewasreall
y
annoyi
ngandmadei tsohardtobel
iev
eher .Shewashedupandgotouttodryherbodyand
wrapatowel ar
oundherbody.It
ookoneofmyownandwr appeditar
oundmywai stand
fol
lowedher.

Me:
i'
m sor
ry

Her
:youdon'
tev
enknowt
hemeani
ngoft
hatwor
d.Don'
tev
erusei
tonmeagai
nMel
okuhl
e.

Shel
oti
onedherbodyandt
henst
art
edget
ti
ngdr
essed.

Her
:pl
easet
akemebackt
ocampus

Me:
Maf
akucomeon

Her
:no.YoucomeonMel
okuhl
e.Justdr
ivemebackt
ocampus

Igotdr
essedi
nthecl
othesIwaswear
ingt
hent
ookmywal
l
etandkey
sandwal
kedoutbehi
nd
her.

Her
:i'
venev
erknowny
out
obei
nsecur
e

Shesai
dasIst
art
edt
hecar

Me:IknowIscr
ewedupandIknowyoudon'
twanttoheari
tbutI
'
mreal
l
ysor
ry.If
uckedup.I
f
uckedusup.IknowandIhat
emyselff
orit
,Ir
eal
lydoa..
.

Her
:andi
fyoucoul
dundoi
tal
ltheny
ouwoul
dri
ght
?I'
mtr
yingt
otr
usty
oubutt
rusti
sli
kea
mi
rr
or,
youcanf
ixi
tifi
t'
sbr
okenbutt
hecr
ackswi
l
lal
way
sbet
her
e.Pl
easedr
ive

Wedr ovei
nsil
enceal
lthewaytohercampus.Wegotther
eandIpar
kedneart
hegat
e,shewas
abouttoopenwhenIl
ockedthedoors.Shet
urnedt
olookatme

Me:
canweev
erbet
hewayweoncewer
e?

Her
:Idon'
tknow.Cany
oukeepi
tiny
ourpant
sfort
her
estoft
hey
ear
?

Me:
Ican

Her
:thenwecanbet
hewayweoncewer
e.

Sheki
ssedmycheek

Her
:pl
easeopent
hedoor

Me:
howar
ewe?

Her
:wef
ine.Wegood

Iunlockedthedoor
sandshewalkedoutwi
tht
het
hingsIhadboughtherear
li
er.Igott
othe
hotelandintheel
evat
orImett
hesetwoguys.

Guy1:
arey
ouf
rom ar
oundher
e?

Me:
Nah.Justher
etoseemygi
rl
fr
iend.You?

Guy1:
i'
m gi
vi
ngat
alkatt
heuni
ver
sit
ythi
sWednesday

Me:
howol
dar
eyou?

Theybot
hchuckl
ed

Guy2:
22.He'
sapr
..
.hewor
ksf
orNeel
Cor
psohe'
sher
est
andi
ngi
nforhi
sfat
her

Guy1:al
sobecauset
her
e'st
hisgi
rlIl
i
keatt
heuni
ver
sit
y.Thenamei
sMi
chael
Neel
andt
hisi
s
Scot
tWarren

Me:
Der
ri
ckBess

Scot
t:Ii
nter
natBESS.Ar
eyoui
nany
wayr
elat
edt
oDamonBess?

Me:
he'
smyf
ather
.Wai
tyou'
reaNeel
.You'
reaPr
ince?

Hisf
atherandmi
nedobusi
nesst
oget
her
.We'
l
lIsawsomef
il
esi
nmydad'
sof
fi
cet
heot
herday
.
Scot
tlaughed

Scot
t:t
oldy
ouy
oursur
namewoul
dgi
vey
ouaway
.

Mi
cah:
lat
erwegoi
ngoutf
ordr
inks.Wantt
ojoi
nus?
Me:
yeahsur
eI'
m game.

Wel
i
vedi
nthesamef
loor
.Wecont
inuedt
alki
ngandweendedupt
alki
ngaboutr
elat
ionshi
ps.

Scot
t:i
'
m notonet
ogi
ver
elat
ionshi
padv
icebuty
ouf
uckedupdude

Wewer
einMi
cah'
sroom shar
ingabot
tl
eofHennessy
.

Mi
cah:
fixi
tman.I
fyour
eal
l
ylov
ethi
sgi
rl
,fi
xit
.

Me:
i'
mtr
ying

Mi
cah:
thi
ngswi
l
lwor
kouti
ntheend.

Scot
t:sowhoi
sthi
sgi
rl
?

Me:
Yandi
swaGxabaanar
tst
udentsl
ashphot
ogr
apher
.Bestt
her
eis

Scot
t:dude!

Us:
what
?

Scot
t:wehav
ingapai
nti
ngatt
heof
fi
cebyy
ourgi
rl

Me:
she'
smaki
nganamef
orher
sel
f

Mi
cah:
youmustbepr
oud

Me:youhavenoideaguys!Therewasanar
texhi
biti
onaboutamonthagoandshesol
dallher
pai
nti
ngsandpict
ures.Therevi
ewswereal
lposi
ti
ve,someofherbuy
ersweref
rom ot
herstat
es.

Scot
t:y
our
eal
l
yar
epr
oud.Youseem l
i
key
oul
ovet
hisgi
rl

Me:
mor
ethanany
thi
ng

Mi
cah:
justnotasmuchasy
oul
ovesex

Theyal
lcr
ackedupi
nlaught
er

Me:
Idon'
tknowguy
s.Shi
i
thappens

Scot
t:y
eahi
tdoes.

Wecont inuedchatti
ngandi twasdecidedthatwegot othi
sclubnamedMar s.Appar
ent
lyi
t'
s
theshii
t.Itwasjustafter8,Imustsaytheseniggaswerepret
tycoolandwegottoknoweach
otheronamor epersonallevel
too.Wegott oMar sandt
heclubwasl i
t.Wegotatabl
eand
orderedar oundofdrinks.

.
<3

[
10/
16,
12:
33]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E21

SoSat urdayni ghtwasl i

t,Ididn'tdr i
nkanyal cohol icbev erages, goest oshowt haty oucanhav e
l
otsorf unev enwi thoutdrinking.SoThomascal ledmeSundaymor ningandt ookmet oChur ch
thent ookmeoutf orlunch.Howmanyguy sdot hat ?Sowewentoutf orlunchandhet ol dme
bit
sandpi ecesabouthi m.Hi sreal parentsdi edi nacarcr ashwhenhewas3mont hsol dand
sohi spar ent sfriendswhower ehi sGodpar entsadopt edhi m andr aisedhi m ast heirown.
Expl ainst hecompl exi
onandey es.Youknowwheny ouspendt i
mewi thsomeoneandy ou
suddenl yf orgetev erythi
ngy ougoi ngt hrough?That 'showThomasmademef eel ,
hemademe
forgetMel oandt hedr amahehasbr oughtuponmyl ife.Thomasseemsl ikeagr eatguy ,a
breat hoff reshai r,somethi ngnew, somet hingi nter esting, hemakesy ouwantt oknowmor e
abouthi m andt hetimewespentt oget her
,itflewbyt ooqui ck.Onemi nutei t
'
s1pm andt henext
thi
ngi t's7pm andweonour6t hor7t hdr i
nkandourt hir dmeal accompani edbydeser t.Al l
I'
m
say ingi sthatIenj oyedmyt i
mewi thhi m.Al it
tlet oomuchf orsomeonei nar el at
ionship.Oh
Thomasi ssingl ebyt hewayandhi slastgirlf
riendcheat edonhi m wi thal essbusyguyandf ell
pregnantwi tht hedudeski d.Isn'titfunnyhowsadi tiswhenaguyget scheat edonbuti t'
sal l
differentwhenagi r
lgetscheat edonbecausei t'
s" nor mal "forgirlstobecheat edon?St upid
ri
ght ?Mar s; that'swhatIcal lhi
m now, hehasn' tdat edany onesi nceherandhehasn' tbeen
l
ooki ngf oranyr elati
onship, atthemomenthe' sjustscr ewi ngsomegi rlf
r om myschool i
n
retur nhepr ov i
desf orherwhat ev ersheneeds, he'sbasi callyabl esser.WhenIgothomet he
gir
lswer easki ngmedozensofquest ionsaboutourl unchsl ashdi nner.

Mel o'
sarr
ival
tookmebysur pr
ise.Iwashappyandal itt
leshook.Ijustwasn'texpecti
nghi mto
showup.Especi al
lynow, wit
hev eryt
hing,ever
ythingbeingmeetingThomas.Icannev erbewi t
h
Thomast houbecauseoft heli
fehel eads,I
'
m notcutoutt obeablesseeshame.ImustsayI
missedthesex.FuckIneededt hat!Ineededhim, theuseofacondom wasj ustt opunishhim.I
enjoyrawsexwi thMel obutIneedhi mt oseetheser i
ousnessofhim cheating.YesIfor gave
him andIbeli
ev ethattheyusedacondom butf ornowIj ustwanttopunishhi m andImustsay
I'
m enjoy
ingthis.Aftertheamazingandal i
tt
leuncomf ortabl
esexwehadmyphoner ang, I
somewhatknewi twasThomasbecausewewer esupposedt ogooutf orl
uncht odayaf terhi
s
meet i
ngbutBaehappened.

/
/Me:
Thomashey

Hi
m:heyYay
a.Wher
ear
eyou?

Me:
I'
m notoncampusatt
hemoment

Hi
m:whenar
eyoucomi
ngback?Imi
ssy
ourass
Me:
I'
m wi
thmyboy
fri
endatsomehot
el

Hi
m:het
ooky
out
oahot
el?Whatguydoest
hat
?We'
l
lhav
ethi
sconv
ersat
ioni
nper
son

Me:
tomor
rowi
nst
ead?I
'
llcal
lyouaf
tercl
ass

Hi
m:gi
rl
snev
ercal
lbyt
hewaybutwhat
ever

Me:
Ipr
omi
se

Hi
m:Iwanty
out
opi
nki
epr
omi
se

Me:
pinki
epr
omi
se!

Hi
m:ok.By
enow.Gobackt
oyourboy
fri
end!

Me:
byeMar
s!/
/

Conversati
onswithThomaseitherl
eavemelaughingorsmili
ng,whi
chcl
earlydi
dn'
tmakeMelo
happybuthehasnor i
ghtt
obemadbecauset here'
snothinggoi
ngonthere.Heisj
ustaf
ri
end
andheknowsi t.Butnever
thel
essIgotbackt
omyr oom andAshwassit
ti
ngonherbedwr i
ti
ng
something,shestoppedwhensheheardmewal kin.

Her
:Thomas?

Me:
Mel
o

Her
:noway
!

Inodded

Her
:nof
ucki
ngway
!He'
sher
e?

Me:
yep

Her
:romant
icguy

Me:
Isor
tofaskedhi
mforabr
eakandsuddenl
yhe'
sther
omant
ict
ype

Her
:gi
vet
heguysomecr
edi
t.Hef
lewal
ltheway

Me:
yeahwel
l

Her
:let
ssee

Shej
umpedont
opofmybedandgr
abbedt
het
hingsi
nmyhandandwentt
hrought
hem.

Her
:goodt
ast
e.Comel
etseaty
ourgoodi
es

Ichuckl
edandj
oinedheri
nbedt
ell
i
ngheraboutmydaywi
thbae.
Her
:wow!

Me:
yep

Her
:quest
ion.

Me:
doIhav
eachoi
ce?

Her
:yesbuti
'
llaskany
way
.Doy
oul
i
keThomas?

Me:
no

Ididn'
tevenhavetot
hi nkaboutit.Idi
dn'tf
eelathi
ngforThomas.Yeswedancegr eattoget
her
butIenjoydanci
ngwithmyMel oev enmore.YesMeloisabett
erdancerthanThomas.Thomas
I'
dliket
hoseMagicMi kedancers/ Fl
ashmobandMel oisaChri
sBrownont hedancefloor.A
cl
eandancer .Okmaybet hatdoesn'tmakeanysenseseeingt
hatIcompar edThomast oChri
s
Brownbef or
ebutMelost i
llt
akest hecup.Thomasisalit
tl
ebi
tofastreetdancer.

Her
:sur
e?

Me:
yep

Her
:butt
hewayy
ouguy
sdancet
oget
her

Me:
youshoul
dseemedancewi
thMel
o

Her
:hecandance?

Inoddedwithasmi l
ethi
nki
ngaboutthatnightattheclubwhenwef i
rstkissed,whenhewas
sti
l
ldati
ngKate,ohbutthethi
ngswedidont hatdancefl
oor.Damn!Wecont inuedour
conver
sati
onuntilwedeci
dedongoingt ogetsomet hi
ngtoeat.Weendedupsmoki ngweed
andnowwehadt hemunchies.Wetookawal ktothi
sotherpl
aceoutsideourcampuswhi ch
makesthebestbraaiwit
hfri
es.Onourwaybackt ocampusIsawMar s'carparkedbyt hegate
andachickgotoff.sohewasn'tl
yi
ngaboutseei ngsomeonef r
om myschool ,thi
ngi shebarel
y
tal
ksabouther
,wespendal otofti
met ogetherthati
t'
salit
tl
eshocki
ngt oknowt hatshereal
ly
exi
sts.

Ash:
isn'
tthatThomas?

Me:
yeahi
tis

Her
:sohewasn'
tl
yi
ngaboutseei
ngt
hisgi
rl

Me:
Iguessnot

Iwasn'
tev
enbummedoutbyt
hisi
mage.Hedr
oveof
ftoourdi
rect
ionandst
oppednextt
ous.

Hi
m:l
adi
es.Youl
i
ed!

Hesai
dpoi
nti
ngatme
Ash:
hiandby
e.Seey
ouoncampus

Me:
Idi
dnotl
i
e.Wai
twhatdi
dIl
i
eabout
?

Hi
m:notbei
ngoncampus

Me:
Icamebackaf
ewhour
sago

Hi
m:y
ouwoul
dthi
nkwi
thbaei
ntowny
oumi
ghtj
ustspendt
heni
ght

Me:
it'
sMonday
.Ihav
ean8am t
est

Hechuckl
edandIj
ustshr
ugged

Hi
m:whatdot
heyt
esty
ouguy
son?Col
our
sofpai
nt?Col
our
sofcl
ay?

Il
aughed.Iwasn'
treadyfort
hatoneey
.Weal
way
smakef
unofeachot
her
schosencar
eer
s,i
n
mycasechosencour se

Me:
fucky
ou!

Hel
aughedev
enhar
der
.

Hi
m:ar
eyoust
oned?

Ishookmyhead.

Hi
m:y
oust
oned.Yourey
esgav
eyouaway
.Geti
n

Me:
why
?

Hi
m:causey
ougott
hemunchi
es

Me:
AshandIal
readyboughtmunchi
es

Hi
m:f
ine.Seey
out
omor
row?

Me:
yep

Hi
m:ok.Nowr
unal
ongl
i
ttl
emouse

Icoul
dn'
thel
pbutl
augh

Me:
li
tt
lemouse?That
'snew

Hi
m:y
ourf
eetar
eti
ny

Me:
no!Youasi
ze10!

Hi
m:andy
ouhal
fofi
t
Me:
Arghwhat
ever
.By
e!

Hi
m:comebyMar
sify
ougetbor
edofst
udy
ing

Me:
Imakenopr
omi
ses

Hi
m:f
inebyme.By
eforr
eal
now

Me:
bye.

Iwalkedof
f,whenIturnedhewassti
ll
ther
e,notmoving.It
ext
edhi m andbesaidhewantsto
seemegetinsidet
hecampusandt henhecandriv
eof f
.Cheesy!Igottomyr oom andAshwas
al
readyhal
fway.Ij
oinedherandst
art
edeati
ngmyf oodwhichwasheav enl
y.Ist
udiedal
it
tl
e
andwhenIwasbor edItext
edMarstocomef et
chmeandhewasmor ethanwil
li
ng.

Me:
MrMar
s

Hi
m:Li
tt
leMouse

Me:
canIgetapl
anetnameandnott
hisl
i
ttl
emouset
hing

Isai
drol
l
ingmyey
es

Hi
m:ok,
Plut
othen

Me:
it'
sbar
elyapl
anet

Hi
m:j
ustl
i
key
ou.Youbar
elyhuman

Ihi
thi
sshoul
derandhest
art
edl
aughi
ng.Laught
eri
scont
agi
ousbecauseIf
oundmy
sel
f
l
aughi
ngtoo.

Hi
m:y
ouhi
tli
keaman

Me:
igr
ewupwi
thmal
ecousi
ns.

Hi
m:makessense.Youpr
obabl
ylef
tamar
konmyar
m

Hesai
dpout
ing

Me:
you'
l
lgetusedt
oit

Hi
m:what
?

Me:
what
?Yousi
l
lyandy
oual
way
spi
cki
ngonmesoy
ou'
l
lgetusedt
oit

Hi
m:Ican'
thel
pit
.Sowhi
chsongt
oni
ght
?

Me:
sist
erbet
ti
na

Hecr
ackedupi
nlaught
er
Him:youki
ddi
ngr
ight
?Myki
ndofpeopl
edon'
tdancet
osuch.May
bedownt
ownt
heywoul
dbut
nothere

Me:
okf
ine.Tur
nupt
hemusi
c

Hi
m:nowwet
alki
ng.Remi
xor
?

Me:
remi
x..
.duh!

Ir
oll
edmyey
esandhel
aughedatme

Hi
m:don'
tdot
hat
.Youl
ookugl
y

Me:
ouch!

Heparkedandwegotoffthenwenti
n.Iwaswear
ingalooseshort,
li
ker
eall
yshor
tsi
l
kypur
ple
j
umpsuitwit
hablackwedgeandmyhai ri
namessybun.Wewal kedupandhegavet
hedja
USBthenweheadedbackdown.

Hi
m:adr
inkf
ir
st?

Me:
Iwantashot

Hi
m:y
ouwr
it
ingt
omor
rowmor
ning

Me:
andanener
gydr
inkwon'
tmakemef
all
asl
eepeasi
l
y

Hef
rownedandsqui
ntedhi
sey
esatmef
orami
nut
e.

Hi
m:f
ine.Oneshot

Me:
3

Hi
m:2orel
seIdr
ivey
oubackt
ocampus

Me:
i'
m noty
ourbl
essee,
youdon'
tgett
ocont
rol
me

Hi
m:f
ine.

Ihadmyt hr
eeshotsandthen"our
"songcameon.Hepul
ledmetothedancefl
oorwher
ewe
dancedunti
lIf
eltsomeoneyankmet ot
hem.Il
ookedupanditwasMelo.Thef
uckwashe
doingher
e?

Hi
m:y
oupar
tyonschool
night
snow?

Me:
canwenotdot
his

Wewer
edanci
ngandt
alki
ngatt
hesamet
ime.Isai
dthatt
urni
ngonl
ytof
indThomasgone.

Hi
m:sowhat
?Ar
eyouguy
sat
hingnow?
Me:
what
?No!St
opbei
ngj
eal
ousandi
nsecur
e.I
t'
snotsexy

Hi
m:y
oumygi
rl
fr
iendYandi
swa.Youcan'
tbedanci
ngl
i
ket
hatwi
thsomeguyi
nacl
ub

It
urnedawaybuthepul
l
edmet
ohi
m.

Me:
letgoofmyar
m bef
oreIembar
rassy
ou

Hi
m:no.Wal
kawayandIwi
l
lembar
rassy
ou

OkMel oiscr
azyandheiscapable.Nedoesn'
thav
earepher
e,Idoandthelastt
hingIwanti
s
toruini
t.Hepull
edmeawayf r
om thedancefl
oortot
hemen'
sroom whereheshov edi
ntoa
cubicl
eandlockedt
hedoorafter
.

Hi
m:t
hef
uckwast
hat
?

Me:
Ishoul
dbeaski
ngy
out
hat

Hi
m:i
sthi
swhaty
ou'
vebeendoi
ng?Danci
ngl
i
keasl
ut

Isl
appedhi
m sohar
dhehel
dhi
scheek

Me:
mov
e.

Hi
m:no.

Me:
Mel
okuhl
edon'
ttestme.Isai
dmov
e

Hi
m:why
?Soy
oucangobackt
ohi
m?

Me:
may
beIj
ustmi
ghtdot
hat
.Nowmov
eoutofmyway

Hi
m:y
oumygi
rl
fr
iendYandi
swa

Me:whendi
dyour
eal
i
set
hathuh?Bef
oreoraf
tery
oucamewheny
ouandOl
onawer
ehav
ing
sex

Hi
m:ohcomeondon'
tber
idi
cul
ous.Thati
sbesi
det
hepoi
nther
e.

Me:
whenIsai
dI'
m gi
vi
ngy
ouspace,
Imeanti
t.Fi
gur
eyour
sel
fout

Hi
m:sot
haty
oucanbebusywi
tht
hatguyr
ight
?

Iwasget
ti
ngsi
ckoft
his.Mel
oisdr
unk,
it'
susel
essar
gui
ngwi
thhi
mli
ket
his.

Me:
yes.Nowgetoutofmyway
,he'
swai
ti
ngf
orme

Hi
m:ov
ermydeadbody

Iwasaboutt
or espondWhenbesmashedhi
sli
psi
ntomi
ne.It
ri
edf
ight
inghi
m butnotmyMel
o.
He'
sstr
ongerthanmeany way
.
Me:
Ihat
eyou

Isai
dinbet
weent
heki
ss

Hi
m:andIl
ovey
ou

Hesai dthatreleasi
ngmyhandsandmaki nghiswaydownt omyass.Thatwasenought oturn
meonr ealquick.Hehelpedmeoutofmyj umpsuitandIhel
pedhimlowerhisjeanswithhi
s
bri
efs.Hepi ckedmeupandpi nnedmeont hewallandmademebounceoni t
.Ihadforgot
ten
howni ceangr ysexwithMelowas.Heputmedownandf li
ppedmeov ert
ohi ti
tdoggy.There
wasj usttoomuchpassi on,oursexwasli
t.Al
wayswasandal wayswil
lbe.Whenwewer edone
hetookt i
ssuespapert owelsandwipedusboth.Hepull
edhisbri
efsandjeansupwhileIpull
ed
mypant yandj umpsuitup.

Hi
m:i
'
mtaki
ngy
oubackt
ocampus.Youwr
it
ingt
omor
row

Mel
oissuchaspoi
lspor
t

Me:
Idi
dn'
tcomeher
ewi
thy
ou

Hi
m:buty
ouwi
l
lleav
ewi
thme.I
'
m notl
ett
ingy
ououtofmysi
ght

Me:
Mel
oyoucan'
tcont
rol
me

Hi
m:i
sthatwhaty
oucal
li
t?I
'
mlooki
ngoutf
ory
ouher
e

Me:
yeahr
ight

Wewer
esi
tt
ingont
het
oil
etwi
tht
heseatcl
osed,
Iwasonhi
slap.Hel
i
ftedmychi
nupt
olookat
hi
m.

Hi
m:i
'
mtaki
ngy
oubackt
ocampusandi
t'
snotopenf
ordi
scussi
on.

Hethenplant
edakissonmyl i
ps.Igotupof fhi
m andhestoodupt
oot henheopened,we
washedourhandsandthenwalkedouthandi nhand.Heledmetoatablewit
htwohandsome
guys.Tal
kaboutf
ormingfr
iendshi
pvialooks.Heintr
oducedmetot
heguy sandtoldthem he
wouldbeback.Hegotusanuberwhi chdroveustocampus.Heparkedatthegat
e.

Hi
m:i
'
llseey
out
omor
rowaf
tery
ourpaper

Inodded.Iwasn'
tmadofanyt
hing.Iwast
ir
ed,
Ineedsl
eep.Mul
ti
pleor
gasmsar
edrai
ning.He
gotoutandcamet oopent
hedoorformeandhel
pedmegetout.Heki
ssedmeandI
respondedthenhebr
okeit
.

Hi
m:goodl
uck

Me:
thanky
ou

Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouYay
a
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.

Hewal kedtothegateandwat chedmewal kinmakingmywayt omydorm.Fri

dayItextedhim
giv
inghim space,Mondayhe'sher eandacti
ngallGi
deonCr ossonme.Idon'
tgetit
.Idon'tget
him andIdon'tgetourr
elat
ionship.Iwassoconfused.Igottother
oom,setanalar
m andgoti n
underthecover sandsl
epti
nstantly.Iwaswokenupbymyphoner i
ngi
ng,oneIl
eftwhenIwent
totheclubbyt heway.I
twasn'tev enmyalar
mt one.Ianswered

/
/Me:
mmh?

Per
son:
Maf
akuv
uka(
Maf
akuwakeup)

Il
ookedatt
hescr
eenbecausemyear
swer
ecl
ear
lydecei
vi
ngme.

Me:
Mel
okuhl
eit
's10t
o6

Hi
m:exact
ly.Wakeupandgoshowersoy
ou'
l
lhav
eenought
imet
ohav
ebr
eakf
ast

Ibangedmyheadont
hepi
l
low.Whydi
dIt
ell
him aboutmyt
estagai
n?

Me:
okf
inei
'
m up

Hi
m:l
i
ar

Me:
i'
m awakemos

Hi
m:getupMaf
aku

Igotoutoft
hecov
ers.

Me:
i'
m up.

Hi
m:ok.By
enow/
/

Idi
dn'
tevenrespond.Iwasmadathi mforwaki
ngmeup20mi nut
esbefor
emyalar
m wentof
f.
Myalarmissetfor6am butIsnoozei
tfor10mi
nutesbef
orewakingup.It
ookmythi
ngsand
wenttoshowerthencamebackandf oundAshsit
ti
nguppressi
ngherphone.

Me:
mor
ning

Her
:mor
ninghoney
.Mar
scal
l
ed

Me:
didhesayany
thi
ng?

Hi
m:j
ustwant
edt
obesur
ethaty
ouhomeandt
haty
ouwr
it
ewel
ltoday

Me:
thanks.I
'
llcal
lhi
m back

Her
:di
dn'
therbr
ingy
ouhomel
astni
ght
?
Ishookmyhead.

Me:bumpedint
omyboyfr
iendl
astnightandhesawmedanci
ngwit
hThomas,
hewasn'
thappy
abouti
t.Het
oldmest
rai
ghtupthathewasbr i
ngi
ngmebackher
e

Her
:shamemahnt
hat
'scut
e

Me:
wehadsex
.Myv
agi
nai
sst
il
lonf
ir
e

Her
:ouch

Me:
yep.

If
ini
sheddr
essi
ngup.

Me:
whatt
imei
syourcl
ass?

Her:10am.Sowhat'
supwi
thyouandMel
o?Ar
eyouguy
sonabr
eakwi
thbenef
it
s?Ar
eya'
l
l
backon?Likehel
pmeunder
stand

Me:
Iwi
l
lwhenIf
inal
l
yunder
stand'
us'
mysel
f

Shelaughedatme.Imadecereal
m,ateandtookmyt
hingsandwentt
owr
it
e.Af
termypaperI
cal
ledThomas.Heansweredonthet
hirdr
ing.

/
/Hi
m:hey

Me:
ouch.Hey
.Howar
eyou?

Hi
m:good.You?

Me:
alsogood.Asht
oldmey
oucal
l
ed

Hi
m:y
eahwel
lyouki
ndofl
eftwi
thoutasi
ngl
ewor
dlastni
ght
.

Me:
i'
m sosor
ry.Myboy
fri
endgotcar
ri
edaway
,Il
eftmyphonei
nmyr
oom andIj
ust
.I'
m sor
ry

Hi
m:i
tsokYandi
swa

Me:
Ever
ythi
ngok?

Him:yeah.Ij
ustdi
dn'
tthi
nky
ouoft
het
ypet
hati
gnor
espeopl
eal
lbecauset
hei
rboy
fri
end
showedup

Me:i'
m not
.Hewasn'thappywi
thusdancingtoget
herli
kethatandtobehonestIcar
eal
ot
aboutwhathet
hinksofmeandIwasn'tgoingtodi
srespecthi
ml i
kethat

Hi
m:It
houghtwewer
efr
iends

Me:
Ithoughtsot
oo
Hi
m:what
'st
hatsupposedt
omean?

Me:youact
inglikeabit
ch.Youknewhe'
sintownsoyoucan'
texpectmet ocatert
oyoui
nmy
boy
fri
endspresence.I
fyounothappywi
ththewayt
hingsar
ethe.Isuggestyoulosemynumber

Hi
m:i
'
m sor
ry

Me:
letsneverhavet
hisconv
ersat
ionorwhat
evert
hiswasagai
n.He'
smyboy
fri
endandy
ouar
e
myfr
iend.Ther
e'safi
neli
nebetweenyoutwoandther
oleyoueachpl
ayi
nmyli
feok?

Hi
m:cr
yst
alcl
ear
.Ihav
emeet
ingt
ogett
o,by
e

Me:
bye/
/

Thehelli
sactingli
kethatf
orhuh?Iwast aughttodealwi
thaprobl
em whi
l
eit
'
ssti
llnew
becauseify
oul eti
tescal
atetheni
twon'tbesoeasyt ohandl
eit
.Thomaswasact
ingli
kea
j
ealousboyfr
iend,hewastryi
ngtoplayMelo'srol
eandifwasnotcoolf
am.

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16,
12:
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THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E22-Mel
o

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l
ife?Imeant hisgirlwhohat edmef r
om thev eryfir
stti
mewemetandIwasannoy edbyhert o
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smont hthat
she'sbeenher ebutshehasn' t,she'sbeenl oyaltomeandonl yme. ..almostl i
keshe'sbeen
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scr azyr i
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li
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l
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m not,Iknow
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sheandIwi l
lspendasmucht i
met ogetherandwe' llhaveasmuchsexaswecanbecause
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ngi snothi
ngcompar edt ot heoneIhav ewith
Yay a.Wi thherit'
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hawhol emore.Wi thheri t
'
snotaboutt hinking
aboutwhatI '
m doi ngbuti t'
saboutconnect ingwi t
hherment all
yandphy sicall
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thatshe' stoogoodf ormeandt hatIdon'tdeser veherandit'
strue, Idon' tdeserveherbutIdo
needher .Mylifeisincompl etewi thoutheri nit
.SeeingthatI'
m herewi thoutany thi
ngt odo
whi l
emygi rli
sbusy ,f i
guredIshoul dcallhomeandhav ethem emai lmeaf ewofmypaper s,
thi
ngsIwi ll
needifIwanttoexplor
enewv enturesthi
sside.Igotthem awhilel
aterandtookit
uponmy sel
ftokeepbusyuntil
Yayaisdonewi thschool
.Iwasbusywi thabusinessproposal
forTomki nsCo.Agency.It
'samarket
ingcompanyandt heyar ethebestinthegame, I
’
vedone
myr esearchandseeingthatweareinbusinesswithafewmar ketingf
irms,thi
sonewi l
ldojust
fi
newi t
hBESS.Icalleddadandheappr oved.WhileIwasbusyIgotacal lfr
om Yaya.

/
/Me:
Maf
aku

Her
:Mel
okuhl
eyoubusy
?

Me:
kindof
..
.sor
tof
..
.what
'sup?

Her
:whatar
eyoubusywi
th?

Me:
justapr
oposal
forsomecompany

Her
:hav
eyouseent
het
ime?

Ilookedatmywatchandi
twaspast4al
ready
.Ihadpr
omi
sedherl
unchear
li
eronbutwor
kgot
thenestofme.I
'
vebeenatthi
ssi
nce8am.

Me:
fli
p,I
'
m sosor
rybabe.I
'
m onmyway

Her
:I’
l
lbewai
ti
ng

Me:
Ilov
eyou

Her
:Il
ovey
out
oo/
/

Isearchedf
ormycarkeysandwall
eti
nthemessmadebyt hepaper
sandr esearch.It
ookmy
phoneandheadedoutonlyt
obemetbyYay ast
andi
ngoutsidemydoorwithtakeaways.I
couldn'
thel
pbutsmi
le.Andyoupeopl
ethi
nkI’
dlett
hisper
songowithoutafight
?

Her
:fi
gur
edy
ouhav
en'
teat
enandI
'
m hungr
yso.
..
.

Me:
heybeaut
if
ul

Isai
dpul
l
ingheri
nforahug

Her
:heyt
hef
ood

Me:
scr
ewt
hef
ood.I
'
vemi
ssedy
ou

Shepull
edher
sel
fawayfr
om myar
msandt
henwalkedin.Thisgi
rlandr
uini
ngamoment
.I
walkedi
naft
erher
.Sheputt
hef
oodont
het
ableandthenturnedtome.

Her
:Tomki
ns?

Me:
yep.CanIhav
emy"
hel
l
o"ki
ss?
Shewal
kedov
erandwr
appedherar
msar
oundmyneck.

Her
:Hel
l
oMrBess

Shesai
dpl
ant
ingaki
ssonmyl
i
ps

Me:
hel
l
oMi
ssGxaba

Isai
dgiv
ingherar
ealkisswhi
chshegl
adl
yr espondedt
oo.Myhandswer
eonherassgent
ly
massagi
ngit
.Shegi
ggledinbet
weenandbrokeit

Her
:ha.
a

Me:
what
?

Her
:let
’seat
.I'
m hungr
y!

Me:
fine!

Shehel
pedmepackupmypaper
sandt
hensetupont
hef
loort
oeat
.

Me:
sohowwast
het
est
?

Her
:Ar
ghi
twasnot
hingmaj
or.Won'
tev
encountt
owar
dsoury
earmar
k

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yes,
buti
tcoul
dcomet
hroughf
ory
oui
fyouneedDP

Her:hahahawhowouldfai
lthi
scour
sebabe?Soany
wayt
her
e'ssomecar
eerwhatwhatt
alkat
schoolthi
sWednesday.
..

Me:
ohy
eahMi
chael
tol
dmeabouti
t

Her
:Mi
chael
?

Me:
yeahoneoft
heguy
sIi
ntr
oducedy
out
olastni
ght

Her
:oh.Whatdoeshedo?

Me:
he'
swor
kingf
orhi
sfat
her
'scompany

Her
:tal
kaboutbef
ri
endi
ngpeopl
eli
key
our
sel
f

Me:
jeal
ous?

Her
:Nev
er.Thomaswi
l
lal
sobegi
vi
ngat
alk

Il
ookedupatherandshewaspi
cki
ngonherf
ood

Me:
what
'
sthest
orywi
tht
hisguyany
way
?

Her
:jeal
ous?
Me:may be.
..ofcauseI
'
mj ealous.I
'
mj eal
ousofanymanthatlooksaty
outhewayIdo.
Touchesyou.Danceswithyou.Hugsy ou.I
fitwer
euptomeI ’
dlockyouupsothatI
'
mtheonl
y
onewhoget stotouchyou,dancewithyouanddoever
ythi
ngelsewithyou

Her
:that
'scut
ebabe

Shel
eanedov
ert
opeckmyl
i
pst
henwentbackt
oherf
ood.

Her
:ifi
tmakesy ouf
eelbet
ter
.Youdancebett
ert
hanhedoesandt
oeasey
ourcut
eador
abl
e
j
eal
ousy.Idon'
twantanyot
herasshol
ebutyou

Me:
asshol
e?!

Her
:unt
ily
oupr
ovet
omeot
her
wise,
youone

Shesai
dst
icki
nghert
ongueoutatme.Iendedupl
aughi
ngather
,Imi
ssedt
his.Ir
eal
l
ymi
ssed
i
t.

Her:Thomasi
sabusi
nessmogul
ofsomesor
t,heownsaf
ewcl
ubsandhe'
sfr
iendswi
thaf
ew
cel
ebs

Me:
ohni
ce

Her
:Googl
ehi
m,I
'
m sur
eyoupr
obabl
yknowhi
m orsomet
hing

Me:
whodoIsear
ch?

Her
:ThomasSt
evens

Me:
Ayt
.Passmemyphone

Shet
ooki
tbutdi
dn'
tgi
vei
ttome

Her
:younotgoi
ngt
oGoogl
eot
hermenwhi
l
esi
tt
ingwi
thme

Me:
thatsoundssowr
ong.Soundsl
i
keI
'
m gaynow

Shel
aughedandsodi
dI.

Me:
canwest
ayl
i
ket
hisf
orev
er

Her
:how?

Me:
you.Happy
,car
efr
eeandnotf
ight
ing

Her
:what
'sar
elat
ionshi
pwi
thoutal
i
ttl
ear
gui
ng?

Me:butsti
ll
.Ihat
eitwhenweargue, themake-
upismindblowi
ngofcausebuti
tbreaksmy
heartwhenyouhurtandsadanddisappoint
edbecauseofme.I
tpai
nsmeYay a.Iknowit
'
smy
faul
tbutbabeIpromiset
omaket hingsri
ghtbet
weenus
Her: l
ookIcan'
thatey ou.I
'
vetr
iedbuti
tseemsimpossi
blebecausethel
oveIhaveforyou
surpassesit
.I'
mt r
ustingyouMelokuhl
etokeept
hispeacebetweenus.I
fIgetbacktoSAand
there'
ssomeshi i
t,IsweartoGodwedone

Me:Iunder
stand.It
'smyfaul
tyoudoubtmeandi
t'
sokbutI
’
llf
ixusandwe'
l
lbebackt
otheway
weoncewerebef or
ey oul
eft

Shesmi l
edandt henwentbackt oherfood.Iwatchedhereat
ing.Iwasblessed.IknowI'v
esaid
thisadozentimesbutYay aisablessi
nginmyl if
e.Whenwewer edoneeati
ngshehel pedme
withtheproposalandthenemai l
editt
omyf at
herforappr
oval.Weheadedoutf ordri
nksand
alsotakeawalkar oundCali
.Weendeduppl ay
inggamesandt henheadedbackt othehotel
withabigteddybearIwasf orcedtowinforher.

Her
:I’
m dr
ained

Me:
youandmebot
h.Wantt
ojoi
nmei
ntheshower
?

Her
:nah,
goonwi
thoutmewhi
l
eIcal
lAsh.I
’
m sl
eepi
ngher
etoni
ght

Me:
Ilov
ethesoundoft
hat

Her
:Noway
s.I
’
m st
il
lsor
efr
om l
astni
ght

Me:
I’
ll
begent
le

Her
:justgoonandshowerwhi
l
eIaskAsht
omakemeanov
erni
ghtbag

Me:
don’
tyouwantt
ocomest
ayher
ewi
thmeunt
ilIl
eav
e

Her
:ory
ouwantt
okeepaney
eonme?
!

Iwal
kedoutandwentt ot heshowerandlefthercall
ingherfr
iend.I
nawayshewasr ight,
Idon’
t
wantherhangi
ngoutwi ththatThomas.I
’veseenhowhel ooksatherandnoI’
m notparanoi
d
andthi
nkthateveryguywhol ooksatYay
awant sherbutIknowThomasdoes.Thewayhe
l
ooksathersay si
tall
,thewayhedancedwi t
hherwasenoughconf i
rmat
iont
hattheguywant s
her
.whenIwal kedoutshehadat owelwrappedar oundherbodyandIhadoneonmywai st.

Her
:Yourf
ather
,Ol
onaandMi
racal
l
edwhi
l
eyouwer
eint
heshower

Me:
oh…di
dtheysaywhatt
heywant
?

Her
:Iknowbet
tert
hant
oanswery
ourphone

Shesai
dwal
kedt
otheshowerandIpul
l
edherbyherwai
stt
ome.

Me:
youmadatme

Her
:notatal
l
.

Me:
real
l
ynow?
Her
:yesr
eal
l
y.I
’
mfi
ne.Youshoul
dcal
lthem back

Andj
ustt
henmyphoner
angagai
n,shel
ookedatmeandIl
ookedather

Her
:itcoul
dbey
ourf
ather
.

Shesai
dpul
l
ingawayfr
om me.aysomet i
mesYayaconf
usesme.Idon’
tev
enknowwhether
she’
smadatmeorwhatiti
sexact
ly.Iwentt
oanswermyphonewhil
eshewenttoshower
,it
real
l
ywasmyfat
her.

/
/Me:
fat
her

Him:f
ir
stl
y,youdon’
tjustupandl
eaveint
hemi
ddl
eoft
heni
ghtandj
ustsendat
extasi
fthat
f
ixest
heinconveni
enceyou’v
ecausedher
e

Me:
I’
m sor
rydadbutIhadt
o

Hi
m:bet
terbewor
thi
tDer
ri
ck

Me:
trustmedad,
she’
swor
thi
t.Thi
sonei
smosdef
.get
ti
ngt
her
ing

Him:okt
hen.Li
stenIj
ustreadyourpr
oposalandImustsay,
goodwork.IfIhadknown,you
coul
dwri
tebusi
nessproposal
sthenIwouldhavegotyoutowri
tet
hem formeal ongti
meago

Ichuckl
ed

Me:
Icoul
dn’
thav
edonei
twi
thoutYay
a

Hi
m:soy
ourmom wasr
ightaboutherandt
aki
ngy
oupl
aces.Keepheranddon’
tscr
ewup

Me:
sur
ethi
ng

Hi
m:I
’
m ser
ious.Agi
rlwhocanhel
pyoudr
awupbusi
nesspr
oposal
soughtt
ogett
her
ingson

Me:
yes,
dad.

Hi
m: i
fthi
sdeal
goest
hrought
heny
oumi
ghthav
etost
ayt
her
eforal
i
ttl
elongerandseei
t
t
hrough

Me:
sot
hisi
sMYbaby
?

Him:wel
lyouthoughtofit
.LookDerr
ickyousmartenoughandoldenough,
maybeal
it
tl
e
i
mmat ur
ebutoldenoughtostartbui
l
dingsomethi
ngthat’
syour
sandonl yy
our
s.Soy
esthi
s
deal
isyourbaby,
seeitthr
oughandtakecareofit

Me:
thanksdad.Iwon’
tdi
sappoi
nt

Hi
m:t
rynott
odi
sappoi
nty
ourgi
rl
fr
iendseei
ngt
hatshehel
pedy
ouputt
hist
oget
her

Me:
Iwon’
tdad
Hi
m:what
ever
.By
enow.

Me:
byedad/
/

Tr
ustMr .Besst
ogetal
ldramat
icony
ou.WhenIt
urnedar
oundshewasl
eani
ngbyt
hedoor
watchi
ngmewi thasmi
le

Me:
howl
onghav
eyoubeenst
andi
ngt
her
e?

Her
:longenough.Sowhenar
eyoupi
tchi
ng?

Me:
Tomor
row…seemsl
i
keIwon’
tbeabl
etomakei
tfort
het
alk

Her
:it
sok,
justknockem deadok

Shet
ipt
oedt
opl
anaki
ssonmyl
i
ps.

Her
:Ineedsomet
hingt
owear

Me:
what
’swr
ongwi
tht
hecl
othesy
ouwer
ewear
ing?

Her
:Iwantt
oweary
our
s

Ir
oll
edmyey
es.Ofcauseshedoes

Me:
fine.Wegoi
ngt
oyourschool
tof
etchy
ourt
hingst
owear

Her
:sohowl
ongar
eyoust
ayi
ng?

Me:
ift
heyhappywi
thmypr
oposal
thenI
’
llhav
etost
ayl
ongerandseei
tthr
oughi
t

Shenodded.Shetookhertowel offandstar
tedloti
oningherbody
.Tothinkthef
ir
stt
ime,Iever
sawherbodywaswhenIwal kedinonheraf tershoweri
nginherroom andshewasnaked.The
wayshehidherassets,
I’
ll
nev erforgett
hat.

Her
:whatar
eyousmi
l
ingat
?

Me:
justt
hinki
ngaboutt
hef
ir
stt
imeIsawy
ounaked

Shet
hrewt
het
owel
atme

Her
:per
ver
t

Me:
youcan’
tbl
ameme.Si
ncewhendoy
ouwr
apat
owel
aroundy
ourbodyany
way
?

Her:si
nceIdon’
tli
veal
oneany
more.Havi
ngaroommatemeansyoucouldwalkoutoft
he
showerandfi
ndherchi
ll
ingwi
thaguyorgi
rl
.Younev
erknowwhattoexpect

Me:
it’
sagoodt
hingt
hou.Justnotwheny
ouwi
thme

Her
:andr
isky
ousexi
ngmeup?Not
hanky
ou!I
’
m st
il
lrecov
eri
ng
Me:
fine

Isai
dwear
ingmybl
ackt
-shi
rtwhi
chIknowshel
ovessomuchandst
il
lwant
ssobadl
y

Her
:wher
e’smi
ne?

Me:
AuntSi
m doesn’
thav
eitany
mor
e

Her
:ohwel
l
…theny
ou’
l
lhav
etogi
vemey
our
s

Me:
ha.
anott
hisone.Youal
readyhav
eabout3t
-shi
rt
sofmi
ne

Her
:4act
ual
l
ybutwho’
scount
ingr
ight
?

Me:
ha.
ababenott
hisone.I
’
m sor
ry

Her
:buty
ouhav
eni
cet
-shi
rt
s

Shesai
dsul
ki
ng

Me:
notgoi
ngt
owor
k.Getdr
essedl
ady

Shewasi
nherunder
wearandpout
ing.Manshewasador
abl
e

Me:
youei
thergetdr
essedorIeaty
ouup.Yourchoi
ce

Shesqui
ntedherey
esatme

Her
:fi
ne,
passmemyt
hings

It
hrewt
hem atherandt
hensatont
hebedwat
chi
ngher

Her
:youmean

Me:
wer
eal
l
yst
il
lont
his?

Shenodded

Me:
Iwi
l
lbuyy
ouy
ourownl
i
mit
ededi
ti
ont
-shi
rt

Her
:Iwanty
our
s

Me:
there’
sareasonit’
scal
l
edlimi
ted,
meansnotmanypeopl
ehav
eitandIwoul
dli
ket
obet
he
f
ewthatownsitthankyouver
ymuch

Sher
oll
edherey
esandwor
ehershoest
henputherf
ootont
opofmyl
ap

Me:
what
?

Her
:ti
eit
Me:
won’
tyougett
ir
ed?

Her
:you’
reasi
ze9,
not
hanks

Me:
finet
hen.

Iti
edhershoesupandthenwet
ookourthi
ngsandl
eft
.Idr
ovehertoschool
andshemademe
gotoherroom wi
thher
.Whenwewalkedinther
ewer
etwogir
lssi
tt
ingonthebedsandj
ust
chatt
ing.

Yay
a:guy
sthi
sisMel
okuhl
eDer
ri
ckBess

Ir
oll
edmyey
esatt
hei
ntr
o

Yay
a.Babet
hisi
sAshant
imyr
oommat
eandt
hisi
sSer
enaourf
utur
egy
nae

Me:
nicet
omeety
oul
adi
es

Ash:
nicet
ofi
nal
l
ymeety
ouMel
o.

Ser
:thef
amousMel
o.I
fyoudar
emakehercr
yagai
nIwil
lki
l
lyouandt
hat’
snotev
ent
hepai
nful
par
t,Iwi
l
lpar
aly
zey
ouandputami
rr
orovery
ousothaty
ouwatchmepiecey
ouup

Theyallcr
ackedupi
nlaught
er,wel
lYayaandAshbutasforSer
enashelookedser
iousand
creepy
.Whydoesshealwayshaveafri
endli
kethi
s?Fi
rsti
twasNaledi
andnowt hi
sone.My
baeknowshowt opi
ckthecrazi
es

Yay
a:she’
ski
ddi
ngbabe.Ser
enaj
ustactnor
mal
foronce

Me:
Iwi
l
lnotmakehercr
yagai
n

Ash:
she’
sjoki
ng.Thi
sonewat
chedt
oomuchoft
hatmov
ieLawAbi
dingCi
ti
zen

Ser
:I’
m notki
ddi
ng.Buti
tisni
cet
omeety
ouandy
oucut
eri
nper
son

Icoul
dn’
thol
dmyl
aughi
n.Yay
asur
eknowshowt
opi
ckt
hem.

Ser
:don’
tyouhav
eabr
other
,at
winmay
be?Somet
hingt
hatl
ooksl
i
key
ou

Yay
a:hehasat
winsi
ster
.Sor
ry.St
opper
vingov
ermyboy
fri
endy
oucr
eepi
nghi
m out

Iwasjustsit
ti
ngonherbedasshechangedt
het
hingsshewaswear
ingi
ntopj
ayshor
tsandi
ts
topandsleeper
s.

Ser
:wher
ear
ethepj
aysev
engoi
ng?Idoubty
ou’
l
lhav
ethet
imet
oweart
hem wi
tht
hisy
ummy

Me:
youdon’
thav
eaf
il
terhuh?

Sheshookherhead
Ser
:youl
ookl
i
key
oupackeddownt
her
e,ar
eyoupacked?

Me:
babe,
ali
tt
lehel
ppl
ease?

Yay
a:j
ustanswerher
,becausei
gnor
ingheri
snotanopt
ionandshecanbev
eryannoy
ing

Ash:
enoughwi
tht
hequest
ionsSer
ena

Ser
:ignor
ethem.Sohowbi
gar
eyou?

Me:
shesai
dIwasbi
genough

Isaidpointi
ngatYayawhocrackedupinlaught
er.Ser
enawasent
ertai
ning.Thekindoffr
iend
thatwouldgoperfect
lywi
thmycousin.Theybothascrazy
.Yay
apickedherf r
iendsbytheway
theylook,bothgi
rl
swerebeauti
es.

Ser
:ni
ce…

Yaya:wewereatGatewaythi
soneti
meandt her
ewast hi
swai t
resswhocoul
dn’
tkeephereyes
ofhim.SoIwasinthelooandIhear
dthem t
alki
ngabouthim andesti
mati
nghowbigitmight
beandIcameoutoft hest
all
andtol
dthem i
twasbigenough

Ash:
that
’ssav
age

Ser
:IseewhyIl
ovey
ousomuch.I
’
m sur
etheywer
est
unnedt
oseey
ou

Me:
poorgi
rlcoul
dbar
elyl
ookatheraf
tert
hei
rencount
er

Weconti
nuedchat
ti
nguntilshewasdonewit
hevery
thingandt
henweleftandheadedtot
he
car
.Thegi
rl
swereint
erest
ingnodoubtandIenj
oyedtheli
tt
let
imeIspentwit
hthem.That
Ser
enachi
ckwasasav ageinall
lev
els!Ki
ndofr
emindedmeofmyauntJenwi thhernofi
l
ter
.

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16,
12:
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E23

It
'sbeenamont hsi
ncehe'sbeengone.Hespentt woweekshereandi
nthosetwoweeksi'
ve
beensleepi
ngatthehotelandhim dri
vi
ngmet oclassandt
heamountofsexwehaddur i
ngthat
ti
mecannotbeputi nt
onumber sbecauseitwasthatmuch.I
tsuckswhenhelef
tbecauseIwas
sousedt ohav
inghim ar
oundandsl eepi
ngonhischestsoyoucanimagi
nethepai
nIwas
feeli
ngbutev ersi ncehegotbackt oSAt hi ngsbet weenushav ebeensmoot h.He' sbeent he
Mel okuhleIf elli
nl ovewi thandt herehasn' tbeenanychangeofsomesor t,Ikeptwai tingf or
himt oignor emeorbedi st antorany thingbutnope, hewashi msel fandv erymuchi nlov ewith
mesucht hatIwasscar edImi ghtscr ewt hingsup.Mar sandIwer egoodf riendsoratl eastI
fri
endzonedhi mt hatdeep.Ohandheandhi sBlesseebr okeup, shewasn' tcomf ortablewi thmy
presencei nher" man' s"l i
fe. .
.thesegi r l
sanddr amat hou.SoMi chael Neel gav eat alkatMt
universit
yandaf tert het al khewentl ooki ngf orAshandf indherwi thSer enaandI ,turnsoutt he
guyshemett heot hermor ningwasScot twhoi sbestf riendswi t
hMi chael ,Scot twasn' tinto
Ashbutheonl ydidwhathedi dt ogetcl osewi t
hherandt oknowhermor ef orMi chael whowas
toopussyt odoi thimsel f.Shedi dn'
tt alkt obot hoft hem f oraweekunt i
l webumpedi nt otown
andt heguywentonhi skneesI '
mf rontofev eryonebeggi ngherf orf or givenessandshe
couldn'thelpbutf orgiv ehi m andScot tandIt hi
nki t
'ssaf etosayt heydat ingandhappy .The
onlysingleonei sSer enabutt hatdon' tmeanshe' snotget ti
ngany .Nev erthel esswewer eall
happyandexcel li
ngi nschool .Ihav en' tseenAndr ewsincehegotsuspended, hewassupposed
tobebackaweekagobutnopenot hi ngandnoonehashear dat hingf rom hi m.Shoul dIbe
wor ri
ed?ItwasaFr i
dayandt herewasanar texhibiti
oni nourdepar tmentandi fonesees
somet hingt heyliket hent heycoul dbuyi t.Thesepastt woweekswe' dbeenwor kingon
painti
ngs, scul pt
ur es,phot ogr aphsandal lthingsar t.Thewhol ear tdepar tmenti ncludingt he
dancer sandmusi cianswer epar tici
pat ing.Iwasdr essedi nakneel engt hbl ackdr esswi t
ha
goldbel tandagol dcour theel andagol dcl utchwhi leAshwor eagr eypenci l skir
tandawhi te
cropt opv estwi thanudel eatherj acketandanudecour theel,
Serenawascomi nglater
becauseshewaswr i
tingat est.Ashwasbusyf i
xi
ngupmyhai r.

Me:
Ashant
iwegoi
ngt
obel
ate

Her
:I'
m al
mostdonechi
l
l

Me:
Ist
il
lneedt
olookf
ormycoat

Her
:it
sint
hecl
osetchi
l
l

Me:
whatar
eyouev
endoi
ngonmyhead?

Her
:maki
ngy
oul
ookl
i
keapr
incess

Me:
speaki
ngofpr
incesses.
..howdoy
ouf
eel
aboutdat
ingapr
ince?

Her
:Idon'
tev
enwantt
otal
kabouti
t

Me:
ohcomeon

Her
:it
sscar
yYay
a.Thi
sguycoul
dhav
ebeenwi
thany
one

Me:
yesbuthechosey
ou

Her
:hesay
shi
spar
ent
shav
efoundhi
m apr
incesst
omar
ry

Me:
yeahso?
Her
:he'
snotmi
neYay
a.He'
sli
fei
ssetupf
orhi
m al
ready

Me:thenwhyishewithyouofhe'
snotser
iousabouty
ou?Mi chael
li
kesyouokandi
fhecar
ed
aboutthi
swholet
hinghe'
sbeensetupforthenhewouldn'
tbewastingy
ourti
menow

It
ookadeepbr
eat
hei
nandl
eti
tout
.

Her
:wedone.

Shesai
dpackingawaythef
lati
ronandcomb.Shehadmyhai
rti
edupwi
thsomest
randsofi
t
cur
ledup.Il
ooked16.

Her
:Idon'
tknowYay
a.Ir
eal
l
ydon'
tey

Ihel
dheratar
msl
engt
h

Me:Michaell
ovesyouhoneyandheisgoi
ngtomarr
yy ouandy
out
woar
egoi
ngt
ohav
e
beaut
if
ulpri
ncesandpri
ncessest
hatwil
lcal
lmeAuntyYaya

Her
:hahahadudey
ouhav
edr
eams.Let
sjustgo!

Webot hlaughedandIt ookmystuffandweheadedoutchat t

ingonthewaythereabout
anythi
ngandev eryt
hing.Asemahl
ehasbeenat tendi
ngther
apyandaccordi
ngtoherbrother
she'
sdoi ngwellbuthermotherontheotherhandissti
l
lworri
edabouther,
saysshepulled
thr
ought ooquickandshe'sworri
edshemi ghtbeuptosomet hi
ng.Wegottothecentr
eandit
wasn'tthatpackedyet.Wewenttofindourseatsandsatdownandwai t
edfortheshowt o
begin.

"
Yay
a,Ash"

Webothlookedupandi
twasThomasst
andi
ngbesi
deAsh,
shewassi
tt
ingi
ntheendoft
he
l
ineweinandInextt
oher.

Her
:Thomas

Me:
Mar
s.Idi
dn'
tknowy
ouwer
ecomi
ng

Ir
eal
l
ywasn'
texpect
ingt
oseehi
m bi
tthi
ngshappenIguess.

Hi
m:i
twasal
astmi
nut
ethi
ng.Oneoft
hej
udgesbai
l
edont
hem andsot
heycal
l
edme

Ash:
judge?Youguy
sar
ebei
ngj
udgedf
ort
his?

Ishr
ugged.Wewer
en'
ttol
daboutj
udgescausei
fwewer
ethenIwoul
dhav
eputi
next
rahour
s.
Dammit!

Me:
wewer
en'
ttol
d

Hi
m:It
houghty
ouknew.Ar
ghdon'
tst
ress,
I'
m sur
eyou'
l
lwi
nsomet
hing
Ash:
nocheat
ingThomas

Hi
m:Iwoul
dn'
thav
eitanyot
herway
.Howcomey
ouguy
sar
en'
tdanci
ng?

Me:
becauset
her
e'st
hedancedepar
tmentf
ort
hat
.Wecan'
tal
lbeMoosenow

Hi
m:moose?

Me:
hav
eyounev
erwat
chedst
epup?

Hechuckl
ed

Hi
m:Ist
oppedatt
hef
ir
stone.Somoose?

Ash:
itst
hisguywhomaj
orsi
ndanceandengi
neer
ingi
nVar
sit
y.He'
stheki
ngofdancedude!

Justt
henAust
inWal
shshowedupi
nfr
ontofus

Aus:
heysi
s.Heycr
ush

Weallj
ustl
aughed.Aust
ini
sAsh'
sbr
otherwhoi
scur
rent
lyi
nhi
ghschool
andIbethi
spar
ent
s
don'
tknowheishere.

Ash:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Me:
hav
easeat

Imov
edt
othet
hir
dchai
randhesatbet
weenAshandi
wit
hthemostwi
destsmi
l
e

Aus:
thankscr
ush.Icamet
osuppor
tmycr
ush.
..duh!

Iki
ssedhi
scheekandhesmi
l
ed

Hi
m:see.

Ash:
don'
tencour
agehi
m.Doesmom anddadknowy
ouher
e?

Heshookhi
shead.

Hi
m: bef
oreyoubit
emyheadof f.Mom i
soutper
for
mingi
nBr
azi
landdadi
sawayi
nbusi
ness
i
nBrazil
too.They
'l
lbebackSunday

Ash:
whywasn'
tIt
old.Howl
onghav
etheybeengone?

Hi
m:aboutaweeknow

Me:
andy
ournanny
?

Hi
m:she'
ssl
eepi
ng

Ashgav
ehi
m al
ook
Hi
m:f
ine.Idr
uggedher

ThomasandIcr
ackedup.Thi
schi
l
disanot
herDeni
set
hemanacet
ypeofki
d.

Ash:
wit
hwhat
?

Hi
m:mom'
ssl
eepi
ngpi
l
ls

Justt
hent heMcaskedever
yonetotaket
heirseat
saswear est
art
ingnow.Thomasl eftusand
wenttotakehisseatt
ooonthejudgi
ngpanelandMichael
wasoneofthejudges.Icall
edAsh
andpoint
edathim wit
hasmile

Her
:whati
shedoi
ngher
e?

Me:
judgi
ng.Duh!

Aus:
what
'st
hedeal
ther
e?

Me:
that
'sherboy
fri
end

Ash:
ser
iousl
yYay
a

Aus:
you?Hav
eaboy
fri
end?How?

Wecr ackeduponl yannoyi

ngAsh.Ienjoy edAust i
n'scompanymor et hanany thi
ng, hereminded
meofmysi ster.Speakingofher,hermot hercaughtherbl azi
ngandy oucani magi nehowt hat
went .Sheblamedmeandsai dIwasabadi nfl
uencet oherdaught erandal lthatothercrapbut
Sinodef endedmet othedeathofher.Theygr oundedherf or2weeks.Bei ngapki snotallf
un
andgames.Ev entuall
ytheshowcommencedandev eryoneenjoy
edt hemsel ves.Ishockingly
wonsecondpl acewhi chmeantt hi
sotherkidf rom ourclasswasgoi ngt orepresenttheschool
atsomear tsfestivalt
ogetherwithmeandt het hi
rdkidwhowont hirdplace.sot heyhadjudges
i
nv i
tedsot hatt hreepeoplegoandr epresenttheuni ver
sityi
nDCWashi ngtonatt hearts
conv enti
onalcent rewithotheruniv
ersi
ties.Afterbeingtoldal
lofthatt heytookpi ctur
esofus
witht hejudges.Ther ewas4oft hem.2guy sand2gi rl
s.

Mi
cah:
yourst
uffi
sti
ght
.IseewhyDer
ri
cksi
ngsy
ourpr
aises

Me:
whatdoy
oumean?

Hi
m: t
haty
ourboyfr
iendi
syournumberonesuppor
ter
.Henev
erst
opsbr
aggi
ngabouty
ouand
t
hethi
ngsyoucreat
e.Hewasright

Me:
uhhm wow.Idon'
tknowwhatt
osay

Hi
m:heador
esy
ouYay
a

Wi
tht
hathewal
kedov
ert
oAshasMar
smadehi
swayt
ome

Hi
m:congr
atul
ati
ons
Me:
Ihopey
ouhadnot
hingt
odowi
thmewi
nni
ng

Hi
m:nowy
ouknowt
hati
fitwer
eupt
omey
ouwoul
dhav
ewonf
ir
stpl
ace

Me:
that
'scheat
ing.Butt
hanks

Hi
m:shal
lwegocel
ebr
ate?

Me:
i'
ll
tal
ktot
hegi
rl
sfi
rstandsee

Hi
m:f
ineandt
hent
omor
rowwecanhav
eourowncel
ebr
ati
on

Ichuckl
ed

Me:
i'
ll
bet
oohungov
er.

Hi
m:ev
ersi
ncey
ourboy
fri
endl
eft
,webar
elyhangoutt
oget
herany
mor
e

Me:
i'
mlear
ningt
orespecthi
swi
shes.Hedoesn'
tfeel
comf
ort
abl
ewi
thourf
ri
endshi
p

Hi
m:wow.Uhhm okt
hen

Me:
sor
ry

Hi
m:y
eahsur
e.

HewalkedawayandIwal
keddowntomyf
ri
endswhower
elaughi
ngandchat
ti
ngupast
orm.
Serscr
eamedformeasIappr
oached

Me:
shhhh

Her
:scr
ewy
ou.I
'
m sopr
oudofy
ou!

Shesai
dsuffocati
ngmewit
hahug.Icoul
dn'
tev
enbr
eat
heandAshwashuggi
ngmef
rom
behi
ndsqueezingusbot
h.

Me:
guy
sIcan'
tbr
eat
he

Ser
:met
oo

Ashst
oppedandsodi
dSer
.It
ookt
hemi
nut
etocat
chybr
eat
h.Theguy
swer
elaughi
ngatus
andsowasAsh.

Ser
:soIwasaski
ngMi
chael
whyhedi
dn'
tgi
vey
ouf
ir
stpl
ace

Micah:andIt
oldherthaty
oudeser
vedf
ir
stpl
acey
esbutt
hent
hatwoul
dseem l
i
key
ouwon
becauseweacquaint
ances

Me:
Iunder
standandI
'
mtot
all
ycool
wit
hsecondpl
ace

Ash:
howt
ightwast
hev
otes?
Hi
m: 2-
2.Thegi
rl
swer ev
oti
ngf
ort
hedudet
hatwonandThomasandIwer
eteam Yay
a.Sowe
f
li
ppedacoinandtheywon

Aus:
Ist
il
lthi
nkYay
ashoul
dhav
ewon.Hav
eyouseent
heamountofbi
dsonherst
uff
?

Me:
whatdoy
oumean?

Aus:
comesee

Hepulledmet othearttabl
eandtherestfol
l
owed.Nextt
omypaint
ingwasabowlwit
h
amount speoplear
ewi l
l
ingtobuyitf
orandnexttomyphotogr
aphwasthesameandfort
he
scul
pt.It'
ssafetosayIwaswinningbecausemythi
ngshadthemostpaper
sint
hem t
hanthe
rest
.

Me:
Iknewpeopl
ewer
ebuy
ingbutIdi
dn'
tknowpeopl
ebi
dont
hese

Mi
cah:
we'
l
lwhenmanypeopl
ewantsomet
hingi
tgoest
othehi
ghestbi
dder

Me:
andwhowi
l
lcheckf
ort
hewi
nnerandwhenwi
l
lthebi
dst
op?

Ash:
itsal
readyst
opped.I
tst
oppedat10pm

Il
ookedatt
het
imeandi
twaspast11.

Me:
wow

Ser
:sowher
edoest
hemoneygo?

Me:
Iwi
shIknew.

Mi
cah:
i'
m sur
eitwi
l
lgot
othewi
nner
.Soar
ewegoi
ngt
ocel
ebr
ateorwhat
?

Aus:
awesome.Let
sgo

Ash:
wear
edr
oppi
ngy
ouof
fathomel
i
ttl
eone

Aus:
comeonAshdon'
tbel
i
ket
hat
.Yay
asaysomet
hing

Ser
:yout
ooy
oungf
orcl
ubs

Ash:
youwer
en'
tev
ensupposedt
obeher
etoni
ghtsoof
fyougo

Aus:seehowcont
rol
l
ingshei
s..
.don'
tmar
ryher
.endt
hingsnowf
ory
ourownsaf
etyand
fr
eedom

WealllaughedandAshpunchedhi
m onhi
sshouldermaki
nghi
m wi
ncei
npai
n.Wewentout
danci
ngandwehadanamazi ngt
ime.Wegothomearound2andwewer
esupperwast
ed.I
vi
deocalledbae.

/
/Hi
m:hel
l
obeaut
if
ul
Me:
heyhandsomehowar
eyou?

Hi
m:i
'
m goodmybabyandhowar
eyou?

Me:
supersl
oshed.Imi
ssy
ou

Isai
dsul
ki
ng

Hi
m:y
ousocut
e.Imi
ssy
out
oonana

Me:
Iwannacomebackal
ready

Hi
m:y
ep.
..y
our
eal
l
ydr
unk.Nextweeky
oucl
osi
ng,
youcancomebackt
henok

Me:
fine.
..

Hi
m:comeondon'
tsul
k.

Me:
fine.BabeI
'
m hor
ny

Hel
aughedatme

Hi
m:sowhatdoy
ouwantmet
odo?

Me:
Idon'
tknow.Iwanty
ourdi
ck,
cany
ousendi
ttome

Hi
m:i
fitwer
edet
achabl
ethenIwoul
ddet
achi
tandsendi
ttoy
our
ightnow

Me:
butIwanty
out
oo

Hi
m:hahahagodr
inkwat
erandy
ouwi
l
lbef
ine

Me:
yousuchanass.Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?

Hi
m:f
ini
shi
ngmyj
ob.I
'
m sot
ir
ed,
Ineedoneoft
hosemassagesy
ougi
ve

Me:
nowIr
eal
l
ywantt
ocomehome

Hi
m:pat
ience.East
eri
sar
oundt
hecor
nermynana

Me:
Iknow.BabeI
'
m sl
eepynow

Hi
m:oknanagot
obedok.I
'
llcal
lyout
omor
row

Me:
Ilov
eyou

Hi
m:Il
ovey
oumor
e//

Iwentt
obedwi
thasmi
l
eonmyf
ace.

.
.

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[
10/
16,
12:
45]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E24-Mel
o

I'
m backi nSADur banandmyr elationshi pwi thmygi rlfriendi sev ery t
hingi tshoul dbe.Ev er
sinceIgotbackwhi chwasamont hago, Ihav en'tfooledar oundwi thany oneandI '
m pr oudof
my self.Beingwi thYay af ort hatt woweeksmademer eal isehowbl essedIam andhow
compl etemyl if
ei s.Idon' tneedr andom sex.Yesi t'snoteasysay ingnot of r
eepussybuti t'
sall
aboutsel fdi scipl i
neandr ealisingwhat 'si mpor tant.May bemyl oy altyisal sobr oughtaboutby
thisThomasguyshe' sbeenspendi ngt imewi t
hbef oreIgott her e.Theguyi snodoubt
compet i
tion, hei sev ery t
hingi 'm notandhei sataagewher ehei sr eadyt oset t
ledownandbe
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fe,Imeanhe' s30soobv iouslyhewant ssomeonehecanshar ehisweal th
withandsomeonewhowi llbeper fectf orhi m andwhobet t
ert hanYay a?Yay ai sev erything.I
don'tbel i
evei nt hatwhol ewi femat er ial thingwhenr efer ringt oagi rlbuti nal l honest yYay ais
wifemat eri
al .Shei sev erythinggood.Shei sev erythingamanl ooki ngf orawi feneeds.She' s
helpful,suppor tive,lovingandcar ingandal l goodt hingsandshe' snotaf raidt ospeakhermi nd
andgi vey ouadv icey oudi dn'tt hinky ouneeded.I 'm ani diotf orhav ingr i
skedt hat.Asaman,
somet imesy ouneedt oseebey ondy our sel fandr emi ndy ourselft hatwhat everi tisy ouseei n
her,otherguy sseei ttooandchancesar et heycant r
eather10xbet terthany ouev ercoul d.
LatelyIgot owor kthenheadov ertov isitmysi sterandt henheadt ogy m.I t'
sar outineI '
m
enjoying.Ol onahasbeenbl owi ngupmyphoneandsohasMi r
andabutIhav en'tanswer edany
ofthem, Iknowmay beI '
m wr ongf ordr oppi ngt hem l iket hatbutImadeapr omi setomy
girl
fri
endandIi ntendonkeepi ngi tliket hat.Yay ai slandi ngher et omor rowandIcoul dn'tbe
happier ,I
'vemi ssedhersosomuchwor dsal onear en'tenough.I t'sFr i
dayaf terwor kandI
decidedt ost opatspurandbuymyt wi nherf ave, shehasn' tleftt hehousesi ncet hei ncident.I
gothomeandshewasi nt hel oungewat chi ngI ceAge, oneofourf avoritemov ies.Ijoinedher
ont hecouch

Me:
twi
n

Isai
dki
ssi
nghercheek

Her
:heyt
win.Howar
eyou?I
sthatspur
?

Ichuckl
ed

Me:
youandf
ood.I
'
llnev
erunder
stand.Buty
eahIgoty
ouy
ourf
ave

Her
:yummy
.Letmegetuspl
ates
Shesai
dpausi
ngt
hemov
ie

Me:
wher
esev
ery
one?

Her
:mom anddadar
eatwor
k,I
yanai
supst
air
s.I
'
m st
il
lundersui
cidewat
ch

Igotupandf
oll
owedbehi
ndher

Me:
wewoul
dn'
thav
etowat
chy
out
hiscl
osel
yify
ouspoket
ous

Her
:I'
m al
readyseei
ngat
her
api
st.Whatmor
edoy
ouguy
swantf
rom me

Me:
toknowhowy
oudoi
ng.Howy
oudeal
i
ngsi
s

Her:
no.Youguyswanttoseemebreakdownandcr ymyl
ungsoutanddri
nkmysel
ftot
he
near
esthospi
tal
becauset
hat'
swhatyouexpectofr
apevi
cti
ms.I
thappenedMel
oandI'
m
deal
ingwit
hit

Me:
okmay
bet
hat
'st
ruebutsi
sthi
sal
lseemsl
i
keanact
.Anactt
ogetusof
fyourback

Her:whatdoyouthi
nkI'm goi
ngt
odohuh?Gol
ooki
ngf
orhi
m?Paysomepeopl
eandhav
ehi
m
ki
ll
edortort
ured?That
'snotmeDerr
ick

Me:
whenl
astdi
dyout
alkt
oSean?

Sheshr
ugged.

Her:Idon'
tknow.Il
astsawhi
m atthehospit
al,he'
sbeencal
li
ngandt exti
ng.Idon'
tknowwhat
thehelli
'
m goingt
osaytohi
m orhowI '
m supposedtofacehi
m.IjustIdon'tknowMelo.Ihat
e
thathe'
stry
ingsohardandI
'm emoti
onal
lydetachedfr
om hi
m.Hiscal l
sortextsdon'
tspar
k
anythi
nginmeany more

Me:
theywon'
ti
fyoual
l
owy
our
sel
ftogr
ownumbt
opai
n

Her
:maybeI
'm numbbecausethi
ngsar
eeasi
ert
hisway
.Idon'
tgett
othi
nkabouti
t,i
don'
tget
t
ofeel
anyofit
.It'
sjust
.I'
mfi
nethi
sway

Me:
pai
ndemandst
obef
elt

Her:seri
ousl y ?Youquot ingTheFaul tinOurSt arsnow?Youdon' tknowt hepainIwentt hrough
Melokuhle.Noneofy ouknowi t
.Youcan' tbetell
ingmeshi tl
ikepaindemandst obef eltwhen
youhav enev erbeent hroughwhati 'v
ebeent hrough.You'
venev erbeeninasi tuationwher eby
youcan'tdef endy oursel
f,beggi nghimt ostopbuty ourbegsfall
ingondeafear s,pleadingf or
Godt ointervenebutnot hing.Not hingy ousayordoi senoughtomakehi m stopandsoy oujust
l
ietheret akingt hepai nwhi chispleasur eforhim asitcomesandj ustwait
ingf orhimt of ini
sh
sothathecanl eav eorkil
l you.Honest lyIwouldhav epreferr
edheki llmeafterr at
hert hant o
l
iveli
ket his.Al lofyouhov eri
ngov ermel i
keI'm adangertomy self.I'
vehadsomanychances
toendmyl ifebutI 'm sti
llhere,sti
llbreathing.
Ipul
ledheri
ntomyar
ms.Shewasnowi
ntear
sandsowasI
.Idi
dn'
tev
enknowwhatt
osayt
o
heratthi
spoi
nt.

Her
:al
lIwantt
odoi
sjustscr
eam andl
eti
tal
lout
.

Ibr
ushedherbackgent
lywi
thnot
hingbutt
ear
srol
l
ingdownmycheeks.

Me:
tel
lmewhaty
ouwantmet
odot
otaket
hepai
naway

Shepul
l
edoutofmyar
ms.Andst
arr
edi
ntomyey
eswi
thherey
esf
il
ledwi
tht
ear
s

Her
:Iwanty
out omovepastt
his.Asl
ongasyouandmom anddadandI y
aaretr
eat
ingmelike
avi
cti
m,Iam const
ant
lyr
emindedofwhati
sandwil
lnev
erchange.Ij
ustwantmyli
feback.

"
Lookwho'
sher
e"

I
yanasaidwalkingdownthestai
rswi
thabitofexcit
ementinhervoi
ce.Webot
hwipedaways
ourt
ears,Asetookthepl
atesandheadedt
ot helounge.ImetI
yahal
fwayandwesharedahug

Me:
howar
eyou?

Shebr
okei
t

Her
:I'
m goodandhowar
eyou?

Me:
alsogood.Icamewi
thf
ood

Her
:I'
m onadi
et!

Shesai
dhooki
ngherar
mint
omi
neandwal
ki
ngmet
othel
ounge.

Me:
ohwel
lmor
eforus

Wej
oinedoursi
steront
het
hreeseat
ercouch

I
ya:
yummy

Us:
youonadi
et

Wespokeatt
hesameti
met
henl
ookedateachot
herandl
aughed.Ican'
tremembert
hel
ast
t
imeIhear
dherl
augh

I
ya:
NahIcancheat
,justf
ort
oday

Ase:
mor
eli
keev
ery
day

I
ya:
hey
!

Me:
Inev
erunder
stoodt
hiswhol
edi
eti
ngt
hingy
oul
i
ket
odo.Yourbodyi
sfi
ne!

I
ya:
i'
m mai
ntai
ning.You'
l
lseewhenYay
aget
stomyage
Ase:
wheni
sshecomi
ngbackany
way
?

Me:
she'
l
llandt
omor
row

Ase:
youar
ebr
ingi
ngherst
rai
ghther
efr
om t
heai
rpor
t

Me:
that
'si
fyourf
athercancel
sthemeet
ingi
nShepst
onorPMB

I
ya:
buti
t'
ssat
urday

Me:
Iknowr
ight
.Bei
ngt
hebossessonsucks

Ase:
sowhataboutYay
a?

Me:
shehasakey
.She'
l
lcat
chabubert
omypl
ace

I
ya:
lookaty
oupout
ing.Youwer
ewi
thherf
ort
woweeksi
diot

Me:
IknowandIhadgot
tenusedt
oher

Ase:
youngl
ovei
ssoador
bs

Ihi
therwi
thapi
l
lowandshel
aughed.

Me:
i'
ll
tel
lhernott
ocomeov
er

Ase:
youwoul
dn'
tdar
e!

Me:
tryme

I
ya:
webot
hknowshedoesn'
ttakeor
der
sfr
om y
ou

Me:
shutup.Got
othatugl
yboy
fri
endofy
our
sfut
hi

Ase:
Iyahasaboy
fri
end

I
ya:
no.Mel
oshutup

Me:
he'
ssougl
ysi
s.What
'shi
ssur
nameagai
n?

I
yacl
i
ckedhert
ongueannoy
ed.Iwasal
readyonFacebooksear
chi
ngf
orhi
m

Ase:
comeonsi
sshar
e

Shemadepuppyey
es

Me:
thi
siswhaty
oudi
dwi
thYay
a.I
t'
spay
backt
imesoshar
e

I
ya:
Thapel
oBango

It
ypedmyFacebookandt
hedudewast
hef
ir
sti
nthel
i
st,
wehadonemut
ual
fri
end.
Ase:
Facebookf
ri
endsal
ready

Weclickedonitspr
ofi
l
eandscr
oll
edt
hroughhi
spi
ctur
es.Hehadapi
ctur
eofhi
m wi
thal
i
ttl
e
gi
rlashisprof
il
ephoto

Me:
that
'shi
sni
ecer
ight
?

I
ya:
daught
er

Ase:
hehasadaught
er?Wher
eist
hemot
her
?

I
ya:
shedi
edwhi
l
egi
vi
ngbi
rt
h

Me:
doest
hatmeant
heywer
emar
ri
ed?

I
ya:
yes

Me:
arey
our
eadyt
ocompet
ewi
tht
hel
atewi
fe?

Ase:
comeonMel
odon'
tbedr
amat
ic.Hemakesy
ouhappyr
ightsi
s?

I
ya:
yeshedoes

Me:
hav
eyoumethi
sdaught
er?

I
ya:Imethim wal
ki
ngwi
thher
.He'
s30andhi
sdaught
eri
s4,
she'
ssocut
eandt
hesweet
est
t
hingever

Me:
butar
eyour
eadyt
opl
ayst
epmummy
?

I
ya:
she'
sal
ovel
yki
d

Me:
younotanswer
ingt
hequest
ion

I
ya:whatdoyouwantmet osayMelo?Whycan'
tyoubehappyf
ormej
ustt
hisonceandst
op
pl
ayi
ngoverprot
ect
ivebr
otherforoncei
nyourl
i
fe

Me:
youmysi
ster
.Ofcausei
'
llbepr
otect
iveofy
ou.Sowhendowemeethi
m?

Her
:it
sonl
ybeenamont
h

Ase:
Mel
osl
owdown.Youdi
dn'
ti
ntr
oduceYay
ari
ghtaway

Me:
Idi
dn'
twai
tamont
hthough

Ase:andthatwasyourchoi
cet
hough.Si
sify
ouhappy
,I'
m happy
.He'
snott
hatbadasMel
o
sai
d.He'skindacut
e

I
ya:
thanksl
i
ttl
esi
s

Shepokedmeont
hesi
deofmyhead
Me:
ouch!Yousobi
tt
erwi
thy
ourugl
yman

Weall
laughedandcont
inuedmaki
ngf
unofeachot
her.Wewerehappy
,mysister
swere
l
aughi
ngandnothi
ngbroughtgr
eat
erj
oyt
hanseei
ngthem l
aughandbehappy.I
twashear
t
warmi
ng.

"
Thi
sisni
ce"

Weal
ltur
nedatt
hesamet
imeandmom wasl
eani
ngont
hedoor
.

Us:
HeyBoobi
e

I
twasal mostasifwerehear
sedi
t.Weal
ll
aughednot
ici
ngwehadj
ustcal
l
edhert
hesame
t
hing.Shelaughedtoo

Her
:hel
l
oki
ds.Ihadmi
ssedcomi
nghomet
othi
ssi
ght
.Rememberwheny
ouguy
swer
eki
ds

I
ya:
mom don'
tst
art
!

Mom:
i'
mjustsay
ing.

Shesai
dki
ssi
ngusonebyoneonourf
oreheads.

Ase:
wenot5any
mor
e.I
yahasaboy
fri
end

I
ya:
real
l
yAsemahl
e

Mom:feel
sli
kedej
avu.Ioncecamehomet
oal
lthi
s,whenI
yawas15.
..I
yawasn'
ttal
ki
ngt
o
Asef
orlor
dknowswhy

I
ya:
you'
veal
way
sbeenasni
tch

Shesai
drol
l
ingherey
esandweal
ll
aughed

Mom:yourf
atheri
sonhi
swayandseei
ngt
hatMel
oisal
readyher
e.Let
smaket
odaymov
ie
ni
ght

Me:
mom r
eal
l
y

Ase:
yeeeey!I
t'
sbeensol
ong.Wegoi
ngbowl
i
ngr
ight
?Wi
thSi
yaandhi
sfami
l
yandLi
zandAunt
Amber.Fun!

Mom:
i'
ll
showerf
ir
st.

Me:
Idon'
thav
ecl
othesher
e

Ase:
li
es!Yourcl
oseti
spackedwi
thcl
othest
shi

Me:
sni
tch!
Shest
uckhert
ongueoutt
ome.Myf
ami
l
ycanbev
erychi
l
dishwhent
heywantt
o!

Wewer eatthearcadewi t
htherestofthefamil
yandfamil
yfri
endswi thevery
onepl
ayi
ngand
part
ici
pati
ng.Iexcusedmy sel
ftogocallYayaandcheckhowf arshewas.Iwasabouttocl
ick
cal
lwhenIsawherf at
herwalki
ngwi t
hLathit
ha.Il
ookedcl
oselyandt urnsoutmyey
esweren'
t
deceiv
ingme.Theyappr oachedmydi r
ecti
onhandinhandlaughing.

Me:
hel
l
o.

Theguy'
sjawdr
oppedandhequickl
yletgoofLat
hit
ha'shand.Idoubtheexpect
edt
osee
someonewhoknowshim.Letal
oneme.Lathi
thasmiled

Her
:Mel
o.Longt
ime

Me:
sot
hisi
swhoy
oubusywi
th.Amar
ri
edmanwi
thadaught
ery
ourage

Hi
m:pl
easedon'
ttel
lYandi
swa

Her
:Yandi
swa?Gxaba?She'
syourdaught
er?

Asmi
l
efor
medonherl
i
ps.Thi
swi
tchwassuddenl
ypl
anni
ngsomet
hing

Me:
Iwon'
thav
etot
ell
herwi
tht
hisgi
rly
oudat
ing.Seey
ouar
oundpast
or

Iwal
kedbackt
othef
ami
l
y.Hy
pocr
it
e!DoIt
ell
herwhatIsawordoIshutup?

<3

[
10/
16,
12:
47]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E25

Ihadjustgotofftheplanefr
om Cali
.Feltgoodt obebackher eaf t
ersolongey .Itookoutmy
phoneandcal l
edMelowhosai dhewasoutoft ownandwoul dbebackl atertoday ,
hewas
att
endingsomemeet i
nginShepston.Hesentmecasht orequestanubert odr opmeof fathi
s
apart
mentandsoIheadedov ertohisplace.Igoti nandunlockedthedoorwi thmymi ni
sui
tcaseandmademywayupst air
s.Nothingabouthi splacehadchanged, itwasst i
ll
asclean
asIhadl ef
tit
,samewal lcol
ourandjustnothingnew.Iwal kedintohisroom dr aggi
ngmy
sui
tcaseandopenedhi sdoorandgotin.Iclosedt hedoorandputmysui tcasebyt hedoorand
myhandbagont opofit.WhenIlookedupont hebedwasMi randa.Theext hatheoncet ol
dme
hesti
llhadfeeli
ngsfor.Shewaswear i
ngMel o'st-shi
rtwhichInormallysl
epti nwhenIwasher e
wit
hbl ackl
eggings...ok?andthen?Shewasl ayingonthebedwi thherf acedown.Myf i
rst
i
nstinctwastowal koutandbangt hedoorl oudenoughsoshewakesupbutIt houghtagainsti
t.
IwalkedovertothebedandIf oundanopenbot tleofpi
llsinherhand.Ilookedf orapulse
whichwasf ai
nt,Idiall
edMelo'snumber -
crazyright?What '
shegoi ngtodo? -butitrangand
wentt ovoi
cemailandsoIdi all
edparamedi cswhi l
eshakingher,thephonewasr i
ngingwhenI
not
icedapr egnancyt estonthefl
oor.Ipi
ckedi tupandi thadtwol ines.

/
/Per
son:
hel
l
o?

Me:uhhm sor
ry.Hithi
sisYandiswaandI'
m cal
li
ngtoreportasui
cideat
tempt
.Herpul
sei
s
weakandI'
mr eal
lyscared.Ther
e'sabot
tl
ehere.Pl
easejusthur
ry

Her
:ma'
am br
eat
he.Tel
lmewher
eyouar
eandIwi
l
lsendanambul
ancet
oyourpl
acer
ightnow

It
oldherMel
o'saddr
essandt
henshet
oldmet
otr
ygi
vi
nghercprf
ort
het
imebei
ngandt
henI
dr
oppedthecal
l/
/

Justaft
erIdroppedthecal
lIt
ri
eddoingthebestIcouldbutnothi
ng.Iwassortofpi
ssed,f
elt
betr
ayed,hur
t,angr
y,GodIwasfeeli
ngalotofemotionsatonce.Myphoner angandMelo'
s
pi
ctureappearedonthescr
een.Ianswer
editshaki
ng, Iwasshaki
ng.Fuck!

/
/Hi
m:It
akei
tyouj
ustgothome

Ikeptquietnotevenknowi
ngwhatt
osayt
ohim.Ithoughthewasonlysleepi
ngwi
thOlona.I
knowIsai dIdidn'
twantt
oknowift
her
ewereanyother
sbutthi
sisbeyondme.I'
m notcutout
offorthi
s!

Hi
m:babe?

Ist
il
ldi
dn'
tanswer
.Isuddenl
yregr
ett
edev
encomi
ngbackher
e.

Hi
m:Maf
akuwam

Me:
Mel
okuhl
eyouneedt
ocomet
oDur
bannow.

Hi
m:ba.
..

Me:
Mel
okuhl
ejustgety
ourassher
enow!

Justt
henIhear
dsi
rensout
side.Iwentdownst
air
s

Hi
m:babei
sev
ery
thi
ngok?

Iwasaboutt
orespondWhent
her
ewasaknockont
hedoor
.Iwentt
oopent
hedoor

Me:
meetmeatt
hehospi
tal
./
/

Igreetedt
hetwoguysandtol
dthem whatIknowandt
hent
heywentupst
air
stogether
.It
old
them aboutt
hepr
egnancy,
thi
swholeti
memyphonewasr i
ngi
ngandMelojustwoul
dn'
tst
op
call
ing.Itol
dt hem thatIwoul dfoll
owbehi ndt hem.Whent heywer egoneIsl iddownt hedoor
andl ookedatt hetest.Why ?Aftereverythi
ng.Mel oistesti
ngmyl i
mi tstoseewhati twillt
aket
o
breakme.Andhe' swon.Igotupandcal l
edSiy aaskinghi mt odrivemet othehospi talandhe
didaskingmedozensofquest i
onswhi chIwoul dn'tanswer .Wegott ot
hehospi talandIbegged
himt ogobackt owhat everhewasdoi ngbefor eIcal l
edhim, thatalonewasanar gumentbuthe
l
eft.Isattherewai ti
ngt ohearsomet hing.Afterwhatseemedl ike30mi nutesadoct orcame
andt oldmet hatshewasokbutshel ostthebabyandt hatshewoul dcallmei fshewokeup.I
j
ustsatt herewai t
ingforMel okuhletor ockup, niggashowedupaf ter2hour sorso.

Hi
m:heyb.
..

Isl
appedhi
m sohar
dhecoul
dn'
tbel
i
evei
t.

Hi
m:Maf
..
.

Islappedhi
m agai
n.Hewasaboutt
ot al
kwhenIt ri
edtosl
aphi
m agai
nbuthehel
dmyhands.I
wassomadathi m, Iwant
edt
ohim unti
ltheangerandhur
tandpai
ninmewast r
ansf
err
edt
o
him.

Hi
m:Yandi
swawhyar
eweher
e?Tal
ktomepl
ease.

Me:
Idon'
tknowwhet
hert
ocongr
atul
atey
ouorof
fery
oumycondol
ences,
orbot
h.

Hel
etgoofmyhandsgent
ly

Me:
I'
m doneMel
okuhl
e.Ij
ust
..
.Ij
ustcan'
tdot
hisany
mor
e

Tearst hr
eatenedmyey es.Somanyt i
meswe'vebeentaughtto"ny
amezela"
,aconceptIam y
et
tolearnprobably.Imeant hi
sconcepthast
iedsomanywomani nt
olovel
essmarr
iagesor
rel
ationshi
psandhasev enkil
ledsomeofthem al
li
nthenameoft hisonewordt
hatholdsso
much.Whyshoul donest ayandbaresomuch?Idon'tgeti
treal
l
y

Hi
m:Yay
a

Het
ri
edt
otouchme.Imov
edback

Me:
don'
tyoudar
efucki
ngt
ouchme.

Hi
m:Yay
a..
.

Hewhi sper
edcomingclosetome.Itookhi
shandandpl
acedthet
estoni
tthenwalked,
more
l
ikeranoutofthehospi
talandrequest
edanuberwhi
chwasherewi
thi
nami nut
e.Igoti
nand
closedthedooronl
yforMelotoopenit.

Me:
Mel
okuhl
e

Hi
m:Yandi
swawhat
'st
hemeani
ngoft
his?

Me:
Mir
andaneedsy
ou.Pl
easedr
ive
Hi
m:y
ounotgoi
ngany
wher
eYandi
swa.I
'
lldr
iveherhome

Hesai dpull
ingmeoutoft hecarandpay i
ngthedriver
.Ist
oodt her
einfrontofhim withmy
armsf ol
dedi nfr
ontofmychestwai ti
ngforki
ngMel okuhl
eBesst opaythedriverandt hen
att
endt ome.Het ur
nedtomeaboutt osaysomet hi
ngbutinsteadIstar
tedhitt
inghim onhi s
chest.Iwassomad.Iwassohur t.Hecagedmeonhi schestasItri
edfighti
ngbutev entual
lyI
gavein.Hewasapol ogi
singthi
swhol eti
mebutl i
ttl
edidheknowt hat"i
'
m sorry"doesn'tchange
anythi
ng,itdoesn'
tundot hepain,thescar.WhenIwascalm enoughhel etgoofme.

Me:
Ihat
eyou!GodIhat
eyou!

Isai
dmov
ingback.Hecamecl
oser

Me:
don'
t.Justdon'
tok!

Isaidwithmyhandst ry
nast ophi
m andhest oppedl ooki
ngatmewi t
ht earyeyes.Tear
skept
sl
idingdownmycheeks.Myhear twassor e.Ididn'
thatehi
m,stupi
dright?ImeanIshoul dhate
him butIcan't.Ican'tbri
ngmy sel
fto.Irequestedanuberagainandthistimehedi dn'
tst
opme
orthedriver.Hewat chedmedr i
veoff.Igottohisplaceandtooktheli
ttl
ethingsIhadinhis
cl
osetandaskedt hedrivert
odrivemet omypl ace.WhenIgotthereNitaandLedi wereinthe
l
oungewat chingwhat ever.

Me:
hel
l
obabi
es

Isai
dscreamingfrom behi
ndthem andtheyscreamedinexci
tementj
umpi
nguponthecouch.I
missedthem sodamnmuch.Weal l hugged.Thewaytheyj
umpedonmeweal l
landedonthe
fl
oorandjustcr
ackedupi nl
aught
er.

Ledi
:whydi
dn'
tyoucal
lmet
ofet
chy
ou

Me:
becauset
heny
ouwoul
dn'
tbet
hisexci
ted.Imi
ssedy
ouguy
s

Icoul
dn'
thol
dthet
earsi
nandnei
thercoul
dthey
.Wespokeev
ery
daybuyseei
ngt
hem was
dif
fer
ent
,Nit
ahadahugetummynow.Soroundandcut
e

Nit
a:andwemi ssedy
out
oo.Gosht
hankGody
ouher
e,may
beLedi
andIcanst
opar
gui
ng
aboutever
ythi
ng

Ledi
:youpr
egnant
.Youmoody

Ni
ta:
youoncont
racept
ives.Soar
eyou!

Me:
ohshutupy
out
oo.Whatdi
dImi
ss?

Wewer
eal
lont
hef
loorl
ayi
ngwi
thourbacksandt
hem cuddl
i
ngt
hemsel
vesonme.Iwashome.

Ni
ta:
Ledi
almostki
l
ledBonke

Me:
what
?
Ledi
:tol
dhi
mtheki
dwasn'
thi
sandt
hatheshoot
sbl
anks

Me:
JesusChr
ist
!

Ledi
:hegotall
madandchargedatmesoIgr
abbedaf
orkont
het
abl
eandj
ustasIwasabout
toNi
tascreamedherl
ungsoutmaki
nghi
m dr
opme

Ni
ta:
youdon'
tl
ist
en

Me:
youguy
sanddr
ama

Isai
dlaughi
ngt
ryi
ngt
ohi
demyownpai
n.

Ledi
:mami
arey
ouok?

Me:
yeahI
'
mfi
ne.Ij
ustmi
ssedy
ouguy
sthat
'
sal
l

Ni
ta:
aaahhoney
.Noneedt
ocr
y

Shesai
dwi
pingmyt
ear
sandIsmi
l
edt
hrought
hem

Me:
Ican'
thel
pit
.Let
sgooutdr
inki
nganddanci
ngt
oni
ght

Ledi
:aaaaaahshe'
sback

Shesai
dscr
eami
ngi
nexci
tement
.Shegotupandhel
pedusup

Ledi
:mypar
tneri
ncl
ubbi
ngi
sback.I
'
vemi
ssedy
ourass

Shesai
dpul
l
ingmei
nforahug

Ni
ta:
geeezwhat
ever

Webr
oket
hehug

Me:
ohr
ight
..
.babymamaal
ert

Shehi
tmepl
ayf
ull
yandweal
ll
aughed

Ledi
:ar
eyoust
il
lfol
l
owi
ngLat
hit
haonI
nst
a?

Ni
ta:
hay
iNal
edi
!

Me:
yeahwhy
?

Ledi
:shedeser
vest
oknow!Whenl
astwer
eyoui
nInst
a?

Me:
2day
sago

Isaidwit
hashr
ug.Wegoti
ntomyroom andIt
hrewmybagont
hef
loorwhi
l
eLedi
outmy
suit
caseont
hebedandopenedi
t.
Ledi
:checky
ouri
nst
a

Me:
ok

Isatdownonthecouchandt
ookmyshoesoffwhi
lel
oggi
nginonmyaccount
.Icameacr
ossa
pict
ureofLat
hit
haandmyfat
her
.Itwasasel
fi
e.I
twasadisgust
ingsi
ght

Ledi
:youcani
magi
nehowshockedIwast
oo

Ni
ta:
youdon'
tknowwhent
oqui
thuh?Fr
iendI
'
m sor
ry

Me:
Iwasgoi
ngt
oseei
tonewayort
heot
herNi
ta

Ikeptscr
oll
i
ngandtherewasapict
ureofmesleepi
ngonMelo'
schestthathehadpostedthi
s
morningwit
hthecapt
ion"can'
twai
ttohaveyouinmyar
msagain"wit
hinloveemot
icons.The
numberofli
kesandcomment soni
t;Icoul
dn'
thel
pmysel
fbutt
ov i
ewthecomment s.

Ledi
:fr
iendI
'
m sor
ry

Me:
it'
sokf
ri
end

Ilockedmyphoneandputi tdownt henexcusedmy sel

fforal ongbath.Ineededr eal
sleep.I
gotint hebathandj ustrelaxed,wel l t
ri
edtobutIcoul dn'tgetmymi ndofwhatIcamehomet o.I
don'tgetit
, whyisev er
ythingtur ningupsidedowni nmyl ifehereinSA?Myf athercheatingon
myst epmom wi thsomeoneasy oungasme.Igotoutoft hebathwhent hewat erwascoldand
myhandsandf eetpruny.Idr i
edmybodyandasIwasaboutt owr apatowel aroundmybody ,I
thoughtofwhatMel ooncesai dandchuckl edtomy sel
flikeamadper son.Tot hinkwe'veonl
y
beent ogetherfor4mont hsandal readyweov er.YesI '
m donewi t
hhim.He'shur tmeinway s
evenZukocoul dn'
tpossiblyhur tme.Iwr appedthet owel andwal kedout.Lediwassi tti
ngon
thebedi nfrontofmyopensui tcasej ustgoingthroughmycl othes.

Her
:I'
mtaki
ngt
hisbyt
heway
!

Shesai
dreferr
ingt
omybl
uel
owcutj
eanst
hatAshant
ihadboughtmewhenshewenthomef
or
alongweekend

Me:
Nahf
am nott
hose.Thosewer
eboughti
nFr
ancespeci
all
yforme

Her
:that
'swhyI
'
mtaki
ngt
hem

Me:
seet
hatpaperbag?

Her
:yes?

Me:
thathasev
ery
thi
ngt
hatbel
ongst
oyouandNi
ta

Her
:andher
eIwasaf
rai
dtoopeni
t

Shet
ooki
tandst
art
edpul
l
ingt
hingsoutonebyone.Judgi
ngbyherf
aceshel
ovedwhatIhad
boughtwhichmeantIdi dgood.Iworemypj aysandt hentookmyphonewhi chhadmi ssed
cal
lsandtextsfrom Mel oandaf ewotherpeople.IaskedLeditoletmesleepinpeaceandt hat
l
aterwewer egoingout .Sheleftmecalli
ngAshandSeri nf
ormingthem ofmyarriv
alandthey
tol
dmet ov i
deocallthem whenI '
m withNalediandAni t
a.Ical
l
edmom t oo,Iwasgoinghome
Mondayandcomi ngbackWednesday .Aft
erthatIputmyphoneonsi l
entandthenfel
lasleep,
wit
ht hehel
pofNeur ofenactive.Iwokeupar ound6pm.Iwentt owashmyf aceandthen
walkedbackintomyr oom andf oundMel osit
ti
ngonmybed.Nal ediandAnitaneedtostop
l
etti
ngpeopleintomyr oom wi t
houtmyper mission.

Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Hi
m:Ij
ustwantust
otal
k..
.pl
ease

Me:
noMel
okuhl
e.Tal
ki
ngwon'
tundot
his

Hi
m:Iknowt
hatbutcanIexpl
ain

Me:
Idon'
tneedanexpl
anat
ion.It
hinkIcanr
eadapr
egnancyt
est

Hi
m:Maf
akupl
ease

Me:
Mel
okuhl
epl
easej
ustl
eav
e

Hiseyeswerepuff
yandshowedr egretandpain.Iwant
edt opul
lhi
mtomysizeandhugt he
painawaybutIhadmyownpai n.Hedi dthi
stous.Heruinedus.Wasi
tnotenoughthathe
cheatedonmewi t
htwogir
ls.
..wellIonlyknowtwo,whoknowshowmanywer ether
e?

Hi
m:Iknowt
her
e'snoj
ust
if
yingt
his

Me:Mel
oI'mti
red.Idon'
twantt
odot
his.Idon'
twantt
otal
ktoy
ou,
Idon'
twanty
ourapol
ogy
andGodIdon'
twanttoseeyou!

Meloi
snothingbutatempt
ati
onandI'
m scar
edt hatmyv j
ayj
aywon'
tbeasmadasmyhear
t
andmindareri
ghtnow.HenceIwasst
andingfarfrom hi
m.Hegotupandwal
kedtowar
dsme

Me:
Mel
okuhl
epl
easej
ustl
eav
e!

Hi
m:Maf
aku

Me:
Mel
okuhl
eGETOUT!

Iscr
eamedandhel
ookedatme.

Me:
justl
eav
e

Heturnedonhisheel
sandwal
kedout.Naledi
walkedi
n.Gr
eat
!Justgr
eat!Ij
ustsankt
othe
f
loorsli
dingdownonmybathr
oom door.Shewal
kedovert
omeandpulledmei nt
oherar
ms.

Her
:whathappened?
Me:IthoughtIcoul
ddoi t.It
houghtIcoul
dlovehimtomakehi m changehisoldway s.It
hought
Iwasenough.Whatdi dInotsoforhim huh?If
orgavehim whenhewaswr ong.Idi
dev er
ythi
ngI
coul
dandmor ebutst
ill
.Hewentonandmadeherpr egnantbutt
hat'snotevenhalfofit,
heled
hert
osuicidetoo.Shekil
ledherbabybecauseofhim

Her:
honeyyoudidn'
tdoanyt
hingwrong.Hedi
d.Youdidyourbestandf
orhi
mt onotseet
hat
andappr
eci
ateyoufori
t,i
t'
sallonhi
m andnotyou.I
t'
snotyouthatswr
ong,
it'
shi
m

Ijustsobbedinherchestandshebr ushedmyback.Whydi di
thurtthi
smuch?I sthi
swhat
happenswheny oul ovesomeone?Gi vi
ngthem thepowertohurtyouthismuch?Makey oucr
y
thismuch?Surelythiscan'tbelov
e?Right?ImeanI '
m afoolf
orlovi
nghim st
il
l.Ishoul
dhate
him withapassi
onr ightnowbutwhot hehellam Iki
dding?Melohasmyhear tonthepalm of
hishandandhej ustkeepscr ushi
ngitandIlethi
m.

<3

[
10/
16,
12:
49]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E26–Mel
o

Aft
erYay a’
sdramati
cst orm outIwenttof i
ndsomeonewhowoul dtel
lmesomet hi
ngabout
MirandaandImetupwi thherdoctor.Turnsoutshet r
iedtoki
llhersel
fbutinst
eadshel ostt
he
baby,ifmemoryserv
esmecor r
ectshef el
lpregnantonthatnightIgotontheplaneatmi dni
ght
andheadedt oYayawithouttell
inganyone.It’
stheonlytimeIcant hi
nkofandt hedatesaddup.
Docsay shadYayanotgett herewhenshedi dt henshewouldhav ediedtoo,herpulsewastoo
weak.Iwalkedtoherroom andIhear dhersni f
fing,
shewasf acingtheothersi
de.

Me:
Ical
l
edy
ourbr
other

Shedi
dn’
trespond.

Me:
Why
?

Iwassitt
ingi
nfr
ontofherandshewascr
yingsi
l
ent
lywi
thnot
hingbutt
ear
srol
l
ingdownher
cheeks.

Me:
Mir
andapl
easej
ustanswerme

Her
:Justgoaway
.Got
oyourgi
rl
fr
iendMel
okuhl
e.

Me:
shedumpedmeok.Nowwhywoul
dyout
ryki
l
lyour
sel
f?Howdi
dyouev
engeti
nsi
demy
apar
tment
?

Her
:Iaskedy
ourl
andl
ord

Me:sowhatdi
dyout
hinkwasgoi
ngt
ohappenhuh?Yout
ryt
oki
l
lyour
sel
fandourbabyand
t
henwhatmaybe?

Her
:Idon’
tknowDer
ri
ck.Idon’
tknowok

Me:IthoughtIknewy oubutthi
s?Thiswasl
owevenf
oryouMiranda.Ori
sthi
swhatyou
wanted?Tokillt
hechildyoucarr
yingsot
hatmay
beyouandIcouldfi
ndcomforti
neachot
her
?
Gri
eveourbabyt oget
her?

Iwashurt.Ma…actuall
yscrewthatIwaspissedashel
l.Howcouldshehavebeensoselfi
sh?I
knowIavoidedherandallbutshecoul
dhav etol
dmeandIwoul dhavemadeapl anf
ormychil
d.
Itwasmineafteral
landafterwhatKat
eandIwentthroughIact
uall
ywantachil
dandam
will
i
ngtotakeresponsi
bil
i
ty.Yayawontfor
givemeforthi
sone,shewarnedmet hatt
hiswasmy
l
astchanceandIblewit.

Her
:I’
m sor
ryMel
o

Shesai
dcr y
inguncont
rol
l
abl
y,hert
earsj
ustwouldn’
tst
opcomi ng.Tothi
nkIthoughtIhad
feel
i
ngsforher,
atthi
smomentIdidn’
tcar
ethatshesurvi
veddeath,Ij
usthat
edherandI
coul
dn’
tstandher

Her
:It
ri
edcal
l
ingy
oubuty
ouwoul
dn’
ttakemycal
l
s

Me:youcouldhav
eleftmevoicemailorsentmeamessageMiranda.Justsomet
hing.Iwi
l
l
nev
erfor
giveyoufort
hisIswear.Thi
sisbey ondmeMi
randa,
GodIhat eyoufort
his.

Istor
medoutandbumpedi ntoherbrother
,hetr
iedtost opmebutIgoti nt
omycarbangi ngmy
doorandl eanedinonthesteeri
ngwheel cryi
ng,Iwasact ual
l
yint ear
s.Iwascr y
ingbecause
Yayami ghtnottakemeback, IletKat
ehav eanaborti
onandnowMi randakil
l
edourchildand
alsoIhatedmy selff
orhavi
ngcheat edonYay awithherandOl ona;nowsheIknowwoul dn’
t
surpr
isemel ikethat
.Idr
oveof ftoYaya’spl
aceandpar kedthenwentt oknock.Ledianswered
thedoor.

Her
:woahy
oul
ookl
i
keshi
i
t.Ev
ery
thi
ngok?

Shesoundedconcer
nedi
na“
Nal
edi
”ty
peofway
.

Me:
canIseeYandi
swa?

Her
:she’
ssl
eepi
ng.Goupt
oherr
oom

Judgi
ngbyherni cenesstowardsmethenshehadn’
theardyet
,Yayahadn’
ttol
dheryetwhat
happened.Icomposedmy sel
fandwal
kedint
oherroom andherbedwasempt yonl
yforhert
o
walkoutfrom t
hebat hr
oom.IwashopingIcoul
dconvi
ncehertotalkt
ome, atl
eastachance
toexpl
ainmysi deoft
hestorybutshewouldn’tgi
vemet heti
meofday.Shewasasmuchofa
messasI .Shewashurti
ngasmuchasmeormay beevenmoreandthatwasal
lonme.The
pai
ninherey eswasenoughtoconv i
ncemet hatsheneededspacet
obeangryandmadatme
andprobablyhatemeintheprocess.Igott
omycaranddr ovehomeandwenttosleep.Ar
ound
8pm Iwaswokenupbymyr i
ngingphoneandi twasmycousinLuc.

/
/Me:
what
?

Hi
m:opent
hedoor

Me:
nott
oday

Hi
m:Mel
okuhl
eyouknowwewontst
opbangi
ngont
hisdoorunt
ily
oucomet
hef
uckout

Me:
Niggal
eav
e

“
Mel
ogety
ourassouther
e”

ThatwasSi
ya’
svoi
cenodoubt
.Theseguy
sdon’
tgi
veup

Me:
bet
her
einami
nut
e./
/

Ididn’
tev
enwai tf
ort hem t
orespond.Iwentt
owashmyf aceandmyey eswer
en’
tasred
anymorebutIdidlookl i
keIhadbeencryi
ngandt
heseassholeswer
emosdefgoingtomake
funofmei nt
hisstate.Iri
nsedmymout handwal
kedouttoopenforthem.

Luc:
aboutf
ucki
ngt
ime

Hepushedmeasi
deandwal
kedi
n

Si
ya:
getdr
essedwehi
tt
ingt
hecl
ubs.Mygi
rli
sback…wel
lourgi
rli
sback,
wher
eissheany
way
?

Me:
atherpl
ace

Hi
m:y
oul
ookt
err
ibl
e.Tal
ktome

Isatonthehighchai
randhehandedmeabot
tl
eofwat
erf
rom t
hef
ri
dgeandst
oodont
he
opposi
teside

Me:
Ifuckedup.Mi
randahadami
scar
ri
age

Hi
m:what
sMi
r…wai
t.Youwer
escr
ewi
ngMi
randat
oo?Mel
okuhl
e!

Me:
Iknow.Iknowok

Hewaspaci
ngar
ound

Hi
m:shewascar
ryi
ngy
ourchi
l
d?

Inodded.Hest
oodst
il
lont
heopposi
teme
Hi
m:how?

Me:Yay
afoundherunconsci
ousher
einmyapar
tmentandsoshecal
l
edanambul
ance.She
dr
anksomepil
lst
hatalmostkil
l
edhert
ooi
ntheprocess

Him:Damn.That’
smessedupbr o.SowhenYay
aaskedmetopi
ckherupshewasgoi
ngt
o
checkuponMiranda?Yourgi
rl
fr
iendist
oogoodfory
ouDer
ri
ck

Inodded

Hi
m: y
ouaresofucked.Becauseyoumybr
otherIwontf
ucky
ouupf
ort
his.I
’
llt
alkt
oher
.Is
t
hereany
oneelseei
therthanOlonaandMi
randa?

Ishookmyheadanddr
ankmywat
er

Luc:
arey
oupussi
esser
iousl
ycr
ying

Me:
fucky
ou.Ij
ustl
ostmegi
rl

Luc:
whi
chi
swhyy
ouneedt
ohi
tthecl
ubs

Si
ya:
ha.
aLucnotnow

Luc:NOSiya.Heneedst
ogetlai
dandfor
getal
laboutherandt
hinkaboutherwhenhe’
sless
hurtandcl
eaner
.Goshowerandgetcl
eanedup

KnowingLuchewontl etthisgo.May beaclubwasgoi ngt omakemef orgetevenifitsfor5

minutes.Ineededast rongdr ink.Iwentt ogetmy selfcleanedupandweheadedt oFl or
idaroad.
Wegott ot hiscl
ubandi twaspacked, wegotat ableandor der edsomeboozet henwechi l
led.
Wewer ejoinedbyAsange, Alungile,Sihl
eandTom.Wewer echi ll
i
ngandsomegr oupof3gi r
ls
askedtojoinusandt heguy sletthem.Asange’ twindi dn’tj
oinusbecausehewasbusywi t
hhi s
bae,Asangeandhi sbaewer earguingandIdon’ tknowaboutt herest.Thi
sgirlsi
tti
ngnextt o
mewasal ltouchyandt hr
owi ngsomeser iousv i
bes.Shewaspr ett
yandgi ft
edbutshewasn’ t
Yaya.Iaskedt oexcusemy selfandwentt othebarandor deredupashot ,Igul
pedi tatonego
andthent urnedaroundandnot icedthegi r
lsdanci ng;girl
sbei ngYay aandAsemahl e.Myt win
andgirl
fri
endsur eli
tthest ageupnodoubt ,theywer edanci ngwi thsomedudes.Ipai dand
walkedov ertowheret heywer eandgoti nfrontofYay aandt ookherhandt odance.Iwas
pi
ssedt hatshewasdanci ngwi thsomeguyi nacl ub.

Ase:
youher
e

Shesaidroughi
ngmyhai
rup,
shewasdrunkthi
sone.Yay
atur
nedaroundandIpull
edtomy
body.Shewasmadatmebutshewastoosexyandmeandmydi ckwantedhersobad.The
dudehadbackedoff

Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Her
:dr
inki
ng
Me:
thenwhatdoesdr
inki
nghav
etodowi
thy
ougr
indi
ngonsomeguy
?

Her
:leav
emeal
oneMel
okuhl
e

Me:notinami
l
li
ony
ear
sYandi
swa!Iknowy
oumadatmeandIdon’
tbl
amey
oubutl
etme
expl
ain

Her
:Mel
okuhl
ethi
sisnott
hepl
ace

Me:
fine

Ipull
edherbyherarm andwalkedwi
thheroutsi
dewi
thhertel
l
ingmet oletgooffherwhi
le
tr
yingtopul
lawayfrom mygri
p.WegotoutsidetomycarandIletgoofher,shefol
dedher
armsinfr
ontofherchestpout
ing.

Me:
poutal
lyouwant
.Byt
hewayy
oul
ookr
eal
l
yhotr
ightnow

Sher
oll
edherey
es

Her
:Mel
okuhl
eit
scol
d

Iunl
ockedmycarandopenedt
hedoorf
orherandshegoti
n,Iwenti
nthedr
iver
sseat

Me:
sti
l
lcol
d?

Sheshookherhead.

Me:Isleptwi t
hMi r
andaoncet hatnightbeforeIgott oCali
, weusedacondom.Iguessi tbr
oke.
That’
showshepr obablygotpregnantbutIsweart oyouitwasonce.Youbei ngmadatmei s
underst
andbutonet hi
ngIwontaccepti sy ouendingt hi
ngswi t
hmeYandi swa.Withoutyou
worl
dwoul dcomecr umblingdownonme.Iwoul dn’tbewher eIam t
odaywi t
houtyouYandiswa
andIswearonmyl ifethataft
erIgotbackf rom CaliInevernotoncesleptwithany
oneorso
muchast ouchedanothergirl
.MafakuI’m sorr
yIf uckedusupandIwi l
lspendaneterni
tytr
ying
tomakei tupt oyoujustaslongasy ouforgivemeMi ne.Please

Ipl
eadedwit
hmyhandsi nherandshelookedupatme,i
twasonl
ythent
hatInot
icedt
het
ear
s
rol
l
ingdownhercheeks.Iwi
pedhertear
swithmythumbs

Me:
pleasedon’
tcr
yYay
a.Ial
readyhat
emy
sel
fforev
ery
thi
ngI
’
vedonet
orui
nus

Her:Melokuhleyouhurtme.Howam Iexpect edt oreactwhenIwal kintoour,Imeany ourroom,

andfindyourhighschool exwear i
ngmyt -shirtthatIsl
eepi nonabedt hatyouandIshar e,tel
l
mehowt oreactMelokuhle?HowdoIgetov erwhatIwal kedint
o?Thepr egnancytest.
Melokuhlethepowery ouhol doverherisscar y,thi
sisnott hefi
rstgir
l t
hattri
edtokill
herself
becauseofy ouandI’m scaredMel okuhl
e,ifyoucanhol dsomuchpowerov ersomeonewho
am i?MelokuhleIdon’
twantt obenext,Idon’twantt ofindmy selfi
nahospi t
albecauseofy ou.
Il
ovey ouyes,alit
tl
etoomuchbutIcantdot his,shekil
l
edherchi ldbecauseofy ou

Me:
Yandi
swapl
ease
Her:I
’
m sorr
yaboutyouchil
d,Ir
eallyam butIcantMelokuhl
e.Icantbewit
hsomeonewho
makesgir
lsdothi
ngstheyneverthoughttheywoulddo.Idon’
twantt of
indmysel
fint
hesegi
rl
s
shoessomedayMelokuhl
e

Shet
ouchedmyf
aceandIl
eanedi
nonhert
ouch.Shewi
pedt
het
ear
sthatwer
erol
l
ingdown
mycheek

Me:
tel
lmewhatt
odot
ofi
xusYandi
swaandspacei
soutoft
hequest
ion

Her
:Mel
okuhl
e

Me:
NoYandi
swat
ell
mehowt
ofi
xus

Shedi
dn’
trespond.Ist
art
edt
heengi
neandl
ockedt
hedoor
s

Her
:Mel
okuhl
ewhatt
hef
uck

Ikeptqui
et

Her
:Mel
okuhl
ewher
ear
ewegoi
ng?

Ikeptquietanddr
oveofft
omypl ace.Wegott
othecompl
exandIgotoutoft
hecarandIwent
tohersideandopenedherdoor

Her
:takemebackt
othecl
ub

Me:
No!

Shef oldedherar msi nfrontofherchest .Ileanedi nandt hecarandpul ledheroutandputher

overmyshoul der,shest artedhitti
ngmybackt elli
ngmet oletgoofherandt oputherdown.I
l
ockedt hecarandheadedt omyf latwi thherki ckingandscr eaming.Iopenedt hedoorand
wal kedinsideandt henputheront heki tchencount erandst oodbetweenherl egsandki ssed
herwhi leshehi tmet ryi
ngt opushmeawayf r
om herbutIdi dn’
tmov e.Icontinuedkissi
ngher
unt i
lsher esponded,Istrippedhercl othesof fnotbr eakingt hekissandshehel pedmet akeof f
mi neandnex tthi
ngIknewi twewer ebot hnakedandIwaspondi nghar donherandmoani ngin
pleasure, Icouldfellherorgasm, Itookherof fthecount erandf l
ippedherov erandmadeher
bendov erwhileIhiti
tf r
om behi ndwi t
hmyhandscar essingherboobsandherl ett
ingoutsof t
moans, shewasaboutt ocomewhenIpul ledoutandf l
i
ppedherov erpi
ckingherupt akingher
tot heloungewher eIgent l
yputheront hecouchandwenti nagainunt i
lwebot hcamewi thher
diggingonmybackandmebi tt
ingonhershoul der.Icollapsedont opofherbr eat
hingheav il
y.
Whenshe’ smadweal way shaveani ntensewor kout.

Her
:Ihat
eyou

Ichuckl
ed

Me:
Iknow

Her
:sexdoesn’
tfi
xev
ery
thi
ngMel
okuhl
e
Me:
youwoul
dn’
thav
eor
gasmedt
hatmuchi
fitdi
dn’
t

Shechuckl
edandsodi
di.herl
aughwasweakandscr
eamedt
ir
edness

Her
:scr
ewy
ouasshol
e

Me:
Ijustdi
dbutIdon’
tmi
ndgoi
ngagai
n

Shehi
tme.

Her
:I’
m dr
ained

Me:wenotdonej
usty
et.We’
l
lhav
easnackandt
henI
’
llgoshowy
ouupst
air
sjusthowsor
ryI
am

Her
:Mel
oyoubr
uisedme.I
’
m pr
obabl
yswol
l
en

Me:
I’
ll
kissi
tbet
terbaby

Isangimit
ati
ngri
hannaandshegi ggledandcli
ckedhertongue.Ipul
ledoutandscoopedherup
andwenttoourroom andplacedheront hebedandthenwentt orunherabathwithbat
hsalt
s
andall,
whenIwalkedint
other oom shewassleepi
ng.Shewassoador abl
eItookafew
pict
uresbutmycamerasoundsgav emeaway

Her
:st
opt
hat

Me:
yourwat
eri
sready
.Comewash

Her
:ar
en’
tyouj
oini
ngme?

Me:
I’
m goi
ngt
omakeussomet
hingt
oeat
.Iknowy
ouhav
en’
teat
ensi
ncey
oul
anded

Shel
ookeddown.Iknowheral
ltoowel
lthi
sone

Me:
gowash

Shewalkedt othebathr
oom whileipoppedsomef rozenlasagnai nt heovenandt i
dedupf rom
theki
tchent othel
ounge.It
ookmyphoneandt extedmysi stertel
li
nghernotwor ryaboutYay a
andthatshewassaf ewithmeandt hatsheshoul dn’tgettoodr unk,alsotheguyswer ethere
andsher espondedsayi
ngcool andtheywerewi t
ht heguy sal r
eady.Toldmet otakecareof
Yayaandnothur theragai
n.Il
ockedmyphoneandputourcl othesintothewashingbasketand
thenwentt ocheckuponherwear i
ngmybr ief
s.Ist oodbyt hedoorandshewasr esti
ngher
headbackont hebath.Iwhist
ledinappreci
ati
onandshet urnedt ol
ookatmet henbitherlower
l
ip

Me:
stopper
ving

Her
:yousexy
.ThoseCal
vi
nKl
i
enbr
ief
sdon’
tdoy
ouanyj
ust
ice

Ichuckl
ed
Me:
arey
ouhor
nyMi
ssGxaba

Iwal
kedi
nandshesmi
l
edwi
thashr
ug

Her
:may
be

Me:
fini
shupwhi
l
eIcheckonourf
ood

Shepout
ed

Me:
andgetoutoft
hiswat
erbef
orey
oucat
chacol
d

Her
:fi
ne!

Iwalkedoutandputmyt -
shir
tonthebedforherandthenwalkedtothekitchentocheckonthe
foodwhichwasdone.Itookitoutanddi
shedforusthenpoureduswi ne.Shewalkedinweari
ng
thet-
shir
tIl
eftf
orher.Shesmi l
edandIsmil
edatherinappreci
ati
on.Shet ookthewinegl
asses
whil
eItookourplat
esandf ol
lowedhert
otheloungeappreci
ati
ngthev i
ew.Yepshewassexy .
Toosexy.

Her
:st
opst
ari
ng

Me:
itsmi
ne

Her
:youhav
en’
tpai
dfori
t

Me:
Icanal
way
shav
emypar
ent
ssendal
ett
ert
oMaf
akuseni
or

Her
:ift
hat
’sy
oupr
oposi
ng.No

Me:
No?

ShesatdownandIsatnextt
oherandhandedherherpl
ate

Her
:no.j
ustbecausewehadsexdoesn’
tmeanI
’
m ov
ery
est
erday
’sev
ent
sMel
okuhl
e

Me:
Iunder
stand.Whywoul
dyousaynot
omar
ryi
ngme?

Her
:Iwoul
dn’
tmar
ryy
ouwi
thoutf
ini
shi
ngmydegr
eeandhav
ingaj
obt
hatpay
swel
l

Me:
not
ed.

Her
:Mel
okuhl
e

Me:
Yes

Her
:Ar
eyouwher
eyouhadi
magi
nedy
ou’
dbewheny
ouwer
eaki
d?

Me:
yesandev
enf
art
hanIpi
ctur
ed.Whatabouty
ou?

Shest
uff
edhermout
hwi
thf
oodandnodded
Me:
but
?

Her
:nobut
s.

Me:
what
syouri
deal
proposal
?

Her
:Idon’
tknow.IguessInev
ert
houghtaboutme

Me:
whatki
ndofgi
rlwer
eyougr
owi
ngup?

Her:
growingupIneverimagi
nedmy sel
finarel
ati
onshi
p.SoInev
ersawmy
sel
fget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed,
sawmy sel
fasupersuccessf
ular
ti
stwithacutebabygi
rl

Me:
wher
ewoul
dyougett
hebaby
?

Her
:adoptherorgot
oasper
m bankanddoi
vf

Inodded

Her
:IknowIwasawei
rdone

Me:
andnowdoy
oust
il
lfeel
thesame?

Her
:thi
ngshav
echanged,
I’
vegr
ownupnow

Me:
soy
ouwantt
ogetmar
ri
ed?

Her
:may
besomeday
.Mel
omebei
ngher
echangesnot
hing

Me:
we’
l
lseeaboutt
hat
.

Whenwewer edoneeat
ingwewashedt hedi
shesandthenracedupst
air
s.Losergoesdownon
t
hewinner
.Iwonandshewentdownt oblowmebutIr et
urnedthef
avorandthenwehadgood
mindbl
owinglov
emakingthatl
eftbot
hofusdrained

<3

[
10/
16,
12:
50]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E27

DearGodwhycan’
tIhatehi
m?DrunkorSoberhestil
lmanagest
osweepmeof fmyfeet
…
l
it
eral
ly
…Iwanttohatehim;
Lor
dknowsIwantt o.Iwantt
ohatehissex.Hi
sscent
.Hi
stouch
thatsendschi l
lsdownmyspi neev erytime.Hi slookwhenheshamel esslyt el
lsmet hathe’snot
goingany where.Hi svoice.Godhi sv oi
cewhenheget sallauthorativeandt err
itor
ialov erme.
Hiskiss,hiskisswhenhedoesn’ tbegf oritbutt akesitast houghmymout hishist otake.I
wantt ohatehi m.Ireal l
ydo.Iwantt ohat et hewayhel ooks, thewayhet al
ks, t
hewayhe
dresses,thewayheeat s,Iwantt ohat eal lofitbutIcan’tbr i
ngmy selfto.myhear twon’ tletme.
Istareathim ashesl eepsbesi der esti
ngmyheadonmyhandbal anci ngwi thmyel bow.Ev en
whensl eepinghe’sef fortl
esslydr eamy ,sodr eamyIf i
ndmy selfwantingt ocapt uret hemoment .
StealhisiPhoneasgent l
easIcoul dandmut eitsot hatnosoundi smadewhenIt akeapi ctur
e
ofhim.Thepi cturei sblackandwhi t
e,ev enifitwer ecolourhewoul dst il
l l
ookr i
diculously
handsome.Hi sl i
pssl ightl
yopenandpi nk, t
hat’sMel o.Hislipsgivehi m awaywhenhehadbeen
dri
nkingthepr eviousni ght.theygetal lpinkandswel linav erysexyway .Ishapehi sper fect
ly
shapedey ebrowswi thmyi ndexfinger.Ev engi r
lsdon’thav esuchper fectey ebrows.Mr sBess
andMrBesssur elytookt heirprecioust i
mewhenmaki ngt hismansl eepi ngnextt ome

Hi
m:st
opt
hat

Me:
what
?

Her emov esmyhandf rom hi sf aceandki ssesi t,Igi gglelikeahi ghschool teenager .I ’
m not
evensupposedt obeher ebutnowt hatI’m her eIdon’ twantt oleavet hispl ace.Idon’ twantt o
l
eav ehi sside.Hemessedup.Iwar nedhi mitwashi sl astchance.Iknowmywar ni ngcame
afterhehadal r
eadysl eptwi thherbuthowam Isupposedt olookpastt hef actt hathesl ept
withherandt hencal ledmewi thhersl eepingonhi sbed.HowdoImov epastt heef fecthehas
ont hesegi rl
she’ ssl eptwi thbef ore?HowdoIknowt hatIwon’ tendupl i
keanyoft hem?Thi si
s
thet hirdgirlhe’ smadepr egnanti nhi sl i
feandt hesecondt ohav emi scarr i
edandcommi tted
suicide.Thef irstonewasi nhi sf irsty earinv arsi t
y, hecheat edonheranddi dev er ythi ngMel ois
doingt omesucht hatsheendeduphav ingami scar ri
ageandt henl atersheki lledher self.She
mayhav enotwr i
ttenasui ci
denot eorany thingbutMel oknowswhysheki l
ledher sel f,Melois
ther easonshecommi tt
edsui cide.Andt here’sKat e,asweeti nnocentgi r
l.onemi nut e
ever ythingisgoi nggoodi nt heirr elati
onshi pandt hent henextt hinghesl eepswi thsome
obsessedgi r
l onlyt oenduppr egnantt ooexceptwi thhershedoesn’ tkillher selfbutwoul d
ratherki ll
thechi l
dt hant ohav eany thingt hatt i
eshert ohim.andnowt her e’sMi randa.I t’
sa
pattern, getpr egnantwi thMel o’ski dandy ouei therki llyourselforkillthebaby .Butev enwithall
oft hisIdon’ that ehi m, forsomer easonIwantt obel ievet hatIwon’ tendupl iket heot hersand
thatI ’
m di f
ferent ,hel ovesme, hewoul ddiebef orehel etsany thinghappent omeandi t
’s
becauseoft hatst upi dbelieft hatI ’
m nextt ohi m wi thmyhandi nhis.Hel etsgoofi tandpul ls
mei nf oraki sswhi chIv erymuchr espondt o.hebr eaksi tandst aresdeepi ntomyey es
piercingt hrought omysoul .

Hi
m:mor
ningbeaut
if
ul

There’
ssomethi
ngabouthi
sey
esandt
hewayhe’
slooki
ngatmet
hatmakesmybodyr
eacta
cer
tainway.

Me:
mor
ning
Iremovemyhandandr estont
hepil
lowf
aci
nghim.hesmi
l
es.Thatsmil
ethatgiv
esme
butt
erf
li
es.Heckitcr
eat
esajungl
einmytummy.Ial
sosmi
lei
nvolunt
ary
,it
’scont
agi
ous.Hi
s
smilei
scontagi
ous.

Hi
m:whatar
eyousmi
l
ingf
or?

Me:
whywer
eyousmi
l
ing?

Hi
m:causeImi
ssedt
his.Il
ovewaki
ngupl
i
ket
hisandbecauseInev
erwantt
ost
opwaki
ngup
t
othi
ssight

If
oundmycheeksbur
ning.Iwasbl
ushing.Il
ookedathi
m wi
thmyhand,
thathehadki
ssed
maki
ngi
tswaydowntohi sD.hesmil
ed

Hi
m:It
houghty
ou’
dbet
ir
ed

Ishakemyheadst
roki
ngi
t,myhandsl
i
dingupanddownoni
t.hegr
oans

Hi
m:dammi
tYandi
swa

Ij
ustsmi leandt hengoundert hecoverandplaywi t
hitfl
ickeringmyt ongueont heti
p.Hecan’t
helpbutgr oan.Iteasehim giv
inghi m ahandjobt hatmakeshi m gr oanharder .Il
ookupathim
andhisheadi sti
ltedbackenjoy i
ngthepleasure.Iputitinmymout handstar tsli
dingi
tinand
outmaki nghim speaki ntongues.Hishandsar eonmyhai r.Igof aster,
judgingbyhi sgri
pon
myhai rhe’saboutt ocum, hepul l
smyheadbackandIst artst rokingwithmyhands.Hecums.I
wipemyhandwi thatowel andt henhepullsmeupandki ssesmesl owlyandpassi onat
elywit
h
mesi t
tingont opofhi m gri
ndingonhi sD.Icouldf eeli
tgohar donmyass, hef l
ippedusover
sohewasont op.Hebr oketheki ssandlookedatmewi t
hhi snowhal fopeney esbutblood
shotred.

Hi
m:ILov
eyouMaf
aku

Idon’
trespondbuti
nsteadIpul
lhimi
nforakissappreci
ati
ngwhathehadjustsai
d.Heinser
ts
himsel
fwithoutwar
mingmakingmegaspinhismout h,If
eelhi
m smi
rk.Thi
sguyiscocky.He
knowshowbi gheisandyethealway
sdoesthat.Hedrovemetomypl acewit
hmewear inghi
s
t-
shi
rtandhisboxer
s.Accordi
ngtohi
m Il
ookedcute.Wewer el
ist
eni
ngtoChrisBr
ownt he
al
bum X.

Hi
m:y
out
ooky
oucl
othes’

Me:
yep…

Henoddedandcont
inueddr
ivi
ng.

Hi
m:Yay
apl
ease

Me:Iki
ndoffeell
ikewemov edtoooofast
.Maybei
fwehadt
akent
hingsal
it
tl
esl
owerthenwe
woul
dn’tbef
acingall
oft
his.Idon’
tknowMelo.Onemi
nutey
ouhappyandcommi
ttedandthen
t
henexty
oubet
weensomegi
rl
’sl
egsdi
ggi
ngy
ourwayt
olor
dknows

Hi
m:t
hat
’snotf
air
.Idon’
tev
engodownont
hesegi
rl
sYandi
swa

Me:
all
youdoi
sdr
il
lthem andt
hat
’si
t.al
li
swel
landal
li
sfor
got
tenr
ight
?

Hi
m:i
t’
snotev
enl
i
ket
hat
.Idon’
tknowYay
a.Ial
readyhat
emy
sel
f

Me:maybeifIdi
dn’
tmaket
hingsthi
seasyforyou,i
twoul dn’
tbethi
seasyfory
out ocheat
.If
t
hisdi
stancethi
ngi
ssohar
df ory
ouMelokuhlethenjustendthi
ngsandstopbreaki
ngmyhear t
r
epeat
edly

Hi
m:I
’
m notendi
ngany
thi
ngher
eYandi
swa.

Me: Igaveyouspace.Igav ey outi

met ofoolaroundandtoscrewany t
hingandever
ythi
ngthat
hasav aginabetweentheirlegssot hatwheny oucomebackt omey ouknowy oudonewit
hal l
ofthat.Melokuhl
eI’
m 18, you20y oual l
owedt ogoaroundscrewi
ngandhav i
ngfunbutdon’tdo
thatatmyexpenseMel okuhle.I
’mtired,i
t’
ssickeni
ng,t
hiswholecr
yingoveryouall
theti
me.I
j
ustwantt obeatpeaceandhappywi t
houthavingtoworrywhoyouscrewingwhil
eI’
m busti
ng
myassof finschooljustsoIcancomeback.

Hekeptqui
et.Il
ookedoutt
oofthewi
ndowsi
ngi
ngal
ongt
oChr
isBr
ownDr
unkText
ing.He
par
kedinsi
detheyardandl
ockedt
hedoor
.

Hi
m:Yandi
swaI
’
m done,
Ilear
ntmyl
esson.Youmeanev
ery
thi
ngt
ome

Me:
thequest
ioni
showlong?Imeanwhathappensi
fanewskirtcomesal
ongorablastf
rom
t
hepastcomesal
ong?I
tsti
ri
ng.Let
’sj
ustt
akesometimeapar
tandseewhathappens

Hi
m:f
uckt
hatYandi
swa!

Hesai
dhi
tt
ingt
hest
eer
ingwheel
andst
art
li
ngme.Il
ookedathi
m

Hi
m:don’
tdot
his

Me:
wedon’
thavetol
osecont
act
.Ify
ouwanttohav
esexwithany
one,
goahead.I
fyoumeant
f
ormet
henwe’l
lfi
ndourwayt
oeachother
.Ihav
etogopack,mybusl
eav
esin2hours

Hi
m:bus?

Me:
I’
m goi
nghomeandmom i
sfet
chi
ngmeatt
hebusst
ati
on

Hi
m:l
etmedr
ivey
ou

Me:
not
hanksMel
o

Isai
dshaki
ngmyhead

Hi
m:pl
ease
Me:
youcandr
ivemet
othebusst
ati
on

Hesighedandunl
ockedt
hedoors.Iopenedmydoorandheopenedhi
sandf
oll
owedmei
nsi
de.
Ledi
andAnitawerei
ntheki
tcheneati
ng.

Me:
mor
ningbabi
es

Hi
m:mor
ningl
adi
es

Ledi
:yourt
hingsar
einy
ourr
oom mami
.Hi
Mel
o

Ni
ta:
hiMel
o.Iseey
out
womi
ssedeachot
hert
hatmuch

Hechuckl
ed

Hi
m:mor
ethany
ouknow.

Me:
Ineedt
ochange

Ledi
:wai
tup

Wewalkeduptogetherandl
eftMelowit
hNita,ifany
onecankeephi m ent
ertai
nedi
tsNi
tamore
t
hanLedibecauseLediwon’
tbeabletokeepwhat everangershehastowardshimt
ohersel
f.
Wegotint
omyr oom andshelockedt
hedoor .Shehadal otshewantedtosay

-
Nal
edi

Mybestf
ri
endi
sdi
ckwhi
pped.Howel
sedoy
ouexpl
aint
heamountoft
imesshef
orgi
vest
his
guy
?

Her
:NotnowNal
edi
please

Me:
I’
ll
dot
het
alki
ngandy
ou’
l
lli
sten

ShewalkedtoherclosetandIf
ollowedbehi
ndhersatont
heot
tomani
nhercl
oser
,shest
art
ed
taki
ngoffhercl
othes’
,wellMel
o’sclot
hes’
.

Me: j
usty ester
dayyouwerecryi
ngandsay i
nghowmuchy ouhatehi
m andthenthenextday
youwal kinwear i
nghiscl
othes’
.Thisguyhasyouwr appedaroundhisfi
ngermyfri
end.
YandiswaIhat eseeyoucryingbecauseofhim,Iunderst
andy oul
ovehim andhemakesy ou
happybutt hathappi
nesshasat imeframe.Onemi nut
ey ouhappyandthenextyoucryi
ng.I
hatethat.Ireal
lydo,I
’
m notsayingendthi
ngs.Justtakeabreakfrom hi
m.may bethi
ngsmight
j
ustwor kandhewon’ tche…

Her
:It
oldhi
m Ineededspace
Knowingmyf r
iend,
asl ongasMeloandherareinthesamet own.Mel owillusehi sdickto
apol
ogiseandmyf ri
endwi l
lfor
giv
ehim easi
ly
.Il
ovethatshe’sinloveandal lbutsheandMel o
movedwayt oofast
,justbecausetheywait
edtohavesexitdoesn’tchangeany t
hing.Isti
l
lfeel
l
iketheymovedt of
ast.Ithasn’
tevenbeen6monthsoray earandal r
eadytheyhav i
ngsex
wit
houtacondom.I ’
m wor r
iedt
hattheyusesext
oescaper ealconversat
ionst hatmi ghtj
ust
bui
ldthei
rrel
ati
onship.

Me:
what
?

Her:
weonabreak.He’sonl
ytaki
ngmeoutf
orbr
eakf
astandaccompany
ingmet
othebus
st
ati
onandt
henthat’
sit

Me:
real
l
ynow?

Weal lknowt hatthissocall

edbr eakwon’ tl
ast.Theminuteshecomesbackf r
om homeherand
Melowi ll
hav esexandev ery
thingwi llbeforgi
venandforgot
ten.Idon’tknow.i
t’
snotan
addicti
onbutIdot hi
nkthattheyobsessedwi t
heachotheroroneoft hem isobsessedwiththe
other.Idon’tknowbutal l
Iknowi st hatIam worri
edabouther.Shewaswear i
ngHighwaist
bl
uej eggings,bl
ackt hi
ghbook, blackv estt
uckedinandadenimj acket.Shewenttositbyher
mirrortofixherweav e

Me:
fine.Sot
hismor
ningIwokeupandf
oundSi
yai
nourki
tchen

Her
:doi
ngwhat
?

Me:
hesl
epther
e.HeandAni
taar
esl
eepi
ngt
oget
her

Shet
urnedandl
ookedatmewi
thcl
earshockwr
it
tenonherf
ace

Her
:youl
i
e!Butt
henagai
nSi
yai
sagoodguyf
orher

Me:
yephei
s.Hesay
she’
sinl
ovewi
thher

Her
:Bonkewi
l
lthr
owf
it
!

Me:
speaki
ngoft
hatonehe’
sbeenbeggi
ngf
orl
ovebackandcr
eepi
nguponNi
ta

Her
:whatdoy
oumeancr
eepi
ngonNi
ta?

Me:he’
sgetti
ngall
obsessedandpossessi
ve.Threat
eningwhat
everguyheseesAni
tawi
th,
you
knowthosesi
ll
ythi
ngs.Ohandhe’
sbeenst al
kinghertoo

Her
:that
’snotr
ightLedi
.

Me:y
eahIknow.Nit
aissuperf
reakedout
.he’
sal
sobeent
hreat
eni
ngher
.tel
l
inghert
hathewi
l
l
ki
l
lwhoev
ertri
estogetcl
osewithher

Her
:that
’scr
azy
.
Inodded

Me:
sowhenar
eyoucomi
ngback?

Her
:Wednesday

Me:
shi
i
tthat
’sf
ar

Her:
I’
dcomebackFr i
daybutIneedt
otalkt
o“daddy
”aboutt
hisLat
hit
hat
hing.Mel
otol
dmehe
sawthem Fr
idayni
ghtal
lcosyandst
uff
.

Me:
theypubl
i
c?Damnt
hatbi
tchgotgut
s

Her
:thatmanhasar
ep,
onegossi
pbl
upandhi
spr
eachi
ngcar
eeri
sov
er

Me:
damn

Whenshewasdone,shegotuptolookather
sel
finthelongmi
rr
or.Shewasonf
leek!She
packedupamini
bagandputMel o’
sthi
ngsinapaperbagandt
henweheadeddownst ai
rs.Ni
ta
andMelower
echatt
ing.Theyseemedtogetal
ong.

MeloandNitaweretalki
ngaboutbabi
es.Ni
tawast el
l
inghim abouthowmuchbei ngpregnant
suckscauseshecan’tgocl
ubbingordr
inkorbendproper
lyandst uff
.Meloseemedfascinat
ed
bythiswhol
ebabytalk.Hel
ookedupatmewi thhismouthhal fopened.Ni
tawastal
kingto
hersel
f

Ni
ta:
youl
ookbeaut
if
ulMami

Me:
thankshone.Readyt
ogo?

Ni
tanudgedhi
m wi
thherel
bowandhesmi
l
edandanswer
ed

Hi
m:y
eahr
eady

Het
ookmybagandwal
kedout
.weal
ll
ookedateachot
herandl
aughed

Ni
ta:
wow.

Ledi
:I
’m sopr
oudofy
our
ightnow

Ni
ta:
niggawasspeechl
ess.Yay
ayouabonergi
ver

Me:
thanksl
adi
es

Ihuggedeachofthem andsai
dmygoodbyesthenwalkedouttoMelowhowasal readyi
nthe
car,
hewaspr essi
nghi
sphoneandl
ist
eningtoladyi
nagl assdr
ess.It
hinkIst
art
ledhim whenI
openedt
hedoor
.Heputhi
sphoneont
hecuphol
derbet
weenus.

Hi
m:y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul

Me:
thanky
ou

Hi
m:gotev
ery
thi
ng?Ev
eny
ourt
icket
?

Me:
I’
ll
geti
tther
e

Henoddedanddroveofftogat
eway
.Wewentt
oSpurandhadani
cemeal
overal
i
ghtawkwar
d
conv
ersat
ion.I
twasjustwei
rd.

Me:
thi
ngsdon’
thav
etobel
i
ket
hisbet
weenus

Hi
m:y
oudumpedmeandy
ouwon’
tletmedr
ivey
ouhome

Me:
sowhat
?Yousul
ki
ng.Youl
ookcut
ebyt
heway

Hi
m:f
ucky
ou!

Hesai
dwi
thhi
smi
ddl
efi
ngerr
aisedi
nfr
ontofmyf
ace.Ipul
l
edi
tlaughi
ngathi
m

Hi
m:l
etgoofme

Me:
smi
l
efi
rst

Hecouldn’
thel
pbutchuckl
e.Isawasmil
ecreepoutofhismout
h.Hecl
i
ckedhist
ongue.It
ook
apictur
eofhi
m.Justthenmyphoneranganditwasthi
smanwhopeoplecal
lmyfat
her.I
decl
ined

Hi
m:andt
hen?

Me:
myf
ather

Hecal
l
edagai
n

Hi
m:answert
heguyandhearhi
m out

Ir
oll
edmyey
esandanswer
ed.

/
/Hi
m:hel
l
oYandi
swa

Me:
Hi

Hi
m:howar
eyou?

Me:
good

Hi
m:uhhm…Ihear
dyoui
ntown
Me:
yeah

Hi
m:y
ourmot
herwant
stoseey
ou,
anychancey
oucancomef
ordi
nner
?

Me:
I’
m onmywayt
oMt
hat
hat
ovi
sitmymot
her
.Ify
ourwi
fewant
stoseemeshe’
l
lcal
lme

Mel
ogav
emet
hatl
ookofhi
s

Hi
m:okf
ine

Me:
ist
her
esomet
hingy
ouwant
edt
otel
lmemay
be?

Hi
m:nonet
hatIcant
hinkof
f

Me:
okcool
.By
e//

Mel
olookedatmeandshookhi
shead

Me:
What
?

Him:Igeti
tyoumadhe’
sdat
ingy
ourf
ri
endbuty
oudi
dn’
thav
etober
ude.He’
sst
il
lyourf
ather
andoldert
hanyou

Me:
I’
ll
sendhi
m at
extl
ater

Hi
m:no.y
ou’
l
lcal
lhi
m andapol
ogi
se

Irol
l
edmyeyesandstuff
edmymouthwithoni
onringssoast
oav oi
dthi
s.hetookmyphone
andhandedi
ttome.Ishookmyheadandpoi
ntedatmymouth,hechuckl
edandatehi
sfood

Me:
Iwi
l
ltexthi
m whenIgetont
hebus

Hi
m:Idi
dn’
tsayany
thi
ng.Mr
sBessmi
ssesy
ou

Me:
I’
ll
visi
therwheni
getback

Henodded.Wef i
nishedeatingandheset t
ledthebillthenwewentt obuyt ravelgoodi
es,wel
lhe
i
nsist
edwedoandt henhesentmecashandwedr ovet othebusstati
onlisteningtodon’
tbe
gonetool
ong.Icouldn’
thelpbutchuckl eatitsrel
ev ancebecausehewasbeggi ngmenottobe
gonetool
ong.Hekeptsi ngingitandrepeat i
ngituntilwegott ot
hebusst ationandIwentto
fet
chmyticket
.Ihad30mi nutesbeforeleaving.Wewer esit
ti
nginhiscarlisteningt
omusic.

Hi
m:y
ougonnabel
ate

Me:
Iknow

Hi
m:wewoul
dn’
twantt
hatnow

Me:
yeah.
Hepull
edmei nforakissandIr espondedtoitwill
i
ngl y
.Breakornot,he’
smi neandIwi l
lnever
saynotohisli
ps.Hewal kedmet othebuswhi lepeoplewereboarding,hehuggedmeasi fhe
wasnevergoingtoseemeagai n,i
twascutehowcl ingyhewas.Peopl ekeptcompl i
menting
howadorableweweret ogetherandI’
dsaywewer en’twhichhefoughtsohar d.Igoti
nandsat
bythewindowandwav edathi m unti
lIcoul
dn’tseehim anymore.

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S02E28-Mel
o

Whywon' tshehateme?Whywon' tIlethergoaftersomanyt i

messhe'str
iedt opushmeaway ?
Ihatemy selff
ortheshii
tIputherthroughandIwantt hi
ngstochange,Iwantt obeabletolet
hergobutI '
m scaredthatshemightjustmeetsomeonewhoi sever
ythi
ngi'
m not .Watchi
ng
thatbusdr i
veoffwithherwaspainful.Iwasonl
ygoingtoseeherwhensheget sback,that
'sif
hermot herdoesn'
tconvinceherI
'm notwor t
hyofherandshedeservesbetter.IdrovetoMrs
Bess'shouseandpar kedinsi
dethey ardthenwentinthehouse.Shewasint heloungecuddled
upwat chingwhateverandbusygigglingonherphone.

Me:
mor
ningMr
sBess

Her
:ohheybaby
.Comegi
vemommyaki
ss

Iki
ssedhercheekandsatnextt
ohergr
eet
ingherpr
oper
ly.

Me:
sowhoy
ouchat
ti
ngt
o?

Her
:myhusband.
..Duh!

Me:
Iwoul
dn'
tknow,
may
bey
ouf
oundy
our
sel
faben10

Sheshov
edmyshoul
der

Her:honeyhavey
ouseeny ourf
ather
?Ai
n'
tnoben10t
hatcompar
est
ohi
m.Thatmancando
t
hingsev eny
oukidscan'
t

Me:
eewumom!Idi
dnotneedt
oknowt
hat
!Wher
eishe?

Her
:hehadt
ofl
ytoJobur
gtoat
tendsomeemer
gency
,he'
l
lbebackt
oni
ght

Me:
wher
eisev
ery
oneel
se?
Her
:Iy
anai
satherboy
fri
end'
spl
aceandAsemahl
eisi
nherr
oom,
shecamei
nthi
smor
ning

Inodded

Her
:youok?

Sheputherphonedownandputherl
egsonmyl
ap.Shehadt
hatmot
her
lyconcer
nedt
oneof
her
s.

Me:
wher
edoIev
enst
art
?

Her
:thebegi
nni
ng

Me:
don'
tj
udgeanddon'
thi
tmemom

Her
:Imakenopr
omi
ses.I
twi
l
lal
ldepend

Me: af terYay al ef
tIst artedsl eepingwi thOlona,agi rlIusedt obef r i
endswi thbenefitswi th, I
startedget t
ingdi stantt oYay aandl yingbecauset hegui ltwasunbear able,shehadher
suspi cionst hatIwascheat ingandsoshecal l
editqui tsorgav emeabr eak.Iwentont obump
i
nt oMi r anda, myhi ghschool gir
lfr
iendwhomov edoutoft hecount ry.Wel lsheandIhaddi nner
andwet ooki ttohot elandwehadsex, t
hatwasamont hagoont heni ghtIwentt ov isitYay a.
Yay aandIdi dn'treallyspeakofi t,shejusttoldmet hatthiswasmyl astchanceandt hatshe
forgivesmeandt hatwasi t.Thi ngsi nCaliweregoodbet weenus, wewer ehappyandwewer e
us.Yest erdayshecamebackt omyapar t
mentt ofindMi r
andaf acedownont hebedwi tha
pregnancyst ickwi t
ht wol inesandanempt ybottl
eofpi l
ls.Shecal ledanambul anceandt hey
gott her eandr ushedhert ot hehospi t
al,
Mi r
andahadami scarri
ageandasf orYay a,shewas
pissedandhur tandangr y..y ougett hepoint.Shetol dmet hatsheandIneedabr eakbecause
thisisnotr ight,I'
m const ant lybr eakingherhear tofwhi chIknowt hatbutt hist i
mear oundi t
wasn' tonpur posebecauseMi raandIusedacondom andt helastt i
mewesl epttoget herwasa
mont hagoandInev ernotoncecheat edonYay aagai naf t
erthat.I'
m ascr ewup, Iknowbut
mom Ican' tloseher .Idon'twantt oloseher ,t
hatwomani sev eryt
hi nggood.She' sev erythingI
needi nmyl if
e.Sot hat'
st hat ...

Her :
IsaidIwoul dt rynottohi tyoubutI '
m sot emptedt oslapt heday li
ght soutofy ou.Whoar e
youandwhathappenedt omysweetson?Youar elit
erall
ynot hingli
key ourfather.Idon'teven
knowwher ethi
ngswentsout hbecausey ourf atherandIspendourwhol eli
vest ryi
ngt oshow
youandy oursi
blingswhatl oveis.Yourf atherandIhav epr oblemslikeanynor mal coupledoes
butnotoncedowel eaveeachot hert
of inddi ckthat'
sbet terorpussyt hat'sbetterbecausei t
's
notwor thitattheendoft heday .Yourf atherleavesmet ogoonbusi nesst ri
pst hatar ethr
ee
mont hslongorsomet i
mesIl eav ehim andasmuchast het empt ati
oni st here,i
t'snotwor thit
.
Youl uckybabybecausemnaIwoul dhav edumpedy ourassal ongtimeago.Yououchea
sleepingwithalloft hesegirlsbecauseofsomest upidbel i
efthatyouhav eneedsbutsodoes
Yandi swaandunl ikey oushecancont rolher self
,somet hingy ouclearlyknownot hi
ngabout .I'
m
reall
ymadaty ouMel okuhle,Ithoughty oubet terthanthis.LetYandi swagoi fy oucan' tt
reather
thewayshedeser ves.Actuallyyoucan'tt reatherassheshoul dbesol etgoofherMel okuhle
andf
ocusonf i
ndi
ngy oursel
fandwhaty out
rul
ywantinli
fe.Whenyour
eadyf
orher
,you'
l
lgoon
andt
rygetherback.Fornowj ustl
ethergobaby
,forherowngood.

Ishookmyhead.Let
ti
nggoofYay
aisn'
teasy
.Idon'
twantt
oletgoofher
.Il
oveher

Her
:don'
t

Me:
nomom Il
oveher

Her: l
oveisn'tenough.Loveismor eaboutacti
onst hanitisaboutsayi
ngt hewor dsMelokuhle.
This,thi
sisnotl ove.Thi
si spossessi
on,someki ndofobsessionoraddiction.You'l
lbetheone
tofigureoutwhi chiswhich.Lovedoesn'thurt
,loveisahappyf eeli
ng,
loveov ercomes
tempt at
ions,loveisever
ythingbutit'
sdefi
nit
elynotthisthi
ngy outwoaredoi ng.Bothofyouare
youngandt helastthi
ngy oushouldbedoingist hi
s.Letthatchil
dgoMel okuhle,shedeserv
es
better

Ikeptqui
et.Shewasri
ght
,may
beIshoul
dlethergo.
..f
ornow.Justgi
veherspaceandt
imet
o
fi
gureever
ythi
ngout.

Her:
Iunderst
andyoulov
eherandithur
tsbutbabydoitforher
,sav
eherfr
om t
hishear
tbr
eak
youcausi
ngher.I
t'
sbeentoomuchMeloandithasn'
tevenbeenthatl
ong.

Inodded.NowIknowwhattodoIguess.Har
dasi
t,pai
nful
asi
tis,
ithast
obedonef
orbot
h
oursakes.Nomoref
ool
ingaround.

-
Asemahl
e

What '
sthef ir
stthingy oudowheny ouwakeupi nabedy oudon'trecognise,apil
lowthat'
s
nothingli
ket heoney ouusedt o,wall
sy ou'
venev erseenbeforeandbl anketsthatsmellnothing
l
iketheonesy ouar eusedt o.Fir
stinsti
nctist ocheckifyounakedornotr i
ght?Ipeakedunder
theblanketsandIwasst il
lful
lydressedandmyv agi
nawasst i
llnormal andnotsoresor ape
hasbeent ickedof fthelist
.Ifli
ppedov erandt herewasnooneont heothersideofthebed,
that'
sar el
ief.Itr
iedtosi tupandmyheadf eltheavy.Itur
nedtothesi deandt her
ewasagl ass
ofwat erandabot tl
eofpi l
lswrit
ten"hangov ercure"Iwasal i
tt
lescept i
cal,
Imanagedt oget
my selft
osi tup.Ther ewasaknockont hedoor .Thisroom wasbig, al
mostt hesi
zeofmy
parentsroom.I twasheav enly
.

Me:
comei
n

Anoldladywal
kedi
n,dr
essedinunif
orm,shepr
obabl
yworksher
e,wai
tam Ii
nahot
el?how'
dI
gether
e?Whywouldmyf r
iendsandsist
erl
etmeleav
ewit
hast r
anger
?

Her:
goodmor ni
ngMissBess,
MrCrai
net
oldmet
obr
ingy
out
hisandhet
oldmet
otel
lyou
dr
inkthosepi
l
lsont
hesideofthet
abl
e
Ok?Thesur
namedoesn'
tri
ngabel
latal
l
.Sheputt
hef
oodont
het
abl
e.

Me:
MrCr
aine?

Her
:yesMrJamesCr
aine.

Ij
ustnodded.

Me:
wher
eisMrCr
aine?

Her
:hehadt
orusht
othesur
ger
ybutheshoul
dbebacknow

Howl
ongwasIout
?

Me:
howl
onghashebeengone?

Her
:anhournow

Me:
okt
hanky
ou

Her
:eatMi
ssBess

Wit
ht hatshewal
kedout.Il
ookedaroundandspottedmypurse.Igotoutoft
hebedandtook
t
hiscurethenwenttotakemybag.Isearchedt
hroughitandIhadadozenmi ssedcal
l
sand
t
exts.Icall
edmysist
er.

/
/Her
:gl
adt
oknowy
oust
il
lal
i
ve

Me:
don'
tgi
vemet
hatcr
apI
yana.Youl
etmel
eav
ewi
thast
ranger

Her:
Jamesi snotastr
anger.HeandIwentt ovar
sityt
oget
her
,youmethi
mlastni
ghtandyou
di
dn'twantt
ol eav
esoheofferedtot
akey oubecauseyouwer
egoingonandonabouthow
mom wasgoi ngtomurdery
oui fy
ourockedupdr unk

Me:
coul
dhav
etakenmewi
thy
ou

Her
:It
ri
edbuty
oudi
dn'
twantt
oleav
ewi
thus,
sai
dyoudi
dn'
twantt
obet
het
hir
dwheel

Isi
ghed.Imusthav
ebeenr
eal
l
ysl
oshedt
hen.

Me:
okf
ine.I
'
llcal
lyouwhenIgethome

Her
:I'
m sor
rybutJameswoul
dnev
erdoany
thi
ngt
ohur
tyoubabe

Me:
wel
lhedi
dn'
tev
ent
ouchmycl
othessoIguess

Her
:exact
ly.Yousaf
e

Inodded

Her
:by
ebabe
Me:
bye/
/

Justthent hedooropenedandGoodGodhav emercy!Thi

swast heJames?Hewas..
.what'
s
thewor d?dreamy.Yummy .All
sortsofwor dsyoucanuset odescri
beacreat
uret
hatshoul
d
notexist.Hiseyeswereoceanblue,hishai
rwasshortandbl ack,
hehadahaircut
.Hisli
pswer
e
pinkandsmal l,
welltheywerej
ustright.Hewasjustoutofthisworl
d!

Hi
m:mor
ning

Iwasbroughtbacktoreal
i
tybyhi
sbol
dhoar
sevoi
ce.Itwasverysexy
.Hewaswear
ingbl
ue
j
eansandawhi tet-
shi
rtwit
hanmd.Hewaseff
ort
lessl
yhandsomel.

Me:
mor
ning.

Hi
m:eatupsoIcandr
ivey
ouhome.Yoursi
ster
sbeenonmycase

Me:
i'
ll
eatathome

Hi
m:no,
you'
l
leather
eandt
henIwi
l
ldr
ivey
ouhome

Ishothi
m al
ook,
howdar
ehecommandsme?

Him:wecanstayint
hisr
oom al
ldayi
fneedbebutwenotgoinganywher
eunt
ily
oueat
.Hi
m
befor
eyout
hreatenmeaboutwhoyourf
atheri
s,he'
snotev
enintown.

Ok?Howdi dheknow?Therewassomethi
ngabouthi
m.Idon'
tknowwhati
tisbutt
herewas
j
ustsomethingabouthi
m.Isatmyl
it
tl
eassdownandstart
edeati
ng,
hesatopposi
temeand
at
efrom myplate

Hi
m:y
oucanj
ustkeepst
eal
i
nggl
ancesatmeory
oucanaskmewhat
everi
syouwantt
oask
me

Me:
howol
dar
eyou?

Hi
m:25

Me:
whatdoy
oudof
oral
i
ving?

Hi
m:i
'
m agener
alpr
act
it
ioner

Me:
howdoy
ouknowmeandmysi
ster
?

Hi
m:Iknowy
out
hroughy
oursi
ster
,wewentt
othesameuni
ver
sit
y.

Inodded

Him:
sof ory
ou,
Icouldn'
tkeepmyeyesof
fyoul
astni
ghtt
hesamewayIcan'
tkeept
hem of
f
your
ightnowMelody
.Yousobeauti
ful

Ibl
ushedl
ooki
ngdown.Icoul
dst
il
lfeel
hisey
eson.
Hi
m:f
ini
shupsoy
oursi
sterwon'
tbi
temyheadof
f.
..agai
n

Me:
what
'
sthet
ime?

Hi
m:hal
fpast9

Inoddedfini
shi
ngupmyf oodwhi l
ehepr essedhisphonesteali
ngglancesatmewhenev erhe
could.WhenIwasdonehehel pedmewearmyshoesandt henwewal kedoutl
eavi
ngt hebed
asitwas.Weheadeddownt hestairsandwal kedtot
heelevator.Ok.
..heli
vesinapenthouse,a
hugeonef ort
hatmatt
er.Wegotdownst airsandheunlockedabl ackBentl
ey.Heopenedt he
passengerdoorformeandcloseditthenwentI '
m hi
ssideandwedr oveoff
.Hewaslisteningt
o
acompi l
edplayl
i
st.

Hi
m:y
ouokwi
tht
hemusi
cory
ouwantt
opl
ugi
nyourphone?

Me:
it'
sfi
ne

Thecur
rentsongpl
ayi
ngwasTheWeeknd-Angelandhewassi
ngi
ngal
ongi
nav
eryl
owv
oice.
Wegottomyhomeandhepar kedout
sidet
heyar
d.

Hi
m:Ihopet
oseey
ouagai
nsomet
ime

Ij
ustnoddedandgotof
f.Imetmom ontheki
tchen,
shewasweari
ngshor
tsaddad'
st-
shi
rt
.
Thi
swoman.Shewasal lki
ndsofsexyf
ora40-somethi
ngy
earol
d.

Her
:wel
lmor
ningst
ranger

Me:
mor
ningmom

Her
:It
akei
tlastni
ghtwasl
i
t

Me:
itwas

Her
:cool

Shesaidwal ki
ngout.Okt hatwasawkwar devenforher , noquestions?Nonot hi
ng.Wassheok?
Sheseemedhappybutst il
l.Mom askingnoquest ionswhenIknowf orafactthatshesawacar
dropmeof f,well
there'
samoni t
ori
nt hekitchenconnect edtothecamer aout si
dethegate.I
wentupt omyr oom toshowerandgetdr essedcomf ortable.It
ookmyphoneandsear chedhim
onFacebookbutt herewasn'tmucht here,Itr
iedtwi t
terandi nstabutnothing.Hisaccounts
werepri
v at
e.JustthenIgotani nst
agram not i
fi
cation,her equestedtofoll
owme, Iaccepted
andfoll
owedhi m backandheaccept edsoIwentt hroughhi spict
ures.Hehadsomany
fol
lowersyetsolit
tl
epictures.Ther
ewasonl y12pi ctures.

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The6hourdriv
et oMthathafeltl
i
keanet er
nit
y.Ont
hewayhomeIwaschat t
ingt
omyf ri
ends.
Isitcr
azyt
hatNaledi
,Ash,Serena,AnitaandIhaveawhatsappgroupandthesepeopl
ehav en'
t
evenmetyet?Ithi
nkit
'scrazy.Eventual
lymybuscamet oastandsti
llatUl
tr
acit
yshel
l.Icall
ed
mom whosaidshewasal r
eadyher eintheparki
ngl
ot.I
twasjustaft
er5pm.

Me:
mummy

Weshar
edahugst
andi
ngout
sidehercarembr
aci
ngeachot
her
.

Her
:howar
eyoubaby
?

Shesai
dholdi
ngmeatarmslengt
h.Shelookedbeaut
if
ul.Idon'
tbl
amedad'
swi
fef
orf
eel
i
ng
thr
eat
eni
ng.Shewasagoddess.Mom wasbetweenasize32anda34.

Me:
i'
m goodmom andhowar
eyou?

Her:
y oul
ostwei
ght.Youl
ookbeaut
if
ulbuty
oul
ostwei
ghtMaf
aku.Hav
en'
tyoubeeneat
ing?
Areyouhavi
ngrel
ati
onshi
pprobl
ems?

Me:
mom comeon.I
'
m hungr
y,canwebuysomet
hingt
oeatandgohome?

Her
:yep.Rel
ati
onshi
ppr
obl
ems.Whatdi
dhedo?

Me:
we'
l
ltal
kathome.Canwej
ustgo.Youl
ookbeaut
if
ulbyt
heway

Her
:thanky
ou,
yout
oo.Ij
ustgotbackf
rom adat
e

Wewer
einsi
dehercarnow.Shest
art
edhercaranddr
oveof
f

Me:
adat
ewi
thwho?

Her:
someboringguy.GoshIwi
shIhadn'
tgoneoutwithhim.Youev
ersi
twi
thsomeoneandal
l
youcant
hinkofishowyouneverwantt
oseethem again

Ij
ustl
aughedather
.Thi
swomanj
ustsomet
hingel
se,
shehadsomuchat
ti
tudegoi
ngon.

Me:
sowher
edi
dhet
akey
ou?

Her
:mi
ke'
ski
tchensoatl
easthehassomecash-
nyana

Shepar
kedatpl
azaont
heWest
ernpar
kingandwebot
hgotout
.
Her
:beaut
ywi
thoutbr
ains.Li
kehewast
oodumbanduneducat
edf
orme

Me:
poort
hing.Why
'dy
ougooutwi
thhi
mint
hef
ir
stpl
ace?

Her:wemetv i
aafri
end.He'si
ntheset
enderthi
ngs,
he'
sanol
ali
onanot
herl
evel
.Pr
obabl
ygot
atendert
hroughconnect
ions,
dumbasshole!

Shewassopi
ssedi
twasent
ert
aini
ngt
owat
ch.Shewaspi
nk.

Her
:wher
eto?

Me:
checker
s,f
ish&chi
psandt
henpi
zza

Her:areyoupregnantchi
ld?Causeifyouar
eIwi
l
lwhoopt
hatassy
ou'
l
lwi
shy
ounev
eropened
yourlegs!Fi
sh&Chi psi
salreadycl
osed

Shehadastr
aightf
aceal
lofasudden.Iunder
standt
heconcer
nbutal
lIneededwascomf
ort
foodt
hat
'sal
landajoi
ntbutIcan'
tsmokeanywhenI'm home.

Me:
i'
m notpr
egnantmom Ij
ustneedcomf
ortf
oodt
hat
'sal
l

Her
:forwhat
?

Me:
real
l
ymom

Her
:ifI
'
m pay
ingf
oranyoft
his"
comf
ortf
ood"t
heny
oubet
terst
artt
alki
ng

Me:
don'
twor
ryi
t'
snoty
ourmoneymom

Shegav
emeaquest
ioni
ngl
ook,
itwassouncomf
ort
abl
ereal
l
y.

Me:Idon'
thav
eabl
esseri
fthat
'
swhaty
out
hinki
ng.Mel
osentmecasht
ocomebackt
oSA
andhesentmemor
etocomeher e

Her
:thi
sboyi
sdoi
ngt
hemost

Me:
mom pl
ease.Notnow

Her
:I'
mjustsay
ing.Fory
oursakeIhopey
oubei
nghonest

Me:
whywoul
dIl
i
emom?

Sheshrugged.Wepaidwithever
yonetel
li
nguswel
ooksomuchali
keeverychancetheygot
.It
wasannoy i
ngtobothofus,weknowwel ookal
i
ke,
wedon'
tneedareminder.Wegotto
Debonair
esplacedanorderandthenwenttoWi
mpyandpl
acedanot
herorderthenwenttoput
thej
unkinthecar.

Her
:what
'sgoi
ngonYandi
swa?

Me:
mom nodi
srespectbutcanwehav
ethi
sconv
ersat
ionwhenwegethomepl
ease
Sher
aisedherhandsupi nsur
render.Igotoutandwenttocheckont
heorder
s.Myphonerang
andi
twasMel o,speaki
ngofhim Ihaven'tbeenanswer
inghi
scall
sort
ext
s.Ianswer
edhimthi
s
ti
mearound

/
/Hi
m:ar
eyouok?Whatt
hehel
lYandi
swa?

Me:
Mel
okuhl
ecal
m downI
'
mfi
ne.I
'
m att
hemal
lwi
thmymom chi
l
l

Hi
m:y
oucoul
dhav
esentat
extat
leastsay
ingy
ougott
hesaf
e.Iwaswor
ri
edabouty
ou

Me:
i'
m sor
ry.

Hi
m:howwasy
ourt
ri
p?

Me:
li
ber
ati
ng.Hadsomet
imewi
thmyt
hought
s

Hi
m:oh

Me:
yeah

Hi
m:af
terdr
oppi
ngy
ouof
fIwentov
eratmom'
s

Me:
ok?

Hi
m:y
oust
il
latt
hemal
l
?

Me:
yeah.Let
stal
kwhenIgethomey
eah?

Hi
m:goodi
dea.Cal
lmeYandi
swa

Me:
Iwi
l
lMel
okuhl
e!

Hi
m:by
e

Me:
bye/
/

Wel
lhe'
sgr
umpyfornor
eason.IwonderwhatheandMrsBessspokeaboutt
hatgothi
m so
wor
kedupandal
lgr
umpy.Iwai
tedonmyor der
swhil
etext
ing

"
Yandi
swaGxaba"

Il
ookedupatwhoev
ert
hispersonwas.I
twasablastf
rom thepast
.Igotupt
ohughim,he
pi
ckedmeupandspunmear ound.Heputnedownandplantedaki
ssonmyf or
ehead

Me:
OhMyGodSi
sekoJwar
ha!I
t'
sbeenages

Hi
m:i
thasn'
ti
fyouagei
ngl
i
ket
his.Youst
il
lbeaut
if
ul

Me:
andy
oust
il
laf
li
rt
.Youl
ookgood,
chur
ch?

Hi
m:y
ep.Damn!Whatabouty
ou?
Me:
justgothome

Hi
m:sawy
ourFacebook.Youbowl
i
ng

Me:
hahahawhat
?No!

Hi
m:Ei
ff
elt
ower
,ti
mesquar
e..
.gi
rlpl
ease

Me:
Iknowpeopl
eIguess

Hi
m:weshoul
ddol
unch.Wehav
eal
ott
otal
kabout

Me:
yeahwedo.BuddyIshoul
dgo

Theywer
ecal
l
ingmyor
dernumber
.

Hi
m:l
etsgot
hen.
..don'
tgi
vemet
hatl
ook,
Ionl
ycameher
ecauseIsawy
ouf
rom t
hewi
ndow.

Het
ookt
hepi
zzaandcar
ri
edi
t.Wewal
kedt
oWi
mpy

Hi
m:It
houghty
oul
i
vedwi
thy
ourmom onl
y

Me:
Ido

Hi
m:wi
mpy
?

Me:
crav
ings

Hi
m:per
iods?

Me:
probabl
y

Hi
m:If
eel sor
ryf
ory
ourboy
fri
end.Poort
hingpr
obabl
yst
opsev
ery
thi
ngj
ustsoy
ourcr
avi
ngs
ar
esat
isf
ied

Me:
comeonI
'
m nott
hatbad

Hi
m:y
out
hink?

Sisekoist hatfri
endthat'
sdeepi nthef r
iendzone, sodeephe'slikeabrother.Inhighschool
peoplet houghtwewer edat
ingbutnope.Ii ntimidatedhi
sgirl
fri
ends,butitwasf orhisown
good.NowSi y ai
sthatguyinmyl if
e.Wegott omom' scarandhegr eetedbef orehuggingme
goodby e.IgotaFacebooknot if
icati
on,hehadt aggedmei napi ctur
ewet ookwhi l
ewalkingto
thecar.Ismi ledtomy sel
fthinki
ngofMel owhowoul dcal
lmet hemi nutehesawt hepictur
e.He
canbesoj ealous.Hi
scapt i
onwas" ablastfrom thepast<3.Mymunchi esstil
llooksgood"he
i
nser t
edi nlov
eemoj i
es.Thisguywasgonnagetmedumped.Hecal ledmemunchi esbecause
oftheweedandbecauseofmycr avings,onesheusedt osati
sfyal l
thet i
me.

Mom:
Idi
dn'
tknowhewasback
Me:
nei
therdi
di.Hesawmeatdebonai
resandcamei
n

Her
:youabusedt
hatboy

Me:
nev
er!Hedi
dthet
hingshedi
dbychoi
ce

Her
:yout
ookouty
ourmoodsont
hepoorki
dYandi
swa

Me:
ohmom.CanwegetaMcFl
urr
y

Her
:youbet
terbeony
ourper
iods!

Shesaiddr
ivi
nginthedr
ivet
hru.Wegotourorderanddrovehome.Iwenttochar
gemyphone
andthenwenttojoi
nmom inherwar
mr oom withthepi
zza.Shewasinherbl
anketswat
chi
ng
TV.Theset
elemundothi
ngs.

Her
:so?

Me:
don'
tshout
,Ij
ustneedmymom r
ightnow

Her
:ok

Itol
dherEVERYTHI
NG.Fr om bef
oreIl
eftf
orCali
toyest
erday
'sMir
andaSui
cidewelcome.I
wascryi
ngnow.Shejustpull
edmei nf
orahugandbrushedmyback.Iwasprobabl
ygett
ingmy
peri
od,
theamountoftearsIhavewhenI'
m goi
ngtobeonmyper i
odsist
oomuch.

Me:whatdoyout
hinkIshoul
ddo?Ican'
tbr
ingmy
sel
ftodumphi
m.Ij
ust
..
.Idon'
tknow.he'
sa
weakness,
he'
smyweakness.

Her:you'
velethim becomey ourweaknessbaby .I
'my ourmotherandIr ai
sedyoubetterthan
thi
s.Iunderstandthi
swhol efi
rstlovethi
ngbecausei'
v ebeentherebeforebutbabyyouneeda
break.Thi
sist oomuchdr amaf oryoutotakei
n.Youl ovehim,IgetitbutSthandwaSam t hi
s
boyisconstantlyhur
tingyouknowi ngverywel
lthatyougoingtof or
givehim orcomear ound
eventual
ly
.Forhi mtochangeheneedst oseethatyoucanl i
vewithouthim.Heneedst oknow
thatyoudon'tneedhimf oryourli
fetobecompl et
e.Babydon'tletamanhav ethi
smuchpower
overyou,i
t'
snotr i
ght.It
'snotgoodf oryou

Ij
ustnodded.Mom knowsbestaf
teral
l

Her
:Iseewhyy
ouneededt
hej
unk

Webot
hlaughed

Her:
pleasedon'tl
etthisboyhurtyouli
ket
his.Idon'
twanttoseeyoucr
yli
kethi
sbecauseof
hi
m.Pleasejustgatherstr
engthandtakeabreakfrom hi
m.Beitamonthorayearbuty
ouneed
sometimeawayf rom him.Itwi
lldoyougood.

Igotoutofherar
msandst
uff
edmy
sel
fwi
thpi
zza,
shej
ustl
aughedatme.
Me:
don'
tj
udge.Yousai
dity
our
sel
f,Il
ostwei
ght

Shej
ustnoddedl
aughi
ng.

Me:
sowhenar
eyoucomi
ngt
oCal
i
?

Her
:noti
nami
l
li
ony
ear
s

Me:
Mom!

Her
:whenIhav
emoney

Me:wel
lI'
vebeensel
ect
edwi
tht
woot
herst
udent
sinmycl
asst
ogor
epr
esentouruni
ver
sit
yI'
m
Washi
ngton

Her
:babyt
hat
'samazi
ng!When?

Me:
thef
inal
showwi
l
lbei
nAugustt
hef
ir
stweekendofAugust

Her
:I'
m sot
her
e.BabyI
'
m sopr
oudofy
ou

Shepul
l
edmei
nforahugsqueezi
ngmesot
ightIcoul
dbar
elybr
eat
he.Thi
swoman

Her
:Iwantt
icket
s.Iwi
l
lcl
earmyschedul
etobet
her
e

Shel
etgoofme.Shewassohappyandexci
tedf
orme.Mynumberonesuppor
ter
.Sheki
ssed
mycheek.

Her
:thi
sisamazi
ng.Youar
egoi
ngf
ar!Tot
hinkIdoubt
edy
ouchoosi
ngar
t

Me:
geezmom

Her
:Iwaswor
ri
edok!NowI
'
m pr
oudofy
ou.

Me:
right
.Ineedt
ocal
lLedi
andt
ell
herI
'
m homesaf
ebef
oreshest
art
scal
l
ingy
ou

Her
:andt
hatonei
scapabl
e

Iwal kedoutt omyr oom whichwasopposi teherandf oundmyphonewi t

hadozenmi ssedcall
s
fr
om Ledi ,Melo,AshandSiseko.
..wellitwasanunnamednumbersoI 'm guessi
ngit'
shim.i
conf erencecalledLediandAshtell
ingt hem tonotpanicIwassti
ll
ali
veandwel l
.thenIcall
ed
Sisekot ell
inghim wewouldmeetupt omor rowforlunchanditwasonme. .
.Iowehi mforthe
tr
oubl eI'veputhimt hr
oughinthepast .aft
ercall
inghim camethehar
destcallofthem al
l.
..
Mel o.

/
/Me:
heybabe

Hi
m:hi

Me:
Sisekoi
sjustaf
ri
end.Chi
l
l!
Hi
m:mh

Me:
don'
t.Justdon'
tMel
ocauseheandIl
i
ter
all
ygr
ewupt
oget
her

Hi
m:f
ine

Me:
sowhatdi
dyouandMr
sBesst
alkabout
?

Him:Itol
dMrsBessever
ythi
ngthat'
shappenedandshet
hinksweshoul
dtakeabr
eak.She
saysIoweitt
oyouforwhatI
'veputyouthr
ough

Me:
all
I'
m hear
ingi
sMr
sBesssai
dthi
sort
hinkst
his.
..I
'
m notdat
ingher
,I'
m dat
ingy
ou

Him:Ithi
nkshehasapoint.AsmuchasIdon'twantt
obutshe'
sr i
ght.I
'
veputyout
hroughal
ot
ofcr
apIhadpromisedyouIwouldn'
tandI
'm sorr
yfori
tal
l
.Ihatemy sel
fasiti
sandihate
myselfevenmor
efordoingthi
sovert
hephonebecauseIknowv erywellt
hati
nper
sonI
woul
dn'tbeabl
etodoit

Hi
sv oicesoundedli
keitwasreadyt
obreak.Hesoundedl
i
kehewasaboutt
ocr
y.Icanal
ready
pi
cturehim wit
hhiseyesal
lredandhisear
sallpi
nk.

Me:mom saidthesame.SthandwaSam wet oxictoeachother,wecan'

tsol
veany
thingwit
hout
i
nvol
vingsex.Wecannothaveaproperconversati
onwithoutteari
ngupeachot
her'
sclot
hes.I
don'
twanttodothist
oobutit'
ssomethingwebot hhavet odo.I'
m sor
ry

There'
swassil
encef
orsomet
ime.Noneofuswant
edt
oendt
hecal
l
.Wewer
ejustl
i
steni
ngt
o
eachother
ssni
ffs

Hi
m:Ndi
yakut
handaMaf
aku

Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMel
okuhl
e

Hi
m:we'
l
ltal
kwheny
ougetback

Me:
Mel
o

Him:what
evert
hisi
sdoesn'
tmeanwecan'tmeetupf
orl
unchandj
usthav
eachat
.Youst
il
lmy
bestf
ri
endYandi
swa.Thi
schangesnot
hing

Me:
okMel
o

Hi
m:gobackt
oyourmom,
we'
l
lchatonwhat
sappl
aterok?

Me:
ok

Hi
m:t
hisdoesn'
tmeany
oual
l
owedt
odat
eany
one

Ichuckl
ed

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sameappl
i
est
oyout
oo.By
eMel
o
Hi
m:by
eYay
a//

Igotoutlaughi
ng.Thi
sguywasmad.Onemi nutewecr yingandthenexthe'sorder
ingme
around.Ihopethi
sworks.Forbot
hoursakes.Iwentt omakeushotchocol ateandthenwent
backtomom' sroom.Iwasgonef ortwohoursstr
aight,blametheconf
erencecallandSiseko.I
handedherhermugandt henputmi neonthepedestalanddugi nonmywi mpymeal .Thiswas
heavenly

Her
:youwon'
tfi
tiny
ourj
eans

Me:
finebyme

Her
:ev
ery
thi
ngok?

Me:
spoket
oMel
oandt
urnsouthi
smom sai
dthesamet
hingy
ousai
d.

Her
:oh

Me:
yep.Sheal
sot
hinksweneedspace

Her
:howl
ong?

Me:
hahahat
hati
sagoodquest
ion.

Her
:takeasmucht
imeasy
ouneedbaby
.Itwon'
tbeeasybuti
thast
obedone

Me:
Iknow.ButIhav
eyouguy
s

Shelaughedandkissedmycheekwi t
hherwar mlips.Homei swher emom i s.Wedi all
edmy
grandmaandsheansweraf t
ersomet i
me, wespokef oranhourt al
kingandl aughingandjust
met ell
i
ngthem aboutCaliandWashington.Theywer ebothgoi ngtobet heref ormeandI
couldn'
tbeanyhappier.Af
teral
lthejunkeat ingandcallsIwentt ogetmyphoneandst ar
ted
chatti
ngwithmypeople.Iwasgonnasl eepwi t
hmom t onight.Itoldthegir
lsaboutmy
agreementwithMelo,that
'swhatitwasr eall
y ;
anagreementt ot akeabreak.Asesentmea
voicenoteandapictur
eofadr eamyguy .IthoughtMel owasdr eamybutdamn! !
!ThisMrCraine
dudewasonhi sownl evel
.Shewasal lexcitedsayinghe'stakingheroutf orluncht omorr
ow.

<3

[
10/
16,
12:
55]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E30–Mel
o
TodayIwassl eepinghome.There'sjustnowayIcangot omypl acewher emysheetssti
ll
smell
l
ikeYaya.Inallhonestythatwasprobablythemosthar dest,pai
nfult
hingI'
veeverhadtodobut
i
fitwil
lmakeourr el
ati
onshipworkthenI'm al
lforit
.Ideci dedtotrynappi
ng,j
ustasIwas
dri
ft
ingofftherewasaknockonmedoor .
..j
ustgreat.
..Ikeptquietbutthepersoncamein
i
nstead,t
hev oiceswer eofIy
anaandAsemahl e.sonoti nthemoodf ort
hesetwo.Theyjumped
onmybedoneonei thersi
de.

Ase:
Iknowy
ounotsl
eepi
ng

Me:
goaway

I
ya:
comeonwemi
ssy
ou

Me:
missmet
omor
row

Theybot
hlaughedatme.Aseroughedmyhai
rupwhil
eIyapul
l
edmyear
s.Ihuf
fedandwoke
up,t
heyweregiggl
i
ngli
keli
tt
leki
ds.Thi
siswhatt
heyusedt
odowhenwewereyoungandthey
wantedt
oannoyme.

Me:
i'
m up

Itur
nedaroundandsl
eptonmyback,
theybot
htuckedt
hemselvesundermyar
msandcuddl
ed
themsel
vesontome.Theset
woneedmeni nt
hei
rli
vesIswear

Me:
don'
tyourboy
fri
end'
scuddl
eyou

I
ya:
minedoesbutIpr
efery
ourchest

Ase:
Idon'
thav
eonesoi
'
llabusey
ou.
..wekeepi
ngYay
a'spl
acewar
mforher

Me:
andy
ouwonderwhyIdon'
tl
ikesl
eepathome

Ase:
li
ght
enup

Me:
youdi
dn'
tsl
eephomel
astni
ght
..
.wher
ewer
eyou?

I
ya:
whot
oldy
ou?

Me:
mom duh!

Ase:
ohr
ightofcause

Me:
wher
edi
dyousl
eep?

Ase:
fir
stsl
owdowny
ourhear
trat
e

Me:
Asemahl
ewher
edi
dyousl
eepl
astni
ght
?

I
ya:
Mel
ochi
l
lshewassaf
e
Me:
saf
ewher
e?

Theywer eri
ghtaboutmyheartrat
e,someweeksbackshewasr apedandt henmom tel
lsme
shedidn'tsl
eephomeaf t
erIl
eftheratacl
ub,whatam Isupposedtothink?IknowAsemahle
whenshe' sdrunkandi
'dhat
etohearthatsomeasshol
et ookadvantageofherinherdrunk
stat
e,thatguyiswalki
ngdead.

I
ya:
shewaswi
thmyf
ri
endJamesCr
aine

Me:
youmakei
tsoundl
i
kehe'
ssomeGody
ougr
ewupwi
th.Asemahl
e

Her
:hedi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ngt
omeMel
o.HeBr
oughtmehomesaf
elyok!Geez

Me:
whati
fhehaddonesomet
hingt
oyouhuh?

Theybot
hkeptqui
et

Me:
Iyanaaf
terwhatAsemahl
ehasbeent
hroughhowcoul
dyoul
etherl
eav
ewi
thast
ranger

I
ya:
Jamesi
sadoct
orandanol
dfr
iendofmi
nechi
l
l

Me:Kevi
nwasAsemahle'
sfr
iendnutt
hatdidn'
tst
ophi
m nowdi
dit
?Howcoul
dyout
wobeso
r
eckl
ess?Somet
imesIsweari'
mtheolderonehere

I
ya:
Mel
ocal
m downshe'
sfi
ne.Ikeptchecki
nguponher

Me:
bycal
l
ingy
ourf
ri
endr
ight
?Dammi
t!

Asegotupandst
ormedoutofmyr
oom

I
ya:
wast
hatnecessar
y

Me:wasyouleav
ingherwi
thast
rangernecessar
y?Ar
eyout
hatdi
ckwhi
ppedt
haty
ouwoul
d
l
eav
ey ourownsist
eri
naclub

Shel
ookedatmeandsl
appedmesohar
dthengotoft
hebed

Her
:justbecauseIsmil
ewi
thy ouandlaughwi
thy
ourdoesn'
tgi
vey
out
her
ightt
otal
ktome
any
how.I'm st
il
lyourbi
gsi
sterDerr
ick!

Withthatshewal kedout .Damnmycheekhur t

.Itwasonf i
r e,i
twast hefi
rstIyanaev
ersl apped
me, mysibli
ngsandInev ergotphy
sical
wi t
heachother.
..that'
stheki ndofhomeourpar ents
rai
sedusi n,nov i
olence.Igotupandwentt owashmyf ace, whenIl ookedupatt hemirrorIhad
5finger
sonmycheek, shereall
ydi
danumberonme.Ical ledYay a,Ineededsomeonet oget
mymi ndof fall
oft his.Talki
ngtomypar ent
swouldonlymakemat terswor se,byworseImean
Asemahlebei nggr ounded.Yesasol dasweareourparentsar en'tafraidtogroundus,them
groundi
ngusi st akingawayourcarkey sandcards.
..t
rysur viv
ingwi thoutthosetwothings..
.
youwoulddi e!Yay aanswer ed
/
/Her
:Idoubtabr
eaki
nvol
vesconst
antcal
l
s

Me:
Ijustneededt
oheary
ourv
oice

Her
:cany
ouwantt
oheari
ttomor
row.I
'
minbedsl
eepi
ngwi
thmom

Me:
yourEngl
i
shsucksy
ouknowt
hat

Her
:tsek!

Ihear
dfumbl
i
ngandt
hedoorcl
osi
ng

Her
:ev
ery
thi
ngok?

Me:
Iyanaj
ustbi
tchsl
appedme

Shecr
ackedupi
nlaught
er

Her
:wai
tar
eyouser
ious?Whatdi
dyoudo?

Me:
cal
l
edherdi
ckwhi
pped

Shewasst
il
ll
aughi
ngandshewasbegi
nni
ngt
opi
ssmeof
f

Me:
Yandi
swa

Her
:cal
m downI
'
m sor
ry.
..whywoul
dyoucal
lhert
hat
?

Me:
causesheputourl
i
ttl
esi
ster
sli
fei
ndangerl
astni
ght

Her
:Asemahl
eist
urni
ng21t
hisy
earMel
o,It
hinkshecant
akecaf
eofher
sel
f

Me:
youdon'
tgeti
t.Asemahl
ewassl
oshedandI
yanal
etherl
eav
ewi
thsomef
ri
endofher
s

Her
:di
dshegethur
t?I
sshedead?

Me:
what
?No!

Her:t
henyouhavenot
hingtoworr
yabout.Jamestookgoodofher,hedi
dn'
tevensleepont
he
samebedasherorroom.Shewokeupstillf
ull
ydressedbytheway
, y
ouhavenothi
ngtoworr
y
about
.Plussheact
ual
lyli
kest
hisguy
,don'tr
uinthi
sforher

Icl
ickedmyt
ongue.Shewassocal
m aboutt
hiswhol
ethi
ng.Whydi
dn'
tsheunder
standmy
concern?

Her
:cl
i
cky
ourt
ongueal
lyoul
i
key
ouknowIhav
eapoi
nt.YouoweI
yanaanapol
ogy

Me:
fuckt
hat

Her
:Iwasn'
taski
ngy
ouMel
okuhl
e
Me:
goodt
hingweonabr
eakt
hen,
Idon'
thav
etodoev
ery
thi
ngy
out
ell
met
oo

Her
:ohi
sthatso?Ay
tcool

Me:
youknowIdon'
tmeant
hatYay
acomeon

Her
:apol
ogi
set
oyoursi
ster
sandt
akeAsemahl
eoutf
orl
unchandaskheraboutJames

Me:
nowy
oupushi
ngi
t!

Her
:I'
m ser
iousMel
okuhl
e.

Me:
fine

Her
:sendmeapi
ctur
eandl
etmeseehowbady
ourf
acel
ooks

Me:
sot
haty
oucanl
aughatme?No

Her
:st
opbei
ngababyandl
etmesee

Me:
damn!Ev
eny
oudon'
tsl
apt
hathar
dandy
ouwer
eev
enmor
epi
ssedt
hanher

Her
:Iwashur
t,shewaspi
ssed.Bi
gdi
ff
erencebuddy

Me:
no!Don'
tdot
hat
.Don'
tfr
iendzoneme

Her
:justsendt
hedamnpi
ctur
ebestf
ri
end

Me:
you'
reabul
l
yrhaaa!

Her
:pi
ctur
eandby
enow

Me:
bye/
/

Itookthi
spictur
ef orthi
sgir
landsentittoher,
shesentmeav oi
cenotelaughi
ngandsayingit
's
notthatbadandt hatIover
react
ingovernothi
ng.Iheadedoutofmyr oom andwentdownstai
rs,
ImisseddinnercauseIwast oobusysulkingoverYaya.Judgi
ngbythenoiseint
heloungemy
dadwasback.If oundmyf oodinthemi cr
owave,warmedi tupabitandt
henwenttojointhe
famil
y.

Dad:
whatt
hehel
lhappenedt
oyourf
ace?

Me:
hel
l
otoy
out
oodad.Howwasy
ourt
ri
p?

Mom gotupt
oobser
veme

Her
:Der
ri
ckwhathappened?

Me:
mom pl
ease.I
'
mfi
ne,
justgotasl
apt
hat
'
sal
l

Dad:
why
?Whatdi
dyoudo?
IlookedatI
yaandthenwenttositdown.I
ftheyknowwhoslappedmet
heni
'l
lbefor
cedtot
ell
them whatr
eal
lyhappenedandthenAsemahlewillbemor
emadatmethansheisnow.

Me:
Iwasaj
erk.Byt
omor
rowi
twi
l
lhav
edi
sappear
ed

Mom andsadjustshookt
hei
rheadsdoubt
ful
l
y.Theywer
ecuddl
edupont
hecouchandI
ya
si
tt
ingonherownandIonmyown

Dad:
wher
esmybabygi
rl
?

I
ya:
she'
ssl
eepi
ng,
say
sti
red

Dad:
from what
?

Mom:
theywentpar
tyi
ngl
astni
ght

Mom sai
ditsol
oosel
yandcar
elessl
y

Dad:
Asemahl
ewentt
oacl
ub?Whywoul
dyoual
l
owt
hatAmahl
e?

Mom:
becausesheneededt
ohav
efun.Shecan'
tst
ayl
ockedupi
nher
efor
ever

Dad:
shewasr
apednotsol
ongago

Mom: andIknowt hatbutwecan'tkeepourdaughterassomepr i

soner
,sheneedstogetback
toherl
ifesoonerorlaterDamon.AndIwouldratherhavehergetbacki
ntoherli
fewhi
leli
vi
ng
undermyr oof
.Idon'tevenseewhatthebigdealishere

Dad:
thebi
gdeal
ist
hatsomet
hingcoul
dhav
ehappenedt
oheratt
hatcl
ub

Mom: butnothi
ngdid.DamonAsemahlei
sturning21t
hisDecember,
wegot t
ast
artt
reat
ingher
andhersibl
ingsthei
rage.Wecan'
tal
waysprotectt
hem f
rom t
heinev
itabl
e.

Dad:
asl
ongast
heyl
i
veundermyr
ooft
hent
heywi
l
labi
debymyr
ules

Mom: nodr inki

ng,noparty
ingri
ght?How'
sthatwor
kingoutsof
ar?Dowantt
hem toleav
eand
godot heset hi
ngselsewhere?Hasshebeenl
ivi
ngathomeshewouldhav
eneverbeenrapedi
n
thef
ir
stpl ace!

Mom stor
medoutandwentupstai
rs.Well
thatwasweir
d,ourparent
sdon'tnor
mall
yarguein
fr
ontofussoitwasallt
ooawkward.Dadgotupandfol
lowedhiswifewi
thoutsay
inganyt
hing.
SeewhyIli
etothem somet
imes?

I
ya:
ohkay
..
.tel
lmom anddadIl
eftf
ormyapar
tment

Me:
i'
m sor
ryIcal
l
edy
oudi
ckwhi
pped

Her
:I'
m sor
ryIsl
appedy
ou

Me:
wecool
?
Her
:al
way
s.Damnt
hat
'sbad

Me:
dudewher
edi
dyoul
ear
ntosl
apl
i
ket
hat
?Wt
f?

Her
:st
opbei
ngababy
.It
akekr
avmagacl
asses

Me:
forwhat
?Geez
!

Her:af
terAse'
sinci
dentf
igur
edsheandIshoul
djoi
nselfdef
encecl
assesandsofart
hey'
ve
beengoinggreat
.MeloIwouldn'
thav
ebeencomfor
tabl
eleavi
ngoursi
steri
fIdi
dn'
tknowshe
coul
ddef endher
sel
f

Me:
thi
sjohnguyorwhat
ever

Her
:James

Me:
right
,hi
m.Whatdoeshedo?

Her
:he'
sadoct
orwi
thhi
sownpr
act
ise

Me:
age?

Her
:25.

Me:
Iwantt
omeethi
m

Her
:what
?No!Rememberwhaty
oudi
dtoSean?

Me:
hel
ookedl
i
keaf
uckboyandIwon'
thav
emysi
sterdat
eaf
uckboy

Her
:soy
our
athershedat
eanugl
yguywhowi
l
lcheatonherwi
thi
nst
agr
am hoes?

Me:
what
?No!

Her
:al
lI'
m say
ingi
sthatIwoul
drat
hershecr
yov
eracut
eguyt
hancr
yov
erMul
i
misi
.Itwi
l
l
makesense

Ij
ustcr
ackedup.I
sthi
sgi
rlf
orr
eal
?

Her
:justsay
ing

Me:
whot
hef
ucki
sMul
i
misi
orwhat
ever
?

Her
:ri
ght
..
.youdon'
twat
chMuv
hango.He'
sat
radi
ti
onal
heal
erf
ort
hechi
ef

Me:
thatt
hingy
ouandmom wat
chat9pm ev
ery
day
?

Her
:yep,
that

Me:
nowonderIdi
ntwat
chi
t
Her
:it
sact
ual
l
yver
yni
ce

Me:
andi
t'
sinVenda

Her
:notal
lofi
tpl
ust
her
e'ssubt
it
les

Me:
what
ever

Igotupt
owashmydi
shandshef
oll
owedme.

Her
:sohowar
ethi
ngswi
thYay
a?

Me:
weonabr
eak

Her
:br
eak?Whati
sthat
?Ist
hatanewSout
hAf
ri
canpubl
i
chol
i
day
?What
?

Me:
hahav
eryf
unny
.Weonabr
eak.Hermot
herandmymot
hersuggest
edwedo

Her
:whatdi
dyoudo?

Me:
Mir
andat
ri
edt
oki
l
lher
sel
fbuti
nst
eadendedupki
l
li
ngourbaby

Her
:yourbaby
?I'
m soconf
used

Me:yest
erdaywhenYayagotback,
shef
oundherpassedouti
nmybedwi
thabot
tl
eofpi
l
lsand
shehadherrushedt
otheER

Her
:youst
upi
d.Howf
arwasshe?

Me:
amont
h

Her
:amonthagoy
ouwentt
ovi
sitYandi
swa.
..
unl
essy
ousl
eptwi
thherbef
orey
oul
eft
?Shi
i
ii
t
Mel
okuhl
e!

Shesl
appedt
hebackofmyhead!

Me:
ouch!

Her:
ourpar
entsshoul
dhavej
ustnamedy
ouMel
okubi
becausey
oul
i
ter
all
ytheopposi
teofy
our
name.Youdrov
eakidtosui
cide

Me:
Iknow.If
eel
badal
ready

Her
:Yayashoul
djustdumpyoubefor
esheendsupt
ryi
ngt
okill
hersel
ftoo.I
'm sodi
sappoi
nted
i
nyouli
tt
lebrot
her.WasMir
andatheonl
yoneyouwer
echeat
ingonYayawi t
h?

Me:Ol
ona.Iendeditwi
thbot
hofthem t
heni
ghtIl
eftandIhav
en'
tseent
hem si
nce,
wel
lIsaw
Mi
randayest
erdaybutt
hatwast
hatIswear

Her
:andI
'
mtheonet
hat
'sdi
ckwhi
ppedhuh?Youneedt
ogoonacl
eanseormom anddad
needt
odoar
it
ual
fory
ouorsomet
hing

Me:okenough.Igetit
,youdi
sappoi
nted.Il
ostYandi
swa,
theoneper
sonwhokeepsmesane
andi
ncheck,itdoesn'
tgetworset
hanthat.

Her
:your
ight
.Comeher
e

Sheopenedherar
msandpul
l
edmei
nforahug.

Me:
whati
fshemov
eson?

Her
:shewoul
dn'
t.She'
stooat
tachedt
oyou.

Igotoutofherar
msandshehookedherar
mint
omi
ne.

Her
:let
sgot
alkt
oourl
i
ttl
esi
sterandy
ouwi
l
lapol
ogi
set
oherf
orov
err
eact
ing

Me:
Ist
il
lwantt
omeett
hisJames

Her
:you'
l
ltal
kitoutwi
thher

Weknockedonherdooratt
hesameti
met henwebothj
ustl
aughed,
Iyaopenedandwefound
herf
aci
ngtheot
hersidegi
ggli
ngwi
thear
phoneson.Wejumpedonherbedandstart
edt
ickl
ing
her

Her
:guy
sst
opi
t

Shewasbusylaughi
nguncont
rol
l
abl
y.ButIhav
ethemostgoodl
ooki
ngsi
ster
sandmot
herev
er!
Westoppedt
ickli
ngher

Ase:
sti
l
lmadaty
ou

Shesai
dtr
yingt
ocat
chherbr
eat
h.

Me:
Iknowsi
s.That
'swhyIcameher
e,Icamet
oapol
ogi
se

Ase:
ok?Wher
e'st
heapol
ogy
?

Me:
i'
m sor
ryf
orov
err
eact
ing

Ase:
cool

Me:
tel
lmey
ouacceptmyapol
ogyandt
haty
oul
ovemef
orbei
ngt
hebestbr
otheri
nthewor
ld

Theybot
hlaughed

Ase:
unt
ily
oupr
ovet
her
est
,I'
m notsay
ingshi
i
t

Me:
okf
ine,
luncht
omor
row

Ase:
alr
eadyhav
elunchpl
answi
thJames
Me:
Iwantt
omeethi
m..
.whencanImeethi
m?

Asel
ookedatI
yawhoj
ustl
aughed.

I
ya:
hewon'
tl
eti
tgol
i
ttl
esi
s

Ase:
you'
l
lscar
ehi
m

I
ya:
itsdady
oushoul
dwor
ryabout

Ase:
dad?Why
?

Me:
mom ment
ionedy
ouguy
swentoutl
astni
ght

Ase:
ohGod!

I
ya:
theywer
ear
gui
ng.
..l
i
keser
iousar
gument
,mom st
ormedout

Ase:
wil
lIev
ergetabr
eak?

Me:
wewor
ri
edabouty
ousi
s.Justl
etmemeethi
m

Ase:
fine,
i'
ll
inv
itehi
mtol
unchTuesday

Me:
whynott
omor
row?

Ase:
causet
omor
rowIwantt
ogooutwi
thhi
m..
.wi
thouty
ou

Iy
ast
uckhertongueoutt
ome.Mysi
bli
ngsar
esomet
hingel
seIswear
.Onemi
nut
ewear
gui
ng
andt
henextwegood,got
tal
ovet
hem.

[
10/
16,
16:
25]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E31

WhenIwokeupmom wasn' tbymysi de...doctor

sdon'ttakeabreak.
..Iwokeupandchecked
myphoneandmom hadsentmeat exttell
ingmet hatshehadtorusht oworkt
herewasan
emergency,
Ihadtextsf
rom lastni
ght.I
twasj ustaft
er9am, Iwenttopeeandyep..Iwasonmy
per
iod.It
ookashowerandt henwentbackt omakemom' sbedwithat owel
wrappedaround
mybody ,myphonerangandi twasSi
seko.
/
/Me:
heybud

Hi
m:Mor
ningmunchi
es.Comeopen

Me:
open?Openwhat
?

Hi
m:t
hegat
eidi
ot!

Me:
arey
ouki
ddi
ngme?Youher
e?

Hi
m:y
eah.Nowopent
hegat
e

Me:
oksur
e//

Iworeapadandanunderwearwi
thtr
ackpantsandat
racktop.Hewasalr
eadyknocki
ngonthe
door,
Itookmyphoneandwenttoopenforhi
m,hewasalr
eadydressedupandl
ookinghotas
usual
.

Hi
m:munchi
es

HehuggedmeandIj
ustsanki
nhi
sar
ms

Hi
m:per
iods?

Me:
youhav
enoi
dea

Hi
m:y
ouj
ustwokeup

Me:
yeah,
wasmaki
ngmom'
sbedact
ual
l
y

Hef
oll
owedmet
omom'
sroom andsatont
hecouchwhi
l
eImademom'
sbed.

Hi
m:doest
hismeanwenotgoi
ngoutf
orl
unch?

Me:
wear
e!SpurorPana?

Hi
m:Pana,
Iwantaduo

Me:
yeahwel
lther
e'spi
zzaf
rom l
astni
ghtandf
ishwi
thchi
ps

Hi
m:cal
amar
iri
ngs?

Me:
fini
shedt
hem wi
thmom l
astni
ght

Hi
m:y
ou'
reawor
ldcl
assf
oodi
e!

Hesai
dwal
kingoutwhi
l
eIfi
nishedup.Icl
osedt
hedoorandl
oti
onedmybodyt
hen,
hewal
ked
i
nwhenIwasweari
ngmyjeanswithabraontop

Hi
m:Iseey
oust
il
lmai
ntai
n
Me:
wit
htheboy
fri
endIhav
e,howcanInot
?

Hi
m:sowhendoIgett
omeett
hisboy
fri
endofy
our
s?

Me:
somedaybuddy
..
.whendoImeetBae?

Hi
m:wecangoseeherbef
orel
unch

Me:forasecondIt
houghty
ouwer
egoi
ngt
osaywegoi
ngoutwi
thher
,wasgonnat
ell
yout
hat
youpayi
ngthen

Hi
m:y
ousost
ingywheny
ouony
ourper
iods!Ihav
eweed

Me:
awesome.Il
ovey
ou!

Isai
dsqueezi
nghi
minahug.Hebr
okei
tandhel
dmeatar
msl
engt
hlaughi
ng

Hi
m:Nal
edi
rui
nedy
ouIswear
!

Me:
shutup!

Iworealoosepoloneckandal
eatherj
acketwithahalfboot
.Iwor
eabeani
ehal
fway
.Il
ooked
l
ikeIj
uststeppedoutofawint
erphotoshoot.Apr
ili
scold!

Hi
m:Iseey
oust
il
lgoti
t

Me:
youknowmeal
ltoowel
l
!Any
wayl
emmegr
abmybagandwecanl
eav
e

Hi
m:ay
t

Wit
hthatIwentt
omyr
oom andputonv
asel
i
neonmyl
i
pst
henst
oodi
nthepassagecal
l
ing
hi
m out
.

Hi
m:her
eyougo

Me:
i'
ll
eati
nthecar

Wewentoutoft hekitchendoorlocki
ngandthenwedr oveofft
oHil
lcr
est,
Iwantedtovisi
tmy
grannyfi
rst
.Wegott omygr an'
shouseandpar kedoutsidethenwebothwalkedinsi
detheyar
d.
GranknowsSi seko,everyoneknowshim.Wespentanhourort wojustchi
tchat
ti
ngthenwe
drovetowardsNor t
hcresthiscri
b.Hecall
edhisgirl
fr
iendtocomeov ersowecanl i
ghti
tup,
apparent
lyshedoesn'tsmokeordr i
nk.Wewereinhisr oom wit
hhi
shookerandbae

Me:
sot
ell
meVuy
okazi
,whySi
seko?Imeanhedr
inks,
hesmokesweedandal
lthat

Hi
m:comeonMunchi
es

Iwashi
ghal
ready
.Hehadpur
plehaze

Me:
what
?I'
mjustaski
ng
Her
:he'
sagoodguy

Me:
that
'sal
l
?

Her
:Idon'
tknowhowt
oanswery
ourquest
ion

Hi
m:Veedon'
tanswert
hisgi
rlshe'
sst
onedandshewi
l
lsayany
thi
ngt
oint
imi
dat
eyou

Me:
Iwoul
dn'
tdar
e.Shej
ustseemst
oo"
angel
y"f
ory
ou

Hi
m:t
hatwor
ddoesn'
tev
enexi
st

Me:
itdoesi
nmydi
cti
onar
y.Oksi
mpl
equest
ion,
howdoy
ouhandl
ethedi
stance?

Her
:it
snott
hatmuchofadi
stancecausehe'
sinJobur
gandi
'
minbl
oem

Me:
sti
l
ldi
stance

Hi
m:shev
isi
tsonweekendsorIdr
ivet
oher

Her
:youi
nal
ongdi
stancey
our
sel
f

Me:
yep

Her
:youl
i
ve28hour
sawayf
rom t
heguy

Me:
yep

Hi
m:y
ouwon'
twi
nVee.
..munchi
eshasananswerf
orev
ery
thi
ng

Me:
sowhatar
eyoust
udy
ing?

Her
:mi
crobi
ology
..
.you?

Me:
art

Her
:wher
ewi
l
lthatgety
ou?

Me:
it'
swhatgotmet
othest
atesi
nthef
ir
stpl
ace

Her
:wow,
youmustbegood

Him:t
hisoneal
wayslovedtakingpi
ctur
esandpai
nti
ng.
..sheknowswhatshe'
sdoi
ngandshe
hasapassi
onfori
ttoo.I'
m proudofyoumunchi
es

Me:
thanksbuddy
.Sohow'
smi
crobi
o?

Her
:har
dbutIl
ovei
t

Me:
wher
ewi
l
litgety
ou?
Onethingaboutmeist
hatIdon'
tl
ikepeopledisr
espect
ingmycoursechoi
ceespeci
all
yifi
'
m
fl
our
ishingi
nmycoursemor et
hantheyare.Si
sekoisdoingphar
macyandmyf r
iendi
s
fl
our
ishing,
cum l
audevi
bes.Hi
sgirl
fr
iendpasses.

Her
:int
osci
ence,
beadoct
ororl
ect
urer

Me:
ok.
..

Her
:Yandi
swai
twasni
cemeet
ingy
oubutIhav
etogethome,
mymom wi
l
lbebackAnymi
nut
e
now

Me:
li
kewi
se.By
e

Si
sekogotupandaccompani
edhi
sgi
rlwhi
l
eIcl
eanedupt
hemesswemade,
justt
henmy
phoner
ang.I
twasMel o

/
/Me:
eyy
ou

Hi
m:heyYay
a..
.let
'sf
acet
imeImi
ssseei
ngy
ourf
ace

Me:
okcool

IhadaniPhonewhichhehel
pedmebuywhenhewasbacki nCali
wit
hme.I ttookalotof
convi
nci
ngbuteventual
l
yIwasconv
incedandsowasmom.I tt
akesgreatpi
cturest
houghiti
s
compli
catedasf
uckbutIlov
ethepi
cturequal
i
ty.Iswi
tchedtof
aceti
me.

Hi
m:y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul

Me:
thanky
ou,
SisekoandIar
egoi
ngout

Hi
m:t
heguywhopost
edy
ourpi
ctur
eyest
erday
?

Me:
yeahhi
m.Sol
etmeseey
ourcheekt
oday

Heshowedhi
ssi
deandt
hebr
uisewasn'
tthatbadasi
twasy
est
erday

Me:
notbad

Hi
m:y
eahi
tsnot
.Sowhatar
eyoudoi
ng?Whoser
oom ar
eyoui
n?

Me:
Siseko'
s,he'
saccompany
inghi
sgi
rl
fr
iendsoI
'
m wai
ti
ngonhi
m

Hi
m:mmh

Me:
comeonMel
odon'
tbel
i
ket
hat

Hi
m:how?

Me:
youknowhow.Ther
e'snot
hinggoi
ngonbet
weenhi
m andI
Hi
m:ok

Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?Ar
en'
tyousupposedt
obeonl
unch?

Hi
m:Iam butIf
igur
edl
emmecal
lyouf
ir
st

Me:
that
'ssweetofy
ou

Hi
m:al
way
s.St
il
lcomi
ngbackWednesday
?

Me:
no,
Thur
sday

Hi
m:whyal
lofasudden?

Me:
causemygr
andmaaskedmet
o

Hi
m:ohok

Justt
henSi
sekowal
kedi
nandcl
osedt
hedoor
,hewasr
ambl
i
ngaboutsomet
hing

Me:
ont
hephonebuddy
!

Hi
m:sor
rymunchi
es

Me:
comeseemyboy
fri
end

Hewal
kedov
erandIhandedhi
m anearphone.

Mel
o:hi

Si
seko:
hey
.I'
m Si
seko.Munchi
esbi
gbr
other

Mel
o:i
'
m herboy
fri
end

Me:
rightnowt
hatt
hat
'soutoft
heway
..
.

It
ookmyear
phoneandpl
uggedi
tinmyear
.

Mel
o:y
ouhi
gh

Me:
youaski
ng?

Hi
m:It
houghtweagr
eedy
ouqui
tweed

Me:
nowedi
dn'
tagr
eet
oany
thi
ngMel
o.

Hi
m:y
ousodi
ff
icul
t

Me:
canwenotar
gueaboutshi
i
tthatwebot
hknowv
erywel
lthaty
ouwon'
twi
n.

Hi
m:enj
oyy
ourl
uncht
odi
nnerorwhat
ever
Me:
right
..
.By
e//

Ithr
ewmyphoneont
hebed.Mel
ocanbeannoy
ingorI
'
mjustonper
iods.
..ei
therway
,thatwas
unnecessar
y.

Hi
m:ev
ery
thi
ngok?

Me:
Ishoul
dbeaski
ngy
out
hat

Hi
m:Veei
srui
ningmyhi
gh

Hesai
dli
ght
ingt
hehookerupal
lov
eragai
n

Me:
soi
sMel
o.Whatdi
dshedo?

Hi
m:she'
sinsecur
eabouty
ou

Me:
me?What
?Why
?

Hi
m:shet
hinksy
oudon'
tl
ikeherandshet
hinkst
hatIpi
ckedy
oursi
deov
erher
sorsomet
hing

Me:
poort
hing.Shehasn'
tgi
venmer
easont
onotl
i
kehermos

Him:Ithinki
t'
saboutt
hecour
set
hingy
out
woengagedi
n.Shef
eel
sIdi
dn'
tdef
endheror
something

Me:she'
sdramatic,thatshi
i
twasn'
tev
enper
sonal
.Mel
opr
obabl
yfeel
sthr
eat
enedbyy
ouor
somethi
ng.
..Idon'tknow

Hi
m:i
sn'
tfunny
.Bot
hourpar
tner
sar
eact
inguponus

Webothj
ustl
aughed.Theseonesaredr
amati
c.SisekoandIar
enot
hingbutf
ri
ends,
heckwe
pastt
hef
ri
endshi
plevelweli
kebrot
herandsi
sternow.

Me:
yougoodt
odr
ive?

Hi
m:mor
eli
kel
azy
.Wantust
oleav
enow?

Me:
yespl
ease.Iwantabur
gerandr
ibs

Hi
m:hahahay
ougonnagetf
at

Me:
let
sjustgoal
ready

Igrabbedhiscarkeysandmypurseandphonethenweleft
.Idroveustospur,
Ineededt hei
r
cri
spyonionrings.Wegott
ospurandorderedourmeal
s,Iaskedforachocol
atemilkshake,
theymaket hebest!Heopt
edf
oraSav annahdry
.Wewaitedforourfoodoverl
ight
conversat
ions.

Me:
whendi
dyoumeett
hisgi
rl
?
Hi
m:l
asty
earatchur
ch,
she'
say
out
hleaderandshesi
ngsi
nthey
out
hchoi
r

Me:
whyachur
chgi
rl
?

Hechuckl
ed.

Hi
m:honest
ly?Idon'
tknow.IguessIenj
oyedt
hechase

Me:
hav
eyout
woev
enhadsex?

Hi
m:askst
hegi
rlwhol
ostherv
irgi
nit
yat18

Me:
Arghj
ustanswert
hequest
ion

Hi
m:noty
et.She'
saPK

Me:
andy
out
hinky
ou'
l
lhi
titanyt
imesoon?

Hi
m:y
ouar
esomet
hingel
sey
ouknowt
hat
?!

Ourf
oodf
inal
l
ycameandIst
art
eddi
ggi
ngi
nsamet
ime

Me:
that
'swhyMel
ocan'
tst
ayaway

Hi
m:whati
sitwi
tht
hisguyany
way
?

Me:Ihonestlydon'tknow.Ilov
ehim,alit
tl
etoomuchev
en.Hechal
l
engesme,hemakesme
feel
thingsnoguyhasev ermademef eel
.Dati
nghi
misli
kedoi
ngwhit
epeopl
e'
sact
ivi
ti
esor
sport
s,ther
e'sthatadrenali
nerushofsomesort

Hi
m:t
hat
'st
hecheat
ingmunchi
es

Me:
younosai
ntei
ther

Hi
m: al
lI'
m say
ingi
sthatwhat
'ssof
undat
ingsomeonewhohascheat
edony
ouwi
tht
wogi
rl
s
i
nlessthan2months?Youneedmoret
hanabreakfr
om t
hisguy

Me:andwhatdoy ousuggest
?Thatweendthi
ngs?SisekoIcan'
t.Ican'
tbr
ingmy
sel
ftoend
t
hingswi
thhi
m, Ican'
tevenbri
ngmysel
ftodoanythi
ng.Helit
erall
ymakesmeweak

Hi
m:y
ouaddi
cted

Me:
may
be.
..pr
obabl
y.Idon'
tknowbutIl
ovehi
m,despi
teev
ery
thi
ngIst
il
ll
ovehi
m.

Hi
m:f
ine.St
aywi
thy
ourguy

Me:
ohshutup.

It
hrewachi
pathi
m andhecaughti
tandl
aughedatme.

Hi
m:Ihopeher
eal
i
seshowl
uckyhei
stohav
eyouMunchi
esbecauset
heMunchi
esIknew
backt
henwoul
dhav
elongt
imecuthi
m outofherl
i
fe

Me:
it'
slov
e.I
t'
schangesus.I
tmakesusweak

Hi
m:y
epandy
ouweakasf
uck.I
sithi
sdi
ckgameMunchi
es?

Il
aughedathi
m sohar
d

Me:
i'
m notdi
scussi
ngmysexl
i
fewi
thy
ou!

Hi
m:f
ineconv
ersat
ioncl
osed.

Myphoner
angandi
twasmom.

/
/Me:
Maf
aku

Her
:Many
awuzay
ouhomey
et?

Me:
no,
i'
ll
behomear
ound4

Her
:whi
ch4?I
t'
spast4al
ready

Il
ookedatmywat
chf
li
p.Howl
onghav
ewebeenher
e?

Me:
ohf
li
p.Ti
mef
lew

Her:
wasgoingtoasky
out
ocooksomet
hingbutsi
ncey
ounothome,
buymesomet
hingt
oeat
,
i
'l
lbebackat6or7

Me:
okcool
mom

Her
:don'
tdr
ink

Me:
youknowIst
opped

Her
:I'
m ser
ious!

Me:
soam I
,i
'l
lsendy
ouapi
ctur
eofmychocol
atemi
l
kshake

Her
:by
enow

Me:
byemom/
/

Af
tert
hecal
lIt
ookapi
ctur
eoft
hef
oodandSi
sekocr
ackedupi
nlaught
er.

Hi
m:don'
ttel
lmey
ougonnai
nst
agr
am t
hat

Me:
mov
eli
kesendi
ttomom.Shet
hinksI
'
m dr
inki
ng

Hi
m:shamemahn.Your
eal
l
yscar
edherof
fwi
tht
heecst
asy
Me:
Iknow.Sheneedst
ochi
l
l.

Isentmom t
hepictur
eandshesentmea" k".
..shedoesthatalotandsheknowshowannoying
i
tis.wecont
inuedeati
ngandchatt
ing.Wewenthomeat5: 30pm.Hedr oppedmeoffanddr
ov e
offtohi
shome.Mom camei nafewmi nut
esafterSekohadlef
t.

<3

[
10/
16,
16:
25]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E32–Mel
o

ItwasnowAugustandwewer eonourwayt otheAr t

sConv enti
oninWashingtonforYay a'
s
showcase.Wewer einCaliandwewer eleavi
ngf orDCatLuncht ime.SheandIwer egood, we
weregoodf riendsIguess.Thebr eakhasbeent oodamnl ongbutwhatchoi cedoIhav e?It'
s
been4mont hsf orChri
stsake,Idon'tli
kehowcl oseherandThomashav ebeent hou,they'v
e
beengoingoutandt akingl
ot sofpict
uresitwasr ev ault
ing.ImetJamesandheseemsl ikea
goodguyf ormysi st
er,heandIaref r
iendsIguessbutal lIknowi st
hathelovesmysi sterand
mysi st
erl
ov eshi m soi'
m goodwi t
ht hat.SotodayIwasmeet i
ngwi t
hYayaatsomecaf e.She
walkedinandshel ookedasgoodassheal waysdi d.Igotupt ohugherandwebot hsatdown.

Her
:howar
eyou?

Me:
i'
m goodbabeandhowhav
eyoubeen?

Her
:mi
ssi
ngy
ou

Me:
youhav
eaf
unnywayofshowi
ngi
t

Her
:Idi
dn'
tcomeher
etot
alkaboutThomasMel
o.HeandIar
ejustf
ri
ends

Me:
right
..
.justf
ri
ends

Her:
wecaneithersi
thereandargueabouthi
m orwecanhav
eani
cebr
eakf
astandcat
chup
andthengot
oy ourhot
elroom andcat
chup

Me:
canweski
pthebr
eakf
astandgetr
ightont
ocat
chi
ngupi
nst
ead

Shegi
ggl
ed

Her
:sexaddi
ct
Me:
say
stheonewhoi
nit
iat
edi
t

Her
:Iwasr
efer
ri
ngt
ohel
pingy
oupack

Me:
right

Thatwasusnow.Wewer eonabr eakbutoursexl if

ewasn' t
.Juneholiday
sshewenttoPari
s
wit
hAshantiandthelastweekofherholidaysshewenthome.It hinkshewasavoi
dingmeor
somethi
ng,Idon'
tknowbutallIknowi sthatIneversawhert hen.Icameher eawhi
leagoon
busi
nessandsheandIhadcount lesssteamysessi onstogether,
itfel
tasifwewentfr
om
boyf
ri
endandgi r
lf
ri
endtosexbuddi eswithi
nthis"break"ofours.

Her:
yesIwas.Whatwedoi
ngi
snotwhatweshoul
dbedoi
ng,
abr
eaki
ssupposedt
omeanno
st
ri
ngs

Me:
youev
erbeeni
nonebef
ore

Sheshr
ugged

Me:
thoughtso.Canweor
dernow?

Isai
dhail
ingawai
tr
essoverandshecametoourt
ableal
lsmil
es,
shehadbeenf
li
rt
ingwi
thme
eversi
nceIcamei
nhere.Shetookouror
der
sandthenshel
eft
.

Her
:ohmyGod

Me:
what
?

Her
:hav
eyout
woexchangednumber
syetory
oudi
dn'
tgett
hatf
ar?

Me:
whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?

Her
:Isawt
hel
ookshegav
eyou.

Me:
youbei
ngdr
amat
icr
ightnowYandi
swa

Her
:am I
?

Me:
yes.

Shekeptquiet.Idon'
tgetwhyshewassuddenlyact
ingup.Wemayhav efli
rt
edbutt
hat
'sasf
ar
asitgoes.Idon'twantt
hatgi
rl
,shedoesn'
tev
enhav eanassforChr
istsake.

Me:
ner
vousaboutt
omor
row?

Her
:notr
eal
l
y.Mypi
ecesar
eal
lcompl
ete,
I'
m exci
tedandIcan'
twai
t

Me:
that
'sni
ce.Hav
eyouboughtadr
essal
ready
?

Her
:myf
inal
fit
ti
ngwast
hismor
ning.I
t'
sper
fect
Me:
that
'sni
ce

Her
:yeah.Andwhatabouty
oursui
t?

Me:
it'
sper
fect

Ourfoodcameandwestar
tedeati
ngoverli
ghtconv
ersat
ions.WhenweweredoneIset
tl
est
he
bi
ll
andwel ef
t.Wegott
omyhot el
room andshethr
ewher sel
fonthebed

Her
:thi
siscomf
y

Me:
ver
y

Her
:comeher
e

Iwentt
ost
andi
nfr
ontofherandshehel
pedmet
akemycl
othesof
f

Her
:i'
vemi
ssedy
ou

Me:
yeah?

Her
:yep

Wewerelayi
nginbedcuddl
ingaf
terast
eamysessi
on.Myhandwasr
est
ingonherassandshe
wassl
eepingonmychest.

Me:
pleasebehonestwi
thme

Her
:about
?

Me:
hav
eyoubeensl
eepi
ngwi
thThomas?

Shekeptqui etforawhil
e.I
'vehadmydoubt slatel
y,wellwhenshedidn'tcomet oDurbanin
Juneitkindawor ri
edmecauseherf r
iendsarethere.Yayaisnotonetonotv isi
tDur
bansoshiit
hadtobeupandwhenIcamet ovi
sitshewasact i
ngal l
weirdandstrangelybutIdi
dn'tdi
gdeep
i
ntoit
; wellIfi
gureditwasexam st
ress.Youknow, thatt
ypeofthing.

Her
:itwasonet
imeIpr
omi
sey
ou

Me:
didy
ouguy
suseacondom?

Her
:yes.

Me:
when?

Her
:bef
oreIwentt
oPar
isf
orhol
i
day
s.Wewer
ebot
hdr
unkandy
ouwer
en'
ttal
ki
ngt
ome

Me:
IwasbusyYandi
swa.Iwast
aki
ngcar
eofawor
kemer
gency
,weal
mostl
ostmi
l
li
ons

Wewer
esi
tt
ingupnow.Iunder
standt
hatshedoesn'
ttr
ustmeandI
'
mtobl
amef
ort
hatbut
whenshecal ledmeIwasr eal
lydeal
ingwithanemer gencyatBESS, wealmostlostmi l
lionsall
becauseofar ecklessmi stakeouraccountantmade.Appar entl
yshewasgoi ngthroughsome
stuffwhenshewasdoi ngourr eport
sandbecauseoft hatshemadeahugemi stake.Eitherway
weal mostlostal otofcashwhi chwewer en'
tgoingtor ecoverf
rom andwasgoi ngtolose
cli
entsbecauseofi t.I
t'
st ookusthewhol eweekendtof ixthemessandwehadt osuspendher
forhermi stake.BESSI stoobi gofacompanyt ori
sklosingsuchmoney .It
oldYay aaboutt he
i
ncidentlongbef oreshewentonandf uckedThomast hatIwasn'tgoi
ngtobeav ail
ableonmy
phonef orthewhol eweekend.Idon' tunderstandyougi r
lssometimes,youoverr
eactov er
nothing.

Her
:itwasaonet
imemi
stakeandi
tnev
erhappenedagai
n

Me:howam Isupposedtobuyt
hatYandi
swa?Youandt
heguyst
il
lhangoutt
oget
her
.HowdoI
knowithappenedonet
ime?

Her
:Mel
oI'
m sor
ry.Isweari
thappenedonceandheandIagr
eedi
twi
l
lnev
erhappenagai
n

Me:youandhi
m agreed?Youmadeadealt
hati
twon'
thappenagai
n.Getdr
essedandl
eav
e
bef
oreIdosomethi
ngwewi l
lbot
hregr
et

Her
:Mel
..
.

Me:
byt
het
imeIgetoutoft
hatbat
hroom y
oubet
terbegone!

Isaidwal ki
ngtothebathroom.Ineededt obreathe.Iwassopi ssedbutmost l
yhurt.Thiswhole
ti
mei '
vebeendepr i
vingmy selfofsexwhensomanygi rl
sthrewt hemselvesatmeIr eject
ed
them allbecauseofher,becauseIdidn'
twanttodi sappointher.IloveYandiswaandt his.
.thi
s
i
st helastthi
ngIexpectedf r
om herofallpeopleorIjustputheronahi ghpedestal
.Igoti nsi
de
theshowerandopenedcol dwat er
,it
'
stheonlyt hi
ngt hatwillprobablycal
m medown.Af t
erthe
showerIgotoutanddr i
edmybodywi thatowel.Yay awasgone.Ij ustdownontheedgeoft he
bedwi thmyf aceburi
edinmyhands.Wher edidIgowr ong?IknowIscr ewedupbuti twasn't
meantt obet hi
sbad.Myphoner anganditwasYay a,Ipressedr ej
ectandsoonaf t
erIgotacal l
from Michael.

/
/Hi
m:Ij
ustl
andedsoI
'
m onmywayt
othehot
elnow

Me:
i'
ll
seey
out
hen

Hi
m:y
oubet
terbedr
essedandr
eadyt
ogo

Hi
m,t
hegi
rl
s,Si
ya,
Yay
a'smom andmi
newer
eal
lgoi
ngt
ofl
ytoget
her
.

Me:
youshoul
dbewor
ri
edaboutt
hel
adi
esandnotme

Hi
m:y
eahwel
lyout
endt
obehav
eli
keoneoft
hem

Me:
scr
ewy
ou!
Hi
m:what
everBess.Seey
ousoon

Me:
bye/
/

Af
tert
hecall
Iputmyphoneonthebedandwentt
opourmy
sel
fadri
nk.Ineededal
cohol
inmy
sy
stem.Ther
ewasaknockonthedoor,
Iwentt
oopenandi
twasSi
ya.

Hi
m:y
oul
ookf
uckedup

Me:
ist
haty
ourwayofsay
ingIl
ookugl
y

Hi
m:duh!It
houghtIsawy
ouwal
kinwi
thYay
a

Me:
shel
eft

Hi
m:t
hatsoon?Whathav
eyoudonet
hist
ime?

Me:
askhert
hat

Hi
m:st
opbei
ngababy
.What
'
sup?

Me:
not
hing.I
'
mjustdr
ainedt
hat
'
sal
l

Hi
m:andYay
a?

Me:
probabl
ywentt
odoherhai
r

Hi
m:sowhat
?Youmadather
?

Me:
no.Ni
ggawhatdoy
ouwant
?

Hi
m:whatt
imear
ewel
eav
ing?

Me:
at3pm

Hi
m:ni
ce,
let
'sgogetourhai
rcut

Me:
myhai
risf
ine.

Hi
m:whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?Yousomoodyandshi
i
t

Me:
no.I
'
mti
red

Hi
m:f
ine.What
ever

Witht
hathel eft
.Igotonthebed,switchedmyphoneoffandt r
iedtosl
eep.Itwasast r
uggleso
Igotmyselfabot t
leandt
riedagai
n.Itknockedmeri
ghtout,justwhatIneeded.I
'm notusedto
bei
nghurt,I'
m usedtodoingthehurt
ingsoy oucant
ryunderstandwhyt hi
sishardformeandi s
aspai
nfulasi ti
sbecausethisi
sthelastthi
ngIwoul
dhav eexpectedfrom Yaya.

.
.

-
Michael

Wewer eattheairportwait
ingonMel o.We'v
ebeent ryi
ngt ocallhim buthi
sphonekeptgoi ng
str
aighttovoi
cemai l
.Yayawasl eavi
ngwithherclassmat es.Ical
ledherbitshewasn't
answeringeit
her.
..ok..t
heyprobablygoti
ntoafight.Idon'tunderst
andhowt heset
wof uncti
on
Iswear!Onemi nutetheyonabr eakandthenexttheyf uckbuddies..Idon'
tknow.

Si
ya:
Ash

Ash:
didy
our
eachhi
m?

Si
ya:
no,
andYay
aisn'
tanswer
ingy
ourcal
l
stoo?

Ash:
no

Ama:
ifMel
owant
stobechi
l
dish,
lethi
m.He'
l
ldr
ivehi
msel
fther
e!

Si
ya:
may
besomet
hingi
swr
ong,
i'
ll
gocheckonhi
m

Me:
nol
etmego

Ash:
i'
ll
comewi
thy
ou

Wegoti
ntomycarandwedr
ovet
othehot
el.Ipar
kedandwebot
hgotoutandwentt
ohi
s
r
oom.Hewassl
eeping.

Me:
Mel
owakeup

Isai
dshaki
nghi
m,heopenedhi
sey
esaf
teral
i
ttl
ebi
tofst
ruggl
i
ng

Hi
m:what
?

Me:
dudewe'
vebeent
ryi
ngt
ocal
lyou.Whatt
hehel
l
?

Hi
m:i
'
m sl
eepi
ng

Ash:
Mel
ocomeonl
et'
sgo.Wegonnami
ssourf
li
ght

Hi
m:notgoi
ng.Hav
easaf
efl
i
ght

Me:
dudey
ourgi
rlneedsy
out
her
e

Hi
m:shehasThomas.

Me:
what
?

Ash:
let
sgoMi
cah

Me:
Mel
ocomeondude
Hi
m:dudey
ougoi
ngt
omi
ssy
ourf
li
ght

Hesai
dcoveri
nghi
sheadwithapi
l
low.Asht
ookmyhandandl
edmeoutofhi
sroom.Wegot
t
othecarandwebothgoti
nanddrov
eoff

Me:
whatdi
dMel
omeanshehasThomas

Ash:
Idon'
tknow.Yousawhowdr
unkhewas

Me:
webot
hknowy
ounowmor
ethany
oul
ett
ingon

Her
:it
snot
hingbabe.

Ij
ustl
etherbe.Wegotbackt
otheai
rpor
tandev
ery
onewasi
mpat
ient
lywai
ti
ng.

Ama:
noMel
o?

Me:
nope.Hehadsomel
astmi
nut
efi
l
est
owor
kont
hat
'sal
l

Ama:
thi
sboyandwor
k

Ash:
he'
l
lpr
obabl
ybet
her
etomor
rowmor
ning

Ama:
Ihopeso

Wegotonandheadedt
oWashingt
on.Itwasabeaut
if
ulpl
ace.Socalm andl
essbusythanCal
i.
Wel
andedveryl
atesowewenttogrababit
eandheadedontoourrooms.IwalkedAshtoher
r
oom

Me:
Ashwhat
'sgoi
ngon?

Her
:not
hingweneedt
owor
ryabout
.Ineedt
oshowerandgov
isi
tmyf
ri
end

Me:
ohok

Withthatshegotinandcl osedthedoorandIwenttomyr oom andcl

osedmine.Ikeptt
ryna
cal
lMel obuttonoluck.What everhappenedmustbehugeforhimtomissthemostimportant
dayofhisgirl
fr
iend'
slif
e.Thef oll
owingmorni
ngwemetupf orbr
eakf
astbutAshandSerena
weren'twi
thus.AfterbreakfastSiy
aandIwalkedtoourrooms

Si
ya:
ever
ythi
ngok?

Me:
Idon'
tknow.Mel
o'
snotanswer
inghi
sphone

Hi
m:hecan'
tmi
sst
his.I
t'
simpor
tantt
ohi
sgi
rl
fr
iend

Me:
Iknow.Tr
ustmeIknow

Hi
m:di
dheat
leastment
ionsomet
hing?
Me:
all
hesai
dwast
hathewasn'
tcomi
ng

Hi
m:Yay
amustbecr
ushed.Myf
ri
endhasbeenl
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtot
hissi
nceIdon'
tknow

Ij
ustshruggednotknowi
ngwhatt
osay.It
'snotmypl
acetoputhi
sbusi
nessoutt
her
eany
way
andifanyoneknowswhat'
sgoi
ngon,
it'
sAshandSerena.

<3

[
10/
16,
16:
25]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E33

Iscrewedupbi gt ime.If uckedupr eall

ybadandIdon' tthi nkMel oandIcanmov eonf rom t his.
Thingsbet weenushav ebeencool butthat '
sasf arasi tgoesandThomasandIhav ebeent ight
asf uck.We' veat tendedqui t
eaf ewar texhibi ti
ons, galleries, musi cshows, awar ds,anycool
showwher ear tisi nvolvedwe' vebeent her eandwe' vehadanamazi ngt i
meunt i
lthisoneni ght
wewer eathi scl ubandwewer ebot hsupersl oshedandMel o'sphonekeptgoi ngonv oicemai l
,
Icouldn'thelpbutt hinkhewasbusywi t
honei fhi sgi rl
s...wi thMel oy oucannev erbecer tai
n.
Sowi thabi tofal cohol inoursy stems, onet hingl edt oanot herandwehadsex.I '
vehat ed
my selfsinceandknowi ngwhatI 'vedoneIhav en'tbeenabl et of aceMel ount ilt
hedayhecame
toCal iandr ockedupatschool unexpect edly.It r
iedav oi dinghi m buti t
'snoteasyav oiding
someonei nt hesamet ownasy ou, knowsy ourr out ineal lt oowel landi sper sistentAF.Somany
ti
mesIwascl oset otelli
ngbutt henhewoul dj ustdosomet hingamaz ingt hatwi llmakeme
mel tandf orgetev erything.Iwon' tlieandsayIhav en'tseenhi m sincebecauseI '
veseenhi m
andhe' sbeenbeggi ngmet ogivehi m achanceandt el
lingmet hathe' sinlov ewi thme, your
usuallysappyst uf f.AllIknowi st hathewant smeandt hef eelingisnotmut ual.Iwasatt he
hotelwi thmycl assmat eandev eryonebookedI '
mt hei rsepar at erooms, afterleavingMel o'
s
room It houghtofnotat tendingbutt heni 'dbel ettingdownal otofpeopl eandsoIf i
guredl et
meat t
end.Iwasi nmyr oom sleepi ng,wel lnotr eal lysleepi ngbutt hinkingaboutwhatI 'vedone
whent herewasaknock, itwasAshant iandSer ena, Ashpul ledmet oherchestandIj ustcr ied
myey esout .Shel edmet othecouchandwewer ej oinedbyS.WhenIwasf inall
ycal m Ashl et
megoandhandedmeagl assofwat er.

Ash:
howdi
dhef
indout
?

Me:
heaskedandIt
oldhi
m

Ser
:babeyoushoul
dhavel
i
ed!Ther
e'snoprooft
haty
ouguy
sev
ensl
eptt
oget
her
.Youshoul
d
hav
eliedsobadyouev
enstandononeleg.
Ashchuckl
ed

Ash:
nott
het
imeS.I
'
m sor
rymami

Me:
isheher
e?

Theybot
hlookedateachot
herandshookt
hei
rheads.OhGod!

Me:
hehat
esme.Idi
sgusthi
m

Ser
:nohoneythat
'snottr
ue.He'
sjustmad,
wel
lhehasnor
ightt
oseei
ngt
heamountoft
imes
he'
shur
tyou.Hedeservedatast
eofhisownmedi
cine

Ash:
stopi
tSgeez.

Ser:noAshanti
.Mel
ohasfuckedupwayt
oomanyt
imes.Iam pr
oudofy
oumyf
ri
end,
hehas
fuckedyouoverwaytoomanyti
mes!

Serenahasbeensayi
ngIshouldbangThomasbecausehel ooksli
kehe'
spackeddownthere
andshewasr i
ght,
heisbigbutnotasbigasMelo.I
'
m sorrybutyoucan'
tbangtwoguysand
notcompare,i
t'
sagir
lthi
ng.SexwithThomasisnothi
ngcompar edtosexwit
hMelo,Mel
o'ssex
wouldhaveyoucheatonyourhusbandbecausei
t'
sthatgood.

Ser
:younev
ershar
ed,
howwasi
t?

Me:
Iwasdr
unk

Ser
:youpussywasn'
t.I
twassoberAF!Sospi
l
l

Me:
itwasgoodIguess

Ser
:isheaspackedasIsai
dhewas?

Ash:
what
?ComeonSer
ena.Yay
adon'
tent
ert
ainher

Ser
:sheneedsent
ert
aini
ng.So?

Me:
he'
sbi
g

Ser
:yum!

Me:
ismymom her
e?

Ash:
yesandshe'
sbeenwor
ri
edsi
ckabouty
ouandsohasy
ourmot
heri
nlawandev
ery
one
el
se

Me:
i'
ll
seet
hem t
omor
row.Idon'
tev
enknowhowI
'
m supposedt
ofacet
hem,
especi
all
yhi
s
mom

Ser
:hersonst
art
edi
t.Sheshoul
dunder
stand.Twocanpl
ayt
hisgame
Me:
itwasn'
tev
enr
evenge

Ser
:ei
therwayIam pr
oudofy
oumami

Shesai
dsqueezingmei nahugandki ssi
ngthesi
deofmyhead.Ser
enal
ovesdrama.
..t
oo
much.i
fitwereupt ohershewoul
dpl antacamer
aonmejustsoshecanwatchmeandMelo
getont
oit(f
ight
),saysweenter
tai
ning.

Ash:ev
entual
l
yyougoi
ngt
ohav
etoswi
tchy
ourphoneonYay
asot
hatpeopl
ecancal
lyouand
tal
ktoyou

Me:
Ijustwannast
ayi
nmyr
oom t
hewhol
edayandnev
erl
eav
e

Ser
:let
sor
dercomf
ortf
ood,
we'
l
lleav
etomor
row

Me:
thankshoney

Westayedtherewai
ti
ngf orthef
oodtocomeup.Theyt r
iedtocheermeupanditact
uall
y
wor
kedbecauseIwasl aughing,
blameSerena.Weendeduppl ayi
ngpi
l
lowf
ightandthen
wat
chingchickfl
i
cksandt henweslept
,onlytowakeupafter10am

Me:
shi
i
t!!

Ser
:what
?

Me:mydressneedsi
roni
ng,Imi
ssesbr
eakf
astwi
tht
het
eam andt
hent
her
est
hear
t
conv
ent
ionviewi
ngandsetupat11

Ash:
gowash.Wewi
l
lsor
tyourdr
essoutok.Needany
thi
ngel
se?

Me:
Ithi
nkIf
orgotmyshoesbacki
nCal
i
.Wher
ear
eyourpi
l
lsS?

Ser
:inmybag

Shedoesn' tgoany wher ewit

houtherhangov ercure.Itookonet henwentt ot akea5mi nute
shower ,itwasl i
terall
y5mi nutesandt henIbr ushedmyt eethanddi deveryt
hing.By10: 55Iwas
doneandl eavingther oom wearingsweat pants,vest,airmaxandat r
acktopwi t
hacap
coveringmyuncombedweav e.Igotdownst airsandev eryonewaswai ti
ngonourl ect
urerwho
cameandt ookust ot hehallwheretheev entwoul dbehel d.Wef ixedupourst ationwi t
hout
anyoneget t
inginany one'swayandwhenwer edonewewentbackt othehotel.Itwasst art
ing
at6pm.Iwor ealongt urquoisepri
ncessydr esswi t
hawhi tebeltbelowtheboob, mydr esswas
aboobt ubeandi tt ouchedthefloorsoIhadt oholdit.Ithadat oo-toounderneath.Ilookedl i
ke
aprincess, myhai rwasal lti
redupt othebacki ntoacut ebunwi t
hcl i
pstohol ditinplace.We
werei nthehal landev eryonewasi ntheirseat,IkeptlookingorMel obutheser i
ouslywasn't
comi ng.Afterthewhol eshowandwehadwon1stpl aceIsawThomaswal kupt ome, mymom
andMr sBess. .
.ohGod! !
!

Hi
m:goodev
eni
ngl
adi
es
Mom:
hi

Ama:
hel
l
o

Me:mom, Mr
sBess;t
hisi
sThomasmyf
ri
end.Thomast
hisi
smymot
herBabesandmy
boy
fri
end'
smotherAmahl
e

Hi
m:ni
cet
omeety
ou.It
houghti
'
dfi
nal
l
ymeety
ourboy
fri
end

Ama:
mywor
kahol
i
csonj
ustcoul
dn'
tgetof
fwor
k

Hi
m:t
oobad.Youl
ookst
unni
ng,
all
ofy
ou

Mom:
thanky
ou

Hi
m:nott
odi
stur
byouguybutmayIpl
easehav
eamomentwi
tht
hel
adyoft
hehour

Iwasli
ter
all
yprayi
ngmom orMrsBesssaynobuttheysai
dyeshecantakemetheyneedt
o
headbacktothehotel
any
way.Ihuggedt
hem bot
hgoodnightandt
henIwaslef
twit
hThomas.

Hi
m:i
'
vebeencal
l
ingy
ou

Me:
myphone'
sbeenof
f

Hi
m:y
eahwel
lIf
oundy
ounow

Me:
yesandy
oucanl
eav
enow

Hi
m:i
'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
e.Yandi
swawhywon'
tyougi
vemet
het
imeofday
?

Me:becauseThomasIhaveaboyfr
iendwhoiscurr
ent
lynott
alki
ngtomebecausehef
oundI
hadsexwithyou.SonoIdon'
twanttotal
ktoyouandendupmakingmatt
ersworse

Him:whereishe?Todaywasthemostimpor
tantdayofyourli
feandhedidn'
tshowupbecause
hetoomadaty ou?Thisguyhasscr
ewedsomanygi r
lsi
ny ourabsenceandyou'
vef
orgi
venhi
m.
Whycan'thedothesame?

Me:
Idon'
thav
eti
mef
ort
his

Iat
tempt
edwal
ki
ngawaybuthehel
dmyar
m

Me:
letgoofmeThomas

Hi
m:Yandi
swaI
'
m sor
ryImessedy
ourr
elat
ionshi
pupbutIdon'
tregr
eti
t.Il
ovey
ou

Me:
youdon'
tev
enknowme

Him:Iknowthatyourol
lyoureyeswhenyoudon'twanttobel
iev
esomethingsomeonesay sto
you.Yourear
sturnpi
nkwheny ourangerbui
l
dsupandy out
uckyourhai
rbehindyoureareven
i
ftherearenolosest
randsofit
.Youbatyourlasheswhenyouholdi
ngbacktearsandyour
bott
om li
pquiver
s.Youscr at
chyourupperarm whenyoustressedandy ouchewonast raw.
Yourpalmsgetallsweatywheny ounerv
ousandy oubli
nk5t i
mesbef oredoi
ngsomethingyou
unsureof.Youpr
eferyourfri
esfrom t
hetuckshopdownt heroadf r
om yourcampuswheny ou
gonnabeony ourperi
ods.Yourfavori
temil
kshakeisbubbl
egum flavourbutyoupr
efer
chocolat
ewheny ouony ourper
iods.

Me:
stopok!Justst
op

Isaidt
ucki
nghai
rbehi
ndmyear.Ohshi
it!Howdidhenoti
cethat
?Hesmi l
edar
rogant
lyal
most
proudofhi
msel
f.Iy
ankedmyarmfrom him andwal
kedovert
oSerenaandAshwhower e
standi
ngwit
hSiy
aandMicah.

Si
ya:
youok?

Mypal
mswer
eal
lsweat
yandIwoul
dscr
atchmyupperar
m

Mi
cah:
arey
oucol
d?

Me:
i'
mfi
ne.I
'
mreadyt
ogobackt
oCal
inow

Ash:
wel
eav
ingt
omor
row,
whatabouty
ouguy
s?

Me:Ihav
et oatt
endthi
sdinnerwi
thsomef
amousmogul
stomor
rowandt
henhav
ebr
eakf
ast
wi
ththepresi
dentSundaymorni
ng

Ser
:Iguesswewi
l
lseey
oubacki
nCal
i

Si
ya:
andwe'
l
lseey
oui
nDecember

Me:
Iguess.Canwegogetdr
unk?Ineedt
ogetdr
unk

Ash:
let
sgochangef
ir
standt
henwecanl
eav
e

Si
ya:
heywho'
sthatguyt
hatkeepschecki
ngy
ouout
?

Me:
fri
end

Isai
dwit
hmyar m hookedont
oSi
ya'
s.Icoul
dseesomeangerbui
l
dupi
nhi
sey
es.Theot
her
werewal
kingi
nfrontofus

Me:
accompanymet
ogor
epor
ttomyl
ect
urest
hati
'
llseet
hem t
omor
row

Hi
m:sur
e.Whydi
dn'
tMel
ocomeanddon'
tl
iet
omeYay
a

Il
ookeddown.Hest
oppedmeandcuppedmyf
acemaki
ngmel
ookathi
m

Hi
m:di
dyouguy
sfi
ght
?Di
dhesl
eepwi
thsomeoneel
se?

Ishookmyheadhol
dingbackt
ear
s.
Me:
ImessedupSi
ya.Imessedupbi
gti
me

Hi
m:whatdi
dyoudocr
unchi
e?

That
'swhathecall
smewhenhe'
str
ynasweett
alkmeorr
efr
ainmef
rom cr
yingal
lbecauseI
l
ikecrunchi
echocol
ate.

Me:
thatguyy
ouwer
easki
ngabout

Hi
m:y
ourf
ri
end

Me:
wesl
eptt
oget
her

Hel
etgoofme.Hecoul
dn'
tev
enhidehi
sdi
sappoi
ntment
.Icoul
dn'
tst
andhi
m soIbegan
wal
ki
ngawayonl
yforhi
mtoholdmyarm

Hi
m:t
hehel
lwer
eyout
hinki
ngYandi
swa?I
sthatwhyMel
odi
dn'
tcomeher
etoday
?

Me:
pleasedon'
tj
udge.If
eel
miser
abl
eok!Ihat
emy
sel
fasi
tis

Hi
m:y
out
oldMel
o?

Me:
heaskedandIcoul
dn'
tl
iet
ohi
m Si
ya.Iknowy
oudi
sappoi
nted

Hi
m:ohYay
a.Comeher
e

Myl
ipwasal
readyquiver
ing.Hehuggedmesot
ight
.Mel
oandSi
ya'
scol
ogneswer
esi
mil
arbut
Mel
o'
swasstrongert
hanhi s.

Hi
m:he'
l
lfor
giv
eyou.Hel
ovesy
ouandhecan'
tst
aymadaty
ou

Me:
hemi
ssedt
hemosti
mpor
tantdayofmyl
i
feSi
ya.Hehat
esme

Hepul
l
edmeawayandhel
dmeatar
msl
engt
h

Hi
m:hedoesn'
that
eyou,
hehat
eswhaty
oudi
dthat
'
sal
l
.Hej
ustneedst
ime

Ijustnoddedwithoutsayi
nganyt
hing.Hewrappedhisarm aroundmyneckandputmine
aroundhiswaist.Wewalkedovertomylect
uresandt ol
dt hem wewouldmeetatt
hehot
el,
said
he'smybr ot
herandhewant edt
ot akemeouttocelebrate.Wewalkedtot
hecarandwedrove
tothehotel,
allt
hewayt heremyheadwasonhi sshoulder.Si
yawalkedmeuptomyroom and
hegoti n

Hi
m:y
ougonnabeok?

Me:
Ijustwantt
odr
inkandf
orget
..
.justf
ort
oni
ght

Him:t
henwewi l
ldr
inkt
ot hepoi
ntofnoretur
nbuddy.Iwon'tl
i
etoy ouYay aI
'
m ali
tt
le
di
sappoi
ntedi
nyouandIdon'tevenwanttoknowyourreasonsforsleepi
ngwitht
hatguybutI
hopei
twasaonet i
mething
Me:
Iknow.I
twasonceandi
tnev
erhappenedagai
n.I
'
vebl
ockedhi
m ev
ery
wher
e

Hi
m:good.Goshowerandchangeandmeetusdownst
air
sok?

Inodded.Hekissedmyforeheadandwalkedout .Ilockedthedoorandwentt oshower .If

ound
my sel
fcryi
ngunderthewater
.Melowil
lnev erforgi
vemef orthis!Therati
onalthi
ngherewould
bet ocal
lhi
m butIknowhisphoneisoffandev enifit'
sonhewon' tanswermycallsonpurpose
orifheevendoes,whoknowswhathewi l
lsayt ome?I '
m kindofokwi thnotknowinghis
responseri
ghtnow.I'
veneverseenhi
mt hatpissedbef or
e,hewasev enshaki
ng

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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E34-Mel
o

Ideci dedt oswi tchmyphoneonandIhadadozenmessages, mi ssedcal l

s, voicemai lsand
not ifi
cat ions.Theywer ef rom ev eryone, herei nCal iorWashi ngt onandsomef rom home.I
calledt heai rpor tandbookedaf li
ghtbackhome.Iwantt ofaceYay abutIcan' tbr i
ngmy selfto
faceher .Cal lmeahy pocr i
teorwhat ev erbuti thur ts.Knowi ngt hathet ouchedheri npl aces
onlyy ouar esupposedt ot ouch, kissingt hel i
pst hatwer ewentt obey our sonl y,maki ngher
scream t hev erysamewayy oudo, hi
m seei ngt hatl ookonherf aceaf tershecums.Just
thinki ngabouti tisenought opi ssmeof f.Mest ayingher eandf aci ngherort hisThomasguy
will onl yruinourr el
at i
onshi pf urther ,I
'm notgi v i
nguponherIj ustneedspace.Li kereal space
andt imet ot hinkaboutal lthis.I fi
t '
sonet hing, Idon' that eherandIt hinkt hat '
swhatIhat ethe
most .Thef actt hatseei ngherwi l
lonl ypissmeof fandmakemei magi net hetwooft hem
hav ingsex .Yesbei ngal oneanddr unkwi llhavey oui magi ningt het wooft hem hav i
ngsex.The
mi ndi sav erypower fultool ifyouaskmeandi twi ll makey out hinkt hingsordot hings.Forher
saf etyi t'
sbestIj ustleav ecausehonest l
yIdon' tknowwhatIwoul ddot oheri fIsawher .I
packedupmyt hingsandj ustt henmyphoner ang, itwasmom, Il eti tri
ngbecauseknowi ng
Amahl eBessshewaspr obabl ygoi ngt oshoutatmef ornotat t endi ngy esterday 'sevent .WhenI
wasdoneIputmyphonei nt hechar gerandwentt owash.Igotoutdi dt henecessar ythenwor e
sweat pants, sneaker s,t-
shi rtandanAdi dascapt hent ookmyt hi ngsandwentt ocheckoutand
gotat axi t
ot heai rpor t
.Ont hewaywayt oDur banIwasl i
steningt omyheadset s,funnyenough
Icameacr ossSor rybyRi ckRossandChr i
sBr own. ..howconv eni ent ?!thesongr eall
yhi thome,
Ifoundmy sel frelat i
ngt ot hesong." .
....
.Girlaftergi rl,mi st
akeaf t ermi stake.It ri
edt ochange
butt heyal way sar oundpul l
i
ngmedowni nbed, gav ey oumywor dbutt heywer ejustbr oken
promi ses,br okencondomsl , l
i
pst ickmar ksandunpr ot ectedsex. ..Ifeel li
keshi tev ent houghI
ain'tshi t
...
..
..sor rydon' tmakei tr i
ght"f unnyenought hechor usi smyl ife,wel lwasmyl if
e.This
onet imeIalmostrockeduptoameet i
ngwithalipsti
ckmar konmycol l
arfr
om havingsexwith
Olonadur i
nglunchti
mei nt
hecar,i
titwasn'
tfortherecepti
onistt
henIwouldn'thav
eseeni t
.
I'
ver eal
lyscr
ewedupandYay adeservesbet
ter.Ili
ter
all
yhavenor i
ghttobemadwhent he
tablesturnconsi
deri
ngtheamountoft i
mesI'
vehur therordoneshii
tbehindherback.Isl
eptat
home.WhenIwokeupI yawasi
ntheki t
chenmaki ngsomethingtoeat.I
twasSundayi nthe
afternoonalr
eady.

Her
:whendi
dyougether
e?Hey

Shesai
dpul
l
ingmei
nforahug.

Me:
hi

Shebr
oket
hehug

Her
:wher
esmom andt
her
est
?Howwast
hear
tthi
ngy
?Whatdi
dYay
awi
n?Let
'sseepi
ctur
es

Me:
Idi
dn'
tgo

Her
:what
?

Itwasj
ustaf
terchur
chandshewaswear
inganudekneel
engt
hpenci
ldr
esswi
thar
edbl
azer
andaredheel
.

Her
:why
?

Me:
Ijustcoul
dn'
t

Isatont
hehi
ghchai
ropposi
teher
,sheof
fer
edmehersandwi
ch

Me:
thanky
ou

Her
:whathappened?

Me:
somygi
rl
fr
iendsl
eptwi
thherf
ri
end

Her
:yeahr
ight
.Ver
yfunnybr
o

Ij
ustkeptqui
etandmunchedont
hesandwi
ch

Her
:ohmyGody
ouser
ious.When?Whatf
ri
end?

Me: Thomast
heclubowner.I
twasbeforeshelef
tforPari
s.Remembert
het
imeBESShadan
accounti
nger
rorandi
ttookusthewholeweekendtofix

Her
:yeahIr
emember

Me:
itwast
hatt
ime

Her
:wow.
Ij
ustnodded

Her:Iknowthi
sist
helastt
hingyoumaywantt ohearr
ightnowbutI'
l
lsayi
tanyway
.Nowyou
knowhowy oumadeYay afeelwhenyoucheat
edonherwi t
hall
thosegi
rl
s.Tabl
est
urnl
i
ttl
e
brot
herandwhentheydoithit
sy our
eal
lyhard

Ij
ustr
oll
edmyey
es

Her:noreal
l
ybr o.Thisisst
rai
ghtupkar
maforallt
heheart
syou'
veeverbroken.I
'
my oursi
ster
andI'
m supposedt obecomf or
ti
ngyouandal
lthatbuty
oumadey ourbedbro.Besi
desya'
ll
wereonabr eak..
.ain'
tl
ikeshecheat
ed

Me:
ser
iousl
yIy
ana?

Her:i
tstrueandy ouknowi t.Questi
onis;wheretofrom her e?Wi l
lyoulethersleepingwi thone
guyWHI LEy a'
ll
wer eonaBREAKcomebet weeny ouguy s?Thi nkaboutitMelo.Youl oveYay a
andshel ovesyouandI '
m surethatwhereversheisshepr obablyhateshersel
ff orsleepingwi t
h
thi
sThomasguy ,whi chistheleastIcoul
dsayabouty oucausey ouhadt henerv etosleepwi th
onegirl
andgetont heplanetogoandsl eepwithher .AtleastYay ahasagui l
tyconsci ous,
somethingy ouclearlydon't
.Crucif
ytheoneandpr obabl yonlygirlwhowoul dev erstaywi t
hy ou
aft
erthebul l
shi
ty ou'vedone.She'snotoutofoptionsf orstayi
ngwi thyoulit
tl
ebr o.Hers. ..
.

Iy
awasj ustr
ubbingsal
ttot
hewound.Shewasj ustmakingmefeelworse.Itookmyplateand
l
eftherrambli
ng.Ibumpedi
ntomytwinonmywayupandheronherwaydown.Shel ooked
beauti
ful
.Shewaswearingwhi
tefl
areleghi
ghwai stpant
s,api
nkruf
fl
edshi r
t,awhi
tewaist
coatandablackredbott
omswithherhairt
iedi
ntoamessybun.Wegr eetedeachothershari
ng
ahug

Her
:whendi
dyougether
e?

Me:
2hour
sago.Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul,
wher
eto?

Her
:justgotbackf
rom chur
chbutnowI
'
m goi
ngoutwi
thJames

Me:
ishest
il
lgoodt
oyou?

Her
:mor
ethany
ouknow.Hemakesmet
hehappi
estI
'
vebeen

Me:
hav
eyout
wohadsex?

Shechuckl
ed

Her
:no.He'
sunder
standi
ng

Me:
yout
oldhi
m?

Shenodded

Me:
wel
lyoubr
ave
Her
:Ir
ani
ntoSeany
est
erday
..
.

Me:
howdi
dthatgo?

Her:
Itookhi
m outforl
unchandexpl
ained,wel
lidi
dn'
ttel
lhi
m whathappenedbutIdi
dexpl
ain
youbei
ngall
bigbroonhim andheunderst
ood

Me:
andwhatabouty
out
woget
ti
ngbackt
oget
her
?

Her:
wellwhenwemetIwaswi
thJames,
Itol
dhi
mi'
dcal
lhi
m.Hesor
tofunder
stoodI
'
m wi
th
someonenow

Me:
poort
hing

Her
:enoughaboutme.WhenIgetbackIwantt
oknowaboutCal
iandWashi
ngt
on.Wher
e's
mom?

Me:
Icamebackal
one.Don'
tbel
atef
ory
ourdat
e

Isaidleavingherbythestai r
sandgoi ngt olockmy selfinmyr oom.Ideci dedtol i
stentot he
voi
cemai lsIhad,t
heywer emost lyfrom Yay aaftershel ef
tthehotelandt henf rom myf ri
ends.
Shehasn' tsai
danythingev ersincethen.I t'
skindafunnyhowgi rl
sexpecty out obuyr oses,
chocolates,wri
teandessayapol ogising,resurr
ectJesust ohel pyouapol ogisetohery etwhen
i
t'
shert urntoapologiseshe'llsendy ouand" i
'm sorr
y"andpr obablythrowi naf ewsad
emot i
consandexpecty outof orgiv
eher , t
hengetmadaty ouforignoringhert extandt hen
suddenlyy outheoneapol ogisi
ngt oher .Girl
saremani pul
ativ
eandst raightupbul l
ies!Argue
withyourv agi
na!Therewasaknockont hedoor

Me:
goaway
!

Per
son:
Mel
ojustopent
hisdamndoor
!

Thatwasmyt
winnodoubt
.Igotupdr
aggi
ngmyf
eett
oopent
hedoorf
orher
.

Her
:her
eyougo

Shesai
dgi
vi
ngmeherphone

Me:
andwhatam Isupposedt
odowi
tht
his?

Her:
putiti
nyourearandli
stent
otheper
sonspeaki
ngont
heot
hersi
deandr
espond.I
fyou
dr
opt hi
scal
lIwi
llknow!

Shewal
kedoutbangi
ngmydoor
.Iputt
hephoneonmyearandl
i
stened

/
/"Mel
o"

Saidaveryl
owbr
eaki
ngvoi
ce.Thi
swasthelastthi
ngIneeded.Yandi
swaandhertear
sare
enoughtomakey
oumeltandwanttopul
lherint
oyourarmsandt el
lherev
ery
thi
ngisgoi
ngto
beok.

Her
:pl
easedon'
thangup

Ikeptqui
et

Her:theresnoj ustifyi
ngwhatIdi d.Ididn'tdoittospi teyou,
tohurtyouortogetev enwithyou.
I'
m nott hatpersonandy ouknowt hat.Iwasdr unkbutev enthatisnoexcuse, Idon'tknowwhat
gotov erme.Onemi nutewewer et alki
ngandt henex tthi
ngithappened,hesaidal lt
heright
thi
ngsandIf ellforthem.Iknowy oupr obablywon' tbeli
evemebutIhav en'tseenhi m si
ncethen,
Iblockedhi m everywherebuthehasn' tstoppedt ryi
ngt ocontactme.Sayshe'sinl ovewithme
butIdon' tfeelanythingforhi
m Mel oIswear .Pleasejustgivemeachance, I
'
llquitschooland
comest udythereifneedbe.Pl easej ustforgiv
eme

Shewascr ying,
sheevenhadhiccups.Youeverknowsomeonesowel lt
hatyouevenpictur
e
them inyourmindwhattheyaredoingasyouspeaktothem overthephone?Wellthathowwel
l
IknewYay a.Shewasprobablysi
tti
ngbythewindowinherpjayslooki
ngoutsideastears
stream downherfacehuggingapil
lowti
ghtl
y,i
'dsayt
eddybearbutshewasn' tatherdorm
room soshewassqueezi ngapil
lowinst
ead.Thatpi
ctur
ealonewasenought omakemesheda
tear.WhatdoIsaytoher?

Her
:Mel
oyoust
il
lther
e?

Ilookedatt
hescreenanditwasapict
ureofherandmysi
steront
heni
ghtofmybi
rt
hday
,I
tookthatpi
ctur
eofthem.Iendedt
hecall
./
/

Icouldn'
t.Icoul
dn'
tsayanyt
hingtoher,herv
oicewasf i
ll
edwi
thsomuchpainmaki
ngmehate
my sel
fformakinghercry
.Iwipedtheli
ttl
eglassesIhadinmyeyesandwentt
ogi
veAsemahl
e
herphone, shewasbusyonherlaptop.

Her
:and?

Ij
ustshr
uggedandwal
kedt
owar
dst
hedoor
.

Her
:si
tdownMel
o

Me:
Mel
odynotnow

Her
:Idon'
tcar
e.Si
t!

Shegotupt
olockherdoor
,shegav
emeanor
der
ingl
ookandIwentt
osi
tont
hecouch.She
j
oinedmecr
ossingherl
egsfaci
ngme

Her:nowI'm nor
elationshi
pexpertsowhat ev
eradv
iceIgiv
e,youcaneithertakei
torleti
tfly
outofthi
sroom.Youmi serabl
e,notbecauseofwhatYayadidbutbecauseofwhaty ou'
vedone
toher.Hearmeout .IspoketoIyanabri
efedmeont hechatyouhadwithher, somadashel lI
cal
ledhertohearherv ersi
onofthestory.Shedi
dn'
tevencum, y
ouknowwhy ?Hewasnoty ou.
Shewasdr unkbutshecamebackt ohersensesandstoppedthewholet hi
ngandtookat axito
school becausesher eal
isedthatwhatshewasdoi ngwaswr ongandi twasnotwor thrisking
yourr el
ati
onship.Nogi r
lcri
esthewayshedi doverjustanyguybr o,I'
vebeenar oundenough
brokenhear tedgirl
st oknow.Shet ri
edtell
i
ngy ousomanyt imesbuty oukeptput ti
ngherof for
usingsext oav oi
dt alki
ngwheny ouwerethereandsoshewasn' tabletot ell
you.Whenshe
didn'
tcomebacki nJunei t'
sbecauseshedi dn'
tknowhowshewasgoi ngt ofaceyouknowi ng
whatshedi d.Idon'tknowwhatt hi
ssoundsl i
ketoy oubittomei tsoundsl i
keshehat esher self
andr egret
swhatshedi ddeeply.
..whi
chissadl ynotthesamet hi
ngIcansayabouty ou.Mel o
stopt hi
swhol ebreaknonsensewi thherbeforeitt
ear syouguy sapartf orgood.Howmany
ti
meshasshef orgiveny ouforyoutonotforgiveherf oronelit
tl
emi stakeshe' smadehuh?
She'swi l
li
ngt oquitschool j
ustforyou.Pl
easedon' tletherquitherdream becauseoft his.You
knowy ouloveher,y ouknowy oudon'thateher.Pickupy ourphoneandcal lherandfixthings
withherbef oreshiitgetsoutofhand.

Ij
ustnodded.Atl
eastshe'
snotbr
utal
li
keI
ya.Shepul
l
edmei
nforahugandt
henbr
okei
t
wi
pingmycheekswi t
hherthumbs

Her:Il
oveyouandIloveherbutIloveyoubot hwheny outogetherbecauseit
'sthetwoofyou
thatmakemebel i
evei
nloveandact ual
lyallowmy sel
ftolove.I
t'
sbecauseofy outwoIwas
abletohealf
rom t
herapeincident
,Iknewt hatifIdon'tal
l
owmy sel
ftohealthenIwill
neverbe
happyassheisandIwill
nev erbeabletolov easshehas.Yout wobringoutthebesti
neach
otherMeloandyouknowit.Stopsulki
ngandcal lher.

Me:
thanky
ouMel
ody

Her:l
ikeIsai
d,y
oucaneit
hert
akemyadv
iceorl
eti
tfl
youtt
hewi
ndow.I
fthatchi
l
dqui
ts
schoolIwil
lmurdery
ou!

Ichuckl
ed

Her:
I'
m ser
ious.Askdadf oratr
ansf
eroranexchangewi t
honeoft heworker
sthatsi
desothat
youcanworkony ourrel
ati
onshi
pwithherproper
ly.Longdi
stancecan'
tpossi
blyeasyf
oryou
t
woseeinghowat tachedyouaretoeachother

Ihuggedhert
ight
lyandki
ssedthetopofherheadcount
lessl
y.Shewassmar
t.Shehadapoi
nt.
MaybeIshoul
dmov etoCali
.Ibroket
hehugandkissedherforehead

Her
:car
etoexpl
ain

Me:
i'
m goi
ngt
otr
ansf
ert
oCal
i

Her
:awesome.Dadi
satt
hebr
aai
atuncl
eSean'
shousesohe'
l
lbebackl
ater

Me:
i'
ll
tal
ktohi
mlat
ert
hen

Shegav
emeherr
oom key

Her:nowgoandcal
lmyf
ri
endandt
ell
hery
oul
oveherandt
haty
ourf
orgi
veherandy
ouwi
l
lsee
hersoonok?
Me:
yesmom.

Iopenedherdoorandl
eftt
hekeyinthekeyhol
eandwentt
omyr
oom.Idi
all
edhernumber
contempl
ati
ngwhatIwasgoingtosaytoher

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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E35

Wewer
einmyr
oom,
meandAshaf
terget
ti
ngdr
unksogood.

Ash:
fort
hemot
herofGodcany
oupl
easeanswert
hat

Ishookmyheadl ooki
ngatmyphoner ingi
ngontopofmybed.Mel o'
sbeencalli
ngandI '
vebeen
avoidi
nghim.TobehonestIdon'thav eavali
dreasontoav
oidi
nghiscall
s,IguessI
'mj ust
scaredofhisr
esponse,whathe'l
lsay.Whatifhedumpsmef orgoodandt hi
ngsbetweenusar e
neverthesame?Whatifwegetbackt oget
herandheseeksrevengeonmef orhavi
ngsl eptwit
h
Mars?Orwhatifwegetbackt ogetherbutwenev ert
hesameagain?Idon'
tknow.Al otisgoing
thr
oughmyhead, toomuchf earthat
'sforsur
e.

Ash:
youknowy
ouwantt
otal
ktohi
m Yandi
swa

Me:
Ashpl
ease

Her
:atl
eastt
urni
tof
f

Shesai
drol
li
nghereyesatme.Myphonereall
ywasannoy
ingbutI
'
m notr
eady,
asl
ongashe
hear
dever
ythi
ngIsai
dtohimthenI
'm good.Shegr
abbedt
hephoneandanswer
edi
t.

/
/Her
:heyMel
o

Sher
emov
edi
tfr
om herear

Hi
m:heyAsh.
..canIspeakt
oYay
a?

Her
:Ionlyanswer
edcauseherr
ingt
onei
sannoy
ing.Youonspeakerbyt
hewaysoshar
eyour
f
eel
ings.I
'l
lgi
veyousomespace

Sheputt
hephoneont
hepedest
alandwal
kedout
.
Hi
m:Ash?

.
..
.

Him: Mafaku..
.pleasedon'tquityourdream f oranassholelikemeandal sobecausemyt win
threat
enedshe' dkil
lmei fyouquitschool.Maf akuIhav enor i
ghttobemad.Iact uall
yknow
howy ouf el
twhenIscr ewedy ouov erami l
liontimes.Maf akuNdiyaxoli
sa(I'
mr eall
ysorry)
.I'
m
notwor t
hyofy ou,Iknow.Ipushedy outohi m andIbl amemy sel
fforev eryt
hingthat'
s
happened.HadIbeent hemanIpr omisedy oui '
dbet henwewoul dn'tbeint hi
ssituat
ion.Idon'
t
expectyout olovemeal loveragainbutI'm askingyou, onelastt
imet ogi v
emeonel astchance
andIsweart oy outhingswillbediff
erent.Nomor etears,nomorelies,nomor efakepromises
andnomor echeat i
ng.I'
l
l movetoCal if
ory oujustsowecanbet hewayweoncewer eMaf aku.
Pleasejusttel
lmey ou'
ll
takemebackandwe' l
lbebackt othewayweoncewer e.

Ist
il
lkeptqui
et.IhadalotIwantedt
osaytohi
m orcont
estthet
hingshesaidbecausehe'
s
madethesepromi sesbef
oreandhowcer
tai
nam Ithatt
hist
imewillbedi
ff
erent
?

Hi
m:Ndi
yakut
handaZi
qel
ekazi
!(
Ilov
eyouZi
qel
ekazi
)/
/

Hedr oppedt hecal l

.Iwi pedthetear
sr ol
li
ngdownmyey es.Lifewithouthimi snothowI
pi
cturedi ntobe.Ther easonIspentt heamountoft i
meIdi dwi thThomaswassot hatIcoul
d
getmymi ndof fhim, Ineededadi st
racti
onfrom goingcrazyt hinki
ngaboutMel okuhleand
Thomaswasmor ethanwi l
li
ngtohelpmedot hat,
helpmef orgethim andnott hinkmuchof
hi
m butt herewer eti
meswhenThomaswasn' tt
hereandal lIcouldthi
nkofwasMel o.Iwas
crazyabouthi m, probablysomeki ndofobsessionbuywhat 'slovewi t
houtal i
tt
leobsession!I
l
ov eMelokuhl elikenev erbefor
eandl osi
nghimf orthatper i
odoft imet hatIhadlosthim,Iwas
miserable.Idrankev er
yweekendandsomet imesmi ssedcl asses,yeswespokeal most
everydaybuti twasn' tt
hesame.Hewasn' there,i
tdidn'tfeelli
kewedat i
ngatall.It
'snoexcuse
butitiswhati tis.

1mont
hlat
er

I
twasmi dSeptemberandthegir
lsandIhadjustfini
shedshoppi
ng,AshandSerenaf
orcedme
todoamakeov erandtofi
xmyhai randj
ustbepr ett
y.Whenwewer edonewewenttothis
otherrest
aurant,
itwaspr
ettyandwewerealldressedupformall
y.Theplacewasempty,Iwas
thefi
rstonein

Me:
wher
esev
ery
one?

I
twasqui
et.WhenItur
nedaroundt
heywer
en'ther
e,theywer
eont
heot
hersi
deoft
hedoorand
t
hedoorwascl
osed.Theywavedatmesmil
ingandleft.

"
Maf
aku"
OhmyGod!Whatwashedoi ngher e?Wehav en'tspokensincetheheartpour i
nghedidt he
othernight.Ihavebeenav oi
dinghimt hatlong,noreasonreall
ybutIjustcoul dn'
tbri
ngmy self
tohearwhat everhehadt osay .HiscolognewasasIr ememberedittobe, strongandsexy .I
couldlit
erall
yhearhim breat
hedownmyneck.Chi l
lsweresentdownmyspi ne,hedi
dn'teven
havetot ouchmet oturnmeon.I sitnormal t
obet hisvul
nerabl
etosomeoney ouhaven'tknown
foray ear?TellmeI'
m crazyright?Hehel dmeonmyshoul der
s,Icoul
dl i
terall
yfeelmyknees
getti
ngweakandwobbl y.

Hi
m:y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul

Ikeptqui
ett
ryi
ngt
opr
ocesswhatwashappeni
ngt
omybody
.Whydi
dIf
eel
thi
sweak?

Hi
m:pl
easet
urnar
ound

Itur
nedaroundassl
owlyasIcoul
d.Hewassocloset
omeIcoul
dli
ter
all
yhearhi
shear
t
beati
nganditwasbeat
ingr
eall
yfast
,asf
astasmine.

Hi
m:y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ulMaf
aku

Me:
Whyam Iher
e?

Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osayok!Shootme!Hechuckl
edner
vousl
y.

Hi
m:t
ocel
ebr
ateandt
oeat
,hear
dyouhav
en'
teat
enal
lday

Inodded.Hetookmyhandi nhi
sandt henhel
edmetoabeauti
ful
l
ysett
abl
efort
woundera
magicalchandel
i
er.Heopenedthechairf
ormeandIsatdownt
henhewentt
otakehi
sseat
.

Me:
whatar
ewecel
ebr
ati
ng?

Hi
m:Anewf
lat
,anewj
ob,
us.
..ev
ery
thi
ng

Me:
whatdoy
oumean?Mel
okuhl
ewhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?

Iwassoconf
usedandexci
tedatt
hesamet
ime.Icoul
dn'
tev
enhi
det
heexci
tementi
nmyv
oice.

Hi
m: I
'l
lbestay
inghereandwor
kingher
enowunt
ily
ouf
ini
shy
ourcour
seorf
orasl
ongasy
ou
wantustoli
vehere.

Awai
terbr
oughtusstar
ter
sandpour
eduswi
net
henl
eft
.Hel
ookedatmeandIwasl
ooki
ngat
hi
m.Hesmiled.OhGod!

Hi
m:Iwantust
ofi
xthi
ngsYay
aandi
fyounotr
eadyIunder
stand.Takeal
lthet
imey
ouneed.

Me: Melothi
swhol eti
met hatIhaven'tbeent alki
ngtoy ouIhavebeendoi ngalotofthi
nking,
tookmesomet i
met oact uall
yfindmy selfbutIfi
nall
ydid.ThisloveIhaveforyouisnotnormal,
i
t'snotri
ght.Wecontinuet ohurteachot her,i
t'
sunintenti
onalIknowbutitjustdoesn'
tfeelri
ght
.
YouandIshoul dtakethingsslowly,justhav eanor mal r
elat
ionshi
pwi t
houtsolvi
ngeverythi
ng
withsex.Just
..
.Idon'tknow, wemov eatav eryslowpace
Hi
m:forasecondIt
houghty
ouwer
egoi
ngt
oendt
hingscompl
etel
y.Thanky
ouMaf
aku.Does
t
hismeanIcan'
tki
ssyou?

Ichuckl
edandsodi
dhe.Thi
sguy.Ilovet
ohatehi
m.Thiswholet
imeIwasn'tt
alki
ngtohi
mI
wastalki
ngtot
heschool
shr
inkandshesuggest
edIshoul
djustt
akeabreakfr
om himforas
l
ongasIneedtoandifIf
eel
readythenweshoul
dtakethi
ngsatasl
owpace.

Me:
wecanki
ssandhugandhav
epuppyl
ovef
orasl
ongasweneedt
obutwecan'
thav
esex

Him:becauseIl
oveyou.I'
m wil
li
ngt
odothat
.I'
m wi
l
li
ngt
oset
tl
efort
hiswhol
epuppyl
oveshi
i
t
andbeabor nagai
nvir
ginaslongasweneedto.

Hesai
drubbingmyhand.Hewasl ookingatmestrai
ghti
ntomyey esandIint
ohi
s.I
twas
al
mostasifIcoul
dseerightt
hrought ohishear
t.Thi
smanbef or
emel ovesmeandIlov
ehi
m
j
ustasmuchandast oxi
casourr elat
ionshi
pis,
Iwouldn'
tpref
erusanyotherway
.

Me:
andIl
ovey
ou.Thi
sisni
cebyt
heway

Hi
m:y
ouf
orgott
ocompl
i
mentme

Me:
JesusChr
ist
!Youl
ookdashi
ngMrBess

Hi
m:t
hanky
ou,
Iknow.

Ir
oll
edmyey
esl
aughi
ng.

Me:
seewhyIdon'
tcompl
i
menty
ou?Youf
ull
ofy
our
sel
f

Hi
m:ok.Thanky
ouMaf
aku

Hegav emet hatcharmi

ngsmi l
eofhisIl
ovesodamnmuch!Weat eoverli
ghtconversat
ions.
Aboutschool andhisj
obandthethingswe'
vemissedineachothersli
vesforawhol emont h.
Aft
erthedinnerweshar edadance.Whywasthistheper
fectdat
eIsomewhatf eel
likei'
vebeen
needi
ngallmyl if
e?I'
veonlyev
erseentheseki
ndofdatesonmov iesonly.I
twasper fect
!I
l
ookedupathi m aswedanced

Me:
thanky
ou

Hi
m:f
or?

Me:
ever
ythi
ng.Thi
s.I
t'
sper
fect

Hi
m:Mar
ryme

Ichuckl
edandl
ookeddown

Hi
m:i
'
m ser
ious.

Heletgoofmeandputhishandi
nhispocketandtookoutamar
oonboxwr
it
tenCat
ieri
n
cur
sivewri
ti
ng.Hewentdownononekneeandlookedupatme.
Hi
m:mar
rymeMaf
aku

Ishookmyheadwi
thmyhandsonmymout
h.hel
ookedatmeconf
usedbymyr
esponseand
sowasI.

Me:
Ican'
tMel
okuhl
e.

Hegotupst
il
lconf
used.

Hi
m:why
?

It
ookhishandandl
edhi
mtoourtabl
eandsathi
m downont
hechai
rthenIsatonhi
slapand
wrappedmyarmsar
oundhi
sneck.

Me: Mel
okuhl
eyou21andI'm 19,thi
sengagementcameali
ttl
etooear
ly.I
'
m onl
ydoi
ngmy2nd
yearandIhav
en'
tevenaccomplishedhal
fthethi
ngsIwantt
oaccompli
sh

Hi
m:andwhosay
syoucan'
taccompl
i
shal
ltheset
hingsy
ouwantt
oaccompl
i
shi
fyoumar
ri
ed
t
ome?

Me:webothknowthaty
oucanpr
ovi
demewi
thev
eryt
hingIwantandneedsucht
hatIwon'
t
needaj
ob.Heckyoucanev
enbui
ldmemydr
eam gal
l
erybutt
hat'
snotwhatIwant
.

Hi
m:whatdoy
ouwantMaf
aku?

Me:Iwantust obepart
nersandnoty
ourt
rophywi
fe.Iwantustobeabl
etoworktoget
herand
sothatIcanbeabletospoil
youasmuchasyouwouldbespoil
i
ngme.I'
m notsay
ingIdon'
t
wanttomar r
yyou,j
ustnotnow

Hi
m:t
hankGodIdi
dn'
tdot
hispubl
i
clybecauset
henIwoul
dbeembar
rassedandhumi
l
iat
ed

Ipul
l
edhi
m cl
oset
omyf
aceandpl
ant
edaki
ssonhi
sli
ps.

Me:
tryt
hisagai
ninabout3y
ear
slat
er

Hi
m:y
ou'
l
lbe21

Me:
Iknow.Atl
eastbyt
henIwi
l
lbeoutofschool
andhav
eaj
ob

Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouf
utur
e

Me:
andIl
ovey
ou!

Weshar
edaki
ssandt
henbr
okei
t

Me:
nohar
dfeel
i
ngs?

Hi
m: Iunder
stand.Butkeepther
ing.Leti
tbearemi
nderoft
oday
,leti
tremi
ndy
ouofhowmuch
Il
oveyouMaf aku.Hangitar
oundyourneckorsomet
hing
Me:
finebyme.I
t'
sbeaut
if
ulbyt
heway

Hi
m:i
'
veal
way
shadt
ast
e.Mom pi
ckedi
toutt
hou

Me:
shoul
dhav
eknown.Shehasexqui
sit
etast
e

Hi
m:obv
iousl
y.Tr
yiton

Me:
whyam Iscar
edt
o?

Hi
m: causeyouaf
rai
dthatwheny
ouweari
tyou'
l
llov
ehav
ingi
tony
ourhandandy
ouwi
l
l
maybereconsi
der

Ichuckl
ed.Whyt
hehel
ldoest
hisguyknowmet
hiswel
l
?

Me:
shutup!

Hi
m:y
ouf
ull
?Yougood?

Me:
i'
m good.Wecangetoutofher
e

Hi
m:gr
eatt
hen.

Igotupoffhi
m andwewal
kedouttohi
scar
.Hewasdr
ivi
ngaBugat
ti
.Tr
ustmyboy
fri
endt
o
dri
vethi
scoolcar
.Ismi
l
edandtur
nedtohi
m

Hi
m:Iknowy
oul
ovei
tandy
ou'
veal
way
swant
edt
odr
ivei
t

Hewasdangl i
nghiscarkey sinfrontofmyf ace.Iwasl ikeakidi nacandyst or
e.Myexci t
ement
wasbey ondwor ds.Ijustl
ovet hi
scarshame, there'snothingthatspecialabouti
teithert
hanthe
factthatit
'sAwesomeasf uck.Igrabbedthem andhel aughedatme.Iwal kedtothedriv
ers
seatandheopenedt hedoorf ormeandcl osedi tthenhewentt ogetinthepassengerseat.I
starredthecaranddrov eoff
.Fucki twasamazi ng.Every t
hingaboutitwasawesome!Hekept
takingpict
uresandlaughingathowexci tedIwas.Idr ov etomycampus, Iwasn'tsleepi
ngathis
placethat'
sforsure.Igotoffandsodi dhe.West oodinf rontofthecar.

Hi
m:Ihadanamazi
ngt
imet
oday

Me:
youandmebot
h.Thanky
ou

Hi
m:t
hanky
ourf
ri
endsf
ormef
orbr
ingi
ngy
ouher
e

Me:
wai
tyouputt
hem upt
oev
ery
thi
ng?
!Whatam Iev
enaski
ng,
ofcausey
oudi
d.

Hechuckl
edl
ookeddownandt
henhel
ookedupatme.Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul

Me:
youkeepr
emi
ndi
ngme

Hi
m:Ihav
en'
ttol
dyoui
nav
eryl
ongt
ime,
I'
m maki
ngupf
orl
ostt
imes
Me:
Isee.

Hepul
ledmeinforahug,
mor el
ikeasqueezeandt
henhebrokei
t.Wekissedgoodbyetoeach
ot
herandIwenttomydorm.Iwaswelcomedbymybedfil
l
edwi t
hteddybears,
chocol
atesand
or
chi
ds.Uhhhm ok.
..

Me:
andt
his?

Her
:cour
tesyofy
ourboy
fri
end

Me:
Mel
odi
dthi
s?

Ash:
yep

Me:
Idon'
tev
enknowwhatt
osay

Her
:cal
lhi
m andt
hankhi
m andj
ustdoev
ery
thi
ngt
hankf
ul

Itookmyphoneanddial
ledhi
snumber.Heansweredwit
houthesi
tat
ionl
ikehehadbeen
waiti
ngfort
hecal
lorsomethi
ngandthenwespokealit
tl
eunti
lhegottohisapar
tmentand
thensai
dourgoodnight
stoeachot
her.Iwasi
nlov
ewi t
hthi
smanmor et
hanbefore!

<3

[
10/
16,
16:
26]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E36

Losingsomeoney oulov
eeveni
fit
'sf
oradaywillmakeyoureal
i
sehowmuchofanidioty
ou
are.Mysister
sknockedsomesensei
ntome,bothofthem andt
heymademereal
iset
hat
withoutYayaI'
m nott
hemanIwanttobeorint
endedtobecome.Ispoket
omom aboutmovi
ng
tothestatesandyoucanimagi
nehowthatwent.

Her
:Mel
okuhl
eyouhav
eal
i
feher
e,aj
ob,
yourf
ami
l
y.

Me:Iknowt
hatmom butmygi
rl
fr
iendi
s28hour sawayf
rom meandt
hingsbet
weenuscan'
t
bet
hewaytheyshoul
dwit
hthi
skindofdi
stancebet
weenus

Her
:Iunder
standy
oul
oveherbabybutt
his.Thi
sist
oomuchev
enf
ory
ou

Dad:Mahl
eyou'
venev
erbeeni
nal
ongdi
stancer
elat
ionshi
pbef
ore,
youwoul
dn'
tunder
stand
whatMeloi
sgoi
ngthrough
Her
:Damondon'tencouragethis.Howi
shesupposedt
oadaptt
oev
ery
thingl
i
vingmi
l
esaway
f
rom home?Wherewillhestay?Whatwil
lheeat
?No!Ican'
tl
ety
oul
eave

Me:
wel l
theni
t'
sagoodt hingi
t'
snotgl
orychoi
cet
omake.I
'
veal
readysi
gnedt
hecont
ract
mom andmytickethasbeenbought
.I'
mleavi
ngFr
iday

Her
:thi
sFr
iday
?

Inodded.Shewassohur
t,i
tsnott
hatIdi
dn'twanttot
ell
herear
li
eronbutknowi
ngMr sBess
shewouldhavedoneany
thi
ngandeveryt
hingtokeepmehere,r
aisemysal
aryordoubl
eiti
f
needbejustsoIst
ay.

Dad:honeyMelowi
l
lbeheadi
ngBesst
hatsi
de.Thi
sishi
schancet
ogr
owandmakesomet
hing
outofhimsel
f

Mom:
he'
sonl
y20Damon!

Dad:
andsowher
eyouwheny
ougoti
ntopr
oper
ty.He'
sgr
owi
ng,
let
'sl
ethi
m Boobi
e

Me:
Boobi
enot
hingwi
l
lchange.Iwi
l
lcal
lyouev
ery
dayi
fneedbe.Ihav
etodot
hismom

Her
:whatabouty
oursi
bli
ngs?

Me:
theywer
etheonest
hatsuggest
edi
nthef
ir
stpl
ace.I
'
llcomebackev
eryhol
i
daymom

Sheshookherhead.Mom t
endst
obl
owt
hingsoutofpr
opor
ti
on.

Me:
younotgoi
ngt
olosememom

Dad:
he'
sgoi
ngt
obef
ineBoobi
e

Shegotupandstormedoff
.Damnthi
swoman,
you'
dswearwewer
emar
ri
edt
hewayshewas
dramat
icaboutt
hiswhol
ething.

Dad:
i'
ll
tal
ktoher
.Hav
eyoupackedev
ery
thi
ng?

Me:yesever
ythi
ngi
spackedupbutI
'
m notl
eav
ingwi
thal
lmyst
uff
.I'
l
lkeepmyapar
tmentf
or
whenI'
m back

Hi
m:y
our
eal
l
ygr
owi
ngup.I
'
m pr
oudofy
ousonandt
hatgi
rlhadbet
terbewor
thi
t!

Ichuckl
ed

Me:
trustmeshei
sdad.She'
l
lbemywi
feoneday

Hi
m:nomor
echi
l
dishact
sMel
okuhl
eorel
seIsweart
ogody
ouwi
l
lfi
ndy
our
sel
fjobl
ess!

Me:
trustmei
'
llbehav
e.She'
stheonl
yonewhocankeepmeont
hel
eashf
ather
.

Henoddedandgotup
Hi
m:l
etmeat
tendt
oyourmot
her

Me:
sexherl
i
kenev
erbef
orei
fneedbedad

Hecr
ackedupi
nlaught
erandsodi
di.

Hi
m:shei
sst
il
lyourmot
herandI
'
m st
il
lyourf
ather
!Respectussi
l
lychi
l
d

Hesai dwalki
ngoutl eavi
ngmel aughing.Mypar ent
sandsex!We' v
enev erwalkedinont hem..
.
thankGod!butthehi cki
est heygiveeachot herareenoughtot el
lusthattheygetbusy .That
's
thekindofgrowingol dIwantandt heybot hstaylookingyoungwi t
hthisamountofsext hey
having.Iact
uall
yseewhyt heyhav eagy mint hehouse.Asf ormom, dadsexedherenough
causeshef i
nall
yletmego.Myf amilyandIhadagr eatfami
lynightoutjusthavingfunand
dri
nking,yeswedr ankwithourpar entsandBoobi egotsosl oshed.

AfterdroppingYayaof fatschool Idrovetomyapar tment .I

'vebeeni nCal isi
nceMondaybut
I'
vebeent oochickentoseeher ,Ikeptcont actwithAshant i
justt oknowhowshe' sbeendoi ng
seeingthatshe'sbeenav oidingmycal l
s.Ihadanamazi ngnightt onightwithher .I
twassogood
Iwishedt hehoursofdaycoul dincrease,feltgoodhav i
ngheri nmyar mswher eshebel ongs.
I'
vemessedupal otoft i
mesbutt histimewi l
lbedif
ferentandt hat'
sapr omisetomy selfandto
her.Ican'tsayIwasn'tbummedoutwhensher ej
ectedmypr oposal butatthesamet imeI
understandherrefusal,wey oungandshest il
lhasthingsandgoal sshewant st oreachbef ore
mar ri
age.Funnyenought hatmademef al
l i
nlovewithherev enmor e,awomanwi thdreamsi s
sexyasf uck!Thenextmor ningIwokeanddi dtheusual andt hendr ov eofftotown, theguy s
andIwer ehav i
ngbreakfastt ogether.OnmywayIgotacal lfrom Ase.

/
/Her
:twi
n

Me:
eyl
i
ttl
etwi
nhowar
eyou?

Her
:I'
m goodandhowar
eyou?

Me:
goodgood.What
sup?

Her
:Iwantt
oknowaboutl
astni
ghtdummy
!

Me:
shesai
dno

Her
:what
?Why
?

Me:
shewant
stof
ini
shschool
andr
eachaf
ewofhergoal
sbef
oreshecant
hinkofmar
ri
age

Her
:under
standabl
eIguess.Howar
eyoudoi
ng?

Me:
i'
m okact
ual
l
y.Thi
ngswi
l
lbedi
ff
erentt
hist
imear
ound
Her
:I'
m gl
adt
oheart
hat
!Yougr
owi
ngup

Me:
ohwhat
ever
.Howdi
dyourdat
ego?

Her
:wher
edoIev
enst
art
?He'
samazi
ngDer
ri
ck.Hei
sev
ery
thi
ngI
'
veonl
yev
erwi
shedf
or

Me:
heseemsgenui
neIguess

Her
:youst
il
lfr
eakhi
m outt
hou

Me:
lett
hatbemot
ivat
iont
okeepy
ouhappyt
hen

Her
:Mel
o!

Me:
thel
astt
hingIwanti
syoucal
l
ingmecr
yingal
lbecauseofhi
m

Her
:Ir
ani
ntoOl
onay
est
erday

Me:
oh.
..

Her:shewasaskingaboutyou.Saysy
ouusedherandal
lthatot
herbsandthatYayahadbetter
notgetcomfor
tablebecauseyou'
ll
pul
laMeloi
nhersoon.Shewasjustbei
ngpettybecause
youendedthi
ngs

Me:
Arghshe'
l
lbef
ine.She'
l
lgetov
eri
tsoon

Her
:yeah.I
ya'
sboy
fri
endaskedmet
ohel
phi
m pi
ckoutar
ing

Me:
Ihopey
ousai
dno!I
yaj
ustgotoutofr
elat
ionshi
p

Her
:it
sbeen9mont
hsMel
o

Me:
yesbutsheandt
hisguyhav
en'
tbeent
oget
hert
hatl
ong.He'
srushi
ngt
hings

Her
:youonet
otal
k

Me:
webothknowoursisterdoesn'
twantmarri
age.Notany
timesoonany
way
.Unl
essy
ouwant
t
heguyt
ogethishear
tbrokenbyourbrutal
sist
erthengoahead

Her
:Itol
dhim heshoul
dslowdownal
i
ttl
ebecauseI
yai
sinnor
ush.pl
usshehasn'
tev
en
i
ntr
oducedhi
mt oourparent
s

Me:
see!Andbesi
des,
ther
e'snoCat
ierorTi
ff
anyi
nSout
hAf
ri
ca

Her
:ohGod!

Me:
what
?Mysi
sterwon'
twearsomecheapr
ingf
rom Amer
icanSwi
ssorSt
erns

Her
:ohMel
o!Whosai
dwewer
egoi
ngt
olooki
nthosepl
aces

Me:
hav
eyouseent
heguy
?Hedoesn'
taf
for
dherandy
out
hinkourpar
ent
swoul
dletoursi
ster
mar
rysomeonel
i
ket
hat
?

Her
:it
snotaboutt
hemoneyMel
o!

Me:
youonl
ysay
ingt
hatbecausey
ougr
ewupwi
thev
ery
thi
nghandedt
oyouonasi
l
verpl
att
er.

Her
:nowyousoundl
i
keaspoi
l
tbr
at!Wedi
dn'
tgr
ownupwi
thgol
dpl
atedspoonsi
nourmout
h
Mel
okuhl
e

Me:Iknowt hatbutl
i
ttl
esist
erbehonest
,woul
dyousurv
iveadayl
i
vingi
nashack?Noi
Phone,
noel
ectri
cit
y ,
noguccibags,nozar
a?Thi
nkabouti
tAse!

Her
:hedoesn'
tl
iv
einashack!

Me:
yeahbuthe'
sinbet
weenj
obs.I
yai
sjustgoi
ngt
hroughast
age

Her
:shel
oveshi
m

Me:
whyhasn'
thei
ntr
oducedhi
m?

Her
:yousodi
ff
icul
t!Iwi
shYay
awoul
dleav
eyourassf
orabr
okeguy
!

Me:Il
ovey
oudoesn'
tpayt
hebil
ls.Unt
ilt
heguyseemsseri
ousabouthi
sli
feandhasr
eal
dr
eamsandgoal
sandanactual
plan.I
yawon'ti
ntr
oducehi
m

Her
:goodby
ebr
other

Me:
don'
ttel
lmey
ousul
ki
ng?

Her
:I'
m notsul
ki
ng.Jamesj
ustgother
e

Me:
ohokt
hen.Il
ovey
ouy
eah

Her
:Il
ovey
out
oo.By
ebr
o

Me:
byet
win/
/

Igotoutoft
hecarandwenti
nsi
det
her
est
aur
ant
.Theywer
eal
readysi
tt
ingdownchat
ti
ng.

Me:
sor
ryI
'
mlat
e.Wast
alki
ngt
omyt
winonmywayher
e

Mi
cah:
weor
der
edf
ory
ou

Me:
thanks.SoScot
thowar
ethi
ngswi
thAdr
iane?

Mi
cahst
art
edl
aughi
ng

Me:
whatam Imi
ssi
ng?

Scot
t:Idon'
tgeti
t.If
oll
owedev
ery
thi
ngi
nther
ulebookandshest
il
lwon'
tl
etmet
apt
hat
Hesai
dshr
uggi
ng.

Scot
t:we'
vebeenon5f
li
ppi
ngdat
es,
tal
ki
ngaboutev
ery
thi
ngbutsex.Idon'
tknowguy
s

Me:
youcount
ing?

Mi
cah:
hahahay
ep.Heev
enknowshowmanyday
sthey
'vebeengoi
ngout
.Tel
lhi
m br
o

Scot
t:i
tsbeen15day
s.I
'mti
redal
ready.AndnoI'
vebeencountingt
hemoneyi
'v
espentonher
.
Doyouknowsheboughtmeapotplant
.Thefuckam Isupposedtodowi
thapotpl
ant
?

Me:your
emi
ndmeofmycousi
nexcepthewoul
dhav
egi
venupal
ready
.Justadmi
tyoul
i
ket
his
one

Hi
m:what
?Fuckno!

Mi
cah:
thenexpl
ainwhyy
oucoul
dn'
tgeti
tupwi
tht
hatsexywai
tr
esson5t
hav
enue

Scot
t:Iwasj
usthav
ingar
oughday

Me:
sexywai
tr
ess?

Micahshowedmeapi ct
ureonhi
sphone.Thegi
rlwasnodoubtsexy
.IfIwasn'
twi
thYay
aI
wouldprobabl
ysmashthat
!Shewasfucki
ngbangabl
e

Me:
roughdaymyass!Shel
ooksl
i
keshecancur
eanyki
ndofbadday
!

Scot
t:Idon'
tknowwhathappenedman

Mi
cah:
tel
lmey
ouat
leastwentt
othehospi
tal
tohav
eyour
sel
fcheckedout

Webot
hwer
elaughi
ngathi
m,hewassoannoy
ed

Scot
t:i
'
m notsi
ck!

Me:
youcoul
dn'
tgeti
tupbr
uh!That
'
sbei
ngsi
ck

Scot
t:hav
eyouev
enseenYay
a?

Me:
lastni
ghtandi
twasepi
c

Scot
t:di
dyouhi
tit
?

Me:
no!She'
smygi
rl
fr
iendandIj
ustwant
edt
ohav
eani
cedi
nnerwi
thher

Mi
cah:
Asht
oldmey
ouhadev
ery
thi
ngsetup

Me:
yep.Iwant
edt
ogi
veherr
easont
ost
aywi
thmeaf
terev
ery
thi
ng

Scot
t:shesl
eptwi
tht
heguy
..
.howdoy
ouj
ustmov
epastt
hat
?
Me:Icheatedonhercount
lessti
meswitht
wodiffer
entgi
rl
sandshe'
sfor
giv
enmewi thout
hesi
tat
ionandlovedmewithoutdoubt
s.WhyshouldIcr
uci
fyherf
oraonceoffmi
stake.She
di
dn'
tev enhavesexwit
htheguy

Scot
t:hi
sdi
ckwenti
nsi
deherv
agi
na

Mi
cah:
butt
heyst
oppedt
her
e

Scot
t:noneofuswer
ether
esowedon'
treal
l
yknow

Me:i
fshesaysi
tdidn'
tgofartheni
tdi
dn'
t.Iknowmygir
lf
ri
end.Shewoul
dn'
tl
ieabout
somet
hingl
iket
hatandbesidewewereonabr eak.
..

Scot
t:i
'
llnev
erunder
standr
elat
ionshi
psandbr
eaks

Mi
cah:
thedayy
ouact
ual
l
ylety
our
sel
ffal
li
nlov
e..
.we'
l
lrev
isi
tthi
sconv
ersat
ion

Me:exact
ly.Andbesidesweget
ti
ngt
oool
dtobepl
ayi
nggamesandscr
ewi
ngany
thi
ngwi
tha
hol
ebetweent hei
rlegs

Mi
cah:
preachMrBess!

Weal llaughed.Weconti
nuedchatt
ingandthenwhenwewer edonewesettl
edthebil
landwent
tostockonbooze.Thepl anwastogot othebeachwiththegir
lsandhav
eami nibr
aai/pi
cnic
andplaybeachgames.Wecal ledthegir
lsupandMi cahoffer
edtofet
chthem whi
leScottandI
preparedev er
ythi
ngel
se.Wewer ewalki
ngintheshopbuy i
ngbooze

Hi
m:y
our
eal
l
ylov
eYay
ahuh?

Me:
Iwantt
omar
ryherdude!

Hi
m:wow.Whot
hehel
lrai
sedy
ou?Whoar
eyourf
ri
ends?

Il
aughed

Me:Iwasraisedi
nalovi
nghomewheremyfat
hernotoncecheat
edonmymot herandst
il
l
l
ooksatherthesamewayhedidwhenhesai
dIdo.Iguessgrowi
ngupi
nthatenvir
onment
mademer eali
seIwantt
hat

Hi
m:Igr
ewupwi
thbot
hpar
ent
sbutl
i
feshowedmef
lames.Gi
rl
sar
eev
iloutt
her
e

Me:itt
akesonegir
ltobr
eaky
ourhearti
ntoamill
i
onpi
ecesandi
ttakesanot
hert
oputt
hose
pi
ecestoget
herandmendwhat'
sbeenbroken.

Hi
m:may
beonedayi
'
llmeett
hatgi
rlhutunt
ilt
hem I
'
m scr
ewi
ngmywayt
ohel
l

Il
aughedathi
m asweconti
nuedbuyi
ngandthenwhenwewer edonewepaidandleftf
orthe
beach.Mi
cahandthegi
rl
swereal
readyt
here.Yay
awaswear i
ngawhitemaxidr
ess,Serena
wasweari
ngablueoneandAshwaswearingapinkone.Theyal
ll
ookedpr
ett
y.
.

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16,
16:
27]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E37

Thingsbet weenuswer eperfect.They '

vejustbeentooper f
ecttoapoi ntwhereyouwoul dn't
darebelievethatitwasus.Wewer einDurban,Iwasdonewi t
hmyexamsal r
eadyandi twasa
weekbef or emybi r
thday.MeloandIst il
lhaven'
thadsex, Ican'
treall
ysay i
ngitwasstraini
ngour
rel
ationshipbecausej ustbei
ngar oundeachot herwasenough.Iwon' tlieandsayitwaseasyor
thatIdidn'tmissthesexcauseIdi d,
IthinkIwasav i
rgi
nalloveragain.I'
vetr
iedini
ti
ati
ngi tbut
myboy f
riendissetonpuni shingme.Whot hehelldoesthat?SincewhendoesMel okuhlesay
not osexany way ?Idon'tgetit!Hewasathi sapartmentandIwasathomewi thNaledi,Ni
ta
gavebi r
tht oabeaut i
fulbabygi r
landsheandSi yaareoffi
cial
.Whowoul dhavethought?!Nita
wasi nMt hatha,shelefttogivebirthandshehasn' tbeenbacksi nce.Herbabyisgorgeousand
shenamedherSi waphiwe.Nal edibargedintomyr oom andIhadj ustgot t
enoutofthe
bathroom.

Me:
JesusChr
ist
!Youscar
edt
heshi
i
toutofme

Her
:what
'swr
ongwi
thy
ou?Whyy
ouj
umpy
?

Me:
i'
m notj
umpy
,youj
ustst
art
ledme

Her
:ri
i
ight
???

Shesatdownont
hebedandpat
tednextt
oher
.Ij
oinedher

Her
:what
'swr
ong?

Me:
Andr
ewwasf
ounddead.
..he'
sbeendeadf
orqui
tesomet
ime

Her
:theguywi
tht
hesmal
ldi
ckwhot
ri
edt
orapey
ou?

Me:
yes

Her
:whathappenedt
ohi
m?

Me:
Idon'
tknow,
Ireadi
tont
heschool
paper
.Theydon'
thav
eanyi
nfor
mat
iony
et

Her
:wow.Whenwast
hel
astt
imey
ousawhi
m?
Me:
whenhewasescor
tedoutofcl
assf
ir
stt
erm

Her
:cr
eepy
.

Me:
Iwonderwhathappenedt
ohi
m

Her
:hepr
obabl
yrapedt
hewr
ongper
son

Ij
ustshr
ugged

Her
:li
ght
enup.Hewasaj
erk,
hedeser
vedi
t

Me:
noonedeser
vest
odi
eNal
edi

Her
:ri
i
ight
..
.whatt
imear
ewel
eav
ing?

Me:
soonasIf
ini
shget
ti
ngdr
essed

Her
:loosenup.Mel
owon'
tl
ikey
oust
ressi
ngov
ert
his

Me:
Idon'
tknowLedi
..
.whati
fMel
ohadsomet
hingt
odowi
thi
t

Her
:yourboy
fri
endi
sal
lthi
ngsbuthei
sdef
ini
tel
ynotamur
der
er!

Me:
i'
ll
askhi
m

Her
:sur
ewhat
ever
.Getdr
essed,
seey
oudownst
air
s

Me:
sur
e

Shewalkedoutoft
her
oom andIheadedt
othecl
oset
,myphoner
angonmywayt
her
e.I
twas
Ash.Ianswer
ed

/
/Me:
mami

Her
:heyhoneyhowar
eyou?

Me:
goodt
hanksbabe,
howar
eyou?

Her
:I'
m good.Di
dyouuhhm r
eadt
heschool
paper
?

Me:
Idi
dthi
smor
ning.Poorguy

Her
:whoev
erki
l
ledhi
m madesur
ethatnot
hingl
eadsbackt
othem.Theywer
ever
ysmar
tabout
i
t

Me:
whatdoy
oumean?

Her
:thatwhoeverki
l
ledhi
m wasaprof
essi
onal
!Ther
e'snoevidencedude,
hewasst
abbedbut
t
hat'
sallt
heyknow.Hisbodywasf
oundinsomeseweragetunnel
Me:
Iwonderwhoki
l
ledhi
m

Her
:Ar
ghwhoknows.Onel
esscr
eept
odeal
wit
h

Me:
howl
ongdot
heyt
hinkhe'
sbeendeadf
or?

Her
:Idon'
tknow10mont
hsmay
be.
..

Me:
howdi
dnoonenot
icehi
sdi
sappear
ance?

Her
:Ir
eal
l
ydon'
tknowhone.Any
wayourpl
anel
eav
est
omor
rowat8am

Me:
awesome.Icannotwai
tfory
out
ogether
eal
ready
.IsMi
chael
comi
ng?

Her
:no,
hispar
ent
shav
eat
hinggoi
ngonwhi
chhehast
oat
tend

Me:
i'
m sor
ry

Her
:i'
l
lli
ve.I
sThomasst
il
lcal
l
ingy
ou?

Me:i
t'
ssoannoy
ing.Doyouknowthathesentmeapict
ureofusandsai
dsomeshi
i
tabout
howheandIwouldmaketheper
fectcoupl
eandst
uff

Her
:thi
sguy
.Canhenotgett
hehi
ntal
ready
?

Me:
you'
dthi
nkMel
o'
sthr
eat
swoul
dmakehi
m backdownbutnope,
hej
ustkeepscomi
nghar
d.

Her
:Isawt
hei
nst
agr
am post
s.Mel
omustbepi
ssed

Me:youhavenoi
dea.BabeIhat
etocutt
hecal
lbutNal
edi
wil
lwal
kinher
eandshoutatmef
or
notbei
ngdoneonti
me

Her
:It
otal
l
yunder
standl
over
.Seey
ouwhenIgett
her
e

Me:
adayandaf
ewhour
s

Her
:toodamnl
ong.By
ehoney

Me:
bye/
/

Idi
dthenecessaryandthenworel
owcutbl
ackr
ippedj
eans,whi
tev
est
,al
lwhit
eall
staranda
shor
tdeni
m Jacket.Needlesst
osay,
Iwassi
mpl
eAF!Ipackedupmyhandbagandheaded
downst
air
scalli
ngDerri
ck.

/
/Hi
m:heybeaut
if
ul,
missme?

Me:
heyhandsome.WhendoIev
ernot
?

Hi
m:i
'
llbebackt
hisaf
ter
noonandwe'
l
lspendt
hewhol
e..
.wel
lrestoft
hedayt
oget
her

Me:
that
'sf
inebyme.Thegi
rl
sandIar
egoi
ngoutany
way
Hi
m:needany
thi
ng?

Me:
notababybabe.
..I
'
m st
il
lgood

Hi
m:i
'
mjustaski
ng.

Me:
Iknow.
..babe

Hi
m:y
es?

Me:
Arghl
etst
alkwhenIseey
ouok

Hi
m:y
ousur
eitcanwai
t?

Me:
yeahi
tcanwai
t

Hi
m:okhone.
..i
'
llseey
ouwhenIgetback

Me:
bye

Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou

Me:
lov
eyout
oo/
/

Hehadt orushtoKokstadf orsomebusi nesst hi

ngyorwhat ever.ArghIcan'tkeepupwi t
ht hi
s
guy,eversi
ncehourstart
edwor ki
ngt hatsidehe' sbeensuperbusy ,OfcauseIseehi m enough
buttheworkloadisworryingmebecausei t'
sst r
essinghim out.Thi
sguywasonl yt
urning21
forhimtobethisover
wor ked.Andt hentheresmygal l
ery
,themoneyf rom myar twil
lbeusedt o
payforthat
.I'
vebeenlookingforplacestohav ei ti
n,Idon'
tknowwhet herIwantt obuil
df rom
scrat
chorjustbuyastudioandf i
xitup.Idon' tknowy et,
I'
mi nnor usheithersowe'llsee.Ledi
seemedannoy ed

Me:
i'
m sor
ry,
Igotacal
lfr
om Ash

Her
:Asemahl
eisal
readyt
her
e

Me:
yoh

Il
ockedt
hehouseandwedroveof
ftoSuncoast
.Wef
oundAsesi
tt
ingwi
thsomeguy
,if
memoryser
vesmerightt
hat
'
sSean.

Us:
hey

Ase:
yout
wosur
etake"
Afr
icant
ime"t
othenextl
evel

Me:
it'
smyf
aul
t.I
'
m sosor
rybabe.Uhhm hi

Hi
m:l
adi
eshi

Ase:
guy
sthi
sisSean,
Seant
hisi
sYandi
swaandt
hisi
sNal
edi
Me:
nicet
omeety
ou

Ledi
:ni
cet
ofi
nal
l
ymeety
ou.
..

AseandIr
oll
edourey
es.

Sean:
thepl
easur
eismi
ne.Letmel
eav
eyoul
adi
est
oit
.I'
l
lcal
lyou

Ase:
sur
e

Hel
eftandwet
ookourseat
s

Me:okandthen?Whyar
eyouandy
ourexbusycal
l
ingeachot
herwheny
ouhav
eal
ovi
ng
boy
fri
endi
ny ourl
i
fe?

Ase:
itsnot
hingl
i
ket
hat

Ledi
:expl
ain

Ase:
wef
ri
ends

Ledi
:wi
thbenef
it
smay
be?

Ase:
no.St
ri
ctl
yjustf
ri
ends

Me:
Ican'
ti
magi
neJamesagr
eedt
othat

Shebi
therl
owerl
i
p

Me:
myGodAsemahl
e!

Ase:Iknow.
..butIowehi
mthi
smuch,
yourboy
fri
enddumpedhi
mformewhenIwasi
n
hospi
talok!

Me:
yept
hat
'sMel
oal
ri
ght
.Al
way
slooki
ngoutf
ort
hosehel
oves

Ledi
:st
il
l.
..Idon'
tgett
hef
ri
endshi
p.Youguy
sonl
ydat
edf
orl
i
keamont
hort
wor
ight
?

Ase:
i'
m nothear
tl
essguy
s.Idon'
tl
ikehav
ingenemi
es

Shesaidhail
i
ngherhandt osomeone,It
urnedandi twashercousi
n,Anathi
'sl
astbornBanele.
Sheli
vesinpret
oriaandshe'
salwaysbusy.I
'm shockedtoevenseeherhere.Melotol
dmet hat
aft
erBomi di
ed,sheuppedandmov edtoPretori
aandwasnev eravai
l
ableforanythi
ng.She'
s23.

Bane:
hel
l
oladi
es.

Shehuggedhercousi
nandt
hencamet
ous

Her
:youar
eYandi
swar
ight
.Gody
ouev
enpr
ett
ieri
nper
son

Me:
thanky
ou.
..y
out
oo
Wehuggedandt
henshewentont
ogr
eetLedi
andt
hent
ookherseat

Ase:
itsbeenf
orev
er

B:
Iknowbabe.I
'
vej
ustbeenbusywi
thwor
k

Thi
sper
soni
spr
ogr
ammer
..
.IguessHerscar
cit
yisexpect
ed.

Ase:
what
ever
.Let
sor
der

Shehai
ledforawaiterandt
henweor
der
eddr
inksandf
ood.Lat
eronMel
ocal
l
edmesay
inghe
j
ustgotinDurban.

/
/Hi
m:shoul
dIcomef
etchy
ou?

Me:
yespl
ease

Igi
ggl
ed.

Hi
m:y
oudr
unkar
en'
tyou

Me:
justal
i
ttl
eti
psy

Hi
m:wher
ear
eyou?

Me:
suncoast
.

Hi
m:i
'
m onmyway
//

Me:
Mel
oiscomi
ng

B:
hewi
l
lmur
dery
ourass

Ase:
he'
snott
hatst
ri
ctwi
thher

Me:
what
everguy
s

Ase:
soy
oul
eav
ing?Yout
hewor
st

Me:
Iwi
l
lmakei
tupt
oyouguy
s..
.shot
sonme?

Ledi
:we'
l
ltaket
heshot
sfornowbuty
oust
il
loweusbi
gti
me

Justt
henMelowalkedin.Hewasdr
essedsocasual
l
ybuthel
ookedsof
ucki
nghotort
he
al
coholwaspl
ayi
ngt r
icksonme?

Hi
m:l
adi
es

Hesai
dpul
l
ingmei
nforahugandki
ssi
ngmyf
orehead

Them:
hey
Ledi
:sheowesusshot
s!

Hi
m:whathav
eyoubeendr
inki
ng?

Ase:
ever
ythi
ng!

Me:
li
es.Justshot
s

B:
19shot
s..
.pr
epar
tyt
ypeoft
hing

Hi
m:y
ouguy
sar
etr
yingt
oki
l
lher
.

Het
ookouthi
swal
l
etandpl
acedcashont
het
abl
e

Hi
m:t
hisi
sfory
ourl
astr
oundandNoneofy
ouar
edr
ivi
ngi
nthi
sst
ate

Ledi
:wecandr
ive

Hi
m:noy
oucannot
.I'
l
lcal
lSi
yaandSi
hlet
ocomef
etchy
ouguy
s

B:
howdoy
oudat
esomeonel
i
ket
his.He'
ssocont
rol
l
ingandsof
ather
ly

Me:
andIl
ovehi
mjustashei
s.Canwegonow?

Isai
dpout
ingl
ooki
ngupathi
m,hehadhi
sheav
yar
m onmyshoul
der
.Hourpeckedmyl
i
ps

Hi
m:l
etswai
tfort
heguy
stogether
efi
rst
,theynotf
ar

Inodded.

Me:
Ineedt
opee

Hi
m:i
'
llgety
ouwat
ersol
ong

Iwal
kedtot
het
oil
etsanddidmyt hi
ngwhenIwal
kedoutsomeoneputhi
shandi
nmymout
h
andshov
edmebackinthecubi
cle.

Hi
m:heyYandi
.Don'
tscr
eam pl
ease

Il
ookedatt
hisguy
.You'v
egott
obeki
ddi
ngmer
ightnow.Hi
m?Now?Whati
sheev
endoi
ng
her
e?Heremovedhishand.

Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
eZuko?

Hi
m:y
oust
il
lbeaut
if
ul

Hewasbl
ocki
ngt
hedoor

Me:
mov
eori
'
llscr
eam!

Hi
m:Iwoul
dnev
erhur
tyou.Atl
eastnotonpur
pose
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantf
rom me?

Hi
m:IwantyouYandiswa.Iwantal
lofy
ou.Iwanty
ourpr
ett
yti
ghtcake.Ij
ustwanty
ou,
Iwant
t
obeinsi
deofyou.Iwanttohaveababywit
hyou

Ichuckl
ed.I
fonl
yheknewhowr
idi
cul
oushesounded

Me:
Zukoj
ustgetoutofmyway

Isai
dtr
yingt
opushhim onlyforhimtosmashhi
sli
psi
ntomi
nehol
dingmyhandst
ight
lyI
coul
dfeelmybonescr
ushing.Ibithi
sli
pandhel
etgoofme

Hi
m:t
hef
uckdi
dyoudot
hatf
or

Isl
appedhi
m andhehel
dhi
scheek.

Me:
stayawayf
rom me

Hi
m:orwhat
?You'
l
ltel
lyourboy
fri
end?Hewon'
tdoany
thi
ngt
ome

Il
ookedathi
m

Hi
m:i
'
llseey
ouar
oundbeaut
if
ul.

Het
urnedar
oundandashewasaboutt
oopent
hedoorhet
urnedt
ome

Hi
m:anddon'
twor
ryaboutAndr
ewany
mor
e.He'
stakencar
eof

Andthenhewal
kedoutl
eavi
ngmespeechless.Whendi
dhebecomel i
kethis?TheZukoIknew
woul
dhaveneverdonet
hist
ome.Youeverbeensoshakenyousuddenlysoberup?Thatwas
me.Iwashedmyhandsandwal
kedbacktoourtabl
e.Si
yaandSi
hlewerealreadyher
e.

Mel
o:wer
eyout
aki
ngadump?Whatt
ooksol
ong

It
ookt
hewat
erf
rom t
het
abl
eandgul
pedi
tdown

Mel
o:y
ouok?

Me:
canwepl
easej
ustl
eav
e

Ikeptl
ooki
ngar
oundhopi
nghewasgone.Andrewdi
dnotev
endoany
thi
ngt
ome,
whywoul
d
hekil
lhi
m?HowdidheevenknowaboutAndr
ew?

Mel
o:ar
eyouok?

Inodded,
hegav
emet
hatl
ookofhi
sthatshoot
sst
rai
ghtt
omysoul
.

Mel
o:guy
swewi
l
lseey
ouar
oundy
eah?

Them:
bye
Wewal
kedoutt
ohi
scarandhest
rappedmei
ntomyseat
.

Hi
m:Yay
awhathappened?

Me:
pleasej
ustdr
ivet
oyourpl
ace

Hestar
tedtheengineanddroveof
f.Iwasreal
l
yshaken.Sober
edupandscar
edasfuck!He
par
kedoutsidehi
sf l
atandIqui
ckl
ygotoffmakingmywayt ohi
sdoor
,hewasri
ghtbehi
ndme.

Hi
m:Yandi
swat
alkt
omeal
ready

Iwasaboutt
ogoupt
hest
air
swhenhegr
abbedmyar
m.

Hi
m:t
alkt
ome.Pl
ease

Me:
Irani
ntoZuko

Hi
m:t
hatexofy
our
s?

Inoddedandl
ookeddown

Hel
i
ftedmychi
nupwi
thhi
sindexf
ingerandmademel
ookupathi
m

Hi
m:whathappened?

Me:hef
orcef
ull
yki
ssedmeandtol
dmet
hathewant
smebackandt
hathewant
stohav
ea
chi
l
dwit
hmeandt hathemi
ssesme

Idi
dn'
tevenfinishwhenhepul
l
edmet ohi
schest
.Ifoundmysel
fcryi
ng.Icanbev
er ydr
amati
c
whenthere'
salcoholi
nmysystem.Icoul
dfeelMel
o'
sheartpoundi
ng,hewasangry.Heneeds
tost
optreati
ngmel i
keababythi
sone.

Hi
m:i
'
m sor
ryIl
ety
ougoal
one

Ij
ustsobbedinhi
schest.Hepi
ckedmeupandtookmetohisroom andthenwecuddl
ed.I
coul
dfeelhi
sheart
beatslowdown.Ipul
l
edawayf
rom hi
schestandlookedupathi
m

Hi
m:y
ouokay
?

Inoddedandki ssedhisli
psandher esponded.Ineededt hi
s,webothneededt his.It'
sbeent oo
damnl ong!Thekisswassl owandev ery
thingf el
tli
keitwasmov i
nginslowmot ion.Hef l
i
pped
usov ersohewasont opbet weenmyl egs, hekeptgr i
ndingonmeIcoul dli
ter
allyf eelhi
sD
i
nsidehi sj
eanshor t
s.Ihelpedhi mtakehist -
shir
toffandhehel pedmet akemyt hingsoff.By
nowIwasnakedandhewasl efti
nhisboxer sbusycar essi
ngmyboobswi t
hhi shands.Hewas
doingthethingsandhewasn' teveninyet.Hewentdownandf oundhiswayt omyhoney pot
andsuckedt helif
eoutofme, hewassogoodIcamewi thi
nseconds.Icoul
df eel him smugand
chuckle.Sofull
ofhimself.Hel i
ckedmecl eanandt hencameupt oki
ssmewhi let r
yingto
i
nserthimself.
Hi
m:hasi
treal
l
ybeent
hatl
ong?

Me:
youhav
enoi
dea

Ipul
ledhi
mi nforaakisssoast oavoidthepainbetweenmyl egs.Igaspedanddugmynai l
s
deeponhisbackwhenIf eltitgoin.Fuck!Thatshii
tispai
nful!Meloisnotjustthi
ck,hei
sthi
ck
andlong,
nottoothi
ckt houbutjustperfect.Hestart
edofslowl yandthenincr
easedhispace.
..
wecamet oget
hercal
lingeachot her'
sname.whyt hefuckdidwest ophav i
ngsexagain?Hegot
ofmeandpul l
edmet ohi schest.Hepulledmyhandt ohi
smout handkissedit
.Icouldf
eel
myselfdr
if
ti
ngofftolalaland

Hi
m:di
dhedot
hist
oyou?

Me:
what
?

Ilookedatmyhandandmywr
istwaspi
nk.Whenheki
ssedmehewashol
dingmywr
ist
s
together
.

Me:
yes.
..

Hi
m:t
hisguycl
ear
lydoesnotknowme!

Hishear
tbeatwentf
rom a2toa100realqui
ck.Idi
dn'
tevenhavetheenergyt
oentert
ainhi
s
anger
.Ij
usthadthebestshagi
nages.Okmay bemonthsbutst
il
l.Imissedhi
minsideofme,
thel
ookonhi sf
acewhenhecums..
.fuck!Il
ovethi
smanwi t
hallthatIam!

<3

[
10/
16,
16:
27]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E38-Mel
o

Whil
eIwasinKokstad,
Ibumpedint
oKateandherfri
end.Shewassti
ll
thebeaut
yshewas
monthsagoei
thert
hantheli
tt
lewei
ghtsheputonwhichonlymadehersexyasFuck!Shewas
dr
ivi
ngascrol
l
erandherfri
endwascarr
yingababy
.

Me:
Kat
e

Her
:Der
ri
ck.
..whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Me:
i'
m her
eonbusi
ness
Myey
eswer
efocusedont
hebabyherf
ri
endwascar
ryi
ng

Her
:Al
exi
'
llcat
chupwi
thy
ouguy
s

Al
ex:
sur
e.

Shet
ookt
hescr
oll
erandwal
kedaway
.

Me:
youkeptt
hebaby
?

Sheshookherhead

Her
:mymot
herwoul
dhav
emur
der
edme.I
'
m sor
ryMel
o

Me:
oh

Her
:heorshewoul
dhav
epr
obabl
ybeenbeaut
if
ulorhandsome.
..l
i
key
ou

Me:
mh

Her
:Ishoul
dleav
e..
.

Me:
itwasni
ceseei
ngy
ou

Her
:li
kewi
se.By
eMel
o

Wit
hthatshelef
t.Idi
dn'
tevenknowwhattosayorhowtofeel
.Iwi
shIhadconvi
ncedbeenabl
e
t
oconvincehert
okeepit.Iwi
shIhaddonemore.Maybethi
ngswouldn'
tbeast
heyarenow.

Ihat
ethatIwasn'tthereforYayawhensheneededmethemost .Thi
sguyseemsl
iv
eacr eep!I
waswatchinghersleeping,sopeacef
ulandv
eryador
abl
e.Isnuckoutandtookmyphonewith
medownstairs.Ical
ledBanele.

/
/Her
:cousi
n

Me:
heycous,
youbusy
?

Her
:yes.
..I
'
m st
il
ldr
inki
ng

Me:
didn'
tyouguy
sleav
e?

Her
:wewentt
oCubana.How'
sthegi
rl
fr
iend?Sheseemedshaken

Me:
that
'sexact
lywhyI
'
m cal
l
ingy
ou.Ineedy
out
ohel
pmef
indsomeone

Her
:who?

Me:
Ionl
yhav
eaname

Her
:Ineedmor
ethananamecousi
n.
Me:
Nal
edi
knowshi
m.Askher

Her
:okwi
l
ldo.Whatdoy
ouwantt
oknowaboutt
hisper
son

Me:
ever
ythi
ng.Ineedl
ever
aget
ouseagai
nsthi
m

Her
:doIwantt
oknowwhathe'
sdone?

Me:
hescar
edmygi
rl
fr
iend

Her
:whatdoy
oumean?

Me:
Imeanhe'
sadangert
oher
.Anobsessedex

Her
:Uwoah!You'
l
lgeti
ttomor
rowmor
ningwhenI
'
m sober

Me:
comeonBanel
e

Her
:Icamet
oDur
bant
ohav
efun.Pl
easel
etme

Me:
whatcanIdot
ogett
hist
oni
ght
?

Her
:canIj
ustgety
ouhi
snumberf
ornow

Me:
fine!

Her
:by
e!/
/

IwaitedforansmsandIgotanumberandaddr ess.Iwr
oteasti
ckynoteandlef
titonthe
mirror"
Lefttogobuyf oodandalsowenttoMr sBess.Bebacksoon.Xoxo".Gotinmycarand
droveofftothelocati
on.Itwasalr
eadypast6pm andIgother
earound4pm.Ipar kedandthen
headedinside.Iknockedandheopened.Hewasaboutt otal
kwhenIpunchedhi m bet
weenhis
eyes,hebentdownhol dinghisf
ace

Hi
m:whatt
hef
uckman.

Me:
stayawayf
rom Yandi
swa

Hel
ookedupatmeandchuckl
edwhi
chonl
ypi
ssedmeof
f.

Hi
m:Yandi
swai
smi
ne

Me:
pastt
ense.Wasy
our
sbutnotany
mor
e

Hechuckl
edagai
n

Him:youmayhavehernowbutshe'
ll
alwaysbemi
neandsheal
way
scomesbackt
ome.You
nott
hefir
standy
oudefini
tel
ynott
helast

Ichuckl
ed
Me:
aren'
tyouconf
ident
.TheYandi
sway
ouknewi
sdi
ff
erentf
rom t
heoneIknow

Hi
m:t
henwhydi
dsheki
ssme?

Me:
afor
cedki
ssi
snotaki
ss.St
ayawayory
ouandIwi
l
lhav
epr
obl
ems

Hi
m:y
oudon'
tscar
emeBess

Me:
nei
therdoy
oubutt
ouchheragai
nandy
ou'
l
lloset
hosehands.

Iwal
kedt
owar
dst
hedoor

Hi
m:she'
smi
ne

Me:
keepdr
eami
ng!

Iwal
kedoutandgoti
ntomycar
,Ihadami
ssedcal
lfr
om Yay
a.Ical
l
edherback

/
/Her
:hey

Me:
heyy
ouawake

Her
:whenIwakeupIexpectt
ofi
ndy
oubesi
demeandnotast
ickynot
eBess

Me:
i'
m sor
rybabe.Mr
sBesscal
l
edandy
ouknowhowshecanget

Her
:Iknow.Youst
il
lwi
thher
?

Me:
i'
m onmywayhomenowbabe.Whatdoy
ouwantt
oeat
?

Her
:you.
..any
thi
ng

Shegi
ggl
ed

Me:
you'
l
lhav
emeasy
oupl
ease.Nowwhatshoul
dIbuy
?

Her
:canwegoouti
nst
ead

Me:
showerupI
'
m onmyway

Her
:awesome.
//

Droveoffcal
li
ngmom, Ili
edabouthert hel
eastIcoulddoischeckonher.WespokeuntilIgot
tomyplaceandt hendr
oppedt hecal
l.Igoti
nsideandMi ssywasplay
ingmusicandlot
ioning
herbody,shel
ookedsof ucki
ngsexy!WhydidIev ercheatonher?Icl
osedthedoorsoast onot
dist
urbherandthensneakeduponher

Her
:youdoknowt
haty
ourcol
ognegi
vesy
ouawayal
lthet
ime!

Shest
il
ldi
dn'
ttur
n.Ihuggedherf
rom behi
ndandki
ssedherneckmaki
nghermoansof
tl
y
Me:
canwedodi
nnerl
ater

Isai
dwi
thmyhandbet
weenhert
highs

Her
:yoursi
stercal
l
ed

Me:
i'
m sur
eshedi
d

Isaidi
nsert
ingmymi ddl
efi
ngerwhi
lestr
okinghercl
it
,sheletoutamoanwit
hherhands
holdi
ngontothebackofmyneck.Ikeptfi
ngeri
ngherunti
lshewascloset
ocomingandthen
pull
edout.Shetur
nedaroundandwrappedherarmsaroundmyneckandkissedme

Her
:di
dyouev
enshower
?

Me:
doesi
tmat
ter
?

Shegiggledinbetweentheki
ssandt henpushedmet othebed.Shehel pedtakemycl othesoff
andthenwentonherknees.Fuck!!!Thisgirlwasdoingthethings.Shest ar
tedstr
okingmewi t
h
herhandandt henshefli
cker
edhertongueont heti
pmaki ngmef eelthingsIhaven'tf
eltina
l
ongt i
me.Shegav emet hebestBloweemaki ngmeorgasm har dandt henIpull
edherupt ome
andwef uckedforwhatseemedlikeanhourswi t
chi
ngposi t
ionsev er
ynowandt hen.Whenwe
weredoneweshower edandthengotdr essed.Shekeptsteali
ngglancesatme

Me:
whati
sit
?

Her
:Imi
ssedt
his

Me:
stopper
ving!

Her
:Ican'
thel
pmy
sel
f.Yousodamnhot
!

Ichuckl
ed.Thi
sgi
rlandf
li
rt
ing.Wher
edi
dIgether
?

Me:
qui
titMaf
akubef
oreIdot
hingst
hatwi
l
lmakeusst
ayi
nthi
sfl
att
hewhol
eni
ght

Shegiggl
edandwor
emyt-shi
rtwi
thshor
tsandapairofheel
s.I
'
m pl
easedt
osayshel
ooked
sexy
!Anythi
ngofmi
nesheworeshemadeitlook10xbet
ter.

Her
:what
?

Me:
not
hing

Her
:st
opdr
ool
i
ng

Me:
i'
mjustwor
ri
edt
hat
'sal
l

Her
:I'
mfi
ne.You'
l
lbewi
thmeev
ery
wher
eIgo

Me:
obv
iousl
y.
Shehel
pedmeputonmywat
ch

Her
:whathappenedt
oyourhand?

Me:
hadar
uni
nwi
thsomei
diot
'
sface

Her
:youpunchedZukodi
dn'
tyou?That
'
swher
eyoudi
sappear
edof
fto

Inoddedl
ooki
ngatherassheobser
vedmyhand.

Her
:whatwi
l
lIdowi
thy
ou.Youcan'
tj
ustgoar
oundpunchi
ngpeopl
eforme

Me:
Icani
ftheymesswi
thy
ou.Andi
fany
onet
ouchesy
out
odayt
eet
hwi
l
lfl
y

Her
:JesusChr
ist

Sherol
l
edhereyes.Iwalkedt
otheclosetandwentt
ofet
chmysneaker
s.Whenwewer
ebot
h
doneweheadedout,Il
etherdri
ve.

Her
:Icannotbel
i
evey
oul
ett
ingmedr
ivey
ourbaby

Me:
youl
ooksexybehi
ndt
hewheel
.Ar
en'
tyour
eadyf
ory
ourownbaby
?

Shechuckl
ed

Her
:ifIhadt
hecashi
'
downonebutI
'
mtoof
ocusedonmydr
eam,
acarcancomel
ater

Me:
andwhati
fIof
fer
edt
ogety
ouone

Her
:NO!

Me:
what
?Why
?

Her
:justnoMel
o.Acari
stoomuch

Me:ar
en'ty
outi
redofbei
ngdri
venar
oundandrequest
inguber
's?Imeant
hemoneyy
ouspend
onUber'
scoul
dbeenoughtospendonpet
rol

Her
:canwenotdot
hispl
ease.

Me:
fine

Sheparkedandthenwegotofftoeat.Whenwewer edoneoverli
ghtconversati
onswedroveto
thecl
ubtowhereeveryonewas.Yayaistoocaughtupinbeingindependentitki
ndofscaresme.
Makesmef eell
i
keshedoesn'tneedmeorsomet hing.Idon'
tknow.Thecr ewandeveryone
werealr
eadysl
oshed,wellt
hegir
ls.Jameswasher etoo.

Me:
doc

Hi
m:l
awy
er
Me:
Meetmygi
rl
fr
iendYandi
swa,
thi
sisJames

Yay
a:hi

Hi
m:ni
cet
omeety
ou.Asemahl
eador
esy
ou

Yay
a:wher
eissheany
way
?

Hi
m:dancef
loor

Hesai
drol
l
inghi
sey
es

Yay
a:awesome.I
'
m of
ftoj
oint
hem

Sheki
ssedmycheekandl
eftme.

Me:
andsheador
eshert
oo

Hi
m:Isee.Any
thi
ngt
odr
ink?

Me:
notnow,
sohowar
ethi
ngswi
thmysi
ster

Hi
m:she'
samazi
ng,
she'
sanAngel

Me:
Icani
magi
ne

Hi
m:shet
oldmewhathappenedt
oher

Me:
shet
oldmeshedi
d

Hi
m:t
ell
met
heguyi
sdead

Ishookmyhead

Me:
he'
sinpr
isonandhe'
ssomeguy
'sbi
tch

Hi
m:t
hat
'snotenough.Doy
ouknowshest
il
lget
sni
ght
mar
es

Me:
shenev
ert
oldmet
hat

Hi
m:y
eah.Shewant
stov
isi
thi
m

Me:
she'
snotdoi
ngt
hat
!

Him:it
snotmychoicet
omake.May bei
fhewer
egonet
henshewoul
dn'
tbewant
ingt
oseehi
m.
Iguessshesomewhatneedscl
osur
e

Me:i
t'sbadenoughshe'
shav
ingni
ght
mar
es,
seei
nghi
m wi
l
lonl
ytakeherbackt
othet
rauma.
That
'sthel
astthi
ngweneed

Hi
m:y
ouy
our
sel
fknowy
ourt
win.Whenshehashermi
ndset
,not
hingcanst
opher
Me:
shecanbev
eryst
ubbor
n.JamesI
'
mtr
ust
ingy
out
otr
eatherr
ight

Hi
m:Iknowandt
rustmeIwon'
tscr
ewup

Me:
good

Igotuptogogetmysel
fadri
nk.Ifoundthegi
rl
sgoingwildonthedancef
loor
.Theseonesand
danci
ng.I
t'
sanobsessi
onIswear.Ihuggedmygir
lfrom behi
nd

Her
:youser
iousl
ycan'
tst
ayawayhuh

Ase:
itssocut
e

B:
mor
eli
keannoy
ing.Isweart
oGody
ouhav
ehi
m underaspel
l

Ledi
:i
tsnotabadt
hingt
hou.Imeani
t'
sbeaut
if
ulandsomeofusonl
ydr
eam ofwhatt
heyhav
e

Yay
a:y
our
eal
l
yneedamanbuddy
!

Ledi
:oneday

Me:
yout
ell
them gi
rl
.Needany
thi
ng(
whi
sper
ing)

Her
:I'
mfi
nebabe.Ihadashotort
wo

Me:
don'
tgett
oodr
unkok?Youdr
ivi
ng

Her
:fi
ne.Justdon'
tgetsl
oshed

Me:
yesmadam!

Iwalkedtot
hebarandboughtabot
tl
eofHennessyt
henheadedbackt
othet
abl
e.Theguy
s
wereallt
her
enow

Me:
wher
edi
dyoudi
sappearof
fto?

Si
hle:
hadt
ogogetmor
eweed

Me:
all
ofy
ou

Si
ya:
hadot
hert
hingst
odot
oochi
l
l!

Wealldrankandhadf un.Thegir
lscamebacktoj
oinusandweengagedi
nmeaningl
ess
conv
ersati
ons.Iexcusedmy sel
ftogopeeaft
erawhil
e,
onmywayoutIbumpedintosomeone.

Me:
i'
m sosor
ry

Her
:noi
tsmyf
..
.Mel
o

Il
ookedupandi
twasOl
ona.
..gr
eat
!justf
ucki
ngper
fect
!Whyi
ssheev
eni
nDur
ban?
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Her
:youj
ustup'
dandl
eft
.Nowor
dnonot
hing.

Me:
ayayay
.Wewer
enev
erdat
ing,
qui
tact
ingasi
fwewer
emor
e

Her
:she'
sreal
l
ychangedy
ouhuh.Thel
easty
oucoul
dhav
edonewascal
l

Me:Ol
onawewerefuckbuddies,
alongtimeago.Whathappenedwasami st
akeandshoul
dn'
t
hav
ehappenedi
nthefi
rstpl
ace.I'
m sor
ryforhav
ingl
edyouonandthinki
ngthatwecoul
dever
bemore

Her
:ar
eyouki
ddi
ngme?Ser
iousl
yMel
o!

Me:
byeOl
ona.Enj
oyt
her
estofy
ourni
ght

Shest
oodbef
oreme.

Me:youreal
lydon'
twanttotr
ymer ightnow,
I'
mtoodr
unkf
ort
his.Begr
atef
ulI
'
m ev
en
apol
ogi
sing!Gobacktoyourfr
iends

Her
:Idon'
tgety
ou

Me:
younev
erwi
l
l

Ipushedherasi
deandwal
kedoutandheadedback,
IsatYay
aonmyl
ap.

Her
:tooky
oul
ongenough

Me:
hadabumpi
nwi
thOl
ona

Her
:oh

Me:
she'
smadbecauseIj
ustup'
dandl
eftwi
thoutsay
ingany
thi
ngt
oher

Her
:Isee

Me:
tel
lmewheny
ouwantt
ogook

Her
:wi
l
ldo.Ineedt
opee

Me:
let
sgo

Her
:I'
m notachi
l
d

Me:
Iknowt
hat
.Nowl
et'
sgo

Shepout
edandgotoffmethenwewalkedt
otheloohandinhand.Shewasl
eadingt
heway
,I
wait
edoutsi
def
orherandshewenti
nanddidherbusi
ness.Shecameoutaf
tersometi
me

Her
:thel
i
nei
nther
ewasshi
tt
ylong
Me:
Isee.Let
sgogetmewat
er,
Ineedt
osoberupal
i
ttl
e

Her
:tol
dyout
osl
owdownont
heHennessy

Me:
tol
dyouIwant
edt
ogetsl
oshed

Her
:what
everBess.

Wegott
othebarandIaskedf
orabot
tl
eofst
il
lwat
er,
wewai
tedov
erl
i
ghtconv
ersat
ion.

"
Cut
e"

Sai
danOl
onabehi
ndYay
a.Yay
atur
ned

Yay
a:hel
l
otoy
out
oo

Ol
ona:
your
eal
l
ycan'
tchangehi
m

Yay
a:i
'
m noty
ou.Idon'
tj
ustgi
vei
tupt
oany
onewi
l
li
ngt
ogeti
t

Ol
onar
aisedherhandt
osl
apherbutYay
acaughtherwr
istj
usti
nti
me.

Yaya:
Idareyoutotrythatonemoret
imeandyou'
l
lseewhathappensnext
.I'
m notr
atchetbutI
don'
tmindbeing.
..j
usttohaveyouof
fmyback!

Sheshookherheadl
ooki
ngatme

Yaya:
hewon'
tdoanythi
ng,
justl
i
kehe'
snotdoi
ngany
thi
ngnow.You'vehadi
tformesi
nceday
oneandi
'
m si
ckofit
.Thesms's,t
hewhat
sappt
ext
s,t
hepict
ures.I
t'
salowbl
owev enf
oryou

Ol
onast
ormedof
fandl
eftusst
andi
ngt
her
e

Me:
whatsms'
s?Text
sandpi
ctur
es?

Her:whenwewereonabreakshest
art
edst
alki
ngme.Sendi
ngmepi
ctur
esofy
ouguy
sand
t
hreateni
ngt
ext
sandall
that

Me:
whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me?

Her
:itwasn'
ti
mpor
tantpl
usIhadi
tcov
ered

Ishookmyheadi
ndeci
siv
ely

Her
:Iknowwhaty
out
hinki
ng.Don'
tMel
o,i
t'
sfi
ne.I
'
mfi
ne

Me:
finet
hen

Ipai
dformywaterandwewalkedbacktothet
abl
eandj
oinedt
heother
s.Theywer
esmoki
ng
hubbl
y,wel
li
thadweedini
t.Thesepeopl
e.WhoknewDocsmokedsometoo?

.
.

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[
10/
16,
16:
27]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E39

Olonapi ssedmeof f.Whydosomegi rl

sfeeltheneedt obet hatdesper at
e?Idon'tl
ikedrama
butdr amaj ustseemstofollowme.Forsomer easonIwashopi ngt omeetupwi thherbecause
theshi i
tshehadbeensendi ngmei nthosemont hsr eal
lywasn'tf l
yingwithme.It'
schil
dishand
desper ate,
toodesperatei
fy ouaskme.Idr ovetotheairportwithLedi tofetchAshandSer ena,
plansf ormybi r
thdaywereinprogressbutIwasn'thav i
ngitinDur ban,herewewoul djustgo
clubbingandt henhaveapar tybackinMthatha,Iowemyf ami l
yt hatmuchseeingthatIbailed
ont hem inJuneandl astyear'
sbir
thday.I
fpeoplewant edtobet herethentheywouldhav eto
drivetoMt hathashame.Wehuggedandt henwedr oveoff

Ash:
sowher
etof
ir
st?

Me:
aren'
tyouj
etl
agged?

Ser
:shemeansl
ater
.Wewantt
odr
inkSout
hAf
ri
canal
cohol
anddancet
oSout
hAf
ri
canmusi
c!

Ledi
:myki
ndofgi
rl
s!FuckI
'
m sogl
adt
ofi
nal
l
ymeety
ouguy
s

Me:
wecandoev
ery
thi
ngel
sel
ater
.Fornowwegoi
ngt
oourpl
acef
ory
ouguy
stocr
ash

Ser
:justbecausewei
nyourhomecount
ry,
don'
tmeany
ougot
tabebossy
.Whathappenedt
oa
l
it
tl
ehospital
ity
?

Me:
Ifi
gur
edy
ouat
eont
hepl
ane

Ash:
youofal
lpeopl
eknowt
hatt
hef
oodt
heyser
vesucks!

Me:
sor
ry!Wher
edoy
ouwantt
oeat
?

Il
ookedatLedi

Ledi
:don'
tl
ookatme

Ash:
any
wher
eisf
iner
eal
l
y..

Ser
:asl
ongasi
t'
sfood

Ledi
:roccomama'
siti
s
Ash:
awesome.Let
sgot
hen

Wedroveoffoverl
i
ghtconversat
ions.Wegott
her
eandpl
acedor
der
s,Igotacal
lfr
om my
f
ather
'swi
fe..
.Iwonderwhatshewant s.

Me:
excuseIshoul
dtaket
his

Them:
sur
e

Iwal
kedt
othel
adi
esanswer
ingt
hecal
l
.

/
/Me:
hel
l
o

Her
:hi
,Ihear
dyoui
ntown

Me:
yeahI
'
m back,
yousoundst
ressedi
sev
ery
thi
ngok?

Her
:Si
nohasbeenadmi
tt
edt
ohospi
tal

Me:
whatdoy
oumean?Whathappened?

Shestar
tedwail
ingwhi
chmeantitwasseri
ous.Ihav
en'
tspokentoSinoi
nawhile,
lastt
imewe
spokewaslastmonthandshewasstr
essedaboutexamsandstuff
.Iwonderwhathappened.

Her:shehadanepilept
icepi
sodeandt
hisoneispr
obabl
ythewor stshe'
severhad.I
'
vebeen
her
ef oranhourandnoonehassaidanythi
ngandyourf
ather
'sphonekeepsgoingstrai
ghtt
o
voi
cemai l
.GodI'
m soscared

Me:
breat
he.Pl
easej
ustbr
eat
he,
I'
m onmyway
.Whi
chhospi
tal
arey
oui
n?

Her
:nextt
oGat
eway

Me:
i'
m onmywayj
usthol
don/
/

Isatthereonthetoil
etseatandjustt
ookamomenttoletthetearsr
oll
down.Howdi dInot
knowshewasepi l
epti
c?Howcomeshenev ertol
dmey etshetol
dmeev ery
thingel
se?It
doesn'tmakeanysense.Iwi pedmytear
sandthenwalkedoutofthecubicl
estil
lwi
pingmy
eyes,Ifel
tsomethingcoveri
ngmynosemakingmedr opmyphoneandl ikethatIwasknocked
out.

-
Ledi

Yaya'sbeengoneforanhournow,par
tofmewantedt
owor rybutpar
tofmet
oldmeshewas
probablyt
alki
ngtoherboyf
ri
endnow.Withhery
ouneverknow.

Ash:
doesshenor
mal
l
yst
ayt
hisl
ongont
hephone?ImeanI
'
m herr
oommat
ebutev
ent
hisi
sa
l
i
ttl
etool
ong

Me: herandherst
epmom ar
en'
tthatcl
ose,
she'
spr
obabl
ytal
ki
ngt
oherboy
fri
endnow.I
'
llgo
checkneh

Igotupandwentt othel
oo.Iwentt
oknockonal lt
hecubicl
esandtheywer eallempt
y.Ok...
whatt hehel
l???Ical
l
edherphoneandi tr
angsomewherearoundhere,soundedl i
kei
twas
undert hesi
nk.Iknel
tdownandtookapeakandt herei
twas, t
hescr
eenpr otect
orhadcracked.
Nothingaboutthismakesanysense,shehadmissedcall
sfrom Mel
oandherst epmom.I
typedinherpasswordandtookdownMel o'snumberont
omyphoneandj ustthenherphone
ranginmyhand.

/
/Hi
m:Babe!

Me:
Mel
ohi

Hi
m:Nal
edi
?Wher
e'sYandi
swa?

Me:
Idon'
tknow.If
oundherphoneont
hef
loori
nthet
oil
.
..

Hi
m:Nal
edi
thef
uckdoy
oumean?Wher
eismygi
rl
fr
iend?

Me:
Idon'
tknowMel
okuhl
epl
easej
ustcal
m down?

Hi
m:wher
ear
eyou?

Me:
roccomama'
s

Hi
m:i
'
m onmyway
!//

Iwalkedout..
.wel lmoreli
keranbacktothegi r
ls.there'
snomanual orhandbookonhowt o
reacttofi
ndingy ourf
ri
end'sphoneont hefl
oori nanempt ytoilet
.Imeanwhatt hehel
ldoy ou
evendo?Yay aisamama' sbabyandIknowv erywel lt
hatifIhaddisappearedshewoul dcall
hermot herfi
rstsothatshecant el
lherwhattodo, it'
scrazy,Iknowbutt hat'
sjustt
heperson
myf ri
endis.She'sthetypethatwouldcall
hermot herbecauseofaf lattyr
e..
.anywayIdial
led
Mamu' Gxaba'snumberonmyphoneandcal l
edherbutherphonewoul dri
ngtil
lvoi
cemail.
..j
ust
great!

Ash:
wher
esYay
a?

Isunkdownonmyseat
.Whathappened?Whocoul
dhav
etakenherandwhy
?Shedoesn'
t
makeenemiesmos.

Ser
:ear
tht
oLedi

Shesai
dwav
ingherhandi
nfr
ontofmyf
acesnappi
ngmebackt
oear
th.

Me:
she'
smi
ssi
ng
Ash:
ver
yfunnyLedi
.Buti
nther
eal
what
'
sYandi
swadoi
ngi
nther
e

Me:
she'
smi
ssi
ngAshant
i!

Ser
:howt
hef
uckdoesaper
songomi
ssi
ng?I
tmakesnosense

Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s.

Ash:
i'
ll
got
alkt
othemanager

Shesaidwalki
ngawayf r
om ourtabl
e.Asi
fthatwil
lsolveanyt
hing.Ikeptt
ryi
ngtocallher
motherbuttonoluckandIdon'
twanttoscarehergrandmother,she'
sbeenthroughenough.
Herphonerangagainandthi
stimeitwasAsemahle.

/
/Her
:heyYay
awher
ear
eyou?

Me:
thi
sisLedi

Her
:wherearey ouguy
s,I
'
m bor
edasf
uck!Jameswascal
l
edi
ntowor
ktodayandnowI
'
m
bor
edathisplace

Me:
AseYandi
swai
smi
ssi
ng

Her
:whatdoy
oumean?

Me:
Imeanshe'
smi
ssi
ng.If
oundherphoneont
hef
loori
nthet
oil
etwi
thouther

Her
:itmakesnosenset
hou.Fuckhav
eyout
oldMel
o?

Me:
he'
sonhi
swayher
enow

Her
:wher
ear
eyouguy
s?

Me:
roccomama'
s.

Her
:howdoessomeonegomi
ssi
ngi
namal
l
,thatpl
acei
sn'
tev
enbugenough

Me:
Idon'
tknowAsemahl
e.I
'
mjustasconf
used!

Her
:i'
l
lcal
lyouagai
n//

JustthenMel owal
kedinshout
ing.Mywor dt
hisguyanddr
ama.Inal
lhonestymyfri
endhasa
goodey e.Herboyf
ri
endisqui
tealookershame.AndnoIdon'
twantMelo!I
'mjustappr
eci
ati
ng
God'screati
on.

Hi
m:wher
eisshe?

Me:
Mel
ocal
m down

Hi
m:don'
t.Justdon'
tok!
Hewal
kedawayf
rom meandheadedt
owar
dthebar
,If
oll
owedr
ightbehi
ndhi
m.

Hi
m:Iwantt
otal
ktosomeonei
nchar
ge

Ash:
thatwon'
thel
patal
l.Thesecur
itycamer
a'si
nthetoi
l
etwereoff,
theybusyf
ixi
ngt
hem or
somethi
ngal
ongthosel
i
nes..
.wellt
healloft
hecamera'
sint
hisrest
aurant

Hi
m:t
hatmakesnof
ucki
ngsense!

Hest
ormedof
fleavi
ngusal
lj
ustst
unnedandl
i
ter
all
ynotknowi
ngwhatt
hef
uckt
odo.Just
t
henmyphonerangandi
twasYaya'
smom

/
/Me:
Maf
aku

Her
:Nal
edi
missedcal
l
sezi
ngaka(
somanymi
ssedcal
l
s)

Me:
MamaYandi
swai
smi
ssi
ng

Her
:Nal
edi
younotf
unny

Me:i
'
m ser
iousMaGxaba.Idon'
tknowwher
eshei
s,If
oundherphonei
nthebat
hroom.
Someonemusthav
etakenher

Her
:whowoul
dtakeher
?

Me:
Idon'
tknowMa.Ir
eal
l
ydon'
tknow,
Icanbar
elyt
hinkofany
one

Her
:i.
..I
'
m onmywayt
her
e//

Justwow!Thi scannotbehappening.Af ewday sbef oreherbir

thdaynogal.Wheredoweev en
startlookinganyway?Weset tl
edthebil
l andIdr ov
eust oourplace.Thegirl
sneededt of r
eshen
upany way.Herphonekeptringi
ngtoapoi ntIshutitoff.Iwoul
dcal lNi
tabutshedoesn' tneed
this,she'sgonnabestressi
ngandIdon' twantt hat
,shehasababyt oworryabout.Ical
ledMel o
whodi dn'
tansweranyofmycal lswhichwasonl ystressingmeout .Idon'
tgetit
.Wher ewoul d
shedi sappearoffto?

Ash:
wegoi
ngt
ofi
ndher

Me:
how?Wedon'
tev
enknowwher
etost
art

Her
:wecanst
artbyaski
ngThomas.He'
sint
own

Me:
Thomas?

Her
:hehasat
hingf
orher
.Younev
erknow

Me:orZuko.Melopunchedhi
m notsolongagoandont
hatv
erysamedayhet
oldYay
athatshe
washisandstuf
fsoIreall
ydon'
tknow

Her
:soundsdel
usi
onal
Me:
youhav
enoi
dea.

It
ookmycarkey
sfr
om t
het
abl
e

Ash:
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?

Me:
Ican'
tj
ustsi
tanddonot
hing.I
'
m goi
ngt
oZuko'
shouse!

Her
:I'
m comi
ngwi
th.Letmegowearpr
opershoes

Shewaswear ingsleepers.Iwal
kedouttheminuteshedi
sappear
ed.Iknowi
t'
swr
ongofmebut
I
'm str
essingandjustthethoughtofZukotaki
ngherwasenoughtomakemegocrazy
!Idr
ove
tohisplaceandbargedin.Hewasi nthekit
chen

Me:
wher
eisshe?

Hi
m:whoar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?Hel
l
obyt
heway

Hewaswal
ki
ngbehi
ndmeasIwenti
nroom byr
oom i
nhi
sfl
at

Hi
m:Nal
edi
whot
hehel
lar
eyoul
ooki
ngf
or?

Me:
Yandi
swai
smi
ssi
ng.Wher
eisshe?

Hechuckl
ed.It
urnedt
ohi
m andsl
appedhi
m,hi
slaughwasj
ustannoy
ingandIwaspi
ssed

Hi
m:ser
iousl
y

Iwal
kedt
otheki
tchenandsear
chedhi
sdr
awer
sandcameoutwi
thakni
fe

Hi
m:doy
ouev
enknowhowt
ouset
hat
?

Me:
Zukowher
eismyf
ri
end?

Hehadthi
sannoyi
ngsmug.Thisguywasn'tevent hatGoodl
ooking,Idon'
tknowwhatYaya
wasthi
nki
ngdati
nghi
m..
.letal
onelosinghervir
ginityt
ohim ormaybenotbecauseshenever
bl
ednordi
dshecum..
.butthat
'
snott hepointhere.

Hi
m:Nal
edi
Idon'
tknowwher
eYandi
swai
s.Shehasawhor
eofaboy
fri
end.Askoneofhi
sgi
rl
s

Me:
younotf
unny
!

Hi
m:Hai
keIal
sodon'
tknow!Goodl
uckt
hou

Me:
ZukoIwi
l
luset
hiskni
fe

Isai
dpressi
ngitont
hesi deofhi
sneck,he'
sali
ttl
etal
l
erthanmesoyoucani
maginethat
i
mage.Yandiswaandtallguy
s..
.atl
eastMel
oistal
landbuff
-i
shwhi
l
ethi
soneisj
usttall
and
ski
nny.
..weedsmokerlooktypeofthi
ng.
Hi
m:y
ouknowIcoul
dgety
ouar
rest
edf
ort
his.I
'
m sur
ether
e'sal
awagai
nstwhaty
oudoi
ng

Me:
ifIf
indouty
ouhadsomet
hingt
odowi
tht
hisIswearIwi
l
lki
l
lyouwi
thmybar
ehands!

Iputhi
sknif
eontheki
tchencount
erandwalkedoutt
omycar
,Ihadadozenmi
ssedcal
l
sfr
om
Ash.Ical
l
edMeloandthist
imeheanswered

/
/Hi
m:what
?

Me:
foundany
thi
ng?

Him:thi
spersonwassmar
taboutt
his.Ther
e'sl
i
ter
all
ynot
hingont
hesescr
eenst
hatshow
anyt
hingsuspi
cious

Me:
itdoesn'
tmakeanysense.Aper
sondoesn'
tj
ustgomi
ssi
ng

Hi
m:y
ell
meabouti
t.I
'
m asconf
usedasy
ouar
e

Me:
Ijustspoket
oZukoandhesay
shedi
dn'
ttakeher

Hi
m:don'
ttel
lmey
oubuyt
hat
!

Me:
Idon'
tbutwhati
fitwasn'
thi
m?Asht
ell
smeThomasi
sint
own

Hi
m:what
'shedoi
ngher
e?

Me:
Idon'
tknowMel
okuhl
e.Idon'
tknowok!

Hi
m:gohomeNal
edi
I'
m handl
i
ngt
his

Me:
she'
smybestf
ri
endMel
okuhl
e.I
'
m notgoi
ngt
osi
tbackanddonot
hing

Hi
m:andi
'
llnev
erf
orgi
vemy
sel
fify
ougothur
tint
hepr
ocess.

Me:
i'
m noty
ourpr
obl
em Mel
okuhl
e

Hi
m:y
ouasst
ubbor
nasy
ourf
ri
endy
eses!

Me:
whatcanIdo?

Hi
m:not
hing.Ihav
emyf
ather
'speopl
ewor
kingont
his

Me:
Ican'
tsi
tanddonot
hingMel
okuhl
e

Hi
m:got
omyhome.I
t'
ssaf
ert
her
e,Asemahl
eist
her
e

ThankGodthisguyisnotmyboy f
ri
end.He'
ssocont
rol
l
ingandor
der
ingandshi
i
t.I
t'
sact
ual
l
y
annoyi
ng.Ij
ustdroppedthecal
l
//

Idrovehome.Igott
hereandt
ookdownherstepmom'
snumberandcal
l
edher
,theamountof
missedcal
lsfr
om hercoul
dmeanit
'sser
ious.
/
/Me:
hel
l
o

Her
:hi
.Whoi
sthi
s?

Me:
thi
sisNal
edi
,Yandi
swa'
sbestf
ri
end

Her
:Yandi
swai
sn'
tanswer
ingherphone.Anyi
deawher
eshei
s?

Me:
she'
smi
ssi
ng

Her
:Idon'
tunder
stand

Me:
wear
edoi
ngev
ery
thi
ngt
ofi
ndher

Her
:Iwi
shIcoul
dhel
pbutSi
nosl
i
ppedi
ntoacoma

Me:
what
?

Her
:she'
sepi
l
ept
icsoshehadanepi
sodewhi
chsl
i
ppedheri
ntoacoma

Me:
i'
m sosor
ry

Her
:Idon'
tunder
standwhyal
loft
hisi
sjusthappeni
ngnow.Idon'
tgeti
t

Me:
i'
ll
comebyt
hehospi
tal
lat
eron

Her
:thanky
ou.Pl
easekeepmepost
ed

Me:
wil
ldo.By
eMa

Her
:by
e//

Tearsj
ustrol
leddownmyeyes.Thiscannotbehappeni
ng.Notnow!I
tmakeszer
osense.What
am Imissi
ng?Whocouldhav
et akenherandwhy?

<3

[
10/
16,
16:
27]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E40

-
Mel
o
".
..seeI 'm notlikeal ltheothergi rl
st haty ouhav ebeenmessi ngwi thseeIwantt ogi veyou
ev erythi
ng, will
y oupl easeacceptmyhear t,Iwon'tletany t
hingt eart hisloveapar t.Isaynoway .
Nohow.Notme.Notnow.I '
m gonnapr ovemyl oveist r
ue.Br eaki ngy ourhear tissomet hingI
won' tdo. ..
"Iwasi nmycardr iv
ingtot heMansi onakahomet ot hebeaut if
ul voiceofToni
Braxt on-Noway .Yaya'sfav ourit
esong.t othinksheoncededi catedt hissongt omeandf orced
met ol i
stent oittoapoi ntwher eIact uall
yendedupenj oyingitandr ightnowIj ustmi ssed
hav inghersi tti
ngnextt omewi thherhandont hegearsi ngingal ongwi ththatt er ribl
ev oiceof
her swhi chIact uallylovenow.Igotusedt oit
.Ihadt ogetusedt oit.Whocoul dhav etakenher ?
Thought swer er unningwi ldinmyheadIcoul dbar elythinkcl early.Itwast hef ollowi ngdayi n
theear l
yhour sofmor ni
ng.Ihadn' tsleptawi nksear chingandj usthopi ngIcoul dgetsomet hing.
I'
vecal l
edany oneIknow, any onewhoknowsher ,Iwentt obeatZukoupanddi dn'tgetany thing
from hi m andThomasi snowher etobef ound.He' sher ei nSAbutquest i
oni swher e,hewas
spot tedl andi
ngbutnooneknowswher eher esides.Istoppedont hesi deoft her oadandj ust
l
ett het ear sout.Thisi sallmyf ault
.Ther e'snobet t
erexpl anationofhergoi ngmi ssingoutof
thebl ue.Ishoul dhav edonesomet hingaboutZukot hemi nuteIhear dhehadhercor nered.I
shoul dhav egottenheradr iv erorsomesor tofprotection.Wel l IofferedbutYandi swaf l
atly
refusedi t,
Ishoul dhav eper sistedoni t.WhenIf eltIhadcr i
edenoughIdr ovest r
ai ghthomeand
par kedi nsidethey ardandwenti nside.Mr sBesswel comedmewi thahug.

Her
:wegoi
ngt
ofi
ndherbaby

Idi
dn'
tevenrespond.Nothi
ngaboutherdisappeari
ngmadeanysense.Whywoul
dsomeone
ki
dnaphertobeginwith?Idon'
tunder
stand.Iseri
ousl
ydon'
tunder
stand.

Me:
thi
sisal
lmyf
aul
t

Her
:nobabydon'
tsayt
hat
.Youdi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ng

Me:
shewasdoi
ngf
ineunt
ilIcamei
ntoherl
i
feMa.I
'
vedonenot
hingbutscr
ewherl
i
feup

Her
:butt
hat
'sl
ovebaby
.Tur
ningeachot
her
sli
vesar
ound

Shepul
l
edmeawayandhel
dmyshoul
der
satar
msl
engt
h.

Her
:Iknowy
ouhur
ti
ng.Youneedt
orestok!Yourf
ather
'speopl
ear
edoi
ngt
hebestt
heycan

Me:
itdoesn'
tmakesense.Someonedoesn'
tj
ustgomi
ssi
ngMa

Her
:Iknowbaby
.Wewi
l
lfi
ndher

Me:
howi
shermot
her
?

Her:wor
ri
ed,devast
ated,
scar
ed.
..wehadt
ohav
ehersedat
edf
orhert
oact
ual
l
ysl
eep.You
shoul
dgoresttoo

Me:
whati
ftheyf
indher

Her
:IfIhearsomuchasany
thi
ngIwi
l
lwakey
ouupmy
sel
fok.Goonandshoweri
'
llbr
ingy
ou
somet
hingt
oeat

Idi
dn'
tar
gue.Ij
ustwentst
rai
ghtupt
hestai
rsandwal
kedint
omyr oom st
rai
ghtt
otheshower
.
WhenIwasdoneIgotoutandMrsBesswassit
ti
ngontheedgeofthebed

Her
:Ibr
oughty
ousl
eepi
ngpi
l
lst
oo.Eatupandr
est

Me:
i'
m nothungr
yMah

Her:
youhav
etoeatsomethi
ngbaby
,youcan'
tdr
inkpi
l
lsonanempt
yst
omachanddon'
ttr
yto
ar
guewit
hmeMelokuhle

Ikeptqui
etandtookthepl
ateandsatdownt
oeat
.Ionl
ymanaged3spoonsbef
oreput
ti
ngt
he
foodbackonthetray

Her
:restbaby
.Wegoi
ngt
ofi
ndher
!

Withthatshewalkedout.It
ookt hepil
l
sandgulpedthem downandgotinundert
hecov
ers.I
askedBaneletocheckthefootageatGatewayagai
ni nthepar
kingl
ott
histi
meandshewas
sti
ll
busygoingthroughthat
.Idon'tknowwhenIfell
asleepbutIwaswokenupbymyphone.

/
/Me:
hel
l
o

Her
:Imayhav
efoundsomet
hingbuti
t'
snouse

Me:
whatdoy
oumean?

Her
:thecar
,it
'sr
egi
ster
edt
osomeol
ddeadl
adysowhoev
erdi
dthi
scal
cul
atedt
hei
rev
ery
move

Me:
cany
ougetany
thi
ngf
rom t
heper
sondr
ivi
ngt
hecar
?

Her
:looksl
i
keaman,
hisf
acei
scov
eredupsoIhav
enot
hingt
ogoon

Me:
can'
tyout
ryt
racet
hecar
?

Banel
eisl
it
eral
lyageek.Mycousi
nwasalmostcaughtwiththi
swhol ehackingthi
ngofhers.
Sheonceswit
chedpeople'
smoneyint
heirbankaccount
sjusttotestherskil
lsandthatal
one
wasenoughtohavetheGover
nmentdepartmenthi
reherfort
heirpersonaluse.

Her
:that
'swhatI
'
m cur
rent
lywor
kingoncus.I
'
llcal
lyouwhenI
'
vef
oundsomet
hing.

Me:
thanky
ou

Her
:sur
e//

Aft
erthecallIcheckedthetimeanditwaspast10am al
ready
.Fuck!Igotupandt
ookaquick
showerthenheadeddown.Yay a'smom wassitt
ingonthecouchwithmom thi
nki
ngofal
lthe
possi
bil
i
tiesofthingsthatcoul
dhappentoher.
Ma:
comeonBabe'
sdon'
ttal
kli
ket
hat

Babe'
s:she'
stakenAmahl
e.Whatar
etheoddsofherev
enbegi
nint
hiscount
ry

Ma:
wehav
etobeposi
ti
ve

Her
:I'
mtr
ying.Ir
eal
l
yam!

Me:
Ma'
Gxaba

Shetur
nedtome.Herey
eswer
eswoll
enandr
ed,shelookedl
ikeshe'
dbeencr
ying.Shest
ood
upandwalkedt
owardsmet
hensl
appedt
heshi
itoutofme.Iheldmycheek

Her:
t hi
sisal
lyourf
aul
t!youaretobl
amef oreveryt
hingbadthat
'shappenedi
nmydaughter
s
l
if
e!Heronlysinwastoloveyouandnowthis.Findher!Youowemet hatmuch.Andaf
teral
lof
t
his,Iwantyoutost
aythefuckawayfrom her
!

Wit
hthatshewalkedout
.Thiswoman.Iunderst
andshe'
shur
ti
ngbutdamnshedi
dnothav
eto
sl
apmel i
kethatwhatt
hefuck?I
'm al
sohurt
ingher
e!

Ma:
she'
sjusthur
ti
ng

Idi
dn'tsayany t
hing.Imademywaytot heki
tchenandpouredmy sel
faglassofCi
roc.
..Ifound
i
tinthef r
idge.Iwonderwhosei
tisbecausemypar ent
sdon'tst
orethei
rli
quori
nthi
sfridge.I
gul
pedi tdownatonego

"
Slowdown"

Il
ookedupandAsemahl
ewaswal
ki
ngi
nfr
om t
hepassage.Shewal
kedupt
omeandpul
l
edme
i
nforahug.

Her
:howar
eyouhol
dingup?

Ishr
ugged

Her
:dumbquest
ion.Hav
eyouhear
dany
thi
ng

Me:Banel
ehastheli
cenceandregi
str
ati
onbuti
tbel
ongst
osomeol
ddeadper
son.That
'sa
deadend,
she'
stry
ingtotr
aceit

Her
:that
'sshoul
dn'
ttakel
ong

Me:
yeah.

Iwashedt
heglassandret
urnedi
ttoi
tspl
aceandgoti
ntomycardr
oveof
ftoSout
hBeach.I
hear
dthat
'swhereThomasliv
es.

.
-
Thomas

Somuchf ortryingt okeepal owpr of

il
e.Ev ersinceIgother ethemedi ahasbeeni nmyf acebut
Ifinall
yescapedt hem.Iwaswai tingformysi st
erinahot elinSout hBeach.SheandIbar elysee
eachot herwi thmel ivi
nginthest atesandal lpl
uswedon' tevengetal ongsohenceInev er
ment ionIment ionIhav easi ster
.She'sy oungert hanme, probably20or21Ar ghIdon'tknow
butal lIknowi st hatsheandIar et wodifferentpeopl e.Thingschangedwhenshecamebackt o
Sout hAf ri
cay earsback, Idi
dn' tl
ikethefactt hatshewoul dqui tschool allbecauseofsome
highschool affairwithsomeboywho' spr obablymov edonal ready .Idon' tbeli
eveinthiswhol e
puppyl ov eb. s.Itdoesn'texist!I'
vebeent ry i
ngt ocallYayasi ncey ester daybutt onoluck, her
phonegoesst raighttov oi
cemai l
.Iunder standshebl amesmef ortheal mostsexwehad, Argh
thisMel okuhl eguyhasherunderhi sspell Iswear!I'
v ebeenknownt ogi vethebestsexev er,
Yay aist hef ir
stwomant oev erdenymet hatandmay bethat'
swhyIl ikehersomuch, because
shei swhatot hergi r
lsaren'
t.It'
sherbi r
thdayi naf ewday sandIf iguredi 'dsurpriseher.Imean
wewer ef riendsf irstbefor
eIcaughtf eel
ings.Ther ewasaknockont hedoor ,fi
guredit'
sr oom
ser v
icesi nceIor deredsomet hi
ngt oeatandi thasn'tarri
vedy et.Iopenedandwaswel comed
byMel okuhl eBesswhol ookedl i
kehehadbeenhi tbyat rain.May beheandYay abrokeupand
nowhe' sbumpedoutabouti t.Poorthing.

Hi
m:wher
eisshe?

Me:
hel
l
otoy
out
oo

Hi
m:i
'
m notpl
ayi
nganygameswi
thy
ou.Wher
ethehel
li
sshe?

Me:
ifonl
yIknewwhot
hef
ucky
ouwer
etal
ki
ngabout
!

Hewasaboutt
orespondWhenhi
sphoner
ang.Heanswer
edi
tabi
tfarf
rom me.

/
/Hi
m:t
alkt
ome

.
..
..

Hi
m:KuQumbu?What
'si
tdoi
ngt
her
e?

.
..
..

Hi
m:Ican'
tj
ustsi
tbackandnotdoany
thi
ngBanel
e

.
..
.

Hi
m:f
ine!
//

Hel
ookedatmeonce.

Hi
m:i
fyout
ouchsomuchasahai
ronherheadIwi
l
lki
l
lyouwi
thmybar
ehands!

Andwit
hthathewalkedout
.Okwhatj
usthappened?Il
i
ter
all
yjustl
anded!Igotont
omysocial
medi
aaccountsandther
ewassomestuffwri
tt
enaboutamissingYandi
swa.Whatthehel
l
?
Howdoesaper
songomi ssi
nginthi
sdayandage?Fuck!Ineedt
ofi
ndherbefor
ehedoes.
Wher
edoIevenst
artl
ooking?Justt
hent
hefoodcameandsodi dmysi
ster.

Me:
Ihav
ebeencal
l
ingy
ou!

Her
:i'
m sor
ryI
'
vebeenal
i
ttl
ecaughtup

Me:
wit
hwhat
?

Her
:school
andst
uff
.Rel
axwoul
dyou.
..geez!

Me:
Whati
sthi
sIhearabouty
oudat
inganol
dman?Apast
ort
obeexact

Her
:ohcomeonbr
other
,thi
ngshappenokandwel
oveeachot
her
!

Me:
Lat
hit
hay
ougoi
nghome!

Her:
ohThomas.I
fyouf
ail
edt
otakemehomebacki
nLAwhatmakesy
out
hinky
ou'
l
lsucceed
now?

Me:
he'
samar
ri
edf
ami
l
yman

Her:
youar
eonetotal
kwi t
hyourhopel
esscr
ushonsomebodyel
se'
sgi
rl
fr
iend.They
i
nsepar
abl
ebr
other
,It
riedbutnot
hing

Me:
whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?

Her:
YayaandMelo.Theyi
nsepar
abl
e.May
bet
hingsar
ebet
terofwi
thher"
missi
ng"
,you
pr
obabl
ystandachancewit
hhernow

Me:
Lat
hit
hawhathav
eyoudone?

Her
:sowhatar
eyouhav
ing?Thi
slooksy
um!

Shesai
dthr
owi
ngher
sel
font
hecouch

Me:
Lat
hit
hawher
ethehel
li
sshe?

Her
: ohIdon'
tknow.
..pr
obabl
yint
hebot
tom oft
heoceanorl
ockedupi
nsomeapar
tmentor
bur
ieddeep

Shelaughedhy
ster
ical
l
y,itwast
hatannoy
ingevi
ll
aughwhi
chonl
ypi
ssedmeof
ffur
ther
.I
char
gedatherandpressedmyhandsonherneckandti
ght
enedmygr
ip

Her
:youwi
l
li
ngt
oki
l
lmef
orl
oveunr
etur
ned?Shemustbespeci
al

Me:
lat
hit
haIwi
l
lnotasky
ouagai
n.Wher
ethef
ucki
sshe?

Her
:that
'st
hebeaut
yofiti
sn'
ti
t?Youdon'
tknowwhet
herI'
mtheonewhotookherormay
bei
t
wasoneofhercr
azyexe'
sormaybei
twasoneofherboy
fri
end'
scr
azi
esormaybeitwasme.
..
y
ouj
ustdon'
tknowandi
fyouki
l
lme.
..y
oumi
ghtj
ustnev
erf
indher
!

Ir
emov
edmyhandsf
rom herandshehel
dherneckwhi
l
ecoughi
ng

Her
:JesusChr
ist
!Youal
mostki
l
ledme.Dadwi
l
lknowaboutt
hisThomas!

Shetookherbagandstor
medoffoutofmyr
oom.Ical
l
edupaf
ri
endandaskedhi
mtot
ail
my
si
ster
.Somethingt
ell
smesheknowswhereYay
ais!

-
Mel
o

Iwasf ucki
ngstressedandt hi
sThomasguywasn' tmaki ngt
hingsanyeasi
ereither
.Whatam I
missing?Iunderstandhej ustfl
ewintownbutwhosay shehadnot hi
ngtodowi thi
t?Andthen
theresZukowhowoul dratherbebeatupintoapul pthantel
lmewhatheknows.Banel esaidi
t
wasaman.Shecal l
edmet otell
met hatt
hecarwasi nQumbu, itwasstat
ionar
yandinsome
vil
lage.Dad'
scontact swherewor ki
ngonit,speaki
ngofmyf atherhewasback,thatmanis
alwaysawayonbusi ness.Igothomesendt hrewmy selfonthebed,Ij
usti
gnoredevery
onewho
wasdownst air
sint helounge.Therewasaknockont hedoor

Me:
goaway
!

Thedoorhandl
etur
nedandt
henmyf
atherwal
kedi
n.Hesatont
heedgeoft
hebed.

Him: Iknowwhaty ougoi ngthr

ough.I'
vebeent heresonandIknowi thur tsfeel
ingli
kethere'
s
not hi
ngyoucandoandhav i
ngtothinkofthewor st
.Youofallpeopl
eknowher .Youknowt he
kindofpersonshei s,holdontothatbecauseit
'sthatpi
eceofinfor
mat iont hatwil
lhelpyou
thinkposit
ivel
y.Wheny oumot herandmypar entswentmi ssi
ng,assmuchasi twasn'teven24
hrsIwascr ushed,didn'
tsleepawi nk,
didn'
tknowwhatt odowi t
hmy self.Theonlythi
ngt hat
keptmesanewashav ingyourunclewithmebecausehadIshuthi m out , whoknowswhat
stupidthi
ngIwoul dhav edone?Youhav efamil
yMel okuhl
eandwewon' trestunti
lwef i
ndher.
Ev ery
oneIknowi slookingforherok?

Hesai
dpat
ti
ngmyknee.Dadisnotamanofmanywor
dsbutwhenhespeaks,
hemeansev
ery
wor
dandhekeepsi
t.Inodded

Hi
m:Igotacal
lfr
om myguy
sinQumbuandt
heysayt
hecarhasbeendeser
tednearsome
pl
ant
ati
on

Me:
sowe'
ver
eachedadeadendbasi
cal
l
y

Hi
m:notqui
et.Ther
eisawi
tnesst
heyhav
eandt
heycur
rent
lyquest
ioni
nghi
m

Me:
that
'snotenoughdad

Hi
m:sont
heyt
ryi
ngok.Justgetsomer
estandt
hencomej
oinusdownst
air
s.
Inoddedandthenhewalkedout.Thi
sismessedup!I t'
sser
iousl
ymessedupshii
t.Thisshii
t
onlyhappensi
nthemov i
esandnotinreall
i
f e!Nothi
ngaboutthi
smakesanysense!Icall
ed
Baneleandaskedhert
otailOl
ona.She'
stheonl yper
sonwhom Icanthi
nkofatthemoment
whowoul dbedesper
ateenoughtogothisfar.

<3

[
10/
16,
20:
49]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E41

-
Yay
a

Iwokeupwi thasplit
ti
ngheadache, agr umblingt ummyandl ightcomi nginfrom t
hewi ndow.
Howl onghaveIbeenout ?Itri
edtot ouchmyheadonl ytofi
ndoutmyhandswer etiedupand
sower emyankles.Great!Ty pical
kidnapst or
y .Coul dn'
ttheyhav ebeenal i
ttl
espontaneous
aboutthisandaddedaTVat l
east,maket heroom l ookpresentable?Imeani fyougoingt okeep
someonehost agetheleasty oucoulddoi smaket hem comf ortableright?EventhechairIwas
si
tti
ngonuncomf ortable.Thesepeopl ewer ereal l
ysetoutont orturi
ngme.Iwonderwhatt hisi
s
about.Thedooropened, Ilookedupandamanwal kedin,hewast all
andhandsomenodoubt
butthenwhenagoodl ookingguyhasy ouhost age, t
heirl
ooksar et heleastofyourconcer n.He
hadagl assofwaterwithhi m andapl atethathadasandwi chon.Nor mallyI'
dbefreakedout
andwor ri
edaboutbeingdr uggedbuthonest l
yIam t hir
styandhel lahungr y
!

Hi
m:her
edr
ink.Youmustbet
hir
sty

Me:
wher
eam i
?

Hi
m:Por
tStJohns

Me:
howl
onghav
eIbeenher
e?

Hi
m:2day
snow

Hehel
pedmedr
inkandt
henputt
hegl
assont
het
abl
e

Hi
m:y
ouar
ever
ypr
ett
yYandi
swa

Hesaidlocki
nghairbehindmyearwhichonl
ymademecr i
nge.Hehadthislookinhi
sey
es
whichonlyscar
edme.What ev
erhedoescanhepleasenotrapeme.IknowI '
m on
contr
acepti
vesandallbuttheyonl
yprev
entpr
egnancyandnot hi
ngel
se.I'
veseenwhatr
ape
doest
opeopl
eandIam notr
eadyt
obepar
toft
hest
ats.

Me:
whyam Iher
e?

Hi
m:y
oui
ntheway

Me:
whatdoy
oumean?

Hi
m:y
oushoul
dn'
thav
egot
tenwi
tht
hatBessboyt
obegi
nwi
th

Iwasr
eal
l
yconf
usedr
ightnow.

Hi
m: hel
ovesyou,t
oomuchevenwhi
chi
snotgoodf
ormyf
ri
endbecauseshel
ovesmeand
wi
lldoanyt
hingt
obewit
hhim

Me:
whatf
ri
end?

Him:
you'
ll
seehersoon.It
oldhert
ostayawayfr
om t
heguybutwhent
heymetagai
nspar
ks
f
lewandsomet
hinginhermadeherfal
li
nloveal
lov
eragai
n

Me:
Olonadi
dthi
s?

Hechuckl
ed

Hi
m:y
ouhungr
ypr
incess?

Me:
what
'
syourname?

Hi
m:Luzuko

Me:
cany
oul
oosent
heseupal
i
ttl
e,t
heyr
eal
l
yhur
ti
ngmywr
ist
sandmyankl
es

Whenani
ggashowsal it
tl
eint
eresti
ny ou,
yougott
asei
zethemomentandt
akealit
tl
e
adv
ant
ageofthesi
tuati
on.Heloosenedtheknotupal
it
tl
eandremov
edtheropeonmyankl
es.
Hewassquat
ti
nginfrontofmeadmi r
ingme

Me:
thanky
ou.Thanky
ousomuch

Isaidtouchinghisfacewhi chmadehi mleaninclosert

omyt ouch.Itookt
hisasanoppor t
unit
y
tokickhimi ntheballs.Maybeheshoul dhaveworejeansbecausesweatpants.
..notagood
i
dea.Igotof fthechai randranforthedoor,
Ifoundmywayt oakitchenandtookoutakni f
e
from t
hedr awertry
ingt ocuttherope.Iheardhi
m cursi
ngmakinghiswayt othekitchen.This
ropewoul dcutatall.Fuck!I'
m screwed.

Hi
m:y
ouf
orgott
otaket
hekeypr
incess.Fuck

Hesoundedr
eal
lypi
ssed.Ican'
ti
magi
net
hepai
nhewasi
n.Al
lst
ardontpl
ay.Hewal
kedi
n
hol
dinghi
scr
ouch

Hi
m:y
ou'
l
lwi
shy
ounev
erdonet
hat
Ihel
dthekni
fepoi
nti
ngathi
m.I
'
vewat
chedmov
es,
IsawLedi
stabaguyi
nthebal
l
s.Iknow
howtouseaknif
e.

Me:
Iam notaf
rai
dtouset
his

Honestl
yIwasterr
if
iedasfuckbutt
hisi
snotimetobeshowingfear.May bet
hoseyearsof
l
iv
ingwithLediwer
ef i
nall
ypayi
ngoff
.Iseewhyt
akingsel
fdefenceclassesareanecessi
ty.He
walkedcl
oserandImov edback

Hi
m:y
ouwon'
tuset
hatpr
incess.

Iswungitathim andhemov edback.Heseemedal i

tt
lestunnedbymywi l
li
ngnesstof
ightback.
HeprobablythoughtI
'mthosekidsthatgr
ewupwi t
hasilverspoonandli
ter
all
yknowsnothing
aboutt
her ealworl
d.Igr
ewupwi t
hboys,Iknowhowtofight.HeckwhenIwasaki dmyaunt
wasconvincedIwouldbelesbianoratomboy .

Me:
comecl
oseri
'
dreal
l
yli
ket
oshowy
ou

Hi
m:It
ooky
ouf
orgr
ant
edpr
incess

Me:
whywon'
tyouj
ustl
etmego?

Hi
m:It
oldy
ou,
youi
ntheway
!Becauseofy
ourmeddl
i
ngshel
ostherbaby

Me:
Kat
e?

Hi
m:howmanyexesi
sthi
sboy
fri
endofy
our
sresponsi
blef
ormaki
ngt
hem l
oseachi
l
d?

Ikeptqui
et.NowIwasr
eal
l
ybl
ankandt
ir
edofpl
ayi
ngt
hiswhol
eguessi
nggame.

Me:
justl
etmegoandIpr
omi
sey
ouIwon'
tpr
essanychar
gesorwhatsoev
er

Wehear
dakeyt
urni
ngandbot
htur
nedt
othedoor
.Hesmi
l
ed

Hi
m:gi
vemet
hekni
feandl
et'
sgobackt
other
oom bef
oret
hingsgetugl
y!

Me:
no!

Thedooropenedandawomanwi
thr
edhai
rwal
kedi
nandl
ockedbehi
ndherwi
thaf
ewpl
ast
ic
bags.

Her
:isshest
il
lout
?

Shepl
acedt
hepl
ast
icsont
hecount
erandt
henl
ookedupandnot
icedme.

Me:
noway
!

Myeyeshadtobedecei
vi
ngme.Itcoul
dn'tpossi
blybe!WhathasMelokuhl
egot
tenmeinto
now?Iwassoshockedt
oseeherthekni
feinmyhandsl ippedandf
ellandj
ustt
henIf
eltabee
sti
ngonmyneckandIwasknockedout.
..agai
n!
.

-
Nal
edi

It
'sbeen2whol edaysnowandst i
llnot hing.TheQumbut hingwasadeadendandt he" wit
ness"
didn'
tgi veanythingsoli
d.MeloandYay a'smom hadi tthewor st
.Babe'
sl i
vedwi t
hus, saidshe
couldn'tbei nthesamehouseasMel oorel seshewasgoi ngtolosei
t,sheblamedhi mf or
Yaya'sdi sappearanceandsodi dMel o.Hehat edhimsel f
, heblamedhimsel fforthis.Ididgot o
seeSinowasshewasn' twakingupei ther.Everythi
ngwasj ustmessedup.Ij usthopet hatshe's
notlyi
ngi naditchsomewher e.Foodcoul dbarel
ygodown, noneofuswer ehandl i
ngt his.Mel o
droveof ftoQumbuhi mselfandsear chedt hevil
l
agehi ghandl owandst il
lgotnot hing.Whoev er
didthisisamast ermindnodoubt .It'
sonl ybeen48hour sandweal ll
ooklikewe'v ebeenhi tbya
tr
uck.Wear eallamess, atr
ainwr eck.Itwasherbi r
thdaypar tythi
sFri
day.Thi swoul dbeher
fi
rstbirthdaywi t
houtme.Asbusyasshewaswi thschool shecamet oat t
endmi neandni t
a's
birt
hday '
sandal soNi t
a'sbabyshower .That '
sthekindiffr i
endsheis.Wehav etof i
ndher !
Ma'Gxabawassi tt
ingonthecoucht alkingont hephone, shesaidhergoodby esandt hent urned
tome

Her
:Idon'
tknowany
mor
e

Me:
don'
tgi
veupj
usty
et.Mel
okuhl
eandhi
sfami
l
ywi
l
lfi
ndher

Her
:it
sthi
ssameMel
okuhl
ewhogotheri
ntot
hismess

Me:hayiMaMelowouldnev
erputYayai
nhar
msway .Helov
esy ourdaught
er,hel
ovesherso
muchthathequi
thi
sjobhereandwentt
oworki
nthestat
esjusttobeclosetoher

Sheshookherhead.

Her:i
fher
eall
ylovedherthenhewouldhavenevermadehercryt
hewayshedi
d,hewoul
dhav
e
sav
edherfrom hi
mselfandhisl
unat
icfl
ingsorexe'
sorwhatev
er!

Me:MahuZukohadYay
acorner
edthi
sotherdayi
ntherest
room andf
orcef
ull
yki
ssedher
t
ell
i
nghert
hathebel
ongedt
oher.Melowenttobeathi
m up

Her
:Zukoi
sinDur
ban?Whati
shedoi
ngher
e?OhGod!

Me:mypoi ntisthatit
'snotMelo'
sfaul
tthatshe'
smissing.Heishur t
ingj
ustasmuchasy ou
areMaandYay awouldn'twantyoutr
eati
nghimt hewayy ouarerightnow.YouandMel
oshar e
thesamepai n,y
oul oveherasmuchast heotherdoes.Don'tpushhim awayhe'
sonl
ytr
yingto
gethisgi
rl
fri
endback.

Shejustnoddedandkeptquiet.Ashwal
kedi
nwitht
eaandoff
eredusbot
h.Ser
enajoi
nedus
andweal lj
ustsatsi
l
entlyl
ist
eningtot
henews,
hermissi
ngwasonthenewsnowtogetherwi
th
othermissi
nggirl
sstor
ies.
.

-
Mel
o

Ij
ustwi shIcoul
dgetsomet hing.Ahintoraransom not
eorjustsomethi
ng.Tail
ingOl onawas
uselessandsowast ail
ingLathit
ha.Boththesegir
lsdi
dnothi
ngoutoftheordinaryandThomas
hi
msel fdidn'
tdoanythi
ngsuspicious,Zukowasremov i
ngfr
om mypunches.Basi cal
lywehad
nolead.Baneleworkeddayandni ghttogetaglimpseofsomethingbutsheherselfwasn't
winning.Myphonerangandi twasKat e.Whatcouldshepossi
blywant?Ianswered

/
/Her
:Mel
o.Hi

Me:
Kat
e

Her
:Ij
ustsawi
tont
henews.Howar
eyouhol
dingup?

Me:
onedayatat
ime

Her
:ift
her
e'sany
onewhocanf
indheri
t'
syou.Justhangi
nther
eok

Me:
yeaht
hanks

Her
:Mel
o

Me:
yah

Her
:goodl
uck.Iknowshemeansev
ery
thi
ngt
oyou

Me:
byeKat
e//

I'
mr eall
yinnomoodf orsmal ltal
k.Ofallthepeopl
eonmysuspectl istKateisn'
t.She'
snot
capable,Iam pr
obablyunderestimati
ngherbutshedoesn'thaveiti
nhert opullthi
soffnor
doesshehav etheresources.Ikeptscroll
ingonmyphonecont actl
isttr
yingtothinkofall
my
pastfli
ngsbutfool
ishme, Ideletedal
ltheirnumbers.TheonlynumbersIst i
ll
hadwer eofMir
a
andOl onaofwhichIgottadeletethem too.Asemahlewalkedinandcuddl edher
selfundermy
arm.Shehasaboy f
ri
endf orthisbutshest i
l
ldoesittome.

Her
:whatar
eyouupt
o?

Me:
try
ingt
ofi
gur
eoutwhi
chofmyexesorf
li
ngscoul
dhav
epul
l
edt
hisof
f

Her
:wefoundnot
hingsuspi
ciouswi
thLat
hit
ha'sphonerecordseit
hert
hant
hecal
l
sexchanged
bet
weenherandThomas.Olona'
sphoner
ecordsseem cleana..

Me:
whatcoul
dLat
hit
haandThomasbemeet
ingabout
?

Her
:theyar
ebr
otherandsi
ster
Me:
noway
.

Her
:yesway
.Whenl
astdi
dyout
alkt
oMi
randa?

Me:
Ihav
en'
t.Il
astsawherwhenshet
ri
edki
l
li
ngher
sel
f

Her
:Iknowshe'
snopsy
chobutcanwehav
eBchecki
ntoherphone.
.justt
obesaf
eandKat
e's
t
oo

Igav
ehermyphone

Me:
hav
eati
t

Shetookitandwal
kedoutwit
hit
.Iwasgoi
ngcr
azylockedupi
nmyr oom soIopt
edf
orj
oini
ng
them i
nst
ead.WhenIgotdownst
air
sIy
apull
edmeinforati
ghthug.

Her
:howar
eyou?

Me:
thewayIl
ooki
sthewayIf
eel

Her
:we'
l
lfi
ndherok

B:Kateseemscl
ean,
ther
e'snot
hingoutoft
heor
dinar
ywi
thherandherbanki
ngact
ivi
ti
esseem
normal

Me:
gof
igur
e!Shewoul
dn'
t

B:
wej
ustt
ryi
ngourl
uckher
e.Whoev
ert
ookherhast
omessupsomehow.Awesome

Us:
what
?

Her:
Imanagedt
ogeti
ntot
hesecur
it
ysy
stem oft
hegasst
ati
oni
nQumbu.I
'
m hopi
ngwe'
l
lget
somethi
ng

Ikepthopingandprayi
ngforami r
acle.Ther
ehast obeami r
acleorsomethi
ngalongthose
l
ines.Igotacall
from Lediaskingifwehadf oundanythi
ngbutnopewehotnothingyet.Ase
walkedoutandwenttot hekitchen.Thefamilyhasbeensosupporti
vethr
oughthisandsohave
ourfri
ends.

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10/
16,
20:
59]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

.
S02E42

-
Yay
a

Whatevertheygivi
ngmehasgottobethemoststr
ongestdr
ugI'
veeverhadinmysyst
em,even
ecst
asydidn'tknockmeoutt
hisbad.Mybodyf
eltnumbandjustwei
rd.Il
ookedupandshe
wassit
tingont hebedpr
essi
ngherphone,
shereal
lyseemedpi
ssed.

Me:
Mir
anda

Her
:ohy
ou'
reawake.Fi
nal
l
y!

Me:
whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his?

Her
:isn'
ti
tobv
ious?Yout
ookhi
m awayf
rom me

Me:
Idi
dn'
tnott
akeMel
okuhl
efr
om y
ou.Hecamet
omenott
heot
herwayr
ound

Her
:wat
chwhaty
ousay"
MissYay
a"y
oudon'
twantt
opi
ssmeof
fanyf
urt
her

Me:
Ili
ter
all
ydi
dnot
hingwr
ongher
e

Her
:thenexpl
aint
his!

Shesaidhol
dingt
heneckl
acewi
thMel
o'
sri
ng.WasIr
eal
l
ythatoutt
hatIdi
dn'
tev
enf
eel
her
takei
toff
?

Me:
Idon'
tknowwhatki
ndofexpl
anat
iony
oul
ooki
ngf
orr
eal
l
y

Shesl
appedmesohar
dIcoul
df eel
bl oodinsi
demymout
h.It
hinkIbi
tmysel
f.Shel
ookedmad,
l
iker
eal
lymadshewasev
enpink.Afterall
thisi
sov
erMel
oandIaredoneshame!

Me:
fuck!

Her
:thi
sisar
ing!

Me:
duh!Anyi
diotcanseet
hat

Her
:whati
sitt
haty
ouhav
ethatIdon'
t?

Me:Idon'
tknow.
..maybebecauseI
'
m Xhosa.
..hi
smom i
sXhosawhi
chmakeshi
m hal
fXhosa.
..
Ir
eall
ydon'
tknowhoney

Her:
ify
ouwantt
ogetoutofher
eal
i
vet
heny
ou'
l
lst
opgi
vi
ngmeat
ti
tudeandst
artt
alki
ngt
ome
pr
operl
y

Me:Mirandal
ist
en,Iwast heonewhofoundyouonhi sbedwear i
nghist-shi
rtod'
donpil
ls.I
cal
l
edt heambulanceforyouandIwait
edatthehospital
forhimtof i
nall
ygetther
efrom
wherev
erhewasf rom.Idon'tknowwhati
tisthatIhavethatyoudon'tbutli
keyoui'
m st
upidl
y
i
nlovewithhi
m.He' shurtmeinwaysevenIdidn'
tthi
nkwer epossibl
e,heturnedmeinto
somethi
ngI
'm notbutf
orsomefuckedupreasonI'
m st
il
li
nlov
ewithhi
m.Idon'
tknowwhyhe
keepscomi
ngbackt omeevenaft
erever
ythi
ng,onl
yhecanansweryout
hat

Her:i
sthisajoke?Youdon'
tlovehi
m!I
fyoudi
dyou'
dbeweari
nghi
sri
ngony
ourf
ingerandnot
yourneck,i
fyoulovedhi
mlikeIdi
dyouwoul
dhavenev
erl
efthi
m!

Me:
Mir
andai
fIhear
dthest
oryr
ight
,youl
efthi
m andnott
heot
herwayr
ound

Her
:itwasn'
tme.I
twasmypar
ent
s,t
heyl
eftmenochoi
ce

Me:
Mir
andawhyam Iher
e?

Idon'
tknow.Sheseemslonelyandinneedofcompany
.It
hinkthemiscar
ri
agemessedherup
mental
ly.Sher
oll
eduphersleevesandshowedmeherwri
sts,t
heyhadcutsandbur
ntmarks.

Her:Ihadami scarr
iageandhedi dn'teventhi
nktwicetost aywithmei nsteadhechasedaf ter
youleavi
ngmet odealwi t
hitalone.Istartedcut
ti
ngmy selft
oav oidtheemot i
onalpai
ni nsi
de.
Losingachildispai
nful,Ishouldn'thavesurvi
vedandi t
'sallyourfault
.Ify
ouhadj ustletmebe
thennoneoft hi
swoul dhav ehappened.Mel owouldn'thatemet hewayhedoesr i
ghtnowandI
wouldbeinpeacebuty ou.Youj usthadt omeddle.Youmayt hi
nky ousavedmebuty oumade
thi
ngswor se.Iwasadmi ttedi
nt oapsy chwar df
ormont hsandonl ycameout3day sago.

Shehadt
ear
sr ol
l
ingdownhercheeksandf
orsomer
easonIcoul
dn'
tst
opmyt
ear
sfr
om r
oll
i
ng
downmycheeks.

Her:i
tsally
ourf aul
t.Iwant edtodiebutinsteadIl
ostmybaby .Il
ostourbabyandnowhe' l
l
neverfor
giveme.He' llneverevenlooktwiceinmydirect
ionandt hat
'sal
lbecauseheknowshe
hasyouinhiscor ner.PerfectmissYandiswa.Youcheatedonhi m buthesti
l
lforgaveyou.You
bri
ngoutasi deofhim ev enIcouldn'tbr
ingout.Thi
ngswouldbebet teri
fyouwer egoneand
thenMelowoul dbemi nelikeheshouldhavebeentobegi nwi
th

Me:t
heweedyousmoki
ngonisthegoodst
uff
!Haveyouanyideahowcrazyy
ousoundr
ight
now?Youki
l
lmethenMelowi
l
l nev
erlov
eyounorwil
lheeverf
orgi
veyou.

Her
:shutup!Justshutup!

Shesai
dshout
ingatmeandt
hrewi
nasl
apwhi
l
eati
t.Whati
sitwi
tht
hisgi
rlandsl
appi
ng.

Me:l
ooklet'smakethi
ngseasierforyou.Letmegoandi'
l
lbr
eakthingsofwithhim and
conv
incehimthatyouhisgi
rlandt heoneheshoul
dspendhi
seternit
ywith.Hecki'
l
l ev
enmov
e
awayfrom Dur
banjustt
ogivey ouguysspacetomakeyourr
elat
ionshipworkout

Her
:youl
yi
ng!Youl
ovehi
m

Me:l
ovei snotenough.MirandaI
'minthi
ssituat
ionbecauseofhi
m, i
fit'
sanythingIwanttoget
awayfrom hi
m becausehehasdonenot hi
ngbutbr i
ngmemi sery
.Eversincehecamei nt
omy
l
if
eI'
vehadt ofightofgi
rl
sandhav egi
rl
sthrowinsult
smeandt hentheresyouwi ththe
ki
dnapping.I
t'
senoughalready.I
'
vehadenough.Howmanygi r
lsouttherearejustli
keyouand
woul
dgot
hismi
l
ejustt
ogetMel
oback.Takehi
m,Idon'
twanthi
m any
mor
e

Shelookedatmel
ikeshewasstudyi
ngmeandmyr esponse.Shesmil
ed,
at earr
oll
eddownmy
cheek.I
'mreal
l
ydonewit
hhim.This?Thi
sismyl
aststraw!Ij
ustcan'
tdothi
sanymor e.

Her:
wow!Mov i
ngspeech.Youal
mosthadmef
ool
edf
orasecond,
thef
aket
ear
sandal
l
.Iknow
youstudyar
tsf
orali
vi
ng.Youdon'tf
ool
me

Me:
Idon'
tknowwhatmor
eyouwantf
rom me

Her
:Iwanty
ououtofhi
sli
fe,
outofhi
smi
nd

Me:wel
lthat'
seasy.Getawi
tchy
ougi
vey
ousomel
ovepot
ionandf
eedi
ttohi
m.Hecki
'
llev
en
hel
pyoufindone.Justl
etmego

Her
:no!Iwanthi
mtol
ovemeathi
sownf
reewi
l
l

I
fmyhandswereunti
edIwoul dr
aiset
hem upi nsur
render
.Thisgir
lwasdi
ffi
cult
.Idon'
tknow
t
hesignsandsy
mptomsofbi pol
arbutI'
m begi
nningtothi
nkshesuffer
sfr
om itorshesuff
ers
f
rom anot
herment
alsi
ckness.Thi
sbitchcrazy
!Luzukowalkedin

Hi
m:t
hisl
ookscosy

Her
:Ineedt
obr
eat
he!

Shest
ormedout
.Hel
ookedatmeandbi
thi
slowerl
i
p..
.wel
lthat
'sgay
!

Hi
m:y
our
eal
l
yti
redofhi
m huh?

Me:
i'
mint
hismessbecauseofhi
m!

Heknel
tinf
rontofmeandcuppedmyf
ace

Him:abeauti
ful
girll
i
keyoushouldn'
tbecaughtupi
nthi
s.Youshoul
dbewi
thamanwhol
oves
andappr
eciat
esy ouandworshi
psatyourfeet

Ishr
ugged.Hel
ookedi
ntomyey
es.

Hi
m:f
ucky
oubeaut
if
ul

Me:
Iknownowpl
easest
opt
ouchi
ngme

Heshookhi
sheadandchuckl
edThenwal
kedt
owar
dst
hedoor
.

Him:y
ouknow,no-
onewouldhearyouscr
eami
ngi
nthesewoods.You'
vepi
ssedMi
raof
fand
shewon'
tbebackf
orthenexthour
.

Hel
ockedt
hedoorandt
urnedt
ome.Fearst
art
edcr
eepi
ngi
n,r
eal
fear
.

Hi
m:y
ouhav
ever
yni
ceboobspr
incess
Me:
thanky
ou

Isai
dwi
thashakyv
oice,
hewasbusyunbuckl
i
nghi
sjeansandwal
ki
ngcl
osert
ome.

Hi
m:wi
tht
hosel
i
psIbety
ougi
veameanbl
owj
ob!

Ishookmyhead

Him:don'
tl
ie.Iknowy
oudo,
whyel
sewoul
dani
ggacomebackt
oagi
rlwhoopenedupf
or
anot
herni
gga?

Me:
Luzukopl
ease

Hi
m: Iwon'
tdotoyouanyt
hingy
ou'
venev
erdonebef
oreandenj
oyed.Icanmakey
oucum i
n
wayshe'
snevermadeyou.I
fyougi
vemeachance

Ishookmyhead

Me:
no.Pl
easedon'
thur
tme

Hi
m:Iwon'
thur
tyou.Ij
ustwantat
ast
ethat
'
sal
l

Hesai
dpi
cki
ngmeupandt
hrowi
ngmeont
hebed.It
ri
edscr
eami
ngbutr
eal
l
yitwaspoi
ntl
ess.

Hi
m:It
oldy
ounoonecanheary
ou.Il
ovescr
eamer
s

Hepinnedmyt i
edhandsabov emyheadandst rokedmyboobs, normallythatwoul
dtur
nmeon
i
fitwereMelodoingitbutthenitwasn'thi
m soitwasj ustdi
sgust
ing.Hemadehi swaytomy
j
eansandunbuttonedthebut t
onandsl i
ddownt hezipr ev
eli
ngtheredlaceIhadbeenwear
ing
t
hedayt heyt
ookmeatr occomama' s.Hesmiledpleasedwiththesight.

Hi
m:l
ace.
..myf
ave!

Iscreamedandcriedforhel
pbutnot
hing.Hi
sphonerangbutheignor
editandconti
nuedtaki
ng
mypant soffunt
ilt
heyweresit
ti
ngonmyanklesandthenhesli
ddownhi sjeansandthephone
rangagainbywhichitwasaccompani
edbyabangingonthedoor.ThankGod!

Hi
m:what
?

Mi
ra:
whyt
hef
ucki
sthi
sdoorl
ocked?

Hi
m:i
nami
nut
e!Youl
ucky
..
.fornow!

Hesli
dmyj eansup, but
tonedthem andpl
acedmebackont hechai
rbefor
edressi
nghimsel
fup
pr
operl
y.Hishardinwasv isi
bleinhi
slowhangingj
eans.HeopenedthedoorandMir
astormed
i
npissed.Iwassit
tingtherel
ookingdownwail
ingwithhi
ccups.

Her
:whatt
hef
uckt
ooky
ousol
ong?

Hi
m:Iwasont
hephone
Her
:youhadbet
ternothav
etouchedher
!Idon'
tneedMel
ohat
ingmeev
enmor
ethanhedoes

Hel
ookedatherandj
ustst
ormedout
.

Her
:ar
eyouok?

Ishookmyhead.Iwasshook.Iwasscared.Ter
ri
fi
ed.Ijustwantedtogohomeandbeinmy
mother'
sar
msandcr yunt
ilInol
ongerhaveanymor etearslef
t.Shesquat
tedi
nfr
ontofmeand
l
ift
edmychinupwithheri
ndexfingerandmademel ookather .

Her
:whathappened?Whatdi
dhedot
oyou?

Me:
pleasej
ustl
etmegohomeandIpr
omi
sey
ouIwi
l
lnev
ercal
lorseeMel
okuhl
eagai
n

Her
:hel
et'
syoucal
lherMel
okuhl
e..
.

Me:
Mir
andaIj
ustwantt
ogohomeandcel
ebr
atemybi
rt
hdaywi
thmyf
ami
l
y.Pl
ease

Her
:lookI
'
m sor
ryaboutwhat
everLuzukodi
d.I
'
llhav
eat
alkwi
thhi
m

Me:youdon'
tgetitdoyou?Ifyouhadn'
tcameher
ewheny
oudi
dhewoul
dhav
erapedme!
Hav
ey oueverbeenrapedbefore?

Iwasnowshout
ingandi
ntear
s.Sheshookherheadsl
owl
y.

Me:exactl
ynowify
ounotgoi
ngtoki
ll
met henIsuggesty
oudr
ivemet
omt
hat
haHi
l
lcr
estand
we'
l
l pr
etendthi
swhol
ethi
ngnev
erhappened

Her:Ican'
tl
ety
ougoj
ustyet.Heneedstofeelwhatit
'sl
i
ket olosesomethi
ngyoulove.He
needstoknowhowIf
eltwhenheleftmeinthathospi
talaf
terIhadmiscarr
iedourbaby

Me:andyouthi
nkMelowi
l
lfal
li
nlov
ewi t
hy ou?I
fhehear
sthaty
ourf
ri
endal
mostr
apedmeor
ev
entouchedme,bot
hyouandhi
m aredead!Nowletmego!

Her:y
ouknowhe' soffer
edar eward.R100000andhe'swi
ll
i
ngtodoubl
ei ti
fyouar
eret
urned
saf
elytohim andunharmed.Every
onei sl
ooki
ngforyounowsono!I
'm nottaki
ngt
hatr
isk,we
cancallhi
m anddiscussmyterms

Ij
ustr
oll
edmyey es.Thisgir
lwashighoncrack!Shetookoutafli
pphoneanddial
l
edhi
s
number.
.Iseeshesti
llknowsitbyhead.
.sheputhim onspeakerwhi
lei
trang.

/
/Hi
m:hel
l
o?

Sheputherf
ingeronherl
i
pindi
cat
ingIshutup.

Her
:Mel
ohey
,it
'sme

Hi
m:Mi
randawhatdoy
ouwant
?

Her
:nowt
hat
'snowayt
otal
ktot
heper
sonwhohasy
ourf
avour
it
etoy
Hi
m:whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout

Her
:sayhi

Il
ookedupatherandr
oll
edmyey
es.I
'
m notgoi
ngt
opl
ayt
hisgameofher
s

Her
:sayhi
Yay
a

Ikeptqui
etandshesl
appedme

Me:
fuck!Whatt
hehel
li
swr
ongwi
thy
ou

Hi
m:Yay
a.I
fyout
ouchheragai
nIsweart
oGody
ouwon'
tl
iv
etoseet
henextsunr
ise

Her:
noneedfort
hreat
s.Li
stent
ome,youcan'tt
racethephonesodon'
tev
ent
ry.Ihav
eyour
pr
eciousYay
aandI'
m wil
li
ngtogi
veherbackonaf ewcondit
ions

Hi
m:Yay
aar
eyouok?Pl
easesaysomet
hing

Me:
i'
mfi
neMel
okuhl
e.Shewant
sust
obr
eakupandst
ayt
hehel
lawayf
rom eachot
her

Hi
m:t
hat
'smadness!

Her:t
heresaguyf
ri
endofmineher
ewhoal
mostfuckedher
..
.hadInotgott
enbackint
imeand
al
lIneedtodoisj
ustsayt
hewordandy
ourl
it
tl
epreci
ouswon'tbesopreci
ousanymor
e

Hi
m:y
ouwoul
dntdar
e.Mi
randaIwi
l
lki
l
lyouwi
thmybar
ehands

Me:
she'
stel
l
ingt
het
rut
hMel
o.Mypant
swer
eal
readyonmyankl
esWhenshecamei
n

Her:
yousee??Nowbreaki
tof
fandl
egsmaket
hingswor
kandhav
ethatbabyandIwi
l
lmake
sur
ethatYay
aisunharmed

Hi
m:howdoIknowy
oubei
nghonest
?

Her
:youdon't.Youjusthavemywordtoli
veby .Icanret
urnYayat
oherhomebutyouneedto
l
oseeveryt
hingconcerningher
.Bankdet
ail
s,address,
mov ebackt
oSA,del
eteherpi
ctur
esand
j
ustever
ythi
ngt hathasher

Knowinghim hewasprobabl
yshaki
nghisheadandr
aki
nghi
shai
rbackasi
fthatwi
l
lsol
ve
anyt
hing.I
'
m surebynowhisbeardhadgrown.

Hi
m:f
ine.Youwi
n

Her
:wel
lthatwast
ooeasy
.Justt
obecl
eary
ouandIar
emov
ingt
oSwazi
l
andj
ustsoshe'
snot
i
ntheway

Hi
m:at
leastcanIseeherf
ir
stbef
oreev
ery
thi
ngandmakesur
ethatshe'
sok

Her
:youaski
ngf
oral
other
e
Him:yesandyouaskingmet ogi
veupalot
.Ify
our
eal
l
ylov
emet
heny
ouwi
l
lal
l
owmet
osee
herandhavehercheckedoutbyadoct
or

Her
:fi
ne.She'
l
lbehomeonherbi
rt
hday
.By
ebaby

Hi
m: YayaNdi
yakut
handaMaf
aku!Kakhul
u,ndi
yakut
hembi
sakonkekuzol
unga(
ilov
eyou
MafakuandIpr
omiseyoui
twil
lal
lworkout)

Me:ha.
aMel okuhl
endanelemnanguwenawoonkel amantombiakho!Hambanayeandifuni
nopi
ndandikubone(anoMeloI'
m si
ckandti
redofy
ou,I'
m donewit
hallofyourgi
rl
s.Justgo
wit
hher,Ineverwanttoseeyouagain)
//

Sheendedt
hecal
lbef
orehecoul
dev
enr
espond.

Her
:whatwer
eyout
wosay
ingt
oeachot
her
?

Me:
thatI
'
m donewi
thhi
m andt
hatIdon'
twantt
oseehi
m

Her
:poort
hing!

Shewalkedoutandleftmeont
hatchai
rjustt
hinki
ngaboutever
ythi
ng.I
fmemor
yser
vesme
ri
ghtt
henmybi r
thisin2dayst
ime.Al
lthewows.2mor efl
ippi
ngdayshere.

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10/
16,
21:
01]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E43

-
Mel
o

IwishedIcoul
dcall
Mi r
anda'sbluf
fbutthenthatwoul
dbegambli
ngwi
thYaya'
sli
feandI'
m not
abouttodothatt
oher ,
thatslapMiragavewasloudenought
omakemecr i
nge.Myphonewas
onspeakerthi
swholetimeandmycousi nwasrecor
dingi
tal
l
.Iwasmorescar
edforYaya'
sli
fe
thanthi
swholecharadeMirandaisplayi
ng.

Ase:
younotmov
ingwi
thherr
ight
?Tel
lmey
ouhav
eapl
an

Me:
whatchoi
cedoIhav
eAsemahl
e.Iowei
ttoYandi
swa

I
ya:
no!YouoweYay
atof
indt
hatbi
tchandki
l
lheral
ongwi
thwhat
everguyf
ri
endofher
s
"
Foundany
thi
ng"

Weal lturnedandmom anddadwer ewal kingin.Onet hingIloveaboutmypar entsist hatthey

don'tdeal shady,ever
ythi
ngtheydoi sbyt helaw...theyjustassociatedwi t
hpeoplewhodeal
shady.Itwasmom aski ng.I
sitokf oramant ocry ?Imeant olikeser i
ouslycr
yandpourhi s
heartoutunt il
hecannol ongercryany mor e?RightnowIwi shIcouldscr eam andcr yuntil
I
havenot earslef
t.Thi
s.Thisi
st oomuch.Howam Isupposedt oli
v ewithouther?Iknowal lthi
s
i
smyf aultandIhav etomaket hingsr i
ghtf orhersaf et
ybuthowam Isupposedt ojustgoon
wit
houther ?Yandiswaismyl i
fe.Shehasmyhear tI'mthepal m ofherhands.Onl yshehast he
powert ocr ushitormoulditi
ntowhat evershewi shesf orittobe.Idon' tl
oveMi r
anda, Igotov er
heryear sago.Idon'tevenunderstandt hisobsessi onshehasofme, heckIdon'tevenknow
whygi r
lst hrowthemselvesatme, allIeverdoi sbr eaktheirheartsandmaket hem wi shthey
nevermetme.

Me:
shecal
l
ed

Ma:
who?Yay
a?

Ase:
Mir
anda.Mel
o'
shi
ghschool
sweet
hear
t

Dad:
whatdoesshewant
?Whydi
dshet
akeher
?

Me:shewant
smet
omov
etoSwi
tzer
landwi
thherandbr
eakt
hingsof
fwi
thYay
ainal
lway
s
possi
ble

Mom:
that
'smadness!

Dad:
sogi
veherwhatshewant
s.Fort
hesakeoft
hatgi
rl
'
ssaf
ety

Mom:
mysoni
snotmov
ingt
oswi
tzer
landwi
thsomel
unat
ic.Thi
nkofsomet
hingel
seBess

Me:mom y
oudon'
tunder
stand.Shewasal
mostr
apedt
oday
.Nextt
imeshemi
ghtnotbeso
l
ucky

Mom:you'
dthinky
oulearntat
hingortwofr
om al
lthesemov
iesy
ouf
orev
erwat
chi
ng!Banel
e
t
racet
hecall
andlet'
sfi
ndoutwheretheyar
e

B:
itsabur
nerphoneAunt
y.I
t'
sunt
raceabl
e

Ma:nowther
e'snosuchthi
ngasuntraceabl
e!Workonf
indingwher
ethecal
lwaspl
aced,
itmay
notgi
vey
out heexactl
ocat
ionbuti
twillgi
veyousomet
hing!

Dad:
yourmom hasapoi
nt.Mel
ogett
hisgi
rlt
ocal
lyou.Idon'
tknowhowbutj
ustdo!

Iy
a:can'
tyousendheraFacebooki
nboxt
hatwayi
fsher
espondswecant
raceherusi
ngheri
p
addr
ess?

B:
goodpoi
nt.Mel
odoy
ourt
hing!
It
ookmyphoneandsignedi
nonmyFacebook.I
'm st
il
lnotaFacebookper
son,myaccounti
s
al
waysdeacti
vat
edunl
essot
her
wisesomeoneuseditl
ikemytwinormygirl
fr
iend.Ii
nbox
ed
Mir
atocall
meandshedidn'
tev
enhesit
ate,
shecal
ledsametime.

/
/Me:
Mir
a

Her
:Mel
ohey
..
.

Me:
letl
eav
etomor
row.Wecant
aket
heBESSPJandj
ustl
eav
e

Her
:that
'sshor
tnot
ice.Ihav
en'
tev
enpackedor

Me:
youdon'
tneedt
opack.We'
l
lbuyev
ery
thi
ngt
her
e

Her
:ar
eyouser
ious?Youwi
l
li
ngt
oleav
eherher
eandl
eav
ewi
thme?

Iswall
owedhar
dbefor
erespondi
ng.Whatwasaboutt
ocomeoutofmymout hwasgoi
ngt
o
causemechestpai
nsandIwouldneedt
owashmymout hwi
th"madubul
a".

Me:
Mir
andaIl
ovey
ou.

Her
:youl
yi
ng.Youl
oveher
!

Me:
askheraboutt
hedaywer
ani
ntoeachot
heri
nJobur
g.Askherwhathappened.WhatIsai
d
t
oher

Her
:whatdi
dMel
osayt
oyout
hatni
ghtwhenheandIbumpedi
ntoeachot
heri
nJobur
g

Yay
a:t
hathest
il
lhadf
eel
i
ngsf
ory
ou

Her
:thenwhydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me?

Him:
becauseIdi
dn'
twantt
obr
eakYay
a'shear
t.Takemeof
fspeakerandl
et'
sjustt
alkj
usty
ou
andme

Her
:ok

Me:MiraIhat
emy sel
fforwhatImadey oudo.Letsgetmarr
iedandhaveababytogetherand
j
ustl
ivehappi
lyev
erafter
.I'
l
lforgi
veyouforever
ythingandIwon'tev
enpuni
shyouf orthi
s.
We'
ll
dropitandmov eontogetherj
usthowyouwant

Her
:real
l
y?

Me:
yes

Her
:nomor
eYay
a?

Me:i
'
vedelet
edhernumberandev er
ythi
ngel
se.Youaremycur
rentwal
l
paper
,youar
emy
i
nst
agram pr
ofi
l
epict
ure.Idon'
tknowwhatmorey ouwantmet
odo
Her
:ok.I
'
m comi
ngbackt
oDur
banf
ir
stt
hingi
nthemor
ning

Me:
wher
ear
eyou?Letmecomet
oyou

Her
:Por
tStJohnEast
ernCape.Idon'
tknowwher
ethi
spl
acei
sthoui
twasLuzuko'
sidea

Me:
sendmey
ourl
ocat
iononwhat
sappt
hen

Her
:whydi
dn'
tIt
hinkoft
hat
.Yousosmar
t

Me:
that
'swhyy
oul
ovemebaby

Her
:ok.Il
ovey
ou

Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo/
/

Thiswholeti
mei wasli
ter
allydi
sgust
edy ouwoul dswearIjustswall
owedal emon.Allofthi
s
fel
tsowronglikeIwasbetrayi
ngherevent houitwasalltosaveher.Justt
henawhat sapp
noti
fi
cati
oncamet hr
oughandi twasMira'slocati
on.Isentherki
ssesandhearts.If
eelli
keI'
m
goi
ngt opuke!

Mom:
thi
sgi
rlr
eal
l
yhasi
tinf
ory
ouhuh

Me:
let
sjustf
indherpl
ease

Mom:
i'
ll
lethermom know

Shesai
dwal
ki
ngout
.Dadputhi
sar
m onmyshoul
derandl
edmeawayf
rom t
hegi
rl
s.

Him: Iknowy ouloveherbutafterallt

his..
.lethergoson.IthoughtIputy
ourmothert hrough
shii
tunt i
lthi
s.Meloy ouhaveturnedthatchild'
sli
feupsidedowni nwaysevenIdidn'tsee
possible.Andthenyouhav eagi rl
li
ter
allyobsessingoveryouandwi l
ldoanyt
hingy outellhert
o.
It
'snotheal t
hyson,itreal
l
yisn't
.

Me:
Iknowdad.

Thatwasal lIcoul
dmanaget outter
.Hewasr ight
.Ihadtolethergof
orherownsafet
y.Why
doeslovehur tt
hisfucki
ngbad?IthoughtIknewloveunti
lImetYaya,sheshowedmet hedepth
oflov
e, t
hetruemeani ngofl
oveandmademeunder st
andital
landIknowIknow.I
nall myli
feI
knowt hatIwill
nevermeetanyone.Bett
erthanheroranyonewhocouldmakemef all
inlove
thewayshemademe.

Mom:
Babe'
sisonherway

Dad:
Boobi
e

Her
:Nuni

Hi
m:y
ousi
tt
ingt
hisoneout
.I'
m goi
ngwi
thMel
oandt
heguy
s
Mom:
ver
yfunnyBess.Letmegochanger
eal
qui
ck

Shesai
dwal
ki
ngupt
hest
air
s

Ase:
youknowshegoi
nbemadr
ight
?

Dad:
andIwi
l
lmakeupf
ori
twhenIgetback!

I
ya:
thet
hingsy
oul
eav
eust
odeal
wit
h.

Hi
m:speaki
ngofwhi
chmyphonei
sont
heki
tchencount
erandI
'
mleav
ingi
t

I
ya:
Dad!

Hi
m:by
egi
rl
s.

Wewal kedoutandgoti nt
o2separ atecars.IwenttofetchSi
yabecausehet ol
dmetoandwe
werealsogoingwi t
hthisf
ather.Dadsaidrathersafethansor
ry.WedroveofftoPSJusi
ngthe
fl
agstaf
froute.Wel ef
tDurbanataround7pm.Wegott her
earound11pm, i
maginet
hespeed
wewer edriv
ingin.Iwasdrivi
ngmom' sAst onanddadwasdr ivi
nghisJeep,hesomewhat
pref
ersitatnight
.Wegott herefi
rstandtheplacelookeddesert
ed.Thi
scannotbehappeni
ng.I
tookoutmyphoneandcal l
edher

/
/Me:
didIwakey
ou?

Her
:noIcoul
dn'
tsl
eep.What
'
sup?

Me:
i'
m aty
ourpl
acewher
ear
eyou?

Her
:whatdoy
oumeany
ouatmypl
ace?

Me:
ImeanI
'
m out
sideandi
nfr
eezi
ngcol
d

Her
:uhhm okI
'
m comi
ng/
/

Si
ya:
let
shopet
hiswor
ks.

Me:
Ineedy
out
ogot
oourpar
ent
s

Hi
m:whatar
eyouupt
o?

Me:
shedoesn'
ttr
usteasi
l
y.Somet
hingt
ell
smeYay
aisn'
tev
enher
e.

Hi
m:f
ine!

Hegotofft
hecarandwenttothejeep.Isawt
heli
ght
sturnonandawhil
elat
ershewal
kedout
andstoodi
nthever
anda.Igotofthecarandwal
keduptoher
,shel
it
eral
l
yjumpedonmewhen
shesawmeandat t
emptedtokissme

Her
:whywon'
tyouki
ssme?
Me:
youj
ustwokeupbabe.
..whatdi
dyouev
eneat
?

Her
:ver
yfunny
!

Shepout
ed.

Me:
i'
m sor
rybabe.

Shel
edmei
nsi
de

Her
:canImakey
ousomet
hingt
oeat
?

Me:Nah,
Icametofetchy ousowecanleav
e.Wecan'tl
eav
emi
ddaybecauset
henmypar
ent
s
wi
ll
belooki
ngandall
t hatstuf
f.
..y
ouknowhowtheyare

Her
:uhhhm okl
etmeshowerf
ir
standt
henpackaf
ew

Me:
Itol
dyounott
owor
ryaboutt
hecl
othes.Ihav
eev
ery
thi
ngal
readyst
ashed.Wher
eisshe?

Her
:youdi
dn'
tthi
nki
'
dsendy
ouherl
ocat
ionnowdi
dyou?

Me:
comeonMi
rast
oppl
ayi
nggames

Her
:Ineededt
oknowy
ouwer
eser
ious.Gi
vemey
ourphone

Ihandedi
ttoherandshewasmywal
l
paper
,Isawasmi
l
efor
ming.Ki
l
lmenow!Shehandedi
t
backtome.

Her
:i'
l
lcal
lLuzukoandt
ell
himt
ohav
eherdel
i
ver
edhome

Me:
thesameguywhoal
mostr
apedher

Her
:rel
axhewon'
tdoany
thi
ngt
oherbabe.Whyy
ouwor
ri
edaboutherany
way
?

Me:
mom l
i
kesherandal
lsoy
ouknow

Her
:Ar
gh.
..

Shewal
kedgot
her
oom andt
ookherphoneanddi
all
edanumber
.

/
/Her
:Zuks

Hi
m..
.

Her
:takeherhome

Hi
m..
.

Her
:Iknowi
t'
slat
ebutMel
ojustgother
eandwel
eav
ing.

Hi
m..
.
Her
:Luzukost
opi
t!I
fyout
ouchhert
henMel
o'
spar
ent
swi
l
lcomeaf
tery
ouandt
heywon'
tst
op
unt
ily
oudead.

Hi
m..
.

Me:
Siy
aiswai
ti
ngont
hemai
nroad.Tel
lhi
mtot
akehert
her
e

Her
:youcamewi
thSi
ya?

Me:
Ifi
gur
edshewasgoi
ngt
oneedal
i
ftandSi
yaknowswher
eshel
i
ves

Her
:makessense.Li
stengot
othemai
nroadandt
hat
'swher
eyou'
l
lfi
ndSi
ya.He'
saf
ri
end

Hi
m..
.

Her
:by
e//

Her
:ev
ery
thi
ngsor
ted.Letmechangeandt
henwecango

Me:
sur
ebabe.

Shewenti ntot
hebathr
oom, Iheardt
hewat errunni
ngandpagedt hroughherphoneandsent
thelastcal
lednumbertoAse,sherespondedwi t
h"Gotit
".Hopefullytheyweregoingt ofi
ndt he
l
ocat i
oningoodtime.Mir
awasgoi ngtopayf orthi
sthat
'sforsure!Shesentmet helocati
on
andIf or
wardeditt
oSiyaandthenputmyphonei nmypocket .Ikeptprayi
ngt hattheygetthere
i
nt i
meandbef orehedoesany t
hingtoher.Shewalkedoutwi t
hat owel wrappedar oundher
body.

Me:
sti
l
llooki
nggood

Her
:hi
hihi
stopper
ving.

Me:
Ican'
thel
pit
.Getdr
essedt
hepl
anei
sal
readyonst
andby

Her
:okcool
.

Sheworeatr
acksui
tandsneaker
sandt
henwemadeoutwayt
othecar
.Iputonmybel
tand
thendr
oveof
fongullspeed

Her
:babesl
owdownal
i
ttl
e

Me:
thepl
anei
sonst
andbyhoneywehav
etor
ushbackt
oDur
ban

Her
:ok

Ikeptspeedingandkeptst
eal
inggl
ancesather
.Sher
eallydoesn'
tknowmethi
sone.At
ruck
wasappr oachi
ngontherobot
sandtheonesIwasapproachingwerered.

Her
:honeyt
ruck
Idi
dn'
tst
op,
inst
eadIdrov
eintotherobot
sandthetruckhi
thersi
dehar
dandt
hecarspan.The
i
mpactwassohardIcoul
dfeelmyselfdr
if
ti
ngoff
.It
'sfort
hebest
!

<3

[
10/
16,
21:
03]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E44

-
Yay
a

Beingher e,beingheldcaptivegasgi venmesomet i

met or efl
ectonmyr elat
ionshi pwi t
h
Mel okuhle.Allofit
.Howwewer esohappywhenwest arteddati
ngandt hent hingstookat urn
whenwewentt oJoburgandf rom thereonmyhappi nesswi thhim wouldonlyl astfor2
secondsbef oreI'
m hurt
ingagainandt hentheresthefewmont hswespentt oget herhav i
ng
pettyargument sbutver
ymuchhappyandi nl ove.
..andnott oforgetnothavinganysexbutst il
l
happy .thencamet hi
s,t
heobsessedhi ghschool girl
fr
iend.Howt hehelldi
dwegether eandwe
haven'tev enfini
shedaf l
ippi
ngy eartogether.I'
veheardt hefir
styearisthehar dest,Ithought
thatsay i
ngonl yappli
edt omar r
iageandnotr el
ati
onshipst oo.Seemingl
ywhat evertalkLuzuko
andMi r
ahadwor kedinmyf av
ourbecauseMi r
aleftmewi t
hhim andhewast oopissedt odo
anythingt ome. .
.myboy fri
endwoul dhav ejumpedatt heoppor tuni
tyofangrysex.goodt hi
ng
he'snotMel o!Hewasbusypacki ng

Me:
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?

Iwaswokenupbyhi
sri
ngi
ngphonewhenMi
randacal
l
edhi
m.

Hi
m:notmepr
incess.You!Yourboyfr
iendi
shereandhecamet
ofet
chhi
snewgi
rl
fr
iendand
t
heyf
lyi
ngt
oSwazilandorswitzer
landorwhat
ever

Ikeptquiet
.Sohe' sreal
l
ydoi ngit.Don'tmisunder st
andmebutIt houghthehadapl an,he'
s
MelokuhleBess.Hecanmakeherpaywi thoutev enhavingtol
eavewi thher.Coul
dn'theat l
east
comet oseemeandexpl ainther easonhisleavingme, somefarewellspeechorsomet hi
ng.
Meloisstubborn,hewoul dn'
tdar eleavewithoutmaki ngsureI
'm ok.
..unlessI'
m missing
something.Icouldfeelmyey esbur ningwithtears.Sothiswasit
?Thi swast heendofus.The
doorswungopenandDer ri
ck'sfatherwalkedinaccompani edbySiya'sdad.Whatthehel li
s
goingon?Siya'sdadwentst raightforLuzukowhi leDamonunt i
edme

Hi
m:ar
eyouok?
Inodded

Hi
m:Mel
ohasapl
andon'
twor
ry

Me:
he'
sleav
ingwi
thher

Hi
m:nohe'
snot
.Si
yai
swai
ti
ngout
sidebyt
hecar
,cany
ouwal
k?

Inodded.Hewasunty
ingmyankles.Iwat
chedSi
ya'
sdadbeatLuzukoupli
kehewasbeati
nga
dog.I
twaspainf
ult
owat ch.Whenhewasdoneuntyi
ngmeIranoutandwasmetbySiyawho
pul
ledmei nf
orahug.Iki
ssedhim andhi
smuskyscent
.If
oundmy sel
fcr
yingf
orl
ordknows.

Hi
m:y
ou'
reoknow.You'
reokbuddy
?

Ididn'tevensayany t
hingt ohisst atement .Thosehav ebeenthewor sttwoday sofmyl if
e,I
didn'teat,Ial
mostgotr aped, mycheekf eelsswollenwhichIdoubti tisbuttheslapsIt ookfrom
Mi randawer efuckingpai nfulohandal soLuzukoki ssi
ngmef orcefull
yandst roki
ngmyboobs.
Hedi dthatwhenMi r
andal eftust ogot alkt oMelo,hekeptgivi
ngmecompl imentsinhowsexy
myboobswer e,ibithislipwhenhet r
iedt oki ssmeandt hatpissedhi m offbecausehe
squeezedmybr eastsev enhar derandgotof fmewhenhehear dt hedoorhandl esqueak.Ri ght
nowIj ustwantedt obehomei nmymot her '
sar ms.Wegoti nthecarandhecuddl edme.Ikept
thinkingaboutMel okuhle.IknowIshoul dn'tbutyoucan'tunl
ov eaper son.It
'simpossibleor
atleastitdoesn'thappenov ernight.Apol icecarpul l
edupnextt ous.He' sajudgeafterall.Two
meni nunifor
m wenti ntot hehouseandMrBessandMrNkohl awal kedoutandcamei ntothe
car .

Zuki
sa:
Ithi
nkt
hisbel
ongst
oyou

I
twast
her
ingwi
thouti
tschai
n.

Me:
thanky
ou.

Theyengagedinli
ghtconver
sati
onwhil
eIlookedatthi
sringi
nmyhand.Maybei
fIhadsai
dyes
Iwoul
dhav eenduredmorethanIdi
d.Whydoesdat i
ngthisguycomewi
thsomuchbaggage?I
t
makesnosenseatal l
.Idon'
tknowwhenIdrif
tedoffbutIwokeupwhenSi
yawasplaci
ngme
onMelo'
sbed.Hisbedroom smell
sli
kehim.

Hi
m:heysl
eepyhead

Ther
ingwast
ight
lysecur
edi
nmyhandbyaf
ist
.

"
Mybaby
"

Weturnedandmom wal kedi

nlooki
nglikeshehadn'
tsl
eptfort
woday s.Shepull
edmei nfora
hugandIjustsnuggl
edinherembraceandall
owedmy sel
ftobeababyandcr yallover
agai
n.shehel
dmei nherarmsunti
lIfel
lasl
eep.I
tfel
tgoodtobeinherarms,itfel
tgoodtobe
home.IwishedIwasinMelo'sar
msbuthe'sprobabl
yhalfwaytoSwazil
andnow.Thepr i
cewe
payforlov
e.Peoplear
esupposedtobreakupbecausetheydon'
tlov
eeachot herany
mor eand
notbecauset
heyl
oveeachot
hert
hismuch.I
tmakesnosense.

-
Amahl
e

Myhusbandi ssomethi
ngelse.Thi
swholetimeIkeptcal
li
nghim onl
yt ofi
ndhelefthi
sphone.I
wassomadathi m.WhoknowswhatheandMel oarewalkingi
nto?Thelastthi
ngIwantisto
l
oseanyoft hem.HewalkedinaccompaniedbyZukisaandSiyacarr
yingYaya,Si
yawentupt he
stai
rsandleftmewit
hthesetwo.Myf i
rsti
nsti
nctwastowr apmyarmsar oundhisneckand
neverl
ethim goandpartofmewant edtosl
apthedayli
ghtsoutofhi
m.Theki dswenttosleep
andleftMe,Siy
aandBabe'spavingupanddown.

Zuki
sa:
MrsBess

Inoddedandhewal
kedout
.Il
ookedatmyhusbandandsl
appedhi
m

Hi
m:Iunder
standy
oumad

Me:
maddoesn'
tev
enbegi
ntocov
eri
t!Damony
ouscar
edt
heshi
i
toutofme

Hi
m:butI
'
m al
i
vear
en'
ti

Hesai
dwi
tht
hatcor
kysmi
l
eofhi
s.It
hrewmy
sel
finhi
sar
msandhehuggedmet
ight
er.

Hi
m:y
ousocut
ewheny
ouwor
ri
ed

Me:
fucky
ou!

Hi
m:Mel
oinhi
sroom?

Me:
nohe'
snotbacky
et.Damonwher
eismyson?

Hi
m:he'
spr
obabl
yonhi
swayher
eBoobi
edon'
twor
ry.Hewentt
ohandl
eMi
randaonhi
sown

Ishookmyhead.Howcanhebesocal
m.Ihi
thi
schest

Hi
m:ouch!

Me:
howcoul
dyoul
ethi
m"handl
e"t
hatcr
azybi
tchal
one

Hi
m:Mel
okuhl
eisnotachi
l
dAmahl
e.St
opt
reat
inghi
mli
keone

Me:
ofcausey
ouwouldsaythatbecausey
oudon'tknowhiml
i
keIdo!Hady
ouact
ual
l
yspent
mor
eti
meathomethaninthatcourtr
oom youwouldknow

Hi
m:i
'
m notdoi
ngt
hiswi
thy
ou.I
'
mtoot
ir
edt
oev
endot
hiswi
thy
ou!
Me:
ifany
thi
nghappenst
omysonDamonBess!

Istormedof f.It
ookmyphoneandcal l
edhim butitwentst r
aighttovoicemail
.Istarted
panickingthi
nkingiftheworstthi
ngspossibl
e.Ther e'
sthi
sthingcall
edamot hersinsti
nct.A
mot heralwaysknows.Ihadabadf eel
ingaboutthis.Melowouldn'tj
ustswitchhisphoneof f
.I
keptcal l
i
nghi m onl
ytobetoldtoleaveavoicemail af
tert
hebeep.Iwal kedtoourr oom and
Damonwasi nt heshower.Itookhisphoneandt r
iedtocallhim butt
onol uck.Howt hefuckam
Isupposedt osleepnotknowi ngwheremychi l
dis?Hewal kedoutwi thatowel wrappedar ound
hiswaist.Ichosewel l
!

Me:
Damonsomet
hingi
swr
ong

Hi
m:whatdoy
oumean?

Me:
he'
sphonekeepsgoi
ngst
rai
ghtt
ovoi
cemai
l

Tearswerealr
eadyf
ormi
ng.Icannotaf
for
dtol
osehi
m.Hepul
l
edmet
ohi
snakedchestand
wrappedhisarmsar
oundme.

Hi
m:Mel
oisf
ineBoobi
e

Me:
don'
tsayt
hat
!Don'
tsayt
hatDamon

Hi
m:Maf
aku

Ikeptqui
et

Him:oursonwil
lwal
kint
hedooranymi
nut
enowandi
fhe'
snothearby7t
henwe'
l
lcal
li
na
sear
chpartyok?

Ishookmyhead.

Hi
m:Boobi
ei'
mtr
yingher
e

Me:
nothar
denough.Mel
owoul
dnotnotanswerhi
sphoneDamon

Hi
m:t
ell
mewhatt
odoandi
'
lldoi
t!

Me:
Iwanty
out
ogoback.Gol
ookf
orhi
m andIam comi
ngwi
thy
ou!

Hi
m:f
ine.Getwearpr
opershoes.

Iwenttothecl
osetandsodi
dher.Hedroppedthet
owelr
eveal
ingl
ordknows!ForasecondI
evenfor
gotourworri
esandf
oundmy sel
fdrool
i
ngovermyhusband.Ihear
dhi
m chuckl
e

Me:
what
?

Hi
m:i
tsy
our
sify
ouwanti
t!

Hewi
ggl
i
nghi
sbr
owsandIf
oundmy
sel
fgi
ggl
i
ng.
Me:
no!

Irol
ledmyey esandt ookmysneakerswal
kingout.Thatmanisatemptat
ion!Howcan
someonel ookthatsexyat47?It'
swrongr
ight
?Itshouldbei
ll
egal
.Hewalkedoutfull
ydr
essed.
Itwassurestinthemor ni
ngaround5am.OnmywayoutIbumpedi nt
oBabe'scomingoutof
Melo'sr
oom.

Me:
howi
sshe?

Her
:she'
ssl
eepi
ng.

Me:
that
'sgood.Howar
eyou?

Her
:happyt
ohav
eherback.Amahl
eI'
m sor
ryf
orbl
ami
ngy
oursonf
ort
hisandsnappi
ngand

Me:
youwerestr
essed,
Iunder
stand.Hebl
ameshimselftoof
orthi
sandyourr
eact
ionasa
mot
heri
sexpect
ed.MysonhasputYay at
hroughhel
lthesel
i
ttl
emonthst
hey'
vebeentoget
her

Her
:butshel
oveshim st
il
l.Ev
enifItr
ykeepi
ngherawayf
rom hi
m shewon'
tst
ayawayf
rom
unl
essandunt
ilshei
swill
ingto.Wherei
sheanyway?

Me:
he'
snotbacky
et.DamonandIgoi
ngt
olookf
orhi
m

Her
:Ihopehe'
sok

Me:i
'
m worr
iedBabal
wa.Ij
usthavethi
spi
tatt
hebot
tom ofmyst
omachl
i
kesomet
hingi
s
wr
ongorsomethi
nghappenedtohim.

Shepul
l
edmei
nforahugandbr
ushesmyback.

Her
:gof
indy
oursonAmahl
e.AndIam cer
tai
nthathei
sfi
newher
eev
erhei
s.

Me:
Ireal
l
yhopey
our
ight
.Webr
oket
hehug

Bess:
readyt
ogo?

Inodded.

Her
:Damont
hanky
ou.Thanky
ousomuchf
orbr
ingi
ngherbackt
ome

Hi
m:noneedt
othankme.Justmakesur
ethatshe'
soky
eah?

Shenodded.Heputhi
sarm aroundmyneckandwewalkeddownthest
air
stoget
her
.Idon'
t
evenknowwherewewer edriv
ingt
obutal
lIknewi
sthatwehadtofi
ndourson.Wegottot
he
tol
lgat
esandhepaid,
justthenmyphonerang.

/
/Me:
Hel
l
o

Per
son:
am Ispeaki
ngt
oAmahl
eBess?
Me:
yest
hisi
sshe.Whoi
sthi
s?

Her:Iam cal
l
ingyoufr
om ahospi
tal
inKokst
ad.Thi
smor
ningy
oursonwasbr
oughti
n
unconsci
ous.Therewasanacci
dent
//

Memor i
esoft
hedayIgotacall aboutmypar entscamef l
oodingandeveryt
hingwentbl
ank.
Hist
oryseemstohaveawayofr epeati
ngitself
.Icouldheartheladyontheli
nebutmybrain
j
ustshutdown.Thiscoul
dn'
tpossi bl
ybehappeni ng.Icannotlosemyson.ItoldDamon
somethi
ngwaswr ongbuthedidn'tli
sten.Henev erdoes!

Hi
m:Maf
akuwhat
'swr
ong

Itr
iedtobreat
hebutitwassohar
dto.Nothi
ngcameoutorin.I
tfel
tli
keIwassuffocat
ing.I
cannotlosemysont hesamewayIl
ostmyparent
s.It
'swr
ong!Ifel
tthecarcometoast and
sti
ll
.Hewaspar kedonthesi
deoft
heroad.Hegotouthi
ssideofthecarandopenedmydoor
formeandpul l
edmeout .

Hi
m:Maf
akul
ookatme

Ishookmyhead

Hi
m:pl
easel
ookatmeandbr
eat
heok.Justbr
eat
hesl
owl
y

Il
ookedi
ntohi
seyesandsawmysoninthem.Thebeauti
ful
creat
ionwehadmadewasaspl i
t
i
mageofthismanst
andi
ngbef
oreme.Ikeptbr
eathi
nginandoutslowl
yunt
ilmychestwas
open.

Hi
m:ar
eyouok?

Inoddedandhepul
l
edmet
ohi
schest

Hi
m:whatwast
hecal
labout
?

Ohshii
tIwasstil
lont
hephone.Ipul
l
edawayf
rom hi
schestandl
ookedatmyscr
een,
thecal
l
hadbeendropped.

Me:
thatwast
hehospi
tal
inKokst
ad.Mel
owasi
nanacci
dent

Hi
m:buthe'
sokr
ight
?He'
sal
i
ver
ight
?

Me:
hewasbr
oughti
nunconsci
ous

Hest oodst
il
lforaminuteandIj
ustlookedathim.Hewashur t
ingthesamewayIwas.We
sharedthesamepain.Hewalkedtohissideofthecarandgotin,
Igotinonmysideandhe
star
tedbangingthi
ssteeri
ngwheelcursi
ng.It
ouchhishandandhel ookedatme

Hi
m:i
'
m sor
ry

Me:
it'
sok.Oursonneedsusok?
!
Hest ar
tedtheengi
neanddr ov
eof
f.Ical
l
edhissi
sterIy
ana,Mel
odywill
hav
eaninst
antpani
c
attackl
ikeshedidinJanuar
ywhenweheardhewasi nanacci
dent
.Iy
aanswer
edafterawhi
le,
theyhaven'
tslepti
ndays.

/
/Me:
Yana

Her
:Mah

Me:
Yourbr
other
'sbeeni
nanacci
dent

Her
:wai
tletmesi
tupIdoubtIhear
dyoucor
rect
ly

Me:
hewasbr
oughti
nunconsci
ous

Her
:wher
ear
eyounow?

Me:
weonourwayt
oKokst
adt
ofi
ndout
.We'
l
lhav
ehi
mtr
ansf
err
edt
oDur
ban

Her
:Yay
awi
l
lgomad

Me:
hol
doutont
ell
i
ngherj
usty
et,
she'
sbeent
hroughal
ot

Her
:butshedeser
vest
oknow

Me:
all
I'
m say
ingi
sletusf
indouthowbadi
tisbef
orey
out
ell
herok?

Her
:okmom.Keepmepost
ed

Me:
Iwi
l
lbaby
//

Ihel
dDamon'shandanditwashot.Helookedatmeandgav
emeaf
aintsmi
l
e.Thi
scoul
dn'
t
possi
blybehappeni
ng.Wehavel
osttoomuch.

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THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

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-
Yay
a

Iwokeupandmom wasn'
tbymysi
de.Damnthi
sguy '
scol
ognei
sreal
l
ystr
ong,he'
snoteven
her
ebuthi
sbedsmell
sjustl
i
kehi
m.Igotupandfoundmom'sphonei
nthepedest
al.Il
ooked
attheti
meandi twasjustaft
er7.Idial
ledhi
snumberanditwentst
rai
ghttovoi
cemai
l
.
Seri
ousl
yMel okuhl
e.Real
lynow???.Ikepttr
yingunt
ilmom wal
kedi
nalldr
essedupwi
thabowl
.
Iputherphonedown.

Her
:mor
ning

Me:
hey
.

Her
:howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?

Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s.IneededMel
otoexplai
ntome,hel
pmeunder
standever
ythi
ng.Why
hewouldl
eav
ewithher
.Heowesmet hatmuch.Shet
ouchedmychi
nandlookedatmycheek.

Her
:doesi
thur
t?

Shesai
dtouchi
ngi
t

Me:
i'
mfi
ne.Any
thi
ngf
rom Mel
o?

Her
:Ibr
oughty
oucer
eal
.Youneedt
oeatsoIcant
akey
out
othedoct
or

Me:
no.Ineedt
oknowi
fMel
ohascal
l
edorl
eftamessageorsomet
hing.Wher
eismyphone?

Shest
oodupandwenttoherpurseonthechai
randtooki
toutandhandedi
tt ome.Iswi
tched
i
tonandIhadadozenmissedcall
sfr
om pret
tymuchever
yone.Ical
l
edhim agai
nbutsti
l
l no
l
uck.

Me:
dammi
t!

Iwalkedtohisbathroom andopenedt hewaterwaiti

ngforittogethot ,
Ineedal ongbathy es
butri
ghtnowIj ustwanttogetmymom of fmybackaboutt hi
swhol edoctorthi
ng.Shewas
overr
eacti
ngbecausemyf acewasn'tbad,itwasonlypi
nk...li
keIgotslappedbutt hat
'sasf ar
asitgoes.Igotoutandwor ehi
st-shir
twi t
hapairofsweat pantsIdidn'
tevenknowIhadl eft
hereunti
lIrai
dedhiswardrobe.WhenIwasdoneIt iedmyhai rupandwentt ogagglewithhi s
l
ister
inandthenweheadeddown.Tal kaboutawel comingcommi t
tee,everyonewasher e
excepthi
spar ent
s.Ihuggedeachandev er
yoneoft hem andt henAsemahl efol
lowedust ot he
door

Me:
hashecal
l
edorl
eftamessageorsomet
hing?

Sheshookherhead

Me:
yousur
e?

Her
:posi
ti
ve.We'
l
ltal
kwheny
ougetbackokhoney

Shehuggedmeandt henIwenttomom'
scarandwedr oveofft
oAmber
'shospi
tal
.Theydi
d
ever
ypossi
blecheckandever
ythi
ngwasf
ine,
asitshouldact
uall
y.
Me:
canwepl
easest
artatnet
car
e

Her
:ok.
..who'
sther
e?

Me:
Sino.
..wel
lont
hatdayIwast
akenhermot
hercal
l
edmet
ell
i
ngmet
hatshewasi
nacoma

Her
:ohmyGod!

Me:
yep.Epi
l
epsy

Her
:that
'st
err
ibl
e.

Wedr
iveoft
oGat
ewayandpar
kedi
nfr
ontoft
hehospi
tal
andt
henIcal
l
edhermot
her
.

/
/Her
:Yandi
swa

Me:
hey

Her
:thankGoodnessy
ou'
reok.Ir
eadi
tont
henewsandonFacebookt
haty
ouwer
emi
ssi
nga.
..

Me:
i'
mfi
neMa.I
'
m her
eatt
hehospi
tal
,whi
chr
oom ar
eyouguy
sin?

Her
:I'
m comi
ngt
ofet
chy
our
ightnow/
/

Wewai t
edunti
lsheshowedup.Shel
ookedfrust
rat
ed,
shehadbagsunderherey
es,i
twasj
ust
bad.Shehuggedmethanki
ngGodIwasaliv
eandwel l
andthenshebr
okethehugandsheand
mom sharedasympathyhug.

Me:
howi
sshe?

Her
:st
il
lnochange.Ij
ust
..
.Idon'
tknow

Me:
she'
sgoi
ngt
obef
ine.She'
saf
ight
er.

Her
:im sl
owl
ylosi
nghopeYay
a.Thanky
ouf
orcomi
ngt
hou

Me:
she'
smysi
ster
.

Wewalkedint
oherroom andshehadpipesconnect
edtohermouthhelpherbreat
he.Isat
downandtookherhandint
omi neandki
ssedit
.Isai
dafewwor dsandthenwel ef
t.Wegot
backatt
heMansionaround10,myfri
endsweregoneanditwasjustSi
ya,I
ya,Baneleand
Asemahl
e.

Ase:
whyt
hehel
li
sn'
tmom answer
ingherdamnphone?

I
ya:
Iwasn'
tev
ensupposedt
otel
lyouunt
ilweknowhowhe'
sdoi
ng

Me:
isev
ery
thi
ngok?I
sitMel
o?

Theyal
ltur
nedt
ome.Tear
swer
eal
readybur
ningmyey
es.
Me:
Asemahl
ewher
eishe?

Her
:hewasi
nanacci
dentt
hismor
ning

Me:
buthe'
sokr
ight
?

I
nmymi ndIwasthi
nkingoftheworstcasescenar
ioandthei
rfaceswer
en'
ttell
i
ngme
ot
herwi
se.Iwant
edtoconvincemyselft
hathewasf i
nebutnope,whot
hehel
l am Iki
ddi
ng?
Asemahl
eshookherhead

Her
:hewasbr
oughti
nunconsci
ous

Me:
wh.
..

If
eltmykneesgoi
ngweakandIj
ustsankt
othef
loormom t
ri
edt
otouchme

Me:
no.Don'
t.Justdon'
t

Ase:
he'
sgoi
ngt
omakei
t

Me:
thi
swashi
spl
an.Hehadt
hisal
lpl
annedout

Tearswererol
l
ingdownmycheeks.Iwasangryandhur
t.Howcouldhedothi
stome?How
darehesavemeatthecostofhi
sli
fe?If
eltsomeonewrapthei
rar
msaroundme,i
twasIy
ana.

Her
:he'
sgoi
ngt
obef
ine.He'
sgoi
ngt
owakeup

Ishookmyhead.Mel
okuhl
ehast
owakeup.Hecan'
tdot
hist
ome.Hasn'
theputmet
hrough
enough?

Me:
wher
eishe?

I
ya:mom anddadar
eworki
ngonhavi
nghi
mt r
ansf
err
edt
hissi
debuthesuf
fer
edalotof
i
nter
nal
damageandbrai
ntr
auma.I
t'
snotsaf
etomovehi
m unt
ilt
heycanst
abil
i
sehisbr
ain

Idon'
tknowmedi
cal
ter
msbutt
hatsoundsser
ious.Whywoul
dhet
ryt
oki
l
lhi
msel
f

Ase:
atl
eastt
hatbi
tchi
sdead

Ididn'
tcareaboutMi randa.AllIcar
edaboutwasmyboy fr
iend.Howdar ehedot histome?I
can'tl
i
v ewithouthi
m.Hehast ocomebacktome.Ineedhi m.Ijustcri
edinIyana'
sarmsuntil
I
hadnot earslefti
nmeandIwasj ustl
eftwi
thhi
ccups.Shehelpedmest andupandwewentt o
sitonthecouchandAsegav emeagl assofwat
erwi t
hsugart ocalm medown.I y
a'sphone
rangandsheanswer editaside.Shecamebackafterawhile.

Ase:
whatdi
dmom say
?

Her
:theymanagedt
ost
opt
hei
nter
nal
bleedi
ngsohe'
l
lbeher
elat
ert
oday

Ase:
sot
hewor
sti
sov
err
ight
?
Yana:
notr
eal
l
ybecausedoct
orsay
shemi
ghtsuf
ferf
rom memor
yloss

Me:
buthe'
sgoi
ngt
opul
lthr
oughr
ight
?

Yana:
yest
her
e'shope

Me:
pleaseexcuseme.

Igotupandwentupt ohisroom.Don' taskmewhyIwentt ohisroom butIjustneededtosmel

l
hi
m, feelhi spresenceandj ustbecl oset ohim someway .Idon'tknowbutal l
thi
swasj ust
painf
ul andIj ustwi shedhecouldwal kinthatdoorandpullmei ntohisarmsandcomf or
tme
andtellmet hatev eryt
hingwill
bef ine.Tellmet hathei
sokandhe' sgoingtopullt
hrough.I
won'tli
et hismemor ylosspi
ecei sn'
tr eal
lysi
tt
ingwellwit
hme, whati fhedoesn'tr
ememberhis
l
ifewher eIexi stin?Whatofher emember sli
fewhenhewasst i
llwithMi r
andaorthetimehe
waswhor ingar oundt hewholeofDur ban?

"
Don'
tdot
hatt
oyour
sel
f"

It
urnedar
oundandAsemahl
ewasst
andi
ngbyt
hedoorl
eani
ngont
hedoorf
rame

Her
:he'
sgoi
ngt
owakeupaski
ngf
ory
ou

Me:
whati
fhedoesn'
tremembermeAse?

Her:t
henwewil
lmakehi
mr ememberyou.Loveliket
heoneyou'
veshownhi
m andt
aughthi
m
i
snoteasytof
orget
.Mybrot
heri
sly
ingont hatbedfi
ght
ingt
ocomebacktoyouYandi
swaand
nobodyel
se

Me:
het
hinksIhat
ehi
m andwantnot
hingt
odowi
thhi
m

Her
:hewoul
dnev
ert
hinkt
hat
.Mel
owoul
ddoany
thi
ngt
ocomebackt
oyoumyf
ri
end

Wewer esit
ti
ngonhi sbedwi t
hmyhandsi ntohers.Sheseemedwor riedaboutme.Mymom
haditthewor st
,I'
m surei t
'
spai nf
ul seei
ngy ourdaught ercr yforanasshol ewho' sdonenot hing
buthurthercontinuously.Mom knowshowmuchIl ov eMel okuhl
eev enaf terev erythi
ngbutshe
doesn'tgetwhyI'm sti
llwithhim.Ifitwereupt ohershewoul dlockmeupi nherhouseand
makesur eIneverseehi m againjustt okeepmyhear tsaf e.Thethi ngaboutl ov ei sthatnothing
i
spr omised.Youcanbehappyt hroughoutory oucoul dspendev eryni ghtcr yingal onewai t
ing
forhimt ocomehomebutt hat'
salsot hebeaut yofit.Themy ster
yi thol ds.Theupsandt he
downs.Knowi ngt hatonedayi twill
allbeokayandt het earswi l
lbewor t
hi tint hel ongrun.I
havenodoubti nmymi ndt hatthi
sist hemanIwantt omar r
yandspendt her estofmyl if
ewi th.
Thelov ehehasformeandt heloveIhav ef orhimisaoncei nalifeti
met hing.Somanypeopl e
str
ugglet ofi
ndtheirsoulmat eatsuchay oungageandheandIwer efor t
unat eenough.

Me:
i'
m scar
ed

Her
:met
oo.Whathappened?Di
dtheyhur
tyou?
Me:thatgi
rli
sshii
tcrazy.Shebl
amesmef orherbeingadmitt
edint
oapsy chward.SaysifI
hadn'
tmeddledi
nherl i
fethenshewouldbepeacefull
ydeadwithherchi
l
dbutinsteadItook
Meloawayfrom herandmadehi m hat
eherforl
osi
ngt hei
rchi
ld.

Her
:howar
eyoust
il
lal
i
ve?

Shesai
dlaughi
ng

Her
:suchcr
azi
nessi
senought
osendy
out
oanear
lygr
avemami
!Thatgi
rlbel
ongedi
napsy
ch
war
d

Me:
itscar
esme

Her
:whatdoes?

Me:t
hispowerheholds.Mi
randasi
nwastof
all
inl
ovewi
thhi
m.Whati
fIendupl
i
keher
?What
i
fIt
urnint
oherorli
ketherestoft
heot
her
s?

Sheshookherhead

Her:ha.
a!Don'tdothat
.Thedif
fer
encebetweenyouandthesegirl
sist
hathelovesyouandyou
l
ovehim back.Melowouldhavenevert
ri
edtokil
lhi
mselftwicebythewayforanyofthem so
honeystoptri
ppingbecausemybrot
herismadlyi
nlov
ewithy ouandheisdeter
minedona
fut
urewithyou

Me:whatifAsemahl
e?Howcert
ainam It
hatwhatIwentt
hrought
hesepastt
woday
swon'
t
happenagai
n?Whatsur
etydoIhave?

Her
:non.Youhav
eachoicetoeit
herst
aywit
hhi
m despi
teever
ythingorgi
veupandall
oft
his
woul
dhavebeenfornot
hingandyouspendt
her
estofyourl
i
fewi t
hadozenwhatif
's

Ikeptquiett
ryi
ngtoimaginemyl
ifewit
houthi
m andnothi
ng.I
'
vealwayspi
ctur
edmyl
ifewi
th
himinitandthethoughtofmyl
if
ewithouthi
m hadnevermetoncecr
ossedmymindandIdon'
t
wantitto.

Her:
Iknowknowy ou'
vebeent
hroughat
raumati
cexper
ienceandI'
m nott
ryi
ngt
otal
kyoui
nto
st
ayingbutIhopey
ouknowjusthowmuchthatmanlov
esy ouhoney

Ij
ustnodded.

Her
:thi
nkabouti
tok?

Sheki
ssedmyf
oreheadandwal
kedoutj
ustt
henmom wal
kedi
n.Lor
dsav
emenow!

Her
:your
eal
l
ylov
ehi
m huh?

Me:youhavenoideaMa.It houghtthatthi
sexper
iencewoul
dmakemehat
ehim wi
thapassi
on
andwalkoutonhim butthemi nutet
hatdooropenedIwashopi
ngt
oseehi
m,Iwantedt
obein
hi
sarmsmor ethananything.Ilov
ehim somuchithurts
Shej
ustnodded.

Her
:Ihopey ouknowwhatyoudoing.Isawhowcrushedhewasoveryourdi
sappearance,he
wasbarel
yfunctioni
ngandnowthatI'
m seei
ngyougothr
oughwhathewentthroughI'm seei
ng
j
usthowmuchy outwomeantoeachot her
.He'
snotmyfavor
it
epersonbuti
fyouwantt o
marr
yhimt henyouhavemyblessi
ngs

Ikeptqui
et.Di
dmymom r
eal
l
yjustsayt
hat
???Wow!Iwonder
.Ihuggedher

Me:
thanky
oumom

Her
:justf
ini
shschool
andbui
l
dyourcar
eerf
ir
st

Me:
Iunder
standMa

Ihuggedheragai
n.Wi
thev
eryst
orm comesar
ainbow.Mi
necer
tai
nlycamewi
thone.

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NCOMESLOVE*

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Damon

I'
vebeenpacingupandanddownf or40mi nutesnow...maket hat41andnobodyhascomet o
i
nform usaboutourson.Al lweeverheardwast hathewasi nicuandt hatthegi r
lhewas
tr
aveli
ngwi t
hsadlypassedon.Honest lyIcoul
dgi v
eadamnaboutMi randa,allIwantt oknowis
howmysoni sdoingandnobodywi llfl
ippi
ngtellusanythi
ng.Mahl ewasmor ecalmt hanme, I
keptgoingtotherecepti
onistandallshewouldsayi s"Wewi llinf
ormy ouifany t
hingchanges".
Gir
lain'
tevenpr et
ty.I
t'
sfunnythoughbecauseshekeptgi vingmet hesefli
rtati
ousl ooks,chi
l
d
i
sasy oungasI yana.I
magi ne.I
'
m nottheblessertypeofguy ,
mywi feisstressfulenoughf or
met oaddanot herwomanpl usIhavet wodaughterswhoal sogi v
emespl it
tingheadaches,
whatwoul dIdowi t
haf ort
hone?

Me:
it'
sbeen40mi
nut
esal
ready
!Whywon'
ttheyt
ell
usany
thi
ng?

Shest oodupandtookmyhandsi nt
ohersandl ookedatmest r
aightint
omyey eswithher
beauti
f ul
browneyes.Shehadn'
tagedasingl
ebi t
,shesti
lll
ookedthesamewayshedi dwhen
22/23y earsagowhenIbumpedintoheratUshakaMar i
neandt henthenextyearatpicknpay
berea.Shewasstil
lbeauti
ful
andshesti
llhadthoseinnocenteyesthatdrewmet oherwhen
shecamebackfrom Jobur
gaf
terf
indi
ngherboy
fri
endt
heni
nbedwi
thasocal
l
edf
ri
end.Her
eyeswer
ethatpuff
ynow.

Her
:he'
sgoi
ngt
obef
ine

Allofthi
smesshadbet t
erbewor thit
.Peoplekeepsay ingMel ohasahol dov eeYay abutIt hink
Yayahasast rongerhol doverhi
m.Thi sisnott hefirsttimehegoti ntoanacci dentforher ,fir
st
shewasmadathi mf orsomethingandt histi
mear oundhedi dittosav eherandkeephersaf e.
Howmanyt i
mesdoesoneneedt ohav eneardeat hexper i
encesfory outoknowt hattheyl ove
yousomucht hattheyar ewil
li
ngtogiv ethei
rlifetodeat hforyou?Theyl oveeachot hert hat
muchIknowbutl ov eli
ketheonet heyhav e,
it'
sf at
al, i
t'
sdanger ous,it'
stoxicandnot hingl i
keI
haveseenbef ore.It
'sbeauti
fult
houbuti t'
sdanger ousandwi l
lcostthem theirli
vesift heyar en'
t
careful
.He'sal r
eadyf oughtsomucht obewi thher, hecan' tgiv
eupnow.Hej ustcan't.Ilooked
atourhandsandt henbackatherandnodded.Shet iptoedandpl antedaki ssonmyl i
psand
thensmi l
edmaki ngmesmi l
eback.Ir est
edmyf oreheadont oher sandwedi dn'
tsayany thing
toeachot her.West oodli
kethatforwhatseemedl i
ke30mi nutesorso.

"
MrandMr
sBess"

Weturnedandlookedatt
henurseat
tendi
ngtohim.Westoodsidebysidehol
dinghands
wai
ti
ngf orwhat
evershewasgoingt
otell
us.Herfacewasn'
tpr
omisinganygoodnewseither
.

Us:
yes

Ama:
isheok?

Her
: y
oursonsuff
eredwhatwecallbrai
nhaemorr
hage.Nowt
hati
sacondi
ti
oni
nwhi
cha
r
upturedbl
oodvesselcausesbl
eedi
nginsi
dethebr
ain.

Me:
cany
oust
opt
hebl
eedi
ng?

Ioncehear
dAmbermentiont
hatthi
spoppi
ngofav essel
canleadtothi
ngsl
ikememor yl
oss,
somethi
ngli
keast
rokeandevendeathi
fnotat
tendedtoproper
ly.Ama'
sgri
ptight
enedonmy
hand

Her
:it
snotcur
abl
esi
r

Ama:myhusbandaskedify
oucanst opthebl
eedi
ng,
asimpl
eyesornowil
ldoandnotsome
bul
l
shi
tsci
enceyoulear
ntay earago.Wenotaski
ngf
oracur
e,cany
oustopthebl
eedi
ngornot

Her
:ourneur
osur
geoni
scur
rent
lyat
tendi
ngaconf
erencei
nJobur
gMa'
am

Me:
thenwhatt
hehel
lhav
eyoubeendoi
ngt
hesepasthour
sift
her
e'snoneur
osur
geonher
e?

Her
:weweretr
yingt
ost
opthei
nter
nal
bleedi
ngsi
r.Yoursonsuf
fer
edal
otf
rom t
hatacci
dent
,
hei
sevenl
uckytobeal
i
ve

Ama:
li
stenl
i
ttl
egi
rl
.Getmesomeonemor
equal
i
fiedt
ogi
vemet
heanswer
sIneednow!
Her
:Mr
sBessi
..

Ama:i
fanythi
ngandImeananyt
hinghappenst
omyson,
rememberIam amar
ri
edt
oaj
udge
andt
hisl
it
tl
ehospit
alcancl
osedown!

Shenodded

Ama:
nowgetmear
eal
doct
orwhocananswerme!

Shewalkedaway.Idon'tgeti
t,i
fther
eisnoneurosurgeonhowdoesshemaket hatconcl
usi
on?
Whataretheyev
endoi nginhisbrai
nwithoutabrai
ndoctor?Amastar
tedpunchingonher
phone.

Me:
whoar
eyoucal
l
ing?

Her
:keepi
ngI
yanaupdat
ed

Inoddedwhileshecal
ledYana.I
tthenhi
tme,Mar celNorris.Wemett hi
sotheryearata
conferencei
nthestat
es,hi
swifeandmineapparentl
yalreadykneweachot her.Theguyisa
geni
us.Thewor khehasdoneisamazingandhe'
sonl yev erlostonepat
ienti
nhiswholeyears
ofbeinganeurosur
geon.Ij
usthopehe'
sinthecountry.Itookmyphoneandcal l
edhim

/
/Me:
Nor
ri
s

"
MrBesshi
thi
sishi
swi
fespeaki
ng"

Me:
hel
l
oAnam i
syourhusbandbusy
?

Her
:she'
scur
rent
lygi
vi
ngaspeechonsomebr
ainwhatwhather
einJobur
g.What
'sup?

Me:mysonwasinanacci
dentandther
e'snoneurosur
geoni
nthi
shospi
tal
.Theonet
heyhav
e
i
snother
e,he'
sat
tendi
ngaconfer
enceinJoburg

Her
:Iam sosor
ryt
oheart
hat

Me:
theyt
hinkhemi
ghthav
epoppedabl
oodv
essel
int
hebr
ain

Her
:bl
oodhaemor
rhage.That
'
sdanger
ous.I
'
llt
ell
him assoonashe'
sdone.Wher
ear
eyou?

Me:
wei
nKokst
ad.Icanor
gani
seaf
li
ghtf
ory
ouguy
s

Her
:thanky
ou.We'
l
lbet
her
esoonasheget
sof
fthatst
age.Justhangi
nther
eok

Me:
thanky
ouAnam

Her
:howi
sAmahl
e?Ican'
ti
magi
nehowhur
tshei
s

Me:
shehashope

Her
:sheshoul
dhol
dont
othat
.ot
hofy
oushoul
d.Yoursoni
sgoi
ngt
opul
lthr
ough
Me:
thanky
ou.By
e

Her
:seey
oui
naf
ewhour
s//

Amal
ookedatme

Me:
Anam andMar
cel
arei
nJobur
g.Theybeher
esoonaf
terhef
ini
shes

Shenodded.Justt
henadoct
orwal
kedupt
ous

Hi
m:Iunder
standy
ouwant
edt
oseeme

Ama:
nextt
imedon'
tsendachil
dwhoj ustgotoutofmedschool
todoy
ourbi
ddi
ngf
ory
ou.
Howi
smyson?Isitbr
ainhaemorr
hage?

Hi
m:Iapol
ogi
sef
ort
hat
.Andy
esI
'
m af
rai
dit
'sbr
ainhaemor
rhage

Me:
cany
oust
opt
hebl
eedi
ng?

Hi
m:y
esbutI
'
m notqual
i
fiedt
obecauset
hent
her
emi
ghtbecompl
i
cat
ions

Me:aneurosur
geoni
sont
heway
,cany
ouat
leastdosomet
hingt
okeephi
m al
i
veandst
abl
e
unt
ilt
hen?

Hi
m:y
essi
r

Ama:
whatar
eyouwai
ti
ngf
ort
hen?

Heapologi
sedandl eft
.Ashor twhil
eMarcelcal
ledmeandher equest
edt
ospeakt
othedoctor
i
ncharge,Igavethenursemyphoneandt henawhil
elay
erjtcamebackandIwastol
dthatt
he
bl
eedi
ngwasst oppedf ornowbutt heyst
il
lneededt
ooperat
eandmakesur et
hatt
herewon'
t
beanysurpri
ses.Atleasttheydidsomethi
ng.

-
Ase

Ican'tremembert hel astti

meIhadt obestrongforsomeoneel seei therthanmy self
.Yandiswa
hasbecomemyf r
iend,asisterev enandheandmybr otherhav en'tevenbeent ogetherfora
year.Yayawasl ikeal it
tl
esistertome, averywiseonet oo.I'
veal way simaginedhav i
ngasi ster
l
ikeherandnowIf inall
yhaveonet hankstomybr other.Mel ohasputt hi
schi l
dthroughhel l
,
draggedhert othegat esofhel landbr oughtherbackbutshest il
l st
uckar ound.Hadnotbeen
forthelovetheyshar e,IdoubtIwoul dbeinar el
ati
onshi p.Theygi vemehopef oragr eatfutur
e.
Iwasst uckbetweenget ti
ngdr unkt othepointofnoret urnandal sost ayi
ngsobert ofeelthe
painandhel pYay agot hroughi tandkeephersanewhi leatit.Theonl yper sonwhocoul dget
mymi ndoffital
l wasi nhissurger y
.Myhandsomener dyDoc.Ical l
edhim
/
/Hi
m:heybeaut
if
ul

Me:
heyhandsome

Hi
m:ev
ery
thi
ngok?Di
dyouguy
sfi
ndYay
a?

Me:
yesshe'
sbeenf
oundandshe'
sher
esaf
e

Hi
m:It
houghty
ou'
dbeal
i
ttl
eexci
ted

Me:
mybr
otheri
sinahospi
tal
inKokst
adf
ight
ingf
orhi
sli
fe

Hi
m:whywhathappened?

Me:hewasinanaccident
.Well
asshol
egothi
mselfi
ntoanaccidentwhi
chkil
l
edMirandaand
l
efthi
m wi
thint
ernal
bleedi
ngandbrai
nwhat-
what
..al
lIknowisthati
tcoul
dresul
ttomemory
l
oss

Hi
m:comet
othesur
ger
y

Me:noIhav etokeepaneyeonYaya.She'
snotcopingatall
.She'
shur
ti
ngsobadthatshehas
her
selflockedupinhi
sroom.Shehasn'
teatenany
thingproperi
ntwodaysandnowthere'
sthi
s.
Ij
ust.
..Ican'tl
eav
eher

Hi
m:Icani
magi
ne.Sher
eal
l
ylov
esy
ourbr
otherey

Me:
youhavenoi
dea.Ihat
etoasky
out
hisbutcany
oucomeov
erandbr
inghersomet
hingf
or
t
heshock

Hi
m:ofcausebabeany
thi
ngf
ory
ou.I
'
m onmyway

Me:
whyar
eyousoper
fect
?

Hi
m:becausey
ouper
fect

Me:
youknowev
ery
thi
ngaboutmebuty
ouchoset
ost
ay

Hi
m:whywoul
dn'
tIst
ay?

Me:
becauseI
'
m damagedgoods

Hi
m:t
owho?

Ishruggedmyshoul der s.You'

dthinkhe' dbetir
edofmebynowbuthei sn'
t.WhenIwakeup
screamingorcryinghewakesupandpul lsmet ohisarmsandasksmet otel
lhi
m aboutmy
nightmareandthendi stractmeunt i
l Ifal
lasl
eepandi fI
'm homealoneonmybedandIgeta
nightmare,
Ical
l him andheanswer ssamet i
meandcomesov erj
ustt
omakesur eI'
m ok.It
hink
Mel ohasahandi nthewayhet reatsmet houghbutI'
m notcomplaini
ngbecauseeachand
everydayhegiv
esmer easontof al
linlovewithhim moreandmor e.
Him:don'tdot
hat.YouknowIloveyouwit
horwit
houty
ourscar
swhichar
eunfor
tunat
elyt
her
e
andIloveyouei
therway.Younotdamagedgoodstome.Youar
eevery
thi
ngI
'
veonlyever
hopedfor.

Me:
don'
tfl
att
erme

Hi
m:i
sitwor
king?

Me:
youknowi
tal
way
sdoes.

Hi
m:Ij
ustgoti
nmycar
,seey
ouwhenIgett
her
e

Me:
ofcause.By
ebabe

Hi
m:by
ebeaut
if
ul/
/

Witht
hatIwal
kedouti
fmyr oom andwenttocheckonYay
aandshewasst
il
lcur
ledupl
i
kean
i
nfant
.Thi
swasreal
lydr
aini
ngforherandforanyofus.

Me:
canIgety
ousomet
hingt
oeat
?

Sheshookherhead.

Me:
toobadI
'
m ol
dert
hany
ouandIknowmybr
otherwoul
dn'
twanty
oust
arv
ingy
our
sel
f

Shedidn'
trespond.Iwalkedouttothekitchenandmademacandmi ncewi
thmashedpotatoes
andveggi
es.Sheneededt hef
ood.Idishedupandt ooki
ttoheri
nhisr
oom.Atfi
rstshewasn't
wil
l
ingbutI'm per
sist
entandveryannoy i
ngt hatsheendedupeati
ngandl
eavi
ngtheplat
ehalf
empty.

<3

[
10/
16,
21:
06]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E47

-
Yay
a

Ican'trememberthelastt
imeIhadapropersleeporagoodni
ght'
srest
.I'v
ebeensitt
ingont his
chairfor2daysnowandt herewasnochange.Thefir
stti
meIsawhimi nthiscondi
ti
onwor ds
fai
ledmeandonl ytearswereablet
oexpresswhatmymout hcoul
dn't
,Iremembertheyev en
hadmesedat edinordertocalm medownandmi nuteIwokeupIwenttof i
ndhim.Ineededt o
fi
ndhi m.Ineededt obewi thhim.Ithurtseeinghi mthislif
eless,sohelpl
essandsoscar 'd,i
fhe
sawhi sfacerightnow. ..l
ordknowshe' dr equestapl asti
csurger ysametimet ofi
xandmake
himl ookprett
yagai n.Ihatet hatheislyi
ngi nthisbedf orme, formysafetyandf ormylove.
NothingIsaidt hatnightwasmeant ,Iwasangr yandhur t
ingthatIwast herebecauseofhim but
nowIr eali
set hatl
ifeisshor tandwecannott akebackt hewor dswe' vesaidnorcanwet ake
backt hosewenev ersaid.Mygr eatestfearisthatwedi dn'thaveenought imetogether
.Allt
he
planswemadewi theachot her ,
allt
hegoal swewantt oat t
ain,theadventureswewantedt o
take..
.wear en'tevenhal f
waywi thanyofourl istsforhimt obel yingher
e.todaywasmy
birt
hdayandIst i
ll
didn'tknowwhatt osayt ohim.

Me:t
odayi
smybirt
hday.
..t
hiswassupposedtobemyfi
rstbi
rt
hdaywit
hyouasmyboyf
riend
andy
oushowingmewaysy ouhavechangedmyli
fef
ort
hebetter
.Youhadpl
ansf
orustoday.
Youmadepromi
sestomefortoday.

Iswal
lowedhardwit
hal
umponmyt
hroat
.Whydoest
hisf
eel
li
keI
'
m say
inggoodby
etohi
m?I
tookadeepbreat
h

Me: youcan' tl
eaveme.Notnow.Idancedforyouony ourbir
thday,Igaveyouashowony our
bir
thdaysoy ouowemeashow.Ineedy outogetyourassoutoft hatcomaandcomebackt o
meal ready.Isti
ll
haveyourr
ing.Par
tofmewant st
oweari tandpartofmei sn'
treadyto.Iwon't
weari tunl
essy ouwakeupandputitonmyf ingeryour
self
.It'
stheperfectf
itbytheway ,Idon't
knowhowy oumanagedtogetmysi zeseei
ngthatyoualway smakingfunofmyski nnyfingers.

Thisonetimehesai dIwouldn'
tsur viveadayasal esbian,mygirlf
riendwouldcheatonmedue
tothesefingersbecauseshewoul dn'tbeabletofeelt
hem i nsi
deofher .Asmuchasi twasan
i
nsultitwasf unnybecausehesai di tanditwasamemor yIwantedt okeep.Atimewhenhe
andIwer ehappy ,genui
nely
,insanelyhappywi thonlyniceli
feproblemsandr ichpeople
probl
ems.Thatbei ngwheretoflytof ortheweekend.OhMel okuhl
e.Idon'tevenknowhow
manycount ri
eswe' vebeentoint hisshortperi
odoft i
me.Iwashol dinghishandli
steni
ngt
othe
machinesbeepi ngslowlyatareasonabl erate.

Me: MelokuhleI
'vecri
edenought olastmeanet er
nit
yandthathasallbeenony ou.Youoweme
happinessnow, overf
lowi
ngjoy,t
heki ndt
hatonlyyoucanbringmeandnobodyel se.I
t'
sfunny
becauseev enafterever
ythi
ngthat'
shappenedthere'
snobodyI'dr
atherbewith.There'
snobody
i
'dratherbeslappedforthanyoubecauseMel okuhl
eIlov
ey ou.Somuchi thurt
srighthere

Isaidpoint
ingatmyheart.Ihopeforhi
ssakehecanhearbecauseI'
m notwi
l
li
ngt osayal
lof
thisagai
ninpersonshame.I'mjustnott
hatper
sonandheofallpeopl
eknowsit.Igotupand
plantedakissonhisf
oreheadandsatbackdown.

Me: becauseofyouI'vehadtogrowbef oretime,hadtodealwit

hcrazyassbi
tches,t
hreateni
ng
textsandev er
yothercrazyb.sandnowt hatI'
m herewenayout hi
nkyoucantaketheeasyway
out?Nohoneyi tdoesn'tworkli
kethat
.Youar egoingtocomebackt omeandf ocusony ouand
Iandt hosethatl
oveust hesamewaywel ovet hem.SoBessyougetstowakeup.Formysake
ok.Doi tformeorelseIwon'teatanditwillsuckreal
lybadbecauseyouknowjusthowmuchI
l
ov efood.
Myswest pantsf
eltl
ikeIborrowedthem f r
om someone.Theywer ebaggyi nanotsocuteand
sexywayast heyoncewer e.Yepthestrugglecontinues.Themant hatIloveandwaswi l
li
ngto
comebackt oSouthAf ri
caforwaslyinginahospi tal bedinacoma.Mar celwar
nedthatitcoul
d
evenbeay earbefor
ehewakesup.Mar cel
'swife,anamazi ngwomanbyt heway.Verychil
led
anddownt oearthoffer
edt ohel
pmepr ayforhim becausesomet i
mesal l
weneedisal i
ttl
e
prayertoaskhebebr oughtbacktous.Shet aughtmet hatthi
smi ghtjustbeatestoffai
th,
funnythoughbecausethiswasr eal
l
ynot i
mef orat estoff ait
h.Iwashol dingontothe
memor iesheandIhav esharedandthel i
tt
lehopeIhadwasenought okeepmest able.I
'
m
scaredbutatthesamet imeIhateseeinghi m suf
fer .WhydoIl ov
et hi
smansomuch.

-
Amahl
e

Theoperat
ionwentsuccessfull
yt hankstoMar cel
.Ireall
ydon'tknowwher ewewoul dbe
wit
houtoutfr
iends,t
heywereabl et omov eMel otoahospitali
nDur ban.Idon'tev
enknowhow
manypaperswehadt osignbef oreMar celcouldoperat
eonhi m.I t
'ssafetosaythattheworst
wasoverandnowwhat '
slef
tisf orMelot owakeupsoweknowt hatevery
thingwentwell
.It
'
s
beentwodaysnowsi ncetheoper ati
onbuthewasst il
lthesame.Yay aonlylefthi
ssidetogo
shower,
shelit
eral
lyl
ivedhere.Poort hi
ngdi dn'
teatnordidshesleepbecauseshekepthopi ng
hewouldwakeupany timenowbutnot hing.Ihadjustgottothehospi t
al.

Me:
sti
l
lnochange

Yay
a:nope

Me:
Ibr
oughty
ouf
ood

Sheshookhead

Her
:I'
m nothungr
y

Me:
honeyy
ouhav
etoeat
.Youneedy
ourst
rengt
h

Sheshookherhead.

Me:
Yay
alookatmebaby

Shetur
nedtolookatmeandIcuppedherf ace,shehadlostal
i
ttl
eweighti
nthisshor
tper
iodof
ti
me.Todaywasherbi r
thdaybuti
tdidn'
tfeell
ikeitatal
l
.Shehadbagsunderhereyesandthey
werepuff
y.Iunder
standherpain,
takeitf
rom someonewho' sl
ostadozenlov
edones.

Me:Iknowy ouhurt
ing.Iknowthepainyougoingthrough,I'
m hi
smot hersoIknow.Youcan't
puni
shyoursel
fli
kethishoney,
y ouhavetoeat
, youofallpeopl
eknowy ourboyfri
endandhow
muchhewoul dbit
eourheadsof fforal
l
owingy outonoteatorrestandt odayi
syourbir
thday,
thedayyouandhimf ir
stmet.Meloisgoingt
owakeupal lweneedtodoi sbestr
ongforhim
Her
:wedi
dn'
thav
eenought
imeMah.Wespenthal
fthi
syearapar
torf
ight
ing.Ist
il
lneedhi
m

Me:
Iknowbaby
.Iknow.Par
tofy
ouneedi
nghi
m shoul
dincl
udey
oueat
ingandr
est
ing

Her
:Ineedt
ofeel
thi
s.Iknowhewasj
ustasmi
ser
abl
ewhenIwasmi
ssi
ng

Me:Yayayouneedt
orest.Yourmot
heriswor
ri
edabouty
ouandev
ery
oneel
se.Justt
hisone
dayandift
her
eisanychangeyouwil
lbethef
ir
stt
oknow

Her
:whati
fhewakesupandI
'
m nother
e?

Me:
Iwi
l
lcal
lyou.NowAsemahl
eisonherwayher
eandshewi
l
ldr
ivey
ouhomeok

Shenodded.Ihuggedherandki
ssedthetopofherhead.It
'sbeaut
ifulhowmuchshel oveshim.
I
tscaresmet houbutI
'm gl
admysonf oundsomeoneli
kehert osharehisli
fewit
handt olove
hi
mt hismuchandhissurnamehadnot hi
ngtodowit
hit.Shewassobr okenandsohurt.I
hat
edseeingherli
kethi
s,Meloneededtowakeupbeforethischi
lddies.Asemahlewalkedin.

Her
:hey

Wet
urnedt
oher

Me:
heybaby
.

Her
:anychange?

Me:
sadl
yno.

Shewentt
ost
andont
heot
hersi
deoft
hebedandt
ookhi
shandi
ntoher
s.

Her
:twi
ny ougot
tawakeupal
ready.Imi
ssyou.Ihavesomuchtot
ell
youf
uck!Sor
rymom.
Any
wayy ouowemebigti
mebr ot
her.Bi
gti
me.Iloveyouokay
?!

Shesaidkissinghisfor
eheadandthenwalkedovertooursideandtookYaya'shandandwalked
outwithherleavi
ngmewi thasmile.Myki
dsandt helovetheyhaveforeachother
.Il
ovethat
theybestfr
iends.IsatwhereYay
awassi t
tingandtookhiscoldhandint
omi ne.

Me: ohbabyt het hi

ngsy ouputmet hr ough.Thet hi
ngsy ou'veputthatsweetsweetchi ld
through.Youowei ttohertowakeup.Youowei ttohert owakeupwi thy ourmemor yintact.I
thoughtIknewl ov euntil
Isawt hethingsy out woar ewi ll
i
ngt osacrifi
cef ortheother.I'vebeen
mar riedfor20y earsandl ovelikethisi snonel i
keIhav eseennoexper ienced..
.don'ttellyour
fatherIsai dthat .It
'ssofunnyhowy ourfatherandIf oundoutabouty ouandy ourtwin.Wewer e
i
nPar isIthink,wewentt oapal mreadersl ashcar dreaderandshet oldust hatIwaspr egnant,
yourf atherhav i
ngbeent heonewi t
ht heairsicknessandst uffandt hemoodswi ngsdi dn'tbuy
i
t..
.i twasmyf i
rsttimeev enhear i
nghi m speakFr ench.Iwasexci t
edandscar ed,excitedthatI
wascar ryi
ngt winsbutscar edt hatwhenIhadt heloopi nsert
edy earsbackIwast oldt hatIhad
ashor twombandt hatcoul
dl eadtoaf ewmi norpr obl
emswhenpr egnant .Iwasscar edof
givingbi r
thpr et
er m.Aspai nfulasitwas, youguy smadei tal
lwor t
hi t
.Youmademehappy ,you
mademest ronger,yout houghtmehowt olov e,y
ougav emer easontofightf
ormyl i
feandfor
youguy sinmyneardeat hexperience.Ir ememberwhenYanawentof ftherai
lsaft
ershefound
outaboutherr ealmot her,youwer etheonewhohel pedmet hr
oughitSphenandIknewt hen
andtherethatthewomany oufallinlovewi t
hwoul dbethelucki
estbutli
ttl
edidIknowthatyou
wouldbet heluckiestto.Irememberwheny ouf ir
sttoldmeabouther ,y
ouhadt hi
ssmi l
eI
hadn'tseeninav erylongt i
me, thisener gy,youwer ehappyandf orev
erinagoodmoodand
whenshel eftforhomei twaslikeshel eftwiththatpartofyou.Youarekeepingthatpar
tofher
wit
hy ouwher everyouar e,she'snothappyatal l
.She'shurt
ingsobadandonl yyoucanmake
herfeelbett
er.Justopeny ourey es,that'sal
l Iaskofy ou

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Ase

Knowi ngt hef utur eMr sBess. .

.y esIhav ehopet hatmybr otherwi llwakeupandaskheragai n
tomar ryhim andt hent heywi l
l l
ivehappi lyev eraf ter.Any wayknowi ngYandi swashewasn' t
goingt owantt ogoout .
..soIt ookhert oherpl acewher eIhadev eryt
hing.Ofcausei twasn' t
goingt obet hesamewi t
houtMel obutI '
m hopi ngshecant akeonedayof ffr
om st ressingand
cryingandwor ryi
ngaboutmybr ot herwhom Iknowv er ywel lisgoi ngtowakeup!Thewhol e
wayt oherpl aceshewasqui etandnotsay ingany thing.Ist oppedi nfrontoft hehouseandwe
bot hgotof fandheadedi nside, nor mall
yshewoul dhav easkedi fIhadf orgot t
ensomet hi
ng
her eorwhat everbutnoti nthest ateshei sin.I '
mr eallywor riedabouther .Soaf ewday sago
Mel oandIwer et alkingandhehadt hi
sidea, asur prisedi nnerf orYay aev enifit'
satherpl ace,
butf ir
sthewasgoi ngt otakeheroutandpamperheral ldayandt henlat eraf ewofhercl ose
fr
iendsgat herar oundandhav eani cebirthdaydi nner .Seeingt hathewasnother etoseehi s
plant hroughIt ooki tuponmy selfanddi dev ery t
hingwi ththehel pofourf riends.Mel ohad
alreadyboughtheragi f
tandhehadmekeepi tthemi nutehel andedher ei nSA.Soy esterday
whi leIwasgoi ngt hroughmydr awerl ookingf orlor dknowswhatIf oundal etteraddr essedto
Yay a,ast empt edasIwast oopeni tIdidn'tandIf igur edi'l
lgi v
ei ttohert omor rowi nstead
whi chwast odayonherbi r
thday .I '
vebeendebat ingwi thmy selft ogiveitt oheraf terorbef ore
becausehonest lyt helastthingIwanti st oseeheri nt earsagai n.Icanonl yimagi newhathe
wr oteinit.Wewenti nsi
deandIl edherout sidet ot hepat iowher eclosef r i
endsandf ami l
ywer e
gat heredar ound.

Me:
Idon'
tknowhowy
oudot
hingsf
rom wher
eyouf
rom butf
rom wher
eI'
mfr
om bi
rt
hday
sar
e
athingt
hataremeanttobecel ebrat
edy
earl
y!Andno,younotgoingbackinsi
detol
ockyoursel
f
i
ny ourr
oom becausejustthi
sonceIwantyoutotakeabreakfr
om every
thingandj
ustenj
oy
oneday,onedaywithoutthecryi
ngandthest
ressi
ngandthenoteati
ngok?Justforafew
hours

Isai
dwhi
sper
ingi
nherearf
rom behi
ndher
.

Her
:Il
ookl
i
keamess

Me:
nobodyher
emi
nds.

Her
:nopi
ctur
es!

Il
aughedather .Idoubtshehear dher self
,what'
sabi r
thdaywithoutpict
ures.Isawasmi le
creepin,i
twasn' twidebuti twasast art.Ipul
l
edherhandt othecr owdandpeopl ewishedher
happybirthdayandsomegav eherspeechesandj ust.
..i
twasamazi ng.Shewasnowl aughing
anddancingandal i
tt
lehigh..
.ki
ndofbackedaf ewspacemuf finsinhonorofher..
.Hermom
wasar oundandIt hi
nksheat eaf ewt oo.What'sastoner'
spartywi t
houtweedhuh? ??AnywayI
washappyt oseehersmi l
ingandl aughingandjustcarefr
eeandnotwor r
yinghersel
f.
Champagnegl assesst ar
tedgoingar oundandIcl i
ckedmygl assandst oodbyt hepat
ioasking
everyonetogat heraround.

Me:thanky ouall.Thanky ouall

forcoming,thankyouallf
orbeingher
e...ohshootIj
ustsai
dthe
samet hing.Uhhm any wayI'
m notmuchofaspeechper sonwhichiswhyIwon'tgiveanybut
ther
ear eaf ewpeoplewhowoul dli
ketosayawor dort
wo...Imeanli
terall
yawordortwo,thi
s
i
snotagr aduati
onpar tyora21'sorevenaf uner
al,y
ourspeechshouldn'tt
akeawholehour
now.Any wayy ouguy sarefreetogi
vey ourspeechesnow.

Ever
yonel
aughedasImademywayt
ost
andnextt
oher
,shel
ookedherf
inger
sint
omi
neand
l
ookedatmethensmil
ed

Her
:thanky
ouf
ort
his

Me:
pleasur
e

Wewerewhi
sper
ing.Hermot
hersai
daf
ewt
hingsandt
hencamet
ohugandt
hencameAsh
herr
oommat
e.

Ash:Iknowweonl ymett hisyearbutIal

readyconsidery ouasmybestfri
end.Melodysai
dto
keepitshortsoi'l
ltr
yt odoast ol
d.Myf r
iendthisyearhasbeenabl i
ss,
I'v
enevermeta19y ear
oldsof ul
lofli
feli
key ou,youareli
ter
all
yabr eathoffreshairandyouar
eal l
thi
ngsgood.You
bri
nglighteverywherey ougo,you'
vemadeanamef ory our
selfi
nthi
scruelwor
ldandIforone
am proudtocall y
oumyf ri
end.Happybirthdayhoney.

Shewal
kedov
ert
oYay
aandt
heyshar
edahugandt
henNal
edi
wal
kedup.

Her:myfr
iendyouknowexactl
ywhatIwanttosaytoyoubutbecausether
earesomeold
peopl
einhereandababy,Iwon'
tsayhal
fthethi
ngsIwanttosay.Happybir
thdaymybest
f
ri
endsi
ncef
orev
erandmayGodbl
essy
ouabundant
ly!

Shegotof
fandhuggedherandthenafewspeechesfol
l
owed,
somemakingherl
aughand
somemakinghercr
ybutinanutshel
lshewashappy.Shewal
kedov
ert
ot hepat
io.

Her:guysIdon'tknowwhatt osay.Thi
s,thisi
sbeaut if
ul.AsemahleIknowy ouresponsi
blef
or
al
lthissothanky ouandalsotoyouguysf orplayi
ngahandi ni
t.Ireal
lywasn'
texpecti
ngthi
s.
WhenIl ef
tthathospit
alIthoughtIwasgoingst r
aighttobedonlyt ocomehomet othi
sandI
won'tli
ethejoyIfeelr
ightnowov er
shadowsanypai nI'
vebeenf eel
inginsi
debecauseIfi
nd
comfortinknowingthatheisherewithmecel ebrati
ngt hi
smomentwi thme.Guysthankyouso
muchf oral
lofthis.

Shewal
keddownandIhuggedhert
ight
ly.

Me:
youok?

Her
:yes.Thanky
ou.
..wheni
sev
ery
onel
eav
ing?

Ichuckl
ed

Me:
at2pm.Don'
twor
ryt
heyknowt
hedr
il
l.Youar
eher
etogetsomer
estandt
hengobackt
o
t
hehospi
tal
ok?

Shel
aughedandthankedmet henwebrokethehugandIl
etherbehappywit
hevery
oneel
sel
.
By2pm ever
yoneel
sewhodi dn'
tleav
eherehadlef
tandMissyhadmanagedtoeat
.Shewasi
n
herr
oom now.Iwenttoknock.

Her
:comei
n

Shewasi
nsi
deherbl
anket
s.

Me:
Ihav
eonel
astt
hingf
ory
ou.If
oundi
tity
est
erdayi
nmydr
awer

Isai
dgi
vi
ngi
ttoherandshet
ooki
t

Her
:thanky
ou

Me:
pleasur
e.

Iki
ssedherf
oreheadandwal
kedoutofherr
oom t
ohel
pcl
eanup.

-
Yay
a

"
Maf
aku

Your
eadi
ngt
hismeansI
'
vedonesomet
hingst
upi
dwhi
chwi
l
lmakey
ouei
therr
esentmeorl
ove
me. .
.Ichoosethesecondonebecauset henIknowwhatt ofightfor.Iknowt hatyouprobably
fi
gureditoutalreadywhyIdi dwhatIdi dbutifnother e'sthedeal.Itismyf aultyouwereinthe
messy ouwer einwhi chmeansi t'
supt omet ofixitallandmakesur ethatyouar esafeand
ali
ve.Iwasnev ergoingtomov etoSwazi l
andandl eav eyouher e,Idon'tknowhowt odescri
beit
buttheloveIhav eforyoucomescl oset oalit
tl
eobsessi on.Andev eni fIhadmov edIwas
goingtobemi serableandIwasnev ergoingtoleavey oual onesot hebestopt ionIhaswast o
getridoftheproblem.Mi randawasnev ergoingtol ety ougo, Idon'
tknowherbutIknowpeopl e
l
ikeherandpeopl elikethatdon'tj
ustletyouwalkf ree,theyhaunty ouf oraslongast heyli
ve
becausey ouholdthekeyt oadoorev ent heycouldnev eropen.

Maf akuyou'v
echangedmef orthebet t
erandt hesemonthswi thyouhavebeenabl i
ss,
a
blessingandthel i
tt
ledayswit
houty oumademer eal
isethatIcan'
tdothi
swhol e"l
if
e"t
hing
withoutyouini t
.I'
vehadatasteoflifewithoutyouandt r
ustmei tsucksandIneverwanttogo
throughitagain.Idon'
tknowwhet herI'
m deadorst uckinacomaasy oureadthisbutj
ustknow
thatit'
snotagoodby enotenorisitasui ci
denot e.Myangel Il
oveyousosomuchandpl ease
takecareofy oursel
fforme.

EATYANDI SWAGXABA!Iknowy ouok,youlovefood.Iexpectt

ocomebacktomybeautiful
wel
lshapedgirl
fr
iendandnotasacofboneswithnothingtoholdonto.Andi
fIf
indoutt
hatyou
werepuni
shingyoursel
fpl
easeknowthatIwil
ldealwit
hy oupersonal
l
yandtr
ustmeyoudon't
wantthat
.

You'r
eabeauti
ful
girl
andahappyone,t
hat'
stheper
sonIexpectt
oseef
ir
stt
hingwhenIwake
up.Ireal
l
yhopeI'
m notdeadandj
ustst
uckinacoma.

Ohandhappybi rt
hday,incaseIcan'twi shy
ouonemy self
.WorseIhadt hisbeautifulmagical
dayplannedoutforusandIj ustknowy ouweregoingtoenjoyev er
ymi nut
eofi titokandI
expecttoseelot
sandl otsofpi ct
urestomakeupf orthelitt
let
imey ouandIl ost.Enjoyyour
bir
thdaumybeaut i
fuli
nstantbonergi vergi
rl
fr
iendandf ut
urewife.Bythewaywi l
l youmarryme?
Iwon'tstopaski
ngy ouuntilIgetay es.

Xoxoy
ouhandsomesexydr
ippi
ngsauceboy
fri
endDMB"

Histi
nygiftboxwassitt
ingonthepedest
al,
I'
vebeencontemplat
ingopeni
ngit.Iwipedmytear
s
andtooktheboxandopenedi t
.Itwasahousekeywi t
hanote"putthi
skeyinev er
yholei
nmy
fl
atunti
lyoufindwhatyouaresupposedtobelooki
ngfor"
.Ir
ereadthenot
e5t imesandstil
l
di
dn'tgeti
t.Igotoutofthecov
ersandwentdownstair
s,Asemahlewassti
llhere.

Me:
Asear
eyoubusy
?

Her
:nowhy
?

Me:
canwedr
ivet
oMel
o'
sfl
at

Mom:
isev
ery
thi
ngok?

Me:
yesmom ev
ery
thi
ngi
sfi
ne
Mom:
okgood.

Ase:
readywheny
ouar
e.

Wewal kedoutt ohercaranddr oveof ftoMel o'

sapartmentandpar kedt hecarinfr
ontofhi s
garage.Wegotof fandIopenedt hedoorandst artedlooki
ngf orpl
aceswher eIcouldputt he
keyin,itl
ookedlikeasaf etyboxkey .Asemahl ewasl aughingatmet ryi
ngt ofi
gureoutwher eit
couldpossiblebe.Iwal kedt ohi
sroom andt her
ehungapi ct
ureofus,blackandwhi te,bodyto
body.Itwasn'tdi
st urbingact ual
ly
,itwasav erysexypictur
ewi thhi
sCalv inKl
einboxers
showing.Itwasapi ctureIt ooki
nt hemi rr
orwher eIwasst andingi
nf r
ontofhim andhehadhi s
backfacingthemi r
ror.Itwasbeaut i
fulanditsatabov ethebed.Iremov editandjackpot!I
openedwi ththekeyandi topened.Ithenopenedt hesaf eboxandt herewasanot herbox,just
biggerthanthefirstone

Her
:fi
nal
l
y!Openi
t!

Me:
fine!

Wesatont
hebedandwer
ewel
comedbyhi
sgar
agekeyandar
emot
e,i
twasBl
ack.

Ase:
noway
!

Me:
what
?

Her
:yousosl
ow!Let
'sgo!

Wewal kedt
ohi sgarageandIopenedi
t.Bef
oremest oodaredmi ni
cooper.It
ookoutthe
remoteandturneditaroundandi
thadtheminicopperl
ogobehind.Howstupidandsl
owofme.
Asemahlescreamedst art
li
ngme.Thi
sistoomuchev enforhi
m.Whatam Igoi ngt
odowi t
ha
car?
??

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NCOMESLOVE*

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ete)

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Yay
a

Idi
dn'tknowwhet
hert
obeexci
tedorf
eelsometypeofway.It
oldMel
oIwasokwi t
houtacar
andthenhegoesonanddoest
heopposi
te.Thi
sguykeepsdoi
ngtheopposi
teoft
hethi
ngsI
tel
lhim.Jesuswhatam Igoi
ngt
odowi
tht
hisguy
..
.he'
sluckyhe'
sinacomaot
her
wisehewas
goingtoret
urni
tshame!

Her
:youdon'
tl
ikei
t?

Me:
it'
sbeaut
if
ul

Her
:but
???

Me:
Itol
dhi
m nott
odot
his.Ij
ust
..
.Iwant
edmyf
ir
stcart
obeboughtbymewi
thmyf
ir
stsal
ary

Shel
ookedatmeandl
aughedhy
ster
ical
l
y.Il
ookedatherconf
usedAF.Whatwasf
unny
?

Her:
youneedtogetonwit
hthepr
ogram.Whenyoudat
et her
ichestel
i
gibl
ebachel
ori
nDur
ban
yougot
tagetusedt
oexpensi
vegi
ft
s.Youreal
l
yhavealottol
earnshame!

Shegrabbedthekeyfr
om myhandandunl ockedthecarandthengotint hedr
iversseatandleft
mestandingther
e.Mom won'tli
kethi
sone..
.Iwentinthepassengersatdown.Wow!Ev enina
comahe'ssti
lll
ooki
ngoutforme.Itwassopr ett
ytheseat
shadmyi ni
ti
alsembeddedont hem
ontheheadrestandtheseat
,ithadbl
ackleatherwri
tt
eninred.Ij
ustlookedatit.

Ase:
saysomet
hing

Shehadherphonepoi
nti
ngatme

Me:
hahahat
owho?Mel
o?He'
sluckyhe'
sinacoma!

Her
:st
opbei
ngdr
amat
ic.Scr
eam andshoutandj
umpupanddown.Youhav
eacar
!!
!

Shewast
aki
ngav
ideo.

Me:
it'
sbeaut
if
ul.Iact
ual
l
ylov
eit

Ase:
wehav
eacar
!!
!Fi
nal
l
y!Nomor
edr
ivi
ngy
ouar
ound.ThankGod

Icouldn'
thel
pbutlaughatjobdr amati
cshesounded.Asifshe'
sal
way
sdri
vi
ngmear ound,
I'
ve
neverhadanyproblemstakingat axit
oanywhere.Onaseri
ousnot
eIwasgr
atef
ulf
ormynew
baby.Ithi
nki
'l
lcal
lhertwinkle.Myv er
yownli
ttl
etwinkl
e.

Her
:let
stakei
tforaspi
n

Me:
youreal
lyareyourbr
other
'st
win!Yousur
eyouguy
sdon'
thav
esomemagi
cpower
ranger
mor
phi
neinsyncshii
tgoi
ngon

Shepunchedmepl
ayf
ull
y

Her
:thankGodwedon't.GodIcan'
tev
enbegi
ntoi
magi
net
het
hingsmybr
othert
hinksof
.I
woul
dbet r
aumsfordecades!
!!

Il
aughed.Thet
hingst
hatgooni
nthatbr
ainofhi
sar
eact
ual
l
ynotwhatpeopl
ewoul
dexpect
.
Somet imewej ustsi tandl istent owhatt heot herwast hinkingandsomear ehil
ar i
ousandsome
arev eryseriousandl eavemewor ried.Hewoul dseatandt ell
meabouthi srelationshi
pwi t
hhi s
grandf ather,
Dani elHlathi.Abusi nessmogul andbusi nessGodofhi st
ime.Whenhewasi nhigh
school t
heyoncet alkedaboutt heki ndofgi r
l hewant edtoset t
ledownwi thandMel o'
s
responsewas; "Ihav en'tmethery etbutwhenIdoy ouwi ll
bet hefi
rstt
oknow" ,sadlyhedidn'
t
l
ivelongenought oknowbuthet ol dmet hatwhenhef ir
stmetmehespoket ohim aboutme
andt oldhi m aboutt hisfeistyst onerchi ck.Mel ofel
lformebef oreIfel
lforhim.Honest lyIdon't
buyt hathespoket ohisgr andf atheraboutme, Imeanwegat edeachothersgut s!Healsowent
ont ot ellmet hatwhenIhadani nt ervi
ewf ormyv eryfi
rstj
obwi ththeMbira'shehadpr ayedf or
met hatIgeti t.ThewayIl aughedathi m, IstoppedwhenIsawhowser i
oushewasaboutt he
whol epr ayi
ngf ormet hing.Li kef uckhewasn' tjoki
ng.I'
vehadsomeoft hebestmoment sof
myl i
f ewi t
ht hisguy !

Me:
you'
dbesur
pri
sed.

Isaidsmi l
i
ngt omy self.Aft
erZukoIt houghtIwasdonewi thmen, IwassureIwasdonewi t
h
menandbel i
ev edthatIwasunl uckyandev eryguywasl i
kehi m becausemyf riendshadplanted
theideaofallmenar ethesamei ntomyheadandhav i
ngmyki ndofamot herdidn'
tmake
thi
ngsanyeasi er.Mom hasi nsti
ll
editinmet onev ergi
v eamanpowerov erme, toneverall
ow
my selff
allvi
ctimt oman' sl
iesandt oal way sshowmyi ndependencet oamanandshowhi m
thatthereisl
iterall
ynot hingIcannotdof ormy selfandnowt hatIl ookatmylif
eshewasn' t
wrongbutt here'swr ongwi thallowingy ourselftof al
lvi
ct i
mt oaman' sword.Imeant hat'
show
yougr owbecauset heny oulear ntotellthedifferencebet weenamanandaboy ,aboybeing
someonewhoi sonl ytheretowast ey ourtimeandmov eont othenextwhi leamanknowshow
totreatyouandcar et oyourev eryneed, notjustf i
nanciall
ybutal soemot i
onall
yandspi r
it
uall
y.
Andt hat'
sMel otome, aman.He' slearningandI '
m wi l
l
ingt olearnwi thhi
m, l
earntobether i
ght
woman.Wegott oGat ewayandpar kedi nthepar kinglot,ifnotev enknowwhywewer ehere
shame.Shegotof fandsodi di.

Her
:wai
tist
hatLat
hit
ha?

Il
ookedwher eshewasl ookingandi ndeedi twas, shewaswalkingoutoft heel evatorfoll
owed
bymyf ather.I
ttookmeami nutetodi gestwhatmyey eswhereseeing.TheguyandIhav en'
t
spokensincet hatt
imeIwasbackf orawhi l
e.Theywer el
aughingandt heyseemedhappywi th
afewshoppi ngbags.Past orwasaBl esser .
..notjustinchur
chbutal soout sidechurch...who
wouldhav ethought???hi ddaught erisstil
lst uckinacomaandhi swi f
er ef
usest oleaveher
si
def orasecond.Il i
terall
yzonedoutwat chingt hem astheymadet heirwayt owardsus, t
hey
coul
dn'tevenseemet hewayt heywer ehappy .Whent heywerecloseIwal kedupt othem and
sl
appedt hesper m donorr i
ghtacrosshi sf aceshocki ngbothhim andhi sblessee.Hel ookedat
meindi sbel
iefandsodi dAsemahl e.Iwasangr ythathewasbusygal l
ivantingwhilehis
daughterisstuckbetweenl i
vinganddy i
ng.

.
-
Lat
hit
ha

Yandiswawasback?Si ncewhen?You' dt hi
nkt heypostitonFacebookt hatt
heyf oundandt hat
wecoul dst oplooki
ng.Ar ghitwaspr obabl yaTVscandal togainmor elikesandfollowers.Who
knows?Atl eastmybr othercanfinall
yst opl ooki ngandturnhisatt
entiont ome.Idon' tevenget
whyt heyalway schooseher .There'sli
terall
ynot hingspeci
alabouther .IsawSi y
af i
rstandshe
wentaf terhim andthencameMel o,atleastwi thherfat
hershewon' tev entr
y.Honest lywhen
heandIf i
rstmetIdidn'tknowhewasherf at herandwhenIf oundoutIhadal readyf al
lenfor
him hard.Thomast ri
edt otalkMeoutofi tandsodi dmyf r
iendsbutit'
snoteasyt ounlove
someone.He' spromisedt oleav
ehi swi fe,thedi v or
cepapershadalreadybeendr aft
ed.

Hi
m:ar
eyoucr
azy
!

Yay
alookedatmef
rom headt
otoeandbackupwi
thnot
hingbutdi
sgust

Ase:
whatt
hehel
li
sgoi
ngonher
e?

Yaya:
meetmy" fat
her"andhissi
dechick.DoesSi
noknowthaty
oubusyblowi
ngmoneyon
somepieceofasswhoopensf orthef
irstguyt
oshowherwhatseemsl
ikelov
eorki
ndnessor
car
e?Whatdidhepr omiseyouhuh?Thathewasgoingtol
eaveherf
oryou?Mh..
.

Iwashurtbywhatshesaidaboutme.I
'm notasl
ut.Growingupguysneverlookedinmy
di
rect
ion,t
herewasnot
hingwrongwithmeorsoIt houghtbutIwasneverlucky.Al
ltheguy
sI
hadeverbeenwit
hhaveonlyeverwantedtobangneandt hat
'si
t.Soshootmef orfi
nall
y
meeti
ngsomeonewhol ovesmeasIam.

"
Yay
a"

Weallt
urnedanditwasThomas.Gr
eat
!Myper
fectadopt
edbi
gbr
othert
other
escue.Imean
t
hatsar
casti
cal
ly.

Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

T:
youknowt
hisguy
?

Me:
yeshe'
smybr
other
..
.notbychoi
ce.

Mar
s:sot
hisi
syourguyhuh?

Me:
youonet
otal
kMrBl
esser

Helookedatmeandt henbackataYandi
swawhowasal r
eadywal
ki
ngtowardsaredmi ni
copper.Itl
ookednew.Per
ksofdati
ngaBessIguess.Thomasranaft
erherandcaughtup.Ar
gh
mybr otherandthi
sgi
rl
,nowonderwedon'
tgetal
ong.

T:
let
sjustgo!I
'
mtaki
ngy
out
oyourpl
ace

Me:
butbabewest
..
.
Hi
m:i
'
m notaski
ngy
ouLat
hit
haI
'
mtel
l
ingy
ou!

Ijustrol
l
edmyey esandwewalkedt
owardshiscar.YayaandThomasl ookedl
iketheywer
e
arguingorsomet hi
ngwhil
eAsemahl
esatont hepassengerseatpressi
ngherphone.Wegotto
thecarandputt hethi
ngsint
hebootandthenIwenttositinfr
ont.Iheardthecardoors
l
ocking..
..okayandthen?
??

-
Yay
a

SeewhyIsaidhewast hosesnakeanddoom past

or'
s?Youseehisacti
onsandthethi
ngshis
doing?AndthenSundayhestandsinfr
ontofacongregat
ionandpr
eachabouthowadult
eryi
sa
si
nandal l
thatot
herhypocri
sy.Iwasaboutt
ogetitwhenThomasblockedthedoorwi
thhis
hand.You'
vegottobekiddi
ngme! !
!

Hi
m:noheadsup?Not
ext
?Nonot
hingYandi
swa?

Me:
excuseme?

Him:yougomi ssi
ngandt
henyoudon'
tevenbothert
ell
i
ngus,metobeexactt
hatyou'
vebeen
foundali
veandnotsowel
lbyt
helooksofthi
ngs.Yayahav
eyouanyideahowworr
iedIwas
aboutyou

Il
ookedathi
m witharai
sedeyebr
ow.Hasheanyi
deahowmuchIdon'
tcar
e?Am Isupposedt
o
bephasedbyal
lthisorwhat
?

Me:
Thomasmov
eyourhandIhav
ebet
tert
hingst
owor
ryabout
.

Het
ookmyhandsi
ntohi
sandIpul
l
edt
hem awayandf
oldedmyar
msi
nfr
ontofmychest
.

Hi
m:YayaIwon'
tgiveuponyou.Iwon'tgi
veuponus.Thatni
ghtwasnotami
stakeatal
l
.It
wasf
ateYandi
swa.Ifl
ewacr
osst hecountr
yfory
ou

Me:
Idi
dn'
tasky
out
o.Thomasj
ustmov
esoIcango!

Hi
m:whywon'ty
ougiv
emeachance?Thatboy
fri
endofy
our
swon'
tbewaki
ngupany
timesoon.
Hedoesn'
tev
enhav
etoknow

Il
ookedathi
mf ort
helongest
.Hedi
dn'
tsoundridi
cul
ous,
hesoundeddement
ed.Di
dhehear
hi
mself
?Iwouldnever
!AndImeanneverdothattomyboyfr
iend!

"
Yandi
swa"

Screamedanangryvoi
cebehi
ndme.Thi
sdayjustkeepsget
ti
ngbet
ter
.Whyar
eal
lthese
peoplet
ryi
ngt
heirbestt
ofuckmymoodup???
Mar
s:don'
tyoudar
eyel
lather
!

Il
ookedathi
m wi
thar
aisedey
ebr
ow.Andt
heni
drama?

Dad:
Iwi
l
ltal
ktomydaught
erany
how.Whot
hehel
lar
eyouany
way
?

Mars:defi
nit
elynotamar
ri
edmancheat
ingonhi
swi
fewi
thachi
l
dyoungenought
obehi
s
daughtert
hat'
sforsur
e!

Me:
cany
out
wof
igur
ewhat
everi
tist
ofi
gur
eoutel
sewher
e!Ineedt
ogo.

Dad:
youhav
eacar
?

Me:
ify
ouwer
en'
tsobusyt
ryi
ngt
opl
aysugardaddywi
thmyexf
ri
end,
youwoul
dknow!

Hi
m:heboughti
tfory
ouhuh?Wher
eishe?Si
ncewhendoy
ouacceptcar
sfr
om men?

Il
ookedathi
m andl
aughedhy
ster
ical
l
y.Washeki
ddi
ngme?

Hi
m:r
etur
nitt
ohi
mimmedi
atel
y.I
fyouwant
edacary
oucoul
dhav
ejustaskedf
orone

Me: i
t'
sali
tt
letolatetotryandplay"daddy"dearestdon'
tyout
hink.Youdon'tev
enknowmef or
youtosaywhaty oujustsaid!Ibetyoudi
dn'tevenknowIwasmi ssingfortwowholedaysand
thatmyboyfri
endisnowst uckinacomaal lbecausehetr
iedt
osav eme.Don'ttr
ylect
ureme
aboutmyrelat
ionshipwhenIdon' tmeddleinyours.Ohandbythewayt odayismybirt
hday.
Nowbot hofyouMOVE!

Bynowt earswerealr
eadythreat
eni
ng.Iwassomad.Whodi dhethinkhewas?Idon'thavea
fat
her.Ineverhadone.Onlymyunclegetstoplaythatr
oleandheisexcel
li
ngi
nit.Iopenedmy
doorandt hengoti
nbangingthedoor.Ihi
tthesteeri
ngwheeli
nfrustr
ati
on.

Ase:don'tl
ett
hem gett
oyou!I
t'
syourbi
rt
hdayandyouhav
eanamazi
ngcarandy
ouwer
e
happy.Letsgovi
sitmybot
her,
maybeseeinghi
snowuglyf
acewi
l
lcheery
ouup

Ichuckl
ed.Asemahl
edoesn'
tdeser
vet
obe21.Sheal
way
shassomet
hingt
ojokeabout
.

Her
:ther
eshei
s.

It
urnedont
heengi
neanddr
oveof
f

Me:
Mel
owi
l
lnev
erbeugl
y!

Shej
ustl
aughedatme

Her
:fucky
ousowhi
ppedbr
uh!Thi
slov
eyouhav
eforhi
m hasmadey
oubl
i
nd

Ij
ustl
aughedather
.Thi
sgi
rlknewhowt
ocheermeup.

Me:
scr
ewy
ou!Whenl
astdi
dyouev
enseey
ourboy
fri
end?Mhhh
Her
:todayandy
est
erdayandt
hedaybef
oreandev
ery
dayoft
heweek

Il
aughedathowshesai
dit
.

Me:
hemakesy
ouhappy
?

Her:
mor
ethany
ouknow.Thewayhet
reat
smei
sjustt
oogoodt
obet
rue.Feel
sli
kea90'
slov
e
song

Me:
whi
chi
snotabadt
hingt
hou

Her
:Iknow.If
eel
li
kehe'
spr
essur
ingmet
hou

Me:
int
owhat
?

Her:nonoti
ntosex,butIdon'tknow.
..he'
ssoi nl
ovewithmeitscaresmethatI
'
m notl
ovi
ng
hi
m enoughorthewayIshoul dlovehim.IjustIdon'
tknowYayait'
sscar
yforme.Thi
sis
l
it
erall
ymyfi
rstreal
relat
ionshipandIdon'twanttoscrewitup.Youknow?

Me:t
hat'
showIf eel
aboutyourbrot
hereveryday
.It
'sok,i
t'
snormalhoney
.Whenamanlov
es,
her
eall
ylovesandhelovesdeepl
yandtrulyandmeaningful
.Youj
usthavetoal
l
owyour
sel
fand
embr
acet hemoment.Andjustal
l
owy oursel
ftobehappy

Her
:IseewhyDer
ri
ckl
ovesy
ouandal
l
owsy
out
ocal
lhi
m Mel
okuhl
e.

Ifoundmysel
flaughi
ngatt
het
houghtofMi
randawhowasmadatmebecauseMel
olet
'sme
callhi
m Mel
okuhle.

Me: funnystoryaboutthisbeingall
owedtocal
lhi
m Mel
okuhlethi
ngright
.Soaf t
ermynearrape
experience,shesit
sopposi t
eallconcer
nedaski
ngmeifhehurtmeorwhat everandIsnapat
herandsay" pl
easejustletmegohomeandIpr omisey
ouIwi l
lnevercal
lorseeMelokuhle
again"sheliter
all
yfi
lter
edev ery
thi
ngelseandsai
dinaver
ylowandsadv oice"helet
'syoucal
l
herMel okuhle.
..
"

Isai
dimi
tat
ingt
hewayshesai
ditandAsemahl
ejustcr
ackedupi
nlaught
er.

Her:
youseewhatImean?Youhavemybrotherbythebal
l
s.Ev
enhi
shi
ghschool
sweet
hear
t
wasn'
tal
l
owedtocall
him whatmom anddadcallhi
m.

Me:shesaidIdi
dn'
tl
ovehi
m orel
sehi
sri
ngwoul
dn'
tbehangi
ngar
oundmyneckbuti
twoul
d
bei
nmyf inger

Her
:thi
sgi
rlseemsl
i
keament
alcase.Poort
hingdepr
essi
ongothergood

Me:Idon'
tblamehert
hou,uMel
ohast hatef
fect.He'
shurtsomanygirl
s,he'
smadesomany
gi
rl
sgomad.Somet i
mesI'
m scaredi
'l
lendupliketherestoft
hem.Youknow, f
ail
edsui
cide
at
tempts,
leavi
ngi
nhisshadow,depr
essedandsubduedt ohim andonl
yhim

Her
:Idon'
tknowabouthi
sexesbutIknowy
ou.You'
venev
ergi
venMel
opowert
hewayt
hese
gir
lshav ewhichmeanst hatyouchallengehimintosomet hi
nghe'snotandt hatalonei
senough
tofascinatehim andkeephi minterested.Evenasachil
d,hewast hekindofki dwhol i
kedto
fi
gurethingsoutandwhenhef inal
l
ydoeshenev erst
ops,hedoesn' tl
etgo.That'syoutohim
now.Hewant st oletyougobuthecan' tal
lowhimsel
fto.He'sscaredtolosey outoanythi
ng.I
feell
ikeroleshav ebeenreversedandy outheonewit
ht heupperhandascompar edtohis
previ
ousr elat
ionships.

Ij
ustnoddedinanti
cipat
ion.Someti
mesi tmayfeell
ikeAsemahleisputti
ngi
nagoodwordf
or
Melobutatthesamet i
meshe' snot
,she'
sjustafri
endwho'sconcernedandl
ovesusbot
hand
doesn'
twanttoseeusbr eakeachother
'sheart
swhichiscuteactual
ly.

<3

[
10/
16,
21:
08]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMESLOVE*

S02E50-Fi
nal
e

-
Yay
a

Wewalkedinhi
sroom andMr
sBesswasj
ustseat
ingt
her
epr
essi
ngherphoneandMrBess
wasst
andingbythewi
ndow.

Us:
hel
l
o

Ama:
youbackear
ly.Di
dyougetanysl
eep?

Ase:
shegotal
lexci
tedov
erMel
o'
sgi
ftandshef
orgot

Dae:
soy
oul
i
ket
hecar
?

Ismi
l
ed

Me:
yesIdo.
..ev
ent
houghIwoul
dhav
epr
efer
redhet
alkedt
omeabouti
tfi
rst

Ama:
youj
ustl
i
kemey
ouknowt
hat
.TheseBessmenandspoi
l
ingt
hei
rwomen

Dae:
youshoul
dbepr
oudofme.It
aughthi
m wel
l

Thesetwower eever
ythi
ng.Theyaretheki
ndofparent
syoucanonlydream ofbecoming
your
selfoneday.Theywerebeauti
ful
andsocarefr
eeandhumbletoo.Theywer ether
eal
defi
nit
ionofcoupl
egoals.
Ama:
OfcauseI
'
m pr
oudNuni
yam

MrBessbl
ushed.I
t'
samazi
ng.Shecal
l
shi
m onet
hingandt
heguyt
urnspi
nk

Ase:
ohmyGody
oubl
ushi
ng!Dad!

Ama:
haywenal
eav
emymanal
one!

Hi
m:t
ell
herBoobi
e.She'
sasi
l
kychi
l
dthi
sone

Ama:
mustbet
hatboy
fri
endofher
s

Ase:
mom!

Dae:
youhav
eaboy
fri
end?Si
ncewhen?

Ama:wheredi
dyout
hinkshedi
sappear
sof
fto?He'
sadoct
or,
aver
yhandsomeonet
oo.
..he'
s
25.heownshi
sownpract
ice

Ase:
mom!

Ama:
younev
ert
oldmenott
oment
ioni
t

Shesai
dshruggi
ng.Ohifonl
yMelowereawake.Hewouldmaket
hisevenmoreint
erest
ing.I
j
ustsatdownandwatchedthem.Theywer
eabeauti
ful
famil
yandtheyal
lgotal
ongperfectl
y.

Ase:
Idi
dn'
tthi
nkIneededt
obutnowIknow!

JustthenIyawalkedinwit
hDami enBess.
..ayt
heseBessmenwer eal
lhunks,f
rom thef
ather
tothebrotherandtotheson.Makesmewonderhowt heor
igi
nal
onelooked.Actual
l
yhe
himselfwasahot t
y,Meloonceshowedmehi spict
ure

I
ya:
hel
l
ofami
l
y

Shesai
dhuggi
ngus.

Dami
en:
Idon'
tbel
i
eveI
'
vehadt
hepl
easur
e

Hesai
dref
err
ingt
ome

Ama:
she'
sababyDae!

Weal
ll
aughed.

Hi
m:i
'
m amar
ri
edman.I
'
m Dami
enBess,
thehotuncl
e.Andy
oumustbet
hef
amousYandi
swa

If
lushed.

Me:
Iwoul
dn'
tsayf
amousbuty
es.I
'
m Yandi
swa

Ama:
enoughf
li
rt
ingwi
tht
heki
dyoumaki
nghershy
Damon:
wher
esy
ourwi
feany
way
?

Dae:
hadt
oat
tendsomel
astmi
nut
eev
entt
hingy
.She'
l
lfl
yint
oni
ght

Ama:
andt
heki
ds?

Dae:t
hosethi
ngsar
en'
tki
ds.Theydat
ingnowandyoucanbar
elykeepup.Zandahar
dlycomes
homewiththi
snewboyf
ri
endofhersandDavi
disamanwhore.I'
m get
ti
nggreyhai
rbyjust
thi
nki
ngaboutit
!

Ase:
he'
ski
dsar
eyourage

Shesai
dtal
ki
ngt
ome.

Damon:wewerej
ustt
alki
ngaboutt
hatt
oo.Asemahl
ehasaboy
fri
end.He'
sadoct
or.He'
s25
andhehashi
sownpracti
se.

Ase:
ser
iousl
ydad!

I
ya:
he'
sagr
eatguydadcomeon

Damon:
youknew?

Me:
shehookedt
hem up

Dae:
doIneedt
oki
cksomebody
'sass?Whendowegett
omeett
hisboy
?

Ase:
never
!Der
ri
ckal
readyt
hreat
enedhim.Idon'
tneedyoutwointerf
eri
ngf
urt
her
.Any
wayst
op
pi
cki
ngonmeandpickonMelanie!She'
sdat
ingaboybelowherleague

I
ya:
andher
eIwast
ryi
ngt
orescuey
ouandy
out
hrowmeundert
hebus

Shesai
drol
l
ingherey
es

Ama:
he'
sbel
owy
ourl
eaguehow?

I
ya:
he'
snotbel
owmyl
eague.HeranMel
oonl
ysayt
hatbecausehe'
sinbet
weenj
obsatt
he
moment
.

Damon:
whatdi
dhest
udyi
nschool
?

I
ya:
doesi
tmat
ter
?

Dae:
ifhe'
sgoi
ngt
odat
emyni
eceandwi
sht
omar
ryhersomedayt
heni
tdoes.

Ase:
heonl
yhasamat
ri
ccer
ti
fi
cat
e

Ther
oom wentdeadsi
l
ent
.

Damon:
youki
ddi
ngmer
ight
?Thi
sissomeki
ndofj
oker
ight
?Iy
ana.
I
ya:
andt
hisi
swhyIhav
en'
tbr
oughthi
mtomeety
ouguy
s!Youcanbesoj
udgement
al

Ama:
okwhati
shedoi
ngatt
hemoment
?

I
ya:
he'
sacashi
eratG-
stari
nPav
a

Dami
en&Damon:
acashi
er?
??

Ama:
wheni
shepl
anni
ngongoi
ngbackt
ouni
ver
sit
y?Imeanhowol
disheany
way
?

I
ya:
he'
s26

Damon:surel
ybynowhewoul
dhaverai
sedenoughmoneyt
ogobackt
oschool
andal
sot
her
e
ar
ebursari
es!Whatt
hehel
lMel
ani
e?

I
ya:
canwehav
ethi
sconv
ersat
ionel
sewher
e?!Howi
sMel
o?

Shesai
dlooki
ngatme.

Me:
sti
l
lthesame

Dae:
youdat
ingacashi
er.
..i
sthi
ssomesi
ckst
agey
ougoi
ngt
hroughorsomet
hing?Idon'
tget
i
t

Ama:
Dami
enandDamonl
eav
emydaught
eral
one.

Damon:
doesheevent
akeyououtorbuyyounicethingsorsomet
hing?Inev
ert
houghtIwoul
d
seet
hedaywher
emydaughterdat
esacashierofall
t hi
ngs!

Ama:
Damon!Youupset
ti
ngher
,dr
opt
his

Dae:
Ilov
eyoudoesn'
tset
tl
ethebi
l
lsorpayf
orpet
rol

Ama:that
'sthethi
ngwi t
hpriv
il
egedpeople,t
heytendt
olookdownonot hers.Notever
yone
growsupinar i
chhomeanddoesn' thavetoworkadayinthei
rli
vesbecausetheyknowthat
somedayt heywil
linher
itt
hei
rparentsri
chesandrunt
hewor l
d!I
fIyanalov
est hi
sguythenwe
shoul
dbesuppor t
ingherandnotthis.

I
ya:
thanky
oumom.

Damon:youofal
lpeopl
eknowhowhardIworkedtobehere.I
thadnot
hingt
odowi
thbei
ng
pr
ivi
l
eged.I
t'
sall
aboutdet
ermi
nat
ionandknowingwhatyouwantinl
if
e

Ama:
youdon'
tknowt
hisboy
'sr
easonsf
ornotgoi
ngt
ovar
sit
yst
rai
ghtaf
termat
ri
c

Damon:Idon'
tev
encar
eabouthi
sreasons.Youdonewi
thhi
m.Iwon'
thav
emydaught
erdat
e
somecashier
.

I
yanast
ormedoutandAmahl
efol
l
owed.Uwoaht
hedr
amai
nthi
sfami
l
y.
Ase:
butdadt
hatwasuncal
l
edf
or.

Dae:pri
ncesswedon'twanttheseboystot
ri
ckyou.Theworl
dknowsyouandyou'
l
lfi
ndthat
theyonl
ydatingyoubecauseofyoursur
nameandnothingel
se.Mysonscor
esgi
rl
susinghi
s
surnameandi tal
waysworksinhisf
avour

Damon:
howt
hehel
ldoy
ougof
rom dat
inganengi
neert
oacashi
er?I
tmakesnosense

Me: l
ovemakesnosenseMrBess.Iseenof ingerenvelopebetweenMeandI yana'
sboyfri
end
real
lybutyouguy st
reatmedi fferent.Idon'
tcomef r
om apr i
vi
legedfamil
ymy sel
fbutI
'm oneof
theluckyones.Notallofusar eluckybyt heway ,someact ual
lyhavetowor kthei
rassoffin
ordertogetint
ouniversi
ty.Yout hinkhe'saft
erI y
a'smoney ,doyouthinkthesameaboutmeor
I'
m safebecausemymot herjusthappenst obeadoct orandy ourwif
e'sf
riend?Because
trut
hfull
yspeakingy
oursoni swayabov emyl eagueandy ouknowt hatbutnotoncedoy ou
shamemef oritsowhyshamehi m?

Damon:
thedif
fer
encebetweenyouandhimist
hatyouinschool
maki
ngendsmeetandmaki
ng
anamefory
oursel
f.Youarewor
kingtowar
dsyourgoal

Me:
whoi
stosayhei
sn'
t?Whati
fwor
kingasacashi
eri
shi
swayofmaki
ngendsmeet
?

Ase:Hel
osthi
sparentswhenhewasdoi nghi smatr
icandtheylef
thimtocareforhi
s2si st
ers
whoarenowdoingthei
rmatri
c.Therestifhispar
entsfamil
yabandonedthem af
tert
heirdeath
andthemoneyheinher
it
edwentintofundingforhi
ssister
seducati
on.Heismakingendsmeet
dadandhedoestakeheroutandbuyherst uff
.Shel
ov eshi
m daddyandhelovesher

MrBessandhisbrotherkeptquiet.IknowIenternowher
ebutIdon'
ttakeki
ndlyt
opeopl
ewho
l
ookdownonot herspeopleallbecausetheyhaveall
themoneyandpowerinthewor
ldwhil
e
t
herestofusdon't
.It
'ssickeni
ng.

-
Iya

Andt hi
sisexactl
ywhyIdon'ttel
lthem t
hings.Theygetallj
udgyandsayi nsensi
ti
vethi
ngsand
actli
kebrats.Yesmyfatherandhisbrot
hercanactlikebrats!Justbecausetheygrewupwith
si
lverspoonsinthei
rmout hdoesn'
tmeanev eryoneelsedi
d.Iheardmom cal laf
terme,she
grabbedmyar m sl
owingmedown.

Her
:babyt
alkt
ome

Me:
no.Youguy
sarej
ust
.GodIdon'tevenknowwhyIwasborni
ntothi
sfami
l
y.Fi
rsti
twas
Mel
oandnowit
'sy
ouguys.Whycan'ty
oujustbehappyt
hatI
'
m happy?

Her
:comeon!
Shepul
l
edmet
othebenchandwesatdown.Wewer
eout
sidet
hehospi
tal
.

Her:l
ookIknowy ourf
atherov
err
eact
edandIwil
ltal
ktohi
m aboutt
hatIpr
omi
se.Butbabyy
ou
needtounderst
andthatweareonlyl
ooki
ngoutf
oryou.

Me:
i'
m 23!Icanl
ookaf
termy
sel
f.Orwhat
?Youscar
edi
'
llt
urnoutl
i
kemymot
her

Okmaybet
hatdidn'
tcomeoutright
.Icouldseehur
twr
it
tenonherf
aceandt
hesadpar
twas
t
hatt
hewordshadalreadyl
eftmymout h.

Me:
MahI
'
m sor
ry,
Idi
dn'
tmeant
hat

Her
:you'
vemadey
ourpoi
ntandf
ort
her
ecor
dthi
sconv
ersat
ionhadnot
hingt
odowi
thAy
a!

Shest
oodupandIhel
dherhand

Me:
mom I
'
m sor
ry.I
'
mjust
..
.I'
m sor
ry

Her
:it
sfi
ne.Doasy
oupl
easeI
yana.

Sheyankedherarm andwalkedoff
.Fuck!Ir
eall
ydidn'
tmeantosaythat
.Dadj
ustmademeso
mad.Idon'tevenknowwherethatcamefrom even.Ij
ustwal
kedoutoft
hehospi
tal
anddr
ove
toPava.Ineedtoseehim.

-
Yay
a

Mr sBesswal kedinandthr
ewher sel
fonthechairandjustsunkin.Iwonderhowt hatwent.We
didn'tsayanythi
ngandjustengagedinli
ghtconversat
ionsaboutnothi
ng.Lateronthedoctor
camet ocheckonMel oandthi
ngswer esti
l
lthesamewi t
hhim soheleft
.Amaandt heBess
brotherslef
twi t
hherandIwasl ef
twithAsemahle.Itwasalr
eadypast8

Her
:I'
m cur
ious

Me:
what
?

Her
:doy
out
hinki
tgoesupev
enwhent
heowneri
sst
ucki
nacoma

Il
ookedatherandcoul
dn'
thel
pbutbutl
augh.Wast
hisgi
rlser
ous?Whot
hinksi
fthat
?

Her
:I'
m onl
yaski
ng..
.it
'snodoubtmybrot
heri
sapervef
oryou.I'
m pr
ett
ysur
eevenifhewoke
upwit
hamemor yloss,he'
dprobabl
yaskt
oseeyourv
aginawit
hhopestorememberyou

Ij
ustl
aughedev
enhar
derandwhatwasmor
efunnywashowser
iousshewas.

Me:
Idoubtit
.Imeanisn'
ti
tconnect
edtothepar
tofthebrai
nthatcont
rol
sinv
olunt
ary
movement
s?Imeanifyoucan'
tmov eanyot
herpar
tofyourbodywhenstuckinacoma,what
ar
etheoddsofahar
don?

Her
:butt
hinkaboutit
,bei
nginacomadoesn'
tmeanyoudeadbecauseyourbr
aini
sst
il
l
f
uncti
oni
ngandy ourcanst
il
lhearev
ery
thi
ng,
who'
stosayyoucan'
tfeel
anythi
ng?

Me:
andwhoi
stosayy
oucanf
eel
somet
hing?Youev
erbeeni
nacomabef
ore?

Her:
notacoma.Justal
cohol
poi
soni
ngnot
hingser
iousr
eal
l
yev
ent
houghmyf
ami
l
ybl
ewi
tout
ofpr
opor
ti
on.I
magine!

Me:
thewayy
out
aket
hingsl
i
ght
lynowondery
ourbr
otherwor
ri
essomuchabouty
ourass!

Her
:Imi
sshi
m.Heneedst
owakeupal
ready
!

Me:
Imi
sshi
mtoo.

Her:
isn'
ti
tfunnythaty
outwometinyourbir
thdayandhewasgivi
ngyouatti
tudeandt
hist
ime
ar
oundhe'sstuckinacoma.
..i
t'
ssomethi
ngaboutyourbi
rt
hdaydude.
..i
t'
scursed

Webothcr
ackedup.Thi
sgi
rli
sareal
stonerandrightnowI'
m convi
ncedthatshesmoked
someear
li
eronbefor
ewewenttoMelo'
splace.She'scr
azyandtheconversat
ionswehav
ing.
..

Her
:I'
m goi
ngt
ogetsomet
hingt
odr
ink,
wantany
thi
ng?

Me:
justwat
erpl
ease.Thanky
ou

Her
:sur
ethi
ng.

Shewal
kedoutandl
eftmewi
thmyboo.It
ookhi
shandandki
ssedi
t.

Me:whywon' ty ousur pri

semel ikeyounormallydoandt hi
st i
mear oundsurpri
semebywaki ng
up.I
t'
smybi r
thdayf orChr i
stsake.Ilovet
hegiftbythewayev ent houghwest i
l
lneedt otal
k
aboutthiscarthing.Thanky ouforit.Mybirt
hdaystartedoffnicel
yandt henwentont obeshitt
y
whenIr anint
omyf at
herandLat hit
hawhiletaki
ngitforaspin.AndThomaswasappar entl
y
l
ookingf orme,asi fhe'll
everhav eme.Hewasonsomet ipthatyoudon'thavetoknowabout
whateverhewast hinkingofdoingwi thme.
..asifIcouldeverhideanythingf
rom you.Youneed
towakeup, I'
m mi serablehere!

If
elthi
sfi
nger
smov
e.Ial
mostj
umped.OrwasIf
eel
i
ngt
hings?

Me:
baby
???

Ilookedupathim andhewasbl i
nkinghiseyesunt i
lhehadthem f
ullyopen.Ohmygodhe's
awake!Ili
ter
all
yranoutful
lspeedt olookforhisdoctorwhocameinandcheckedhim outand
thentoldmethatevery
thi
ngwasf ine.Whenhewasdonehet ookofftheoxygenmaskonhim
andaskedhim afewquestionsabouthi mselfwhichheanswered

Dr
:ev
ery
thi
ngt
hingseemsf
ine
Mel
o:onequest
ion.Whoar
eyou?

Shesai
dref
err
ingt
ome.Myhear
tjustbr
okei
ntoami
l
li
ont
inypi
eces.Hedoesntr
ememberme.

Dr:
thi
sisyourgi
rl
fr
iend.She'
sbeenherethedayyoucamein.Mi
ssGxabamemor
ylossi
s
nor
mal f
orsomeoneinhiscondi
ti
on.Justhanginther
eok.

Thedoct
oldhi
m hewoul
dcomecheckonhi
mtomor
rowandt
hatheshoul
drest
.Iwasl
eftwi
th
Melo.

Me:
your
eal
l
ydon'
trememberme?

Heshookhi
shead.

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oui
nSeason3