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roduct
ion

Lov
ebr
oughtusbackt
oget
her

Mynamei sSiy amt handaAbongi leShezi .24y earold

femalebor nandbr eadi nDurbanKwaMashu.I
complet edmymat ri
cwhenIwas17andt hen
studi
edFi nanci al Managementatt heUni versityof
CapeTown.Igr aduatedatt heageof21.I '
ma
quali
fi
edLogi sticManageratShezi Logistics
Companybasedi nDurban.TheCEOi snonet hanthe
otherUncl eMandl a.Gr owingupi hadagoodhome
withmy2si bl
ingsandmymom, wenev ergott o
knowourf atherev enwhenweaskedmom she
wouldjustchanget hesubjectorjustcryandwe' dlet
i
tgo.Myol dersi sterBabalwaShezi (27)she' sso
annoyingbutI '
dbenot hingwi t
houther .She' sa
EndocrinologistatStAugust i
nehospi t
al andmy
youngersi sterNcebakazi Shezi(17)doi nggr ade11
atMowatPar k.She' sjustsuchadr amaqueen! !ButI
couldnev erwi shf orabet tersi
sterthanher .Our
bondisunbr
eakableweusedtocalloursel
fsthe
"Unbr
eakabl
eThreeSi
ster
s"howIjustlovethem!
WhenIwasi nhighschool well
Ifelli
nl oveatgr ade
8!TrustmeIal sodidnotexpectt ofallinloveat
suchay oungagewel lim sureyou'r
ewonder ingwho
wast heluckyguy .Hisnamei sPhi l
asandeLesl ey
Ngcobo( 24)wewer einthesamecl ass, wewer e
fri
endsforj ustamont hnf i
nall
yheaskedmeout !
Hewasv eryshysoIunder st
andwhyi ttookhi ma
mont htoaskmeoutcausei twaspr ettyobv ious
thatwelov edeachot her.Wedat edtil
l wewer ein
mat r
ic,
wet houghtwe'dbet ogetherforev erbutlif
e
haditsownpl ans
Si
tbackandr
elaxasi
tel
lyout
hest
oryofmyl
i
fe

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandsuppor
tthi
spage
Shar
ewi
thf
ri
ends,
andf
ri
endsoff
ri
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ion(
Cont
inuat
ion)
AsIsai d,wet houghtwe' dbet oget herfor ever.We
wer ev erycr azyt ogether, PhilaandIusedt ogeti nto
alotoft roubleImeanALOT!Wegotsuspended5
ti
mesi ngr ade11.Wewer et henaught yhi ghschool
sweet hear ts.Wewer ebot h17whenwedi dgrade12.
Hewasmymat ricdancepar tnerandwesl ayed!.He
i
shandsome, li
ghti ncompl exionwi t
hasexydi mpl e
onhi sl eftcheekwel lhehasdi mpl esonbot hcheeks
butt heoneont hel eftisjustsexi erandt oocut e!,he
i
st allbutnott oot all,
wear et hesamehei ghtandhe
hassexybr acket s,hisbodyi sjustt ooper fect,
muscul arandhassexyabs.Wel l het ookcar eofhi s
bodyandhei sv eryneat .We' r
ebot hbor ni nFebruary,
hisbor nont he2cndandIam bor nont he14t h.Yep!
Hei s12day sol dert hanmeandher emindedme
thatlikeev er ychancehegot .Hecal ledme
"Ndy amt handa"andIwoul djustmel t.I'
m si r
ey ou're
wonder ingwhywenott oget herany more.Af terhigh
school ,Iwentt oCapeTownandhewentt otheFr ee
State.Wekepti ncont actf orthef irstfewmont hs
butitj ustdidn' twor koutsowebr okeupandmov ed
on,butInev err eallymov edoncausehei smy
soulmat e,after5y earsofbei ngt oget herIcoul dn't
j
ustf orgetabouthi m.Wel lenoughaboutPhi la!.
..I
am Lighti ncompl exionbutI '
m notyell
owbonej ust
caramel y
aboh, bi
gey edchi ckandmymamagav e
meal lmyl ov el
ybodyasset s, Ass,hi
psandt highs.
Nof i
gur e,myst omachi sjustf i
ne.Andinafigur efuth
andinamkhaba.Ihav eaf ewf riendsNay e(
25)
Zandile(24)andNt okozo(25)andmybestf riend
Snenhl anhla(24)
.Noneofusar emarri
edbutNay e
hasachi l
d( Emihl
e)she' sjustt oocute!

Char
act
ersy
ou'
l
lmeetal
ongt
heway
Babal
waShezi
(27)
-Si
ster
Ncebakazi
Shezi
(17)
-Si
ster
Phumzi
l
eShezi
(50)
-Mom
Nay
e(25)
Nt
okozo(
25)
Zandi
l
e(24)
Sneh(
24)
Lubabal
o(Phi
l
a'sbestf
ri
end)
Phi
l
a-Mysoul
mat
e
Amanda-Phi
l
a'sgi
rl
fr
iend
Emi
hle(
4)-Nay
esdaught
er
Br
andon-Col
l
eague
Thabo-pot
ent
ial
bae
L'
yanda-SexyNei
ghbor
Andmor
e..
..
..
.

#LBUBT!
Pl
easel
i
keandshar
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eyou
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t1

Ihat
eMondaymor ni
ngs!It
s5:00am andmyal ar
m
wasjustt
ooloud!Wellit
'salwaysj
usttooloudon
Mondays.Iwokeupandt ookashower ,l
oti
onedmy
bodyandgotdressed,Iworemyblackpencilski
rt
wit
hwhi teblouse,blackcoatandblacksti
let
tos.I
l
oveblack, i
tsPhil
a'sfavori
tecol
our.Iwent
downstairsandNcebawasnott heresoIwal ked
backtoherr oom.NcebaandIst ayt oget
herinmy
house/apartment.
Ithas3rooms, l
ounge,kit
chenand
2bathr
ooms.

Me:
Ncebakazi
!Ncebakazi
!!
Nceba:
(mumbl
es)mmmh!
Me: ut
himmmh. .Wakeup, it
s6:30am al
readyand
we'r
eleavi
ngin30mi ns.Youreal
lyneedtostar
t
taki
ngpubli
ctransport
,ican'
tbealwayslate
becauseofyou.
Nceba:
yhu!It
'sMondaykonj
e.(
wakesupandr
unst
o
t
hebathroom)
Me:Bett
erbequicksi
scauseI'
l
lleav
eyou.School
st
artsat8,Ial
waysremi
ndy ou
Iwal
kedint
ot hekit
chenandmadebr eakfastf
orus,
i
al
somadel unchformysel
f,Ncebadoesn'tcar
ry
l
unch,
shethinksi
tsforki
ds.
she'sgoi
ngt oneedit
oneday,buyi
ngfastfoodsal
ltheti
mei sawast e
andyougainalot.TrustmeIknow,inhighschoolI
usedtobuyBunny chowever
ydayandt hatearned
meal otofki
lo'
s.SoIpackedever
ythingandwentt o
star
tthecar.

Nceba:
eehSi
yatuu!Pleasedon'
tl
eav
eme, goshdi
d
youseemyothershoe?Ohandmymat hsbook?
Me:Nceba,y
ou'r
ereal
lyapainint
hearsemtase!
Theyundery
ourbed.Idon'
tknowwhyy ouhavea
shel
fcauseyoudon'
tknowhowt ouseit
Nceba:
Ipackmycl
othest
her
esweet
y
Me:Whati
sawar
drobef
or?Youhav
etoomany
cl
othes
Nceba:yazwe'
rel
ateandthi
sconv
ersat
ioni
sov
er
causeIknowwhereit
'sgoi
ng

Ij
ustl
aughedandshelockedthedoorandwel ef
t.I
al
waystel
lhert
osell
herclothescauseshedoesn't
ev
enwearmostofthem.IdriveaMer cedesBenz
G63!IboughtitwhenIwas22andi tsmybaby !Ijust
l
ov emycarandIwon' tbebuyi
nganot hercar.Soon
thewaywepi ckedupmyf ri
end/coll
eague,Zandil
e.
Wewor ktogetherandshe'
saaccount antatthe
company.She'sthecrazyf
ri
endt hattal
ksnon-stop

Me:
Zandybaby
!
Zandy:
Yaas!That
'
sme, myfri
endIneedpai
nki
l
ler
s.
Hangovergotmeli
ker
ealbad.
Nceba:
ser
vesy
our
ight
,noonet
oldy
out
odr
inkona
Sunday
Zandy
:Ncebasi
syou'
re17,
you'
l
lnev
erunder
stand.
Me:That'
salwaysyourexcuse,
"you'
l
lnever
under
stand"whati
sitthatwewon'tunder
standv
ele?
Zandy
:iLi
feSi
ya.Ncebaby
egi
rl
Idi
dn'
tev
enr
eal
i
zewewer
eatherschool
alr
eady
Nceba:
youguy
swil
lgossi
pwi
thoutme.Asshe
l
ooksatmeandsmi
lesmorel
i
keagr i
n
Me:
whatnow?
Nceba:
Pocketmoney?IgaveheraR10andshe
l
ookedatmelikeI
'
m crazy
Zandy
:weusedt
ocar
ryR2
Nceba:
li
keser
iousl
y?R10?Notev
enR100
Me:
yoh!I
'
m noty
ourmot
hergi
rl(asIgav
eherR50)
Nceba:
Thanky
ouandsheki
ssesmycheekand
j
umpsof f
Me:
You'
l
luseat
axi
aft
erschool
,Ihav
eameet
ing
Nceba:
WHAT!
!!
Idr
iveof
fandl
eav
eherscr
eami
ng

Zandy
:thatchi
l
disspoi
l
t
Me:tel
lmeabouti
t,v
elewhathappenedt
his
weekend
Zandy:si
yamyfri
endy
oumi
ssedout
!Besi
voshoza
l
eftri
ghtandcent
er
Me:
(laughs)whodi
dyougowi
thwi
th?GuessI
mi
ssedoutnhe
Zandy
:itwasj
ustmeandSneh,
hehehandImett
his
guy
Me:Zandyy
oual
way
smeetaguyl
i
keev
ery
weekend
Zandy
:nochomam y
ouknowt
hisonei
sdi
ff
erent
Me:
Youal
way
ssayt
hat
AsIparkofmypar
kingspor
tandwe10mi
nut
esl
ate
bazoxol
a
Zandy
:Per
ksofbei
ngf
ri
endswit
haShezi
,i
mlat
e
andIwon'
tev
engetawar
ning
Me:ay
bohhehyouar
ecr
azy
,youknowuncl
e
Mandl
awil
lki
l
lus
Zandy:
yhuthatone!I
'
llgi
vehi
m somewhi
skeyand
uzobashar
p
Webot
hlaughandwentt
oourof
fi
ces
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t2
Itookofmycoatandputi
tont hecouch,
tookofmy
heelsandworemysli
pper
sandgotcomf ort
abl
e,i
ts
reall
ygoi
ngtobealongday.Ineedsomethi
ngto
drink
Ical
l
edmyPA(
Bel
i
nda)i
ntomyof
fi
ce
Bel
i
nda:
Youcal
l
edf
ormemam
Me:Bel
i
nda,
I'
vet
oldy
ouat
housandt
imest
ost
op
cal
l
ingmemam
Bel
i
nda:
sor
rymam.
.ImeanSi
ya.
Me:y
ou'rej
ustsomethi
ngel
se,
sowhatshappeni
ng
t
oday,ohIneedsomethi
ngt
odrink.
Bel
inda:wel
lyouhav
ebackt
obackmeet
ingsf
rom
9am to3pm
Me:
hahay
bohkant
iyi
nil
engaka?
Beli
nda:(l
aughs) whateveryousaidjustknowIdon' t
understand,youhav eameet ingwithMrL. Mtoti
fr
om 9am t i
ll10:30,thenyouhav eameet i
ngwi th
MsAdamsatLuxol oEnt er
prisesfr
om 11:00to
12:00pm theny ourlunchti
meandt hereaft
era
meet i
ngwi t
ht hebossat13: 00til
l13:30andf r
om
t
hereyouhav
eameet
ingwi
tht
heboar
dmember
s
t
il
l3pm
Me:Godhel
p,whatdoest
heol
dguywant
s?Li
kea
meeti
ngf
or30minutes
Bel
i
nda:
wel
lyouknowhowhei
s
Me:
I'
m sur
ehe'
l
laskwhenam Iget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed
Beli
nda:
Ialway
sgetthatquesti
ont
oo,wel
ll
etme
gogetyousomethi
ngtodrinksowecangotoour
1stmeeti
ng
Me:
you'
real
i
fesav
ersweet
ie
Beli
ndawalksoutasIpr epar
eformymeeti
ngswell
i
tsthefir
stti
meI '
m workingwit
hMrL.MtotisoI
m
real
lynotsurewhattoexpects,
asforMsAdams I
j
ustcan'tdealshe'
stoooldIwonderwhenshe'
s
reti
ri
ng
AsI
'
m packi
ngmybr
ief
case,
Brandonwal
ksi
n
Hi
m: Si
ya,
your
eal
l
yneedtost
opdrinki
ngr
edbull.
Hehandsmemydri
nkandIj
ustat
tackit Ineeded
i
t
Me:
whenGodr
etur
ns,
I'
ll
stopsweet
ie
Hi
m: wowyoucal
l
edmesweet
ie,
howabouty
oucal
l
methatev
ery
day
Me:st
opspoil
ingt
hemomentBrandy
!Wecall
him
br
andycausehesnamei
sBrandonandhel
oves
br
andy
Hi
m:Abongi
l
eyou'
reabi
tch
Me:i knowhey anddon'tcal
lmeabongil
ebruh
l
ikereall
y.Youwantt
hewholewor
ldtoknowthatI'
m
Abongile
Hi
m:i
tsnotl
i
keI
'
llt
ell
any
one
Me:
you'
reachat
ter
boxsoIcan'
ttr
usty
ou
Hi
m:whatdoy
oumean,
boboy
oudon'
ttr
ustme?
Goshonlyhecall
smebobo nIhat eit,
thankgod
Bel
indawalksinandsavesmefrom t
hisguysowe
l
eavemyof fi
ceandBrandondi
ssapearswhil
ewego
i
ntothel
ift

Bel
i
nda:
Ithi
nkhe'
sgay
Me:
yazzandyal
way
ssay
sthat
,Idon'
tthi
nkso
Bel
i
nda:
trustme,
hei
sgayi
fnothi
sint
oyou
Me:
yhunoi
'
llst
ickt
ohi
m bei
nggay
Thedr i
veropensthedoorforus,duringwor
king
hoursweuset hecompanycars,
uncl eMandl
asays
i
trepresentsthecompanysowej ustdowhathe
says,heisthebossv el
e.

Wegett
othi
sbeaut
if
ult
all
buil
dinginHi
l
lcr
estand
wear
edir
ect
edtoMrL.Mtoto'
soffi
ce

Bel
i
nda:
wowt
hispl
acei
samazi
ng
Me:
youcansayt
hatagai
n
Aswear eadmir
ingt
hiswonder
fulbui
l
dingsome
handsomebeastwal
ksin Bel i
ndacouldn'
tev
en
speakanymore

Him:
Molwenimanenekazi
,I
'm MrLubabaloMtot
i,
CEOofMasi
bambaneLogisti
csashepul l
southi
s
handf
orahandshake
Me:(cl
ear
sthroat
)Hi,I
'm Si
yamthandaShezi
,
Logi
sticManagerofSheziLogi
sti
csandweshake
hands
Bel
i
nda:
aah.
..Uhm hi
Lubah:
Yournamemi
ss?
Bel
i
nda:
myname.
.Oh.
.Mynamei
sBel
i
nda
Lubah:
MsorMr
s?
Bel
i
nda:
MsBel
i
ndaEagl
es
Lubah:
Pleasedt
omeety
oul
adi
es
SoIstoodther
eandwat chedthesetooundr
ess
eachother theyjustcoul
dn'tstopl
ooki
ngateach
other
.Howcute!Loveatfir
stsight
Me:
(cl
ear
sthr
oat
)maywest
art
?
Lubah:
ohsor
ryMsEagl
esher
eisbr
eat
htaki
ng
Beli
nda:
sorrysi
rIdon'
ttakecompl
i
mentsfr
om
busi
nessassoci
atessoI'
dlovei
fwecoul
dkeep
thi
ngsstr
ict
lypr
ofessi
onal
Lubah:
sor
rymam
hehesoBel
i
ndadeci
dest
opl
ayhar
dtoget
Me:
Fiest
ymmmh.
Sothemeetingwentonandlubahwanteda
busi
nessdealwit
hourcompanybasical
lyi
twasfor
ourcompanytoworkwit
hthem importandexpor
ta
hugedealf
rom t
heunit
edstates
Me:
sowhatper
cent
agewi
l
lourcompanyhav
e
Hi
m:25℅
Me:
Crazy
,it
sa50/
50deal
Lubah:okaycool
we'l
ldr
aftoutt
hecont
ractand
emaili
ttoyou.Hopeweallbeworki
ngt
ogether
Me:
okay
,Ihopesot
oo
Bel
inda:
onceagi
ani
twasapl
easur
etomeety
ouMr
Mtoti
Lubah:
Likewi
se
Andhewal
kedusout
Lubah:
Imustsayt
houSi
yamt
handa,
youl
ookv
ery
fami
li
ar,
itsli
keI'
veseeny
oubef
orebutIj
ustcan'
t
putmyfingeronit
Me:
(l
aughs)ayandazmay
beuy
andi
fani
sawel
lcal
l
meSiy
anhe
Lubah:ohkcool
Siy
awe'
l
lbei
ncont
actandhe
walkedaway

Webot
hgoti
ntot
hecaranddr
oveof
f
Me:i
treal
l
ywasapleasuremeet
ingMr
l
ubabal
o wasnti
tBelinda?
Beli
nda:
Mam I
'
m sor
ryIdon'
tknowwhaty
out
alki
ng
about
Me:uwehaysuka!YouknowexactlywhatI'
mtalki
ng
aboutl
ikey
oucouldn'
tevenspeak!Youdidn'
tknow
whattosay
Bel
inda:Doyoublameme,
heisj
ustt
oodel
i
cious!I
swearIalmostpeedonmy
sel
f
Me:yhuaybendngazukbawenauy
odeuchazwe
ungumnt
uomny ama
Bel
i
nda:
whatar
eyousay
ing?
?
Thedr
iverandIl
augh
Me: Beli
ndasweeeti
eyouneedtolear
nmylanguage,
Ican'tspeakEngl
i
sh24/7wellIwassayi
ngthatyou
verybeautif
ul
Bel
i
nda:i
twasalongsent
enceSi
yaI
'
m sur
eyou
wer
en'
tsayi
ngt
hat
Ij
ustl
aughedatherandt
ookoutmyphone

Thedaywentonmeet ingaft
ermeeti
ng,
bori
ngand
i
nterest
ingandBel
indakeptontal
ki
ngaboutMr
Lubahduringl
unch

Soi
twas13:
00andIwentt
omyuncl
esof
fi
ce
Me:
MrShezi
,youcal
l
edf
orme
Hi
m:ay
bohy
ini
ngawe comet
odaddy
Welluncl
eMandlai
sthef
atherIneverhadandI
grewupknowinghi
m asmydaddynhei salways
ther
eformyfamil
y.Hei
smymot her
stwinbrot
her
Me:
Daddykdwawhyv
ele?Meet
ingf
orj
ust30mi
ns
Hi
m:i
sitacr
imet
oseemybeaut
if
uldaught
er?
Me:
nobi
gD
Hi
m: nowt
ell
me, whenar
eyouget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed?
Minanomawakho,we'
reget
ti
ngol
dnowsosi
funa
i
zi
nkomo
Me:nott
hatquest
ionagai
n Iwon'
tgetmar
ri
ed
yaz
Hi
m:Youmayj
ustl
eav
emyof
fi
ce
Me:youwon'tevengivemesomemoneydaddy
Ncebakazi
uyandiqheda(ncebakazi
isf
ini
shi
ngme)
Hi
m: I
'
llt
ransf
eri
ttoyouraccountmybaby,
come
l
et'
sgotheboardmeeti
ngisstart
ingnow

Andwewal
kedt
otheof
fi
ce,
gosht
heseheel
swer
e
ki
ll
i
ngme
Themeeti
ngwentonandonandIbreif
edthem
aboutMrMtot
i'
sdeal
anditwasapproved
Themeet
ingwasov
erandi
rant
omyof
fi
cewel
lI
wasav
oidi
ngBr
andon
SoItoldBeli
ndatosetupameet i
ngwit
hMrMt ot
i
for11am atGateway.Iwoul
dhavedoneitmy
self
butIiustwant
edt omakeBeli
ndahappy
Fi
nal
lyIwasgoi
nghome,
Ineedagl
assofr
edwi
ne
andahotbubbl
ebat
h

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandshar
e
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enda:
Inser
t3

Iwentt
othepar
kingl
otandcal
l
edZandy

Me:
Zandi
l
euphy
(Zandi
l
ewher
ear
eyou)
Zandy:
I'
m onmywayt
oIdon'
tknow butI
'
m wi
th
Naye
Me:Iwonderwher
eist
hat"
Idon'
tknow"andwhy
di
dn'
tyoutel
lme
Zandy
:Youwer
esti
l
l i
nsomemeeti
ngsoIl
eftpl
usI
washungr
yandNayepromi
sedmefood
Me:
arghwhat
everby
e.
Idropedthecal
landdrovehome,Ifi
rstwentt
o
GlenwoodSparandboughtmy sel
fsomechocolat
e
cake andgotsomewi neattops.Thenwent
strai
ghthome,whenIgotinsi
de
Ohthixobawondincede(OhLordGodHelpme)
Zandil
e,Ntokozo,
Naye,SnehandNcebawere
watchingTVandhavingsomemi nipar
tyi
nmy
house
Me:wt
far
eyouguy
sdoi
ngher
e?Don'
tyouhav
e
homes
Nay
e:Whatawar
m wel
come,
wel
ovey
out
ooSi
ya

Zandy
:don'
taskusthatnonsensewenaweher
eto
havef
uncan'
tyousee
Ntokozo:
andyougotsomecakenwi
net
her
esoI
'
m
sureyougott
hemessage
Me:
whatmessage
Nceba:t
hatwesi
ppi
n'onsomewi
net
oni
ght(
asshe
dances)
Me:yout
endt
ofor
getthaty
ou'
re17andaschool
ki
d,y
oushoul
ddoyourhomework.
Naye:
Youneedt
oloosenupSi
ya,
got
akeabat
hand
comejoi
nus
Nt
okozo:
Don'
twor
ryaboutcooki
ngIsor
tedusout
Me:don'
ttel
lmey
oucooked?Ir
eal
l
ydon'
twantany
st
omachache
Nt
okozo:
what
'
swr
ongwi
thmycooki
ng
Us:
Dontev
enask
Weall j
ustlaughedandIwal kedupstai
rs,gottomy
room nthrewmy selfonmybed, howIneededt o
restr
ightnowbutt hosegirl
swouldnev erall
owt hat
.
SoItookashowerandwor emynav ybum shorts
andabl ackvestwithsl
ippersandwentt othe
l
ounge

Me:
Zandyt
ell
us,
whoi
sthi
sguyy
oumett
his
weekend
Nceba:
Bae102
Zandy
:Bae102?
Naye:yesZandi
l
e,youalway
smetanewguyev
ery
weekendsonowt heyadduptoa102guy
s
Nt
okozo:
itmi
ghtbeev
enmor
e
Zandy
:thi
sonei
sspeci
al
Sneh:t
heyalway
sspecial,
rememberhowMrBMW
wasspeci
al?Thebarguy?Thecar
petguy?The
sasol
guy?ShouldIcont
inue?
Zandy
:yhuniyaphaphay
az,
butt
hisguyhast
hat
thi
ngguysl
ikereall
yhei
samazi
ng
Nceba:
west
il
lwai
ti
ngf
ort
henamesi
s
Nt
okozo:
youknowshedoesn'
trev
eal
thename
Wealljustl
aughandhav earandom conversat
ion
whil
eSnehwal kstothedoortogetdeli
veri
esand
shepaysthedeli
veryguyandstandsatthedoorfor
awhile
Sneh:
(Scr
eams)Guy
scomeseet
hisbeast
!!
!!
Andweal l
runtothedoorandgosht
hisguyisfi
ne!
Wewer eallst
ari
ngathi
m, hei
smuscular
,dar
k
chocol
atehandsomekindaguy
Nceba:
seemsl
i
kehei
smov
ingi
nnextdoor
Nt
okozo:
wel
lI'
m mov
ingi
nwi
thy
ouguy
s
Me:
excuseme?
Sneh:y
ou'reexcusedsisi
,I'
m al
somov
ingi
n.Ij
ust
can'
tstaysofarfrom bae
Nay e:
whydon' twej
ustsayhi
,causehehasseen
thatwe'r
estari
ngathim weal lj
umpbackand
closethedoor.Andcont
inuewit
hourconver
sati
on
whilewatchi
ngAr ey
outheoneonMTV
Nceba:
I'
dgot
otheset
hings,
justf
orf
un
Zandy
:I'
dtot
oexont
hebeach
Sneh:
I'
m sur
eal
lthemal
eex
'swoul
dbey
our
s
Nay
e: ev
enf
emal
e
Zandy:
you'
recr
azy
Weall
laughoutloudandsuddenl
yther
e'saknock
ont
hedoor,Ntokozorunsandopensandclosest
he
doori
nasecond
Nt
okozo:
nei
ghborbeast
!!
Weal
lrunt
othedoorandweopen
Nceba:
Hey
y!I
'
m Nceba
Nay
e:HeyI
'
m Si
ngl
e
Weal
ljustl
aughandhel
aughst
oo.Snehpi
nches
meandwel augh
Guy
:HeyI
'
m L'
yanda.I
'
myournewnei
ghbor
Sneh:heypleasedtomeetyou,I
'm Sneh,t
hisi
sNay
e
notsingl
e,Ntokozo,NcebaandZandy.She
i
ntroducesus
Zandy
:gi
rlwhyy
ouspeaki
ngf
orusl
i
kewecan'
ttal
k?
Nay
e:duhcausewewer
est
il
ldr
ool
i
ngov
ert
hisguy
whi
leshewasnt
L'
yanda:
(l
aughs)Ihaveahousewar
mingpar
tyon
Fr
idayandI'
dloveforyouguyst
ocome
Me:
we'
l
ldef
inat
elycome
Nt
okozo:
I'
dcomeev
eni
fIwasn'
ti
nvi
ted
Nceba:
whatt
ime?
L'
yanda:8pm...By
eguy
sIhavet
ogonowandher an
tohi
shouset henwecl
osedt
hedoorandwentback
toourseats
Zandy
:im goi
ngbutIwonderwhatI
'
llwear
Sneh:
don'
tyouhav
eadat
ewi
tht
hespeci
alguyon
Fri
day
?
Zandy
:hecanwai
t,pl
ushewasn'
tthatgoodl
ooki
ng
Andwealllaugh Zandil
eisj
ustt
oosick she
needsser
ioushel
p.Wehadlot
soffunandthegi
rl
s
l
eftat21:
30pm andIwentt
omybedroom and
deci
detocallmommydearest
Mom:
ubuy
ani
ni(
whenar
eyoucomi
ngback)
Me:
notev
enahel
l
omychi
l
d?
Mom:you'
vebecomeast
rangersi
siy
ourmot
her
mi
ssesyou
Me:
I'
ll
seey
ousoonmah
Mom: howsoonissoon?WhereisNcebakazi
?I'
ve
beencall
i
ngherbutshedoesn'
tanswer
Me:idon'
tknowwhyshedoesn'
tanswerbutshe'
sin
herr
oom
Mom:
cal
lherIwantt
otal
ktoher
Me:
butmom shehasherownphone
Mom:
Siy
amt
handa!
!!
Me:
okaaaymom Nceba!
!!
!!
!!
Shecamei
ntomyr
oom
Her
:what
?
Mom: what
?Whatyouchi
l
dwhyar
enty
ou
answeri
ngmycal
ls
Her
:ohhi
mom,
Icanexpl
ain
thenshel
eftwi
thmyphoneandIj
ustdeci
dedt
o
sleep.

*
NextMor
ning*

Iwokeupanddidmydial
yrouti
neandgotr
eadyf
or
work,
lucki
l
yNcebawasn'
tlat
etoday,
Iworemysui
t
andloubout
inredheel s,combedmyshor thairand
madeament alnote:Ishoulddomyhai r.
andt hen
wenttohavebr eakfast,
itsZandil
e'sturntopi ckus
uptoday,weusual l
ytakeweekl yturnsbutt odayI'm
tooti
redtodriv
esoIaskedhert opickusup.We
droveanddroppedNcebaatschool thenwentt o
work.Iwenttomyof fi
ceandcal l
edf orBeli
ndabut
somey ounggirlwalkedin

Gi
rl
:HiMsShezi
,Bel
indacal
l
edi
nsi
ckt
odaysoI
'
ll
beherr
epl
acementt
oday
Me:
Name?
Her
:Mynamei
sNomsaandI
'
m ani
nter
n.
Me:
Nomsa,
I'
m MsShezi
.What
'supt
oday
?
Her:wellmam yourdiar
ysay
syouonlyhave2
meetingstodayat11withMrMtot
iatgatewayand
at3pm withtheworkers
Me: y
ey!Todayseemsli
keagoodday wellyoucan
taketherestoft
hedayofyoungl
adyI
'
llmanage
sincether
esnothi
nghecti
c
Nomsa:
wowt
hanky
oumam
Andshewal kedout
,Idi
dsomepaperwor kchecki
ng
i
fever
ythi
ngwasi norderwi
thourcargo'
s,
shi
pments.Ithenwenttomymeetingatgateway
andIr
eceivedacall
Cal
ler
:Heyit
'sLubabal
oher
e,I
'
m atgat
ewayal
ready
wherewi
llwemeet
Me:ohhey,Ihopei
m notlate,
Ijustdr
ovei
nandwe
canmeetatSpurI'
m hungry
Lubah:
okaycool
then
Hedr
opst
hecal
landIpar
kngot
ospur
.
Lubah:
Youl
ookt
oof
ormal
forSpur
Me:heydon'
tjudge someofushav
etolook
pr
ofessi
onal
ev er
ywher
ewego,ev
enSpur
Lubah:ohokay ,
wher
e'sBel
i
nda?It
houghtshe'
d
beheretoday
Me:
nopeshe'
ssi
cksoshewon'
tbej
oini
ngus
Lubah:
what
?What
'swr
ong?Wi
l
lshebeokay
?
Me:
,21quest
ionsLubabal
o..wel
lshe'
spr
egnant
Lubah:
What
!
Thelookonhisface i
wassoi
mpr
essedwi
th
myselfr
ightnow
Me(laughs)chi
l
ldudeI'mjoki
ng,
wellyoushoul
dcall
herandf i
ndoutifshe'
l
lbeokay(andIgav
ehim her
number )
Wet alkedandt al
kedaboutthebusinessdeal and
setupournextmeet i
ngsandmeet i
ngswi tht
he
boardmember sfrom bothcompanies.Wewer e
bothsat i
sfi
edwi t
hthecontractsandpaperwor kand
ournextmeet ingwillbewhenwel auncht he
businessdeal.Itwil
lbeami nipart
ywhi chIknowit
won'tbemi nisinceBeli
ndawi l
lbeplanningit

Idrov
ebacktotheoffi
ceandIhadl
aunchwi
th
Zandi
leandBrandon
Me:
we'
l
lbehav
ingapar
ty!
!
Br
andon:
whenandwhy
?
Me:nextweekFr
iday,l
aunchofMasi
bambane
Logi
sti
csandSheziLogi
sti
cscompani
esdeal
Zandy
:gr
eat
!Ineedt
ogoshoppi
nganddomyhai
r
Me:met ool
et'
sgoaf
terwor
kpl
easeIneedt
obe
beaut
if
ulonFri
day
Br
andon:
thepar
tyi
sonlynextweeksowhyar
eyou
l
ooki
nggoodonFri
day
?
Me:wewerei
nvit
edtosomepar
tyt
hisFr
idaysowe
gottobeonourbestl
ooks
Zandy
:whenar
eweget
ti
ngpai
dher
evel
eI'
m br
oke
Br
andon:
you'
real
way
sbr
oke
Zandy:Uthi
nibrandy
!?Idon'tknowwhyt
heycallyou
brandycauseyoucan'tevenaffor
dit
.Welaughed
andhadar andom conver
sation
Thedaywentbyanditwashomet
ime!! we
pi
ckedupNcebaandwenthomechangedi
nto
comfycl
othesandwenttot
hemal
l
Wedidourhair,
zandyputonalongBrazili
anweave
(it
houghtshewasbr oke )NcebadidBobl engt
h
br
aidsandIdidlongtouchmyassarti
fi
cial
dr
eadlocks.Wealsodidournai
l
sbesidestheschool
ki
dandwentt ohavesupperatOceanBasketthen
wentbackhomeandcal
l
edi
tani
ght

#LBUBT
Hopey
ouenj
oyi
ng
Pleasel
ikeandsuppor
tandshar
epagewi
thy
our
fr
iends
[
1/11,
00:
19]Tat
enda:
Inser
t4

TheWeekwentbysof astandi twasFr i

dayal r
eady,i
l
ov eFridaysbecauseweknockof fat1pm and
wehav efunkyFr idays!Iwokeupf eeli
ngr eall
ygood!
It
sgoi ngt obeagr eatday,Icanj ustfeelit.Tooka
showerwhi lesingingoutloud, gotreadyand
dressedasIwor emybl uejeggi ngs,bl
ackgol ft'
shir
t
andNi keRosheki cks.TrustmeIcoul dwear
sneaker sev er
ydayi fIcoul
d,theyar ejustso
comf ortable.Putonsomer edmat t
elipst
ickanddi d
myey ebr ows, I
'
m notr eall
yaf anofmakeup .
Me:
Ncebast
handwawakeup!
Nceba:
im notgoi
ngt
oschool
sisi
Me:
why
?
Nceba:
theyhav
ingsomef undrai
si
ngeventsoIai
n't
goi
ngIneedtorestandcompletemyassignment
s
Me:
Okayby
ethen
Iwenttohavebr
eakf
astandpackedmybagthen
wenttofet
chZandy,
shewaswear i
ngwhi
teJordans
,jeanshor
tsandwhit
egolfT-
shi
rt.
Zandy
:onewoul
dsaywe'
regoi
ngt
opl
aygol
f
Me:
wtfdoweknowaboutgol
f?
WebothlaughandIdr
ivewhi
l
eli
steni
ngt
osome
gqom music
Zandy
:someonei
shappy
?What
'sup?
Me:can'
tIbehappynha?Wel
lnot
hingsgoi
ngonI
j
ustfeel
good,youknow?
Zandy
:Di
dyougetsome?
?Hehandy
azkel
e
Me:Zandythough,
noIdidn'
tgetsomeandi
mjust
happy,
nowdon'tspoi
li
toryou'l
lbepay
ingf
ory
our
dri
nkstoni
ght
Zandy:
payingforwhat
?We'r
egoingtoahousepar
ty
Si
ya,dr
inkswil
lther
eandt
heinvi
tat
iondi
dnotsay
BOB-Br
ingyourownbooze
Me:Yeszandil
ebutwecan'
tjustar
ri
vet
her
ewi
th
not
hingl
ikethatwoul
dberude
Zandy
:ahanasi
stheycan'
tthr
owapar
tyandexpect
ustocomewitht
hingsaphatyi
n
Ij
ustl
aughedather
,thisgir
lisj
ustsomethi
ngel
se.
Wegottoworkandev ery
onewasl ooki
nggoodhey
andBel
indawasback
Bel
inda:
areyouguy
sgol
fpl
ayer
s?Weshoul
dgo
pl
aysomet i
me
Zandy
:yhuLindagir
lidon'
tknowany
thi
ngabout
gol
fanditi
sboring
Me:howdoy ouknowi
tsbor
ingwheny
ouknow
not
hingabouti
t?
Zandy
:Ij
ustknowwet
hu
Wej
ustl
augedandwentt
omyof
fi
ce
Bel
i
nda:
Siy
a,Lubabal
ocal
l
edme!Thanky
out
hank
youforgi
vi
nghim mynumber
s,Iact
ual
l
yfel
tbet
ter
aft
erhecall
ed
Zandy
:whoi
slubabal
oandwhyam Ihear
ingabout
thi
snow?
?Detai
lsanddi
git
spl
ease
Me: aywethuhi
st akenbyBel
i
ndasonodi gi
ts!Hei
s
theeCEOofMasi bambaneLogist
icsandhehasthe
hotsforBeli
nda
Wet ol
dherev ery
thi
ngt hathappenedandwewer e
veryexci
tedforBeli
ndaasshet oldusshewillbehis
dateatthelaunchnextfriday
.Ireall
ydidn'
tknowy ou
needapl usone I '
l
ljustgowi thNceba
ThewentbyandIdi dsomepaperworkwhi
le
Beli
ndawaspr epar
ingf
orthel
aunchandbooki
ng
venues.Ihel
pedherwit
htheguestl
ist
sandcat
eri
ng
etc
Bylunchti
meIwasexhausted,wewentforl
unch
andcameback, Ihadameeti
ngwithourChi
ef
Fi
nancial
offi
cerDesmondti
ll1pm
Aftert
hemeet
ingIpackedmybagsandwentto
zandy'
sof
fi
ceandshewasont hephone.Iwai
ted
for15minutesandshewasstil
lont hephone I
j
usttookhercarkeysandwenttot heparki
nglot
,
shehas3car ssotodayshewasdr ivi
ngherVvvr
r
pha!Itr
eall
ylookedgoodonherandshei sint
o
smallcarswhil
eimjusti
nlovewithbigcars
Soshefinal
l
ydeci
dedt
oshowupaf
teranot
her
15minut
es
Me:
whatt
ooky
ousol
ong?I
'
m hungr
y
Zandy
:mommydearestcal
ledandshespeaksnon
stopl
i
keshenev
ershutsup.Don'
tworrywegoingto
themall
any
wayssoy ou'
l
lbesort
ed
Me:
soundsl
i
kesomeoneIknow.Okaycool
Sowedr ovetoPavil
ionandtheladieswerealr
eady
ther
e.NayeisaGy naecol
ogist
,NtokozoisaLawy er
,
SnehisalsoaLawy erbutt
heywor kfordi
ffer
ent
fi
rms.Sowedi dsomeshoppi ng,outfi
tsf
ortonight
andwentt oeatatSpur
Nay
e:Imi
ssmybaby
Me:
wher
eisshev
ele?
Nay
e:shewentt
ovi
sithergr
andma
SeeNaye'
sbabydaddypassedawaywhenEmi hl
e
was1yearsol
d,i
twast hemostpainful
thi
ngthat
shehadtogothroughbutbyt
hegr aceofgodshe
pul
ledt
hroughandwasst r
ongforherbaby
Nt
oko:
she'
l
lbebacksoont
houghdon'
twor
ry
Sneh:
MinaI
'
mti
redofbei
ngsi
ngl
e
Zandy
:weal
lar
e
Me:wenazandyyoual
way
shav
eabaesoIdon'
tget
whyyou'
ret
alki
ng
Naye:
yoursi
tuati
onsiy
aisj
ustbad,
li
keyou'
venever
dat
edanyoneelseaf
terPhi
l
a,whenwil
lyouever
moveon?
Me:
Idon'
twannat
alkabouti
t
Nt
oko:
that
'swhaty
oual
way
ssaySi
ya
Me:
What
ever
Wej ustateandhadal ovelyfunconver
sati
on.WellI
real
lynevermovedonaf terPhila,I
'v
efli
rt
edbut
neverdatedandIdon'tthinkIwill
andidon'tknow
why, i
guessitsj
usthardt oletgo.Andit
sbeen
5y
ear
swowIneedt
omov
eonel
i
ker
eal
l
y

Wewenttomyapart
mentandpreparedforthepar
ty,
Igav
eNcebahercl
othest
hatIboughtforher
Nceba:Thankyou!Youthebestsi
ster,
Ishoul
dtel
l
Babal
wat hatIneedanewphone
Me:
what
'swr
ongwi
tht
hephoney
ouusi
ng
Her
:it
sol
d
Me:
buty
ouboughti
tlasty
ear
Her
:yest
hatwasl
asty
earsi
si
Ij
ustgi
veuponthi
schi
l
d!WhenIwas17i
hada
Noki
aAshathepi
nkone
Itwasnow8:30andt
hel
oudmusi cwasonalread.
Snehsuggest
edwegoat21:00andarri
vel
atesoall
eyeswouldbeonus whichistotal
l
yunnecessar
y
sincewemightev
enbemissi
ngout
Nayewaswearingasi
lv
ersparkl
ingshor
tdr
esst
hat
r
eachedhert
highsandblackst
il
ett
os
Snehwaswear
ingar
edsi
l
kti
ghtdr
esswi
thr
ed
heel
s(Ladyi
nred!
)
Ntokozowaswear
ingburgandyshortdr
esst
hat
barel
ycover
dhert
highs yetshewassupersexy
wit
hblackheel
s
Zandywaswear
ingawhi
teti
ghtshor
twi
thwi
tha
st
rapl
esscr
optopandsi
l
verheel
s
Ncebawaswear
ingawhi
tesui
tpant
swi
thbl
ack
cr
optop
Andiworeablackminiski
rtandboobt
ubecr
opt
op
wit
hblackl
oubouti
nheels
Andwehadputonsomeaccessor i
esandwewer e
al
ldoll
edupandy eahIdi
dputonsomemakeup.
Andwewentt ot
hepar t
yanditwashy pe!Epi
c!The
musicwasbangingandwewer eont hedancefl
oor.
YeahandIdanceprett
ywell
,Phil
ataughtmewel lso
bi
gupt ohi
m
Wedrankandpl
ayedafewgames,f
rom board
gamestocar
dsanddancedal
lni
ghtl
ong.L'y
anda
cameuptousandgreet
ed
L'
yanda:
heygi
rl
s,I
'
m gl
ady
oucoul
dmakei
t,come
t
hissi
deIwanty
out
omeetmyf
ri
ends
WegotthereandIsawaf
ami
l
iarf
ace,
itwas
Lubabal
o.
L'
yanda:Thisi
sThabo,Nkosi,Bonga,
Lubabal
o,
Danny,Athi
,Mphoandt heyoungguyoverther
eis
myy oungerbr
otherThapel
o
Lubah:
HeyLadi
es,
heySi
yawher
esBel
i
nda?
Me:HeyLubah well
she'snother
ebutIcancal
l
hernshe'
l
lcomeI
'
m sureshe'
sboredwherev
ershe
i
s
Lubah:
pleasedo
L'
yanda:
Youguy
sknoweachot
her
Me:
Yeahwewor
ktoget
her
Zandy:WownguLubabal
okaBel
i
ndaLona(t
hisi
s
Bel
inda'
sLubabal
o)
Lubah:
yeahi
tis
Theguys:
pleasedt
omeety
oul
adi
escomej
oinus
foraf
ewdr i
nks
Thapel
oandNcebahaddi
ssapear
edal
ready
.Thabo
keptonlooki
ngatmeandImustsayheis
handsome!Sowekeptonhavingr
andom
conver
sati
onsandweexchangednumbers
Nkosi
:Si
yay
oul
ookf
ami
l
iart
hough
Lubah:
Yeaht
hat
'
swhatIsai
dwhenwemet
Me:Iguessy
ouguy
sknowmef
rom somewher
eorI
l
ookli
kesomeoney
ouknow

Thepartycontinuedanditwasli
t!Bel
i
ndacameand
shedisappearedwi t
hLubabal
o,itwas2am al
ready
anditwasst i
l
l happeni
ngsoIguesswe'l
lj
ustl
eav e
i
nthemor ning

Tobecont
inued.
..
#LBUBT

Pl
easel
i
keandsuppor
t
Lov
eyou
[
1/11,
00:
19]Tat
enda:
Inser
t5

I
twasnow7am andIwokeupf eel
ingreal
lyheavy,
I
l
ookedar oundandfindthatSnehfellasl
eepontop
ofme, Ir
eall
ydon'tknowwhathappenedy est
erday
butitwasjustl
it
!Thehangov erandspinning
headachewon'tbeasl i
tthough
Me:Snehvukamanuy
asi
nda(
Snehwakeupman
you'
reheav
y)
Sneh:
whatt
imei
sit
?
Me:
around7
Sneh:
yohandwher
ear
ewe?
Me:ldon'
tknow,Ithoughtwewer
eatL'y
andas
housebutt
hisreal
l
ydoesn'tl
ookl
ikei
t
Sowestoodupandlookedaround,Zandywasf
ast
asl
eeponthecouchwit
hwithNay enextt
oher
Me:
vukani
man!(
Wakeup)
Sneh:
wher
ear
etheot
her
s
L'
yandawal
ksi
nonl
ywear
inghi
sboxershor
ts,
Mor
ningGl
ory hewasj
ustheav
en.
Lyanda:l
adi
es,y
ou'
reupearl
y,y
ourf
ri
endi
sfast
asleepandsher
eal
l
ysnores!
Zandy:whichf
ri
end?Andhowdoy
ouknowabout
hersnori
ng?
Weallgav
ehi
m quest
ioni
ngl
ooksandhej
ust
l
aughed
Lyanda:y
ouguy scl
earl
ydon'tr
ememberwhat
happenedlastni
ghtnhe,wel
lI'
mtal
ki
ngabout
Ntokozo
Naye:Yousl
eptwithNt
okozo!Nwher
ear
ewe?
WhereisBel
indaandNceba?
Ly
anda:WeatAthi
'
shouseandBel
indawenthome
wi
thLubabal
oandNcebal
eftwi
thThaphel
o
Me:
Andhowdi
dwegether
e?
Lyanda:y
ouguyshaveahundredquest
ions,come
thi
ssideandlet
'
shavebr
eakfastwe'
llt
alkabout
whathappenedaft
erwehavebreakf
ast
Sowet
henwal
kedaf
terhi
m andi
ntosucha
beauti
ful
dinningroom,imustsayAthi
'
shouseis
real
l
ybeautif
ul.Theguyswerealr
eadymunching
andIwasn'treal
lyhungr
ysoIjusthadafr
uitsal
ad
Nkosi
:Soladi
es,
what
'shappeni
ngt
oday
?Wej
ust
wannaspendmoret
imewithyou
Athi:
yeahit
sreal
l
yhardt
ofindcool
femalef
ri
ends
thesedaysandwe'dl
i
ketoknowyouguysbett
er
Naye:ohtr
uehey,youguysar
efunt
obear
oundsoi
guessther
e'l
lbeanextt
ime
Me: y
eahbutt
hatnextt
imeai
n'
ttodayI
'
mreal
l
yti
red
Ineedtosl
eep
Mpho:howaboutwemeett
odayaround6pm t
hat
wayyou'
ll
havesomet
imetorest
Nkosi
:yeahwe'
l
lal
lgotoMpho'
shouseandchi
l
l
maybebraai
andafewsal
ads
Sneh:
Siy
ayou'
l
lcookt
hepapandt
hesal
ads
At
hi:
whysi
ya?Youl
adi
eswi
l
lhel
p
Nay
e:uhm t
hat
'snotagoodi
dea
Me:
Theyar
ebadcookssoI
'
m al
way
stheonewho
cooks
Andweal lj
ustl
aughandhavealightconversat
ion,
gett
ingtoknoweachotherandexchangingnumber s
thenNtokozowalksi
nandhasbreakfast,t
hisgirl
hasalottotel
l
Zandy:l
et'
sgetgoi
ngl
adi
essowecanr
estandget
readyf
orthisev
eni
ng
At
hi:
Youguy
sst
ayt
oget
her
?
Nay
e:NobutweatSi
ya'
shousef
ort
heweekend
Me:
idi
dn'
tknowaboutt
hat
Nt
oko:
wel
lnowy
ouknowcakes
Wealljustl
aughandThabot
akesuscomeaft
era
30minsdriv
ewegethomeandhesayshe'
ll
seeus
l
ater
Iwenttotakeashowerwhi
lethegir
lswere
downstai
rs,goshIl
ookedsohorri
ble.WhenIwas
doneIworemypy j
amashortsandav estwi
th
sl
ipper
sandt i
edmydreadl
ocksinabunandwent
downstai
rs
Zandy
:Ineedt
osl
eep
Me: metoo,
i'
ll
sleepwi
thoneofyouand2canuse
nceba'
sroom t
hentheother2wi
l
l uset
hespar
e
Nt
oko:
aybohwe'
l
lal
lsl
eept
oget
heri
nyourr
oom
Naye:
Ntokozoyousnor
e,noonewant
stosl
eep
wit
hyouevenly
andasaysyousnor
e
Nt
oko:
what
!!Guy
sIembar
rassedmy
sel
f
Zandy
:atl
easty
ou'
l
lknowwhyi
fhebr
eaksupwi
th
you
Nt
okozo:
what
everzandzhecannev
erbr
eakupwi
th
me
Nay
e:soy
ouguy
sar
etoget
her
?
Nt
okozo:
sor
tof agi
rldoesn'
tki
ssandt
ell
sweet
ie
Andsherunsupst
air
sandweallfol
lowher
scr
eaming.Wetal
kaboutwhathappenedl
astni
ght
andhowweenjoystheguyscompanyandweend
upfal
l
ingasl
eep
Afewhour
slat
erweal
lwakeupandIgetacal
lfr
om
Nkosi
Nkosi
:Zi
ryti
gal
z?
Me:
(l
aughs)y
eahnkosi
weal
lgoodandf
reshnow
Nkosi
:wel
lIwasj
ustchecki
ngupony
ouguy
s
Me:
thanky
ou,
we'
l
lseey
oui
naf
ewhour
s
Nkosi:
okaycool
,car
rybi
ki
nisandpickupBelindaat
Lubah'
shouseshe'
ll
sendyoutheaddress.Andhe
dropsthecal
l
.
Nay
e:whatdi
dNkosi
say
?
Me:
whydoy
ouwannaknow?
Nay
e:causeIwannaknowwhathesai
d
Me:Thandaizindaba(y
oulikegossi
p)wellhesays
wascheckinguponusandt hatweshoul
dcarry
bi
ki
nisthenpickupBelindaatLubahshouse
Zandy:That
haBeli
nda!Usuzel
aphezul
u! (Go
Bel
inda!You'
ref
art
ingathighpl
aces)
Nay
e:zandyt
hough I
'
m happyf
orher
Wealll
aughedandhadalightconv
ersati
onwhi
le
pr
epari
ngpapandsaladsforthebr
aai.Ar
ound4pm
wewenttofreshenupandchangeint
ocomfort
able
cl
othes
Sneh:Ncebacal
l
edandsai
dweshouldcarr
ycl
othes
forhert
ochangeshe'
l
lmeetusatMpho'
s
Me:
Iwonder
Naye:you'
dsweart
hatNcebaai
ntjust17buti
t'
s
goodthatshe'
sdoi
ngal
lthi
snonsensewithusand
we'r
eaware
Nt
oko:
yeah,
Ithi
nkweshoul
dcar
ryov
erni
ghtbags
Me:
why
?
Zandy
:duhweal
lknowwewon' tbecomi ngback
somepeopl
ewil
ldi
sappeare.
gNt okozo
Sneh:
let
'sj
ustpackal
lourt
oilet
ri
esandwhatwe' l
l
needi
nonebigbagjustt
omi nimizeal
lthebagsnhe
Soweal
lpackedandt
ookev
ery
thi
ngt
omycarand
cal
l
edBel
inda
Me:youwer
esupposedt
osendmeanaddr
ess
sweeti
e
Her:
ohsor
ryIf
orgotabouti
tI'
l
lsendi
tjustnow
Af
terafewminut
esshesentt
headdr
essandwe
wentt
oherhouse.
Wewer eal
lwear
ingshor
tsandt
'shi
rt
s,wegott
o
Lubah'
shouseandBeli
ndacame
Zandy
:wher
eisl
ubah
Beli
nda:hehadt
orushtosomemeet i
nginPMBand
thenmeetupwit
hhisfr
iendPhil
asomethi
ng
somethi
ngandhelphi
m, t
hatguyismovi
ngto
Durban
Nt
oko:
sohewon'
tbej
oini
ngust
oni
ght
Bel
inda:Yeahapparentl
ythi
sguyi
shi
sbestfr
iend
andtheymetinversit
yetchewasver
yhappyhe's
mov i
ngtoDurban
Zandy
:guesswe'
l
lbemeet
ingnewcandysoon
Sneh:
Zandy
Zandy
!
Wegott oMpho' shouseandwowi twasamansion,
ishoul
dr eal
lyaskwhattheseguysdoforal
i
ving
causetheirhousesarej
ustbreat
htaki
ng
Sneh:
Mphohasahugehousey
oh
Me:
youcansayt
hatagai
n,Iwonderwhatt
heydo
Nt
okozo:
ihopet
heynotsomecr
imi
nal
sor
gangst
ers
Zandy:i
don'tcar
ewhattheydoasl
ongast
heypay
forev
eryt
hingI'
m sor
ted
Sneh:youwoul
dn'
tcar
eev
eni
ftheywer
eser
ial
ki
ll
ers
Wet ookoutevery
thi
nginthebootandwal
kedtothe
door,wefi
rsthadtofi
gureoutwheret
hedoorwas,I
thi
nkwegoi ngtobelosti
nthi
shouse
Wewalkedint
othekitchenandDannywasthere
wear
ingonlyaboxershort
.Theseguysshoul
dreal
l
y
st
opwearingboxershort
sonly,t
heytempti
ngus
Naye:ar
eyouguysbodybui
l
der
scausedzamnal
lof
yougotfi
nebodi
es
Dan:hahaiwishIwasbutthenIgottoworkwork
work(hesungandtwerked)wejustl
aughedathi
m
andputthepotsonthetabl
eandsaladsinthef
ri
dge
Dan:
fol
l
owmel
adi
es
Wegott othesecondfl
oor
,thehousehad4fl
oorsal
l
t
ogetherandthisguyst
aysalone , heshowedus
t
o"ourrooms"andweputourbagsi nandwentto
thebackyar
dwher eever
yonewaschi
l
li
ngandi
twas
nextt
ot hebraai
areaandpoolar
ea
Thabo:
HeyLadi
es
Weal lgreetedev
eryoneandsatdownandwet al
ked
aboutrandom stuffandwhatwedo.SoMphoi sa
Pil
ot,Athiisdoct
orandownsaf ewhospit
alsbyfew
Idon'
tknowhowmany .Dannyishasacompany ,he
studi
edMechani calEngi
neeri
ng,thenThaboownsa
hotelandr est
aur
antandheisachef .Nkosii
san
archi
tect,
BongaisaLawy erandThapeloisdoing
Grade11
Theyareallver
ysuccessfulandtheyallmetin
univer
sit
yandt hey'
vebeenfri
endssincethen.The
ni
ghtcont i
nuedandwehadl otsoffun,weat e
around9pm andwentt othepoolarea,thegir
ls
changedintobikini
sandweal l
wentt oswims
Nay
e:l
et'
spl
ayagame
Athi
:Let'
stakei
tbackt
otheol
dday
sandpl
aySpi
n
thebott
lebot
tl
e
L'
yanda:
Ntokozo,
Bel
i
ndaandIar
en'
tpl
ayi
ng
Zandy:t
hefunofbei ngsingle!Wet henplay
edand
thebott
lepoi
nt edatmeandi twasspunbyThabo
wethenkissed,thekissgotintenseandIjust
pull
edback,t
heguy scheeredandt hegame
conti
nuedandendedwhenev eryonehadgottena
kisswhichwasj ustst
upidbutfun, Iki
ssedDanny
andThabo
Weal l
wer edr
inki
ngandlaughingtal
ki
ngaboutHigh
schoolandmostembar r
assingmoment sonehas
wentthroughandthenThabopulledmeasideand
askedtotalkt
ome
Hi
m:Si
ya,
Ithi
nkIl
ovey
ou
Ij
ustst
oodther
eandl
aughedathi
mti
l
lIr
eal
i
zedhe
wasseri
ous
Me:
wowar
eyouser
ious
Hi
m: yeahIknowwejustmetbutIjustcan'
tstop
t
hinki
ngaboutyouandIjustneededtotel
lyou
Me:
uhm i
dontknowwhatt
osay
Him:Youdon'
thav
etosayanyt
hing,
justsayy
est
o
goi
ngonadatewithmenextFr
iday
Me:oryoucoul
djustbemydateonthel
aunchon
Fr
idayt
henjoi
nmef orl
unchonTuesday
Hi
m:soundsl
i
keapl
an.Andwhatl
aunchi
sthat
?
Me:comelet
'sj
oint
heot
her
ssoBel
i
ndawi
l
ltel
lyou
guy
saboutit
Wewentbackt otheot her
sandBel i
ndatoldthem
aboutthelaunchandt heysaidtheywil
lbe
comingcomi ng.AthiaksedZandytobeherdat e,
MphoaskedSneh, NkosiaskedNaye,Lyandaand
NtokozothenBel i
ndawi l
lgowithLubabalo.
Theni
ghtcont
inuedandwewentt
osl
eepat3am

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandshar
ewi
thf
ri
ends
I
nvi
tef
ri
endst
oread
Andcomment
[
1/11,
00:
19]Tat
enda:
Inser
t6
#Lubah

SoBel i
ndaandi aref inall
yof fi
cial,Icansayshe' s
mygi rl
friend.Ilov edhert hef ir
stt i
meIl ayedmy
eyesonher .Inev ert houghtIwoul ddat eawhi t
egi r
l
beforebutt henl i
fehappenedandIj ustl oveherbut
shehast olearnZul usooncauseIcan' tbespeaki ng
Engli
shal lt
het ime.Let 'sdot hisagai n MyName
i
sLubabal oMt ot i butev eryonecal lsmeLubah.I '
m
theCEOofMasi bambaneLogi stics, Istudi
edatt he
Universit
yofFr eeSt atewher eImetal lmyf riends.
Wehav eagr eatf riendshipbutmybestmat eis
Phil
asandeLesl eyNgcobo, hei slikemybr ot her.So
whenImetSi yamt handaIknewIknowherf rom
somewher eandwhenNkosi ment ionedt hatshe
l
ooksf ami li
arIwasv erysur eweknowher .Lat er
thatnightatt hepar tyBonga, Nkosi andIhada
conversat i
onwher eweal ltalkedabouthowwe
knowSi y a.Turnsouti tsmymat essoul mate, Phil
a
alwayst alkedaboutherandhowhewi shest hey
wouldmeetagai ncausehecannev ergetov erher .It
took2y earsf orPhi latof i
nall
ygetanot hergirlfr
iend
buthisr
elat
ionshi
psneverworkoutcausehealway
s
compareseverygi
rlt
oSiyamthanda.Whil
eIwas
wit
hBelindahecall
edmet el
l
ingmehei smovingto
DurbanandIshouldcomehelphim back.
Me:Babe,i
real
l
yhav
etogohel
pPhi
l
amov
eher
e
f
rom Jo'
burg
Bel
i
nda:
soy
ou'
regoi
ngt
oJozi
now?
Me:Yesbabei'
l
lbebacktomorrow.We'
llj
ustshi
pal
l
hi
sbelongi
ngsandf
lytoDurbantheni
'l
lhel
phim
unpack
Her
:okayI
'
llmi
ssy
ou
Andwekissedt
henIlef
t.Igott
ot heai
rpor
tand
Bongawasther
eal
readysowef lewinourpri
vat
ejet
Aft
erafewhour
swegottoj
ozi
anddr
ovet
o
Sandt
onwheremyboyl
i
ves.
Me:
Phi
l
anomphi
l
aas!
!
Phi
l
a:Nomphi
l
aaswant
onmj
i
ta
Bonga:
boywehav
egoodnews
Phi
l
a:Wai
tbef
orey
out
ell
meIgotnewsf
ory
ou
guy
s
Agir
lcameandshewasbeaut
if
ulbutIj
ustdidn'
t
l
ikeher
.Youal
waysseet
heonesthatar
eafter
moneynotl
ove
Phi
la:
Thi
si sAmanda,mygir
lf
ri
end.Mandat
hese
ar
emyf r
iendsBongaandLubabal
o
Her:Heyguyspl
easedt
omeetyou,I
'
m sogl
admy
babeismov i
ngt
oDurban,
atl
eastwe'
ll
becl
oset
o
eachother
Bonga:
oh,
soy
ou'
ref
rom Dur
ban
Her
:Yes,
Istayinwest
vil
l
eandhe'l
lbei
nHi
l
lcr
estso
he'
l
lbecl
oserthanbei
nginJozi
Ij
uststoodthereandkeptqui
et,Iwassoexci t
ed
aboutt
elli
nghim ngoSi
yabutnowt hatther
e's
Amandai nthepict
ureI
'l
lj
ustkeepev er
ythi
ngto
myself
Bonga:yeBr
a,howwil
lwetel
lPhi
l
aaboutSiy
angok?
Plusphezol
okuthi
waThabomadeamov e
kuSiy
a(andyester
day
,ThabomadeamoveonSiya)
Me:
Thi
sismessedupdudebutt
hent
hey
'l
lmeet
event
ual
l
yandt
hingswi
l
ljustsol
vet
hemsel
vesI
guess
Bonga:
ikakakel
ena,
andIhat
ethi
sAmanda
Wej ustl
aughedandpackedever
ything,
thetr
uck
fet
chedallthef
urni
tur
eanditwast henshi
ppedto
Durban.
Phi
laor
der
edsomef
oodandIwentt
ocal
lmybaby
gi
rl
Bel
i
nda:
Lubah
Me:Babe thewayy
oupr
onouncemynamej
ust
makesmelaugh
Li
nda:
ify
oucal
l
edt
ojustl
aughatmet
henby
e
Me:
babeokayI
'
m sor
ry,
what
'
shappeni
ngt
her
e
Li
nda:
Justhav
ingaf
ewdr
inksandpl
ayi
nggames
Me:
Okayt
henhav
efun,
Imi
ssy
ou
Linda:
Imissyoutoobunnbear
.You'
l
lbeher
e
tomorrowaft
ernoonr
ight
Me:Yesmam, I
'
llcomeseey
ouwhenwe'
redone
wi
thever
ythi
ng
Li
nda:
Okayby
ebae
Wesaidourgoodby
esandIthoughtofcal
li
ngSiy
a
butt
henmay bePhi
l
awouldconnectthedotssoI
won'
t
Weat
ethenwentt
osl
eepatt
hehot
el.
Thenextmor ni
ngwef lewtoDur banandgotthere
around10am.Dr ov etoHill
crestandpacked
everyt
hingforthenewhouse, itwasabi gmansion
with4Floors,weallhav emansi onsthoughweliv
e
al
one, Iguesswej ustlovebigthings butwe
workedr eal
lyhardtobet hi
ssuccessf ullsoi
tal
l
payedof f
Phi
l
a:sogent
swhatnewsdi
dyouhav
eforme?
Bonga:
Uhm aahnot
hing
Me:
wel
lther
e'sal
aunchonFr
idaysowei
nvi
ti
ngy
ou
Bonga:
ohy eahyeaht
hat
,it
sjustsomebusiness
bet
weenlubah'
scompanyandanot hercompany
Phi
l
a:whi
chcompany
?
Wekeptqui
etandl
ookedateachot
her
Bonga:
itsasecr
et
Phi
l
a:okayIguessI
'
llf
indoutonFr
iday

#Si
ya
It
sMondaymor ningagai n backt owork!The
weekendi sover,howIwi shitcoul djuststartover
.A
l
othappenedt hisweekendandIenj oyedev ery
si
nglepi eceofit.ThaboandIchatal otandhecal ls
andwet alkforhour s, hei sagr eatguybutt her
e's
j
ustnot hingtherelikenospar k,IthoughtI'
m
compar inghimt oPhi lasandekodwanoIj ustdon't
getexcitedy ouknow.AndIdowantt omov eonso
I'
l
ljustgiveThaboat r
y .Iknowi t'
stoosoont ojudge
butthenIhav eto,j
ustt obeont hesaf eside.SoI
wokeanddi dmydai lyr outinethenwentdownst ai
rs
Nceba:
Mor
ningSesi
Me:
andwhyar
eyousoear
ly?
Nceba:
Thapel
oispi
cki
ngmeupsoIhav
etobe
ear
ly
Me:
scor
ingpoi
ntsnhe? andwi
thwhose
per
missi
on?
Nceba:
sisi
pleasepl
ease?
Me:
what
'shappeni
ngbet
weeny
out
oo
Nceba:
not
hing
Me:
thent
hat
'sano
Nceba:
okayf
inewe'
redat
ing
Me:
hehy
ou'
reonl
y17
Her
:andy
ouwer
e14wheny
oudat
edPhi
l
a
Me:
what
ever
,okayy
oucangowi
thhi
m
Nceba:
thanky
ou Pocketmoneypl
ease?
Me:
Thapel
owi
l
lgi
vey
ou
Nceba:
awukodwasi
sipl
ease
Me:
takemoneyi
nmybag,
its2000soi
twi
l
llasty
ou
f
ort
he2months
Nceba:
Thanky
ou
Ihadbreakf
astandZandycamet
opi
ckmeupi
na
Bentl
ey!
Me:
wher
edi
dyougett
hismachi
ne!
!!
Zandy
:inmpho'
sgar
agesi
sii
twascal
l
ingoutmy
namesoIdeci
detobor
rowi
t
Me: zandyt
hough,
sowear
ri
vi
nginaBentl
ey
t
oday,
wehavetoshowof
fBr
andonneedst
osee
t
his
Zandy:y
esandtheyneedt
oseet
hatyou'r
enot
weari
ngBlackt
oday Iseeyou'
removingonf
rom
phi
la
YeahyeahI'
m weari
ngaredt
ightdr
ess,
kneel
engt
h
wit
hredloubout
inheel
s
Me:Changeisgood andi
tsnotaboutPhi
l
aandI
dowearothercol
our
s
Zandy:
Boboy ou'
real
way
swear
ingBl
ack,
onewoul
d
swearyou'
reawidow
wejustlaughedgotyowork, y
ep!Alleyes
wereonus,li
kewhowoul dn'
tl
ook,wear r
ivingi
na
Bentl
ey!Andwedidn'tparkatournormal carpar
k,
weparkedwithatthebossesparkinglotso
ever
yonewill
gettoseeus
#LBUBT
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1/11,
00:
19]Tat
enda:
Inser
t7

Igott
omyof fi
ceandBrandonwasr
unni
ngaft
er
Zandygoingt
oheroff
iceI'
m sur
ehi
sgoi
ngtoask
forari
de.Bel
i
ndawalkedin
Me:
Wel
lyou'
regl
owi
ng
Li
nda:
YeahI
'
m happybutIj
ustneedt
olear
nZul
u
Me: Lubahalr
eadycompl
aini
ng?Comel
et'
ssend
hi
m at
extinZul
u
Shecamewi thherphoneandshewasv er
yexci
ted
thetextmessagewas" Lubabal
oMt ot
i,
Ngiyakuthanda,f
uthingizohl
ezingi
kut
handa" then
Itaughtherhowt opronouncethewordsetcandshe
wasl ear
ningreal
lyfastsoinafewmont hsshe'
l
lbe
perfect
Wethengott
owor
k,Idi
dsomepaperworkt
hen
wentt
omeetupwi
thmystaf
fforameeti
ngthen
hadameet i
ngwi t
hZandyandtheCFO.Belindawas
prepar
ingever
ythi
ngweneedf orFr
idayandshe
rushedofft
oameet i
ngwithLubabalo'
sPA.Theday
wentbyrealqui
ckandwedr ovehome.
Igothome, changedint
oaaddidastr
acksui
tand
yeezysneakers.Ncebachangedi
ntoaNiketracksui
t
withyeezysneakers
Nceba:
Siy
aphi
(wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
)
Me:
Togetgr
ocer
iesf
ormom t
hengot
okwaMashu
Nceba:
okay
,wehav
en'
tseenheri
nawhi
l
ehey
SowegottoPavi
l
ion,gotgr
oceri
esandIboughther
anewdinni
ngt
ableandTVwhi chwil
lbedel
iv
ered
tomor
rowandwewentt oherhouse
Mom:
whatal
ovel
ysur
pri
se!
NcebahuggedherandIdi
dthesameandwe
gr
eetedandwenttopackal
lthegr
ocer
ies
Mom:
thankmychi
l
dren,
how'
sschool
mybaby
?
Il
eftNcebaandherastheyweret
alki
ngandwentt
o
myoldroom.Itst
il
ll
ooksthesame,mom di
dn'
t
changeanyt
hingnIwon'
ttel
lheraboutt
hefur
nit
ure
comingtomorrow justt
osurpri
seher,t
henI
cal
ledBabal
wa
Me:
Bee!
Bee:
Bobowakhe♥
Me:
whenar
eyoucomi
ngback
Bee:
onWednesdayI
'
llbet
her
e
Thenwet al
kedandputt hephoneonl oudspeakerso
wecoul dalltal
ktoher .Wet henhadsupperwi t
h
mom, howImi ssedherf ood .Wet hensaidour
goodby esandwenthome, whenwegothomeIhad
somei ce'cr
eam whi l
etalki
ngt oThaboandhe
remindedmeaboutl unchngomso i m not
exci
ted butI'
llgiv
ehi m achance..
.

#Lubah
Yest
erdayIgotat
extfr
om Beli
ndaandi
twaswri
tt
en
i
nZulus mybabewast r
yingheyt
henIcal
l
edher
andwesaidourgoodbyes
Phi
l
awal
kedi
ntomyof
fi
ce
Me:
andwhenar
eyoust
art
ingwor
k?
Phil
a:heyhowar
eyouPhi
l
a?Woul
dbeni
cey
ou
know
Me:
tsekkwedi
ni!Sowhat
'
sup?
Phi
l
a:Not
hingmuchbr
ojustbor
edathomesi
nce
Amandai
satworksoIt
houghtI
'dpopby
Me:
aboutAmandamj
i
ta,
doy
oul
oveher
?
Phi
la:yeahntwanawe' vebeent oget
herfor6mont
hs
andthat'
sthelongestrelat
ionshipI'
vehadwith
anyonesinceNdyamt handa
Me:I
fyou'
dmeetSiy
aagainwhatwoul
dyoudo?
Li
kemeetherwhi
l
ey oudat
ingAmanda
Phil
a:whydoyoucall
herSi
ya?Andthat'
sprett
y
obvi
ousmfoI'
dleaveAmanda,Nyamthandaismy
soul
matebro
Me: ohwel lIj
ustf
iguredsi
ncehernamei
s
Siy
amt handaI '
dcall
herSiy
acauseIcan'
tsay
ndyamt handa
Phi
l
a:yeahthat'
soffl
imit
smanIonlyuset
hatname
,
herfr
iendsusedtocal
lherSi
yaohuMashezi
wam madoda
Icoul
dseeclearl
ythatPhil
awasst i
ll
inlovewith
Siy
aandsuspectingsomethingsoIshouldstop
aski
ngaboutSiyafornowandIhav etocallThabo
andtel
lhi
mt ostophitt
ingonSiya.We'l
ldealwit
h
Amandawhent hetimecomes
Wehadl
uncht
oget
herandhel
eftaf
teranhour
Igotbackt
owor kwhil
stIwasworki
ngIgotacal
l
fr
om Bonga,hewaswi t
hDannyandLyandasowe
puti
tonloudspeaker
Me:
Gent
s
Bonga:
Igotani
deat
osol
veourpr
obl
em man
Dan:
whatpr
obl
em?
Wet
oldt
hem ev
ery
hingaboutPhi
l
aandSi
ya
Ly
anda:
SoSi
yai
sthesoul
mat
e?Ndy
amt
handa?
Me:
yes
Dan:
thi
sismessedup,
yest
erdayThabowasbusy
t
ell
i
ngmehowexcit
edhei
saboutt
hel
atel
unch
t
heyhav
ingt
oday
Bonga:
didhesaywher
etheygoi
ng
Dan:YeahMusgr
aveatci
rcusandci
rcuscaf
eat
14pm
Lyanda:I
tsti
metogatecr
ash!
!Lubahwecomi
ngt
o
fet
chy ounow,weal
ready15minutesl
ate
Theseguysthough sorr
yThabomanbutwedoi ng
thi
sforPhi
laplusl
astt
imeIcheckedThabohasa
gir
lf
ri
endsomakangaqhel
i!
Theyarr
ivedanwedr oveofftoMusgrav
et henwe
sawthem tal
ki
ngshittheyabouttoki
ss!!Weranto
thet
ableanddist
urbbeforetheycoul
ddoi t thank
God!
Thabowaspi
ssedof
fIcoul
dseei
tinhi
sey
es
#Si
ya
SoIgottoworkthi
smor ni
ngandnothingwast hat
hect
icandthedaywentby,itwasti
mef ormyl at
e
l
unchwithThaboatMusgrav e,wewentt oci
rcus
andcir
cuscafeandther
ehewasi nabl acksuit
Me:
heyy
oul
ookgood
Hi
m:Thankyou,
youl
ookgor
geous,
andIwor
eyour
f
avor
it
ecolour Nay
etol
dme
Gosh ifonlyy
ouheknewt
her
easonwhyandI
hopehedoesn'
task
Me:
yeahi
tis
Wesatdownnhekeptont el
li
ngmeabouthi sf
amily
,
i
fIwaswi t
hPhil
awewoul dbef ooli
ngaroundwith
thewai t
ersandwai
tressesri
ghtnow whi l
eIwas
deepi nmythought
sIsawThabol eani
ngov erf
ora
kiss!Howdidwegether e?SoIleanedovertooand
closedmyey es
"Heeeey!
!!
!!
"Loudmal ev
oicesbr oughtusbackt o
real
it
ybeforeanythi
ngcouldhappen i t
swas
Lubah,Danny,BongaandLy anda.Theyreal
lysaved
met her
efrom whatIdon'
tknowcauseI '
vekissed
thi
sguybef or
e
Bonga:
heyguy
swe'
rej
oini
ngy
ou
Ly
anda:
wecan'tr
eal
lysi
tonsepar
atet
ablesandwe
ar
efami
lysoI
'
m sureyouwon'
tmind,r
ight
Thabo?
Wej ustl
aughedandhadagreatlat
elunchtoget
her.
Theymadeal otofnoi
sebri
ngingatt
entiont
ous
whichwasjustsoembarr
assing butf un!Wethen
l
eftandIdrovehometookashowerandcooked
supper

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandsuppor
t
[
1/11,
00:
20]Tat
enda:
Inser
t8

It
'sWednesdayandmyBeei scomi ng!!I
'm so
exci
tedIhaven'tseenherf orav erylongtime soI
wokeup, tookashowerandt henlotionedmybody .
Iworeanav yjumpsui tandbl ackheel s,wit
hanavy
GuccibagandRol exwat ch.Madeamessybunwi t
h
myar t
if
ici
aldreadlocks.Wal keddownst ai
rsand
Ncebawasal readyhav ingbr eakfast,shedoesn'
tgo
toschoolwithmeany mor esoi m stressfree
Nceba:
Sist
erapl
easebuymet
oil
etr
iesandt
hings
f
orl
unchsuchascheese,
let
tuceet
c
Me:
youandl
unch?Si
ncewhen?
Nceba:
wel
lThapel
oalwayscar
ri
eslunchandwe
shar
esoIf
igur
edIshoul
dalsocarr
ylunch
Me:wowI '
mimpressed okayIwi
l
lgety
ou
ev
eryt
hingyouneedsweet
ie
Iwalkedoutandzandywasalr
eadywai
ti
ngfor
me noBent l
ytoday.Wedr
ovetoworkandhada
l
ightconver
sati
on
It
henwenttomyoff
icetookof
fmyheel
sandputon
mysli
pper
sandgottoworkaft
eraf
ewhours,
ar
ound12:
30Nkosiwalkedi
n
Nkosi
:MaShezi
omuhl
e
Me:
Khabazel
a
Nkosi
:howar
eyou?
Me:
im goodt
hanksandy
our
sel
f?
Nkosi
:I'
m okay
,wel
lIwasar
oundsoij
ustt
houghti
d
comebyandsayhey wher ei
szandy
'sof
fi
ce?
Me:
oht
hat
'ssosweetofy
ou,
comel
etmet
akey
ou
t
her
e
WewalkedtoZandy'
soff
ice,
onthewaywemetwi
th
Chel
sea(col
l
eague)andMrShezi
Uncl
e:Bobo,
wil
lyoui
ntr
oducemet
oyourboy
fri
end?
Me:(
laughs)dadnomanthi
sisnotmyboy f
ri
end
NkosimeettheCEOofSheziLogi
sti
csandheismy
f
ather
Nkosi
:Nkosi
Mkhize(
heshakedhandswi
thdad)
pl
easedtomeety
ousir
Dad:
MrShezi
,pl
easedt
omeety
out
ooson
Andwegott
ozandy
'sof
fi
ce
Zandy
:Nkosi
!Whatani
cesur
pri
se
Nkosiandzandyexchangedgr
eet
ingsandwe
or
deredlunch
Nkosi
:idi
dn'
tknowMrShezi
isy
ourf
atherSi
ya
Me:y
eahheisn'
tmyf
ather
,hei
smyunclebutIgr
ew
upwi
thhi
m asmyfat
herfi
gur
esoIcal
lhi
m dad
Wehadal ovel
yconv
ersat
ionwhi
l
eeat
ingsome
nandoschi
cken
Nkosi
:wehav
eapr
obl
em
Zandy
:int
oni
(Whati
sit
?)
Nkosi
:DannyandBongadon'
thav
edat
esf
orFr
iday
Me: t
hat'
snotaprobl
em,Babal
wai
scomingsoI'
ll
cal
lherandtel
lhertocomewit
hZi
yanda(
Snehs
si
ster)
Nkosi
:Iguesswesor
tedt
hen
Wetal
kedandtal
kedt
il
ll
unchwasov eronourway
outwemetwit
hBabal
waandZi y
andarunni
ngtous!!
!
Woowaaaaaaah!
!Weallscr
eamedandNkosiwas
l
ost
Nkosi
:
(cl
ear
sthr
oat
)Ladi
eswear
eatawor
kpl
ace
Zandy
:aysukamanwena!
Me:whatacoi
nci
dencewewer
etal
ki
ngabouty
ou
guy
sli
keafewminutesago
Nkosi:
soIguessthi
sisBabal
waandZi
yanda,
hey
I
'm Nkosi
Mkhize
Me:ohsorr
yNkosi
itot
all
yfor
gotabout
i
ntr
oduct
ions
Bee:
wher
ear
eyourmanner
ssi
si? i
m Babal
wa
Zee:
im zi
yandabutcal
lmeZee
Nkosi:Dannyandbongswilll
ovethei
rdates guy s
Ihavetoloveandleav
ey ouIhavetomeetupwi t
h
theguysseey ouonFri
day,Si
yaI'
mt aki
ngyourcar
youtakemi ne
Me:
okaycakesby
e
Weswopeourkey
sandhewal
ksaway
Zee:
okayI
'
mlost
Bee:metoo?Dat
es?Dannyandbongs?Swopi
ng
car
s?Fri
day?
Zandy:i
fyoutwower
en'tst
rangersyouwoul
dknow
ever
ythi
ng.Li
keweallst
ayinDurbankodwaNina
ni
bonwat wi
ceayear
Me:
you'
reexagger
ati
ngnow
Wewal kedi
ntozandy
'sof
fi
ceandt
oldthem
ever
ythingf
rom howwemetandever
ythi
ngthathas
happened
Zee:
wowIl
i
ket
heseguy
sal
ready
,Ican'
twai
tto
meett
hem al
l
,Beei
mtaki
ngDanny
Bee:y
ousof or
war
dyanday
anda,
guy
sit
s4al
ready
don'
tyouknockof
fat4?
Me:whatit
's4alreadyyohBel
i
ndawil
lki
llmewe
supposedtogoshoppinganddoourhai
rforf
ri
day
.
I'
l
lcal
lherandreschedulef
ort
omorr
ow
Wepackedupandwentt
othepar
kingl
otandZandy
dr
oveushome
!
!!
!aaaaaaaaaah!
!!
!Zeescr
eamsweallrunt
osee
andtherewasaBl ackBMW R8,
itbel
ongst
onkosi
welli
tsoneofhiscars
Me:
zeewhydi
dyouhav
etoscr
eam somuch
Bee:
ItsanR8!Whowoul
dn'
tscr
eam
Zandy:weget
ti
ngusedtot
hisl
i
fe,
wedr
ovea
Bentl
eyonMondaysisi
Zee:
howr
ichar
ethey
?
Me:
justwaitandseey
ou'
l
lfi
ndoutoncey
ousee
t
hei
rhouses!
Wewal
kedi
nsi
deandzandydr
oveof
f
Iwentt
otakeshowerl
eav
ingzeenbeet
ocook

#Nkosi
Soaft
erIl
eftt
hegi
rlsIwentt
omeettheguysat
Phi
la'
snewhouseandAmandawasar ound we
j
ustal
lhat
eherwellbesi
desThabo
Me:
MaGent
s!Isal
uted
Bonga:
whyar
eyoudr
ivi
ngSi
..
.ImeanSt
he'
scar
?
Healmostsai
dSiya!Weplannedtohidet
hatwe
knowSiy
aandt hey
'dmeetont hel
aunchonFri
day
Me:
ohweexchangedcar
s
Phi
l
a:Whoi
sSt
he?
Lubah:
somegi
rlweknow
Phil
a:ohwhenwillImeetal
lthesegirl
syoualways
tal
kabout,Ir
eal
l
ywannameett hem Beli
ndagotmy
guywhippedsoIjustneedt
oknowher
Danny
:you'
l
llov
ethem
At
hi:
you'
l
lreal
l
ylov
ethem andhopef
ull
yfor
get
aboutAmanda
Phi
l
a:Ihear
dyou
At
hi:
Iwasn'
twhi
sper
ing
Me:DannyandBongayouguyswil
ll
oveyourdat
es!
Theyar
esmokinghot! butnotashotasNaye
Phil
a:woahwoahwoahsoy
ouguy
sar
einl
ovewi
th
thesegi
rl
s
Lyanda:
well
I'm dat
ingNtokozo,
Lubahi
sdating
Beli
ndaandtheseguyshaveacrushonthem
Danny:letmeexpl
ainf
oryouphil
a,t
heseguysare
whipped!Mpholov
esZandy,Nkosil
ovesNayeh:
Athi
l
ovesSnehnBongaandIwe' r
ethesingl
eones
Me:youwon'
tbesay
ingt
hatoncey
ouseeZee
Danny
Bonga:
Soi
guessBeei
smydat
e
Thabo:
Whataboutme?Il
ove
Us:
Sthe!
!!
!
Weal
lshout
edwel
lbesi
desPhi
l
a
Phi
l
a:If
eel
li
key
ou'
rehi
dingsomet
hingf
rom me
Lubah:
uhm l
i
kewhat
?Whywoul
dwedot
hat
At
hi:
let
'sj
ustwat
chsoccerandgetdr
unk
Phi
l
a:y
ouguy
sar
egoi
ngt
owor
ktomor
row
Me:whenhast
hatev
erst
oppedusf
rom get
ti
ng
dr
unk
Wewatchedsocceranddr
ankl
i
ket
her
e'sno
t
omorr
ow!

#Si
ya
*
Thur
sday
*

SoIgott
owor
kandcal
l
edmydesi
gnerThembi
Her
:heySi
ya
Me:
heyIneedabl
ackdr
ess
Her
:Ihav
ejustt
her
ightonef
ory
ou
Me:
youdon'
tev
enknowwhatIneedi
tfor
Her
:Bel
indaal
readyt
oldmeaboutt
hel
aunchdear
sodon'
tstr
ess
Me:
she'sal
i
fesav
ersoI
'
llpi
cki
tuponFr
iday
mor
ning
Wesaidourgoodby
esandIwentt
oseedaddybut
unf
ort
unatel
yhewasnott
here.
Iwasn'tfeelingwellt
odayandIwasjustt ootir
edso
It
ookt her estofthedayoffpl
uswewer egiven
Fr
idayof fsincethewehadt oprepar
ef orthelaunch
soIdrovehomei nmyR8 whi chai
n'tmi ne t hen
wentstraighttobed

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I
tsFr
iday!
!!
!!
!!
!! thedaywe'vebeenwait
ingf
or
hasf
inal
l
ycome!I '
m soexcitedI
'm act
ual
l
yjumping
onmybed!!Screamingoutloud
Iwal
kedoutofmyr
oom andr
ant
oBabal
wasr
oom
andshewasf
astasl
eepwi
thZee
Me:Wakeup!
!Ijumpedont hebed!Screami
ngout
l
oud Idon'tknowwhyI '
m soexcit
edbutitseems
l
ikei
t'
sgoi
ngtobeagr eatdayandnight!
Zee:
Whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou!
Me:
whatwast
hat
?Idi
dn'
theary
ou
Irantot hekit
chenandtookafryi
ngpananda
spoon, hitt
hepanwithaspoonmaki ngal
oudnoi
se,
Ihiti
thar doverzeenbee'
sheads IswearI'm
behavingl i
kea5yearol
dbutIjustwantt
oannoy
them,Iwal kedint
oNceba'sr
oom andwokeherup
aswell!
Nceba:
gosh!I'
m awakenowst
opgeezy
ou'
reapai
n
i
nthearsedudestop!
.
Iwalkedoutofherroom andwentt
omake
breakfastf
orev
eryonewhilel
i
steni
ngt
osome
musicIgotacallf
rom Sneh
Sneh:st
handwai
t'
sFr
iday
!!Weal
lcomi
ngt
her
eli
ke
ri
ghtnowsowakeup
Me:
you'
rel
atesi
siIwokeupkudal
aI'
m soexci
tedI
thoughtIwast heonlyoneexcitedsincethepeople
I'
m witharejustbori
ngandasl eep,Babalwawal ks
i
nandsay s:
don'tli
ewe'reawakenow, thanksto
Siya.SnehdroppedthephoneandImademor e
breakfastsi
ncethegirl
sarealsocomi ngov er.It
ook
ashowerandwor emydeni m shortdressand
addidasZXFl uxthenwentbackt othegi r
ls.
Zee:
sowhat
'shappeni
ng
Beli
nda:
we'r
egoingtothemallnowandat6Ihave
togototheHot
elandcheckifever
ythi
ngisi
norder
I
'l
lmeetyouguy
st her
esinoLubahandhisot
her
fr
iend
Zandy
:whoi
stheot
herf
ri
end?
Bel
inda:Idon'
tknow,hei
spar
tofthecrewwe'
ve
j
ustnevermethim si
ncehest
ayedinJozi
Nay
e:ohwel
lwe'
l
lmeethi
mtoni
ght
Weallf
ini
shupandgowi t
hseparat
ecars.
Zee,
Naye,
NtokozoandBelindaar
einonecar (
Audi
A3)Me,Sneh,ZandyandBeei nt
heother(R8)sowe
gotoPavi
li
onandt henwewenttothesalonandwe
al
ldeci
dedthatwe'reput
ti
ngonweav e'
s.Wewer e
allt
alki ngandl aughingoutloudwi ththehair
styl
ist
s,
Salongossi pi sjustalwaysthebest t hesepeople
tal
kliket here'
snot omor r
ow,ididal ongPeruvi
an
weav e18i nchsodi dNt okozoandSneh, Nayedida
Bobl engt hBrazili
anweav esodi dNcebaandBee.
Theot hersdid16inchMal ay
sianweav e.Weal l
did
ournai lsandmi newer enude,Ijustwantedtokeep
i
tsimpl eyetclassyandIdon' tev enknowwhatmy
dressl ooksl i
kebutIj ustknowi t
'sBlack but
Thembi wi
llneverdissapointmesoI '
m notthat
nervousabouti t.Wet hanwentt owax(f ul
lbody)
ghaar d!Itwaspai nfullbutworthit
Zandy
:yoht
hatwashect
ic
Zee:
IthoughtmyNanawascomi
ngout
Thesegir
lst
hough,i
twasalready1pm sowewent
drovet
oCali
forni
aDreamingtoHaveLunchandi
ts
cl
osertowherewe'l
lbefet
chingourdr
esses
Bel
inda:
youguy sl
ookamazingal
ready Iwonder
howwe'llbeonceweall
dol
ledup
Nay
e:we'
l
lbedr
ippnsaucegi
rlIt
ell
you
Ourfoodcameandweat ewhilehavingconver
sati
on
Zeewast ell
ingusaboutwhathappenedwi t
hherex
boyfri
end.Apparentl
yhecheatedwi t
hsomegi rlso
that'
showi tended.I
'veneverexper
iencedallt
hat,
Phil
aandIdi dhaveourf i
ghtsandallbuthehad
nevercheatedonmet houghtthefi
veyearswe
dated,wehadonl ybrokeup3times.
Wethendrov etoThembi '
stheother
swentt o
Davi
d'stofetchthei
rdressesther
e.Wellwehave
di
ff
erentdesignerssoweswopedsomewher e
goi
ngt oDurbanNor t
handwewer eatDurbanSout
h
Thembi
:l
adi
es,
comei
nyourdr
essesar
eready
Wetookt hem andl eft,
wedi dn'treal
lyf i
tthem weall
wantedtoseet hem whenweal ltogetherathome, I
gotatextfrom Dannyi treadsasf ol
l
ows: "
HeySiya,
wouldyoual lpl
easegopr epareatBonga' shouse
andwe'llf
etchthem t hereohandt el
l Zeetolook
amazingandIcan' twai ttomeether " seemsl i
ke
Dannyhaspi ckedwhoherdat ei s.Itoldthegir
lsI
waswi t
handweal l j
ustlaughed
Zandy
:yazi
Iwasaf
rai
dthatsi
nceZeewant
ed
Dannyasherdat
e,DannywouldwantBee but
thankgodev
eryt
hingworkedout
Me:kungabaiFl
opbruh (
thatwoul
dbea
mess)WeallmetagainatRedSquaretobookfor
makeupar t
ist
stogoov eratBonga'
shousei
n
Hi
ll
crest
Bee:
Whywi
l
ltheygot
obonga'
shouse?
Sneh:
Dannysai
dso Si yapl
easereadt
he
messagesomeoneneedst
ohearit
Ireadt hemessageandZeewasgoingcr
azy we
j
ustl aughedatheranddr
ovetomyapart
mentto
fetchev er
ythi
ngweneedthendr
ovetoBonga'
s
mansi on
Bee:yoh!I
'm goi
ngt opr
oposetoBongawowthi
s
houseisbeautif
ul!Andhuge!Wher
edidyoumeet
theseguysagain
Zee:
pleasedon'
tembar
rassus,
aret
heyi
nsi
de?
Nt
okozo:
Not
heyget
ti
ngr
eadyatAt
hi'
shouse
Nceba:
Howdoy
ouknow?
Nt
okozo:
duhbaet
oldme
Weallwalkedi
nsideandthehelpershowedust he
room we'
dbeusingitwasahuger oom wi
thmirror
s
andstool
sandtablesl
ikeadressingroom usedin
fashi
onshows
Zandy
:whydoesbongahav
ethi
sroom
Helper:
weorgani
zedt
hisr
oom y
est
erdayj
ustf
or
youladies
Nceba:
wowt
hat
'
samazi
ng,
thanky
ouv
erymuch
Otherpeopl
ewal
kedinwit
hdr
inksandf
oodand
somesnackswit
hfrui
ts
Guy:Ther
eisaBunchofredrosesandanot
eforMs
BabalwaShezi
andhelookedaround
Bee:
thatwoul
dbemesi
r,t
hanky
ouv
erymuch
Thehelper
swalkedoutandweallwant
edt
ohear
whatthenotesayssoBeereadi
t
Bee:
MaShezi,Iheardyournamei sBee,
soIdecided
togetyouf
lowers,Ithoughtofsunfl
owersbutmost
peopl
eareall
ergictothem,soIboughtthesered
r
oses,Ihopey
ou'l
ll
ovet
hem justasIhopeyou'
ll
li
ke
me.Ican'
twai
ttomeetyou,
Masi ganandaomuhl
e
Your
s:Bongani
Lut
hul
i
Weal
lscr
eamed aaaah!
!Ncooooh!
Bee:
thi
sguyissosweetli
kehedoesn'
tev
enknow
meyethedoessomethi
ngsospecial
Nceba:
ncoohI
'
mjeal
ous
Me:
aaahI
'
m sohappyf
ory
ou!
Themakeupar t
istsarri
vedandwegotseat edthe
di
dt hei
rmagi
c.Wewer ealldonearound7sowe
onlyhadanhourleftt
odot hefinal
touchesandget
dressed
Yey!mydresswasf l
ames!! weal ldecidedtogo
dressupinseparateroomssowe'dseeeachot her
downstair
ssoIleftwithmymakeupar t
istcauseI
knewI '
dneedhelpIgotdressedandwent
downstair
sIwast hesecondlastt
ogett hereand
theywereallsl
ayi
ng!Ncebawast helastone,lat
eas
always!
Nceba-Dust
ypi
nkt
ightdr
esswi
thanopensl
i
tfr
om
t
het
highandsi
l
verst
il
ett
o's
Bee-RedSi
lkdressthatwasshortbutel
egant
,ti
ght
,
huggi
ngherinallt
herightpl
aceswithbl
ackstr
ap
heel
s
Naye-Vi
oletSpar
kli
ngmar
mai
ddr
esswi
thsi
l
ver
heel
s
Sneh-Shor
tBurgundyDresswi
thacutouti
nthe
fr
ontshowingt
hecleavageandbl
ackheel
s
Me-LongBlackspar
kli
ngmarmaiddresswi
than
openbackwithbl
acklamboghi
niheel
s
Zandy-Whi
tet
ightdr
esswi
thal
ongt
ail
andwhi
te
heel
s
Zee-Gol
dDr
essBoob-
tubel
ongdr
esswi
thgod
st
il
ett
oes
Nt
okozo-RoyalBl
ueshor
tdresswi
thanopenback
wi
thbl
ackloubouti
nheel
s.
Zandy:Wowguyswelookamazi
ng!
!goshcomel
et'
s
takesomepi
ctur
es!
!!
!
Me:
Ican'
twai
ttoseet
heguy
sandBel
i
nda!
Wet
ooksomanyphot
osandt
hedoorbel
lrang
Theguyswal
kedi
nlooki
nghandsome!
!Dr
ippn
sauce
Theywereallwear
ingbl
ackt
ail
oredsui
tsandbl
ack
Versaceshoes
Nkosi:wowwowwowwow!Iam st
unned!I
'
mjust
speechless
Danny
:Zi
yanda?Hel
ookedar
ound
Zee:I
'm Zi
yandaandshewal
kedt
ohi
m andt
hey
hugged
Danny:youl
ookgor
geousbet
tert
hant
hewayNkosi
descr
ibedyou
Weal
ll
aughedandwentt
oourdat
es
Thabohel
dmyhandandwewenttohi
scar,
I
real
i
zedNkosi
wasn'
tdr
ivi
ngmycarsoIt
ext
edhi
m
Me:
wher
eismycar
?
Hi
m:ohmyfr
iendt
ookit
,hereal
lyl
ovesi
t,don'
t
wor
ryy
ou'
l
lmeethi
m atthel
aunch
Wedr
ovewhi
l
eThabospokeabouthi
msel
f he
i
sreall
ygoingtoboremetoni
ghtsoIwil
lfi
ndmy
sel
f
anewdat e.Wegotther
eanditwasbeaut
if
ul
br
eathtaki
ngItel
lyou
Beli
ndadidagoodj ob,sowewentoutandtal
kedon
theredcarpetwit
hthepaparazzi
taki
ngpi
ctur
esand
doinganinter
viewwithLubah
Journal
i
st:
MsShezi
,wewoul
dli
ketoknowabout
thepart
ner
shi
pwi
thMrMtoti
onthi
snewbusiness
deal
Me:sti
ckaroundt
oni
ghtandyou'
llgetev
ery
thi
ng
youneedtoknowandwe'l
lbetal
ki
ngquesti
onslat
er.
Andi
wal
kedov
ert
oLubah
Hi
m:y
oul
ookamaz
ing! wehugged
Me:
wher
eismyBel
i
nda
Bel
i
nda:
rightbehi
ndy
ou
Itur
nedandshewasst unnywit
hawhit
esparkl
i
ng
l
ongdressthathuggedherbodyandwasf
lowyat
thebot
tom andalongtail
Wescr
eamedandhugged sheki
ssedLubah
Me:nopI'
mtaki
ngy
ourl
adyweneedt
ogot
othe
gi
rl
sinsi
de
LubahI
'
m goi
ngi
nsi
det
oosol
et'
sal
lgo
Wet henwalkedinsideandmyey esjustmetwi
th
hi
m Icoul dn'tbeli
eveit
,it
shi
mi tsPhil
a!Hej
ust
stoodther
eandst ar
edatmeandnoneofussai d
anythi
ngandt earsjustf
ell
downmycheeks

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t10
#Phi
l
a
EversinceImov edt oDur ban,myboy shavebeen
acti
ngr eallystrangeandt heyhateAmandal ike
peri
od!SoweatBar berShopcut ti
ngourhai rfor
tonight.Ijustcan' twaittomeett hesegirl
s,that'
sal l
theseguy severt alkaboutbutt here'
sjustsomet hing
theyhidingandsomet hi
ngwei rdaboutthis"Sthe."I'
l
l
fi
ndoutt onightthoughsoaf terwewer edonewe
wentt ogetdr essedatLubah' shouseandt heguy s
l
eftt ogopi ckupt heirdatesatBonga'shouse.We
wereal lwear i
ngbl ackt ailoredsui ts.Andbl acki smy
favor i
tecol our.Amandawaswear i
ngsomepur ple
dress andshewaspr ettyIguess.Il i
keAmanda
butshe' sj usttoomuch!Idon' tknowhowI '
vel asted
6mont hswi thherper hapsIj ustwantt oforgetabout
Ndy amt handa.Ohbyt heway ,I'
m Phi lasandeLesl ey
Ngcobo.Bor nandbr eadi naeMl azi kwaV.Igr ewup
thereandi nhi ghschool i att
endedatStHenr y'
s
wher ei metSi yamthandaAbongi l
eShezi ingr ade8,
wewer eint hesamecl assIwassoshyandaf raidof
herbutshekeptont alkingt omesoIl i
ghtenedup
andgott oknowherandshewasal l Ieverthought
of.Shegotal ongwi thev eryoneandt hat'
sj ustwhat
Ili
kedabouther ,
shei sl ov i
ng, caringandt her e'sjust
somet hingaboutherey est hatj ustmakemegetl ost
i
nt hem whi leIjustadmi reher .She'dal way scat ch
mest aringatherbutonedayIcaughtherst ari
ngi t
me.I ttookmeamont ht oaskheroutheybuti twas
wor thitcauseshewasj ustspeci al.West arted
datingont he31stofMar ch, we'rebot hbor nin
Febr uaryandI '
m 12day sol dert henherandIal way s
remi ndedher wedat edt il
l wewer ei nGr ade12, I
alway st houghtwe' dbet oget herfor everbutl i
fe
happened.Af t
erhi ghschool Iwenttot heFreeSt at
e
andSt udi
edther e,I'
m anAr chit
ect,Ihav e
3compani esnow, oneinFreeSt ate,oneinJozi and
onei nDur ban.Ideci dedtomov etoDur bansinceI'd
becl oset omyf riendsandf ami l
y.Ihav eboth
par entsandoney oungerbr otherandt wool der
sisters.I'
m 24y ear soldandI '
m av erysuccessful
youngman.Lastt i
mehear df r
om Ndy amthandawas
5y earsagoandshewasi nCapeTown
Lubah:
Mji
tast
opdaydr
eami
ngweneedt
ogo
Me:
sor
rybr
uhIwasj
ustt
hinki
ng
Abeauti
ful
ladywal
kedi
nandshei
ntr
oducedher
sel
f
asBel
inda.
Me:soyou'
ret
heBel
i
ndat
hatwhi
pped
Lubah
Her
:Ibel
i
eveIam
Wehadasmal
lconv
ersat
ionget
ti
ngt
oknoweach
ot
her
IwentthecarIwasdr
ivi
ngtoni
ght,i
twasABlack
MecerdezBenzG63Ijustl
ovedi
t.Ibor
rowedi
tfr
om
Nkosihesai di
tbelongst othisSthet hathasno
surname.Itwasv erywei r
dcausei tsmel tof
Siyamthandaormay beIwasj ustbeingcr azyand
therewasapackofRedbul lonthepassenger sseat
,
myf avori
te!Well
itwasNdy amthanda' sfavori
te
sheusedt odri
nkt hewhol epackinj ustonehour
andnowI 'm al
soaddi cted.GodknowshowmuchI
missandl ongforhert ouch.
Amanda:
babewe'r
eher
enow.You'
vebeeni
nyour
ownworl
dsincet
heent
ir
eday
Me:
Sor
ryManda
Her
:don'
ttel
lmey
ou'
ret
hinki
ngaboutt
hatgi
rl
Me:
don'
tst
art j
ustshutupandgetoutofmycar
Shegotoutandwai tedf ormeout sidewhiletaking
pict
ures,shelovesat tenti
on.If
inall
ygotoutand
wentov ertoLubah, wet ookafewpi ct
urestogether
andBel i
ndawalkedmei nsi
dewi t
hAmanda.We
waitedthereandt heguy sarri
vedwhenIsawa
famili
arface,I
twasBabal waShezi (ndy amthandas
sist
er)andsomel adieswhower ereall
ybeautiful
anddr essedperfectl
y
Bee:
Phi
l
a?
Me:Babal
wa?
?
Bonga:youguysknoweachother
,wellPhil
athisi
s
Zandi
le,
Sneh,Naye,Nt
okozo,
Ziyanda,Nceba,
and
you'
vemetBeli
nda.Gir
lst
hisi
sPhilasandaLesley
Ngcobo
Zandy
: TheSoul
mat
e?
Me:whatdoy oumee..
.?Icoul
dn'tev
enfi
nishmy
questi
oncausemyey esmetwi t
hmysoulmat e,
ther
eshewasl ooki
ngbeautif
ul,
hereyesmetmi ne
andwel ookedateachother
Nowev er
ythingmakessense,thecar
?Theresno
St
he.It
'sSiyamthanda,Thabo'
sgir
lnononoshe'
s
mygir
l!Ikeptonstari
ngatherandhereyesgot
gl
assyohlor dshe'
sabouttocry
Isteppedclosertoherandt ookadeepbreathe,
her
smellwasal lovert
heplace.Oureyeswerelosti
n
eachot her
s.Shewasal lIcouldsee,at
eardropfel
l
onhercheeksandIwi peditoffwit
hmyt humb
Us:
Sul
i
lakal
okThandi
wewam (
wesai
dinuni
son)
Webot
hlaughed
Me:
Youst
il
lremember
Her:howwoul dIev
erfor
getandshelaughedsof
tl
y.
Atearalsocameoutofmyey esIcoul
dn'tbel
i
eve
t
hatthisishappeni
ng,
it'
sli
keadream
Me:
Pinchme
Her
:Maphol
oba,
it'
snotadr
eam,
itsme,
I'
m her
e.
Wowshecal l
edmeMaphol oba Ihuggedherso
ti
ghtl
yandev eryonewaslooki
ngatus,Nayewas
al
socr y
ing Ihuggedhert i
ghtl
yandspunher
around,oureyesmetagain,Iwantedt
okissherbutI
di
dn'twanttopushi t
,Ir
espectherandAmanda
Thabo:
(cl
ear
sthr
oat
)what
'
sgoi
ngon
Zandy:i
yohandt
her
e!Thabor
uinsthemoment,
don'
tyouwatchr
omanti
cmovies.
.Theywer
eabout
toki
ssman
Weal
lj
ustl
augh,
I'
m goi
ngt
oli
ket
hisZandygi
rl
Ntokozo:
sothi
sisMrSoul
mate?Wowy
ourst
ory
needstobewri
tt
eninanovel
Lubah:
Phi
l
ameet"
Sthe"
Thegi
rl
saresol
ostandBongat
ell
sthem aboutt
he
st
hestor
y
Beli
nda:guystheeventi
sstar
ti
ngyouneedt
otake
yourseatsandSiyagofi
xyourmakeupyoucan'
t
deli
veraspeechwithrui
nedmakeup!
Ohsotheycal
lherSi
yasoshel etgoofmyhandand
l
eftwit
hSnehtogofixhermakeup.Ididn'twantt
o
l
ethergocauseIj
ustfoundherthenAmandahel d
myhandandIletgoofherhandandwal kedtomy
seat
,shet
hensatnexttome
Manda:don'
tembar
rassme,
I'
myourgi
rl
fr
iendnow
nother
Me:
Shutuporj
ustl
eav
e
Thabowasseat
edOpposi
temeandSiy
awentt o
seatt
ohim,myhear
tbr
okebutwhatdi
dIexpect,
he
i
sherdate.
Bel
indadidthewelcomi
ngandshewast
hepr
ogr
am
di
rectorwi
thlubah'
sPA
Shet
hencal
l
eduponMrMt
oti
AndMrShezi
,the
CEO'
sofBot
hcompani
esandt
hepr
ogr
am wenton
andone
I
twasthentimeforSiyatogoonstageandpresent
t
hebusinessdeal
,Istoodupandtookherhandthen
wal
kedhertothestage
Si
ya:
Thanky
ou
Ismi
ledandwentbackt
othet
abl
etheni
gnor
ed
Amanda
Zi
yandakeptonlooki
ngatAmandawi t
hadeat
h
st
areli
kesheknewherfrom somewhere
Mythandi
wewasperfectandshespokesofluent
ly
andyoucoul
dseesheispassi
onateaboutherjob
Itwasthentimetogotothedancef loorandslow
musicplayed.Thabot
ookhertot hedancef l
oorand
theydance,Amandaalsowantedt odance,Ij
ust
i
gnoredherandshewentt ot
hel adiesroom.Nkosi
camet oherseat
Nkosi
:Iseey
ouf
oundher
Me:
andshe'
sdanci
ngwi
thanot
herman(Isang)
Bonga:
sor
ryman,
you'
l
lgetherback.Youguy
slov
e
eachot
her
Lubah:yeahi
twasjustaper
fectmoment
,wel
li
t
di
dn'tgoasweplannedbuti
twasperf
ect
Bee:
soy
ouguy
spl
annedal
lthi
s?
Athi
:wedidknowt hatthey'dmeetevent
ual
l
ysowe
hadplannedtotr
ickthem intoget
ti
nginonehotel
room andlockt
hem insidewhichInowreal
izet
hat
ourpl
anwasst upid
Me: whenIdrovehercar
, Icoul
dsenseal otthatit
washer s,
thesmell,
theredbulljustgav
emei deas
butthenagainIknewitwasSt he'ssoIshi
ftedthe
thought
s
Sneh:It
sthefi
rstti
meshecr i
edsi
nceyouguys
brokeupshecriedforday sandIwasherroommat
e
thenonedayshedeci dedtostopcry
ingandI'
ve
neverseenhercryuntilt
oday
Me:Ndyamthandawam,Thandi
wewam she'
sal
lI
t
houghtaboutever
ydayofmylif
e.
Wecont
inuedt
alki
ngaboutot
hert
hingsandt
hey
camebackt othetableandfoodwasser ved,
the
star
terwasr edfishandsomef reshv
eggiesandf i
sh
soup,itwasaf amili
ardish.Si
yaandIjustburst
ed
outlaught
er thi
sdish!Wowshe
remember ed.Everyonelookedatusl
ikewecr azy,
Beli
ndawi nkedatme, Iwonderhowsheknewabout
i
t
Bel
i
nda:
Siy
aoncet
oldmeabouti
t
Danny
:I'
m sol
ost
Theother
swer
eal
sol
ostsoSi
yat
oldev
ery
onet
he
st
ory
Siya:Wewer eingrade9andwewentt oOcean
Basketforthefir
stti
me,weor der
edthi
sdishandwe
didn'
tev enknowhowi tt
astesli
keanditwasbadso
wedeci dedtosneakoutwithoutpay
ingbutl
ong
storycutshort,
wewer ecaughtatwehadtowash
thedishestheentir
eweek.
Weal
lj
ustl
aughed
Amandakickedmeunderthet
ableandtoldmeshe
want
stoleave,Ij
usti
gnor
edher,
thenightwenton
andt heev entendedaround2am.Weal ldr
oveback
toBongaspl aceandwechi ll
edatthelounge.Siy
a
wassi t
ti
ngnextt ome,Itookofherheelsandput
herf eetontopofme.Amandal ookedatmebut
stopwhenZi yandast
areditheragain,Ishouldask
Zeewhyshekeepsonst aringatAmandawi tha
threateninglookli
keshe'sgoingtokil
lher
Zandy
:Mpho,
canwegetdr
unk?
Mpho:
yeah
Siy
a:si
ncewhendoesZandyaskf
orper
missi
ont
o
getdr
unk?
Nceba:
SinceMphohappened
Weal
lj
ustl
aughedandpour
edt
equi
l
ashot
s!
Me:
1!2!
3!
Ev
eryonedr
ankandi
tookal
emonf
orSi
yaandshe
bi
tonit
Thabo:
MayIt
alkt
oyouPhi
l
a?
Me:
yeahshont
wana
Wewal
kedt
othebacky
ardandsatt
her
ewi
thour
beer
s
Thabo:I
'm sor
rymanIdidn'
tknowthatSi
yawasthe
gi
rlyoualwaystal
kaboutImeanIshoul
d'
vereal
i
zed
Me:nhei
t'
sokayntwana,
youdi
dn'
tknowandIknow
you'
dnev
erdothattomeandwher
eisKamov el
e
Thabo:webr
okeupagai
nbuty
est
erdaywehada
fewround
Me: y ouguysarejustsomet
hingel
sey
oual
way
s
br
eaki
ngupf ornoreason
Thabo:that
'sj
ustt
hewaywearemanandIguessI
j
ustgotcarri
edawaybySi
ya'
slooksandherbody
dudefuck!
Me:
Wat
chi
t
Thabo:
sor
ryman
Webot
hjustl
aughedandwentbackt
otheot
her
s
Mpho:
Ithoughty
ouguy
swoul
dki
l
leachot
hert
her
e
Me:
wher
ear
ethel
adi
es?
Ly
anda:
theywentt
osl
eep,
all
loft
hem t
oget
her
Lubah:
besidesAmanda,shet
ookacabandl
eft
aft
erZi
yandatal
kedtoher
Me:
whati
svel
ewi
tht
hoset
wo
Danny
:Ithi
nkt
heyknoweachot
herandi
t'
sbad.
GoshIthi
nkIl
i
keZee
Ly
anda:
whoev
erknewwe'
dfal
li
nlov
ewi
thf
ri
ends
At
hi:
whoknewwe'
dact
ual
l
yfal
li
nlov
e
Mpho:
dudewe'
resowhi
pped
Bonga:
andtheyal
lgoassev
ent
hewhi
te
cheek (Bel
i
nda)
Lubah:Heywat
chi
t,Mr
sMt
oti
ismypr
oper
ty!
Bonga:j
ustj
oki
ngLwaj
usthast
hisuni
quel
aughi
ts
l
ikeshe'
sanangel
Danny:
Iwannatakethi
ngssl
owwi t
hzee,
shet
old
meshejustcameoutofarel
ati
onshi
pafewmonths
agoandthedudecheat
edonher
Weal l
talkedandt al
kedallti
ll
wef el
lasl
eepont he
couches.AllIcoulddream aboutwasNdy amthanda.
LordIthanky ouforgi
v i
ngmeanot herchance.Ij
ust
hav
etodeal
wit
htheAmandai
ssueandI
'
llwor
kon
get
ti
ngmysoul
mateback

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandsuppor
t
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enda:
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t11

#Si
ya

Wowt onighthasbeenar oll

ercoasterr i
de,somany
thi
ngshappenedi njustoneday ,ican'tevenbeginto
explainwhatI '
mf eelingdeepi nsi
de, I
'm happy,sad
andconf used.Ihavesomanyquest ionsinmyhead
andt heyneedanswer s,onlyPhi l
acanhav ean
answerbutI '
llwait
.I'
v ewaitedf or5y earstofinal
ly
meethi m againsoIcanwai tforafewhour ssoI
couldt al
kt ohim.Thent here'sThabo hehasbeen
aper fectgentlemant omeandhur t
inghi misthe
l
astt hingIwantt odoy etithast obedonebef orehe
fal
lsdeeperi nl ov
ewi thme.Thent heresAmanda
Ij
ustdon'
tknow,
Ireal
l
ydon'
tknow.
Thegi r
lsandIdecidedt osleepinoneroom and
ther
ewer etwoki ngsizebedssowecoul dallf
iti
n.
Wej ustneededtor estthenwakeupandhav eagirl
s
tal
kcausewer eall
yneedi t
,li
kewhat'sgoingonin
ourliv
es howdi dweev engethere.Ourl
ifehas
changedsomuchi nj ust2weeks.
Letmest
opt
hinki
ngsomuchandsl
eep
.
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Af
teraf
ewhour
sweal
lwokeup
Bel
inda:l
et'
snotgoj
oint
heguy
sforbr
eakf
astwe'
l
l
j
ustsither
e
Zee:
yeahweneedt
ojustcat
chup
Nceba:
Oohgi
rl
ytal
k I
'
m exci
ted
Zandy
:youj
ustl
i
kegossi
pqhawena
Welaughedandtal
kedaboutNcebawhenshewasa
ki
dandt hehel
per
swal kedinwit
htraysoffood,
it
waslovely
,cer
eal
s,pancakes,
bacon,eggs,
sandwich
etcj
ustavari
etyofthi
ngst
ochoosef
rom andIj
ust
hadabitofever
ythi
ng
Nay
e:gi
rlar
eyoueat
ingf
ort
wo?
Me:no,ev
ery
thi
ngj
ustl
ooksdel
i
cioussoIcan'
thel
p
mysel
f
Sneh:I'
l
lalsoeatev
erythi
ng wej ustl
aughedand
ateinsi
lenceall
youcouldhearwastheut
ensil
s
cl
icki
ng,myphoner anganditwasDanny
Dan:
Mor
ning
Me:Neveri
nter
ruptagi
rlwhi
l
eshe'
seat
ingMr
McKenzi
e!
Dan:sorry butwhydon'tyouguysj
oinusfor
breakf
ast,
weinthesamehousebutwehaven'tseen
yousincel
astni
ght
Me:
whoi
sitexact
lyt
haty
ouwannasee
Dan:
all
ofy
ou
Me:mxm what
everdannyby
e
Idroppedthephonebef
orehecoul
dtal
kagain.
Sneh'sphonerangandi
twasBonga,wetol
dhernot
t
oansweri
tandweal
lswi
tchedourphonesof
f
Bee:
Theymi
ssus,
that
'
sforsur
e
Ntoko:
wellthey'
l
lmissusmor
ecausewespendi
ng
t
hewhol edayinher
e
Me:
Bel
i
ndadi
dyouknowaboutPhi
l
a
Li
nda:Yeahionl
yfoundoutwhenIwentt
oLubah'
s
houseyest
erday
Nceba:
YouguysmadeNay
ecr
yther
e,i
twassucha
r
omanticmoment
Zee:
Ithoughti
tonl
yhappensi
nmov
ies
Wetal
kedandtal
kedaboutlastni
ghtf
orhoursand
i
twasalr
eady12pm whenthedoorbel
lrang
I
twastimeforl
unchbutwewereal
lst
il
lful
lfr
om
t
hebreakf
astwehadsowedidn'
teat
Bee:
ziy
andawhati
sitwi
thy
ougi
vi
ngAmandat
hose
badl
ooksvel
e?
Nay
e:Yeahandy
ouj
ustknowhowt
oshutherup
Zee:
iknowher
Zandy:Zi
yandathi
sist
hepar
twher
eyout
ell
ushow
youknowher ?
??
Zee:
You'
l
lfi
ndoutsoon
Nceba:
ohI
vef
igur
edi
tout
Zee:
theny
oushoul
dn'
ttel
lany
oneNceba
Nceba:whent
het
imei
sri
ght
,itwi
l
lcomeout
event
uall
y
Weother
swereal
lj
ustsolostsoIj
ustt
ooksome
f
ood,
itwasj
usthardt
oresist
Bel
i
nda:
Ineedt
obat
h,If
eel
ver
ydi
rt
y
Sneh:
yeahmet
oo
Thi
sroom andaninsui
tebat
hroom wi
thabat
htub
andShowersoitwastwopeopl
eatatime
ButZandywashavi
ngnonofthat thebathtub
wasbigsoitf
itt
hebothofuswhi
leSnehtooka
showerwit
hZeesoitwas4atati
me
Iworemywhi t
eshortdresswhi
chiskindar
eveali
ng
butIdon'
tcar
e,theweatheri
stoohot.Thegi
rls
werealsoweari
ngdressesandsomewor eshort
s
andt
anktops.Iswi
tchedmyphoneonandhas
15mi
ssedcall
sfrom BongaandLyanda weal
l
j
ustl
aughedcausetheycal
ltr
iedt
ocallus
Igotat extf
rom Thaboi tr
eadasf oll
ows" HeySiya,
I'
m sorryabouteveryt
hingthathashappened, Idi
dn't
knowy ouwer ePhil
a'sSiya,iwouldn'thavemadea
mov eony ou,welly
ouknowI '
dnev erbreaktheguy
code.AndI '
m sorr
yIwasj ustbeingadi ckcauseI
alsohav eagir
lf
ri
endbutwebr okeupandgot
togetheragai
naf ewhour sago i t'
swei r
dIknow
butIhopey ougirl
swi l
llov
eher .
"
Ireadi
ttot
hegirl
sandIwashappyt hatThabo
tal
kedtomefi
rstcauseIwasafrai
dthingswouldbe
awkwardandIwouldn'
tevenknowhowt otalkt
o
him.
Zee:Iwonderwhot
hegi
rli
sandIhopeshei
snot
l
ikeAmanda
Bel
inda:Ihear
dthey'
vebeent
oget
herf
or4y
ear
sso
I
'm sur
esheaintli
keher
Zandy
:wowt
hat
scut
e
Nceba:
ithi
nki
t'
sti
mewewentdownst
air
s
Nay
e:y
eahl
et'
sgo
Wecleanedtheroom andwal
keddownst
airs,
the
guyswerechil
l
inginsomeroom whi
chIl
ater
di
scover
edisaCi nema !
Nt
oko:Bongahasaci
nemai
nhi
shouse!I
mtot
all
y
movi
ngin
Bee:ngi
zokuv
uthuza (Iwi
l
lsmacky
ou)
Wegreet
edthem andsatbehi
ndt
her
owofseat
s
t
heysatat
Ly
anda:
soy
ouguy
sfi
nal
l
ydeci
det
ocomedown
Phi
l
a:at5pm?
Amandawasnother
esoIguessshel
eft
Bonga:
youl
adi
esknowhowt
opuni
shus
Weallj
usthadalovel
yconv er
sat
ionwhi
l
eeat
ing
popcor
nanddri
nkingslushpuppi
es
Wewat
chedaf
ewmov
ies
•
DearJohn
•
TheHel
p
And5t
o7
Wewer er
eal
lyhav
ingagoodtimeIwi shthe
weekendnev
erendsweleftt
hecinemar oom at
8pm t
henwenttothedi
nnert
able,it
accommodatedal
lofus
Thabo:
Mygi
rl
fr
iendi
scomi
ngov
er
Bonga:
WowIhav
en'
tseenheri
nawhi
l
e
Me:
whoi
sshe
Danny
:youcanaskher
ThenItur
nedandsawKamogel ang!
!!
!Weusedtogo
toHighSchooltogetherwi
thSnehandNtokozoand
Phil
aWeal l
justscreamed!
!!!
Kamo:
Siy
a!Sneh!Nt
okozo!
!
Sneh:
bit
chy
ou'
vegr
own!
!
Kamo:y
our
eal
l
ythoughty
ou'
dgr
owandI
woul
dnt
?
Zandy
:Il
i
key
ou,
heyI
'
m Zandy
Thegir
lsi
ntr
oducedthemsel
veswel
lZeeandt
he
guysknewheral
ready.
Thabo:
soooy
ouguy
sknoweachot
her
?
Ntoko:
Yeahweal
lwentt
ohi
ghschool
toget
herwi
th
Phil
aofcause
Phi
l
a:wewer
ethet
roubl
emaker
s
Me:
weownedt
heschool
Weall
tal
kedandt
oldt
hem aboutourhi
ghschool
day
s
It
st r
uewhent heysaylovereuni
tespeopl
e.Lookat
usnow, her
ewear e.Wej ustabunchoffri
endsthat
l
ov eoneanotherunconditi
onal
ly
.IfIknewI'
dmeet
thesepeopl
einmyl if
eI '
daskGodt ohavemetthem
earl
ierl
i
kewhenIwasat oddl
er
Weateandhadl
ovel
yconv
ersat
ionwhenPhi
l
ajust
dr
oppedabombonus
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ouSi
yamt
handa
Ij
uststar
tedathi
m,Ir
eall
yhadnowords.Ever
yone
waslooki
ngatmeexpect
ingmetoanswer.Whenit
comestot
hisguyIj
ustgetsoemot
ional
.Tear
sjust
fl
owed
Me:
I..
..I,
Phi
l
aI.
.
Zandy
:iy
ohSi
yawi
l
lmakeuswai
tfor10y
ear
s
Weallj
ustl
aughedandIr
epl
i
edwhi
l
eev
ery
onewas
st
il
ll
aughi
ng
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooLesl
ey
Bonga:
aaahthi
siscut
e,comeguy
slet
'sgi
vet
hem
somespace
Nay
e:butIwantt
ost
ayandl
i
sten
Them:
Nay
e!!
!!
!
Nay
e:Don'
tbi
temyheadof
f,y
ouguy
sar
ehopel
ess
r
omantics
Theyal
lj
ustwal
kedoutandlef
tusalone,
Iknewthi
s
ti
mewouldcomebutitj
usthappenedsoqui
ckl
y
Me:Wherewereyou?It
ri
edcal
l
ingy
oubuty
our
numberdi
dn'
texi
stanymore
Phil
a:IknowIhurtyou,butwebothdeci
dedtol
et
eachothergo.Ichangednumbersandnever
cont
act
edy
ouagai
n
Me:
whyphi
l
a?Why
Him:It
houghtit'
sfort
hebest,Iwantedy
out
omov e
on,Iwantedyoutoforgetaboutme.Wewer
ef ar
fr
om eachotherandiknewifwekeptonhol
dingon
we'dj
ustfal
lapart
Me:yeahandt
hingswer eal
readyawkward,you
knowhowwear ewhenwenott oget
her
.Distance
ki
ll
sus.Wewouldfightever
ydayfornoreason
Phi
la:Ithoughtaboutyouever
yday,
every
day
Si
yamt handa.Itr
iedmovingonbutnotevenoneof
myr el
ationshi
plastedf
oreventwoweeks
Me:
andAmanda?
Hi
m:i
t'
sthef
ir
stt
ime,
itsbeen6mont
hs
Me:
Iguessy
ouf
inal
l
ymov
edon
Icr
iedandstoodupthenwal kedaway .Hegrabbed
myhandandpi nnedmet othewall,It
riedmoving
butheistoostr
ongformesoIj uststoodthere
l
ookingathim.Ournosestouching
Phil
a:Idon'
tloveher!Shemeansnot hi
ngtome,
you'
reallIt
hinkabout.IguessIkepthercauseI
wantedtomov eon,Iwasl oosi
nghope,Iwasgivi
ng
uponf i
nall
ymeetingy ouoneday.
Me:
phi
l
aI.
.
Him:Boboli
sten!Ilov
eyou,IknowtheAmanda
si
tuati
onisholdi
ngusbackrightnowbutIpr
omise
I'
l
lsorti
tout.
She'l
lbeoutofourli
vesbyMonday
aft
ernoon
Me:
whyMonday
?
Him:she'sgonetoseeherpar ent
sshesaidshe'
l
lbe
backMondayaf ter
noon,it
'
sonl yf
airt
hatIdumpher
facet
of acethenthroughatextmessage.Pl
ease
under
stand
Me:
Iunder
stand
Hi
m:AndThabo?Di
dyouguy
s?Youknow?
Me:no!Wewer
en'
tev
endat
ingbutwedi
dki
ssaf
ew
t
imes
Hi
m:okay
West
oodt
her
einawkwar
dsi
l
encel
ooki
ngi
neach
other
'seyes.I
tsti
l
lfeel
sli
keadream,wil
lIwakeup
andfindoutthati
tsall
adream,Idon'
twanttol
oose
hi
m again.Ifi
t'
sadream,don'
topenmyey es
Phi
l
a:I
tsnotadr
eam t
handi
wewam
Hehasalway
shadawayofreadi
ngmymind,
he
al
waysknewwhenev
erI
'
m sadorsomet
hingi
s
tr
oubl
i
ngme.
Me:
Kissme
Idon'
tknowwhyIsai
dthat
,itj
ustsl
i
ppedout
Hekissedmyl i
ps,ittookmebackt oour1stkiss.
Heslipsaresosof t,
Ifeltbutterfl
i
esallovermy
tummy .Heheldmecl osely,pickedmeupandmy
l
egswer ecrossedonhi swai st.Hecaressedmyski n
sendingshi
versallovermybody ,Iwasmessi ngup
mypant i
es al readysowet .Butthenav oi
ce
dist
urbedus
Bonga:
Getar
oom!
Theyal
llaughed,
seemsasi
fthey
'vebeenwat
chi
ng
ustheenti
reti
me
Il
aughedandPhi
l
acar
ri
edmeandwewentt
ojoi
n
them.Wet
henmov
edt
osi
tout
side.Theguy
ssaton
campchai
rs
It
ookoffmydressandj
umpedintot
hepool
!Danny
j
oinedmeandevery
oneelsef
oll
owed
Weplay
edMar coPolo.I
twasj ustsomuchfunand
t
hestar
swereshi ni
ngbri
ght.I
twasal lj
usta
magi
calmoment .Westayedoutsideandwaitedf
or
t
hesuntori
se.Itwasav erybeauti
fult
hingt
owatch
Zandy
:it
'sSunday
,let
'sgot
ochur
ch
Mpho:
tel
lmey
ou'
rej
oki
ng
At
hi:
whenl
astdi
dIev
engot
ochur
ch
Bonga:
whenwewer edoi
ngour1sty
earandi
twas
cl
osetoexam t
ime
Ly
anda:
wej
ustwentt
her
eandpr
ayedt
henl
eft
Phi
l
a:wedi
dn'
tev
enbat
h
t
heseguy
sthough
Bee:
tel
lmey
ou'
rej
oki
ng!Li
kewhodoest
hat
Mpho:
wedo
I
'vereal
i
zedthatMphodoesn'
ttalkal
ot,
Iwonder
howhei swi
thZandy,
li
kethatgir
lnev
erstops
tal
ki
ng
Zee:
Someofushav
etogoi
naf
ewhour
s
Danny
:Whatwhy
?
Bee:yeapwehavet
ogobackt
oKl
oofandt
henback
totheHospi
tal
At
hi:
Youguy
sar
edoct
ors
Zee:
I'
m ar
adi
ologi
standshe'
saEndocr
inol
ogi
st
Thapel
o:y
ohwhatt
hef
***i
sthat
Nceba:we'l
lknowi
naf
ewy
ear
sdude.Li
kewe'
re
st
il
lingrade11
Ly
anda:
youguy
sst
il
lhav
eal
ongwayt
ogo
Wewentbackt
othehouse,
hadbr
eakf
ast
.
Athi
:youguy
sdon'thav
et oworr
y,I
'l
lcal
lyourboss
andtel
lhi
my out
akingthedayoff
Bee:
youdon'
tknowourbosshei
sver
yst
ri
ct
At
hi:
Don'
twor
ryIownhi
m
BeeandZeel
ookedsoconf
used
Lyanda:
Athi
ownsaf
ewhospi
tal
ssoheownswher
e
youguyswork
Zee;ohwow soBoss,
howaboutwegetar
aise
nhe
Bee:
yeahl
i
kedoubl
eoursal
ary
?
At
hi: cr
azy
!
Weal ljustlaughedandenj oyedbreakf
ast.Wewent
tofreshenupandIwor emybum shor t
swi t
hahuge
baggyshi rtandsli
ppers.Tiedmyweav ei namessy
bunt henwentt ot
hekitchenandt ooksomei ce
cream andj oinedtheothers.Thapelol
eftwit
h
Ncebaandt heywentt omyapar tment
We'
vebeeni
nBongashousef
ort
heent
ir
eweekend
Sneh:
whydoyouguyshavemansi
ons,l
ikey
oust
ay
al
onesowhyhavesuchahugehouse?
Mpho:
wedon'
tl
iv
eal
one
Nt
okozo;
whatdoy
oumean?Whosoy
oul
i
vewi
th?
Phi
l
a:Youguy
s.Ial
soboughtahugemansi
onwi
th
5Fl
oor
s
Me:
What
!
Zandy
:li
keast
ayi
nanapar
tmentwi
thj
ust4r
ooms
Nkosi
:yeahbutwej
ustl
i
kehav
ingourownhuge
space
Nay
e:sowhydoesl
yandast
ayatanapar
tment
?
Lyanda:idon'
tstaythere.Thatapar
tmentbel
ongs
toThapelo.Myhouseisaf ewhousesAway .And
we'r
eallbasedi
nHi l
l
cr est
Me:
ohwow
Bel
i
nda:
I'
m conf
used
Lubah:
what
'sconf
usi
ngy
oubabe?
Bel
inda:
weal
lalmostthesameagel
i
kehowar
eyou
guy
ssooosuccessf
ull
andr i
ch?
Bongacl
ear
edhi
sthr
oatandl
ookedar
ound
Nkosi
:whowant
sicecr
eam?
Hehasbeeneat
ingmyi
cecr
eam mor
ethanI
hav
e
Bee:
buty
oudi
dn'
tanswerBel
i
nda'
squest
ion.
Zandy
:that
'sast
oryf
oranot
herday
,Ineedi
ce
cr
eam.
Shest
oodupandwenttotheki
tchent
hent
heguy
s
fol
l
owedheral
lrunni
ngt
otheki
tchen
Bel
i
nda:
thatwaswei
rd
Nay
e:y
eahal
ot
Kamo:
soooguy
swhatar
ewedoi
ngt
oday
Li
nda:I
'mv er
yti
redsoIt
hinkj
ustchi
l
li
ngi
ndoor
s
wi
llbegreat
Zee:
I'
m cr
avi
ngf
orsomebr
aai
'
dmeetandI
'
m goi
ng
tobr
aaii
tnow
Kamo:
butt
heguy
sdot
hat
Nt
oko:
Genderst
ereot
ype!
Sneh:
don'
twor
ry,
Zeei
sthebr
aai
queen
Zeestoodupandwentt
otheki
tchenandcame
backscreami
ng
Zee:
ther
e'snomeati
nthi
shouse.Bonga!Ar
eyoua
v
eget
ari
an?
Danny
:comel
et'
sgogeti
t
Bonga:
andnoI
'
m notav
eget
ari
anman
Theytookthecarkeysandmadeal istofev
ery
thi
ng
we'l
lneed.Whichremindsme,Ineedtodosome
grocer
iestoo,
itspaydayonWednesday !
Whil
etheywer
egoneIwenttot
heki
tchentocook
somepapandthegi
rl
smadesomesaladswhil
ethe
guyswerewat
chi
ngushavi
ngafewbeers
Mpho:
Don'
tmaket
hemashpot
atoesIwi
l
l
Thabo:
Ithi
nkthechefshoul
dbesay
ingt
hatbutgo
makethem dude
Me:
cany
ouev
encookMpho
Mpho:Tr
ustme,
I'
m amanofmanyt
alent
sri
ght
Zandy
?
Zandy(coughs):
uhm i
don'
tknowy
eahmay
beand
shedisappear
s
Sneh:
Comebackher
ewenaZandi
l
e!!
!
Wel
lZandi
l
eandMphohav
ebeenspendi
ngal
otof
ti
metogetherl
atel
y,IwonderwhyMphowasSneh'
s
datet
hough butkewhoknows!
Snehhasal
i
ttl
ecr
ushonAt
hisoI
'
llal
way
sAnnoy
her
Ly
anda:
Ntokozocomesi
tnextt
ome,
Imi
ssy
ou
Nt
okozo:
lyandat
hough,
we'
rei
nthesamer
oom
Shesai
dasshewal
kedt
ohi
m andsatonhi
slap.
Me:i
tsnotl
i
kenaweawuf
unukuhl
alanay
e
Nt
okozo
Weallj
ustl
aughedandZee,Phil
aandDannycame
backwi
ththemeatandgrocer
ies.Phi
l
acamenext
tomeandgav emeakissonmycheek.Ialsodon'
t
knowwhat'
sgoingonbetweenusbutI'
mloving
ever
yminuteofi
t
Beemar inat
esthemeat
,ther
ewaspor k,
beefand
chickensoBeli
ndanKamohel pedher
.Zeeprepar
ed
thefir
e
Danny
:Zeewhatar
eyoudoi
ng?You'
l
lhur
tyour
sel
f
Zee:
DannyI
'
vebeendoi
ngt
hisf
ory
ear
s.Chi
l
ltuu
Bonga:
whatdoy
ouknowaboutbr
aai
ng
Athi
:we'
ll
eatrawmeattoday Bongsmakesur
e
youhaveenought
oil
etpaper
Weal
ll
aughedandwat
chedZeeper
for
m hermagi
c
Lubah:
I'
mimpr
essed
Zee:
Thanky
ou andshet
ookabaw
Bel
inda,
NayeandIprepar
edthetabl
ewhi
leMpho
andNtokozowashedthedi
sheswewereusi
ng
Weallsatdownandhadl
unchwhi
l
ehav
ingal
ovel
y
conv
ersati
on
Nay
e:Phi
l
adon'
tdr
opanybombf
orusnowpl
ease
Weal
ll
aughandherphoner
ang
Nay
e:Hel
l
o,shesmi
l
edsomuchIknewi
twas
Emi
hle
Naye:
Emihl
ekamamakhe i mi
ssyoumybaby
whenyoucomi
ngback,
shet
henl
eftt
hetabl
e
Af
ter30mi
nut
esshecameback
Nay
e:mybabydoesn'
twantt
ocomeback
Bonga:
youhav
eachi
l
d
Nay
e:Yeahshe'
s4,
Hernamei
sEmi
hle
Nkosi
:Wownowt
hatwasabomb
Wej
ustl
aughed
At
hi:
Wher
e'st
hef
ather
Weal
lkeptqui
etandl
ookedar
ound
Naye:Hepassedaway ,
shesaidwit
hherey es
gett
inggl
assy,i
t'
salwayssuchasensit
ivesubject
forNayesowehar dl
yevental
kaboutit.Idon'
tthi
nk
she'
soverwhathappened.Tearsf
ellonhercheeks
andsheranout
Nkosi
rushedt
oherandIf
oll
owedwi
thKamo
Nkosi
heldherandshecr
iedoutl
oudl
y,Kamocame
wit
haglassofwater
Me:
ssshNay
epl
easedon'
tcr
y
Nkosi
:pl
easeexcuseusl
adi
es
Il
ookedatNay
eandshenoddedsowel
eftwi
th
Kamoandwentbackt
otheother
s
Ly
anda:
issheokay
?
Lubah:
whathappenedv
ele?
Kamo:
she'
l
ltel
lyouwhenshe'
sready
.
Weconti
nuedeat
inginsil
encethenNkosicame
backcar
ryi
ngNayeandhewentupst ai
rst
henhe
camebackandwealllookedathim
Nkosi
:She'
sasl
eepandIgav
eherpai
nki
l
ler
sfort
he
pai
n
Athi
; Nkosi,pai
nki
l
ler
sareforphy
sical
pai
n
notemot
ional
painandheart
aches
Weal
lj
ustl
aughed
Nkosi
:wel
ltheyshoul
dn'
tbecal
l
edpai
nki
l
ler
sthen
IpackedNaye'
sfoodandtheguy
swasheddi
shes
andcleanedt
hekit
chenandweallwentt
osl
eep
Wewenttosl
eepwi t
hNayeandshewasst
il
lfast
asl
eepsoweletherbe.
Tomorr
owweallgobacktor
eal
i
ty!Wor
k!
andt
heweekendisov
er.
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandsuppor
t
Commentandi
nvi
tef
ri
endst
osuppor
t
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1/11,
00:
21]Tat
enda:
Inser
t12

#Phi
l
a
Weallsl
eptov eratBonga'
shouse.I
nthemorni
ngI
wokeupar ound5am andthenevery
onewasup
al
ready,
freshenedupandwewentt ohavebr
eakfast
Me:
Mor
ningNdy
amt
handa
Si
ya:
HeyLesl
ey
Me:
Mor
ningev
ery
one
Zandy:
morning,
Iwoul
dal
sol
i
keaspeci
al
goodmorni
ng
Mpho:
howaboutIgi
vey
ouawar
m goodmor
ning
hug
Andt
hehugged
Zee:Babal
wahur
rywest
il
lhav
etogot
oour
apar
tment
Bee:
ohgoditsMondayal
ready by
eguy
swe'
l
l
seeyousoon
Bonga:
howsoon
Bee:
weekendsoonbongs
Danny
:hahy
ouguy
sar
eunf
air
,ZeeI
'
llseey
ou
tomor
row
Zee:
okaydandan
Weal
ll
aughedatDanny
'snewname"
Dandan"
Zee,
Babal
wa,
Nay
eandAt
hil
eftt
oget
her
Bel
i
nda:
Siy
aandZandyseey
ouatwor
k
Them:
okaybabes
LubahandBel
i
ndal
eftwi
thLy
andaandNt
okozo
Thenweal
ll
eftt
oget
herwel
lbesi
desBongs
Itwas7andat8:30Ihadt obeatwork.I
t'
smyfir
st
daysinceImovedtoDurbansoIwonderhowmy
companyisholdi
ngup.IhadleftShar
maineas
acti
ngCEOandIknowshe' sdoingagreatj
obbut
thebossisbacksoImov edhertotheJozi
andin
FreeStat
e,Gci
naisact
ingCEO
SoIgottomyhouseandgotdr essed,Iworemy
Blacksui
tandbl ackshoes.Tookmybr i
efcaseand
drovetowor k.I'
m st i
lldri
vingSiya'
scarandshe
won'tbegettingi tbackany ti
mesoon.Ishoul dcal
l
herlat
erandcheckuponher .Igottotheof f
icemy
PAwasal readywai t
ingf ormewi t
hacanof
RedBull .SeemyPAi sav erygayman/ woman.I
j
ustenjoyhav inghi m asmyPAhet al
ksnonst op
actual
lyr
emi ndsmeofZandy
Cl
i
nt:
Mor
ningSi
r.
Me:
heyCl
i
nt
Him:Soooyou'
reback?AndShar
mainemov edto
Jozi.
.What'
sgoi
ngon?Thathasneverhappenedi
n
theseNgcoboBui
ldi
ngssoIneedtheful
ldetai
l
s
Me:Cl
int l
et'
sjustsayI
'm heretost
ay.Nowcan
youl
eavemyof
ficeIneedtostartwor
king
Hesitsdownandcrosseshi
slegsonmycouch.He
i
stheSomi zi
kindagayandhewearsr
idi
cul
ous
cl
othes
Cl
i
nt:
howl
ong?
Me:
Per
manent
ly
Cl
i
ntl
aughsunt
ilheseest
hati
m ser
ious
Hi
m:wowt
hisi
sgoi
ngt
obef
un
Wejustt
alkedandhet ol
dmeabouthi sweekend.I
t
oldhimtoorganizeastaffmeet
ingasapwhich
woul
dbein30mi ns.Ical
ledSi
ya
Me:
Thandi
wewam
Si
ya:
Maphol
oba
Me:
Ist
il
lhav
eyourcarsowho'
scarar
eyoudr
ivi
ng?
Her
:Igotali
ftf
rom Bel
i
ndat
hismor
ningandi
'
llbe
l
eavi
ngwithZandy
Me:t
ell
hert
odropyouof
fatmyhouseaf
terwor
k
soy
oucantakeoneofmycar
s
Her
:okayt
henby
e,Igott
ogo
Shethendr oppedthephoneandIwentt omystaff
meeting.Iaddressedthem aboutthefewchanges
thatwil
ltakeplaceandItoldthem theygett
inga
rai
sewhi chwast hebestnewst hey'
verecei
vedthi
s
year .Theyr eall
ydeserveit
,thecompanywoul dbe
nothingwithoutthem.Meeti
ngwasov eranditwas
l
uncht ime.LubahandNkosi werecomingoverfor
l
unchsoIor dered3Lar
gePizzasand2whole
chi
ckensf r
om Nandos.Af t
erafewmi nut
esthey
arr
ivedwitht hefoodsoIguesstheymetthedeli
ver
y
guyont hewayt omyoffi
ce.
Nkosi
:Shoboyandhewasal
readymunchi
ngont
he
meat
Me:
ShoMaGent
s
Weat
ewhi
l
ewewer
etal
ki
ng
Lubah:
SoNkosi
,howdoy
ouf
eel
aboutNay
ehav
ing
akid
Me:
I'
mlost
Lubah:
Nkosil
ikesNayealotli
kesi
ncedayonebut
hehasbeenscaredofr
eject
ion
Nkosi
:TsekKwedi
ni,
Ireal
l
yhavenopr
oblem wi
th
Nayehavi
ngachil
dImeanwe'r
ebothadult
sand
t
akingcar
eofachil
dissomet
hingwebothcando.
Me:nottoberudeoranyt
hingbutIt
hinkit
sbett
er
si
ncethefat
herpassedonsoy ouwouldn'
thav
eto
deal
wit
hhi
sdr
ama
Nkosi:tr
ue,butthet hi
ngisNayeisn'
tov erwhat
happenedt othebabydaddyandI 'm notgoingto
for
cemy sel
fonher .Il
oveherbuti'
llwaitfort
hings
tojusthappenont heirown
Lubah:
andi
fshef
indssomeoneel
se?
Nkosi
:theni
twoul
dbeobv
ioust
hatI
'
m nott
heone
f
orher
Me:t
rueman,t
rue.Youjustneedt
osuppor
therand
bet
heref
orherasaf r
iendman
Lubah:weall
ther
eforheri
meanwe'
real
lj
ustone
bi
gf amil
ynow
Nkosi
:thi
sisj
ustf
unny andgoodatt
hesame
t
ime
Me:
what
?
Nkosi
:Li
kewebestf
ri
endsf
all
i
ngf
orbestf
ri
ends.
Me:
Godwor
ksi
nmy
ster
iousway
s
Lubah:
whati
fwescar
ethem of
f?
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Lubah:
li
ketheythi
nkwepl
annedthi
sort
hinkwe
att
acki
ngthem si
nceweal
ll
iket
hem?
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?Weal
ll
iket
hem?
Nkosi
: Phi
lamanwakeup!Youl oveSi
ya,Athil
oves
Sneh,Lyandaisdati
ngNt okozo,MpholovesZandy,
BongalovesBabalwa,LubahlovesBel
inda,Il
ove
Naye,DannylovesZeeandThaboi sdati
ngKamo
andNcebaandThapel oaretogethert
oo
Me:ohwowthisi
sreall
yweir
d butIguessitshow
i
tshoul
dbeli
keever
ythingj
ustwor
kedoutandther
e
wasnodrama
Lubah:
imagi
nei
fIwaswi
thBel
i
ndabutNay
ewant
s
me
Nkosi
:Nay
ewoul
dnev
erl
i
key
oui
nthatway
Lubah:
itsanexampl
edude
Nkosi
:usesomeoneel
se
Me:Okaylet
'ssayi
sZeet
hen i
twoul
djustbe
apr
oblem
Nkosi
:Phi
l
a,y
ou'
rest
il
lwi
thAmanda?
Me:
im dumpi
ngt
hatgi
rlt
oday
!
Lubah:
I'
ll
bet
her
e
Nkosi
:met
oo
Me: okaygent
s,Ihav
et oleavenowIhaveameeting
i
n30mi nut
esatMusgravey ouguy
swil
lcleanher
e
I
'm gone
Il
eftt
hem i
nmyof
fi
ceandwentf
ormymeet
ing
Aft
er2hoursthemeet i
ngwasoverandIwentt
oget
myselfsomeredbullt
henIhear
dsomeonecallmy
name.Itur
nedati twasZeeshewaswithBee,
I
walkedtothem andgreet
ed
Zee:wewerejustgoingtotakeacabbutsi
nce
you'
reher
e,youwillbetaki
ngushome
Me:
wow,
whathappenedt
oyourcar
s?
Bee:
wewer
elazyt
odr
ive
Weallwenttomycarandwedrovetomyoff
icefi
rst
,
Igotoutandpi
ckedupafewpaperwor
kthenlef
t
Wedr
ovet
okl
oofandgott
hei
rapar
t
Zee:
wai
tforuswecomi
ng
Iwai
tedf
oranhourtil
ltheybot
hcameoutwi
th
l
oadsandloadsofbags
Me:
What
'sgoi
ngon?
Bee:
we'
rev
isi
ti
ng
Me:
who?
Zee:
youaskt
oomanyquest
ions
andwedr
ovet
omypl
ace
Me:
whoev
ery
ou'
rev
isi
ti
ngwi
l
lfet
chy
ou'
rl
lher
e
Iwentt
ot akeashowerandchangedint
o
comfor
tablecl
othesIwal
keddownstair
sandsome
oft
heguy swerealr
eadyther
e
Lubah:I
'mresi
gni
ngatwor
kandI
'
llbeBel
i
nda'
s
bodyguar
d24/7
At
hi:
uyaphambanast
rai
ghtkewena(y
ou'
recr
azy
man)
Wel aughedandBabalwaorderedFoodthent
he
othersallar
ri
vedbesi
desThabonKamoappar entl
y
theyweret r
avel
i
ngtoKimberley,
Kamo'shometown.
Iwentov ertomyloveandki
ssedherthenwentto
gethersomer
edbul
l
Sneh:
wher
ear
ethedoct
orsi
nthi
shouse
At
hi:
Her
e!Wannapl
aydoct
orandpat
ient
?
Sneh:
(l
aughs)noman . .Youneedt
otel
ltheset
wo
l
ovebir
dstostopdr
inki
ngr edbul
l
Naye:Ast
heGynaeI'
vetol
dhersever
alti
mesthat
notonl
ywil
li
taf
fectherki
dney
'sbutherwombtoo
Me:
okayIdi
dn'tknowaboutt
hewombpar
t,Si
yano
mor
eredbul
lforyoubabe
Si
ya:
hahbutwhy
Me:
Iwantbabi
es
JustasIwastalki
ngAmandawal
kedinandki
ssed
me,Ipushedheroffandwi
pedmyl
ips
Amanda:whywasn'tIi
nvi
tedt
othepar
tyi
nmy
boy
fri
endshouse?
Nt
oko:
Shutupbi
tch
OkaaayIwasn'
texpect
ingt
hatf
rom her
,shel
ooks
soinnocent
Me:Amandaweneedt
otal
k,whatwehav
ehast
o
cometoanend
Manda:
(cr
ies)howwi
l
lIr
aiset
hisbabyonmyown?
?
Godwhatbaby
!Shecan'
tbepr
egnant
,Iused
pr
otect
ion!
Me:
whatbaby
?
Her
:I'
m pr
egnant
Siy
alookedatmeandcr
ied,
thegi
rl
swentov
ert
o
her
Me:
Stopl
yi
ng!
Shethrewpapersatmeandapr egnancyt
est
showingthatshe'
s5weekspr
egnant.Noitcan'
tbe.
Zeelookedatthepaper
sandlaughed.Iwasso
conf
used
Nceba:
whoi
sthef
ather
?
Amanda:
Phi
l
a!
Zee:
Stopl
ying!Amanday ouknowdamnwel
lthathe
i
snotthef
ather!Tel
lthem whaty
oudi
d!
Danny
:okaywhati
sgoi
ngonher
e?Zeepl
ease
expl
ain
Nceba:
Shewi
l
ltel
lyouev
ery
thi
ngt
her
eist
oknow
Amandacr i
ed:i
twasmi
stake,
itshoul
dn'
thav
e
happened.Phi
l
ababyil
oveyou
Me:Amanda!Donotpi
ssmeof
f.Expl
ainwhati
s
goi
ngon
Amanda:
Ican'
ttel
lyou
Zee: wel
lI'
ll
doi tf
oryou,5weeksago!If ound
Amandaher ehavi
ngsexwi t
hmyboy fr
iendwhoi s
nowanex!Onmybed!Mysheet s!
!!I
nmyapar tment
!!
Youhav enoshame!Comi nginhereandwant ingto
destroyPhil
aandSi y
a'srel
ati
onship!Got oyour
brokeassbabydaddy !Andtellhi
m Iwantmymoney !
Hest ol
eR200000f r
om me!Justli
keshehasbeen
steali
ngfrom youPhil
a!Butyou'r
ejusttoor i
chto
notice
Amanda:
howdi
dyouf
indout
!
Zandy
:ar
eyoust
il
lher
e?Getoutman!
Amanda:y
ouwi
l
lnott
ell
mewhatt
odoi
nmymans
house!
Me:Getthehel
loutofmyhouseAmandaorIwi
l
lki
l
l
your
ightnow!
Sher
anoutandzandyr
anaf
terher
Zandy:Don'
tfor
gett
opaybackall
themoneyy
ou
st
ole!Andshecamebackl
aughing
Zandy
:wel
lthatwasf
un
Danny
:soooo,
zeehowdi
dyouf
indoutaboutt
he
money?
Zee:You'r
easki
ngt
omanyquest
ionsDandan,
she
thenlef
tandwentt
othemycar
Mpho:
okayI
'
mreal
l
ylost
.
Iwal
kedt
oSi
ya
Me:
MayIt
alkt
oyoupl
ease?

#Si
ya
WhenAmandasai dsheispregnantIjustl
ostal
lthe
hopeIhadaboutmeandPhi la.Ij
ustcri
edknowing
thatI
'
velostPhil
a.Everychi
l
ddeser vesbothparent
s
andI'
dneverletPhil
aleaveAmanda, Iwouldn'
tl
ive
wit
hmy selfknowingI
'veseparatedthem andtook
awayt hechanceofachi l
dhav ingbothmot herand
fat
hert ogether
.Iknowwhati tsli
kenottohav ebot h
parentsandIwoul dn'
twantthechi l
dt ogothough
havingparents.IknowPhilawoul dbeagr eatfather
.
Iwasv eryHappyt ohearthatPhilai
snott hefather
butsadaboutwhathappenedt oZee.Iwascaught
upinmyownt hought
sIdidn'tevenseewhenPhi la
wasnextt ome
Phi
l
a:Maywet
alkpl
ease?
Me:
okaysur
e
Wewal kedoutandsatatt hebackyard.Imustsay
,
hi
shousei shugewi t
h5floorsandabeaut if
ul
backy
ar dconnect edtot
hepool areaandt hewasa
Tenni
sCour t,
basketbal
lareaandbr aaiar
eaonthe
si
dewewer esit
ti
ngbyandIcoul dn'
tseewhatwas
ontheot herside
Phi
la:
IknowI'
vehur
ty oualot,I'
vemessedupand
nowthisAmandasi
tuati
on,
I'm sosor
ry
Me:i
tsokayy
oudidntknowAmandawoulddot
his
andy
oudidn'
tknowthatwe'
dmeetagai
n
Phi
la:
YeahIknowbutIshoul
dn'
thav
egi
venupon
us
Ij
ustl
ookedathi
m nIdi
dn'
thav
eanyr
esponse
Phi
l
a:Pl
ease,
maywegi
veusanot
herchance?
Ikeptonst
ari
ngathi
m,Iwasj
ustl
osti
nhi
sey
es
Phi
la:
Saysomet
hingAbongi
l
ePl
easesay
somethi
ng
Me:
(l
aughs)y
ousoundsoser
ious
Phi
l
a:Iam ser
iousbobo
Me:
okaywecangi
vei
tat
ry
Phi
la:
Thanky
ou,
youwon'
tregr
eti
tMaFuze.Il
ove
you
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMaphol
obawam
Iwashappyt hatwe'
reoff
ici
all
ybacktogether
,we
ki
ssedthenwentbackt otheother
s.Zeeal
so
walkedbackedinandeveryonewaslooki
ngather
wit
hsuspence
Sneh:
Younev
erst
oppedr
ight
?SheaskedZee
Zee:WhywouldIst
op?I
tsmyl
i
fepl
usIdon'
twant
total
kabouti
t
Danny
:Iwi
l
laskagai
n,whati
sgoi
ngonher
e?
Zandy&Zee:
NOTHI
NG!
!!
Weall
justkeptqui
etandi
twasawkwar
dthenZee
br
okethesil
ence
Zee:Ihi
redaPIsoIcoul dfi
ndoutwhatTheowasup
tocausehewasact i
ngr eal
lystr
angeandmymoney
wentmissingsot henIfoundoutabouthisaf f
air
s
wit
hamanda.WhenIsawAmandawi thPhil
aatthe
l
aunchIinvestigat
edf ur
therthanfoundoutthat
she'
sbeenst eali
ngfrom Phila
Danny
:Youi
nvest
igat
edf
urt
her
?
Zee:
thePIi
nvest
igat
edImean
Phi
l
a:oh
Itwasli
ketheguy
sweren'
tbuyi
ngthest
ory.Idon'
t
knowwhycauseZeehasexplai
nedever
ythi
ngthey
wantedtoknow
Itwasar
ound6pm andwehavesupper
.We'v
ebeen
eati
ngalotl
atel
ysoineedt
ogotothegym
Phil
a:babe,
pleasel
ookforacl
eani
ngagencysoI
coul
dhiresomehelper
s
Me:
whydoy
ouneedhel
per
s?
Nay
e:wi
l
lyoucl
eant
hismansi
onal
lbyy
our
sel
fsi
ya
Mpho:Idon'
tthi
nkso.Sobeagoodbabeandl
ook
f
ortheagency
Mphoi samanofherf ewwor dsbutwheneverhe
tal
kshejustleavesastat
ement hespeaks
nonsensejustli
keAthi
butAthidoesn'
thaveafil
ter
orti
ming
Aft
erweatewecleanedupandIlef
twit
hPhila'
s
Jaguarwi
thNceba.Ever
yonewenthome.Zeelef
t
wit
hDannynBeel ef
twit
hBonga
Igothomeandt ookashower ,
lot
ionedmybody
thenwor emyni ghtdresssatonthebed.Tookmy
l
apt opandlookedf orcleani
ngagenciesandsetup
anappoi nt
mentf or10am Icall
edPhi l
aandhesaidI
shouldgot her
ecauseheknowsnot hi
ngabout
helpers
Wesai
dourgoodby
esandIsl
ept
*
Nextmor
ning*
Iwokeupandf r
eshenedup,t
iedmyhairinamessy
bunanddidmyey ebr
owsthenputdustypinkmatt
e
l
ipst
ickandworemywhi t
efl
owylongdr essand
whit
esandlesandwenttohavebreakf
ast
Nceba:
heyst
ranger
Me:Ishoul
dbesayingt
hatcausey
oual
way
swi
th
Thapel
otheseday
s.
Nceba:butyou'r
earoundmostti
mesmoscsodon'
t
complaini
fallyourey
esonlyseeLesl
ey.AndI
'
m
goi
ngt omom' sthi
sweekend
Me:
okayt
heny
ou'
recomi
ngwi
thmeorThapel
o?
Nceba:
wit
hyou
WegointothecarandIputsomemusi
conand
pl
ayed"Sj
ava_Ekuseni
"andwedr
ovet
oZandy'
s
apar
tmentanpickedherup
Aft
erawhil
ewewer eatwor
k,whi
l
epl
ayi
ng
"
LadyZamar_Mybaby"
Zandy
:Someone'
sinagoodmood
Me:
Yeah whatcanIsay
?Li
fei
sGoodMr
sMpho
Zandy
:Hi
sSur
namei
sLebone
Me:
yeahwhat
ever
Wewal kedtoouroff
icesandmydeskhadbeauti
ful
Lil
l
ie'sandanote"You'r
etheli
lyoft
heval
ley
,br
ight
mor ni
ngstar
.You'
retheappleofmyheart
.Il
ove
you"
Lov
e:P.
L.N
Bel
i
nda:
Ncooht
hesear
ecut
e
Me:
Thanky
ou
Bel
inda:
wehav
eal
otofpaper
wor
ktogot
hroughso
l
et'
sstar
t.
Me:
Bel
i
nda,I'
vebeent
hinki
ngi
nsteadofy
oubei
ng
myPA,iwantyout
obemypartner.
Beli
nda:
what!
! wowt
hanky
ouuhm Idon'
t
knowwhattosay
Me: y
eahyoubasi
cal
lyknowevery
thi
ngi
doandI
t
alkedtodadabouti
tandfinal
Bel
i
nda:
Thanky
ou!Mymom wi
l
lbev
erypr
oudof
me.Thanky
ouMsShezi
Me:
It'
sapl
easur
e,par
tner
Webot hlaughedandconti
nuedwor ki
ngti
l
litwas10
andIleftheri
nmyof fi
cewhileIwenttot
hecleaning
agencyandgot3cleaners,
3cater
ersandagardener
thensignedcontr
act
sandemai l
edtoPhi
la

#Lubabal
o
Thingsbet
weenmeandBel indaaregreatandwe' r
e
j
ustsoinlove.i
tsbeenamont hnowbuti tfeelsas
i
fitsbeenyear
s.Icall
edameet ingwiththeguy s
causeweneedt odiscussalotandwemeet ingat
myhouse.Myhel perprepar
edaf east
,weeatl ike
caveman.
Theyar
ri
vedat11.Thabowasst
il
li
nKi
mber
lywi
th
Kamo
Bonga:
whodi
ed?
Me:
Youdi
d
Danny
:jokesasi
dewehav
esomebusi
nesst
otake
car
eof
f
Nkosi
:whatIwantt
oknowi
sthathowdi
dZi
yanda
knowaboutAmanda
Mpho:
andwhydidZandi
lecoverupourt
rackswhen
Bel
i
ndaaskedust
hatquest
ion
At
hi:Zi
yanda,
ican'
ttr
aceany
thi
ngorgetany
i
nfor
mationabouther
Danny
:whatdoy
oumean?
?
Ly
anda:t
her
e'ssomethi
ngdodgyaboutt
hatcause
weshoul
dbeabletofi
ndhernameherebutther
eis
NoZiy
andaBhenguatall
Phi
l
a:wai
twai
twai
t!Howdoest
hathappen
Me:
wer
eal
l
yneedt
ofi
gur
ethi
sout
Mpho:She'
ssneh'
ssist
err
ightsol
et'
suseSneht
o
getsomeinf
oabouther
Athi
andly
andatypedi
nSneh'
snameandsur
name
andsti
l
lwedidn'
tfi
ndany
thi
ng
Phi
la:atschool
Snehdi
dn'
tuse"
Bhengu"use
Mthiy
ane
Ly
anda:Yeahwef
oundherbutnot
hingl
i
nkshert
o
Zi
yanda
Nkosi
:CheckZandi
l
e
At
hi:
Not
hingman!Not
hing!
Bonga:
whati
ftheywor
kingwi
tht
heRussi
ansorFBI
Mpho:
butwhywoul
dZandycov
erf
orus
Phil
a:whatdot
heyknowaboutwor
king
undercov
er
Danny:Igett
heot
her
sbutZee,
shemakesme
suspi
cious
Nkosi
:She'
sal
way
swar
ri
ngt
hatbl
ackankl
ebr
acel
et
Lubah:
theyal
lweart
hose
Nkosi
:Shi
t!
Ly
anda:
Ntokozonev
ert
akesi
tof
fli
kenev
er!

Whoar
ethesepeopl
e
Bonga:
ithi
nki
tst
imewewentbackboy
s
Phi
l
a:No!Youguy
sar
epar
anoi
d
Nkosi
:howdoy
ouexpl
ainal
lthi
sthen?
Mpho:Ihaveaplan,
let
'
sal
lj
usthaveachil
l
edday
onFri
daythenoneofuswi
llaskaboutt
heankl
e
br
acel
ets
Nkosi
:Andi
buzi
1(I
'
m notaski
ng)
Weal
ll
ookedatAt
hi
At
hi:
FineI
'
llask!
Danny
:we'
l
lbeatmypl
acet
hengent
s

#LBUBT
*
Whatdoy
out
hinki
sgoi
ngon?
*
Commentandl
i
ke
Nexti
nser
tcomi
ngsoon
[
1/11,
00:
21]Tat
enda:
Inser
t13
#Lubah
Me: l
etmecall
Beli
ndaandtel
lhert
ocomewit
hthe
gir
lsonFri
dayatDanny
'shouseandwe'
l
lbe
spendingt
heweekendther
e
Bonga:
goodsowecani
nvest
igat
efur
ther
Lyanda:
ohNt okozoIr
eall
ywon'tenj
oyki
l
li
ngy
oui
f
you'
reworki
ngf ormyenemies
Weal
lj
ustl
aughedatt
hisguybuthewasser
ious
Me:
Lindababe
Her:l
ubabalo!!
!Igotgoodnews!Igotapromoti
on!
I
'm nowSiya'sPartner
!I'
m amanagerbabe!I
'
ma
manager!
Me:
Congr
atul
ati
onsbunnyi
m happyf
ory
ou
Her
:mom wi
l
lbesopr
oudofme!
Me:shewill
babe wel lIcal
l
edy outotel
lyouand
thegi
rl
sthatweal
lspendingtheweekendatDanny'
s
house
Her
:OkayI
'
lli
nfor
mthem by
enowwe'
rer
eal
l
ybusy
her
e
Me:
uhm whoar
eyouwi
th
Her
:ZeeandZandi
l
ewhy
?
Me:
whatar
eyoubusywi
th
Her
:somei
nfor
mat
ionandpaper
wor
k
Me:
about
?
Her
:Heywhat
swi
tht
hehundr
edquest
ions
Me:
sor
ryIj
ustmi
ssy
ou
Her:okayby
enow.AtthebackgroundIhear
dzee
tal
ki
ngnIheard"
from nowony ou'
reworki
ngwit
h
us"
Idr
oppedt
hecal
landt
oldt
heguy
s
Mpho:
wher
eismygun?I
'
m goi
ngt
her
eri
ghtnow!
Phil
a:don'
tbeanidi
otwena wewon'tdot
hat
.Just
actnormalandev
eryt
hingwi
l
lbef
ine
Nkosi
:Imi
ssNay
e
Athi
:youcan'
tmisshernowdudeitsaboutt
oget
hect
icsomethi
ngdoesn'tf
eel
right
Weallcont
inuedtal
ki
ngaboutever
ythi
ngandback
i
nthedays.Thentheyl
eftandIwastir
edal
readyso
Iwenthome.Perksofbei
ngyourownboss.
#Si
ya
Iwentbacktomyoff
icet
henf
oundZee,
Zandyand
Bel
indabusywi
thsomepaper
work
Af
teraf
ewmi
nut
esNay
e,Nt
okozo,
BeeandSneh
wal
kedi
n
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Zee:
we'
regi
vingBel
indat
hebracel
et,
she'soneof
usnowsosheneedsonejustf
orpr
otect
ion
Me:
prot
ect
ion
Naye:TheRussi
ansareworki
ngwit
hthe
Colombiansnowsoinafewmonthsthi
ngswi
l
lbe
hecti
c
Nt
okozo:
fuck!Whati
ftheguy
sfi
ndout
Sneh:
wehav
etot
ell
them
Me:andhowexact
lydoyoutel
lyourboy
fri
endt
hat
you'
rei
nvol
vedi
nil
legal
deal
s
Ntokozo:Thatyou'
reagangst
er.I
'
m sur
ely
anda
wouldjustlaughatme
Zee:
somepeopl
ehav
ebeensnoopi
ngar
oundour
syst
em,Sneht
ell
mey
oudi
dn'
tregi
stery
ourI
'
das
Bhengu
Sneh:
I'
m notani
diot
,IusedMt
hiy
ane
Zee:
Good.
Me:
whathappensnow?
Zandy
:Youhav etowearabul
l
etpr
oofv
est
sand
car
ryyourgunsev
eryday
Bel
i
nda:
I'
venev
erusedagunbef
ore
Bee:
You'
l
llear
ntodaysweet
ie
Bel
inda:howam Igoi
ngtoexplai
ntoLubah,
I'
m sur
e
he'
l
l askwhyI
'm wear
ingabull
etproof
Ntokozo:Tr
yavoi
dinghi
m orl
ockt
hebat
hroom
whil
ey oudr
ess
Zee:
You'
l
lfi
gur
esomet
hingout
.
Nowweneedtogot
othesaf
ehouseandt
eachy
ou
howt
oshoot
Il
ovemygirl
swhenweallgangster
.I'
m sur
eyou'
re
wonder
ingwhat
'sgoi
ngonbuty ou'
l
lfi
ndoutsoon.
Wet henlookedmyof f
iceanddrovetoTongaat
,
that'
swhereoursafehouseis.I
tsjustanor
mal
2room housewhereourtwoagent sstay
,Bongiand
Stixithasasecr
etundergroundbasementwherewe
wor kandstashal
lourweapons
St
ix:
Bossl
adi
es
Zee:
Openman
Heopenedandwewenti
nandwentst
rai
ghtt
othe
basement
.Wehavej
ustafewhour
ssowecanall
gohomeandactnor
mal
Bel
i
nda:
whatthehel
l
!I'
venev
erseensomanyguns
i
nmyentir
eli
fe
Sneh:MsEagl esthi
si sn'
tthetimetoday dream
comet hissidet
heywentt oteachBeli
ndahowt o
shootwhi l
eIsetupt hesecurit
ysystem sowecan
addBelinda'sFi
ngerprint
ssoshecoul deasi l
y
accessthebasementwi thoutanydi
ffi
culti
es.
Securi
tyisveryti
ghther eandwehav etobeext ra
caref
ul.
I
n4hoursever
ythi
ngwasdoneandsortedandweal
l
wenthome.Bel
indawasal
readywear
ingher
br
aceletsothatwassor t
ed.Basi
cal
lyt
hebr acel
etis
atr
ackingdeviceandasensorsowhenev eranyone
i
stakesitof
forpr essesthesecr
etbut
tonweat tack!
Igothomeandf
oundNcebawat
chi
ngTV
Me:
Kido
Nceba:
Yeschi
l
d
Me:
wher
e'sy
ourbul
l
etpr
oofv
estandgun?
Nceba:
int
hesaf
e
Me:f
rom t
omorr
owy
oust
artwear
ingi
tunt
ilIt
ell
yout
ostopokay
Nceba:
ayaycapt
ain
Ncebaknowsaboutwhatwedobutshei snotpar
t
ofit.Sheknowshowtoprot
ecthersel
f
thoughBeli
ndawasbusyshoot
ingthepoorpi
l
low,
sheai msperf
ect
ly,
she'
safastlear
ner
.
Me:
whodoy
out
hinki
tis?
Nay
e:Ihav
enoi
dea
Zee:i
thastobesomeoneelsecausei
tsnott
he
Colombai
nsortheRussi
ans
Sneh:oursourcesaysal
lthei
ragent
sar
einamer
ica
soit
'sdefi
natelynott
hem
Zandy
:Let
'sgohomeI
'
mti
red
Me:it
'sf
unkyFr
idayt
omor
row,
wil
lwest
il
lwear
sui
ts
Zee:
Leat
hersui
ts,
ever
ythi
ngmustbebl
ack!
Weal
lnoddedandwenthome
Igothomeandt herewasanotefrom Nceba
"There'
snoschool t
omorr
owsoIaskedmom t o
fetchme,welef
ty ousometakeawaysinthefr
idge"
I
'
llcal
lthem l
aterf
ornowIj
ustwantt
osl
eep

*
Fri
day
*
Iwokeupi nt
hemorning,tookalongbath,t
hen
l
otionedandgotdr essed,Iworemat chi
ngblackl ace
under ,blackl
eat
hersuit,
itwasveryheavysinceit's
bul
let proofandworeblackheel
sf r
om Charlesand
Keith.Ipackedmycl ot
hesandt oil
etr
ybagsi ncewe
al
lsl eepingatDanny'
sthisweekend.Ihaven'tseen
Phi
lasi
nceTuesdayandImi
sshi
m somuch,
we
onl
yspokeonthephone
Idr
ovehi
sR8andwentt owork,
Zandygotali
ftf
rom
MphosoIwasn'tf
etchi
ngher.Ihav
entdrankr
edbul
l
i
ndayssoiguessI'
mt akingt
hedoctor
sorder
s
Workwasokay, iwasboredsinceZandyand
Beli
ndawentt oameet i
ngsoIst ayedandf i
nished
somepaperwor k.Hadast affmeetingwiththe
tr
uckdri
vers.Aft
erthatIhadaboar dmeet i
ngwi th
boardmember sfrom MasibambaneLogi sti
cs.It
wasnow1pm.Ti met ogohome! Lubabalo
askedmef oralif
tsinceweal l
goingt ooneplace
andhelefthiscaratDanny'salr
eady .
Lubah:Hav
en'
tseeny
oui
nawhi
l
e,wher
eyouhi
ding
yoursel
f
Me:Workhasbeenhect
icheybutBel
i
ndaandIhav
e
t
hingsunder
cont
rol
Lubah:
what
'swi
tht
hebl
ackcl
othi
ngt
heseday
s
Me:
Ial
way
swearbl
ack
Lubah:
nol
i
key
ou'
real
lwear
ingbl
ack
Me:
ohmay
bei
t'
sjustacoi
nci
dence
Lubah:
coinci
dence?Youguy
swearexact
lyt
he
sameclot
hesanddodgyshades
Me:y
ou'
readetecti
venow?I
tsagi
rlt
hingy
ou
woul
dn'
tunder
stand
Lubah:di
dn'
tyousayi
t'
sacoi
nci
dence?Nowi
t'
sa
gi
rlthi
ng
Me:Lubabal
oMtot
i!Shutup!Geezy
ou'
reaski
ngt
oo
manyquesti
ons
Hewasst
art
ingt
oir
ri
tat
eme
Lubah:
Sor
ry
Ipl
ayedmusicoutloudandsang"Pink_
Justgi
veme
areason"hesangalongandIl
aughedathim
Bel
indashoul
dheart
hissoIr
ecor
dedhi
m wi
thout
hi
m noti
cing.
.
West
oppedatPav
il
ionsoIcoul
dbuyaf
ewt
hings
Lubah:
whyar
eweher
e?
Me:
Grocer
ies
Lubah:
Dannydoesn'
thav
egr
ocer
ies
Me:wecan'tj
ustarr
ivether
eempt
yhandedand
don'
taskanyfur
therquesti
ons
Lubah:
okaysowhatar
ewebuy
ing?
Ij
ustst
aredathi
m andhel
aughed
Lubahisapain!Wherei
sNkosi
wheny
ouneedhi
m!i
needthosepainki
l
ler
s
Wegottocheckersandboughtev
ery
thi
ngwe
neededandmore.Somecakes,meat
,snacksand
wewentt ot
heli
quorstor
eandboughtsomewine
andbeersandi
ce.
Lubah:
I'
ll
dri
venow
Me:
okayt
hen
Wepackedt hegr
ocer
iesi
nthebootanddr
oveto
Hil
l
crestandwegottoDanny'
shouse.I
twasl
ikea
hotel
!
Lubah:
hehast
hebi
ggesthouset
henal
lofus
Me:
itsamazi
ng
Lubah:
wai
tunt
ily
ou'
rei
nsi
de
Wetookoutall
thegr
oceri
esandt
hehelper
spacked
ev
eryt
hing.Weweret
helastt
oarr
iveandIwentt
o
mybae
Phi
l
a:HeybabeI
'
vemi
ssedy
ou
Weki
ssedf
orawhi
l
e
Me:Imi
ssedy
out
oobabe
Bonga:
what
'
swi
tht
hel
eat
her
?
Nkosi
:andmat
chi
ngcl
othes?
At
hi:
all
black?
Nay
e:what
'swi
tht
hei
nter
rogat
ion?
Phi
l
a:okayst
opguy
s.Theyl
ookedateachot
herand
weall
satdown
Danny
:let
'swat
chamov
ie
Lyanda:don'
tyougi
rl
swanttochange?Imeani
ts
hotsotheleat
herandweat
herdon'tmi
x
Bee:
Yeahl
et'
sgochangegi
rl
s
Weall
walkedtooneroom andchangedi
nto
summerdressesandst
rappedourgunsonour
t
highs
Naye:don'
tyouthi
nkt hey
'vebeenf
oll
owingus,
they
at
tacki
nguswi t
hat housandquest
ions
Zandy
:ift
heywor
kingwi
tht
heRussi
ans,
weshoot
!
Bel
i
nda:
what
!No Ican'
tshootl
ubah
Me:
Ican'
tshootphi
l
a
Ntokozo:t
henwe'
llexchangeoneshoot
stheother
soIwon'tfeel
gui
l
tyforshooti
ngmyboy f
ri
end
Sneh:
noonewil
lshoot
, we'
llj
usthol
dthem ongun
poi
ntthent
akei
tfr
om there
Bee:
let
'sgobef
oret
heygetsuspi
ci
ous
Wewal keddownst
air
sandgotsomepopcor
nand
dr
inks
Isatnextt
omybabeandputmyl
egsonhi
slap
makingsureIcov
ermygun
Phi
l
a:beaut
if
ulbr
acel
etbabe
Zeel
ooksatme
Me:
thanky
ou
Af
tersomet
ime,
zandyst
andsupandwal
kst
othe
ki
tchen
At
hi;
youal
lhav
ethesamebr
acel
ets?
Bel
i
nda:
yeahf
ri
endshi
pthi
ngsy
ouknow
Phil
a:What'st
hebut t
onfor
?Andhepressesi
tand
weallstandandtakeoutourguns,
Ipoi
ntatMpho
butheisalsopoi
ntinghi
sgunonZee
Zandy
:Dr
opt
heguns!
Nkosi
:Youdr
opi
tfi
rst
!
Bel
inda:
thi
sisnonsense,I
'
llaskonequest
ioni
fyou
guy
ssaynowe' l
ldr
opt hegun
Zee:
That
sri
skyBel
i
nda!
Bel
inda:
idon'
tgi
veafuck!Ar
ey ouguyswor
king
wit
htheRussi
anandColombiandeal
ers
Them:
No!
Ly
anda:
wet
houghty
ouar
ewor
kingwi
tht
hem!
Nt
oko:
all
gunsdown!Don'
ttr
yany
thi
ngf
unny
Igetacal
lfr
om Nceba
Nceba:
mybr
acel
etbeeped!Ev
ery
thi
ngokay
?
Me:
yessweet
iewe'
reokay
Wet
alkedabi
tthenshedr
oppedt
hecal
l
At
hi:
wil
lany
oneexpl
ain
Danny
:Zee?Zandy
?
Zee:
FineI
'
llexpl
ain

#ZEE
Mynamei sZiyandaBhenguwellyoucancall
me
Zee.I'
m aradi
ologi
stbyprof
essi
onbutthat'
sjusta
j
obt ocoverupwhatIreal
lydo
I
'
m aPrivat
eInvest
igat
ornowai
tthat
'st
oocl
ean
I
'
m agangster

Danny
:Zeewe'
rewai
ti
ngf
ory
out
oexpl
ain
Me: okaywhenwewer edoi
ngour1styearinCape
Townwi thBabal
wawegotaj obinsomeItali
an
rest
aurantbutourbosswasRussi
anhisnamewas
Pietwel lthat'
st henameweknew.Af teraf ew
mont hsBabal wadi scov eredt hati twasn' tjusta
restaurantbuti twasal soabr othel att heupst airs
buildi
ngwhi chwewer en' tall
owedt ogot hrough.But
wewer est ubbor nsoweaskedt oatt hebr ot hel as
bartender sPietgav eust hejob.Ist art edusi ngmyI T
skil
lst oshutdownal lthecamer ast her esowecan
snoopar ound.Wedi dn'tknowwhatwewer el ooki ng
forbutweknewt herewassomet hingwe' df ind.We
foundst ashesofmoney ,we'ret alkingaboutbi lli
ons
here.Behi ndt hest ashwasl otsandl ot sofdr ugs, we
l
atert hendi scov eredt hatPi etwasaRussi andr ug
l
or dandhehadachi pt hatcoul ddest royev erything
theyhadandwoul dlandt hem i njail.Beesuggest ed
wewor kedcl osel ywi t
hPei tsowecoul df i
ndt he
Chipsowewor kedasSt r
ipper s.Wehadat ightbond
withPei tsoconv i
ncinghi mt ot akeust oRussi awi t
h
himf ortheDecemberschool hol i
day swasn' tahar d
thi
ngt odo.Sot hat'swhenIt aughtSnehev er ything
sheneededt oknowbutIknewi twoul dbet oomuch
forhert odoal onesowegotSi yat ohel pusand
theywer edoi nggr ade12andweknewt hey '
dbe
comi ngt oCapeTownt henexty ear.Wel eftand
wentt oRussi aandst ayedt here,wewor kedforthe
Russian, smuggl i
ngdrugsi ntoItalyforabout
2mont hs, weknewwehadt ogobackt oschool but
wewer et oocl osetojustgiv eup.Swal lowingthose
drugswasr eallyhardsowehadt okeepwor king.I
t
wasav eryr iskyjobandi tpay edwel l,
wesentt he
moneybackt osouthAf ri
cawher eSiyaandSneh
woul dbuycomput ersystems, t
rackingdev i
cesand
everything.Af ter3monthsIf oundt hechip.Alarm
systemswentonandIputi ti nmyunder wear
tooksomemoneyandwer anf orourl i
ves.Babalwa
camewi thgunswhi chIdon' tknowwher eshegot
them.That '
st hedaywel earnthowt oshoot ,
ittook
usaweekt ogetbackt oSout hAfricasincewe
couldn'tuseai rpl
anescausewe' dbear r
ested.
Whenwegott oCapeTownwemett heothergir
ls
whohadal sojoi
nedusandwef ormedourown
team.Ntokozoknewev er
ythi
ngaboutgunswhi l
e
zandil
ewasapr oinI
Tandshemadet hebracel
ets
andwe'vebeentogethersi
ncethen.TheRussian
peopletr
iedtofi
ndusandwegoti ntomany
chall
engebutwewer eabletopul
lthroughevery
ti
meIdon'tknowhowbutIthi
nkthere'
sal
waysbeen
peopl
eprotect
ingusIr
eal
lydon'
tknowhow.Zandy
thenmetwiththi
sguycal
l
edRazorandwe'vebeen
worki
ngwithhim
Nkosi
:wow!Ij
ustcan'
tbel
i
evet
his
Danny
:Zi
yandawher
eist
heChi
p?
Me:
it'
ssomewher
esaf
e
Bel
inda:
I'm hungryI
'l
lgoor
dershest
oodupand
wenttotheKitchen
Nkosi
:Sowe'vebeenwor
kingt
oget
heral
lthi
sti
me
butwejustdi
dn'
tknow
Si
ya:
whatdoy
oumean
Phi
l
a:Wewor
kforRazor
Danny
:andr
azori
smyf
ather
Nt
okozo:
thatexpl
ainst
heweal
th
Mpho:
sowhydidyoucov
erf
orusZandy
,when
Bel
i
ndaaskedhowcomewe'
rer
ich
Zandy:Ihadmysuspici
onssoIdi dsomeresear
ch,
yoursecuri
tysy
stemsain'
tthatt
ightMphosoIcoul
d
getal
lthei
nfor
mat
ionIneed
Nkosi
:di
dyout
ell
them
Zandy
:Nocauseweal
sodot
hesamet
hing
Me:
tel
luswhat
?
Bel
i
nda:t
hattheysmuggl
eweapons,
steal
car
sand
workf
orrazor
Lubah:
babehowdoy
ouknowal
lthat
Bel
inda:
I'
m smart
erthany outhinkIam.Aft
erZandy
cover
edforyouguysIfol
l
owedy ouar
oundandgot
toseewhereyoust
ashev eryt
hing.
Si
ya:
goLi
nda!
At
hi:
soy
oul
adi
esar
ethugs!
Mpho:
Nay
eyoushootl
i
keapr
o
Bee:
soy
ouguy
swer
efol
l
owi
ngt
hem
Danny
:yeahwehadt
ofi
ndoutwhoy
ouar
e
Weall
talkedal
lforawhil
ethenat
eandwentt
obed.
Tomorr
owwasst il
lanot
herday
#LBUBT
Li
keandSuppor
t
[
1/11,
00:
22]Tat
enda:
Inser
t14
#PHI
LA

Iwokeupt hismorni
ngandshower edthenwor emy
khakishor
tsandwhitevest.Walkeddownstairsand
everyonewasawakealr
eady ,IwonderwhyI'
m
al
way sthelastonet
ocomedownf orbreakfast .I
walkedovertoseeandkissedhercheek
Me:
Mor
ningev
ery
one
Zandy
:"t
hisev
ery
one"agai
naywet
humymot
her
gavemeaname
At
hi:
youal
way
shav
eapr
obl
em wi
thPhi
l
a'sgr
eet
ing
Zandy:atl
eastt
odaySiyai
spar
tofev
ery
onesoI
won'tbehardonhi
mt oday
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
recr
azy
Weallhadbreakf
asti
nawkwardsi
lence,Iguess
ev
ery
onej ustwant
stotal
kaboutl
astnightandget
f
ull
det
ail
sandwehav
en'
ttol
doursi
deoft
hest
ory
.
At
hi:
let
'spl
ayQ&A
OnlyAthicancomeupwithsuchast
upi
d
suggesti
onbutitwi
l
lhel
p
Zee:
Whyar
eyouwor
kingf
orRazor
Danny
:Becausehei
smyf
ather
Nay
e:t
hat
'sbul
l
,ther
ehast
obear
easonwhy
Lubah:
wel
lther
e'snor
eason
Bee:
wet
oldourst
orynowi
t'
syourt
urn
Me:
she'
sri
ghtguy
s.
Ly
anda:
arey
oucr
azy
?
Nkosi
:I'
l
ltel
lthem af
terbr
eakf
ast
Nay
e:bet
termakeeatqui
ckl
ycauseIneedt
oknow
Sowegent
sdeci
dedt
otakeoutt
ime
Sneh:
mxm y
ouguy
sar
edoi
ngal
lthi
sonpur
pose
Mpho(
singi
ng)
:Yougi
vemepur
pose
t
hisguy
sisi
mpossi
ble!Inev
erexpect
edt
hat
andwejustl
aughedsohar
dandNkosi
droppeda
Bomb!
Nkosi:
Wekill
edafewpeopl
e,t
hat
'swhywewor
kfor
r
azor!Happynow?
Het henstoodupandleft
,yeshei
sr i
ghteachand
everyoneofushaskil
ledsomeone.Butitwasfor
goodr easonswedon'
tjustwakeupanddecideto
ki
llpeople,i
twasei
therwedieortheydiebut
someonehadt ododieandachoicehadt obemade.
Nayechockedonherf ood
Zandy:andthenaft
erthatt
heyhadRazorcleanup
themesssincetheydidamessyjob,idon'
tblame
them.Theyweresti
llnewinthi
scruel
wor l
d
Danny
:Zandi
l
ehowdoy
ouknowal
lthi
s?
Zandy
:Idi
dmyr
esear
ch
Ly
anda:
that
'shar
dtobel
i
eve
Nkosi
cameback
Nkosi
:Ther
e'ssomet
hingy
ounott
ell
i
nguszandy
Zandy
:justt
ell
usy
ourst
oryt
henI
'
llt
ell
youmi
ne
Ly anda: weal lmetatt heUni ver sit
yofFr eeSt at
e, we
wer eal lintoar myt hingsy ouknowandt henav yso
Mphodi dsomer esear chandf oundt hatt hereisan
oppor t
uni tyforust ogot raint obesol diersorwor k
i
nt henav ysowet ooki t,leftschool andheadedt o
Jozi wher ewehadourf i
rstt r
ai ningsessi onswe
wer eal lthenmov edt oCol ombi a,wewer e10guy s
and5gi rlsthatmakesat otalof15Sout hAf ri
cansat
thatAr my .Lat eront hingsgotr eallyhect icandwe
want edt oqui tbutt herewasnogoi ngback, our
trainingsessi onswoul dbeki llinginnocentpeopl e,
whatki ndofar myi st hat !SoaguynamedNdumi so
Mbambowecal l
edhi m Ndu, foundoutt hatthiswas
ani ll
egal armyandwewer ebei ngtrainedt obecome
Hi tmanandser ialkill
er s.Wewer etaughtev eryt
hing
aboutguns, kni fes,bombset candhowt oki l
la
per son, itwasf unat1stt r
ustmecauseIsawmy self
asabadasst hug butonedayt heybr oughtinol d
l
adi es,ol denought obemygr andmaandwehadt o
killthem t henextday ,Icoul dn' tdoi t
,weal lcouldn't
,
Iforonehav enogr andmaandhowwoul dIkillsuch
asoul ,there'sonewomanwhowast alkingtoDanny
shesai d" Mychi ldpl easehel pusgetoutofher e,
manypeopl ehavecamei nher
eandwereneverseen
again,Ihavegr
andchil
drentor
aiseI
'
mtheironly
family
"thenandtherewedecidedweweregoingto
escapewi t
hthewoman.
Athi:Nightti
mecame, wehadal r
eadymadeapl an
withtheol dladi
esand3ot hergirl
swhowoul d
dist
ractthesecur i
tyguysbutl i
ttl
edidweknowt hat
oncewewer eoutofthegatest herewouldbeot her
securit
yguy swaitingforus,theystartedt
alki
ng
sayingthey '
dkil
lusbutsomeol dladyshotaf ew
fi
rst,wet henstart
edshoot i
ng,luckil
ywewer e
wear i
ngbul l
etproofvests
Me:
butnotal
lofus
Nkosi :
Ndumi soandNcebo( otherguy )werenotand
theybot hdi
edatt hespot.Wet hant ooktheirbodi
es
andr anseparateway s,
theol dgr anniesknewwher e
they'
dbesaf eandt heudirectedust oaHabour
wher eoneoft heirsonswaswor king,wet ook
Ndumi soandNcebo' sbodi esandr anforourliv
es.
Til
lwegott ot heHabour ,Dannyopenedhi sbag
l
ooki ngformoneyt opayf ortheboatwewer egoing
totravelby,
butt herewasr ealdiamondsandgol d
weal lcheckedourbagsandi twasf ullofmi neral
s
andanot e"Thesewi l
lhelpy oualongt hewayf r
om
GrannySmi th"wepaidwi thaf ewdi amondst i
ll
we
gottoSout hAf ri
ca.Wegott oFreeSt ateandwent
str
aighttor azor,hehelpeduscl eant hemesswe' ve
madeofki l
li
ngt hosepeopl e,t
hest olendiamonds
andescapi ngt opayhim backwehadt owor kfor
him andweal sogopai d,t
hat '
showwegotr i
ch.
Nowwehav ehear dthattheRussi ansar ewor ki
ng
withtheCol ombi anstogett hediamonds, goldand
theChi p
Athi
:wewentbacktoschoolandgotourdegr
ees
becauseweneededajobthatcoul
dbeagoodcov er
andhidewher
emostoftheweal t
hfrom
Lubah:
andfr
om thenwe'vebeenwor
kingf
orRazor
andwehavebigmansions.
Ly
anda:
all
ourbusi
nessesar
elegal
though
Danny
:andwe'
renor
mal
peopl
e
Nkosi:andwesentt hebodiestot
hei
rhomesbutwe
di
dn'tattendthefuner
alcausewefel
tver
ygui
lt
y
abouttheirdeat
h,itwaspainf
ul
Nayecr
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l
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,theywer
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engaged
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hedidmenti
onhewasengagedandhada
daught
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dn'
tthi
nki
twasNaye
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sni
ffs)wedidn'
tevenknowhowhedi ed,t
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bl
amedmef orhi
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l
ledhi
m and
hi
redpeopl
et ocomebringhim homebecauseI
wantedhi
smoney !
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a:t
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doest
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ayedsi
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entf
orawhi
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e
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hi:
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ouokaynowNay
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bit
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yearbeforebutIwasbusyki ll
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me
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us
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rsti
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lyknowy ou
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:whydi
dn'
tyoumakeuspay
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ourr
evenge?
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ready
for
giv
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oreveryt
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sremai
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ear
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hi:
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enot
ear
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pai
nbut
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tcry
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why
?
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I'
vecr
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why
?
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itsast
oryf
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herday
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i
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let
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what
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whatar
eyout
ryi
ngt
osay
?ThatI
'
mfat
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hi:
yes
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Athenkosi
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nosor r
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okozo
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lafly!Ay
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anda:
whywoul
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l
lme?
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okozo:
cheatonmeandy
ou'
l
lsee
Lyanda:
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sthatat
hreat
?Heaskedwi
thasmi
rkonhi
s
face
Me:
noi
t'
sapr
omi
se
Phil
a:y
huwatchoutmymanory
ou'
l
lhav
eagunon
yourmanhoodst
rai
ghtboy
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okozo:
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est
oyouPhi
l
a
Bee:
AndLubah
Weal
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aughedandf
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hi:
youjustwantt
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ryI
'
ll
war
my ouup
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ghtSnehcomeguy
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yepIagr
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i
nda
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youguy
swi
l
lal
way
sagr
eewi
thoneanot
her
Me:
that
'swhywepar
tner
s
Zandy
:incr
ime
Wewal kedt
otheloungeandmovedthecouchesas
pl
annedandgotsomepopcorn,morepizzaand
Sneh'
shotchocol
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usbeersforthe
gents
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okozo:
whathappenedt
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Mpho:theyi
nKi
mber
lyandt
hey
'l
lbebackon
Wednesday
Me:
mmmhr
omant
icget
away
,soundsl
ovel
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Lubah:
weshoul
dal
lgoonal
onghol
i
daysoon
Zandy
:nowwe'
ret
alki
ng
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andyourexci
tementZandsbutwe
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ateont
hemov i
e
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shar
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la:
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kedaboutourr
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ya
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yeah,
wannat
alknow?
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l
a:y
es,
andI
'
dli
key
out
omov
einwi
thme?
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Phi
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ait
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Phi
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lyont
he1stofJanuar
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Me:
Phi
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asande
Phi
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Ihear
dyou
Phil
a:t
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swhyIdidn'
twhi
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youl
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ke
gossi
pjustl
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:yeyMi
naIdon'
tl
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Bee:
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Zandy
:Icankeepsecr
etsDan
Nay
e:t
hat
'sashock
Zandy
:you'
ret
urni
ngagai
nstme!
Bel
i
nda:
ssssh!Guy
s!Shutup.
Thepar
twher
ethi
sguythr
owshischi
l
drent
hrough
thewi
ndowpl
aysandIwasint
ears
Sneh:
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didy
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i
nda:
yesMrMt
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l
obol
afi
rst
!
Lyanda:whatl
obol
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i
ndasf
ami
l
yknownot
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aboutlobol
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Zee:
butwedef
inat
elyknowhowt
ospendt
hat
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Bel
inda:
Hal
l
eluj
ahont
hatZee!"
ngi
yakuv
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nawe"
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Lubah:
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Zandy
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ama
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?
Zee:
just
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anda:
doesi
thur
tyou?
Zee:
No!
Lubah:
whyy
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Zee:
you'
reaski
ngt
omanyquest
ions
Danny
:heyl
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s
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sot
heyi
diot
snow?
Zee:
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Phi
l
a:why
?Whyar
eyout
oodef
endi
ngeachot
her
Danny
:BECAUSEWE.
..
!!
!
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Nkosi
:we'
rewai
ti
ng
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her
At
hi:
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et'
sgetoutofher
e!
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hi:
Makesur
eyouusear
oom ont
hel
astf
loor
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lhermoans
andscreams
Me:
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!You'
rej
ustsomet
hingel
se
At
hi:
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mver
yhandsomenhe
Phi
l
a:Noy
ou'
renot
Sneh:
Yeshei
s
Mpho: ohr
eal
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inghi
s
handsome?
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tst
art
!
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ustl
aughandaf
teraf
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esthemov
ie
endsandwewatched"
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anda:
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ouknowshe'
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ightone?
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y outhi
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eyoushoul
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Dannyandzeecomeback
Phi
l
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tgood?
?
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: butwhati
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yeahIal
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ore
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ti
onall
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hi:
whati
fyou'
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tment
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e
fool
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eanddo
yourisshwithouthavi
ngt odecieveandt ake
advantageoftheloveshehasf ory ou
Bel
inda:Befai
thf
ulinsmal
lthi
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tisi
nthem
whereyourstr
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Zandy:whatifyoucan'ttrust,it
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Phil
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eveifyou
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yoursoulmate
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andt
hemov
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Zee:
thi
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ovel
yconv
ersat
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Danny
:Zeewher
eisy
ourweakspot
?
WhatIdi
dn'
texpectt
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hisi
sthe
nextt
opi
c!
Zee:
Whywoul
dIt
ell
yout
hat
Zandy
:Mi
nei
sonmyneck
Me:
Ithi
nkt
hat
'swher
emostofour
sis
Bel
i
nda:
minei
sonmyNana
At
hi:
yougogi
rl
Nay
e:Undermyf
eet
Nkosi
:What
!
Nay
e:Iknowitswei
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ckl
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myfeetgodknowswhathappensdownther
e
Mpho:
wowy
ou'
rewei
rd!
Bee:
ver
ywei
rd
Nt
okozo:
andy
our
sMpho?
Ly
anda:
whysoy
ouwannaknowMpho'
sweakspot
?
Ntokozo:
Ial
readyknowy
our
sly
andaandIwasj
ust
curi
ous
Phi
l
a:ev
ery
mansweakspoti
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smanhoodNt
okozo
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Ohwow
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ouseem shockedSi
ya?
Siy
a: causeIt
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e'dbeanot
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Sneh:
uwahsi
ya
At
hi:
Nay
ehowdoesi
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li
ket
ohav
eachi
l
d?
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t'
sthebestt hi
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me, thoughthelabourpainswer ehel l
! If eell
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ngEmi hl
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andknowi ngthatIhaveachi ldthatdependsonme,
thatIneedtotakecar eof,thatIneedt oli
vef or
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edev er
y dayandIwor khardformy
chil
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hingforher.
Danny
:wewoul
dlov
etomeether
Bee:
she'
sasweet
hear
t
Nkosi
:whatifsomeonesai
dtheywannal
ovey
ou
andyourchi
l
d?Wantt obei
ny ourl
i
fe?
Nay
e:Idon'
tthi
nkI
'
mready
.
IsawNkosi
'
sey
esful
lofdissapoi
ntmentandhur
t,I
knowhowmuchNkosil
ovesNay e
Nkosi
:Wi
l
lyouev
erber
eady
?
Nay
e:YesIwi
l
l
Nkosi
:Iwi
l
lwai
tfory
ou
Andhel
eftt
her
oom
Zandy
:I'
m sur
ehei
sgoi
ngt
ocr
y
Nay
e:Hewast
alki
ngaboutmeal
lthi
sti
me?
Lubah:
hehasbeent
alki
ngabouty
ousi
ncet
heday
hemety ou
Danny
:hel
ovesy
ou
Phi
l
a:Andhewi
l
lwai
tfory
ou
Nay
e:doy
out
hinkIshoul
dgot
alkt
ohi
m?
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Nol
ethi
m be
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inuedt
alki
ngandNkosi
camebackaf
tera
whi
l
e
Nkosi
:It
hinkIwannacooksupper
,boy
slet
'sshow
t
hem whatwemadeof
Bee:
Idon'
ttr
ustt
hisatal
l
Bel
i
nda:
Especi
all
ysi
nceThaboi
snotar
ound
Zandy
: I
'
llhav
emyphonenex
ttomej
usti
ncasewe
needtoorder
Nt
okozo:
Debonai
rsmustbeonspeeddi
algi
rl
Sneh:
justgi
vet
hem achanceman
At
hi:
Thanky
ou
Theywentstr
aightt
othekit
chenwhi
l
ewehadour
owngir
ltal
kwhi l
ewatchi
ngTheReal
Zee:
Guy
sam It
heonlyonewhot
hinkst
hatwegota
l
ongwaytogowit
htheseguy
s
Bee:li
kethemoreIgettoknowBongat
hemoreI'
m
at
tractedtohi
m andIseetheot
her
sasmybrot
hers
Me:Iknowthefeel
ing,I
'v
eknownPhil
aforaver
y
l
ongtimebutIsti
ll
fall
deeperi
nlov
ewi t
hhi
m
ev
ery
day
Wecont
inuedt
alki
ng

#Lubah
Wewer ebusycooki
ngupast
ormforthel
adi
es,
they
under
esti
mateusbutwe'
ll
showthem
Mpho:
I'
m pr
oudofy
ouNkosi
Danny
: whaty
oudidt
her
ewast
ouchi
ngandi
twas
ver
ybraveofyou
Me:
yeahmanandwegoty
ourbackman
Nkosi:ThanksguysbutIdon'
tthinkshelovesme
butit
sokayIwon' tr
ushher,I
'l
lwaitforhereveni
fI
waitforev
er,Il
ovehermanandi tscaresme
Phi
l
a;y
ou'
rewhi
pped
Ly
anda:
ithi
nkweal
lar
e
Danny
:besi
desme
Mpho:
Andme
Me:
whataj
oke
Ly
anda:
justadmi
titguy
s
Bonga:
I'
minl
ovewi
thBabal
waShezi
Lubah:
onedown,
twot
ogo
Danny:
I'
m notwhi
ppedbutIhav
efeel
i
ngsf
or
Zi
yanda
Mpho:Lovei
sast r
ongword,
butifitdescr
ibesthe
feel
i
ngsIhavef
orZandy,t
heendlessthoughts
abouther
,want
ingtoputasmil
eonherf acethen
I'
minlovewi
thher
At
hi:
andy
ou'
l
lbur
nthosepot
atoesy
ou'
reboi
l
ing

Weconti
nuedtal
ki
ngandwonder
ingi
fthegi
rl
sar
e
t
alki
ngaboutus
Phi
l
a:ofcauset
heyar
e
At
hi:
I'
ll
tel
lyou3t
hingsgi
rl
sal
way
stal
kaboutLat
est
Tr
ends,MenandSex
Ly
anda:
Gott
hatr
ight
Bonga:
andusgent
s
Danny
:Ladi
es,
SexandSoccer
Bonga:
Andr
ugby
Mpho:
onl
yyout
alkaboutr
ugbyboy
Bonga:
youguy
sar
ebor
ing
Phi
l
a:wel
ovey
out
oo
Me:
Gay
Weal
lj
ustl
aughedandcont
inuedcooki
ng

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandsuppor
t
Lovey ouandy
ourl
i
kesandcomment
sar
ehi
ghl
y
appreciat
ed
[
1/11,
00:
22]Tat
enda:
Inser
t16
#Si
ya
Theweekendisoverandwealll
eftDanny'
shouse
yest
erdayaf
ter
noonwellbesi
desZiyanda
Mycarisback! andI'
vebeent hi
nkingofbuyi
ng
anot
hercar,yeahIknowIsaidim notgoingtobuy
anycarsoonbutdri
vingdi
ff
erentcarslatel
yhas
mademechangemymi nd butt hiscarwil
lalways
bemybaby .SoI'
m notpicki
ngupZandysinceshe
sl
eptoveratMpho' sandNcebaisinkwaMashuf or
herSeptemberschoolholi
daysandIhavenohol i
day
whatsoever whi chisbori
ngcauseIreal
lyneed
one.IgottoworkandZandywasal readyt
here
Me:
You'
regl
owi
ng
Zandy
:Iknowr
ight
Bel
i
nda:
Mphogoty
agoodr
ight
?
Zandy
:Icansayso
Me:
sowhat
'sgoi
ngonl
i
keser
iousl
y?
Zandy
:Idon'tknowli
keIreal
l
ydon'
tknowguy
sbutI
l
ovewhateveriti
sthatwehave
Beli
nda:areyouinl
ovewi
thwhaty
ouguy
shav
eor
you'
reinlovewit
hhim?
Zandy
:that
'sat
ri
ckyquest
ion
Me:
ital
soneedsananswer
Zandy
:I'
minl
ovewi
thwhatwehav
e
Bel
i
nda:
andy
ouhav
enof
eel
i
ngsf
orhi
m?
Zandy
:Whatar
efeel
i
ngs?
?
Zandyhasbeent hroughal otsoIunder standwhy
she'snotgoingtoadmi tt
hatshel i
kesMpho.We
wenttoendlessmeet i
ngst hroughoutthedayand
ourbusinesspartner
shipwithMrMt ot
i hasbeen
goingverywellandthemoneyi sgoodt oo.Beli
nda
andLubahal waystrytokeept hi
ngspr ofessi
onal
whichjustmakesmel aughcauset heycompl et
ely
fai
l
Beli
nda:
Ithi
nkyoushoul
dcometomeetingswi
th
Lubahal
onecauseIcan'
tev
enconcent
rate
Me:nope! Ienj
oywatchi
ngy
ouguy
sst
utt
erand
don'
tevenknowwhatt
osay
Wecont i
nuedtalki
nguntil
wegotbackt otheof fi
ce
andIpackedmybagsandwenthome.Phi lais
comi ngovertonightsoIcookedsupperandwentt o
changei nt
omyshor tpy
jamas.Iwaslookingformy
hairpininthedrawernexttomybedwhi lesinging
"Makel ovetome"byBey oncewhenIf el
thands
touchingmybodyandl i
pskissi
ngthebackofmy
neck, it
urnaroundandputmyar msov erhis
shoul
der
s
Phi
l
a:I
'
llmakel
ovet
oyou
Befor
eIev enanswer
,hesmasheshi sl
ipsontomine
andkissesmeaggressi
vel
yy etsoseducti
veand
good,hebitesmyli
psandkissesmyneck
PicksmeupandIcrossmyl egsonhi
swaistand
conti
nueki
ssi
ngpassionatel
yandhi
shands
squeezi
ngmybreast
sandImoanoutl oudwhenhe
squeezest
hem t
ootightl
y
Hepr essesmet ot
hewal l
andopensmyl egsabi t
wider.Grabsmyassandmov est omycl itrubbingit
upanddownandI '
m alr
eadydri
ppingwet .Hepul ls
mypant iesasi
dewithonehand,Ifeelhisf i
ngersli
de
i
nandhegr oansandaddsanotherfingerinand
mov esslowly
ItrytoholdbackmymoansbutIj ustcan'
thel
p
my self
,hequi ckensuphi spaceandImoanoutl oud
andgaspf orair,Ihol
dont i
ghlt
ywi thmyheadonhis
shoulderandar mswr appedaroundhisback.He
pullshisfi
nger soutandcar r
iesmet othebedand
takesof fmypy jamasandhi sclothesoff
Andl
et'
ssav
ethedet
ail
sforl
ater

#Phi
l
a
Afteral otofl ovemaki ngSiyalaysnextt omewi th
herheadonmychestandf al
lsfastasleepwhi l
eI
wat chhercut eandador ableface.Inev erthoughtI '
d
havet hi smomentagai n,i
ttookmebackt owhenI
tookheri nnocence, wewer eingrade11ont he28t h
ofNov ember ,
Iremembercauseshemar kedi ton
mycal endarandsai dIshoul dnev erforgetthatday
andIwi ll neverforgetaboutit.WhoknewI '
dbe
l
ay i
ngnextt ohereveragain, afewmont hsagoI
wasal readygi vi
nguponev ermeet i
ngheragai n,I
'm
gladt hatt helovewehav eforeachot hernev erend.I
somet imeswonderwhatdi dIdot odeser vesucha
soul andgetasecondChance, what everitis, Ithank
Godf orbl essingmewi thSiya.Iwoul daskhert o
mar rymer i
ghtnowbutIdon' twantt oscareher
away ,shedi dsayi t
st oosoonf orhert omov ei nwi t
h
mebutwe' v
eknowneachot herforsol ong, dated
for5y ear sandwewer eapartforanot her5y earsso
Iguesst hat'swhyshesay sitstoosooncausewe
j
ustgotbacktoget
her.Maybeshe'
safrai
ditwon'
tbe
l
ikethewaywewer ebefor
ebutwewer ejusti
nhi
gh
schoolatt
hatti
me.Thosewerejustt
hebestdaysof
mylife.
#NKOSI
Afterwor kIwenthomet ookashowerandwentt o
thegy mr oom forsomewor koutsandj ustt ocl ear
mymi ndthent r
yt ost opt hinkingaboutNay e, see
wor kingouti smyescapeandi twor ksoutj ustf ine
forme.Idon' tknowwhati tisthat '
smaki ngmef all
thi
si nl ovewi t
hsomeonewhodoesn' tev enl ikeme.
I
'm nott r
yingtorepl aceNdumi so.Hewasagr eat
guyandIl ookedupt ohim, fall
inginlovewi thNay e
wasn' twhatIpl annedandi twasn' tami stake, itjust
happened, t
hehear twant swhati twant s.I'vet ried
forgett i
ngabouther ,sleepingwi t
hot hergi rl
sbutal lI
thi
nkofi sNay e.Her eIwast hi
nkingI'
dcl earmy
mindandst opthinkingaboutherbutseemsl ike
that'snothappeni ng.Byt hewayI '
m Nkosi nat hi
Mkhi zebutev ery
onecal lsmeNkosi .I'
m anAr chitect,
CEOofMMH-MaKhosazanaMkhi zeHol di
ngs
namedaf termylategr andmot her.I'
m 25y ear sol d
andIhavenowi fe,nogirl
fri
endandnochi l
dren.I
wishIhadt houghbei nginthismansi onal onecan
beboringsomet imesbutGog' Zondi makesme
l
aughsomet i
mes she' soneofmyhel persandshe
alwaysanalysesev erygi
rlIcomewi t
handshe
remember stheirnamesy etIdon' t.Soaf t
erwor ki
ng
outIwenttot akeashoweragai nanddeci dedtogo
tothemalloranyr estaurantjusttogetmy selfsome
supper.I
tsaround19: 30pm andI '
m drivi
ngpast
EngengaragewhenIseeNay eandal it
tl
egi r
l
argui
ngwi t
heachot herandt heirti
rehaspunched
thenIparknextt othem andcomeout
Lit
tl
egir
l:Mommyyoushoul
dhavelear
nthowt
odo
thi
s,l
ookwe'r
est
ucknowandI'
m hungry
Iguessthat'
sEmihle shel
ookssomuchl ike
Naye,Iwalkbacktomycar,Nayel
ooksatmewi t
ha
confusedfaceandtakeoutasandwi
chfrom earl
ier
todayIhopeitsst
il
lgood.
Me:
Her
e,hav
emysandwi
chwhi
l
eIf
ixt
hecart
ir
e
Emi:Mom say
sIshoul
dn'
ttakeanyt
hingfr
om
st
ranger
sandIshoul
dn'
ttal
ktothem butI
'
m hungr
y
andsi
ncemom i
sher
eIdon'
tseeanypr
obl
em.
Me:wel
lthi
sstr
angerher
eisyourmommy '
sfr
iend
andaf
ri
endalwayshel
psoutafri
end,
rightmom?
Nay
e:y
esnkosi
,whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Nkosi
:I'
m her
etohel
pyouout
Naye:sor
ryIdidn'
tmeantober ude,
it'
sjustt
hatI
'
ve
beenhereforanhourandI
'm exhausted
Me:whydi
dn'
tyoucal
lme?IaskedasIwasput
ti
ng
anewti
re
Nay
e:Idi
dn'
twantt
obot
herany
one
Idi
dn'
tanswerherandj
ustcont
inuewi
thwhatI
'
m
doi
ng
Me:
I'
m done
Emi:wehaveanot
herpr
obl
em,theengi
nei
sbr
oken
orsomethi
ngmom knowsshe'
l
ltel
lyou
Il
ookatNay
eandshenods
Me:Nayethough?Youshoul
d'vecall
edme.You
can'
tsi
there,
comewi thmeI'
llcal
loneofmyguys
tocometowt hecarandf
ixi
t.ComeEmi hl
e
Emi:
howdoyouknowmyname?Andwhatisy
our
nameandhowdoyouknowmami
'sname?
Me:Youhavesomanyquest
ionsandIdi
dsayI
'm
mami'
sfri
endsoshehastol
dmeaboutyoupri
ncess
andmynamei sNkosi
Emi:okayNkosi
,yoursandwi
chwasl
ovel
ybutI
'
m
st
il
lhungry
Naye:Emihle!Youknowy oushoul
dn'
tcal
lel
derl
y
peoplebytheirnamesshesaidasshetookherst
uff
outofthecarandEmi hl
e'
sbagsandIhelpedher
carr
ythem tomycar
Me:
sowhatdoy
ouwantt
oeatEmi
hle?
Emi
:Pi
zza!Anddoughnout
sandi
cecr
eam
Nay
e:i
t'
stool
atef
ori
cecr
eam Emi
hle
Emi
:Uncl
eNkosi
?Wi
l
lIhav
eicecr
eam?
Me:wel
lwehavetoli
stentowhatmami
says,I
pr
omiseI
'l
lgety
ouicecream t
omorr
owifi
tsokay
wi
thmommy
Nay
e:i
tsokay
Idr
ovet
oPav
il
ionandwewentt
oSt
eer
s
Me:shoul
dwegett
akeaway
sory
ouwannaseat
andeatEmi
Nay
e:Takeaway
s
Emi:butmami
heaskedme,
andy
esIwantt
oseat
andeat
Soweli
stenedtothelit
tl
eador
abl
epr
incess,
she's
j
ustt
oogrownf or4yearsol
d weorderedburger
s
andmil
kshakesandate
Emi:I'
m notgoi
ngtoschooltomorr
owuncl
enkosi.
I
'l
lonlygonextweeksowecanhav eouri
cecream
duri
ngthedayanditwon'tbelat
eri
ghtmami?
Nay
e:i
twon'
tbel
atebutNkosi
isbusysweet
ie
Me:noIdon'
tmind,apromi
seisapr
omi
se.MayI
f
etchherdur
ingLunch?Wannacomewi
thus?
Naye:I
'
m havinglunchwiththegi
rl
stomorrowso
youcanfet
chheratmyhouset hendropherof
fAt
Zandy'
soff
ice,I
'l
ltel
lhernannytogetherr
eady
Emi
:thanky
oumommy
Nay
e:Any
thi
ngf
ory
oumypr
incess
Weateaswel ist
enedt
oEmi andherendl essstor
ies.
ThenIorder
ed4burger
sand4mi lkshakesf ortake
away,f
orNayeandEmi then2formecauseI 'l
lbe
hungr
ywhenIgethome wewal kedoutand
wenttothecarandIdr
ov et
hem tot heirhome.
Naye:Thankyouv
erymuchNkosi
,don'
tknowwhatI
wouldhavedonewit
houty
ou
Me:it
'sokay
,Iwasonlyhel
pingoutheyandwhatwi
l
l
youdri
vetoworktomorr
ow
Naye:
ohmycar !DamnIdon'
tknowI
'
llsor
t
somethi
ngout
Me:takemycarI
'
llt
akeacabtomypl
aceandy
ou
canusemycarti
l
lyour
sisback
Nay
e:Thanky
ouv
erymuchNkosi
Emi
:thanky
ouf
ort
hecarandf
ooduncl
enkosi
Me: okaypr
incessi
tsmypl
easur
ei'
l
lseey
ou
t
omor
row
Ical
l
edanubberandi
tcamei
n5mi
nst
hendr
oveme
home
Igothomet ookmyf oodwi thmest rai
ghttomy
room andIt urnedont heTVandwat chedamov i
e
whi l
ethinki
ngaboutt onight,
seeingNay ewasthe
bestthingIcoul d'
vewishedf orandmeet i
ngEmihle
wasabonus, Il
oveher she'stoocuteanda
sweethear tjustli
keBabalwasai dsheis.I'
l
l
defini
tel
yenjoyspendi ngtimewi t
hhert omorr
ow
andI '
m gladNay ecouldt r
ustmewi thherchil
d.I
turnedof ft
heTVAndsl ept.
*
NextMor
ning*
Iwokeupandshower edt
henprepar
edf orwor
k,I
madeament alnot
etocomebackandchangewhen
I'
m goingtolunchwit
hEmihl
e,aft
erlunchI'
mtaki
ng
therestofthedayoff
.Tookmymi niCooperand
drovetowor k

#SI
YA
Iwokeupandwenttot akeashower ,
Phil
awas
al
readyupanddownstairs.Iwor
eawhi t
epencil
ski
rt
andblackbl
ouseandblackheelsthenwalked
downst
air
s.Phi
l
ahadmadebr
eakf
ast
Me:
Mor
ningbabe
Phi
l
a:Ndy
amt
handa
Weat
ewhi
l
ehav
ingal
i
ghtconv
ersat
ion
Phi
l
a:I
'
llgot
omypl
acef
ir
stbef
oreIgot
owor
k
Me:okaybabeI
'
mlat
ealr
eadypleaselockupwhen
youl
eaveandgi
vet
hekeystoThapelonextdoor
Phi
l
a:okaybabe,
hav
eagooddayandheki
ssedme
Me:
yout
oo
Iwentst
rai
ghtt
omycaranddr
oveof
fgoi
ngt
opi
ck
upZandi
le
Zandy
:you'
rel
ateandy
ou'
regl
owi
ng
Me:
noI
'
m not
Zandy
:Whyar
eyoubl
ushi
ng?
?
Me:
I'
m notzandy
!
Zandy
:whathappenedl
astni
ght
?
Me:Sav
ethedet
ail
sforl
ater
!I'
l
ltel
lyoul
uncht
ime
si
si
Zandy
:at12pm!Yohy
ouknowIcan'
twai
tthatl
ong
Me:
you'
l
llear
ntowai
tCc
It
urnedupt
hev
olumewhen"
LadyZar
ma_
MyBaby
"
pl
ayed
Me:
myj
am man!
Wesangtoget
heranddrov
eint
othepar
kingl
otbut
st
ayedandwait
edfort
hesongtoend
Wesangoutloud"
I'
veseent
hewayy
oul
ookatme,
I
knowyou'
vebeenmybaby"
"heymast
erj
ustpl
ayt
hosekey
sIknowy
ou'
veseen
mybaby!
Zandy
:aaahayt
hissongMar
a!
I
tendedandwegotoutt hecarandwentt ot
helif
ts
goi
ngt othesecondt
olastf
loorandwalkedtoour
off
ices,Iwentt
oBeli
nda'
soffi
ce,i
tsnexttomine.
Bel
i
nda:
heywena!
(Heyy
ou!
)
Me:
howar
eyoupumpki
n
Bel
i
nda:I'
m al
lgood,wehavesomepaperworkt
o
l
ookthr
oughandt henmeet
ingwit
htheboar
d
membersti
lll
unchti
met
henlunchwi
ththegi
rl
sand
14pm meet
ingwit
hMrShezi
til
lhometi
me
Me:Beli
ndayoudon'
tneedtobr
iefmeany mor
e
you'
renotmyPAanymor esowejustneedtol
ook
f
orPA'snow
Bel
i
nda:
sor
rybutI
'
mjustusedt
oit
Wewentt hr
oughlot
sofpapersandthenwentt
ot he
meetingwhi
chendedat12pm andIwasv er
yhungry!
Wewal kedt
oZandy'
sofficeandthegi
rl
swerethere
al
readyand Isawheaven!Food
It
ookasl
i
ceofpi
zzaandmunched
Bee:
we'
real
way
seat
ingpi
zza
Ntokozo:
Idon'
tgoadaywi
thouteat
ingpi
zza,
I'
m
addict
ed
Sneh:
You'
l
lbef
at y
ouguy
slov
ejunkt
omuch
Nay
e:andl
ookwhoi
stal
ki
ng
Zee:
sowhat
'sgoi
ngon?
Zandy:Si
yahassomet
hingt
otel
lusandI
'
vebeen
wait
ingforhour
s!
Bee:
Yizanazo!
Me:
weel
l
ll
! Phi
l
aandIdi
dthedeedl
astni
ght
Ntokozo:af
ter5year
s! howwasit!GoshI
'
m sur
e
i
twasl i
keyou'r
eav i
rgi
nal
lov
eragain
She'
sri
ght
,Iknownoot
hermanbesi
desPhi
l
a
Me:
itwasa100xbet
tert
hant
hel
astt
ime
Bel
i
nda:
that
'swhyy
ou'
rei
nsuchagoodmoodhey
!
Me:
Baegotmegoodhey
Naye:
Amentothatgir
l! hehy ouguy
swon'
t
bel
i
evewhathappenedlastni
ght
Sneh:
whathappened?
Naye:soIhadatir
epunchandmycarjustbr
oke
down,Ithi
nki
tstheengenorsomet
hingsowe'r
e
busyargui
ngwit
hEmi hl
etel
l
ingmehowIshould'
ve
l
earnthowtofi
xacar.Thenacarpar
ksnexttous
andit
sNkosi
Ntokozo:
Iwasgoi
ngt
oaskwhyy
ou'
redr
ivi
ng
Nkosi'
scar
Zandy
:Nt
okozoy
ou'
rei
nter
upt
ing
Nay e:sohecomeswhi leEmihleist
ell
i
ngmei s
tel
li
ngmehowhungr yshei sandhewalksbackt o
thecarandIwassoconf usedthi
nki
nghi sjustgoing
toleaveusr i
ghtthere!Andhecamebackwi t
ha
sandwi chforEmihle,wet al
kedandEmi hlewasj ust
yeppingnonst opandhef i
xedtheti
reandEmi hl
e
goesonandt ell
shim abouttheengenandhowwe
stuckher eandshe'ssti
llhungry
Bee:
yhuuEmi
hle zandygi
vesheradeat
hst
are
Nay e:hetell
smet otakeourthingsandhe'llcal
l
someonet otakethecarandfixit.Theykeepon
tal
kingwithEmi hl
eandhet akesust opav i
l
ionat
steersforsupperandIsuggestwegett akeways
butnoheaskedemi hleandshewant edustositand
shewant edicecream soItoldthatnoi t
stoolatefor
i
cecr eam soNkosi sai
dhe'sgoingt ogetherice
cream whent heymeetagain
Aykeowam uchi
ldat
hi"
Uncl
eNkosiI
'
m notgoi
ngt
o
schoolt
omorrowsowecanhav
eicecream
tomorr
ow"
Zee:
HeheEmi
hlet
hough
Me:
andt
hen?
Naye:t
heyaskformyper mi
ssi
onandIsai
dyes,I
coul
dn'
tsaynot oEmihl
eandstr
angel
yItr
ustNkosi
wit
hEmi hl
e.Andhedriv
esushomeandhesay sI
shoul
ddr i
vehi
scarunti
lmycarcomesback
Thensheget
sacal
landi
tsnkosi
thensheput
siton
l
oudspeaker
Nkosi
:HyNayeI
'
vej
ustpi
ckedupEmi
andwe'
re
goi
ngtogat
eway
Emihl
e:Andwe'
rehav
ingf
unwi
thouty
ou,
mami
Ili
ke
uncl
eNkosi
Naye:
okaybabehav
efunt
henbr
ingmesomet
hing
ni
cetoeat
Nkosi
:okayby
ethanandhedr
opst
hephone
Nt
okozo:
Aaht
hisi
scut
ethough
Naye:
guysIl
ikeunclenkosi
toobutI
'
mjustnot
r
eadyforar
elat
ionship
Zee:
youdon'
thav
etobei
nar
elat
ionshi
pandhe
under
standsy
ou
Bel
i
nda:
hedi
dsayhewi
l
lwai
tfory
ou
Me:
buthecan'
twai
tfor
everNay
e
Zandy:Emihl
eseemst
olov
euncl
eNkosi
.He'
dbea
greatf
ather
Naye:
youwoul
d'v
eseenthewaytheytal
ktogether
,
Nkosi
'
seyesj
ustli
ghtupandhe'
sfor
eversmil
ing.
Bel
i
nda:
aahhel
ovesEmi
hle
Sneh:
heev
encal
l
sherEmi
Nay
e:don'
tyout
hinkhei
susi
ngEmi
hlet
ogetme?
Zee:di dhemakeamov eony oulastnight?Didhe
giv
ey ouanyreasontothi
nkso?Andhedi dn'
tplan
tomeetEmi hl
e,i
fhewant edtodot hathewoul d'v
e
wantedandpr essuredyoutomakehi m meetEmi hle
andt herewouldn'
tbethatkindofaspar kbetween
him andEmi hl
esincehewoul dbef ocusingony ou
gett
ingt oseethatheisgoodwi t
hEmi hle
Sneh:it
hinkhegenui
nelyl
ovesEmihl
eanditj
ust
happenedandhewasn'texpect
ingi
ttoo.Who
woul
dn'
tl
oveEmi
hle
Wecont
inuedt
alki
ngandeat
ing

#NKOSI
Ihadal
readychangedi
ntocomf
ort
abl
ecl
othes
whenIwenttofetchEmi
hle
Wecal
ledhermom whenwewer
eonourwayt
o
gat
eway
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantt
odof
ir
st?
Emi
:Wat
chamov
ie
Me:
okayt
hen
Wewenttotheci
nemaandwatchedPl
anes,
itwas
somuchfunwekeptonhi
tt
ingeachot
herwit
h
popcor
n
Afterthemoviewewenttopl
aygamesandIwasso
ti
redy etEmiwasplay
ingwi
thafr
iendshemade
afteranhourshecameback
Emi
:Uncl
eI'
mti
rednow
Me:
arey
ouhungr
y??
Emi
:Yesal
ot!
Wetookhert
icket
sandsher
eci
evedahuget
eddy
Bear
Me:
whatwi
l
lyounameher
?
Emi
:l
et'
sbot
hnameherwi
thournames
Me:
wannacombi
neournames?
Emi
:Yes
Me:
howaboutNkosemi
hle
Emi
:Il
ovei
t!What
'
smami
'
sname?
Me:
yout
ooy
oungt
oknowy
ourmot
her
'sname
Emi
:I'
mtur
ning5i
nDecemberont
he17t
h
Me:
I'
ll
gety
ouabi
gpr
esent
Wewentt ospurandsherant otheplayingareaand
wegotaf acepaint wewer ebot hti
ger sthenwe
orderedfoodandmi l
kshakes.Im notami lkshake
fanbutIwon' tbedri
nki
ngalcohol i
nfrontofaki dso
Ijustdri
nkwhatshedr i
nks
Weat ewhi l
etal
ki
ngaboutherpreschool
andher
fr
iends.Shetoldmet hatNay
esnoresandshe
al
way skicksherinbed
Emi
:ar
ewegoi
ngt
ohav
eouri
cecr
eam
Me:
Yessweet
ief
ordesser
tandwaf
fl
es
Emi
:Il
ovewaf
fl
es!
Thesmi l
eonherfacewaspricel
ess i
m
enj
oyingeverymomentwithherandshei sjustso
cutethedesser
tcameandwef i
nishediti
nno
ti
me! wet henorder
edtakeawayi cecream thenI
payedandwel ef
twhil
sthavi
ngicecr eam
Emi
:I'
m sof
ull
!
Me:
met
oo
Wewentt
othecarandIcal
l
edNay
e
Me:
wher
eshoul
dIdr
opherof
f?
Nay
e:Zandy
'sof
fi
ce
Me:
okaycoolt
henIdr
oppedhert
hecal
landdr
ove
t
oShezi
Logist
ics
#LBUBT
Hopey
ouenj
oy
[
1/11,
00:
23]Tat
enda:
Inser
t17
#NKOSI

WegottoShezilogi
sti
csandItookEmi '
sdoggybag
whil
eshetookherteddybearandwewal kedt
o
Zandy'
sof
ficeandEmi openedthedoorthenr
anto
Naye
Emi:mommyIwonat
eddybear
!Itwassomuch
fun
Naye:what'
steddi
esname?I'm gl
adyouhadf
un
pr
incessyou'
llt
ell
meallabouti
ttoni
ght
Emi
:i
tsNkosemi
hle canInotshowert
oni
ght
?
Me:
aft
ernoonl
adi
es,
theyal
lgr
eet
edback
Bel
i
nda:
Iseey
ou'
reat
igert
her
eNkosi
Emi
:Imadehi
m pai
ntat
igerl
i
keme
Wet
alkedf
orawhi
l
ewel
lwewer
eal
ll
ist
eni
ngt
o
Emi
hlet
ell
ever
yoneaboutwhatwedi
d
Me:by
eladi
es,
seey
ousoonI'
m meet
ingwi
tht
he
boy
sinanhour
.Emiby
epri
ncess
Emi
:by
euncl
enkosi
hopeI
'
llseey
ousoon
Wehuggedandf i
stbumpedthenIl
eft
.Whil
edri
vi
ng
toAt
hi'
shouseIstoppedbyRoccoMama'
sandgot
somefood(t
akeaways)andafewbeersf
orthe
gent
s.Aft
er3minsIarri
ved
Lubah:
whyi
syourf
acepai
nted?
Ly
anda:
ati
ger
?Notev
enal
i
on
Me:
Iforgott
oremov
ethi
sguy
sIwentoutwi
th
emi
hle
Danny
:Nay
e'semi
hle?
Me:
yes
Phil
a:okayl
et'
ssi
tdownandy
out
ell
usexact
lywhat
happened
Wesatatt
heTVr
oom andIt
oldt
hem ev
ery
thi
ng
Mpho:
wowsonowy
ouat
tachedt
othebaby
?
Me:Idi
dn'
tsayI
'm att
achedIj
ustl
oveherandy
ou
al
lwil
ll
oveher
.She'sasweethear
t
Bonga:don'
tyout
hinkNay
ewi
l
lthi
nky
ou'
reusi
ng
Emihl
etogettoher?
Lubah:
yeahmanmay
beshehast
hati
nmi
nd
Me: Whatno!Iwoul
dnev erdothatt
oherorev en
useEmihletowinherover.NayeandIwe'r
ej ust
fr
iendsandIknowthatIloveherbutIj
ustwoul dn'
t
useaninnocentchi
l
dtogether .I
m notl
ikethatman
Phil
a:wedidn'
tsayyou'
rel
i
ket
hatbutwesay
ingshe
mightthi
nkofthat
Me:Ihopeshedoesn'
tcauset
hatwoul
djustbe
cr
azy
Ly
anda:
Justt
alkt
oherman
At
hi:
andwhatexact
lyi
shegoi
ngt
osay
Danny: Isuggestyoudon'
tshowthatyoulikeNay e
l
ikedon' tmakeanymov esanddon'tbetheonet hat
will
offertodot hi
ngsforEmisoshe'l
lseet haty
ou
real
lynotusingEmi hl
etogetherbutyoujustlove
emi
Mpho:
that
'sagoodi
dea
Me:
I'
ll
try
Phi
l
a:andst
opdr
inki
ngsomuchmani
tsnotgood
Me:where'
sthegy
m her
eAt
hiIneedt
oli
ftsome
wei
ghts
Weal
lwentt
othegy
mroom anddi
dsomewor
kout
s

#SI
YA
Afterthegir
lslef
tIpackedmybagsandwent
str
aighthomewi thBabalwaandwegothomet hen
orderedSteersburger
sthenitar
rivedaf
teranhour
whileIwasf r
eshningupandchangi ngi
ntopyj
amas.
Shecamet omybedwi ththeburgerswehad
3each andwemunched!
Babal
wa:
mmmht
hisi
ssogood
Me:tel
lmeabouti
tdude,
sowher
ethehel
lhav
eyou
beenstay
ing?
Bee:
AtBonga'
s,Idi
dsayI
'
dmov
eint
her
e
Me:
tel
lmey
ou'
rej
oki
ng
Bee:I'
mjoki
ng,Idi
dn'
tmov
einmanbutI
'
vebeen
ther
etheenti
reweek
Me:
and?
Bee:
Andwhat
?
Me:
li
kewhat
'
sgoi
ngon
Bee:
not
hing,
wej
ustenj
oyeachot
her
scompany
Me:
howexact
ly?
Bee:
siya!Nothi
ngishappeni
ngwejustfr
iendsand
weenjoystay
ingtoget
her,wecook,
watchtvand
movi
eset c
Me:
etc?
?
Bee:
whatdoy
our
eal
l
ywantt
oknow
Me:
youknowt
hedeeds
Bee:
we'
vehuggedandt
hat
sit
Me:
Nof
li
rt
ing?Noki
ssi
ng?
Bee:Yepnoneoft hatandI'
m happy,
itwoul
dmake
thi
ngsawkwar dIguessbuthedoesf l
ir
tsometi
mes.
SeeIjustcan'
tunderstandBongaandI'
m get
ti
ngto
knowhi m,heisnotaopenbookandhedoesn' ttalk
thatmuchbutwhenhedoeshe' sjustamazi
ng,
Tuesdaynightwedidn'
tsleep,wewer ej
ustchi
lli
ng
i
nbedt alki
ngabouthischil
dhoodandmi ne,t
alki
ng
aboutthefutur
e.Heisjustamazingsis
Me:woahlet
'sgoback,
soy
ouguy
swer
esl
eepi
ngi
n
onebed?
Bee:
Yeahhecameovert
omyroom wi
thf
oodand
weatet
henendedupsl
eepi
ngi
nonebed
Me:
I'
mreal
l
yconf
used
Bee:
ther
e'snot
hingconf
usi
ngkant
i
Me:
ayIgi
veupShem
Bee:
andwena?(
ANDYOU)
Me:
Whataboutme?
Bee:
youandPhi
l
a
Me:
Itol
dyouguy
sev
ery
thi
ngear
li
ernj
erh
Bee:
ohgoshI
'
ml ay
ingont
hesamesheet
s!Asshe
j
umpsofft
hebed
Me:
nomanPhi
l
achangedev
ery
thi
ng
Bee:thankgod,Idon'
twantt
obeseei
ngt
hatmy
si
sterpee'sonhersel
f
Me:
goodni
ght
Bee:
noy
imadon'
tsl
eepwest
il
lneedt
otal
k
Me:
about
?
Bee:
doy
out
hinkNcebai
sst
il
lav
irgi
n?
Me:

Bee:
don'
tl
aughmananswermet
rut
hful
l
y
Me:
Ireal
l
ydon'
tthi
nkso
Bee:
whodoy
out
hinkbr
okeherVi
rgi
nit
y
Me:l
et'
sjustcal
lherandf
indout.Beecal
l
edand
puti
tonloudspeaker
Nceba:
Babal
wa
Me:
heyheyar
eyouwi
thmom
Bee:
wehav
eaf
ewquest
ionsf
ory
ou
Nceba:
NoI'
m al
onei
nmyr
oom andwhatdoy
ou
wannaask
Bee:
Arey
oust
il
lav
irgi
n?
Me:
whobr
okey
ourv
irgi
nit
y
Nceba:
y ou'
reaskingmewhobr
okemyv
irgi
nit
ySi
ya
soyouthinkI'
m notaVi
rgi
n!
Bee:
answert
hequest
ionKazi
ee
Nceba:wel
lI'
vebeenplanningtotelly
ouguy
sthat
I
'm pr
egnantandThapeloisthefather
Me:
Ncebakazi
Shez
i!
!!
!Isai
dscr
eami
ngoutl
oud
Bee:
li
key
ou'
repr
egnant
!
Ncebast
art
edcr
ying
Bee:st
opcr
yingandgot
ell
mom noworwe'
l
lcal
l
her
Me:
whathappenedt
opr
otect
ion!
Bee:
you'
re17man
Me:
didy
out
hinkaboutschool
Bee:
mom wi
l
lki
l
lyouandThapel
o
Me:
lyandawi
l
lfl
i
p!
ThenNcebabur
stsouti
nlaught
er
Me:soyour
eal
l
ythi
nkt
hisi
stheper
fectmomentt
o
j
ustl
augh
Bee:
Idon'
tknowwher
eyoucomef
rom
Nceba:
guysI'
mjoki
ngI
'
m notpr
egnantman!Iwas
j
ustpul
li
ngyourl
eg
Bee:
soy
ou'
renotpr
egnant
Nceba:
yesandI
'
m st
il
lav
irgi
n
Me:
don'
tl
ie
Nceba:
whatmakesy
out
hinkI
'
mly
ing
Me:you'
vebeensl
eepi
ngov
eratThapel
o'
s
apar
tmentalot
Bee:
sowef
igur
edouty
ou'
vedonei
tbef
ore
Nceba:
noman
Bee:soyoure17andaVi
rgi
nwel
ldoneCcsomeof
uscouldn'
treach16
Me:
Iwasi
ngr
ade11and16soi
t'
sunder
standabl
e
Bee:
buty
ouwer
est
il
l16man.AndIwasi
ngr
ade10
and16
Nceba:y
ouguy
sarghmannoI'
m sleepi
ngI
'
mreal
l
y
noti
nter
est
edi
nthi
sconv
ersat
ion
Me:
arey
oul
esbi
an?
Nceba:
no!
Bee:
Bisexual
?
Nceba:
No!
Me:
okaywewer
ejustmaki
ngsur
e
Nceba:mxm goodni
ghti
t'
slat
eandI
'
m comi
ng
backonMonday
Bee:
don'
tcomeback
Nceba:
what
everby
ethenshedr
opst
hecal
l
Me:
shef
orget
sthatwe'
reol
der
Bee:
Ist
il
ldon'
tbel
i
eveshe'
sav
irgi
n
Me:
you'
recr
azy
,youshoul
dcheckherke
Bee:
that
'sagoodi
dea
Me:
ughnoman!I
'
m sl
eepi
ngnow
Bee:BongaandIdon'
tsl
eepsoear
lyI
'
m st
art
ingt
o
misshim
Me:I'
m notBongasisandIsl
eepearl
ysogoodni
ght
andIswit
chedoffmysidelampthenwental
lthe
waytodreamland!

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeupwit
hBee'slegsontopofmybackandher
handsonmyneck.Ipushedherof
fmewellofft
he
bedandshefel
l
Bee:
arey
out
ryi
ngt
oki
l
lme!
!
Me:
yousl
eepl
i
kea6y
earol
d
Bee:
that
'sal
i
e
Ijustlookedatherandwenttotakeashowerand
fi
nishedaf t
er45minsthenwenttolot
ionmybody
anddr essedupinagreydressandheels,
Ican'twai
t
fortomor r
ow,it
'sfi
nal
lyFunkyFr
idayI'
mtiredof
beingf or
mal.Iwentdownstai
rsandBabalwahad
alreadyprepar
edbreakfast
Me:whyareyoudressedli
ket
hat
?Aren'
tyou
supposedt
obepreparingf
orwor
k?
Bee:wit
hwhatclothes?You'
resi
ze34andI
'
m
36mami t
heywon'tfi
tsoyouhavetodr
opmeof
fat
Bonga'
s
Me:
butIhav
etof
etchZandy
Bee:
you'
l
lmakeapl
anbutI
'
m nott
aki
nganycab
Me:
let
'sgonow
Shet
ookherbagandwedr
ovet
oZandy
Zandy
:you'
reear
lyboh
Me:
Ihav
etodr
opof
fBeeatBonga'
s
Zandy
:Tr
oubl
einpar
adi
se?
Bee:
TsekZandi
l
eandno
Zandy
:whyar
eyousogr
umpyman?Nogoodi
es?
Bee:
you'
rei
mpossi
ble
Wejusttal
kedal
ongthewaywithZandyupdati
ngus
aboutherandMphothenwegottoBonga'sandBee
sai
dhergoodbyesandlef
t.Wethendrov
et owork
whil
eli
steni
ngtoSheki
nah_Youreyes
Zandy
:thi
ssongi
sdeepmanandIshoul
dpl
ayi
t
whenI
'
m wi
thMpho
Me:y
ou'r
ecr azy I
'
m sur
eMphowon'
tev
enl
i
sten
t
othely
rics
Andwesangal ong"Youreyeschangecol ourwhen
youli
e,Icanseei tI
'm notbl
ind,yourey esy ourey es
youreyesy eah.Theysparkleinthelightbuti nthe
darkIseet het r
uecolourofy oureye,yourey esy eah.
Theysayy oulovemet her
e'snooneabov eme, they
sayI'
m pr ettywit
hnomakeup, youreyest heytell
mill
onlies.
Zandy
:justl
i
stent
othatmanAyi
tsdeepmanSi
ya
Wegott
owor
kandBel
i
ndal
ookedsot
ir
ed
Me:
what
'swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
Bel
i
nda:
flue
Zandy
:you'
repr
egnant
Bel
i
nda:
thanksf
ort
hej
okezandy
Welaughedandwenttoourof
fi
ces.Il
eftmybags
t
her
eandwentt odaddyM
Dad:
soy
ouf
inal
l
ydeci
det
ocomeseeme,
Isee
Ngcobohasbeent
aki
ngupal
lyourt
ime
Me:
howyouknowaboutPhi
laandIcauseIdon'
t
r
emembert
ell
i
ngyouabouti
t?
Dad:y
oucanhi
det
hingsf
rom mebutIal
way
sfi
nd
out
Me:
Mandl
awhatar
eyouupt
o
Dad:
whosai
dcal
lyourf
atherbyhi
sname!
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ryTai
ma
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estbusinessdealsand
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ng
at09:00til
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nbutI
havetogot heretorepr
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thi
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Hi
m:hi
I'
m Mongezi
Khuzway
o
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Heyi
m Si
yamt
handaShezi
Hi
m:y
ou'
rev
erygor
geousandbor
ed
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thi
smeet
ingi
sbor
ingme
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m:met
oo.Theseol
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alkt
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teven
under standwhatwaswr i
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en.Heisacool guybut
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beingcr azy .Themeeti
ngendedandIsai dmy
goodby est oMongezit
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owi
ngme
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hi:
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ll
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ceandBel
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ayi
ngonmy
couch
Me:
andt
hen?
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inda:I
'
m sot
iredandt
her
ewassomewhi
te
for
tunerf
oll
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ngme
Me:
awhi
teRangeRov
erSpor
tfol
l
owi
ngme
Bel
i
nda:
knowwhat
'
sgoi
ngon?
Me:
nopebutI
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llf
indout
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t.
Therewasnocarthatwasfoll
owingusandZandy
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oll
owedbyanycartodaysoIguessit'
sjust
meandBel i
nda.We'
llgett
othebottom oft
his
tomorow.
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l
ed
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Zee?
Zee:
Tongaatt
omor
rowat1pm andt
hegent
sar
e
al
socoming.
Me:
okaycool
Zandy
:andt
hen?
Me:
Tongaatt
omor
rowat1pm
Zandy
:hect
ic?
Me:
notsur
e

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pel
ohowar
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I'
m okayny
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sel
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I'
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lgood
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m:wheni
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ax
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whatar
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or?
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youknowwenev
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eepat
anyofourapar
tments
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gotaboutt
hat
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lfet
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terwor
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i
nda'
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i
ndast
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i
nda:
heysweet
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what
'
sup?
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ngi
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oundoutsodon'
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Bel
i
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whatmeet
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Bigdaddyandsomeboar
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s
Bel
i
nda:
let
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oreIl
oosemysenses
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otheboar
droom andZandywast
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ready
Zandy
:whati
sthi
smeet
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l
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m sureever
yonei
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whywear ehereandespeci
all
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nceweusual
l
y
havenomeet i
ngsonFri
day.Ihav
ean
announcementtomakeandaf ewchangeswil
ltake
pl
aceatShezi Logi
sti
cs.OurCFOhasbeensufferi
ng
wit
hacr i
ti
calcondi
tionandhehasbeendiagnosed
wit
hCancersohehasr et
ir
ed.
Br
andon:
that
'shect
icsowhowi
l
lbeourCFO
Dad:I
'm get
ti
ngthereBr
andon.Theboar
dandIhav
e
di
scussedthi
sanddecidedthatev
ery
onewil
lbe
get
ti
nga15%r ai
se.
Bel
i
nda: t
hiscal
l
sforacel
ebr
ati
on
Dad:itdoesn'
tendther
e,wehavedeci
dedthatMs
Zandil
eZunguhasbeenpr omotedt
obetheNew
ChiefFinanci
alOf
fi
cerofShezi
Logi
sti
cs.
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lscr
eamedandZandycoul
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gDar
eyouser
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l
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ul
employeeandyouarever
ypassionat
eaboutyour
workandyoudeserv
etheposit
ion.Meeti
ngisover
ever
yoneandyoumaygobackt owor k.
Br
andon:
thi
scal
l
sforcel
ebr
ati
on af
terwor
k
we'
real
lgoi
ngt
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s
Bel
i
nda:
sor
rywecan'
tgomay
benextt
imeguy
's
Il
ookedatherconf
used,
whor
efusest
ogo
cel
ebrat
e?
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oZandy '
sof
fi
cet
ohel
pherpacki
ntoher
newCFOoff
ice.
Me:
andt
hen?
?Cel
ebr
ati
on?
Bel
i
nda:
you'
vef
orgot
tenaboutTongaat@ 1pm
Me:
oohIr
eal
l
yfor
gotaboutt
hat
.
Zandy
:wheni
spay
dayIneedmynewsal
ary
Bel
i
nda:
you'
regoi
ngt
obuymeaweav
e
Zandy:
you'
recr
azy
,Lubahcanbuyt
housandsof
weaves
weconti
nedmov
ingherst
ufft
ohernewof
fi
ce
unt
ili
twas12:
30
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et'
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enowguys,
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etchmybag
f
ir
stbef
orewetrav
elt
oTongaat
Bel
i
nda:
andgetsomef
ood,
I'
m hungr
y
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:you'
real
way
shungr
y
WewenttomycarandIgotansmsf
rom Zeesay
ing
weshoul
dpi
ckherup
WegottomyhouseandIr ant
omyr oom gotmy
bagandtoi
letr
iest
henl
ockedupandwentbackto
thecar
,Bel
indawasdri
vi
ng.Wethenwentto
Danny'
shouseandgotZee.
Zandy
:whydi
dn'
tDannydr
ivewi
thy
ou?
Zee:hehassomemeetinghewenttosoIdidn'
t
wanttobotherhi
m we'
l
lall
meetatTongaatvel
e
Bel
i
nda:
whydi
dn'
tyoudr
iveoneofhi
scar
s
Zee:somanyquest
ions I
'
mlazyokaysoIdon'
t
wanttodr
ive
Weconti
nuedtal
ki
ngaboutwhathashappenedthi
s
weekandZandy'
spromoti
on.WegottoTongaatand
t
heother
shadarri
vedal
ready.
Bonga:
howar
ewegoi
ngt
ogeti
ntot
hesaf
ehouse
Danny
:yeahsecur
it
yist
ighther
e
Bee:
oneofuswi
l
lscanandent
ir
ewi
thoneoft
he
guy
s
Ablackj
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kedi
ntheyar
dandThabonKamo
cameout haven'
tseent
hem i
nalongt
ime
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okozo:
wet
houghty
ou'
redeadal
ready
Sneh:
youlookgoodKamo Ki
mber
elygoty
ou
goodhey
Kamo:y
eahbesi
dest
hesewhi
tebi
gcar
sfol
l
owi
ng
meever
yday
Thabo:
she'sbeenonandonaboutt
hesecar
sIt
hink
she'
scrazyabit
Me:noshe'
snot
,that
'
swhyweher
ecausei
t
f
oll
owedmeonceandBeli
ndat
oo
Zee:
okayl
et'
spai
rupandgeti
ntot
hesav
ehouse
Weal
ldi
dsoandgoti
n
At
hiwasamazed
At
hi:
wowI
'
venev
erseensuchbeaut
y
Bonga:
what
'
sbeaut
if
uli
ncomput
ersy
stems
Mpho:
you'
venev
erl
ovedI
Tnhe
Bonga:
nonIwi
l
lnev
er
Phi
l
a:l
et'
sgett
owor
k
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lwenttothecomputerswhil
eNay
eandI
werechecki
ngoutthel
atestguns
Nay
e:Iwi
shIcoul
dbombanat
m,It
hinki
twoul
dbe
f
un
Sneh:
you'
recr
azyy
ou'
renev
erdoi
ngt
hat
Nay
e:onedayIwi
l
l
Ly
anda:
I'
ll
joi
nyou
Ntokozo:j
ustmakesur
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ull
ycov
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l
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you'
remeanNt
okozo
Athi:
guyswe'r
eatadeadend,ther
e'snothi
ngli
ke
nothi
ng.Wejusthav
etowaitandseeifthisi
s
seri
ous
Nkosi
:andwewill
inst
all
camer
asony
ourcar
sso
wecanseethecars
Mpho:It
hinkt
hatwi
l
lhel
pabi
tguy
scauseI
'
m
conf
used
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ecei
vesacal
l
Bee:
Idon'
tknowt
hisnumber
Bonga:
answeri
tandputi
tonloudspeakerwhi
l
ewe
checkt
henumberandwherei
tsfr
om
Bee:
hel
l
o?
Cal
l
er:
..
..
..
.
Bee:
hel
l
o?Ar
eyout
her
e?
Cal
ler
:Becar
eful
I'
m comi
ngf
ory
ouanddr
opst
he
cal
l
Lubah:
numberdoesn'
texi
st
At
hi:
nol
ocat
ion
Mpho:
NOTHI
NG!
Danny
:youal
lneedbody
guar
ds
Me:
not
hatwi
l
lbr
ingt
oomuchat
tent
ion
Sneh:we'
llj
ustbebackt
ocarr
yingourgunsand
beefupsecuri
tyar
oundher
eandalwayskeepin
touch
Bel
i
nda:
whataboutt
hef
oodwet
alkedaboutear
li
er?
Zee:
that
'sal
lyouev
ert
hinkaboutl
atel
y
Nt
okozo:
arey
oupr
egnant
?
Lubah&Bel
i
nda:
NO!
Nt
okozo:
don'
tbi
temyheadof
f
Bee:
hor
mones
Weal
ll
aughedandl
eftt
hesaf
eus.
Mpho:wegoi
ngtomyhouseguy
s,y
ouhav
en'
tcome
ov
erforawhi
le
Phi
l
a:okayst
opsul
ki
ngwe'
regoi
ngt
oyourhouse
Lyanda:nowegoi
ngt
omyhouse,
you'
venev
erbeen
ther
eladies
Bee:
yeahy
our
ightonl
yNt
okozoknowsy
ourhouse
Sneh:
let
'sgot
henIneedt
oswi
m
At
hi:
Ineedt
ogetdr
unkandpar
ty!
!!
!
Lubah:
let
'scal
lsomef
ri
endst
ojoi
nus
Beli
nda:andcol
l
eaguest
ocel
ebr
ateZandy
's
promoti
on
Ly
anda:
Promot
ion?
?
Zandy:ohIforgottot
ell
yougent
sI'
mtheNewCFO
ofSheziLogist
ics
Mpho:
Congr
atul
ati
ons!
Me:
andwegota15%r
aise
Phi
l
a;Mor
ereasonst
ocel
ebr
ate!
Bel
inda:
letmecal
lbr
andonshesai
dasshe
st
eppedasidet
omakethecal
l.
Wewentintot
hecarsanddrovet
oPavi
li
onthengot
asnacks,
meat,andev
eryt
hingel
sewe'
l
lneed.
Theboyswentt
oal
i
quorshopandboughtt
onsof
l
iquor
Sneh:
peopl
ewi
l
lbeget
ti
ngdr
unkt
oni
ght
!
Lubah:yeahy
eahbutthesestr
anger
swi
l
lonl
yst
ay
forafewhourst
henthey'
lll
eave
Nkosi
:soyouwantsomealoneti
me i
fthe
par
tyi
stooli
t!Theynotgoi
nganywher
e
Zee:
that
'st
hespi
ri
t!
Wedr
ovet
oLy
anda'
shouseandi
twasmassi
ve!
4fl
oorsandawat erf
ount
aininthef
rontyar
dnextt
o
theparki
nglot.Wewenti
nsideandchangedint
oour
part
yclothes,
weneedtoslay
Phi
l
a:ar
eyousur
eyouwannaweart
hatdr
essbabe?
Me:
yeahwhat
'swr
ongwi
thi
t?
Phi
l
a:nothi
ngj
ustaski
ng.Don'
twantpeopl
eseei
ng
mypropert
y
Me:youdoknowI
'
m st
il
lgoi
ngt
ochangei
ntoa
bi
ki
ni?
Phi
l
a:y
eahIknow
Me:
andnow?
Phi
l
a:not
hing
Me:
Wil
lyout
alk?
Phil
a:I'
mjustj
eal
ousman,youknowyousexyand
peoplewil
lbel
ooki
ngatyouinaway
Me:ncooh youcut
ewheny ouj
ealoushey don'
t
wor
rytheymayl
ookbutIgotmyeyesonyou
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooLesl
ey,
onl
yyou
Phil
a:okaycomelet'
sgoj
oint
heot
her
s,i
tsal
ready
happeningdownst
air
s
Wewal keddownstai
rsandthepartywasattheback
yard,
therewasajacuzziar
eaandpool ar
eaony our
l
eftandabitfarf
rom thepoolther
ewast heBraai
areaandchil
l
ingspot.Thebackyar
dismassive.
Kamo:
youl
ookgor
geous
Me:
yout
ookamo
Bee:
Iwannadance,
comewi
thme
Wealldancedtoget
herwhil
etheguy
swerebusy
wit
hthemeat .
ZeeandNayewerebusywi
ththe
sal
ads.Brandonwalkedov
ertome
Br
andon:
whoi
stheowneroft
hishouseandi
she
si
ngl
e?
Ntokozo:
Theownerofthishousei
smyboy
fri
end
andnohei snotsi
ngl
eBrandy
Br
andon:gi
rly
ougotyour
selfareal
manl
i
ket
hisi
sa
mansi
on!Doeshehav
ef r
iends?
Me:
whydoy
ouwantt
oknow?
Br
andon:
Imeanl
i
keIneedt
ogetmy
sel
faman
Zandy:
Beli
nda!!Si
ya!Iknewit
!It
oldyouBrandonis
gay!
!Youdon'tl
ist
en!Itol
dyousheshout
edwhi l
e
j
umpingaround
Bel
i
nda:cal
m downmany eahweknowy
out
oldus
Ibel
i
evedhehasacrushonSiya
Me:
Brandyy
ou'
regay
!
Brandy
:didn'
tIt
ell
youguy
s?Ohwel
lyeahIam andI
needmy sel
fari
chguy
Weal
ll
aughedandcont
inuedt
alki
ngwhi
l
edanci
ng
Nay
eandzeecamet
ojoi
nus
Nay
e:Iwantt
oswi
m!
Danny:y
ouguyswi
ll
swim oncethesepeoplear
e
gonewedon'
twantyouhal
fnakedinfrontof
str
anger
s
Sneh:
you'
rev
erypr
otect
ive
Lubah:
hei
sri
ghtt
hough.
Zandy
:okaywhat
ever
Weser vedourguestsandweal latewhil
ehav i
nga
goodconv er
sati
on.Aftereati
ngwepackedup, we
servedev ery
oneonpaperpl atessowewoul dn't
havet owashanydi shes.It
'sjusttheglassesthat
we'l
l dealwitht
omor r
ow.Wecont i
nueddancingand
play
edmanygames
Kamo:
ther
e'st
hisdodgydudet
hatkeepsl
ooki
ngat
us
Ntokozo:
hewasbusyl
ooki
ngar
oundt
hehouse
aboutanhourago
Sneh:
hei
swei
rdbutgoodl
ooki
ng
Me:
wher
eishe?
Kamopoi
ntedataf
ami
l
iarf
ace
Me:ohwowhecame t hat
'sMongezi
Khuzway
o
wemetatt
hemeeti
ngIwenttowit
htheboar
d
membersr
epr
esent
ingt
hecompany.
Brandon:andhewasatt
hecl
ubwithussowhen
youcall
edf orust
ocomewecoul
dn'tj
ustl
eav
ehi
m
behind
Me:
Ineedt
hebat
hroom
Zee:
met
oo
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hebathr
oom,
didourt
hingandwhen
wecameoutwebumpedint
oMongezi l
ooki
ng
ar
oundinsomeroom
Zee:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Mongezi
:ohsor
ryI'
mlost
,I'
mlookingf
ort
he
bat
hroom,Mphotol
dmeitsthi
sside
Zee:
coul
dn'
tyougot
otheone'
sdownst
air
s?
Mongezi
:wewer
eal
readyupst
air
ssohesai
dI
shoul
dcomeher
e
Me:st
opaskingtoomanyquesti
onsZee,
hey
Mongezi
itsgoodtoseeyouagai
n
Mongezi
:l
ikewi
se,
yougi
rl
slookbeaut
if
ulbyt
heway
Wet
alkedf
orawhi
l
eandZeedi
stur
bed
Zee:
dudedi
dn'
tyousayy
ouneedt
het
oil
et?
Mongezi
:ohy
eahsor
ryexcusemepl
easeandhe
wal
kedaway
Me:
sur
e,whyar
eyousomean?
Zee:
hel
ooksdodgyandIdon'
ttr
usthi
m
Me:
what
'st
het
ime?
Zee:
itst
imef
ort
hesepeopl
etol
eav
eandi
ts11pm
Wewal
kedov
ert
otheguy
s
Zee:
Lubah,
thesepeopl
eneedt
oleav
e
Mpho:
whowi
l
lchaset
hem out
?
Weal
ll
ookedatAt
hi
At
hi:
whydoIhav
etodot
hat
Nkosi
:becausey
oucan
At
hi:
heyev er
yone!Pleasecomet
hissi
deIhav
ean
i
mportantannouncement
Ev
ery
onecameov
er
Athi
:wear esorrytoannouncethatthepar
tyisov
er
andyouhav etoleavewi t
himmidateeff
ect.Wehave
comeacrossanemer gencythatneedsouratt
ent
ion
i
mmedi at
ely.It
'sbeenf unandonceagain
Congrat
ulati
onst oZandil
eZungu
Ev
ery
onecl
appedandt
ookt
hei
rbagsandl
eft
Br
andon:
mayIl
eav
ewi
thabot
tl
eofwi
neandv
odka
Danny
:feel
free
Mongezi
:it
sbeenfunguysandonceagai
n
Si
yamthanda,
itwasgoodtoseeyouagai
n
Me:goodt
oseeyouagainMongezi
.Rememberwe
hav
eameet i
ngonTuesday
Mongezi
:ohcool
wil
lseey
ousoont
hen
Mpho:
youknowhi
m?
Me:
yeah,
wor
k
Phi
l
a:t
her
e'ssomet
hingdodgyabouthi
m
Bonga:
thewayhet
alks
Ly
anda:
yeahheyi
tsst
range
Me:
hej
ustcamebackf
rom ov
erseas
Danny
:oht
hatexpl
ainsi
t
Nay
e:canweswi
m now!
Nkosi
:youj
ustcoul
dn'
twai
tnhe
Nay
e:i
t'
shot
Weallwentt
otheswi
mmi ngpoolbutSneh,
Bonga,
At
hiandKamowenttothejaccuzi
Wet al
kedwhi
leswi
mmi ng.Thabotel
li
ngusabout
Kimberel
ywhenhenot
icedsomet hi
nginsi
det
he
house
Thabo:
Athi
!Comeseet
his.I
nfactal
lofy
ou.
Weallgotoutoft
hepool
andwenti
nsi
det
hehouse
wher
eThabol edust
o
Mpho:
fuck!Whodi
dthi
s
Me:
what
?
At
hi:
someonepl
ant
edabugher
e
Nt
okozo:
bug?
Bel
i
nda:
somesor
tofcamer
a
Nay
e:wel
li
twasn'
tj
ustonebug,
ther
e'sanot
herone
Ly
anda:
ever
yonesear
cht
hehouse
Zandy:
arey
oucr
azy
?Hav
eyouseenhowbi
gyour
housei
s?
Bel
i
nda:
whenwi
l
lweev
enf
ini
sh
Bonga:
Ihaveadevi
cet
hatcant
rackt
hebugsand
l
ocatewher
etheyar
e
Zee:
Bee,
youal
sohav
eone.Wher
eisi
t?
Bee:
I'
ll
gogeti
t?
Phi
l
a:whydoesBabal
wahav
eabugt
racker
?
Sneh:
forsuchemer
genci
es
Theybothcamebackandwelocat
edthebugst
her
e
wereabout20oft
hem al
lov
erthehouse
Zee:
Lyandadoy
ouhav
ecamer
a'sar
oundt
hehouse?
Ly
anda:
yes
Sneh:
wher
ear
ethey
?I'
l
lgocheckt
hem
Ly
anda:
lastr
oom ont
he4t
hfl
oor
At
hi:
I'
m comi
ngwi
thy
ou
Zeewasbusywi
thsomet
hingont
hel
apt
op
Me:
whati
szi
yandadoi
ng?
Nkosi
:Checki
ngwher
ethebugscomef
rom
Zee:
Theyr
egi
ster
edi
nsomewei
rdname
Nay
ewentt
olook
Nay
e:whatt
hehel
li
sthi
s?
Bonga:
it'
swr
it
teni
nsomel
anguage
Thabo:
letmecheck.
.Ohi
tsi
nPor
tuguese
Me:
howdoy
ouknowt
hat
?
Mpho:
heknowsmanyl
anguages
Lubah:
per
ksofbei
ngachef
Bel
i
nda:
int
ernat
ional
chef
Thabo:
gott
hatr
ight
At
hiandSnehcamedownst
air
s
Sneh:
thecamera'
swereshutdownsowecan'
tfi
nd
whoputthebugsinher
e
Thabo:
weneedt
ogett
othebot
tom oft
his
i
mmedi at
ely
Kamo:
I'
ll
star
twor
kingoni
ttomor
row
Nt
okozo:
I'
m conf
used
Phi
l
a:KamoisaPr
ivat
eInv
est
igat
orandonce
wor
kedfort
heFBI
Zandy
:Shi
sagi
rl
!
Wediscussedthi
sfurt
herandt
heykepton
sear
chi
ngf orgodknowswhat
Bee:
whodoy
out
hinki
tis?
Bonga:
thatgayguy
Me:Br
andon I
'
m sur
ehedoesn'
tev
enknow
whatt
hisi
s
Sneh:
yeahser
iousl
yitcan'
tbehi
m
Zee:
thatMongezi
dude
Nay
e:y
eahhekeptonl
ooki
ngar
oundt
hehouse
Bel
i
nda:
buthewasi
noursi
ghtt
heent
ir
eti
me
Mpho:yeahhewaswi
thmemostofthet
ime
besi
deswhenhewentt
othebat
hroom
Me:
andhewaswi
thmeandZeeatt
hatt
ime
Phi
l
a:i
nthebat
hroom?
Zee: noman,
webumpedi
ntohi
m andchat
teda
bi
tthenhewenti
nandoutwi
thusl
ooki
ngathi
m
andhewenttoMpho
Zandy:mostoft
hepeopl
ewhower
eher
ear
eour
Coll
eagues
Nkosi
:soyouguyshavet
obev
erycar
eful
,keepa
cl
oseeyeatever
yone
Danny
:especi
all
yBr
andon,
gayguy
sar
ecr
azy
Wecont
inuedt
alki
ngandt
ryi
ngt
ofi
gur
eoutwhat
's
goi
ngon

#LBUBT
WHODOYOUTHI
NKI
TIS?
?
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i
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he
booktofri
endsandf
ri
endsoff r
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pusgr
ow
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t19
#NKOSI
Alothashappenedt onightandIev enf orgott
hatI
waswor ri
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nkingthatI'm usi
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tbot hersmebutI '
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ickt ot
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ried,li
ker eal
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st
aringatherandImustsayIdi dwellthanIthought
Iwould.Sowe'resi
ttingatt heloungeandshe' ssti
l
l
wearingherbi
kini
Me:gi
rl
saren'
tyouguy
scol
dordon'
tyouwantt
o
dr
essup?
Zee:
what can'
tkeepcal
m any
mor
e
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'sj
ustt
hatI'
m get
ti
ngcol
dsoIwast
hinki
ng
youguy
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essedguy
s
Beli
nda:
whil
ewe'r
egett
ingdressesgetsomefood
andpopcor
nsowecanwat chmov ies.We'
l
lcome
backwit
hthebl
anket
s
Sneh:
I'
m pi
cki
ngt
hemov
ie
Ly
anda:
Ihopei
tsnotaRomant
icmov
ie
Lubah:
weneedt
owat
chahor
rormov
ie
Nay
e:Ist
il
lwannaf
all
asl
eep
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kedandcamebackaf
ter45mi
ns
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ttookyouguys45mi
nst
oputonpy
jamas
andtakeoutbl
anket
s
Phi
l
a:y
ouknowhowgi
rl
sar
eman
Athi
:don'
ttal
ktomuchcausey
oual
sot
akey
our
owntimePhil
a
Me:
andDanny
,youguy
sar
ever
ysl
ow
Thabo:
we'
rewat
chi
ngMyBl
oodyVal
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ine
Bee:
soundsi
nter
est
ing
Kamo:i
t'
sahor
rormov
ie,
sot
her
e'snot
hing
i
nter
est
ing
Mpho:
justwat
ch
Nay
e:mayIsi
tnextt
oyouNkosi
?
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comewe'
l
lshar
eabl
anket
Zandy:mmmhshareablanket somepeoplear
e
gett
ingcosy
,whycan'
tyoutakesomet
ipsMpho
Bel
i
nda:
wher
est
hef
ood?
Lubah:
babey
oueatl
i
kesosomuch
Bel
i
nda:
pleasedon'
tj
udgeme
Themov iestart
edandwewat ched.Nayewas
slay
ingbetweenmyl egsandherheadonmychest .
Wheneversomet hi
ngscar yhappenedshehidher
faceonmychest .I
tfeltgoodt oseeherscar
edand
met her
et oprotecther.Iknowi t
'sfr
om j
ustamov i
e
butI'
dprotectherfrom any t
hingthatwi
llhar
m her
Siy
a:Turnthi
sthi
ngoffman!Youguy sseem t
o
for
getthatmybir
thdayi
sonvalent
inesday
Phi
la:
rel
axbabet
hiswoul
dn'
thappenony
our
bi
rt
hday
Iwasgett
ingr
eal
l
yuncomfortabl
ecausetheman
downther
ewasn'
tbehavi
ng,Iwasgett
ingaboner
andNayewasgoi
ngtofeeli
tsoon
Ikeptonmov
ingandshel
ookedatmeandgi
ggl
ed
Nay
e:st
opmov
ing,
Ifel
tital
ready
Me:
oh
Iwassoembar
rassed Ineedt
obehav
e.
Naye:Nkosi
,thankyouver
ymuchfort
akingEmihl
e
out,
sheneverstopstal
ki
ngaboutt
hefunshehad.I
real
l
yappreci
ateit
Me:i
t'
sokayandIenj
oyedev
eryminut
eofit
,Emi
hle
i
sagreatchi
l
dandtal
kstomuchfora4year
ol
d
Nay
e:shet
alksal
othey MayIasky
ousomet
hing
Me:
yeahsur
e
Nay
e:ar
eyouusi
ngmychi
l
dtogetme?
Me: NoNay eI
'm not
.Il
oveEmi hleandIhadandst i
l
l
havenointent
iononusinganinnocentchil
dtoget
you.Youtoldmey ounotreadyforarel
ati
onshipand
Irespect
edthatandIrespectyou.Iwoul
dn'tdothat
toyouandEmi .
Naye:I
'm sor
ry,
Iknowy ouwoul
dntdot hat.It
'sj
ust
t
hatIcanbev erypar
anoidandi
nsecur
eIendup
t
hinki
ngtoomuchandj umpingi
ntoconclusions
Me:
it'
sokay
,noneedt
oexpl
ainy
our
sel
f
Weconti
nuedwatchi
ngt
hemov i
eaft
eranhouri
t
wasoverandNay
ewassleepi
ngpeacef
ull
yonmy
chest
.
Bonga:
Ithi
nkweshoul
dal
lsl
eepher
etoni
ght
.I
meanit
scomfyandwarm.
Lubah:
andmostoft
hegi
rl
sar
esl
eepi
ngsoy
eah
Danny
:let
'swat
chRushHour
WewatchedthemovieandIsl
eptbef
orei
tended
l
eav
ingZee,SnehandBongaawake.

#Phi
l
a
Iwokeupandev eryonewasst il
lasleep that'
s
thefir
stcauseI '
m al waysthelastonet owakeup.I
wentupst air
stookashowert henchangedi nt
obl ack
Nikeshor t
sandT- shi r
tandBee'sslippersthatI
foundont hepassage.Iwentdownst ai
rssoIcan
makebr eakfast.Itookoutboxesofdi f
ferentcereals
andputt hem ont het abl
ewitha2l tmilknexttoit.
Tookout ,Frenchfries(al
readycut)sausages,
Viennaset candmadebr eakfast.Snehwokeupand
camet
ohel
pme
Sneh:
thi
sisasur
pri
se y
ou'
reupear
ly
Me:
Icoul
dn'
tsl
eepany
mor
esoIwokeup
Weconti
nuedtal
ki
ngandshewentt
oshowerwhi
l
eI
wokeev
eryoneup
Mpho:
whatt
hehel
ldude r
eal
l
y
Me:
breakf
asti
sreadyandi
t9am al
readywakeup
Ly
anda:
I'
m hungr
y
Bel
i
nda:
met
oo
Wewal
kedt
othet
hedi
ningr
oom anddi
shedup
Si
ya:
babet
hisi
sdel
i
cious
Me:
I'
m gl
ady
oul
i
kei
t
Nkosi
:wel
lsomepeopl
ewer
esnor
ingl
astni
ght
Sneh:
yeahy
oh
Bonga:
someonel
i
keNay
eandNt
okozo
Nay
e:Idon'
tsnor
e
Nkosi
:youdo
Nt
okozo:
I'
veaccept
edi
tal
ready
Bonga:
Babal
way
ousl
eepl
i
kea6y
earol
d
Si
ya:
Ial
way
stel
lherbutsheal
way
sdeni
esi
t
At
hi:
Iwasnextt
oher
,goshmybackpai
ns
Mpho:
wenev
ersl
eepi
ngont
hef
looragai
n
Me:l
astt
imewedi
dthatwaswhenwehadnobeds
i
nourfl
at
Zee:
whathappenedt
othebeds
Lubah:
stol
en
Zandy
:whost
eal
sbeds
Danny
:itwassomepr
ank
Nay
e:Idon'
tthi
nkwe'
reget
ti
ngt
hef
ull
stor
yher
e
Me:
youar
eget
ti
ngt
hef
ull
stor
y
Bonga:
thi
sconv
ersat
ioni
sov
er
Wecont i
nuedt
alki
ngandfi
nishedupbr
eakfast
.The
gir
lswenttowashthedi
sheswhilewecont
inued
tal
king
Bonga:
weshoul
dgoout
Me:
out
?
Danny
:yeahgetoutoft
hehouse,
dosomet
hingf
un
Mpho:andwecanmeetwi
thEmi
hle
Zandyscr
eamedf
rom t
heki
tchen
Zandy
:yeahwecandot
hat
!!I
'
vemi
ssedmyAngel
Theycameandsatwi
thus
Naye:
I'
ll
gocal
lhernannyt
opr
epar
eherandpacka
bag
Zee:
wel
ll
et'
sgopr
epar
etoo
Danny
:don'
ttake5hour
s
Bee:
you'
reexegar
rat
ing

#SI
YA

Wewal kedupst
air
s,t
ookashowerandgotdr
essed
i
naJeanshor tandli
ghtgr
eent
opwithbl
ack
sneakers
Kamo:
youl
ookgood
Me:yout
oo.Youhav
ebeaut
if
uldr
esses I
shoul
dst
ealone
Zandy
:Ial
readyt
ookoneandI
'
m wear
ingi
t
Sneh:
comel
et'
sgoguy
s
Wewal
keddownst
air
s
Mpho:
youguy
slookgood
Me:
yousmel
lgood
Thabo:
andme?
Me:
yout
ooThabo
Wel
aughedandwentt
othepar
kingl
ot
Nay
e:Wemustpi
ckupmybaby
Nkosi
:comewe'
l
lpi
ckherup,
wit
hDannyandZee
Me:
Phi
l
a,At
hi,
SnehandIwi
l
ldr
ivet
oget
her
Thabo:
Kamo,
BongaandBeewet
oget
her
Mpho:Wewi
l
luset
heRangeRov
erSpor
tsi
ncei
ts
6ofus
Phi
l
a:okaycool
Ever
yonegotintothei
rcar
s,At
hiwasdr
ivi
ngmycar
whil
eIjustr
elaxed
Sneh:
wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
At
hi:
Pav
il
ion
Me:
okaycool
Wedrovef
orawhil
eandgott
opavi
li
onandweall
metatt
hepar
kingl
otwhenmycut
emunchiecame
r
unni
ngtomy
Emi
:AuntSi
ya!
!!
Me:
Emi
hle! howar
eyou?
Emi
:i
m okayI
'
m goi
ngbackt
omommy
Andsher
anbackt
oNay
e
Naye:St
opr
unni
ngEmi
hle!Iwanty
out
omeetsome
peopl
e
Zandy
:howwi
l
lsheknowwhoi
swho
Naye:y
oualr
eadyknowUncl
eNkosi,
thisi
sPhi
l
a,
Bonga,
Mpho,Danny
,At
hi,
ThaboandLyanda
Emi:Ihav
esomanyuncl
es whydon'
tIhav
e
cousi
ns?
Naye:gi
rl
sgetpr
egnantpl
easemychi
l
dneeds
cousi
ns
Zandy
:yhuaynotme
Mpho:
sowhatar
ewedoi
ngf
ir
st
Emi
:l
et'
swat
chamov
ie
Kamo:
thengoshoppi
ng
Me:
thengoeat
Danny
:gopl
aygames
Nkosi
:soundsl
i
kewehav
eal
i
stoft
hingst
odo
Nt
okozo:
let
'sgo
Wegott ot
hecinemaandwatchedDespicabl
eMe,
don'
tevenask.Wehavea4yearwit
husandshe
deci
dedtochoosethemovi
e.Wewat chedand
Dannywasfall
ingasl
eep
Emi
:uncl
eDany
oucan'
tsl
eepwhenwewat
chi
nga
mov
ie
Danny
:sor
rymybaby
Wel
aughedathi
m af
teranhourandahal
fthe
mov
ieended
Bonga:
what
'
snext
?
Zee:
Ithi
nkweneedt
odoourhai
r
Me:
Ineedt
ogetr
idoft
hisweav
e
Bee:
met
oo
Lyanda:
well
we'l
lgof
indsomet
hingt
odowhi
l
eyou
gotothesal
on
Emi:canIcomewi
thy
ou?Idon'
twantt
ogot
othe
sal
on
Nay
e:ar
eyousur
emybaby
?
Emi
:yes.Uncl
eNkosi
pleasecar
ryme
Nkosi
:okaymybabycome
Hecar
ri
edherandt
heyl
eft
Kamo:
theyl
ookcut
etoget
her
Nay
e:who?
Bee:
Nkosi
andEmi
hle
Me:
Nkosemi
hle
Sneh:
iwantababy Ial
sowantacut
echi
l
d
Zandy
:youcan'
tbesi
ngl
eandwantababyCc
Welaughedandgottot
hesalon.It
ookoutmy
weaveandnail
sthenwashedmyhair
Nt
okozo:
I'
mthi
nki
ngofl
eav
ingNYhai
rnat
ural
Me:
met
oo
Kamo:
Ican'
t,
I
'm cut
ti
ngi
t
Zandy
:ar
eyoucr
azy
?
Kamo:
noIl
oveshor
thai
r
Sneh:
per
ksofhav
ingl
onghai
r,y
ouj
ustcuti
tany
ti
me
Bel
inda:
Tosome,
thest
ruggl
eisr
eal
.Weal
ll
ooked
atZandy
Zandy
:mxm
Af
ter2hour
swewer
eal
ldoneandNay
ecal
l
edNkosi
Nay
e:t
heyar
enextt
oWool
wor
ths
Wewentt
othem andEmi
wasal
readycar
ryi
ngbags
Emi
:Iboughtsomanycl
othes.Il
ovemyuncl
es
mom
Nay
e:y
ouguy
sdi
dn'
thav
etodoal
lthi
s
Ly
anda:
she'
souronl
ychi
l
dsowehav
etospoi
lher
Mpho:
plusweenj
oyedi
t
Thabo:
Inev
ert
houghtI
'
denj
oypi
cki
ngcl
othesf
ora
chi
ld
Nay
e:Kamo di
dyouheart
hat
Kamo:
yesIdi
d
Me:you'
retr
yingt
ogetuspr
egnantdon'
twor
ry
Bel
i
ndawi l
lbejoi
ningy
ouI
'm mot
herhood
Bel
i
nda:
whyi
sev
ery
onesay
ingI
'
m pr
egnant
!
Phi
l
a:j
ust
WewenttoOceanBasketandhadsupperwhi
l
e
hav
ingasmal
lconver
sati
on
Mpho:
I'
mti
red,
Iwantt
osl
eepal
ready
Bonga:
you'
rer
ight
,let
'sgo
Wepai
dthebi
l
landwentt
owher
ewepar
ked
Nay
e:Emi
wil
lyoust
opr
unni
ngpl
ease!
Awhi teranger ov
ercameandt hewi
ndowsl idopen,
aguncameoutand4gunshot sshotoneaf terthe
other.Iscreamedoutl oud!Forasecondt hereI
thoughtitwasEmi hl
ebuti twasNkosi.Lyi
ngt here,
l
ifel
ess het ookthebulletsforEmi
hle.Emi hl
ewas
cryi
ngi nhisarms
Beer
ant
ohi
m andunbut
tonedhi
sshi
rt
At
hi:
getmesomet
hingshar
porasci
ssororwi
re!
!
Dannycamerunni
ngwi
thasci
ssor
sIdon'
tknow
wherehegoti
t
Theyweredoi
ngt
hingsi
nhi
sbackandt
heyt
ookout
2bul
let
s
Zee:
it'
sver
ybad!Wher
eist
heAmbul
ance
Zandy
:Ical
l
edandIdon'
tknow
Nayewaslay
ingonthegr
oundcry
ingsohar
dI
coul
dn'
tev
enholdbackmytear
s.
Phi
l
a:wewon'
twai
tforanyambul
ance,
let
'sgo
Ly
anda,
BongaandDannycar
ri
edNkosi
andwewent
t
othehospi
tal
wearri
vedafter30mi
nsandhewas
t
akent
otheemergencyroom.
Nur
se:weneedaf
ami
l
ymembert
osi
gnt
hese
f
orms
Snehsignedever
ythi
ng.Wewereal
lsi
tt
inginthe
wait
ingroom t
hatAthisai
dweshoul
dsitandhelef
t
Nt
okozo:
Ithi
nkEmi
hleneedst
ogohome
Naye:
butwhati
ftheycomebackf
orher and
shecr
iesl
ouder
Lubah:we'
vebeef
edupsecur
it
yandt
her
e'l
lbebody
guardswit
hher24/7
Nt
okozo:
I'
ll
gowi
thher
Sneh:
Met
oo
Theyl
eftandEmihlewasasl
eepal
ready
,hercl
othes
hadbl
oodont hem
Phi
la'
seyeswereredandpuf
fy,
hehasbeencr
ying.I
wenttosi
tnextt
ohim
Me:ssshhe'
l
lbeokay
.Youhav
etobest
rongf
orhi
m.
Heneedsyou
Danny:i
fonl
ywest ay
edi
nthehousenonoft
his
wouldhavehappened
Mpho:
ifwedi
dn'
tl
eav
ether
est
aur
ant
Thabo:
wef
ail
edt
opr
otecthi
m
Bel
inda:
youcan'
tkeeponblami
ngyour
sel
fguy
s.He
wil
lbeokayandwe'l
lfi
ndwhodi
dthi
stohi
m
Naye:ifonlyIdidn'
ti
ntroducehi
mtoEmi hl
e.I
fonly
hedidn'tknowme.Hewoul dbehappy.Hewouldn'
t
bei
nahospi tal
bedf i
ghti
ngforhi
sli
fe
Kamo:nonono,helovesEmi
hleandev ersi
ncehe
metyou,hi
sli
febecameabet
terplace.Hewill
be
okaydon'
tworr
y
Wesatt
her
efor3hour
swai
ti
ngandwai
ti
ng
Anursecamei
nandweal
lj
umpedandl
ookedather
f
oranswers
Nur
se:
WeneedMsZi
yandaBhengu
Zeel
eftwi
tht
henur
seandwecont
inuedwai
ti
ng
Bel
i
nda:
let
'spr
ay
Al
ltheguy
swer
esi
l
entandl
ooki
ngatus
Mpho:
wecan'
tpr
ay
ForasecondIwant
edtolaughbutIj
ustsmil
ed.
Zandysangandwesangalongaft
erthatwepray
ed
andIprayedf
oraver
ylongti
meandsai damen.
Wesatdownandwai
tedf
orar
eal
l
ylongt
ime.
At
hi,
ZeeandBeeandanot herdoct
orcamei
nandi
t
wasaround11pm al
ready
Nay
e:howi
she?
Beecr
iedoutl
oudandBongahel
dher
Doct
or:
I'
m sor
ryHe.
..
..
..
..
..
..
Nonono
Thi
scan'
tbehappeni
ng,notnow!NotNkosi
!Nooo!
Thi
scan'
tbe.Nayewi
llneverbeabl
etofor
giv
e
her
sel
f
Weal
lar
enot
hingwi
thoutNkosi
.Nooo

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i
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#SI
YA

Phi
la:
whatar
eyousor
ryabout
!!Tal
kwhat
'sgoi
ng
on!
Doct
or:
Sirpl
easecal
m down
Lubah:cal
m downbr
o,heneedst
otel
luswhat
's
goingon
Doctor:wemanagedt otakeonl yonebull
etandthe
otherhasbeenfoundbuti tsabitdif
fi
cul
ttotakeout.
Wear ewait
ingforahear tspeci
ali
stcomingfrom
Li
mpoposohecanoper atehim andtakeoutthe
bull
etbefor
eit'
stoolate.Thechancesofhi m
survi
vingar
everylowandwe' l
lkeephim monitor
ed
atallt
imes.
Athi
:heisst
il
lunconsci
ousandheisinacr
it
ical
condi
ti
on.Thebull
etswentr
eall
ydeep.
Zee:
aft
ert
hesur
ger
yisdoneI
'
llhav
etocheckhi
m
andseei
fther
eareanypr
oblemswithhi
sboneset
c
sowecanseeift
here'
snointer
nal
damage.
Zandy
:thi
sal
lsoundssocompl
i
cat
ed
Doc:wehopehewi l
lbeokay.Youmaygohomeand
resti
fthereareanychangeswewil
lcal
lyou
i
mmedi ately
Nay
e:I
'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
e
Me:
Nay
eyouhav
etor
est
.
At
hi:
GoNay
e,I
'
llbeher
echecki
nguponhi
m 24/
7
Phi
l
a:y
eahy
oual
lgo.We'
l
lst
aybehi
nd
Lubah:
yoursecur
it
yteam i
swai
ti
ngf
ory
ouout
side
Weall
leftt
hehospi
tal
andheavens!Ther
ewereso
manybodyguar
dsli
kewe'
rethepresi
dent
sfamil
yor
somet
hing
Zandy
:nowt
hisi
sver
ydr
amat
ic
Bel
i
nda:
ver
yver
ydr
amat
ic
Nay
e:i
sitokayt
olaughatt
hatbl
ackdudeov
ert
her
e
Webur
stouti
nlaught
er i
tst
hef
ir
stt
imewe
l
aughsi
ncet
hishappened
Zee:
let
'sgoguy
s
Wewalkedint
hecarandthedri
vert
ookust
o
Ly
anda'
shouse.SnehandNtokozower
ewatchi
ng
TVconcent
rat
ing
Bee:whatar
eyouguy
swat
chi
ng?Whyar
ethel
i
ght
s
off
Sneh:weaskedf
ortheCCTVfootageatt
hemall
so
wecanseewhatexactl
yhappenedandwhoar
e
thosepeopl
e
Ntokozo:we'v
ebeenwat chi
ngsi
ncewegoti t
.
5ti
mesal r
eady.Wewer eabletospott
hatthereare
3guysandawoman.Theguywhopul l
edthetrigger
,
i
sy ell
owbonet hat
'sall
wecanseebeneathhi s
Balacl
ava.Seelookaroundtheeyes
Bel
inda:y
ou'
reri
ghtandhehasagol
dbracel
etwit
h
si
lv
erdiamondsbutonebrownr
ockori
tsabronze
st
one
Me:
bet
weent
het
wo.
Zandywasal
readypr
essi
ngsomest
uffont
he
l
apt
op.TheseI
Tpeopl
e
Zandy
:Numberpl
ate?
?
Bee:NIX566andt
her
eisanot
hernumberbutIcan'
t
seeclear
ly
Kamo:
itsa1/
7
Naye:
sor
ryIcan'
twat
cht
hisany
mor
e.Wher
eismy
chi
l
d?
Bee:
comewi
thme.
Theywentupst
air
stogetherandwewer
elef
tther
e
tr
yingt
osolvet
hismystery
Kamo:
letmecal
lmypar
tner
,wehav
esomewor
kto
do
Shel
eftt
her
oom andcamebackaf
ter45mi
ns
Zandy
:and?
Kamo:
Snehgi
vemet
hef
oot
age
Sneht
ookoutt
hedi
skandgav
eKamo
Sheputi
tont
helapt
opanddidwhatev
ershewas
doi
ng.Wheni
tcomestoI
T,Isuckl
ikereal
bad.I
f
ail
edi
tdi
smal
l
y
Af
teranhourshewasdone.
Kamo:tomorr
owmor ni
ngwehavetogotothi
s
addr
ess.Thecarisr
egi
ster
edunderMrP.Si
biy
a.
That
'st
heonlyleadwehave.
Bel
inda:atleastwehav
esomet
hing.Let
'sgoget
somer estguys
Ntokozo:l
et'
sallsl
eeptoget
her
.Wewentt othe
room whereEmihleandNayeweresl
eeping.Ididn'
t
evenchangeIjustgoti
ntobedanddr
ift
edt osleep.
Iwokeupheari
ngsounds,
Iopenedmyeyesand
Nayewasbythewindowstar
ingatt
hesky,
cryi
ng
Me:
Nay
est
opdoi
ngt
hist
oyour
sel
f
Nay
e:(
sni
ff
s)t
his,
thi
sismyf
aul
tSi
ya.
Me:noitsnot
,youdi
dn'
tknowt
hatt
hiswoul
d
happen
Nay
e:i
fhedi
es,
I'
m nev
ergoi
ngt
ofor
giv
emy
sel
f.
Nev
er!
Me:
ssshhewon'
tdi
e
Wesatt
her
ehol
dingeachot
hert
il
lwedr
if
tedt
o
sl
eep

#NEXT_
MORNI
NG
Wewokeupandf
reshenedupandgotdr essed.
Whil
ewewer
ehavi
ngbr eakf
astIgotacallf
rom
Phi
l
a
Me:
Babe?
Phi
l
a:WeneedZeeatt
hehospi
tal
immedi
atel
y
Andhedr
oppedt
hecal
l whati
shappeni
ng!
Gir
lswehavetogo,Zeey ou'
reneededatt
he
hospi
tali
mmediat
ely.Nayejustcr
iedandSnehhel
d
herandwewalkedtothecars.Thedriv
erdr
oveusto
thehospi
tal
andwegott herein15mins
Zeerani
ntosomeroom andcameoutwear
inga
whit
ecoatandwascarr
yingsomeequi
pmentswi
th
anursef
oll
owingherwi
thsomecases
Zandy
:whati
sgoi
ngon?
Zee:
Ihav
etocheckhi
m bef
orehegoesf
or
oper
ati
on.
Kamo:
wer
en'
tyousupposedt
ocheckhi
m af
ter
?
Zee:
Ihav
etochecknow,
DrRekangsor
der
s.
Andshel
eftust
her
e
Nt
okozo:
guy
swehav
etogor
emember
?
Ly
anda:
wher
eto?
Bee:
Pinet
own
Danny
:why
?
Sneh:wehav
eal
ead.We'
l
ltel
lyouabouti
twhenwe
back
Lubah:
I'
m comi
ngwi
th.Bel
i
nda,
Nay
eandBeest
ay
behi
nd
Me:
Bongacomewi
thust
oo
Wealll
eftandwentt
opinet
own.Itwasn'
tal
ong
dr
ivesi
ncethi
sdri
ver
,dr
ivesli
keheisonsomerace.
Kamo:okaywehavet
okeept
hingspr
ofessi
onal
,
don'
tscar
etheguyof
f
Me:
KamoandDannywe'
regoi
ngi
n
Lubah:
we'
l
lst
aybehi
ndandl
ookf
oranysuspi
ci
ous
thi
ngs.
Wewalkedt
othedoorandknocked.Al
adyopened
f
orus
Lady
:Hel
l
o,howmayIhel
pyou
Me:Hel
l
oMam wel
ooki
ngf
orMrPSi
biy
a?I
sthi
s
hi
shome?
Lady;Yeshei
s.I
'm MrsSi
biy
aandhej ustwentout
butcomeinI'
l
lcal
lhim.Heisjustnextdoor.
Mr
sSi
biy
alookedl
i
keshewasi
nhermi
d50'
s
Wesatdowni
nthel
oungeandwai
tedf
orhert
o
comeback
Mam:
Doy
ouwantany
thi
ngt
odr
ink?Jui
ce?Wat
er?
Danny
:wat
erwi
l
lbej
ustf
inemam
Shel
eftandwentt
otheki
tchen
Kamo: areyoucr
azy
?Whati
fsheput
ssomet
hingi
n
thatwater
Danny
:Iwon'
tdr
inki
t,Ij
ustdi
dn'
twantt
ober
ude
Whenshecamebackshecamewi
th2ol
dmen
Man1:Hell
o,I
'
m MrSi
biy
aandt
hisi
smyf
ri
end
Mthunzi
.Bynamei
sPhil
ani
Danny
:MynameisDannyMckenzi
eandI
'
m wi
thMs
Kamogel
angandMsSiyamt
handa
Pet
er:
whatbr
ingsy
ouher
e?
Kamo:Si
rwePri
vateInv
est
igat
ors,
sol
vi
ngacaseof
murdert
hatl
i
nkstoyou
Mam:
What
!Myhusbandi
snomur
der
er
Idon'
tknowwhyKamosai
dMur
derbutwe'
l
lget
al
ongwiththi
s.
Danny:weknowmam butal
lev
idencel
eadst
ohi
m
ri
ghtnow
Me:Yourcarsi
r,RangeRov
erSpor
tND5667?May
weseeitpl
ease
Pet
er:Iwashij
eckedamonthagoandmycarwas
st
olen.Thepol
icedi
dn'
tfi
ndanyt
hingandt
hecase
wasclosed
Kamo:
woul
dyoupl
easedescr
ibet
hehi
j
acker
s
Mthunzi
:Iwaswithhi
m,therewer
e3guy
sand1
woman.Allwear
ingbal
aclav
as
Me:di
dyounot
icei
fanyoft
hem waswear
ingagol
d
br
acel
et
Pet
er:
Iwoul
dn'
tknowsi
nceIwasunconsci
ous
Mt
hunzi
:nomam Idi
dn'
tseeanybr
acel
et
Danny:
pleaset
hinkcar
eful
lysi
randifyou
rememberanyt
hingasinanyt
hingpl
easecal
lus
Hegav
ehim hi
scar
dandwest
oodupandwal
kedt
o
t
hedoor
Danny
:Thanky
ouf
ory
ourt
imesi
r
Mthunzi:
whydon'tyougocheckwher et hescene
occurr
edmay beyouwill
findsomething.It
'sjust
2str
eetsawaynearthedumpi ngsi
te.Justtakeyour
l
eftanddriv
estrai
ghtyou'
llbether
e
Kamo:t
hatwi
l
lbev
eryhel
pful
sir
.Thanky
ouv
ery
much
Wet hengoti
ntothecarandt
oldtheother
swhat
happenedandeveryt
hingweweretol
d.Wegotto
thedumpingsi
teandlookedar
ound
Zandy
:ishi
tssmel
l
ingher
e
Sneh:
heycomeseet
his?I
tsadi
amond
Bonga:
diamond?
Ntokozo:
thebr
acel
ethadonepl
acewheret
here
wasnodiamond!Thi
sisthemi
ssi
ngdiamond!
Lubah:
heyguy
sther
e'sagunher
e
Kamo:
don'
ttouchi
t.I
tmi
ghtbeasetup.
Bonga:
whatdoy
oumean?
Kamo:
Idon'
tknowbutt
her
e'ssomet
hingf
ishyher
e
Zandy
:yeaht
hesmel
li
sver
yfi
shy
Danny
:let
'sgo
Wetookthedi
amondandgunandputi
tinabag.
Thendr
ovebackt
othehospi
tal
Wegott
her
eandt
heywer
est
il
li
nthewai
ti
ng
Me:
anyupdat
es?
Bel
i
nda:
Nope.West
il
lwai
ti
ng
Bee:
Zeehasn'
tret
urned?
Naye:
nopewe'
vebeensi
tt
ingher
esi
ncey
ouguy
s
l
eft
Danny
:sowhatdi
dyouf
ind?
It
oldhi
m ev
ery
thi
ngt
hathappened
Mpho:
Iagr
eet
hati
tisasetup
Thabo:
whatweneedt
of i
ndouti
sthatwhoi
s
behi
ndthi
sandt
heywi
llpay
Ly
anda:
whydi
dyousayi
tsamur
dercase?
Kamo:wellIdidthi
nkitwasasetupsoIdidn'
twant
togi
vethem infor
mationaboutNkosi
'
scondit
ioni
f
theSi
biy
a'sareinvol
ved
Zandy
:doy
out
hinkt
heyar
einv
olv
ed?
Kamo:wemaynev erknowbutwi
tht
hedi
amondand
gunI
'm sur
eitwi
l
lleadussomewher
e
Mpho:
wewi
l
lsor
tthi
soutt
oni
ght
Wesati
nsi
l
encef
orabout45mi
nst
henZeeandAt
hi
camei
n
Nay
e:what
'shappeni
ng
Athi
:it
sbad hesai dt
hatast
earsfel
ldownhi
s
faceandhesatdownwit
hSnehholdi
nghim
Me:
pleaseexpl
ainZee?Tel
luswhat
'sgoi
ngon?
Zee:thebulletwasremov edandIdiscov eredthathe
(sni
ff
s),whenhef ellandhithi
sheadont he
concret
ef l
oor.Hehur thi
mselfandgoti njured,we'v
e
foundsomeswol l
enpar t
sinhishead.Itwi l
l af
fect
hismemor ybutiftheswel l
i
ngdoesn'tgodown, i
t
mighteffecthisbr
ain.
Nayecri
edoutloudlyl
ayi
ngonthef
loor
,Icoul
dn'
t
hol
dbackmyt ears.Thi
shastobet
hemost
emoti
onalmomentofmyl if
e.
Lubah:
wil
lhe?Wi
l
lhesur
viv
e?
At
hi:asthedoct
orsai
d,ther
earelesschancesof
hi
m surv
ivi
ng.Heisst
rong,hewil
lfi
ght.
Zee:
heisint
heI
CU,thedoct
orswi
ll
keepon
monit
ori
nghi
mtocheckuptheswel
li
ng.
Lyandagotacal
landhej
ustcr
iedanddr
oppedhi
s
phone
Lubahpi
ckedi
tupandt
alked,
hewast
alki
ngt
o
Thapel
o.
Lubah:
wehav
etogo
Nay
e:I
'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
e!
Bonga:
I'
ll
staybehi
ndwi
thher
Sneh:
met
oo.
Lubah: noSnehwewi l
lneedy ousi
nceZeewi ll
remai nbehi
nd.Makesurethereissecuri
tyinNkosi
's
room.Nooneent er
swithoutyouwiththem Bonga.
At hi
,ZeeandDrRekangar etheonlypeoplewhocan
treathim,under
stood?
At
hi:
sur
eman
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon
Lubah:
you'
l
lfi
ndout
.
Weallwenttothecarsanddr
ovetoThapel
o'
s
apar
tment.Lyandar
aninsi
decal
li
ngoutThapel
o'
s
name
I
twasamess, ever
ythingturnedupsidedown,
brokenwindowsandf urni
ture.Thapelocametous,
tearsj
ustfel
ldownmyf ace.Whodoest hist
oachil
d!
Bee:
Thapel
o!!Shecr
ied
Ly
anda:
Bro,
whathappened
Hewasroughl
ybeatup,hecoul
dn'
tev
enwal
k
any
moreandhejustfel
li
nLyanda'
sar
ms
Nt
okozo:
wehav
etor
ushhi
mtot
hehospi
tal
Thapel
o:t
heyl
eftanot
efory
ou
Itookt
hepaperandr eadit"Onedown,you'
real
l
foll
owi
nghim.Will
hegot oheavenorhell
?Hopeto
getaninv
itef
orthefuneral.Checkt
hewallbehi
nd
thewardr
obe"
Wewenttothebedroom andthewal
lwaswr
it
teni
n
bl
ood"
you'r
enext.
..
.Nceba..
.
Me:nono!Nceba !Iscr
eamedandt
ookmy
phone
Nceba:
hel
l
o?
Me:putony ourbull
etproof
,gotomywar drobe,
ther
eisasaf enexttomypinkdressthatIsayyou
shouldnev
err emove.Takeoutal
lthegunst her
e
andthebull
etproofgivemom towear.BabyIknow
you'
venev
ershotany
onebutwheni
tleadst
othat
,
doit
!
Nceba:
whati
sgoi
ngon?Thepi
n?
Me:
itsmomsdat
eofbi
rt
h
(
Lubah:
wewi
l
lbesendi
ngsecur
it
yther
e.)
Me:andtherearemanybodyguardscomingtherein
afewminutes.Iknowmom willf
reakbutdon'
ttell
herev
ery
thing.Justsaysomet
hing.Besafebye.
Wegoti
nthecar
sanddr
ovebackt
othehospi
tal
Sneh:
whatnow?
?
Mpho:
TheybeatupThapel
o
Nay
e:no hei
sinnocent
Me:
theyar
eaf
terNcebanow
Zandy
:Emi
hlei
ssaf
eri
ght
?
Phi
l
a:y
es
Thabo:youguy
scangoandI
'
llst
aybehi
ndwi
th
Lyanda
Phi
l
a:Isuggestwedot
hingst
hewaywedi
d
yest
erday.Nay
ewear
eher
eforNkosi
andThapel
o.
Goandr est
Bonga:
Kamo, wor
kyourmagi
c.ZeeandSnehwi
l
lbe
gr
eathelpi
nthosesy
stemsofyour
s
Bel
i
nda:
Let
'sgoguy
s
Wegoti
ntothecar
sanddrovetoLy
anda's.We
or
der
edfoodanditcameaft
er15mins.
Bel
i
nda:
thankgod,
Iwasst
arv
ing
Nay
e:y
oual
way
shungr
y
Kamo:
backt
owor
kladi
es
Zandy
:al
readyst
art
ed
Kamo:
putt
hedi
amondher
e
I
twassomemachi
neandi
tscannedt
hedi
amond.
Kamo:
itspur
ereal
diamond.
Zee:
Andt
hegunbel
ongst
oMrSi
biy
a
Me:
thatmanknowsmor
ethanhet
oldus
Zandy
:we'
regoi
ngbackt
her
efi
rstt
hingi
nthe
morni
ng
Nt
okozo:
weal
lgoi
ng
Sneh:
ItsMondayt
omor
row.
.Wor
k?
Bee:
weal
ltaki
ngt
heweekof
f.
Me:
I'
ll
textBi
gD
Zee:
Athi
tookcar
eofi
t.They
'veal
lbeeni
nfor
med.
Nt
okozo:
greatt
hen
Bel
i
nda:
NewCFOt
akest
heweekof
f
Zandy
:Sweet
iet
hisher
eiswaybet
tert
hanbei
nga
CFOri
ghtnow
Wecont
inuedchatti
ngwhileKamowasbusywi th
somest
uffonthelaptop.Shei
ssoseriouswhenit
comest
oherwor k.I
tsli
keshe'sonanotherpl
anet
.
Sneh:
let
'ssl
eepnowguy
s
Me:
yeahy
our
ight
Weal
lwentt
oEmi
hle'
sroom andweal
lsl
eptt
her
e
Inthemor
ningwewokeupandEmi
hle'
sNannyhad
alr
eadymadebreakf
ast
Nay
e:Thanky
ousomuchMa,
youhav
ebeengr
eat
hel
pthr
ought
hisdi
ff
icul
tti
me.
Ma:
itsapleasur
emam andIl
ovebei
ngar
ound
Emi
hle.Howisthey
oungman
Nay
e:hei
sget
ti
ngbet
terMa.
Me:
thanky
ouf
ort
hef
ood
Ma:
it'
sapl
easur
e,I
'
llgocheckonEmi
hle
Weatei
nsilenceandNt
okoz
ocamedownst
air
s
wi
th3br
ief
cases
Zee:
whatar
ethosef
or?
Nt
okozo:
Saf
ety
Theywer
eful
lofgunsandkni
ves
Sneh:
Ican'
tuseakni
fe
Nt
okozo:
you'
l
llear
n
Bel
inda:
youcanber eal
badassNt
okozoy
ety
ou
hav
esuchani nnocentface
Me:
theydosaydon'
tj
udgeabookbyi
tscov
er
Wefi
nishedeat
ingandgoti
ntot
hecar
sanddr
ovet
o
MrSi
biya'
shouse
Onl
yKamoandIweregoi
nginsi
ncetheyknowus
andwedon'
twantt
orai
seanysuspi
ci
ons
Iknockedont
hedooranday
oungl
adyopened
Lady
:hey
Kamo:
heywe'
rel
ooki
ngf
orMrandMr
sSi
biy
a
Lady:sor
ryther
eisnoMrorMrsSi
biyai
nthishouse.
I'
m KhanyaandIstayher
ewi
thmyolderbr
other
Thabang.
Me:Khany
awewer ehereyest
erdayandhada
meeti
ngwitht
hem att
hishouse
Khany
a:I
'
m sor
rymay
bey
ou'
rel
ost
.
Kamo:
isy
ourbr
otherher
e?
Khany
a:y
esI
'
llcal
lhi
m
Hecameandhel
ookedl
i
keaguyi
nhi
sLat
e20'
s
Me:Hywe'r
elooki
ngforMrandMrsSi
biy
abut
Khanyat
ell
sustheydon'
tl
eaveher
eanddon'
tknow
them
Thabang:
yest
hisi
smyhouse
Kamo:butsi
rwewer
ehereyest
erdayi
nsi
det
his
house,
havi
ngameet
ingher
e.
Thabang:ther
earepeopl
ewhocameher ey
ester
day
anddemandedt ousethi
shouseforameet
ingandif
Idi
dn'tal
l
owt hem t
hey'
ll
kil
lus.Andt
heyal
sopaid
me
Kamo:
howmuch
Thabang:
hal
fami
l
li
on
Me:
whower
ethesepeopl
e
Thabang:
Idon'
tknow,
butt
her
ewer
e3guy
sandone
gi
rl
Kamo:
descr
ibet
hem pl
ease
Thabang: t
heywerewear
ingbal
aclav
asbut2guys
weretal
l andoneshor
twithahuskyvoi
ce.Thegi
rl
wasabi ttal
ltoo.
Me:t
hanky
ouf ory
ourt
imesi
randpl
easecal
lusi
f
t
heycomeback.
Kamo:we'
l
lhavesecur
it
yguar
dyou24/
7causey
our
l
ivesmayi
ndanger.
Thabang:
thanky
ou,
iwi
l
ldef
inat
elycal
l
Wewal
kedbackt
othecaranddr
ovet
othehospi
tal
Sneh:
whathappened
Kamo:we'l
ltel
lyouev
ery
thi
ngatt
hehospi
tal
when
weal
ltogether
Wegottothehospi
tali
nanhourandwentt
oour
desi
gnat
edwaiti
ngroom
Nay
e:anychanges?
Mpho:Thapel
oismuchbet
terandwi
l
lbe
di
schar
gedtomorr
ow
Danny:
Nkosii
sbett
ert
hany
est
erday
.Theswel
l
ing
i
sgoingdownslowl
y
Zee:t
hat'
sgood.Oncei
tsal
ldownIcandomore
checkups.Thankgodi
twasn'
tabr
aintumor
.
Bonga:
sowhathappened
Me: wefoundthatthegunbel
ongstoMrSibi
yaso
hehadbeenl yi
ngtous.Andwewentt her
ethi
s
mor ni
ngonlyt
of i
ndoutthatt
heyhi
redthepl
aceand
theymightnotbeMrnMr sSi
biy
aandthesame
3guysandonewomanaret hepeopl
ethatfor
cef
ull
y
hi
redthehouseandpr
omisedtokill
Thabangn
Khanyaift
heydon'
tal
l
owt hem t
ousethehouse
At
hi:
whoi
sThabangandKhany
a?
Kamo:
theowneroft
hehouseandhi
syoungersi
ster
.
Phi
l
a:wehav
etomakesur
etheyar
esaf
e
Me:
alr
eadygotmor
esecur
it
ytogot
her
e
Thabo:
wel
ldoneLadi
es.
Zandy
:forwhenwef
indwhoi
sbehi
ndal
lthi
s
Zee:
letmegocheckonNkosi
Nay
e:mayIcome?
Athi
:Idon'
tthi
nkthat
'
sagoodi
deaNay
e.Youcan
seehim maybetomorr
ow
Bel
i
nda:
yeahcomesi
tnextt
ome
Lubah:
canIcomet
oo?
Bel
i
nda:
youcanbeababysomet
imes come
Theybot
hwenttosi
tnextt
oherwhi
l
ewewai
tedf
or
Zeetocomeback
Af
teranhourZeecameback
Ly
anda:
and?
Zee:hei
sgett
ingbetter
,outofICUandtheswel
li
ng
hasgonedown.Sti
llunconsci
ousthoughandt
here
i
sa80%chancet hathewi l
lsuf
ferf
rom memory
l
oss.
Nay
e:ohGodpl
easehel
pNkosi
Kamo:
hewi
l
l.Nkosi
wil
lbeokay
Weall
stoodupandpr
ayed.Af
terawhi
l
eanur
se
camerunni
ngi
n
Nurse:
MsBhengu! !
!!DrRekangneedsy
ouandMsB
Shezir
ightnow!Theyall
leftr
unni
ngwit
hAthi
too.
Nt
okozo:
ohNkosi best
rong.
Mpho:
hewi
l
lbeokay
Phi
l
a:Iwonderwhat
'sgoi
ngon
Danny
:weal
lwonder
ingwhati
sgoi
ngont
ooman

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tingtherewaiti
ngtofindoutwhat's
goingon.SeeingNay elikethi
swasr eall
y
heart
breaki
ng, shecriesallt
hetimeandshe'slosing
weight.Asmuchasshedoesn' twantt oadmiti
t,she
l
ovesNkosi .Whi l
ewewer esi
tt
ingthereAthi
,
Zee,Bee
andthenursecameback.
Phi
l
a:howi
she?
Ly
anda:
what
'sgoi
ngonguy
s?
Nay
e:pl
easet
ell
mehei
sokay
!
At
hi:
cal
m downguy
s
Bee:
Hei
sawake
Sneh:
Thankgod
Nt
okozo:
ever
ythi
ngi
sokay
?
Zee:Hehastot
all
ylosthismemoryandhecan'
tfeel
hisl
egssowe'r
eassumi nghewon'tbeabl
etowalk
foramonthor2.
Athi
:hedoesn'
tev
enknowusorhi
sown
name
Nurse:
hewokeupcal
li
ngEmi
hle'
sname.That
'sal
l
heknowsandal
lhesays.
Zee:Naye,
we'regoingt
oneedyoutobri
ngEmihl
e
heremaybeshecanhelp.MaybeNkosi
will
beable
torememberthings
Nay
e:ohmychi
l
d I
'
llcal
lthenanny
Bonga:
we'
l
lgof
etchherwi
thMpho
Bel
i
nda:
I'
ll
comewi
th
Nay
e:Thanky
ou,
pleasemakesur
eshe'
sdr
essed
war
mly
Theygotupandl
eft
.
Me:sothi
smemor
yloss?Howl
ongwi
l
lhi
smemor
y
bel
ost?
Nurse:thesethi
ngstaketi
mesi r
,wewi l
lbehel
ping
hi
mi nev erywaywecant ohelphim.Andsomeone
cl
oset ohim,maybehe'ssi
bli
ngsorparentstobe
wit
hhim al lt
heti
meandr emindhim ofhis
chi
ldhoodandwhohei s.
Zee:
itsgoi
ngt
obedi
ff
icul
tbutI
'
m sur
ehe'
l
lbeokay
Si
ya:
may
beseei
ngEmi
hlewi
l
lhel
p
Kamo:
whencanweseehi
m?
Athi
:ri
ghtnowt hatmightconf
usehim.Let
'swai
tti
l
l
heseesEmi hl
et henmaybeaftert
haty
ouguyscan
seehim
Nur
se:
whyhav
en'
tweseenanyf
ami
l
ymember
s
Phi
l
a:wear
ehi
sfami
l
y
Nur
se:
Biol
ogi
cal
sir
Danny
:it
scompl
i
cat
ed
Thegirl
slookedatusconfused.I
tsnotmypl
acet
o
tel
lbutyouwill
findoutsoon
Zandy
:ar
eyougoi
ngt
otel
lus?
At
hi:
hedi
dsayi
t'
scompl
i
cat
ed
Zandy
:yeahbuthedi
dn'
tsayt
hathei
sgoi
ngt
otel
l
usornot
Phi
l
a:Zandi
l
e,shutup
Weal
ll
aughed,
wehar
dlyev
enl
aught
heseday
s.
Af
teranhourt
heycamebackwi
thEmi
hle
Nay
e:Emi
hle,
youhav
etoseeuncl
eNkosi
.
Emi
:okaymommy
Kamo:doy
out
hinkshewi
l
lunder
standt
hathehas
l
osthi
smemor
y
Mpho:onthewayshesai
dshehadadr eam about
Nkosi
.Theyweresi
tt
ingt
oget
herandt alki
ngina
pl
acecall
edNongoma.Whatsurpri
sesmei sthat,
NongomaiswhereNkosii
sori
ginal
lyfr
om
Naye:
Emihasneverbeent
her
eandhowwoul
dshe
knowit
sNongoma??
Phi
la:ist
hereawaywecanseeEmi
hlewhi
l
ethey
ar
et oget
herwit
hNkosi
Me:
yeahIal
sowantt
osee
Nur
se:
comewi
thme
Weal lstoodupandwalkedbehi ndher
.Thewasa
glasscov eredwit
hacurtainandwestoodther
e.She
remov edt hecur
tai
nandt her
ewasNkosilayi
ng
there.KamoandSi yacr
ied
Danny
:canheseeus?
Nurse:
noonlyyoucanseehim andyoucanalso
hearhi
m.Emihl
elet'
sgoinsi
de,uncl
enkosihas
beenmissi
ngyou
Theywenti
nsi
deandEmi
hler
ant
oNkosi
,hel
ooked
conf
usedatfi
rst
Nkosi
:Isawy
oui
nmydr
eams,
you'
reEmi
hle
Emi
:yesuncl
eNkosi
Nkosi
:somynamei
sNkosi
?
Emi:Yesandyouaremyuncl
e.Wehav
eat
eddy
bearcal
ledNkosemi
hle
Nkosi
:butIdon'
tremember
Emi
:don'
twor
ry,
youwi
l
lrememberandIwi
l
lhel
p
Emihlel
aidonNkosi
'
schestandtheybothfell
asl
eep.Thenur
secover
edthem withablanketand
l
eftther
oom.Wewentbackt othewait
ingroom and
satdown
At
hi:
thi
sisv
erywei
rd
Danny:tel
lmeabouti
tman.HowdoesEmi
hleknow
thatNkosihasamemoryl
oss
Naye:
I'
m al
soconf
usedcausenoonetol
dher
.And
howwill
shehel
p?She'
sonly4y
earsol
d.
Mpho:
andt
hedr
eam,
that
'
sver
ywei
rd
Bonga:
Emi
hlehasagi
ft
.Shehasar
areandspeci
al
gi
ft
Zandy
:thosespi
ri
tual
thi
ngs?Pr
ophecyor
?
Nay
e:nonotmychi
l
d
Bonga:I'
m notsur
ecauseI
'veneverseent
hisbef
ore
butther
e'sj
ustsomethi
ngabouther
Kamo:
itsamazi
ngt
hough.
Ly
anda:
andt
hei
rconnect
ionf
rom t
hest
art
Phi
l
a:whenev
erNkosi
tal
kedaboutEmi
hley
oucoul
d
seet
hespar
kinhi
sey
es
Me:It
hinkt
her
eismor
etot
hisbutf
ornowwej
ust
wai
tandsee
Kamo:Ihavealead,
oneofmysour
cestol
dmet
hat
MrSi
biyaisact
uall
yMrPascal
Ngonyama.
Mpho:
sour
ce?
Kamo:
col
l
eague
Thabo:
didy
ouf
indwher
ehest
aysorsomet
hing
Kamo:Hehascrossedthecount
rybuthecoul
dn'
t
real
l
yfi
ndwhereexactl
ydidhego
Athi
:Thi
ngswi
llbebet
teronceNkosiisdi
schar
ged
sowecangetbacktofi
ndingthesepeopl
e
Phi
l
a:I
sNcebaokay
?
Si
ya:
Yesshei
s
Nt
okozo:
Thapel
o?
Lyanda:
Heissti
ll
asl
eepwhenhewakesuphe'
l
l
comehere.Get
ti
ngdi
schar
gedtoday
Bee:
AndNkosi
wil
lbedi
schar
gedonTuesdaywhi
ch
i
sTomor
row
Nay
e:I
'
llmov
einwi
thhi
m.Justt
ohel
phi
m getback
t
ohisf
eet
Sneh:
andwe'
l
lbet
her
etohel
pNay
e
Danny
:thanky
ouguy
s.Her
eal
l
yneedsoursuppor
t.
Me:
Ican'
tbel
i
evehewon'
tknowanyofus
Thenur
secamei
nrunni
ng
Nur
se:
Come!Comel
i
stent
othi
s!
Weall
rushedther
eandl
i
stened.Theywer
est
il
l
l
ayi
nginthebed.
Nkosi
:Ihadadr
eam
Emi
:Tel
lmeabouti
t?
Nkosi:Iwasi nahouseabi ghouseandi tseemsas
i
fitbelongedt omecauseIwasal onether eandI
droveoneoft hecars.Whil
edr i
vi
ngasawy ouand
somel ady,hercarhadatir
epr obl
em andt hat
's
whereImety ou.It
ri
edlookingatthi
sladiesfacebut
Icouldn'
t.ThenIjustwokeup
Emi
:your
emember
ing !That
'showwemetand
thatladyi
smyMom.Yourf
ri
end,
Nay
ebutIdon'
t
callherbyhername.
Nkosi
:Ihav
efr
iends?
Emi
:Somany
!Theyar
emyaunt
sanduncl
es
Nkosi
:whyar
eyoual
way
sinmydr
eams?WhydoI
r
ememberyou?
Emi
:Iam her
etohel
pyou,
eveni
nyourdr
eams.
Wealll
ookedateachot
herandNay
ewal
kedaway
cr
yingIf
oll
owedher
Me:
Nay
edon'
tcr
ynow
Naye:
mychil
d,I
'm scared,
I'
m conf
used.Idon'
tknow
whatt
othi
nk.I
sthisreal?
Me:we'r
eallscar
edandconf usedaboutal
lofthi
s.
Butit
'sf
oragoodr eason,Godknowswhyt hi
sisall
happeni
ng.Wehav etojustbel
iev
einhim
Nay
e:butshe'
sonl
y4
Me:Andsheisyourdaught
er,
yougav
ebi
rt
htoan
amazi
ngchil
d.
Wewal
kedbackt
otheot
her
sandsatwi
tht
hem
Phi
l
a:It
hinki
tst
imef
ory
ougi
rl
stogohome
Zandy
:I'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
e
Sneh:
Met
oo
Kamo:
met
hree
At
hi:
okaywegeti
tyouguy
sdon'
twannagohome
Bel
i
nda:
mef
our
Me:
real
l
ybabe
Bel
i
nda:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Thi
sgi
rlt
hough she'
stheone
Thabo:
I'
m hungr
y
Nt
okozo:
met
oo
Weor deredfoodandi tcamei nanhour,wesatin
theroom wher ewe'vebeensleepi
ngforthepastf ew
days.Athiorgani
zedar oom forus.Weateinsilence
andaf t
erthatwesatandt alkedabouttheol
dv ersit
y
days.Nay efel
lasleepandMphot uckedherint
obed.
Afterafewmi nutesthegir
lswhereallasl
eep
besidesZandy
Lyanda:
don'
tyout
hinkweshoul
dgol
ookatEmi
hle
andNkosi
Bonga:weshoul
d,whati
shappeni
ngi
sreal
l
y
unbel
iev
abl
ebutamazing
Phi
l
a:y
eahhey
Wewentt
her
eandt
heywer
esl
eepi
ngpeacef
ull
y
Zandy
:Ireal
lydi
dn'
tbel
ievei
nsuchthi
ngsbutr
ight
now,i
t'
shappeni
ngri
ghtinfr
ontofme.
Danny
:Doy
out
hinkhe'
l
lev
err
ememberus
Ly
anda:
Hewi
l
l,Emi
hlewi
l
lhel
phi
m
At
hi:
let
'sgoguy
sIwantt
osl
eep
Wewentbacktother
oom andIwenttowhere
Bel
indawassl
eepi
ngandIhel
dherclosel
ythen
sl
ept.

#NEXTMORNI
NG
#SI
YA
Wewokeupi nthemorni
ngandwentt oLyanda'
s
housetofreshenupandchange,wethenhad
breakf
astandwentbacktothehospit
al.Thapel
o
wasdischargedalr
eadyandwelefthi
mi nthehouse,
heneededt orest
.
Kamo: whenal
loft
hisi
sov
er,
Ihav
esomet
hingt
o
tel
lyouguys
Thabo:
whati
sit
?
Kamo:
bepat
ient
Weal
ll
ookedateachot
herandIwonderwhati
tis.
Wewentt
oNkosi
'
sroom,
thedoct
oral
l
owedust
o
seehi
m
Emi:Uncl
eNkosi
,theseareyourf
ri
ends.It
oldy
ou
thaty
ouhavemanyf r
iends
Weal l
laughedandNkosi wasjustl
ooki
ngatus.I
haven'
tknownNkosi foryear
sbutIseehim asmy
el
derbrother,
Itspai
nfult
oseehi mli
kethi
s.Naye
cri
ed
Nkosi
:whyi
sshecr
ying?
Emi
:that
'smymommy
,Nay
e.
Nayewentcl
osert
oNkosiandhel
dhi
shand.They
l
ookedi
ntoeachother
sey
es
Nkosi
:Idon'
tknowy
ou
Nay
e:(
sni
ff
s)i
..I.
.Iunder
stand
Kamo:
wel
li
m Kamo
Weal
li
ntr
oducedour
sel
ves
Nkosi
:Wel
ltheysayI'
m Nkosi
nat
hiMkhize.I
'
m
emihl
e'
suncl
eandy ouguysaremyfr
iends.
Danny:wearey
ourfr
iends,
y ourfami
l
yand
ever
ythi
ngyouhav
e.Wel ovey ou
Nkosil
ookedathi
m andshookhi
shead."
Tel
lme
aboutmysel
f"hesai
d
Phil
a:Idon'tknowwher et ost
artman.Weal lmetin
uni
versi
ty,YouandDannywer eroommat esbutaft
er
afewmont hsweal lr
entedanapartmentaf ew
str
eetsawayf rom school.Yeyandwepar t
ied!Al
l
ni
ghtlongman!Youwer eal waysl
ookingoutforus
andtakingushome.
Thabo:
wewer
eal
way
sint
roubl
eman
Phi
la:weatt
endedthesamecl
assesandwe
wouldn'
tgoforev
enamonth.
Mpho:onet
imey
ouguy
sev
enf
orgoty
ouwr
it
ing
exams
Theycont
inuedtel
li
nghim st
ori
esaboutthepast
andwewer eal
ll
aughingincl
udi
ngNkosi.Itwas
goodtoseehim smil
eagain
Sneh:y
ouguysseem t
obef orget
ti
ngwhatNkosi
asked hesaidtel
lhim abouthi
msel
fnotthe
thi
ngsyoual
ldi
d
Nt
okozo: I
'
vebeenwai
ti
ngf
ort
hatpar
t
Zandy
:Nkosiy
ou'r
eanarchi
tect
,youhav
ea
companyandyou'
reaCEO
Kamo:heisobv
iousl
ytheCEOsi
ncehehasa
company
Nay
e:shutupKamo
Weal
ltal
kedandNkosi
wasj
ustl
i
steni
ng
Nkosi
:Youseem l
i
keacr
azybunch
Ly
anda:
yepwear
esee,
Athi
ist
het
alkact
ivel
i
ke
tal
kact
iveone.Mphoisthequi
teonebutwhenhe
speaksheleavesast
atement
Danny
:I'
mtheser
iousone j
oki
ngy
ouar
eand
Bonga
Kamo:
DannyandPhi
l
aar
ever
ysl
ow
Me:
Andl
yandai
sthecool
est
Bonga:
NoIam
Mpho:
noIam
Nkosi
:May
beIam.Am Imar
ri
ed?
Sneh: no!
Bee:
buty
oudi
dhav
esomeoney
oul
ovesosomuch
Zee:
shutupBabal
wa
Nkosi
:it
shar
dgett
ingal
lyournames,
Ithought
Babal
waasSiya
Phi
l
a:You'
l
lgetusedtoi
t,asl
ongasy
our
emember
mynameyou'
llbefi
ne
Weal l
laughedandal
lofasuddenEmi
hlecr
ied
hol
dingherchest,
nextt
otheheart
Naye:
what'
swr
ong?Emi
hle!Emi
hle!Me:
Emi
hle
babyl
ookatme
Bel
i
nda:
Nkosi
!Nkosi
Il
ookedatNkosihewasalsohol
dingt
hesame
pl
acewhereEmihlewasholdi
ng
Kamoscr
eamedoutl
oudcal
l
ingt
henur
se
Theyr
ushi
ngi
nwi
tht
hedoct
ors.
Nur
se:
pleasel
eav
eal
lofy
ounow!
Nkosi
wassl
owl
yloosi
nghi
sbr
eat
he
Naye:(
cryi
ngoutloud)Mybaby
!!
!Nkosi
!!Emihl
e!!
Nkosemihl
e!!Don'
tleav
emenow!Ineedy ou
I
twassosad,Icoul
dn'
tst
opcr
yingtoo.Theguy
s
wer
eall
looki
ngsosadandworr
ied
Mpho:
whenwi
l
lthi
send
Kamo:
let
'spr
ay
Weal
lpray
edforaboutanhourandsatwai
ti
ngf
or
t
hedoct
orstocomeback
Bel
i
nda:
Emi
hlei
sreal
l
yconnect
edt
oNkosi
Sneh:
itseemsl
i
keshef
eel
shi
spai
n
Nt
okozo:
buti
thappenst
oherf
ir
st
At
hi:
soi
fNkosi
dies,
Emi
wil
ldi
efi
rst
Nay
ejustscr
eamedcr
ying
Me:
Athi
!!
Athi
:sorr
y,idi
dn'tmeantosaythat
,wellIwas
thi
nkingaboutitbutIguessIt
houghtoutloud
Zandy
:youhav
enof
il
ter
Mpho:
andnot
imi
ng
Phi
l
a:Youar
ewor
set
hanZandi
l
eyaz
Weal
ll
aughedandcont
inuedt
alki
ng
Emi
hlewal
kedi
nandr
ushedt
oNay
e
Emi
:Uncl
eNkosi
needsmemom
Nay
e:how?
Emi
:hei
ssi
ck
Naye:hewil
lbefi
ne.Shecont
inuedtal
kingbei
ngher
nor
mal sel
fandl
ikenothi
nghappened.She'
s
di
ff
erentfr
om whenshe'swi
thNkosi.
Thabo:
Emi
doy
ouknowhowi
sNkosi
Emi
:Idon'
tknow
Luanda:
thi
sisfrust
rat
ing,Emiseemsl
i
keshehas
nocluewhathappenedthere.
Kamo:
li
keshe'
sint
wodi
ff
erentwor
ld'
s
Nay
e:Doy
ouwantt
osl
eep?
Emi
:noI
'
llsl
eepwi
thUncl
eNkosi
Danny
:okayEmi
Emi
:whyi
sev
ery
onel
ooki
ngatme?
Sneh:
youj
ustcut
e
Thenur
sewal
kedi
n
Nur
se:
Hei
sokay
.He'
shear
twasbeat
ingt
oosl
ow.
Emi:
Hewasget
ti
ngamessagef
rom Daddy
Ndumiso.
Nay
e:Emi
hle! y
oudon'
tknowy
ourdaddi
esname
Emi
:Idonow.Hewaswi
thusi
nthedr
eam
Nayest
oodupandl
eftt
her
oom wi
thSnehand
Zandyf
oll
owi
ngher
Nt
okozo:
Arey
ousur
eEmi
hle?
Phi
l
a:l
etherbef
ornow
Emihl
elef
tther
oom si
ngingNkosi
'
sfav
ori
tesong
"Vusi
Nova_Ndi
kut
handi
le"
Bonga:howdoesEmi
hleknowaboutNkosi
'
s
fav
ori
tesong
Weal
llookedateachot
her
.Thi
sisv
eryconf
usi
ng.
I
tsar
oller
coast
erri
de

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandsuppor
t

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enda:
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t22

#Si
ya
Emi
hlel
eftt
her
oom andwej
ustsatt
her
ethi
nki
ng
Mpho:
Ineedt
orest
,Zandyl
et'
sgo
Ly
anda:
aybohZandydoesn'
twantt
osl
eep
Zandy:
Idoact
ual
l
y,andIwantt
osl
eepathomenot
here
Lubah:
Godknowsy
ou'
regoi
ngt
ogetupt
onogood
Bonga:andwear
enotALLgoi
ngbackt
oLy
anda'
s
house
Danny
:Ev
ery
one
Kamo:
incl
udi
ngt
hebot
hofy
ou
Weal
ljustl
aughedandwentt
othecar
sthendr
ove
home
Kamo:
wher
e'st
hef
oodar
oundher
e?
Bel
i
nda:
I'
m hungr
y
Me:
Met
oo
Thabo:
Im wi
shi
ngf
orahomecookedmeal
Zee:
at11pm?
Thabo:
Yes
Bee:
Kamoousi
e,y
ourmanwant
sahomecooked
meal
Kamo:
yhuatt
hist
ime.I
'
m or
der
ing
At
hi:
andanot
herwomanwi
l
lfeedy
ourman
Ntokozo: wtf!Howdoyouknowt
hatanot
her
womanpr epar
edthef
ood?
Mpho:
itsobv
ious
Sneh:no!Thaboi
sachef,hecooksandweor
der
andyouEatMpho, wasi
tprepar
edbyawomenke?
Mpho:
Thi
ssi
tuat
ioni
sdi
ff
erent
Luanda:
Noi
tsnot
Phi
la:y
eahSnehyouhav
eapointbutwhenaman
wantsahomecookedmeal
,gi
veittohi
m
Danny
:ev
eni
fit
s11pm
Thabo:
it'
scal
l
edbei
ngsubmi
ssi
ve
Lubah:don'
tl
ist
ent otheseidi
ots! Kamoor dert
he
foodCcorjusttel
lhimtomakehi sownfood.You'
re
nothiswif
e.Until
yousignthosedocuments,
give
him br
eadwithsugarwat er
Nay
e:y
es!Tel
lthem Lubah
Bel
i
nda:
soi
tsf
inei
fIgi
vey
ousugarwat
er?
Lubah:
no
weal
ll
aughedathi
m
Nt
okozo:
didn'
tyousayt
hat
'swhatweshoul
d
do
Lubah:
Itsdi
ff
erent
Phi
l
a:howi
sitdi
ff
erent
Mpho:thi
sconv
ersat
ioni
sgoi
ngnowher
e,I
'
m
hungr
y.Kamoordert
hatf
oodCc
Me:Ican'tbel
i
evewe'v
ebeentalki
ngaboutt
his
nonsenseinst
eadoforder
ingt
hefoodalr
eady
Zandy
:andwest
il
lhav
etowai
t
Nay
e:Danny
,Ihav
eaquest
iont
oask
Danny
:Yesy
oumayask
Nay
e:Howdoy
oudoi
t?
Danny
:Dowhat
?
Nay
e:Lov
esomeonesodeepl
ybuty
ou'
rekeepi
ngi
t
i
nsi
de
Kamo:
whoi
sthat
?
Danny
:noone heanswer
edandl
ookeddown
Nay e:YouknowwhoI '
mt al
kingabout ,Don'twaste
ti
met ryingt of i
gureouthowt ot ellherj
ustblurtit
out.Tell her,there'
snosucht hingasbei ngnotr eady
andunsur eofy ourfeeli
ngs.Don' tkeepitinsi
de
causei twi ll
hur tyouandonl yy ou.Onedayy ou'
ll
wakeupandshewi llbewi t
hanot herwoman!You' l
l
regretnott ell
ingher .Lookatme, Nkositol
dmehe
l
ov esme!It oldhi mI '
m notreadywhenIknew
deeplyt hatIlov ehim!Lookatmenow!heaccept ed
mydaught er,l
ov esherlikehisown, heshowedl ove
tome!Andher !Heriskedhi sli
fef orher!Nowhe
doesn'tev enknowmyname!I fonl yIwashonest
withhimf rom t hefi
rstplace!Wewoul dn'tbehere
Shewascryi
ngandscr
eami
ngoutl
oud!Bel
i
nda
hol
dingher
Naye:Don'
tsitandlookatme!Tal ktoher
!Tellher
youloveher Zeedon' tactli
keyoudon'tlov
ehi m!
Youwouldn'tevenbestayi
ngwi t
hhimi fy
oudidn't,
youknowt hewayhel ooksatyou,tr
eatsyouli
ke
you'
reanegg.Thismanl ovesyou!Takehishand!
Holdhim
ShesaidtoherandIwasalr
eadycry
ing,
itwasan
emoti
onalmoment .Dannyt
ookZee'
shandandthey
wenttothebackyard.
Kamo:
thi
sisr
eal
l
ydeep
Thabo:
soy
ouNay
eyour
eal
l
ylov
eNkosi
?
Nay
e:f
rom t
hedayImethi
m
Phi
l
a:whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
him?
Nay
e:Gui
l
t
Sneh:
gui
l
t?
Nay e:I'
vealwaysbeenholdingont oNdumiso,he'
ll
alway sbeapar ti
fme.Ifeltli
keifI'
m wit
hNkosi ,
I'
ll
forgetabouthim.ThatI'
m betrayinghi
m bymov ing
on.I twouldn'
tbeokayt obewi t
hNkosi especi
all
y
sincet heywerefr
iends
Thabo:
Iunder
stand
Lyanda:
butyouknowNkosi ,hedoesn'
twanty outo
for
getaboutNdumi so.Hesaidhewillwai
tforyou
becausehegenuinelylov
esyou.Hewasal ways
afr
aidofrej
ect
ionbuthebl ur
titoutt
oy ouandthat'
s
whathegot
.Yethedi
dn'
tst
opl
ovi
ngy
ou
Bonga:
Maket
hingsr
ightwi
thhi
m
Naye:i
t'
stool
ate,
hedoesn'
tknowmeany
mor
e.He
doesn'
tl
ovemeany mor
e.
At
hi:
sowhensomeoneloosest
hei
rmemor
y,t
hey
l
oosethei
rmemor
ytoo?
Thabo:
you'
ret
hedoct
ory
oushoul
dknow
Zee:
your
eal
l
yconf
usemeAt
hi
Nt
okozo:
you'
renotal
onet
her
e
Thef
ooddel
i
ver
ycame
Bel
i
nda:
It'
saboutt
ime.
Sneh:
Ihadev
enf
orgot
tenabouti
t
Lubah:
theny
ouwer
en'
thungr
ysweet
ie
Zandy
:Iwantt
oeatal
ready
Weal
ldi
shedupandat
e
Bonga:
leav
esomef
orDannyandZee
Mpho:
uweht
hey
'l
leateachot
her
Zandy
:Iwannasl
eep,
let
'
sgosl
eepMpho
Thabo:
ayl
ent
oyenu
Lubah:
Goodni
ghtguy
sI'
m al
sosl
eepy
Bonga:
IguessBel
i
ndai
sof
ftobedt
oo
Bee:
Andwe'
reof
ftobedt
ooBonga
Mpho:
youguy
ssl
eept
oget
her
??
Them:
NOO!
!!
!
Sneh:
li
keshar
eabed?
?
Bonga:
ohy
eah
Phi
l
a:ohy
eah?
??
Bee:
Yesman
Ly
anda:
andnot
hinghappens?
Bee:y
es
Nt
okozo:
Ust
ronggi
rl
Me:
soy ou'
ret
ryi
ngt
osaythati
fyouwer
eli
kei
n
t
hei
rsi
tuati
onyouwoul
dn'
tbeablet
osur
viv
e?
Nt
okozo:
NopeandIknowhewoul
dn'
t shesai
d
l
ooki
ngatLy
anda
Ly
anda:
andwhati
fIdo?
Nt
okozo: y
ou'
resl
eepi
ngont
hecoucht
oni
ght
Ly
anda:
Ihav
epl
ent
yofr
oom
Nt
okozo:
mxm
Ly
anda:
okayI
'
mjoki
ngbabe
Nt
okozo:
buty
our
est
il
lsl
eepi
ngont
hecouch
Kamo:
you'
recr
azy
Zandy
;I'
m out
Weallsaidgoodnightandwewentt
oour
desi
gnatedbedroom (Phi
laandI
)
Phi
la:
I'
vemi
ssedy
oubabe hecamecl
oserand
ki
ssedmyneck
Me:
mmhI
'
vemi
ssedy
out
oobabe
Phi
l
a:r
eal
l
y ?Whatdi
dyoumi
ssaboutme?
Me:Ev
eryt
hingabouty
oubabebutImissedy
our
l
aughthemost ev enthoughi
tsbad
Phi
l
a:what
ever wannaknowwhatImi
ssed?
Me:yeah.Heki
ssedmyl
i
pssopassi
onat
elyandhi
s
l
ipsweresosoft
Phi
l
a:howaboutIshowy
ou?
Befor
eIcouldevenanswerhesmashedhi
sli
psont
o
mineandkissedmelikei
t'
sthel
astti
me.Car
ri
edme
tothebedandlayedmedown

#NEXTMORNI
NG
IwokeupandPhi l
awasst i
ll
fastasl
eep.It
ooka
showerandloti
onedmybody .Thenworeablack
penci
lskir
tandnavyT-shi
rtt
hatItuckedi
n.Then
woreblacksandl
es.Iwentdownstai
rsand
Zee,
ZandyandBongawer ealreadyt
here
Zandy:
what'
swit
htheMakot
ivi
besvelet
oday
?Ev
en
Zeeiswear
ingaski
rt
.Whywasn'
tIt
old?
Zee:
noonepl
annedany
thi
ng
Zandy
:wel
lI'
m goi
ngt
ochangei
ntoaski
rtt
oo
Me:
you'
recr
azy
Shewentt
oherr
oom whi
leBel
indacamedownwi
th
Kamontheywer
eweari
nglonglongski
rt
s
Bonga:guessZandywast
heonl
yonewhor
eal
l
y
di
dn'tgett
hemessage
Kamo:
whatmessage?
Me:weall
weari
ngski
rtsher
eyaboandshewasn'
t
si
nceshe'
sgoi
ngtochangenow
Bel
i
nda:
buti
twasn'
tpl
anned
Zee:
tol
dher
Theyal
lcamedownandt
hegi
rl
sar
ewear
ingski
rt
s
too
Nt
okozo:
whyar
ewet
oldt
owearski
rt
s
Weal
lj
ustl
aughed andl
ookedatZandy
Zandy
:whatdi
dIdo?
?Don'
tshoott
hemessenger
Bel
inda:
butnobodysai
dyoushoul
dtel
lthem t
oal
so
wearski
rts
Nay
e:sot
hiswasn'
tpl
anned
Zee:
nope
Sneh:
Zandi
l
ethough! i
hadt
ochangebecauseof
you
Wet
oldt
hem whathappened
Nay
e:Zandi
l
eyou'
resomet
hingel
se
Zandy:
what !We'r
elooki
nggoodguy
s
#Hashtag_
Fr i
endshi
pGoals
Bee:
Amandl
a!
Us:
Awet
hu!
At
hicamef
rom nowher
e!
At
hi:
May
ibuy
e!
Us:
IAf
ri
ca!
t
hisguy
Mpho:
what
'sgoi
ngonher
ecomr
ades
Phi
l
a:what
'swi
tht
heski
rt
s?
Bee:
we'
rej
ustf
eel
i
ngl
i
kewear
ingski
rt
stoday
Ly
anda: y
ouguysl
ookgoodthough.Ihar
dlysee
Ntokozowear
ingal
ongski
rt
Bonga:l
etsgoguy
s.Nkosi
isget
ti
ngdi
schar
ged
today
Bel
i
nda:Thanky
ouLubah,
Ilookgood andgood
morni
ngtoyout
oo
Lubah:
butbabe
Bel
i
ndawal
kedout
Danny
:Tr
oubl
einpar
adi
se?
?
Lubah:dude she'sbeenliket
his,
shecr i
esforno
reason,
she'smoodyandIalwaysdosomet hi
ng
wrongev enwhenIdidn'
tev
endoany t
hing.AndIdid
sayshe'sbeaut
if
ulandgoodmor ni
ngwhenwewoke
up
Nay
e:I
'
llcheckherwhenwegett
othehospi
tal
Lubah:
why
?She'
sjustbei
ngsi
l
ly
Kamohi
tLubah'
shand
Lubah:
what
'st
hatf
or?
Zandy
:forbei
ngani
diot
Wealll
aughedandwentt
othecar
s.Iwaswi
thNay
e,
Sneh,
ZeeandZandywasdri
vi
ng.
Nay
e:t
heyar
esobl
i
nd
Zee:
why
Me:
Bel
i
ndai
spr
egnantandt
heybot
hcan'
tseei
t
Zandy
:it
sbeenaweekor2
Zee:t
hatexpl
ainshereat
inghabi
tandt
hemoods
Lubahist
alki
ngabout
Nay
e:I
'
llcheckherupatt
hehospi
tal
andt
akeat
est
If
orgett
hatNay
eisaGy
necol
ogi
stsomet
imes
Wegott
othehospi
tal
andwentt
oNkosi
'
sroom
Nkosi
:Mor
ningf
ri
ends
Helookedmuchbet
terandhecal
l
edushi
sfr
iends.
That'
sagoodsi
gn
Mpho:
soy
our
ememberus?
Nkosi
:youguy
sdi
dsayy
ouar
emyf
ri
ends
Mpho:
ohy
eah,
Ithoughty
our
ememberev
ery
thi
ng
man
Hel
ookeddi
sappoi
ntedandZandyhel
dhi
shand
Nay
e:y
ou'
recomi
nghomet
oday
Nkosi
:home?
Kamo:
yeah
Thabo:
doy
out
hinkweshoul
dal
lgot
oly
anda'
s?
Sneh:It
hinkweshoul
dgotohi
shouseandmay
be
he'
llbeablet
oremembersomet
hings
Mpho:goodi
dea,we'
l
lbest
ayi
ngwi
thhi
mfort
he
r
estoftheweek
Nkosi
:i
smyhouseenoughf
orev
ery
one?
Zandy:Idi
dtel
ly ou,
you'r
eaCEOandnowI'
mt el
l
ing
you,y
ou'r
esti
nkingri
chandhaveahouset
hatcan
accommodatethisenti
rehospi
tal
Weal
ll
aughed
Nay
e:Igi
veuponZandi
l
e.Letmepacky
ourbags
Nkosi:i
ssheal waysl
ikethis?Heaskedlooki
ng
deeplyint
oNay e'
seyes.Theylookedateachother
forabout5minsjuststar
ingunti
lNayelookedaway
andat earfel
lonherface,shecri
edandr anoutof
theroom Beli
ndafoll
owedherwi t
hNt okozoand
Kamo
Zee:y
eahZandyi
sal
way
sli
ket
hat
..
.Toanswery
our
quest
ion
Nkosi
:whydoesNay
eal
way
scr
y?
Danny
:you'
l
lknowoncey
our
emember
Phi
l
a:t
hisi
ssad
Bonga:
tel
lmeabouti
t
Bee:
wher
eisEmi
hle
Emi
:her
e!
She'
sbeensi
tti
ngonthecouchbehi
ndusal
lal
ong
andwedidn'
tevenseeher
Sneh:
you'
vebeenhi
ding
Emi
:andy
oudi
dn'
tseeme!
Lyanda:l
et'
sstar
tagai
nthen.Emi
hlewentt
ohi
de
behindNkosi
Lyanda:readyornot!Her eIcome!Openedhi seyes
andpretendedl i
kehcoul dn'
tseeEmi butshewas
ri
ghtinfrontofhim.Emi hlewaslaughingenjoy
ing
thegame bei ngachil
dt hough.Ican'tbel
i
eveI
oncealsof el
lforthi
str
ick
Ly
anda:
Goty
ou!
!
Emihl
elaughedwhi
l
eLy
andawast
ickl
i
nghi
m and
thenur
secamein
Nurse:
MsMt hiy
ane(
Sneh)pl
easesi
gnt
hese
di
schargepaper
s
Snehsi
gnedandt
henur
secheckedhi
slegs
Nur
se:Si
rcanyouf
eel
thi
s?Shewasr
ubbi
nghi
s
l
egsandfeet
Nkosi
;no
Nurse:Hewi ll
beusi ngawheel chai
rfornowandbe
caref
ul.Hemustcomef orcheckupsev er
yTuesday
andThur sdayuntil
hecanbebackonhi sfeet.Do
givehi
m somef ootrubseveryday.Whowi llbe
stayi
ngwi thhim
Nay
e:Iwi
l
l
Weal ll
ookedtothedoorandshewasstandi
ng
ther
e.Shecamecl osertousandt
henursegaveher
somepaper sandabr ownbagwhi
chhadmeds.
NayealsotookNkosi'sbagandMphocamewi t
hthe
wheelchai
randhelpedhim si
toni
tandwheeledhi
m
out
.Thi
sisr
eal
,Nkosi
isi
nawheel
chai
r.Ist
il
lcan'
t
bel
i
evei
t.
Iwaswal
ki
ngbehi
ndwi
thDannyandSneh
Me:am It
heonl
yonewhost
il
lcan'
tbel
i
eveal
lof
t
his
Danny
:you'
renotal
onet
her
e
Sneh:i
tsli
kewe'r
egoingtowakeupandsomeone
wil
ltel
lusitwasonl
yjustadr
eam
Me:
wehavet
osuppor
thi
m andpr
ayt
hathe
r
emember
s
Danny
:whati
fhenev
err
emember
s?
Sneh:
thenwe'
l
ljustst
artal
lov
eragai
n.He'
l
lhav
ea
newli
fe
WedrovetoLyanda'
shouseandt
ookourbagsand
wentt
oNkosi'
shouse.Wesatandusthegi
rl
s
pr
eparedahomecookedmeal
Thabo:Iseey
ouar
efi
nal
l
ybei
ngsubmi
ssi
ve
l
adies
Wej
ustl
aughedathi
m andheal
sohel
pedus.Nkosi
wassi
tt
ingqui
etl
ywi
thhi
sey
escl
osed
Wealllookedateachot
herandconti
nuedwit
h
ever
ythingwedoingwhenhesuddenl
ydroppeda
bomb!
Nkosi
:Whodi
dthi
stome?
Phi
l
a:west
il
ltr
yingt
ofi
ndout
Danny
:doy
our
ememberwhathappened?
Nkosi:
Ihadafl
ashback.Iwaspr
otect
ingEmi
hle.I
gotshott
hat
'sal
lIremember
Kamo: wehaveleadsandknowi t
's3guysandone
womanwhohav ebeenbehindeveryt
hingt
hathas
beengoingon.Wej ustdon'
tknowwhoexactlyar
e
thosepeopl
e
Nkosi
:tel
lmewhathappened
Bongat
oldt
hest
ory
Nkosi
:whydi
dn'
tyour
epor
ttot
hepol
i
ce?
Mpho:wecan't.Wedon' tworkwi
ththepoli
ceNkosi.
Weall
doi i
legalt
hings.We'veki
ll
edpeopleandwe
hav
ethingsthatcanbringtheworldt
oitsknees.So
wor
kingwi
tht
hepol
i
cewoul
dbedanger
ousf
orus
Nkosi
:Iunder
stand
Zandy
:doy
our
ememberany
thi
ngel
se?
Nkosi
:NoMaZungu
Zandy
:youremembermysurname!
!!
!!
!! !
!
Winel
adiesl
et'
scel
ebr
ate!
!!
!
Bonga:
causey outol
dhim wheny ouwere
i
ntr
oducingyoursel
fZandyZandy
:ohdidI
?She
l
ookedconfused
Nkosi
:yesyoudi
d butkeept
hewi
necomi
ngdon'
t
l
etBongabursty
ourbubbl
e
Zandy
:Cheer
stot
hatmat
e
Nayecamewit
habasi nwit
hhotwaterandatowel.
Thekneel
edi
nfrontofNkosiandt
ookouthisshoes
andsocks
Nkosi
:youdon'
thav
etodot
hisNay
e
Lubah:
yeahwecandoi
t
Nay
e:no.Iwantt
o
Nkosi
:whyar
eyoudoi
ngal
lthi
sforme?
Naye:
BecauseIl
o..
.Iwantt
o,y
ousav
edmychi
l
d's
l
if
e.
Nkosi
:whydoy
oual
way
scr
y?Looky
ourey
esar
e
gl
assy
Nay
e:i
tst
heoni
ons
At
hi:
butt
her
ear
enooni
onsher
e
Me:
shutupman!
Nkosi
:ar
eyousur
eyou'
reokay
?
Nay
e:y
esI
'
mfi
ne
Shebat
hedhisfeetandrubbedhi
sfeetwi
tht
he
someoilandi
tsmelledr
eall
ybad!
Bel
i
ndar
anbuti
twast
ool
ate,
shepuked.
Zandy
:That
'
sitmanwenay
oupr
egnant
!!
Bel
i
nda:
thi
swasnothowwepl
annedt
otel
lyou
Lubah:we?Andyou'
repr
egnant
! Bel
indayou'
re
carr
yingmybaby
!Hewassohappyheevencri
ed
Bel
i
nda:
yes,
I'
m 2weekspr
egnantl
ubabal
o y
ou'
re
goi
ngt
obeaf
ather
Phi
l
a:congr
atul
ati
onsman
Weallcongr
atul
atedandIcl
eanedupBeli
nda'
spuke.
Idon'
tknowwhybutIdidanditwasn'
tanyfun
Wesatdownatthel
oungeandjustt
alked.Nay
ewas
donewit
hwashi
ngNkosi'
sfeetandLubahwasbusy
rubbi
ngBel
i
nda'
stummy
Kamo:You'r
enott
heonl
yonewhoi
sgoi
ngt
obea
fat
herLubah
Danny
:whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Kamo:
I'
m 3weekspr
egnant
Thaboj
ustcr
ied
Thabo:Kamogel
angy
ou'
repr
egnant heki
ssedher
hol
dinghert
ight
ly
Bee:
thi
siscut
e.Weexpect
ingt
wobabi
es!
!
Nt
okozo:
we'
regoi
ngt
obeaunt
s!!
!
Naye:
Emihl
e!You'l
lhav
ecousi
nst
opl
aywi
th
youwon'
tbealonemybaby
Thabo:y
ouhavemademet
hehappi
estmanal
i
ve.
Whydidn'
tyout
ell
me
Kamo:
thi
ngswer
esti
ll
hecti
candIdi
dtel
lyouguy
sI
hav
esomethi
ngt
otel
lyou
Beli
nda:we'
repregnant
!Theyhuggedandr
ubbed
thei
rtummiestogether
Sneh:
thi
scal
l
sforacel
ebr
ati
on!
!
Zandy:
Doubl
ecel
ebr
ati
on!Mommi
esnoal
cohol
for
you!
Weall
laughedandZandywentt
ogetwi
neand
somesnacks
Andall
ofasuddent
her
ewasal
oudknockont
he
door
!

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easel
i
keandcomment
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1/11,
00:
25]Tat
enda:
Inser
t23
Phi
l
a:I
'
llopen
Hewentt
othedoorandever
yonewaslooki
ng,ther
e
wasaboxwrappedi
nabluecoverandr
edribbon
Zandy
:comeopeni
ther
eweal
lwantt
osee
Bel
i
nda:
whati
fit
sabomb!
Mpho:
eehBel
i
nda,
hor
monesgoty
oual
ready
Phil
aopenedtheboxandt herewastwobaby
clot
hesforaboyandgi rlwit
hbloodallover.There
wasanot eanditsai
d" BabyLindaandBabyKamo,
youwil
lneverseeearth"Kamocr i
edoutl oudlyand
Beli
ndaj
ustkeptquietlett
ingthetear
sf l
ow
Lubah:babepl
easedon'
tcr
y,not
hingwi
l
lhappent
o
ourbaby
Thabo:Kamogel
angthl
e,don'
tcr
ymamakheI
'
m
heret
opr ot
ecty
ouguys
Zee:howdothesepeopl
eknowabouty
ouguy
s
bei
ngpregnant
Bel
i
nda:
Idon'
tknow(
sni
ff
s)
Afewminutesl
aterweheardgunshot
s!3bul
l
ets
andNcebacameindraggi
ngsomeguywhoi sshot
ont
hel
egandshewascar
ryi
ngt
hegun
Me:
Ncebakazi
,what
'
sgoi
ngon?
Nceba:t
hisi
stheidi
ott
hatdeli
ver
edthisboxhere.
AndIsawhim,hewantedtorunbutIshothi
sleg
bef
orehecouldgoanyfur
theryouknowIcan'
trun
sothegunhel
ped
Bee:
sincewhendoy
ouknowhowt
oshoot
Nceba:si
ncefor
everandt
hiswasanemer
gency
.
Enoughaboutmeshooti
ngtheguy
!
Lyanda:
youdi
dagoodjob,
wewi
l
ltakecar
eofhi
m
now.Youneedar
eward
Nceba:
Lat
esti
PhoneandAppl
elapt
opwoul
dbe
gr
eat
Mpho:
sor
ted
Nceba:
thi
sist
hel
i
fe Wher
eismyThapel
o?Shar
p
br
aNkosi
Sneh:
youspoi
l
t,hei
supst
air
ssl
eepi
ng.
Nkosi
:whoar
eyou?
Nceba:
what
?Don'
tpl
aygamesl
ana
Nay
e:hel
osthi
smemor
y
Nceba:
oh sor r
yIdi
dn'tknow.I
'
m Ncebakazi
Shezi
,
BeeandSi
ya'
sli
tt
lesi
ster
Danny
:Ly
anda'
sgi
rl
fr
iend
Nceba:gott
hatr
ight .Shegiggl
edandwent
upst
air
sleavi
ngthi
sguyhere.
Thabothr
ewafisti
nhi
sjaw!Bongaf
oll
owed
beat
inghi
m up
Nt
okozo:
stop,
thatwon'
thel
pfornow!
Zee:
whosenty
ou!
?Whodoy
ouwor
kfor
?!
Guy:mynamei sJabul
ani
.Iowesomel oanshar
kan
amountofR250000.Ibor r
owedt hemoneysoIcan
payhospi
talfeesformymot herwhohadcancerand
i
twasstil
lnotenoughandshedi edtwoweeksona
Sundayaf
ternoon.Ithasal
way sj
ustbeenthet
woof
us.
Bonga:
youar
enotanswer
ingt
hequest
ion!
!
Bee:
Bongacal
m down,
hei
sget
ti
ngt
othatpl
ease
Bonga:
howdoIcal
m down!How!
Bee:
Lut
hul
ingy
akucel
a
Bongasatdownandhel
dBee'
shand.Hewasv
ery
angr
y
Jabu:whenIcouldn'
tpayt hemoney,heof f
eredme
ajob.Theywouldfol
lowy ouaroundandt hat'
show
theygottoknowaboutthechildwhot heywant edt
o
shootbutinst
eadanotherguygotshotwhi chInow
knowisNkosi.
Ly
anda:
howdoy
ouknow?
Jabu:whenhewentt ot hehospi tal wef oll
owedand
oneoft heguy swenti nsi deandl ookedatt he
document sandsawhi sdet ail
sandMsBhengut hat
signedthepaper s.Anur sewashi redt okil
lNkosiat
thehospitalbutshecoul dn'tandt heyki l
ledher.We
keptonf oll
owingy ouar oundandt hewai ti
ngroom
youwer eathadoneoft hei rcamer a's.That'swher
e
theyheardmostt hi
ngsy out alkabout .WhenKamo
foundoutshewaspr egnantatt hesamehospi t
alwe
heardtheconv ersati
onandwer eabl etogether
document stoo.Bel i
ndaandNay etest sthe
pregnancyatt hehospi tal andwewer ealsoableto
fi
ndout .IfIdidn'
tbri
ngt heboxher eandcont i
nue
bei
ngwi t
ht hem whiletheydoingall t
hist heywoul d
havekill
edme.Theyar etr
ainingmet oj ointhem
bri
ngy ouguy sdown.Iwast ol
dtoki l
lyourbabi es.
Theyhav en'tfoundawayt odot hatbutt heyar e
pl
anningt odot hat.I
'm goingt oki
llmy selfwelljust
ki
llmeandl etmedi e.Ican'tkil
li
nnocentchi ldren.
Whatev erthosepeopl ewantf rom youguy stheyare
deter
mi nedt ogetit.
At
hi:
whoar
ethesepeopl
e?
Jabu:Idon'
tknowtheleadersname,theloanshar
k
i
sKingaandt hegir
lisAmanda.Apparentl
yshe
wantsrevengefr
om MrPhilayeahthat'
sthename
shealwayssays
Me:what!Thatgi
rli
scr
azy
.Andt
her
ear
ethr
eeguy
s
whoisthethi
rdone
Jabu:
itsme,I
'
vebeentrav
eli
ngwi
ththem.I'
venev
er
metanyoneel
sebutIdon'
tthi
nki
tsj
ustthem
Nay
e:y
oudon'
thav
ethebr
acel
et
Jabu:
whatbr
acel
et?
Sneh:
thegol
donewi
thdi
amonds
Jabu:
Ihav
en'
tnot
icedanybr
acel
etsmam.
Danny
:howdoweknowy
ou'
ret
ell
i
ngt
het
rut
h
Jabu:Ihav ethreebul l
etsonmyl eg,Igavenof amil
y,
noone.I '
mj ustaguyt hatmixedupwi ththewrong
crew.Icannev erbeabl etokillaninnocentchil
d.
Youdon' thavet otrustme, youhav enor easonto.
ButI'm bei
nghonestIhav enor easontolie.Youcan
evenkillmeI '
ddi epeacef ul
lythandieknowi ngI
ki
lledbabies.I'
vel ostachi l
d,Icannev ertakethat
awayf r
om any oneel se
Zandy
:whatdoy
oumeany
ou'
vel
ostachi
l
d?
Jabu: I
'm 26y
earsold,twoy earsagoIhada
gir
lf
riendandshewaspr egnant .Ilov
edherandI
knewshewast heoneIwantt ospendt her
estofmy
l
ifewi t
hsoIplannedtopr oposet hedayshegiv
es
bir
th.Longstorycutshortt heybothpassedaway
thedayshewasgi vingbirth.That'
swher emyli
fef
ell
apart
Nt
okozo:
how?
Nayestoodupandcamebackwit
haf i
rstai
dkitand
hel
pedJabuwithhi
slegandAt
hitookoutthe
bul
let
s
Jabu:Thankyou..Ihadagoodj obandahouseand
onecar.Iwasf i
nanciall
ystabl
eandwor ki
ngata
bank.Whenmywi f eandkiddied,Istarteddri
nking
fort
hev eryfi
rstti
mei nmyl i
feandi tfeltgood,all
myt houghtswentawayandIwasatanot herwor l
d
whereIcouldjustf or
getaboutev er
ything.Dri
nking
l
edt ogambl i
ng,Ilostever
ythi
ngIhadt henmov ed
backhome.AndI '
m heretoday
Bel
i
nda:
Thi
sissosad
Emi
hlecamef
rom nowher
eandspoke
Emi
:Iknowy
ou!
!Shesai
dpoi
nti
ngatJabu.
Nay
e:babyar
eyousur
e?
Jabu:
Yesshe'
ssur
e,shesawmeatt
hehospi
tal
Mpho:
whatwer
eyoudoi
ngatt
hehospi
tal
Jabu:Ihadwentwit
hthem butIdidn'
tseewhere
theywentsoIsatatt
hewaiti
ngr oom nextt
oyours.
There'
ssomethi
ngIhavetotell
you
Phi
l
a:whi
chi
s?
Jabu:
Nkosidi
dn'
tl
oosehi
smemor ybecausehehi
t
hi
shead,
hismemorywasjustf
ine
Nkosi
:whatdoy
oumean!
?
Jabu: youwer ehypnoti
zedandi njectedwi t
ha
danger ouschemi calt
hatmakesahumanmi nd
forgetev er
ythingli
keblackout!Idon' tknowi t'
s
namebutIsawAmandacar r
y i
ngi tanddi dasked
Nkingaandhet ol
dmewhati tdoes.Amanda
pretendedt obeanur seandgoti nsidey ourroom.
Afterawhi leshecamebackt owher ewewer eandi
t
wor ked.You'reherenowandy oul osty ourmemor y
Danny
:howdi
dshegetpastsecur
it
y?
Jabu:
Idon'
tknowsi
r
Sneh:
doy
ouwantsomet
hingt
oeat
?
Jabu:nomam, Ihavetobeonmywaynow, t
heyar
e
wait
ingforme.I'
l
ltel
lthem ev
eryt
hingwent
accordi
ngl
yandI'l
ldi
sappearorki
llmysel
f
Nkosi
:youcan'
tdot
hat
,weneedy
ou
Lubah:
yeswor
kwi
thusandwe'
l
lpr
otecty
ou
Zandy:hecanst
il
lwor
kfort
hem butonour
advant
age.
Lyanda:Howshouldwet
rustt
haty
ou'
renotgoi
ngt
o
tur
ny ourbacksonus
Zee:Gobackt
othem andr
epor
ttot
hem t
hencome
back
Bonga:we'
l
lwir
eyouandinst
all
acamer
asowecan
act
uall
yseeify
ou'
rer
eal
lywit
hus
Jabu:SirIcannevergoi
ntherewiredandhavi
nga
cameraonme, t
hebossesplacesecur
ityi
sti
ght.
Therearesomanycomput ersystemswheneverIgo
i
nt her
eIev enl
oosemyselfphonenetwork.
Naye:
ist
heresomet
hingt
hatcanbedonewi
th
Nkosi
'
ssit
uati
on
Athi
:Yeshehastobeinject
edwi t
hanot herst
rong
chemicalt
hatwil
ldest
royall
theothermedbuty ou
canneverfi
nditi
nSouthAfri
caandi tcan'tbe
i
mpor t
edcauseit
'sadrug.Verydangerouscanev en
bedangeroust
oNkosi
Jabu:
Amandami
ghthav
eit
.I'
l
lgot
her
eandl
ook
ar
oundt
hencomebackher
e
Bee:
andy
ourl
eg?
Jabu:
itsokay
,im notf
eel
i
nganypai
n.
Hest
oodupandl
i
mpedt
othedoor
Me:ThankyouandIhopey
ouwon'
tbet
rayuscause
wecankil
lyouanymoment
Jabu:NoThanky
ouf
orev
ery
thi
ngandIwi
l
lnot
betr
ayyou.
Helef
tandIwatchedhi
m ashet
ookat
axi
andI
wentbacki
nsi
de
Kamo:
Ifeel
sor
ryf
orhi
m
At
hi:
youdon'
tev
enknowhi
m
Bel
i
nda:didn'
tyouhearev
ery
thi
nghej
ustsai
d!
I
magineifitwasyou
Phi
l
a:i
twoul
dbehect
ic
Zandy
:howdowedeal
wit
hthi
sAmandabi
tch!
Me:we'
l
ldealwi
thherwhent
het
imecomes.What
doy
outhinkt
heyaft
er?
Sneh:
whatI
'
m sur
eofi
sthatt
heynotwor
kingal
one.
Danny
:Quest
ioni
swhoar
etheywor
kingwi
thorf
or?
Me:
Amandai
sjusti
nitf
ort
her
evenge
Phi
l
a:Iwi
l
lki
l
lher
Nkosi
:notnow
Nt
okozo:
why
Bonga:wemayneedhersoonaf
terusi
ngherwewi
l
l
ki
llher
Nay
e:I
'
m hungr
y
Wewenttocookandat
e,Ikeptaplat
eforJabut
hen
t
heguyswashedthedi
shes.NayewashedNkosi
'
s
f
eet
Nkosi
:Thanky
ou
Nay
e:nopr
obl
em
Shekeptonmassagi
nghi
slegsandmov
ingt
hem
si
detoside
Nay
e:cany
ouf
eel
any
thi
ng
Nkosi
:no
Ihadalumponmyt hroat
,IwantedtocrybutIhel
d
backmyt ears.Seeingt hi
sissad,i
magineit
happeni
ngt oy ourl
ov edone?OhLor d Phi lawam.
EvenifNkosi doesn'tremember,I'
m surehecansee
thatheandNay ehadsomet hingforeachother
Kamo:
ifJabudoesn'
tfi
ndt
hisdr
ug?
Nkosi
:theni
tmeanst
hingswi
l
lremai
nthi
sway
Bonga:
Athi
,ther
e'snoot
herway
?
At
hi:
Nope
Wesatandcont
inuedt
alki
ng.Af
ter2hour
sJabu
cameback
Ly
anda:
yout
ookl
ong
Jabu:
Ihav
eonel
eg
Mpho:
Whathappened
Jabu:
Igotshott
hreet
imes
Mpho:
nonott
hat
Jabu:ooh,Amandadoeshav ethedr
ugbutshehas
i
tinherglasssafewhichi
sv er
ycompli
cat
edbutI'
l
l
keepwatchingherandgettoknowhowsheopensit.
Zee:heret
akethis,i
tcanopenany
thi
ngwi
tha
technol
ogi
cal
lylockedsyst
em
Shet
ookourasmal
lremot
e
Zee:
presst
hey
ell
owbut
tont
wiceandi
twi
l
lopen
Jabu:
Iwi
l
ldot
hat
.
Nkosi:
Ify
ougetthat
,you'
l
lmakei
tinl
i
fe.Ihear
dI'
m
averywealt
hyman
Zandy
:uwohNkosi
nat
hiMkhi
ze
Wealll
aughedandNtokozogav
ehimfoodandhe
at
eli
kehehasneverseenfoodbef
ore
Nay
e:wantmor
e?
Jabu:
yespl
ease.Hegott
hissecondpl
ateandat
e.
Me:
What
'sy
oursur
nameandwher
ear
eyouf
rom
Jabu:
I'
m Jabul
aniShezi
,Inevergottomeetmy
fat
her
.Mom saidshewashi sonenightst
and.
Me:
Shezi
!!
Jabu:
yesshezi
MeIam Si
yamt
handaShezi
Jabu:
Awu!Real
l
y
Babel
wa:
yeahmet
oo
Kamo:
let
'sgosl
eepnow.
Weal
lwentupst
air
sandsl
ept
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandcomment
s
Appr
eci
atey
oursuppor
tfel
l
owMat
es
[
1/11,
00:
25]Tat
enda:
Inser
t24
Wewokeupi nthemor ningandZandyandNceba
prepar
edbreakf
astwhileIwenttoshower
.Aft
era
fewminut
esPhilajoi
nedmei ntheshower
Phi
l
a:Mor
ningSt
arshi
ne
Me:
Mor
ningNgcobo
Hekissedmyli
psandkeptonsqueezi
ngmy
boobs wemadel oveint
heshowerandi
twas
magical
.Af
teranhourwewerebothdoneandhe
l
oti
onedmybody ,
Ilot
ionedhi
s
Iwor
ekhaki
shor
t(Phi
l
a's)andabl
ackv
est
Phi
la:
youlookgoodonmyshor
tshey wonder
howI'
dlookonyours
Me:don'
tevent
hinkabouti
t andthanky
ou
ver
ymuch .Ikissedhi
scheekandwent
downst
air
s
Me:
Mor ni
ngguy
s,asIt
ookapl
ateanddi
shedup
f
ormyself
Theyal
lgreet
edbackandweat
einsi
l
encet
hen
DannyandPhil
acame
Danny
:someonedi
ed?
Zee:
noy
ou'
rel
atef
orbr
eakf
astasal
way
s
Phi
la:
Ididn'
tknowwehadaspeci
fi
cti
mef
or
br
eakfast
Me:
justsi
tandeat
Danny
:wi
thdeadpeopl
e
Jabu:I'
ml eavi
ngnow.Ihavetobethereat8am
str
aight.
Hopefull
yi'
l
lbecomingbackwi t
hthedrug
andI'l
lgetthebossesname.Aft
erhelpi
ngyouguys
I'
m done.
Bonga:
whatdoy
oumeany
ou'
redone?
Jabu:
I'
ll
hustle,
payNkinga'
smoneyt
henI
'
m done
wit
heveryt
hing,donewit
hli
fe
At
hi:
you'
rev
erysui
cidal
Jabu:
Ihav
enot
hingmor
etol
i
fe
Kamo:howaboutyoudot
hisf
orusandwegivey
ou
moneytopayNki
ngaandmoneytost
artal
lov
er
Jabu:Idon'
taccepthandout
smam.Ibel
i
evei
n
worki
nghardformoney .
Ly
anda:basi
cal
l
yyou'
reworki
ngforusnowsowe' l
l
gi
veyoumoneytopayNki
ngathenyou'
llst
artaf
resh
wi
thnodebts
Jabu:
I'
ll
thi
nkabouti
t
Mpho:
howdoy
oupl
ant
ogett
ogett
hedr
ug?
Jabu:
idon'
tknowbutI
'
llgeti
t.
Het
henst
oodupandl
eftwal
ki
ngpr
oper
ly
Zandy
:andy
ourl
eg?
Jabu:
Iwon'
tl
et3bul
l
etscr
ippl
eme.
Bonga:
thi
sdude
Hegotoutt
hedoorandIpackedt
hedi
shest
hen
Nt
okozoandIwashedthem
Me:
youl
ookgoodt
oday
Ntokozo:
Idecidedt
ojustdol
lupev
ent
houghI
'
llbe
i
nher eal
lday
Nay
ecamei
nwi
thEmi
hlecr
ying
Me:
what
'swr
ongbabygi
rl
?
Emi
:mommywant
smet
ogot
oschool
Mpho:y
ou'
l
lgonextweekEmi
,l
et'
sgogetsomei
ce
cr
eam
Nay
e:Butshe
Thabo:Younotgoi
ngtoworktooNaye, whenweal
l
gonextweekshe'l
lgot
oschooltoo,
rightEmi?
Emi
:Yes!
!
Wealll
aughedandt
heylef
ttheki
tchen.Wecl
eaned
upandwenttothel
ounge
Nkosi
:I'
m wor
ri
ed,
whati
fhedoesn'
tgett
hedr
ug
Phi
l
a:Thenwe'
l
lfi
ndanot
herwayt
ogeti
t.
Nkosi
:wehav
etof
indi
t.
Lubah:
don'
twor
ry,
we'
l
lgeti
tman
Athi
:l
et'
swatchamov ieandBel
inda,
Kamo,
Siy
a
andEmihlecan'
tchooseamovie
Me:
why
!
Bel
i
nda:
youguy
sar
esounf
airni
yandi
qhel
a
Weal
ll
aughedather
Bee:
wher
edi
dyoul
ear
nthatf
rom
Sneh:
ithast
obeZandy
Zandy:
I'
m nott
heonl
ythatsay
sthat wehav
e
babi
esherenowsomindyourl
anguage
Danny
:ther
e'sEmi
hleher
esowhyy
ousay
ingbabi
es
Nay
e:t
hepr
egnantmammi
es
Kamo:
Idon'
twantmychi
l
dswear
ing
Thabo:
Idon'
tthi
nkhe/
shecanhear
Me:
it'
saShe
Kamo:
howdoy
ouknow?
Me:I'
mjustguessi
ngandBel
i
nda,
you'
recar
ryi
nga
boy
Zee:l
et'
smakeabet ,R5000.Allt
hosewhosay
Kamoi scar
ryi
ngagi r
lhandsup.Weputourhands
up,I
twasBonga, Danny,
Mpho,Kamo, Thapel
o,Nkosi
,
NtokozoandI.Therestsai
dit'
saboy
Zee:
AllthosewhosayBeli
ndaiscar
ryi
ngaboy
:
Zee,
Nkosi,
Bonga,
Me,Nay
e,Zandy,
NcebaandMpho.
Therestsai
dit
sagirl
Lubah:
Sohowwi
l
lthi
sbetwor
k
Zee:weal l
putt
ingR5000,ifBeli
ndagi
vesbirt
ht oa
boy,thewinni
ngteam getshalfoft
hemoney .I
f
Kamogi vesbi
rthtoagirl
,thewinni
ngteam getsthe
otherhal
f.
Zandy
:Vi
cev
ersa.
Me:
wewi
l
lwi
n
Mpho:
yeahSi
ya
Thabo:
Kamoy
ou'
renotgoi
ngt
owor
koncey
ou'
re
6mont
hspr
egnant
Lubah:
sameappl
i
est
oBel
i
nda
Ly
anda:
say
stheol
dGr
andpa'
s
Nay
e:y
oust
il
lhav
etopayf
orBel
i
ndaandKamo
Nceba:
Doubl
e,t
hef
ami
l
yandus
Athi
:yhunev
er,whydoguyshav
etopay
.Yougi
rl
s
shoul
dbepayingforusman
Athithough,wecont
inuedar
guingabout
thelobol
aissueandpay i
ngfordamages.Athi
's
reasonwasbecauset heygi
vethesperm sothey
shouldbepaidf ori
t.
Nkosi
:Andt
hemov
ie?
?Itwi
l
lbet
hef
ir
stmov
iei
watch
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
vewat
chedmanymov
iesman
Nkosi
:butIdon'
trememberany
Thapel
o:l
et'
swat
chFocus
Weall
agreedandwat
chedi
t,hal
fwayt
hrought
he
mov
ieJabucameback
Ly
anda:
Goti
t?
Weal
ll
ookedathi
m cr
ossi
ngf
inger
s
Jabu:YesIgot3bot
tles.Idi
dn'
tknowhowmany
you'
dneedsoIjusttookall3
At
hi:
theyar
eenough.Thanky
ou
Hetookt
hem outandt
heywer
esmal
lbot
tl
es I
t
houghti
tssomethi
ngbi
g.
Zandy
:howdi
dyougeti
t
Jabu:
that
'sf
orl
ater
Zee:
Iwannaknow
Mpho:
met
oo
Jabu:
Isleptwit
hher,t
hat
'st
heonlyl
anguageshe
under
stands.Whil
eshewasshoweri
ng,It
ookthem
andputthem i
nmybag.Theresti
sHist
ory
Danny
: i
li
key
ou!You'
readogman!
Phi
l
a:y
oucansayt
hatagai
n
Nay
e:sohowwi
l
lthi
swor
k
Bee:
he'
l
lbei
nject
edwe'
l
lwai
tfori
ttowor
kand
br
ingbackhismemeor y
.Theremightbesomeside
ef
fectsanditmi
ghttaketi
mef ori
ttowork.He
mightevendiei
fhi
sbrainsandbodyreactst
othe
dr
ug.
At
hi:hemightbeunconsci
ousf
orsomet
imebut
maybe12hours
Bel
i
nda:
whenwi
l
lyoubedoi
ngt
his?
Nkosi
:Toni
ght
Sneh:
Arey
ousur
e?Whynott
omor
row
Nkosi
:thesooner
,thebet
ter
.Ihav
ethi
ngst
otake
car
eoff.
Bonga:myman!Thesei
diot
swi
l
lpay
.Di
dyouget
thebossesname
Jabu:No,Nki
ngadoesn'
tsaywhat'
shi
srealname.
Hejustsai
di shoul
dcal
lhi
m BossGsomaybehis
namestartswithaG
Phi
l
a:y
ouraccountnumber
?
Jabugavehi
m andPhi
l
atr
ansf
err
edmoneyt
ohi
s
account
.
Jabu:
noIcan'
ttakesomuchmoney
Ly
anda:
youdeser
vei
t
Jabu:
2mi
l
li
on!Noi
tst
oomuch
Zandy
:br
ingi
ther
eIneedi
t
Ntokozo:
Zandil
e!Idon'
tknowwhyy
ouneedmoney
.
Yougotar ai
seandapromoti
on!
Zandy:
yohifor
gotphelaIhav
en'
tev
enbeent
owor
k
forawhil
esoit
ssti
llf
resh
Sneh:TakethemoneyJabul
ani
,payNki
ngaand
rebui
l
dy ourl
if
e.
Me:
Nogambl
i
ng,
usei
twi
sel
y.
Jabu:
whyar
eyousoki
ndt
ome
Kamo:
Peopl
edeser
vesecondchances.
Nceba:
sor
ryf
orshoot
ingy
ou
Jabu:
Ishoul
dbet
hanki
ngy
ou,
itchangedmyl
i
fe
Weall
laughedandcont
inuedt
alki
ngwhil
eAt
hi
cal
l
edthehospi
talt
opreparef
ortoni
ght
.
Zee:
Magent
saf
teral
loft
hisi
sov
er.Weneedt
o
par
ty!
!!Weneedt
ogetdown
Zandy
:nowy
our
etal
ki
ng
Nkosi
:whenwi
l
l9mont
hsbeov
er,
Emi
hleget
sbor
ed
wit
hus.
Naye:
plusanotheryearandsomemonthssot
hey
canwalk.
You'
regoingtobeabigsi
sterEmi
Emi
:Iwi
l
lcar
rybabi
esandpl
aywi
tht
hem
Danny
:yesmyAngel
.Ar
eyouhungr
y?
Bel
i
nda:
Yes
Danny
:noty
ouman.
Emi
:yeswear
ehungr
y
Danny
:comel
etsor
derpi
zza
Nay
e:y
ouguy
sspoi
lEmi
hle
Bonga:i
tsouronl
ybabyf
ornowsowehaveto.We
workhardsoshecanhav
eever
ythi
ngshewantsand
needs
Nceba:
Thapel
oandIar
eal
sobabi
es
Bee:
dream on
Weal
llaughed,
Dannyor
der
edpi
zzaandSpurr
ibs
f
orev
eryone.
Me:Ihopeyouor
der
edal
otsi
ncewehav
epeopl
e
eat
ingf
or2
Danny
:we'
recov
ered
Sneh:
arey
our
eadyt
obef
ather
s?
Thabo:Honestl
y,I
'm scaredbutI'
mr eadyandI'
l
ldo
mybest .Bei
ngafatherissomethingIvealway
s
wantedbutIdidn'
texpectitr
ightnow.IthankGod
I
'm successf
ulandI'
llbeabletoprovideformy
famil
y
Lubah:
Yousai
dital
lman.We'
regoi
ngt
obef
ather
s.

Thabo:I'
l
lbepay
ingl
obol
anextmont
hont
he29t
h.
I
'vetal
kedtomyuncl
es.
Kamo:
What
!!
Thabo:Mar
rymeKamogelang.Hewentdownon
onekneeandhadaboxinhishand.Heopenedi
t
anditwasabeaut
if
uldi
amondr i
ng.
Kamo:Thabo ThaboIlov
ey ou .Kamowas
cr
yingnotbel
i
evi
ngev
ery
thing.Shegaveherhandt
o
Thabo
Kamo:
YesIwi
l
l.I
'
llmar
ryy
ou(gi
ggl
es)
Me:
ncooooht
hisi
ssocut
e
Thaboputontheri
ngandhuggedherpicki
ngherup
andspi
nningherar
oundthent
heykiss
Zandystart
sulul
ati
ng andweal
ldosoev
en
thoughIcan'
t.I
'mjustscr
eaming
Bee:
Congr
atul
ati
onsguy
saaaht
houi
scut
e
Weallcongrat
ulat
ed,
thenhuggedt
hem andthe
boysfi
stbumped Idon' tknowwhyboysdon'
thug
eachother
Me:
whydon'
tyouhugeachot
her
?
Mpho:
who?
Me:
Youguy
s
Lubah:
that
'snothappeni
ng
Sneh:
why
?
Phil
a:I
tsi
nappropr
iat
emanandi t
sjustwei
rd.We
fi
stbump,shakehandsandshoul
derbumpqha
At
hi:
itsdi
gust
ingandgay
,Nkosi
getr
eadywe'
l
lbe
l
eavi
ngintwohours.
Nay
ewentt
ohi
m andIf
oll
owedsoIcanhel
p
Me: i
'
llpackhi
sbagwhileyouhelphi
m bath.SeeI
thi
nkNay ehasseenNkosinaked shehel pshim
outofhisclot
hesandhelphimintot
hebathtubli
ke
surel
yshehasseen.Buti'
ll
askherwhenweal one.
Shecameoutoft hebat
hroom andIlookedather
Nay
e:(
giggl
es)what
?
Me:
Not
hing
Nay
e:r
eal
l
ynow?Iknowy
ouwantt
osaysomet
hing.
Me:
okayhav
eyouseenhi
s?Youknow?
Nay
elaughedl
oud
Me:
answermeman
Naye:
yesIhaveacci
dent
all
yIwal
kedi
nwhi
l
sthe
wassti
ll
naked.
Me:
Ithoughty
oudr
esshi
m upandal
l
Naye:
hecanusehishandsSiy
asoIdon'
tneedt
odo
t
hatIjusthel
phi
m geti
ntot
hebat
htub
Me:
ain'
thenakedwhenheget
sin?
Nay e:no!Andthi
sconversati
onisover
.Her et
ake
theset r
acksui
tsandhistoi
let
ri
esinthelastdr
awer
ony ourlef
t.I'
l
lgotakefr
eshtowels
Me:
Youknowev
ery
thi
ngar
oundher
e
Naye:Ihavetoandshelefttheroom.Ipacked
everyt
hingshesai
dIshouldpackandIhear da
sound.Shit
!Seemsli
keNkosi isfal
l
ingandhe
groanedalit
tl
e.WhatshouldIdo butI'
m not
getti
nginther
e.SoIrusheddownstair
sandwentt o
Naye
Me:
heneedsy
ourhel
pit
hinkhef
ell
Nay
e:no!
Werushedupstai
rsandgoti
ntot
hebat hr
oom lucki
l
y
hewasdressedalready wepickedhim upand
damnheisheav y
!!
Naye:Nkosi
whatwer
eyoudoi
ng!Youcoul
d'
vehur
t
your
self
!
Nkosi
:i
mfi
ne
Nay
e:(
sni
ff
s)Noy
ou'
renotNkosi
Ideci
dedt
ost
epoutandl
i
stenf
rom t
her
oom
Nkosi
:Iwant
edtodoi
tonmyownNay
e,Ican'
thav
e
youdoi
ngevery
thi
ngf
orme
Nay
e:I
'
m her
etohel
pyou
Nkosi
:Why
!Whyar
eyoudoi
ngal
lthi
s?!
Nay
e:BecauseIcar
e!
Thiswasget
ti
ngser
ioussoIdeci
dedt
otakeNkosi
'
s
bagsandgodownstai
rs
Phi
l
a:ev
ery
thi
ngokayupt
her
e?
Danny
:yeahwhat
'
swi
tht
heshout
ing
Me:
theyar
ehav
ingacut
esadf
ight
Ly
anda:
howi
sitcut
e?
Me:
causei
twascut
etowat
cht
hem al
lemot
ional
Zandy
:Yi
zanazo!
Bee:
Nondaba!
Me:Nkosit
ri
edt
ogethimsel
fint
othewheel
chai
rbut
hef
ellandal
mosthur
thi
mselfsoNayeandIhel
ped
hi
mt henNayeaskedwhyhedi dthatcausehe'dhur
t
hi
mselfandthentheystar
tedar
guing.Nkosiasked
whyshe'sdoi
ngallthi
sandNayesaidbecauseshe
car
esandIleft
Mpho:nev
erl
eav
ewhent
hedr
amai
sjustaboutt
o
st
artman
Kamo:
whatdoy
out
hinki
shappeni
ng
Thapel
o:l
et'
sgof
indout
.
Weal l
creepedupstai
rsandwhenwewereaboutt
o
gettotheroom theyj
ustcameout! andweall
walkedseparat
eway spushi
ngeachot
her
Nkosi
:what
'sgoi
ngonher
e
Nt
okozo:
Not
hing!
At
hi:
wewer
elooki
ngf
orsomet
hing
Nay
e:What
?
Ly
anda:
somet
hingsmal
l
Theygav
eusaconf
usedl
ook
Nceba:
Anear
ing
Danny
:yeaht
hat
!
Nay
e:l
ameexcuse
Sneh:okayf
inewejustwantedt
oseewhat'
s
happeni
ngsincey
ou'vebeeninher
eforawhi
le
Zandy
:li
keaheat
edmomenty
aboh
Weal
ll
aughedandwentdownst
air
s.
Me:
wher
eisJabu?
Bee:Hel
eftaf
ewmi
nut
esago,
goi
ngt
opayNki
nga
Athi
:l
et'
sgetgoi
ngguy
swehav
eal
ongni
ghtahead
ofus
Lubah:
pregnantl
adi
esst
aybehi
nd
Kamo:butwe'
rej
ustaf
ewweeksandi
thasn'
treal
l
y
shown
Thabo:
so?
Bel
i
nda:
sowecango.Wecan'
tbest
uckher
e.
Lubah:
finej
ustf
ort
oni
ght
.
Weal
llef
t,wef
irstdr
oppedEmihleatNaye'
swit
h
t
henannyandheadedtothehospit
al.Wewentt
o
ourdesi
gnat
edwai
ti
ngr
oom.
Athi
:Nkosi
,i
tsti
me.BeeandZeewe'
l
lhi
ghl
y
appr
eciat
eyourassi
stance.
Theyalll
eftandwesatt
her
e.Ihat
esi
tt
ingand
wait
ing.I
tmakesmenervous
Me:
howl
ongdoy
out
hinki
twi
l
ltake?
Sneh:
may
be4hour
s
Thapel
o:l
et'
spl
aycar
dsj
ustf
ort
het
imebei
ng
Nceba:
crazy8!
Weput3packsofcar
d'st
oget
herandst
art
edpl
ayi
ng
Mpho:
Zandyy
ou'
recheat
ing!
Zandy
:whatdi
dIdo!
Bonga:
theyexchangi
ngcar
dswi
thSneh
Sneh:
Ican'
tpl
ayt
hisgamesoshe'
shel
ping
Wepl
ayedmanygamesandcasi
nowast
hebest
ThoughIcan'
tev
enpl
ayi
tpr
oper
ly
Naye:
I'
m st
art
ingt
ogetwor
ri
ed5hour
shav
epassed
now
Ly
anda:
let
'sbepat
ient
Me:
wai
ti
ngmakesmener
vous
Phil
a:rememberinhi
ghschoolwhenwewouldbe
gett
ingourmarksandyouwereatthebot
tom oft
he
l
istandyou'
dwannapeeony oursel
f.
Me:
orwhenI
'
m doi
nganunpr
epar
edspeech!
Bonga:
thosewer
ethewor
st.Ihat
edEngl
i
shso
much!
Nt
okozo:
Engl
i
shnev
erl
ovedusman
Lyanda:Li
feSci
encesman!
!! Iusedt
ofal
l
asleepal
lthet
ime!
Me:Usaccount
ingst
udent
s hadnot
hingt
o
compl
ainabout
Beli
nda:Geography
!Ididn'
tevenknowwhatgoeson
ther
e.Ingrade12Istoppedthatnonsense
At
hiwal
kedi
naf
teraf
ewmi
nut
es
Nay
e:howi
she?
At
hi:
wel
osthi
m
Nay
ecr
iedandt
hrewher
sel
font
hef
loor
At
hi:
noI
'
mjoki
ng!
!!
Nay
e:don'
tj
okel
i
ket
hatman!
!!
Kamo:
nowhatt
hehel
l
!!
Bel
i
nda:
sohowi
shel
i
kef
orr
eal
?
At
hi:
hei
sst
il
lunconsci
ousbutev
ery
thi
ngwentwel
l
.
Bonga:
whendoy
out
hinkhe'
l
lwakeup?
At
hi:
inaf
ewhour
smay
be
Me:
thankgodhey
Weal lsatdownandt al
kedaboutt
hingsfrom t
he
past.Nomat terhowmanyt i
meswe' v
espoken
aboutthistherearenewstor
iesal
ltheti
me
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easel
i
keandSuppor
t
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enda:
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Wesl eptatthehospi t
alandNkosi wasn'tawakeas
yet.Thismor ningwewentt oseehi m andthe
doctorssaidhei sokaywej ustneedt owaitforhim
towakeupt houghit'
sunusual t
hathehasn' twoken
upbutwehav etopraythathewi l
lbeokay.We' re
aboutt ogobackt oNkosi '
shouseandwewi l
lwait
thereifther
ear eanychangeswe' llbecontacted,
Athi,
Sneh,BeeandNay ewereleftbehind.
Bonga:
what
'
sBabal
wa'
sfav
ori
tef
ood
Me:
Burgers,
youcanbuyheral
lfancyf
oodbut
t
hey
'l
lneverr
epl
aceBurger
s.
Bonga:
chocol
ate?
Me:
Any
thi
ngwi
thnut
s
Bonga:
musi
c?
Nceba:
bor
ingol
dschool
,j
azz,cl
assi
cal
andl
ove
songs andshelov
esaguit
ar
Me:
whyar
eyouaski
ng
Bonga:
we'
l
ltal
klat
er
Zandy
:Ial
sowantt
obepar
toft
heconv
ersat
ion
Kamo:
ther
ear
ethr
eecar
sfol
l
owi
ngus!
!
Danny
:wher
e?Andhowdoy
ouknow
Kamo:youaskt
oomanyquest
ionsandIknow!Dr
ive
Mpho!
Phi
la:
yourphonei
sri
ngi
ngSiya,i
twasanunknown
numbersoIputi
tonl
oudspeaker
Cal
ler
:Ican'
tspeakf
orlongbutj
ustl
oosethem and
gosomewhereelsenotNkosi
'
s!Andthecal
lended
Bel
i
nda:
itsJabu
Ly
anda:
heal
sot
ri
edt
ocal
lme
Mphodrov
efastandwetookat
urnandl
eft
.Idon'
t
knowwherewe'
reheadi
ngto
Aft
er2hourswegott
othishugeandtal
lbui
l
dingI
l
ookedaroundt
henei
ghborhoodt
herewereno
houses
Kamo:
wher
ear
ewe?Thi
spl
acel
ooksscar
y
Lubah:
wear
einPar
adi
se
Bel
inda:Thi
spl
acei
sPar
adi
se? y
ou'
vegott
obe
ki
dding
Phi
l
a:wai
tunt
ily
ougeti
nsi
de
Zandy
:whatar
ewest
il
lwai
ti
ngf
or
Thabo:hehyazZandi
le,
onedayi
soneday! what
i
ny ougetint
hereandwehavepeopl
ewhowi
ll
kil
l
you
Zandy:I
'
llcr
osst
hatbri
dgewheni
tcomes
fornowIwannaseeparadi
se.
Mpho: you'
rejustsuchacharacter you'
re
fear
less,outgoing,spont
aneous,l
oudandbubbl
y!
You'
rejustamazi ng howdoy oudoit?
Zandy
: i
mjustme.
Danny
:indeedyouarey
ou.Ther
e'l
lnev
erbe
someonelikeZandi
l
e
Zandy
:ar
ewegoi
ngt
ost
andher
eandt
alkaboutme
orweget
ti
ngi
n?
Nceba:
let
'sgoi
nI'
mti
redofwai
ti
ng
Me:
thandai
zi
nto
Thegat
esopenedandi
twasi
ndeed
PARADI
SE! i
twasahugemansi
on!Doubl
e
mansionnowaitamansionplushot
el! it
s
beaut
iful
withwat
erfount
ainsandsmallponds.The
beaut
iful
greengr
assandgarden itsmagical
Bel
i
nda:
I'
m mov
ingi
nher
eLubah
Zandy
:im wi
thy
ouont
hatonekedear
Bonga:
youhav
en'
tseent
hei
nsi
de
Weallr
ant
othemaindoorandghar
ditwas
gl
ass itl
ooksl
i
keadinningar
eaofsomesor
t
Ntokozo:
nev
erhav
eIev
erseensuchbeaut
yinj
ust
5mins
Kamo:
tel
lmeabouti
t,nowai
tI'
mlost
!
Me:
wher
eist
heki
tchenapha
Thapel
o:t
her
eisamapnextt
oyou
Zandy:yoh!Thi
shousehasamap Iknowi
m
notthatsmartandst
uffbuty
ohf
ori
Mapi
nahouse!
Thi
si sthefi
rst
Me:
ayNam ndy
ayi
qhal
agi
rl
Bel
i
nda:
(r
eadi
ngt
hemap)Okaynowwe'
rei
nthe
dinni
ngareaokayweent
eredonthewrongdoorbut
that'
sfi
necausewehavetowal
kstrai
ghtandtake
l
ef tt
henwe'l
lbeatt
hemainent
rance
Nceba:
Wher
ear
etheguy
s?
Zee:
theysai
dsomet
hingaboutgamer
oom andr
an.
Thapel
o:si
ncetheyknowthi
smassi
vepl
acet
hey
deci
detojustl
eaveusher
e
Bel
inda:
gamer
oom i
sont
he5t
hfl
ooront
he3r
d
door.
Kamo:
I'
m notusi
ngt
hest
air
s
Nceba:
that
'swhyt
her
e'sal
i
ft.It
hinkt
hisi
sahot
el
Dannycameoutofnowher
e!
Danny:ourper
sonalhot
el.HewenttoZeeand
ki
ssedher.Thesetwoneverreal
l
yexplai
nedwhat'
s
goingonbetweenthem butt
heydidsaytheyar
e
tr
yingi
toutsoIguesstheyaredati
ng.
Zee:
wher
ear
etheot
her
s?
Danny
:comelet
sgot ot
hel
ounge.Wet
ookal
i
ftand
i
twasonethe4thf
loor
Zandy
:whyi
sthel
oungesof
arf
rom t
heki
tchen
Danny
:dependswhi
chki
tcheny
ou'
ret
alki
ngabout
Me:
sot
her
ear
emanyki
tchens
Nceba:
duuh
Thapel
o:It
oldy
out
ost
opbei
ngr
oodKazi
e
Nceba:
Sor
rySi
ya
Me:Thanky
ouThapel
oyazy
ou'
vehel
pedt
hisbr
at
gr
owup
Thapel
o:andshe'
snotabr
at,
she'
sNcebakazi
Wealll
aughed,
Thapsi
sbossy andl
i
kes
di
sci
pli
ne
Wegott
ot heloungeandthegentswer
esitt
ing
downal
ready,
Iwenttositnextt
omyPhi l
a.
Lubah:
sothi
siswher
ewe'
l
lbest
ayi
ngf
ort
henext
fewweeks
Zee:
howmanyweeksexact
ly
Phi
l
a:2/
3depends
Kamo:
onwhat
?Wehav
ewor
ktodo
Zandy
:yeahIcan'
tbeof
fforsol
ong
Bonga:
you'l
lbewor ki
ngfr
om her
e.Ever
ythi
ngis
sort
edwit
hy ourbossesandy
ouhav epeopl
einfor
you.
Bel
i
nda:
whyar
eweher
e?
Nceba:
whataboutschool
?
Lyanda:Ev
ery
thi
ngi
sokayandsor
tedaty
our
schools
Me:
whendi
dyougett
imet
odoal
lthi
s
Danny
:itdi
dn'
ttaket
hatl
ong.Wehav
econnect
ions
Bel
i
nda:
youdi
dn'
tanswermyquest
ion
Lubah:ourli
vesar
eindangarbabe.Theothersare
ontheirwayback,Nkosi
isal
socomi ng,
he'l
lbe
tr
eatedfrom homeoncehewakesup.Jabuwi ll
also
beheresoon.
Nt
okozo:
wher
eist
hispl
acev
ele
Mpho:
Par
adi
se
Me:
real
l
ynow
Phil
a:y
ouguy sdon'
tneedt
oknow.Imaginethi
sasa
worki
ngvacati
on.Wehavetodeal
withthesepeopl
e
onceandforall
!
Bonga: Oncet heot hersar ri
v ewor kbegi ns.Zandy ,
Sneh,Kamoy ou'rewor kingt here,asthei nvestigati
on
team (itwasapl acewi that housandcomput er's
andsomemechani smsIdon' tevenknow.I ,Phila
andLubahar ei nthesecur i
tydepar t
ment .
Danny ,
Mpho, Thapel oandThaboar et akingcarof
thebombsandchemi cals.Zee, Bee,At hiandNay e
aretheNkosi departmentandanyot hermedi cal
sit
uations.Zeewi l
lalsohel pwi ththei nvestigation
team.Ly anda, Siy
a, Beli
ndaandNt okozo, y
ou'reat
theGuns, costumesandsaf etyout f
itset c
department.Buti fweneedhel pthereandt herewe
will
assistoneoneanot her.
Nceba:
andme?
Bonga:you'
l
lbeaprett
yfaceandhel
pwher
eyoucan.
Let
'ssaybabysi
tt
ingEmihl
e.
Nceba:
oht
hat
'
sgr
eat
Mpho:
youl
azyNceba
Thapel
o:y
oucansayt
hatagai
n
Theot
her
sar
ri
vedandwewentt
othem
Sneh:
!!
!Yooooh di
dyouguy
sseet
hispl
ace!
!!
Yey!
!Fl
amesboh
Bee:i
ndeedi
tisf
lameswenamyf
ri
end Il
ove
thegar
den
Nay
e:Ihopet
hef
ri
dgei
sful
lcauseI
'
m hungr
y
At
hi:
eatandf
reshenupwehav
eal
otofwor
ktodo
Bee:
aren'
tweonav
acat
ion?
Ly
anda:
thi
nkofi
tasawor
kingv
acat
ion
Wewentbackt
othel
oungeandIsatont
opofPhi
l
a
Me:
Imi
ssy
ou
Phi
l
a:butI
'
mri
ghther
ebabe
Me:
yeahIknowbutImi
ssy
ou,
all
ofy
ou
Phi
l
a: mmmhr eal
l
y?Wellwhydon'
tyoushow
mehowmuchy
ou'
vemissedme
Me:
fol
l
owme
Hest
oodupandf
oll
owedme
Me:okayIt
hinkIshoul
dfol
lowyoucauseIdon'
t
ev
enknowt hewaytoanyroom
Phi
l
a: wahsi
ya!Okaycome
Wewentt osomer oom anditwasamazingwith
suchaKingsizebedandi t
scr èmeandwhitet
heme
i
tsjustbeaut
iful
.Hest ar
tedkissingmeandIkissed
hi
m back t heki ssgotinstenseandhetookallof
myclothesoffandl ai
dmeont hebed
Me:It
houghtIwast
heonewhoi
ssupposedt
o
showyouhowImissyou
Phi
la:
thi
ngshavechanged si
nceIl
edt
heway
her
e,I
'mincont
rol
.
Me:
Yessi
r
After2hour
sofpassionatelov
ingmaki ngsessi
on
wet ookashowertogetherandfreshenedup.We
thenwenttothesecondf l
oorwhereev er
yonewas
chil
li
ng.
Kamo:
itsaboutt
ime
Danny
:onl
yanhourl
eftt
il
lwegett
owor
k
Me:
how'
sNkosi
?
Naye:heisokayIguess,
justhasn'
twokenupand
I
'm st
art
ingtoworry
Zee:don'
thav
etowor
ryNay
ehei
sgoi
ngt
owakeup
soon.
Theywerewat
chi
ngAddict
edi
satdownnextt
o
SnehandMphothenat
eMpho'
spopcor
n
Mpho:
Isai
dni
xmaphasogogety
ourown
Me:whenl
astdi
dIheart
hat awumapha
Mpho
Mpho:i
don'
twantt
o! i
tsmypopcor
ngogety
our
own.
Me:I'
m notdoi
ngt
hatI
'
llshar
ewi
thy
ou.Shar
ingi
s
car
ingMpho
Sneh:
youguy
sar
eidi
otsandy
ouar
edi
stur
bingme
Bonga:
it'
snotl
i
key
oudon'
tknowt
hismov
ie
Me:
whyar
ewewat
chi
ngi
tvel
e
Thabo:
KamoandBel
i
ndacr
iedf
ori
t andwecan'
t
sayno
Zandy:
excuseme,
shest
oodupandl
eft
,herey
es
weregl
assy
Me:
Mphol
et'
sgot
oher
Westoodupandfol
l
owedher
.Shewas
cr
ying Zandi
l
eZungunev
ercr
ies!
Mpho:
Zandywhat
'
swr
ong?
Wesatnextt
oherandMphohel
dherandshecr
ied
outl
oudl
y.
Thishasnev erhappenedbef or
e,I'
veneverseenher
cry,shedoesn'tcr
y.What everi
tisthat
'sgoi
ngon
mustr eal
lyhavehurther.IhopeitsnotMphocause
I'
l
lkillhi
m!
Zandy
:todayi
sthe26t
hofNov
emberr
ight
?
Me:
Yes
Zandy:doesi
tri
ngabel
l
?Mphowhendi
dyou
escapethear
my ?
Mphol
ookeddownandhel
dhi
shead.I
tst
heday
Zandygotr
aped
Zandy:watchingthatmovieremi
ndedmeoft hat
moment .Thismor ni
ngIdidwakeupfeel
inguneasy,
keptonhav i
ngflashbacksofwhathadhappened
thatni
ght.I
'venevereverfor
gott
enthedateofthi
s
day
Me:
Zandy(sni
ff
s)don'
tyout
hinky
ouneedt
oseea
t
her
api
storsomethi
ng
Mpho:
itwi
l
lhel
pyouf
orgetandmov
eon
Zandy:I'
vemovedon,I'
vefor
givenbutIwil
lnever
forget
.I'
mfineIdon'
tneedatherapi
st.Ij
ustneedto
rest
Mpho:
come,
I'
ll
tucky
oui
n
Me:
I'
ll
gobackt
otheot
her
s
Iwentbackandsatdown
Sneh:
howi
sshe?
Me:
she'
sokay
Thapel
o:whywasshecr
ying?
Me:
Todayi
sthe26t
hofNov
ember
,thedayshegot
rapedandwat
chi
ngt
hismov
iemadeherr
emember
allt
hat
Kamo:ohgodi
tsmyf
aul
tIshoul
dn'
thav
ewant
ed
thi
smovi
e
Me:noitsnotyourf
aul
tandwedi
dn'
tknowi
t
happenedtoday.
Ther
ewasawkwar
dsi
l
enceandMphocameback
Mpho:it
sti
metoworkguysbutunf
ort
unat
ely
Zandi
l
ewon'tbej
oini
ngustoday
Phi
l
a:i
tscool
weunder
stand.
Bonga:okay,Lyandatakeyourt
eam tothe
basementyou'l
l beworki
ngin.Wef ol
l
owedly
anda,
it
wasme, Lyanda, Bel
i
ndaandNt okozo
Wegott
othi
sol
danddust
yroom f
ull
ofcar
dboar
ds
Bel
i
nda:
don'
ttel
lmewe'
l
lbewor
kingi
nthi
spl
ace
Nt
okozo:
IknowIwon'
t
Lyanda:nowewon'tbeworki
ngher
eladi
es.Ther
e
wasahugemi rr
orandheremovedit
, ohitsa
secretdoor
.Heent
eredsomepinandpassword,
and
scanandf
inger
pri
nts y
hut
hisi
staki
ngl
ong.
Ntokozo:
yhusomanyt
hingst
odoj
ustbef
orey
ou
openadoor.
Ly
anda:
itsnotj
ustanydoorbabe.Justwai
tandsee.
Heopenedandgotint
henwef ol
lowedbehi
nd.I
t
wasabigroom f
ull
ofguns!Il
ovegunssosomuch
I
'dhav
emanybutnotsomuch
Bel
i
nda:
whatdoy
oudowi
thsomanyguns
Ly
anda:
theyar
eforemer
genci
es.
Nt
okozo:
sowhatar
ewegoi
ngt
odonow?
Lyanda:t
here'
sf oodinthef
ridge,t
akeyourl
eftther
e
i
tsami niki
tchen.Thenwe'l
lsithereal
ldayi
nf i
l
l
eachandev erygunwithbul
lets.Theyar
eall
empt y
Me:
woahwai
t!Howmanygunsar
einher
e?
Ly
anda:
about6t
housand
Ntokozo:Iqui
t!Shewalkedtothekit
chenandcame
backwith5boxesofPizza,dr
inks,
chipsand
l
unchbars.
Bel
i
nda:
mmmhIwon'
tev
enaskwher
eyougot
t
hosebutbr
ingi
ther
eI'
m hungr
y.
WesatdownandIputabasketofgunsnextt
oome
andfoodont
heot
herside I '
l
lmultit
ask Ican
doital
l!
Lyanda:y
ou'l
lbesobi
gBel
i
nda Icantev
en
i
magi neyoual
lbl
oat
ed
Beli
nda:thankyouLy
anda nxxy
azI
'
mtr
yingt
o
eatpeacefull
y
Ly
anda:
sor
rybuti
tst
rue
Me:
tol
dmommyy
et?
Bel
i
nda:
no
Nt
okozo:
why
?
Belinda:Shewon'tbehappyf orme.Growingupwas
hardandi twasmymot her,
meand2y ounger
brothers.Thel
astonepassedaway .Myfatherdi
ed
whenIwasbor nandt hefat
herofmyt woy ounger
brothersisinj
ail
fortherestofhisli
fe.Hegot
arrestedwhenIwas17.Thi ngswer ehardathome.
Mymom wasj ustadomest icworker.WhenIwasi n
varsit
y ,
Ihadtowor kandstudy.IgotajobatMcDee
andIsentmoneybackhome.Iwasheddi shesat
otherr
estaur antsandhel pedwher everIcoul djustt
o
earnextr
amoney .Inev ergotany t
hingonasi l
ver
plat
ter
.Iwor kedr eall
yhar d.Mom lostherj obsoI
hadtoqui tschool andwor kf
ull
time.Igotaj obat
somehot el t
henwor kedt hereti
llIgotaj obasSi ya'
s
PAandnowI 'm herpart ner.I
'
m abr eadwi nnerat
home.Tel l
ingmom I '
m pr egnantnowshe' llt
hinkmy
chil
dwillbeabur dent ous.SoI '
m pl anningt ogo
homewi thLubahandt hat '
swhenwe' l
ltellherabout
thebaby.
Lyanda:t
hat
'sagoodidea,
yourchi
l
dwillnev
erbea
burdenLi
nda,Lubahl
ovesyouandhe'
l
ltakecar
eof
thebothofyou.
Ntokozo:i
nfactal
lofyou,
andnowyouhav
eagr
eat
j
oby ou'
ll
beabletosendmoremoney
Me:
plust
her
aise
Beli
nda:
wewi
l
lbef
ir
edbef
oreweev
enenj
oyt
hat
rai
se
Ti
mewaspassi ngbyandIwasn'
tevenfi
nishedwit
h
myfi
rstbasket
,well
I'
m notal
onet
here.Lyandahas
donet
woal
ready Ican' tdzeal
.Iwentt
othel
oo
anddi
dmybusiness.Thencameback
Ntokozo:
yhuI
'
mti
rednow,
myf
eethur
tletmesi
t
down.
Weweresi
tt
ingonthecar
petfl
oor.Ly
andar
ecei
ved
acal
landwecont
inuedworki
ng.
Ly
anda:
stopev
ery
thi
ngl
et'
sgo
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Ly
anda:
itsNkosi
!Comeman!
Werushedoutoft
heroom andwentt
otheli
ftgoing
t
otheroom Nkosi
isi
n,ever
yonewasther
ealready
Bel
i
nda:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Kamo:
hewokeup
Me:oh Iwassoworr
ied.ThewayLy
andawas
act
ingi
twasl
i
kesomet
hingbadhashappened!
Nt
okozo:
unehabast
handwasam
Ly
anda:what
ever
Nkosi
openedhi
sey
esandt
hef
ir
stwor
dhesai
d
agai
nwasEmi
hle dej
avu!
Athi:hei
sokay
,ever
ythi
ngiswell
andaccordi
ngto
place.Nowwehavetowaitti
ll
hecangetbacktohi
s
feetandbeabl
etowalkagain.
Nkosi
:Ist
il
lcan'
twal
k?
Zee:
yes
Nkosi
:wher
eismypr
incess?
Nay
e:she'
sasl
eep
Phi
l
a:wel
comebackagai
nman!
Weall
laughedandcont
inuedt
alki
ngt
henJabu
wal
kedin
Jabu:theydon'twantmet oworkf
ort
hem anymor
e.
Nkingaisgett
ingsuspici
ousheknowssomethi
ngis
goingonbuthej ustcan'
tfi
gur
eoutwhati
tis.
Mpho:nowthisisapr
obl
em,
howwi
l
lweget
t
hroughthem now!
Bonga:
can'
tAmandadosomet
hingabouti
t?
Jabu:
that
'snott
heonl
ypr
obl
em wehav
e
Danny
:whatnow?
Jabu:
Iwentt
herethi
smor
ningandt
heywer
egone!
Theyl
eftt
hecount
ry.
Lubah:
what
!!Wher
ear
ethey
!!
Jabu:
Idon'
tknow
At
hi:
whatdoy
oumeany
oudon'
tknow
Jabu:Idon'
tknow!Icall
edAmandaandasked
wheretheyareshesaidtheyskippi
ngthecount
ry
andshecan'ttel
lmewher etheyaregoing
Kamo:
isn'
tAmandapr
egnant
?
Jabu:
sheabor
ted
Me:
yoh
Nt
okozo:
whatdowedoknow?
Sneh:
theyrui
ningourpl
ans.Wehavetot
rackt
hem,
fi
ndoutwheretheyareandwhydi
dtheyj
ustpack
upandleav
e.
Weallfoll
owedSnehandint
othebasementt
hey
wereworkingi
n.Shewasonhercomputer
connect
ingJabu'
sphone
Sneh:cal
l herandkeeptal
ki
ngt oherthenwhenIget
thelocat
iony ouendthecal
l.Puti
tonspeaker.Jabu
didashewast ol
dandwekeptqui et
Amanda:
heyl
overboy
Jabu:
heyImi
ssy
ou
Amanda:Imi
ssy
out
ooandI
'
m nott
heonl
yonet
hat
missesy
ou
Jabu:
reall
y?Youcoul
dbeplay
ingwi
thdaddynowi
f
youdi
dn'tl
eavemebehind
Amanda:
sor
rybutIhav
eto
Jabu:
wher
ear
eyougoi
ngv
ele?
Amanda:
Ican'
ttel
lyouj
ab.
.
Snehrai
sedherhandsi
gnal
i
ngt
hatshehast
hem
butshewasntdone
Therewassomeshuf
fl
ingandpeopl
etal
ki
ngont
he
backgr
ound
Guy:
Amanda!Didn'
tIt
ell
younotansweranycal
l
s!
Ourl
ivesar
eindanger
!
Amanda:
sor
ryNki
ngaIwasj
ustt
alki
ngt
oJabu!
Guy
2:Bast
ardi
str
aci
ngourl
ocat
ion!
!Youi
diot
!
Thecal
lended
Jabu:
fuckmycov
eri
sbl
own!
!!
Sneh:Il
ostt
hem!
!!
!Ican'
tgett
hei
r
l
ocati
on !
Kamo:
whyar
ethei
rli
vesi
ndanger
??

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easel
i
keandSuppor
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enda:
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t26

Wewereall
wonder
ingwhyt
hei
rli
vesar
eindanger
t
hanZandywal
ksin
Zandy: seemsasi fy
ouhav en'tdoney ourf
ull
resear
ch.Theyt hi
nkweknowwhot heyarewor king
for.Li
ket heircoveri
sbl own.Amandadoesn' tknow
whatshe' sget t
ingherselfi
nto,al
lshewant sistoget
backatPhi la.Nowwel aylowandl etthem thinkwe
notafterthem.Oncet heyarebacki nSAwhi chi sin
afewweeksormonth.Westri
ke.Weuseourpl anto
gettot
hem.Fornowenjoyy
ourv acat
ion.Shewalks
backupst
air
sbutBeest
opsher
Bee:
woahwai
thowdoy
ouknowal
lthi
s
Zandy
:Ihav
emyownway
s.Shewal
ksbackt
oher
room.
Bonga:
I'
venev
erseenherl
i
ket
hisbef
ore
Me:
let
'sj
ustgi
vehersomet
ime
Lubah:
may
beMphoy
oushoul
dgobewi
thher
Mpho:shesai
dshedoesn'
twantmet
her
e,she
want
stobealone
Me:Iknowwhatsheneeds,
Nkosi
ist
her
eapi
anoor
gui
terher
e?
Nkosi
:ihav
ebot
hbutIcan'
tpl
ayt
hepi
ano
Me:don'
tworryaboutit,
ican.Mphowor kongetti
ng
Zandyoutoft
hatroom towherethepianois.Phi
la
pl
easeorgani
zesomechocol at
esandr edroses.
We'l
lal
soneedabi gteddybearandoQwe
At
hi:
wher
ethehel
lwi
l
lwegett
hose?
Me:
you'
l
llookf
ort
hem
Kamo:
let
'sgetgoi
ng
Lubah:nonoyou'
repr
egnantsi
tdown.Youand
Beli
ndaaren'
tgoi
nganywher
e
Thabo:
Iagr
ee
Bel
i
nda:
wenotsi
ck,
we'
repr
egnant
Nkosi
:lett
hem go.Youdon'
twantthem t
ohateyou
t
hroughoutthi
senti
repr
egnancy
,causetrustme
t
heycan
Nay
e:whatdoy
ouknowaboutpr
egnancy
?
Nkosi
:al
otmor
ethany
out
hinkIknow
Theylef
tandIwasl
eftwit
hNtokozoSnehand
Bonga.Mphowentt
ot her
oom whereZandywas.
Bonga:
sowhatar
eyoupl
anni
ng
Me:Zandyhasalwayswant edmet opl
ayt
hepiano
andsi
ngforherbutIjustneverdoit
.SoIt
hinkt
oday
wil
lbeagreatdayformet ospoil
her.
Sneh:
andshel
ovesbei
ngspoi
l
t
Bonga:
gotthatr
ight nowwhatsongwi
l
lyou
si
ngforher
Ntoko:
singherf
avor
it
esong.Bey
once_Danger
ousl
y
I
nlove
Me:
that
'sagoodi
dea.Nowl
eav
eIwantt
orehear
se.
Theyleftandlucki
lytheroom issoundproofsot hey
won'tbeabletohearmef rom t
heout si
de.Aft
eran
hourIwentoutandt heyhav earri
ved.Wedecor ated
theroom withredrosesandIputoner edroseand
chocolateonthepianowi thasmallcardfrom Mpho.
Weputpi ll
owsont hefloorforustositandLyanda
carr
iedtheTVt othemusi croom sowecanwat cha
mov i
eaf t
ermysmal lperformance.
Me:
Gir
lsweshoul
dal
sosi
ngt
oget
herf
orher
Zee:
youknowIcan'
tsi
ng
Nt
oko:
doesn'
tmat
ter
,butwhatwi
l
lwesi
ngf
orher
.
Kamo:
Andr
aDay
_Ri
seup
Bel
i
nda:
goodi
dea
Bonga:
Idon'
tev
enknowanyoft
hosesongs
Danny
:whatwoul
dyouknowaboutt
hem v
eley
ou
andNkosi
aret
ypi
calZul
umen
Thabo:theyareverytr
adit
ional
.Li
keIam amant
hat
l
ov esandrespectsmyt r
adit
ionnheaybutt
hem,
theyonanotherlevel
man
Phi
l
a:i
tsui
tsthem t
hough.I
twoul
dber
eal
l
yfunny
ofi
twasoneofusnotthem
Thapel
o:hi
l
ari
ousIt
ell
you
Nceba:
you'
l
lbel
i
ket
hatt
oomkhul
u
Thapel
o:whoar
eyoucal
l
ingmkhul
uwenagogo
Weal
llaughatt
hem ast
heyteaseeachot
herand
t
heyr
unoutchasingEmi
hle
Nay
e:t
hischi
l
dwi
l
lnev
erst
opr
unni
ng
Theycomebackr
ushi
ng
Nceba:sssshpl
acesev
ery
oneMphoandZandi
l
ear
e
onthei
rway
Theyal
lsatdownandIsatatthechai
rneart
he
pi
ano.Lyandaswi
tchedof
ftheli
ght
Emi
:i
tsdar
kmama
Nay
e:ssshbabyi
tsasur
pri
sef
orauntZandy
Emi
:uncl
eNkosi
pleasehol
dme
Nkosihel
dherandi
twasn'
tevent
hatdar
kbutshe'
s
acutebabysoweunder
stand
Mphowalkedinwit
hZandybl
i
ndf
oldedandLubah
swi
tchedonthel
ight
s
Emi
:Sur
pri
se!
!!
!
Zandyhasn'teventookherbl
indfol
dof fandwejust
l
aughedather MphotookitoffandIstar
ted
play
ingthepianowhileMphowaswal kingwi
thher
towherethey'dbesit
ted.Kamohandedhert herose
andchocolateplusnotefr
om Mpho
Ist
art
edsi
ngi
ng
"BabyIl
oveyou,youaremyl if
e.Myhappiest
momentswer en'
tcompleteifyouweren'
tbymyside.
You'r
emyr el
ati
oninconnectiontothesun.Younext
tomeain'tnodarknessIcan'
tovercome"
Zandywaslayi
ngonMphowitht
ear
sonhercheeks
thatMphokeepswi
pingof
f.
"I,
I
'minl
ovewi t
hy ou,yousetmef r
ee.Ican'
tdothis
thi
ngcall
edlif
ewithoutyouher ewit
hmecauseI '
m
danger
ouslyinlov
ewi thyouI'l
lnev
erleavej
ustkeep
l
ovingmet hewayIl ov
ey oulovi
ngme"
Icont
inuedsi
ngingandIwasgett i
ngemoti
onal
.Thi
s
songwast oZandysi
nceitsherfavor
it
ebutdeep
downitwasalsoforPhi
la.If
ini
shedsingi
ngand
wenttohugmygi r
l
Zandy:
(sni
ff
s)Thankyoubabeyouwereamazing.
Youneverwantt
osingforme,andplay
ingt
hepaino
wasabonuscauseIneverbel
i
ev ey
ouwheny ousay
youcan
Me:I
'ddoanyt
hingf
ory
ousweeti
eyouknow but
naweyouwantmetosi
ngever
yday
Kamo:wehav
eonemor
esongf
ory
ou.Mspi
ano
come
Ipl
ayedt
hepi
anoandwest
art
edsi
ngi
ng
"you'
rebrokendownandy ou'r
etir
edofl
i
vingli
feon
themarrygoround.Youcan'tfi
ndafi
ght
er.ButIsee
i
tinyousowecanwal ki
toutandmov emountains.
Wecanwal ki
toutandmoooov emount ains.And
we'l
lri
seup, r
iseli
ketheday,we'l
lri
seunaf rai
d,we'l
l
ri
seupandwe' l
ldoitathousandti
mesagai n.And
we'l
ll
riseup,ri
seli
ket hewaveswe'll
riseupi nspi
te
oftheaches.We'llr
iseupandwe' l
ldoi tathousand
ti
mesagai n.
"
"Wit
hy ou,
withyou,foryou,
fory
ou.Theyfor
gotwe
hav
eeachot her
.Theyf or
gotwehaveeachother
,
we'
llr
iseup,we'
llr
iseup"
Wesangandt heboy
swerecl
appinghandsand
Zandyhadj
oinedusandshel
edthesong
Af
teraf
ewmi
nut
eswewer
edone
Danny
:wow!Somucht
alent
!!Youguy
scansi
ng!
Bonga:
I'
m bl
ownaway
Lubah:
ireal
l
yhav
enowor
ds
Ani
deacamet
omymi
ndwhi
l
eNkosi
wasst
ari
ngat
Nay
e
Me:Nay
elet
'ssi
ngf
ort
hear
hit
ect
s (
whi
chi
s
Phi
l
aandNkosi)
Nay
e:l
et'
sdoi
tgi
rl
WesangEmel
iSande_SweetAr
chi
tect
"ohsweetar
chit
ect
,mybonesar
eheav yandmy
soulsamess,comefi
ndmyaddressandbuil
dme
up,bui
ldmeup"
Istoppedsingi
ngandNayedidn'
tevenreal
izei
t,I
keptplay
ingthepianowhi
leshesangwithhereyes
cl
osedenj oyi
ngthemoment.Nkosicoul
dn'
ttakeher
eyesoffher.Aft
ershewasdoneshepinchedme
Nay
e:whydi
dyoust
opsi
ngi
ng!
?
Me:
just
Nkosi
:youwer
eamazi
ng.You'
reamazi
ngNay
e
Nay
e:Thanky
ou
Shebl
ushedandwentt
osi
twi
thEmi
Nt
oko:
readt
hecar
dmanZandi
l
e
Zee:
yeahIwannahear
Zandyopenedt
hecar
dandi
treadasf
oll
ows
"
Let
'sst
artof
fasf
ri
ends,
nol
et'
sbebestf
ri
ends.
Fall i
nl ovey etdenyi tunt il everyonecanseei t.
Conv i
nceour sel veswe' rej ustgoi ngtobebest
fri
ends.Bot t
let hatlov eunt il
itshoot soutl ikea
stream.Nowl et'sconf essourl ove.Lov eeachot her
uncondi ti
onal l
y.Fal linlov ewi thmyi mper f
ect ions.
Hel pmel ear nhowt olov e.Let 'sfi
ghtal ongsi deeach
othernotagai nsteachot her .Let'sgrowt oget her.
Believ einmeandmydr eams, suppor tmeandI '
lldo
thesame.Lov emeatmyl owestandatmyhi ghest.
WhenI '
m br okeandwhenIhav emoney .Shar ethe
l
astsl i
cewi thme.Respectme.Letmecomf ortyou
wheny ou'resad.Letmesi ngf ory ouwi thmyugl y
voice(t hought hatwon' thappen )let'
sl oose
our selvest ot hemoment .Letmemakey oul augh.
Letmei ntoy ourhear tandsoul .Letmymi ndmar ry
your s.Letoursoul scuddl eev enwheny ou' r
eaway .
You' renotper fect ,t
herear escar sont hesur faceof
yourhear t.I'
m conv incedt haty ouhav eexper i
enced
asetofpai nful eventst hr oughouty ourl ifeandy ou
arewhatpeopl er efertoasbr oken.Inmyey es,
you' r
et hemostbeaut iful arrangementofbr okenI '
ve
everwi tnessed.Il ookaty ouandt hi
nk, t
her e'smy
future.She' st heone.MaNcwane .
Zandywascryi
nghertear
sflowinguncont
rol
l
abl
yas
shereadt
hissweetwonderf
ullett
er.
Zandy:
MphoIdon'tevenknowwhatt
osay she
cri
edandhel
dMpho.Theysatdownonthepi
l
lows
andwegavethem somespace
At
hi:
Idon'
tunder
standwhywehav
etol
eav
ethem
al
one
Kamo:
sot
heycant
alkmanAt
hi
Sneh:
theycant
alkwhi
l
ewe'
ret
her
e
Beli
nda:someoneisr
ubbi
ngofAt
hi'
sact
ions
you'
rebecomingl
ikehi
m
At
hi:
shehast
ohawu
Weal
lwentt
osi
tatt
hel
ounge
Bee:
I'
m hungr
y,I
'
m or
der
ingf
oodandI
'
m noti
nthe
moodtocook
Nay
e:l
etmegetwar
m wat
erf
ory
ourf
eetNkosi
Nkosi
:Nay
eIt
houghtwet
alkedaboutt
his
At
hi:
out
comesofnott
alki
ngwhi
l
ewear
ound.
Thapel
o:y
oul
i
kegossi
pAt
hi
Ly
anda:
that
'ssot
rue.
Nayecamebackwithabasi
nwithwarm waterand
t
owel.Theugl
ysmelli
ngl
oti
onisn'
ther
etoday.She
washedhisf
eetandhewaslooki
ngather.
Nkosi
:Icanf
eel
itNay
e!Ican'
tfeel
it!
Nay
e:Nkosi
!Nkosi
!Youcanf
eel
yourl
egs!
Nay
ejustcr
iedandcont
inuedmassagi
nghi
slegs
Nkosi
:Nay
eyoul
ovecr
yingst
opi
tpl
ease
Wewereal
ljustwat
chi
ngt
hem.Iguesst
odayi
sa
gr
eatdayi
ndeedheey
Danny
:congr
atul
ati
onsmyman!I'
m happyf
or
you t
odayisj
ustsuchagr
eatday
Mphowal
kedi
nwi
thzandy
Mpho:
itsadayofmi
racl
es.
Zandy:Iguessit
serasi
ngal
lthebadt
hingst
hat
happenedont hi
sday.I
'
m pr
oudtosaythatt
hisi
s
oneofthebestdaysofmyli
fe
Sneh:
I'
m happyt
oheart
hatl
ove
Weallst
oodupandhuggedherandt
heboy
sfi
st
bumped
Thef
oodarr
ivedandweall
dugi
n.Emiwassi
tt
ing
onNkosi
andshewasfeedi
ngNkosi
Weallhadagr
eatconv
ersat
ionandLyanda
r
emindedusofthemovi
ewewer esupposedt
o
wat
ch
Phi
l
a:I
'm goi
ngtogetsomebeer
s.Wouldyoul
i
ke
metogetyousomethi
ngNdyamthandawam
Me:
Icecr
eam andst
rawber
ri
esbabepl
ease
Hewenttot heki
tchenandcamebackwi
tht
he
t
hingsIaskedfor
.Hesatnex tt
ome
Phi
l
a:babewhenar
eyoumov
ingi
nwi
thme?
Me:
butbabeweagr
eedonJanuar
ynj
erh
Phi
la:
babethat
'st
oofar.I
'mlonel
yint
hathouse.I
wanttowakeupnextt
oy ou
Me:okayf
inephi
l
aI'
l
lmov
einwhenwel
eav
ethi
s
pl
ace
Phi
l
a:t
hat
'sSat
urday
Me:
wer
en'
twest
ayi
ngf
oraf
ewweeks?
Phi
l
a:wedon'
thav
etoaany
mor
e
Me:
why
?
Phi
la:si
ncewhatwecameherefori
sonhol df
or
nowsowecangobackt owor
knowandt henwhen
wehav etocomebackwewon'tbehav
inga
workl
oadt ol
eav
ebehind.Wehavewor
kremember
Me:
yeahIknow
Phi
l
a:buty
oudon'
thav
etowor
kyazSi
ya
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Phil
a:Icanprov
idef
ory
oumyloveandyoucanhav
e
ever
ythingy
ouneedandwant
.Youreal
l
ydon'
tneed
towork
Me: Phi
laIwor kedhardformydegr eeandmymom
workedhar dfortobewher eIam now.Ilovethat
youwannat akecareofmeandal lbutIl
ov e
standi
ngf ormy sel
f,bei
ngindependent
.Ilovemyjob
andearningmyownmoney .
Phi
la:
youcangetamont
hlyal
l
owancebabekei
f
youwannaear
nmoney
Me:wer
eyouev
enl
i
steni
ngt
omePhi
l
asande?
?Iwi
l
l
wor
k
Phi
l
a:okayf
inet
hen
Iwonderwhat'
sgoingoni nthi
sguysheadl
ikereal
l
y
Lesl
ey!
? I'
m def
inatel
ynotgoi
ngtositdown
andquitmyjob.Li
kenev er
!
Wewat
chedamov
iecal
l
edDearJohn
I
twasr
eal
l
ysadandr
omant
ic
Phil
a:whoknewI 'dbesi
ttingrightnexttoy ou.I
thoughtI'dnev
erseeyouagai nSiya.Ilovey ouandI
wantt owakeupnexttoy ouev erymorning.Iwanna
havey oubymysi def
orther estofmyl ife.Inever
wantt olooseyouMaShezi.Rememberwhenwe
start
eddat i
ngwhenwewer eingrade8ont he31st
ofMar ch.
Me: yeahIremember y
ouwerev er
yshy
.You
couldn'tev
enlookatmeintheeye,whil
ewewere
sti
l
lf r
iendsitwasbet
ter,
i
tgotworsewhenwe
dated y ouwer
esoshybutl
ookatyounow I
wishyoucoul
dgobackt
othen.Youweresoscar
ed
ofme
Phil
a:Siyayouweretheloudestgirli
nclass.You
tal
kedtomuchandy out al
kedt omel i
kej ustafri
end
andIhatedthat,
Iactual
l
ywant edy out ofli
rt
butatthesamet i
meIwasscar edofy ou.Iwatched
everywordIsai
dcauseIdi dn'
twanty out ogiveme
anyatti
tudeorevensaysomet hingwrongandr ui
n
mychances
Me:
butbabeayi
twast
oomuch
Phil
a: youwer ethefi
rstgi
rlIf
ell
deeplyinl
ovewith.
Byjustl ookingatyouIknewthatIwanttobewi t
h
youf orever.Iwasveryshyandscaredofyou.WellI
sti
llam shy ,butIj
ustdon'
tshowi tal
ot.Il
oveyou
andr especty oumaSheziandIexpectyoutoalso
l
ov eandr espectmel i
keyouhav edoneall
those
years.
Me: Il
oveyouMapholobawam andiwillal
ways
respecty
ou.Iwil
lal
wayslov
ey ou,
takecareofyou.
Supportyouandkeepyouhappyatall
times.
Phil
a:I'
m gl
adIfoundy
ou.Rememberweonl
yhad
ourfi
rstki
ssaft
er2months
Me:yeah butIdi
dn'
tmi
ndt
hewai
t.I
twas
wor
thit
Wecontinuedt
alki
ngandr
emi
ndi
ngeachot
her
aboutt
hepast
Kamo:
Ifeel
li
kechi
l
li
ngout
side.I
t'
shoti
nher
e
Weal
lwentout
sideandchi
l
ledt
her
e
Thev i
ewwasper f
ect.SnehandItookof
four
dressesandjumpedintothepool theyal
lj
oined
usaf t
erafewminutesandPhilahel
dmeandki ssed
me.Hekeptonsqueezi ngmyassandhewas
sendingshiv
ersdownmyspi ne
Me:
babemmmhst
opman
Phi
la:
okayI
'
llbehav
e t
houghy
ou'
rer
eal
l
yhar
d
tor
esist
Wecont i
nuedtal
kingandkissing,hedidn'
tbehav
eat
all I'
m notcomplai
ning.Ilov
et hewayhe
touchesme.
Wepl ay
edgamesinthepool whichwer esomuch
fun.Emihl
eandNkosiwer ewatchingus,enj
oyi
nga
boxofpizzat
othemselvesandt heylookedl
ikethey
arehavi
ngagreatconv
er sat
ion
Ilov
ehowwe' v
ebondedandgr owntobeagr eat
famil
ytoget
her.Il
ovemyfri
endsandIreal
lyhopein
yearst
ocomewear eal
lst
il
li
neachothersli
ves.

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
[
1/11,
00:
26]Tat
enda:
Inser
t27
Theweekpassedbyandnot hi
ngst rangeor
dangeroushashappened.Wear enowonourway
backhomeandI '
l
lbemov i
nginwi thPhi l
a.Apar tof
mei sveryexcit
edbutanot herisn't,
i
tfeelslikeit
's
toosoonbutI '
veknownt hi
sguyf orsomanyy ears
andItrusthim sot hat'
swhyi mtakingt heleapof
fai
thandbel i
evingev er
ythi
ngwi l
l workout ,
wekept
i
tgoingf or5yearssowhatwi l
lstopusnow? I
l
ovehim andhel ovesmet hat'
sal lt
hatmat tersnow.
I'
mi nthecarwit
hBonga, Kamo,BeeandAthi.
Kamo'st ummyisstar
tingtoshow,she'
s5weeks
pregnantnowandBelindais4weeks.Weallgoi
ngt
o
Nkosi'
sfirstf
orl
unchwhi chIknowwill
tur
ninto
supperandsleepi
ngov er
Kamo:I'
m wi
shi
ngforahugef
eastmangi
rl
syou
mustcookupastor
m
Bee:
kant
iwena?(
Whatabouty
ou)
Kamo:
I'
m pr
egnantphel
a
Me:
you'
rej
ustl
azy
Bonga:
sur
ecansayt
hatagai
n.
Kamo:okayokayf
ineI
'
mlazybutI
'
m cr
avi
ngf
orl
ot'
s
off
ood,homecookedmeal
s
Bee:
don'
twor
rywe'
l
lsor
tyouout
Bonga:
Masi
gananda
Webothsmiledandcont
inuedhav
ingawei
rd
conv
ersat
ion
Bonga:
sot
hel
obol
aisonSat
urdayr
ight
?
Kamo:
yeahandmom sai
dIshoul
dbehomeby
Thur
sday
Bee:
areweal
l
owedt
ocomewi
th
Bonga:
onl
yfami
l
ymember
s
Kamo:
howdoy
ouknow
Bonga:IknowmanyTswanapeopl
eKamogel
ang
andthei
rtradi
ti
ons
Kamo:yeahyouri
ghtbutyouguyswi
llbet
her
efor
thatmembesothi
ngyThabotal
kedaboutwhi
chI
knownothi
ngabout.
Bee:ayI
'm al
socl
uel
essinthesetr
adi
ti
onal
thi
ngs
andIthi
nktheyar
eunnecessary
Bonga:welly
ouhavet ostar
tlearni
ngaboutt
hem
andallt
heproceduresandthingsthatt
akepl
ace
andthesigni
fi
canceofthem
Me:you'
rether
emoscsoy
ou'
l
lteachus
ni
noNkosi(
withNkosi
)
Wecontinuedtal
kingandwef inal
lyar
ri
vedafter
3hour
soft r
aveli
ngIr eal
lywonderwherethatpl
ace
i
slocat
ed doesitevenexist
Weenter
edt
hehouseandputourbagsinour
desi
gnat
edr
ooms.ThenIwentbackdownstai
rs
Sneh:
sowhatar
ewecooki
ng?
Me:lambchops,dr
ummet
s,por
kandbeefandsome
chi
ckenbr
easts
Nay
e:addoxt
ail
andmut
ton,
we'
recooki
ngt
hemeat
Beli
nda:KamoandIwi l
ldothesal
ads,
we'll
hav
e
greensalad,cosl
ow,
peasandbeanswith
may onnaise
Nceba:
sowe'
l
ldov
eggyr
ice,
sti
ffpapandpast
a
wit
hBee
Zee:
soZandyandIwi
l
lcookt
hesi
des
Zandy:butternut,mashedpotat
oes,
cream spi
nach,
st
irfr
yv eggies..Anyt
hingel
se?
Sneh:
NtokozoandIwil
ldothedesser
ts.Redv
elv
et
cakewit
hicecr
eam,custur
d,andpuddi
ng.
Nt
okozo:
andchocol
atemousse
Phi
l
a:wowI
'
mlov
ingt
hemenu
Me:
youshoul
dntev
enbel
i
steni
ng
Danny:
its2:30nowandyou'
recooki
ngsowe'
l
lhave
thef
eastforsuppernheandnow?I'
mreal
l
yhungr
y
Zee:babeor
dersomepi
zzabutnott
oomuchwe
needyourst
omachsempty
Ly
anda:
what
'st
heoccasi
onv
ele?Somuchf
ood
Bee:
we'
rej
usti
nthemoodandKamoscr
avi
ngs
Nkosi
:I'
m goingt
oenjoythesepr
egnanci
esi
fit
meanswe'll
beeatingl
ikethi
smostti
mes
Naye:st
opthi
nkingaboutf
ood,
let
'sgety
ourf
eet
washedandlegsmassaged
Nkosi
:i
'l
ldoi
tmy
sel
fNay
e,gocook
Nay
e:butNkosi
Lubah:
we'
l
lhel
phi
m Nay
erel
ax.
Theyl
eftthekit
chenandwest
art
edcooking.I
mari
natedthemeatandNayeaddeda2fullchi
ckens
andwer oast
edthem
Beli
nda: wewi
l
lbesof
ull
todaygoshsomuch
food
Nceba:
youdoknowt
heseguy
seatl
i
kepi
gssoi
t
wi
l
lbef
ini
shedi
nnot
ime!
Ntokozo:
I'
m notbaki
ngsoby
ewe'
regoi
ngt
obyt
he
cakes
Me:cheat
ing! y
ousupposedt
obaket
hem f
rom
scr
atch
Sneh:
uwehI
'
m notdoi
ngt
hat
Kamo:
theny
ousayI
'
mlazy,
thi
nkagai
nmam
Welaughedandconti
nuedcooki
ngwhi
lesi
ngi
ngout
l
oudafter30mi
nstheywerebackwi
thmanywool
ies
pl
asti
csandTops
Bel
i
nda:
Ithoughty
ougoi
ngt
obuycakes
Sneh:wellwegotothert
hingswe'
dneed.What
'sa
feastwi
thoutwi
ne?Don'tworrymommyt obewe
gotnon-
alcohol
icforyou
Zandy
:I'
l
lbemaki
ngsomecockt
ail
s
Ntokozo:
Ithoughty
ou'
rei
nthecooki
ngdepar
tment
ousie
Zandy
:Icandobot
h
Nceba:
sowhat
'
sgoi
ngonwi
thy
ouandMpho?
Zandy: we'
rej
ustf r
iendski
dnothi
ngmuch,i
m not
readyforarel
ationshipweokaynowwithj
ustfl
ir
ti
ng
andkissingnothingmor emanandheunder
stands
soI'm happyandhei salsohappy
.WenanoThaps?
Nceba:
wej
ustcool
andy
esI
'
m st
il
lav
irgi
nBee
Bee:
Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngnj
erh
Nceba:Isawt
hel
ooky
ou'
regi
vi
ngme.Wenan
Bongake?
Bee:whataboutus?Ther
e'snot
hinggoi
ngonguy
s
nyan.Phi
l
anSi ya?
Me:heaskedmet omovei
nwit
hhi
mremember?
Andthat'
shappeni
ngt
omorr
owsokeNcebay
ou'
ll
bestayi
ngalone
Bee:
nowenast
handway
ou'
l
lst
aywi
thmeandZee
Zee:
yeahwehav
en'
tevenbeenl
ooki
ngf
orapl
ace
tost
ay.Soy
oumoveoutandwemovein
Nceba:y
ey!Iwasgoingt
obesobored Andt
he
newestr
elat
ionshi
pZeeandDanDan?
Zee:uthandaizndabaNceba wellweokayjust
taki
ngt hi
ngsslowmant her
e'snor
ush.Munt
uka
Lyanda?
Ntokozo:
weal
lgoodguy
s I
'
mver
yhappy
.Makot
i
t
obe?
Kamo:im happi
l
yengagedandpr
egnant we
okayguys
Beli
nda:
howishetakingt
hepregnancy
?Lubahal
so
getsmorni
ngsi
cknesseswithmeandits
str
ange hetr
eatsmelikeanegg
Kamo:
dudei
tsl
ikeI
'm si
ckorsomething Nay
e
howwasi
twhenyougavebir
th?I
'm shitscar
ed
Nay
e:i
twasr
eal
l
ypai
nful
.Iwant
edt
oki
l
lNdumi
so!

I
'm nowf
ryi
ngthechi
ckenbr
east
sinal
emonand
her
bsause.I
tsPhi
la'
sfav
ori
te
Bel
i
nda:
Iwannagi
vebi
rt
hnat
ural
l
y
Kamo:
met
oobutI
'
m al
soconsi
der
ingC-
sect
ion
Me:
yohIhearbot
har
ereal
l
ypai
nful
.Idon'
tthi
nkI
'
m
r
eadyt
ohav
eachi
l
dany
timesoon
Nay
e:Igav
ebi
rt
hnat
ural
l
y
Sneh:
andhowdidyougetr
idoft
hebabyf
at?Cause
youwerebackt
ohavi
ngafi
gureaft
ery
ougavebir
th
toEmi
Weallcal
lherEmi
now,Nkosi
compl
ainsaboutus
st
eal
i
ngt henamehecameupwit
h
Naye:Idi
dn'tr
eall
ydoanyt
hingbutmymothergav
e
met hatt
ightf
igur
ebel
tandIputitonf
orj
usta
week
Zee:
soy
ouguy
swi
l
lbr
east
feed?
Theybot
hsai
dyes
Bee:Iwon'
twhenIhaveababy
,li
keIdon'
tev
enhav
e
boobs Ihav eni
pples!
Sneh:
that
'sourwor
ldbabes wegotnot
hing!

#PHI
LA
Whi
l
et hegi
rl
swerecooki
ngwewentt
othecinema
r
oom andwejustchi
l
ledt
her
eanddi
dn'
tevenplay
anymov
ie.
At
hi:
theyar
eheav
enl
ysent
Mpho:
who?
Lubah:
Thegi
rl
sman
Me:anditswei
rdhowt hi
ngsj
usttur
nedout
per
fect
ly.Weal
ljustf
oundoursoulmat
es
Bonga:yeahthat
'sYou,
Thabo,Lubah,
Lyanda,
ThapeloandDannynotus
Mpho:
tel
lthem budda,
wesi
ngl
e
Lyanda:eveni
fyouguy
sar esi
ngl
eweal
lknowyou
havefeeli
ngsf
orZandy.Youpour
edy
ourhear
tout
thatdayMrPoet
Danny:weallknowAthil
ovesSneh,Bongay ougot
youreyesonBee,AndNkosiiswhipped!!
dangerousl
yinlov
ewithNayesostopt al
king
nonsense
At
hi:
yeahNkosigoti
tbad! Ineedt
oget
l
aidmanit
'sbeenawhil
e
Me:
someofusgoti
tlastni
ght
Nkosi
:Per
ksofhav
inggi
rl
fr
iends
Mpho:Ishoul
dgotoastri
pcl
ubt
omor
rowni
ght
,
wannacomewi t
hThabo
Thabo:I
'm engagedmanandIhaveapr
egnant
fi
ancé,
Ihav enotimef
orstr
ipcl
ubs
At
hi:
I'
minman
Me:
youguy
swon'
tdot
hat
Bonga:
wesi
ngl
e,y
oungandf
ree
Nkosi
:anddr
y
Danny
:whatar
eyourhandsf
or!
?
Webur
stouti
nlaught
er!
Bonga:whatno!
!There'
smanypunani
'
swi shi
ngfor
meouttheresother
e'snowayI'
m mastur
bati
ng.I'
m
notpar
tontheDIYDepartment
Lubah:don'
ttalkl
ikeyouneverenjoyedi
t
ther
ewasat imewher eyoudiditeverymor
ning
weallwentthroughthat
Danny
:speakf
ory
our
sel
fLubahdude
Bonga:
Inai
l
edsomepunani
whenIwas16
Mpho:at13!
!Dude
At
hi:
sameher
e13t
oo
Phi
l
a:Iwas16andmyf
ir
stwasSi
ya
Danny
:that
swhyy ousoat
tached Iwasadummy
backt
hanonlyhadsomewhenIwas20
Ly
anda:
20! Iwas18
Nkosi
:Iwas17
Lubah:
17
Thabo:
19
Thenweal
ltur
nedandl
ookedatThapel
o
Thapel
o:what
?
Ly
anda:youknowwhatwet
alki
ngaboutmany
ou'
re
gr
owingupnow
Thapel
o:I
'
m st
il
l17andIhav
en'
tgotsome
Nkosi:
DIYDepar
tment Don'
twor
ryNceba
wil
lsorty
ouout
Weal l
laughedhard andNcebawal kedi
n
andtherewasamomentofsi lence,wewereall
l
ookingatherthenwebrokeinto
Laughter whatacoincidence!
!
Nceba:okaywhateveri
tisyouarel
aughi
ngatmust
endnow, comedinneri
sreadygent
sandwashyour
hands.Wedon'twantsomeDI Yout
comesonyour
pl
ates shewi nkedandl ef
t
Thabo:
WTF!Shehear
dus
Nkosi
:It
hinkso
Welaughedal
lthewaydownst
air
steasi
ngeach
ot
herandIwenttosi
tnextt
omybabe
Me:
Ndy
amt
handawam
Sheki
ssedmycheekandr
esponded
Si
ya:
yesLesl
ey
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Si
ya:
Ilov
eyoumor
e
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
eandmor
e
Si
ya:
mor
eandmor
eandmor
e
At
hi:
andmor
e
Me:
shutupman
Nay
esai
dgr
aceandwedugi
n
Nkosi
:thi
sfoodisdel
i
cious! t
hanksmany
ou
gi
rl
soutdi
dy our
sel
ves
Icouldn'
tstopeati
ngitt
ast
edgoodandthechi
cken
breastswit
hl emonandher
bsi
smyf av
orit
eandI
knowSi y
adi dit
Me:
Ilov
ethechi
ckenbr
east
s t
hanksSi
ya
Sneh:
howdoy
ouknowshemadet
hem
Me:onlyshecanmaket
hem l
i
ket
his i
nmyown
f
avori
teway
Bee:
wel
lyeahshedi
dthem sbar
i
Si
ya:
TheysayFoodi
sthewayt
oamanshear
t
Bonga:yousur
ecansayt
hatagai
n .Iwi
l
lnev
er
marrysomeonewhocan'
tcooknever
!
Bel
i
nda:
hawuy
oumar
ryi
ngherf
orhercooki
ngski
l
ls
orbecausey
oul
oveher
Mpho:ay
bohwhatwi
l
lIdowi
thawomanwhocan'
t
cook?
Si
ya:
you'
l
lcookf
ory
our
sel
fhawu
Nkosi
:that
'snevergoi
ngtohappen shemust
cook,
washt helaundr
y,cl
eant
hehouseanddoal
l
herwi
feduties
Zandy:yohuRoughNkosi
! that
'shar
dlabour
kanti
whywer ewashi
ngmachi
nes,v
acuum cl
eaners,
dishwashersmadefor
?
Thabo:
that
'sf
orl
azypeopl
eman
Bonga: Technol
ogy wel l
awomanshoul dknow
herplaceanddut i
esinthehouseandshemustfulf
il
l
allofthat.Nomaidormachi newi
llwashmyclot
hes.
I'
l
lpayl obolaf
orhernotthemachine
Mpho:
yesBongs ot
her
wisegol
ookf
oranot
her
wi
fe
Nay
e:nev
er!I
sit
hembu!I
'
m sor
ryIcan'
tshar
e
Kamo:
aymet
ooIdon'
tthi
nkI
'
dsur
viv
e
Me:
ayIwoul
dn'
tbeabl
etohav
e2wi
ves
Bonga:
ify
ouf
ail
tobeagoodwi
fe,
I'
ll
getasecond
wif
e
Bee:
I'dr
atherbedi
vor
cedt
hanbei
napol
ygamy
marr
iage
Nt
okozo:
ayt
hat
'st
rueBar
bs
Weal llaughanddebateaboutpol y
gamyandwe
fi
nisheat i
ng.Imustsaywer eall
ycaneat.Theplat
es
areclean andt her
earenol eftover
s.Deser
twas
greatbutwecoul dn'
tfi
nishit
.Iam veryf
ullal
ready
,
allIneedistotakeashowerandgot obed.I
excusedmy sel
fandwentt otakemyshower

#Si
ya
Aft
erwef i
nishedeat i
ng,wepackedthedi shesinthe
si
nk.Wewer eall
tiredandl
azyt owasht hem sothe
hel
perswil
lwasht hem t
omorrow.Philawentt otake
hi
sshowerwhi lewesatatt hedinni
ngt ableand
cont
inuedtalki
ng.Igotawhat sapptextfrom Phil
a"I
missyou"Aren'tyousupposedt obeshower ing?I
r
epl
i
ed
"
Comej
oinmebabe"
"
Okayf
ineI
'
m comi
ng "
Ilef
tthetabl
eandwentt oourroom.Igott
othe
room andhewasl ay
ingonthebednakedfocused
onhisphone.Igotatextwhil
eIwasstandi
ngbythe
door
"
Likewhaty
ousee?
"
Hi
smanhoodwasbi
g andIcan'
tgetenoughof
i
t.
"Mmmhy es"Irepliedwhilet aki
ngoffmycl othes
andwal kedtothebat hroom.Hef ol
lowedmeandwe
gotintheshower .Het urnedt hewateronandi twas
war mthenhest artedkissingmesendi ngshi vers
downmyspi ne.Hesqueezedmyboobsandhi s
handt raveledallt
hewaydownt omypunani ,he
rubbedmycl itandIwasal readydri
ppingwet .He
turnedmear oundandi nser tedhispenisandst art
ed
penetrat i
ngme,hi spacewassl owatfirstandhe
spedup!Iwasscr eaminghol di
ngontot hesedear
ti
lewal
ls.Thismanwast odestroyandbreakmy
cooki
e wef i
nall
yreachedanor gasm together
andhewasscr eamingoutmyname t
hat'sthe
bestf
eelingever,him screamingoutmynamei sa
bonus weshower edandhegr abbedat owel f
or
meandwegotout .Il
otionedmybodyandputon
myshor tpyj
amasandav estwithsli
pper
sandwent
downstairswit
hhi mf ol
lowingme.
Me:wejustcametosaygoodni
ghtguy
s,wehav
ea
busydaytomorr
ow
Thabo:
busyday
?
Phi
l
a:y
eahSi
yai
smov
ingi
nwi
thme
Mpho:
wowt
hat
'sgr
eatman
Zee:
BeeandIar
emov
ingt
oSi
ya'
sfl
at
Bonga:
what
!?Why
?
Danny
:whenwast
hatev
endeci
ded?
Zee:
babeIt
oldy
ouIam get
ti
ngmyownf
lat
Danny
;butIdi
dn'
tknowi
twoul
dbesosoon
Bonga:
andIwasn'
tev
eni
nfor
med
Bee:
Bongawe'
l
ltal
kaboutt
hisl
ater
Bonga:
comel
et'
sgot
alkaboutt
hisnow
Theybot
hlef
tandwentt
othei
rroom
Phi
l
a:Iguesst
hat
'
sgoodni
ghtguy
s
Theyal
lrepl
i
edandwentt
othei
rrooms.
Wegott otheroom andIl ockedthedoorand
swit
chedof ft
helight sli
vi
ngt hesidel ampsont hen
Phil
apinnedmeont hewal landkissedme
aggressi
vel
yandIenj oyedev er
ymoment .Heputhis
kneebetweenmyl egssepar ati
ngt hem andhet ook
offmyshort.GreatI '
m notwear i
ngany
underwear hesqueez edmyassandhi s
handtravel
edtomypunani andhisf ingerwasinsde
meinseconds! i twassogoodIwasov ert
he
moonandmoani ngl ikecrazy
Me:
Phi
l
a mmmh makel
ovet
ome
HereIam beggi
nghimt
obeinsi
deofme
di
ari
esofasexaddict nowaitI
'mj
ustaddi
ctedt
o
hi
m.
Hepickedmeupandl ayedmeont hebed.His
clot
hesareof fandIdon'tevenknowwhent hat
happened heopenedmyl egsandkissedmy
punani ohgosshwhati shedoing!Heat emel i
ke
i
twashi slastti
me t hisremindsmeoft hefi
rst
ti
mewemadel ove heal waystakesmet opl
aces
I'
veneverbeent ooCloud9ai n'
tnothi
ngcompar ed
towhereIam nowmay becloud100
Het
henst
oppedwhi
l
eIwasaboutt
ocum!
Me:
whatt
heheckLesl
ey!
Phi
l
a:chi
l
Hei
slaughi
ngatme!Thi
sist
ort
ure!
Hegoti nsi
deofmeandhewassogood hi s
thrust
shitever
ycorner! ithiti
nal
lther
ightpl
aces.
Mymancandohi sthingshame andIcan' t
compar ehi
mt oanyone.Heistheonl
ymanI
know mykneeswer eshakingandIwasaboutto
reachmydest i
nat
ion
Phi
l
a:wai
tformebabe
I
shecr
azy
?
Me:
babe.
.Aaaah!Icaant
!
Ireachedmydest i
nati
onandhef ol
lowed Iwas
sot i
red.Hewenttothebathr
oom andcameback
withat owel
tocleanmeup.Af t
erthathecameto
bedandIl ai
donhi schest
.Wewer ebothsti
l
lnaked
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
oubabe
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooFuze
Phi
l
a:sl
eepmypr
incess
Icl
osedmyeyesandhekissedmyf
oreheadandI
dri
ft
edof
ftowonderl
and

#NEXTMORNI
NG
IwokeupandPhi
l
awasal
readydr
essi
ngup.
Me:
what
'st
her
ush?
Phi
l
a:Iwanty
out
ofi
nal
l
ymov
einwi
thme
Me:soyoucanbr
eakmyv i
rgi
na Ist
oodup
andwentt
oshowerthenl
oti
onedmybody.Iwor
e
bl
uejeggi
ngsandablackvestwit
hVans.Whi
l
ehe
worr
eablackpol
oT-shir
tandjeanswi
thVans
Wewal
keddownst
air
sandhadbr
eakf
ast
Sneh:
Vanscoupl
etodaynhe
Phi
l
a:Yay
azmosc
Weat
eandbi
dfar
ewel
l
Zandy:we'
l
lcomehel
plat
ernheandwegoi
ngt
o
part
y!!
Me:
why
?
Thapel
o:wel
comi
ngy
oui
ntoPhi
l
a'shouseduh
Phi
la:
y oujustwantt
opart
y notthaty
ouact
ual
l
y
cel
ebrati
nghermov i
ngi
nwithme
Zee:
yeahy
eahwhat
evert
hat
'sj
ustst
il
lthesamei
sh
man
Nt
okozo:
you'
regl
owi
ngbohSi
ya
Me:thankslove.Undi
phet
hekahl
'
uDar
lyundi
phet
he
kahl
e Isang
Andwel
eftt
hem,
Phi
l
awasdr
ivi
nghi
sBMW X6
Me: I
'
mt hinki
ngofget
ti
nganewcarbabemay
be
nextyearJuly
Phi
l
a:Whi
chcarbabe
Me:
Iwast
hinki
ngofawhi
teJeepWr
angl
er
Phi
la:youl
ovebi
gcar
shey y
ou'
veal
way
slov
ed
bi
gt hi
ngs
Me:
that
'swhyIl
ovey
ouandMrNgcobodown
t
her
e
Phi
l
a:y
oudon'
twanthi
mtocr
ackhi
sWi
feynow
Me:y
ohno nosexfort
henext3weeksI
'
m st
il
l
r
ecover
ingf
rom l
astni
ght
Phi
l
a:t
hat
'sbul
l
Me:
we'
l
lseeke
Wegott omyapar t
mentandpackedmycl ot
hes.I
'
m
nottaki
nganyf urni
tur
ejustmyclothes,Phil
as
househasev eryt
hingIneedplusBee,Zeeand
Ncebawi l
lst
ill
best ay
inghere.Al
l3roomsar ecl
ean
soI'
m sorted
Me:
I'
m donebabe.
Phi
l
a:whydoy
ouhav
e5sui
tcases?
Me:
theyhav
emycl
othest
her
e
Phi
l
a:andt
heboxes?
Me:
myshoesandst
uff
Phi
la:
wow.It
houghtwepi
cki
nguponesui
tcase
her
e
Me:
thatwoul
donl
yfi
tmyunder
wear
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
recr
azy
Welockedthedoorandheadedt oHi l
l
crest.
Thi sisit
hey Iwonderhowwi ll
li
vi
ngwi t
hPhi l
abel ike.This
i
sourbignextstepthoughI'
m cohibati
ng .Iwil
l
missmyflatandall
thememor iesbutI'm excitedto
makenewmemor i
eswi t
htheloveofmyl ifeinhi s
hugemansion

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
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iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
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'sgr
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oget
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1/11,
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enda:
Inser
t28
Wegott ot hehouseandt hehelperstookmybags
upstair
swhi leIcar ri
edacar dboardandmybag.
Phil
af ol
lowedmet othemai nbedr oom whichison
thelastfl
oor .Itbiggerthanmyapar t
ment,Icouldfi
t
somanyt hingsi nhere ithasawal k-
incloset
withhugespaceandI 'm goi
ngt ofil
lit
! It ookout
myshoesf i
r standpackedt hem neat l
yandpacked
mysneaker snextt ohiscoll
ect i
on.Thenpackedmy
clot
hes.Phi laisnotev enhelpingme
Me:youknowinst
eadofl
ayi
ngont
hatbed,
you
coul
dbehelpi
ngmehere.
Phi
l
a:y
oudi
dn'
taskbabesoIt
houghty
oual
lgood
Me:butyoucanseeIhav
esomanycl
othest
opack
andIcan'
tdoitonmyownPhi
l
a
Phil
a:kant
iwho'sclothesarethey?Youshoul
dpack
them your
sel
f,butsinceI'
mv eryki
ndi'
l
lhelpyou
Thandiweyo
Ismi
l
e hegav
emet
hatnamewhenwewer
ein
grade9.Hedoesn'
tcal
lmebyt hatnameallt
het i
me
sowhenheact ual
l
ydoes,i
tjustmakesmebl ushso
muchIcan'tev
encontr
olmy sel
f.Igetr
edtomatoes
onmycheeks hesitsdownnexttome
andhelpsmepack
Phi
l
a:I
'
llpackt
heunder
wearandl
i
nger
iebabe.
Me:
noy
ouwon'
t
Phil
a:y
esIwi
ll hetookoutmybl
ackl
i
nger
ieand
tookagoodl
ookati
t
Phi
l
a:y
oushoul
dweart
hisf
ormet
oni
ght
Me:
notget
ti
ngany
,for3weekssweet
ie
Phi
l
a:y
our
eal
l
ygoodatj
okesbabekeepi
tup
Hereal
l
yai
n'
ttaki
ngmeser
iousl
y I
'
llshow
hi
m!
Wepackmyclotheswhi
l
esingi
ngCi
ci_Runaway.
Thi
ssongbr
ingsbackmanymemori
es .Af ter
2hour
swedone!
Phi
l
a:t
her
e'ssomet
hingIwantt
oshowy
ou
Me:
whati
sit
?
Phi
l
a:comewi
thme
If
oll
owedhi mi ntot
hisbigroom wit
hphotofr
ames
al
lover.Itwasbeauti
fulandithadmypict
uressi
nce
Iwasababy .Ourpi
ctur
esfrom hi
ghschoolandmy
worstpictur
es! hehasal waysl
ovedmyugly
pi
cs
Me:babe!Wher
edi
dy ougetal
lthesepi
ctur
es!
whendidyoudoal
lthi
s?
Phila:thedayImov edin,Ihavethisar oom likethis
atwor k, i
nFr eeSt at eandi nJozi.MyPAi nFree
Stateal waysaskedmeaboutt hiswoman, I'
dgo
thereev erydaywhenev erIwantokayheknewhe' d
fi
ndmet here,I'dt alktoy ouandt ellyouaboutal lmy
troubles,whenImi ssy ouI'
dgoi nt hereandwor k
there.Onedayev ery t
hingwasgoi ngwr ongatwor k,
l
oosi ngi mpor tantbusi nessdeals, Iwascl oset o
shut t
ingdownmybusi nessandIwasl oosingmy
very1stcompanybutIwentt hereandl ookedatt hi
s
picture(api cturewhenIwasst i
l
l at oddlerwi t
hone
toothandIwasl aughi ng )It oldy ouev erythi
ng
andIcr ied,Igotonmykneesandpr ayed,forthe
fi
rstt i
mei nmyl ifeIpr ay edf orav erylongt i
me, I
toldGodaboutev erything.Ineededhi mt o
strengt henme.If ellasl eepr ightthere.I nthe
mor ningt hesamepi ctur esf ellandhi tmyshoul der
thenIwokeup.Iwentt omyof f
iceandf oundal etter
from t hebankst at i
ngt hatt heyar egi vi
ngmeal oan,
i
naf ewmi nutesmyphoneswer ebuzzi ngall my
client sar ecomi ngback, signingwi t
hme.Igotbi g
proj ectsandmycompanybecameasuccess.I
remember edyourwor ds" Not hingi simpossi blewi th
God.Youcandoal lthingst hroughChr istwho
strengt hensy ou"Godcamet hroughf orme.You' ve
beenwi thmeal l thosey ear swhenwewer eapar t
.
Youkeptmegoi ngSi yamt handa.Ial way shear dy our
voi cet ellingme" Philasanday oucandot hi
s,you're
notaf ailure.You' r
et alent ednowshowt hewor ldy ou
candot his" y out oldmet hatwheny ouwer e
forci ngmet oDr awpi ctur esofpeopl eandIwas
scar edal way sthoughtI 'df ail.ButIf ocusedandwas
abl et odr awy ourf aceexact l
yasi ti s
Me: Iwassoproudofy
ou,
Ishowedever
yoneat
school r
ememberwhenyoudrewyourf
ir
st
bui
l
dingIwast
ell
i
ngev
ery
oneabouti
tli
keIdi
dit
Phi
la:
you'
vealway
sencouragedmeandsuppor
ted
meinever
ythi
ngIdo.Wit
houtyouIwoul
dn'
tbeher
e,
Iwoul
dn'
thaveanyofthi
s
Me: babey oudidallofthi
sonyourown, Ij
usthelped
youbelieveinyourselfandyousucceeded,youown
bigcompani esnowandhugehouseandcar s.You
workedr eall
yhardandy oudeser
veitall
Phil
a:becauseofy
ousthandwasam.AndIthank
you.
IthankGodforbr
ingi
ngyouint
omylif
e
Iki
ssedhi
m sof
tl
yandpassi
onat
ely
,Il
ovehi
m
Therewerenoi sescomingf r
om downstai
rsand
peoplescreamingournamesandIknewi twast he
fr
iendswhohav enotiming nxxbutt heyhelped
me I '
m stil
lsti
ckingtomywor ds.Wewent
downstair
sandt heywerethere,
Jabuwashereal so.
Zandy
:it
saboutt
ime,
Ithoughty
ou'
redeadupt
her
e
Kamo: wherear
ethebagsandboxes?Somet
hing
thatact
uall
yshowsyou'
removi
ngin?
Me:
we'
redonepacki
ngev
ery
thi
ngwel
li
twasj
usta
f
ewbagsandaf
ewcar
dboar
ds
Phi
l
a:5sui
tcases?I
sjustaf
ewbags?
?
Bee:
Yes
At
hi:
that
'scr
azy
Naye:
guesssi
ncet
hepacki
ngi
sdone.Wemust
cel
ebr
ate
Ther
ewasaknockont
hedoorandi
twasJabu
Bonga:
DJJabs
Jabu:
DJBongs
Danny
:whatdoy
oubot
hknowaboutDJy
ing
Mpho:
itsj
ustt
henamesmandandan
Lubah:sogent
slet
'sgogetsomemeatf
ort
oni
ght
's
braaiandsomedri
nksman
Bel
inda:don'
tforgetmybi
lt
ongbabeNceba:
and
garl
icbreadwit
hsomef i
zzydr
inks,
someofusdon'
t
dri
nkalcohol
Ly
anda:
sincewhenboh?
Thapel
o:si
nceIsai
dso
Bee:y
ohuyakuqondi
sauThaps y
ou'
redoi
nga
goodjobonherThapel
o
Me:t
henshecomplainsandsay
syour
econt
rol
l
ing
whenyouj
usthel
pingher
Thaps:shehast
ofocusonherst
udi
esnotal
cohol.
Aft
ersheimprov
esinChemist
ryt
hanshecandri
nka
bi
t.
Nkosi
:soshe'
shav
ingchal
l
engesi
nChemi
str
y?
Nceba:hel
l
oI'mr i
ghthere andy esbut
'NkosiI
'm
havi
ngchall
engesinitbutt
hapshasbeengreathel
p
andI'
m sur
eI'l
laceit
!
Me:
bet
terdoj
ustt
hatkenono
Theyguyslef
ttogobuythemeatwhil
eweprepar
ed
somesaladsandpap.Theremustal
waysbePapor
Phil
aandMphowoul dki
llus
Bee: aykeBongadoesn'twantmet omov eout,we
arguedal lni
ghtaboutmemov ingoutti
llhefi
nall
y
gav eup hewasl i
ke"Mxm fineBabal
way oumay
l
eav e!!"andhestormedoutoft heroom wi
thhis
pi
llow Il aughedathi
m.Ar ound2am hecame
backt
obed
Zee:heaskedmetost
ayforj
ustonemoreweek
that
'swhatweagr
eedonsonextweekI
'm movi
ng
Bee:
I'
m mov
ingi
nonMondayNceba
Nt
okozo:goshwegoi
ngbackt
owor
kon
Monday
Me:
duudeI
'
m sol
azy
Zandy:
I'
m exci
ted CFOntozphel
a t
hough
Ihat
ethemeetingsIhav
etoatt
end
Nay e:Iwon'tbegoi
ngbackti
llNkosiget
sbackon
hisfeetandhedoesn'tev
enknowt hat andIwon't
tel
lhimf ornowcausehe'l
lbestubbornandar
gue
withme
Kamo: isti
l
ldon'
tunderst
andBee,youandBonga
sl
eept oget
herever
yday,al
lni
ghtandnothi
nghas
everhappened?Notevenonekiss
Bee:
Nopnot
hingwe'
rej
ustf
ri
endsshar
ingabed.
Sneh:
doesnthegetaboner
?
Bee:
hedoesandI
'
vef
elti
toncewhenhedeci
dedhe
wantedtocuddl
ewithme,i
twashuge i fel
tsor
ry
forhi
m andIthi
nkhehasagirl
fr
iendcausehi
s
alwayst
exti
ngonhisphoneatnight
Kamo:
andhowdoy
ouf
eel
aboutt
hat
??
Bee:Idoli
keBonganheandIdon' tknowhowIf eel
aboutal
lthatbutIdon'
twantittoseem li
keI'
m
hol
dinghim backfr
om whathehasbeendoi ng
befor
eheev enmetme.Iwantt ogivehim hi
s
pri
vacybackandthat'
soneoft hereasonswhyI'
m
mov i
ngout.We'r
enotanitem soIshouldn'
tstop
hi
mf rom havi
ngfunandbringi
nggi r
lstohi
sown
house.
Nceba:soyou'r
esayingyouwouldn'
tmindi
fhe
walkedinr
ightthr
oughthatdoorwit
hsomegir
l?
Bee:yesIwouldn'
tmindguysandIal
soneedmy
pri
vacy.Myvibrat
ormissesmeandIcan'
tevenuse
i
tinBonga'shousecauseIfeel
li
kehe'
l
lcatchme
whil
epleasi
ngmy sel
fwithmytoy
Me:
WTF!Av
ibr
atorr
eal
l
y
Zandy
:yeahgi
rl agi
rlgot
tadowhatagi
rlgot
ta
do
Nay
e:y
ougotMphonj
erhwena
Zandy:we'v
enev erwentt
hatfarwit
hMpho.We'v
e
kissedanditgotint
ensebutIcoul
dn'
tgoanyf
urther
thanthat
Nt
okozo:
iunder
stand
Theboyscamebackandweal
l wentt
othebr
aai
areaandchi
l
ledt
her
e.Iwasdr
inki
ngsomecockt
ail
si
tti
ngnextt
omymanandJabu
Me:sotel
lmeJabs,
you'
reaShezi
?Li
kei
tsy
our
f
ather
'sormom'
ssurname?
Jabu:Itsmyf at
herssurnamethoughI'
v enevermet
him andIdon' tevenknowhisname.It hinkmymom
hadanaf fairwithhim andIwasconcieved,Idoubt
sheev entoldhim aboutmecausemymom wasa
verysecreti
v eperson.Iwastr
iedtofi
ndhi m but
nopeIf ai
led.
Me:mmmhokayt henIal
sodon'tknowmyf at
her.
Shezii
sourmother'
ssurname.Sobasical
l
ywe're
notShezi
'
sbiol
ogical
ly
Nceba:
Jabul
ooksl
i
kebi
gdaddy
Her
eIwasthi
nki
ngI
'
mtheonl
yoneseei
ngt
his
r
esembl
ance.
Bee:
yeahhei
saphot
ocopyofBi
gM
Jabu:
BigD?Bi
gM?
Me:Wecall
him Bi
gDaddybutBabal
wacall
shim Bi
g
Mandl
a.I
tsMandlaShezi
ourmother
'st
winbrot
her.
Jabu:
ooh
Phi
l
a:babeImi
ssy
ou
Me:
I'
mri
ghtnextt
oyounj
erhMaphol
oba
Phi
l
a:y
eahi
know,
comecl
oser
Isatcl
osertohi
m andlai
dmyheadonhi
schest
.
Nkosikeptonmakingweir
dsounds
Mpho:
what
'swr
ongdude
Nkosi
:myl
egs!Aaah!
Nay
e:Nkosi
!What
'
swr
ongar
etheyokay
?
Nkosi
:sopai
nful
Ifeel
li
ket
heyar
efal
l
ingof
f
Zandy
:ayzi
bambe! doct
orsdosomet
hing
man
Athi
camewithabi
gcaseandt
ookoutani
nject
ion
andinj
ect
edNkosi
.
Athi:y
ou'l
lbeokayaf
tert
hisandwe'
ll
startsome
exerci
ses.Well
donebroonyourpr
ogressyou'
ll
be
abletowalkinafewdays
Nay
e:(whi
sper
sinmyear
)seemsl
i
keI
'
llbegoi
ngt
o
wor
kinafewdays
Webot hlaughathim andZandygivesusadeat
h
star
e I '
m sur
eshewant stoknowwhatwear e
tal
ki
ngabout .Weateandaf t
ersupperwewashed
thedishesandcleanedtheki
tchen
Jabu:
it'
sti
meformet
oleavenowguy
sit
'sbeenf
un
andIhopetoseey
ouagai
nsoon
Nt
okozo:
we'
real
soonourwaynow
Me:
ohsoy
ou'
renotsl
eepi
ngov
er?
Lubah:nowe'
regi
vi
ngyousomepri
vacyonyourf
ir
st
dayli
vi
ngtoget
her
.Makeitmemor
ablePhi
las
Phi
l
a:Ipl
ant
o
Bonga:
yey
eyer
unawaySi
ya
Danny
:st
opcockbl
ocki
ngPhi
l
amanBonga
At
hi:
andt
hest
ri
pcl
ubwet
alkedaboutBongs?
?
Sneh:
str
ipcl
ub?
?
Icoul
dseet
hatshe'
shur
t
Mpho:we'
rei
nvi
tedtosomecol
l
eaguesBachel
ors
Par
tysoit
satastr
ipcl
ubandwesaidwe'
dgobut
i
t'
slat
enowAthi
At
hi:
okayIwasj
ustaski
ng
Sneh:
andy
ouwant
edt
ogot
her
e
Athi:
noIwasgoingt
otell
them t
ocountmeout
many ouknowI'
mjustt
ir
edandIwanttorest
.I'
m
goingst
rai
ghthomeSneh
Sneh:
noneedt
oexpl
ainy
our
sel
f.Byguy
s.
Shejustl
eftanddr
oveoffbef
orewecoul
dev
en
checkuponherorevensaygoodby
e
Ly
anda:
she'
shur
t
At
hi:
Shi
tImessedup!
Zandy:
causeyouhavenofil
ter
!Idontknowwher
e
youcomefrom At
henkosi
Bonga:youbet
terf
ixt
hatAt
hiIsuggesty
ouf
oll
ow
herr
ightnow
At
hial
sol
eftspeedi
ngof
ftr
yingt
ocat
chSneh
Theyal
ll
eftaf
ter15mi
ns.Andwewer
elef
tal
one.
Phi
la:wel
comehomehoneyhesai
dashewas
ki
ssingmeonmyneckmakingmeweakforhi
m
Me:
whyt
hanky
ouMrNgcobo
Phi
la:
letmeshowy
ouhowwel
comedy
our
eal
l
yar
e
her
e
Hepi
ckedmeupandwal
kedupst
air
s

#LBUBT
Sor
ryf
ort
hev
eryshor
tinser
t
Hav
etost
udy
!Exam t
imecomi
ngup
Pleaseunder
standandbepati
entwit
hme.I'l
ltr
y
postinganewinser
tever
ychanceIgetguy
s
Lov
eyou
[
1/11,
00:
27]Tat
enda:
Inser
t29
It
sbeenamont hnowsi nceImovedinwi t
hPhil
a.
Todayisthe1stofDecemberandI 'm onmywayt o
fet
chZandy ! I
tspayday! we'reluckycause
wegetpaidt wiceinamont honthe1standthe20th
sowe'reheadingtot hemallj
ustt
oblowapor ti
onof
ourmoney .IgottoZandy '
sapar
tmentandshewas
alr
eadywai t
ingformet henshegoti
nt hecar
Me:
yassgi
rl
!Sy
abangena
Zandy:
weareenter
ing Icanal
readyheart
he
st
orescal
l
ingoutmyname
Me:
you'
recr
azy
IdrovetoPav il
ionandwewenttoRedSquar efi
rst
,
wegotal lZandy '
smakeupsetsandIgotjustafew
i
tems, I
'm notreall
yahugefanofmakeup.My
natur
al skindoesitforme j
ustli
psti
ckand
i
nsor t
ed, Ilov
edar kcol
our
sonmyl i
pscausethey
j
ustpopout soaft
ert
hatwewenttodosome
shopping,Isawsomebabycl ot
hesIjustcoul
dn't
stopmy self.Kamois2monthspregzozoandBeli
nda
i
s1mont hand3weeks.Aftert
hatwewentt oMugg
andBeanandIsawsomeonel i
kePhilafr
om avery
fardi
stancebutwhatwouldhebedoi nghere?He
hasmeet ingsalldayl
ongandhewasn' tanav
ysuit
today
Me:
ist
hatPhi
l
a?
Zandy
:wher
e?
Ishowedherandshedi
sagr
eed
Zandy:
nheitsnothi
m maybeyoujustmi
sshi
m and
youimagi
ningthi
ngshe'
satworkunli
keus
I
'm sureyou'
rewonderingwhywenotatwor k.We
tookadayoff,thi
ngshav ebeenbusyandhect ic
theresowedeser v
eabr eak.Ical
ledPhil
aandi t
wentstrai
ghttovoicemail,
somethingdoesn'tseem
ri
ghtIknowPhi l
aandIr eal
lythi
nkthatwashi m and
therewassomewomannextt ohim ori
mj ustbeing
paranoi
d
Af
terhav
ingl
unchZandyhadtogoseeMphosoI
dr
oppedherof
fatMpho'sandwentt
oPhi
la'
soff
ice.
Wel l
it'
sthef
ir
stti
meI '
m evengoingt here Idon'
t
evenknowwhyI '
venev erbeenthere.Igott
othe
recepti
onandtherecepti
onistal
readyknewwhoI
was
Lady
:MsShezi y
oumaygot
hroughMrNgcoboi
s
i
nhisof
fi
ce
Me:I
'
m notf
ami
l
iarwi
tht
hispl
acesowoul
dyou
t
akemether
e
Lady
:Yesmam nopr
obl
em
Wet ookal i
ftt
ot helastfl
oor,anditwasatthelast
door.Iwalkedinandi twasbi gandbeaut
if
ul r
eall
y
screamsPhi l
a.Hewassi tt
ingwithsomewoman,
she'sski
nnyandv er
yt al
lli
keasupermodel andhas
alongweav e,she'sreall
ypretty
Recep:
MrNgcobo,sor
ryIdi
dn'
tknowy
ouwer
ebusy
,
MsShezihascometoseeyou
Phi
l
a:i
tsokayLee-
Aany
oumaybeexcused.
Shelef
tandPhi
lawasverysurpr
isedtoseeme.I
wenttohi
m andki
ssedhim yeaht
hisi
smy
manIcandowhateveri
want .
Phil
a:babe,Iwasn'texpecti
ngyoubutI'
m gl
adyou
came.ThisismynewPA, hernameisOrat
il
e,Or
ati
l
e
thi
sisNdy amthanda,theloveofmyli
fe
Me:Pleasedtomeety ouOrati
l
eandmynamei
s
Si
yamt handaShezi
,onlyhecall
sme
Ndyamt handa
Or
a:pl
easedtomeetyouMsShezi
,wel
lIwi
l
lbei
n
myoff
icewhenyouneedmePhil
a
Me:
pleasecal
lmeSi
ya,
Msshezi
ist
oof
ormal
Shejustlookedatmeandl eft ohwel l
thatwas
rude,soshe'sthebit
chytype.Iwasj
ustbei
ngnice,
from nowonshe' l
lbeaddressi
ngmeasMsShez i
andIwon' tbeniceatal
l.
Phi
la:
(cl
ear
sthr
oat
)sor
ryaboutt
hatbabe,
shecan
beshy
Me:youcal
lthatat
ti
tudebei
ngshy
?Andwhydoes
shecal
lyouPhil
ayou'r
eMrNgcobotoher
Phil
a:wecoolfr
iendsbabesoIdon'
tseet
heneed
forhert
ocall
meMrNgcobo
Me:
cool
fri
ends?Mmmhwel
ldur
ingof
fi
cehour
s
y
ouneedt
okeept
hingspr
ofessi
onal
Phi
l
a:okayf
ineSi
ya
Hewasir
ri
tat
edandsatdowngul
pingonagl
assof
wat
er.
Me:
whyar
eyouwear
ingaNav
ysui
t?
Phi
l
a:whatdoy
oumean?
Me:you'
reweari
nganavysui
tPhil
asande,
youwere
wear
ingablackonewhenyoulef
thomenowy ou'
re
i
nanav ysui
t
Phil
a: Idon'
tknowwhatyou'
retal
ki
ngabout
,Il
eft
wearinganav ysui
tandyouweredrosysomaybe
that
'swhyy oudidn'
tseecl
earl
y
Me:IknowwhatIsawPhi
l
a,y
ouwer
ewear
inga
bl
acksuit
Phi
l
a:what
'swi
thy
out
odayAbongi
l
e!!
HecalledmeAbongi l
e wheneverhecal
l
smeby
thatnameit
seitherheisangr
yorhei
sseri
ous
aboutsomethi
ng.
Me:
sor
rymay
beI
'
mjusti
magi
ningt
hings
Iwon'
teventel
lhim aboutseei
ngsomeonel i
kehi
m
att
hemal l
today.Heseemspi ssedal
readysoI
won'
tpushit.
Phi
la:
damnr
ighty
ouar
e,nowwhatdi
dyoucome
her
efor?
Me: ohIj
ustcamet
osayhi
,butI
'
llj
ustl
eav
e
Phi
l
a.
Hecouldseet
hatI
'
m hur
tandhest
oodupandcame
nextt
ome
Phi
la:
I'
m sorryforshout i
ngaty ouMaShezi,
justt
hat
Iwasreal
lygett
ingpi ssedandy ouknowmyt emper
i
ssue'
s,imreall
ysor r
yIdi dn'
tmeant ohur
tyou.And
pl
easedon'tl
eav ebabe, I
'
llbeleavi
nginanhourso
wecangohomet ogether
Me:i
tsokayNgcoboI
'
m al
sosor
ryf
ormyat
ti
tude.
WhatcanIhel
pyouwit
h
Phil
a:comel
etmeshowy
out
her
oom Iwast
alki
ng
about
Hewalkedt
ot hel
eftofhisoffi
ceandopenedadoor
t
hatl
edt ot
hisbeauti
ful
Gr eyandwhit
eroom wi
th
Pi
ctur
esofme
Me:babet
hisi
sbeaut
if
ul,
youhav
edi
ff
erentpi
ctur
es
ofmehere
Phil
a:yeahever
yroom hasdi
ff
erentpi
ctur
esbabe
butthebabyoneisther
einal
lofthem
Me:
Iguessi
tsspeci
alhey
Phi
l
a:y
eahi
treal
l
yisspeci
albabeIl
ovei
t
Ihel
dhi
m closeandkissedhim,justwhentheki
ss
wasgett
ingint
enseandIwasl ookingfor
wardto
someoffi
ceromanceOr at
il
ebargedi n
shei
sreall
ystart
ingt
ogetonmyner ves!
Ora:
I'
m sorrytodi
stur
bbutPhi
l
ayouhav
ean
i
mpor t
antcall
From MrShur
enz
Me:hei
sMrNgcobot
oyouandcan'
thet
akei
t
l
ater
Phi
l
a:nobabeim sor
ryIreal
l
yhavetotakei
t.
..And
hel
eftmestandi
ngther
e whaaat
!!
!
Or
ati
l
ewinkedandf
oll
owedhi
m out
,di
dshej
ust
wi
nkatme!?
Iwal kedoutoft her oom andi ntohisof fice,hewas
facingt heopenv i
ewandIt ookmybagandl eft
withouthi m seeingme.I 'm angryr i
ghtnowandal lI
needi sanexpensi vebottleofwi neandi cecr eam!I
drov ehomeandar ri
vedinj ust15mi ns,tookof fall
mycl othesandIwasl eftinonlymyunder wear .
Tookabot tl
eofwi ne,sorryIwon' tbeusi ngany
glasst oday !Andat ubofi cecream t henwentt ot he
Jacuzzi t
ub.Thewar m wat ercooledmedownandI
washav i
nganamazi ngmemoment .AfteranhourI
gotoutandwentt obed, t hewinewasr eallyget ti
ng
tomyknees andIgoti nsi
demybl anki es.Ifhe
thinksI '
llcooksupperf orhim, hemustt hinkt wice.I
drift
edt osl eepi
nj ustaf ewseconds

#Phi
l
a
Siy
awasact ingr eall
ystrangetodaybutIdon't
bl
ameher .Andshewasr ightaboutthesui
t,Iwas
wearingabl acksui twhenIl ef
thomebutOr atil
e
mistakenlyspil
ledcof feeonmesowewentt o
pavi
lionandIgotanewsui twhichwasNav y.Idi
dn'
t
wantt otel
lhert hiscausesheal readyhat
esOr asoI
don'twantt omaket hi
ngswor secauseonceSiya
hatesy ou,shereal
lydoes.Soafterthecall
Itur
ned
andr eali
zedshehasl ef
tandshedi dntevenwaitfor
me, wellthecallt
ooklongerthanIthoughtbuti
t's
greatforbusinessandIhopeshe' l
lunderst
and.AsI
waspacki ngmybagsOr ati
l
ecamei nt
omyof fi
ce
Or
a: heyIhavesomefoodher
ewithme,it
sChinese
justali
ttl
etokent
osayI'
m sor
ryaboutear
li
er
Phi
l
a:youdidn'
thavet
oandI
'
m aboutt
oleav
enow
soyoucanhaveit
Or
a:oh
Phi
l
a:noIdon'tmeantober
udeoranyt
hingbutI
wassupposedtobehomeanhourago
Ora:i
tsokaybutItwasn'
tevengoi
ngtotake15mi
ns
ofyourt
imePhila,ij
ustwantedt
oapol
ogize
Phi
l
a:okayokayf
inej
ust15mi
nst
henI
'
m gone
Wesatdownandat ewhilehavi
ngagr
eat
conversat
ion.She'sreal
lyfunny wetal
kedand
tal
ked.Icheckedt heti
meandanhourhaspassed
alr
eadyIdidn'tevennoti
ce
Phi
l
a:f
uck!I
ts7:
30pm!Ihav
etogo
Ora:what
!Met oo,
sirI'
m sor
rybutwil
lyoudropme
offatt
hetaxir
ankit'
skindal
ateformet ogetacab
goingt
hereri
ghtnow
Phi
l
a:y
oucan'
tbet
aki
ngat
axi
toSt
engaatt
hist
ime
Or
a:whatwi
l
lIdonow
GodIknowdoingthiswi
l
lgetmeint
otr
oubl
ewi
th
Si
yabutIcan'
tleav
eherli
kethi
s
Phi
l
a:I
'
lldr
ivey
ouhome
Wel ef
ttheoffi
ceanddr ovetoherhome.Itwasa
greatdri
veandI'm enjoy
inghercompany ,
Idropped
heroffanddrovebackhome.WhenIgott hereit
was22:45shit!Igotinsi
deandallt
hel i
ghtswereoff,
Iwalkedtotheroom andSi y
awassl eeepi
ng
Itookoffmyclothesandt
ipt
oedtobedjustwhenI
wasinsi
deSiy
at alked shitIt
houghtshewas
asl
eep
Si
ya:
Ist
hist
het
imet
ocomehome?
Me:
nobabeIcanex
plai
n
Si
ya:Idi
dn'taskyoutoexpl
ainany
thi
ng,
itsasi
mpl
e
quest
ionanditneedsananswer
Damnshe'
spi
ssed,
hert
onesay
sital
l
Me:
No
Si
ya:
okay
,shest
oodup
Me:
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Si
ya:t
ogomakesupperf
ory
ou,
youcan'
tsl
eepon
anemptyst
omach
Me:I'
veeatenalr
eady
,Orat
il
eboughtt
akeawaysfor
usanditgotlat
ebabesoIdrov
eherhomet hat
's
whyI'
m arr
ivi
ngatthi
sti
me
Siy
a: sof
ir
stshe'
syourPAnowshe'sbecomeyour
personal
chefandyouhavebecomeherchauf
feur
!
(Cl
apsonce)wadlaOrat
il
e!
Andshegotbacki
ntobedandswi
tchedofhersi
de
l
amp
Me: babenoshewasapol ogi
zi
ngforthesui
t
i
ncidentwiththefoodandIcoul
dn'
tsaynoandI
couldn'
tlethert
aketaxi
'ssol
ate
Si
ya:
thesui
tinci
dent
?
Damn!Ishoul
dn'
thav
ement
ionedt
hat
Me:
uhnsui
tinci
dent
?
Si
ya:
don'
tmakemeaf
ool
Lesl
ey!
Shet
hrewapi
l
lowonme
Me:ouch!OkaybabeI'
m sorr
y,Il
iedearl
ieryesyou
wereri
ghtaboutt
hesuit,
Iwaswear i
ngabl acksui
t
whenIlef
tbutOrati
l
eaccidental
l
yspil
ledcoffeeon
meandIhadt ocomebackhomeandchange
Si
ya:
you'
rest
il
ll
yi
ngt
ome
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Siy
a:Phil
asandeIsawyouatPav i
li
onweari
nganav y
sui
tholdi
nghandswithsomegirlswhi
chInowknow
i
t'
sOratil
ebutyou'
rest
il
ll
yi
ngt omeandsay i
ngy ou
camehomeandchanged.Yournav ysui
tisinyour
cl
osetthesecondonefr
om theleft
!
Wowsher
eal
l
ygotmeandshe'
sangr
y!I
vemessed
up
Me:
babe
Siya:
don'tbabemeLesl
eydon'
t!I
tsOrat
il
ethi
s,
Orati
let
hat!!Youli
etomenowPhila!
?Youcome
backhomel ate!
?
Me:
Babedon'
tshoutatme
Si
ya:
mxm goodni
ghtPhi
l
a
Shepul
l
edt
hebl
anket
sof
fmeandsl
ept
Wowt hisi
sgoi ngtobeal ongnight! Itook
anotherbl
anketintheclosetandslept
,itr
iedhol
ding
herbutshejuststoodandwal kedouttheroom.I
fol
lowedherbutshel ockedthespareroom bef
oreI
couldevenreachit.
Me:
babepl
easeopenup
Shejustdidn'tr
espondandapar tofmeknowst hat
she'
scryinginthere.Si
yaisverysensi
ti
veandshe
cri
esalotev enwhent her
e'snoneedforhert
ocr y
Me:Ndyamthandaimreal
lysorr
ypleasecomeback
tobed,
Iwon'thol
dyou,Iwon'tt
alkbutpl
easej
ust
comebacktobedbabe
Ist
ayedt
her
eforabout30mi
ns
Me:okayI
'
m goi
ngbackt
obed,
I'
m sor
ry.Il
ovey
ou
okay
Iwasgett
ingr
eall
ysleepyandIwentt
obedandf
ell
asl
eepimmediat
ely

#NEXTMORNI
NG
IwokeupandSi yawasnoti nbed,soshenev er
cameback.Iwentt otakeashowerandwhenIwas
donet hebedwasal readymadeandshehadt ook
outmywor kclot
hesf orme.Anditwasthenav ysui
t
(notthenewone)Igotdr essedandwentdownst air
s,
shelookedbeaut i
fulandIdidn'
tevennoti
cehernew
hair
style .Shegav emebr eakfastandIthanked
herbutshej ustl
ookedatme
Me:
babewi
l
lyout
alkt
ome?
Shecont i
nueddoingwhatshewasdoi ngandnever
paidanyattenti
ontome.Thissil
enttr
eatmentis
start
ingtopissmeof f butIbroughtitupon
my selfsogett
ingangr
ywon'thel
p.
Me:
goodby
ebabeI
'
mleav
ingnow,
youhav
ea
beaut
iful
hair
styl
ebabesor
ryIdi
dn'
tnot
icei
t
yest
erday.Il
oveyou
Siy
a:you'r
etoobusynot
icingOrat
il
esoIwoul
dn'
t
expectyoutoseemyhairsty
le.
Shesai
dandwal
kedoutgoi
ngt
othel
astf
loor
Letmej ustletherbe,butthiswon'tlastl
ong.Iwent
tomycar ,todayI'
m drivi
ngmyBMW X6.Ihat e
l
eavingwhi l
et hi
ngsarelikethi
sbet weenmeand
Siy
abutIhav etogot owor kandmakemoneyf or
myf amily
.SpeakingofFami l
y,Ihavetocallmy
mom.I '
venev erreal
lytol
dheraboutget t
ingback
wit
hSi y
a.
Ical
l
edherandsheanswer
ed
Mom:myl
ongl
ostchi
l
d
Me:ehMaFuzeI
'
m notal
ongl
ostchi
l
d,Imi
ssy
ou
Mom:Imi
ssyoutoomychil
dandy ou'
venev
ercame
t
oseemeyetyoustayi
nDurbannow
Me:
thi
ngshav
ebeenhect
icmom butI
'
llcomesoon
Mom:
wheni
sthatsoon?Comet
hisweekendson
Me:I
'
llt
ry.Ihavesomet
hingt
otel
lyou,
Igotback
wi
thSiy
amt handa
Mom:
(ul
ulat
es)whenandhow!
?
Icoul
dtel
lthatshewasreal
lyhappy
,mymom l
oves
Siy
asomuchy ou'
dswearit
sherownchi
l
d
Me:
itsbeenamont
hort
wo
Mom: andyou'r
eonlyt
ell
i
ngmenow!You' r
eboth
defi
natel
ycomingtoseemethisweekend.No
fur
therdi
scussi
onsandshedroppedthecal
l.
Whatj
usthappened? mom i
fonl
yyouknewt
hat
shei
sn'
tevental
kingt
ome

#SI
YA
Im notreal
lyangryatPhi labutI'mjusthurtnot
becauseoft hisOrati
legi r
lbutbecausehei snow
capableoflyingtome.I 'm givi
nghimt hesil
ent
tr
eatmentcauseIknowhehat esit.I
ts11am andI
haveameet i
ngtoat tendt o.Aft
er2hoursIwasdone
andIgott omyof ficetherewasabunchofr oseson
mydeskandacar d"I'm sorrybabe..
.lov
e:P.L.N
Bel
i
nda:
someone'
shappy
Me:
nope.Apol
ogyr
osesgi
rl
Bel
i
nda:
why
It
oldherev
ery
thi
ng
Bel
i
nda:
Idon'
tl
iket
hisOr
ati
l
echi
ck
Me:
sameher
e,how'
sthebaby
?
Bel
inda:t
hebabyi
sokayever
ythi
ngiswel
lhey
.I
camet ogi
veyout
hesefi
l
es,Ihaveameet
ingtoget
tobye!
Shelef
tmyof f
iceandIcheckedthefi
lesandIwas
donealready .I
ts15:00pm,I'
m goinghome.Itext
ed
Zandytell
ingherI '
velef
tshehastogetal i
ftback
home.I'
mj usttir
edandwantt osl
eep
IgothomeandPhil
awasalr
eadyt
her
e,Iguess
Orati
l
eknockedof
fear
lyt
odaysi
nceherchauf
feuri
s
herealr
eady
Phi
l
a:babeI
'
mreal
l
yti
redoft
hesi
l
entt
reat
ment
Hecamet omeandki
ssedme,It
ri
edtopushhim
awaybutheist
oobi
gandIcan'
tevenpushhi
m off
me.Heki ssedmeandr ubbedmycl i
t hei s
makingmeweakf orhim.Imoanedsof tl
y .Hekissed
myneckandt ookof fmycl ot
hes,hepinnedmeon
thewall
andt ookof fmypant y.Heinsertedhispenis
onmyandst artedthrusti
ngwithhispaceupand
movingreall
yf ast
Iwasscr
eami
ngatt
het
opofmyv
oice!.
Phi
la:
IsaidI'
m sor
rySi
ya.IknowI
'
vemessedupbut
pl
easejustt
alktome.
Me:
,Il
ovey
ou
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
out
oobabe
Weki
ssedandki
ssed.Iopenedmyl
egsabi
twi
der
.

#LBUBT
Li
keOr
ati
l
e?
Pl
easel
i
keandcomment
Lov
eyou
[
1/11,
00:
27]Tat
enda:
Inser
t30
#SI
YA

Aft
erthathotsessionoflov
emaking wewere
l
ayingonthebedandIhadmyheadonhi schest
andwewer etalki
ngwhileI'
mli
steni
ngt
ohisheart
beat
Me:babeyoudoknowt
hatsexdoesn'
tsor
tout
pr
oblems
Phil
a:yesIknowbutIjustwantedyoutotal
ktome
babeandIwasget ti
ngangrybutIdidn'
twantt
o
argueyousinceIknowthatI'
m wrong.I
'mreal
l
y
sorryAbongi
le
Me:
itsf
inePhi
l
abutIr
eal
l
yhat
ethaty
oul
i
edt
ome
Phi
la:
I'
m sor
ry,
itwon'
thappenagai
nbobo.Il
ove
you
Me:iloveyoutoo,comelet
'sgomakesome
sandwichesI
'm hungr
ythenwe'l
lshoweraf
ter
war
ds
Phi
l
a:what
'st
het
ime
Me:
it'
sst
il
l7pm
Wegotdressedandwenttot
heki
tchent
henmade
somesandwichesandat
e
Phi
l
a:Ical
l
edmymom t
oday
Me: wowIhav en'
tseenheri
nyear
sthelastt
imeI
sawherwasMar
chholiday
sontheyeart
hatyoulef
t
Phi
l
a:whatwer
eyoudoi
ngeml
azi
Me:Iwentt
ov i
sitherandIwashopi
ngt
hatI
'
dsee
youbutdol
olo
Phi
la:
sor
rymylov
eIwassti
l
latthear
my .She
demandt
hatwecomeseehert
hisweekend
Me:ohthatwoul
dbel ov
ely Ishoulddosome
gr
ocer
yshoppingthenonourwaythere
Phi
l
a:okayt
hanbabenowaboutt
hatshower
Me:
nodon'
tgetanyi
deasi
tsj
ustashowerPhi
l
a
Phi
l
a:butbabe
Iranupst
air
sandwhenIgott
hereIwasr
eal
l
y
ti
red Ishouldhav
eusedtheli
ft
Phi
l
a:st
opbr
eat
hingl
i
keadog y
oushoul
d'
ve
usedt
hel
i
ftnotmaki
ngy
our
sel
fasuper
her
olana
Me:
shutup
Wet
ookashowerandwentt
obed.
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
resl
eepi
ngl
i
ket
hat
?Justnaked?
Me:
yesi
sther
eapr
obl
em
Phil
a:yes!That
'
stor
tur
e.Lookathowmyni
ggai
s
ri
ghtnow
HehadahugebonerandIdon'
tcar
e
Me:
sor
ry
Itur
nedandfacedt heothersi
deandhepull
edme
cl
oserandwedr i
ftedtowonderland aft
erwhat
seemedlikeafewhour s,Phi
lai
nsert
edhi
speni
sand
star
tedpenet
rati
ngme
Me:phi
la!Mmmhwhat. .Aah..You.
.doi
ng! I
knewexactl
ywhatheIdoingandtheti
mewas1am
Phi
la:
I'
mfucki
ngy
ou,
Iwon'
tbemaki
ngl
ovet
o
you
Het
urnedmear
oundandIwasonmyknees!He
wasri
ppi
ngmypunani
off
!Hemov
esf
ast
erand
r
ougher
Me:
Phi
l
a!!
Heturnsmear
oundandourf
oreheadtouchi
ng,
hei
s
l
ookingint
omyeyesandI
'
m scr
eaming!
Phil
a:sssssshandheki ssesmewhi lehemov es
fast
er!Thisguyisplanningt okil
lmet oni
ght .Iwrap
mylegsar oundhiswaistandheput shishandson
mybumswhi lesqueezingt hem.Hi sthrustsgo
deeperandhei shit
tingev erycorner !Hekeeps
onmov ingdeeperandf aster!Ifeelahotf lushall
overmybody !I'
m aboutt ogivein, t
or eachmy
happyending
Phi
l
a:wai
tformeAbongi
l
e
Me:
Ican'
t!
Itryt
oholditi
nbutafteraf
ewmi
nut
eswebot
h
reachourdest
inat
ion
Phi
l
a:t
hatwasamazi
ng t
hanky
ou
Ij
ustlookedathim andsmi
l
ed,
Iwassot
ir
edIj
ust
wantedtosleep
Hewenttot
hebat
hroom andcamebackwi
tha
war
mt owel
andcl
eanedusup
Iputmyheadonhi
schestandhetookmylegand
putitov
erhi
m,hei
nser
tedhispeni
sagai
n! nono
no
Me:
phi
l
aahana
Phi
l
a:ssshr
elax,
hissl
eepi
ngi
nsi
dey
out
oni
ght
Ij
ustf
ell
asl
eepwi
tht
hissnakei
nsi
deofme

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeupandt hi
ssnakewasst i
l
linme Igot
ontopofPhilaandrodehi
ml i
keneverbefore.His
eyespoppedoutandhewasgr oani
ng Imov ed
fast
erandhewasr oari
ngl
ikeali
on.Iloveitwhenhe
i
sl i
ket
his,heismybeast heturnedmear ound
andgotontopofmeandf uckedmelikeitsthelast
ti
me
Afterwewer
edonewewentt
otakeashower
together
Phi
l
a:Whatagr
eatwayt
owakeup,
Ilov
eyou
MaShezi
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oMaphol
obawam
Aft
eranhourweweredoneandItookouthisgr
ey
sui
tforhi
m andIwor
eagreydresswit
hblack
sti
l
ett
os
Phi
la:wannadr
opmeof
fatwor
k?Idon'
tfeel
li
ke
dr
ivi
ngtoday
Me:
okaybabewe'
l
lfet
chZandy1st
Wehadbreakf
astandl
eft
.Idr
ovet
oZandy'sand
shewasweari
ngagreysui
twit
hbl
ackst
il
ett
os
Me:
isi
tgr
eyday
?
Zandy:i
justwokeupandf
eltl
i
kegoi
nggr
eat
today
Phi
l
a:Iguessi
tist
hen.Howar
eyouZandi
l
e?
Zandy
:I'
m okayandy
ou?
Phi
l
a:I
'
m okay
Wethendr
oppedoffPhi
laandheadedt
owork,
Bel
i
ndax2( herandthebabybump)wasal
readyi
n
myof
fi
cesoZandyj
oinedus
Bel
i
nda:
myf
eethur
tyohmassageany
one
Isatdownandmassagedherf
eet
Me:hehehy
ouguyswon'
tbel
i
evei
t.Zandy
r
ememberwhenIsai
dIsawsomeonelikePhi
l
a
whenwewereatt
hemall
Zandy
:thedudewi
thaNav
ysui
tandhol
dingsome
gi
rl
shand?
Me:y
epandi
twasr
eal
l
yPhi
l
a.Thegi
rli
shi
snewPA
Or
ati
l
e
Bel
i
nda:
whyar
etheyhol
dinghandsandatt
hemal
l
Me:Or
ati
leacci
dental
lyspil
l
edcoff
eeonPhil
aso
t
heywenttogetanothersui
tandhechanged
Zandy:whydidn'
thegoal
one?Orgobackhomeand
changeinst
eadofbuyi
nganewsuit
?
Me:Ireall
ydon'
tknowbutthere'
sjustsomet
hing
aboutthatOr
ati
legi
rlbutI
'
llbekeepinganey
eon
her
Bel
i
nda:
youhav
etosweet
s,i
fshei
soutofl
i
newe
wi
l
lsor
therout
Zandy:whaty
ouneedt
osor
touti
syourf
eetousi
e
theyar
ehuge
Bel
i
nda:
tel
lmesomet
hingIdon'
tknow
Weal l
laughedandZandiwenttoherof
fi
cewhi
l
eI
headedtoameet i
ngwithdaddyMandla
Dad:heyst
ranger
,eversi
ncethatNgcoboboycame
backyou'
vebeenglowingandscarce.Ihopehei
s
tr
eati
ngyouwell
Me:yesdadheistr
eati
ngmewel landyesIam
gl
owing butI'
m notast
ranger.You'
vebeenin
Par
isfort
hepast2weekssoyou'
ret hest
ranger
Dad:
sowhathasbeengoi
ngon?
Me:not
hingmucht
houghIhav
eaf
ewquest
ionst
o
askyou
Dad:
shoot
Me:
theyar
eabi
tper
sonal
dad
Dad:
itsokaymydar
li
ngy
oucanask
Me:
Idon'
tknowhowt
oasky
oubuthav
eyouev
er
beeninal
ongrel
ati
onshi
pormay beasidechi
ck
thaty
oumightt
hinkyoumighthavehadachil
dwit
h
Dad:(
laughs)that
'snotpossiblesweeti
e,I
'm notabl
e
tomakechi l
dren,I
'mjustausel essmanthat'
swhy
I'
m si
ngleandnotmar r
ied.Whatwomanwoul dwant
amant hatcan'tmakebabi es.Andthatmybaby
answersyourquestion.
Me:
soi
tsi
mpossi
ble?
Dad:
yes
Me:
howmanywomanhav
eyoul
i
key
ouknow
Dad:
manyI
'
veev
enl
ostcount
Me:
dad! okayt
hanI
'
m donewi
tht
hequest
ions
Dad:
whyar
eyouaski
ng?
Me:
just
Dad:
real
l
y?
Me:
yeahby
e
Iqui
ckl
ystoodupandlef
tcauseIdontwantany
morequesti
onsf
rom hi
m
Ihadbackt obackmeet i
ngsal ldayandi t
s4pm now
I'
m goi nghome.I '
m sot i
redandIwon' tbecooking,I
passedatSpurandgotsomet akeaway sthen
boughtsomepi zzaandwi ne.Idrov etoPhil
a'
s
wor kplacewhenIgott ohisofficeOr at
il
ewaswas
barelyev endressed!Thedr essshewaswear i
ng
gosh!I thardl
ycov ersanythi
ngandshei ssitt
ingon
mymansdeskwi thherboobsal lout! Hebanna! !
!
Ayngy al
ingwa!Philawasst ari
ngatt heboobshe
didn'tevennot i
cethatI'v
ear r
ived
Me:
Phi
l
asande
Hesawmeandqui ckl
ystoodupandcametome.
Hehadahugeboner Iwassohur
tri
ghtnowI
j
ustdi
dn'
tevenwanttoconfronthi
m
Phi
la:
(cl
ear
sthroat
)ohbabey
ou'
reher
eal
ready
,he
ki
ssedmycheek.
Me:y
eahl
et'
sgopl
ease
Phi
l
a:y
ousoundsadbabewhat
'swr
ong?
Me:not
hing,I
'
mj ustti
red.You'
l
lmeetmebythecar
.
Isai
dandjustwalkedoutandwalkedqui
ckl
ytot
he
l
if
t,wi
thtear
sslowl
ygoi
ngdownmycheeksIdidn'
t
evennot
icether
ewassomeoneel
sei
ntheli
ft
Hi
m: whyi
sabeaut
if
ull
adyl
ikeyoucr
ying?
Whoevermadey
oucryl
iket
hisi
sabastard
Me:(sni
ff
s)ohsorr
yIdi
dn'
tseey
ou.I
tsj
usta
headachenot
hingmuch
GoshIcan'
tl
ie! r
eal
l
yaheadachet
hatmakesy
ou
cr
y
Him:Ihavetogonow, Ihopeyou'
l
lbeokay.Hegave
met i
ssueandleft
.Iwalkedtomycarandwaitedf
or
Phil
awhocameaf t
er10mins.Idr
oveoffassoonas
heclosedthedoor.
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
vebeencr
ying?
Me:
no
Phi
la:Icanseethaty
ou'
vebeencr
yingAbongi
l
e
what'
swr ong?
Me:
per
iodpai
ns
Phil
a:ohsor
rybabe,
youmustgetsomer
estI
'
llcook
supper
Me:noneed,
Ial
readyboughtbur
ger
sandpi
zzaf
or
supper
.
WegothomeandIt ookashowert henwentstrai
ght
tobed.RightnowI '
mr eall
yhurtbutIwon'
tment i
on
i
tt oPhi
la,sometimessi l
enceisthebestr
esponse.I
closedmyey esandal lIcoul
dseei st
hatgir
land
Philadr
oolingoverherboobs.
Ievent
ual
lygav
euponfall
ingasleepandIwent
downstai
rst
othet
hir
dfloor,Phi
l
awasont hephone
wit
hsomeonesoIeavesdroped
Phi
l
a:Ihadf
unt
odayOr
a
Mxm hei
stal
ki
ngt
oOr
ati
l
e Ij
ustwal
kedpassed
hi
m
Phi
la:ohIhavetogonowOr
a,sendmet
heemai
l
s
andI'
l
l checkev
ery
thi
ng
Whathappenedt
othef
unnow?
Me:Iwanty
out of
ir
eher,
Iwantheroutofourl
i
ves.
Tomorrowyou'
l
lbehav
inganewPAandshemust
begone!
Phi
l
a:why
?
Me:
becauseIsai
dso
Phi
l
a:t
hat
'snothappeni
ng
Me:
fine.ThenI
'
m gone!
Iwalkedt
ot heki
tchenandwarmedupmyf oodand
pouredaglassofwinethenwenttotheTVr
oom.I
watched2brokegir
lswhil
eeat
ing.Phil
awal
kedi
n
Phi
l
a:okayf
ineI
'
llf
ir
eherAbongi
l
e
Me:
okay
Hecamet osi
tnextt
omeandwewatchedTVin
si
lence.Hewasbusyonhi
sphonemostofthet
ime,
I'
m sureit
sOrati
l
e
Me: Iwon'
tbegoingtoworktomor
row,I
'll
go
shoppingduri
ngthedayandtheny
ou'l
lfetchme
herewheny ouknockof
fthenwecango
Phi
l
a:wher
eto?
Me:
yourmomshousePhi
l
asande
Mxm heforgot
!Hisheadisfi
ll
edwi t
hOrati
lethat
's
why.It
ookmydi shestotheki
tchen,washedthem
andwenttobed.Itookofmypy j
amaspant sand
wasleftinmyunderwearandv
est
.Igotint
obedand
wentthroughI
nstagr
am onmyphone.Phil
awal
ked
i
n
Phil
a:babeIdon'tl
i
kei
twhenwel
i
kethi
sand
especi
all
ysincewegoi
ngtomom'
shouset
omor
row
wecan'tbeliket
his
Me:
okay
Phil
a:Iwon'tgotoworkandI
'
llcomewi
thyoufor
groceryshoppi
ngthenwecanleav
eear
lyI
'
m sure
she'l
lbehappy
Me:
okaycool
thengoodni
ghtNgcobo
Iputmyphoneasi
deandsl
ept
.

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeupandt ookal ongfoam bathwhil
ejustdeep
i
nt houghts.AfterthatIlot
ionedmybodyandwor ea
ti
ghtpencildeni m skir
twit
habl ackteeanddenim
j
acket (
longsleeve),thenwor emyblackNike
sneakers.Philawasst il
lsl
eeping,It
ookout
mat chi
ngclothesf orhim,jeans,bl
ackteeanddenim
j
acket
(l
ongsleeve)wit
hbl
ackNi
kesneakers.Iwent
topr
eparebreakf
astandmadeagr
oceryli
st.Phi
la
cameandkissedmeonmycheek
Me:
Mor
ningpumpki
n
Phi
l
a: pumpki
n?Real
l
ybabe wel
lgoodmor
ning
Pot
atoe
Idi
shedupbr
eakf
astf
orhi
m andpour
edj
uicet
hen
gavehi
m
Hel
ookedatmeconf
used
Me:
what
?Idi
dn'
tpoi
sony
ouNgcobo
Phi
la:y
eahIknowbabe justwonder
ingwhyy
ou
al
lhappy,
lastni
ghty
ouwer
emadatme.
Me:honest
lyimtir
edofbei
ngmadaty ouand
ev
eryt
hingthat
'sbeengoi
ngon,
Ijustwanttomov
e
on
Phi
la:
I'
m sor
ryaboutever
ythi
ngbabe.Idi
dn'
treal
i
ze
howthisOr
ati
legi
rlwasupsett
ingy
ou.
Me:
it'
sokaybabe noweat
Iwat
chedhi
m asheat
e,hewasr
eal
l
ycut
e
It
ext
edZandy
,tel
l
ingherI
'
m notgoi
ngt
owor
k.
Phi
l
a:l
etmegoshowerbabe
Hel ef
thi
sphoneont hetabl
e mmmhIgot
temptedsoIjusttookitandwentthroughitthenput
i
tbackwher eheleftitandwenttowat chTV, I
catcheduponIsidingo:TheneedwhileIwait
edf or
Philatof
ini
shsowecangogr ocer
yshopping.After
anhourhecamedownandhewasl ooking
goood
Me:
youl
ookgood
Phi
la:Yout
oobabe t
hanksf
orpi
cki
ngoutmy
cl
othes.
Me:
you'
redr
ivi
ng
Wewentt othegarageandheaskedmewhichcarI
wanttouseandIchoset hewhi
teBMW X6.We
drov
et oMusgraveMallandwenttoPi
cknPaythen
gotall
thegr
oceriesweneeded
Me: babether
e'sahouseweneedt
opassbyeMbi
l
o
Ineedt opi
ckupacakeIorder
ed
Phi
l
a:okaybabe
Wedrovet
oAuntDorot
hy'
shouse(t
hebaker
)and
pi
ckedupt
hecake.
Me:
itsf
rui
tcake,
yourmomsf
avor
it
e
Phi
l
a:y
oust
il
lremember
?
Me:
I'
ll
nev
erf
orget
Phi
l
a:Ihopeshehasher5r
osest
eabags
Me:
Iboughtt
hem babe
Phi
l
a:goodt
hen.She'
l
lbev
eryhappyt
oseey
ou.
Me:
wil
lwest
ayov
erbabe?
Phi
la:yeahwest
ayi
ng,
we'
l
lcomebackSunday
af
ternoon
Me:
okayI
'
llpackf
orus
WegothomeandIpackedourbagwi
thPhi
l
a
hel
pingme
Me:
wher
eismybl
ackl
ongdr
ess?
Phi
l
a:y
ouhav
emanybl
ackl
ongdr
essesbabe
Me:
not
heonewi
thsmal
lst
rapsbabe
Hewentt
omycl
osetandcamebackwi
thi
t
Me:
thanky
oubabey
ou'
real
i
fesav
er
Phi
la:
Idon'tknowwhyyouhavesomanycl
othes
Si
ya,youdon'tev
enwhereal
loft
hem
Me:
yeahbabebutIl
oveal
lofmycl
othes
Phi
l
a:t
heny
ousayNcebai
scr
azy
Me: seeNcebakazii
sonanotherlevel
.Herroom i
sa
cl
othingshop,Iwon'
tsayherclosetcauseshe
doesn'tev
enknowhowt ousei t,
herclothesar
eall
overtheplace
Phi
l
a:psy
cho babear
eyoudone?
Me:
yeap
Phi
l
a:okayl
et'
sgot
hen
I
ts11am we'
ll
bether
eat12:30.Hedr
oveoutand
wepassedNandosandgotsomefoodwe'
llhavefor
l
unch.Hegotacal
lfr
om Orati
l
eandhegavemet he
phone
Ora:
Phil
a,pl
easedon'
tfi
reme.Ineedt
hisj
obpl
ease
Ihaveafamil
ytolookaf
ter
Me:
youshoul
d'
vet
houghtabouty
ourf
ami
l
ybef
ore
yougotoutofhand.Nowl
ist
endon'
tevercall
Phil
a
agai
noryou'l
lhavemetodealwi
thunder
stand?
Or
a:y
est
henshedr
oppedt
hecal
l
Shest
il
lhast
hener
ve!
WegottoPhila'
shomeandi
tabi
gdoubl
est
ory
houseandabeauti
ful
gar
den Phil
a'
smom came
runni
ngout
side
Mom: Si
yamt
handamydaught
er shehuggedme
t
ight
ly
Me:
HeyMom howar
eyou?
Mom:
I'
m okaymychi
l
djustol
dageget
ti
ngt
ome
Me:you'
l
lnev
ergrowol
dmommyy
oul
ooky
ounger
ev
eryti
meIseeyou
Phi
l
a:hel
lot
oyout
ooMom.Youcan'
tev
enseey
our
ownson
Mom:tsekwenawesti
l
lhav
ingagi
rlt
ime.Ihav
en'
t
seenmybabyiny
ear
s
Phil
atookoutthegr
ocer
iesandIhel
pedhi
m wi
th
packi
ngthem up
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
Lov
eyou
[
1/11,
00:
28]Tat
enda:
Inser
t31
Phi
l
awentoutt
otakeacal
landIwasl
eftwi
thhi
s
mommy.
Mom: sowhendidy
ouguy
sgetbackt
oget
her
?How
di
ditall
happen
Me: wellMa,myf r
iendsandIwer einvi
tedt oaparty
bymynei ghborswemett heseguy sandwebecame
coolfr
iendsandoneoft hem wasi nthepr ocessof
beingbusinesspartnersinsomepr oject.Turnsout
theseguysar ePhi
la'sbestfri
endsandwemetatt he
l
aunch.Hehadagi rlf
ri
endatt hatti
mebutl ongstory
cutshortwegotbackt oget
herandi tsbeen
2monthsnow
Mom: andI'm onl
yfindi
ngoutnow? I'm gl
adhe
foundyou,hisli
fewasmi ser
abl
ewit
houtyoumy
chil
d.Hereall
ylovesyouandIknowyoulovehi
m
t
oo
Me:yesi
domom l
etmepr
epar
esomef
oodf
or
l
unch
Mom:
okayI
'
llhel
p
Me:noneedtomom, Iboughtsometakeaways
t
henwecancookf orsupperl
ater
.AndIboughty
our
f
avori
tef
rui
tcake
Mom:youstil
lremember t
hankyoumybaby
.I'
l
l
gor
estfornowandwhenIwakeupI'
l
lhav
emycake.
Shewenttoherr
oom andIdi shesupforPhi
laand
wenttocal
lhi
m out
side.Hewast alki
ngtosomeguy
out
sidemaybeheisachildhoodfri
end
Me:
Sawbona(
hel
l
o).
.
Hi
m:SawbonaNt
okazi
(hel
l
ogi
rl
)
Iwentbackinsi
dethehousenotwantingtodi
stur
b
thei
rconver
sati
on.IputPhi
l
a'sfoodinthe
microwaveandateminewhilewatchi
ngTheReal.
Phil
awalkedbackinsi
de
Me:
yourf
oodi
sint
hemi
crowav
ebabe
Hewar
medi
tupandt
hencamey
ojoi
nme
Phil
a:ThatwasNgcebo,weusedtogot
over
sit
y
toget
herbutweweren'
treal
l
yfri
ends
Me:
ohokaywel
lmomenti
staki
nganap
Phi
la:
shewantsust
ovi
sithert
hanshet
akesnaps
whenwehere.
Me:aahbabeshe'
sget
ti
ngol
dsowecan'
texpect
hert
obeupallday
Phil
a:sowhi
leshe'
sasl
eepwhydon'
twej
usthav
e
funyouknow
Me:
whatki
ndoff
un?
Phi
l
a:t
hey
ouont
opofmeki
ndaf
un
Me:noo behav
eyour
sel
f.That
'snot
happeni
ngt
il
lwegobackhome
Phi
l
a:t
henl
et'
sgohomenow
Me:
that
'sal
sonothappeni
ng
Phi
la:
butbabe,seehowheneedsy
ou.Hesai
dwhi
l
e
poi
nti
ngathishugeboner
Me:sorr
yhe'
l
lbest
rong.FornowIhav
etopr
epar
e
supper
Phi
l
a:okayI
'
llhel
p.
Wewentt
otheki
tchenandst
art
edcooki
ng
Phi
l
a:sobabet
ell
me,
whenar
ewehav
ingbabi
es
Me:uhm Idon'
tknow,
Ihav
en'
tthoughtofthatbabe
yourememberhowwealwayssai
dwewi ll
hav e
t
hreechi
ldren
Phi
l
a:2gi
rl
sandoneboy
Me:
yeahweev
enhadbabynames
Phi
l
a:butIt
hinkIwant2boy
sand1gi
rlnow
Me:
aahIwantt
wogi
rl
s
Phi
l
a:okaylet
'sj
ustsay2boysand2gi
rl
s.ButIwant
myfir
stchi
l
dt obeaboy,l
it
tl
eNgcobo
Me:
that
'scut
ehey
Mom: i
t'
sgoodthaty
ouwantmet
obeagrandma
Yourf
athercal
l
edandhesai
dhewant
syoutovi
si
t
hi
m soon
Shej
ustcameoutofnowhwer
e
Phil
a:Iwonderwhyyouguyssti
l
lsayyou'r
e
separat
edorvel
eniy
ajol
afuth?(oryou'
redat
ing
again)
Mom:
mxm y
oucanbesuchani
diotsomet
imes
Me:
you'
rebl
ushi
ngmom
Mom: andy ou'
rebegi
nningt
obelikehi
m don'
t
tur
noutlikePhil
apleaseheneedsmedical
assi
stance
Phil
a'
sparent
sseparatedwhenwewere16buti
ts
j
ustalway
sbeent hesame, t
heyar
edi
vor
cedbut
toget
her Idon'tunderst
andtoo.
Wecont i
nuedwit
hcooki
ngwhi
l
eMom wasenj
oyi
ng
hercakewitht
ea
Mom:
thi
sisdel
i
cious,
thanky
oumybabi
es
Igotacal
lfr
om Nay
eandi
twasexci
ti
ngnews!
Me:
Phi
l
a! Nkosi
iswal
ki
ngagai
n!Hecanwal
k!
Phil
a:what!Babethat
'
sgr
eatl
ikewhendi
dthi
s
happen.Ihavetogoseemyboy
Me:Nay
esai dhest
oodupandwalkedtodayand
t
heyontheirwayt
othehospi
tal
forsomecheckups!
Hecanwalk!
Wehuggedandki
ssed.Iwassohappyi
evenhad
t
ear
s
Mom:
what
'sgoi
ngon
Phil
a:i
tsNkosi
nat
hi,
hewasshotandcoul
dn'
twal
k
butnowhecanwalk.
Mom:
wowt
hat
'swonder
ful Godi
sgr
eat
Me:
yeshei
sindeedmom.Letmesett
het
abl
e
Iwentt
othedi
nni
ngt
abl
eandsetupt
hepl
atest
hen
di
shedup
Me:
thef
oodi
sready
Mom: t
hisl
ooksdel
i
cious t
hanky
oumy
daught
er
Phi
la:mom wewerepl
anni
ngonst
ayi
ngtheent
ire
weekendbutwehavet
ogobackhome.Ineedt
o
seeNkosiasap
Me:
sowe'
l
lbel
eav
ingt
omor
row?
Phi
l
a:y
esbabe
Mom:
that
'ssadbutIunder
standmybabi
es
Me:whydon'
tyougoandI
'
llst
aywi
thmom t
hensee
Nkosi
onmonday
Phi
l
a:ar
eyousur
ebabe?
Me:y
eahI'
m sur
epluswe'
llgettohaveourowngi
rl
t
imetomor
row.Idon'
twanttoleaveMaalone
Mom: y
ouaresuchasweet
hear
tI'
m sur
ewe'
l
lhav
e
l
otsoffunt
oget
her
Phil
a:okaythenify
ousureabouti
tthenI'
l
lleav
eyou
behi
ndt henfet
chyouSundayaft
ernoon
Me:
okaybabe
Wecontinuedeati
ngwhi
lehav
ingagood
conv
ersati
on.Iser
vedt
hedesser
t
Mom:Phil
awhenareyoupayi
nglobol
aforSi
ya.She
i
severy
thi
ngyouneedandsheiscapabl
eofbei
nga
goodwif
e
Me:
mom wenotr
eadyf
ormar
ri
agey
et
Phi
l
a:Whent
het
imecomesmay
ou'
l
lbet
hef
ir
stt
o
know
Mom:j
ustdon'
tdoanyst
upi
dthi
ngst
hatcoul
d
makey
ouloseher
Phi
la:
nevermom,she'
sthel
oveofmyl
i
feandIdo
wanttomarr
yher
Mom:
Ican'
twai
ttoseePhi
l
aJnr
Honestl
yspeakingIr
eallyai
n'tr
eadyformar r
iage,
I
'mjust24may beatleastnextyearorthef ol
lowing
yearbutf
ornowIt hi
nkwe' r
eokaywi t
hj ustdati
ng.
Mom:wel
lI'
m goi
ngt
obednowI
'
mti
redwi
l
lseey
ou
i
nthemor
ningmybabies
Me:
goodni
ghtMa
Phi
l
a:sl
eepwel
lmom
Sheleftandwewashedt hedishesandcl eanedup
soIwon' tt
oomuchwor ktodot omorrowmor ni
ng.
Wet henwentt oPhila'
sroom andIt ookashower
thanwor emybl acknightdressandgoti ntobed.I
wentthroughmysoci almediaappsonmyphone
thentextedthegirl
sonourwhat sappgroupj ust
checkingupont hem andKamosentusascanof
herbabywel
lwecan'tt
ell
thegenderyet.Phi
lawas
al
sobusyonhisphonesoIswitchedofftheside
l
ampandcov er
edmy sel
fwit
htheblankie.
Phil
a:babe,sowhataboutt
hef
unIwast
alki
ng
aboutearl
ieron
Me:
nothappeni
ngNgcobo
Phi
l
a:babepl
ease
It
urnedandmyasswast
ouchi
nghi
speni
s
Phi
l
a:t
hisi
stor
tur
ebabe,
I'
m superhor
ny.
Hesqueezedmyassandi nser
tedhispeni
sinsi
deof
meandmov edslowlyandpassionat
ely
.Hemade
l
ovetomel i
kei twashisl
astti
me.Af t
erwewere
doneIf
ellasleeponhischest.

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeupandt ookashowerthenworemybl ack
l
ongdresswithsli
pper
s.Imadebreakf
astthen
cl
eanedaroundthehouse.Phi
lacamelooki
ngf r
esh
andall
packed
Me:
you'
rel
eav
ingear
ly?
Phi
la:
yeahbabeIal
sowantt
ogotowor
k,i
gota
newPAanddon'tworr
yit
'
samal
e
Me:
nowt
hat
'sgood.Wel
lbr
eakf
asti
sreadybabe
It
ookMa'
sbr
eakf
astt
oherr
oom
Mom:thanky ousweeti
eIwasj
ustaboutt
ocone
j
oiny
out hatsidebuty
ouknowhowlazyIcanbe
Me: y
eahsot
hat
'
swhyi
madet
hingseasi
erf
or
you
SeePhil
a'smom isverylazy,
shewast heonlychi
ld
atherhome,shecomesf r
om ari
chf amilyandshe
gotever
ythi
ngonasi l
verspoon.Shei sinhermid
50'
sandshedoesn'twantt oage,herbodyi sperf
ect
andshelooksli
keadol l
.
Mom:
sowhatar
ewedoi
ngt
oday
?
Me:Iwasthi
nki
ngweshouldgot
oaspaanddo
someshoppi
ngthenourhai
r
Mom:
yeahy
our
eal
l
yneedanewhai
rst
yle
Phi
l
awal
kedi
nandgr
eet
edhi
smot
her
Phi
la:
I'
ml eavi
ngnowmom,y
ouguy
shav
ea
wonderf
ulti
met oget
her
Mom:
byemybaby
,sayhel
l
otomyboy
sther
e
Me:
letmewal
kyouout
Wewal
kedtothecarandhegoti
nsi
deandIl
eaned
ont
hewindow
Me:Sayhel
l
ot omygir
lsandthegent
snhe.And
makesureyoubuysomethi
ngtoeatIdon'
twanty
ou
t
osleeponanemptystomach.
Phi
l
a:okaySiy
aI'
lldoso.Her
etakemycardanduse
i
tfr
om todayi
tsy
ours.Takecar
e,il
ovey
ou
Me:
thanky
oubabe.By
e,i
lov
eyout
oo
Wekissedandhedr ov
eoff.I
'
llmisshi
m somuch
t
houghI'l
lseehimtomorr
owaf t
ernoon.It
ext
edhim
"
Imissyoualready
"thenwentbackinsi
dethehouse
Mom:
letmegoshowerandgetdr
essedsowecan
go
Whil
eiwaswaiti
ngforheriwat
chedCakeboss.
Af
teranhourandahalfshecame
Me:
youl
ookgood
Mom:
Thanky
ou
Shewaswear ingawhi t
elongdressshowi
ngsome
cl
eav ageandblacksunhatwit
hshades.Kuguga
othandayo
Idr
ov ehercarawhit
eJeep.Wef i
rstwenttotheSpa
anditwasamazing t henwewentt oGalari
aMal l
anddidsomeshopping.Af t
erthatwewentt othe
sal
onanddi dourhai
r,Ididlongbrai
dsandsheput
onaweav eandgothernai l
sdone.
Me:
wher
edoy
ouwannaeat
?
Mom:
let
sgot
oCal
i
for
niaDr
eami
ng
Idr
ov eal
lthewaytoCalif
orni
aDreamingandi
twas
6pm whenwear r
ived.I
tsbeenalongdayandohad
3missedcall
sfr
om Phil
a.Ical
ledhim
Phi
l
a:whyhav
en'
tyoubeenanswer
ingy
ourphone?
Me:
Hel
l
otoy
out
oo.Sor
ryi
twasonsi
l
ent
Phi
la:
itsokaywel
lIjustwantedtot
ell
youthat
Nkosii
sokayever
ythingissort
edandheisbackt
o
hi
msel
fhecanwal
kpr
oper
ly.
Me:
that
'sgr
eat Imi
ssy
out
hough
Phil
a:ImissyoutooMaShezi
.I'
mv er
ysleepynow
babeitsbeenalongdayI
'
m headingtobed
Me:okayt
hanbabegetsomer
est
.Goodni
ghtIl
ove
you
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
out
oobabe
Hedroppedthecal
l,
well
that
'
sstrange.Phi
l
anever
dr
opsfir
stnordoeshesl
eepthi
searlybutmay
behe
i
sreal
lyti
red
Weor
der
edf
oodandt
henat
e
Mom:
howhashebeent
reat
ingy
out
hough?
Me:
beengreatmom I
'
m happyandhet
reat
sme
r
eal
l
ywell
.
Mom: Iknowhowst upidmysoncanbesometimes
andIknowt hehar
dt i
mesy ouguyshadt
ofaceback
thenandI '
m gladyoustil
ll
ovehi
m andyou'
rewi
th
him again
Me:
I'
ll
alway
slov
ehi
m andbewi
thhi
m Ma,
hei
smy
soul
mat
e.
Mom:
sohowi
shei
nbed?
okaydi
dIheart
hatcor
rect
ly!
?
Me:
Ma?
Mom: youheardme buthecan'
tbebadcause
hi
sfathershowedmef
lamessoI'm sur
ehetakes
af
terhim
Ij
ustdr
ankmywineandkeptqui
et.Thi
s
woman t
hisissoawkwardf
ormenow
Mom:don'
tbeshymybaby,youmustbeabletotal
k
t
omeaboutevery
thi
ng.Youknowy oumustgiv
eit
t
ohim sohewon'
tgolooki
ngfori
telsewher
e
Me:yoh Igi
veup!Mom!Thi
sisv
eryf
unnyand
awkward
Thewai
tercameandIpai
dthebil
landwel
eft
.Dr
ove
homeandwegotther
earound8pm.
Mom: I
'
mv eryt
ir
ednowmybabyl
et'
sgot
obed,
I
don'
twantyoutosl
eepal
one
Me:
okaymom
Wewentt oherr oom andwewer ebothtoot i
redto
shower .Shetoldmest ori
esabouthowshemet
Phil
a'sfatherandi twasaf unnyst
ory.Theymetata
taxir
ankandi twasherfir
stt i
metaki
ngat axi
, t
hey
arguedal l
thewaysi nceshewasj ustasnobandhe
wasf edupwi thhercompl aini
ngabouthow
unhygienictakingataxii
s.
Ifel
lasl
eepaf
tershewasdonet
alki
ngabouther
tal
es.

#NEXTDAY
Wewokeupt hismorningandhadbreakf
ast,
watchedaf ewmov i
esandspentthedaytogether
again.At4pm Phi
lacamet ofet
chmeandnowI '
m
home.Phi l
ahasbeenact i
ngabitst
rangeormay be
I'
mjustimagini
ngthings
Me:
Phi
l
aar
eyouokay
?
Phi
l
a:y
eahI
'
mfi
ne
Me:ar
eyousur
e,y
ouknowy
oucant
alkt
omeabout
any
thi
ng
Phil
a:Isai
dimf
ine!
!Whi
chpar
toft
hatdon'
tyou
underst
and!
Therehegoesagain Phi l
asandehassomeanger
i
ssues,hi
sisveryshor tt
empered.I
tal
lstar
tedwhen
hispar
entsseparated.Hecanseethati
m hurt,
he
knowshowsensi ti
veIam
Phil
a:I'
m sorr
ybabe,Ishouldnthaveshoutedatyou
l
ikethat.Thi
ngswerejusthecticatwor kt
oday,we
l
ostoneofourbigbusi nessdeals.Iknowyou'
rejust
worri
edaboutmeandi didn'
tmeant ohurtyouli
ke
that
Me:
itsokay
Phi
la:noit
snotokay
,iwaswrong.IknowIcanbea
j
erksometimesandIdon'
tdeser
veyoubutbel
iev
e
mewhenIt el
lyouIl
oveyoucauseIreal
l
ydolove
youMasigananda
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooanddon'
tsayy
ou'
reaj
erk
Phi
l
a:wantsomei
cecr
eam?
Me:
yeahI
'
dlov
esome
Wesatdownandwat
chedTVwhi
l
eenj
oyi
ngat
ubof
Rum andRai
soni
cecr
eam.
Phi
l
a:whenwi
l
lyoubegoi
nghomebabe?
Iev
enf
orgoti
t'
sDecemberal
ready
Me:ont
he20thbabeandt
henI
'
llcomebackont
he
3r
dofJanuar
y
Phi
l
a:Forsuchal
ongt
ime!
!
Me:babei
fyouwanttoseemeyoucancomei
ts
onl
ya45mindri
vefr
om heret
oKwaMashu
Phi
l
a:y
eahIknowbuti
tst
ool
ong
Me: y
ou'
llhav
et obestrongkesthandwa.Ihav
en't
beenwithmyf ami
lyforawhileandyoucangosee
yourdadandyoursibli
ngswil
lbebacksoy ou'
llbe
okaywit
houtmef orjustafewweeks
Phi
l
a:t
hisi
sunf
air
,pl
ust
he20t
hisi
n5day
s
Me:Iguessy
ouhav
eyouenj
oyt
hef
iveday
swe
hav
eleft
Phi
l
a:okayt
henbabe.Wegoi
ngt
oNkosi
'
stomor
row.
Me:forEmihl
e'
sbir
thdaypart
y I
'm sur
eshes
happyshe'
sgoingt
ohav etwobi
rt
hdaypart
ies
Phi
la:
yeahwehavetodoittomor
rowcauseshehas
togobewit
hhergrandpar
ents
Me:
I'
m goi
ngbedbabe
Webothwentt
obedanddr
if
tedt
osl
eepwi
thhi
s
snakei
nsi
deme

#Next
Day
Wegott oNkosi
'shouseandi
twasfi
ll
edwi t
hDisney
charact
ers.Emi
waswear i
ngapur
pledressanda
crown
Me:
Happybi
rt
hdayi
nadv
anceEmi
Emi
:I'
m hav
ingt
wobi
rt
hday
s!
Phi
l
a:y
esy
ouar
epr
incess andhowol
dar
eyou?
Emi
:5!
!
Me:
youhav
egr
ownsosomuch
Iwentt
othegi
rl
s
Sneh:lookwhof
inal
l
ygr
acesuswi
thher
presence
Me:
aybohy
ouj
usthav
en'
tseenmei
naf
ewday
s
Nay
e:andy
oul
ookbeaut
if
ulasal
way
s
KamoandBel
i
nda'
sbel
l
ybumpsar
eget
ti
ngbi
gger
bytheday
Me:
mommi
es howar
emyl
i
ttl
ebabi
es
Bel
i
nda:
wear
eal
lgoodt
hanky
ouv
erymuch
Shesai
dasshet
ookmycupcake
Kamo:
Wear
eal
sogoodher
e ar
en'
twebaby
?
Thabo:
wear
e
Ther
ewer
emanychi
l
drenf
rom Emi
'
spr
eschool
&
cr
èche
Weallgather
edandsanghappybi
rt
hdayf
orherand
sheopeneduphergi
fts
Nkosi:Happybirt
hdaypri
ncess, Iknowy ourbirt
hday
i
st omor r
owbutwehadt odoi ttodaysincey our
grandparentswantt
obewi t
hy ou.Todayi syour
specialdayandI'
m gl
adIcouldt hrowyout he
biggestbir
thdaypar
tyyouwant ed.Ilov
ey oulikemy
own, youhavebeenmybestf r
iendandhav ehelped
meinawayIhav eneveri
magi neda4yearol
dwoul
d
hel
pme.SoIhav eboughtyouwhaty ouhaveal
way
s
sai
dyouwanted.Itwasapur pl
ekidsbi
cycl
eanda
huget
eddybearwhichistal
lerthanher
Emi
:thanky
ou!Thanky
ouuncl
eNkosi
Danny:
wellEmiidi
dn'
tknowwhattobuyyousoI
j
ustboughtyousomanyclot
hes.It
ookev
eryt
hingi
saw
Weallgav
ehert
hegi
ft
sweboughtandshewas
ver
yhappy
Nay e:I'
dliketothankev eryonethathascomet o
celebratethiswonder f
ul daywit
hmychi ld.I
thas
beenagr eatdaybutsadl yithascomet oanend.We
hav ealongwayt otraveltomorrow .I '
dalsoli
keto
thanky ouf oral
lthegiftsbutmostofal l
I'dli
ket
o
thankNkosi nat
hiformaki ngthi
shappen.Mybaby
gir
l hasbeenabl essi
ngt omeandIl ovey ousoso
muchmyangel .
Shesai
dalongspeechfr
om whenEmiwasbornand
hermemori
eswithher
.Peopl
estar
tedl
eav
ingand
wewerelef
tpacki
ngup
Bonga:
I'
mti
red,
thehel
per
swi
l
lcl
eant
her
estoft
he
st
uff
Zee:
yeahheyI
'
m exhaust
ed,
Dannyl
et'
sgetgoi
ng
Bee:
MaShezi
,whenar
ewegoi
nghome
Me:
ont
he20t
h
Nceba:
haht
hat
'si
n4day
s
Phi
l
a:t
ell
her
Me:
andwe'
l
lbackont
he3r
d
Bonga:
hah!Youguy
swi
l
lbegonef
orsol
ong
Me:
youcancomeseeBee,
i
tsonl
ya45mi
ndr
ive
Phi
l
a:t
hat
'swhatshet
oldme
Nt
okozo:
I'
mleav
ingt
omor
rowmor
ning
Zandy
:sameher
e
Mpho:
aykodwat
hisi
sunf
air
Kamo:
don'
tyouguy
shav
ehomesnha?
Beli
nda:ist
il
lhav
etot
ell
myf
ami
l
yaboutmy
pregnancy
Lubah:
we'l
l dothatwhenwegett
her
etomor
row
babeever
ythingwil
lbefi
ne
Me:wel
lguysit
sbeengr
eat
,I'
mreal
l
yti
rednow.
Phi
l
alet
'sgetgoing
Wesai
dourgoodby
esandwenthome
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandsuppor
t
Lov
eyouf
am
[
1/11,
00:
28]Tat
enda:
Inser
t32
Thehol i
day swentbysoqui ckly, Phi
ladidcomesee
met wiceaweekandwewer etogetheronNew
yearswithal lourfr
iendsatt hebeach.I twasagr eat
day.Mymom wasv eryhappyt hatI '
m withPhil
aand
shedidn'thav eapr oblem withusst ayingtogether.I
camebackhomeaweekagoandPhi lahasbeen
verydist
anceandst r
angebuthesay severyt
hingi s
okaysoI 'vejustdecidedt olethim bewhat everitis
that'
sbot heri
nghi m hewi l
ltell
mewhenhei sr eady.
Kamo' slobolanegot i
ationswentwel landthey
decidedtohav etheweddi ngaf tershegivesbirth.
Beli
nda'
smom washappyt hatBel
indaispregnant
andshehasfoundsomeonewhowi l
ltakegoodcare
ofherandthebaby
.IgottoLubah'soffi
ceandthe
boardmemberswheretherealr
eady.I
twasoneof
thosebor
ingmeeti
ngsandMongezi wast her
etoo
Me:
itsbeenawhi
l
e howhav
eyoubeen
Mongezi
:I'
vebeengoodheyandy
our
sel
f?
Me:
ever
ythi
ngi
sgood
Mo:
Icansee y
ou'
regl
owi
ng
Lubahcameandhewasal
sobei
ngv
erydi
stancet
o
mesinceIcameback
Lubah:
uhm hi
Hekeptonl
ooki
ngar
oundl
i
kehel
ostsomet
hing
Me:whyareyoustutt
eri
ngandwhyar
eyoul
ooki
ng
ar
oundli
kesomethingismissi
ng
Lubah:
am I
?OhIdi
dn'
tnot
ice
Me:welly
ouare,
what'
swithy
ouandPhi
l
avel
e?He
hasbeenact
ingl
iket
hist
oo
Lubah:
real
l
y?Nhey
ou'
rei
magi
ningt
hings.LookI
gott
ogo
Hej
uststoodupandleft okaythi
sisget
ti
ngr
eal
l
y
wei
rdandIwil
lgett
ot hebot
tom oft
his

#Phi
l
a
I'
vebeendistancingmy selffrom Siyaeversinceshe
camebackandshe' sstart
ingt onot i
ce.Ihatedoing
thi
stoher ,
keepingt hi
ngsf rom herbutfornowi t
s
j
ustforthebest.Ididsomet hingreall
ystupi
dandi t
canmakemel ooseSi yamt handaf orgood.Ireal
l
y
l
ov eherandIdon' twantthatt ohappen.Lubah
camer ushi
nginmyof fi
cel i
kehewasbei ngchased
byadog
Lubah:
dudey
ouhav
etot
ell
hersoon!
Me:
don'
tyout
hinkIknowt
hat
?Icoul
dlooseher
Lubah:
nott
ell
i
ngherwill
maket hingsworsedude.
Andshecanal
readyseether
e'ssomethi
nggoingon
Me:
what
!!Ihopey
oudi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngsuspi
ci
ous
Lubah:
arey
oucr
azy
!?NoIdi
dn'
t
Me:
howdoIt
ell
her
?
Lubah:
Idon'
tknowmanIr
eal
l
ydon'
tknow
Me:
ireal
l
ymessedupdi
dn'
tI?
Lubah:y
eahyoufuckedup!Iwon'
tev
enl
i
etoy
ou
man,youmightl
ooseherforgood
Hear
ingthosewor dsj
usttoremyhear ti
ntopi
eces.I
don'
twanttolooseSiya.She'
sallIhaveandall
that
matt
erstome, themoney ,
carsandfanyli
fest
yle
meannothingtome.Asl ongasIhav eherbymy
si
deI'
m sorted.Iwon'
tletthi
scomebet weenus.I
wanttoalwaysbewi t
hher
Me:Iwon'
ttel
lherf
ornowI
'
llactl
i
keev
ery
thi
ngi
s
okay
Lubah:
unti
lwhen?Thi
swill
backf
ir
eman.You'
re
onl
ymakingthi
ngsworse
Me:i
can'
tl
ooseher
,andnott
ell
i
ngherwi
l
lhel
pwel
l
j
ustf
ornow
Lubah:Ihopey
ou'
resur
eofwhaty
ou'
redoi
ng
Phil
asande.
Me:
whathav
eIdone!
Wehadlunchtoget
herandIor
deredfl
owerstobe
del
iv
eredatSi
ya'
soffi
ceaft
eranhourIgotacal
l
fr
om her
Me:
Ndy
amt
handa
Her
:babeIlovethef
lower
s andt
hanky
ouv
ery
muchIlov
ey ou
Me: I
'
m glady
oul ovethem babe.Andi knowI
haven'
tbeenaroundandbeendi stance,butI
promiset
omakei tuptoyou.I'
vebeenput t
ingwor
k
befor
eusbabe.
Her
:it
sokayNgcoboIunder
stand.Wi
l
lseey
ou
t
oni
ght
Me:
bye,
Ilov
eyouAbongi
l
e,Ir
eal
l
ydo.Nev
erf
orget
t
hat
Her:
yousoundli
keyou'
redy
ing I
'
llnev
er
f
orgett
hatandIl
oveyoutoo
Me:
promi
sey
ou'
l
lnev
erl
eav
eme
Her
:Ipr
omi
sebabenowby
eIhav
eameet
ingt
oget
t
o.
Shedr
oppedt
hecal
l
Lubah:y
outhinkt
hatpr
omi
sewoul
dst
opherf
rom
l
eavingyou?
Me:
Idon'
tknowmanbutatl
eastshepr
omi
sed
Lubah:goodl
uckman.Ihavetogo,myBel
indai
s
wait
ingforme.Ial
sosuggesty
ougohomeand
cookhersomedinnerandaddcandl
eli
ght
setc
makeitromanti
c.
Me:t
hat
'sagoodi
deaLubah.Agai
nthanky
ouf
or
ev
ery
thi
ng
Lubah:you'
remybestmandude.I
'l
lal
wayshav
e
yourbackevenwhenyou'
vemessedup.
Hel
eftandIpackedmybagsandwenthome.
Igothomeandcookedherf avori
temealfil
ledthe
room withrosesallthewayt othebat
hroom.It ooka
tabl
efortwoout si
denexttoherfavor
it
espoti nthe
garden.AfteranhourIheardhercarparkint he
garagesoIswi tchedtheli
ghtsoffandturnedthe
musicon, oneofherf av
ori
tesongsMi guel_Adorn
Si
ya:
Phi
l
a!Ohwowwhat
'
sgoi
ngonher
e
Iwal
kedfr
om behi
ndherandbl
i
ndf
oldedherey
es.
Shescr
eamed
Me:
sssshj
ustt
rustmebabe
Si
ya:
youscar
edmeman
Iwalkedhertothebat
hroom andfi
ll
edthetubwit
h
warm waterandfoam.Itookofhercl
othesthent
he
bl
indfold.
Me:
enj
oyy
ourbat
hmyl
ovedon'
ttaket
ool
ong
Si
ya:
thanky
oubabe Ir
eal
l
yneedi
t
Aft
eranhourshewasdoneandshecame
downst
air
s.It
ookhert
othegardenwher
ewe'
l
lhav
e
di
nner
Siy
a:wowthisi
sbeaut
if
ulPhi
l
a whendi
dyou
gettodoal
lthi
s?
Me:
quest
ionsl
aterbabe,
fornowl
et'
sjustenj
oyt
he
f
ood
Wesatdownandat
e
Si
ya:
itt
ast
essogoodbabe mayIhav
emor
e
Me:sur
e.Idi
shedupforherandmy
sel
f.Imust
say Ioutdi
dmy sel
f
Si
ya:
whatdi
didot
odeser
vet
his?
Me:Idon'
tneedareasont
ojustspoi
lyoubabe.Now
f
ini
shupI'
m sleepy
Iwasn' tsl
eepybutI'
mj ustt
ryingtoavoidquestions
from hercauseIknowi twil
lleadt ometell
ingher
whyI '
vebeendi st
anced.Im notreadyforhertof i
nd
out,I
'm notreadytolooseher, I
'
llnev
erber eadyfor
thatandIl ov
ehersosomuchbutIknowt hiswill
compl etel
ytearusapart.
Aft
ereati
ngwepackedt
hedishesi
nthesi
nkand
wenttobed.Wet
uckedi
ntobedandsheputher
headonmychest
Me:
heart
hat
?
Si
ya:
yourhear
tbeat
?
Me:yeah,that
'smyl oveforyou.Iknowyoucan't
openmyhear tandseet helov eIhav
eforyou.But
myheartbeatrepresent
sit.IloveyouMaShezi
OmuhleandI '
l
l al
way sl
ovey ounomat t
erwhat
happensbet
weenus.
Siya:
Ilov
eyout ooNgcoboandIwillal
way sl
ovey ou,
standbyyouandsupportyouall
thetime.Idon't
knowwhyy oubeingal
lromanti
ccausei tai
n'
tli
ke
you butIl
ovei
t t houghit
'sreall
ystr
ange
Me: Ijustwanttoshowy ouhowmuchIl ov
ey ouand
todosomet hi
ngniceforyou.We'vebeenthrough
tought i
mest oget
herandtherearesti
llmanymor e
tocomeIj ustneedust ostaytoget
herandgo
throughev er
ythi
nganddon'tletanyt
hingseparat
e
us
Siy
a:what'
sgoingon?Yousoundli
kesomethi
ngwil
l
gowrong.YouknowIloveyouandIwil
lst
ickbyy
ou
thr
oughevery
thing
Me: nothi
ngiswrongbabeI'mjustsay
ingforf
uture
purposesitsnotal
waysgoingtobeallsweetand
rosy.Therewil
lbeargumentsetcsoidontwantthat
toev er
yseparat
eus.
Siy
a:that
'snevergoingtohappen,we'
vebeen
thr
oughwor setojustl
etanargumentseparat
eus.
NgcoboI'
m sleepynowgoodni ght
Me:
goodni
ght
Hear i
ngthosewor dsf r
om Si yamademef eelabit
betterbutIdoknowf oraf actthingswon'tbet hi
s
waywhenshef i
ndsout .IknowLubahcan' tkeepit
tohimselff orl
ongandIhav et otell
Siya,t
hesooner
thebetter.Iwil
lneverallowt histogetbetweenus.I
l
ov ehersosomuchandt hiswasami stake.What
haveIdone! !! letmej ustsl eepandmay beI'
l
l
for
getal i
ttle.

#Next
Mor
ning
IwokeupandSiy
awasst
il
lasl
eep,
tookashower
thenwokeSi
yaup
Me:
babewakeupnow
Si
ya:
mmmhI
'
m st
il
lenj
oyi
ngmysl
eep
Me:
whyi
syourf
acesobi
g?Li
key
ou'
reswol
l
en
Siya:
duhIjustwokeupandt
hisi
showmymor
ning
facelooks
Me:
yeahIknowbuti
t'
swor
set
oday
Si
ya:
you'
recr
azy
ShewenttobathwhileIpr
eparedbreakf
astand
wentbacktoourroom.Shehadal r
eadypickedout
cl
othesforme,itwasagreysuitwi
thawai stcoat
andblackshoes.
Me:
thanky
oubabe
Shesmiledandwi nkedatme thoughshecan'
t
wink shecl osesbot
hhereyes.I
'v
et ri
edtot
each
hersev
er al
timesbutshefai
lsdismall
y
Si
ya:babeyou'
l
ldropmeof
fatwor
ktoday
.Zandy
wi
llbelat
eandI'
ml azy
Me:
nopr
obl
em myskat
Igotdr
essedandwewentdownf
orbr
eakf
ast
Me:
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Si
ya:
thanky
ou
Shewaswear i
ngat i
ghtl
iketi
ght deni
m dr
ess
withst
il
ett
os.Ispankedherass Ij
ustcoul
dn'
t
resi
st
Si
ya:
Phi
l
a!Behav
eyour
sel
fpl
ease
Me:Ican'
t,
I'
m addi
ctedtoyouandy
ourper
fect
ass uzalil
euMam' Shezi
Si
ya:
yaphaphay
az(
you'
ref
orwar
d)
Me:
I'
mjustst
ati
ngf
act
ssweet
ie.Hur
rywe'
regoi
ng
t
obelat
e
Af
tershewasdonewewentt
othegar
age
Me:
whi
chcar
?
Si
ya:
Bent
ley
Wedr oveandIdroppedherof
fandwenttowork.I
gotther
eandmetmynewPA hel ooksl
iket
he
youngerver
sionofSomizi I
'
m surehi
sis22or
23
Me:
Mor
ning,
I'
m MrNgcobo
Him:Boss,
heyI
'
m Kay ohsorryf
ull
namei s
Khet
heloDumaI'
myournewper
sonalassi
stant
Me:
sur
eKaysowhat
'shappeni
ngt
oday
?
Kay
:whatdoy
oumean?
Me:
checkt
hedi
ary
Kay:ohsor
rysi
r,y
ouhaveameet
ingat9t
il
l12and
thenfr
om 1to4youhav
eameeti
ngwith"
Theboys"
Me:
Theboy
s?
Kay
:yest
heappoi
ntmentwasmadebyNkosi
nat
hi
Mkhi
ze
Me:mxm t
hosei
diot
s.Okayt
hanky
ou.Wher
e'smy
r
edbul
l?
Kay
:sor
rysi
rIdi
dn'
tknowy
ouneedr
edbul
l
Me: seeKay,whenIgether eIexpectt ohave2cans
ofredbull,
lunchbarandf oryout otell
me
everythi
ngthat'
sonmyschedul efortheday?Ili
ke
everythi
ngdoneont imeandbeher eexactl
yat
8o'cl
ock.Idon'tl
ikebeingstr
ictwithemployeesbutI
don'tmakef r
iendswithmyempl oyees.Do
everythi
ngthewayy ousupposedt othenwe'l
lbe
j
ustf i
ne.
Kay
:Yessi
r
Me:nowcall
mePhi l
a,whenyousaysi
ryou'
re
makingv
eryold.Howoldar
ey ou?
Kay
:22
Me: mmmh, nowtakethesepapersandemailt
hem
tothesepeoplet
henIneedy out
ocal l
eachand
everyoneofthem t
oconfir
m aboutthemeeti
ngon
Fri
day
Helookedatmel i
keIsai
dsomethi
ngwr ong,orhe
wassadi j
ustcoul
dn'
treadhi
sfaci
alexpressi
on
Me:
didIsaysomet
hingwr
ongKay
?
Kay:noi
tsj
ustthatIdon'
thaveanyl
aptoporphone
toemail
all
thatunlessI
'l
lbeusi
ngoff
iceequi
pment
Me:
howcany
ounothav
eanyoft
hose?
Kay:
Ijustgraduat
edfr
om v arsi
ty,
Icamecleanto
myfami l
yaboutmysexual i
tyandtheyj
ustdi
sowned
meandI '
v ebeenl
ooki
ngf orajobthenIgotthi
sone
andIm stayi
ngwit
hafriend
Me:ohthat
'ssad,I
'
m sorr
yaboutt
hat
.Nowhow
comeyoudressedall
fancy
Kay:
Ibor
rowedthesecl
othesf
rom af
ri
endj
ustsoI
canl
ookthepar
t
Me:bei
ngdressedl
ikeSomizii
slooki
ngthe
par
t? sorr
ybutyoulookhi
deous.SeeIhav
eto
rushtomymeeti
ng.WhenIgetbackIexpecty
out o
behere.Uset
heoff
icephoneandmylaptopwhil
e
I
'm gone
Kay
:Thanky
ousi
r
Iwasfeel
ingverysadaboutKay'
sstory
,li
fej
usthas
i
tsownway s.I
'dalsobeangryi
fmysonwoul dsay
heisgay,
butdisowningmyownbl oodissomethi
ng
Ij
ustwouldn'
tdo
Themeeti
ngtookmoretimethenIexpect
edandI
gotbackt
otheoff
iceat12:
30
Kay:ohyou'
reback,I'
vedoneeveryt
hingyouneeded
andhere'
syourlunch.Yourgi
rl
fr
iendcall
edandsaid
Ishoul
dgetyouChi ckenandNandosChickenand
sal
ad.Thenshesaiddon'tcal
lhercauseshe'
sinan
i
mpor t
antmeeti
ngt il
l4
Me:
thanky
ou wel
ldoneKay
.
Kay
:thanky
ousi
r
It
ookoutoneofmybusi
nesscar
ds
Me:Kaytaket
his,
buyy
our
sel
fasmar
tgoodphone
andLapt
op.
Kay
:nosi
rIcan'
tdot
hat
Me:I'
m notaskingy
ou,I'
mt el
l
ingyou.Andbuy
your
selfsomedecentclot
hessoy oucoul
dbe
r
epresentat
iveand"
lookthepart
"Taketherestof
t
hedayof fandbeheretomorrowat8am sharp.
Kay:
Thanky
ousir
,Ij
ustdon'
tknowhowt
othank
you iwon'
tdi
sappoi
ntyouatall
.
Nkosi
wal
kedi
nandhebur
stedouti
nlaught
er
Nkosi
:yohI
'minthesamer
oom assomi
zi
manyoulookgood
At
hicamei
nrunni
ng
At
hi:
Ihearther
eisaSomi
zii
nher
e y
ohI
l
oveyourst
yleman
Kay:
Thankyouverymuch Iguessyourboys
meeti
nghasstar
tedsi
r.Letmel
eav
eyou,once
agai
nthanky
ouv er
ymuchsir
Hewal
kedoutandal
ltheboy
swal
kedi
n
Bonga:
whati
shappeni
ngi
nthi
swor
ld
Mpho:
themal
ever
sionofLadyGaga.
.Mi
ni
Somi
zi
Me:
heyst
opi
tnowt
hat
'
smyPA
Lyanda:
yoh Ihopey
oudon'
tendupwear
ing
thatt
oo
Bonga:
sitdowngent
swehav
eal
ott
otal
kabout
Ther
eitgoes
Mpho:
you'
vemessedupbi
gti
me
Me:
tel
lmesomet
hingIdon'
tknow
Danny
:whatt
hef
uckwer
eyout
hinki
ng!
?
Thabo:
I'
m sor
ryt
osayt
hisbuty
oumi
ghtl
ooseSi
ya
Nkosi
:wecan'
tal
l
owt
hat
,you'
l
lhav
etof
ightf
orher
man
Me:
yeahIwi
l
l,Ican'
tl
ooseherman
Athi
:j
ustknowwe'
l
lbeher
efory
ou.Whenev
ery
ou
needus
Lubah:
itsgoi
ngt
obehect
ic
Wecont
inuedt
alki
ngandastheywerespeaki
ngmy
mi
ndwasnotevenhere.Ij
ustcan'
ti
magineali
fe
withoutSi yamt handa.Those5y ear swi thouther
wer ethewor styear sofmyl if
e.Andnowt hatIhav e
foundher , Ican'tlooseheragai n,Ijustcan' t
.The
l
ov eIhav ef orheri sjustbey ondany thing, nowor ds
candescr ibewhati feelforher ,Iremembert hef i
rst
ti
meshet oldmeshel ov esme i wassohappy
thatwasj ustoneoft hebest ,best !day sofmyl i
fe.
Wewer eatschool chill
i
ngt oget herbyt hegr ounds,
therewasasi l
entmomentwewer ebot hl ay i
ng
downl ooki ngatt hesky.Shej ustbl ur tedi tout"I
l
ov ey out ooPhi la"Icouldn'tbel iev ewhatIj usthear d,
Iturnedandl ookedather" sayi tagai n"It ol dherand
sher epeat ed, thistimeshej ustcr i
ed.Ihel dherand
askedherwhyshewascr yi
ng."i lov ey ou
Philasande, andI 'm scared.I 'vehear dt hatl ovehur t
s,
I'
mj ust14Iknownot hingaboutl ov e, buti fwhatI
feelinsidei sreallylovethenIj ustknowt hatIl ove
you.I'm af raidofget t
inghur tandhear tbr okenand
Im afraidi fwedon' twor kout ,I
'l
l l
oosemybest
fri
end"Thosewor ds Iwi l
l nev erev erf or getthem
atall.ThatdayIpr omisedmy selfandhert hatIwi ll
neverev erhur therorbr eakherhear tbutIbr oket hat
promi se, Ihav ehur thersomanyt imesandwheni
getanotherchancetobewi t
hherIj ustbl
ewi t .I
hav ehurtheri
nsomanyway s.Wehadour1stf ight
after3daysofbeingtoget
her .Ihav emadeher
feelli
keshedoesn'texi
sttome, butshesti
llstayed
withme.Ihav epushedheraway ,butshesti
llstayed
withme.Icheat edonhertwicebutshestil
lstayed
withme.Al lofthi
shappenedwhenwewer einhi gh
school.NowI '
vemessedupbi gtime, t
hebig
questioniswill
shestil
lst
aywithme?
Danny
:apennyf
ory
ourt
hought
s?
Thabo:
didy
ouev
enhearwhatweaskedman
Nkosi
:hewasst
il
ldaydr
eami
ng
Me: sor
ryIhav
eal
otonmymi
nd.Whati
sitt
haty
ou
asked?
At
hi:
whenar
eyougoi
ngt
otel
lSi
yamt
handa?
Me:Idon'
tknowmanIr
eal
l
ydon'
t,
I'
vemessedup
bi
gtime
Nkosi
:It
hinky
oushoul
dtel
lher
,thesoonert
he
bet
ter
Me:
nowi
snott
her
ightt
imeman.Ndy
amt
handa
shoul
dn'
tfi
ndoutaboutt
his,
notnow
outoftheblue!Si
yaspoke,
wealltur
ned
andshewasstandingbythedoorandatearwas
fal
l
ingonherf
aceal r
eady
Si
ya:
Whati
sitt
hatNdy
amt
handashoul
dn'
tfi
ndout
??

#LBUBT
Whatdoy
out
hinkPhi
l
ahasdone?
?
Pl
easel
i
ke,
shar
eandcomment
[
1/11,
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enda:
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t33
#SI
YA

At
hi:
ishuu!
!I'
m out
Lubah:
yeahl
et'
sgetgoi
ngguy
s
Me:noy ouguysshouldstayhereandtel
lme
whatevert
hisi
stogether
,y ouwereabl
etohi
dei
t,
nowy oushoul
dbeabl etotell
me
Nkosi
:Si
ya,
it'
sbesti
fwel
eav
ethi
sisbet
weent
he
t
woofy
ou
Phi
la:
yesbabeweshoul
dn'
ti
nvol
vet
hem.By
egent
s
I
'l
lcal
lyoul
ater
Theystoodupandleft
.Idon'tknowwhatI 'mf eel
i
ng
ri
ghtnowbutcuri
osit
yisjustget t
ingthebestofme.
Ij
ustwanttofi
ndoutwhat '
sgoi ngonalready.Phil
a
hasbeenacti
ngreal
lystr
angel ately
.Iwonderwhat
i
tis
Phil
a:l
etmepackupbabe,It
hinki
t'
sbesti
fwehav
e
thi
sconver
sat
ionathome
Me:
whati
sitaboutbabe?
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
l
lfi
ndoutsoon.Comel
et'
sgo
Heheldmyhandt ight
ly,
I'
m gett
ingner
vousand
real
l
yscared.Idontknowhowt ofeel
.Homeseems
sofarori
shepur posel
ydri
vingslowl
y?
Phi
l
a:weshoul
dbuysomet
hingt
oeat
r
eal
l
y!Ij
ustwantt
ogethomenow
Me:
okaypassbyst
eer
swe'
l
ljustgetbur
ger
sif
t
hat
'sf
inewit
hyou
Phi
l
a:y
eahsur
e
Ilookedthewi ndow, stari
ngatwhat everiti
sI'
m
stari
ng.Istayedi nt hecarwhilehewentt ogetour
food.Pati
encei ssomet hi
ngIdon'thav eatthi
s
moment .Butl etmej ustcalm down, whenthetime
comeswe' lltalk.Iwonderwhatt hi
si s,
what's
botheri
ngmei st hathesai dhemessedup, itseems
l
ikesomet hingser ious.
WegothomeandIwentt ochangeintomypy j
amas
andhealsochanged.I
tsj
ustbeensi
lentsi
ncewe
gothome.Wewentdownst ai
rsandhedishedupfor
usandweat e
Phi
l
a:Ihav
eanewPA,
hei
sgay
Me:heshoul
dn'
tthi
nkaboutget
ti
ngmymancause
you'
remi
ne
Phi
la:
andonlyy our
sAbongile.IloveyouandIdon'
t
wanttol
oosey ou,whatI
'm abouttotelly
ouisj
ust
somethi
ngthatcouldchangeev ery
thi
ng.Siy
aIreal
l
y
l
oveyou,youtheonlyoneforme.Whathappened
wasami st
ake.
Me: WhathappenedPhilasande?Iwasalready
cry
ing.Itf
eelsli
keDejaVu, Ir
ememberthismoment
l
ikeitwasy est
erday
,whenhet oldmehehad
cheatedonme, Ihopethathedi dn'
tdot
hat
Hekeptqui
etandl
ookedatme
Me:
Phi
l
a!Whathappened
Phi
l
a:I
'
m sor
ry,
Isl
eptwi
thher
Me:who!!
?Why
!?Whywoul
dyoudot
hist
ome?To
usPhi
la
Iwascry
ingl
oudl
y,Icoul
dn'
thol
dmy
sel
f,hecame
cl
osetomeandtri
edt ohol
dme
Me:
don'
ttouchme!Whoi
sshe?
Phi
l
a:Si
yaIl
ovey
ou
Me:
don'
ttel
lmet
hatdamni
t!
!Whot
hef
ucki
sshe?
!
Phil
a:Si
yamthanda!Don'
tshoutatme!Don'
tuse
thatl
anguagewit
hme, Iwearthepant
sinthi
shouse
Me:youshoul
d'vehel
dthatpantsanddon'
tgo
sl
eepi
ngaround!Whoisit?Orat
il
e?
Hekeptqui
etandl
ookeddown.
Me:
Ishoul
d'
veknown
Isaidandwal kedt otheli
ft,honest l
yI'mtootir
edf or
thestairs.WhenIgott oourbedr oom hewasal ready
there.Ijustl
ookedathi m andt ookoneofmy
suit
cases, Ipackedsomeofmycl othes.Iwentto
thebat hroom t
of et
chmyt oil
etrybagandhe
foll
owedme
Phi
l
a:whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
I'
mleav
ing
Phil
a:pleasedon'
tdothisSi
ya,
IknowImessedup
butpleaseIneedyou.Idon'
twantt
oloose,
I'
ddi
e
wit
houty ou
Me:
that'
sgr
eat
,gr
eett
hedev
ilf
ormewheny
ouget
t
ohell
HonestlyI
'dj
ustloosei ti
fhedi ed,butIjustwantt
o
hurthi
m.Icont i
nuedpacki ngwhi l
ehesatnextt ome.
Hiseyeswerer ed,hewashur t
ing.Iwantt ohol
dhim
butIcan't
.Hehashur tmet oomuch.It ookmybag
andwentt othelif
tbuthet ookt hestair
s.Hegot
energyboh.I'
m drainedsot i
red,physical
ly,
emot i
onal
lyandment al
ly
Phil
a:pleasedon'
tgoBobo,
let
'ssi
tdownandt
alk
aboutthis
Ij
ustwalkedtot
hedoor,
Idon'
tknowwher
eI'l
lgo
butI'
mleavi
nghim.Wheniwasneart
hedoorhe
spoke
Phi
l
a:She'
spr
egnant
Ifel
tmyhear tbreakintopieces,scatteredont he
fl
oor,brokenwi thnowayofput ti
ngthepi eces
together.Il
eanedagai nstthewal l
,ifeltmyknees
getweak, i
slideddownt i
ll
Isatont hef loorandheld
mybagt omychest ,andcriedsohar dandl oud.She
i
spr egnant i
tsPhila'
sbaby I 'v ealway s
wantedt othemot herofPhila'
schil
dr en,togivehim
hisfi
rstchil
d butt hatisjustal
lgone.
Howdoest hishappen?Al lthedreamswehadhav e
j
ustfal
lenapart,gonebeforeitev enhappened.Hav e
youeverfel
tsohur tthatyoucan'tev enhearyour
hear
tbeat,y
ouf eelnumbl i
key oucan' tev
enbreathe.
That
'showIf eelri
ghtnow.Myv isionisblur
r,I
'
m
l
oosingmybr eath.Icouldhearhim speakbutIcan' t
putwhatheissay ingtogether.I
tslikeheistal
king
fr
om aver
yfardi
stance.Ther
e'ssomethi
ngbeing
pour
edint
omymout h,
mysensesar ecomingback,
I
canseehi
m abit
Me:
Phi
l
a
Ispokesof
tl
y
Phil
a:Babeyouscar
edme,
itsl
i
key
ouwer
ehav
inga
pani
cattack.
Hepi
ckedmeupandwal
kedupt
hest
air
s
Me:Phil
aIdon'
twantt
ogot
her
e,Iwantt
oleav
ethi
s
house
Phi
l
a:pl
easedon'
tl
eav
epl
ease
Heputmeont
hebedandhesatnextt
ome.
Me:
she'
spr
egnant
?
Phi
l
a:y
esshei
s.
Me:
itsy
ourbaby
?Youdi
dn'
tusepr
otect
ion?
Phil
a:ther
eisapossi
bil
i
ty,i
'
lldoaDNAt est
.At
hi
saidI'
l
lbeabletoi
toncetheshe'
s6mont hs
pregnantorwhent
hebabyisborn.Ionl
yusedi
tthe
fi
rstti
me
Whatdidhej
ustsay?Hehasdoneitmorethanonce
,Icoul
dn'
tcont
rolmytear
s.Theyweref
lowingl
ikea
r
iver
.
Me:
howmanyt
imesdi
dyousl
eepwi
thher
!
Phil
a:about5or7t
imes,
Ilostcount
.I'
m sor
ryI
'
m
real
l
ysorry
Me:you'r
esorry!Howi ssorr
ygoingtofixthi
s?You
hav
eev enlostcount!Ihat
etosayt hi
s,butIhat
eyou
Phi
lasande!WhatdidIdot odeserv
et hi
s!WasI
nev
erenoughf oryou!Speak!
Phi
l
a:cal
m downpl
easeSi
yamt
handapl
ease!
Iwasnowbr eakingandki cki
ngeverythingi
nt he
room.Ilookedi nthemi rrorandhititwithmyj ewelry
box.Iwentt othenextr oom andt ookhi scr
icketbat,
hedoesn' tusethisandt odayI'vefoundausef ori
t.I
hitev
er y
thingIsaw, Ievenhur tmyar m butthatpain
doesn'treachthepainI'mf eel
ingri
ghtnow.Ibr oke
themirrorandgl asstablei nhi
sstudyr oom
Me:
ist
hiswher
eyouf
uckedher
!!Wasi
tgood!
?
Iwentt
othegamer
oom andbr
okedownt
hepool
tabl
eitwasreal
lyhardt
obreakbutIdi
ditanyways.I
feell
i
keI'ml
oosingmymi nd.Nowait
,I'
vel
ostit
alr
eady.Hewalkedtome
Me:
don'
tyoudar
ecomecl
oset
ome
HecameclosetomeandIhithi
m wit
ht hebaton
hi
sarm andonhisbackandl
egs.Heheldmeso
ti
ght
lyandpi
ckedmeup.Iwasscreaming
Me:
letmego!Leav
emeal
one!
Thebl
oodonmyar
m waspour
ingoutnow,
butI
di
dntcar
e
Wegotdownstai
rsandheputmedownont he
couchandhel
dme.Het ookouthi
sphoneand
di
aledanumber.
Phi
l
a:gethernow!
!
Iscr
eamedforhel
p!Whoeveri
tismi
ghtbeabl
eto
comehereandsavemefrom t
hismonst
er
Me:Ihat
ey ou! you'
reamonst
er!Ihat
eyou
wi
thevery
thingi
nsi
deofme.
Icoul
dseedeepi
nhi
sey
est
hatI
'
m hur
ti
nghi
m so
muchbuthehasdonewor
set
ome.
Phi
l
a:I'
mr eal
l
ysorryMaShezi,
Ilov
eyousosomuch.
I
thurt
ssomucht oseeyoulikethi
sandi
thur
ts
morethatI
'mthecour
seofit.
Ijustkeepqui
etandaft
erawhil
eAthicamerushi
ng
i
nwi thafir
stai
dkitandther
estoft
hecrew
foll
owed.Sothi
siswhohewascal l
i
ng!Athi
tookmy
hand
Me:don'
ttouchme!!Youareasfi
lt
hyasheis!Al
lof
you,
Ihat
ey ou.Youkepthi
sli
tt
lesecr
et,
Iwasthe
f
oolhuh!
Iwil
lshowt
heseidi
otswhothef
ooli
s!It
ookav
ase
nextt
omeandt hr
ewitonthewal
l
Me:l
eavethi
shouse!Now!It
ookmybatandhi
t
ev
erythi
ngnextt
ome!
Nkosi
:Si
yamt
handapl
ease
Me:Getawayfrom Nkosi
nathi
!Getout!
!!Al
lofyou
l
eave!!
!Takeyourfr
iendwit
hyou!Takehimt o
Orat
il
e.Takehi
mt othemotherofhischil
d
Say
ingt
hosewor
dshur
tmesosomuchIj
ustcr
ied
sof
tl
yandsatonthefl
oor.I
twoul
d'
vebeenme,
I
would'
vegav
ehim hi
sfi
rstchi
l
d
Me:takehi
mtot
hemot
herofhi
sfi
rst
chi
l
d
Myv
oicewasget
ti
ngl
owandmyt
hroatwashur
ti
ng.
Dannyt
ri
edt
ocomecl
oset
ome
Me:don'
tyoudarestepanycloser
.Ipi
ckedupmy
batbuti
tfel
l
,Ihavenostrengt
hinmeany mor
e.Iam
weak.
Ihear
dsomev
oicesandsomeonehel
dme,
Itwas
Sneh
Sneh:Si
yamybaby
,openy
ourey
esi
tsme.I
m her
e
now,weall
her
e
Me:
hesl
eptwi
thher Or
a..Or
a..Or
ati
l
eis.
.Is
Icouldn'
tevenf
ini
shmysentence,sayi
ngt
hatshe'
s
pregnantbr
eaksmeint
opieces.Icri
edsof
tl
y.
Nay
e:ssshcr
ysweet
ie,
leti
tal
lout
.
Kamo:
letmegogety
ousomewat
er
Phi
l
a:Si
yaI
'
mreal
l
ysor
ry
Me:
Getout
!!Leav
e,pl
easej
ustl
eav
e
Zandy
:sheshoul
dn'
trepeather
sel
f.
Bonga:
pleasej
ustt
alkt
oher
Ntoko:
ifyouguy
sdon'
tleaver
ightnow,
Iswearwe'
l
l
beburyi
ngsomepeopl
et omor
row
Nkosi
:l
et'
sgoguy
s,j
ustt
akecar
eofher
.
At
hi:Ther
est
hef
ir
stai
dki
t,BeeandZeey
ouknow
whattodo
Bee:
we'
l
ltakecar
eofher
Beli
nda:t
hegat
eremot
eisi
nmybagLubah,
letme
getitf
oryou
Shetookourt
hekeyandgav
eLubaht
hent
heboy
s
l
eft
.
Zee:dri
nksomewat erpleaseSi
ya,
giv
emey
our
harm pl
ease.You'
vebledtoomuch
Idr
ankthewaterandgav
ehermyar
m.Af
tershe
wasdoneist
oodup
Me:
ineedt
oshower
Bee:
letmecomehel
pyou
Me:
I'
ll
manage
Kamo:
we'
l
ljustkeepy
oucompany
Me:
Isai
di'
l
lmanage
Ididn'
tmeantoshoutbutt heytr
eati
ngmel i
keI
'
m
disabl
edorsomething.Iusedtheli
ftandwentt
othe
room.Irant
hewat erandtookof fmyclot
hes
Igotintot hewat eranditcalmedmedown.How
couldPhi l
adot hi
stome?Af terallt
hesey ears,
everythingwe' vebeenthrought ogether.IknowIwas
j
usthi sgirlfr
iendnothiswi f
ebutdi dn'tal
lthese
yearsandt hesefewmont hswe'vebeenback
togethermeansomet hi
ngt ohim?Ist ayedi nthe
waterf oraboutanhourandt hewasaknock
Bel
i
nda:
Siy
aar
eyoust
il
lther
e?
Me:
yeah,
I'
m get
ti
ngoutnow
Igotoutofthewaterandworemygown.WhenI
cameoutthegirl
swer ei
nthei
rpy
jamasandther
e
wasanother2bedsintheroom
Zandy
:we'
resl
eepi
ngov
er
Zee:andt
hisr
oom i
sver
ybi
gsowej
oinedt
hebeds
toget
her
Me:
youguy
sar
ecr
azy
Kamo:anddon'tworryaboutt
hemessy
oudi
din
thi
shouse.Ev
erythi
ngwi l
lbef
ixed
Il
aidont
hebednex
ttot
hem af
terIhadwor
nmy
pyj
amas.
Me:
she'
spr
egnantwi
thPhi
l
a'schi
l
d
Nt
okozo:
what
! whoi
sshe?
Nay
e:whathappenedexact
ly?
Me:
theydi
dn'
ttel
lyou?
Sneh:
nowewer
ejustt
oldt
ogetheri
mmedi
atel
y
Me:itol
dyouaboutOrati
lenhe,sotheyhadanaffai
r
wi
thPhilaandshe'
spregnant.Theydi
dn'tj
ustsl
eep
t
ogetheronce,
itwas5or7timesheact ual
lysai
dhe
l
ostcount
Zandy
:bast
ard!
Bee:
sowhaty
ougoi
ngt
odo?
Me:
I'
m mov
ingoutofher
eint
hemor
ning
Zee:
sowehav
etomov
e?
Sneh:shecanmovei
nwit
hme, Idohave2spar
e
roomsinmyapart
mentsoyouguysdon'
thaveto
mov eout
.
Nt
oko:
yeaht
hat
'
sagoodi
dea
Kamo:
YouandPhi
l
a?
Me:
we'redone.Heshoul
dmoveonwit
hOr
ati
l
e,
mar
ryherandrai
sethei
rbabyt
oget
her
.
Thi
shur
tssomuch,Ij
ustwi
shsomeonewoul
djust
wakemeupandsaythi
swasall
adream.
Me:
am Idr
eami
ng?
Bel
i
nda:
Iwi
shy
ouwer
e
Nay
e:t
hisi
smessedup.I
'
m sor
rybabe
Me:
thanks,
I'
ll
beokayguy
sasl
ongasIgety
ou
Zandy:Hehthi
s9monthsmustbeoversoon!I
ts
Januarynounhesoshe'
l
lgi
vebir
tharound
Septemberri
ght
?
Zee:
yeahandwhatar
eyoupl
anni
ng
Zandy:wewi
l
lteachheral
esson!She'
l
lgoi
ntoI
CUI
tel
lyou
Me:
Zandi
l
e y
oucan'
tgobeat
ingar
oundpeopl
e
Zandy
:ay
bohshe'
snothuman,
she'
samonst
er
Me:
shedi
dmaket
hebabyal
one
Ntoko:
seet
hatone,
wil
lregr
ett
hisIt
ell
you.Wewi
l
l
showhimfl
ames
Me:
don'
tdoany
thi
ngst
upi
d
Bee:
I'
m gl
adt
oseey
oul
aughi
ngl
i
ttl
esi
s
Me:
wher
eisNceba?
Zee:
shehadj
ustcamebackfr
om aft
ernooncl
asses
whenwecamehereandsheneededt
or est
Me:
that
'swhatmat
ri
cdoest
oyou
Sneh:
Ial
soneedthatbatman di
dyouseewhat
youdi
dtoPhi
la!
Me: di
ditr
eal
l
yhur
thi
m?
Nay
e:y
ohi
tdi
d,het
ookofhi
sshi
rtandhi
sbackwas
bad
Me:
(sni
ff
s)Idi
dn'
tmeant
ohur
thi
m
Zandy
:yeydontcr
yforthatsatan!Hedeser
vedi
t.
Youshoul
d'
vetookouthisdicknxx
Me:
gooddi
ck
I
'mf eel
i
ngr eal
lybadabouthur ti
ngPhil
a,Ihopeheis
okay.Hehasr eall
yhurtmebutIst i
l
llovehim.This
deci
sionthatI'
vemadei st hebestf
oreveryone.
Phil
aandIdon' tbelongtogether
,wenotmeantt obe.
Heshouldfocusonhi sbabyandbabymama.
Kamo:
I'
m sl
eepi
ngnowguy
s
Me:
goodni
ghtmommyt
obe,
I'
m al
sosl
eepi
ngnow
Zee:
goodni
ght
.Lov
eyouguy
s
Theyall
turnedandsl ept
.Ijustcouldn'tsleep,ever
y
ti
meIclosedmyey esIjustimaginedPhi laand
Orat
il
ehavingsex.Ican'tdealwiththis,ithurtsso
muchIcan'tevendescr i
bewhatI '
mf eelingrightnow.
Il
ovedhim withallmyhear t
,wasn'tthatenough?
WasitbecauseI '
m notreadytohav ebabi es,Iwas
wil
li
ngtohav ethem butjustnotnow.WasInot
goodenough.Igotoutoft hebedandt ookour
photoalbum andwentt othebalconyandsatonthe
fl
oor.Iwentt hr
oughourpictur
essincewewer ein
grade8 Ij ustcr
ied,
Icouldn'
tholdmyt ear
s,Icr
ied
outloudholdingontothealbum
Nt
oko:
nononoSi
yay
oucan'
tdot
hist
oyour
sel
f
Ikeptoncryi
ngholdingontoher.Phi
lasandeLesley
Ngcobo,youhavefinishedme Ihav enost r
ength
i
nme, Iwil
lnevereverbeabletoloveandt r
ust
anyoneel
seagain
Ntoko:please,
let'
sgobacktobedsweetiei
ts
gett
ingreall
ycoldouther
e.Ican'
tbegi
ntoeven
i
magi newhaty oumustbefeeli
ngri
ghtnowbutj
ust
knowwear eherefory
ouandwel oveyousomuch.
Me:
thanky
ouNt
okozoandIl
ovey
out
oo
Westoodupandwentt
obed.Icl
osedmyey
esand
dr
if
tedtosl
eep

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
ke,
shar
eandcomment
Lov
eyouf
am
[
1/11,
00:
29]Tat
enda:
Inser
t34
IwokeupandKamowast heonl yl eftwithmei nbed.
Istoodupandt ookashowert henwor eagr een
j
umpsui tandsandl es.Mybr aidsst illl
ookokaysoI
won'tbeget t
ingridoft hem any t
imesoon.Idon' t
evenknowwhat 'sgoingonwi t
hmyl if
ebutIdo
knowf orsurethatI'ml eavingt hi
shouseandmy
rel
ationshipwi thPhilaisov er.Achi lddeservesa
homewi thbot hparent ssot hat'swhatI '
m doing,
givi
ngt hem achancet obet oget herandgr owt heir
chil
dt ogether.Igrewupwi thoutaf atherandIdon' t
wantt hechi l
dt osufferandnothav ebot hparents.
AfterIwasdonef i
xingmy selfupIwentdownst ai
rs
andt hegirlswer ewat chingMKRwhi lehaving
breakfast.
Me:
Mor
ningl
adi
es
Bee:
Mor
ningl
i
ttl
esi
ster
Me:
real
l
y?
Bee:
yeahi
dohav
etor
emi
ndy
ou,
you'
rey
ounger
t
hanmegi
rl
Nay
e:buti
tseemsasi
fshe'
sol
der
Zandy
:howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
Me:
Iknowit
sstrangeandunexpect
edbutI
'
m
f
eel
i
nggood,I
'm okay.I
'
vecr
iedenough
Bel
i
nda:
that
'st
hespi
ri
t
Me:
yeahnowI
'
m hungr
ywhat
'sf
orbr
eakf
ast
Sneh:
hel
pyour
sel
f,al
lthef
oodi
sint
heki
tchen
Me:
thi
spl
acei
sspot
less.Whocl
eaned?
Nt
oko:
Phi
l
atookcar
eofi
t
Me:
hewasher
e?
Zee:
Nopebuthemadeaf
ewcal
l
syouknowhowhe
i
s.
Iwenttot
heki t
chenandmademuesliandyoghur
t
forbr
eakf
ast.Iwentbackt
otheTVroom andchil
led
withmygir
ls.Kamocamedownafterafewmi nut
es
Kamo:
mor
ningbi
tches
Nay
e:mor
ningX2
That'
stheirnewname, t
heysharei
twith
Beli
nda .Lubahalwayscomplainsabouther
Beli
ndabeingcalledX2andThabol ovesthe
name.KamoandThabo' sweddingwillbei
n
September.Wehadbr eakf
astandchil
ledwatchi
ng2
Brokegir
lsmar athon.
Me:
I'
ll
gopackupmyt
hingsguy
s
Nay
e:l
etmehel
p
Nayeissuchasweet heart,she'st
hattypet
hat
's
al
way sther
etohel
pandt akecar eofyouwhenyou
notokayandshetreatsy oulikeyou'
reaneggor
can'
tdot hi
ngsf
oryour self
.Shewor ri
estoomuch
sometimesbutIl
ov ehersosomuch.
Naye:yougott
oomanycl
othesgi
rlespeci
all
ythe
shoes
Me:
itsmyescape.Ret
ail
ther
apybabe
Naye:
It houghtIwast
heonl
yonewhoshopswhenI
hav
epr oblems
Me:yeahheyandIneedtoshopandbl
owPhi
l
a's
moneythengi
vehim backhi
scard
Nay
e:nowt
hat
'
sagoodi
dea
Kamocametojoi
nuswit
hat
ubofI
cecr
eam and
shewat
cheduspack.
Nay
e:ar
eyougoi
ngt
ohel
p?
Kamo:
I'
m pr
egnant
Me:
so?Youdohav
eyourhandsKamo
Kamo:
Ijustcamet
owat
ch
Theykeptoncomingi
nonebyonetil
lwewer eal
l
seat
edont hecar
petf
loornex
ttot
hecloset
.
Zandy
:sowhaty
ou'
regoi
ngt
odo?
Me:
that
'sl
i
ket
he100t
hti
mey
ouaskmet
hat
Sneh:
you'
reexagger
ati
ngSi
ya.I
twasj
ustt
wice.
Me: I
'
llmoveinwithSnehandcont i
nuewithmyl i
fe
andIwaspl anni
ngtobuymyownhousei naf ew
months,settl
edownandenjoymyl if
e.Imeanl i
ke
I'
m notgett
inganyyoungernextmonthI'
llbe25,I
wannahav emyownhouseI 'mt i
redofl
iv
inginan
apart
ment.
Bee:
that
'sagoodi
dea.
Ntoko:
whenyousay"set
tl
edown"whatdoyou
mean?Wil
lyoul
ikej
ustmov eonf
rom Phi
l
aandlook
f
oranewguy
Me:YeahIwi
l
lbutj
ustnotnow.Ij
ustwantt
obeon
myown
Beli
nda:weunder
standbabeandwe'
reher
efory
ou,
you'
renotonyourown
Zandy:
butwewon'
tbeabl
etof
ulf
il
lyoursexual
needsbabey
ouneedadil
do
Nay
e:av
ibr
atorwi
l
ldoy
ougood
Me:
whatt
hehel
l
! y
ouguy
sar
ecr
azy
Sneh:youhavet
ogetoutoft
hati
nnocentbubbl
e
man.TheonlymanyouknowisPhil
a.Youhaveto
getoutther
eandex
peri
encenewthi
ngsman
Me:l
ookwho'stalki
ng y
oudi
rt
ydev
il
.Youal
way
s
l
ookall
innocent
.
Sneh:nev
erj udgeabookbyi
tscov
er I
'
m sur
e
youknowt hatbynow
Zee:
youguy
sar
ecr
azy st
opcor
rupt
ingSi
ya
Bee:sheneedstol
etgoandjusthav
efunot
her
wise
you'
l
l di
ebecauseofst
arv
ati
on
Nt
oko:
ist
her
eany
thi
ngel
sey
ouev
ert
alkabout ?
Kamo:
yesi
tst
hemosti
mpor
tantaspectofl
i
fe
Zandy
:Yesgi
rlbat
shel
e (
tel
lthem)
Bee:wahay we' r
edoneher
elet'
sgowat cha
movie,
we'll
cal
lacabt
ogetthesesui
tcasesto
Sneh'
splace
Me:
noneedt ot
hey'
l
lfi
tinmycarandSneh'
sso
t
her
e'snoneedtowast
emoney
Kamo:wenotwast
ingmoneybutwe'
rebl
owi
ng
Phi
la'
smoney
Me:
guy
shest
il
lhast
obuyNappi
es
Nay
e:Di
dn'
tyousayy
ouwantt
obl
owhi
scash?
Me:
yesIdi
dbut
Zandy:act
uall
ychangeofpl
ans,
we'
regoi
ngt
othe
mallr
ightnow!
Nt
oko:
I'
min!
Theyallt
houghti tsagoodidea l
etmejust
havefunal i
tt
le,thatbast
arddidbr
eakmyheartso
I
'mtreat
ingmy selfwi
thhismoneysoIcanf
ixmy
heart .Whatt hehell
isthat
?
Me:
wel
lspendi
ngaf
ewt
housandswoul
dn'
thur
t
Zandy
:that
'smygi
rl
! I
'
m notdr
ivi
ngt
hough
Bee:
itscool
I'
ll
dri
ve
WetookPhi
l
a'sRangeRoverSpor
tcausewecanal
l
f
iti
nandwentfoPavi
li
on
Bee:
let
'sst
artof
fwi
thLi
nger
ie
Me:
someofusdon'
tneedi
tanymor
e
Zandy
:justi
ncasenhe t
her
e'sal
way
saneedf
or
Li
ngeri
e
Wewentt ogetsomel ingerieandwenttobuy
clot
hes.Wewer epayingwi thPhi
la'
scard.Weeven
boughtmorekitchenappliancesforourapart
ment
withSneh.Weev enboughtt hi
ngswedon' t
need .Im sorr
yfordoi ngthi
sdearGodbutit
feel
sgreat.
#Phi
l
a
Lastni ghtIsawasi deofSi y at hatIdi dn'tknow.She
wasr eal l
yhur tandwasgoi ngr eallycrazy .Ididal l
thatt oher ,shesai dmanyt hingst hathur tmedeepl y
butt heywon' treacht hewayI 'vehur ther .Ireall
y
regr etwhatIdi d, itmademel ooset hel oveofmy
l
ife.Idon' tknowhowmyl ifewi llbewi thouther ,I
j
ustf oundherbutnowI '
ml oosi ngheragai nbecause
ofmgst upidact ions.Ihav et obeamanandt ake
fullresponsi bil
ityformyact ions.I '
m goi ngt obea
fathersoon, I'
mv eryhappybutIwi shitwasunder
differ entci rcumst ances.Iwi shi twasSi yacar rying
myf irstbor nchi ldaswehadpl annedbutl i
fe
happened.Theboy sandIsl eptatDanny '
slastni ght.
Wewer eall shockedbySi ya'sbehav iorandwewer e
feelingr eallybad.Or ati
l
ecal ledmesay ingIshoul d
repor tt oherpar ent saboutt hepr egnancy .Ihav en't
event oldmyv eryownpar ent s.Ical l
edmyl i
ttl
e
brot hert hismor ningandhel aughedatmesohar dit
evenhur tbutIdodeser v
ei t.He' l
l becomi ngt oday
after noonsowecangot oOr ati
leshomewi thhim,
BongaandNkosi .Idon'twantt obot hermyuncl es
witht hisOr atil
ei ssue, Iwillt
ellthem afterwecome
backf rom Or atileshomei ntheNor thWest .Wehav e
totrav el tonightandi t
s1pm.I '
m onmywaybackt o
myhouse, Bel i
ndat oldLubaht hattheygoi ngt othe
mal landImustsayt hey '
vebeenspendi ngmy
moneyl iket her e'snot omor r
ow.They 'v
espentabout
60thousandr ands.I '
mi nthecarwi t
hBongaand
Nkosi ,
t heyal readypackedandr eadyf ort heroad.I
hav en'tbeenr ecei vi
nganybanknot ifi
cationsnowso
Iguesst heyst i
llhav i
ngl unch.Istil
lhav et otalkto
Siya, shehasn' tbeenanswer i
ngmycal lsnor
replay i
ngt omyt extmessages.Idon' tblameher
though, Iwoul d'vedonet hesame.Il ove
Siyamt handawi thal lmyhear t,andIwi llfightforher,
butIdon' twantt oenduphav ingt ochoosebet ween
myunbor nchi ldandSi ya,thatwoul djustbeanend
tomyl ife.Igotat extfrom Bri
an(mybr other..Bri
an
OlothandoNgcobo)say inghei sinDur banal ready.
Hei sdoi nghi sl asty earanci vilengineeringatt he
Univ ersityofJohannesbur g.
Me:
got
othesasol
gar
ageony
ourl
eft
,Br
iansay
s
heisther
eal
ready
.Wegott
her
eandhehadt
wo
sui
tcases
Bonga:
arey
oupl
anni
ngonmov
ingi
n?
Nkosi
:Johanessbur
ggoty
oubadal
readyl
overboy
?
Bri
an:notevenahell
oBrai
nwe'vebeenmissi
ng
you buti tdoesn'
tmat
ter
,Iknowtheladi
esin
Durbanwil
lloveme
SeeBr
aini
sawomani
ser
!Thi
sguycandat
e10gi
rl
s
att
hesameti
me
Br
ian: Phi
la'
sIseey
ou'vejoi
nedmeint hi
sworl
d.
Whothef
uckisthi
sOr
ati
l
e? !Andwhathappenedt
o
Si
yanow?
Me:I
'
m notli
keyouman.EyitsagirlImetafew
mont
hsagoman, thi
ngshappened.Ihaven'
tseen
Si
yasi
ncelastni
ght
Wedr ov
et omyhouseandwhenwegoti nsi
dethe
gi
rlswereallt
hereal
ready.I
twasav eryawkward
momentf orus,i
tsworseforme.Zandygav eusa
deathst
areandZeebr okethesi
lence
Zee:
whoi
sthehotone?
Br
ian:ohme heyI
'
m Br
ain,
Phi
l
a'sbr
other
.He
ki
ssedZee'
shand
Bonga:
heygety
ourhandsof
fthat
'sDanny
's
pr
opert
y
Br
ian:
andt
hatone hesai
dpoi
nti
ngatNay
e
Nkosi
:I'
l
lki
l
lyouy
oungman
Br
ian:
ohIseey
ouguy
sar
eal
lsor
tedher
e
Ihav
en'
tev
ensai
dawor
dsi
ncewegother
e
Bongacamecl
oset
omeandwhi
sper
ed
Bonga:
youhavet
otal
ktohermanatl
eastl
ether
knowwherewear
egoing
Me:
okayman.Si
ya,
mayIt
alkt
oyoupl
ease
Si
ya:
yeahsur
e
OkayIt
houghtshe'
dsayno butI
'
m gl
adshe
di
dnt
Wewentupst
air
stoourroom buti
tdoesn'
tseem
l
ikei
tsi
nceal
lhercl
othesar
egone
Me:
you'
remov
ingSi
ya?
Si
ya:
yesIam.I
t'
sfort
hebest
Me: BabeI '
mr eall
ysorry
,Il
ovey ouanditwasn' tmy
i
nt ent
iontohur tyou,Iwasverystupi
dandaf oolto
sleepwi t
hOr ati
leespeci
all
ywithoutusi
ngany
protecti
on.IknowI 'vemessedupbi gti
meandI 'v
e
brokey ourheartbutbabeIwoul ddoanything,
any t
hingtopr ovethatil
oveyouandI '
mr eall
ysor r
y
forwhatIdi d.
Siya:y
ouwon'tchangewhathashappenedPhila.
Youhav eababygr owi
nginherst
omach,you'r
e
goingtobeaf at
herandthat
'swhatyoushould
focuson.Youhav ehur
tmesosobadNgcobobutI
forgi
veyou.Ihavetomoveonwi t
hmyl i
fethat
'swhy
I
'mf orgi
vi
ngyousoIcanhav epeaceandmov eon
Me:whatdoyoumeanbymov
ingon?Whatdoes
t
hatmeanforus?
Si
ya:
ther
e'snoUSany
mor
ePhi
l
asande
Me:babepl
easedon'tdothispl
easeI
'
llf
ixi
t.I
'
llf
ind
awaytomakethingsright
.
Si
ya:
ther
e'snowayofmakingany
thi
ngr
ight
.Wher
e
di
dyousl
eepwithOrat
il
e?
Me:itwasatahotelbabe,wealwaysmetatt
he
hot
el.IswearInev
erbroughtheri
nourhouseand
bedIreal
lyswear
Si
ya:i
tdoesn'
tmatt
erev eni
fyoubr
oughtherhere,
i
t'
syourhousenotmine.Whendidt
hisal
lhappen??
Me:whenyouwereatyourmoms I'
m sor
rybabe,
i
wasafool
andIthoughtwit
hmydi
ck.
Icoul
dseet hatshewast r
yingtobestrong,she
wantedtocr ybutkeptonhol di
nghertearsback.I
gotclosetoherandhuggedher ,sher
esistedatfi
rst
butfi
nall
ygav ein.Itwasgoodt ohaveherinmy
armsagai nbutmay bet
hisisforthel
astti
me.She
cri
edabi tandIwi pedhertearsoff
Me: ssshSi yapl easedon'tcr
y.I'
m ajerkanda
bastardi know, y oudontdeserveal
l t
his.Ididy ou
wrong, Iwasaf ool andtookadvantageofa
wonder fullovinghear t
.Iknowthatmay bet here's
someoneoutt her ewhocant r
eatyoubet terthanI
have,whowi l
lalway smakeyouhappyandnotl et
youshedat ear.Iloveyousomuchbuti havea
stupidwayofshowi ngthattoyou,I
'vealway shur t
youbutdeepdownIl ov eyouandy ou'r
etheonly
womani haveev erl
ovedandwi l
lev erl
ove.Thisi
s
thehardestmostpai nfulti
mef ormebutIhav etolet
yougo, Ican'thavemysel fi
shway sandasky outo
stil
lbewithmeev enwhenI '
v edoney ousowr ong.
Butpleasedoonet hi
ngf orme, IknowIdon' t
deserveitbutpleasedon'tbeast r
anger,maybe
beingyourfriendmaybet oomucht oaskforbut
pleasejusttalktomeoncei nawhi le.
Siya:Iwill
,AndIwon'
tbeast ranger.Idosti
ll
love
youv erymuchbutIhav etomov eon, maybewe'r
e
j
ustnotmeantt obet ogether
.May bewewer en'
t
meantt ogetbacktogetheragainthat'
swhylif
ehas
foundawayt osepar
ateusagai n.Iknowyou'l
lbea
greatfather congratulati
onsbyt heway.
Me:Thanky
ou,
thoughIwi
shi
twasy
oucar
ryi
ngmy
chi
l
d
Siy
a:yeahhey ,butl
i
fehappened.Sohav
ey outol
d
yourparents?Idon'
twanttobetheonethatt
ell
s
mom we' r
eov er.
Me:
don'
twor
ryI
'
llt
akecar
eofi
t.Weact
ual
l
yleav
ing
i
nafewhours,
goi
ngt
otheNor
thWestt
opayf
ort
he
damagesI
'
vemadeet
c.
Icoul
dseeshewasv
eryhur
tandat
earf
ell
onher
cheek
Me:Pleasedon'
tcr
yf orme,I
'm abastar
dthathas
donenothi
ngbuthurtyou.I
m afail
ure
Si
ya:don'
tsaysucht
hingsaboutyoursel
fman.
You'
regoi
ngtobeafathernow,ballup.
Me: y
ou'r
ereall
yagreatwomanSi yamthanda,Ihope
youfindsomeonewhowi l
lloveyouandshowi tto
you.Andpleaselov
ethatpersonuncondit
ional
ly.
Lovehimt heywayyoulovedmeandmor e.Don'
tl
et
thepainIcausedyouholdy oubackfr
om l ovi
ng
someoneel se.Pl
easet
akecar eofyourself.
Whenev eryouneedmei m alwaysgoi
ngt obehere
foryou.
Me: t
hankyouandsamet oy ou.Shecamecloset
o
meandhuggedme.Shel ookedintomyeyesanddid
theunexpected !Shekissedmesosof tl
yand
passi
onately
.Ifel
li
nlov
ewi thherall
overagai
n.
shepul
l
edaway
Si
ya:
Goodby
emyl
over
,hel
l
omyf
ri
end
Me:you'
l
lal
way
sbemyl
overkum.Agai
nI'
mreal
l
y
sor
ry
Si
ya:i
tsokay
,nowlet
'spackory
ou'
regoi
ngt
obe
l
ate.I
'
llbemovi
ngouttomorr
ow
Me:
okaybabe.MayIasky
ousomet
hing?
Si
ya:
yeahsur
e
Me:
whydi
dyouki
ssme?
Si
ya:
(l
aughs)i
twasagoodby
eki
ssdude.
Me:
oh
Shewenttothecl
osetandt
ookoutmycl
othesand
asui
tcaseforme
Si
ya:
shoul
dIpacksui
tsort
racksui
ts?
Me:2suit
sand2tracksui
ts.Idon'
tthi
nkwe'
l
lbe
ther
eforalongti
me.Andy oudoknowy oudon'
t
havetodoallt
hisSiya
Si
ya:
yeahbutIwantt
o.Nowgogety
ourt
oil
etr
ies
andtoi
let
rybagt
henpackabagf
ory
ourshoest
ake
3pai
rs.
Me:
okayandt
hanky
ouSi
ya.
Wher eonear thwi llIev erfi
ndawomanl ikeher
agai
n?Ir eallyregretwhatIdi d I '
v elostherand
ther
e'snowayofget tingherback.She' smadeup
hermi ndandI 'm goi ngt oletbe.Shedeser v
es
someonebet terandt hatsomeonei snotme.She' s
ever
y t
hingy ouneedi nawomanwhoev erwi nsher
heartwillbev erylucky .Iwillalwaysl oveher ,God
real
l
yknowshowmuchIl oveher ,i
fIhadawayof
openingmyhear tandshowi nghert hel ov eIhavefor
her,
Iwoul ddot hatinasecond.Ev eni fi tmeansI
woulddi ejustforhert oseehowIf eel abouther .It
hurt
st hatthisisourl astti
mel i
kethi s.Idowantt o
beherf ri
endandbet hereforherIj usthopei twon'
t
beawkwar dbet weenusandt hingswi llbef ine.We
weredonepacki ngandwewentdownst air
sand
Nkosi wasgl uedt oNay e.Brainwast alkingnonst op
andev eryonewasi nagr eatmood.
Me:
ladi
espl
easest
ayher
eunt
ilwe'
reback
Kamo:
Ican'
tst
ay
Beli
nda:
met
oo,
Lubahi
scomi
ngt
ofet
chmei
na
few.
Sneh:
nowor
ri
eswe'
l
lst
ay.
Zandy:
justl
eav
eyourcar
dandev
ery
thi
ngwi
l
lbe
sort
ed
Me:
Siy
ahasi
t
Nkosi
:byeguy
sit
stimewehi
tther
oad.Wehav
ea
l
ongdriv
eaheadofus
Nay
e:whydon'
tyouj
ustt
akeapl
ane?
Bonga:
wej
ustwannadr
iveandcl
earourheads.
Bee:Besaf
ethenguy
s.Br
iani
twasgr
eatmeet
ing
you.
Br
ian:
li
kewi
sel
adi
es.Don'
twor
ryI
'
llbeback
Iputmysuitcaseandbagintheboot
.Wewereusing
myJeepWr anglerandNkosi
wasdr i
vi
ng.Wesai
d
we'l
ltaket
urnsalongtheway.
Si
yacamet
omewhenwewer
eaboutt
oleav
e
Si
ya:
Trav
elsaf
ely
.
Me:t
hanky
ou.Iki
ssedheront
hecheek.Il
ovey
ou
Si
ya
Shelookedatmeandsmi l
ed.Thisisreal
lytheend
ofus, It
houghtt hatlovehasbr oughtusback
togetherforgoodbutnoi thadi tsownway s.Li
fe
hasawayf orget t
ingy ourhopesupbutt rai
lsand
tri
bul
at i
onswi l
lalway sbethere.Youhav etoexpect
theunexpect ed.Ri ghtnowI 'm onmywayt opayfor
anothergi r
l,thatjustcamei nt
omyl i
feafewmont hs
agoandt urnedmyl i
feupsi dedown.I n9monthsI'
ll
beaf athert oasonoradaught er.
Me:
thi
sisr
eal
l
yhappeni
ng?
Bonga:
yeahmani
tis
Br
ian:Inev
erexpect
edt
hisf
rom y
ou,
Siy
awasy
our
worl
dman
Me:shest
il
li
s,i
twasami
staket
hatl
eadt
omany
ot
hermist
akes
Nkosi
:7mi
stakes?
Me:
whent
heywer
ehappeni
ngIdi
dn'
tseet
hem asa
mistake.Nowt heyarethewor
stmi stakesofmylif
e.
Idoadmi ttt
omywr ongsandIwasaf ool,
nowI'
m
faci
ngt heconsequencesofmyact i
ons.Butmychild
i
snotami st
ake.Hewasconceiv edinpassionat
e
l
ov emakingwhi chi
swhatIregret.Iwill
lovemy
chil
dnomat t
erwhat
Nkosi
:whati
fithappenst
haty
ouhav
etochoose
bet
weenyourchil
dandSiya
Me:Idon'
twantt
hattohappen.Il
ovethem bot
h
ver
ymuch,Iwoul
dratherdi
ethantohavetochoose
bet
weenthetwoofthem
Bonga:it
'sgoodthatyou'
rebei
ngamanandt
aki
ng
responsi
bil
i
tyforyouract
ions.
Me:
yeahman.
Myphoner
angandi
twasOr
ati
l
e

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
Thanky
ouf
orbei
ngpat
ientwi
thme l
ovey
ou
FAM.Youar
ehi
ghl
yappr
eci
ated
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1/11,
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enda:
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t35
Talkingt oPhi lamademef eel bet terandI '
m not
hurtingthatmuchany mor e.Endi ngt hi
ngswi thhim
wast hehar destt hingI '
v ehadt odoi nmyent irelife,
evenGeogr aphyexamswer en'tthi shard .Il ov e
him deepl yandIwi l
l alway sl ovehi m butwej ustnot
meantt obet ogether .Hei sgoi ngt oaFat herandI
mustsayI '
m pr oudofhi m ev ent houghIwi shi t
happenedi ndi fferentci rcumst ances, iwishIwas
carryinghi sf i
rstchild.Het oldmehei sgoi ngt opay
forthedamagesi nt heNor thWest ,Ihopet hingsgo
well forhim.Il ookedathi m ast hecarl eftandi tl
ef t
withapeaceofmyhear t
.Itshappeni ng,itsreally
happeni ng, we'renott oget heranymor e andt hat '
s
howi ti
sgoi ngt obef orther estofourl i
ves.Tear s
fel
l downmycheekst henIwi pedt hem offbef or e
any oneel secanseet hatI'm cr yi
ng.Imi sshi m al ot
andI 'm stil
l goingt omi sshim, Iknowi twillbev ery
dif
ficultformet omov eonbutIknowIwi ll,Ihav et o.
Ialsowantt ohav emyownl itt
lef ami l
yandchi l
dren
oneday ,Ialway simagi nedt hatwi t
hPhi l
abutt hat
willneverhappen.Thefatherofmychildr
enisout
theresomewher e,IhopeI'
llmeetyousoondear
futurehusband.Iwalkedbackintothehouseandthe
gir
lswer estandi
ngbyt hedoorreadytohugme.
Theyt hrewthemselvesatmeandIwas
suffocating!
Me:
Youguy
sar
eki
l
li
ngmer
ightnow
Bee:
you'
rever
ystr
ongsis,i
fthi
swashappeningt
o
meIwouldbeinamentalhospi
tal
rightnow
Zandy
:Iwoul
dbei
njai
l
Nt
oko:
ofcausey
ouwoul
d
Me: I
'm okayguys,
Ihaventf
ull
yrecover
edfrom my
heartbreakbutwhatIdi
dwasf orthebest
,forme,
forhim,andthebaby.AndforOrat
ile
Nay
e:west
il
lhav
etodeal
wit
hthatone
Beli
ndal
eftwi
thLubahandKamol
eftwi
thThaboa
fewminut
esago.
Zee:
sowhatar
ewegoi
ngt
odonow
Sneh:
let
'sj
ustchi
l
landwat
chTVt
henst
uff
our
sel
veswi
thFood
Nt
oko:
that
'swhatweal
way
sdo
Me:l
et'
schi
ll
int
heJacuzzi
,hav
echampagneand
somestr
ongwhi
skey
Zandy
:nowy
ourt
alki
ng
Zeewenttogett
healcoholatt
hepant
rywhi
l
ewe
walkedt
otheJacuzziar
ea
Ntoko:
soy
ou'
rer
eal
l
yleav
ingt
hisheav
enofa
house
Me:
yesi
am munt
ukal
yanda.I
'
llmi
ssi
tthough
Zeecameandwegoti
ntot
heJacuzzi
.Ipour
ed
somewhiskey
Nay
e:someonewant
stogetdr
unkt
oni
ght
Me:
Ijustneedsomet
hingst
rongy
ouknow
Zee:
that
'swhyIboughtsomet
equi
l
a
Sneh:
nowt
ell
usSi
ya,
Whywer
eya'
l
lki
ssi
ngnoPhi
l
a?
Me:
howdoy
ouknowaboutt
hat
Bee:
wewer
ewat
chi
ngy
ouguy
sfr
om t
hewi
ndow.
Me:itwasagoodbyeki
ssguy
syohi
'
llmi
sst
hose
l
ipssoIjusthadt
o
Zandy
:youwer
eupst
air
sforawhi
l
e
Me:
yeahso?
Nay
e:nogoodby
esex?What
soev
er
Me: nomant hatdi
dn'thappenIwasj
ust
hel
pinghi
m packhiscl
othes
Naye:
howdoyouf
eel
abouthi
m goi
ngt
opay
damagesf
orOr
a
Me:hedidimpregnat
ehersohehastopayforthe
seedheplant
ed.Idon'
tknowhowt of
eelabouti
t
guysandenoughaboutPhil
a.Ij
ustwantt
oforget
ever
ythi
ngandenjoytoni
ght

#Phi
l
a
WhenOrati
lecal
ledshewaschecki
ngi fwe'
resti
ll
comingandshehadbookedahotelforustosleep
i
n.Thedri
vetoNor t
hWestwas6hour sandwe've
beenontheroadfor4hour
snow.Wepar kedata
garageandgotsomeener gydri
nksandf ood.I
twas
around8pm, Bongacal l
edBeetocheckupont hem
andhesaidt heywer ehavi
ngagirl
sjacuzzipar
ty.I
'
m
gl
adSi y
aishav i
ngfun,Idon'
twanthertoputherli
fe
onholdforthepai nIhavecausedher.Wegotback
i
nt hecarandi twasmyt urntodri
ve
Bonga:
what
'
sOr
ati
l
e'ssur
name
Me:Mof
okengorMol
oibet
weent
het
wobuti
ts
M'
somethi
ng
Nkosi:
youdon'
tev
enknowhersur
name?Hehe
uyi
njaboy
Br
ian:
howl
onghav
eyouev
enknownt
hisOr
a
Me:
3mont
hs
Bonga:
andshe'
s3weekspr
egnant
?
Me:
yup.
Thedr i
vecontinuedandafter2hour swearri
vedand
checkedint
ot hehotel.Wegotdifferentr
oomsandI
wasv erysl
eepyi twasaround10:30pm.Ican'tstop
thi
nkingaboutwhathappenedear lierontoday,
Iwill
nevereverfor
gett hi
sday The25t hofJanuaryin
f
actI
'
llnev
erf
orgett
hisweek!
Wewentdownt
othedi
nni
ngar
eaandhadsupper
Br
ian:
whatt
imewel
eav
ingt
omor
row
Nkosi
:wehavetobeear
lyt
hough,
Ihear
dTswana
peopl
edon'
tl
ikewai
ti
ng
Bonga:
andwheredi
dyouhearthat
? wel
lweZul
u
menandwewill
arri
veatourownti
me
Me:Af
ri
cant
ime weshoul dl
eav
eher
eat8t
hen
ar
ound9we'
llbeatherv
il
lage.
Bonga:
ohokayi
nthatcasegoodni
ghtgent
s
Weal lwentt oourr oomsandIgoti ntobedand
l
ookedatSi ya'spi
ctures.She'sreal l
ybeaut i
ful
themostbeaut if
ulwomanI 'veev erseen.I
somet i
mest ookpicturesofherwhi l
eshewas
asleep,Ihavemanyr andom pi cturesofherandshe
doesn'tknowmostoft hem, Itakeapi ctureofher
everychanceIget Idebat edwi thmy selfwhetherI
shouldcal l
herornotbutIendedupj usttextingher
onWhat sApp" Heywear ri
vedsaf ely
..Enjoyy our
night.Goodni ght "af terafewmi nutesshecal l
ed
meandIwasv
eryner
vousandhappy
Me:
Siy
a
Her
:hey
,igotyourt
ext
.I'
m gl
adyouarr
ivedsaf
ely
t
houghacall
wouldn'
thaveki
l
ledanybugPhil
a
Me:iknowbutIwasjustscaredandhesi
tantabout
cal
l
ingyou.Whatar
ey oudoingther
e
Her
:wejustchi
ll
i
ngout
sideanddr
inki
ngj
ustgotout
oft
heJacuzzi
Me:
okaywel
lhav
efunnhe,
I'
m sl
eepynow
Her
:okaygoodni
ght
.Goodl
uckwi
tht
omor
row
Andshedr oppedthecall
. shehasj ustmademe
thehappi estmanalive,
nomatterhowmuchI 'vehurt
hershest il
lcaresaboutme.Iwil
lalway sbethere
forherandpr ot
ectherwit
heveryt
hingIhav e,
that'
s
theleastIcandot oshowhert heloveIhaveforher.
Iswitchedof fmyphoneandputi tont hecharger
thenfellasleep

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeup,tookashowerandgotdr essedinmy
bl
acksuitpant
s,whit
eshirtandblackwaistcoast
wit
hblackVersaceshoes.Itookever
ythi
ngIneeded
andheadedtoNkosi'
sroom
Nkosi
:I'
m all
readymanl
et'
sgetgoi
ng.We'
l
lhav
e
br
eakfastdownstai
rs
Wefet
chedBongaandBr
ianandheadedf
or
br
eakf
ast
Br
ian:
gott
hemoney
?
Me:
yeahIhav
eami
l
li
onr
andi
ncash
Nkosi
:okaygr
eatt
henbutI
'
m sur
eitwon'
tcost
morethan200000
Bri
an:t
hat'
sevenahugeamount,shewasdamaged
goodsalr
eadysot
hat'
sjustat
urnoff
Bonga:andyoudoknowifMam Shezi
wouldwant
youtopayforSi
yayou'
dpayal
otsinceyoutookher
i
nnocence
Me:
Iwoul
dn'
tmi
nd
Br
ian:
thankgody
ou'
resuccessf
ull
andr
ich
ot
her
wisey
ou'
dbest
ucki
ndebt
Afterwef i
nishedupwedr ov
et oOr at
il
esv i
ll
age,she
textedmet hedirecti
onst oherhomeandi twasa
l
ov elybi ghousewi t
hmanyot herhutsandhousesi n
oney ard.I
twasbeaut i
fulandi tseemslikeshe
comesf r
om aweal t
hyf ami l
y.Thegat eswere
openedf orusandwewer eusher edtothemai n
houseandt oldtositatt helounge.Af t
er30mi nsan
oldmanwhowasdr essedasaKi ngandhesaton
thet hronenexttoBongacamei nfoll
owedbyot her
menwhoIassumedoneoft hem woul dbeOr ati
les
father .WhyistheKi ngher ethough?Ori sittr
adit
ion
thatt heKingmustbeher e.
Nkosi
:Sani
bonaBant
uabadal
a(Hel
l
oel
der
s)
Man:
whathav
eyoucomeher
eabout
?
Bonga:wewoul dfi
rst
lyl
iketoapologi
zeforsuch
di
srespectandembarrassingyou,wehavecomet o
payforthedamageswe' vecausedint
hishouse.We
havecomei npeace.
Man2:
whatexact
lyhav
eyoudone?
Whyar
etheyaski
ngsomanyquest
ions.Di
dn'
t
Or
ati
l
etel
lthem orwear
ejustbei
ngmadef
ool
s.
Bri
an:Ourbr
otherhereasimpregnat
edwhowe
assumeisyourdaughterandi
sf r
om thi
shousehol
d.
Man1:wehav emanydaughter
sinthi
sRoyal
Fami
l
y,
woul
dy oupleasenametheoneyouhave
i
mpregnated?
Nkosi
:Or
ati
l
e
I'
m gl
adhedidn'
tsayt
hesur
namej
usti
ncasewe
arewrong.
Man2:
Pri
ncessOr
ati
l
eLesedi
Mof
okeng
Weall
lookedateachot
her Pri
ncess?Shedi
dnt
t
ell
meshe'sfrom aRoy
alf
ami
ly
!
Man3: Or
ati
lei
sthechei
fs1stDaughter
,wewould
l
ikey out
oexcuseusabitandwewi l
lhaveto
discusst
heseshocki
ngnewswithourKing.We
stoodupandrushedout
side
Bonga:
whydi
dn'
tshet
ell
usshe'
sapr
incess!
?
Me:
idon'
tknowman
Br
ian:
whatdoy
out
hinki
sgoi
ngoni
nther
e
Nkosi
:I'
m sur
etheyar
easki
ngOr
ati
l
equest
ions
Ordi
scussi
ngwhatt
heyshoul
ddo
Me:
andhowmucht
heywi
l
lchar
geus
Aladycametousandt ol
dust
ogobacki
nsi
de.We
satdownandproceeded.
Man1:
whohaspl
ant
edaseedi
nourdaught
ers
womb?
Me:
Idi
d,Iam Phi
l
asandeNgcobo
Man3:
You'
reaZul
uman
Me:
yesIam.
Man2:wehav
edeci
dedt
haty
ouar
etodoaf
ew
t
hings
Bonga:
whi
char
e?
Man1:ourchil
dhasadmitt
edthatyesyouar
ethe
fat
herofherchil
dandyouwil
lhavetopayR300000
asyoufoundheralr
eadydamaged
Br
ian:
Day
li
ghtr
obber
y hewhi
sper
edi
nmyear
Bonga:
wewi
l
laccept
Nkosi
tookoutt
hemoneyandpai
dupf
ront
Man3:
(smil
es)Iseewewil
lhav
enopr
obl
emswi
th
t
heLobola,
youareweal
thyZul
uman
Me:
excuseme?Thel
obol
a?
Man1:youcannev eri
mpr egnatet
heKi ngsdaughter
andnotmar ryher.Youhav etomar r
yherandt he
chi
ldwill
takey oursurnamei fnot
,thi
schildwil
lnot
berecognizedasy ourchi
ld.Hewi l
lbel
ongt othe
Mofokeng's
Me:withall
duerespectel
ders,t
hatwi
l
lnothappen.
Ihavepai
df ort
hedamagesandi nmycustomsthe
babyisal
readymi neandi
sseenasaNgcobo.No
chi
ldofminewilluseMofokengasasurname.
Bonga:
cal
m downPhil
a.El
dersI'
m sur
ether
eis
anot
herwayofdeal
i
ngwiththi
ssit
uati
on
Man2:nother
eisnoot
herway
.Hehast
omar
ryour
daught
er.
Me:
Iwi
l
lnotdot
hat
!Iwi
l
lnotmar
ryOr
ati
l
e.
Man3:
Youwi
llnothumi
li
ateusli
ket
hat!Whatwil
l
t
hecommuni
tythi
nkofus?OrthePr
incess?Shei
s
theonewhowillcomenextinthethroneastheKi
ng
hasnosons.Whowi l
lwanttobeledbyaQueen
whohasachildandnohusband.Shemustbe
marri
edtoyou,t
hefatherofherchi
ldandotherst
o
come
Me: I
'
m sorrybutwhaty ouaret alki
ngaboutis
bul
lshit
!IhaveawomanIl ovewi thmywhol eheart
andthatwomeni snotOr ati
le.Yourdaughterwas
nothi
ngbutami staket hatshoul dn'
thavehappened.
Shehumi l
iat
edher selff i
rstbyget ti
ngint
obedwi t
h
meknowi ngv er
ywel lsheisapr i
ncessawaiti
ngthe
thr
one.Iwillnot
, i
r epeatwi l
l notmar r
yOrati
l
e!
Ki
ng:iwil
lnotbedi
srespectedbyaZulumani
nmy
ownhouse!Whatashame!Getoutofmyhouse!
Andneverl
ookback.Forgetaboutseei
ngy
ourchi
l
d.
Me:y
ouwi
l
lnotkeepmychi
l
dawayf
rom me!Or
ati
l
e!
Or
ati
l
e!
Shecameinrunni
ngwithtear
sonherf
ace.Tear
s
aremyweaknessbutonlywheni
tst
hepeopleIl
ove
andshei
snotoneofthem
Me:
whatnonsensei
sthi
s!Whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me
y
ou'
reapr
incess!
Ki
ng:
Leav
e!Nowt
heKi
ngSt
oodupsodi
dtheel
der
s
Bonga:weareverysor
ryfort
hisi
nci
dent
.Wewi
l
lbe
backtosor
toutthisi
ssue.
Wegotoutandl eft
.Iwasveryangry
, howcanthey
usemyunbor nchil
dtocor
nermei ntomar r
ying
Orati
l
e!Mychildwill
beaNgcobo, hewi l
lbe
acceptedandknownbytheNgcboboancest orsnot
someMof okengs.AndIwi
llneverevermarryOrat
il
e.
Br
ian:
whatwi
l
lwedoknow?
Nkosi
:wehav
etogobackt
her
etomor
row
Bonga: No,youhavetoletyourf
atherknowandthen
sendy ouruncl
eshere,wemayknowaboutour
tr
adit
ionsbutthisneedselderst
odiscussandsorti
t
out.
Me:Iwil
ll
ethi
m knowbytoday
.Fornowl
et'
spack
ourbagsandl
eavethi
spl
ace.
Ical
l
edOr
ati
l
e
Or
a:babeI'
mv erysor
ryforwhathappenedtoday
.I
di
dn'
tthi
nktal
kingyouthatI
'mroyal
tywouldhave
anyi
mpactonusoneday
.
Me:don'
tbabeme!Youwi
l
lbei
nDBNby13pm f
or
ourf
ir
stbabyscan
ThenIdr
oppedt
hephone
Idon'
tcar
ehowsheget st
oDurbanbutshewi l
lbe
ther
eandIwill
findawayt omakeaDNAt est
,Athi
hastoopul
lsomest r
ingsanddoitf
ast.Iam not
marryi
ngherbutIwil
lhavemybaby
Wegottothehotel
,Ichangedi
ntoaaddi
das
tr
acksui
tandsneaker
sthenpackedal
lmycl
othes
andwecheckedout.
Br
ian:
I'
ll
fir
st
Nkosi
:shopassbyMcDee,
Ineedsomef
ood
Me:
Ineedi
cecr
eam
Bonga:
icecr
eam?
Me:yeahSi
yahasicecream whensheneedst
o
cal
m downsoIguessitwil
lworkformetoo
Nkosi
:your
eal
l
yneedi
t,Icanseey
ou'
rev
eryangr
y
Me:
whot
hehel
ldot
heyt
hinkt
heyar
e!Ihopet
he
uncl
eswi
l
lbeabl
etof
ixt
hismessup
Br
ian:haveyouev
ert
houghtt
hatmay
bet
hebaby
i
sn'ty
ours?
Me:
yeahIhav
emant
hat
'
swhyt
omor
rowI
'
llf
indout
Bonga:
howt
hebabyi
sn'
tev
enbor
nyet
Me:Iwon'
twaitfor9monthsi
t'
stoolongandthi
s
madnesswil
lconti
nueifIwai
tthatl
ong.At
hiwil
l
f
indaway
Br
ian:
whatdoesAt
hiknowaboutbabi
es?
Nkosi:
youdoknowthatNay
eisagy
naesoshe
mightknowwhatt
odo
Me:Idi
dn'
tthi
nkoft
hathey
.I'
l
ltal
ktoherwhenwe
gethome.

#Si
ya
Afterl
astni
ghtI
'mfeel
i
ngbetterbuthangoveri
s
kil
l
ingme sowechi l
li
ngoutsi
deinbiki
nisenj
oyi
ng
theshadewithmor
ealcohol
Zandy
:Br
iansay
stheyar
eont
hei
rwayback
Bee:yeahBongatol
dmeanhouragosoI
'
m sur
e
theyarecl
osernow
Nay
e:i
tsPhi
l
a'sbi
rt
hdayi
n10day
s
Me:
yeahi
thi
nkweshoul
dhav
eapar
ty.
Sneh:
sur
pri
separ
tyor
?
Me:
nhenotasur
pri
se
Zee:
whynot
?
Me:y
oudoknowPhi
lahatessur
pri
sespl
ushehasa
l
ott
odeal
witht
hanhavi
nganymor esur
pri
ses
#LBUBT
Nexti
nser
tcomi
ngsoon
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1/11,
00:
29]Tat
enda:
Inser
t36
#Phi
l
a
Wegott oDurbanaround6pm andwewer eonour
waytomyhouse.It hi
nkI'
m calm nowbutI'
m sti
l
l
ver
yangry.Wegothomeandt hegirl
swerelay
ingon
t
hef l
oorwatchingTV
Bonga:
whathappenedt
othecouches?
Nay
e:not
hing,
wej
ustf
eltl
i
kel
ayi
ngont
hef
loor
Bri
an:
isitcomf
ort
abl
e?Car
pet
scanbehel
l
someti
mes
Zandy
:it
scomf
ysohowdi
ditgo?
Me:we'
l
ltal
kaboutitl
aterguy
sf ornowIhavet
o
t
akeashowerandwhenI '
m doneIneedtotal
kto
youNay
e.Si
yawill
youcomewi t
hme?
Si
ya:
toshowerwi
thy
ou?Not
hanky
ou
Me:
noIneedt
otal
ktoy
ou
Bel
i
nda:
youseem angr
y
Me:
Iam butwe'
l
ltal
klat
erwhenev
ery
onei
sher
e
Iwentupst
air
sandSi
yaf
oll
owedme
It
ookofmycl
othesandt
hrewt
hem ont
hef
loor
Si
ya:
ther
e'ssomet
hingcal
l
edabasket
Me:
Iknow
Si
ya:
athanky
ouwoul
dbef
ine
Me:Thankyou!Thanky
ouSi
ya!Ar
eyouhappynow!
?
What'
swithyou
Siy
a:whatiswit
hy ou!Youaskmet ocomeuphere
wit
hy ouandyoujustlashoutonme!I'
m notev
en
supposedtobeherebutI'm her
e!
Me:
leav
e!Youwantt
oleav
ejustl
eav
eSi
ya!
Si
ya:
Fine!
Shest
oodup whathav
eIdone!I
'
m suchaj
erk
Me:pl
easedon' tl
eaveSiya,I
'
mj usti
nabadspace
I
'mreal
lysorry.Theywantmet omar r
yhershe'
sa
damnprincessandi hav
et omar r
yherinor
derto
havemychi l
d
Si
ya:
youhav
etomar
ryher
?
Me:yeahthat
'swhatt
heywantbutIwon'
tdot
hat
nonsense
Si
ya:
whatar
eyougoi
ngdonow?
Me: Idon'
tknowSiy
aIr
eall
ydon'
tknowbutI
'l
lbe
sendingmyelder
stogother
ethi
sweekendanddeal
wit
ht hi
smat t
er
Si
ya:
Ihopeev
ery
thi
ngwi
l
lbeokay
Me:
andIwantaDNAt
est
,Ihav
etobesur
ethatt
he
chi
l
dismi
ne
Si
ya:
arey
oususpect
ingi
tsnoty
our
s
Me:
Ithi
nki
tsmi
nebutIj
usthav
etobesur
e
Si
ya:
Goodlucknowtakey
ourshowerI
'
m goi
ngt
o
j
oint
heot
hers.Hungr
y?
Me:
noI
'
mfi
neweat
eont
heway
Si
ya:
okaycool
.
Shelefttheroom andItookashowerandt
hen
l
otionedmybodyt henworekhaki
shor
tswit
ha
whitet'
shirt
.Iwentdownstai
rsandchi
ll
edwit
h
everyone,Iwassit
tingnextt
oLubah
Me:
Nay
emaywet
alkpl
ease?
Nay
e:y
eahsur
e
Wewentt
otheki
tchenandMphol
eftsi
ncehewas
t
her
e
Nay
e:what
'sup?
Me:
Ineedt
ohav
eaDNAt
estdonet
omor
row
Nay
e:butt
hebabyi
sn'
tbor
nyet
Me:
that
'swhyIneedy
ourhel
p
Naye:
y oudoknowwhaty
ouaski
ngmet
odomi
ght
har
mt hebaby
Me:
yesbutIj
ustneedi
tdone
Naye:okayt
omor
rowat2pm shar
p.Si
yaknows
aboutthi
s?
Me:noandI
'
llt
ell
herwhent
her
esul
tscome,
whi
ch
wi
ll
be?
Nay
e:wecanhav
ethem byt
omor
rowst
il
l
Me:
Thanky
ouman,
you'
real
i
fesav
er.
Nay
e:t
her
eisawayy
oucant
hankme
Me:
whi
chi
s?
Naye:
all
owustothr
owyouapar
ty we'vebeen
pl
anni
ngtoaskyousi
ncey
ouhat
esur
pri
ses
Me:it
sCoolaslongasSiy
aisi
nvol
ved.Youdoknow
Ist
il
ll
oveherverymuch
Nay
e: yeahIknowandy
ouguy
swi
l
lbeback
t
ogethersoon
Me:Idon'tknowheywi t
hthebabyontheway,
Orat
il
ebeingapr i
ncess t heki
ngwanti
ngmet o
marryherit
sjusttoomuchandIdon'twantSi
yat
o
gothroughallt
hatbecauseofme
Naye:
yeahIunderst
andwhaty
ou'
resay
ingpl
usit
j
ustwouldn'
tbefai
ronher
.Howfari
sOrat
il
ewit
h
t
hepregnancy?
Me:
5weeks
Nay
e:ohgoodt
heni
twon'
tbemuchofapr
obl
em
Me:
thanky
ouf
ordoi
ngt
hisf
orme
Naye:
that
'swhatf
ami
l
yisf
ormanwe'
real
lj
ustone
bi
gfamil
ynow
She'
sright,
we'r
emorethanj
ustfr
iends.We'
rea
famil
y.Idon'
tknowwhatIwoul
d'
vebeenwi t
hout
them
Wewentbackt
otheot
her
sandt
heywer
epl
ayi
ng
car
ds
Me:
whenl
astdi
dIpl
aycar
dsman
Br
ian:
comepl
ay
Me:
nheIhav
eaf
ewcal
l
stomake
Naye:
Phi
l
asai
dyes!Sowecanst
artpl
anni
ngt
he
par
ty
Mpho:
whatpar
ty?
Bee:
itsPhi
l
a'sbi
rt
hdayont
hesecond
Ntoko:andDanny'
sonthet
hir
d!Sowecanj ust
combinethem andhav
eapartyal
lweekend
Zandy:soundsli
keaplan l
ikewhydi
dn'
tIt
hink
ofthi
s?You'reageni
usNtokozo
Lyanda:
your
ejustapar
tyani
mal
Zandyandy
ou'
re
corr
upti
ngNtoko
Kamo:youguysaresounf
air
!We'
repr
egnantand
you'
rebusypar
tyi
ng.
Si
ya:
sor
rygi
rl
s butwej
usthav
etopar
ty
Kamo:wel
lsi
nceIwon'
tdr
ink,
Thaboy
ou'
real
sonot
dri
nki
ng
Bel
i
nda:
greati
deat
win
Thabo&Lubah:
that
'
snothappeni
ng
Danny
:wel
comet
ofat
her
hood
Zee:
yousay
ingt
hatasi
fyouhav
eachi
l
d
Danny
:youwoul
dn'
tknow
Zee:
whatdoy
oumean?
Danny:I
'mjoki
ngman,i
fIhadaki
dyouwoul
dknow
thatbynowcupcake
YeahDannycal
l
sZee"
Cupcake"
Me:
excusemeguy
s
At
hi:
shoboy
,goodl
uck
Iwentt
omyr
oom upst
air
sandcal
l
edmydad
Me:
Ngcobo
Dad:son,
howarey
ou?Youhav
etocomev
isi
tme,
youandmakot
i
Me:
dadwenott
oget
herany
mor
e
Dad:
y ouidi
ot,
youcannev
erl
etawomanl
i
kehergo
j
ustl
ikethat
Me: i
tsmor
ecompl
i
cat
edt
hany
out
hink,
that
'swhy
I
'm call
i
ngyou
Dad:
youcheat
eddi
dn'
tyou?
Me:
yesdad andIi
mpr
egnat
edt
hegi
rl
Dad:
whathappenedt
oacondom?
Me:
dadIdon'
tuset
hose
Dad:seewhatyourf
ool
i
shnesshasdone.ButI
'
m
gladI'
m goi
ngt
obeagrandfat
her.Howismakoti
taki
ngit?
Me: notsogood,shewentcrazyanddestr
oyedt
he
housebutitsal
lfi
xednowandsheseemst ohav
e
acceptedthesi
tuati
on.Wejustfr
iendsnow
Dad:sowhyar
eyoucal
l
ingme?Hav
eyout
oldy
our
mother?
Me: dadyouknowhowmuchshel ov
esSiya,i
haven'tt
oldherbutIwashopi ngyouwil
l.Ifoundout
thatOrati
lei
sapr i
ncesswhenwewentt opayf or
thedamagesnowt heywantmet omarr
yherort he
chil
dwi l
lusetheMof okengsurname
Dad:that
'snotgoingtohappen.Thatchil
dbel
ongs
totheNgcobof amil
y.Wewillgother
et hi
sweekend,
whereisshefrom
Me:
TheNor
thWest
Dad:sofar
,okayIwi
l
lcal
lyouruncl
esandwewi
l
l
sor
tthi
sout.
Me:
Thanky
oudad
Dad:
you'
regoingt
obeaf at
hernowmyson.Iam
pr
oud t houghIwishi
twasmakoti
pregnant
.
Me:Iwishsot
oobutwhathashappenedchanged
ev
eryt
hingdad
Dad:
I'
m sor
ryson.Goodby
eIhav
ecal
l
stomake
Me:
okayby
e
Iendedt
hecallandthrewmyselfonthebed.Thisis
themostst
ressfulweekofmyli
feandIhav etogo
backtowor
kt omorrow whi l
eIwasj ustaboutto
closemyeyesmyphoner anganditwasOr a,t
his
womanisgoingt obeapaini
nmyl if
enow
Me:
Yes
Ora:
babeI
'minDur
banalr
eadyatmyapar
tmentcan
youcomeover
?Imissy
ou
Me:
Orat
il
e,whaty
ouandIhav
eisov
ernow.Weonl
y
haveababyt
oget
hersodon'
tevercal
lmeagai
n
unl
essi
t'
saboutt
hebaby.Beatmyoffi
ce1pm
shar
p.
Or
a:y
ou'
rewi
thSi
yaar
en'
tyou!
Me:
thathasnot
hingt
owi
thy
ou
Iendedthecallandt
hrewmy
sel
fonmypi
l
lowt
han
Lubahcamei n
Lubah:
thatbad?
Me:
yeahmant
hingsar
ejustupsi
dedown
Lubah:
mov
e
Hel
ayednextmeandwel
ookedupi
nthecei
l
ing
Lubah:we'r
egoingtobefather'
snowt hingsar e
goingt
ochange.We'llhav
edi f
ferentpriori
ties.I
knowthingswil
lbehardforyoubuty oushoul d
knowthatyourchi
ldcomesf i
rst,beforeOr ati
leand
Siy
a
Me:i
knowman.Apartofmeisreal
l
yexci
tedt
hatI
'
ll
beafat
herbutIwi
sht
hingswer
edif
fer
ent
.
Lubah:
butt
heyar
enotdi
ff
erent
.You'
veseent
hat
Siyaisseriousaboutyouguy snotbei
ngt ogether
,
may beonedayi twi
ll
allworkoutandy ou'l
lbe
togetherbutf ornowyouhavet ogetyourself
togetherandf ocusonyourselfsowhent hebaby
comesy ou'l
lbeready
Me:
that
'st
rueman
Lubah:andSiyawillal
waysbeherefory
ou,you'
ve
seenhowshe' sbeensupport
ingyounoweven
thoughyouguy sarenott
ogether
.Youcanbegood
fri
endsfornow.Nowwakeupandj oi
nus
downstair
s.Inthemeantime,don'
tmakeanymore
babies.
Me: Iwon'
t.ThanksmanIr
eal
l
yneededt
hose
wor
ds
Lubah:st
opcomingcloset
omenow,I
'm notgay
I'
m her
eforyoubro.Nowcomel
et'
sgohaveaf ew
dri
nks
Me:
you'
renotdr
inki
ngt
il
lBel
i
ndagi
vesbi
rt
h
Lubah:
whatshedoesn'
tknowwon'
tki
l
lherr
ight
Me:
youdonotwantt
hatcr
icketbatony
ourback
dude.Dontt
aket
hatr
oad.I
'
vel
ear
ntt
hatl
esson
Webothl
aughedandwentdownst
air
s.Hepour
ed
whi
skeyf
orusandjui
ceforBel
i
nda
At
hi:soPhi
l
at hi
smeanswehav
etobuyy
oua
pr
esentonyourbir
thday
?
Mpho:
I'
ll
buyy
ousomepamper
s
Me:
yeahwhat
everman
I
'm notr
eal
lycomfortabl
eyetwi
thtal
ki
ngaboutme
havi
ngababyaroundSi y
a.Imeanshe'
sst
il
lhurtby
thi
sandhavingherheretobeal
waysremi
ndedthat
I
'm havi
ngababymi ghtbehar
donher
Sneh:
wehav
etol
eav
enow,
gott
ogett
owor
k
tomor
row
Ly
anda:yeahandIneedt
orestwi
thmyNt
okozo,
I'
ve
missedher
Nt
oko:
yeahl
et'
sgetgoi
ngl
yanda
Zandy
:don'
tfor
gett
ouseacondom
Theyl
aughedandl
eft
Nkosi
:thoset
woar
egoi
ngt
oshageachot
her
Bonga:
tel
lmeaboutut
Si
ya:
wel
lI'
mleav
ingnowPhi
l
a.By
e
Me:goodby
eSiya.I
'
llmi
ssy
oudon'
tfor
gett
ocal
l
oncei
nawhi l
e
Si
ya:
don'tworryI
'
llseey
oui
naf
ewday
s good
l
uckwit
hev er
ythi
ng
Me:
thanksy
out
oo
Theywentoutthedoorandapieceofmyhear
tlef
t
wit
hher.Il
ookedatthedoorf
orawhi l
e
Nkosi
:she'
sgonenowdudecomel et
'sgetdrunk
andgetri
dofthepain.Iwasl
eftwi
thMpho, Athi
,
NkosiandBonga.I
tsusthesi
ngleguys
At
hi:
gent
s!Thest
ri
pcl
ubi
deai
sst
il
lup
Bonga:
I'
m game
Me:
nhegentsyoucanl
eav
emebehi
nd.I
'
llj
ustsl
eep
I
'mti
redal
ready
Nkosi
:okaysui
tyour
sel
fmanby
e
Theyall
lef
tandIwasal
lal
onenow.Ishoul
dbuya
small
erhouse,
thi
smansi
oncanbereall
yqui
etand
l
onelyespecial
lysinceI'
m al
onenow.Iwenttomy
room anditsti
l
l smell
sofSiya.Igoti
ntobedand
slept

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeup, t
ookashowerandgotdr essed.Ihad
breakfastandthendrovetowork,
Inot i
cedmy
Bentleyisn'
theresoItext
edSiy
a
"
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leywi
thy
ou"
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epandt hankyou"sherespondedIj
ustlaughed
anddrovetowork.Igott
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s
werealr
eadythere.Kayi
sdoingagreatjob.Isat
downandhewal kedinwear i
ngagreysuitwhich
wasreall
ystyl
ish
Me:
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mimpr
essed
Kay
:Thanky
ousi
r i
boughtt
hel
apt
opandcl
othes
Me:
andt
hephone?
Kay
:Idon'tneedaphoner
ightnowsoIsavedt
he
moneyforanapart
mentim pl
anni
ngtobuyinafew
mont
hs
Me:t
hat'
sver
ywi
seofy
ou.Sowhat
'shappeni
ng
t
oday?
Kay: t
odayisyourluckyday,youhav
enomeetings
besidesthe2o'cl
ockappointmentwit
honeofyour
fr
iends,shesaidsheisNay eandyoushoul
dcome
toheroffice
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lthat
'
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copyoftheset
henemail
t hem tothesameaddr
essi
gaveyou.
Kay
:cool
Helef
ttheoff
iceandIdi
dal
otofpaperwor
kandI
ev
enmostt r
ackofti
me
Kay:si
rther
e'ssomeonewhowant
stoseeyou,
she
saysshe'
syourbabymamaandsheiscausi
ngalot
ofdramaattherecept
ion
Me:
letheri
n
Or
ati
l
ewal
kedi
nfumi
ng
Me:
what
'swr
ongnow?
Ora:t
heydi
dn'
twantt
oletmei
n!Iam goi
ngtobe
yourwif
esoIhav
etocomeinher
ewheneverIwant
t
o!
Me: Or
ati
leI
'
mt i
red,Ir
eal
lydon'
twantanyofyour
drama.Andyouwill
neverbemywifeokay?Nowdid
youeat?
Or
a:y
es
Me:
what
'st
het
ime?
Or
a:i
t'
s1:
30pm
Me:
okayl
etmepackupandl
et'
sgo
Or
a:wher
ear
ewegoi
ngt
o?
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hedoct
or,
Idi
dtel
lyouI
'
m goi
ngt
odoaDNA
t
est
Wegott
othecaranddr
ovet
oNay
e'swor
kpl
ace
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snoneedf
oraDNAt
est
causethi
sbabyisyours
Me:
Ijustwantt
obesur
e
Ora:okaysui
tyour
self
.Iwouldl
ieaboutmanyt
hings
Phil
abutIwouldn'
tl
ieaboutsomethi
ngthi
sser
ious.
I
thurt
stoknowt haty
oudon'
ttr
ustmewhenIsay
i
tsyourchi
l
dbuti t
sokayy
oucandotheDNAj ust
buymeabur gerwhenwedoneandyou'
veseenthat
i
tsyourchi
l
d
Shewasr
eal
l
ysi
ncer
eandy
oucoul
dseeshewas
hur
t
Me:I'
m sor
ryIdidn'
tmeantohurtyou.Andsor
ryf
or
notaski
ngforyourper
missi
on,Ij
ustneedtobesure
Orat
il
eIhopeyouunderst
and
Or
a:Iunder
standPhi
l
ajustpl
aysomemusi
cther
e
Ipl
ayedsomemusicanddr
ove.Wegotther
eandi
t
wasexactl
y2pm.Wewenttoherof
fi
ce
Nay
e:Phi
l
a,Iguessy
ou'
reOr
ati
l
e.Youmaysi
tdown
Me:
yeahshe'
sOr
ati
l
e
Naye:
Oracomewit
hmeplease.AndPhi
l
ayoumay
f
indsomet
hingt
odowhi
l
ewe' regone
Theywentoutandleftmealone,
Ikeptonlookingat
Siya'
spictur
es itmakesmef eelbett
eral
ltheti
me.
After30minsanur
secameinandt ookmybl ood
thenleft
.Iwasget
ti
ngboredofsit
tingher
e.SoIwent
toanearbycaf
é,Igot3lat
te'
sandabottl
eofwat
er
wit
h8chocolatedoughnut
s.Igotbackt
othe
hospi
tal
andwentt oNaye'
soffi
ce
Or
a:wet
houghty
ou'
ver
anaway
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ogogetsomeLat
te'
sand
doughnut
sIwasbor
edinhere
Nay
e:Or
ayou'
renotsupposedt
odr
inkLat
te
Or
a:okayI
'
llj
usthav
ewat
erandsomedoughnut
s
Nay
e:doy
ouwantt
oopent
her
esul
tsnowor
?
Me:
now
ShelookedatOr
aandshenoddedwhi
l
est
uff
ing
her
selfwit
hfood
Sheopenedtheenvel
opeandgav
eitt
ome.I
tsai
d
thatt
hebabyis99.
9℅mi ne
Me:
I'
mthef
ather
Ora:it
oldy
out
hebabyi
syour
s.Nowcanwegetmy
burger
?
Me:
buty
ou'
rehav
ingdoughnut
s
Shegav
emeadeat
hst
are
Naye:she'
spregnantPhil
a.Or
atakecar
eofy our
sel
f
andthebaby,eatheal
thyandcomeforcheckups
ever
ymont h
Or
a:okayIwi
l
l.
West
oodupandsai
dourgoodby
esandl
eft
Or
a:I
'
llbemov
ingi
nwi
thy
ou
Me:
why
?
Ora:we'r
ehavingababy,
theleasty
oucoul
ddois
havememov einwi
thyou.I
'
lluseanot
herr
oom on
thefi
rstfl
oor
.
Ikeptqui
etanddr
ovet
oSt
eer
sandgot4bur
ger
sI
washungrytoo
Ora:
Itoldthem Idontwanttomar r
yyou.Iknow
you'
l
lnevermar r
ymesof orcingyoutodosowon't
makethingseasier
.Soyouruncleswon'thavemuch
ofaproblem whentheygethome
Me:t
hankyouI'
m gl
adyouunderst
and.Idon'
tknow
whyyoudi
dthatbutI
'm gr
atef
ul
Or
a:that
'swhatyoudofort
hepeopl
eyoul
ove.You
makesuretheyar
ehappyatal
lti
mes.
Me:
doy
oumeant
hat
?
Or
a:what
?
Me:
thaty
oul
oveme?
Ora:
Iwoul
dn'
thav
eopenedmyl
egsf
ory
oui
fIdi
dn'
t
l
oveyou
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mmmh
Iconti
nueddri
vi
ngandwet
ookhercl
othesather
apart
mentthenwentt
omyhouse
Me:you'
llbeusingthelastr
oom onthe1stf
loori
ts
onyourleft
,ther
e'sever
ythi
ngyouneedandits
cl
osertothe1stkitchen
Or
a:howmanyki
tchensdoy
ouhav
e?
Me:4,
oneoneachfloor
.You'
l
lgetev
ery
thi
ngy
ou
needi
nthi
shouse.
Ora:wowy
ouhav
eabeaut
if
ulhouset
hanky
ouf
or
l
etti
ngmemovei
n
Me:
I'
m doi
ngi
tfort
hebaby
Itookherbagstoherroom andthenwentupstai
rs
tomyr oom andtookashower.Isti
l
lhavet
ot el
lSiy
a
thatOrat
il
ehasmov edinwithme,Iwonderhow
she'sgoi
ngtotakeit
Igotoutt
heanddr
essedup.Myphoner
angandi
t
wasmom!
Me:
mommy
Ma:don'tmommymeher
e!Whatnonsensei
sthi
s?
WhereisSiy
a?
Me:webrokeupMa.Icheatedonherandgot
anot
hergi
rlpr
egnanthernameisOr
ati
le
Ma:
youar
esuchani
diotmychi
l
d.I
sthebabyy
our
s?
Me:
yesmom Idi
daDNAt
estt
odayandi
tsmybaby
Ma:I
'm happyf
oryoumyson.I
'
m goi
ngt
obea
gr
andma wher ei
sSiy
a?
Me:shemov edoutmom, wenott
oget
herany
mor
e
andwe'l
lnev
erbet oget
her
Ma:
I'
m sor
rymychi
ldbutyoudi
dittoyour
sel
f.Let
mecal
lmychi
ldandseehowshe'sdoi
ng
Me:
soI
'
m noty
ourchi
l
dany
mor
e?
Ma:
youar
emyst
upi
dson,
wher
eist
hatnaugt
yboy
?
Me:
idon'
tknowbutheshoul
dbebackar
ound8pm
Ma:
tel
lhi
mtocal
lmeASAP
Me:
okaymom Iwi
l
lnowby
e.
Thecall
endedandIwentt omakesupper,wel
lI
order
edfrom anear
byrestaur
ant cookingwasn'
t
onmyscheduletoday.Igotatextf
rom Nay
e
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oudoknowhav i
ngsexwi
thOrawil
lmake
t
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thy Ijustdi
dn'
twantt
otel
lyou
t
houghit
simport
ant"
Ical
ledheri
mmedi
atel
yandNkosi
answer
edt
he
phone
Nkosi
:Iseey
ougotmyt
extman
Me:youidi
ot Iwi
lldonosuch!I
'
m sur
ethe
babycansurv
iveandwhatar
eyoudoingwit
hNaye'
s
phone
Nkosi
:Icamet
ovi
sitEmi
hle
Me:
thatdoesn'
tanswermyquest
ion
Nkosi
:okayIst
olei
t,i
m checki
ngi
fshedoesn'
thav
e
anyboyf
ri
end
Me:
you'
renut
sman!By
e
Nkosi
:by
e
Heendedthecall
andIwentt
omyst
udyr
oom and
l
ockedmyselfi
nther
e

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Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
[
1/11,
00:
30]Tat
enda:
Inser
t37
It
sbeenaweeksi ncewe' vebeenapar twi t hPhil
a.I
domi sshim everydaybutI '
m doingj ustfinewi thout
him, wel l
that'
sjustwhatIkeepont ell
ingmy self.He
tol
dmet hattheDNAt estresultprovedt hatt hechil
d
i
shi s.Iam v eryhappyf orhim andIwanthi mt o
enjoyt hejourneyofhi m beingaf atherwi thout
havinghi mt othinkthatithurtsme.Idof eelsad
somet i
mesbutI 'mr eall
yhappyf orhim Ir eall
yam.
Todayi sthe2cndofFebr uary.I
t'
shi sbi r
t hday
andsor tofDanny '
st oosinceitstomor rowbutwe
havingaj oi
ntpar ty stayingwi t
hSnehhasbeen
great sowewentt ot hemal laf ewday sagoandI
bumpedi nt
oMongezi ,wel lwehadl uncht ogether
andmetupagai ny esterday .SoIaskedhi mt obemy
plus1att hepartyt oday.Thepar tywillbestarti
ngat
11soIst ill
hav esomet i
met opr epar eanddot he
fi
nal t
oucheswel lI'
m sur eNt okohasev eryt
hing
ready, shewentov ertherewi tht heguy sandZeet o
dot hedecoret c.Ijustst ayedbehi ndandcooked
papandsomesal adsI '
l
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hepar tyisathis
placeandi twil
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nuef orther estoftheweekend.
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shirtanddeni mj acketwi thZXFl uxsneaker s,Ilet
mybr aidslooseandt ookev ery t
hingt omycarwel l
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m stil
lgoi ngtokeept hiscarf orawhi l
e,
onceI 'm overhi m, hecant akei tback Idroveof
thepar kinglotandwentt opickupMongezi .
Mo:
hey
,youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
thanky
ou nott
oobady
our
sel
fhey
Mo:
Itr
y
Wedr ovetoPhil
a'sandtheyardwaspackedal r
eady.
Wegoti ntot
hehouseandIputev eryt
hinginthe
ki
tchenthenrantothebathroom.I'
vebeenhav i
ng
al
otofst omachpainsl
atelybutI
'
m constipat
ed
sometimesI'mjustver
yweakandt ir
edbutIwon' t
l
etthatgettome Ihav etoenj
oythisparty
WhenIgotoutt
hebat
hroom Or
ati
l
ewasl
ayi
ngon
Phi
l
a'sbed
Me:
you'
reher
e?
Ora:ist
ayheresowhywouldn'
tIbeonmyfi
ancés
bed.Sheli
ft
edupherhandandtherewasabeaut
if
ul
di
amondr i
ngonherfi
nger.
Me:congrat
ulat
ions y
ouguy
swi
l
lmakea
wonderf
ulcouple
Ijustsaidandleft,
Ifelttearsfal
l
ingonmyf acebutI
quicklywipedthem offandwentt ojoint
heot hers.
PhilasawmeandIav oidedanyey econtactwi t
hhim.
Thepar tywasget t
ingpackedandi twassomuch
funal r
eady.Wear egoingt ohaveaspi tbraai andits
takingplaceatthegardenneart hebr aaiarea.
Ther e'
slotsoffoodanddi ffer
enttypesofmeat ,
al
cohol
,snacks,
boar
dgameset
cit
sgoi
ngt
obeso
muchfun
Naye:heybabe,
youwi
tht
haty
ummyf
reakyguy
agai
n?
Me:
yesandhi
snamei
sMongezi
Kamo:mmmhhel
ooksy
ummybutsomeonewi
shes
toki
l
lhim
Shesai
dpoi
nti
ngatPhi
l
awhowasr
eal
l
ypi
ssed
Zandy
:he'
l
lbest
rong
Me:
yaasmyf
ri
end!
Lubah:mayIhaveev
eryonesat
tent
ion!Iknowmy
fr
iendshat
ethi
sbutcanwesingHappybi rt
hdayt
o
DannyandPhil
a!
Weall
sangHappybir
thdayandt
heyj
ustst
oodt
her
e
gi
vi
ngusablankst
are
Zee:
youguy
sar
ebor
ing!
Mpho:Iknowwhatwil
lir
ri
tat
ethem t
hemost
SPEECH!SPEECH!SPEECH!
Weal
lshout
ed i
twasf
unseei
ngt
hem so
i
rr
it
atedpluswhati
rr
it
atedPhil
athemostisthat
Mongezihadhi
shandsov ermywaistandkepton
whi
speri
nginmyear
Danny :i
m notmakinganyspeechbutt hanky ou
everyoneforcomingtocelebr
ateourbi r
thdaywith
usthoughmi neistomorr
ow.AndI '
dl i
ket othankour
fr
iendsfordoingthi
sbutmost l
yI'
dliketot hemy
cupcakeZiyandaformakingthispossible,il
oveyou
Zee:
Ilov
eyout
oodandan
Every
onel
aughedandcl
appedhands.Dannygav
e
Phil
athemi
crophone
Phi
i
la:
Thanky
ou
Andhegav
ethemi
crophonet
oLubah
Sneh:
Phil
aissuchaweir
do weal
ll
aughedand
MsOrati
l
et ookt
hemic
Bel
i
nda:
whoi
sshe?
Me:
Phi
l
a'sbaby
mama
Nt
oko:
icanseet
hebabybump
Nay
e:i
t'
scal
l
edabel
l
yorst
omachman
Shecl
ear
edhert
hroatandst
art
edt
alki
ng
Ora:IwouldliketowishPhil
asandeLesleyNgcoboa
wonderfulday .Mostofyoudon'
tknowmebuti can
i
ntroducemy self.Iam Or
ati
l
eMof okeng.Soont
obe
t
hemot herofPhi l
a'
ssonordaughter
Thecr
owdcl
appedt
hei
rhandsandPhi
l
awas
l
ooki
ngatme
Ora:Il
oveyouPhi l
a,whenImety ouIwasjustyour
PAbutwehadaconnect i
onandwebot hknewi t
wasmor ethanabossandempl oyeeconnecti
on.It
waslove,we'v
ehadaf ewchallengesalongtheway
whichwehav emanagedt ogetridof and
conti
nuedembr aci
ngourlove.
Zandy
:thi
sgi
rli
scrazy
!Lor
dknowshowmuchu
wantt
obeatherassupnow!
Ora:Irememberwheny ousai
d"Orati
leIl
ovey ou,
andIwi l
lnotletanythi
ngcomebetweenus"Ijust
knewt hatdayIfoundmyt r
uelove.That
'swhyhe
proposedtomel astni
ght happybir
thdaymy
fi
ancé,IloveyouandI '
m pr
oudtosayIwi l
lbeMr s
Ngcobo
Br
ian:
wtf
!!
Ij
ustrant
othehouseandl
ockedmy sel
fint
he
bat
hroom t
her
ewasaknockont hedoor
Mo:
Bear
,openuppl
easei
tsme
Ijustcont
inuedcr
yingandt
her
ewer
eloudv
oices
l
ikepeoplewerefi
ghting
Mo:
Bunni
eBearpl
easest
opcr
ying,
openupf
orme
Phi
la:Bunnybearmyf oot
!Youleavemyhouseright
now!I'
vehadenoughofseei ngyoutouchi
ngand
ki
ssingSiya.Mybrothert
hatisoverandyouwil
l
l
eaveandnev ertur
nback!!
Mo:
orwhat
?
ThenIhear
daf
ewscr
eams!
Nay
e:Phi
l
ayou'
rehur
ti
nghi
m!Lethi
m go
Istoodupandunlocked,
wheni
openedPhi
l
a
stoppedbeat
ingupMongezi
Me:
you'
rehur
ti
nghi
m,mov
e
Ibentdownandpi
ckedupMongezi
Mo:
arey
ouokay
?
Me:Ishoul
dbeaski
ngy
out
hatMo.Letmegeta
f
acetowel
Mo:don'tworr
yaboutmebunnybear
.Aslongas
you'
reokay I '
ll
beleav
ingseeyousoonbabe.I
m
comingforyouPhil
a
Hest oodupandli
mpedt othedoor.Mphohelped
him outandIt
urnedandsl appedPhil
a!Hejust
grabbedmeandki ssedme igotbacktomy
sensesandpushedhi m offthensl
appedhim agai
n
Me:anddon'
tyoudar
ethi
nkofki
ssingmeagain!I
swearIwi
ll
kil
lyouwhydi
dyoubeathim upl
i
kethat
Phil
a:I'
m sorr
ySi y
amt handabutIcan't!Ir
eall
ycan'
t
j
ustsitandwat chhim whi leheistouchingyou,
ki
ssingyouandwhi sper i
ngthingstoyou.Itr
iedto
keepcalm butIlostit!SiyamthandaIloveyouandi
canneverwatchanot herguybewi thyou!
Me: Youareself
ishandunfair
!Youar ehavinga
baby!Shestaysherewit
hy ou!Andy ouproposedto
her!Youcouldn'
tevenwaitti
llIgotoutofthishouse
soyoucanwifeher!Andyoucan' tj
ustl
etmebe!
Yougetti
ngmarri
edtoher!Howdoy outhi
nkt
hat
makesmef eel
?Doy outhinkI'
m happywit
hal
lthis,
wakingupever
ydaywithoutyounexttome!Doy ou
thi
nkthi
siseasyforme!Damny ouPhil
a!
Phil
a:I
'm notgetti
ngmar r
ied.Orati
leisj
ustpsycho!
Shesment al
lyi
ll!Idi
dn'
tproposet oher,i
only
al
lowedhert ostayherej
ustf ort
hebabyandf orus
nottogetmar r
ied.Idon'
tknowwher eshegotthe
i
deaofusget ti
ngmar ri
edIswear !Idon'
tloveyou
heratal
l!
Orati
l
ewal kedovertousf uri
ously!Andpushedme
overthestai
rs.LuckyLy andat hrewhimselfandhel
d
myheadsoi twouldn'tgethurt,wer oll
edovert
othe
l
aststairandihadbl oodal l
ov ermyl egs
Me:
ohno!What
'sgoi
ngon
Ly
anda:
Nay
e!!Hel
p
Ever
yonecamerunni
ngandPhil
ahel dmyhand,it
wasgett
ingbl
urr
yandIwasloosingmysi ght
.I
coul
dhearvoi
cesfr
om afardi
stance,what'
sgoi
ng
on
Me:
Phi
l
a
Thenl
i
ght
sout
!

#PHI
LA
SeeingMongezi hol dingSi yamademev er yangr y
butIdidn'
tsayany t
hingatf i
rstcauseIwanthert o
behappyandmov eon.Whenheki ssedhercheekI
j
ustcouldn'ttakeit.Or ati
letookt hemi cand
deli
veredthemosthor ri
bleandut t
ernonsenseofa
speech!BeforeIcoul dst opherSi y
ar anoutcr yi
ng.I
wentt oOrati
l
egoshIal mostsl appedher !Butshe' s
pregnantandIdon' twantt ohar m mybaby ,i
fshe
wasn'tshewoul dbet hefirstwomanIl aymyhands
on.Idraggedherawayf rom peopl eandl ef tBri
an
andZeewi thherwhi leIwentt olookf orSi ya.That
i
diotwast hereagai nandIl ostitandbeathi m up,he
call
sSiyaBunny bear !Thatj ustgotmecr azy .Siya
gotoutandsl appedmet henwehadanar gument
outofnowher eOr atil
epushedherdownt hest ai
rs!
LucklyLyandaact edf astandhel dherhead.Wer an
downt hestairsandshewasl ayingther ecov er
edin
bl
oodal
lov
erhearl
egs
Zee:
she'
sloosi
ngt
oomuchbl
ood!
Mpho:
I'
vecal
l
edt
heAmbul
ancet
heyont
hei
rway
Me:
Siy
apl
easehangi
nther
emyl
ove
Sherespondedsof
tl
ysay
ing"
Phi
l
a"andcl
osedher
eyes!
Nay
e:shest
oppedbr
eat
hing
Me:
no!No!
!Si
yadon'
tl
eav
emenow!Ineedy
ou
Athi
:she'
sst
il
lal
i
ve.Justunconscious,
the
ambulancei
sher
e.Nayeshe'sgoingtoyourhospi
tal
.
Naye:y
oudoknowwhatt
hismeans?ButI
'
venev
er
seensomuchbl
oodwhenithappens
Me:
whatdoesi
tmean?What
'
shappeni
ngt
oSi
ya?
Theparamedicscameandputheront
hebedand
wentoutwit
hher
MyT-
shi
rtwasf
ull
ofherbl
ood
Zandy:
gowitht
hem I
'
llf
oll
owwi
thf
reshcl
othesf
or
youandher
Bonga:
I'
ll
comewi
thy
ouman
Kamo:
we'
l
lfol
l
owbehi
nd.
Or
a:met
oo
Me:Donotcomeany wher
enearthathospi
tal
doyou
underst
and!Icl
osedt
heambulancedoorandwe
droveoff
Me:
staywi
thmepl
easeSi
ya,
Ineedy
ou
Bonga:
she'
l
lbeokaymanst
ayst
rongf
orher
Wegottothehospi
talandwegotapri
vat
eroom f
or
herandpr
ivat
ewait
ingroom f
orust
oo
Ir
ushedt
oherr
oom
Nur
se:
im sor
rysi
rbuty
oucan'
tcomei
nher
efor
now
Me:
don'
ttel
lmet
hatnonsense!
Nay
ecameal
ldr
essedi
nherwor
kcl
othes
Naye:pl
ease,
youcan'
tbei
nher
ePhi
l
a.Don'
twor
ry
I
'l
ltakecar
eofher
Me:
pleasedo
Iwentt
othewai
ti
ngr
oom andsatdown
Kamo:
doy
ouwantany
thi
ngt
odr
ink?
Me:
wat
erwi
l
lbef
inet
hanks
Shest
oodupandgotwat
erf
ormeandIdr
ank
Me:
mor
epl
ease
Whi
leshewenttogetwat
er,
Theot
her
sar
ri
vedand
Or
ati
lewaswit
hthem
Me:Whatarey
oudoi
ngher
e!Di
dn'
tIt
alky
ounott
o
setf
oother
e?
Ora:babeI'
m sorry
,itwasami st
ake.Idi
dn'
tmeanto
pushherover,iwasjustangryhear
ingmyfi
ancétel
l
anotherwomant hathelovesherwasnotgood.I
t
hurtme
Me:ar
eyouevenl
i
steni
ngtoy
our
sel
f!
?Iam notand
nev
erwil
lbey
ourfi
ance!
Or
a:y
ouar
e!
Me: youbet t
ergetoutofher
ebeforeIdosomething
Iwill
regret!Ifi
twasn'tf
ormybabyy ouwouldbesix
feetunderground.Isweari
fany
thinghappenstoher
youwil
lnev
erseet
hesunaf
tery
ougi
vebi
tht
omy
chi
ld
Or
a:y
oudon'
tmeant
hat
.Phi
l
asandey
oul
oveme!
Me:
GETOUT!
!!
!!
!GETOUT!
!!
!
ThaboandBr
ianl
eftwi
thher
,theywer
etaki
ngher
home.
Zandy:cal
m down,youhav
etot
akeashowerand
changethosecl
othes
Me:
yeaht
hanks
Iwenttothi
sroomsshowerandaf ter30mi
nsIgot
outandchangedcl
othes.Iwentbacktoever
yonein
wait
ingroom
Me:
anynews?
Bee:
(sni
ff
s)no
Nt
oko:
hav
eyoucal
l
edy
ourmom
Sneh:
Ithi
nkweshoul
dcal
lhert
omor
row.
Bee:
yeahI
'
llcal
lhert
omor
row
Me:
Lyanda,
thanky
oubr
o.I
fshehadhi
therhead
androl
l
edonthosest
air
swe'
dwoul
d'
vel
osther
.
Thankyouv
erymuch
Lyanda:i
tsnotaprobl
em,noneofussawitcoming
butI'
m gl
adIcouldhol
dherheadbefor
eithi
tthe
fl
oor
Me:
didy
ougethur
t?
Lyanda:
nothi
ngani
cebagcan'
tfi
x.I
'
m okayj
ust
hurtmylegonl
y
Me:I
'
m sor
rymanandonceagai
nthanky
ouv
ery
much
Ly
anda:
itscool
,I
'ddoi
tagai
nifIhav
eto
Mpho:
super
her
o
Welaughedal
i
ttl
eandt
hent
her
ewasawkwar
d
si
l
ence
Bel
i
nda:
I'
ll
orderf
ood
Sneh:
backt
oyourj
obagai
n
Bonga:
sheusedtobet
heonethator
der
sfood
whenyouwereatt
heHospi
tal
Nkosi
Nkosi
: aahy
ouguy
shav
etounder
standt
hat
she'
seat
ingf
ort
wo
Kamo:
atl
eastsomeoneunder
stands
Lubah:
Ireal
l
ytr
ytounder
stand
Theyconti
nuedt
alki
ngandIwasjustst
ari
ngi
nto
spacethenanur
secamein,Iqui
ckl
ystoodup
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon?I
ssheokay
?CanIseeher
?
Nur se:she'
sokaysir
,wemanagedt ostopthe
bleedingbutshesstil
lunconscious,shedidloosea
l
otofbl oodwhichcanbeapr oblem butwe'l
l
cont i
nuedoingsomecheckupsandt estsonher.
Weneedt owaitforhertowakeupandNosi ryou
can'tseeherfornow.Andshel ef t
.
Me:She'
sonthatbedbecauseofme i fany
thi
ng
happenstoherI
'
llnev
erforgi
vemysel
f
Nkosi:st
opbl
amingy our
sel
fmanshe'sgoi
ngt
obe
okay.She'
safi
ghtershe'
l
lpul
lthr
ough
Ncebacamei
nrunni
ngwi
thThapel
o
Nceba:
Icameher
eassoonasIcoul
d,what
'sgoi
ng
on?
Bee;
wedon'tknowyetsisbutshel
ostal
otofbl
ood
andshe'
sst
il
lunconsci
ous
Ncebacr i
edandThapel owashol ding.Lookatt he
painI '
vecaused.I fonl yIhadn'twentt ot hathotel
andi woul dn'
thav esl eptwithOr atil
e,shewoul dn't
bepr egnant ,
Iwoul dn'thav ebrokenupwi t
hSiya,she
woul dn' tbeinahospi talbedf i
ght i
ngforherl i
fe.I
knowIcan' tturnthingsar oundnow DearGodI
prayt haty ouheal Siyamthandaandshewakesup.I
promi seIwi l
l notcauseany morepai nt oher,nothi
ng
andnoonewi l
leverhur theragai n.Iwillmakesur e
ofit.Pl easedearGod.IknowIcan' tprayandI
hav en'tbeent ochur chfory ear
s.Butpl easedoi tfor
Siya.
Mpho:
Phi
l
a!
Me:
what
?
Mpho:
I'
vebeencal
l
ingy
ouf
orahundr
edt
imesman
Me:
sor
ryIwasl
osti
nmyownt
hought
s
Kamo:
youhav
etoeat
Me:
I'
m nothungr
y
Danny: pl
ease,youneedtobestr
ongandYoudo
knowt hatSiyawil
lki
llusi
fsheknowsyouhav
en'
t
eaten
Me:
I'
ll
eatl
ater
.I'
m st
il
lful
l
Wesatt
hereforaboutanhourandNayecamein
l
ooki
ngti
red,
shetooksomef oodandsatdown
Zandy
:andt
hen?
Naye:
she'
sawakebutsheneedst
orestsoshe'
s
asl
eep
Me:what
'swr
ongwi
thher
?Whydi
dshebl
eedso
much
Every
onelookedatmel
i
keI
'
m aski
nganobv
ious
questi
on
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Naye: not
hingyou'
llf
indoutwhenshe'sawake.For
nowl et'
sjustl
ethersleep.Youcangoseeher
though
Ididn'
tev
enwai
tforhert
ofi
nish,
Irushedt
oSi
ya'
s
room
Shel
ookedsosmal
lont
hatbedwi
thal
lthose
machi
nesnextt
oher
Me: Il
oveyouSiya,IknowI'vemessedupal ot,I
've
hurtyouathousandt imesandy ou'
relay
ingher e
becauseofme.Buty oushouldjustknowthati l
ove
youandalwayswi l
lloveyou.Ipromiseyou,Or at
il
e
wil
lpayforthi
ssoonasshegi vesbirthi
'
llki
l
l her
Si
ya:
yourchi
l
dneedshermot
her
,youcan'
tki
l
lher
Me:you'
reawake!!SiyaIl
ovey ouokayandI
'
m sor
ry
aboutev
eryt
hing.Ireal
lyam sorr
y
Siya:whathappened?Shehadt
ear
sfal
l
ingof
fher
face.What'
swr ongwit
hme?
Me:
Nayewant
edt
otel
lmewheny
ou'
reawake.Let
mecal
lher
Nay
eandt
heot
her
scamei
n
Athi
:welcomebackSi
ya,
wet
houghty
ou'
vej
oined
ourancestor
s
Mpho:
your
eal
l
yar
ebadatj
okesbr
o
Br
ian:
li
key
ou'
rebet
ter
Mpho:
whatar
eyout
ryi
ngt
osay
?
Nceba:
youguy shavet
oshutup,mysist
erj
ustwoke
upandther
e'snotimetoj
okearound
Mpho:
yesmom
Weal
ll
aughedbutSi
yawasi
npai
n
Me:
don'
thur
tyour
sel
f
Si
ya:
wher
eisOr
ati
l
e?
Thabo:
she'
sathome
Si
ya:
oh,Nayewhat
'
swr
ongwi
thme?Shecr
iedandI
wi
pedhertear
s
Me:
whyar
eyoucr
ying?I
syourbodypai
nful
?
Nay
e:I
'
m af
rai
dit
sbadnews.

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
Lov
eyouf
am
[
1/11,
00:
30]Tat
enda:
Inser
t38
Wakingupandhav ingPhilanexttomewast hebest
,
knowingthathesti
lll
ovesmeandhei sthereforme
makesmehappy .Nayesaidshehasbadnewsf or
us.Iwonderwhatcani tbe,I
'm cr
yingal
ready
Phi
l
a:whati
sit
?
Naye:Si
ya,
thi
sisr
eal
l
yhar
dforme.Shest
art
ed
cr
ying
Me:
whati
sit
?
Nay
e:(
cri
es)andNkosihel
dher.Youwereal
most
2mont
hspregnantSi
yabutyoulostt
hebabi
es
Me:
babi
es?
Nay
e:y
esy
ouwer
ecar
ryi
ngt
wins.
Phil
acriedhardandsoloudI
'
m sureev er
yoneatt
his
hospit
al coul
dherehi
m.Iwasjustshockedandhurt
,
Iwaspr egnant?How!
Me:how?Ihadmyper
iodsl
astmont
hbuti
twas
onl
yfor2day
s
Naye:thi
sisaveryrar
ecasebutsucht
hingscan
happen,I
'mreal
lysorr
y
Phi
lawasonthefl
oorcr
yingwi
thBongahol
dinghi
m,
It
ri
edtogetupbuti
twassopainf
ul
Me:
whydoesi
thur
tsomuch?
Naye:we'
vealr
eadycl
eanedy
ourst
omachandt
he
st
air
shurtyourl
egs
Me:
Pleasehel
pme,
Iwannabenextt
oPhi
l
a
Dannycar
ri
edmeandIsatnextt
oPhi
l
a
Me:
pleaseexcuseus
Mpho:
yeahsur
e
Theyl
eftandcl
osedt
hedoor
.
Me:
I'
venev
erev
erseeny
oucr
ybef
ore
Phil
a:thi
sisallmyf aul
tSiya.Welostourbabi
es
becauseofme, allt
hestressIcausedyou,thehur
t
andthepain.IbroughtOratil
eint
oourli
vesandlook
whathashappened
Me:i
tsalsomyf
aul
tPhi
l
a,Ial
sodr
ankl
ost
sof
al
cohol
Phi
l
a:y
oudidn'
tknowyouwerepr
egnantbabet
her
e
wer
enosi
gns!It
snoty
ourfaul
t
Me:nori
sity
ours,webot
hnotatfaul
tPhi
la.You
needtobest
rong,
youhavet
o.In8monthsyou'l
lbe
afat
her
Phi
la:
in6mont
hsIwoul
dhav
ebeenaf
athert
omy
twi
ns
Webot
hcr
iedoutl
oudandhehel
dont
omecl
osel
y
Theycal
lcamebacki
nagai
nandhel
dus.Kamowas
cr
yingsomuch i twasj
ustt
hesaddestmoment
ofmylif
e.
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
rest
il
lbl
eedi
ngSi
ya
Hel
ookedv
eryshockedandwor
ri
ed
Naye:moveherf
rom t
hecol
dfl
oor
,takehert
othe
shower.
Phi
lacar
ri
edmeandweshoweredt
oget
her
.He
l
oti
onedmybodyanddr
essedmeupinanewpai
rof
pyj
amas
Me:
thanky
ou
Phi
l
a:l
et'
sgety
out
uckedi
ntobed
Hecar
ri
edmet
othebedandcov
eredmewi
th
bl
anket
s.Ncebacamewi
thf
ood
Me:
I'
m nothungr
y
Phil
a:y
ouhav
etoeatsoy
oucangai
nyourst
rengt
h
back
Ncebaf
edmeandIwasdonei
naf
ewmi
nut
es
Bee:
y ouwer
ehungr
yli
tt
leCc,
mom sai
dshe'
s
comingtomor
row
Me:
shedoesn'
thav
etobuti
tsokay
Thedoor
sopenedupwi
del
yandi
twasOr
ati
l
e
Me:
Getherourofher
e!
Or
a:Iam notl
eav
ingwi
thoutmyf
iancé
Phi
l
a:y
oudon'
tl
ist
endoy
ou!
Me:getout
!Takeyourfi
ancéwit
hyouandleav
e!
Haveyounotdoneenoughdamagetome!You've
ki
ll
edmybabiesnowy ou'
vecometofi
nishmeoff!
GETOUT!!
Sneh:
cal
m down
Br
iancar
ri
edOr
aandLy
andaf
oll
owedhi
m wi
thcar
key
s
Phil
a:pl
easecalm downSiya,
I'
m sor
ryIdi
dn'
tknow
she'
dcomeher epleasecal
m down
Me:getout!Al
lofy
oul
eave!Getout!Iwantmy
babi
es!Iwantmybabi
es!Phi
lasandeIwantmy
babi
es!
Ij
ustcoul dn'
thidethepainanymore,icoul dn'tpul
l
my sel
ftogether.Whymeohl or
d?Coul dn'tIatleast
knowi m pregnant,
Iwouldn'
thavedr ankt hewayI
did,Iwould'v
ebeencar ef
ul If eeli
nglike
screaminganddest royi
ngeveryt
hingnextt ome.I
am angryatt heworldandmost l
yatmy selfforbeing
socar el
ess.
Phil
a:okaybabet
hey
'l
ll
eav
e,Iwont
.Ican'
tl
eav
eyou
l
ikethi
s
Me:
GIVEMEMYBABI
ES!
!
Phi
lal
ookedatNay
eandwhi
sper
ed,
Ireadhi
sli
ps
hesai
d"Doit
"
Me:
whatar
ey.
..
Icoul
dn'
tev
enf
ini
shmysent
ence,
Iwasget
ti
ng
weakerandweaker
.

#PHI
LA
Nay esaidweshoul ddrughert osleepsoIwent
aheadwi thit,seei ngherl i
kethatbr eaksmyhear t
i
ntopi eces,Ihav enev erseenhersohur tandf ragile.
Whenshescr eamedsay ingshewant sherbabi es, i
fel
tl i
keaf ai
lure,ifail
edt oprot ectherandour
babies.IknowIhav emessedupal otbutcoul dn'tI
bet heonet hatget shur t
,whydi dn'tOr ati
lepushme
i
nst eadofSi ya,nowshehasl ostourbabi es.Siya
wil
l nevereverf orgivemef ort his i willnever
forgivemy selftoo.WhenIsawOr at i
lewal kinher e
againIjustknewt hatt hi
sgirliscr azy .
Ihopeshe
doesn'tinfectmychi l
dwi thherment al i
ll
ness.Af ter
Siyadozedoft osl eepweal lsati nherr oom in
sil
ence.
Bonga:Acer
emonymustbedoneonceSi
yaisokay
,
fory
oubothtocleanseandt
het
winst
obesetfr
ee
andjoi
nyourancestor
s
Me:
we'
l
ldoi
tnextweekend,
let
'sj
ustwai
tforhert
o
r
ecov
erphy
sical
l
y.Herl
egsar
est
il
lpai
nful
Nay
e:she'
l
lbeokaywhenshewakesup.I
'
vesether
upf
orther
apysessi
ons
Bel
inda:
yeahIthi
nkthatwil
lhel
pher
.Guy
swehav
e
togowe'l
lbebacktomorrow
Lubah:
yeahsheneedst
oresti
tsal
mostmi
dni
ght
Me:
byeguysthanksforbei
ngher
e.Ial
soneedt
ogo
f
orashor
tdri
vejustt
oclearmyhead
Nkosi
:im comi
ngwi
thy
ou,
youcan'
tdr
iveatt
his
st
ate.
Me:
Alone!
Nkosi:
whatev
erman,
butthatwon'
tchangemymi
nd
I
'm comingwi
thy
ou,l
i
keitornot.
Ij
uststoodupandhef ol
lowedme, hegoti ntothe
caranddr ov
e.Hej ustsatt her
einsi lence,Iclosed
myey esandcried.Idon'tcr yalotbutt histimet he
pai
nist oomuch.I'velostmybabi est heyar egone
befor
ei coul
dev enmeett hem,bef oreIev enknew
aboutthem
Nkosi
:don'
tcr
yli
ket
hismanpl
ease,
youneedt
obe
st
rongf
orher
.Sheneedsy
our
ightnow.
Me:ideserveallt
his,
I'
m beingpuni
shedforal
lmy
wrongs.Butshedoesn'tdeserv
ethi
satall
,shedi
dn'
t
doanythi
ngwr ong.Nkosiwhatam Itodo?HowdoI
moveon?
Nkosi
:i
twon'tbeeasy
,butyou'
llmanageandy
ou
guyswil
lgett
hrought
hist
ogether
Me:together?Ther
e'snous,Siy
adoesn'
twantme
any
mor e.I'
ll
trywit
hevery
thinginmetobether
efor
her
,ijusthopeshedoesn'tpushmeaway.
Nkosi:itwil
lbehar dbutev eryt
hingwillbeokay.
Don'tforgetthatyoual sohavetokeepaney eon
Orat
ile,many ou'veseenhowcr azyshei s.Wedon'
t
wantherki l
li
ngher selfandthebaby .Youhavetobe
ther
ef orhertoojustt okeephersaneandshe
doesn'ttryanythi
ngt hatwill
harmt hebaby .
Me: yeahy ouri
ght,
butIj
usthateher
.Ihav
eto
pret
endj ustfort
hebabyIdon'
twanthertoendup
taki
ngmybabyawayf rom me,Ican'
tl
ooseanot
her
chil
d.
Nkosi
:I'
mti
redofdr
ivi
ngnowl
et'
sgobackt
othe
hospi
tal
Me:
okayandt
hanky
ouman
Nkosi
:youcanal
way
scountonme
Hedr
ov ebacktot
hehospit
alandIwentt
oSi
ya'
s
r
oom andIfel
lasl
eeponthechai
r

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Ihear
dsomeshuff
li
ngandIopenedmyey
es,
itwas
Siy
agett
ingoft
hebed
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Si
ya:
Iwantt
otakeashower
Me:
mayIhel
pyou?
Siy
anoddedandi hel
pedherwalkt
othebathr
oom,I
hel
pedheroutofherclot
hesandshewenti
nt he
shower
.ThewaterranandIcoul
dhearhercry
Me:
Siy
apl
easedon'
tdot
hist
oyour
sel
f
Itookofmycl
othesandgoti
ntotheshowerwithher,
shewassit
ti
ngatthecor
nerwit
ht hewat
errunning
al
lov
erherbr
aidsandbodyi
twascol
dwat
er
Me:ar
eyoutr
yingtokil
lyoursel
f!It
urnedonwar
m
wat
erandshestoppedshiveri
ng
Si
ya:i
fdeat
hcanbr
ingbackmybabi
est
heny
esI
wantt
odie
Me:Siya,
wel ostthebabies.Theyarenotcomi ng
backevendeathcan'tbri
ngt hem back.Iknowhow
youfeelr
ightnow, t
rustmeI '
mf eel
ingitt
oo.Please
j
ustletmehelpy ougetthroughallthi
spainplease.I
needyouasmuchasy ouneedme
Si
ya:
I'
m af
rai
dofher
Me:
who?
Si
ya:
Orat
il
e,shecanki
l
lmet
oo
Me:shewil
lneverevergetany
wher
eneary
ou.I
'
m
her
e,I
'l
lpr
otectyou
Si
ya:
wil
lyou?
Me:
yesIwi
l
l.Il
ovey
oumaShezi
Shenodded
Me:
let
'sgety
oudr
iedupandi
nwar
m cl
othes.I
pi
ckedherupanddr
iedherbody
.Iputat
owel
over
herbr
aids,
wipi
ngt
hem
Si
ya:
ther
e'sahai
rdr
yeri
nmybag
Itooki
tanddriedherbr
aidst
henloti
nedherbody
anddressedherupinawarmt r
acksui
t
Si
ya:
youdoknowi
tsv
eryhotout
side
Me:
yeahbuty
ouhav
etobewar
m.
Wewalkedbackt
oherbedandhermot
herwas
si
tt
ingbyt
hechai
r
Me:SawbonaMa(hel
l
omom)
MaShezi
:sawbonanganey
am.OhSi
yamt
handaI
'
m
ver
ysorr
ymychild.Comet
omommy
Si
yaj
ustcr
iedhol
dingont
ohermot
her
Me:
I'
ll
giv
eyousomespace
Iwentoutandtheot hershadl eftal
ready .Idroveto
myhouseandwhenIgott here, i
twasclean. Her
bl
oodwasn'tthereanymor e.Iwentt otheki t
chen
andtooksomef oodt hatwasl eftfr
om y esterday'
s
par
ty.Ohit
'sDanny'sbirthday,letmecal lhim
Dan:
hel
l
o
Me:
act
ingal
lfor
mal
bir
thdayboy
.Happybi
rt
hday
man
Dan:
youcal
ledmeforthatnonsense butt
hanks
manhowareyouhol
dingup?
Me:
I'
m okaymanbutSi
yai
sn'
t.Il
eftherwi
thher
mom att
hehospi
tal
.
Dan:
she'
sstr
ong,
youguy
swil
lbeokay
.Takecar
e
manseeyouinaf
ewhours
Me:
shar
p
Idroppedt hecal
l andwentupst airsusi
ngt heli
ft
.I
don'tt
hinkIcanwal konthosest air
sfornow.Igot
tomyr oom andOr ati
lewassleepinginmybed
godhelpme, howam Igoi ngt obepat i
entwithher
forsuchal ongtime.She's1mont hand2weeks
pregnant.Ichangedi ntoothercl
othessinceI've
alr
eadyshower edandOr awasawakeal ready
Me:
Mor
ning
Or
a:mor
ning,
howi
sSi
ya
Me:
she'
sfi
ne.
Ora:
I'
m sor
ry,
Ireal
lydidn'
tmeantopushherIwas
j
ustangr
yandev er
ythi
nghappenedsofastIj
ust
andshecri
edfaketear
s
Me:Orat
il
eIcanseefaket
ear
s.Sosavey
our
sel
fal
l
t
hatener
gy.Goeat,
mybabyishungr
y
Shestoodupandwentt othekit
chen.Ineedtothi
nk,
IknowjusttheplacewhereI'l
lbeabletobecalm
andrecover.Iwenttotheroom anditwasempty!
Notevenonesi ngl
epictur
eofSiya.Istor
medout
andwentt oOrati
le
Me:
wher
ear
ethepi
ctur
es?
!
Or
a:whatpi
ctur
es
Me:stopact
ingdum!Youknowexact
lywhatI
'
m
t
alki
ngabout
Ora:
babyijustwant
edthem t
obeoutoft
her
e,she'
s
notwit
hyouany mor
eandthosebabi
esar
edeadso
youshoul
dmov eon
Me:
whatdidyoujustsay
?!Womany oudonotwant
metoki
l
lyou!Youarearuthl
esscol
dheart
edsel
f
cent
eredperson!Howcoul
dy ouevensaythat
.You
arel
uckythatyou'
repr
egnantandit
smychi l
d,trust
meifyouwer en'
t,
you'
dbeony ourwaytohell
right
now!
Iwasdi
stur
bedbyacal
lfr
om Si
ya
Me:
Siy
aar
eyouokay
?
Si
ya:
pleasecomet
othehospi
tal
Sheendedt
hecall
andIr
anupst
air
sandgotmy
key
sandwallet
Ora:
wherear
ey ougoing?Youcan'
tl
eav
eushere,
you'
venev
ereventouchedmystomach,y
ourbabyi
s
i
nhere.
Me:Iam l
eavi
ng,whenIcomebackmakesureal
l
t
hosepict
uresar
ebacktowheretheybel
ong
Or
a:okay
Me:makesureyourbagsar
eal sopacked.You'
re
goi
ngbacktoyourapart
ment!Iwil
lvi
sityoudai
ly
Iwal
kedoutanddrov
etot
hehospi
tal.Iwonder
what
'swrongwit
hSiya ihopenothingbadhas
happenedt
oher
.
Igott
othehospi
tal
andr
ant
oherr
oom
Me:
Siy
amt
handa!
Shewasl
ayi
ngont
hebedwi
thherf
ri
endsnextt
o
her
Me:
arey
ouokay
?IcameassoonasIcan
Sneh:
don'
twor
ryshesf
ine.Gi
rl
slet
'sgi
vet
hem
somespace
Theywal
kedoutwi
thherbags
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Si
ya:
Iwanttol
eav
ethi
spl
ace,
Nay
ewon'
tdi
schar
ge
meunlessy
ouagr
ee
Me:didshesayy
oumaygohome?Ev
ery
thi
ngi
s
okay
?
Si
ya:y
esI'
mf i
neandshesai
dIcangohome.SiyaI
wantt
hiscl
eansi
ngcer
emonytobedoneasapthen
af
tert
hatI'
m movi
ngbackhomeforamonthor2
Me:
Siy
apl
ease,
youcan'
tl
eav
emenow
Siya:i
tsforthebest,
Ineedtohealandfocuson
my sel
f.Youneedt otakecar
eofyoursel
fandbe
thereforyourfamil
y
Me:
youar
emyf
ami
l
ySi
yapl
ease
Siya:I
'l
lj
ustbe45minsawayPhil
a.Pluswe'r
edone,
there'
snousandI '
mjusty
ourfri
end.Ineedthi
s
Phila,
Ineedafreshnewstar
tandgoinghomewi l
l
helpme.
Me:okayt
henIjustwanty
outobehappy
,andift
his
wi
llmakeyouhappyIwon'
thol
dyoubackjust
pr
omisemeonet hing
Si
ya:
what
?
Me:
you'
l
lst
aywi
thmeunt
ilt
hecer
emony
Si
ya:
Ican'
tbei
nthesamehousewi
thOr
ati
l
e.She'
l
l
ki
l
lme.
Me:shewon'
t,
andshei
sn'
tst
ayi
ngwi
thme.Pl
ease
Si
ya
Si
ya:
okayf
ine.
Me:
thanky
ou
Andi ki
ssedherforehead.Ipi
ckedherupand
carr
iedhertotherecepti
onandsignedthedi
schar
ge
papers.Ncebacamewi thherbagsandwewentt o
thecar
Nceba:
takecar
eofmysi
ster
,I'
l
lseey
ousoonBobo
Si
ya:
okaybabe,
studyhar
d.Il
ovey
ou
Nceba:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Shewav edgoodby etothem andwedr ovetomy
house,ihadalreadysentBriantogetOraoutofmy
houseandt oherapartment .
Icannotbeinthesame
housewi t
hher, i
real
lycan't
.I'
dendupki l
li
ngher
ser
iousl
yandIdon' twantt odothat.Fr
om now
onwardsI'l
lbereall
ysuppor t
ivetoherandthebaby
butshewi l
lknowherl i
mits,Idon'
twantherdoing
anyt
hingstupidthatcouldharm mybaby .Wegot
homeandIcoul dseethatSiyawasuncomf ort
abl
e
Me:
arey
ouokay
?
Si
ya:Ij
ustdon'
twantt
oseet
hosest
air
s,canIgot
o
myroom
Me:
comel
et'
suset
hel
i
ft.We'
l
lbest
ayi
ngont
he
l
astf
loor
,youwon'
thav
etocomedownher
eand
seet
hesestai
rs
Wet ooktheli
ftandwenttoourr
oom.Sheopened
thecurt
ainsandstoodbythebal
cony,Ist
oodbehind
herandshecried.Ihel
dherti
ght
lyandshetr
iedto
fi
ghtme
Me:
don'
tpushmeaway
!Letmei
nSi
ya
Siy
a:Ihatey
ou!Ihatemy sel
f!Ihat
eever
yone!Ij
ust
wantmybabies!Ij
ustwantmybabi es idi
dn'
t
gettoknowthem Phi
la,
iwantmybabi es
Me:ial
sowantthem, Iwishtheywereherewithus
butnotheyar
enot.Iknowi t
shar dtoaccept
,it
s
real
l
yhardbutpl
easey ouneedt obestrongbabe
youneedtoheal
.Doitforthem please
Siyaheldont
omeandshecr i
ed,
Icar
riedhert
othe
bedandshel ay
eddownwi t
hherheadonmychest.
Andshecr i
edsohard,Icouldn'
thol
dbackmyown
tears.Wecri
edtoget
her,holdi
ngontight
ly
Me:it
shard,Ial
sofeel
yourpai
nSiya.Ial
solostmy
chi
l
dren,
ifeelli
kei
tsmyfault
y.I
m alsohurt
ing,we
wil
lgetthroughthistoget
herj
usttr
ustmeandst
op
pushi
ngmeway .LetmeinSiy
a,Letmeint
oyour
heart
,letmet akecareofit

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
Lov
eyouf
am
[
1/11,
00:
30]Tat
enda:
Inser
t39
It
sbeen3mont hssinceIhadami scarr
iage,I
'
vebeen
athomeev ersincethecer emony .Af
terthe
ceremonyi t
ookof fmybr aidst hencutmyhai r,i
haveshor thairnow Ihav en'tbeent oworkand
Belindahasbeendoi nggr eatwi thoutme.Shehas
onlytwomont hslefttil
lshegi vesbi r
thandwewi l
l
revealthegenderont heirbabyshowerwi t
hKamo.
Speakingofbabi es,ev er
yt imeIsawt heirbi
g
tummi esandswol l
enf eetIj ustalwayswonder ed
howbi gmi newoul dbe .Phi l
ahascamet oseeme
4ti
mesbutIt oldhimt ost opandhecal l
sme
everyday.Ijustneededsomet i
meawayf rom him
andev eryoneel sebutmyf riendswer ehav i
ngnonof
that ,
theyar eher eev eryweekend i t
sgr eattohav e
suchgr eatf ri
ends.AweekagoPhi lacalledmeand
toldmehei shav ingababyboy ,hisfir
stson.The
heirofPhi l
asandeLesl eyNgcobo, Iwassohappyf or
him honest lyIst i
lldof eel hurtabi t
,thatnightI
criedmy selftosl eepbuty etagai nGodhasar eason
forev erything.Iam happyf orPhi l
aandIknowhe
willbeagr eatf at her,Orat i
l
ehasn' tbeengi vi
nghi m
anypr oblemsandt hey'vebeenhav i
ngasmoot h
j
our ney .Ihav en'tseenOr ati
lesi ncet hatdayandI '
m
gladcauseapar tofmei sr eallyscar edofher ,I
blameherf ort hel ossofmychi ldrencausei fshe
hasn' tpushedmeov er,soonerorl aterIwoul d'
ve
foundoutaboutmypr egnancy .Ialsobl amemy self
sinceIdr anksomuchandnev ernot i
cedany thing.I
alsobl amePhi laf orallthepai nandst r
esshe
causedme.Enoughaboutpoi ntingf i
nger sand
blami ngot her s,It hi
nki t
st imeIgotbackont rack,
takemyl ifebackandIam 25soIhav et ostart
act i
ngl i
keone hell
o?Hi I
'm 25!Ispentmy
birthdayl ayingonmybedcr yingal ldaywi that ubof
i
cecr eam nextt ome, y epIwasst i
llheal i
ng.Phi l
a
broughtmesomegr eatgoodi est hatdayandhe
want edtot akemeoutbutIr efusedsowel ay edon
mybedandcr iedt oget her.I'
v ewentt osev eral
sessionswi t hmyt herapi standhehashel pedmea
l
otI '
vegot t
enov ersomanyt hingst hatIdi dn'tev en
knowIwasst i
llholdingont o.Ir ealizedIhadanger
i
ssues, IthinkPhi l
amusthav ei nfect edmewi thhis
Bipolardisor der butIgotov eral loft hat.Dur i
ng
thepast3mont hst hingshav ebeenhar donmebut
i
tsbeenal ear ningexper i
encet omeandImustsay
I'
m okaynow.I '
veheal ed, forgivenandI 'm goi ngto
mov eon.Iwi l
lnev erfor getthough.Lastmont hI
start
edl ooki ngathousesandi foundj ustt heone
I'
vebeenl ooki ngf or.Itsabeaut ifulhousei nKl oof,
4bedr oomswi tht heirownbat hr ooms, aki tchen,
dinni
ngr oom, loungeandpant r
y .Aswi mmi ngpool
andbr aaiar eawi t
hacut elit
tlegar den.I '
m mov i
ngin
todayandI 'm gl adI '
llhav eaf r
eshnewst artinmy
ownnewhome.Newsf lash!Nt okozof inallymov ed
i
nwi thLy anda .Ihav en'
tseent heboy sina
whilebutNkosi andDannyhav ecomet oseeonce
withPhi l
a.Dannyl i
terallyforcedmeoutt hehouse
soIcoul dhavelunchwi ththem atmal l soI 'm ata
furnit
ureshoplookingf orfurni
tureformynewhome.
Ihav enofurni
tureitsjustmycl othessoIhav eto
startwit
hshoppi ng.Thegi rl
swi l
lbejoini
ngmesoon
sof ornowI'mjustlookingar ound.Philasai
dImust
usehi scar
dt opayf orev er
ythi
ng, i
tsagiftf
rom him
tome.Iwi l
luseitifIneedt o, f
ornowI 'l
lusemyown.
I'
vebeenget ti
ngpai dev enthoughI '
m notworking,
I'
llbegoingbackt owor konMonday ,
todayis
WednesdaysoIst il
lhav eaf ewday stogetready.
Afterafewmi nutesZee, Bee,NcebaandNay ecame
Nay
e:gi
rly
ou'
vegai
nedwei
ght
Me:
hel
l
otoy
out
ooNay
e
Wehuggedandthent
heother
sarri
vedwit
hBeli
nda
l
ooki
ngli
keahippoil
aughedali
tt
leandshegav
e
meadeathstar
e
Me:sorr
y youj
ustt
oobig,
noworr
iesI
'
m
comingbackt
oworksoyoucanhav
eyourl
eav
e
Bel
i
nda:Ial
readyt
ookitf
rom l
astweek,
Ican'
tev
en
wal
kproper
lyanymor
e
Kamo:
tel
lmeabouti
t,I
'
mti
redal
ready
Zandy
:youguy
sar
ejustsopr
egnant
Nt
oko:
sowhatdoy
ouwannat
akef
ir
st
Me:okayI
'
veseenthi
sbeaut
if
uldi
nni
ngt
abl
eand
t
hosewhit
ecouches
Nay
e:soy
ou'
regoi
ngf
orabl
ackandwhi
tet
heme?
Me:
Black,
whi
teandgr
ey
Bee:ni
ce,comeseet
hisbeaut
if
ul TVstandpl
usi
t
al
readyhashugeTVsowe'ret
akingit
SoIboughtt heTVstand,f
latscr
eenTV, di
nning
tabl
e,couchesandat abl
ethatI'
l
lsetoutsi
de.The
housealreadyhasbuil
tincupboardsandcloset
sso
Idon'
thav etoworr
yaboutbuy i
ngwar dr
obesetc
Wewenttosheetstr
eetandIboughtbedcov ers,
pi
ll
ows,si
delampsetc.Wethenwenttomr phome
andboughtsomevases,andt
hingstodecoratethe
house.
Nceba:
let
'sgot
ogame
Wewentt
her
eandIgotal
ltheki
tchenequi
pment
,
fri
dge, washi
ngmachi ne, dishwasher ,microwav e,
doormat setc.Wethenwentt obuycur tainsand
somesmal lblanket
sandf r
esht owel sandbat hr
oom
things.Thenwentt obuyki tchenut ensils,plat
es,
glasses,cupsetcandev erythingwi l
l bedel i
veredto
thehouseandt heboyswi l
lpackt hem si ncewe
won' tbeabletoplacetheheav ystuf f,
Itrustthem
sincewehav e2archi
tectst heresoi twon' tbemuch
ofapr obl
em butItol
dt hem nott ot ouchmy
bedr oom!
Kamo:
let
'sgoeatnowI
'
m hungr
y
Sneh:
met
oohey
,let
'
sdr
ivet
oRocomamas
Zandy
:yaas!
That
'sherf
avor
it
erest
aur
ant wet
hendr
ovet
her
e
andIgotacal
lfr
om Ly
anda
Me:
Mageba
IsawNt
okozosmi
l
eandIwi
nkedather
Lyanda:t
heyf
urni
tur
ehasar
ri
vedandI
'
m cal
l
ingj
ust
tocheckuponyouLadi
es
Me:
onusorNt
okozo?
Lyanda:al
lofyouespeci
all
ytheX2'
sThaboi
s
fr
eakingouthere
Me:weal
lgoodmandon'
twor
ryaboutus I
hopey
ouworki
ngther
e
Lyanda:
yeahweare,Imustsayi
tsabeaut
if
ul
housecongr
atul
ati
ons
Me:
thanky
ou
Ly
anda:
tel
lNt
okozoIl
oveher
Me:
Ntokozo,
lyandasay
shel
ovesy
ou
Nt
okozo:
Ilov
eyout
ooZul
ubae
Wealll
aughedandLyandasai
dhi
sgoodby
esand
endedt
hecall
.Ourf
oodcameandwedugi n
Zandy
:don'
tyouwannachangewhaty
ou'
rewear
ing
Me:
what
'swr
ongwi
thmyt
racksui
t
Nay
e:not
hingbuti
t'
sjustt
oohotforatr
acksui
tso
we'
l
lgobuysomethi
ngwhenwel eave
Me:t
her
e'snoneedIcanchangeathomebef
orewe
got
omyhouse
Nceba:y
ourcl
othesar
eaty
ourhouseal
ready
,mom
sentt
hem
Sneh:
soshoppi
ngi
tis
Weat eandthenIpaidt
hebil
lwit
hPhila'
scar
d
thenwewentt oTruwor
thsandIboughtashortt
ight
denim dr
essandIchangedther
e.
Me:
happynow?
Bee:
yesy
oul
ookgood
Me:
canwegonow?
Bel
inda:
yeahbutl
etspassbyt
hechemi
stIneedt
o
buysomethi
ng
Wewentt othecar sandt hendr ovet ot
hechemi
st
andBeli
ndasaidshehasf orgott
enwhatshewants
tobuy sowedr ovet oKl
oof ,we'regoingt
omy
house i
tfeelsgr eatt
osayt hat whenwegot
ther
eIjustcouldn'thelpmy self
,Icried
Zandy
:whyar
eyoucr
ying?
Me:Ifeel
li
kei
tsal
ladr
eam,
guy
sIhav
ea
house!
Il
aughedsohar
d
Nceba:
you'
recr
azy
!
Wewentoutt hecarandwentt ot
hehouse.Imade
surethi
shousehasnost ai
rs,I
'
m sti
l
lver
yafrai
dof
stai
rsandwil
lalwaysbe.Iopenedbuti
twaslocked
Me:
whyi
sitl
ocked?Wher
ear
etheseguy
s
Itookoutthekeyandopenedi
twasdar
kandt
he
l
ightswereoff
Me:
whyar
ethel
i
ght
sof
f?
Nay
e:y
oucanswi
tcht
hem on
Iswi
tchedt
hel
i
ght
sofandSUPRI
SE!
!
I
twasalldoneandbeaut
if
ul,
thewall
sweregreyand
t
hefur
nitur
ewasallt
here itwasamazi
ng!I
j
ustcr
iedandPhil
agavemeawar m hug
Phi
l
a:congr
atul
ati
onsbabe
Yeahhest
il
lcal
l
smebabe
Me:
thanky
ou
Mpho:
stopki
ssi
ngt
her
eandl
et'
scel
ebr
ate! j
uice
f
ory
ouMsShezi
YepIdon'tdr
inkanymore Ist oppedal
cohol
,i
t
al
sokil
ledmybabi essoIwantnothi
ngtodowit
hit
Me:
Ijustwannal
ookar
oundf
ir
st
Nkosi
:l
etmey
ourt
ourgui
de
Wewentthroughallt
her oomsanditwasamazi
ng,
t
heyalsodi
dmyr oom anditwasamazi
ng Idi dn'
t
t
rustt
hem butitwasgreat
Nkosi
:Phi
l
adi
dit
Me:
wowi
lov
eit
,ishoul
dthankhi
m
Nkosi:
hereal
lyknowsyoufrom headtot
oe,t
his
wholehousewasplannedbyhim andheknew
wheretoputever
ythi
ng
Me:
aah Phi
l
athough
Nkosi
:howar
eyouSi
ya?
Me:
I'
m okayNkosi
,l
iker
eal
l
yokay
.
Nkosi
:Icansee,
thecheeksar
eget
ti
ngbi
gger
Me:
mymom wasf
eedi
ngmenonst
op
Nkosi
:Icanseet
hatcl
ear
ly,
nowcomel
et'
sgo
par
ty
Me:
can'
tsaynot
othat
Wewenttotheloungeandt
heywer
esi
tt
ingont
he
couchwat
chingTV
Nkosi
:whathappenedt
othepar
tynow?
Bonga:
youguysdeci
dedt
otake3hour
sforat
our
gui
deli
kereal
l
y
Thapel
o:wewer
esi
tt
ingher
ewai
ti
ngf
ory
ou.
Kamo:
Iguesst
hepar
tycancont
inue
Mpho:ithi
nknoonewantstocooksolet'
sjustor
der
someplatt
ersandnandost
henwe'l
lhavethe
al
cohol
Me:Idon'
tevenhav
egr
ocer
ies butI
'
llsor
tthat
outt
omorrow
At
hi:
itsal
readysor
ted mygi
ftt
oyoums
Iopenedthecupboar
dsandi
twasal
readyf
ull
,and
thefr
idgewaspacked!
Me: aaahthankyouAt henkosi t
hismeansal ot
tome, andI'
dliketothankev eryonef
orbeinghere
andsuppor t
ingmeal ltheway .Iwoul
dn'thavebeen
hereifitwasn'
tforyouguy s.I'
vebeenthroughthe
toughestti
mesandy oustoodbymedai ly Ihighly
appreciat
eit.
Ly
anda:
you'
rewel
come
Nay
e:y
eahgi
rlwel
ovey
ou
Me:Iloveyoutooguys andI '
dalsoli
ket ot
hank
Phi
lasande,y
ouhav ebeenthereformeev enthough
Idi
dn'twantyouanywherenearme, youstoodbyme
andhelpedmet hr
oughalot .Ij
ustwanttosaythank
youforever
ythi
ng,
I'
llf
oreverbegreat
ful.
Her
aisedhi
sgl
assandwi
nkedatme
Zee:okayspeachesar
eov
ernow!Let
'sget
drunk!
Danny
:li
stent
othi
sgi
rl ohl
ordhel
pher
Zee:
sor
rybabe
Weal
ll
aughedandgat
her
edar
oundt
hel
ounge,
we
watchedamov
ie"
IfIst
ay"i
twasv
erysadandIwas
cr
ying
At
hi:
whosuggestedt
hismovi
e?Lastt
imeIchecked
wewerecel
ebrat
ingandnow?
Mpho:
thi
smov
iei
sdeepman,
Ilov
eit
Lubah:
I'
m sl
eepyal
ready
Bel
inda:l
ubabal
oyoujustdon'
tunder
stand she
st
artedcr
yingoutl
oud
Lubah:nononoIwasj oki
ngLindaIl
ovethe
mov i
e pl easedon'
tcryagai
n.Thel
ookonThabo'
s
facehewasgoi ngt
oburstoutanyminut
e
Thabo:
excuseme
Danny
:yeahexcuseus
Theywentt
otheki
tchenandl
aughed
Ihavetosay
,imreal
lyimpr
essedwithever
ythi
ngi
n
here,
myhouseisbiggert
hanIthoughti
tis
Af
teraf
ewhour
stheyal
ll
eftwel
lbesi
desPhi
l
a
Phi
l
a:soooy
oul
i
ket
hehouse?
Me:
yepandwhydi
dyoudr
agt
hat"
sooo"
Phi
la:
Ijustdi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osay
,honest
lyImi
ss
youSi
ya
Me:
how'
sthebaby
?
Phil
a:thebabyi
sokay
,just3mont
hst
ogoandI
'
llbe
afather
Me:
I'
m pr
oudofy
ou
Phi
l
a:wi
l
lyoubet
her
ewhenshegi
vesbi
rt
h?
Me:
I'
m sor
rybuti
can'
t
Phil
a:noit
sokay
,thatwasst
upi
dofme.Wel
lIbet
ter
getgoing,
hav
etocheckonOra
Me:
okaycool
,goodby
eandt
hanksf
orev
ery
thi
ng
Heki
ssedmycheekandwi
nkedatme!What
'swi
th
t
hiswi
nki
ngthi
ng
Me:
andst
opwi
nki
ngatme i
tsnotat
tract
ive
Phil
a:ouch andhepr
etendedt
obest
abbedi
nthe
heart
Hegoti
nthecarandIwav
edgoodby
e.Nowi
tsj
ust
meandmyhouseal lalone dearhouse!Let'
s
enjoyyour1stdayt oget her.Imadesur eIhavea
securi
tysy st
em inher e,it
'smyf ir
stti
mest ayi
ng
al
oneandIam scar ed butI '
llgetoverthefear,i
ts
sti
llmyf i
rstdaysoy eahI '
llgetusedt oit It ooka
canofr edbullandwat ched2br okegirl
s
Ithi
nkI'
m goingtoenjoymyownspace, It
ookoffal
l
myclothesandwasl efti
nmyunder wear I
order
edmor epizzaanditcamewi t
hin30minut
es,
I
conti
nuedwat chi
ngTVt henIcal
l
eddaddyM
Me:
braMandl
a
Dad:
whoar
eyoucal
l
ingbr
amandl
a Iwi
l
lki
l
lyou
Me:
justj
oki
ngdad,
Iwantt
ocomebackt
owor
k
t
omorrow
Dad:
no,
you'
recomi
ngbackonMonday
Me:
butdad
Dad:
nobuts,
yousoundl
i
keNcebanow.Any
way
s
howarey
oumybaby ?
Me:im okayj
ustsadt
haty
oudon'
twantmet
ocome
backtowork
Dad:
okaydeal
wit
hit how'
sthenewhouse?
Me:you'
remean wel
li
tsgr
eat
,youshoul
dcome
byandseeit
Dad:
Iwi
l
ldosonowby
eSi
ya,
Ihav
eahotdat
e
Me:
arght
oomuchi
nfor
mat
ion
Wesai dourgoodby esandIswi t
chedof ftheTVand
l
ight sthenwentt obed.It hr
ewmy selfont hebed
andi tsmelledsof resh Iwentt otakeashower
andt hentuckedi ntobed, t
herewasapi cturefr
ame
nextt omybed, itwasapi ct
ureofmeand
Phila Thef irstpictureweev ertookt ogether I
remembert hatdayl ikeitwasy esterday,Ihadt o
forcehi mtot aket hepi cturewithme hehat es
takingpictures.It extedhi m"justsawt hepi ct
ure,
thanky ouv erymuch"
"Mypl easure,
haveagr eatnight
.Lal
ekahleDlaba"
Ismi l
edandswitchedof fmyphonet hensatand
stair
edatt hecei
li
ng.Idon'tknowwher edoIgo
from herebutIknowt hatgodhasapl anformylif
e,
thisisthenextst
epinmyl i
feandIam final
ly
mov i
ngon, iwill
notcryanymor eandIwi ll
wor khard
formy selfandmay beonedayIwi llmeetsomeone
whoi sn'tPhil
aandst artmyownf ami l
y.Iam 25now,
I'
m notget t
inganyy ounger,Iwantt ohav emyown
chil
drenandwakeupknowi ngIhav esmal lchi l
dren
whol ookupt omeast heirmotherandIhav et ogo
towor kandwor khardforthem tohav eagr eatl i
fe
andeducat ion Iwantt ostartaf ami l
ybutf i
rstI
havet olookf orapotenti
albae speaki ngof
Potentialbae's.WheredidMongezi disappeart o?I
twist
edandt urnedbutIcouldn'tsleep, Iswit ched
myphoneonandIl oggedont omywhat sapp, phila
wasonl ine
Me:
"can'
tsl
eep?
"
Phi
l
a:"
yeah,
canIcal
l
?"
Me:
"yeahsur
e"
I
naf
ewsecondshecal
l
ed
Phil
a:Ndyamthanda,
idon'
tevenknowwhatt
osay
butIjustwant
edtohearyourvoi
ce
Me:
youcoul
d'
vej
ustaskedmet
omakeav
oice
not
e"
Phi
l
a:nopet
hatwoul
d'
vebeendi
ff
erent
Wetalkedandt
alkedforawhi
l
eandthenther
ewas
asi
lentmomentonlyourbr
eat
hesspeaki
ngtoeach
ot
her
Me:
Phi
l
a
Phi
l
a:Si
ya
Me:Imi
ssyou,idon'
twantt
omi ssyoubutIdo I
t
ryi
gnori
ngmyfeeli
ngsbutIj
ustcan'
tIhatehav
ing
t
ofeelt
hisway
Phil
a:comebackt omemylove,
IknowI'
vehurty
ou
alotbutIpr
omiset ol
ovey
ouallt
heti
me,itwon'
tbe
easybabebutpleasej
ustl
etmelovey
ou
Me:Iknowy oul
ovemeandIseeandfeelyourlove
ever
yday.Butwecan'
tbet
ogether
.Notanymore,I
real
l
ydomi ssyousomuchbutwecan'tandthat'
s
fi
nal
Phi
l
a:Ihopeonedayy
ou'
l
lchangey
ourmi
nd
Me:
goodni
ght
Phi
l
a:goodni
ght
,Il
ovey
ou
Ismil
edandendedthecall
.HereIwas,say
ingI'
m
movingon Idon'tthinkI'
l
lbeabletomoveon
fr
om him,i
fIdoi
twill
takeav er
ylongti
me.Iputmy
phoneundermypi
ll
ow, yepIsti
l
ldothat andI
sl
ept
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
[
1/11,
00:
31]Tat
enda:
Inser
t40
It
sMonday !I'
mf i
nallygoingbackt owor k i
couldn' tbemor ehappier!I'v
ebeenenj oy i
ngstaying
onmyownandi t
sbeengr eat Daddymandl a
camet oseemyhouseonSat urdayandhewas
i
mpr essed, Iwenttochur chwi t
hhi m andmom
yester dayandi twasgr eat whi leIwasst ayi
ng
withmom Ial way swentt ochur chandi tmakesme
feelbet terallt
hetime.SoI 'm dressingupr ightnow,
wear ingabl acksuitpant sandwhi t
ebl ousewi t
h
blackst i
let
tos Icombedmyhai randIneeda
haircutagai n,myhairisgr owing Iwenthav e
breakfastandt henbrushedmyt eeth.Tookmybags
andleftt hehouse,Idrovemycar yeahIsent
backtheBent leythoughI'm notoverhim,havi
ngit
hereremi ndsmeofhi m soI '
drathersenditback
thenwor konget ti
ngov erhi
m, weallknowwhohi m
i
s i
'
llpi
ckupZandybutf i
rstIpassedatBP,
boughtsomef reshdoughnut sandapackofr edbull
,
thendr ovetoZandy .
Zandy
:heyat
ranger
Me:
heyy
ou,
youl
ookgood
Zandy
:thanky
out
oo
Iswit
chedontheradi
oandmandi ditmakemy
day i twasplay
ingoneofmyoldfavori
tesongs
zandyandIsangeventhoughwedidn'
tknowthe
exactl
yri
cs
Us:"whydoy oucallme,whenyouknowIcan't
answerthephone.Whydoy oucomehere?WhenI
gottr
oublesenough.Youmakemel iewhenIdon'
t
wantto,
y oumakesomeoneel sesomekindof
unknowi
ngf ool
,youmakemest aywhenIshould
notareyousostrongorisweaknessinme!
!"
Zandy
: aymadoda!Taki
ngi
tbackman whenI
needtoseeyou!
Me:
whenIneedt
ohol
dyou!
Us:
tight
ly.
..Babymmmhmmmhmhht
uut
uu
Wegott
owor
kandwewer
eal
li
nagoodmood!
Brandon:
wel
comebackSi
ya,
we'
vemi
ssedy
ouso
somuch
Me:
I'
vemi
ssedy
out
ooBr
andy
!
Br
andon:
lov
ethenewhai
rcut
,we'
l
lcat
chupdur
ing
l
unch
Iwentt
omyof
fi
ceandt
her
ewasacut
eyounggi
rl
ther
e
Gir
l:Morni
ngmam, I
'
my ournewPA,Nangamso
Khuboni.I
'
vebeenworki
ngwithMsEagl
esfort
he
pastfewweeks
Me:
heyi
m MsShezi
,youl
ookcut
ehowol
dar
eyou?
Ngamso:
I'
m 21
Me:
ohokay,
sowhat
'
shappeni
ngt
oday
?
Ngamso:not
hingmuchMsEagleslef
tal
otofpaper
workfory
outocatchuponthenewcont
ract
sand
youhaveameetingi
nBluf
fat2pm
Me:okayt
henwi
l
lseey
ouat2y
ou'
l
lbegoi
ngt
othe
meeti
ngwit
hme
ShestoodupandwenttoBel
inda'
sof
fi
ceandcame
backwithahugeamountoff
il
esandpaperwor
k
Me:
tel
lmey
ou'
rej
oki
ng
Ngamso:
Iwi
shIwas ,
thi
sisj
usthal
fofi
t
Me:
howl
onghav
eIbeengone!Ayi
qui
t!
Ngamso:3monthsi
sal
ongt
imemam,l
etmel
eav
e
yousoyoucanwork
Me:nobodycomesintomyoffi
ceal
ldaysweet
ie,
i
ncl
udingBrandonandZandi
l
e
Ngamso:
okaymam
SheclosedthedoorandIswi
tchedofmyphone
thenstar
tedworki
ng
Af
teraf
ewhour
sZandi
l
eandBr
andoncamei
n
Zandy
:whatnonsensei
sthi
sabouty
ounotwant
ing
any
onecomi
ngi
nyourof
fi
ce
Me:I
'm gl
ady
ougott
hemessage,
thedoori
sbehi
nd
youMsZungu
Brandon:
shutupbi
tch,
webr
oughtl
unch.Wear
e
heretost
ay
iknewt
heset
wowouldn'
tl
ist
entomyi
nst
ruct
ion!
Icl
ear
edmydeskandt
heysatdown
Zandy
:McFl
uff
y?
Me:
yespl
ease
Theygav
emeabur
ger
,fr
iesdr
inkandmcf
luf
fy
Me:
somuchf
ood
Br
andon:
youmaygi
vei
ttomei
fit
stoomuch
Me:
I'
m notshar
ingmyf
oodwi
thy
ouorany
oneel
se
f
ort
hatmatter
Weatewhil
ecatchi
ngup,
I'
vemissedt
hissomuch
butIwi
shBeli
ndawasher
etoo.
Br
andon:
Ibett
ergetgoi
ng,MrM andIhav
ea
meet
ingwit
hthi
shunkbulkyguy
Zandy
:everymal
ecli
entt
oyoui
sahunkbulkyguy
.
Whathappenedt
otheoneyoumetl
astweek?
Br
andon:
let
'ssav
ethatf
orl
ater
Hewal
kedoutandZandyf
oll
owedher
Icont
inuedwi
tht
hef
il
esandNangamsocamei
n
Me:
whatnow
Ngamso:
comeonpackuporwe'
l
lbel
ate
Me:
whatt
imei
sit
?
Ngamso:
13:
35
Me:
shi
t!Let
'sgo
Wewentt
othecarandIdr
oveof
f
Ngamso:
Idon'
twannadi
e
Me:
sor
ry Idi
dn'
tnot
iceI
'
m dr
ivi
ngt
oof
ast
Ngamso:
isi
tmeorIt
hinkwe'
rebei
ngf
oll
owed
Befor
eIcoul
dt ur
naroundandlook,
ther
ewer
e
gunshot
sfi
red.Idrov
everyfast
Me:
takemyphone!Justt
akemywhol
ebag.
Reachtomyankl
eandpresstheredbutt
on.Shedi
d
asItol
dher,
Iwasdri
vi
ngtoofastandItr
ied
st
oppingt
hecarbutmybrakesj
ustdidn'
twork
Ngamsot
ookof
fmyseat
bel
tandki
ckedt
hedoor
open
Her
:JUMPOFF!
Iclosedmyey esandj umpedof fthenmycardr ove
i
tselftosomewal l
.Wewer eataqui etpl
acefullof
treesandnoonecoul dseeus.Awhi t
eRangeRov er
Sportcameandt hreeguyscamet ousandI
screamedt r
yingt
of i
ghttheguyhol dingme.
Nangamsowasr eall
ybeatingthecr apoutoftheguy
thattri
edtoholdher,shetookhi sgunandf i
redthe
gunshot what!Whodowehav ehere!Il
ooked
ather
Ngamso:
stopst
art
ingatmeandr
un!
Me: I
'm notl
eavi
ngy ouhere!Wet ri
edfi
ghti
ngbut
theywer et
oostrongforus,theytookusandputus
i
nt hecarthendroveoff,i
lookedatmyankleandmy
bracel
etwasgone!Shi t
!Theywon' tbeabl
etolocat
e
menow!Wet rav
eledforawhi leandwegott osome
abandonedplaceandtheyl ockedusinaroom
whichwasv er
ycold,
myf acewasr eal
lyhur
ti
ng,
j
udgingbyNangamso'sf aceI '
vebeenbeatupreal
bad.Herfacewasrearr
anged
Ngamso:
thatbad?
Me:
yeahr
eal
l
ybad i
t'
sfr
eezi
ngi
nher
e
Ngamso:
whoar
ethesepeopl
e
Me:they'
vebeenaft
erusforawhi
le,
Idon'
tknow
whattheywantorwhotheyworkf
orbutIknowa
f
ewoft hem
Ngamso:
whatdot
heywant
?
Me:I
'm notsur
e,t
ell
mewheredi
dyoul
ear
ntof
ight
l
iket
hat?Toevenuseagun
Ngamso:
I'
vebeenont
hest
reet
s
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Ngamso:
youaskt
oomanyquest
ions.
Me:
theyneedt
oomanyanswer
s
Ngamso:
it'
sal
ongst
ory
Me:we'
rest
uckheretoget
herandIdon'
tknowt
il
l
whensoyoumightaswellj
ustst
artnow
Ngamso: l
etsj
ustsayI'v
ebeeni nt
omanyst r
eet
fi
ghts,I'
verobbedandst ol
et omyformyschool
feessinceIwas15, Iknowt hestr
eet
s,Iknow
peopleandI '
veki
ll
edpeople.Happynow?
Me:
ecst
ati
c
Ngamso:
aren'
tyougoi
ngt
ojudgeme?
Me:sweeti
eI'
vekil
l
edt oosoIhavenoreasonto
j
udgeyou.Whywoul dIbestucki
nhereifIhadno
shadybusi
nessgoi
ngon
Wel aughedandsatdown,itwasreall
ycoldinhere.
Afteranhourortwosomeoneopenedt hedoorand
threwOrati
lei
n shewascrying.Thisi
snothow
Iimaginedseei
ngheragainwouldbebutal lI
'
m
l
ookingatnowi sthephoneinherpocket.We'l
lget
outofheresoon
Ngamsowhi speredtome,"
seet hephone,we'l
l
use..
"Justbef
oreshecoul
df i
nishhersentenceit
rang!Real
ly r i
ghtnow?Di
dithav eto.Theguy
t
ooki
tandsmashedi
twi
thabr
ick
Me:
fuck!
Or
a:what
'sgoi
ngonher
e?
Ij
usti
gnor
edher
Ngamso:
we'
vebeenki
dnapped.Shecr
iedl
ouder
Ngamso:
whoi
sshe?
Me:
Motherofmyex
'schi
l
d,thebabyshe'
scar
ryi
ng
i
shi
sandshekil
l
edmybabies
Ngamso:
wtf
!Real
l
yhow?
Me: shedidn'
treal
l
ykil
lthem butshepushedme
overthestair
sandIhadami scarri
age,
Iwas
carr
y i
ngtwins.Wedidn'
tknowIwaspr egnant
Ngamso:
that
'sdeep,what
'
shername?
Me:
Orat
il
e
Ngamso:
she'
sreal
l
yfr
eezi
ng
Il
ookedatOraandshewasreal
l
yfr
eezi
ng Ihat
e
herbutIst
il
lfeel
sor
ryf
orher
.
Me:
takeofy
ourj
acketandcov
erhert
ummy
IfIwaswear ingoneIwoul dgiveher .Wej ustsat
therei nsil
enceal l youcouldhearwasourt eeth
mov i
ng,wewer eshi v eri
ngcold.Theyt hrew
4blanket sinandsomef oodwhi chlookedr eal
ly
disgust i
ng.Itookt het wowarm blanket sand
cov eredOr at
ile,foldedt hej
erseyandmadei tint
oa
pil
low.Shesl eptont opoftheot herblanketandI
cov eredherwi t
ht heot hert
wo.Ngamsof edherand
shev omi ted
Me:Orat
il
ey ouhavetoeatthi
s,Iknowitsdisgust
ing
butyouhavetoeat.Ir
eal
lyhateyoubuty ouhave
Phil
a'
sbabyinhere.Hecan'
tlooseanotherchil
d
Shest
art
edeat
ingandIwasal
sov er
ydisgust
ed,
it
wasri
cewit
hpotat
oeswhichl
ookedli
kedogfood.
Me:
we'
regoi
ngt
oshar
ethi
sbl
anketNgamso
Wesatdownandcov
eredour
sel
vesupi
nacor
ner
.

#PHI
LA
Whi
l
eIwaswor
kingIgotacal
lfr
om Zandy
Me:
Zandi
l
eI'
m busy
Zandy:
somethi
ngbadhashappened!Wet
hinkSi
ya
hasbeenki
dnapped
Me: whatdoy
oumean?
!Wher
ear
eyou
Zandy
:dr
ivet
obl
uffnow
Takeyourl
eftanddr
ivet
othatbushyar
ea.We'
re
ther
e
It
ookmycarkey
sandr
ushedt
oBl
uff
,Igott
her
e
wi
thi
n30mins
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon
Zee:theal
arm onourbracel
etswhenonandit
l
ocatedushere,hercari
sdamagedandal l
her
bel
ongingsandNangamso' sarescat
ter
edher
e
Me:
whoi
sNangamso?
Zandy
:hernewPA.Theyl
eftanot
e
It
ookt
henot
eandi
tread"cal
lus"andt
henumber
waswr
it
tent
her
e
Me:
let
'sgot
omypl
acewe'
l
lcal
lthem t
her
e
Danny
:Or
ati
l
e!Wher
eisshe?
Me:
ohshi
t!No
Idrovet
oOra'
sapar
tmentanditwasi
npi
eces!The
wallwaswr
itt
enCal
lusandthesamenumberwas
there
Bonga:
thi
sshi
tisget
ti
ngser
ious
Wedrov
ebacktomyhouseandgottowor
k,Ical
l
ed
t
henumberandputonl
oudspeaker
Man:
Iseey
ou'
vef
inal
l
ycal
l
ed,
tooky
ouawhi
l
e
Me:
wher
eisOr
ati
l
eandSi
ya
Man:
Iseey
oudon'
tcar
eaboutt
het
hir
done
IaskedBel
i
ndaaboutt
hegi
rl
sname
Me:l
eavet
hem al
one,
Nangamsohasnot
hingt
odo
wi
ththi
s
Man: shehasev er
yt hi
ngtodowi
thi
t,seethatgi
rl
hasgut s,sheki
l
ledoneofmyguyswithoutany
hesi
tationssoIwilldothesamet
othem onebyone
Me:
whatdoy
ouwant
?
Man:
youknowwhatIwant
Lubah:st
oppl
ayi
ngar
oundandt
ell
mewhaty
ou
want!
Man:LubabaloMt
oti
,youdonotwantmet ot
ake
yourbeaut
if
ulMsEagl
esandy ourf
ir
stchi
l
d.Giv
e
mewhatIwantortheyall
die
Heendedthecal
landavideocamet hrough.I
twasa
vi
deoofthem,t
heywereshiveri
ngcoldandblanket
s
weret
hrownatthem,Si
yacov er
ingOrati
leandthey
weref
reezi
ng
Zee:
hei
sgoi
ngt
ofr
eezet
hem t
odeat
h
Nay
e:i
t'
snotgoodf
ort
hebaby
It
hrewt
hephoneont
hewal
l
!
Nkosi
:Iunder
standy
ou'
reupsetbutf
ocusPhi
l
a
Me:
mybaby
! Ican'
tl
ooseanot
herchi
l
d!
Danny
:that
'swhywehav
etof
ocus
Zee:
theywantt
heChi
p
Kamo:
howdoy
ouknow
Zee:
whatel
sewoul
dtheypossi
blywantf
rom us?
Zandy
:youdoknowthatwecannev
erhandov
ert
he
chi
ptoanyoneel
se
Mpho:
wher
eist
hechi
pveel
se
Sneh:
somewher
e
Lyanda:
ify
oudonott
ell
uswher
ethechi
pis!We
can'
thel
p
Ntokozo:weal
lhav
ethechi
p,wel
ljustusthegirl
s
besidesBel
i
ndaandKamosincet
heywer en'
tthere
atthatti
me
At
hi:whatdoy
oumean
Naye:eachofushavewhat '
sinthechipstor
edi
n
ourbrains,wear
ethechip.Theor i
ginaldi
skwas
destr
oy edaft
erwedi
dapr ocedureofinst
all
i
ngal
l
thei
nfor mati
oni
nourbrains.Noonehasaccesst o
thechip.
Thabo:
asi
nit
snotphy
sical
l
yther
e
Bee:yesandt
hatmeanswehavenot
hingt
ogi
ve
them andwet
heymightki
l
lthem
Jabu:
noonewi
l
lbeki
l
ledher
e
Weal
ltur
nedandi
twasJabu
Mpho:
you'
reher
e?
Jabu:duh y esI'
m here.It
hinkImighthavean
i
deaofwher etheyarebutwecan'texactl
ygother
e,
Icanonlyaccessthecamera'
stherefornow.
Me:
how?
Jabu:Ihadt
oshagAmandat
ogett
his,
mydi
ck
worksforme
Mpho:
jokesasi
deman
Sneh:
let
'sgett
owor
k
Jabu:
badnewst
hough
Me:
whatnow?
Jabu:i
tmi
ghtt
akeusadayt
ohacki
ntoal
lthose
syst
ems
Lubah:
24hour
s?
Jabu:
even36!
Me:
whi
l
emybabyi
sfr
eezi
ngi
nther
e!
Nceba:
cal
m downpl
easePhi
l
a,weknowt
hisi
shar
d
f
ory
oubutwe'
redoi
ngourbestpl
ease
Sneh:itmightnothav
etot
akeev
en30mi
ns!Igot
thefi
rstroom!
Kamo:
wai
twoahi
sn'
tthatMongezi
?
Bee:
iti
s,whati
shedoi
ngt
her
e?
Me:
fuck!Iknewt
hatguywasupt
osomet
hing
Thabo:
sohei
sbehi
ndt
his?
Jabu:t
hat
'sthebi
gBiss,ont
helef
tisNki
ngaandI
don'
tknowtheotherguy
s.Youknowbigboss?
Kamo:
he'
sbeengoi
ngondat
eswi
thSi
ya
Me:
dat
es?
Danny
:let
'snotwor
ryaboutdat
esf
ornowPhi
l
a
Ntokozo:theycan'tst
ayi
nthereformorethan
24hours.Orati
leandthebabymightnotmakeit,
I'
m
notadoct orbutj
udgingtothet
heylookedonthat
vi
deo,itsbad
Weconti
nuedworki
ngonhackingt
hesyst
em and
l
ocat
iongthepl
acebutwekeptonhit
ti
ngadeadend
Me:
Ineedadr
ink!
Jabu:
foundt
hei
rroom!Look
Weal
lwentt
olookathi
scomput
er
Me:
theyar
est
il
lal
i
ve
Danny
:thi
snangomso,
lookatwhatshe'
sdoi
ng!
Shewasstari
ngatthewal
l
ssoIdi
dn'
tseeany
probl
em wi
ththat
At
hi:
she'
sst
arr
ingatt
hewal
lDanny
?
Danny:
she'
snotj
ustst
ari
ngatt
hewal
l
s,she'
s
anal
yzi
ngthem
Bonga:
yeahso?
Danny:she'slookingf oralightbr
ick,seewhena
houseisbuiltthere'salway sali
ghtbr i
ck.Wheny ou
buil
dal ousyhouseast hisoneoranol dhouse,
ther
e'salwayst hatlightbri
ckthatcaneasi lybreak
wheny oupushi t
,ifshefindsthatbrick,itwil
l
destr
oyt heotherssi nceitssupporti
ngt hem.
Bel
inda:
she'
sreall
ysmart,y
oudidhearthatshe
ki
ll
edaguywithoutanyhesi
tat
ionsi
tshowsshe's
ei
therusedt
othi
sorar
iskt
aker
Me:it'
spret
tyr
iskysincewealldon'
tknowwhat'son
theothersi
dewhatiftheyopenupandt henget
caught?
Ly
anda:
Iguessi
tsar
iskshe'
swi
l
li
ngt
otake

#LBUBT
Whatwill
happen? bepat
ientandf
indouti
nthe
nexti
nsert
Sor
ryi
fit
sshor
t,i
tsal
lIcando
#St
udy
Break
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
[
1/11,
00:
31]Tat
enda:
Inser
t41
We'vebeensitti
nghereforhours,
Orati
leisfr
eezi
ng.
I
fwest ayhereforalongtime,shemightnoteven
makeit.Nangamsohasbeenst ar
ingatthewallf
or
thepasthour .I '
m al
sofeeli
ngreall
ycoldbutI
havetobest r
ong.Phil
a'
sbabyneedst osurvi
ve,I
don'
tknowi fI
'm bei
ngmeanbutIwi shOr at
il
ewasnt
pregnant,
I'
dbeenj oyi
ngseeinghersuf
fer
.Iknowit'
s
cruelbutI
'm sti
l
lveryangryandbit
tert
owardsher,
forgi
vingherissomethingIwon'
tbedoinganyti
me
soon.
Nangamso:
yes!
Me:
tel
lmey
ou'
vef
oundwhaty
oul
ooki
ngf
or
Ngamso:Wher
e'st
hatexpensi
veheel
ofy
our
s?
Br
ingi
there
Itooki
tandgavei
ttoher
.Shetookofherbl
ouse
andbrathent
ookoutt
hewireofthebr
a
Me:you'
reverybr
ave,
int
hisf
reezi
ngcol
dyout
ake
of
fyourclot
hes
Ngamso:It
hinkyoushoul
dbehel
pingOr
ati
l
ether
e
nott
alki
ngnonsense
Me:
Iwasj
ustsay
ing
Ngamso: youtal
ktoomuchSi
yamthanda.I
'
mtryi
ng
toconcentrat
esowecangetoutofher
ebefor
ethe
babydies
Ij
ustkeptqui
etandr
ubbedOr
ati
l
est
ummy
Me:
Ora,
cany
ouhearme?
Shemumbl
edsomesounds
Me:
hast
hebabyki
ckedbef
ore?
Sheshookherhead, godpleaseshowusasi gnof
thatt hebabyisst
il
lali
ve Phi laj
ustcan'
tl
oose
anot herbaby,hewon'tbeabletodeal
withthat.I
t
willkill
him sobad
Ngamso:Ithi
nkyoushoul
dcomebackf
rom
wonder
landandhelpmehere
Me:whatam Isupposedtodo?Idon'
tev
en
under
standwhatyou'
redoingNgamso.
Ngamso:
findi
ngawayf
orusgogetoutofher
e
bef
oreOr
atil
edies.
Me:howisthatgoingtohappenwheny
oubusywi
th
br
icks?You'
reful
lofsurpr
ises
Ngamso: i
tscal
l
edint
ell
i
gence,manywon'
t
under
standandafewwillknow
Me: whatar
eyout
ryi
ngt
osayaboutme?
Ngamso:
Agai
n,y
ouhav
etoomanyquest
ions
Iwasn'tevenshiveri
nganymor e,wewer egetti
ng
usedtothecol dbutOrat
il
ewasj ustget t
ingworse
andshei sn'
ttal
kinganymor ebutatleastshe'sstil
l
mov i
ng.Whodoest hi
stoapr egnantlady,people
j
ustdon'thavehear t
soutthere.Aft
eranhouri t
seemedasi fNgamsowasdonewi thwhatshe' s
doing
Ngamso:
gocheckbyt
hedoori
fther
e'sany
one
t
here
Ist
oodupandwentt
ocheck
Me:
nope,
nosecur
it
y
Ngamso:thi
sisver
yrisky!Buti
t'
swhatwehavet o
do.Comeandtakeoutt hesebr
icks,
theymust
n'tf
all
onthefl
oorsi
ncethatwi l
lmaketoomanysounds
andwe'l
lbecaught
Me:
okaycool
Wet ookoutabout55bricksandopenedaspace
enoughf orustogothrough.Lucki
l
y t
herewas
nowal l
orot herr
oom behindthi
sone
Ngamso:
qui
ck!Let
'
scar
ryOr
ati
l
e
Shewassoheavybutwecarr
iedheroutandt
ri
edt
o
run,
wel
li
twasjustl
ikewal
ki
ngr eal
l
yfast.
Or
a:putmedown,
I'
ll
wal
k
Me:
arey
ousur
e?
Or
a:wewon'
tgetany
wher
eify
oucar
ryme
Wejoggedoutt
hebr
okenf
enci
ngandi
ntosome
bush
Me:
whi
chwaydowet
ake?
Ngamso:
I'
mreal
l
ynotsur
e
Me:l
et'
staket
her
ightr
out
e,i
fwegetlostwe'
l
l
comebackher
eandthent
akethel
eft
Ngamso:
howwi
l
lweev
enknowt
hewayback
Me:l
et'
sleav
esomet
hingt
hatwi
l
lremi
ndusoft
his
spot
Ora:
let'
sputtoget
hert
hesethreer
ocksjustt
omar
k
t
hisplace,
I'
m gett
ingr
eal
lyt
iredofst
anding
Weputt
het
hreer
ockst
oget
herandt
ookt
her
ight
r
out
e
Wewalkedf
orwhatseemedl
i
keanhourbutst
il
lno
si
gnofahouseorev
enacar
Or
a:I
'
m..
.Get
ti
ng.
.Ti
red
Shest
utt
eredandf
ell
ont
hef
loor
Ngamso:
damnshef
aint
ed,
thi
sisbad
Me:
wehav
etocar
ryherandf
indhel
psoon
Ireal
lydon'tknowhowwegoi ngtodothatbutwe
havetoo, Idon'
tknowwher ewearebutIknowwe'll
fi
ndawayt ogetoutofher
esoon.Wecar r
iedOra
andst ar
tedwal ki
ng,wewalkedforhour
sanditwas
getti
ngreallydark
Ngamso:
wehavetofi
ndasafepl
acetorestandt
ry
t
owakeOra,
she'
sbeenoutf
ortoolongnow.
Me:Idon'
tthi
nkshe'
llbewaki
ngupanyt
imesoon,
t
hisbl
anketisnotev
enhelpi
ng.Andwher
ewil
lwe
f
indasafeplaceher
e?
Ngamso:Idon'
tknow,hungeriskil
l
ingme.Idon'
t
t
hinkIcanwalkanyfur
therbutI'
l
ltry
Me:
,youhav
etoo,
wecan'
tl
ooseher
Wecont i
nuedwal
ki
ngandwal
ki
ngav
eryl
ong
di
stance.
Icoul
dn'
ttakei
tanymor
e,myf
eetwer
ehur
ti
ngandI
waswalki
ngbaref
oot
Me:
myf
eethur
t
Ngamso:
takeOr
ati
l
e'sshoes
It
ookherpumpsandwor
ethem,
theywer
ebi
gbut
i
tsbet
tert
hannot
hing
Ngamso:
cany
ouheart
hat
?
Me:
what
?Ican'
thearany
thi
ng
Ngamso:
weneedapl
acet
ohi
de!Now
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon?Let
'
shi
debehi
ndt
hatl
og
Wer ant
othelogandsatdownt henl
aidOrat
il
eon
thefl
oor
.Carsdrovepastandsomeparkedri
ght
nexttot
helog,Iwassonervous
Voice1:we'v
ebeenlooki
ngfort
hem f
orav
eryl
ong
ti
me, i
t'
scleart
hatt
hey'v
eescaped
Voice2:
shit!Nowwe'll
nev ergett
hem!Wehav eto
gettheothergir
ls,
thepregnantones.Atl
eastt
hey
won'
tbeabl
etoescape.Thecar
sst
art
edanddr
ove
back
At earfel
ldownonmycheeks, howcant hese
peoplebesocr uel!Dot
heyknowwhatt heycoulddo
toBelindaandKamo?Theycoul dloosethei
rbabies,
theycan'tgothroughal
lthi
spain.Ngamsowi pedoff
thetear
Ngamso:youhavetobest
rong,youcan'
tbe
emoti
onalri
ghtnow.Wehavetogetbackhome
bef
oretheycangettot
heother
s.
Me:
whatdowedonow?
Ngamso:webot hver
ytir
edandit
'sr
eal
lydar
know
solet
'sj
ustsithereti
llt
hesunri
sesandwe'l
l
conti
nuewalking.
Me:andwecan'
tgoback,
theylooki
ngf
orusal
ready
.
Thi
shastobethewor
stexper
ienceofmyl
if
e.
Ngamso:
thi
sisnot
hing
Me:
wherear
eyourpar
ent
s?Whydi
dyouendupi
n
t
hestr
eet
s
Ngamso:
Mymom,
Idon'
tknowhert
hatmuch.She
wasadr ugaddi ct,al
way ssni ff
ingoncocai ne.My
dadandheral waysf oughtal otanddadcoul dn't
takeitany mor e,shewaspr egnantbutst ill
t aking
drugs.Somydadt ookhert oar ehabbutaf teraf ew
mont hssheescapedandwasnev erfound.So
somewher eoutt hereIhav easi blingort hebaby
didn'
tmakei t.Istayedwi thmyf atherandwhenI
was11, hedi edofcancer .Peopl ecameandt ookhi s
house,car sandev erythingheownedsay i
nghehad
debtsandhedi edbef orehecoul dpayf orthem.My
neighbort ookmei nf oraf ewmont hs,thenei ghbor
couldn'
tt akecar eofme, shewasj ustanol d
pensionerandwasal sosuf feri
ngsoIwasj usta
burdent oher .WhenIwas13Iwassenti ntoan
orphanagehome, istay edt her et i
l
l Iwas15.Iwas
mov edfrom Jo' burgt osomeor phanageher ei n
Durbanbutt hekidst her eabusedmeandl iedsay ing
I'
m bull
yingt hem soIwast r
eatedunf ai
rly.That '
s
whenIr anawayandst ar tedst ay i
ngont hest reets.
Me:im sor
ryt
oher
ethat
,I'
m sur
eitmusthav
ebeen
har
d.
Ngamso:
itwashar
datf
ir
st,
Iwasj
ustaki
dIknew
not hingabouthust l
ing.Imett hisguy ,hisnamei s
Makhekhe het aughtmeev erythingIknow.We
hust ledandmademoneyt heni wentbackt oschool .
Inev erjustwentt oanyschool ,
Iwentt oapr iv
ate
school withstolenmoney ,atleasti twasf oragood
cause.Wer entedaf latnexttomyschool andthings
gotbadwhenIwas17, Makhekhepassedaway .I
hadt ohust l
eonmyown, i
twast ouchhav i
ngt o
j
uggl eschool andt hestreets.Imi xedmy selfwitha
wr ongcr ewt hatjustusedmeandmyski l
lstomake
moneyf orthemsel ves.Icouldn'tpayr entany mor e
soIwentbackt ostay i
ngont hest r
eetswhi leI
hust ledmoneyf ormyschool sf ees.Itbecamet oo
muchsoIwentt oapubl i
cschool .Mat r
icwasav er
y
toughy earformebutIpassedv erywell,6
distincti
ons.Igotaschol arshipandt henwentt o
univ ersi
ty,hereIam now
Me:
wow,Idon'
tevenknowwhatt
osay
.You'
ve
r
eal
l
ybeenthr
oughalot
Ngamsot
ookadeadf
rognextt
oherandat
e
Me:
argh!Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Ngamso:eat
ing,
I'
mver
yhungr
ysoi
tsal
lIcaneat
.
Wantsome?
Myst omachwasr umbli
ngandIwasreal
lyhungr
y
butthethoughtofeat
ingafr
ogreal
l
ycreepedme
out!
Me:
nope,
I'
ll
pass
Sheat
eandIwasr
eal
l
yhungr
y
Me:
giv
emesome,
I'
mver
yhungr
y
ShegavemeandIat ei
tsl
owly.I
twasreal
l
ybadbut
Ihadtoeati
t.Or
ati
l
ewasst i
l
llay
ingt
here
unconsci
ous
Me:
doy
out
hinkshe'
sal
i
ve?
Ngamso:she'
ssti
llbreat
hing.Don'
tworry,
we'l
lbe
l
eavi
ngheresoon.Thesuni sabouttori
se.Aft
era
f
ewhoursthesunr oseandwewer estil
lawake.I
t
wasget
ti
ngwar m andwecar ri
edOrati
l
e
Westart
edwal
ki
ngandwal
ki
ngt
il
lwesawasi
l
ver
cor
oll
a.
Me:
I'
ll
goaskf
orhel
p
Iwalkedovert
othecaranditwasawomanmay be
aroundher40'
s.Iknockedont
hewindowandshe
opened
Me:
hel
l
o,weneedy
ourhel
p
Lady
:whywhat
'swr
ong?
Shewaswear
inganur
seuni
for
m t
hankheav
ens!
Me: you'
reanurse!ThankGod.We'vebeen
ki
dnappedandweescapedt henwal
kedal
ltheway
here.Wehav eapregnantladyandshe'
sbeen
unconscioussi
ncey est
erday
Lady:
that'
snotgood,
wher
eisshe?Comei
nwe
havetohel
pher
Igoti
ntothecarandwedrovetowher
eNangamso
wasstandingcar
ryi
ngOr
atil
e.
Me:
geti
nsi
de
Theygoti
nandt
hel
adydr
ove
Me:I'
m Si
yamt
handabythewayandt
hisi
s
Nangamsoandthat
'
sOrati
le
Lady
:cal
lmeMmeMankwe
Me:
ohokayt
hanky
ouf
orhel
pingus
Ngamso:
mayIask?Wher
ear
ewe?
Mme:
PMB
Me:
thi
sdoesn'
tl
ookl
i
kePMB
Mme:
itsav
il
lagenotsof
arf
rom PMB
Wegottot
hisbeaut
if
uldoubl
est
oryhouseandshe
par
kedbyt
hegarage.
Mme:
car
ryheri
nsi
de
Wecarr
iedheri
nandshedir
ect
edustoaroom
wheret
hewasahospit
albedandot
herhospi
tal
equi
pment
Ngamso:
whydoy
ouhav
ethesei
nyourhome?
Mme: mysonhasapri
vat
esurger
ysohekeptsome
ofhi
sthi
ngsheresi
nceheisr
enovat
ing.
Sheputadr
iponOrati
l
eandl
ayedbl
anket
sonher
.
Shetur
nedontheheat
er.
Mme: yougi
rl
sneedtobath,onemustusethe
bat
hroom i
nthisr
oom andtheotherwi
lluset
heone
i
nthenextroom.Ther
earefreshtowel
sand
ever
ythi
ngy
ou'
l
lneed.I
'
llgogetwar
m cl
othesf
or
you
Me:
Mmet
her
e'snoneed.
Mme:
Idon'
trememberaski
ngy
ou,
nowgo
Iusedthebat hr
oom i nt henextroom andIt ooka
ni
cewar m bath,Ifeltrelaxedandclean.Igotout ,
l
otionedmybodyandt henwor ethewarm clothes
Mmegav eme, itwasabl ackAdidastracksuit
,you
couldseeitbelongedt oaboy .It
shersonsI
guessed.IgotoutandOr ati
l
ewasawakeal ready
andNgamsowasf eedi ngher,shewasal sowear i
ng
anav yAdidastracksuit.
Me:
you'
reawake howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
Or
a:v
erycol
d,buti
m okay
.Whathappened?
Ngamso:
youdi
edf
oraday
Wealll
aughedandMmewal
kedi
nwit
hlost
soff
ood
f
orus.NgamsoandIj
umpedi
nandat
ewhil
eshe
f
edOrati
le.
Ngamso:
dream comet
rue
Weatetil
lIwasreal
l
yfullandwewentt
owashthe
di
shes.Andthenwentbacktother
oom Or
ati
l
eisi
n
Me:MmemayIbor
rowy
ourphone?Ineedt
omake
acal
l
ShegavemeherphoneandIdi
aledPhil
a'
snumber
buti
twenttovoi
cemai
l,
Itr
iedDannyanditwentt
o
voi
cemail
thenical
l
edSnehandsheanswered
Sneh:
hel
l
o?Whoam It
alki
ngt
o?
Me:
Sneh,
it'
sSi
ya.Pl
easegi
vePhi
l
athephone
Sneh:
we'
vebeenl
ooki
ngf
ory
ouSi
ya! shecr
ied
Me:Snehthi
sisnott
heti
mepleasegi
vePhi
l
athe
phoneandcal
lme.Runni
ngoutofai
rt
ime
Iendedt
hecal
landshecal
l
edagai
nitwasPhi
l
a
Phi
la:
Ndyamt
handa!Wher
ear
eyou?Ar
eyouokay
?
Thebaby
?
Me:onequesti
onatatimePhi
lasande.Yeswe'
re
okay
,uhm yeahthebabyi
sokayIthink
Phi
l
a:whatdoy
oumeany
out
hink?
Me:
wehav
en'
tchecked.Wewi
thanur
seandOr
ati
l
e
r
eal
lyf
rozeandt
henfai
ntedf
ormorethan20hour
s
whi
chi
sbadandthebabyhasn'
tmoved.I
'l
lget
MmeMankwetocheck
Phi
la:whoi
sMmeMankwe?Andwher
eyou?How'
s
Nangamso?
Me:we'r
eokay.AndMmeMankwei
stheladywho
hel
pedusandweatherhousei
navi
ll
ageafteror
nearPMBIthi
nk
Phi
l
a:t
henameSi
ya
IaskedMmeandIt
oldPhi
l
a
Me:
it'
sSandanezwe.
Phi
l
a:wecomi
ngt
her
enow.
Wesai
dourgoodby
esandIgav
ethephonet
o
MmeMankwe
Mme:
husband?
Me:no,j
ustaf
ri
end.Thef
atheroft
hebabyOr
ais
car
ryi
ng
Ngamso:
whi
chi
sherexboy
fri
end.
Me:
shutupNgamso
Ngamso:
whati
tst
rue!
Wel
aughedandcont
inuedt
alki
ng
Ngamso:
cany
ouchecki
fthebabyi
sal
i
ve?
Mmet
ouchedOr
a'sst
omach
Mme:
howf
ari
sshe?
Me:
6to7mont
hs
Or
a:si
xandt
hreeweeks
Mme:
okayI
'
llbebackshor
tl
y
Shel
eftt
her
oom andwehear
dthecardr
ivi
ngout
Ngamso:
I'
m hungr
yagai
n,wher
est
hatf
oodwel
eft
?
Me:
int
hef
ri
dge
Shewentt
ogett
hef
oodandcameback
Or
a:mayi
hav
esomet
oo?
Ngamsowenttositnexttoher.Andtheyate
toget
her
.Aft
eranhourMmeMankwewasbackand
shecamebackwithanultrasoundscannerand
someequipment
swhi chshesetupandappl ied
somegelonOra'
sstomach.Shescannedand
l
ookedf
ort
hebaby
Mme:
ican'
tfi
ndt
hebaby
Me:
not
hatcan'
tbe
Shescannedunt
ilshef
oundt
hebaby
Mme:t
hehear
tbeati
sver
ylowandt
hebabyi
snot
mov
ing
Me:
whatdoest
hatmean?
Mme: I
'm notreal
l
ygoodatt hesethi
ngsbutits
abnor
mal Ithi
nkitsbecauseofthecold.I
t'
saffect
ed
hi
m.Wehav etowaitandsee.Icall
edmysonandhe
sai
dhewi ll
beherein3hourssohe' l
lbesureof
what'
swrong.
Orati
lecri
edandIhel dherhand.Idon' tli
kehert hat
muchbutIf eelherpain.She'
sbeent hroughso
muchandhat ingherisntwhatsheneedsnow.Ihel d
herandwecr iedtogether.It
hinkthisexper i
encehas
broughtusclosetogetherandIf eell
ikeaheav y
weighthasbeenl i
ft
edonmyshoul ders,I'
veforgiv
en
her.MmeMankwegav emet hephoneandwasPhi l
a
Phi
l
a:t
extmet
hedi
rect
ionst
oherhouse
Me:
you'
reher
eal
ready
Phi
la:y
esandsendt
hedi
rect
ions.Whywer
eyou
cr
ying?
Me:
not
hingI
'
llt
exty
ounow
IgaveMmeMankwet hephoneandshet extedthe
dir
ecti
ons.Iwasn'tgoingtotellPhi
lathatthereare
probl
emswi t
ht hebaby .Hewoul djustpani
cand
causeanaccidentorsomet hing.Iknowt hi
swi l
lhurt
hi
mr eall
yand.DearlordIhopet hebabywi llsur
vive
andbeokay .

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LA
Si
ncelastni
ghtwe'vebeentr
yingt
ofi
ndwhereSi
ya
i
slocatedsi
ncetheyescapedbutwej
ustcoul
dn'
t,
notev enonel ead.Iwashappyt heywer eablet o
escape, allthankst oNangamsoi oweheral ot .ButI
wasr eallywor riedaboutt heki dnapper sf i
nding
them agai nanddoi ngsomet hi ngbad.WhenSneh
gotacal lfrom Si ya,Ifel
tsor elievedandwor ri
edat
thesamet ime.Whenshesai dt hatshei sn'
tsur e
howt hebabyi s, Ifel
tmyhear tbr eaki ntopieces, I
thoughtoft het i
mewher eIlostmyt wi ns Ican' t
gothroughal loft hatagain.Iimmedi atelywentt o
mycar ,
MphoandLy andacamewi t
hme, Mpho
i
nsistedt odr i
v e.Wegott herei n2hour sandSi y a
text
edmet hedi recti
on.Weatt hepar kingnowandI
gotoutoft hecarandwenti nsi det hehouse, Ididn'
t
evenknock.
Me:
hel
l
o!Any
onehome?
Mpho:
youdi
dn'
tev
enknockmanwhati
fweatt
he
wr
onghouse
AladycamedownandIguessi
tst
heonet
hat
hel
pedthem
Lady
:heyI
'
m MmeMankwe.Fol
l
owme
Wef
oll
owedherandwegoti
ntoar
oom andOr
ati
l
e
wasl
ayi
ngont
hebedcr
yingwi
thSi
yahol
dingher
Ly
anda:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Gir
l:heyI
'
m Nangamso.Justgotbadnewsaboutt
he
babysothat
'swhytheyar
ecrying.I
wentnextt
oOrat
il
eandki ssedherf
orehead.Si
ya
movedandwenttositnexttoNangamso.Inoti
ced
shewashurtbyt
hisbutIhav et
ocheckonmybaby
Me:
what
'swr
ongwi
tht
hebaby
Mme:t
hehear
tbeati
sver
ylowandt
hebabyi
snot
mov
ing
Me:
whatdoest
hatmean?
Nangamso:t
hebabyi
sinabadcondi
ti
on.Butt
he
doct
orwil
lbeher
esoon
Aswewer
etal
ki
ngat
all
guywal
kedi
n
Mme: son,
herearethepeopleIwastal
ki
ngabout.
That
'sOrat
il
e,she'
sthepregnantoneasyoucansee
Weal l
laughedabitandhecametoOrati
leandI
backedaway .Hesai
dhisnameisThabang.Hedi
da
fewcheckupsonOr ati
leandt
hebaby
Thabang:Orat
il
eisokayandthebabyisnot.Hehas
tobedeliv
eredsoonsohecanbeonbr eathi
ng
machinesbecauseifhest
aysinsi
delonger,
he
mightdie.
Me:
didy
ouj
ustsayhe?
Thabanga:
yesi
t'
saboy
Iwasv
eryhappyt
houghi
waswi
shi
ngf
oragi
rl
.
Mpho:
howsooni
sthesoony
ou'
ret
alki
ngabout
?
Thabanga:
asi
ntoni
ghtsoon
Lyanda:we'
rel
eav
ing.I
'
llcal
lNay
etoosetupandget
ready.
Si
ya:
sot
hebabywi
l
lbebor
npr
emat
urel
y?
Ngamso:
yes
Mpho:
webet
tergetgoi
ng.We'
l
lgett
her
ear
ound
6pm
Mme:
you'
rel
eav
ingal
ready
Siy
a: yesMmewehaveto.Thankyouforev
eryt
hing,
wit
houty ouwewoul
dn'
thavesurv
ived.Wereal
l
y
appreciat
eit
Ngamso:yesthankyouv er
ymuchandmayy ou
packsomefoodf orme,you'
rereal
l
yagreatcook
wealll
aughedandOr at
il
eagreedwithNangamso
Mpho:
iguessI
'
llhav
etobet
hej
udgeoft
hat
Si
ya:
you'r
enotget
ti
ngany
.By
eMme,
we'
l
lcal
lwhen
wearr
ive
Weal lsaidourgoodby esandgotint hecart hen
Mphodr ove.Iwassi tt
ingnexttoOratileandshe
l
ay edherheadonmychestandki ssedmycheek
thenslept.Ifakedasmi l
eandlookedatSi ya,she
l
ookedawayandat eardroppedthenNangamso
gav eherti
ssue.It ookmyphonewant ingt otexther
butIremember edshehasnophone.It extedLy anda
togiveherhi sphoneandhedi d."I
'mj ustsuppor t
ing
her,she'sbeent hroughalotandim wor r
iedabout
thebaby .I
'm sorryyouhadt ogot hroughal lthi
s,I
knowi thurtsseeingmewi t
hanot herwoman
especiall
ysinceshehasmychi l
d.Ihav et obet her e
forher,Iwannabet hereforyoutoo."
Shereadt
hetextandrepl
i
ed"Iunder
stand,
she'
s
moreimport
antri
ghtnowandIhopeyourbabywil
l
beokay
"
"You'
real
soimpor
tantSiy
a,I
'
mj ustbei
ngther
e
causeshehasmybaby ,
Ihaven'
tfor
gett
enwhatshe
didtous"Ir
epl
i
ed
"Don'thavet oexpl ai
ny ourself"sher epli
edandgav e
thephonebackt oLy anda.Thi sisv eryhardbutr i
ght
nowIchooset obewi t
hOr aandmybaby ,
tr ustmeit
hurtsmet ooandIdon' twantSi y
at ofeel l
ef toutand
l
ikeIdon' tcaref orher.She'sal sobeent hroughal ot
,
i
fIhadawayofget t
ingbot hoft hem t olayonmy
chestr i
ghtnowIwoul dbutIknowt heybot hwon' t
agreet othat.Iknowshe' shur ti
ngr i
ghtnowbutmy
babyi smyf i
rstpriori
ty.
IloveSi yamt handav ery
much, we'v ebeent hroughal ott ogetherandl oosing
ourtwi nswasoneoft hewor stt hingsthatwe' ve
beent hrough, ineverwantt ohur theragai nandI
don'twantany oneel setohur ther.She' sbeen
thr
oughenoughpai nandshehassur vi
vedi tall.
That'swhatIl ov emostabouther ,she'sav ery
str
ongwoman.Godknewwhathewasdoi ngwhen
hebr oughtheri ntomyl i
fe,she'smypi l
larof
str
engt h,withoutherIdon' tknowwher eI '
dbei nmy
l
ifewit
houther.Sherespectsme,lovesme, and
caresf
ormel i
kenoot herpersonhaseverlovedme
l
ikeshedoes.OnedayI '
llgodownononekneeand
askhertomarryme, Iknowr i
ghtnowthatseems
i
mpossiblebutIbeli
eveitwil
lhappen.Iwasst ucki
n
myownt houghtsthatIdidn'
tevennoti
cewe' r
ein
DBNalready.
Mpho:
day
dreamer
,wel
comebackt
oear
th
Me:shutupman,
I'
mjustst
ressed.Al
othasbeen
goi
ngonman
Ly
anda:
you'
l
lbeokay
,ev
ery
thi
ngwi
l
lbef
ine.
Wegott omyhouse,NgamsoandSiyawenttopack
abagf orOr
ati
leandthenwelef
theadi
ngtothe
hospit
al.Wegotther
e, Nay
eandNkosiwereal
ready
ther
e.
Nay
e:ever
ythi
ng'
sreadybutwefir
sthavet
odoa
f
ewcheckupsonherandt hebaby,f
oll
owme
Orat
il
eandIf
oll
owedherandOr
ati
l
ewasputona
bed.
Nay
e:doy
ouknowt
hegender
?
Me:yeswef oundoutear
li
eron,
itsaboy
.Ist
he
hear
tbeatokay?
Naye:Ohsoyoudidt hecheckupsalr
eady?Yeahthe
hear
tbeati
sokaybutabi tlow.Wehav et
ogetthe
babyoutnow,she'
llbedoingac-sect
ion,
she'
stoo
weaktogivebi
rthnatural
l
y
Me:
butshel
ooksokay
.
Naye:
yesandsheisokaybutshewon'
tbeabl
eto
gi
vebir
thnat
ural
l
y
Me:
isi
tokaywi
thy
ouOr
a?
Or
a:y
esi
t'
sokay
Orat
il
ewasmovedt
oanot
herr
oom andIwentt
oour
desi
gnat
edwai
ti
ngr
oom.
Bonga:
what
'
sgoi
ngon?
Me:
theyt
aki
ngoutt
hebaby
,it
sac-
sect
ion
Danny
:why
?
Siy
a:it
ssafer
,Or
ati
l
ewi
l
lnotbeabl
etogi
vebi
rt
h
natur
all
y.
Zee:
arey
ouguy
sokay
?Shesai
dlooki
ngatNgamso
nSiya.Ngamsonodded,
she'
sbeenv
eryqui
etsi
nce
she'
snotusedtous.
Zandy
:Iheary
ouki
ckassNangamsi
Si
ya:
yeahshef
ight
sli
keaman
Zandy
:we'
regoi
ngt
ogetal
ongper
fect
ly
Sneh:
youshoul
dteachme
Ngamso: ohokayt
han
Athi
:howdoy ouknowhowt
ofi
ght
?Youdon'
tl
ook
l
ikeafight
er
Ngamso:
dynami
tecomesi
nsmal
lpackages
Iwasj ustsit
tingther
elostinmyownt houghts,I
'm
verystressedoutandwor ri
edaboutmyson.Myson,
myhei r,Ngcoboomncane wi l
l helookli
kemeor
Oratil
e?Ikeepont hi
nki
ngabouthi m,lordplease
protecthim andOr at
il
e.OraandImayhav eour
diff
erencesandi ssuesbutfactr
emai ns,wehav ea
chil
dnowt hatneedsthebothofus.Wehav et oget
alongandshemustknowherpl acesot hatwecan
beabl etoraiseoursontogether.I'
l
lneverforget
whatshedi dbutIhav etoputallthatasi
denow, for
t
hesakeofourbaby
.
Si
ya:
Phi
l
a
Me:
yes
Si
ya:
arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yesI
'
m okayandy
our
sel
f?
Si
ya:I'
m okayj
ustwor
ri
edabouty
ou,
youseem
st
ressedout.
Me:
yeahI
'
mjustwor
ri
edaboutmyson.
Siya:
don'
tworryhe'
l
lbef
ineandt
hedoct
orswi
l
l
takegoodcar
eofhim
Me:
howdoy
ouf
eel
Siy
a?
Si
ya:
about
?
Me:
mehav
ingason.
..Pl
easebehonest
Siya:honestl
yI'mv er
yhappyf oryouPhi l
asande,I
reall
yam.Apar tofmewi shesthatitwasmebuti ts
notmeandI 'v
eaccept edthat
.Iknowy ou'
llbea
goodf atherandifyouwantt opursuear elati
onshi
p
withOr ati
l
e,doso.Don' tl
etwhatwehadhol dyou
back,achi l
dneedsbot hparentstogether
Me:Idon'
tseet
hathappeni
ng.Thanky
ouSi
ya,
for
ev
eryt
hing.
Si
ya:i
tsokaynoneedtothankme,youmustThank
Nangamso,shebasi
cal
lysavedourl
iv
es
Me:yeahshedi
dhey
.She'
sver
ybr
ave,
what
'sher
st
ory
?
Si
ya:
shegr
ewupont
hest
reet
s,she'
sat
ruehust
ler
.
Wecont
inuedt
alki
ngandaf
ter4hour
sNay
ecamei
n
Naye:i
tsbeenal
ongroad,
butwehavef
inal
l
y
del
i
v er
edababyboy youmaycomeseehi
m
Phi
la
Bee:
whenwi
l
lweseehi
m?
Nay
e:abi
tlat
er.Butt
hef
athermustseehi
ssonf
ir
st.
Siya:congr
atul
ations shesmi l
edandtear
s
droppedonherf ace.
Thisi
sreal
lyhardf
orher,
I
huggedherandki ssedherf
orehead
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Siy
a:Il
oveyout
oo,nowgoseey
ourson,f
ather
shesmil
edandIwentt
oseemyson.Iwasvery
exci
tedandIwast
akent
oar
oom andhewasi
nan
i
ncubator
.
Me:
whyi
shesosmal
l
?
Naye:
hejust7months,
ababyi
sbor
nwheni t
s
9monthssohe'spr
ematur
ePhi
la Ithoughtyou
knewaboutthi
s
Me: yeahbuthei sverysmall.Iheldhisli
tt
lehand
andhey awned.Hewast hecut estli
tt
lehumanbeing
I'
veev erseen.Helooksexact l
yli
keme.It ooka
pict
ureandsenti ttomymot her,myparentsare
bothinLAsot heywon'tbeablet ocomeseehi m.
Orati
lecamei nandwebot hstoodnextt othe
i
ncubat orandheldhands, t
hensher estedherhead
onmyshoul derandcried
Me:
whyar
eyoucr
yingsomuch?
Or
a:not
hing,
I'
mjustemot
ional .Hei
scut
eisn'
the?
Me:
yeahhei
s
Ora:
hel ookssomuchli
keyou,
Phi
l
ay ourgenesar
e
t
oost r
ong.Hedoesn'
tevenl
ookabitl
ikeme,so
whatarewegoingtonamehim?
I'
vebeent
hinki
ngofbabynamesbuti
hav
en'
t
chosen
Me:
howaboutJuni
or
Or
a:Lesl
eyJuni
orNgcobo
Me:t
hat
'sper
fect i
kissedherf
oreheadand
Si
yawal
kedin
Siy
a:sor
ryt
odist
urbbutNayesai
dIshoul
dbr
ing
thi
ssoyoucanwri
tethebabi
esname
Or
a:i
tsLesl
eyJuni
orNgcobo
Siy
a:Beauti
ful
name shewr ot
eitdownandwe
bothsi
gned.Onceagai
n,congr
atul
ati
onsshesai
d
andwalkedout
Anur
secamei
naf
teranhour
Nur
se:
I'
m sor
rybuty
ouhav
eleav
enow
Me:
can'
thebepl
acedi
nOr
a'sr
oom?
Nurse:
weareorganizi
ngt
hatsi
rbuthewi
l
lbe
pl
acedther
etomorrow.
Or
a:t
omor
rowi
sokaypl
usi
needt
orest
Me:
arey
ouokay
?
Or
a:y
esI
'
m okayj
ustl
i
ttl
epai
nsbutI
'
llbef
ine.
Me:
okaythenI'l
ll
eaveandcomebackt
omor
row
mor
ning,
isthatokay
?
Ora:
yeaht
hat
'sokay,
justbuymor
ebabycl
othes
andbri
ngt
hem wit
htomorrow
Me:
okaycool
andt
hanky
ou
Or
a:f
orwhat
?
Me:
forgi
vi
ngmet
hebestgi
fti
nthewor
ld
Or
a:i
tsmypl
easur
e
Shewenttoherr
oom andIwenttot
hewait
ingr
oom
buttheot
her
sweren'
tther
e.Onl
yBee,Si
yaandNay
e
werether
e
Me:
wher
e'sev
ery
oneel
se?
Bee:t
heylef
t,t
hey
'l
lal
lbebackt
omor
rowandwe
needali
ft
Me:
okayl
et'
sgo
Wewentt
omycaranddr
oveof
f
Me:
wher
eam Idr
oppi
ngy
ou?Andwher
eisNgamso?
Si
ya:atmyplace,
andshel
eftwi
thJabusi
ncet
hey
goi
ngtothesamearea
Idroppedthem offandIwentt oSteer
sandgot
somebur gersthenwenthome.It ookashowerf i
rst,
i
tsbeenal ongday andt hisismyf i
rstshoweras
afather .I'm soex ci
tedbutJrissosmal lit
worri
esme.Iat eandt henwentt obed, t
ookmy
phoneanddi dsomer esearchonpremat ur
ebabies.I
cal
meddownabi tsinceitsaidhe'
llgr
owandonce
hehasf ul
lydevelopedhewi l
lbeoutofthe
i
ncubator Iswitchedofmyphoneandsl ept

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeup, thesuni sshinningbright.Iwentt ot he
gymr oom anddi dsomewor koutst hent ooka
shower.Ihadbr eakfastthentextedOr a."I
'
llbet her
e
i
n3hour s,sti
l
lgoingt obuybabyst uff"shedi dn't
repl
ysoIguessedshe' sstil
lasl
eep.She' l
lreadt he
messageonceshe' sawake.Idr ovet oBabyci t
yand
boughtsomet oysandt henwentt obuysome
cl
othes,
Ichoseblackandabi tofbl
ueandwhit
e.I
hopehelovesbl
ack.Thel adyatt
hestor
eshowed
mesomecr eamst hataregoodforanewbornandI
boughtt
hem.Siyacalledme
Me:
hel
l
o
Si
ya:
Ithi
nkIj
ustsawy
ouatt
hemal
l
,wher
ear
eyou
now?
Me:
att
hechemi
st.ComeIneedhel
p
Sheendedthecal
landshewaswearingagym
cl
othesandshewasreal
lysexy
,Ngcobowokeup
har
dandr eady
Me:
andt
hen?
Si
ya:
from t
hegy
m atv
irgi
nact
ive
Me:
ohokay
,iwasget
ti
ngsomebabycl
othes
Shet
ookwhatIboughtandl
aughedatme
Siy
a:Phi
lat
hisi
stoobigforLesl
ey,y
ouhav
etobuy
newbornsi
zecl
othesnot6-7months
Me:
buthe'
ssev
enmont
hs
Si
ya:
hei
snotsev
enmont
hs Or
ati
l
ecar
ri
edhi
m
for7monthsnotthathe'
sbornalr
eadyseven
monthsold.Heisjustadayoldman.Comel et'
sgo
buyhim pr
opercolorf
ulcl
othesnotbl
ackclothes
Wewentt oababyshopandsheboughtsomany
cl
othesandti
nyli
tt
leshoes
Siya:l
etsgogetdi apers,
wipes,
bott
lesandbaby
milkjustincaseOr at
il
esaysshedoesn'
twantto
breastfeed.Wehav etobereadyandhaveever
ythi
ng
thebabywi llneed
Me:
anewbor
nwear
sdi
aper
s?
Si
ya:
youcan'
tbet
hatcl
uel
essPhi
l
a
Me:neverhadababybef
oreandneverexper
ienced
any
thi
ngwi t
hbabi
essoI'
mr eal
l
ycluel
ess
Siy
a:Or
ati
l
ehasal
otofwor
ktodo.Ial
readyf
eel
her
pain
Shecont
inuedt
easingmeandweboughtev
ery
thi
ng
weneedandmor e.Igotacal
lfr
om Nay
e
Nay
e:y
ouhav
etocomet
othehospi
tal
it'
sur
gent
Me:
what
'swr
ong!I
smybabyokay
?
Si
yal
ookedatmewi
thherey
eswi
deopen
Nay
e:j
ustcome.Andsheendedt
hecal
l
It
oldSi
yaandsheputev
ery
thi
ngi
nmyboot
Si
ya:
giv
emet
hekey
sI'
l
ldr
ive
Me:
andy
ourcar
?
Si
ya:
ItookacabwhenIcameher
e
Shetookt
hekey
sanddr
ov et
othehospi
tal
,Iswear
thi
swomanwantedt
oki
llus,
shedrov
ereal
lyfast
.
Wegoti
nar antoOr
a'sr
oom.Bee,
Nay
e,Zandyand
Mphowerealr
eadyt
here
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Mpho:
I'
mreal
l
ysor
ryman
noo!Noot
hiscan'
tbehappeni
ngt
omeagai
n
no!

#LBUBT
Whatdoy
out
hinkwi
l
lhappen?
??
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
Suggestpaget
ofr
iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends.
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enda:
Inser
t43
#PHI
LA
Ican'
taffor
dtolooseanotherbaby,myli
fewould
j
ustend.Im caughtupinmyt hought
sthatIdon't
evenaskwhat '
sgoingon.Mphosay ssomethingbut
Icanthearhim
Mpho:
her
e'sagl
assofwat
er,
thebabyi
sokayPhi
l
a
Me:
what
?Mybabyi
sokay
?Al
i
veandbr
eat
hing?
Si
ya:
Yes
Me:thenwhatwast
heemer
gency
?What
's
happeni
ng?
Nay
e:i
t'
sOr
ati
l
e,shesnother
e
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Zandy
:sher
anaway
,shel
eftanot
efory
ou.
Me:
wher
e'st
henot
e?OkayI
'
mreal
l
yconf
used
Si
ya:
she'
sgonePhi
l
a,shel
eftt
hebabyandr
an
away
.Readt
henot
emay
bey
ou'
l
lknowwhy
It
ookt
henot
eandr
eadi
toutl
oud
"Phi
lasande,Ican'tdot hi
s.Ican'tbeamot heratt hi
s
ageandespeci al
lyt oapremat urechild.Ihear d
ther
ecoul dchancesofhi m beingdi sabledorsl ow
butIjustcan'
tev enifhewasnotpr emat ureI
would'vemadet hesamedeci sionIhav emade, don'
t
l
ookf orme.Idon' twanttobef ound.Iknowy ou'l
l
takegoofcareofy ourson.You'llbeagr eatf ather,
I'
m goingtostartanewl i
feanddowhatI '
vealway s
wantedt odo.I'
mr eallysorr
yandt akecar e l ove
Orati
le.
Me: mxm Ial
waysknewt hi
sgi
rli
scr
azy,
butInev
er
expect
edthisnonsense.Whoonear
thl
eavest
hei
r
chil
d!
Si
ya:
I'
m sor
ryPhi
l
a
Me:noit
'sokay
,honest
lyI
'
m notev
enhurtabouti
t.
Where'
smyson?Iwannabewi t
hhimr
ightnow
Naye:
wemanagedt
ogethi
m hi
sownr
oom andhe'
s
wit
hhisnur
sewhoi
swi
thhi
m 24/7
Me:
takemet
her
e
Iwasr eallyupsetbyOrati
le'
sstupidit
y,howcould
shedot his.Mysonwi l
lgrowupwi thoutknowinghi
s
mot her.Or at
il
eissel
fi
sh,allshecaresaboutis
herself
.I '
mj ustgl
adsheleftmybabybehi nd,she
knowsI 'dki l
lheri
fshetookmybaby
Wegottohisroom andhewassl
eepi
ngpeacef
ull
y
i
nhi
sincubator.
Me:
howi
she?
Nurse:
hisokayandhi
sbr
eat
hingi
sget
ti
ngnor
mal
.
I
'l
ll
eaveyoualonewit
hhi
m
ShewentoutandIst
ayedwi
thmyson.
Me: son,
iknowmay beyoucan'thearmeory ou
won'tbeabletorespond.Butjustknowt hatIlov
e
youandI'l
lalwayssupportyou.Imi ghtnotknow
anythi
ngaboutraisi
ngababy, Idon'tevenknow
howt ochangeanappybutIknowI '
llbethebest
fat
herandmot hertoyou.Justpr omisemey ou'l
lbe
agoodboyandwe' l
ldothistogether.
#SI
YA
Seei
ngPhi l
ali
kethi
shur t
sme,Istoodbyt hedoor
andli
stenedtohi
m ashet al
kedtoLesley,whydoes
healwayshavesomanychal l
engesinlif
e.Iwalked
i
nandhel ookedatme, hehadtearsonhisface.I
bentdownnexttohim andwipedthetearsoff
Me:
ever
ythi
ngwi
l
lbeokay
,Ipr
omi
se
Phi
la:how?Nothi
ngwil
lbeokaySi
yamt
handaIknow
not
hingaboutbaby'
s
Me: I
'
llt
eachy ou.Justli
stentobeandbel i
evet
hat
every
thi
ngwi llbeokay.I
'vebroughtyousomefood,
andIfetchedclothesforyou.Ifi
guredyou'
dwanna
stayher
et oday.
Phi
l
a:y
esI
'
llbest
ayi
ngher
eforawhi
l
e.Thanky
ou
Me: noneedt
ot hankme.Ihav
et ogoIhaven'tev
en
showeredyet
,thenI'
ll
bemeetingthegi
rl
slaterand
thenI'
ll
comebackher e
Phi
l
a:youdon'
tneedtoSi
ya,
Idon'
twantal
lthi
sto
beaburdeni
nyourl
if
e
Me:
you'
l
lnev
erbeabur
dent
ome,
plusi
wantt
o
come.Nowby
eIneedashower
Phi
l
a:y
oust
inki
ngal
ready
Me:
shutup
Ilaughedandl ef
t,Itookacabbackhomeandt hen
tookal ongshower .Ithenl
oti
onedmybodyand
wor eawhi t
elongsummerdr essandf l
ipfl
ops,
combedmyshor thai randt
hent ookmycarkey s
anddr ovetoNay e'
shousewher ewe' l
lbechil
l
ingthe
entir
eday .Igott
her eandIwast helastonetoarri
ve
Zandy
:Mr
sal
way
slat
e
Me:I'
m notev
enl
ate,
youguy
sjustdeci
dedt
oshow
upearl
y
Ntokozo:t
hat
'sbei
ngl
ate,
you'
real
way
sthel
astone
t
oar r
ive
Kamo:
leav
eSi
yaal
onemanandgetmesomef
ood
Sneh:
usi
l
eyaz wear
eal
lfast
ingt
oday
Bel
i
nda:
youar
ecr
azy
Weor
deredfoodandtooksomewi
net
henwat
ched
amov
iecall
edIfOnl
y
Kamo:
Ihear
dwhathappenedwi
thOr
ati
l
e
Bee:y
eahheyi
m sur
ePhi
l
aisgoi
ngt
hrought
he
worst
Me:y
eahheisv
eryst
ressed,
thi
ngshav
ebeenr
eal
l
y
t
oughonhi
m
Sneh:i
fonl
yyouhadseenhowhewaswheny
ou
wereki
dnapped
Hewascrushed,
hetr
iedt
obestrongbutyouwould
j
ustseet
hatdeepdownheisbr
eakingi
ntopieces
Zee:
sowhatar
eyougoi
ngt
odonow?
Me:i'
l
lhel
phimrai
set hebaby
,Idon'
tknowhowwe
goi
ngtodoitbutI
'
llhelp.
Zandy:that
ssosweetofyou.Orati
lei
sreal
l
ycrazy.
Noof f
ensenhebutifIwasherIwould'
vest
ayedli
ke
havi
ngachi l
dwithahotbul
kybill
i
onair
ewho
wouldn'
twantthat
Wealll
aughedsohar
d i
real
l
ywasn'
texpect
ing
t
hatatal
l
Bee:
Iguessshedi
dn'
twantal
lthat
!
Bel
i
nda:
she'
sst
upi
dthat
'
swhy
Ntokozo:
she'
sroy
alt
ysoIguessshedoesntneedal
l
t
hat
Zandy
:roy
alt
ymyf
ootapha
Weconti
nuedtal
ki
ngandNayeaskedmeaquest
ion
whi
chreal
lygotmethi
nki
ng
Nay e:howar ey ougoingtohelphimraisethebaby
?
Willyougoov erduri
ngt heday?Causey ouguys
aren'ttoget
herany mor eandyoustayabi tf
arfr
om
oneanot hersohowi sitgoi
ngt owork?
Me:Ihavenoanswert
othat,Ireal
l
ydon'tknowhow
wegoingtodothi
sbutI'
m surewe'l
lfi
gure
somethi
ngout
Ntokozo:youdoknowt hatababywil
lneedy
ourful
l
at
tenti
on?Whoi sgoingtohelpPhi
laduri
ngt
henight
whent hebabydeci
dest oj
ustwakeupandcry?
Me: y
ouguysarestressi
ngmeout .I
'
venev erhada
babybefor
etoo,itwil
lbehar
dwor kbutIthinkwe'
ll
workthi
ngsout.Isti
ll
havetotal
ktohim aboutall
thi
s
Bel
i
nda:
goodl
uck
Me:
thanksI
'
llneedi
t.
Sneh:whatIdoknowist
hathewi
llnev
ersayy
est
o
youtaki
nghisbabyt
omov ei
nwit
hy ou
Nay
e:y
eahnowt
hat
'
simpossi
ble
Me:yeshe'dnev
eragr
eet
othatpl
usIwon'
tev
en
suggesti
t
Zee:
andwor
k?
Me: guysreal
lyIdonthav
eapl an.Westi
llhave
2mont
hstodecideandworkthi
sout ,
let
'sj
ustenj
oy
thi
swi
neplease
Ireall
ydidn'tthinkhelpingPhi lawit
hLesl ywillbeso
hardtoplan.Idon' tknowhowwegoi ngt odot his
butIknowi twillhappen.Philasandeneedsmeand
I'
llbethePhilasande.Wewat chedothermov i
esand
at5pm i l
eftt hegirl
s.Ipassedatar estaurantand
gotfoodf orPhi l
a,ialsoboughtmor ebabymi lk
sincewe'llneedi talot.Idrov etothehospi t
aland
thenwentt oBabyLesl ey'sroom.Phi l
awassl eeping
peacefull
yont hebedwi t
hthei ncubatornearhi sbed.
Icoveredhi
m wi
ththeblanketandaskedthenurse
tohelpmefeedLesley
,it
'sdif
fi
cultsi
ncehisbei
ng
fedwithmachi
nes,sheshowedmehowt odoi tand
l
eft.Phil
awokeupwhileIwasf eedi
ngLesl
ey.
Phi
l
a:whendi
dyougether
e?
Me:
may
be15mi
nsago
Phi
l
a:whydi
dn'
tyouwakeme?
Me: youweresl
eepi
ngpeacefull
ysoIdi
dn'
twantto
dist
urbyou.AndIcanseeyou'r
esti
ll
ver
ysleepyso
youcangobackt osl
eep.
Phi
l
a:ar
eyousur
e?
Me:
yesPhi
l
a,Lesl
eyandi
arej
ustf
ine.
HesleptagainandIsatnexttohi
m onthechai
rand
readamagazi ne.Af
ewhour spastandPhi
l
awoke
up,i
twasar ound9pm
Phi
l
a:di
dIsl
eepf
orl
ong?
Me:
yeahabout4hour
s.You'
rehungr
y?
Phi
l
a:y
es
Iwar
meduphi
sfoodandgav
ehi
m
Phi
l
a:t
hanky
ou.Ar
en'
tyougoi
ngy
oueat
?
Me:noI'
l
leatwhenIgethome.I
tsget
ti
ngl
atenowI
shoul
dgo
Phi
l
a:l
etmedr
ivef
ory
ou,
it'
slat
enow
Me:nono, y
oustayherewit
hLesl
eyandI'
ll
dri
ve
myselfhome.I
'
vealreadyf
edhim agai
nsoyouhav
e
not
hingtoworr
yabout
Phi
la:
thankyousomuchSi
ya,
Ireal
l
yappr
eci
atey
ou
doi
ngalloft
hisf
orme.
Me:
itsokay
,it
oldy
ouI
'l
lbeher
eforyou.I
'
llbegoi
ng
t
oworktomorr
owandaf
terwor
kI'
llcomeby
Phil
a:coul
dy oupl
easepassbymyof fi
ceandask
Kaytogiveyouall
myf i
les.I
'
llcal
lhi
m andtel
lhi
m
you'
llpi
ckitupandtel
lhimtocalli
nastaffmeet
ing
at2pm
Me:
youdoknowy
ouhav
eyouhav
etoat
tendt
hat
?
Phi
l
a:y
eahbutI
'
llj
ustmakeav
ideocal
l
Me:
Icanat
tendt
hemeet
ingony
ourbehal
f
Phi
l
a:ar
eyousur
e?
Me:
yeahjuste-
mai
lmewhatIhav
etosayandt
hen
i
twi
llbedone.
Phi
l
a:t
hanky
ou,
trav
elssaf
ely
Me:
bye
Iwavedcl osedthedoor.Idr
ovehomeandtookof
myshoest henwenttomyki t
chenandmademy self
achickenandmay osandwichwit
hapri
cotj
uice.
Aft
ereatingIwentstrai
ghttobed,Ihav
enotimef or
ashowert onightI
'mreall
yti
red .
#NEXTMORNI
NG
Afteragoodcomf ysl
eepIwokeupandtooka
shower.Ilot
ionedmybodyt henworemygreysui
t
withgreyheels.Iputonawigweaveandblack
l
ipsti
ck,tookmycarkey sanddrov
etoZandy'spl
ace
andshewasal readywai
ti
ngformeoutsi
de
Zandy
:sy
abangenat
oday
Me:
Yaas!Butwhat
'
swi
tht
heshades?
Zandy
:Dur
banweat
her
Me:
you'
recr
azy
Sheputonsomemusi candwesangal
lthewayt
o
work.Igott
her
eandNangosmowasalreadyt
her
e
weari
ngablacksui
tandshades
Me:
shades?
Ngamso:
Dur
banweat
her
Me:
yout
oo?Di
dyouandZandypl
ant
his?
Zandy
:noi
tcomesnat
ural
l
y
Me:ohdearGod,Ihavet
woZandi
l
e'st
odealwi
th
now wher eisBeli
ndawheny
ouneedher
!
Ngamso:wehav
enomeet
ingst
odayandal
otof
paperwor
ktodo
Zandy
:letmeleav
eyou,Ihav
ethousandsof
meeti
ngs.Don'
tworr
yaboutmeafterwork,
im goi
ng
onadate
Me:
wit
h?
Zandy
:anony
mous
Shel
aughedandcl
osedt
hedoor
Me:
andwher
edi
dyoudi
sappeart
otheot
herday
?
Ngamso:
me?
Me:nothewal
l
s ofcausei
mtal
ki
ngt
oyou
Nangamso
Ngamso:
Iwenthome
Me:
wit
h?
Ngamso:
Jabul
ani
Me:
mmmh
Ngamso:
what
?
Me:
not
hing
Shejustl
ookedatmebl ankl
yandbroughtal
lthe
paperworkandapackofr edbull
,il
ookedather
wit
haconf usedlook.Idoloveredbull
butIwouldn'
t
fi
nishapackinjustonemor ning
Ngamso:
Ial
sohav
eanobsessi
onwi
thRedbul
Shet
ookofhersungl
assesandshehadabl
ueey
e
Me:
whathappened?
Ngamso:wewerebeatenupj
ustaf
ewdaysago
i
ncaseyou'
vef
orgot
ten.Pl
usbei
ngt
hisy
ell
ow
doesnthel
ponebit
,itwasswol
l
eny
est
erdayandI
wokeupl i
ket
his
Me:
Dur
banweat
herhuh?
Ngamso:
what
ever
Wel aughedandgottowork,t
her
ewassomany
paperwor kandsigni
ngt
odo af terafewhoursi
t
wasl unchti
meandIgotanemailfrom Phi
l
athen
aft
eraf ewmi nut
eshecal
led
Phi
l
a:gott
heemai
l
?
Me:
yesIdi
d.Ev
ery
thi
ngokayt
her
e?
Phil
a:y
eahev
ery
thi
ngi
sgood.Lesl
eyi
sdoi
ngj
ust
fi
ne
Me:
greatt
henI
'
llseey
oul
ater
NangamsoandIhadl
uncht
hencont
inuedwor
king.
Me:
okaypackupandl
et'
sgo
Ngamso:
wher
eto?
Me:
we'
regoi
ngt
oPhi
l
a'scompany
.
Wepackedupanddr
ovet
oPhi
l
a'swor
kpl
ace.Kay
wasal
readywai
ti
ngf
orusatt
her
ecept
ion
Kay
:Af
ter
noonl
adi
es,
fol
l
owmet
otheboar
droom
Wef oll
owedhim andt
hereweresomanypeople.I
didn'
tknowsomanypeopl eworkedf
orPhi
la,I
wasn'tready .Igotv
erynerv
ouswithal
lthese
facesstari
ngatme
Me:
Ineedwat
er
Ngamsopassedi
ttomeandIgul
pedt
heent
ir
e
bot
tl
e.
Me: Goodaf t
ernoonladiesandgent leman, I'
m sure
you'r
eal lwonderi
ngwhat '
sgoi ngonher eandwho
am I.Nexttomei smyPA, MsNangamsoKhuboni
andI'm MsSi yamthandaShezi .I'
m afriendofMr
Ngcobowhohasaskedmet ocomer epresenthim
atthismeet i
ngashei scur r
ent l
yunavailabl
e.Hehas
askedmet omakesur eev erythi
ngisinor der,
Idon't
knowmuchaboutanar chitectcompanybutI '
m sure
everythi
ngwi l
lbeinorderint hehandsofMrK.Pi ll
ay
whowi l
lbetheactingCEOf orthenext3mont hsof
MrNgcobo' sabsence.Roundofappl ausef orMr
Pil
lay
Ev
eryonecl
appedhandsandcheer
edasIwas
dr
inki
ngmorewater
.
Me:thankyou.Theper sonwhowi l
l betaki
ngMr
Pi
ll
ayspositi
onf ornowi sMsM Vilakaziand
st
andinginMsVi l
akazi
'sposit
ionwill
beMsF
Gumede.MrNgcoboi scurrentl
yona3mont hsleav
e.
Heisgoingthroughmanyf amil
ymat t
ersthatneed
hi
sfullat
tent
ion.I'
m gladtoannouncet hatMr
Ngcoboisnowaf athertoLesl
eyJnrNgcobo
Ev
ery
onecl
appedandcheer
ed
Me: Weareal lv
er yhappyf orhim andIwouldlike
thatyouallkeept hiscompanyati tsbestsohe
won'thavetowor r yaboutwor kandenjoyhisfirst
ti
meofbei ngaf at her
.Ifthereareanyemer gencies
thatneedhim personal l
yy oushouldcontacthisPA
anditwil
lbesor ted.Anyquest ions?
Noonehadanyquest
ions
Me:okay,
thankyouallf
orcomingandpl
easedo
enj
oyyourday,Meet
ingadj
ourned
Ever
yonest
oodupandleftt
heboar
droom,
isat
downandtookadeepbreat
h!
Kay
:youwer
egr
eat
,I'
m sur
eMrNwi
l
lbev
erypr
oud
ofy
ou
Ngamso:Iwi
shhewasher
etoseey
ou.
Youwer
e
r
eall
ygood
Kay
:hedi
d
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Kay
:youdi
dn'
tknow?OhIhav
esuchabi
gmout h.
Heaskedmetomakeavi
deoandsendi
ttohi
m.
Me: Phil
asandethough well l
et'
sgetgoing
NangamsoI 'l
ldr
opy ouof
fandgot othehospital
.
Wegoty omycarandIfir
stdroppedoffKaythen
Ngamso.IpassedatMcDonal d'
sandgotsomef ood
takeawaysforusthenwenttothehospit
al.Igotto
Phila'
sroom andhewasbusywi thhi
slaptop
Me:
Iseey
ou'
veset
tl
edi
nher
e
Phil
a:t
heydi
dn'
twantmetobr
ingthehospi
tal
tomy
housesoIbr
oughtmyhouset
othehospit
al
Me:
isee ,
ibr
oughtsomet
akeaway
s
Phi
l
a:I
'
llbegai
ningal
otofwei
ghti
nher
e
Me:
you'
l
lbeokay di
dyouf
eedLesl
ey?
Phi
l
a:aboutt
wohour
sago
Me:
arey
oucr
azy
!I'
m sur
ethebabyi
shungr
ynow.
Phi
l
a:sor
ryIdi
dn'
tthi
nkhe'
dbehungr
yal
ready
If
edLesl
eyandt
henat
emyf
ood
Phi
l
a:Si
ya
Me:
yes?
Phil
a:Il
oveyouandthankyouforev
ery
thi
ngyou'
ve
beendoingforme.
I'
vehurtyousomanyti
mesbut
yousti
ll
staybymysideallt
hetime
Me:y
esIknowy ou'v
ehurtmeandi '
l
lgety
ouf
or
t
hat buthonestlyI'
dnevert
urnmybackonyou,
I
l
oveyouandI
'
llalwaysbetherefory
ou.
Phi
l
a:y
oul
oveme?
Me:yesIdol
oveyouver
ymuchbutt
hatdoesn'
t
meanyoushoul
dgetanyideas.
Phi
la:
Iwasn'
tgett
inganyideas butI'
l
lbehav
e.
Youdidv
erywell
today,y
ouwer eapr
o
Me:
thanky
ou
Wesatandt
alkedf
orawhi
l
e
Me:
Ihav
etogonow
Hest
oodupandwal
kedmet
omycarl
eav
ingLesl
ey
wi
thhi
snur
se
Phi
l
a:goodby
e,I
'
llseey
out
omor
rowr
ight
?
Me:
yep
Hecamecloserandtr
iedt
oki
ssmebutIj
ust
huggedhi
minstead
Me:
Itol
dyout
obehav
e
Phi
l
a:I
'
m sor
rybutIj
ustcan'
thel
pmy
sel
f.
Me:
byebabakaLesl
ey
Iki
ssedhi
scheekandgoti
ntomycaranddr
oveof
f

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easel
i
kesuppor
tandcomment
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ionafr
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32]Tat
enda:
Inser
t44
Thepastt womont hshav ebeengr eat,PhilaandI
areokayandy eswear est il
l fr
iends.I'vegot t enso
attachedt obabyLesl ey hei sjustthecut estbaby
I'
veev erseen.Sot odayi t'
sSat urdayMor ningandhe
i
sf inallyleav ingt hehospi tal andgoi nghomewi t
h
Phila.It oldPhi l
at ohi reanannybuthesai dhe' ll
thi
nkaboutsi ncehedoesn' twantast rangert aki
ng
careofhi schi l
d.Knowi nghowPhi lais, I
'
m sur ehe
won' tev engetanannyt i
llLesleyi s10mont hsor
evenay earol dbutI 'l
lcont inuet ryi
ngmyl uckIhope
he'lll
istent ome.I 'vebeent eachi nghi m howt o
changedi aper s,feedandbur pingLesl eyandhowt o
holdhi m andbat hehi m.We' vebeenpr acticingwi th
adol lsi nceIdi dn'tfullytrusthi m sot odaywe' ll
fi
nal l
yseei fmyhar dwor khaspai dof f.Iwokeup
thi
smor ningandcookedhi m al ovelyhomemeal ,
I'
m sur ehei st iredofhospi talfoodandt he
takeaway sI 'v
ebeenf eedi nghi m.SoIpackedt he
foodi nal unchboxandt henwentt ot akeashower .
AfteranhourIwasdoneandr eadyt ogo, Iwas
wear ingat ightof fshoul derdeni m dr essand
sandles.Idi
dn'tcombmyhai randIputbl acklipsti
ck
onwi thsungl
asses Iwasl ookingandf eel
ing
good.Newsf l
ash! Amont hagoBel indagav ebi r
th
toababygi rl hernamei sLut handoBi ancaMt oti
.
AndKamogav ebi rthlastweek, it
sal soagi r
l
Thembel i
heDineoNxel e.Theyar ev erycute
babies I
'm drov etothehospi talandgott her e
i
nj ust15mins.Iwentt oLesl ey'
sr oom andi twas
cleanandpacked.Nay ewast herefeedinghi m, I
mustsayhehasgr ownsomuchandt hemor ehe
growst hemorehel ookslikePhi l
asande.
Me:
babyLesl
eyi
sgoi
nghomet
oday
!!
Naye:
whydoy
ouhav
etoscr
eam,
hewasj
ustf
all
i
ng
asl
eep
Me:ohsor
ryIsawhi
shi
sfeetmov
ingsoIf
igur
edhe
wasawake
Nay
e:y
ou'
rei
mpossi
ble
Me:
wher
e'sPhi
l
a?
Nay
e:t
her
ecept
ion
Me:
ohl
etmegoputt
hesei
nhi
scar
,passmet
he
bagnextt
oyou
ShepassedthebagandIwentt
oputt
hebagsinhis
carandthenwentbacki
nsi
deandhewasal
ready
ther
elooki
nggood
Nay
e:i
hav
etogobackt
owor
knowguy
sgoodby
e
Shegav
emethebabyandIj
ustf
eltsoconnect
edt
o
hi
m,hesmi
l
edalit
tl
eandIki
ssedhischeek
Phi
l
a:by
eNay
eandt
hanky
ouf
orev
ery
thi
ng
Nay
e:t
hat
'swhatf
ami
l
yisf
or,
Goodl
uckhey
Wesai dourgoodbyesandwentt othecar .Il
eftmy
caratthehospit
alandadr i
verwi
llpickitupand
bri
ngittoPhil
a'shouse.Phi
laopenedt hefront
passengersdoorforus
Me:Ican'
tsitatt
hefrontwi
ththebabyPhil
a,pl
ease
openthebackdoor.HeopenedthedoorandIgotin
andbuckl
edup
Phil
a:babeIwasthinki
ngweshoul
dpassatBaby
ci
tyandbuyt hi
ngsforJnrl
i
keababysi
tt
er,
cotand
babymonitorsyst
em etc
Wi
l
lheev
erst
opcal
l
ingmebabe
Me:
yeaht
hat
'sagoodi
dea
Hedr
ovet
obabyci
tyandwedi
dsomeshoppi
ng
Phi
l
a:i
sitt
ooear
lyt
obuyhi
m awal
ker
?
Me:y
eahit
stooear
ly.Let
'
sgogetsomet
oys.We
t
ooktoy
s,morebot
tl
es,dummi
esetc.
Me:
let
'sgogethi
m mor
ecl
othes
Weboughtsummercl othes,
shor
ts,
t-shi
rtsand
ot
herwarm cl
othes.Ichosesomanyclothesforhi
m

Phi
l
a:okayIt
hinkt
hat
'senoughI
'
mti
rednow
Me:okayjustaf
terIt
akethese.Ut
ookababysl
eep
posi
ti
onerandbabycarr
ier
Phi
l
a:whatar
ethosef
or?
Me:
I'
ll
showy
ouathome.
Hepaidforevery
thi
ngandcarr
ieditt
othecart
hen
pl
acediti
nt heboot
.Hedrovehomeandwhenwe
gott
here,Lesl
eywasasleepal
ready.
Me:
taket
hebabyposi
ti
onerandf
oll
owme
Il
eadhi mt ooneoftheroomsont hef i
rstf
loor,
I
wasn'treadytowalkonthosestairsespeci
all
ywi t
ha
baby.AndIwant edLesl
eyt obeclosetowher ewe'd
herehimi fhewakesup.Philaopenedthebaby
posit
ionerandIshowedhi m howtoplaceitonthe
bedtheni putLesl
eytosleep
Me:
shoul
dipr
epar
elunch?
Phi
l
a:y
espl
ease
Me:
Ipackedsomef
oodf
ory
ou,
letmewar
mitup
Phi
l
a:Ihopei
tsnotr
est
aur
antf
ood
Me:
noi
tsnot
,putt
hebabycott
oget
her
Heputittoget
herthenwenttoplacei
tupst
airs.I
gavehim hi
sfoodandhewashedhi shandthendug
i
n.Aft
erhewasf i
nishedIwashedthedi
sheswhi l
ehe
packedLesley
'scl
othes
Me:It
hinkyoushoul
dsleepwit
hhi
mf orthef
ir
st
2mont
hst henputhi
minhisbedabi
tlater
Phi
l
a:y
out
hinkso?Whati
fIsquashhi
m?
Me:
youhav
etobecar
eful
Phi
l
a:Iwi
l
l
Lesl
eycr
iedandIr
ant
other
oom andt
ookhi
m
Me:
ssssshI
'
m her
enow,
noneedt
ocr
y
Phi
l
a:hehasn'
tev
ensl
eptf
or45mi
ns
Me:
war
m uphi
sbot
tl
eandcomewi
thhi
sdi
aperbag
Hewentoutandt
hencameback
Me:nowtakehi
m andchangehi
sdi
aperj
ustl
i
keI
t
aughtyou
HetookLesl
eyandplacedhi
m ont
hebedt
hen
changedhi
sdiaper
Me:
see t
hatwaseasy
Phi
la:
yesitwasn'
tthatbad .BongaandNkosi
sai
dtheyareontheirwaywhi
chmeansthey
'l
lbe
her
einafewmi nutes
Me:
iwonderwhyy
ouguy
schoset
ohav
ehouseson
t
hesamestr
eet
Phi
l
a:sowecanbecl
osert
oeachot
her
Theycamei
nsi
dewi
thoutev
enknocki
ng
Nkosi
:hel
l
o!!
!
Me:
we'
recomi
ng
Bonga:
youbet
tercomewi
thmysont
her
e
thei
rfr
iendshi
pisv eryclose,theyaref
ather
'st
o
allt
hebabiesandi t
sav er ycutething Iadmire
thei
rfri
endship,
it
smor et hanaf ri
endshi
p,i
ts
Brother
hood .Iwal kedint heloungewit
hLesley
andNkosi tookhimfirst
Nkosi
:phot
ocopyofPhi
l
a
Bonga:
theyr
eal
l
ylookal
i
ke
TheysatdownandIwentt odi shupf ort
hem, I
'm
gladIpackedlotsoffood.NowIj usthav
et ocook
supperforPhil
asohe' l
leattonightandnotwor r
y
aboutcookingororderi
ngf ood.Iservedthem and
theyate
Bonga:
you'
reagoodcookSi
ya
Nkosi
:cansayt
hatagai
n
Me:
thanky
ou Il
ear
ntf
rom t
hebest
Wesatandwat chedsocceranditwasreall
ybor
ing.
Lesleywasfall
ingasleepsoItookhi
m andwewent
tobedt oget
herandwet ookanap.Af t
erafewhours
LesleywokeupsoIhadt owakeupt oo,i
twas
around7pm.If edhim whil
ePhil
apreparedabat
h
forhim andIbathedhim.
Me:
wef
orgott
obuybabypowder
Phi
l
a:we'
l
lbuyi
ttomor
row
Idr
essedhi
m upandgav
ehi
mtoPhi
l
a
Me:
Ibet
tergetgoi
ngnow,
I'
ll
seey
out
omor
row.
Phi
la:thanky
ouSiyamthanda iknowI'
vesaidt
his
manyt i
mesbutIj
ustcan'tt
hankyouenough,
you
ar
er eall
yabl
essi
ngfrom God
Me:
thanky
ou
Iki
ssedLesl
eyandhuggedhi sfat
hert
henleft
.Igot
toi
nmycart hendrovehome.Tookashower ,
wore
myshortni
ghtdresst
hentuckedinbed.Cat
chedup
onmysocialmediathenIcal
ledNceba
Me:
Mat
ri
cul
ant
Nceba:
real
l
y?You'
reser
iousl
ygoi
ngt
ocal
lmeby
t
hatname
Me:whatyou'
rei
nmatr
ic,youshoul
dbeexci
ted
aboutmecall
i
ngyout
hat.You'
re18man
Nceba:y
esI'
m 18andI
'
vegr
own,
toool
dfor
ni
cknames
Me:
what
everbi
tch,
Iwasj
ustchecki
ngupony
ou
Nceba:
how'
sbabyLesl
eyandPhi
l
a
Me:
theyar
eokay
,Lesl
eyi
sasweet
hear
t
Nceba:
that
'sgr
eatt
hen,
goodni
ghtI
'
m sl
eepy
Wesaidourgoodby esandIputmyphonenextt o
meandsl ept
.Afterwhatseemedlikeafewhour s
havepassed,myphonewasr ingi
ngnonst op.Ihad
5missedcall
sfrom Phi
laanditwas12:45am.He
cal
l
edagai nandIanswered
Me:
mmmh
Phi
l
a:I
'
vet
ri
edev
ery
thi
ng,
hewon'
tst
opcr
ying.
Me:
didy
ouchangehi
sdi
aper
?
Phi
l
a:Iev
enbat
hedhi
m agai
n.Idon'
tknowwhatt
o
do.Pl
easehel
pme
Me: mmmhokayI '
m comi ng.Iwasverysleepybut
Lesl
eySeni orandJuniorneedme.Ididn'teven
change,Itookafewcl ot
hesandt hr
ewt hem inmy
carbootandt ookmybagsandkey sthendr ov
eto
Phil
a'shouse.Iknockedandheopened
Me:
wher
eishe?
Phi
l
a:myr
oom
Wetookali
feandwenttothemai
nbedroom.Lesley
waslay
ingt
herebar
elydr
essedcr
yinghi
slungsout
Me:
whyi
shenotdr
essed?
Phil
a:It
houghthewasfeeli
nghot,I
'vef
edhi
m
al
readyandheisful
lcauseheevenpukedali
tt
le.I
j
ustdon'tknowwhattodoSiyamthanda
IlayedonthebedandputLesl
eyonmychestand
rubbedhisback,
hekeptqui
eti
mmediat
elyand
suckedhisfi
ngers
Phi
l
a:howdi
dyoudot
hat
?
Me:
idon'
tknow,butwhatIdoknowisweyouneed
t
oputabl
anketoverusandstopst
ari
ngatmy
t
highs
Helaughed,
putabl
anketov
erusandj
oinedusi
n
bed
Phi
l
a:Idi
dn'
tknowt
aki
ngcar
eofababyi
sthi
shar
d.
Me:i
t'
sjusty
ourf
ir
stdayPhi
l
a,y
ou'
l
lgetusedt
oit
ast
imegoesby.
Phi
la:
Ican'
tdot
hisonmyown,whenJnrgr
owsup
andasksmeabouthi
smot
herwhatwil
lIev
ensayt
o
hi
m.
Me: we'l
ldealwitht
hatwhentheti
mecomes.Phi l
a
I
'dlovetost ayupandchatbutI
'
mr eal
l
ysleepynow
goodnight.Iplay
edLesl
eybetweenusandwesl ept

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeupandi twasa11am al r
eady howl ongdid
Isleep!?Il
ookedar ound,i
m def
inat
elynoti
nmy
room ooohi sleptatPhil
a'
snowIr emember .I
wentt obrushmyt eeththenwentdownstai
rsusing
alift
.Phil
awasl ayingonablanketonthefl
oor
playi
ngwi t
hLesley
Me:morni
ng Isatont
hefloorandki
ssedmy
baby
'sf
orehead.Yesyouhear
dme Lesl eyi
smy
baby
.
Phi
l
a:Imadey
oubr
eakf
ast
,it
sint
heov
en
Istoodupandwenttohav ebreakfastthentooka
shower.Iwr
appedat owelovermybodyt henwent
togetsomeclot
hesint hecar.Howst upidofme I
for
gottopackunderwear.Iwentbackupst ai
rsand
l
otionedmybodythenwor eal ongblackdressthen
headedbackdownstair
s.Ijoi
nedPhi l
aandLesley
Me:
giv
ememybaby comet
omommyJnr
Phi
l
a:Mommy ?Yourbaby? hehadthebiggest
smi
leonhi
sface,Icoul
dseehewasv
eryhappy
Me:y
esLesl
eyi
smysonasmuchashei syourson.
Hemaynotbemysonbi
ologi
cal
l
ybutIl
ovehimlike
myown
Phi
l
a:youdon'
tknowhowmuchthosewor
dsar
e
maki
ngmesohappySiyamt
handa
Me:
I'
m happyt
oo
Phi
l
a:Idon'
tknowwhatI
'
dbewi
thouty
ou
Me:I'
l
l bemovi
nginforawhil
ejustunt
ilLesl
eyhas
adj
ustedtothi
shouseandyouareusedt ohavi
ng
hi
m around
Phi
l
a:Si
yamt
handaar
eyousur
e?
Me: yesI'mv erysure.Lesleyneedsme, youneedme
andIl ovebeingwi thyouguy s.Lesl
eyneedsa
mot herfigur
eandI '
m will
ingtoplaythatrole.I
thoughtabouti tlastnightandI'
llbetakingcar eof
him andassist i
ngy ou.I'
vealwayswant edt obea
mot her,Godisgi vi
ngmet hi
schancesoI 'm goingt
o
takeit.Iwast al
kingsomuchIdi dn'tevenr eal
ize
thatPhilawascr y i
ng
Me:
what
'swr
ongnow?
Phil
a:Idon'tknowwhattosaySi
ya,
ift
her
esanyway
Icoul
dt hanky ouIwoul
d,t
ell
mehowshouldIt
hank
youforallofthis
Me:youjusthavetobeagoodfat
hert
ooursonand
i
'
llbehappy.From nowonwar
dsI'
l
lbeaful
lti
me
mother
Phi
l
a:nowhatabouty
ourj
ob?
Me: Bel
i
ndaandNangamsogott hi
splusI
'v
ealready
sentmyr esi
gnat
ionl
ett
er.I
'
llwor
kagainwhen
Lesl
eycangot opreschool
Phi
la:noSi
yamthandayoudon'thavetodoall
thi
s,
youcan'
tputyourl
if
easidebecauseofme.Idon'
t
wantustobeaburdentoy ou.I
'
llgetanannyf
orJnr
Me: I
'
m notchangi
ngmymi ndPhil
asandeandmy
sonisnotaburdentome, Iwil
lnotall
owmysont o
beraisedbysomestrangerwheni canbetheref
ull
y
forhi
m.Youneedt ogobackt owor knextweek
Phi
l
a:I
'
llgobacknextmont
h
Me:thecompanyneedsyou,y
ou'
vebeengonef
or
toolongPhil
l
a.Andyouneedtowor
ksoyoucan
supportus
Phil
a:Iguessyou'vemadeupy ourmind.Thankyou
foraccepti
ngmysonandt r
eat
inghimlikeyourown.
Iknowwewoul dbecarr
yingourtwi
nsr i
ghtnowbut
l
ifehappenedandherewear enow.You'rereal
ly
heavenlysentAbongi
le
Ismi
l
edandwel
aughedt
oget
her
Me:
letmecal
lSneht
ogopackmycl
othesf
orme
Idi
aledSneh'
snumber
,cal
l
edandsheanswer
ed
aft
erafewrings
Sneh:
babes
Me:Ineedyoutogotomyhouseandpackal
lofmy
cl
othesandshoes,
ever
ythi
ngy
outhi
nki'
ll
need
Sneh:
why
?Andwher
ewi
l
lIt
aket
hem
Me:Phi
l
awil
lcomehel
pyou,
I'
m mov
ingi
nwi
thhi
m
andmybaby
Sneh:
yourbaby
?
Me:
YesLesl
ey
Sneh:
I'
m sohappyforyoumommydear
est
okayI
'l
lgother
eri
ghtnow
Me:
thanky
ou
Iendedthecallt
henPhil
afedJnrandIchangedhi
s
diaper
.Ilay
edhim onmeandwel ayedonthecouch,
wewat chedtel
evi
sion
Phi
l
a: At
hiandiaregoi
ngt
ohel
pSneh.Wi
l
lbeback
i
naf ewhoursbabe
Me:
okaycool
bye
Heleftandclosedt hedoor.Iwat
chedamov i
etil
lI
fel
lasleeI
.Afterafewhour sofsl
eepLesleLesley
cri
edandIhadt owakeup.Imadehi sbottl
ethen
fedhim.Whi l
stIwasf eedi
nghim Phi
la,
Snehand
Athicamei nwithmysui t
cases
Sneh:
heymommy
Me:
hey t
hanky
ouv
erymuchsweet
ie
Athi
:youshoul
dthankuscauseshedidn'
tevendo
anyt
hing sheonlypackedyourunderwear
Phi
l
atookLesl
eyandsatdownwi
thhi
m
Me:
I'
ll
gof
etchhi
sdi
aperbag
It
ooki
tthengav
ePhi
l
atochangehi
snappy
At
hi:
mymanbechangi
ngnappi
es.You'
regr
owi
ng
man
Phi
l
a:Ihav
easonnowIhav
etobeal
lgr
own
Sneh:
nomor
elat
eni
ghtpar
tyi
ng
Me:
yeah
At
hi:
Ineedsomeal
cohol
,wher
e'sy
ourwhi
skey
?
Me:
youwon'
tdr
inki
tinf
rontonmyson
At
hi:
hewon'
tev
enknowwhati
tis
Me:
samedi
ff
erence
Phi
la:l
et'
sgot
othest
udyr
oom andhav
eaf
ew
gl
asses
HegavemeLesl
eyandSnehcamewi
thsome
snacks
Sneh:
whendi
dyoudeci
deal
lthi
s?
Me:
lastni
ght
Sneh:
andy
ou'
rehappywi
thy
ourdeci
si
on
Me:y
esIam
Sneh:
you'
reheav
enl
ysent andwor
k?
Me:Ir
esignedfornow,I
'
lll
ookf
orworkagainmaybe
whenLesleyi
soldenoughtoat
tendpr
e-school
Sneh:
that
'sgood.YouandPhi
l
a?
Me:
whataboutus?
Sneh:youknowwhatImean.Ar
eyouguy
sback
toget
her?
Me:
Noandwewon'
tbeget
ti
ngbackt
oget
her
Sneh:
Keept
ell
i
ngy
our
sel
fthatl
i
esweet
ie
Me:I'm her
eforLesl
ey,
heneedsamot herandPhi
la
needshelpraisi
nghi
sson.NotthatIwantt
oget
backtogetherwit
hhim,yesIst
il
ll
ovehimverymuch
butfornowwe' r
eokaywithj
ustbei
ngfri
ends.
Sneh:Iheary
ou,
butIknowy
ouguy
swi
l
lgetback
toget
hersoon
Me:
youar
esost
ubbor
n
Sneh:
that
'swhyy
oul
oveme
Me:
Idi
dn'
tsayIl
ovey
ou.
Sneh:
youdi
dn'
thav
eto
Wecont i
nuedtalki
ng, Phi
l
aandAt hicamebackand
weallsatthenhadsuppert ogether .Around6pm
t
heyleftandIwentt obatheLesl eyandhequi ckl
y
f
ell
asleep.Itookashowerj ustafterIputhimtobed
t
henwor emybl acktightnightdress
Phi
l
a:Tempt
ati
ons,
lor
dhel
pme.
Me: sor
ry,
Icanal
way
sjustsl
eepi
noneoft
he
spar
erooms
Phil
a:noyou'
l
lsleepher
ebutIj
ustneedacol
d
shower,t
hisi
stortur
e
Il
aughedathi
m andsai
dsorr
y.Hewentf
orhi
s
showerwhi
leIputmyphonenextt
omethensl
ept

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#Phi
l
a
It
sbeenaweeksi nceSi
yamovedinwithmeandmy
sonnowai t.
..I
tsourson Nev erdi
dIimaginethat
Siyamthandawoulddosuchat hi
ng.I
'
mv eryhappy
andi r
eall
yappreciat
eit
.WhenshesaidthatLesl
ey
i
shersonandshewant storai
sehim,i
twast he
bestnewsI 'v
eev err ecei vedev erinmyl i
fe.She
amazesmeev ery dayandmostgi rlswoul dhav e
neveraccept edorev enof fertoraisemysonwi th
me, whenIsaySi y aisheav enlysent ,Ireallymeani t.
She'soneofaki ndandt hat '
swhyIpl ant onev er
everhur theragai n.Il ov ehersomuchandIknow
shel ovesmet oo, we' renotbackt oget hery etbutI
knowonedaywewi llbe.Idon' twantt opushher
andev ent alktoherabouti tcauseIj ustdon' twant
toupsetherorev enr ui
nwhatwehav egoi ngon.I
wasn' thappyaboutherdeci sionofnotgoi ngt o
workbecauseofLesl ey, Idon' twanthert owakeup
onedayandr egrett his, Idon' twanthert oal way s
regrethowsheputherl ifeonhol dbecauseofour
son.Thel ov eshehasf orLesl eyispur e
uncondi tional l
ov e, icanj ustseei tr ightinherey es
whenev erLesl eysmi l
esorl aughs, thejoyi nSi ya'
s
eyesi spr iceless.Iwentbackt owor ky est erday,I
wasqui tehesi tantabouti tbutsheassur edme
everythingi sokay ,iinst alledt hebabymoni terapp
onmyphoneandIj ustst areatt hem somet i
mes.So
yesterdayt hegi r
lsgamet omyof ficebesi desSi ya,
theyhav ebeenpl anni ngasur pri
sebabywel comi ng
ceremonyf orLesl eyandtocelebr
ateSiy
abeinga
newmom.I tsallhappeni
ngtodayandmyj obist
o
getSiyaandLesl eyoutofthehouseforafewhours
whiletheypr epareanddecoratethehouse.I
tsa
goodideaandIj ustalsowanttoshowherhow
muchIappr eciatewhatsheisdoingformeand
Lesley.I'
m onmyhomenowandI 'v
edecidedtot
ake
SiyaandLesl youtt othemallsowecanwast eti
me
there,
Idon' tknowhowI '
l
lgethertowearawhite
dressbuti '
l
l tr
y.IgothomeandSi yahadjust
shower ed,perfectti
ming
Me:
heybabe
Si
ya:
Babakhe,
aren'
tyousupposedt
obeatwor
k?
Me:
Itookt
hedayof
f.We'
regoi
ngt
othemal
l
Si
ya:
ohgr
eat
Shet
ookoutagr
eydr
essandIcl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Si
ya:
what
?Shest
aredatmebl
ankl
y
Me: not
hingIwasjustwonder
ingwhathappenedto
yourmaxi whi
tedr
ess,youdon'tweari
tanymore
Si
ya:
theonewi
thst
raps?
Me:yeah,
itsui
tsyouver
ywellandi
tski
ndahot
out
sidesogreyai
n'tt
hecol
ourfort
oday
Si
ya:si
ncewhendoy
oucommentont
hecl
othesI
wear
?
Me:si
ncet
odaysweeti
e.SeeJnri
sal
sowear
ing
whi
teandI
'
llal
sochange,wecanmat
ch.
Si
ya:
okayI
'
mreal
l
yconf
usedher
ebutokay
Yes!
!!Thatwaseasi
erthanIthoughti
twoul
d
be It
ext
edNtokozotel
li
ngherIgotSi
yato
wearthewhit
edress
Siy
a:don'
tyouthi
nkit
stoosoonf
orJnrt
obegoi
ng
tothemall
?Hisonlyl
i
keaweekand2daysol
d
Me:Idi
dmyresear
chandi
tsokay
,pl
usi
fit
stoo
noi
seywe'
l
lcomebackhome
ShenoddedandpackedabagforLesl
eythenwe
drovet
othemall
.Wegotther
eanddi dsome
shoppi
ng.Af
tert
hatIputmypl
aninaction
Me:babedon'tyouthi
nkyourhai
risamess?Li
ke
youlookbeauti
ful
andall
butIthi
nkyouneeda
hai
rdo
Si
ya:
myhai
raswel
lnow?Real
l
yPhi
l
asande
Me:
itwasj
ustasuggest
ionbabe
Si
ya:
iti
sreal
l
ybadt
hough
Me:
seewhatImean
Shegav
emeadeat
hst
are
Me:
oops,
comel
et'
sgot
othesal
on
Wegottot
hesal
onandIcoul
dseeshewashesi
tant
abouti
t
Me:
what
'swr
ong?
Si
ya:
Idon'
tthi
nkasal
oni
sgoodf
orLesl
ey
Me:ohnodon'tworr
y,wewon' tbegett
ingin.You
j
ustrel
axandenjoyyoursel
f,aftert
hisIthi
nky ou
shoul
dgotoaSpaandgetamassageand
manicur
espl
uspedicuresallthesegirl
ystuff
.Ijust
wantyoutor
elaxbabe
Si
ya:
arey
ousur
e?Wi
l
lyouguy
sbeokay
?
Me:
we'
l
lbeokaybabedon'
twor
ry
Sheki
ssedLesl
eyandt
hent
ookherhandbag
Me:
whydon'
tIgetaki
ss?
Shekissedmeonmycheekandwal kedaway.At
l
eastitsbet
terthennot
hing iwenttomycar ,
putLesleyi
nthebabycarseatbuckl
edhisseatbelt
thendrovebackhome.Thegirl
swerethereal
ready.
Igr
eet
edev
ery
oneandEmi
hlecamer
unni
ngt
ome.
Emi
:Uncl
ePhi
l
a,i
sthi
smynewbabybr
other
?
Me:
yesi
tis,
hisnamei
sLesl
eyJnr
Emi:
Iwillcal
lhi
m Juni
or Iam sohappyIhav
etwo
newsist
ersandabrother
!
Me:
yesy
oudo
Emihl
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one.ButIt
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denoughnow,
don'
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nksounclePhil
a
Me:It
hinky
ou'
rest
il
ltooyoungtobaby
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own,f
ornowyouwil
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greatj
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Nay
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ouMrNgcobo
Ntoko:
canIseemyl i
tt
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ey
andIhelpedar
ound.Bonga,
Nkosi
,At
hiandLubah
came
At
hi:
daddyno.
3
Bonga:
ial
sot
hinkIshoul
dbeaf
athernow
Nkosi
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ogetagi
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iendf
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stdude
Bonga:
speakf
ory
our
sel
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Lubah:
whatar
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ngt
otel
lus
Athi
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fri
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kei
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Weal
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aughed
Bonga:
you'
l
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l
lhappenand
you'
l
lbesi
ngleasf
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:Icanputmymoneyont
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yougotmoneyt
owast
e
Nkosi:
idon'
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etobuydi
aper
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Bee:
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gent
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rs.Si
yacal
led
Me:
Masi
gananda
Si
ya:
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m donenowcomef
etchme
Me:
andt
heSpa?
Si
ya:
thanksf
ort
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ferbutImi
ssmyson
Me:
okayf
ineI
'
m comi
ng
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landt
ookLesl
ey
Bel
i
nda:
whyar
eyout
aki
nghi
m wi
th?
Me:
soSi
yawon'
tknowy
ouguy
sar
eher
e
TheynoddedandIstrappedJnri
nhisseatand
drovet
ot hemal
l.Si
yawasal r
eadywai
tingforusat
thepar
kingcent
er.
Si
ya:
I'
vemi
ssedy
oumybaby
Me:
Imi
ssedy
out
ool
ove
Si
ya:
nonoty
ouman!
Me:
Iknowy
oumi
ssedme,
I'
mir
resi
sti
ble
Si
ya:
goodj
okeduder
eal
l
yfunny
Me:
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hathur
ts
Shel
aughedandIf
ocusedont
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ya
Phil
ahasbeenact ingr eal
lystr
anget odayandhi s
comment saboutmyl ookswer eannoy i
ngme am
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ti
me, i
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eandIappr eciatethat
Phil
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funisathomewi thhim andmyson .I'
m atthe
parki
ngcenternowwai ti
ngforhim, heshoul dbe
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ntomeacci dental
lyandspi ll
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Chi
l
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I'
m sor
rymam
Me:
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oushoul
dst
opr
unni
ng
Chi
l
d:y
esmommyt
oldmebutIj
ustcan'
tst
op
Me:seewhyyouhavet
ost
opnow?You'
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ntopeopl
e
Phil
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mademe
i
magi nehowJnrwi l
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der .I
gotintothecarandPhil
a'
seyeswidened
Me:
whatnow?
Phi
l
a:whathappenedt
oyourdr
ess?
Me:ohali
tt
leboybumpedintomeandhehadi
ce
cr
eam sot
hisacci
denthappened.
Phi
l
a:uhm l
et'
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ouanewdr
ess
Me:
no,
Icanj
ustwasht
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l
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ebot
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Me:
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his
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if
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Phi
l
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oul
ovei
t
Me:
yesbuti
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sexpensi
vebabe
Phil
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akethedr
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ulflowyfor
mal
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apsonthebackanditwasaat
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dfor
them.Iwenttothefit
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oit
andIwasst unni
ng ,i
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l
ylookedgoodonme
Phil
a:youl
ookbeaut
if
ul andIdi
dn'tgeta
chancetocompl
imentyourhair real
lylooksgood
Me:
thanky
ouv
erymuchMaphol
oba
Phi
la:
Mapholoba wowwe' reget
ti
ng
somewher
e,YoujustneededtosayMaphol
oba
Wam woul d'
vebeengr eat
Me:
don'
tpushi
t
Phi
l
a:t
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bewecangobackt
obabe
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aughed,Icar
ri
edLesl
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wewentt ot hecaranddrovehomewhi l
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pl
ayingwi t
hJnr.Wegothomeandheopenedt he
doorforus,Itookof fmyshoesandworemy
sl
ippersthenchangedJnr '
snappy
Phil
a:don'
tyouwanttochi
l
latthegar
den?It
sver
y
hotinhereandIj
ustneedt
obreathef
reshai
r
Me:
what
every
ousay l
etmegochangef
ir
st
Phi
l
a:no!Youcan'
tchange
Me:
why
?
Phi
l
a:y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul
Ismil
edandhet
ookJnrt
henwewal
kedt
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gar
den
SURPISE!
!!
! t
heyal
lsai
d,al
lmyf r
iendsand
fami
lywerethere Iwassosurpr
isedandhappy
butv
eryconfused
Me:
(laughs)what
'
sgoi
ngonher
e?Idon'
tthi
nki
ts
mybi
rt
hdayt
oday
Mom: noi
tsnotmybaby
,butt
odayi
sfory
ouand
Lesl
ey
Nay
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her
hoodandwel
comet
othe
wor
ldLesley
Me:wowthanksguys Idon'tev
enknowwhatt
o
say
!It
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l
a
Me:
youknewaboutt
his?
Phi
l
a:may
be
Me:
thi
sexplai
nswhyy
ou'
vebeenonmycaseabout
t
hewhi
tedress!
Phil
a:yesbabe wej
ustwant
edt
odosomet
hing
speci
alforyou
Ihuggedhi
m andwebot
hsmi
led.Lesleywas
alr
eadywit
hmymom andPhi
l
a'smot her.Iwentov
er
tothegi
rl
s
Me:
mybeaut
if
ull
ovi
ngf
ri
ends
Zandy
:it
'sourpl
easur
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Me:
Ihav
en'
tev
ensai
dthanky
ou
Sneh:
that
'swhaty
ouwer
egoi
ngt
osayv
ele
Bel
inda:
whatifshehat
est
hei
deaandshewant
ed
tobit
eourheadsoff
?
Nt
oko:
I'
dki
l
lher
Kamo: hahallt
hisf
ornot
hinguwehshe'
dend
upl
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ngi
tbyforce
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st othat t
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al
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f,KamoandBel
inda
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.It
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l
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ti
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Me:Thankyouever
yoneforcoming,
I'
m notreal
ly
goodatst
andingi
nfrontofpeopl
eandtal
king,Iget
shysometi
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ngtobeshort
.I'
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sdaypossible,
I
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real
lydoappr eciatei
tandI '
dl i
ketosaythankyouto
Phil
afortrustingmewi thhisson .I '
dli
ketothank
myson withoutyout hisdaywouldn'
tevenbe
happening,i
nj ustafewweeks, you'
vemademe
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dn'
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l
ov eyouallandt hanky ouverymuch
Iwentbackt
omyseatandi
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l
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urn
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a: Idon' tknowwher et ostart
,Siyamt handa, t
he
wayLesl eywasconcei v
edwasawayt hattoreus
apar t,Imadeahugemi stakebutmysonwasn' ta
mi stake, Idon' tregrethavingmysonbutIdor egret
cheat ingony ou.WhenIhear dIwasgoi ngtobea
father ,Iwassohappybuti wi
shedi twasunder
differentci rcumst ances.We' vebeent hroughal ot,
wel ostourt wins,youwer ekidnappedwi ththe
biologi calmot herofourson, thecauseoft hedeat h
ofourbabi es.Manywomenwoul dn'
thav esurv i
ved
alloft hatbuty oudid.WhenOr at
ilel
eft,IknewIhad
tobet hef at herandmot hertoLesleyy etIknew
not hingaboutbabi es,Iwasdet erminedt odoi t
alonebuti twast hemostscar ythoughtIhad, I
thoughtofhowmysonwi llgrowwi t
houtamot her ,
whatwi l
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raisehi m al one.Ihadsomanydoubt 'sandf ear s,
yousawr ightt hroughme.Wheny oucamet ot he
hospi tal,tookcar eofJnrandmy self,IknewGod
senty oui nmyl i
fef orar eason, mostwomenwoul d
wantnot hi ngt odowi thmeormysonbuty ou
stay ed, yout aughtmehowt ohol dhi m, changehi s
diaper set c.Theot herni ghtLesl eycr iedsomuchI
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woul dn' tst op.Ihesi t
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connect ion. Itoldy ouIcan' tdoi t,buty oujustsmi l
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calledLesl eyy ourson, thatwast hebestdayofmy
l
ife, yout ol dmey ou'remov ingi n, l
eav ingy ourj obt o
raisemyson, i coul dn'tbel i
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me, whenuf ir
st
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fat
her,Ihav easonsomeonewhol ooksupt ome
andwi l
lcarrymysur name.Yourbi ological mother
l
eftyoubuti m glad,causey ougotamot herthat
l
ovesy ouuncondi ti
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would'
vegotf rom Or atil
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lgrow
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lnev erev erfeelthe
absenceofamot her,Iknowy ou'
reingoodhands
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knowy ou'rewellfedandhappy ,yourl aughmel t
smy
heart
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ll
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Me:
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l
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Ndyamthanda.Il
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outoo
Me:
wel
ovey
oudaddy
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i
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l
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la:
let
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yeahy
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la:don'
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evermeher
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wher
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Phi
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andputmeont heki
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tit
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uck!
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m andhi
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act
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Me:
youokay
?
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l
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oyi
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m hi
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Phi
l
awher
eismyunder
wear
?
Phi
l
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,don'
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tssaf
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Me:Iwon'
tevenaskyoutobr
ingi
tbackcauseI
knowtheansweral
ready
Phi
l
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ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMaphol
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astandweat
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l
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sat
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l
a:l
et'
sgooutt
oni
ght
Me:
wher
eto?
Phi
la:
Idon'
tknowbutl
et'
sjustgoout
.Justt
het
wo
ofus
Me:
Lesl
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Phi
l
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sit
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soy
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l
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Me:
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won'tusethem anyti
mesoon.Ibat hedLesleyand
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Me:
andt
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Phi
la:i
t'
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l
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thatI
'm copyi
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Me:
you'
resuchadonkey
Phi
l
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l
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Wegott
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oppedJnrt
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hecar
Me:
wher
ear
ewegoi
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Phi
l
a:Somewher
e.What
sthet
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Me:9am
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l
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l
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LA
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ly
pissed
Si
ya:
whatt
hehel
l
!
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Siya:Il
oveyout
oobuty
ou'
readonkey ar
ewe
thereyet?
Me:
we'
l
lbet
her
ein3mi
nut
es
Wegotther
eandwewerei
ntr
oducedt
oaf
aci
l
itat
or
who'
snamei sPhi
ndi
Si
ya:
thi
spl
acei
sbeaut
if
ulbabe
Me:Iknewyou'
dlov
eitj
usty
ouwai
tandseewhat
we'
regoingt
ogetupto
Phindi
tookustothear
eaIwasreal
lyl
ooki
ng
for
wardtobutIknowshe'
l
lki
ll
mef ort
his
Phindi
:todaywe'
regoi
ngt
obemountai
ncl
i
mbi
ng,
thi
sisoneofourfamousact
ivi
ti
es
Si
ya:
woahwoahwoah!I
'
m notdoi
ngt
hat
!
Me:
babecomeonpl
ease,
itsgoi
ngt
obef
ine
Me:
I'
m notdoi
ngi
t,y
ouknowI
'
m af
rai
dofhei
ght
s
Phi
ndi
:i
tsnott
hatbadmam,
giv
eitat
ry
Si
ya:canyouseehowt al
lthi
smount
aini
s,
Phi
lasandeIam notdoi
ngthat!
Me:
Justt
rustme.I
'
llbewi
thy
oual
ltheway
Shel
ookedatmeandnodded
Phi
ndi:
Gr eat thisi
syourrout
egui
deandI
'
llsee
youatthetopofthemountai
n.
Shegav
euspamphl
etsandsafet
yequipment
.We
st
art
edwal
ki
ngandSiyawasveryqui
et
Me:
what
'swr
ong?
Si
ya:
I'
mtr
yingt
oconcent
rat
eandy
ou'
redi
stur
bing
Me:
Youdoknowt
hatIl
ovey
ou
Si
ya:
yeahIdoandIl
ovey
out
oo
Phi
la:
nolikeIr
eal
l
ymeanit
,I'
vebeenaj
erk,
been
ver
ystupi
dandIhurty
oual
otSiya.
Si
ya:
yesbutt
hat
'st
hepast
,we'
reov
ert
hatnow.
Me:
howwer
eyouabl
etof
orgi
veme?
Siy
a: It
houghtaboutnotforgi
vi
ngyoumostti
mes
butIendedupf orgiv
ingf
ormysake,soIcoul
dheal
anditworked.Iforgavey
oubecauseIlov
eyouandI
couldn'
tpi
cturemyl if
ewit
houtyouNgcobo
Me:thankyou,
imreal
lygr
ateful
andIwon'
tmess
t
hischanceupbabeipromise
Si
ya:
didy
ouev
ent
hinkofme?
Me:
when?
Si
ya:
wheny
ouwer
echeat
ingonme?
Me: AtthatmomentIr
eal
lywasn'tt
hinkingofy
ou,
afteri
thappenedt
houghIdi
dthinkofy ouand
regret
tedit
Si
ya:
Buty
oust
il
lcont
inued?
Me:
Ilookeddownandr
esponded"
Yes"
Si
ya:
whati
fInev
erf
orgav
eyouPhi
l
a?
Me:Iwoul
d'
v eal
waysli
vedwi
tht
heregr
et.I
t'
ssti
ll
someti
mes,Iguessi
t'
smoreoff
eel
i
ngguilt
y.I
'm
r
eal
l
ysor
rySi
yamt
handa
Siy
a:Iknowy ou'
resor
rybabeandy ou'
vepr
ovedt
hat
youare.Justnev
erdoitagai
nplease.
Me:
Iwon'
t
Si
ya:
we'
redone!
Me:see?Thetal
ki
nghel
ped,
wedi
dn'
tev
ennot
ice
we'
reattheend
Phi
ndi
:wel
ldone y ou'
vereachedourbeaut
if
ul
mount
aint
op,l
ookatthesurr
oundings
Si
ya:
itsreall
ybeaut
if
ul Theai
rissof
resh i
ts
aper
fectplacetomedit
ate
Phi
ndi
:fol
l
owmepl
ease
Wewal kedtotheot
hersideofthemount ai
nand
that
'swherewe'l
lbetaki
ngpartinournext
acti
vit
y Zi pl
i
ning
Phi
ndi
:ournextacti
vi
tyi
sZi
pli
ning,
wil
lyoupl
ease
weary
oursafetybel
ts
Shehandedi
toverandanot
herguyhel
pedmeput
onal
lthesaf
etyequi
pment
Si
ya:youreal
l
ywanttoki
llme y
oumaygoahead
I
'm notdoi
ngthi
s,I
'
m sor
ry
Me: babeplease,
thi
swi
l
lhel
pyougetov
ermanyof
yourfears
Si
yacr
iedandIhel
dher
Me:
okayy
ouwon'
tdoi
t,i
tsokay
Si
ya:
I'
ll
doi
t,I
'
mjustscar
edt
hough
Me:
youdon'
thav
etowor
ry
Theguycamecl
osert
ohel
pSi
ya
Me:Phi
ndican'
tyouhelpherwearthi
s,Idon'
tfeel
comfor
tabl
ewithhi
mt ouchi
ngSiyainsuchparts,
he'
l
lenduptouchi
ngherass
Phi
ndi
:Nopr
obl
em Si
r
Si
ya: Phi
l
asande,
didy
ouhav
etosayt
hat
?
Me:Yes,
you'
remineandonlymi
ne.Noonecanj
ust
t
ouchyouanyhowespeci
all
ymal
es
Si
ya:
you'
resoj
eal
ous
Me:
itscal
l
edbei
ngpr
otect
iveMsShezi
Wezippli
nedf
rom t
hemountainal
lcrossthecamp
andt
ill
wegottoaspotnexttotheentr
ance
Si
ya:
ThatwasAMAZI
NG!
Me:
Iknewy
ou'
denj
oyi
t
Si
ya:
IthoughtI
'
dfal
lther
e!Buti
twassomuchf
un
Me:
wannadoi
tagai
n?
Si
ya:
ohhel
lno! i
twasf
unbutnot
hanky
ou
Me:okaybabel
et'
sgohomenow.Phi
ndi
,Thanky
ou
ver
ymuch i tsbeengr
eat
Si
ya:
Goodby
ePhi
ndi
,thanky
ou
Phi
ndi:Goodby
e,hav
easaf
ejour
ney
.Hopet
osee
youagain
Wegott
othecarandIdr
oveof
f
Me:
wannast
opbyandeat
?
Si
ya:
let
'sj
ustgett
akeaway
s,whatdoy
ouwannaeat
?
Me:
somet
hingsi
mpl
e,i
m nott
hathungr
y
Si
ya:
Idon'
trememberanyst or
esell
ingsomethi
ng
Si
mple .Let'
sjustgetBoxMaster
sf r
om KFCI'
ve
mi
ssedi
t
Me:
okaycool
Iwenttogetourfoodanddr
oveheadi
nghomewhil
e
Si
yainsi
stedonfeedingme .Weateal
ongt
he
wayandSiyacall
edSnehchecki
nguponJnr
Si
ya:Snehsay
sJnri
sokayandhei
sasl
eepr
ight
now
Me:
that
'sgood .Imi
ssmyboy
Si
ya:
wecanal
way
sgof
etchhi
m
Me:wewi ll
,j
ustal i
tt
lelater
.Wegothomeaf ter
2hoursanditwas3pm al ready,wegotintothe
houseandSi yadidtheunexpected Iwasso
happy,shefi
nall
ydidit!Shefinal
lyconqueredher
fear
.Sheranupt hestairsandonlyreal
izeditwhen
shewasatt hetopfloor,shecri
edandscr eamedso
l
oudly.Ij
ustlookedatherandsmi l
edthenwal kedt
o
her
Si
ya:
Phi
l
aI,
Iwal
ked.
..
Me:
youwal
kedupt
hest
air
smyl
ove,
youdi
d
i
t
Shehel
dmecl
osel
yandcr
ied
Me:
(l
aughs)st
opcr
yingnow,
youdi
dwel
l
Shel
aughedandki
ssedme
Me:
nowl
et'
sgof
reshenup,
west
il
lhav
eal
ott
odo
Si
ya:i
tbet
ternotbeany
thi
ngt
odowi
thhei
ght
s
Phi
la
Me:
noi
tsnotbabe
Wet ookashowerandthenshechangedi
ntoablack
maxi dr
esswit
hwhitefl
owersandIworeablack
vestwit
hwhiteshor
ts.
Me:
let
'sgot
otheci
nemar
oom
Si
yat ooksomepopcor
nandweorderedPi
zzathen
watchedAppleMort
gageCake,
aft
eran2hour
st he
mov i
ewasov er
.
Me:
babe,
youhav
etopr
epar
efort
oni
ght
sdi
nner
.
Si
ya:
Whatam Iev
engoi
ngt
owear
?
Me:Don'
tworr
y,j
ustr
elax
.I'
m goi
ngoutf
orawhi
l
e,
I
'l
lcomepicky
ouupat8pm.
Siy
a: Di
dyouhearmyquest
ion?ThatmeantIhav
e
not
hingtowear
Me:
bye,
ilov
eyout
oo
Il
efthert
her
estandi
ngpi
ssedof
f.KnowingSi
ya,
I
cancomebackandshe'
dsti
ll
bestandi
ngther
e

#SI
YA
Todayhasbeenaf r
ightening,challengi ngyet
amazi ngdaysof ar,
Idon' tknowwhatPhi l
ahas
plannedf ortoni ghtbutIdoknowI 'll
si ther
eunt ilhe
comesback!Ihav enothingt owearandhej ust
decidest olaughatme.I '
llshowhi m .Okay
hei sr eal
lytryingher esoIwon' tdisappoi nthi m.I
wentupst airs,usingt hest air
s y esIcanuset he
stairsnowt houghI '
mv er
ycar eful.Ilookedt hrough
mycl osetandt herewashonest l
ynot hingIcould
wear ,Idon'tknowwhat '
st heoccasi onbutI 'm
suspect i
ngwe' regoi ngoutf ordinnersoadr ess
mi ghtdo.Igotacal lfrom anunknownnumberandI
didn'tanswer .Itcall
edagai n3timesandIj ust
answer ed
Me:
hel
l
o
Call
er:
HeyI'
m Daven,we'
reaty
ourgat
e.Pl
ease
openforuswe'
resentbyMrNgcobo
Iendedthecallandopenedthegat
e,abl
ackmor den
beauti
fulbuscameinwellitl
ooksl
ikeaspr
int
er.I
openedthedoorandsomanypeopl ecameinwith
bags,casesandchair
s.
Guy1:
I'
m Davenandthi
sismycrew,
we'r
et aki
ng
car
eofyoutoday.Pl
easeshowusaroom wecan
use
Weusedal
if
ttothesecondf
loorandIwal
kedt
hem
t
oanemptyroom
Me:wecanuset
hisr
oom,
mayy
out
ell
mewhat
's
goi
ngonher
e?
Dav
en:
We'
regoi
ngt
ogety
our
eadyf
ort
oni
ght .
Wegoti nt
her oom andthent heysetupal lt
hei
r
equipment, i
tlookedl
ikeamakest udi
o Isatdown
ont hechairandIdidmyhai r.Itwasperfect I
l
ikedt hehair
styleIdi
d,Ifel
tlikeEmeliSande
sinceI'v
eseeni tonhermanyt i
mesbef ore.Some
gi
rldi
dmymakeup,
hernamewasSandy
.Il
ooked
beaut
if
ul
Daven:comethi
sside,youneedtopi ckadr ess.
Timeisnotonoursideits7:
15already .Daven
showedmesomanydr essesandt heywer eallso
beauti
fuli
twashardtodecide anot herguycame
withaRedSparkl
ingdressanditcaughtmyey e
Me:
Iwantt
hatone
Guy
:it
'st
heoneMrNgcobopi
ckedf
ory
ou
Me:
her
eal
l
yknowsme I
'
mtaki
ngt
hisone.
Thegi r
lshelpedmedr essupandIwasst unning!
thedresswast i
ghtonal lt
her ightpl
aces,open
back,i
thadasl itfr
om myt highandIwor esilver
stil
ett
os,sil
verneckpieceandcl ut
ch.Igotat ext
from Phil
a..
."isentadr i
vert opickyouup, l
ooking
forwardtotonight"Ismi l
edandwentdownst air
s.
Dav enandhi steam hadalr eadypackedupandt hey
wer eontheirwayout
Me: Thanky
ouv er
ymuchguy
s,Il
ookbeaut
if
ulal
l
becauseofyou
Daven:we'
regaldwecouldhel
p.Enjoyyour
ni
ght .It
hinkDaveni
sgay , theother
swaved
andthenwentout.Idr
anksomewat erandcal
l
ed
Sneh
Me:
how'
smysont
her
e?
Sneh:heisokay,
we'
rehav
ingourownf
unher
e.
Readyfortoni
ght
?
Me:yesI
'
mreadyev
ent
houghImi
ssmyson.Di
dhe
eat
?
Sneh:
yeshedi
d.Nowst
opwor
ryi
ngandenj
oy.By
e
Sheendedt
hecal
landIgotacal
lfr
om Phi
l
a
Phi
l
a:t
hedr
iveri
sbyt
hegat
ebabe
Andhedr oppedthecallbef
oreIcouldev en
answer Igotoutanditwasabl ack
Lamborghini .Thedr i
vercameandopenedt he
doorformeandIwenti n.Ipuredav i
rgincocktai
l
andthoughtofwheremydest inat
ionis.Iwonder
whatPhil
ai suptoknow.Butitsagreat
gest
ure wehav en'
twentoutfordinnerina
whil
e
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
kesuppor
tandcomment
SuggestPaget
ofr
iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
#Let
sgr
ow
[
1/11,
00:
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enda:
Inser
t47
#PHI
LA
WhenIl ef therathome, Isentmakeupar ti
stsand
dresserst othehousesoshecoul dprepar e.Ipi cked
outadr essf orherbutI '
m notsur eshe' l
llikei t,t
hat's
whyIt oldt hem t
omakeherchoosef i
rst.I'm atone
ofThabo' shot el
s, t
her e'
sabeaut i
fulgardenanda
fountai
nnextt oit,Ihiredaor chest r
aandadi nner
fortwoset ,t
hechefwasThaboof fcauseandt he
boyshel pedmesetupt hepl ace.I '
m herewai ti
ngf or
her,sheshoul dbeher ei naf ewmi nutesf rom now.
I'
m getti
ngcol dfeet ,
I'
m soner v ous.I'
mr eallynot
thetypet hatgetsner vousbutt odayI '
mf reakingout
andI '
mj ustpanicki ngal ot,j
ustasIwast hi nkingtoo
muchshecame, lookingst unni ng shewor et he
dress,i
tsuitherbet
terthanIhadi magined.Iwas
outofwor ds,st
ari
ngather,Iwasbl ownaway .She
wasper fect
,herhai
r,hereyes,herteet
chjust
everyt
hingaboutherwasper fect
Si
ya:
Phi
l
asandaI
'
mtal
ki
ngt
oyou
Iwassodeepl
yt akenawayt
hatIdi
dn'
tev
enhear
thatshewast
alking
Me:ohsorr
y,y
ou'
rej
ustl
ookamazi
ng,
gor
geousI
'
m
outofwor
ds
Si
ya:
Thanky
ou
Ipul
l
edoutthechai
rforherandshesatdownandI
wenttosi
tacr
ossher.
Si
ya:t
hisisbeaut
if
ul Il
ovet
hesetupandt
he
or
chestr
a
Theyplayedbeaut
if
uli
nstr
ument
almusicandIcoul
d
seeSi
yawashappy .Thewai
tercamewit
hthe
thest
arterandweate
Me:babe,doy
ouev
ert
hinkaboutt
ryi
ngt
ohav
ea
babyagai
n
Siy
a: Ihav
et houghtaboutitandIdowantt
ohav
e
anotherchil
d,Lesleymustntbelonel
y
Me: y
esbabeandI'm sur
eyoualsowantachil
dof
yourown,andyouwanttoexper
iencet
hingspeopl
e
gothroughwhentheyarepr
egnant
Si
ya:andgivingbi
rt
h Ij
ustwanttoexperi
ence
ev
erythingIcoul
dn'
texper
iencewithLesl
ey,
but
whent heti
mecomesi twi
llhappen.
Wewer edonewit
ht hestar
terandthewai
tert
ook
theplat
es.Wesatthereandconti
nuedtal
ki
ng,aft
er
halfanhourt
hewaitercamewi t
hthemaincourse
Si
ya:
myf
avor
it
e
I
twasSiya'
sfav
ori
temeal
whenwewer
eatschool
,
Bunny
chow
Me:rememberwhenwewer eal
lpuni
shedinclass
dur
ingbreakandy ouwer
esoangr
ybecausethey
wereget
tingfi
nished
Si
ya:r
ighti
nfr
ontofme!Ist
il
lhateMrSeizerf
ort
hat
!
Iwassohungr
y .Hewasr eal
lyunf
air
Me:
butweal
ldeser
vedi
t howIwi
shwecoul
dgo
backt
ohi
ghschool
.
Si
ya:
may
bet
hingswoul
d'
vehappeneddi
ff
erent
ly
Me:Ishoul
dn'
thavel
etyougo,t
hatwastheworst
mi
stakeofmylif
eandi'
l
l nev
ereverr
epeati
tagai
n.
Si
ya:
Yesbuty
ou'
rewi
thmenow
Me:butthefi
vey
ear
sthatwaswast
edSi
ya,
I
woul
d'vebeenwi
thy
ouallt
hatt
ime
Siy
a: may beitwasmeanttobethi sway,maybeif
west ayedt oget
heratt
hatt
imet hingswould'
ve
fal
lenapar t.Wecan'
tgobacktot hepastand
changet hingsbutwecanalwaysmakeabet t
er
fut
ure,don' tr
epeatt
hesamemi stakeswemade.
Me:
yesy
ou'
rer
ightbabe,
Siy
amt
handaIl
ovey
ou
Si
ya:
Ilov
eyout
ooPhi
l
asande
Thewai
tercameandt
ookt
heppl
ates
Me:
wannadance?
Si
ya:
woul
dlov
eto
Westoodupandtheypl
ayedKennyG_Songbir
d,we
st
art
eddanci
ngtoget
her
,Siyal
ayedherheadonmy
chest
Siy
a: Thisisbeaut
if
ul,
thanky
ouf
ort
oday Ir
eal
l
y
appreciateit
.
Me:it
sapleasur
ebabe,
Ijustwant
edy
out
oenj
oy
your
self
Si
ya:
andIdi
d,despi
tet
hef
actt
haty
out
ri
edt
oki
l
l
me
Me:Iwasn'
ttr
y i
ngtoki
l
lyou i
justwant
edy
out
o
getov
eryourfears
Si
ya:
what
every
oucal
li
t
Thesongendedandwewentbackt
oourseat
s,t
he
wai
tercamewithdeser
t

#SI
YA
Tonighthasbeennothi
ngbutper f
ect I '
m enjoying
everybitofi
tandmygreatesthighli
ghtsofaristhe
bunnychow i ttookmebackt ot hosedays,whatI
l
ov eaboutPhil
aisnomatterhowr ichheis,hesti
ll
neverforget
swherewestarted.Nooneknewwe' d
besit
ti
ngheretodayreminisci
ngaboutthegoodold
days,
webothnev erknewwe' dsti
ll
haveeachother
evennow.Sowe'resitt
inghavingdeser
tandmy
phonebeepsthenIignorei
t
Phi
l
a:answery
ourphone
Me:
may
bei
tsnot
hingi
mpor
tant
Myphonebeepedagai
nandIt
ooki
tout
.
ItwasaWhat sAppi magef r
om Mom.Iopenedt he
pict
ureandi twasapi ct
ureofPhilasandekneel
ing
downononekneewi thanengagementr ingboxin
hishandandacapt ionsay i
ng" Wi
llyoumar r
ymy
son".Ilookedcarefull
yandi tseemedl i
kethepi
cture
wast akentoday.Ilookedupf rom myphone
confusedandPhi lawaskneel ingononekneewi th
thesamebox, t
earsf ell
from myface
Phil
a:Iknowt hiswasast rangewaytodoi t
.Love?
Whatisthemeani ngoflove?Onecanaskhi mself
thi
squestionbutt hetruemeaningofl
ov eisastrong
feel
ingofaf f
ecti
onf orsomeoneanditisindeeda
wonderfulfeeli
ng.Yourmostsensati
onal t
rai
tis
yourcouraget oconfessthecompli
cit
ythatour
romanceemanat es, aimi ngt ot heachi evement sof
ourdr eams.I ti ssocomf ortingandwar mi ngtohav e
someonel i
key oufollowi ngst epbyst ephol dingone
anot herdaybydayandknowi ngt hatwhent hingsgo
astray ,Ihav esomeonet ol eanon.If eel veryhappy
forhav i
ngt hemostamazi nggi rl
fri
endt hatany
ordinar yguyl ikemecoul dhopef or.You' regor geous,
sensi bleandbr ave.You' real sost rongenought o
stri
vef orourhappi nessandf orourl ov e.IhopeIcan
compl imenty ourlifeaswel lsincemyonl ydesi r
eis
toseey ouhappyandsmi l
i
ng.Ri ghtfullyorwr ong,
Evebi ttheappl eandAdam f ollowed.That '
showwe
mov ef orwar di nthislife,accompl i
cesf orever.
TodayIt akethebi ggestst epofmyl ife,iwantt o
stopcal li
ngy oumygi rl
fri
endandsayy ou'remywi fe.
Iwantpeopl et oaddr essy ouasMr sNgcobo.I '
v e
heardmar ri
agesar ev eryhar dandI 'veseen
mar riagesf ail andf allapar t.ButIdon' twantt hat
withus, Ihopewe' l
lbeabl et obet oget her
throughoutal l thet r
ialsandt ribulationscomi ngour
way .Itwon' tbeeasy ,butIbel ievenot hingwi l
l ever
breakusapar t.MakaJnr ,wi llyoumar r
yme?
Iwasintear
s,Icouldn'
tev
enbeli
evewhatwas
happeni
nginfrontofme,i
sthi
sreal?
Me:
pinchme
Phi
l
a:what
?Hel
ookedsoconf
usedandIl
aughed
Me:iwantedy
outopinchmesoIcouldseei
fthi
s
i
sn'
tadream.Phi
lasande,
babakaJnr
,Iwoul
dlove
t
obeMr sNgcobo.YesIwill
marr
yyou
Hesmi l
edandtookmyhandt henputontheri
ng .
Itwasthemostbeauti
ful
ringI
'veev
erseen,i
twasa
sil
verdi
omondring.
Me:
(cr
ies)Phi
l
athi
sisgor
geous
Phi
l
a:j
ustl
i
key
oumywi
fe
Hest
oodupandweki
ssedf
orawhi
l
e.
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ouSi
yamt
handa
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oobabe.Letmecal
lmymom
Ical
l
edmymom andshescr
eamedandul
ulat
ed
Me:
Youhav
en'
tev
enhear
dmyanswerMom
Mom:
Iknowy
ousai
dyesmychi
l
d.Youwoul
dbe
st
upi
dify
ousai
dno,
thatmanl
ovesy
ou.
Me:
AndIl
ovehi
mtoo,
Idi
dsayy
es
Wetalkedf
orawhileandthenIendedt
hecall.Phi
l
a
wasrandomlyt
aki
ngpictur
esofmewhi l
eIwason
t
hephone.Ismil
edandwet ooksomepictur
es
t
ogetherwi
thmef l
ashi
ngmyr i
ng .
Phi
l
a:l
et'
sgohomemywi
fe
Me:
okayhusband
Wel
aughedandwal
kedt
ohi
scar
.
Me:
arewepi
cki
ngupJnr
?
Phil
a:nope,hewil
lspendtheni
ght
.We'
l
lpi
ckhi
m up
fi
rstt
hinginthemorning.
Icheckedt het i
meandi twasalmostmi dnight.We
gothomeandIt ookofmyshoes!Theywer eki l
l
ing
me It urnedar oundandPhilapickedmeupand
kissedme .Hepi nnedmeagai nstthewal land
separatedmyl egswi t
hhisknees,hepul l
edupmy
dressandt ookof fmyunderwearthent hr
ewi ton
thefloor.Heki ssedmewi t
hsomuchhungerand
aggr essivelywhi chmademewanthi m ev enmor e .
Hekeptr ubbi ngmycl itandIwassowet .Ikissedhi s
neckandhewal kedt ot heli
ftandwewentupst airs.
Her ippedofmydr essandhewasnudei nj ust
2seconds.Hi speni swassobi gIf eltli
kei twas
pointingatme andi tsaboutt otaremei n
pieces.Hel ayedont hebedandopenedmyl egs, he
kissedmybr eastsandwentdownt omynana he
kissedi tpassi onatelyandl i
ckedmycl it
er ous.WhatI
wasf eeli
ngwasbey ondexpl anat i
on, Iwasmoani ng,
screami ngouthi sname.Thet i
ngl esandshi versin
mybodywer edr i
vingmei nsane.If eltit
, itwas
buildingupandIcoul dn'tholdi tback, Iletgo I
reachedanor gasm andhecl eanedmeupwi thhi
s
tongue. Het heni nser tedhismanhoodi nmypunani
andi twasheav enly,hepenet ratedmeni ceand
slowl yhit
tingev eryr ightcor ner, hewasmaki nglov e
tome.Hewasgi vinghi mselfov ert omeandi twas
beaut if
ul,amazi ng.Thebestf eelingI '
veev erf el
t.
JustwhenIt houghti t'
spassi onat el ovemaki ngay
Philasandeshowedmef l
ames het urnedme
aroundandIwasonmyknees, hispacei ncr eased
andwitheverythrusthemadesur eifel
tit i
t
waspainandpl easure.HespankedmeandI
scr
eamedatt het opofmyv oi
ce.Aft
er4r
oundsof
makinglov
eandf uckingmesenselessl
y he
car
ri
edmet otheshowerandwebat hedeachother.
Hethencarri
edmet ot hebed,t
uckedmei nandI
l
ayedbetweenhi slegsandmyheadonhi schest.
Phi
l
a:Thanky
ou
Me:
for
?
Phil
a:Say
ingy
es.Iwassoner
vous,
Ithoughty
ou'
d
tur
nmedown
Me:
Iwoul
dn'
tdot
hatPhi
l
a
Phil
a:y
esbutIwasscar
ed.Ical
ledyourmom and
tol
dherev
eryt
hing,
shewasv er
yhappy
Me:Iwassur
pri
sedwhenIsawthati
magef
rom her
,
whendidy
ouarrangeal
lthi
s?
Phil
a:I'
vebeenpl anningitf
orawhi l
enow, Mpho
tookthepictureearl
ierontoday.Iknowhowmuch
yourmot hermeanst oy ouSiy
asoIt houghti
twoul
d
beagr eatideaifshewasapar tofi
t
Me:
thanky
ou i
twasi
ndeedagr
eati
dea .
Phi
l
a:Si
yamt
handa
Me:
Phi
l
asande
Phil
a:Iwillbeyourhusbandsoon, t
herewi
llbeaf ew
changes.Iwanty outorespectme,wheneverwe
haveapr oblem wesitdownandt al
kaboutit,never
rai
seyourv oiceatme.Iam themani nthi
shouse
andIstandmygr ound.Therewil
lbenowalking
awaynomat terhowharditgets.Wil
lyoubeabl eto
dothatforme?
Me:YesFuze,
Iwi
l
l.AndIpr
omi
set
obebyy
oursi
de
atal
lti
mes
Phil
a:t
hanky
ou.Nowhowaboutwehav
esome
fun
Me:
whatki
ndoff
un?
Hemadeaf
unnyf
aceandpoi
nteddownt
ohi
sdi
ck
Phi
l
a:yourealr
eadyatagr
eatposi
ti
onsoy
oumi
ght
aswel
ljustgodownabit
Hewasaski
ngmet
ogi
vehi
m abl
owj
ob!
Me:
Phi
l
aI'
venev
erdonet
hisbef
ore
Phi
l
a:t
her
e'saf
ir
stt
imef
orev
ery
thi
ngMashezi
Me:
whatIbi
tey
ou?HowdoIev
endot
his
Ikneel
eddownnextt
ohi
sdi
ckandi
twashuge
Phil
a:j
ustcl
oseyourey
esandi
magi
ney
our
sel
f
sucki
ngalol
li
pop
TosayIwasner vouswasanunder statement ,iwas
freaki
ngout !Ibreathedi nandoutt henl ickedt hetop
ofhispeni sandIcl osedmyey esandsuckedhi s
dick.Thewayhewasgr owl i
ng,i
tscar edme I
thoughtI'dbit
ehi m.Hehel dmyheadandpushed
medownandi twasr eachingformyt hroat !Igagged
andpi nchedhist hi
gh.Hel aughedandIcont inued
sucking.Afteraf ewmi nuteshecumedr ightinside
mymout h!Irant othebat hroom andpukedi nt he
sinkedthenbr ushedmyt eeth.Hecamei nl aughing
l
ikesomeonej ustcr ackedaj oke
Me:
it'
snotf
unny
Phi
l
a:Sor
rybutt
hewayy
our
anbabei
twasf
unny
Me:
I'
m nev
erdoi
ngagai
n
Phil
a:Nobabewhat
,okayI
'
m sor
ryIwon'
tl
augh
agai
n
Me:
isucked
Phil
a:y
ousuckedmer
eal
good wecandoi
t
agai
nyouknow
Hecamecl
oserandki
ssedmyneck
Me:
nothappeni
ngMrNgcobo
Wewentbackt
obedandcuddl
ed
Phi
la:Myuncl
eswil
lbecomingt
onextweek
Sat
urdayf
orLobol
onegoti
ati
ons
Me:
whysosoon?
Phi
l
a:t
hesooner
,thebet
ter
Me:
why
?
Phil
a:youasktoomanyquest
ions.Ij
ustwanttodo
ever
ythingsoonbabe,
Iwanty
out obemywi f
e
al
ready.
Me:okay
,thenI
'
llhav
etogohomeonThur
sdayor
Fr
iday
Phi
l
a:y
es
Me:
I'
ll
takeLesl
eywi
thme.
Phi
l
a:y
oudon'
thav
eto,
Icanst
aywi
thhi
m her
e.
Me:NopeI'l
lgowit
hhim andI'
m sur
emom wi
l
lbe
happyabouthi
m bei
ngthere.
Phi
l
a:okayi
fyoui
nsi
st.Let
'
ssl
eepnowI
'
m sl
eepy
Me:
met
oo,
goodni
ghtNgcobo
Phi
l
aki
ssedmyf
oreheadandsl
ept
Istaredatmyr ing,I'
mv eryluckytohav eamant hat
l
ov esmeandt rustsmet obehi swife.I'
vealways
i
magi nedmy selfgetti
ngmar r
iedtoPhi l
abutIdidn'
t
expectitt
ohappennow.Oht hebigquest i
onwi l
lbe
comi ngsoon I'
mjustnotr eady!Myuncl eswil
l
askmewhobr okemyv i
rginit
y!Li
ker eal
ly howdo
Itell
thattothoseol dmen." boMalumePhi lasande
brokemyv ir
ginity"Il
aughed andPhi l
awokeup
Me:
sor
ry,
Idi
dn'
tmeant
owakey
ouup
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
resupposedt
obesl
eepi
ng
Me:
IknowbutIwasj
ustt
hinki
ng
Phi
l
a:about
?
Me:Havingt
otel
lmyunclesyoubrokemy
vi
rgi
nit
y at16!Thatwi
ll
bejusttooawkwar
dfor
me
Phil
a:youcrazy i
ts3am andyou'
ret
hinki
ngof
that
.You'l
lj
usttel
lthem thenrunaway
Me:
youmakei
tsoundsoeasy
Het
urnedandsl
eptandIl
ookedatmyr
ingonce
mor
eandwonderedofft
olal
aland.

#LBUBT
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easel
i
kesuppor
tandcomment
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ofr
iendsandf
ri
endsoff
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ends
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ow
[
1/11,
00:
33]Tat
enda:
Inser
t48
It
st hefi
rstdayofbei ngengagedt
oPhil
asande
Ijustcan'
tbelieveit
,Iwil
lsoonbeMrsNgcobo
thisisveryexcit
ingtomebutanotherpar
tofmeis
scared,mar ri
agesar ehardwor k, butI'
m sur ewe' ll
workt hroughit.Iwonderi fmar r
iager eall
ychanges
aper son i fi
tdoes, IwonderhowI '
llbe.Phi l
asai d
thi
ngsmi ghtbet oughbutIhav et opr omiset ost ick
byhim al lt
hetime, nomat terwhatwegot hrough
andt hatswhatI '
m planningtodo.Mymot herwas
nevermar r
iedbutsheal way stell
s" kuyahlalwa
emendweni " wewoul dalway slaughathercause
sheknowsnot hingaboutmar ri
agebutshe' soldand
knowst hingsmor ethanIdosoI '
lltakeheradv ice.I
j
ustwokeupandt ookashowert henwentt omake
breakfast.Phil
acamedownst airs
Phi
l
a:Wi
fet
obe heki
ssedmycheekandat
e
Me:
Hubby sl
eptwel
l
?
Phi
l
a:l
i
keababy mayIhav
emor
eeggpl
ease
Idishedupmor
eeggforhi
m andheate,Iwentt
o
takemybagandcarkey
sfortheBent
ley
.
Me:
I'
m dr
ivi
ngt
oday
,I'
mint
heBent
leymood
Phi
l
a:f
inebyme
Wewentt
othecarandIputmyshadesonand
dr
ove
Phil
a:someone'
sinagoodmood andt
he
shades?
Me:Durbanweatherbabe,
youwon'
tunder
stand.
AndyesI'
m happy
Phi
la:
Zandyhastol
dmethatat
housandt
imes,
whatdoesi
tevenmean?
Me:
itsi
mpl
ymeansDur
banWeat
her
Phi
l
a:mmmh
Me:
stopr
eadi
ngmuchi
ntoi
tdude.
Phil
a:andtodayi
sthel
astt
imey
oucal
lmedude,
I'
m
notyourdude.
Me:
yessi
r
Ij
ustsmil
edathim andwegott
oSneh'
sand
ev
eryonewasthere
Phi
l
a:knewt
heywer
eher
e?
Me:
nope
Wegr
eet
edandt
hensatdown.
Mpho:
soMr
sNgcobo ,
howar
eyou?
At
hi:
ist
her
ockheav
y?I
tmustbeheav
y
Bee:
What
!!
!Aaaah Si
yamt
handay
ouhav
ea
ri
ng!
Me:
wher
eismyson?
Zandy
:Don'
tyoudar
e
IrantoSneh'
sroom andtheycamer ushi
ngi
n
screami
ngatthetopoftheirv
oices
Zee:
Hepr
oposed! congr
atul
ati
ons
Theywantedtohearever
y t
hingthathadhappened
l
astni
ghtandItoldthem detai
ltodetai
lbesides
whathappenedwhenwegothome agi rlcan'
t
ki
ssandtell
,wel
lIdidn'
tj
ustkiss
Kamo:
aahI
'
m sohappyf
ory
ou
Me:weshoul
dbeexci
tedabouty
ourweddi
ng i
ts
j
ustamonthaway
Kamo:Ial
socan'
tbel
i
evei
t,y
ouguy
sneedt
ocome
fort
hefi
nalf
it
ti
ng
Nay
e:It
hinkI
'
vegai
nedwei
ght
Beli
nda:t
ell
meabouti
t,weneedt
ost
artgoi
ngt
o
thegym
Ntokozo:
whygot ot
hegy
m wheny
ouhav
eagy
m at
babydaddy'
shouse
Zandy
:ohy es,
we'
l
ljustuset
hei
rgy
ms.Sav
es
moneyforus
Sneh:
say
stheCFO
Wealll
aughedwhi l
eIchangedLesl
ey'
sdiaperand
puthi
m backtosleep,hewassl
eepingi
nbet ween
Thembeli
hleandLuthando.
Zee:
aren'
ttheyj
ustt
oocut
e?
Naye:makesmethi
nkofEmi
hlewhenshewasa
baby.Thebi
gey
es
Bee:
andshest
il
lhast
hem
Weal
ll
aughedandIr
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om mom
Me:
Mami
Ma:Mydaught
er,
youdoknowy
ouhav
etocome
backhome
Me:
yesMa
Ma:comebackwithBabal
waand2ofyourf
ri
ends.
Ncebaisbusywi
thschool
soshewon'
tbeablet
o
at
tend.OnWednesday
Me: hahMa,thelobol
awi
llonl
ytakepl
aceon
Saturday
,whyshouldwecomeonWednesday?
Thursdayisokay
Ma:
Youneedt
opr
epar
emychi
l
dandImi
ssy
ou
Me:Mom Imissyoutoobutwe'
llcomeonThur
sday
.
Wednesdayi
stoosoonandI'
m comingwit
hLesl
ey,
Phi
l
acan'tbeawayfr
om himforsolong
Ma:
youj
ustdon'
twantt
ocomehomeqhawena

Me:Mom Isai
dI'l
lcomehomeonThur
sday
,you
won'
tbehappyifIsayFr
idaykant
Ma:Youwoul
dnev
erdothat
.AyGoodbyeIhav
eno
ai
rt
imetowast
e .Tel
lyoursi
stert
ocal
lme
Me:
soy
oumeancal
l
ingmei
sawast
eofAi
rt
ime!
Shehunguponme! mom t
hough!
Me:
mom sai
dyoumustcal
lherBee
Nt
okozo:
youdi
dn'
ttel
lusaboutt
hel
obol
apar
t
Theyst
art
edul
ulat
ingandscr
eami
ngt
henweal
l
l
aughed
Sneh:we'
regrowi
nguphey
,2ofuar
eal
ready
gett
ingmarr
ied
Me:t
hingshappensofast
,I'
veal
wayswantedtoget
marr
iedbutIdi
dn'
tknowitwouldhappent
hissoon
l
ikeI
'
mj ust25
Nay
e: andt
hat
'sper
fect
,youdon'
twannaget
marr
iedat30or35
Zandy:t
here'
snohopef
orsomeofus,
seeSnehwe
shoul
djustaccepti
t
Sneh:
we'
vebeensi
ngl
eforsuchal
ongt
ime
Me:y
ou'
rebeingsi
ll
yZandi
l
e,Mphol
i
ter
all
ypour
ed
hi
shear
toutbutdol
olo
Zandy
:don'
tdol
olome,
Iwasst
upi
d
Bel
i
nda:
hehsomeonei
shav
ingr
egr
ets
Kamo:
sheshoul
dbe.Buty
ouwer
en'
treadysowhat
changednow?
Zandy:Iwasn'tready,butthequesti
onwhatwasn'
tI
readyfor?GuysI'm growingup,notgett
ingany
younger.I'
m 25alreadymay beIshouldbeina
rel
ati
onshipwithsomeone, pot
enti
alhusband
yaboh
Bee:
anizwelogi
rl (l
ist
entothi
sgirl
),buti
t'
s
tr
uelookatme,I
'm 28f
orcryi
ngoutloud
Sneh:
let
'sst
oppi
tyi
ngour
sel
vesandgomanhunt
ing

Zandy
:yesgi
rlI
'
m wi
thy
oui
nthatdepar
tment
Kamo:
ohpoorMpho
Me:
Ifeel
badf
orhi
m
Zee:
let
'sgetoutoft
hisr
oom bef
orewedi
einher
e
Thebabi
eswerest
il
lasl
eepsowel
eftt
hem t
her
e
andwentbackt
otheguys
Ly
anda:
Congr
atul
ati
onsSi
ya,
I'
m happyf
ory
ou
Me:
Thanky
ouLi
fesav
er
Lubah:y
oucal
l
inghi
mthat hemustbe
Superman
Bonga:
NoSpi
der
man
Danny
:youguy
sar
ecr
azy
Wesatthereandhadal
ovel
yconversati
on.Lesl
ey
wokeupandIpackedhi
sbagforhim andwewer e
aboutt
oleave
Phi
l
a:wehav
etogoguy
s,i
tsbeengr
eat
.
Nkosi
:shoman.We'
l
lseey
ousoon
Kamo:
don'
tfor
gett
ocomet
othesui
tfet
ti
ngs
Thabo:
whenar
ewegoi
ngt
her
e?
Kamo:
you'
vef
orgot
tenagai
n
Athi:
ofcausehehas weguy
snev
err
emember
thesethi
ngs
Nt
oko:
buty
oual
way
sremembersoccerandal
cohol
Mpho:
gott
hatr
ight
Weall
laughedandsai
dourgoodby
est
henIgav
e
Phi
l
athekeys
Phi
l
a:I
'
m notdr
ivi
ng
Me:
I'
m notdr
ivi
ngt
oo
Phil
a:buty
ouwer
einadr
ivi
ngmoodj
ustnow,
remember?
Me:y
eahbutLesl
eyi
sher
enowandIwantt
ocat
ch
upwi
thhi
m
Phi
l
a:Ial
sowantt
ocat
chupwi
thhi
m
Me:
Phi
l
awi
l
lyoupl
easej
ustdr
ivepl
ease
Phi
l
a;nope
Westoodther
ef orhalfanhourdebati
ngonwhois
goi
ngtodri
veunt i
lIgaveupandt ookthekey
sand
goti
nthedri
versseat
Me:
ifLesl
eywasn'
ther
e,we'
dgethomei
njust
2mi
nutesIt
ell
you!
Phi
l
a:Ican'
theary
ou
Me:
mxm
Hewasenjoyi
ngt
hisandIwasn'
t Phi lai
sreal
ly
annoy
ingwhenhewantst
oandthatjustpi
ssesme
off
,well
Iactl
i
keitdoes buthonestl
yIenj
oyit
.
WegothomeandIwenti
nsi
det
henst
art
ed
pr
epar
ingl
unch
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantf
orl
unch?
Phi
l
a:j
ustasandwi
chi
sokay
Me:
okaycool
andor
angej
uice?
Phi
l
a:y
esbabe
Imadehim achi
ckenandmayosandwichwit
h
or
angejui
ceandhecamet oatt
hekit
chentabl
e
whi
leIf
edLesleyhispur
it
y
Phi
l
a:wheni
ssupposedt
ocr
awl
?
Me:I
'
m notr
eal
l
ynotsur
e,may
beoncehei
say
ear
ol
d
Phi
l
a:hav
eyounot
icedhi
sri
ghtl
egi
sabi
tabnor
mal
?
Me:It
houghtIwast
heonl
yoneseei
ngt
hat
,I
act
ual
lyt
houghti
tsabr
acket
Phi
l
a:you'
vegottobeki
ddi
ng,
butonaser
iousnot
e
wehav
et ochecki
tout.
Me:y
esmaybeitmi
ghtbeaseri
ouspr
obl
em.Nay
e
di
dgivemeDrMazi
buko'
scar
d
Phi
l
a:DrMazi
buko?
Me:y
es,
apedi
atr
ici
an.
Phi
l
a:doy
out
hinkhemi
ghtbedi
sabl
ed?
Me:whatmakesy
ousayt
hat
?Don'
tsayi
tswhat
Or
ati
lesai
d
Phil
a:besi
dest
hat
,Idi
dsomer
esear
chandi
tdoes
happen.
Me:we'
l
ljustseethedoct
orsPhi
l
a.Hei
sokayanda
nor
malbaby,besi
desthel
eg.
Phi
l
a:I
'
mjustwor
ri
ed
Me:
don'
twor
ryhe'
l
lbeokay
Phi
lawashedthedishesandwechil
ledatthe
gar
denwhileLesl
eywaspl ay
ingwi
thhistoys.
Phi
l
a:howmanychi
l
drendoy
ouwant
?
Me:maybe2,
then3wi
thLesl
eyl
i
keweal
way
s
pl
anned
Phi
l
a:okayt
hen
Me:
Phi
l
asande
Phil
a:y
ou'
reaboutt
ogeti
ntoadeepconv
ersat
ionke
ngok
Me:
ofcause,
Ijusthav
eaf
ewquest
ions
Phi
l
a:okaygoahead
Me:
arey
ousur
eyouwantt
omar
ryme?
Phi
la:100%babeI '
veneverbeensosureabout
something.Il
oveyouandIwanty outobemywi fe,
I
wanttospendt her
estofmyl if
ewit
hy ou.I
'
velost
youtwiceandIdon'twanttolooseyoueveragai
n.
Me:
arey
our
eadyf
orcommi
tment
?
Phi
la:IknowI'vebeenst
upidandt
houghtwi
thmy
di
ck.Iwillnev
ercheatonyouagai
nSiya,
ipr
omise
Me:
pleasedon'
tmakepr
omi
sesy
oucan'
tkeep
Phi
l
a:ar
eyouhav
ingdoubt
s?
Me:I'
m scared,yesIwantt
omarr
yyouandi
mjust
scar
edy ou'
l
l hur
tmeagainandi
don'
twantt
hatt
o
happen
Phi
l
a:Si
yamt
handadoy
out
rustme?
Me:
Honest
lyIdon'
tful
l
ytr
usty
ou,
I'
vebeent
ryi
ngt
o
gettotrustyouthewayIdi dbef
orebutitj
ust
doesn'
thappen.I twil
ltakesometi
mebutIknowI '
l
l
ful
l
yt r
usty ou.Justdon'tgi
vemeanyreasonforme
nottotrustyouNgcobo
Icouldseehisf
aceturnred,Idon'
tknowifi
tsanger
ordisappoi
ntmentbutIhadtobehonestwit
hhim,
that
'swhatacoupledoesright?Wehaveto
communi cat
eandbehonestwi theachot
herbefor
e
weev engetmarri
ed.Theysaypracti
cemakes
perf
ect
Phi
l
a:Iunder
stand.I
'
m goi
ngoutf
orabeer
Me:
sui
tyour
sel
f
Idon'tknowwhyPhi l
asandei sacti
ngl ikethi
s.Hei s
l
eav i
ngj ustwhenwe' r
et alkingaboutourpr oblems.
I'
l
ljustlethim be, andIsawmyr esponseanger ed
him.Heneedst ocontrol histemper ,thetruthhurt
s
buthedoesneedt oheari t
.Ican'tbottlethi
ngsup
andkeept hingstomy selfj ustbecausehewi l
lget
angry.Heneedst oknowhowIf eel,heneedst o
l
earnhowt ocommuni catewi thmenotj ustget
angryandl eav e.IsatdownonLesl eytowel andwe
pl
ayedt
oget
her
.
#PHI
LA
Hear ingSi y
asayt hosewor ds, theyr eallybrokemy
hear tintopi eces.Iwasv eryangr y,notatherbut
my sel f.Ican' ttalkabouti tli
keshecan, Ican'ttell
herev erythingIf eel ,I
'm notusedt ot alki
ng.Ikeep
thi
ngst omy self.IknowI '
vehur tSiyaandIr emi nd
my sel fabouti tev eryday ,Ibeatmy sel fupf orit
ever yday .Iregr etitev er y
day.Eacht imeIseeher
smi leandl aughIf eel abi tbetter,l
essgui lty.Hearing
hersayt hatshedoesn' ttr
ustmej ustIdon' teven
knowhowt oexpl aini t.Ineedast rongbot tleof
whi skey .Ipassedatal i
quorshopandboughtal lthe
l
iquorIf eltlikedr inkingt henwentt oNkosi '
shouse.I
hatel eav ingt hem l iket hatandwal kingawayf rom
mypr obl ems, thatbei ngacowar d.ButIknowIcan' t
cont rol myangeri ssuessomet imesandespeci all
y
whenIknowI 'm atf aul t
,whenIknowI '
vecausedher
hear tache, Ijustwi shIcoul dki l
l my sel f
.Sor ather
thanst ay i
ngt her eandst arti
nganar gument .I'
d
ratherbedr i
nki ngawayal lmypr oblemswi thmy
fri
end.Igott ohi shouseandt ookal l theliquor
i
nsi
de
Nkosi
:wowwe'
reaboutt
ogetdr
unk,
Iwast
hri
sty
man
Me:
yesbr
o,we'
rehav
etosmashal
lthesebot
tl
es
Nkosi
:youdoknowal
cohol
can'
tfi
xyourpr
obl
ems
IknewNkosi
wouldj
ustknowsomethi
ngiswrong
betweenmeandSi
ya.Ishoul
d'
vej
ustwentt
oAt hi
.
Me:
Idi
dn'
tcomeher
eforal
ect
ure
Nkosi:
buty
oudidcomeheretodri
nkal
lyour
pr
oblemsawaysolet
'
sdojustthat
Wesatatt
heTVr
oom andwat
chedagameof
soccer
Nkosi
:sowhathappened?
Me:shebasi
cal
l
ytol
dmeshedoesn'
ttr
ustmeandI
don'
tbl
ameher
Nkosi:
youshoul dnt
, y
ouf uckedup.Soy oucan'
t
t
hinkshej ustgotoveritj
ustlikethatandt
rust
ed
youful
ly.Trusti
ngsomeonet akestime
Me:
especi
all
yify
out
rust
edt
hem bef
oreandt
hey
br
oket
hatt
rust
Nkosi
:I'
m gl
ady
ouunder
stand
Me:yesIdounderst
andNkosi
nathimanbutitsj
ust
t
hati
m stil
lfeel
i
ngverygui
l
tyabouti
tandifear
manythi
ngsman
Nkosi
:don'
tyout
hinky
oushoul
dtal
ktoheraboutal
l
oft
hat?
Me:
howdoIev
ent
ell
her
?
Nkosi:
Idon'tknowbutwhatIdoknowi st
hatyou
havetotel
lherandapol
ogizeforwal
kingaway
causeyou'
regivi
nghermorereasonsnottot
rust
you
Me:
yout
hink?
Nkosi
:Iknowandy ou'r
ehurti
ngher
.Sogetoutof
her
eandgof i
xt hi
ngs.You'
regoi
ngtobeamar r
ied
mansoonsost artact
ingli
keone
HonestlyNkosiwasright,i
needtofi
xthi
ngsand
startl
earni
nghowt otalktoSi
ya,
itwil
lhel
pusgo
throughmanythings.Itookmyphoneandwall
et
andabot tl
eofvodka
Nkosi
:l
eav
eal
ltheal
cohol
her
e
Me:
nott
hisone,
I'
ll
needi
t.
Nkosi
:don'
tdoany
thi
ngst
upi
d
Wef i
stbumpedandIdrov
ebackhome.Igothome
andLesleywasasl
eeponSiy
a,shewasal
soasleep.
ItookLesl
eyandSi
yawokeupimmediat
ely
Si
ya:
Lesl
ey!
!
Me:
sshdon'
twor
ry,
i
tsme
Si
ya:
youscar
edme
Me:I'
m sor
ry,
im goi
ngt
oputLesl
eyi
nhi
sbed.We
needtotal
k
Iwentt
oputLesleyi
nhisbedandcameback.Si
ya
wassit
ti
ngwit
hat uboficecr
eam andmyvodka
wit
haglassonthetabl
e
Si
ya:
Ithi
nkwe'
l
lneedt
hese
Me:I
ndeed.Fi
rst
lyI'
dli
ketoapol
ogi
zef
orwal
ki
ng
awaywhenIshould'
vestay
ed
Siy
a:Phi
l
a,yousai
dther
e'snowal
kingaway.You
sai
dwesitdownandtal
kaboutourprobl
emsy et
y
oudi
dthecompl
eteopposi
te
Me: IknowandI 'm sorry.Iwasacowar d,Iwasv ery
angrywithmy self.Iknewi fIstayedIwoul dn'
thave
beenabl etocontrolmyangerandIdon' twantallof
thattohappeni nf r
ontofLesl ey.IwenttoNkosi '
s
andhet alkedsomesensei nt
omewhi chmademe
real
izemanyt hings.Ihav efear,it'
shar
df ormet o
admi tal
lofthi
sbutI '
m alsoscar edAbongile.She
pouredmeagl assandIgul pedit
Siy
a:tal
ktome,I
'
ml i
steni
ng.I'
m her
efory
ouSi
ya,
youjusthav
etot
alk,
don'tpushmeaway
Me:it
shard,
I'
m notf
amili
arwi
thtalki
ngaboutmy
i
ssues.I
'
m usedtokeepi
ngthi
ngsinsi
de
Si
ya:
thatwon'
thel
p,t
hatwi
l
lonl
yhur
tyouandhur
t
us
Me: I
'
m scaredI'
llmessupagai n.I
'm scaredt
hatone
dayyou'll
wakeupanddon' tlovethisjer
kanymore.
I
'm scaredyou'
lll
eaveus,don'twanttobepartofour
l
ivesagain.Thatonedayyou'llbefedupandjustgo.
I
'm afr
aidofloosi
ngy ou
Si
ya:
You'
l
lnev
erl
ooseme.I
tsgoi
ngbehar
dbutI
won'
tl
eav
e
Me;t
hat
'st
heproblem,wedon'
tknowhowhar di
t
wi
ll
be.Whati
fitgetst
oohardforyou,
wil
lyoust
ay?
Siya:
yes,
aslongasIdon'
tst
ayal
one.We'
rei
nthi
s
toget
herPhi
l
asande
Istoodupandwalkedaroundt
heki
tchen.Thi
swas
getti
ngtomeandhurti
ngmemor et
hanIt houghti
t
does.Shecametomeandhuggedmef rom t
he
backandtookofmyshirt
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Siy
a:Iknowsexdoesn'
tsol
vepr
obl
emsbutIwant
you,t
akemePhil
asande
Sheamazesmeal lt
hetime,herwor dsjustt
urned
meon.IlovehersomuchandInev erwanttoloose
her.Shecompl
etesme,she'smynumberone.I '
m
goingtomakelovet
oherlikeneverbefore,j
ustto
showherhowmuchIl oveher.Ipi
ckedherupand
walkedupst
air
sandclosedthedoor .Youdon'tneed
toknowwhathappensbehindcloseddoor s
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandsuppor
t
Suggestpaget
ofr
iendandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
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sgr
ow
[
1/11,
00:
33]Tat
enda:
Inser
t49
Thepastf ewday shavebeengr eatbet weenusand
therewasal otofexci
tementaboutt hel obola
negot i
ati
onswhi chwillbetakingplacet omor r
ow.
Wedi dn'tgetachancet oseeDrMazi bukobecause
shei scurrentl
youtoft ownbutwe' l
l got hereas
soonaswegetbackhome.Phi l
asandet alkedabout
allourissuesandI '
m gladwedi dcausei thasmade
ahugedi f
ferenceandhei sbecomi ngv erycli
ngy,I
hav eanotherbaby hecal l
smeev er y30mi ns.He
hascomet oseemesi nceIgother e, hedi dn'
teven
wantmet ol eavebutIhadt o.Somommywonand
wecameher eonWednesday .Todayi sFr i
dayand
mom sai dPhi lai
snotsupposedt oseeme, Idon't
evenknowwhybecauset heylobolacer emonywi l
l
takeplacet omor r
ow.Icamewi thBabal wa, Ntokozo
andZandy .Wear eatthemal lnowdoi ngsome
groceryshoppi ngfortomor r
owandIgetacal lfr
om
Phi
l
a
Phi
l
a:babe,
wher
ear
eyou?
Me:
Hel
l
otoy
out
ooMrNgcobo
Phi
la:
heySi
ya,
howar
eyou?Answermyquest
ion
pl
ease
Me:
I'
m goodandy
our
sel
f
Phi
l
a:(
Sighs)I
'
m okayAbongi
l
e
Me:
I'
m atPav
il
ionwi
thBee,
ZandyandNt
okozo
Phi
l
a:okayI
'
m comi
ngt
ofet
chy
ou,
Imi
ssy
ou
Me:
you'
renotsupposedt
oseemePhi
l
asande
Phi
l
a:pl
easebabe,
itwi
l
ljustbef
oraf
ewmi
nut
es
Me:
no,
andI
'
m busy
Phi
l
a:wemi
ssy
ouSi
ya
Me:
whatdoy
oumeanwe?
Phil
a:i
fyoul
etmef
etchy
ou,
you'
l
lseewhoI
'
m
tal
ki
ngabout
Me:
Idon'
tev
enwantt
oknow.Goodby
ePhi
l
a
Il
aughedandendedthecall
.Wecont
inuedt
aking
somev eggi
esatChecker
sandaf
terafewminutes
Phi
lasandewal
kedin
Zandy
:looksl
i
kesomeonecameSi
yaHunt
ing
Me:
whati
shedoi
ngher
e
Phi
l
a:hel
l
oladi
es andhewi
nked
Me:
youknowy
ou'
renotsupposedt
oseeme
Phi
la:
yeahIknowbutI
'
m her
e.Soshoul
dweget
goi
ng?
Nt
oko:
thi
sguyi
scr
azy
Bee:
tel
lmeabouti
t
Me:
no,
I'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
ewi
thy
ou
Phi
l
a:y
oudon'
twantmet
odr
agy
ououtofher
e
Me:
youwoul
dn'
tdot
hat
Phi
l
a:t
rustme,
Iwoul
d
Ii
gnor
edhi
m andhecamecl
oset
ome
Me:
don'
tyoudar
e
Phi
l
a:Ihav
eto
Hepickedmeupandputmeonhi sshoul
dersl
ikea
sackofmaizemeal
.Iscr
eamedandt hegir
lswere
l
aughingatmetaki
ngavideo.Ev
eryonewaslooking
atusandIwassoembarrassed
Me:Peoplear
elooki
ngatus! I'
m goi
ngt
o
scr
eam andsayyou'
reki
dnappi
ngme
Phi
l
a:Goahead,
Idon'
tcar
e
Ij
ustlaughedathim andheputmedown,wewer e
al
readyathisparki
ngspot.Heputmeinsi
dethecar
andthengotint
ot oo,heputal
ldoor
sonchil
dlock
Me:t
hisi
sreal
l
yki
dnappi
ngy
ouknow,
wher
ear
eyou
t
aki
ngme
Phi
l
a:home,
wher
eyoubel
ong
Me:wher
eIbel
ongnowi
sinsi
det
hatmal
ldoi
ng
gr
ocer
yshoppi
ng
Phil
a:you'
ll
got her
ebabejustwanttospendaf ew
hourswithyou.Theywon'
tleaveyou,It
oldZandyto
comefetchy ouwhentheyaredone
Me:
soZandyknewy
ouwer
ecomi
ng
Phi
l
a:Skeem sam phel
aleso(t
hat
'smyf
ri
end)
Wegothomeandhecl
osedt
hedoorandpi
ckedme
up
Me:
wowt
hisi
swhaty
oumi
ssedmef
or
Phi
l
a:nobabe butIj
ustneedaqui
cki
e
Hi
squickietur
nedint
ohoursofl
ovemaking.Aft
er
t
hatwet ookashowerandthenat
elunch.Ther
ewas
wknockont hedoorandi
twasNtoko
Nt
oko:
let
'sgogi
rl
Phi
l
a:pl
easest
ayanot
herhour
Me:babewecan'
t,
mom wi
l
lgetr
eal
l
ysuspi
ci
ous
now.Bye
Phi
l
a:by
e .
HekissedmeandIl
eft
.Iwassadtoseehi
m sosad
buthewasbei
ngacrybaby.Beedr
oveof
fandPhil
a
cal
led
Phi
l
a:y
oul
efty
ourunder
wear
,comef
etchi
t
Me:
youcr
azy buty
oucankeepi
t.
Phi
l
a:Imi
ssy
oubobo
Me:
Imi
ssy
out
ooLesl
eySeni
or
Phi
l
a:by
e,I
'
m goi
ngt
osl
eep.Checkupony
oul
ater
Wegothomeandmom wassi
tt
ingwi
thLesl
eyat
t
hever
anda
Mom:
whatt
ooky
ousol
ong?
Zandy:wehadlunchwi
thourf
ri
endsf
ir
staf
ter
grocer
yshoppi
ng
Me:
yeswedi
dandwegotev
ery
thi
ngy
ouneed
Bee:
andmor
e
Wet
ookal
lthegr
ocer
ybagsi
nsi
deandpackedt
hem
Nt
oko:
wehav
etost
artbaki
ng
Me:
yeahsowhatar
ewebaki
ng?
Bee:cakes,chocol
ateandredv
elv
et.Thenmuf
fi
ns,
vani
l
la,branandblueberr
y
Zandy
:won'
ttheywantt
hosehar
ddr
yscones
Me:
We'
ret
alki
ngaboutPhi
l
a'sf
ami
l
yher
e,may
be
t
hesemuf
fi
nsar
en'
tev
enenough
Bee:
notont
hei
rlev
el
Mom:butPhil
a'
sfatheri
sasimpl
etr
adi
ti
onal
man,
hi
sweal
thdidn'
tchangehim
Nt
oko:
li
kehi
sson.Hedoesn'
tshowof
fhi
sweal
th
Zandy
:unl
i
keBr
ian
Wecont inuedt
alkingandbakingwhil
ealso
prepari
ngsupper.LeselyandIrecei
vedavideocall
fr
om daddydearest .WehadsupperandIbat hed
Lesleyandputhimi nmybed.Zandycamewi thwine
andj ui
ceformet henwechill
edinmyr oom
Zandy
:let
'shav
eal
obol
abachel
orat
tepar
ty
Bee:
whatt
hehel
li
sthat
Me:
I'
dreal
l
yli
ket
oknowwhatt
hatmeans
Zandy:see,t
radi
ti
onal
l
yfrom tomorr
owyou'
l
lbe
Phil
a'
swi f
esoi t
sabachelor
attepar
ty
Nt
okozo:
youj
ustl
ooki
ngf
orar
easont
ogetdr
unk
Zandy
:okayy
ou'
vej
ustputi
tinsi
mpl
erwor
dsmyf
Me:
youguyscangetdr
unkal
lyouwantbutasf
or
meI'
m sl
eepi
ngnow
Bee:
whati
sabachel
oret
tepar
tywi
thoutt
hebr
ide?
Zandy:whati
sthemeani
ngofbachel
oret
te?Hel
l
o
I
'm si
ngleher
e?
Me:
what
everguy
s
Nt
oko:
par
typooper
JustwhenIwasaboutt
osl
eepIgotacal
lfr
om my
l
ove
Me:Mashi
y'
amahl
e
Phil
a: thatj
ustmademyhear
tmel
t,sl
eepi
ng
al
ready
?
Me:
YesIwasaboutt
osl
eep.Whatar
eyoudoi
ng
t
her
e?
Phi
l
a:j
ustwat
chi
ngt
elev
isi
on,
how'
sLesl
ey?
Me:heisokay,sl
eepi
ngpeacef
ull
y.Whatt
imewi
l
l
youguy
sar r
iveheret
omorrow?
Phi
l
a:by9:
30am we'
l
lbet
her
e.
Me:
okaybabe,
wel
lgoodni
ghtIl
ovey
ou
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
out
oo
Heendedthecal
landIsai
dgoodnighttothegi
rl
s
whowereplanni
ngondri
nki
ngallnightandIsl
ept

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Ifel
tasi
fsomeonewasscreami
ngoutmyname
andjumpi
ngontopofme,what'
sgoi
ngon i si
ta
dream?Ohnoit
'snot
.Zandi
lewasontopofmy
butt
Me:
whatt
hehel
l
Zandy:I'
l
ltel
lthem t
ohalft
helobolopr
icetheywere
goi
ngt opaycausethismakotiher
eoversl
eepsy et
sheisn'
tevensuffer
ingf
rom ahardhangoverli
ke
someofus
Me:Idi
dn'
ttel
lyout
odr
inknowgetof
fme!Wher
e's
myson?
Zandy:wi
thyourmother
,gobat
hmant
heNgcobos
arescr
eamingatthegat
ealr
eady
Me:
What
!What
'
sthet
ime?
Zandy
:9:
55am,
real
makot
i'
swakeupat4:
30am
Me:
nothappeni
ngwi
thmesweet
ie,
Iam notgoi
ng
t
odothat
Iworemygownandwentt
othekit
chenwi
shi
ngno
oneseesmebutnoomyuncl
esseemebefor
eI
coul
devenhi
de
Bi
gD:
andy
ouar
est
il
li
nyourpy
jamas?
Uncl
e2:whati
fthei
n-l
awsseey
ou,
theymi
ghtev
en
goback
Me:you'
reov
ert hi
nki
ngt
hesi
tuat
ionmalume.I'
m
goi
ngtogetreadynowandwhyaretheyst
il
lout
side?
BigD:we'
l
llett
hem i
noncey
ou'
rer
eadyand
fr
eshenedup
Me:
letmebouncet
hen
Uncl
e3:
whot
ooky
ouri
nnocence?
Justthequest
ionIhavebeenr
unningawayf
rom
wil
lIreal
l
yhavethisconver
sat
ionwit
hmyuncles,
i
cl
earedmyt hr
oat
Me:
excuseme?
Bi
gD:
whobr
okey
ourv
irgi
nit
y?
Me:
i
t'
sPhi
l
asande
Iquickl
ywal
kedawaybef or
et heycouldask
anymorequesti
ons,
real
lywoul dn'
twantt hem t
oask
atwhatage myunclesthoughtIwasaVi r
gin
whenIwas21sot heyshouldkeept hatinmind.I
tookabaththenworealongbl ackdressandblue
doekonmyheadandwentt omyuncl es
Me:
seeI
'
mreadynowsocoul
dyoupl
easeopenf
or
t
hem
BigD:got
oyourr
oom f
ir
standdon'
tgetoutt
il
l
you'r
ecal
l
ed
Me:
yessi
r
Iwenttomyr oom andst ayedwit
ht hegi
rls.Igota
textf
rom Phi
la"Theyfinall
ylett
hem in,I
'
m not
supposedtobepar tofthenegotiat
ionssoI '
minthe
carwithBrai
n"
Irepl
i
ed"fi
nal
l
y ,Ihopet
heydon'
tgi
vet
hem a
hardti
me.Imi
ssy
ou"
"Youcanal
way
sjustsneakout
"her
epl
i
ed
Il
aughedandsai
d"Nothappeni
ngMrNgcobo"
Iputmyphoneont
hechar
gerandl
eftitt
her
ethen
play
edwit
hmyson.Heisver
yqui
ettoday
Me:mybaby,comet omama y
ou'
rev
eryqui
et
t
odaywhat'
swr ong
Nt
oko:
you'
respeaki
ngasi
fhei
sgoi
ngt
orespond
Me:
iknowhewon'
tbuti
hav
etot
alkt
ohi
m
Zandy:whatwoul
dyoudoi
fhewoul
djustr
espond
ri
ghtnow yohI
'dr
unaway
Bee:
you'
rest
il
ldr
unk
Zandy
: st r
us,ifhewoul
djustsay"Yeykwedi
ni"
wit
hthedeepestvoi
ceyou'
veeverhear
dof
Me:
Ithi
nkI
'
dal
sor
unaway
Nt
oko:
youguy
sar
ecr
azy
Aunt
ycameinandgav
eusbl
anket
stocov
er
our
selv
esup
Aunt
y:i
t'
sti
met
ogoknow,
rememberdon'
tent
ir
ely
showy
ourf
aces,
lookdownatal
lti
mes
Zandy
:wegott
hisgr
izo
Weal
ll
aughedandmyauntsmackedZandy
'shand.
Weweret
hencall
edandwesatdown
BigD(
unclemandla)
:see,
thesear
eall
thefl
owerswe
haveinthi
shousehol
d.Whichoneoft
hesegir
lsar
e
youtal
ki
ngabout?
I
nmyheadI 'm wonderi
ngi
ft hey
'l
lpickme,
what
happensi
ftheypickthewronggirl
?I'v
enev
err
eal
ly
heardoft
hatsoIshouldaskmymom oraunt
Phil
a'
suncl
e:t
heonewitht
her
edbl
anket
,the
secondonef
rom y
ourr
ight
.
Yept
hat
'sme
Bi
gD:
arey
ousur
e?
Phi
l
a'suncl
e:y
escer
tai
nly
.
Thegi
rlsst
oodupandl
eftandIwast
heonl
yone
remai
ningt
her
e
Bi
gD:
Siy
amt
handa,
doy
ouknowt
hesepeopl
e?
Me:
Yebomal
ume(y
esuncl
e)
AuntGuguhelpedmeupandIwentbackt
othe
room andBeestar
tedul
ulat
ing
Me:
uyaf
undekel
agi
rl(y
ou'
remaki
ngnoi
se)
Bee:
what
ever
Shet
ookoutabot
tl
eofJ&Bundert
hebed
Me:youguy
sar
egoi
ngt
otur
nint
oal
cohol
i
cs
soon
Zandy
:thatwoul
dbeheav
en
Ntokozo:t
heonlypersonwhocansaybei
ngan
al
coholi
cisheavenreall
ywoul
dbeZandy,t
ell
me
wheredoy oucomefrom
Bee:
arey
ouanor
mal
humanbei
ng
Whi
l
ewewer el
aughi
ngwehear
dcheer
ingf
rom t
he
r
oom andMom camei
n.
Mom:gir
lscomehel
pmeservethefood,
plus
makot
iyouneedt
oserv
eyourhusband
Me:
ever
ythi
ngwentwel
l
?
Mom:yesmydaught
er,
I'
m sopr
oud t heypai
d
ev
ery
thi
nginf
ull
andthecowsar
eontheirwayas
wespeak.Youhav
emademer
eal
l
ypr
oud
Si
yamthanda
Me:
thanky
oumom
Wedi
shedupandIputPhi
l
a'sf
oodont
het
ray
Aunt
:youmustgogivethem awat
erandabasi
nto
washthei
rhands,
star
twithMkwenyana
Me:
why
?He'
snott
heel
dest
Mom:heisyourhusband,
youst
il
lhav
eal
ott
olear
n
mychi
ld.Nowdoaswesay
Aunt
:don'
tfor
gett
okneel
Zandyl
aughedatmeandIgav
eheradeat
hst
are
Me:
thi
sisgoi
ngt
obeal
ongr
oad
Nt
okozo:
I'
ll
fol
l
owy
ouwi
thadr
ytowel
Wewentt othem andIkneel
eddownt henPhil
a
washedhi shandsandIalsogavetheot her
stowash
thei
rhandsaswel l
,It
ookPhil
a'
sfoodandgav ehi
m,
Ihadt okneelagain hehadt hebiggestsmil
eon
hisfacewhichshowedhewasenj oy i
ngseeingme
l
ikethis,hebett
ernotgetusedtoi
t.Wewentback
t
otheki
tchen
Mom:hewasreal
lyi
mpr
essed di
dyouseet
he
smi
leonhi
sface?
Me:
yesmom
Mom:
Babal
wawhenar
eyouget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed?
Shecoughedandwi
denedherey
es
Aunt
:weneedananswer
Bee:Idon'
tknow,
Idon'
tev
enhav
eaboy
fri
endf
or
cr
yingoutloud
Mom l
ookedatZandy
Zandy:
Madon'
tlookatme,
I'
m get
ti
ngmar
ri
edt
o
Johnni
eWal
ker
Mom:
youneedpr
ofessi
onal
hel
p,Nt
okozomychi
l
d
Nt
oko:
atl
eastIhav
eaboy
fri
endMa
Igotatextfr
om Phil
a"MayIseeLesley"Irepl
ied
withan"Okay"andthenwenttogetLesleywho
wasnthimself
,I'
m gett
ingr
eall
yworri
ed.I'm
tr
adit
ional
lyPhil
a'
swifeandthenegoti
ationsare
oversoIcanseehim nowforaslongasIwant .I
wentout
sideandhewasl
eani
ngonhi
scar
,Hewas
l
ookingv
eryhandsome
Phi
la:
MaFuze,I
'
vemissedyouandmybuddyover
her
e.Heplay
edwit
hLesleybutLesl
eydi
dn'
tev
en
l
aughli
keheusual
l
ydoes
Phi
l
a:what
'swr
ongwi
thhi
m?
Me:Idon'
tknowhejusthasn'
tbeenhi
msel
f,It
hink
hei
scomi ngdownwithFl
ue.
Phi
la:
weshoul
dgethi
mt ot
hedoctorwheny
ou
comeback,
youar
ecomingbackt
omor r
owri
ght
?
Me:
yesbabeandDrMazi
bukoi
sback
Phi
la:
I'
ll
tel
lKayt
omakeanappoi
ntmentf
or10am,
I
'l
lcomefet
chyou
Me:that
'sokay
,im get
ti
ngr
eal
l
ywor
ri
edabout
Jnr
Phil
a:Hewi
ll
beokay
,don'
tworr
y.Wej
ustneedt
o
fi
ndoutwhat
'swr
ongwit
hhim
Weconti
nuedtalki
ngt
il
lhisunclescameandwe
sai
dourgoodbyesandtheylef
t.Iwassadtosee
him gosi
nceImi
sshi
m somuchbutI
'
llseehi
m
tomorrow
Iwentbackinsidethehouseandboiledwaterand
pourediti
ntoacup.Icooleditdownabitthenputit
i
nJnr '
sbottl
eforhimt odr
ink.Hedrankhalft
he
bott
leandhef ell
asleep
Isl
eptnextt
ohi
m andMom camei
n
Mom:
youdon'
tl
ookhappy
Me:
yesIt
hinkLesl
eyi
sget
ti
ngf
lue.
Mom: ohsorr
ybabyhewillbejustf
ine.Youhave
real
l
ygrownmychi l
d,y
ou'r
eev enmor ethanwhatI
hadplannedf
oryou.Al
lofyoumydaught er
s,y
ou
havemademer eal
lypr
oudt osayIraisedyouonmy
own
Me:
andy
oudi
dar
eal
l
ygoodj
ob.
Mom: y
ouar eagoodwomanandy ou'r
eoneofa
ki
nd, y
ou'r
er ai
singanotherwoman'schildandput
yourli
feasideforLesley,mostwouldn'
tdot hatbut
becauseyou'rediff
erentandhaveahear tl
ikeno
otheryouhav eacceptedJnrasyourown.Iam v ery
,
v
erypr
oudofy
oumydaught
er
Me:
thanky
oumom,
thatr
eal
l
ymeansal
ott
ome
Mom:i
tshowsIhavedonewel
laswmot herandI
knowy
ouwill
too.Phi
l
asandei
sreal
l
yluckytohav
e
you
Me:
yeshei
s
Wecont i
nuedt alkingandthegirl
sjoi
nedusafter
somet i
me Thi shasr eal
lybeenagreatdayandI
thankGodt hatithashappened.Soonandv er
ysoon
I'
llbeof
fi
ciall
yMr sNgcobo
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kesuppor
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enda:
Inser
t50
Ihadaverysleeplessnight
,Jnrkeptonwaki ngup
andcryi
ngnonst op.Hekeptonf iddl
ingwit
hhi s
eyesandscratchi
ngt hem.Wedi dn'
tevensleep,Iam
veryworr
iedabouthim soisPhilasande,
heal so
cal
ledseveralti
mes.It ol
dhimtocomeear l
yt oday
sowecangot othedoct orasapandheshift
edt he
appoi
ntmentt o8o'cl
ock.Iam veryt
ir
edandsl eepy
butmybabycomesf irst,
Ipackedourbagsthenwe
hadbreakfastaft
erafewmi nut
esLesleyf
ellasleep.
Me:
final
l
y
Mom:
gogetsomer
est
,I'
l
lcl
eanupher
e
Me:
I'
ll
restwhenI
'
m athome,
Phi
l
awi
l
lbeher
eina
f
ewminutes.
Mom:
leav
ingal
ready
?
Me:y
esmom wehav eanappoi
ntmentwi
thDr
Mazi
buko,
forLesl
eyat8soIhavet
oleav
e.
Mom: okay
,speaki
ngofleav
ing.Yourhusbandhas
ar
ri
ved.Phil
awasparki
nghiscarandIdishedup
br
eakfastf
orhim
Phi
l
a:Mor
ning
Mom:
Mor
ningmyson,
sitdownandhav
ebr
eakf
ast
Phi
la:
thanky
ouMa,
heki
ssedmycheekandsat
down
It
ookt
hebagst
othecarandwentbacki
nsi
de
Phi
l
a:r
eadyt
ogo?
Me:
yes
Phi
la:Sorr
ywehavet
oleav
ethi
sear
lyMa,
we'
l
lsee
youagainsoon.
Mom:Iunder
standmyson,
haveasafet
ri
p.Ihope
ev
ery
thi
ngisokaywit
hmygrandson
Wesai
dourgoodby
esandl
eft
Phi
l
a:heendedupsl
eepi
ng?
Me:
(yawns)uhm sor
ry.
.Yeshedi
d,j
ustaf
ew
mi
nutesbefor
eyouwalkedin
Phi
l
a:y
oul
ookv
eryt
ir
edandsl
eepy
Me:
iam,
Idi
dn'
tev
ensl
eepl
astni
ght
Phi
la:I
'm sor
ryaboutt
hatbabe.WegottoDr
Mazibuko'
ssurger
yandwewer e5minut
esearl
y.We
wai
tedabi t
Recept
ioni
st:
MrNgcoboy
oumaygot
hrough
West
oodupandwentt
ohi
sof
fi
ce,
lucki
l
yJnrwas
awakeal
ready
Dr
:Goodmor
ning Iam Doct
orThenj
i
weMazi
buko
Me:
Siy
amt
handaShezi
Phi
l
a:Phi
l
asandeNgcobo,mysonLesl
eyNgcobo.
Wethi
nkhei
shavingafl
ue
Me:andhi
slef
tlegl
ooksabnor
malt
ousplusl
ast
ni
ghthi
seyeswerer
edandseemedpai
nful
Dr:ohokay
,wil
lyougi
vemet
hebabyandIwi
l
ldoa
fewcheckups.
Phi
lapassedLesl
eytoherandl
ucki
l
yhedi
dn'
tcr
y
andtheyl
eftt
heoffi
ce.
Me:
doy
out
hinkhe'
l
lbeokay
Phi
l
a:y
esst
handwasam hewi
l
lbef
ine
Hehuggedmeandwesatther
ewait
ing.Af
teran
hourt
heycamebackandIt
ookLesl
ey
Dr
:wasLesl
eybor
npr
emat
urel
y?
Phi
l
a:y
es,
2mont
hsear
li
er
Dr
:sohewasbor
nwhenhewas7mont
hs,
that
expl
ainsi
t.
Me:
expl
ainswhat
?
Dr
:goodorbadnewsf
ir
st?
Phi
l
a:badf
ir
st
Dr:wellwe'
v eseenthatLesleyhasROP, Reti
nopat hy
ofPrematurity
.WhichI '
m surpri
seditcaughthi m at
alaterst
age, t
hisi
saney eeffect
ingdiseasewhi ch
i
scausedbydi sor
ganizedgrowt hofreti
nalbl
ood
vesselswhichmayr esultinscarr
ingandr eti
nal
detachment.ROPcanbemi l
dandr esolve
spontaneouslybutitcanleadt obli
ndnessinv ery
seri
ouscaseswhi char esimil
artoLesley'scase
Me:
soy
ou'
resay
inghemi
ghtbebl
i
nd
Dr:thereisapossi bi
lit
y.Thereistr
eatmentf oritbut
ther
ei sa50/ 50chanceofi thelpi
ng,itusuallyhel
ps
whenwe' vediscov eredtheROPwhent hechi l
dis
sti
llanewbor n.Insuchcasesi tcanleadt o
bli
ndness.Andanot herthingwef oundi sthathehas
Oesteomal aci
awhi chi nchil
drenisknownasr i
cket
s,
thepredomi nantcausei saVi t
ami nDdef ici
encyin
themot her'
sbl oodwhi chthebabyal soshar esand
has,
butt
hel
ackofadequat
ecal
ci
um i
nthebody
.
Me:
thi
sal
lsoundsv
erycompl
i
cat
edt
ome
Iwassolostandsad,t
hisi
swhathappeneswhen
youdidn'
tstudyl
if
esci
ences .Mysonhast ogo
thr
oughallofthi
s
Phi
l
a:t
hegoodnews?
Dr:
Hecanbet
reat
ed,
andhewill
needtogothr
ough
sur
ger
ytor
emovesev
ereboneabnor
mali
ti
es
Me:isn'
tther
eanot
herwayoft
reat
inghi
m besi
des
sur
gery?
Dr
:I'
m sor
rymam butt
her
eisn'
tanyot
herway
Phi
l
a:whenmustt
hisbedone?
Dr:
Assoonaspossi
blesohewon'
tdev
elopmor
e
pai
nandabnor
mali
ti
es
Phi
la:canyousetupfortomorr
ow,
butwe'll
hav eto
doitatAthi'
shospi
tal
andyouDrwil
lbethere.They
ar
et heonlypeopl
eItr
ustwit
hmyfamil
iesli
v es
Ther
ehegoes,
hetakesadecisi
onwit
houteven
aski
ngmeorhowIevenfeel
abouti
t.I
'l
lj
ustkeep
qui
etf
ornow.
Dr
:yesIcanbet
her
eMrNgcobo.
Phi
l
a:t
hanky
ou
It
ookLesl
eyandwewentoutt
hengott
othecar
.
Phi
l
a:i
t'
ssadt
hathehast
ogot
hroughal
lthi
s
Ij
ustkeptqui
etandheldLesl
eytomychest
.Phi
l
a
l
ookedatmeconf usedanddrov
ehome
Phi
l
a:whatdi
dIdonow?
Ikeptqui
et,
gotoutthecarandtookmysonwithme.
Ichangedhi
snappyandf edhi
m hispur
it
y.Af
ter
feedi
nghim hef
ell
asleepandIputhiminhi
sbed.
Phil
a:t
hesi
lentt
reat
ment ?Whenisitgoi
ngt
oend
causei
tsr
eall
ychil
dishandit
spissi
ngmeoff
Me:
wel
li
tjustst
art
ed!
Iwentt
otheki
tchenandchoppedoni
ons
Phi
l
a:whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
cooki
ngsupper
Phi
l
a:i
tsnotev
enl
uncht
imey
et
Me:
theni
ncooki
ngl
unchPhi
l
asande
Phi
l
a:i
tsobviousthaty
ou'
reupsetaboutsomet
hing
sol
et'
sjustt
alkabouti
t
Me:sonowy ouwanttot
alk!Nowyoudeci
deyou
wanttot
alkandhearwhat
'sbother
ingme!
?I
shout
ed
Phi
l
a:Don'
trai
sey
ourv
oiceatmeAbongi
l
e
Me:r
aisi
ngmyv oi
ceaty
oui
sthel
eastofmy
pr
obl
emsr i
ghtnow!
Hebangedt
het
abl
esohar
dIwasev
enshocked
Phi
l
a:Don'
tyoudar
erai
sey
ourv
oiceatme!
!
Hewasfi
ll
edwit
hrageandangerhi
sfacewasev
en
t
urni
ngr
ed! lor
dwhathaveIdone
Phi
la:
Itri
edbei
ngcalm andt
alki
ngt
oyoudecent
ly!
Butnoyoudeci
detomakemeangr y
,doyouli
kei
t
whenyouseemelikethi
s!
Ikeptqui
etandl
eanedagai
nstt
hewal
lshaki
ng
Phi
l
a:answerdamni
t!
Me:
no Isai
dandt
ear
sjustf
ell
andIcr
iedsof
tl
y.
Hetri
edt
ocomecl
oset
omebutIqui
ckl
yst
epped
back
Phi
l
a:Si
yamt
handa
IkeptquietcauseIkneeifIspokeI'
l
lsaythingsI '
l
l
regretwhichwil
l makehim moreangry
.SoIj ust
cleanedupt hekit
cheneventhoughit
sv er
ycl ean.I
keptonwi pingthetabl
eoverandoveragain
Phi
l
a:t
het
abl
eiscl
ean.
Het
ookmyhandandIf
li
ppedandIscr
eamed!
Phil
a:whatt
hehel
lSi
ya!You'
l
lwaket
hebabyup!
Shutup!
Me: Youhurtingme!Youshouldn'
thavedonewhat
youdid!Lesleyismybabytooasmuchashei s
yours.Whatishappeningtohi
mi saffect
ingmetoo!
Youcan'tjustdecidewhenhewill
beoper at
ed
withoutevendiscussi
ngitwi
thmef i
rst!
Idi
dn' tevencarewhathewouldsayaboutme
rai
singmyv oi
ce,Iwasscr
eamingandcryingatthe
samet i
me.Hepi ckedmeupandheldme, Itr
ied
fi
ghtinghim offbutwhoam i Phi
laismuch
str
ongerthanmesoIshouldjustgiv
eup.He
coveredmymout hwit
hhishand!Ohnohedidn'
t!I
bi
thishandseveral
timesbutitdi
dn'
tev
enwor k
Phil
asandeareyoumadeofsteel??
Hef
inal
l
ymov
edhi
shandandIscr
eamed
Me:
arey
oucr
azy
!
Phil
a:youbett
ershutupSi
yamthanda!It
houghtI
wasdoi ngwhat'
sbestf
orhi
m!Youdi dheart
he
doctorsayassoonaspossi
ble!
Me:I'
m notdeaf
!Butyoushoul
d'
vet
alkedt
omef
ir
st,
Ial
sowantwhat'sbestf
orhim.
Phi
la:
Iam thef
atherofLesl
eyandIwi
l
ldeci
dewhat
todoforhi
m.Heismyson! !
Thishur
tmesomuchIjustdi
dn'
tev
enwantt
o
arguewit
hhi
m anyf
urt
her.
Me:
yesy
ou'
rer
ight
,hei
syourson.
We'
vebeenargui
ngandscr
eami
ngwedidn'
tev
en
r
eal
izeNayeandNkosiwer
ewat
chi
ngusandNaye
wascar
ryi
ngLesl
ey
Naye:Gl
ady ouhavefi
nall
ycomebacktoyour
senses,
thechil
dhasbeencryingnonst
opint
his
housebutyoudidn'
tevenhearhim
Nkosi
:sor
tyouri
ssuesoutandwe'
l
lbr
ingbackt
he
baby
Wi t
ht hatsaidtheyl
eft
,il
ookedaroundandt heyhad
packedhi sdiaperbagandbottl
es.Ipickedupa
papert hatwasont hefl
oorandwentt oanot her
room ont hesecondf l
oor
.Iwasbey ondbei ng
heartbroken.Sot omendmybr okenheart,Itookice
cream andl ayedonthebed.Phil
acamei nwi t
ha
bottl
eofCi rocandaspoon
Phi
l
a:MayI
?
Me:
sur
e
Phi
l
alay
ednextt
omeandat
emyi
cecr
eam
Me:
youdoknowIhat
eshar
ingi
cecr
eam
Phi
l
a:y
esbutIst
il
lwannashar
e
Wecont
inuedeat
ingi
nsi
l
encet
il
lthei
cecr
eam t
ub
wasf
ini
shed
Me:
whatnow?
Phi
l
a:wef
ini
sht
hisbot
tl
e
Me:
you'
reony
ourownt
her
eMr
,Idon'
tdr
ink.
Phi
l
a:wel
lIguessIhav
eital
ltomy
sel
f
Me:
andwheny
ou'
redr
unk,
you'
l
lsl
eepal
one
Phi
l
a:t
hat
'snothappeni
ng
Wel
aughedandt
her
ewasawkwar
dsi
l
ence
Phil
a:Abongil
eI'
m sor r
y,Idi
dn'
tmeant ohur tyou.I
spokeoutofanger ,Ishouldn'
thav esaidthet hingsI
sai
dandIknowi thur tyouandI'm deeplysorry.I
knowy oulov
eLesl eyandhei sy oursont ooandy ou
wantwhat'sbestofhi m.Itwassel fi
shofmet ojust
deci
dewi t
houttalkingtoy oufi
rst,hi
m beingsi ck
j
ustscaresmeandIr eall
ydon'
twantany t
hingt ogo
wrong,Iwanttopr otecthim.Imr eal
lysorry
WhatIlov
eaboutPhil
aist
hatheacknowl
edgeshi
s
mi
stakesandsi
ncerel
yapol
ogizes
Me:Itdidreall
yhurtmeNgcobo, butIunderst
and.
I
m sorryforraisi
ngmyv oiceatyouand
di
srespecti
ngy ou.Il
oveLesleyandIalsowant
what'
sbestf orhim,butIwould'
veappreci
atediti
f
y
out
alkedt
omef
ir
stbef
oremaki
ngt
hatdeci
si
on.
Phil
a:It
sjustt hatIfeell
ikeIhavet oprotectyou
guys,hi
m andy ou.Thedeci si
onsImakear eto
prot
ectyou, Idon'twantt oloosey ouguys, whenwe
l
ostourtwinsIcoul dn'tprotectthem andt heydied.I
don'twantthatt ohappent oLesley ,
Idon'twantt o
fai
lhimto,idon' twanttof ail
you.
Me: you'l
lneverfailusMaphol oba, welov eyouand
appreciateeverythingy oudoforus, t
het wins
passingwasn' tyourf ault
,youcouldn'tprotectthem
causey oudidn'tknowaboutt hem babe.Sost op
beati
ngy ourselfupf orasi t
uationyoucoul dn'
t
control
.Youhav et ol
etgoPhi lasande,youhav et o
stopblami ngyour sel
f.
Phi
la:Iwoul
d'v
edonesomet
hingt
hough,maybeI
would'
veseenOrati
l
ecomi
ngtopushyou.Maybei
would'
vesavedthem
Me: butyoudidn'
tseeher,
weallwer
en'
texpect
ingi
t.
Please,l
etitgo.Doitf
orLesl
eyandmysel
f.Weneed
yout ol
etgo
Phi
l
a:It
hinkaboutt
hem ev
ery
day
,whenev
erIhol
d
Lesl
eyIthinkoft
hem,howtheywouldlook,what
wouldtheybedoing Idon'tt
hinkI
'
lleverbeabl
eto
for
getaboutthem
Me: Youdon'thavetoforgetthem,justletgoand
acceptthatt
heyar enothere,theypassedawayand
therewasnot hi
ngwecoul ddoabouti t.Beatpeace
withthatandstopblamingy oursel
f.
Phi
l
a:t
hatwi
l
lber
eal
l
yhar
dtodobutI
'
llt
ry.
Me:t
hat
'sast
art
,nowst
opdr
inki
ngt
haty
ou'
l
lget
dr
unk
Phi
l
a:okayi
'
llst
op,
letmecal
kNkosi
Hecal
l
edhi
m andputi
tonl
oudspeaker
Nkosi
:Sho
Phil
a:shar
p,we'
reokaynow.We'
l
lbef
etchi
ngJnr
soon
Nkosi
:Aaahsosoon?Emi
hlei
sst
il
lspendi
ngt
ime
wit
hhisbrot
her
Me:okayf
inewe'
l
lpi
ckhim upt
omor
rowmor
ning.
Hehastogett
othehospi
tal
Nkosi
:okaycool
then,
don'
tbr
eakeachot
her
snecks
t
here
Phi
l
a:wewon'
tman
Heendedt
hecal
landwewentdownst
air
s
Phil
a:y
ouwannagoonwi
thJnr
'soper
ati
on
tomorr
ow
Me:
yes
Phi
l
a:Thanky
ou
Me:
I'
mv er
yscaredthough,Ihopehe'
llbeokay
.He
i
sst
il
ltooyoungtogothroughallt
his
Phi
l
a:cansayt
hatagai
nbuthe'
l
lbeokay
.
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantf
orsupper
?
Phi
l
a:y
oudon'
thav
etocook,
we'
l
ljustor
der
Me:
arey
ousur
e?
Phi
l
a:y
oudon'
twantmet
ochangemymi
nd
Ij
ustl
aughedathi
m andwentt
osi
tdownatt
he
l
oungeandswit
chedontheTV
Phi
l
a:l
et'
swat
chsoccer
Me:r
eal
l
yman I
'
m aboutt
owat
chTheWendy
Wi
ll
i
amsshow
Phil
a:boring I
'
m goi
ngupst
air
s,I
'
llwat
ch
soccerthere
Me:
sui
tyour
sel
f
Hestoodupandt
ookt
hel
if
tandwentupst
air
s.I
wat
chedmyshowandhecal
led
Me:
we'
rei
nthesamehouseman
Phi
l
a:y
eahbutst
il
lImi
ssy
ou
Me:
Imi
ssy
out
oo
Phi
l
a:comeher
epl
ease
Me:aslongasy
oupr
omi
set
oletmewat
chmy
shows
Phi
l
a:Ipr
omi
se
Iendedthecal
landwenttoourroom upstai
rs.When
Igotther
ehewasl ayi
ngonthebed,nakedwithhi
s
penisup l i
keit'
sreadyt
okil
lsomebody
Phi
l
a:l
i
kewhaty
ousee?
Me:
may
be
Phi
l
a:comeher
e
Iwentt
ohi
m andwehadmanyr
oundsofgr
eat
sex
Afterafewhour
swet ookashowerandor
der
ed
Pizza.I
tcameaft
eranother30mi
nut
esandwe
tuckedin
Phi
l
a:Ndy
amt
handa,
Ilov
eyou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Phi
l
a:Pl
easesayt
hatagai
n
Ist
oodupandsai
dILOVEYOU!Loudl
yandhe
l
aughedatme
Phi
l
a:y
oudi
dn'
thav
etost
andup
Me:
Ithoughtst
andi
ngupwi
l
lmakeadi
ff
erence
Phi
l
a:You'
rer
eal
l
ycr
azy
,butIl
ovet
hatabouty
ou.
Me:Il
ovemet
oo wannagof
oraswi
m?
Phi
l
a:I
'
dlov
eto
It
ookofmydr
essandwewentt
othepool
area
Phi
l
a:t
akeof
fyourbi
ki
ni
Me:
real
l
y
Wet ookoffourunder
wearandjumpedi
nthepool
together
.WeplayedMarcoPolo andthenwe
kissed
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ouMaFuze
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMaphol
oba
Phil
a:whenwi
lluMembesot
akepl
ace,
I'
dli
kei
tto
happensoont
hough
Me:
babe,
Ithi
nkweshoul
dwai
tabi
t.
Phi
l
a:why
?
Me: I
t'
sKamo'sweddingin2weeks,Idon'twantt
o
behav i
nganyceremonynowwhenwe' llbebusy
withherwedding.I
t'
sherti
menowIdon' twantto
takeherspot
light
,pl
usther
e'l
lbechaosifwehaveto
j
ugglebothsides
Phil
a:ohIdi
dn'
tthi
nkoft
hat,
y esyou'r
eright.Iev
en
for
gotit
sherweddingwi
theveryt
hingthat'
sbeen
goi
ngon
Weconti
nuedtal
kingandthenki
ssedwhicht
urned
i
ntol
ovemaking Il
ovePhil
asande,
andIcannot
wai
ttobeoff
ici
all
yMr sNgcobo
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
kesuppor
tandcomment
Suggestpaget
ofr
iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
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1/11,
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enda:
Inser
t51
Todayi stheday ,theoperati
onwi l
lbedoneon
LesleyandIam v erynervousandscar ed Idon' t
wantJnrt ogothroughal lt
hatespeciall
ysincehei s
soy oungbuti t'
snowornev er
.Ican'tseem t oshake
offthet houghtofhim beingBli
nd, i
twi l
lbev er
ysad
thathewon' tseet hebeautyoflif
eandhewon' t
experienceanor mal chil
dhood.Ihopehe' s
treatmentwor ks.We'reonourwayt ofetchhi mf r
om
Nay e'
shousesi ncehesl eptoverthere.Thisishis
secondsl eepov erandhehasn' tbeenanyt rouble,
mysoni sgrowing .Wegott hereandNay egav e
mehi sbagsandIputt hem i
nthecar
Nkosi
:we'
l
lbecomi
ngwi
thy
ou
Phi
l
a:t
hanksman,
real
l
yappr
eci
atei
t
Wegotint
ot hecaranddrovetothehospi
tal
,Lesl
ey
wasabitbettert
odayandhewaspl ayi
ngontopof
meandlaughingnonstop,t
hisjustmademecr y,
I
wi
pedofmyt ear
sbefor
eanyonecanseebutnope
t
hey'
veallseen
Nay
e:st
opcr
yingsweet
hear
the'
l
lbeokay
Me: I
'mjustscaredthat'
sall
.Ifakedasmi leand
Phil
ablewaki ssatme, hewasdr iv
ing.Wegott o
thehospit
alsandIcar r
iedmybabyt otherecept
ion,
Athicameandhewaswi thDrMazibuko.Wewer e
usheredtoourdesignatedwaiti
ngr oom andthen
nursescamei nwithasmal lbedtot akemyson
Phi
l
a:canwecomewi
th?
Nurse:
yesforafewminut
es,
he'
l
lbegoi
ngt
hrough
sur
geryinj
ust25mmins
Me:
25mi
ns?I
sn'
tthatt
oosoon?
Dr
:Thesoonert
hebet
ter
.
InoddedandPhi
l
ahel
dmyhand
Phi
l
a:don'
twor
ry,
he'
l
lbeokay
Inoddedandfakedasmi l
e,honestl
yI'm mor
ethan
worri
edri
ghtnow.Hewenti ntotheatr
eandwewer e
tol
dtogobackt othewait
ingroom, Ist
oodther
e
andwatchedthem astheyputallt
hosemachineson
mylit
tl
ebaby
Nur
se:
youneedt
oleav
emam
IwalkedoutandPhi
lat
ookmyhandandwewalked
backtothewait
ingr
oom,Nkosi
wasther
ebutNaye
wasn't
Me:
wher
eisNay
e?
Nkosi:
shewenttocheckonanot
herpat
ientAt
hi
neededhel
pwit
h.
Wesatt hereforwhatf
eltl
ikehour sandhours,
I
stoodupandwal kedaround,Ifeelli
keI'
mloosi
ng
mymi nd.Havingtowaithereisjustscar
y,t
hemore
hoursthatpassbythewor seIfeel
Phil
a:youhav
etocal
m downbabe,
itsj
ustbeent
wo
hours
Me:
what
!Onl
ytwohour
s?Wel
ltheyar
etaki
ngt
oo
l
ong,
itf
eel
sli
kei
tsbeen10hour
sal
ready
Nay ewalkedinwithtakeawaysfrom JohnDori
sand
Latte'
s,j
ustwhatIneeded.I '
vesl
oweddownonmy
redbull
sbutitseemsasi fLatteandbaronecake
aremynewobsessi ons.Isatdownandat e,
Idi
dn'
t
evennot i
cethatIwashungr y
Phi
l
a:wantmor
e?
Me:
noI
'
m okaynowt
hanks
Il
ayedonhi schestandhekeptonpl ayi
ngwit
hmy
hai
r,whichremindsmeIneedt oredothishai
rstyl
e.
Myhairisamessr ightnowbuttheleastofmy
worr
ies.Irecei
vedacallfr
om Phi
lasande'smother
Me:
SawbonaMa(hel
l
omom)
Ma:
Makot
i,howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m okayandy
our
sel
f
Ma:
I'
m wel
lthanks,
how'
smyl
i
ttl
egr
andson?
Me:Heisst
il
li
nsur
ger
yma,
we'
vebeenwai
ti
ngf
or
hour
snow
Ma:
I'
m sor
rywecan'
tbet
her
e,Ihopehewi
l
lbeokay
.
Cal
lmei
fther
ear
eanychanges.
Me:
OkayMaIwi
l
ldoso
Wechat
tedabi
tandsai
dourgoodby
es
Phi
l
a:t
hatwasmymom?
Me:
yes
Phi
l
a:Ihadamom,
nowshe'
sdi
sownedmef
ory
ou
Me: y
ou'
l
lhav
etobest
rong,
jeal
ousydoesn'
tsui
t
you
Wel
aughedandheki
ssedmycheek
Me:
Thanky
ou
Hewi nkedatme.Hei sreal
lytry
ingtocheermeup
andIappreciatetheef
fort butI '
m sti
llj
ustwait
ing
onthesedoct or
s,what'
stakingthem solong We
satt
her eandwaitedandafteranother3hours,
Dr
Mazibukocameandwequi cklystoodup
Phi
l
a:howi
she?
Dr:
hei sokay andhe' seyesarerespondingvery
wellt
ot het
reatment,wetr
eatedhi
mj ustaftert
he
sur
gery.Hislegwil
lful
lyr
ecoveri
nt henextfew
weeks,f
ornowheisj
ustokay.Imustsayy ouhavea
str
ongchil
d heco-operat
edv er
ywell
,it
'sshocking
causehe'
ssti
ll
ver
yyoung.I
t'
slikeheunderstood
whatwasgoingon
Me:
youoper
atedhi
m whi
l
ehewasawake!
Dr:of
causenot
,butweneededhi
mtobeawakef
or
theeyetr
eat
ment
Me:
oh Iwasr
eal
l
ygoi
ngt
obi
tey
ourheadof
f
Weal
ll
aughed
Phi
l
a:whencanweseehi
m?
Dr
:inanhourorso,
I'
ll
sendanur
set
ocomecal
lyou.
Me:
Thanky
ouv
erymuchdoct
or
Dr:it
sbeenapleasur
e,wellmyjobherei
sdone.
Pleasedobri
nghiminafter2weekssowecan
checkhispr
ogressandremovet hepr
ost
hesi
s.
Phi
l
a:wi
l
ldoandt
hanky
ouv
erymuch
DrMazi
bukol
eftandIwasv
eryhappyandexci
ted!
Me:
Whatar
eli
ef I
'
m sohappy
!
Phil
a:metoobabe hecar
ri
edmeandwehugged
forawhi
leandanur
secamein
Nur
se:
youmayseey
ourbaby
,fol
l
owme
Iwant
edt
ogetdownbutPhiladidn'
twantt
osohe
car
ri
edmetoLesl
ey'
sroom andthenputmedown.
Mysonwassl
eepi
ngpeacefull
y
Me:Isn'
thejustcute? Iwonderi
fthest
eel
onhi
s
kneeisn'
theavyforhi
m
Phi
l
a:may
bei
tis,
butI
'
m sur
ehe'
sokay
Hewokeupaf t
erafewminutesandhewas
f
idgeti
ngwit
hhisey
es.At
hi cameinwit
hanot
hert
all
i
ndianguy
Athi
:guys,meetDrPadayashee,
hei
sanopti
mist
andhe'sheretocheckLesl
eyandwi
llbei
nchar
ge
ofmakingglassesforhi
m
Phi
l
a:gl
asses?
Athi
:ohDrMazi bukofor
gott
ot el
lyou,yeshe'
llbe
needi
ngglassestoseeandsincethereareno
gl
assesforhisage,he'
ll
behavingglassesspecial
l
y
madeforhim
Me: ohmyson ,atl
easthe'
l
lgetusedtot
hem ata
youngage.Whi
chr
emindsme, y
ou'
llbe8mont
hs
soonbaby
MrPadayasheedi
dsomemeasurement
sand
what
everhewasdoingt
henhesaidhewil
lcont
act
usi
ntwoday s.
Phi
l
a:Thanky
ouv
erymuchsi
r
Athi
:youcant
akehim home,j
ustbecar
eful
wit
hhi
m
Iknowhowhelovesplayi
ngar
ound.
Me:
we'
l
lkeepaney
eonhi
m 24/
7
Thenursecameandgav eusmedi cati
onandwe
signeddischargedocumentsandIpackedhi sbag
andwel eft,wefir
stdroppedoffNay eandNkosi
thenwenthome.I twas7pm al readyandIwast i
red.
IbathedLesleyandf edhim,gav ehim all
hismeds
andputhi mi nhi
sbedandhef ellasleep
i
mmedi ately
Me:
wel
lthatwaseasy
Phi
l
a:yeahhey,
comesither
ebabey ouneedt
orel
ax
soI
'm goi
ngtogiv
eyouagreatmassage
Me:
soundsgr
eat
Il
ayedt
hebedonmyst
omachandhesatonmy
but
t
Me:youdoknowyou'r
emadeofst
eel
,soy
ou'
re
br
eakingmybonesandmyass
Phi
la:I
'
m socomf
ort
ableher
eri
ghtnow ev
enMr
Ngcobodownher
eislovi
ngi
t
Me:youper
v,getof
fme! hel
aughedatmeand
gotof
f
Phi
l
a:wai
ther
e,I
'
llbebacki
n10mi
ns
Me:wow,nowIhav
etowai
tfort
hismassage,
great
,
j
ustgr
eat
.
Iwasalr
eadyt
alkingtomy sel
fsi
ncehewasgone .
Icl
osedmyeyesandwai t
edforhi
m.Iqui
ckl
ywoke
upwhenIfel
tav eryverycol
dsubst
anceonmyback
sl
idi
ngdownmyspi ne
Me:
Phi
l
a!Whatt
hehel
l
I
twasi
ceanddamnwasi
tcol
d
Phi
l
a:t
urnar
ound
Idi
dashesaidandhet
ookof
fal
lmycl
othesandI
waslef
tnaked
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
l
lsee
Het ookabowl whi
chwasf ool ofmelt
edchocol at
e
andpour editcaref
ull
yonme, f
rom mybr easts
goingdownt omyv '
Jayj
ay.Heputt hebowl asi
de
andst ar
tedl i
cki
ngthechocolate.Iwassot ur
nedon
ri
ghtnowIf el
tmypunani get
tingwet.Ili
ckedof ft
he
chocolateonmybr eastsandsuckedont hem real
hard,iscreamed
Phi
l
a:sor
ryandhel
aughedatme
Hecont i
nuedlicki
ngi
tofft
il
lhereachedmyvagi
na,
helickeditsl
owlyandIwasloosi
ngmymi nd,
his
tongueplayedwi t
hmycli
t
Me:
Phi
l
a..
.Uhm.
.Phi
l
a
HesuckedmypussyandIfel
tmybodyjuicesbui
l
d
upandwhenIwassoclosehejustst
opped
Me:
whatt
hehel
l
?
Phi
l
a:what
'swi
tht
her
ush?
Ijustcl osedmyey esandbr eat
hedoutl oudly
.Just
whenIopenedmyey eshehasani cecubeinhis
mout handhewentdownt omypunani andrubbedit
onme Dearl or dopent hegat esofheaven! I
wasi nPar adise, thethingshewasdoi ngtomybody
Icoul dn'texpl ai
ni t.Iwasmoani ngoutsoloudlyand
Iclimaxed, hel i
ckedmecl eanandputchocol at
eon
hisdi ck,Goshi t
smyt urn may beIwil
lbebetter
thist i
mesi ncet her e'
schocolate.Ibentdownand
suckedhi sdi ckandImustsayI '
m gett
inggoodat
this,yeyI '
mi mpr oving hewasgr owli
ngand
scr eami ngoutmyname
Me:
you'
l
lwakeJnrupman
Icont inuedandhewasgr oani
ngoutl oudli
kehe
didn'tev enhearwhatIjustsai
d, Imassagedhi s
ballsandhewasf l
i
ppin! Ilov eitwhenIawaken
thebeasti nhim.Hecumedi nmymout handt hi
s
ti
me, Iswallowed i
tdidn'
ttast ethatbad.He
pickedmeupandpi nnedmeont hewal l
.Ohgosh,
heisaboutt otaremypunani i
ntopi eces .He
openedmyl egsandi nsertedhi
speni sand
rammer edme!Iwasscr eamingouthisname,
holdingandscr atchinghi sbackformydearl i
fe!My
nail
sar en'tthatlongsohewon' tbehur tthatmuch.
Het urnedmear oundandIkneel edont hef l
oorin
doggi estyle,hef uckedmel i
keitsmyl astandwe
bothcummedatt hesamet i
mescr eami ngeach
othersnamesandl ayedont hef l
oor.
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Phi
l
a:t
hatwasagr
eatmassage
Me:mxm t hatwasn'
tev
encl
oset
oamassagebut
yesi
twasgr
eat
Phi
l
a:wannahav
emor
eofi
t
Me:nothankyou,Iquicklyst
oodupandhechased
me.Itookali
ftgoingdownstair
sbuthewast her
e
al
readywhenIgott her
e.Iranandhecaughtmeand
putmeont opofthekitchencount
erandthenwehit
i
tagain
Af
teraf
ewhour
sofgr
eatsex.Wecal
l
edi
tani
ght
#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeupwi t
ht hebi ggestsmi leonmyf ace Phi la
wasshower ingalreadyandJnrwasst il
lasleep.I
tookoutPhila'sgreysui tandt henwenttomake
breakfastf
orhi m.Hewasgoi ngt oworktoday.He
camedownst air
sf ull
ydr essedbesidesthet i
e
I'
vemadei tmymor ningjobt ofixhi
sti
ef orhim,I
don'tknowwhyhecan' tdoi tanymorecausehe
taughtmewhenwewer eingr ade9.
Phi
l
a:Mor
ningMaFuze
Me:Morni
ng,
Iki
ssedhi
m andf
ixedhi
sti
e.Br
eakf
ast
i
sready
Phi
l
a:Thanky
ou
Hesatdownandate,
het henwentupst
air
sand
camebackwit
hhisbri
efcase.
Phi
la:
byebabe,by
eboy.Heki
ssedmeandf
ist
bumpedJnrwit
hhisl
i
ttl
ehand
Helef
tandMavi
s(oneoft hehelper
s)camet ocl
ean
i
nthekit
chenwegetalongreall
ywellandshe'sl
i
ke
amothertome,
theotherhelper
sIalsogetalong
wi
thbutI
'
m cl
osert
oher
.
Mav
is:
Hei
sal
uckyman
Me:
whatar
eyout
alki
ngaboutMa
Mavi
s:youremindmeofmy selfwhenIwasy oung.
Myhusbandcamehomewi th3boy ssayi
ngtheyare
hi
schil
drenandtheyhav
enowher etogo.Wewer e
marr
iedfor10y
earsandIdi
dn'tevenknowthem.
Me;
hah!Thr
eeki
dsandwhatdi
dyoudo
Mav i
s: Iwasv eryangr yandhurtatfi
rst
.Ifel
t
bet r
ay edbutt heywer ekids,t
heyneededahome.He
wast heirfather,iwasmar ri
edtohim andIloved
him.SoIputal lmyf eeli
ngsasideandaccepted
them.Ihadnochi l
dofmyownsot heybecamemy
children.Iwasj ust28y ear
soldwhenIf el
lpregnant
withmyv eryfir
stchild.Aft
eraf ewyear
s,theyboth
diedinacaracci dentandoneofhi sboys.NowI '
m
l
ef twi t
hourt wosons.
Me:I
'
m sosorr
y,t
hat'
sav
erysadst
ory
.I'
m sur
eit
wasver
yhar
dforyou.
Me:
yesi
twas,
butIpul
l
edt
hrough.Ihadt
obe
strongformychil
dren.Ithur
tmet hatIhadlostmy
onlyv er
yownchil
dt hatIcar
ri
edinmywombbut
Godhadbl essedmewi thmyt wosons.Theyar e
grownupnowandv erysuccessful,they'
venever
evergav emeahardt i
menordi srespectedme.Iam
apr oudmother
Me:wowthat
'sr
eal
l
ygr
eat
.Whyar
eyout
ell
i
ngme
t
hist
hough?
Mav is:becausey ouar etrul
ywhatt heycallawoman,
youar ey oungmychi ldbuty ouhav ewentt hrough
somuchandy oust il
lri
seandst ayst r
ong.Yourson
willonedayl ookupt oy ouandbepr oudthaty ouare
hismot her.Ittakest ruecourageandst r
engtht odo
whaty oudi d,mostwomanwoul dn'tdoso, butyou
aredi f
ferent.Afterev ery
thingthatOr ati
ledidt oyou,
youputal l
thatasi deandl ovedJnrl i
keyourown.
Youar eat ruewomani ndeed.Keepi tupmy
daught er
, youar egoingt obeawi fesoon.Youwi ll
buildyourhomeandhav eagreatf ami l
y,nomat ter
whathappensi ny ourmar ri
agemydaught er.Don't
forgettogetony ourkneesandpr ay ,i
ngoodand
badt imes.
Me:Thanky
ouma.Thosewor
dsr
eal
l
ymeanal
ott
o
me
Mav
is:
letmegocl
eanupst
air
s
Shel ef
tmeamazedandf eel
inggood.I
tsal
ways
greattoheargoodandencouragi
ngwordsoncei
na
while.
Ipl
ayedwi thLesleyforawhi l
eandthenwet ooka
bathtogether
.Iwor emyt i
ghtdenim dr
essand
sandals.Jnrworeadeni m shortandwhit
et'shi
rt
wit
hhi sNikekicks.Phil
adoesn'twantmet odriv
e
wheni t
sjustJnrandIsoIcal ledacabandi tcame
aft
eraf ewmi nutes
Me:woul
dyoupleaset
akemetoWool
wor
thsf
ir
st
t
hendropmeoffatmydest
inat
ion
Dr
iver
:yesmam
Igott
owoolwort
hsandboughtl
unchf
orPhi
l
aand
wenttohi
sworkpl
ace
Me:
Thanky
ou
Dr
iver
:Pl
easur
eandhedr
oveof
f
IputJnri
nhi
spr
am andt
henwentt
othet
opf
loor
andgott
oLee-
Aant
her
ecept
ioni
st
Lee-
Ann:
Mor
ningMsShezi
,whodowehav
eher
e
Thisist
hefi
rstt
imePhi
la'
sstaf
fwill
seeLesl
ey,
every
onecameandtheywereplay
ingwit
hJnr.Af
ter
awhilehecr
iedandIt
ookhim
Me:ssshmybaby andhest
opped.Phi
l
acame
andhewassti
l
lspeaki
ngt
oabunchofmen
Lee-Aan:hewasst
il
linameeting,
shewhi
sper
ed
andwentbacktoherdesk.Phi
l
asawusandthey
walkedtowar
dsus
Phi
la:
Gentl
eman,
meetmywi
feMr
sNgcoboandmy
sonLesl
eyJnr
Weshookhandsandt
heyi
ntr
oducedt
hemsel
vest
o
me
Me:I
tsapl
easur
etomeety
oual
l
.Phi
l
a,I
'
llbe
wai
ti
nginy
ouroff
ice
Henoddedandcontinuedtal
ki
ngtotheseguysand
wewenttohisoff
ice.I
twasneatl
ypackedandIsat
onthecouchwhil
eJnrwasont hecarpetf
loor
pl
ayingwit
htoy
s.Ididn'
tknowPhil
akeptsomet oy
s
i
nher
e.Jnrf
ell
anhur
thi
slegabi
tandcar
ri
edhi
m
Me:
ssshsor
rybaby
,don'
tcr
ynow
Phi
l
awal
kedi
nandt
ookLesl
eyt
henhekeptqui
et
Phi
l
a:whathappened?
Me:
hehur
thi
sleg
"
Dada"Jnrsai
d
Phi
l
a:di
dyouheart
hat
?
Me:
Yes!
!Hesai
dhi
sfi
rstwor
ds!
Jnrsai
dDadaagai
nandwel
aughed,
Iwassohappy
Ihadtear
sfl
owi
ngonmycheeks
Phi
la:
don'
tcr
ynow .I
'
mver
ypr
oudofy
oumy
son
Me:
sor
ry,
I'
mjustsohappy
Iwasreall
yhappyandIdidn'texpecthi
mt osayhis
fi
rstwordstoday
,I'
m notsurewhenachi ldis
supposedtosayhisfi
rstwordsbutI'm happyJnr
hassaidhis thi
sisav eryspeci
aldayfor
hi
m soonwe'l
lbehavinggreatconversat
ions
wi
thhi
m

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
kesuppor
tandcomment
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ofr
iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
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sgr
ow
[
1/11,
00:
34]Tat
enda:
Inser
t52
Mont hshav epassed, it
sDecemberal r
eadyand
todayi suMembeso.Thi ngshav ebeengoodbut
we'v ehadourbadday swher ewejustar guef or
nothingandki ssi tallaway .Lesl
eyremov edt he
prost hesisandhei sMrGeek yeahhewear s
glassesnow, atfir
stitwasawkwar dandr eallyfunny
butwe' v
egot t
enusedt ohi m.Iwasaf r
aidhemi ght
breakt hem butt heywer eaper fectfitandt heydon't
fallatall.Heisnowcr awl i
ngaroundandheget s
reallyexcitedsomet imesandf all
s i
tspr et
ty
cute, hecanst andf oraf ewmi nutesandf all
sagain.
Philaenj oysspendingt imewi thhim, heev en
stoppedwor kingonFr i
dayssohecanbehome
mor eof t
en.Ididn'tagreewi thhi m atf i
rstbutt henhe
alway smakeshi sowndeci sionsandIj usthav eno
energyt oarguewi t
hhi m any mor e.LesleyandI
camet omyhomet woday sago, Moms
i
nstruct i
ons .Ncebai sfinallydonewi t hherexams
andherr el
ati
onshi pwithThapel oi sgett i
ngpr etty
seri
ousandI '
m happyf orthem t houghi tgotser ious
atthewr ongt ime .I
'vebeensi tt
ingi nt hi
sr oom
forasl ongasIcanr emember ,myaunt ieshav ebeen
goingi nandoutev ensomeIdon' tevenknow,
they'
v ebeengi vi
ngmemar ri
ageadv iceespeci ally
AuntPam, shehashad4f ailedmar ri
agesbutshe
hast hegut stositinfrontofmeandt ellme
"Marriageismeantt olastf orever" what
happenedt olasti
ngf oreveri nhermar riage?But
waitletmenotj udgemay bemi newon' tev enlast .
Mymom comesi nt ogetme, shet hi
nksI '
l
l belate
Me: I'
vedressedupmom, l
ook.Idi
da360t ur
nfor
herandshewashappy ,Iwaswear i
ngat r
adit
ional
Zuluatti
reandmyski r
twasabi ttolongformy
l
iki
ngbutt herewasnothingIcoulddoaboutit.I
don'tknowany t
hingaboutmembeso, itwil
lbemy
f
ir
stt
imeev
erexper
ienci
ngt
his.
Me:
sowhathappensnow?
Mom: Thereedgir
lsarehereal
ready,
andmostof
yourcousi
ns.You'
llgooutwit
hthem, si
ngi
ngand
t
radit
ional
dancingwil
lbetaki
ngplacefornow
Me:kumel
engisi
ne? (Ihav
etodot
he
t
radi
ti
onal
dance)
Mom:
yes
Me:
Mom Ican'
tev
enl
i
ftmyl
egup
Mom: Idi
dn'
ttell
Philat
otakeyourv
irgi
nit
ysoCc
you'l
lhavetopickitupl
ikeyoudounderthose
blankets
Theshockofmyl i
fe! whatdidshesay ? I
won'tevenanswert ot
hispl ease.Ij
ustsmiledand
l
ookedather ,Iwentoutsi
deandZandy ,Sneh,Naye
andNt okozoweretherealsodr essedi
nt r
aditi
onal
att
ir
essi ngi
ngwiththegir
ls
Zandy:(
ulul
ates)nangumakot
i! andshedoesa
vosho
Naye:
yeyZandi
l
e,you'
reembarr
assi
ngus
Phi
l
a'speopl
ewil
levengobackwhentheyseey
ou
Nt
okozo:
Youl
ookbeaut
if
ulbabes
Weal l t
alkedforawhileandAuntPam cameand
shout edatus shet hinksthi
sisherceremony.
Shet aughtusaf ewsongsthatwewi ll
singandt
old
met opi ckupmyl egabithi
gherwhichissomethi
ng
Iwill
notdo .Ther ewasal oudnoisecomingfr
om
downt hestreetandmycousi nBenathicame
runni
ng
Hi
m:Sebef
iki
l
e(t
hey
'vear
ri
ved)
Sneh:t
heyareser
iousboh theywantev
ery
onet
o
see,whydi
dtheystar
tfr
om t
her
e.
Naye:Youguy saresoboring,
Ithi
nkI '
mt heonl
yone
i
nterest
edingetti
ngtolearnaboutthisceremony,
maybet her
e'sareasontheydoingthat
Me:
Youmysi
ster
,ar
ever
y
ser
ious .Let'
sgo,wehavetobeint
hefrontrow
andweallst
art
edsingi
ngatthet
opofourvoices,I
swearIcanonl
yhearzandi
l
eandshe'
soutoft une
Nt
oko:
babesl
owery
ourv
oice,
uyabi
mba
Zandy
:butI
'
mleadi
ngt
hesong
Nay
e:i
t'
shor
ri
blegi
rl
,dont
Wealll
aughedandBabal
wacamef
rom nowher
e
andl
edthesong
Me:
wher
ewer
eyou?Iwhi
sper
ed
Bee:
Hel
pingi
ntheki
tchen
TheNgcobosappear edandst oodbyt hegate,
Philasande hewassohandsomewear i
ngi Bheshu
withLubah, Nkosi andBonganextt ohim,theot her
s
wer eatthef ol
lowingrowandhi suncl es.Phil
a's
fatherstart
edshout ingoutmycl annames" Shezi,
Dlaba, Sgananda,Chube,Shukul ase"andpeopl e
wer eululat
ing.Myuncl eopenedt hegateandt hey
camei n.Bot hgroupswer esingingdiffer
entsongs
andi twasact ual
lyfunnycauseIendedupsi nging
thesongPhi l
a'ssi
dewer esinging
Naye:i
tshowsy
ou'
regoi
ngt
obepar
toft
hem
soon
Ev
ery
onewentt
othet
entandwewer
eal
lseat
ed.
Mymom wassi tt
ingont hefloorthewhol etimeand
sheisnotsupposedt ogetup, ithassomet hingto
dowi thhergivi
ngmebadl uckonmymar r
iagesi nce
shenev ergotmar ried.TheMCwasnoneot herthan
thelovelyAthi , thepr ogram wentf asterthanI
thoughtitwould,giftswer eexchangedandev er
y one
gotwhatt heywer esupposedt ogeti t.I
twasnow
ti
mef ormet ogogetdr essedinmysecondat ti
re
whichIwi ll
begi v
enbyt heNgcobof ami lytoshow
thattheyhav eaccept edmeandIam par tof
them.Phila'
sauntiest ookmet omyr oom andIgot
dressedina" Sdwaba"whi chwasv eryheav y ,
thank
godIhav ecur v
e'sandanasst ohol dthi
sup i ts
real
lyheav y
Me:
won'
ti
tfal
l
?It
sreal
l
yheav
y
Aunt
1laughsatme:
Noi
twon'
tfal
lmakot
i.
Yeahthat
'swhatIam now, Iam uMakotiwakwa
Ngcobo wegotoutandt herewasal otofsi
ngi
ng
andulul
ating.Iwasusheredt oPhil
asandewitha
spearwhichIhadputi nf
rontofhim andsayhiscl
an
names,mi ndme, Iwaskneelinglooki
ngdown
Whataret heydoi
ngt ome
Me: Ngcobo,Mapholoba,Mashi
y'amahl
engat
hi
azoshumay el
a,Fuzeful
elaqadi
-l
ihl
emshiwa,
biza
mgudlwa.
Hisaunt
swerescr
eamingandul
ulat
ing,
ist
oodup
andheheldmyhandandsmil
ed
Phi
l
a:Mf
azi
wami
(mywi
fe)
Ismiledandt earsfellonmycheeksandhewi ped
them of f
,Iwasget t
ingreallyemot ional andIt ur
ned
andlookedatmymom.Wewer ebot hcr yingand
shebl owedmeaki ssandIsmi l
edandst oodwi th
theNgcobos.Ev eryoneul ulated,yesthisi si t
.Ther e
wasaguyf rom homeaf f
airswhowast her eandwe
l
egallygotmar ri
edbysi gningal lt
henessesar y
document ati
onwehadt osignandIwaswas
offi
ciall
yMr sNgcobo, IaskedPhi lawhydi dn'twe
signwhenwehav ethewhi teweddi ng, hisanswer
wast hathej ustcoul dn'
twai tanylonger , hewasme
tobeMr sNgcoboandev er yoneshoul daddr essme
l
ikethat andhedi dn'tevenseet hereasonwhywe
shouldhav eawhi teweddi ng Ment hough t here
i
sav eryhugeneedf orawhi teweddi ng, Ihav ebeen
dreami ngabouti tsinceIwas5y ear soldsoy es
ther
ei saneed.Everyonewaseat
ingandMr
Ngcobo(Phila'
sfather)st
oodupandspokeon
behalfoft
heNgcobo' s
Him: Todaywet hanky ou,thankt heShezi familyf
or
raisi
ngsuchabeaut i
ful,r
espectful wonderful
daughterf orus.Wehav eseent hatshei sagr eat
womanandwi l
lbeagoodwi fetooursonasshe
hasev enexceededourexpect ati
onsbef or
eweev en
paidlobolaf orher.Shehasbeenl oyalandlovi
ngt o
oursonsi ncet heywer e13y earsol d,l
if
ehappened
alongther oadbutt heyhav emanagedt obe
togetheragai nti
ll
now.Ihav enowor r
yforIknow
thatnomat terwhaty ouwi l
lstaywi l
lmyson.You
hav eacceptedourgr andsonwi thbot hwarm hands
andwet hanky ouf ort hat
.MaShezi ,youhav edone
wel l
.Het hensatdownandev er
yonecl appedt hei
r
hands.Mom camet oasshewasnowal lowedt o
standsincet hecer emonyi salmostov er
Mom: Nganeyam(Mychi l
d)Iam soproudofyou,I
thankgodIhav el
ivedtoseethi
sday.Youare
beauti
fulinev
erywayandknowt hatIl
ov eyouandI
willal
waysloveyou.You'
resomeone'
swi fenow,
don'
tembarr
assmepl ease don' twakeupat
10am CcIl
ivethatl
i
fenoty ou .Idon'tevenknow
whattosaybutI'
mjustsopr oudofyou.Takecare
ofMysonin-l
awandgr andson,thi
swill
alwaysbe
yourhome.
Me:Thankyoumom, seeyou'
ver
eal
l
ydonewel
l
,you
shouldbepr
oudofyoursel
f wit
houty
ouI
wouldn'
tbeher
eandIloveyoumom
Mom:
Ilov
eyout
oomydaught
er
Mysi
ster
scameandweshar
edagr
ouphug
Bee:
Lit
tl
esi
ster
,Gobuil
dy ourownhomenow I
l
oveyouanddon'
tfor
getthat
Nceba:yeahli
tt
lesi
ster,
youshoul
dalwaysknow
thatwewill
alwaysloveyouandcal
lusanyt
imefor
advice,
we'r
ehereforyou
Me:mxm list
ent
othi
skid Thankyouguy
s.And
you'
respeaki
ngasi
fI'
mleav
ingf
orev
er
Mom: i
t'
ssl
owlyhappeni
ng,Ial
waysknewI
shoul
d'
vehadaboy y ouwil
lal
lbemarri
edand
l
eavemealone.Onedown,twotogo
Bee:
Minama,
I'
ll
alway
sbeher
ewi
thy
ou
Mom:
tel
lthatt
oabl
i
ndper
sonmydaught
er.
Shesai
dandshel
eftust
her
e
Bee:
whatwast
hat
?
Nceba:
Idon'
tknow
Wejustal
ll
aughedandPhi
l
acamet
ost
eal
mef
rom
mysist
ers
Phi
l
a:Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me: t
hanky ou,youlook,tr
adit
ional .I
'v
enever
i
magi nedy ouweari
ngi bheshuandImustsayit
suit
sy ou.Thoughitshowst hesegir
lsmyproper
ti
es.
IsaidasItouchedhi schest
Phil
a:speaki
ngofwhi
ch,
Iwast
hinki
ngofget
ti
nga
tat
too
Me:t
att
oo?Soundsl
i
keagoodi
dea.We'
l
ldoi
t
t
oget
her.
Phil
a:Wehavetogetgoi
ngbabe,
west
il
lhav
eto
tr
avelal
lthewayt
oLadysmit
h.
Lady
smi
thi
sPhi
l
a'shome,
wher
ehi
sgr
eatgr
eat
grandfat
herli
vedandi thasbeenafamil
yhomeand
nowhi sfat
herstaysthere,i
t'
sa3hourdri
vef
rom
hereandwehav etobet her
eandasmallwel
coming
ceremonywi l
lbedone, f
orthem t
oacceptmeand
i
ntroducemet otheirancestor
s.
Me:
okayl
etmegosaygoodby
etomymom
Il
ookedf
orherandf
oundheratt
heki
tchen
Me:
Mom we'
rel
eav
ingnow
Mom:t
akethismychi
l
d,i
twi
l
lal
way
sremi
ndy
ouof
meandyourhome.
Me:Mom, y
ou'r
emakingmeemot
ional
.I'
l
lal
way
s
comevi
sityouwhenIcan
Mom: yesbutIhavet
hreeofthese,Ivowedt
ogi
ve
eachoneofyouwheny ougetmar r
ied nowgoI '
l
l
seeyousoon,call
mewheny ouar r
ive
Babalwacamewi thLesl
eyandItookmyson,I
haven'
tseenhim al
lday.Heisnowspeaki
nghi
s
geberi
shlanguage whi chIenj
oyver
ymuch
Bee:
I'
ll
begoi
nghomewi
thBongaandNcebai
s
st
ayi
ngher
e.
Me:
okaysweet
ieseey
ouwhenIgetbackt
oDur
ban
Lesl
eyandIwentt
oPhi
l
a'sJaguarandPhi
l
awas
dri
vi
ng
Phil
a:i
t'
sget
ti
ngabi
tcol
dnow,
don'
tyouwantt
o
change
Me:
babeIhav
etoweart
hiswhenIgett
oyourhome
Phil
a:t
akeaj er
seyt
hanandgetdr
essed,
youcan'
t
getacold.SamegoesforJnr
I
t sveryhardtogetJnrtowearaj er
sey
,hehat esit
wi t
hev er
ythi
nginhim t hat
'swhyIdon'tbuyhim
j
er sey
swi thaziporbut
t onscausehefi
ddlestil
lhe
takesitoff.Hehasgrownsomuch .Hef i
nall
y
gav ei
nandwor ethejersey
Phi
l
a:Hei
sver
yst
ubbor
n
Me:
takest
hatf
rom hi
sdad
Phi
la:andmom,
youf
orgett
haty
ou'
repi
gheadedor
i
sitdenial
?
Me:
Iwon'
tanswert
othat
Thedr
ivewasshor
tert
hanIexpect
edandwear
ri
ved
athi shomeat8pm.Wegotoutt hecarand
Namhl a(Phi l
a'ssist er
)camet otakeLesl ey.Phil
a'
s
fatherledthecer emonyandIwasst il
latt hegate
thewhol etime, theyopenedt hegat eandIwas
sprinkledwith"iny ongo"andwelcomedi n.Wehadt o
goar oundt heent ireyard.Aft
erallwasdonewegot
i
nsi dethehouseandIchangedi ntoal ongnav y
dress.Phila'ssistershadal r
eadypreparedsupper
andweat e.Phila'smom andIwashedt hedi shes
Ma:
I'
m sur
eyouv
eryhappymydaught
er
Me:
yesIam ma,
ithasbeenagr
eatday
Wecl eanedupthekitchenandevery
onewentt o
theirbedrooms.Philahashisownbackroom so
doesBr i
anasidefr
om t hemai
nhouse.Philahad
alreadybathedJnrwhenIgott hereandtheywere
playingont hebed.Itookashowerthenjoi
nedthem.
Iwasv eryt
iredandithasbeenalongday
Me:
Ineedt
osl
eep,
Ihav
etowakeupear
ly
t
omorr
ow
Phi
l
a:Okaymakot
i
Me:
mxm y
ou'
rel
aughi
ngatme
Wewon'tbehavi
ngat radit
ional
weddi
ng,wehad
pl
annedtodoever
y t
hingweneedt odoandithasbe
done.Wewil
lbestayi
ngf oraweekher
ein
Ladysmi
thandIwil
lbef ul
fi
lli
ngmydut
iesasa
makoti
Isett
heal
armf
or5:
30am andIsl
ept

#NEXTMORNI
NG
Myal ar
mi sjusttortur
e!It
s5:30alr
eady,
Ifeell
ike
i
gnoringitbutIhav etowakeup, asmom saidI
won'tembarrassher .Itookashowerandwhen
IcamebackPhi l
awasn' ti
nbedany moreandhe
tookLesleywithhi m.Iwenttothemainhouseand
Nandi(Phil
a'ssister,t
hefi
rstborn)wasinthe
kit
chen
Me:
Mor
ning
Nandi
:you'
reupear
ly
Me:
it'
samust
Nandi
:thewor
kshey,Ihadt
obeupat4am whenI
wasatmyhusband'
shomef ort
hef
ir
stt
ime.
Me:
yohsoear
ly wher
eisPhi
l
a?
Nandi:theywentforaj
ogwit
hdadandBrian.Jnri
s
sl
eepinginmybed, hedi
dn'
twantt
oleav
ehi m al
one
whil
ey oushowered
Me:
ohokay
,ev
ery
one'
supal
ready
?
Nandi:
We'real
lear
lybi
rdsi
nthi
shousebesi
desmy
motherandNamhla shecansleeptheent
ir
eday
Me: y
ou'
rej
ustmessi
ngwi
thher
Nandi
:you'
l
lsee
Im notreall
yusedt oPhi la'
ssist
ers,we'vemet
beforebutwedon' tknoweachot herthatmuchso
i
tsstil
ljustawkwar df orme.Wepr eparedbr eakfast
,
shetoldmehowt hingsar edoneher e.Fir
stsof t
porri
dget henfullEnglishbreakf
ast.Imadet hesof t
porri
dgeandPhi l
acamebackf r
om hi sjog.They
fr
eshenedupt hencamet ohavebreakfast,everyone
wasatt het abl
ebesi desNamhl a
Phi
l
a'sf
ather
:wher
e'sNamhl
a?
Shecamer
unni
ngf
rom upst
air
sandj
oinedusatt
he
tabl
e
Nandi
:seewhatIt
oldy
ou?Sheknowsdadwi
l
lki
l
l
heri
fhecomestowakeherup
Weat eandt henIwashedt hedi shes.Icl eanedup
thehousewi thNamhl aandNandi helpi
ngme.At
8am ev ery
onecamebackt ot het ableforaf ul
l
breakfastanditseemedasi fi t
'sar outinethatthey
arealreadyusedto.PhilaandBr i
ancl earedthetabl
e
andwashedt hedisheswhileIf edJnr .Ibathedhim
anddr essedhim upinwar m clothes, Iwenttothe
bathroom leavi
nghimi ntheroom soIcancl eanup,
whenIt urnedaroundhewasst andingbehi ndme
Me: wai
t!Howdi
dyougether
e?
Iwalkedtothedoorandhet i
ptoedbehindme
holdi
ngmydr ess!Ipi
ckedhim upandhuggedhim.I
screamedsoloudI '
m sur
etheneighborshear
dme.
Theentir
efamilywasinNandi'
sr oom i
njusta
second
Phi
la:
what'
sgoingon! hewasal
readyl
ooki
ng
ar
oundthehouse
Il
aughed
Me:sor
ryIdi
dn'
tmeant
oscar
eev
ery
onebutJnrcan
wal
k!
Phi
l
a:what
?
Iputhi
m downandt
henhewal
kedt
oPhi
l
a
Iwassoshockedandv eryHappyatt
hesame
ti
me mysoni sjustgrowingandi
tsal
lj
ust
happeni
ngsofast
Br
ian:
Yesboy
!We'
l
lbeget
ti
ngy
ougi
rl
fr
iendssoon
Ma:
that
'sal
lyouknow
Wealll
aughedandwenttothel
ounge.I
twasgreat
bei
nghereandIfel
tli
keIwasathome.Weall
just
getal
ongwellandPhi
la'
sver
ycloset
ohisf
amily
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
ke,
suppor
tandcomment
Suggestpaget
ofr
iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
#Let
sGr
ow
[
1/11,
00:
34]Tat
enda:
Inser
t53
It
'sbeenav erygr eatweekthatwespenti n
Ladysmith,I'
vegr ownmuchcl osertowithPhil
a's
famil
yespeci all
yNandi.Jnrisjustanunstoppabl
e
machine herunsaroundthehouse
uncontr
ollabl
yandhef al
lsalotthoughhedoesn' t
evencare,hisav eryenerget
icchild.Phi
l
aisdrivi
ng
andwe'reonourwayt oDurban
Phi
l
a:baber
emembert
het
att
ooIwast
alki
ngabout
?
Me:
wer
eyouser
ious?
Phi
l
a:y
esbabe
Me:ohIdi
dn'
tev
enthi
nky
ouwer
econsi
der
ingi
t.
Whendoyouwantt
ogeti
t?
Phil
a:Today
,Iwasact
ual
l
ythi
nki
ngweshoul
dbot
h
geti
t
Me:
that
'scool
butwhyt
oday
?
Phil
a:j
ust,
andwehav enot
hingt
odowhenweget
toDurbansoIj
ustf
iguredweshoul
ddosomet
hing
exci
ti
ng
Me:
okay
Igoogledsomecooltatt
oosandwewer etalking
aboutthem al
ongtheway ,
hest oppedatKFCand
boughtJnrsnewfavori
tefoodthathetakesf orev
er
tofini
shandmakesahugemess, hel
oveshispops
though.Wegothomeat11: 30am andIchangedmy
clot
hessinceIhav
epopsal lovermyshirtandI
changedJnrtoo.
Phi
l
a:r
eadyt
ogo?
Me:
yeahsur
e
Wedr ovetothetatt
ooshopandhegothi statt
oo
fi
rst,hewr otemyLesleyonhischestand
Siyamt handaonhisbackwithacr ownnexttotheD.
Iwr otehisIni
ti
alsonmywr i
standLesleyJnrnextto
mycol l
arbonethenwrotePhi
lasandeonmyback
withacr ownont heD.Itwassopai nf
ulIwas
screami ng
Phil
a:babe,
you'
rebei
ngext
remekengokui
tsnot
thatbad
Me:sayssomeonewho'smadeofsteel
,thi
sshi
tis
pai
nful
.I'
m nev
erget
ti
ngatatt
ooeveragain
Phi
l
a:I
'
llbeget
ti
ngmor
esoon
Me:
don'
tenduphav
ingt
hem al
lov
ery
ourbody
Wewer ebothdoneandi tl
ookedamazing,wethen
wenttotheplaycent
erandJnrwasenjoy i
nghi
mself.
Theywereplayi
ngtogetherwit
hPhil
a.Afteraf
ew
hour
swewentt oSpurandatether
e.
Me:babeI'
m meeti
ngwitht
heweddi
ngpl
anner
t
omorrow,Itol
dhertocometomesi
nceIdon'
t
wannadri
vewithJnr
Phil
a:okay
,Ishoul
dgetyouadri
versoyoucango
anywherewit
houtdri
vi
ngcauseIdon'
twantyout
o
dri
vewithJnr
Me:t
her
e'snoneedf
oradr
iverPhi
l
a.I
twoul
dbea
wast
eofmoney
Phil
a:i
twi
l
lbegr
eathel
p,j
ustgi
vei
tat
ry.Thi
nk
abouti
t
Me:
okayf
inei
wil
l
Phi
l
a:t
hanky
ou
Me:
sowi
l
lyoubecomi
ngt
othemeet
ing?
Phi
l
a:whatf
or?
Me:
babei
tsourweddi
ng
Phila:
Don'tgetmewrong,you'
realr
eadymywi f
e
andIdon'tseetheneedforawhitewedding.Si
nce
youwantit,you'
reget
ti
ngitbabepluswedding
planni
ngisforwoman.Idon'tknowanythi
ngabout
allt
hat
Me:butIdoneedy
ouradv
iceont
hings l
i
ket
he
decor
Phi
l
a:si
mpl
e,i
tmustbebl
ack
Me:
you'
rer
eal
l
ynohel
p,i
don'
twantaGot
hweddi
ng
Phi
la:
justdoever
ythi
ngyouwantwit
hthewedding
pl
annerandi'
l
lbetheref
ortheweddi
ng.Il
oveyou
andIwantyoutobehappythat
'swhyI'
mlett
ingyou
dowhatyoulove.
Me:whydoIfeel
li
key
oudon'
twantt
obeapar
tof
t
hisweddi
ng
Phil
a:i
dobabe,youcan'
tgetmar
ri
edal
one.Ij
ust
can'
tbeinweddi
ngplanni
ng
Me:
nevermind,
ther
e'l
lbenowhit
eweddi
ng.It
ook
t
hecarkey
sandmysonandl ef
thimtoset
tl
ethebi
ll
.
Honest lyIwasf eelingver yhur tsi
ncehedoesn' t
wantt obei nv olvedi nplanni ngourweddi ng,I'
m not
gettingmar ri
edal one,Idon' twantt ochooset he
cake, venue,at ti
resal l
onmyown.Iwanthi sinput
buthi sjustnotunder standingmeandIknowi fIsat
thereIwasgoi ngt ogetemot i
onal i
nfr
ontofpeopl e
that'swhyIj ustl eft
.Hecamewi thmybagandgoti n
thedr i
versseatanddr ov ehomewi t
houtsay i
ng
anyt hi
ng.Okayi '
llalsojustkeepqui ett
il
l godknows
when.Hesatdownandwat chedsoccerwi thLesl ey
playingnextt ohi m, Isecretlytookapi cturethen
wentupst ai
rsandr eadabookt i
ll
Ifoundmy self
crying,Iclosedt hebookandst uffedmyf aceont he
pil
lowandcr iedt il
lIfellasleep
#PHI
LA
Idon'tknowwhyNdy amt handai smaki ngsuchabig
dealoutofthis,Iwi
llbeapar toft heweddi ngand
she'l
lbemar ryi
ngme. Idon'tseet heneedofme
beingpartoftheplanningpl usIj ustwanthert obe
happy .
Ofitwasupt ome, Iwoul dn'tevenhav ea
whitewedding.AndIhav ear easonwhy .Honestl
yI
grewuphat ingawhiteweddi ng, Ibeli
ev editj
ust
broughtbadl uckandsepar atedmypar ents.My
parentswer etraditi
onallymar r
iedandwhent hey
hadt heirwhit
eweddi ngaf t
erj ust6mont hst hey
sepated.Igrewupwi ththati nmi ndandIt oldmy sel
f
i
dnev erhaveawhi t
eweddi ng.Iknowt hat'
sst upi
d
tosomepeopl ebuti tssomet hingI '
vehadinmy
heart,Iknowmypar entssepar at edf orother
reasonsbutgr owi ngupIbl amedt hewhiteweddi ng
andI '
vejustbeenst uckt ot hat.Iwant edtotel lSi
ya
butshej usttalkedaboutcancel ingt heweddi ngand
stormedout ,Iknowi thurtherandt herewillbea
weddi ngbutr i
ghtnowIdon' tev enknowwhatt osay
toher ,i
m watchi ngsoccerwi thLesl eybutI '
vebeen
l
ookingatt hebabymoni tercamer asonmyphone,
she'sbeencr yingandIdon' tev enknowwhatt odo
soIcal l
edmymom
Ma:
myson
Me:
mom,
she'
scr
yingIdon'
tev
enknowwhatt
odo
Ma:Siy
amt handa?Whatdi
dyoudot
oher
?Myson
you'
rever
yst upi
d
It
oldherev
ery
thi
ngandt
hewaysheshout
edatmeI
thi
nkitwasabadi deatoevencall
her.Ididn'
tthink
whiteweddingsar
esuchabi gdealtowomen.Isai d
mygoodby estomom andIcookedsuppert hen
bathedJnr
, hewassleepyal
readysoIfedhi m and
puthiminhisbed.Iranahotfoam bat
hf orSiyaand
tookofherclot
hesandshewokeup
Si
ya:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
sshj
ustl
etmedot
hisandy
ouj
ustr
elax
Icarr
iedhert
othebat
hroom andputheri
nthe
batht
ub
Si
ya:
Joi
nme
Iwasv erytemptedtodosoandI '
m gl
adsheasked,I
tookoffmycl ot
hesandjoinedher.Shelai
donmy
chestandwesatt heresi
lenty
,itwascomf or
table
sil
encewher ewejustsi
tandl i
stentoourheartst
alk
toeachot her
.Iwasnevertheromant i
ctypebut
beingwithSiyachangemeandgotmet r
ying
dif
ferentthi
ngs,Ij
ustwanttomakeherhappy .
Me: Iwanty
out obehappy,Ihat
eitwheny oucry
becauseofme.I'm aj
erksometimesIknowbutI
di
dn'tthi
nkthi
swasabi gdealandnowIr eal
izeI
waswr
ong,
I'
m sor
ry.
Me:Iwasr eall
yhurtcauset hi
sissomet hingI'
ve
al
way swant edtodo,I
'veplannedthissinceIwas
fi
veyearsold.Itsal
mostev erygir
lsdream
Phil
asandeandknowi ngy oudon'twantt otakepar
t
i
nplanningitwi t
hme,itjusthurtmecauseIdon' t
wanttodoi talone
Me: Inowunder st
andthatandI'
llbewithyouev
ery
stepoft heway.ReasonI'
vejustneverbeen
i
nt er
estedinwhiteweddingsisbecauseofwhat
happenedt omypar ent
s
Si
ya:buty
ou'vegr
ownnowandy ouknowt
hata
whi
teweddingwasn'
twhatbr
okethei
rmar
ri
ageman
Me:
yesIknow,
let
'
sjustsayI
'
mtr
aumat
ized
Siya:mxm t
her
e'snosuch,
you'
rej
ustbei
ngaj
erk
thoughIl
oveyou
Me:Il
oveyoutoomywif
eandIwanty
out
obet
he
happi
estwomanonear
th
Si
ya:
bei
ngwi
thy
oumakesmet
hehappi
est
woman
Me:
let
'sgetoutofher
e,Ipr
epar
edsupper
.
Idr
iedherupandwegotdr
essedi
noursl
eepwear
andwentdownstai
rs
Me:
youmaysi
tdownmam
Si
ya:t
hankyousir sincewhendoy oucook?I
hopeIwon'
tneedthet
oiletal
lni
ght
Me:mxm I
'
llnev
ercookf
ory
ouev
eragai
n,t
hisi
smy
l
astt
ime.
Siy
a: hahbabeI
'
mjoki
ngokay iappr
eci
atet
he
gesture nowcanwedigin?I
'm excit
ed
Idi
shedupf
orherandsheat
e
Me:
and?
Si
ya:
tast
esgood notasbadasIexpect
edi
tto
be
Me:
uyaphaphay
az (
you'
ref
orwar
d)
Weconti
nuedeati
ngandchatti
ngaboutwhatshe
wantsf
orthewedding,we'
vedeci
dedonthetheme,
dat
eandbestmanpl usmaidofhonour
.Mybest
manisLubabal
oandmai dofhonouri
sBabal
wa.
Theweddi ngwill
beonherbi r
thday
,Isuggestedit
andsinceFebruaryhassomanybadmemor i
esf or
usIjustthoughtitwouldbeagoodideat oeraseal
l
thatandalwaysrememberourweddi ng,sheloved
theideaanditwillbeasil
verandwhitecolor
s,li
ke
wintert
hemei nspr i
ng
Si
ya:
what
'st
hebudget
?
Me:
ther
e'snobudgetbobo
Siy
a:youmustbejoki
ng? Phi
lasandet
hat'
saver
y
danger
ousthi
ngtosaytoawomanespeci
all
ysi
nce
i
t'
sawedding
Me:
yesIknowbutmydecisionhasbeenmade,
t
her
e'snobudget
.Idon'
twantyoutobeli
mit
ed.
Iwantyoutohav
et hebestweddi
ng,mor
ethanwhat
you'
veeveri
magined.Youdeser
veit
Shesmil
edandkissedme,
wepackedt
hedi
shes
andwenttobed
Si
ya:
Ilov
eyouMaphol
oba
Me:Il
ovey
out
ooMaFuze
Sheclosedhereyesandslept.Il
ookedatherand
smil
edwhi l
elooki
ngatherring,Inevert
houghtwe'
d
behereonedaybutI'm gal
dithashappened.Ican'
t
i
maginemyl if
ewithanyoneelsebesides
Ndyamthanda Il oveher!AndI '
l
lneverst
op

#Si
ya
#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeupf eel
i
ngv er
yhappyandl ov ed It ookout
Phil
a'
ssuitandir
onedt henputithanger.Iwent
downstair
sandmadebr eakf
astforhimt henpacked
hi
slunchinhisbri
efcase.Iwentupst ai
rsandhewas
sti
l
lsleepi
ng t hat'
ssounl i
kePhila,Iwokehim up
andhisfacewasred
Me:
arey
ouokay
?Wakeupy
ou'
regoi
ngt
obel
ate
Ifel
thi
sfor
eheadandhewasv
eryhot
.Phi
l
anev
er
getssi
ckatal
l
Phi
l
a:whatt
imei
sit
?
Me:
7am
Phi
l
a:shi
tandIhav
eani
mpor
tantmeet
ingat8
Hestoodupandhistat
toshowed,
itsv
erysexy
butI
'
m worri
edabouthi
m now
Me:
arey
ouokay
?
Phi
l
a:It
hinkso,
I'
mjustv
eryt
ir
edbutI
'
llbeokay
.
Hewentt oshowerwhil
eImadet hebed.Hegot
dressedandwalkeddownstai
rs,
hewasv er
yslow
andhewasgoi ngtobelat
e
Me:
arey
ousur
eyou'
l
lbeabl
etowor
k?Orev
endr
ive?
Phi
l
a:y
esIwi
l
l,nowdon'
twor
ryaboutme.
Hehardl
yevenatehi
sbreakf
astandhewenttot
he
bat
hroom t
obrushhi
steethandthenhel
eftf
or
work
Icleanedupt hekit
chenandgoogl edv enuesforthe
weddi ng.ThedaywentbyandPhi l
acameback
homeat1pm andt heweddingplannerarri
vedjust
minutesaf terhecameback.Wedi scussed
everythingwewant edandt heweddingwi l
lbeat
SouthernSunEl angeni Hot
el.Af
teran2hour sthe
weddi ngplannerlef tandiatt
endedmysi ckhusband
Me:
arey
ouf
eel
i
nganybet
ter
?
Phil
a:wor
se andt
her
e'sj
ustt
hisf
unnysmel
li
n
thi
shouse
Me:
ican'
tsmel
lany
thi
ng
Phi
l
a:y
eahsur
e.I
'
mjustgoi
ngt
obedf
ornow
Me:
don'
tyouwantmet
ocal
ltheAt
hi?
Phi
l
a:nobabeI
'
llbeokaydon'
twor
ry
ItooksomemedsandwenttosleepwhileIprepared
foodforLesl
eyandfedhi
m.Wewer ehavingalovely
geberi
shconver
sati
on whenPhilacame
downstai
rs
Me:
andt
hen?
Phi
l
a:Ican'
tev
ensl
eep
Me:
comesi
tnextt
ome
Hesatandputhisheadonmyt highsandIcover
ed
hi
m wit
hablanket.Jnrsl
eptnexttohi
m andthey
bothf
ell
asl
eepwhi l
eIwatchedamov iethencal
l
ed
Babal
wa
Bee:
Hel
l
oCc
Me:
Hel
l
omymai
dofhonour
Shescr
eamedsol
oudandIl
aughedather
Me:heyy
ou'r
egoi
ngt
obr
eakal
lthewi
ndowst
her
e
andmyears
Bee:
sor
rybuti
mjustexci
ted
Itol
dheral lmyplansfortheweddi
ngandshewas
veryhappyandpr oudofme.Ialwayswonderhow
shefeelsthatshe'
solderthanmebutI'm get
ting
mar r
iedfi
rstandIjustwon'tev
enaskher.We
conti
nuedt al
kingandthensaidourgoodbyes.Phil
a
wokeupf eelingabitbet
ter
Me:
youokaynow?
Phil
a:y
eahIguessIwasThi
ghsi
ckandy
ourt
highs
heal
edme
Me:
whatnonsensei
sthat
Phi
l
a:y
ouhav
efr
esht
highssodon'
tbl
ameme
Hewasgett
ingnaught
yandkeptonr
ubbi
ngt
hem
andIwasgett
ingwet
Phi
l
a:wedi
dn'
tgett
otakepi
ctur
esofourt
att
oos
Itookhisphoneandwet ookpictur
estogetherand
offourtatt
oos.Wet ookpictur
esofLesleysleepi
ng
andpost editonhisWhatsAppst at
us.Wemadea
vi
deoofussi ngi
ng"Suit
edbyShekinah"wehada
verygreatti
me andthevideowasv er
yfunny
Phi
l
a:l
et'
sbake
Seethat'
shi
sspeci
ali
ty,
her eal
lybakesandIont
he
otherhandt
ri
es it'
snev erbeensomethingi
m
goodat
Wewer eplayi
ngaroundwit
hf l
ourandIdi
dthe
worstmist
akebyput t
ingi
tonthefloor Lesley
camerunningandfelloni
t,i
tburst
edandhewas
cover
edinf l
our Phi
latookapict
ureandI
wasjustshocked.
Me:
Jnri
alway
stel
lyout
ost
opr
unni
ng
Hewasj
ustsi
tt
ingther
epl
ayi
ngwi
tht
hef
loorand
put
ti
ngi
tonhi
sf ace
Me:
I'
m notbat
hinghi
m
Phi
l
a:You'
reimpossi
ble hetookeggsandpoured
i
tonme!!Iscr
eamedsoloudandhewaslaughi
ng
maki
ngav
ideo
Het henpickedupJnrandweal ltookashower
together Phil
awasenj oyingtheshowermor e
thanwedi d Heisjustsuchacut eandadorable
chil
d,hisspectaclesmakehi ml ookevencuter.We
thenorderedsupperaf tershower i
ngandate.Itwas
agreatfami l
yev eni
ngandIj ustlovemytwo
guys itsgreatbeingtheonl ywomanher e,I
'm
thei
rqueen

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35]Tat
enda:
Inser
t54
Thehol
idayspassedandIwasinLadySmithfor
bot
hChrist
masandnewy ear
s,i
twasgreatandI
havef
oundanewf ami
ly
,it
salwaysgr
eattobeloved
andgetal ongwi thy ouri nlawscauseweal way s
growuphear i
ngst ori
esaboutmonst erin-l
awsand
wef earal ot.Ther ewasacer emonyandIhadt o
wear" isi
jalimani " andmake
umuqombot hi(
tradi t
ional bear )Iwasaf raiditwoul d
tastebadori twoul dn'tbr ewbutl uckyitdid.I'
v e
beengai ningal otofwei ghtandgy mi ngisn'tonmy
l
istlatelyev ent houghi t'
sj ustont hesecondf loorof
myhouse Ial way spasst hegy mr oom say ingI'
ll
becomi ngt omor rowandt omor rowt urnsint o
anothert omor row, yept hat '
showl azyIam.Jnri son
fullt
alkingmodey ep t her e'
snogebr ishlanguage
anymor ethoughhecan' tcl earl
ysaymostwor dsbut
atleastweunder stand.Hei sstil
lveryactiveand
energet i
cwi thhi s2t inyf rontteeth andhei sjust
i
nl ovewi t
hbi ti
ngpeopl e .Theweddi ng
preparationshav ebeengoodandwe' vehadno
hiccupsal ongt heway ,
Phi lahasbeenv er
y
suppor ti
v eandheact uallyenjoy splanninga
weddi ngmor ethanhet houghthewoul d.Ihav e
3weddi ngdr esses andPhi laalsohas3sui ts
thoughhesay shewon' tbechangi ng3t i
mesi nj ust
oneday t hebr idesmai dsdr essesandgr oomsmen
suitshavebeenmadeandt heyf i
tperfectlybutIj ust
hopenol oosesorgai nswei ghti nthenext20day s.
Yeahmybi rthdayandweddi ngisjust20day s
away t
osayI '
m exci t
edwoul dbean
under st
atement I 'm ecstat i
c! myl ittl
eJnrwi ll
beapageboyandt hef l
owergi rlsareEmi hle,
Thembel ihl
eandLut hando Emihlewant edto
bepar tofthebr idesmai dssi nceshesay sshe' stoo
oldtobeaf lowergi rl mi ndmet hi
schi l
di sjust
turni
ng7 Nay ehasal ottodeal withwhenshe' s
older Emi hleisj ustonanot herlevelsIt ellyou.I'
ve
beenonmyper iodsf or4day snowandIhav ea
heav yfl
owbutt odayi sj
ustwor se.Periodpai nsar e
kil
li
ngme, I'
vebeeni nbedandPhi ladidn'tgot o
wor ksincehesay shewant stot akecar eofme
Phi
l
a:y
oushoul
deat
Me:I
'm st
il
lfull
,remembery
oumademeeatl
i
kea
pi
gthi
smor ning
Wej
ustl
aughedandJnrt
ookofhi
sgl
asses
Jnr
:dadat
hat
ha(
daddyt
ake)
Phi
l
a:Jnrdonott
aket
heseof
f
Heputt
hem onandcont
inuedpl
ayi
ngwi
thhi
stoy
car
Me:
hisgr
owi
ngupsof
ast
Phi
l
a:y
eahhey hewi
l
lbenaught
yli
keme
Me:nomysoni
saper
fectgent
lemanasy
oucan
see
Ikeptongett
ingshar
ppai
nsinmystomachand
theywerebeginni
ngt
obeunbear
abl
e
Me:
passmet
hepai
nki
l
ler
spl
ease
Hegav
emepi
l
lsandagl
assofwat
er.It
ookt
hem
Me:
letmet
ryt
osl
eep
Icl
osedmyeyesandkeptt
wist
ingandt
urni
ngbutI
j
ustcoul
dnt
wist
ing
Lesl
eysl
eptnextt
omeandwecuddl
edt
il
lIf
ell
asl
eep
Afterj
ustaf
ewhour sIwokeupandtookabath
wentbacktobed.Phil
amademeasandwi chwit
h
j
uiceandIate.Whi
leIwastur
ningsoIcansl
eepon
mytummy ,themostpainf
ulshar
ppainhit
,itwas
l
ikesomeoneisstabbi
ngmewi thaknif
einmy
womb.IscreamedoutloudandPhil
acamei n
r
unning
Phi
l
a:okaybabeI
'
m cal
l
ingNay
e
Me:no,
there'
saaaaah!Noneedaah!Iwas
scr
eamingandgetti
ngreal
l
ysweaty
Me;
Phi
l
a!!
Neverhav
eIeverseensomuchbloodinmyli
fe,
it
wascomingfr
om me no!Nonotagai
n
Phi
la:
Isthi
swhatIthi
nkiti
s?Tearsf
elldownfr
om
hi
sfaceandhewippedthem of
f.HetookLesl
eyand
cal
l
edMav i
s
Mav
is:
aaah!Ohmnt
anam
Shet
ookJnrandcal
l
edanambul
ance
Me:no,
don'
tcal
lanambul
ance.Justl
etmedi
eher
e
wi
thmybaby
Phil
awaspaci
ngupanddownwit
htear
sonhisface.
Ihaven'
tev
enshededasi
ngl
edr
opofatear
,I'
m
numb, Ijustwantt hepaintotakemeaway .Ij
ust
wantt odie, Whydoest hi
salway shappent ome?
Thepar amedi cscamei nandt ookme, Iwasjust
stari
ngatIdon' tknowwhatbutmymi ndandsoul
j
ustwer en'tthere.Iwasrushedt othehospi t
al,Nay
e
andAt hiwer ethereal
ready.Iwast akent omyr oom
andIdi danul tr
asound.Ijustclosedmyey esand
drif
tedtosl eep

#PHI
LA
Ihav elostanotherbabyagai n,whenIsawal lthat
bloodont hebedIknewt hebabyi sgone.Yetagai n
i
t'
sababywedi dn'
tknowaboutandwewer en't
givenachancet oev enseei tgrow.Thisbr ought
backal l t
hepainfrom whenwel ostthetwinsnow
i
tsanot her.Al
linall
Si yahashad2mi scarri
agesand
3babi esdied,ourchildren.Ican'tevenbeginto
explaint hepainI'
mf eelingri
ghtnowandseei ngSiya
sol i
felessandnumbhur tsmeev enmore.Theyar e
cl
eani ngherst omachanddoi ngsomecheckups, I
wast oldt oleavether oom andIwentt ocheckon
myson.MphoandLy andawer eatthewaitingr oom
Me:
gent
s,wher
eisJnr
?
Lyanda:
Ntokozot
ookhim,theyar
egoingt
o
Beli
nda'
ssoJnrwil
lbewit
ht heot
herki
ds
Mpho:
I'm sor
ryman,Ican'
timaginewhaty
ou'
re
goi
ngthr
ough.Bestr
ong, i
twil
lpass
Me:
Thanks
Weshoul derbumpedandLy andaist hefi
stbump
guy.Mymot herandNandi wal kedinandinall
honestyIjustwerentreadytobewi thanyone,mom
tri
edtohugmebutIj ustkissedhercheekandl eft
them t
here,allIwantisSiy
amt handa.Ineedherwi t
h
mebef or
eIl oosemysani t
y .Iwentt oherroom and
l
uckil
ythenur sesweren'tt
her eany more,i
twasj ust
herandNay e.Ilayednexttoher ,onherbedandput
herheadonmychest .She'sbeensi lentandshe
hasn'
tevencr ied.
Naye:t
hisisverydif
fi
cultf
orme, I
thur
tst
otel
lyou
guy
sthis.I
'm sorr
yforyourloss,
Siyay
ouwerea
monthpregnantandy ou'
velostt
hebaby.
Si
ya:
tel
lmesomet
hingIdon'
tknow
Nay
ewasal
readyi
ntear
s
Nay e:Si
yayoucan'tcarryababyi ny ourwombt hat'
s
whyy ou'vebeenhav i
ngmi scarri
ages.Most
recurr
ingmi scar
ri
agescan' tbeexplainedbutthe
causesf oryourmiscarri
agesi sanatomical
conditi
onsthestructureofy ourutt
erusaffect
sthis
andy ouarenotablet ocarrythebaby
Si
ya:
thatmeansI
'
llnev
erhav
eababy
?
Nay
e:y
es
Si
ya:
mayy oubothpl
easel
eav
emeal
oneandno
onemustcomein.
Phi
l
a:Ican'
tl
eav
eyoual
oneSi
ya
Si
ya:
please
Nay
e:l
et'
sgi
vehersomespace
Welef
theral
oneandNay
esai
dIshoul
dgotoher
of
fi
ceandIcoul
dseeSi
yaont
hecameraf
ootage

#SI
YA
I
'
m abar
anwoman,
Ican'
thav
eki
ds.Idon'
tknow
whatt ofeel
,Idon'tev enknowi fIhav efeeli
ngs
anymor e.Godwhyme?WhymeohLor d?Whati sit
thatI'
vedonewr ongsowr ongt hatIhav etobe
punishedthisway .Coul dn'ttherebeanot herway ?I'l
l
neverbeabl etohav eki ds,I'
m adi sgracein
womanhood.I 'mjustl ay i
ngi nbedl ookingatt he
ceil
ing,maybeitsgoi ngt oansweral lmyquest ions.I
can'tevencryandgr iefmychi l
d,Iwonderi fitwas
goingtobeagi rlorboy mydearchi l
d,goj oiny our
sibl
ingswhoIal solost .Idon' tknowwhyam Iev en
stil
lal
ivebutI'
m af r
aidt otakeawaymyownl ife.I
don'thavethegutst oki llmy self,dearlordt akeme
too.Ihavenothingt olivefor ,Iam not hing.Idon' t
deserveaplaceonear t
h.Someonewasknocki ngon
thedoorandIj ustignor edi t
,theyknockedagai n
Me:
Ijustwantt
obeal
one
Mom:
mydaught
erpl
easeopen,
itsy
ourmot
her
.
Mom she' swhatIneedrightnow,
Ist
oodupand
openedthedoor.ShehuggedmeandIwantedt
ocry
butIj
ustcouldn'
t,
Ihavenot ear
sinme.
Me:
mom I
'
llnev
erhav
echi
l
dren
Mom:i
tsokaymychi
l
d,konkekuzol
unga(
all
wil
lbe
wel
l
).
Me:nothi
ngwi
ll
bewellmamanothing.I
'm afai
l
ure,
I
'v
efail
edtobeacompletewoman.I'
l
lneverbeable
t
ogivemyhusbandbabies
Mom:stopsay
ingt
hatmychi
l
d,comegeti
ntobed
andsl
eep
Me:Ican'
tev
ensl
eepma,
Ican'
tcr
y,Ican'
tdo
any
thing.
Wesatt hereforawhi l
ejusti
nsi l
enceandPhi l
a
walkedin Ican' tevenfacehim, Ijusttur
nedand
l
ookatt hewal l
.Ihavefai
ledhim andi '
ll
neverbe
abletogivehim babi
es,Ihopemyuncl eshaven'
t
usedhisLobol amoneyasIwi llhavet oret
urni
t,no
manwi l
l everwanttobemar ri
edt oawomanwho
won'tevenbeabl etogivehim babies.
Phi
l
a:Abongi
l
e
Ij
ustkeptqui
et
Mom:
Yourhusbandi
stal
ki
ngt
oyoumychi
l
d
Me:
pleasel
eav
ePhi
l
asande
Phil
a:I
'
m notl
eav
ingher
eunt
ily
oul
ookatmeand
tal
ktome
Me:
please
IheardthedoorbangingandIt
urned,hewasgone
al
ready .Ineedhi m somuchbutIjustcan'
tface
hi
m. I
'
m scaredhemi ghtbl
amemef orthelossof
ourchil
dren,I
'
m scaredhemightnotevenloveme
anymore
Me:mamaIhopeyourbr
othershaven'
tfi
nished
Phi
l
a'sl
obol
amoney.Wehav etoretur
nit
Ma:
whatdoy
oumean
Me: t
here'
ll
benoweddi ng,I
'm anembarr
assment,
Phil
a'sfamil
ywil
lrej
ectmesoi t'
sbet
teri
fIjust
canceltheweddi
ngandhe' l
lgetawif
ethatwill
giv
e
him afamil
yandbuil
dhi sLegacy
Ma:
whatabouty
ourson?
Me: ma,di
dyouhearmewhenIsai dIcan'tconcei
ve?
Ican'
thavebabi
es!Ihavenobaby!YesIloveLesley
asmyownandIwi l
lfor
everbehismotherbuthe
didn'
tnotcomefr
om mywomb, heisOrati
les.
I
tbreaksmyhear
ttoev
ensayt
hesewor
dsbuti
t'
s
t
rue
Ma:
Justt
alkt
oPhi
l
a,pl
easemychi
l
dpl
ease
Me:
okaymay
oumaycal
lhi
m
Afteraf
ewminut
esPhil
abar
gedi
n,Iwasst
il
lfaci
ng
thewall
andnotl
ooki
ngathi
m
Me:
Takemehome
Phi
l
a:ar
eyousur
e?
Me:Yes,
please.Ther
e'snot
hingmor
eformeher
e,I
j
ustwanttogohome.
Hewentoutandaf
teranhourhecameback
Phi
l
a:wecango,
needhel
p?
Me:
no.
Ist
oodupandwalkedt
othewai
ti
ngr
oom t
olookf
or
mymother
.I'
m goi
nghomewit
hher
Phi
l
a:whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
looki
ngf
ormymom
Phi
l
a:shel
eftal
ready
Me:
takemehome.
Phi
l
a:okay
WegottothecarandIf
acedthewindow,Ihaven'
t
l
ookedatPhi
la,I
'
vebeenavoi
dingal
lsortofey
e
cont
actwi
thhim
Wegottohishouseandheopenedthecardoorf
or
me,
Ilookeddownanddidn'
tgetoutthecar
Me:
Isai
dtakemehomePhi
l
asandenoty
ourhouse
Phi
l
a:t
hisi
syourhome
Hecarri
edmel i
keasackofmai zemealandgot
i
nsidethehouse.Hewentt
ot hemainbedroom and
putmeont hebed.I
twascleanandther
ewasf resh
l
inen.
Me:
Idon'
twantt
obei
nher
e
Phil
a:whatdoyouwantSi yamthanda!Youcan'
t
evenlookatme,Siy
amt handa,
lookatme!Itsme,
Phil
asandeYourhusband.
Ij
ustdi
dn'
tevenknowwhattosay
.It
ookoft
hemy
ri
ngandputi
tonthetabl
e.
Me:
I'
ll
bel
eav
ingf
ir
stt
hingi
nthemor
ning.
Iopenedupt
hebl
anket
sandgott
uckedi
n
Hewasbr eaki
ngthingsaroundt
heroom and
screaming.Iwassoscar edandIkeptonprayi
ng
sil
entl
y.Her emovedt hebl
anket
sandcarri
edme
thenpinnedmeagai nstthewall
andIjustcl
osedmy
eyesandbr eathedheavil
y
Phi
la:
wehavelostourbaby,t
ogether
!St
oppushi
ng
meaway!I
'm al
sofeel
inghurt
,thi
swasourbabyand
webothdi
dn'
tknowaboutit.Lookatmebobo!Look
atme
Hewashol
dingmywr
ist
ssopai
nful
l
y,i
fIcoul
dcr
yI
woul
d.
Me:
you'
rehur
ti
ngme
Phi
l
a:y
ou'
rehur
ti
ngmemor
e!Openy
ourey
es!
Hewasget tingreal
lyangryandr ough.Iopenedmy
eyesandlookedathi m,tearsjustfel
lfr
om now
where.Icr
iedf ort
hefir
sttimesi ncetheinci
dent
happened,hewasal socryingandheputmeont he
bedandhel dme.Webot hcried
Phil
a:i
tsgoi
ngtobeokay,
we'v
ebeent
hrought
his
onceandwe'l
lgothr
oughi
tagain
Me: Phil
aim nev
ergoingtobeablet
ogiveyou
chi
ldren.Wecan'tbetoget
her
,youneedkidswho
wil
lbuiledyourl
egacy
.Ihavefai
ledyou!
Phil
a:don'
tleav
emenow,we'
vecometoofarfor
youtoleavemenow.Ihav
eyouandJnr
,that
's
enoughforme
Me: Phi
l
a,Jnri
snotminebiol
ogical
l
y.I
'
llnevergo
thr
oughpregnancyandgi
vebir
thtomyv eryown
chi
ld.
Icri
edoutsol
oudandhehel
dmecl
osel
ytohi
s
chest
Me:
mybabyi
sgone
Phi
l
a:cr
y,l
eti
tal
loutBobo
Iscreamedandcr iedsohar d,I
'
m cryingf
ormytwins,
mybabyt hatIjustlost
.ThatI'l
lneverbeabl
etohave
babies.Allthi
spaini sjustt
oomuchf ormeto
handle!Ican'tgoonandIwi ll
neverbeabletoget
thr
ought his.Howwi l
lIevermov eon?Icri
edti
ll
Ifel
l
asl
eep

#NEXTMORNI
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Iwokeupandt ookashower.Iwor
eablacklong
dresswit
hwi t
habl ackdoekonmyhead.Iwent
downstai
rsandPhi l
awasf eedi
ngJnr
,Ihav
entseen
hi
m sinceyesterday
Me:
mor
ning
Phi
l
a:mor
ning,
we'vebeensummonedatLady
Smi
th,
wehav
etogoafteryouhav
ebreakf
ast
Me:
I'
m nothungr
y
IwalkedaroundnotknowingwhatI'
ml ookingfor,I
feell
ikeI
'ml oosi
ngmymi nd.Phi
l
acamet omeand
tol
dmet osi tdown.
Isatdownandjuststarredint
o
space.Hecamewi t
hourbagsandputt hem inthe
car.Jnrwalkedtome
Jnr
:Ma,
phat
he(
mom,
car
ryme)
Il
ookedathi
mlostnotknowingwhattodo,
he
wantedmetocar
ryhim butIj
ustcoul
dn'
t
Me:
Ican'
tdot
his
Istoodupandwentt ocr yi
nthebathroom.Iheard
Jnrcryingtooandi thur tme,Ist
oodupandl ooked
atmy selfi
nthemi rrortookadeepbr eatheandgot
out.Philawasv er
yf rustrat
edandIcouldseeitinhis
eyes,hewassl owlydy inginsi
de.It
ookLesleyand
huggedhi mtightl
y
Me:
let
'sgo
Phi
l
a:y
ouhav
en'
teat
en
Me:
I'
ll
eatal
ongt
heway
Wegoti ntothecarandIwassi t
ti
ngwi t
hLesl ey,i
t
wasv eryhard.DearGod,Idon'
tknowwhyt hi
ngsar e
l
ikethisbutIknowy ou'
ll
comet hroughforme, i
n
yourwor dyousayy ouwil
lnevergiv
euschal l
enge
t
hatar ebiggerusandthatwecan'thandle.Iknow
youwi l
lmakeawayf ormeandmyf amil
y.Giv eme
t
hest rengthIneedohgod, bewit
hmeandmy
f
ami l
y.Amen
Me:
Phi
l
a,wher
eismyr
ing?
Het
ooki
toutf
rom hi
spocketandst
oppedt
hecar
Me:
whyar
eyoust
oppi
ng?
Phil
a:Iwannaputyourri
ngbackon,
SiyaIknowi t
s
hardbutpl
easehanginther
eanddon'tl
etitaf
fect
oursontoo,r
atherhat
emei nst
eadt
hentakingitout
onhim.Heneedsy ouandheknowsyouashi s
mother.
Me:
I'
m sor
ryf
orwhathappenedear
li
er
Phi
l
a:don'
tapol
ogi
ze,
you'
regoi
ngt
hroughal
ot.
Hest art
edt hecaragai nanddr ov e.Ilookedathi m
andhei stryingt obestrong.I'
vebeensel fishand
wrongwhenIwaspushi nghim away ,heisal so
hurt
ingandgoi ngthroughthesamepai nthatIam,
buthei stry
ingt obest r
ongf orus.Godknowshow
muchIl ovehi m andInev erwantt oloosehi m, but
howwi l
lhest aywithawomant hatisunabl etogive
hi
m chi l
dren, notabl
etobui l
daf ami l
y?.Answermy
questionsdeargod.Showy ourlight.

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i
ke,
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tandcomment
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epage
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iendsandf
ri
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We'resti
l
lonthewaygoi ngtoLadysmi
th,I
'mfeel
i
ng
abitbett
erandwe'rerandomlyt
alki
ngwith
Phi
lasande.Ij
ustnoti
cedhasabr ui
senearhi
seye
andhiseyesarered
Me:
whathappenedneary
ourey
e?
Phi
l
a:y
ournai
l
shappened
Me:
ohsor
ry
May
beImi
ghthav
escr
atchedhi
myest
erday
.
Me:
pleasest
opatMc'
Donal
ds,
I'
m hungr
y
Phi
l
a:ok
Heboughtourfoodandt hendrov
e,itwasjustf
il
led
wit
hawkwar dsi
lenceespecial
l
ysinceLesl
eywas
nowasleep.Noonewast alki
ngsoIjustl
ookedfor
myearphonesandlist
enedt omusicwhil
eIate.
Aft
erf i
nishi
ngmyf ood,Ijustcl
osedmyey esand
l
ist
enedt omusi c.Idon'tknowwhathappened, i
t
happenedsoqui ck.At ruckcrashedintothecaron
Phil
a'
ssi de,i
troll
edov erandItookLesl eyand
coveredhim.Wewer er ol
lingoverunti
li
tstopped
Me:
Phi
l
a!!
! Phi
l
a!!
Icouldn'
tevenseehim.Itr
iedopeni
ngt
hedoorbutI
coul
dn't.IcheckedonLesl
eyandhewassl
owly
wakingup
Me:hangi
nther
ebabe,
weneedt
olookf
ory
our
f
ather
.
Iheardsomeshuffl
i
ngandthedooropened.I
twasa
paramedicwhotookLesl
eyandIf
oll
owed
Me:
myhusband!Hei
sint
her
e
Guy
:yesmam,
we'
rel
ooki
ngf
orhi
m.
Thedr i
verssi
dewasdest royed,Ist
art
edt hinkingof
thewor st noIcan' tl
oosehim.Myl egwasbadl y
i
njuredandIwast oldtositonawheel chairwhi l
e
theylookedforPhi
la.Iwasal r
eadycryingsohar d,I
borrowedaphonef rom oneoft heparamedi csand
cal
l
edNandi
Me:
hel
l
oNandi
it'
sSi
yamt
handa
Nandi:babey
ou'
recr
yingwhat
'sgoi
ngon?Wher
e
ar
ey ou?
Me:
i
t'
sPhi
l
a,he,
Nandi
:whathappened?Wher
eishe?
Me: Idon'
tknow wegoti
ntoacaracci
dentandhe
hasn'tbeenfound
Weconti
nuedtal
ki
ngandshesai
dtheyar
eont
hei
r
way
.Ical
ledNkosi
Nkosi
:Nkosi
nat
hiMkhi
ze,
Hel
l
o
Me: i
tsSi
ya,
Idon'thav
emucht i
meIbor r
owedthi
s
phone.Wegotinvol
vedinacaracci
dentandPhi
la
hasn'
tbeenfound
Wet alkedandheal sosaidheisonhi sway .We
stay
edt hereandthecarwasf l
ippedov erandPhil
a
wasf ound.Itr
iedstandi
ngbutIcoul dn't,mylegwas
tooweak.Oneoft hepar amedicshelpedmeandI
wentt oseePhila,
hewasl if
eless .Icri
edso
har dIcoul dn'tholdbackmyt ears,hewast akenand
rushedt ot hehospi talandwef ol
lowed.Lesleywas
alsoputi nhi sbedandr ushedt othehospi t
al,Ididn't
realizehewashur tonhi sheadandl efthand.My
mi ndwasal l overtheplace,Lesleywasbandaged
aroundhi sheadandIwasbr eakingdown.Wegott o
thehospi t
al andPhi l
awasr ushedt otheemer gency
room andmyl egwaschecked, Iwasn'treal
lyhurt .I
j
ustcoul dn'tgetov erhowPhi lalookedandi t
sr eally
bad, deargodIhopehesur vi
ves.Hi sf
acewasbadl y
i
njur ed .Af tertwohour sPhi l
a'sfamil
yar r
ivedand
Nandi camer unningtomeandhuggedme
Me:
ouch
Nandi
:oh,
sor
ry.Wecameassoonaswecoul
d.
Ma(Phi
l
a's)
:ohmydaught
er,
arey
ouokay
?Wher
eis
Jnr
?
Me:Ma,
I'
m okayi
tsjustmylegthatgothur
t.They
t
ookhi
m, heal
sogothurtonhisheadandleftar
m
Dad(
Phi
l
a's)
:whathappened?
Me:Ir
eal
lydon'
tknow,IhadearphonesonandIwas
t
ryi
ngtosl
eep.I
tallj
usthappenedsofast
Istart
edcr y i
ngandNandi heldme.Icr iedsomuchI
j
ustdon' twantt oloosehi m t hi
sist oomuchpai n
tohandl e.Iwasst i
llgrievi
ngf ormybabynowIhav e
gogr i
evef orhim andJnri sal sohur t
.Weneedhi m
i
nourl ives, myhusband DearGoddon' tt ake
him awayf rom me, notnow, notever.Whatwi l
lour
l
ivesbewi thouthim?Hei sason, asi bli
ng,af ather
andahusband.Manypeopl eneedhi m hecan' t
dienow Iwasst ucki nmyt houghtsIdi dn'teven
reali
zePhi l
a'sfri
endswer eher eal
ready .Athi was
busyor ganizingforPhi l
atobemov edt ohishospi tal
andIt hinkitsagoodi deacauset hat'swer ehe' l
lget
mor eattentionandIt rustthem mor et henher e.The
nursewal kedi ncarr
y i
ngJnrandgav ehi mt ome
Nurse:
hei
sokaybuthedidhav
eami norinj
uryon
hi
sheadwhichwetookcar
eoff.He'
l
lbeokayinjust
aweeksowill
theswel
li
nginhi
sarm wil
lgodown.
Me:
Thanky
ou
Itookhim andNandigav
emef oodshehascarri
ed
forhim.ThenIfedhi
m.Af t
eranhourAt
hicameand
toldustogetourthi
ngscausewe'
removingto
Durban.Phil
awill
flyt
oDurbansi
ncehehast oget
ther
efasterwit
houtanymorecompl
icat
ions
Me:
howwi
l
lyougetaf
li
ghtnow?
Mpho:
youdon'
tknow?Phi
l
ahasapr
ivat
ejet
Okayt hat'
sonet hingIdi dn'tknowabouthi m how
ri
chismyhusbandexact l
yandwhati shedoi ngwith
aprivatejet?Iguessi tcomesi nhandyatsuch
sit
uations.WepackedourbagsandIwasi nacar
withNandi ,LyandaandLubah.Jnrwaswi t
hhi s
grandmot herandI 'm gladshet ookhercauseIneed
tothi
nkabi t.Whendi dmyl if
egether e?Howdi dwe
evengether e?Whatmakesmescar edthemosti s
thatnobodyhast oldmewhat '
sgoingonwi t
hhis
conditi
onandi fheisokay .Ican'
tgetov erthetime
whereIsawhi m, i
twasl ikeheisdeadbutIdi dsee
thathewasbr eathingsl owly,helookedsol if
eless
anditscar edme.I 'mt ooy oungt obeawi dow, Jnr
needshi sfather.Whyam Iev enthi
nkingoft he
worst!
Ly
anda:
stopt
hinki
ngabouti
t
Me:
aboutwhat
?
Ly
anda:y
ourl
i
fewi
thouthi
m,he'
l
lbeokay
.Hei
s
st
rong
Me:
howdi
dyouknowwhatI
'
mthi
nki
ngabout
?
Ly
anda:y
ouwer et
hinki
ngoutl
oudsowehear
d
al
mostever
ythi
ng
Me:
oh,
Idi
dn'
treal
i
zei
t.
Lubahwasdr
ivi
ngr
eal
l
yfastandIgotscar
ed
Me:
don'
tdr
ivesof
astpl
ease
Nandi
:hei
sntev
endr
ivi
ngf
ast
,hei
son80
Me:
real
l
y?Ohsor
ry
Lubah:
arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yeahsur
eI'
m okay
Theylookedatmel ikeI'
m amadper son
ofcauseI'
m okayIguess.Wegott oDur banandwe
start
edinmyhousebef or
egoingtothehospi t
al,
I
packedabagf ormy sel
fandPhi l
a.Jnrwillbe
stayi
ngwi t
hNamhl aandPhila'
smot herherewhile
I'
m atthehospit
al.Lubahputthebagsint heboot
andhedr oveoffthethehospit
al.WhenIgott her
e,
doct
orswererunni
ngi
nandZee,BeeandAt
hiwer
e
al
sopartoft
hosedoct
ors.Ir
ant
oMpho
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon!
!
Mpho: Idon'
tknow!Themachi nest
artedbeepi
ng
l
oudlyandhewasr ushedint
othatr
oom andnow
theyal
l goi
nginthere.Ir
eall
ydon'
tknowwhat '
s
goingon
Icri
edandf el
lont
hefloorwi
thDannyhol
dingme
try
ingtopickmeup,IwassonumbandweakIj ust
fel
tli
kejustdyi
ng.
Sneh:baby
,don'
tdothattoy
oursel
fnowPhil
aneeds
youthemost.Youhavetobest
rongforhi
m
Idon'
tevenknowwhent
heygother
ebutt
heywer
e
al
laroundmeevenmymotherwasher
e
Me:
Ma
ShehelpedmeupandIsatont
hechai
rswi
thher
nextt
ome
Ma:
itwi
l
lbeokaymychi
l
d.Hewi
l
lbeokay
Me:
idon'
twantt
oloosehi
m mama
Ma:
youwon'
t,
he'
l
lbeokay
Icri
edtil
lIfel
lasleep.I
twasdar kal
readyandIwas
onabed.Theymi ghthavemov edmet oar oom her
e,
butwhenIlookedar ounditwasn'tahospitalr
oom.I
heardav oi
cecalli
ngmebutIj ustcouldn'
tsee
cl
early
,itwasliketheroom wasf ul
lofsteam
Me:
whoi
sthat
?Wher
eam I
?
Voice:l
ookandyouwi
l
lfi
ndme.Il
ovey
ouandIwi
l
l
fi
ghtformyli
fe
Il
ookedar
oundandwhenIlookedbehindmeitwas
Phi
la buthewasdiff
erent,hi
sfacewasful
lof
bl
oodandhehadnolef
tey e
Me:
aaaaaaah!
!!Phi
l
a!Phi
l
asande!Aaaaaah!
If
eltsomeoneshaki
ngmeandIscr
eamed!
Nceba:
Wakeup,
wakeup!Her
essomewat
er
Me:
Phi
l
a
Iwassweati
ngandshaki
ngIcouldn'
tev
enhol
dthe
gl
assshegaveme.Il
ookedaroundandNkosi
,
Bonga
wereal
sothere
Me:
itwasadr
eam?
Bonga:yes,
youweredr
eamingandsl
eept
alki
ng
well
itendedasscr
eaming
Me:
Wher
eisPhi
l
asande?
Nkosi
:noonehasinf
ormedusofanyt
hing,hei
sst
il
l
i
nhisroom andnoonehasexi
tedt
hatroom.
Me:
hewasher
e,hewasher
ewi
thme
Bonga:
wewer
eher
ewi
thy
ouSi
ya
Me:nointhedream,
hewasj
ustbehi
ndme.He.
..He
wasbehind.
..Me
Ist
art
edcryi
ngandNkosi
hel
dmeandgav
eme
morewater
Nceba:
Ihat
eseei
ngy
oul
i
ket
his.Shecr
iedandl
eft
t
heroom
Me:
Am Il
oosi
ngmymi
nd?
Bonga:
noyounot
.It'
scomplet
elyunderst
andabl
e
fory
outobel
iket
his.You'
vebeenthroughalot
l
atel
y
Wesatt
her
eforawhi
l
eandt
henwentbackt
oour
desi
gnat
edwai
ti
ngr
oom andev
ery
onewast
her
e
Nay
e:weseem t
obeathospi
tal
sal
ot
Zandy
:yeahhey
,weshoul
dbui
l
dahomei
nher
e
Wealll
aughedandthentherewasawkwardsi
l
ence.
Wesatthereandaf
ter2hours,
Zee,BeeandAt
hi
came.Athi
'
scoatwasfullofbl
ood
Me:
ist
hatal
lPhi
l
a'sbl
ood?
Athi
:I'
m af
rai
ditis.Hebl
edaloti
nthei
nsideandwe
hadtooperat
ehim anditwasadi
ffi
cul
tjour
neybut
wepulledt
hrough.
Me:
howi
she?
Zee:
wecan' tr
eal
l
yt ell
ifhe'
l
lmakeitornot.Heisi
n
theI
CUr i
ghtnow,Idon'twantt
oli
etoy ouSiya,
hei
s
i
nar eal
l
ybadcondition
Me:
whatar
ethechancesofhi
m bei
ngal
i
ve?
Bee:
wecan'
ttel
lfornow.
Tear
sfel
lof
fmyf
aceandIcr
ied,
Kamowashol
ding
me
Me:
Hesai
dhewi
l
lfi
ghtf
orhi
sli
fe,
het
oldme!He
waswi
thme!
At
hi:
whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me:Hewaswi
thme!Iknowhewaswi
thme!Isaw
hi
m!
Kamo:
okaysweet
yokayhewaswi
thy
ou
Theyl
ookedatmel
i
keI
'
mloosi
ngmymi
nd
Me:
I'
m notcr
azy
!
Iclosedmyey es,j
ustwhenIwasaboutt ofal
lasl
eep
heappear edagai
n, hewascar
ryi
ngthreenewborns
andt heywereall
cry i
ngsol
oudlyatonce.Hewas
bleedingandhisbloodwasfal
li
ngont hebabi
es
cl
ot hes
Me:
Phi
l
a!
Heseemedt
obef
adi
ngawaysl
owl
y
Me:
mybabi
es!Phi
l
a!Don'
tl
eav
eme!Don'
tl
eav
e!
Iwaswalki
ngt
ohi
m andhol
dinghi
mtr
yingt
opul
l
hi
m back
Me:
Phi
l
a!Phi
l
a!Comebackwi
thmybabi
es!
IopenedmyeyesandIwaspul
li
ngacurtai
n.I
l
ookedaroundandmymotherwascr
yingsit
ti
ngon
thefl
oor
Lubah:
leav
ethecur
tai
nSi
ya.
Me:
but
,buthewasher
e.
Bonga:
no,
youwer
eimagi
ningt
hings
Me:
no!Hewasher
e,hol
dingmybabi
es.Theyneed
me!
Nay
e:sweet
ycomeher
e
IwenttoherandIwassweat
ing.Shehel
dmeandI
drankwater
Nay
e;wher
ewashe?
Me:hewasher eandhewascar ryi
ngourthree
babi
esandt heywerecr
ying.It
hinktheyarehungr
y.
Yestheyarehungry
,Ineedtofeedthem.Istoodup
andwentt omybaglookingforbabybott
lesbutI
coul
dn'tf
indthem
Me:wher
earet
hebott
lesNcebakazi
?It
oldy
out
o
packt
hem,mybabi
esarehungry
!
Danny:Si
yamt
handacal
m down.Youar
eseei
ng
thi
ngs
Me:
I'
m crazy?Me?Hahahay
oumustbemistaken
MrMckenzie,
Ineedt
ofeedmybabi
es.Phi
l
a,bri
ng
t
hem her
e
Il
ookedar
oundandPhi
l
awasn'
tcomi
ng
Me:Phi
la,I
'm wai
ti
ng.Thebabi
esar
ehungr
y.Li
sten,
l
ist
entothat,
theyarecr
ying
Bonga:
hei
snotcomi
ngandhecan'
theart
hem
Me:y
eshei
s!Hewasher
eandhe'
l
lcomebackwi
th
t
hem.Hewi
ll
Isatont
hef
loor
Me:ohI'
llj
ustbr
east
feed.It
ookoutmyr i
ghtboob
andNtokozocamerunningandputi
tbackin
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?Ihav
etof
eedmychi
l
dren
Nt
okozo:
Ther
ear
enochi
l
dren,
theyal
lpassedaway
Si
ya.
Me:
what
?
Il
aughedathersohar
dIwasr
oll
i
ngont
hef
loor
Me: aaah!Youar
esof
unny
!Youar ever
yfunny.
Mxm Phil
asandeIhavenot
imeforj
okes,comewith
mybabies!
Nt
okozo:
Phi
l
asandewasi
nacaracci
dent
Me:
youar
ecr
azy
!!
!!
Idon'
tknowhowi thappenedbutIf
oundmy
sel
fon
topofherst
rangl
i
ngher !
Me:
Youar
eal
i
ar!
!!
DannyandMphocar
ri
edmeandremov
edmef
rom
her
.Iwaski
cki
ngandscr
eami
ng
Me:Mybabi
esarenotdead!
!Mybabi
esar
eal
i
ve!
PHI
LASANDE!!
!PHILASANDE!
Thr
eemencamei nwi
thabedandIwasl
ayedonit
andtheystr
appedmeandchai
nedmeli
kethose
mentall
yil
lpeopl
e
Me:whatarey
oudoi
ng!Getmeoutofher
e!Getme
outofher
e!
Iwasfighti
ngt
hem andImanagedt
ogetoutof
ther
e.Iranawayar
oundscr
eaming
Me:
Phil
asande!Whereareyou?Theyar
echai
ning
meli
keamadper son!Sav
eme!
Isawhi
m appearandhewasn'
tcar
ryi
ngourchi
l
dren
andhewascleanandther
ewasnobloodanymore.
Me:
Wher
ear
etheki
ds?Phi
l
a
Voi
ce:
Iwi
l
lfi
ghtf
ormyl
i
fe.Il
ovey
ouNdy
amt
handa
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMaphol
oba
Iwentcl
oset
ohim butt
hemor
eIcamecl
oset
he
morehewasfadi
ngaway
Me:
Phi
l
a!Don'
tgo!Don'
tl
eav
emePhi
l
a!
Nay
e:Sweet
ie,
comewi
thme.Hewi
l
lbeback
Me:aaaaah!
!!Iscr
eamedandIwast
hrowi
ng
ev
eryt
hingnexttomeonthefl
oor
Me:
Phi
l
asande!
!!
!
Bonga:Takecar
e,maShezi
can'
tst
andt
oseeher
l
ikethi
sanymore
Babal
wawasl
ayi
ngonBonga'
sshoul
dercr
ying.
If
eltl
i
keIwasbei
ngi
nject
ed,
yest
heywer
einj
ect
ing
me
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Iwasget
ti
ngweakerandweaker
Me:
Phi
l
a..
la.
s..
.
Icouldn'tevenfinishmysent ence.Myey esit
egot
blurr
yandi tgotdar keranddar ker.Icouldn'
tfeelmy
bodyany moreandmyey esshutdown!Phi l
asande
wasal lIwast hinkingabout ,hesai dhewi l
lfi
ghtfor
hisli
feandIknowhewi l
l.Iknowhe' l
lcomebackt o
me, thesepeopl ethi nkI'
mi maginingthingswhenI '
m
not.Ican'tbecr azy!Not hat '
sjustcrazy,I'
m not
crazytheyar e.Every thi
ngjustshutdown!

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Inser
t56
Def
inecr
azyf
orme?Causei
nmymi
ndIt
hinkI
'
m
nor mal butthat snotwhatpeopl esay ,theyt ell
ingme
I'
m cr azy,thatI '
ml oosingmymi ndbutwhatIdon' t
under standi st hathowcanseei ngt helov eofy our
l
ifebecr azy?Iseehi m every day ,
hecomest ome
andwesi tandt al
kf orhour s, hest i
l
l t
ellsmehi s
fi
ght i
ngf orhi sl i
feandIshoul dwai tforhi m, yeah
that'swhatI 'm doi ng, I
'
m wai ti
ngf orhim.Aweek
agoIwokeupi napl aceIdi dn' tknowbutaf tera
whi l
eIwast oldI '
mi napsy chi atr
ichospi tal
.Thi sis
thesecondweekI '
m spendi ngher e,it
sbeenpr etty
diffi
cultbutIdost il
lhav etopr ovethatI '
m notcr azy.
Igett oseePhi l
at wiceaday ,there'
snochange.He
wasputi nal ifesuppor tmachi neandt hedoct ors
toldmet here'snohopebutwhenhev i
si tsme, he
tell
smenott ogi veup.I t'
slikeI '
ml i
v i
ngadoubl elif
e,
spirit
uallyandphy si
cally.I'
mt heonl yonewhosees
him andt hatfrust r
atesme, whati fI'
mr eall
ycr azy?
Whati fI'
mj usti magi ningthi ngsbutapar tofme
alsot ell
smei tsr eall
yhappeni ng.Imissmyhome, I
mi ssmyf ami l
yandImi ssmysonandmyhusband.
Myson Imi sshi m somuch, mymom comeswi t
h
him ev erydayf ormet oseehi m, whenev erhel eaves
Icrymy selftosl eep.Theyt ol dmeI 'm notf itenough
tobewithhi
m 24/7andpar
enthim,t
hatjustbr
oke
myheartandIknowihavetobecooperat
ivewit
h
thedoct
orssoIcangohomeandbewi thmybaby .
Speaki
ngofdoctor
s,mydoctorcamein
Dr
:Mr
sNgcobo
Me:
hi
Dr:
y ou'
vebeenbehavingver
ywell
forthepastf
ew
daysandyou'resl
owlyrecov
eri
ngbutIdohave
somequestionsfory
ou
Me:
thanky
ouandy
oumayasky
ourquest
ions
Dr
:Whenl
astdi
dyou"
see"y
ourhusband
Me:
Aweekago
I
fonl
yheknewhewasher
elastni
ghtbefor
eIwent
t
obed butIhavet
oli
ejustsoIcangetoutofher
e
Dr
:Doy
oumi
sshi
m?
Me:
ofcauseIdo,
wearesupposedtobegetti
ng
mar
ri
edin3days butIguessthatwon'
thappen
Dr
:I'
m sorr
ymam, anddoy
ounowr
eal
i
zet
haty
ou
wer
elosingyourmind?
Me:
Yes
Dr:Manypeopledon'tagr
eetothisquest
ion
becauset
hey'
reindenialandI'
m gladyouslowl
y
real
iz
ingt
hatandget ti
ngyoursanit
yback.You'
re
makinggoodprogressbutIdohav eonelast
questi
onfory
ou
Me:
Goahead
Dr
:Ifyouwereaskedt
oswi
tchoft
hel
i
femachi
nes,
wouldyoudoit
?
Me:
No
Dr
:why
?
Me:
ist
il
lhav
ehope
Dr:okaythanky
ouv
erymuch.I
'
llbeseei
ngy
ou
tomorrow
Hewal
ksoutandIsi
ghedi
nreli
ef,
Ihopet
hat
wor
kedsoIcanfi
nal
l
ygetoutofhere
Ist
ayedupforawhil
eandj
ustwhenIwasaboutt
o
fal
lasl
eepPhi
lacame
Me:
You'
reher
e
Phi
l
a:Idi
dsayI
'
dcomeback
Me:
Feel
i
ngbet
ter
?
Phi
l
a:Abi
t,not
hinghaschangedr
eal
l
y
Me:
Am Ii
magi
ningt
hingsory
ou'
rer
eal
l
yhearwi
th
me?
Phi
l
a:I
'
m her
ewi
thy
ou
Me:
Touchme
Phi
l
a:Ican'
t,
ihav
etogobacknow
Me:wai
t!Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng!Don'
tl
eav
e!
Phi
l
asande!
Hestar
tedf
adingawayandiscr
eamedcal
li
ngout
hi
sname.Thenursesandsecur
it
yguar
dscamein
andmyDoctorfol
l
owed
Me:
I'
mfi
ne!Nownooneshoul
dtouchme!Orel
se!
Dr:
orelsewhatMrsNgcobo?Washeher
eagai
n?I
bel
iev
ey ou'
veseenhi
m agai
n
Me:
no
Dr
:thenwhyar
eyoucal
l
ingouthi
sname?It
hought
youmaki
ngpr
ogr
essbuti
tseemsasi
fwe'
rebackt
o
squar
eoneMr
sNgcobo
Great
!JustwhenIthoughtI
'
dbegetti
ngoutofher
e
soonbutnooo!Theythi
nkI'
m cr
azyagai
n
Dr
:Nov
isi
tor
stoday
Me:whatno!That'
sinsane!Iwantt
oseemybaby
!I
wantt
oseeJnr !
Dr:Idon'
twanttobr
ingdangert
oyourson,
you'
re
notfi
tenoughtoseehim
Me:Youwi l
lnottel
lmewhatt odo!Youwi l
lletme
seemyson!Aaaaaah!Iwasscr eami ngandIt hrew
ever
ythi
ngnexttomeont hefloor.Theguar dscame
andheldmebutIwasabl et ofightthem andr an
away.Iranwit
hev eyy
hinginmeandj ustwhenIgot
cl
osertothedoorPhilaappearedcar ryi
ngthet hree
babi
esagainwithbloodalloverthem.Iscr eamed
andtri
edtorunbackbuthewasi nfrontofmeagai n
Me:
Leav
emeal
one!
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ou,
butIhav
etol
eav
eyou
Me:
No!No!Whatdoy
oumean!Nooo!Ir
ant
othe
doct
or
Me:youhavetotakemetothehospi
tal
thatPhi
l
a's
i
n,pl
ease!Pl
easeIbegyou
Dr
:Mam,
youcan'
tl
eav
eatt
hisst
ate
Me:
Please!
Hi
sphoner
angandhewi
denedhi
sey
es
Dr:comeyouneedt
ogotothehospi
tal
urgent
ly,
I
gotacal
lfr
om MrMkhi
ze(
Nkosi)
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
?
Her ushedmet ohi
scaranddr oveoff,i
twasnearso
i
nj ust10minswegott her
eandIrant oPhil
a'
sroom.
Iwasget t
ingweir
dlooksandi t
sprobablybecause
ofwhatIwaswear ing.Doctor
swerear oundhim and
themachi neswer
emaki ngloudnoises
Nur
se;
youcan'
tbei
nher
emam
Me:
leav
emeal
one!
Ipushedherandwentt
oholdPhi
l
a'scol
dhand.He
wasleavi
ngme!Likehesai
d!
Me:
Youcannotdot
his!Youcan'
tl
eav
eusnow!We
needy
ou!Lesl
eyneedsy
ou!Ineedy
ouPhi
l
asande!
Iwasl oosingall
hope,hewasgett
ingpal eandIj
ust
couldn'tstopcr
ying,hewasdyi
ngrightinfr
ontofmy
eyes.Icriedsoft
lyandwhisper
ed"Iloveyou
Maphol oba"themachineswentsi
l
entandhewas
gone
Dr:
I'
m afr
aidyouhav
etol
eav
ether
oom mam.I
'
m
sor
ryforyourl
oss
IscreamedandNkosi rushedinandheldme, icr
ied
soloudandscreamed" Phil
asande!Don'
tleaveus!"I
cri
edsohar dandthemachi nesstar
tedbeeping
again.Icoul
dn'
tbeli
evewhatIwashear i
ng.Ilooked
aroundandthewasahear t
beatreadi
ngont he
machi nes
Nur
se:
It'
sami
racl
e!
Ir
ant
ohi
sbedandhel
dhi
shand
Me:
Phi
l
a,y
oucameback y
oucameback!
Dr:hecer
tainlydi
d,we'r
egoingtomovehim outof
thesemachinessincehecanbreat
heonhisown.I
mustsay,thishasneverev
erhappenedbefore
Me:God, it
sallhiswork IwassohappyandGod
answeredal l
ofmypr ayers.Mymom wasr i
ght,all
youhavet odoi sgoony ourkneesandpr ay
,trusti
n
Godandhei sli
steni
ngtoal l
yourprayer
s.Wewer e
tol
dtoleav ehisroom andhewasmov edoutoft he
l
ifemachines.BabalwaandDannycamewi thfood
andclothesformet ochange, IguessNkositoldher
aboutmyr idi
culousoutfi
t.
Bee:
Mysi
ster
,youl
ookhor
ri
ble
Me:
TrustmeIknow
Itwasgoodt olaughagai nabi t
,Itookt heclot
hes
andwentt ochange, i
twasPhi l
a'
sf avorit
edress,
the
whit
eonet hathechosef ormewhent heywere
secretlypreparingforababyshower /welcoming
part
y .Ismi l
edt omy selfandthoughtabout
everythingwe' vebeent hrough.Didwedeser veal
l
thi
spai n?Can' twej ustbehappyf oronce.Iwent
backt ot hewai t
ingroom andAt hicame, hewas
l
ookingexhaust edandhadey ebags.At hihasbeen
real
lysuppor t
iveanddoi ngev eryt
hingi nhispower
tosav ePhi l
a'slive.
Me;
youneedt
ogohomeandr
est
Athi
;Iwanttobeher
eifanythi
nghappens,
Idon'
t
tr
ustanyonewit
hPhil
a'
sliv
e.
Me:You'
vebeenher
eeversincehecame, I
'
m sur
e
hewil
lwantyout
orest
.Ifanythi
nghappensyou'
l
lbe
thef
ir
stt
oknow
At
hi:
promi
se?
Me:
yesIdo
Danny
:letmedr
ivey
ouhome
Theyst oodupandl ef
t,i
tsgoodt oseet hatal
l Phi
l
a's
fr
iendsl ov
eandcar eforhim,theyareallli
ke
brothersandi
tsjustbeent oughonal lofthem.My
annoy i
ngdoctorcame andIpr etendedasi fI
couldn'
tseehim, onethingIknowf orsureisthatI'
m
notgoingbackt othatcrazyhospit
al.
Dr
:Weneedt
ogoback
Me:that'
snothappeningandI'm notl
eavi
ngmy
husband.Asyoucanseei m okayandI'
m damnsure
i
m notcrazy.YoucansayI'mindenialbutweboth
knowandwebot hcanseethatim per
fectl
yfi
ne!
Thanky ouver
ymuchf oral
lyou'
vedoneformebuti
t
al
ljustendshere.Hav
easaf etr
ipbackt
othat
Looneyhouse.
Il
ookedstr
aighti
ntohi
seyesandIwasv er
yseri
ous.
Apartofmewasv eryangr
yandIkeptonglar
ingat
hi
m
Nkosi
:It
'sokayDoctorSuar
ez,youmayleav
eher
her
e.I
fany t
hinghappenswe'l
lcal
lyou
Me:
not
hingwi
l
lhappen!
Nkosi
:st
opshout
ingory
ou'
l
lbegoi
ngbackt
her
e
Ikeptqui
etandlookeddown,Beel
aughedatmeand
Ismil
edabit.Nkosiwasdeadseri
ous
Me:
sor
ry
Ididn'
tevenknowmydoctorwasDrSuar ez,t
hat
s
reall
yhowmuchIhatedbeingther
e.Ionlyknewmy
securit
yguardwhowasj
ustcrazy,It
hinkheshould
bemoni tor
ed
Wesatatt
hewait
ingr
oom f
oraboutt
wohour
sand
anur
secamein
Nurse:MrNgcoboisnowinhisownroom andi
sout
ofICU.Thedoct
orsaresti
l
lwithhi
m nowandI'
l
lcal
l
youwheny ouar
eallowedtoseehi
m.
Me:
Thanky
ou
Mymom andNandi
wal
kedi
nwi
thJnrr
unni
ng
behi
ndt
hem
Me:
Jnr
,st
opr
unni
ng
Hecamerunni
ngt
omeandIpi
ckedhi
m upand
huggedhi
m
Jnr
:Thandamakhe
Il
aughedathi
m andki
ssedhi
scheekandhewi
ped
i
toff
Me:aah!Si
ncewhendoy ouwi
pemykissesoff?I
hel
dhimt i
ght
lyandki
ssedhi
m al
lov
erhisfaceand
hewaslaughi
ngnonstop
Jnr
:Makhe!Makhe!Yeke(mom l
eav
emeal
one)
Heget
sthisMakhenamef
rom Phi
l
awhenhesay
s
Mawakhe
Me:
Okaysor
rymybaby
,Il
ovey
ou
Ma:
Howar
eyoumychi
l
d?
Me:
I'
m okay
,I'
mreal
l
yokaymom
Ma:
Youscar
edme,
Iwasr
eal
l
ywor
ri
esabouty
ou.
Me:
don'
twor
ry,
im okaynow
Shesmi
l
edandIcont
inuedpl
ayi
ngwi
thJnr
Afteranhourthenursecamebackandt ol
dmeI
couldgoseePhi l
a.ItookJnrwi t
hmeandwewent
toseehisdaddy .Wesatnextt ohi
m andItooka
deepbreathe,
thisisthefi
rstti
meJnrisseeingPhi
la
andhehasbeenaski ngwher ehisfat
herwas.Ihel
d
hishandandjoinedthem togetherwi
thJnrs
Me: Yoursoni sher e, hehasbeenmi ssi
ngy ou.He
alway saskswher ey ouarebutnowIdeci dedhe
shoul dcomeseey ou.Iguessapar tofmef eel
sifI
bringhi m herey ou'llwakeup.Im hopingyoudo, we
mi ssy ouPhilaandweneedy ou.Ialmostlosthope,i
thoughty ou'
releav ingustodaybutI '
m happyyou
didn't
.Jnri sgrowi ngandhei sspeakingfl
uently
,it
s
l
ikehel earnsanewwor devery
day.I'
m surehe
mi ssesi twheny ouguy sjustplayoutsi
de,heneeds
hisplay ingmat ewhi chisyou.I
thurtstoknowt hatI
won' tbeabl et ohav eanot herchil
df orhimt ohav ea
sibli
ngandsomeonet oplaywi th24/ 7.Itwi llbehard
forhimt ogr owupal onebutIhopemay bewe' ll
adopt ,Idon' tknowhowy ou'llf
eelabouti tbutIhope
you'llthinkabouti t
.Wewoul dbehav i
ngourwhi t
e
weddi ngi n3day s,funnyhowy oudidn'twantt obe
partofpl anningi tbuty ouenj oyedev erythingwe
did y ouwer ejustbei ngst ubborn.Youwant edthi
s
mont ht obet hehappi estmont hofourl i
v esand
forgetaboutev erythingthathappenedt hel asttime
butlookatusnow, you'relay i
ngtheref i
ght ingf or
yourl i
fe, wej ustlostanot herbaby ,ifoundoutIcan' t
hav eki ds.It
snoteasy ,buti knowwe' llgett hroughit
Iknow.
Jnrwascr
yingandIguessedhewashungr
y
Me:
Phi
l
a,we'
l
lbebackI
'
mjustgoi
ngt
ogof
eedJnr
Thenur
sewal
kedi
n
Nurse:noneedt
ocomeback, heneedstor
estnow
andvisi
ti
nghoursar
eoversoI'l
ll
eaveyout
osay
yourgoodbyesf
ornow.Just5mins
Me:
okayt
hanky
ou
Me:Ihavetogonow,IhopewhenIcomebacky ou'
ll
beawake.Bestr
ongandkeepf i
ght
ingfory
ourl
i
f e.
WeloveyoubabakaJnr.Jnrsaygoodbyet
odaddy
Jnr
:by
e
Il
eanedoverandkissedhi
m, Iknowmay
bei
m not
supposedt
odot hatbutIj
ustdidit
.
"
Ilov
eyou"Iwhi
sper
edandki
ssedhi
scheek.
ItookJnrandweheadedout ,ateardroppedonmy
cheeksbutIqui
cklywipeditof
f,Ican'
tcryinf
rontof
myson.Iwalkedbackt othewaiti
ngroom andall
ourfri
endswerether
e
Zandy:Wejustthoughtweshoul
dcomethr
owa
partyher
e ohmybabywe' vemissedy
ou.Thegi
rls
al
l cameuptomeandwehadagr ouphug,
Jnrran
offtoMpho,theypret
tycl
ose.
Me:
Imi
ssedy
out
ooguy
s
Zee:sohowwasi
t?Di
dyoumakef
ri
endswher
ethey
keptyou
Me:no idi
dn'
tevenknowmydoct
orsnameandi
pr
ett
ymuchwasnti
nter
est
edi
nmakingfr
iends.I
j
ustneededt
ogetoutoft
her
e
Naye:
sor
ryi
thadt
oendupl
i
ket
hat
,wej
ustdi
dn'
t
knowwhatt
odoanymor
e
Me:it
sokay,i
twasf
ort
hebestIguess.I
'
mti
redI
shoul
dgetgoing
Ly
anda:
okayI
'
lldr
ivey
ouhome
Me:
ther
esnoneedt
oicandr
ive
Danny
: y
oudon'
twantPhi
l
atokil
lusdon'ty
ou?Now
comelet'
sgoandLy
andawil
ldr
ive.Zee,
seeyou
tomor
rowbabe
Hekissedherandwel eft
.Whenwegothome, i
tfel
t
l
ikeIhaventbeenher einyears.Ibr
eathedi
nandout,
ever
ythi
ngj ustr
emi ndedmeofPhi l
a.Itwasgoodto
behomeagai n ThoughIwi shPhilawashereand
wewer ejustahappyf amil
y .Mymom di shedup
andweat e.IbathedJnrwhileNandi waswashi
ng
thedi
shesdownst ai
rs.
Jnr
:Iwantt
obewi
thdaddy
Hest
art
edcr
yingoutl
oudandIwasj
ustf
rust
rat
ed
Me:
daddywi
l
lbebacksoonmybaby
,he'
l
lbeback
Hejustcr
iedlouderanddi
dn'
tev
enwantmet ocarr
y
him.Idi
dn'tknowwhattodoandIendedupcr
ying
too
Me:Jnry
ourfatheri
satthehospi
tal,
Idon'
tknow
whenhe'
llbeback.Pl
easest
opcrying
I'
mjustexplai
ningandIdon'tevenknowifhe'
l
l
underst
and .Mom andNandi cameinandthey
bothtri
esthei
rbestbutnothinghel
ped.Iwasjust
cl
uelessandhewoul dn'tst
opcryi
ng.It
ookmy
phoneandcalledmyl asthope
Me:
Mpho,
Ineedy
out
ocomet
omyhousenow.
Mpho:
okayI
'
llbet
her
ein10mi
ns
Them l
i
vingcl
osetooneanot
herreal
l
yhel
psat
ti
mesli
kethese.Hear
ri
vedandcameupst
air
s
Mpho:
What
'sgoi
ngon?Icanhearhi
m cr
yfr
om t
he
gat
e
Me:wedon'
tknowwhatt
odoany
mor
e.Hewant
s
hi
sfat
her
Mpho:
Buddy
! comeonnowst
opcr
ying,
come
her
e
Jnrwal
kedt
oMphoandhewascr
yingsof
tl
ynow
Mpho:
Daddywil
lbebacksoonokay
, nowhowabout
wewatchBl
azeandyouhavesomeicecream
Me:
itsabi
tlat
efori
cecr
eam
Mpho:
buti
twi
l
lhel
p
Theybot
hwentdownst
air
sandmymom f
oll
owed
Nandi
:i
tmustbehar
d
Me:
tel
lmeabouti
t.Ij
ustneedt
oshowerandr
est
Nandi
:okay,
haveagoodni
ght
.Don'
twor
ryaboutJnr
,
we'
llt
akecareofhi
m
Me:
Thanky
ou
Ichangedmymi ndaboutjusttaki
ngashower
i
nsteadIf i
ll
edthebathtubwithafoam bathandigot
i
nandr elaxedabit.Aft
ermybat h,It
uckedinbed
j
ustwear i
ngmyunder wearonl yandIcl
osedmy
eyestry
ingt osl
eepbutIjustcouldnt
.Ij
ustcri
edand
mymi ndwasf i
l
ledwithsomanyt houghts
Me:
Phi
l
a,comebackt
ouspl
ease
Isi
ghedandj
ustcl
osedmyey
es.

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It
st he14t hofFebr uary,Mybi rthdayandI '
m 26y ears
old.AlothashappenedandI 'v
egr ownt obe
somet hingI '
venev erexpect ed.Inev erknewi woul d
hav ewentt hroughsomuchal readyatj usttheage
of26.Ihav eason, I'
m mar ri
ed, Im Mr sNgcobo, I'
ve
l
ost3babi es,Ican'thav echildren,I'm supposedt o
beget t
ingmar riedtodaybutmyhusbandi slaying
onahospi talbedf ighti
ngf orhisl i
fe.Ial mostlost
himt oo,am Inott ooy oungf oral lofthis?Couldn'tit
allhappenmay bewheni n30or35?Butmom had
toldmet hatever y
thinghappensf orar eason,thatI
j
usthav et ohol donmay bethesear ejustlif
e
l
essonst hatwi llmakemest rongeri nthef uture.
ThatGoddoesn' tgi vey ouchal lengest hatarebi gger
thany ou, butdearGodIf eel li
keal l ofthisisj usttoo
muchf orme.Ichooset ot rusty ouandbel iev ethat
youwi llst i
llshowy ourl ightov ermyl ifeand
ever y
t hingi shappeni ngf orar eason.Theydosayi t
get sdar kwhent hel i
ghti saboutt oshi ne.Youal one
deargodknowt hepl ansy ouhav ef ormyl ifeandwi ll
helpmet hroughal loft hi s.Pl easegi vemet he
strengt h, Iam weakandIf eel l
ikegi vingup.Al lof
thisist oomuchf orme, Jnrkeepsonaski ngwhen
willhepl aywi t
hhi sfat heragai n.WhatdoIev ent ell
him.I fitwasn' tf orMphoIt hinkIwoul dhav ejust
l
osti tagai n,I'm gladt heyhav eagr eatbondashei s
theonl yonewhocancal m Jnrdownwhenhest arts
want inghi sf atheratl easthef il
ll
si nt hegapt hat '
s
mi ssing.Phi lasande, wakeup.Heneedsy ounow, he
needsy ouev erydayofhi sl ife.Ialsoneedy ouev ery
stepoft heway .Ical ledt heweddi ngpl annerand
cancel ledev ery t
hingandhesai dhehadal readydi d
so, Beet oldhi mt ocancel ev ery t
hingandIwas
happycausei hadev enf or got t
ent hatIhadt ocal l
him, I'
v ejusthadal otgoi ngoni nmymi nd.IfIwer e
totellany oneev er ythingIf eel i
nsideofmet hey
woul dj ustbur yt hemsel v essi xfeetunderduet othe
heav yloadIhav ei nside,y eapt hat'showheav yi ti
s.I
can'ttal kt oany oneabouti t,Ikeepi talli
nsideand
allofthati snothel pinginany way ,I'
m amessi nside
andout .Myhai ri sgr owingandInev erseetheneed
ofcombi ngi t,I
'm al way sj ustwear i
ngt r
acksui tsand
fl
ip-fl
opsorsneaker s.Idon' thav etimet otakecar e
ofmy sel formydi et ,Iharldyev eneatandI '
v elost
toomuchwei ght .If eelver ythinandmymom keeps
onf orcingmet oeat .Itrysi nceIdon' twantt o
disappoi ntherbuti j
usthav enoappet it
e.Rightnow
I'
m sittingi nsi
demycarl ay ingmyont hesteer ing
wheel ,Iwassupposedt omedr i
vingt othehospi t
al
butI'vebeenst uckher ef i
lledwi thmyownt hought s.
Im drivingmy sel ftodayi tsbeenawhi l
esinceIdr ov e
formy sel fasMrNgcobodoesn' twantmet odr ive
well i
tsal way sbecauset her esJnr .TodayIl ef thim
withmymom andNandi .SoIst artedthecarand
droveof f, Iwentt oSasol gar agef i
rstandgotsome
redbul l andbi ltongt hendr ovet othehospi tal.Igot
thereandwentt oAt hi
Me:
howi
she?
At
hi:
nochange,
youcangoseehi
m.
Me:
okaycool
thankshey
Iwal
kedt
oPhi
l
a'sr
oom andsatdownnextt
ohi
m
Me:
hel
l
ohusband Imi
ssy
ou.
Ipaused,
wai
ti
ngf
orhi
mtor
epl
ybuthedi
dn'
t
Me: ithoughty ou'dr eply, butthat'
sj ustst upidof
me sot odayi ssupposedt obeourweddi ngday
butthatofcausecanthappen.Phi lai sbeent ough,
real
lytoughandIdon' tt hinkIcandot hisany mor e,I
feelli
keI'm giv
ingup.Iknowy ouaskedmenott o
giveupbutIt hinkIam, y ouhav en'tev enappear edto
mef orthepast2day st hat '
smaki ngmegi veupev en
mor e,I'
ml oosi
nghopebutapar tofmer eall
ywant s
toholdon.Yoursonkeepsonaski ngabouty ou, I
don'tknowwhatt otell him, idon'tknowwhatwi ll
happen.Whati fy oust ayher eforthenext5y ears?
Whatwi l
lIsayt ohi m?Howdowemov eonwi thout
you?HowdoIr aiseJnral lbymy self !OkayI '
llstop
thi
nkingoft hewor stbutr ightnowIj ustdon' teven
knowwhatt
othi
nkev
enwor
se,
Idon'
tknowwhatt
o
do.
Isi
ghedandwal
kedar
oundwi
thmyhandsonmy
wai
st
Me: Phi lasande, If eelweak.AndIdon' tthinkIcan
makei torev ent akemor echal lengest hatar est i
ll
comi ngourway .Ineedy ou, iknowwhenwel ostour
baby, idi dn'tcr yandIkeptt hingsi nsideandt hat
causedadi stancebet weenusbutIwasj ustaf r
aid
andsad.Mostofal lIwasaf raidofl oosi ngy ou, I
thoughty ouwoul dn'tevenwantt obewi thmeaf ter
thatli
kewhowoul dwantt obewi thabar r
anwoman.
Ifel
tlikeadi sgr aceandaf ailur
ebecauseI 'df ailto
givey ouki ds.That '
soneoft het hingst hathur tme
themostandI 'm st il
ltry
ingt orecov erandbel ieve
thatitsal l tr
ue.Iwi shIcouldwakeupandsomeone
wouldt ell met hatt hisisjustall adr eam.Iwi shwe
couldgobackt ot hedaywemet .FirstdayofHi gh
school ,Iwasj ustaki dexcitedaboutdoi nggr ade8
andy ouwer enewatourschool .Youwer esoshy
andt hemosthandsomeguyi nt hecl ass.Idi dn't
real
lypaymuchat tenti
ont oy ouunt ilyout alkedt o
me, therewasj ustsomet hingabouty out hat,that
mademef eel dif
ferent.Itwaswar mth, comf ortand
l
ov e,andatt imesI '
dbev er yscaredtocomet alkt o
youcausey ouwer eal way sjustquietandy ouhad
thi
si nti
mi dat i
ngl ookwel l youwer escar ybut
handsomel ikeabeast ,mybeast .I
twashar dt ot al
k
toy ouandIwasconf usedonwhydi dy ouhav esuch
anef fectonmesi nceIjustmety ouandmyf eelings
wer efor eign, somet hi
ngI '
venev erfeltbefore.Itried,
reall
yt r
iedi gnor i
ngwhatIf el
tforyoubutwhenIsaw
youwal kingi nfrontofmeIwaschar med your
l
egsandt hewayy ouwal k.Seet hisishowy ouwal k
Il
aughedt
omemy
sel
fandi
mit
atedt
hewayhe
walks.
Me: youwal klikeyouownt hepl ace, youwal kli
kea
boss that'
swhatIal wayst oldyou.Sobackt o
thefir
stweekofschool ,Ist
alkedy ouandasked
yourexcl assmat esaboutyou, everythingIheard
scaredmeandIswor ethatIwoul dn'tevencome
neary ousinceIwast oldabouty ourangeri ssues,
seethat'sthepr obl
em withnotget ti
ngbot hsidesof
thestory,wet endtojudgequi cklywi thouteven
knowingt her easonswhy .Yout alkedtomeagai n,
ther
ewassomet hingthatkeptofpul li
ngmet oy ou,
l
ikeanat tractiony etIst i
lldi
dn' tunder standi t,you
wereapuzzl et hathadbr okenpi eces,pi ecesthatI
wantedt of ixbutIaskedmy selfwhy ?Af r
iendof
minet haty ouat tendedt hesameschool wit
hbef ore
camet omeandsai d"Hi sbr oken, hehasal way s
beenlikethatsi ncepr eschool ,
Iguessy ou'r
ewhat
heneeds.Hel ooksaty oudif ferent l
yandhesmi les.
.
Phil
asandenev ersmi l
es"Iwasshocked, worri
ed,
scaredbutwaseagert ogett oknowy ou.We
becamecl osef riendsandIf ellinl ovewi thy oubutI
wasscar edt otell you.Youaskedmeoutandt hat
wast hebestdayofmyl i
fe.31Mar ch,thedayIsai d
yestoy ouandwest art
eddat i
ng afteraweek
wehadourf irstfight,remember ?
Il
aughedandwentt
osi
tnextt
ohi
m butIf
acedt
he
wi
ndowt hi
sti
me.
Me:Wehadourf i
rstki
ssaf tertwomont hsofdati
ng
andendlessfi
ghts,i
twasr eallytough,
youwer ehard
tot
alkto,gotangryquickl
ybutIr emembert hedayI
sawthet r
ueangrysideofy ou, y
ouwer eredand
shaki ngIt riedt ouchingy oubuty ouwer el ivid,you
wer ej usti nsanel yangr y.Igotscar edcauseI
realizedt hat '
swhatpeopl ewar nedmeaboutbutI
l
ov edy ouev enmor e,If eltl
ikey ouneededmet o
breakal lthosewal lsy ouhad.Idi dn'tev enknowwhy
youwer el i
ket hatbutIwant edt oheal you.We
foughtev er yday,Icr i
edmy selftosl eepandwoul d
fal
l ri
ghtbacki ntoy ourar mst henextdayIsawy ou.
Iguessbei ngi nthesamecl asswi t
hy ouhel ped
causewesaweachot hermosthour sandt hat
broughtuscl oserandcl osedcausewespentso
mucht i
met oget her.AndIgott oknowt her ealyou,
they oubehi ndall t
hosewal l
s.Youf inall
yopenedup
tomeandt oldmewhyy ouwer eli
ket hat, Iwassad,
rememberIcr i
edf ortwohour sandy oul aughedat
meIwassadal lthathadhappenedt oy oubutIwas
happyt haty ouf i
nallyletmei n.Fr om thatdayt hings
wer edi ffer entandbet ter .Ir ememberourf i
rst
breakup j ust20day sbef ore1stdat e-ver saryI
woul dsayanni versar ybutwewer en'tmar r i
ed.We
brokeupf or12day s,Ir emembery ousay ing
"Ndy amt handa, youbr okeupwi thmeandy ou're
tel
lingmey ouwantust obef riends?Idon' twantt o
bef ri
endswi thy ou"Iwassohear t
brokenbutIknew
Itookt her ightdeci si
onbecausey oukeptonhur ti
ng
meov erandov eragai n.Butt heny oul ookedatme
andsai d" Iwantt obemor et hanf r
iendswi thy ou,I
wannahol dy ouandki ssy ouany ti
meIf eellike
doingso, Iwanty out olovemei nspi teofal lmy
wrongs.IknowI '
vemessedupandy oucanhat eme
allyouwantbutbei ngf ri
endswi thy oui ssomet hing
Ican' tdo, itsei thery ouwi thmeornot hingatal l
"I
wassoangr yaty oubecausey ouwer ebei ngv ery
selfi
sh!ButIknewIal socoul dn' tbej ustf ri
endswi t
h
you, Ilongedf ormor e.Wegotbackt oget herand
thi
ngswer egr eatwel lthatwasj ustf ort hef irstfew
weeksandwegotbackt of i
ght ingagai n we'd
argueal lnightl ong! andI '
dbecr yingsohar dand
you'dcal lmeandt ellmesweett hi
ngsj ustf ormet o
stopcr ying .Thosewer et heday sman Idon' t
knowwhyI 'mt elli
ngy oual lthiscausey ouknow
every thingal readybutj ustgoi ngbackt herer emi nds
meofhowmuchwe' vebeent hr ought ogetherand
givesmemor ehopet okeepf ight i
ngandbel i
ev i
ng
thatev erythingwi llbeokayev entually.Ohr emember
ourmat ri
cyear ! Iwr oteyournameonmy
mat ri
cj acketi nsteadofmi neandy oudi dthe
same Mom askedmewhot hisPhilasandeisand
Ijustsai ditsaf ri
endbutIknewshedi dn'tbuymy
l
ameexcuse.Ohdeargod, matricdance! y ou
didn'tev enwantt ogo, youwer eli
ke"I '
m notgoi ng
there, whyshoul dIwast emymoneyandbuyasui t
j
ustf oroneni ght ,it
'sawast eofmoney"Thatone
nightt hatmeantt hewor ldtome If ir
sthadt obeg
youandev enopenmyl egsupf oryouj usttogety ou
toagr ee thinkingabouti tknowmakesmef eel
soembar rassedbuti t'
sfunny .Wheny oucamet o
fetchmet hatni ghtandIwasbl ownaway y
ou
wer esohandsomeIj ustwi shedIcoul dr i
ppthatsuit
offofy ou i
twasi ndeedoneoft hebestni ghts
ofmyl ife .Ooohhowcoul dIf or
get !Grade11,
July12. .
.Thedayy outookmyi nnocence, youbroke
myv i
rgi ni
ty .Iwassoscar edy etIknewIwant ed
todoi t,previousl yIkeptonsay i
ngI'
m notr eadybut
Irealizedwhenwi l
lIeverr eady?Thatwoul dtake
forever .Youmadel ovet omel i
keandi twas
somet hingIhadnev erev erfel
tbef or
eandIwant ed
thatf eeli
ngf ort
herestofmyl i
fe.Itookiny ourbody ,
yourmi ndy ourhear
tandoursoul sintert
winedas
weexchangeduncondi ti
onal l
ove.Yeahi twasl ove,
trueaf fecti
onandemot i
onst hatdwelledtoget her
perfect l
y.Youwer emadef ormeandIwasmadef or
you.Il osty ouonce,f
or5y earswewer eapar t.The
wor st5y earsofmyl i
fe,Ikeptonwai ti
ngandIdi dn't
knowwhatIwaswai ti
ngf orbutapar tofmewas
hopi ngI '
dseey ouagain,j
ustonceagai n.Whent hat
didact uallyhappenIknewInev erwannal oosey ou
again.IknewIhadt okeeponhol dingont oy ou
forev er
.Itwasl i
kewewer egivenasecondchance,
l
ikel ove...
Phi
l
a:Li
kel
ovebr
oughtusbackt
oget
her
Icouldn'
tbeli
evemyear
s,Iquickl
ytur
nedthechair
aroundandIwassoshockedIf el
l.Myhear
twas
beati
ngsof astandt
ear
sstreamingdownmyf ace.
Me:
Phi
l
asande!I
sitr
eal
l
yyou?Ar
eyouawake?
Phi
l
a:Yes,
Idoneedyout
ogetupandgetmesome
wat
er,
imreal
l
ythir
sty
.
Ist
oodupbutIf
ell
agai
n,mykneeswer
eshaki
ng
andIcouldn'
tevenstandsoIj
ustcrawl
edandsaton
thechai
rthengothim hi
swaterandhel
pedhi
m
dri
nkit
Phil
a:Thanky
ou,
Imustsayy
oul
ookl
i
keamess.A
hotmess,mymess
Ij
ustl
aughedandcr
iedatt
hesamet
ime
Me:
Youcameback
Phi
l
a:Guessso
Helookedsotir
edandIhadevenfor
got
tentocal
l
Athi
.Irushedt
othedoorandscr
eamed"His
awake!!
"
Phi
l
a:t
heyknow,
Iwokeupl
astni
ght
.
Me:
What
!Whywasn'
tIt
old?
Phil
a:It
oldt
hem nott
o Ithel
pedt
houghsi
ncei
t
gotyoutoopenupsomuch.
Me:Doyouknowhowl ongI'
vebeenwai ti
ngforyou
towakeupandy oudecidetojustnottell
me!What?
Ist
hisaprankorjoket
oy ou!Iwasr eal
lyangr
yyet
sohappy!
Phil
a:cal
m downbef
oret
heyt
akey
oubackt
othe
Looneys
Andheknowsaboutt
hatnow! Ij
ustsi
ghedand
l
aughedwit
hhi
m
Phi
l
a:comel
aynextt
ome
Me:
Okay
Il
ayednexttohi
m andheputmyheadonhi
schest
whil
epl
ayingwit
hmyhair
Phi
la:
youneedt
odosomet
hingaboutt
hisst
eel
wool
Me:
Pleasedon'
tj
udgeme
Itookmyphoneandcal
ledMphot
obringJnr
.Aft
er
30minshewashereandhewassohappytosee
Phil
a
Jnr
:Dada!
Her
anandIpi
ckedhi
m upt
henhel
ayedonPhi
l
a
Phi
l
a:Imi
ssedy
ouson
Mpho:wel
comebackman wereal
l
yallmissed
you,
evenIcr
ieddudey
ouowememi
ll
ions
Theytal
kedf
orawhileandMphol
eft
,say
inghei
s
gi
vingussomepr
ivacy.
Phi
l
a:whathappened?
Me:Wegoti
ntoacaracci
dent
,onourwayt
o
Lady
smi
th.
Phi
l
a:whywer
eyoui
napsy
chi
atr
ichospi
tal
?
Me:
Theysai
dIwasment
all
yil
l
Idi
dn'tt
hinkIshouldtel
lhi
m Ikeptonseei
nghi
m,
wouldhealsothinkI'
m cr
azy?
Phi
l
a:Why
?
Me: Let
stalkaboutthatl
ater
,ij
ustwantt
olayher
e
peaceful
lywit
hy ou
Phi
l
a:Okay
,butwest
il
lhav
eal
ott
otal
kabout
.
Hesaidashekissedmyf orehead.Idon'
tthinkI
wannatalkaboutallt
hathashappenedbef orebuti
guesswehav eto.Theysaytal
kingaboutithelpsso
that
'swhatwe'r
egoingtodo

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IguessIendedupf all
ingasleepinPhi la'sarms.
Thatalonemakesmesoemot i
onal andIf eelli
kei
wanttocr y.Heisf i
nal l
yawakeandi hav ehim back
i
nmyl i
fe,tosayi mi ssedhim woul dbean
understatementbecauseIwasl ongingf orhi min
everywaypossi ble.IthankGodf oranswer i
ngmy
prayer
s, heisindeedagr eatGod i mj ustlayi
ngon
hi
schestl ist
eningtohi sheartbeatwhenhi sfami l
y
walkedin.Jnrwentoutwi thMpho.
Ma(
Inl
aw)
-Myson, It
houghtI
'
dlosty
ou
Phi
l
a:t
hatwon'
tbehappeni
nganyt
imesoonmom
Ma:YouscaredmesosomuchandMakot i
wasn'
t
okayatal
l
,ithur
ttoseeheratt
hatst
ate.
Dad:I
twashardforyoumydaught erbutyoustayed,
mostpeoplewoul
dn'tbutyou'
vestayedi
nt heworst
si
tuat
ionsPhi
lai
sindeedluckytohaveyouashi s
wi
fe.Phi
l
amyson,
I'
m gl
ady
ou'
reawake.
Phi
la:
ouchI
'
mreal
l
yhur
t,t
hat
'sal
lyou'
regoi
ngt
o
say
?
Br
ian:
Dude I
'
m al
soj
usthur
tony
ourbehal
f.
Namhla:seemsl i
kethi
sSi
yahasraplacedusand
tookourfatherl
i
kesheshoul
dlookforherfat
hernot
playpr
incesshere.
EveryonewasshockedandsowasI .NamhlaandI
don'tgetal
ongt hatmuchandIdon'tev enknowher
thatmuch,sheisol derthanmeandIchooset o
respectherandshutmymout hcauseIknowI '
llend
upsay i
ngthingsI'
llregr
etinf
rontofelder
lypeople.
Nandi
:thatwasuncal
l
edf
orandv
erydi
srespect
ful
.
Dad:Shei
smydaughterasmuchasy ouar
emy
daught
er,
whati
syourprobl
em exact
ly
Namhla:Ijustdon'
tgetwhyeveryonei
sjusttreat
ing
herl
ikeshe'sGod,ther
e'snot
hinggoodabouther,
she'
sjustdamagedgoods.You' r
ewasti
ngy ourti
me
Brot
her
Nowt
hatj
usthi
tri
ghtt
hroughmyhear
t.Nev
erhav
eI
everbeeninsult
edsomuch, IknowI'm bar
ranandI
won'tbeabletogivePhil
ababiesbutbeinginsul
ted
aboutespecial
lybyPhi
la'
soldersi
stermakesme
feelver
yhurt.Ij
ustl
ayedthereandletmyt earsf
all
.
Phi
l
a:Getout
!Namhl
agetoutofher
eri
ghtnow!
Namhla:
Ohy ouwantmetogetout
?Andyou
chooset
ostaywit
hher,
Orat
il
ewould'
vebeena
bett
erwi
fet
hanher
NandislappedNamhl aandtherewasj ustalotof
chaosandBr i
ant r
yingtocalm ever
yonedown.Phila
satupwi t
hmehel pinghim,Ididn'
tevenutteraword
becauseIwasj usthurtbey
ondmeasur esandI
wouldn'
tbeablet oevental
k.
Phi
l
a:Si
l
ence!
Everyonej
uststoppedandlookedathim.Funnyhow
Phil
ahassomuchcont r
oloverhisf
ami l
ywhenheis
norev ent
hefi
rstchil
d,maybeit
'sbecauseheisthe
fi
rstson.
Phi
la:Ineedever
yonetotakeal
lthei
rbel
ongi
ngs
andleave.Gopackyourbagsi
nmyhouseandl eav
e.
Nandi
:Soy
ou'
ret
hrowi
ngusal
lout
?
Phil
a:youallhaveyourownhousesandt hree
homesy oumaygot o.AsforyouNamhl a,Idonot
wanttoev erseeyouagain.Youwi l
lnotinsul tmy
wifei
nt hatwayespeciall
yinmypr esence!Looki ng
atyourightnowev endisgust
sme, Idon'tknowwhat
yourpr
obl em i
sbuty ouhavebett
erf i
xitbef oreIfi
x
i
tforyou.IhopeI'vemademy sel
fclear
Ma: Don'ty
outhinky
ou'
reblowi
ngt hi
soutof
proport
ionnow?Iunder
standyou'r
eupsetmyson
butcutti
ngall
tieswi
thyoursi
steri
sabadt hi
ng
Dad: Youdi dwellmyson, standingupanddef ending
yourwi f
e,YouNamhl aIwi l
lsortyououtwhenwe
gethome.Yousay ingthatSi y
ai sdamagedgoods?
Havey ouf orgot
tenhowy ouhav e2fai
l
edmar riages
and3di ff
erentbabydaddi es,youshouldstar
tsor t
ing
yourselfoutandpr aythatsomeonewi llwantto
marryy ouoneday .Nowl et'sleave
Namhlawascr y
ingnowandIwasn' tevenf eel
i
ng
badforher
.Insi
deIjustfel
ttornapar
t,sadandv er
y
hur
t.IknowIcan'thavebabiesandIdon'thavetobe
remi
ndedofi
tev
ery
day
.TheygotoutandNandi
cametohugme
Nandi:
Stopcryi
ngsweet
ie,
don'
tl
etthi
sidi
otgett
o
you.I
'
llcal
lyouwhenwegethome.
Me:
(sni
ff
s)Okayhav
easaf
etr
ip.
Mom al
socametosaygoodby
eandt
heyl
eft
,Phi
l
a
l
ockedt
hedoor
Phil
a:It
extedMphonott
ocomebackwi t
hJnr,we
needtotal
k.Pl
easest
opcry
ingbabedon'
tlether
gettoyou
Me:
whati
fshe'
sri
ghtPhi
l
a!I
'
mjustawast
e.
Phi
l
a:Nodon'
tsayt
hatabouty
our
sel
f
Me: Ican'
tevengiveyoubabies youcan'tspend
therestofyourli
fewit
hjustonechi
l
d,Jnrneedsa
sist
erorbrotherandIcan'
tdo
t
hat
Iwasal
readycr
yingsohar
dandPhi
l
asatnextt
ome
andhel
dme
Phi
l
a:andIl
ovey
ouj
ustt
hewayy
ouar
e,Idon'
t
mindi
fwecan'
thav
ebabies.WehaveJnrandwe
wantmor
ewecanalway
sdosomet hingabouti
t
Me: Li
kewhat
!Li
kewhatPhil
asande!Not
hingcan
changethef
actt
hatIcan'
thavebabi
es!
Phil
a:Wearet
alki
nghere,
notshouti
ngatone
another
.St
opshouti
ngatmeli
keI'm a3y
earold
Me:
I'
m sor
ry
Phi
la:
Youdon'thav
etoapologi
ze,
Iunder
stand.
Si
yamthanda,
howlonghaveweknowneachot her
Me:
Besi
desthef
ivey
earswewereapar
tit
s8pl
us
t
hefi
vei
t'
s13.Whyarey
ouaski
ngmet hat
?
Phil
a: al
ltheseyear
sI '
velovedy ouforwhoy ouare.
Notwhaty ouhaveandwhaty oudon't,notwhatyou
can'tdoorwhaty oucando.Il ov eyoubecauseof
whoy ouar eandIwantt ospendt her
estofmyl if
e
withyouandl ovi
ngy ouev er
ydayandev erysecond.
Iknowi t
sabi gdealbutit'
sokay ,we'l
lmakei twork.
Wecanev enadoptifwehav eto.
Me: Buti
t'
sjustal
ldi
ff
erent
,thethi
ngsIwon'
tgett
o
experi
ence.I
twill
bereal
lyhard.
Phil
a:we'l
lgett
hroughever
ythi
ngt
oget
herasa
famil
y.You'
remyf amil
y
Me:
andNamhl
a?
Phil
a:l
et'
snotevental
kabouther.Al
lIwantt
odo
knowislayher
ewithyou,i
fthat'
sall
Icoul
djustdo
fort
herestofmylif
eIwouldjustdothati
nonebli
nk.
Me:
wit
hJnrofcause
Phi
l
a:yes,
hehasgr
ownsosomuch.Mar
rymeSi
ya,
Marr
yme.
Me:
we'
real
readymar
ri
ed
Phi
la:YouknowwhatImean, t
hewhi t
eweddingyou
want,let
'sdoit
.Iknowitssupposedtobetodaybut
onFridayI'
m gett
ingoutofhere,
Satur
daywe're
get
tingmar r
ied
Me:
butI
'
vecancel
edev
ery
thi
ng.
Phil
a:theycansti
l
ldoitagai
n,I
'm surenot
ever
ythinghasbeenr
emov ed.We'rej
ustpost
poni
ng
Iguess.We'l
lpaymoreifwehavet o
Me:
buty
ouhav
en'
tful
l
yrecov
ered
Phil
a:Didyouseeme?Ther e'
snothi
ngthat
'snot
ful
l
yr ecov
eredhere.We'
ll
behavingthewhit
e
weddingonSaturdayandthat
'sf
inal
Me:
Yessi
r!
Isaidexci
tedl
y! I'm soexci
tedandlooki
ng
forwar
dt oit
.Idi
dn'
tthinkt
hiswouldhappenbutI
'
m
gladcauseIwaskindasadabouttheweddingnot
happening
Phi
l
a:Happybi
rt
hdaybyt
heway
Thenur
sescamewi
thPhi
l
a'ssupper
Phil
a:youmayr et
urni
tnur
se,
Iwon'
tbeeat
ing
hospit
alfood.
Me:
buty
ouneedt
oeat
Phi
la:Mphowil
lcomewi
thf
oodf
orme,
Iwon'
tbe
eat
inghospi
tal
food.
Me:
buty
out
oldhi
m nott
ocome
Phil
a:I
'
llt
ell
himt
ocome,
Ijustcan'
teathospi
tal
food
Wel
aughedathi
m andt
henur
sewentbackwi
tht
he
foodandwej
ustsatther
eincomf
ort
abl
esi
l
encet
il
l
hebroket
hesi
lence
Phi
l
a:Wer
eyour
eal
l
yseei
ngme?
Me:YesbutIcoul
dn'tev
entouchy
ou.I
tsl
i
kei
twas
awayyouconnectedwithme.
Phi
l
a:Iguessi
twas
Me:
Ilov
eyouNgcobo
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
out
ooMaFuze
Ir
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om Zandy
Me:
Hel
l
o
Zandy
:ay
bohIhearPhi
l
aisawakeandy
oudi
dn'
ttel
l
us
Me:
Ohsor
ryguy
sIf
orgott
oev
encal
lyou
Zandy:okaydon'
tworr
yabouti
twe'
recomi
ngt
her
e
l
ikein3minswe'r
ether
e
Me:
okaycool
Zandy:
soyoucanwr
apupt
henast
yshi
tyouguy
s
wereupto
Phi
l
a:ohdon'
twor
ryy
oucancomej
oinus
Zandy
:fucky
ou
Wecal
ll
aughedandshedr
oppedt
hecal
l
Phi
la:
Iguessyourfr
iendi
sst
il
lcr
azy
,IguessI
hav
en'tbeenoutf
orlong
Me:
youhav e,
andy
oushoul
dn'
tbeoutf
ormor
ethan
t
hat
.I'
djustdi
e
Phi
l
a:I
'
llwakeupandbur
yyout
handi
eagai
n
Me:
that
'sj
ustv
eryst
upi
d
Zandy
:Idi
dn'
tknowyoucanbet
hisst
upi
d she
sai
dastheywal
kedi
n
Bee:
Sbar
i,I
'
m gl
ady
ou'
reokay
Theyallexchangedgr
eet
ingsandwej
usthada
l
ovelyconversati
on
Phi
l
a:Theweddi
ngi
sst
il
lon
Nay
e:Yey
!!
Theyst
art
edululat
inganddanci
ngaroundt
her
oom
andBeegrabbedmeandt henst
art
eddanci
ngwit
h
mear
oundt
her
oom
Bee:
thi
scal
l
sforagr
eatcel
ebr
ati
on
Bel
inda:
weneedsomealcohol
,Lubahshoul
dcone
wit
hsomewhentheycominghere
Nt
oko:
Dot
heyev
enal
l
owal
cohol
inher
e?
Phi
l
a:Not
heydon'
t
Zandy
:Bor
ing,
youshoul
dgetoutofher
esoon
Phil
a:yesandthat
'shappeni
ngt
omor
row,
whet
her
thesepeopl
eli
keitornot
Kamo:
Ineedt
odoout
,li
kehi
tthecl
ub.
Zandy
:you'
reverysmart
,nowondery
out
urnedout
tobeaPI.You'
resmartki
d
Kamo:
wat
chi
t,I
'
m ol
der
Zandy:yeaht
hat
ssot
ruekeept
ell
i
ngy
our
sel
fthat
nonsense.
MphoandJnrcamer
unni
ngi
n,Jnrwassodi
rt
y
Me:
whathappenedher
e!?
Mpho:
uhm l
et'
sjustsaywehadt
oomuchi
cecr
eam
andplayi
ngatt
heparkandwewentsearchi
ngfor
gi
rl
fr
iendsandtr
ustme,Jnri
sreal
l
yaladiesman
Phi
la:Mysonisj
ust10mont
h'sandy
ou'
real
ready
cor
rupti
nghi
m
Me:
heneedst
obat
h.
Itookhim andtherewasonl
yashowersoItookoff
myclothesandshower edwi
thhi
m.Wedr i
edoffand
changedhisclothest
henwentbackt
owherethe
other
swer e

#Phi
l
asande
IfIhadawayt orev er
setimeIwoul d.I
'vebeenout
foralongt imeandIknowt hati
taff
ectedSi yamore
thanshesay sitdoes.Sheal waystr
ystohi dethe
wayshef eelsandactst r
ongbutt r
uthis, she'
sweak
andv erysensitive.She'sbeent hr
oughsomuch
alr
eadyIj ustwi shIcouldt akeawayall herpainand
sorrows.Al lIwantt odoi smakeherhappyand
forgetaboutal lhert r
oubles,she'
sbeent hroughalot
somucht hatsomeonewoul d'
vealr
eadygi venup.
Theacci dent,allIrememberwasj ustthinkingabout
ourbabyandhowi t
'saf fect i
ngher .Thewor stpartis
thatshecan' thav echi l
dr en,Iknowt hat '
shur t
ingher
somuchandshe' sl ostal lherhercour ageandf ai
th.
Ithur tmet ot hinkt hatshehadal readymadeupher
mi ndt hatshei sbr eaki ngof fourmar riagebutI
knewt hatwoul dn'thappen, Iwoul dn' tal lowhert odo
that.Il ov ehert hatIdon' tev enmi ndt hatwewon' t
beabl et ohav eourownbabi es.It'snotherf aultthat
shecan' tbabiesandwewi l
lgot hrought his.I've
nev ert houghtabouti tbuti fsher eal l
ywant ski ds
therear emanyway sofusdoi ngt hat .Waki ngup,
sheandJnrwer ethef i
rstpeopl eIt houghtof .Ijust
neededt oseet hem butAt hi andIcamewi tht his
bril
lianti deaandi twor kedbecauseIgott ohearal ot
andt hewayshef eel s.Itbr oughtbackal otandi t
mademef eel betterandwantt obeabl eto
communi catemor ewi thher ,thingi sIal soj ust
struggl et ojustsi tther eandt alktoherandopenup.
It'
sbet terifshet alksandIl i
stent oherandal lher
troubl es.WhenNamhl ainsul tedSi y a, IfeltlikeIwas
j
ustgoi ngt oloosei t.Goodt hingt hatmyf ami l
ywas
therecauseshewasgoi ngt obet hef irstwomanI
l
aymybar ehandson.Iwasser i
ousandv eryhonest
thatInev erwantt oseeherev eragain, I
'v
eputup
withherat ti
tudef orav erylongl ongt imeandnow
she'sj ustgonewayt oof arwi thit,seeIwantnoone
ornot hingt hatwillhurtherandIhav et oprot ecther
byall means.Il ov emyf ami lybutI '
dr eall
ychoose
Siyat hant hem ov erandov eragai n.Shei sj ustmor e
thanmyf amily,she'sev erythingt omeandIl ov eher
that'
swhyI '
m planningt omakeherhappyf orthe
restofherl i
fe,Iwantnot hingt hatwi llmakeher
unhappy .Ihavemanypl ansandmyguy s
Lubah, Nkosi andBongaar esor ti
ngi toutsinceI
can'tev engetoutofher et i
lltomor rowcauseI 'm
reall
yget ti
ngoutofher et omor r
ow.We' rechi l
li
ng
herewi ththesegi rl
sandMphohav ingal ov ely
conv ersat i
on,it
sr eall
ywei r
dcauseI '
m wi shingf or
Pizzar ightnowandI '
mr eall
ynotapi zzaguy .
Me:
Let
'sor
derpi
zza
Si
ya:
thi
sist
hef
ir
st
Me:iknowit'
sweir
dbabebutIneedit,Chi
ckenand
Mushroom wit
hExtracheeseandSpi
cyChicken.Oh
andKFCDunkedwi ngs
Mpho:l
et'
sjustor
derl
otsoff
oodandj
usthav
ea
j
unkfoodfeast
Zandy:nowyou'r
etal
king,i
thi
nkweshouldtr
y
sneaki
nginAlcoholi
nhere.Snehcal
lAt
hiandmake
somear r
angementsnjer
hplease
Sneh:whyshoul
dIcal
lhi
m?Idon'
twantt
otal
kto
thati
diot
Zee:
Troubl
einpar
adi
se?
Sneh:
ther
ewasn'
tanypar
adi
se.
Weallj
ustlaughedandcoinci
dent
all
yAthij
ust
wal
kedin.HelookedaroundandspottedSneht
hen
qui
ckl
ylookedaway.
Sneh:
Ihav
etogoguy
s
Me:Noonei
sleavingher
e,Ihaven'
tseenyouguy
sin
awhil
esoweallneedtocatchup,pl
easeSneh
Sneh:you'
rev
erymani
pul
ati
ve.Fi
neI
'
llst
aybutnot
forl
ong.
Athi
wasjustqui
ett
hisent
ireti
me.Ineedt
ocatch
upwithmyboysandfi
ndoutwhatnonsensedi
dhe
dotoSneh.Si
yacametositnextt
omeandIkissed
her
Kamo:
Stopman,
sibadal
aLana(
we'
reol
dher
e)
Si
ya:whol
i
edtoyou?Thabomustst oply
ingtoyou
si
scausey
ou'
rel
i
ket heyoungestwell
besides
Nceba
Theboysar
ri
vedandLy
andacamewi
thabagf
ull
of
al
cohol
andfood
Zandy:Let
'st
oastt
oPhi
l
a'sr
etur
nfr
om t
he
dead!
Weal ll
aughedandhadar eal
l
ygreatnight.I
've
missedt hem sosomuchandI 'm gl
adt ohavethem
i
nmyl ife.I'
veneverhadsuchgreatfr
iendsandI '
l
l
al
way smakesur eIkeepthem, f
ri
endshipisvery
i
mpor t
antespeciallyi
fyouhavetherightones.They
havebecomemyf amil
y
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iendsandf
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enda:
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t59
Philasandewasdi schar gedy est erdayandhei s
perfectl
yf ine .Hewal ksar oundt hehousel ikean
i
nspect orandhehasbeenspendi ngsomucht i
me
withJnr ,Iguesshei smaki ngupf orthetimewhen
hewasntar ound.Not hingmakesmehappi ert han
seeingt hem laughi ngandenj oy i
ngt hemselv es.I t
makesmef eelproudt hatIam t hemot herandwi fe
tothem andIhav epeopl etot akecar eofandl ov e
eachandev eryday .Ihav easont hatlooksupt ome
anddependsonmeashi smot her.Ihaveahusband
thatneedsmebyhi ssi deatal l t
imes, t
hatIneedt o
suppor t,l
ov eandr espect .Ihav eahouset hatIneed
tomakeahome, theybot hneedmeandIneedt hem
too.Itsbeenv erybusysi ncewehadt oruner r ands
fortheweddi ngandmyweddi ngpl annerwasonour
necks butIser iousl ydon' tbl amehi mf ort hat .I
'm
stil
ljustlayinginbedcaughtupi nmyownt hought s,
I'
m get t
ingmar ri
edt oday ,wel lI'vebeenmar riedf ora
whilebutt heni tfeelsl ikei t
sof fi
ciall
yhappeni ng
sincewe' rehav ingt hewhi teweddi ngtoday.Itsbeen
alongr oadwi thPhi lasandeandi tsbeenr eallyt ough,
Idon' tt
hinkt oughi sev enenought odescribeal lt
he
hurdlest hathav ecomeourway .Mostpeopl e
would'
v ejustgiv enuponeachot her ,
letitallgo
si
ncet heywoul dn' tbeabl etocope, howdoesone
getoveral lofthet hingswe' vebeent hrough.
ThroughGodandbel ievi
ngi nhim,nothingi s
i
mpossi ble.We' vewentt hroughallthechal lenges
andthatdi dnotbr eakusapar t,i
tonl ymadeus
str
ongerandr eal i
zet hatwewer eal way smeantt o
betogether.Ther ewer emanyobst aclest hatwere
supposedt obr eakusupbutt heydi dn'tsucceed.
Throughoutal lthepai nwe'veendur ed,emot ional
ly,
mentallyandphy sicallywe'vecameoutst ronger,
str
ongert hanwehav eev erimagined.Acal l
i
nterr
upt smef rom myt houghtsandi t
sPhi la
Phi
l
a:MaNgcobo
Me:
Baba
Phi
l
a:wellt
hatsoundsgr
eat justputahugesmi
l
e
onmyface.Howareyoudoi
ng?
Me:
I'
m okayandy
our
sel
f?Ar
eyouget
ti
ngcol
dfeet
?
Phil
a:Whome?Neverbaby.I
'
mjustexci
tedand
can'
twaitt
oseey
ouwal kdownt
heaisle
Me:say
ssomeonewhodidn'tev
enwanttohavea
whi
teweddi
ng Wel li
fIgetcol
dfeet
,I'
l
lbeknown
ast
herunawaybr
ide
Phil
a:i
'
llchasey
ou.Youcannev
err
unf
rom mebaby
,
notnowandnotever.
Me:
Yousoundsosur
e
Phi
l
a:Iam sur
e.
Il
aughedathi
m andt
her
ewassi
l
ence
Phi
l
a:Younotr
eal
l
ythi
nki
ngofr
unni
ngaway
MaFuze
Me:
Ijustmi
ght
Phi
l
a:wher
ear
eyou?
Me:
Athome
Phil
a:I
'm comi
ngtogetyounow,Idon'
twantyou
runni
ngawayfrom meinfr
ontofal
lthosepeopl
e
Icoul
dhearshuf
fl
inggoi
ngonandhewast
aki
nghi
s
carkeys
Me:(l
aughs)i
wasjustj
oki
ngPhi
lasande.You'
remy
husbandandIwon'
trunawayf
rom you.
Phi
l
a:Idon'
twantt
oev
erl
oosey
ouSi
ya
Me:
Youwon'
tl
oosemeNgcobo,
Ipr
omi
sey
ou
Phil
a:Keepthatpr
omi se.Idon'
twantwhat
happenedtomypar entshappeni
ngtoustoo,
it
wouldreal
lytar
emeapar t
Me:
Thatwon'
thappenLesl
ey.Iassur
eyou.
Phi
l
a:Speaki
ngofLesl
ey,
Imi
ssmyson
Me:You'
l
lseehi
m soon,
hei sget
ti
ngr
eadywit
h
mom.Whichremi
ndsme, Ihavet
ogetupandget
r
eady
Phi
l
a:You'
rest
il
li
nbedAbongi
l
e?
Me:
uhm.
..No
Phi
la:whoareyoutr
yingtoconv
ince?Iknowyou'
re
st
il
linbed.Gett
hatsexyassupandgetready
Me:
Yessi
r
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Lov
eyout
oo,
nowby
e.Seey
oui
naf
ewhour
s
Wesai
dourgoodby
esandi
twas7am andt
he
weddi ngstartsat9am soIj usthaveabout2hoursto
prepare.Istoodupandt ookashower ,shavedand
l
ett hewat errinsemybody .Igotoutanddr i
ed
my self.Il
oti
onedmybodyandwor eawhi t
e
Victori
a'ssecretlinger
ieandt hegi
rl
swal kedin
carryi
ngt heirdressesandtheyhadalreadydone
theirmakeup.
Me:
Youl
ookgor
geousl
adi
es
Bee:andy
oudr
ippnsexy
,Phi
l
aisget
ti
ngl
ucky
toni
ght
Zee:
hesur
edamni
s,l
ookatt
hatass.
Zandy
:ifIwasaboy
Weall
burstouti
nlaught
er mymakeupar
it
ist
wal
kedin
Mir
anda:Let
'sgety
oudol
l
edupsweet
ie,
timei
snot
onoursi
de
Me:
what
'st
het
ime?
Nay
e:8:
05
Me:
hahi
twas7am j
ustnow
Isatdownandshedi dmymakeup.I twasanat ural
l
ookt hatIhadaskedf or,Idon'twanttobel ooking
l
ikebarbie.Toomuchmakeupi sn'
tmyt hing.She
alsodidmyhai r,shecur l
edt heweav eandst yledit
.I
l
ookedr eall
ybeaut i
ful
, j
ustcoul dn'
twaitfor
Phil
asandet oseeme.Jnrwal kedinwit hmy
mommyal ldressedupi nawhi tesuit
,itwast ail
or
madej ustforhim.
Me:
Comet
omommy
,youl
ooksogoodmybaby
Wehuggedandhekeptonpl
ayi
ngwit
hhist
oy.I
ki
ssedhi
m andhewipedi
tof
fandgotof
fme
Me:
youdon'
twantt
oki
ssme
Jnr
:No!
Me:
yougr
owi
ngt
oof
ast
Ntokozogav ememydr essandmom hel pedme
weari t
.Itwasabeaut i
fulmar maiddresst hatwas
whiteandhaddi amondcr ystalsdet
ailboobt ubeand
verylongt ai
l.I
twasadr essthatPhil
api ckedf orme
anditwasbeaut if
ul I '
llbewear i
ng4di ffer
ent
dressest oday pl easedon'tjudge t hisisjust
onlyhappeni ngonceandi t
'ssomet hi
ngI'v
eal ways
wanted, IneverthoughtI'
dhadsomanydr essesbut
Ifel
linlovewi ththem al
landtookt hem al
l.Phil
a
l
aughedatmeandsai dhewillonl
ychanget wice
butit
'sfineatl easthe'
l
lchange.Il
ookedatmy selfi
n
themi r
rorasmymom putonmyv eil
,idi
dn'twantto
dothatbutmom sai di
t'
sasymbol t
hatPhilatook
myv ir
ginity.AndIam proudtosayt hatIknowno
othermanbesi desmyhandsomehusband .My
mom wascr yi
ngandIwasal soget ti
ngemot i
onal
Me:
Mommydon'
tcr
y,i
t'
snotl
i
keI
'
m dy
ing
Shel
aughedabi
tandIwi
pedof
fhert
ear
s
Mom: Youlookbeauti
fulmybaby
.I'
mj ustpr
oudof
youandit
st ear
sofjoy.I
twashardr
aisingyout
hree
wit
houtyourfat
herbeingar
ound.
Kamo:
Ithi
nkweshoul
dgi
vet
hem amoment
Theywal
kedoutbesi
desBeeAndNceba
Nceba:Andyoudidagreatj
obmom, l
ookatal
lthr
ee
ofus.Youshoul
dbereall
yproudofy
oursel
f
Bee:
Yeah,
we'
real
lsuccessf
ul,
Siy
aisget
ti
ng
mar
ri
ed,
Ncebai si
nuniver
sity
.Youhav edidagreat
j
obandyoudidn'
tneedourrealf
athercauseyoudid
i
tal
lonyourown.
Me:yeahhewasanassf
orl
eav
ingy
oual
onewi
th
t
hreechil
dren.
Mom:Hehadtoleav
e,hereal
l
ylov
edy
oual
land
woul
dbeproudofal
lofyou
Mom nevert
alksaboutDadandt hi
sisjustthef
ir
st
ti
meshe'sbr
ingingitup,
beforeal
lshedidwasjust
crywhenwement ionedhi
m, wedon'tevenknowhis
name.
Nceba:
don'
tdef
endhim andsayhehadtoleave,
whatki
ndofmanjustl
eaveshi
schil
drenl
ikethat
Mom: Youmaybeupsetmyki dsbuthisli
fewasin
danger, hewant edtotakeallofuswithhim butI
couldn'tlethi
m.I twouldbetoodanger ousforyou
andIhadt olethim go.Itwasaharddeci si
onto
makeandIhadnoi deahowi wasgoingt orai
se
3gir
lsonmyownbuti thadtobedone.Tosav ehi
s
l
ifeandourl i
ves.
Bee:
Whatdoy
oumean?Whathappened?
Iwasv
erycuri
ousaboutt
hisandIwant
edt
oknow
whomyfatherwas.
Mom:
He.
..
was.
..Uhm y
ourf
ather
Shewasstutt
eri
ngandwewer
eint
err
upt
edbya
knock.I
twasSneh
Sneh:
Sor
rybutwe'
rel
ate.I
t'
s9al
ready
Mom:ohno!Wehavet
ogetgoi
ng,
wedon'twantt
o
keepMkhweny
anawai
ti
ngf
orhi
sbride.
Me:
butmom wewer
est
il
ltal
ki
ng
Mom:we'l
lfi
nisht
hisupl
atergi
rl
s.Ri
ghtnowy
ou
needt
olookbeauti
ful
andgosay"Ido"
West oodupandIt ookadeepbr eathe,myhands
wer esweat i
ngandIwasv er
ynervous.Wedr oveto
thehot elandgott herein30mins Br i
desare
alwaysl atesoIwoul dn'tbethef
irst
.Mydad(Uncl e
Mandl a)cameandhewast heonewhowi l
lwalkme
downt heai sle.Thebridesmaidsmadet heirway
i
nt othebal l
room wher etheweddingwillbetaki
ng
placeatt hehot el
.
Me:
Thi
sisr
eal
l
yhappeni
ng
Dad:
yesi
tismydaught
er.Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
Thanky
ou
Dad:
Ihav
ebeenwai
ti
ngf
ort
hisday
,Iam r
eal
l
y
pr
oudofyou.
Itwastimef ormet owal kdownt heai sle.Dadwas
holdi
ngmyhand, Iwishi twasmyr eal fatherwal ki
ng
me, Idon'tevenknowhi snamebutIdol ongforhi s
presence.ButIlovemydadMandl a,hehasbeen
mor eofaf at
herthanmybi ologicaldadandIr eal l
y
appreciat
ehim andev ery
thinghehasdonef orme.
Wewal kedandi twasbeaut if
ul.
Itwaspar adise ,
thedecor,thethemeandt heguest swer efully
packedanddr essedbeaut i
ful
ly.Iwasnowl ookingat
myy ummyhusband, helookedv erysexyandhewas
wearingamat chingsui twithJnr .Tear swer e
formingandIl ett
hem f all
,Iwasget tingr eal
ly
emot i
onal andt hishast obet hebestmomentof
myl i
fe hewasl ookingatmewi thahugesmi l
e
onhisface.West oodandhecamef orwar dabi t
Ps:Whowi
l
lbehandi
ngov
erSi
yamt
handaAbongi
l
e
Shezi
?
Dad:
Iwi
l
l
HehandedmeovertoPhi
l
aandwhi
sper
edt
ohi
m
t
houghIcoul
dhearhi
m
Dad:Takecar
eofher
,ifnot
,I'
l
lcutof
fyourpeni
smy
boy.
Wel
aughedandPhi
l
atookmyhand.
Phi
la:Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul Iwi
shIcoul
djustki
ss
youri
ghtnow
Me:Thanky
ouandy
oushoul
dwai
tabi
tMr
Ngcobo
Ps:Today
,wearegat
her
edheretowi t
nesst
his
l
ovelymatr
imonyaswej
ointogetherMrPhi
l
asande
Lesl
eyNgcoboandMsSiyamthandaAbongi
leShezi
tobecomeone.
Phi
l
a:Si
yamt
handaNgcobo
Ev
ery
onel
aughsandPhi
l
awi
nksatme
ThePastorconti
nuedtal
ki
nganr
eadav er
sei
nthe
bibl
eandthenitwastheti
mewhereIdi
dn'
twanti
t
tocome
Ps:Isther
eany oneherewhoi sagainstt
hismarri
age
andthinksthesetwoshoul dnotbewedded.Speak
noworf oreverhol
dy ourpeace.Ev
eryonelooked
aroundandmyhear twaspounding.Noonest ood
upandIsi ghed.
Ps:Wemaycont
inue.Thecouplehadaskedtosay
thei
rownv
ows,wewi l
lbestar
ti
ngwithSiyamthanda.
Me:Wowt hisdayhasfi
nal
lycome,Inevert
houghtit
would.Mostofyouknowthatwe'
realr
eadymar r
ied
andMrNgcoboher ewasn'
treal
l
yinter
estedin
havi
ngawhi t
ewedding Ihadt ocry
Ev
ery
onel
aughedandIsmi
l
ed
Me:Il
oveyouPhilasande,y
ouhav emademet he
happi
estwomanandy ouareamant hatmost
womandream ofhav i
ng,I
'
m gal
dt hatyou'
remine
andnobodyel
se's.Didyougetthatgir
ls?Heis
mine noshar i
ng
Zandyshout
ed:
Shar
ingi
scar
ingmyf
Weal
ll
aughedandIgl
aredather
Me:
Notwheni
tcomest
omyPhi
l
a.Seewe'
vebeen
throughal ottogether, t
hepastf ewmont hshav e
beenhel landjustaf ewweeksagoIal mostlostyou.
Idon'tknowwhatIwoul d'
vebeenwi thoutyouandI
don'tev enwantt ot hinkabouti t
.Il
ov eyouandI
promi set oalwaysdo, tosuppor tyouandst andby
yoursi deatal lt
imes.Onst ormyandsunnyday sI'l
l
bewi thy ouandl ov ey out i
l
l deathdousapar t.I
woul dlovet osayI '
llbareki dsforyouandgi v
ey oua
familybutweal lknowIcan' tdothat.Apartofme
waswonder ingwhatamanl ikeyouwoul dstil
lwant
i
nawomant hatcan'tgiv ehim chil
dren
Iwasstar
ti
ngt
ocr
yandIsawt
hatmymom was
cr
yingt
oo.
Me: Buttheloveyouhaveformeisuncondit
ional
,
youhav eacceptedmet hewayIam andyourlove
hasn'tchangedbutithasgrewt
obest r
ongerand
fort
hatIt hankyou
I
twasnowPhi
l
a'st
urnt
osayhi
svows
Phil
a:MaDlaba,Ngyakt
handa.
(Iloveyou)Ilov
ey ou
somucht hatI
ftherewasawor dbiggerthanlove,
thatwoul
ddescribethewayIfeelaboutyou,I'
dsay
i
tev eryday.Seel ov ei sa4l et t
erwor dt hatIdidn't
beli
ev einunt il
Imety ou.Youchangedmyl if
eand
mademer eal i
zemanyt hingst hatIdi dn'tknow
aboutmy self.I'
vegr ownandbecomet hemanIam
withy ourlov eandsuppor t.Ihav emessedupal ot
andl ostyou, ithoughtI 'dnev ergety oubackbutI
didandIswor eIwoul dnev erev erlety ougoev er
again, t
hatI'dnev erhur ty ouev eragai nandIdecl are
andv owbef oreGodandourf ami lyandf ri
endst hatI
willalwaysl ovey ouandnev erhur tyou.You' remi ne
andonl ymi ne.WhenIwasl ayi
ngont hedeat hbed
whenIwokeup, youandoursonwer et hefir
st
peopl eIthoughtof .Youar emywor l
dandev eni f
youcan' tcar r
ychi l
dr enforme, thatdoesn' tchange
thelov eIhav ef ory ou.Il ov ey ouev enmor e
Siyamt handa.Idon' thaveanyper fectpeot i
calwor ds
tochar my ouandsweepy ourf eetof fbutal l
Ican
sayi sthat,Ilovey ouMaFuzewam.
Peopl
echeer
edandcl
appedt
hei
rhands.
Ps:
TheRi
ngspl
ease
Thel
it
tl
egir
lsbroughttheri
ngsandtheywer
e
st
unni
ng.Past
orblessedtheri
ngsandgavePhi
l
a,as
het
ookmyhand
Phil
a:Wi
ththisri
ng,ipr
omisetobebyyoursi
deal
l
theti
measy ourhusband,
tolov
eyouandcarefor
youatal
lti
mes.
Heputtheri
ngonmyanditjoinedperf
ect
lywit
hmy
engagementr
ing .ThepastorhandedoverPhi
la'
s
ri
ngtome
Me: Witht hi
sri
ng,Igiveyoumyhear tandallofmy
l
ov e.Ipromisetolovey ouandsupportyou.Bewith
yout hr
oughev ery
thingwegot hroughandmakey ou
thehappi estman.Iputonhisringonhim anditfi
t
perfectl
y
Ps:howcanIf orget
? I'm gett
ingreallyold .Ms
Siy
amt handaAbongil
eShezi,
doy out akeMr
Phil
asadeLesleyNgcobotobey ourlawf ul
l
ywedded
husband?
Me:
Ido
Ps:MrPhil
asandeLesl
eyShezi
,doy
outakeMs
Si
yamthandaAbongil
eShezit
obeyourl
awful
l
y
weddedwife?
Phi
l
a:Ido
Ps:
Lit
tl
eki
dsy oumaycl
osey
ourey
es.Phi
l
ayou
mayki
ssyourbri
de
Wel
aughedandPhi
l
atookofmyv
eil
Phi
l
a:Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Hecamecl oserandkissedmesl owlyand
passionat
el yhol
dingmet i
ghti
lyIcoul dfeelthathe
washor ny.Ourmout hscoll
i
dedandweev enforgot
therewerepeopl e,t
hatmomenti tfeltli
keitwasj ust
thetwoofusandhewasshowi ngmehi slove.The
crowdwasscr eamingandulul
at i
ngandPhi l
af i
nall
y
l
etmego.Mymom wasul ulat
ingwal kingaround
withascar fli
keshewassweepi ngt hef l
oor
Phi
l
a:I
'
m gl
ady
oudi
dn'
trunaway
Me:
Ipr
omi
sedI
'
llnev
erl
eav
eyou
Wesmi l
edandheki ssedmeagai n.Wewalkedout
andIspott
edPhil
a'sf amil
ytherebesi
desNamhla,I
hadbeggedPhil
atol etthem al
lcomebuthetotal
l
y
di
dn'twantNamhlather eanditwasfi
nalsoIdi
dn'
t
arguewit
hhim.Wewentt ochangeandIwas
wearingabigCi
nder
ell
adressandwewenttotake
pict
ures.I
twasti
metotakepict
ureswi
thPhi
la'
s
famil
yandIhuggedNandi
Me:
didy
oubr
ingher
?
Nandi
:yesshe'
sint
hecar
Me:
okaygood
ItoldNandi tobri
ngNamhl aandI '
dt ryt oconv i
nce
Philatotalktohim, Idon' twantt obet heonet hat
breakshisf amil
yapar t.Phil
alov eshi sf amilyandI
knowhel ovesandmi ssesNamhl a,hei sjustst i
ll
angryandt odaytheywer egoingt osor toutt his
i
ssue.Itwasf unandwewer eal llaughi ngwi t
hBr ian
cracki
ngj okes.Ithent ookpict ureswi thmygi rls
andpictureswi t
hMe, JnrandPhi l
a i twas
beautif
ulandIcoul dn'tbemor ehappi er.Wet hen
wentt ochangeagai nandIwor eabl ackspar kling
dresswhi chIwor etheni ghtoft hel aunchwher e
PhilaandImetagai naf ter5year s .Wewentt othe
recepti
oncer emonyandPhi l
awasamazedt osee
mydr ess
Phi
l
a:Youl
ookamazi
ng I
'
m gl
ady
ouwor
ethi
s
dr
ess
Me:I
thol
dsaver
ysigni
ficantmeani
ngt
ous.AndI
wi
ll
alway
shav
ethisdress
I
twasti
meforspeechesandBr
ianwast
hef
ir
stone
t
otal
k,hewasrepr
esenti
ngPhi
l
a'sf
amil
y
Brian:Mybr ot
her,youar eahusbandnowandIwi sh
youal lthebesti nyourmar r
iage.Makot i,
thanky ou
forlovingt hi
sdouchebagIcal lmybr other.You
hav emadehi mt hehappi estman, Irememberwhen
het oldmehehasagi rl
fri
end.Ilaughedathi mt he
entiredaynotbel i
evinghim untilIsawy ouguy s
together .Hewaswhi ppedandi ssti
llwhipped.I'm
glady oucamei ntohi sl
ifecausey our eal
lychanged
himf ort hebetterandgav ehim areasont ogoon.
Weast heNgcobof amilylovey ouandwel comey ou
i
nourf ami l
ywithwar m hands.Allthebest ,t
hank
you.Hesatdownandf r
om myf amilyNcebadi dt he
speech
Nceba:Idon'thavemucht osaybut,I
'
mv eryhappy
andproudthaty ouguyshavefi
nall
ytiedt
heknot,i
t
hasbeenar oughr oadandPhil
ayouowemef oral
l
thoseboxofti
ssuesIusedt owipehertear
s
wheneveryoutooargued.She'
sacr ybabyyouknow,
andIdon'twanttoeverseehercryeveragai
n.Il
ove
youguysandwi shyouallt
hebest.
SpeecheswentonandNkosi gav
ethespeechon
behalfofPhi
l
a'sfr
iends,
Snehgavethespeechon
behalfofmyfri
endsandMydadasadadand
col
leagues
Dad:Ever ytimeshecamei ntomyof ficeIwoul dask
herwheni ssheget ti
ngmar ri
ed, andshewoul dsay
she'
snev ergoi ngtogetmar r
ied.Philasandemyboy
asItoldy ouear l
ier,
ifyouhurtherIwi l
l f
indy ouand
cutyourpeni sof f
.Peoplealway sexpectusment o
betheonest hatmessupbuti tcanhappent hatthe
womanwi l
l messusorl eadust omessi ngup.Si ya
mychi l
dIwi llkil
lyouifyouletgooft hisy oung
l
ovingman.Iknowhewi llt
akegoodcar eofy ouand
l
ovey ouatal ltimes.Idon'twantt oseey oucomi ng
backwit hy ourbagssay i
ngy ou'releavinghim.Iwi ll
chasey ououtandsendy oubackt ohim
Wealll
aughedandspeecheswer
edonethenfood
wasserv
edwhilet
herewasenter
tai
nment.Iwentt
o
changeagai
nandworeaoffwhit
eali
neti
ghtdr
ess.
Itwasti
meforourf
ir
stdanceandPhi
l
atookmy
hand
Phi
l
a:mayIhav
ethi
sdanceMr
sNgcobo?
Me:
Ithoughty
ou'
dnev
erask
Iwassooohappy!WhenIsawoneofmyfav
ori
te
ar
ti
stsJohnLegendpl
aythepi
anoandsi
ng.
Me: what
!!
!!Howdidyoupull
thisof
f?Iwassohappy
andIwasscr eami
ng.Iwasn'
ttheonl
yone,my
fr
iendswereamazed!!
Phi
l
a:DannyandIpul
l
edof
faf
ewst
ri
ngs.
Il
aidmyheadonhi schestandwedanced.Iwasso
happyandPhil
ajustkeepsonamazingmeallthe
ti
me.Peoplest
artedjoi
ningusont
hedancefloor
andIspot
tedNamhl a
Me:
Pleasedon'
tbemadatme
Phi
l
a:whywoul
dIbemadaty
ou?
Me:
Idi
dsomet
hingt
hatmi
ghtupsety
ou
Hel
ookedconf
usedandIt
oldhi
mtot
urnandl
ook
byt
hedoorandhesawNamhl
aandhel
ookedatme
Phi
l
a:What
'sgoi
ngon?Whyi
ssheher
e?
Me: Itol
dhert ocome, babeIknowy ouangr ybut
she'
sy oursisterandyouhav et osortthi
ngsout .
Thisisbringingawkwar dnessandt eari
ngy our
familyapart.Youdon'twantt hattohappenandat
theendoft hedayt heymi ghtblamemef orthat
happeningandIdon' tthinkwewantt hattohappen
babe.
Phi
l
a:Fi
neI
'
llt
alkt
oherl
ater
.
Me:
Thanky
ou
Thedayconti
nuedanditwasgreat
,thi
swast he
bestdayofmyli
fe,Iwasnowwearingfl
ipfl
ops
causemyfeetwereswell
ingandIwastir
ed.Iwas
holdi
ngJnrwhenPhilawentt
odothev ot
eoft hanks
Phila:Thanky ouev er
yonewhohascomet o
celebratethi
sdaywi t
husandI'dli
ketothank
MaShezi f
orraisi
ngt hi
swonderful
womanwhoi s
nowmywi fe andIthankmyfamily
.Thecrew
whomadeal lthi
spossibl
eandsobeaut i
ful
.And
everyonewhohassuppor t
edusinthi
sjourney
.Ido
hav
easurpr
iseformyl ov
elywi
fe.I
fever
yonewoul
d
j
ustst
epout
siderightnowaft
erher.
Il
ookedathim confusedandBel
i
ndatookJnr
.We
walkedout
sidewithevery
onefol
l
owingme,Lubah
bl
indfol
dedmeandPhi l
awasholdi
ngmyhand.
Phi
latookof
fmybl
i
ndf
oldanditwasabl
ackJeep
Wrangler
! iscr
eamedandhugged
hi
m!
Phi
l
a:Doy
oul
i
kei
t?
Me:ILOVEI
T!! itwassobeaut
if
ulandPhi
l
a
handedmet
hekey
s
Zandy
:I'
myourf
ir
stpassenger
!
Welaughedandmyf
ri
endsgoti
nandwet
ooki
tfor
aspi
nandcameback.
Me:
Thanky
ousosomuchMaphol
oba
Iki
ssedhi
m andhewasv
eryhappyt
oo
Phi
l
a:Any
thi
ngf
ory
ou,
Ilov
eyouMywi
fe
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMyhusband.
#LBUBT
Hopey
ouenj
oyed!
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iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
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#PHI
LA
Ihav et osayIam i ndeedt hel uckiestman.Si yahas
mademev er
yhappyandmar ryi
ngherwast hebest
thingt hathasev erhappenedt ome.Icoul dn'teven
sleept hinkingaboutherandIshe' lllook.Ichosea
dressf orherbuti don' tknowi fshe' lllikei torev en
weari t.Shel ovedmanydr essesandIt oldhert o
taket hem al l
,Ij
ustwant edhert obehappyandhav e
everythingshe' severdr eamedofatherweddi ng.
Shedi dt ellmeshe' sthoughtandpl annedher
weddi ngsi nceshewasf iveandIwant edt hatdr eam
tocomet rue.Seei
ngherwal kdownt heai sl
ewas
thebestmomentofmyl if
eandIwasev enhappi er
thatshewaswear ingt hedr essIchosef orher I
feltl
ikecr yingbutIdidn' thavet ears.I twasso
overwhel mi ngIev enjustl ostmywor ds.Whenwe
wereof fi
cial l
yannouncedasHusbandand
Wi f
e Ij ustcan' tev endescr i
bet hef eeli
ngsIf elt
,
i
twasj ustmi xedemot i
ons.WhenIki ssedherI
couldn'tev enl ethergo t hiswomanj ustdr ivesme
crazy seei nghersmi lemakesmehappyt hat '
s
whyIpl ant okeepi tthatwayf ort her estofourl ives.
Dannyhel pedmeal otandwewer eabl etogetone
ofSiya'sfav or i
tear ti
stst ocomeper for mi nour
weddi ng,itwast oughbutwegoti ttoget her.The
smi l
eonherf acewaspr i
celess.Moneycannotbuy
happinessbutmoneycanbuyt hingst hatcanmake
someonehappy ,Siyadoesn' tl
i
kei twhenIspendmy
moneyonherbutwhenIspendmymoneyonher
andJnri tmakesmef eel wholebecauseIwor khar d
forthem andt obeabl et ogett hem ev erythingt hey
needandwant .Ilov espoi li
ngJnrbuthewi l
l growup
knowingt hathar dwor kpay soff,hehast owor k
hardforhi smoneyandnot hingisf orf ree.Its8pm
andpeopl ear est arti
ngt oleave,ithasbeena
wonder fuldayandIwi l
lnev erforgeti t.Siyacan' tget
enoughofhercarandI '
m gl adshel ov esit,cause
shedeser v esi t.Iknewi twasacarshewaspl anning
tobuyandi twasoneofherdr eamcar ssomaki ng
herdreamscomet rueismypr iori
ty.We'rechi
ll
i
ng
outsi
dewitht hegentshavingaf ewbeer s.Uncl
e
Mandlakeepsonst ari
ngatJabuandI '
m sureit
s
becauseoft hei
rresemblanceandSi y
adi dmention
oncethatshesuspect sthatJabui sUncleMandl a'
s
sonbutwej usthav en'
tputitt
oget hersi
nceuncl e
mandlaisinfert
il
e.Jabuhasal sonot i
cedandhei s
giv
inghim af ewglances
Danny:I
twasabeauti
ful
dayman,
real
l
ybeaut
if
ul
day.Youmustbever
yHappy
Me:Ecst
ati
cman,andthanky
ouverymuchf
ory
our
hel
pwouldn'
thav
epull
editof
fwi
thouty
ou
Danny
:That
'
swhatbr
other
sar
efor
Nkosi
clear
shi
sthr
oat
Me:Andt
hanky
out
ooNkosi i
nfactt
hankst
oal
l
ofy
ouguys.
Mpho: Iwoul
d'
velovedaspeci
alt
hanksbuti
tsokay
I
'l
lacceptwhatI
'm get
ti
ng
At
hi:
Zandi
l
e'sshenani
gansar
erubbi
ngof
fony
ou
man
Bonga:
youcansayt
hatagai
n
Lyanda:VedevedeAthiwhat'
sgoingonbetweenyou
andSnehbecausewhat everi
tisyouguysneedto
sorti
tout.I
tsmakingthingsawkwardforal
lofus
Thabo:
Youknowhowthi
sis.Whenoneofusf
ight
s
wit
htheot
heri
taf
fect
sal
lofus.
Me:cansaythatagai
n,andyoucanseehow
hear
tbr
okensheis.Whathappened
Athi
:all
Icansayisthati
t'
smessedupguy
sandI
don'
tthinkshe'
l
leverf
orgi
veme
Jabu:
Quest
ioni
s,whatdi
dyoudo?
Athi:
SoItol
dherIli
kedherandshesai dshedoesn't
feelt
hesamewayaboutmeandshe' snotreadyto
takeourf
ri
endshipt
oanotherl
evel.Nextday!Bam!
Shewalksinonme,atmyhouse, wit
hagi r
lonthe
kit
chencount
erwhoisnakedandwe' rebusyyou
knowandshecr i
esandl
eaves.
Lubah:
Didy
ougoaf
terher
?
Athi:yesIdi
dandwear guedandshet oldmeshe
hatesme.Idon'tunderstandwhyshegotangr y
causeshemadei tclearthatshedoesn'tlovemelike
nof eeli
ngsf
ormeatal l!NowI'mr eal
i
singallmy
str
esswi tht
hatgir
l,wellit
'
sstressandrejecti
on.
Sheget smadli
kewhatf or?
Jabu:
She'smessi
ngwithy
ouman,
Idon'
t
under
standwhyshe'
sangr
y
Me:
Whydi
dn'
tyoucl
oset
hedoor
?
At
hi:
Firstl
ymyhousehastoomanydoorsandman
wealldon'
tthi
nkwhenther
e'sf
reepussy
Mpho: Nowthatisjustsot
rue!Especi
all
yussingl
e
guys,wedon'tgetpussyever
yday ,
wehav et
o
hustl
e!
Uncl
eM:
Youy
oungboy
sar
est
upi
d
Lubah:
Tel
lthem Br
aMandl
a
Weal
ll
aughed
Uncl
eM: Fi
rstofall
don'tusethewordpussy,r
espect
womanandt heirsweetvagina'
s.SeeI
'm ol
dnow
andiknowmor ethanyoudoandI '
vebeenthr
ough
manysi tuat i
onst hathav emademegr owandknow
alotaboutwoman.I 'm 64yearsol dandst i
lla
bachel or,Ihav enowi feandnochi l
d.I'vedealthwi t
h
dif
ferentki ndsofwoman, Idi
dn' tspendal lmyl if
e
si
ngl eandnotget tingany .Womanar ev ery
compl icat edbutt heycannev erbet oocompl i
cated
i
fy oucanj ustonlyf ocusononewomanandl earnto
under standherandal lherway s.Youhav eto
uncompl icateher .SeeI '
vefacedr ejectionsomany
ti
mesandi ny oursituati
on,shegotangr ybecause
shel ovesy ouandy ouhav ehur therbutmostofal l
shebl amesher selfbecauseshewasst upidfor
sayingshedoesn' thav efeeli
ngsf ory ou.Didy ou
evensi tdownandaskherwhy ?
At
hi:
No,
Iwasangr
yandIl
efther
UncleM:Youdi dn'tfi
ghtforher,youdidn' tstayther
e
andgetreasonswhyshe' ssayingthat .Womancan
bev er
yconf usedwheni tcomest ot heirfeelingsbut
mostofal l
,theyholdbackt otheirfeelingsbecause
theyareafraidtogethurt.Shegothur tbef oreshe
couldevenal l
owher sel
ftogett hecour aget oadmi t
thatshelovesy ou.Idon'
tblameherf orbei ngangry,
Iwouldbeangr
ytoo.I
t'
supt
oyouson,
fixi
tbef
orei
t
becomesunfi
xabl
e.
At
hi:
Iwi
shi
twast
hateasy
Mpho:
Iact
ual
l
ywi
shIhadnof
eel
i
ngs
Jabu:
Whydoweev
enhav
efeel
i
ngs
Nkosi
:thatquest
ionhasnoanswerman.Let
'sj
ust
getdr
unkandf or
getaboutt
hatshi
t.
Me:Getdrunkonyourownman,
Ihav
eawi
feand
home.Seey out
omorrow
Thabo:That
'
sourli
feman,comingwi
thy
oucause
I
'm sur
etheladi
esar
etogether
.
Danny
,Lubah,Lyanda,
ThaboandIst
oodupand
sai
dourgoodbyes
Mpho:See?Theresul
tsofhavi
nggir
lf
ri
endsand
wi
fe'
s .Ussi ngl
eguyswe'regoi
ngtohavesome
f
un!
Bonga:
Let
'sgot
othecl
ub!Ol
dman,
youneedt
o
sl
eepnow .
Jabu:
Cheer
stobei
ngSi
ngl
e!!
Theywer escreami ngandgrowli
ng.Funnyenough,
I
don'tmissthatlif
e.Asf unasitwas,i
tdoesn'
tbeat
theamazingf eeli
ngy ougetwheneveryouhome
withyourfamily.I
tsthebestfeeli
ngever.
#SI
YA
Aft
erit
sbeensuchalongwonder
fulday t hegirl
s
andIgotintoar
oom andhadamini
girl
stalk.They
weredri
nkingal
cohol
whil
eIhadanonalcoholi
c
cockt
ail
Nceba:
Todaywasgr
eat
Me:
Mor
ethanIi
magi
nedi
twoul
dbe
Wesatandt alkedforawhile.Mymi ndcouldn'
tget
offtheconversati
onwehadwi t
hmom t hismorning,
wemustgoseehert omor r
owandgett heful
l
explai
nati
on,we'vebeenpatientwithherforavery
l
ongt i
met otellusaboutourfatherandI'
m notjust
goingtoleti
tgo, weneedanswer s.Phil
awalkedin
fol
lowedbyLubah, LyandaandDanny
Danny
:Ladi
es
Nt
oko:
Dandan
Danny
:Nott
hatnameagai
n
Zee:
You'
l
lal
way
sbedandansogetusedt
oit
Phi
la:i
t'
sbeengr
eatgi
rl
s,butwehav
etogetgoi
ng
now.Ineedmywife
Zandy:Bet
terbehav
eya'
l
l sheneedst
obeonher
feett
omorrow
Me:
what
everZandy BeeandNcebawe'
regoi
ng
t
omomstomorrow.
Bee:
okaycool
Wesai dourgoodby esandl eft.Jnrhadleftwith
Mom abi tearl
ieron, tonightit
sj ustmeandmy
husband Idi
dn' twearthissexyl i
ngeri
ef or
nothing .WegothomeandIwentst r
aight
upstair
ssoIcanpr eparemy self Iswi t
chedof ft
he
l
ightsandlitcandlest henplay edmusicsof t
lyI
heardPhil
ashoutf r
om t hethirdf l
oor
Phi
l
a:Comet
hissi
deandl
et'
swat
chamov
ie!
Me:
I'
m busy
!
Phi
l
a:Whatar
eyoubusywi
th!I
'
m comi
ngup.I
quicklyr
antomydr awerandtookoutthehandcuf
fs
andsatont hebedwithmylegsopened dearl ord
pleasehelpme whatam Idoi ng .Hegotin
theroom andhisopenedhiseyeswidel
yandkepton
swallowingandhi
sAdamsappl ekeptonmov i
ngup
anddown
Phi
l
a:f
uck what
'sgoi
ngonher
e.Uhm woaht
hat
's
ani
cevi
ew
Me: (gi
ggl
es)I
'
m gl
adyoul
ikewhatyousee , come
sitnexttome.Hedi
dasIsaidandhetouchedmy
thighs
Me:
Not
ouchi
ngMrNgcobo,
behav
eyour
sel
f
Phi
la:
HowcanIbehavemysel
fwheny
ousosexy
andIhav
ethi
shugeboner
Ismiledandwi nkedathi
mt hant
ookofhiscl
othes.I
thenchainedhim onthebedandIwaslaughi
ngand
amazedbywhatIwasdoi ng i ki
ssedhim
aggressi
velyandhewasgr oani
ngandtry
ingt
o
unchainhimself.
Me:
Behav
eMrNgcobo y
oudon'
twantmet
oput
duckt
apeony
oursexyl
i
ps
Icontinuedkissinghim andt hengav ehim ablow
j
ob I '
m stil
lnotusedt othi
sbuti tdri
veshim crazy
soIaimt oplease t hereacti
onIwasget t
ingfr
om
him mademef eelgoodaboutmy self
.There'sno
bett
erf eeli
ngthanknowi ngy oucapableofmaki ng
him groanl i
kethat .Igotont opofhi m androde
himliket her
e'snot omorrow
Phi
l
a:phuck!Whatar
eyoudoi
ngt
ome dr
ivi
ng
mefuckencrazy
Iwasmoaningoutloudandscr
eami
nghi
sname.I
rodehi
mforawhileandhewasdemandi
ngmeto
unchai
nhi
m
Phi
l
a:Unchai
nme!Unchai
nme!
Iunchai
nedhim andr
egr
etteditaf
terhefl
i
ppedme
overandpenet
ratedmedeeplyandfast
Me:
aaaah!Phi
l
a!
I'
m surehedidntevenhearme,wewerebot
hlosti
n
ourlovebubbleanditwasgoodbutr
oughsex.My
cookiewil
lbepaini
ngtomorrow butit'
sal
lworthi
t.
Wer eachedanor
gasm t
oget
herwhil
stscreaming
eachothersnameandIt
hrewmyselfonthebedand
hewentt ogetat
oweli
nthebat
hroom andcleaned
usup.
Me:
let
'st
akeashower
,justashowerPhi
l
a.
Phi
l
a:(
laughs) okaycool
Hecarr
iedmeandwegoti nt
otheshowerand
shower
ed.Hedriedmeupandcar ri
edmebackto
bedandtuckedusin.Iguesswe'
resl
eepi
ngnaked
toni
ght
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ouMaFuze
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMashi
y'
amahl
e
Il
ayedonhi
schestandf
ell
asl
eep

#NEXTMORNI
NG
IwokeupandPhilawasn'ti
nbed.Itookashower
andworeablackjumpsuitwi
thfl
ip-f
lopsandti
edmy
weaveint
oamessy bunthenputsomer edli
psti
ck.I
wentdownst
airsandPhil
awasint hegymr oom
l
i
fti
ngwei
ght
s
Me:
youl
ooksweat
y
Phi
la:wow,Ilooksweat
y Iwaswai
ti
ngf
orsex
y.
You'
rejustweir
d.
Iki
ssedhi
m andhewi
nkedatme
Me:
I'
ll
gomakey
oubr
eakf
ast
Phi
l
a:I
'
m goi
ngt
oshowernow,
wher
eyouof
fto?
Me:Moms,weal
lj
ustneedt
otal
kpl
usI
'
llbe
f
etchi
ngJnr
Phi
l
a:okaycool
Imadebr
eakf
ast andaf t
er30mi
nsIwasdone
andheal
socanedownst
air
s
Phi
l
a:smel
l
sgood
Me:
Madey
ourf
avor
it
e
Helov
esPancakes andhehasthenwit
hice
cr
eam .Weat ewhi
lehav
ingali
ghtconv
ersat
ion
Phi
l
a:Iwast
hinki
ngaboutPhi
l
a's1stbi
rt
hdaypar
ty.
Me:
ohy
eah,
andwhatdi
dyout
hinkof
?
Phil
a:Iwanti
ttobebigpartyyouknow, Iwas
thi
nkingoft
aki
nghimt oDisneyLandbuthissti
ll
just
youngandhewon'texper
iencei tt
il
ltheful
l
estso
may bewhenheiswe'l
lgotoDi sneyl
andwhenhei s
7or8
Me:ohyeahthat
'sagreati
dea.We'
l
lstartl
ooki
ng
i
ntoitt
oni
ghtbabe.Ihavet
ogonow, needtopi
ckup
mysist
ersbefor
eweheadt oMoms
Phil
a:okayI'
l
ljustgotoMpho's,can'
tstayi
nthis
houseallal
one.Callmewheny ouony ourwayback
babe.Iki
ssedhischeekandtookmycarkey sformy
newcar anddrovetoBee'sflat
.Theywereboth
ther
esinceNcebahasn'twentbackt oCPT,Thapel
o
andherarestil
lanit
em androommat esbutmommy
doesn'
tknowaboutt hat
Nceba:
Whydoy
out
hinkshehasn'
ttol
dusal
lthi
s
t
ime?
Bee:Iguessshewast
ryi
ngtopr
otectus,
youdi
d
hearhersayourl
iv
eswouldbei
ndanger.
Me:plussheknowshowst
ubbor
nwear
ewe'
dgo
sear
chingforhi
m.
Bee:
butwhyi
sshet
ell
i
ngusnow?
Me:heyIdon'thav
eal
ltheanswer
ssoaskherthese
quest
ionsnotme.Ial
soknownothi
ngabouthi
m.
Wedrov einsil
enceandgothome.Seemsasi fmom
wasalreadyexpectingus,shehadj ustputJnrto
sl
eep.Iwentt othefri
dgeandt ookoutat ubofi
ce
cr
eam, imr eal
lygoi
ngtoneedi t.Icecream cal
ms
mynerv esandev er
yemot i
onIf eel,l
et'
sjustsayi
t'
s
mybestj unkfr
iendi
fthatexist
s.
Nceba:
sooomommyuhm abouty
est
erday
Ma:Iknowyouwantmetocont
inue.Wel
lI'
l
ljust
st
artf
rom t
hebegi
nni
ng.
Imety ourfatherwheni was18, hewas26y earsold.
Iwasdoi ngmymat ri
candhewaswor kingasa
mechanicathi sgrandpa'scarrepai
rstore.We
star
teddat i
ng,atfir
stIwashesi t
antaboutitsince
hewas8y earsolderthanmebutIwasy oungand
i
nlove,agedidn'tmeanasi nglethi
ngtomei twas
j
ustanumber .Hei mpregnatedmewhenIwas21
andmypar entswerev er
yangr ysi
ncehewasI tal
i
an,
hi
sf at
herwasI t
ali
anandhi smom wasSout h
Af
ri
can
Nceba:
Woah,sol
i
kedadi
sIt
ali
an! t
ell
me
you'
rej
oki
ng
Ma: I'
m not
,myf atherdi
dn'
tapproveofhim andhe
saidIwon'tmarryhim butiwasstubbornandi nlove
soIr anawayfrom homeandwewentt oIt
aly,
we
stayedther
et i
l
lyouwer ebornandwehadt ocome
backt oSAsincehisparent
'sli
fe'
swer eindanger,i
t
hadsomet hi
ngt odowi t
hpoli
ti
cs.Wehadahomei n
Ball
itoandhewor kedasanunder coverdetect
ive.
Bee:
from Mechani
ctoDet
ect
ive?
?
Ma: beingamechani cwashi spiecejobsincehe
couldn'tfindoneatt hattime.Hewasaqual i
fied
detect i
ve.After3yearsSiyawasbor nandwewer e
happyandourf amilywasgr owingt hat
'swhen
Mandl af oundmeandmypar entshadaccept edmy
rel
ationshi pwithyourfather
.Af t
erNcebawasbor n,
yourf athertoldmehehadbeenonsomeI t
ali
an
casesandhewast ryi
ngtosav ehi sparentsbuthis
l
ifealsoendedupi ndangerandt heywerealreadyin
SAl ookingf orhim.Hewasgoi ngt obeki l
l
ed,I
wantedt ogowi t
hhi m butifheweret obefound.We
wouldal l
diesothatswhenImov edt oKwaMashu
andhel eft
.Itwasforthebest .Hecal l
edme
ever
ydayandsentsomuchmoneyf orust i
l
l
Babalwawasdoi ngher4t hy eari
nv arsi
tyandSiya
wasonher1sty ear.Hecal l
edoneni ghtsayi
ng
goodby eandhel ov
esust henIneverheardfrom
hi
m ev eragain.
Iwasalreadycry
ingandsoemot
ional
,Iwas
shockedandv er
ysad
Me:Sohehasbeensecr
etl
ytaki
ngcar
eofusal
lthat
t
ime?
Ma:
Yeshewas.
Bee:
whydi
dn'
thecomeback!
?
Ma:
ther
ewasnowaymychi
l
d
Nceba:
Ishedead?
Ma:
Idon'
tknow
Me:
Whoi
she?What
'
shi
sname
Ma:
Piet
erJuar
ezZwel
akheSant
oz
Beebur
stouti
nlaught
erandweal
ll
ookedather
Bee:uhm sorr
ybuthisJnameisreall
yfunnyIwon'
t
evensayitIdon'
twannabit
emy sel
f.SoI'
ma
Santoz I '
mI t
ali
an!Wowthisi
sadr eam
Nceba:I
'mjustoutofwords,
Idon'
tevenknowwhat
t
osay .Whyareyoutel
li
ngusnowt hough?
Ma:Youar eal
lgrownnowandwhenSi yawas
wear
ingthatwhit
edr essIknewinherheartshewas
l
ongi
ngf orherf
atherpresenceandIj
ustletital
lout
,
Iwasti
redofkeepingitfr
om youanymor e.
Me:
Don'
tyouwantt
ofi
ndouti
fhei
sst
il
lal
i
ve?
Ma:Idon'
tknow,Idon'
tthi
nkIwantt
oknow.I
'
m
scar
edofwhatI'
l
l f
indout.
Me: Wel
ov eyoumom andt
hankyoufort
ell
ingus.I
knowitmightbehar
dandwe'l
lfi
ndoutonceyou
ready
Weshar edagr ouphugandtalkedaboutour
chil
dhoodday sandwediscoveredt hatourf
ather
hasalway stakencar
eofusfinanciall
yandallthe
expensi
v eschoolswewenttower epai dbyhi
m, at
l
easthepr
ovi
dedforusev
ent
houghhi
spr
esence
woul
dbeengreat
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37]Tat
enda:
Inser
t61
Westayedforawhil
eatmomsandwewerenowon
ourwayout,Phi
l
asaidweshoul
dcomeov
erbutI
tol
dthem t
ogot oTongaat
Phi
l
a:whatf
or?I
sev
ery
thi
ngokay
?
Me:y
eahdon'
tworr
ynothi
ngiswrong,justt
ell
the
ot
her
sandwe'l
lmeett
here.ThenIendedthecall
Bee:
whyar
ewegoi
ngt
her
e?
Me:
We'
regoi
ngt
olookf
orourf
ather
Nceba:
What
!Mom wi
l
lfr
eakout
Bee:
shedoesn'
thav
etoknowabouti
t
Nceba:
whati
fweputal
lourl
i
vesi
ndanger
Me:we'
regoi
ngt
odeal
wit
hthatwhent
het
ime
comes
Nceba:
you'
repl
ayi
ngwi
thf
ir
e
Bee:I
twon'thur
ttoj
ustt
ry,
plusi
fwegeti
ndangeri
t
wil
lbefun
Me: andwe'l
lburyy
ouify
oudieal
ongtheway.But
seri
ouslyguys,
Ithi
nkweneedtof
inddadandhelp
him
Nceba:Dad,mmmhi nter
esti
ng.It
hinkitexpl
ains
whyI'mjustsoyel
lowbonelikemor et
han
yel
l
owbone i t
'
sbecauseI 'mItal
ian who
would'
veevereverthoughtofthat
!
Bee:
yeahr
ight
Wegott
oTongaatandev
ery
onewast
her
eal
ready
Lubah:
tel
luswhat
'sgoi
ngonpl
ease
Me:
we'
rel
ooki
ngf
orPi
eterJuar
ezZwel
akheSant
oz
Phi
l
a:whoi
sthat
?
Bee:
Ourf
ather
Bonga:
Spani
sh?
Me:
NoI
tal
i
an
Zandy: yohmyfri
endsoori
ginal
l
yyou'
re
I
tal
ian.Phi
layouneedt
ofetchy
ourl
obola,t
heydon'
t
dolobolai
nit
aly.
Nceba:
You'
l
lnev
erhav
ewel
lfunct
ioni
ngbr
ains
Nkosi
:Let
'sgett
owor
k
Ever
yonewasonthecomputersy
stem andwewer
e
al
lbusyandgl
uedtothescr
een
Zee:
Whatel
sedoy
ouknowabouthi
m besi
deshi
s
name?
Bee:whenhel
efthi
sli
fewasi
ndangery
etwedon'
t
evenknowwhatfor
Mpho:
Ther
e'snot
hingonhi
m orany
thi
ngabouthi
m
Athi
:I'
m notev
engetti
ngasi
ngl
epi
ctur
eofhi
m,
knowwhathel ooksl
i
ke?
Nceba:
Nope,
weshoul
d'
veaskedf
orhi
spi
ctur
e
Me:
ughy
esIt
hinkweshoul
d'
ve
Zandy:
We'rewasti
ngti
meher
e,t
her
e'snot
hing
aboutt
hisguyatal
l.
Me:
yeahl
et'
sjustl
eav
eit
.
Bonga:
Pool
par
ty?
Kamo:goodi
dea.ButIhav
etof
etchmydaught
er
fi
rst
Danny:y
ou'
l
lmeetusatBonga'
s.Wehav
en'
thad
thosei
nawhil
e.
Zandy
:weneedt
ogetdr
unk al
othasbeengoi
ng
on
Me:
spi
tbr
aai
?
Phi
la:
yeah,andwecangogett
hemeatwi
thbongs
andmeetyouther
e
Ly
anda:
I'
m comi
ngwi
thy
ouguy
s.
Phi
l
atookJnrandt
heyl
eft
.
At
hi:
yougi
rl
swi
l
lbedoi
ngt
hecooki
ngnhe
Nt
oko:
Asal
way
s
Nay
e:y
oucompl
aini
ng? y
oudontev
endo
any
thi
ngcauseSi
yadoest
hecooki
ng
Si
ya:
weshoul
dact
ual
l
yswope,
theguy
scookand
webraai
Zee:ButThaboshoul
dn'
tcook wedon'
twanthi
m
tousehischefski
l
lsonus
Wegotintoourcar
sanddr ov
et oBongasinacinv
oy.
Ncebawassoexcitedaboutthi
ssinceever
yonewaa
l
ookingatusandshemadeav i
deo
Bee:
you'
redr
amat
icNcebal
i
keser
iousl
y
Nceba:
MyI
nst
agr
am f
oll
ower
sneedt
oseet
his
West oppedatSparfi
rstandgotthi
ngswe'dneed
andthendrovetoBongas.Wet henunpackedthe
groceri
esandIstar
tedmakingpapandJnr spuri
ty
porri
dge
Bel
inda:
Lut
handodoesn'
tev
enwantt
oeat
,ij
ust
gav
eup.OnlyThembel
ihl
eate
Me:
aahwher
ear
ethosecut
ies?
Beli
nda:Pl
ayi
ngwithMpho,hedefi
natel
ylovesal
l
theseki
dsandtheyar
eallj
ustfondofhim and
Nkosi
Me:Iguesshe'sgrowi
ngupyouknow,
real
i
zingt
hat
heneedstostarthi
sownfamil
y
Mphowal
kedi
nandwel
aughed
Mpho:
Iguessy
out
alki
ngaboutme?
Beli
nda:Yesweweretal
ki
ngabouty
oubeforeyou
j
ustwalkedonus.I
tsabouty
ournewobsessi
onfor
babies
Mpho: Iwouldn'
tcal
li
tanobsessionbutI
'mjust
starti
ngtofal
linl
ovewithbabi
es.I'
vej
ustbeen
thinki
ngaboutmanyt hi
ngs
Me:
Car
etoshar
e?
Mpho: iknewyou'
dwannaknow i tsj
ustt
hatI
'
m
26,I
'm notget
ti
nganyy ounger
.Ineedt
ogetmyli
fe
str
aightandsett
ledown.
Bel
i
nda:
Iunder
stand
Mpho: Ihav
et hemoney ,t
hecar s,
thebusi
nesses
andflashyl
ifest
ylebutthatdoesn'tcompl
eteme
that
'snotwhatIneedi nmyl i
fe.Ineedtof
indlov
e,
getmar ri
edandhavemyownf ami
ly
.Seei
ngmy
guyssettli
ngdowninspi
resmeandmakesme
real
i
z ealottoo.Li
keIdon'
tev
enhaveagi
rlf
ri
end,
that
'sjustsomessedup
Nkosiwal
kedint
heki
tchenandj
oinedi
nthe
conver
sat
ion
Bel
inda:Her
ecomessomeonewhoal
soseemst
o
hav
et hesamepr
obl
em asyou
Nkosi
:whatpr
obl
em?
Mpho:
onewewer
etal
ki
ngaboutear
li
er
Nkosi:
that'
sjustmessedupman Honest lyIthi
nk
happi
nessandl oveandevenhavingafami
lyisn'
tfor
me.Ihaveamessedupl i
feandnothi
ngwil
l change
andnoonewi llacceptmeandthebaggageIhav e
soit
'snouset r
y i
ngtohopeforsomethi
ngthat
mightnotevenhappen.
Me: Youcan'tspeakli
kethat.Imightnotknowwhat
exactl
yyou'retal
kingaboutbutthewayy ou
speakingreall
yshowshowmuchy ouneedsomeone
i
ny ourli
fe.Youguy sneedtotakechargeandget
yourli
fetogether
.
Mpho:That
'st
ruebutyetwhatcanwedowhenwe
l
ovewomanwhodon' tloveusyouknow sowhat
weneedtodoisjustgetdrunkcauseourl
i
vessucks.
Bonga:youcansaythatagain.Youguysneedto
l
eavethiski
tchenbef
oreIkicky ouout .We'r
eall
chi
ll
ingbythepoolar
ea.
Me:
urghIev
enf
orgotaboutf
eedi
ngJnr
Bonga:
don'
twor
ryt
henannyt
ookcar
eofi
t
Me:
Youhav
eananny
?Whendi
dthathappen
Bonga:Today
,wel
lIfi
guredsi
nceyouguyswil
lbe
comingwitht
heli
tt
leonesyou'
dneedtheext
rahel
p
Bel
i
nda:
aahy
ou'
resuchadar
li
ng
Wewenttocheckonthekidsfi
rstandEmihlewas
al
sohel
pingwitht
hebabysit
ti
ng.Andwej oi
nedthe
ot
her
satt hepool
areaandIsatnexttoPhil
a
Phi
l
a:wher
ehav
eyoubeen?
Me:Chi
ll
i
ngatt
heki
tchenwi
thBel
i
nda,
Nkosi
n
Mpho.
HenoddedandIl
i
stenedt
othei
rconv
ersat
ion,
they
werehavi
ngadebatewhi
chIcoul
dn'
treal
l
ycat
ch
whatexact
lywer
etheyt
alki
ngabout
Me:
whatar
eyouguy
sev
ent
alki
ngabout
?
Lyanda:
Somethi
ngsof ool
ish,
theydebati
ngabout
horr
ormovi
eswhet hertheyarebadorgoodto
watchonafi
rstdayifithappensthatyouwatcha
mov i
e.
Me:
whatat
opi
c
Athi
:youwantustodebat
ewhet
hery
oushoul
dhav
e
sexonthefi
rstday
?
Thabo:
that
smor
eint
erest
ing
Naye:
I'
m soooagai
nstt
hat
.Whatifyouneversee
t
heguyagainandyou'
vegi
venhi
mt hecookieonthe
f
ir
stdate
Me:Tr
ue,
plusitwi
l
lseem l
i
key
ou'
rej
ustcheapand
hav
enoworth
Bonga:you'
remaki
ngitsoundli
kewewon' tseem
cheapandhavenoworth,i
tsmydickthatIusedon
thefi
rstdat
esoitmeansIlostapar
tofme
Ntoko: ohwhat
ever
,butweal
lknowt
hat
'snot
t
rue.
Athi
: noit
sact ual
lyjustsotr
ue .We'r
ejustasyou
womanar e,wheny ousleepwit
hsomeoneand
regr
etitafterwardsandf eel
asify
oul
ostapartof
yourself
,wef eelthattoo.
Sneh:idon'
tthinkyouguy
sev erregretsl
eepingwith
awoman, fr
eev ir
ginai
sally
out hi
nkabout ,
youthink
wit
hy ourdi
ckandenduphur tingothersfor
getti
ng
wealsohavef eel
ings.
Athi
:Yout al
kingasifusmal eshavenofeel
i
ngs, y
ou
knowwhathur t
sthemost ,
itsrej
ect
ionandfree
vi
gir
natakesawayt hepai
n.May beifwoman
consi
deredt hewaywef eelthi
ngswouldbesomuch
bett
eri
nt hisworld
Phi
l
a:oookayIt
hinkt
hisconv
ersat
ioni
sov
er.
Zandy:uhm si
ya,
Ithi
nksomet
hingi
sbur
ningi
nthe
ki
tchen
Zee:
yeahIt
hinksot
oo,
let
'
sgochecki
tout
.
West
oodupandev
ery
onef
oll
owedl
eav
ingAt
hiand
Snehbehi
ndandweal
lsatatt
hel
ounge.
Kamo:
thatwashect
ic
Lubah:
butwedi
dhav
eagr
eatescape
Lyanda:
theyreal
l
yneedt osor
tthei
rshi
toutnow,
its
beengoingonforlong.
Wesatatki tchenstool
sanddr
ank,well t
heywere
dri
nkingtequil
ashotswhil
eIwasstuckwi thmy
orangejui
ce somet i
mesImissdri
nkingalcohol
butIam definatel
ynotgoi
ngbackthere.
Danny
:whydon'
tyoudr
inkany
mor
eSi
ya?
Me:Just,
wellIj
uststay
edawayf
rom i
tev
ersi
nce
t
hatinci
denthappened
Nkosi
:under
standabl
e
Wehadagreatconver
sat
ionwhi
l
eeat
ingandaf
tera
f
ewhour
sitwast i
met ol
eave
Phi
l
a:wehav
etol
eav
enow,
it'
sget
ti
ngl
ate.
Me:
LetmegogetLesl
ey
Bonga:
Im nowusedtoJnr nowwhenyouuse
Lesl
eyi
tsl
ikeyou'
ret
alki
ngaboutPhi
l
a
Phil
a:It
hinkt
hoseshot
shaveki
ckedi
ntoy
our
syst
em.Youspeaki
ngnonsense
Mpho:
Itsact
ual
l
ytr
ue
Lubah:
Iknewy
ou'
dsuppor
tthi
s
Ifel
tashar
ppai
nneararoundmywomb,
itf
eltl
i
ke
somethi
ngwasstabbi
ngme
Me:
aaaah!
!!
Phi
l
acamer
ushi
ngt
ome
Phi
l
a:what
'swr
ong?Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
uh,
ithur
ts!
Phi
l
a:wher
e?Yourv
irgi
na?
Igl
aredathi
m andscr
eamed
Phi
l
a:sor
ry.
Helaidmedownont
hecouchandNay
ecamet
o
checkme.
Nay
e:y
oushoul
dcomeseemet omorr
ow,weneed
t
odoafewcheckups.Justt
ake2pai
nkil
l
ersand
t
hepai
nwil
lgoaway
Phi
l
a:I
'
llgogett
hem f
ory
ou.
Het
ookt
hem andwat
ert
hanIdr
ank
Me:Thankyou ,
weshoul
dgetgoi
ngt
oIcanget
somerest
Phi
l
a:Si
ther
e,I
'
llgogetJnr
.
Hel
eftandcamebackwi
thJnrandhi
sbag
Phi
l
a:Let
'sgo,
byeguy
s
Wesai
dourgoodby
esandLy
andahel
pedmet
othe
car
Me:
Thanksmunt
ukaNt
okozo
Ly
anda: notapr
obl
em.Tr
avel
saf
ely
Phil
adroveof
fandwegothomeinjust5mins.He
hel
pedmei nt
othebat
htubandhewastreati
ngme
l
ikeIcan'
twalkonmyownnow
Me:
Phi
l
asandeI
'
m okay
,real
l
yimf
ine
Phil
a:I
'
m nott
aki
ngt
hat
,unt
ily
ouseeNay
e
tomorr
ow.
It
ookabat
hwhi
l
ehet
ookashowerwi
thJnrandgot
hi
mr eadyforbed.OnceIwasdone,It
uckedi
nbed
andhejoinedmeaf t
erafewminutes
Phi
l
a:Hef
inal
l
yfel
lasl
eep
Me:
That
'sgood
Ifakedasmi le,mymi ndwasn'tev
enhere,thepai
ns
wereincreasingandIwaswonder ingwhatitcoul
d
be.ThelasttimeIlaidhereandIwasi npai
nIlost
mybaby ,itcan'
thappenagain.Butthi
stimethepain
i
ssl i
ghtl
ydiffer
entthanbeforewhichismakingme
mor ecuri
ous.Phil
ahasj ustbeenstar
ingatmeasi f
heistryi
ngt oreadmymi nd
Me:I'
mt hi
nki
ngofthel
astt
imeIwasi
npai
n,Idon'
t
wantthatt
ohappenagai
n
Phi
l
a:t
hatdi
dcomei
nmi
nd.Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
Me:
I'
mfi
ne
Ihat
elyi
ngtohi
m butIdon'
twanthi
mtobewor
ri
ed
aboutme.
Phil
a:youknowthat
'
snott
rueIcanseei
tthr
ough
yourfaceandey
es.
Me:
okayI
'
minpai
nandi
t'
sget
ti
ngwor
se
Phi
l
a:l
etmegety
ousomewar
m wat
erandl
emon
Me:
putappl
esi
der
Phi
l
a:comi
ngr
ightup
Hel eftandIqui
cklystoodupandwentt othe
bathroom.Icheckedifthere'sanybloodandther
e
wasn't.SoI'
m notbleeding,thi
sisverystr
angeandI
j
usthav eabadfeel
ingaboutt hi
s.Iquickl
ywent
backt obedandIwasr i
ghtont i
mebecausehe
walkedi nafewsecondsaf terIgotint
obed
Me:
Thanky
ou
Phi
l
a:nowdr
inkup
Me:
Yesdoct
or
Af
terIwasdonedr
inki
nghet
ookt
hecupbackt
othe
ki
tchen.
Phi
l
a:Wher
eisi
tpai
ning?
Ishowedhi
m andhest
art
edmassagi
ngme
Me:
ouch,
don'
tpr
esst
oohar
d
Phi
l
a:sor
rymawakhe
Icl
osedmyey esandenj oyedthemassage, i
tr eal
ly
wast akingthepai naway .MaybeIwasj ustt
ired
fr
om st andi
ngt odayy etIdidn'
tevenstandforlong.I
don'tknowwhenIf el
lasleepbutIdidandIwas
alr
eadyi ndeepsl eep,themassagemustber eally
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Iwokeupanditwasalr
eady10am howl ongdi
dI
sl
eep?Il
ookedaroundandthenwentt
otakea
shower
.
Phi
l
a:Mor
ningSunshi
ne
Hecamei nwit
hbreakf
astandIwasal
ready
dressi
ngup.Iwassoti
redi
tfel
tasIwashitbya
tr
uck.
Phi
l
a:y
oul
ookr
eal
l
ybad
Me:Thanky
ou Ial
readysawt
hatIl
ookl
i
kea
monster
Phi
l
a:Makeupwon'
tev
enhel
p
Me:
Yousuchagoodhusband
Hewasright
,Il
ookedsobad,
myf acewasreadand
Ihadey
ebagsandIwasjustsuperti
red.
Phil
a:Youshoul
dreall
ygoseeNaye,Jnrhaseaten
andbathedsohisreadyandsoam I
.Justhave
breakf
astandwe'l
lgo
Me:
Youcomi
ngwi
thme?
Phi
l
a:Yeswear
e
Ij
ustsmi
l
edandat
eabi
t,Ir
eal
l
ywasn'
thungr
y.
Phi
l
a:Youhav
en'
tev
eneat
enmuchbabe
Me:
Hav
enoappet
it
e
Jnrcamerunni
nginandt hr
ewhi
msel
fatme,
whi
ch
wasreal
l
ypainful
rightnow
Me:
Heymybaby
,howar
eyou
Jnr
:icr
eam cr
eami
mah
Me:
NoJnr
,it
stooear
lyf
ori
cecr
eam
Hecr
iedandwentt
ohi
sfat
her
Phi
l
a:l
et'
sgost
eal
justal
i
ttl
e
Ij
ustshookmyheadandl
aiddownabi
t.
Phi
l
a:Si
yamt
handa!
Iopenedmyey
esandi
tseemsasi
fIhadf
ell
asl
eep
Me:
Whatt
imei
sit
?
Phil
a:2pm,youf
ell
asl
eep.Butwehav
etogonow
you'
llr
estwhenwecomeback.
Istoodupandworemysl i
pper
sthanusedt
heli
ft
goingtot
hegarage.I
'
mr eal
lyt
ootir
edtobeusi
ng
stai
rswhenIhaveali
ft
Hedrov
etothehospi
tal
wher
eNay
ewor
ksandwe
wal
kedtoherof
fi
ce.
Nay
e:Hey
,Iwasexpect
ingy
oual
i
ttl
eear
li
eron
Phi
l
a:Sorr
yIshould'
vecal
l
ed,
shefel
lasl
eepwhen
weweresupposedtobecomi
nghere
Me:
sor
ry,
coul
dyougetmesomewat
er?
Phi
la:
we'll
leavey
ouguy
s,wehaveaf
ewt
hingst
o
sor
tout.Call
mewhenyoudone.
Me:
okaybabe.
Heki
ssedmycheekandt
heyl
eftwi
thJnr
.
Nay
e:Youl
ookhor
ri
blemyf
ri
end.
Me:
tel
lmesomet
hingIdon'
tknow
Nay
e:Youar
eshowi
ngsi
gnsofpr
egnancy
Me:
Jokesasi
de.
Nay
e:Gopeei
nthi
s
Me:
whyshoul
dI?I
m bar
ranr
emember
?
Nay
e:JustdoasIsayandst
opbei
ngst
ubbor
n.I
'
m
t
hedoctorher
e.
Iwenttothebat
hroom andpee'
dinthi
ssmallt
ube.I
don'
tunderst
andwhyam Idoingthi
sandwhyisshe
tal
ki
ngaboutpregnancywhensheknowsIcan'
t
havebabi
es.
Shetookitandwentt
odosomet
est
sandcame
backaft
eranhour.
Nay
e:AsIt
oldy
ou.YOUPREGNANT!
Me:
No,
itcan'
tbe!Ican'
thav
ebabi
es!
Ij
ustcoul
dn'
tbel
i
evewhatshewast
ell
i
ngme
Naye:
Herelookf
ory
our
sel
f ,
you'
reaweek
pr
egnantSi
ya
Me:
thi
scan'
tbe,
I'
m pr
egnantNay
e
Iwassoexci
tedbutr
eal
i
tyki
ckedi
nandIst
art
ed
cr
ying
Nay
e:Whyar
eyoucr
yingnow?
Me:Itwon'tbelongti
l
lI'
m backhereandI'
vehada
miscarr
iage.YouknowIcan'tcar
ryababyandit
won'tbefullt
erm.Youknowmysi tuat
ion
Nay e:
Youhav et
obeposit
ive.Thesignsof
pregnancyshowedunl
iket
hel astti
mes.Maybet
his
onewi l
ll
astandwewillmonit
ory oual
lthet
ime.
JustcallPhi
l
aandtell
himthegoodnews
Me:
No,
Ican'
tdot
hat
Nay
e:why
?Isn'
tthebabyhi
s?
Me:whatt
hehell ofcausethebabyi
shi
s.I
tsj
ust
t
hatIdon'
twantt
ogethishopesup.
Ir
eal
l
ywasscar
edoft
ell
i
ngPhi
l
aandI
'
m scar
edof
beingexcitedaboutthi
spr egnancy,thereareso
manyf earsandwhati f
'sinmyheadr ightnow.I
rubbedmyst omachandwasl ostinmyown
thoughts.GodwhydoIgetpr egnantwhenIcan' t
evencar r
yt hebabyful
lter
m.I tjusthurtsandIam
soafraidyetImusthav eal i
tt
lehope, may bet
his
ti
mei twillbedif
fer
ent.Ihopei twil
l.

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandcomment
SuggestPaget
ofr
iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
Pleasebepati
entwi
thme, Ist
il
lhav
enophoneandI
keeponborrowingmyfr
iendsphone.Itsbeenhecti
c
butI'
m gl
adIcanpostanotheri
nsertnow.Hopey ou
enjoy
[
1/11,
00:
37]Tat
enda:
Inser
t62
Phil
acamebackandhehadawor r
iedl
ookonhis
facepr
obabl
ybecauseheseesthatIwascryi
ng.He
sit
sdownnextt
omeandi putJnri
nmyl ap.
Phi
l
a:What
'sgoi
ngon?Wer
eyoucr
ying?
Ikeptqui
etandcoul
dn'
tev
enanswerhi
m.Hel
ooked
atNaye
Nay
e:I
t'
snotmypl
acet
otel
lyou.
Me:I
'
llt
ell
youwhenwebackhome.Thanksf
or
ev
ery
thi
ngNaye
Naye:Pl
easedocomebacknextweekWednesday
at11am
Me:
okay
,goodby
e
Phil
asai dhi sgoodby esandwewentt ot hecar.The
dri
vewasf i
lledwithawkwar dsil
enceandPhi lakept
onlookingatmeandIt r
iedbyal lmeanst oavoid
eyecont actwi thhim.Pr egnancyshoul dbean
excit
ingt hing,f i
l
ledwi thjoybutrightnowI '
mf i
ll
ed
withfear .Idon'tev enknowhowIwi l
ltellhim,how
l
ongdoIhav etowai tandf al
linlovewi ththechild
that'
sgr owi nginsideofmewhenIcoul dhav ea
miscarriageany t
ime.Wegothomeandhehel ped
meoutt hecarandIwentst r
aighttomyr oom.It ook
ashowerandchangedi ntomypy j
amasanddi dt he
samef orJnr .Iknowi tsstil
learl
ybutIj ustwannabe
i
nbedt heent i
redaywi thmyf ami l
y.
Phil
a:will
youtellmewhat'
sgoingon?I
'
mj ustso
fr
ustrat
edr i
ghtnowandIdowanttogiveyouyour
ownspacet il
lyoureadyt
otel
lmebuthonestl
yit
's
j
ustkill
i
ngme.
Me:
Geti
nbedPhi
l
a.I
'
llt
ell
your
ightnow
Hetookofhi
scl ot
hesandworeaT-
shi
rtandboxer
shor
tsthanj
oinedusinbed.
Me:Idon'
tknowhowt
otel
lyout
his.Uhm Phi
l
aI'
m
pr
egnant
Helookedatmewi
thhi
sey
essowi
deopenedand
t
ouchedmyt ummy
Phi
l
a:You'
repr
egnant we'
rehav
ingababy
!
Heki
ssedmyst
omachandt
ear
sjustf
ell
onmy
f
aces
Phi
l
a:Buthow?Whyar
eyoucr
ying?
Me:Ngcobo, Idon'twanttohavefalsehope.Idon't
wanttodisappointyouwhenIhav eanot her
miscar
ri
age.YouknowIcan' tcar
ryababyf ull
term,
whydoi evengetpr egnant
.Ithur
tst oknowthatI'm
sl
owlyfall
inginlovewithbeingpregnantandalready
i
magi ni
nghowhe/ shewil
ll
ookknowingthat
anyti
me,anythi
ngcanhappen.KnowingthatIcan
sti
l
lloosethi
schil
dandgot hr
oughthatpainof
l
oosingababyal l
overagai
n!
Phil
a:Siya,Iknowt hisishardandunbel i
ev abl
eand
i
twasunexpect edcausewebot hknewy oucan't
havechildren,babyt hingsaredif
ferentnowmay be
you'l
lbeabl etocar rythebabyfullt
er m,it
'sgoingto
havesomechal lengsandi t
sokaytobescar ed
causeany onei ny ourpositi
onwouldbeshi tscared
causei am too.Buty ou'
vealwayswant edt his
experi
ence, behappyabouti tandaccepty our
pregnancyandexper i
encethiswit
hj oyratherthan
havingfearever yday.I'
llbebyyoursideev erystepof
thewayMaFuze.Nowst opcryi
ngandgi v emeaki ss
Ismi
l
edanddi
dashesai
d.
Me: Iam happyaboutbeingpr
egnant,i
t'
ssomet hi
ng
I
'vealwayswantedbutknewIcouldn'thave.Butby
thegraceofGod,itshappeni
ng.NgcoboI'm
pregnant
Phi
l
a:Yesy
ouar
emommy
,Jnry
ou'
regoi
ngt
ohav
e
asi
bli
ng.
Me:
Yesy
ouar
e i
hopei
t'
sagi
rl
Phi
l
a:NoIwantanot
herboy
Me:noitsmustbeagi
rl
,soJnrcanbeagoodbi
g
br
otherandl
ookaft
erhersi
steratschool
.
Wehadal ovelyconversati
onaboutt hebaby ,
Phil
a
want stofindoutt hegenderassoonaspossi l
e
Talkingaboutt hebabymakesmemor erelaxedand
excitedaboutbei ngpregnantbutIdost i
llhavea
l
ittl
ef ear
,allIcandoi sjustpraytotheLord.Ineed
thisonechance, evenifitmeansIhav eonlyone
childthatwoul dbeenoughf orme.Jnrneedsa
sibli
ngcausehemi ghtjustgetbored.
Me:
Doy out
hinkweshoul
dtel
lourf
ri
endsand
f
amil
y?
Phi
l
a:i
tsal
lupt
oyoumyl
ove.
Me:Idon'
tthi
nkIwantto,l
et'
sjustwai
tforawhi
le
andseehowitgoes.Idon'
twanttogetpeopl
e'
s
hopesupfornot
hing.
Phi
l
a:Won'
tyouneedsomeonet
otal
kto,
femal
e
whohasexper
iencedpr
egnancymay
bey
ourmot
her
Me:Idon'
twanttot
ellherasy
et.IhaveNay
e,she
knowsI'
m pr
egnant
,she'sagynaeandal
soamother
.
Phi
la:
Ohy es,t
hanyoucanwaitforaslongasy
ou
wantbabethanyoucantel
ltheother
s
Me:
arey
ouokaywi
tht
hat
?
Phil
a:YepandIdounder standwhereyoucoming
fr
om wi t
hthi
s.It
hinkI'
dal sodot hesame.Nowstop
str
essingaboutevery
thing.I'l
lgomakethethr
eeof
yousomef oodandy oucheerupandbehappy .
Me:
Thanky
ou
Ismil
edwhenhesai dthe3ofus,Ij
ustcan'
tbel
i
eveI
haveal i
tt
leonegr
owinginmystomachanditsbeen
ther
ef oraweek.We'
llbet
hebestparent
stoyouli
ke
wear etoJnr.
Me:i
sn'tthatrightlit
tl
eLesley we' r
egoingt obe
onesmall happyf amily.Ist
art
edti
ckl
inghim andhe
waslaughingtillhisglassesgotof
f.Whichreminds
methatheneedst ogot oseehisopt
omet r
ist
Me:
Jnr
,comey
oumustweary
ourgl
asses.
Hegotof
fthebedandr
anar
oundt
her
oom
Me:
Jnry
ou'
l
lfal
landhur
tyour
sel
f!
Hejustdoesn'
tcareandhisonl
yenjoyi
ngr unni
ng
ar
ound.Hei sonl
yabletoseeclear
lywithhisri
ght
ey
e.Icaughthim andputhissmall
glassesbackon.
Jnr
:mamaaf
uni
le(
mom,
Idon'
twanti
t)
Iki
ssedhim andwel
aidont
hef
loor
.AndPhi
l
acame
i
nwi t
hfoodforus
Phi
l
a:Iguesswehav
ingapi
cni
cont
hef
loor
Me:
Iguessso mmmht
hisl
ooksl
ovel
y
Phi
l
a:wai
tunt
ily
out
ast
eitbabe
Wesatdownandateincomf
ort
abl
esi
l
encewhi
l
eI
wasal
sofeedi
ngJnr.
Me:
Thankyou,
Ienj
oyedi
tandseemsl
i
keJnrdi
dtoo.
I
twaslov
ely
Phil
a:Gl
adyoudid It
hinkweshoul
dst
artt
hinki
ng
aboutbabynames
Me:
wedon'
tev
enknowt
hegendery
et
Phi
l
a:we'
l
lthi
nkofbot
hboyandgi
rlnames
Me:okaythanwhatar
ey out
hinki
ngof
?Wel
li
twi
l
l
beagirl
solet'
sst
artwit
hgir
lnames
Phi
l
a:Mbal
enhl
e?
Me:
nhesomet
hinguni
queandr
are
Phi
l
a:wel
lsheshoul
dbenamedRar
e
Me:
that
'snothappeni
ng
Phi
l
a:howaboutKhany
akwezweMoni
queNgcobo?
Me:wowIlov
eit wowI'
mreal
lyi
nlov
ewi
tht
hat
name.Howdidy
oucomeupwi
thit
?
Phil
a:Afteryourfi
rstmiscar
ri
age,Iwasjust
wonderingifitwouldbeagirlorboyandIthoughtof
afewnameshopi ngthatonedayI'l
lnameour
daughter.
Me:wowIreall
ylov
ethi
sname.Anddi
dyout
hinkof
anynamesforaboy
Phi
l
a:May
bey
oushoul
dcomeupwi
thaname
Me:
Idon'
tthi
nkI
'
m goodatbabynami
ng
Phil
a:wel
lfort
heboyIt
houghtofMnqobi
butIdi
dn'
t
thi
nkofanEngli
shname.
Me:I'
vebeenmeaningt
oasky
ou,
whydoy
oual
l
hav
eEnglishnames?
Phi
la:
Mymom insi
stssi
nceshe'
scol
our
edandi
ts
j
ustbecomeat
radi
ti
ontousIguess.
Me:
Mnqobi
Qui
ntonNgcobo
Phi
la:
That'
sal
soagoodname seey
ounott
hat
badatthi
s.
Me:
let
'sj
ustsayIt
ry
Phi
l
a:Ihopei
tsaBoy
Me:noIwantagir
l,weal
readyhav
eaboy
.Jnry
ou
al
sowantagir
l?
Hejustl
ookedatmeli
keI
'
m cr
azyandcont
inued
pl
ayingwit
hhist
oys
Phi
l
a:y
ouwantaboyr
ight
?
Hesti
ll
didn'
tevencareaboutwhatwetal
king
about I'm sur
ehejusthasnoideaofwhatwe'
re
onabout.
Phi
la:
Ilov
eyouMaFuzeandt
hanky
ouf
orsucha
bl
essi
ng
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMaphol
obawam
It
ookt
hedi
shesandwentdownst
air
s
Phi
l
a:whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
I'
m aboutt
owashdi
shes
Phi
l
a:Noy
ounotdoi
ngt
hat
Me:
why
?
Phil
a:You'
repregnantandyouhav
etorest.You
can'
tbewashingdishes.Mavi
soroneofthehelper
s
wil
ldothat
.
Me: I
tsjustdi
shesPhil
aandIdon'twantt
or est.It
s
j
ustbeenhour ssincewefoundoutI'
mjustaweek
pregnantandim notpar
ali
zed.Phi
lawhyaren'tyou
atwork?
Phi
l
a:causeIwantt
obeher
ewi
thy
ou?
Me:ther
ear
ethi
ngsyouneedt
odo,
I'
m sur
ethey
needneedt
hei
rCEO
Phi
l
a:t
hey
'l
lmanage,
wai
tar
eyout
ryi
ngt
ogetr
idof
me?
Me: somethi
ngl
i
ket
hatsoIcanwasht
hesedi
shes
peaceful
l
y
Phi
la:
okayf
inei
mleavi
ngyouwit
hyourdi
shes.By
e
I
'l
lbebacki
n2hour
s,wi
lly
oumissme?
Me:
No
Phi
l
a:ThenI
'
m notgoi
ng
Me:
I'
ll
missy
ousosomuchbabe,
bebacksoon
Phi
l
a:what
ever y
oucan'
tfool
mesweet
ie
Me:
Yousai
dsweet
ie It
houghty
ouhat
edt
hat
.
Phi
l
a:Ido butI
'
mjusti
nthemoodsodon'
tspoi
li
t.
Me:
Okaysor
ry.Nowgo

#PHI
LA
Il
eftherwashi
ngherdishesanddrovetomy
workpl
ace.Iam ver
yhappytodayandIcanthel
pbut
smil
eanditsall
becauseofmyf amil
y.WhoknewI'
d
besoinloveandbeaf amil
yguy.Mywifeandsons
meanal ottome.YeahIj ustsai dson Iwantt o
haveanot herboy Iwoul dal solovetohav eal i
ttl
e
pri
ncess.Fi ndingoutthatSiyai spregnant,Iwasso
happyIev enf orgott
hesit uati
onathand.Ev enifshe
mightnotcar r
ythebabyf ulltermt hatdoesn'ttake
awayt hef eel
ingofjoyinme.Ihav efai
thandhope
thatal
l wil
l bewellandthatGodhasanswer edour
prayer
s.Ihadameet i
ngt oat tendtowhi chIdidn't
evenknowaboutbutnowI '
mj uststuckinthe
boadroom wi ththesepeopl epr esenti
ngwhi l
emy
mindisj ustathome.
Kay:MrNgcobo,wakeupst opday dreami
ng.These
peopl
eworkedveryhardforthispitchwel
lIal
so
hel
pedsoIneedy outoseeev ery
thing
Me:
Itsper
fect
.Exact
lywhatweneed.Thi
spi
ecei
s
f
ort
hatMsebecompanyr i
ght
?
Kay
:Yes.
Phil
a:I
tsper
fecteventhoughIwasn'
tpaying
att
enti
ontoeveryt
hingbutit
sreal
l
yperfect.Vusiy
ou
mustemailmet hepaperworkandi'
l
llookatitwhen
Igethome.Byeguys,Ihaveafamil
ywaiti
ngf orme
athome.
Kay
:youcomi
ngi
ntomor
row?
Phi
l
a:y
esf
ull
hour
s.
Kay
:Good.
Kayhasdoneanext r
emel ygoodj obandi sdoing
verywel lforhimsel f,hehasanapar tmentandacar
now.Hei sr eallyhar dwor king.Iwasn' texactl
y
planningongoi nghomey et,Ineedt ogetSi yaa
driverlikeIhadpl annedawhi l
eagosoI 'm meeting
upwi thaf ewguy s.Idon' tneedj ustadr i
verbut
someonewhoi strainedandabodyguar djustin
case.Ther e'saser iousneedf oritnowandIknow
she'llbemadandagai nstmyi deabutIcan' tl
ether
drivewhi l
eshe' spregnant ,wehav etobeext r
a
careful .Iwantnot hingt ogowr ongandI '
llbethere
forall herdoct orsappoi ntment s.Igott othesecurity
companyandIwasi mpr essedbyt heguy sandhow
professi onal theyar e, Idon' twantanyguychecki ng
outmywi f
e.FornowI '
llbeget tingonl ytwoguy sso
Siyacangetusedt ot hei deaf ir
stt henI'
lladdmor e
tothem l ater.Iknowshe' l
l beangr yatmebutnext
weekt heseguyswi l
lbestart
ingandthatmakesme
happycauseIwi l
lbehav i
ngt obeatworkal otfrom
nextweekandImi ghtt
raveltotheFreeState,Isti
ll
havetot al
ktoSiyaaboutthis.Isi
gnedthecont ract
andthenl ef
t.Bef
oregoinghomeIpassedby
checkersandboughtsomegoodi esforSi
y aandJnr .
IgotintothecaranddrovehomewhenIgott here
Lesl
eyJnrandSi yawer esit
tingoutsi
denexttot he
waterfountain
Me:
Heyguy
s,mi
ssedme?
Siy
a:Yeahwewer
ejustpacki
ngupnowwe'
regoi
ng
backtobed
Me:
sti
l
lnotf
eel
i
ngwel
l
?
Si
ya:
I'
mjustt
ir
edpl
usi
tsget
ti
ngabi
twi
ndy
Ihel
pedthem witht
heblanketandwewenti
nsi
de.I
tookofmyclothes,
changedintomysl
eepi
ngshor
ts
andgotint
obed.
Me:
SoIhav
esomet
hingt
otal
ktoy
ouabout
Si
ya:
whi
chi
s?
Me:
RememberwhenIsai
dI'
l
lgety
ouadr
iver
?
Si
ya:
Yesandpl
easedon'
ttel
lmey
oudi
d
Me:Actual
lyIdi
d.Igotyoutwobodyguar
dswhowi
l
l
pr
otectyouwhenI'm notar
oundanddri
veyou
wherevery
ouwantt ogo
Si
ya:Whati
fIwantt
ogot
oLubah'
syouknowIwal
k
whenIgotohi
shouse
Me:They'
l
lwalkwit
hyou,si
mpleasthat
.They'l
lbe
st
art
ingnextweekandt
heyarever
yproff
esional
Si
ya:
they
'l
lbef
oll
owi
ngusev
ery
wher
e?
Me:
All
day
,ev
eryday
.
Siy
a:Youdi
dn'tev
encar etoaskmehowIf eel
about
thi
s?Youmakinganotherdeci
sionwi
thout
consul
ti
ngwit
hmef ir
st
Me:
ButI
'
m aski
ngy
ounow
Siy
a:Younotaski
ngmebuty ou'r
etel
l
ingme
somethi
ngyou'
vealr
eadydecidedonandact
edon.
Me:Babeit
sfory oursaf
etyanditwi
llhel
pespeci
all
y
si
nceyou'
repregnantnowy oucan'
tbedrivi
ng
ar
oundplusthere'
sJnr.Youneedtheseguys.
Siy
a:I
'l
lj
ustkeepmymout hshutbef
oreIsay
somethi
ngI'
ll
regr
et.Goaheadanddowhat ev
ery
ou
want.
Me:You'
remaki
ngt
hisabi
gdeal
.It
sjustt
wobody
guar
dsSiya
Si
yaj
ustl
ookedatmeandpl
ayedwi
thJnr
Me:
Ther
e'smor
e
Si
ya:
what
!You'
vegotmeanar
my?
Me: No.NextweekI'
l
lbegoi
ngtoFreeStat
e,Ther
es
somethingIneedtoatt
endt
oanditneedsmyf ul
l
att
enti
on
Si
ya:
oh
Me:
that
'sal
lyougoi
ngt
osay
?
Siy
a:whatmor
eshoul
dIsay
?Shoul
dIj
umpand
cel
ebrat
e
Me:
Siy
amt
handa,
what
'
swr
ong?
Si
ya:
Not
hing.
Me:
Siy
a,Iknowt
her
e'ssomet
hingwr
ong.
Si
ya:
Iwantt
osl
eep,
nowl
eav
emeal
one.
Me:
Okayf
ine.
Idon'tknowwhat'
swi t
hSiyaorthatshe'smadabout
meleav i
ngorthebodyguards I '
mreallynotsure
butmay bethehormonesarestarti
ngtokickinand
she'
sal r
eadygett
ingmoody Ir eadthatupont he
i
nternetsoIguessitssomethi
ngIhav etodealwith
fr
om nowonwar ds.Thisi
sgoingt obeinter
esti
ng.

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vebeenhavi
ngmor ni
ngsicknessesandit
'sbeen
real
lybad,
I'
m onlyt
woweekspr egnantbutmy
stomachisal
readyshowi
ng, i
tgrowseachday .Phi
l
a
hasbeenawaybutwet al
kont hephoneev er
yday
andSky pe.Jnrhasbeenagoodboyasal way sand
webot hgettingusedt ohav i
ngthebody guards
around.Mydr i
v eriscool andhisnamei sYangabut
theotherguyi sj ustsoser ioushedoesn' tevensmi l
e,
hisnamei sOy enaIthinkwel lt
hat
'swhatYangat old
me.Im getti
ngJnrdr essedsowecangot oseehi s
doctorandt hangoseemydoct or
.Wehav etwo
doctorsappoi ntment stodayandunf or
tunatelyPhil
a
will
notbeabl et ojoi
nus.Oncewewer ebot hr eady
wegoti ntothecarwi thYangahel pingmewi thmy
bags.
Me:
Yanga Oy
enahowar
eyouguy
s?
Yanga:
All
good,
freshandr
eadyf
ort
heday
.
Oyenaj
ustnoddedandthatwasit Wear r
ivedat
t
hehospit
alandJnr'
sdoctorwasreadyt
oseeus
Me:
Mor
ningDoct
or
Dr:
Mor ni
ng,Ihopey
ou'
reokay
.How'
smyl
i
ttl
e
pat
ienther
e
Me:
He'
sokaygr
owi
ngr
eal
l
yfast
Jnrdi
dsomecheckupsandgothi
sgl
assescl
ean
andhi
sey
escheckedup.
Dr
:Alli
swell
mam, andyoushouldcomebackwith
hi
minthenext2weeks.Congr
atul
ati
onsonyour
pr
egnancymam
Me:
I'
m notpr
egnant
Dr:I'
m adoct
or,Iseet
hings.Andy
ourst
omachi
s
vi
sibleMrsNgcobo
Me:Wow I'mj
usttwoweeksandit
'sshowi
ng.
Thanky
ouf
orev
ery
thingdoct
or.We'
l
lseeyousoon
Wesai
dourgoodby
esandl
eft
.Wedr
ovet
oNay
e's.
Wewal
kedtoherof
fice
Me:
Nay
ebabeshowar
eyou?
Nay
e:I
'
m okaymommyandy
ou
Me:
I'
m okay
.
Nay
e:HeyJnr youl
ookl
ikeyourfat
her li
ket
he
morey
ougrowthemor
eyoulookli
kehim.
Me:
That
'ssot
rue
Whil
eweweretal
ki
ng,
Phi
l
awal
kedi
n Jnrr
ant
o
hi
m andIst
oodup
Phi
l
a:Hel
l
ofami
l
y,hopeIhav
en'
tmi
ssedany
thi
ng
i
mport
ant
Me:
Whatareyoudoi
ngher
e?It
houghty
ouar
ein
t
heFreeSt
ate
Phila:
AndIcameback,Idi
dsayI'dbether
eforeach
andev er
ydoctor
sappoint
ment.Sorr
yImissedJnr'
s
IthoughtI'
dbehereear
li
erbutt
hereweresome
delays
Me:
Itsokay
,I'
m gl
ady
ou'
reher
e
Weki
ssedandNay
ecl
ear
edhert
hroat
Nay
e:Wehav
eachi
l
dher
e
Phi
l
a:what
everNay
e
Naye:
Siy
a,Ineedy
out
ocomet
hissi
de.Laydown
her
e
Il
aidonthebedandthenshemovedmyt'
shi
rtt
hen
appl
iedaver
ycoldsubst
anceonmystomach
Me:hah!Thisi
ssocold,whati
sit
?Youknowt
hisi
s
myfir
stti
mesoIwantt oknowasmuchaspossi
ble
whi
l
eIst i
ll
getachance
Nay
elaughedatme
Naye:i
t'
sjustawat
erbasedgel
weusewhendoi
ng
anult
rasound
Phi
l
a:wi
l
lweheart
hehear
tbeat
?
Nay e:Thatwillbedoneinalat
erstage.She'
sjust
beent woweeksandev enthebodypartsarenot
clearasy et.I
'
m doingthi
stoseeofthereisreal
lya
babyt here.Mostwomanwi thSiy
a'scondit
ionmay
getpregnantbutt her
e'snobabytheref
orewesend
them ov ertoDrIsmailwhoknowsmor eaboutthe
condition.
Si
ya:
Soi
tspossi
blet
hatt
her
e'snobaby
?
Nay
e:Yes.Let
'sj
ustdot
hisandf
indoutokay
.
Iclosedmyeyeswhil
eshewasbusywi t
hme.Thisi
s
reall
ynotthel
ovel
yexperi
enceIwantedbutatl
east
I'
m experi
enci
ngsomethi
ng.I'
m soscaredandmy
heartwouldbr
eakint
opiecesift
her
ei snobaby
Phi
l
a:Openy
ourey
esory
ouwon'
tseeourbaby
Atearf
ell
from myey
esy
etIdi
dn'
topent
hem.Iwas
sohappyandscar
ed
Me:
ther
e'sababy
?
Phi
l
a:y
est
her
eismyl
ove,
we'
rehav
ingababy
.
Iopenedmyey
esandsawt
hel
i
ttl
efet
us.
Me:
I'
m sohappyandi
nlov
ewi
thmybaby
Naye:wecan' ti
dent
if
ythebodypar
tsasy etand
ther
e'ssomet hi
ngweir
dgoingonherebutI'
lll
ook
deepintoitandI'
m sur
eitwil
lbemorevisi
bleata
l
aterstage.
Phi
l
a:I
tsnotsomet
hingt
hatcoul
dhar
mthebaby
?
Naye:noIdon'
tthi
nkiti
s.Ever
ythi
ngseemsfi
ne
besi
desthi
sarea.Oncewegettoseethebodypar
ts
we'l
ldef
ini
tel
ybeabletotel
l
Me:
Ihopei
tsnotsomet
hingbad.Thanky
ou
Shewipedof
fthegelandIpul
l
eddownmyT-
shi
rt
andt
henwegotcopiesofthescans
Phil
a:Ishoul
dbuyaphot
oal
bum f
ort
hese andI
'
ll
putJnrsaswell
Me:
Youkeptt
hem?
Phi
l
a:YesIdi
d.
Me:Youshoul
dshowmewhenwegethome,
Inev
er
gott
oseethem.
Phi
l
a:OkayIwi
l
l l
et'
sgetgoi
ng.
Nay
e:Ial
sohaveapat
ientt
hatwil
lbecomi
ngi
na
f
ewminutes.Wi
ll
seeyousoonguys
Me:
Thanky
ou
Wesaidourgoodby
esandPhi l
acar
ri
edJnrandwe
wenthome.Iwasti
redsoItookashowerandwent
t
obed.Phil
acameinafterafewminut
es
Me:
Wher
eisJuni
or?
Phi
l
a:Wi
thMaMt
shezi
(oneoft
hehel
per
s)
Inoddedandhet
uckedi
nbedwi
thme
Phi
la:
Iwasreadi
ngupaboutpr
egnancy
,theysay
hav
ingsexi
sgoodfort
hebaby
Me: WowIdi
dn'
tknow.Buti
tdoesn'
tsayi
ts
nessesar
y
Phi
l
a:Ohi
t'
sver
yver
yIMPORTANTandHEALTHY
Me:
whyareyouemphasi
zingi
mpor
tantandheal
thy
Whatar
eyouupto?
Phil
a:Nothi
ng,I
'mjusti
nfor
mingyouandl
ooki
ngout
forourchi
ldyouknowheneedstobeheal
thy.
Me:It
hinki
tsmor
et hanjustl
ookingoutf
orourchi
l
d.
MrNgcobodownthereseemsl i
keheneedssome
at
tent
ion
Isai
dwit
hasmi
rkonmyf
aceandst
roki
nghi
s
manhood
Phi
l
a:Someone'
sget
ti
ngnaught
y comeher
e
Me:
no
Istoodupandranawayfr
om him.Hechasedme
aroundandIl
ookedmysel
finthebat
hroom
Phi
l
a:Abongi
l
eopent
hisdoor
Me:
No,
that
'snothappeni
ng
Iquicklywentt
omyunder weardr
awerandt
ookout
mybl ackVict
ori
a'sSecr
etLi
ngeri
eandputi
ton,
thr
owi ngmyclothesint
hebasket
Phi
l
a:comeon,
opent
he.
..
Iopenedbef
orehef
ini
shedi
ssent
enceandhewas
bl
ownaway
Phi
l
a:Door
Hewasswal
l
owi
ngr
epeat
edl
yandIl
aughedat
hi
m
Me:
Likewhaty
ousee?
Phil
a:Damnri
ghtIdo y
oul
ooksosexy
.Whendi
d
thi
shappen?
Me:
Ihav
emyway
sMrNgcobo
Phi
l
a:Comecl
oser
Me:
whydon'
tyousi
tdownandenj
oyt
heshow
Phi
l
a:mymymy
,I'
mver
yluckyt
oday
HesatdownandIgav ehi
m al
apdance.Speci
al
thankst
omygirl,Ntokozo shetaughtmeat
Kamo'sBachel
orett
epar t
y.
Phi
l
a:Takei
tof
fAbongi
l
e
Me:
Nothappeni
ng
BeforeIcoul
dstandhet
ookmeandpi
nnedme
againstt
hewall
Phi
l
a:ThenI
'
m goi
ngt
odoi
tfory
ou
Heri
ppedi
tof
fandIwasshocked andIdi
dwant
t
olaugh
Me:
Get
ti
ngr
oughar
en'
twe?
Phi
la:Youaskedf orit
,ifyouhadl
ist
enedt
omewe
wouldn'tberippi
ngitoff.Youl
ookamazi
ng,l
etme
worshipy ourbodyt
onight.
Hecar ri
edmet othebedthenlayedmedown.He
startedki
ssingandsucki
ngmybr eastswhi leIwas
tr
y i
ngt ohol
dbackmymoans.Heki ssedmeal lt
he
waydownt omyweakspot andIwas
al
r eadywet.Heli
ckedandsuckedmet i
l
l Ireached
anor gasm.Heinsert
edhispenisanditfeltsohuge
i
nsi deofme
Phi
l
a:I
'
llbegent
lemybaby
Hesai
dthenki
ssedmyst
omach
Hepenetr
atedmeslowl
ywit
heveryt
hrustIf
elthi
s
l
ove i twaspassi
onat
efi
l
ledwit
hloveand
af
fect
ion.
Me:
Ilov
eyou aaah!Phi
l
asande
Hel
ookeddeepi
ntomyey
esandki
ssedme.
Wewentonandonf orhours.Hethancarr
iedmeto
theshowerandt hel
ovemakingconti
nued.Weboth
camewhi l
escreamingeachother
snamesandwe
cleanedour
sel
v esup.Iwor
emyt i
ghtnightdr
ess
withoutapant
yon
Phi
l
a:You'
rer
eal
l
ytr
yingt
oki
l
lmet
oday
Me:
whatdi
dIdonow?
Phi
l
a:I
'
llgety
ou,
justy
ouwai
t.
Il
aughedathi
m andwentt
oJnr
'sr
oom andhewas
sl
eepi
ngpeaceful
l
y
Me: Goodnightmyhandsomeson i loveyou.I
kissedhim andt henclosedt
hedoor
.Hisroom i
s
i
nsi deourr oom,Ididn'
twanthi
mtohavehisown
room likeIwouldn'tevenbeabl
etosl
eepknowing
hisnotcl osetowher eIcanr
eachhi
mi nj
ustafew
seconds.Iwentbackt obedandsl
eptonPhil
a's
chest
Phi
l
a:MaFuze
Me:
Baba
Phi
l
a:Youshoul
dact
ual
l
ysayt
hatev
ery
day
Me:
Nothappeni
ng
Phil
a:MaFuze,soar
eyouget
ti
ngusedt
ohav
ing
bodyguards?
Me:YesIthinkIam.Yangaisverycoolandweget
al
ongwellandJnrenjoyshavi
nghi m ar
ound.Whi l
st
Oyena,hi
sscaryandhenevertalksorsmi l
es i ts
act
uall
yveryfun.YangaandIalwaysmakef unof
hi
m andhej ustnods Ithi
nkhehasadi sorder
Phi
l
a:mmhseemsl
i
key
oupr
ett
ycl
oset
oYanga
Me:Yepheisacool
guy may begett
inga
body
guardwasn'
tabadi
deaaf
teral
l.
Phi
l
a:i
bet
Hi
sfacewasget
ti
ngr
edandhewasj
eal
ous
Me: What
'swrongnow?Don'tt
ell
mey
ouj
eal
ous
becauseYangaandIgetal
ong
Phi
l
a:I
'
m notj
eal
ous
Me:
Thenwhati
sit
?
Phi
l
a:Not
hing.Goodni
ghtSi
yamt
handa
Me:Youar
esojeal
ous anditsact
uall
yver
yfunny
,
Yangawouldf
li
patthi
s Ishoul
dtell
him
Phi
la:
May bey
oushoul
drunoft
ohi
mri
ghtnowand
st
ayther
e
Me: Wouldgladlydothat Ist oodupandputmy
gownon.I '
m notgoingtoYanga, butI
'
mj ustdoingit
toannoyPhila Idon' tgetwhyhei sgetti
ngjealous
ofYangalikereall
y heshoul dknowmebet ter
thanthi
s.Hegotr eall
yangrywhenhesawme
approachi
ngt hedoorandhest oodupandcar ri
ed
met othebedwhi leIwaslaughingmyl ungsout
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyoucr
azy
!?Whatdoy
out
hnky
ou'
redoi
ng?
Me: Ithinkyou'recrazyandt oojealous I fy ou
werei ny ourr
ightmi ndy ouwoul d'
veknownt hatI
wouldntj ustt
akeof fandgot oYanga, heisjustmy
body guardthaty ouhired.Justbecausewegetal ong
doesn'tmeant here'
smor et
oi tandy oushouldbe
j
ealousov ert
hat .BesidesI'
mt oobusybei ngy ours
tofallforsomebodyel se.Il
ovey ouandonl yy ou.I
'm
yourwi feandnotany oneelse'
s.
Phi
l
a:Iknowi
tsj
ustt
hatheshoul
dkeept
hings
professi
onalandnotbebuddybuddywit
hyou.Hes
heretowor kandnotmakefri
endswit
hmywi f
e.I
m
sorr
yf orbei
nginsecur
eandjeal
ous
Me: Andhedoeskeept hi
ngsprofessional.Just
becausewet al
kandgetalongwel ldoesn'tmeanhe
doesn'tdohisj
obwel l
.Heknowswhathe' sherefor
.
It
sokay ,iwoul
dalsobejeal
ousifIwasy ou.Now
stopstressi
ngyoursel
faboutt
hisnonsense
Phi
la:Il
oveyouSi
yaandIdon'twantl
oosey
ou.I
j
ustcan'
timagi
nemylif
ewithoutyou
Me:You'l
lneverl
oosemeLesl eyandyoushoul
dn'
t
i
magineal i
fewithoutmebecausethatwi
ll
never
happen.We'r
etogetherf
orever r
ememberhow
weusedt osaythatever
yday.
Phi
la:
Yes,
youcameupwi
thi
twhenwewer
edoi
ng
gr
ade8
Me:Inevert houghtwe'
dbet oget
herforsuchalong
ti
me.Inev ereventhoughtwe'dbemar r
iedoneday.
Thefi
rstthreemont hsofusbeingtogetherIwas
j
ustsosur ewewon' tevenfini
sh6months y ou
werej
ustsomet hi
ngelse.Butwemadei t,i
twasver
y
har
dandchal
lengi
ng,
weusedt ofi
ghtev
eryday
.
Rememberwhenyoudidn'
ttal
ktomeforanenti
re
week!
Phil
a:Iremember ,Iwasmadaty oubutmost l
yiwas
madatmy sel
f.Icouldn'
tgetmy selftotal
ktoy ou
causeIwasf eeli
ngashamedofmy self
.Ididn'
tpay
att
entiontoyou,wasn'talwaysthereforyouwel lI
wasn'tther
eatallandt henyoustartedbringclose
wit
hLee, hewast hereforyouandy outal
kedt ohi
m
al
lthet i
meandspentt i
mewi t
hhi m.Ishuty ouout
al
lthet i
meandt hatweekIknewIwasl oosingyou.
Me: Itwasv er
yhardtogett hr
oughyouandwel l
somet i
mesitssti
l
lli
kethat.Youwerejustapuzzl
e
thati neededtoputtoget
heryetther
ewer emissi
ng
pieces.
Phil
a:I'
mr eall
ysorry,
Iwaspr ett
ymessedupback
thenbutI'm gl
ady oustayedwithmet hroughoutal
l
thethi
ngswe' vebeent hr
ough.Allt
het hi
ngsI'v
eput
youthrough,anymanwoul dhavelovedt obewith
youbuty oualwayschoset ostaywithandI
appreci
atethat.SometimesImaynotbeabl eto
showy ouhowmuchIl ovey ouandappr eci
ate
havingyouinmyli
febutIreal
lyneedy
out
oknow
thatIdoSiy
amthanda,Ir
eall
ydo.
Me: Idon' tevenknowwhatt osay .Andy oudon't
hav etoapol ogizeforthi
ngsthathav ehappenedin
thepast .That '
sallastor
ytotell
,it
'swhatwehadt o
got hrought ogett owherewear etoday ,t
omakeus
strongerandr eal
izehowmuchwel oveoneanother.
Ilovey ouMaphol obaandifwewer et ogoback,I
woul dn'tchangeany thi
ngbecausei hav
enor egr
ets
aboutchoosi ngtostaywithyou,I'
dchooset obe
withy ouov erandov eragai
n.
Phi
l
a:Wher
edoy
oucomef
rom?
Me:
whatki
ndofquest
ioni
sthat
Phil
a:It
sj ustthatIdon'tthinkt
her e'
sany onelikeyou
outthere,I'
mv er
yluckylikeveryl
uckyt ohav e
someonel i
key ou.You'
reki ndhear t
ed,forgi
ving,
l
oving,caringandhumbl e.Youev erythi
ngaman
needs.You' r
enotonl yagr eatwif
ebuty ou'r
eagr eat
mothert oo.Iloveyou
Me:Il
ovey
outoobabe.Il
ovey ousosomuch
f
unnyhowwealwayshavethesetal
ksatt
imes,
I
r
eal
l
yenj
oyt
hem.
Phi
la:
Idot
oo i
tsget
ti
ngl
atenowl
et'
sgetsome
sl
eep
Me:
goodni
ght
Hekissedmyforeheadandcl osedhiseyes.Il
ooked
athi
mf orawhil
eandki ssedhim again.I
'
mv ery
l
uckytohavehim asmyhusband Heai n'
tperf
ect
soam I,we'
rebothnotperfectbutweper f
ectfor
eachother
.

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desthemor ni
ngsicknessesofcause I '
m
al
most2mont hspr
egnantandmyst omachis
growing,
itsbigif
eelli
kei
tgrowsev er
yday
.
Someoneel sewouldsayI'
m already5months.
Somet i
mesIwakeupf eel ingv eryti
redandIj ust
bathanddon' tgetoutofbed.Phi l
aisal way s
suppor ti
v ebutev er ymor ningwear gueabouthi m
goingt owor k, hewant st ost aywithmebuthe
needst owor k.TodayIhav eadoct orsappoi ntment
at12, theyst i
llhav en'tdi scov eredwhatt hecase
maybebuthopef ull
yt odayi wi l
ldefinatelygetthe
results.I
'vebeenwor r
iedy etI '
m happyt hatI '
ve
comet hisfarwi thmypr egnancy ,Ihav emood
swingsandcr avingsal r eady .Iusedt ohat epeanut
butterbutIeati tev eryday .Icr avefort hemostwei rd
thi
ngsandIj ustcan' thel pbuteatt hem i mlayi
ng
i
nbedandPhi lawi llbef et chingmesowecango
seet hedoct orbuther eIam, haven'ttookabat hand
i
m notpl anningonget tingupy etwhichwi l
lupset
him butheneedst ochi ll.I tsaround11andIhav ean
hourt opr epare,may bet aki nganapwon' thurt
.After
awhi leIhear dv oiceswhi chIcoul dn'tev enreall
y
hearwhatwasbei ngsai d.
Phi
l
a:Si
yamt
handa!
Me:
mmmmmh
Iopenedmyey
esandPhi
l
awasst
andi
ngi
nfr
ontof
me
Me:what
?Ifel
tsoir
ri
tat
edli
kewhowoul
dwakeme
upwhenI'
m sl
eepi
ngsopeacef
ull
y
Phi
la:You'
resti
ll
sleepi
ng?WhenIlef
tthi
smorning
youweresupposedt owakeupandprepar
e.You'
re
l
ateforyourdoctor
'sappoi
ntment
Me:
what
'st
het
ime?
Phi
l
a:i
ts1:
30,
anhourand30mi
nsl
ate
Me:
shi
t,I
'
m sol
ate
Phil
a:you'
rel
uckyNay
eunderst
andsandshe'
syour
fr
iend.Nowgetupandgetr
eady.
Me:I'
m hungr
yandiser
iousl
ydon'
tfeel
li
ke
showeri
ngsoI'
m goi
ngtodragmyfeetandtakea
2minut
eshower.
Phil
a:I
'
llbepr
epar
ingsomef
oodf
ory
ouwhi
l
eyou
shower.
Me:
Thanky
ou
Ihuggedandki
ssedhi
m
Phi
l
a:Youst
ink
Me:
What
ever
Iwenttothebathr
oom andtookaquickshowerand
thenl
oti
onedmybodyandwor eleggi
ngsanda
fl
owytop.Ithenwentdownstai
rsandther
ewast hi
s
badsmellthatj
ustmademel oosemyappetit
eand
wanttopuke
Me:
Whati
sthatsmel
l
!
Phi
l
a:Imadey
ouanomel
et,
Ithoughty
oul
ovedi
t
Me:well
Idon'tnow,
itsmel
l
sreal
l
ybadandIwon'
t
beeat
ingthat
.
Phi
l
a:Whatwi
l
lyoueat
?
Me:
Not
hing,
let
'
sgobef
oreIv
omi
tal
lov
ert
hispl
ace
Hel
aughedatmeandt
ookhi
scarkey
sandwel
eft
.
Phi
l
a:McDonal
d'
s?
Me:
Yespl
ease
Hegotmeabur gerandmcfluf
fyandadoggybag
forJnrwhoweleftathomewithMavis.Mavi
s
doesn'
thel
pwithcleani
nganymore,
she'snowJnr
's
babysi
tt
ersi
nceIneedhelphereandtherewi
thhi
m
andItrustherwi thmyson.Idi dn'
twantt ogogeta
str
angert ostaywi thmybabywhenI '
m notar ound.I
don'tj
usttrustany onewi t
hmybabyandt hat'
sjusti
t.
Peoplenowaday sjuststealourbabiesandf eelno
remorse,Ican'tri
skmysonsl ife,cal
lmei nsecureor
overprotecti
vebutIdon' tcare.Ijustwantwhat '
s
bestformyson.Wegott othehospi t
al andthen
walkedtoNay e'
sof fi
ce.Shewasst i
llbusywi t
ha
phonecal lsowehadt owai tforawhi le,shewas
doneafter15mi ns.
Nay
e:Sor
ryt
okeepy
ouwai
ti
ngi
t'
sbeenahect
icday
Phil
a:It
'sokay,
woul
d'
vebeenbett
erofSiyahere
wasntsleepi
ngwewouldn'
thav
emi ssedourfi
rst
appoint
ment
Si
ya:
Iwasj
ustt
aki
nganapandIov
ersl
ept
Naye:I
tscool
, Iwasv erybusyatt
hatt
imesoi tal
so
becameanadv ant
aget ome.Somommyt obe
pl
easecomel ayont hisbed,DrFr
ezzwil
lbejoini
ng
ustoday,
heshoul dbehereinafewminutes
Phi
l
a:He?
Nay
e:Yes,
He.
Phi
l
a:Whyi
shej
oini
ngus?
Nay
e:Becausehehasdeal
thwi
thsuchcasesbef
ore.
Me:Stopwit
htheinter
rogat
ionPhi
l
a,i
t'
samal
eand
youshoul
dacceptthat
.
Phi
l
a:Fi
ne.Buthemusntt
ouchy
oui
nappr
opr
iat
ely
Amal
edoct
orwal
kedi
nwhi
chIf
igur
edi
sDrFr
ezz
Dr:Gooddayever
yone.I
'
m DrFr
ezzandI
'
llbe
assi
sti
ngyoutoday
Me:I'
m MrsNgcobo.Thi
sismyhusbandMrNgcobo,
pl
easuret
omeety ouDoc
Phil
aandhi m shookhandsandwepr
oceededwi
th
theult
rasoundprocedure
Dr:Pl
easecomeclosert
hissi
deMrNgcobosoy
ou
canseeproper
ly.
Hecameclosertomeandhewasabl
etosee
ev
eryt
hingonthescr
een
Dr:Asyoucanseehere,t
hestr
angeprobl
em we'
ve
beenhavi
nghasappeared.We'
vehadsuchcases
befor
eanditseemstomeandi sexact
lyvi
si
blet
hat
y
ou'
rehav
ingquar
dri
plet
s
Me&Phi
l
a:WHAT!
Dr
:Yesyou'
recar
ryi
ngfourbabi
es.Thatexpl
ains
whyyourst
omachisgr
owingenormously
Naye:aaahyou'r
ehavi
ngquads!Thi
scal
lsfora
majorcelebr
ati
on!Atmyhouseat5pm,no
di
scussions aahI '
mtext
ingthegi
rl
sri
ghtnow!
Andthegents
Shescr
eamedandranouttheof
fi
cebef
orewe
coul
devensayany
thi
ng.Iwasst
il
li
nshockbut
mostofal
lIwassoscar
ed
Phi
l
a:Babe,
saysomet
hing
Me:
Idon'
tev
enknowwhatt
osay
Dr:Her
earethescans,
ever
ythi
ngseemsfi
newith
thebodypar
ts.Doyouwanttoheart
hei
rhear
tbeat
s?
Phi
l
a:Yespl
ease
Thehear
tbeat
sweresolouditf
il
ledt
heroom andI
wasgett
ingsoemoti
onalIst
art
edcryi
ng
Phi
l
a:Don'
tcr
ymawabo,
pleasest
opcr
ying
Me:
Itst
ear
sofj
oyPhi
l
a
Il
aughabi
tthenhewi
pesofmyt
ear
s
Dr:Alli
sclear
,youmayhav
ethescansandI
'
llbe
seeingyounextmonth.
Wesaidourgoodbyesandwewal kedtot
hecarpar
k
i
nsil
encewhil
eholdingeachot
hershands.Oncewe
gott
othecarPhil
abr oket
hesi
lence.
Phi
la:
SoIguesswe'
l
lbet
ell
i
ngourf
ri
endsy
ou'
re
pr
egnantt
oday
Me:
That
'si
fNay
ehasn'
ttol
dthem
Phi
la:Noshehasn'
t,
shet
ext
edmesay
ingI
'
lldot
he
bi
gr ev
ealt
oni
ght.
Me:
Ohokay
Ilookedoutt
hewi
ndowandgotl
osti
nmyown
thoughts
Phi
la:
Iknowsomet hi
ngisbother
ingy
ouandIdon't
wanttopr
essureyouint
otal
kingtomeabouti
t,i
'
ll
gi
veyouyourownspace.JustknowI'
m her
eforyou
whenyoureadytotal
k
Ismi ledandnoddedathi m.Honest l
yIdon'tev en
knowwher eam Igoi ngtoev enst ar tonexplaining
howIf eel deepinsi
deofme.Iam v eryhappyandso
excitedaboutbei ngpregnantbutf indingoutt hat
fourbabi esar egrowinginsideofme, Iwoul
dn' tbe
ablet ocar ryonechildful
lterm howam Igoi ngt o
carryf our.IfIl
ooset hesebabi esI '
dwi l
lj
ustwantt o
diewi ththem.Ihav esomanyt hought srunningi n
myheadandI '
m gladPhilaisgi vingmesomespace
thoughi tisunf ai
ronhi m.I'
lltalkt ohim whenI '
m
ready
Me:
canwegetsomei
cecr
eam?
Phi
l
a:Okay
Hegotoutandwentt
oPi
ck'
nPayt
hencameback
af
teraf
ewmi nut
es
Phi
l
a:Goty
our
um andr
aisi
n
Me:
Thanky
ou
Phi
l
a:shar
p
IcouldseethatI
'
m shutt
inghi
m outandheisfeel
i
ng
hurtbythi
sbutIwil
ltal
ktohim.Igotacal
lfr
om
Zandy,Ihaven'theardfrom anyofmyfriendsfora
whilemaybeI '
veseent hem onceortwice,i
t'
sjust
thatIdi
dn'twantt hem t
of i
ndoutaboutmy
pregnancytil
lIwasdef i
natelysur
ethateveryt
hing
mightbeal r
ight.
Me:
Babes
Zandy
: Don'
tbabesmey
oust
ranger
!Whenl
astdi
d
youeventhi
nkofme?
Me:
Ithi
nkabouty
ouev
ery
day
Zandy:aymanfut
sek wher ehaveyoubeen!We
missyou.We'
real
readyatNaye'
sseeyouwhenyou
herenowbye
Me:
okaayby
esweet
s
Iendedt hecal
landlaughed.Ididn'
tev ennoti
ce
we'rehomeal r
eady.Jnrwasplay i
ngwi thMavis
outside.Theywerehavi
ngapi cnic,Igotoutand
wentt ojoi
nthem
Me:
Mybaby
,I'
vemi
ssedy
ou
Iki
ssedhi
m andher
ant
ohi
sfat
her
Mav
is:
Howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m okaymaandy
our
sel
f
Mav
is:
I'
m wel
lthanks.
Me:Ma,I'
m pregnantandI'
m car
ryi
ng4babi
es.I
'
m
pr
egnantwit
hQuadr ipl
ets
Mavis:
Wowcongratul
ati
onsyoumustbeso
exci
ted it
sthebestthi
ngthatcoul
dhappent
oa
woman.Youarebl
essed
Me:
I'
m soscar
ed
Mav i
s:Youshouldn'
tbescared,ever
ythi
ngwil
lwor
k
out.Youhavealovingsupport
ivehusbandt
ooso
everyt
hingwi
llbeokay.
Me:t
hankyou.Letmegopr epar
eJnrwe'
regoi
ngt
o
asmall
part
yatNay essoyouguysdon'
thavet
o
wor
ryaboutmakingsupper
.
Mavis:Okaythankyou,enj
oyyourni
ght
.Onceagai
n
congrat
ulat
ionsyou'
llbeagreatmot
her
Me:
Thanky
ou
West
oodupandshepackedwhi
l
eIcar
ri
edJnrand
wenttobat
hhi
m.Itsgoi
ngtobehisbir
thdaynext
month.Phi
l
aandIhaveal
readyst
art
edplanni
ngit.
Phi
l
awal
kedi
nwhi
l
eIwasdr
essi
ngJnr
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyour
eady
?
Me:
Ist
il
lneedt
oshower
Phi
la:
Goshowerwhil
eIf
ini
shof
fwi
thJnrorwe'
re
goi
ngtobel
atebabe.
Me:Okaycool
.Iwentt
otakeashowerwhi
l
eIwas
t
aki
ngashowerPhilawal
kedi
n
Phi
l
a:MayIj
oiny
ou?
Me:
Yeahsur
eyoumay
Hetookofhi
scl
othesandthenj
oinedme,
he
warmedupthewaterabi
tmoreandlai
dmeheadon
hi
schest
Phi
la:
Iknowsomethi
ngist
roubl
i
ngy
ou,
don'
tyou
wanttohav
ethebabi
es?
Me:ofcauseIdo,
howcoul
dyouev
ent
hinkt
hatI
don'
t
Phi
l
a:Youhav
ebeenact
ingr
eal
l
yst
rangeandIhat
e
i
tbecausey ounotevent al
ki
ngt omeabouti t
MaFuze,you'reshut
tingmeout .Weren'
tyoutheone
whot ol
dmet oopenupandt alkaboutthi
ngsthat
botherme,thatIshouldnevershutyouout.What
areyoudoingnow?I thurtsmeandi tupset
sme
causeIcan'tevenhelpyouwithit.Pl
easetal
ktome
Thewaterwasf l
owi
ngdownwi
thmyt
ear
s,i
looked
athi
m andkissedhi
m
Me:I'
m sorry
,idi
dntthi
nkIwashurti
ngyou.Iknow
i
tssel
fishofmet oshutyououtandI'
mreall
yreal
l
y
sor
ryPhila
Phi
la:ssh,i
tsokayNdy
amthanda all
Ineedi
sfor
youtojustt
ellmewhat'
sonyourmi
nd
Me: I
'
mj ustscaredNgcobo,
howwi l
lIbeableto
carr
yfourbabiesatoncewhenIcouldn'
tevencarr
y
onefetusforjustafewweeks.Howam Igoingtodo
thi
s
Phil
a:Don'tyouseet hatthi
sisami r
acle?I
'm nota
churchpersonbutt hi
sisjustext
raordi
nary
,these
babi
esar eabl essi
ng.It
sgoingtoughmay bebutit
wil
lallpul
lthroughandwor kout.We'reint
his
together,pl
easestopt hi
nki
ngaboutall
thenegati
ves
andenj oyyourpregnancyli
keyou'v
ealwayswished.
Juststopst r
essingpleasei
tsgoingtoaff
ectt
he
babies,Idon'twantuglybabi
es
Me:
That
'snotgoi
ngt
ohappen
Phi
la:
we'll
neverknowifyou'
rej
ustal
waysst
ressi
ng.
Nowlet'
sfini
shupbeforewe'
rel
ateagai
n.Wedon't
wantNayeonourcase.
Me:
okaybabe,
Ilov
eyou
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
out
oo
Wedr i
edupandhehelpedmel oti
onmybodyeven
thoughIcandoitmysel
f.Wedressedupandt
hen
tookJnranddrovet
oNay e'
s.Thecar
swereal
ready
parkedther
eandthemusicwasblasti
ng.
Me:
Seemsl
i
kei
tsal
readyhy
peandhappeni
ng
Phi
l
a:Youknowhowt
hesepeopl
epar
ty.
Weparkedandgotoutt
hecar
.Dannywasout
side
al
ready
Danny
:Hel
l
ohel
l
o i
t'
sbeenawhi
l
eSi
ya,
yougood?
Me:I'
m okayDanDan l
et'
sjustsayI
'
vebeenhi
ding
mysel
f
Danny:Gl
adtoseeyouagai
n t houghtt
hisi
diot
hasdonesomeshit
,Iwasreadyt
ogof et
chyou
wherev
eryouare
Phi
l
a:YouknowIwoul
dn'
tdot
hat
,she'
smyqueen.
Danny
:Let
'sgoi
nsi
debef
oret
heysaywe'
rel
ate
Wegotinsi
deandtherewaslot
sandlot
soffoodon
t
hedinni
ngtableIwasal
readydr
ool
ingandcrav
ing
f
orsamoosa's
Me:
Heyandby
eguy
s,I
'
m goi
ngt
odi
shup
Kamo:
You'
repr
egnant
!!
!!
Thegi
rl
sstart
edscreamingandhuggi
ngme I
wasgoi
ngtoannouncebutIguessmybabi
es
want
edtodoitthemselv
esandmademystomach
bi
ggert
hanitshoul
dbe
Me:Yesyes,I
'm pr
egnant that'
swhyI
'vebeen
suchast
rangerlat
elyIj
ustdi
dn'
twantt
ojinxi
tyou
knowmysituati
onsoIjustwant
edtomakesureal
l
i
swel
lbef
oreIl
etev
ery
oneknow
Bonga:
Thatwasagoodi
dea.Congr
atul
ati
onsguy
s
Theyexchangedhandshakeswit
htheguyswhi
let
he
guyshuggedme.Jnrwasal r
eadyplay
ingwi
th
LuthandoandThembeli
hle
Phi
l
a:Andwe'
rehav
ingQuads
Zandy:Quads?Idi
dn'
tknowumunt uumithai
Quads
yhuit
echnology qal
aintonyonaley
o(Idi
dn't
knowsomeonecanbepr egnantwit
hQuads,fi
rst
ly
what'
sthat?)
Bee:
OhZandi
l
ewher
edoy
oucomef
rom?
Zandy:Someofust ookt
heaccountingrout
eandits
ourli
fewedon'tknownothingaboutQuadsin
pregnancy
.I'
m surenaweSiyayoudidn'
tknowwhat
that'
sismyfri
end ori sitthi
swine?Am Ispeaki
ng
nonsenseonceagain
Mpho:
Yousur
ear
e,Idi
dtel
lyout
ost
opdr
inki
ng
Zandy
:YhuayMpho,
Siy
aexpl
ain
Me:
Basi
cal
l
yZandy
,I'
m pr
egnantwi
thFourbabi
es
Zandy
:Yoooh!Congr
atul
ati
onsmyf
ri
end y
ou'
re
goi
ngtolookl
ikeahi
ppo
Me: Thanky
ouv
erymuch.
You'
resuchagr
eat
f
ri
end
Nkosi
:Younai
l
editmyman,congr
atul
ati
ons.Thi
s
r
eall
ycal
lsf
oracelebr
ati
on wowI '
m sohappyfor
youguys
Me:
Thanky
ouguy
s
Theyal
lcongr
atul
atedusandi
twasav
eryhappy
moment
Thabo:
we'rehav
ingf
ourmor
ebabi
es t
hef
ami
l
y
i
sgrowing
Speakingoff amil
y,wehaven'
ttol
danyofour
parent
sandt heydeser
vetoknow,thoughmymom
won'tev enunderst
andwhywehav en'tt
oldher
.I
waseat ingmy6t hsamoosaandPhi l
awaslooking
atmel ikeIcrazy
Me:Youdidt
hist
omesodon'
tbl
amemewhenI
'
m
eat
ingl
ikeapi
g
Phi
l
a:y
oul
ooksosexy
Me:mxm t
hatwon'
twork babey
oudoknowwe
hav
en'
ttol
dourf
amili
es
Phi
l
a:BeeandNcebaknow
Me:
babey
ouknowwhatI
'
mtal
ki
ngabout
Phil
a: YesIdo,we'
regoi
ngtoLadysmit
hon
Fr
idayandy
oucancal
l y
ourmom andtel
lher
.When
wecomebackfr
om Ladysmi
thwe'l
lgoseeher
Me:
Ohokaycool
Phil
a:t
hat
'sokaywit
hyouright
?Ialr
eadytol
dmy
fat
herwe'
recomingandIknowIdidn'
ttel
lyouabout
i
tandI'
m sorr
y
Me:
itsokay
.Comel
et'
sgoj
oint
heot
her
s.
WhatPhilasandedoesdoesn' tsitwellwit
hme, he
makesdeci si
onswi thoutevenaskingformyopi nion
orhowIf eelaboutit.ButIwon'tbediscussi
ngthat
withhi
m now.Ij ustwantt ositandrel
axthenhav ea
greatt
imewi thmyf riends.I
t'
sbeenawhi leandI '
ve
missedthem dear l
y.
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
Angi
naPhoneguy spl
easebepati
entwit
hme
i
tsverydi
ff
icul
tformetopostbutIwil
lmakei
tupt
o
youandtr
yasmuchasIcant opost.
Lov
eyou.
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it
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hav ef unagain.I
twasj ustawonder f
ulnightfil
led
wi t
hl aughterandshar ingmemor i
estogether.Iam
alreadyf eel
ingveryexci t
edaboutmypr egnancyas
Nay ehast r
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hingwillgo
wel landIwi ll
got hroughsomet oughtimesbutI
don'tt hinki
tssomet hingIwon' tbeabletosur vi
ve
from.Todaywe' regoingt oLady smit
handIhav eto
ber espect f
ulandgetmymakot il
ookon I'
m
gladi haveshorthairIdon'thavet oworryabout
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stuckedin
andhuggi
ngmystomachandadeni
mj acketwith
Niket
akki
eson.
Phi
l
a:Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:Thankyou y oudon'
tl
ooktoobadyour
sel
f.I
gotacal
lfr
om t
heeventspl
anner
,hewantst
oknow
thet
hemeforJnrsbi
rt
hday
Phi l
a:Iwasthi
nki
ngofjusthavi
ngallt
hesecart
oons
displayedandi
tmustbeatt hebacky
ard.I
'
llcal
lhi
m
andmakeanappoi nt
mentsowecangodi scuss
thingsfurt
herwit
hhim
Me:soundsl
i
keapl an.Well
weshoul
dfi
nishupso
wecangetgoing.Lesl
ey!
Thi
schildkeepsondisappear
ing,hedoesn'
twantt
o
wearhisshoes,heneverwant
st owearshoesatal
l
wejustalwayshavetofi
ghtaboutit
.
Phil
a:Youknowhewon' twearhi
sshoessoifIwer
e
youIwouldn'
tthat
.Justgethi
mt owearhi
ssocks
notthose.
Me:
Goodi
dea
Itookhissocksandf
oundhi
m hi
dingbehi
ndt
he
curtai
n
Me:
Foundy
ou!
Hewasl
aughi
ngandr
oll
i
nghi
msel
font
hef
loor
Me:You'
rev
erydr
amat
ic Idon'
tknowwher
eyou
gett
hatf
rom
Phi
l
a:wowr
eal
l
y,hi
sadapt
edt
oyourway
s
Me:
I'
m notdr
amat
ic
Phi
l
a:Yeahsur
e
Me:
let
'sgoguy
s.
Wetookourbagsandgoti
ntot
hecart
hendrov eof
f.
WepassedatChecker
sandgotsomegrocer
ies.
Me:
Nandi
needssomeseni
tar
ytowel
sletmegoget
t
hem
Phi
l
a:okayy
ou'
l
lmeetusi
nthecar
Theyl ef
tmebehindandItooksomeLiletspadst
hat
sheusesandbumpedi nt
oafamil
iarf
ace.Wewent
tohighschoolt
ogetherandshewasPhi l
a'sex
gir
lf
riendNal
edi
Nal
edi
:OhSi
yamt
handa,
itsbeenawhi
l
e
Ismil
edatherandnodded, Iusedtohateherso
muchandIst i
ll
do.NotbecauseshewasPhi la'
sex
butbecauseshecausedal otofdr amaf ormewhen
shefoundoutI'
m dati
ngPhi lasande,t
rustmei twas
ver
ydiff
icul
tandIwasdef inatelysur
eIwant ed
nothi
ngtowithhim butIcouldn'tl
ethergetwhat
shewantedandIstay edanddel twit
hheri nav er
y
goodway .
Me:
Nal
edi
,i
tsgoodt
oseey
ou.
Naledi:Iseeyoul ooki
ngallgoodanditsli
key ou'
re
expecti
ng.IwonderhowPhi lawoul
df eeli
fhesaw
youliket hi
s.I
'm surehewouldbedisappointed.He
alwayst houghtyouguy swouldbetogetherand
havekidsbutl ookatthat.I
fhestayedwithmewe
wouldbesohappy
Il
aughedathersohar
dandshewassoconf
used
Me:
Letmef
il
lyoui
nNal
edi
,seet
his?
Isai
dasIshowedhermyr
ing
Me:
Iam Mr
sPhi
l
asandeNgcobo y
eswe'
re
toget
herandi t
sforever
.We'remar r
ied,wehav ea
sontogetherandI'
m expectinghischi l
dren.Weare
veryhappyandy oushouldknowt hattherewouldn'
t
andwi l
lneverbeachancef ory ouguy stobe
toget
her.Sodoy oursel
fafav ourandgetal i
fe.
Igaveherasmal l
patontheshoul
derandwentt
o
pay.If
eltsoproudofmysel
f Idon'tknowwhy.I
gottothecarandPhil
awasabouttogetoutoft
he
car.
Phi
la:
We'
vebeenwai
ti
ngf
ory
ou,
whatt
ooky
ouso
l
ong?
Me:ohsor
ryIbumpedi
ntosomeoneandwehada
small
chat
.
Phi
l
a:ohandt
hati
s?
Me:
Somegir
lweat
tendedschool
wit
h,noone
i
mport
ant
Phi
l
a:Doesn'
tshehav
eaname?
Me: 21quest
ions? ShedoesbutIdon'
tremember
i
t,Ididn'
twanttoaskhercausei
twoul
dbeabi tr
ude
t
hatIdon'tevenrememberhernameyetsheknows
somuchaboutme,
itsst
rangeact
ual
l
y.
Phi
l
a:mmmh,
Iknowwheny
ou'
rel
yi
ng.
Me:
okay y
ougotme.Ibumpedi
ntoNal
edi
Phi
l
a:Whi
chNal
edi
?
Me:
Yourex
Isai
dasIwi
nkedathi
m andgav
eJnrhi
syoghur
t
Phi
l
a:oh
Me:
yeah,
whyar
eweusi
ngt
hisr
oad?
Phi
l
a:we'
l
lpi
ckupBr
ian
Me:
Isn'
thesupposedt
obei
nJHB?
Phil
a:That
'swhatIt
houghttoobuthecal
l
edand
tol
dmet opickhi
m upatGlenwood
Me: ohokay,I
'vemissedhim.Wehav en'treall
ybeen
withyourfamil
yafterthatsagaandwer eallydidn'
t
allt
alkproper
lyatt
heweddi ng.Youdidn'ttell
them
I'
m pregnantr
ight
?
Phil
a:Onl
ymyfat
herknowsandtheot
hersdon'
t
evenknowwe'
recomingwel
lbesi
desBri
an
Me:
ohokaycool
.Sowhatdoy
out
hinkt
hey
'l
lsay
?
Phi
l
a:Whatdoy
oumean?
Me:
Ift
hey
'l
lhehappyabouti
t?
Phil
a:Ofcausetheywil
landyoushouldn'
tcar
eabout
whateverNamhl asay
s.Youactual
lysoundli
kea
teen whenIwasgoingtointr
oduceyoutomy
famil
ythef i
rstt
ime,y
ouweresoscar ed
Me: Ihadtobe.Iwasj
ust16dudeli
keIwaswor
ri
ed
especial
lysi
nceIsoscar
edofyourmom
Phi
l
a:Yousai
dsheseemsl
i
keamonst
eri
nlaw
Me:
NoIdi
dn'
tsayt
hat
Weparkedatt
headdr
essBr
iansentandhecame
outl
ooki
ngli
kehewasdugoutofagrave
Me:
what
'swr
ongwi
thy
ou?Youl
ookr
eal
l
yhor
ri
ble
Br
ian:Tel
lmesomet
hingIdon'
tknow.Iev
enst
ink
man.ShoPhi
las
Hesatnextt
oJnrwhowasf
astasl
eeponhi
sseat
.
Phi
l
a:andt
hen?
Bri
an:
Letsj
ustsayi
twasapartyt
hatt
urnedi
nto
somethi
ngican'
tev
enexpl
ain
Phi
l
a:Youy
oungst
ers,
yougetupt
onogood
Me:Sayssomeonewhoparti
edev er
yni
ght.Inmatri
c
whenwewerewr i
ti
ngourf
inalexams,youusedt o
comet ot
heexam r
oom dr
unk y ouarejustsucha
ri
sktaker
.
Phi
l
a:i
twasj
ustt
wice
Me:
Butst
il
l
Bri
an:Youguy
sar et
alki
ngt
ool
oudandy ou'
regoi
ng
towakeJnrupthenmakemyheadacheevenworse.
Me:
wedi
dn'
ttel
lyout
ogetdr
unk
Phi
l
a:I
'
m sur
eyousni
ff
ed
Br
ian:
Idi
dn'
tdot
hat
,Ist
oppedl
i
keawhi
l
eago
Me:
howl
ongagowast
hat
?
Br
ian:
li
keaf
ewweeksago
Phi
l
a:Yeahr
ight
.
Wear
ri
vedathomeaf
tert
hel
ongdr
iveandNandi
wasalreadywai
ti
ngforusoutside.Phil
aandBrian
carr
iedourbag,
we'r
estayingoverfortheweekend
andthenwe'l
lgotomymoms.Thef amil
ycameout
towelcomeusandtheyhadpr eparedsomuchf ood
l
iketheyknewIwasstarv
ing
Me:
I'
m st
arv
ing
Iwhi
sper
edt
oPhi
l
a
Phi
l
a:buty
ouj
ustat
e
Me:
yesbutI
'
m st
arv
ing.I
'
m gl
adt
heycooked
Nandikeptonstar
ti
ngatmewellI
'm sureshecoul
d
seemyst omach.Wesatdownatthedinni
ngtabl
e
anddishedup.Idi
shedupthemostandev er
yone
waslookingatmeweirdl
y
Phi
l
a:Don'
twor
ry,
she'
spr
egnant
.
Namhlachokedonherdr
inkandmom st
art
ed
ul
ulat
ing
Mom:
Congr
atul
ati
ons!
Nandi
:I'
m sohappyf
ory
ou ,
howf
arar
eyou?
Me:
2mont
hs
Dad:Andwe'
ret
oldnow?Congrat
ulat
ionsmy
daught
er,
doyouknowthegender
?
Mom:May
bei
t'
saboy y
oul
ookl
i
key
ou'
rehav
ing
aboy
Phi
l
a:wel
lact
ual
l
yshemi
ghthav
ebot
h
Br
ian:
Whatdoy
oumean?I
sitt
wins?
Me:
Quads
Nandi:What!That
'
samazi
ng wowt
hiscal
l
sfor
acelebr
ati
on
Mom: Noal
cohol
wehav
eapr
egnantl
adyi
nthe
house
Namhla:
sothatmeansweshouldn'
thavealcohol.
Wenottheonespregnantwi
thr
ascal
sthatcanf i
tan
ent
ir
eschoolbus.Shesai
dsheaslef
tthetable
Dad:
Comebackher
e!
Shedi
dn'
tl
ist
enandt
ookherbagpl
uscarkey
sand
l
eft
Mom:Idon'
tknowwhat
'
sherpr
obl
em,
I'
m sosor
ry
Si
yamt
handa
Me:
itsokay
.Excuseme
Phi
l
a:wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
Thebat
hroom.
Istoodupandwal kedt oPhi l
a' sroom whi chhasan
ensui tebat hroom andIsatont het oil
etseat .I
wonderwhydoessheal way shav et obemeanand
actlikethatwhenI '
m around.She' st heonl yonei n
thi
sf amilyt hatdoesn' tl
ikeme, shehat esmygut s
period.Ireal l
ydon' tknowwhatIev erdidt oherand
I'
llneverev erfigureitoutcauseshedoesn' tev en
tal
kt ome.Tosayhernast ycomment sdon' thurtme
woul dbej ustl yi
ngbecauset heydohur tmeandi t
ry
veryhar dnott ol ethergett omebuti tdoeswel l
mai nlybecauseshei sPhil
a' sol dersisterandI
respectherev ent houghshedoesn' tr espectmeat
all
.Iwassocaughtupi nmyt hought sthatIdi dn't
evenr eali
zeI '
v elockedmy selfi nher eforawhi le
now.Phi lahasbeenknocki ngandIcompl etely
i
gnor edhim, Ijustneededt obeal one
Andthebathr
oom i
stheonl
yplacewher
eIcould
act
uall
ygetsomealonet
imeinthi
shouse.Igotout
andPhi
l
ajumpedof
fthebedandr
ushedt
ome
Phi
la:Iwasr
eadyt
ojustsmashdownt
hatdoor
.Ar
e
youokay?
Me:
Yes,
I'
m okay
.Justneededt
obeal
one
Phi
l
a:Att
hebat
hroom?
Me:
Yes
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouupset
?
Me:
No
Phil
a:Don'
tbehurtbythestupidthingsshesays,I
don'
tknowwhat'sherprobl
em butI '
llgett
othe
bott
om ofi
tandshe'l
lneverdisrespectyouever
agai
n.
Me:okay,Ij
ustneedt
ogetsomesl
eep.I
mti
redi
ts
beenalongdri
ve
Phi
l
a:Buti
tsj
ust1pm
Me:Yesandineedt
osl
eep.Yourbabi
esneedanap.
Wherei
sJnr?
Phi
la:
Withhi
sgr
andf
ather
.I'
l
lleav
eyout
orestbabe.
Il
oveyou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Heki ssedmyfor
eheadandcl
osedthedoorwhi
leI
tuckedinbedandclosedmyeyesl
ett
ingmybeaut
y
sleeptakepl
ace.
#Phi
l
a
Iclosedt hedoorandst oodt hereuntilIwassur e
Siyai sreal l
ysleeping,Idi dn'
twanthert ost aythere
andpr etendt obeasl eepj ustbecauseshewant sto
beal one.Iknowshe' shur tbyNamhl a'
sbehav i
orand
thatupset smev erymuch.Ev eryt
imeshe' sher
eshe
j
usthast ohur therandt hatdr i
vesmer eallycr
azy .I
t
willgett ot hepointwher eIjustnev erallowSi yato
comeher ei fshe'
sgoi ngt obet reatedthi swayandi t
willteart hisfamilyapar t.Idon'tknowwhyshe
behav est hiswayandi t
scompl etelyunaccept able
behav iort hatIjustwon' ttolerateanymor e.Iwent
downst airsandcal ledNandi .
Nandi
:Youcal
l
edme
Me:
weneedt
otal
k
Iusher
edhert
othegar
denandwesatdown
Me:
What
'swr
ongwi
thy
oursi
ster
?
Nandi
:Oursi
steri
swhaty
oumean
Me:She'
snotmysi st
eri
fshe'sgoi
ngtotreatmy
wi
feli
kethat.I
fshedoesn'
tli
kehersheshouldkeep
t
hattohersel
fandnotupsetSiy
a.
Nandi:IknowandIwi shIknewwhat '
sherpr oblem
butIdon't
.Itr
iedtal
ki
ngt oherbutshejustspoke
nonsensetomesoIr eal
lydi
dn'
tunderstand.May be
shefeelsasifSi
yareplacedhersincedadlov esSiya
somuchandNamhl ausedt obedaddy '
sprincess
andthatneverhappenswhenSi yaisnotaround.
Me:Namhlahasalwaysbeendadsf av
orit
eandwi l
l
al
waysbenothi
ngchangeswhenSi yaisaround.Dad
i
sreal
lyf
ondofSiyabuttheynotevenascloseas
Namhlai
swithdad.Ir
eall
ydon'tunderst
andwhat '
s
heri
ssue
Nandi
:Wel
lmay
bey
oushoul
dtal
ktoherandf
ind
out
Me:
Letmecal
lher
Ical
l
edherbuti
twentst
rai
ghtt
ovoi
cemai
lsoIl
efta
message
Me:
Voi
cemai
l
Nandi
:Thoughtasmuch.She'snev
erreal
l
yaround
mostti
mesandi gnoresmycall
ssoIcan'
thel
pyou
t
hatmuchlit
tl
ebr ot
her.Lemmegohelpmom with
t
hedishes.
Me:
Whyi
smom al
way
sher
evel
e?
Nandi
:Ithi
nktheybackt
ogetherfornow,
Ijustnev
er
under
standourpar
entsr
elat
ionship
Me:It
hinkyou'r
enotal
onether
ecauseI
'm sur
ethey
al
sodon'tunder
standwhat
'
sgoingonbet
weent hem.
Nandi
:Ij
ustgi
veup
Welaughedandwal
kedbacki
ntothehouse.It
ook
Jnrwhowasfall
i
ngasl
eeponBri
an'sLap
Me:
whydi
dn'
tyougot
uckhi
min?
Br
ian:
Idi
dn'
tev
ennot
icehei
sasl
eepduude
Me:Youdoknowguy
swhosay"
duuuude"ar
egay
r
ight
?
Br
ian:
Fuckof
f
Me:
Trut
hhur
ts
Iwentt
omyroom andSiyawasawakeal
ready
,Iput
Jnri
nbedandsatnextt
oSiya
Me:
Ndy
amt
handawam
Si
ya:
Maphol
obawam
Me:
I'
vemi
ssedy
ou,
arey
ouokaynow?
Siya:Feel
i
ngBet
ter wehav
ejustonepr
obl
em
though
Me:
Andt
hati
s?
Shest
oodupandl
ockedt
hedoor
.
Me:
ohIseewher
ethi
sisgoi
ng
ShegiggledandIgr
abbedherassandwehada
quicky.It
ookatowelt
hencl
eanedusupandgot
dressed
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Si
ya:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Me:
Sot
hepr
obl
em wast
haty
ou'
rehor
ny?
Si
ya:
Shutup
Shel
aughedandhi
dherf
ace
Me:Nodon'tbeembar
rassedaboutit,Ican'
tbl
ame
yout
hough.Iknowyoucan'tgetenoughofme
Si
ya:Yeahri
ght
,boost
ingy
ourego.wel
llet
'sj
ustsay
Iwasboredandyouweremybackupplan
Me:
Oucht
hathur
ts
Shel
aughedatmeandt
henki
ssedmycheek
Si
ya:
Suchahugeego
Il
aughedatherandwewentdownstai
rsl
eav
ingthe
dooropenedsowecanhearJnrwhenhewakesup
Mom:You'
reawakemydaught
er,
Iwasget
ti
ng
wor
ri
ed.
Siy
a:I
'
m okaymom.Ineededanapbutr ightnowI
needahugechickenandmay osandwi
chwithchi
l
li
e
l
ongs,f
ri
edchipsandgrapet
izer
Nandi
:Hugeappet
it
e
Me:
She'
sfeedi
ng5st
omachssodon'
tj
udgeher
Wealll
aughedandMom madefoodforherwhi
l
e
shewashelpi
ng.Af
teraf
ewminutesSi
yahad
alreadycl ear edt hepl ate.Wowshewasr eal l
yhungr y.
Ishoul ddosomer esear chaboutpr egnantwomen
especi allywhent heypr egnantwitht wins, quadset c.
Iwasn' tall handsonwhenOr awaspr egnantandI
didn'tgett odomuchr atherthanjustbuy i
ng
every thingsheneeds.Thedoct ordidsayi tsgoingt o
bet oughf orSiy asoIwantt ohelpinmanyway s
possi ble, Ican'tr eallyaskherwhatt odocausei t
's
alsoherf i
rstt i
mebei ngpr egnantandi twasj ustso
unexpect edt hatshewoul djusthavequadr uplet
s.I
wonderi fwe' llhav eal lboysor2girl
sandt woboy s.
Dot heyal l comeoutatt hesamet imeoroneaf t
er
theot her t hesear et hi
ngsIshoul dreal l
yknow
about .We' reall sitti
ngbyt heloungewat ching
televisionandl aughi ngshar ingoldmemer ieswhen
Namhl awal ksinsodr unkshecoul dn'tev enst and
straight .
Dad:
Youchild!Youaresuchanembar
rassment
!
Whatnonsenseisthi
s?
Namhl
a:Shutupmadal
ait
snotl
i
key
ouev
encar
e!
Mom:
Don'
ttal
ktoy
ourf
atherl
i
ket
hat
!
Namhla:Youofal
lpeopl
eshoul
dbethelastper
son
whotell
smehowt ospeaktomyfat
her!
Me:
Namhl
a!Whati
syourpr
obl
em?
Dad:
Iwi
l
lnott
olet
atesuchdi
srespecti
nmyhouse
Si
ya:
Namhl
apl
easecal
m down
Namhla:(
clapsonce)Lookwhoi stal
ki
ng!Thegood
Samarit
an!Youbi t
ch, don'
ttel
lmewhatt odo.You
havetookmyf amilyandcont r
olthem nowyouthi
nk
youcandot hattome.I m notbli
ndyouwitch!And
whoknows?May bet hosebabiescameoutof
wit
chcraftyoubarranbitch
Isawt
ear
sfal
l
ingdownSi
yamt
handacheeks
Me:
Thi
sendher
e!I
'
vehadenoughofy
ou
Ist
oodupandapproachedher
,Iwasaboutt
osl
ap
herwhenmyfat
herheldmeback.
Dad:
Letmehandl
eher
,yougot
oyourwi
fe.
Me:YoudisgustmeNamhl
a!Ispatandwal
kedt
o
Si
yamthanda
Me:
Let
'sgetoutofher
e
Wewal
kedt
othebedr
oom andIpackedourt
hings
Si
yat
alkedbet
weencr
ies
Si
ya:
Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
We'
rel
eav
ing
Siy
a:Wenotgoingtodri
vet
oDBNwheny ou'
rethi
s
angryandi
t'
sgett
ingdar
k.I
t'
snotsaf
etodri
ve
Me:Si
ya,Idon'
twanty
oust
ayi
ngi
nthesamer
oof
wi
ththatthi
ng
Si
ya:
She'
syoursi
sterandy
ouhav
etor
especther
Me: Af
teral
lthatshedi
d!Andallt
hatshehassaidt
o
you.We'r
eleavingSi
yamthandaandthat
'sf
inal
!Get
Junior
Shedi
dasIsai
dandwewal
keddownst
air
s
Mom:
Mysonpleasedon'
tl
eav
e,we'
l
lsor
tthi
sout
t
omor
rowmor
ning
Me:
Ma,
we'
rel
eav
ing.
Si
ya:It
ri
edt
alki
ngt
ohi
m buthehasmadeuphi
s
mind.
WegotoutandIdr
oveof
f
Si
ya:Canweatleastgot
oahot
elt
henwe'
l
ldr
ivet
o
Dur
bantomorr
ow
Il
ookedatherandgav
ehernor
esponse
Si
ya:
Please,
Maphol
oba.
Me:
Fine.
Shebookedusint
oahot elandIdrov
ether
e.Just
whenwewer eatt
her ecepti
onwebumpedinto
someoneInevert
houghtI '
dseeagai
n! Can
thi
sdaygetanyworse!
#LBUBT
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easel
i
keandcomment
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1/11,
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38]Tat
enda:
Inser
t66
Phil
ahasbeenv eryangryandseeingNal ediwi
thhis
cousi
nt hathei
sv er
yveryclosewi t
hjustseemedto
pi
sshi m offal
ot,
Idon'tunderst
andwhyt hatj
ust
angeredhim al
otmor eandIwon' tevenaskwhy .
We'r
eint
hehot
elr
oom al
readyandI
'
m bat
hing
Juni
or
Phi
l
a:Wannaor
derf
ood?
Me:
Yespl
ease
Phi
l
a:whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
oeat
Me:
I'
ll
comecheckt
hemenusj
ustnow
IchosewhatIwant edthenheordered.IputJnrto
bedandt hentookashower .Af
teranhourIwas
doneandr eadytoeatwithPhil
aseati
ngnextt ome
text
ingonhisphone.Hisbeenonhi sphonef ora
verylongti
me
Me:
You'
vebeenony
ourphonef
orawhi
l
enow
Phi
l
a:Ohsor
ry,
I'
m busywi
thaf
ewt
hings
Me:
Wor
k?
Phi
l
a:Yeahsur
e
Me:
Okay
Hedidn'tev
enlookatmewhi l
ewe'retal
kingandit
s
i
rri
tat
ingmet hathi
sbeenpayingatt
enti
ontohis
phoneandIjusthatet
hat.If
eelli
keI'
m gett
ingangr
y
butIdon'
twanttobeangr
y.If
ini
shedmyfoodand
brushedmyteet
h,hewassti
ll
onhisphone Igot
i
ntobedandswitchedof
fmysidelamp
Phi
l
a:Notev
enagoodni
ghtki
ss?
Me:
Kissy
ourphone
Phi
l
a:Real
l
ySi
yamt
handa
Me:
Yesr
eal
l
ynowl
eav
emeal
one,
Iwantt
osl
eep.
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouangr
y?
Me: DoIl
ookorsoundlikeI
'm angr
y?No!NowI'
m
sureyou'
vegotyouranswerl
eav emeal
oneandget
backtoyourphone.
Hekeptqui etandIhear dsomeshuf fl
inggoingon,I
keptmyey escl osedt r
yingtosleep.Ifel
thisli
pson
myneckki ssingme, Iwouldbel y
ingifIsai
dIdi dn'
t
enjoyi
tbuti m sti
llv
er yangryathim andseducing
mewon' thelp,Iwillnotgivehimt hesati
sfacti
on.
Me:Whatdon'tyouunder
standwhenIsayl
eav
eme
al
onePhi
lasande?
Phi
l
a:Yousaymynamei
nav
eryv
erysexyway
Me:
What
ever
Phi
l
a:Ir
eal
lydon'
tunder
standy
ou.Whatar
eyou
madabout
?
Me:Youdon'
thav
etounder
standme,
itsnotl
i
key
ou
car
e.
Phi
l
a:Wher
eist
hatcomi
ngf
rom?
Me:You'
vebeenont hatf
reakenphonesi
ncewegot
her
e!What'
sthatsupposedtomakemef eell
i
keor
whatt
othinkof!
Phi
l
a:Don'
tshoutatme,
I'
myourhusband
Me:Andifyouar
etrul
ymyhusbandyouwi
llactl
i
ke
oneandstoppay
ingatt
ent
iont
othatdamnphoneof
your
s!
Phi
l
a:Whati
syourpr
obl
em Si
ya?
Me: Myproblem i
sthatI'
m si
tt
inghereri
ghtnextyou
tr
yingtotalktoyou,
talkt
omyhusband!Butnohei s
busyonhi sphonedoinggodknowswhatandwho
heistal
kingtowhenIneedhi mtobewi thme.You
di
dn'tevenlookatme!WhatdoIdi sgustyou?!Am I
gaini
ngtoomuchwei ght,i
sitbecauseI'
m pregnant
andwi
l
llookl
i
keahi
ppo!
Iwasal
readyst
andi
ngshout
ingwi
tht
ear
sfl
owi
ng.
Phil
a: Si
yamt handa,whatyou'
respeaki
ngnowi s
nonsense.Ilov eyouforwhoy ouareandhowy ou
are.You'r
ebeaut if
ulandImadey oupregnantand
I'
m happyt hatyou'l
ll
ooklikeahippobecauseyou'
re
myhi ppo Nowst opbeingparanoi
dandsleep
Me:
SoI
'
m par
anoi
d!I
'
m par
anoi
dPhi
l
asande!
Phi l
a:Noy ounotmyl ov e.I'
m sosor r
y,Ididn'tt
hink
i
twoul dcauset hismuchdamageormakey ouso
upset .Thingsar ehecticatwor kandI '
vebeen
mi ssi
ngoutabi tsoIneedt of i
xaf ewthings.I'
m
l
oosi ngt wocl i
ents,Nkosi hasbeenhel pingmeand
theyar er eal
lyreall
yclientsIneedsot hecompany
andJo' burgcanbest abl e.Ididn'twanttoleav eyou
aloneher esothat '
swhyIaskedNkosi togot her
e
forme.I '
mr eal
lysor r
yi fIhav en'
tbeenpay ing
attentiont oyou.
Me:
Itsf
ine
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyoust
il
langr
yatme?
Me:Ify
oumassagemyf
eetI
'
llst
opbei
ngangr
yat
you
Phil
a:Wowthat'
sjustbl
ackmai
lorshoul
dIsay
you'
remani
pulat
ingme
Me:
Onewayort
heot
her
Phi
l
a:Okayf
inef
ine
Hemassagedmyfeetandi
tfel
tsogoodthatmy
st
omachwasgrumbli
ngagai
nandit'
sconfi
rmed
Me:
I'
m hungr
y!
Phi
l
a:Buty
ouat
ejustaf
ewmi
nut
esago
Me:
itwasanhourago
Phi
la:I
'
llordery
ousomeNandos.I
t'
sact
ual
l
ylat
e,
youshouldbesleepi
ng
Me:
Itsj
ust9o'
cl
ock,
I'
ll
sleepaf
terIhav
emyf
ood
Phi
l
a:Okay
Myf oodgothereandIat
e,Iwonderi
fI'
ml i
kethi
s
now, havi
ngmoodswings,cr
avi
ngandeatingso
muchhowwi l
lIbewhenI'
mjustfur
theri
nmy
pregnancy.
Me:I'
m sl
eepi
ngnow.GoodnightPhil
a
IkissedmycheekandIsl ept.Af
terwhatseemed
l
ikehour sofsleeping,Iheardsomeshuf fli
ngaround
andIl ooked.Phil
awast al
kingont hephonesaying
hewi l
l bether
ein10mi nsandhewascomi ngcl
ose
tome.Ipr etendedlikeIwasst il
lasleepandhe
kissedme
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ouandI
'
m sor
ry
Afterhesai dt hathel eftandl ockedt hedoor .I
wonderwher ei shegoi ng, Istoodupandl ooked
around.Ican' treallyfol
lowhi m causeIcan' tleav
e
Jnraloneher eandIhav enocarher e.Phi l
ahasal ot
ofexplainingt odobutIwi l
lactl ikeIdidn'tseehi m.
Letmegetoneofmyguy stof ollowhi m andj ust
seewher ehei sgoi ng.Okaymay bethat'sabi t
drasti
cbutIhav etof i
ndout .SoIcal ledSkopand
afterafewmi nut eshewasal readyf oll
owingPhi la.
Hesai dhewasatt heDungeon, I'
m notv eryfamiliar
withLady smi t
hsoIdon' tknowt hepl acesar ound
hereandt hechi l
li
ngar easet c.Hesai dPhi l
ai s
meet i
ngwi t
hsomewomenwhi chhedescr ibedand
i
twasNal edi.Iwashur tandIt oldhimt ostop
fol
lowingPhi la,I'
v egotenoughi nfor
mat i
ont hatj
ust
hurtmebuti tsokayIcal ledituponmy selfcausei fI
hadn'tgotmyguyt of oll
owhi m Iwoul dn'thav ebeen
thi
shear tbrokennorsad.Ij ustwonderwhathei s
doingwi thherandwhyi shemeet i
ngheratt histime
l
ikewhyi shemeet i
ngwi thherf r
om t hef irstplace.
Wasshet heonehewasont hephonewi th?
Bumpi ngi ntoNal edi allofasuddenseemst obe
fi
shy.Wher edoesshecomef rom af teral lthese
years.Ijusthav esomanyquest i
onsi nmyheadand
i
tsst r
essingmeout ,plusear l
ieront hingsj ustwent
l
eftwi t
hPhi la'sfami lyandwest i
llhav etogof ace
them.Ev erythingi sjustj umbl edupandt oomuch
dramawhi chi sjustst ressingmeoutsomuchand
i
tsnotgoodf ormyheal thandt hebabi es.I've
alwaysbeeni nsecur eandal way slookeddeepi nt
o
sit
uationwher eIt endt oov er str
essandov erreact
wheni tsnotev ennessesar y.Itookat ubofYoghur t
thatwasi nt hef r
idgewi thchocol atebar sand
watchedTV.Phi l
awal kedi nandhewasv ery
shockedt oseeawakewel lmostofal l may bei t'
s
becauseI 'vecaughthi m
Phi
l
a:You'
reawake
Me:
Asy
oucansee.
Hetookofhiscoatandhehadcar
ri
edagun,thi
sis
i
nter
esti
ng.Hewenttotakeashowerandcame
backtobed.
Phi
l
a:Coul
dn'
tsl
eep?
Me:Yes,
becausemyhusbandwasgalavant
ing
ar
oundandnotinbedwit
hhiswif
e.Onlyheknows
wher
ehewasf ort
hepast3hour
s.
Phi
l
a:Icanexpl
ain
Me:Iknowyoucansoi nsteadoft
ell
ingmey
oucan,
youshoul
dstar
texpl
aining.Donotli
e
Phi
l
a:Whatmakesy
out
hinkI
'
lll
i
e?
Me: Youcapableofsneakingoutwhi
l
eI '
m asl
eepso
I
'm surel
yingissomethingyoucanalsoeasil
ydo.
Phi
l
a:Youhav
etopr
omi
semey
ouwon'
tbeangr
y
Me:
Tool
ate,
I'
m al
readyangr
y.
Phi
l
a:i
wentt
omeetNal
edi
Me:
whatf
or?
Phil
a:Idon'
tknowhowt
otell
youthis.Shewas
thr
eateni
ngmesoIwenttosorti
tout
Me:
That
'swhyy
oucar
ri
edy
ourgun?
Phi
l
a:Yest
hat
'swhy
.
Il
ookedathim conf
usedandIwaswonder
ingi
fhe
ki
l
ledherbutIdidn'
twantt
oask
Phi
l
a:Don'
twor
ry,
Ijustshotherl
eg
Me:Ohandwhatwasshethr
eat
eni
ngy
ouf
or?What
i
sitt
hatshehasagai
nsty
ou
Phi
la:
Thisisthequesti
onIdidn'
twantbutIguessI
havet
obehonestwi thyou.I
'
m sorrySi
yamthanda.
Theti
mewheni cheat
edony ouwit
hOrati
le,she
wasn'
ttheonl
yoneIsl eptwi
th.Ial
sosl
eptwi t
h
Nal
edi,t
wice.
Tear
sfellonmyfaceandIwipedthem of
f,Idon'
t
wanttokeeponcryi
ngbecauseofPhil
a.Idon't
knowwhyhekeepsonhur t
ingme
Me:
Whatdoesshehav
eagai
nsty
ou?
Phi
la:
Videosofushavi
ngsex,
idi
dn'
tknowshetook
vi
deosandIdon'
tevenknowwhyshedidt
hat
.She
sai
dshewouldsendthem toyouandli
esayi
ngthat
i
tssomethi
ngthathappenedr
ecentl
y.Idi
dn'
twant
youtof
indoutthi
sway
Me:Whyhav
en'
tyout
oldmeaboutthi
s?Youwer
e
nev
ergoi
ngtot
ell
meweren'
tyou?
Phil
a: I
m sorrySiy
a,thatti
mewasj usttoohecti
c.
I
'venev erseenyouli
ket hatandIwasscaredtoev en
tel
lyouaboutcauseIwasgoi ngtolooseyouWi t
h
Orati
lesdramagoi ngonandherbei ngpregnantpl
us
thi
s,i
twasgoi ngtokil
lyou.
Me:Ihavenothi
ngtosaytoyou.I'
m disgustedand
di
sappoi
nted.Goodni
ghtPhil
asande,west i
l
l hav
et o
goseeyourfamil
ytomorr
owandseemymot her,I
'
m
goi
ngalonetomymot her
's.
Phi
l
a:Canwet
alkaboutt
his?
Me:Idon'
twanttotal
kabouty
ourf
il
thydoings.
Leav
emeal oneandgobacktoNal
edi.Youknow
what'
sfunny
Phi
l
a:What
?
Me:
Itwoul
dn'
tbet
hiswayi
fIwast
heonedoi
ngal
l
t
hisnonsense.Thi
ngswoul
dn'
tbet
hisway
.
Phi
l
a:Don'
tsayt
hatSi
yamt
handa
Me:Why?Justt
hinkaboutandgety
ourmi
ndr
ight
.
Goodni
ght
Phi
l
a:Wehav
etot
alkaboutt
his
Me:
Ihav
etosl
eep
Iclosedmyey esandbr eathedi nandoutl etti
ngmy
tearsf all
.Im heartbrokeny etIwantt obest rongand
notf eel t
hisway .Ireadsomewher ethatwhenIf eel
sad, mybabi esaresad.Mymoodi stheirmoodsoI
don'twantmybabi esget ti
ngdepr essedbecausehi s
fatheri saslutandhet hinkswi t
hhi sdick.I'
mj ustso
disgust ed,Nalediev enmadeav i
deot hat'
sj ust
damnst rai
ghtpor nogr aphy .Ser vesPhilaright,he'l
l
l
ear nhi slessonbutt hisisPhi lawe' r
et al
kingabout ,
heget shi swayoutofev erything.I'
m sur ehedi dn't
j
ustonl yshootNal edi ,I
'm sur ehedel etedt hev i
deos.
#NEXTMORNI
NG
Iwokeupandtookashower,
Jnrhasal
readybat
hed
whenIwokeupsurel
yPhil
adidt
hat.Wewentdown
forbreakfastanditwasjustsi
lent.OnlyJnrwas
blabbli
ngnonsenseandIwasj ustlaughingathi
m.
PhilaandIhav en'
tspokeandim notpl anni
ngtotal
k
tohim, t
hatwi l
lonl
yjuststr
essmeanduppermy
sugarlevels.
Phil
a:We'
regoi
ngtoDadsjustforanhourortwo,
I
don'
twanttost
ayther
eforlong.Thatwi
llgi
veyou
moretimetogoseeyourmother
Ij
ustlookedathi
m andnodded.Aftert
hatwe
checkedoutthehot
elanddrovetohisfathershome.
Wegott her
eandNamhl awassit
tingoutside.Gosh
didshehavetobehere
Me:
HeyNamhl
a
Sheignoredmeandconti
nueddoi
nghernai
l
s.Igot
i
nsidethehouseandJnrr
antoBri
an
Mom:
Hel
l
omydaught
er,
youl
ookexhaust
ed
Me:Hi
mommy ,y
esIdidn'
tsl
eepwel
lbutI
'
llget
somer
estwhenwegethome
Mom:
Youl
eav
ingal
ready
Phi
l
a:Yeswej
ustcamet
osaygoodby
e.Si
yahast
o
goseehermot
her
Mom:
Issheokay
?
Me:
Yesshe'
sgood.Wher
e'sNandi
?
Mom:
Theywentt
otownwi
thherdad.
Phi
la:
You'
l
lsendourr
egar
dst
othem.We'
rel
eav
ing
now
Br
ian:
Wil
lbei
nDur
bannextweekf
orJnr
sbi
rt
hday
Phi
la:
We'l
lbelooki
ngfor
war
dtoseei
ngy
ou.Jnrwi
l
l
enj
oyhav
ingyouthere
Mom:Ist
il
ldon'
tunder
standwhyy
oudi
dn'
taskme
t
oplanhi
sbir
thday
Me:
Mom wet
alkedaboutt
his
Mom:
YesYeswhat
ever
.Youguy
shav
easaf
etr
ip
Shet
ookmyhandanddr
aggedmet
otheki
tchen
Mom: What ev
erisgoingonbetweenyoutwo,Ihope
you'
reabletofixit
.Nevershowtheworl
dthatyou
arenotdoingokay.Evenifi
tmeansyoupretend
wheny ouactuall
yhatehisass
Me:Okaymom thanks,
Idi
dn'
tthi
nki
tst
hatobv
ious.
Whydidyouhav
et osayhi
sass
Mom:
Youshoul
dal
way
scheckouty
ourmansass.
Me:Igety
a,i
tspr
ett
ysexyi
sn'
ti
t t
houghhegot
noass
Mom: Tookaf
terhi
sfat
her butBr
ianbeggedt
obe
di
ff
erent
Me:Hedoeshav
eanassbuti
tsnott
hatbi
gli
ket
he
di
sgust
ingbi
g
Mom: Ial
waysbel i
evedthatmyhusbandor
boyfr
iendbackt henshouldn'thav
eabiggerasst
han
mine.Likethat
'sadeal breaker
Me:
Youev
enhav
edeal
breaker
s
Mom:TrustmewhenIsayI
'
veli
vedmyl
i
fet
othe
f
ull
est
.I'
vedat
ed5guy
satonce
Me:
OkayIdon'
tev
enwantt
oknowmor
e
Mom: Iev
enhav
eat
att
ooofPhi
l
a'sf
atheronmy
vi
rgi
na
Me:
Noshi
t!Asonhi
sface
Mom:
Yes
Me:Okayt
hatsi
t,t
oomuchinf
ormati
on .Letme
l
eav
ey oubef
orePhil
aget
sannoyed,
hewant
susto
l
eav
e.
Wehuggedandgotout
,Phi
l
aandJnrwer
eal
ready
i
nthecarwai
ti
ngforme.
Me:
Jnr
,wannasi
twi
thmommy
Jnr
:Yes
Isatatthebackwi t
hhim andPhi lalookedatmel ike
hewasexpect ingmet otakethef rontseat .The
dri
vebackt oDur banwasawkwar despeci all
ywhen
Jnrdecidedtof al
lasleepandl eavemeal onewi t
h
hisfat
her.Iam starvi
ngbutIdon' twantt ot alkt
o
Phil
asoIdeci dedt ojusttexthiminstead.
Me:
"Im hungr
y"
Herepl
iedsayi
ng"Il
ovey
oumot
herofmychi
l
dren,
nev
erforgett
hat"
IwantedtocrybutIknewifIdi
dI'
djustbeweakand
tal
ktohim andthat
'ssomethi
ngIdon'twantto
happen.I
'
m notangryathi
mf orsl
eepingwithNal
edi
butit'
sbecausehedidn'
ttel
lmeal lthi
sti
meandhe
i
sv erycapabl
eofkeepingsecretswhichmakesme
wonderwhatmor ehashenott oldme.Thecar
stoppedatMcDonald'sdri
vethroughandhebr ought
memyf oodandJnrs.Hegav emeandsmi l
edandI
j
ustsighed.Ihadonebiteandittastedhorr
ibl
e,I
don'tknowifi
t'
smyt astebugsort hi
sburgeri
s
rott
en
Me:
Opent
hedoor
!
Her
ushedmydoorandIgotoutv
omi
ti
ng
Phi
l
a:Youokay
?
Inodded.Isti
l
ldon'twantt
otal
ktohim.Hehel
dme
andgavemeabot tl
eofwater
,Igul
pedi
tandgot
backint
ot hecarandtext
edhim
Me:"
Thanks.
..Iam st
il
lhungr
y,KFCboxmast
erwi
l
l
dot
hetri
ck"
Phil
a:"Thi
sisveryst
upi
dyouknow,
Iknowyouangr
y
butpleasej
usttal
ktome.Imi
ssyourvoi
ce.
"
Idi
dn'
trepl
yandhegotmyf
oodandwedr ovet
o
home.Mymomscarwasparkedout
sideandit
l
ookedl
i
keshewasgoi
ngsomewher
e
Me:
HeyMa
Ma:
Ohheymydaught
er,
soni
nlaw
Me:
Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Mom:Myfri
endshouse,she'
shavi
ngabi
rt
hday
par
tyf
orhergr
andchi
ld.I
'l
lgowit
hJnr
Me:
Uhm mom weneedt
otal
k
Ma:Icansee.You'
repr
egnant,congrat
ulat
ionsmy
daught
er andy oursi
steralr
eadytoldme, she
coul
dn'
tkeepquit
eaboutit.I
'
ml at
e,Jnrcomel et'
s
go
Me:
Takehi
sbagf
rom t
heboot
.
Ma:
I'
ll
bri
nghi
m backt
omor
rowmor
ning
Me:
No,
toni
ght
.I'
l
lbebor
edwi
thouthi
m
Ma:
Youal
wayswit
hJnr,plusMkweny
anawi
l
lbe
t
her
esohe'
l
lkeepyouentert
ained
Me:
Wow
Theygoti
ntot
hecarandl
eftusj
ustst
andi
ngt
her
e
amazed.
Phi
l
a:Iguessi
tsj
ustt
hebot
hofus.
Inoddedandgoti
ntot
hecar
Phil
a:Wi
l
lyoupl
easej
ustst
opbei
ngchi
l
dishand
tal
ktome!
Hisfacewasr edandhi svei
nswer eshowi ng,he
wasf umi ngandIj ustlaughedathi m andshookmy
head.Hehasnor ighttobeanger edbymyact ions,
theyalljustinnocentcompar edtohi s.MaybeI
shouldj ustcheatal i
ttl
eorgetmy selfaben10i ft
hey
dost i
llexit
.Justt ogethi m angr yf oramuchbet t
er
reason.WegothomeandIt ookashowerandwent
tomakemy selfapeanutbut terandj am sandwi ch,I
usedt ohat ethissosomuchbutIguessoneofmy
babieslov eit.Isl
icedsomebananaandmi xedit
withavocadowhi chgotPhi l
ast aringatme
disgustedandt hat'sjusthowIf eel whenIl ookat
him j okesonmeal lIseewhenIl ookathi mi shis
pinkli
pswhi chIam cr avi
ngf orsosomuchbutI '
m
notgoingt oj ustgi v
ei n.Heshoul dknowt hatIcan
getangr yathi mf orday s t hat'
ssomet hingt hat
wil
l besosohar dtodobutI '
m notgivi
ngupnow.I
fi
nishedmyf oodandwashedt hedishesandheaded
tobed.Phil
acamei naft
eraf ewminutesand
massagedmyl egs,Iwantedtoresi
stbutitf
eltt
oo
good.
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Phi
l
a:Thankgod,
I'
vemissedyourvoi
cesosomuch
mawakhe,Il
ovey
outooSiyamthanda
Me:Idon'
tknowwhyy
oudi
dn'
ttel
lmeaboutt
his
Lesl
ey
Phi
la:I
'
m sorry,
Ididn'twantt
ohurtyou.I'
vebeena
j
erkandIjustneverwanttoseeyouhur tbutkeepi
ng
i
tawayf r
om youfeltasifIwasprot
ectingyoufrom
mysel
fcauseim alway sj
usthur
ti
ngy ou.BabeI'm so
sor
ryandIloveyou, Inev
erwanttolooseyou.
Me: Youwon'tl
oosemebuty
oushoul dl
earntobe
honestwit
hme.I st
her
eanyothert
hingyou'
vebeen
hi
dingfrom me?
Phil
a:Not herei
sn'
tSiyamthanda,
Ipromisey
ou.I
wishy oucouldseethr
oughmeandgett oknowthat
I
'mr eall
ybeinghonest
,Iknowitmightbehar
dfor
youtotr
ustmebutpleasebeli
evewhenIsayther
e's
nothi
ngI'
m hi
dingf
rom you.Ngyakt
handaMaFuze
Me:
Ndy
akt
handaMashi
y'
amahl
e
Sonottal
kingt ohim hasfai
l
edagain Ican'
t
helpmysel
f,Ilovehim andIcan'
tstayangryathi
m
foranent
ireday .I
'
m proudofmy sel
fthough t he
hourswerelongerthisti
me
Me:
Didshedel
etet
hev
ideo'
s?
Phi
l
a:Yes
Me:
Whati
fshehasot
hercopi
es
Phi
l
a:Don'
twor
ryabouti
t,i
t'
sbeent
akencar
eof
.
Me:
Idon'
tl
iket
hesoundoft
hat
Phi
l
a:Don'
twor
ry,
Iwon'
tki
l
lhery
et
Me:
Whatdoy
oumeanbyt
hat
Phi
la:
Let'
sjustsayshe'
lll
ooseaf
ewl
egsandar
ms
bef
oregoi
ngt othegrav
e
Me:
Sav
eonel
egf
orme
Phi
l
a:Thatshal
lbedone
West ay edupandchat tedallnightl
ongwhi lehavi
ng
somesnacksandshar ingli
ttl
ekisses.Hekepton
rubbingmyst omachandtalkingtohisbabies.We
can'twai ttogettoknowt hegenders andt ohave
thebabi esar ound,i
twil
lbetoughbuti twil
lworkout.
Hisplanni ngont aki
ngaleav efor2monthsoncet he
babiesar ebor nsohecanhel pme.That 'sverysweet
ofhim andhi m bei
ngtheownercomesi nhandyat
ti
mesl iket hesebecausehewi l
lbegreathelp

#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keandcomment
Soonsoonwast
hissoon
Pl
easeSuggestPaget
oFr
iendsandFr
iendsof
Fr
iends
#Let
sGr
ow
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1/11,
00:
39]Tat
enda:
Inser
t67
Todayi
sLesl
eyJnr'
sbirt
hdayandI'
m start
ingmy
thi
rdmont
hofbeingpregnant west i
l
l ar
en'tabl
e
toseet
hegender
s.Im pati
ent
lywai
ti
ngandwe' ve
decidedthatwe'
ll
namethebabiesonceweknow
thegenders.Theguy
sarehelpi
ngwiththe
decorati
onandMom wentoutwi t
hJnrwhil
stwe
prepare,
itsgoi
ngtobeagreatdayandJnrwil
l
defi
natel
yenjoyit
.
Bonga:
Wher
edoIputt
hese?Ihat
ecar
toons
Zandy
:Don'tbeapart
ypooper
,putt
hoseout
side.
Theywit
htheMickeymouseset
Mpho:Ialsojusthat
ecart
oons,Idon'
tunder
stand
car
toons!I'
m notacart
oonperson!
Me:
Okaywehear
dyou
Beli
nda:Thekidswil
lhavesomuchf unhere.And
Mpho,Bongawedon'tcareofy oul
ovethem orhat
e
them.Youjusthavetosettheseup
Ly
anda:
Bat
shel
eLi
nda(Tel
lthem Li
nda)
Phi
la:You'
rebei
ngf
orwardLy
anda weal
lknow
youtheonewhohatest
hem t
hemost
Ly
anda:
ButIdi
dn'
tgot
ell
i
ngt
hewhol
ewor
ldt
hat
At
hi:
becausey
oucanusey
ourbr
ainni
gga
Wecont i
nuedhav i
ngalovelyconversati
onwithZee
andDannycuddl i
ngup.Mor eguestsarri
vedand
mostcamewi t
htheirki
ds,Iwantedittobejusta
smallpart
ybutnopePhi l
awashav ingnonoft hat
,he
i
nvit
edsomanypeopl esomeIdon' tevenknowand
somear ehisemployees.Mom andJnrr etur
ned
Us:
Sur
pri
se!
!!
WesangHappyBi r
thdayforJnrandhejuststood
t
herenotcar
ingaboutiteff
ortal
lhecouldseewas
t
hejumpingcast
lewhichheandThembel ihl
ewent
r
unningt
o.
Phi
la:
Sot
hisi
swhatt
hrowi
ngahugepar
tyf
orJnr
get
sus
Me:
Yup Idi
dtel
lyounott
ogoov
erboar
dwi
tht
his
Kamo:
AndasstubbornasPhi
l
ais,
im def
inat
ely
sur
ehedi
dn'
ttakethat
Me:I
'm gl
adI
'
m nott
heonl
yonewhoknowshi
s
st
ubborn
Thekidswer
epl
ayi
nggamesandwewerechil
l
ing
havi
ngsomedri
nksandIwashav
ingav
irgi
n
cocktai
lwhichmademewonderwhytheycal
led
"vi
rgi
ncocktail
s"i
knowt
her
e'snoal
coholbutwhy
shoul
dt heysayVi
rgi
n
Me:
Whyi
sitcal
l
ed"
Vir
ginCockt
ail
"
Lubah:
Becauset
her
e'snoal
cohol
ini
t.Soi
tsa
vi
rgi
n
Thabo:Sowhenit
sCockt
ail
,i
tmeansi
tsbeen
di
svir
ginedbyt
hecock
Zee:
You'
ret
alki
ngcr
ap
Wewer eal ll
aughingoutloudandhav i
ngagr eat
ti
mewhenal lofasuddenweseesomeonest anding
behindusandshecl earsherthr
oat neverhav e
Ithoughtthatthisdaywoul dcomesosoon, Ialways
thoughtthatonedayshe' dcomebackbutnotnow,
i
t'ssounexpect edbutwhydi dn'
tIt
hinkofit
,itisher
sonsbirthdayandmay beshesawitfitt
hatshe
shouldreturnont hi
sday .
Phi
l
a:Whatt
hehel
lar
eyoudoi
ngher
e!
Or
a:Icamet
ocel
ebr
atemysonsbi
rt
hday
Phi
l
a:Don'
ttel
lmet
hatshi
t!
Kamo:
Ithi
nki
tsbesti
fwel
eav
eyouguy
sal
one
Weal
lst
oodupandPhi
l
alookedatmeconf
used
Phi
l
a:Andwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Il
ookedathim andwentt
ost
andnexttohi
m, he
hel
dmywai standpul
ledmecl
oserandIsmil
edat
hi
m
Ora:
Idon'
twantt
ocauseanyt
roubl
e,Ij
ustwantt
o
seemyson
Phil
a:Thatwon'thappen,youlefthim andnev
er
evencaredforhim,youjustthoughtaboutyoursel
f
andyourselfi
shness.Youcan'tjustshowupher e
andsayy ouwanttoseey ourson, youdon'
thavea
son
Peoplewerenowlookingatusandthey'v
eseent hat
Orati
l
eishere,t
heywer est
art
ingtowhisperasi
de
andgossipaboutus.Mygirl
stookcareofthem and
ushuredever
yonetothepoolarea
Me:Let
'sgeti
nsi
det
hehouse,
awayf
rom ev
ery
one'
s
ey
es
Justaswewer
ewal
ki
ngt
her
eJnrcamer
unni
ngt
o
usandhest oodt her
elookingatus.Orati
l
equickl
y
grabbedhim andPhi l
atri
edtot akehi
m awaybutJnr
didn'
twantto.Ifeltabithear
tbrokenwhenIsaw
them toget
her,JnrdoeslooklikeOrat
il
eabit
Me:
Juni
orcomet
omommy
Heshookhi
sheadandcont
inuedpl
ayi
ngwi
th
Or
ati
le
Ora:Hei swi
thhismother
,hi
sbiological
mothersoI
don'tseeanyprobl
em her
e.I
'
m stayingherefort
he
restoftheday,
itsmysonsbir
thdayandI '
m goi
ngto
celebrat
eitwi
thhim
Me:
You'
renotgoi
ngt
odot
hat
Or
a:Wat
chme
Shewalkedbacktothepoolar
eawher eevery
one
waschil
li
ng,walki
ngpassthem ontotheplay
ing
cent
ersoeveryonecoul
dseeher .
Phi
la:I
'
m sorry
Me:It
sokay ,
youdidn'
tknowshe'dshowupplusshe
i
shermot heraf
teral
l.Ther
e'snot
hingwecando
abouti
t.
Phi
l
a:I
'
llgetheroutofher
eri
ghtnow
Me:
No,
letherst
ay.Idon'
twantanydr
ama
Hekissedmyforeheadandtol
dmehelovesme.We
wenttojoi
ntheothersandIj
ustat
emyfood
Nay
e:Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
YesI
'
mfi
ne
Bee:
Whati
sshedoi
ngher
e?
Me:
Idon'
twantt
otal
kabouti
t
Zee:
Weunder
stand
Zandy
:Whenwegetoutofher
e,she'
sgoi
ngt
oget
someofme.Ij
ustwantt
obeatherup.
Kamo:t
her
e'snoneedf
ort
hat
,shemi
ghtpr
ess
char
ges
Zandy
:I'
l
lki
l
lher
,makesl
i
feeasi
erf
orev
ery
one.
Nceba:
Don'
tl
ookatherSi
ya,
you'
rehur
ti
ngy
our
sel
f
Allt
histi
meIdidn'tnoti
cethatIwaslookingather,
she'
sgetti
ngalongsowel lwithJnrit
sli
keshenev er
evenlef
t,l
ikeJnrhasknownheral lhi
sli
fe.Iguess
i
tsabondt hatcan'tbebroken.MaybeJnrfeel
sit,
may behefeel
sthisconnectionandknowssur el
y
thatit
shi smom.Buthi sj ustaoney earol
d, t
heysay
childr
encansensemanyt hingsandar eactual
ly
smar terthanwet hink.May beIhaven'tbeensucha
goodmot hertohim asi thoughtIwas, may behe
wasl ongingf orhismot heral lt
histi
me.Buthe
doesn' tknowt hat,hisbeenwi t
hmesi ncehewasa
premat urebaby ,hegr ewupi nmyhands, Istopped
l
ivingmyl if
eandwor kingsoIcoul dtakecar eofhi
m
andbet hereforhi m allthet ime.Iwassocaughtup
i
nmyt houghtst hatIdidn' tevenseehewasnow
sit
tingonmyl apeat i
ngmygr apes
Jnr
:Mom
Me:
YesJuni
or
Jnr
:Thandamawakhe
Theyusuall
ysaythatwi
thPhil
a andI '
m happyhe
sai
dthis,
itsl
ikeheknowsI'
m notf
eel
i
ngokay
Jnr
:Iwantt
osl
eep
Me:
Letmegoputony
ourbed
Bel
inda:
No!Don'tdot
hat,
lethim sleepher
eony
ou.
Youdon'tknowwhatt
hatwitchmi ghtdo.
Nt
oko:
Yesshemi
ghtev
engot
her
eandst
eal
him.
Allt
heyweresay
ingmademef eel
scar
edandhave
toprot
ectmybabyatal
lti
mes.Iwentt
oPhil
aand
tal
kedtohi
m asi
de
Me:
Idon'
tfeel
saf
eher
e
Phil
a:I
'l
lgetsecur
it
y'
stogetheroutofher
,wi
thout
causi
ngascene
Me:
Thanky
ou
Iwal
kedawayandhepul
l
edmeback
Phi
l
a:Thandamawakhe
Me:Jnrj
ustt
oldmethataf
ewmi
nut
esago.AndI
l
oveyoutooNgcobo
Phi
l
a:I
'
llsor
tthi
sout
,Ipr
omi
se.
Ismil
edandhi m andwewentt ositwit
ht heother
s.
Thedaycont i
nuedititwassomuchf unt hatwe'
ve
evenforgot
tenwhathadhappened.Jnrr eceiv
ed
manygi f
tsandNkosi boughthim abi
cycle Hei s
j
ustfunny,hecan'tbuyanygift
ssohej ustbuys
whateverhesees.Peoplewereslowlyl
eav i
ngand
Philawaswi thhisPAKay ,hetakesgoodcareof
Phila'
scompanyandhasbeenst udyi
ng
Architect
ure.Phil
ahasmanypl ansforKayandhe
want shimt ostarthisowncompanybutKayal ways
l
aughsathi mi ndi sbel
ief
.Kaydeservesitandhei
sa
hardwor ker.Theguy swehi r
edwer ealr
eady
packingupandwehel pedthem.Mav isandthe
helperswerecl eaningthehouse.
Zandy
:Ishoul
dgetgoi
ng.
Lubah:
Weal
lshoul
dgetgoi
ngnowguy
s.I
tsbeen
fun
Weallsai
dourgoodbyesandexchangedafewhugs
andki
sseswi t
hthegir
ls.Mphoreal
l
ygetsgr
ossed
outwheneverwekiss whi chAthi
enj
oysveryv
ery
muchhecanbesuchaper vsometi
mes
JnrandIwenttot akeashowert ogether,heenjoys
thi
sveryverymuchandIdot oo.Helov estouching
mystomachandwet al
ktohisbrothersorsi st
ersor
evenboth,l
et'
sjustsayhissibl
ings .Phi l
ajoined
usinbedafterafewmi nutessincewet uckedi n.
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
Yes
Phi
l
a:Younothungr
y?
Me:
NoI
'
m nothungr
y
Phi
l
a:FootMassage?
Me:
Whyy
oubei
ngl
i
ket
his? uhm y
esI
'
dlov
eone
Phil
a:I
'
mjusttr
yingt
obeagoodhusband andI
don'
twantyoutobestr
essedaboutany
thi
ng.
Me:
I'
m notst
ressedbabe
Phil
a:Iknowy
ouare,
IknowyouAbongi
leandyou
can'
tli
etome.Nowputyourf
eetont
hispi
ll
ow
Idi
dashesai d,bothHim andJnrweremassagi
ng
myfeetanditfeltsogood.Jnrendedupf
all
ing
asl
eepthenPhilaputhiminhisbed
Me:
Doy
out
hinkshe'
l
lcomeback?
Phi
l
a:I
'
llmakesur
eshedoesn'
t
Me:
Howwi
l
lyoudot
hat
?
Phi
la:I
'
llsorti
toutNdy amthanda,nowstop
st
ressi
ngy our
selfabouther.Juni
orisy
oursonand
hewon' tbegoingany
where.Oraf
ail
edtobehis
mot herthedayshepackedupandlef
thim att
he
hospital
.She'
snotJunior
smotherandther
e's
nothingshecandoaboutthat.
Me:
Whatar
eyougoi
ngt
odo?
Phil
a:Ihat
ehiswhenyouaskmyquest
ionsIcan'
t
answer.I
'l
lj
ustsor
therout
Me:
Don'
tki
l
lher
Phi
l
a:Whywouldy
out
hinkI
'
dki
l
lher
,I'
m nota
womanki
ll
er.
Me:
Don'
thur
therPhi
l
a
Phi
l
a:Why
?
Me:She'
sst
il
lJnr
smot her
.OnedayJnrwi
llknow
t
hetrut
handwhatifhewantst
oseeher.Whatwill
wesay?"Weki
ll
edher"Nowecan'tdot
hat.
Phi
l
a:Whatdoy
ousuggestIdot
hen?
Me:Idon'
tknow.Let
'sj
ustwai
tandseewhatshe
does
Phi
l
a:I
fthat
'swhaty
ouwantSi
yamt
handa.
Me:
Thanky
ou
Phil
a:Iwi
shIhadaheartli
keyour
s.Peoplehur
tyou
butyousti
l
lgi
vethem achanceagai
nandy ouhave
aforgi
vi
ngheart
.You'
rereal
lyagoodperson
Me:
Youar
etoo andt
hat
'
swhyIl
ovey
ou
Phi
l
a:That
'snott
rue
Me:
Whatdoy
oumean?
Phi l
a:I
'm col dheartedandsel fish.Ialway shur tyou,
Ilovey oubutInev erknowhowt oshowi ttoy ou.I
don'twantt ol oosey ouandIendupdoi ngf uckedup
thingsthatcoul dmakeer eall
yl oosey ou.Ijustmess
youupy ety ouforgivemeal l
thet i
me.Idon' tknow
whatIev erdidtodeser v ey oubutI '
mr eall
ygr atef
ul.
Thanky ouforbei ngwi thmeandl ovingmeev en
whenwewer eatourwor st.Ev enwhenwewer eat
situati
onst hatcoul dbreakpeopl eapar tbutyou
stayedwi thme.Nev erhav eIev erlovedsomeone
thewayIl ovey ou.
Me:
Phi
l
ayou'
remaki
ngmecr
y
Phi
l
a:OkayI
'
m sor
ry y
oul
ooksobeaut
if
ul.Your
cheeksar
eget
ti
ngbi
gger
Me: Tel
lmesomet
hingi
don'
tknow
Phil
a:You'
rethebestmotheranyonecoul
deverask
forandI'
m happytohaveyouasmywi f
e.Evenour
babiesf
eelthelov
ey ouhavefort
hem
Me: Idon'
tev
enknowwhatt
osay
Heki ssedmeandIki
ssedhi
m back,
theki
ssgot
heatedandweendedupmakingslowand
passionatel
ove
#NEXTMORNI
NG
Phi
l
a:Goodmor
ningpumpki
nface
Me:Real
l
y couldn'
tyouatleastj
uststi
ckt
o
babe causeal
ltheseothernamesy oucomeup
wit
hsuck
Phil
a:Youshoul
dn'
tbecomplai
ning.Imadeyou
breakf
ast
,comedownstai
rssoyoucanf eedmy
babies
Me:
Letmeshowerf
ir
st
Phi
l
a:I
'
llj
oiny
ou
Me:
No
Phi
l
a:Idi
dn'
tev
enasky
ou,
Iam t
ell
i
ngy
ou.
Me:
Finewhat
ever
Phi
la:
Youdoknowt
hatIhat
e"What
ever
"soj
ust
nev
ersayt
hatt
ome
Me:I
'
llsaywhatev
erwheneverIwanttosay
what
everandtowhoeverIwanttosaywhatev
ert
o
Phil
a:Thatwassmar
t whendi
dyoucomeupwi
th
that
Me:
I'
m ageni
usdude,
comel
et'
sshower
Phi
la:ohsoyoudowanttoshowerwi
thme why
di
dn'tyouj
ustsaysoatf
ir
st
Me:
Yout
alkt
omuch
Weshoweredwhil
eargui
ngabouthimtalki
ngtoo
much afterweweredonewewentt ohav e
br
eakf
ast
.Juniorwasalr
eadywatchi
ngcartoon.We
al
waysar
gueabouthim watchi
ngcar
toonsbefore
heeat
sorevenshowers
Me:
Juni
ordi
dyouhav
ebr
eakf
ast
?
Jnr
:Yes
Me:
Didy
oubr
ushy
ourt
eet
h?Di
dyouev
enbat
h?
Jnr
:Yes
Hewasn'tevenl
ookingatme,
Itookt
her
emot
eand
swi
tchedtheTVoff.Hecri
ed andrant
ohi
sfat
her
Jnr
:Mom swi
tchedoft
heTVDada
Phi
l
a:Swi
tcht
heTVonSi
ya
Me:
Iknowhedi
dn'
tbr
ushhi
steet
hthat
'sf
orsur
e.
Jnr
:Aunt
yM hel
pedmeandIdi
dbr
ushmyt
eet
h
Aunt
yM i
sMav
is,
Idon'
tknowwhyhecal
l
sher
"
AuntyM"
Wesatdownandhadbr eakf
astwithJnral
soeati
ng
whichshowedt hathedi
dn'
tevenhavebreakf
astand
hewasl y
ing.Thischi
ldi
sgrowingtoofast andhe
i
sjusttooenergeti
c.Whi
lewewer eeati
ngonofthe
hel
perscamet othetabl
e
Helper
:Goodmor ni
ng,I
'
m sorr
ytodi
stur
b.Adel
i
ver
y
guydroppedthisof
fandhesaidt
hati
tisver
y
i
mpor t
ant,i
tsforMrsNgcobo
Me:Forme,
arey
ousur
e?Wel
lIwasntexpect
ing
any
thi
ng
Hel
per
:Enj
oyt
her
estofy
ourday
Hewentoutandl
eftt
hedocumentont
het
abl
e
Phi
l
a:Openi
t
Iopenedi
tandIcoul
dn'tevenbel
i
evemyey
es,
tear
s
fel
lonmyfacei
mmedi atel
y
Jnr
:Mamay
akhal
a(Momscr
ying)
Me:
I'
m notcr
yingmybaby
,gowat
chcar
toons
Hekissedmeandr
antotheTVroom.Phi
lacamet
o
seatnextt
omeandIpassedhi
mthedocument
Phi
l
a:Thi
sisnonsense!
Me:Iti
swhati
tisandt
her
e'snot
hingwecando
abouti
t
Phi
la:
I'
m sosor
ryaboutal
lthi
s,Ipr
omi
seI
'
llsor
tit
out
Me:
Don'
tdoany
thi
ng.Justgi
veherwhatshewant
s.
Icoul
dn'
tbel
i
evet
hatIwasact
ual
l
ysay
ingt
his,
maybeI '
mj ustdefeat
edandIcan'tdoanythi
ng
aboutit
.Ifeelsoempt yandhurt
.AllIwanttodoi
s
j
ustsleepandi fthi
sisadream,pleaseopenmy
eyesandletitstop.It
sanight
mar eandhaunti
ngme
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Orati
lehassentusadocumentsay i
ngt hatshe
wantsfullcustodyofLesleyJnrNgcobo.Icoul dn't
beli
evewhatIwasseei ngandPhi latr
iedhi sbest
try
ingtosortthisoutbutitdidn'
twor k.Wewi l
lbe
goingtocourtlatert
odaywhi chissomet hi
ngI '
m not
readyfor.I
'l
lneverbereadyt ostandther eandt ake
thestand.Ineverthoughtthatthisdaywoul dcome.
Iwill
standthereanddenyJnrachanceofseei ng
andknowi nghermot her.Ihatethatthishast o
happen, Idon' twantJnrt obet akenawayf rom me
butapar tofmeagai ndoesntwantt obet her eason
whyJnrhast obesepar atedf rom Or at i
le.Shei shis
biologi cal mot heraf teral l
,sinceIgotpr egnantand
I'
m soat tachedt omychi l
drenIcannotev ent hi
nkof
thef eel i
ngIwoul dgetorhowhur tIwoul dbei f
someonewoul djustt aket hem awayf rom me.The
feelingofbei ngamot her ,t
hej oyandl ov ey oufeel
whenev ery out ouchy ourst omach, thei nst ant
connect ion.YesOr atil
edi dhermi stakesand
abandonedJnrbutt hef eelingdeepi nsi desur ely
nev erl eft,thegui ltandconsci ousIwonderhowshe
sleptatni ghtfort heent irey eart hatshewasnot
here.Iwonderwher eshewas.Phi l
aj ustwant sthis
dayt obeov eranddonewi th, hewant st or emai nas
thel egal guardianandhav ef ullcust odyov erJnrand
forOr anott oev enseeJnronweekends, heev en
want edt ogetar estrainingor derbutIt oldhi mt hat
wast oomuch.I '
veseenPhi ladi slikeandhat e
peopl ebutt hehat ehehasf orOr at i
l
ei sonanot her
l
ev el ifther ewasawor dmor et hanhat et hatcoul d
descr i
behowher eall
yf eels, wewoul dbeusi ngi t
.
Jnrwi llgr owuponedayandev entuallyt het r
uthwi l
l
comeout .Hewi llseet hatwedon' tlookal i
keor
ev enwhenhi ssiblingsgr owt hey 'l
lhav eno
resembl ancebet weent hem, whatwi llIexpl ain, what
wi l
lIev ent ell him.Keepi ngt hisasecr etandkeepi ng
Or at
il
eawayf rom hi m wi l
ldest royhim anduswhen
hef i
ndsoutwor stcasewoul dbehi mf indingout
from ot herpeopl e,hewi llf
eel bet r
ayed.Ihonest ly
thinkweshoul dgi veOr atil
eachance, Idon' tknow
whyI 'mf eelingt hiswaybutIam.IguessI '
m
growi ngandbecauseI '
m amot herandIknowwhat
wegot hroughandIl oveJnr ,Iwantt hebestf orhi m
andi fhest ar tsknowi ngOr ati
lenowi twi llbeeasi er
ashegr owsup.Iknowi tmi ghtbeconf usingf orhim
tohav e2mot hersbutchi l
drenacceptt hingsandget
usedt ot hingsqui ckly.Ashegr owsuphewi l
l
under standt hesi t
uationbutwhatwi llhur tmet he
mosti shi m gr owi ngupandwant i
ngt ost aywi th
Or at
il
eorOr at il
eget ti
ngf ullcust odyov erhi m.That
woul dbr eakmyhear tbutIwi llknowt hatIhav e
doneev er ythingIcoul dtobet hebestmot hertohi m.
IknowPhi l
awi l
lnev erev eragreet oOr atil
eget ting
fucust ody ,hewoul dhav etodi ef i
rstthanhav et hat
nonsensehappeni ng.Apar tofmedoesunder tsand
PhilasandebutIwi shhecoul dal sounder st andwhat
Ithinkandwher eI 'm comi ngf rom wi t
ht his.Igr ew
upwi thoutaf at her ,yesuncl eMandl awast hereand
hadbeenaf atherf igur et omebuti twasdi fferent,
diff
erentf rom t hewayot herki dswher ewi tht heir
realfathersIdon' tknowi fIwasi magi ningt hingsbut
therewasj ustal way st hatgapi nsi
deofme.Iwas
l
ongi ngandy ear ningf ormyf ather,tof eel hi slove
andhav ehi m hol dme.Tot akehi mt oFat herand
Daught erFr i
day si npr imar yschool insteadoft aking
myuncl e.Tot al kaboutt het hingswedot oget her
duringtheweekendandhav ehi mt uckmei nand
readmeabedt imest oryl i
kehowot herf ather sdo
whenIwat chedmov ies.Ineededhi m andIwant ed
himt obet herebutIdi dn'tev enknowhi m.Iwant ed
himt ogi vemeof ft omyi n-lawsandassur emet hat
everythingwi l
l beokay ,Iwasl ongingf orhi m mor e
thanIev enwant edt oaccept .Idon'twantJnrt ogo
throughal loft hat ,Imi ghtbeher eforhi m al l t
he
ti
mebutwhati fi tsnotenough?Whati fhewakesup
onedayandt hr owsat ant r
um want inghi smot her
thanwant i
ngnot hingt odowi t
hmecauseIdeni ed
himt hechanceofknowi nghi sr ealmot her .Itsnot
thatI
'l
lnotbehi smot hercont i
nuing,Iwil
lli
keIhave
beensincehewasbor n.Iwilll
ovehimt hesameway
andhewi llfeelnodiff
er encebetweent hanandnow.
Iwascaughtupi nmyt houghtsandIdi dn'
tev en
real
iz
eitwasal readyj
ustanhourbef orewehav et
o
gettocourt.Ihav ebeenaskedt otesti
fyagainst
Orati
l
e.I'm dressedinabl ackdresswithredshoes
andabl ackcoat
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyougoi
ngt
oseducet
hej
udges?
Me:Maybe,dependsi
fhi
smaleoff
emal
ecauseif
i
t'
sashe,you'
llbemaki
ngherbowt
oyourknees
Phi
l
a:I
sthaty
ourwayofbei
ngsar
cast
ic ?
Wit
hbot hlaughed,
hesaidthatbecausehewasst i
l
l
j
ustwear i
nghisbri
efs.Af
terafewmi nuteshewas
al
ldressedupinabl ackt
uxedoandbl ackshoes
Me:NowIfeel
underdr
essed y
oul
ookv
ery
handsome.
Ifi
xedhistieandwewer eofftocourt
,Jnrwasl
eft
withMavis.Idi
dn'twanthi
mt ocome, hei
stoo
youngtobegoi nginandoutofcourtandmostl
yi
thinkitsbecauseIknowi fIlefthim athomet hey
won' ttakehim awayf rom mer i
ghtt hereandatt hat
ti
me.Yesi m sti
llholdingontohi m becausehei smy
sonandt heywon' ttakehim awayf rom me.Wewer e
i
nt hecour tr
oom andseei ngOr at
ilemademef eel a
bituneasyIdon' tknowwhybutIj ustf el
tthatway .
Shel ookedatmeandsmi ledast hecasewasbei ng
discussed.Itwasnowt i
mef ormet ot akethestand
andi tdidn'
ttakemucht imeasIhadexpl ained
every t
hingtheywant edt oknow.Or ati
leslawyerhas
beenaski ngmeal otofquestionssomewher e
diffi
cultbutImanagedt oanswer
Lawyer
:Whydoyout
hinkOrat
il
eiswoul
dbeunf
itt
o
rai
seandt
akecar
eofLesl
eyJnrNgcobo?
Me:Or atil
e,whenshegav ebir
thtoJnrshecoul dn'
t
copeandacceptt hatJnrwasbor nprematurely.She
hadbeenscar edofbyallthethi
ngsshehadr eadon
thei
nter netaboutprematurebabiesandtooka
deci
sionofr unningawayandl eavinghi
m because
heispr emature.Iknowitmightbescar ybutasa
mothery oushoul dwantwhat'sbestforyourchi l
d
andlookf orsoluti
onsonhowt osolvet
hepr oblems
thatwouldcomeby , runni ngawayi snott heanswer .
Orati
lewoul dbeunf ittof ul fi
l
lherduti
esasamot her
becauseifshehadst ayedi twouldhavecaughtup
withher,Jnrhadapr obl em wi thhisl
eftlegandhe
hadtobeoper ated,hehadt r
oublewit
hhi seyesight,
Ihonestl
yseet hatOr at
ilewoul dn'
thavebeenabl et o
copewi t
ht hatnorev ent akecar eofhim properl
y
becauseofwhatt hei nter nethaddonet oher
mindset,itwasnotonl yt hei nter
netbecausei ti
sher
whoi stobebl amedf ull
yf orheracti
onsbecauset he
i
nterneteducat esit
supt oy ouandy ourmi ndsetto
knowhowy outaket het eachi ng.
Lawyer:Iknowy ou'vebeenhav ingchallengeswi t
h
bei
ngabl etobepr egnantandt hedoct orshadt ol
d
youthatyouwoul dn'tbeabletocarryababy ,you'
ve
had2mi scarr
iagesandl ossof3children.Youhav e
beenusingJnrasar eplacementofy ourdeceased
chi
ldren.Youarenowcar ryi
ngquads, won'tthat
makey outreatJnrdi f
ferent
lyandpayl essattenti
on
tohim becausehei snoty ourson
TosaythatIwasn'
texpect
ingthi
swoul
dbeal i
e,I
knewtheywouldusethi
sagainstmebutIdi
dn'
t
knowt
heyhadsomuchi
nfor
mat
ionaboutme
Me: Jnri
smysonwhet herwear eoft hesamebl ood
ornot.YesIam pregnantandJnrwi llbet r
eatedthe
samewayhei snow,hewi l
lrecei
vet hecar eand
l
oveheneedsandIwi ll
continuetobet hegood
mom Iam t ohimfortherestofhislife.Ihavenot
beenusinghim asareplacement,Ilov edand
acceptedjnrasmyownbef oreIevenknewIcoul dn't
havebabies.
Lawy
er:Doy
out hi
nkachi
l
dshoul
dbesepar
ated
fr
om hi
smother
?
Me:
(si
ghs)No
Lawy
er:
Thatwoul
dbeal
l
.Thanky
ouy
ourhonor
.
I'
m gladhedidn'
tgofur t
herwithhisquesti
onsand
wedi dn'
tgettot
hepoi ntwher eIwouldbeont he
edge.Thecasecont i
nued, t
urnsoutthatallt
histi
me
Orati
lewasatapsy chiatr
ichospit
alandshehad
beenkepttheresi
nceshehadl osthermindabi tand
neededtobeexami ned.Af t
erthati
twasdi scover
ed
thatshewasondr ugsandhadmanydebt s,tome
thatj
ustgavememor ereasonswhymyson
shouldn'
tbegiv
ent
oherbecausehewoul
dbei
n
greatdanger
.
Thedoct or'ssayt hatshe'sokayandhasbeenf ull
y
tr
eat edandheal edbutIdonott rustheronebi t
.She
woul dhar m mysonatany ti
meorev enjustl eave
him alonewhenshegoesoutandbehav elikeahoe.
Iwi l
lnott aket hatriskwi t
hmyson, Ifeel f
orherand
dowantJnrt oknowhi smot herbuthi m stayingwi t
h
herwoul dbet hewor st
,Idon' twantmysont oend
upbei ngal owl i
fe,Idon'
twantt odr i
v earoundt he
streetsandseehi mi nthecor ner ssmoki ngal lthese
drugs.I thurt stoseeot herkidssl eepingont he
streets,howmuchmor ewoul di thur tifyou' dsee
yours.IwantJnrt ogot oschool andgetagood
educat ion,got ouniver
sityandbecomeasuccessf ul
youngman, Iwanthi mtobesel fdr ivenandbel ike
hisfat her.Iwantwhat '
sbestf orhi m andt hat '
swhat
hewi llget ,
thebestonl y .Thej udgewi llannouncehi s
decisiononThur sdaythisweek.Onourwayback
homePhi l
awasv erysi
lentandhewasj ustonhi s
ownt hought s
Me:
Ever
ythi
ngokay
?
Phi
la:
Yes Thankyouforwhaty
oudi
dtodayand
youwerer
eal
l
ygoodther
e
Me: Thankyou.Cany
ougetmesomeRi
bspl
ease
I
'm hungry.
WepassedatSpurandIgotmyr
ibs
Phil
a:Howdi
dy oufeelwhentheyt
alkedaboutour
babi
es?Theonesthathavepassed
Me:
Idon'
tknowact
ual
l
y,Ihav
eheal
edPhi
l
a
Phil
a:I
tjustremindedmeofmanyt hi
ngs,we'
ve
beenthroughalotSiyamt
handa.Thankyoufor
standi
ngmysi de.
WegothomeandJnrcamer
unni
ngt
ous.
Phil
a:Let
'stakeJnrtot
heplaycent
er.Iwantt
opass
bythemall,
there'
sasneakerIsawforJnrIj
ust
don'
trememberwhi chst
orewasiti
n.
Me:
Okayletmegochanget
heseheel
sandt
akeof
t
hecoat
Phi
l
a:Youwon'
tchanget
hedr
ess?
Me:
Nowhy
Phi
l
a:It
hinky
oushoul
d
Me:
Why
?
Phil
a:It
sshowi
ngy ourbody
,it
stoot
ight
,it
s
showingoffmyassets.
Me: Phi
l
athisdressisnotti
ght,wel
litwasn'tthelast
ti
meIwor eit
.I'
m pregnantFuzesoitsjustgetti
ng
ti
ghtbecauseI'
m gaini
ngweight.I
'm notgoingto
change
Hej
ustnoddedandgoti
rr
it
ated
Me:
IseeI
'
m nott
heonl
yoneget
ti
ngmoodswi
ngs
Imumbl edandhest oppedwal
ki
ng.Hewasi nf
ront
ofmesoIcoul dn'
treall
yseehi
sfaci
alexpr
essi
on
proper
ly
Phi
l
a:Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay
?
Me:
Not
hing.Il
ovey
ou
Iqui
cklyki
ssedhi
scheekandwal kedfastertot
he
room.Iendedupchangi
ngmydr ess,don'taskhow
hemademechangemymi nd,i
tsasecr etthat
remai
nsbehindcl
oseddoors wewentt oget
JnrsJordan'
sandtheywerev eryexpensi
veand
custom made,Ionl
yknew" DunusaShops"whenI
grewup.Thenewbor nsar
ev erypri
vil
egedwithsuch
digni
tyandrest
orati
on.Wef i
nishedourshopping
andgotsomet akeawaysthatwe'deatwhenweget
home.
Phi
l
a:Doy
out
hinki
tst
rue?
Me:
Whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Phi
l
a:AboutOr
ati
l
ebei
ngment
all
ydi
stur
bed?
Me:Idon'
tknow,Idon'
tthi
nkt
hey
'dact
ual
l
yjustl
i
ke
aboutt
hat.Maybeit
'
strue
Phil
a: It
hinki
tsjustanexcuse,she'
susi
ngt hisso
thejudgescanpi t
yheranddon'tpayatt
enti
ont othe
factthatshej
ustleftherchi
ld.They
'l
lj
ustthinkshe
wasn'tinherri
ghtsenseswhenshedi dthat
Me:Ididn'
tthinkofi
tthatway .Nowt hatyou
menti
oni t
,itmightworkforherandi tmightnot.
Ther
e'sa50/ 50chanceofthis.Ijusthopeitdoesn'
t
workoutotherwisewecouldj ustlooseJnr
Phi
l
a:Thatwon'
thappen.I
'
dnev
eral
l
owt
hatt
o
happen,Jnrismysonandnoonewi ll
takehi
m away
fr
om menorwi ll
any onet
akehi
m awayfrom you,hi
s
mother.Oratil
eisjustsomest
rangert
hatdoesn't
exi
sttous, she'
sdead
Me:
Wow
Phil
a:Don'
tseem sur
pri
sedoramazedabouti
t
causewhatI'
m sayi
ngistr
ue
Me:
Youhav esomuchhat
e y
ou'
react
ual
l
y
f
umingr
ightnow
Phil
a:youl
aughi
ngatme ofcauseI
'
m angr
y.
Wheredoesshegett
hener
vet
oeventakemeto
court
Me:
Wel
lshedi
dit
Phi
l
a:I
fitwer
en'
tfory
ou,
Iwoul
d'
veki
l
ledher
Ij
ustkeptquietandwegothomeaf terafew
minutes.It
ookashowerandchangedi ntomy
pyj
amasi t'
sjust5pm butI
'mjustfeel
ingli
kewear i
ng
myPJsandst ayi
nginbed,mylegsar everyheavy
andswol l
ensowal ki
ngaroundisnotanopt ion.My
nextdoctorsappoint
mentisin3dayssoi sthenext
courtdate.Ihavet oreschedul
ethetimef ormy
doctorsappointmentsoi twon'tcl
ashwi t
ht hecourt
ti
me.I'ml ooki
ngf orwardtobotheventsandIknow
forsurethatI'
m ner v
ousabouti t
.Fir
stl
yIhav eto
fi
ndouti fOrati
lehaswont hecaseornotandwi l
l
hopefull
yf i
ndoutt hegenderofmybabi es t hat
partIam justveryexcitedaboutyetI'
m nervous .I
hopeev eryt
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vebeenwai ti
ngfor,
forthepast
fewday s.Phil
ahasbeensoi mpati
entandhewant s
togetthisoveranddonewi t
h.Idon'
tknowhowI
feel
aboutt hi
sbutI'
mj ustnumbandwanti ttoend.
We'repreparedandreadytogo.Phil
asaidhewi l
l
meetusi ncourtashehadameet i
ngtorushtoso
mydr iverisdr i
vingmet ocour t,
Jnri scomi ngwi t
h
todayandIdon' tknowwhymay bet hey'l
l j
usttake
him awayf rom mer ightt here.I'
v ebeenhol dinghim
ti
ght lynotwant ingt ol etgoev enwhenhej ustwants
topl ayout side,Iev enmakehi m sl eepwi thusand
Philat hinksI'mj ustov erreacti
ngaboutt heent ir
e
sit
uat ion.Idon' tknowwhyhei sbei ngsor elaxed
aboutt hisandt hatwor ri
esmeev enmor e.Youknow
backwhenIwasi nhi ghschool andcameback
l
ate t heday swher eI 'm chil
ledandl i
ke" Mom
won' tdoany thi
ng"waswhenIwoul dgethomeand
actual lygetint rouble, theday swher eIpani c
nothi nghappenswhenIgethome.SoPhi l
abeingso
chil
ledmakesmewor ry ,
callmei nsecureor
delusi onalbuti tiswhati ti
sam I '
m suresomeof
youhav eexperiencedt hi
s Wepar kednextt o
Phila'scart hatheusedt hismor ningwhi chshowed
hewasher eal ready .Hecameandopenedt hedoor
formewhi chmademel augh
Phi
l
a:MyQueen
Me: what
'swi
thy
ou?
Phi
l
a:Not
hing,
I'
vej
ustmi
ssedy
ou .ComeJnr
Hecar riedJnrandwewal kedintothecour troom,
Oratil
ekeptl ookingatPhi l
acar r
y i
ngJunior.Shekept
onwi pinghercheeksandIf i
guredshewascr y
ing.I
feltali
ttlehear tbrokenbyt hi
sandIcoul dn'treall
y
understandwhy .Myemot i
onsar ejustal
l overthe
placelat el
yandt hehor monesar eplayi
ngmel ikea
soccerbal l.TheJudgef ir
stbriefedusandt al
ked
aboutthet rail
itwast hereforeannouncedt hat
Oratil
edoesnotgetf ullcustody
Judge: MsOrati
lewil
lnotbegett
ingf ullcustody
overLesleyJnrhowevershewil
lbeal lowedt ospend
twoday swithhi
mi naweekwi t
ht hesuper visi
onof
MrnMr sNgcobo, Nosl
eepover
sorv isitati
onswill
bewi thoutMrNgcobobeingnotifi
ed.I fMrNgcobo
fai
lstomaket hi
spossibl
e,MsOr ati
lehasachance
ofgetti
ngtosharecustodyofJnrwithMrNgcobo.
Court
room adjourned
Weal
lri
sedandt
hej
udgel
eft
.
Phi
la:Thi
siscr
ap,sheshoul
dn'
thavet
oev engett
o
seeJnr.Whoknowswhatnonsensewi
llshetel
lhi
m!
Me:Wedon'tknowbutwe'
ll
bet
her
etosuper
viseso
not
hingt
hatbadcanhappen
Phi
la:WhatIknowi
sthatshewon'
tbeseei
nghi
m
andthat
'sf
inal
Me:Thatmeansy oual l
owinghertogetful
lcust
ody
ofmyson!AndIwi llnothavethathappeni
ng.You
bett
erputally
ourf eeli
ngsasideandt hi
nkofthe
consequencesthatmi ghtfol
lowifyoudothat
nonsense!
ItookJnrandwewentt
othecarandIt
oldmydr
iver
todri
veoff
Dr
iver
:MrNgcobowant
smet
ost
opt
hecar
Me:WellIwantyoutocont
inuedr
ivi
ng.Youbet
ter
deci
de.I
fyoustopthi
scar,youl
ooseyourj
ob!
Hest
oppedthecarandIwasf
umi
ng!Phi
l
agoti
n
t
hecarwhi
leij
ustgotout
Phi
l
a:Whaty
oudoi
ngi
sver
yst
upi
d!Geti
nthecar
Me:
I'
m notdoi
ngt
hat
!I'
drat
herj
ustwal
k!
Icont
inuedwal
ki
ngandhewasdriv
ingsl
owl
ynext
tomeandIwassoirr
it
ated!I
'
m gl
adJnri
ssl
eepi
ng
sohedoesn'tgettoseet henonsensethat'
s
happeni
ngrightnowandi t
'
sbecauseofhi sfat
her
whodoesn'twantt othi
nk!Idi
dn'tnot
icetherock
thatwasinfrontofmeandIt ri
ppedandf ell
hit
ting
mybackont hegr ound
Me:
Ouch!
Iwasalr
eadycr
yingwhenPhi
l
aandonebody
guar
d
camerunni
ngtome
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
DoIl
ookl
i
keI
'
m okay
!Getof
fme
Phi
la:
Stopbeingst
ubbor
nandl
etmehel
pyou
Si
yamthanda
Me:
Nogetof
fme!
Phi
la:
Youmakingmefuckenangr
yrightnow!Shut
upandletmehel
pyou.Youpr
egnantremember?
Hecarr
iedmeupandputi
nthecarwi
thaseat
bel
t
t
ight
ened
Me:
I'
m notcomf
ort
abl
e
Phi
l
a:I
t'
snotf
orcomf
ort
,it
'
sforsaf
etysodeal
wit
h
i
t
Me:
Idon'
tgetwhyy
ouupsetcauseIshoul
dbe
Phi
la:Whatyoudi
dwasveryst
upiddanger
ousf or
bot
hy ounthebabi
essoIdon'
tunder
standthatthe
hel
lyouwerethi
nki
ng
Me:
Itr
ippedandf
ell
!Itwasn'
tmyf
aul
t
Phi
la:i
fyouhadn'
tgotoutoft
hiscarf
ir
stpl
acet
his
wouldn'
thav
ehappened
Ij
ustkeptqui
etandletmyt ear
sf al
l
.Hel
ookedat
meandi t
sli
kehedidn'tev
encar e.
Phil
a:Youwanttogohomeandchangeorgot
othe
doctorl
ooki
ngli
kethat
?
Me:
Iwannagohome
Hedrovehome,whenwegottherehedidn'tev
en
openthedoorf
orme,hewassoupsetIdi dn'
teven
knowwhattodo.HetookJnrandtheyplaceda
gameonhisphone
Me:
Younotgoi
ngi
n?
Phi
l
a:No
Hedi
devenlookatme,
Itur
nedaroundandwalked
t
othedoor
.WhenIwasabouttoenterhecal
l
edme
Phi
l
a:Si
yamt
handa
Il
ookedathi
m
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ou
Ifeltmytearsfall
ingandIcouldn'tholdt hem back,
I
wentt omyr oom.Ilookhorri
ble,I
'mt akingashower
sohej usthast owaitabitl
onger.Inanhouranda
halfIwasdoneandImadesomef oodf ormyself
andwentt ot hecar,Idi
dseeplatesi nthesinkso
theycamei nandat ewhileIwasbusy .
Me:
Let
'sgo,
didy
oueatJnr
?
Jnr
:Yesmom andIf
ini
shedmyf
ood
Me:
Goodboy
.
Phi
l
a:Won'
tyouaski
fIat
e?
Me:
Youcanst
arv
eyour
sel
fIdon'
tcar
e
Phi
l
a:Youst
il
lmadatme?
Me:
No
Wegott
othehospi
tal
andwai
tedf
or30mi
nut
esand
Nay
ecame
Nay
e:Im sor
ryf
orbei
ngthi
slat
eguys,
hadt
obeat
Emi
hlesschool
tosor
toutafewthi
ngs
Me:
Arey
ouonadi
et?
Nay
e:Nowhy
?
Me:Youlookthi
n,y
oul
oosi
ngwei
ghtsweet
hear
t.
Ev
eryt
hingokay?
Shef akedal aughandsai devery
thi
ngisokay,that'
s
wher eIjustknewnot hi
ngwasokay .I'
l
ltal
ktoher
aft
erwe' redoneandwi thoutPhil
abeinghere.Ilai
d
onthebedaswedoi nourmont hl
yrouti
neandshe
checkedi feveryt
hingisinorderwit
hmeandt he
babies.
Naye:
Thisissocut
e,y
ouguy
swi
l
lbehav
ing3boy
s
andonegir
l
Me:I
'
m sohappy onl yonegi
rl
?She'
l
lbe
mommiespri
ncesses
Phi
l
a:I
'
m hav
ingasoccert
eam Jnrwi l
lhav
eso
muchf
unwit
hhissi
bli
ngs.Ther
e'l
lbeonl
ytwo
f
emalesi
nahousef
il
led5mal
es goodl
uckwi
th
t
hatbabe
Me:Nowwehav
etocomeupwi t
hbabynames.My
l
it
tl
efami
ly We'r
esobl
essed
Phi
l
a:I
ndeedwear
e.
Wef i
nishedupandhear
dthehear
tbeat
sandgott
he
babyscans
Phil
a:We'
lll
eav
eyougi
rl
sal
one,t
her
e'ssomewhereI
needtogettor
eal
qui
ckandI
'l
lcomepickyouup
Siy
a
Me:
Okaybabe.
Theylef
tandIl
ookedatNay
ewant
ingsome
answers
Nay
e:Whyar
eyoul
ooki
ngatmel
i
ket
hat
?
Me:
Whydi
dyoul
i
eandsayev
ery
thi
ngi
s"okay
"?
Nay
e:Idi
dn'
tl
ie.
Me:Tell
thattosomeonewhodoesn'
tknowy
ou.You
bet
terst
arttal
ki
ngNaye
Nay
e:Okayf
ine,
I'
vej
ustbeenst
ressedoutbutI
sor
tedt
hingsout
.
Me:Whatwasst
ressingyou?Whydon'
tIknow
abouty
oubei
ngstressed?Ihav
etofi
ndoutby
seei
ngyoul
ookl
ikeaneedle,whydi
dn'
tyoutel
lme
Naye:I
'
vebeenst
ruggl
ingf
inanci
all
ytot
hepoi
nt
whereIhadt
ogetEmihlet
ochangeschool
s
Me:What!Andy
oudi
dn'
ttel
lmet
hat
!Icoul
d'
ve
hel
pedyou
Naye: Youhav eyourownf ami l
ytot akecar eof f
besidesInev erwantt obeanui sancet opeopl e.I'
ve
sorteditoutt hough.Turnsoutemi hlesfatherhadso
manydebt sandIhadt opayf orthem nowsi ncehi s
familyclaimedt hatIwasf i
nishinghi smoneysoi
paidhisf i
rstdebtwhicht ookalmostt hreequar ter
s
ofmysal ary
Me:Whydi
dyoudothat
?Youweresupposedt
otel
l
us,
weyourf
ri
endsandwewoul
d'
vehelpedyouout
.
Naye:Igotalawyer,Mphohel
pedmeoutandIdon' t
havetopayforanythi
ngnow.Emihlewentbackto
herprevi
ousschoolandI'
m sor
ted.I
'mjustwai
ti
ng
fort
hismonthssalarysoIcansortmysel
foutand
f
att
enup.Justt
ofocusonmeandmydaught
er
Me:That'
sgood,
doy
ouneedany
thi
ng?Doy
ouhav
e
gr
oceri
esetc
Naye:YesIdoSi y amthanda don'twor r
yaboutme
I'
m okay.Idon'twantany oneel
seknowingabout
thi
splease.Mphowasgoi ngt
otelNkosibutI
beggedhim nott o,heendedupnottell
inghim butI
knowhewi llsoon.
Me: I
'm gl
ady ougothelp,y
oushoul
dcutal
lti
eswi
th
thatfamil
y.Theydon'tevenwantt
hei
r
granddaughter
Naye:Tellmeaboutit
,I'
mjustfocusi
ngonmy
daughternowandfixi
ngmy sel
fup,Iwantnot
hingy
o
dowiththosepeopl
e.
Wecont i
nuedchatti
ngandcall
edSnehandhada
l
ongconv ersat
ion.Phil
acamet opi
ckmeupaf ter
2hoursandhehadal readyboughtt
akeaway
sf or
toni
ghtsowhenwegothomeIwar medthem up
thendishedupf orev
eryone.
Jnr
:Idon'
tl
iket
his
Jnrhasnev erbeenaf anofv eggi
es Ial way sfor
ce
himt oeat
,feedinghi m hasbecomeav eryhardjob,
her unsar
oundt hehouseandhei sverypickyon
whatheeat s.Itbecomesahassl eformebecause
there'
sthi
sonet imeIhadt ocookagai nbecausehe
hatedmashedpot atoesandgr avy.Aft
erhav i
ng
supperIwashedt hedi shesandwentt obat heJnr
andgothimr eadyf orbed.Hef el
lasl
eepassoonas
Ituckedhimi n.Itwasst i
ll
just7pm soPhi l
aandI
decidedtowat chamov iewewat ched"Whatt o
expectwheny ou'r
eexpect ing"
Phi
l
a:Dower
eal
l
yhav
etowat
chi
t?
Me:
Yes
Phi
l
a:I'
mreall
ybor
ed,
sobabel
et'
scomeupwi
th
2moreboynames
Me:Sothegi
rl
sKhany
akwezwe,
theni
t'
sMnqobi
so
weneedtwomore
Phi
l
a:I
t'
s4si
ncewewantt
heEngl
i
shnames
Me:okaysowhatar
eyout
hinki
ngof
,youknowI
m
nott
hatgoodi
nbabynami
ng
Phi
l
a:May
beNgceboCl
i
ntonNgcobo
Me:That'
sper
fect andt
hel
astboywi
l
lbePhi
l
a
Bennet
tNgcobo
Phil
a:That'
sal
sof
ine t
hiswaseasi
ert
hanI
thoughti
twoul
dbe
Me: YeahIguessallwehav
etodonowi
swai
t
f
ort
hebabi
estoarr
ive
Phi
l
a:Wantababyshower
?
Me:
Idon'
tthi
nkt
hat
'
snessesar
y
Phi
l
a:Whynot
?
Me:Idon'
tknowIj
ustdon'
tfeel
li
kei
tsnessesar
y
babe
Phi
la:
Okaybuti
tisgoi
ngt
ohappen.I
'
llgetSneht
o
pl
anever
ythi
ng
Me:
OkayMrNgcobo
Phi
la:
You'
resti
l
ljust3mont
hspr
egnant
,whenwi
l
l
yougi
vebi
rthwoman
Me: I
tscl
oset
o4mont
hsnowPhi
l
abepat
ient
Phi
l
a:Iwantt
oseemybabi
esal
ready
Me:
Andy
ouwi
l
l
Wecont inuedt al
kingf orawhi l
eaboutourf ut ure
plansandhowwegoi ngt ohav eshi ft
swithcar ryi
ng
thebabi es It hinki twi l
l beabi tdiffi
cul
tatf i
rstbut
we'llwor kthroughi t.Wi l
l Ibreastf eed?Whati fthey
allcryatonce orwhati ftheboy sareidenticaland
Ican'tev entellwho' swho al lthatjustscaresme.
Ihopet hey '
llunderst andt hatIonl yhav etwoboobs
andnotf our.Wi l
ltheyev enl ooklikemeort hey'll
l
ookl ikePhi l
asande.Wi l
l Jnrunder standthathehas
sibli
ngsnowandhei snott heonlychi l
dany mor e.I
j
usthav esomanyquest i
onsi nmyheadandonl yt he
futurehol dstheanswer st oallthis.Themov i
e
endedandwewer en'tev enpay ingmuchat tentiont o
i
tany way s.Wewentt obedandi layedmyheadon
hischest
Phi
l
a:Sowi
l
lyougi
vebi
rt
hnat
ural
l
y?
Me:IwouldlovetobutIt
hinkt
hatitmightcause
manycomplicati
onsduetomysituat
ionyouknow.
ButI
'l
ltal
ktoNay eandfi
ndout.
Phi
l
a:Okaybabewel
lI
'mfinewit
hwhi
chev
erwayas
l
ongasmybabieswi
llbeokay
Me:Andy
ouwon'tevenbegoi
ngthr
oughthepai
nI
wi
ll
begoingt
hroughsoit
seasyf
oryoutosayso
Phi
l
a:I
'
llbet
her
ewi
thy
ou
Me:
Noy
ouwon'
t,
Idon'
twanty
oui
nther
e
Phi
l
a:Why
?
Me:You'l
lbetraumati
zed t hevideosI'
vewat
ched
i
t'
sjusthorr
ibl
e,youcan'
tseethatIref
use
Phi
la:
Whydidy
oudot
hat I
'
m sur
eitwas
di
sgusti
ng
Me:Ver
y Iwasl
ooki
ngatanot
herwoman'
svi
rgi
na
st
ret
ch
Phi
la:
OkayenoughIdon'
twantt
ohearaboutt
his
anymore
Me:
okayokayf
inewe'
redonewi
tht
his
Weweresil
entf
orawhileandwehear
dJnrcry
ing.
Phi
l
awenttofetchhi
mf r
om hi
sroom.Hesai
dhe
washav
inganightmar
eandhewantedtosl
eepwit
h
us.Igavehi
m watert
odri
nkf
ir
standt
henlethi
mlay
i
nbet weenus.Hewasver
ysweat
ysoItookofhi
s
pyj
amat op.
Phi
l
a:Comi
ngt
othi
nkofi
t,weneedt
ogetbabycot
s
Me:Weneedtoj
usthav
eanur
ser
ycauset
heycan'
t
al
lsl
eepwi
thus.
Phil
a:Wherewi
llt
hatbe?Whydon' tweext endJnrs
room,removet
hewal l
andconnectt hespareroom
withJnrsr
oom soitwil
lbeconnectedwithourroom
Me:That'
sagoodi
dea.I
thast
obedoneassoonas
possi
ble.
Phi
l
a:They
'l
lbest
art
ingt
omor
row.
Me:
Idi
dn'
tthi
nki
twi
l
lbet
hatsoon
Phil
a:Thesoonerthebet
terbabe.Idon'
twant
anyt
hinggoi
ngwr ongordoingthi
ngsatthelast
minute
Me:Iunderst
and.Iguessifther
e'smorespacewe
canfi
tallt
hebabycotsinandJnr sbedplus
ever
ythi
ngelsethatwe'
llneed.
Phi
l
a:Soy
ouhav
etogodosomeshoppi
ngwi
thy
our
f
ri
ends
Me:
Whydon'
tIgowi
thy
ou?
Phil
a:Iwasgoingt
otelly
outhistomorrowbutI
mightaswellj
ustt
elly
ounow.I '
l
lbewor ki
ngalot
fort
henexttwomonths,Ican'
tmi ssanydayandI
'l
l
begoingtoJo'
burgandFreeStatebutIdon'
tknow
when
Me:
Soy
ouwon'
tbear
oundal
ot?
Phi
la:
Dur
ingt
hedayandt
heweekswhenI
'
llbe
away
Me:
Okaybabe,
we'
l
lmi
ssy
ou
Phi
l
a:I
'
llcal
lyouev
ery30mi
nut
es
Me: Okaythat
'sokayt
oo.Iwantt
osl
eepnow
babeI
'
m sl
eepy
Phi
l
a:Lal
ekahl
eMaFuze
Iki
ssedhi
m andcl
osedmyey
es

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Inser
t70
Tosayt hingshav en'tbeendi ff
icultwouldbean
understatement ,I'
v ewentt hroughsomuchandI
thankGodf orbeingwi thmeandmyf amily.Forthe
pastthreemont hsI 'v
ehadt odeal withmyheav y
pregnancy ,
I'vegai nedsomuchwei ghtandy esIlook
l
ikeahi ppo.Ididn' tknowt hatI
'dlookl i
ket hisatonly
sixmont hs,ifsomeonewhodoesntknowmewoul d
seemet hey'dthinkI '
m ov erduey etI'
mj ustst i
l
l
6mont hspregnant .Philahasbeenv erybusybuthe
alwaysmadesur ehecomeshomeev erynight,
whenev erhewasawayhe' dcallevery30mi nsli
kehe
promisedt odo.Ihav en'tf
eltanygapordi stance
becausehewasawayf or3weeks, heonl ycame
backonweekendsorj ustoneSat urdayandhe' dfly
backSundaymor ni ng.Thewor stpartofthepast
threemont hshasbeenbei ngunderoner oofwi th
Oratil
e, shesbeencomi ngev er yweekendsoear lyin
themor ning,she'sbeenpl ayingt heper fectmom t o
Jnrandt heygetal ongv erywel l whi chhasmademe
feelsosadbutmyJnrhasnev ermademef eell
ike
shei smor eimpor t
antt hanme.IwonderhowJnr
doesi t,hisjustaoney earol dy etitseemsasi fhe
under standst hesi tuation.Somet imesIl ookatt hem
andseet her esembl ancebet weent hem, theyhav ea
mot herandchi ldconnect ion, ashar dasi ti sIhav e
toaccepti tbecauseJnrdeser vest oknowt het r
ut h
andknowhi smot her .Ijusthopeonedayhedoesn' t
growandwantt ogost aywi t
hOr atil
e, Iwoul dcry .
Oratil
ebuy shi m clothes, t oysandsomegr oceries
andgoodi esf orhi m, wet alkher eandt her ebutwe
haven' thadaf ul
l blownconv er sat i
on.She' sonce
hadanar gumentwi thPhi labutIst oppedt hem, that
dayshewant edt osl eepov erorgohomewi thJnr.
Myf riendshav ebeenv erysuppor t
iveofmeandt hey
usuallycameov erf oragi rlsni ghtwhi cht urnedi nto
agirlsweek i t
'sgoodt oknowt haty ouhav etrue
fri
endswhoy oucanl eanonwhenev ery ouneed
them.Nay eisbackonherf eetandev er ythingis
workingoutper f
ect lyforher .Mymot heral sodi d
comet oseemeaweekagoandwehadmot herand
daught erqual it
yt i
me, she' sv erymuchi nlov ewi th
thebabynamesPhi l
aandIhav ecameupwi thandI
l
ov et hem t oo.Thenur ser yt ookt imet of i
nish
becausePhi l
awant edev erythingt obeper fect,he
plannedanddesi gnedt her oom t hanhi swor kersdi d
av erygoodj ob, t
her oom accommodat esbot hgi rl
s
andboy st heme, Idon' twantmyonl ydaught erto
growupanddi sli
ket henur ser ybecausei tsfil
led
withboyst uff .Phi laandIhav eal r
eadymade
futurepl ans,we' veal readysel ectedt heroomst hey '
l
l
useoncet heyar eol denought ohav etheirown
rooms.Jnrwi l
l bemov ingoutoft hejointroom once
hei s4.I '
m sur eitwi llbeear li
er,Jnri sjustgrowi ng
toof astsomay beatt hr eehewoul djustwantt obe
i
nhi sownr oom nott oshar ear oom wi thhis
sibli
ngs.Iwonderi ft hequadswi l
l wanttohav etheir
ownr oomswhent heygr owol d.Toni ghtPhi l
ais
comi ngbackandi twi llbet hef ir
stt i
meheseest he
nurser yfullycompl etedbutwi thoutt hecot s,
toyset c
west i
llneedt ogoshoppi ngf ort hat.Ihavepl anned
tocookhi m hisf av oritemeal ,prepar eani cehot
bubbl eforhi m andj ustl ethi mr elaxandt ellme
abouthi strip.Whenev erhet alkstomeandt ellsme
aboutwor k.Ialway shav et hisf eel
ingofmi ssi ng
wor kandwi shingIcoul dgoback, ifIwasn' t
pregnantI '
ddef i
nitelygobackt owor kcauseJnri s
grownnowandheget sal ongwel l
wi thMav i
ssoI
woul dn'thavet hef earofl eav i
nghi m wi t
hsome
strangerandsomeonewhohei snotf amiliarwi th.
Philadi dsuggestwegetanannyt hatwi llhelpme
oncehegoesbackt owor kbutwehav emany
femal ehelper sint hishouset hatwhocanhel pme
andear nmor et hanj ustgoi ngt ohireanot hernanny
whi chi stotallyunnecessar y.IknowI '
llneedt hehelp
butwehav ehelper sher ewhoIsomet imesdon' t
evenseewhatt heydoexact l
ysoI '
lltaket hem and
they '
llhelpme.I 'mj ustner vousaboutt he
breast feedingpar t Godhel pme.I '
m wai t
ingf or
Sneht oar ri
v esowecangot ot hemal landdosome
shoppi ngplusgr ocer i
es, Iwant edtogoonmyown
butPhi lawasn' thav ingnonoft hat
.Sot hat'swhyI
calledSnehsoshecangowi thmepl uswe' llbe
hav ingmybody guar dswi thus.Inowhav e
3body guardswhi chIt hinki t'sjustsounnecessar y
andi tgrabssomuchat tent i
onIwonderhow
Philasandedoesi t,hehas9ar medbody guardswith
him whi chIal sodon' tknowwhyhehassomany
body guardsbuthesay sit
'sf orsaf ety,Ichooset o
trusthi m whenhesay sit'
sj ustsecur ityr easonsand
theresnoot herr easonbehi ndi t.Idon' twantt o
wakeupandhav eagunonmyheadandhi m being
heldhost ageIknowI 'm overt hinkingorj ustbeing
i
nsecur ebutIdon' twantt hatt ohappen.Idon' twant
mychi l
drent ogr owupandseegunsandweapons
i
nhi ddenpl aces, t
herewi l
lbeat imewher eI'
ll
i
nt r
oduceweaponst othem butnotwhi lsttheygrow
may beat20or22whent hey '
vemat ur edenoughand
theycanhandl eagun.Iusedt osayIwannamar rya
drugl ordwhenIwasy oungwel lInev ert houghtI '
d
datePhi laorev enmar ryhim att hattime Iusedt o
l
ov edanger oust hingsandIst il
l doabi tbutI'vedid
almostev erythingI'vewant edt odosoI 'lll
etmy
childr enexper iencel i
feanddowhatt heywantt odo
butsomet hingIappr oveof .Snehar ri
v edandmy
driverdr ov eust othemal l,Jnrwant edt ost aybehi nd
andwat chhi scar t
oonssoIdi dn'tforcehi m along.
Sneh:
Weshoul
dst
artwi
tht
hegr
ocer
iesandt
hendo
t
hecl
othi
ngshoppi
ngt
il
lourf
eethur
t
Me:Seemsliket
hatwil
lbei
njust15mi
nscausemy
f
eetareal
readyswol
len.
Sneh:
Isi
tpai
nful
?
Me:No,j
usti
tchy
.That
'swhyIj
ustwearmyf
li
p-
fl
opsandnosocks,
Idon'
twantt
ohavesmel
ly
sweat
ingf
eet.
Wel aughedandcont inuedtalki
ngwhil
eshopping
doingt hegroceryshopping,
Iboughtever
ythi
ngI
needf ortonight
smeal
Sneh:Soy
ousayyouwantt
ogi
vePhi
l
aawel
come
backhomepar
ty?
Me:IknowthatlookSnehandi
t'
snotapar t
ybutI
'm
j
ustdoingsomethinggoodf
orhi
m sincehehasn'
t
beenhomef oraweekandhewon'tbetrav
eli
ng
anyt
imesoon.
Sneh:Sowhydon'
tyouwearsomesexyl
i
nger
ieand
perf
orm al
i
ttl
eshowforhi
m
Me:Youcr
azy howwi
l
lIev
enl
ookwi
thl
i
nger
ie
onandmybigbel
l
y
Sneh:
You'
l
llookv
erysexy
,thehotpr
egmama
Me:
Youj
ustf
ull
ofnonsenseI
'
m notdoi
ngt
hat
Welaughedandcontinuedshoppi
ng.Whenwegot
outofChecker
swebumpedi nt
osomeoneIhav en'
t
seeninaveryver
ylongtime.Thebodyguar
dscame
cl
oserandstoodinfr
ontofmeashecamecl oser
Me:
Don'
twor
ry,
Iknowhi
m.
Sneh:
Idi
dn'
tev
enr
ecogni
zehi
m.
Hecamecl
oserandgr
eet
edus
Mongezi
:Ladi
es,
itsbeenawhi
l
e.
Me:
Sur
ehasbeen,
howar
eyou?
Mongezi
:I'
m goodny
our
sel
f?
Sneh:We'
rev
erywell
thanky
ou.Youhav
en'
t
changedabi
tIsee
Mongezi:
Ther enotmuchchange,I
'm st
il
lthesame
shyguyyouknow.Iseetheresalotofchangewith
youSiy
amt handa?
Me:
Yesasy
oucanseeI
'
m expect
ing.
Mongezi
:Boyorgi
rl
?
Me:
Quads,
thr
eeboy
sandonegi
rl
.
Mongezi
:Wow t hat'
samazingwell
I'
ll
seey ou
ar
oundladi
es.Congrat
ulat
ionsony
ourpregnancy.
Sneh:
Ohokaygoodby
e
Me:
Thanky
ou
Hetur
nedandwalkedt
osomegi
rlwhohehel
dher
wai
standki
ssedher
Me:
Seemsl
i
kehei
sinaser
iousr
elat
ionshi
p
Sneh:
Wai
t.
.Woahi
sthatAmanda?
Me:
Noway
!It
'sr
eal
l
yher
Sneh:
Thegi
rl
sneedt
oseet
his!
Shetookoutherphoneandt ookapict
ure she
di
dntevenhidethatshe'
stakingone
Me:
Theywoul
d'
veseeny
ou
Sneh:Theywoul
dn'tdoany
thi
ngabouti
t,t
hisi
smy
phoneandIcantakeapict
ureofwhat
everand
whoeverIwantt
o.
Me:
Igi
veupony
ou
Sneh:
Yougaveuptoosoonsweety.Nowl
et'
sgo
l
ookfort
hatl
i
ngeri
ewet al
kedabout
Me:
Nol
i
nger
iewi
l
lforme
Sneh:
I'
m notl
i
steni
ngt
oyou
Wegott ot
hebout
iqueandl
ookedaround.Isawa
sexybl
acknumberbuti
twasveryobvi
ousthati
t
won'tf
it
.
Me:
Thi
sonei
sper
fectbuti
twon'
tfi
t,I
'
m huge
r
emember
Sneh:That
'swhywe'
l
ltaket
hebi
ggestsi
zet
hey
have
Me:
Whi
chi
spr
obabl
ymedi
um si
ze
Sneh:
Her
e'sXXl
Me:Nev
erhav
eIevert
houghtt
hatonedayI
'
dbe
t
ryi
ngonsi
zeXXL.
Iwenttothefi
tt
ingroom andi
tfi
tt
edperfectl
y
thoughIt
hinkIlookhi
deous Sneh:Yep
we'ret
aki
ngthisone
Me:Thisonei
sfi
nenowl
et'
sgetoutofher
e.I
'
m
hungr
y
Sneh:Theothersarej
oiningusforlunchI'
m sure
theyher
ealr
eady ,
Itol
dt hem towaitforusatOcean
Basketsi
ncey oual
wayscr aveforseafoodthese
days
Me:Yousuchalif
esaver.WegottoOceanBasket
andthegi
rlhadal
readyarr
ivedbef
oreus.
Kamo:
Heymommyt
obe
Me:
Heyhey
Wehuggedandgr
eet
edt
heot
her
sal
soshar
inghugs
aswel
l
Ntoko:Wej
ustor
dereddr
inkssowegoty
ouOr
ange
j
uiceandGuavaf
orSneh
Me:Thanksguy
sbutI
'
m wi
shi
ngf
orami
l
kshake
t
oday
Bee:
Buty
oudon'
tl
ikemi
l
kshakes
Me:
Yupbutoneoft
hesebabi
esi
nher
elov
esi
t.
Ical
l
edt
hewai
terandor
der
edChocol
ateChi
p
mi
l
kshakewi
thmashmel
l
ows.
Beli
nda:WhenIwaspregnantwit
hLuthandoI
alwaysat
eli
tchi
sbutIhatethem now.Icantt
ake
thesmell
Zandy:Iwonderi
fI'
l
lhav
ecr
avi
ngswhenev
ert
hat
happens
Zee:
Youneedt ofindy
our
sel
famanf
ir
stt
hany
ou
canthi
nkofbabiesandcr
avi
ngs
Zandy
:Notnow
Bee:
When?
Zandy:whent
het
imecomes onceI'
m donel
i
ving
mylif
eandwhenIwantt
oset
tl
edown.
Bee:
Ament
othat
.
Me:
Younotget
ti
nganyy
oungerBabal
wa
Bee:Iknowsis,
butIdon'tt
hinkI
'
llev
ergett
ot hat
ser
ioustimeinmyli
fe.Idon'
tthi
nkmarri
ageisfor
met houghIdowanttohaveababyoneday
Nay
e:Youcanadopt
Bee:
Idi
dthi
nkoft
hatbutIdon'
tknowI
'
llj
ustknow
whent
het
imei
sri
ght
Nt
oko:
Let
'sor
derf
oodguy
sI'
m hungr
y
Weor
der
edandi
nabout15mi
nut
esourf
oodcame
Me:
Thi
slookssodel
i
cious
Kamo:I'
m sur
eit
sev
enmor
edel
i
ciouswheny
ou
tast
eit
Weatewhilehav
ingalovelyconv
ersat
ionandt
hen
Snehdeci
dedtogiveoutthenews
Sneh:
Guesswhatgi
rl
s
Zandy
:Hl
alaphez'
kway
o(Getoni
t)
Sneh:
SoSiyaandIwer
eshoppi
ngt
hent
hushul
ulu
boom!Her
ecomesMongezi
Bel
i
nda:
Whoi
sMongezi
?
Bee:
Thatshyguy
?HewasonceSi
ya'
spot
ent
ial
bae
Nt
oko:
TheonePhi
l
abeatup?
Me:
Yep
Sneh:Letmegoon,
soheapproachesusandwe
tal
kforawhil
eandwesayourgoodbyesandguess
whathappensaf
tert
hat
!
Zandy:Idi
dsaygetonit
,I'
vebeenwait
ingforthe
j
uicypart,
somet
hingtel
l
smet here'
sanint
eresti
ng
endi
ng
Naye:
Saystheprof
essi
onalofgossi
p y oueven
knowthedi
ffer
entpar
tsofi
t,howdoy ouknowthat
?
Zandy:
itact
ual
lydependsonthetonesomeone
useswhentheytel
lthenewsmanandt heny
ouget
toknowifwhatheorsheissayi
ngwill
beint
erest
ing
ornot
Zee: Youar
esomet
hingel
seIt
ell
you
Bee:
TheeReal
Goboza
Sneh:
Cany
ouguy
sshutupsoIcancont
inue
Nay
e:Ohsor
ry
Sneh:
Andthenhegoesandhugsthisgi
rlandwe
l
ook,youwon'
tbel
i
evewhoitwas!ItwasAmanda
Nay
e:TheAmanda!
Wealll
aughedandZandywassoshockedIguess
sher
eall
ygotheri
nter
est
ingendi
ng
Zee:
Don'
tyout
hinkt
hisi
sof
fthough?
Bel
i
nda:
Why
?
Me:Theyjustdat
ing,
sheoncedi
dthedeedwi
th
Jabuthatt
ime.
Nay
e:Shi
t!Theyback,
whydi
dn'
twet
hinkoft
his
Zee:Amandai
sbacksothatmeanst
hepeopl
ethat
shotNkosi
andki
dnappedyou
Zandy
:Butwhati
sAmandadoi
ngwi
thMongezi
?
Me:MaybeMongezi
ist
hebosswenev
ergott
o
knowabout
Bel
i
nda:
Noi
tcan'
tbe
Ntoko:
May bet
heyarejustdat
ingandmet
somewhereyouguys.Mongezireal
l
ydoesn'
tseem
l
ikeheisofanydanger
Me:
We'
dnev
erknow.
Bee:Isuggestwemeetupwi ththeguysl
aterand
tel
lthem t
hisandwedoourr esearchonMongezi
.
Rightnowlet'
sjustenj
oyour
selves
Kamo:
Weshoul
dmeetupwi
tht
hatt
omor
row,
I
hav
etogett
owor
kaf
tert
hisandIhav
eameet
ingat
6pm
Me:
Ial
sohav
epl
anst
hatcan'
tbecancel
l
ed
Sneh:
Yeahyoudo gogetpregnantwit
hot
her
Quadssoyoucangi
vebi
rt
hto8babies
Me:
Ist
hatev
enpossi
ble?
Zandy:Iseesomeoneisget
ti
ngsometoni
ght.
Ever
ythingi
spossi
ble,
Phil
aseemsli
kehereal
ly
knowshowt oscore
Me:
Hesur
edoes
Thewaythegir
lsl
aughedIal
socoul
dn'
thel
pmy
sel
f.
Igotacal
lfr
om Phi
la
Me:
Fuze
Phi
l
a:MaFuze,
howar
eyouandmybabi
esdoi
ng?
Me:Weokay
,weatt
hemal
lwi
tht
hegi
rl
shav
ing
l
unch
Phi
l
a:Youshoul
dbeathomer
est
ingSi
ya
Me:YesIknowPhi l
abutIcan'
tbest
uckathomeal
l
day
.I'
mjustpregnantnotsi
ckorpar
aly
zed
Phi
l
a:Okayf
inesor
ry,
wher
eisJuni
or?
Me:
Hei
sathome,
hedi
dn'
twantt
ocomewi
thus
Phi
la:
Ofcausemysonwouldn'twanttogooutwith
abunchofladi
eschat
ti
nganddoinggirl
ystuf
f,hei
s
amannotawomany ou'
l
ldothatwithKhanya
Me:
Yeswewi
l
l we'
l
lgoshoppi
ngev
eryday
Phil
a:What
every
ouguyswant .Wil
ltal
klat
erbabe,
I'
m goi
ngtoameeti
ngnowandI
'l
lfl
yback.Bether
e
at8
Me:
Hur
ryhomehusband I
'
llbewai
ti
ng
Phi
l
a:Il
i
ket
hesoundoft
hat
Me:
You'
l
llov
eitev
enmor
eoncey
ougethome
Phi
l
a:Whatar
eyouupt
o?
Me:Justwai
tandy
ou'
l
lsee.Nowgoodby
e
Phi
l
asande
Wesai
dourgoodby
esandIcont
inuedeat
ing.
Bee:
You'
rer
eal
l
ygoi
ngt
ohav
eonegr
eatni
ght
Kamo:
Yourkneeswi
l
lbeshaki
ngt
oni
ght
Wecont
inuetal
ki
ngandhadaver
ylov
elyday.I
twas
r
eal
l
ygreattogooutandbewi
thmyfri
ends
#LBUBT
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easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
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ofr
iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
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[
1/11,
00:
40]Tat
enda:
Inser
t71
It
sbeenabout2weekssi ncetheMongezi and
Amanda' sappear ancehappenedwel l
Snehl i
kest o
call
them t he"Forbi ddenCoupl e"becauset hey
shouldn'tbetoget her.Wedi dmeetupwi ththeguy s
thenextdayandt heyhav ebeenwor kingsohar d
gett
ingbackgr oundchecksonMongezi andt ry
ingto
fi
ndt hingsthatcoul dl i
nkhimt oev erythingthathas
happened.Hehasbeenwor kingfrom homet hi
s
week, hesay shewant stobebusybutst il
lwant st
o
havemear ound.Somet i
mest heboy scomeov er
andtheygowor katt hebasemant ,yept heresa
basementi nt hishouseandIdi dn'tevenknowt hat,
I
askedPhi lawhydi dn'thetell
mebuthesai dhe
thoughtIknew.Ther ear eroomsi nthishouset hatI
spendweekswi thoutev enent eringther e,Ireally
don'tunderstandwhywehav esuchabi ghousebut
I'
vegrownf ondofi tandIl ovei t.WhatIdon' tlikei s
howPhi l
ahasbeensosecr eti
v e.Heav oidsey e
contactwi t
hmeandhei sal way sonhi sl aptop
whichupset smesosomuchIdon' tknowi fI'm
beinginsecur ebutmygut sdot ellmehei shiding
somet hingandI 'm nev erwr ongsoIchooset ot rust
mygut s.Idon' tevenwantt oaskhi m causehei s
verymoodyandont heedget heseday s, iknowi fI
doaskhemi ghtbeupsetandwe' l
largue, I'
mt oobi g
tostandupandar guewi thhi m, Ican'ttalkt ohi m
properlywhenI '
m sittingdownandy esIknowi t
's
weirdbutwhenhest andsandget sheat edup, Ialso
wantt odot hesame nowt hat '
simpossi blenow
sinceIneedhi shelpt ost andupespeci allyifI'
v esat
downf oral ongper iod.AsIwassay i
ng, hei shi ding
somet hingfrom meandI '
m goi ngt of i
ndoutone
wayoranot her.I'
vebeent r
yingt oexer ciseabi t
sincethedoct ordidr ecommendt hatIdoexer ci ses
everymor ningandev eni ng,I'
mj ustwear i
ngmy
underwearandI 'mr eal lysweat i
ngi mf eelingr eal l
y
st
ickyanddisgust
ed.Iwalkedt
omyr
oom andmet
upwithPhi
laalongthepassage
Phi
l
a:Whyar
eyounaked?
Me:I
'
m notnaked,
I'
m hal
fnakedsi
nceI
'
m wear
ing
myunder
wear
Phi
la:
Samediff
erence,
youst
il
lnaked.Goget
dr
essedAbongi
le
Il
aughed,
cl
appedonceandt
henputmyhandson
mywaist
Me: Whyar
eyoubei
ngsof
ussyaboutmebei
ng
naked?
Phi
l
a:Peopl
ewi
l
lseey
ou
Me:Whatpeople,
it'
sjustthet
hreeofusi
nthi
s
house,t
heworker
sar en'
tcomingint
odaysonoone
wil
lseeme
Phi
l
a:Buty
oust
il
lneedt
ogetdr
essed
Me:Sincewhendoyouhaveapr oblem wit
hme
bei
ngnakedinourhousewalki
ngt oourroom,
it'
s
notl
ikeI'
m wal
ki
ngaroundnakedout si
de.
Phil
a:Idon'
tknowwhyy ousay
ingal
lthatcausey
ou
shouldj
ustli
stenanddoasIsay
Me: Wel lIwon'tdoasy ousayNgcobo, I'
m ahuge
buffeloher ebecauseofy oursper msandI '
mf eel
ing
reall
yreallyreal
lyreall
yhoti m act ual
lysuf f
ocati
ngin
myownbodyandy oucomeher eandt ellmetoget
dressed, youmustbel oosingsomescr ew'sItell
you.
Andsi ncewhendoy ouev encar ewhatIdosi nceall
that'
simpor t
anttoy ouisthatlapt op!You've
forgottenaboutus.Isai dreal l
yfourt i
mescause
that'
st henumberofy ourchi l
dreni nherewhoar e
alsofeelingsohotandI 'mf eel
ingal lt
heirheat,you
hav eapr oblem wit
hmebei ngpr egnant,takethis
belly!
Iwal
kedinsidet
hebedr
oom butcameoutaf
tera
fewseconds.
Me:Andbytheway
,youmi
ssedy
est
erday
sdoct
ors
appoi
ntment
.
Il
efthi
m st
andi
ngthereandtookashower ,Idon'
t
knowwhat'
shispr
oblem andit'
sreal
lyst
art
ingto
annoymesomuch.Hecamei ntothebedr
oom while
Iwassti
ll
putt
ingonmyunder
wear,Iam notgoi
ngt
o
getdr
essedevenifhel
i
kesi
tornotIdon'
tcare.
Phi
l
a:I
'
m sor
ry
Ikeptquietandconti
nuedwit
hwhatIwasdoing.I
evenlot
ionedmybodyt wiceandhewasst
il
l
standi
ngt her
elooki
ngatme.
Phi
l
a:I
'
m sor
rySi
yamt
handa,
Ireal
l
yam sor
ry.
Me:
Whatexact
lyar
eyousor
ryabout
?
Phil
a:Formissi
ngthedoctorsappoi
ntment.I'
mvery
sorr
y,IknowIpromisedtobethereforeachand
ever
yappointment
s,I'
m sorr
yIdidn'
tmakei tt
othi
s
one.
Me: Whydidn'
tyoumakeit
?Wherewereyou
becauseyouwerenotatworknorher
eathome.
Phi
l
a:I
..
.Iwas,
uhm
Me: You'
rest
utt
eri
ngnow?Phi
l
asandey
oucan'
t
speak?You'r
eamut enow!
Phi
la:
Idon'tl
i
kethewayyout
alki
ngtomeBobo!
Andhowdoy ouknowIwasn'
tathomeoratwor
k?
Si
yamthandaareyouf
oll
owi
ngmear ound?
Me: That'sallyoucar eaboutreal
ly
?Howcany ou
askmet hatnonsense, andnoI'
m notfol
lowingyou
around.Wewer esupposedt ohavelunchbeforewe
hadt ogoseeNay e,Iwenttoyouroffi
ceandy ou
wer en'tthere.Andt henIwentt oNayeallal
oneand
aftert hatIgothomey ouweren'
there.Di
dn'tyousay
you'dbewor ki
ngf rom home?Whathappenedt o
that?
Phil
a:I
'
m sorr
y,If
orgotaboutl
unch.Ihadi
mpor
tant
thi
ngstogett
o
Me:
Import
antthi
ngs?Mor
eimpor
tantt
hany
our
f
amil
y?Yourbabi
es!
?
Phi
la:That
'snotwhatImeantSi
yamt
hansay
ou'
re
twi
sti
ngmywor ds!
Me:Whatdoy oumean!Phi
lasandegetyourmind
ri
ghtandsety
ourpri
ori
ti
esstrai
ght,
ifwemat t
erto
youandyourt
ime,showit
.Stopbehavingli
keachil
d,
growupandbeaman
Hisf
acechangedinabli
nkofaneye,hewassor ed
andangr
ythatiknewipushedthewrongbut
tons.I
di
dn'
tmeantosaysucht hi
ngsbutI
'mv er
yangry
r
ightnowandIdi
dn'
tthi
nkbef
oreIspoke
Phi
l
a:Nowthat
'sj
ustpuredi
srespect
.Youdonot
!
Donott
alkt
omelikethat
Hebangedt
hewallandcameclosert
ome, st
oodin
f
rontofmesocl
osethatournosesweret
ouching.I
t
ri
edtomovebutIwascagedin.
Me:
Mov
e!
Phila:List
enwoman, andli
stent
omecar ef
ull
y,Iwi
ll
notr epeatmysel
f.Youmustneverevert
alktome
thewayy oudi
d.Yout el
li
ngmet obeaman, what
doy ouknowaboutbei ngaman!Youweart hepant
s
i
nt hishousenowBobo!
Ikeptquietandlookedi
ntohi
seyes,
Iknewt
his
wasn'tthePhil
aIknowandlove,
itwassomefor
eign
beastthatIdon'
tknow.
Phi
l
a:Answermedamni
t!
Hebangedt
hewal
landIwasf
ri
ght
ened
Me:
You'
rescar
ingme
Ilookeddeepint
ohiseyesandmytear
sst
art
ed
fall
i
ng,hewipedthem of
fandki
ssedme
aggr
essi
vel
y.
Phi
l
a:Getdr
essed!
Hewal kedoutt heroom andbangedt hedoor.Itook
asmal lblanketandlayedinbedcov er
ingmybut t.I
couldn'
tst opthetear
sf r
om f all
i
ng.Idon'tknowwhy
Phil
aisl i
kethisanditsget t
ingwor sebythemi nute.
Iwokeupaf terafewhour s,real
izi
ngIcriedtil
lIfel
l
asl
eep.Ther ewasat r
aynextt omewi t
hf oodanda
carditreadasf ol
lows
"I
'
m sor
ryDl
aba"
Fr
om Phi
l
a
Ithrewthecardonthefl
oorandwenttowashmy
face.I
twasar ound3pm andIwentt
ofetchJnrfr
om
Kamo' shouse.WecamebackandPhi l
awasn't
home.
Jnr
:Wher
eisdaddy
?
Me:Hewenttoworkmybabyhe'
l
lbebacksoon.
Wantsomefood?
Jnr
:Yesmom
Iwarmedupt heSpaghettiandmeat bal
lsPhil
amade
formeear li
erandweat etogether.Het oldmeabout
hisdayandhowhewant stojustgosl eepsincehe
i
st i
red.Iwenttotuckhimi nandt ookof fhi
sglasses,
helookssowei rdwithoutthem f unnyhowIdi dn'
t
evenwanthi mt oputglassesatfirstbutnowI '
m
usedt ohim wit
hglasseson.Ifeltsobor edand
l
onely,Itookmyphoneandcal l
edBel i
nda
Li
nda:
BabyI
'
minameet
ingI
'
llcal
lyoul
ater
.
Me:
Okayby
e
Itri
edcalli
ngNcebabutherphonewasonv oi
cemai l
sowasNt okozo' sandAt hi'
ssoIj ustgav eupon
try
ingtocal lanyone.I '
v eneverf el
tthi
sl onelyev eri
n
myl i
fe.Itookmyl aptopandl ookedf oramov i
ebut
nonoft hem wer ewor thwat chi
ng, mylapt opisf ul
lof
Jnrscar t
oonmov i
es.It ri
edcallingPhilabuti twent
tovoicemai l
t oo,seemsl ikeever y
oneisj ustnot
avail
abletoday i t
sj ustmeandmybabi es.Iwent
totakeat ubofi cecr eam andwentt otheci nema
andwat chedamov iet hatmademecr ysosomuchI
fel
tasi feverythingwashappeni ngtome, Iwatched
about3r omant i
cmov ies.Iregretdoingt hatcauseI
endedupfeel
ingmor esadt hanIalr
eadywas.I twas
7pm whenthedoorbellrang,itwasadel i
v er
yguy
whocamewi thfoodandacar d,idi
dn'
tor derany
foodbuthesaiditwasast r
ictorderfr
om Mr
Ngcobo.Isi
gnedandhesai di twasalreadypaidfor
.
IwenttowakeJnrupsohecaneatandt hengo
backtobed
Jnr
:Isdaddyback?Iwantt
oshowhi
m whatIdr
ew
ear
li
er.
Me:
Daddyisv
erybusyt
odaymysony
ou'
l
lshowhi
m
t
omorr
ow.Youcanshowme
Jnr:NoIneedt
oshowdaddyf
ir
st.Whenwi
l
lhebe
back?
Me:
Abitl
ate,
youcangosl
eepandy
ou'
l
lshowhi
m
t
omorr
ow
Jnr
:NoI
'
llst
ayupt
il
lheget
shome.
Thatmademef eelsosadandhurt,
Phil
ahasnev er
beenabsentandheisalway
sheretotuckJnrinbed.
I
fhei sangr
yaboutwhathappenedearl
i
er,
heshoul d
beangryatmeonlyanddon'tbeawayandneglect
Jnr,
whathappensbetweenusshouldn'
taf
fectJnr.I
don'twantmysongr owingupandbei ngemot i
onall
y
unstablebecauseofgr owingupwithfighting
parentsandnotf eel
inglovedandcaredf or,Idon't
wantt hatformysonandPhi l
ashouldknowbet ter
thanwhathei sdoingrightnow.Jnrkeptony awning
andi twasv er
yobv i
ousthatheissleepy,itwas
getti
ngr eal
lyl
ateandPhi l
awasn'thomey et
Jnr
:Isdaddyr
eal
l
ycomi
ngback?
Me:
Yes,
he'
l
lcomeback.Let
'sgowai
tforhi
minbed.
HowIwi shIcouldjusthonest lytel
lhimthatIdon't
knowi fhisfat
herisreallycomi nghomet oni
ght.We
gotinbedandhei mmedi atel
yf el
lasl
eepwi thhis
drawinginhishand, hehaddr ewapi ctur
eofhi m
andhisdadonabi cy cl
e.Iheldmyt earsbackand
tr
iedcalli
ngPhilabuthedi dn'
tanswer .It
ooka
pict
ureofJnr sdrawingandsenti ttohimt el
li
nghim
Jnrwant edhimt oseet histonight.I
tshowedt hathe
hadreadi tbuthedidn'treplyback.Iwasv er
yhurtby
whatPhi lai
sdoingandi tissounl i
kehim.Igav eup
onwai ti
ngforhim wheni twas12am.Ical l
edhim
onemor et i
mebuti tsti
llwentt ov oi
cemai l
.
#Next
Mor
ning
IwokeupandJnrwasn'ti
nbedany more.Igotup
qui
cklyandwentl
ookingforhi
m aroundthehouse
scr
eaminghisname.Igotdownstair
sandhewas
si
tt
ingonPhil
a'
slapandhewasf eedinghim.
Phi
l
a:He'
sher
ewi
thme
Me:
Jnrdon'
tscar
emel
i
ket
hatagai
n.
Jnr
:Sor
rymom
Thewayhesay ssorr
yalway smakesmel aughhe
says" sol i
" .Ismi l
edandwentbackt omyr oom, I
didn'
tev enmakeey econtactwi t
hhim.Honest l
yI
don'tev enwantt oaskhim abouthiswher eabout s
he'l
ltellmei fhewant stoorhewon' t.Hehasmade
i
tshowt hathehasbet t
erplacestobeandmor e
i
mpor tantpeopletobewi t
ht hancomi nghomet o
hi
sf ami ly.Itookabathandl oti
onedmybodybel l
y
whilesi ngingformybabies.Theyhav ebeenki cking
mesi ncet hi
smor ni
ng,Phi
lahasnev erfel
tt hem kick.
Hewal kedi nandonekickedr eal
lyhardandIsai d"
ouch"sof tl
ynotwantinghimt ohearmebuti t
seemedasi
fhedi
d
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
Theyki
cki
ng
Her ushedtomeandkneel eddownwhi l
et ouchi
ng
myst omach,helaughedandcal l
edouthi sclan
names.Hehadt hebi ggestsmileonhi sfaceandi t
wasav er
ybeauti
ful momenty etIwasst i
llsohur t
andangr yathi
m, Ijustcr
iedandst oodupr unni
ngto
thebathroom,Il
ockedmy sel
fint her
eandIhear d
hisfootst
epsapproachingbutt heysuddenl y
stoppedandhet urnedback.
Me:
Don'
tcr
ySi
yamt
handa,
you'
rest
rongert
hant
his.
Icr
iedagai
nforawhi l
eandthenwashedmyf ace.
WhenIgotoutt hebedwasal r
eadymadeandt her
e
wasfoodthere.Iwonderwhokeepst el
li
ngPhil
aI
wanthi
mt ofeedme, hi
sheadi smessingwithhi
m.I
don'
twanthisfood.Iwentdownt othekit
chenwit
h
i
tandthrewitinthebi
nmaki ngsureheseesme.
Jnr
:Whyar
eyout
hrowi
ngt
hef
oodawaymom?
Me:
It'
srot
tenmybaby
Jnr
:Butdaddymadei
t
Me:
Buti
t'
sst
il
lrot
tenJnr
.
Imademy sel
fasandwichandv
egetabl
esmoothie.
Phil
akeptonlooki
ngatmeandIjustav
oidedey
e
contactwi
thhi
m asmuchaspossibl
e
Phi
l
a:I
'
mtaki
ngJnrt
ohi
spl
aycent
re,
I'
ll
beback.
Inodded.Jnrgoest oaplaycent erwi t
hLuthando
andThembel i
hle,theystayther eforjust5hoursand
comeback, it
sl i
keacr èche.Iswi tchedont he
tel
evisi
onandwat chedCalif
or ni
aI nvesti
gator
,I
real
lylovethisshow.Af t
eraf ewmi nutesPhil
a
comesbackandsi t
snexttomet henswi t
chesoff
theTV.Il ookedathi m andswi tchest heTVbackon,
hetookt heremot eandswi t
chedi toff
,Iwasso
angryatthisst upidgamehei splay i
ng.Istoodup
buthemademesi tdown
Me:
I'
m goi
ngt
ogetanappl
e
Phi
l
a:I
'
llgeti
tfory
ou
Hest
oodupandt
ooki
tandgav
eme.
Phi
l
a:I
m sor
ryaboutt
hewayIhav
ebeenbehav
ing,
i
t'
scomplet
elyuncal
ledforandi
diot
ic.Ihaveal ot
goi
ngonSiya.
LastnightIwasatBonga's,
Icouldn't
comebackhome, If
eltashamedofmy sel
f,whatI
di
dscaredyouandIm sorryi
twasn'
tmyi ntent
ionto
doso.
Me:
Okay
Phi
l
a:That
'sal
lyou'
regoi
ngt
osay
?
Me:Whatmor eshouldIsay?Youdi dn'
tcomehome
l
astnightcauseyoudowhat eversuit
syouandyou
don'
tcarehowwef eelaboutit
.Youdon'tevent
hink
ofyourson,I'
m di
sappointediny ou.
Ibitmyappl eandswi tchedtheTVbackonwhi l
e
turningupt hev olume.Hel ookedsodef eat
edandhe
keptonscr atchinghishead.MyphonebeepedandI
i
gnor editsincei twasjustanSMS.Buti tbeeped
againt wiceandi twasfrom anunknownnumber .I
viewedt hemessageandIcoul dn'tbel
ievemyey es,
i
couldn'tbelievewhatIwasr eadingandseeing .I
feltsohear tbrokenanddef eared,Ihadnotearsno
mor e.Ican'tcr yanymore.
I
M NUMB
#LBUBT
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KESHAREANDSUPPORTTHEPAGE
SUGGESTPAGETOFRI
ENDSANDFRI
ENDSOF
FRI
ENDS
#LETSGROW
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1/11,
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enda:
Inser
t72
Idon' tknowhowt oreactt ot hisorwhatt osayto
Phi l
asande, Ican'
tevenl ookathi mr ightnow,I'
m
disgust ed.Howdoy ouf eel wheny ougetmessages
fr
om hi ssl utt el
l
ingyouhowgoodhewasi nbed
withhi m andhowhemadeherf eel.Afterafew
mi nutesaf terIrecei
v edt hedi sgustingSMSand
pictures.Av ideowassentt ome.Hewas
passi onatelymaki ngl ov
et oanot herwomanwhoI
didn'tev enseeherf acecl earl
y .Hisey eswidenedas
hehear dthesoundsandnoi sesf rom myphone.
Phi
l
a:Whati
sthat
?
Me:I
m wat
chingapornvi
deo.Andi
tsmyhusband
andhi
ssl
utfucki
ngeachother
.
Phi
l
a:BabeIcanexpl
ain
Me:
Expl
ainwhat
?
I'
veneverbeensochi lledeverinmyl i
fe, knowing
my sel
fIwoul dbegoingcr azyanddest roying
everyt
hingnexttobebuthonest l
yIhav enost rength
i
nmet odot hat,
Ihav enour getocream andgo
crazyonhi m.Idon'twantmysugarl ev elsincr
easing
andaffectingmybabi es.Idon'twannabel oudand
crashthingsthatIendupwaki ngJnr.
Phila:
That'
sanol
dvideo,
that
'sNal
edisendi
ngyou
thoseoldvi
deost
ryi
ngtodest
royourmarri
agebabe
pleaseyouhavet
obeli
eveme.
Me:Idon'
thavetobelieveyou.What '
sdisgust
ingme
evenmoreisthatyoucanst i
llsi
tinfr
ontofmeand
conti
nuel
yingtome, haven'
tyouliedenough?Ar en'
t
youti
redofbeinguntrut
hfulanddishonest?Aren't
youti
redofbeingamanwhor e
Phi
l
a:Si
yamt
handa
Me: ohdon'
tyoudaretell
meaboutdisr
espectand
cal
li
ngy ounames.Youhav ewentwayt
oofarwith
yourtr
ash,Ihav
ebeenf orgi
vi
ngyouandgivi
ngyou
somanychancesy ety oublowthem offal
lthetime
doingt hesamenonsense.Whati syourproblem
Philasande,don'
tIsati
sfyyou?Isther
esomet hi
ng
thatIdon'tdothatthoseothergir
lsdo?Justexplai
n
tomepl easecauseIreall
ydon'
tunderstandwhatis
i
tt hatyouwant .
Phi
l
a:Babet
hiswasl
ongago.I
'
m notl
yi
ngt
oyou
MaFuze
Me:Stopl
ying,
Phi l
asandeIboughtyouthi
sshirta
weekagoatHugoboss, y
ouwor ethi
sshir
twhen
youwentt
owor konMondayandy ouwor eitagai
n
t
henighty
oudi dn'
tcomeback.
Heputhi
shandsonhisf
aceandkeptonscr
atchi
ng
hi
shead.Ist
oodupandhequi
ckl
yfoll
owed
Me:
I'
m goi
ngt
ogetanappl
e.
Hel
ookedatmewei
rdl
y
Me:
It'
smynewcr
avi
ngobsessi
on.
Phi
l
a:Oh.I
'
m sor
rySi
yamt
handa
Me:Whatexactl
yareyousor
ryabout
?Yousorryt
hat
youcheatonyourwi
fe,t
haty
ouleaveyourhome,
yourwi f
eandki dst hangosl eepingaroundwi th
hoes,homewr ecker sthathav enomor alsandno
respect.Whoopent heirl
egsf orselfi
shmanwho
wantt ofulf
ultheirsel f
ishsexual desir
esnotev en
thi
nkingoft heconsequencest hatfol
low.Doy ou
evenusepr otecti
on?I '
m definit
elysurey ou'
renot
theonlymanshe' ssl eepi
ngwi t
handy ougosl eep
withherandt akeal lthatfil
th.Didy ouevent hinkof
thediseases?Howl onghav ey oubeensl eepingwith
her?Didy ouhav esexwi thmewhi l
ey ouwer ehav i
ng
sexwi t
hher ?
Phil
a:No,I
'
dnev
erdot
hatt
oyou.Si
yamt
handay
ou
don'
tdeser
veme
Me:
Youdamnr
ightaboutt
hat
.
Phila:I
'm acheat,aliarandamanwhor e.You
deser v
ewaybet terthanme, y
oudeservesomeone
whowi l
ltr
eatyoubet terthanIdoandnothur tyou
thewayIdo.Il ovey ousomuchbutI '
m amant hat
's
verystupidandsel f
ish,it
shardformet osayt hi
sbut
i
t'strue.Ihavefail
edy ouasy ourhusband,ihave
fail
edy oumanyt imesbef oreandyoust i
llf
orgave
meandIt ookadv antageofthat.It
ookadv antageof
awonder fulwomanandi tssosel f
ishofmecause
I'
vebeenwi thy ou,wast ingy ourt i
mewi thme,
someonewhodoesn' tappr eci atey ouandl ovey ou
thewayy oudeser vetobe.May beI '
m ev enkeepi ng
youawayf r
om y ourtruel ov e.I '
vedonemanyst upid
mistakest hatIseem t or epeatandt heyal way s
catchupwi thmenomat terhowmuchIt rytoav oid
them.I'm easi l
ytempt ed, I'
m sexual l
yweakand
vir
ginaismyweaknesses.Idoshi tthatIendup
regret
tingst rai
ghtaf teri thappens, I'
m ev ennotabl e
tolookaty ouandIt r
yav oi dingy ouandt hathur ts
youev enmor e,keepingi tfr om y out hatmakesme
feelli
keIj ustwantt oki ll my self.
Idon' tknowwhyI
keepondoi ngt his.It
snoty ourf aultSiyamt handa,
I'
m atfault.Ther e'snot hingwr ongwi t
hy ouatal l
.I
keeponhur t
ingy ou,cheat i
ngony ouandt hathur ts
you.GodknowsI '
dkilly oui fy ou'ddot hatt ome
BoboIr eal l
ywoul d.Thatmakesmer eali
zehow
self
ishIam andhowI 'vet rappedy oui namar r
iage
thatyouunhappyat .Ihav et r i
ed, Ireall
yhav etri
ed.I
knowy ouwon' tbel i
evemewhenIt ellyout hatIdon't
knowhowi thappened, thatIdon' tknowhowIended
upatOr at
ilesplaceandhav ingsexwi t
hher ,y
ou
knowhowmuchIhateher.HowIwantnot
hingt
odo
wit
hherandIdon'
twantherany
wher
earoundmy
famil
y.
Me:
That
'sOr
ati
l
e?
Phila:Yesi ti
s.Ileftthishouseandwentst raightto
BongasIst ayedt heref orav erylongt i
meandwe
wentt ot heclub.Wehadaf ewdr i
nksandt han
Bongahadt oattendaf ewcal l
sout side.Ior der ed
orangej uiceandIf oundi tstranget hatIor der edt hat
i
nst eadofabeer ,Iwasmi ssingy ou.Idr ankmyj uice
halfwayandi ttast edfunny .Af t
eraf ewmi nut esmy
eyesightwasbl urryandOr atil
ecame, wef oughta
l
itt
leandshesai dweshoul dstepout sidecause
we'recausi ngascenebutIdon' trememberany thi
ng
thathappenedaf tert hat.Irememberwaki ngupand
shewasonmeal ready ,myv isi
onwasst il
l blurryand
that'swhent hathappened, Ifellasleepaf tert hat.
WhenIwokeupi nt hemor ning,shewassl eepi ngon
mychest ,atfi
rstIt houghti t'
sy ouandt henIsawt he
hair.Iwassof r
eakedoutt hatIendedup. .
.
Me:
Youendedup?
Phil
a:Isl
appedheracoupl eoft imesandcameback
home.Ireal
lywant edtotel
l youbutIdi dn'teven
knowhowIwoul dexplaini
tt oy ou,Icouldn'tput
toget
herwhathadhappenedr eall
y.Im sor r
yitwas
nevermyintent
iont ohurtyout hisway ,Iloveyou
andIneverwanty outobehur tandt hi
sj ust
happenedandmademehur tyoual loveragain.I'
l
l
underst
andifyoudon' twanttobewi thmeagai n,
I'
ll
underst
andifyouhat eme.I '
vedonenot hingelsebut
hurtyouandfailyou.
Hestoodupandwal
kedupt
hest
eps,
hest
opped
whenIspoke
Me:Phi
la,
bef
oret
hishappened.Whywereyou
act
ingt
hewayyouwere?Whydi dyoudothat
?
Phil
a:Iletangercontr
ol me, I
'mv erysorr
yf orwhat
happened.Ijustgotupsetov ernothing.You'remine
Siy
amt handaandI '
m protectiv
eofy ou,seeingy ou
walki
ngar oundthehousenakedj ustmademef li
p
becauseIdon'twantthewor kersseeingyou
especial
lythemaleonesout si
de, t
hebody guards
outsi
de.Idon'twantthem t oseemyasset s.Ijust
wasn'tsupposedtot r
eaty outhewayIdi dandI '
m
sor
ry.
Il
ookedathi
m andhadnowor
ds.
Phila:Idon'tknowhow, butI'
m goingtoprovethatI
didn'tdoitonpur pose.I'
m goingtoprovei
ttoyou
Siyamt handa.Iknowt hatyoumi ghtnotwant
anythingtodowi thmebutI '
l
lreall
yprovei
t.Il
ove
youMakaJuni or
Hel ookedatmef orthelastti
meandwal kedaway .I
fel
tmyhear tbreakingintopieces,Idon'tknowi f
we'retoget herornot .I'
m notsureifIwasgoi ngt o
l
eav ehi m, I'
m notsur eifI'
l
lbeablet ostoplov i
ng
him butIdoknowIcan' tall
owmy selftogot hrough
thi
sal lov eragain.Ifollowedhim upstair
st othoughI
wasusi ngt heli
ft.Ican'twalkupthest air
swit hmy
bigbel l
y .Igottot heroom andhewasn' tther
e, I
l
ookedar oundandhehadl ockedhimselfinthe
bathroom.Iwant edtoknockbutIcoul dn'
t.Itooka
fewcl othesandt hingsIwoul dneedandmyf avori
te
pil
low, hecamei nwhi l
eIwaspacki ng
Phi
l
a:Don'
tl
eav
e,I
'
llgo.
Il
ookedathi
m andhi
sey
eswer
ered,
hewas
cr
ying i
thur
tsmesomucht
oseehi
mthi
sway
Me:Noy oudon'
thaveto.Plust
hisi
sy ourhouse
Phi
la.I
'
m notmovingout,Jnrwon'
tunderstandand
hi
sbeent hr
oughalotIdon'
twanttoaddt hist
oo.I
m
j
ustmov i
ngint
ooneoft heroomshere.
Phil
a:I
'
llmoveoutther
oom Si
ya.Youst
ayher
e,I
knowyoulov
et hi
sroom.
Me:
but
Phi
l
a:Ii
nsi
st.Thi
sisy
ourhouset
ooSi
ya.
Ijustkeptqui
etandputt hethingsItookbackand
hehel pedme.Ourhandst ouchedandi tfeltso
wr ongtofeelt
hespar kwehav e,it
selectri
fyi
ng.
I'
l
l
alway sbeatt
ract
edt othi
sguynomat t
erhowmuch
Itrytodenyit
.Het ookhissleepingclothesand
toilet
ri
es
Phi
la:
I'
m goi
ngtoputthesei
nther
oom nextt
oJnr
s
andgofet
chhim.Wil
lyouneedany
thi
ng?
Me:
Appl
esandsomet
hingt
ast
y
Phi
l
a:Andwhati
sthatsomet
hingt
ast
y?
Me:Idon'
tknow,youguess.Lockalldoor
s
downstai
rscauseI
'l
lbeheresleepi
ng.
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ou
Icouldn' tr
eplyandhecl osedthedoor .Islowl ytook
ofmycl othesandgoti nbed.Ifeel l
ikeI '
vebeenhi t
byat rain.Iwantt obelievehim, iwantt obel ieve
whathesai dbutIdon' tknowi fIcant r
usthi m again.
TosayIhat ehi m wouldbeal i
eandwhenhesai d
thosewor dsIf el
tmyhear t
breakitwasasi fhei s
breakingupwi thme butnohei sal l
owingmet o
decidewhatIwantandIdon' tknowwhatIwant .I
j
ustneedt ost opst r
essingaboutt hisandcl earmy
head.Ican' tbest ressi
ngi t
'snotgoodf ormybabi es.
Whi chr emindsme, Ihaveadoct orsappoi nt ment
tomor row.Nay esai dthere'
ssomet hingsheneedst o
tal
kaboutwi tht hebothofussoIneedt ot ellPhil
a.I
twistedandt ur nedtryi
ngt osleepbutIj ustcoul dn't
.
Afteraf ewmi nut esofnol uckinsleepi ngIf inal
ly
gav eup.Jnrcamer unninginmyr oom andhugged
me
Jnr
:I'
vemissedyou.I
twasbori
ngther
etodayandi
wassleepi
ng.Iwashappywhendadcametofetch
me
Me:
Sor
rymybaby
.Wi
l
lyougot
omor
row?
Jnr
:No
Me:
Okay
Phil
aknockedandhedi dn'
topenunt
ilItol
dhimto,
that
'safi
rstanditseemsasi fheisr
espectingmy
pri
vacyanditssounlikehim buti t
'sjusttheway
thi
ngsarenowIguess.
Phil
a:Igotyourappl
esandsomethingt
ast
y,wi
l
lyou
eathereorcomej oi
nusdownst
airs?
Me:I
'l
lcomedown.Jnrl
et'
schangey
ourcl
othes
f
ir
st.
Phil
aclosedthedoorandIchangedJnr.Idon'
tknow
whyI'mfeeli
ngsorr
yforPhi
la,helookssodefeat
ed
andli
kehisjustgi
venupalr
eady.Idontknowifhis
gi
vinguponusorhi msel
forwhatbuthel ooksso
miserabl
e.
Phi
la:Whatdoyouwantt
oeat
?Iboughtal
lthe
j
unkiesyoul
ike
Me:
Pizzai
sfi
newi
thme
Phi
l
a:Pi
zzai
tist
hen.
Hewarmeditupandser
vedme5sl
i
ces onef
or
eachofus.
Jnr
:Whyar
eyouhav
ing5sl
i
cesmom?
Me:Causet
her
ear
e4babi
esi
nher
eandt
heyal
so
wantt
oeat
Jnr
:Babi
eseatpi
zza?
Ilaughedandnodded.Hel ookedsoconf usedand
hisfatherexpl
ainedt ohim, theybothwashedt he
disheswhi l
eIwasj ustwat chingTV, actuall
yIwas
j
ustst ari
ngatit,Ikeptonhav i
ngflashbacksoft he
videothatOrati
lesent ,
herf acewasn' tcleart
here
that'
swhyIdi dn'
tev ennot i
cei twasher .Myt ear
s
wer efal
li
ngandPhi l
anoticed
Phi
l
a:Jnr
,goplayi
nyourpl
ayr
oom orwat
cha
movi
eattheci
nema
Her
anupt
hest
air
s
Phi
l
a:St
opr
unni
ng!
Jnr
:Okaydada
Phi
l
acamet
omeandhel
dmyhands
Phil
a:Pleasestopcr
ying,ihateseeingyouli
kethi
s
andIhat eitev
enmoret hatI'
mt hereasonbehi
nd
yourtears.HowdoImaket hi
srightSiya
Me:
Ijustneedsomespace,
Ineedt
ojustt
hink.
Phil
a:I
'
llgi
veyoual
lthespacey
ouneedSi
ya,
just
don'
tdothist
oyour
selfpl
ease.
Hewi
pedof
fmyt
ear
sandki
ssedmyf
orehead
Me:
MayIhav
emor
ePi
zzapl
ease
Phi
l
a: Comi
ngrightup,
andj
ustsoy
ouknow.Iwon'
t
beyourwai
ter
Il
aughedathi
m andhegav
emeanot
her5sl
i
ces
Me:
You'
ret
ryi
ngt
oki
l
lme.Iwon'
tfi
nisht
his
Phil
a:We'l
lnev
erknow.Siya,
Ihavet
ogot oTongaat
,
I
'veaskedZeetocomewi t
hme.Thereareafew
thi
ngsIneedtosortouti
'
llbebacki
n2hours.
Me:
Okaycool
.
Het ookhiscarkey sandl ef t
.IwenttojoinJnrwho
waswat chingamov ieattheci nema.Wewat cheda
fewmov i
eswhilehav ingsomepopcor n.Itwas7pm
alr
eadyandPhi lawasn' tbacky et
.Whyam Iev en
fussingabouthim notbei ngbackcauseIaskedf or
abr eaksohecangowher everhewant sandbewi th
whoev erhewant s.I
st heresuchat hi
ngasabr eakin
mar ri
age?I'
m notsur ebuti nmi nethereis.Ibat hed
Jnrandgothi mr eadyf orbed, hehadabur gerfor
supperandwentt obed.It ookashowerwhi leIwas
shower i
ngPhilaknockedont hedoorandIt oldhim
tocomei n.Fr
om t hefootst epsIcouldtellthathe
wasst andi
ngneart hebat hr oom door.Iquickly
fi
nishedupandr ealizedIdi dn'tevencarryat owel .
Me:
Cany
ougetat
owel
forme?If
orgott
otakeone
Phi
l
a:Ther
e'snot
owel
inher
e.
Me:Phil
asandether
ear
esomanybat
hroomsi
nthi
s
house,
pleasegogetmeatowel
.
Phil
a:I
'
m notdoingt
hat
,justcomeout
.It
snotl
i
ke
I
'veneverseeny
ounaked.
Thi
sisgoi
ngt
obesoawkwar
dforme andhei
s
doingal
lthi
sonpur pose!Hehasalway sj
ustbeen
naughty
.Icameoutandhewasl ookingatme,he
keptonswall
owi nggodknowswhatandhi sAdams
applewasmov ingupanddown.Ilotionedmybody
andIcouldn'
treachmyl egs wher eisJnrwhen
youneedhim,heal wayshelpsmewithmyl egsand
back
Phi
l
a:Letmehel
pyou
Me:
Icandoi
tonmyown
Phi
l
a:Noy
oucan'
tandy
ou'
l
lenduphur
ti
ngy
our
sel
f.
Hist ouchsentsparksr i
ghtdownal lovermybody ,
I
wasget ti
ngwetalreadyandIhav entgotsomei na
while,tosayI'm nothornywoul dbeal ieandal lthi
s
sexual tensi
onbetweenusi sj ustsuffocat i
ng.He
fi
nallyfini
shedandi tol
dhi m Iwantt osl eepandhe
stoodupandhewashar don Iwant edt olaughat
him butwewer en'
tdiff
erent,
it'sj
ustt hatIdidn't
show.
Me:Wehaveadoctor
sappoi
ntmentt
omor
rowat
10am.Goodni
ght
Phi
l
a:Wi
l
lbet
her
e.
Hesl
owl
ycl
osedt
hedoorandopenedagai
n
Phi
l
a:Goodni
ghtBobo
Me:
Goodni
ghtPhi
l
a.

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#Phi
l
a
Ihavebeenafailur
e,Ifail
edtobeaf ami l
ymanand
keepmyf amil
ytogether.Il
etmyweaknessgett he
bestofmeandl etsomeoner uinmymar ri
age.
There'
snothi
ngmor ethatIregretthanl eavingmy
housethatni
ght,causeifIhadn'tl
ef tnoneoft hi
s
would'
vehappened.Idon'tthi
nkSiy amt handa
beli
evesmewhenIsayIdon' tknowwhathappened
thatl
edmet ohav i
ngsexwi thOrati
leandIwoul dn'
t
blameherf ornotbel ievi
ngme, ifIwer ei nhershoes
Iwoul dn' tbel i
ev eanyoft hat .Shehasl eftme, itst i
ll
hur tssomuchandt oknowt hatt here'
sapossi bili
ty
ofusnev erbei ngt ogetheragai n.Shest ay eda
coupl eofday sbutshecoul dn'tdoi tany mor e,itgot
hect ic, wear gued, avoidedeachot herandshe
coul dn' tcope, li
keIwassuf focatingher .Whenshe
tookof fherr ingandgav eitbackt ome, that'
swher e
isawt hati t'
sr eallycomet oanend, Ihav emessed
upandi t
'sbey ondr epair
s.Thebabi esar eokaybut
ther eisabi tofacompl i
cat i
onwi thKhany akwezwe,
i
tssomet hingt odowi t
hbl oodbuti twi llbemor e
visiblewhenshei sonherl astmont h, she' s7mont hs
pregnantandonl yt womont hst ogo.Ihopei tsnot
somet hingmaj ort hatthedoct orscan' tt akecar eof .
Shet ookJnrwi thherandi twasf orthebest ,i
woul dn'tbeabl etost ayalonewi thJnr , yest he
hel persar ear oundbutIdon' twantt osepar atehi m
wi thhi smom.Ipi ckhi m upf rom t hepl aycent er
ev erydayanddr ophi m offatSi ya'shome.Her
mot herwasn' tsuppor ti
veoft hedeci sionwe' vet ook
ofsepar ating, Idon' tknowwhatt hismeansei ther.
Siy ahasnev erment i
onedt hatshewant sadi vorce
butIhaveherri
ng, Icarr
yitwithmeev er
yday .Iam
onmywayt oJnrspl aycent
er,I'
l
ldrophim offand
takecarofafewt hingsbeforegoinghome, wellit
s
notevenahomewi thoutmyf amilybei
ngther e,
it'
s
j
ustalonelycol
dhouse.Ipi ckedupJnrandhe
wasntfeel
ingwell
Me:
What
'swr
ongson?
Jnr
:Idon'
tknow.Ij
ustwantt
osl
eep.
HesleptandIputasmal l
blanketonhim sincehe
wasf eel
ingcol
dy etiti
s30degr eestoday.We
passedbyt hechemistandIgotaf ewmedi cine'
sfor
hi
m.Af terafewmi nuteswearri
v edatSiy
a, hermom
wasnthome.
Siya:
Whyishesl
eepi
ng?He'
susual
l
yupand
runni
ngatt
hist
ime
Me:Ithinkhehasfl
ue,hewasn'
tfeel
ingwel
ltoday
butIdi
dgethim somemeds.Hopet hey'
l
lhel
p.You'
ll
cal
lifyouneedanyt
hing
Si
ya:
Phi
l
a
Me:
Yes
Si
ya:
uhm nev
ermi
ndsor
ry.
Me:
Yousur
e?
ShenoddedandItookmycarkeysandwentout,
j
ustbefor
eIcoul
ddr i
veof
fshecall
edmeagain
Si
ya:
Didy
oueat
?
Me:
NobutIwasgoi
ngt
ogr
absomet
akeaway
son
mywayhome.
Shestar
tedbi
ti
nghernail
sandlookedatmel
i
keshe
wasindeepthoughtandshewasnervous
Si
ya:
WellIcookedsoIwaswonder
ingi
fyou'
dli
ke
metodi
shupf oryou
Me:
I'
dlov
ethat
Shewentbacki nsi
deandIwasn' tsurewhetherI
shouldf oll
owi nsoIj uststoodoutsideandleaned
onmycar ,I
'm dri
vi
ngmyG- 63whichisthesameas
hers.Ilaughwhenev erIlookatitandr ememberwhy
Iboughti t.Shecameandcal l
edmet ocomeinside.
Thef oodl ookeddeliciousandsur edidtast
eas
goodasi tlooked.
Si
ya:
Thebabi
eski
ckal
otl
atel
y
Me: I
'
dlovetofeel
thatagain,
wishIwasaround
whenithappens.I
'
m suretheboysarepl
aying
soccer
Si
ya: May
bet
heyar
e.
Welaughedali
tt
leandi
twasawkwardagai
n.We
at
einsil
enceandshebr
oughtmeorangej
uice
Si
ya:
Idon'
thav
eanybeerher
esot
hiswi
l
ldo
Me:
Thanky
ou
Shekeptonlooki
ngatmel ikeshewantedtosay
somethi
ngbutshewasn'tsurewhethertosayitor
not
.AndIwasn'tgoi
ngtopushherandaskheri f
shewantstosaysomething.
Me:
Ihavetogetgoi
ngnow.Ineedt
obeatwor
kina
f
ewminutes
Siy
a: Ohokay
.Youmaygo,
I'
ll
cal
li
fweneed
anything.
Igotcl
osertoherandembr acedherwi
thahug,she
wasrel
uctantatf
irstbutsheendedupgiv
ingi
n.I
ki
ssedherf
oreheadandl
etgo.
Si
ya:
Goodby
e
Inoddedandl eft.Myhear tfeltsoheav yandI
real
izedhowmuchImi sshav i
ngherar ound, how
muchImi sshav ingheri nmyar msandIneedher
backi nmyl ife.HowIneedmyf ami lybackt oget her.
Myf athert oldmet ofightf ormyf ami l
yandkeepi t
togethert hatIshoul dn'tletwhathappenedt omy
parent shappent omet oo.Longi ngf orSiyamt handa
andJnr spr esencemakesmeev enmor e
encour agedandeagert ofindoutwhathappened
thatnight .Ineedt opr ov et oSi yathatIwasn' tinmy
sensest hatni ght, IbelieveIwasdr ugged, may be
someoneel sewoul dthi nkim usi ngt hatasan
excuseorIt hinki twi l
lmakemegetSi yabackbut
honest lyitsf orclosur e, forSiyat oseet hatIdi dn't
i
ntent i
onal l
yhur ther .Yest hereist hatli
ttl
ehopeand
wisht hatshemi ghtcomebackt omebutt hat'snot
whatI 'm doi ngt hisf or.IwantOr atiletosuf fer,she
hasr uinedmyf ami l
yandIcan' tjustlethergol ike
that.Buty et ,Ican' tdoany thingt oherwi thouthav i
ng
thepr oofIneed.I '
m onmywayt oAt hi
'shisbeen
hel
pingmef i
ndoutwhatwenton.Wehavethe
CCTVf oot
ageofthecl
ubIwasat,I
'mreal
l
yhopingi
t
hassomethingt
hatcoul
dhelpmewiththi
s.
Athi
:I'
m gl
adyouhereman,
Iwasaboutt
ocal
lyou.
Youhav et
oseethi
s.
Wr ushedt ohisst
udyroom wher
ehehasallthese
elect
ronics.HeputontheUSBstickandavi
deoof
thatnightplay
ed.I
tshowedasIent er
edatt
heclub
andwhathappenedaf ter.
Me:
Idon'
tgett
his
At
hi:
Lookcar
eful
l
yandl
i
sten.
Therewasagi rl
whowast al
kingt othewait
erthat
wasser vi
ngme, theyspikedsomet hi
nginmydr i
nk
andandgav eittome.Idr anki t
,aftert
hatIkept
l
ooki ngar
oundthat '
swhenOr ati
l
ecameandwe
arguedthanmov edout si
de.Shei nject
edmeanda
guyandgi r
lwearingBalaclavascamet ohel
pher
carrymeintomycar .Itendst here.
Me:Idon'tevenknowwhattosayaboutt
his.I
'
m so
angry,
howcoul dIbesostupi
dwhydidIevengo
ther
efirstpl
ace.HowdidsheknowIwastherefr
om
t
hef
ir
stpl
ace
Athi:
She'sbeenfol
l
owingyouaround.She'
ssti
ll
fol
lowingyouandyourfami
lyar
oundPhi l
a,Si
yaand
Jnraren'
tsafe.
Phi
l
a:Ihav
etogett
hem
Athi
:Youcan'
t.They'
llknowweontothem.Orati
lei
s
notworki
ngalonePhil
a, sheswi
tht
hepeoplethat
att
ackedNkosiandkidnappedhernSiyashe'
snow
worki
ngwiththem andtheyareonyourtai
l
.
Me:
Myf
ami
l
yisi
ndangerman!Let
'sgo.
Athi
:Wher
earewegoing,
youdoknowt
heycanki
l
l
them i
fweshowup?
Me:
Wenotgoi
ngt
oSi
ya'
s,we'
regoi
ngt
othecl
ub.
Idr
oveasf
astasIcoul
dandgott
othecl
ub
Me:
Cal
lyourmangerf
orme
Wai
ter
:Yessi
r
ThemanagercameandIorder
edhimtocallast
aff
meeti
ngi
mmedi at
ely
,bei
ngknownforyourweal
th
hel
pssometi
mesandknowingpeopl
ehelpstoo,
it
somet
imesget
syouwhaty
ouneed.
Thewai
ter
scamei
nandIf
oundexact
lywhoIwas
l
ooki
ngfor
.
At
hi:
Itsher
Shekeptonl
ooki
ngdownseei
ngt
hatIl
ookf
ami
l
iar
ori
twasthegui
lt
.
Me:
She'st
hegi
rlI
'
mlookingfor
,she'
l
lbeback
t
omorr
ow.I'
mtaki
ngherwit
hme
Manager
:Youcan'
tdot
hat
Me:
Yourbossknowsal
ready
.
Igrabbedt
hegi
rlandl
ucki
l
yshedi
dn'
tcausea
scene
Gi
rl
:Wher
ear
eyout
aki
ngme?
At
hi:
You'
l
lsee.What
'sy
ourname?
Gi
rl
:Kat
,Kat
lego.
Me:
Kat
,doIl
ookf
ami
l
iart
oyou?
Kat
:Yesy
oudosi
r.
Wegott
omyhouseandgott
obusi
ness.
Me:
Star
ttal
ki
ng
Kat
:Whatshoul
dIt
alkabout
?You'
reconf
usi
ngme?
Athi
:Don'
tpl
aygamesy
oungl
ady
,wedon'
thav
e
ti
me.
Wewer
erecor
dingherandshewasscar
edatf
ir
st
Kat:Somegi
rlcamet
omet
hatni
ght
,shegav
eme
thi
s.
Shetookoutabot
tl
efr
om herbagandgav
eitt
o
Athi
.
Kat:Shesai
dIshouldputiti
ny ourdr
inkorshe'dkil
l
mei fIdi
dn'
t.Af
terIputi
tinyourdri
nkandserv ed
you.Shegavemeanenv elopewithR100000i nsi
de.
At
hi:Thiswastomakey oudizzyandloosey
our
memor yabit
.Thatexpl
ainswhyy ourvi
si
onwas
bl
urr
y,youwerehypnoti
zed.
Me:
Doy
ouknowwhot
hiswas?
Kat:Aftery
ousteppedoutwit
hthegirl
youargued
wit
h, Iwascuri
oussoifol
lowedyou.Theyar
gueda
bi
tonwhatt odonext
,Idi
dhearafewnames.I twas
OraandAmanda, Idon'
trememberhearingt
heguy s
name.Ir anawaywhent heyappr oachedme, lucki
ly
theydidn'tseeme.Ifoundt hi
swhent heylef
t.I
guesst heydroppeditmistakenl
ycausef r
om whatI
resear
ched, it
'snotsomethingthattheywould've
purposelydropped.
At
hist
art
edl
aughi
ngandwebot
hlookedathi
m
Athi
:ohsor
ry,
Ishoul
dn'
tbel
aughi
ng.Dudethey
i
nject
edyouwitht
his .I
tst
omakey our
,youryou
know
Me:
Mywhat
!
Athi:Yourmanhoodst ayupy ouknow.I tmakesy ou
reall
yhor nyandy oucoul ddi
eify oudon' tgetsome
i
nt imes.Yourer ecti
onget ssti
mul atedbyt hi
s
chemi caltheyusedony ou.That'swhyy ouhad
sexual i
ntercousewithOr ati
l
epl ussheposedt obe
Siya.Ifyouwat chthevideocar efull
yit
sbeencutof f
short,youhav en'
treall
yseent hef ul
lvideo.
Kat
:MayIgonow?
Me: Yeahsur e,
oneofmydr
iver
swil
ldr
opy ouof
f.
Youdon' tknowmeandIdon'
tknowyou,noneof
thi
sev erhappened.Doy
ougetme?
Kat
:Yessi
r.
Igav
eheranenv
elopewi
thhal
fami
l
li
oni
nsi
deand
shel
eft
.
Me:
BacktoyouAt
hi,
whatdoy
oumeanIdi
dn'
tsee
t
heful
lvi
deo.
Athi
:Iwasabletogett
heful
lvi
deo.Perksofbeinga
computergeek y ouoweme.You'l
lwatchthatat
yourowntime.Ri
ghtnowIhavetogo,Igotadate
Me:
Wit
h?
At
hi:
Somegi
rlIwor
kwi
th.
Me:
AndSneh?
At
hi:
She'
saf
ri
end.Ican'
twai
tuponheral
lmyl
i
fe.
Hesaidashecl osedthedoor .Hesentmet hev ideo
andIwat cheditsoonaf t
erhel ef
t.Icouldn'tbelieve
whatIwasseei ngandhear i
ng.Sheusedanaudi o,
I
don'
tknowwher eshegoti tbutitwasSi yat al
king.
Thi
sgi r
lreall
yknewwhatshewasdoi ngandshedi d
i
tthoroughlybutIwi l
lnotlethergetawaywi t
hit.
Aft
eraf ewhour sIorderedsomepi zzaandat ewhile
Iwatchedamov ie,Iwassobor edandImi ssedmy
famil
y.Ir
ecei
vedatextfr
om Si
ya,whichi
svery
str
angecausewheneversheneedssomethi
ngshe
cal
ls.
Si
ya:
"I'
m hungr
y"
Ical
l
edheri
mmedi
atel
y
Me: Whatdoyouwannaeat?Shoul
dIorderyoua
burger
,pi
zzaoryouneedappl
es?Frui
tsaladorsea
food?
Si
ya:
Justopent
hegat
ePhi
l
asande
Me:Whatdoyoumean?You'r
ehere,y
oushoul
dn'
t
bedr
ivi
ngatt
hesehour
sSiyamthanda
Shedroppedthecall
ami nuteagosoIguessI'
ve
j
ustbeentalki
ngtomy sel
f.Iopenedt
hegateand
rushedout
side.Shewaswear i
ngablackcoatwit
h
sli
ppers
Me:
What
'sgoi
ngon?
Si
ya:
uhm Idon'
tknow,
canwej
ustgeti
nsi
de.
Wegotinsi
deandIwentt
othefr
idgel
ooki
ngf
or
somet
hingIcanqui
ckl
ymakeforher
Si
ya:
Whatar
edoi
ng?
Me:
I'
m maki
ngy
ouf
ood,
yousai
dyou'
rehungr
y
Si
ya:
Oht
hat
,noI
'
m nothungr
y.
Shetookoffhercoatandshewasgorgeous,
she
waswearingaseet hr
oughnightdr
esswit
hno
under
wearon
Me:
Siy
a
Icoul
dn'
tevenbreat
heproper
lyasshecamecl
oser
tome.Shekissedmyli
pswhiletaki
ngof
fmypants
Si
ya:
Sssh,
I'
m hungr
yfory
ou.
Shestrokedmymanhoodandkneel eddownand
star
tedsucki ngoni t.Itf
eltsoamazing,Icoul
dn' t
holdmy self.Ipickedherupandt ookherupst airs
whilerubbingherv i
rgi
nashewassowetIcoul dn't
waittolickallthatcum of f
.Il
aidheront hebedand
worshippedherv ir
gina.Hermoansdr ov
emecr azy
Si
ya:
Geti
nsi
deofmeal
ready
!Shescr
eamed
Icont
inuedteasi
ngherandsheseemedt obev ery
fr
ustr
atedandimpati
ent.Shehadbeenlongingfor
measmuchasIhav ebeenlongi
ngforher.Taking
col
dshower
sev
erymor
ningwasn'
tanyf
un.
Me:
I'
ll
begent
le
Shenoddedherhead.Ii nsertedmypeni sinher ,she
wassot i
ghtanditfeltsogood.Ipassi onat elymade
l
ov etoher,wit
hev erythrustIshar edthelov eIhav e
forherwi t
hher.Ipouredmyhear toutinawaywe
bothconnect.Thisdoesn' tfi
xt hi
ngsbuti tspeaks
theunspokenwor ds.Itbindst ogetherallthe
emot i
onswecar ryandwe' r
eabl etoletitallout.It
connectsourbodies,ourmi ndsandoursoul s.Siya
andIhav emadel ovemanyt imesbutt hishast obe
oneoft hebestwe'veev erhad.Shekepton
whisperingtomyear s.Telli
ngmehowmuchshe
l
ov esme.
Siy
a:Ilovey ouMapholoba,I
'v
et r
iedhati
ngyou.
..
Aaaah..butIfai
lcompletel
y.I
'veforgi
venyoubutI
can'
tforget.Aaaah!Shi
t
Me: Baby,I
'
m sorr
y.IknowI'
vedoneyouwrong.
Pleaseletmefixi
t,giv
emeonemor echanceplease.
IknowwhatI '
m askingfori
stoomuchbutpleaselet
mel oveyou.
Iqui
ckenedmypaceandherhear
twasbeat
ingf
ast
.
Icoul
dfeelherbui
l
dingup
Me:
Wai
tforme
Ipenet
rat
edherdeepl
yandshewasscr
eami
ngout
myname
Si
ya:
ICANT!
Sheletgoandbreathedoutl
oudly
.Shegother
endi
ngandIdidn't
.Mypeniswasst i
l
lhardasarock,
Ifet
chedatowelandcleanedherup.Shewascryi
ng
Me:
Siy
awhat
'swr
ong,
didIhur
tyou?Ar
eyouokay
?
Siy
a: Noyoudidn'
thur
tme.It
sjustthat
,thi
s,us,
thi
s
shouldn'
thav
ehappened.I
'
m sorryIshouldget
going.
Me:Younotgoi
nganywher
e,y
oucan'
tdr
iveal
oneat
t
histi
me.I
t'
scloset
omidni
ghtSi
yamt
handa.
Siy
a:Ican'
tbewi
thy
ouher
e.Thi
sshoul
dn'
thav
e
happened.
Me:I'
m sor
ry,you'
rer
ight
.Thisshoul
dn'
thav
e
happenedanditwasami st
ake.You'
l
lsl
eepherand
I
'l
lusethenextroom.
I'
venev erbeensoconf used,hur tandfr
ustr
ated.I
threwmy selfonthebedandl aidthereandthinki
ng.I
reall
ydon' tunderst
and.Thissituati
onismor e
confusingt hansolvi
ngamat hssum.Idon'tknow
whatt odoany moreandI'm sosoconf used.When
shesaidwhatwedi dshouldn'thavehappened,my
heartsank.I '
mr eal
lyhur
t.Whi leIwascaughtupi n
myt hought stherewasaknockonmydoor
Si
ya:
MayIcomei
n?
Me:
Yes.
ThemomentshecameclosetomeIembr
acedher
I
'm myar
msandlaidheronthebed
Si
ya:
Doy
oul
oveme?
Me:Yes,morethanyouthi
nkIdo.Iknowyou
doubti
ngthel
oveIhaveforyou.ButIr
eal
l
ydolov
e
you,j
ustl
etmeshowy ou.
Iki
ssedherandwemadel oveagain,
thi
sti
mewe
weresil
ent
,justourhear
tsspeakingt
ooneanother
,
ourbodi
esacceptingoneanotherandoursoul
s
bei
nginter
twined.
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enda:
Inser
t74
Day sar egoi ngbypr ettyquick.I n2weeksf r
om now
I
'llbepoppi ng i t'
sf unnywhenIsayt hat,well I
'
llbe
givingbi rt
ht omyquads.Myboy sandagi rlwill
fi
nal l
yar ri
v eandI '
m mor ethanexci t
ed.Phi l
ahas
beenget ti
ngmor et hingsf ort hebabi eswi th
Babal waaccompany inghim ashehassai dt hatit
s
danger ousf ormet obewal kingar oundshoppi ng
mal lsbuy ingbabycl othesandt hingswe' l
lneed.I
hav ebeenst ay
ingathomesi ncet hePhilasagaand
theni ghtwhenIwentt oPhi la, Ihav eregretsabout
thatni ghtandapar tofmedoesn' tregretittoo.
Honest ly,
Idon' tknowwher ePhi l
aandIst andr ight
now, sincet hannot hingbet weenushashappened.
Notev enababyki ss,wej usthugher eandt hereand
thecont actwemakei swhenhegi vesme
somet hing, holdsmyhandsorr ubsmyt ummy .He
hasn'ttri
edany thingandI '
m happyt hather espects
meandmydeci sion.Heal waystellsmet hathe' ll
provet hathedi dn'tdoany t
hingonpur poset hat
nightandhewoul dnev erhurtmet hatwayandi
beli
ev ehim.Thathel ovesmeandhewi ll
fightf or
ourmar r
iageev eni fit'
sthelastthinghewoul ddoon
Earth,hescar edmewhenhesai dthat .Idon' tknow
whathemeantbyt hatandI '
m notev enwi ll
ingt o
ask,may behemeanthewoul ddieforourmar ri
age,
Idon'twanthi mt odie.Howcoul dhel eav emewi t
h
5babiest ot akecar eofonmyown?Tosayt he
honestt ruth,Ist i
lllovePhi l
asandeandwi llalway s
l
ov ehim, butfort het i
mebei ngIj ustneededspace
from him.Ti meal one, timetomy sel fandgetmy
headst raight.Ijustneededt ogetawayf r
om hi m
becausehewassuf f
ocat i
ngmeandIwasdeepl y
hurt.IbelieveI '
m heal ednowandr eadyt odi scover
thetruth, i
fOr atil
edi dsetupPhi l
a,shedoesn' tknow
whoshehasmessedwi t
h.Philahasbeenupdat i
ng
mewi thhi sfi
ndi ngsandwhatshehasdonewas
purecr ueltyandherai m wast osepar atemyand
Phila,tor uinmymar ri
age.Wel l Iam notl et t
ingt hat
happen, IIwasnt100poundsr i
ghtnowI '
dbeupand
going, sear chingf orherwi thmyf av ori
tegun.I '
v elet
Oratilegetawaywi thf artoomanyt hi
ngs, shewon' t
getawaywi tht hedamageshehasdonet histime.I
don'twanthert odi e, Icouldnev erlivewit hthef act
thatPhi laormy selftookJnr smot herslif
e.Thet ruth
hasawayofr ev ealingi tselfandIdon' twantt hat20
to30y ear sf rom now, Jnrwoul dbehat ingus
becauseweki l
ledhi smot her ,thatwoul dbepur e
cruelty.Butsheshoul dknowt hatshewi l
l never,I
meannev erev erseehersonagai n.I '
vebeenwai t
ing
foradr i
v ertocomef et chme, Phi l
aandIhav ea
doct orsappoi nt menti nlesst han15mi nut es,Idon' t
knowi fPhi lahasf or got t
ent osendadr iverorhei s
busy ,wel astt alkedl astni ghtandI '
m get ti
ngv ery
i
mpat ient .Idon' tli
kebei ngl atenowday s andI '
ve
beenkeepi ngt rackoft i
mesi nceIj usthav enot hing
todo.Ir eceiv edacal lfrom Phi la
Phi
la:Bobo,
sor
ryf
ort
hedel
ay.I
'
m comi
ngt
ofet
ch
younow.
Me:
Wer
en'
twegoi
ngt
omeetatt
hehospi
tal
and
y
ou'
dsendadr
iver
?
Phil
a:Yesbutt
her
ewasaf
ewchanges.I
'
mjustf
ive
minutesaway
Me:Goback,Iwanttobefet
chedbyadri
verand
meetyouatthehospi
tal
.Whychangepl
answithout
ev
ennotif
yingme!
Phil
a:Youcrazy
,st
opmakingabigdealoutoft
his.
I
'm comingsoyoubet
terbewai
ti
ngoutsidewhenI
getther
e.
Heendedt hecal l
,Phi
lasandedoesn' tknowme
whydidishecomi ngtopickmeup?Il ookhorri
ble,
hecan'tseemel i
kethis myhai ri
sn' tcombed.I
stoodupandwentt obed, I
'm notgoingt othe
hospit
alanymor e.Nayewi l
lhavetof orgiveme,Phil
a
changedtheplanswehav emade.I m notr eadyto
seehim,li
kewhydi dhedecidet ocomepi ckme
up Ij ustdon'tunderstand.Hebar gedi ntomy
room
Phi
l
a:Idi
dtel
lyout
owai
tformeout
side
Me:
I'
m sl
eepi
ngasy
oucansee
Phi
l
a:Let
'sgoBobo
Me:I
'm notgett
ingoutofhere,di
dyouseehowI
l
ook?Wellactuall
yyouweren'tev
ensupposedt
o
seeme.Getout
Phi
la:
You'
rer
eal
lyl
oosi
ngit.I
'
veseenyoual
ready
nowgetupwehavetogo.We'r
eal
readyget
ti
nglat
e.
Me: Wewoul
dbeont
imei
fyouhadj
ustsentt
he
dr
iver
Phi
la:ButI
'
m herenowl ady.Andwhat'
swit
hy ou
wanti
ngthedriv
ertofetchyou,i
t'
snotli
keyouhada
dat
ewi t
hhim orsomething
Me:
Act
ual
l
yIdo,
wehadmanypl
ans.Happynow?
Phi
l
a:St
opbehav
ingl
i
keachi
l
dNdy
amt
handa!
Iwasaboutt
oal
soshoutathi
m buthel
i
ftedmeup
andcar
ri
edmeofft
hebed
Me:Whatareyoudoi
ng!
!Letgoof
fme!Putme
downPhi
lasande
Ikeptonscreamingbuthej
usti
gnoredme.I
screamedsoloudwhenhewasput t
ingmeint hecar
,
sot henei
ghbor
scouldhearmeandcomer escue
mefrom t
hiski
dnappingmonst
er!Iam v
eryangr
y
andannoyedri
ghtnow.
Phi
l
a:Whenar
eyougi
vi
ngbi
rt
hagai
n?
Me:Phi
layoudon'
tknowwhenI
'
m gi
vi
ngbi
rt
h
howcouldyoubesoevi
l!
Phil
a:What!Comeon, don'
ttel
lmeyou'
recr
ying
becauseofthatnow?Idoknowwheny ou'
regivi
ng
bi
rthIjustwant
edtoteaseyouaft
eryou'
drepli
ed
Me:
Youar
eev
il
Phi
l
a:OkayI
'
m sor
ry,
wannagr
absomet
hingt
oeat
?
Me:
Yespl
ease.Iwi
pedof
fmyt
ear
sandsmi
l
ed
Hehuf
fedandmumbl
edt
ohi
msel
f
Me:Youcansaywhat
every
ouwannasayl
oudand
cl
earPhi
l
a
Phi
la:
No, Idon'
twannasayany
thi
ng.Whatdoy
ou
wanttoeat?
Me:
Justaf
rui
tsal
adwi
l
lbeokay
.Thanks
Phi
l
a:Sur
e
Hewentoutandhi
sphonerang,hewasabitfarsoI
woul
dn'tgor
unni
ngandrushitt
ohim.Ii
gnoredit
andi
trangagai
n,i
twasKaysoIansweredi
t
Me:
Kay
Kay
:Madam Boss,
howar
eyou!I
tsbeenawhi
l
e
Me:Itsurehasbeen,
Phil
alef
thi
sphone.Youcan
cal
lagaininj
ust20minsorl
ess
Kay:Iwant
edt
ocheckifhe'l
lbejoi
ningusfort
he
2o'
cl
ockmeeti
ngbutyou'
llcheckwithhi
m andcal
l
menhe?
Me:
Wil
ldo.
Wet al
kedf
orawhil
eandthenendedthecal
l.Phi
l
a
wasonhiswaybackanditseemsasifhehad
boughtmoret
hanthesal
adIaskedfor
.
Me:
Whatar
eal
lthesegr
ocer
ybagsf
or?
Phil
a:Grocer
ies,
justaf
ewt
hingsI
'
lldr
opbyt
he
orphanagehome
Me:
Theor
phanage?I
'
m conf
used
Phi
l
a:Oh,
Idi
dn'
ttel
lyou.Theguy
sandi
hav
e
star
tedgi
vi
ngthingssuchasgr oceri
es,
clothes
booksandtoystochari
ti
es,orphanagehomes, old
agehomesetc.Itwasactual
lyNtokozo'sideathat
shespokeabouttoLyandasowewentaheadwi thit
.
Me:Wow,Idi
dn'
tknowaboutthat
.Whatyouguys
ar
edoingisr
eal
lygr
eat.Whenwil
lyoudr
opthese
of
f?Iwannacomewithyou
Phi
l
a:We'
l
lgoaf
tert
hedoct
orsappoi
ntment
.
Inoddedandat ethesaladhegotme.Wegott o
Naye'soff
iceandshewasal r
eadywai t
ingf
orus.We
didtheusualproceduresandshewentoutf orabout
anhoursay i
ngthereareaf ewthi
ngssheneededt o
checkandbesur eofbef or
eshegetsbackt ousand
confir
ms.Herreactionmademener vousandIjust
wantedtoknowwhat '
sgoingonalready
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:Yes,j
ustner
vous.It
hinkIneedt
ouset
he
bat
hroom.
Istoodupandwenttothebathr
oom,luckil
yher
off
icehasanensuitebathr
oom whi
chmakest hi
ngs
easierf
orme.Igotoutandshewasalreadythere
t
alki
ngt
oPhi
l
a
Me:
Whatdi
dImi
ss?
Naye: Nothi
ng,wewer ewaiti
ngf ory ou.Sincey ou'r
e
herenow, Ishouldgettoit
.Ionlyhav eaf ewmi nutes
l
eftwi t
hy ouguys.Wehav edonemul t
iplecheckups
andt est
sandwehav eseenthatoneoft hebabi es
hasal ackofblood.Thissometimeshappensal ot
whensomeonei spregnantwithtwi ns,tri
plet
sand
quadset c.Becausetheydon'
tall comeoutper fectly
normal ,
there'
salwayssomecompl i
cationshereand
ther
e.Sot hereisahugechancet hatoneofy our
babieswi l
lbeanAlbino.Ther
elackofbl oodi shi gh
andnobl ooddonor swouldwork.
Ididn'tknowhowt oreactorev enfeelaboutthe
newsIhav erecei
ved.Iam shocked, numbandI
didn'
texpectt hi
sbutatt hesamet i
me, Iam happy.I
am happyi twasn'tsomet hingmor ecomplicated
andadangert omybabi es.Whethermybabyi s
al
binoornoti tsthesame, Isti
llf
eelthesameway
andwi l
lst
il
ll
ov ehim/hert hesamewayasIl ov et
he
others.He/Shei sabl essingfrom God Phi l
awas
smi l
i
nganddi dn'
tseem af fect
edatal l
Phi
l
a:That
'sal
l
?
Nay
e:Yes
Phil
a:ohwel
lokay
,iguesswe'
l
lseey
ouwhenshe'
s
popping
Me:
Iwon'
tbepoppi
ng,
I'
ll
begi
vi
ngbi
rt
h
Phi
l
a:Samedi
ff
erence.
Ij
ustdeci
dedtopret
endasifIdi
dn'
thearthat.Phi
l
a
j
ustannoysmesomet i
mesandI'
m star
ti
ngt o
bel
iev
ethathedoesitonpur
pose.
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouokay
?
Me: YesI'm okay,butIdon'
tknowhowIf eel,
Iguess
I
'm scared.I'
vehear dmanyt hi
ngsthathappento
Albi
nopeopl e,theyburnthem.Bul l
ythem andmake
them feelli
ketheydon'tbelong.Idon'twantmychil
d
toexperienceallthat
Phil
a:Thatwon'thappenSiya,
you'
rej
ustov er
thi
nkingthi
s.Don'tworr
yaboutanyt
hing,Ever
ythi
ng
wil
lbef i
ne.I
'm exci
tedact
uall
y andi hav
eaf ew
thi
ngstoasky ou.
Me:
Iguessy
ou'
rer
ight
.Yeahsur
eyoucanask
Phil
a:Howar
ewegoingtodot
his?Imeany
ou'
reat
yourmoms,t
henur
sery
?Thebabieset
c
Me:I'
llbemov i
ngbackinPhi
la.Idoneedy ourhelp
andJnrmi sseshome.Hedoesn'tbeli
eveme
anymor ewhenItel
lhi
m we'
reonav acat
ion pl us
ther
e'snotmuchspaceathomeandwe' llneedso
muchspacesost ayi
ngathomewon' tbeagood
i
dea.
Phi
l
a:Sowheny
oumov
ingi
n?
Me:
Aweekbef
oremyduedat
e
Phi
l
a:That
'snextweek.
Inodded,hewasdrivi
ngtot heorphanagehomeand
whenwegott her
e,Isawaf amili
arcar
.Itwas
Danny'
shewasher ewi t
hZee.Thepeopl efrom t
he
homehelpeduswi t
ht hegrocerybagsandthekids
werehuggingDannyandPhi la,i
tseemsasi ft
hey
areal
readyfondofthem andt heywerereal
lyget
ting
al
ongwel l
Me:
Youknewaboutt
his?
Zee:No,
im assurpr
isedasyouare.Ionl
ygott
o
knowaboutitj
ustafewmi nut
esago.Hedidn'
tev
en
tel
lmewherewe'regoing.
Me:Phil
atoldmeitwasNt
okozo'
sidea,
Iwonder
whydidn'
tshetel
lus
Zee:Apparentl
yshetol
dLyandat odoi tandthen
Lyandasuggesteditt
otheguysandt heywent
l
ookingforhomesandchar i
ti
estogi v
et oand
support
.Theyhav e5sofar
,theotherswentt here.
Theydoi tever
yMondayandSat urday.Somet i
mes
theyj
ustcomebywhenev ertheywantt o.Its
somethingthat'
sbecomereall
yclosetot hei
rheart
s.
Me:
Youknowsomuchal
ready
Zee:I
tsjustt
hewayDannyexplainedi
t,hewasso
proudofhimselfandyoucoul
dseehelovedwhathe
wasdoing.Atleastt
heyspendthei
rmoneyongood
thi
ngs.
Me:Youcansayt hatagain.Comelet'sgojointhe
gi
rl
soverthere.Therewereabout7t eenagegirl
s
si
tt
ingi
nagr oup,theyalsostayhereand3oft hem
ar
edoingmat ri
c.Theirparent
sdiedatav eryyoung
agesomeoft hem don' tev enknowt heirpar ents.
Theirst ori
eswer ev erysadt ohearandi tmademe
real
izet het hingst hathappeni nourwor ldandwe
neverpaymuchat t enti
ont o.Theywer eamazed
whenIt oldthem Iam pr egnantwi thQuads.Someof
them don' tev enseet hemsel vesasmot hersoneday
becauseoft heabsenceofhav i
ngamot heri ntheir
l
ives.Theydon' tknowanymot herlylov e,themot her
anddaught erconnect i
onsot heyar eaf raidof
becomi ngpar entsast heyt hinkt heywi llf
ailtobe
goodmot her'stothem.Theydon' tev enknowhow
tochangeanappy .I twasr eall
yhear tbreakingt o
heart hem sayt hatandhowt heyhav egi venupon
thei
rdr eams.I thasbeenr eallyroughont hem and
theor phanagehasbeent hei ronl yhomeev en
thoughi tisal sojustst ruggl i
ng.Thehel pt heyar e
getti
ngf r
om t heguy snowhasgi vent hem hope.One
ofthem t oldmeast oryabouthowuncomf ortabl
ei t
waswhent heyhadt obegi vensani tarypadsbyt he
guy's i wonderwhyt heydi dn'tev enaskf orhelp
from us.Iheart hey 'veev enbr oughtt hem cl othes
andt heydon' thavest y
le i twasr eallygreatbei ng
thereandIl ov edev erymi nut eofi t.Phi l
acameand
tol
duswehavetol
eavenow.Wegather
edi nsi
de
andthewasapr
ayersessi
onf
orafewmi nutesand
weleft
.
Me:
Ireal
l
ylov
either
e.
Phil
a:Iknewyou'
dlov
eit,
itsmyf
avor
it
epl
acef
rom
theotherhomeswegivet
o.
Me:
Howl
onghav
eyoubeendoi
ngt
his?
Phi
la:
It'
sbeenamont handaweek.Weallcame
her
etogetheratf
irstandthendeci
dedtot
aketurns
andspli
toneanothereachMondayandSaturday
.
NextweekI'
llbegoingtotheoldagehome.
Me:Iwoul
dlov
etocomewi
thbutIdon'
tthi
nkI
'
llbe
abl
eto.
Phi l
a:You'
ll
comewi thmesomeot hertime.Seethe
girl
sy ouwerewi t
h?Bongasuggest edweshoul dget
them sneakersandclothes,l
iket
heiragegr oup
clothesandst y
li
shstuffbutwejustdidn'
tknow
whatt ogetsincewedi small
yfai
ledthefir
sttimewe
tri
edt ogetthem cl
othes .Wegott hem thesame
things
Me:Theyt
oldme .Iwonderwhyy
oudi
dn'
taskf
or
hel
p
Phi
l
a:It
'sact
ual
l
ysomet
hingwewant
edt
odoonour
ownyouknow.
Me:IunderstandbutIguessyou'
vereal
izedyou
needthehelp.I'
l
lst
artlooki
ngfort
hingstoget
Phi
la:Younotgoi
ngshoppi
ngSiyamthanda,
you
won'tbeset
ti
ngyourf
ootatthemall
t i
l
lyouarewel
l
.
Me:Youalway
smakei tsoundl
ikeI
'
m sick.Ther
e's
somethi
ngcal
ledonl
i
neshoppingPhil
a.You'r
eso
bossy
Phil
a:I
'm sorry
,it
sjustthatIdon'twantanythi
ngt
o
happentoy ou.Whatifsomeonebumpsy ouandyou
fal
l
,I'
m notgoingtotaket hatr
isk.
Ij
ustl
ookedathi
m andl
aughed.
Me:
You'r
eoverprot
ect
ive.Sowhathappenedwi
th
t
heOrat
il
esi
tuat
ion?
Helookedatmeweir
dlyandi
tseemedasi
fhedi
dn'
t
expectt
hatfr
om me.
Me:
What
?Ij
ustwannaknow
Phil
a:Ithoughty
ouwouldn'
twantt
oknow.Wel
lshe
confessedwhatshedi
dandgaveusthenameofher
boss.
Me:
Whoi
sit
?
Phi
l
a:Mongezi
Me:
WHAT!
Phi
l
a:Don'
twor
ry,
theyar
edead

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Todayi sthedayImovebacktomyhouse, t
osayI
haven'tmisseditwoul
dbeanunderstat
ementcause
Ireal
lyreall
ydidmissmyhousesodidJnr.Ther
e's
nothi
ngmucht opackasIhadjustl
eftwi
thafew
bagssomom hel pedmepackmycl othest his
mor ningandIwi llwai tf orPhilat ocomef etchme
afterhedr opsof fJnrathi scr èche.Jnrdi dn'tsleep
herel astni ghtandIhav en'
tseenhi m si nce
yest erdayaf ter noon, theyhadaf atherandsonday
whi cht urnedi nt oasl eepov er.Yest erdaywas
Orat il
esf uner al andnoneofusat tendedi t
,thest ory
wast hatshewasi nvolv edinadr ughai ghstandgot
shott her e,themenwhoki ll
edt hem di daper fectjob
asnot hingt racedbackt oPhi labei nginv olved.He
order edt heki llingofMongez i
,AmandaandOr atil
e
buthedi dn'tki ll t
hem hi msel f
.Hewoul dn'tbeabl et o
l
ivewi ththef actt hatheki l
ledJnr sbiological mot her
andi m gladhedi dn'tdoi thimsel f.Ifeltbadabouti t
atfirstwhenev erIl ookedatJnrbutOr awas
damaged, andhadal socausedal otofdamage.I
sawt hef ootageofev ery t
hingt hatt ookpl acet hat
dayandi tputmyhear tatease, Philadidn'thur tme
purposel yandhewasr eall
ysi ncer ewhenhe
apol ogized.Hewasbei nghonestandIappr eciated
thatandhowhewor kedhar donpr ovinghi s
i
nnocencet ome.Ist illdon'tknowwher ewest and
ri
ghtnowandnoonehasr aisedt hatsi tuati
onup.
Wecal leachot heratev erychanceweget ,hecal l
s
mebef oreIsl eepandweki ss,let'sjustsayt hi
ngs
arebackt ot hewaywewer ebutIhav entgotmyr ing
back, Ihav en'taskedf orittoo.Iguessatsomepoi nt
wewi llhav et ot al
kabouti t,soonerorl ater.Iam so
heav yandbi gi feelli
keIwei gh600pound' s,itsbeen
reall
ydi ffi
cul tt owal kcauseIgett ir
edwi thjust
taki
ngaf ewst eps.I'm alway sjustlayingi nbedor
cuddl edupont hecouch.Ieatal otandpeeal otso
that'
st heonl yt i
meIst andandmov ear ound.Iwear
sizeXXLdr essedbecauset heycov erupmy
stomachpr oper l
y,Ican'twearmyt i
ghtv est sand
clothes Ihav eplannedt ogost raighttot hegy ma
weekaf terIgi v ebirth,mymom suggestt hatIget
oneoft hoset ightbel t
ssoIcoul dputi tonmy
stomacht ogeti tbackt oshape, shesay ssheused
i
twhenshewaspr egnantwi thmeandmysi st er
s
andi twor kedsoIwi ll
defini
telytryitout .WhatI
haven' tfi
gur edouti showIwi l
lbreast f
eed.Ial way s
wonderwhatwi llIdoi ft
heyal lcryatt hesamet ime
andwantt obef ed,Imeanl ikeIonl yhav et wo
breast s i twoul dbegr eatifPhi lahadt hem t ooso
hecanbr eastf eedt heot hertwowhi l
eIf eedt he
othert
wo Icanonlyi
maginethat .It ext
ed
Phil
atohurr
y,Iwonderwhat'
staki
nghi m solong
becausehemustbeher ebynow.Her epl
iedsaying
heisbythegatealr
eadyIshoul
dlearntobe
pati
ent .Hecamei nandkissedmet hentookmy
bagstothecar,
mom wasn'thomeandwel ocked
andleftt
hekeywiththenei
ghbor.
Me:Iwantustogotothemal
l,
ther
eareaf
ew
t
hingsineedbef
oret
hebabi
esarri
ve
Phil
a:Whatdoy
ouneed?It
houghtBeeandIbr
ought
ever
ythi
ng
Me:
Noy
oudi
dn'
t,
Ineedabr
eastpump
Phi
la:
Whatf
or?You'
l
lbebr
eastf
eedi
ngandnot
usi
ngmachi
nesonmybabi
es
Phil
acanbesooldf
ashi
onedsomet
imes Idon'
t
knowwhatgoeson
Me: Iwon'tbeusingmachinesPhilasande.Itwi
ll
helpalot,whati
ftheyall
cryatthesamet i
meand
theyallhatefomular
,Iwil
lneedtopumpmy
breastmil
kf ort
hem soyoucanf eedtheot her
s
usi
ngabot
tlewhil
eIusemyboobont
heot
her
syou
knowvi
seversa.
Phi
l
a:Ooh,
howcomeIdi
dn'
tthi
nkoft
hat
?
Me:Onlyyouhav
eananswert
othat.Didyougetany
f
ormula,bot
tl
esandbr
ushest
ocleanthebott
les?
Phi
l
a:No
Me:
Whatexact
lydi
dyouguy
sget
?
Phi l
a:I
tsnotmyfault
,IthoughtBabal
waknewt hese
things.Well
weboughtcl ot
hes,bl
ankets,
babybath
tubs,clot
hesandmor eclot
hes.Nappies,
wipes,
clothesandmoreclothes.
Me:
Youment
ionedcl
othes4t
imesal
ready
.
Phil
a:That
'swhatwebought
,mostofitwer
ecl
othes.
Sorr
ybutwecouldn'
tst
opbuyingcl
othesi
twas
real
l
yexcit
ing.
Il
ookedathi
m annoy
ed
Me:Andyouforgott
hemosti
mpor
tantt
hings
besi
descl
othes.
Phi
l
a:Iguessso.Babal
wadi
dn'
tsaywe'
dneed
br
eastpumps
Ij
ustgav eup sendingthesetwotodot he
shoppingwastheworsti
dea.Ishoul
d'v
eatl east
askedNay etobether
easshehasexper i
encein
gett
ingreadytohaveababyandbuyingbabyst uf
f.
Wegott oBabyci
tyandboughtsomeoft het hings
weneeded.Andwewentt oothershopsand
chemi stbuyi
ngmor enappi es,wipes, glycerine, baby
creamsandbabyt oi
letr
ies.Igott ooexci tedand
bought4babyt oil
etrybagsandsmal l groomi ngsets
whichhadbabynai lcutters,combsandcl i
ps.Igot
hairel
asticbandsforKhany aindifferentgi r
ly
coloursandmanymor eoft hestuf fIdi dn'tthink
we'dneedbutIboughtt hem anyway s.Webr ought
thebreastpump, babycar ri
ersandsl eeping
positi
oners.Moreclothesandbl anket s,f
or mul as
andbot tl
es.
Phil
a: Andy
ousaidyou'
reonlycomingtogeta
breastpumpbutnowwel eavi
ngthemal l
withthree
bigtroll
i
esfi
ll
edwit
hnessesaryandunnecessary
thi
ngs.
Me:
You'
l
lseet
hei
rneedssoon .
Peoplekeptonlooki
ngatme,I'
m sur
etheyar e
wonderi
ngwhyIhav esuchahugestomach, maybeI
shoul
d'vepri
ntedoutat'
shi
rtwr
itt
en"I
'm expecti
ng
quads"sotheycanunderst
and
Phi
l
a:Wannasi
tdownandeat
?
Me:It
hinkweshoul
djustgett
akeaway
s,Iwannago
homenow.
Phi
la:
Ithasn'
tbeenhomewi
thouty
ou,
itwasj
usta
col
dhouse.
Ididn'tknowwhatt osaytot hatsoIj ustsmi ledand
hewentt ogetussomef ood.Whi leIwai t
edf orhi
m
i
nt hecar .Af
teraf ewmi nuteshecamebackand
drovehome.Hesai dhehadasur pri
sef ormeandI
keptonaski nghim whatwasi tbuthewoul dn'tt
ell
me.WegothomeandIwasv eryexcitedt oseewhat
thesur prisewas.Thehel persunpackedal lthe
thi
ngswecamebackwi t
hfrom t hest oresand
packedt hebabyt hingsinthenur sery, Iwantedtodo
i
tmy selfbutPhilat ot
all
ydisagr eed,hedi dn'twant
met ogot othenursery.Wehadourl unchandhe
camebackwi
thabl
i
ndf
olderandbl
i
ndf
oldedme.
Me:
Wher
ear
eyout
aki
ngme?Phi
l
ait
sdar
k
Phil
a:of
causei
tsdar
kSi
ya,
you'
rebl
i
ndf
olded.Just
tr
ustme
Heledmetowearhewastakingme,
Iknewi
twas
upst
air
ssi
nceweusedtheli
ft
.
Phil
a:Standhereanddon'tmove.Ist
oodfora
coupleofminutes,
Ikeptonheari
ngsomeshuf f
li
ng
andhef i
nall
ycamet omeandt ookofft
hebli
ndfold.
Me:
Phi
l
asande!Thi
slookssoamazi
ng
I
twast henurser
yroom, i
thadbeenarr
angedand
repai
nted,itwasnowenl ar
gedandeverythi
ngwas
packedneat l
ynexttoeachcotwasast andwit
h
nappies,wipesandfreshtowel
s.
Me:Whendidyoudoallt
his?Theroom i
sbi
gger
now.I
tssobeaut
if
ulbabethankyou
Phil
a:Iremov edthewal lf
rom thenextroom and
j
oinedittogether.Theclosetsther
earef i
ll
edwithall
thei
rclothes,
I'v
esett hem apartandtheyallhave
separatedrawers.Andt her
e,iswhereallthenappies,
wipes,towels,
bathingi temsandt oil
etr
iesareand
wheny ouopent hatdoor .Itl
eadst otheirbathr
oom,
wher eall
fourbathingt ubshav ebeensetandeach
standhasev er
ythingy ouneed, from babyoi l
sto
babypowder setc.I'm sur ethey'
l
l bespacef orthe
stuffyouboughttoday .
Me:
iwannaseei
t.
Wewal kedtot
hebathr
oom dooranditwasso
beaut
if
ul,Iwasget
ti
ngreal
l
yemot i
onal.
Me:Phi
layoudi
dallt
his? i
tssobeaut
if
ul,
I'
m
amazedandoutofwords.Thankyouverymuch
Phil
a:Ididgethelpfr
om myf r
iendsandthegir
ls
al
socameov ertohelpout
.Thebat hr
oom was
Nceba'sidea,
thoughweallthoughtitwas
unnecessarybutoncewewer edonewi t
hit
.Itr
eall
y
captur
edmyhear t.
Me: Wow I '
m sohappy .Thanky ou Ikissedhi
s
cheekandcont inuedlookingaround,Iwassohappy
Icouldn'tevenexplai
nthewayIf eelinsi
de.Phi
l
a
wasal soallsmileyandhewaspr oudofhimsel
fand
happyt hathehasmademehappy
Phi
l
a:Babyweneedt
otal
k
Me:
About
?
Wesatdownatt henurser
yandIlai
dmyheadon
him whil
ehewasplayi
ngwi t
hmyhear ,
which
remindedmethatIhavetogetr
idofthesebr
aids.
Phil
a:It
saboutPhi l
a'sname, Ithi
nkweshould
changeit.Youknowhowev ery
onecall
smePhi l
a
andwhenhei saroundhe'llbecal
ledPhil
aandall
thatwil
ljustbeconfusing.Andwecan'tnamehim
Phil
aJnrcauseweal readyhaveaJnrsincewedon't
real
lyuset heJnr
sf i
rstnameLesl ey
.
Me:YesIgety
ou,
soi
sther
eanamey
ou'
vet
hought
of
?
Phi
la:
Yeswe'l
lnamehi
m Masandewhichmeans
l
et'
sgrow.Sohe'
ll
beMasandeBennet
tNgcobo
Me:
Ilov
eit
Phi
l
a:We'
l
lgr
ow,
ourl
i
ttl
efami
l
ywi
l
lgr
ow
Me:Di
dyoujustsayl
i
ttl
e?Youdoknowt
her
e'l
lbe
sev
enofus.
Phi
l
a:YesIknow.Ist
il
lwantmor
echi
l
dren
Ndy
amt
handa
Me:
Youcr
azy
!
Phil
a:Iwannahav
e11chi
l
dren.Wehav
e5nowsowe
need6more
Me:
That
'snev
ergoi
ngt
ohappen 5i
senough
Phi
l
a:ButSi
yamt
handa
Me:
Babe,
we'
l
ltal
kaboutt
hisonceJnri
s15
Phi
l
a:That
'si
n14y
ear
s!
Me:
Iknow
Phil
a:i
n14y
ear
s,we'
l
lbehav
ingour11nt
hbaby
.
Trustme
Ijustlaughedathi m andwecont inuedt al
kingabout
thef ut
urey etwedi dn'
tev endiscusswhati s
happeni ngbetweenus.I twasjustoneoft hose
wonder fulmoment swher ewej ustrelaxtoget her
anddon' tthinktoodeepoft hesituati
onsbet ween
us.Wher ewej ustgettor el
axandbondl i
ketheol d
day swhenwewer einhighschool .Whenwehadno
problemsandnowor r
ies,wedi dgot hrought hings
yettheywer en'
tashect icaswhatwehav ewent
thr
oughi nouradul thood.Phi l
asandeandIhav e
beent hroughsosomuchandIj ustneverseemy sel
f
withany oneel sebesideshi m, Ihav etol
dmy selfI
wouldmov eonf r
om hi m butt hatwasj ustme
deceivingmy sel
f.Icannev ermov eonfrom hi
m, he
i
st helov eofmyl i
fe,mysoul mat e,myhighschool
sweethear t,myhusband, thef atherofmychi l
dren
heisjustt heonef orme.
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Phil
a:Il
oveyoutooMaFuze.Let
'sgetupnow,
we
don'
twanttostr
ainy
ourback
Me:
Yeah,
act
ual
l
yIhav
eani
dea
Phi
l
a:Whati
sit
?
Me:Wel
lNayedidsayIcangi
vebi
rt
hnat
ural
l
yso
l
et'
sgopract
ice
Phi
l
a:I
'
m notsur
eift
hat
'
sagoodi
deabutl
et'
str
y.
HelaughedatmeandIwassoconf
usedast
owhy
hewaslaughi
ngatme
Me:
Whyar
eyoul
aughi
ngatme?
Phi
l
a:Sorr
y,I
'
m notl
aughi
ngaty
oubutI
'
mjust
i
magini
ngwhatwe'r
eaboutt
odo
Me:Phi
la,
itsnotl
i
kei
t'
sreal
l
yhappeni
ngmanwe'
re
j
ustpr
acti
cing.
Phi
l
a:Okayf
ine
Me:
You'
rev
erywei
rd.
Hel
aidmeont
hebedandf
ixedmypi
l
lowsf
orme.
Phil
a:I'
l
lbethedoct
or,
you'
ret
hepat
ient
.Okayt
ake
offyourcl
othes
Idi
dashei
nst
ruct
ed,
Iwasl
eftwi
thmyunder
wear
Phi
la:
Andtheunder
weart
oo.Wel
ll
etmedoi
tfor
youMrsNgcobo
Hetookof
fmyunder
wearandIwasgi
ggl
i
ng,
Idon'
t
knowwhy
Phi
l
a:Ri
ght
,nowopeny
oul
egs
Idi
dashesai
dandhekeptonswal
l
owi
nghi
ssal
i
va.
Phi
l
a:Abi
twi
der
Me:
You'
recr
azy
Phi
l
a:Doct
orsorder
s.DamnIli
kewhatIsee.Seems
asi
fyouneedsomeassist
anceMrsNgcobo.
Het
ookofhi
scl
othesandgotontothebed.Hekept
onr
ubbi
nghi
smanhoodonmyv i
rgi
na.
Me:Doct
orwhatyoudoi
ngi
sinappr
opr
iat
e,y
ou'
re
br
eaki
ngther
ules
Phil
a:I
'
mthedoct
or,
Imaket
her
ulesandIbr
eakt
he
rul
es
Il
aughedathim andheshutmeupwi thaki
ss
andaftert
hatwehadapassionat
esessionofl
ove
making.Aft
erafewhoursofendl
esslovemaki
ng
wetookashowert oget
heranddr
essedup
Phi
l
a:Ihav
etof
etchJnr
,wannacomewi
th?
Me:
Yes.Justl
etmechange
Phi
l
a:Buty
ouj
ustchanged?
Me:Thi
sisnotappr
eci
atei
fwe'
regoi
ngt
ogoout
.I
needt
ochange.
Hechoseawhi
tel
ongdressf
ormeev
enthoughI
di
dn'
taskhi
mto.AndIl
ovedi
t Onthewaywehad
abr
iefconv
ersat
ionaboutmeandmywei
ght
Me:
BabakaJnr
Phi
l
a:MaFuze
Me:Iwantaper
sonalt
rai
ner
,aweekaf
tergi
vi
ng
bi
rt
hIwanttostar
tworki
ngout
Phi
l
a:Why
?Andwhydoy
ouneedaper
sonal
trai
ner
?
Me: BecauseIwannalooseal lt
hebabyfatandI
knowI '
ml azysoIneedat r
ainersomeonewhoi s
goingtopushmet owor koutandlooseallt
his
weight.
Phi
la:
Butyoulookperf
ectbabeandyou'
vegained
wei
ghtinal
ltheri
ghtpl
aces,Ilov
ethewayyoulook.
Youdon'
tneedapersonalt
rainer
Me:Idoneedone,Iknewy ouwouldn'
tagr
eewit
h
meont hi
s.Ir
eal
l
ydon'tl
ikeallt
heweightI
'v
egai
ned.
Hav
ey ouseenmycheeks, Il
ookli
keahippo.
Phil
a:Tel
lyouwhat,
I'
ll
beyourper
sonalt
rainerand
we'l
lstar
tworki
ngouttwoweeksaft
ergi
vingbirt
h
okay.
Me:
Butt
hat
'snotwhati
want
edPhi
l
asande.
Phil
a:Bobocanwetalkaboutthi
safterthebabi
es
areborn.Whoknowsmay beyou'
llj
ustlooseall
the
fatonceyougi
vebir
th.
Me:Itwon'
tj
usthappenmi
racul
ousl
yinj
ustone
day
Phil
a:Iknow.Butyounotget
ti
ngapersonalt
rai
ner
,I
don'
twantany onei
nvadi
ngmypri
vateproper
ty.
Me:
You'
resopossessi
veandI
'
m noty
ourpr
oper
ty
Hej ustlaughedatmeandsmi r
ked hehasa
tendencyofdoi ngthatlately.Idon'tknowwhybutI
fi
ndi tveryattr
acti
ve andImustsayPhi lais
reall
yreallyhandsome especi all
ywhenhe
smi l
es .Ihav enof earofhowmysonswi l
llook
causet hey'l
ldefi
natelytakeaf t
ertheirhandsome
fatherjustli
keJnrdid hei sav eryhandsome
youngPhi la t heylookst ronglyalike.Imustsay
theNgcobogenesar everyst r
ong

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TodayIwokeupf eeli
ngv eryver
yt i
redandheav y.It
s
l
ikemyownbodyi sgiv i
nguponme, i
tstoomuch
andI '
mv eryweak.Thepastweekhasbeenar eall
y
challengi ngoneandI 'vehadr eall
yt oughday swher e
Idon' tev engetoutofbed.Ther est hisonet i
me
wher eIpee' donmy selfi wassodi sgust edandPhi l
a
keptonl aughi ngatmecauseIdi dn' tevenreali
ze
thatIhadpee' d Iwasv eryembar rassedatf i
rst
andPhi lat ookoutt hebedsheet sandchangedt hem,
hedi dn'twantmet ocl eanuporev enhel phim.He
j
ustr anmeahotbubbl ebathandwant edmet o
relax.Iam nev erget t
ingpr egnantev eragain,my
fi
rstexper iencewasar eall
ygoody ethectic
exper ience.Myf eetar e3timesbi ggerthanmyown
nor mal ev erydayfeet.I'm alwaysjustwear ingmy
tracksui twhi chishugeandf i
tsmepr operlyri
ght
now.Mom hasbeenonmycaseaboutnotwear ing
pantssinceI'
m amar riedwomanandI 'm
pregnant mymom canbesool dfashioned
somet i
messhej ustneedshel psoshecangetgoi ng
withthe21stcent uarytimes.I'vebeeneat ingso
muchandIcr yal ottheseday s,I'
vebeensocl ingy
onPhi l
athathehasn' tev enbeengoi ngt owor kf or
thepastweek.Whenev erheget soutt hedoor ,Ijust
cry.Idon'
tknowwhybutIj ustdon'twantt obeal one
andIneedhi m bymysi dealltheti
me.Todayhehas
av eryi
mpor t
antmeet i
ngt hatheneedst oat tendt o
andwe' vespokeaboutt hisbutIst i
ll
feel sosadt hat
hewon' tbewithmet oday .Wehav i
ngbr eakf astnow
andJnri sal
sor eadyt ogot ocrecheandI '
l
l bel eftin
thi
shouseal one
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
Yes
Icont
inuedeat
ingmyf
oodandhekeptoney
eingme
Phi
la:
iaskedNtokozotocomeov
erwhi
l
eI'
m away
,
youwon'
tbealonehere.
Me:
Whenwi
l
lyoucomeback?
Phil
a:I
'
m notsurebutI
'
llbebackbef
oret
hebaby
shower,Ipr
omise
Inoddedandheki ssedmycheekandt heyleftwit
h
Jnr .Thebabyshowerwassomet hingtheyhad
plannedi nsecretbutIfoundout soi tsnota
sur prisebabyshowerany mor e.Itwi l
lbetonight
star t
ingat6pm, Ir
eall
yenj oyedJnr swelcoming
par ty/babyshowersoI '
m def initelysureI'
ll
enj oyt
his
onet oo i wenttotheci nemar oom andt hen
textedNt okozotocomewi thPi zzaandt omeetme
att heci nemaroom butunf or
tunat elyshewas
alreadyher esowe' dorder .
Nt
okozo:
Younotev
enwat
chi
ngamov
ie
Me:Iwaswai
ti
ngf
ory
out
ogether
e.Yout
ooky
our
ownti
me.
Ntokozo:
Iusedthestai
rssoexcusemef
orbei
nga
f
ewsecondl at
e.Well
I'm notev
enlat
e
Me:
Whatmov
iedoy
ouwannawat
ch?
Nt
okozo:Let
'swatchFourColour
edGirl
s,wer
eal
l
y
di
dn'
tgettowatchitpr
operl
ythelastt
ime
It
extedPhil
atel
l
inghi
m howmuchImisshi
m and
i
m hungry
.Hesaidhemissesmet
ooandthefoodis
onit
sway whi chmademesohappy
Ntokozo:
Whyar
eyoul
aughi
ng?Thi
sisscenei
sver
y
sad
Me: Ohno, I
'm notl aughingatwhat '
shappeni ngon
themov i
e.I'
mt ext ingwi t
hPhi lasot hatexplainsmy
l
aught er .Thisi sreal l
ycr uel,Iwoul dn'tbeabl eto
survivet hisatal l.Imagi nej ustwat chingmyki ds
beingt hr ownr ighti nfrontofme, beingki l
ledbytheir
father.Hewoul df ol l
ow, I
'dkillhi
mt oo.Noonewi ll
ever,ev erhar m mychi ldren.Beingamot heristhe
bestthi ngandal l youwannadoi spr ov i
deand
protecty ourchi l
dr enandl ovethem uncondi ti
onall
y.
Beingamot hertoJnrhashel pedmel earnalotand
I'
vediscov eredt hingsaboutme, ithashel pedme
growasani ndividual andasamot her.Thef ood
arri
vedandoneoft hehel persbr oughti tupt ous
andi wassohappybecauseal lmyf avori
teswer e
there
Ntokozo:Thisi
safeast somuchfood.Phi
lais
t
ryingtokil
lus,
heorder
edfort
heent
ir
esurburb
Me:
YoudoknowI
'
m eat
ingf
or5sot
hisi
senough
f
orj
ustus
Nt
okozo:
Thi
sismor
ethanenougus
Wecontinuedwat
chi
ngwhi
l
eeat
ingandIgott
he
bi
ggestkickev
er
Me:
Ouch!
!!Iscr
eamed
Ntokozo:What!What'
sgoingon?Okayssshbreat
he
I
n,beatheout.Uhm cal
m down,I'
veneverwent
t
hroughthisbefor
ebutjustcountf
rom onetot
en!
Shewasscr eamingandpanicki
ngi
justdi
dn'
t
understand i l
aughedathersomuchshewasv
ery
confused
Nt
okozo:
Whyar
eyoul
aughi
ng?
Shesai
dasshesatdown
Me:I
'mlaughi
ngatyou,
youshould'
veseenyour
f
ace.I
twasjustaki
ckmannothingtopanickabout
.
Nt
okozo:
Youf
ri
ght
enedme!Thewayy
ouscr
eamed
Me:i
twasjustabitmorepainf
ult
hant
heot
her
s.I
ts
l
iket
heyt
elleachotherwhentoki
ck
Nt
okozo:
Theyar
eaf
oot
bal
lteam
Aft
erwatchi
ngot
hermoviesandthr
eehourshad
pastbuti
twasj
ustst
il
l11:30 .Phil
acal
ledme
Phi
l
a:Mawabo,
isev
ery
thi
ngokay
?
Me:
Yes butIj
ustmi
ssy
ou.Themeet
ingi
sov
er?
Phil
a:Nowejustt
ookabreak,I'
l
lbegoingbackina
fewminut
es.Well
theeventspl
anningcrewwil
lbe
comingovert
osetupfortoni
ght.Theysai
dthey'
re
onthei
rway.
Me:
Yougotanev
ent
spl
anner
?
Phi
l
a:Yes.Enj
oyt
her
estofy
ourdaybabe,
Ilov
eyou
Ididn'
tev
engettor
espondcausehehadal
ready
droppedthecal
l
.
Me:
Somepeoplewi
l
lbecomi
ngov
ert
osetupf
or
t
hebabyshower
.
Ntokozo:Theother
swill
behereinafewhours.I
'
ll
gofetchJnrfr
om schoolwhi
l
ey ougoandrest
Me:
ButIdon'
twantt
osl
eep
Nt
okozo:
Didy
ouseehowy
ourey
esl
ook?Youneed
somer
est
Shewasr i
ght,Idi
dneedt or
est.I
'
mfeel
ingreal
ly
ti
redplusmostdaysdur i
ngt
histi
meI'
mj ustal
ways
asleepsoIguessitsbecomemynaptime.
Me:Pleasetel
lMav i
stobearoundwhenthese
peopl
ear esett
ingupandoneofthesecur
ityguys
mustbet her
easwel l
.Wakemeupwheny ou'
reback
Nt
okozo:
Wil
ldo.
Iwentt
omyr oom andIf
ell
asl
eepi
mmedi
atel
yaf
ter
It
uckedinbed
*
AFEW HOURSLATER*
Iwokeupandmyey eswerest i
ll
unabletosee
properl
y,Ihadablurredvi
sion.Iwenttothe
bathroom andwashedmyf aceandi twasabi t
cl
earer.Mylefteyewasswol lensower emyf eet I
wentdownst ai
rsusingtheli
ftandi twasful
l
y
packedwi t
hmyf ri
endsandf amily.Whyiseveryone
heresoear l
y??Phil
acameov ertome
Phi
l
a:You'
ref
inal
l
yawake
Me:
Whyi
sev
ery
oneher
esoear
ly?
Phil
a:I
t'
sal
ready6:30babe,yousl
eptf
orav
eryl
ong
ti
me.Youreyelookshorr
ibl
e
Me:What!Whydidnty
ouwakemeup?Tel
lme
somet
hingIdon'
tknow
Phil
a:Okaysor
ry wel l
youwer
esl
eepi
ngso
peacef
ull
ysoIdidn'
twantt
owakey
ouup.
Me:Ishoul
dgoshowerandgetr
eadysowecan
st
art
,idon'
twantt
obelatet
hanIal
readyam.
Hecamewi thmeandhel pedmet akeof fmycl othes.
Ishower edandgotr eady.Wewer ebackdownst airs
afteranhourandt hebabyshowerst art
ed.Itwasby
theflowergar denandthesetupl ookedv er
y
beaut if
ul,theflowerswerebl oomingandInot iced
therewer eotherrosesthatIhadn' tseenbef ore.Wel l
Ihav en'tbeent othegardenf orawhi le,
Phil
adi dn't
wantmet ocomeher esincehesai ditwas
danger ousImi ghtsl
ipandf all hei sjustso
overpr otecti
ve.Zandywast hepr ogr ammedi r
ector
andshesai dshewi l
ldel
iveraspeechbef or
et hegift
openi ngcer emony .
Zandy
:Myf
ri
end,
Idi
dtel
lyouy
ou'
dlookl
i
keahi
ppo.
I'
m notevensur ei
fyoucanseemecausey ouhav e
oneey e I '
mj oki
ngmybabe, youlookbeauti
f ul
just
thewayy ouare.Ij
ustwanttosaycongratulat
ions
andI'
ml ookingfor
war dt
obeinganaunt yagai
nand
spoil
myl it
tl
enephewsandni eces.Okaynowwe' re
abouttoopent hegif
ts.We'
llbli
ndfol
dyouandy ou
wil
lguesswhati ti
sbuttouchingandfeeli
ngit.No
peeki
ng
Bongablindfol
dedmeandt hegif
tscame.Itwasa
verydi
ff
icultbutfuntaskandIreall
yenj
oyedmy sel
f.
Phil
ahelpedmeabi tbywhisperi
ngwhatitwasbut
Kamocaughthi m Igotmanyoft hem wrongandI
didgetaf ewright .Iremovedthebli
ndfoldand
foodwasser ved.Wewer eallj
ustchat
ti
ngandmy
mom camet ositnexttome
Mom:You'
resuchagr
ownwoman I
'
mver
ypr
oud
ofy
ou.
Me:Thankyoumom i t
sall
becauseofyourhar
d
wor
kandy ourai
singmetobewhoIam now.
Mom:
Arey
ougi
vi
ngbi
rt
hnat
ural
l
yorC-
Sect
ion?
Me:
I'
mreal
l
ynotsur
eMom.Butt
heDoct
ordi
dsayI
cangi
vebi
rt
hnat
ural
l
y.
Wecont i
nuedtal
kingandther
ewasadi st
urbance.
Every
onelookedatherasshejustar
ri
veddrunkand
carr
yingasmallboxwrappedupinsi
lverwrappi
ng.
ItwasNamhla.
IsawPhi
l
acl
enchi
nghi
sfi
stsandIhel
dhi
shand.
Namhl a:Whatisapart
ywit
houtme!Youwel
coming
thesenonsensebabieswhoar
en'tev
enmybrot
hers
kids!Thatbi
tchisf
ooli
ngal
lofyou!
Ij
ustshookmyheadandPhi l
a'sfat
hergr
abbed
Namhlaint
othehouse.Phi
l
af oll
owed
Zandy:Okayev
ery
one,
let
'
sfor
getaboutt
hat
.Uhm
what'
snext?
Kamo:Andt
heny
ousayy
ou'
ret
hepr
ogr
am
di
rect
or
Wealll
aughedandNamhl
a'
sminisagawas
f
orgot
ten.Phi
l
acamebackandki
ssedmyforehead
Phi
l
a:I
'
m sor
ryaboutt
hat
,Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
YesI
'
mfi
nebabe
Phil
a:Theswel
li
ngi
sgoi
ngdown.Yousureyou'
re
okay?Icanputast
optot
hisi
fyou'
renotokay
Me:I
'
mf i
nePhi
l
asande,
Iwon'
tl
etherr
uinmyni
ght
.
I
ssheokay?
Phi
l
a:Yesshe'
sjustv
erydr
unk.Dadt
ookherhome.
Bonga:
Itst
imey
oudel
i
ver
edy
ourspeechPhi
l
a
Phila:
Oh, Ialmostforgot.Motherofmybabi es,My
numberonewoman, myoneandonl y.Idon'thave
mucht osaybutIj ustwantt othankyouforgiv i
ng
mesuchabeaut i
fulgif
t.Iknowitsbeenhar dand
toughbef oreandwewer en'
tabletohavebabi esbut
Godhasper for
medami r
acleandgaveussuch
blessi
ngs.Iknowy ou'
llbeawonder f
ulmot hertothe
quadsasy ouaretoJnr .I
'l
lbewithyouev er
yst epof
theway .IloveyouMaFuzeandagai n,Thanky ou
verymuch.
Hekeptonscr atchi
ngt hebackofhi
sheadashe
saidhisspeechwhichr emindedmeofhowhewas
whenhehadt osayaspeechatschool back
then iusedtolaughathim somuchcausehe
wasr eal
lyr
eallyshyandhewoul dn'
twanttodoi
t
unt
ilourteacherthr
eatenedhi
m say
ingt
hatshewi
l
l
cal
lhisfatherandreporthi
m
Theev entcamet oanendandpeopl estartedl eaving.
Thehel perspackedupwi thmyf r i
endshel pi ngthem
andaf t
ert heywer edonet heyl eft.Jnrwenthome
withPhi l
a'
smom, shesai dshemi sseshi m and
hasn'tspenttimewi thhimi nawhi l
e.I twasar ound
11pm whenwewentt obedwi thPhi la.Myf eetwer e
hurti
ngandIj ustwant edtot akeof fall mycl othes
alr
eadycauseIwasf eel
ingv eryhot .Ididn'tev enput
anyunder wearonandIputonasi l
kni ghtdr essand
tuckedintobed.Ikeptt wisti
ngandt urni
ng, myback
hurtandIcoul dn'
tsleeppr operly.Isatupanddr ank
somewat erbuti talsojustdidn'thel p.Istarted
getti
ngpai nsbet weenmyl egsandmyl ower
abdomenwaspai ni
ng.Itwasl ikei m hav i
ng
manst r
ual painsmi xedwi thstomachcr amps. The
painbet weenmyl egswashar dandunbear able.I
tri
edget ti
ngoutofbed, mywat erbr oke.Jesus!I mi n
l
abourpai nsandmywat erjustbr oke!
Me:
Phi
l
a!
Hewasf
astasl
eepnextt
omeandIdi
dn'
tev
ent
hink
hehear
edmecall
inghi
m.Iscr
eamedouthi
sname
andheslowl
ywokeupmumbli
ngtel
l
ingmetosl
eep
Me:
Phi
l
a!wakeup
Phi
l
a:mmmh,
gobackt
osl
eepBobo
Me:Phi
lai
fyoudon'
twakeuprightnow,
Iwi
l
l
st
rangl
eyou!Mywaterj
ustbr
oke
Bysay
ingthosewor
ds,hej
umpedoffthebedso
qui
ckl
yli
kehehadbeenscar
edoffbysomethi
ng.
Phil
a:What
!When?How? ?OkaywhatdoIdo?DoI
openyourl
egs?Ar
ethebabiescoming?Uhm doyou
wantwater
?Hewaswal ki
ngaroundther
oom aski
ng
somanyquesti
onsatonce.
Me:Br
ingmemyr
obeandt
akemet
othehospi
tal
man!
Phil
a:Therobe?Thehospi
tal
.Ohokay.Heranout
theroom andwentdownst
air
s.Whatwastaki
nghi
m
solong!
Me:
Phi
l
a!!
!!
Hedidn'
trespondandst
il
lhewasn'
tback,
Itr
ied
st
andingmymyl egswerecompl
etel
yfai
li
ngme.
Me:
Phi
l
a!!
Hecamer unni
nginandwentt othecloset.He
quicklychangedandt ookoutarobef orme.He
carri
edmet othecarandwentbacki nsidethe
house.Hecamebackwi ththebabybagswehad
preparedanddr oveofftothehospit
al whil
ecal
li
ng
Nay e.Itwasonl oudspeakersoIcouldhear
everything.Shesaidshe'
sonherwayt othehospi
tal
andwe' dmeetherthere.
Me:
Aaaaaaah!
!!
Phi
l
a:Hol
donbabe,
we'
reget
ti
ngt
her
e.Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Shutupanddr
ive!Aaaaah!Thi
shur
ts!
Phi
la:
I'
m sor
ry,
you'
regoi
ngt
obef
ine.Justst
ay
cal
m
Me:
HowcanIst
aycal
m!
Iwassweat i
ngandinpai
nt hatIcouldn'
teven
descri
be.WegottothehospitalandIwasputi ntoa
wheelchai
r.
Iwasscreamingli
keacr azywomanand
everyonewaslooki
ngatme.Ij ustwantedtodr ag
Phil
aandstrangl
ehim.It
'shisfaultt
hatI'
mf eel
ing
thi
sway,hemademepr egnant!AndI'
m goi
ng
thr
oughall
thispai
n!I
m nevereverget
ti
ngpregnant
andiswear!
Me:
Ihat
eyouPhi
l
asande!
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
out
ooMaf
uze!You'
l
lbeokay
Hekissedmyf
oreheadast
heyl
aidmedownont
he
bed.
Nur
se:
DrHei
nswi
l
lbecomi
ngt
oseey
oushor
tl
y
Me:
Heshoul
dcomei
mmedi
atel
y!
Phil
a:He!
?Whycan'tafemal
edoct
orcomethrough?
Idon'
twantnomalestret
chi
ngmywivesl
egsand
seei
ngthi
ngsthatbel
ongtome
Ireall
ytri
edcalmingdownbutPhilasandewas
driv
ingmei nsane!Hekeptontal
kingaboutgetti
nga
femaledoct orandnotwant
ingDrHei ns.Iwasso
annoy ed,
ijustcoul
dn'
thandlei
t!
Me: I
fyousayonemor
ewor
dPhi
l
asande,
Iwi
l
lbr
eak
yourneck!
!
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#PHI
LA
IknewSi yawoul dgivebirt
hany t
imethisweekbutI
reall
ywasn' texpectingittobet oday.Whenshe
wokemeupandt ol
dmeherwat erbroke,Ireal
lylost
i
t.Ididn'tknowwhatt odoorwhatt osay.Itwasthe
fi
rsttimeI '
veev erpanickedsomuch.I twast he
excit
ement ,theshockandt hewayshewas
screamingscar edme.I twasv i
si
blethatshewasi n
enormouspai nandIjustwi shedIcouldtakeallthat
painforher .Noonehasev erswor natmet heway
Siyahast oni ght
,forthepastf ewhour sshe'sbeen
goingall vul
garonmeandIj ustkeeponl aughi
ngat
her,wear rivedherat00: 00am exactly,i
t'
s2:43am
now, she'sbeeni nlabourpai nsfor2hoursand
43seconds.Thi sDrHei nsandNay ehavebeen
comi ngi
nandcheckingherbuttheykeeponsayi
ng
she'snotreadytogi
vebirt
h,somethi
ngaboutthe
headnotbei ngcl
ose.Ij
ustwanthertogi
vebir
th
al
readysoshecanatl eastgetovert
hepai
nshei s
goingthrough.
Me:
Doy
ouneedanywat
er
Si
ya:
Yes
Shehasn'
tbeenscr
eamingatshout
ingnowf
ora
fewminut
esbutthetear
shaven'
tst
opped
Me:
Pleasest
opcr
ying
Si
ya:
Ithur
ts
Me:Whathappensi
fwej
usthav
esexnow?May
bei
t
wi
ll
easethepain
Shel
aughedabi
twhi
chmademesmi
l
e
Siy
a:Wecan'
tdot
hatPhi
l
a howcoul
dyouev
en
thi
nkoft
hat?
Me:What Iwasj
ustmaki
ngasuggesti
on.RatherI
hav
eyouscr
eami
ngli
ket
hisbecauseofwhatI
'dbe
doi
ngtoy
ouMaFuze
Si
ya:Yousuchaperv well
thet
hingsyoudot ome
ar
etheonesthatar
emaki
ngmescr eam now.
Phi
l
a:Okay
,takesomepai
nki
l
ler
s.
Si
ya:
Ial
socan'
tdot
hat
Nay ewal kedi nandcheckedSi y
a,sheopensupher
l
egsandi nser t
sherf ingersinmypr eciouspr oper t
y
checki ngi fanyoft hebabi esheadsar ecloser ,
now
i
magi net hisDrHei nsdoi ngthattomywi fe,I
'd
ratherdoi tmy selfandhel pherdeliver.Weshoul d'
ve
j
ustsatathomeandhadherdel i
vert hebabi est here.
Hour spassedandt hesunhadal readyshown, it
st he
nextdayandSi yaisinpain.Thenur sesanddoct ors
rushedi nandIwast oldtoleavether oom.Noone
want edt ot ellmewhat '
sgoingon, Iwassi tt
ingint he
wai t
ingr oom wi t
hBonga, Nceba,Nkosi andLy anda.
Beewentt of etchhermom andZandy ,
Nt okowentt o
myhouset ogetcl othesformeandSi ya.Lastni ght
wet ookt hingsf orthebabiesandf orgotabout
oursel ves.
Me:
Whatdoy
out
hinki
sgoi
ngoni
nther
e?
Nceba:
May
beshe'
sgi
vi
ngbi
rt
hal
ready
.
Iwentt ost andbyt heroomsdoorandIcoul dhear
herscr eami ng.Iwant edt ogoinbutIwasn' tal
lowed
to.Thiswasr eallystressingme, shehadbeeni n
5hour soflabourpai ns.Thatalonewasi tsownpain
andst ressfulness,nowshe' sgoingthroughsuch
painwi thgiv i
ngbi r
tht ofourbabies.HowIwi shI
couldt akeal lherpain.Ncebabr oughtcof f
eeforme
andi thelpedcal m medown.Wesatt herefora
while,Nay eandanur secame.
Me:
What
'sgoi
ngon?
Naye:Wer ushi
ngheri ntot
het heat
er,we've
del
iver
edt woboy sbutherbodyi sgiv
inguponher
andshe'sloosi
ngt oomuchbl ood.Wehav et o
i
mmedi atelygothroughsurgerytotaketheother
twobabiesoutbef oreanyt
hinghappenst othem.
Me: Whatdoy oumean!You'
react
ual
lyr
eal
ly
speakingi
nriddl
es.I
sshegoingtobeokay
?The
babieswil
lbeokay?
Nay
e:Yes,
justcal
m down.Ev
ery
onewi
l
lbeokay
.
Shelef
tusstandi
ngt
here,
ifor
gott
oev enaskifI
coul
dseethetwoboysormaybeI'
l
ljustseet
hem al
l
atonce.
Aft
erhour shavepassed,
Iwascalledi
ntoseemy
babies.Theyall
lookedsocuteandhadchubby
cheeksjustli
kethei
rmother,
theboyswerever
y
i
dent i
calandKhanyawassopal e.
Me:
Whyi
sshesopal
e?
Nurse:
She'sal
bino.Shedoesn'
thavealotofbl
ood.
I
thappensinthesesit
uati
onssometimesonechil
d
l
acksbloodorthere'
sadisabi
li
ty.
Me:
Theydi
dment
ioni
tbef
ore.Wher
eisSi
ya?
Nurse:She'
ssti
ll
under
goi
ngsur
ger
y,shel
ostalot
ofbloodandther
ewereot
hersmal
lcompl
icat
ions.
Icar
riedthebabiesoneatat i
me, I
'
m af atherto
5chi
ldrennow Jnrmustbel ooki
ngf orwardto
seei
nghi sli
tt
lesibl
i
ngs.Iknowhe'llbeagr eatbi
g
brot
hertothem. Nurse:
Sirweneedy outocomet o
therecepti
onandsi gnafewdocument sandgi veus
thebabynames.
Wewenttother
ecept
ionandIsi
gnedthe
document
sandgavet
hem thebabynames.We
wereconf
usi
ngt
henamesandIwi
shedSi
yawas
her
e
Nurse:
Let
'sj
ustwri
tet
hem f
rom t
heordert
hey
cameouti
n.Itwast
hethr
eeboysfir
standt
henthe
gir
l.
Me: Thefi
rstboyisMnqobiQui
ntonNgcobo,and
thenNgceboCl i
nti
onNgcobo.Thelastboyi
s
MasandeBennet tNgcoboandthepri
ncessi
s
KhanyakwezweMoni queNgcobo.
Nurse:Wow,lovel
ynames nowhowwi l
lyouknow
who's,whobetweentheboy
s?Theyl
ookedv er
y
i
dentical
Me:
We'
l
lfi
gur
eitout
.Apar
ental
way
sknowsr
ight
?
Nurse:Ri
ght
.LetmegocheckonMr
sNgcoboI
'
llget
backtoyou.
Iwentbacktothewai
ti
ngr
oom andt
heenti
ref
ami
l
y
washerealr
eady,myf
amil
yandherf
amil
y.
Me:
Whendi
dyouguy
sgether
e?
Dad:
Assoonaswecoul
dson.Congr
atul
ati
ons
Namhl
a:Congr
atsbr
o,whencanweseet
hebabi
es?
Me:
Soon.
Ijustavoi
dedher,t
hestuntshepull
edl
astni
ght
reall
yupsetmeandIdon'treal
lyknowwhather
problem i
s.Iwentt
ositnexttomymotherandshe
huggedme
Mom:
How'
sSi
ya?
Me: Thenursewentt
ocheckonher ,
she
experi
encedsomecomplicat
ionsbutshe'l
lbeokay
.
Mphoar r
ivedwit
hJnrandhecamer unningtome
Jnr
:Daddy
!!
Me:
Son,
howar
eyou?Youl
ookgood
Jnr
:Im wear
ingSpi
der
man!Wher
e'smom?
Me:Thedoctor
stookher,she'
sgoi
ngt
ogety
our
l
it
tl
ebrot
hersandsist
er.
Mom:
Theywi
l
lfal
lfr
om anai
rpl
ane
Nandi
:Mom,
that
'ssool
dnow .Youconf
usi
ngt
he
baby
Mom:
That
'swhatwewer
etol
dwhenwewer
eyoung
andthat
'swhatIt
oldy
ouever
yti
meIwentt
ogiv
e
bi
rt
hbuty oust
oppedbel
i
evi
ngmewhenIhadBrai
n.
Me:
That
'sj
ustnonsense
Thenur
secamei
nandgav
eusf
eedbackonSi
ya
Nurse: She'
sokay.Theymanagedt ost
optheblood
andshe' sstabl
e.She'
sstil
lsl
eepi
ngnowandher
bodyneedst or
est.Wehav ei
nser
tedmachinesthat
willpumpherbr eastmil
ksothatthebabi
escanbe
fed.I'
ll
needy outocomeassistmeandchooseone
persont ocomehel pyou.Onl
ytwopeoplewil
lbe
all
owedi n.
Me:
I'
ll
goi
nwi
thmymot
her
.
Nur
se:
Fol
l
owme.
Mom andIf oll
owedhert othebaby 'sroom, itwas
cl
oset oSiya'
sroom.Ididn'tli
keseeingal lthose
machinesonSi ya,
shelookedl if
eless.I'
m gladJnr
doesntgettoseeherlikethis.Iwashol dingMnqobi
whokeptony awni
ngandpl ayingwi t
hhi slit
tle
fi
ngers.Aft
erhewasf ed,hei mmedi atel
yf ellasl
eep.
Iputhim backtohisbedandhel dmyl it
tl
epr incess,
shewasv erybeauti
fulwit
hl otsofhair,i
tlooked
blondeorshouldisaygold.Shehadav erybeaut
if
ul
smi l
eandlookedsomuchl i
kehermom.Theywer e
allputbacktosl
eepandwewer etoldt
ol eav
ethe
room sotheycoul
dallrest,i
ncl
udingSi
y awhohasn't
wokenup.
Lyanda:
Don'
tyout
hinky
oushoul
dgohomeand
fr
eshenup?
Me:
Yesmay
beIshoul
d?Whoi
satt
hewai
ti
ngr
oom?
Lyanda:JustBongaandNkosi.Ot
hershavewent
home.Andy ourfami
lybookedinatahotel
,Br
ain
i
nsisted.
Me:
Whydi
dn'
ttheycomet
omyhouse?
Lyanda:Br
ainandyourf
athert
houghti
tsbest
.I'
l
l
dri
veyouhomeandwe' l
lcomeback.Youlookto
ti
redtoevendri
ve,
Isti
ll
valuemyli
fe.
Me:
Whatev
erdude.
Whenwegothome, Itookashowerwhi l
ehe
warmedupfoodMav i
shadmadeear l
ier.Wesat
downandatewhi
lejusthavi
ngasmal lconv
ersat
ion.
Myphonehad3missedcall
sfrom Nkosi
Me:
Ihav
e3mi
ssedcal
l
sfr
om Nkosi
.
Ly
anda:
Hei
scal
l
ingmer
ightnow.
Heputt
hephoneonl
oudspeaker
.
Nkosi
:Gether
enow!
Heendedthecallandweexit
edthehouse
i
mmediatel
y.Iwasdr i
vi
ngthi
sti
meandt her
ewas
somuchtraf
fic!Thatwecoul
dn'
tevengothrough.
Me:I
'mleav
ingyouher
e,I
'l
lrunt
othehospi
tal
.We'
l
l
meett
herewhenyouarr
ive
Ly
anda:
Go
Hecamet othedriver
sseatandIrant
othehospital
.
I'
m sur
epeoplewer ewonder
ingwhat'
swiththi
s
crazymanrunningsofasti
nbetweencars.Ij
usthad
togettothehospit
al,
idon'
tevenknowwhat '
sgoing
on.Ihopemywi feandmybabiesareokay.
Af t
erafewmi nut
esIcouldalr
eadyseet hehospital
from af
ar.Ir
anasf astasIcould.WhenIgott her
e,
thereweretwopolicevanswithapoli
ceof f
icerwho
hadNamhl ahandcuffedandNkosi t
alki
ngtooneof
thepoli
ceman
Me:
What
'sgoi
ngonher
e?Whyi
sshebei
ngar
rest
ed?
Ibreat
hedinandout,cat
chi
ngmybr eat
he.Ihaven'
t
ransuchalongdi
stanceinawhil
e,havi
ngagy mi n
myhousecanbeadi sadvant
agesinceIdon'
trun
anymore.
Namhla:
Ididn'
tdoany
thi
ng!Leav
emeal
one!
!!
!Iwi
l
l
ki
ll
all
ofyou!
Me:Wil
lsomeonepl
easej
ustt
ell
mewhati
sgoi
ng
onher
e!
Pol
i
ce:
Ist
hist
hef
atheroft
hebabi
es?
Nkosi
:Yes
Me:
Whathappenedt
omybabi
es?
Nkosi:Theyaref
ine,
theyal
lasl
eep.Shetr
iedto
stealt
hetwoofthem, l
ucki
l
yIcaughtherbefor
eshe
couldleave.
IlookedatNamhlaal
lIf
eltwasdi
sappoi
ntmentand
rage.Howcouldshedothis!
Namhl
a:Idi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ng!
!!Hei
sly
ing!
Me:
Makesur
esher
otsi
njai
l
.Wi
tht
hatsai
dIspat
onthefl
oorri
ghtbef
oreherf
eetandwenttoseemy
babi
es.Theyweresl
eepi
ngsopeacef
ull
y.Nkosi
camein
Nkosi
:Bongaiscal
li
nginsecur
it
y,t
hatwi
l
lbeher
e
24/7unt
ilt
heygetdi
schar
ged.
Me:Thankyou,t
hanky
ouv
erymuchNkosi
.Tel
lme
whathappened?
Nkosi :Idon' tknowwhatexact lyhappenedbutI
want edt ogouset hebathroom, whenIpassed
Siya'
sr oom t hedoorwassl i
ghtlyopenedandIhada
weirdf eeli
ngabouti t.Iwentinandt hedoortothe
babiesr oom wasopenedwhenIgott hereonlyt
wo
babieswer et here,shehaddr oppedhercarkey ssoI
pickedt hem upandr anlookingf orher .Shehad
usedt hebackdoor st ogetout, t
her eforenoone
could'veseenher .WhenIcaughther ,shewasbusy
l
ooki ngf orhercarkey s.Shet r
iedr unningaway ,
l
eav i
ngt hebabi esont hefloorbutIchasedherand
caughther .Bongami ghthav eseenmer unning
aroundsohef ol
lowed.Het ookt hebabi esback
i
nsideandt henur seschangedt heirclothesand
checkedt hem.That '
swhenIcal ledy ouandt he
pol
i
ce.
Me:ThankyouNkosi,i
fitweren'
tforyou,
mybabi es
woul
d'vebeenst
olen.Ir
eall
ycan'tthankyouenough.
Wef istbumpedandhepat t
edmyshoul derleavi
ng
meal onewi t
hmybabi es.Itookoutmyphoneand
readoneoft hebedtimestoriesIusuallyreadf orJnr
.
Nay ecamei nandshet ol
dmet hesecurit
ieswer e
alreadyher eandshespeci f
iedt hatonl
ysheandone
nur sewi llbemoni t
ori
ngSiyaandt hebabies.Noone
elsewasal l
owedt oenterbesidesmeandt hem.
Siyast il
l hasn'
twokenup, shel ookedreallytir
ed,
atleastt heallthemachinerywasnowr emov edand
sheonl yhadadr i
pinsert
ed.Iki ssedherforehead
Me:Ilovey ouMaFuze.Mydadhadcal l
edmeand
wantedt oseeme, It oldhimt ocomemeetmeatt he
hospit
al causeI'
mj ustnev erleavi
ngher e,notafter
whathappened.Idon' ttrustanyoneincludingmy
famil
y.Hewaswai tingf ormei nourdesi gnated
wait
ingr oom,thisplaceal sohasmanybad
memor ies.I'
m surethishospi tal
sstaffnowknows
eachandev er
yoneofusbyname.
Dad: Son,I
'mreal
lysorryaboutwhathappened.I
don'tknowwhat '
sgoingoni nthatchi
l
d'shead.I
don'tknowhowshecoul ddosuchat hing,
toher
ownbr other
,hernieceandnephew!Iam bey ond
beingupset,Ij
ustcamet oapologizemyson.Iam
reall
ysorry
Me:I
tsnoty
ourf
aul
tdad.Weal
ldi
dntknowshe
woul
ddothi
s.
Dad:
Iam goi
ngt
ogoseeher
,woul
dyoul
i
ket
o
comewi
th?
Me:Never
,Idonotwantt
oseeherev
eragai
n.Iwant
hert
oroti
njai
l
Dad:
Butshe'
syoursi
sterPhi
l
asande.
Me:Sheshouldhav
ethoughtaboutt
hatbef
oreshe
deci
dedtotr
yandstealmybaby.
Dad:
Butson
Me: Dad,Ify
ouwer einmyshoesy ouwoul
dhav e
donethesame.Nowi fyoucameheretoaskmet o
dropchargesagainsther,
thatwon'
tbehappeni
ng.
Withallduerespect
,ift
hat'
sally
ouwantedtotal
k
about
,pl
easeexcuseme.Ineedt
obewi
thmyf
ami
l
y.
Dad:
Youmaybeex cusedmyson,
I'
m pr
oudoft
he
manyou'
vebecome.
Weshookhandsandhel eft.Ididn' twantt o
disrespectmyf ather ,that'
swhyIchoset ojustask
toleav e.IfIhadst ay edandcont i
nuedt alki
ngabout
thisIwoul d'veendedupsay ingt hingst hati
shouldn'tsay ,whichwi llseem v eryr udeand
disrespect f
ultohi m andIwi llregr etsay i
ngi tt
ohim.
Hehasbeennot hingbutagr eatf athert omeandI
woul dhat etodi srespecthi m.Het aughtmeabout
respect ,l
ove,loyaltyandmosti mpor t
antlytobea
man, af ami l
yman.Heal way stol dmeamanwho
cannotpr ov i
deandpr otecthi sfami l
yisausel ess
man, heal way spushedmet owor khar dandbe
successf ulsoIcoul dcr eateanempi r
ef ormy
children,tocarryt hef ami l
ynameandmakehi m
proud.Ir ememberhowheusedt ot eachmehowt o
fi
ghtwhenIwasbei ngbul li
edi npr i
mar yschool,he
toldmet onev erfightj ustbecauseIcanbutt ofi
ght
whenIneedt odef endmy self.Hei si ndeedagr eat
manandIwi llforeverbegr ateful tohi m.But
unfortunat ely,icannotdowhathei saskingmet o
do.Ihav et opr otectmyownf amilyanddowhathe
al
way st oldmet odo.Namhl ahaschosent obetray
myt r
ustf orherandt riedtor uinmyf ami l
y,Iwil
l
neverf orgiveherf orthatandi wil
lneverseeheras
mysi steragai n.Iwentt oseet hepeoplewhoowned
myhear t
, myf ami ly.Idon'tknowwhenJnrgother e
buthewassl eepi ngnextt ohi smot her.Itooka
pict
ureoft hem andwentt oseet helit
tl
eone' s,
the
boysar er eal l
yi dentical,I
'm stil
lgoingtohav e
tr
oublet ellingt hem apar tast heygrow.Whathel ps
mer i
ghtnowi st hewr i
stbandswi ththeirnameson
i
t.May beIshoul dpr i
ntt-shi
rtswi ththeirnamessoI
cantell t
hem apar t.Theywer eallindeepsl eepandI
satnextt ot hem.I '
m goingt owat chov erthem 24/7
noonewi l
l taket hem awayf rom me.

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43]Tat
enda:
Inser
t78
Iwokeupandmybodywasf eeli
ngheav y.Icoul
dn'
t
feelmylegs,t
heywerenumb.Il ookedaroundand
Phil
awasont hechai
rfastasleep Hel ookedso
peacef
ul andIdi
dn'
twanttowakehi m upbutIreal
ly
neededtogopeebutIcouldn'tstandupsoIhadt o
Me:
Phi
l
a,Phi
l
awakeupi
needt
opee.
Phi
l
a:mmmh
Me:
Phi
l
a!!
Myscream wasn'
tasl
oudasIwanteditt
obebuthe
di
dhearme.Heopenedhiseyesanditwasadi
fhe
wasshockedtoseeme
Phi
l
a:You'
reawake!
hehuggedmesot ightanditwasabitpai
nful
andI
st
il
lneededthebathroom befor
eImissedonmysel
f,
mybladderhasbeenreall
yweakf ort
hepastf
ew
months.
Me:
Ouch,
you'
rehur
ti
ngme.
Phi
l
a:I
'
m sosor
rybabe.I
'
mjustexci
ted,
you'
vebeen
outf
orhour
s.
Me:
Ireal
l
yneedt
opeebutIcan'
twal
k.
Withi
nasecondhecar r
iedmet ot
hebathroom,he
tookoffmymat erni
tydressandhel
pedmeseesi t
onthetoi
letseat.If
eltsorel
axedaft
erIhaduri
nated.
Me:
Thanky
ou
Heputmebackont
othebed
Me:MayIseeourbabi
es?HowlonghaveIbeen
asl
eep?I
'
m sur
etheymightbest
arvi
ng.
Phila:
Welltheywerefedwhil
eyouwer easleep,
usingabreastpump.You'v
ebeenasl eepformaybe
15hour sormore.Ifel
tani
nstantconnect
ionas
soonasIhel dNgcebo,heyawnedandopenedhi s
eyes
Me:
Hisawake
Iwasget
ti
ngsoemot
ional
,tear
sst
art
edf
ormi
ngi
n
myeyes.
Me:Ngcebo Mommyl ovesyou.Ihel
dhi
mt i
ghtl
y
t
hangavehim backt
oPhil
a.It
hent ookmyl
ovely
pr
incess,
myoneandonl
ygi
rl
.
Me:KhanyakwezweMoniqueNgcobo,mypr
incess.
We'l
lgoshoppingt
oget
her,cookandhav
eagirl
s
ni
ght Youl ooksobeauti
ful
.
Iputherbacki
ntoherbed.Iwonderift
hesebaby
cotsi
nthishospi
tal
arecomf or
tabl
eenough.It
hen
tookMasande,hehadPhil
a'spoint
ynose
Me:Yourfat
hergav
eyouhi
spoi
ntynose I
whi
speredtohi
m
Phi
l
a:Icanheary
ou
Andl
ast
lyIt
ookMnqobi
,hehasbi
ggerey
est
hant
he
ot
her
s.
Me:Theboy
sar
ever
yident
ical
.ButIcanal
readyt
ell
who'
swho.
Phil
a:How?Theyareveryidenti
cal
andi
twi
l
ltake
ti
mef ormet
ot el
lthem apart
.
Me:Mnqobihasbi
ggereyes,
Masandehasapoi
nty
noseandNgcebohasbrowneyes.
Phi
l
a:Howdi
dyounot
iceal
lthat
?
Me: Amot
heral
waysknows.Masandest
art
ed
cr
yingsol
oudl
yhe'
scrywokeJnrup.
Jnr
:Mamay
akal
aut
ana(t
hebabyi
scr
yingmom)
Itookhim andfedhim, heimmediatelyfel
lasl
eepin
myar msandIcar ri
edbot hKhanyaandMasande
feedingthem atonce.Phil
awaschangi ngNgcebos
nappywhi l
eJnrhelpedhim.Mnqobi wasjustl
ayi
ng
therepeaceful
ly,
Iguesshei sthequietone.
Me:
Youseem asi
fther
e'ssomet
hingbot
her
ingy
ou
Phi
l
a:Not
her
e'snot
hing.May
beI
'
mjustt
ir
ed
Thebabi
esweresl
eepi
nginthei
rcotbutMnqobi
wasn'
tasl
eep,
Jnrwasplay
ingwithhi
m.
Me:
Arey
ousur
e?
Phi
l
a:Yes
Ij
ustl
ookedathi
m andnodded,Iknewt
her
ewas
somet
hinghewashidi
ngfrom me.
Phil
a:Okayokayf
ineI
'
llt
ell
you.Somet
hing
happenedwhil
eyouwerehalfdead
Me:
Iwasn'
thal
fdeadPhi
l
a
Phila: Namhl awasher eandshet riedkidnappi
ng
Khany aandoneoft heboy s.Idi
dn' tgettosee
clearlywhi choneoft hem wasi tsinceIwasn' there
whent heincidenthappened, LyandaandIhadwent
homel eavingBongaandNkosi her e.Nkosiwast he
onewhosawt hatthebabieswer emi ssingand
Namhl ascarkey sont hefloorwhi chledhi mto
fi
ndi ngNamhl alookingforthem wi ththebaby '
son
thef looroft hepar ki
nglot.Sheusedt hebackdoor s
toexi tsonoonesawher .Nkosi ranaf terherwhile
Bongat ookt hebabiesbackher eandt henurses
cleanedt hem upchecki ngi fshehasn' tharmedthem.
Nkosi calledmeandIgother ewhenshewasbei ng
arrest edandt hebabieswer eokay .
Icouldn'
tbeli
evewhatIwashear ing,itbr
okemy
hearttoknowt hatNamhlawoulddosuchat hing,I
knowshedoesn' tli
kemebutIdi dn'tknowshe'dtake
i
tsof ar,
thatshe'dtr
ytokidnapmyownchi l
dren,her
nieceandnephew, whodoest hat?
Me:Whywouldshedosuchat hing?I'
m soshocked
anddi
sappoi
nted.Idi
dn'
texpectthi
sfrom her
.
Phi
l
a:Idon'
tknowwhyshedi
dit
.
Me:
Don'
tyouwantt
ofi
ndout
?
Phil
a:No.Mef i
ndingoutwouldmeant hatIhav
eto
seeherandletherexpl
ainhersel
f.Whichisnot
somethingIwanttodorightnow,Idon'twantt
o
everseeheragain.
Me:
Youdon'
tmeant
hat
,she'
syoursi
ster
Phil
a:Ionl
yhaveonesister,
andthat
'sNandi
.Idon'
t
knowwhoel seyou'
ret
alkingabout
.
Phi l
ahascompl et el
yshutNamhl aouthi sli
fe,he
hat eshersomucht hathedoesn' tevent akeheras
hissi st
eranymor e.Idon'tblamehi m becausewhat
Namhl adidwasj ustpurecr uel
tyandsheshoul dpay
fori t
.Butheari
ngPhi lasayal lt
hismakesmef eela
bitsad, sheishissisterafteral
landweal lmake
mi stakes.Maybet hereisar easonbehi ndallher
act i
onsorshe'sjustment all
yunstable.Iwil
l t
alkt
o
Phi l
aaboutt hi
sagai nbutnott oday,Idon'twantto
upsethi m anyfurther.
Me:
Comet
omommyJnr
,youst
il
lneedt
osl
eep.
I
twas1am soher
eall
yneededt
osleepagai
ncause
hewi
ll
needtogotocrèchet
omorr
ow.Iwil
lcal
lhi
s
teachertomor r
owr egar
dingt
hesecur it
yissue,he
willhave2body guar
dswi t
hhim.Idon'twantt otake
chances, whoknowsi fNamhlawillescapefrom her
holdingcellandcomet akemychildren,I
'm not
taki
ngt hatri
sk.Jnrcameandgoti ntobedwi thme
andhesl ept.Thebedwasbi genoughf orthetwoof
us.
Me:
Don'
tyouwantt
osl
eep?
Phi
l
a:No.I
'
vesl
eptenough
Me:Metoo.Doy
outhi
nkweshouldtel
lthekids
whent
heygrowupt
hattheyhadot
hersibl
ings.
Phil
a:YesIt
hinkweshoul
d.Doy
ouev
ert
hinkabout
them?
Me:
Alway
s.Wewoul
dbehav
ing8chi
l
drennow
Phil
a:Wedohav e8kids,t
heothert
hreearei
nour
heart
s.Wewi l
lhavetogotoLadySmi t
hsoon,f
or
thebabywelcomingceremonyandintr
oduci
ngthem
totheancest
ors.
Me:
YouknowIdon'
tbel
i
evei
nal
lthat
.
Phi
l
a:YesIknowbuti
thast
obedone.
Me:
Okay
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouupset
?
Me: NoI'
m not
,Ijustdon'
twantNamhl atobether
e.
Mychildr
enshouldbesaf eatall
times,nowIdon'
t
wanttobethereandf eel
li
keIalwayshav et
olook
overmyshoulderandbescar edatallt
imes
Phi
la:
Iunder
standwhatyou'
resay
ingandt
hat
'snot
goi
ngtohappen.Shewon'
tbether
e.
Wet alkedunt i
lthesunr ose,wewat chedi tthrough
thewi ndow.Hewashol dingmywai standhel dme
sotightlyasIlaidmyheadonhi schest .Therewas
comf ortablesil
ence,moment sl
ikethesear e
remar kable.Il
ovehav i
ngt ojustli
stentohi s
heartbeat.Themomentwasspeci alendedassoon
asNgeboandMasandebot hcriedsol oudly,
parentingdut i
eswer ecall
ingus.Isatdownandt ook
Masandewhi l
ePhilacarri
edNgcebo
Me:SeewhyIboughtbreastpumps?Ican'
t
br
eastf
eedt
wooft hem atonce.
Phil
a:Iunder
stand,
Iguessy
ou'
l
lhav
etopumpwhi
l
e
they
'r
easleep
Me: Yes,Iwannagohomeal r
eady
.Weshoul
dtry
feedingthem f
ormul
ami l
kandseewhodoesn'
t
rej
ectit.Thatwayi
twil
lbelessworkf
ormeto
breastfeed.
Phi
la:
Itdoesn'
tseem l
ikeNgceboli
kesbei
ng
br
eastf
ed.We'l
ljustworki
tout.I
twil
lbeeasi
eronce
we'
rehome.
Me:
Andwor
k?
Phil
a:I'
ll
betaki
nga5mont hsleave.Atleastonce
theyare5monthsitwil
lbeabitbetter
,ifnotthenI
'l
l
takethewholeyearoff
.Ift
her
e'sany t
hingthat
needsme, I
'
llworkfr
om homeandj ustattendthe
mosti mpor
tantmeeti
ngs.
Me:
Whowi
l
lyoul
eav
einchar
ge?
Phi
l
a:Kay
Me:
Kay
?Ar
eyousur
e?
Phil
a:Yes.Hehasprov edsomanyt i
mest hatheis
readypl
ushe'll
begraduat i
ngnextweek,Amast er
s
DegreeinArchi
tect
ure.Heknowst hebusinessi
n
andoutandhasbeenwi thmelongenought oknow
ever
ythi
ngIdo.I
'm wi
l
li
ngt ogi
vehimt
his
opport
unit
y.Iwi
l
lmonitorhi
mforthef
ir
sttwo
monthsandseehowitgoes.
Me:
That
'sgood Hav
eyout
oldhi
m?
Phi
la:No.I
'
llt
ell
him onMonday ,
I'
ll
arrangeastaf
f
andboardmeeti
ng.TheFreeStatecompanyisgoing
wellsoi
stheoneinJo'bur
g.I'
m notneeded,
plusI
haveafamil
ythatIneedtotakecareofandsupport
.
Me:Butyoureall
ydidn'
thavetoleav
ewor k,
wehave
manyhelpersathome,Mav i
scouldhelpmewhi
le
you'
reatwork.5monthsistoolongforyout
obe
awayfrom y
ourbusinessesPhi
la.
Whatify
ouloosecl
ientsbecausetheywanty
ou
per
sonal
lyt
ohandletheircont
ract
s?
Phil
a:ThenI
'l
lhandl
ethem f
rom homeandat
tend
thei
rmeeti
ngsonly.
Me:Ifyousaysot
hen.I
tseemsli
keyoual
ready
hav
ey ourmindmadeupaboutt
his
Phi
l
a:YesIt
houghtaboutal
lthi
sawhi
l
eback
Me:
Andy
oudi
dn'
ttel
lmeabouti
t
Phi
l
a:Iam t
ell
i
ngy
ounow.
Ij
ustlookedathi
m andhel
pedhi
m hol
dNgcebo
cor
rectl
ysohecanmakehim bur
p.
Me:Keeponpatt
inghi
sbackti
l
lheburps.Don'
tl
ay
hi
m downother
wisehe'
ll
gethi
ccups
Phi
l
a:Yesmam.Whendi
dyoul
ear
nal
lthi
s?
Me:Wehav
eaoney earol
dsonPhi
la,
Ilear
ntal
lthi
s
wi
thJnr
.Mom t
aughtmethebasi
cs.
Phil
a:Idon'
tremembery
oudoi
ngt
his.Doy
ouev
er
wishtogobacktowork?
Me: AsmuchasIl ovedmyjob Idon'twishtogo
back.Thi
sismyl i
fenowandmyev ery
dayj obis
bei
ngmot her
.IfonlyGodhadtoldmeearli
erthatI
'
d
beahousewi f
e,thenIwouldn'
thav
estressed
myselfwi
thgoingt oschool
Phi
l
a:Youcr
azy
Nay
ecamei
n
Nay
e:Lookwho'sup Youl
ookbet
tert
hanI
t
houghtyou'
dbe.
Me:
MayIpl
easegohomenow Deardoct
or
Naye:
Not aki
ngchances.You'
llonl
yleaveher
e
tomor
row.West i
l
l needt
odressupy ourwounds
andsti
tchesandthenwe'l
ldi
schargeyoutomorr
ow.
Me:
Justonemoredayher
e,Ipr
ayt
hatt
hisdaygoes
r
eal
l
yreal
lyqui
ck.
Weall
laughed andNay
edi
daf
ewcheckupson
me.
Phi
l
a:Doesi
thav
etol
ooksobad?
Me:
Idon'
tev
enknowwhyy
ou'
rel
ooki
ng.
Ifel
tsosadwhenIsawhowmybodyl ooks,Iwas
j
ustalit
tl
ebiti
nsecureabouthowIlooked.Ishoul
d
fi
ndawayt ohi
det hi
s,Idontt
hinkIwantPhilat
o
al
way sseemelikethi
s.
Me:
Phi
l
a,coul
dyoupl
easeexcuseus?
Phi
l
a:Why
?
Me:
Ineedt
otal
ktoNay
epr
ivat
ely
Phi
la:
Whati
sitt
haty
oucan'
ttal
kaboutwhi
l
eI'
m
ar
ound?
Nay
e:Phi
l
asande
Webot
hgl
aredathi
m andhef
inal
l
yst
oodup
Phil
a:Fi
ne,
I'
ll
beatt
hecaf
eacr
osst
her
oad.I
'
llbe
back
Me:
Thanky
ou.
Heclosedt
hedoorandImadesur
ehewasr
eal
l
y
gone.
Me:
Ilookhor
ri
ble!Doy
ouseemyst
omach?
Naye:Youdon'tlookhor
ri
blebutdon'
ttel
lmeyou
expect
edtolookl i
keasupermodelj
ustadayaft
er
you'
vegiv
enbirth.
Me:OfcauseIdi
dn'tbutIal
sodidn'
texpectt
olook
l
iket
his.Howwill
Phi l
aevenlookatme!?
Naye:You'r
eov er
react
ingman,thesewoundswil
l
fadeawayv er
ysoonpl usPhi
lahasseenyoual
ready
soIdon'tgetwherethebigdeali
s
Me:Youdon'
tunder
standNay
e,whati
fhehat
est
he
wayIl
ookcauseIdo.
Nay
e:Idounder
stand,
mywoundswer
ewor
set
han
y
our
s.Justusecel
l
tonei
twi
l
lhel
p.
Me:
Yout
hink?
,I'
l
ldef
ini
tel
ytr
yit
.
Naye:Youaresuchababy andPhi l
adoes
under
standwhylookl
iket
his.Youdon'
tneedt
o
str
essaboutit
.
Me:
Ify
ousaysobutwhati
fPhi
l
a..
??
Icouldn'
tfi
nishmysent encebecausehePhi
l
a
walkedanddi st
urbed.
Phil
a:Iseey
ou'r
etal
kingaboutmehere.Youcan
conti
nueyoudon'
tneedtostopbecauseI'
m her
e.
Me:Noweweren'
ttal
ki
ngabouty
ouPhi
l
a,st
op
f
lat
ter
ingy
our
self
Naye:I'
vestayedherewithyouforlongert
hanI
shoul
d've.Youwi l
lappl
ythisever
ynightand
morning,andnosexf orthenext3weeks.Bythan
you'
ll
becompl et
elyheal
ed
Phi
l
a:3weeks?Notev
enj
ustaweek.
Naye:NoPhi
lasande,
its3weeks.I
'm sur
eyou'
l
l
sur
viv
eoryou'l
lsti
cktotheDIYprocedur
e
Phi
l
a:Iwon'
tdoDI
YwhenIhav
eawi
fe
Me: I
'
llmakei
tfourweeks
Phi
l
a:You'
recr
azy
,thatwon'
thappen.That
'saf
ull
month
Weal l
laughedandNayeleftusalone.I
twasqui t
e
awkwar dcauseIwasst
il
lcaughtupI '
m my
conversati
onwit
hNaye,ireal
lyf
eel v
eryinsecur
e
aboutit.
Phi
l
a:Youl
ookl
i
kesomet
hingi
sbot
her
ingy
ou
Me:
Not
her
e'snot
hing.You'
rej
usti
magi
ningt
hings
Phi
l
a:Am I
?
Me:
Yes,
sowhatdi
dyougetatt
hecaf
e?
Phi
l
a:Cof
fee,
Igotsomef
ory
out
oo
Me:
Ican'
tdri
nkcof
feeany
mor
e,t
hecaf
fei
nei
sbad
f
ort
hebabies
Phi
l
a:Thebabywon'
tdr
inkcof
fee
Me: y oujustamazeme,Phil
aI'
m br
east
feedi
ng
sowhat
everIdri
nkoreat
,eff
ectst
hem.
Phil
a:Youshould'
vej
ustsaidsoatf i
rst
.Idon'
t
underst
andall
thesebabythings.Tal
ktome
Me:
Tal
ktoy
ou?
Hecamecloserandhel
dmefrom behi
nd,
hekept
touchi
ngmymeandholdingmeclosel
yki
sfi
ngt
he
backofmynext.
Phi
l
a:Iknowy
ou'
renotokay
,whati
sit
?
Me:Isai
dI'
m okayandt
her
e'snot
hingIwannat
alk
about
Phi
l
a:Tal
ktome.
Hehel dmeti
ghterandkissedmepassi
onat
ely
.My
heartwasbeati
ngheav i
l
y,mybodywasnumband
mylegswerewobbl y,
butter
fli
esi
nmystomach,a
feel
i
ngIdon'tunderst
and,it
'sawayonl
yhemakes
mef eel.
Me:
Doy
oul
oveme?
Phi
l
a:Yes,
wit
hev
ery
thi
ngi
nme.Ir
eal
l
ydol
ovey
ou
Me:
Evenwi
tht
hewayIl
ook?
Phi
l
a:Yes,
Iseenot
hingwr
ongwi
tht
hewayy
oul
ook.
Me:
Ihavewounds,st
it
chesandmyst
omachwel
l
mywhol
ebodylookshorr
ibl
e.
Phil
a:Thosewoundsandst i
tchesar
ev erysy
mbolic,
ourchil
drencamet hroughal
l oft
hosewounds.You
needtoembr aceitandbeproudofit.Iloveyouj
ust
thewayy ouare.
Me:
Arey
ousur
e?Idon'
tl
ookdi
sgust
ing?
Phi
l
a:Youl
ookamazi
ng.Il
ovey
ouMaFuze
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMashi
y'
amahl
e

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Inser
t79
I
tsbeenaweeksi ncewegotbackhomewi ththe
l
itt
leones,
ithasbeenat oughweekbutal
sothe
mostwonder f
ulandamazi ngweek.Westil
lgett
ing
usedtohavingthem around,waki
ngup3ti
mesat
nightt ofeedandchanget hei rnappi esorj ust
waki ngupwhenoneoft hem cr i
es.Khany akwezwe
criessosomuchl i
keitsherhobbi e.Ngceboand
Masandeal sodocr ybutnotasmuchasKhany a,
Mnqobi isjustaper fectgent leman.Henev ercr iesa
l
otI '
m sur ehehasj ustcried5t imesev ersincewe
gotbackf rom t hehospi tal.Itsomet imeswor riesme
howhedoesn' tcrywhenhi st winscr ysomuch
andPhi l
asandedoessayI 'mj ustov erreacting.He
tell
smehewasal sol i
keMnqobi whenhewasa
baby ,hismot hertoldhim so.It hinkhe' l
lgrowupt o
beshyandr eser ved.Jnrl ov eshav inghi ssi blings
aroundandt hathei soldert hant hem, hehel psme
whenhecomesbackf r
om cr ècheandal way swal ks
behindmeal lthet i
me, hesay shei spr otect i
ng
me hewant stogr owupandbeabody guar dj ust
l
ikeYanga.I fIknewhav i
ngbody guar dswoul ddo
thistomyson, t
henIwoul dn'thav eagr eedt oi t.He
i
sj ustsoexci tedaboutbei ngabody guard, ifonl yhe
under stoodhowmanyy ear sofhi sl i
fewi llhest ill
hav etowakeupev erymor ni ngandgot oschool .
Phi l
aisenj oyinghav i
ngt hebabi esar ound, hepl ays
witht hem andt heybot hf ellasl eepwi thMasandeon
thecouchy est erday ,i
twassocut eIt ookapi ctur
e.
We'v ebeenhav ingourf riendscomi ngov ertosee
thebabi esandNt okoi sv erymuchgl uedt othem,
shei ssobl ownawaybyt her esemblanceoft he
boys.Oneoft hepeopl ewhocameandt ookmeby
surprisebecauseIhav en'tseenhi mi nmont hswas
myuncl e,DaddyMandl a hehasbeenoutoft he
count ryforawhi l
eandhedi dtellmesomeshocki ng
news.Hef oundoutt hatJabui shisson, which
makesJabumycousi nbr other
.Hewassohappy
whenhet oldmeandhedi dgowi t
hJabut ot he
UnitedSt atesofAmer ica, tocatchupandhav e
fat
herandsonmoment s.Ial waysknewt herewoul d
besomet hi
ngconnect i
ngJabut ouncl eMandl a
becauseofhowt heylookedal i
keanddi dt hi
ngsbut
uncleMandl aknewnot hi
ngabouthi mt i
l
l afew
mont hsago.Hesay shesawhi m atmyweddi ngand
soonaf t
erhedi dhi sresear chandt ri
ed
communi catingwi thJabu, atfi
rsthewasangr yat
UncleMandl af ornotbei ngt hereallhislifebutthey
tal
kedi toutandunder stoodt hattheybot hdi dn'
t
knowabouteachot herandMandl adi dn'
thav ea
l
ongser iousr el ationshipwi thJabu'smot her.Iwas
veryhappyf orhim andhewasv eryhappyf ormet oo.
Wear epacki ngourbagsandPhi l
aisput t
ingt hem in
thecar ,wehav et
oheadt oLadySmi thf orthe
wel comingcer emony .Namhlawasr eleasedonbai l
forR10000andPhi l
a'sfat
herbail
edherout .Phil
a
wasv eryupsetaboutt hisbutIt
alkedt ohi m, any
fatherwoul d'vedonet hesamef orhischi ld.Itold
Philat omakesur et hatsheisnowher enearmy
childrenandhedi dsayshewon' tbet her efort hi
s
weekend.
Phi
l
a:Whydi
dyoupacksomuch?
Me: Causeweneedev er
ythingthat
'shere.Whatwi
ll
wedowi t
hthesleepingarrangementsforthebabi
es,
yourbackroom onlyhasonebed.
Phi
la:
Brai
nissor
ti
ngt
hatoutaswespeak.Any
thi
ng
el
se?
Me:
Yes
Phi
la:
Whati
sit
?It
houghtIhadev
ery
thi
ngdoneby
now.
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
out
oo
Hesmi
l
edandki
ssedmycheek
Wegoti ntothecarandIst rappedt hem i
nt hei
rcar
seats.Yangawasdr i
vi
ngususi ngt heJeep.Jnrwas
playingv i
deogamesonhi st abl
et,iwasv ery
reluctantaboutPhilagivinghi m atablet
,hei sj
usta
yearandaf ewmont hsoldbuti tdoeshel phim and
I'
vedownl oadedacademi cappst hatdoteachhi ma
l
ot .Hei saver yqui
cklear nerandunder stands
thingseasily,heisjustgrowi ngupt oofast.Phil
a
andIchangedt henappiesandNgcebomessedup
hisclothes.
Me:
SeewhyIcar
ri
edext
racl
othes?
Phi
l
a:YesMam,
youwannasayi
tol
dyouso?
Me:
I'
ll
sav
ethatf
orl
ater
Phi
l
a:Whydon'
tyousayi
tnowandhur
tmyego
Me:
Wannahur
tyouwheny
oul
eastexpecti
t.
Wepassedbywheretheaccidenthappenedwhen
wewereofft
oLadySmi t
h.Ihel
donr eal
lyti
ghlt
yto
myseatandthebabyseat
snextt ome.Philaheld
myhandandIt
ookadeepbr
eat
he.
Phi
l
a:Not
hingwi
l
lhappenNdy
amt
handa,
I'
m her
e.
Ifakedasmileandt hefearwasn'tgone,
Ijust
couldn'
tgetoverthetrauma.Oncewewer eafew
km'sawayf r
om thespotIr el
axedabit
Phi
l
a:Yanga,
stopbyt
hegar
age.
Yangadidashewasinst
ruct
ed,Philawentt
othe
garageandcamebackwithGrapet
izer
sandOrange
j
uice,heknowshowmuchIlovethem andthey
'l
lbe
abletocal
m medown.
Me:
Thanky
ou
Phi
l
a:You'
rewel
come.Nowdr
inkt
hiswi
thi
t.
Ididashesai dandIfeltbett
er.Thedrivewasn't
l
ongandwear r
ivedaf
teranhal fanhour.Nandiwas
al
readyatt hegatewait
ingforus.Shescr eamedand
wentt ot
akeoneoft heboy s,
Mnqobi whilePhil
a's
mot hert
ookKhany a,i
wascar ryingMasandeand
Braincar
riedNgcebo.Icouldn'thelpbutlookaround
Mom:
Don'
twor
ry,
she'
snother
e.
If
eltabi
trel
i
eved,
Phi
l
asf
athercamet
ogr
eetand
wegoti
nsidet
hemainhousewhil
eYangaandPhi
l
a
wer
etaki
ngourbagstoPhi
la'
sbackr
oom.
Mom:
Howhav
eyoubeenwi
tht
heki
dsar
ound?
Me:I
'vebeenokaymom andwe'
remanagi
ng,the
f
ir
stdaywashardbutnowwe'r
eslowl
ygett
ingused
t
oit.
Nandi
:itcan'
tbeeasy
,havi
ngonesmallchi
ldi
shar
d
work,
nowhav ingf
ouryohIwoul
dn'
tcope.Il
ovemy
sl
eep
Me:
Wel
lyouhav
etocompr
omi
se,
theycomef
ir
st.
Nandi
:YeahIunder
stand.Br
ainwhenar
eyouhav
ing
babi
es?
Dad:Doesheevenhav
eagi
rl
fr
iend,
thati
sfi
tto
evenbehiswi
fe.
Brai
n:Youguy s,
I'
m st
il
lver
yy oungtobethi
nki
ngof
marri
age.Ij
ustwannal i
vemyl i
fe,
andyesdadIdo
haveagirl
fr
iendbutit
'
snothingseri
ous.
Dad:St
opplay
ingwitht
hegirl
sfeeli
ngs,whybewi
th
herwheny
ou'renotser
iousabouther?
Br
ain:
Wej
usthav
efun,
har
mlessf
un.
Dad:
Youki
dsoft
oday
.
Hesmackedt hebackofBr ai nsheadandwe
l
aughed.Phi lacamet oj oi
nusbei ngf oll
owedbyhi s
aunti
esanduncl es.Thecer emonywasgoi ngt ostart
ri
ghtawayast heywer ebeingi ntr
oducedt ot he
ancestors.Iwasn' treall
ypar tofi t,Phi
lawentwi th
thebabiest othekr aalwi t
hhi sf atherandBr ainasi t
wassai dthatonl ymal eswer eal l
owedt ogoi nt here.
Theuncl eswer echant ingandcal lingouttheirclan
names.Af teraf ewhour sev erythingwasdoneandI
wentt obatht hem wi t
hNandi helpingme.Phi l
awas
withhisfatheranduncl esbehi ndt hehouset alki
ng
andhav i
ngMqombot hi.Idi
dn' tknowPhi l
adr inks
that,
ithasabadsmel l
.
Me:
Idi
dn'
tknowPhi
l
adr
inksMqombot
hi
Nandi
:Hedoeshav
eat
radi
ti
onal
sidet
ohi
m.
Me:
Iguessso.
Nandi
:Justgotatextf
rom him,
hesaysweshoul
d
gett
othemai nhouse,
itsafami
lymeet
ing
Me:
Youknewabouti
t?
Nandi
:No.Hesay
sthehel
per
swi
l
lcomebaby
sit
.
Me:
okay
Wel
eftaft
erthenanni
escamei
n.Wesatdownon
t
hef
loornexttoPhi
la'
smom.
Dad:Ihav
ecalledthi
smeetingt
oaddresst
hefami
ly
i
ssues.Weallknowt hei
nci
dentNamhladi
dnotso
l
ongagot ohi
sbr ot
herandhiswi
fe.I
twasashock
toal
lofusandwehav ecometofi
ndout
Phi
l
a:Whatdoy
oumeanbyt
hat
?
Dad:I
'm sor
ryson,
butasafathert
oyoual
lIneedto
sor
tthi
soutimmediatel
ybef
oreitget
sanyworse.
Namhlacomei n
Phi
la:
What !Youcal
ledthatwi
tch!
!Itol
dyouIdon'
t
wantheranywherenearme,mywi f
eandmyki ds!
!
Me:
Phi
l
acal
m down,
please.
Phi
l
a:Iam notgoi
ngt
ocal
m down!
Me:
I'
ll
gocheckont
hebabi
es.
Mom:
Ther
e'snoneedt
o,t
heaunt
iesar
ewi
tht
hem
Ist
il
ldi
dn'
tfeel
asi
ftheywer
esaf
e,Iwant
edt
hem
r
ightnextt
omebutIsatdown.
Dad:Si
tdownsonweneedtoresol
vet
his.Makot
i,i
s
ther
eanyt
hingy
ouwanttosay
?
Me:
No
Brai
n:Ij
ustwanttoknowhowshecoul
ddosucha
thi
ng?Shescruel
Namhl a:Justl
ikey ou,I
'
ml i
steni
ngtoy ouguy s
call
ingmecr uelandawi tch,I
'mjustt
hesameas
youar e.Iam l
i
ket hisbecauseofyou,becauseof
everyoneinthi
shouse.Idon' tbl
amemy selff
orwhat
Idid,andifyouthi
nkt hat'
scruel
tyyouhav en'
tseen
anything.
Phi
l
a:Your
eal
l
ywantmet
oki
l
lyou
Namhl
a:Whydon'
tyouj
ustdot
hat
?May
bel
i
fewi
l
l
besogr
eat.
Me:Ij
ustwantt
oknowwhyy
oudi
d?Justanswer
t
hatquest
ion
Namhla:SoIcanrui
nPhi
l
a'sli
fe,ev
ery
thi
ngis
per
fectf
orhim.Hehasawife,babi
es,
heisa
mil
li
onai
reandevery
onel
ooksupt ohi
mlikehei
s
thefirstchi ldoft hishouse.I '
mj ustaf ail
urei nt his
family ,nobodyr ecogni zesmeev ersi ncehewas
born!Hecamei nt ot hi
sl ifeandr epl acedme, took
mypl aceast hel astchi l
d.Youpai dat tentiont ohi m
andhewasGod.Ev eryt
hi nghedi dwr ongIt ookt he
fal
lfori t
.Youpushedmeasi deandInev erexi tedt o
you, bot hofy ouespeci al l
ywheny ougotdi v orced.
Noonepai dat tent i
ont ome, itwasal labout
Phil
asande!Phi lasandet hisandt hat !Andt hencame
Brain!Thi ngsgotev enwor se!Inev ergotmyt imet o
beaki d, Ialway shadt owat chov ert hem andPhi l
a
hasal way sbeeny ourf av ori
tecausehenev erdoes
anythi ngwr ong!Nandi wassentof ft ot hegr eat est
boardi ngschool s!Theywentt of i
neschool sin
Durbanwhi leIwasj ustl efther etol ookaf tert he
houseanddochor esaf terschool !WasIt hemai dof
thehouse?That '
swhyIwast reatedi nsuchabad
way ?Hav ey ouev erwonder edwhyIt urnedoutt obe
thetr oubl esomechi ld!Smoki ngweed!Comi ng
homel ate,dr i
nkingmymi seryaway !Fai l
i
ngaf ucken
grade!Di dy ouev ercar et oev enaskwhatmademe
doal l that?No!Youwer et oobusyf ocusingon
Phil
asande!If uckenki l
ledmychi l
d!Becauseofy ou
andthedepr
essi
onIhad,Iknewy ou'
dchasemeout
onthestr
eet
sifIkeptt
hatbaby!Youdidn'
tcar
e
aboutme.
Shewasshoutingandi nt
ears,Ineverknewthi
ngs
weret
hisdeep.ButIknewt her
ehadt obear eason
whyshewaslikethis.Phi
l
a'smom wasal soi
ntear
s
andwewereall l
i
steningt
oNamhl a
Mom:Whatchi
ldarey
out
alki
ngabout
?Whydi
dn'
t
yout
ell
meallt
his?
Namhla: WhenwasIgoi ngtotellyou!Youboth
neverhadanyt i
meforme.Woul dy ouhaveaccepted
me, ateenagegir
lonpregnant!Woul dyou?!Noy ou
wouldn't
.Ihadtobarethatpainalone,suff
eralone
whenIabor tedmyfi
rstchil
d.Youknewnot hi
ng
aboutme, whendidNandi getherperiod?
Mom:
16t
hJune,
whenshewasi
ngr
ade7.
Namhl
a:Whendi
dIgetmyper
iod?
Shewassi
l
entandl
ookeddown,
shecr
iedev
en
more.
Namhl
a:Answermedamni
t!Answerme!
Mom:
Idon'
tknow
Namhla:Wipeofft
hosef
aket
ear
s,y
ou'
renotmy
mother.Andyou!
Shepoi
ntedt
oherf
ather
Namhla:Youbeatmeupsobad, sobadt hatnight
whenyouaccusedmeofst ealingyourmoney .Ilet
youbeatmeupcov er
ingupf oryourstupidson,
Brai
n.Afterthathelaughedatmer ightatmyf ace
fort
akingthef al
lforhim,doy outhinkitwasal l
sweetandr oseywheny oucall
edmeat hei
f!Doy ou
thi
nkIenjoyedbeingbeatupf oreverycentthatgoes
missi
ng!
Phi
l
a:Namhl
a
Namhl a:Ohy oushouldj ustshutup!Shutthef uck
up.Iwast oldtogof etchy ouatschoolthatev eni
ng,
butnoy oudeci dedtogowi t
hy ourpr
ecious
Siy
amt handa, Iwalkedthatdistancej
usttocome
fet
chy ouy etallIcamebackwi thwasaf etusinmy
tummy .Her apedme!Iscr eamedouthopi ngy ou'
d
appearandsav emebutnoy ouweren'
tther e,
noone
i
sev erthereforNamhl a!Iwasonmyper i
odst hat
nightbutt hatnev erstoppedhi m!Her apedme, t
ook
myi nnocence, f r
ontandback.Yesheev enusedmy
asshol e!Inev err eturnedhomet hatnightbecause
hewasont opofmet heent ir
eni ght
!WhenI
retur nedhomet henextmor ning,youuncl ebeatme
up, callingmeawhor et hatsleepsar oundwi thol d
men!Ihat ey ou!Ihat eal lofyou!Ihav etwof ailed
mar r i
ages!Iam f aili
ngt obeamot hertomyki ds
becauseofmyal cohol i
ntake,thesmoki ngand
beingcr azy!If ailedtobeamot hercauseeacht ime
Ilookatmyki dsIi magi net heoneIki l
led!Ionce
beatupmysont hinkingI'm beat i
ngupPhi lasande,
becauseoft heangeri nsideofme.Thecour ttook
mychi l
drenawayf rom me!Whyshoul dn' tItake
your sawayf rom y ou!!Youar eabet terpar entt hanI
am huh?You' rejustl i
key ourmot herandf ather,I
hopef ort hosechi l
dren'ssakey ouchangeanddon' t
treatt hem t hewayIwas!Becauset hisishowt hey
wi l
ltur nout !Andl etmet ellyousomet hing.IfIdon't
killthem, I'l
lkillyouPhi l
asandeandIwi l
lmakesur e
oft hat !
Shescr
eamedandhi
tthet
abl
eandr
anoutt
hedoor
.
Weal lfoll
owedandshet ookhercaranddr oveoff.I
wasal soint earsandf eltli
keIhav eheardenough.I
wassosadandscar ed.Noonespoke, everyonejust
wentt otheirrooms.Phi lasandespoket osome
secur it
yguy st ofoll
owNamhl aandmakesur eshe's
saf e.Hisey eswer eredandhel ookedv erysadand
disappoi nted.Iknowhowmuchhei shear tbroken
byt his,nomat t
erwhathadhappenedhest i
lll
oves
hissi ster
.Thegui ltinhisf acewasv isi
ble.Wegott o
ourr oom andIwentt ochanget hechi l
dren's
nappi es.Jnrwassl eepingwi thBraininhisroom.
Phi l
at ookal ongshowerandIcoul dhearhi ssof t
cries
Me:
MayIcomei
n?
Phi
l
a:Sur
e
Itookofmycl othesandjoinedhim.Hepi nnedme
againstthewal landinser
tedhismanhoodi nme,
withev erythr
usthetookouthi sfrust
rat
ionsand
pains.Ithurtali
ttl
ebutIjustlethi
m be,Itookhis
painf orhim.Oncewewer edoneweshower ed.He
couldn'tevenlookatme.Ihel dhisfaceandmade
hi
ml ookatme
Phi
l
a:I
'
m sor
ry.
Iki
ssedhi slipspassionatelyandmadel ov ewi t
hhim
agai
n, onlyourmoanscoul dbehear d.I
twassi l
ent,
comfor t
ablesilence.Wegoti ntobedandIsl eptfor
awhile.Ihear dalotofshuf fl
ingandarguing, I
openedt hedoor sandt herewasNamhl awi t
hagun
onPhilasande'shead.Thet r
iggerwaspulled!I
sl
owlywat chedhim ashef ellandsheshothi m
agai
nonhi schest ,
nearthehear t
.Icouldn'tbeliev
e
myey es
Iscr
eamedf
orhel
pandsher
anaway
Me:
Phi
l
asande!
!!
!!
!!
!!
Al
lIcoul
dhear
,wast
hebabi
escr
y.
Hewasgone,
gonef
orev
er.

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[
1/11,
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43]Tat
enda:
Inser
t80
Iwassweating,coul
dn'tbr
eatheandIcouldn'tst
op
cry
ing.Mytearswereflowi
nguncontrol
lablyandmy
heart
beatwasbeat i
ngfastert
hanital
way sdoes.I
washav i
ngapani catt
ack.
Phi
l
a:Cal
m downMaFuze,
dri
nkt
his.
Hegav emeaglassofwaterandicoul
dn'
tevenhol
d
i
t,myhandswereshaki
ng.Hehelpedmedr i
nkthe
waterandhel
dmet i
ght
ly
Phil
a:SsshI'm her
enow,
itwasonl
yjustani
ght
mar
e
babe.Calm down
Me:
She.
..She,
sheki
l
ledy
ou
Phil
a:Whoki
ll
edme?MaFuzeI'
m al
i
v esi
tt
ingr
ight
nexttoy
ou.I
twasal
lj
ustonebaddream.
Me:I
twassoreal
,itwashappeni
ngPhi
lasande.I
t
ri
edstoppi
ngher
,Namhlashotyouandyoudied.
Phil
a:Youwer
edr
eami
ng.Not
hingi
sgoi
ngt
o
happentome.
Me:Idon'
tfeel
saf
ehere,
weareallnotsaf
e
Phi
l
asande.Wemustleavef
ir
stt
hinginthemor
ning
Phi
l
a:Butwegother
etodaySi
yaandt
her
emi
ghtbe
ameeti
ngtomor
row
Me:Justl
i
stentomepl
ease,
itwasal
ltoor
eal
to
j
ustbeanight
mare
Phi
la:
Okaywe'l
ll
eavemidday,
itwi
ll
berudeofust
o
j
ustpackupandleav
eearl
yinthemorni
ng.
Me:
Thanky
ou
Phi
la:
Wantt
ogobackt
osl
eepnow?I
t'
sst
il
lj
ust
4am
Me:
No,
Idon'
twantt
osl
eep.Youcansl
eep.
Henoddedandsl
ept
,af
teraf
ewmi
nut
esIwas
f
eel
ingreal
l
yscar
ed.
Me:
Phi
l
awakeup,
Ikeeponhear
ingt
hegunshot
.
Phil
a:You'
reparanoid.Come, layonmychestandI
'
ll
rubyourback.Maybey ou'l
lfeelbet
terordoy
ou
wantmet ogogeti cecream foryou?
Me: No,
Idon'
twantyout
oleav
eusal
oneher
e.Let
's
checkonthebabi
es
West
oodupandcheckedont
hem,
theywer
efi
ne
andsleepi
ngbutIsti
l
lwasn'
tatease.Idoubl
ed
checkedandever
ythi
ngwasfine.
Phil
a:Theyar
esl
eepi
ng,
youdon'
twantt
owake
them up.
Me:
Ijustf
eel
li
kesomet
hingwi
l
lgowr
ong.
Phil
a:Not
hingwil
lgowr
ongMaFuze,
I'
m her
efor
you.Weallsaf
e.
West ayedupt il
litwas7am,wewer ejusttal ki
ng
andkissing.Wel aughedathowwedi dn'tfinisht he
twoweeksNay esai dweshould,
bef orewehav esex.
Myst i
tchesandwoundsar eheal
edandsomeoft he
scarsarefadingaway .Mystomachi sgoingbackt o
i
t'sshapesoIhav enothi
ngtobei nsecureabouti n
thatdepartment.Thoughmyboobsar emuchbi gger
thanthewayt heyusedt obe,Phi
lasay st heyar e
sexyandhei sinl ovewit
hthem,themanImar ried
though Phi l
acamewi t
hbreakfastinourr oom, we
atepeacefull
yandshower edwhilet hebabi eswer e
sti
llsi
lentl
yasleep.Khanyaseemst obebehav ing
hersel
fv er
ywel l
.
Phi
l
a:Youl
ooki
nggood,
makot
iwam
Me:
Ngy
abongababa
Ismiledandbowedmyhead,hel
aughedatmeand
hejustcoul
dn'
tstopl
aughi
ng
Me:Whyareyoulaughi
ngatme? I
'
m bei
nga
per
fectmakot
i.
Phi
la:Sti
cktoj
ustbei
ngy
our
sel
f t
hatmov
ereal
l
y
di
dn'tsui
tyou
Me:
You'
ret
ryi
ngt
osayI
'
m notagoodwi
femat
eri
al?
Phil
a:Iwoul
dn'
thavemarr
iedy
oui
fyouwer
en'
t.You
real
l
ylookgoodthough
Me:
Thanky
ou
Phil
a:Youshoul
dact
ual
l
ysay"
Baba"t
omemor
e
oft
enly
Me:
Yourki
dswi
l
lsayt
hatt
oyou,
notme.
Hekeptplayingwiththeendsofmydr ess,hemust
havereal
lyl
ikedit.I
twasanav ylongdress,nott
oo
ti
ghtbutshapesmybodyv er
ywel l
.Af
teraf ew
minutesMnqobi wokeupandIf edhimt hanPhil
a
bathedhi
m whi l
eIfedtheother
s.Weal lwenttothe
mainhouseandthefamil
ywaswat chi
ngTV,so
ear
lyi
nthemor ni
ng.Theywerewatchi
ngcar
toons
soobvi
ouslyJnrwasthebossoftheTV.
Me:
Didy
oueat
?
Jnr
:Yesmom.Di
dyoueatt
hebabi
es?
Il
aughedathi
m,hemeantdi dIf
eedt hebabies I
al
waystel
lhi
mi t
s"feed"not"
eat'butheneverget
sit.
Me:YesIdi
dfeedthebabiesJnr.Remembery ou'
re
al
somybabysoIhav etofeedyou
Jnr
:Yuck!Idon'
twantcowmi
l
k
Me:
Whot
oldy
oui
tscowmi
l
k?
Jnr
:Isawtheli
tt
lecowdrinki
ngcowmilkf
rom i
ts
mother
.That
'swhattheyalsodo,
eaty
ourcowmi l
k.
Me:
Itsbr
eastmi
l
kmybabynotcowmi
l
k
Jnr
:Whati
sthat
?
Me:
What
?
Jnr
:Br
east
s
Br
ianl
aughedsohowhar
dandanswer
edhi
m
Bri
an:Theyareaveryi
mport
antasseti
nawoman.
That'
swherethej
uicymil
kcomesout.Youshoul
d
cal
lthem t
it
s
Phi
l
a:St
opt
eachi
ngmysonnonsense!
Jnr
:Howdoest
hemi
l
kcomeout
?
Br
ian:
Yousuckt
hem r
eal
har
dandsqueezei
tout
Me:
ShutupBr
ian
Jnr
:Mkhul
u,doy
oual
sosuckt
it
s?
Okayt hat'sit!Jnrknowst oomuch, hehasaskedt oo
manyquest ions andIj ustknowhewi l
lnever
forgett hi
s"ti
t s"nameandt hisconversat i
on.
Mkhul u(Phila'sdad)Cl ear edhi sthroatandt al
ked
aboutCar t
oons.Jnrwaseasi l
ydistr
act ed.Youcould
seeint hatNandi want edt ol augh,sheexcused
herself,Bri
anandPhi laf ollowedher .Theywer e
l
aughi ngnonst opatt heki tchenandnotwant i
ngto
i
magi net heirf at
hersucki ngt i
ts Iwat chedthem
andsawhowmucht heyl ov edeachot herandhow
closet heywer e,Icouldn' thel pbutthinkofwhat
Namhl ahadsai dy esterdayandhowshewoul dbe
feel
ingifshesawt hem li
kethis.Idof eel abitsorr
y
forher,feel
i
ngl ef
toutandlikey ou'
remi streated
ain'
tnof unandgames.I thurt
sandi tcanr eall
yruin
yourselfesteem andhowy ouv iewrelationshipsand
familybonds.Youj ustal
wayst heblacksheep, t
he
outsiderinyourownf amil
y.Theycamebackwi th
snacks
Phi
l
a:We'
l
lbel
eav
ingat2o'
cl
ock
Mom:
Whyar
eyoul
eav
ingsoear
ly?
Phil
a:Wehavealottosor
toutpl
usweneedtogo
backhome,t
hereisnotmuchspaceher
eand
ever
ythi
ngweneedforthebabi
es.
Mom: Youcanmovebackt
oy ourroom her
einthe
mainhouseandwe'
ll
getwhateveryouneed.I
t'
ssti
ll
gr
eathavi
ngmygrandki
dsaround.
Phi
l
a:Thatwon'
tbenecessar
y,wewi
l
lbel
eav
ing.
Wecont
inuedwatchingunt
ilwehear
dal
otofnoi
ses
comi
ngfrom out
side.
Br
ian:
Thatwasagunshot
.
Phi
l
a:I
'
m goi
ngoutt
her
e,Br
iancomewi
thme.
Me:Areyoucrazy!
!Youdor ememberthedream I
had,
doy ouwanttodie?
!You'regoi
ngtodieand
l
eavemeal onewit
hallyourchi
ldr
en,howam Igoing
todothi
salone!
Nandi
:Whatdr
eam?
Phi
la:Ihavetogooutt
her
e,peopl
ear
edy
ing.Ihav
e
toprotectt
hem.
Me: Andwhoi sgoi
ngtoprot
ectyou!You'r
eso
stubborn!Youknowwhat'
sgoingtohappentoyou,
Go, j
ustgobutknowI'
l
lhateyouforever
!Evenwhen
you'r
edead!
Iwascr
yingandshouti
ngathi
m,hecamecl
oset
o
meandheldmet i
ghtl
y.
Phi
l
a:AndI
'
llal
way
slov
eyou.
Withthatsaid,hi
sfat
her
,hi
m andBr
ainl
eftt
he
house.Ijustsatdownandcr
ied.
Nandi
:Ev
ery
thi
ngwi
l
lbeokay
Thegunshotswentlouderandmoreoft
henwere
fi
red.Ij
ustcoul
dn'
thelpbutthi
nkoft
heworst
.It
wassi l
entf
oraver
yl ongti
me
Me:
I'
m goi
ngout
,they
'vebeensi
l
entf
ort
ool
ong
Nandi
:I'
m goi
ngwi
thy
ou
Wegotoutandmostoft
hebody
guar
dswer
elay
ing
l
if
elessont
hegr
ound.
Nandi
:Ohgod,
thi
sist
err
ibl
e.
Phi
l
asandecamer
unni
ngt
ous
Me:
You'
reokay
!Whatwashappeni
ngher
e.
Phil
a:Geti
nside,
youshoul
dn'
tbehere.Yangagot
shotint
heheadandtheheart
,justl
i
keyourdream.
Thosebull
etsweremeantf
orme
Me:
Whodi
dthi
s?
Phil
a:Namhla,shet
riedr
unningawaybutwegother
.
Wehav etobesomewher enow.Geti
nside,
ext
ra
securi
tywi
llbecoming.
Nandi
:Shoul
dwebescar
ed?
Phil
a:Idon'tthi
nkso,she'
ll
bearrested.Babewe'l
l
tal
klater
.Pleasecontactt
hesecurit
ycompanyso
wecani nformthem aboutthedeathofthesepeople.
They'
llbepickedupsoon.
Hel
eftusandwewentbackt
othemai
nhouse.
Mom:
What
'sgoi
ngon?Ar
etheyokay
?
Nandi:
Yesmom,butNamhl
aki
l
ledmanypeople,
she'
sgoingt
obearr
est
ed.I
tmi
ghtbef
orli
fe.
Mom: Idon'tevenknowwhatt osaytoal
lthi
s.My
bloodpr essurecannothandl
eallt
his,
I'
m goi
ngto
rest.
Shewentupst
air
swi
tht
hebabi
esandt
heyal
lsl
ept
.
Nandi
:whatdr
eam wer
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me: Ihadadream ofNamhl ashotingPhi
lainthe
headandneart heheart,exactl
ywher eYangawas
shot.That'
swhyPhi lasaysthegunshotwasf orhim.
Itwasv er
yreal
,sot hat'
swhyIj ustcoul
dn'tst
op
thi
nkingaboutit.Iknewitwasgoi ngtohappen
Nandi
:Soundsl
i
key
ouhadav
isi
on.
Me:
May
bei
twas.
Weconti
nuedtalki
ngandcalledt hecompany ,they
weregoi
ngtoinformthefamilies.ButIpersonall
y
wantedt
odoi t
,it
'sthel
eastwecoul ddo.I fJnrsti
ll
t
hinkshewil
lbeabody guar
d, hemustj ustforgeti
t.
Theirli
v esar eatri
skandcandi eanyt i
meandany
day.West art
edcookinglunchsot heycanhav efood
whent heycomeback, Iguesswewon' tbel eaving
todayort omor r
ow.There'sal otthatneedst obe
sortedout .AndIhavetoexpl aintoJnrt hatYangai s
nomor e.Hewasr eall
ycloset oYangaandspent
mostofhi sti
mewi thhimt hant heotherbody guards.
Andt her e'
llbeanewsecur i
tyteam whi chmakesi t
dif
ficul
tcausehe' l
lhavetoadj usttothem aswel l
.
Nandi
:Come,
theypi
cki
ngupt
hebodi
es.
Wewentoutandsi gnedthedocuments.Itwasv er
y
sadtowat chall
thathappen.All
thefami l
ieswho
havelostt
heirson,thei
rbreadwi
nners.Phila,
Br i
an
andtheirf
athercameback.Dadl ookedv eryt
ired
andupset.Hewentst rai
ghttohi
sbedr oom andshut
thedoor.
Nandi
:Andt
hen?
Br
ian:
Hei
sdi
sappoi
nted.Wewentt
oseeNamhl
a.
Phil
a:Hercourtcasewil
lbenextweek,she'
s
defi
nit
elyget
ti
ngi mpr
isonedf
orli
fe.Shekil
l
ed
11people.
Me:
That
'sj
usthect
ic.
Br
ian:She'
sgoingtobegett
ingpsy
chiat
ri
chelp.We
j
ustthi
nkshe'sdi
stur
bed.Nooneinthei
rri
ghtminds
woulddoallt
hat.
Wedishedupfort
hem andtheyat
eli
keit'
sthei
rfi
rst
ti
me.NandiandIf
etchedt
hekidsandIfedthem.I
putt
hem tosl
eepandPhil
acamet oj
oinus
Nandi
:I'
ll
giveyousomeprivacy.Shel
eftandPhi
l
a
wasscratchi
ngthebackofhishead.
Me:
What
'swr
ong?
Phila:Iwanttoapol ogize.I'
m sorr
yIr eall
yam.I
shoul dn'
thavetakeny ourdr eam l
ightly
,Inev er
expect edNamhl atodosuchat hi
ng.I'm sorryI
didn'tbeli
eveyou.IguessIj ustwant edt ogivehera
chanceandmaket hingsr i
ght.Butwhatshedi dis
unforgivabl
e.Ireal
lyshoul d'
v el
ist
enedt oy ou.
Me:
Itsokay
.I'
mjustgl
ady
ouokayandal
i
ve.
Phil
a:Wel ostalotofpeopl
etoday,i
nnocentpeopl
e.
Yangat ookthebull
etsforme,Idi
dn'
tseeNamhl a
approachingandhejumpedupt omeandgotshoti n
hishead,Iduckedandhid.That
'swhensheshothim
againinhisheart
.Shehadasmi leonherf
ace,she
didn'
tfeelnoremorse.Li
keit
ssomet hi
ngshe'
sused
todoing.
Me:Whathedidisunf or
gett
able,
hegaveuphisl
i
fe
i
nordert
osav eyours.Idon'
tknowanyonewho
woul
ddot hatbuthedid,youowehimyourl
if
e.
Phil
a:That
'swhyI'
l
lbepay i
ngf
orhisfuner
al,
every
thi
ngwill
betakencareof
fbyme.Iowehi m
thatmuch,i
tsthel
eastIcandoforhi
m.
Me:That
'sr
eall
ykindofyou.Hewi
l
lbedef
ini
tel
y
happyt
hatyoudidthat
.
Phi
l
a:Yout
hinkso?
Me:
Iknowso
Iki
ssedhi
scheekandsmi
l
ed
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
HetookKhanyasi
nceshewasawakeandtheysat
t
ogetheront
hebed.It
ookapict
ureoft
hem and
addedi tont hephot oal bum Ihav eonmyphone, I
shouldr emembert ogopr inttheseoutandaddt hem
toourf amilyal bum.Il ov emyf ami l
y ,Iwoul dbe
nothingwi t
houtt hem.I 'vegr ewupt obeamot herto
fi
vechi ldren, awi fetoamant hatIl ov e.Ther e's
nothingmor eIwoul dev erwanti nlifet hant hel if
eI
havenow.Idon' tknowwhatIwoul d'v ebeeni fitwas
Phil
awhohadbeenshot ,howwoul dIhav eev en
rai
sedf ivechi l
drenwi thouthi m.Howwoul di even
cope, wher ewoul dIev enst art?Theywi llwantt obe
withthei rfather ,they'
lllongf orhi ml ikeIal way s
havel ongf ormyf ather.Idon' twantmychi ldrent o
gothr ought hat .I'm gladPhi l
ai sali
v e, hei sr eallyan
i
mpor tantaspectofmyl i
fe.Hei sagr eatf athert o
ourchi ldrenandagr eathusbandt ome.Iappr eciat
e
him andev ery t
hinghedoesf ormeandourf ami l
y.
Hei sreal l
yaf ami lymanwhol oves, car esand
protectshi sf ami l
y .Hehasmessedupal otbef ore
andt her ewer et imeswher ei wonder edwhatam I
sti
lldoi ngwi thhi m, wher ei askedwhydoIl ov ehim
somuch?Wher eal lIwant edtodoandf eel i
shat e,
hatehi m andf orgetabouthi m butIcoul dn'tbecause
hewasmadef orme.Hei smysoul mat e,thel ov eof
myl ife.Ther ewer esit
uati
onst hatwer emeantt o
breakusdownbutt heycouldn't.Ourloveisstronger
thanev eryt
hingwe' vefaced.I
fsomeonewoul d
comet ellmet hatI
'm notmeantt obewi thPhi l
a, I
woul djustlaughatt hei
rface.There'
snooneel seI
am meantt obewi thotherthanhi m.Ilovehim and
hel ovesmet oo,andtous, t
hat'sall
thatmat ters.
That sal l
weneed, andallwewant .Wear etoget her
forever.
Phil
a:Whatar
eyouthi
nkingabout
?Youl
ookl
i
ke
you'
rej
ustmil
esawayfrom her
e
Me:Iwasjustt
hinki
ngabouty
ou.Howl
uckyIam t
o
hav
ey oui
nmyl i
fe.
Phi
l
a:Iam t
hel
uckyone.Youmeant
hewor
ldt
ome
MaFuze.
Me:
You'
regoi
ngt
omakemecr
y
Phi
l
a:Pl
easedon't youcri
edt
oomuchwheny
ou
wer
epregnant
.Ineedabr
eak
Me:
No!Idi
dn'
t
Phi
l
a:Babey
oucr
iedev
ery
dayandev
eryhour
.Just
l
i
key
ourdaught
erher
e.
Me:
What
ever
Il
eanedov
erandki
ssedhi
m andKhany
a.
Il
ovemyf ami
l
y andIwoul dn'
ttr
adethem f
or
anyt
hingi
nthi
swor
ld.Iam pr
oudofthewomanI'v
e
become

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t81
Whatwaspl annedtoj ustbeaweekendawayv i
sit
tur
nedint
oaweek.West ayedi nLadySmith
att
endi
ngNamhl a'
strailandj usticewaaserved,she
wassentencedtolifeimpr i
sonmentaswehad
assumed,ki
lli
ng11peopl eisnochi ld'
spl
ay.Wegot
backabouttwoday sago, yesterdaywehad
att
endedYanga'sfuner al
,itwassadt obi
df arewell
tohim.For tunatelyJnrunder stoodt hatwewi ll
nev er
everseeYangaev eragai n,thathei swat chingov er
usf r
om t heheav ensabov e.Phi lapai dforev erything
forhisf uner al ,
hisfami l
ywasv erygr aceful.Hehad
2children, Idi dn'
tknowof ,henev err eal
lytalked
abouthi spr ivatelif
ebutIdi dknowaboutt heappl e
ofhishear t
, apparent l
yt heywer eengagedsoont o
bemar ried.Buthi slifewast akenawaybef oret hey
couldev enbehusbandandwi f
e, thewayshecr ied
mademesosadIendedupcr yi
ngt o.Oneofhi s
Unclesbl amedusf orhi sdeat handPhi latookt he
blame, i
twast hef i
rsttimeIsawPhi l
atakingbl ame
forsomet hinghedi dn'tdo, somet hinghei sbei ng
accusedof .Her eal
lyf eelsgui l
tyandal sobl ames
himsel fforYanga' sdeat h.Heal way ssay si t
shoul d'vebeenhi m.Hehast ooki tuponhi msel fto
payf ort hechi l
drenseducat i
onandsendt hem a
mont hlyal l
owance, thet woboy swer ev erygr ateful
andgotal ongwel lwithPhi l
a.Hei ntendst obei nga
fathert obot hoft hem si ncet hei rf ather
sl i
f ewas
takenawaywhi l
ehewaspr ot ectinghi m.Theboy s
arebot h14andl ooksomuchl ikeYanga.I
discov eredt herewasal otIdi dn'tknowaboutYanga
andt hathewas2y ear sol dert hanme, hel ookedso
freshandy oung, Iwoul d'venev erpredi ctedhi sage
andPhi l
ahadnev ert oldmeabouti t .Ot hert hant hat
thingsar ebet t
erathome, Philawentt owor kashe
neededt oat t
endmeet ingst hatneededhi m
per sonal ly.Kayhasbeendoi ngv eryv erywel lwith
thecompanyandPhi lai sbey ondbei ngi mpr essed.
Hei sv eryhappybecausehehadal otofhopeand
believ edi nhi m somucht hathewoul dbev ery
disappoi ntedi fhehadn' tbeenabl et omanaget he
company .Ithasbeenagoodmor ningbecausemy
babi esar ebehav i
ngt hemsel vesr eallywel l
, Iput
them i nt hei rbabypr amsandt heyar ef astasl eep, I
wasabl et ot akeashowerwi thoutanydi stur bances.
Phi l
awant edmet ogetsomeonet ohel pmebutI
didn'twantt o,thehel per shav et heirdayof ftoday
andIdi dn' twantt obeabur dent ot hem t heyal so
hav el i
v esandt hei rownki dst otakecar eof fandI
hav emanagedv eryper fect l
yonmyown.Phi l
av ideo
calledme, hel ookedsohandsomei nhi ssui t
i
tsbeenawhi l
esi nceIsawhi m weari t
.
Phi
l
a:I
sev
ery
thi
ngokayt
her
e?I
'
llbehomei
naf
ew
hour
smawabo
Me:Every
thi
ngisokay
.Wej ustmi
ssyou and
ev
eryt
hingisgoi
ngaccor
dinglywi
tht
hemeet
ing?
Phi
la:
Yesi ndeed.Theyareveryhardtopl
easebutI
managedwi ththehelpofKay.I'
m aboutt
oorder
l
unch,shouldIorderfori
ttobedeliver
edtoyoutoo?
Me:
Yespl
ease
Phi
l
a:Whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
oeat
?
Me:Whatevery
ou'r
ehav
ing.Justmakesur
ether
e
ar
ebarbequewings.
Phi
l
a:I
twi
l
lbet
her
ein15mi
ns.
Me:
Thanky
ouv
erymuch
Phil
a:Doyoul
ikesi
l
verorgol
d?Iknowy
oul
ovebot
h
butwhichdoy
oulovebest
?
Me:Si
lver
,whydoy ouask?Thathasnothi
ngtodo
wi
ththefoodIhope.Idon'
twanttoeatsil
ver
wi
ngs
Phi
l
a:Iwasj
ustwonder
ing Wher
ear
emybabi
es?
Ist
oodandshowedhi
m
Phi
la:
Theyl
ooksopeacefulandcut
e Iwi
sht
o
hav
ethem i
nmyarmsalready
Me:
Youwi
l
loncey
our
etur
n.
Phil
a:YesandIam l
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtot
hatmoment
.
Ihavetogonow
Me:
Goodby
eseey
oul
ater
.
Phi
l
a:Justl
i
ket
hat
?
Me:
Whatdoy
oumeanbyt
hat
?
Phil
a:Ber
omant
icpl
ease Ki
ssmet
hrought
he
phone
Me:
Youcr
azy
Ibl
ewhi m akissandhecaughti tandbl ewitback
Wesai dourgoodby esandIsmi l
edthinkingbackt o
ourolddays.Heusedt obl owmeaki ss, ev
ery
chancehegotespeci all
ywhenweat t
endeddi f
ferent
cl
assesduringclassrotati
onshewoul dmakesur e
heblowsmeaki ss.Mostofourhi ghschool mates
usedtosaywef edeachot herl
ovepotion i j
ust
usedtolaughatt hem somuch.Mostpeopl ewer e
shockedandwhenwef i
nishedthr
eey earstogether
thant heyknewt hatwewer enev ergoi ngtosepar ate.
Hewasmymai nman, myhi ghschool sweet heart.I
neverev erimagi neddat i
ngany oneel sebuthi m.
Peopl ewi ll
al way shat e, notev eryonewi ll
lov eyou.
Wewentt hroughal ot,peoplet alkingaboutusand
tryi
ngt odest r
oyus.Say i
ngt hingst hatcoul dbr inga
coupl edownbutwet rustedeachot herandnev erlet
peopl eruinwhatwehav e.Rumor sst artedspr eading
i
ngr ade11t hatIwaspr egnantandi twasn' tPhi l
a's
chil
d, itwashi sbestf riendschi ld.YesIhadgai ned
weightandIwasgl owingbutIwasn' tt oblame, my
Philasandegotmegood Wej ustdi dn'tli
stent oall
ther umor swhi chwoul d'
v ecausedunnecessar y
dramapl usi justl aughedcauseatt hatt i
mei was
stil
ljustav irginsoi fIwer etobepr egnantt hanI '
d
beGodsmot her ,Mar y.Iremembert heni ghthet ook
myi nnocencel i
kei twasj ustyest erday i twast he
mostmagi cal nightofmyl i
fe.Iwassoner vous, t
he
entiredayIwasj ustner vouselikeIj ustknewi t
woul dhappen.Phi l
aandIhadpr eviousl yspent
night stogetherandnot hinghappenedbutt hatday ,I
j
ustneededi ttohappen, Iwasr eadysowashe.We
wer eeachot her sf i
rsts,idon'tknowwhywehadn' t
hav edonei tbef orebutIguessi twasj usttheri
ght
ti
me.Wewer ebot hphy si
call
yandemot ional
lyr
eady.
Ilefthome, l
eavingf ortheweekendi toldmom I '
m
goingt oSneh' sf l
atsowecoul dstudyandIj ust
neededabr eakbuthonest l
yIwasgoi ngt oPhil
a'
s
fl
at Ihadshav edmyent i
rebody,Ireadont he
i
nt ernetthatIhadt obeshav edanddr inkcinnamil
k.I
didasi nstructed i packedthebestunder wearI
ownedandt hathehadnev erseenbeforesoIwoul d
l
ookgoodf orhim.Iwor eav erysexybutnott oo
revealingout fi
tandwentt ohisflat
.Ihadt hekeysso
Igott hereandhewasn' thomey et
.Icall
edhim and
hear ri
v edaf t
eranhour .
Phil
a:Sor
ryIwasn'
taround,
Iwentt
odr
opaf
ew
thi
ngsatschool
.Gotussomelunch
Me:
Thanky
ou
Wesatdownandwat chedamov i
ewhi l
eweat ethe
burger
shegotf orus.Theconversati
onwasr unni
ng
smoothlybutther
ewasabi tofawkwar dnesshere
andtherewhichmademyhear trace, Iwassurehe
couldhearmyheartbeat.Iwaslayingonhisbed
andhekeptpl ayingwithmyhai rwhil
ewej usttalked,
theconv ersati
onwasget t
ingsogoodandwet alked
aboutthingswe' venev ert al
kedaboutbefore.Ifeel
l
ikewegott oknoweachot hermorethatnight,not
onlydidourbodi esgett oknoweachot her.We
creat
edl it
tlescenariosandaskedquest i
ons, someI
wasaf raidtoaskhi m bef orebutIdi
dendupaski ng
him.Itwasget t
inglateandwemadesupperbut
noneofuswer ehungr y.Butwewer ehungr yfor
eachot her.Hest art
edki ssingmybackandont omy
neck.Theki ssesgoti ntenseandhekepton
squeezingmyboobs Il ookedintohiseyesandhe
tookoffmyj eansandt ankt op
Phi
l
a:Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Ismil
ed,myhear
twasracingasheembr
acedmy
bodyandki
ssedmepassionatel
y.
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ou.
.Ar
eyousur
eaboutt
his?
Me:
YesandIl
ovey
out
oo.
Hekissedmeagai nandputhishandi
nmyhotpot
andkeptrubbingmycli
tmakingmewetforhi
m.He
di
dmanyt hingstomybodywhi chmademelongf
or
hi
m ev
enmore hemademecum forhi
mri
ghti
n
hi
smouthwhi
chmebl
ushandIcov
eredmyf
ace.
Phi
l
a:Yout
ast
egood
Hestoodandwentt
ohi
sdr
awerandt
ookouta
condom
Phi
la:
SeeIdon'
twannauset
his,
butI
'
llusei
tify
ou
wantto.
Me:
Wedon'
tneedt
ousei
t.
Icouldn'tbeli
evet
hatIwastheoneactuall
ysay i
ng
thesewor dstohim,Iwasverycaut
iousandal ways
thoughtbef or
eImadeadecisionbutthatti
me, my
mindj ustfl
ushedandmywor dsthoughtforme.He
i
nsertedhi smanhoodinsi
deofmeandIscr eamed.
Phi
l
a:Icanst
opi
fyouwantt
o
Me:
Don'
tst
op
Heinser
teditagai
nandthrust
ergent
ly,
itwast
he
mostpainf
ulexper
ienceandIcri
ed
Phi
l
a:Am Ihur
ti
ngy
ou?
Me:
No,
itsj
ustpai
nful
ali
tt
le.
Ashecont i
nuedpenet r
ati
ngmei star
tedtof eelt
he
pl
easur e.I
twaspai nandpl easurewhichwasso
i
ncrediblyamazi ng.Ihadnowor dstodescri
bewhatI
wasfeel i
ng.Het ookmet oawor l
dthatI'
venev er
beenbef ore.Themoanst hatwer eescapi
ngmy
mouthwer ehardt okeepi n.Hispacewentf aster
andmymoanswer el ouder,If
eltmykneesweaken
andtrembl i
ng,Itwassl owlybuildi
ngup.
Phi
l
a:Wai
tforme
Iwaitedforhimti
l
lIcouldn'tanyl onger,luckil
ywe
bothcameatt hesamet ime.Itwast hemost
amazi ngfeel
i
ngever.Heki ssedmyf oreheadand
l
aidhisheadonmybr easts.Iclosedmyey esand
thoughtaboutwhathadj usthappened.Icoul dn'
t
stopsmi l
i
ng.Iwasgladt hatIhadgav emy sel
fto
him andhehadgav ehimsel ftome.
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyousor
e?
Me:
Justabi
t.
HekissedmyneckandbeforeIknewit,
hewas
penetr
ati
ngmeoncemor e.Wewentonandonall
ni
ghtlong.Thatni
ghtwasthebestni
ghtofmyl
i
fe
andIwi
l
lnev
erev
erf
orgeti
t.
Iwascaughtupi nmyownt houghtsthatthemovieI
waswat chinghadendedwi thoutmeev enseei
ng
howi tends.Ngcebocr i
edandIbreastf
edhim andI
walkedar oundthehousetryi
ngtogethimt ostop
cry
ing.Hewassweat ingsoItookofhisvestand
changedhi snappy.Ikeptonmov i
ngaroundthe
houseandPhi lacamei nwhileIwastry
ingtoget
hi
mt ost opcryi
ng
Phi
l
a:Hashebeencr
yingal
ott
oday
?
Me:
Nohej
ustwokeupandhehasn'
tst
opcr
ying.
Hetookoffhi
sti
eandfoldedhi
ssleevest
hent
ook
Ngcebo.Heimmedi
atel
ystoppedcryi
ngwhenhe
wasinPhil
a'
sarms
Phi
l
a:Iguesshej
ustmi
ssedme
Ihuf
fedandcl
ear
edupt
het
abl
e.
Me:
Howwasy
ourday
?
Phi
l
a:I
twasgr
eatandIset
tl
edal
lthedeal
s
Me:
That
'sgr
eat
Wetal
kedandtal
kedwhi
leIprepar
edabat
hforhi
m
andhewaschangi
ngKhanya'
snappy.
Phi
l
a:Iwant
edy
out
obat
hwi
thy
out
hough
Me:
Thebabi
esar
ewi
deawake,
may
bet
omor
row
Phi
l
a:Ngcobomi
ssesy
ou
Me:
Imi
sshi
mtoo
Hehadahugeer ect
ionandIl
aughedathim whil
ehe
wenttothebathroom.Iwaslayi
ngonthebedwi t
h
mybabies.Jnrcamebackwi ththenewbodyguards,
t
heyaren'tl
i
ket heoldonesbuthedoesgetalong
wi
ththem.
Jnr
:Mommy
,wher
eisdaddy
?
Me:
Sti
l
lbat
hing.Enj
oyedcr
èche?
Jnr
:No,Thembel
i
hlewasn'
tther
e.AndIal
sodon'
t
wantt
ogot omor
row
Me:
Why
?
Jnr:Becauseshewasn'tt
her
etodayandl
eftme
alonesoitspaybackt
ime!Hesai
dashejumpedand
rantohisroom.
Hehasgr ownsosomucht hatIfearhewi l
lbetaller
thanmei fhekeepsongr owi ngthismuch.Hel ooks
mor elikehisf athereachdayanddoest hingshi s
way .Hei sver yenergeti
candi salwaysrunni ng
aroundt hehouse.Ial way stell
himt ostopbuthe
j
ustnev erstops.Philajoinedusaf terhisbathandi t
wasj ustaf ami l
yaf t
ernoon.Jnrwaspl ayingwithhi s
sibl
ingshands, hesay shewant stobef itandst r
ong
l
ikedadsohecanbeabl etocar r
yhisli
ttlesibl
ings.
Hisey eswer eabi tr
edt oday ,t
hey'vebeent r
oubling
him orheneedsnewgl assesnow.Heeasi l
yadapt ed
towear i
nggl assesandhel ookswei rdwi t
hout
them
Ir
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om Nceba,
Ihav
en'
thear
dfr
om her
i
nawhile.
Me:
Heyst
ranger
Nceba:
HeyWi
fey
,you'
ret
hest
ranger .
Me:
How'
sschool
?
Nceba:Youmakeitsoundl
i
keI'
m st
il
linhi
ghschool
,
youshouldbeaski
ngmehow'svar
sit
y?Welli
t'
s
great
Me:
AndThapel
o?
Nceba: We'
reokay ,
justf
riends.Thi
ngsdidn'twork
outli
kewepl anned.We'vebeenv erybusyand
occupiedwithotherthi
ngsandot herpeoplesowe
j
ustsplit
.Butwest il
ldotalkli
keeveryday
.Andt hat
's
notthereasonwhyIcal l
edy ou.
Me:
whydi
dyoucal
lmekeNcebakazi
Nceba:
Ineedmoneyandmommydoesn'
twantt
o
gi
veme.
Me:
AskBabal
wa
Nceba:
Iaskedheraboutt
woweeksago
Me:Andwhatdi
dyoudowi
tht
hemoneyshegav
e
you?
Nceba:
Iusedit
,formyper
sonal
needs.Ij
ustneed
maybeafewthousandr
ands
Me:
Heh!Wher
edoIwor
k?Idon'
thav
emoney
Nceba:Youhaveabil
li
onair
eofahusband, Iknow
youearnasalar
yever
ymont hevenwheny oujusta
stayathomemom plusyougetamont hl
yal l
owance
fr
om hubbyandhebuysy ouever
ythi
ngyouneedso
Ir
eall
ydon'tt
hinkyouuseanyofthemoneyyouear
n
sogivi
ngyourli
tt
lesi
stermoneywon'
thavemuch
ef
fectonyourbankbalance.
Me:Li
stentoyour
sel
f FineI'
ll
seewhatIcando.
Whatwill
youdowitht
hismoney?
Nceba:St
uff
,dosendmyregar
dst
omybabiesther
e.
Tel
lBhutPhi
latocal
lmewehavealott
odi
scuss
Itol
dPhil
aandhel aughedandsai
dhewi l
lcal
lher
l
ater.WesaidourgoodbyesandItr
ansf
eredR5000
toheraccount
.Shesentapleasecal
l"Thankyou"I
j
ustsentthi
sgirl
somuchmoneybutshecan' teven
call
tosaythanks
Me:
Whatdoy
ouhav
etodi
scusswi
thNceba?
Phi
l
a:St
uff
Me:
What
'swi
tht
his"
Stuf
f"t
hingv
ele?
Phi
la:
Youdon'tneedtoknow nowexcuseme, I
hav
eav er
yimportantcal
ltomake.Hesai
dandhi
t
mewithapil
l
ow
#LBUBT
Pl
easel
i
keshar
eandcomment
Suggestt
ofr
iendsandf
ri
endsoff
ri
ends
#Let
sGr
ow
[
1/11,
00:
44]Tat
enda:
Inser
t82
#Phi
l
a
Ihavebeenpl anni ngt hi
sf orawhi l
enow, Ihav e
askedNcebat ohel pme, atfir
stIdidn'tt
rustmy
decisionofaski nghert ohel pbutshewast heonl y
oneIknewwoul dbeabl etokeept hissecretfora
l
ongerper iodoft ime, anyofSi ya'
sfri
endsor
Babalwawoul d'vebeencaughtbynowort heywoul d
havesl ippedandt oldSiyawhatmypl answer e.I
don'tlikelyingtoSi yabutIhadt o,yester
dayIt ol
d
herthemeet i
ngwoul dlastthewhol edayy etitonly
j
ustt ookme2hour s.Ihadmanyt hingstot akecare
of,j
ustl iketodayIhav ealsosai dIhav ebackt oback
meet ingst oattendt o.Ihat eleavi
ngherwi ththe
babiesbuthermot herwillbecomi ngov ertodayso
shewon' tbeal onepl usthehel persaretherewhi ch
givesmeenought i
met ofinali
zethingsandIhope
allmyl ieswi l
lbewor thitatt heend.Thi shasnot
beenaneasyt askt ounder gomost l
ybecauseI'm
mal eandIhadnoi deawher etost artbutNcebahas
beengr eathelpbutshedi dn'toff
erherser v
icesfor
free.Not hi
ngi sformahal a Ihadt obuyheranew
phoneandt akehershoppi ng.I'
m onmywayt othe
venue, whatIhav epl annedshal ltakeplace
tomor row.Ihav et ofinali
zeev eryt
hingtoday.WhenI
gott hereev ery
thingwasper fectandwhatt hedecor
peopl ehav edonei sbey ondwhatwor dswould
descr i
be.Somel adycamet omeandweshook
hands
Lady:
YoumustbeMrNgcobo.Ncebat
oldmey
ou
wil
lbecomi
ngtoday
,Iam Mr
sKhan
Me:YesIam MrNgcobo,
pleasedt
omeetyouMr s
Khan.Yourwor
kist
hemostbeauti
ful
workthatI
haveseen.
Mr sK:WedoourbestandIam veryhappywhenmy
cli
entsloveourwor
k.Myteam hasbeenwor ki
ng
reall
yhardandwehavegoteveryt
hingthaty
ou
want ed
Me:
Thanky
ouv
erymuch.
MrsK:Ihav
edr
aft
edt
hepay
ingst
atementandher
e
i
tis.
Isi
gnedachequeandgav
eitt
oherr
ightaway
.
MrsK:Iwasaboutt
otel
lyouthatwedoal
low
i
nstal
lmentpay
mentsbutIguesswedonotneedt
o
di
scussthat
.
Me:Im amanwhoknowshowt oset
tl
ehisbil
l
s
Thankyouver
ymuchIshal
lseeyoutomorr
ow
Mr
sK:
Thanky
ouandIhopet
hatal
lgoeswel
l
IleftandtextedNcebasay ingthatshehasdone
wellandIlovedthet eam shehi r
edbecauset hey
havedoneamazi ngwor k.Iwentt omeetwiththe
guys,Ihaven'
tseent hem inawhi l
eandIhavet o
i
nformt hem ofmypl anbecauseIal waysneedt hem
bymysi de.Wewer emeet ingatLubah'shouse,I
metupwi t
hThaboout si
de, Ihaven'
tseenhimi na
verylongti
mesi ncehehasbeenwor ki
ngoutoft he
country.
Thabo:
Myman,
longt
imehey
.
Me:
You'
vebecomeast
ranger
.
Wef
istbumpedandgoti
nsi
det
hehouse
Danny
:Thaboi
sher
e!!
!
Theyallcamerunni
ngandthr
ewt hemselvesonus.
Itwasli
kewewer ehav
ingarugbymat chonthe
kit
chenfloor
.Wecanbeabunchoft eens
someti
mes
Bonga:
Okayl
et'
sbeci
vi
li
zedci
ti
zens
Wewentt
ositbythel
oungeandwatchedasoccer
mat
chwhil
eeati
ngskopanddri
nki
ngbeer.
Me:
SoIgotsomethi
ngplannedf
ormywif
e
t
omorr
ow,Ineedyouguystobet
her
e.I
'
llt
exty
ou
t
hedet
ail
s.Wearbl
acksuit
s
Athi
:Wearewait
ingf
ory
out
otel
luswhati
sitt
hat
you'
vepl
anned.
Me:
Iam notgoi
ngt
otel
lyou.
Mpho:
We'
rebur
yingheral
i
ve.
Me:Youwoul
dhav
etobur
ymef
ir
st.Nev
erwoul
dI
al
l
owt hat
.
Ly
anda:Ineedtobur
yNt
okozo,
thatwomani
s
dr
ivi
ngmecr az
y
Nkosi
:Yougav
ehert
hekey
sman.Nowt
her
e'sno
wayback
Mpho:
Youshoul
djustj
oinusi
nthebachel
orswor
ld.
Wegotnost
ress
Nkosi
:Speakforyour
self
.I'
mv eryl
onel
y,Ineedto
getasmallapar
tmentorgettenant'
ssoIwon'tstay
bymyself
.Thathouseistoobigformetostayalone.
Lubah:Youjustneedagir
lf
ri
end.Idon'
tgetwhy
you'
resingl
eNkosi,mostwomant hr
owt hemsel
ves
atyou.
Nkosi:Idon'
twantanyoft hosewoman.Ijustwanta
good,humbl ewomant hatwil
lbewithmef ort
he
restofmyl i
fe.I
m agrownmanwi t
hgreat
responsi
bil
it
iesaheadofme, Ineedagoodwoman
tobewi t
hme.
Jabu:Iheary
ouman.AndIunderst
andwhaty
ou
sayi
ngcauseIalsoneedagoodwomanbymyside.
It
stimeImov edon
Me:
Youmenhav
esomuchpr
obl
ems.
Athi
:Yetwear
esupposedt
obeenj
oyi
ngoursi
ngl
e
l
iv
es.
Bonga:
Let '
sst
opt
alki
ngaboutourdepr
essi
ng
si
nglel
ives.
Wel aughedandcont i
nuedwat chi
ngthegamewhi le
havi
ngagr eatconversati
on.Ibidthem f
arewel
land
l
efttogoseemyt ai
lor.Hehadat uxedowelldone
formeandIwasi mpressed,Ncebawi l
lbefet
chingit
tomorrow.It henwenthomeandf oundSiyasit
ti
ng
bythegar denwi t
hourbabi es
Me:
Myhear
t
Si
ya:
You'
rebackear
ly howar
eyou?
Me:IcamehomebecauseImi
ssy
ou I
'
m good
andyour
sel
f?
Si
ya:
I'
m wel
l
Me:
Hadanypr
obl
emst
oday
?
Si
ya:
No, j
usttheusual
.Khany
acryi
ngnonst
op,
she
j
ustf
ell
asleepafewmi nut
esago
Me:
I'
m sor
ryIwasn'
ther
e.
Si
ya:I
t'
sokay
,Iunderst
andt
hatyouhavetoworkmy
l
ovesowecanhav eandmaint
ainourl
i
fest
yle.
Iki
ssedhercheekandl
ookedather
Si
ya:
What
?
Me:
Not
hingj
ustt
hinki
ng.
Si
ya:
About
?
Me:
Whatar
eyourpl
ansf
ort
omor
row?
Siy
a: Ihav
enopl
ans,
mypl
ansar
ebaby
sit
ingour
babies.
Me:
oh
Si
ya:
Whyar
eyouaski
ngmet
hat
?
Me:
Not
hingj
ustaski
ng,
wantLemonade?
Si
ya:
Yespl
ease.
Ilef
ther,
Idon'tknowhowwi l
lIevengethert
oget
outofthehouse.Thatist
hemosti mport
antpar
tof
theplanyetIf
orgotabouti
t.Thi
sisstr
essful
.
#SI
YA
Phil
ahasbeenact i
ngr eal
lystr
angel atel
yandI
haven'tevenbot heredtoaskhi m whybecausei f
there'
ssomet hingwr ongwi thhim hewi l
ltel
lme.I
am alreadylookingaf t
erfi
v echil
drenIcan'tbe
nursingagr ownmant oo.Ifhehast roubles,hewi l
l
tal
k.Iwon' tbenaggi nghimt otal
kt ome.Myl egs
havebeensosor etodayIdon'twisht ostandand
walkar ound.Khany ahasbeencr yinglikeshealway s
does, Iusedthepr am torockherupanddown, Ijust
can'tstandupt odayI '
m sorrymybaby .
Phi
l
a:Youdon'
tl
ookl
i
key
ou'
reokay
.What
'swr
ong?
Heaskedashegav
ememyl
emonade
Me:Thankyou.Myf
eethur
tver
ymuchmay
bet
hey
'l
l
beswoll
en.
Phi
l
a:MayIgi
vey
ouaf
ootmassage?
Me:
Yespl
ease.
Phi
l
a:May
bey
ou'
repr
egnant
Ichockedonmyl emonadeandl
ookedathi
m wi
th
myey eswideopen.
Phi
l
a:(
laughs)What
?Itcoul
dbepossi
ble.
Me:No,Iam nothavinganymor
echi
ldren.Ican'
tbe
pr
egnant,Ihav
en'tshownanysy
mptoms.Pl usmy
cy
clei
snor mal,Iwasonmyperi
odslastweek.
Phi
la:
Thatwaslastweek.Sowhatshoesi
zedoy
ou
wearwhenyourfeetar
eswoll
en?
Me:
Samesi ze,
butIdon'tl
i
kewear
ingshoeswhen
myfeetar
eswollen.Il
i
keweari
ngsli
ppers.
Phi
l
a:Mmmh
Iwonderwhyheisaskingmeall
theseweir
d
quest
ions.Hemassagedmyfeetsoperf
ectl
ythatI
l
etoutaf ewmoans
Phi
l
a:You'
rewaki
ngMrNgcobo
Me:
Sor
ry(Il
aughed)butIj
ustcan'
thel
pmy
sel
f.
Phi
la:
Sinceourli
tt
leonesareasl eep,Jnrisnot
ar
ound,howaboutwegeti nsidet hehouse,letthem
sl
eeppeaceful
lywhil
ewecont inuewi t
ht hi
sf oot
massagecauseIfeell
ikeNgcobowi l
lalsoneeda
massage,It
hinkheisswell
ing.
Wel
aughedanddi
dashesai
d.Il
aidont
hebedand
het
ookofhi
ssui
t.
Phi
l
a:idon'
tthi
nkwe'
l
lbeneedi
ngcl
othesf
ort
his
massage.
Hetookoffmyclotheswhil
eslowlyki
ssi
ngme
passi
onat
ely,mybodywasr eact
ingtohi
slov
elyand
seduci
ngtouch.Hekissedmyneckandsqueezed
myboobs
Voi
ce:
Hel
l
o!!
!I'
m her
e!!
!!
Phi
l
a:Nceba!
Hequicklystoodupandwegotdressedand
pret
endedt obejustl
ayi
ngi
nbed.Sheopenedthe
doorwidelyandJnrcamerunni
nginthr
owing
hi
mselfont hebed
Jnr
:Fada,
Mommy
!
Phi
la:
Hellobi
gboy
!Hesmi
l
edandt
heyf
istbumped
andIhuggedhi
m
Me:Whatarey
oudoinghereNceba?Ar
en'
tyou
supposedt
obeatschool
Nceba:
Ist
hathowyougreety
oursi
ster
?Comegiv
e
meakiss shealsothr
ewhersel
fatmeandki
ssed
mycheek.
Nceba:
Brot
heri
nlaw!Heyy
ou,
youl
ookgr
umpy
.
Phi
la: Youcockbl
ockedme.I
fyouhadn'
tcamein
her
e, Iwouldbemakingl
ovewithmywife.Het
hrew
apil
lowatherf ace.
Nceba:Oopssor
ry,wear
eonourwayoutt
hough.
Wejustcametogreet
.
Me:
Youandwho?
Nceba:AndJnr
.Wehaveal
ott
odo.Shel
ookedat
Phi
laandhenodded.
Nceba:
Bye!
SheandJnrl eftandPhil
awasonhi sphone.Nceba
andPhilahav ealway
sbeenclosebutsomet hi
ng
tel
l
smet heyareacti
ngreal
lyst
rangeandhiding
thi
ngsfrom me.Theirbondisoff
ishthesedaysorI
am readi
ngt oomuchi nt
oit
.
Phil
a:Soooo,
whydon'
twef
ini
shupf
rom wher
ewe
l
eftoffMrsNgcobo
Me:Si
r,YesSi
r.Iwinkedathi
m andhest
art
ed
ki
ssi
ngmeaggr essi
vely
,goneist
hesweet
passi
onateki
ssing,hi
shungerformehasgrown.He
sl
idhishandintomyunderwearreachi
ngf
ormycl i
t
andrubbi
ngit.Imoanedbutthemoanwasf ol
lowed
byMasande'scry.
Me:
Phi
l
a,mov
eMasandei
scr
ying.
Hemov edandt hrewhi msel font hebedand
screamed.Icoul dn'thelpbutl aughathi m.Mr
Ngcobodownt herewassur eseeki ngtobenot iced.
Irant othenur seryandt ookmybabyboy .Wecan
nowdi fferentiatetheircries, ast heboy sgrowt hey
l
ookmor eandmor eal i
ke.Theyar esurel
yv er
y
i
dent i
cal .Khany alooksmor el ikemeandIam gl ad
thatoneoft hem t akesaf terme, Phil
a'
sgenesar e
strong,theboy sall l
ookl i
kehi m especi all
yJnr .
Khany adoeshav eherf ather '
sf eaturesbutshe
l
ooksl ikeme.Hergol dhairgr owssomuchi t
i
rritat
eshersomet i
mesandIal way scombi tback.
Onceshei sabi tolderi willcuti tbutPhilaisagai nst
that,hedoesn' tunder st
and.Iwi llnotcutitalloff,
Philastillref
uses.Isatont hebedandPhi l
atook
Khany a
Me:
Youmypr
incessdi
stur
bedDaddyf
rom maki
ng
anot
herbaby.Iguessyouwanttoremai
nbeingthe
onl
ydaughter Iwi l
lspoi
lyouandyouwil
lnever
getmarr
iedandleavemyhouse.
Me:
Ther
ewon'
tbeanot
herbabyPhi
l
a.
Phi
l
a:We'
l
llseeaboutt
hat
.Iwant11babi
esev
en15
i
sokay
.
Me:Youcr
azy.Si
nceyou'
vementi
onedahouse,I
wasthi
nki
ngaboutusget
ti
nganotherhouse.
Phi
l
a:Youdon'
tl
iket
hisoneany
mor
e?Wantt
osel
li
t?
Me: No,nott
hatIdon'
tli
keit
.Alothashappenedin
thi
shouseanditholdsalotofmemor i
es,
goodand
bad.That'
swhyi don'
twanttosel
li
t.Butt
hisisyour
housePhila,
IwantOURhouse.
Phi
la:Igetyou.Well
youshoul
dl ookforhousesand
wheny ougettheoneyouli
kejusttel
lme.I'
llspeak
toNkosiaboutthi
sone,he'
l
lknowwhatt odo.
Me:Wewi l
lbothlookf
orahouse,
wit
hlessglasses
andshor
terstai
rs.Wehavel
it
tl
eonesheresoit
shoul
daccommodat ethem.
Phi
l
a:What
every
ouwantmyl
ove.I
fyouwantmet
o
part
akeinhousehunt
ingtheni
wil
ldoso.My
chequebookwil
lbeready
.
Me:Phil
ay ouneverl
ist
enpr operly.ImeantOUR
housebythatImeanwear ebot hpayingfori
t,i
t
bel
ongstot hebothofus.Iwillalsocontr
ibut
e
moneyintobuyingit
.50/50
Phil
a:Youdon'tneedtopaytoo.Itookyououtoft
he
Shezigatespromisi
ngtotakecareofyouand
provi
deforyouandgi veyoual
lyouwantandneed.
SoIwillpayforthehouse.
Me: Youst i
l
laren'theari
ngme.Let '
sjustf or
get
aboutthis.Istoodandwentt ot hebathroom, Phil
a
real
lyneverlistenstounderstandandIlov ethathe
i
sabl etoprov i
def orusbuttherearethingsthatI
wouldalsol i
ket opayforcontribut
ein.Likebuying
ourhouseandhav ethebothofuspayf ori t
.He
walkedinandki ssedmycheek
Phi
l
a:Ar
eyouupset
?
Me:
Yes
Phil
a:I
m sorr
y.We'
llbot
hequal
lypayf
ort
hehouse
oncewefindasuit
ableonet
hatwebothl
i
ke.
Me:Thanky
ou.
Phil
a:Nowgiv
emeasmi l
eandki ss.Iki
ssedhi
m
andKhanyawhowasal r
eadyasleepagain.Phi
l
aput
herbacki
ntoherbedandcarr
iedme.
Phila: Sowher ewer ewe?Heaskedasher i
ppedof
myt hong, Ishouldstopwear i
nglaceythongs
becauset heytareeasily.Herubbedmycl i
tand
pinnedmet othewal landwemadel ove.I
twas
amazi ng .Af t
erwewer edonewet ookashower
toget herandwentt olayonthebedandIputmy
headonhi schest .
Phi
la:
Rememberwhenweusedtoskipschool
and
st
ayatmyfl
atsowecanmakelove.
Me: Iremember.Andthi
sonetimewher
eI
mi
ssedatestt
hatIdi
dn'
tevenknowof
.
Phil
a:Youdidn'
thavesexwit
hmef ort
hreemonths
aspunishment!Thatwasj
ustpur
etort
ure!Noone
shoulddothattoamanitsi
ll
egal
Me:Isur
viv
ed5y
ear
s,3mont
hsdi
dn'
thur
t.
Hekeptqui
etandIr
eal
i
zedIt
ouchedaner
ve.
And
openedol
dwounds.
Me:
I'
m sor
ry,
Ishoul
dn'
thav
ebr
oughtt
hatup.
Phil
a:Youdon'tneedt oapol ogize.Youdi
d
somet hi
ngthatIfai
ledt odo, I
mt heonlymanyou
knowy etI'
vefuckedar ound.Somet imesIdor
eal
ize
thatIdon'
tdeservey ou.IloveyouMaFuze
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Wekissedandhel
aughedatmewhenIsuckedhi
s
l
owerli
p.
Phi
la:Youwantmet
ofuckyou,causet
rustmeI
won'tbegent
le we'
ll
breakwall
s.
Me:Nothankyou! Sowhyi sNcebaher
e?I
wonderwhat
'sbri
ngi
ngherhere
Phi
l
a:I
'
m al
socl
uel
ess.May
beshej
ustmi
ssedy
ou.
Me:Ncebanev
ermissesmeunlesssheneeds
money.Ar
eyousur
ey oudon'
tknowwhy?
Phi
l
a:Nop!Let
'scheckont
hebabi
es.
Hequi
ckl
ywenttothenurser
yroom andIf
oll
owed
hi
m.Iwonderwhatar
etheyhidi
ngfr
om meorIam
j
ustovert
hinki
ngev
ery
thi
ng.May
beNcebadoes
r
eall
ymissme.

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#PHI
LA
ThedayIhav ebeeneager l
ywai ti
ngforhasf inally
come, Iam gladIhav ekeptt hissecretforav ery
l
ongt ime.Ithasbeenr eall
yhar dbutitwasal l wort
h
i
t.Siya' sfr
iendshavebeeni nformedbyNcebaabout
mypl anandshehadal readyplannedandar ranged
everyt hi
ngt heywouldneed.Iwokeupv eryear l
yand
orderedr osesandr osepet al
sandsmal lcardsf or
Siya.Iputoneont het ableandputt her osepet als
l
eadi ngt othenurseryandsof ort
h.Ihopeshel oves
myi deaandhopeev ery t
hinggoesaspl anned.I
wokeupv eryearl
ytodayandpr epar
edf ormul ami l
k
fort hebabi esandsomet hatSi yapumpedy esterday,
thisbr eastmi lkfreezerr eallyhelps.Iputthebabi es
ont hecarseatanddr oppedt hem offatSiya'smom
place, mymom wi ll bejoiningherinaf ewhour sso
theycanal sogetr eady .Todayi sallaboutmywi fe
andshedeser vesthebest .Idohav eonebi g
sur priseforSiya, t
hatNamhl adoesn' tknowof .IfI
hadt oldheritwoul dn'tbeasur pri
seany moreandI
knowbot hBabal waandNcebawi l
lalsolovethis
sur prise.Onlytheirmom knowsabouti tandIdo
hopeshewi llbeov erthemoon.Shedeser vesal lthe
happi ness.If eelli
keay oungt eenageragain,the
wayIam v eryner vousIam l it
erall
ysweat i
ng.Inj ust
af ewhour s,i
twi llalltakepl ace.

#SI
YA
Iwokeupf eeli
ngv eryhappyandf i
ll
edwithenergy,
al
l setandr eadyfortheday.Itur
nedandPhi l
a
wasn' ti
nbed, i
nsteadt hewasar oseandcardonhi s
si
deoft hebed.Itookt hecardanditread"Morning
Starshine,you'
reloveddearly
.Thanky ouforthe
preciousblessingsyouhav egavet ome.Thanky ou
forbei ngt hegr eatmot herthaty ouar et oour
chil
dren"Ismi ledandgotof fthebed, therewere
rosepet al
st hatl eadt othenur seryr oom.The
babieswer en'tt herebutt herewer etwor osesanda
notet hatr ead" Todayist hedayy our elax.The
babiesar esaf ewi t
hmeandJnr .Yourst omachi s
growling.Enj oyy ourbr eakfast "If ollowedt herose
petalsandont hewal ltherewasanot e" St
op
smili
ng"Icoul dn'thelpbutj ustl aughandt herewas
anothernot e"Il ovethewayy oul augh"Il aughed
againandgott ot hegar den.Thewasal ovely
breakfastsetont hetableandi twasal lmyf avori
tes.
Imunchedwhi let herewassof tinstrument almusi c
playi
ng.OnceIwasdone, oneoft hehel perscame
withanot et hatdemandedmet ogot akea
shower Idi dasIwast oldandwor eamaxi black
dresswi thsandl es.Ther ewasanot hernot eonmy
bed" Yourhai risamessandsoar ey ournai l
s"there
wasasal oncar doni twhi chsai dmyappoi nt
menti s
i
n15mi ns.Ihur ri
edandgott ot hegar age.It ookt he
carkey sofmyPor sche.Mydr ivercame
Me:
Don'
twor
ry,
I'
ll
bedr
ivi
ngmy
sel
ftoday
Dr
iver
:MrNgcobowi
l
lnotappr
eci
atet
hatmam,
pl
easeal
l
owmet odomyjob.
Me:
Igotper
missi
on.
Iwi nkedathi m anddr ov eof f,IknowPhi lawi llbe
madbuthe' llbest rong .Ihav en'tdr ovemy selffor
awhi leandI'
m enj oyingt hi s .Igott ot hesal on
andIdi dshortlengt hcur lyweav ewhi chreachedmy
shoul ders.Gotmynai lsdone, mani cur eand
pedi cureandIf el
tgoodandl ookedgood.Anot her
roseandnot ecame.I tr ead" Nowy oul ooklikea
Queen, butyourhai rylegsbel ongt oacav eman"I
l
aughedsohar dandev ery onewasl ookingatme.A
l
adycamet omeandl edmet oaspanextdoor ,andI
recei vedanothernot e.I tsaid"Waxt hatbushof f"
Real lyPhil
asande! ?Idi dn'tknowhecoul dbet his
romant i
candf unny Nev erhav eIev erexpect ed
this.Ikeptthenot esandr osesi nmybag.Igota
bodymassageaf t
erIhadgonet hrought hepai nofa
fullbodywax.Igr abbedabot tleofgr apet i
zerat
checker sanddr ov ebackhome.Igott omyr oom
andt herewasawhi t
eweddi nggown, itwasa
cinder el
ladresswi thboobt ubeanddi amondsand
sparkl
epat ter ns.Ther ewasanot hernot eoni t,i
t
read"Wi l
lyoumar rymeagai n?"Iscreamed, laughed
andcriedatt hesamet ime!Ij ustcoul dn'tbelieve
whatwashappeni ng.Iqui cklyputonabi tof fmake
upandwor et hedr ess, itfi
tper fectl
yandIl ookedso
beauti
ful i
ni t
.Icoul dn'
tbel ievemyey es.It ookt he
shoesandt her ewasanot ei nsideandi twasabi t
l
ongert hant heot her sitreadasf ol
l
ows" Iknow
thereareot herpeopl eoutt her ebutIdon' twant
anyoneel se,i wanty ou.Ev enwheny ou'resad, even
wheny oumakemi stakes,ev eni fwedon' tagreeat
ti
mes.Ist il
lwanty ou.Yout urnthet earsofmypast
i
ntocheer soft hef uture,andt hatmydeari sagi f
tof
thepresent ,Tomor ebeaut ifulmoment s.Mar ryme,
makemet hehappi estmanal i
ve.Pleasedoal low
thedrivertodr i
vey out histime, foryouwi llmeett he
l
ov eofy ourlife "i woret heshoesandr an
downst air
s
Dr
iver
:Readyt
ogomam?
Me:
Takemet
omyl
ove
Hel
aughedanddrov
eoff,
idi
dn'
tev
enaskmewher
e
weweregoi
ng.Al
lIwant
edwastobewi
th
Phi
l
asandeandsay"
Ido"agai
n.IgotthereandSneh
waswait
ingf
ormeattheentr
ance.Iwalkedtoher
Sneh:
Youl
ookamazi
ng
Me:Sodoy ou,whereisPhi
l
asande?Youknew
aboutt
his?Whendi dthi
sal
lhappen!
?Snenhl
anhl
a
wherei
sPhilasande?
Sneh:
Cal
m down,you'
ll
seey ourmansoon.Enough
wit
hthet
housandquesti
ons.Come.
Shehel
dmyhandandl
edmet
oar
oom wher
ether
e
wasBabal
waandNamhl
a.
Me:
Youguy
sar
eal
soher
e!Whati
sgoi
ngon?
Babal
wa:
Justsi
tdownandl
etust
akecar
eofy
ou
Shereappl i
edmymakeupandgav emeanot e"I
haveonel astsurpri
seforyou,wi
llseeyouin
10mins."Ther ewasaknockatt hedoorandI
opened.Awhi teelderl
yyethandsomemanwas
ther
ehol dingabunchofr oseswithanote.Hedidn't
speakandhandedov erthenote,Il
ookedathim and
helookedabi tli
keNamhl a.Ormay beIwasjust
seei
ngt hings.Thenot ereadasfoll
ows"Itsevery
daughtersdream tohavetheirfatherwal kthem
downt heaisleontheirweddingday "Tear sjust
fl
oweduncont r
oll
ablyasIcontinuedr eading"I
missedi tt
hef i
rstt
ime,butI'
l
l notletitpassagai n,
Onlyifyouallowme.MayIwal ky oudownt heai sl
e,
Deardaught er?
"Ilookedathim andheof feredhi s
hands.Inoddedandhehel dmecl oselyandki ssed
myf orehead.
Me:
Fat
her
NcebaandBabal
waal
socamet
othedoor
Babal
wa:
Fat
her
?
Fat
her
:Mydaught
ers
Healsohadt ear
sinhiseyesandwewer eal
lcryi
ng.
Snehsaidshewi l
lgi
veussomespace.Icouldn'
t
evenbeli
evethatri
ghti
nf r
ontofmestoodmyf ather
,
ihavenevermethim butthel
oveIhol
dforhimisso
str
ong.Idon'tev
enknowwhatt osayonlymytears
areexpr
essingmyf eel
ings
Fat
her:Babal
wa,Si
yamthanda,
Ncebakazi
.It
sgood
tof
inal
l
yseey ouagai
n.
Ncebakazi
:Isi
treal
l
yyou?
Fat
her
:Yesmypumpki
n,i
tisIi
nthef
lesh.
Babal
wa:
Idon'
tknowwhatt
osay
Father:
Wewi l
lal
lgettotal
kmor eafterthe
ceremony, f
ornowIhav etowalkthisyoungladyon
theaisl
eorPhi l
asandewill
loosehismi nd.Hehas
beenwai t
ingforyousinceearl
ythi
smor ni
ng.
Me:
YouknowPhi
l
asande?
Father:OfcauseIdomybaby .Il
oveyouall
my
daughtersandI'
m gladIgotachancetoseeyou
again.Now, Mayi?
Me:
Yesy
oumay
Nceba:
Wai
t,l
et'
sfi
xyourf
ace.Youl
ookhor
ri
ble
Weal l l
aughedandBabal wawor kedhermagi con
myf aceagai n.Theywentf i
rstandwef ol
lowed.We
gottot hisbeauti
fulgardenarea,itwassobeaut i
ful
andt herewasmyf ri
endsandf ami l
y .I
twasl i
kemy
weddi ngdayagai n.Phil
awaswear ingagr eytuxedo
andhi sfriendsandBrianwer ehisgr oomsmen, my
fr
iendsandsi st
erswerestandingt hereasmy
bri
desmaids.Il
ookedatmyf at
herandheti
ghtend
ourhands.West ar
tedwal
kingandIsawmymot her
cry
,itwasgetti
ngsoemotionalformeandItr
iedby
al
lmeanst oholdbackmytearstil
lwegott
oPhi l
a
Phi
l
a:Thanky
ouMrSant
oz
Hesmi l
edandnodded,
myfatherr
eall
ydoeslook
l
ikeNceba,sot
hat'
swhereNcebatakesal
lherli
ght
ski
nfrom
Me:
Bab'
Ngcobo
Phi
la:Mam'Ngcobo.Iknowy
ou'r
ewonderi
nghow
di
dt hi
sal
lhappenandwhendidIdoal
lthi
s?
Inoddedandev
ery
onel
aughed
Phila:Wel lI
'vebeenplanningthisforalmostamont h,
witht hehelpofNceba.Thi si
swhatwe' vebeen
hidingf r
om y ou.Iwantedust ohav easmal l
ceremonyf orust orenewourv owsbuty oudeserve
mor et hanjustasmal lceremony .That
'swhyI
arrangedt hisforus,awhol enewweddi ngf orusto
retellthewor l
dandev eryonebeforeust hatwestil
l
shar ethesameuncondi ti
onallovethatweshar ed
whenwemetatj ust13yearsold.Mostpeopl e
wonderhowwe' v ekeptt helov egoi ngonandonf or
somanyy ears,somepeopl et hinki t'
si mpossi blet o
believ et hattruel ovedoesst illexistbutwear ea
l
ivingt estimony .Tr uel oveex i
st swheny ouhav e
foundt her i
ghtone, theonewhoy ouf alli
nlov ewi th
andy ourhear thaschosen.Iwon' tlieandsayIknew
youwer etheonef ormet hedayImety ou.Iwasj ust
ay oungboy ,
wegr ewupt ogethert hroughoutour
highschool l
ife.I thasnev erbeeneasy ,i
thasn' t
beenal lrosey.Wehav ebeent hr oughal ot.Wewer e
separ atedf or5y ears, thosewer et hewor st,most
conf usi ngy ear sofmyl i
fe.Iwasl ostwi thouty ou, I
wasmov i
ngonbuty ouwer eal way sinmymi nds.I
keptwi shingthatonedayIwoul dmeety ouagai n
andi tdi dhappen, Lov eBr oughtUsBackToget her.
Fat ef av ouredus, wewer efacedwi thmany
chal l
engesal ongt heway .Ibet rayedy oubycheat i
ng
ony ou, wel ostour3babi es,Ialmostdi ed.Butev ery
situat i
onmadeusst ronger ,youwer ealway sbymy
side.Wewer et ol dy oucan' tev ercar rybabi esbut
thel or dhear dourcr iesandbl esseduswi t
hour
l
ov elybabi es.Wehav eourownf ami lyandy ouhav e
beent hebestwi feandmot hert hatany onecoul d
everaskf or.Yousetagoodexampl et ooursonJnr ,
andt hewayy oulov ehim andcar eforhimi s
undescr i
bable.Youruncondi ti
onall
ov eisthel ove
wegett ofeelandr eceiveev eryday.Neverhav eI
evermetany onelikey ou.MaFuze, Icouldgoonand
onthewhol edayabouty ou.Youamazemeal lthe
ti
me, somet imesIf eellikei don'tdeservey ou,that
youneedt obewi thsomeonewhocant r
eaty ou
betterthanIhav e,butdeepdownIknowIdon' twant
yout obewi thany oneel se.Iwakeupev erydayand
vowt olovey ouandmakey ouhappyal lthetime,
thatIbecomet heonef ory ou, t
hatIt r
eatyouwi thall
theloveandcar eandt onev erhurty oubecause
you'remyhear tSi
y amthandaandIl ovey ouv eryv er
y
much.
Li
steningtohim sayal lt
hesewordsleftme
speechless,
Icouldn'tevenstopcryi
ng.Hehel
dme
cl
oselyandkeptki ssingmyf or
ehead.
Phi
l
a:Don'
tcr
ypl
ease
Me: I
'
mj ustsohappyandover
whelmed.Fatherof
mybabies,theonethatownsmyheart.Youknow
I
'm notgoodwithwordsandcanneverexpl
ainhowI
feel.Iam t rulyhonor edandbl essedt ohav e
someonel i
key oui nmyl if
e,tol ov eandsomeonet o
holdmyhandwhenev erIfall.Youhav eshownme
thattruel ovedoesst illexi
st.Yeswe' vebeen
throughal ot ,
Ial mostl osty ouandIwast oaccept
thatIwoul dhav eal i
f ewi t
houty ou, thatwoul dbe
thewor stl i
fe.Iwoul dn'thav ebeenabl et ogo
throughi tal one, youar emypi l
larofst r
engt h.The
oneIt ur nt of orhel pandt heoneIt rust.Youhav e
beenagr eatf at hertoourchi ldren, Iknowt hey'l
ll
ook
upt oy ouandoursonswi l
lgr owupandwannabe
l
ikey ouast heyl ooksomuchl ikey ou.Iseey ouin
Jnreachandev erydayandhowhef ollowsy our
teachingf rom suchanear lyst age.Fort hatIl ove
andappr eciatey ou.Igr ewupwi thoutmyf ather,I
didn'tknowhi m andhav enev erev enseenhi m.I
l
ongedf orhi m ev ery
daybutt odayIst andpr oudt hat
hewal kedmedownt heaisleandmygr eatestwi sh
wascamet rueandt hat 'sallbecauseofy ou.Idon' t
knowwhaty oudi dandhowy ougothi m her ebut
Thanky ou.Il ovey ousomuchandt hanky ouf or
whaty ouhav edonet oday,Idi dn'tev ent hinkt hat
you'ddot his.Ithadnev ercrossedmymi ndt hatone
dayy ou'ddosuch, you'
reamazi ngandy ouamaze
meev eryday ,you'r
eunpr edictableandaki nd,lovi
ng
andcar i
ngman.Whaty oudof orme, ourfami l
yand
otherpeopl ewi l
lneverbef orgot t
en.Youdon' tlet
yourst atusbl indyouandmakey ouruleov er
everythingandmakey ouar r
ogant .You'r
ehumbl e
andki nd, respectfulandbel i
ev einhardwor k.Iknow
myki dswi llgrowandknowt hatnothingcomesj ust
forfree,y ouhav et owor kforit.MrNgcobo, iam
honor edt obeMr sNgcoboandIdot akey ouasmy
husbandagai n.There'sneverat i
mewher eIhav e
regrettedbei ngy ourMr sNgcoboandIwoul ddoi t
say" Ido"ov erandov erandov eragainbecauseIdo,
Idol ovey ou.
Heki
ssedmeandholdmet i
ght
ly,
spi
nni
ngme
ar
oundandIl
aughedoutl
oud.
Me:
You'
regoi
ngt
omakemef
all
Phila:I
'm goingtocatchyouwheny oufal
l
.I'
ll
be
yourlegswheny oucan'twal
k,I'
l
lbeyourarmswhen
youcan'tr eachandI'
llbeyourshoul
derwheny ou
cry.I'
l
lstandbyy oursideatal
lti
mesbecauseIl ov
e
you.
IdidsomethingthatIneverthoughtI'
ddo.Ilove
singi
ngbutthelasttimeIsangi nfrontofsomany
peoplewasi nhi
ghschool .Thewordshesai d
remindedmeofCel ineDi
on_Becausey oulovedme.
Itookthemicandhewasconf usedaboutwhatI
wasdoi ng.
"Forall
thoseti
mest hatyoustoodbyme, f
orallthe
trut
hthatyoumademesee.Foral lthej
oyt hatyou
broughttomylife.Forallthewrongsthatyoumade
ri
ght.Forever
ydr eam thatyoumadecomet r
ue.For
allt
heloveIfoundi nyou.I'l
lbefor
everthankful
baby"
Isangtil
lIgotver
yemot i
onalandcr
ied.Hecameto
holdmeandev eryonecheer
edandscr eamed.Whi
le
myf r
iendswerethrowi
ngrosepetal
sonus.Af t
er
thatmusicplay
edandhet ookmyhand
Phi
l
a:MayIhav
ethi
sdance?
Me:
Yes,
Pri
nceChar
ming
Phi
l
a:Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul,
ver
ybeaut
if
ul
Me:
Thanky
ou,
whopi
ckedt
hedr
ess?
Phi
l
a:Idi
d,Ncebapi
ckedy
ourshoes.
Me:Thankyouv
erymuch Idon'
tknowi
fIcoul
d
ev
erthanky
ouenough.
Phil
a:Youdon'
tneedt
othankme,
youdeser
veal
l
thebest.
WedancedasIlaidonhischestandsawmyf ather
tal
kingwi
thmysister
s.Ncebawassocl i
ngyonhim
alr
eadyIl
aughedalit
tl
e,shei
shislastdaught
er
Phi
l
a:Goj
oint
hem.I
'
llbewi
tht
hebabi
es
Me:Ihav
en'
tseenmybabi
es,
I'
ll
got
ohi
m
af
ter
wards.
Wewentt
oar
oom wher
etheywer
ewi
thPhi
l
a's
mom
Mom:
Youl
ookbeaut
if
ulmydaught
er
Me: Thanky oumom.ButIdoneedhel pwiththis
now, Ineedtobreast
feedmyl i
tt
leones.I
'
m sure
theyaretir
edofformulamilk.Phi
lahel
pedmet ake
unti
ghtenmydr essfrom t
hebacksoIcoul dbreast
feedeasily
.
Mom:Beingamother Imi
sshav
ingl
i
ttl
eones
t
hatdependonme.
Phi
l
a:Wedodependony ou,
wel
lsomet
imesand
we'
rest
il
lyourl
i
ttl
eones
Mom:Mxm Ihar
dlyev
enseey
ouall
,Iseey
ouonce
amont
horevenonceint
womonths.
Phi
l
a:Don'
ttel
lmey
ou'
ret
hinki
ngofhav
ingababy
Mom:
May
beIam
Phi
l
a:I
'
llpr
etendasi
fIdi
dn'
theary
ou.
Iwasbreastf
eedingbabieswho'sst
omachswer e
ful
lbecausetheydi
dn'tevenshowinter
estbesi
des
Masande.
Ifi
xedmydr essandmom hel pedme.Iwentbackt o
therecepti
onandwentt omyf amil
y.Mom wasso
happyy oucouldseebythesmi l
eonherface.Her
eyeswer eglowingandyoucouldseetheloveshe
hasformyf atherisbey
ondmeasur es.
Me:
Mydearf
ami
l
y
Babal
wa:
Hey
!Yousangr
eal
l
ywel
l
Fat
her
:Takesaf
tert
hisol
dmanher
e.
Me:
Ohr
eal
l
ynow
Hi
saccentwasv
erychar
mingandf
asci
nat
ing.
Mom:
He'
sri
ght
,hei
sagoodsi
nger
.
Nceba:
We'l
lgett
ohearthatsoon.Iwantt
ospend
t
hewholedaywit
hyoutomor r
ow.
Hel
ookededgyandl
ookeddown
Nceba:
DidIsaysomet
hingwr
ong?
Mom:
Nomydaught
er.
Fat
her
:No,I
'mver
ysorrymydaughter
s.Iknowy
ou
hav
ejustmetmebutIhavet
oleavetoni
ght.
Me:
Butt
hat
'ssosoon
Ncebacr
ied,Iwouldsayshe'
sbeingacrybabyi
fit
wasanyothersi
tuati
on.Ial
sowantedtocry.
Babal
waisn'
tthetypethatj
ustcr
ies.
Father
:Beingherewastaki
ngav er
yhugeriskbuti
t
waswor t
ht aki
ngbecauseIknewIwouldseeyouall
.
EvenifIj
ustdieonmywayback, I'
ddi
einpeace
becauseIhav egott
oseeyouall
.
Mom:
Don'
tspeakl
i
ket
hatZwel
akhe!
Father:Whenl astdi dIhearyoucallmynamel ike
that.You'r
et heonl yonthatevercall
smeZwel akhe.
Mydaught ersIlov eyousomuchandIpr omi seIwill
comeback.Ther earejustsomethingsIneedt of i
x
andt henI'
llcomebackt oy ou.Watchi
ngy ouall
growwi thoutmewasj ustt
hewor st.I
tpainedmy
heartwhenIsawy oucrybecauseIwishedt owi pe
ofyourtear sfory ou.
Babal
wa:
Whatdoy
oumean,
wheny
ousawuscr
y?
Fat
her:Yourmotherdi
dtel
l y
ouwhyIleftbutIjust
wouldn'
tal
lowbeingcompletel
youtofyourl
ives.I
watchoveryouandIseeyouralmostyourevery
mov e
Me:
Uhm ev
erymov
e?
Father
:Yourmothertol
dmet ostopdoingi
tbutI
j
ustcouldn'
tsoIreduceditabitbecauseshesaid
younowhav epri
vateli
ves.Iwantedtocomekill
yourfi
rstboy
fri
endBabalwa,Sakhil
ewasabust ard.
Babal
wa:Youknowabouthi
m!OhgodI
'
m so
embarr
assed
Father
:Idi
dsayIwatchedyourever
ymov e.Get
ti
ng
aboy f
ri
endat13wasn'tagooddeci
sions,t
oboth
you.
Il
ookeddownandl
aughed
Father: Nceba,remembert hatguyt hatbuliedyou
andt ooky ourlunchmoney .Isentoneofmypeopl e
totakecar eofhi m, t
hat'swhyhebr oughtbackal l
themoneyhet ookf r
om y ou.Babal wa, youwer e
alway slateforschool andbunckedcl asses.Whydo
yout hinkyourpr i
ncipalwasony ourcaseonl yand
woul dgol ookfory ouper sonallyandt akey outo
class.Bunkingwasn' tgoingt ogety ouany where.
Bobo, whatt hehellwer ey outhinking.ThatI '
dhavea
daught erthat'
saweedaddi ct?Ally oursell
ersdidn'
t
wantt osel l
fory ouany mor ebecauseIt oldthem.
Me:
Ohsoy
ouknowaboutt
hatt
oo.
Il
ookedatmom andshewasshockedbecauseshe
di
dn'
tknowaboutmesmokingweed.
Me:Hey,
don'tl
ookatmel
i
ket
hat
.Iusedt
osmoke
wi
thhertoo
Ipoi
ntedatBabal
wa,
wel
aughedandmom smacked
ourhands
Babal
wa:
Yousni
tch
Me:Iai
n'
tget
ti
ngi
ntot
roubl
eal
one.Pl
ust
hatwas
l
ongagomommy
Mom:
Buty
oust
il
lneedt
obepuni
shed
Wealll
aughedandt
alkedmor
e,Phi
l
ajoi
nedusand
t
heyshookhandswi
thdad.
Father
:Iknowyou'
vebeentaki
nggoodcar
eofmy
daughter
,keepdoi
ngthat
.Itr
usty
ouandIknow
she'si
ngoodhands.
Phil
a:iwi
l
lconti
nuedoi
ngthatsi
r,andy
oudon'
t
needtoworr
y.Sheisi
ngoodhands.Theyal
lar
e
Nceba:
Hedoest
akegoodcar
eofher
,andme
t
heyalldo.
Fat
her:That
'
sgood,you'
remyl
astandyouneedt
o
betakencar
eof.Babal
wawhenareyouget
ti
ng
marri
ed?
Babalwa:Didsomeonecall
myname?Ohy esZandy,
I
'm coming.Sherushedof
ftoZandyandwelaughed
ather
.
Phi
l
a:Woul
dyoul
i
ket
oseey
ourgr
andchi
l
dren?
Father:
Iwouldl
oveto.Jnrissuchagoodboyand
doesaskt oomanyquesti
ons.I'
m exci
tedt
omeet
theothers.
Wewentt othem andtheywereasleepbuthepi
cked
them upanyways.Ngcebocri
edandhesanghera
songsoftl
yandhef el
lasl
eepagain.Motherwas
ri
ght,
hedoessingv er
ybeauti
ful
ly.
Itwasabeaut if
ul dayandi thadt ocomet oanend.
Wegoti nt
odifferentcarsandf i
rstdroveof ft
o
wher emyf at
her shelicopterawai t
edhi m.Itwassad
sayinggoodby et ohim buthepr omisedt ocontact
usandcomebacksoon, mymot herwasal soleaving
withhim andwoul dcomebacki namont h.Having
him heretodaywasr eall
yspeci alformeandi ti
sa
dayt hatIwil
lnev ereverf orget.Allthankst omy
l
ov i
nghusband, Phil
asande .WegothomeandI
tookof fmydressandputwi ththedr essesIwor eon
myweddi ngday ,Ikeepthem t hereandl ookatthem
whenev erIwantt o.Inev erwantt osellthem or
maket hem forhire.TheybelongtomeandIwi ll
keepthem.Phi l
aandIbat hedthebabieswhi
leJnr
bathedhimself,heinsisted.Hewasjustmakinga
messbutIl ethim be i f
edthem oncemoreand
putthem toosleep.Phi l
aputJnrtosleepandread
him abedtimest ory.
Phi
l
a:MaNgcobo
Hecal
l
edmeashecl
osedt
hedoor
.
Me:
Baba
Phi
l
a:Sondel
akuBaba(
Comecl
ose)
Il
aughedal
it
tl
eandwentt
ohi
m.Hehel
dmywai
st
andki
ssedme
Phi
la:
Today,Iwi
ll
breaky ourknees.Youwon'
tbe
abl
etowalkonceI'
mf i
nishedwithy ou
Me:
Ohr
eal
l
y?
Phi
l
a:Yesr
eal
l
y
Hespankedmybuttandwinkedatmeheadingto
thebathr
oom.Hecamebackandr i
ppedmynight
dressoff
,bendi
ngmeasIheldontotheedgeoft
he
bed.Withinafewsecondshewasi nsideofme
alr
eady,hewasbiganditfeltsogood.Wi t
hev ery
thr
usthemadesur eithi
talltheri
ghtplaces.Iknow
noothermanandIdonotwi shto.Mymansat isf
ies
meandhasmebeggi ngformor e.Hewasn' tgent
le
atall
tonight
,hereal
lywantstobreakmyknees.I
moanedandmoanedoutl oudscreaminghi sname.
Phi
l
a:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo!
Hav i
ngsomeonewhoy oulov edear l
yandr ecei v
ing
allt
hatlov ebacki sthebestf eelingi nt hewor l
d.
There'
snogr eaterfeelingthant hef eelingofbei ng
i
nlove.Life,alway shasawayofy ougoi ngt hrough
hardshi
psbutt hatonl ytestst hest rengt hoft hel ove
youholdf oroneanot her.Ther ewi l
lbechal lenges,
theroadi snotal way srosey.Youwi llmeetpeopl e,
whowi l
l breaky ourhear tandt akeadv ant ageof fyou
butthatdoesn' tmeany oushoul dgi veuponl ov e.
Giveuponsuchagr eatfeeling.Hav epat ience, your
soulmatei soutt here.Youj ustneedt obeopent o
l
ov eandy ouwi llfi
ndoneot her .Wehadl osteach
otherbutlov ehadanot herplanf orus.Lov eBr ought
UsBackToget
her

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